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Persuasion
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CHAPTER I.
Sir Walter Elliot, of Kellynch Hall, in Somersetshire, was a man who, for his own amusement, never took up any book but the Baronetage; there he found occupation for an idle hour, and consolation in a distressed one; there his faculties were roused into admiration and respect, by contemplating the limited remnant of the earliest patents; there any unwelcome sensations, arising from domestic affairs changed naturally into pity and contempt as he turned over the almost endless creations of the last century; and there, if every other leaf were powerless, he could read his own history with an interest which never failed. This was the page at which the favourite volume always opened:
Sir Walter Elliot, who lived at Kellynch Hall in Somersetshire, was a man who, for his own entertainment, only ever read the Baronetage. He found something to occupy his time when he was bored and comfort when he was troubled. His mind was stimulated with admiration and respect as he thought about the few original patents still in existence. Any unpleasant feelings from family matters naturally turned into pity and disdain as he flipped through the nearly endless new titles from the last century. And even if every other page failed to hold his interest, he could always read his own story with a fascination that never waned. This was the page where his favorite book always opened:
“ELLIOT OF KELLYNCH HALL.
Elliot of Kellynch Hall.
“Walter Elliot, born March 1, 1760, married, July 15, 1784, Elizabeth, daughter of James Stevenson, Esq. of South Park, in the county of Gloucester, by which lady (who died 1800) he has issue Elizabeth, born June 1, 1785; Anne, born August 9, 1787; a still-born son, November 5, 1789; Mary, born November 20, 1791.”
"Walter Elliot, born March 1, 1760, married Elizabeth on July 15, 1784. She was the daughter of James Stevenson, Esq. of South Park in Gloucestershire. Elizabeth passed away in 1800, and they had the following children: Elizabeth, born June 1, 1785; Anne, born August 9, 1787; a stillborn son on November 5, 1789; and Mary, born November 20, 1791."
Precisely such had the paragraph originally stood from the printer’s hands; but Sir Walter had improved it by adding, for the information of himself and his family, these words, after the date of Mary’s birth—“Married, December 16, 1810, Charles, son and heir of Charles Musgrove, Esq. of Uppercross, in the county of Somerset,” and by inserting most accurately the day of the month on which he had lost his wife.
Exactly how the paragraph originally appeared from the printer’s hands; however, Sir Walter enhanced it by adding, for the benefit of himself and his family, these words after Mary’s birth date—“Married, December 16, 1810, Charles, son and heir of Charles Musgrove, Esq. of Uppercross, in the county of Somerset,” and by precisely including the day of the month when he lost his wife.
Then followed the history and rise of the ancient and respectable family, in the usual terms; how it had been first settled in Cheshire; how mentioned in Dugdale, serving the office of high sheriff, representing a borough in three successive parliaments, exertions of loyalty, and dignity of baronet, in the first year of Charles II, with all the Marys and Elizabeths they had married; forming altogether two handsome duodecimo pages, and concluding with the arms and motto:—“Principal seat, Kellynch Hall, in the county of Somerset,” and Sir Walter’s handwriting again in this finale:—
Then came the history and rise of the ancient and respected family, in the usual way; how they first settled in Cheshire; how they were mentioned in Dugdale, serving as high sheriff, representing a borough in three consecutive parliaments, their loyalty, and the honor of being a baronet in the first year of Charles II, along with all the Marys and Elizabeths they had married; all of this taking up two neat duodecimo pages and ending with their coat of arms and motto:—“Principal seat, Kellynch Hall, in the county of Somerset,” with Sir Walter’s handwriting appearing once more in this conclusion:—
“Heir presumptive, William Walter Elliot, Esq., great grandson of the second Sir Walter.”
“Heir presumptive, William Walter Elliot, Esq., great-grandson of the second Sir Walter.”
Vanity was the beginning and the end of Sir Walter Elliot’s character; vanity of person and of situation. He had been remarkably handsome in his youth; and, at fifty-four, was still a very fine man. Few women could think more of their personal appearance than he did, nor could the valet of any new made lord be more delighted with the place he held in society. He considered the blessing of beauty as inferior only to the blessing of a baronetcy; and the Sir Walter Elliot, who united these gifts, was the constant object of his warmest respect and devotion.
Vanity was both the beginning and the end of Sir Walter Elliot's character; vanity about his looks and his status. He had been exceptionally handsome in his youth, and at fifty-four, he was still a very attractive man. Few women cared more about their appearance than he did, nor could any valet of a newly made lord take more pride in their social standing. He viewed the blessing of beauty as second only to the blessing of a baronet title; and the Sir Walter Elliot, who combined both of these gifts, was the constant focus of his deepest respect and admiration.
His good looks and his rank had one fair claim on his attachment; since to them he must have owed a wife of very superior character to any thing deserved by his own. Lady Elliot had been an excellent woman, sensible and amiable; whose judgement and conduct, if they might be pardoned the youthful infatuation which made her Lady Elliot, had never required indulgence afterwards. She had humoured, or softened, or concealed his failings, and promoted his real respectability for seventeen years; and though not the very happiest being in the world herself, had found enough in her duties, her friends, and her children, to attach her to life, and make it no matter of indifference to her when she was called on to quit them. Three girls, the two eldest sixteen and fourteen, was an awful legacy for a mother to bequeath, an awful charge rather, to confide to the authority and guidance of a conceited, silly father. She had, however, one very intimate friend, a sensible, deserving woman, who had been brought, by strong attachment to herself, to settle close by her, in the village of Kellynch; and on her kindness and advice, Lady Elliot mainly relied for the best help and maintenance of the good principles and instruction which she had been anxiously giving her daughters.
His looks and status had a reasonable claim on his affection, since they had given him a wife with far superior qualities than he deserved. Lady Elliot had been an excellent woman, sensible and kind; her judgment and conduct, aside from the youthful infatuation that made her Lady Elliot, had never needed forgiveness afterwards. She had managed, softened, or hidden his flaws, and bolstered his true respectability for seventeen years. While she might not have been the happiest person in the world herself, she found enough in her duties, her friends, and her children to make her attached to life, so it mattered to her when she was called to leave them. Three daughters, the two eldest being sixteen and fourteen, was a daunting legacy for a mother to leave behind—a heavy responsibility to hand over to a vain, foolish father. However, she did have a very close friend, a sensible and deserving woman, who had come to settle nearby in the village of Kellynch due to a strong bond with her. Lady Elliot primarily relied on her friend's kindness and advice for the best support and maintenance of the good principles and guidance she had been anxiously providing for her daughters.
This friend, and Sir Walter, did not marry, whatever might have been anticipated on that head by their acquaintance. Thirteen years had passed away since Lady Elliot’s death, and they were still near neighbours and intimate friends, and one remained a widower, the other a widow.
This friend and Sir Walter didn't marry, despite what their acquaintances might have expected. Thirteen years had gone by since Lady Elliot's death, and they were still close neighbors and good friends—one remained a widower, and the other a widow.
That Lady Russell, of steady age and character, and extremely well provided for, should have no thought of a second marriage, needs no apology to the public, which is rather apt to be unreasonably discontented when a woman does marry again, than when she does not; but Sir Walter’s continuing in singleness requires explanation. Be it known then, that Sir Walter, like a good father, (having met with one or two private disappointments in very unreasonable applications), prided himself on remaining single for his dear daughters’ sake. For one daughter, his eldest, he would really have given up any thing, which he had not been very much tempted to do. Elizabeth had succeeded, at sixteen, to all that was possible, of her mother’s rights and consequence; and being very handsome, and very like himself, her influence had always been great, and they had gone on together most happily. His two other children were of very inferior value. Mary had acquired a little artificial importance, by becoming Mrs Charles Musgrove; but Anne, with an elegance of mind and sweetness of character, which must have placed her high with any people of real understanding, was nobody with either father or sister; her word had no weight, her convenience was always to give way—she was only Anne.
That Lady Russell, who is mature and stable in character and is very well taken care of, shouldn't need to explain why she doesn’t think about a second marriage. Society tends to be more upset when a woman does remarry than when she chooses not to. However, Sir Walter's choice to stay single does require some explanation. It should be noted that Sir Walter, like a good father (having faced a few personal disappointments from unreasonable proposals), took pride in being single for the sake of his beloved daughters. For his eldest daughter, he would have truly given up anything, though he wasn’t overly tempted to do so. Elizabeth, who at sixteen inherited all that she could of her mother's rights and status, was very beautiful and resembled him closely, which gave her considerable influence, and they had always gotten along quite well. His two other children were of far lesser importance. Mary had gained some artificial status by marrying Mr. Charles Musgrove; however, Anne, with her refined mind and sweet nature, which should have earned her respect among people of genuine understanding, was overlooked by both her father and sister; her opinions held no weight, her needs were always secondary—she was simply Anne.
To Lady Russell, indeed, she was a most dear and highly valued god-daughter, favourite, and friend. Lady Russell loved them all; but it was only in Anne that she could fancy the mother to revive again.
To Lady Russell, she was truly a beloved and highly valued goddaughter, favorite, and friend. Lady Russell cared for them all; but it was only in Anne that she could imagine the mother coming back to life.
A few years before, Anne Elliot had been a very pretty girl, but her bloom had vanished early; and as even in its height, her father had found little to admire in her, (so totally different were her delicate features and mild dark eyes from his own), there could be nothing in them, now that she was faded and thin, to excite his esteem. He had never indulged much hope, he had now none, of ever reading her name in any other page of his favourite work. All equality of alliance must rest with Elizabeth, for Mary had merely connected herself with an old country family of respectability and large fortune, and had therefore given all the honour and received none: Elizabeth would, one day or other, marry suitably.
A few years earlier, Anne Elliot had been a really pretty girl, but her beauty faded quickly. Even at her best, her father found little to admire in her, as her delicate features and gentle dark eyes were so different from his own. Now that she was pale and thin, there was nothing about her to earn his respect. He had never held much hope and now had none at all of seeing her name in any other page of his favorite book. All prospects for advantageous marriage could only rest with Elizabeth, since Mary had only married into a respectable old country family with good wealth and had therefore given all the honor but received none. Elizabeth would eventually marry well.
It sometimes happens that a woman is handsomer at twenty-nine than she was ten years before; and, generally speaking, if there has been neither ill health nor anxiety, it is a time of life at which scarcely any charm is lost. It was so with Elizabeth, still the same handsome Miss Elliot that she had begun to be thirteen years ago, and Sir Walter might be excused, therefore, in forgetting her age, or, at least, be deemed only half a fool, for thinking himself and Elizabeth as blooming as ever, amidst the wreck of the good looks of everybody else; for he could plainly see how old all the rest of his family and acquaintance were growing. Anne haggard, Mary coarse, every face in the neighbourhood worsting, and the rapid increase of the crow’s foot about Lady Russell’s temples had long been a distress to him.
Sometimes a woman is more attractive at twenty-nine than she was ten years earlier; generally, if there hasn’t been any serious illness or stress, this stage of life sees very little charm faded. That was the case with Elizabeth, still as lovely as the Miss Elliot she had become thirteen years ago, and Sir Walter could be forgiven for forgetting her age or, at least, be considered only half a fool for thinking he and Elizabeth were still as vibrant as ever, especially since he could clearly see how much older everyone else in his family and social circle was getting. Anne looked worn out, Mary was lacking in refinement, and every face in the neighborhood seemed to be aging poorly, while the noticeable crow's feet around Lady Russell’s temples had long troubled him.
Elizabeth did not quite equal her father in personal contentment. Thirteen years had seen her mistress of Kellynch Hall, presiding and directing with a self-possession and decision which could never have given the idea of her being younger than she was. For thirteen years had she been doing the honours, and laying down the domestic law at home, and leading the way to the chaise and four, and walking immediately after Lady Russell out of all the drawing-rooms and dining-rooms in the country. Thirteen winters’ revolving frosts had seen her opening every ball of credit which a scanty neighbourhood afforded, and thirteen springs shewn their blossoms, as she travelled up to London with her father, for a few weeks’ annual enjoyment of the great world. She had the remembrance of all this, she had the consciousness of being nine-and-twenty to give her some regrets and some apprehensions; she was fully satisfied of being still quite as handsome as ever, but she felt her approach to the years of danger, and would have rejoiced to be certain of being properly solicited by baronet-blood within the next twelvemonth or two. Then might she again take up the book of books with as much enjoyment as in her early youth, but now she liked it not. Always to be presented with the date of her own birth and see no marriage follow but that of a youngest sister, made the book an evil; and more than once, when her father had left it open on the table near her, had she closed it, with averted eyes, and pushed it away.
Elizabeth didn’t quite match her father in personal happiness. For thirteen years, she had been the mistress of Kellynch Hall, managing and leading with a confidence and decisiveness that never made her seem younger than she was. For those thirteen years, she had hosted gatherings, laid down house rules, led the way to the carriage with four horses, and followed Lady Russell out of all the drawing-rooms and dining-rooms in the area. Thirteen winters’ worth of frosts had seen her opening every ball that the small community offered, and thirteen springs had shown their blossoms as she traveled to London with her father for a few weeks of enjoying the big city. She remembered all of this, and being twenty-nine brought some regrets and worries; she was well aware that she still looked just as beautiful, but she felt she was getting closer to the years of risk and would have been thrilled to be sure of receiving a proper proposal from someone of good standing within the next year or two. Then she could dive back into her cherished books with as much joy as she once did in her youth, but now she didn’t enjoy them. Always reminded of her own birth date and seeing no marriage follow except for that of her youngest sister made reading a burden; more than once, when her father had left the book open on the table near her, she had closed it, turned away, and pushed it aside.
She had had a disappointment, moreover, which that book, and especially the history of her own family, must ever present the remembrance of. The heir presumptive, the very William Walter Elliot, Esq., whose rights had been so generously supported by her father, had disappointed her.
She had experienced a disappointment that the book, especially the history of her own family, would always remind her of. The heir presumptive, the very William Walter Elliot, Esq., whose claims had been so generously backed by her father, had let her down.
She had, while a very young girl, as soon as she had known him to be, in the event of her having no brother, the future baronet, meant to marry him, and her father had always meant that she should. He had not been known to them as a boy; but soon after Lady Elliot’s death, Sir Walter had sought the acquaintance, and though his overtures had not been met with any warmth, he had persevered in seeking it, making allowance for the modest drawing-back of youth; and, in one of their spring excursions to London, when Elizabeth was in her first bloom, Mr Elliot had been forced into the introduction.
When she was a young girl, as soon as she realized he would be the future baronet if she didn’t have a brother, she decided she would marry him, and her father always intended for that to happen. They hadn’t known him as a boy, but soon after Lady Elliot passed away, Sir Walter sought to get to know him. Although his attempts to connect weren’t met with much enthusiasm, he kept trying, considering the natural shyness of youth. During one of their spring trips to London, when Elizabeth was blossoming, Mr. Elliot found himself in a position to make the introduction.
He was at that time a very young man, just engaged in the study of the law; and Elizabeth found him extremely agreeable, and every plan in his favour was confirmed. He was invited to Kellynch Hall; he was talked of and expected all the rest of the year; but he never came. The following spring he was seen again in town, found equally agreeable, again encouraged, invited, and expected, and again he did not come; and the next tidings were that he was married. Instead of pushing his fortune in the line marked out for the heir of the house of Elliot, he had purchased independence by uniting himself to a rich woman of inferior birth.
He was a very young man at that time, just starting to study law, and Elizabeth found him very charming, which made everyone support her interest in him. He was invited to Kellynch Hall, talked about, and anticipated for the rest of the year, but he never showed up. The following spring, he was seen again in town, still just as charming, again encouraged, invited, and expected, yet he didn't come again; the next news was that he was married. Instead of pursuing his ambitions in line with the heir of the house of Elliot, he gained independence by marrying a wealthy woman of lower status.
Sir Walter had resented it. As the head of the house, he felt that he ought to have been consulted, especially after taking the young man so publicly by the hand; “For they must have been seen together,” he observed, “once at Tattersall’s, and twice in the lobby of the House of Commons.” His disapprobation was expressed, but apparently very little regarded. Mr Elliot had attempted no apology, and shewn himself as unsolicitous of being longer noticed by the family, as Sir Walter considered him unworthy of it: all acquaintance between them had ceased.
Sir Walter was upset about it. As the head of the family, he felt he should have been consulted, especially after publicly shaking the young man's hand; “They must have been seen together,” he noted, “once at Tattersall’s, and twice in the lobby of the House of Commons.” He made his disapproval clear, but it seemed to be largely ignored. Mr. Elliot didn’t try to apologize and showed that he didn’t care to be acknowledged by the family any longer, just as Sir Walter deemed him unworthy of it: all contact between them had ended.
This very awkward history of Mr Elliot was still, after an interval of several years, felt with anger by Elizabeth, who had liked the man for himself, and still more for being her father’s heir, and whose strong family pride could see only in him a proper match for Sir Walter Elliot’s eldest daughter. There was not a baronet from A to Z whom her feelings could have so willingly acknowledged as an equal. Yet so miserably had he conducted himself, that though she was at this present time (the summer of 1814) wearing black ribbons for his wife, she could not admit him to be worth thinking of again. The disgrace of his first marriage might, perhaps, as there was no reason to suppose it perpetuated by offspring, have been got over, had he not done worse; but he had, as by the accustomary intervention of kind friends, they had been informed, spoken most disrespectfully of them all, most slightingly and contemptuously of the very blood he belonged to, and the honours which were hereafter to be his own. This could not be pardoned.
This awkward history with Mr. Elliot still made Elizabeth angry even after several years. She had liked him for who he was, and even more for being her father’s heir. Her strong family pride made her see only him as a suitable match for Sir Walter Elliot’s eldest daughter. There wasn’t a baronet from A to Z that she could have accepted as an equal. Yet he had behaved so poorly that, even though she was currently (in the summer of 1814) wearing black ribbons for his wife, she couldn’t consider him worth thinking about again. The shame of his first marriage might have been overlooked since there’s no reason to believe it continued with children, but he had done even worse. Through the usual involvement of kind friends, they learned that he had spoken very disrespectfully about them, dismissively and contemptuously regarding their family and the honors that were supposed to be his. This could not be forgiven.
Such were Elizabeth Elliot’s sentiments and sensations; such the cares to alloy, the agitations to vary, the sameness and the elegance, the prosperity and the nothingness of her scene of life; such the feelings to give interest to a long, uneventful residence in one country circle, to fill the vacancies which there were no habits of utility abroad, no talents or accomplishments for home, to occupy.
Such were Elizabeth Elliot’s thoughts and feelings; such the worries to mix, the emotions to change, the monotony and the grace, the success and the emptiness of her life; such the emotions to make a long, uneventful stay in one community engaging, to fill the gaps left by the absence of useful habits outside, and no skills or talents for home to keep her busy.
But now, another occupation and solicitude of mind was beginning to be added to these. Her father was growing distressed for money. She knew, that when he now took up the Baronetage, it was to drive the heavy bills of his tradespeople, and the unwelcome hints of Mr Shepherd, his agent, from his thoughts. The Kellynch property was good, but not equal to Sir Walter’s apprehension of the state required in its possessor. While Lady Elliot lived, there had been method, moderation, and economy, which had just kept him within his income; but with her had died all such right-mindedness, and from that period he had been constantly exceeding it. It had not been possible for him to spend less; he had done nothing but what Sir Walter Elliot was imperiously called on to do; but blameless as he was, he was not only growing dreadfully in debt, but was hearing of it so often, that it became vain to attempt concealing it longer, even partially, from his daughter. He had given her some hints of it the last spring in town; he had gone so far even as to say, “Can we retrench? Does it occur to you that there is any one article in which we can retrench?” and Elizabeth, to do her justice, had, in the first ardour of female alarm, set seriously to think what could be done, and had finally proposed these two branches of economy, to cut off some unnecessary charities, and to refrain from new furnishing the drawing-room; to which expedients she afterwards added the happy thought of their taking no present down to Anne, as had been the usual yearly custom. But these measures, however good in themselves, were insufficient for the real extent of the evil, the whole of which Sir Walter found himself obliged to confess to her soon afterwards. Elizabeth had nothing to propose of deeper efficacy. She felt herself ill-used and unfortunate, as did her father; and they were neither of them able to devise any means of lessening their expenses without compromising their dignity, or relinquishing their comforts in a way not to be borne.
But now, another worry was starting to weigh on her mind. Her father was becoming anxious about money. She realized that when he picked up the Baronetage, it was to distract himself from the mounting bills from his tradespeople and the uncomfortable reminders from Mr. Shepherd, his agent. The Kellynch property was decent, but it didn’t match Sir Walter’s expectations of how someone of his status should live. While Lady Elliot was alive, there had been order, moderation, and budgeting that kept him within his means; but with her passing, all that sense had died with her, and since then, he had been consistently overspending. He couldn’t cut back his spending; he was doing exactly what he felt was necessary as Sir Walter Elliot. But even though he was blameless, he was sinking deeper into debt and was hearing about it so often that it became pointless to try to hide it from his daughter, even a little. He had dropped some hints last spring in town, going as far as to ask, “Can we cut back? Is there anything we can cut back on?” Elizabeth, to her credit, had initially reacted with alarm and seriously considered what could be done. She finally suggested two ways to save: to eliminate some unnecessary charities and to avoid redecorating the drawing-room; she later added the clever idea of not bringing any gifts to Anne, which had been their usual yearly tradition. However, these suggestions, though good in theory, didn’t address the full extent of the problem, which Sir Walter had to confess to her soon after. Elizabeth couldn’t think of any more effective solutions. She felt mistreated and unlucky, just like her father, and neither of them could come up with any ways to reduce their expenses without compromising their dignity or sacrificing their comforts in a way they couldn’t bear.
There was only a small part of his estate that Sir Walter could dispose of; but had every acre been alienable, it would have made no difference. He had condescended to mortgage as far as he had the power, but he would never condescend to sell. No; he would never disgrace his name so far. The Kellynch estate should be transmitted whole and entire, as he had received it.
There was only a small portion of his estate that Sir Walter could sell; but even if every acre had been sellable, it wouldn't have mattered. He had reluctantly mortgaged as much as he could, but he would never lower himself to sell. No; he would never tarnish his name like that. The Kellynch estate should be passed down completely intact, just as he had inherited it.
Their two confidential friends, Mr Shepherd, who lived in the neighbouring market town, and Lady Russell, were called on to advise them; and both father and daughter seemed to expect that something should be struck out by one or the other to remove their embarrassments and reduce their expenditure, without involving the loss of any indulgence of taste or pride.
Their two close friends, Mr. Shepherd, who lived in the nearby market town, and Lady Russell, were asked for advice; both the father and daughter appeared to hope that one of them would come up with a solution to alleviate their difficulties and cut their costs, without having to give up any enjoyment of taste or pride.
CHAPTER II.
Mr Shepherd, a civil, cautious lawyer, who, whatever might be his hold or his views on Sir Walter, would rather have the disagreeable prompted by anybody else, excused himself from offering the slightest hint, and only begged leave to recommend an implicit reference to the excellent judgement of Lady Russell, from whose known good sense he fully expected to have just such resolute measures advised as he meant to see finally adopted.
Mr. Shepherd, a polite and careful lawyer, who, no matter his opinions about Sir Walter, would prefer any unpleasantness to be brought up by someone else, refrained from giving even the smallest suggestion. He simply asked to recommend fully trusting the sound judgment of Lady Russell, from whom he honestly anticipated receiving the strong measures he intended to see ultimately put into action.
Lady Russell was most anxiously zealous on the subject, and gave it much serious consideration. She was a woman rather of sound than of quick abilities, whose difficulties in coming to any decision in this instance were great, from the opposition of two leading principles. She was of strict integrity herself, with a delicate sense of honour; but she was as desirous of saving Sir Walter’s feelings, as solicitous for the credit of the family, as aristocratic in her ideas of what was due to them, as anybody of sense and honesty could well be. She was a benevolent, charitable, good woman, and capable of strong attachments, most correct in her conduct, strict in her notions of decorum, and with manners that were held a standard of good-breeding. She had a cultivated mind, and was, generally speaking, rational and consistent—but she had prejudices on the side of ancestry; she had a value for rank and consequence, which blinded her a little to the faults of those who possessed them. Herself the widow of only a knight, she gave the dignity of a baronet all its due; and Sir Walter, independent of his claims as an old acquaintance, an attentive neighbour, an obliging landlord, the husband of her very dear friend, the father of Anne and her sisters, was, as being Sir Walter, in her apprehension, entitled to a great deal of compassion and consideration under his present difficulties.
Lady Russell was very concerned about the situation and thought about it seriously. She was a woman of reliable judgment rather than quick wit, and she faced significant challenges in making a decision because of two conflicting principles. She had strict integrity and a sensitive sense of honor, but she was also eager to protect Sir Walter’s feelings while caring about the family’s reputation. She held strong, traditional views on what was due to them, as any sensible and honest person would. She was a kind, charitable woman capable of deep attachments, very proper in her behavior, strict about decorum, and her manners were considered a model of good breeding. She had a well-developed mind and was generally rational and consistent—but she had biases in favor of lineage; she valued rank and importance, which made her overlook some flaws in those who held such status. As the widow of only a knight, she felt that a baronet deserved full respect, and Sir Walter, besides being an old friend, a considerate neighbor, a generous landlord, and the father of Anne and her sisters, was, in her view, entitled to a lot of compassion and consideration given his current troubles.
They must retrench; that did not admit of a doubt. But she was very anxious to have it done with the least possible pain to him and Elizabeth. She drew up plans of economy, she made exact calculations, and she did what nobody else thought of doing: she consulted Anne, who never seemed considered by the others as having any interest in the question. She consulted, and in a degree was influenced by her in marking out the scheme of retrenchment which was at last submitted to Sir Walter. Every emendation of Anne’s had been on the side of honesty against importance. She wanted more vigorous measures, a more complete reformation, a quicker release from debt, a much higher tone of indifference for everything but justice and equity.
They needed to cut back; there was no doubt about that. But she was really worried about doing it in a way that would cause the least amount of pain for him and Elizabeth. She created plans for saving money, made precise calculations, and did what no one else thought to do: she asked Anne for her input, even though the others didn't seem to think she had any stake in the matter. She consulted her and, to some extent, let her influence the plan for cuts that was finally presented to Sir Walter. Every change Anne suggested was focused on integrity over status. She wanted stronger actions, a more thorough overhaul, a faster way to get out of debt, and a much greater focus on fairness and justice over everything else.
“If we can persuade your father to all this,” said Lady Russell, looking over her paper, “much may be done. If he will adopt these regulations, in seven years he will be clear; and I hope we may be able to convince him and Elizabeth, that Kellynch Hall has a respectability in itself which cannot be affected by these reductions; and that the true dignity of Sir Walter Elliot will be very far from lessened in the eyes of sensible people, by acting like a man of principle. What will he be doing, in fact, but what very many of our first families have done, or ought to do? There will be nothing singular in his case; and it is singularity which often makes the worst part of our suffering, as it always does of our conduct. I have great hope of prevailing. We must be serious and decided; for after all, the person who has contracted debts must pay them; and though a great deal is due to the feelings of the gentleman, and the head of a house, like your father, there is still more due to the character of an honest man.”
“If we can convince your father of all this,” said Lady Russell, looking over her paper, “we can achieve a lot. If he accepts these regulations, in seven years he will be out of debt; and I hope we can persuade him and Elizabeth that Kellynch Hall has its own respectability that won’t be diminished by these cuts; and that the true dignity of Sir Walter Elliot won’t be seen as less in the eyes of sensible people by acting like a principled man. What will he be doing, really, except what many of our leading families have done or should do? There won’t be anything unusual about his situation; and it’s often the uniqueness of our circumstances that causes the most of our suffering, as it always does in our actions. I have high hopes of succeeding. We need to be serious and determined; because, ultimately, the person who has debts must pay them; and while a lot depends on the feelings of a gentleman and the head of a household, like your father, even more depends on the character of an honest man.”
This was the principle on which Anne wanted her father to be proceeding, his friends to be urging him. She considered it as an act of indispensable duty to clear away the claims of creditors with all the expedition which the most comprehensive retrenchments could secure, and saw no dignity in anything short of it. She wanted it to be prescribed, and felt as a duty. She rated Lady Russell’s influence highly; and as to the severe degree of self-denial which her own conscience prompted, she believed there might be little more difficulty in persuading them to a complete, than to half a reformation. Her knowledge of her father and Elizabeth inclined her to think that the sacrifice of one pair of horses would be hardly less painful than of both, and so on, through the whole list of Lady Russell’s too gentle reductions.
This was the principle that Anne wanted her father to follow, and for his friends to encourage him in. She saw it as an essential duty to settle the debts with all the speed that the most significant cutbacks could allow, and she found no respectability in anything less. She wanted it to be mandated and felt it was her responsibility. She held Lady Russell’s influence in high regard; and considering the strict self-denial her own conscience urged, she believed it wouldn't be much harder to convince them to completely reform than to do it halfway. Her understanding of her father and Elizabeth made her think that giving up one pair of horses would be hardly less painful than giving up both, and this applied to all of Lady Russell’s too gentle suggestions for reductions.
How Anne’s more rigid requisitions might have been taken is of little consequence. Lady Russell’s had no success at all: could not be put up with, were not to be borne. “What! every comfort of life knocked off! Journeys, London, servants, horses, table—contractions and restrictions every where! To live no longer with the decencies even of a private gentleman! No, he would sooner quit Kellynch Hall at once, than remain in it on such disgraceful terms.”
How Anne’s stricter requests might have been perceived doesn’t really matter. Lady Russell’s had no effect at all: they couldn't be tolerated and were simply unbearable. “What! Every comfort in life taken away! Travel, London, servants, horses, meals—cutbacks and limitations everywhere! To live without even the basics of being a respectable gentleman! No, he would rather leave Kellynch Hall right away than stay in it under such humiliating conditions.”
“Quit Kellynch Hall.” The hint was immediately taken up by Mr Shepherd, whose interest was involved in the reality of Sir Walter’s retrenching, and who was perfectly persuaded that nothing would be done without a change of abode. “Since the idea had been started in the very quarter which ought to dictate, he had no scruple,” he said, “in confessing his judgement to be entirely on that side. It did not appear to him that Sir Walter could materially alter his style of living in a house which had such a character of hospitality and ancient dignity to support. In any other place Sir Walter might judge for himself; and would be looked up to, as regulating the modes of life in whatever way he might choose to model his household.”
“Leave Kellynch Hall.” Mr. Shepherd immediately picked up on this suggestion, as he was invested in the reality of Sir Walter cutting back on expenses, and he was completely convinced that nothing would change without moving to a different place. “Since the idea originated from the very source that should dictate these matters, I have no hesitation,” he said, “in stating that I fully support this view. It seems to me that Sir Walter cannot significantly change his way of living in a house that carries such a reputation for hospitality and old-world charm. In any other place, Sir Walter could decide for himself and would be respected as setting the standards of living, no matter how he chose to run his household.”
Sir Walter would quit Kellynch Hall; and after a very few days more of doubt and indecision, the great question of whither he should go was settled, and the first outline of this important change made out.
Sir Walter would leave Kellynch Hall; and after just a few more days of uncertainty and indecision, the big question of where he should go was resolved, and the initial plan for this significant change was mapped out.
There had been three alternatives, London, Bath, or another house in the country. All Anne’s wishes had been for the latter. A small house in their own neighbourhood, where they might still have Lady Russell’s society, still be near Mary, and still have the pleasure of sometimes seeing the lawns and groves of Kellynch, was the object of her ambition. But the usual fate of Anne attended her, in having something very opposite from her inclination fixed on. She disliked Bath, and did not think it agreed with her; and Bath was to be her home.
There were three options: London, Bath, or another house in the countryside. All Anne wanted was the last option. A small home in their neighborhood, where they could still enjoy Lady Russell’s company, be close to Mary, and occasionally see the lawns and trees of Kellynch, was her dream. But, as always, Anne's luck was against her, and something totally opposite to what she wanted was decided. She wasn’t fond of Bath, and didn’t believe it suited her; yet Bath was going to be her new home.
Sir Walter had at first thought more of London; but Mr Shepherd felt that he could not be trusted in London, and had been skilful enough to dissuade him from it, and make Bath preferred. It was a much safer place for a gentleman in his predicament: he might there be important at comparatively little expense. Two material advantages of Bath over London had of course been given all their weight: its more convenient distance from Kellynch, only fifty miles, and Lady Russell’s spending some part of every winter there; and to the very great satisfaction of Lady Russell, whose first views on the projected change had been for Bath, Sir Walter and Elizabeth were induced to believe that they should lose neither consequence nor enjoyment by settling there.
Sir Walter initially had a higher opinion of London; however, Mr. Shepherd felt that Sir Walter couldn't be trusted in London and skillfully convinced him to choose Bath instead. Bath was a much safer option for a gentleman in his situation; he could be significant there at a relatively low cost. Two key advantages of Bath over London were emphasized: its closer proximity to Kellynch, just fifty miles away, and Lady Russell spending part of every winter there. Lady Russell was very pleased, as her initial preference for the move was Bath, and Sir Walter and Elizabeth were led to believe that they wouldn't lose any status or enjoyment by relocating there.
Lady Russell felt obliged to oppose her dear Anne’s known wishes. It would be too much to expect Sir Walter to descend into a small house in his own neighbourhood. Anne herself would have found the mortifications of it more than she foresaw, and to Sir Walter’s feelings they must have been dreadful. And with regard to Anne’s dislike of Bath, she considered it as a prejudice and mistake arising, first, from the circumstance of her having been three years at school there, after her mother’s death; and secondly, from her happening to be not in perfectly good spirits the only winter which she had afterwards spent there with herself.
Lady Russell felt she had to go against her dear Anne’s known wishes. It would be asking too much for Sir Walter to move into a small house in his own neighborhood. Anne herself would have found the embarrassment of it greater than she expected, and for Sir Walter, it would have been terrible. As for Anne’s dislike of Bath, she saw it as a prejudice and a mistake that stemmed, first, from her having spent three years at school there after her mother’s death, and secondly, from her being in less than great spirits the only winter she spent there afterward with Lady Russell.
Lady Russell was fond of Bath, in short, and disposed to think it must suit them all; and as to her young friend’s health, by passing all the warm months with her at Kellynch Lodge, every danger would be avoided; and it was in fact, a change which must do both health and spirits good. Anne had been too little from home, too little seen. Her spirits were not high. A larger society would improve them. She wanted her to be more known.
Lady Russell really liked Bath and believed it would be good for all of them. She thought that by spending the entire warm season at Kellynch Lodge, her young friend's health would improve, avoiding any risks. It was definitely a change that would benefit both health and mood. Anne had spent too much time at home and hadn't been seen by others enough. Her spirits were low, and being around more people would lift them. She wanted her to be better known.
The undesirableness of any other house in the same neighbourhood for Sir Walter was certainly much strengthened by one part, and a very material part of the scheme, which had been happily engrafted on the beginning. He was not only to quit his home, but to see it in the hands of others; a trial of fortitude, which stronger heads than Sir Walter’s have found too much. Kellynch Hall was to be let. This, however, was a profound secret, not to be breathed beyond their own circle.
The unappealing nature of any other house in the same neighborhood for Sir Walter was definitely heightened by one aspect, a significant part of the plan, which had been cleverly added at the outset. He was not only going to leave his home, but also to see it in the hands of others; a test of strength that even stronger minds than Sir Walter's have struggled with. Kellynch Hall was going to be rented out. This, however, was a deep secret, not to be shared outside their close circle.
Sir Walter could not have borne the degradation of being known to design letting his house. Mr Shepherd had once mentioned the word “advertise,” but never dared approach it again. Sir Walter spurned the idea of its being offered in any manner; forbad the slightest hint being dropped of his having such an intention; and it was only on the supposition of his being spontaneously solicited by some most unexceptionable applicant, on his own terms, and as a great favour, that he would let it at all.
Sir Walter couldn't stand the thought of being known for renting out his house. Mr. Shepherd had once brought up the word "advertise," but never had the courage to mention it again. Sir Walter rejected the idea of it being offered in any way; he prohibited even the slightest suggestion that he had such an intention; and it was only if he were approached by a perfectly acceptable applicant, on his own terms, and as a significant favor, that he would consider renting it out at all.
How quick come the reasons for approving what we like! Lady Russell had another excellent one at hand, for being extremely glad that Sir Walter and his family were to remove from the country. Elizabeth had been lately forming an intimacy, which she wished to see interrupted. It was with the daughter of Mr Shepherd, who had returned, after an unprosperous marriage, to her father’s house, with the additional burden of two children. She was a clever young woman, who understood the art of pleasing—the art of pleasing, at least, at Kellynch Hall; and who had made herself so acceptable to Miss Elliot, as to have been already staying there more than once, in spite of all that Lady Russell, who thought it a friendship quite out of place, could hint of caution and reserve.
How quickly we come up with reasons to justify what we like! Lady Russell had another good one ready, as she was really happy that Sir Walter and his family were moving away from the countryside. Elizabeth had recently been developing a friendship that she wanted to see ended. It was with the daughter of Mr. Shepherd, who had come back to her father's house after an unsuccessful marriage, now with the added responsibility of two children. She was a smart young woman who knew how to charm people—at least, she knew how to charm those at Kellynch Hall; and she had become so well-liked by Miss Elliot that she had already visited more than once, despite all of Lady Russell's hints about caution and propriety, since she thought that friendship was completely inappropriate.
Lady Russell, indeed, had scarcely any influence with Elizabeth, and seemed to love her, rather because she would love her, than because Elizabeth deserved it. She had never received from her more than outward attention, nothing beyond the observances of complaisance; had never succeeded in any point which she wanted to carry, against previous inclination. She had been repeatedly very earnest in trying to get Anne included in the visit to London, sensibly open to all the injustice and all the discredit of the selfish arrangements which shut her out, and on many lesser occasions had endeavoured to give Elizabeth the advantage of her own better judgement and experience; but always in vain: Elizabeth would go her own way; and never had she pursued it in more decided opposition to Lady Russell than in this selection of Mrs Clay; turning from the society of so deserving a sister, to bestow her affection and confidence on one who ought to have been nothing to her but the object of distant civility.
Lady Russell really had no influence over Elizabeth and seemed to love her more out of obligation than because Elizabeth deserved it. She had only received superficial attention from her, nothing more than polite formalities; she had never succeeded in any of her attempts to change Elizabeth's mind. Lady Russell had repeatedly tried hard to include Anne in the trip to London, fully aware of the unfairness and the negative impact of the selfish plans that excluded her. On many smaller occasions, she had also tried to give Elizabeth the benefit of her better judgment and experience, but it was always pointless: Elizabeth would do what she wanted. Never had she gone against Lady Russell more decisively than with her choice of Mrs. Clay, turning away from the company of her truly deserving sister to place her affection and trust in someone who should have been nothing more than a mere acquaintance.
From situation, Mrs Clay was, in Lady Russell’s estimate, a very unequal, and in her character she believed a very dangerous companion; and a removal that would leave Mrs Clay behind, and bring a choice of more suitable intimates within Miss Elliot’s reach, was therefore an object of first-rate importance.
From her perspective, Lady Russell considered Mrs. Clay to be a very poor match and believed her to be a potentially dangerous influence on Miss Elliot's character. Therefore, finding a way to distance Miss Elliot from Mrs. Clay and introduce more suitable friends was of utmost importance.
CHAPTER III.
“I must take leave to observe, Sir Walter,” said Mr Shepherd one morning at Kellynch Hall, as he laid down the newspaper, “that the present juncture is much in our favour. This peace will be turning all our rich naval officers ashore. They will be all wanting a home. Could not be a better time, Sir Walter, for having a choice of tenants, very responsible tenants. Many a noble fortune has been made during the war. If a rich admiral were to come in our way, Sir Walter—”
“I just want to point out, Sir Walter,” said Mr. Shepherd one morning at Kellynch Hall, as he set down the newspaper, “that the current situation is really in our favor. This peace is going to bring all our wealthy naval officers back home. They’ll all be looking for a place to live. It couldn’t be a better time, Sir Walter, to have a selection of tenants, and responsible ones at that. Many a great fortune has been made during the war. If a wealthy admiral happened to come our way, Sir Walter—”
“He would be a very lucky man, Shepherd,” replied Sir Walter; “that’s all I have to remark. A prize indeed would Kellynch Hall be to him; rather the greatest prize of all, let him have taken ever so many before; hey, Shepherd?”
“He would be a very lucky man, Shepherd,” replied Sir Walter; “that’s all I have to say. Kellynch Hall would definitely be a prize for him; probably the best prize of all, no matter how many he’s had before; right, Shepherd?”
Mr Shepherd laughed, as he knew he must, at this wit, and then added—
Mr. Shepherd laughed, as he knew he should, at this humor, and then added—
“I presume to observe, Sir Walter, that, in the way of business, gentlemen of the navy are well to deal with. I have had a little knowledge of their methods of doing business; and I am free to confess that they have very liberal notions, and are as likely to make desirable tenants as any set of people one should meet with. Therefore, Sir Walter, what I would take leave to suggest is, that if in consequence of any rumours getting abroad of your intention; which must be contemplated as a possible thing, because we know how difficult it is to keep the actions and designs of one part of the world from the notice and curiosity of the other; consequence has its tax; I, John Shepherd, might conceal any family-matters that I chose, for nobody would think it worth their while to observe me; but Sir Walter Elliot has eyes upon him which it may be very difficult to elude; and therefore, thus much I venture upon, that it will not greatly surprise me if, with all our caution, some rumour of the truth should get abroad; in the supposition of which, as I was going to observe, since applications will unquestionably follow, I should think any from our wealthy naval commanders particularly worth attending to; and beg leave to add, that two hours will bring me over at any time, to save you the trouble of replying.”
“I’d like to point out, Sir Walter, that when it comes to business, gentlemen of the navy are easy to deal with. I have some understanding of their business practices, and I must admit that they have very generous views and are just as likely to be great tenants as anyone else you might encounter. So, Sir Walter, what I’d like to suggest is that if any rumors about your intentions start to circulate—which we must accept as a possibility, given how hard it is to keep the actions and plans of one part of the world from the notice and curiosity of another—there will be consequences. I, John Shepherd, might keep any family matters to myself, as no one would find it worth their time to watch me; but Sir Walter Elliot is under scrutiny, which can be very hard to avoid. So, I take the liberty of saying that it wouldn’t surprise me if, despite all our caution, some rumor of the truth gets out. With that in mind, as I was about to mention, since there will definitely be inquiries, I believe any from our wealthy naval commanders would be especially worth considering; and I’d like to add that I can come over within two hours at any time to spare you the trouble of responding.”
Sir Walter only nodded. But soon afterwards, rising and pacing the room, he observed sarcastically—
Sir Walter just nodded. But soon after, as he got up and walked around the room, he commented sarcastically—
“There are few among the gentlemen of the navy, I imagine, who would not be surprised to find themselves in a house of this description.”
"There are probably not many guys in the navy who would expect to find themselves in a house like this."
“They would look around them, no doubt, and bless their good fortune,” said Mrs Clay, for Mrs Clay was present: her father had driven her over, nothing being of so much use to Mrs Clay’s health as a drive to Kellynch: “but I quite agree with my father in thinking a sailor might be a very desirable tenant. I have known a good deal of the profession; and besides their liberality, they are so neat and careful in all their ways! These valuable pictures of yours, Sir Walter, if you chose to leave them, would be perfectly safe. Everything in and about the house would be taken such excellent care of! The gardens and shrubberies would be kept in almost as high order as they are now. You need not be afraid, Miss Elliot, of your own sweet flower gardens being neglected.”
“They would definitely look around and appreciate their good luck,” said Mrs. Clay, as she was present: her father had driven her over, since nothing was as beneficial for her health as a drive to Kellynch. “But I completely agree with my father that a sailor would be a very desirable tenant. I’ve known quite a bit about the profession; and besides their generosity, they are so neat and careful in all they do! These valuable paintings of yours, Sir Walter, if you chose to leave them, would be perfectly safe. Everything in and around the house would be taken care of so well! The gardens and shrubs would be maintained almost as nicely as they are now. You don't need to worry, Miss Elliot, about your lovely flower gardens being neglected.”
“As to all that,” rejoined Sir Walter coolly, “supposing I were induced to let my house, I have by no means made up my mind as to the privileges to be annexed to it. I am not particularly disposed to favour a tenant. The park would be open to him of course, and few navy officers, or men of any other description, can have had such a range; but what restrictions I might impose on the use of the pleasure-grounds, is another thing. I am not fond of the idea of my shrubberies being always approachable; and I should recommend Miss Elliot to be on her guard with respect to her flower garden. I am very little disposed to grant a tenant of Kellynch Hall any extraordinary favour, I assure you, be he sailor or soldier.”
“As for all that,” Sir Walter replied coolly, “if I were to consider renting out my house, I haven’t decided what privileges would come with it. I’m not particularly inclined to be generous to a tenant. The park would be accessible to him, of course, and few navy officers or anyone else could have such a space; but what limitations I might place on the use of the gardens is a different matter. I’m not a fan of the idea of my shrubs being constantly accessible; and I advise Miss Elliot to be cautious about her flower garden. I have no intention of giving any special privileges to a tenant of Kellynch Hall, whether he’s a sailor or a soldier.”
After a short pause, Mr Shepherd presumed to say—
After a brief pause, Mr. Shepherd took the opportunity to say—
“In all these cases, there are established usages which make everything plain and easy between landlord and tenant. Your interest, Sir Walter, is in pretty safe hands. Depend upon me for taking care that no tenant has more than his just rights. I venture to hint, that Sir Walter Elliot cannot be half so jealous for his own, as John Shepherd will be for him.”
“In all these cases, there are established practices that clarify everything between landlords and tenants. Your interests, Sir Walter, are in pretty safe hands. You can count on me to ensure that no tenant has more than their fair rights. I dare say, Sir Walter Elliot can’t be as concerned for his own interests as John Shepherd will be for him.”
Here Anne spoke—
Here Anne talked—
“The navy, I think, who have done so much for us, have at least an equal claim with any other set of men, for all the comforts and all the privileges which any home can give. Sailors work hard enough for their comforts, we must all allow.”
“The navy, I believe, has done so much for us that they deserve at least as much recognition as anyone else for all the comforts and privileges that a home can provide. Sailors put in enough hard work for their comforts, and we all need to acknowledge that.”
“Very true, very true. What Miss Anne says, is very true,” was Mr Shepherd’s rejoinder, and “Oh! certainly,” was his daughter’s; but Sir Walter’s remark was, soon afterwards—
“Absolutely, absolutely. What Miss Anne says is very true,” Mr. Shepherd replied, and “Oh! definitely,” chimed in his daughter; but Sir Walter’s comment was, soon afterwards—
“The profession has its utility, but I should be sorry to see any friend of mine belonging to it.”
“The job has its purpose, but I would hate to see any friend of mine in it.”
“Indeed!” was the reply, and with a look of surprise.
“Absolutely!” was the reply, along with a look of surprise.
“Yes; it is in two points offensive to me; I have two strong grounds of objection to it. First, as being the means of bringing persons of obscure birth into undue distinction, and raising men to honours which their fathers and grandfathers never dreamt of; and secondly, as it cuts up a man’s youth and vigour most horribly; a sailor grows old sooner than any other man. I have observed it all my life. A man is in greater danger in the navy of being insulted by the rise of one whose father, his father might have disdained to speak to, and of becoming prematurely an object of disgust himself, than in any other line. One day last spring, in town, I was in company with two men, striking instances of what I am talking of; Lord St Ives, whose father we all know to have been a country curate, without bread to eat; I was to give place to Lord St Ives, and a certain Admiral Baldwin, the most deplorable-looking personage you can imagine; his face the colour of mahogany, rough and rugged to the last degree; all lines and wrinkles, nine grey hairs of a side, and nothing but a dab of powder at top. ‘In the name of heaven, who is that old fellow?’ said I to a friend of mine who was standing near, (Sir Basil Morley). ‘Old fellow!’ cried Sir Basil, ‘it is Admiral Baldwin. What do you take his age to be?’ ‘Sixty,’ said I, ‘or perhaps sixty-two.’ ‘Forty,’ replied Sir Basil, ‘forty, and no more.’ Picture to yourselves my amazement; I shall not easily forget Admiral Baldwin. I never saw quite so wretched an example of what a sea-faring life can do; but to a degree, I know it is the same with them all: they are all knocked about, and exposed to every climate, and every weather, till they are not fit to be seen. It is a pity they are not knocked on the head at once, before they reach Admiral Baldwin’s age.”
“Yes; it bothers me for two main reasons. First, it elevates people of unknown background to unwarranted status and gives them honors their families never imagined. Second, it seriously shortens a man’s youth and vitality; sailors age faster than anyone else. I've noticed this my whole life. In the navy, a guy is at greater risk of being insulted by the rise of someone whose dad he might have looked down on, and he himself becomes an object of ridicule much sooner than in any other profession. One day last spring, in town, I was with two guys who are perfect examples of what I'm talking about: Lord St Ives, whose father everyone knows was just a country priest struggling to get by; I had to give way to Lord St Ives, and a certain Admiral Baldwin, the most miserable-looking person you could imagine; his face was the color of mahogany, rough and rugged beyond belief; full of lines and wrinkles, with nine grey hairs on each side, and just a sprinkle of powder on top. ‘In the name of heaven, who is that old guy?’ I asked my friend, Sir Basil Morley, who was standing nearby. ‘Old guy!’ Sir Basil exclaimed, ‘That’s Admiral Baldwin. How old do you think he is?’ ‘Sixty,’ I said, ‘or maybe sixty-two.’ ‘Forty,’ Sir Basil replied, ‘just forty.’ Imagine my shock; I won’t easily forget Admiral Baldwin. I’ve never seen such a terrible example of what a life at sea can do; but to an extent, I know it’s the same for them all: they’re all beaten up and exposed to every climate and kind of weather until they’re not fit to be seen. It’s a shame they’re not taken out of it before they reach Admiral Baldwin’s age.”
“Nay, Sir Walter,” cried Mrs Clay, “this is being severe indeed. Have a little mercy on the poor men. We are not all born to be handsome. The sea is no beautifier, certainly; sailors do grow old betimes; I have observed it; they soon lose the look of youth. But then, is not it the same with many other professions, perhaps most other? Soldiers, in active service, are not at all better off: and even in the quieter professions, there is a toil and a labour of the mind, if not of the body, which seldom leaves a man’s looks to the natural effect of time. The lawyer plods, quite care-worn; the physician is up at all hours, and travelling in all weather; and even the clergyman—” she stopt a moment to consider what might do for the clergyman;—“and even the clergyman, you know is obliged to go into infected rooms, and expose his health and looks to all the injury of a poisonous atmosphere. In fact, as I have long been convinced, though every profession is necessary and honourable in its turn, it is only the lot of those who are not obliged to follow any, who can live in a regular way, in the country, choosing their own hours, following their own pursuits, and living on their own property, without the torment of trying for more; it is only their lot, I say, to hold the blessings of health and a good appearance to the utmost: I know no other set of men but what lose something of their personableness when they cease to be quite young.”
"Nay, Sir Walter," exclaimed Mrs. Clay, "this is really harsh. Have a little mercy on the poor men. Not everyone is born good-looking. The sea certainly doesn’t help with that; sailors age quickly, I've noticed. They lose their youthful appearance sooner than others. But isn't it the same with many other jobs, perhaps even most? Soldiers in active duty don’t fare any better, and even in less intense careers, there’s a mental and emotional toll, if not a physical one, that often takes a toll on a person's looks over time. The lawyer looks worn out from stressing over cases; the doctor is up at all hours, traveling through all kinds of weather; and even the clergyman—" she paused for a moment to think of what could be said about the clergyman; "and even the clergyman, you know, has to go into sick rooms and risk his health and appearance in a harmful environment. In fact, as I've long believed, while every profession is necessary and honorable in its own way, only those who aren’t forced to have jobs can live a structured life in the countryside, choosing their own hours, pursuing their own interests, and living off their own resources, without the stress of seeking more; it is only their situation, I say, that allows them to maintain good health and a favorable appearance to the fullest. I don't know of any other group of people who don’t lose some of their attractiveness once they stop being quite young."
It seemed as if Mr Shepherd, in this anxiety to bespeak Sir Walter’s good will towards a naval officer as tenant, had been gifted with foresight; for the very first application for the house was from an Admiral Croft, with whom he shortly afterwards fell into company in attending the quarter sessions at Taunton; and indeed, he had received a hint of the Admiral from a London correspondent. By the report which he hastened over to Kellynch to make, Admiral Croft was a native of Somersetshire, who having acquired a very handsome fortune, was wishing to settle in his own country, and had come down to Taunton in order to look at some advertised places in that immediate neighbourhood, which, however, had not suited him; that accidentally hearing—(it was just as he had foretold, Mr Shepherd observed, Sir Walter’s concerns could not be kept a secret,)—accidentally hearing of the possibility of Kellynch Hall being to let, and understanding his (Mr Shepherd’s) connection with the owner, he had introduced himself to him in order to make particular inquiries, and had, in the course of a pretty long conference, expressed as strong an inclination for the place as a man who knew it only by description could feel; and given Mr Shepherd, in his explicit account of himself, every proof of his being a most responsible, eligible tenant.
It seemed like Mr. Shepherd, in his eagerness to gain Sir Walter’s favor for a naval officer as a tenant, had some foresight; because the very first inquiry about the house came from Admiral Croft, who he soon met while attending the quarter sessions in Taunton. In fact, he had received a tip about the Admiral from a contact in London. By the report he quickly brought to Kellynch, Admiral Croft was originally from Somersetshire, and after accumulating a substantial fortune, he wanted to settle back in his home area. He had traveled to Taunton to look at some properties in the area that had been advertised, but none of them suited him. He had, by coincidence—just as Mr. Shepherd had predicted, Sir Walter’s business couldn't be kept a secret—heard about the possibility of Kellynch Hall being available for rent. After learning about Mr. Shepherd’s connection with the owner, he approached him to ask specific questions and during their fairly lengthy conversation, he expressed as strong an interest in the place as someone could who only knew it from descriptions. He also provided Mr. Shepherd with clear evidence of being a highly responsible and suitable tenant.
“And who is Admiral Croft?” was Sir Walter’s cold suspicious inquiry.
“And who is Admiral Croft?” Sir Walter asked, his tone cold and suspicious.
Mr Shepherd answered for his being of a gentleman’s family, and mentioned a place; and Anne, after the little pause which followed, added—
Mr. Shepherd spoke about being from a gentleman's family and mentioned a location, and after a brief pause that followed, Anne added—
“He is a rear admiral of the white. He was in the Trafalgar action, and has been in the East Indies since; he was stationed there, I believe, several years.”
“He is a rear admiral of the white. He was in the Battle of Trafalgar, and has been in the East Indies since; he was stationed there, I think, for several years.”
“Then I take it for granted,” observed Sir Walter, “that his face is about as orange as the cuffs and capes of my livery.”
“Then I assume,” noted Sir Walter, “that his face is as orange as the cuffs and capes of my uniform.”
Mr Shepherd hastened to assure him, that Admiral Croft was a very hale, hearty, well-looking man, a little weather-beaten, to be sure, but not much, and quite the gentleman in all his notions and behaviour; not likely to make the smallest difficulty about terms, only wanted a comfortable home, and to get into it as soon as possible; knew he must pay for his convenience; knew what rent a ready-furnished house of that consequence might fetch; should not have been surprised if Sir Walter had asked more; had inquired about the manor; would be glad of the deputation, certainly, but made no great point of it; said he sometimes took out a gun, but never killed; quite the gentleman.
Mr. Shepherd quickly assured him that Admiral Croft was a very healthy, good-looking man, a bit weathered, but not too much, and very much the gentleman in all his ideas and behavior. He wasn’t likely to make a fuss about terms; he just wanted a comfortable home and to move in as soon as possible. He understood he had to pay for his convenience and knew what rent a well-furnished house of that quality could command. He wouldn’t have been surprised if Sir Walter had asked for more. He had asked about the manor and would certainly appreciate the appointment, but it wasn't a huge deal for him. He mentioned that he sometimes took out a gun but never actually killed anything; very much the gentleman.
Mr Shepherd was eloquent on the subject; pointing out all the circumstances of the Admiral’s family, which made him peculiarly desirable as a tenant. He was a married man, and without children; the very state to be wished for. A house was never taken good care of, Mr Shepherd observed, without a lady: he did not know, whether furniture might not be in danger of suffering as much where there was no lady, as where there were many children. A lady, without a family, was the very best preserver of furniture in the world. He had seen Mrs Croft, too; she was at Taunton with the admiral, and had been present almost all the time they were talking the matter over.
Mr. Shepherd was very expressive about the topic, highlighting all the factors regarding the Admiral's family that made him especially appealing as a tenant. He was married but childless, which was the ideal situation. Mr. Shepherd noted that a house was never well-maintained without a woman present; he wasn't sure if furniture might be just as likely to suffer without a woman as it would with many children around. A woman without kids was the best protector of furniture. He had also met Mrs. Croft; she had been in Taunton with the Admiral and had been there nearly the entire time they were discussing the matter.
“And a very well-spoken, genteel, shrewd lady, she seemed to be,” continued he; “asked more questions about the house, and terms, and taxes, than the Admiral himself, and seemed more conversant with business; and moreover, Sir Walter, I found she was not quite unconnected in this country, any more than her husband; that is to say, she is sister to a gentleman who did live amongst us once; she told me so herself: sister to the gentleman who lived a few years back at Monkford. Bless me! what was his name? At this moment I cannot recollect his name, though I have heard it so lately. Penelope, my dear, can you help me to the name of the gentleman who lived at Monkford: Mrs Croft’s brother?”
“And she was a very articulate, refined, and clever lady,” he continued; “asked more questions about the house, the terms, and the taxes than the Admiral himself, and seemed more knowledgeable about business. Also, Sir Walter, I found out she wasn’t completely disconnected from this country, just like her husband; she mentioned that she is the sister of a gentleman who used to live among us; she told me herself: sister to the gentleman who lived a few years ago at Monkford. Goodness! What was his name? I can’t recall it at the moment, even though I’ve heard it so recently. Penelope, my dear, can you remind me of the name of the gentleman who lived at Monkford: Mrs. Croft’s brother?”
But Mrs Clay was talking so eagerly with Miss Elliot, that she did not hear the appeal.
But Mrs. Clay was chatting so excitedly with Miss Elliot that she didn't hear the request.
“I have no conception whom you can mean, Shepherd; I remember no gentleman resident at Monkford since the time of old Governor Trent.”
“I have no idea who you’re talking about, Shepherd; I don’t recall any gentleman living at Monkford since the time of old Governor Trent.”
“Bless me! how very odd! I shall forget my own name soon, I suppose. A name that I am so very well acquainted with; knew the gentleman so well by sight; seen him a hundred times; came to consult me once, I remember, about a trespass of one of his neighbours; farmer’s man breaking into his orchard; wall torn down; apples stolen; caught in the fact; and afterwards, contrary to my judgement, submitted to an amicable compromise. Very odd indeed!”
“Wow, how strange! I guess I’ll soon forget my own name. A name I know so well; I recognized the guy so clearly; I’ve seen him a hundred times; he came to talk to me once, I remember, about a neighbor’s trespass; a farmer's worker breaking into his orchard; the wall was destroyed; apples were stolen; he got caught in the act; and later, against my better judgment, he agreed to a friendly compromise. Really strange indeed!”
After waiting another moment—
After waiting a bit—
“You mean Mr Wentworth, I suppose?” said Anne.
"You mean Mr. Wentworth, right?" Anne said.
Mr Shepherd was all gratitude.
Mr. Shepherd was very grateful.
“Wentworth was the very name! Mr Wentworth was the very man. He had the curacy of Monkford, you know, Sir Walter, some time back, for two or three years. Came there about the year —5, I take it. You remember him, I am sure.”
“Wentworth was definitely the name! Mr. Wentworth was absolutely the guy. He had the position of vicar at Monkford, you know, Sir Walter, a while back, for two or three years. He showed up around the year —5, if I remember correctly. I’m sure you remember him.”
“Wentworth? Oh! ay, Mr Wentworth, the curate of Monkford. You misled me by the term gentleman. I thought you were speaking of some man of property: Mr Wentworth was nobody, I remember; quite unconnected; nothing to do with the Strafford family. One wonders how the names of many of our nobility become so common.”
“Wentworth? Oh! Yeah, Mr. Wentworth, the curate of Monkford. You misled me with the term gentleman. I thought you were talking about some wealthy guy: Mr. Wentworth was nothing, I remember; totally unrelated; had nothing to do with the Strafford family. It’s strange how many names in our nobility become so commonplace.”
As Mr Shepherd perceived that this connexion of the Crofts did them no service with Sir Walter, he mentioned it no more; returning, with all his zeal, to dwell on the circumstances more indisputably in their favour; their age, and number, and fortune; the high idea they had formed of Kellynch Hall, and extreme solicitude for the advantage of renting it; making it appear as if they ranked nothing beyond the happiness of being the tenants of Sir Walter Elliot: an extraordinary taste, certainly, could they have been supposed in the secret of Sir Walter’s estimate of the dues of a tenant.
As Mr. Shepherd realized that the Crofts’ connection didn’t help them with Sir Walter, he dropped the subject and focused all his energy on discussing their advantages; their age, number, and wealth; the high regard they had for Kellynch Hall, and their deep desire to rent it. He made it seem like their only priority was being happy as Sir Walter Elliot’s tenants, which was quite a unique perspective, especially considering how Sir Walter valued a tenant’s responsibilities.
It succeeded, however; and though Sir Walter must ever look with an evil eye on anyone intending to inhabit that house, and think them infinitely too well off in being permitted to rent it on the highest terms, he was talked into allowing Mr Shepherd to proceed in the treaty, and authorising him to wait on Admiral Croft, who still remained at Taunton, and fix a day for the house being seen.
It worked out, though Sir Walter would always have a negative view of anyone planning to live in that house, and he believed they were incredibly fortunate to be allowed to rent it at such a high price. Still, he was convinced to let Mr. Shepherd move forward with the agreement and authorized him to meet with Admiral Croft, who was still in Taunton, to set a date for viewing the house.
Sir Walter was not very wise; but still he had experience enough of the world to feel, that a more unobjectionable tenant, in all essentials, than Admiral Croft bid fair to be, could hardly offer. So far went his understanding; and his vanity supplied a little additional soothing, in the Admiral’s situation in life, which was just high enough, and not too high. “I have let my house to Admiral Croft,” would sound extremely well; very much better than to any mere Mr.——; a Mr. (save, perhaps, some half dozen in the nation,) always needs a note of explanation. An admiral speaks his own consequence, and, at the same time, can never make a baronet look small. In all their dealings and intercourse, Sir Walter Elliot must ever have the precedence.
Sir Walter wasn't very wise, but he had enough life experience to realize that Admiral Croft would likely be the best tenant he could get. That was the extent of his understanding, but his vanity added a bit of comfort in the Admiral's social standing, which was just the right level—not too high, not too low. "I’ve rented my house to Admiral Croft" would sound impressive—much better than to any ordinary Mr. A Mr. (except for maybe a handful in the country) always requires some explanation. An admiral carries his own weight and, at the same time, never makes a baronet seem insignificant. In all their dealings and interactions, Sir Walter Elliot would always take precedence.
Nothing could be done without a reference to Elizabeth: but her inclination was growing so strong for a removal, that she was happy to have it fixed and expedited by a tenant at hand; and not a word to suspend decision was uttered by her.
Nothing could be done without considering Elizabeth: but her desire to leave was becoming so strong that she was glad to have it settled and arranged by a nearby tenant; and she didn't say a word to delay the decision.
Mr Shepherd was completely empowered to act; and no sooner had such an end been reached, than Anne, who had been a most attentive listener to the whole, left the room, to seek the comfort of cool air for her flushed cheeks; and as she walked along a favourite grove, said, with a gentle sigh, “A few months more, and he, perhaps, may be walking here.”
Mr. Shepherd had full authority to take action; and as soon as that goal was achieved, Anne, who had been listening intently to everything, left the room to find some fresh air for her flushed cheeks. As she strolled through a favorite grove, she said with a soft sigh, “In a few months, he might be walking here.”
CHAPTER IV.
He was not Mr Wentworth, the former curate of Monkford, however suspicious appearances may be, but a Captain Frederick Wentworth, his brother, who being made commander in consequence of the action off St Domingo, and not immediately employed, had come into Somersetshire, in the summer of 1806; and having no parent living, found a home for half a year at Monkford. He was, at that time, a remarkably fine young man, with a great deal of intelligence, spirit, and brilliancy; and Anne an extremely pretty girl, with gentleness, modesty, taste, and feeling. Half the sum of attraction, on either side, might have been enough, for he had nothing to do, and she had hardly anybody to love; but the encounter of such lavish recommendations could not fail. They were gradually acquainted, and when acquainted, rapidly and deeply in love. It would be difficult to say which had seen highest perfection in the other, or which had been the happiest: she, in receiving his declarations and proposals, or he in having them accepted.
He wasn't Mr. Wentworth, the former curate of Monkford, no matter how suspicious it might seem, but rather Captain Frederick Wentworth, his brother. After being promoted to captain due to his role in the action off St. Domingo and not having immediate duties, he came to Somersetshire in the summer of 1806. With no parents alive, he spent six months living in Monkford. At that time, he was a striking young man, full of intelligence, spirit, and charm; Anne was a very pretty girl, marked by gentleness, modesty, taste, and sensitivity. Either of their appeal alone might have been enough, as he had no pressing engagements and she had hardly anyone to love; but the combination of such strong qualities was irresistible. They gradually got to know each other, and once they did, they fell quickly and deeply in love. It’s hard to say who perceived the other as more perfect or who was happier: she, in receiving his declarations and proposals, or he, in having them accepted.
A short period of exquisite felicity followed, and but a short one. Troubles soon arose. Sir Walter, on being applied to, without actually withholding his consent, or saying it should never be, gave it all the negative of great astonishment, great coldness, great silence, and a professed resolution of doing nothing for his daughter. He thought it a very degrading alliance; and Lady Russell, though with more tempered and pardonable pride, received it as a most unfortunate one.
A brief time of pure happiness followed, but it was just that—a brief time. Problems quickly emerged. When Sir Walter was approached, he didn’t outright deny permission or say it would never happen; instead, he showed his disapproval through his shock, indifference, silence, and a firm decision to do nothing for his daughter. He considered it a very humiliating match, and Lady Russell, though a bit more measured and understandably proud, viewed it as a very unfortunate situation.
Anne Elliot, with all her claims of birth, beauty, and mind, to throw herself away at nineteen; involve herself at nineteen in an engagement with a young man, who had nothing but himself to recommend him, and no hopes of attaining affluence, but in the chances of a most uncertain profession, and no connexions to secure even his farther rise in the profession, would be, indeed, a throwing away, which she grieved to think of! Anne Elliot, so young; known to so few, to be snatched off by a stranger without alliance or fortune; or rather sunk by him into a state of most wearing, anxious, youth-killing dependence! It must not be, if by any fair interference of friendship, any representations from one who had almost a mother’s love, and mother’s rights, it would be prevented.
Anne Elliot, with all her advantages of status, beauty, and intelligence, to waste herself at nineteen; to get involved at nineteen with a young man who had nothing to recommend him but himself, no real prospects for wealth, depending only on the uncertain nature of his job, and no connections to help him advance, would truly be a waste, and it upset her to think about it! Anne Elliot, so young; known to so few, to be taken away by a stranger with no connections or fortune; or worse, to be dragged down by him into a state of exhausting, anxious dependence that could destroy her youth! It must not happen, if any fair intervention of friendship, any words from someone who held almost a mother’s love, and had a mother’s rights, could prevent it.
Captain Wentworth had no fortune. He had been lucky in his profession; but spending freely, what had come freely, had realized nothing. But he was confident that he should soon be rich: full of life and ardour, he knew that he should soon have a ship, and soon be on a station that would lead to everything he wanted. He had always been lucky; he knew he should be so still. Such confidence, powerful in its own warmth, and bewitching in the wit which often expressed it, must have been enough for Anne; but Lady Russell saw it very differently. His sanguine temper, and fearlessness of mind, operated very differently on her. She saw in it but an aggravation of the evil. It only added a dangerous character to himself. He was brilliant, he was headstrong. Lady Russell had little taste for wit, and of anything approaching to imprudence a horror. She deprecated the connexion in every light.
Captain Wentworth had no money. He had been successful in his career, but spending what had come easily to him hadn’t amounted to much. Still, he was sure he would soon be wealthy: full of life and energy, he believed he would soon have a ship and be assigned to a position that would lead to everything he desired. He had always been lucky and knew he would continue to be. Such confidence, powerful in its own enthusiasm and charming in the cleverness that often expressed it, should have been enough for Anne; but Lady Russell viewed it very differently. His optimistic nature and fearless mindset had a completely different effect on her. She saw it as only increasing the problem. It added a risky edge to his character. He was brilliant and headstrong. Lady Russell had little appreciation for wit and had a horror of anything that bordered on recklessness. She opposed the connection in every way.
Such opposition, as these feelings produced, was more than Anne could combat. Young and gentle as she was, it might yet have been possible to withstand her father’s ill-will, though unsoftened by one kind word or look on the part of her sister; but Lady Russell, whom she had always loved and relied on, could not, with such steadiness of opinion, and such tenderness of manner, be continually advising her in vain. She was persuaded to believe the engagement a wrong thing: indiscreet, improper, hardly capable of success, and not deserving it. But it was not a merely selfish caution, under which she acted, in putting an end to it. Had she not imagined herself consulting his good, even more than her own, she could hardly have given him up. The belief of being prudent, and self-denying, principally for his advantage, was her chief consolation, under the misery of a parting, a final parting; and every consolation was required, for she had to encounter all the additional pain of opinions, on his side, totally unconvinced and unbending, and of his feeling himself ill used by so forced a relinquishment. He had left the country in consequence.
Such opposition, driven by these feelings, was more than Anne could handle. Young and gentle as she was, it might have been possible to endure her father’s hostility, even without a kind word or look from her sister; but Lady Russell, whom she had always loved and trusted, could not consistently advise her without success given her steadfast opinions and gentle manner. She was convinced that the engagement was a mistake: indiscreet, improper, unlikely to succeed, and not worth pursuing. However, it wasn't just selfish caution that led her to end it. If she hadn’t believed she was looking out for his best interests, even more than her own, she could hardly have let him go. The belief that she was being prudent and self-sacrificing primarily for his benefit was her main source of comfort amid the anguish of a permanent separation; and she needed every bit of consolation because she had to face additional pain from his side, where he felt completely unconvinced and rigid, believing himself wronged by such a forced break. He had left the country as a result.
A few months had seen the beginning and the end of their acquaintance; but not with a few months ended Anne’s share of suffering from it. Her attachment and regrets had, for a long time, clouded every enjoyment of youth, and an early loss of bloom and spirits had been their lasting effect.
A few months had marked the start and the end of their relationship; however, Anne's suffering from it didn't end with those few months. Her feelings and regrets had long overshadowed every moment of her youth, and the early loss of her vitality and happiness was a lasting consequence.
More than seven years were gone since this little history of sorrowful interest had reached its close; and time had softened down much, perhaps nearly all of peculiar attachment to him, but she had been too dependent on time alone; no aid had been given in change of place (except in one visit to Bath soon after the rupture), or in any novelty or enlargement of society. No one had ever come within the Kellynch circle, who could bear a comparison with Frederick Wentworth, as he stood in her memory. No second attachment, the only thoroughly natural, happy, and sufficient cure, at her time of life, had been possible to the nice tone of her mind, the fastidiousness of her taste, in the small limits of the society around them. She had been solicited, when about two-and-twenty, to change her name, by the young man, who not long afterwards found a more willing mind in her younger sister; and Lady Russell had lamented her refusal; for Charles Musgrove was the eldest son of a man, whose landed property and general importance were second in that country, only to Sir Walter’s, and of good character and appearance; and however Lady Russell might have asked yet for something more, while Anne was nineteen, she would have rejoiced to see her at twenty-two so respectably removed from the partialities and injustice of her father’s house, and settled so permanently near herself. But in this case, Anne had left nothing for advice to do; and though Lady Russell, as satisfied as ever with her own discretion, never wished the past undone, she began now to have the anxiety which borders on hopelessness for Anne’s being tempted, by some man of talents and independence, to enter a state for which she held her to be peculiarly fitted by her warm affections and domestic habits.
More than seven years had passed since this little story of sorrowful interest came to an end; and time had dulled much, perhaps almost all, of her special attachment to him. However, she had relied too much on time alone; no change of scenery had helped (except for one visit to Bath soon after the breakup), nor had there been any new experiences or expansion of her social circle. Nobody in the Kellynch circle could compare to Frederick Wentworth, as she remembered him. No second attachment, the only truly natural, happy, and effective remedy for her at that age, had been possible given her refined sensibilities and the limited social options available to her. When she was around twenty-two, she was urged to change her name by a young man who soon found a more willing partner in her younger sister; and Lady Russell had regretted her refusal. Charles Musgrove was the eldest son of a man whose property and standing were second in that area only to Sir Walter's, and he had a good reputation and an appealing appearance. Even though Lady Russell may have desired something more while Anne was nineteen, she would have been happy to see her at twenty-two in a respectable situation, removed from the biases and injustices of her father's household, and settled close by herself. But in this case, Anne had made her own choices without needing advice; and although Lady Russell, confident in her own judgment, never wished to change the past, she was starting to feel the worry that tipped into hopelessness about Anne being tempted by some talented and independent man to enter a relationship for which she believed Anne was especially suited given her affection and home-oriented nature.
They knew not each other’s opinion, either its constancy or its change, on the one leading point of Anne’s conduct, for the subject was never alluded to; but Anne, at seven-and-twenty, thought very differently from what she had been made to think at nineteen. She did not blame Lady Russell, she did not blame herself for having been guided by her; but she felt that were any young person, in similar circumstances, to apply to her for counsel, they would never receive any of such certain immediate wretchedness, such uncertain future good. She was persuaded that under every disadvantage of disapprobation at home, and every anxiety attending his profession, all their probable fears, delays, and disappointments, she should yet have been a happier woman in maintaining the engagement, than she had been in the sacrifice of it; and this, she fully believed, had the usual share, had even more than the usual share of all such solicitudes and suspense been theirs, without reference to the actual results of their case, which, as it happened, would have bestowed earlier prosperity than could be reasonably calculated on. All his sanguine expectations, all his confidence had been justified. His genius and ardour had seemed to foresee and to command his prosperous path. He had, very soon after their engagement ceased, got employ: and all that he had told her would follow, had taken place. He had distinguished himself, and early gained the other step in rank, and must now, by successive captures, have made a handsome fortune. She had only navy lists and newspapers for her authority, but she could not doubt his being rich; and, in favour of his constancy, she had no reason to believe him married.
They didn't know each other's thoughts, whether they were steady or had changed, regarding the one crucial aspect of Anne's behavior, since the topic was never discussed; but Anne, at 27, thought very differently from what she had been led to believe at 19. She didn't blame Lady Russell, nor did she blame herself for being influenced by her; but she felt that if any young person in similar circumstances came to her for advice, they would never receive such certain immediate misery and such uncertain future benefits. She was convinced that despite any disapproval at home and the anxieties tied to his career, with all their probable fears, delays, and disappointments, she would have been a happier woman if she had kept the engagement than she had been in giving it up; and she firmly believed this, even if they had experienced the usual share, or even more than the usual share, of anxieties and uncertainty, regardless of the actual outcomes of their situation, which, as it happened, would have led to success sooner than could have been reasonably expected. All of his optimistic expectations and confidence had turned out to be right. His talent and passion seemed to foresee and secure his successful path. Very soon after their engagement ended, he found work, and everything he had told her would happen did occur. He distinguished himself and quickly moved up the ranks, and he must have made a good fortune through successive successes. She only had navy lists and newspapers as her sources, but she had no reason to doubt that he was wealthy, and regarding his loyalty, she had no reason to believe he was married.
How eloquent could Anne Elliot have been! how eloquent, at least, were her wishes on the side of early warm attachment, and a cheerful confidence in futurity, against that over-anxious caution which seems to insult exertion and distrust Providence! She had been forced into prudence in her youth, she learned romance as she grew older: the natural sequel of an unnatural beginning.
How articulate could Anne Elliot have been! How articulate, at least, were her desires for early, passionate love and a bright outlook for the future, in contrast to that overly cautious attitude which seems to undermine effort and distrust fate! She had to become careful in her youth, but she discovered romance as she got older: the natural outcome of an unnatural start.
With all these circumstances, recollections and feelings, she could not hear that Captain Wentworth’s sister was likely to live at Kellynch without a revival of former pain; and many a stroll, and many a sigh, were necessary to dispel the agitation of the idea. She often told herself it was folly, before she could harden her nerves sufficiently to feel the continual discussion of the Crofts and their business no evil. She was assisted, however, by that perfect indifference and apparent unconsciousness, among the only three of her own friends in the secret of the past, which seemed almost to deny any recollection of it. She could do justice to the superiority of Lady Russell’s motives in this, over those of her father and Elizabeth; she could honour all the better feelings of her calmness; but the general air of oblivion among them was highly important from whatever it sprung; and in the event of Admiral Croft’s really taking Kellynch Hall, she rejoiced anew over the conviction which had always been most grateful to her, of the past being known to those three only among her connexions, by whom no syllable, she believed, would ever be whispered, and in the trust that among his, the brother only with whom he had been residing, had received any information of their short-lived engagement. That brother had been long removed from the country and being a sensible man, and, moreover, a single man at the time, she had a fond dependence on no human creature’s having heard of it from him.
