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THE PUPIL
BY HENRY JAMES
BY HENRY JAMES
LE ROY PHILLIPS
BOSTON
LE ROY PHILLIPS
BOSTON
This edition first published 1916
First published in 1916
The text follows that of the
Definitive Edition
The text follows that of the
Definitive Edition
Printed in Great Britain
Printed in the UK
CHAPTER I
The poor young man hesitated and procrastinated: it cost him such an effort to broach the subject of terms, to speak of money to a person who spoke only of feelings and, as it were, of the aristocracy. Yet he was unwilling to take leave, treating his engagement as settled, without some more conventional glance in that direction than he could find an opening for in the manner of the large affable lady who sat there drawing a pair of soiled gants de Suède through a fat jewelled hand and, at once pressing and gliding, repeated over and over everything but the thing he would have liked to hear. He would have liked to hear the figure of his salary; but just as he was nervously about to sound that note the little boy came back—the little boy Mrs. Moreen had sent out of the room to fetch her fan. He came back without the fan, only with the casual observation that he couldn’t find it. As he dropped this cynical confession he looked straight and hard at the candidate for the honour of taking his education in hand. This personage reflected somewhat grimly that the thing he should have to teach his little charge would be to appear to address himself to his mother when he spoke to her—especially not to make her such an improper answer as that.
The poor young man hesitated and put off the conversation: it took him so much effort to bring up the topic of terms, to talk about money with someone who only spoke about feelings and, in a way, about high society. Yet he didn’t want to leave, treating his engagement as settled, without a more standard nod in that direction than he could find an opportunity for in the manner of the large friendly lady sitting there, pulling a pair of dirty suede gloves through a fat jeweled hand and, both pushing and sliding, repeating everything except what he really wanted to hear. He wanted to know the amount of his salary; but just as he was nervously about to bring that up, the little boy returned—the little boy Mrs. Moreen had sent out to get her fan. He came back without the fan, casually noting that he couldn’t find it. As he dropped this cynical confession, he looked straight and hard at the person being considered for the honor of taking charge of his education. This individual grimly reflected that one thing he would have to teach his little charge would be to appear to address his mother when he spoke to her—especially not to give her such an inappropriate response as that.
When Mrs. Moreen bethought herself of this pretext for getting rid of their companion Pemberton supposed it was precisely to approach the delicate subject of his remuneration. But it had been only to say some things about her son that it was better a boy of eleven shouldn’t catch. They were extravagantly to his advantage save when she lowered her voice to sigh, tapping her left side familiarly, “And all overclouded by this, you know; all at the mercy of a weakness—!” Pemberton gathered that the weakness was in the region of the heart. He had known the poor child was not robust: this was the basis on which he had been invited to treat, through an English lady, an Oxford acquaintance, then at Nice, who happened to know both his needs and those of the amiable American family looking out for something really superior in the way of a resident tutor.
When Mrs. Moreen thought of this excuse to get rid of their companion, Pemberton assumed it was to talk about the sensitive issue of his payment. But really, she just wanted to say a few things about her son that it would be best for an eleven-year-old not to hear. The comments were overly flattering, except when she lowered her voice to sigh and tapped her left side in a familiar way, saying, “And all clouded by this, you know; all at the mercy of a weakness—!” Pemberton understood that the weakness was related to the heart. He had known the poor child wasn’t strong: this was the reason he had been invited to help through an English lady, an Oxford acquaintance who was then in Nice and knew both his needs and those of the friendly American family looking for something truly exceptional in a resident tutor.
The young man’s impression of his prospective pupil, who had come into the room as if to see for himself the moment Pemberton was admitted, was not quite the soft solicitation the visitor had taken for granted. Morgan Moreen was somehow sickly without being “delicate,” and that he looked intelligent—it is true Pemberton wouldn’t have enjoyed his being stupid—only added to the suggestion that, as with his big mouth and big ears he really couldn’t be called pretty, he might too utterly fail to please. Pemberton was modest, was even timid; and the chance that his small scholar might prove cleverer than himself had quite figured, to his anxiety, among the dangers of an untried experiment. He reflected, however, that these were risks one had to run when one accepted a position, as it was called, in a private family; when as yet one’s university honours had, pecuniarily speaking, remained barren. At any rate when Mrs. Moreen got up as to intimate that, since it was understood he would enter upon his duties within the week she would let him off now, he succeeded, in spite of the presence of the child, in squeezing out a phrase about the rate of payment. It was not the fault of the conscious smile which seemed a reference to the lady’s expensive identity, it was not the fault of this demonstration, which had, in a sort, both vagueness and point, if the allusion didn’t sound rather vulgar. This was exactly because she became still more gracious to reply: “Oh I can assure you that all that will be quite regular.”
The young man's view of his potential student, who had entered the room as if to confirm the moment Pemberton arrived, wasn't quite the soft invitation the visitor had expected. Morgan Moreen seemed somehow unwell without being “delicate,” and while he looked smart—it’s true Pemberton wouldn’t have liked him to be dull—it only added to the impression that, with his large mouth and big ears, he couldn’t exactly be called attractive, and might completely fail to impress. Pemberton was humble, even shy, and the possibility that his young pupil might turn out to be smarter than he was added to his worries about this untested situation. He thought, however, that these were risks one had to take when accepting a job in a private household, especially since his university achievements had, financially speaking, remained unfruitful. In any case, when Mrs. Moreen stood up to suggest that since it was understood he would start his duties within the week, she would let him go now, he managed, despite the presence of the child, to squeeze in a question about the pay rate. It wasn’t the fault of the knowing smile that seemed to reference the lady’s wealthy status, and though this gesture had both vagueness and significance, it risked sounding somewhat crude. This was precisely why she became even more gracious in her reply: “Oh, I can assure you that everything will be quite regular.”
Pemberton only wondered, while he took up his hat, what “all that” was to amount to—people had such different ideas. Mrs. Moreen’s words, however, seemed to commit the family to a pledge definite enough to elicit from the child a strange little comment in the shape of the mocking foreign ejaculation “Oh la-la!”
Pemberton just wondered, as he picked up his hat, what “all that” would lead to—people had such different opinions. Mrs. Moreen’s words, though, seemed to bind the family to a promise clear enough to provoke a strange little reaction from the child in the form of a mocking foreign exclamation “Oh la-la!”
Pemberton, in some confusion, glanced at him as he walked slowly to the window with his back turned, his hands in his pockets and the air in his elderly shoulders of a boy who didn’t play. The young man wondered if he should be able to teach him to play, though his mother had said it would never do and that this was why school was impossible. Mrs. Moreen exhibited no discomfiture; she only continued blandly: “Mr. Moreen will be delighted to meet your wishes. As I told you, he has been called to London for a week. As soon as he comes back you shall have it out with him.”
Pemberton, feeling a bit confused, looked at him as he slowly walked to the window with his back turned, hands in his pockets, and the posture of an old man who never learned how to play. The young man wondered if he could teach him how to play, even though his mother had insisted that it wouldn’t work and that’s why school was a lost cause. Mrs. Moreen showed no signs of discomfort; she simply continued calmly, “Mr. Moreen will be happy to accommodate your wishes. As I mentioned, he’s been called to London for a week. As soon as he returns, you can discuss it with him.”
This was so frank and friendly that the young man could only reply, laughing as his hostess laughed: “Oh I don’t imagine we shall have much of a battle.”
This was so open and friendly that the young man could only respond, laughing along with his hostess: “Oh, I don’t think we’ll have much of a fight.”
“They’ll give you anything you like,” the boy remarked unexpectedly, returning from the window. “We don’t mind what anything costs—we live awfully well.”
“They’ll give you whatever you want,” the boy said out of the blue, coming back from the window. “We don’t care what anything costs—we live really well.”
“My darling, you’re too quaint!” his mother exclaimed, putting out to caress him a practised but ineffectual hand. He slipped out of it, but looked with intelligent innocent eyes at Pemberton, who had already had time to notice that from one moment to the other his small satiric face seemed to change its time of life. At this moment it was infantine, yet it appeared also to be under the influence of curious intuitions and knowledges. Pemberton rather disliked precocity and was disappointed to find gleams of it in a disciple not yet in his teens. Nevertheless he divined on the spot that Morgan wouldn’t prove a bore. He would prove on the contrary a source of agitation. This idea held the young man, in spite of a certain repulsion.
“My darling, you’re so charming!” his mother exclaimed, reaching out with a practiced but ineffective hand to touch him. He slipped away from it but looked at Pemberton with bright, innocent eyes. Pemberton had already noticed that, from one moment to the next, the boy's small satirical face seemed to shift in age. At that moment it looked youthful, yet it also seemed to carry hints of unusual insights and knowledge. Pemberton didn’t really like precociousness and felt let down to see signs of it in a kid who wasn’t even a teenager yet. Still, he sensed right away that Morgan wouldn’t be boring. On the contrary, he would be a source of excitement. This thought intrigued the young man, despite a feeling of resistance.
“You pompous little person! We’re not extravagant!” Mrs. Moreen gaily protested, making another unsuccessful attempt to draw the boy to her side. “You must know what to expect,” she went on to Pemberton.
“You arrogant little person! We’re not extravagant!” Mrs. Moreen cheerfully protested, making another unsuccessful attempt to pull the boy to her side. “You need to know what to expect,” she continued to Pemberton.
“The less you expect the better!” her companion interposed. “But we are people of fashion.”
“The less you expect, the better!” her companion chimed in. “But we are fashionable people.”
“Only so far as you make us so!” Mrs. Moreen tenderly mocked. “Well then, on Friday—don’t tell me you’re superstitious—and mind you don’t fail us. Then you’ll see us all. I’m so sorry the girls are out. I guess you’ll like the girls. And, you know, I’ve another son, quite different from this one.”
“Only as much as you make us!” Mrs. Moreen playfully teased. “Well then, on Friday—don’t tell me you’re superstitious—and make sure you don’t let us down. Then you’ll see all of us. I’m sorry the girls aren’t here. I think you’ll really like them. And, you know, I have another son, who is completely different from this one.”
“He tries to imitate me,” Morgan said to their friend.
“He's trying to copy me,” Morgan said to their friend.
“He tries? Why he’s twenty years old!” cried Mrs. Moreen.
“He's trying? Why, he's twenty years old!” cried Mrs. Moreen.
“You’re very witty,” Pemberton remarked to the child—a proposition his mother echoed with enthusiasm, declaring Morgan’s sallies to be the delight of the house.
“You're really witty,” Pemberton said to the kid—a point his mom enthusiastically agreed with, stating that Morgan’s quips were the highlight of the house.
The boy paid no heed to this; he only enquired abruptly of the visitor, who was surprised afterwards that he hadn’t struck him as offensively forward: “Do you want very much to come?”
The boy ignored this; he just abruptly asked the visitor, who was surprised later that he hadn't seemed too forward: “Do you want to come really badly?”
“Can you doubt it after such a description of what I shall hear?” Pemberton replied. Yet he didn’t want to come at all; he was coming because he had to go somewhere, thanks to the collapse of his fortune at the end of a year abroad spent on the system of putting his scant patrimony into a single full wave of experience. He had had his full wave but couldn’t pay the score at his inn. Moreover he had caught in the boy’s eyes the glimpse of a far-off appeal.
“Can you really question it after that description of what I’m about to hear?” Pemberton replied. Yet he didn’t want to go at all; he was going because he had to be somewhere, due to the downfall of his fortune after a year abroad spent fully experiencing what little inheritance he had. He had experienced everything but couldn’t settle the bill at his inn. Additionally, he had caught a glimpse of a distant appeal in the boy’s eyes.
“Well, I’ll do the best I can for you,” said Morgan; with which he turned away again. He passed out of one of the long windows; Pemberton saw him go and lean on the parapet of the terrace. He remained there while the young man took leave of his mother, who, on Pemberton’s looking as if he expected a farewell from him, interposed with: “Leave him, leave him; he’s so strange!” Pemberton supposed her to fear something he might say. “He’s a genius—you’ll love him,” she added. “He’s much the most interesting person in the family.” And before he could invent some civility to oppose to this she wound up with: “But we’re all good, you know!”
“Well, I’ll do the best I can for you,” Morgan said, then turned away again. He went out through one of the long windows; Pemberton saw him lean on the terrace railing. He stayed there while the young man said goodbye to his mother, who, noticing Pemberton seemed to expect a farewell from him, interrupted with, “Leave him, leave him; he’s so odd!” Pemberton thought she might be worried about something he would say. “He’s a genius—you’ll love him,” she added. “He’s definitely the most interesting person in the family.” And before he could come up with a polite response to that, she wrapped it up with, “But we’re all good, you know!”
“He’s a genius—you’ll love him!” were words that recurred to our aspirant before the Friday, suggesting among many things that geniuses were not invariably loveable. However, it was all the better if there was an element that would make tutorship absorbing: he had perhaps taken too much for granted it would only disgust him. As he left the villa after his interview he looked up at the balcony and saw the child leaning over it. “We shall have great larks!” he called up.
“He's a genius—you'll love him!” were words that kept coming back to our hopeful before Friday, hinting at the idea that geniuses aren't always lovable. Still, it would be even better if there was something that made teaching interesting: he might have assumed too quickly that it would only turn him off. As he left the villa after his interview, he looked up at the balcony and saw the child leaning over it. “We're going to have a blast!” he called up.
Morgan hung fire a moment and then gaily returned: “By the time you come back I shall have thought of something witty!”
Morgan paused for a moment and then cheerfully replied, “By the time you get back, I’ll have come up with something clever!”
This made Pemberton say to himself “After all he’s rather nice.”
This made Pemberton think to himself, “After all, he’s pretty nice.”
CHAPTER II
On the Friday he saw them all, as Mrs. Moreen had promised, for her husband had come back and the girls and the other son were at home. Mr. Moreen had a white moustache, a confiding manner and, in his buttonhole, the ribbon of a foreign order—bestowed, as Pemberton eventually learned, for services. For what services he never clearly ascertained: this was a point—one of a large number—that Mr. Moreen’s manner never confided. What it emphatically did confide was that he was even more a man of the world than you might first make out. Ulick, the firstborn, was in visible training for the same profession—under the disadvantage as yet, however, of a buttonhole but feebly floral and a moustache with no pretensions to type. The girls had hair and figures and manners and small fat feet, but had never been out alone. As for Mrs. Moreen Pemberton saw on a nearer view that her elegance was intermittent and her parts didn’t always match. Her husband, as she had promised, met with enthusiasm Pemberton’s ideas in regard to a salary. The young man had endeavoured to keep these stammerings modest, and Mr. Moreen made it no secret that he found them wanting in “style.” He further mentioned that he aspired to be intimate with his children, to be their best friend, and that he was always looking out for them. That was what he went off for, to London and other places—to look out; and this vigilance was the theory of life, as well as the real occupation, of the whole family. They all looked out, for they were very frank on the subject of its being necessary. They desired it to be understood that they were earnest people, and also that their fortune, though quite adequate for earnest people, required the most careful administration. Mr. Moreen, as the parent bird, sought sustenance for the nest. Ulick invoked support mainly at the club, where Pemberton guessed that it was usually served on green cloth. The girls used to do up their hair and their frocks themselves, and our young man felt appealed to to be glad, in regard to Morgan’s education, that, though it must naturally be of the best, it didn’t cost too much. After a little he was glad, forgetting at times his own needs in the interest inspired by the child’s character and culture and the pleasure of making easy terms for him.
On the Friday he met them all, just as Mrs. Moreen had promised, since her husband had returned and the girls and their other son were home. Mr. Moreen had a white mustache, a friendly demeanor, and he wore a ribbon of a foreign honor in his buttonhole—bestowed, as Pemberton eventually discovered, for some kind of service. He never found out exactly what those services were: this was one of many things Mr. Moreen’s demeanor didn’t reveal. What was clear was that he was even more worldly than one might initially think. Ulick, the eldest, was visibly preparing for the same career—though he was at a disadvantage with a rather unimpressive floral buttonhole and a mustache that lacked character. The girls had nice hair, figures, manners, and small plump feet, but had never gone out alone. As for Mrs. Moreen, Pemberton noticed up close that her elegance was inconsistent and her features didn’t always align. Her husband, as she had promised, enthusiastically supported Pemberton’s ideas about salary. The young man had tried to keep his requests humble, but Mr. Moreen made it clear that he found them lacking in “style.” He also mentioned that he hoped to be close to his children, to be their best friend, and that he was always looking out for them. That was his reason for going off to London and other places—to keep a lookout; and this vigilance was not only the family’s life philosophy but also their main occupation. They all kept watch, and they were very open about how important this was. They wanted it understood that they were serious people and that their fortune, while quite sufficient for serious folk, required meticulous management. Mr. Moreen, as the family provider, sought sustenance for their home. Ulick mostly sought support at the club, where Pemberton guessed it was typically served on green cloth. The girls styled their hair and made their own dresses, and our young man felt a sense of relief regarding Morgan’s education, glad that while it had to be top-notch, it didn’t break the bank. Before long, he was genuinely glad, occasionally forgetting his own needs in the interest sparked by the child's character and education, and the satisfaction of arranging things easily for him.
During the first weeks of their acquaintance Morgan had been as puzzling as a page in an unknown language—altogether different from the obvious little Anglo-Saxons who had misrepresented childhood to Pemberton. Indeed the whole mystic volume in which the boy had been amateurishly bound demanded some practice in translation. To-day, after a considerable interval, there is something phantasmagoria, like a prismatic reflexion or a serial novel, in Pemberton’s memory of the queerness of the Moreens. If it were not for a few tangible tokens—a lock of Morgan’s hair cut by his own hand, and the half-dozen letters received from him when they were disjoined—the whole episode and the figures peopling it would seem too inconsequent for anything but dreamland. Their supreme quaintness was their success—as it appeared to him for a while at the time; since he had never seen a family so brilliantly equipped for failure. Wasn’t it success to have kept him so hatefully long? Wasn’t it success to have drawn him in that first morning at déjeuner, the Friday he came—it was enough to make one superstitious—so that he utterly committed himself, and this not by calculation or on a signal, but from a happy instinct which made them, like a band of gipsies, work so neatly together? They amused him as much as if they had really been a band of gipsies. He was still young and had not seen much of the world—his English years had been properly arid; therefore the reversed conventions of the Moreens—for they had their desperate proprieties—struck him as topsy-turvy. He had encountered nothing like them at Oxford; still less had any such note been struck to his younger American ear during the four years at Yale in which he had richly supposed himself to be reacting against a Puritan strain. The reaction of the Moreens, at any rate, went ever so much further. He had thought himself very sharp that first day in hitting them all off in his mind with the “cosmopolite” label. Later it seemed feeble and colourless—confessedly helplessly provisional.