With all these circumstances, memories and feelings, she couldn’t bear the thought that Captain Wentworth’s sister might move to Kellynch without stirring up past pain; it took many walks and deep sighs to ease the agitation of that idea. She often reminded herself it was foolish to feel this way before she could toughen her nerves enough to see the constant talk about the Crofts and their affairs as no big deal. However, she was helped by the complete indifference and lack of awareness from the only three friends who knew about her past, which seemed to almost ignore it entirely. She appreciated that Lady Russell had better motivations in this than her father and Elizabeth; she admired the calmness of her better feelings. But the general sense of forgetfulness among them was very significant, regardless of its source. If Admiral Croft really did take Kellynch Hall, she felt renewed joy in the conviction that only those three in her circle knew about her history, and she believed none would ever say a word about it. She trusted that, among his family, only the brother he had been living with was aware of their brief engagement. That brother had long been away from the area, and being a sensible man—and single at the time—she had a strong hope that no one else had heard about it from him.
The sister, Mrs Croft, had then been out of England, accompanying her husband on a foreign station, and her own sister, Mary, had been at school while it all occurred; and never admitted by the pride of some, and the delicacy of others, to the smallest knowledge of it afterwards.
The sister, Mrs. Croft, had been out of England, traveling with her husband on assignment overseas, and her own sister, Mary, had been at school during the entire situation; neither had been informed about it later due to the pride of some and the sensitivity of others.
With these supports, she hoped that the acquaintance between herself and the Crofts, which, with Lady Russell, still resident in Kellynch, and Mary fixed only three miles off, must be anticipated, need not involve any particular awkwardness.
With these supports, she hoped that getting to know the Crofts, along with Lady Russell, who still lived in Kellynch, and Mary, who was only three miles away, would not be particularly awkward.
CHAPTER V.
On the morning appointed for Admiral and Mrs Croft’s seeing Kellynch Hall, Anne found it most natural to take her almost daily walk to Lady Russell’s, and keep out of the way till all was over; when she found it most natural to be sorry that she had missed the opportunity of seeing them.
On the morning set for Admiral and Mrs. Croft to visit Kellynch Hall, Anne thought it made the most sense to take her usual walk to Lady Russell's and stay out of the way until everything was done; afterward, she felt a genuine regret for missing the chance to see them.
This meeting of the two parties proved highly satisfactory, and decided the whole business at once. Each lady was previously well disposed for an agreement, and saw nothing, therefore, but good manners in the other; and with regard to the gentlemen, there was such an hearty good humour, such an open, trusting liberality on the Admiral’s side, as could not but influence Sir Walter, who had besides been flattered into his very best and most polished behaviour by Mr Shepherd’s assurances of his being known, by report, to the Admiral, as a model of good breeding.
This meeting between the two parties went really well and settled everything right away. Each lady was already inclined to reach an agreement and saw only good manners in the other; as for the gentlemen, there was such genuine good humor and such open, trusting generosity from the Admiral that it couldn't help but sway Sir Walter, who had also been flattered into his best and most polished behavior by Mr. Shepherd’s assurances that the Admiral had heard of him, by reputation, as a model of good breeding.
The house and grounds, and furniture, were approved, the Crofts were approved, terms, time, every thing, and every body, was right; and Mr Shepherd’s clerks were set to work, without there having been a single preliminary difference to modify of all that “This indenture sheweth.”
The house, property, and furniture were all approved, the Crofts were approved, and everything—terms, timing, everyone—was just right. Mr. Shepherd's clerks were put to work without a single preliminary issue to change from all that “This indenture shows.”
Sir Walter, without hesitation, declared the Admiral to be the best-looking sailor he had ever met with, and went so far as to say, that if his own man might have had the arranging of his hair, he should not be ashamed of being seen with him any where; and the Admiral, with sympathetic cordiality, observed to his wife as they drove back through the park, “I thought we should soon come to a deal, my dear, in spite of what they told us at Taunton. The Baronet will never set the Thames on fire, but there seems to be no harm in him.”—reciprocal compliments, which would have been esteemed about equal.
Sir Walter confidently declared the Admiral to be the best-looking sailor he had ever encountered and even suggested that if his own stylist could have arranged his hair, he wouldn’t be embarrassed to be seen with him anywhere. The Admiral, with a friendly warmth, remarked to his wife as they drove back through the park, “I thought we’d strike a deal soon, dear, despite what they warned us at Taunton. The Baronet won’t make a big splash, but he seems harmless.” — reciprocal compliments, which both considered about equal.
The Crofts were to have possession at Michaelmas; and as Sir Walter proposed removing to Bath in the course of the preceding month, there was no time to be lost in making every dependent arrangement.
The Crofts were set to move in at Michaelmas, and since Sir Walter planned to move to Bath the following month, there was no time to waste in making all the necessary arrangements.
Lady Russell, convinced that Anne would not be allowed to be of any use, or any importance, in the choice of the house which they were going to secure, was very unwilling to have her hurried away so soon, and wanted to make it possible for her to stay behind till she might convey her to Bath herself after Christmas; but having engagements of her own which must take her from Kellynch for several weeks, she was unable to give the full invitation she wished, and Anne though dreading the possible heats of September in all the white glare of Bath, and grieving to forego all the influence so sweet and so sad of the autumnal months in the country, did not think that, everything considered, she wished to remain. It would be most right, and most wise, and, therefore must involve least suffering to go with the others.
Lady Russell, sure that Anne wouldn’t be allowed to play any role or have any say in choosing the house they were about to secure, was really hesitant to have her leave so soon. She wanted to find a way for Anne to stay behind until she could take her to Bath herself after Christmas. However, with her own commitments requiring her to be away from Kellynch for several weeks, she couldn’t extend the full invitation she hoped to. Anne, although dreading the potential heat of September in the bright glare of Bath and feeling sad about missing out on the bittersweet beauty of autumn in the countryside, ultimately decided that, all things considered, she didn’t want to stay. It seemed most right, and most sensible, and therefore would involve the least suffering to go with the others.
Something occurred, however, to give her a different duty. Mary, often a little unwell, and always thinking a great deal of her own complaints, and always in the habit of claiming Anne when anything was the matter, was indisposed; and foreseeing that she should not have a day’s health all the autumn, entreated, or rather required her, for it was hardly entreaty, to come to Uppercross Cottage, and bear her company as long as she should want her, instead of going to Bath.
Something happened, however, that gave her a different responsibility. Mary, who was often a bit unwell and always focused on her own complaints, and who habitually called on Anne whenever she had any issues, was feeling unwell; and anticipating that she wouldn’t be healthy at all that autumn, she begged, or more accurately demanded, Anne to come to Uppercross Cottage and keep her company for as long as she needed, instead of going to Bath.
“I cannot possibly do without Anne,” was Mary’s reasoning; and Elizabeth’s reply was, “Then I am sure Anne had better stay, for nobody will want her in Bath.”
“I can’t possibly live without Anne,” Mary said; and Elizabeth replied, “Then I’m sure Anne should stay, because no one will want her in Bath.”
To be claimed as a good, though in an improper style, is at least better than being rejected as no good at all; and Anne, glad to be thought of some use, glad to have anything marked out as a duty, and certainly not sorry to have the scene of it in the country, and her own dear country, readily agreed to stay.
To be considered useful, even in a questionable way, is still better than being dismissed as worthless; and Anne, happy to be seen as having some value, pleased to have any responsibility assigned to her, and definitely not unhappy to have it set in the countryside, her beloved home, readily agreed to stay.
This invitation of Mary’s removed all Lady Russell’s difficulties, and it was consequently soon settled that Anne should not go to Bath till Lady Russell took her, and that all the intervening time should be divided between Uppercross Cottage and Kellynch Lodge.
This invitation from Mary solved all of Lady Russell's problems, and it was quickly decided that Anne wouldn't go to Bath until Lady Russell took her, and that all the time in between would be split between Uppercross Cottage and Kellynch Lodge.
So far all was perfectly right; but Lady Russell was almost startled by the wrong of one part of the Kellynch Hall plan, when it burst on her, which was, Mrs Clay’s being engaged to go to Bath with Sir Walter and Elizabeth, as a most important and valuable assistant to the latter in all the business before her. Lady Russell was extremely sorry that such a measure should have been resorted to at all, wondered, grieved, and feared; and the affront it contained to Anne, in Mrs Clay’s being of so much use, while Anne could be of none, was a very sore aggravation.
So far, everything was perfectly fine; but Lady Russell was almost shocked by the flaw in the Kellynch Hall plan when she realized that Mrs. Clay would be going to Bath with Sir Walter and Elizabeth, serving as a crucial and valuable helper to the latter in all the tasks ahead. Lady Russell was very upset that they had resorted to such a move, and she felt confused, saddened, and worried. The insult it posed to Anne, with Mrs. Clay being so helpful while Anne was left out, was a significant source of pain.
Anne herself was become hardened to such affronts; but she felt the imprudence of the arrangement quite as keenly as Lady Russell. With a great deal of quiet observation, and a knowledge, which she often wished less, of her father’s character, she was sensible that results the most serious to his family from the intimacy were more than possible. She did not imagine that her father had at present an idea of the kind. Mrs Clay had freckles, and a projecting tooth, and a clumsy wrist, which he was continually making severe remarks upon, in her absence; but she was young, and certainly altogether well-looking, and possessed, in an acute mind and assiduous pleasing manners, infinitely more dangerous attractions than any merely personal might have been. Anne was so impressed by the degree of their danger, that she could not excuse herself from trying to make it perceptible to her sister. She had little hope of success; but Elizabeth, who in the event of such a reverse would be so much more to be pitied than herself, should never, she thought, have reason to reproach her for giving no warning.
Anne had become used to such insults, but she felt the foolishness of the situation just as strongly as Lady Russell did. With a lot of quiet observation, and a knowledge about her father’s character that she often wished she didn’t have, she was aware that serious consequences for his family from this closeness were more than possible. She didn't think her father had any idea about this right now. Mrs. Clay had freckles, a crooked tooth, and an awkward wrist, which he frequently made harsh comments about when she wasn’t around; but she was young, definitely attractive, and had a sharp mind and diligent charm that were far more dangerous than any physical appearance could be. Anne was so aware of the potential danger that she felt she had to try to make her sister see it too. She didn’t have much hope of succeeding; but Elizabeth, who would be much more pitiful in such a situation than she would be, should never have reason, she thought, to blame her for not giving a warning.
She spoke, and seemed only to offend. Elizabeth could not conceive how such an absurd suspicion should occur to her, and indignantly answered for each party’s perfectly knowing their situation.
She spoke and only seemed to upset everyone. Elizabeth couldn't understand how such a ridiculous suspicion could come to her, and she angrily replied that each party was fully aware of their situation.
“Mrs Clay,” said she, warmly, “never forgets who she is; and as I am rather better acquainted with her sentiments than you can be, I can assure you, that upon the subject of marriage they are particularly nice, and that she reprobates all inequality of condition and rank more strongly than most people. And as to my father, I really should not have thought that he, who has kept himself single so long for our sakes, need be suspected now. If Mrs Clay were a very beautiful woman, I grant you, it might be wrong to have her so much with me; not that anything in the world, I am sure, would induce my father to make a degrading match, but he might be rendered unhappy. But poor Mrs Clay who, with all her merits, can never have been reckoned tolerably pretty, I really think poor Mrs Clay may be staying here in perfect safety. One would imagine you had never heard my father speak of her personal misfortunes, though I know you must fifty times. That tooth of hers and those freckles. Freckles do not disgust me so very much as they do him. I have known a face not materially disfigured by a few, but he abominates them. You must have heard him notice Mrs Clay’s freckles.”
“Mrs. Clay,” she said warmly, “never forgets who she is; and since I know her feelings better than you do, I can assure you that when it comes to marriage, she's quite particular. She disapproves of any inequality in status and rank more strongly than most people. And about my father, I really wouldn’t have thought that he, who has stayed single for so long for our sake, should be suspected now. If Mrs. Clay were an extremely beautiful woman, I can see why it might be questionable for her to be around me so much; not that anything would make my father settle for a degrading match, but it could make him unhappy. However, poor Mrs. Clay, who, despite her good qualities, has never been considered even fairly pretty, I genuinely believe she can stay here without any issues. You’d think you’ve never heard my father talk about her looks, even though I know you must have heard it a million times. That tooth of hers and those freckles. Freckles don’t bother me as much as they bother him. I’ve seen faces that aren’t badly disfigured by a few, but he can't stand them. You must have heard him comment on Mrs. Clay’s freckles.”
“There is hardly any personal defect,” replied Anne, “which an agreeable manner might not gradually reconcile one to.”
“There’s hardly any personal flaw,” replied Anne, “that a pleasant attitude couldn’t slowly help you accept.”
“I think very differently,” answered Elizabeth, shortly; “an agreeable manner may set off handsome features, but can never alter plain ones. However, at any rate, as I have a great deal more at stake on this point than anybody else can have, I think it rather unnecessary in you to be advising me.”
“I think very differently,” Elizabeth replied curtly. “A pleasant demeanor might enhance attractive features, but it can never change plain ones. However, since I have much more at stake in this matter than anyone else does, I find it quite unnecessary for you to be advising me.”
Anne had done; glad that it was over, and not absolutely hopeless of doing good. Elizabeth, though resenting the suspicion, might yet be made observant by it.
Anne was relieved it was over, and not completely without hope of doing some good. Elizabeth, although irritated by the suspicion, could still become more aware because of it.
The last office of the four carriage-horses was to draw Sir Walter, Miss Elliot, and Mrs Clay to Bath. The party drove off in very good spirits; Sir Walter prepared with condescending bows for all the afflicted tenantry and cottagers who might have had a hint to show themselves, and Anne walked up at the same time, in a sort of desolate tranquillity, to the Lodge, where she was to spend the first week.
The final job of the four carriage-horses was to take Sir Walter, Miss Elliot, and Mrs. Clay to Bath. The group set off in high spirits; Sir Walter was ready with his patronizing bows for any sad tenants and villagers who might have shown up, while Anne walked over to the Lodge, where she would spend the first week, feeling a mix of emptiness and calm.
Her friend was not in better spirits than herself. Lady Russell felt this break-up of the family exceedingly. Their respectability was as dear to her as her own, and a daily intercourse had become precious by habit. It was painful to look upon their deserted grounds, and still worse to anticipate the new hands they were to fall into; and to escape the solitariness and the melancholy of so altered a village, and be out of the way when Admiral and Mrs Croft first arrived, she had determined to make her own absence from home begin when she must give up Anne. Accordingly their removal was made together, and Anne was set down at Uppercross Cottage, in the first stage of Lady Russell’s journey.
Her friend wasn't feeling any better than she was. Lady Russell felt the loss of the family deeply. Their reputation mattered to her just as much as her own, and seeing them every day had become something she cherished. It was painful to look at their empty grounds, and even worse to think about who would take them over; to avoid the loneliness and sadness of such a changed village and to be away when Admiral and Mrs. Croft first arrived, she decided to leave home right after she had to say goodbye to Anne. So, they moved at the same time, and Anne was dropped off at Uppercross Cottage during the first part of Lady Russell’s journey.
Uppercross was a moderate-sized village, which a few years back had been completely in the old English style, containing only two houses superior in appearance to those of the yeomen and labourers; the mansion of the squire, with its high walls, great gates, and old trees, substantial and unmodernized, and the compact, tight parsonage, enclosed in its own neat garden, with a vine and a pear-tree trained round its casements; but upon the marriage of the young ’squire, it had received the improvement of a farm-house elevated into a cottage, for his residence, and Uppercross Cottage, with its veranda, French windows, and other prettiness, was quite as likely to catch the traveller’s eye as the more consistent and considerable aspect and premises of the Great House, about a quarter of a mile farther on.
Uppercross was a moderately sized village that, a few years ago, had still been in the traditional English style, featuring only two houses that stood out compared to those of the farmers and laborers. There was the squire's mansion, with its high walls, big gates, and mature trees, sturdy and unrenovated, and the tidy parsonage, nestled in its own neat garden with a vine and a pear tree wrapping around its windows. However, after the young squire got married, the village saw the upgrade of a farmhouse turned into a cottage for his residence. Uppercross Cottage, with its porch, French doors, and other charming details, was just as likely to catch the eye of travelers as the more traditional and substantial look of the Great House, located about a quarter of a mile further down.
Here Anne had often been staying. She knew the ways of Uppercross as well as those of Kellynch. The two families were so continually meeting, so much in the habit of running in and out of each other’s house at all hours, that it was rather a surprise to her to find Mary alone; but being alone, her being unwell and out of spirits was almost a matter of course. Though better endowed than the elder sister, Mary had not Anne’s understanding nor temper. While well, and happy, and properly attended to, she had great good humour and excellent spirits; but any indisposition sunk her completely. She had no resources for solitude; and inheriting a considerable share of the Elliot self-importance, was very prone to add to every other distress that of fancying herself neglected and ill-used. In person, she was inferior to both sisters, and had, even in her bloom, only reached the dignity of being “a fine girl.” She was now lying on the faded sofa of the pretty little drawing-room, the once elegant furniture of which had been gradually growing shabby, under the influence of four summers and two children; and, on Anne’s appearing, greeted her with—
Here Anne had often stayed. She knew Uppercross as well as she knew Kellynch. The two families met so frequently and were so used to popping in and out of each other's homes at all hours that it was a bit of a surprise for her to find Mary alone; but considering she was alone, feeling unwell and down was almost to be expected. Although better off than her older sister, Mary didn’t have Anne’s insight or temperament. When she was well, happy, and properly taken care of, she had a great sense of humor and excellent spirits; but any illness would completely bring her down. She had no resources for solitude, and having inherited a good dose of the Elliot self-importance, she was very likely to add to her distress by imagining herself neglected and mistreated. In appearance, she was not as attractive as either sister and had, even in her prime, only achieved the status of being "a fine girl." She was now lying on the faded sofa of the pretty little drawing room, the once elegant furniture of which had gradually become shabby after four summers and two children; and upon Anne's arrival, she greeted her with—
“So, you are come at last! I began to think I should never see you. I am so ill I can hardly speak. I have not seen a creature the whole morning!”
“So, you finally made it! I was starting to think I’d never see you. I’m so sick I can barely talk. I haven’t seen anyone all morning!”
“I am sorry to find you unwell,” replied Anne. “You sent me such a good account of yourself on Thursday!”
“I’m sorry to hear you’re not feeling well,” replied Anne. “You gave me such a great update on Thursday!”
“Yes, I made the best of it; I always do: but I was very far from well at the time; and I do not think I ever was so ill in my life as I have been all this morning: very unfit to be left alone, I am sure. Suppose I were to be seized of a sudden in some dreadful way, and not able to ring the bell! So, Lady Russell would not get out. I do not think she has been in this house three times this summer.”
“Yeah, I made the best of it; I always do. But I was really not well at the time, and I don’t think I’ve ever been as sick as I have been all this morning: definitely not fit to be left alone, that’s for sure. What if I suddenly got really bad and couldn’t ring the bell? Then Lady Russell wouldn’t know. I don’t think she’s come to this house more than three times this summer.”
Anne said what was proper, and enquired after her husband. “Oh! Charles is out shooting. I have not seen him since seven o’clock. He would go, though I told him how ill I was. He said he should not stay out long; but he has never come back, and now it is almost one. I assure you, I have not seen a soul this whole long morning.”
Anne said what was appropriate and asked about her husband. “Oh! Charles is out hunting. I haven't seen him since seven o'clock. He insisted on going, even though I told him how unwell I was. He said he wouldn't be out for long; but he hasn’t come back, and now it’s almost one. I assure you, I haven’t seen anyone all morning.”
“You have had your little boys with you?”
“You’ve had your little boys with you?”
“Yes, as long as I could bear their noise; but they are so unmanageable that they do me more harm than good. Little Charles does not mind a word I say, and Walter is growing quite as bad.”
“Yes, as long as I can handle their noise; but they are so unruly that they do me more harm than good. Little Charles doesn’t listen to anything I say, and Walter is becoming just as bad.”
“Well, you will soon be better now,” replied Anne, cheerfully. “You know I always cure you when I come. How are your neighbours at the Great House?”
“Well, you’ll be feeling better soon,” replied Anne, cheerfully. “You know I always help you get better when I visit. How are your neighbors at the Great House?”
“I can give you no account of them. I have not seen one of them to-day, except Mr Musgrove, who just stopped and spoke through the window, but without getting off his horse; and though I told him how ill I was, not one of them have been near me. It did not happen to suit the Miss Musgroves, I suppose, and they never put themselves out of their way.”
“I can’t tell you anything about them. I haven’t seen any of them today, except for Mr. Musgrove, who just stopped and talked to me through the window, but he didn’t get off his horse. Even though I told him how sick I was, not one of them has come to see me. I guess it just didn’t work for the Miss Musgroves, and they never go out of their way.”
“You will see them yet, perhaps, before the morning is gone. It is early.”
"You might see them yet before the morning is over. It’s still early."
“I never want them, I assure you. They talk and laugh a great deal too much for me. Oh! Anne, I am so very unwell! It was quite unkind of you not to come on Thursday.”
“I really don’t want them, I promise. They talk and laugh way too much for my liking. Oh! Anne, I feel so unwell! It was pretty inconsiderate of you not to come on Thursday.”
“My dear Mary, recollect what a comfortable account you sent me of yourself! You wrote in the cheerfullest manner, and said you were perfectly well, and in no hurry for me; and that being the case, you must be aware that my wish would be to remain with Lady Russell to the last: and besides what I felt on her account, I have really been so busy, have had so much to do, that I could not very conveniently have left Kellynch sooner.”
“My dear Mary, remember how you sent me such a nice update about yourself! You wrote in the happiest way and said you were perfectly fine and not eager for me to come. Since that’s the case, you know I’d want to stay with Lady Russell until the end. Plus, on top of how I feel about her, I’ve honestly been so busy and had so much to do that it would have been quite difficult for me to leave Kellynch any sooner.”
“Dear me! what can you possibly have to do?”
“Dear me! What could you possibly have to do?”
“A great many things, I assure you. More than I can recollect in a moment; but I can tell you some. I have been making a duplicate of the catalogue of my father’s books and pictures. I have been several times in the garden with Mackenzie, trying to understand, and make him understand, which of Elizabeth’s plants are for Lady Russell. I have had all my own little concerns to arrange, books and music to divide, and all my trunks to repack, from not having understood in time what was intended as to the waggons: and one thing I have had to do, Mary, of a more trying nature: going to almost every house in the parish, as a sort of take-leave. I was told that they wished it. But all these things took up a great deal of time.”
“A lot, I assure you. More than I can remember right now; but I can share some. I've been creating a copy of my father’s catalog of books and pictures. I've gone into the garden several times with Mackenzie, trying to understand and make him understand which of Elizabeth’s plants are for Lady Russell. I've also had my own little matters to sort out, dividing books and music, and repacking all my trunks, since I didn't realize in time what was planned for the wagons. And there's one more difficult thing I've had to do, Mary: visiting almost every house in the parish to say goodbye. I was told that they wanted me to do it. But all these tasks took a lot of time.”
“Oh! well!” and after a moment’s pause, “but you have never asked me one word about our dinner at the Pooles yesterday.”
“Oh! well!” and after a moment’s pause, “but you never asked me a single thing about our dinner at the Pooles yesterday.”
“Did you go then? I have made no enquiries, because I concluded you must have been obliged to give up the party.”
“Did you go then? I haven’t asked because I figured you must have had to skip the party.”
“Oh yes! I went. I was very well yesterday; nothing at all the matter with me till this morning. It would have been strange if I had not gone.”
“Oh yes! I went. I felt great yesterday; there was nothing wrong with me until this morning. It would have been odd if I hadn't gone.”
“I am very glad you were well enough, and I hope you had a pleasant party.”
“I’m really glad you were feeling better, and I hope you had a great time at the party.”
“Nothing remarkable. One always knows beforehand what the dinner will be, and who will be there; and it is so very uncomfortable not having a carriage of one’s own. Mr and Mrs Musgrove took me, and we were so crowded! They are both so very large, and take up so much room; and Mr Musgrove always sits forward. So, there was I, crowded into the back seat with Henrietta and Louisa; and I think it very likely that my illness to-day may be owing to it.”
“Nothing special. You always know in advance what dinner will be like and who will be there; and it’s really uncomfortable not having your own carriage. Mr. and Mrs. Musgrove gave me a ride, and we were so cramped! They’re both quite big and take up a lot of space; and Mr. Musgrove always sits up front. So, there I was, squeezed into the back seat with Henrietta and Louisa; and I think it’s very possible that my feeling unwell today is due to that.”
A little further perseverance in patience and forced cheerfulness on Anne’s side produced nearly a cure on Mary’s. She could soon sit upright on the sofa, and began to hope she might be able to leave it by dinner-time. Then, forgetting to think of it, she was at the other end of the room, beautifying a nosegay; then, she ate her cold meat; and then she was well enough to propose a little walk.
A bit more patience and forced cheerfulness from Anne almost completely cured Mary. She could soon sit up straight on the sofa and started to hope she could leave it by dinner time. Then, forgetting about her condition, she was at the other end of the room, arranging a bouquet. After that, she ate her cold meat, and soon she felt well enough to suggest a short walk.
“Where shall we go?” said she, when they were ready. “I suppose you will not like to call at the Great House before they have been to see you?”
“Where should we go?” she asked when they were ready. “I guess you wouldn’t want to visit the Great House before they’ve come to see you?”
“I have not the smallest objection on that account,” replied Anne. “I should never think of standing on such ceremony with people I know so well as Mrs and the Miss Musgroves.”
“I have no problem with that,” replied Anne. “I would never think of being so formal with people I know as well as Mrs. and the Miss Musgroves.”
“Oh! but they ought to call upon you as soon as possible. They ought to feel what is due to you as my sister. However, we may as well go and sit with them a little while, and when we have that over, we can enjoy our walk.”
“Oh! but they should visit you as soon as they can. They should recognize what you deserve as my sister. Anyway, we might as well go and spend some time with them for a bit, and once that's done, we can enjoy our walk.”
Anne had always thought such a style of intercourse highly imprudent; but she had ceased to endeavour to check it, from believing that, though there were on each side continual subjects of offence, neither family could now do without it. To the Great House accordingly they went, to sit the full half hour in the old-fashioned square parlour, with a small carpet and shining floor, to which the present daughters of the house were gradually giving the proper air of confusion by a grand piano-forte and a harp, flower-stands and little tables placed in every direction. Oh! could the originals of the portraits against the wainscot, could the gentlemen in brown velvet and the ladies in blue satin have seen what was going on, have been conscious of such an overthrow of all order and neatness! The portraits themselves seemed to be staring in astonishment.
Anne had always thought this kind of interaction was really unwise; but she had stopped trying to stop it because she believed that, even though there were constant sources of conflict, neither family could now do without it. So they went to the Great House to spend the full half hour in the old-fashioned square parlor, which had a small carpet and shiny floor. The current daughters of the house were slowly creating a sense of chaos with a grand piano and a harp, flower stands, and little tables placed everywhere. Oh! If only the originals of the portraits on the wainscoting—those gentlemen in brown velvet and ladies in blue satin—could see what was happening and realize such a disruption of all order and neatness! The portraits themselves seemed to be staring in disbelief.
The Musgroves, like their houses, were in a state of alteration, perhaps of improvement. The father and mother were in the old English style, and the young people in the new. Mr and Mrs Musgrove were a very good sort of people; friendly and hospitable, not much educated, and not at all elegant. Their children had more modern minds and manners. There was a numerous family; but the only two grown up, excepting Charles, were Henrietta and Louisa, young ladies of nineteen and twenty, who had brought from school at Exeter all the usual stock of accomplishments, and were now like thousands of other young ladies, living to be fashionable, happy, and merry. Their dress had every advantage, their faces were rather pretty, their spirits extremely good, their manner unembarrassed and pleasant; they were of consequence at home, and favourites abroad. Anne always contemplated them as some of the happiest creatures of her acquaintance; but still, saved as we all are, by some comfortable feeling of superiority from wishing for the possibility of exchange, she would not have given up her own more elegant and cultivated mind for all their enjoyments; and envied them nothing but that seemingly perfect good understanding and agreement together, that good-humoured mutual affection, of which she had known so little herself with either of her sisters.
The Musgroves, like their homes, were undergoing some changes, maybe for the better. The parents still held onto the old English style, while the younger generation embraced the new. Mr. and Mrs. Musgrove were genuinely nice people; friendly and welcoming, not very educated, and definitely not elegant. Their children had more modern thoughts and behaviors. There was a large family, but aside from Charles, the only two adults were Henrietta and Louisa, young ladies aged nineteen and twenty, who returned from school in Exeter with all the usual skills and were now just like countless other young women, focused on being stylish, happy, and cheerful. Their outfits were flattering, their faces were quite pretty, their spirits were very high, and their demeanor was relaxed and pleasant; they were significant at home and favorites in social settings. Anne always saw them as some of the happiest people she knew, but, like we all do, she felt a comfortable sense of superiority that kept her from wishing to swap places with them. She wouldn't trade her own more refined and educated mind for all their pleasures, and the only thing she envied was their seemingly perfect understanding and harmony, that cheerful mutual affection, of which she had experienced so little with either of her sisters.
They were received with great cordiality. Nothing seemed amiss on the side of the Great House family, which was generally, as Anne very well knew, the least to blame. The half hour was chatted away pleasantly enough; and she was not at all surprised, at the end of it, to have their walking party joined by both the Miss Musgroves, at Mary’s particular invitation.
They were welcomed warmly. Everything seemed fine with the Great House family, who, as Anne knew very well, were usually the least at fault. They chatted pleasantly for half an hour, and by the end of it, she wasn’t at all surprised when both Miss Musgroves joined their walking group at Mary’s specific invitation.
CHAPTER VI.
Anne had not wanted this visit to Uppercross, to learn that a removal from one set of people to another, though at a distance of only three miles, will often include a total change of conversation, opinion, and idea. She had never been staying there before, without being struck by it, or without wishing that other Elliots could have her advantage in seeing how unknown, or unconsidered there, were the affairs which at Kellynch Hall were treated as of such general publicity and pervading interest; yet, with all this experience, she believed she must now submit to feel that another lesson, in the art of knowing our own nothingness beyond our own circle, was become necessary for her; for certainly, coming as she did, with a heart full of the subject which had been completely occupying both houses in Kellynch for many weeks, she had expected rather more curiosity and sympathy than she found in the separate but very similar remark of Mr and Mrs Musgrove: “So, Miss Anne, Sir Walter and your sister are gone; and what part of Bath do you think they will settle in?” and this, without much waiting for an answer; or in the young ladies’ addition of, “I hope we shall be in Bath in the winter; but remember, papa, if we do go, we must be in a good situation: none of your Queen Squares for us!” or in the anxious supplement from Mary, of—“Upon my word, I shall be pretty well off, when you are all gone away to be happy at Bath!”
Anne didn't want this visit to Uppercross, realizing that moving from one group of people to another, even if it’s only three miles away, often brings a completely different set of conversations, opinions, and ideas. She had never stayed there before without noticing this, wishing that other Elliots could benefit from seeing how unknown or unconsidered the matters that were so publicly discussed at Kellynch Hall were. Yet, despite this experience, she felt she had to accept that another lesson about recognizing our own insignificance outside our own circle was necessary for her. Coming with her heart full of the issues that had been dominating both houses in Kellynch for weeks, she had expected a bit more curiosity and sympathy than she received. Mr. and Mrs. Musgrove’s separate but very similar comments were, “So, Miss Anne, Sir Walter and your sister are gone; what part of Bath do you think they will settle in?” with hardly any pause for a response; or the young ladies adding, “I hope we’ll be in Bath in the winter; but remember, Dad, if we do go, we have to be in a good location: none of those Queen Squares for us!” or Mary’s anxious addition, “Honestly, I’ll be pretty well off when you’re all gone to be happy in Bath!”
She could only resolve to avoid such self-delusion in future, and think with heightened gratitude of the extraordinary blessing of having one such truly sympathising friend as Lady Russell.
She decided to avoid any self-deception in the future and felt even more grateful for the incredible blessing of having a truly understanding friend like Lady Russell.
The Mr Musgroves had their own game to guard, and to destroy, their own horses, dogs, and newspapers to engage them, and the females were fully occupied in all the other common subjects of housekeeping, neighbours, dress, dancing, and music. She acknowledged it to be very fitting, that every little social commonwealth should dictate its own matters of discourse; and hoped, ere long, to become a not unworthy member of the one she was now transplanted into. With the prospect of spending at least two months at Uppercross, it was highly incumbent on her to clothe her imagination, her memory, and all her ideas in as much of Uppercross as possible.
The Mr. Musgroves had their own activities to protect and manage, along with their horses, dogs, and newspapers to keep them busy, and the women were completely engrossed in all the usual concerns of running a household, neighbors, fashion, dancing, and music. She recognized that it was perfectly appropriate for every small community to set its own topics of conversation; and she hoped, before long, to become a valued member of the one she had just joined. With the prospect of spending at least two months in Uppercross, it was essential for her to fill her imagination, memory, and all her thoughts with as much of Uppercross as she could.
She had no dread of these two months. Mary was not so repulsive and unsisterly as Elizabeth, nor so inaccessible to all influence of hers; neither was there anything among the other component parts of the cottage inimical to comfort. She was always on friendly terms with her brother-in-law; and in the children, who loved her nearly as well, and respected her a great deal more than their mother, she had an object of interest, amusement, and wholesome exertion.
She wasn't at all afraid of these two months. Mary was not as off-putting and unkind as Elizabeth, nor as closed off to her influence; there was nothing in the rest of the cottage that made it uncomfortable. She maintained a good relationship with her brother-in-law, and in the children—who loved her almost as much and respected her much more than their mother—she found a source of interest, fun, and healthy activity.
Charles Musgrove was civil and agreeable; in sense and temper he was undoubtedly superior to his wife, but not of powers, or conversation, or grace, to make the past, as they were connected together, at all a dangerous contemplation; though, at the same time, Anne could believe, with Lady Russell, that a more equal match might have greatly improved him; and that a woman of real understanding might have given more consequence to his character, and more usefulness, rationality, and elegance to his habits and pursuits. As it was, he did nothing with much zeal, but sport; and his time was otherwise trifled away, without benefit from books or anything else. He had very good spirits, which never seemed much affected by his wife’s occasional lowness, bore with her unreasonableness sometimes to Anne’s admiration, and upon the whole, though there was very often a little disagreement (in which she had sometimes more share than she wished, being appealed to by both parties), they might pass for a happy couple. They were always perfectly agreed in the want of more money, and a strong inclination for a handsome present from his father; but here, as on most topics, he had the superiority, for while Mary thought it a great shame that such a present was not made, he always contended for his father’s having many other uses for his money, and a right to spend it as he liked.
Charles Musgrove was polite and agreeable; in terms of common sense and temperament, he was definitely better than his wife, but he lacked the talents, conversation skills, or charm to make their past anything to seriously rethink. Still, Anne could agree with Lady Russell that a more balanced match might have significantly improved him; that a woman of real intelligence could have added more depth to his character and more usefulness, thoughtfulness, and sophistication to his habits and interests. As it was, he didn’t pursue anything passionately, except for sports, and he mostly wasted his time without gaining anything from books or other pursuits. He was generally in good spirits, which didn't seem to be much affected by his wife’s occasional sadness, and he tolerated her unreasonable behavior at times, much to Anne’s admiration. Overall, despite often having minor disagreements (in which Anne sometimes had more involvement than she wanted, being appealed to by both sides), they could be considered a happy couple. They were always on the same page about needing more money and a strong desire for a nice gift from his father; but here, as on most topics, he had the upper hand, since while Mary thought it was a shame that such a gift wasn't given, he always argued that his father had many other uses for his money and the right to spend it as he chose.
As to the management of their children, his theory was much better than his wife’s, and his practice not so bad. “I could manage them very well, if it were not for Mary’s interference,” was what Anne often heard him say, and had a good deal of faith in; but when listening in turn to Mary’s reproach of “Charles spoils the children so that I cannot get them into any order,” she never had the smallest temptation to say, “Very true.”
When it came to raising their kids, his approach was way better than his wife’s, and he wasn't too bad at it either. “I could handle them just fine if it weren't for Mary sticking her nose in,” Anne often heard him say, and she believed it to some extent. However, when she heard Mary complain, “Charles spoils the kids so much that I can’t get them organized,” she never felt the slightest urge to agree.
One of the least agreeable circumstances of her residence there was her being treated with too much confidence by all parties, and being too much in the secret of the complaints of each house. Known to have some influence with her sister, she was continually requested, or at least receiving hints to exert it, beyond what was practicable. “I wish you could persuade Mary not to be always fancying herself ill,” was Charles’s language; and, in an unhappy mood, thus spoke Mary: “I do believe if Charles were to see me dying, he would not think there was anything the matter with me. I am sure, Anne, if you would, you might persuade him that I really am very ill—a great deal worse than I ever own.”
One of the least pleasant aspects of living there was being treated with too much trust by everyone, and being too much in the loop about each household's complaints. Since she was known to have some influence with her sister, she was constantly asked, or at least hinted at, to use it in ways that were unrealistic. “I wish you could convince Mary to stop always thinking she’s sick,” Charles said; and, feeling unhappy, Mary replied, “I honestly believe that if Charles saw me dying, he wouldn’t think anything was wrong. I’m sure, Anne, if you wanted to, you could convince him that I really am very sick—much worse than I ever admit.”
Mary’s declaration was, “I hate sending the children to the Great House, though their grandmamma is always wanting to see them, for she humours and indulges them to such a degree, and gives them so much trash and sweet things, that they are sure to come back sick and cross for the rest of the day.” And Mrs Musgrove took the first opportunity of being alone with Anne, to say, “Oh! Miss Anne, I cannot help wishing Mrs Charles had a little of your method with those children. They are quite different creatures with you! But to be sure, in general they are so spoilt! It is a pity you cannot put your sister in the way of managing them. They are as fine healthy children as ever were seen, poor little dears! without partiality; but Mrs Charles knows no more how they should be treated—! Bless me! how troublesome they are sometimes. I assure you, Miss Anne, it prevents my wishing to see them at our house so often as I otherwise should. I believe Mrs Charles is not quite pleased with my not inviting them oftener; but you know it is very bad to have children with one that one is obligated to be checking every moment; “don’t do this,” and “don’t do that;” or that one can only keep in tolerable order by more cake than is good for them.”
Mary said, “I really dislike sending the kids to the Great House, even though their grandma always wants to see them. She spoils and indulges them so much, giving them a ton of junk and sweets, that they always come back sick and grumpy for the rest of the day.” And Mrs. Musgrove took the first chance to be alone with Anne to say, “Oh! Miss Anne, I really wish Mrs. Charles could adopt a bit of your approach with those kids. They're completely different with you! But honestly, they are so spoiled overall! It's a shame you can't guide your sister on how to handle them. They are the healthiest, cutest kids you could ever see, poor little things! No favoritism here; but Mrs. Charles has no idea how they should be treated—! Goodness! They can be so troublesome at times. I assure you, Miss Anne, it makes me less eager to have them at our house as often as I otherwise would. I think Mrs. Charles is a bit upset that I don’t invite them more often; but you know it’s really tough to have kids around that you constantly have to correct— “don’t do this” and “don’t do that;” or that you can only manage with more sweets than is good for them.”
She had this communication, moreover, from Mary. “Mrs Musgrove thinks all her servants so steady, that it would be high treason to call it in question; but I am sure, without exaggeration, that her upper house-maid and laundry-maid, instead of being in their business, are gadding about the village, all day long. I meet them wherever I go; and I declare, I never go twice into my nursery without seeing something of them. If Jemima were not the trustiest, steadiest creature in the world, it would be enough to spoil her; for she tells me, they are always tempting her to take a walk with them.” And on Mrs Musgrove’s side, it was, “I make a rule of never interfering in any of my daughter-in-law’s concerns, for I know it would not do; but I shall tell you, Miss Anne, because you may be able to set things to rights, that I have no very good opinion of Mrs Charles’s nursery-maid: I hear strange stories of her; she is always upon the gad; and from my own knowledge, I can declare, she is such a fine-dressing lady, that she is enough to ruin any servants she comes near. Mrs Charles quite swears by her, I know; but I just give you this hint, that you may be upon the watch; because, if you see anything amiss, you need not be afraid of mentioning it.”
She also received this message from Mary: “Mrs. Musgrove thinks all her servants are so reliable that questioning them would be outrageous; but I’m sure, without exaggeration, that her head housemaid and laundry maid, instead of doing their jobs, are wandering around the village all day. I see them wherever I go, and I swear I never enter my nursery twice without noticing them. If Jemima weren’t the most trustworthy, dependable person in the world, it would be enough to ruin her; she tells me they’re always trying to convince her to join them for a walk.” And from Mrs. Musgrove’s side, it was, “I make it a rule not to interfere in my daughter-in-law’s matters, because I know it wouldn’t end well; but I’ll tell you, Miss Anne, since you might be able to fix things, that I don’t have a very good opinion of Mrs. Charles’s nursery maid: I hear strange tales about her; she’s always out and about; and from what I’ve seen, I can say she’s such a well-dressed lady that she could ruin any servants around her. Mrs. Charles absolutely swears by her, I know; but I just want to give you this heads-up, so you can keep an eye out; because if you notice anything off, don’t hesitate to bring it up.”
Again, it was Mary’s complaint, that Mrs Musgrove was very apt not to give her the precedence that was her due, when they dined at the Great House with other families; and she did not see any reason why she was to be considered so much at home as to lose her place. And one day when Anne was walking with only the Musgroves, one of them after talking of rank, people of rank, and jealousy of rank, said, “I have no scruple of observing to you, how nonsensical some persons are about their place, because all the world knows how easy and indifferent you are about it; but I wish anybody could give Mary a hint that it would be a great deal better if she were not so very tenacious, especially if she would not be always putting herself forward to take place of mamma. Nobody doubts her right to have precedence of mamma, but it would be more becoming in her not to be always insisting on it. It is not that mamma cares about it the least in the world, but I know it is taken notice of by many persons.”
Once again, Mary complained that Mrs. Musgrove often didn’t give her the respect she deserved when they had dinner at the Great House with other families, and she couldn’t understand why she was treated so much like a regular guest that she lost her rank. One day, while Anne was walking only with the Musgroves, one of them, after discussing status, social rank, and jealousy over it, said, “I have no problem telling you how silly some people are about their status, because everyone knows how laid-back you are about it; but I really wish someone could give Mary a hint that it would be much better if she weren’t so obsessed with it, especially since she always tries to take the place of Mom. No one doubts that she has the right to precedence over Mom, but it would be more graceful if she didn’t constantly insist on it. It’s not that Mom cares about it at all, but I know many people notice it.”
How was Anne to set all these matters to rights? She could do little more than listen patiently, soften every grievance, and excuse each to the other; give them all hints of the forbearance necessary between such near neighbours, and make those hints broadest which were meant for her sister’s benefit.
How was Anne supposed to fix all these issues? She could do little more than listen patiently, ease every complaint, and justify each person to the other; give them all suggestions about the patience needed between such close neighbors, and make those suggestions most obvious that were intended to help her sister.
In all other respects, her visit began and proceeded very well. Her own spirits improved by change of place and subject, by being removed three miles from Kellynch; Mary’s ailments lessened by having a constant companion, and their daily intercourse with the other family, since there was neither superior affection, confidence, nor employment in the cottage, to be interrupted by it, was rather an advantage. It was certainly carried nearly as far as possible, for they met every morning, and hardly ever spent an evening asunder; but she believed they should not have done so well without the sight of Mr and Mrs Musgrove’s respectable forms in the usual places, or without the talking, laughing, and singing of their daughters.
In every other way, her visit started and went really well. Her mood brightened with a change of scenery and conversation, especially since she was three miles away from Kellynch. Mary felt better having a companion all the time, and their daily interactions with the other family—since there wasn’t much strong affection, trust, or work in the cottage to disrupt it—were beneficial. They definitely spent as much time together as possible, meeting every morning and rarely spending an evening apart. However, she thought they wouldn’t have done as well without seeing Mr. and Mrs. Musgrove’s familiar faces in their usual spots, or without the talking, laughing, and singing of their daughters.
She played a great deal better than either of the Miss Musgroves, but having no voice, no knowledge of the harp, and no fond parents, to sit by and fancy themselves delighted, her performance was little thought of, only out of civility, or to refresh the others, as she was well aware. She knew that when she played she was giving pleasure only to herself; but this was no new sensation. Excepting one short period of her life, she had never, since the age of fourteen, never since the loss of her dear mother, known the happiness of being listened to, or encouraged by any just appreciation or real taste. In music she had been always used to feel alone in the world; and Mr and Mrs Musgrove’s fond partiality for their own daughters’ performance, and total indifference to any other person’s, gave her much more pleasure for their sakes, than mortification for her own.
She played a lot better than either of the Miss Musgroves, but since she had no voice, no knowledge of the harp, and no loving parents to sit nearby and think they were thrilled, her performance didn’t get much attention, only out of politeness, or to entertain the others, as she fully realized. She knew that when she played, she was really just pleasing herself; but this wasn’t a new feeling. Except for a brief time in her life, she hadn't experienced the happiness of being listened to or appreciated by anyone with real taste since she was fourteen, right after losing her beloved mother. In music, she had always felt alone in the world; and Mr. and Mrs. Musgrove's fondness for their daughters’ performances and complete disregard for anyone else’s gave her more joy for their sake than discomfort for her own.
The party at the Great House was sometimes increased by other company. The neighbourhood was not large, but the Musgroves were visited by everybody, and had more dinner-parties, and more callers, more visitors by invitation and by chance, than any other family. They were more completely popular.
The party at the Great House was sometimes joined by other guests. The neighborhood wasn’t large, but everyone visited the Musgroves. They had more dinner parties, more drop-in visitors, and more invited guests than any other family. They were definitely the most popular.
The girls were wild for dancing; and the evenings ended, occasionally, in an unpremeditated little ball. There was a family of cousins within a walk of Uppercross, in less affluent circumstances, who depended on the Musgroves for all their pleasures: they would come at any time, and help play at anything, or dance anywhere; and Anne, very much preferring the office of musician to a more active post, played country dances to them by the hour together; a kindness which always recommended her musical powers to the notice of Mr and Mrs Musgrove more than anything else, and often drew this compliment;—“Well done, Miss Anne! very well done indeed! Lord bless me! how those little fingers of yours fly about!”
The girls were crazy about dancing, and the evenings sometimes wrapped up with an impromptu little ball. There was a family of cousins just a short walk from Uppercross, who weren’t as well off and relied on the Musgroves for their fun: they would come over at any time, willing to play games or dance anywhere. Anne, who preferred being the musician to taking a more active role, spent hours playing country dances for them; this gesture always made Mr. and Mrs. Musgrove appreciate her musical skills more than anything else and often brought about this compliment: “Well done, Miss Anne! Very well done indeed! Goodness! How those little fingers of yours fly about!”
So passed the first three weeks. Michaelmas came; and now Anne’s heart must be in Kellynch again. A beloved home made over to others; all the precious rooms and furniture, groves, and prospects, beginning to own other eyes and other limbs! She could not think of much else on the 29th of September; and she had this sympathetic touch in the evening from Mary, who, on having occasion to note down the day of the month, exclaimed, “Dear me, is not this the day the Crofts were to come to Kellynch? I am glad I did not think of it before. How low it makes me!”
So the first three weeks went by. Michaelmas arrived; and now Anne's heart had to be back at Kellynch again. A beloved home now belonging to someone else; all the cherished rooms and furniture, the trees, and the views, starting to be seen by other eyes and touched by other hands! She couldn't think about much else on September 29th; and that evening, Mary showed some understanding when she happened to note the date and exclaimed, “Oh no, isn't today the day the Crofts were supposed to arrive at Kellynch? I'm glad I didn't think about it earlier. It makes me feel so down!”
The Crofts took possession with true naval alertness, and were to be visited. Mary deplored the necessity for herself. “Nobody knew how much she should suffer. She should put it off as long as she could;” but was not easy till she had talked Charles into driving her over on an early day, and was in a very animated, comfortable state of imaginary agitation, when she came back. Anne had very sincerely rejoiced in there being no means of her going. She wished, however, to see the Crofts, and was glad to be within when the visit was returned. They came: the master of the house was not at home, but the two sisters were together; and as it chanced that Mrs Croft fell to the share of Anne, while the Admiral sat by Mary, and made himself very agreeable by his good-humoured notice of her little boys, she was well able to watch for a likeness, and if it failed her in the features, to catch it in the voice, or in the turn of sentiment and expression.
The Crofts moved in with a true naval readiness and were soon to be visited. Mary regretted that she had to go. “No one understood how much she would suffer. She should delay it as long as possible,” but she wasn’t at ease until she convinced Charles to take her over one morning, and she felt very excited and comfortable in her imagined nervousness when she returned. Anne genuinely felt happy that she couldn’t go. However, she wanted to meet the Crofts and was pleased to be home when they came to visit. They arrived: the master of the house was out, but the two sisters were together; and since it happened that Mrs. Croft was with Anne while the Admiral chatted with Mary, making himself very likable with his cheerful attention to her little boys, Anne was well able to look for similarities, and if the features didn’t match, to find it in the voice or in the way of thinking and expression.
Mrs Croft, though neither tall nor fat, had a squareness, uprightness, and vigour of form, which gave importance to her person. She had bright dark eyes, good teeth, and altogether an agreeable face; though her reddened and weather-beaten complexion, the consequence of her having been almost as much at sea as her husband, made her seem to have lived some years longer in the world than her real eight-and-thirty. Her manners were open, easy, and decided, like one who had no distrust of herself, and no doubts of what to do; without any approach to coarseness, however, or any want of good humour. Anne gave her credit, indeed, for feelings of great consideration towards herself, in all that related to Kellynch, and it pleased her: especially, as she had satisfied herself in the very first half minute, in the instant even of introduction, that there was not the smallest symptom of any knowledge or suspicion on Mrs Croft’s side, to give a bias of any sort. She was quite easy on that head, and consequently full of strength and courage, till for a moment electrified by Mrs Croft’s suddenly saying,—
Mrs. Croft, while not tall or overweight, had a sturdy, upright build and a vigorous presence that made her stand out. She had bright dark eyes, nice teeth, and an overall pleasant face; however, her sunburned and weathered complexion—thanks to being at sea as much as her husband—made her appear older than her actual thirty-eight years. Her manners were open, relaxed, and confident, like someone who had complete trust in herself and knew exactly what to do, yet without being coarse or lacking good humor. Anne respected her for showing great consideration towards her regarding all things related to Kellynch, and it made her happy; especially since, in that very first half minute, even at the moment of introduction, she had confirmed that there was no hint of knowledge or suspicion from Mrs. Croft to create any bias. This made her feel completely at ease, and therefore strong and brave, until she was momentarily jolted by Mrs. Croft’s sudden remark—
“It was you, and not your sister, I find, that my brother had the pleasure of being acquainted with, when he was in this country.”
“It was you, not your sister, that my brother had the pleasure of knowing when he was in this country.”
Anne hoped she had outlived the age of blushing; but the age of emotion she certainly had not.
Anne hoped she had outgrown the age of blushing; but she definitely had not outgrown the age of emotions.
“Perhaps you may not have heard that he is married?” added Mrs Croft.
“Maybe you haven’t heard that he’s married?” added Mrs. Croft.
She could now answer as she ought; and was happy to feel, when Mrs Croft’s next words explained it to be Mr Wentworth of whom she spoke, that she had said nothing which might not do for either brother. She immediately felt how reasonable it was, that Mrs Croft should be thinking and speaking of Edward, and not of Frederick; and with shame at her own forgetfulness applied herself to the knowledge of their former neighbour’s present state with proper interest.
She could now respond as she should; and she was glad to realize, when Mrs. Croft's next words clarified that she was talking about Mr. Wentworth, that she hadn't said anything that wouldn’t apply to either brother. She immediately understood how logical it was for Mrs. Croft to be thinking and talking about Edward, not Frederick; and feeling ashamed of her own oversight, she focused on learning about their former neighbor’s current situation with genuine interest.
The rest was all tranquillity; till, just as they were moving, she heard the Admiral say to Mary—
The rest was all calm; until, just as they were getting ready to leave, she heard the Admiral say to Mary—
“We are expecting a brother of Mrs Croft’s here soon; I dare say you know him by name.”
“We're expecting Mrs. Croft's brother here soon; I'm sure you know him by name.”
He was cut short by the eager attacks of the little boys, clinging to him like an old friend, and declaring he should not go; and being too much engrossed by proposals of carrying them away in his coat pockets, &c., to have another moment for finishing or recollecting what he had begun, Anne was left to persuade herself, as well as she could, that the same brother must still be in question. She could not, however, reach such a degree of certainty, as not to be anxious to hear whether anything had been said on the subject at the other house, where the Crofts had previously been calling.
He was interrupted by the enthusiastic little boys, hanging onto him like an old friend, insisting that he shouldn't leave; and he became so caught up in their suggestions to carry them away in his coat pockets, etc., that he didn't have a moment to finish or remember what he had started. Anne was left to convince herself as best she could that he must still be talking about the same brother. However, she couldn't be certain enough to avoid feeling anxious about whether anything had been discussed on the subject at the Crofts' house, where they had been visiting earlier.
The folks of the Great House were to spend the evening of this day at the Cottage; and it being now too late in the year for such visits to be made on foot, the coach was beginning to be listened for, when the youngest Miss Musgrove walked in. That she was coming to apologize, and that they should have to spend the evening by themselves, was the first black idea; and Mary was quite ready to be affronted, when Louisa made all right by saying, that she only came on foot, to leave more room for the harp, which was bringing in the carriage.
The people at the Great House were planning to spend the evening at the Cottage, and since it was too late in the year for such visits to be made on foot, they started to listen for the coach. Just then, the youngest Miss Musgrove walked in. Initially, they feared she had come to apologize and that they would have to spend the evening alone, which was a disappointing thought; Mary was ready to be upset. However, Louisa quickly cleared things up by saying that she had walked over to make more room for the harp, which was being brought in the carriage.
“And I will tell you our reason,” she added, “and all about it. I am come on to give you notice, that papa and mamma are out of spirits this evening, especially mamma; she is thinking so much of poor Richard! And we agreed it would be best to have the harp, for it seems to amuse her more than the piano-forte. I will tell you why she is out of spirits. When the Crofts called this morning, (they called here afterwards, did not they?), they happened to say, that her brother, Captain Wentworth, is just returned to England, or paid off, or something, and is coming to see them almost directly; and most unluckily it came into mamma’s head, when they were gone, that Wentworth, or something very like it, was the name of poor Richard’s captain at one time; I do not know when or where, but a great while before he died, poor fellow! And upon looking over his letters and things, she found it was so, and is perfectly sure that this must be the very man, and her head is quite full of it, and of poor Richard! So we must be as merry as we can, that she may not be dwelling upon such gloomy things.”
“And I’m going to tell you our reason,” she added, “and everything about it. I came to let you know that Mom and Dad aren’t in a good mood this evening, especially Mom; she’s been thinking a lot about poor Richard! We decided it would be best to have the harp because it seems to cheer her up more than the piano. Let me explain why she’s feeling down. When the Crofts visited this morning (they came here afterward, right?), they happened to mention that her brother, Captain Wentworth, has just returned to England, or wrapped up his service, or something like that, and will be coming to see them pretty soon; and unfortunately, it popped into Mom’s head, after they left, that Wentworth, or something very similar, was the name of poor Richard’s captain at one time; I don’t know when or where, but a long time before he died, poor guy! And after looking over his letters and stuff, she found out it was true and is completely convinced that this has to be the same guy, and she can't stop thinking about it and about poor Richard! So we need to be as cheerful as we can, so she doesn’t dwell on such sad things.”
The real circumstances of this pathetic piece of family history were, that the Musgroves had had the ill fortune of a very troublesome, hopeless son; and the good fortune to lose him before he reached his twentieth year; that he had been sent to sea because he was stupid and unmanageable on shore; that he had been very little cared for at any time by his family, though quite as much as he deserved; seldom heard of, and scarcely at all regretted, when the intelligence of his death abroad had worked its way to Uppercross, two years before.
The actual situation behind this sad bit of family history was that the Musgroves had the bad luck of having a very difficult and hopeless son, but the good fortune to lose him before he turned twenty. He had been sent to sea because he was dumb and unruly on land. His family had hardly cared for him at any time, though it was about as much attention as he deserved. He was rarely heard from and barely missed when news of his death overseas reached Uppercross two years ago.
He had, in fact, though his sisters were now doing all they could for him, by calling him “poor Richard,” been nothing better than a thick-headed, unfeeling, unprofitable Dick Musgrove, who had never done anything to entitle himself to more than the abbreviation of his name, living or dead.
He had, in fact, even though his sisters were doing everything they could for him by calling him “poor Richard,” been nothing more than a thick-headed, unfeeling, unworthy Dick Musgrove, who had never done anything to deserve more than the shortened version of his name, whether alive or dead.
He had been several years at sea, and had, in the course of those removals to which all midshipmen are liable, and especially such midshipmen as every captain wishes to get rid of, been six months on board Captain Frederick Wentworth’s frigate, the Laconia; and from the Laconia he had, under the influence of his captain, written the only two letters which his father and mother had ever received from him during the whole of his absence; that is to say, the only two disinterested letters; all the rest had been mere applications for money.
He had spent several years at sea and, due to the frequent transfers that all midshipmen experience—especially those that every captain wants to unload—had been on board Captain Frederick Wentworth’s frigate, the Laconia, for six months. From the Laconia, influenced by his captain, he had written the only two letters his parents ever received from him throughout his entire absence; in other words, the only two genuine letters. All the others had just been requests for money.
In each letter he had spoken well of his captain; but yet, so little were they in the habit of attending to such matters, so unobservant and incurious were they as to the names of men or ships, that it had made scarcely any impression at the time; and that Mrs Musgrove should have been suddenly struck, this very day, with a recollection of the name of Wentworth, as connected with her son, seemed one of those extraordinary bursts of mind which do sometimes occur.
In every letter he praised his captain, but they were so unaccustomed to paying attention to such things and so indifferent to the names of people or ships that it hardly made any impact at the time. So, for Mrs. Musgrove to suddenly remember the name Wentworth today, linked to her son, felt like one of those surprising moments of realization that can happen occasionally.
She had gone to her letters, and found it all as she supposed; and the re-perusal of these letters, after so long an interval, her poor son gone for ever, and all the strength of his faults forgotten, had affected her spirits exceedingly, and thrown her into greater grief for him than she had known on first hearing of his death. Mr Musgrove was, in a lesser degree, affected likewise; and when they reached the cottage, they were evidently in want, first, of being listened to anew on this subject, and afterwards, of all the relief which cheerful companions could give them.
She went to her letters and found everything as she expected. Reading those letters again after such a long time, her poor son gone forever and all the strength of his faults faded from her mind, deeply affected her emotions and caused her to grieve for him even more than when she first heard about his death. Mr. Musgrove was also somewhat affected, and when they arrived at the cottage, it was clear that they needed someone to listen to them again about this topic, and later, the support that cheerful company could offer.
To hear them talking so much of Captain Wentworth, repeating his name so often, puzzling over past years, and at last ascertaining that it might, that it probably would, turn out to be the very same Captain Wentworth whom they recollected meeting, once or twice, after their coming back from Clifton—a very fine young man—but they could not say whether it was seven or eight years ago, was a new sort of trial to Anne’s nerves. She found, however, that it was one to which she must inure herself. Since he actually was expected in the country, she must teach herself to be insensible on such points. And not only did it appear that he was expected, and speedily, but the Musgroves, in their warm gratitude for the kindness he had shewn poor Dick, and very high respect for his character, stamped as it was by poor Dick’s having been six months under his care, and mentioning him in strong, though not perfectly well-spelt praise, as “a fine dashing felow, only two perticular about the schoolmaster,” were bent on introducing themselves, and seeking his acquaintance, as soon as they could hear of his arrival.
Hearing them talk so much about Captain Wentworth, repeating his name so often, puzzling over past years, and finally figuring out that it might, and probably would, be the same Captain Wentworth they remembered meeting once or twice after returning from Clifton—a really great young man—but they couldn’t recall if it was seven or eight years ago, was a new kind of stress for Anne. However, she realized that it was something she had to get used to. Since he was actually expected in the area, she needed to prepare herself to be unaffected by such matters. Not only did it seem like he was expected soon, but the Musgroves, in their warm gratitude for the kindness he had shown poor Dick and their great respect for his character—which was noted by the fact that poor Dick had spent six months under his care—mentioned him in strong, albeit not perfectly spelled praise, as “a fine dashing fellow, only too particular about the schoolmaster,” and were eager to introduce themselves and seek his friendship as soon as they heard of his arrival.
The resolution of doing so helped to form the comfort of their evening.
The decision to do that helped create the coziness of their evening.
CHAPTER VII.
A very few days more, and Captain Wentworth was known to be at Kellynch, and Mr Musgrove had called on him, and come back warm in his praise, and he was engaged with the Crofts to dine at Uppercross, by the end of another week. It had been a great disappointment to Mr Musgrove to find that no earlier day could be fixed, so impatient was he to shew his gratitude, by seeing Captain Wentworth under his own roof, and welcoming him to all that was strongest and best in his cellars. But a week must pass; only a week, in Anne’s reckoning, and then, she supposed, they must meet; and soon she began to wish that she could feel secure even for a week.
Just a few days later, Captain Wentworth was known to be at Kellynch, and Mr. Musgrove had visited him and returned full of praise. By the end of the following week, he was set to have dinner with the Crofts at Uppercross. Mr. Musgrove had been really disappointed to learn that they couldn't schedule an earlier meeting; he was so eager to show his gratitude by having Captain Wentworth in his home and treating him to the best of his wine. But a week had to pass; just a week, in Anne's mind, and then she figured they would have to meet. Soon, she began to wish she could feel secure for even just that week.
Captain Wentworth made a very early return to Mr Musgrove’s civility, and she was all but calling there in the same half hour. She and Mary were actually setting forward for the Great House, where, as she afterwards learnt, they must inevitably have found him, when they were stopped by the eldest boy’s being at that moment brought home in consequence of a bad fall. The child’s situation put the visit entirely aside; but she could not hear of her escape with indifference, even in the midst of the serious anxiety which they afterwards felt on his account.
Captain Wentworth quickly responded to Mr. Musgrove's kindness, and she was almost on her way there within the same half hour. She and Mary were actually heading to the Great House, where, as she later found out, they would have definitely run into him, when they were interrupted by the eldest boy being brought home due to a bad fall. The child’s condition completely overshadowed the visit; but she couldn’t help but feel a sense of relief about her near escape, even amidst the serious worry they felt later on about him.
His collar-bone was found to be dislocated, and such injury received in the back, as roused the most alarming ideas. It was an afternoon of distress, and Anne had every thing to do at once; the apothecary to send for, the father to have pursued and informed, the mother to support and keep from hysterics, the servants to control, the youngest child to banish, and the poor suffering one to attend and soothe; besides sending, as soon as she recollected it, proper notice to the other house, which brought her an accession rather of frightened, enquiring companions, than of very useful assistants.
His collarbone was dislocated, and he had a back injury that raised alarming concerns. It was a distressing afternoon, and Anne had to manage everything at once: sending for the apothecary, notifying her father, keeping her mother calm and preventing hysterics, managing the servants, sending the youngest child away, and caring for the poor injured person. She also had to quickly send notice to the other house, which brought her more frightened, curious friends than helpful assistants.
Her brother’s return was the first comfort; he could take best care of his wife; and the second blessing was the arrival of the apothecary. Till he came and had examined the child, their apprehensions were the worse for being vague; they suspected great injury, but knew not where; but now the collar-bone was soon replaced, and though Mr Robinson felt and felt, and rubbed, and looked grave, and spoke low words both to the father and the aunt, still they were all to hope the best, and to be able to part and eat their dinner in tolerable ease of mind; and then it was, just before they parted, that the two young aunts were able so far to digress from their nephew’s state, as to give the information of Captain Wentworth’s visit; staying five minutes behind their father and mother, to endeavour to express how perfectly delighted they were with him, how much handsomer, how infinitely more agreeable they thought him than any individual among their male acquaintance, who had been at all a favourite before. How glad they had been to hear papa invite him to stay dinner, how sorry when he said it was quite out of his power, and how glad again when he had promised in reply to papa and mamma’s farther pressing invitations to come and dine with them on the morrow—actually on the morrow; and he had promised it in so pleasant a manner, as if he felt all the motive of their attention just as he ought. And in short, he had looked and said everything with such exquisite grace, that they could assure them all, their heads were both turned by him; and off they ran, quite as full of glee as of love, and apparently more full of Captain Wentworth than of little Charles.
Her brother’s return was the first source of comfort; he could take the best care of his wife. The second blessing was the arrival of the pharmacist. Until he came and examined the child, their worries were even worse because they were so uncertain; they suspected there was serious injury but didn’t know where. But now the collarbone was quickly fixed, and even though Mr. Robinson examined, rubbed, and looked serious while speaking quietly to both the father and the aunt, they all hoped for the best and were able to part and have dinner with some peace of mind. Just before they separated, the two young aunts managed to shift their focus from their nephew’s condition to share the news about Captain Wentworth’s visit. They stayed behind for five minutes after their parents left to try to express how completely delighted they were with him, how much better-looking and infinitely more charming they thought he was than any of their previous favorites among the guys they knew. They were so happy to hear their dad invite him to stay for dinner, so disappointed when he said it was impossible, and then so relieved again when he promised, after their mom and dad pressed him further, to come and have dinner with them the very next day—actually the next day. He had promised in such a pleasant way, as if he understood the reasons for their interest just as he should. In short, he had looked and spoken with such incredible charm that they could assure everyone that both their heads had been turned by him. And off they ran, filled with as much joy as love, and seemingly more preoccupied with Captain Wentworth than with little Charles.
The same story and the same raptures were repeated, when the two girls came with their father, through the gloom of the evening, to make enquiries; and Mr Musgrove, no longer under the first uneasiness about his heir, could add his confirmation and praise, and hope there would be now no occasion for putting Captain Wentworth off, and only be sorry to think that the cottage party, probably, would not like to leave the little boy, to give him the meeting. “Oh no; as to leaving the little boy,” both father and mother were in much too strong and recent alarm to bear the thought; and Anne, in the joy of the escape, could not help adding her warm protestations to theirs.
The same story and the same excitement were repeated when the two girls came with their father through the evening shadows to ask questions. Mr. Musgrove, now free from his initial concerns about his heir, could share his approval and optimism, hoping there would be no need to keep Captain Wentworth away, but he felt sorry that the cottage party probably wouldn’t want to leave the little boy to meet him. “Oh no; as for leaving the little boy,” both parents were far too anxious and shaken to consider that; and Anne, relieved by the escape, couldn’t help but add her enthusiastic agreement to theirs.
Charles Musgrove, indeed, afterwards, shewed more of inclination; “the child was going on so well, and he wished so much to be introduced to Captain Wentworth, that, perhaps, he might join them in the evening; he would not dine from home, but he might walk in for half an hour.” But in this he was eagerly opposed by his wife, with “Oh! no, indeed, Charles, I cannot bear to have you go away. Only think if anything should happen?”
Charles Musgrove, after all, showed more interest; “the child was doing so well, and he really wanted to meet Captain Wentworth, so maybe he could join them in the evening; he wouldn't have dinner out, but he could stop by for half an hour.” However, his wife strongly disagreed, saying, “Oh! no, really, Charles, I can't stand the thought of you going away. Just think if something were to happen?”
The child had a good night, and was going on well the next day. It must be a work of time to ascertain that no injury had been done to the spine; but Mr Robinson found nothing to increase alarm, and Charles Musgrove began, consequently, to feel no necessity for longer confinement. The child was to be kept in bed and amused as quietly as possible; but what was there for a father to do? This was quite a female case, and it would be highly absurd in him, who could be of no use at home, to shut himself up. His father very much wished him to meet Captain Wentworth, and there being no sufficient reason against it, he ought to go; and it ended in his making a bold, public declaration, when he came in from shooting, of his meaning to dress directly, and dine at the other house.
The child had a good night and was doing well the next day. It would take time to determine if there was any injury to the spine, but Mr. Robinson found nothing alarming, and Charles Musgrove began to feel there was no need for continued confinement. The child was to remain in bed and be entertained as quietly as possible, but what could a father do? This was clearly a matter for women, and it would be ridiculous for him, who couldn’t be of any help at home, to isolate himself. His father really wanted him to meet Captain Wentworth, and since there was no good reason not to go, he should. So he made a bold, public statement when he returned from shooting that he intended to get dressed right away and have dinner at the other house.
“Nothing can be going on better than the child,” said he; “so I told my father, just now, that I would come, and he thought me quite right. Your sister being with you, my love, I have no scruple at all. You would not like to leave him yourself, but you see I can be of no use. Anne will send for me if anything is the matter.”
“Nothing could be better than the child,” he said. “So I just told my father that I would come, and he thought that was perfectly fine. With your sister with you, my love, I have no hesitation at all. You wouldn’t want to leave him yourself, but you see I can’t be of any help. Anne will call for me if anything goes wrong.”
Husbands and wives generally understand when opposition will be vain. Mary knew, from Charles’s manner of speaking, that he was quite determined on going, and that it would be of no use to teaze him. She said nothing, therefore, till he was out of the room, but as soon as there was only Anne to hear—
Husbands and wives usually know when arguing is pointless. Mary understood, from Charles's tone, that he was set on leaving, and that it wouldn’t help to bother him about it. So, she stayed quiet until he was out of the room, but as soon as it was just Anne who could hear—
“So you and I are to be left to shift by ourselves, with this poor sick child; and not a creature coming near us all the evening! I knew how it would be. This is always my luck. If there is anything disagreeable going on men are always sure to get out of it, and Charles is as bad as any of them. Very unfeeling! I must say it is very unfeeling of him to be running away from his poor little boy. Talks of his being going on so well! How does he know that he is going on well, or that there may not be a sudden change half an hour hence? I did not think Charles would have been so unfeeling. So here he is to go away and enjoy himself, and because I am the poor mother, I am not to be allowed to stir; and yet, I am sure, I am more unfit than anybody else to be about the child. My being the mother is the very reason why my feelings should not be tried. I am not at all equal to it. You saw how hysterical I was yesterday.”
“So you and I are stuck taking care of this poor sick child by ourselves, with no one coming to help us all evening! I knew it would end up like this. This is always my luck. Whenever something unpleasant happens, the men always manage to escape it, and Charles is just as bad as any of them. It’s really heartless! I can’t believe he’s running away from his poor little boy. He talks like everything is going so well! How does he know that it’s actually going well, or that there won’t be a sudden change in half an hour? I didn't think Charles would be so heartless. So here he is, off to enjoy himself, while I, as the poor mother, am expected to just stay put; and yet, I'm sure I'm less capable than anyone else to be around the child. Being the mother is exactly why I shouldn’t have to deal with this. I'm not at all up for it. You saw how hysterical I was yesterday.”
“But that was only the effect of the suddenness of your alarm—of the shock. You will not be hysterical again. I dare say we shall have nothing to distress us. I perfectly understand Mr Robinson’s directions, and have no fears; and indeed, Mary, I cannot wonder at your husband. Nursing does not belong to a man; it is not his province. A sick child is always the mother’s property: her own feelings generally make it so.”
“But that was just the effect of how suddenly you were alarmed—of the shock. You won’t be hysterical again. I’m sure we won’t have anything to upset us. I completely understand Mr. Robinson’s instructions, and I’m not worried; and honestly, Mary, I can’t blame your husband. Nursing isn’t something for a man; it’s not his role. A sick child always belongs to the mother: her own feelings usually make it that way.”
“I hope I am as fond of my child as any mother, but I do not know that I am of any more use in the sick-room than Charles, for I cannot be always scolding and teazing the poor child when it is ill; and you saw, this morning, that if I told him to keep quiet, he was sure to begin kicking about. I have not nerves for the sort of thing.”
“I hope I care for my child as much as any mother does, but I’m not sure I’m any more helpful in the sick room than Charles, because I can’t just keep scolding and bothering the poor kid when he’s sick; and you saw this morning that if I told him to be quiet, he would definitely start kicking around. I just don’t have the nerves for that kind of thing.”
“But, could you be comfortable yourself, to be spending the whole evening away from the poor boy?”
“But, would you really be okay with spending the whole evening away from the poor kid?”
“Yes; you see his papa can, and why should not I? Jemima is so careful; and she could send us word every hour how he was. I really think Charles might as well have told his father we would all come. I am not more alarmed about little Charles now than he is. I was dreadfully alarmed yesterday, but the case is very different to-day.”
“Yes; you see his dad can, and why shouldn’t I? Jemima is really careful; she could send us updates every hour about how he’s doing. I honestly think Charles could have just told his dad we’d all come. I’m not more worried about little Charles now than he is. I was really worried yesterday, but the situation is very different today.”
“Well, if you do not think it too late to give notice for yourself, suppose you were to go, as well as your husband. Leave little Charles to my care. Mr and Mrs Musgrove cannot think it wrong while I remain with him.”
“Well, if you don't think it's too late to notify yourself, how about you go, along with your husband? Leave little Charles in my care. Mr. and Mrs. Musgrove won't think it's wrong as long as I stay with him.”
“Are you serious?” cried Mary, her eyes brightening. “Dear me! that’s a very good thought, very good, indeed. To be sure, I may just as well go as not, for I am of no use at home—am I? and it only harasses me. You, who have not a mother’s feelings, are a great deal the properest person. You can make little Charles do anything; he always minds you at a word. It will be a great deal better than leaving him only with Jemima. Oh! I shall certainly go; I am sure I ought if I can, quite as much as Charles, for they want me excessively to be acquainted with Captain Wentworth, and I know you do not mind being left alone. An excellent thought of yours, indeed, Anne. I will go and tell Charles, and get ready directly. You can send for us, you know, at a moment’s notice, if anything is the matter; but I dare say there will be nothing to alarm you. I should not go, you may be sure, if I did not feel quite at ease about my dear child.”
“Are you serious?” Mary exclaimed, her eyes lighting up. “Oh wow! That’s a great idea, really great. I might as well go as not, since I'm not much help at home—am I? It just stresses me out. You, without a mother’s feelings, are definitely the best person for this. You can get little Charles to do anything; he always listens to you. It will be much better than just leaving him with Jemima. Oh! I’m definitely going; I should, if I can, just as much as Charles, because they really want me to meet Captain Wentworth, and I know you don’t mind being alone. That’s a fantastic suggestion of yours, Anne. I’ll go tell Charles and get ready right away. You can call for us at a moment’s notice if anything’s wrong, but I’m sure there won’t be anything to worry about. You can rest assured, I wouldn’t go if I didn’t feel totally at ease about my dear child.”
The next moment she was tapping at her husband’s dressing-room door, and as Anne followed her up stairs, she was in time for the whole conversation, which began with Mary’s saying, in a tone of great exultation—
The next moment she was knocking on her husband’s dressing-room door, and as Anne followed her upstairs, she arrived just in time to hear the entire conversation, which started with Mary saying, in a tone of great excitement—
“I mean to go with you, Charles, for I am of no more use at home than you are. If I were to shut myself up for ever with the child, I should not be able to persuade him to do anything he did not like. Anne will stay; Anne undertakes to stay at home and take care of him. It is Anne’s own proposal, and so I shall go with you, which will be a great deal better, for I have not dined at the other house since Tuesday.”
“I want to go with you, Charles, because I'm just as useless at home as you are. If I isolated myself forever with the child, I wouldn’t be able to convince him to do anything he didn’t want to do. Anne will stay; she has volunteered to stay home and look after him. It was Anne’s idea, so I’ll go with you, which is much better since I haven’t had dinner at the other house since Tuesday.”
“This is very kind of Anne,” was her husband’s answer, “and I should be very glad to have you go; but it seems rather hard that she should be left at home by herself, to nurse our sick child.”
“This is very kind of Anne,” her husband replied, “and I’d be really happy for you to go; but it feels a bit unfair that she should be left home alone to take care of our sick child.”
Anne was now at hand to take up her own cause, and the sincerity of her manner being soon sufficient to convince him, where conviction was at least very agreeable, he had no farther scruples as to her being left to dine alone, though he still wanted her to join them in the evening, when the child might be at rest for the night, and kindly urged her to let him come and fetch her, but she was quite unpersuadable; and this being the case, she had ere long the pleasure of seeing them set off together in high spirits. They were gone, she hoped, to be happy, however oddly constructed such happiness might seem; as for herself, she was left with as many sensations of comfort, as were, perhaps, ever likely to be hers. She knew herself to be of the first utility to the child; and what was it to her if Frederick Wentworth were only half a mile distant, making himself agreeable to others?
Anne was ready to stand up for herself, and the sincerity in her demeanor quickly convinced him, especially since he was pleased to be convinced. He had no further doubts about her having dinner alone, though he still hoped she would join them in the evening when the child might be settled for the night. He kindly offered to come and pick her up, but she wouldn't be persuaded. With that in mind, she soon felt happy watching them leave together in high spirits. She hoped they would be happy, no matter how strange that happiness might seem. As for her, she was left with as much comfort as she was likely to have. She knew she was essential to the child, and it didn’t matter to her if Frederick Wentworth was only half a mile away, entertaining others.