During the first few weeks of getting to know Morgan, he had been as puzzling as a page in a foreign language—completely different from the typical little Anglo-Saxons who had misrepresented childhood to Pemberton. In fact, the whole mysterious story that the boy had been clumsily woven into required some effort to understand. Now, after a significant amount of time, there’s something surreal, like a dazzling reflection or a serialized novel, in Pemberton’s memories of the oddness of the Moreens. If it weren't for a few tangible reminders—a lock of Morgan’s hair cut by his own hand, and the half-dozen letters he received when they were apart—the entire experience and the people involved would seem too absurd to be anything but a dream. Their ultimate peculiarity was their apparent success—at least it seemed that way to him for a time; since he had never encountered a family so perfectly suited for failure. Wasn't it a success to have kept him around for so annoyingly long? Wasn't it a success that he was drawn in that first morning at breakfast, on the Friday he arrived—it was enough to make one superstitious—so that he completely committed himself, not by any plan or signal, but because of a happy instinct that made them, like a group of gypsies, work so well together? They entertained him just as if they really were a band of gypsies. He was still young and hadn't seen much of the world—his years in England had been quite dull; so the upside-down conventions of the Moreens—for they had their own serious norms—struck him as completely backwards. He hadn’t encountered anything like them at Oxford; much less had any of that vibe reached his younger American ear during the four years at Yale, where he thought he was strongly reacting against a Puritan background. The Moreens' reaction, however, went much deeper. He had felt pretty clever that first day, labeling them all in his mind as “cosmopolites.” Later, that label felt weak and flat—clearly ineffective and temporary.
He yet when he first applied it felt a glow of joy—for an instructor he was still empirical—rise from the apprehension that living with them would really be to see life. Their sociable strangeness was an intimation of that—their chatter of tongues, their gaiety and good humour, their infinite dawdling (they were always getting themselves up, but it took forever, and Pemberton had once found Mr. Moreen shaving in the drawing-room), their French, their Italian and, cropping up in the foreign fluencies, their cold tough slices of American. They lived on macaroni and coffee—they had these articles prepared in perfection—but they knew recipes for a hundred other dishes. They overflowed with music and song, were always humming and catching each other up, and had a sort of professional acquaintance with Continental cities. They talked of “good places” as if they had been pickpockets or strolling players. They had at Nice a villa, a carriage, a piano and a banjo, and they went to official parties. They were a perfect calendar of the “days” of their friends, which Pemberton knew them, when they were indisposed, to get out of bed to go to, and which made the week larger than life when Mrs. Moreen talked of them with Paula and Amy. Their initiations gave their new inmate at first an almost dazzling sense of culture. Mrs. Moreen had translated something at some former period—an author whom it made Pemberton feel borné never to have heard of. They could imitate Venetian and sing Neapolitan, and when they wanted to say something very particular communicated with each other in an ingenious dialect of their own, an elastic spoken cipher which Pemberton at first took for some patois of one of their countries, but which he “caught on to” as he would not have grasped provincial development of Spanish or German.
He still felt a rush of joy when he first got involved—for as an instructor, he was still hands-on—out of the realization that living with them would truly mean experiencing life. Their odd sociability hinted at that—their mix of languages, their cheerfulness and good humor, their endless lounging around (they were always getting ready, but it took forever, and Pemberton once found Mr. Moreen shaving in the living room), their French, their Italian, and, occasionally popping up in their foreign chatter, their blunt American expressions. They lived on macaroni and coffee—perfectly prepared—but they knew recipes for a hundred other dishes. They were full of music and song, always humming and picking up tunes together, and they had a sort of professional knowledge of European cities. They talked about “good places” as if they’d been thieves or performers. They had a villa in Nice, a carriage, a piano, and a banjo, and they attended official parties. They were like a perfect calendar of their friends’ “days,” which Pemberton knew they would get out of bed for when unwell, making the week feel more vibrant when Mrs. Moreen discussed them with Paula and Amy. Their introductions gave their new roommate an almost stunning sense of culture at first. Mrs. Moreen had translated something in the past—an author Pemberton felt embarrassed never to have heard of. They could mimic Venetian and sing Neapolitan, and when they wanted to communicate something very specific, they used an inventive dialect of their own, a flexible spoken code which Pemberton initially mistook for some local dialect from their countries, but which he gradually understood, unlike how he would comprehend a regional version of Spanish or German.
“It’s the family language—Ultramoreen,” Morgan explained to him drolly enough; but the boy rarely condescended to use it himself, though he dealt in colloquial Latin as if he had been a little prelate.
“It’s the family language—Ultramoreen,” Morgan explained to him with a smirk; but the boy hardly ever bothered to use it himself, even though he spoke casual Latin like he was some little bishop.
Among all the “days” with which Mrs. Moreen’s memory was taxed she managed to squeeze in one of her own, which her friends sometimes forgot. But the house drew a frequented air from the number of fine people who were freely named there and from several mysterious men with foreign titles and English clothes whom Morgan called the princes and who, on sofas with the girls, talked French very loud—though sometimes with some oddity of accent—as if to show they were saying nothing improper. Pemberton wondered how the princes could ever propose in that tone and so publicly: he took for granted cynically that this was what was desired of them. Then he recognised that even for the chance of such an advantage Mrs. Moreen would never allow Paula and Amy to receive alone. These young ladies were not at all timid, but it was just the safeguards that made them so candidly free. It was a houseful of Bohemians who wanted tremendously to be Philistines.
Among all the “days” that Mrs. Moreen had to remember, she managed to fit in one of her own, which her friends sometimes overlooked. But the house had a lively atmosphere from the number of fine people regularly mentioned there and from several mysterious men with foreign titles and English suits whom Morgan referred to as the princes. These princes, lounging on sofas with the girls, spoke French quite loudly—though sometimes with a strange accent—as if to emphasize they weren't saying anything inappropriate. Pemberton wondered how the princes could ever propose in that manner and so openly; he cynically assumed that was what was expected of them. Then he realized that even for the chance of such an opportunity, Mrs. Moreen would never allow Paula and Amy to meet alone. These young ladies weren’t shy at all, but it was the boundaries that made them so openly free. It was a house full of Bohemians who desperately wanted to be Philistines.
In one respect, however, certainly they achieved no rigour—they were wonderfully amiable and ecstatic about Morgan. It was a genuine tenderness, an artless admiration, equally strong in each. They even praised his beauty, which was small, and were as afraid of him as if they felt him of finer clay. They spoke of him as a little angel and a prodigy—they touched on his want of health with long vague faces. Pemberton feared at first an extravagance that might make him hate the boy, but before this happened he had become extravagant himself. Later, when he had grown rather to hate the others, it was a bribe to patience for him that they were at any rate nice about Morgan, going on tiptoe if they fancied he was showing symptoms, and even giving up somebody’s “day” to procure him a pleasure. Mixed with this too was the oddest wish to make him independent, as if they had felt themselves not good enough for him. They passed him over to the new members of their circle very much as if wishing to force some charity of adoption on so free an agent and get rid of their own charge. They were delighted when they saw Morgan take so to his kind playfellow, and could think of no higher praise for the young man. It was strange how they contrived to reconcile the appearance, and indeed the essential fact, of adoring the child with their eagerness to wash their hands of him. Did they want to get rid of him before he should find them out? Pemberton was finding them out month by month. The boy’s fond family, however this might be, turned their backs with exaggerated delicacy, as if to avoid the reproach of interfering. Seeing in time how little he had in common with them—it was by them he first observed it; they proclaimed it with complete humility—his companion was moved to speculate on the mysteries of transmission, the far jumps of heredity. Where his detachment from most of the things they represented had come from was more than an observer could say—it certainly had burrowed under two or three generations.
In one way, though, they definitely didn’t show any seriousness—they were incredibly friendly and excited about Morgan. It was a true kindness, a sincere admiration, equally strong in both of them. They even complimented his looks, which were minor, and seemed as intimidated by him as if they recognized him as something special. They referred to him as a little angel and a great talent—they brought up his health struggles with long, vague expressions. Pemberton initially worried their enthusiasm might turn him against the boy, but before that could happen, he found himself becoming just as exuberant. Later, when he had begun to resent the others, it was a source of patience for him that they at least treated Morgan nicely, tiptoeing around him if they thought he was showing any signs of trouble, and even giving up someone’s "day" to give him some enjoyment. Along with this, there was a strange desire to make him independent, as if they felt they weren’t good enough for him. They handed him off to the new members of their group almost as if they were trying to force some act of kindness on such a free spirit and get rid of their own responsibility. They were thrilled to see Morgan bond so well with his new playmate and could think of no higher compliment for the young man. It was odd how they managed to balance their apparent, and indeed genuine, adoration for the boy with their eagerness to distance themselves from him. Did they want to lose him before he discovered their true selves? Pemberton had been uncovering their true nature month by month. The boy’s loving family, no matter how it appeared, turned away with exaggerated care, as if to avoid the shame of interfering. As he noticed in time how little he actually shared with them—it was through them that he first recognized it; they openly admitted it with total humility—his companion began to contemplate the mysteries of inheritance, the vast leaps of genetics. Where his separation from most of what they stood for had originated was more than an observer could determine—it definitely stemmed from two or three generations back.
As for Pemberton’s own estimate of his pupil, it was a good while before he got the point of view, so little had he been prepared for it by the smug young barbarians to whom the tradition of tutorship, as hitherto revealed to him, had been adjusted. Morgan was scrappy and surprising, deficient in many properties supposed common to the genus and abounding in others that were the portion only of the supernaturally clever. One day his friend made a great stride: it cleared up the question to perceive that Morgan was supernaturally clever and that, though the formula was temporarily meagre, this would be the only assumption on which one could successfully deal with him. He had the general quality of a child for whom life had not been simplified by school, a kind of homebred sensibility which might have been as bad for himself but was charming for others, and a whole range of refinement and perception—little musical vibrations as taking as picked-up airs—begotten by wandering about Europe at the tail of his migratory tribe. This might not have been an education to recommend in advance, but its results with so special a subject were as appreciable as the marks on a piece of fine porcelain. There was at the same time in him a small strain of stoicism, doubtless the fruit of having had to begin early to bear pain, which counted for pluck and made it of less consequence that he might have been thought at school rather a polyglot little beast. Pemberton indeed quickly found himself rejoicing that school was out of the question: in any million of boys it was probably good for all but one, and Morgan was that millionth. It would have made him comparative and superior—it might have made him really require kicking. Pemberton would try to be school himself—a bigger seminary than five hundred grazing donkeys, so that, winning no prizes, the boy would remain unconscious and irresponsible and amusing—amusing, because, though life was already intense in his childish nature, freshness still made there a strong draught for jokes. It turned out that even in the still air of Morgan’s various disabilities jokes flourished greatly. He was a pale lean acute undeveloped little cosmopolite, who liked intellectual gymnastics and who also, as regards the behaviour of mankind, had noticed more things than you might suppose, but who nevertheless had his proper playroom of superstitions, where he smashed a dozen toys a day.
As for Pemberton’s opinion of his student, it took him quite a while to grasp the perspective, as he had been so unprepared for it by the self-satisfied young people who had shaped his understanding of mentorship. Morgan was scrappy and unpredictable, lacking many traits typically found in people like him, yet overflowing with qualities that were the hallmark of the exceptionally bright. One day, his friend made significant progress: it became clear that Morgan *was* exceptionally bright and, although the initial explanation was sparse, this was the only way to effectively engage with him. He had the general demeanor of a child whose life hadn’t been simplified by school—a sort of innate sensitivity that might have been detrimental to him, but was delightful for others. He possessed a wide range of refinement and perception—little musical nuances as catchy as popular tunes—shaped by wandering around Europe with his roaming family. Although this form of education might not sound appealing at first, its effects on such a unique individual were as noticeable as the designs on fine china. There was also a hint of stoicism in him, likely the result of having to start coping with pain at an early age, which contributed to his bravery and made it less significant that he might have seemed rather odd at school. Pemberton quickly realized he was glad that school was off the table: in any group of boys, it was likely beneficial for all but one, and Morgan was that exceptional one. School would have made him more typical and potentially insufferable. Pemberton aimed to be a school himself—an even bigger institution than five hundred grazing donkeys, so that, without winning any awards, the boy would stay blissfully unaware, carefree, and entertaining—entertaining because, even though life was already vivid in his youthful spirit, there was still a strong thirst for humor. It turned out that even amidst Morgan’s various challenges, jokes thrived abundantly. He was a pale, thin, sharp-minded, underdeveloped little cosmopolitan who enjoyed intellectual challenges and, in terms of human behavior, had noticed more than one might think, yet he still had his own playground of superstitions where he broke a dozen toys each day.
CHAPTER III
At Nice once, toward evening, as the pair rested in the open air after a walk, and looked over the sea at the pink western lights, he said suddenly to his comrade: “Do you like it, you know—being with us all in this intimate way?”
At Nice one evening, as the two sat outside after a walk and gazed at the pink light over the sea, he suddenly asked his friend, “Do you enjoy being with all of us like this?”
“My dear fellow, why should I stay if I didn’t?”
“My dear friend, why should I stick around if I didn’t want to?”
“How do I know you’ll stay? I’m almost sure you won’t, very long.”
“How can I be sure you’ll stick around? I’m pretty convinced you won’t for too long.”
“I hope you don’t mean to dismiss me,” said Pemberton.
“I hope you don’t intend to brush me off,” said Pemberton.
Morgan debated, looking at the sunset. “I think if I did right I ought to.”
Morgan pondered while watching the sunset. "I feel like if I did the right thing, I should."
“Well, I know I’m supposed to instruct you in virtue; but in that case don’t do right.”
“Well, I know I’m supposed to teach you about virtue; but if that's the case, then don’t do the right thing.”
“’You’re very young—fortunately,” Morgan went on, turning to him again.
“’You’re really young—thankfully,” Morgan continued, turning back to him.
“Oh yes, compared with you!”
“Oh yes, compared to you!”
“Therefore it won’t matter so much if you do lose a lot of time.”
"So it won't really matter if you end up wasting a lot of time."
“That’s the way to look at it,” said Pemberton accommodatingly.
"That's how you should see it," Pemberton replied kindly.
They were silent a minute; after which the boy asked: “Do you like my father and my mother very much?”
They were quiet for a minute, then the boy asked, “Do you really like my dad and mom a lot?”
“Dear me, yes. They’re charming people.”
“Wow, yes. They’re really charming people.”
Morgan received this with another silence; then unexpectedly, familiarly, but at the same time affectionately, he remarked: “You’re a jolly old humbug!”
Morgan took this in silence again; then, unexpectedly, in a familiar yet affectionate way, he said, “You’re such a silly old phony!”
For a particular reason the words made our young man change colour. The boy noticed in an instant that he had turned red, whereupon he turned red himself and pupil and master exchanged a longish glance in which there was a consciousness of many more things than are usually touched upon, even tacitly, in such a relation. It produced for Pemberton an embarrassment; it raised in a shadowy form a question—this was the first glimpse of it—destined to play a singular and, as he imagined, owing to the altogether peculiar conditions, an unprecedented part in his intercourse with his little companion. Later, when he found himself talking with the youngster in a way in which few youngsters could ever have been talked with, he thought of that clumsy moment on the bench at Nice as the dawn of an understanding that had broadened. What had added to the clumsiness then was that he thought it his duty to declare to Morgan that he might abuse him, Pemberton, as much as he liked, but must never abuse his parents. To this Morgan had the easy retort that he hadn’t dreamed of abusing them; which appeared to be true: it put Pemberton in the wrong.
For a specific reason, the words caused the young man to change color. The boy quickly noticed that he had turned red, and immediately became red himself. Pupil and teacher exchanged a long glance, filled with an awareness of many more things than are typically addressed, even indirectly, in such a relationship. This moment created embarrassment for Pemberton; it raised a vague question—this was the first hint of it—that was destined to play a unique and, as he thought, due to the unusual circumstances, an unprecedented role in his interactions with his young companion. Later, when he found himself talking to the boy in a way few kids could ever be talked to, he regarded that awkward moment on the bench in Nice as the beginning of a deepening understanding. What added to the awkwardness then was that he felt compelled to inform Morgan that he could insult Pemberton as much as he wanted, but must never disrespect his parents. To this, Morgan easily replied that he hadn’t even thought about disrespecting them; which seemed to be true: it put Pemberton in the wrong.
“Then why am I a humbug for saying I think them charming?” the young man asked, conscious of a certain rashness.
“Then why am I a fraud for saying I think they’re charming?” the young man asked, aware of a bit of recklessness.
“Well—they’re not your parents.”
"Well—they're not your folks."
“They love you better than anything in the world—never forget that,” said Pemberton.
“They love you more than anything else in the world—don't forget that,” Pemberton said.
“Is that why you like them so much?”
“Is that why you like them so much?”
“They’re very kind to me,” Pemberton replied evasively.
“They're really nice to me,” Pemberton replied vaguely.
“You are a humbug!” laughed Morgan, passing an arm into his tutor’s. He leaned against him looking oft at the sea again and swinging his long thin legs.
“You are such a fake!” laughed Morgan, linking his arm with his tutor's. He leaned against him, glancing out at the sea again and swinging his long, thin legs.
“Don’t kick my shins,” said Pemberton while he reflected “Hang it, I can’t complain of them to the child!”
“Don’t kick my shins,” said Pemberton as he thought, “I can’t complain about them to the kid!”
“There’s another reason, too,” Morgan went on, keeping his legs still.
“There’s another reason, too,” Morgan continued, keeping his legs still.
“Another reason for what?”
“Another reason for what now?”
“Besides their not being your parents.”
“Besides them not being your parents.”
“I don’t understand you,” said Pemberton.
“I don’t get you,” said Pemberton.
“Well, you will before long. All right!”
“Well, you will soon enough. All right!”
He did understand fully before long, but he made a fight even with himself before he confessed it. He thought it the oddest thing to have a struggle with the child about. He wondered he didn’t hate the hope of the Moreens for bringing the struggle on. But by the time it began any such sentiment for that scion was closed to him. Morgan was a special case, and to know him was to accept him on his own odd terms. Pemberton had spent his aversion to special cases before arriving at knowledge. When at last he did arrive his quandary was great. Against every interest he had attached himself. They would have to meet things together. Before they went home that evening at Nice the boy had said, clinging to his arm:
He did understand completely before long, but he had a real struggle with himself before he admitted it. He thought it was the strangest thing to argue with a child about. He questioned why he didn’t resent the Moreens for causing the struggle. But by the time it started, any such feelings toward that family member were out of the question for him. Morgan was a unique situation, and knowing him meant accepting him on his own unusual terms. Pemberton had exhausted his dislike for special cases before gaining insight. When he finally did come to an understanding, his dilemma was significant. He had become attached to everything that went against his interests. They would have to face things together. Before they went home that evening in Nice, the boy had said, holding onto his arm:
“Well, at any rate you’ll hang on to the last.”
“Well, either way, you’ll stick it out till the end.”
“To the last?”
"Till the end?"
“Till you’re fairly beaten.”
"Until you're thoroughly beaten."
“You ought to be fairly beaten!” cried the young man, drawing him closer.
“You should be taught a lesson!” yelled the young man, pulling him closer.
CHAPTER IV
A year after he had come to live with them Mr. and Mrs. Moreen suddenly gave up the villa at Nice. Pemberton had got used to suddenness, having seen it practised on a considerable scale during two jerky little tours—one in Switzerland the first summer, and the other late in the winter, when they all ran down to Florence and then, at the end of ten days, liking it much less than they had intended, straggled back in mysterious depression. They had returned to Nice “for ever,” as they said; but this didn’t prevent their squeezing, one rainy muggy May night, into a second-class railway-carriage—you could never tell by which class they would travel—where Pemberton helped them to stow away a wonderful collection of bundles and bags. The explanation of this manœuvre was that they had determined to spend the summer “in some bracing place”; but in Paris they dropped into a small furnished apartment—a fourth floor in a third-rate avenue, where there was a smell on the staircase and the portier was hateful—and passed the next four months in blank indigence.
A year after moving in with them, Mr. and Mrs. Moreen suddenly abandoned their villa in Nice. Pemberton had gotten used to sudden changes, having experienced them on a significant scale during two bumpy trips—one in Switzerland that first summer, and another late in the winter, when they all took a quick trip to Florence and then, after ten days of not enjoying it as much as they thought they would, returned home in a mysterious funk. They had come back to Nice “forever,” as they put it; but that didn't stop them from cramming into a second-class train carriage one rainy, muggy May night—you could never predict which class they would travel in—where Pemberton helped them pack away a fantastic collection of bundles and bags. The reason for this maneuver was that they had decided to spend the summer “in some refreshing place”; however, in Paris, they ended up in a small furnished apartment—a fourth floor in a third-rate avenue, which had a smell in the stairwell and an awful doorman—and spent the next four months in total poverty.
The better part of this baffled sojourn was for the preceptor and his pupil, who, visiting the Invalides and Notre Dame, the Conciergerie and all the museums, took a hundred remunerative rambles. They learned to know their Paris, which was useful, for they came back another year for a longer stay, the general character of which in Pemberton’s memory to-day mixes pitiably and confusedly with that of the first. He sees Morgan’s shabby knickerbockers—the everlasting pair that didn’t match his blouse and that as he grew longer could only grow faded. He remembers the particular holes in his three or four pair of coloured stockings.
The best part of this confusing journey was for the teacher and his student, who, while exploring the Invalides and Notre Dame, the Conciergerie and all the museums, took a hundred rewarding strolls. They got to know Paris, which was helpful since they returned the following year for a longer stay, the general impression of which in Pemberton’s memory today blurs sadly and messily with that of the first. He remembers Morgan's worn knickerbockers—the same pair that never matched his shirt and that, as he grew taller, only became more faded. He recalls the specific holes in his three or four pairs of colorful stockings.
Morgan was dear to his mother, but he never was better dressed than was absolutely necessary—partly, no doubt, by his own fault, for he was as indifferent to his appearance as a German philosopher. “My dear fellow, you are coming to pieces,” Pemberton would say to him in sceptical remonstrance; to which the child would reply, looking at him serenely up and down: “My dear fellow, so are you! I don’t want to cast you in the shade.” Pemberton could have no rejoinder for this—the assertion so closely represented the fact. If however the deficiencies of his own wardrobe were a chapter by themselves he didn’t like his little charge to look too poor. Later he used to say “Well, if we’re poor, why, after all, shouldn’t we look it?” and he consoled himself with thinking there was something rather elderly and gentlemanly in Morgan’s disrepair—it differed from the untidiness of the urchin who plays and spoils his things. He could trace perfectly the degrees by which, in proportion as her little son confined himself to his tutor for society, Mrs. Moreen shrewdly forbore to renew his garments. She did nothing that didn’t show, neglected him because he escaped notice, and then, as he illustrated this clever policy, discouraged at home his public appearances. Her position was logical enough—those members of her family who did show had to be showy.
Morgan was dear to his mother, but he was never better dressed than absolutely necessary—partly, no doubt, due to his own neglect, as he cared little for his appearance like a German philosopher. “My dear fellow, you are falling apart,” Pemberton would say to him skeptically; to which the child would respond, looking him up and down calmly: “My dear fellow, so are you! I don’t want to outshine you.” Pemberton had no comeback for this—the statement was too accurate. However, while he had his own wardrobe issues, he didn’t want his little charge to look too shabby. Later he would say, “Well, if we’re poor, why shouldn’t we look it?” and comfort himself with the idea that there was something rather mature and gentlemanly in Morgan’s dishevelment—it was different from the scruffiness of a child who plays and ruins his things. He could clearly see how, as her little son spent more time with his tutor, Mrs. Moreen deliberately avoided buying him new clothes. She did nothing that was noticeable, neglected him because he went unnoticed, and then, as he exemplified this clever strategy, discouraged his public appearances at home. Her reasoning was straightforward—those family members who did stand out had to be well-presented.
During this period and several others Pemberton was quite aware of how he and his comrade might strike people; wandering languidly through the Jardin des Plantes as if they had nowhere to go, sitting on the winter days in the galleries of the Louvre, so splendidly ironical to the homeless, as if for the advantage of the calorifère. They joked about it sometimes: it was the sort of joke that was perfectly within the boy’s compass. They figured themselves as part of the vast vague hand-to-mouth multitude of the enormous city and pretended they were proud of their position in it—it showed them “such a lot of life” and made them conscious of a democratic brotherhood. If Pemberton couldn’t feel a sympathy in destitution with his small companion—for after all Morgan’s fond parents would never have let him really suffer—the boy would at least feel it with him, so it came to the same thing. He used sometimes to wonder what people would think they were—to fancy they were looked askance at, as if it might be a suspected case of kidnapping. Morgan wouldn’t be taken for a young patrician with a preceptor—he wasn’t smart enough; though he might pass for his companion’s sickly little brother. Now and then he had a five-franc piece, and except once, when they bought a couple of lovely neckties, one of which he made Pemberton accept, they laid it out scientifically in old books. This was sure to be a great day, always spent on the quays, in a rummage of the dusty boxes that garnish the parapets. Such occasions helped them to live, for their books ran low very soon after the beginning of their acquaintance. Pemberton had a good many in England, but he was obliged to write to a friend and ask him kindly to get some fellow to give him something for them.
During this time and several others, Pemberton was very aware of how he and his friend might look to others; strolling lazily through the Jardin des Plantes as if they had no destination, sitting on winter days in the galleries of the Louvre, which was so ironically opulent for the homeless, seemingly just for the sake of warmth. They made jokes about it sometimes: the kind of joke that was perfectly within the boy’s grasp. They imagined themselves as part of the vast, struggling masses of the enormous city and pretended they took pride in their position—it showed them “so much of life” and made them feel a sense of democratic brotherhood. If Pemberton couldn’t share a feeling of sympathy in poverty with his small companion—for after all, Morgan’s loving parents would never have let him truly suffer—the boy would at least feel it along with him, so it balanced out. He sometimes wondered what others thought they were—imagining they were viewed with suspicion, as if they might be involved in a kidnapping. Morgan wouldn’t pass as a young aristocrat with a tutor—he wasn’t clever enough; although he might be taken for his companion’s sickly little brother. Occasionally, he had a five-franc coin, and except for once, when they bought a couple of beautiful neckties, one of which he made Pemberton take, they spent it wisely on old books. This always turned into a great day, spent on the quays, rummaging through the dusty boxes that lined the edges. Such days helped them get by since their books ran low very quickly after they became friends. Pemberton had quite a few back in England, but he had to write to a friend and kindly ask him to find someone to give him something for them.
If they had to relinquish that summer the advantage of the bracing climate the young man couldn’t but suspect this failure of the cup when at their very lips to have been the effect of a rude jostle of his own. This had represented his first blow-out, as he called it, with his patrons; his first successful attempt—though there was little other success about it—to bring them to a consideration of his impossible position. As the ostensible eve of a costly journey the moment had struck him as favourable to an earnest protest, the presentation of an ultimatum. Ridiculous as it sounded, he had never yet been able to compass an uninterrupted private interview with the elder pair or with either of them singly. They were always flanked by their elder children, and poor Pemberton usually had his own little charge at his side. He was conscious of its being a house in which the surface of one’s delicacy got rather smudged; nevertheless he had preserved the bloom of his scruple against announcing to Mr. and Mrs. Moreen with publicity that he shouldn’t be able to go on longer without a little money. He was still simple enough to suppose Ulick and Paula and Amy might not know that since his arrival he had only had a hundred and forty francs; and he was magnanimous enough to wish not to compromise their parents in their eyes. Mr. Moreen now listened to him, as he listened to every one and to every thing, like a man of the world, and seemed to appeal to him—though not of course too grossly—to try and be a little more of one himself. Pemberton recognised in fact the importance of the character—from the advantage it gave Mr. Moreen. He was not even confused or embarrassed, whereas the young man in his service was more so than there was any reason for. Neither was he surprised—at least any more than a gentleman had to be who freely confessed himself a little shocked—though not perhaps strictly at Pemberton.
If they had to give up that summer the benefits of the fresh climate, the young man couldn't help but think that this disaster—just when they were so close—was somehow due to a rude push from himself. This had marked his first fallout, as he put it, with his patrons; his first real try—though there wasn't much else successful about it—at getting them to see his impossible situation. With the expensive trip coming up, he felt this was a good time for a serious protest, a sort of ultimatum. As ridiculous as it seemed, he had never managed to have an uninterrupted private chat with the elder couple or even one of them alone. They were always surrounded by their older kids, and poor Pemberton usually had his own little one by his side. He was aware that it was a place where one’s sense of propriety often got messy; still, he maintained the courage of his principles by not publicly telling Mr. and Mrs. Moreen that he couldn't go on without a bit of cash. He was still naive enough to think that Ulick, Paula, and Amy might not realize that since he arrived he had only received a hundred and forty francs; and he was generous enough to want to avoid embarrassing their parents in front of them. Mr. Moreen listened to him like he listened to everyone and everything, as a worldly man would, and seemed to indirectly suggest—though not too obviously—that he should try to be a bit more worldly himself. Pemberton recognized the significance of that role—from the advantage it gave Mr. Moreen. He wasn't even flustered or embarrassed, while the young man serving him felt more so than he needed to be. He wasn't surprised—at least not any more than a gentleman would be who admitted to being slightly shocked—though not perhaps strictly about Pemberton.
“We must go into this, mustn’t we, dear?” he said to his wife. He assured his young friend that the matter should have his very best attention; and he melted into space as elusively as if, at the door, he were taking an inevitable but deprecatory precedence. When, the next moment, Pemberton found himself alone with Mrs. Moreen it was to hear her say “I see, I see”—stroking the roundness of her chin and looking as if she were only hesitating between a dozen easy remedies. If they didn’t make their push Mr. Moreen could at least disappear for several days. During his absence his wife took up the subject again spontaneously, but her contribution to it was merely that she had thought all the while they were getting on so beautifully. Pemberton’s reply to this revelation was that unless they immediately put down something on account he would leave them on the spot and for ever. He knew she would wonder how he would get away, and for a moment expected her to enquire. She didn’t, for which he was almost grateful to her, so little was he in a position to tell.
“We have to discuss this, right?” he said to his wife. He assured his young friend that the issue would have his full attention, and then he slipped away as if he were taking an unavoidable but reluctant lead at the door. The next moment, when Pemberton found himself alone with Mrs. Moreen, she said, “I see, I see”—stroking her chin and looking like she was just weighing a dozen simple solutions. If they didn't make their move, Mr. Moreen could at least vanish for several days. While he was gone, his wife brought up the topic again on her own, but all she added was that she thought everything was going so well. Pemberton's response to this was that unless they immediately put down something as a commitment, he would leave them right then and there forever. He knew she would be curious about how he planned to leave, and for a moment he expected her to ask. She didn’t, and he was almost thankful, since he wasn’t in a position to explain.
“You won’t, you know you won’t—you’re too interested,” she said. “You are interested, you know you are, you dear kind man!” She laughed with almost condemnatory archness, as if it were a reproach—though she wouldn’t insist; and flirted a soiled pocket-handkerchief at him.
“You won't, you know you won't—you’re too interested,” she said. “You are interested, you know you are, you sweet kind man!” She laughed with a teasing edge, almost as if it were a reproach—though she wouldn’t push it; and waved a dirty handkerchief at him.
Pemberton’s mind was fully made up to take his step the following week. This would give him time to get an answer to a letter he had despatched to England. If he did in the event nothing of the sort—that is if he stayed another year and then went away only for three months—it was not merely because before the answer to his letter came (most unsatisfactory when it did arrive) Mr. Moreen generously counted out to him, and again with the sacrifice to “form” of a marked man of the world, three hundred francs in elegant ringing gold. He was irritated to find that Mrs. Moreen was right, that he couldn’t at the pinch bear to leave the child. This stood out clearer for the very reason that, the night of his desperate appeal to his patrons, he had seen fully for the first time where he was. Wasn’t it another proof of the success with which those patrons practised their arts that they had managed to avert for so long the illuminating flash? It descended on our friend with a breadth of effect which perhaps would have struck a spectator as comical, after he had returned to his little servile room, which looked into a close court where a bare dirty opposite wall took, with the sound of shrill clatter, the reflexion of lighted back windows. He had simply given himself away to a band of adventurers. The idea, the word itself, wore a romantic horror for him—he had always lived on such safe lines. Later it assumed a more interesting, almost a soothing, sense: it pointed a moral, and Pemberton could enjoy a moral. The Moreens were adventurers not merely because they didn’t pay their debts, because they lived on society, but because their whole view of life, dim and confused and instinctive, like that of clever colour-blind animals, was speculative and rapacious and mean. Oh they were “respectable,” and that only made them more immondes. The young man’s analysis, while he brooded, put it at last very simply—they were adventurers because they were toadies and snobs. That was the completest account of them—it was the law of their being. Even when this truth became vivid to their ingenious inmate he remained unconscious of how much his mind had been prepared for it by the extraordinary little boy who had now become such a complication in his life. Much less could he then calculate on the information he was still to owe the extraordinary little boy.
Pemberton was completely decided to make his move the following week. This would give him time to get a response to a letter he had sent to England. If he ended up not doing that—staying another year and then leaving for just three months—it wasn’t just because, before the answer to his letter arrived (which was very unsatisfactory when it did), Mr. Moreen generously handed him three hundred francs in shiny gold coins, sacrificing the appearance of a worldly man. He was annoyed to realize that Mrs. Moreen was right; he couldn’t bear to leave the child in a pinch. This became clearer for him, especially because on the night of his desperate appeal to his patrons, he finally understood his situation. Wasn’t it another proof of the patrons' success in their deceit that they had kept the enlightening truth hidden for so long? The realization hit him with such force that it might have seemed comical to an outside observer after he returned to his small, dingy room, which overlooked a cramped courtyard where a bare, dirty wall reflected the bright light from the windows. He had essentially sold himself to a group of con artists. The thought, the very term, felt romantically horrifying to him—he had always lived within safe boundaries. Later, it took on a more intriguing, almost comforting connotation: it provided a lesson, and Pemberton appreciated a good lesson. The Moreens were adventurers not just because they didn’t pay their debts and relied on society, but because their entire perspective on life, dim and confused, like that of clever color-blind animals, was speculative, greedy, and petty. Oh, they were “respectable,” which only made them more disgusting. As he contemplated, the young man eventually simplified it—they were adventurers because they were sycophants and snobs. That explained everything—it defined their existence. Even when this truth became clear to him, he remained unaware of how much the extraordinary little boy, who had now become such a complication in his life, had prepared him for it. Much less could he realize how much he still owed to the remarkable little boy.
CHAPTER V
But it was during the ensuing time that the real problem came up—the problem of how far it was excusable to discuss the turpitude of parents with a child of twelve, of thirteen, of fourteen. Absolutely inexcusable and quite impossible it of course at first appeared; and indeed the question didn’t press for some time after Pemberton had received his three hundred francs. They produced a temporary lull, a relief from the sharpest pressure. The young man frugally amended his wardrobe and even had a few francs in his pocket. He thought the Moreens looked at him as if he were almost too smart, as if they ought to take care not to spoil him. If Mr. Moreen hadn’t been such a man of the world he would perhaps have spoken of the freedom of such neckties on the part of a subordinate. But Mr. Moreen was always enough a man of the world to let things pass—he had certainly shown that. It was singular how Pemberton guessed that Morgan, though saying nothing about it, knew something had happened. But three hundred francs, especially when one owed money, couldn’t last for ever; and when the treasure was gone—the boy knew when it had failed—Morgan did break ground. The party had returned to Nice at the beginning of the winter, but not to the charming villa. They went to an hotel, where they stayed three months, and then moved to another establishment, explaining that they had left the first because, after waiting and waiting, they couldn’t get the rooms they wanted. These apartments, the rooms they wanted, were generally very splendid; but fortunately they never could get them—fortunately, I mean, for Pemberton, who reflected always that if they had got them there would have been a still scantier educational fund. What Morgan said at last was said suddenly, irrelevantly, when the moment came, in the middle of a lesson, and consisted of the apparently unfeeling words: “You ought to filer, you know—you really ought.”
But during that time, the real issue came up—the question of how acceptable it was to talk about the flaws of parents with a twelve, thirteen, or fourteen-year-old child. It seemed absolutely unacceptable and quite impossible at first; in fact, the question didn’t press for a while after Pemberton received his three hundred francs. That money provided a temporary break, a relief from the worst pressure. The young man carefully updated his wardrobe and even had a few francs left over. He sensed that the Moreens looked at him as if he was getting a bit too stylish, as if they needed to be cautious not to spoil him. If Mr. Moreen hadn’t been such a worldly guy, he might have commented on the boldness of wearing such neckties for someone in a subordinate position. But Mr. Moreen was always worldly enough to let things slide—he had certainly proven that. It was strange how Pemberton realized that Morgan, although silent about it, knew something had changed. But three hundred francs, especially when you owe money, wouldn’t last forever; and when the money ran out—the boy knew when that moment came—Morgan finally spoke up. The group had returned to Nice at the beginning of winter, but not to the lovely villa. They stayed at a hotel for three months, and then moved to another place, explaining that they left the first one because, after waiting and waiting, they just couldn’t get the rooms they wanted. These rooms, the ones they desired, were usually quite luxurious; but fortunately, they never managed to get them—fortunately for Pemberton, who always thought that if they had secured those rooms, there would have been an even smaller educational fund. What Morgan eventually said came suddenly and out of the blue during a lesson, and it were the seemingly heartless words: “You ought to filter, you know—you really ought.”
Pemberton stared. He had learnt enough French slang from Morgan to know that to filer meant to cut sticks. “Ah my dear fellow, don’t turn me off!”
Pemberton stared. He had picked up enough French slang from Morgan to know that "filer" meant to cut sticks. “Ah my dear friend, don’t dismiss me!”
Morgan pulled a Greek lexicon toward him—he used a Greek-German—to look out a word, instead of asking it of Pemberton. “You can’t go on like this, you know.”
Morgan pulled a Greek dictionary toward him—he used a Greek-German one—to look up a word instead of asking Pemberton. “You can’t keep doing this, you know.”
“Like what, my boy?”
"Like what, buddy?"
“You know they don’t pay you up,” said Morgan, blushing and turning his leaves.
“You know they don’t pay you,” said Morgan, blushing and turning his leaves.
“Don’t pay me?” Pemberton stared again and feigned amazement. “What on earth put that into your head?”
“Not pay me?” Pemberton stared again and pretended to be shocked. “What on earth made you think that?”
“It has been there a long time,” the boy replied rummaging his book.
“It’s been there a long time,” the boy said, searching through his book.
Pemberton was silent, then he went on: “I say, what are you hunting for? They pay me beautifully.”
Pemberton was quiet for a moment, then he continued: “I mean, what are you looking for? They pay me well.”
“I’m hunting for the Greek for awful whopper,” Morgan dropped.
“I’m looking for the Greek word for awful whopper,” Morgan said.
“Find that rather for gross impertinence and disabuse your mind. What do I want of money?”
“Think of that as really rude and change your perspective. What do I need money for?”
“Oh that’s another question!”
“Oh, that’s another question!”
Pemberton wavered—he was drawn in different ways. The severely correct thing would have been to tell the boy that such a matter was none of his business and bid him go on with his lines. But they were really too intimate for that; it was not the way he was in the habit of treating him; there had been no reason it should be. On the other hand Morgan had quite lighted on the truth—he really shouldn’t be able to keep it up much longer; therefore why not let him know one’s real motive for forsaking him? At the same time it wasn’t decent to abuse to one’s pupil the family of one’s pupil; it was better to misrepresent than to do that. So in reply to his comrade’s last exclamation he just declared, to dismiss the subject, that he had received several payments.