She would have liked to know how he felt as to a meeting. Perhaps indifferent, if indifference could exist under such circumstances. He must be either indifferent or unwilling. Had he wished ever to see her again, he need not have waited till this time; he would have done what she could not but believe that in his place she should have done long ago, when events had been early giving him the independence which alone had been wanting.
She would have liked to know how he felt about a meeting. Maybe he was indifferent, if indifference could even exist in this situation. He must be either indifferent or reluctant. If he had ever wanted to see her again, he wouldn't have waited this long; he would have acted in a way she felt he should have done long before, when circumstances had already given him the freedom that had been lacking.
Her brother and sister came back delighted with their new acquaintance, and their visit in general. There had been music, singing, talking, laughing, all that was most agreeable; charming manners in Captain Wentworth, no shyness or reserve; they seemed all to know each other perfectly, and he was coming the very next morning to shoot with Charles. He was to come to breakfast, but not at the Cottage, though that had been proposed at first; but then he had been pressed to come to the Great House instead, and he seemed afraid of being in Mrs Charles Musgrove’s way, on account of the child, and therefore, somehow, they hardly knew how, it ended in Charles’s being to meet him to breakfast at his father’s.
Her brother and sister came back thrilled with their new friend and their overall visit. There had been music, singing, chatting, and laughing—all very enjoyable. Captain Wentworth had charming manners, with no signs of shyness or reserve; it felt like they all knew each other perfectly. He was coming the very next morning to go shooting with Charles. He was supposed to come for breakfast, but not at the Cottage, even though that was suggested at first. Instead, he was invited to the Great House, but he seemed hesitant about getting in the way of Mrs. Charles Musgrove because of the child. So, somehow, it ended up with Charles meeting him for breakfast at his father's place.
Anne understood it. He wished to avoid seeing her. He had inquired after her, she found, slightly, as might suit a former slight acquaintance, seeming to acknowledge such as she had acknowledged, actuated, perhaps, by the same view of escaping introduction when they were to meet.
Anne got it. He wanted to avoid seeing her. He had asked about her, she noticed, just enough for someone who used to know her, seeming to acknowledge what they had once shared, possibly motivated by the same desire to avoid an introduction when they crossed paths.
The morning hours of the Cottage were always later than those of the other house, and on the morrow the difference was so great that Mary and Anne were not more than beginning breakfast when Charles came in to say that they were just setting off, that he was come for his dogs, that his sisters were following with Captain Wentworth; his sisters meaning to visit Mary and the child, and Captain Wentworth proposing also to wait on her for a few minutes if not inconvenient; and though Charles had answered for the child’s being in no such state as could make it inconvenient, Captain Wentworth would not be satisfied without his running on to give notice.
The mornings at the Cottage always started later than at the other house, and the next day the difference was so significant that Mary and Anne were just beginning breakfast when Charles came in to say they were about to leave. He was there for his dogs, and his sisters were coming along with Captain Wentworth; his sisters planned to visit Mary and the child, and Captain Wentworth also intended to check in on her for a few minutes if it wasn’t a hassle. Even though Charles assured him that the child was in no condition that would cause any inconvenience, Captain Wentworth insisted on running ahead to give her a heads up.
Mary, very much gratified by this attention, was delighted to receive him, while a thousand feelings rushed on Anne, of which this was the most consoling, that it would soon be over. And it was soon over. In two minutes after Charles’s preparation, the others appeared; they were in the drawing-room. Her eye half met Captain Wentworth’s, a bow, a curtsey passed; she heard his voice; he talked to Mary, said all that was right, said something to the Miss Musgroves, enough to mark an easy footing; the room seemed full, full of persons and voices, but a few minutes ended it. Charles shewed himself at the window, all was ready, their visitor had bowed and was gone, the Miss Musgroves were gone too, suddenly resolving to walk to the end of the village with the sportsmen: the room was cleared, and Anne might finish her breakfast as she could.
Mary, really pleased by this attention, was happy to welcome him, while a flood of feelings rushed over Anne, the most comforting of which was that it would be over soon. And it was over quickly. Just two minutes after Charles got ready, the others showed up; they were in the living room. Her gaze briefly met Captain Wentworth’s, a nod, a curtsy exchanged; she heard his voice as he spoke to Mary, said all the right things, and had a few words with the Miss Musgroves, enough to establish a relaxed vibe; the room felt crowded with people and voices, but it all wrapped up in a few minutes. Charles appeared at the window, everything was set, their guest had bowed and left, and the Miss Musgroves had also left, suddenly deciding to walk to the edge of the village with the hunters: the room was cleared, and Anne could finish her breakfast as best she could.
“It is over! it is over!” she repeated to herself again and again, in nervous gratitude. “The worst is over!”
“It’s finally over! It’s finally over!” she kept telling herself anxiously, feeling grateful. “The worst is behind me!”
Mary talked, but she could not attend. She had seen him. They had met. They had been once more in the same room.
Mary chatted, but she couldn't be there. She had seen him. They had met. They had been in the same room again.
Soon, however, she began to reason with herself, and try to be feeling less. Eight years, almost eight years had passed, since all had been given up. How absurd to be resuming the agitation which such an interval had banished into distance and indistinctness! What might not eight years do? Events of every description, changes, alienations, removals—all, all must be comprised in it, and oblivion of the past— how natural, how certain too! It included nearly a third part of her own life.
Soon, however, she started to talk herself through it and tried to feel less. Almost eight years had gone by since everything had been given up. How silly to stir up the feelings that such a long time had pushed into the background! What could eight years bring? An array of events, changes, separations, moves—all of it must fit in that time frame, and forgetting the past—how natural, how inevitable! It made up nearly a third of her life.
Alas! with all her reasoning, she found, that to retentive feelings eight years may be little more than nothing.
Alas! with all her reasoning, she found that, for strong feelings, eight years might be just a blink of an eye.
Now, how were his sentiments to be read? Was this like wishing to avoid her? And the next moment she was hating herself for the folly which asked the question.
Now, how were his feelings supposed to be interpreted? Was this like trying to distance himself from her? And in the next moment, she was loathing herself for being foolish enough to ask the question.
On one other question which perhaps her utmost wisdom might not have prevented, she was soon spared all suspense; for, after the Miss Musgroves had returned and finished their visit at the Cottage she had this spontaneous information from Mary:—
On one other question that maybe even her greatest wisdom couldn't have stopped, she was quickly relieved of any uncertainty; because, after the Miss Musgroves came back and wrapped up their visit at the Cottage, she received this unprompted information from Mary:—
“Captain Wentworth is not very gallant by you, Anne, though he was so attentive to me. Henrietta asked him what he thought of you, when they went away, and he said, ‘You were so altered he should not have known you again.’”
“Captain Wentworth isn’t very considerate of you, Anne, even though he was so attentive to me. Henrietta asked him what he thought of you when they left, and he said, ‘You’ve changed so much he wouldn’t have recognized you.’”
Mary had no feelings to make her respect her sister’s in a common way, but she was perfectly unsuspicious of being inflicting any peculiar wound.
Mary had no feelings that would make her respect her sister in a typical way, but she was completely unaware that she was causing any particular hurt.
“Altered beyond his knowledge.” Anne fully submitted, in silent, deep mortification. Doubtless it was so, and she could take no revenge, for he was not altered, or not for the worse. She had already acknowledged it to herself, and she could not think differently, let him think of her as he would. No: the years which had destroyed her youth and bloom had only given him a more glowing, manly, open look, in no respect lessening his personal advantages. She had seen the same Frederick Wentworth.
“Changed without him knowing it.” Anne completely accepted this, feeling a deep embarrassment inside. It was undoubtedly true, and she couldn’t get back at him, because he hadn’t changed, or at least not for the worse. She had already admitted it to herself, and she couldn’t see it any other way, no matter what he thought of her. No: the years that had taken away her youth and beauty had only made him look even more handsome and confident, in no way diminishing his appeal. She had seen the same Frederick Wentworth.
“So altered that he should not have known her again!” These were words which could not but dwell with her. Yet she soon began to rejoice that she had heard them. They were of sobering tendency; they allayed agitation; they composed, and consequently must make her happier.
"So changed that he wouldn't have recognized her again!" These were words that she couldn't help but think about. Yet she quickly started to feel grateful that she had heard them. They were calming; they eased her anxiety; they brought her peace, and so they must make her happier.
Frederick Wentworth had used such words, or something like them, but without an idea that they would be carried round to her. He had thought her wretchedly altered, and in the first moment of appeal, had spoken as he felt. He had not forgiven Anne Elliot. She had used him ill, deserted and disappointed him; and worse, she had shewn a feebleness of character in doing so, which his own decided, confident temper could not endure. She had given him up to oblige others. It had been the effect of over-persuasion. It had been weakness and timidity.
Frederick Wentworth had said something like that, but he didn’t expect it would get back to her. He had noticed how much she had changed for the worse and, in that moment of vulnerability, he spoke honestly. He hadn’t forgiven Anne Elliot. She had treated him poorly, left him, and let him down; and worse, she had shown a lack of strength in doing so, which his strong, confident personality couldn't tolerate. She had given him up to please others. It was the result of being overly persuaded. It stemmed from weakness and fear.
He had been most warmly attached to her, and had never seen a woman since whom he thought her equal; but, except from some natural sensation of curiosity, he had no desire of meeting her again. Her power with him was gone for ever.
He had been really close to her and had never met a woman since that he thought was her equal; but aside from a natural curiosity, he had no desire to see her again. Her hold over him was gone forever.
It was now his object to marry. He was rich, and being turned on shore, fully intended to settle as soon as he could be properly tempted; actually looking round, ready to fall in love with all the speed which a clear head and a quick taste could allow. He had a heart for either of the Miss Musgroves, if they could catch it; a heart, in short, for any pleasing young woman who came in his way, excepting Anne Elliot. This was his only secret exception, when he said to his sister, in answer to her suppositions:—
His goal now was to get married. He was wealthy and, now that he was back on land, he intended to settle down as soon as he found the right temptation; he was actively looking around, ready to fall in love as quickly as his clear mind and good taste would allow. He had feelings for either of the Miss Musgroves if they could win him over; in short, he was open to charming young women who crossed his path, except for Anne Elliot. This was his one secret exception when he replied to his sister's guesses:—
“Yes, here I am, Sophia, quite ready to make a foolish match. Anybody between fifteen and thirty may have me for asking. A little beauty, and a few smiles, and a few compliments to the navy, and I am a lost man. Should not this be enough for a sailor, who has had no society among women to make him nice?”
“Yes, here I am, Sophia, completely ready to make a silly choice. Anyone between fifteen and thirty can have me for the asking. A little beauty, a few smiles, and some compliments to the navy, and I’m a goner. Shouldn't this be enough for a sailor who hasn’t been around women to make him picky?”
He said it, she knew, to be contradicted. His bright proud eye spoke the conviction that he was nice; and Anne Elliot was not out of his thoughts, when he more seriously described the woman he should wish to meet with. “A strong mind, with sweetness of manner,” made the first and the last of the description.
He said it, she knew, just to be opposed. His bright, proud eyes expressed the belief that he was a good guy; and Anne Elliot was on his mind when he seriously described the kind of woman he wanted to meet. “A strong mind, with a sweet manner,” made up the first and last part of the description.
“That is the woman I want,” said he. “Something a little inferior I shall of course put up with, but it must not be much. If I am a fool, I shall be a fool indeed, for I have thought on the subject more than most men.”
“That's the woman I want,” he said. “I can settle for something a little less, but it can't be too much. If I'm a fool, I’ll really be a fool, because I’ve thought about this more than most guys.”
CHAPTER VIII.
From this time Captain Wentworth and Anne Elliot were repeatedly in the same circle. They were soon dining in company together at Mr Musgrove’s, for the little boy’s state could no longer supply his aunt with a pretence for absenting herself; and this was but the beginning of other dinings and other meetings.
From that point on, Captain Wentworth and Anne Elliot kept finding themselves in the same social circle. They soon ended up dining together at Mr. Musgrove's, since the little boy's condition no longer gave his aunt a reason to stay away; and this was just the start of more dinners and other gatherings.
Whether former feelings were to be renewed must be brought to the proof; former times must undoubtedly be brought to the recollection of each; they could not but be reverted to; the year of their engagement could not but be named by him, in the little narratives or descriptions which conversation called forth. His profession qualified him, his disposition lead him, to talk; and “That was in the year six;” “That happened before I went to sea in the year six,” occurred in the course of the first evening they spent together: and though his voice did not falter, and though she had no reason to suppose his eye wandering towards her while he spoke, Anne felt the utter impossibility, from her knowledge of his mind, that he could be unvisited by remembrance any more than herself. There must be the same immediate association of thought, though she was very far from conceiving it to be of equal pain.
Whether old feelings could be rekindled had to be tested; the past inevitably had to be recalled by each of them; it was impossible not to think back on those times. He had to mention the year of their engagement in the little stories or descriptions that came up in conversation. His profession made him talkative, and his nature led him to share. Phrases like “That was in the year six;” “That happened before I went to sea in the year six,” came up during their first evening together. And even though his voice was steady and she had no reason to think his gaze strayed toward her while he spoke, Anne felt it was completely impossible, given her understanding of his mind, for him to be free of memories any more than she was. They must have the same immediate connection of thoughts, although she was far from believing it caused him the same level of pain.
They had no conversation together, no intercourse but what the commonest civility required. Once so much to each other! Now nothing! There had been a time, when of all the large party now filling the drawing-room at Uppercross, they would have found it most difficult to cease to speak to one another. With the exception, perhaps, of Admiral and Mrs Croft, who seemed particularly attached and happy, (Anne could allow no other exceptions even among the married couples), there could have been no two hearts so open, no tastes so similar, no feelings so in unison, no countenances so beloved. Now they were as strangers; nay, worse than strangers, for they could never become acquainted. It was a perpetual estrangement.
They didn’t have any real conversation, just the basic politeness that was necessary. Once they meant so much to each other! Now, it was nothing! There had been a time when, among all the large group currently filling the drawing room at Uppercross, it would have been hard for them to stop talking to each other. With the exception, maybe, of Admiral and Mrs. Croft, who seemed particularly close and happy (Anne wouldn’t consider any other exceptions even among the married couples), there could have been no two hearts more open, no tastes more alike, no feelings more in sync, no faces more cherished. Now, they were like strangers; no, worse than strangers, because they could never really get to know each other. It was a constant sense of separation.
When he talked, she heard the same voice, and discerned the same mind. There was a very general ignorance of all naval matters throughout the party; and he was very much questioned, and especially by the two Miss Musgroves, who seemed hardly to have any eyes but for him, as to the manner of living on board, daily regulations, food, hours, &c., and their surprise at his accounts, at learning the degree of accommodation and arrangement which was practicable, drew from him some pleasant ridicule, which reminded Anne of the early days when she too had been ignorant, and she too had been accused of supposing sailors to be living on board without anything to eat, or any cook to dress it if there were, or any servant to wait, or any knife and fork to use.
When he spoke, she recognized the same voice and understood the same perspective. There was a general lack of knowledge about everything related to the navy among the group; he was asked a lot of questions, especially by the two Miss Musgroves, who seemed to focus entirely on him. They wanted to know about life on board, the daily routine, the food, the hours, and so on. Their surprise at what he shared about the level of comfort and organization possible on a ship brought out some playful teasing from him, which reminded Anne of earlier times when she was also uninformed and had been teased for thinking that sailors lived on board without food, or a cook to prepare it, or any staff to assist, or even any utensils to eat with.
From thus listening and thinking, she was roused by a whisper of Mrs Musgrove’s who, overcome by fond regrets, could not help saying—
From listening and thinking like this, she was interrupted by a whisper from Mrs. Musgrove, who, filled with longing and regrets, couldn't help but say—
“Ah! Miss Anne, if it had pleased Heaven to spare my poor son, I dare say he would have been just such another by this time.”
“Ah! Miss Anne, if it had pleased Heaven to spare my poor son, I’m sure he would have turned out just like this by now.”
Anne suppressed a smile, and listened kindly, while Mrs Musgrove relieved her heart a little more; and for a few minutes, therefore, could not keep pace with the conversation of the others.
Anne held back a smile and listened patiently as Mrs. Musgrove shared her thoughts, lightening her heart a bit more. For a few minutes, she couldn't quite keep up with what the others were talking about.
When she could let her attention take its natural course again, she found the Miss Musgroves just fetching the Navy List (their own navy list, the first that had ever been at Uppercross), and sitting down together to pore over it, with the professed view of finding out the ships that Captain Wentworth had commanded.
When she could let her mind drift back to its usual rhythm, she found the Miss Musgroves just getting the Navy List (their own Navy List, the first one ever at Uppercross) and sitting down together to study it, with the clear goal of finding the ships that Captain Wentworth had commanded.
“Your first was the Asp, I remember; we will look for the Asp.”
“Your first was the Asp, I remember; we will look for the Asp.”
“You will not find her there. Quite worn out and broken up. I was the last man who commanded her. Hardly fit for service then. Reported fit for home service for a year or two, and so I was sent off to the West Indies.”
“You won’t find her there. She’s really worn out and broken down. I was the last person in charge of her. Not in great shape for duty at that time. They said she was fine for home service for a year or two, so I was sent off to the West Indies.”
The girls looked all amazement.
The girls looked amazed.
“The Admiralty,” he continued, “entertain themselves now and then, with sending a few hundred men to sea, in a ship not fit to be employed. But they have a great many to provide for; and among the thousands that may just as well go to the bottom as not, it is impossible for them to distinguish the very set who may be least missed.”
“The Admiralty,” he went on, “sometimes keeps themselves entertained by sending a few hundred men to sea on a ship that’s not even seaworthy. But they have a lot of people to take care of, and among the thousands who could just as easily sink as survive, it’s impossible for them to pick out the specific group that would be least missed.”
“Phoo! phoo!” cried the Admiral, “what stuff these young fellows talk! Never was a better sloop than the Asp in her day. For an old built sloop, you would not see her equal. Lucky fellow to get her! He knows there must have been twenty better men than himself applying for her at the same time. Lucky fellow to get anything so soon, with no more interest than his.”
“Phoo! Phoo!” shouted the Admiral, “what nonsense these young guys talk! There was never a better sloop than the Asp in her prime. For an older sloop, you wouldn’t find her equal. What a lucky guy to get her! He knows there must have been at least twenty better men than him applying for her at the same time. What a lucky guy to get anything so quickly, with so little interest as his.”
“I felt my luck, Admiral, I assure you;” replied Captain Wentworth, seriously. “I was as well satisfied with my appointment as you can desire. It was a great object with me at that time to be at sea; a very great object, I wanted to be doing something.”
“I felt my luck, Admiral, I promise you;” replied Captain Wentworth, seriously. “I was as satisfied with my appointment as you could want. At that time, being at sea was a huge goal for me; it was really important, I wanted to be doing something.”
“To be sure you did. What should a young fellow like you do ashore for half a year together? If a man had not a wife, he soon wants to be afloat again.”
“To be sure you did. What should a young guy like you do on land for half a year? If a man doesn't have a wife, he quickly wants to be out at sea again.”
“But, Captain Wentworth,” cried Louisa, “how vexed you must have been when you came to the Asp, to see what an old thing they had given you.”
“But, Captain Wentworth,” Louisa exclaimed, “you must have been so annoyed when you arrived at the Asp to see what an outdated thing they had given you.”
“I knew pretty well what she was before that day;” said he, smiling. “I had no more discoveries to make than you would have as to the fashion and strength of any old pelisse, which you had seen lent about among half your acquaintance ever since you could remember, and which at last, on some very wet day, is lent to yourself. Ah! she was a dear old Asp to me. She did all that I wanted. I knew she would. I knew that we should either go to the bottom together, or that she would be the making of me; and I never had two days of foul weather all the time I was at sea in her; and after taking privateers enough to be very entertaining, I had the good luck in my passage home the next autumn, to fall in with the very French frigate I wanted. I brought her into Plymouth; and here another instance of luck. We had not been six hours in the Sound, when a gale came on, which lasted four days and nights, and which would have done for poor old Asp in half the time; our touch with the Great Nation not having much improved our condition. Four-and-twenty hours later, and I should only have been a gallant Captain Wentworth, in a small paragraph at one corner of the newspapers; and being lost in only a sloop, nobody would have thought about me.” Anne’s shudderings were to herself alone; but the Miss Musgroves could be as open as they were sincere, in their exclamations of pity and horror.
“I knew pretty well what she was before that day,” he said, smiling. “I had no more discoveries to make than you would have about the style and sturdiness of an old coat that you’ve seen passed around among half your friends for as long as you can remember, and which finally gets lent to you on a very rainy day. Ah! she was a dear old friend to me. She did everything I wanted. I knew she would. I understood that we would either sink together or she would make me better; and I never had two days of bad weather while I was at sea with her. After capturing enough privateers to keep things interesting, I was lucky enough on my journey home the following autumn to encounter the very French frigate I wanted. I brought her into Plymouth; and here’s another stroke of luck. We hadn’t been in the Sound for six hours when a storm hit, lasting four days and nights, which would have sunk poor old friend in half that time; our dealings with the French didn’t really help our situation. Twenty-four hours later, and I would have just been a gallant Captain Wentworth, mentioned in a small paragraph in the newspapers; and being lost on just a sloop, nobody would have cared about me.” Anne’s shudders were her own; but the Miss Musgroves were free to express their genuine pity and horror.
“And so then, I suppose,” said Mrs Musgrove, in a low voice, as if thinking aloud, “so then he went away to the Laconia, and there he met with our poor boy. Charles, my dear,” (beckoning him to her), “do ask Captain Wentworth where it was he first met with your poor brother. I always forgot.”
“And so, I guess,” said Mrs. Musgrove quietly, as if she were thinking out loud, “he went away to the Laconia, and that’s where he met our poor boy. Charles, my dear,” (she beckoned him to her), “please ask Captain Wentworth where he first met your poor brother. I always forget.”
“It was at Gibraltar, mother, I know. Dick had been left ill at Gibraltar, with a recommendation from his former captain to Captain Wentworth.”
“It was at Gibraltar, Mom, I know. Dick had been left sick in Gibraltar, with a recommendation from his old captain to Captain Wentworth.”
“Oh! but, Charles, tell Captain Wentworth, he need not be afraid of mentioning poor Dick before me, for it would be rather a pleasure to hear him talked of by such a good friend.”
“Oh! but, Charles, please tell Captain Wentworth that he doesn’t need to worry about mentioning poor Dick around me, because I would actually enjoy hearing him talked about by such a good friend.”
Charles, being somewhat more mindful of the probabilities of the case, only nodded in reply, and walked away.
Charles, being a bit more aware of the situation, just nodded in response and walked away.
The girls were now hunting for the Laconia; and Captain Wentworth could not deny himself the pleasure of taking the precious volume into his own hands to save them the trouble, and once more read aloud the little statement of her name and rate, and present non-commissioned class, observing over it that she too had been one of the best friends man ever had.
The girls were now searching for the Laconia, and Captain Wentworth couldn’t resist the joy of holding the cherished book himself to spare them the hassle. He read aloud the brief description of its name, type, and current non-commissioned status, noting that it had been one of the best friends a person could ever have.
“Ah! those were pleasant days when I had the Laconia! How fast I made money in her. A friend of mine and I had such a lovely cruise together off the Western Islands. Poor Harville, sister! You know how much he wanted money: worse than myself. He had a wife. Excellent fellow. I shall never forget his happiness. He felt it all, so much for her sake. I wished for him again the next summer, when I had still the same luck in the Mediterranean.”
“Ah! those were great days when I had the Laconia! I made money so quickly with her. A friend and I had such a wonderful cruise together off the Western Islands. Poor Harville, sis! You know how much he needed money: more than I did. He had a wife. What a great guy. I’ll never forget his happiness. He felt it all, so much for her sake. I hoped for him again the next summer when I still had the same luck in the Mediterranean.”
“And I am sure, Sir,” said Mrs Musgrove, “it was a lucky day for us, when you were put captain into that ship. We shall never forget what you did.”
“And I’m sure, Sir,” Mrs. Musgrove said, “it was a lucky day for us when you became the captain of that ship. We will never forget what you did.”
Her feelings made her speak low; and Captain Wentworth, hearing only in part, and probably not having Dick Musgrove at all near his thoughts, looked rather in suspense, and as if waiting for more.
Her emotions caused her to speak softly; and Captain Wentworth, hearing only part of what she said, and likely not having Dick Musgrove anywhere in his thoughts, looked somewhat uncertain, as if he was waiting for more.
“My brother,” whispered one of the girls; “mamma is thinking of poor Richard.”
“My brother,” whispered one of the girls, “Mom is thinking about poor Richard.”
“Poor dear fellow!” continued Mrs Musgrove; “he was grown so steady, and such an excellent correspondent, while he was under your care! Ah! it would have been a happy thing, if he had never left you. I assure you, Captain Wentworth, we are very sorry he ever left you.”
“Poor dear fellow!” Mrs. Musgrove continued. “He became so reliable and such a great communicator while he was with you! Oh, it would have been so much better if he had never left your side. I promise you, Captain Wentworth, we really regret that he ever left you.”
There was a momentary expression in Captain Wentworth’s face at this speech, a certain glance of his bright eye, and curl of his handsome mouth, which convinced Anne, that instead of sharing in Mrs Musgrove’s kind wishes, as to her son, he had probably been at some pains to get rid of him; but it was too transient an indulgence of self-amusement to be detected by any who understood him less than herself; in another moment he was perfectly collected and serious, and almost instantly afterwards coming up to the sofa, on which she and Mrs Musgrove were sitting, took a place by the latter, and entered into conversation with her, in a low voice, about her son, doing it with so much sympathy and natural grace, as shewed the kindest consideration for all that was real and unabsurd in the parent’s feelings.
Captain Wentworth had a brief expression on his face when he heard this. A quick glance from his bright eyes and a slight curl of his handsome mouth convinced Anne that, rather than sharing in Mrs. Musgrove's good wishes for her son, he had likely gone to some lengths to avoid him. However, this moment of self-amusement was too fleeting for anyone but Anne to notice. In another instant, he was completely composed and serious. Almost immediately after, he approached the sofa where she and Mrs. Musgrove were sitting, took a seat next to Mrs. Musgrove, and began a quiet conversation with her about her son. He did so with such sympathy and natural grace that it showed he was genuinely considerate of the parent's feelings.
They were actually on the same sofa, for Mrs Musgrove had most readily made room for him; they were divided only by Mrs Musgrove. It was no insignificant barrier, indeed. Mrs Musgrove was of a comfortable, substantial size, infinitely more fitted by nature to express good cheer and good humour, than tenderness and sentiment; and while the agitations of Anne’s slender form, and pensive face, may be considered as very completely screened, Captain Wentworth should be allowed some credit for the self-command with which he attended to her large fat sighings over the destiny of a son, whom alive nobody had cared for.
They were actually sitting on the same sofa, since Mrs. Musgrove had quickly made space for him; the only thing separating them was Mrs. Musgrove. It was quite a substantial barrier. Mrs. Musgrove was comfortably large, much better suited by nature to express cheerfulness and humor than tenderness and emotion; and while Anne’s slender figure and thoughtful face were mostly hidden, Captain Wentworth deserved some credit for the self-control with which he listened to her heavy sighs about the fate of a son whom no one had cared about when he was alive.
Personal size and mental sorrow have certainly no necessary proportions. A large bulky figure has as good a right to be in deep affliction, as the most graceful set of limbs in the world. But, fair or not fair, there are unbecoming conjunctions, which reason will patronize in vain—which taste cannot tolerate—which ridicule will seize.
Personal size and mental anguish don't have to match up at all. A big, hefty person has just as much right to feel deep sadness as someone with the most graceful body. However, whether it's fair or not, there are awkward combinations that reason tries to defend in vain, that taste can’t stand, and that ridicule will latch onto.
The Admiral, after taking two or three refreshing turns about the room with his hands behind him, being called to order by his wife, now came up to Captain Wentworth, and without any observation of what he might be interrupting, thinking only of his own thoughts, began with—
The Admiral, after making a couple of laps around the room with his hands behind his back, being called to order by his wife, approached Captain Wentworth. Without considering what he might be interrupting, focused solely on his own thoughts, he started with—
“If you had been a week later at Lisbon, last spring, Frederick, you would have been asked to give a passage to Lady Mary Grierson and her daughters.”
“If you had been a week later in Lisbon last spring, Frederick, you would have been asked to give a ride to Lady Mary Grierson and her daughters.”
“Should I? I am glad I was not a week later then.”
“Should I? I'm glad I wasn't a week later then.”
The Admiral abused him for his want of gallantry. He defended himself; though professing that he would never willingly admit any ladies on board a ship of his, excepting for a ball, or a visit, which a few hours might comprehend.
The Admiral criticized him for his lack of chivalry. He defended himself, claiming that he would never willingly allow any women on his ship, except for a ball or a short visit that could last a few hours.
“But, if I know myself,” said he, “this is from no want of gallantry towards them. It is rather from feeling how impossible it is, with all one’s efforts, and all one’s sacrifices, to make the accommodations on board such as women ought to have. There can be no want of gallantry, Admiral, in rating the claims of women to every personal comfort high, and this is what I do. I hate to hear of women on board, or to see them on board; and no ship under my command shall ever convey a family of ladies anywhere, if I can help it.”
“But if I know myself,” he said, “this isn’t due to a lack of respect for them. It’s more about realizing how impossible it is, despite all one’s efforts and sacrifices, to provide the accommodations on board that women deserve. There can be no lack of respect, Admiral, in valuing women’s claims to every personal comfort high, and that’s exactly what I do. I can’t stand to hear about women on board, or to see them on board; and no ship under my command will ever carry a family of ladies anywhere, if I can help it.”
This brought his sister upon him.
This brought his sister to him.
“Oh! Frederick! But I cannot believe it of you.—All idle refinement!—Women may be as comfortable on board, as in the best house in England. I believe I have lived as much on board as most women, and I know nothing superior to the accommodations of a man-of-war. I declare I have not a comfort or an indulgence about me, even at Kellynch Hall,” (with a kind bow to Anne), “beyond what I always had in most of the ships I have lived in; and they have been five altogether.”
“Oh! Frederick! I can't believe you would say that.—Such nonsense!—Women can be just as comfortable on a ship as in the finest house in England. I think I’ve spent as much time on ships as most women, and I know nothing better than the comforts of a man-of-war. Honestly, I lack any comfort or luxury here, even at Kellynch Hall,” (with a polite nod to Anne), “beyond what I've always had on most of the ships I've lived on; and there have been five in total.”
“Nothing to the purpose,” replied her brother. “You were living with your husband, and were the only woman on board.”
“That's not relevant,” her brother replied. “You were living with your husband, and you were the only woman on board.”
“But you, yourself, brought Mrs Harville, her sister, her cousin, and three children, round from Portsmouth to Plymouth. Where was this superfine, extraordinary sort of gallantry of yours then?”
“But you brought Mrs. Harville, her sister, her cousin, and three kids from Portsmouth to Plymouth yourself. Where was this amazing, extraordinary gallantry of yours at that time?”
“All merged in my friendship, Sophia. I would assist any brother officer’s wife that I could, and I would bring anything of Harville’s from the world’s end, if he wanted it. But do not imagine that I did not feel it an evil in itself.”
“All merged in my friendship, Sophia. I would help any fellow officer’s wife that I could, and I would bring anything of Harville’s from the ends of the earth, if he needed it. But don’t think that I didn’t see it as a problem in itself.”
“Depend upon it, they were all perfectly comfortable.”
“Count on it, they were all completely comfortable.”
“I might not like them the better for that perhaps. Such a number of women and children have no right to be comfortable on board.”
“I might not like them more for that, maybe. So many women and children have no right to be comfortable on board.”
“My dear Frederick, you are talking quite idly. Pray, what would become of us poor sailors’ wives, who often want to be conveyed to one port or another, after our husbands, if everybody had your feelings?”
“My dear Frederick, you’re talking nonsense. Seriously, what would happen to us poor sailors’ wives, who often need to be taken to one port or another to be with our husbands, if everyone thought like you?”
“My feelings, you see, did not prevent my taking Mrs Harville and all her family to Plymouth.”
"My feelings, you see, didn’t stop me from taking Mrs. Harville and her whole family to Plymouth."
“But I hate to hear you talking so like a fine gentleman, and as if women were all fine ladies, instead of rational creatures. We none of us expect to be in smooth water all our days.”
“But I hate to hear you talk like a fancy gentleman, as if all women were delicate ladies instead of sensible people. None of us expect to be in calm waters all our lives.”
“Ah! my dear,” said the Admiral, “when he has got a wife, he will sing a different tune. When he is married, if we have the good luck to live to another war, we shall see him do as you and I, and a great many others, have done. We shall have him very thankful to anybody that will bring him his wife.”
“Ah! my dear,” said the Admiral, “once he gets a wife, he’ll act completely differently. When he’s married, if we’re lucky enough to live to see another war, we’ll watch him do what you and I, along with many others, have done. He’ll be really grateful to anyone who helps bring him his wife.”
“Ay, that we shall.”
"Yes, we will."
“Now I have done,” cried Captain Wentworth. “When once married people begin to attack me with,—‘Oh! you will think very differently, when you are married.’ I can only say, ‘No, I shall not;’ and then they say again, ‘Yes, you will,’ and there is an end of it.”
“Now I’m done,” cried Captain Wentworth. “When married people start telling me, ‘Oh! You’ll feel totally different once you’re married,’ I can only say, ‘No, I won’t;’ and then they reply again, ‘Yes, you will,’ and that’s that.”
He got up and moved away.
He got up and walked away.
“What a great traveller you must have been, ma’am!” said Mrs Musgrove to Mrs Croft.
“What a great traveler you must have been, ma'am!” said Mrs. Musgrove to Mrs. Croft.
“Pretty well, ma’am, in the fifteen years of my marriage; though many women have done more. I have crossed the Atlantic four times, and have been once to the East Indies, and back again, and only once; besides being in different places about home: Cork, and Lisbon, and Gibraltar. But I never went beyond the Streights, and never was in the West Indies. We do not call Bermuda or Bahama, you know, the West Indies.”
“Pretty good, ma’am, in the fifteen years I've been married; although many women have done more. I’ve crossed the Atlantic four times and visited the East Indies once, and just once; along with spending time in different places nearby: Cork, Lisbon, and Gibraltar. But I’ve never gone beyond the Straits and have never been to the West Indies. We don’t consider Bermuda or the Bahamas, you know, as the West Indies.”
Mrs Musgrove had not a word to say in dissent; she could not accuse herself of having ever called them anything in the whole course of her life.
Mrs. Musgrove had nothing to say in disagreement; she couldn’t blame herself for ever having called them anything throughout her entire life.
“And I do assure you, ma’am,” pursued Mrs Croft, “that nothing can exceed the accommodations of a man-of-war; I speak, you know, of the higher rates. When you come to a frigate, of course, you are more confined; though any reasonable woman may be perfectly happy in one of them; and I can safely say, that the happiest part of my life has been spent on board a ship. While we were together, you know, there was nothing to be feared. Thank God! I have always been blessed with excellent health, and no climate disagrees with me. A little disordered always the first twenty-four hours of going to sea, but never knew what sickness was afterwards. The only time I ever really suffered in body or mind, the only time that I ever fancied myself unwell, or had any ideas of danger, was the winter that I passed by myself at Deal, when the Admiral (Captain Croft then) was in the North Seas. I lived in perpetual fright at that time, and had all manner of imaginary complaints from not knowing what to do with myself, or when I should hear from him next; but as long as we could be together, nothing ever ailed me, and I never met with the smallest inconvenience.”
“And I assure you, ma’am,” continued Mrs. Croft, “that nothing beats the accommodations of a warship; I’m talking about the higher ranks, of course. When you’re on a frigate, you’re a bit more limited; however, any reasonable woman can be perfectly happy on one. I can honestly say that the happiest times in my life have been spent on board a ship. When we were together, there was nothing to fear. Thank God! I’ve always enjoyed great health, and no climate bothers me. I feel a little off for the first twenty-four hours at sea, but I’ve never truly known sickness after that. The only time I really struggled, either physically or mentally, was the winter I spent alone at Deal while the Admiral (Captain Croft back then) was in the North Seas. I lived in constant fear at that time, creating all sorts of imaginary ailments because I didn’t know what to do with myself or when I’d hear from him next; but as long as we could be together, I never felt unwell, and I never faced the slightest inconvenience.”
“Aye, to be sure. Yes, indeed, oh yes! I am quite of your opinion, Mrs Croft,” was Mrs Musgrove’s hearty answer. “There is nothing so bad as a separation. I am quite of your opinion. I know what it is, for Mr Musgrove always attends the assizes, and I am so glad when they are over, and he is safe back again.”
“Yes, absolutely! I completely agree with you, Mrs. Croft,” was Mrs. Musgrove’s enthusiastic response. “There’s nothing worse than a separation. I completely agree. I know what it feels like because Mr. Musgrove always goes to the court sessions, and I’m so relieved when they’re over and he’s back home safe.”
The evening ended with dancing. On its being proposed, Anne offered her services, as usual; and though her eyes would sometimes fill with tears as she sat at the instrument, she was extremely glad to be employed, and desired nothing in return but to be unobserved.
The evening wrapped up with dancing. When it was suggested, Anne volunteered to play, as she always did; and even though her eyes would occasionally brim with tears while she was at the piano, she was really happy to be involved and wanted nothing in return except to remain unnoticed.
It was a merry, joyous party, and no one seemed in higher spirits than Captain Wentworth. She felt that he had every thing to elevate him which general attention and deference, and especially the attention of all the young women, could do. The Miss Hayters, the females of the family of cousins already mentioned, were apparently admitted to the honour of being in love with him; and as for Henrietta and Louisa, they both seemed so entirely occupied by him, that nothing but the continued appearance of the most perfect good-will between themselves could have made it credible that they were not decided rivals. If he were a little spoilt by such universal, such eager admiration, who could wonder?
It was a cheerful, lively party, and no one looked happier than Captain Wentworth. She could see that he had everything to boost his spirits—everyone’s attention and respect, especially from all the young women. The Miss Hayters, the female cousins already mentioned, seemed to be honored with the title of being in love with him; as for Henrietta and Louisa, they both seemed so completely focused on him that the ongoing display of perfect goodwill between them was the only thing that made it believable they weren’t fierce rivals. If he was a little spoiled by such widespread and eager admiration, who could blame him?
These were some of the thoughts which occupied Anne, while her fingers were mechanically at work, proceeding for half an hour together, equally without error, and without consciousness. Once she felt that he was looking at herself, observing her altered features, perhaps, trying to trace in them the ruins of the face which had once charmed him; and once she knew that he must have spoken of her; she was hardly aware of it, till she heard the answer; but then she was sure of his having asked his partner whether Miss Elliot never danced? The answer was, “Oh, no; never; she has quite given up dancing. She had rather play. She is never tired of playing.” Once, too, he spoke to her. She had left the instrument on the dancing being over, and he had sat down to try to make out an air which he wished to give the Miss Musgroves an idea of. Unintentionally she returned to that part of the room; he saw her, and, instantly rising, said, with studied politeness—
These were some of the thoughts that occupied Anne while her fingers worked mechanically for half an hour, equally without error and without awareness. Once, she felt him looking at her, noting her changed features, perhaps trying to find traces of the face that had once captivated him; and once, she realized he must have mentioned her. She hardly noticed it until she heard the response, but then she was sure he had asked his partner whether Miss Elliot never danced. The answer was, “Oh, no; never; she has completely given up dancing. She would rather play. She never gets tired of playing.” Once, too, he spoke to her. She had left the instrument after the dancing was over, and he had sat down to try to figure out a tune to share with the Miss Musgroves. Unintentionally, she returned to that part of the room; he saw her and, immediately rising, said with careful politeness—
“I beg your pardon, madam, this is your seat;” and though she immediately drew back with a decided negative, he was not to be induced to sit down again.
“I’m sorry, ma'am, this is your seat;” and even though she quickly pulled away with a firm no, he wasn’t going to be persuaded to sit down again.
Anne did not wish for more of such looks and speeches. His cold politeness, his ceremonious grace, were worse than anything.
Anne didn't want any more of those kinds of looks and comments. His icy politeness and formal grace were worse than anything.
CHAPTER IX.
Captain Wentworth was come to Kellynch as to a home, to stay as long as he liked, being as thoroughly the object of the Admiral’s fraternal kindness as of his wife’s. He had intended, on first arriving, to proceed very soon into Shropshire, and visit the brother settled in that country, but the attractions of Uppercross induced him to put this off. There was so much of friendliness, and of flattery, and of everything most bewitching in his reception there; the old were so hospitable, the young so agreeable, that he could not but resolve to remain where he was, and take all the charms and perfections of Edward’s wife upon credit a little longer.
Captain Wentworth had come to Kellynch like it was home, planning to stay as long as he wanted, being just as much the focus of the Admiral's brotherly kindness as he was of his wife’s. When he first arrived, he had planned to head to Shropshire soon to visit his brother who lived there, but the charm of Uppercross made him delay that. The friendliness, flattery, and everything enchanting about his welcome were so strong; the older folks were so warm and inviting, and the younger ones so pleasant that he couldn’t help but decide to stay where he was a bit longer, enjoying all the charms and qualities of Edward's wife for just a little while more.
It was soon Uppercross with him almost every day. The Musgroves could hardly be more ready to invite than he to come, particularly in the morning, when he had no companion at home, for the Admiral and Mrs Croft were generally out of doors together, interesting themselves in their new possessions, their grass, and their sheep, and dawdling about in a way not endurable to a third person, or driving out in a gig, lately added to their establishment.
It wasn't long before he was at Uppercross almost every day. The Musgroves were always very eager to invite him over, especially in the mornings when he didn't have anyone with him at home, since Admiral and Mrs. Croft were usually outside together, enjoying their new place, their lawn, and their sheep, and they were wandering around in a way that was unbearable for a third party, or taking short drives in a newly added gig.
Hitherto there had been but one opinion of Captain Wentworth among the Musgroves and their dependencies. It was unvarying, warm admiration everywhere; but this intimate footing was not more than established, when a certain Charles Hayter returned among them, to be a good deal disturbed by it, and to think Captain Wentworth very much in the way.
So far, there had been only one opinion of Captain Wentworth among the Musgroves and their circle. It was consistent, warm admiration all around; but just as this close connection was formed, a certain Charles Hayter came back into their lives, felt quite unsettled by it, and thought Captain Wentworth was really in the way.
Charles Hayter was the eldest of all the cousins, and a very amiable, pleasing young man, between whom and Henrietta there had been a considerable appearance of attachment previous to Captain Wentworth’s introduction. He was in orders; and having a curacy in the neighbourhood, where residence was not required, lived at his father’s house, only two miles from Uppercross. A short absence from home had left his fair one unguarded by his attentions at this critical period, and when he came back he had the pain of finding very altered manners, and of seeing Captain Wentworth.
Charles Hayter was the oldest of all the cousins and a very friendly, pleasant young man. He had shown considerable affection for Henrietta before Captain Wentworth arrived. He was in the clergy and had a curacy nearby, where he wasn’t required to live, so he stayed at his father's house just two miles from Uppercross. A short time away from home had left his beloved unprotected by his attention during this crucial moment, and when he returned, he was hurt to find her behavior had changed and to see Captain Wentworth.
Mrs Musgrove and Mrs Hayter were sisters. They had each had money, but their marriages had made a material difference in their degree of consequence. Mr Hayter had some property of his own, but it was insignificant compared with Mr Musgrove’s; and while the Musgroves were in the first class of society in the country, the young Hayters would, from their parents’ inferior, retired, and unpolished way of living, and their own defective education, have been hardly in any class at all, but for their connexion with Uppercross, this eldest son of course excepted, who had chosen to be a scholar and a gentleman, and who was very superior in cultivation and manners to all the rest.
Mrs. Musgrove and Mrs. Hayter were sisters. They both had money, but their marriages changed their social standing significantly. Mr. Hayter owned some property, but it was minor compared to Mr. Musgrove’s. While the Musgroves were part of the upper class in society, the younger Hayters, due to their parents’ lower, secluded, and unsophisticated lifestyle, as well as their own lack of education, would barely belong to any social class at all, if not for their connection to Uppercross, with the exception of their oldest son, who had decided to become a scholar and a gentleman and who was much more refined in both education and manners than the rest.
The two families had always been on excellent terms, there being no pride on one side, and no envy on the other, and only such a consciousness of superiority in the Miss Musgroves, as made them pleased to improve their cousins. Charles’s attentions to Henrietta had been observed by her father and mother without any disapprobation. “It would not be a great match for her; but if Henrietta liked him,”—and Henrietta did seem to like him.
The two families had always gotten along well, with no pride on one side and no envy on the other, just a sense of superiority in the Miss Musgroves that made them happy to support their cousins. Charles's interest in Henrietta had been noticed by her parents without any disapproval. "It wouldn't be a great match for her, but if Henrietta liked him,"—and Henrietta did seem to like him.
Henrietta fully thought so herself, before Captain Wentworth came; but from that time Cousin Charles had been very much forgotten.
Henrietta believed that herself before Captain Wentworth arrived; but since then, Cousin Charles had been largely forgotten.
Which of the two sisters was preferred by Captain Wentworth was as yet quite doubtful, as far as Anne’s observation reached. Henrietta was perhaps the prettiest, Louisa had the higher spirits; and she knew not now, whether the more gentle or the more lively character were most likely to attract him.
Which sister Captain Wentworth preferred was still uncertain, at least from what Anne could see. Henrietta was probably the prettiest, while Louisa had a more cheerful personality; Anne wasn’t sure now whether he would be drawn to someone more gentle or someone more lively.
Mr and Mrs Musgrove, either from seeing little, or from an entire confidence in the discretion of both their daughters, and of all the young men who came near them, seemed to leave everything to take its chance. There was not the smallest appearance of solicitude or remark about them in the Mansion-house; but it was different at the Cottage: the young couple there were more disposed to speculate and wonder; and Captain Wentworth had not been above four or five times in the Miss Musgroves’ company, and Charles Hayter had but just reappeared, when Anne had to listen to the opinions of her brother and sister, as to which was the one liked best. Charles gave it for Louisa, Mary for Henrietta, but quite agreeing that to have him marry either could be extremely delightful.
Mr. and Mrs. Musgrove, either because they saw little or completely trusted their daughters and the young men around them, seemed to let everything unfold as it would. There was no sign of concern or comment about them at the Mansion House; however, it was different at the Cottage: the young couple there were more likely to speculate and wonder. Captain Wentworth had been around the Miss Musgroves only four or five times, and Charles Hayter had only just reappeared when Anne had to hear her brother and sister debating which one they liked best. Charles favored Louisa, while Mary preferred Henrietta, but they both agreed that it would be absolutely wonderful for him to marry either one.
Charles “had never seen a pleasanter man in his life; and from what he had once heard Captain Wentworth himself say, was very sure that he had not made less than twenty thousand pounds by the war. Here was a fortune at once; besides which, there would be the chance of what might be done in any future war; and he was sure Captain Wentworth was as likely a man to distinguish himself as any officer in the navy. Oh! it would be a capital match for either of his sisters.”
Charles had never met a nicer guy in his life; and from what he had heard Captain Wentworth himself say, he was pretty sure he had made at least twenty thousand pounds from the war. That was a fortune right there; plus, there was the possibility of what could happen in any future war, and he was confident Captain Wentworth was just as likely to stand out as any officer in the navy. Oh! It would be a great match for either of his sisters.
“Upon my word it would,” replied Mary. “Dear me! If he should rise to any very great honours! If he should ever be made a baronet! ‘Lady Wentworth’ sounds very well. That would be a noble thing, indeed, for Henrietta! She would take place of me then, and Henrietta would not dislike that. Sir Frederick and Lady Wentworth! It would be but a new creation, however, and I never think much of your new creations.”
"Of course it would," replied Mary. "Oh my! What if he were to achieve some really high honors! If he ever became a baronet! ‘Lady Wentworth’ sounds pretty impressive. That would be quite something for Henrietta! She would take my place, and I don’t think Henrietta would mind that at all. Sir Frederick and Lady Wentworth! But it would just be a new title, and I'm not a big fan of those new titles."
It suited Mary best to think Henrietta the one preferred on the very account of Charles Hayter, whose pretensions she wished to see put an end to. She looked down very decidedly upon the Hayters, and thought it would be quite a misfortune to have the existing connection between the families renewed—very sad for herself and her children.
It suited Mary best to think of Henrietta as the one preferred, especially because of Charles Hayter, whose claims she wanted to see put to rest. She looked down on the Hayters and believed it would be a huge mistake to renew the connection between the families—very unfortunate for herself and her children.
“You know,” said she, “I cannot think him at all a fit match for Henrietta; and considering the alliances which the Musgroves have made, she has no right to throw herself away. I do not think any young woman has a right to make a choice that may be disagreeable and inconvenient to the principal part of her family, and be giving bad connections to those who have not been used to them. And, pray, who is Charles Hayter? Nothing but a country curate. A most improper match for Miss Musgrove of Uppercross.”
“You know,” she said, “I just can’t see him as a suitable match for Henrietta. Given the connections the Musgroves have, she shouldn't settle for less. I don’t believe any young woman has the right to make a choice that could be awkward and inconvenient for the main part of her family, especially when it would bring bad connections to those who aren't used to it. And, seriously, who is Charles Hayter? Just a country curate. Definitely not a proper match for Miss Musgrove of Uppercross.”
Her husband, however, would not agree with her here; for besides having a regard for his cousin, Charles Hayter was an eldest son, and he saw things as an eldest son himself.
Her husband, however, didn’t see it that way; besides having a fondness for his cousin, Charles Hayter was the oldest son, and he viewed things from the perspective of an oldest son.
“Now you are talking nonsense, Mary,” was therefore his answer. “It would not be a great match for Henrietta, but Charles has a very fair chance, through the Spicers, of getting something from the Bishop in the course of a year or two; and you will please to remember, that he is the eldest son; whenever my uncle dies, he steps into very pretty property. The estate at Winthrop is not less than two hundred and fifty acres, besides the farm near Taunton, which is some of the best land in the country. I grant you, that any of them but Charles would be a very shocking match for Henrietta, and indeed it could not be; he is the only one that could be possible; but he is a very good-natured, good sort of a fellow; and whenever Winthrop comes into his hands, he will make a different sort of place of it, and live in a very different sort of way; and with that property, he will never be a contemptible man—good, freehold property. No, no; Henrietta might do worse than marry Charles Hayter; and if she has him, and Louisa can get Captain Wentworth, I shall be very well satisfied.”
“Now you're just talking nonsense, Mary,” was his reply. “It might not be a great match for Henrietta, but Charles has a decent chance, through the Spicers, of getting something from the Bishop in a year or two; and you should remember that he is the eldest son; when my uncle passes away, he will inherit a very nice property. The estate at Winthrop is at least two hundred and fifty acres, not to mention the farm near Taunton, which has some of the best land in the area. I’ll admit, any of them but Charles would be a terrible match for Henrietta, and it really couldn't be; he’s the only one who could be a possibility; but he’s a really good-natured, decent guy; and when Winthrop is his, he’ll transform it and live in a very different way; with that property, he’ll never be looked down upon—good, freehold property. No, no; Henrietta could do worse than marry Charles Hayter; and if she ends up with him and Louisa can get Captain Wentworth, I’ll be very satisfied.”
“Charles may say what he pleases,” cried Mary to Anne, as soon as he was out of the room, “but it would be shocking to have Henrietta marry Charles Hayter; a very bad thing for her, and still worse for me; and therefore it is very much to be wished that Captain Wentworth may soon put him quite out of her head, and I have very little doubt that he has. She took hardly any notice of Charles Hayter yesterday. I wish you had been there to see her behaviour. And as to Captain Wentworth’s liking Louisa as well as Henrietta, it is nonsense to say so; for he certainly does like Henrietta a great deal the best. But Charles is so positive! I wish you had been with us yesterday, for then you might have decided between us; and I am sure you would have thought as I did, unless you had been determined to give it against me.”
“Charles can say whatever he wants,” Mary told Anne as soon as he left the room, “but it would be awful for Henrietta to marry Charles Hayter; a really bad situation for her, and even worse for me; so I really hope that Captain Wentworth can soon make her forget him, and I have no doubt that he has. She barely noticed Charles Hayter yesterday. I wish you had been there to see how she acted. And as for Captain Wentworth liking Louisa as much as Henrietta, that’s ridiculous; he definitely does like Henrietta a lot more. But Charles is so stubborn! I wish you had joined us yesterday, because then you could have settled the matter; and I’m sure you would have agreed with me, unless you were set on arguing against me.”
A dinner at Mr Musgrove’s had been the occasion when all these things should have been seen by Anne; but she had staid at home, under the mixed plea of a headache of her own, and some return of indisposition in little Charles. She had thought only of avoiding Captain Wentworth; but an escape from being appealed to as umpire was now added to the advantages of a quiet evening.
A dinner at Mr. Musgrove’s was supposed to be the time when Anne could have seen all these things, but she stayed home, partly because of her own headache and partly due to a relapse of illness in little Charles. She had only been focused on avoiding Captain Wentworth, but now the chance to avoid being asked to mediate also became a benefit of a peaceful evening.
As to Captain Wentworth’s views, she deemed it of more consequence that he should know his own mind early enough not to be endangering the happiness of either sister, or impeaching his own honour, than that he should prefer Henrietta to Louisa, or Louisa to Henrietta. Either of them would, in all probability, make him an affectionate, good-humoured wife. With regard to Charles Hayter, she had delicacy which must be pained by any lightness of conduct in a well-meaning young woman, and a heart to sympathize in any of the sufferings it occasioned; but if Henrietta found herself mistaken in the nature of her feelings, the alteration could not be understood too soon.
As for Captain Wentworth’s opinions, she thought it was more important for him to figure out what he really wanted early enough to avoid complicating the happiness of either sister or damaging his own integrity, rather than choosing Henrietta over Louisa or vice versa. Either one of them would likely make him a loving and cheerful wife. Regarding Charles Hayter, she felt a sensitivity that would be hurt by any carefree behavior from a well-intentioned young woman, and she had the compassion to empathize with the problems that might arise from it; but if Henrietta realized she was mistaken about her feelings, it was best that he understood the change as soon as possible.
Charles Hayter had met with much to disquiet and mortify him in his cousin’s behaviour. She had too old a regard for him to be so wholly estranged as might in two meetings extinguish every past hope, and leave him nothing to do but to keep away from Uppercross: but there was such a change as became very alarming, when such a man as Captain Wentworth was to be regarded as the probable cause. He had been absent only two Sundays, and when they parted, had left her interested, even to the height of his wishes, in his prospect of soon quitting his present curacy, and obtaining that of Uppercross instead. It had then seemed the object nearest her heart, that Dr Shirley, the rector, who for more than forty years had been zealously discharging all the duties of his office, but was now growing too infirm for many of them, should be quite fixed on engaging a curate; should make his curacy quite as good as he could afford, and should give Charles Hayter the promise of it. The advantage of his having to come only to Uppercross, instead of going six miles another way; of his having, in every respect, a better curacy; of his belonging to their dear Dr Shirley, and of dear, good Dr Shirley’s being relieved from the duty which he could no longer get through without most injurious fatigue, had been a great deal, even to Louisa, but had been almost everything to Henrietta. When he came back, alas! the zeal of the business was gone by. Louisa could not listen at all to his account of a conversation which he had just held with Dr Shirley: she was at a window, looking out for Captain Wentworth; and even Henrietta had at best only a divided attention to give, and seemed to have forgotten all the former doubt and solicitude of the negotiation.
Charles Hayter was deeply troubled and embarrassed by his cousin’s behavior. She had cared for him too much to be so completely distant that just two meetings could wipe out all past hopes, leaving him with no choice but to avoid Uppercross. But there was such a striking change that it became very concerning, especially considering that someone like Captain Wentworth was likely the cause. He had been away for only two Sundays, and when they last parted, she had seemed genuinely interested in his hopes of soon leaving his current curacy and taking over the one in Uppercross instead. It had appeared to be her greatest wish that Dr. Shirley, the rector, who had diligently fulfilled his duties for over forty years but was now becoming too frail for many of them, should definitely engage a curate; should make his curacy as good as he could afford, and should promise it to Charles Hayter. The benefits of him coming only to Uppercross instead of traveling six miles in another direction; of having a significantly better curacy; of being associated with their beloved Dr. Shirley, and of dear, kind Dr. Shirley being relieved from the duties he could no longer manage without extreme fatigue, had meant a lot to Louisa, but practically everything to Henrietta. Unfortunately, when he returned, the enthusiasm for the matter had faded. Louisa couldn’t pay any attention to his account of a conversation he’d just had with Dr. Shirley; she was at the window, looking out for Captain Wentworth. Even Henrietta seemed only partially attentive and appeared to have forgotten all her previous doubts and worries about the situation.
“Well, I am very glad indeed: but I always thought you would have it; I always thought you sure. It did not appear to me that—in short, you know, Dr Shirley must have a curate, and you had secured his promise. Is he coming, Louisa?”
“Well, I’m really glad to hear that! I always thought you would get it; I was sure of it. It never seemed to me that—in short, you know, Dr. Shirley must have a curate, and you had his promise secured. Is he coming, Louisa?”
One morning, very soon after the dinner at the Musgroves, at which Anne had not been present, Captain Wentworth walked into the drawing-room at the Cottage, where were only herself and the little invalid Charles, who was lying on the sofa.
One morning, shortly after the dinner at the Musgroves, which Anne had missed, Captain Wentworth walked into the living room at the Cottage, where only she and the little invalid Charles were, lying on the sofa.
The surprise of finding himself almost alone with Anne Elliot, deprived his manners of their usual composure: he started, and could only say, “I thought the Miss Musgroves had been here: Mrs Musgrove told me I should find them here,” before he walked to the window to recollect himself, and feel how he ought to behave.
The shock of discovering he was almost alone with Anne Elliot threw him off his usual calm demeanor: he jumped and could only manage, “I thought the Miss Musgroves would be here: Mrs. Musgrove told me I would find them here,” before he walked over to the window to collect his thoughts and figure out how to act.
“They are up stairs with my sister: they will be down in a few moments, I dare say,” had been Anne’s reply, in all the confusion that was natural; and if the child had not called her to come and do something for him, she would have been out of the room the next moment, and released Captain Wentworth as well as herself.
“They’re upstairs with my sister; they’ll be down in a few moments, I’m sure,” was Anne’s response, amidst the natural chaos. If the child hadn’t called for her to help him, she would have left the room right away, freeing Captain Wentworth and herself as well.
He continued at the window; and after calmly and politely saying, “I hope the little boy is better,” was silent.
He stayed by the window, and after saying calmly and politely, “I hope the little boy is doing better,” he fell silent.
She was obliged to kneel down by the sofa, and remain there to satisfy her patient; and thus they continued a few minutes, when, to her very great satisfaction, she heard some other person crossing the little vestibule. She hoped, on turning her head, to see the master of the house; but it proved to be one much less calculated for making matters easy—Charles Hayter, probably not at all better pleased by the sight of Captain Wentworth than Captain Wentworth had been by the sight of Anne.
She had to kneel down by the sofa and stay there to keep her patient happy; they remained that way for a few minutes until, to her great relief, she heard someone else crossing the small hallway. She hoped that when she turned her head, she would see the owner of the house, but it turned out to be someone who wouldn’t help the situation much—Charles Hayter, who was probably just as unhappy to see Captain Wentworth as Captain Wentworth had been to see Anne.
She only attempted to say, “How do you do? Will you not sit down? The others will be here presently.”
She just tried to say, “How’s it going? Won’t you take a seat? The others will be here soon.”
Captain Wentworth, however, came from his window, apparently not ill-disposed for conversation; but Charles Hayter soon put an end to his attempts by seating himself near the table, and taking up the newspaper; and Captain Wentworth returned to his window.
Captain Wentworth, however, left his window, seeming open to conversation; but Charles Hayter quickly shut down his efforts by sitting close to the table and picking up the newspaper, so Captain Wentworth went back to his window.
Another minute brought another addition. The younger boy, a remarkable stout, forward child, of two years old, having got the door opened for him by some one without, made his determined appearance among them, and went straight to the sofa to see what was going on, and put in his claim to anything good that might be giving away.
Another minute added to the crowd. The younger boy, a notably chubby and bold two-year-old, managed to get the door opened by someone outside. He confidently walked in and headed straight to the sofa to check out what was happening, ready to claim anything good that might be up for grabs.
There being nothing to eat, he could only have some play; and as his aunt would not let him tease his sick brother, he began to fasten himself upon her, as she knelt, in such a way that, busy as she was about Charles, she could not shake him off. She spoke to him, ordered, entreated, and insisted in vain. Once she did contrive to push him away, but the boy had the greater pleasure in getting upon her back again directly.
With nothing to eat, he could only play; and since his aunt wouldn’t let him bother his sick brother, he started to cling to her while she knelt, making it so that, no matter how busy she was with Charles, she couldn't get rid of him. She spoke to him, commanded, pleaded, and insisted, but it was all in vain. Once she managed to push him away, but the boy took even more pleasure in climbing back onto her back right away.
“Walter,” said she, “get down this moment. You are extremely troublesome. I am very angry with you.”
“Walter,” she said, “get down right now. You’re being really annoying. I’m very mad at you.”
“Walter,” cried Charles Hayter, “why do you not do as you are bid? Do not you hear your aunt speak? Come to me, Walter, come to cousin Charles.”
“Walter,” shouted Charles Hayter, “why aren’t you doing what you're told? Don’t you hear your aunt talking? Come to me, Walter, come to cousin Charles.”
But not a bit did Walter stir.
But Walter didn't move at all.
In another moment, however, she found herself in the state of being released from him; some one was taking him from her, though he had bent down her head so much, that his little sturdy hands were unfastened from around her neck, and he was resolutely borne away, before she knew that Captain Wentworth had done it.
In another moment, though, she realized she was being separated from him; someone was taking him away from her, even though he had leaned down so much that his small, strong hands had come loose from around her neck, and he was firmly carried off before she realized that Captain Wentworth had done it.
Her sensations on the discovery made her perfectly speechless. She could not even thank him. She could only hang over little Charles, with most disordered feelings. His kindness in stepping forward to her relief, the manner, the silence in which it had passed, the little particulars of the circumstance, with the conviction soon forced on her by the noise he was studiously making with the child, that he meant to avoid hearing her thanks, and rather sought to testify that her conversation was the last of his wants, produced such a confusion of varying, but very painful agitation, as she could not recover from, till enabled by the entrance of Mary and the Miss Musgroves to make over her little patient to their cares, and leave the room. She could not stay. It might have been an opportunity of watching the loves and jealousies of the four—they were now altogether; but she could stay for none of it. It was evident that Charles Hayter was not well inclined towards Captain Wentworth. She had a strong impression of his having said, in a vext tone of voice, after Captain Wentworth’s interference, “You ought to have minded me, Walter; I told you not to teaze your aunt;” and could comprehend his regretting that Captain Wentworth should do what he ought to have done himself. But neither Charles Hayter’s feelings, nor anybody’s feelings, could interest her, till she had a little better arranged her own. She was ashamed of herself, quite ashamed of being so nervous, so overcome by such a trifle; but so it was, and it required a long application of solitude and reflection to recover her.
Her feelings about the discovery left her completely speechless. She couldn't even thank him. All she could do was hover over little Charles, feeling a jumble of emotions. His kindness in stepping in to help her, the way it all happened in silence, the little details of the situation, along with the realization that he was intentionally making noise with the child to avoid hearing her gratitude, made her feel so mixed up and painfully agitated that she couldn't recover until Mary and the Miss Musgroves entered and took over caring for her little patient, allowing her to leave the room. She couldn't stay. It could have been a chance to observe the loves and jealousies of the four—they were all together now—but she couldn’t focus on any of it. It was clear that Charles Hayter wasn't fond of Captain Wentworth. She had a strong feeling he had said in an annoyed tone right after Captain Wentworth intervened, “You should have listened to me, Walter; I told you not to tease your aunt;” and she could understand his regret that Captain Wentworth did what he should have done himself. But neither Charles Hayter’s feelings nor anyone else's could matter to her until she sorted out her own feelings a bit better. She felt ashamed, really embarrassed for being so anxious and overwhelmed by such a small thing; but that was how it was, and it took a long time of solitude and reflection for her to feel normal again.
CHAPTER X.
Other opportunities of making her observations could not fail to occur. Anne had soon been in company with all the four together often enough to have an opinion, though too wise to acknowledge as much at home, where she knew it would have satisfied neither husband nor wife; for while she considered Louisa to be rather the favourite, she could not but think, as far as she might dare to judge from memory and experience, that Captain Wentworth was not in love with either. They were more in love with him; yet there it was not love. It was a little fever of admiration; but it might, probably must, end in love with some. Charles Hayter seemed aware of being slighted, and yet Henrietta had sometimes the air of being divided between them. Anne longed for the power of representing to them all what they were about, and of pointing out some of the evils they were exposing themselves to. She did not attribute guile to any. It was the highest satisfaction to her to believe Captain Wentworth not in the least aware of the pain he was occasioning. There was no triumph, no pitiful triumph in his manner. He had, probably, never heard, and never thought of any claims of Charles Hayter. He was only wrong in accepting the attentions (for accepting must be the word) of two young women at once.
Other chances to observe them were bound to come up. Anne had spent enough time with all four of them together to form an opinion, although she was too smart to admit it at home, where she knew neither husband nor wife would be satisfied. While she thought Louisa was somewhat the favorite, she couldn’t help but believe, based on her memory and experience, that Captain Wentworth wasn’t in love with either of them. They were more infatuated with him, but it wasn’t true love. It was more like a fleeting admiration, but it might, and probably would, turn into genuine love for some of them. Charles Hayter seemed to realize he was being overlooked, and yet Henrietta sometimes acted as if she were torn between them. Anne wished she could show them what they were doing and point out the dangers they were putting themselves in. She didn’t think any of them were being deceitful. It gave her great comfort to believe that Captain Wentworth was completely unaware of the pain he was causing. There was no smugness, no pathetic triumph in his demeanor. He likely had never heard of or considered any claims Charles Hayter might have. His only mistake was in accepting the attention (because accepting is the right word) of two young women at the same time.
After a short struggle, however, Charles Hayter seemed to quit the field. Three days had passed without his coming once to Uppercross; a most decided change. He had even refused one regular invitation to dinner; and having been found on the occasion by Mr Musgrove with some large books before him, Mr and Mrs Musgrove were sure all could not be right, and talked, with grave faces, of his studying himself to death. It was Mary’s hope and belief that he had received a positive dismissal from Henrietta, and her husband lived under the constant dependence of seeing him to-morrow. Anne could only feel that Charles Hayter was wise.
After a short struggle, though, Charles Hayter seemed to give up. Three days went by without him coming to Uppercross; a pretty big change. He even turned down a dinner invitation, and when Mr. Musgrove found him that day with some big books in front of him, Mr. and Mrs. Musgrove were convinced something must be off and seriously talked about him working himself to death. Mary hoped and believed that he had been outright rejected by Henrietta, while her husband was always nervously waiting to see him the next day. All Anne could think was that Charles Hayter was smart.
One morning, about this time Charles Musgrove and Captain Wentworth being gone a-shooting together, as the sisters in the Cottage were sitting quietly at work, they were visited at the window by the sisters from the Mansion-house.
One morning, around this time, Charles Musgrove and Captain Wentworth had gone out shooting together. While the sisters at the Cottage were sitting quietly and working, the sisters from the Mansion-house visited them at the window.
It was a very fine November day, and the Miss Musgroves came through the little grounds, and stopped for no other purpose than to say, that they were going to take a long walk, and, therefore, concluded Mary could not like to go with them; and when Mary immediately replied, with some jealousy at not being supposed a good walker, “Oh, yes, I should like to join you very much, I am very fond of a long walk;” Anne felt persuaded, by the looks of the two girls, that it was precisely what they did not wish, and admired again the sort of necessity which the family habits seemed to produce, of everything being to be communicated, and everything being to be done together, however undesired and inconvenient. She tried to dissuade Mary from going, but in vain; and that being the case, thought it best to accept the Miss Musgroves’ much more cordial invitation to herself to go likewise, as she might be useful in turning back with her sister, and lessening the interference in any plan of their own.
It was a beautiful November day, and the Miss Musgroves walked through the little grounds, stopping just to say that they were going for a long walk, so they thought Mary wouldn’t want to join them. When Mary quickly replied, a bit jealous of not being considered a good walker, “Oh, yes, I would love to join you very much; I really enjoy a long walk,” Anne sensed from the girls' expressions that this was exactly what they didn’t want, and she admired how family habits made it seem necessary for everything to be shared and done together, even if it was unwanted and inconvenient. She tried to convince Mary not to go, but it was no use; given that, she decided it would be best to accept the Miss Musgroves' much warmer invitation for her to join as well, thinking she could help turn back with her sister and reduce any interference with their own plans.
“I cannot imagine why they should suppose I should not like a long walk,” said Mary, as she went up stairs. “Everybody is always supposing that I am not a good walker; and yet they would not have been pleased, if we had refused to join them. When people come in this manner on purpose to ask us, how can one say no?”
“I can't imagine why they think I wouldn’t enjoy a long walk,” said Mary as she headed upstairs. “Everyone always assumes I'm not a good walker; yet they wouldn't have been happy if we'd turned them down. When people come like this specifically to ask us, how can anyone say no?”
Just as they were setting off, the gentlemen returned. They had taken out a young dog, who had spoilt their sport, and sent them back early. Their time and strength, and spirits, were, therefore, exactly ready for this walk, and they entered into it with pleasure. Could Anne have foreseen such a junction, she would have staid at home; but, from some feelings of interest and curiosity, she fancied now that it was too late to retract, and the whole six set forward together in the direction chosen by the Miss Musgroves, who evidently considered the walk as under their guidance.
Just as they were about to leave, the gentlemen came back. They had taken out a young dog, which had ruined their outing, and sent them home early. Their time, energy, and spirits were perfectly aligned for this walk, and they embarked on it with excitement. If Anne had predicted such a situation, she would have stayed home; however, out of some curiosity and interest, she thought it was too late to back out, and all six of them set off together in the direction chosen by the Miss Musgroves, who clearly saw the walk as their responsibility.
Anne’s object was, not to be in the way of anybody; and where the narrow paths across the fields made many separations necessary, to keep with her brother and sister. Her pleasure in the walk must arise from the exercise and the day, from the view of the last smiles of the year upon the tawny leaves, and withered hedges, and from repeating to herself some few of the thousand poetical descriptions extant of autumn, that season of peculiar and inexhaustible influence on the mind of taste and tenderness, that season which had drawn from every poet, worthy of being read, some attempt at description, or some lines of feeling. She occupied her mind as much as possible in such like musings and quotations; but it was not possible, that when within reach of Captain Wentworth’s conversation with either of the Miss Musgroves, she should not try to hear it; yet she caught little very remarkable. It was mere lively chat, such as any young persons, on an intimate footing, might fall into. He was more engaged with Louisa than with Henrietta. Louisa certainly put more forward for his notice than her sister. This distinction appeared to increase, and there was one speech of Louisa’s which struck her. After one of the many praises of the day, which were continually bursting forth, Captain Wentworth added:—
Anne's goal was to stay out of everyone's way, and as the narrow paths across the fields necessitated many separations, she aimed to stick with her brother and sister. Her enjoyment of the walk came from the exercise and the day itself, from witnessing the last smiles of the year on the golden leaves and withered hedges, and from reminding herself of a few of the countless poetic descriptions of autumn, a season that profoundly influences the mind with its beauty and sensitivity, a time that inspired every poet worth reading to attempt descriptions or express feelings. She occupied her mind as much as possible with such reflections and quotes; however, it was impossible for her not to try to hear Captain Wentworth’s conversation with either of the Miss Musgroves when it was within earshot. She didn't catch anything particularly notable. It was simply lively conversation, the kind that young people who are comfortable with each other might have. He was more focused on Louisa than on Henrietta. Louisa certainly sought his attention more actively than her sister. This difference seemed to become more pronounced, and there was one remark from Louisa that caught her attention. After one of the many compliments about the day that kept coming up, Captain Wentworth added:—
“What glorious weather for the Admiral and my sister! They meant to take a long drive this morning; perhaps we may hail them from some of these hills. They talked of coming into this side of the country. I wonder whereabouts they will upset to-day. Oh! it does happen very often, I assure you; but my sister makes nothing of it; she would as lieve be tossed out as not.”
“What wonderful weather for the Admiral and my sister! They planned to take a long drive this morning; maybe we’ll spot them from one of these hills. They mentioned coming to this part of the country. I wonder where they’ll end up today. Oh! This happens quite often, I promise you; but my sister doesn’t mind at all; she wouldn’t care if she gets tossed out or not.”
“Ah! You make the most of it, I know,” cried Louisa, “but if it were really so, I should do just the same in her place. If I loved a man, as she loves the Admiral, I would always be with him, nothing should ever separate us, and I would rather be overturned by him, than driven safely by anybody else.”
“Ah! You really make the most of it, I know,” Louisa exclaimed, “but if it were true, I would do the same in her situation. If I loved a man the way she loves the Admiral, I would always be with him; nothing would ever separate us, and I would rather be let down by him than taken care of by anyone else.”
It was spoken with enthusiasm.
It was said with excitement.
“Had you?” cried he, catching the same tone; “I honour you!” And there was silence between them for a little while.
“Did you?” he exclaimed, matching her tone. “I respect you!” And there was silence between them for a moment.
Anne could not immediately fall into a quotation again. The sweet scenes of autumn were for a while put by, unless some tender sonnet, fraught with the apt analogy of the declining year, with declining happiness, and the images of youth and hope, and spring, all gone together, blessed her memory. She roused herself to say, as they struck by order into another path, “Is not this one of the ways to Winthrop?” But nobody heard, or, at least, nobody answered her.
Anne couldn’t immediately get lost in a quote again. The beautiful autumn scenes were momentarily set aside, unless a sweet sonnet, filled with the perfect comparison of the ending year to fading happiness, and the memories of youth, hope, and spring—all lost together—came to her mind. She pulled herself together to say, as they took another path, “Isn’t this one of the ways to Winthrop?” But nobody heard her, or at least, nobody responded.
Winthrop, however, or its environs—for young men are, sometimes to be met with, strolling about near home—was their destination; and after another half mile of gradual ascent through large enclosures, where the ploughs at work, and the fresh made path spoke the farmer counteracting the sweets of poetical despondence, and meaning to have spring again, they gained the summit of the most considerable hill, which parted Uppercross and Winthrop, and soon commanded a full view of the latter, at the foot of the hill on the other side.
Winthrop, or the area around it—since young men are sometimes found walking close to home—was their destination. After another half mile of steady climbing through large fields, where the plows were working and the freshly made path showed that the farmer was pushing back against the temptations of gloomy poetry, wanting to welcome spring again, they reached the top of the significant hill that separated Uppercross from Winthrop, and soon had a complete view of the latter at the bottom of the hill on the other side.
Winthrop, without beauty and without dignity, was stretched before them; an indifferent house, standing low, and hemmed in by the barns and buildings of a farm-yard.
Winthrop, lacking in beauty and dignity, lay before them; a nondescript house, low to the ground, surrounded by the barns and structures of a farmyard.
Mary exclaimed, “Bless me! here is Winthrop. I declare I had no idea! Well now, I think we had better turn back; I am excessively tired.”
Mary exclaimed, “Wow! Here’s Winthrop. I honestly had no idea! Well, I think we should head back now; I’m really tired.”
Henrietta, conscious and ashamed, and seeing no cousin Charles walking along any path, or leaning against any gate, was ready to do as Mary wished; but “No!” said Charles Musgrove, and “No, no!” cried Louisa more eagerly, and taking her sister aside, seemed to be arguing the matter warmly.
Henrietta, aware and feeling embarrassed, and not seeing cousin Charles on any path or leaning against any gate, was about to do as Mary wanted; but “No!” said Charles Musgrove, and “No, no!” exclaimed Louisa more eagerly, pulling her sister aside and appearing to argue the point passionately.
Charles, in the meanwhile, was very decidedly declaring his resolution of calling on his aunt, now that he was so near; and very evidently, though more fearfully, trying to induce his wife to go too. But this was one of the points on which the lady shewed her strength; and when he recommended the advantage of resting herself a quarter of an hour at Winthrop, as she felt so tired, she resolutely answered, “Oh! no, indeed! walking up that hill again would do her more harm than any sitting down could do her good;” and, in short, her look and manner declared, that go she would not.
Charles was clearly set on visiting his aunt now that he was so close, and he was also trying, though a bit nervously, to convince his wife to come along. But this was one area where she stood her ground. When he suggested that it might be beneficial for her to rest for a bit at Winthrop since she was feeling tired, she firmly replied, “Oh, no way! Walking up that hill again would be worse for me than any amount of sitting could help.” In short, her expression and attitude made it clear that she wasn’t going.
After a little succession of these sort of debates and consultations, it was settled between Charles and his two sisters, that he and Henrietta should just run down for a few minutes, to see their aunt and cousins, while the rest of the party waited for them at the top of the hill. Louisa seemed the principal arranger of the plan; and, as she went a little way with them, down the hill, still talking to Henrietta, Mary took the opportunity of looking scornfully around her, and saying to Captain Wentworth—
After a brief series of discussions, Charles and his two sisters decided that he and Henrietta would quickly visit their aunt and cousins while the others stayed at the top of the hill. Louisa appeared to be the main organizer of the plan, and as she walked partway down the hill with them, continuing her conversation with Henrietta, Mary seized the moment to glance around dismissively and say to Captain Wentworth—
“It is very unpleasant, having such connexions! But, I assure you, I have never been in the house above twice in my life.”