Pemberton hesitated—he felt pulled in different directions. The correct thing to do would have been to tell the boy that it wasn’t his concern and to send him back to his work. But their relationship was too close for that; he wasn’t used to treating him that way; there was no reason to. On the other hand, Morgan had hit the nail on the head—he really wouldn’t be able to keep this up much longer; so why not share his real reason for distancing himself? At the same time, it wasn’t right to speak poorly of one’s pupil’s family; it was better to mislead than to do that. So, in response to his friend’s last comment, he simply said, to drop the topic, that he had received several payments.
“I say—I say!” the boy ejaculated, laughing.
“I say—I say!” the boy exclaimed, laughing.
“That’s all right,” Pemberton insisted. “Give me your written rendering.”
“That’s fine,” Pemberton insisted. “Please give me your written version.”
Morgan pushed a copybook across the table, and he began to read the page, but with something running in his head that made it no sense. Looking up after a minute or two he found the child’s eyes fixed on him and felt in them something strange. Then Morgan said: “I’m not afraid of the stern reality.”
Morgan slid a notebook across the table and started reading the page, but his thoughts were so jumbled that it made no sense. After a minute or two, he looked up and found the child's eyes locked on him, feeling something unusual in their gaze. Then Morgan said, "I'm not afraid of harsh reality."
“I haven’t yet seen the thing you are afraid of—I’ll do you that justice!”
“I still haven't seen the thing you are afraid of—I’ll give you that!”
This came out with a jump—it was perfectly true—and evidently gave Morgan pleasure. “I’ve thought of it a long time,” he presently resumed.
This came out with a burst—it was completely true—and clearly made Morgan happy. “I’ve been thinking about it for a while,” he continued.
“Well, don’t think of it any more.”
“Well, don't worry about it anymore.”
The boy appeared to comply, and they had a comfortable and even an amusing hour. They had a theory that they were very thorough, and yet they seemed always to be in the amusing part of lessons, the intervals between the dull dark tunnels, where there were waysides and jolly views. Yet the morning was brought to a violent as end by Morgan’s suddenly leaning his arms on the table, burying his head in them and bursting into tears: at which Pemberton was the more startled that, as it then came over him, it was the first time he had ever seen the boy cry and that the impression was consequently quite awful.
The boy seemed to go along with it, and they enjoyed a relaxed and even fun hour. They believed they were being very thorough, yet they always seemed to find themselves in the entertaining part of lessons, those breaks between the dull, dark tunnels where there were scenic views and cheerful moments. However, the morning came to a sudden, harsh end when Morgan unexpectedly leaned on the table, buried his head in his arms, and burst into tears. Pemberton was taken aback, realizing it was the first time he had ever seen the boy cry, and it left a significant impact on him.
The next day, after much thought, he took a decision and, believing it to be just, immediately acted on it. He cornered Mr. and Mrs. Moreen again and let them know that if on the spot they didn’t pay him all they owed him he wouldn’t only leave their house but would tell Morgan exactly what had brought him to it.
The next day, after a lot of thinking, he made a decision and, believing it to be fair, acted on it right away. He confronted Mr. and Mrs. Moreen again and told them that if they didn’t pay him everything they owed him on the spot, he would not only leave their house but also tell Morgan exactly why he came there.
“Oh you haven’t told him?” cried Mrs. Moreen with a pacifying hand on her well-dressed bosom.
“Oh you haven’t told him?” exclaimed Mrs. Moreen, placing a calming hand on her nicely dressed chest.
“Without warning you? For what do you take me?” the young man returned.
“Without warning you? What do you think I am?” the young man replied.
Mr. and Mrs. Moreen looked at each other; he could see that they appreciated, as tending to their security, his superstition of delicacy, and yet that there was a certain alarm in their relief. “My dear fellow,” Mr. Moreen demanded, “what use can you have, leading the quiet life we all do, for such a lot of money?”—a question to which Pemberton made no answer, occupied as he was in noting that what passed in the mind of his patrons was something like: “Oh then, if we’ve felt that the child, dear little angel, has judged us and how he regards us, and we haven’t been betrayed, he must have guessed—and in short it’s general!” an inference that rather stirred up Mr. and Mrs. Moreen, as Pemberton had desired it should. At the same time, if he had supposed his threat would do something towards bringing them round, he was disappointed to find them taking for granted—how vulgar their perception had been!—that he had already given them away. There was a mystic uneasiness in their parental breasts, and that had been the inferior sense of it. None the less however, his threat did touch them; for if they had escaped it was only to meet a new danger. Mr. Moreen appealed to him, on every precedent, as a man of the world; but his wife had recourse, for the first time since his domestication with them, to a fine hauteur, reminding him that a devoted mother, with her child, had arts that protected her against gross misrepresentation.
Mr. and Mrs. Moreen looked at each other; he could tell they appreciated his delicate superstition as a way to ensure their security, yet there was a hint of alarm in their relief. “My dear fellow,” Mr. Moreen asked, “what do you need so much money for, living the quiet life we all do?”—a question to which Pemberton didn’t respond, as he was focused on realizing that what his patrons were thinking was something like: “Oh, so if we’ve felt that the child, our dear little angel, has judged us and knows how we feel, and we haven’t been betrayed, he must have figured it out—and overall it’s general!” This idea genuinely unsettled Mr. and Mrs. Moreen, just as Pemberton intended. However, if he thought his threat would make them change their minds, he was disappointed to see them assuming—how naïve they were!—that he had already exposed them. There was a mysterious unease in their parental hearts, and that had been the underlying feeling. Nevertheless, his threat did affect them; escaping one danger just led to another. Mr. Moreen turned to him, appealing as a worldly man; but his wife resorted, for the first time since he had moved in with them, to a proud demeanor, reminding him that a devoted mother, when it comes to her child, has ways to protect herself against blatant misrepresentation.
“I should misrepresent you grossly if I accused you of common honesty!” our friend replied; but as he closed the door behind him sharply, thinking he had not done himself much good, while Mr. Moreen lighted another cigarette, he heard his hostess shout after him more touchingly:
“I would be seriously misrepresenting you if I accused you of being honestly decent!” our friend replied; but as he slammed the door behind him, feeling he hadn’t helped his case much, Mr. Moreen lit another cigarette and heard his hostess call after him in a more heartfelt way:
“Oh you do, you do, put the knife to one’s throat!”
“Oh, you really do, you do, put the knife to someone's throat!”
The next morning, very early, she came to his room. He recognised her knock, but had no hope she brought him money; as to which he was wrong, for she had fifty francs in her hand. She squeezed forward in her dressing-gown, and he received her in his own, between his bath-tub and his bed. He had been tolerably schooled by this time to the “foreign ways” of his hosts. Mrs. Moreen was ardent, and when she was ardent she didn’t care what she did; so she now sat down on his bed, his clothes being on the chairs, and, in her preoccupation, forgot, as she glanced round, to be ashamed of giving him such a horrid room. What Mrs. Moreen’s ardour now bore upon was the design of persuading him that in the first place she was very good-natured to bring him fifty francs, and that in the second, if he would only see it, he was really too absurd to expect to be paid. Wasn’t he paid enough without perpetual money—wasn’t he paid by the comfortable luxurious home he enjoyed with them all, without a care, an anxiety, a solitary want? Wasn’t he sure of his position, and wasn’t that everything to a young man like him, quite unknown, with singularly little to show, the ground of whose exorbitant pretensions it had never been easy to discover? Wasn’t he paid above all by the sweet relation he had established with Morgan—quite ideal as from master to pupil—and by the simple privilege of knowing and living with so amazingly gifted a child; than whom really (and she meant literally what she said) there was no better company in Europe? Mrs. Moreen herself took to appealing to him as a man of the world; she said “Voyons, mon cher,” and “My dear man, look here now”; and urged him to be reasonable, putting it before him that it was truly a chance for him. She spoke as if, according as he should be reasonable, he would prove himself worthy to be her son’s tutor and of the extraordinary confidence they had placed in him.
The next morning, very early, she came to his room. He recognized her knock but didn't hope she was bringing him money; he was mistaken, though, because she had fifty francs in her hand. She pushed her way in wearing her dressing gown, and he welcomed her in his own, standing between his bathtub and his bed. By this time, he had gotten used to the “foreign ways” of his hosts. Mrs. Moreen was enthusiastic, and when she was in that mood, she didn’t care what she did; so she sat down on his bed, with his clothes draped over the chairs, and, caught up in her thoughts, forgot to feel embarrassed about the awful condition of the room. What Mrs. Moreen was focused on was convincing him that, first, she was being very kind by bringing him fifty francs, and second, that he was being ridiculous to expect payment. Wasn’t he already compensated enough without constant money—wasn’t he rewarded with the comfortable, luxurious home he enjoyed with them, free of any worry, anxiety, or need? Didn’t he have job security, and wasn’t that everything for a young man like him, who was basically a nobody with very little to show, and whose inflated expectations had never been easy to pin down? Wasn’t he compensated above all by the wonderful relationship he had built with Morgan—quite ideal, like that of a master and a pupil—and by the simple privilege of knowing and living with such an exceptionally talented child; someone who was genuinely (and she meant it literally) the best company in Europe? Mrs. Moreen herself started appealing to him as someone experienced in the world; she said, “Come on, my dear,” and “My dear man, look at this”; and urged him to be reasonable, presenting the situation as a real opportunity for him. She spoke as if, depending on how reasonable he was, he would prove himself deserving of being her son’s tutor and of the extraordinary trust they had placed in him.
After all, Pemberton reflected, it was only a difference of theory and the theory didn’t matter much. They had hitherto gone on that of remunerated, as now they would go on that of gratuitous, service; but why should they have so many words about it? Mrs. Moreen at all events continued to be convincing; sitting there with her fifty francs she talked and reiterated, as women reiterate, and bored and irritated him, while he leaned against the wall with his hands in the pockets of his wrapper, drawing it together round his legs and looking over the head of his visitor at the grey negations of his window. She wound up with saying: “You see I bring you a definite proposal.”
After all, Pemberton thought, it was just a matter of theory, and that didn’t really matter. They had previously operated on the idea of paid service, and now they were going to work on the idea of unpaid service; but why did they need to talk about it so much? Mrs. Moreen, at least, continued to be persuasive; sitting there with her fifty francs, she talked and repeated herself, like women do, and bored and irritated him while he leaned against the wall with his hands in the pockets of his robe, pulling it around his legs and looking over his visitor's head at the gray nothingness outside his window. She finished by saying, “You see, I’m bringing you a definite proposal.”
“A definite proposal?”
"A solid proposal?"
“To make our relations regular, as it were—to put them on a comfortable footing.”
“To make our relationship more stable, in a way—to establish it on a comfortable basis.”
“I see—it’s a system,” said Pemberton. “A kind of organised blackmail.”
“I get it—it’s a system,” said Pemberton. “A sort of organized blackmail.”
Mrs. Moreen bounded up, which was exactly what he wanted. “What do you mean by that?”
Mrs. Moreen jumped up, which was exactly what he wanted. “What do you mean by that?”
“You practise on one’s fears—one’s fears about the child if one should go away.”
“You play on people's fears—fears about their child if they were to leave.”
“And pray what would happen to him in that event?” she demanded, with majesty.
“And what would happen to him if that happened?” she asked, with authority.
“Why he’d be alone with you.”
“Why he’d be alone with you.”
“And pray with whom should a child be but with those whom he loves most?”
“And really, who should a child be with if not the people they love the most?”
“If you think that, why don’t you dismiss me?”
“If you think that, why not just fire me?”
“Do you pretend he loves you more than he loves us?” cried Mrs. Moreen.
“Do you act like he loves you more than he loves us?” shouted Mrs. Moreen.
“I think he ought to. I make sacrifices for him. Though I’ve heard of those you make I don’t see them.”
“I think he should. I make sacrifices for him. Though I’ve heard about the ones you make, I don’t see them.”
Mrs. Moreen stared a moment; then with emotion she grasped her inmate’s hand. “Will you make it—the sacrifice?”
Mrs. Moreen paused for a moment; then, feeling emotional, she took her inmate’s hand. “Are you willing to make the sacrifice?”
He burst out laughing. “I’ll see. I’ll do what I can. I’ll stay a little longer. Your calculation’s just—I do hate intensely to give him up; I’m fond of him and he thoroughly interests me, in spite of the inconvenience I suffer. You know my situation perfectly. I haven’t a penny in the world and, occupied as you see me with Morgan, am unable to earn money.”
He started laughing. “I’ll think about it. I’ll do what I can. I’ll stick around a bit longer. Your calculation is just—I really hate to give him up; I'm fond of him and he really interests me, even with the trouble I’m going through. You know my situation perfectly. I don’t have a dime to my name and, as you can see with me being tied up with Morgan, I can’t make any money.”
Mrs. Moreen tapped her undressed arm with her folded bank-note. “Can’t you write articles? Can’t you translate as I do?”
Mrs. Moreen tapped her bare arm with her folded banknote. “Can’t you write articles? Can’t you translate like I do?”
“I don’t know about translating; it’s wretchedly paid.”
"I don’t know about translation; it’s poorly paid."
“I’m glad to earn what I can,” said Mrs. Moreen with prodigious virtue.
“I’m happy to earn what I can,” said Mrs. Moreen with great virtue.
“You ought to tell me who you do it for.” Pemberton paused a moment, and she said nothing; so he added: “I’ve tried to turn off some little sketches, but the magazines won’t have them—they’re declined with thanks.”
“You should tell me who you're doing it for.” Pemberton paused for a moment, and she didn't say anything; so he continued: “I’ve tried to submit a few small sketches, but the magazines won’t accept them—they’ve been declined with thanks.”
“You see then you’re not such a phœnix,” his visitor pointedly smiled—“to pretend to abilities you’re sacrificing for our sake.”
“You see, you’re not such a phœnix,” his visitor smirked deliberately—“to pretend to have abilities that you’re sacrificing for us.”
“I haven’t time to do things properly,” he ruefully went on. Then as it came over him that he was almost abjectly good-natured to give these explanations he added: “If I stay on longer it must be on one condition—that Morgan shall know distinctly on what footing I am.”
“I don’t have time to do things right,” he said with a sigh. Then, realizing how overly kind he was to be giving these explanations, he added: “If I stay longer, it has to be on one condition—that Morgan knows clearly where I stand.”
Mrs. Moreen demurred. “Surely you don’t want to show off to a child?”
Mrs. Moreen hesitated. “Surely you don’t want to show off to a kid?”
“To show you off, do you mean?”
"To show you off, right?"
Again she cast about, but this time it was to produce a still finer flower. “And you talk of blackmail!”
Again, she looked around, but this time it was to create an even more beautiful flower. “And you talk about blackmail!”
“You can easily prevent it,” said Pemberton.
“You can easily prevent it,” Pemberton said.
“And you talk of practising on fears,” she bravely pushed on.
“And you talk about working through fears,” she bravely continued.
“Yes, there’s no doubt I’m a great scoundrel.”
“Yes, there’s no doubt I’m a real scoundrel.”
His patroness met his eyes—it was clear she was in straits. Then she thrust out her money at him. “Mr. Moreen desired me to give you this on account.”
His patroness met his gaze—it was obvious she was in trouble. Then she handed him her money. “Mr. Moreen asked me to give you this as payment.”
“I’m much obliged to Mr. Moreen, but we have no account.”
“I really appreciate Mr. Moreen, but we don't have an account.”
“You won’t take it?”
"You're not going to take it?"
“That leaves me more free,” said Pemberton.
"That gives me more freedom," said Pemberton.
“To poison my darling’s mind?” groaned Mrs. Moreen.
“Are you trying to poison my darling’s mind?” groaned Mrs. Moreen.
“Oh your darling’s mind—!” the young man laughed.
“Oh, your darling's mind—!” the young man laughed.
She fixed him a moment, and he thought she was going to break out tormentedly, pleadingly: “For God’s sake, tell me what is in it!” But she checked this impulse—another was stronger. She pocketed the money—the crudity of the alternative was comical—and swept out of the room with the desperate concession: “You may tell him any horror you like!”
She looked at him for a moment, and he thought she was about to burst out, begging: “For God’s sake, just tell me what’s in it!” But she held back that urge—something else was stronger. She put the money in her pocket—the rawness of the other option was kind of funny—and stormed out of the room with a desperate compromise: “You can tell him whatever terrible thing you want!”
CHAPTER VI
A couple of days after this, during which he had failed to profit by so free a permission, he had been for a quarter of an hour walking with his charge in silence when the boy became sociable again with the remark: “I’ll tell you how I know it; I know it through Zénobie.”
A couple of days later, during which he hadn’t taken advantage of such a generous opportunity, he had spent fifteen minutes walking with his charge in silence when the boy started to chat again, saying, “I’ll tell you how I know this; I know it because of Zénobie.”
“Zénobie? Who in the world is she?”
“Zénobie? Who in the world is she?”
“A nurse I used to have—ever so many years ago. A charming woman. I liked her awfully, and she liked me.”
“A nurse I used to have—so many years ago. A lovely woman. I liked her a lot, and she liked me.”
“There’s no accounting for tastes. What is it you know through her?”
“There’s no accounting for tastes. What do you know about her?”
“Why what their idea is. She went away because they didn’t fork out. She did like me awfully, and she stayed two years. She told me all about it—that at last she could never get her wages. As soon as they saw how much she liked me they stopped giving her anything. They thought she’d stay for nothing—just because, don’t you know?” And Morgan had a queer little conscious lucid look. “She did stay ever so long—as long an she could. She was only a poor girl. She used to send money to her mother. At last she couldn’t afford it any longer, and went away in a fearful rage one night—I mean of course in a rage against them. She cried over me tremendously, she hugged me nearly to death. She told me all about it,” the boy repeated. “She told me it was their idea. So I guessed, ever so long ago, that they have had the same idea with you.”
“Why, that’s what their idea is. She left because they didn’t pay her. She really liked me a lot, and she stayed for two years. She told me everything—that eventually she could never get her wages. As soon as they figured out how much she liked me, they stopped giving her anything. They thought she’d stick around for nothing—just because, you know?” And Morgan had a strange, self-aware look. “She did stay as long as she could. She was just a poor girl. She used to send money to her mom. Eventually, she couldn’t afford it anymore and left in a huge rage one night—I mean, of course, a rage against them. She cried a lot over me; she hugged me almost to death. She told me everything,” the boy repeated. “She said it was their idea. So I figured out a long time ago that they had the same plan with you.”
“Zénobie was very sharp,” said Pemberton. “And she made you so.”
“Zénobie was really sharp,” Pemberton said. “And she made you feel that way too.”
“Oh that wasn’t Zénobie; that was nature. And experience!” Morgan laughed.
“Oh, that wasn’t Zénobie; that was nature. And experience!” Morgan laughed.
“Well, Zénobie was a part of your experience.”
“Well, Zénobie was part of your experience.”
“Certainly I was a part of hers, poor dear!” the boy wisely sighed. “And I’m part of yours.”
“Of course I was a part of hers, poor thing!” the boy wisely sighed. “And I’m part of yours.”
“A very important part. But I don’t see how you know that I’ve been treated like Zénobie.”
“A very important part. But I don’t see how you know that I’ve been treated like Zénobie.”