“It’s really uncomfortable having those connections! But I promise you, I’ve only been in that house twice in my life.”
She received no other answer, than an artificial, assenting smile, followed by a contemptuous glance, as he turned away, which Anne perfectly knew the meaning of.
She got no response other than a fake, agreeing smile, followed by a scornful look as he turned away, which Anne completely understood.
The brow of the hill, where they remained, was a cheerful spot: Louisa returned; and Mary, finding a comfortable seat for herself on the step of a stile, was very well satisfied so long as the others all stood about her; but when Louisa drew Captain Wentworth away, to try for a gleaning of nuts in an adjoining hedge-row, and they were gone by degrees quite out of sight and sound, Mary was happy no longer; she quarrelled with her own seat, was sure Louisa had got a much better somewhere, and nothing could prevent her from going to look for a better also. She turned through the same gate, but could not see them. Anne found a nice seat for her, on a dry sunny bank, under the hedge-row, in which she had no doubt of their still being, in some spot or other. Mary sat down for a moment, but it would not do; she was sure Louisa had found a better seat somewhere else, and she would go on till she overtook her.
The top of the hill, where they stayed, was a pleasant place: Louisa came back; and Mary, finding a comfortable spot on the step of a stile, was pretty happy as long as the others were around her. But when Louisa took Captain Wentworth away to hunt for some nuts in a nearby hedge, and they gradually disappeared from sight and sound, Mary wasn't happy anymore. She complained about her seat, convinced that Louisa had found a much better one somewhere, and nothing could stop her from going to find a better spot too. She went through the same gate but couldn’t see them. Anne found a nice place for her on a dry sunny bank, under the hedge, where she was sure they were still around in some spot. Mary sat down for a moment, but it didn't work; she was convinced Louisa had found a better seat somewhere else, and she was determined to keep going until she caught up with her.
Anne, really tired herself, was glad to sit down; and she very soon heard Captain Wentworth and Louisa in the hedge-row, behind her, as if making their way back along the rough, wild sort of channel, down the centre. They were speaking as they drew near. Louisa’s voice was the first distinguished. She seemed to be in the middle of some eager speech. What Anne first heard was—
Anne, feeling pretty tired, was relieved to sit down; and she soon heard Captain Wentworth and Louisa in the hedge, behind her, making their way back along the rough, wild path down the middle. They were talking as they got closer. Louisa's voice was the first to stand out. It seemed like she was in the middle of an excited speech. What Anne first heard was—
“And so, I made her go. I could not bear that she should be frightened from the visit by such nonsense. What! would I be turned back from doing a thing that I had determined to do, and that I knew to be right, by the airs and interference of such a person, or of any person I may say? No, I have no idea of being so easily persuaded. When I have made up my mind, I have made it; and Henrietta seemed entirely to have made up hers to call at Winthrop to-day; and yet, she was as near giving it up, out of nonsensical complaisance!”
“And so, I made her go. I couldn’t stand the thought of her being scared off from the visit by such nonsense. What? Am I really going to let someone like her— or anyone else for that matter— stop me from doing something I’ve decided to do and know is right? No, I’m not one to be swayed so easily. Once I’ve made up my mind, that’s it; and Henrietta had clearly made up hers to stop by Winthrop today. Yet, she was almost ready to back out because of some ridiculous idea of politeness!”
“She would have turned back then, but for you?”
“She would have turned back then, if it weren't for you?”
“She would indeed. I am almost ashamed to say it.”
“She really would. I’m almost embarrassed to admit it.”
“Happy for her, to have such a mind as yours at hand! After the hints you gave just now, which did but confirm my own observations, the last time I was in company with him, I need not affect to have no comprehension of what is going on. I see that more than a mere dutiful morning visit to your aunt was in question; and woe betide him, and her too, when it comes to things of consequence, when they are placed in circumstances requiring fortitude and strength of mind, if she have not resolution enough to resist idle interference in such a trifle as this. Your sister is an amiable creature; but yours is the character of decision and firmness, I see. If you value her conduct or happiness, infuse as much of your own spirit into her as you can. But this, no doubt, you have been always doing. It is the worst evil of too yielding and indecisive a character, that no influence over it can be depended on. You are never sure of a good impression being durable; everybody may sway it. Let those who would be happy be firm. Here is a nut,” said he, catching one down from an upper bough, “to exemplify: a beautiful glossy nut, which, blessed with original strength, has outlived all the storms of autumn. Not a puncture, not a weak spot anywhere. This nut,” he continued, with playful solemnity, “while so many of his brethren have fallen and been trodden under foot, is still in possession of all the happiness that a hazel nut can be supposed capable of.” Then returning to his former earnest tone—“My first wish for all whom I am interested in, is that they should be firm. If Louisa Musgrove would be beautiful and happy in her November of life, she will cherish all her present powers of mind.”
“I'm so glad for her to have a mind like yours around! After the hints you just gave, which confirmed my own observations from the last time I was with him, I can’t pretend I don’t understand what’s going on. I see that this goes beyond a simple morning visit to your aunt; and woe to him, and to her as well, when it comes to serious matters that require strength and courage if she doesn’t have the resolve to fend off meddling in something as small as this. Your sister is a lovely person; but you definitely have the qualities of decisiveness and strength. If you care about her behavior or happiness, instill as much of your spirit in her as you can. But I’m sure you’ve always been doing that. The worst part of being too accommodating and indecisive is that you can’t rely on any influence over it. You can never be sure a good impression will last; anyone can change it. Those who want to be happy need to be strong. Here’s a nut,” he said, catching one from a high branch, “to illustrate: a beautiful, shiny nut that, thanks to its inherent strength, has survived all the autumn storms. Not a dent, not a weak spot at all. This nut,” he continued with playful seriousness, “while so many of its siblings have fallen and been crushed, still has all the happiness a hazelnut can be imagined to possess.” Then, returning to his serious tone—“My biggest wish for everyone I care about is that they should be strong. If Louisa Musgrove wants to be beautiful and happy in her later years, she needs to nurture all her current mental abilities.”
He had done, and was unanswered. It would have surprised Anne if Louisa could have readily answered such a speech: words of such interest, spoken with such serious warmth! She could imagine what Louisa was feeling. For herself, she feared to move, lest she should be seen. While she remained, a bush of low rambling holly protected her, and they were moving on. Before they were beyond her hearing, however, Louisa spoke again.
He had spoken and was met with silence. Anne would have been surprised if Louisa had been able to easily respond to such a statement: words that held so much significance, delivered with such genuine warmth! She could picture what Louisa was experiencing. As for herself, she was afraid to move, worried that she would be noticed. As she stayed hidden, a low bush of sprawling holly shielded her, and they continued on their way. However, before they were out of her earshot, Louisa spoke again.
“Mary is good-natured enough in many respects,” said she; “but she does sometimes provoke me excessively, by her nonsense and pride—the Elliot pride. She has a great deal too much of the Elliot pride. We do so wish that Charles had married Anne instead. I suppose you know he wanted to marry Anne?”
“Mary is pretty easygoing in a lot of ways,” she said; “but she does sometimes annoy me way too much with her silly behavior and her pride—the Elliot pride. She has way too much of that Elliot pride. We really wish that Charles had married Anne instead. I guess you know he wanted to marry Anne?”
After a moment’s pause, Captain Wentworth said—
After a brief pause, Captain Wentworth said—
“Do you mean that she refused him?”
“Are you saying that she turned him down?”
“Oh! yes; certainly.”
“Oh! Yes, of course.”
“When did that happen?”
“When did that occur?”
“I do not exactly know, for Henrietta and I were at school at the time; but I believe about a year before he married Mary. I wish she had accepted him. We should all have liked her a great deal better; and papa and mamma always think it was her great friend Lady Russell’s doing, that she did not. They think Charles might not be learned and bookish enough to please Lady Russell, and that therefore, she persuaded Anne to refuse him.”
“I’m not really sure, since Henrietta and I were at school back then; but I think it was around a year before he married Mary. I wish she had said yes to him. We would have all liked her a lot more; and mom and dad always believe it was her close friend Lady Russell who influenced her not to. They think Charles might not be smart or academic enough to impress Lady Russell, and so she convinced Anne to turn him down.”
The sounds were retreating, and Anne distinguished no more. Her own emotions still kept her fixed. She had much to recover from, before she could move. The listener’s proverbial fate was not absolutely hers; she had heard no evil of herself, but she had heard a great deal of very painful import. She saw how her own character was considered by Captain Wentworth, and there had been just that degree of feeling and curiosity about her in his manner which must give her extreme agitation.
The sounds were fading, and Anne could no longer tell what they were. Her emotions still held her in place. She had a lot to process before she could move on. The typical fate of a listener wasn’t entirely hers; she hadn’t heard anything bad about herself, but she had heard many painful things. She realized how Captain Wentworth viewed her, and there had been just the right amount of feeling and curiosity in his behavior that caused her intense agitation.
As soon as she could, she went after Mary, and having found, and walked back with her to their former station, by the stile, felt some comfort in their whole party being immediately afterwards collected, and once more in motion together. Her spirits wanted the solitude and silence which only numbers could give.
As soon as she could, she went after Mary, and after finding her, walked back with her to their previous spot by the stile. She felt some relief in having their whole group gathered again and moving together. Her mood needed the solitude and silence that only a crowd could provide.
Charles and Henrietta returned, bringing, as may be conjectured, Charles Hayter with them. The minutiae of the business Anne could not attempt to understand; even Captain Wentworth did not seem admitted to perfect confidence here; but that there had been a withdrawing on the gentleman’s side, and a relenting on the lady’s, and that they were now very glad to be together again, did not admit a doubt. Henrietta looked a little ashamed, but very well pleased;—Charles Hayter exceedingly happy: and they were devoted to each other almost from the first instant of their all setting forward for Uppercross.
Charles and Henrietta came back, bringing, as you might guess, Charles Hayter with them. Anne couldn’t quite grasp the details of the situation; even Captain Wentworth didn’t seem completely in the loop here. However, it was clear that the gentleman had pulled back somewhat, while the lady had softened, and they were both very pleased to be together again. Henrietta appeared a bit embarrassed but very happy; Charles Hayter was extremely cheerful, and they were dedicated to each other almost from the moment they all set off for Uppercross.
Everything now marked out Louisa for Captain Wentworth; nothing could be plainer; and where many divisions were necessary, or even where they were not, they walked side by side nearly as much as the other two. In a long strip of meadow land, where there was ample space for all, they were thus divided, forming three distinct parties; and to that party of the three which boasted least animation, and least complaisance, Anne necessarily belonged. She joined Charles and Mary, and was tired enough to be very glad of Charles’s other arm; but Charles, though in very good humour with her, was out of temper with his wife. Mary had shewn herself disobliging to him, and was now to reap the consequence, which consequence was his dropping her arm almost every moment to cut off the heads of some nettles in the hedge with his switch; and when Mary began to complain of it, and lament her being ill-used, according to custom, in being on the hedge side, while Anne was never incommoded on the other, he dropped the arms of both to hunt after a weasel which he had a momentary glance of, and they could hardly get him along at all.
Everything now pointed to Louisa being meant for Captain Wentworth; it couldn't be clearer. Even when they needed to split up, or even when they didn’t, they walked side by side just as much as the other two. In a long stretch of meadow where there was plenty of room for everyone, they ended up forming three distinct groups. Anne found herself in the group that had the least energy and enthusiasm. She joined Charles and Mary and was tired enough to be really grateful for Charles's other arm. However, Charles, while in good spirits with her, was frustrated with his wife. Mary had been uncooperative with him and was now facing the consequences: he kept dropping her arm almost every moment to swat away some nettles in the hedge with his switch. When Mary started to complain and express her frustration about being treated unfairly for being on the hedge side, while Anne had no trouble on the other side, he let go of both their arms to chase after a weasel he briefly spotted, and they could barely get him to move along at all.
This long meadow bordered a lane, which their footpath, at the end of it was to cross, and when the party had all reached the gate of exit, the carriage advancing in the same direction, which had been some time heard, was just coming up, and proved to be Admiral Croft’s gig. He and his wife had taken their intended drive, and were returning home. Upon hearing how long a walk the young people had engaged in, they kindly offered a seat to any lady who might be particularly tired; it would save her a full mile, and they were going through Uppercross. The invitation was general, and generally declined. The Miss Musgroves were not at all tired, and Mary was either offended, by not being asked before any of the others, or what Louisa called the Elliot pride could not endure to make a third in a one horse chaise.
This long meadow bordered a lane, which their footpath was supposed to cross at the end. When everyone in the group reached the exit gate, they heard a carriage coming up behind them, which turned out to be Admiral Croft’s gig. He and his wife had gone for their planned drive and were now heading home. After learning how long the young people had been walking, they kindly offered a seat to any lady who might be particularly tired; it would save her a whole mile since they were passing through Uppercross. The invitation was open but was mostly declined. The Miss Musgroves weren’t tired at all, and Mary felt either upset about not being asked before anyone else or, as Louisa put it, her Elliot pride couldn’t stand the thought of sharing a one-horse chaise.
The walking party had crossed the lane, and were surmounting an opposite stile, and the Admiral was putting his horse in motion again, when Captain Wentworth cleared the hedge in a moment to say something to his sister. The something might be guessed by its effects.
The walking group had crossed the path and was climbing over a stile on the other side, and the Admiral was getting his horse moving again when Captain Wentworth hopped over the hedge in an instant to say something to his sister. You could guess what he said by the reaction it caused.
“Miss Elliot, I am sure you are tired,” cried Mrs Croft. “Do let us have the pleasure of taking you home. Here is excellent room for three, I assure you. If we were all like you, I believe we might sit four. You must, indeed, you must.”
“Miss Elliot, I’m sure you must be tired,” exclaimed Mrs. Croft. “Please let us take you home. There's plenty of room for three, I promise. If we were all like you, I think we could fit four. You really must, you must.”
Anne was still in the lane; and though instinctively beginning to decline, she was not allowed to proceed. The Admiral’s kind urgency came in support of his wife’s; they would not be refused; they compressed themselves into the smallest possible space to leave her a corner, and Captain Wentworth, without saying a word, turned to her, and quietly obliged her to be assisted into the carriage.
Anne was still in the lane, and even though she was instinctively starting to refuse, they wouldn’t let her walk away. The Admiral’s kind insistence backed up his wife’s; they wouldn’t take no for an answer. They squeezed together into the smallest space possible to give her a little room, and Captain Wentworth, without a word, turned to her and gently made sure she got into the carriage.
Yes; he had done it. She was in the carriage, and felt that he had placed her there, that his will and his hands had done it, that she owed it to his perception of her fatigue, and his resolution to give her rest. She was very much affected by the view of his disposition towards her, which all these things made apparent. This little circumstance seemed the completion of all that had gone before. She understood him. He could not forgive her, but he could not be unfeeling. Though condemning her for the past, and considering it with high and unjust resentment, though perfectly careless of her, and though becoming attached to another, still he could not see her suffer, without the desire of giving her relief. It was a remainder of former sentiment; it was an impulse of pure, though unacknowledged friendship; it was a proof of his own warm and amiable heart, which she could not contemplate without emotions so compounded of pleasure and pain, that she knew not which prevailed.
Yes; he had done it. She was in the carriage and felt that he had put her there, that his will and his hands had made it happen, that she owed it to his awareness of her exhaustion and his determination to give her a break. She was deeply moved by the way he felt about her, which all these things made clear. This small detail seemed to complete everything that had come before. She understood him. He couldn’t forgive her, but he couldn’t be indifferent either. Even though he condemned her for the past and viewed it with unjust anger, and even though he was perfectly indifferent to her and was becoming attached to someone else, he still couldn’t watch her suffer without wanting to help her. It was a remnant of past feelings; it was an instinct of pure, though unacknowledged, friendship; it was evidence of his warm and kind heart, which she couldn’t think about without feelings so mixed of pleasure and pain that she didn’t know which one won out.
Her answers to the kindness and the remarks of her companions were at first unconsciously given. They had travelled half their way along the rough lane, before she was quite awake to what they said. She then found them talking of “Frederick.”
Her responses to the kindness and comments from her friends were initially given subconsciously. They had walked halfway down the rough path before she fully realized what they were talking about. She then noticed they were discussing "Frederick."
“He certainly means to have one or other of those two girls, Sophy,” said the Admiral; “but there is no saying which. He has been running after them, too, long enough, one would think, to make up his mind. Ay, this comes of the peace. If it were war now, he would have settled it long ago. We sailors, Miss Elliot, cannot afford to make long courtships in time of war. How many days was it, my dear, between the first time of my seeing you and our sitting down together in our lodgings at North Yarmouth?”
“He definitely wants one of those two girls, Sophy,” said the Admiral. “But it’s hard to say which one. He’s been chasing them long enough that you’d think he’d have made a decision by now. Ah, this is what happens during peacetime. If it were wartime, he would have figured it out a long time ago. Us sailors, Miss Elliot, can’t afford to have long courtships during war. How many days was it, my dear, between the first time I saw you and when we settled into our place at North Yarmouth?”
“We had better not talk about it, my dear,” replied Mrs Croft, pleasantly; “for if Miss Elliot were to hear how soon we came to an understanding, she would never be persuaded that we could be happy together. I had known you by character, however, long before.”
“We should probably avoid discussing it, my dear,” Mrs. Croft replied cheerfully; “because if Miss Elliot found out how quickly we reached an understanding, she would never believe that we could be happy together. I had known your character for quite some time before.”
“Well, and I had heard of you as a very pretty girl, and what were we to wait for besides? I do not like having such things so long in hand. I wish Frederick would spread a little more canvass, and bring us home one of these young ladies to Kellynch. Then there would always be company for them. And very nice young ladies they both are; I hardly know one from the other.”
"Well, I had heard you're a really pretty girl, so what else were we waiting for? I don't like to drag things out. I wish Frederick would plan a bit more and bring one of these young ladies to Kellynch. Then they'd always have company. They both seem like lovely young ladies; I can hardly tell them apart."
“Very good humoured, unaffected girls, indeed,” said Mrs Croft, in a tone of calmer praise, such as made Anne suspect that her keener powers might not consider either of them as quite worthy of her brother; “and a very respectable family. One could not be connected with better people. My dear Admiral, that post! we shall certainly take that post.”
"Really good-natured, down-to-earth girls, for sure," Mrs. Croft said, with a tone of more measured praise that made Anne wonder if her sharper insights might not see either of them as truly deserving of her brother; "and a very respectable family. One couldn't be associated with better people. My dear Admiral, that position! We will definitely take that position."
But by coolly giving the reins a better direction herself they happily passed the danger; and by once afterwards judiciously putting out her hand they neither fell into a rut, nor ran foul of a dung-cart; and Anne, with some amusement at their style of driving, which she imagined no bad representation of the general guidance of their affairs, found herself safely deposited by them at the Cottage.
But by calmly steering the horses in a better direction herself, they happily avoided the danger; and when she wisely reached out her hand afterward, they neither fell into a rut nor collided with a muck cart. Anne, finding some amusement in their driving style, which she thought was a fair representation of how they managed their affairs, found herself safely dropped off at the Cottage.
CHAPTER XI.
The time now approached for Lady Russell’s return: the day was even fixed; and Anne, being engaged to join her as soon as she was resettled, was looking forward to an early removal to Kellynch, and beginning to think how her own comfort was likely to be affected by it.
The time was nearing for Lady Russell’s return: the date was even set; and Anne, who was set to join her as soon as she got settled, was looking forward to an early move to Kellynch and starting to consider how her own comfort might be impacted by it.
It would place her in the same village with Captain Wentworth, within half a mile of him; they would have to frequent the same church, and there must be intercourse between the two families. This was against her; but on the other hand, he spent so much of his time at Uppercross, that in removing thence she might be considered rather as leaving him behind, than as going towards him; and, upon the whole, she believed she must, on this interesting question, be the gainer, almost as certainly as in her change of domestic society, in leaving poor Mary for Lady Russell.
It would put her in the same village as Captain Wentworth, just half a mile away; they would have to go to the same church, and there would inevitably be interactions between their families. This was a downside for her; however, he spent so much time at Uppercross that by moving away from there, it might seem more like she was leaving him behind rather than moving toward him. Overall, she believed that on this important matter, she would benefit almost as much as she would from changing her home life by leaving poor Mary for Lady Russell.
She wished it might be possible for her to avoid ever seeing Captain Wentworth at the Hall: those rooms had witnessed former meetings which would be brought too painfully before her; but she was yet more anxious for the possibility of Lady Russell and Captain Wentworth never meeting anywhere. They did not like each other, and no renewal of acquaintance now could do any good; and were Lady Russell to see them together, she might think that he had too much self-possession, and she too little.
She hoped she could avoid ever seeing Captain Wentworth at the Hall: those rooms held memories of past meetings that would be too painful for her. But she was even more concerned about the possibility of Lady Russell and Captain Wentworth running into each other anywhere. They didn’t like each other, and rekindling their acquaintance wouldn’t help at all; if Lady Russell saw them together, she might think he was too composed and she was too frazzled.
These points formed her chief solicitude in anticipating her removal from Uppercross, where she felt she had been stationed quite long enough. Her usefulness to little Charles would always give some sweetness to the memory of her two months’ visit there, but he was gaining strength apace, and she had nothing else to stay for.
These points were her main concerns as she thought about leaving Uppercross, where she felt she had been for quite a while. Her help to little Charles would always make her remember those two months fondly, but he was getting stronger quickly, and she didn't have any other reason to stay.
The conclusion of her visit, however, was diversified in a way which she had not at all imagined. Captain Wentworth, after being unseen and unheard of at Uppercross for two whole days, appeared again among them to justify himself by a relation of what had kept him away.
The end of her visit, however, turned out to be more varied than she had expected. Captain Wentworth, after being absent and out of sight at Uppercross for two full days, showed up again to explain the reasons for his absence.
A letter from his friend, Captain Harville, having found him out at last, had brought intelligence of Captain Harville’s being settled with his family at Lyme for the winter; of their being therefore, quite unknowingly, within twenty miles of each other. Captain Harville had never been in good health since a severe wound which he received two years before, and Captain Wentworth’s anxiety to see him had determined him to go immediately to Lyme. He had been there for four-and-twenty hours. His acquittal was complete, his friendship warmly honoured, a lively interest excited for his friend, and his description of the fine country about Lyme so feelingly attended to by the party, that an earnest desire to see Lyme themselves, and a project for going thither was the consequence.
A letter from his friend, Captain Harville, finally tracked him down and shared the news that Captain Harville was settled with his family in Lyme for the winter, which meant they were unknowingly just twenty miles apart. Captain Harville had struggled with his health ever since a serious injury he sustained two years ago, and Captain Wentworth was eager to see him, which led him to head straight to Lyme. He had been there for a full day. He felt completely cleared of any accusations, his friendship was genuinely cherished, and there was a strong interest in his friend's well-being. His vivid description of the beautiful countryside around Lyme captured the group's attention, sparking a strong desire to visit Lyme and a plan to go there.
The young people were all wild to see Lyme. Captain Wentworth talked of going there again himself, it was only seventeen miles from Uppercross; though November, the weather was by no means bad; and, in short, Louisa, who was the most eager of the eager, having formed the resolution to go, and besides the pleasure of doing as she liked, being now armed with the idea of merit in maintaining her own way, bore down all the wishes of her father and mother for putting it off till summer; and to Lyme they were to go—Charles, Mary, Anne, Henrietta, Louisa, and Captain Wentworth.
The young people were all excited to see Lyme. Captain Wentworth mentioned that he wanted to go there again himself; it was only seventeen miles from Uppercross. Even though it was November, the weather wasn’t bad at all. In short, Louisa, who was the most enthusiastic of the group, had made up her mind to go. Besides the joy of doing what she wanted, she felt justified in her choice and pushed aside her parents' wishes to wait until summer. So, they were headed to Lyme—Charles, Mary, Anne, Henrietta, Louisa, and Captain Wentworth.
The first heedless scheme had been to go in the morning and return at night; but to this Mr Musgrove, for the sake of his horses, would not consent; and when it came to be rationally considered, a day in the middle of November would not leave much time for seeing a new place, after deducting seven hours, as the nature of the country required, for going and returning. They were, consequently, to stay the night there, and not to be expected back till the next day’s dinner. This was felt to be a considerable amendment; and though they all met at the Great House at rather an early breakfast hour, and set off very punctually, it was so much past noon before the two carriages, Mr Musgrove’s coach containing the four ladies, and Charles’s curricle, in which he drove Captain Wentworth, were descending the long hill into Lyme, and entering upon the still steeper street of the town itself, that it was very evident they would not have more than time for looking about them, before the light and warmth of the day were gone.
The initial thought was to go in the morning and come back at night; however, Mr. Musgrove wouldn’t agree to that for the sake of his horses. When they considered it more logically, a day in the middle of November wouldn’t allow much time to explore a new place, especially after accounting for seven hours for traveling. Therefore, they decided to stay the night and wouldn’t be back until dinner the next day. This was seen as a significant improvement. Even though they all gathered at the Great House for an early breakfast and left on time, it was well past noon by the time the two carriages—Mr. Musgrove’s coach with the four ladies and Charles’s curricle, which he drove with Captain Wentworth—were going down the long hill into Lyme and entering the steeper streets of the town. It became clear they wouldn’t have much time to look around before the day’s light and warmth disappeared.
After securing accommodations, and ordering a dinner at one of the inns, the next thing to be done was unquestionably to walk directly down to the sea. They were come too late in the year for any amusement or variety which Lyme, as a public place, might offer. The rooms were shut up, the lodgers almost all gone, scarcely any family but of the residents left; and, as there is nothing to admire in the buildings themselves, the remarkable situation of the town, the principal street almost hurrying into the water, the walk to the Cobb, skirting round the pleasant little bay, which, in the season, is animated with bathing machines and company; the Cobb itself, its old wonders and new improvements, with the very beautiful line of cliffs stretching out to the east of the town, are what the stranger’s eye will seek; and a very strange stranger it must be, who does not see charms in the immediate environs of Lyme, to make him wish to know it better. The scenes in its neighbourhood, Charmouth, with its high grounds and extensive sweeps of country, and still more, its sweet, retired bay, backed by dark cliffs, where fragments of low rock among the sands, make it the happiest spot for watching the flow of the tide, for sitting in unwearied contemplation; the woody varieties of the cheerful village of Up Lyme; and, above all, Pinny, with its green chasms between romantic rocks, where the scattered forest trees and orchards of luxuriant growth, declare that many a generation must have passed away since the first partial falling of the cliff prepared the ground for such a state, where a scene so wonderful and so lovely is exhibited, as may more than equal any of the resembling scenes of the far-famed Isle of Wight: these places must be visited, and visited again, to make the worth of Lyme understood.
After finding a place to stay and ordering dinner at one of the inns, the next thing to do was definitely to walk straight down to the sea. They had arrived too late in the year for any entertainment or variety that Lyme, as a tourist spot, could provide. The rooms were closed, most of the guests had left, and almost no families except the locals were around; and since there’s nothing impressive about the buildings themselves, the stunning location of the town stands out, with the main street almost rushing into the water and the path to the Cobb, which hugs the lovely little bay that, during the season, is lively with beach huts and visitors. The Cobb itself, with its ancient features and new renovations, along with the beautiful cliffs stretching out to the east of the town, are what a newcomer will notice; it must be a very unusual visitor who doesn’t find charm in the immediate surroundings of Lyme that makes them want to explore more. The nearby sights, like Charmouth with its high grounds and expansive views, and especially its quaint, secluded bay surrounded by dark cliffs where bits of low rock among the sands make it the perfect spot to watch the tide and sit for hours lost in thought; the wooded hills of the cheerful village of Up Lyme; and, above all, Pinny, with its green gaps between the romantic rocks, where scattered trees and bountiful orchards reveal that many generations must have passed since the initial landslide that transformed the area into such a breathtaking and beautiful setting, comparable to any of the well-known views from the Isle of Wight: these places need to be visited and revisited to truly appreciate what Lyme has to offer.
The party from Uppercross passing down by the now deserted and melancholy looking rooms, and still descending, soon found themselves on the sea-shore; and lingering only, as all must linger and gaze on a first return to the sea, who ever deserved to look on it at all, proceeded towards the Cobb, equally their object in itself and on Captain Wentworth’s account: for in a small house, near the foot of an old pier of unknown date, were the Harvilles settled. Captain Wentworth turned in to call on his friend; the others walked on, and he was to join them on the Cobb.
The group from Uppercross, passing by the now empty and somewhat sad-looking rooms, continued to head downwards until they reached the beach. They paused for a moment, as everyone does when they first return to the sea, and then made their way to the Cobb, which was important to them both as a destination and because of Captain Wentworth. In a small house near the base of an old pier of uncertain age, the Harvilles lived. Captain Wentworth stopped in to visit his friend, while the others continued on, planning to meet him at the Cobb.
They were by no means tired of wondering and admiring; and not even Louisa seemed to feel that they had parted with Captain Wentworth long, when they saw him coming after them, with three companions, all well known already, by description, to be Captain and Mrs Harville, and a Captain Benwick, who was staying with them.
They definitely weren’t tired of wondering and admiring; and not even Louisa seemed to feel that they had been away from Captain Wentworth for long when they saw him approaching them, along with three familiar companions—Captain and Mrs. Harville, and Captain Benwick, who was staying with them.
Captain Benwick had some time ago been first lieutenant of the Laconia; and the account which Captain Wentworth had given of him, on his return from Lyme before, his warm praise of him as an excellent young man and an officer, whom he had always valued highly, which must have stamped him well in the esteem of every listener, had been followed by a little history of his private life, which rendered him perfectly interesting in the eyes of all the ladies. He had been engaged to Captain Harville’s sister, and was now mourning her loss. They had been a year or two waiting for fortune and promotion. Fortune came, his prize-money as lieutenant being great; promotion, too, came at last; but Fanny Harville did not live to know it. She had died the preceding summer while he was at sea. Captain Wentworth believed it impossible for man to be more attached to woman than poor Benwick had been to Fanny Harville, or to be more deeply afflicted under the dreadful change. He considered his disposition as of the sort which must suffer heavily, uniting very strong feelings with quiet, serious, and retiring manners, and a decided taste for reading, and sedentary pursuits. To finish the interest of the story, the friendship between him and the Harvilles seemed, if possible, augmented by the event which closed all their views of alliance, and Captain Benwick was now living with them entirely. Captain Harville had taken his present house for half a year; his taste, and his health, and his fortune, all directing him to a residence inexpensive, and by the sea; and the grandeur of the country, and the retirement of Lyme in the winter, appeared exactly adapted to Captain Benwick’s state of mind. The sympathy and good-will excited towards Captain Benwick was very great.
Captain Benwick had once been the first lieutenant of the Laconia, and the account Captain Wentworth had shared about him on his return from Lyme earlier, praising him as an outstanding young man and a highly valued officer, surely impressed everyone who heard it. This was followed by a brief history of his personal life, which made him completely captivating in the eyes of all the ladies. He had been engaged to Captain Harville’s sister and was now mourning her loss. They had spent a year or two waiting for opportunity and promotion. Opportunity came, with his prize money as a lieutenant being significant; promotion also came at last, but Fanny Harville did not live to experience it. She had passed away the previous summer while he was at sea. Captain Wentworth felt it was inconceivable for anyone to be more devoted to a woman than poor Benwick had been to Fanny Harville or to be more profoundly affected by such a tragic change. He saw Benwick's character as someone who would suffer deeply, combining intense feelings with quiet, serious, and reserved demeanor, along with a strong passion for reading and solitary activities. To add to the intrigue of the story, Benwick's friendship with the Harvilles seemed, if anything, strengthened by the event that dashed all their hopes of a union, and Captain Benwick was now living entirely with them. Captain Harville had rented his current house for six months, his taste, health, and finances guiding him to an affordable place by the sea; the beauty of the countryside and the seclusion of Lyme in winter appeared to suit Captain Benwick’s state of mind perfectly. There was a considerable amount of sympathy and goodwill toward Captain Benwick.
“And yet,” said Anne to herself, as they now moved forward to meet the party, “he has not, perhaps, a more sorrowing heart than I have. I cannot believe his prospects so blighted for ever. He is younger than I am; younger in feeling, if not in fact; younger as a man. He will rally again, and be happy with another.”
“And yet,” Anne thought to herself as they moved forward to meet the group, “he probably doesn’t have a more troubled heart than I do. I can't believe his future is permanently ruined. He's younger than I am; younger in spirit, if not in age; younger as a person. He will bounce back and find happiness with someone else.”
They all met, and were introduced. Captain Harville was a tall, dark man, with a sensible, benevolent countenance; a little lame; and from strong features and want of health, looking much older than Captain Wentworth. Captain Benwick looked, and was, the youngest of the three, and, compared with either of them, a little man. He had a pleasing face and a melancholy air, just as he ought to have, and drew back from conversation.
They all gathered and were introduced. Captain Harville was a tall, dark man with a thoughtful, kind expression; he was slightly lame and, due to his strong features and poor health, looked much older than Captain Wentworth. Captain Benwick appeared and was the youngest of the three, and compared to the others, he was quite small. He had a pleasant face and a sad demeanor, just as one would expect, and he tended to shy away from conversation.
Captain Harville, though not equalling Captain Wentworth in manners, was a perfect gentleman, unaffected, warm, and obliging. Mrs Harville, a degree less polished than her husband, seemed, however, to have the same good feelings; and nothing could be more pleasant than their desire of considering the whole party as friends of their own, because the friends of Captain Wentworth, or more kindly hospitable than their entreaties for their all promising to dine with them. The dinner, already ordered at the inn, was at last, though unwillingly, accepted as a excuse; but they seemed almost hurt that Captain Wentworth should have brought any such party to Lyme, without considering it as a thing of course that they should dine with them.
Captain Harville, while not as charming as Captain Wentworth, was a true gentleman—genuine, friendly, and helpful. Mrs. Harville, a bit less sophisticated than her husband, still shared the same warm sentiments. It was incredibly nice of them to treat the entire group as if they were their friends, just like Captain Wentworth’s friends, and they were more welcoming than their pleas for everyone to join them for dinner. The dinner, which was already arranged at the inn, was eventually accepted, albeit reluctantly, as an excuse; however, they seemed almost offended that Captain Wentworth had brought anyone to Lyme without assuming they would all dine together.
There was so much attachment to Captain Wentworth in all this, and such a bewitching charm in a degree of hospitality so uncommon, so unlike the usual style of give-and-take invitations, and dinners of formality and display, that Anne felt her spirits not likely to be benefited by an increasing acquaintance among his brother-officers. “These would have been all my friends,” was her thought; and she had to struggle against a great tendency to lowness.
There was so much connection to Captain Wentworth in all this, and such an enchanting charm in a type of hospitality that was so rare, so different from the usual back-and-forth invitations and formal dinners, that Anne felt like her mood wasn't going to improve with more interactions among his fellow officers. “These could have been all my friends,” she thought, and she had to fight against a strong feeling of sadness.
On quitting the Cobb, they all went in-doors with their new friends, and found rooms so small as none but those who invite from the heart could think capable of accommodating so many. Anne had a moment’s astonishment on the subject herself; but it was soon lost in the pleasanter feelings which sprang from the sight of all the ingenious contrivances and nice arrangements of Captain Harville, to turn the actual space to the best account, to supply the deficiencies of lodging-house furniture, and defend the windows and doors against the winter storms to be expected. The varieties in the fitting-up of the rooms, where the common necessaries provided by the owner, in the common indifferent plight, were contrasted with some few articles of a rare species of wood, excellently worked up, and with something curious and valuable from all the distant countries Captain Harville had visited, were more than amusing to Anne; connected as it all was with his profession, the fruit of its labours, the effect of its influence on his habits, the picture of repose and domestic happiness it presented, made it to her a something more, or less, than gratification.
As they left the Cobb, they all went inside with their new friends and discovered rooms so small that only those who truly welcome others could think they could hold so many people. Anne was momentarily surprised by this herself, but that feeling quickly faded as she enjoyed the sight of all the clever solutions and thoughtful arrangements by Captain Harville to make the most of the limited space. He provided for the shortcomings of the lodging-house furniture and protected the windows and doors against the expected winter storms. The different ways the rooms were set up, where the basic necessities provided by the owner were in the usual mediocre state, stood in contrast to a few items made from rare wood, expertly crafted, along with interesting and valuable things from all the far-off places Captain Harville had traveled to. This was more than just entertaining for Anne; because it was all tied to his profession, the results of his hard work, the impact on his lifestyle, and the image of peace and happiness it presented made it something deeper than mere satisfaction for her.
Captain Harville was no reader; but he had contrived excellent accommodations, and fashioned very pretty shelves, for a tolerable collection of well-bound volumes, the property of Captain Benwick. His lameness prevented him from taking much exercise; but a mind of usefulness and ingenuity seemed to furnish him with constant employment within. He drew, he varnished, he carpentered, he glued; he made toys for the children; he fashioned new netting-needles and pins with improvements; and if everything else was done, sat down to his large fishing-net at one corner of the room.
Captain Harville wasn't much of a reader, but he had created great accommodations and built some nice shelves for a decent collection of well-bound books owned by Captain Benwick. His limp limited his ability to be active, but his resourceful and inventive mind kept him busy. He drew, he varnished, he did carpentry, he glued; he made toys for the kids; he crafted new netting needles and pins with upgrades; and when everything else was taken care of, he would sit down to work on his large fishing net in one corner of the room.
Anne thought she left great happiness behind her when they quitted the house; and Louisa, by whom she found herself walking, burst forth into raptures of admiration and delight on the character of the navy; their friendliness, their brotherliness, their openness, their uprightness; protesting that she was convinced of sailors having more worth and warmth than any other set of men in England; that they only knew how to live, and they only deserved to be respected and loved.
Anne believed she had left true happiness behind when they left the house; and Louisa, whom she was walking with, couldn’t contain her excitement as she praised the navy—highlighting their camaraderie, their brotherhood, their honesty, and their integrity. She insisted she was convinced that sailors had more value and warmth than any other group of men in England; that they truly understood how to live and deserved all the respect and love.
They went back to dress and dine; and so well had the scheme answered already, that nothing was found amiss; though its being “so entirely out of season,” and the “no thoroughfare of Lyme,” and the “no expectation of company,” had brought many apologies from the heads of the inn.
They went back to get ready and eat; and the plan had worked out so well that nothing seemed wrong; even though it was “so completely out of season,” and there was “no access to Lyme,” and “no expectation of guests,” which had led to many apologies from the inn managers.
Anne found herself by this time growing so much more hardened to being in Captain Wentworth’s company than she had at first imagined could ever be, that the sitting down to the same table with him now, and the interchange of the common civilities attending on it (they never got beyond), was become a mere nothing.
Anne had become much more accustomed to being in Captain Wentworth’s company than she ever thought possible. Sitting at the same table with him now, and exchanging the usual polite conversation (they never progressed beyond that), felt like nothing at all.
The nights were too dark for the ladies to meet again till the morrow, but Captain Harville had promised them a visit in the evening; and he came, bringing his friend also, which was more than had been expected, it having been agreed that Captain Benwick had all the appearance of being oppressed by the presence of so many strangers. He ventured among them again, however, though his spirits certainly did not seem fit for the mirth of the party in general.
The nights were too dark for the ladies to meet again until tomorrow, but Captain Harville had promised to visit them in the evening, and he arrived, bringing his friend as well, which was more than they had expected since it was agreed that Captain Benwick appeared to be burdened by the presence of so many strangers. He did mingle with them again, however, even though his mood didn’t seem to match the overall cheer of the group.
While Captains Wentworth and Harville led the talk on one side of the room, and by recurring to former days, supplied anecdotes in abundance to occupy and entertain the others, it fell to Anne’s lot to be placed rather apart with Captain Benwick; and a very good impulse of her nature obliged her to begin an acquaintance with him. He was shy, and disposed to abstraction; but the engaging mildness of her countenance, and gentleness of her manners, soon had their effect; and Anne was well repaid the first trouble of exertion. He was evidently a young man of considerable taste in reading, though principally in poetry; and besides the persuasion of having given him at least an evening’s indulgence in the discussion of subjects, which his usual companions had probably no concern in, she had the hope of being of real use to him in some suggestions as to the duty and benefit of struggling against affliction, which had naturally grown out of their conversation. For, though shy, he did not seem reserved; it had rather the appearance of feelings glad to burst their usual restraints; and having talked of poetry, the richness of the present age, and gone through a brief comparison of opinion as to the first-rate poets, trying to ascertain whether Marmion or The Lady of the Lake were to be preferred, and how ranked the Giaour and The Bride of Abydos; and moreover, how the Giaour was to be pronounced, he showed himself so intimately acquainted with all the tenderest songs of the one poet, and all the impassioned descriptions of hopeless agony of the other; he repeated, with such tremulous feeling, the various lines which imaged a broken heart, or a mind destroyed by wretchedness, and looked so entirely as if he meant to be understood, that she ventured to hope he did not always read only poetry, and to say, that she thought it was the misfortune of poetry to be seldom safely enjoyed by those who enjoyed it completely; and that the strong feelings which alone could estimate it truly were the very feelings which ought to taste it but sparingly.
While Captains Wentworth and Harville talked on one side of the room, sharing stories from the past to keep the others engaged and entertained, Anne found herself somewhat separated with Captain Benwick. A natural instinct pushed her to start a conversation with him. He was reserved and tended to be lost in thought, but the warmth of her expression and the kindness in her approach quickly had an effect on him, and Anne felt rewarded for her initial effort. He was clearly a young man with a strong appreciation for reading, especially poetry. Along with the satisfaction of giving him at least one evening to discuss topics that his usual companions probably didn’t care about, she hoped to genuinely help him with some thoughts about the importance of fighting against hardship, which came up naturally in their discussion. Although he was shy, he didn’t seem closed off; it felt more like his emotions were eager to break free from their usual limits. After talking about poetry, the richness of the modern era, and comparing opinions on top poets, trying to determine whether Marmion or The Lady of the Lake was better, and how to pronounce The Giaour and The Bride of Abydos, he revealed a deep familiarity with the most heartfelt works of one poet and the passionate expressions of despair of the other. He recited lines depicting a broken heart or a mind consumed by misery with such intense emotion and seemed entirely sincere, making her hope that he didn’t only read poetry. She mentioned that it was unfortunate poetry is rarely enjoyed safely by those who appreciate it fully, and that the intense feelings needed to truly value it are the same ones that should savor it only in moderation.
His looks shewing him not pained, but pleased with this allusion to his situation, she was emboldened to go on; and feeling in herself the right of seniority of mind, she ventured to recommend a larger allowance of prose in his daily study; and on being requested to particularize, mentioned such works of our best moralists, such collections of the finest letters, such memoirs of characters of worth and suffering, as occurred to her at the moment as calculated to rouse and fortify the mind by the highest precepts, and the strongest examples of moral and religious endurances.
His expression showed that he wasn’t upset, but rather pleased with this reference to his situation, which gave her the confidence to continue. Feeling a sense of superiority in her thinking, she suggested that he include more prose in his daily studies. When he asked her to be specific, she mentioned the works of our best moralists, the finest collections of letters, and the memoirs of admirable people who had faced trials, all of which she thought would inspire and strengthen the mind with the highest principles and the most powerful examples of moral and spiritual resilience.
Captain Benwick listened attentively, and seemed grateful for the interest implied; and though with a shake of the head, and sighs which declared his little faith in the efficacy of any books on grief like his, noted down the names of those she recommended, and promised to procure and read them.
Captain Benwick listened closely and appeared thankful for the implied interest; and although he shook his head and sighed, showing his doubt about any books on grief being helpful to him, he took note of the titles she suggested and promised to get and read them.
When the evening was over, Anne could not but be amused at the idea of her coming to Lyme to preach patience and resignation to a young man whom she had never seen before; nor could she help fearing, on more serious reflection, that, like many other great moralists and preachers, she had been eloquent on a point in which her own conduct would ill bear examination.
When the evening ended, Anne couldn't help but be amused by the idea of coming to Lyme to preach patience and acceptance to a young man she had never met before; however, she also couldn’t shake the worry that, like many other great moralists and speakers, she had been quite articulate about something her own actions wouldn’t stand up to scrutiny.
CHAPTER XII.
Anne and Henrietta, finding themselves the earliest of the party the next morning, agreed to stroll down to the sea before breakfast. They went to the sands, to watch the flowing of the tide, which a fine south-easterly breeze was bringing in with all the grandeur which so flat a shore admitted. They praised the morning; gloried in the sea; sympathized in the delight of the fresh-feeling breeze—and were silent; till Henrietta suddenly began again with—
Anne and Henrietta, being the first ones up the next morning, decided to take a walk down to the sea before breakfast. They headed to the beach to watch the tide coming in, driven by a nice south-easterly breeze that brought a sense of majesty to such a flat shore. They admired the morning, reveled in the sea, enjoyed the refreshing breeze—and fell into silence; until Henrietta suddenly broke it with—
“Oh! yes,—I am quite convinced that, with very few exceptions, the sea-air always does good. There can be no doubt of its having been of the greatest service to Dr Shirley, after his illness, last spring twelvemonth. He declares himself, that coming to Lyme for a month, did him more good than all the medicine he took; and that being by the sea always makes him feel young again. Now, I cannot help thinking it a pity that he does not live entirely by the sea. I do think he had better leave Uppercross entirely, and fix at Lyme. Do not you, Anne? Do not you agree with me, that it is the best thing he could do, both for himself and Mrs Shirley? She has cousins here, you know, and many acquaintance, which would make it cheerful for her, and I am sure she would be glad to get to a place where she could have medical attendance at hand, in case of his having another seizure. Indeed I think it quite melancholy to have such excellent people as Dr and Mrs Shirley, who have been doing good all their lives, wearing out their last days in a place like Uppercross, where, excepting our family, they seem shut out from all the world. I wish his friends would propose it to him. I really think they ought. And, as to procuring a dispensation, there could be no difficulty at his time of life, and with his character. My only doubt is, whether anything could persuade him to leave his parish. He is so very strict and scrupulous in his notions; over-scrupulous I must say. Do not you think, Anne, it is being over-scrupulous? Do not you think it is quite a mistaken point of conscience, when a clergyman sacrifices his health for the sake of duties, which may be just as well performed by another person? And at Lyme too, only seventeen miles off, he would be near enough to hear, if people thought there was anything to complain of.”
“Oh! yes, I’m convinced that, with very few exceptions, the sea air is always beneficial. There’s no doubt it helped Dr. Shirley a lot after his illness last spring. He says that spending a month in Lyme did more for him than all the medicine he took, and being by the sea makes him feel young again. I can’t help thinking it’s a shame he doesn’t live right by the sea. I really think he should leave Uppercross and settle in Lyme. Don’t you agree, Anne? Don’t you think it’s the best choice for both him and Mrs. Shirley? She has cousins here and plenty of acquaintances, which would make it more cheerful for her. I’m sure she would appreciate being somewhere with medical help nearby in case he has another health issue. Honestly, it seems quite sad that such wonderful people as Dr. and Mrs. Shirley, who have helped others all their lives, should spend their last days in a place like Uppercross, where, aside from our family, they seem cut off from the world. I wish his friends would suggest it to him. I really think they should. And getting a dispensation for him wouldn't be a problem given his age and reputation. My only concern is whether anything could convince him to leave his parish. He is very strict and cautious about his beliefs; I have to say, maybe even too cautious. Don’t you think, Anne, it is being too careful? Don’t you think it’s a misguided sense of duty when a clergyman sacrifices his health for responsibilities that could just as easily be handled by someone else? And in Lyme, only seventeen miles away, he would be close enough to hear if anyone had complaints.”
Anne smiled more than once to herself during this speech, and entered into the subject, as ready to do good by entering into the feelings of a young lady as of a young man, though here it was good of a lower standard, for what could be offered but general acquiescence? She said all that was reasonable and proper on the business; felt the claims of Dr Shirley to repose as she ought; saw how very desirable it was that he should have some active, respectable young man as a resident curate, and was even courteous enough to hint at the advantage of such resident curate’s being married.
Anne smiled to herself more than once during this speech and was eager to dive into the topic, just as ready to support a young woman as a young man, even if this support was of a lesser quality since all that could be offered was general agreement. She spoke about the matter in a reasonable and appropriate way; recognized Dr. Shirley's need for some rest as she should; understood how beneficial it would be for him to have an active, respectable young man as a resident curate, and was even polite enough to suggest the advantage of that resident curate being married.
“I wish,” said Henrietta, very well pleased with her companion, “I wish Lady Russell lived at Uppercross, and were intimate with Dr Shirley. I have always heard of Lady Russell as a woman of the greatest influence with everybody! I always look upon her as able to persuade a person to anything! I am afraid of her, as I have told you before, quite afraid of her, because she is so very clever; but I respect her amazingly, and wish we had such a neighbour at Uppercross.”
“I wish,” said Henrietta, clearly happy with her friend, “I wish Lady Russell lived in Uppercross and was close with Dr. Shirley. I’ve always heard that Lady Russell is a woman with a lot of influence over everyone! I see her as someone who can convince anyone to do anything! I’m a bit scared of her, as I mentioned before, really scared of her because she’s so smart; but I have a lot of respect for her, and I wish we had someone like her living next door in Uppercross.”
Anne was amused by Henrietta’s manner of being grateful, and amused also that the course of events and the new interests of Henrietta’s views should have placed her friend at all in favour with any of the Musgrove family; she had only time, however, for a general answer, and a wish that such another woman were at Uppercross, before all subjects suddenly ceased, on seeing Louisa and Captain Wentworth coming towards them. They came also for a stroll till breakfast was likely to be ready; but Louisa recollecting immediately afterwards that she had something to procure at a shop, invited them all to go back with her into the town. They were all at her disposal.
Anne found Henrietta’s way of expressing gratitude amusing, and she also found it funny that the events and Henrietta’s new interests had made her friend popular with any of the Musgrove family. However, she only had time for a brief response and to wish that another woman like Henrietta were at Uppercross, before all conversation suddenly stopped when they saw Louisa and Captain Wentworth approaching. They had come for a walk until breakfast was almost ready, but Louisa quickly remembered that she needed to pick something up at a shop and invited everyone to go back into town with her. They were all happy to join her.
When they came to the steps, leading upwards from the beach, a gentleman, at the same moment preparing to come down, politely drew back, and stopped to give them way. They ascended and passed him; and as they passed, Anne’s face caught his eye, and he looked at her with a degree of earnest admiration, which she could not be insensible of. She was looking remarkably well; her very regular, very pretty features, having the bloom and freshness of youth restored by the fine wind which had been blowing on her complexion, and by the animation of eye which it had also produced. It was evident that the gentleman, (completely a gentleman in manner) admired her exceedingly. Captain Wentworth looked round at her instantly in a way which shewed his noticing of it. He gave her a momentary glance, a glance of brightness, which seemed to say, “That man is struck with you, and even I, at this moment, see something like Anne Elliot again.”
When they reached the steps that led up from the beach, a gentleman who was about to come down stepped aside and politely waited for them to pass. They climbed up and went by him, and as they did, Anne's face caught his attention. He looked at her with genuine admiration that she couldn’t ignore. She looked amazing; her well-defined, pretty features had the glow and freshness of youth, enhanced by the brisk wind that had touched her skin and the spark in her eyes it had also brought. It was clear that the gentleman, completely refined in his manner, admired her a lot. Captain Wentworth immediately glanced at her, clearly noticing this. He gave her a brief look, a look filled with light, that seemed to say, “That man is captivated by you, and even I, at this moment, can see something of Anne Elliot again.”
After attending Louisa through her business, and loitering about a little longer, they returned to the inn; and Anne, in passing afterwards quickly from her own chamber to their dining-room, had nearly run against the very same gentleman, as he came out of an adjoining apartment. She had before conjectured him to be a stranger like themselves, and determined that a well-looking groom, who was strolling about near the two inns as they came back, should be his servant. Both master and man being in mourning assisted the idea. It was now proved that he belonged to the same inn as themselves; and this second meeting, short as it was, also proved again by the gentleman’s looks, that he thought hers very lovely, and by the readiness and propriety of his apologies, that he was a man of exceedingly good manners. He seemed about thirty, and though not handsome, had an agreeable person. Anne felt that she should like to know who he was.
After helping Louisa with her business and hanging around a little longer, they went back to the inn. Later, as Anne quickly moved from her room to the dining room, she almost bumped into the same gentleman coming out of an adjoining room. She had previously assumed he was a stranger like them and thought that a well-dressed groom who was wandering around near the two inns must be his servant. Both the man and the groom were dressed in mourning, which supported her theory. It turned out that he was staying at the same inn as they were, and this second, brief encounter showed again by the gentleman’s expression that he found her very attractive. His polite and appropriate apologies also indicated that he had exceptionally good manners. He looked to be about thirty years old; while he wasn’t conventionally handsome, he had a pleasant appearance. Anne felt curious to know who he was.
They had nearly done breakfast, when the sound of a carriage, (almost the first they had heard since entering Lyme) drew half the party to the window. It was a gentleman’s carriage, a curricle, but only coming round from the stable-yard to the front door; somebody must be going away. It was driven by a servant in mourning.
They had almost finished breakfast when the sound of a carriage—almost the first one they'd heard since arriving in Lyme—caught the attention of half the group, pulling them to the window. It was a gentleman's carriage, a curricle, but it was just coming around from the stable yard to the front door; someone must be leaving. It was being driven by a servant in mourning.
The word curricle made Charles Musgrove jump up that he might compare it with his own; the servant in mourning roused Anne’s curiosity, and the whole six were collected to look, by the time the owner of the curricle was to be seen issuing from the door amidst the bows and civilities of the household, and taking his seat, to drive off.
The mention of a curricle made Charles Musgrove stand up so he could compare it to his own; the servant in black piqued Anne’s curiosity, and by the time the owner of the curricle was seen coming out of the door amid the bows and pleasantries of the household, all six of them were gathered to watch him take his seat and drive away.
“Ah!” cried Captain Wentworth, instantly, and with half a glance at Anne, “it is the very man we passed.”
“Ah!” exclaimed Captain Wentworth, immediately, and with a quick glance at Anne, “it’s the exact guy we just walked by.”
The Miss Musgroves agreed to it; and having all kindly watched him as far up the hill as they could, they returned to the breakfast table. The waiter came into the room soon afterwards.
The Miss Musgroves agreed to it, and after watching him with kindness as far up the hill as they could, they went back to the breakfast table. The waiter came into the room shortly after.
“Pray,” said Captain Wentworth, immediately, “can you tell us the name of the gentleman who is just gone away?”
“Please,” said Captain Wentworth right away, “can you tell us the name of the gentleman who just left?”
“Yes, Sir, a Mr Elliot, a gentleman of large fortune, came in last night from Sidmouth. Dare say you heard the carriage, sir, while you were at dinner; and going on now for Crewkherne, in his way to Bath and London.”
“Yes, Sir, a Mr. Elliot, a wealthy gentleman, arrived last night from Sidmouth. I bet you heard the carriage while you were having dinner; he’s heading to Crewkerne on his way to Bath and London.”
“Elliot!” Many had looked on each other, and many had repeated the name, before all this had been got through, even by the smart rapidity of a waiter.
“Elliot!” Many exchanged glances, and many echoed the name, before all this was settled, even with the quick efficiency of a waiter.
“Bless me!” cried Mary; “it must be our cousin; it must be our Mr Elliot, it must, indeed! Charles, Anne, must not it? In mourning, you see, just as our Mr Elliot must be. How very extraordinary! In the very same inn with us! Anne, must not it be our Mr Elliot? my father’s next heir? Pray sir,” turning to the waiter, “did not you hear, did not his servant say whether he belonged to the Kellynch family?”
“Bless me!” Mary exclaimed. “It has to be our cousin; it must be our Mr. Elliot, it really must! Charles, Anne, don’t you think? In mourning, just like our Mr. Elliot would be. How strange is that! Right in the same inn as us! Anne, don’t you think it’s our Mr. Elliot? My father’s next heir? Excuse me, sir,” she said, turning to the waiter, “didn’t you hear, did his servant say whether he was part of the Kellynch family?”
“No, ma’am, he did not mention no particular family; but he said his master was a very rich gentleman, and would be a baronight some day.”
“No, ma’am, he didn’t mention any specific family; but he said his master was a really wealthy guy and would be a baron someday.”
“There! you see!” cried Mary in an ecstasy, “just as I said! Heir to Sir Walter Elliot! I was sure that would come out, if it was so. Depend upon it, that is a circumstance which his servants take care to publish, wherever he goes. But, Anne, only conceive how extraordinary! I wish I had looked at him more. I wish we had been aware in time, who it was, that he might have been introduced to us. What a pity that we should not have been introduced to each other! Do you think he had the Elliot countenance? I hardly looked at him, I was looking at the horses; but I think he had something of the Elliot countenance, I wonder the arms did not strike me! Oh! the great-coat was hanging over the panel, and hid the arms, so it did; otherwise, I am sure, I should have observed them, and the livery too; if the servant had not been in mourning, one should have known him by the livery.”
“There! You see!” Mary exclaimed excitedly, “just like I said! Heir to Sir Walter Elliot! I knew that would come out, if it was true. Trust me, that's something his staff makes sure to announce wherever he goes. But, Anne, just imagine how extraordinary! I wish I had looked at him more. I wish we had known earlier who he was, so he could have been introduced to us. What a shame we missed out on being introduced to each other! Do you think he had the Elliot look? I barely glanced at him; I was focused on the horses. But I think he had some of that Elliot look; I can't believe the coat of arms didn’t catch my attention! Oh! The great coat was hanging over the panel and covered the arms; if not for that, I’m sure I would have noticed them, as well as the livery too. If the servant hadn't been in mourning, it would’ve been obvious who he was by the livery.”
“Putting all these very extraordinary circumstances together,” said Captain Wentworth, “we must consider it to be the arrangement of Providence, that you should not be introduced to your cousin.”
“Putting all these very unusual circumstances together,” said Captain Wentworth, “we have to see it as part of Providence that you shouldn’t meet your cousin.”
When she could command Mary’s attention, Anne quietly tried to convince her that their father and Mr Elliot had not, for many years, been on such terms as to make the power of attempting an introduction at all desirable.
When she could get Mary’s attention, Anne quietly tried to convince her that their father and Mr. Elliot hadn't been on good terms for many years, making it undesirable to even think about trying for an introduction.
At the same time, however, it was a secret gratification to herself to have seen her cousin, and to know that the future owner of Kellynch was undoubtedly a gentleman, and had an air of good sense. She would not, upon any account, mention her having met with him the second time; luckily Mary did not much attend to their having passed close by him in their earlier walk, but she would have felt quite ill-used by Anne’s having actually run against him in the passage, and received his very polite excuses, while she had never been near him at all; no, that cousinly little interview must remain a perfect secret.
At the same time, though, it was a secret pleasure for her to have seen her cousin and to know that the future owner of Kellynch was definitely a gentleman and had a good sense about him. She wouldn't, under any circumstances, mention that she'd met him for a second time; fortunately, Mary didn’t pay much attention to them having passed by him during their earlier walk, but she would have felt quite wronged by the fact that Anne actually bumped into him in the hallway and received his very polite excuses while she had never been near him at all; no, that little cousinly meeting had to stay a complete secret.
“Of course,” said Mary, “you will mention our seeing Mr Elliot, the next time you write to Bath. I think my father certainly ought to hear of it; do mention all about him.”
“Of course,” said Mary, “you will mention that we saw Mr. Elliot the next time you write to Bath. I think my father definitely needs to hear about it; make sure to tell him everything.”
Anne avoided a direct reply, but it was just the circumstance which she considered as not merely unnecessary to be communicated, but as what ought to be suppressed. The offence which had been given her father, many years back, she knew; Elizabeth’s particular share in it she suspected; and that Mr Elliot’s idea always produced irritation in both was beyond a doubt. Mary never wrote to Bath herself; all the toil of keeping up a slow and unsatisfactory correspondence with Elizabeth fell on Anne.
Anne didn't give a straightforward answer, but she thought the situation was not only unnecessary to discuss but should also be kept quiet. She was aware of the offense that her father had experienced many years ago; she suspected Elizabeth's specific involvement in it, and it was clear that Mr. Elliot's thoughts always annoyed both of them. Mary never wrote to Bath herself; the burden of maintaining a slow and unsatisfactory correspondence with Elizabeth fell entirely on Anne.
Breakfast had not been long over, when they were joined by Captain and Mrs Harville and Captain Benwick; with whom they had appointed to take their last walk about Lyme. They ought to be setting off for Uppercross by one, and in the meanwhile were to be all together, and out of doors as long as they could.
Breakfast had just ended when they were joined by Captain and Mrs. Harville and Captain Benwick, with whom they had planned to take their final walk around Lyme. They were supposed to set off for Uppercross by one, so in the meantime, they wanted to stay together and enjoy the outdoors for as long as possible.
Anne found Captain Benwick getting near her, as soon as they were all fairly in the street. Their conversation the preceding evening did not disincline him to seek her again; and they walked together some time, talking as before of Mr Scott and Lord Byron, and still as unable as before, and as unable as any other two readers, to think exactly alike of the merits of either, till something occasioned an almost general change amongst their party, and instead of Captain Benwick, she had Captain Harville by her side.
Anne noticed Captain Benwick approaching her as soon as they were all out on the street. Their conversation from the night before hadn’t made him hesitant to seek her out again, and they walked together for a while, discussing Mr. Scott and Lord Byron. They still found it impossible to agree on the merits of either, just as any two readers might. Then, something happened that caused a noticeable shift in their group, and instead of Captain Benwick, Anne found herself walking alongside Captain Harville.
“Miss Elliot,” said he, speaking rather low, “you have done a good deed in making that poor fellow talk so much. I wish he could have such company oftener. It is bad for him, I know, to be shut up as he is; but what can we do? We cannot part.”
“Miss Elliot,” he said quietly, “you’ve done a good thing by getting that poor guy to talk so much. I wish he could have company like this more often. I know it’s not good for him to be cooped up like he is; but what can we do? We can’t separate.”
“No,” said Anne, “that I can easily believe to be impossible; but in time, perhaps—we know what time does in every case of affliction, and you must remember, Captain Harville, that your friend may yet be called a young mourner—only last summer, I understand.”
“No,” said Anne, “I can easily believe that’s impossible; but maybe in time—we know how time affects every situation of sorrow, and you have to remember, Captain Harville, that your friend might still be considered a young mourner—only last summer, I heard.”
“Ay, true enough,” (with a deep sigh) “only June.”
“Ay, true enough,” (with a deep sigh) “only June.”
“And not known to him, perhaps, so soon.”
“And he might not know it, maybe, so soon.”
“Not till the first week of August, when he came home from the Cape, just made into the Grappler. I was at Plymouth dreading to hear of him; he sent in letters, but the Grappler was under orders for Portsmouth. There the news must follow him, but who was to tell it? not I. I would as soon have been run up to the yard-arm. Nobody could do it, but that good fellow” (pointing to Captain Wentworth). “The Laconia had come into Plymouth the week before; no danger of her being sent to sea again. He stood his chance for the rest; wrote up for leave of absence, but without waiting the return, travelled night and day till he got to Portsmouth, rowed off to the Grappler that instant, and never left the poor fellow for a week. That’s what he did, and nobody else could have saved poor James. You may think, Miss Elliot, whether he is dear to us!”
“Not until the first week of August, when he came home from the Cape, just after being assigned to the Grappler. I was in Plymouth, worrying about him; he sent letters, but the Grappler was ordered to Portsmouth. The news would have to follow him there, but who was going to deliver it? Not me. I'd rather have faced execution. Nobody else could do it but that good guy” (pointing to Captain Wentworth). “The Laconia had arrived in Plymouth the week before; there was no chance of her being sent back out to sea. He had a shot at it; he requested a leave of absence, but without waiting for a response, he traveled non-stop until he reached Portsmouth, rowed out to the Grappler right away, and stayed with the poor guy for a week. That’s what he did, and nobody else could have saved poor James. You can think about it, Miss Elliot, and see how much he means to us!”
Anne did think on the question with perfect decision, and said as much in reply as her own feeling could accomplish, or as his seemed able to bear, for he was too much affected to renew the subject, and when he spoke again, it was of something totally different.
Anne thought about the question with complete determination and replied as much as her feelings allowed, or as much as he seemed able to handle, because he was too moved to bring up the topic again. When he spoke next, it was about something completely different.
Mrs Harville’s giving it as her opinion that her husband would have quite walking enough by the time he reached home, determined the direction of all the party in what was to be their last walk; they would accompany them to their door, and then return and set off themselves. By all their calculations there was just time for this; but as they drew near the Cobb, there was such a general wish to walk along it once more, all were so inclined, and Louisa soon grew so determined, that the difference of a quarter of an hour, it was found, would be no difference at all; so with all the kind leave-taking, and all the kind interchange of invitations and promises which may be imagined, they parted from Captain and Mrs Harville at their own door, and still accompanied by Captain Benwick, who seemed to cling to them to the last, proceeded to make the proper adieus to the Cobb.
Mrs. Harville expressed her opinion that her husband would have walked enough by the time they got home, which decided the direction for everyone on what was meant to be their last walk; they would take them to their door, then head back and set off on their own. According to their calculations, there was just enough time for this; but as they got closer to the Cobb, there was such a strong desire to walk along it one more time, and everyone was so eager, and Louisa soon became so determined, that they realized a difference of fifteen minutes wouldn't matter at all; so with all the warm goodbyes and the exchange of invitations and promises that you can imagine, they said farewell to Captain and Mrs. Harville at their door, still joined by Captain Benwick, who seemed to hang on to them until the end, and they proceeded to make the proper goodbyes to the Cobb.
Anne found Captain Benwick again drawing near her. Lord Byron’s “dark blue seas” could not fail of being brought forward by their present view, and she gladly gave him all her attention as long as attention was possible. It was soon drawn, perforce another way.
Anne found Captain Benwick approaching her again. Lord Byron's "dark blue seas" couldn't help but come to mind given their current view, and she happily focused on him as long as she could. But soon enough, her attention was pulled in another direction.
There was too much wind to make the high part of the new Cobb pleasant for the ladies, and they agreed to get down the steps to the lower, and all were contented to pass quietly and carefully down the steep flight, excepting Louisa; she must be jumped down them by Captain Wentworth. In all their walks, he had had to jump her from the stiles; the sensation was delightful to her. The hardness of the pavement for her feet, made him less willing upon the present occasion; he did it, however. She was safely down, and instantly, to show her enjoyment, ran up the steps to be jumped down again. He advised her against it, thought the jar too great; but no, he reasoned and talked in vain, she smiled and said, “I am determined I will:” he put out his hands; she was too precipitate by half a second, she fell on the pavement on the Lower Cobb, and was taken up lifeless! There was no wound, no blood, no visible bruise; but her eyes were closed, she breathed not, her face was like death. The horror of the moment to all who stood around!
There was too much wind to make the upper part of the new Cobb enjoyable for the ladies, so they decided to head down the steps to the lower part, and everyone was happy to quietly and carefully make their way down the steep stairs, except for Louisa; she insisted that Captain Wentworth jump her down them. Throughout their walks, he had always jumped her over stiles; she found it thrilling. The hard pavement was making him hesitant this time, but he did it anyway. She was safely down and immediately, to show her excitement, ran back up the steps to be jumped down again. He advised her against it, thinking the impact would be too much; but he reasoned and talked in vain, she smiled and said, “I’m determined I will:” he extended his hands; she was too quick by half a second, fell onto the pavement of the Lower Cobb, and was picked up lifeless! There was no wound, no blood, no visible bruise; but her eyes were closed, she wasn’t breathing, and her face looked like death. The horror of the moment hit everyone who was standing around!
Captain Wentworth, who had caught her up, knelt with her in his arms, looking on her with a face as pallid as her own, in an agony of silence. “She is dead! she is dead!” screamed Mary, catching hold of her husband, and contributing with his own horror to make him immoveable; and in another moment, Henrietta, sinking under the conviction, lost her senses too, and would have fallen on the steps, but for Captain Benwick and Anne, who caught and supported her between them.
Captain Wentworth, who had picked her up, knelt with her in his arms, looking at her with a face as pale as hers, in a silence filled with anguish. “She’s dead! She’s dead!” screamed Mary, grabbing onto her husband, and his own horror made him freeze in place; and in a moment, Henrietta, overwhelmed by the realization, fainted too and would have collapsed on the steps if it weren't for Captain Benwick and Anne, who caught and supported her between them.
“Is there no one to help me?” were the first words which burst from Captain Wentworth, in a tone of despair, and as if all his own strength were gone.
“Is there no one to help me?” were the first words that came out of Captain Wentworth, filled with despair, as if all his strength had abandoned him.
“Go to him, go to him,” cried Anne, “for heaven’s sake go to him. I can support her myself. Leave me, and go to him. Rub her hands, rub her temples; here are salts; take them, take them.”
“Go to him, go to him,” Anne shouted, “for heaven's sake, go to him. I can handle her myself. Just leave me and go to him. Rub her hands, rub her temples; here are some salts; take them, take them.”
Captain Benwick obeyed, and Charles at the same moment, disengaging himself from his wife, they were both with him; and Louisa was raised up and supported more firmly between them, and everything was done that Anne had prompted, but in vain; while Captain Wentworth, staggering against the wall for his support, exclaimed in the bitterest agony—
Captain Benwick followed orders, and at the same time, Charles pulled away from his wife so they could both be with him. Louisa was lifted and supported more securely between them, and they did everything Anne had suggested, but it was all in vain. Captain Wentworth, leaning against the wall for support, cried out in the deepest pain—
“Oh God! her father and mother!”
“Oh God! Her dad and mom!”
“A surgeon!” said Anne.
"A surgeon!" Anne exclaimed.
He caught the word; it seemed to rouse him at once, and saying only—“True, true, a surgeon this instant,” was darting away, when Anne eagerly suggested—
He heard the word; it seemed to energize him immediately, and saying only—“True, true, a surgeon right now,” he started to run off, when Anne eagerly suggested—
“Captain Benwick, would not it be better for Captain Benwick? He knows where a surgeon is to be found.”
“Captain Benwick, wouldn't it be better for Captain Benwick? He knows where to find a surgeon.”
Every one capable of thinking felt the advantage of the idea, and in a moment (it was all done in rapid moments) Captain Benwick had resigned the poor corpse-like figure entirely to the brother’s care, and was off for the town with the utmost rapidity.
Everyone who could think recognized the benefit of the idea, and in no time (it all happened in quick moments) Captain Benwick had handed over the lifeless figure completely to the brother's care and was on his way to town as fast as he could.
As to the wretched party left behind, it could scarcely be said which of the three, who were completely rational, was suffering most: Captain Wentworth, Anne, or Charles, who, really a very affectionate brother, hung over Louisa with sobs of grief, and could only turn his eyes from one sister, to see the other in a state as insensible, or to witness the hysterical agitations of his wife, calling on him for help which he could not give.
As for the miserable party left behind, it was hard to tell which of the three—Captain Wentworth, Anne, or Charles—who was completely rational, was suffering the most. Charles, a truly loving brother, wept for Louisa, torn between looking at one sister in her unresponsive state and witnessing the frantic reactions of his wife, who was calling for help that he couldn’t provide.
Anne, attending with all the strength and zeal, and thought, which instinct supplied, to Henrietta, still tried, at intervals, to suggest comfort to the others, tried to quiet Mary, to animate Charles, to assuage the feelings of Captain Wentworth. Both seemed to look to her for directions.
Anne, giving her all with strength and energy, and the thoughts that came naturally to her, tried to offer comfort to the others. She worked to calm Mary, encourage Charles, and soothe Captain Wentworth's feelings. Both of them seemed to look to her for guidance.
“Anne, Anne,” cried Charles, “What is to be done next? What, in heaven’s name, is to be done next?”
“Anne, Anne,” shouted Charles, “What should we do next? What, for heaven’s sake, are we going to do next?”
Captain Wentworth’s eyes were also turned towards her.
Captain Wentworth's gaze was also directed at her.
“Had not she better be carried to the inn? Yes, I am sure: carry her gently to the inn.”
“Shouldn't we take her to the inn? Yes, I think so: let's carry her gently to the inn.”
“Yes, yes, to the inn,” repeated Captain Wentworth, comparatively collected, and eager to be doing something. “I will carry her myself. Musgrove, take care of the others.”
“Yes, yes, to the inn,” repeated Captain Wentworth, more composed and eager to take action. “I’ll carry her myself. Musgrove, look after the others.”
By this time the report of the accident had spread among the workmen and boatmen about the Cobb, and many were collected near them, to be useful if wanted, at any rate, to enjoy the sight of a dead young lady, nay, two dead young ladies, for it proved twice as fine as the first report. To some of the best-looking of these good people Henrietta was consigned, for, though partially revived, she was quite helpless; and in this manner, Anne walking by her side, and Charles attending to his wife, they set forward, treading back with feelings unutterable, the ground, which so lately, so very lately, and so light of heart, they had passed along.
By this time, the news of the accident had spread among the workers and boatmen around the Cobb, and many had gathered nearby, either to be of help if needed or just to witness the sight of a dead young lady—actually, two dead young ladies, since the news turned out to be even worse than initially reported. Some of the more attractive onlookers were assigned to help Henrietta, who, although somewhat revived, was completely helpless. So, with Anne walking beside her and Charles looking after his wife, they moved forward, walking back over the same ground that just moments ago they had passed through with such light hearts, feeling an unexpressable sorrow.
They were not off the Cobb, before the Harvilles met them. Captain Benwick had been seen flying by their house, with a countenance which showed something to be wrong; and they had set off immediately, informed and directed as they passed, towards the spot. Shocked as Captain Harville was, he brought senses and nerves that could be instantly useful; and a look between him and his wife decided what was to be done. She must be taken to their house; all must go to their house; and await the surgeon’s arrival there. They would not listen to scruples: he was obeyed; they were all beneath his roof; and while Louisa, under Mrs Harville’s direction, was conveyed up stairs, and given possession of her own bed, assistance, cordials, restoratives were supplied by her husband to all who needed them.
They hadn’t gotten far from the Cobb when the Harvilles ran into them. Captain Benwick had been seen rushing past their house with a look that suggested something was wrong, so they headed out immediately, guided by him as they went. Despite being shaken, Captain Harville had the presence of mind to act, and a glance between him and his wife determined their course of action. Louisa had to be taken to their house; everyone should go there and wait for the surgeon to arrive. They didn’t entertain any objections: he was in charge; they were all under his roof. While Louisa was taken upstairs by Mrs. Harville and settled into her own bed, her husband provided assistance, drinks, and restorative comforts to everyone who needed them.
Louisa had once opened her eyes, but soon closed them again, without apparent consciousness. This had been a proof of life, however, of service to her sister; and Henrietta, though perfectly incapable of being in the same room with Louisa, was kept, by the agitation of hope and fear, from a return of her own insensibility. Mary, too, was growing calmer.
Louisa had once opened her eyes but quickly shut them again, seeming unaware. This was proof that she was alive, at least for her sister's sake; and Henrietta, although she couldn’t stand being in the same room with Louisa, was kept from slipping back into her own numbness by a mix of hope and fear. Mary was also starting to feel more at ease.
The surgeon was with them almost before it had seemed possible. They were sick with horror, while he examined; but he was not hopeless. The head had received a severe contusion, but he had seen greater injuries recovered from: he was by no means hopeless; he spoke cheerfully.
The surgeon arrived almost before it seemed possible. They were filled with dread as he looked them over, but he wasn't discouraged. The head had a serious bruise, but he had seen worse injuries heal before: he was by no means pessimistic; he spoke in a positive manner.
That he did not regard it as a desperate case, that he did not say a few hours must end it, was at first felt, beyond the hope of most; and the ecstasy of such a reprieve, the rejoicing, deep and silent, after a few fervent ejaculations of gratitude to Heaven had been offered, may be conceived.
That he didn't see it as a hopeless situation, that he didn't say a few hours would be the end, was initially beyond what most people hoped for; and the joy of such a delay, the quiet and profound happiness after a few heartfelt thanks to God had been given, can be imagined.
The tone, the look, with which “Thank God!” was uttered by Captain Wentworth, Anne was sure could never be forgotten by her; nor the sight of him afterwards, as he sat near a table, leaning over it with folded arms and face concealed, as if overpowered by the various feelings of his soul, and trying by prayer and reflection to calm them.
The tone and expression with which Captain Wentworth exclaimed "Thank God!" were something Anne knew she would never forget. Nor would she forget the sight of him later, sitting at a table, leaning over it with his arms crossed and his face hidden, as if overwhelmed by the many emotions inside him, trying to find peace through prayer and reflection.
Louisa’s limbs had escaped. There was no injury but to the head.
Louisa's limbs were free. There was no injury except to her head.
It now became necessary for the party to consider what was best to be done, as to their general situation. They were now able to speak to each other and consult. That Louisa must remain where she was, however distressing to her friends to be involving the Harvilles in such trouble, did not admit a doubt. Her removal was impossible. The Harvilles silenced all scruples; and, as much as they could, all gratitude. They had looked forward and arranged everything before the others began to reflect. Captain Benwick must give up his room to them, and get another bed elsewhere; and the whole was settled. They were only concerned that the house could accommodate no more; and yet perhaps, by “putting the children away in the maid’s room, or swinging a cot somewhere,” they could hardly bear to think of not finding room for two or three besides, supposing they might wish to stay; though, with regard to any attendance on Miss Musgrove, there need not be the least uneasiness in leaving her to Mrs Harville’s care entirely. Mrs Harville was a very experienced nurse, and her nursery-maid, who had lived with her long, and gone about with her everywhere, was just such another. Between these two, she could want no possible attendance by day or night. And all this was said with a truth and sincerity of feeling irresistible.