“Do you take me for the biggest dunce you’ve known?” Morgan asked. “Haven’t I been conscious of what we’ve been through together?”
“Do you think I'm the biggest fool you've ever met?” Morgan asked. “Haven't I been aware of what we've been through together?”
“What we’ve been through?”
"What we've experienced?"
“Our privations—our dark days.”
"Our struggles—our tough times."
“Oh our days have been bright enough.”
“Oh, our days have been bright enough.”
Morgan went on in silence for a moment. Then he said: “My dear chap, you’re a hero!”
Morgan continued in silence for a moment. Then he said: “My friend, you’re a hero!”
“Well, you’re another!” Pemberton retorted.
“Well, you’re another one!” Pemberton retorted.
“No I’m not, but I ain’t a baby. I won’t stand it any longer. You must get some occupation that pays. I’m ashamed, I’m ashamed!” quavered the boy with a ring of passion, like some high silver note from a small cathedral cloister, that deeply touched his friend.
“No, I’m not, but I’m not a baby. I can’t take it anymore. You need to find a job that pays. I’m embarrassed, I’m embarrassed!” the boy trembled with a surge of emotion, like a bright silver note from a small cathedral cloister, which deeply affected his friend.
“We ought to go off and live somewhere together,” the young man said.
“We should go live somewhere together,” the young man said.
“I’ll go like a shot if you’ll take me.”
“I’ll go in a heartbeat if you’ll take me.”
“I’d get some work that would keep us both afloat,” Pemberton continued.
“I’d find some work that would keep us both doing okay,” Pemberton continued.
“So would I. Why shouldn’t I work? I ain’t such a beastly little muff as that comes to.”
“Me too. Why shouldn't I work? I'm not that lazy.”
“The difficulty is that your parents wouldn’t hear of it. They’d never part with you; they worship the ground you tread on. Don’t you see the proof of it?” Pemberton developed. “They don’t dislike me; they wish me no harm; they’re very amiable people; but they’re perfectly ready to expose me to any awkwardness in life for your sake.”
“The problem is that your parents wouldn’t support it. They’d never let you go; they think the world of you. Don’t you see the evidence of that?” Pemberton continued. “They don’t have anything against me; they mean me no harm; they’re really nice people; but they’re completely willing to put me in any uncomfortable situation in life for your sake.”
The silence in which Morgan received his fond sophistry struck Pemberton somehow as expressive. After a moment the child repeated: “You are a hero!” Then he added: “They leave me with you altogether. You’ve all the responsibility. They put me off on you from morning till night. Why then should they object to my taking up with you completely? I’d help you.”
The silence in which Morgan received his affectionate nonsense felt somehow meaningful to Pemberton. After a moment, the child repeated, “You’re a hero!” Then he added, “They leave me with you all the time. You have all the responsibility. They hand me off to you from morning till night. So why should they mind if I completely stick with you? I’d help you.”
“They’re not particularly keen about my being helped, and they delight in thinking of you as theirs. They’re tremendously proud of you.”
“They’re not really into the idea of me being helped, and they love thinking of you as theirs. They’re really proud of you.”
“I’m not proud of them. But you know that,” Morgan returned.
“I’m not proud of them. But you know that,” Morgan replied.
“Except for the little matter we speak of they’re charming people,” said Pemberton, not taking up the point made for his intelligence, but wondering greatly at the boy’s own, and especially at this fresh reminder of something he had been conscious of from the first—the strangest thing in his friend’s large little composition, a temper, a sensibility, even a private ideal, which made him as privately disown the stuff his people were made of. Morgan had in secret a small loftiness which made him acute about betrayed meanness; as well as a critical sense for the manners immediately surrounding him that was quite without precedent in a juvenile nature, especially when one noted that it had not made this nature “old-fashioned,” as the word is of children—quaint or wizened or offensive. It was as if he had been a little gentleman and had paid the penalty by discovering that he was the only such person in his family. This comparison didn’t make him vain, but it could make him melancholy and a trifle austere. While Pemberton guessed at these dim young things, shadows of shadows, he was partly drawn on and partly checked, as for a scruple, by the charm of attempting to sound the little cool shallows that were so quickly growing deeper. When he tried to figure to himself the morning twilight of childhood, so as to deal with it safely, he saw it was never fixed, never arrested, that ignorance, at the instant he touched it, was already flushing faintly into knowledge, that there was nothing that at a given moment you could say an intelligent child didn’t know. It seemed to him that he himself knew too much to imagine Morgan’s simplicity and too little to disembroil his tangle.
“Besides the small issue we're talking about, they’re great people,” Pemberton said, not addressing the point made about his intelligence, but instead being greatly intrigued by the boy’s own smarts, especially this fresh reminder of something he had sensed from the start—the oddest aspect of his friend’s unique nature, a temperament, a sensitivity, even a personal ideal, which made him quietly reject the stuff his family was made of. Morgan had a hidden sense of dignity that made him sharp about exposed pettiness; he also had a critical awareness of the manners around him that was completely unusual for someone his age, especially considering it didn’t make him “old-fashioned” like some children—quirky, wise beyond his years, or unpleasant. It was as if he had been a little gentleman and had faced the consequence of realizing he was the only one like that in his family. This realization didn’t make him arrogant, but it could make him a bit sad and somewhat stern. While Pemberton pondered these vague youthful things, shadows of shadows, he was both drawn in and held back, as if hesitant, by the allure of trying to understand the little cool depths that were rapidly becoming more complex. When he attempted to envision the early morning light of childhood, so as to navigate it carefully, he saw it was never static, never halted; that ignorance, the moment he touched it, was already shifting subtly into understanding, and that there was nothing at any moment you could say an intelligent child didn’t grasp. He felt that he himself knew too much to fully appreciate Morgan’s innocence and too little to untangle his complications.
The boy paid no heed to his last remark; he only went on: “I’d have spoken to them about their idea, as I call it, long ago, if I hadn’t been sure what they’d say.”
The boy ignored his last comment and continued: “I would have talked to them about their idea, as I call it, a long time ago, if I hadn’t been sure of their response.”
“And what would they say?”
“And what would they think?”
“Just what they said about what poor Zénobie told me—that it was a horrid dreadful story, that they had paid her every penny they owed her.”
“Just what they said about what poor Zénobie told me—that it was an awful, terrible story, that they had paid her every cent they owed her.”
“Well, perhaps they had,” said Pemberton.
“Well, maybe they did,” said Pemberton.
“Perhaps they’ve paid you!”
"Maybe they’ve paid you!"
“Let us pretend they have, and n’en parlons plus.”
“Let’s just assume they have, and let’s not talk about it anymore.”
“They accused her of lying and cheating”—Morgan stuck to historic truth. “That’s why I don’t want to speak to them.”
“They accused her of lying and cheating”—Morgan remained committed to the truth of history. “That’s why I don’t want to talk to them.”
“Lest they should accuse me, too?” To this Morgan made no answer, and his companion, looking down at him—the boy turned away his eyes, which had filled—saw what he couldn’t have trusted himself to utter. “You’re right. Don’t worry them,” Pemberton pursued. “Except for that, they are charming people.”
“Are you worried they might accuse me too?” To this, Morgan didn’t answer, and his friend, looking down at him—the boy averted his gaze, which had become watery—saw what he couldn’t bring himself to say. “You’re right. Don’t let them bother you,” Pemberton continued. “Other than that, they are lovely people.”
“Except for their lying and their cheating?”
"Except for their lying and their cheating?"
“I say—I say!” cried Pemberton, imitating a little tone of the lad’s which was itself an imitation.
“I mean—I mean!” shouted Pemberton, mimicking a bit of the boy’s tone, which was also a copy.
“We must be frank, at the last; we must come to an understanding,” said Morgan with the importance of the small boy who lets himself think he is arranging great affairs—almost playing at shipwreck or at Indians. “I know all about everything.”
“We have to be honest, in the end; we have to come to an understanding,” said Morgan with the seriousness of a little boy who believes he’s handling important matters—almost pretending to be in a shipwreck or with Indians. “I know all about everything.”
“I dare say your father has his reasons,” Pemberton replied, but too vaguely, as he was aware.
“I suppose your father has his reasons,” Pemberton replied, although he knew it was too vague.
“For lying and cheating?”
"For lying and cheating?"
“For saving and managing and turning his means to the best account. He has plenty to do with his money. You’re an expensive family.”
“For saving, managing, and making the most of his money. He has a lot to handle with his finances. You’re a costly family.”
“Yes, I’m very expensive,” Morgan concurred in a manner that made his preceptor burst out laughing.
“Yes, I’m super pricey,” Morgan agreed, making his teacher burst out laughing.
“He’s saving for you,” said Pemberton. “They think of you in everything they do.”
“He’s saving for you,” Pemberton said. “They think of you in everything they do.”
“He might, while he’s about it, save a little—” The boy paused, and his friend waited to hear what. Then Morgan brought out oddly: “A little reputation.”
“He might, while he’s at it, save a little—” The boy paused, and his friend waited to hear what. Then Morgan said oddly, “A little reputation.”
“Oh there’s plenty of that. That’s all right!”
“Oh, there’s a lot of that. That’s fine!”
“Enough of it for the people they know, no doubt. The people they know are awful.”
“That's definitely enough for the people they know. The people they know are terrible.”
“Do you mean the princes? We mustn’t abuse the princes.”
“Are you talking about the princes? We shouldn’t mistreat the princes.”
“Why not? They haven’t married Paula—they haven’t married Amy. They only clean out Ulick.”
“Why not? They haven’t married Paula—they haven’t married Amy. They’re just taking care of Ulick.”
“You do know everything!” Pemberton declared.
“You know everything!” Pemberton declared.
“No, I don’t, after all. I don’t know what they live on, or how they live, or why they live! What have they got and how did they get it? Are they rich, are they poor, or have they a modeste aisance? Why are they always chiveying me about—living one year like ambassadors and the next like paupers? Who are they, any way, and what are they? I’ve thought of all that—I’ve thought of a lot of things. They’re so beastly worldly. That’s what I hate most—oh, I’ve seen it! All they care about is to make an appearance and to pass for something or other. What the dickens do they want to pass for? What do they, Mr. Pemberton?”
“No, I don’t, after all. I don’t know what they live on, or how they live, or why they live! What have they got and how did they get it? Are they rich, are they poor, or do they have a comfortable living? Why are they always bothering me about—living one year like ambassadors and the next like beggars? Who are they, anyway, and what are they? I’ve thought about all that—I’ve thought about a lot of things. They’re so annoyingly worldly. That’s what I hate most—oh, I’ve seen it! All they care about is making an impression and passing for something or other. What the heck do they want to pass for? What do they, Mr. Pemberton?”
“You pause for a reply,” said Pemberton, treating the question as a joke, yet wondering too and greatly struck with his mate’s intense if imperfect vision. “I haven’t the least idea.”
“You're waiting for an answer,” Pemberton said, taking the question lightly but feeling amazed by his companion's deep, if flawed, insight. “I have no clue.”
“And what good does it do? Haven’t I seen the way people treat them—the ‘nice’ people, the ones they want to know? They’ll take anything from them—they’ll lie down and be trampled on. The nice ones hate that—they just sicken them. You’re the only really nice person we know.”
“And what good does it do? Haven’t I seen how people treat them—the ‘nice’ people, the ones they want to be around? They’ll accept anything from them—they’ll lie down and let themselves get walked all over. The nice ones hate that—it just disgusts them. You’re the only truly nice person we know.”
“Are you sure? They don’t lie down for me!”
“Are you sure? They don’t lay down for me!”
“Well, you shan’t lie down for them. You’ve got to go—that’s what you’ve got to do,” said Morgan.
“Well, you shouldn’t lie down for them. You’ve got to go—that’s what you have to do,” said Morgan.
“And what will become of you?”
“And what will happen to you?”
“Oh I’m growing up. I shall get off before long. I’ll see you later.”
“Oh, I’m growing up. I’ll be leaving soon. I’ll catch you later.”
“You had better let me finish you,” Pemberton urged, lending himself to the child’s strange superiority.
“You’d better let me finish you,” Pemberton insisted, giving in to the child’s unusual sense of superiority.
Morgan stopped in their walk, looking up at him. He had to look up much less than a couple of years before—he had grown, in his loose leanness, so long and high. “Finish me?” he echoed.
Morgan stopped walking and looked up at him. He had to look up a lot less than a couple of years ago—he had grown, in his loose, lean frame, so tall and long. “Finish me?” he repeated.
“There are such a lot of jolly things we can do together yet. I want to turn you out—I want you to do me credit.”
“There are so many fun things we can do together still. I want to show you off—I want you to make me proud.”
Morgan continued to look at him. “To give you credit—do you mean?”
Morgan kept looking at him. “Are you saying you give him credit?”
“My dear fellow, you’re too clever to live.”
“My dear friend, you’re way too smart to survive.”
“That’s just what I’m afraid you think. No, no; it isn’t fair—I can’t endure it. We’ll separate next week. The sooner it’s over the sooner to sleep.”
"That’s exactly what I’m worried you think. No, it’s not fair—I can’t handle it. We’ll part ways next week. The sooner it’s done, the sooner I can sleep."
“If I hear of anything—any other chance—I promise to go,” Pemberton said.
“If I hear about anything—any other opportunity—I promise I'll go,” Pemberton said.
Morgan consented to consider this. “But you’ll be honest,” he demanded; “you won’t pretend you haven’t heard?”
Morgan agreed to think about it. “But you’ll be honest,” he insisted; “you won’t act like you haven’t heard?”
“I’m much more likely to pretend I have.”
“I’m way more likely to fake it.”
“But what can you hear of, this way, stuck in a hole with us? You ought to be on the spot, to go to England—you ought to go to America.”
“But what can you hear about, being stuck in a hole with us? You should be there, you should go to England—you should go to America.”
“One would think you were my tutor!” said Pemberton.
“One would think you were my tutor!” said Pemberton.
Morgan walked on and after a little had begun again: “Well, now that you know I know and that we look at the facts and keep nothing back—it’s much more comfortable, isn’t it?”
Morgan continued walking and after a moment started speaking again: “Well, now that you know I know and that we’re being honest about everything—it’s much more relaxing, isn’t it?”
“My dear boy, it’s so amusing, so interesting, that it will surely be quite impossible for me to forego such hours as these.”
“My dear boy, it’s so entertaining, so intriguing, that it’s definitely going to be impossible for me to miss out on hours like these.”
This made Morgan stop once more. “You do keep something back. Oh you’re not straight—I am!”
This made Morgan stop again. “You are holding something back. Oh, you’re not straight—I am!”
“How am I not straight?”
"How am I not straight?"
“Oh you’ve got your idea!”
"Oh, you've got your plan!"
“My idea?”
"What do you think?"
“Why that I probably shan’t make old—make older—bones, and that you can stick it out till I’m removed.”
“Why I probably won’t live to be old, and you can hang in there until I’m gone.”
“You are too clever to live!” Pemberton repeated.
“You are too smart to live!” Pemberton repeated.
“I call it a mean idea,” Morgan pursued. “But I shall punish you by the way I hang on.”
“I think it’s a terrible idea,” Morgan continued. “But I’ll get back at you by how I hold on.”
“Look out or I’ll poison you!” Pemberton laughed.
“Watch out or I’ll poison you!” Pemberton laughed.
“I’m stronger and better every year. Haven’t you noticed that there hasn’t been a doctor near me since you came?”
“I’m getting stronger and better every year. Haven’t you noticed that there hasn’t been a doctor around me since you showed up?”
“I’m your doctor,” said the young man, taking his arm and drawing him tenderly on again.
I'm your doctor," said the young man, gently taking his arm and guiding him forward again.
Morgan proceeded and after a few steps gave a sigh of mingled weariness and relief. “Ah now that we look at the facts it’s all right!”
Morgan moved on and after a few steps let out a sigh of both exhaustion and relief. “Well, now that we consider the facts, everything's fine!”
CHAPTER VII
They looked at the facts a good deal after this and one of the first consequences of their doing so was that Pemberton stuck it out, in his friend’s parlance, for the purpose. Morgan made the facts so vivid and so droll, and at the same time so bald and so ugly, that there was fascination in talking them over with him, just as there would have been heartlessness in leaving him alone with them. Now that the pair had such perceptions in common it was useless for them to pretend they didn’t judge such people; but the very judgement and the exchange of perceptions created another tie. Morgan had never been so interesting as now that he himself was made plainer by the sidelight of these confidences. What came out in it most was the small fine passion of his pride. He had plenty of that, Pemberton felt—so much that one might perhaps wisely wish for it some early bruises. He would have liked his people to have a spirit and had waked up to the sense of their perpetually eating humble-pie. His mother would consume any amount, and his father would consume even more than his mother. He had a theory that Ulick had wriggled out of an “affair” at Nice: there had once been a flurry at home, a regular panic, after which they all went to bed and took medicine, not to be accounted for on any other supposition. Morgan had a romantic imagination, led by poetry and history, and he would have liked those who “bore his name”—as he used to say to Pemberton with the humour that made his queer delicacies manly—to carry themselves with an air. But their one idea was to get in with people who didn’t want them and to take snubs as it they were honourable scars. Why people didn’t want them more he didn’t know—that was people’s own affair; after all they weren’t superficially repulsive, they were a hundred times cleverer than most of the dreary grandees, the “poor swells” they rushed about Europe to catch up with. “After all they are amusing—they are!” he used to pronounce with the wisdom of the ages. To which Pemberton always replied: “Amusing—the great Moreen troupe? Why they’re altogether delightful; and if it weren’t for the hitch that you and I (feeble performers!) make in the ensemble they’d carry everything before them.”
They spent a lot of time examining the facts afterward, and one of the first outcomes of this was that Pemberton decided to stick it out, as his friend would say, for the purpose. Morgan made the facts so vivid and amusing, yet at the same time so stark and unattractive, that it was captivating to discuss them with him; it would have felt heartless to leave him on his own with them. Now that the two of them shared such insights, it was pointless for them to pretend they didn’t judge those people; but their judgment and the sharing of perceptions formed another bond. Morgan had never been as interesting as he was now that his perspectives were illuminated by these discussions. What stood out most was the small, intense pride he had. Pemberton felt he had plenty of that—perhaps so much that it might be wise for him to experience some early setbacks. He wished his family had more spirit and realized how often they had to swallow their pride. His mother would take any amount, and his father would take even more than his mother. He had a theory that Ulick had gotten out of some sort of “affair” in Nice: there had once been a commotion at home, a full-blown panic, after which they all went to bed and took medicine, not to be explained in any other way. Morgan had a romantic imagination, driven by poetry and history, and he wished those who “carried his name”—as he would humorously tell Pemberton—would present themselves with confidence. But their main goal was to fit in with people who didn’t want them and to accept insults as if they were honorable scars. He didn’t understand why more people didn’t want them—that was their own issue; after all, they weren’t superficially unappealing, and they were a hundred times smarter than most of the dull aristocrats, the “poor swells” they raced around Europe to catch up with. “After all, they are entertaining—they really are!” he would declare with the wisdom of the ages. To which Pemberton always responded: “Entertaining—the great Moreen troupe? They’re absolutely delightful; and if it weren’t for the hiccup that you and I (feeble performers!) create in the ensemble, they’d achieve everything they set out to do.”