It was now essential for the group to figure out the best course of action regarding their overall situation. They could now talk to each other and consult one another. There was no doubt that Louisa had to stay where she was, no matter how distressing it was for her friends to involve the Harvilles in such trouble. Moving her was not an option. The Harvilles dismissed any concerns they had, and they tried to set aside all feelings of gratitude. They had planned everything ahead of time before the others even started to think about it. Captain Benwick would have to give up his room for them and find another place to sleep; it was all settled. Their only concern was that the house couldn’t accommodate anyone else, but they were hesitant to leave things as they were, wondering if they could “put the kids in the maid's room or find a cot somewhere.” They couldn’t bear the thought of not making space for two or three more if they wanted to stay; however, they felt no worries about leaving Miss Musgrove entirely in Mrs. Harville's care. Mrs. Harville was a very skilled nurse, and her nursery maid, who had been with her for a long time and accompanied her everywhere, was just as capable. Between the two of them, Miss Musgrove would have all the help she needed, day or night. And all of this was said with an undeniable sincerity and genuine emotion.
Charles, Henrietta, and Captain Wentworth were the three in consultation, and for a little while it was only an interchange of perplexity and terror. “Uppercross, the necessity of some one’s going to Uppercross; the news to be conveyed; how it could be broken to Mr and Mrs Musgrove; the lateness of the morning; an hour already gone since they ought to have been off; the impossibility of being in tolerable time.” At first, they were capable of nothing more to the purpose than such exclamations; but, after a while, Captain Wentworth, exerting himself, said—
Charles, Henrietta, and Captain Wentworth were the three discussing the situation, and for a little while, it was just a mix of confusion and fear. “Uppercross, someone needs to go to Uppercross; we have to share this news; how to tell Mr. and Mrs. Musgrove; it's already late in the morning; an hour has gone by since they should have left; it's impossible to get there on time.” At first, they could do nothing but express their frustrations, but after a while, Captain Wentworth, gathering his strength, said—
“We must be decided, and without the loss of another minute. Every minute is valuable. Some one must resolve on being off for Uppercross instantly. Musgrove, either you or I must go.”
“We need to be decisive, and we can't waste another minute. Every minute counts. Someone has to make the decision to head to Uppercross right away. Musgrove, either you or I need to go.”
Charles agreed, but declared his resolution of not going away. He would be as little incumbrance as possible to Captain and Mrs Harville; but as to leaving his sister in such a state, he neither ought, nor would. So far it was decided; and Henrietta at first declared the same. She, however, was soon persuaded to think differently. The usefulness of her staying! She who had not been able to remain in Louisa’s room, or to look at her, without sufferings which made her worse than helpless! She was forced to acknowledge that she could do no good, yet was still unwilling to be away, till, touched by the thought of her father and mother, she gave it up; she consented, she was anxious to be at home.
Charles agreed but stated his determination not to leave. He would try not to be a burden to Captain and Mrs. Harville; however, he felt he couldn't just leave his sister in such a condition. That much was settled; Henrietta initially felt the same. However, she was soon convinced to see it differently. The importance of her staying! She, who had been unable to stay in Louisa’s room or even look at her without feeling so distressed that it made her feel more helpless! She had to admit that she couldn’t help, yet she was still reluctant to leave until she thought of her parents and finally gave in; she agreed and was eager to go back home.
The plan had reached this point, when Anne, coming quietly down from Louisa’s room, could not but hear what followed, for the parlour door was open.
The plan had reached this point when Anne, quietly coming down from Louisa’s room, couldn’t help but hear what happened next because the parlor door was open.
“Then it is settled, Musgrove,” cried Captain Wentworth, “that you stay, and that I take care of your sister home. But as to the rest, as to the others, if one stays to assist Mrs Harville, I think it need be only one. Mrs Charles Musgrove will, of course, wish to get back to her children; but if Anne will stay, no one so proper, so capable as Anne.”
“Then it’s decided, Musgrove,” Captain Wentworth exclaimed, “that you stay and I’ll take your sister home. But for the others, if someone is going to help Mrs. Harville, I believe it should only be one person. Mrs. Charles Musgrove will definitely want to return to her kids; but if Anne stays, there’s no one more suitable or capable than Anne.”
She paused a moment to recover from the emotion of hearing herself so spoken of. The other two warmly agreed with what he said, and she then appeared.
She took a moment to gather herself after hearing such words about her. The other two enthusiastically agreed with him, and then she showed up.
“You will stay, I am sure; you will stay and nurse her;” cried he, turning to her and speaking with a glow, and yet a gentleness, which seemed almost restoring the past. She coloured deeply, and he recollected himself and moved away. She expressed herself most willing, ready, happy to remain. “It was what she had been thinking of, and wishing to be allowed to do. A bed on the floor in Louisa’s room would be sufficient for her, if Mrs Harville would but think so.”
“You’ll stay, I’m sure; you’ll stay and take care of her,” he said, turning to her and speaking with warmth and a softness that almost brought back the past. She blushed deeply, and he caught himself and stepped back. She eagerly expressed her willingness to stay, ready and happy to do so. “It was exactly what she had been thinking about and hoping to do. A bed on the floor in Louisa’s room would be enough for her, if Mrs. Harville would just agree.”
One thing more, and all seemed arranged. Though it was rather desirable that Mr and Mrs Musgrove should be previously alarmed by some share of delay; yet the time required by the Uppercross horses to take them back, would be a dreadful extension of suspense; and Captain Wentworth proposed, and Charles Musgrove agreed, that it would be much better for him to take a chaise from the inn, and leave Mr Musgrove’s carriage and horses to be sent home the next morning early, when there would be the farther advantage of sending an account of Louisa’s night.
One more thing, and everything seemed set. Although it would be better if Mr. and Mrs. Musgrove were a bit worried by some delay, the time it would take for the Uppercross horses to take them back would be a terrible lengthening of suspense. Captain Wentworth suggested, and Charles Musgrove agreed, that it would be much easier for him to take a carriage from the inn and have Mr. Musgrove’s carriage and horses sent home early the next morning. That way, they could also send an update about Louisa’s night.
Captain Wentworth now hurried off to get everything ready on his part, and to be soon followed by the two ladies. When the plan was made known to Mary, however, there was an end of all peace in it. She was so wretched and so vehement, complained so much of injustice in being expected to go away instead of Anne; Anne, who was nothing to Louisa, while she was her sister, and had the best right to stay in Henrietta’s stead! Why was not she to be as useful as Anne? And to go home without Charles, too, without her husband! No, it was too unkind. And in short, she said more than her husband could long withstand, and as none of the others could oppose when he gave way, there was no help for it; the change of Mary for Anne was inevitable.
Captain Wentworth hurried off to get everything ready on his end, soon to be followed by the two ladies. However, when Mary found out about the plan, all peace was gone. She was so miserable and so passionate, complaining a lot about the unfairness of being expected to leave instead of Anne; Anne, who meant nothing to Louisa, while she was her sister and had every right to stay in Henrietta’s place! Why couldn’t she be as useful as Anne? And to go home without Charles, her husband! No, it was just too cruel. In short, she said more than her husband could handle for long, and since none of the others could oppose him when he gave in, there was no way around it; swapping Mary for Anne was unavoidable.
Anne had never submitted more reluctantly to the jealous and ill-judging claims of Mary; but so it must be, and they set off for the town, Charles taking care of his sister, and Captain Benwick attending to her. She gave a moment’s recollection, as they hurried along, to the little circumstances which the same spots had witnessed earlier in the morning. There she had listened to Henrietta’s schemes for Dr Shirley’s leaving Uppercross; farther on, she had first seen Mr Elliot; a moment seemed all that could now be given to any one but Louisa, or those who were wrapped up in her welfare.
Anne had never been more unwilling to give in to Mary’s jealous and misguided expectations; but it was what it was, and they headed to town, with Charles looking after his sister, and Captain Benwick taking care of her. As they hurried along, she briefly thought about the little things that had happened in the same spots earlier that morning. There she had listened to Henrietta's plans for Dr. Shirley to leave Uppercross; a little further on, she had first seen Mr. Elliot. Now, it seemed like all her attention could only be on Louisa or those who were focused on her well-being.
Captain Benwick was most considerately attentive to her; and, united as they all seemed by the distress of the day, she felt an increasing degree of good-will towards him, and a pleasure even in thinking that it might, perhaps, be the occasion of continuing their acquaintance.
Captain Benwick was very thoughtful towards her; and, since they all seemed bound together by the day's troubles, she found herself feeling increasingly fond of him, and even enjoyed the idea that this might be a chance to continue getting to know him.
Captain Wentworth was on the watch for them, and a chaise and four in waiting, stationed for their convenience in the lowest part of the street; but his evident surprise and vexation at the substitution of one sister for the other, the change in his countenance, the astonishment, the expressions begun and suppressed, with which Charles was listened to, made but a mortifying reception of Anne; or must at least convince her that she was valued only as she could be useful to Louisa.
Captain Wentworth was looking out for them, and a carriage with four horses was ready for their convenience at the end of the street. However, his clear surprise and annoyance at the switch from one sister to the other, along with the change in his expression, the shock, and the half-finished reactions to what Charles was saying, made Anne feel unwelcome. It clearly showed her that she was only valued for what she could do for Louisa.
She endeavoured to be composed, and to be just. Without emulating the feelings of an Emma towards her Henry, she would have attended on Louisa with a zeal above the common claims of regard, for his sake; and she hoped he would not long be so unjust as to suppose she would shrink unnecessarily from the office of a friend.
She tried to stay calm and fair. Without copying Emma's feelings for Henry, she would have cared for Louisa with a passion that went beyond what’s normally expected, all for his sake; and she hoped he wouldn’t take too long to realize that she wouldn’t back away from being a friend when it wasn’t necessary.
In the meanwhile she was in the carriage. He had handed them both in, and placed himself between them; and in this manner, under these circumstances, full of astonishment and emotion to Anne, she quitted Lyme. How the long stage would pass; how it was to affect their manners; what was to be their sort of intercourse, she could not foresee. It was all quite natural, however. He was devoted to Henrietta; always turning towards her; and when he spoke at all, always with the view of supporting her hopes and raising her spirits. In general, his voice and manner were studiously calm. To spare Henrietta from agitation seemed the governing principle. Once only, when she had been grieving over the last ill-judged, ill-fated walk to the Cobb, bitterly lamenting that it ever had been thought of, he burst forth, as if wholly overcome—
In the meantime, she was in the carriage. He had helped both of them inside and positioned himself between them; and in this way, full of surprise and emotion for Anne, she left Lyme. She couldn’t predict how the long ride would go, how it would affect their behavior, or what their interactions would be like. However, it all felt quite natural. He was focused on Henrietta, always turning to her; and whenever he spoke, it was to encourage her hopes and lift her spirits. In general, his voice and demeanor were intentionally calm. His main concern seemed to be protecting Henrietta from distress. Only once, when she was upset over the last poorly judged walk to the Cobb, bitterly regretting that it had ever been suggested, he suddenly erupted, as if completely overwhelmed—
“Don’t talk of it, don’t talk of it,” he cried. “Oh God! that I had not given way to her at the fatal moment! Had I done as I ought! But so eager and so resolute! Dear, sweet Louisa!”
“Don’t talk about it, don’t talk about it,” he shouted. “Oh God! If only I hadn’t given in to her at that terrible moment! If I had just done what I was supposed to! But I was so eager and so determined! Dear, sweet Louisa!”
Anne wondered whether it ever occurred to him now, to question the justness of his own previous opinion as to the universal felicity and advantage of firmness of character; and whether it might not strike him that, like all other qualities of the mind, it should have its proportions and limits. She thought it could scarcely escape him to feel that a persuadable temper might sometimes be as much in favour of happiness as a very resolute character.
Anne wondered if it ever occurred to him now to question whether his previous belief in the universal happiness and benefits of having a strong character was really justified; and if it might not dawn on him that, like all other qualities of the mind, it should have its balance and limits. She thought it would be hard for him not to realize that being open to persuasion could sometimes be just as helpful for happiness as being very determined.
They got on fast. Anne was astonished to recognise the same hills and the same objects so soon. Their actual speed, heightened by some dread of the conclusion, made the road appear but half as long as on the day before. It was growing quite dusk, however, before they were in the neighbourhood of Uppercross, and there had been total silence among them for some time, Henrietta leaning back in the corner, with a shawl over her face, giving the hope of her having cried herself to sleep; when, as they were going up their last hill, Anne found herself all at once addressed by Captain Wentworth. In a low, cautious voice, he said:—
They made their way quickly. Anne was surprised to recognize the same hills and landmarks so soon. Their actual speed, increased by some anxiety about the end of the journey, made the road seem only half as long as it had the day before. However, it was getting quite dark by the time they reached the area around Uppercross, and there had been complete silence among them for a while, with Henrietta leaning back in the corner, a shawl over her face, suggesting she might have cried herself to sleep. Just as they were going up their last hill, Anne suddenly heard Captain Wentworth speak to her in a low, cautious voice:—
“I have been considering what we had best do. She must not appear at first. She could not stand it. I have been thinking whether you had not better remain in the carriage with her, while I go in and break it to Mr and Mrs Musgrove. Do you think this is a good plan?”
“I’ve been thinking about what we should do. She shouldn’t come in right away. She wouldn't be able to handle it. I'm wondering if it would be better for you to stay in the carriage with her while I go in and tell Mr. and Mrs. Musgrove. Do you think that’s a good idea?”
She did: he was satisfied, and said no more. But the remembrance of the appeal remained a pleasure to her, as a proof of friendship, and of deference for her judgement, a great pleasure; and when it became a sort of parting proof, its value did not lessen.
She did: he was satisfied and said nothing more. But the memory of the appeal stayed with her as a reminder of friendship and respect for her judgment, which brought her great joy; and when it turned into a sort of farewell gesture, its significance didn’t fade.
When the distressing communication at Uppercross was over, and he had seen the father and mother quite as composed as could be hoped, and the daughter all the better for being with them, he announced his intention of returning in the same carriage to Lyme; and when the horses were baited, he was off.
When the upsetting conversation at Uppercross was done, and he had seen the father and mother as calm as could be expected, with the daughter feeling better for being with them, he said he planned to go back to Lyme in the same carriage; and once the horses were ready, he took off.
(End of volume one.)
(End of volume 1.)
CHAPTER XIII.
The remainder of Anne’s time at Uppercross, comprehending only two days, was spent entirely at the Mansion House; and she had the satisfaction of knowing herself extremely useful there, both as an immediate companion, and as assisting in all those arrangements for the future, which, in Mr and Mrs Musgrove’s distressed state of spirits, would have been difficulties.
The rest of Anne’s time at Uppercross, which was just two days, was spent entirely at the Mansion House. She felt really useful there, both as a companion and by helping with all the future plans that would have been challenging for Mr. and Mrs. Musgrove in their troubled state of mind.
They had an early account from Lyme the next morning. Louisa was much the same. No symptoms worse than before had appeared. Charles came a few hours afterwards, to bring a later and more particular account. He was tolerably cheerful. A speedy cure must not be hoped, but everything was going on as well as the nature of the case admitted. In speaking of the Harvilles, he seemed unable to satisfy his own sense of their kindness, especially of Mrs Harville’s exertions as a nurse. “She really left nothing for Mary to do. He and Mary had been persuaded to go early to their inn last night. Mary had been hysterical again this morning. When he came away, she was going to walk out with Captain Benwick, which, he hoped, would do her good. He almost wished she had been prevailed on to come home the day before; but the truth was, that Mrs Harville left nothing for anybody to do.”
They got an early report from Lyme the next morning. Louisa was about the same. No symptoms worse than before had shown up. Charles arrived a few hours later to provide a later and more detailed update. He seemed fairly cheerful. A quick recovery shouldn’t be expected, but everything was progressing as well as the situation allowed. When talking about the Harvilles, he seemed unable to fully express his appreciation for their kindness, particularly for Mrs. Harville’s efforts as a nurse. “She really did everything for Mary. He and Mary had been encouraged to head to their inn early last night. Mary was hysterical again this morning. When he left, she was planning to go for a walk with Captain Benwick, which he hoped would help her. He almost wished she had been convinced to come home the day before; but the truth was, Mrs. Harville took care of everything.”
Charles was to return to Lyme the same afternoon, and his father had at first half a mind to go with him, but the ladies could not consent. It would be going only to multiply trouble to the others, and increase his own distress; and a much better scheme followed and was acted upon. A chaise was sent for from Crewkherne, and Charles conveyed back a far more useful person in the old nursery-maid of the family, one who having brought up all the children, and seen the very last, the lingering and long-petted Master Harry, sent to school after his brothers, was now living in her deserted nursery to mend stockings and dress all the blains and bruises she could get near her, and who, consequently, was only too happy in being allowed to go and help nurse dear Miss Louisa. Vague wishes of getting Sarah thither, had occurred before to Mrs Musgrove and Henrietta; but without Anne, it would hardly have been resolved on, and found practicable so soon.
Charles was set to return to Lyme that same afternoon, and his father initially considered going with him, but the ladies disagreed. It would only cause more problems for everyone else and increase his own distress. A much better plan emerged and was put into action. A carriage was sent for from Crewkerne, and Charles brought back a much more helpful person: the old nursery maid of the family. She had raised all the children and had just seen the last one, the spoiled and much-loved Master Harry, off to school after his brothers. Now living in her empty nursery, she spent her time mending stockings and tending to any cuts and bruises she could find, so she was more than happy to be allowed to go help care for dear Miss Louisa. Mrs. Musgrove and Henrietta had previously thought about getting Sarah there, but without Anne, they probably wouldn't have made the decision or arranged it so quickly.
They were indebted, the next day, to Charles Hayter, for all the minute knowledge of Louisa, which it was so essential to obtain every twenty-four hours. He made it his business to go to Lyme, and his account was still encouraging. The intervals of sense and consciousness were believed to be stronger. Every report agreed in Captain Wentworth’s appearing fixed in Lyme.
They were grateful to Charles Hayter the next day for all the detailed knowledge about Louisa, which was so important to get every day. He made it a point to visit Lyme, and his update was still positive. The periods of awareness and consciousness were thought to be improving. Every report confirmed that Captain Wentworth seemed to be staying in Lyme.
Anne was to leave them on the morrow, an event which they all dreaded. “What should they do without her? They were wretched comforters for one another.” And so much was said in this way, that Anne thought she could not do better than impart among them the general inclination to which she was privy, and persuaded them all to go to Lyme at once. She had little difficulty; it was soon determined that they would go; go to-morrow, fix themselves at the inn, or get into lodgings, as it suited, and there remain till dear Louisa could be moved. They must be taking off some trouble from the good people she was with; they might at least relieve Mrs Harville from the care of her own children; and in short, they were so happy in the decision, that Anne was delighted with what she had done, and felt that she could not spend her last morning at Uppercross better than in assisting their preparations, and sending them off at an early hour, though her being left to the solitary range of the house was the consequence.
Anne was set to leave them the next day, which they all feared. “What will they do without her? They weren’t good at comforting each other.” After a lot of discussion, Anne thought it best to share her thoughts and convinced them all to head to Lyme right away. It didn’t take much convincing; it was soon decided they would go—tomorrow, settle into the inn, or find a place to stay as it suited them, and stay there until dear Louisa could be moved. They would be lightening the load for the good people she was with; at the very least, they could relieve Mrs. Harville of caring for her own children. In the end, they were so pleased with the decision that Anne felt great about what she had accomplished and realized she couldn’t spend her last morning at Uppercross better than by helping them prepare and sending them off early, even if it meant she would be left to wander the empty house alone.
She was the last, excepting the little boys at the cottage, she was the very last, the only remaining one of all that had filled and animated both houses, of all that had given Uppercross its cheerful character. A few days had made a change indeed!
She was the last one left, aside from the little boys at the cottage; she was the very last, the only one remaining of everyone who had filled and enlivened both houses, of everyone who had given Uppercross its cheerful vibe. Just a few days had really changed things!
If Louisa recovered, it would all be well again. More than former happiness would be restored. There could not be a doubt, to her mind there was none, of what would follow her recovery. A few months hence, and the room now so deserted, occupied but by her silent, pensive self, might be filled again with all that was happy and gay, all that was glowing and bright in prosperous love, all that was most unlike Anne Elliot!
If Louisa got better, everything would be okay again. Not just happiness from before would return. She had no doubt in her mind about what would happen once she was well again. In a few months, the room that now felt so empty, just filled with her quiet, thoughtful presence, could be filled again with all things happy and cheerful, all the bright and joyful aspects of successful love, everything that was the complete opposite of Anne Elliot!
An hour’s complete leisure for such reflections as these, on a dark November day, a small thick rain almost blotting out the very few objects ever to be discerned from the windows, was enough to make the sound of Lady Russell’s carriage exceedingly welcome; and yet, though desirous to be gone, she could not quit the Mansion House, or look an adieu to the Cottage, with its black, dripping and comfortless veranda, or even notice through the misty glasses the last humble tenements of the village, without a saddened heart. Scenes had passed in Uppercross which made it precious. It stood the record of many sensations of pain, once severe, but now softened; and of some instances of relenting feeling, some breathings of friendship and reconciliation, which could never be looked for again, and which could never cease to be dear. She left it all behind her, all but the recollection that such things had been.
An hour of complete relaxation for thoughts like these, on a dark November day with a steady rain nearly obscuring the few things visible from the windows, was enough to make the sound of Lady Russell’s carriage very welcome; and yet, even though she wanted to leave, she couldn’t bring herself to say goodbye to the Mansion House, or glance back at the Cottage with its dreary, wet, and uninviting porch, or even acknowledge through the foggy windows the last humble homes of the village without feeling a pang of sadness. Memories had unfolded in Uppercross that made it special. It held the record of many moments of pain, once intense but now softened, and a few instances of forgiveness, moments of friendship and reconciliation that could never happen again, and which would always be cherished. She left it all behind, except for the memory that such times had existed.
Anne had never entered Kellynch since her quitting Lady Russell’s house in September. It had not been necessary, and the few occasions of its being possible for her to go to the Hall she had contrived to evade and escape from. Her first return was to resume her place in the modern and elegant apartments of the Lodge, and to gladden the eyes of its mistress.
Anne had not been to Kellynch since she left Lady Russell’s house in September. She hadn’t needed to go, and on the few chances she could have gone to the Hall, she managed to avoid it. Her first return was to take her place in the modern and stylish rooms of the Lodge and to bring joy to its owner.
There was some anxiety mixed with Lady Russell’s joy in meeting her. She knew who had been frequenting Uppercross. But happily, either Anne was improved in plumpness and looks, or Lady Russell fancied her so; and Anne, in receiving her compliments on the occasion, had the amusement of connecting them with the silent admiration of her cousin, and of hoping that she was to be blessed with a second spring of youth and beauty.
There was a bit of worry along with Lady Russell’s happiness in seeing her. She was aware of who had been visiting Uppercross. Fortunately, either Anne looked a bit healthier and prettier, or Lady Russell just thought so; and as Anne accepted her compliments, she found it amusing to link them to her cousin’s unspoken admiration, and to hope that she was about to enjoy a second spring of youth and beauty.
When they came to converse, she was soon sensible of some mental change. The subjects of which her heart had been full on leaving Kellynch, and which she had felt slighted, and been compelled to smother among the Musgroves, were now become but of secondary interest. She had lately lost sight even of her father and sister and Bath. Their concerns had been sunk under those of Uppercross; and when Lady Russell reverted to their former hopes and fears, and spoke her satisfaction in the house in Camden Place, which had been taken, and her regret that Mrs Clay should still be with them, Anne would have been ashamed to have it known how much more she was thinking of Lyme and Louisa Musgrove, and all her acquaintance there; how much more interesting to her was the home and the friendship of the Harvilles and Captain Benwick, than her own father’s house in Camden Place, or her own sister’s intimacy with Mrs Clay. She was actually forced to exert herself to meet Lady Russell with anything like the appearance of equal solicitude, on topics which had by nature the first claim on her.
When they started talking, she quickly noticed a change in her feelings. The topics that had been on her mind when she left Kellynch, which she had felt were overlooked and had to hide among the Musgroves, were now much less important. She had recently lost touch with her father, sister, and Bath. Their issues had been overshadowed by those of Uppercross; and when Lady Russell brought up their previous hopes and worries, expressing her satisfaction with the house in Camden Place that had been rented, and her disappointment that Mrs. Clay was still with them, Anne felt embarrassed to reveal just how much she was really thinking about Lyme and Louisa Musgrove, and all her friends there. The home and friendship of the Harvilles and Captain Benwick interested her far more than her father’s house in Camden Place or her sister’s closeness with Mrs. Clay. She actually had to make an effort to engage with Lady Russell as if she cared equally about the subjects that should have naturally taken precedence for her.
There was a little awkwardness at first in their discourse on another subject. They must speak of the accident at Lyme. Lady Russell had not been arrived five minutes the day before, when a full account of the whole had burst on her; but still it must be talked of, she must make enquiries, she must regret the imprudence, lament the result, and Captain Wentworth’s name must be mentioned by both. Anne was conscious of not doing it so well as Lady Russell. She could not speak the name, and look straight forward to Lady Russell’s eye, till she had adopted the expedient of telling her briefly what she thought of the attachment between him and Louisa. When this was told, his name distressed her no longer.
There was a bit of awkwardness at first in their conversation about another topic. They had to discuss the accident at Lyme. Lady Russell had only just arrived the day before when she heard the full story; but still, they needed to talk about it, she had to ask questions, express regret about the careless behavior, mourn the outcome, and Captain Wentworth’s name had to come up from both of them. Anne felt like she wasn’t handling it as well as Lady Russell. She couldn’t mention his name and make eye contact with Lady Russell until she figured out a way to briefly share her thoughts on his relationship with Louisa. Once she got that out, she found it easier to say his name.
Lady Russell had only to listen composedly, and wish them happy, but internally her heart revelled in angry pleasure, in pleased contempt, that the man who at twenty-three had seemed to understand somewhat of the value of an Anne Elliot, should, eight years afterwards, be charmed by a Louisa Musgrove.
Lady Russell only needed to listen calmly and wish them happiness, but inside, her heart reveled in angry satisfaction and smug contempt that the man who, at twenty-three, had seemed to grasp the worth of an Anne Elliot, should, eight years later, be captivated by a Louisa Musgrove.
The first three or four days passed most quietly, with no circumstance to mark them excepting the receipt of a note or two from Lyme, which found their way to Anne, she could not tell how, and brought a rather improving account of Louisa. At the end of that period, Lady Russell’s politeness could repose no longer, and the fainter self-threatenings of the past became in a decided tone, “I must call on Mrs Croft; I really must call upon her soon. Anne, have you courage to go with me, and pay a visit in that house? It will be some trial to us both.”
The first three or four days passed by quietly, with nothing significant happening except for a note or two from Lyme that somehow made their way to Anne, giving her a somewhat encouraging update about Louisa. After that time, Lady Russell's politeness couldn’t hold back anymore, and the vague concerns of the past turned into a firm declaration, “I need to visit Mrs. Croft; I really need to do it soon. Anne, do you have the courage to come with me and pay a visit to that house? It will be a bit of a challenge for both of us.”
Anne did not shrink from it; on the contrary, she truly felt as she said, in observing—
Anne didn't shy away from it; on the contrary, she genuinely felt as she said, in observing—
“I think you are very likely to suffer the most of the two; your feelings are less reconciled to the change than mine. By remaining in the neighbourhood, I am become inured to it.”
"I think you're going to have a harder time than I will; you're not as used to the change as I am. By staying in the area, I've gotten used to it."
She could have said more on the subject; for she had in fact so high an opinion of the Crofts, and considered her father so very fortunate in his tenants, felt the parish to be so sure of a good example, and the poor of the best attention and relief, that however sorry and ashamed for the necessity of the removal, she could not but in conscience feel that they were gone who deserved not to stay, and that Kellynch Hall had passed into better hands than its owners’. These convictions must unquestionably have their own pain, and severe was its kind; but they precluded that pain which Lady Russell would suffer in entering the house again, and returning through the well-known apartments.
She could have said more about it; she genuinely had a high opinion of the Crofts, thought her father was very lucky to have them as tenants, believed the parish would benefit from their good example, and knew the poor would receive the best care and support. So, despite feeling sorry and ashamed about the need for their departure, she couldn't help but feel in her heart that those who left didn't deserve to stay, and that Kellynch Hall had gone to better hands than its previous owners. These beliefs certainly brought their own pain, and it was a deep kind of pain; however, they spared Lady Russell the heartache she would feel by stepping back into the house and walking through the familiar rooms.
In such moments Anne had no power of saying to herself, “These rooms ought to belong only to us. Oh, how fallen in their destination! How unworthily occupied! An ancient family to be so driven away! Strangers filling their place!” No, except when she thought of her mother, and remembered where she had been used to sit and preside, she had no sigh of that description to heave.
In those moments, Anne couldn't tell herself, “These rooms should belong only to us. Oh, how they've lost their purpose! How unworthily occupied! An old family forced out! Strangers taking their place!” No, unless she thought of her mother and remembered where she used to sit and preside, she didn't feel that kind of sadness.
Mrs Croft always met her with a kindness which gave her the pleasure of fancying herself a favourite, and on the present occasion, receiving her in that house, there was particular attention.
Mrs. Croft always greeted her with a warmth that made her feel like a favorite, and during this visit to the house, there was extra attention.
The sad accident at Lyme was soon the prevailing topic, and on comparing their latest accounts of the invalid, it appeared that each lady dated her intelligence from the same hour of yestermorn; that Captain Wentworth had been in Kellynch yesterday (the first time since the accident), had brought Anne the last note, which she had not been able to trace the exact steps of; had staid a few hours and then returned again to Lyme, and without any present intention of quitting it any more. He had enquired after her, she found, particularly; had expressed his hope of Miss Elliot’s not being the worse for her exertions, and had spoken of those exertions as great. This was handsome, and gave her more pleasure than almost anything else could have done.
The unfortunate accident at Lyme quickly became the main topic of conversation, and when they compared their latest updates on the injured person, it turned out that each woman had received her news at the same time the day before; Captain Wentworth had been in Kellynch yesterday (his first visit since the accident), had brought Anne the last note, which she couldn't piece together clearly; he had stayed for a few hours and then gone back to Lyme, without any plan to leave again soon. He had asked about her, she noted, in particular; had expressed his hope that Miss Elliot wasn’t any worse for her efforts and had referred to those efforts as significant. This was very thoughtful and brought her more joy than almost anything else could have.
As to the sad catastrophe itself, it could be canvassed only in one style by a couple of steady, sensible women, whose judgements had to work on ascertained events; and it was perfectly decided that it had been the consequence of much thoughtlessness and much imprudence; that its effects were most alarming, and that it was frightful to think, how long Miss Musgrove’s recovery might yet be doubtful, and how liable she would still remain to suffer from the concussion hereafter! The Admiral wound it up summarily by exclaiming—
As for the tragic event itself, it could only be discussed in one way by a couple of calm, sensible women, whose judgments were based on confirmed facts; and it was clearly agreed that it had resulted from a lot of carelessness and poor decisions; that the consequences were very serious, and that it was terrifying to consider how long Miss Musgrove's recovery might still be uncertain, and how susceptible she would remain to suffering from the aftereffects in the future! The Admiral concluded it abruptly by exclaiming—
“Ay, a very bad business indeed. A new sort of way this, for a young fellow to be making love, by breaking his mistress’s head, is not it, Miss Elliot? This is breaking a head and giving a plaster, truly!”
“Yeah, this is really a bad situation. It's a strange way for a young guy to show love, by hitting his girlfriend, isn’t it, Miss Elliot? This is really going from breaking a head to putting on a bandage!”
Admiral Croft’s manners were not quite of the tone to suit Lady Russell, but they delighted Anne. His goodness of heart and simplicity of character were irresistible.
Admiral Croft's manners weren't exactly what Lady Russell preferred, but Anne found them charming. His kindness and straightforward nature were impossible to resist.
“Now, this must be very bad for you,” said he, suddenly rousing from a little reverie, “to be coming and finding us here. I had not recollected it before, I declare, but it must be very bad. But now, do not stand upon ceremony. Get up and go over all the rooms in the house if you like it.”
“Now, this has to be really bad for you,” he said, snapping out of a brief daydream, “to show up and see us here. I hadn't thought about it until now, but it must be really bad. But come on, don’t worry about formality. Get up and check out all the rooms in the house if you want.”
“Another time, Sir, I thank you, not now.”
“Another time, thank you, not right now.”
“Well, whenever it suits you. You can slip in from the shrubbery at any time; and there you will find we keep our umbrellas hanging up by that door. A good place is not it? But,” (checking himself), “you will not think it a good place, for yours were always kept in the butler’s room. Ay, so it always is, I believe. One man’s ways may be as good as another’s, but we all like our own best. And so you must judge for yourself, whether it would be better for you to go about the house or not.”
"Well, whenever it works for you. You can come in from the bushes anytime, and you’ll see we hang our umbrellas by that door. It’s a good spot, isn’t it? But,” (stopping himself), “you probably won't think it's a good spot since yours were always kept in the butler's room. Yeah, it’s always like that, I guess. One person's way can be just as good as another’s, but we all prefer our own. So you’ll have to decide for yourself whether it’s better for you to wander around the house or not."
Anne, finding she might decline it, did so, very gratefully.
Anne, realizing she could turn it down, did so with great appreciation.
“We have made very few changes either,” continued the Admiral, after thinking a moment. “Very few. We told you about the laundry-door, at Uppercross. That has been a very great improvement. The wonder was, how any family upon earth could bear with the inconvenience of its opening as it did, so long! You will tell Sir Walter what we have done, and that Mr Shepherd thinks it the greatest improvement the house ever had. Indeed, I must do ourselves the justice to say, that the few alterations we have made have been all very much for the better. My wife should have the credit of them, however. I have done very little besides sending away some of the large looking-glasses from my dressing-room, which was your father’s. A very good man, and very much the gentleman I am sure: but I should think, Miss Elliot,” (looking with serious reflection), “I should think he must be rather a dressy man for his time of life. Such a number of looking-glasses! oh Lord! there was no getting away from one’s self. So I got Sophy to lend me a hand, and we soon shifted their quarters; and now I am quite snug, with my little shaving glass in one corner, and another great thing that I never go near.”
“We haven't made many changes either,” the Admiral continued after a moment of thought. “Not many at all. We mentioned the laundry door at Uppercross, which has been a huge improvement. It's a wonder how any family could put up with the inconvenience of it opening the way it did for so long! You should tell Sir Walter about what we've done, and that Mr. Shepherd thinks it's the best improvement the house has ever seen. I must give us some credit, though; the few changes we've made have all been for the better. My wife deserves the credit for them, though. I've hardly done anything except move some of the large mirrors from my dressing room, which was your father's. He was a good man, very much the gentleman, I'm sure; but I would think, Miss Elliot,” (looking thoughtfully), “I would think he must have been somewhat of a dapper man for his age. So many mirrors! Goodness! There was no escaping from oneself. So I got Sophy to help me out, and we quickly moved them around; and now I’m quite comfortable with my little shaving mirror in one corner, and another big mirror that I never go near.”
Anne, amused in spite of herself, was rather distressed for an answer, and the Admiral, fearing he might not have been civil enough, took up the subject again, to say—
Anne, amused despite herself, felt a bit uneasy for an answer, and the Admiral, worried that he might not have been polite enough, brought up the topic again to say—
“The next time you write to your good father, Miss Elliot, pray give him my compliments and Mrs Croft’s, and say that we are settled here quite to our liking, and have no fault at all to find with the place. The breakfast-room chimney smokes a little, I grant you, but it is only when the wind is due north and blows hard, which may not happen three times a winter. And take it altogether, now that we have been into most of the houses hereabouts and can judge, there is not one that we like better than this. Pray say so, with my compliments. He will be glad to hear it.”
“The next time you write to your dad, Miss Elliot, please send him my regards and Mrs. Croft's as well. Let him know that we’re really happy here and have no complaints about the place. I admit the breakfast room chimney smokes a bit, but only when the wind is coming from the north and is strong, which might only happen three times in the winter. Overall, after checking out most of the houses around here, we really don’t like any of them better than this one. Please mention that, along with my regards. He’ll be pleased to hear it.”
Lady Russell and Mrs Croft were very well pleased with each other: but the acquaintance which this visit began was fated not to proceed far at present; for when it was returned, the Crofts announced themselves to be going away for a few weeks, to visit their connexions in the north of the county, and probably might not be at home again before Lady Russell would be removing to Bath.
Lady Russell and Mrs. Croft were very happy with each other; however, the friendship that started with this visit was not meant to go far at the moment. When the visit ended, the Crofts mentioned they would be leaving for a few weeks to visit their relatives in the north of the county, and they probably wouldn't be back before Lady Russell moved to Bath.
So ended all danger to Anne of meeting Captain Wentworth at Kellynch Hall, or of seeing him in company with her friend. Everything was safe enough, and she smiled over the many anxious feelings she had wasted on the subject.
So all danger for Anne of running into Captain Wentworth at Kellynch Hall, or seeing him with her friend, was over. Everything was secure now, and she smiled at the many anxious thoughts she had spent on it.
CHAPTER XIV.
Though Charles and Mary had remained at Lyme much longer after Mr and Mrs Musgrove’s going than Anne conceived they could have been at all wanted, they were yet the first of the family to be at home again; and as soon as possible after their return to Uppercross they drove over to the Lodge. They had left Louisa beginning to sit up; but her head, though clear, was exceedingly weak, and her nerves susceptible to the highest extreme of tenderness; and though she might be pronounced to be altogether doing very well, it was still impossible to say when she might be able to bear the removal home; and her father and mother, who must return in time to receive their younger children for the Christmas holidays, had hardly a hope of being allowed to bring her with them.
Though Charles and Mary stayed at Lyme much longer after Mr. and Mrs. Musgrove left than Anne thought was necessary, they were the first ones from the family to return home. As soon as they got back to Uppercross, they drove over to the Lodge. They had left Louisa starting to sit up; her mind was clear, but she felt very weak, and her nerves were extremely sensitive. While it could be said that she was doing really well overall, it was still uncertain when she would be able to handle going home. Her parents, who needed to return in time to pick up their younger kids for the Christmas holidays, had little hope of being able to bring her along.
They had been all in lodgings together. Mrs Musgrove had got Mrs Harville’s children away as much as she could, every possible supply from Uppercross had been furnished, to lighten the inconvenience to the Harvilles, while the Harvilles had been wanting them to come to dinner every day; and in short, it seemed to have been only a struggle on each side as to which should be most disinterested and hospitable.
They had all been staying together. Mrs. Musgrove had taken Mrs. Harville’s kids away as much as she could, and every possible supply from Uppercross had been provided to ease the burden on the Harvilles. Meanwhile, the Harvilles had been inviting them to dinner every day. In short, it felt like a competition between both sides to see who could be the most generous and welcoming.
Mary had had her evils; but upon the whole, as was evident by her staying so long, she had found more to enjoy than to suffer. Charles Hayter had been at Lyme oftener than suited her; and when they dined with the Harvilles there had been only a maid-servant to wait, and at first Mrs Harville had always given Mrs Musgrove precedence; but then, she had received so very handsome an apology from her on finding out whose daughter she was, and there had been so much going on every day, there had been so many walks between their lodgings and the Harvilles, and she had got books from the library, and changed them so often, that the balance had certainly been much in favour of Lyme. She had been taken to Charmouth too, and she had bathed, and she had gone to church, and there were a great many more people to look at in the church at Lyme than at Uppercross; and all this, joined to the sense of being so very useful, had made really an agreeable fortnight.
Mary had encountered her fair share of troubles, but overall, it was clear from her long stay that she found more enjoyment than suffering. Charles Hayter had visited Lyme more often than she liked, and when they dined with the Harvilles, there was only a maid to serve them. At first, Mrs. Harville always gave Mrs. Musgrove the priority, but then Mrs. Musgrove offered a very nice apology when she realized who Mary was, and there was just so much going on every day. They took many walks between their lodgings and the Harvilles, Mary borrowed books from the library and swapped them out frequently, which definitely tipped the scale in favor of Lyme. She also went to Charmouth, swam, attended church, and there were many more people to watch in the church at Lyme than in Uppercross. All of this, combined with the feeling of being quite useful, made for a really pleasant two weeks.
Anne enquired after Captain Benwick. Mary’s face was clouded directly. Charles laughed.
Anne asked about Captain Benwick. Mary's expression immediately darkened. Charles laughed.
“Oh! Captain Benwick is very well, I believe, but he is a very odd young man. I do not know what he would be at. We asked him to come home with us for a day or two: Charles undertook to give him some shooting, and he seemed quite delighted, and, for my part, I thought it was all settled; when behold! on Tuesday night, he made a very awkward sort of excuse; ‘he never shot’ and he had ‘been quite misunderstood,’ and he had promised this and he had promised that, and the end of it was, I found, that he did not mean to come. I suppose he was afraid of finding it dull; but upon my word I should have thought we were lively enough at the Cottage for such a heart-broken man as Captain Benwick.”
“Oh! Captain Benwick seems to be doing well, but he's quite an unusual young man. I really don’t know what he’s thinking. We invited him to come stay with us for a day or two: Charles offered to take him shooting, and he appeared really happy about it. I thought everything was settled; then, out of nowhere, on Tuesday night, he made a really awkward excuse. He said he ‘never shot’ and that he had ‘been completely misunderstood’ and that he had promised this and he had promised that. In the end, I realized he didn’t intend to come. I guess he was worried it would be boring, but honestly, I would have thought we were entertaining enough at the Cottage for someone like Captain Benwick, who seems so heartbroken.”
Charles laughed again and said, “Now Mary, you know very well how it really was. It was all your doing,” (turning to Anne). “He fancied that if he went with us, he should find you close by: he fancied everybody to be living in Uppercross; and when he discovered that Lady Russell lived three miles off, his heart failed him, and he had not courage to come. That is the fact, upon my honour. Mary knows it is.”
Charles laughed again and said, “Now Mary, you know very well how it really was. It was all your doing,” (turning to Anne). “He thought that if he came with us, he would find you nearby: he assumed everyone lived in Uppercross; and when he found out that Lady Russell lived three miles away, he lost his nerve and didn’t have the courage to come. That’s the truth, I swear. Mary knows it is.”
But Mary did not give into it very graciously, whether from not considering Captain Benwick entitled by birth and situation to be in love with an Elliot, or from not wanting to believe Anne a greater attraction to Uppercross than herself, must be left to be guessed. Anne’s good-will, however, was not to be lessened by what she heard. She boldly acknowledged herself flattered, and continued her enquiries.
But Mary didn't take it very well, whether it was because she didn't think Captain Benwick was really in love with an Elliot due to his background and status, or because she didn't want to believe that Anne was a bigger draw to Uppercross than she was, we'll never know. However, Anne's goodwill wasn’t diminished by what she heard. She openly admitted she felt flattered and kept asking questions.
“Oh! he talks of you,” cried Charles, “in such terms—” Mary interrupted him. “I declare, Charles, I never heard him mention Anne twice all the time I was there. I declare, Anne, he never talks of you at all.”
“Oh! he talks about you,” cried Charles, “in such terms—” Mary interrupted him. “I swear, Charles, I never heard him mention Anne more than twice while I was there. I swear, Anne, he never talks about you at all.”
“No,” admitted Charles, “I do not know that he ever does, in a general way; but however, it is a very clear thing that he admires you exceedingly. His head is full of some books that he is reading upon your recommendation, and he wants to talk to you about them; he has found out something or other in one of them which he thinks—oh! I cannot pretend to remember it, but it was something very fine—I overheard him telling Henrietta all about it; and then ‘Miss Elliot’ was spoken of in the highest terms! Now Mary, I declare it was so, I heard it myself, and you were in the other room. ‘Elegance, sweetness, beauty.’ Oh! there was no end of Miss Elliot’s charms.”
“No,” Charles admitted, “I don’t really know if he does, in general; but it’s pretty clear that he admires you a lot. His head is full of some books he’s reading on your recommendation, and he wants to discuss them with you. He discovered something or other in one of them that he thinks—oh! I can’t quite remember, but it was something really nice—I overheard him telling Henrietta all about it; and then they talked about ‘Miss Elliot’ in the highest terms! Now, Mary, I swear it was true, I heard it myself, and you were in the other room. ‘Elegance, sweetness, beauty.’ Oh! there was no end to Miss Elliot’s charms.”
“And I am sure,” cried Mary, warmly, “it was a very little to his credit, if he did. Miss Harville only died last June. Such a heart is very little worth having; is it, Lady Russell? I am sure you will agree with me.”
“And I’m sure,” Mary exclaimed passionately, “it doesn’t say much about his character if he did. Miss Harville just passed away last June. A heart like that isn’t worth much, right, Lady Russell? I’m sure you’ll agree with me.”
“I must see Captain Benwick before I decide,” said Lady Russell, smiling.
“I need to see Captain Benwick before I make my decision,” said Lady Russell, smiling.
“And that you are very likely to do very soon, I can tell you, ma’am,” said Charles. “Though he had not nerves for coming away with us, and setting off again afterwards to pay a formal visit here, he will make his way over to Kellynch one day by himself, you may depend on it. I told him the distance and the road, and I told him of the church’s being so very well worth seeing; for as he has a taste for those sort of things, I thought that would be a good excuse, and he listened with all his understanding and soul; and I am sure from his manner that you will have him calling here soon. So, I give you notice, Lady Russell.”
“And you’ll probably be hearing from him very soon, I can tell you, ma’am,” said Charles. “Even though he didn’t have the courage to leave with us and then come back later for a formal visit, you can bet he’ll make his way to Kellynch on his own one day. I mentioned the distance and the route, and I told him the church is really worth seeing; since he appreciates those kinds of things, I thought that would be a good reason, and he listened with great interest. From the way he acted, I’m sure you’ll have him visiting here soon. So, I’m giving you a heads-up, Lady Russell.”
“Any acquaintance of Anne’s will always be welcome to me,” was Lady Russell’s kind answer.
“Anyone who knows Anne is always welcome to me,” was Lady Russell’s kind response.
“Oh! as to being Anne’s acquaintance,” said Mary, “I think he is rather my acquaintance, for I have been seeing him every day this last fortnight.”
“Oh! When it comes to being Anne’s acquaintance,” said Mary, “I think he’s more my acquaintance, since I’ve been seeing him every day for the past two weeks.”
“Well, as your joint acquaintance, then, I shall be very happy to see Captain Benwick.”
“Well, as a mutual friend, I’ll be really happy to see Captain Benwick.”
“You will not find anything very agreeable in him, I assure you, ma’am. He is one of the dullest young men that ever lived. He has walked with me, sometimes, from one end of the sands to the other, without saying a word. He is not at all a well-bred young man. I am sure you will not like him.”
“You won’t find anything very pleasant about him, I promise you, ma’am. He’s one of the dullest young men ever. He has walked with me, sometimes, from one end of the beach to the other, without saying a word. He’s definitely not a well-mannered young man. I’m sure you won’t like him.”
“There we differ, Mary,” said Anne. “I think Lady Russell would like him. I think she would be so much pleased with his mind, that she would very soon see no deficiency in his manner.”
“There we differ, Mary,” said Anne. “I think Lady Russell would like him. I believe she would be so impressed with his mind that she would quickly overlook any shortcomings in his manner.”
“So do I, Anne,” said Charles. “I am sure Lady Russell would like him. He is just Lady Russell’s sort. Give him a book, and he will read all day long.”
“So do I, Anne,” Charles said. “I know Lady Russell would like him. He’s exactly her type. Give him a book, and he’ll read all day long.”
“Yes, that he will!” exclaimed Mary, tauntingly. “He will sit poring over his book, and not know when a person speaks to him, or when one drops one’s scissors, or anything that happens. Do you think Lady Russell would like that?”
“Yes, he totally will!” Mary exclaimed, teasingly. “He’ll be buried in his book and won’t notice when someone talks to him, or when someone drops their scissors, or anything else that’s going on. Do you really think Lady Russell would be okay with that?”
Lady Russell could not help laughing. “Upon my word,” said she, “I should not have supposed that my opinion of any one could have admitted of such difference of conjecture, steady and matter of fact as I may call myself. I have really a curiosity to see the person who can give occasion to such directly opposite notions. I wish he may be induced to call here. And when he does, Mary, you may depend upon hearing my opinion; but I am determined not to judge him beforehand.”
Lady Russell couldn't help but laugh. “Honestly,” she said, “I never thought my opinion of anyone could lead to such different ideas, considering how practical and straightforward I am. I'm genuinely curious to meet the person who inspires such completely opposite views. I hope he decides to drop by. And when he does, Mary, you can count on hearing what I think, but I'm set on not forming any judgment about him before that.”
“You will not like him, I will answer for it.”
“You won't like him, I guarantee it.”
Lady Russell began talking of something else. Mary spoke with animation of their meeting with, or rather missing, Mr Elliot so extraordinarily.
Lady Russell started discussing a different topic. Mary excitedly talked about their encounter with, or more accurately, the bizarre experience of missing Mr. Elliot.
“He is a man,” said Lady Russell, “whom I have no wish to see. His declining to be on cordial terms with the head of his family, has left a very strong impression in his disfavour with me.”
“He is a man,” said Lady Russell, “whom I have no desire to see. His refusal to be on friendly terms with the head of his family has left a very negative impression of him in my mind.”
This decision checked Mary’s eagerness, and stopped her short in the midst of the Elliot countenance.
This decision held back Mary’s excitement and brought her to a halt in the presence of the Elliot expression.
With regard to Captain Wentworth, though Anne hazarded no enquiries, there was voluntary communication sufficient. His spirits had been greatly recovering lately as might be expected. As Louisa improved, he had improved, and he was now quite a different creature from what he had been the first week. He had not seen Louisa; and was so extremely fearful of any ill consequence to her from an interview, that he did not press for it at all; and, on the contrary, seemed to have a plan of going away for a week or ten days, till her head was stronger. He had talked of going down to Plymouth for a week, and wanted to persuade Captain Benwick to go with him; but, as Charles maintained to the last, Captain Benwick seemed much more disposed to ride over to Kellynch.
Regarding Captain Wentworth, even though Anne didn’t ask any questions, there was enough communication happening on its own. His mood had been improving lately, which was to be expected. As Louisa got better, he seemed to get better as well, and he was now a completely different person from what he had been during the first week. He hadn’t seen Louisa and was extremely worried about any negative impact on her from a meeting, so he didn’t push for one at all. Instead, he appeared to have a plan to leave for a week or ten days until her health was stronger. He had mentioned going down to Plymouth for a week and wanted to convince Captain Benwick to join him; however, as Charles insisted until the end, Captain Benwick seemed much more inclined to ride over to Kellynch.
There can be no doubt that Lady Russell and Anne were both occasionally thinking of Captain Benwick, from this time. Lady Russell could not hear the door-bell without feeling that it might be his herald; nor could Anne return from any stroll of solitary indulgence in her father’s grounds, or any visit of charity in the village, without wondering whether she might see him or hear of him. Captain Benwick came not, however. He was either less disposed for it than Charles had imagined, or he was too shy; and after giving him a week’s indulgence, Lady Russell determined him to be unworthy of the interest which he had been beginning to excite.
There’s no doubt that Lady Russell and Anne were both occasionally thinking of Captain Benwick from this point on. Lady Russell couldn’t hear the doorbell without feeling it might be announcing him; nor could Anne return from any solitary walk in her father’s grounds or any charitable visit in the village without wondering if she might see him or hear news about him. However, Captain Benwick didn’t come. He was either less inclined to visit than Charles had thought, or he was too shy; and after giving him a week’s grace, Lady Russell decided he wasn’t worth the interest he had started to generate.
The Musgroves came back to receive their happy boys and girls from school, bringing with them Mrs Harville’s little children, to improve the noise of Uppercross, and lessen that of Lyme. Henrietta remained with Louisa; but all the rest of the family were again in their usual quarters.
The Musgroves returned to welcome their happy kids home from school, bringing along Mrs. Harville’s little ones to add some liveliness to Uppercross and tone down the noise from Lyme. Henrietta stayed with Louisa, but the rest of the family was back in their usual spots.
Lady Russell and Anne paid their compliments to them once, when Anne could not but feel that Uppercross was already quite alive again. Though neither Henrietta, nor Louisa, nor Charles Hayter, nor Captain Wentworth were there, the room presented as strong a contrast as could be wished to the last state she had seen it in.
Lady Russell and Anne visited them once, and Anne couldn’t help but feel that Uppercross was already full of life again. Even though Henrietta, Louisa, Charles Hayter, and Captain Wentworth weren’t there, the room looked like a completely different place compared to what she had last seen.
Immediately surrounding Mrs Musgrove were the little Harvilles, whom she was sedulously guarding from the tyranny of the two children from the Cottage, expressly arrived to amuse them. On one side was a table occupied by some chattering girls, cutting up silk and gold paper; and on the other were tressels and trays, bending under the weight of brawn and cold pies, where riotous boys were holding high revel; the whole completed by a roaring Christmas fire, which seemed determined to be heard, in spite of all the noise of the others. Charles and Mary also came in, of course, during their visit, and Mr Musgrove made a point of paying his respects to Lady Russell, and sat down close to her for ten minutes, talking with a very raised voice, but from the clamour of the children on his knees, generally in vain. It was a fine family-piece.
Surrounding Mrs. Musgrove were the little Harvilles, whom she was carefully protecting from the obnoxiousness of the two kids from the Cottage, who had come specifically to entertain them. On one side was a table full of chatty girls cutting up silk and gold paper; on the other side were trestles and trays bending under the weight of cold meats and pies, where rowdy boys were having a great time; all of it completed by a roaring Christmas fire that seemed determined to be heard despite all the noise from everyone else. Charles and Mary also came in during their visit, and Mr. Musgrove made sure to pay his respects to Lady Russell, sitting down close to her for ten minutes and talking loudly, but generally in vain due to the clamor of the children on his lap. It was a beautiful family scene.
Anne, judging from her own temperament, would have deemed such a domestic hurricane a bad restorative of the nerves, which Louisa’s illness must have so greatly shaken. But Mrs Musgrove, who got Anne near her on purpose to thank her most cordially, again and again, for all her attentions to them, concluded a short recapitulation of what she had suffered herself by observing, with a happy glance round the room, that after all she had gone through, nothing was so likely to do her good as a little quiet cheerfulness at home.
Anne, based on her own personality, would have thought that such a chaotic home situation wouldn’t be a good way to calm her nerves, which Louisa’s illness must have really upset. But Mrs. Musgrove, who brought Anne close to her on purpose to thank her warmly, over and over, for all the care she had given them, ended a brief recap of what she had personally endured by noting, with a cheerful look around the room, that after everything she had been through, nothing was more likely to make her feel better than a little quiet happiness at home.
Louisa was now recovering apace. Her mother could even think of her being able to join their party at home, before her brothers and sisters went to school again. The Harvilles had promised to come with her and stay at Uppercross, whenever she returned. Captain Wentworth was gone, for the present, to see his brother in Shropshire.
Louisa was recovering quickly. Her mother could even imagine her being able to join the family at home before her brothers and sisters went back to school. The Harvilles had promised to come with her and stay at Uppercross whenever she returned. Captain Wentworth was currently away visiting his brother in Shropshire.
“I hope I shall remember, in future,” said Lady Russell, as soon as they were reseated in the carriage, “not to call at Uppercross in the Christmas holidays.”
“I hope I remember, in the future,” said Lady Russell, as soon as they were seated back in the carriage, “not to visit Uppercross during the Christmas holidays.”
Everybody has their taste in noises as well as in other matters; and sounds are quite innoxious, or most distressing, by their sort rather than their quantity. When Lady Russell not long afterwards, was entering Bath on a wet afternoon, and driving through the long course of streets from the Old Bridge to Camden Place, amidst the dash of other carriages, the heavy rumble of carts and drays, the bawling of newspapermen, muffin-men and milkmen, and the ceaseless clink of pattens, she made no complaint. No, these were noises which belonged to the winter pleasures; her spirits rose under their influence; and like Mrs Musgrove, she was feeling, though not saying, that after being long in the country, nothing could be so good for her as a little quiet cheerfulness.
Everyone has their preferences for sounds just like everything else; and noises can be pretty harmless or really annoying, depending more on what they are than how loud they are. When Lady Russell was driving into Bath one rainy afternoon, making her way through the long streets from the Old Bridge to Camden Place, surrounded by the hustle of other carriages, the heavy rumble of carts and trucks, the shouting of newspaper sellers, muffin sellers, and milkmen, and the constant clatter of their shoes, she didn’t complain. No, these were sounds that came with the joys of winter; they lifted her spirits, and like Mrs. Musgrove, she was feeling—though not saying—that after spending so much time in the countryside, nothing would be better for her than a little bit of cheerful calm.
Anne did not share these feelings. She persisted in a very determined, though very silent disinclination for Bath; caught the first dim view of the extensive buildings, smoking in rain, without any wish of seeing them better; felt their progress through the streets to be, however disagreeable, yet too rapid; for who would be glad to see her when she arrived? And looked back, with fond regret, to the bustles of Uppercross and the seclusion of Kellynch.
Anne didn’t feel the same way. She remained very determined, although very quietly, in her dislike for Bath; caught the first glimpse of the vast buildings shrouded in rain, with no desire to see them more clearly; found their journey through the streets to be, despite its discomfort, too quick; because who would really be happy to see her when she got there? And she looked back, with longing, at the hustle of Uppercross and the solitude of Kellynch.
Elizabeth’s last letter had communicated a piece of news of some interest. Mr Elliot was in Bath. He had called in Camden Place; had called a second time, a third; had been pointedly attentive. If Elizabeth and her father did not deceive themselves, had been taking much pains to seek the acquaintance, and proclaim the value of the connection, as he had formerly taken pains to shew neglect. This was very wonderful if it were true; and Lady Russell was in a state of very agreeable curiosity and perplexity about Mr Elliot, already recanting the sentiment she had so lately expressed to Mary, of his being “a man whom she had no wish to see.” She had a great wish to see him. If he really sought to reconcile himself like a dutiful branch, he must be forgiven for having dismembered himself from the paternal tree.
Elizabeth’s last letter brought some interesting news. Mr. Elliot was in Bath. He had visited Camden Place; he came back a second time, then a third; he was clearly paying attention. If Elizabeth and her father weren't mistaken, he had been making a strong effort to get to know them and show how much he valued the connection, which was quite different from the way he had previously acted with neglect. This was quite surprising if it was true; Lady Russell found herself very curious and confused about Mr. Elliot, already reversing the opinion she had just shared with Mary that he was “a man she had no desire to see.” In fact, she was very eager to see him. If he really wanted to make amends as a good family member, he deserved to be forgiven for having distanced himself from the family tree.
Anne was not animated to an equal pitch by the circumstance, but she felt that she would rather see Mr Elliot again than not, which was more than she could say for many other persons in Bath.
Anne wasn't as excited about the situation, but she realized she would prefer to see Mr. Elliot again rather than not, which was more than she could say for many other people in Bath.
She was put down in Camden Place; and Lady Russell then drove to her own lodgings, in Rivers Street.
She was dropped off at Camden Place, and Lady Russell then drove to her own place in Rivers Street.
CHAPTER XV.
Sir Walter had taken a very good house in Camden Place, a lofty dignified situation, such as becomes a man of consequence; and both he and Elizabeth were settled there, much to their satisfaction.
Sir Walter had rented a great house in Camden Place, a high and impressive spot that befits a man of importance; and both he and Elizabeth were comfortably settled there, which they were very pleased about.
Anne entered it with a sinking heart, anticipating an imprisonment of many months, and anxiously saying to herself, “Oh! when shall I leave you again?” A degree of unexpected cordiality, however, in the welcome she received, did her good. Her father and sister were glad to see her, for the sake of shewing her the house and furniture, and met her with kindness. Her making a fourth, when they sat down to dinner, was noticed as an advantage.
Anne walked in with a heavy heart, expecting to be stuck there for many months, and worriedly thinking, “Oh! When will I be able to leave again?” However, she felt uplifted by the unexpected warmth of her welcome. Her father and sister were happy to see her, eager to show her the house and furniture, and greeted her with kindness. Her presence as a fourth guest at dinner was seen as a plus.
Mrs Clay was very pleasant, and very smiling, but her courtesies and smiles were more a matter of course. Anne had always felt that she would pretend what was proper on her arrival, but the complaisance of the others was unlooked for. They were evidently in excellent spirits, and she was soon to listen to the causes. They had no inclination to listen to her. After laying out for some compliments of being deeply regretted in their old neighbourhood, which Anne could not pay, they had only a few faint enquiries to make, before the talk must be all their own. Uppercross excited no interest, Kellynch very little: it was all Bath.
Mrs. Clay was really friendly and always smiling, but her niceness felt routine. Anne had figured she would put on a show of politeness when she arrived, but she didn’t expect the others to be so cheerful. They were clearly in great spirits, and soon enough, she would hear why. They weren’t really interested in hearing about her. After they dropped a few half-hearted compliments about how much they missed her in their old neighborhood, which Anne couldn’t reciprocate, they only had a couple of weak questions before the conversation turned entirely in their favor. Uppercross didn’t spark any interest, and Kellynch barely any; it was all about Bath.
They had the pleasure of assuring her that Bath more than answered their expectations in every respect. Their house was undoubtedly the best in Camden Place; their drawing-rooms had many decided advantages over all the others which they had either seen or heard of, and the superiority was not less in the style of the fitting-up, or the taste of the furniture. Their acquaintance was exceedingly sought after. Everybody was wanting to visit them. They had drawn back from many introductions, and still were perpetually having cards left by people of whom they knew nothing.
They were happy to let her know that Bath exceeded their expectations in every way. Their house was definitely the best on Camden Place; their living rooms had several clear advantages over all the others they had seen or heard about, and the quality was just as impressive in the decor and the style of the furniture. They had become very popular. Everyone wanted to visit them. They had turned down many introductions, yet they were continuously receiving cards from people they didn’t know at all.
Here were funds of enjoyment. Could Anne wonder that her father and sister were happy? She might not wonder, but she must sigh that her father should feel no degradation in his change, should see nothing to regret in the duties and dignity of the resident landholder, should find so much to be vain of in the littlenesses of a town; and she must sigh, and smile, and wonder too, as Elizabeth threw open the folding-doors and walked with exultation from one drawing-room to the other, boasting of their space; at the possibility of that woman, who had been mistress of Kellynch Hall, finding extent to be proud of between two walls, perhaps thirty feet asunder.
Here was a source of enjoyment. Could Anne be surprised that her father and sister were happy? She might not be surprised, but she had to sigh that her father felt no shame in his change, saw nothing to regret in the responsibilities and status of a local landowner, and found so much to be proud of in the small things of a town. She had to sigh, smile, and wonder as Elizabeth threw open the folding doors and walked with excitement from one living room to another, bragging about their size; at the idea of that woman, who had been the mistress of Kellynch Hall, finding pride in the space between two walls, perhaps thirty feet apart.
But this was not all which they had to make them happy. They had Mr Elliot too. Anne had a great deal to hear of Mr Elliot. He was not only pardoned, they were delighted with him. He had been in Bath about a fortnight; (he had passed through Bath in November, in his way to London, when the intelligence of Sir Walter’s being settled there had of course reached him, though only twenty-four hours in the place, but he had not been able to avail himself of it;) but he had now been a fortnight in Bath, and his first object on arriving, had been to leave his card in Camden Place, following it up by such assiduous endeavours to meet, and when they did meet, by such great openness of conduct, such readiness to apologize for the past, such solicitude to be received as a relation again, that their former good understanding was completely re-established.
But that wasn’t all they had to make them happy. They had Mr. Elliot too. Anne had a lot to catch up on about Mr. Elliot. He wasn’t just forgiven; they were thrilled with him. He had been in Bath for about two weeks; he had passed through Bath in November on his way to London, when he obviously heard that Sir Walter was settled there, even though he had only spent twenty-four hours in town and hadn’t been able to take advantage of it; but now, after two weeks in Bath, his first goal upon arrival had been to leave his card at Camden Place, followed by persistent efforts to meet up, and when they did meet, he showed great openness, was eager to apologize for the past, and was very concerned about being accepted as family again, so their previous good relationship was completely restored.
They had not a fault to find in him. He had explained away all the appearance of neglect on his own side. It had originated in misapprehension entirely. He had never had an idea of throwing himself off; he had feared that he was thrown off, but knew not why, and delicacy had kept him silent. Upon the hint of having spoken disrespectfully or carelessly of the family and the family honours, he was quite indignant. He, who had ever boasted of being an Elliot, and whose feelings, as to connection, were only too strict to suit the unfeudal tone of the present day. He was astonished, indeed, but his character and general conduct must refute it. He could refer Sir Walter to all who knew him; and certainly, the pains he had been taking on this, the first opportunity of reconciliation, to be restored to the footing of a relation and heir-presumptive, was a strong proof of his opinions on the subject.
They couldn’t find any fault with him. He had cleared up all the signs of neglect on his part. It was all a misunderstanding. He never intended to distance himself; he feared he was being pushed away, but he didn’t know why, and his sense of propriety kept him from speaking up. When he heard a suggestion that he had spoken disrespectfully or carelessly about the family and its reputation, he was really offended. He, who had always taken pride in being an Elliot, and who felt a strong connection to his family that was too rigid for today’s more casual attitude. He was genuinely shocked, but his character and overall behavior would prove otherwise. He could point Sir Walter to everyone who knew him; and certainly, the effort he had made at this, the first chance for reconciliation, to be recognized as a family member and the next in line, was strong evidence of his views on the matter.
The circumstances of his marriage, too, were found to admit of much extenuation. This was an article not to be entered on by himself; but a very intimate friend of his, a Colonel Wallis, a highly respectable man, perfectly the gentleman, (and not an ill-looking man, Sir Walter added), who was living in very good style in Marlborough Buildings, and had, at his own particular request, been admitted to their acquaintance through Mr Elliot, had mentioned one or two things relative to the marriage, which made a material difference in the discredit of it.
The circumstances surrounding his marriage also had many mitigating factors. This was something he wouldn’t discuss himself; however, a close friend of his, Colonel Wallis, a very respectable gentleman (and not an unattractive man, Sir Walter added), who was living comfortably in Marlborough Buildings, had, at his own request, been introduced to their circle through Mr. Elliot. He mentioned a couple of details about the marriage that significantly changed how it was viewed.
Colonel Wallis had known Mr Elliot long, had been well acquainted also with his wife, had perfectly understood the whole story. She was certainly not a woman of family, but well educated, accomplished, rich, and excessively in love with his friend. There had been the charm. She had sought him. Without that attraction, not all her money would have tempted Elliot, and Sir Walter was, moreover, assured of her having been a very fine woman. Here was a great deal to soften the business. A very fine woman with a large fortune, in love with him! Sir Walter seemed to admit it as complete apology; and though Elizabeth could not see the circumstance in quite so favourable a light, she allowed it be a great extenuation.
Colonel Wallis had known Mr. Elliot for a long time and was well-acquainted with his wife. He fully understood the whole situation. She wasn't necessarily from a prestigious background, but she was well-educated, talented, wealthy, and deeply in love with his friend. That was the appeal. She had pursued him. Without that connection, no amount of her money would have attracted Elliot, and Sir Walter was also certain that she had been a truly remarkable woman. This added a lot to soften the situation. A remarkable woman with a big fortune, in love with him! Sir Walter seemed to accept this as a complete excuse; and even though Elizabeth didn't see things in such a positive way, she recognized it as a significant mitigating factor.
Mr Elliot had called repeatedly, had dined with them once, evidently delighted by the distinction of being asked, for they gave no dinners in general; delighted, in short, by every proof of cousinly notice, and placing his whole happiness in being on intimate terms in Camden Place.
Mr. Elliot had called several times, had dinner with them once, clearly thrilled by the honor of being invited since they rarely hosted dinners; he was simply overjoyed by any sign of family attention and considered his entire happiness to be rooted in having close ties with Camden Place.
Anne listened, but without quite understanding it. Allowances, large allowances, she knew, must be made for the ideas of those who spoke. She heard it all under embellishment. All that sounded extravagant or irrational in the progress of the reconciliation might have no origin but in the language of the relators. Still, however, she had the sensation of there being something more than immediately appeared, in Mr Elliot’s wishing, after an interval of so many years, to be well received by them. In a worldly view, he had nothing to gain by being on terms with Sir Walter; nothing to risk by a state of variance. In all probability he was already the richer of the two, and the Kellynch estate would as surely be his hereafter as the title. A sensible man, and he had looked like a very sensible man, why should it be an object to him? She could only offer one solution; it was, perhaps, for Elizabeth’s sake. There might really have been a liking formerly, though convenience and accident had drawn him a different way; and now that he could afford to please himself, he might mean to pay his addresses to her. Elizabeth was certainly very handsome, with well-bred, elegant manners, and her character might never have been penetrated by Mr Elliot, knowing her but in public, and when very young himself. How her temper and understanding might bear the investigation of his present keener time of life was another concern and rather a fearful one. Most earnestly did she wish that he might not be too nice, or too observant if Elizabeth were his object; and that Elizabeth was disposed to believe herself so, and that her friend Mrs Clay was encouraging the idea, seemed apparent by a glance or two between them, while Mr Elliot’s frequent visits were talked of.
Anne listened, but she didn’t fully understand it. She knew that big allowances had to be made for the perspectives of those speaking. She perceived everything through a certain embellishment. Anything that sounded extravagant or irrational in the context of the reconciliation might have originated solely from the way the storytellers presented it. Still, she sensed that there was more to Mr. Elliot's desire to be welcomed by them after so many years than met the eye. From a practical standpoint, he had nothing to gain from being on good terms with Sir Walter and nothing to lose by being at odds with him. Most likely, he was already the wealthier of the two, and the Kellynch estate would surely belong to him in the future, just as the title would. He seemed like a sensible man—so why would it matter to him? She could only come up with one explanation: perhaps it was for Elizabeth’s sake. There might have been some genuine affection in the past, even though convenience and chance had taken him in a different direction. Now that he could choose for himself, he might intend to pursue her. Elizabeth was definitely very attractive, with refined and elegant manners, and Mr. Elliot may never have really understood her character, having known her only in public when he was very young himself. How his current, sharper perspective would evaluate her temperament and intellect was another issue, and a rather alarming one. She sincerely hoped he wouldn’t be too critical or too perceptive if Elizabeth was indeed his target; it was clear from a few exchanged glances that Elizabeth believed herself to be so, and that her friend Mrs. Clay was encouraging this notion, especially as Mr. Elliot’s frequent visits were discussed.
Anne mentioned the glimpses she had had of him at Lyme, but without being much attended to. “Oh! yes, perhaps, it had been Mr Elliot. They did not know. It might be him, perhaps.” They could not listen to her description of him. They were describing him themselves; Sir Walter especially. He did justice to his very gentlemanlike appearance, his air of elegance and fashion, his good shaped face, his sensible eye; but, at the same time, “must lament his being very much under-hung, a defect which time seemed to have increased; nor could he pretend to say that ten years had not altered almost every feature for the worse. Mr Elliot appeared to think that he (Sir Walter) was looking exactly as he had done when they last parted;” but Sir Walter had “not been able to return the compliment entirely, which had embarrassed him. He did not mean to complain, however. Mr Elliot was better to look at than most men, and he had no objection to being seen with him anywhere.”
Anne mentioned the brief sightings she had of him at Lyme, but no one really paid much attention. “Oh! yes, maybe it was Mr. Elliot. They didn’t know. It could have been him, I suppose.” They couldn't focus on her description of him. They were busy describing him themselves; particularly Sir Walter. He praised his very gentlemanly appearance, his elegant and fashionable vibe, his well-shaped face, and his intelligent eyes; but, at the same time, he had to “lament his being quite under-hung, a flaw that time seemed to have worsened; nor could he honestly say that ten years hadn’t changed almost every feature for the worse. Mr. Elliot seemed to think that he (Sir Walter) looked exactly as he did when they last met;” but Sir Walter couldn’t “return the compliment completely, which made him uncomfortable. He didn’t want to complain, though. Mr. Elliot was better-looking than most men, and he had no problem being seen with him anywhere.”
Mr Elliot, and his friends in Marlborough Buildings, were talked of the whole evening. “Colonel Wallis had been so impatient to be introduced to them! and Mr Elliot so anxious that he should!” and there was a Mrs Wallis, at present known only to them by description, as she was in daily expectation of her confinement; but Mr Elliot spoke of her as “a most charming woman, quite worthy of being known in Camden Place,” and as soon as she recovered they were to be acquainted. Sir Walter thought much of Mrs Wallis; she was said to be an excessively pretty woman, beautiful. “He longed to see her. He hoped she might make some amends for the many very plain faces he was continually passing in the streets. The worst of Bath was the number of its plain women. He did not mean to say that there were no pretty women, but the number of the plain was out of all proportion. He had frequently observed, as he walked, that one handsome face would be followed by thirty, or five-and-thirty frights; and once, as he had stood in a shop on Bond Street, he had counted eighty-seven women go by, one after another, without there being a tolerable face among them. It had been a frosty morning, to be sure, a sharp frost, which hardly one woman in a thousand could stand the test of. But still, there certainly were a dreadful multitude of ugly women in Bath; and as for the men! they were infinitely worse. Such scarecrows as the streets were full of! It was evident how little the women were used to the sight of anything tolerable, by the effect which a man of decent appearance produced. He had never walked anywhere arm-in-arm with Colonel Wallis (who was a fine military figure, though sandy-haired) without observing that every woman’s eye was upon him; every woman’s eye was sure to be upon Colonel Wallis.” Modest Sir Walter! He was not allowed to escape, however. His daughter and Mrs Clay united in hinting that Colonel Wallis’s companion might have as good a figure as Colonel Wallis, and certainly was not sandy-haired.
Mr. Elliot and his friends in Marlborough Buildings were the topic of conversation all evening. “Colonel Wallis had been so eager to meet them! And Mr. Elliot was just as eager for him to!” There was also a Mrs. Wallis, who they only knew by description since she was about to give birth; however, Mr. Elliot described her as “a charming woman, definitely worth knowing in Camden Place,” and as soon as she recovered, they were going to be introduced. Sir Walter thought a lot about Mrs. Wallis; she was said to be extremely pretty, beautiful even. “He couldn't wait to see her. He hoped she might make up for all the many very plain faces he constantly saw in the streets. The worst part about Bath was the number of plain women. He wasn't saying there were no pretty women, but the number of plain ones was totally out of proportion. He often noticed while walking that one attractive face would be followed by thirty or thirty-five ugly ones; and once, while standing in a shop on Bond Street, he counted eighty-seven women passing by, one after another, without a single decent face among them. It had been a frosty morning, of course, a sharp frost that hardly one woman in a thousand could endure. But still, there truly were a shocking number of ugly women in Bath; and as for the men! They were even worse. The streets were filled with such scarecrows! It was clear how little the women were used to seeing anything decent, judging by the reaction a well-dressed man caused. He had never walked anywhere arm-in-arm with Colonel Wallis (who was quite the handsome military figure, though sandy-haired) without noticing every woman’s eye was on him; every woman’s eye was definitely on Colonel Wallis.” Modest Sir Walter! He couldn't escape, though. His daughter and Mrs. Clay teamed up to suggest that Colonel Wallis's companion might have as good a figure as Colonel Wallis and certainly wasn’t sandy-haired.
“How is Mary looking?” said Sir Walter, in the height of his good humour. “The last time I saw her she had a red nose, but I hope that may not happen every day.”
“How does Mary look?” said Sir Walter, in a great mood. “The last time I saw her, she had a red nose, but I hope that doesn't happen every day.”
“Oh! no, that must have been quite accidental. In general she has been in very good health and very good looks since Michaelmas.”
“Oh no, that must have been totally unintentional. Overall, she has been in great health and looking good since Michaelmas.”
“If I thought it would not tempt her to go out in sharp winds, and grow coarse, I would send her a new hat and pelisse.”
“If I thought it wouldn't encourage her to go out in harsh winds and become rough, I would send her a new hat and coat.”
Anne was considering whether she should venture to suggest that a gown, or a cap, would not be liable to any such misuse, when a knock at the door suspended everything. “A knock at the door! and so late! It was ten o’clock. Could it be Mr Elliot? They knew he was to dine in Lansdown Crescent. It was possible that he might stop in his way home to ask them how they did. They could think of no one else. Mrs Clay decidedly thought it Mr Elliot’s knock.” Mrs Clay was right. With all the state which a butler and foot-boy could give, Mr Elliot was ushered into the room.
Anne was pondering whether she should suggest that a dress or a hat wouldn't be prone to any kind of misuse when a knock at the door interrupted everything. “A knock at the door! And so late! It was ten o’clock. Could it be Mr. Elliot? They knew he was supposed to have dinner in Lansdown Crescent. It was possible he might stop by on his way home to check in on them. They couldn't think of anyone else. Mrs. Clay firmly believed it was Mr. Elliot’s knock.” Mrs. Clay was correct. With all the formality that a butler and footman could provide, Mr. Elliot was ushered into the room.
It was the same, the very same man, with no difference but of dress. Anne drew a little back, while the others received his compliments, and her sister his apologies for calling at so unusual an hour, but “he could not be so near without wishing to know that neither she nor her friend had taken cold the day before,” &c. &c.; which was all as politely done, and as politely taken, as possible, but her part must follow then. Sir Walter talked of his youngest daughter; “Mr Elliot must give him leave to present him to his youngest daughter” (there was no occasion for remembering Mary); and Anne, smiling and blushing, very becomingly shewed to Mr Elliot the pretty features which he had by no means forgotten, and instantly saw, with amusement at his little start of surprise, that he had not been at all aware of who she was. He looked completely astonished, but not more astonished than pleased; his eyes brightened! and with the most perfect alacrity he welcomed the relationship, alluded to the past, and entreated to be received as an acquaintance already. He was quite as good-looking as he had appeared at Lyme, his countenance improved by speaking, and his manners were so exactly what they ought to be, so polished, so easy, so particularly agreeable, that she could compare them in excellence to only one person’s manners. They were not the same, but they were, perhaps, equally good.
It was the same man, just in different clothes. Anne stepped back a little while the others accepted his compliments, and her sister explained that he was sorry for visiting at such an unusual hour, but “he couldn’t be so close by without checking to see if she or her friend had caught a cold the day before,” etc., etc. This was all very politely done and received, but then it was Anne's turn. Sir Walter mentioned his youngest daughter. “Mr. Elliot must allow him to introduce him to his youngest daughter” (there was no need to remember Mary); and Anne, smiling and blushing, showed Mr. Elliot the pretty features he definitely hadn’t forgotten, instantly noticing, with amusement at his little gasp of surprise, that he hadn’t realized who she was. He looked completely shocked, but not more shocked than happy; his eyes lit up! And with perfect eagerness he welcomed the connection, referenced the past, and asked to be accepted as an acquaintance already. He was just as good-looking as he seemed at Lyme, his appearance enhanced by conversation, and his manners were exactly what they should be—polished, relaxed, and especially pleasant—so she could only compare their excellence to one other person's manners. They weren't the same, but they were perhaps equally good.
He sat down with them, and improved their conversation very much. There could be no doubt of his being a sensible man. Ten minutes were enough to certify that. His tone, his expressions, his choice of subject, his knowing where to stop; it was all the operation of a sensible, discerning mind. As soon as he could, he began to talk to her of Lyme, wanting to compare opinions respecting the place, but especially wanting to speak of the circumstance of their happening to be guests in the same inn at the same time; to give his own route, understand something of hers, and regret that he should have lost such an opportunity of paying his respects to her. She gave him a short account of her party and business at Lyme. His regret increased as he listened. He had spent his whole solitary evening in the room adjoining theirs; had heard voices, mirth continually; thought they must be a most delightful set of people, longed to be with them, but certainly without the smallest suspicion of his possessing the shadow of a right to introduce himself. If he had but asked who the party were! The name of Musgrove would have told him enough. “Well, it would serve to cure him of an absurd practice of never asking a question at an inn, which he had adopted, when quite a young man, on the principle of its being very ungenteel to be curious.”
He sat down with them and really improved their conversation. There was no doubt he was a smart guy. Just ten minutes was enough to show that. His tone, expressions, choice of topics, and knowing when to stop all showed he had a sensible and discerning mind. As soon as he could, he started talking to her about Lyme, wanting to compare thoughts on the place but especially to discuss the fact that they were both guests at the same inn at the same time; he wanted to share his plans, learn about hers, and regret missing the chance to pay his respects to her. She gave him a brief overview of her group and reasons for being in Lyme. His regret grew as he listened. He had spent his entire solitary evening in the room next to theirs, hearing voices and laughter, thinking they must be a wonderful group of people, and longing to join them, but without the slightest idea that he had any right to introduce himself. If only he had asked who they were! The name Musgrove would have told him everything he needed to know. “Well, this will cure him of his silly habit of never asking questions at inns, which he adopted when he was young, believing it was very uncouth to be curious.”
“The notions of a young man of one or two and twenty,” said he, “as to what is necessary in manners to make him quite the thing, are more absurd, I believe, than those of any other set of beings in the world. The folly of the means they often employ is only to be equalled by the folly of what they have in view.”
“The ideas of a young man in his early twenties,” he said, “about what manners are needed to fit in perfectly are, I believe, more ridiculous than those of any other group in the world. The foolish methods they often use are only matched by the foolishness of their goals.”
But he must not be addressing his reflections to Anne alone: he knew it; he was soon diffused again among the others, and it was only at intervals that he could return to Lyme.
But he couldn’t be directing his thoughts to Anne alone: he realized that; he soon blended back in with the others, and it was only occasionally that he could return to Lyme.
His enquiries, however, produced at length an account of the scene she had been engaged in there, soon after his leaving the place. Having alluded to “an accident,” he must hear the whole. When he questioned, Sir Walter and Elizabeth began to question also, but the difference in their manner of doing it could not be unfelt. She could only compare Mr Elliot to Lady Russell, in the wish of really comprehending what had passed, and in the degree of concern for what she must have suffered in witnessing it.
His inquiries eventually led to a description of the situation she had been involved in right after he left. Since he had mentioned “an accident,” he needed to know the entire story. When he asked about it, Sir Walter and Elizabeth also started to ask questions, but the difference in how they approached it was clear. She could only compare Mr. Elliot to Lady Russell, both wanting to truly understand what had happened and showing concern for what she must have gone through by witnessing it.
He staid an hour with them. The elegant little clock on the mantel-piece had struck “eleven with its silver sounds,” and the watchman was beginning to be heard at a distance telling the same tale, before Mr Elliot or any of them seemed to feel that he had been there long.
He stayed an hour with them. The elegant little clock on the mantelpiece had struck “eleven with its silver sounds,” and the watchman was starting to be heard at a distance telling the same story, before Mr. Elliot or any of them seemed to realize he had been there for a while.
Anne could not have supposed it possible that her first evening in Camden Place could have passed so well!
Anne never thought it was possible for her first evening in Camden Place to go so well!
CHAPTER XVI.
There was one point which Anne, on returning to her family, would have been more thankful to ascertain even than Mr Elliot’s being in love with Elizabeth, which was, her father’s not being in love with Mrs Clay; and she was very far from easy about it, when she had been at home a few hours. On going down to breakfast the next morning, she found there had just been a decent pretence on the lady’s side of meaning to leave them. She could imagine Mrs Clay to have said, that “now Miss Anne was come, she could not suppose herself at all wanted;” for Elizabeth was replying in a sort of whisper, “That must not be any reason, indeed. I assure you I feel it none. She is nothing to me, compared with you;” and she was in full time to hear her father say, “My dear madam, this must not be. As yet, you have seen nothing of Bath. You have been here only to be useful. You must not run away from us now. You must stay to be acquainted with Mrs Wallis, the beautiful Mrs Wallis. To your fine mind, I well know the sight of beauty is a real gratification.”
There was one thing that Anne, upon returning to her family, would have been even more thankful to learn than Mr. Elliot being in love with Elizabeth: that her father wasn’t in love with Mrs. Clay. She didn’t feel at ease about it after being home for just a few hours. When she went down for breakfast the next morning, she discovered that Mrs. Clay had only pretended to want to leave. She could picture Mrs. Clay saying that “now that Miss Anne is here, she couldn’t imagine being needed at all,” because Elizabeth was responding in a sort of whisper, “That can’t be a reason, truly. I promise you I don’t feel that way. She's nothing to me compared to you.” She was just in time to hear her father say, “My dear lady, that can’t happen. So far, you haven’t seen anything of Bath. You’ve only been here to help us. You can’t leave us now. You must stay to meet Mrs. Wallis, the beautiful Mrs. Wallis. I know that for your refined taste, seeing beauty is a real pleasure.”
He spoke and looked so much in earnest, that Anne was not surprised to see Mrs Clay stealing a glance at Elizabeth and herself. Her countenance, perhaps, might express some watchfulness; but the praise of the fine mind did not appear to excite a thought in her sister. The lady could not but yield to such joint entreaties, and promise to stay.
He spoke and looked so serious that Anne wasn’t surprised to see Mrs. Clay glancing at Elizabeth and her. Her expression might show some concern, but the compliment about the brilliant mind didn’t seem to stir any thoughts in her sister. The lady couldn’t help but give in to such combined requests and agree to stay.
In the course of the same morning, Anne and her father chancing to be alone together, he began to compliment her on her improved looks; he thought her “less thin in her person, in her cheeks; her skin, her complexion, greatly improved; clearer, fresher. Had she been using any thing in particular?” “No, nothing.” “Merely Gowland,” he supposed. “No, nothing at all.” “Ha! he was surprised at that;” and added, “certainly you cannot do better than to continue as you are; you cannot be better than well; or I should recommend Gowland, the constant use of Gowland, during the spring months. Mrs Clay has been using it at my recommendation, and you see what it has done for her. You see how it has carried away her freckles.”
That same morning, Anne and her father found themselves alone together, and he started complimenting her on how much better she looked. He thought she seemed “less thin overall, her cheeks look fuller; her skin and complexion have really improved; they’re clearer and fresher. Have you been using anything special?” “No, nothing.” “Just Gowland, I suppose.” “No, nothing at all.” “Ha! He was surprised to hear that,” he added, “but you definitely can’t do better than to keep it up as you are; you can’t be better than well. Otherwise, I’d suggest using Gowland regularly during the spring. Mrs. Clay has been using it on my advice, and you can see what it has done for her. Look at how it has faded her freckles.”
If Elizabeth could but have heard this! Such personal praise might have struck her, especially as it did not appear to Anne that the freckles were at all lessened. But everything must take its chance. The evil of a marriage would be much diminished, if Elizabeth were also to marry. As for herself, she might always command a home with Lady Russell.
If only Elizabeth could have heard this! Such personal praise might have caught her attention, especially since Anne didn’t think the freckles had lessened at all. But everything has to take its course. The downsides of a marriage would be greatly reduced if Elizabeth were to marry too. As for Anne, she could always have a place to stay with Lady Russell.
Lady Russell’s composed mind and polite manners were put to some trial on this point, in her intercourse in Camden Place. The sight of Mrs Clay in such favour, and of Anne so overlooked, was a perpetual provocation to her there; and vexed her as much when she was away, as a person in Bath who drinks the water, gets all the new publications, and has a very large acquaintance, has time to be vexed.
Lady Russell’s calm demeanor and polite manners were tested a bit during her time in Camden Place. Seeing Mrs. Clay being favored and Anne being ignored was constantly frustrating for her; it bothered her just as much when she was away as it does for someone in Bath who drinks the water, keeps up with all the new publications, and has a wide circle of acquaintances – they have time to be annoyed.
As Mr Elliot became known to her, she grew more charitable, or more indifferent, towards the others. His manners were an immediate recommendation; and on conversing with him she found the solid so fully supporting the superficial, that she was at first, as she told Anne, almost ready to exclaim, “Can this be Mr Elliot?” and could not seriously picture to herself a more agreeable or estimable man. Everything united in him; good understanding, correct opinions, knowledge of the world, and a warm heart. He had strong feelings of family attachment and family honour, without pride or weakness; he lived with the liberality of a man of fortune, without display; he judged for himself in everything essential, without defying public opinion in any point of worldly decorum. He was steady, observant, moderate, candid; never run away with by spirits or by selfishness, which fancied itself strong feeling; and yet, with a sensibility to what was amiable and lovely, and a value for all the felicities of domestic life, which characters of fancied enthusiasm and violent agitation seldom really possess. She was sure that he had not been happy in marriage. Colonel Wallis said it, and Lady Russell saw it; but it had been no unhappiness to sour his mind, nor (she began pretty soon to suspect) to prevent his thinking of a second choice. Her satisfaction in Mr Elliot outweighed all the plague of Mrs Clay.
As Mr. Elliot became more familiar to her, she became more generous, or more indifferent, towards others. His manner immediately made a good impression; and in talking with him, she found that the substance fully supported the style, to the point where she almost exclaimed, “Can this really be Mr. Elliot?” and couldn’t genuinely imagine a more likable or admirable man. Everything came together in him: good judgment, sound opinions, worldly knowledge, and a warm heart. He had a strong sense of family loyalty and honor, without being proud or weak; he lived with the generosity of a wealthy man, but without showiness; he made his own judgments on everything significant, without rebelling against any aspect of societal norms. He was steady, observant, moderate, and honest; never swept away by emotions or by selfishness masquerading as strong feelings; yet, he had a sensitivity to what was nice and lovely, and appreciated all the joys of family life, which people pretending to be fervent and passionately agitated rarely truly possess. She was convinced that he had not been happy in marriage. Colonel Wallis mentioned it, and Lady Russell noticed it; but it hadn’t turned his mind bitter, nor did she soon begin to suspect it was preventing him from considering a second marriage. Her satisfaction in Mr. Elliot overshadowed all the annoyance caused by Mrs. Clay.
It was now some years since Anne had begun to learn that she and her excellent friend could sometimes think differently; and it did not surprise her, therefore, that Lady Russell should see nothing suspicious or inconsistent, nothing to require more motives than appeared, in Mr Elliot’s great desire of a reconciliation. In Lady Russell’s view, it was perfectly natural that Mr Elliot, at a mature time of life, should feel it a most desirable object, and what would very generally recommend him among all sensible people, to be on good terms with the head of his family; the simplest process in the world of time upon a head naturally clear, and only erring in the heyday of youth. Anne presumed, however, still to smile about it, and at last to mention “Elizabeth.” Lady Russell listened, and looked, and made only this cautious reply:—“Elizabeth! very well; time will explain.”
It had been a few years since Anne started to realize that she and her wonderful friend sometimes had different opinions; so, she wasn't surprised that Lady Russell didn't find anything suspicious or inconsistent in Mr. Elliot's strong desire for a reconciliation. From Lady Russell's perspective, it made perfect sense for Mr. Elliot, at his age, to want to be on good terms with the head of his family, which would typically be seen as a positive thing by sensible people. It seemed like a simple enough conclusion for someone with a clear mind, who had only made mistakes in their youth. However, Anne still felt like smiling about it and eventually brought up “Elizabeth.” Lady Russell listened and watched, then responded cautiously: “Elizabeth! That's fine; time will tell.”
It was a reference to the future, which Anne, after a little observation, felt she must submit to. She could determine nothing at present. In that house Elizabeth must be first; and she was in the habit of such general observance as “Miss Elliot,” that any particularity of attention seemed almost impossible. Mr Elliot, too, it must be remembered, had not been a widower seven months. A little delay on his side might be very excusable. In fact, Anne could never see the crape round his hat, without fearing that she was the inexcusable one, in attributing to him such imaginations; for though his marriage had not been very happy, still it had existed so many years that she could not comprehend a very rapid recovery from the awful impression of its being dissolved.
It was a hint about the future, which Anne, after some observation, felt she had to accept. She couldn’t figure anything out for now. In that house, Elizabeth had to be the priority; she was so used to being called “Miss Elliot” that any special attention seemed nearly impossible. Plus, Mr. Elliot hadn't been a widower for even seven months. A little delay on his part could be understandable. In fact, every time Anne saw the black fabric around his hat, she worried that she was the one being unreasonable for thinking such things; because although his marriage hadn’t been very happy, it had lasted so many years that she couldn’t imagine him bouncing back quickly from the terrible reality of it being over.
However it might end, he was without any question their pleasantest acquaintance in Bath: she saw nobody equal to him; and it was a great indulgence now and then to talk to him about Lyme, which he seemed to have as lively a wish to see again, and to see more of, as herself. They went through the particulars of their first meeting a great many times. He gave her to understand that he had looked at her with some earnestness. She knew it well; and she remembered another person’s look also.
However it might end, he was definitely their most enjoyable acquaintance in Bath: she didn’t see anyone who compared to him; and it was a real treat to chat with him occasionally about Lyme, which he seemed just as eager to revisit and learn more about as she was. They went over the details of their first meeting numerous times. He made it clear that he had looked at her with some seriousness. She knew that well; and she also remembered another person's gaze.
They did not always think alike. His value for rank and connexion she perceived was greater than hers. It was not merely complaisance, it must be a liking to the cause, which made him enter warmly into her father and sister’s solicitudes on a subject which she thought unworthy to excite them. The Bath paper one morning announced the arrival of the Dowager Viscountess Dalrymple, and her daughter, the Honourable Miss Carteret; and all the comfort of No. —, Camden Place, was swept away for many days; for the Dalrymples (in Anne’s opinion, most unfortunately) were cousins of the Elliots; and the agony was how to introduce themselves properly.
They didn't always share the same views. She noticed that he valued social status and connections more than she did. It wasn't just politeness; he seemed to genuinely care about her father and sister’s worries about a topic she thought was not worth their concern. One morning, the Bath paper announced the arrival of the Dowager Viscountess Dalrymple and her daughter, the Honourable Miss Carteret; and all the comfort of No. —, Camden Place, was lost for many days. In Anne’s opinion, it was very unfortunate that the Dalrymples were cousins of the Elliots, and the big challenge was figuring out how to introduce themselves properly.
Anne had never seen her father and sister before in contact with nobility, and she must acknowledge herself disappointed. She had hoped better things from their high ideas of their own situation in life, and was reduced to form a wish which she had never foreseen; a wish that they had more pride; for “our cousins Lady Dalrymple and Miss Carteret;” “our cousins, the Dalrymples,” sounded in her ears all day long.
Anne had never seen her father and sister interacting with nobility before, and she had to admit she was disappointed. She had expected more from their lofty views of their own status in life, and she found herself wishing for something she never expected; a wish that they had a bit more pride. The phrases “our cousins Lady Dalrymple and Miss Carteret” and “our cousins, the Dalrymples” echoed in her mind all day long.
Sir Walter had once been in company with the late viscount, but had never seen any of the rest of the family; and the difficulties of the case arose from there having been a suspension of all intercourse by letters of ceremony, ever since the death of that said late viscount, when, in consequence of a dangerous illness of Sir Walter’s at the same time, there had been an unlucky omission at Kellynch. No letter of condolence had been sent to Ireland. The neglect had been visited on the head of the sinner; for when poor Lady Elliot died herself, no letter of condolence was received at Kellynch, and, consequently, there was but too much reason to apprehend that the Dalrymples considered the relationship as closed. How to have this anxious business set to rights, and be admitted as cousins again, was the question: and it was a question which, in a more rational manner, neither Lady Russell nor Mr Elliot thought unimportant. “Family connexions were always worth preserving, good company always worth seeking; Lady Dalrymple had taken a house, for three months, in Laura Place, and would be living in style. She had been at Bath the year before, and Lady Russell had heard her spoken of as a charming woman. It was very desirable that the connexion should be renewed, if it could be done, without any compromise of propriety on the side of the Elliots.”
Sir Walter had once been in company with the late viscount, but had never met any of the rest of the family. The difficulties arose from the fact that there had been a complete stop to all formal communication since the death of the late viscount. This was compounded by Sir Walter suffering from a serious illness at the same time, leading to an unfortunate oversight at Kellynch. No letter of condolence had been sent to Ireland. The oversight weighed heavily on the person responsible, because when poor Lady Elliot passed away, no letter of condolence was received at Kellynch. As a result, there was good reason to fear that the Dalrymples believed the family connection was over. The question was how to resolve this worrying situation and be recognized as cousins again. Lady Russell and Mr. Elliot certainly thought this question was important. “Family connections are always worth keeping, and good company is always worth seeking. Lady Dalrymple has rented a house in Laura Place for three months and will be living well. She was in Bath the year before, and Lady Russell had heard her described as a delightful woman. It would be very beneficial to renew the connection if it could be done without compromising the propriety of the Elliots.”
Sir Walter, however, would choose his own means, and at last wrote a very fine letter of ample explanation, regret, and entreaty, to his right honourable cousin. Neither Lady Russell nor Mr Elliot could admire the letter; but it did all that was wanted, in bringing three lines of scrawl from the Dowager Viscountess. “She was very much honoured, and should be happy in their acquaintance.” The toils of the business were over, the sweets began. They visited in Laura Place, they had the cards of Dowager Viscountess Dalrymple, and the Honourable Miss Carteret, to be arranged wherever they might be most visible: and “Our cousins in Laura Place,”—“Our cousin, Lady Dalrymple and Miss Carteret,” were talked of to everybody.
Sir Walter, however, decided to take matters into his own hands and ultimately wrote a very nice letter filled with explanations, regrets, and requests to his esteemed cousin. Neither Lady Russell nor Mr. Elliot thought much of the letter, but it achieved its purpose by eliciting a brief response from the Dowager Viscountess. “She was very honored and would be pleased to have their acquaintance.” The hard part of the process was done, and the enjoyable part began. They visited Laura Place and made sure to display the cards of Dowager Viscountess Dalrymple and the Honourable Miss Carteret where they could be easily seen: and “Our cousins in Laura Place”—“Our cousin, Lady Dalrymple and Miss Carteret,” were subjects of conversation with everyone.
Anne was ashamed. Had Lady Dalrymple and her daughter even been very agreeable, she would still have been ashamed of the agitation they created, but they were nothing. There was no superiority of manner, accomplishment, or understanding. Lady Dalrymple had acquired the name of “a charming woman,” because she had a smile and a civil answer for everybody. Miss Carteret, with still less to say, was so plain and so awkward, that she would never have been tolerated in Camden Place but for her birth.
Anne felt embarrassed. Even if Lady Dalrymple and her daughter had been very pleasant, she would still have been ashamed of the anxiety they caused, but they were nothing special. There was no sense of superiority in their manners, skills, or intelligence. Lady Dalrymple was known as “a charming woman” simply because she smiled and had polite responses for everyone. Miss Carteret, with even less to say, was so plain and awkward that she wouldn’t have been accepted in Camden Place if it weren't for her family background.
Lady Russell confessed she had expected something better; but yet “it was an acquaintance worth having;” and when Anne ventured to speak her opinion of them to Mr Elliot, he agreed to their being nothing in themselves, but still maintained that, as a family connexion, as good company, as those who would collect good company around them, they had their value. Anne smiled and said,
Lady Russell admitted she had expected something better; but still, “it was an acquaintance worth having;” and when Anne dared to share her thoughts about them with Mr. Elliot, he agreed they weren’t anything special on their own, but he still insisted that, as a family connection, as good company, and as people who would bring good company around them, they had their worth. Anne smiled and said,
“My idea of good company, Mr Elliot, is the company of clever, well-informed people, who have a great deal of conversation; that is what I call good company.”
“My idea of good company, Mr. Elliot, is the company of smart, knowledgeable people who can engage in great conversations; that’s what I consider good company.”
“You are mistaken,” said he gently, “that is not good company; that is the best. Good company requires only birth, education, and manners, and with regard to education is not very nice. Birth and good manners are essential; but a little learning is by no means a dangerous thing in good company; on the contrary, it will do very well. My cousin Anne shakes her head. She is not satisfied. She is fastidious. My dear cousin” (sitting down by her), “you have a better right to be fastidious than almost any other woman I know; but will it answer? Will it make you happy? Will it not be wiser to accept the society of those good ladies in Laura Place, and enjoy all the advantages of the connexion as far as possible? You may depend upon it, that they will move in the first set in Bath this winter, and as rank is rank, your being known to be related to them will have its use in fixing your family (our family let me say) in that degree of consideration which we must all wish for.”
“You’re mistaken,” he said gently, “that’s not good company; that’s the best. Good company only needs good family, education, and manners, and when it comes to education, it’s not too particular. Good family and manners are essential, but a little knowledge is definitely not a bad thing in good company; on the contrary, it can be quite beneficial. My cousin Anne shakes her head. She isn’t satisfied. She’s picky. My dear cousin” (sitting down next to her), “you have every right to be picky, more than almost any other woman I know; but will it really help? Will it make you happy? Wouldn’t it be wiser to accept the company of those good ladies in Laura Place and enjoy all the benefits of that connection as much as possible? You can count on them being part of the best social circles in Bath this winter, and since status is important, your connection to them will help secure our family’s place in the level of respect we all desire.”
“Yes,” sighed Anne, “we shall, indeed, be known to be related to them!” then recollecting herself, and not wishing to be answered, she added, “I certainly do think there has been by far too much trouble taken to procure the acquaintance. I suppose” (smiling) “I have more pride than any of you; but I confess it does vex me, that we should be so solicitous to have the relationship acknowledged, which we may be very sure is a matter of perfect indifference to them.”
“Yes,” sighed Anne, “we will definitely be known to be related to them!” Then, recalling herself and not wanting to be responded to, she added, “I really think too much effort has been made to establish this connection. I guess” (smiling) “I have more pride than any of you; but I admit it bothers me that we should be so eager to have the relationship recognized, especially when we can be sure it doesn't matter at all to them.”
“Pardon me, dear cousin, you are unjust in your own claims. In London, perhaps, in your present quiet style of living, it might be as you say: but in Bath; Sir Walter Elliot and his family will always be worth knowing: always acceptable as acquaintance.”
“Excuse me, dear cousin, but you're being unfair in your claims. Maybe in London, with your current calm lifestyle, it could be as you say; but in Bath, Sir Walter Elliot and his family will always be worth getting to know: always a welcome acquaintance.”
“Well,” said Anne, “I certainly am proud, too proud to enjoy a welcome which depends so entirely upon place.”
“Well,” Anne said, “I’m definitely proud, too proud to appreciate a welcome that relies so completely on where I am.”
“I love your indignation,” said he; “it is very natural. But here you are in Bath, and the object is to be established here with all the credit and dignity which ought to belong to Sir Walter Elliot. You talk of being proud; I am called proud, I know, and I shall not wish to believe myself otherwise; for our pride, if investigated, would have the same object, I have no doubt, though the kind may seem a little different. In one point, I am sure, my dear cousin,” (he continued, speaking lower, though there was no one else in the room) “in one point, I am sure, we must feel alike. We must feel that every addition to your father’s society, among his equals or superiors, may be of use in diverting his thoughts from those who are beneath him.”
“I love your outrage,” he said; “it’s completely understandable. But here you are in Bath, and the goal is to establish yourself here with all the credit and dignity that should belong to Sir Walter Elliot. You talk about being proud; I know people call me proud, and I won’t wish to think of myself any differently; because, if you really examine our pride, it will likely have the same goal, even if the approach seems a bit different. In one regard, I know, my dear cousin,” (he continued, speaking more quietly, even though no one else was in the room) “in one regard, I know we must feel the same way. We must agree that any addition to your father’s social circle, whether among his peers or superiors, could help divert his thoughts from those who are beneath him.”
He looked, as he spoke, to the seat which Mrs Clay had been lately occupying: a sufficient explanation of what he particularly meant; and though Anne could not believe in their having the same sort of pride, she was pleased with him for not liking Mrs Clay; and her conscience admitted that his wishing to promote her father’s getting great acquaintance was more than excusable in the view of defeating her.
He looked, as he spoke, at the seat that Mrs. Clay had recently occupied: a clear indication of what he specifically meant; and even though Anne couldn't believe they shared the same type of pride, she appreciated him for not liking Mrs. Clay; and her conscience acknowledged that his desire to help her father make important connections was more than justifiable considering it could undermine her.
CHAPTER XVII.
While Sir Walter and Elizabeth were assiduously pushing their good fortune in Laura Place, Anne was renewing an acquaintance of a very different description.
While Sir Walter and Elizabeth were actively pursuing their good fortune in Laura Place, Anne was reconnecting with someone of a very different nature.
She had called on her former governess, and had heard from her of there being an old schoolfellow in Bath, who had the two strong claims on her attention of past kindness and present suffering. Miss Hamilton, now Mrs Smith, had shewn her kindness in one of those periods of her life when it had been most valuable. Anne had gone unhappy to school, grieving for the loss of a mother whom she had dearly loved, feeling her separation from home, and suffering as a girl of fourteen, of strong sensibility and not high spirits, must suffer at such a time; and Miss Hamilton, three years older than herself, but still from the want of near relations and a settled home, remaining another year at school, had been useful and good to her in a way which had considerably lessened her misery, and could never be remembered with indifference.
She had visited her former governess and learned from her about an old schoolmate in Bath, who had two strong reasons for her attention: past kindness and current struggles. Miss Hamilton, now Mrs. Smith, had shown her kindness during one of the toughest times in her life. Anne had gone to school feeling unhappy, mourning the loss of a mother she had loved dearly, missing her home, and suffering like a sensitive fourteen-year-old with low spirits would in such a situation. Miss Hamilton, three years older than Anne, and still at school due to a lack of close relatives and a stable home, had been a great support to her, significantly easing her pain, and she could never think of that time without appreciation.
Miss Hamilton had left school, had married not long afterwards, was said to have married a man of fortune, and this was all that Anne had known of her, till now that their governess’s account brought her situation forward in a more decided but very different form.
Miss Hamilton had graduated, got married soon after, and everyone said she married a wealthy man. That's all Anne knew about her until now, when their governess's account presented her situation in a clearer but very different way.
She was a widow and poor. Her husband had been extravagant; and at his death, about two years before, had left his affairs dreadfully involved. She had had difficulties of every sort to contend with, and in addition to these distresses had been afflicted with a severe rheumatic fever, which, finally settling in her legs, had made her for the present a cripple. She had come to Bath on that account, and was now in lodgings near the hot baths, living in a very humble way, unable even to afford herself the comfort of a servant, and of course almost excluded from society.
She was a widow and struggling financially. Her husband had lived beyond their means, and when he died about two years ago, he left their financial situation in a terrible mess. She faced all kinds of challenges and, on top of that, had suffered from a severe case of rheumatic fever that had settled in her legs, leaving her temporarily disabled. She had come to Bath for treatment and was now staying in a modest place near the hot baths, living very simply, unable to hire even a servant, which effectively isolated her from social life.
Their mutual friend answered for the satisfaction which a visit from Miss Elliot would give Mrs Smith, and Anne therefore lost no time in going. She mentioned nothing of what she had heard, or what she intended, at home. It would excite no proper interest there. She only consulted Lady Russell, who entered thoroughly into her sentiments, and was most happy to convey her as near to Mrs Smith’s lodgings in Westgate Buildings, as Anne chose to be taken.
Their mutual friend spoke about how much Mrs. Smith would enjoy a visit from Miss Elliot, so Anne wasted no time in going. She didn't mention anything about what she had heard or what she planned to do at home. It wouldn't spark any genuine interest there. She only talked to Lady Russell, who completely understood her feelings and was more than happy to take her as close as she wanted to Mrs. Smith’s place in Westgate Buildings.
The visit was paid, their acquaintance re-established, their interest in each other more than re-kindled. The first ten minutes had its awkwardness and its emotion. Twelve years were gone since they had parted, and each presented a somewhat different person from what the other had imagined. Twelve years had changed Anne from the blooming, silent, unformed girl of fifteen, to the elegant little woman of seven-and-twenty, with every beauty except bloom, and with manners as consciously right as they were invariably gentle; and twelve years had transformed the fine-looking, well-grown Miss Hamilton, in all the glow of health and confidence of superiority, into a poor, infirm, helpless widow, receiving the visit of her former protegee as a favour; but all that was uncomfortable in the meeting had soon passed away, and left only the interesting charm of remembering former partialities and talking over old times.
The visit happened, their friendship was rekindled, and their interest in each other was stronger than before. The first ten minutes were filled with awkwardness and emotion. Twelve years had passed since they last met, and each was somewhat different from what the other had imagined. Twelve years had changed Anne from the blossoming, shy, unformed girl of fifteen to the elegant young woman of twenty-seven, with all the beauty except for bloom, and her manners were as perfectly appropriate as they were always gentle; and twelve years had transformed the attractive, confident Miss Hamilton, once full of health and self-assurance, into a frail, helpless widow, receiving the visit from her former protégé as a favor. But all the discomfort from the meeting soon faded away, leaving only the enjoyable charm of reminiscing about past affections and discussing old times.
Anne found in Mrs Smith the good sense and agreeable manners which she had almost ventured to depend on, and a disposition to converse and be cheerful beyond her expectation. Neither the dissipations of the past—and she had lived very much in the world—nor the restrictions of the present, neither sickness nor sorrow seemed to have closed her heart or ruined her spirits.
Anne found in Mrs. Smith the common sense and pleasant demeanor she had almost hoped for, along with a willingness to chat and be cheerful that exceeded her expectations. Neither the distractions of the past—she had lived quite socially—nor the limitations of the present, neither illness nor grief, appeared to have hardened her heart or ruined her spirits.
In the course of a second visit she talked with great openness, and Anne’s astonishment increased. She could scarcely imagine a more cheerless situation in itself than Mrs Smith’s. She had been very fond of her husband: she had buried him. She had been used to affluence: it was gone. She had no child to connect her with life and happiness again, no relations to assist in the arrangement of perplexed affairs, no health to make all the rest supportable. Her accommodations were limited to a noisy parlour, and a dark bedroom behind, with no possibility of moving from one to the other without assistance, which there was only one servant in the house to afford, and she never quitted the house but to be conveyed into the warm bath. Yet, in spite of all this, Anne had reason to believe that she had moments only of languor and depression, to hours of occupation and enjoyment. How could it be? She watched, observed, reflected, and finally determined that this was not a case of fortitude or of resignation only. A submissive spirit might be patient, a strong understanding would supply resolution, but here was something more; here was that elasticity of mind, that disposition to be comforted, that power of turning readily from evil to good, and of finding employment which carried her out of herself, which was from nature alone. It was the choicest gift of Heaven; and Anne viewed her friend as one of those instances in which, by a merciful appointment, it seems designed to counterbalance almost every other want.
During a second visit, she spoke very openly, and Anne’s surprise grew. She could hardly imagine a more dismal situation than Mrs. Smith’s. She had loved her husband deeply: she had buried him. She had once lived in luxury: that was gone. She had no child to bring her back to life and happiness, no relatives to help her sort through her complicated affairs, and no health to make it all bearable. Her living conditions were constrained to a noisy parlor and a dark bedroom behind it, with no way to move from one to the other without help, which only one servant provided, and she only left the house to be taken to the warm bath. Yet, despite all this, Anne believed that Mrs. Smith experienced moments of weakness and sadness, but the majority of the time she found herself occupied and enjoying life. How could that be? Anne observed, reflected, and ultimately decided that this was not just about strength or resignation. A submissive spirit might be patient, and a strong mind could supply determination, but there was something more; there was a resilience of spirit, a tendency to find comfort, and an ability to shift from negativity to positivity, finding engaging activities that connected her back to herself, which seemed to come naturally. It was the greatest gift from above; and Anne regarded her friend as one of those rare examples where, by a kind twist of fate, it appeared to offset almost every other hardship.
There had been a time, Mrs Smith told her, when her spirits had nearly failed. She could not call herself an invalid now, compared with her state on first reaching Bath. Then she had, indeed, been a pitiable object; for she had caught cold on the journey, and had hardly taken possession of her lodgings before she was again confined to her bed and suffering under severe and constant pain; and all this among strangers, with the absolute necessity of having a regular nurse, and finances at that moment particularly unfit to meet any extraordinary expense. She had weathered it, however, and could truly say that it had done her good. It had increased her comforts by making her feel herself to be in good hands. She had seen too much of the world, to expect sudden or disinterested attachment anywhere, but her illness had proved to her that her landlady had a character to preserve, and would not use her ill; and she had been particularly fortunate in her nurse, as a sister of her landlady, a nurse by profession, and who had always a home in that house when unemployed, chanced to be at liberty just in time to attend her. “And she,” said Mrs Smith, “besides nursing me most admirably, has really proved an invaluable acquaintance. As soon as I could use my hands she taught me to knit, which has been a great amusement; and she put me in the way of making these little thread-cases, pin-cushions and card-racks, which you always find me so busy about, and which supply me with the means of doing a little good to one or two very poor families in this neighbourhood. She had a large acquaintance, of course professionally, among those who can afford to buy, and she disposes of my merchandise. She always takes the right time for applying. Everybody’s heart is open, you know, when they have recently escaped from severe pain, or are recovering the blessing of health, and Nurse Rooke thoroughly understands when to speak. She is a shrewd, intelligent, sensible woman. Hers is a line for seeing human nature; and she has a fund of good sense and observation, which, as a companion, make her infinitely superior to thousands of those who having only received ‘the best education in the world,’ know nothing worth attending to. Call it gossip, if you will, but when Nurse Rooke has half an hour’s leisure to bestow on me, she is sure to have something to relate that is entertaining and profitable: something that makes one know one’s species better. One likes to hear what is going on, to be au fait as to the newest modes of being trifling and silly. To me, who live so much alone, her conversation, I assure you, is a treat.”
There was a time, Mrs. Smith told her, when she felt like giving up. She couldn’t call herself an invalid now, compared to how she was when she first arrived in Bath. Back then, she had really been in a bad way; she caught a cold during her journey and hardly settled into her lodgings before she ended up back in bed with severe, constant pain. All of this was happening among strangers, and she desperately needed a regular nurse, but her finances were not in great shape for any unexpected expenses. However, she got through it, and she could honestly say it had done her good. It increased her comfort by making her feel she was in good hands. She had seen enough of the world not to expect sudden or selfless affection anywhere, but her illness showed her that her landlady was a person of integrity and wouldn’t treat her poorly. She had also been especially lucky with her nurse, who was the landlady's sister, a professional nurse, and who always had a home in that house when she wasn’t working. Luckily, she was free just in time to care for her. “And she,” said Mrs. Smith, “not only nursed me incredibly well but has really become an invaluable friend. As soon as I could use my hands again, she taught me to knit, which has been a great source of enjoyment; and she got me started on making these little thread cases, pin cushions, and card racks, which you always see me busy with. They help me do a little good for a couple of very poor families in this neighborhood. She has a wide professional network among those who can afford to buy, and she sells my creations. She always knows the right time to approach people. Everyone’s heart is open, you know, when they’ve just recovered from serious pain or are regaining their health, and Nurse Rooke knows when to speak. She’s a sharp, intelligent, sensible woman. Her job lets her observe human nature closely, and she has a wealth of common sense and insight that makes her much better company than many who’ve only received 'the best education in the world' but know nothing worth listening to. Call it gossip if you want, but when Nurse Rooke has a half hour to spare for me, she always has something interesting and valuable to share: something that helps you understand humanity better. I like to hear what’s happening, to stay updated on the latest ways to be frivolous and silly. For me, who spends so much time alone, her conversations are truly a pleasure.”
Anne, far from wishing to cavil at the pleasure, replied, “I can easily believe it. Women of that class have great opportunities, and if they are intelligent may be well worth listening to. Such varieties of human nature as they are in the habit of witnessing! And it is not merely in its follies, that they are well read; for they see it occasionally under every circumstance that can be most interesting or affecting. What instances must pass before them of ardent, disinterested, self-denying attachment, of heroism, fortitude, patience, resignation: of all the conflicts and all the sacrifices that ennoble us most. A sick chamber may often furnish the worth of volumes.”
Anne, instead of critiquing the enjoyment, said, “I can easily believe that. Women from that background have great opportunities, and if they’re smart, they can offer valuable insights. They witness so many different types of human nature! And it’s not just in its foolishness that they’re knowledgeable; they also see it in all sorts of situations that can be really fascinating or moving. They must witness so many examples of passionate, generous, selfless love, of courage, strength, patience, and acceptance: all the struggles and sacrifices that truly elevate us. A sickroom can often provide more depth than entire books.”
“Yes,” said Mrs Smith more doubtingly, “sometimes it may, though I fear its lessons are not often in the elevated style you describe. Here and there, human nature may be great in times of trial; but generally speaking, it is its weakness and not its strength that appears in a sick chamber: it is selfishness and impatience rather than generosity and fortitude, that one hears of. There is so little real friendship in the world! and unfortunately” (speaking low and tremulously) “there are so many who forget to think seriously till it is almost too late.”
“Yes,” Mrs. Smith said, sounding uncertain, “sometimes that's true, but I worry that the lessons aren’t usually as noble as you describe. Occasionally, you might see great aspects of human nature in tough times, but for the most part, it’s weakness that shows up in a sick room. People tend to be selfish and impatient instead of generous and brave; that’s what you usually hear about. There’s so little genuine friendship in the world! And unfortunately,” she added quietly and shakily, “many people forget to think seriously until it’s almost too late.”
Anne saw the misery of such feelings. The husband had not been what he ought, and the wife had been led among that part of mankind which made her think worse of the world than she hoped it deserved. It was but a passing emotion however with Mrs Smith; she shook it off, and soon added in a different tone—
Anne saw the pain of those feelings. The husband hadn’t been what he should have been, and the wife had been exposed to a group of people that made her view the world more negatively than she hoped it deserved. However, this was just a fleeting emotion for Mrs. Smith; she brushed it aside and soon spoke in a different tone—
“I do not suppose the situation my friend Mrs Rooke is in at present, will furnish much either to interest or edify me. She is only nursing Mrs Wallis of Marlborough Buildings; a mere pretty, silly, expensive, fashionable woman, I believe; and of course will have nothing to report but of lace and finery. I mean to make my profit of Mrs Wallis, however. She has plenty of money, and I intend she shall buy all the high-priced things I have in hand now.”
"I don’t think the situation my friend Mrs. Rooke is in right now will offer much to interest or inspire me. She’s just taking care of Mrs. Wallis from Marlborough Buildings; just a pretty, silly, expensive, fashionable woman, I assume; and of course, she’ll have nothing to share except about lace and fancy clothes. However, I plan to benefit from Mrs. Wallis. She has plenty of money, and I intend for her to buy all the high-priced items I have available now."
Anne had called several times on her friend, before the existence of such a person was known in Camden Place. At last, it became necessary to speak of her. Sir Walter, Elizabeth and Mrs Clay, returned one morning from Laura Place, with a sudden invitation from Lady Dalrymple for the same evening, and Anne was already engaged, to spend that evening in Westgate Buildings. She was not sorry for the excuse. They were only asked, she was sure, because Lady Dalrymple being kept at home by a bad cold, was glad to make use of the relationship which had been so pressed on her; and she declined on her own account with great alacrity—“She was engaged to spend the evening with an old schoolfellow.” They were not much interested in anything relative to Anne; but still there were questions enough asked, to make it understood what this old schoolfellow was; and Elizabeth was disdainful, and Sir Walter severe.
Anne had reached out to her friend several times before anyone in Camden Place knew she existed. Eventually, it became necessary to mention her. One morning, Sir Walter, Elizabeth, and Mrs. Clay returned from Laura Place with a sudden invitation from Lady Dalrymple for that very evening, but Anne was already committed to spending the evening at Westgate Buildings. She was relieved to have an excuse. She was certain they were only invited because Lady Dalrymple, stuck at home with a bad cold, was happy to take advantage of the relationship that had been pushed on her; so Anne declined enthusiastically, saying, “I’m spending the evening with an old schoolfriend.” They weren’t particularly interested in anything related to Anne, but there were enough questions asked to clarify who this old schoolfriend was, and Elizabeth reacted with disdain while Sir Walter looked stern.
“Westgate Buildings!” said he, “and who is Miss Anne Elliot to be visiting in Westgate Buildings? A Mrs Smith. A widow Mrs Smith; and who was her husband? One of five thousand Mr Smiths whose names are to be met with everywhere. And what is her attraction? That she is old and sickly. Upon my word, Miss Anne Elliot, you have the most extraordinary taste! Everything that revolts other people, low company, paltry rooms, foul air, disgusting associations are inviting to you. But surely you may put off this old lady till to-morrow: she is not so near her end, I presume, but that she may hope to see another day. What is her age? Forty?”
“Westgate Buildings!” he exclaimed, “and who is Miss Anne Elliot visiting in Westgate Buildings? A Mrs. Smith. A widow, Mrs. Smith; and who was her husband? One of the countless Mr. Smiths you encounter everywhere. And what’s appealing about her? That she’s old and unwell. Honestly, Miss Anne Elliot, you have the most peculiar taste! Everything that repulses other people—low company, shabby rooms, bad air, unpleasant associations—seems to attract you. But surely, you can postpone seeing this old lady until tomorrow; I assume she’s not so close to death that she can’t hope for another day. How old is she? Forty?”
“No, sir, she is not one-and-thirty; but I do not think I can put off my engagement, because it is the only evening for some time which will at once suit her and myself. She goes into the warm bath to-morrow, and for the rest of the week, you know, we are engaged.”
“No, sir, she’s not thirty-one; but I don’t think I can postpone my commitment, because it’s the only evening for a while that works for both of us. She’s going into the warm bath tomorrow, and for the rest of the week, as you know, we’re busy.”
“But what does Lady Russell think of this acquaintance?” asked Elizabeth.
“But what does Lady Russell think of this relationship?” asked Elizabeth.
“She sees nothing to blame in it,” replied Anne; “on the contrary, she approves it, and has generally taken me when I have called on Mrs Smith.”
“She doesn’t see anything wrong with it,” replied Anne; “on the contrary, she supports it and has usually come with me whenever I’ve visited Mrs. Smith.”
“Westgate Buildings must have been rather surprised by the appearance of a carriage drawn up near its pavement,” observed Sir Walter. “Sir Henry Russell’s widow, indeed, has no honours to distinguish her arms, but still it is a handsome equipage, and no doubt is well known to convey a Miss Elliot. A widow Mrs Smith lodging in Westgate Buildings! A poor widow barely able to live, between thirty and forty; a mere Mrs Smith, an every-day Mrs Smith, of all people and all names in the world, to be the chosen friend of Miss Anne Elliot, and to be preferred by her to her own family connections among the nobility of England and Ireland! Mrs Smith! Such a name!”
“Westgate Buildings must have been quite surprised by the sight of a carriage pulled up by its sidewalk,” remarked Sir Walter. “Sir Henry Russell’s widow may not have any titles to her name, but it’s still an elegant carriage, and it’s certainly well known for bringing around a Miss Elliot. A widow, Mrs. Smith, staying at Westgate Buildings! A struggling widow, probably between thirty and forty; just a Mrs. Smith, an every-day Mrs. Smith, of all people and names in the world, to be the close friend of Miss Anne Elliot, and to be preferred by her over her own noble family from England and Ireland! Mrs. Smith! What a name!”
Mrs Clay, who had been present while all this passed, now thought it advisable to leave the room, and Anne could have said much, and did long to say a little in defence of her friend’s not very dissimilar claims to theirs, but her sense of personal respect to her father prevented her. She made no reply. She left it to himself to recollect, that Mrs Smith was not the only widow in Bath between thirty and forty, with little to live on, and no surname of dignity.
Mrs. Clay, who had been there while all this happened, now thought it best to leave the room, and Anne could have said a lot, and really wished to say a little in defense of her friend’s claims that weren’t very different from theirs, but her respect for her father stopped her. She didn’t respond. She let him remember that Mrs. Smith wasn’t the only widow in Bath between thirty and forty, with little money to live on, and no dignified last name.
Anne kept her appointment; the others kept theirs, and of course she heard the next morning that they had had a delightful evening. She had been the only one of the set absent, for Sir Walter and Elizabeth had not only been quite at her ladyship’s service themselves, but had actually been happy to be employed by her in collecting others, and had been at the trouble of inviting both Lady Russell and Mr Elliot; and Mr Elliot had made a point of leaving Colonel Wallis early, and Lady Russell had fresh arranged all her evening engagements in order to wait on her. Anne had the whole history of all that such an evening could supply from Lady Russell. To her, its greatest interest must be, in having been very much talked of between her friend and Mr Elliot; in having been wished for, regretted, and at the same time honoured for staying away in such a cause. Her kind, compassionate visits to this old schoolfellow, sick and reduced, seemed to have quite delighted Mr Elliot. He thought her a most extraordinary young woman; in her temper, manners, mind, a model of female excellence. He could meet even Lady Russell in a discussion of her merits; and Anne could not be given to understand so much by her friend, could not know herself to be so highly rated by a sensible man, without many of those agreeable sensations which her friend meant to create.
Anne kept her appointment; the others kept theirs, and of course she heard the next morning that they had a wonderful evening. She had been the only one in the group who missed out, as Sir Walter and Elizabeth had not only been completely at her ladyship’s service but had actually enjoyed helping her by inviting others, including Lady Russell and Mr. Elliot. Mr. Elliot had made a point of leaving Colonel Wallis early, and Lady Russell had rearranged all her evening plans to be there for Anne. Anne got the full story of what such an evening could provide from Lady Russell. To her, the most interesting part must have been that it had been talked about quite a bit between her friend and Mr. Elliot; that her absence was wished for, regretted, and at the same time seen as honorable due to her reasons for staying away. Her kind, compassionate visits to this old schoolmate, who was sick and in a tough spot, seemed to completely delight Mr. Elliot. He considered her an extraordinary young woman; in her temperament, manners, and mind, she was a model of female excellence. He could even discuss her merits with Lady Russell; and Anne couldn’t help but feel some of those nice sensations her friend intended to create, knowing that a sensible man held her in such high regard.
Lady Russell was now perfectly decided in her opinion of Mr Elliot. She was as much convinced of his meaning to gain Anne in time as of his deserving her, and was beginning to calculate the number of weeks which would free him from all the remaining restraints of widowhood, and leave him at liberty to exert his most open powers of pleasing. She would not speak to Anne with half the certainty she felt on the subject, she would venture on little more than hints of what might be hereafter, of a possible attachment on his side, of the desirableness of the alliance, supposing such attachment to be real and returned. Anne heard her, and made no violent exclamations; she only smiled, blushed, and gently shook her head.
Lady Russell was now completely convinced about Mr. Elliot. She was just as sure of his intent to win Anne over eventually as she was of his worthiness of her, and she began to count the weeks until he would be free from the last remnants of widowhood, ready to show off his charm. She wouldn’t talk to Anne with the full confidence she felt; she only dared to drop hints about what might happen in the future, suggesting a possible interest on his part and the advantages of the match, assuming that interest was genuine and reciprocated. Anne listened to her without any dramatic reactions; she simply smiled, blushed, and gently shook her head.
“I am no match-maker, as you well know,” said Lady Russell, “being much too well aware of the uncertainty of all human events and calculations. I only mean that if Mr Elliot should some time hence pay his addresses to you, and if you should be disposed to accept him, I think there would be every possibility of your being happy together. A most suitable connection everybody must consider it, but I think it might be a very happy one.”
“I’m not a matchmaker, as you know,” said Lady Russell, “because I’m very aware of how unpredictable life can be. I just mean that if Mr. Elliot were to propose to you someday, and if you were open to accepting him, I believe there’s a good chance you could be happy together. Everyone would see it as a very appropriate match, but I think it could also be a very happy one.”
“Mr Elliot is an exceedingly agreeable man, and in many respects I think highly of him,” said Anne; “but we should not suit.”
“Mr. Elliot is a really nice guy, and in many ways, I think quite highly of him,” said Anne; “but we wouldn’t be a good match.”
Lady Russell let this pass, and only said in rejoinder, “I own that to be able to regard you as the future mistress of Kellynch, the future Lady Elliot, to look forward and see you occupying your dear mother’s place, succeeding to all her rights, and all her popularity, as well as to all her virtues, would be the highest possible gratification to me. You are your mother’s self in countenance and disposition; and if I might be allowed to fancy you such as she was, in situation and name, and home, presiding and blessing in the same spot, and only superior to her in being more highly valued! My dearest Anne, it would give me more delight than is often felt at my time of life!”
Lady Russell let this go and replied, “I have to admit that being able to see you as the future mistress of Kellynch, the future Lady Elliot, looking ahead and envisioning you in your beloved mother’s role, inheriting all her rights, popularity, and virtues, would be the greatest joy for me. You are so much like your mother in appearance and personality; and if I could imagine you as she was—in position, name, and home, presiding and bringing warmth in the same way, and only surpassing her by being even more cherished! My dear Anne, it would bring me more happiness than one usually experiences at my age!”
Anne was obliged to turn away, to rise, to walk to a distant table, and, leaning there in pretended employment, try to subdue the feelings this picture excited. For a few moments her imagination and her heart were bewitched. The idea of becoming what her mother had been; of having the precious name of “Lady Elliot” first revived in herself; of being restored to Kellynch, calling it her home again, her home for ever, was a charm which she could not immediately resist. Lady Russell said not another word, willing to leave the matter to its own operation; and believing that, could Mr Elliot at that moment with propriety have spoken for himself!—she believed, in short, what Anne did not believe. The same image of Mr Elliot speaking for himself brought Anne to composure again. The charm of Kellynch and of “Lady Elliot” all faded away. She never could accept him. And it was not only that her feelings were still adverse to any man save one; her judgement, on a serious consideration of the possibilities of such a case, was against Mr Elliot.
Anne had to look away, get up, and walk over to a table in the corner. Leaning there, pretending to work, she tried to control the emotions this scene stirred in her. For a brief moment, her imagination and heart were captivated. The thought of becoming what her mother had been, of having the cherished title "Lady Elliot" revived within her, and of returning to Kellynch, calling it home forever, was a allure she couldn't easily shake off. Lady Russell didn't say another word, preferring to let the situation unfold naturally; she believed that if Mr. Elliot could speak for himself at that moment, he would. In short, she believed what Anne couldn't. The very thought of Mr. Elliot speaking for himself brought Anne back to her senses. The allure of Kellynch and being "Lady Elliot" faded away. She could never accept him. It was not just that her feelings were still against any man but one; her judgment, after seriously considering the possibilities of such a situation, was also against Mr. Elliot.
Though they had now been acquainted a month, she could not be satisfied that she really knew his character. That he was a sensible man, an agreeable man, that he talked well, professed good opinions, seemed to judge properly and as a man of principle, this was all clear enough. He certainly knew what was right, nor could she fix on any one article of moral duty evidently transgressed; but yet she would have been afraid to answer for his conduct. She distrusted the past, if not the present. The names which occasionally dropt of former associates, the allusions to former practices and pursuits, suggested suspicions not favourable of what he had been. She saw that there had been bad habits; that Sunday travelling had been a common thing; that there had been a period of his life (and probably not a short one) when he had been, at least, careless in all serious matters; and, though he might now think very differently, who could answer for the true sentiments of a clever, cautious man, grown old enough to appreciate a fair character? How could it ever be ascertained that his mind was truly cleansed?
Even though they had known each other for a month, she still couldn't be sure she really understood his character. It was clear that he was sensible, pleasant to be around, articulate, had good opinions, and seemed to judge things rightly as a principled person. He definitely knew what the right thing to do was, and she couldn't point to any specific moral duty he had clearly violated. Still, she wouldn't have felt confident vouching for his behavior. She was suspicious of his past, if not his present. The names he occasionally mentioned from his former associates and references to past habits raised doubts about what he had been like. She noticed he had some bad habits; that traveling on Sundays was common for him; and that there had been a time in his life (likely not a short one) when he had been careless about serious matters. And even though he might think very differently now, how could anyone trust the true feelings of a clever, cautious man who had lived long enough to understand the value of a good reputation? How could it ever be determined that his mind was genuinely changed?
Mr Elliot was rational, discreet, polished, but he was not open. There was never any burst of feeling, any warmth of indignation or delight, at the evil or good of others. This, to Anne, was a decided imperfection. Her early impressions were incurable. She prized the frank, the open-hearted, the eager character beyond all others. Warmth and enthusiasm did captivate her still. She felt that she could so much more depend upon the sincerity of those who sometimes looked or said a careless or a hasty thing, than of those whose presence of mind never varied, whose tongue never slipped.
Mr. Elliot was rational, discreet, and refined, but he was not warm. He never showed any bursts of emotion, whether it was outrage or joy, about the good or bad in others. To Anne, this was a clear flaw. Her early impressions were unshakable. She valued honesty, openness, and eagerness above all else. Warmth and enthusiasm still captivated her. She felt she could rely much more on the sincerity of those who occasionally said or did something careless or impulsive than on those whose composure never changed and whose words were always perfectly chosen.
Mr Elliot was too generally agreeable. Various as were the tempers in her father’s house, he pleased them all. He endured too well, stood too well with every body. He had spoken to her with some degree of openness of Mrs Clay; had appeared completely to see what Mrs Clay was about, and to hold her in contempt; and yet Mrs Clay found him as agreeable as any body.
Mr. Elliot was just too agreeable overall. No matter how different the personalities were in her father’s house, he managed to please everyone. He tolerated too much and got along too well with everyone. He had talked to her somewhat honestly about Mrs. Clay; he seemed to understand exactly what Mrs. Clay was up to and looked down on her. Yet, despite that, Mrs. Clay still found him just as charming as anyone else.
Lady Russell saw either less or more than her young friend, for she saw nothing to excite distrust. She could not imagine a man more exactly what he ought to be than Mr Elliot; nor did she ever enjoy a sweeter feeling than the hope of seeing him receive the hand of her beloved Anne in Kellynch church, in the course of the following autumn.
Lady Russell either saw less or more than her young friend, because she saw nothing to arouse suspicion. She couldn’t picture a man who fit the ideal better than Mr. Elliot; nor did she ever feel happier than the hope of witnessing him marrying her beloved Anne in Kellynch church that upcoming autumn.
CHAPTER XVIII.
It was the beginning of February; and Anne, having been a month in Bath, was growing very eager for news from Uppercross and Lyme. She wanted to hear much more than Mary had communicated. It was three weeks since she had heard at all. She only knew that Henrietta was at home again; and that Louisa, though considered to be recovering fast, was still in Lyme; and she was thinking of them all very intently one evening, when a thicker letter than usual from Mary was delivered to her; and, to quicken the pleasure and surprise, with Admiral and Mrs Croft’s compliments.
It was the start of February, and Anne had been in Bath for a month. She was becoming very eager for news from Uppercross and Lyme. She wanted to know much more than what Mary had shared. It had been three weeks since she had heard anything at all. All she knew was that Henrietta was back home, and that Louisa, although thought to be recovering quickly, was still in Lyme. One evening, while she was thinking deeply about them all, she received a thicker-than-usual letter from Mary, along with compliments from Admiral and Mrs. Croft.
The Crofts must be in Bath! A circumstance to interest her. They were people whom her heart turned to very naturally.
The Crofts must be in Bath! That's something that catches her interest. They were people she felt drawn to very naturally.
“What is this?” cried Sir Walter. “The Crofts have arrived in Bath? The Crofts who rent Kellynch? What have they brought you?”
“What is happening?” exclaimed Sir Walter. “The Crofts are in Bath? The Crofts who are renting Kellynch? What have they brought you?”
“A letter from Uppercross Cottage, Sir.”
“A letter from Uppercross Cottage, Sir.”
“Oh! those letters are convenient passports. They secure an introduction. I should have visited Admiral Croft, however, at any rate. I know what is due to my tenant.”
“Oh! Those letters are handy passes. They guarantee an introduction. I should have visited Admiral Croft anyway. I know what I owe to my tenant.”
Anne could listen no longer; she could not even have told how the poor Admiral’s complexion escaped; her letter engrossed her. It had been begun several days back.
Anne could listen any longer; she couldn’t even say how the poor Admiral’s complexion changed; her letter had her full attention. She had started it several days ago.
“February 1st.
February 1
“MY DEAR ANNE,
MY DEAR ANNE,
I make no apology for my silence, because I know how little people think of letters in such a place as Bath. You must be a great deal too happy to care for Uppercross, which, as you well know, affords little to write about. We have had a very dull Christmas; Mr and Mrs Musgrove have not had one dinner party all the holidays. I do not reckon the Hayters as anybody. The holidays, however, are over at last: I believe no children ever had such long ones. I am sure I had not. The house was cleared yesterday, except of the little Harvilles; but you will be surprised to hear they have never gone home. Mrs Harville must be an odd mother to part with them so long. I do not understand it. They are not at all nice children, in my opinion; but Mrs Musgrove seems to like them quite as well, if not better, than her grandchildren. What dreadful weather we have had! It may not be felt in Bath, with your nice pavements; but in the country it is of some consequence. I have not had a creature call on me since the second week in January, except Charles Hayter, who had been calling much oftener than was welcome. Between ourselves, I think it a great pity Henrietta did not remain at Lyme as long as Louisa; it would have kept her a little out of his way. The carriage is gone to-day, to bring Louisa and the Harvilles to-morrow. We are not asked to dine with them, however, till the day after, Mrs Musgrove is so afraid of her being fatigued by the journey, which is not very likely, considering the care that will be taken of her; and it would be much more convenient to me to dine there to-morrow. I am glad you find Mr Elliot so agreeable, and wish I could be acquainted with him too; but I have my usual luck: I am always out of the way when any thing desirable is going on; always the last of my family to be noticed. What an immense time Mrs Clay has been staying with Elizabeth! Does she never mean to go away? But perhaps if she were to leave the room vacant, we might not be invited. Let me know what you think of this. I do not expect my children to be asked, you know. I can leave them at the Great House very well, for a month or six weeks. I have this moment heard that the Crofts are going to Bath almost immediately; they think the Admiral gouty. Charles heard it quite by chance; they have not had the civility to give me any notice, or of offering to take anything. I do not think they improve at all as neighbours. We see nothing of them, and this is really an instance of gross inattention. Charles joins me in love, and everything proper. Yours affectionately,
I won’t apologize for my silence, because I know how little people care about letters in a place like Bath. You must be too happy to think about Uppercross, which, as you know, doesn’t leave much to write about. We had a really dull Christmas; Mr. and Mrs. Musgrove didn’t host a single dinner party during the holidays. I don’t consider the Hayters as important. Anyway, the holidays are finally over: I doubt any kids ever had such long ones. I know I didn’t. The house was cleared out yesterday, except for the little Harvilles; but you’ll be surprised to hear they haven’t gone home. Mrs. Harville must be a strange mother to keep them away for so long. I don’t get it. They don’t seem like very nice kids to me, but Mrs. Musgrove seems to like them just as much, if not more, than her own grandkids. What terrible weather we’ve been having! You may not notice it in Bath, with your nice pavements, but it’s a big deal out in the country. I haven’t had anyone visit me since the second week of January, except Charles Hayter, who has been showing up much more often than I’d like. Between us, I think it’s a real shame Henrietta didn’t stay in Lyme as long as Louisa; it would have kept her a bit out of his way. The carriage is going today to bring Louisa and the Harvilles tomorrow. We’re not invited to dinner with them until the day after because Mrs. Musgrove is so worried about Louisa being tired from the journey, which seems unlikely considering how well she’ll be taken care of; it would actually be much more convenient for me if we could have dinner there tomorrow. I’m glad you find Mr. Elliot so agreeable; I wish I could get to know him too, but I have my usual luck: I’m always out of the loop when something good is happening; always the last in my family to get noticed. It’s been such a long time since Mrs. Clay started staying with Elizabeth! Does she have any plans to leave? But maybe if she vacates the room, we won’t get invited. Let me know what you think about this. I don’t expect my kids to be asked, you know. I can leave them at the Great House just fine for a month or six weeks. I just heard that the Crofts are heading to Bath almost immediately; they think the Admiral has gout. Charles found out by chance; they haven’t been polite enough to give me any notice or offer to take anything. I don’t think they’re being good neighbors at all. We hardly see them, and this is really a case of blatant negligence. Charles sends his love and everything else proper. Yours affectionately,
“MARY M——.
MARY M——.
“I am sorry to say that I am very far from well; and Jemima has just told me that the butcher says there is a bad sore-throat very much about. I dare say I shall catch it; and my sore-throats, you know, are always worse than anybody’s.”
“I’m sorry to say that I’m not doing well at all; and Jemima just told me that the butcher says there’s a bad sore throat going around. I’m sure I’ll catch it; and my sore throats, you know, are always worse than anyone else’s.”
So ended the first part, which had been afterwards put into an envelope, containing nearly as much more.
So ended the first part, which was later placed in an envelope holding almost as much more.
“I kept my letter open, that I might send you word how Louisa bore her journey, and now I am extremely glad I did, having a great deal to add. In the first place, I had a note from Mrs Croft yesterday, offering to convey anything to you; a very kind, friendly note indeed, addressed to me, just as it ought; I shall therefore be able to make my letter as long as I like. The Admiral does not seem very ill, and I sincerely hope Bath will do him all the good he wants. I shall be truly glad to have them back again. Our neighbourhood cannot spare such a pleasant family. But now for Louisa. I have something to communicate that will astonish you not a little. She and the Harvilles came on Tuesday very safely, and in the evening we went to ask her how she did, when we were rather surprised not to find Captain Benwick of the party, for he had been invited as well as the Harvilles; and what do you think was the reason? Neither more nor less than his being in love with Louisa, and not choosing to venture to Uppercross till he had had an answer from Mr Musgrove; for it was all settled between him and her before she came away, and he had written to her father by Captain Harville. True, upon my honour! Are not you astonished? I shall be surprised at least if you ever received a hint of it, for I never did. Mrs Musgrove protests solemnly that she knew nothing of the matter. We are all very well pleased, however, for though it is not equal to her marrying Captain Wentworth, it is infinitely better than Charles Hayter; and Mr Musgrove has written his consent, and Captain Benwick is expected to-day. Mrs Harville says her husband feels a good deal on his poor sister’s account; but, however, Louisa is a great favourite with both. Indeed, Mrs Harville and I quite agree that we love her the better for having nursed her. Charles wonders what Captain Wentworth will say; but if you remember, I never thought him attached to Louisa; I never could see anything of it. And this is the end, you see, of Captain Benwick’s being supposed to be an admirer of yours. How Charles could take such a thing into his head was always incomprehensible to me. I hope he will be more agreeable now. Certainly not a great match for Louisa Musgrove, but a million times better than marrying among the Hayters.”
“I left my letter open so I could update you on how Louisa handled her trip, and I'm really glad I did, as I have a lot to share. First off, I received a note from Mrs. Croft yesterday, offering to pass along anything to you; it was a very kind and friendly note addressed to me, just like it should be; so I can make my letter as long as I want. The Admiral doesn’t seem very ill, and I truly hope Bath will be just what he needs. I will be really happy to have them back. Our neighborhood can’t afford to lose such a lovely family. Now, about Louisa. I have something to tell you that will surprise you quite a bit. She and the Harvilles arrived safely on Tuesday, and in the evening we went to check on her, when we were quite surprised to find that Captain Benwick wasn’t part of the group, even though he’d been invited along with the Harvilles; and do you know why? It’s simply that he’s in love with Louisa and didn’t want to come to Uppercross until he got a response from Mr. Musgrove; because everything was settled between him and her before she left, and he had written to her father through Captain Harville. It’s true, I swear! Are you surprised? I would be shocked if you ever heard a hint about it, because I never did. Mrs. Musgrove assures me she knew nothing about it. However, we’re all very pleased because although it doesn’t compare to her marrying Captain Wentworth, it’s infinitely better than Charles Hayter; and Mr. Musgrove has written his consent, and Captain Benwick is expected today. Mrs. Harville says her husband feels quite a bit for his poor sister; but Louisa is a great favorite with both of them. Indeed, Mrs. Harville and I completely agree that we like her even more for having cared for her. Charles wonders what Captain Wentworth will think; but if you remember, I never believed he was interested in Louisa; I never saw any signs of it. And this is the conclusion, you see, of Captain Benwick being thought to be an admirer of yours. How Charles ever got that idea in his head was a total mystery to me. I hope he’ll be more pleasant now. Certainly not a major catch for Louisa Musgrove, but a million times better than marrying one of the Hayters.”
Mary need not have feared her sister’s being in any degree prepared for the news. She had never in her life been more astonished. Captain Benwick and Louisa Musgrove! It was almost too wonderful for belief, and it was with the greatest effort that she could remain in the room, preserve an air of calmness, and answer the common questions of the moment. Happily for her, they were not many. Sir Walter wanted to know whether the Crofts travelled with four horses, and whether they were likely to be situated in such a part of Bath as it might suit Miss Elliot and himself to visit in; but had little curiosity beyond.
Mary didn't need to worry about whether her sister was ready for the news. She had never been so surprised in her life. Captain Benwick and Louisa Musgrove! It was almost too incredible to believe, and it took all her strength to stay in the room, maintain a calm demeanor, and respond to the usual questions of the moment. Fortunately for her, there weren't many. Sir Walter wanted to know if the Crofts traveled with four horses and whether they were likely to be located in a part of Bath that would be convenient for Miss Elliot and himself to visit; but he had little curiosity beyond that.
“How is Mary?” said Elizabeth; and without waiting for an answer, “And pray what brings the Crofts to Bath?”
“How is Mary?” Elizabeth asked, and without waiting for a reply, she added, “What brings the Crofts to Bath?”
“They come on the Admiral’s account. He is thought to be gouty.”
“They're coming because of the Admiral. People think he has gout.”
“Gout and decrepitude!” said Sir Walter. “Poor old gentleman.”
“Gout and old age!” said Sir Walter. “Poor old man.”
“Have they any acquaintance here?” asked Elizabeth.
“Do they know anyone here?” asked Elizabeth.
“I do not know; but I can hardly suppose that, at Admiral Croft’s time of life, and in his profession, he should not have many acquaintance in such a place as this.”
“I don’t know; but I can hardly believe that, at Admiral Croft’s age and in his line of work, he wouldn’t have many acquaintances in a place like this.”
“I suspect,” said Sir Walter coolly, “that Admiral Croft will be best known in Bath as the renter of Kellynch Hall. Elizabeth, may we venture to present him and his wife in Laura Place?”
“I suspect,” said Sir Walter casually, “that Admiral Croft will be most recognized in Bath as the renter of Kellynch Hall. Elizabeth, can we go ahead and introduce him and his wife in Laura Place?”
“Oh, no! I think not. Situated as we are with Lady Dalrymple, cousins, we ought to be very careful not to embarrass her with acquaintance she might not approve. If we were not related, it would not signify; but as cousins, she would feel scrupulous as to any proposal of ours. We had better leave the Crofts to find their own level. There are several odd-looking men walking about here, who, I am told, are sailors. The Crofts will associate with them.”
“Oh, no! I don't think so. Given that we are cousins of Lady Dalrymple, we should be careful not to put her in an awkward position with people she might not approve of. If we weren’t related, it wouldn’t matter; but as cousins, she would feel uneasy about any suggestions we make. It’s best if we let the Crofts figure things out for themselves. There are several strange-looking men walking around here, who I’ve heard are sailors. The Crofts will probably hang out with them.”
This was Sir Walter and Elizabeth’s share of interest in the letter; when Mrs Clay had paid her tribute of more decent attention, in an enquiry after Mrs Charles Musgrove, and her fine little boys, Anne was at liberty.
This was Sir Walter and Elizabeth’s part in the letter; after Mrs. Clay had shown a bit more respectful interest by asking about Mrs. Charles Musgrove and her cute little boys, Anne was free.
In her own room, she tried to comprehend it. Well might Charles wonder how Captain Wentworth would feel! Perhaps he had quitted the field, had given Louisa up, had ceased to love, had found he did not love her. She could not endure the idea of treachery or levity, or anything akin to ill usage between him and his friend. She could not endure that such a friendship as theirs should be severed unfairly.
In her own room, she tried to wrap her head around it. Charles might be curious about how Captain Wentworth felt! Maybe he had walked away, given up on Louisa, lost his love for her, or realized he never really loved her. She couldn't stand the thought of betrayal or carelessness, or anything resembling mistreatment between him and his friend. She couldn't bear the idea that their friendship should be unfairly broken.
Captain Benwick and Louisa Musgrove! The high-spirited, joyous-talking Louisa Musgrove, and the dejected, thinking, feeling, reading, Captain Benwick, seemed each of them everything that would not suit the other. Their minds most dissimilar! Where could have been the attraction? The answer soon presented itself. It had been in situation. They had been thrown together several weeks; they had been living in the same small family party: since Henrietta’s coming away, they must have been depending almost entirely on each other, and Louisa, just recovering from illness, had been in an interesting state, and Captain Benwick was not inconsolable. That was a point which Anne had not been able to avoid suspecting before; and instead of drawing the same conclusion as Mary, from the present course of events, they served only to confirm the idea of his having felt some dawning of tenderness toward herself. She did not mean, however, to derive much more from it to gratify her vanity, than Mary might have allowed. She was persuaded that any tolerably pleasing young woman who had listened and seemed to feel for him would have received the same compliment. He had an affectionate heart. He must love somebody.
Captain Benwick and Louisa Musgrove! The lively, cheerful Louisa Musgrove, and the sad, thoughtful, bookish Captain Benwick seemed to be everything that wouldn’t suit each other. Their minds were so different! What could have drawn them together? The answer became clear. It was their situation. They had spent several weeks together, living in the same small family group; since Henrietta’s departure, they had relied almost entirely on one another. Louisa, just recovering from illness, was in a vulnerable state, and Captain Benwick was not altogether heartbroken. That was something Anne had suspected before; and instead of reaching the same conclusion as Mary from the current situation, it only reinforced her belief that he had felt some initial tenderness for her. However, she didn’t intend to take it as a flattering compliment for her vanity, more than what Mary might have thought. She was convinced that any reasonably attractive young woman who had listened and seemed to care for him would have received the same attention. He had an affectionate heart. He must love someone.
She saw no reason against their being happy. Louisa had fine naval fervour to begin with, and they would soon grow more alike. He would gain cheerfulness, and she would learn to be an enthusiast for Scott and Lord Byron; nay, that was probably learnt already; of course they had fallen in love over poetry. The idea of Louisa Musgrove turned into a person of literary taste, and sentimental reflection was amusing, but she had no doubt of its being so. The day at Lyme, the fall from the Cobb, might influence her health, her nerves, her courage, her character to the end of her life, as thoroughly as it appeared to have influenced her fate.
She saw no reason why they shouldn’t be happy. Louisa had a strong passion to start with, and they would soon become more similar. He would become more cheerful, and she would learn to be an enthusiast for Scott and Lord Byron; in fact, she probably already had that enthusiasm. Of course, they had fallen in love over poetry. The idea of Louisa Musgrove developing a taste for literature and being reflective was amusing, but she was certain it would happen. The day at Lyme, the fall from the Cobb, could affect her health, her nerves, her courage, her character for the rest of her life, just as it seemed to have impacted her fate.
The conclusion of the whole was, that if the woman who had been sensible of Captain Wentworth’s merits could be allowed to prefer another man, there was nothing in the engagement to excite lasting wonder; and if Captain Wentworth lost no friend by it, certainly nothing to be regretted. No, it was not regret which made Anne’s heart beat in spite of herself, and brought the colour into her cheeks when she thought of Captain Wentworth unshackled and free. She had some feelings which she was ashamed to investigate. They were too much like joy, senseless joy!
The conclusion was that if the woman who recognized Captain Wentworth’s qualities could choose another man, then there was nothing in the engagement that would provoke lasting surprise; and if Captain Wentworth didn’t lose any friends because of it, then there was definitely nothing to regret. No, it wasn’t regret that made Anne’s heart race against her will and flushed her cheeks when she thought of Captain Wentworth being unattached and free. She had feelings that she was embarrassed to examine. They felt too much like happiness, foolish happiness!
She longed to see the Crofts; but when the meeting took place, it was evident that no rumour of the news had yet reached them. The visit of ceremony was paid and returned; and Louisa Musgrove was mentioned, and Captain Benwick, too, without even half a smile.
She really wanted to see the Crofts; but when they finally met, it was clear that they hadn’t heard any rumors about the news. They exchanged formal visits, and Louisa Musgrove was mentioned, along with Captain Benwick, without even a hint of a smile.
The Crofts had placed themselves in lodgings in Gay Street, perfectly to Sir Walter’s satisfaction. He was not at all ashamed of the acquaintance, and did, in fact, think and talk a great deal more about the Admiral, than the Admiral ever thought or talked about him.
The Crofts had settled into a place on Gay Street, which pleased Sir Walter completely. He wasn't at all embarrassed by their friendship and, in fact, thought and talked about the Admiral much more than the Admiral ever thought or talked about him.
The Crofts knew quite as many people in Bath as they wished for, and considered their intercourse with the Elliots as a mere matter of form, and not in the least likely to afford them any pleasure. They brought with them their country habit of being almost always together. He was ordered to walk to keep off the gout, and Mrs Croft seemed to go shares with him in everything, and to walk for her life to do him good. Anne saw them wherever she went. Lady Russell took her out in her carriage almost every morning, and she never failed to think of them, and never failed to see them. Knowing their feelings as she did, it was a most attractive picture of happiness to her. She always watched them as long as she could, delighted to fancy she understood what they might be talking of, as they walked along in happy independence, or equally delighted to see the Admiral’s hearty shake of the hand when he encountered an old friend, and observe their eagerness of conversation when occasionally forming into a little knot of the navy, Mrs Croft looking as intelligent and keen as any of the officers around her.
The Crofts knew just as many people in Bath as they wanted to, and viewed their interactions with the Elliots as nothing more than a formality, unlikely to bring them any enjoyment. They brought along their countryside habit of spending nearly all their time together. He was advised to walk to prevent gout, and Mrs. Croft seemed to partner with him in everything, walking for her life to help him. Anne spotted them wherever she went. Lady Russell took her out in her carriage almost every morning, and she always thought of them and always saw them. Knowing how they felt, it was a very appealing image of happiness for her. She watched them for as long as she could, happy to imagine she understood what they might be discussing as they strolled along with joyful independence, or equally pleased to see the Admiral’s hearty handshake when he met an old friend and notice their enthusiastic conversations when they occasionally gathered in a small group of navy personnel, with Mrs. Croft looking as sharp and observant as any of the officers around her.