What the boy couldn’t get over was the fact that this particular blight seemed, in a tradition of self-respect, so undeserved and so arbitrary. No doubt people had a right to take the line they liked; but why should his people have liked the line of pushing and toadying and lying and cheating? What had their forefathers—all decent folk, so far as he knew—done to them, or what had he done to them? Who had poisoned their blood with the fifth-rate social ideal, the fixed idea of making smart acquaintances and getting into the monde chic, especially when it was foredoomed to failure and exposure? They showed so what they were after; that was what made the people they wanted not want them. And never a wince for dignity, never a throb of shame at looking each other in the face, never any independence or resentment or disgust. If his father or his brother would only knock some one down once or twice a year! Clever as they were they never guessed the impression they made. They were good-natured, yes—as good-natured as Jews at the doors of clothing-shops! But was that the model one wanted one’s family to follow? Morgan had dim memories of an old grandfather, the maternal, in New York, whom he had been taken across the ocean at the age of five to see: a gentleman with a high neck-cloth and a good deal of pronunciation, who wore a dress-coat in the morning, which made one wonder what he wore in the evening, and had, or was supposed to have “property” and something to do with the Bible Society. It couldn’t have been but that he was a good type. Pemberton himself remembered Mrs. Clancy, a widowed sister of Mr. Moreen’s, who was as irritating as a moral tale and had paid a fortnight’s visit to the family at Nice shortly after he came to live with them. She was “pure and refined,” as Amy said over the banjo, and had the air of not knowing what they meant when they talked, and of keeping something rather important back. Pemberton judged that what she kept back was an approval of many of their ways; therefore it was to be supposed that she too was of a good type, and that Mr. and Mrs. Moreen and Ulick and Paula and Amy might easily have been of a better one if they would.
What the boy couldn’t understand was why this particular struggle felt, in a way that respected oneself, so undeserved and random. Sure, people had the right to choose their path; but why did his family choose the path of sycophancy, dishonesty, and scams? What had their ancestors—all decent people, as far as he knew—done to deserve this, or what had he done to deserve it? Who had tainted their character with a second-rate social ideal, fixating on making trendy connections and getting into the chic crowd, especially when it was destined to fail and be revealed? They were so transparent about their intentions; that’s what made the people they wanted avoid them. And there was never a hint of dignity, never a flicker of shame when looking each other in the eye, never any independence or resentment or disgust. If only his father or brother would stand up for themselves once or twice a year! Smart as they were, they never realized the impression they left. They were good-natured, sure—just as good-natured as Jews at the doors of clothing shops! But was that really the role model one wanted for their family? Morgan had faint memories of an old grandfather, his mom's side, in New York, whom he visited across the ocean at the age of five: a gentleman with a high collar and a posh way of speaking, who wore a dress coat in the morning, making one wonder what he wore in the evening, and who had, or was supposed to have, "property" and some connection to the Bible Society. He must have been a good type. Pemberton himself recalled Mrs. Clancy, a widowed sister of Mr. Moreen’s, who was as annoying as a moral tale and had stayed with the family for two weeks in Nice shortly after he moved in with them. She was “pure and refined,” as Amy said while playing the banjo, and had the vibe of not really understanding their conversations, holding something significant back. Pemberton thought that what she held back was her approval of many of their ways; hence, it could be supposed that she too was a good type, and that Mr. and Mrs. Moreen and Ulick and Paula and Amy could easily have been of a better sort if they just tried.
But that they wouldn’t was more and more perceptible from day to day. They continued to “chivey,” as Morgan called it, and in due time became aware of a variety of reasons for proceeding to Venice. They mentioned a great many of them—they were always strikingly frank and had the brightest friendly chatter, at the late foreign breakfast in especial, before the ladies had made up their faces, when they leaned their arms on the table, had something to follow the demitasse, and, in the heat of familiar discussion as to what they “really ought” to do, fell inevitably into the languages in which they could tutoyer. Even Pemberton liked them then; he could endure even Ulick when he heard him give his little flat voice for the “sweet sea-city.” That was what made him have a sneaking kindness for them—that they were so out of the workaday world and kept him so out of it. The summer had waned when, with cries of ecstasy, they all passed out on the balcony that overhung the Grand Canal. The sunsets then were splendid and the Dorringtons had arrived. The Dorringtons were the only reason they hadn’t talked of at breakfast; but the reasons they didn’t talk of at breakfast always came out in the end. The Dorringtons on the other hand came out very little; or else when they did they stayed—as was natural—for hours, during which periods Mrs. Moreen and the girls sometimes called at their hotel (to see if they had returned) as many as three times running. The gondola was for the ladies, as in Venice too there were “days,” which Mrs. Moreen knew in their order an hour after she arrived. She immediately took one herself, to which the Dorringtons never came, though on a certain occasion when Pemberton and his pupil were together at St. Mark’s—where, taking the best walks they had ever had and haunting a hundred churches, they spent a great deal of time—they saw the old lord turn up with Mr. Moreen and Ulick, who showed him the dim basilica as if it belonged to them. Pemberton noted how much less, among its curiosities, Lord Dorrington carried himself as a man of the world; wondering too whether, for such services, his companions took a fee from him. The autumn at any rate waned, the Dorringtons departed, and Lord Verschoyle, the eldest son, had proposed neither for Amy nor for Paula.
But it was becoming more obvious every day that they wouldn’t. They kept “chiveying,” as Morgan called it, and soon realized they had many reasons to go to Venice. They brought up a lot of them—they were always refreshingly honest and had the best friendly banter, especially during the late breakfast before the ladies were ready, when they leaned on the table, had something after their demitasse, and in the heat of their easy conversation about what they “really should” do, naturally switched into languages where they could use familiar terms. Even Pemberton liked them then; he could even tolerate Ulick when he heard him using his little flat voice to talk about the “sweet sea-city.” That was what made him have a secret fondness for them—they were so far removed from the everyday world and kept him away from it too. Summer was fading when, with cries of excitement, they all rushed out onto the balcony overlooking the Grand Canal. The sunsets were stunning, and the Dorringtons had arrived. The Dorringtons were the only topic they hadn’t mentioned at breakfast, but the topics they avoided always came up in the end. The Dorringtons, on the other hand, rarely showed themselves; or when they did, they stayed—for hours, naturally—during which Mrs. Moreen and the girls sometimes checked at their hotel (to see if they had come back) as many as three times in a row. The gondola was for the ladies since there were “days” in Venice too, which Mrs. Moreen quickly learned about the moment she arrived. She immediately took one herself, but the Dorringtons never joined her, although on one occasion when Pemberton and his pupil were together at St. Mark’s—where they took the best walks they’d ever had and visited countless churches—they saw the old lord show up with Mr. Moreen and Ulick, who showed him the dim basilica as if it belonged to them. Pemberton noticed how much less worldly Lord Dorrington appeared among its curiosities; he also wondered if his companions were charging him for such services. In any case, autumn faded, the Dorringtons left, and Lord Verschoyle, the eldest son, hadn’t proposed to either Amy or Paula.
One sad November day, while the wind roared round the old palace and the rain lashed the lagoon, Pemberton, for exercise and even somewhat for warmth—the Moreens were horribly frugal about fires; it was a cause of suffering to their inmate—walked up and down the big bare sala with his pupil. The scagliola floor was cold, the high battered casements shook in the storm, and the stately decay of the place was unrelieved by a particle of furniture. Pemberton’s spirits were low, and it came over him that the fortune of the Moreens was now even lower. A blast of desolation, a portent of disgrace and disaster, seemed to draw through the comfortless hall. Mr. Moreen and Ulick were in the Piazza, looking out for something, strolling drearily, in mackintoshes, under the arcades; but still, in spite of mackintoshes, unmistakeable men of the world. Paula and Amy were in bed—it might have been thought they were staying there to keep warm. Pemberton looked askance at the boy at his side, to see to what extent he was conscious of these dark omens. But Morgan, luckily for him, was now mainly conscious of growing taller and stronger and indeed of being in his fifteenth year. This fact was intensely interesting to him and the basis of a private theory—which, however, he had imparted to his tutor—that in a little while he should stand on his own feet. He considered that the situation would change—that in short he should be “finished,” grown up, producible in the world of affairs and ready to prove himself of sterling ability. Sharply as he was capable at times of analysing, as he called it, his life, there were happy hours when he remained, as he also called it—and as the name, really, of their right ideal—“jolly” superficial; the proof of which was his fundamental assumption that he should presently go to Oxford, to Pemberton’s college, and, aided and abetted by Pemberton, do the most wonderful things. It depressed the young man to see how little in such a project he took account of ways and means: in other connexions he mostly kept to the measure. Pemberton tried to imagine the Moreens at Oxford and fortunately failed; yet unless they were to adopt it as a residence there would be no modus vivendi for Morgan. How could he live without an allowance, and where was the allowance to come from? He, Pemberton, might live on Morgan; but how could Morgan live on him? What was to become of him anyhow? Somehow the fact that he was a big boy now, with better prospects of health, made the question of his future more difficult. So long as he was markedly frail the great consideration he inspired seemed enough of an answer to it. But at the bottom of Pemberton’s heart was the recognition of his probably being strong enough to live and not yet strong enough to struggle or to thrive. Morgan himself at any rate was in the first flush of the rosiest consciousness of adolescence, so that the beating of the tempest seemed to him after all but the voice of life and the challenge of fate. He had on his shabby little overcoat, with the collar up, but was enjoying his walk.
One gloomy November day, while the wind howled around the old palace and the rain pounded down on the lagoon, Pemberton, in need of exercise and somewhat to keep warm—the Moreens were painfully stingy about fires, which was a source of discomfort for him—paced back and forth in the large empty hall with his student. The scagliola floor was cold, the tall, battered windows rattled in the storm, and the grand decay of the place felt even more stark without any furniture. Pemberton was feeling down, and it struck him that the Moreens' fortune was even gloomier. A wave of desolation, a sign of shame and disaster, seemed to sweep through the unwelcoming hall. Mr. Moreen and Ulick were outside in the Piazza, looking for something, meandering aimlessly in their raincoats under the arcade; but still, despite the raincoats, they unmistakably appeared to be men of the world. Paula and Amy were in bed—one could assume they were staying there to keep warm. Pemberton glanced at the boy beside him, curious about how aware he was of these dark signs. But fortunately for him, Morgan was mainly focused on growing taller and stronger, indeed on being fifteen. This fact was of great interest to him and formed the basis of a theory he had shared with his tutor—that soon he would be standing on his own two feet. He believed that the situation would improve—that he would, in fact, be “finished,” grown-up, ready to make a mark in the world and prove he had real talent. Although he was capable of analyzing his life sharply at times, there were also happy moments when he remained, as he called it—and as the term genuinely represented their ideal—“jolly” superficial; the evidence of this was his fundamental belief that he would soon go to Oxford, to Pemberton's college, and, with Pemberton's support, accomplish amazing things. It saddened Pemberton to see how little consideration Morgan gave to the practicalities of such a plan: typically, he was more pragmatic about other matters. Pemberton tried to picture the Moreens at Oxford and luckily failed; yet unless they decided to move there, Morgan would have no way of making a living. How could he survive without an allowance, and where would that money even come from? Pemberton could potentially live off Morgan, but how could Morgan live off him? What would happen to him, anyway? The simple fact that he was now a big boy with better prospects for health complicated the question of his future. While he was noticeably frail, the concern he inspired seemed to answer the question adequately. Deep down in Pemberton’s heart was the realization that Morgan was likely strong enough to live but not yet strong enough to fight or prosper. At least Morgan was experiencing the initial thrill of adolescence, so to him, the storm seemed merely the voice of life and a challenge from fate. He wore his worn little overcoat with the collar up, but he was enjoying his walk.
It was interrupted at last by the appearance of his mother at the end of the sala. She beckoned him to come to her, and while Pemberton saw him, complaisant, pass down the long vista and over the damp false marble, he wondered what was in the air. Mrs. Moreen said a word to the boy and made him go into the room she had quitted. Then, having closed the door after him, she directed her steps swiftly to Pemberton. There was something in the air, but his wildest flight of fancy wouldn’t have suggested what it proved to be. She signified that she had made a pretext to get Morgan out of the way, and then she enquired—without hesitation—if the young man could favour her with the loan of three louis. While, before bursting into a laugh, he stared at her with surprise, she declared that she was awfully pressed for the money; she was desperate for it—it would save her life.
It was finally interrupted by his mother appearing at the end of the hallway. She signaled for him to come over, and while Pemberton watched him, politely walking down the long corridor and across the damp faux marble, he wondered what was going on. Mrs. Moreen said something to the boy and sent him into the room she had just left. After closing the door behind him, she quickly made her way to Pemberton. There was definitely something happening, but even his wildest imagination wouldn't have guessed what it turned out to be. She indicated that she had made up a reason to get Morgan out of the way, and then she asked—without any hesitation—if the young man could lend her three louis. Before he could stop himself from laughing, he stared at her in shock as she insisted that she was in serious need of the money; she was desperate for it—it would save her life.
“Dear lady, c’est trop fort!” Pemberton laughed in the manner and with the borrowed grace of idiom that marked the best colloquial, the best anecdotic, moments of his friends themselves. “Where in the world do you suppose I should get three louis, du train dont vous allez?”
“Dear lady, that’s too much!” Pemberton laughed in the style and with the borrowed charm of the expressions that characterized the best casual and anecdotal moments of his friends. “Where in the world do you think I could get three louis, from the train you’re going to?”
“I thought you worked—wrote things. Don’t they pay you?”
“I thought you had a job—wrote things. Don’t they pay you?”
“Not a penny.”
"Not a cent."
“Are you such a fool as to work for nothing?”
“Are you really so foolish as to work for free?”
“You ought surely to know that.”
“You definitely should know that.”
Mrs. Moreen stared, then she coloured a little. Pemberton saw she had quite forgotten the terms—if “terms” they could be called—that he had ended by accepting from herself; they had burdened her memory as little as her conscience. “Oh yes, I see what you mean—you’ve been very nice about that; but why drag it in so often?” She had been perfectly urbane with him ever since the rough scene of explanation in his room the morning he made her accept his “terms”—the necessity of his making his case known to Morgan. She had felt no resentment after seeing there was no danger Morgan would take the matter up with her. Indeed, attributing this immunity to the good taste of his influence with the boy, she had once said to Pemberton “My dear fellow, it’s an immense comfort you’re a gentleman.” She repeated this in substance now. “Of course you’re a gentleman—that’s a bother the less!” Pemberton reminded her that he had not “dragged in” anything that wasn’t already in as much as his foot was in his shoe; and she also repeated her prayer that, somewhere and somehow, he would find her sixty francs. He took the liberty of hinting that if he could find them it wouldn’t be to lend them to her—as to which he consciously did himself injustice, knowing that if he had them he would certainly put them at her disposal. He accused himself, at bottom and not unveraciously, of a fantastic, a demoralised sympathy with her. If misery made strange bedfellows it also made strange sympathies. It was moreover a part of the abasement of living with such people that one had to make vulgar retorts, quite out of one’s own tradition of good manners. “Morgan, Morgan, to what pass have I come for you?” he groaned while Mrs. Moreen floated voluminously down the sala again to liberate the boy, wailing as she went that everything was too odious.
Mrs. Moreen stared, then she blushed a bit. Pemberton noticed she had completely forgotten the terms—if you could even call them that—that he had reluctantly accepted from her; they weighed on her mind as little as they did on her conscience. “Oh yes, I get what you mean—you’ve been very kind about that; but why bring it up so often?” She had been perfectly polite with him ever since their awkward conversation in his room the morning he had her agree to his “terms”—the need for him to share his situation with Morgan. She felt no hard feelings after realizing there was no risk of Morgan bringing it up with her. In fact, believing this luck was due to his good influence with the boy, she once told Pemberton, “My dear fellow, it’s such a relief that you’re a gentleman.” She reiterated this now. “Of course, you’re a gentleman—that’s one less hassle!” Pemberton reminded her that he hadn’t “brought in” anything that wasn’t already there, just like his foot was in his shoe; and she also repeated her request that he somehow find her sixty francs. He felt free to suggest that if he managed to find them, it wouldn’t be to lend them to her—about which he knowingly shortchanged himself, aware that if he had the money, he would definitely offer it to her. Deep down, he felt a bizarre and somewhat unhealthy sympathy for her. If misery made for unusual companions, it also created strange sympathies. Additionally, part of the humiliation of living with such people was having to make crass remarks that were totally outside of his usual sense of etiquette. “Morgan, Morgan, what have I become for you?” he lamented as Mrs. Moreen floated grandly down the room again to free the boy, complaining as she went that everything was just too awful.
Before their young friend was liberated there came a thump at the door communicating with the staircase, followed by the apparition of a dripping youth who poked in his head. Pemberton recognised him as the bearer of a telegram and recognised the telegram as addressed to himself. Morgan came back as, after glancing at the signature—that of a relative in London—he was reading the words: “Found a jolly job for you, engagement to coach opulent youth on own terms. Come at once.” The answer happily was paid and the messenger waited. Morgan, who had drawn near, waited too and looked hard at Pemberton; and Pemberton, after a moment, having met his look, handed him the telegram. It was really by wise looks—they knew each other so well now—that, while the telegraph-boy, in his waterproof cape, made a great puddle on the floor, the thing was settled between them. Pemberton wrote the answer with a pencil against the frescoed wall, and the messenger departed. When he had gone the young man explained himself.
Before their young friend was freed, there was a loud knock at the door connecting to the staircase, followed by the appearance of a drenched young man who poked his head in. Pemberton recognized him as the messenger of a telegram and saw that the telegram was addressed to him. Morgan returned as he glanced at the signature—his relative in London—and was reading the words: “Found a great job for you, opportunity to coach wealthy young people on your own terms. Come right away.” The good news was that the response was prepaid, and the messenger waited. Morgan, who had stepped closer, also waited and looked intently at Pemberton; and Pemberton, after a moment of meeting his gaze, handed him the telegram. It was really through knowing looks—they were so familiar with each other now—that, while the telegraph boy, in his raincoat, made a big puddle on the floor, the decision was made between them. Pemberton wrote the reply with a pencil against the frescoed wall, and the messenger left. Once he was gone, the young man explained himself.
“I’ll make a tremendous charge; I’ll earn a lot of money in a short time, and we’ll live on it.”
“I’ll make a big move; I’ll earn a lot of money quickly, and we’ll live off it.”
“Well, I hope the opulent youth will be a dismal dunce—he probably will—” Morgan parenthesised—“and keep you a long time a-hammering of it in.”
“Well, I hope the wealthy kid will be a complete fool—he probably will be—” Morgan added—“and keep you busy trying to get through to him.”
“Of course the longer he keeps me the more we shall have for our old age.”
“Of course, the longer he keeps me, the more we’ll have for our retirement.”
“But suppose they don’t pay you!” Morgan awfully suggested.
“But what if they don’t pay you?” Morgan suggested ominously.
“Oh there are not two such—!” But Pemberton pulled up; he had been on the point of using too invidious a term. Instead of this he said “Two such fatalities.”
“Oh, there aren't two like that—!” But Pemberton stopped; he had almost used too harsh a term. Instead, he said, “Two such disasters.”
Morgan flushed—the tears came to his eyes. “Dites toujours two such rascally crews!” Then in a different tone he added: “Happy opulent youth!”
Morgan's face turned red, and tears filled his eyes. “Always talking about those two sneaky groups!” Then in a different tone, he added: “Lucky, wealthy youth!”
“Not if he’s a dismal dunce.”
“Not if he's a complete fool.”
“Oh they’re happier then. But you can’t have everything, can you?” the boy smiled.