Anne was too much engaged with Lady Russell to be often walking herself; but it so happened that one morning, about a week or ten days after the Croft’s arrival, it suited her best to leave her friend, or her friend’s carriage, in the lower part of the town, and return alone to Camden Place, and in walking up Milsom Street she had the good fortune to meet with the Admiral. He was standing by himself at a printshop window, with his hands behind him, in earnest contemplation of some print, and she not only might have passed him unseen, but was obliged to touch as well as address him before she could catch his notice. When he did perceive and acknowledge her, however, it was done with all his usual frankness and good humour. “Ha! is it you? Thank you, thank you. This is treating me like a friend. Here I am, you see, staring at a picture. I can never get by this shop without stopping. But what a thing here is, by way of a boat! Do look at it. Did you ever see the like? What queer fellows your fine painters must be, to think that anybody would venture their lives in such a shapeless old cockleshell as that? And yet here are two gentlemen stuck up in it mightily at their ease, and looking about them at the rocks and mountains, as if they were not to be upset the next moment, which they certainly must be. I wonder where that boat was built!” (laughing heartily); “I would not venture over a horsepond in it. Well,” (turning away), “now, where are you bound? Can I go anywhere for you, or with you? Can I be of any use?”
Anne was too busy with Lady Russell to go on walks herself very often; but one morning, about a week or ten days after the Crofts arrived, she decided it was best to leave her friend, or her friend’s carriage, in the lower part of town and walk back to Camden Place by herself. As she walked up Milsom Street, she was fortunate enough to run into the Admiral. He was standing alone at a print shop window, hands behind his back, intently looking at some print. She could have easily walked past him without being noticed, but she had to touch him and say something before he realized she was there. When he finally saw and acknowledged her, it was with his usual friendliness and good humor. “Ah! It’s you! Thank you, thank you. You’re treating me like a friend. Here I am, staring at a picture. I can never pass this shop without stopping. But check out this boat! Have you ever seen anything like it? What strange artists your fancy painters must be, to think anyone would risk their lives in such a pointless old dinghy! And yet here are two guys sitting in it as if they’re completely at ease, looking around at the rocks and mountains, as if they won’t tip over any second, which they definitely will. I wonder where that boat was made!” (laughing heartily) “I wouldn’t dare cross a puddle with it. Well,” (turning away), “so where are you headed? Can I go anywhere for you or with you? Can I help in any way?”
“None, I thank you, unless you will give me the pleasure of your company the little way our road lies together. I am going home.”
“Not really, thank you, unless you’d like to enjoy some company on the short part of the road we share. I’m heading home.”
“That I will, with all my heart, and farther, too. Yes, yes we will have a snug walk together, and I have something to tell you as we go along. There, take my arm; that’s right; I do not feel comfortable if I have not a woman there. Lord! what a boat it is!” taking a last look at the picture, as they began to be in motion.
“Absolutely, I will, with all my heart, and even more. Yes, yes, we’ll have a nice walk together, and I have something to share with you as we go. Here, take my arm; that’s perfect; I don’t feel at ease without a woman beside me. Wow! What a boat it is!” he said, glancing back at the scene as they started to move.
“Did you say that you had something to tell me, sir?”
“Did you say you had something to tell me, sir?”
“Yes, I have, presently. But here comes a friend, Captain Brigden; I shall only say, ‘How d’ye do?’ as we pass, however. I shall not stop. ‘How d’ye do?’ Brigden stares to see anybody with me but my wife. She, poor soul, is tied by the leg. She has a blister on one of her heels, as large as a three-shilling piece. If you look across the street, you will see Admiral Brand coming down and his brother. Shabby fellows, both of them! I am glad they are not on this side of the way. Sophy cannot bear them. They played me a pitiful trick once: got away with some of my best men. I will tell you the whole story another time. There comes old Sir Archibald Drew and his grandson. Look, he sees us; he kisses his hand to you; he takes you for my wife. Ah! the peace has come too soon for that younker. Poor old Sir Archibald! How do you like Bath, Miss Elliot? It suits us very well. We are always meeting with some old friend or other; the streets full of them every morning; sure to have plenty of chat; and then we get away from them all, and shut ourselves in our lodgings, and draw in our chairs, and are as snug as if we were at Kellynch, ay, or as we used to be even at North Yarmouth and Deal. We do not like our lodgings here the worse, I can tell you, for putting us in mind of those we first had at North Yarmouth. The wind blows through one of the cupboards just in the same way.”
“Yes, I have, for now. But here comes a friend, Captain Brigden; I’ll just say, ‘How do you do?’ as we pass by. I won’t stop. ‘How do you do?’ Brigden looks surprised to see anyone with me except my wife. She, poor thing, is stuck at home. She has a blister on one of her heels, as big as a three-shilling coin. If you look across the street, you’ll see Admiral Brand and his brother coming down. Both are pretty shabby! I’m glad they’re not on this side of the street. Sophy can’t stand them. They once pulled a pretty awful trick on me: took off with some of my best men. I’ll tell you the whole story another time. Here comes old Sir Archibald Drew and his grandson. Look, he sees us; he’s kissing his hand to you; he takes you for my wife. Ah! the peace has come too early for that young man. Poor old Sir Archibald! How are you finding Bath, Miss Elliot? It suits us quite well. We keep running into some old friend or another; the streets are full of them every morning; guaranteed to have plenty of conversation; and then we escape from them all, shut ourselves in our lodgings, pull our chairs closer, and are as cozy as if we were at Kellynch, or even how we used to be at North Yarmouth and Deal. I’ll tell you, we don’t mind our lodgings here for reminding us of the ones we first had at North Yarmouth. The wind blows through one of the cupboards just the same way.”
When they were got a little farther, Anne ventured to press again for what he had to communicate. She hoped when clear of Milsom Street to have her curiosity gratified; but she was still obliged to wait, for the Admiral had made up his mind not to begin till they had gained the greater space and quiet of Belmont; and as she was not really Mrs Croft, she must let him have his own way. As soon as they were fairly ascending Belmont, he began—
When they had gone a bit farther, Anne dared to ask again what he had to share. She hoped that once they were away from Milsom Street, her curiosity would be satisfied; but she still had to wait because the Admiral had decided not to start until they reached the larger, quieter space of Belmont. And since she wasn't really Mrs. Croft, she had to let him do things his way. As soon as they were properly climbing Belmont, he began—
“Well, now you shall hear something that will surprise you. But first of all, you must tell me the name of the young lady I am going to talk about. That young lady, you know, that we have all been so concerned for. The Miss Musgrove, that all this has been happening to. Her Christian name: I always forget her Christian name.”
“Well, now you’re going to hear something that will surprise you. But first, you have to tell me the name of the young lady I’m going to talk about. That young lady, you know, the one we’ve all been so worried about. The Miss Musgrove, the one all this has been happening to. Her first name: I always forget her first name.”
Anne had been ashamed to appear to comprehend so soon as she really did; but now she could safely suggest the name of “Louisa.”
Anne had felt embarrassed to seem like she understood so quickly; but now she could confidently bring up the name “Louisa.”
“Ay, ay, Miss Louisa Musgrove, that is the name. I wish young ladies had not such a number of fine Christian names. I should never be out if they were all Sophys, or something of that sort. Well, this Miss Louisa, we all thought, you know, was to marry Frederick. He was courting her week after week. The only wonder was, what they could be waiting for, till the business at Lyme came; then, indeed, it was clear enough that they must wait till her brain was set to right. But even then there was something odd in their way of going on. Instead of staying at Lyme, he went off to Plymouth, and then he went off to see Edward. When we came back from Minehead he was gone down to Edward’s, and there he has been ever since. We have seen nothing of him since November. Even Sophy could not understand it. But now, the matter has taken the strangest turn of all; for this young lady, the same Miss Musgrove, instead of being to marry Frederick, is to marry James Benwick. You know James Benwick.”
“Yeah, yeah, Miss Louisa Musgrove, that's her name. I wish young women didn't have so many fancy names. I'd never get confused if they were all Sophies or something like that. Anyway, we all thought that this Miss Louisa was going to marry Frederick. He was dating her week after week. The only question was, what were they waiting for until the situation at Lyme came up? Then, it was pretty clear they must wait until her head was clear again. But even then, their behavior was a bit strange. Instead of staying at Lyme, he went off to Plymouth, and then he went to see Edward. When we got back from Minehead, he had gone to Edward’s, and he’s been there ever since. We haven't seen him since November. Even Sophie couldn't figure it out. But now, the situation has taken the weirdest turn of all; because this young woman, the same Miss Musgrove, instead of marrying Frederick, is going to marry James Benwick. You know James Benwick.”
“A little. I am a little acquainted with Captain Benwick.”
“A bit. I know Captain Benwick a little.”
“Well, she is to marry him. Nay, most likely they are married already, for I do not know what they should wait for.”
"Well, she’s going to marry him. No, they’re probably already married since I don’t know what they would be waiting for."
“I thought Captain Benwick a very pleasing young man,” said Anne, “and I understand that he bears an excellent character.”
“I found Captain Benwick to be a really nice young man,” Anne said, “and I hear he has a great reputation.”
“Oh! yes, yes, there is not a word to be said against James Benwick. He is only a commander, it is true, made last summer, and these are bad times for getting on, but he has not another fault that I know of. An excellent, good-hearted fellow, I assure you; a very active, zealous officer too, which is more than you would think for, perhaps, for that soft sort of manner does not do him justice.”
“Oh! yes, yes, there’s nothing negative to say about James Benwick. He’s just a commander, it’s true, promoted last summer, and these are tough times for advancement, but I can’t think of any other faults he has. He’s a great, kind-hearted guy, I promise; a very energetic and dedicated officer too, which might surprise you because that gentle demeanor doesn’t really show what he’s capable of.”
“Indeed you are mistaken there, sir; I should never augur want of spirit from Captain Benwick’s manners. I thought them particularly pleasing, and I will answer for it, they would generally please.”
"You're definitely wrong about that, sir; I would never assume a lack of spirit from Captain Benwick's behavior. I found it quite charming, and I can assure you, it would usually be well-received."
“Well, well, ladies are the best judges; but James Benwick is rather too piano for me; and though very likely it is all our partiality, Sophy and I cannot help thinking Frederick’s manners better than his. There is something about Frederick more to our taste.”
“Well, well, ladies are the best judges; but James Benwick is a bit too reserved for me; and though it’s probably just our bias, Sophy and I can’t help thinking that Frederick’s manners are better than his. There’s something about Frederick that we prefer.”
Anne was caught. She had only meant to oppose the too common idea of spirit and gentleness being incompatible with each other, not at all to represent Captain Benwick’s manners as the very best that could possibly be; and, after a little hesitation, she was beginning to say, “I was not entering into any comparison of the two friends,” but the Admiral interrupted her with—
Anne was caught. She had only intended to challenge the common belief that spirit and gentleness can't coexist, not to suggest that Captain Benwick's behavior was the best possible. After a moment of hesitation, she was starting to say, “I wasn’t comparing the two friends,” but the Admiral interrupted her with—
“And the thing is certainly true. It is not a mere bit of gossip. We have it from Frederick himself. His sister had a letter from him yesterday, in which he tells us of it, and he had just had it in a letter from Harville, written upon the spot, from Uppercross. I fancy they are all at Uppercross.”
“And the thing is definitely true. It's not just some gossip. We heard it straight from Frederick himself. His sister got a letter from him yesterday, where he mentioned it, and he had just received it in a letter from Harville, written right there from Uppercross. I think they’re all at Uppercross.”
This was an opportunity which Anne could not resist; she said, therefore, “I hope, Admiral, I hope there is nothing in the style of Captain Wentworth’s letter to make you and Mrs Croft particularly uneasy. It did seem, last autumn, as if there were an attachment between him and Louisa Musgrove; but I hope it may be understood to have worn out on each side equally, and without violence. I hope his letter does not breathe the spirit of an ill-used man.”
This was an opportunity Anne couldn’t pass up; so she said, “I hope, Admiral, there’s nothing in Captain Wentworth’s letter that makes you and Mrs. Croft particularly uneasy. Last autumn, it seemed like there was a connection between him and Louisa Musgrove, but I hope it’s understood that it faded away on both sides, without any drama. I hope his letter doesn’t express the feelings of a wronged man.”
“Not at all, not at all; there is not an oath or a murmur from beginning to end.”
“Not at all, not at all; there’s no oath or whisper from start to finish.”
Anne looked down to hide her smile.
Anne looked down to suppress her smile.
“No, no; Frederick is not a man to whine and complain; he has too much spirit for that. If the girl likes another man better, it is very fit she should have him.”
“No, no; Frederick isn’t the type to whine and complain; he has too much spirit for that. If the girl prefers another man, it’s only right that she should be with him.”
“Certainly. But what I mean is, that I hope there is nothing in Captain Wentworth’s manner of writing to make you suppose he thinks himself ill-used by his friend, which might appear, you know, without its being absolutely said. I should be very sorry that such a friendship as has subsisted between him and Captain Benwick should be destroyed, or even wounded, by a circumstance of this sort.”
“Of course. But what I mean is, I hope there's nothing in Captain Wentworth’s way of writing that makes you think he believes he’s been treated unfairly by his friend, which might seem that way, you know, even if it’s not directly stated. I would be really upset if the friendship that has existed between him and Captain Benwick were harmed or even damaged by something like this.”
“Yes, yes, I understand you. But there is nothing at all of that nature in the letter. He does not give the least fling at Benwick; does not so much as say, ‘I wonder at it, I have a reason of my own for wondering at it.’ No, you would not guess, from his way of writing, that he had ever thought of this Miss (what’s her name?) for himself. He very handsomely hopes they will be happy together; and there is nothing very unforgiving in that, I think.”
“Yes, yes, I get what you’re saying. But there’s nothing like that in the letter. He doesn’t even hint at Benwick; he doesn’t say, ‘I’m surprised, I have my own reasons for feeling that way.’ No, you wouldn’t guess from his writing that he ever considered this Miss (what’s her name?) for himself. He generously hopes they will be happy together, and I don’t think that’s very unforgiving.”
Anne did not receive the perfect conviction which the Admiral meant to convey, but it would have been useless to press the enquiry farther. She therefore satisfied herself with common-place remarks or quiet attention, and the Admiral had it all his own way.
Anne didn't get the clear message that the Admiral intended to send, but it would have been pointless to dig deeper. So, she contented herself with ordinary comments or silent attention, and the Admiral had things exactly how he wanted.
“Poor Frederick!” said he at last. “Now he must begin all over again with somebody else. I think we must get him to Bath. Sophy must write, and beg him to come to Bath. Here are pretty girls enough, I am sure. It would be of no use to go to Uppercross again, for that other Miss Musgrove, I find, is bespoke by her cousin, the young parson. Do not you think, Miss Elliot, we had better try to get him to Bath?”
“Poor Frederick!” he finally said. “Now he has to start all over with someone else. I think we should get him to Bath. Sophy should write and ask him to come to Bath. There are plenty of pretty girls there, I’m sure. It wouldn’t make sense to go back to Uppercross, since I found out that the other Miss Musgrove is already taken by her cousin, the young parson. Don’t you think, Miss Elliot, it would be better to try to get him to Bath?”
CHAPTER XIX.
While Admiral Croft was taking this walk with Anne, and expressing his wish of getting Captain Wentworth to Bath, Captain Wentworth was already on his way thither. Before Mrs Croft had written, he was arrived, and the very next time Anne walked out, she saw him.
While Admiral Croft was taking this walk with Anne and sharing his desire to get Captain Wentworth to Bath, Captain Wentworth was already on his way there. Before Mrs. Croft had written, he had arrived, and the very next time Anne went out for a walk, she saw him.
Mr Elliot was attending his two cousins and Mrs Clay. They were in Milsom Street. It began to rain, not much, but enough to make shelter desirable for women, and quite enough to make it very desirable for Miss Elliot to have the advantage of being conveyed home in Lady Dalrymple’s carriage, which was seen waiting at a little distance; she, Anne, and Mrs Clay, therefore, turned into Molland’s, while Mr Elliot stepped to Lady Dalrymple, to request her assistance. He soon joined them again, successful, of course; Lady Dalrymple would be most happy to take them home, and would call for them in a few minutes.
Mr. Elliot was with his two cousins and Mrs. Clay. They were on Milsom Street. It started to rain, not heavily, but enough for the women to want to find shelter, and it was definitely enough for Miss Elliot to appreciate being able to go home in Lady Dalrymple’s carriage, which was waiting a short distance away. So, she, Anne, and Mrs. Clay went into Molland’s, while Mr. Elliot approached Lady Dalrymple to ask for her help. He quickly rejoined them, obviously successful; Lady Dalrymple was more than happy to take them home and would pick them up in a few minutes.
Her ladyship’s carriage was a barouche, and did not hold more than four with any comfort. Miss Carteret was with her mother; consequently it was not reasonable to expect accommodation for all the three Camden Place ladies. There could be no doubt as to Miss Elliot. Whoever suffered inconvenience, she must suffer none, but it occupied a little time to settle the point of civility between the other two. The rain was a mere trifle, and Anne was most sincere in preferring a walk with Mr Elliot. But the rain was also a mere trifle to Mrs Clay; she would hardly allow it even to drop at all, and her boots were so thick! much thicker than Miss Anne’s; and, in short, her civility rendered her quite as anxious to be left to walk with Mr Elliot as Anne could be, and it was discussed between them with a generosity so polite and so determined, that the others were obliged to settle it for them; Miss Elliot maintaining that Mrs Clay had a little cold already, and Mr Elliot deciding on appeal, that his cousin Anne’s boots were rather the thickest.
Her ladyship’s carriage was a barouche, and it didn't comfortably fit more than four people. Miss Carteret was with her mother, so it wasn't realistic to expect room for all three ladies from Camden Place. There was no question about Miss Elliot; whoever had to deal with inconvenience, she would not, but it took a little time to sort out the matter of courtesy between the other two. The rain was just a drizzle, and Anne genuinely preferred to take a walk with Mr. Elliot. But to Mrs. Clay, the rain was also just a drizzle; she barely acknowledged it and her boots were so thick—much thicker than Miss Anne’s. In short, her politeness made her just as eager to be left alone to walk with Mr. Elliot as Anne was, and they discussed it with such polite generosity and determination that the others had to resolve it for them. Miss Elliot insisted that Mrs. Clay was already a bit under the weather, and Mr. Elliot, settling the matter, decided that his cousin Anne’s boots were the thickest after all.
It was fixed accordingly, that Mrs Clay should be of the party in the carriage; and they had just reached this point, when Anne, as she sat near the window, descried, most decidedly and distinctly, Captain Wentworth walking down the street.
It was settled that Mrs. Clay would be part of the group in the carriage; and they had just come to this conclusion when Anne, sitting by the window, clearly spotted Captain Wentworth walking down the street.
Her start was perceptible only to herself; but she instantly felt that she was the greatest simpleton in the world, the most unaccountable and absurd! For a few minutes she saw nothing before her; it was all confusion. She was lost, and when she had scolded back her senses, she found the others still waiting for the carriage, and Mr Elliot (always obliging) just setting off for Union Street on a commission of Mrs Clay’s.
Her beginning was noticeable only to her, but she immediately felt like the biggest fool in the world, completely irrational and ridiculous! For a few minutes, she couldn’t see anything ahead of her; it was all chaos. She felt lost, and once she regained her composure, she saw the others still waiting for the carriage, and Mr. Elliot (always helpful) was just setting off for Union Street on an errand for Mrs. Clay.
She now felt a great inclination to go to the outer door; she wanted to see if it rained. Why was she to suspect herself of another motive? Captain Wentworth must be out of sight. She left her seat, she would go; one half of her should not be always so much wiser than the other half, or always suspecting the other of being worse than it was. She would see if it rained. She was sent back, however, in a moment by the entrance of Captain Wentworth himself, among a party of gentlemen and ladies, evidently his acquaintance, and whom he must have joined a little below Milsom Street. He was more obviously struck and confused by the sight of her than she had ever observed before; he looked quite red. For the first time, since their renewed acquaintance, she felt that she was betraying the least sensibility of the two. She had the advantage of him in the preparation of the last few moments. All the overpowering, blinding, bewildering, first effects of strong surprise were over with her. Still, however, she had enough to feel! It was agitation, pain, pleasure, a something between delight and misery.
She now really wanted to go to the outer door; she wanted to check if it was raining. Why should she suspect herself of having another reason? Captain Wentworth must be out of sight. She got up from her seat; she would go—one part of her shouldn’t always be wiser than the other part or always suspecting it of being worse than it was. She needed to see if it was raining. However, she was stopped in her tracks by the entrance of Captain Wentworth himself, among a group of gentlemen and ladies, obviously his acquaintances, whom he must have joined just below Milsom Street. He seemed more taken aback and confused by seeing her than she had ever noticed before; he looked quite flushed. For the first time since they had reconnected, she felt that she was showing the least sensitivity of the two. She had the upper hand in the last few moments. All the overwhelming, blinding, disorienting effects of strong surprise had passed for her. Still, she had plenty of feelings! It was a mix of agitation, pain, pleasure, something between delight and misery.
He spoke to her, and then turned away. The character of his manner was embarrassment. She could not have called it either cold or friendly, or anything so certainly as embarrassed.
He talked to her and then turned away. His demeanor was filled with embarrassment. She couldn't describe it as cold or friendly, or anything as clear as just embarrassed.
After a short interval, however, he came towards her, and spoke again. Mutual enquiries on common subjects passed: neither of them, probably, much the wiser for what they heard, and Anne continuing fully sensible of his being less at ease than formerly. They had by dint of being so very much together, got to speak to each other with a considerable portion of apparent indifference and calmness; but he could not do it now. Time had changed him, or Louisa had changed him. There was consciousness of some sort or other. He looked very well, not as if he had been suffering in health or spirits, and he talked of Uppercross, of the Musgroves, nay, even of Louisa, and had even a momentary look of his own arch significance as he named her; but yet it was Captain Wentworth not comfortable, not easy, not able to feign that he was.
After a short while, though, he approached her and spoke again. They exchanged polite questions about common topics, neither of them probably any wiser for what they heard, and Anne remained fully aware that he seemed less at ease than before. Because they had spent so much time together, they had learned to talk to each other with a good deal of apparent indifference and calmness; but he couldn’t do that now. Time had changed him, or Louisa had changed him. There was some awareness present. He looked great, not as if he had been struggling with his health or mood, and he talked about Uppercross, the Musgroves, and even Louisa, briefly showing a mischievous glance when he mentioned her; but still, Captain Wentworth was not comfortable, not easy, unable to pretend otherwise.
It did not surprise, but it grieved Anne to observe that Elizabeth would not know him. She saw that he saw Elizabeth, that Elizabeth saw him, that there was complete internal recognition on each side; she was convinced that he was ready to be acknowledged as an acquaintance, expecting it, and she had the pain of seeing her sister turn away with unalterable coldness.
It didn’t surprise Anne, but it saddened her to see that Elizabeth wouldn’t recognize him. She noticed that he noticed Elizabeth, that Elizabeth noticed him, and there was a clear mutual recognition between them; she was sure he was ready to be acknowledged as someone she knew and was expecting it, and she felt the pain of watching her sister turn away with unchanging coldness.
Lady Dalrymple’s carriage, for which Miss Elliot was growing very impatient, now drew up; the servant came in to announce it. It was beginning to rain again, and altogether there was a delay, and a bustle, and a talking, which must make all the little crowd in the shop understand that Lady Dalrymple was calling to convey Miss Elliot. At last Miss Elliot and her friend, unattended but by the servant, (for there was no cousin returned), were walking off; and Captain Wentworth, watching them, turned again to Anne, and by manner, rather than words, was offering his services to her.
Lady Dalrymple’s carriage, which Miss Elliot was becoming quite impatient for, finally pulled up; the servant came in to announce it. It was starting to rain again, and overall there was a delay, a flurry of activity, and chatter that made everyone in the shop aware that Lady Dalrymple was there to take Miss Elliot. Finally, Miss Elliot and her friend, accompanied only by the servant (since no cousin had returned), began to leave; and Captain Wentworth, observing them, turned back to Anne, offering his assistance to her more through his actions than his words.
“I am much obliged to you,” was her answer, “but I am not going with them. The carriage would not accommodate so many. I walk: I prefer walking.”
“I really appreciate it,” she replied, “but I’m not going with them. The carriage won’t fit that many people. I’ll walk; I prefer walking.”
“But it rains.”
"But it's raining."
“Oh! very little. Nothing that I regard.”
“Oh! very little. Nothing that I care about.”
After a moment’s pause he said: “Though I came only yesterday, I have equipped myself properly for Bath already, you see,” (pointing to a new umbrella); “I wish you would make use of it, if you are determined to walk; though I think it would be more prudent to let me get you a chair.”
After a brief pause, he said: “Even though I just arrived yesterday, I’ve already gotten ready for Bath, as you can see,” (pointing to a new umbrella); “I really wish you would use it if you’re set on walking, but I think it would be wiser to let me get you a chair.”
She was very much obliged to him, but declined it all, repeating her conviction, that the rain would come to nothing at present, and adding, “I am only waiting for Mr Elliot. He will be here in a moment, I am sure.”
She was really grateful to him, but turned it all down, insisting that the rain wouldn’t amount to anything right now, and adding, “I’m just waiting for Mr. Elliot. He’ll be here any minute, I’m sure.”
She had hardly spoken the words when Mr Elliot walked in. Captain Wentworth recollected him perfectly. There was no difference between him and the man who had stood on the steps at Lyme, admiring Anne as she passed, except in the air and look and manner of the privileged relation and friend. He came in with eagerness, appeared to see and think only of her, apologised for his stay, was grieved to have kept her waiting, and anxious to get her away without further loss of time and before the rain increased; and in another moment they walked off together, her arm under his, a gentle and embarrassed glance, and a “Good morning to you!” being all that she had time for, as she passed away.
She had barely finished speaking when Mr. Elliot walked in. Captain Wentworth recognized him right away. He looked just like the man who had stood on the steps at Lyme, admiring Anne as she walked by, except for the confident air and demeanor of a close friend and relative. He came in eagerly, seemed to see and think only of her, apologized for being late, was sorry to have made her wait, and was anxious to get her out of there quickly before the rain got worse; in a moment, they walked off together, her arm linked with his, sharing a shy glance and a quick, “Good morning to you!” as she hurried away.
As soon as they were out of sight, the ladies of Captain Wentworth’s party began talking of them.
As soon as they were out of sight, the women in Captain Wentworth’s group started discussing them.
“Mr Elliot does not dislike his cousin, I fancy?”
"Mr. Elliot doesn't dislike his cousin, right?"
“Oh! no, that is clear enough. One can guess what will happen there. He is always with them; half lives in the family, I believe. What a very good-looking man!”
“Oh! No, that’s obvious. You can tell what’s going to happen there. He’s always around them; I think he practically lives with the family. What a really good-looking guy!”
“Yes, and Miss Atkinson, who dined with him once at the Wallises, says he is the most agreeable man she ever was in company with.”
“Yes, and Miss Atkinson, who had dinner with him once at the Wallises, says he is the most pleasant man she’s ever been around.”
“She is pretty, I think; Anne Elliot; very pretty, when one comes to look at her. It is not the fashion to say so, but I confess I admire her more than her sister.”
"She’s pretty, I think; Anne Elliot; really pretty, once you take a good look at her. It’s not trendy to say this, but I admit I like her more than her sister."
“Oh! so do I.”
“Oh! Me too.”
“And so do I. No comparison. But the men are all wild after Miss Elliot. Anne is too delicate for them.”
"And so do I. There's no comparison. But all the guys are crazy about Miss Elliot. Anne is too delicate for them."
Anne would have been particularly obliged to her cousin, if he would have walked by her side all the way to Camden Place, without saying a word. She had never found it so difficult to listen to him, though nothing could exceed his solicitude and care, and though his subjects were principally such as were wont to be always interesting: praise, warm, just, and discriminating, of Lady Russell, and insinuations highly rational against Mrs Clay. But just now she could think only of Captain Wentworth. She could not understand his present feelings, whether he were really suffering much from disappointment or not; and till that point were settled, she could not be quite herself.
Anne would have been especially grateful to her cousin if he had walked by her side all the way to Camden Place without saying a word. She had never found it so hard to listen to him, even though nothing could match his concern and care, and even though his topics were usually quite interesting: thoughtful, warm, and fair praise of Lady Russell, along with sensible criticisms of Mrs. Clay. But right now, she could only think of Captain Wentworth. She couldn't figure out what he was feeling, whether he was really hurt by disappointment or not; and until that was clear, she couldn’t fully be herself.
She hoped to be wise and reasonable in time; but alas! alas! she must confess to herself that she was not wise yet.
She hoped to be wise and reasonable eventually; but unfortunately, she had to admit to herself that she wasn't wise yet.
Another circumstance very essential for her to know, was how long he meant to be in Bath; he had not mentioned it, or she could not recollect it. He might be only passing through. But it was more probable that he should be come to stay. In that case, so liable as every body was to meet every body in Bath, Lady Russell would in all likelihood see him somewhere. Would she recollect him? How would it all be?
Another important thing for her to know was how long he planned to be in Bath; he hadn't said, or she just couldn’t remember. He might just be passing through. But it seemed more likely that he was there to stay. In that case, since everyone in Bath tended to run into each other, Lady Russell would probably see him at some point. Would she recognize him? How would it all play out?
She had already been obliged to tell Lady Russell that Louisa Musgrove was to marry Captain Benwick. It had cost her something to encounter Lady Russell’s surprise; and now, if she were by any chance to be thrown into company with Captain Wentworth, her imperfect knowledge of the matter might add another shade of prejudice against him.
She had already been forced to tell Lady Russell that Louisa Musgrove was going to marry Captain Benwick. Facing Lady Russell’s surprise had been difficult for her; and now, if she happened to be in the same company as Captain Wentworth, her limited understanding of the situation might create another bias against him.
The following morning Anne was out with her friend, and for the first hour, in an incessant and fearful sort of watch for him in vain; but at last, in returning down Pulteney Street, she distinguished him on the right hand pavement at such a distance as to have him in view the greater part of the street. There were many other men about him, many groups walking the same way, but there was no mistaking him. She looked instinctively at Lady Russell; but not from any mad idea of her recognising him so soon as she did herself. No, it was not to be supposed that Lady Russell would perceive him till they were nearly opposite. She looked at her however, from time to time, anxiously; and when the moment approached which must point him out, though not daring to look again (for her own countenance she knew was unfit to be seen), she was yet perfectly conscious of Lady Russell’s eyes being turned exactly in the direction for him—of her being, in short, intently observing him. She could thoroughly comprehend the sort of fascination he must possess over Lady Russell’s mind, the difficulty it must be for her to withdraw her eyes, the astonishment she must be feeling that eight or nine years should have passed over him, and in foreign climes and in active service too, without robbing him of one personal grace!
The next morning, Anne was out with her friend, anxiously scanning the street for him for the first hour without any luck. Finally, as they walked down Pulteney Street, she spotted him on the right-hand sidewalk from a distance, able to see him for most of the street's length. There were lots of other men around him, groups walking in the same direction, but there was no mistaking him. She instinctively glanced at Lady Russell, not because she thought Lady Russell would recognize him as quickly as she had, but because she knew Lady Russell wouldn’t see him until they were almost opposite. Still, she kept stealing anxious looks at her, and when the moment came that should point him out, even though she didn't dare to look again (since she knew her own expression wasn't fit to show), she was fully aware that Lady Russell's gaze was fixed right on him—she was clearly watching him closely. Anne totally understood the kind of hold he must have on Lady Russell's mind, how hard it must be for her to look away, and the shock she must feel that eight or nine years had passed since they last saw him, during which time he had been away in foreign lands and active service, yet hadn’t lost any of his charm!
At last, Lady Russell drew back her head. “Now, how would she speak of him?”
At last, Lady Russell pulled her head back. “So, how would she talk about him?”
“You will wonder,” said she, “what has been fixing my eye so long; but I was looking after some window-curtains, which Lady Alicia and Mrs Frankland were telling me of last night. They described the drawing-room window-curtains of one of the houses on this side of the way, and this part of the street, as being the handsomest and best hung of any in Bath, but could not recollect the exact number, and I have been trying to find out which it could be; but I confess I can see no curtains hereabouts that answer their description.”
"You might be wondering," she said, "what I've been staring at for so long; but I was actually looking for some window curtains that Lady Alicia and Mrs. Frankland were telling me about last night. They described the drawing-room curtains of one of the houses on this side of the street as being the most beautiful and best hung in Bath, but they couldn't remember the exact number. I've been trying to figure out which one it could be, but honestly, I can't find any curtains around here that match their description."
Anne sighed and blushed and smiled, in pity and disdain, either at her friend or herself. The part which provoked her most, was that in all this waste of foresight and caution, she should have lost the right moment for seeing whether he saw them.
Anne sighed, blushed, and smiled, feeling a mix of pity and disdain, either for her friend or for herself. What upset her the most was that, despite all this unnecessary planning and caution, she had missed the perfect moment to see if he noticed them.
A day or two passed without producing anything. The theatre or the rooms, where he was most likely to be, were not fashionable enough for the Elliots, whose evening amusements were solely in the elegant stupidity of private parties, in which they were getting more and more engaged; and Anne, wearied of such a state of stagnation, sick of knowing nothing, and fancying herself stronger because her strength was not tried, was quite impatient for the concert evening. It was a concert for the benefit of a person patronised by Lady Dalrymple. Of course they must attend. It was really expected to be a good one, and Captain Wentworth was very fond of music. If she could only have a few minutes conversation with him again, she fancied she should be satisfied; and as to the power of addressing him, she felt all over courage if the opportunity occurred. Elizabeth had turned from him, Lady Russell overlooked him; her nerves were strengthened by these circumstances; she felt that she owed him attention.
A day or two went by without any progress. The theater and the places where he was likely to be were too out of style for the Elliots, whose evening entertainment revolved solely around the elegant dullness of private parties that they were increasingly becoming involved in. Anne, tired of this stagnation, frustrated by her ignorance, and thinking she was stronger just because her strength wasn’t being tested, was really looking forward to concert night. It was a concert to support someone sponsored by Lady Dalrymple. Of course, they had to go. It was expected to be a good one, and Captain Wentworth loved music. If she could just have a few minutes to talk to him again, she thought she would be content; and as for approaching him, she felt full of courage if the chance arose. Elizabeth had turned away from him, Lady Russell ignored him; these situations gave her more confidence; she felt it was her duty to pay him attention.
She had once partly promised Mrs Smith to spend the evening with her; but in a short hurried call she excused herself and put it off, with the more decided promise of a longer visit on the morrow. Mrs Smith gave a most good-humoured acquiescence.
She had once somewhat promised Mrs. Smith to spend the evening with her; but in a brief, rushed call, she made an excuse and postponed it, with a stronger promise of a longer visit tomorrow. Mrs. Smith responded with a very good-natured agreement.
“By all means,” said she; “only tell me all about it, when you do come. Who is your party?”
“Of course,” she said. “Just make sure to tell me everything about it when you come back. Who’s in your group?”
Anne named them all. Mrs Smith made no reply; but when she was leaving her said, and with an expression half serious, half arch, “Well, I heartily wish your concert may answer; and do not fail me to-morrow if you can come; for I begin to have a foreboding that I may not have many more visits from you.”
Anne named them all. Mrs. Smith didn’t respond, but as she was leaving, she said, with a look that was half serious and half playful, “Well, I truly hope your concert goes well; and please don’t forget to come tomorrow if you can; because I have a feeling I might not get many more visits from you.”
Anne was startled and confused; but after standing in a moment’s suspense, was obliged, and not sorry to be obliged, to hurry away.
Anne was surprised and confused; but after a moment of waiting, she had to leave in a hurry, and she didn’t mind having to do so.
CHAPTER XX.
Sir Walter, his two daughters, and Mrs Clay, were the earliest of all their party at the rooms in the evening; and as Lady Dalrymple must be waited for, they took their station by one of the fires in the Octagon Room. But hardly were they so settled, when the door opened again, and Captain Wentworth walked in alone. Anne was the nearest to him, and making yet a little advance, she instantly spoke. He was preparing only to bow and pass on, but her gentle “How do you do?” brought him out of the straight line to stand near her, and make enquiries in return, in spite of the formidable father and sister in the back ground. Their being in the back ground was a support to Anne; she knew nothing of their looks, and felt equal to everything which she believed right to be done.
Sir Walter, his two daughters, and Mrs. Clay were the first to arrive at the gathering in the evening. Since they had to wait for Lady Dalrymple, they took a spot by one of the fires in the Octagon Room. Hardly had they settled in when the door opened again, and Captain Wentworth walked in alone. Anne was closest to him, and taking a small step forward, she immediately spoke. He was about to just bow and move past, but her gentle “How do you do?” made him pause, stand near her, and ask questions in return, despite the intimidating presence of her father and sister in the background. Their presence actually helped Anne; she wasn’t aware of their expressions and felt confident in whatever she believed needed to be done.
While they were speaking, a whispering between her father and Elizabeth caught her ear. She could not distinguish, but she must guess the subject; and on Captain Wentworth’s making a distant bow, she comprehended that her father had judged so well as to give him that simple acknowledgement of acquaintance, and she was just in time by a side glance to see a slight curtsey from Elizabeth herself. This, though late, and reluctant, and ungracious, was yet better than nothing, and her spirits improved.
While they were talking, she overheard a whispering between her father and Elizabeth. She couldn’t make out the words, but she had to guess the topic; and when Captain Wentworth gave a distant nod, she realized her father had done well to offer him that simple acknowledgment of familiarity. Just in time, she caught a quick glance and saw a slight curtsy from Elizabeth herself. Although it was late, reluctant, and somewhat rude, it was still better than nothing, and it lifted her spirits.
After talking, however, of the weather, and Bath, and the concert, their conversation began to flag, and so little was said at last, that she was expecting him to go every moment, but he did not; he seemed in no hurry to leave her; and presently with renewed spirit, with a little smile, a little glow, he said—
After chatting about the weather, Bath, and the concert, their conversation started to dwindle, and eventually, so little was said that she thought he might leave at any time, but he didn’t; he didn’t seem in a rush to go. Then, with a little more energy, a slight smile, and a warm expression, he said—
“I have hardly seen you since our day at Lyme. I am afraid you must have suffered from the shock, and the more from its not overpowering you at the time.”
“I’ve barely seen you since our day at Lyme. I’m worried that you must have been affected by the shock, and even more so because it didn’t hit you hard at the time.”
She assured him that she had not.
She promised him that she hadn't.
“It was a frightful hour,” said he, “a frightful day!” and he passed his hand across his eyes, as if the remembrance were still too painful, but in a moment, half smiling again, added, “The day has produced some effects however; has had some consequences which must be considered as the very reverse of frightful. When you had the presence of mind to suggest that Benwick would be the properest person to fetch a surgeon, you could have little idea of his being eventually one of those most concerned in her recovery.”
“It was an awful hour,” he said, “an awful day!” He rubbed his eyes, as if just thinking about it was still too painful, but after a moment, half-smiling again, he added, “The day did have some effects, though; there were some outcomes that must be seen as the exact opposite of awful. When you wisely suggested that Benwick would be the best person to get a surgeon, you probably had no idea he would end up being one of the most involved in her recovery.”
“Certainly I could have none. But it appears—I should hope it would be a very happy match. There are on both sides good principles and good temper.”
“Of course, I could have none. But it seems—I hope it will be a very happy match. There are good principles and a good temperament on both sides.”
“Yes,” said he, looking not exactly forward; “but there, I think, ends the resemblance. With all my soul I wish them happy, and rejoice over every circumstance in favour of it. They have no difficulties to contend with at home, no opposition, no caprice, no delays. The Musgroves are behaving like themselves, most honourably and kindly, only anxious with true parental hearts to promote their daughter’s comfort. All this is much, very much in favour of their happiness; more than perhaps—”
“Yes,” he said, not exactly looking ahead; “but I think that’s where the similarities end. With all my heart, I wish them happiness and celebrate every situation that supports it. They have no challenges at home, no opposition, no unpredictability, no delays. The Musgroves are acting like themselves, very honorably and kindly, genuinely concerned as parents to make their daughter comfortable. All of this is a huge, significant plus for their happiness; more than perhaps—”
He stopped. A sudden recollection seemed to occur, and to give him some taste of that emotion which was reddening Anne’s cheeks and fixing her eyes on the ground. After clearing his throat, however, he proceeded thus—
He stopped. A sudden memory seemed to hit him, giving him a glimpse of the feeling that was making Anne’s cheeks flush and keeping her eyes on the ground. After clearing his throat, he continued—
“I confess that I do think there is a disparity, too great a disparity, and in a point no less essential than mind. I regard Louisa Musgrove as a very amiable, sweet-tempered girl, and not deficient in understanding, but Benwick is something more. He is a clever man, a reading man; and I confess, that I do consider his attaching himself to her with some surprise. Had it been the effect of gratitude, had he learnt to love her, because he believed her to be preferring him, it would have been another thing. But I have no reason to suppose it so. It seems, on the contrary, to have been a perfectly spontaneous, untaught feeling on his side, and this surprises me. A man like him, in his situation! with a heart pierced, wounded, almost broken! Fanny Harville was a very superior creature, and his attachment to her was indeed attachment. A man does not recover from such a devotion of the heart to such a woman. He ought not; he does not.”
“I admit that I think there’s a significant difference, too big of a difference, and in a matter just as important as intelligence. I see Louisa Musgrove as a very kind, sweet-natured girl, and she’s not lacking in understanding, but Benwick is something more. He’s a smart guy, a reader; and I honestly do find it somewhat surprising that he has become attached to her. If it had been out of gratitude, or if he had come to love her because he thought she preferred him, that would be a different story. But I have no reason to believe that. It appears, on the contrary, that it was a completely spontaneous, untrained feeling on his part, and that surprises me. A man like him, in his situation— with a heart that’s been pierced, wounded, almost broken! Fanny Harville was an exceptional woman, and his love for her was genuine love. A man doesn't just move on from such devotion to such a woman. He shouldn’t; he doesn’t.”
Either from the consciousness, however, that his friend had recovered, or from other consciousness, he went no farther; and Anne who, in spite of the agitated voice in which the latter part had been uttered, and in spite of all the various noises of the room, the almost ceaseless slam of the door, and ceaseless buzz of persons walking through, had distinguished every word, was struck, gratified, confused, and beginning to breathe very quick, and feel an hundred things in a moment. It was impossible for her to enter on such a subject; and yet, after a pause, feeling the necessity of speaking, and having not the smallest wish for a total change, she only deviated so far as to say—
Either because he realized his friend had recovered or for some other reason, he didn't go any further; and Anne, who, despite the tense tone in which the last part was said and all the different sounds in the room—the almost nonstop slamming of the door and the constant buzz of people walking by—had heard every word, felt a mix of emotions: she was struck, pleased, confused, and starting to breathe rapidly, feeling a hundred things all at once. It was impossible for her to dive into such a topic; and yet, after a moment of silence, sensing the urge to say something and having no desire for a complete change of subject, she only shifted slightly to say—
“You were a good while at Lyme, I think?”
"You spent quite some time in Lyme, didn't you?"
“About a fortnight. I could not leave it till Louisa’s doing well was quite ascertained. I had been too deeply concerned in the mischief to be soon at peace. It had been my doing, solely mine. She would not have been obstinate if I had not been weak. The country round Lyme is very fine. I walked and rode a great deal; and the more I saw, the more I found to admire.”
“About two weeks. I couldn't leave until I was sure Louisa was completely okay. I had been too involved in the trouble to feel at ease quickly. It was all my fault. She wouldn’t have been stubborn if I hadn’t been weak. The area around Lyme is beautiful. I walked and rode a lot; and the more I explored, the more I found to admire.”
“I should very much like to see Lyme again,” said Anne.
“I would really love to see Lyme again,” said Anne.
“Indeed! I should not have supposed that you could have found anything in Lyme to inspire such a feeling. The horror and distress you were involved in, the stretch of mind, the wear of spirits! I should have thought your last impressions of Lyme must have been strong disgust.”
“Absolutely! I shouldn’t have thought you could have found anything in Lyme to spark such a feeling. The horror and distress you experienced, the mental strain, the emotional fatigue! I would have assumed your most recent impressions of Lyme would have been pure disgust.”
“The last hours were certainly very painful,” replied Anne; “but when pain is over, the remembrance of it often becomes a pleasure. One does not love a place the less for having suffered in it, unless it has been all suffering, nothing but suffering, which was by no means the case at Lyme. We were only in anxiety and distress during the last two hours, and previously there had been a great deal of enjoyment. So much novelty and beauty! I have travelled so little, that every fresh place would be interesting to me; but there is real beauty at Lyme; and in short” (with a faint blush at some recollections), “altogether my impressions of the place are very agreeable.”
“The last few hours were definitely really painful,” replied Anne; “but once the pain is over, remembering it often turns into something pleasant. You don’t love a place less just because you’ve suffered there, unless it was nothing but suffering, which definitely wasn’t the case at Lyme. We were only anxious and distressed for the last two hours, and before that, we had a lot of fun. So much novelty and beauty! I haven’t traveled much, so every new place is interesting to me; but there’s real beauty at Lyme; and in short” (with a slight blush at some memories), “overall, my impressions of the place are very positive.”
As she ceased, the entrance door opened again, and the very party appeared for whom they were waiting. “Lady Dalrymple, Lady Dalrymple,” was the rejoicing sound; and with all the eagerness compatible with anxious elegance, Sir Walter and his two ladies stepped forward to meet her. Lady Dalrymple and Miss Carteret, escorted by Mr Elliot and Colonel Wallis, who had happened to arrive nearly at the same instant, advanced into the room. The others joined them, and it was a group in which Anne found herself also necessarily included. She was divided from Captain Wentworth. Their interesting, almost too interesting conversation must be broken up for a time, but slight was the penance compared with the happiness which brought it on! She had learnt, in the last ten minutes, more of his feelings towards Louisa, more of all his feelings than she dared to think of; and she gave herself up to the demands of the party, to the needful civilities of the moment, with exquisite, though agitated sensations. She was in good humour with all. She had received ideas which disposed her to be courteous and kind to all, and to pity every one, as being less happy than herself.
As she finished speaking, the entrance door opened again, and the very party they had been waiting for arrived. “Lady Dalrymple, Lady Dalrymple,” was the joyful call, and with all the eagerness that comes with anxious elegance, Sir Walter and his two ladies stepped forward to greet her. Lady Dalrymple and Miss Carteret, accompanied by Mr. Elliot and Colonel Wallis, who had happened to arrive almost simultaneously, made their way into the room. The others joined them, and Anne found herself included in the group as well. She was separated from Captain Wentworth. Their engaging, almost too engaging conversation had to pause for a while, but the brief discomfort was nothing compared to the joy that prompted it! In the last ten minutes, she had learned more about his feelings for Louisa, more about all his feelings than she dared to consider; and she surrendered herself to the demands of the gathering, to the necessary pleasantries of the moment, with a mix of exquisite yet agitated emotions. She was in good spirits with everyone. She had absorbed ideas that made her inclined to be polite and kind to all, and to feel sympathy for everyone, as they seemed less happy than she was.
The delightful emotions were a little subdued, when on stepping back from the group, to be joined again by Captain Wentworth, she saw that he was gone. She was just in time to see him turn into the Concert Room. He was gone; he had disappeared, she felt a moment’s regret. But “they should meet again. He would look for her, he would find her out before the evening were over, and at present, perhaps, it was as well to be asunder. She was in need of a little interval for recollection.”
The happy feelings were slightly dampened when, as she stepped away from the group, Captain Wentworth joined her, and she realized he was no longer there. Just in time, she caught a glimpse of him turning into the Concert Room. He was gone; he had vanished, and she felt a brief moment of regret. But they would meet again. He would be looking for her, and he would find her before the night was over, and maybe for now, it was better for them to be apart. She needed a little time to collect her thoughts.
Upon Lady Russell’s appearance soon afterwards, the whole party was collected, and all that remained was to marshal themselves, and proceed into the Concert Room; and be of all the consequence in their power, draw as many eyes, excite as many whispers, and disturb as many people as they could.
Upon Lady Russell’s appearance shortly after, everyone gathered, and all that was left was to organize themselves and head into the Concert Room; to make as much of an impression as they could, draw as many eyes, spark as many whispers, and disrupt as many people as possible.
Very, very happy were both Elizabeth and Anne Elliot as they walked in. Elizabeth arm in arm with Miss Carteret, and looking on the broad back of the dowager Viscountess Dalrymple before her, had nothing to wish for which did not seem within her reach; and Anne—but it would be an insult to the nature of Anne’s felicity, to draw any comparison between it and her sister’s; the origin of one all selfish vanity, of the other all generous attachment.
Both Elizabeth and Anne Elliot were extremely happy as they walked in. Elizabeth, linked arm in arm with Miss Carteret and admiring the broad back of the dowager Viscountess Dalrymple ahead of her, felt like she had everything she could possibly want within her grasp. As for Anne—comparing her happiness to her sister's would be an insult; Elizabeth’s joy came from selfish vanity, while Anne’s stemmed from genuine affection.
Anne saw nothing, thought nothing of the brilliancy of the room. Her happiness was from within. Her eyes were bright and her cheeks glowed; but she knew nothing about it. She was thinking only of the last half hour, and as they passed to their seats, her mind took a hasty range over it. His choice of subjects, his expressions, and still more his manner and look, had been such as she could see in only one light. His opinion of Louisa Musgrove’s inferiority, an opinion which he had seemed solicitous to give, his wonder at Captain Benwick, his feelings as to a first, strong attachment; sentences begun which he could not finish, his half averted eyes and more than half expressive glance, all, all declared that he had a heart returning to her at least; that anger, resentment, avoidance, were no more; and that they were succeeded, not merely by friendship and regard, but by the tenderness of the past. Yes, some share of the tenderness of the past. She could not contemplate the change as implying less. He must love her.
Anne noticed nothing and felt nothing about how bright the room was. Her happiness came from inside her. Her eyes sparkled, and her cheeks were flushed; but she was unaware of it. She was focused only on the last thirty minutes, and as they walked to their seats, her thoughts raced through it. His choice of topics, his words, and even more, his demeanor and gaze, were all things she could see in only one way. His view of Louisa Musgrove as inferior, a view he seemed eager to share, his surprise at Captain Benwick, his feelings regarding a first, deep attachment; unfinished sentences, his gaze that slightly turned away, and his more than suggestive look—all of it indicated that he was at least beginning to return her feelings; that anger, resentment, and avoidance were gone; and that they were replaced not just by friendship and respect, but by the warmth of the past. Yes, a glimpse of that warmth from the past. She couldn't see the change as meaning anything less. He must love her.
These were thoughts, with their attendant visions, which occupied and flurried her too much to leave her any power of observation; and she passed along the room without having a glimpse of him, without even trying to discern him. When their places were determined on, and they were all properly arranged, she looked round to see if he should happen to be in the same part of the room, but he was not; her eye could not reach him; and the concert being just opening, she must consent for a time to be happy in a humbler way.
These thoughts, along with the images they brought, distracted her so much that she couldn’t really pay attention; she walked through the room without catching sight of him, not even making an effort to find him. Once their seats were assigned and everyone was settled, she glanced around to see if he happened to be in the same area, but he wasn’t; she couldn’t spot him at all. With the concert just starting, she had to accept being happy in a simpler way for a while.
The party was divided and disposed of on two contiguous benches: Anne was among those on the foremost, and Mr Elliot had manœuvred so well, with the assistance of his friend Colonel Wallis, as to have a seat by her. Miss Elliot, surrounded by her cousins, and the principal object of Colonel Wallis’s gallantry, was quite contented.
The party was split up and seated on two nearby benches: Anne was with those at the front, and Mr. Elliot had skillfully arranged, with help from his friend Colonel Wallis, to sit next to her. Miss Elliot, surrounded by her cousins and the main focus of Colonel Wallis's attention, was quite happy.
Anne’s mind was in a most favourable state for the entertainment of the evening; it was just occupation enough: she had feelings for the tender, spirits for the gay, attention for the scientific, and patience for the wearisome; and had never liked a concert better, at least during the first act. Towards the close of it, in the interval succeeding an Italian song, she explained the words of the song to Mr Elliot. They had a concert bill between them.
Anne was in a perfect state of mind for the evening's entertainment; it was just enough to keep her engaged: she had emotions for the romantic, energy for the lively, focus for the intellectual, and tolerance for the tedious; and she had never enjoyed a concert more, at least during the first act. Towards the end of it, during the break after an Italian song, she explained the lyrics to Mr. Elliot. They had a concert program between them.
“This,” said she, “is nearly the sense, or rather the meaning of the words, for certainly the sense of an Italian love-song must not be talked of, but it is as nearly the meaning as I can give; for I do not pretend to understand the language. I am a very poor Italian scholar.”
“This,” she said, “is pretty much the sense, or rather the meaning of the words, because you really can't discuss the sense of an Italian love song, but this is about as close to the meaning as I can get; I don't claim to understand the language. I'm not very good at Italian.”
“Yes, yes, I see you are. I see you know nothing of the matter. You have only knowledge enough of the language to translate at sight these inverted, transposed, curtailed Italian lines, into clear, comprehensible, elegant English. You need not say anything more of your ignorance. Here is complete proof.”
“Yes, yes, I can see that you are. I can see that you know nothing about this. You only have enough knowledge of the language to translate these inverted, rearranged, shortened Italian lines into clear, understandable, elegant English. You don’t need to say anything more about your lack of knowledge. Here is complete proof.”
“I will not oppose such kind politeness; but I should be sorry to be examined by a real proficient.”
“I won’t object to that kind of politeness; but I would be sorry to be examined by a true expert.”
“I have not had the pleasure of visiting in Camden Place so long,” replied he, “without knowing something of Miss Anne Elliot; and I do regard her as one who is too modest for the world in general to be aware of half her accomplishments, and too highly accomplished for modesty to be natural in any other woman.”
“I haven’t had the pleasure of visiting Camden Place for long,” he replied, “without knowing something about Miss Anne Elliot; and I think of her as someone who is too modest for the world to recognize half her talents, and too talented for modesty to be natural in any other woman.”
“For shame! for shame! this is too much flattery. I forget what we are to have next,” turning to the bill.
“For shame! For shame! This is way too much flattery. I forget what we’re supposed to have next,” turning to the menu.
“Perhaps,” said Mr Elliot, speaking low, “I have had a longer acquaintance with your character than you are aware of.”
“Maybe,” said Mr. Elliot, speaking softly, “I've known your character longer than you realize.”
“Indeed! How so? You can have been acquainted with it only since I came to Bath, excepting as you might hear me previously spoken of in my own family.”
“Seriously! How is that possible? You could only have known about it since I arrived in Bath, unless you heard about me mentioned before by my own family.”
“I knew you by report long before you came to Bath. I had heard you described by those who knew you intimately. I have been acquainted with you by character many years. Your person, your disposition, accomplishments, manner; they were all present to me.”
“I had heard about you long before you arrived in Bath. People who knew you well described you to me. I’ve been familiar with your character for many years. I had a clear picture of your appearance, personality, skills, and mannerisms.”
Mr Elliot was not disappointed in the interest he hoped to raise. No one can withstand the charm of such a mystery. To have been described long ago to a recent acquaintance, by nameless people, is irresistible; and Anne was all curiosity. She wondered, and questioned him eagerly; but in vain. He delighted in being asked, but he would not tell.
Mr. Elliot was not let down by the interest he wanted to spark. No one can resist the allure of such a mystery. Hearing about something intriguing from unknown people a long time ago is impossible to ignore, and Anne was full of curiosity. She wondered and asked him questions eagerly, but it was no use. He loved being asked but refused to share anything.
“No, no, some time or other, perhaps, but not now. He would mention no names now; but such, he could assure her, had been the fact. He had many years ago received such a description of Miss Anne Elliot as had inspired him with the highest idea of her merit, and excited the warmest curiosity to know her.”
“No, no, maybe at some point, but not right now. He wouldn’t name anyone now; but he could assure her that it was true. Many years ago, he had received a description of Miss Anne Elliot that gave him the highest opinion of her worth and sparked his strongest desire to meet her.”
Anne could think of no one so likely to have spoken with partiality of her many years ago as the Mr Wentworth of Monkford, Captain Wentworth’s brother. He might have been in Mr Elliot’s company, but she had not courage to ask the question.
Anne couldn't think of anyone more likely to have talked about her with bias all those years ago than Mr. Wentworth of Monkford, Captain Wentworth's brother. He might have been with Mr. Elliot, but she didn't have the courage to ask.
“The name of Anne Elliot,” said he, “has long had an interesting sound to me. Very long has it possessed a charm over my fancy; and, if I dared, I would breathe my wishes that the name might never change.”
“The name Anne Elliot has always had an intriguing ring to me,” he said. “It has held a certain charm for a long time; and if I dared, I would express my hope that the name never changes.”
Such, she believed, were his words; but scarcely had she received their sound, than her attention was caught by other sounds immediately behind her, which rendered every thing else trivial. Her father and Lady Dalrymple were speaking.
Such, she believed, were his words; but hardly had she heard them before other sounds right behind her caught her attention, making everything else seem unimportant. Her father and Lady Dalrymple were talking.
“A well-looking man,” said Sir Walter, “a very well-looking man.”
“A handsome man,” said Sir Walter, “a very handsome man.”
“A very fine young man indeed!” said Lady Dalrymple. “More air than one often sees in Bath. Irish, I dare say.”
“A very impressive young man indeed!” said Lady Dalrymple. “More charm than you usually see in Bath. Irish, I assume.”
“No, I just know his name. A bowing acquaintance. Wentworth; Captain Wentworth of the navy. His sister married my tenant in Somersetshire, the Croft, who rents Kellynch.”
“No, I just know his name. A casual acquaintance. Wentworth; Captain Wentworth of the navy. His sister married my tenant in Somerset, the Croft, who rents Kellynch.”
Before Sir Walter had reached this point, Anne’s eyes had caught the right direction, and distinguished Captain Wentworth standing among a cluster of men at a little distance. As her eyes fell on him, his seemed to be withdrawn from her. It had that appearance. It seemed as if she had been one moment too late; and as long as she dared observe, he did not look again: but the performance was recommencing, and she was forced to seem to restore her attention to the orchestra and look straight forward.
Before Sir Walter got to this point, Anne spotted Captain Wentworth standing with a group of men a short distance away. As soon as she saw him, it seemed like he was looking away from her. It felt like she was just a moment too late; and for as long as she dared to watch, he didn't look back at her. But the performance was starting up again, and she had to pretend to focus on the orchestra and look straight ahead.
When she could give another glance, he had moved away. He could not have come nearer to her if he would; she was so surrounded and shut in: but she would rather have caught his eye.
When she glanced over again, he had moved away. He couldn't have gotten any closer to her even if he wanted to; she was so surrounded and enclosed. But she would have preferred to catch his eye.
Mr Elliot’s speech, too, distressed her. She had no longer any inclination to talk to him. She wished him not so near her.
Mr. Elliot's speech also upset her. She no longer wanted to talk to him. She wished he would stay away from her.
The first act was over. Now she hoped for some beneficial change; and, after a period of nothing-saying amongst the party, some of them did decide on going in quest of tea. Anne was one of the few who did not choose to move. She remained in her seat, and so did Lady Russell; but she had the pleasure of getting rid of Mr Elliot; and she did not mean, whatever she might feel on Lady Russell’s account, to shrink from conversation with Captain Wentworth, if he gave her the opportunity. She was persuaded by Lady Russell’s countenance that she had seen him.
The first act was done. Now she hoped for some positive change; and after a bit of awkward silence among the group, a few of them decided to go look for tea. Anne was one of the few who chose to stay put. She remained in her seat, as did Lady Russell; but she was pleased to be rid of Mr. Elliot, and regardless of how she felt for Lady Russell, she didn't plan to shy away from talking to Captain Wentworth if he gave her the chance. Lady Russell’s expression assured her that she had seen him.
He did not come however. Anne sometimes fancied she discerned him at a distance, but he never came. The anxious interval wore away unproductively. The others returned, the room filled again, benches were reclaimed and repossessed, and another hour of pleasure or of penance was to be sat out, another hour of music was to give delight or the gapes, as real or affected taste for it prevailed. To Anne, it chiefly wore the prospect of an hour of agitation. She could not quit that room in peace without seeing Captain Wentworth once more, without the interchange of one friendly look.
He didn't show up, though. Anne sometimes thought she spotted him in the distance, but he never came. The anxious wait seemed to drag on without any point. The others came back, the room filled up again, and people took their seats once more, sitting through another hour of either enjoyment or boredom, depending on whether they genuinely liked the music or were just pretending to. For Anne, it mostly meant an hour of anxiety. She couldn't leave that room in peace without seeing Captain Wentworth one more time, without sharing at least one friendly glance.
In re-settling themselves there were now many changes, the result of which was favourable for her. Colonel Wallis declined sitting down again, and Mr Elliot was invited by Elizabeth and Miss Carteret, in a manner not to be refused, to sit between them; and by some other removals, and a little scheming of her own, Anne was enabled to place herself much nearer the end of the bench than she had been before, much more within reach of a passer-by. She could not do so, without comparing herself with Miss Larolles, the inimitable Miss Larolles; but still she did it, and not with much happier effect; though by what seemed prosperity in the shape of an early abdication in her next neighbours, she found herself at the very end of the bench before the concert closed.
As they settled in, there were many changes, which ended up being beneficial for her. Colonel Wallis chose not to sit down again, and Mr. Elliot was urged by Elizabeth and Miss Carteret, in a way that he couldn't refuse, to take a seat between them. With some strategic adjustments on her part, Anne managed to position herself much closer to the end of the bench than she had been before, making herself more accessible to anyone passing by. She couldn't help but compare herself to Miss Larolles, the one-of-a-kind Miss Larolles; still, she went ahead with her plan, though it didn't yield a much better outcome. However, through what seemed like a stroke of luck with an early departure from her neighbors, she found herself at the very end of the bench by the time the concert wrapped up.
Such was her situation, with a vacant space at hand, when Captain Wentworth was again in sight. She saw him not far off. He saw her too; yet he looked grave, and seemed irresolute, and only by very slow degrees came at last near enough to speak to her. She felt that something must be the matter. The change was indubitable. The difference between his present air and what it had been in the Octagon Room was strikingly great. Why was it? She thought of her father, of Lady Russell. Could there have been any unpleasant glances? He began by speaking of the concert gravely, more like the Captain Wentworth of Uppercross; owned himself disappointed, had expected singing; and in short, must confess that he should not be sorry when it was over. Anne replied, and spoke in defence of the performance so well, and yet in allowance for his feelings so pleasantly, that his countenance improved, and he replied again with almost a smile. They talked for a few minutes more; the improvement held; he even looked down towards the bench, as if he saw a place on it well worth occupying; when at that moment a touch on her shoulder obliged Anne to turn round. It came from Mr Elliot. He begged her pardon, but she must be applied to, to explain Italian again. Miss Carteret was very anxious to have a general idea of what was next to be sung. Anne could not refuse; but never had she sacrificed to politeness with a more suffering spirit.
Such was her situation, with an empty space nearby, when Captain Wentworth came into view again. She noticed him not far away. He noticed her too; however, he looked serious and seemed unsure, and only approached her slowly. She felt that something was off. The change was undeniable. The difference between his current demeanor and how he had been in the Octagon Room was strikingly significant. Why was that? She thought of her father and Lady Russell. Could there have been any awkward looks? He started by talking about the concert seriously, sounding more like the Captain Wentworth from Uppercross; he admitted he was disappointed, had expected some singing, and, in short, confessed that he wouldn’t mind when it was over. Anne replied and defended the performance so well while also acknowledging his feelings so pleasantly that his expression brightened, and he responded almost with a smile. They chatted for a few more minutes; the positive vibe continued; he even glanced down at the bench, as if he spotted a spot worth taking; just then, a tap on her shoulder made Anne turn around. It was Mr. Elliot. He apologized but said he needed her help to explain Italian again. Miss Carteret was really eager to get a general idea of what was going to be sung next. Anne couldn’t refuse, but she had never sacrificed her own comfort to politeness with such a heavy heart.
A few minutes, though as few as possible, were inevitably consumed; and when her own mistress again, when able to turn and look as she had done before, she found herself accosted by Captain Wentworth, in a reserved yet hurried sort of farewell. “He must wish her good night; he was going; he should get home as fast as he could.”
A few minutes, though as few as possible, were inevitably consumed; and when her own mistress again, when able to turn and look as she had done before, she found herself approached by Captain Wentworth, in a reserved yet hurried sort of goodbye. “He must wish her goodnight; he was leaving; he’d get home as fast as he could.”
“Is not this song worth staying for?” said Anne, suddenly struck by an idea which made her yet more anxious to be encouraging.
“Isn’t this song worth staying for?” Anne said, suddenly hit by an idea that made her even more eager to be supportive.
“No!” he replied impressively, “there is nothing worth my staying for;” and he was gone directly.
“No!” he replied emphatically, “there’s nothing worth me staying for;” and he left immediately.
Jealousy of Mr Elliot! It was the only intelligible motive. Captain Wentworth jealous of her affection! Could she have believed it a week ago; three hours ago! For a moment the gratification was exquisite. But, alas! there were very different thoughts to succeed. How was such jealousy to be quieted? How was the truth to reach him? How, in all the peculiar disadvantages of their respective situations, would he ever learn of her real sentiments? It was misery to think of Mr Elliot’s attentions. Their evil was incalculable.
Jealousy of Mr. Elliot! It was the only clear motive. Captain Wentworth jealous of her feelings! Could she have believed that a week ago; three hours ago! For a moment, the satisfaction was amazing. But, unfortunately, very different thoughts followed. How could such jealousy be calmed? How would the truth reach him? How, given the unique challenges of their situations, would he ever find out about her true feelings? It was unbearable to think about Mr. Elliot’s attention. The harm they caused was immeasurable.
CHAPTER XXI.
Anne recollected with pleasure the next morning her promise of going to Mrs Smith, meaning that it should engage her from home at the time when Mr Elliot would be most likely to call; for to avoid Mr Elliot was almost a first object.
Anne recalled with satisfaction the next morning her promise to visit Mrs. Smith, knowing it would keep her away from home when Mr. Elliot was most likely to stop by; avoiding Mr. Elliot was almost her top priority.
She felt a great deal of good-will towards him. In spite of the mischief of his attentions, she owed him gratitude and regard, perhaps compassion. She could not help thinking much of the extraordinary circumstances attending their acquaintance, of the right which he seemed to have to interest her, by everything in situation, by his own sentiments, by his early prepossession. It was altogether very extraordinary; flattering, but painful. There was much to regret. How she might have felt had there been no Captain Wentworth in the case, was not worth enquiry; for there was a Captain Wentworth; and be the conclusion of the present suspense good or bad, her affection would be his for ever. Their union, she believed, could not divide her more from other men, than their final separation.
She felt a lot of goodwill towards him. Despite the trouble his attention caused her, she owed him gratitude and respect, maybe even compassion. She couldn’t help but think a lot about the unusual circumstances surrounding their relationship, about the right he seemed to have to draw her interest, given everything about their situations, his own feelings, and his early affection for her. It was all very strange; flattering but also painful. There was a lot to regret. How she might have felt if Captain Wentworth weren’t involved didn’t matter; there was a Captain Wentworth. And whether the outcome of her current tension was good or bad, her feelings for him would last forever. She believed that their union couldn’t separate her more from other men than their final separation would.
Prettier musings of high-wrought love and eternal constancy, could never have passed along the streets of Bath, than Anne was sporting with from Camden Place to Westgate Buildings. It was almost enough to spread purification and perfume all the way.
The more beautiful thoughts about intense love and everlasting devotion could never have traveled through the streets of Bath as Anne did from Camden Place to Westgate Buildings. It was almost enough to spread a sense of purity and fragrance all the way.
She was sure of a pleasant reception; and her friend seemed this morning particularly obliged to her for coming, seemed hardly to have expected her, though it had been an appointment.
She was confident she would get a warm welcome; and her friend appeared especially grateful for her visit this morning, seeming almost surprised to see her, even though they had made plans.
An account of the concert was immediately claimed; and Anne’s recollections of the concert were quite happy enough to animate her features and make her rejoice to talk of it. All that she could tell she told most gladly, but the all was little for one who had been there, and unsatisfactory for such an enquirer as Mrs Smith, who had already heard, through the short cut of a laundress and a waiter, rather more of the general success and produce of the evening than Anne could relate, and who now asked in vain for several particulars of the company. Everybody of any consequence or notoriety in Bath was well know by name to Mrs Smith.
An account of the concert was quickly requested, and Anne's memories of the event were joyful enough to brighten her face and make her excited to share them. She shared everything she could remember, and she did so with great happiness, but there was not much detail for someone who had actually attended, which left Mrs. Smith wanting more. Mrs. Smith had already heard a bit more about the overall success of the evening through a laundress and a waiter than Anne could provide, and now she tried in vain to get more specific details about the attendees. Everyone of any importance or fame in Bath was well-known by name to Mrs. Smith.
“The little Durands were there, I conclude,” said she, “with their mouths open to catch the music, like unfledged sparrows ready to be fed. They never miss a concert.”
“The little Durands must have been there,” she said, “with their mouths open to catch the music, like baby birds waiting to be fed. They never miss a concert.”
“Yes; I did not see them myself, but I heard Mr Elliot say they were in the room.”
“Yes; I didn't see them myself, but I heard Mr. Elliot say they were in the room.”
“The Ibbotsons, were they there? and the two new beauties, with the tall Irish officer, who is talked of for one of them.”
"The Ibbotsons, were they there? And the two new beauties, along with the tall Irish officer, who is rumored to be interested in one of them."
“I do not know. I do not think they were.”
“I don’t know. I don’t think they were.”
“Old Lady Mary Maclean? I need not ask after her. She never misses, I know; and you must have seen her. She must have been in your own circle; for as you went with Lady Dalrymple, you were in the seats of grandeur, round the orchestra, of course.”
“Old Lady Mary Maclean? I don't need to ask about her. She never misses a chance to be seen, I know; and you must have encountered her. She must be part of your own circle; since you were with Lady Dalrymple, you were in the prime seating, close to the orchestra, of course.”
“No, that was what I dreaded. It would have been very unpleasant to me in every respect. But happily Lady Dalrymple always chooses to be farther off; and we were exceedingly well placed, that is, for hearing; I must not say for seeing, because I appear to have seen very little.”
“No, that was what I feared. It would have been really uncomfortable for me in every way. But luckily Lady Dalrymple always decides to be farther away; and we were really well positioned, at least for hearing; I shouldn’t say for seeing, because I seem to have seen very little.”
“Oh! you saw enough for your own amusement. I can understand. There is a sort of domestic enjoyment to be known even in a crowd, and this you had. You were a large party in yourselves, and you wanted nothing beyond.”
“Oh! you saw enough for your own enjoyment. I get it. There's a kind of homey pleasure to be found even in a crowd, and that's what you had. You were a big group on your own, and you didn't need anything else.”
“But I ought to have looked about me more,” said Anne, conscious while she spoke that there had in fact been no want of looking about, that the object only had been deficient.
“But I should have paid more attention,” said Anne, aware as she spoke that she had actually looked around enough; it was just that the right thing had been missing.
“No, no; you were better employed. You need not tell me that you had a pleasant evening. I see it in your eye. I perfectly see how the hours passed: that you had always something agreeable to listen to. In the intervals of the concert it was conversation.”
“No, no; you were busy with something better. You don’t need to tell me you had a nice evening. I can see it in your eyes. I can tell exactly how the time went: you always had something nice to listen to. During the breaks of the concert, there was conversation.”
Anne half smiled and said, “Do you see that in my eye?”
Anne gave a half-smile and said, “Do you see that in my eye?”
“Yes, I do. Your countenance perfectly informs me that you were in company last night with the person whom you think the most agreeable in the world, the person who interests you at this present time more than all the rest of the world put together.”
“Yes, I do. Your expression clearly shows that you were hanging out last night with the person you find most charming in the world, the person who captures your interest right now more than everyone else combined.”
A blush overspread Anne’s cheeks. She could say nothing.
A blush spread across Anne’s cheeks. She couldn't say anything.
“And such being the case,” continued Mrs Smith, after a short pause, “I hope you believe that I do know how to value your kindness in coming to me this morning. It is really very good of you to come and sit with me, when you must have so many pleasanter demands upon your time.”
“And with that in mind,” continued Mrs. Smith, after a brief pause, “I hope you understand how much I appreciate your kindness in coming to see me this morning. It’s truly generous of you to come and spend time with me when you must have so many more enjoyable things to do.”
Anne heard nothing of this. She was still in the astonishment and confusion excited by her friend’s penetration, unable to imagine how any report of Captain Wentworth could have reached her. After another short silence—
Anne heard none of this. She was still in shock and confusion from her friend’s insight, unable to understand how any news about Captain Wentworth could have reached her. After another brief silence—
“Pray,” said Mrs Smith, “is Mr Elliot aware of your acquaintance with me? Does he know that I am in Bath?”
“Pray,” said Mrs. Smith, “does Mr. Elliot know that you know me? Does he know I'm in Bath?”
“Mr Elliot!” repeated Anne, looking up surprised. A moment’s reflection shewed her the mistake she had been under. She caught it instantaneously; and recovering her courage with the feeling of safety, soon added, more composedly, “Are you acquainted with Mr Elliot?”
“Mr. Elliot!” Anne exclaimed, looking up in surprise. After a moment of reflection, she realized the mistake she had made. She understood it immediately and, regaining her confidence with the sense of safety, soon said more calmly, “Do you know Mr. Elliot?”
“I have been a good deal acquainted with him,” replied Mrs Smith, gravely, “but it seems worn out now. It is a great while since we met.”
“I have known him well,” replied Mrs. Smith, seriously, “but it feels exhausting now. It’s been a long time since we last met.”
“I was not at all aware of this. You never mentioned it before. Had I known it, I would have had the pleasure of talking to him about you.”
"I had no idea about this. You never brought it up before. If I had known, I would have loved to talk to him about you."
“To confess the truth,” said Mrs Smith, assuming her usual air of cheerfulness, “that is exactly the pleasure I want you to have. I want you to talk about me to Mr Elliot. I want your interest with him. He can be of essential service to me; and if you would have the goodness, my dear Miss Elliot, to make it an object to yourself, of course it is done.”
“To be honest,” said Mrs. Smith, taking on her usual cheerful demeanor, “that’s exactly the pleasure I want you to have. I want you to talk about me to Mr. Elliot. I want you to take an interest in him. He can be really helpful to me; and if you would be so kind, my dear Miss Elliot, to make it a goal for yourself, then it’s all set.”
“I should be extremely happy; I hope you cannot doubt my willingness to be of even the slightest use to you,” replied Anne; “but I suspect that you are considering me as having a higher claim on Mr Elliot, a greater right to influence him, than is really the case. I am sure you have, somehow or other, imbibed such a notion. You must consider me only as Mr Elliot’s relation. If in that light there is anything which you suppose his cousin might fairly ask of him, I beg you would not hesitate to employ me.”
“I should be really happy; I hope you don't doubt my willingness to be of any help to you,” Anne replied. “But I have a feeling that you think I have a stronger claim on Mr. Elliot, a greater right to influence him, than I actually do. I'm sure you’ve somehow picked up that idea. You should see me just as Mr. Elliot’s relative. If you think there’s anything his cousin could reasonably ask of him, please don’t hesitate to reach out to me.”
Mrs Smith gave her a penetrating glance, and then, smiling, said—
Mrs. Smith gave her a sharp look, and then, smiling, said—
“I have been a little premature, I perceive; I beg your pardon. I ought to have waited for official information. But now, my dear Miss Elliot, as an old friend, do give me a hint as to when I may speak. Next week? To be sure by next week I may be allowed to think it all settled, and build my own selfish schemes on Mr Elliot’s good fortune.”
“I realize I might have jumped the gun; I apologize. I should have waited for official confirmation. But now, my dear Miss Elliot, as an old friend, please give me a clue about when I can bring it up. Next week? By next week, I should be able to assume everything is settled and start making my own selfish plans based on Mr. Elliot’s good fortune.”
“No,” replied Anne, “nor next week, nor next, nor next. I assure you that nothing of the sort you are thinking of will be settled any week. I am not going to marry Mr Elliot. I should like to know why you imagine I am?”
“No,” replied Anne, “not this week, nor next week, nor the week after that. I promise you that nothing like what you're thinking will be resolved any week. I'm not going to marry Mr. Elliot. I'd like to know why you think I am?”
Mrs Smith looked at her again, looked earnestly, smiled, shook her head, and exclaimed—
Mrs. Smith looked at her again, gazed earnestly, smiled, shook her head, and exclaimed—
“Now, how I do wish I understood you! How I do wish I knew what you were at! I have a great idea that you do not design to be cruel, when the right moment occurs. Till it does come, you know, we women never mean to have anybody. It is a thing of course among us, that every man is refused, till he offers. But why should you be cruel? Let me plead for my—present friend I cannot call him, but for my former friend. Where can you look for a more suitable match? Where could you expect a more gentlemanlike, agreeable man? Let me recommend Mr Elliot. I am sure you hear nothing but good of him from Colonel Wallis; and who can know him better than Colonel Wallis?”
“Now, I really wish I understood you! I wish I knew what you were thinking! I’m convinced you don’t intend to be cruel when the right time comes. Until that happens, we women never mean to accept anyone. It’s just how it is with us that every man gets turned down until he makes an offer. But why should you be cruel? Let me advocate for my— I can’t call him a current friend, but for my old friend. Where can you find a more suitable match? Where could you expect to meet a more gentlemanly, pleasant man? Let me suggest Mr. Elliot. I’m sure you hear nothing but good things about him from Colonel Wallis, and who knows him better than Colonel Wallis?”
“My dear Mrs Smith, Mr Elliot’s wife has not been dead much above half a year. He ought not to be supposed to be paying his addresses to any one.”