“Oh, they’re happier now. But you can’t have everything, can you?” the boy smiled.
Pemberton held him fast, hands on his shoulders—he had never loved him so. “What will become of you, what will you do?” He thought of Mrs. Moreen, desperate for sixty francs.
Pemberton held him tightly, hands on his shoulders—he had never loved him more. “What’s going to happen to you, what will you do?” He thought of Mrs. Moreen, desperate for sixty francs.
“I shall become an homme fait.” And then as if he recognised all the bearings of Pemberton’s allusion: “I shall get on with them better when you’re not here.”
“I will become a man of means.” And then as if he understood all the implications of Pemberton’s reference: “I will get along with them better when you’re not around.”
“Ah don’t say that—it sounds as if I set you against them!”
“Ah, don’t say that—it sounds like I turned you against them!”
“You do—the sight of you. It’s all right; you know what I mean. I shall be beautiful. I’ll take their affairs in hand; I’ll marry my sisters.”
“You do—the sight of you. It’s all good; you know what I mean. I will be beautiful. I’ll take charge of their affairs; I’ll marry my sisters.”
“You’ll marry yourself!” joked Pemberton; as high, rather tense pleasantry would evidently be the right, or the safest, tone for their separation.
“You’ll marry yourself!” joked Pemberton; as high, somewhat tense humor seemed to be the right, or safest, way to handle their separation.
It was, however, not purely in this strain that Morgan suddenly asked: “But I say—how will you get to your jolly job? You’ll have to telegraph to the opulent youth for money to come on.”
It wasn’t just in that tone that Morgan suddenly asked, “But hey—how are you getting to your awesome job? You'll need to wire the wealthy kid for money to get here.”
Pemberton bethought himself. “They won’t like that, will they?”
Pemberton thought to himself, "They won't like that, will they?"
“Oh look out for them!”
“Oh, watch out for them!”
Then Pemberton brought out his remedy. “I’ll go to the American Consul; I’ll borrow some money of him—just for the few days, on the strength of the telegram.”
Then Pemberton pulled out his solution. “I’ll go to the American Consul; I’ll borrow some money from him—just for a few days, based on the telegram.”
Morgan was hilarious. “Show him the telegram—then collar the money and stay!”
Morgan was so funny. “Show him the telegram—then grab the cash and stay!”
Pemberton entered into the joke sufficiently to reply that for Morgan he was really capable of that; but the boy, growing more serious, and to prove he hadn’t meant what he said, not only hurried him off to the Consulate—since he was to start that evening, as he had wired to his friend—but made sure of their affair by going with him. They splashed through the tortuous perforations and over the humpbacked bridges, and they passed through the Piazza, where they saw Mr. Moreen and Ulick go into a jeweller’s shop. The Consul proved accommodating—Pemberton said it wasn’t the letter, but Morgan’s grand air—and on their way back they went into Saint Mark’s for a hushed ten minutes. Later they took up and kept up the fun of it to the very end; and it seemed to Pemberton a part of that fun that Mrs. Moreen, who was very angry when he had announced her his intention, should charge him, grotesquely and vulgarly and in reference to the loan she had vainly endeavoured to effect, with bolting lest they should “get something out” of him. On the other hand he had to do Mr. Moreen and Ulick the justice to recognise that when on coming in they heard the cruel news they took it like perfect men of the world.
Pemberton got into the joke enough to say that for Morgan, he really could pull that off; but the boy, becoming more serious and wanting to show he hadn’t meant what he said, not only rushed him off to the Consulate—since he was set to leave that evening as he had texted his friend—but also made sure everything was handled by going with him. They splashed through the winding alleys and over the humped bridges, and they passed through the Piazza, where they saw Mr. Moreen and Ulick walk into a jewelry store. The Consul was accommodating—Pemberton said it wasn’t the letter, but Morgan’s confident manner—and on their way back, they stopped by Saint Mark’s for a quiet ten minutes. Later, they continued the fun right until the end; and it seemed to Pemberton that part of that fun was that Mrs. Moreen, who was very upset when he announced his plans, should accuse him, in a ridiculous and vulgar way and referring to the loan she had tried unsuccessfully to arrange, of running away so that they couldn’t “get anything out” of him. On the other hand, he had to give Mr. Moreen and Ulick credit for handling the bad news like true gentlemen.
CHAPTER VIII
When he got at work with the opulent youth, who was to be taken in hand for Balliol, he found himself unable to say if this aspirant had really such poor parts or if the appearance were only begotten of his own long association with an intensely living little mind. From Morgan he heard half a dozen times: the boy wrote charming young letters, a patchwork of tongues, with indulgent postscripts in the family Volapuk and, in little squares and rounds and crannies of the text, the drollest illustrations—letters that he was divided between the impulse to show his present charge as a vain, a wasted incentive, and the sense of something in them that publicity would profane. The opulent youth went up in due course and failed to pass; but it seemed to add to the presumption that brilliancy was not expected of him all at once that his parents, condoning the lapse, which they good-naturedly treated as little as possible as if it were Pemberton’s, should have sounded the rally again, begged the young coach to renew the siege.
When he started working with the wealthy young student who was supposed to enroll at Balliol, he found it hard to tell if this aspiring student truly lacked ability or if that impression came from his long exposure to a brightly shining but small mind. From Morgan, he heard multiple times that the boy wrote delightful young letters, a mix of languages, with indulgent postscripts in the family’s own version of Volapük, and sprinkled throughout the text were the most amusing illustrations—letters that made him feel torn between wanting to show his current student as a vain and wasted opportunity and feeling that there was something in them that would be tarnished by public exposure. The wealthy youth went up for his exams and ended up failing; however, it seemed to reinforce the idea that great success wasn’t expected from him immediately, as his parents, kindly brushing off this failure while treating it as lightly as they could, much like it was Pemberton’s, had encouraged him to try again and asked the young coach to keep pushing him.
The young coach was now in a position to lend Mrs. Moreen three louis, and he sent her a post-office order even for a larger amount. In return for this favour he received a frantic scribbled line from her: “Implore you to come back instantly—Morgan dreadfully ill.” They were on there rebound, once more in Paris—often as Pemberton had seen them depressed he had never seen them crushed—and communication was therefore rapid. He wrote to the boy to ascertain the state of his health, but awaited the answer in vain. He accordingly, after three days, took an abrupt leave of the opulent youth and, crossing the Channel, alighted at the small hotel, in the quarter of the Champs Elysées, of which Mrs. Moreen had given him the address. A deep if dumb dissatisfaction with this lady and her companions bore him company: they couldn’t be vulgarly honest, but they could live at hotels, in velvety entresols, amid a smell of burnt pastilles, surrounded by the most expensive city in Europe. When he had left them in Venice it was with an irrepressible suspicion that something was going to happen; but the only thing that could have taken place was again their masterly retreat. “How is he? where is he?” he asked of Mrs. Moreen; but before she could speak these questions were answered by the pressure round hid neck of a pair of arms, in shrunken sleeves, which still were perfectly capable of an effusive young foreign squeeze.
The young coach was now able to lend Mrs. Moreen three louis, and he even sent her a post-office order for a larger amount. In return for this favor, he received a frantic, scrawled note from her: “I implore you to come back immediately—Morgan is dreadfully ill.” They were back in Paris again—no matter how often Pemberton had seen them down, he had never seen them completely defeated—and communication was quick. He wrote to the boy to check on his health but waited in vain for a response. After three days, he decided to leave the wealthy young man abruptly and crossed the Channel, arriving at the small hotel in the Champs Elysées area that Mrs. Moreen had given him the address for. A deep but unexpressed dissatisfaction with this lady and her friends accompanied him: they couldn’t be openly honest, but they could stay in hotels, in luxurious lofts, surrounded by the expensive atmosphere of the city. When he had left them in Venice, he felt an undeniable suspicion that something was going to happen; but the only thing that could have occurred was their impressive retreat. “How is he? Where is he?” he asked Mrs. Moreen, but before she could respond, his questions were answered by the tight embrace of a pair of arms in shrunken sleeves, which were still perfectly capable of a warm, youthful squeeze.
“Dreadfully ill—I don’t see it!” the young man cried. And then to Morgan: “Why on earth didn’t you relieve me? Why didn’t you answer my letter?”
“Really sick—I can’t believe it!” the young man exclaimed. And then to Morgan: “Why didn’t you help me? Why didn’t you reply to my letter?”
Mrs. Moreen declared that when she wrote he was very bad, and Pemberton learned at the same time from the boy that he had answered every letter he had received. This led to the clear inference that Pemberton’s note had been kept from him so that the game practised should not be interfered with. Mrs. Moreen was prepared to see the fact exposed, as Pemberton saw the moment he faced her that she was prepared for a good many other things. She was prepared above all to maintain that she had acted from a sense of duty, that she was enchanted she had got him over, whatever they might say, and that it was useless of him to pretend he didn’t know in all his bones that his place at such a time was with Morgan. He had taken the boy away from them and now had no right to abandon him. He had created for himself the gravest responsibilities and must at least abide by what he had done.
Mrs. Moreen declared that when she wrote he was very bad, and Pemberton learned at the same time from the boy that he had answered every letter he had received. This led to the clear inference that Pemberton’s note had been kept from him so that the game being played wouldn’t be interrupted. Mrs. Moreen was ready to see the truth come out, as Pemberton realized the moment he faced her that she was also ready for a good many other things. She was determined above all to insist that she had acted out of a sense of duty, that she was thrilled she had gotten him over, no matter what anyone else might say, and that it was pointless for him to pretend he didn’t know deep down that his place at that time was with Morgan. He had taken the boy away from them and now had no right to abandon him. He had created for himself the most serious responsibilities and must at least stand by what he had done.
“Taken him away from you?” Pemberton exclaimed indignantly.
“Taken him away from you?” Pemberton exclaimed angrily.
“Do it—do it for pity’s sake; that’s just what I want. I can’t stand this—and such scenes. They’re awful frauds—poor dears!” These words broke from Morgan, who had intermitted his embrace, in a key which made Pemberton turn quickly to him and see that he had suddenly seated himself, was breathing in great pain, and was very pale.
“Just do it—please, for the sake of compassion; that’s exactly what I want. I can’t handle this—these situations are terrible. They’re just awful pretenders—poor things!” These words came out of Morgan, who had briefly let go of his hug, in a tone that made Pemberton quickly look at him and see that he had suddenly sat down, was breathing heavily in pain, and looked very pale.
“Now do you say he’s not in a state, my precious pet?” shouted his mother, dropping on her knees before him with clasped hands, but touching him no more than if he had been a gilded idol. “It will pass—it’s only for an instant; but don’t say such dreadful things!”
“Now are you saying he’s not in a state, my dear?” shouted his mother, falling to her knees in front of him with her hands clasped, but not touching him any more than if he were a golden statue. “It will pass—it’s just for a moment; but please don’t say such terrible things!”
“I’m all right—all right,” Morgan panted to Pemberton, whom he sat looking up at with a strange smile, his hands resting on either side of the sofa.
“I’m fine—totally fine,” Morgan panted to Pemberton, whom he was looking up at with a strange smile, his hands resting on either side of the sofa.
“Now do you pretend I’ve been dishonest, that I’ve deceived?” Mrs. Moreen flashed at Pemberton as she got up.
“Are you seriously saying that I've been dishonest, that I've deceived you?” Mrs. Moreen shot at Pemberton as she stood up.
“It isn’t he says it, it’s I!” the boy returned, apparently easier, but sinking back against the wall; while his restored friend, who had sat down beside him, took his hand and bent over him.
“It’s not he who says it, it’s me!” the boy replied, seeming more relaxed, but sliding back against the wall; while his revived friend, who had sat down next to him, took his hand and leaned over him.
“Darling child, one does what one can; there are so many things to consider,” urged Mrs. Moreen. “It’s his place—his only place. You see you think it is now.”
“Darling child, you do what you can; there are so many things to think about,” urged Mrs. Moreen. “It’s his place—his only place. You see you think it is now.”
“Take me away—take me away,” Morgan went on, smiling to Pemberton with his white face.
“Take me away—take me away,” Morgan continued, smiling at Pemberton with his pale face.
“Where shall I take you, and how—oh how, my boy?” the young man stammered, thinking of the rude way in which his friends in London held that, for his convenience, with no assurance of prompt return, he had thrown them over; of the just resentment with which they would already have called in a successor, and of the scant help to finding fresh employment that resided for him in the grossness of his having failed to pass his pupil.
“Where should I take you, and how—oh how, my boy?” the young man stammered, thinking about how rudely his friends in London believed that, for his own convenience and with no promise of a quick return, he had abandoned them; about the justified anger they must already feel as they would have called in a replacement, and about how little help finding new work he would have due to his failure to pass his student.
“Oh we’ll settle that. You used to talk about it,” said Morgan. “If we can only go all the rest’s a detail.”
“Oh, we’ll take care of that. You used to mention it,” said Morgan. “If we can just get through that, everything else is just a detail.”
“Talk about it as much as you like, but don’t think you can attempt it. Mr. Moreen would never consent—it would be so very hand-to-mouth,” Pemberton’s hostess beautifully explained to him. Then to Morgan she made it clearer: “It would destroy our peace, it would break our hearts. Now that he’s back it will be all the same again. You’ll have your life, your work and your freedom, and we’ll all be happy as we used to be. You’ll bloom and grow perfectly well, and we won’t have any more silly experiments, will we? They’re too absurd. It’s Mr. Pemberton’s place—every one in his place. You in yours, your papa in his, me in mine—n’est-ce pas, chéri? We’ll all forget how foolish we’ve been and have lovely times.”
“Talk about it as much as you want, but don’t think you can actually try it. Mr. Moreen would never agree—it would be so very hand-to-mouth,” Pemberton’s hostess explained beautifully to him. Then she made it clearer to Morgan: “It would ruin our peace, it would break our hearts. Now that he’s back, everything will be the same again. You’ll have your life, your work, and your freedom, and we’ll all be as happy as we used to be. You’ll thrive just fine, and we won’t do any more silly experiments, will we? They’re too ridiculous. It’s Mr. Pemberton’s place—everyone in their place. You in yours, your dad in his, me in mine—n’est-ce pas, chéri? We’ll all forget how foolish we’ve been and have a great time.”
She continued to talk and to surge vaguely about the little draped stuffy salon while Pemberton sat with the boy, whose colour gradually came back; and she mixed up her reasons, hinting that there were going to be changes, that the other children might scatter (who knew?—Paula had her ideas) and that then it might be fancied how much the poor old parent-birds would want the little nestling. Morgan looked at Pemberton, who wouldn’t let him move; and Pemberton knew exactly how he felt at hearing himself called a little nestling. He admitted that he had had one or two bad days, but he protested afresh against the wrong of his mother’s having made them the ground of an appeal to poor Pemberton. Poor Pemberton could laugh now, apart from the comicality of Mrs. Moreen’s mustering so much philosophy for her defence—she seemed to shake it out of her agitated petticoats, which knocked over the light gilt chairs—so little did their young companion, marked, unmistakeably marked at the best, strike him as qualified to repudiate any advantage.
She kept talking and wandering aimlessly around the little draped, stuffy living room while Pemberton sat with the boy, whose color gradually returned. She mixed up her reasons, hinting that changes were coming, that the other kids might scatter (who knew?—Paula had her ideas), and that then it might be imagined how much the poor old parent-birds would miss the little nestling. Morgan looked at Pemberton, who wouldn’t let him move; Pemberton knew exactly how he felt being called a little nestling. He admitted that he had had a couple of rough days, but he insisted again that it was wrong for his mother to use them as a way to appeal to poor Pemberton. Poor Pemberton could laugh now, aside from the absurdity of Mrs. Moreen trying to muster so much philosophy to defend herself—she seemed to shake it out of her agitated petticoats, which knocked over the light gilt chairs—so little did their young companion, marked, unmistakably marked at best, seem like someone who could refuse any advantage.
He himself was in for it at any rate. He should have Morgan on his hands again indefinitely; though indeed he saw the lad had a private theory to produce which would be intended to smooth this down. He was obliged to him for it in advance; but the suggested amendment didn’t keep his heart rather from sinking, any more than it prevented him from accepting the prospect on the spot, with some confidence moreover that he should do so even better if he could have a little supper. Mrs. Moreen threw out more hints about the changes that were to be looked for, but she was such a mixture of smiles and shudders—she confessed she was very nervous—that he couldn’t tell if she were in high feather or only in hysterics. If the family was really at last going to pieces why shouldn’t she recognise the necessity of pitching Morgan into some sort of lifeboat? This presumption was fostered by the fact that they were established in luxurious quarters in the capital of pleasure; that was exactly where they naturally would be established in view of going to pieces. Moreover didn’t she mention that Mr. Moreen and the others were enjoying themselves at the opera with Mr. Granger, and wasn’t that also precisely where one would look for them on the eve of a smash? Pemberton gathered that Mr. Granger was a rich vacant American—a big bill with a flourishy heading and no items; so that one of Paula’s “ideas” was probably that this time she hadn’t missed fire—by which straight shot indeed she would have shattered the general cohesion. And if the cohesion was to crumble what would become of poor Pemberton? He felt quite enough bound up with them to figure to his alarm as a dislodged block in the edifice.
He was definitely in for it. He’d have Morgan on his hands for the foreseeable future; although he could tell the guy had a personal theory he’d want to share that would aim to smooth things over. He appreciated that in advance, but the suggestion didn’t prevent his heart from sinking any more than it stopped him from facing the situation on the spot, with some confidence that he’d handle it even better if he could have a little dinner first. Mrs. Moreen kept hinting at the changes that were coming, but she was such a mix of smiles and nervousness—she admitted she was really anxious—that he couldn’t tell if she was feeling great or just having a breakdown. If the family was really falling apart, why wouldn’t she see the need to throw Morgan a lifeline? This thought was supported by the fact that they were settled in luxury in the entertainment capital; that’s exactly where you’d expect them to be if they were falling apart. Plus, didn’t she say that Mr. Moreen and the others were having a great time at the opera with Mr. Granger? Wasn’t that exactly where you’d expect them to be right before everything went south? Pemberton figured Mr. Granger was a rich but shallow American—like a big bill with an elaborately written heading and no real details; so it seemed one of Paula’s “ideas” was probably that this time she hadn’t messed up—this shot would truly shatter their cohesion. And if that cohesion fell apart, what would happen to poor Pemberton? He felt tied to them enough to alarmingly picture himself as a dislodged block in the structure.
It was Morgan who eventually asked if no supper had been ordered for him; sitting with him below, later, at the dim delayed meal, in the presence of a great deal of corded green plush, a plate of ornamental biscuit and an aloofness marked on the part of the waiter. Mrs. Moreen had explained that they had been obliged to secure a room for the visitor out of the house; and Morgan’s consolation—he offered it while Pemberton reflected on the nastiness of lukewarm sauces—proved to be, largely, that his circumstance would facilitate their escape. He talked of their escape—recurring to it often afterwards—as if they were making up a “boy’s book” together. But he likewise expressed his sense that there was something in the air, that the Moreens couldn’t keep it up much longer. In point of fact, as Pemberton was to see, they kept it up for five or six months. All the while, however, Morgan’s contention was designed to cheer him. Mr. Moreen and Ulick, whom he had met the day after his return, accepted that return like perfect men of the world. If Paula and Amy treated it even with less formality an allowance was to be made for them, inasmuch as Mr. Granger hadn’t come to the opera after all. He had only placed his box at their service, with a bouquet for each of the party; there was even one apiece, embittering the thought of his profusion, for Mr. Moreen and Ulick. “They’re all like that,” was Morgan’s comment; “at the very last, just when we think we’ve landed them they’re back in the deep sea!”
It was Morgan who finally asked if no dinner had been ordered for him. Sitting with him later at the dimly lit meal, surrounded by a lot of green plush décor, a plate of fancy biscuits, and an indifferent waiter. Mrs. Moreen explained that they had to get a room for the visitor away from the house. Morgan's consolation, which he shared while Pemberton thought about the unpleasantness of lukewarm sauces, was mainly that his situation would help them escape. He often talked about their escape—returning to it frequently later—as if they were writing a "boy's adventure" together. But he also sensed that things couldn't go on like this for the Moreens much longer. In fact, as Pemberton would see, they managed to keep it up for five or six months. Still, Morgan's intent was to uplift him. Mr. Moreen and Ulick, whom he met the day after he returned, took the news of his return like true gentlemen. If Paula and Amy treated it with even less formality, it was understandable, since Mr. Granger hadn’t ended up coming to the opera after all. He had only offered them his box, along with a bouquet for each of them; there was even one for Mr. Moreen and Ulick, which made the thought of his generosity feel bitter. “They’re all like that,” Morgan commented. “Just when we think we’ve got them, they’re back in the deep end!”
Morgan’s comments in these days were more and more free; they even included a large recognition of the extraordinary tenderness with which he had been treated while Pemberton was away. Oh yes, they couldn’t do enough to be nice to him, to show him they had him on their mind and make up for his loss. That was just what made the whole thing so sad and caused him to rejoice after all in Pemberton’s return—he had to keep thinking of their affection less, had less sense of obligation. Pemberton laughed out at this last reason, and Morgan blushed and said: “Well, dash it, you know what I mean.” Pemberton knew perfectly what he meant; but there were a good many things that—dash it too!—it didn’t make any clearer. This episode of his second sojourn in Paris stretched itself out wearily, with their resumed readings and wanderings and maunderings, their potterings on the quays, their hauntings of the museums, their occasional lingerings in the Palais Royal when the first sharp weather came on and there was a comfort in warm emanations, before Chevet’s wonderful succulent window. Morgan wanted to hear all about the opulent youth—he took an immense interest in him. Some of the details of his opulence—Pemberton could spare him none of them—evidently fed the boy’s appreciation of all his friend had given up to come back to him; but in addition to the greater reciprocity established by that heroism he had always his little brooding theory, in which there was a frivolous gaiety too, that their long probation was drawing to a close. Morgan’s conviction that the Moreens couldn’t go on much longer kept pace with the unexpended impetus with which, from month to month, they did go on. Three weeks after Pemberton had rejoined them they went on to another hotel, a dingier one than the first; but Morgan rejoiced that his tutor had at least still not sacrificed the advantage of a room outside. He clung to the romantic utility of this when the day, or rather the night, should arrive for their escape.
Morgan's comments these days were becoming more candid; they even included a big acknowledgment of the extraordinary kindness he had received while Pemberton was away. Oh yes, they couldn’t do enough to be nice to him, to show him they were thinking about him and make up for his loss. That was what made the whole situation so sad and made him actually happy about Pemberton’s return—he had to think less about their kindness and felt less obligated. Pemberton laughed at this last reason, and Morgan blushed, saying, “Well, darn it, you know what I mean.” Pemberton knew exactly what he meant; but there were a lot of things that—darn it too!—it didn’t clarify at all. This part of his second stay in Paris dragged on tiredly, with their resumed readings, wandering around, and random conversations, their strolling along the quays, visiting museums, and sometimes lingering in the Palais Royal when the first cold weather set in and warmth felt good, especially before Chevet’s amazing, mouthwatering display. Morgan wanted to know all about the wealthy young man—he was really interested in him. Some of the details of his wealth—Pemberton didn’t hold back on any of them—clearly enhanced the boy’s appreciation for everything his friend had given up to come back to him; but in addition to the greater mutual understanding established by that heroism, he always had his little pensive theory, which had a playful brightness to it, that their long trial was coming to an end. Morgan’s belief that the Moreens couldn’t continue much longer kept pace with the unused momentum with which, month after month, they indeed persisted. Three weeks after Pemberton had reunited with them, they moved to another hotel, a shabbier one than the first; but Morgan was glad that his tutor had still not given up the benefit of a room with an exterior view. He held on to the romantic practicality of this when the day, or rather the night, finally came for their escape.
For the first time, in this complicated connexion, our friend felt his collar gall him. It was, as he had said to Mrs. Moreen in Venice, trop fort—everything was trop fort. He could neither really throw off his blighting burden nor find in it the benefit of a pacified conscience or of a rewarded affection. He had spent all the money accruing to him in England, and he saw his youth going and that he was getting nothing back for it. It was all very well of Morgan to count it for reparation that he should now settle on him permanently—there was an irritating flaw in such a view. He saw what the boy had in his mind; the conception that as his friend had had the generosity to come back he must show his gratitude by giving him his life. But the poor friend didn’t desire the gift—what could he do with Morgan’s dreadful little life? Of course at the same time that Pemberton was irritated he remembered the reason, which was very honourable to Morgan and which dwelt simply in his making one so forget that he was no more than a patched urchin. If one dealt with him on a different basis one’s misadventures were one’s own fault. So Pemberton waited in a queer confusion of yearning and alarm for the catastrophe which was held to hang over the house of Moreen, of which he certainly at moments felt the symptoms brush his cheek and as to which he wondered much in what form it would find its liveliest effect.
For the first time, in this complicated situation, our friend felt his collar choke him. It was, as he had told Mrs. Moreen in Venice, too much—everything was too much. He couldn't truly shake off his heavy burden nor find comfort in a clear conscience or rewarded love. He had spent all the money he had made in England, and he saw his youth slipping away without getting anything in return. It was easy for Morgan to think of it as a way to make up for things by settling down with him permanently—there was an annoying flaw in that perspective. He understood what the boy was thinking; the idea that since his friend had generously returned, he should show gratitude by giving him his life. But the poor friend didn’t want that gift—what could he do with Morgan’s miserable little life? At the same time, while Pemberton was irritated, he remembered the reason for this, which was very noble of Morgan and simply made him forget that he was just a scrappy kid. If you treated him differently, your troubles were your own fault. So Pemberton waited in a strange mix of longing and anxiety for the disaster that was believed to be looming over the Moreen household, which he could certainly feel at times brushing against his cheek, and he wondered how it would manifest itself most vividly.
Perhaps it would take the form of sudden dispersal—a frightened sauve qui peut, a scuttling into selfish corners. Certainly they were less elastic than of yore; they were evidently looking for something they didn’t find. The Dorringtons hadn’t re-appeared, the princes had scattered; wasn’t that the beginning of the end? Mrs. Moreen had lost her reckoning of the famous “days”; her social calendar was blurred—it had turned its face to the wall. Pemberton suspected that the great, the cruel discomfiture had been the unspeakable behaviour of Mr. Granger, who seemed not to know what he wanted, or, what was much worse, what they wanted. He kept sending flowers, as if to bestrew the path of his retreat, which was never the path of a return. Flowers were all very well, but—Pemberton could complete the proposition. It was now positively conspicuous that in the long run the Moreens were a social failure; so that the young man was almost grateful the run had not been short. Mr. Moreen indeed was still occasionally able to get away on business and, what was more surprising, was likewise able to get back. Ulick had no club but you couldn’t have discovered it from his appearance, which was as much as ever that of a person looking at life from the window of such an institution; therefore Pemberton was doubly surprised at an answer he once heard him make his mother in the desperate tone of a man familiar with the worst privations. Her question Pemberton had not quite caught; it appeared to be an appeal for a suggestion as to whom they might get to take Amy. “Let the Devil take her!” Ulick snapped; so that Pemberton could see that they had not only lost their amiability but had ceased to believe in themselves. He could also see that if Mrs. Moreen was trying to get people to take her children she might be regarded as closing the hatches for the storm. But Morgan would be the last she would part with.
Perhaps it would happen as a sudden scattering—a panicked run for safety, retreating to selfish corners. They were definitely less flexible than before; they were clearly searching for something that wasn’t there. The Dorringtons hadn’t shown up again, the princes had dispersed; wasn’t that the beginning of the end? Mrs. Moreen had lost track of the famous “days”; her social calendar was a blur—it had turned away from everything. Pemberton suspected that the major, painful disappointment had been the unbearable behavior of Mr. Granger, who seemed to have no idea what he wanted, or, worse, what they wanted. He kept sending flowers, as if to scatter them along the path of his retreat, which was never a path back. Flowers were nice, but—Pemberton could finish that thought. It was now glaringly obvious that in the long run, the Moreens were a social failure; so the young man was almost thankful that the end hadn’t come quickly. Mr. Moreen could still occasionally leave on business and, surprisingly, could also return. Ulick had no club, but you couldn’t tell from his appearance, which was still that of someone looking at life from the window of such a place; therefore, Pemberton was doubly surprised by an answer he once heard him snap back at his mother in the desperate tone of someone who knew the worst hardships. He hadn’t quite caught her question; it seemed to be a plea for a suggestion on who they could get to take Amy. “Let the Devil take her!” Ulick snapped, allowing Pemberton to see that they had not only lost their friendliness but had also stopped believing in themselves. He could also see that if Mrs. Moreen was trying to find someone to take her children, it might look like she was shutting the doors to prepare for a storm. But Morgan would be the last one she would let go.
One winter afternoon—it was a Sunday—he and the boy walked far together in the Bois de Boulogne. The evening was so splendid, the cold lemon-coloured sunset so clear, the stream of carriages and pedestrians so amusing and the fascination of Paris so great, that they stayed out later than usual and became aware that they should have to hurry home to arrive in time for dinner. They hurried accordingly, arm-in-arm, good-humoured and hungry, agreeing that there was nothing like Paris after all and that after everything too that had come and gone they were not yet sated with innocent pleasures. When they reached the hotel they found that, though scandalously late, they were in time for all the dinner they were likely to sit down to. Confusion reigned in the apartments of the Moreens—very shabby ones this time, but the best in the house—and before the interrupted service of the table, with objects displaced almost as if there had been a scuffle and a great wine-stain from an overturned bottle, Pemberton couldn’t blink the fact that there had been a scene of the last proprietary firmness. The storm had come—they were all seeking refuge. The hatches were down, Paula and Amy were invisible—they had never tried the most casual art upon Pemberton, but he felt they had enough of an eye to him not to wish to meet him as young ladies whose frocks had been confiscated—and Ulick appeared to have jumped overboard. The host and his staff, in a word, had ceased to “go on” at the pace of their guests, and the air of embarrassed detention, thanks to a pile of gaping trunks in the passage, was strangely commingled with the air of indignant withdrawal. When Morgan took all this in—and he took it in very quickly—he coloured to the roots of his hair. He had walked from his infancy among difficulties and dangers, but he had never seen a public exposure. Pemberton noticed in a second glance at him that the tears had rushed into his eyes and that they were tears of a new and untasted bitterness. He wondered an instant, for the boy’s sake, whether he might successfully pretend not to understand. Not successfully, he felt, as Mr. and Mrs. Moreen, dinnerless by their extinguished hearth, rose before him in their little dishonoured salon, casting about with glassy eyes for the nearest port in such a storm. They were not prostrate but were horribly white, and Mrs. Moreen had evidently been crying. Pemberton quickly learned however that her grief was not for the loss of her dinner, much as she usually enjoyed it, but the fruit of a blow that struck even deeper, as she made all haste to explain. He would see for himself, so far as that went, how the great change had come, the dreadful bolt had fallen, and how they would now all have to turn themselves about. Therefore cruel as it was to them to part with their darling she must look to him to carry a little further the influence he had so fortunately acquired with the boy—to induce his young charge to follow him into some modest retreat. They depended on him—that was the fact—to take their delightful child temporarily under his protection; it would leave Mr. Moreen and herself so much more free to give the proper attention (too little, alas! had been given) to the readjustment of their affairs.
One winter afternoon—it was a Sunday—he and the boy walked far together in the Bois de Boulogne. The evening was so beautiful, the cold, lemon-colored sunset so clear, the stream of carriages and pedestrians so entertaining, and the allure of Paris so strong that they stayed out later than usual and realized they needed to hurry home to make it in time for dinner. They rushed along, arm-in-arm, cheerful and hungry, agreeing that nothing compared to Paris after all and that despite everything that had happened, they were still not tired of innocent pleasures. When they reached the hotel, they found that, although they were scandalously late, they were still just in time for the dinner they were likely to have. There was chaos in the Moreens’ apartment—very shabby this time, but the best in the house—and before the interrupted dinner table, with items scattered as if there had been a struggle and a large wine stain from a spilled bottle, Pemberton couldn’t ignore the fact that there had been a scene of significant conflict. The storm had come—they were all seeking shelter. The doors were closed, Paula and Amy were nowhere to be seen—they had never attempted to charm Pemberton, but he sensed they were aware enough not to want to run into him as young ladies whose dresses had been taken away—and Ulick seemed to have jumped ship. In short, the host and his staff had stopped “keeping up” with their guests, and the atmosphere of awkward delay, thanks to a pile of open trunks in the hallway, was oddly mixed with a feeling of offended retreat. When Morgan took all this in—and he processed it very quickly—he blushed deeply. He had navigated difficulties and dangers since childhood, but he had never witnessed such a public scene. Pemberton noticed upon looking at him again that tears had welled up in his eyes, tears of a new and unfamiliar bitterness. For the boy’s sake, he briefly wondered if he could pretend not to understand. He sensed he couldn’t, as Mr. and Mrs. Moreen, dinnerless by their cold hearth, stood before him in their little disgraced living room, looking around with glazed eyes for the nearest escape in such a tempest. They weren’t collapsed but looked painfully pale, and Mrs. Moreen had clearly been crying. Pemberton quickly discovered, however, that her tears were not for the loss of her dinner, however much she usually enjoyed it, but were the result of a blow that reached even deeper, as she hurried to explain. He would see for himself, as far as that went, how the great change had happened, the terrible blow had struck, and how they would now all have to adjust. Therefore, as cruel as it was for them to part with their beloved child, she needed him to continue the influence he had so fortunately gained with the boy—to encourage his young charge to follow him into some modest retreat. They were counting on him—that was the bottom line—to temporarily take their delightful child under his wing; it would allow Mr. Moreen and herself much more freedom to properly focus (too little, alas! had been given) on reorganizing their affairs.
“We trust you—we feel we can,” said Mrs. Moreen, slowly rubbing her plump white hands and looking with compunction hard at Morgan, whose chin, not to take liberties, her husband stroked with a paternal forefinger.
“We trust you—we feel we can,” said Mrs. Moreen, slowly rubbing her chubby white hands and looking at Morgan with a sense of regret, while her husband gently stroked Morgan's chin with a paternal forefinger.
“Oh yes—we feel that we can. We trust Mr. Pemberton fully, Morgan,” Mr. Moreen pursued.
“Oh yes—we feel that we can. We completely trust Mr. Pemberton, Morgan,” Mr. Moreen continued.
Pemberton wondered again if he might pretend not to understand; but everything good gave way to the intensity of Morgan’s understanding. “Do you mean he may take me to live with him for ever and ever?” cried the boy. “May take me away, away, anywhere he likes?”
Pemberton wondered again if he could act like he didn't understand; but everything good faded in the face of Morgan's deep understanding. “Are you saying he could take me to live with him forever?” the boy exclaimed. “He could take me away, away, anywhere he wants?”
“For ever and ever? Comme vous-y-allez!” Mr. Moreen laughed indulgently. “For as long as Mr. Pemberton may be so good.”
“For ever and ever? Well, look at you!” Mr. Moreen laughed warmly. “For as long as Mr. Pemberton is kind enough to allow it.”
“We’ve struggled, we’ve suffered,” his wife went on; “but you’ve made him so your own that we’ve already been through the worst of the sacrifice.”
“We’ve struggled, we’ve suffered,” his wife continued; “but you’ve made him so much a part of your life that we’ve already endured the hardest part of the sacrifice.”
Morgan had turned away from his father—he stood looking at Pemberton with a light in his face. His sense of shame for their common humiliated state had dropped; the case had another side—the thing was to clutch at that. He had a moment of boyish joy, scarcely mitigated by the reflexion that with this unexpected consecration of his hope—too sudden and too violent; the turn taken was away from a good boy’s book—the “escape” was left on their hands. The boyish joy was there an instant, and Pemberton was almost scared at the rush of gratitude and affection that broke through his first abasement. When he stammered “My dear fellow, what do you say to that?” how could one not say something enthusiastic? But there was more need for courage at something else that immediately followed and that made the lad sit down quietly on the nearest chair. He had turned quite livid and had raised his hand to his left side. They were all three looking at him, but Mrs. Moreen suddenly bounded forward. “Ah his darling little heart!” she broke out; and this time, on her knees before him and without respect for the idol, she caught him ardently in her arms. “You walked him too far, you hurried him too fast!” she hurled over her shoulder at Pemberton. Her son made no protest, and the next instant, still holding him, she sprang up with her face convulsed and with the terrified cry “Help, help! he’s going, he’s gone!” Pemberton saw with equal horror, by Morgan’s own stricken face, that he was beyond their wildest recall. He pulled him half out of his mother’s hands, and for a moment, while they held him together, they looked all their dismay into each other’s eyes, “He couldn’t stand it with his weak organ,” said Pemberton—“the shock, the whole scene, the violent emotion.”
Morgan had turned away from his father—he stood looking at Pemberton with a light on his face. His shame for their shared humiliation had faded; there was another side to the situation—the key was to grasp that. He experienced a fleeting moment of childish joy, barely touched by the realization that with this unexpected validation of his hope—too sudden and too intense; the direction they took was away from a good boy’s book—the “escape” was still in front of them. The youthful joy was present for a moment, and Pemberton was almost overwhelmed by the wave of gratitude and affection that surged past his initial embarrassment. When he stammered, “My dear fellow, what do you think of that?” how could anyone respond with anything but enthusiasm? But there was an even greater need for courage in what immediately followed, which caused the boy to sit down quietly in the nearest chair. He had turned completely pale and had raised his hand to his left side. They were all three staring at him, but Mrs. Moreen suddenly rushed forward. “Oh his poor little heart!” she exclaimed; this time, on her knees in front of him and without regard for the idol, she pulled him fiercely into her arms. “You pushed him too hard, you rushed him too fast!” she shouted at Pemberton over her shoulder. Her son made no protest, and the next moment, still holding him, she leaped up with her face twisted in panic and screamed, “Help, help! He’s going, he’s gone!” Pemberton watched in equal horror, seeing on Morgan’s own stricken face that he was beyond their wildest hopes of saving him. He pulled him halfway out of his mother’s grasp, and for a moment, as they held him together, their eyes reflected their shared despair, “He couldn’t handle it with his weak heart,” said Pemberton—“the shock, the whole scene, the intense emotion.”
“But I thought he wanted to go to you!”, wailed Mrs. Moreen.
“But I thought he wanted to go to you!” wailed Mrs. Moreen.
“I told you he didn’t, my dear,” her husband made answer. Mr. Moreen was trembling all over and was in his way as deeply affected as his wife. But after the very first he took his bereavement as a man of the world.
“I told you he didn’t, my dear,” her husband replied. Mr. Moreen was shaking all over and was just as deeply affected as his wife. But after the initial moment, he dealt with his loss like a mature person.
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