“My dear Mrs. Smith, Mr. Elliot’s wife has been dead for just over half a year. He shouldn’t be assumed to be pursuing anyone.”
“Oh! if these are your only objections,” cried Mrs Smith, archly, “Mr Elliot is safe, and I shall give myself no more trouble about him. Do not forget me when you are married, that’s all. Let him know me to be a friend of yours, and then he will think little of the trouble required, which it is very natural for him now, with so many affairs and engagements of his own, to avoid and get rid of as he can; very natural, perhaps. Ninety-nine out of a hundred would do the same. Of course, he cannot be aware of the importance to me. Well, my dear Miss Elliot, I hope and trust you will be very happy. Mr Elliot has sense to understand the value of such a woman. Your peace will not be shipwrecked as mine has been. You are safe in all worldly matters, and safe in his character. He will not be led astray; he will not be misled by others to his ruin.”
“Oh! if these are your only concerns,” Mrs. Smith said playfully, “Mr. Elliot is in the clear, and I won’t worry about him anymore. Just don’t forget me when you’re married, that’s all. Let him know I’m your friend, and then he won’t think much of the trouble he’s avoiding right now, which is totally understandable given how many commitments he has. It’s very natural, really. Most people would do the same. Of course, he doesn’t realize how much it means to me. Well, my dear Miss Elliot, I genuinely hope you’ll be very happy. Mr. Elliot is smart enough to appreciate the value of someone like you. Your happiness won’t be destroyed like mine has been. You’re secure in all practical matters and in his character. He won’t stray; he won’t be led astray by anyone to his downfall.”
“No,” said Anne, “I can readily believe all that of my cousin. He seems to have a calm decided temper, not at all open to dangerous impressions. I consider him with great respect. I have no reason, from any thing that has fallen within my observation, to do otherwise. But I have not known him long; and he is not a man, I think, to be known intimately soon. Will not this manner of speaking of him, Mrs Smith, convince you that he is nothing to me? Surely this must be calm enough. And, upon my word, he is nothing to me. Should he ever propose to me (which I have very little reason to imagine he has any thought of doing), I shall not accept him. I assure you I shall not. I assure you, Mr Elliot had not the share which you have been supposing, in whatever pleasure the concert of last night might afford: not Mr Elliot; it is not Mr Elliot that—”
“No,” Anne said, “I can totally believe everything you mentioned about my cousin. He seems to have a calm, determined personality, not easily swayed by any risky influences. I hold him in high regard. I have no reason, based on anything I've seen, to think otherwise. But I haven’t known him for long, and I don’t think he’s someone you get to know deeply right away. Doesn’t the way I’m talking about him, Mrs. Smith, make it clear that he means nothing to me? This must sound calm enough. And honestly, he is nothing to me. If he ever asked me to marry him (which I doubt he’s even considered), I wouldn’t accept. I promise you I won't. I promise you, Mr. Elliot didn’t play the part you think he did in whatever enjoyment the concert last night brought: not Mr. Elliot; it’s not Mr. Elliot that—”
She stopped, regretting with a deep blush that she had implied so much; but less would hardly have been sufficient. Mrs Smith would hardly have believed so soon in Mr Elliot’s failure, but from the perception of there being a somebody else. As it was, she instantly submitted, and with all the semblance of seeing nothing beyond; and Anne, eager to escape farther notice, was impatient to know why Mrs Smith should have fancied she was to marry Mr Elliot; where she could have received the idea, or from whom she could have heard it.
She paused, feeling a deep embarrassment for implying so much; but saying less wouldn't have sufficed. Mrs. Smith wouldn't have accepted Mr. Elliot's failure so quickly, but she sensed that there was someone else. However, she quickly agreed, pretending not to see anything else; and Anne, eager to avoid further attention, was anxious to understand why Mrs. Smith thought she was going to marry Mr. Elliot; where that idea could have come from, or who might have mentioned it.
“Do tell me how it first came into your head.”
“Please tell me how it first occurred to you.”
“It first came into my head,” replied Mrs Smith, “upon finding how much you were together, and feeling it to be the most probable thing in the world to be wished for by everybody belonging to either of you; and you may depend upon it that all your acquaintance have disposed of you in the same way. But I never heard it spoken of till two days ago.”
“It first crossed my mind,” Mrs. Smith replied, “when I noticed how much time you both spent together, and it seemed like the most likely thing that everyone connected to you would want. You can trust that all your friends think of you in the same way. But I hadn't heard anyone mention it until two days ago.”
“And has it indeed been spoken of?”
“And has it really been said?”
“Did you observe the woman who opened the door to you when you called yesterday?”
“Did you see the woman who opened the door for you when you rang yesterday?”
“No. Was not it Mrs Speed, as usual, or the maid? I observed no one in particular.”
“No. Wasn’t it Mrs. Speed, as usual, or the maid? I didn’t notice anyone in particular.”
“It was my friend Mrs Rooke; Nurse Rooke; who, by-the-bye, had a great curiosity to see you, and was delighted to be in the way to let you in. She came away from Marlborough Buildings only on Sunday; and she it was who told me you were to marry Mr Elliot. She had had it from Mrs Wallis herself, which did not seem bad authority. She sat an hour with me on Monday evening, and gave me the whole history.”
“It was my friend Mrs. Rooke, Nurse Rooke, who, by the way, was really curious to meet you and was happy to let you in. She just left Marlborough Buildings on Sunday, and she was the one who told me you were going to marry Mr. Elliot. She heard it straight from Mrs. Wallis, which seemed like a reliable source. She spent an hour with me on Monday evening and filled me in on the whole story.”
“The whole history,” repeated Anne, laughing. “She could not make a very long history, I think, of one such little article of unfounded news.”
“The whole history,” Anne said, laughing. “I don’t think she could create a very long story about one tiny piece of unverified news.”
Mrs Smith said nothing.
Mrs. Smith said nothing.
“But,” continued Anne, presently, “though there is no truth in my having this claim on Mr Elliot, I should be extremely happy to be of use to you in any way that I could. Shall I mention to him your being in Bath? Shall I take any message?”
“But,” Anne continued after a moment, “even though I don’t actually have any claim on Mr. Elliot, I would be really happy to help you in any way I can. Should I let him know you’re in Bath? Do you want me to pass along any message?”
“No, I thank you: no, certainly not. In the warmth of the moment, and under a mistaken impression, I might, perhaps, have endeavoured to interest you in some circumstances; but not now. No, I thank you, I have nothing to trouble you with.”
“No, thank you: definitely not. In the heat of the moment, and under a misunderstanding, I might have tried to get you interested in some things; but not now. No, thank you, I have nothing to bother you with.”
“I think you spoke of having known Mr Elliot many years?”
“I think you mentioned that you knew Mr. Elliot many years ago?”
“I did.”
“I did.”
“Not before he was married, I suppose?”
“Not before he got married, I guess?”
“Yes; he was not married when I knew him first.”
"Yeah; he wasn't married when I first met him."
“And—were you much acquainted?”
"And—did you know each other well?"
“Intimately.”
“Up close.”
“Indeed! Then do tell me what he was at that time of life. I have a great curiosity to know what Mr Elliot was as a very young man. Was he at all such as he appears now?”
“Definitely! So go ahead and tell me what he was like back then. I'm really curious to know what Mr. Elliot was like as a young man. Was he anything like he seems now?”
“I have not seen Mr Elliot these three years,” was Mrs Smith’s answer, given so gravely that it was impossible to pursue the subject farther; and Anne felt that she had gained nothing but an increase of curiosity. They were both silent: Mrs Smith very thoughtful. At last—
“I haven't seen Mr. Elliot in three years,” Mrs. Smith replied seriously, making it clear that it wasn’t a topic she wanted to discuss further; Anne realized she had only stirred up more curiosity. They both fell silent: Mrs. Smith deep in thought. Finally—
“I beg your pardon, my dear Miss Elliot,” she cried, in her natural tone of cordiality, “I beg your pardon for the short answers I have been giving you, but I have been uncertain what I ought to do. I have been doubting and considering as to what I ought to tell you. There were many things to be taken into the account. One hates to be officious, to be giving bad impressions, making mischief. Even the smooth surface of family-union seems worth preserving, though there may be nothing durable beneath. However, I have determined; I think I am right; I think you ought to be made acquainted with Mr Elliot’s real character. Though I fully believe that, at present, you have not the smallest intention of accepting him, there is no saying what may happen. You might, some time or other, be differently affected towards him. Hear the truth, therefore, now, while you are unprejudiced. Mr Elliot is a man without heart or conscience; a designing, wary, cold-blooded being, who thinks only of himself; whom for his own interest or ease, would be guilty of any cruelty, or any treachery, that could be perpetrated without risk of his general character. He has no feeling for others. Those whom he has been the chief cause of leading into ruin, he can neglect and desert without the smallest compunction. He is totally beyond the reach of any sentiment of justice or compassion. Oh! he is black at heart, hollow and black!”
“I’m so sorry, my dear Miss Elliot,” she exclaimed in her usual friendly tone, “I’m really sorry for the brief answers I’ve been giving you, but I’ve been unsure about what I should do. I’ve been doubting and weighing what I should tell you. There are many factors to consider. One hates to be meddlesome, to give bad impressions, to create conflict. Even the peaceful facade of family unity seems worth keeping, even if there’s nothing solid underneath. However, I’ve made up my mind; I think I’m right; I believe you should know the true character of Mr. Elliot. Although I genuinely believe that right now you have no intention of accepting him, you never know what the future may hold. You might, at some point, feel differently towards him. So hear the truth now, while you’re still open-minded. Mr. Elliot is a man without heart or conscience; a scheming, cautious, cold-hearted person who only thinks about himself; someone who, for his own gain or comfort, would commit any act of cruelty or betrayal as long as it wouldn’t damage his overall reputation. He has no regard for others. Those he has led into ruin, he can ignore and abandon without a second thought. He is completely devoid of any sense of justice or compassion. Oh! He is dark at heart, empty and dark!”
Anne’s astonished air, and exclamation of wonder, made her pause, and in a calmer manner, she added,
Anne's surprised expression and exclamation made her stop, and in a calmer tone, she added,
“My expressions startle you. You must allow for an injured, angry woman. But I will try to command myself. I will not abuse him. I will only tell you what I have found him. Facts shall speak. He was the intimate friend of my dear husband, who trusted and loved him, and thought him as good as himself. The intimacy had been formed before our marriage. I found them most intimate friends; and I, too, became excessively pleased with Mr Elliot, and entertained the highest opinion of him. At nineteen, you know, one does not think very seriously; but Mr Elliot appeared to me quite as good as others, and much more agreeable than most others, and we were almost always together. We were principally in town, living in very good style. He was then the inferior in circumstances; he was then the poor one; he had chambers in the Temple, and it was as much as he could do to support the appearance of a gentleman. He had always a home with us whenever he chose it; he was always welcome; he was like a brother. My poor Charles, who had the finest, most generous spirit in the world, would have divided his last farthing with him; and I know that his purse was open to him; I know that he often assisted him.”
“My expressions shock you. You need to consider that I’m an injured, angry woman. But I will try to keep my composure. I won’t lash out at him. I will only share what I’ve discovered about him. The facts will speak for themselves. He was a close friend of my beloved husband, who trusted and cared for him, believing he was as good as himself. Their friendship was formed before our marriage. I found them to be very close friends; I also grew quite fond of Mr. Elliot and held him in very high regard. At nineteen, as you know, one doesn’t think too deeply, but Mr. Elliot seemed every bit as good as anyone else and far more charming than most, and we were almost always together. We primarily lived in the city, enjoying a comfortable lifestyle. At that time, he was less fortunate; he was the one with fewer resources; he had a small place at the Temple, and it was all he could do to maintain the appearance of a gentleman. He always had a home with us whenever he wanted; he was always welcome; he felt like a brother. My poor Charles, who had the kindest, most generous spirit in the world, would have shared his last penny with him; I know that his wallet was always open to him; I know he often helped him out.”
“This must have been about that very period of Mr Elliot’s life,” said Anne, “which has always excited my particular curiosity. It must have been about the same time that he became known to my father and sister. I never knew him myself; I only heard of him; but there was a something in his conduct then, with regard to my father and sister, and afterwards in the circumstances of his marriage, which I never could quite reconcile with present times. It seemed to announce a different sort of man.”
“This must have been during that time in Mr. Elliot’s life,” Anne said, “which has always piqued my curiosity. It must have been around the same time he became acquainted with my father and sister. I never met him myself; I only heard about him, but there was something in his actions back then, in relation to my father and sister, and later regarding his marriage, that I could never quite reconcile with who he is now. It seemed to indicate a different kind of person.”
“I know it all, I know it all,” cried Mrs Smith. “He had been introduced to Sir Walter and your sister before I was acquainted with him, but I heard him speak of them for ever. I know he was invited and encouraged, and I know he did not choose to go. I can satisfy you, perhaps, on points which you would little expect; and as to his marriage, I knew all about it at the time. I was privy to all the fors and againsts; I was the friend to whom he confided his hopes and plans; and though I did not know his wife previously, her inferior situation in society, indeed, rendered that impossible, yet I knew her all her life afterwards, or at least till within the last two years of her life, and can answer any question you may wish to put.”
“I know everything, I know everything,” Mrs. Smith exclaimed. “He had met Sir Walter and your sister before I even got to know him, but I heard him talk about them all the time. I know he was invited and encouraged to come, and I know he chose not to go. I can probably give you insight on things you might not expect; and when it comes to his marriage, I was aware of all the details back then. I was the friend he shared his hopes and plans with; and while I didn’t know his wife before, her lower social status really made that impossible, I got to know her well for the rest of her life, or at least until the last two years, and I can answer any questions you might have.”
“Nay,” said Anne, “I have no particular enquiry to make about her. I have always understood they were not a happy couple. But I should like to know why, at that time of his life, he should slight my father’s acquaintance as he did. My father was certainly disposed to take very kind and proper notice of him. Why did Mr Elliot draw back?”
“Actually,” said Anne, “I don’t have any specific questions about her. I’ve always understood that they weren’t a happy couple. But I’d like to know why, at that point in his life, he chose to dismiss my father’s acquaintance like he did. My father was definitely inclined to treat him kindly and properly. Why did Mr. Elliot hold back?”
“Mr Elliot,” replied Mrs Smith, “at that period of his life, had one object in view: to make his fortune, and by a rather quicker process than the law. He was determined to make it by marriage. He was determined, at least, not to mar it by an imprudent marriage; and I know it was his belief (whether justly or not, of course I cannot decide), that your father and sister, in their civilities and invitations, were designing a match between the heir and the young lady, and it was impossible that such a match should have answered his ideas of wealth and independence. That was his motive for drawing back, I can assure you. He told me the whole story. He had no concealments with me. It was curious, that having just left you behind me in Bath, my first and principal acquaintance on marrying should be your cousin; and that, through him, I should be continually hearing of your father and sister. He described one Miss Elliot, and I thought very affectionately of the other.”
“Mr. Elliot,” Mrs. Smith replied, “at that point in his life, had one goal: to make his fortune, and by a quicker method than the law. He was set on achieving it through marriage. He was determined, at least, not to jeopardize it with a foolish marriage; and I know he believed (whether rightly or wrongly, I can’t say) that your father and sister, with their kindness and invitations, were trying to arrange a match between the heir and the young lady. There was no way that such a match would meet his standards for wealth and independence. That was his reason for stepping back, I assure you. He shared the whole story with me. He had no secrets from me. It was interesting that having just left you behind in Bath, my first and main connection upon marrying would be your cousin; and that through him, I would keep hearing about your father and sister. He described one Miss Elliot, and I had very warm thoughts about the other.”
“Perhaps,” cried Anne, struck by a sudden idea, “you sometimes spoke of me to Mr Elliot?”
“Maybe,” Anne exclaimed, hit by a sudden thought, “you mentioned me to Mr. Elliot sometime?”
“To be sure I did; very often. I used to boast of my own Anne Elliot, and vouch for your being a very different creature from—”
“To be sure I did; very often. I used to boast of my own Anne Elliot, and vouch for your being a very different creature from—”
She checked herself just in time.
She caught herself just in time.
“This accounts for something which Mr Elliot said last night,” cried Anne. “This explains it. I found he had been used to hear of me. I could not comprehend how. What wild imaginations one forms where dear self is concerned! How sure to be mistaken! But I beg your pardon; I have interrupted you. Mr Elliot married then completely for money? The circumstances, probably, which first opened your eyes to his character.”
“This explains something Mr. Elliot mentioned last night,” Anne exclaimed. “This makes sense. I realized he had heard about me before. I couldn’t understand how. What wild ideas we create when it comes to ourselves! It’s so easy to be wrong! But I’m sorry; I’ve interrupted you. So, Mr. Elliot married purely for money? Those were probably the circumstances that first made you see his true character.”
Mrs Smith hesitated a little here. “Oh! those things are too common. When one lives in the world, a man or woman’s marrying for money is too common to strike one as it ought. I was very young, and associated only with the young, and we were a thoughtless, gay set, without any strict rules of conduct. We lived for enjoyment. I think differently now; time and sickness and sorrow have given me other notions; but at that period I must own I saw nothing reprehensible in what Mr Elliot was doing. ‘To do the best for himself,’ passed as a duty.”
Mrs. Smith hesitated for a moment. “Oh! Those things are just too ordinary. When you live in the real world, it's pretty common for someone to marry for money, so it doesn’t hit you like it should. When I was young, I only hung out with other young people, and we were a carefree, fun-loving crowd with no strict moral guidelines. We lived for pleasure. I see things differently now; time, illness, and pain have changed my perspective. But back then, I have to admit, I didn’t see anything wrong with what Mr. Elliot was doing. ‘Doing the best for himself’ seemed like a responsibility.”
“But was not she a very low woman?”
“But wasn’t she a really low woman?”
“Yes; which I objected to, but he would not regard. Money, money, was all that he wanted. Her father was a grazier, her grandfather had been a butcher, but that was all nothing. She was a fine woman, had had a decent education, was brought forward by some cousins, thrown by chance into Mr Elliot’s company, and fell in love with him; and not a difficulty or a scruple was there on his side, with respect to her birth. All his caution was spent in being secured of the real amount of her fortune, before he committed himself. Depend upon it, whatever esteem Mr Elliot may have for his own situation in life now, as a young man he had not the smallest value for it. His chance for the Kellynch estate was something, but all the honour of the family he held as cheap as dirt. I have often heard him declare, that if baronetcies were saleable, anybody should have his for fifty pounds, arms and motto, name and livery included; but I will not pretend to repeat half that I used to hear him say on that subject. It would not be fair; and yet you ought to have proof, for what is all this but assertion, and you shall have proof.”
“Yes; I objected to it, but he didn’t care. Money, money, was all he wanted. Her dad was a cattle farmer, her grandfather had been a butcher, but that didn’t matter at all. She was a great woman, had a good education, was introduced by some cousins, and ended up in Mr. Elliot’s company, where she fell in love with him; and he had no concerns whatsoever about her background. All his caution was focused on figuring out the actual amount of her fortune before he made any commitments. Trust me, no matter how much Mr. Elliot values his current status in life, as a young man he didn’t think much of it at all. His chance at the Kellynch estate was something, but he viewed all the family honor as worthless. I’ve often heard him say that if baronetcies could be sold, anyone could have his for fifty pounds, arms and motto, name and livery included; but I won’t pretend to repeat half of what I used to hear him say about it. That wouldn’t be fair; and yet you deserve evidence, because this is just a claim, and you will get proof.”
“Indeed, my dear Mrs Smith, I want none,” cried Anne. “You have asserted nothing contradictory to what Mr Elliot appeared to be some years ago. This is all in confirmation, rather, of what we used to hear and believe. I am more curious to know why he should be so different now.”
“Honestly, my dear Mrs. Smith, I don’t want any,” Anne exclaimed. “You haven’t said anything that contradicts who Mr. Elliot seemed to be a few years ago. This actually confirms what we used to hear and believe. I'm more curious about why he seems so different now.”
“But for my satisfaction, if you will have the goodness to ring for Mary; stay: I am sure you will have the still greater goodness of going yourself into my bedroom, and bringing me the small inlaid box which you will find on the upper shelf of the closet.”
“But for my satisfaction, if you don’t mind ringing for Mary; wait: I’m sure you will be kind enough to go into my bedroom yourself and grab the small inlaid box that you’ll find on the top shelf of the closet.”
Anne, seeing her friend to be earnestly bent on it, did as she was desired. The box was brought and placed before her, and Mrs Smith, sighing over it as she unlocked it, said—
Anne, noticing that her friend was determined, did as she requested. The box was brought and set in front of her, and Mrs. Smith, sighing as she unlocked it, said—
“This is full of papers belonging to him, to my husband; a small portion only of what I had to look over when I lost him. The letter I am looking for was one written by Mr Elliot to him before our marriage, and happened to be saved; why, one can hardly imagine. But he was careless and immethodical, like other men, about those things; and when I came to examine his papers, I found it with others still more trivial, from different people scattered here and there, while many letters and memorandums of real importance had been destroyed. Here it is; I would not burn it, because being even then very little satisfied with Mr Elliot, I was determined to preserve every document of former intimacy. I have now another motive for being glad that I can produce it.”
“This is a collection of papers that belong to him, to my husband; it's just a small portion of what I had to sort through when I lost him. The letter I'm looking for was written by Mr. Elliot to him before we got married, and somehow it was saved; it's hard to say why. But he was careless and disorganized about those things, like many men are; when I went through his papers, I found it along with other less significant letters from different people scattered around, while many letters and notes that really mattered had been thrown away. Here it is; I didn’t want to burn it because, even back then, I wasn’t very satisfied with Mr. Elliot, and I wanted to keep every document of our past relationship. Now I have another reason to be glad I can show it.”
This was the letter, directed to “Charles Smith, Esq. Tunbridge Wells,” and dated from London, as far back as July, 1803:—
This was the letter addressed to “Charles Smith, Esq. Tunbridge Wells,” dated from London, back in July 1803:—
“Dear Smith,
“Hi Smith,
“I have received yours. Your kindness almost overpowers me. I wish nature had made such hearts as yours more common, but I have lived three-and-twenty years in the world, and have seen none like it. At present, believe me, I have no need of your services, being in cash again. Give me joy: I have got rid of Sir Walter and Miss. They are gone back to Kellynch, and almost made me swear to visit them this summer; but my first visit to Kellynch will be with a surveyor, to tell me how to bring it with best advantage to the hammer. The baronet, nevertheless, is not unlikely to marry again; he is quite fool enough. If he does, however, they will leave me in peace, which may be a decent equivalent for the reversion. He is worse than last year.
"I’ve received your letter. Your kindness is almost overwhelming. I wish more people had hearts like yours, but I’ve lived twenty-three years and haven’t seen any like it. Right now, believe me, I don't need your help since I’m financially stable again. Give me a reason to celebrate: I’ve finally gotten rid of Sir Walter and Miss. They went back to Kellynch and practically made me promise to visit them this summer; but my first trip to Kellynch will be with a surveyor to figure out how to sell it for the best price. Still, it’s quite possible that the baronet will marry again; he’s foolish enough for that. If he does, though, they’ll leave me in peace, which could be a reasonable trade-off for the inheritance. He’s even worse than last year."
“I wish I had any name but Elliot. I am sick of it. The name of Walter I can drop, thank God! and I desire you will never insult me with my second W. again, meaning, for the rest of my life, to be only yours truly,
“I wish I had any name but Elliot. I’m tired of it. Thank God I can drop the name Walter! And I hope you will never insult me with my second W again, meaning that for the rest of my life, I want to be only yours truly,
“WM. ELLIOT.”
“W.E. ELLIOT.”
Such a letter could not be read without putting Anne in a glow; and Mrs Smith, observing the high colour in her face, said—
Such a letter couldn’t be read without making Anne blush, and Mrs. Smith, noticing the flush in her cheeks, said—
“The language, I know, is highly disrespectful. Though I have forgot the exact terms, I have a perfect impression of the general meaning. But it shows you the man. Mark his professions to my poor husband. Can any thing be stronger?”
“The language, I know, is really disrespectful. Even though I can’t remember the exact words, I clearly understand the overall meaning. But it reveals his character. Pay attention to how he speaks to my poor husband. Can anything be more obvious?”
Anne could not immediately get over the shock and mortification of finding such words applied to her father. She was obliged to recollect that her seeing the letter was a violation of the laws of honour, that no one ought to be judged or to be known by such testimonies, that no private correspondence could bear the eye of others, before she could recover calmness enough to return the letter which she had been meditating over, and say—
Anne couldn't quickly shake off the shock and embarrassment of seeing those words describing her father. She had to remind herself that finding the letter was a breach of trust, that no one should be judged or defined by such evidence, and that no private communication should be exposed to others. Only then could she regain enough composure to return the letter she had been contemplating and say—
“Thank you. This is full proof undoubtedly; proof of every thing you were saying. But why be acquainted with us now?”
"Thank you. This is definitely foolproof; proof of everything you were saying. But why do you want to get to know us now?"
“I can explain this too,” cried Mrs Smith, smiling.
“I can explain this too,” said Mrs. Smith, smiling.
“Can you really?”
"Is that really possible?"
“Yes. I have shewn you Mr Elliot as he was a dozen years ago, and I will shew him as he is now. I cannot produce written proof again, but I can give as authentic oral testimony as you can desire, of what he is now wanting, and what he is now doing. He is no hypocrite now. He truly wants to marry you. His present attentions to your family are very sincere: quite from the heart. I will give you my authority: his friend Colonel Wallis.”
“Yes. I’ve shown you Mr. Elliot as he was a dozen years ago, and I will show you him as he is now. I can't provide written proof again, but I can give you as much authentic oral testimony as you want about what he’s currently wanting and what he’s currently doing. He’s no hypocrite now. He genuinely wants to marry you. His current attentions to your family are very sincere: totally from the heart. I will give you my authority: his friend Colonel Wallis.”
“Colonel Wallis! you are acquainted with him?”
“Colonel Wallis! Do you know him?”
“No. It does not come to me in quite so direct a line as that; it takes a bend or two, but nothing of consequence. The stream is as good as at first; the little rubbish it collects in the turnings is easily moved away. Mr Elliot talks unreservedly to Colonel Wallis of his views on you, which said Colonel Wallis, I imagine to be, in himself, a sensible, careful, discerning sort of character; but Colonel Wallis has a very pretty silly wife, to whom he tells things which he had better not, and he repeats it all to her. She in the overflowing spirits of her recovery, repeats it all to her nurse; and the nurse knowing my acquaintance with you, very naturally brings it all to me. On Monday evening, my good friend Mrs Rooke let me thus much into the secrets of Marlborough Buildings. When I talked of a whole history, therefore, you see I was not romancing so much as you supposed.”
“No, it doesn’t come to me in such a straightforward way; it takes a twist or two, but nothing major. The flow is just as good as before; the little bits of stuff it gathers in the bends are easily cleared away. Mr. Elliot freely shares his opinions about you with Colonel Wallis, who I suspect is a sensible, careful, and insightful person. However, Colonel Wallis has a rather silly wife, to whom he reveals things he shouldn’t, and he repeats everything to her. In the excitement of her recovery, she turns around and tells her nurse all of it, and since the nurse knows I’m connected to you, she naturally passes it on to me. On Monday evening, my good friend Mrs. Rooke shared some of the secrets from Marlborough Buildings with me. So when I mentioned a whole story, you see, I wasn’t just spinning tales as much as you thought.”
“My dear Mrs Smith, your authority is deficient. This will not do. Mr Elliot’s having any views on me will not in the least account for the efforts he made towards a reconciliation with my father. That was all prior to my coming to Bath. I found them on the most friendly terms when I arrived.”
“My dear Mrs. Smith, your authority is lacking. This just won’t work. Mr. Elliot’s opinions about me don’t explain at all the efforts he made to reconcile with my father. That was all before I came to Bath. They were on very friendly terms when I arrived.”
“I know you did; I know it all perfectly, but—”
“I know you did; I know it all perfectly, but—”
“Indeed, Mrs Smith, we must not expect to get real information in such a line. Facts or opinions which are to pass through the hands of so many, to be misconceived by folly in one, and ignorance in another, can hardly have much truth left.”
“Honestly, Mrs. Smith, we shouldn’t expect to get real information in this way. Facts or opinions that pass through so many hands, getting misunderstood by one person’s folly and another’s ignorance, can hardly retain much truth.”
“Only give me a hearing. You will soon be able to judge of the general credit due, by listening to some particulars which you can yourself immediately contradict or confirm. Nobody supposes that you were his first inducement. He had seen you indeed, before he came to Bath, and admired you, but without knowing it to be you. So says my historian, at least. Is this true? Did he see you last summer or autumn, ‘somewhere down in the west,’ to use her own words, without knowing it to be you?”
“Just listen to me for a moment. You’ll quickly be able to assess the overall credibility by hearing a few details that you can immediately confirm or deny. No one believes that you were the main reason he came. He had actually seen you before arriving in Bath and admired you, but he didn’t know it was you. At least, that’s what my source says. Is that true? Did he see you last summer or autumn, ‘somewhere down in the west,’ to use her own words, without realizing it was you?”
“He certainly did. So far it is very true. At Lyme. I happened to be at Lyme.”
“He definitely did. That much is true. I was in Lyme. I happened to be at Lyme.”
“Well,” continued Mrs Smith, triumphantly, “grant my friend the credit due to the establishment of the first point asserted. He saw you then at Lyme, and liked you so well as to be exceedingly pleased to meet with you again in Camden Place, as Miss Anne Elliot, and from that moment, I have no doubt, had a double motive in his visits there. But there was another, and an earlier, which I will now explain. If there is anything in my story which you know to be either false or improbable, stop me. My account states, that your sister’s friend, the lady now staying with you, whom I have heard you mention, came to Bath with Miss Elliot and Sir Walter as long ago as September (in short when they first came themselves), and has been staying there ever since; that she is a clever, insinuating, handsome woman, poor and plausible, and altogether such in situation and manner, as to give a general idea, among Sir Walter’s acquaintance, of her meaning to be Lady Elliot, and as general a surprise that Miss Elliot should be apparently, blind to the danger.”
“Well,” continued Mrs. Smith, triumphantly, “give my friend the credit for establishing the first point I mentioned. He saw you at Lyme and liked you so much that he was very pleased to run into you again at Camden Place as Miss Anne Elliot, and from that moment, I have no doubt he had a double motive for his visits there. But there was another, earlier motive, which I’ll explain now. If there’s anything in my story that you know to be false or unlikely, just stop me. My story goes that your sister’s friend, the lady currently staying with you, whom I’ve heard you mention, came to Bath with Miss Elliot and Sir Walter back in September (when they first came themselves), and has been there ever since; that she is a clever, charming, attractive woman, poor and seemingly genuine, and entirely in a position and manner that gives Sir Walter’s acquaintances the impression that she aims to become Lady Elliot, which has caused a general surprise that Miss Elliot appears to be oblivious to the danger.”
Here Mrs Smith paused a moment; but Anne had not a word to say, and she continued—
Here Mrs. Smith paused for a moment; but Anne had nothing to say, and she continued—
“This was the light in which it appeared to those who knew the family, long before you returned to it; and Colonel Wallis had his eye upon your father enough to be sensible of it, though he did not then visit in Camden Place; but his regard for Mr Elliot gave him an interest in watching all that was going on there, and when Mr Elliot came to Bath for a day or two, as he happened to do a little before Christmas, Colonel Wallis made him acquainted with the appearance of things, and the reports beginning to prevail. Now you are to understand, that time had worked a very material change in Mr Elliot’s opinions as to the value of a baronetcy. Upon all points of blood and connexion he is a completely altered man. Having long had as much money as he could spend, nothing to wish for on the side of avarice or indulgence, he has been gradually learning to pin his happiness upon the consequence he is heir to. I thought it coming on before our acquaintance ceased, but it is now a confirmed feeling. He cannot bear the idea of not being Sir William. You may guess, therefore, that the news he heard from his friend could not be very agreeable, and you may guess what it produced; the resolution of coming back to Bath as soon as possible, and of fixing himself here for a time, with the view of renewing his former acquaintance, and recovering such a footing in the family as might give him the means of ascertaining the degree of his danger, and of circumventing the lady if he found it material. This was agreed upon between the two friends as the only thing to be done; and Colonel Wallis was to assist in every way that he could. He was to be introduced, and Mrs Wallis was to be introduced, and everybody was to be introduced. Mr Elliot came back accordingly; and on application was forgiven, as you know, and re-admitted into the family; and there it was his constant object, and his only object (till your arrival added another motive), to watch Sir Walter and Mrs Clay. He omitted no opportunity of being with them, threw himself in their way, called at all hours; but I need not be particular on this subject. You can imagine what an artful man would do; and with this guide, perhaps, may recollect what you have seen him do.”
“This was how things appeared to those who knew the family long before you came back; and Colonel Wallis was keeping an eye on your father enough to notice it, even though he didn’t visit Camden Place at that time. However, his respect for Mr. Elliot made him interested in everything happening there, and when Mr. Elliot came to Bath for a day or two, just before Christmas, Colonel Wallis shared his observations about the situation and the rumors that were starting to circulate. Now, you need to understand that time had significantly changed Mr. Elliot’s views on the value of a baronetcy. He has completely transformed regarding all matters of lineage and connections. Having had as much money as he could spend for a long time, with nothing to desire in terms of greed or luxury, he has gradually begun to base his happiness on the status that comes with being an heir. I sensed this shift before our acquaintance ended, but it has now become a confirmed feeling. He can’t stand the thought of not being Sir William. So, you can imagine that the news he received from his friend wasn’t very pleasant, and you can guess what it led to; the decision to return to Bath as soon as possible, settling down here for a while to reconnect with former acquaintances and regain a position in the family that would allow him to gauge how serious his situation was and possibly outsmart the lady if needed. This was agreed upon by the two friends as the only course of action, and Colonel Wallis was to help in every way he could. He was to be introduced, and Mrs. Wallis was to be introduced, and everyone was to be introduced. Mr. Elliot came back as planned, and as you know, he was forgiven and readmitted into the family; and from that point on, his sole focus (until your arrival gave him another reason) was to keep an eye on Sir Walter and Mrs. Clay. He seized every opportunity to be with them, put himself in their path, and visited at all hours; but I don’t need to go into detail on this. You can imagine what a clever man would do, and with this in mind, you might remember what you’ve seen him do.”
“Yes,” said Anne, “you tell me nothing which does not accord with what I have known, or could imagine. There is always something offensive in the details of cunning. The manœuvres of selfishness and duplicity must ever be revolting, but I have heard nothing which really surprises me. I know those who would be shocked by such a representation of Mr Elliot, who would have difficulty in believing it; but I have never been satisfied. I have always wanted some other motive for his conduct than appeared. I should like to know his present opinion, as to the probability of the event he has been in dread of; whether he considers the danger to be lessening or not.”
“Yes,” Anne said, “you’re telling me nothing that I didn’t already know or couldn’t have imagined. There’s always something off-putting about intricate schemes. The actions of selfishness and deceit are always disturbing, but nothing you’ve said has truly shocked me. I know people who would be appalled by this portrayal of Mr. Elliot and would struggle to believe it, but I’ve never been convinced. I’ve always wanted some different reason for his behavior than what’s obvious. I’d like to know what he thinks now about the likelihood of the event he’s been worried about; does he think the danger is lessening or not?”
“Lessening, I understand,” replied Mrs Smith. “He thinks Mrs Clay afraid of him, aware that he sees through her, and not daring to proceed as she might do in his absence. But since he must be absent some time or other, I do not perceive how he can ever be secure while she holds her present influence. Mrs Wallis has an amusing idea, as nurse tells me, that it is to be put into the marriage articles when you and Mr Elliot marry, that your father is not to marry Mrs Clay. A scheme, worthy of Mrs Wallis’s understanding, by all accounts; but my sensible nurse Rooke sees the absurdity of it. ‘Why, to be sure, ma’am,’ said she, ‘it would not prevent his marrying anybody else.’ And, indeed, to own the truth, I do not think nurse, in her heart, is a very strenuous opposer of Sir Walter’s making a second match. She must be allowed to be a favourer of matrimony, you know; and (since self will intrude) who can say that she may not have some flying visions of attending the next Lady Elliot, through Mrs Wallis’s recommendation?”
“Lessening, I get it,” replied Mrs. Smith. “He thinks Mrs. Clay is afraid of him, knowing that he sees right through her, and she wouldn't dare to act as she might in his absence. But since he will have to be gone sometime, I don’t see how he can feel secure while she has her current influence. Mrs. Wallis has a funny idea, as the nurse tells me, that it’s going to be included in the marriage agreement when you and Mr. Elliot get married, that your father isn’t allowed to marry Mrs. Clay. A plan that’s typical of Mrs. Wallis's understanding, from what I hear; but my sensible nurse Rooke sees how ridiculous it is. ‘Well, of course, ma’am,’ she said, ‘it wouldn’t stop him from marrying anyone else.’ And, honestly, I don’t think the nurse, deep down, really opposes Sir Walter marrying again. She’s definitely a supporter of marriage, you know; and (since personal feelings come into play), who’s to say she doesn’t have some dreams of being at the next Lady Elliot's side, thanks to Mrs. Wallis’s recommendation?”
“I am very glad to know all this,” said Anne, after a little thoughtfulness. “It will be more painful to me in some respects to be in company with him, but I shall know better what to do. My line of conduct will be more direct. Mr Elliot is evidently a disingenuous, artificial, worldly man, who has never had any better principle to guide him than selfishness.”
"I’m really glad to hear all of this," Anne said after a moment of reflection. "It will be more difficult for me in some ways to be around him, but at least I’ll know how to handle it. My actions will be clearer. Mr. Elliot is clearly a dishonest, fake, materialistic man who has never had any guiding principle beyond his own self-interest."
But Mr Elliot was not done with. Mrs Smith had been carried away from her first direction, and Anne had forgotten, in the interest of her own family concerns, how much had been originally implied against him; but her attention was now called to the explanation of those first hints, and she listened to a recital which, if it did not perfectly justify the unqualified bitterness of Mrs Smith, proved him to have been very unfeeling in his conduct towards her; very deficient both in justice and compassion.
But Mr. Elliot wasn't finished. Mrs. Smith had been distracted from her initial thoughts, and Anne had overlooked, in her own family matters, how much had initially been suggested against him; but now her attention was drawn to the explanation of those early signals, and she listened to a recounting that, while it didn't completely justify Mrs. Smith's strong resentment, showed that he had been quite insensitive in his treatment of her; seriously lacking in both fairness and empathy.
She learned that (the intimacy between them continuing unimpaired by Mr Elliot’s marriage) they had been as before always together, and Mr Elliot had led his friend into expenses much beyond his fortune. Mrs Smith did not want to take blame to herself, and was most tender of throwing any on her husband; but Anne could collect that their income had never been equal to their style of living, and that from the first there had been a great deal of general and joint extravagance. From his wife’s account of him she could discern Mr Smith to have been a man of warm feelings, easy temper, careless habits, and not strong understanding, much more amiable than his friend, and very unlike him, led by him, and probably despised by him. Mr Elliot, raised by his marriage to great affluence, and disposed to every gratification of pleasure and vanity which could be commanded without involving himself, (for with all his self-indulgence he had become a prudent man), and beginning to be rich, just as his friend ought to have found himself to be poor, seemed to have had no concern at all for that friend’s probable finances, but, on the contrary, had been prompting and encouraging expenses which could end only in ruin; and the Smiths accordingly had been ruined.
She realized that (the closeness between them remained unaffected by Mr. Elliot's marriage) they had still been together as before, and Mr. Elliot had led his friend into expenses far beyond his means. Mrs. Smith didn’t want to take blame for this and was very careful not to put any on her husband; but Anne understood that their income had never matched their lifestyle, and that from the beginning, there had been a lot of general and shared extravagance. From his wife’s description, she could see that Mr. Smith was a man of strong emotions, a good-natured temperament, careless habits, and not much intelligence—much more agreeable than his friend and quite different from him, led by him, and probably looked down upon by him. Mr. Elliot, having become wealthy through his marriage and inclined towards all forms of pleasure and vanity that could be enjoyed without affecting his own interests, (because despite his indulgent ways, he had become a careful man), was starting to get rich just as his friend should have been finding himself in financial trouble. He seemed completely unconcerned about his friend's possible financial situation and, on the contrary, had been pushing and encouraging expenses that could only lead to disaster; and the Smiths, as a result, had been ruined.
The husband had died just in time to be spared the full knowledge of it. They had previously known embarrassments enough to try the friendship of their friends, and to prove that Mr Elliot’s had better not be tried; but it was not till his death that the wretched state of his affairs was fully known. With a confidence in Mr Elliot’s regard, more creditable to his feelings than his judgement, Mr Smith had appointed him the executor of his will; but Mr Elliot would not act, and the difficulties and distress which this refusal had heaped on her, in addition to the inevitable sufferings of her situation, had been such as could not be related without anguish of spirit, or listened to without corresponding indignation.
The husband had passed away just in time to avoid learning the full extent of it. They had already faced enough embarrassments that tested their friends' loyalty, proving that Mr. Elliot's shouldn’t be tested any further; but it wasn’t until his death that the terrible state of his finances became fully known. Trusting Mr. Elliot’s regard, more a testament to his feelings than his judgment, Mr. Smith had named him the executor of his will; however, Mr. Elliot refused to take on the role, and the problems and distress this refusal caused her, on top of the unavoidable suffering of her situation, were too painful to describe without deep sorrow, or to hear without feeling intense anger.
Anne was shewn some letters of his on the occasion, answers to urgent applications from Mrs Smith, which all breathed the same stern resolution of not engaging in a fruitless trouble, and, under a cold civility, the same hard-hearted indifference to any of the evils it might bring on her. It was a dreadful picture of ingratitude and inhumanity; and Anne felt, at some moments, that no flagrant open crime could have been worse. She had a great deal to listen to; all the particulars of past sad scenes, all the minutiae of distress upon distress, which in former conversations had been merely hinted at, were dwelt on now with a natural indulgence. Anne could perfectly comprehend the exquisite relief, and was only the more inclined to wonder at the composure of her friend’s usual state of mind.
Anne was shown some letters of his on the occasion, responses to urgent requests from Mrs. Smith, all of which conveyed the same firm determination not to get involved in a pointless hassle, and, beneath a polite surface, the same cold indifference to any problems it might cause her. It was a terrible depiction of ingratitude and inhumanity; at times, Anne felt that no blatant crime could have been worse. She had a lot to absorb; all the details of past sad events, all the specifics of distress upon distress, which had only been hinted at in previous conversations, were now discussed with a natural sympathy. Anne completely understood the profound relief and found herself even more amazed at her friend’s usual level of composure.
There was one circumstance in the history of her grievances of particular irritation. She had good reason to believe that some property of her husband in the West Indies, which had been for many years under a sort of sequestration for the payment of its own incumbrances, might be recoverable by proper measures; and this property, though not large, would be enough to make her comparatively rich. But there was nobody to stir in it. Mr Elliot would do nothing, and she could do nothing herself, equally disabled from personal exertion by her state of bodily weakness, and from employing others by her want of money. She had no natural connexions to assist her even with their counsel, and she could not afford to purchase the assistance of the law. This was a cruel aggravation of actually straitened means. To feel that she ought to be in better circumstances, that a little trouble in the right place might do it, and to fear that delay might be even weakening her claims, was hard to bear.
There was one situation in her history of grievances that was particularly frustrating. She had good reason to believe that some property owned by her husband in the West Indies, which had for many years been held back due to debts, might be recoverable with the right actions. This property, while not large, would be enough to make her relatively wealthy. However, no one was willing to take action. Mr. Elliot wouldn’t help, and she was unable to do anything herself due to her physical weakness, as well as her lack of funds to hire anyone. She had no close connections to offer even advice, and she couldn't afford legal help. This was a painful addition to her already tight finances. Knowing she should be in a better situation, that a little effort in the right direction could change that, and fearing that any delays might weaken her claims was hard to endure.
It was on this point that she had hoped to engage Anne’s good offices with Mr Elliot. She had previously, in the anticipation of their marriage, been very apprehensive of losing her friend by it; but on being assured that he could have made no attempt of that nature, since he did not even know her to be in Bath, it immediately occurred, that something might be done in her favour by the influence of the woman he loved, and she had been hastily preparing to interest Anne’s feelings, as far as the observances due to Mr Elliot’s character would allow, when Anne’s refutation of the supposed engagement changed the face of everything; and while it took from her the new-formed hope of succeeding in the object of her first anxiety, left her at least the comfort of telling the whole story her own way.
It was this that she had hoped to enlist Anne’s help with Mr. Elliot. She had previously worried about losing her friend when they got married; however, after being told he couldn’t have attempted anything like that, since he didn’t even know she was in Bath, it struck her that something might be done in her favor through the woman he loved. She had been quickly preparing to engage Anne’s feelings, as much as the respect owed to Mr. Elliot’s character would allow, when Anne’s denial of the supposed engagement changed everything; and while it dashed her newly formed hope of achieving her initial concern, it at least gave her the comfort of telling the whole story in her own way.
After listening to this full description of Mr Elliot, Anne could not but express some surprise at Mrs Smith’s having spoken of him so favourably in the beginning of their conversation. “She had seemed to recommend and praise him!”
After hearing this detailed description of Mr. Elliot, Anne couldn't help but be surprised that Mrs. Smith had spoken so highly of him at the start of their conversation. “She had seemed to endorse and compliment him!”
“My dear,” was Mrs Smith’s reply, “there was nothing else to be done. I considered your marrying him as certain, though he might not yet have made the offer, and I could no more speak the truth of him, than if he had been your husband. My heart bled for you, as I talked of happiness; and yet he is sensible, he is agreeable, and with such a woman as you, it was not absolutely hopeless. He was very unkind to his first wife. They were wretched together. But she was too ignorant and giddy for respect, and he had never loved her. I was willing to hope that you must fare better.”
“My dear,” Mrs. Smith replied, “there was nothing else to be done. I thought your marrying him was a sure thing, even if he hadn't made the proposal yet, and I couldn't speak the truth about him any more than if he were your husband. My heart ached for you while I talked about happiness; and yet, he is sensible, he is pleasant, and with someone like you, it wasn't completely hopeless. He was quite unkind to his first wife. They were unhappy together. But she was too naïve and frivolous to earn respect, and he had never loved her. I was willing to hope that you would have a better experience.”
Anne could just acknowledge within herself such a possibility of having been induced to marry him, as made her shudder at the idea of the misery which must have followed. It was just possible that she might have been persuaded by Lady Russell! And under such a supposition, which would have been most miserable, when time had disclosed all, too late?
Anne could only recognize to herself the possibility that she could have been convinced to marry him, which made her shudder at the thought of the misery that would have followed. It was just possible that Lady Russell might have persuaded her! And under such a scenario, which would have been the most miserable of all, when the truth was revealed too late?
It was very desirable that Lady Russell should be no longer deceived; and one of the concluding arrangements of this important conference, which carried them through the greater part of the morning, was, that Anne had full liberty to communicate to her friend everything relative to Mrs Smith, in which his conduct was involved.
It was important that Lady Russell should no longer be misled; and one of the final decisions made during this significant meeting, which lasted through most of the morning, was that Anne had complete freedom to share all the details about Mrs. Smith that involved his actions with her friend.
CHAPTER XXII.
Anne went home to think over all that she had heard. In one point, her feelings were relieved by this knowledge of Mr Elliot. There was no longer anything of tenderness due to him. He stood as opposed to Captain Wentworth, in all his own unwelcome obtrusiveness; and the evil of his attentions last night, the irremediable mischief he might have done, was considered with sensations unqualified, unperplexed. Pity for him was all over. But this was the only point of relief. In every other respect, in looking around her, or penetrating forward, she saw more to distrust and to apprehend. She was concerned for the disappointment and pain Lady Russell would be feeling; for the mortifications which must be hanging over her father and sister, and had all the distress of foreseeing many evils, without knowing how to avert any one of them. She was most thankful for her own knowledge of him. She had never considered herself as entitled to reward for not slighting an old friend like Mrs Smith, but here was a reward indeed springing from it! Mrs Smith had been able to tell her what no one else could have done. Could the knowledge have been extended through her family? But this was a vain idea. She must talk to Lady Russell, tell her, consult with her, and having done her best, wait the event with as much composure as possible; and after all, her greatest want of composure would be in that quarter of the mind which could not be opened to Lady Russell; in that flow of anxieties and fears which must be all to herself.
Anne went home to think about everything she had just heard. In one way, she felt relieved by what she learned about Mr. Elliot. There was no longer any warmth towards him. He stood in opposition to Captain Wentworth, with all his unwelcome intrusiveness; and the harm of his attentions last night, the irreversible damage he could have caused, was considered with straightforward feelings. She felt no pity for him at all. But this was her only sense of relief. In every other way, as she looked around or thought ahead, she saw more to doubt and worry about. She was concerned for the disappointment and pain Lady Russell would be experiencing; for the humiliations that must be awaiting her father and sister, and felt all the distress of anticipating many troubles, without knowing how to prevent any of them. She was very grateful for her own understanding of Mr. Elliot. She had never thought she deserved a reward for not ignoring an old friend like Mrs. Smith, but here was a real reward coming from that! Mrs. Smith had been able to tell her what no one else could have. Could this knowledge have reached her family? But that was a pointless thought. She needed to talk to Lady Russell, tell her everything, consult with her, and having done her best, wait for what would happen with as much calm as possible; and after all, her greatest lack of calm would be in that part of her mind that she couldn't share with Lady Russell; in that stream of worries and fears that she had to bear alone.
She found, on reaching home, that she had, as she intended, escaped seeing Mr Elliot; that he had called and paid them a long morning visit; but hardly had she congratulated herself, and felt safe, when she heard that he was coming again in the evening.
She discovered, when she got home, that she had, as she meant to, avoided seeing Mr. Elliot; he had visited and spent a long morning with them. But just as she started to feel pleased and secure, she heard that he was coming back in the evening.
“I had not the smallest intention of asking him,” said Elizabeth, with affected carelessness, “but he gave so many hints; so Mrs Clay says, at least.”
“I had no intention of asking him,” said Elizabeth, with feigned indifference, “but he dropped so many hints; at least that’s what Mrs. Clay says.”
“Indeed, I do say it. I never saw anybody in my life spell harder for an invitation. Poor man! I was really in pain for him; for your hard-hearted sister, Miss Anne, seems bent on cruelty.”
“Honestly, I really mean it. I’ve never seen anyone work so hard for an invitation. Poor guy! I truly felt sorry for him; your cold-hearted sister, Miss Anne, seems determined to be cruel.”
“Oh!” cried Elizabeth, “I have been rather too much used to the game to be soon overcome by a gentleman’s hints. However, when I found how excessively he was regretting that he should miss my father this morning, I gave way immediately, for I would never really omit an opportunity of bringing him and Sir Walter together. They appear to so much advantage in company with each other. Each behaving so pleasantly. Mr Elliot looking up with so much respect.”
“Oh!” exclaimed Elizabeth, “I’m quite used to this game to be easily swayed by a gentleman’s hints. However, when I saw how much he regretted missing my father this morning, I immediately changed my mind, because I would never pass up a chance to bring him and Sir Walter together. They look so good in each other’s company. Both behave so pleasantly, and Mr. Elliot looks up at him with so much respect.”
“Quite delightful!” cried Mrs Clay, not daring, however, to turn her eyes towards Anne. “Exactly like father and son! Dear Miss Elliot, may I not say father and son?”
“Absolutely delightful!” exclaimed Mrs. Clay, though she didn’t dare to look at Anne. “Just like father and son! Dear Miss Eliot, can I say father and son?”
“Oh! I lay no embargo on any body’s words. If you will have such ideas! But, upon my word, I am scarcely sensible of his attentions being beyond those of other men.”
“Oh! I don't put any restrictions on what anyone says. If you want to think that way! But honestly, I'm hardly aware that his attention is any different from that of other guys.”
“My dear Miss Elliot!” exclaimed Mrs Clay, lifting her hands and eyes, and sinking all the rest of her astonishment in a convenient silence.
“My dear Miss Elliot!” Mrs. Clay exclaimed, raising her hands and eyes, and letting the rest of her astonishment fade into a convenient silence.
“Well, my dear Penelope, you need not be so alarmed about him. I did invite him, you know. I sent him away with smiles. When I found he was really going to his friends at Thornberry Park for the whole day to-morrow, I had compassion on him.”
“Well, my dear Penelope, you don’t need to worry so much about him. I did invite him, you know. I sent him off with smiles. When I found out he was really going to his friends at Thornberry Park for the whole day tomorrow, I felt sorry for him.”
Anne admired the good acting of the friend, in being able to shew such pleasure as she did, in the expectation and in the actual arrival of the very person whose presence must really be interfering with her prime object. It was impossible but that Mrs Clay must hate the sight of Mr Elliot; and yet she could assume a most obliging, placid look, and appear quite satisfied with the curtailed license of devoting herself only half as much to Sir Walter as she would have done otherwise.
Anne admired her friend’s great acting in showing such joy at the anticipation and arrival of the very person whose presence must truly complicate her main goal. It was hard to believe that Mrs. Clay didn’t despise seeing Mr. Elliot; yet she maintained a charming, calm demeanor and seemed perfectly fine with the reduced freedom to devote herself only half as much to Sir Walter as she normally would.
To Anne herself it was most distressing to see Mr Elliot enter the room; and quite painful to have him approach and speak to her. She had been used before to feel that he could not be always quite sincere, but now she saw insincerity in everything. His attentive deference to her father, contrasted with his former language, was odious; and when she thought of his cruel conduct towards Mrs Smith, she could hardly bear the sight of his present smiles and mildness, or the sound of his artificial good sentiments.
To Anne, it was really upsetting to see Mr. Elliot walk into the room; it was even harder when he came over and talked to her. She used to think he wasn’t always completely sincere, but now she saw insincerity in everything he did. His overly polite behavior towards her father, compared to how he used to speak, was disgusting; and when she considered his cruel actions towards Mrs. Smith, she could barely stand the sight of his current smiles and gentleness, or the sound of his fake kind words.
She meant to avoid any such alteration of manners as might provoke a remonstrance on his side. It was a great object to her to escape all enquiry or eclat; but it was her intention to be as decidedly cool to him as might be compatible with their relationship; and to retrace, as quietly as she could, the few steps of unnecessary intimacy she had been gradually led along. She was accordingly more guarded, and more cool, than she had been the night before.
She intended to steer clear of any changes in behavior that might lead to a confrontation with him. It was very important to her to avoid any scrutiny or drama; however, she planned to be as noticeably distant as possible while still maintaining their relationship. She aimed to quietly backtrack the few steps of unnecessary closeness she had been slowly pulled into. As a result, she was more cautious and cooler than she had been the night before.
He wanted to animate her curiosity again as to how and where he could have heard her formerly praised; wanted very much to be gratified by more solicitation; but the charm was broken: he found that the heat and animation of a public room was necessary to kindle his modest cousin’s vanity; he found, at least, that it was not to be done now, by any of those attempts which he could hazard among the too-commanding claims of the others. He little surmised that it was a subject acting now exactly against his interest, bringing immediately to her thoughts all those parts of his conduct which were least excusable.
He wanted to spark her curiosity again about how and where he could have heard her praised before; he really wanted to enjoy more attention from her. But the magic was gone: he realized that the buzz and energy of a public space were needed to ignite his reserved cousin’s vanity. At least, he saw that it couldn’t be achieved now through any of the attempts he could make amid the overpowering demands of others. He had no idea that this topic was working completely against him, reminding her of all the parts of his behavior that were least justifiable.
She had some satisfaction in finding that he was really going out of Bath the next morning, going early, and that he would be gone the greater part of two days. He was invited again to Camden Place the very evening of his return; but from Thursday to Saturday evening his absence was certain. It was bad enough that a Mrs Clay should be always before her; but that a deeper hypocrite should be added to their party, seemed the destruction of everything like peace and comfort. It was so humiliating to reflect on the constant deception practised on her father and Elizabeth; to consider the various sources of mortification preparing for them! Mrs Clay’s selfishness was not so complicate nor so revolting as his; and Anne would have compounded for the marriage at once, with all its evils, to be clear of Mr Elliot’s subtleties in endeavouring to prevent it.
She felt some satisfaction in realizing that he was actually leaving Bath the next morning, heading out early, and would be away for most of two days. He had also been invited back to Camden Place on the very evening of his return; but from Thursday to Saturday evening, his absence was guaranteed. It was bad enough that Mrs. Clay was always around, but having a deeper hypocrite join their group felt like it would ruin any chance of peace and comfort. It was so humiliating to think about the constant deception directed at her father and Elizabeth, and to consider all the various sources of embarrassment that were being set up for them! Mrs. Clay’s selfishness wasn’t as complicated or as disgusting as his; and Anne would have happily accepted the marriage, with all its problems, just to be free of Mr. Elliot’s manipulations trying to prevent it.
On Friday morning she meant to go very early to Lady Russell, and accomplish the necessary communication; and she would have gone directly after breakfast, but that Mrs Clay was also going out on some obliging purpose of saving her sister trouble, which determined her to wait till she might be safe from such a companion. She saw Mrs Clay fairly off, therefore, before she began to talk of spending the morning in Rivers Street.
On Friday morning, she intended to visit Lady Russell early and get the necessary conversation done. She would have gone right after breakfast, but since Mrs. Clay was also heading out to help her sister and save her some trouble, she decided to wait until she could be free from that company. So, she made sure to see Mrs. Clay off before she started to mention spending the morning in Rivers Street.
“Very well,” said Elizabeth, “I have nothing to send but my love. Oh! you may as well take back that tiresome book she would lend me, and pretend I have read it through. I really cannot be plaguing myself for ever with all the new poems and states of the nation that come out. Lady Russell quite bores one with her new publications. You need not tell her so, but I thought her dress hideous the other night. I used to think she had some taste in dress, but I was ashamed of her at the concert. Something so formal and arrangé in her air! and she sits so upright! My best love, of course.”
“Sure,” said Elizabeth, “I have nothing to send but my love. Oh! you might as well take back that annoying book she lent me and just act like I’ve read it. I really can’t keep stressing myself out with all the new poems and news about the country. Lady Russell really bores me with her latest publications. You don’t need to tell her this, but I thought her outfit was terrible the other night. I used to think she had some style, but I was embarrassed for her at the concert. She has this really formal and put-together vibe! And she sits so straight! My best love, of course.”
“And mine,” added Sir Walter. “Kindest regards. And you may say, that I mean to call upon her soon. Make a civil message; but I shall only leave my card. Morning visits are never fair by women at her time of life, who make themselves up so little. If she would only wear rouge she would not be afraid of being seen; but last time I called, I observed the blinds were let down immediately.”
“And mine,” added Sir Walter. “Best wishes. And you can tell her that I plan to visit her soon. Please send a polite message, but I’ll just leave my card. Morning visits are never great for women her age, who do so little to prepare. If she would just wear some makeup, she wouldn’t be afraid of being seen; but the last time I stopped by, I noticed the blinds were drawn right away.”
While her father spoke, there was a knock at the door. Who could it be? Anne, remembering the preconcerted visits, at all hours, of Mr Elliot, would have expected him, but for his known engagement seven miles off. After the usual period of suspense, the usual sounds of approach were heard, and “Mr and Mrs Charles Musgrove” were ushered into the room.
While her dad was talking, someone knocked on the door. Who could it be? Anne, recalling the planned visits from Mr. Elliot at all times, would have expected him if not for his known commitment seven miles away. After the usual moment of waiting, familiar footsteps were heard, and “Mr and Mrs. Charles Musgrove” were brought into the room.
Surprise was the strongest emotion raised by their appearance; but Anne was really glad to see them; and the others were not so sorry but that they could put on a decent air of welcome; and as soon as it became clear that these, their nearest relations, were not arrived with any views of accommodation in that house, Sir Walter and Elizabeth were able to rise in cordiality, and do the honours of it very well. They were come to Bath for a few days with Mrs Musgrove, and were at the White Hart. So much was pretty soon understood; but till Sir Walter and Elizabeth were walking Mary into the other drawing-room, and regaling themselves with her admiration, Anne could not draw upon Charles’s brain for a regular history of their coming, or an explanation of some smiling hints of particular business, which had been ostentatiously dropped by Mary, as well as of some apparent confusion as to whom their party consisted of.
Surprise was the strongest emotion evoked by their appearance; however, Anne was genuinely happy to see them, and the others were not so upset that they couldn’t put on a welcoming demeanor. Once it became clear that their closest relatives hadn’t come with any plans for staying in that house, Sir Walter and Elizabeth were able to be friendly and host them quite well. They had come to Bath for a few days with Mrs. Musgrove and were staying at the White Hart. This much was understood soon enough, but until Sir Walter and Elizabeth led Mary into the other drawing-room and enjoyed her admiration, Anne couldn’t get a clear story from Charles about their visit or the meaning behind Mary’s teasing hints about specific business that had been casually mentioned, as well as some obvious confusion about who was actually in their party.
She then found that it consisted of Mrs Musgrove, Henrietta, and Captain Harville, beside their two selves. He gave her a very plain, intelligible account of the whole; a narration in which she saw a great deal of most characteristic proceeding. The scheme had received its first impulse by Captain Harville’s wanting to come to Bath on business. He had begun to talk of it a week ago; and by way of doing something, as shooting was over, Charles had proposed coming with him, and Mrs Harville had seemed to like the idea of it very much, as an advantage to her husband; but Mary could not bear to be left, and had made herself so unhappy about it, that for a day or two everything seemed to be in suspense, or at an end. But then, it had been taken up by his father and mother. His mother had some old friends in Bath whom she wanted to see; it was thought a good opportunity for Henrietta to come and buy wedding-clothes for herself and her sister; and, in short, it ended in being his mother’s party, that everything might be comfortable and easy to Captain Harville; and he and Mary were included in it by way of general convenience. They had arrived late the night before. Mrs Harville, her children, and Captain Benwick, remained with Mr Musgrove and Louisa at Uppercross.
She then discovered that it included Mrs. Musgrove, Henrietta, and Captain Harville, along with the two of them. He gave her a straightforward, clear account of the whole situation; a story in which she recognized many very characteristic actions. The plan had started with Captain Harville wanting to come to Bath for business. He had mentioned it a week ago; and since shooting was over, Charles suggested going with him, and Mrs. Harville seemed to really like the idea as it would benefit her husband. However, Mary couldn't stand the thought of being left behind and made herself so unhappy about it that for a day or two everything seemed uncertain or at a standstill. But then, his father and mother had taken it up. His mother had some old friends in Bath that she wanted to visit; it was seen as a good opportunity for Henrietta to come and shop for wedding clothes for herself and her sister; and in short, it ended up being his mother’s event, so that everything would be comfortable and easy for Captain Harville, and he and Mary were included for general convenience. They had arrived late the night before. Mrs. Harville, her children, and Captain Benwick stayed with Mr. Musgrove and Louisa at Uppercross.
Anne’s only surprise was, that affairs should be in forwardness enough for Henrietta’s wedding-clothes to be talked of. She had imagined such difficulties of fortune to exist there as must prevent the marriage from being near at hand; but she learned from Charles that, very recently, (since Mary’s last letter to herself), Charles Hayter had been applied to by a friend to hold a living for a youth who could not possibly claim it under many years; and that on the strength of his present income, with almost a certainty of something more permanent long before the term in question, the two families had consented to the young people’s wishes, and that their marriage was likely to take place in a few months, quite as soon as Louisa’s. “And a very good living it was,” Charles added: “only five-and-twenty miles from Uppercross, and in a very fine country: fine part of Dorsetshire. In the centre of some of the best preserves in the kingdom, surrounded by three great proprietors, each more careful and jealous than the other; and to two of the three at least, Charles Hayter might get a special recommendation. Not that he will value it as he ought,” he observed, “Charles is too cool about sporting. That’s the worst of him.”
Anne’s only surprise was that things were advanced enough for Henrietta’s wedding clothes to be discussed. She had thought there would be challenges that would delay the marriage, but she learned from Charles that, very recently (since Mary’s last letter to her), a friend had asked Charles Hayter to hold a position for a young man who wouldn’t be able to claim it for many years. Based on his current income, along with a strong possibility of something more stable well before the waiting period ends, both families had agreed to the young couple’s wishes, and their marriage was likely to happen in a few months, just as soon as Louisa’s. “And it’s a very good position,” Charles added. “It’s only twenty-five miles from Uppercross, in a beautiful area of Dorsetshire. It’s right in the middle of some of the best hunting grounds in the country, surrounded by three major landowners, each one more protective and possessive than the others; and at least two of those three could give Charles Hayter a solid recommendation. Not that he will appreciate it as he should,” he remarked, “Charles is too laid-back about sports. That’s his biggest flaw.”
“I am extremely glad, indeed,” cried Anne, “particularly glad that this should happen; and that of two sisters, who both deserve equally well, and who have always been such good friends, the pleasant prospect of one should not be dimming those of the other—that they should be so equal in their prosperity and comfort. I hope your father and mother are quite happy with regard to both.”
“I’m really happy, actually,” exclaimed Anne, “especially that this is happening; and that of two sisters, who both deserve it equally well and who have always been such good friends, the bright future of one shouldn’t overshadow the other—that they can both share in their success and happiness. I hope your dad and mom are totally happy about both of you.”
“Oh! yes. My father would be well pleased if the gentlemen were richer, but he has no other fault to find. Money, you know, coming down with money—two daughters at once—it cannot be a very agreeable operation, and it streightens him as to many things. However, I do not mean to say they have not a right to it. It is very fit they should have daughters’ shares; and I am sure he has always been a very kind, liberal father to me. Mary does not above half like Henrietta’s match. She never did, you know. But she does not do him justice, nor think enough about Winthrop. I cannot make her attend to the value of the property. It is a very fair match, as times go; and I have liked Charles Hayter all my life, and I shall not leave off now.”
“Oh! yes. My dad would be really happy if the guys were richer, but he doesn’t have any other complaints. You know how it is, money comes with money—two daughters at the same time—it can’t be a very pleasant situation, and it limits him in many ways. Still, I’m not saying they don’t have a right to it. It’s only right they should get their fair share; and I know he’s always been a really kind, generous father to me. Mary doesn’t like Henrietta’s match much. She never has, you know. But she doesn’t give him a fair shot, nor does she think enough about Winthrop. I can’t get her to see the value of the property. It’s a pretty good match, considering the times; and I’ve liked Charles Hayter my whole life, and I’m not going to stop now.”
“Such excellent parents as Mr and Mrs Musgrove,” exclaimed Anne, “should be happy in their children’s marriages. They do everything to confer happiness, I am sure. What a blessing to young people to be in such hands! Your father and mother seem so totally free from all those ambitious feelings which have led to so much misconduct and misery, both in young and old. I hope you think Louisa perfectly recovered now?”
“Mr. and Mrs. Musgrove are such great parents,” Anne exclaimed, “they must be happy about their children’s marriages. I’m sure they do everything to ensure their happiness. What a blessing for young people to have such support! Your parents seem completely free from all those ambitious feelings that have caused so much trouble and misery, both for the young and the old. Do you think Louisa has fully recovered now?”
He answered rather hesitatingly, “Yes, I believe I do; very much recovered; but she is altered; there is no running or jumping about, no laughing or dancing; it is quite different. If one happens only to shut the door a little hard, she starts and wriggles like a young dab-chick in the water; and Benwick sits at her elbow, reading verses, or whispering to her, all day long.”
He answered a bit uncertainly, “Yeah, I think I do; she's definitely improved a lot; but she's changed; there’s no more running around or jumping, no laughing or dancing; it feels totally different. If someone accidentally shuts the door a bit too hard, she jumps and squirming like a little duckling in the water; and Benwick sits by her side, reading poetry or whispering to her, all day.”
Anne could not help laughing. “That cannot be much to your taste, I know,” said she; “but I do believe him to be an excellent young man.”
Anne couldn't help but laugh. "I know that's probably not to your taste," she said, "but I really do think he's a great young guy."
“To be sure he is. Nobody doubts it; and I hope you do not think I am so illiberal as to want every man to have the same objects and pleasures as myself. I have a great value for Benwick; and when one can but get him to talk, he has plenty to say. His reading has done him no harm, for he has fought as well as read. He is a brave fellow. I got more acquainted with him last Monday than ever I did before. We had a famous set-to at rat-hunting all the morning in my father’s great barns; and he played his part so well that I have liked him the better ever since.”
"Of course he is. Nobody doubts that; and I hope you don’t think I’m so narrow-minded as to want everyone to share the same goals and enjoyments as I do. I really appreciate Benwick; and if you can just get him to open up, he has a lot to say. His reading hasn’t hurt him at all, since he’s been both a fighter and a reader. He’s a brave guy. I got to know him a lot better last Monday than I ever had before. We had an awesome time rat-hunting all morning in my dad’s big barns; and he did such a great job that I’ve liked him even more since then."
Here they were interrupted by the absolute necessity of Charles’s following the others to admire mirrors and china; but Anne had heard enough to understand the present state of Uppercross, and rejoice in its happiness; and though she sighed as she rejoiced, her sigh had none of the ill-will of envy in it. She would certainly have risen to their blessings if she could, but she did not want to lessen theirs.
Here they were interrupted by the urgent need for Charles to join the others in admiring mirrors and china; however, Anne had gathered enough to understand the current situation in Uppercross and was happy for them. Although she felt a twinge of sadness as she celebrated their joy, her sigh wasn't laced with envy. She would gladly have shared in their good fortune if she could, but she didn't want to diminish their happiness.
The visit passed off altogether in high good humour. Mary was in excellent spirits, enjoying the gaiety and the change, and so well satisfied with the journey in her mother-in-law’s carriage with four horses, and with her own complete independence of Camden Place, that she was exactly in a temper to admire everything as she ought, and enter most readily into all the superiorities of the house, as they were detailed to her. She had no demands on her father or sister, and her consequence was just enough increased by their handsome drawing-rooms.
The visit went really well, and everyone was in a great mood. Mary was feeling fantastic, enjoying the fun and the change of scenery. She was really happy with the journey in her mother-in-law’s carriage pulled by four horses, and she loved having her complete freedom from Camden Place. This put her in the perfect frame of mind to appreciate everything as she should and to easily engage with all the nice things about the house as they were shared with her. She didn’t have any expectations from her father or sister, and her sense of importance was just boosted a bit by their elegant drawing-rooms.
Elizabeth was, for a short time, suffering a good deal. She felt that Mrs Musgrove and all her party ought to be asked to dine with them; but she could not bear to have the difference of style, the reduction of servants, which a dinner must betray, witnessed by those who had been always so inferior to the Elliots of Kellynch. It was a struggle between propriety and vanity; but vanity got the better, and then Elizabeth was happy again. These were her internal persuasions: “Old fashioned notions; country hospitality; we do not profess to give dinners; few people in Bath do; Lady Alicia never does; did not even ask her own sister’s family, though they were here a month: and I dare say it would be very inconvenient to Mrs Musgrove; put her quite out of her way. I am sure she would rather not come; she cannot feel easy with us. I will ask them all for an evening; that will be much better; that will be a novelty and a treat. They have not seen two such drawing rooms before. They will be delighted to come to-morrow evening. It shall be a regular party, small, but most elegant.” And this satisfied Elizabeth: and when the invitation was given to the two present, and promised for the absent, Mary was as completely satisfied. She was particularly asked to meet Mr Elliot, and be introduced to Lady Dalrymple and Miss Carteret, who were fortunately already engaged to come; and she could not have received a more gratifying attention. Miss Elliot was to have the honour of calling on Mrs Musgrove in the course of the morning; and Anne walked off with Charles and Mary, to go and see her and Henrietta directly.
Elizabeth was, for a short time, feeling quite distressed. She believed that Mrs. Musgrove and her group should be invited to dinner, but she couldn’t stand the thought of the difference in their social status and the fewer servants that the meal would reveal, especially in front of those who had always been beneath the Elliots of Kellynch. It was a battle between what was proper and her vanity; but vanity won out, and Elizabeth was happy again. These were her thoughts: “Old-fashioned ideas; country hospitality; we don’t really do dinner parties; not many people in Bath do; Lady Alicia never does; she didn’t even invite her own sister’s family, even though they were here for a month: and I’m sure it would be very inconvenient for Mrs. Musgrove; it would completely throw her off. I know she’d prefer not to come; she can't feel comfortable with us. I’ll invite them all for an evening; that will be much better; it’ll be something new and enjoyable. They haven’t seen two such drawing rooms before. They’ll be excited to come tomorrow evening. It will be a proper party, small but very elegant.” This thought satisfied Elizabeth; and when the invitations were extended to the two present and promised for the others, Mary was equally content. She was specifically invited to meet Mr. Elliot and be introduced to Lady Dalrymple and Miss Carteret, who were fortunately already planning to attend; she couldn’t have received a more pleasant acknowledgment. Miss Elliot was set to visit Mrs. Musgrove in the morning; and Anne walked off with Charles and Mary to see her and Henrietta right away.
Her plan of sitting with Lady Russell must give way for the present. They all three called in Rivers Street for a couple of minutes; but Anne convinced herself that a day’s delay of the intended communication could be of no consequence, and hastened forward to the White Hart, to see again the friends and companions of the last autumn, with an eagerness of good-will which many associations contributed to form.
Her plan to sit with Lady Russell had to be put on hold for now. All three of them stopped by Rivers Street for a couple of minutes, but Anne reassured herself that postponing the planned conversation for a day wouldn't matter, so she rushed ahead to the White Hart to see the friends and companions from last autumn, feeling a strong eagerness fueled by many shared memories.
They found Mrs Musgrove and her daughter within, and by themselves, and Anne had the kindest welcome from each. Henrietta was exactly in that state of recently-improved views, of fresh-formed happiness, which made her full of regard and interest for everybody she had ever liked before at all; and Mrs Musgrove’s real affection had been won by her usefulness when they were in distress. It was a heartiness, and a warmth, and a sincerity which Anne delighted in the more, from the sad want of such blessings at home. She was entreated to give them as much of her time as possible, invited for every day and all day long, or rather claimed as part of the family; and, in return, she naturally fell into all her wonted ways of attention and assistance, and on Charles’s leaving them together, was listening to Mrs Musgrove’s history of Louisa, and to Henrietta’s of herself, giving opinions on business, and recommendations to shops; with intervals of every help which Mary required, from altering her ribbon to settling her accounts; from finding her keys, and assorting her trinkets, to trying to convince her that she was not ill-used by anybody; which Mary, well amused as she generally was, in her station at a window overlooking the entrance to the Pump Room, could not but have her moments of imagining.
They found Mrs. Musgrove and her daughter alone, and Anne received the warmest welcome from both of them. Henrietta was in that phase of newfound happiness that made her caring and interested in everyone she had ever liked before; Mrs. Musgrove’s genuine affection had been earned through Anne's helpfulness during difficult times. The heartiness, warmth, and sincerity touched Anne deeply, especially because she missed such blessings at home. They urged her to spend as much time with them as possible, inviting her every day and all day long, essentially claiming her as part of the family. In return, she naturally slipped back into her usual ways of offering attention and help. After Charles left them together, she listened to Mrs. Musgrove share stories about Louisa and Henrietta talk about herself, offering opinions and recommendations on various matters, while also helping Mary with everything from adjusting her ribbon to managing her accounts. She assisted with finding keys, sorting her jewelry, and trying to convince Mary that she wasn’t being mistreated by anyone—which Mary, generally amused from her spot at the window overlooking the entrance to the Pump Room, occasionally found herself wondering about.
A morning of thorough confusion was to be expected. A large party in an hotel ensured a quick-changing, unsettled scene. One five minutes brought a note, the next a parcel; and Anne had not been there half an hour, when their dining-room, spacious as it was, seemed more than half filled: a party of steady old friends were seated around Mrs Musgrove, and Charles came back with Captains Harville and Wentworth. The appearance of the latter could not be more than the surprise of the moment. It was impossible for her to have forgotten to feel that this arrival of their common friends must be soon bringing them together again. Their last meeting had been most important in opening his feelings; she had derived from it a delightful conviction; but she feared from his looks, that the same unfortunate persuasion, which had hastened him away from the Concert Room, still governed. He did not seem to want to be near enough for conversation.
A morning full of confusion was to be expected. A big gathering at a hotel created a constantly shifting, unsettled atmosphere. One moment brought a note, the next a package; and Anne had only been there for half an hour when their dining room, spacious as it was, felt more than half full: a group of old friends were gathered around Mrs. Musgrove, and Charles returned with Captains Harville and Wentworth. The sight of the latter was nothing more than a momentary surprise. It was impossible for her to forget that this arrival of their mutual friends would soon bring them together again. Their last meeting had been crucial in revealing his feelings; she had gained a delightful certainty from it, but based on his expression, she feared that the same unfortunate belief that had made him leave the concert room still controlled him. He didn’t seem to want to be close enough for a conversation.
She tried to be calm, and leave things to take their course, and tried to dwell much on this argument of rational dependence:—“Surely, if there be constant attachment on each side, our hearts must understand each other ere long. We are not boy and girl, to be captiously irritable, misled by every moment’s inadvertence, and wantonly playing with our own happiness.” And yet, a few minutes afterwards, she felt as if their being in company with each other, under their present circumstances, could only be exposing them to inadvertencies and misconstructions of the most mischievous kind.
She tried to stay calm and let things unfold naturally, focusing on her belief in rational dependence: “Surely, if there’s a constant connection between us, our hearts will understand each other soon enough. We’re not just kids who get easily annoyed and let ourselves be led astray by every little misunderstanding, playing with our own happiness.” Yet, a few minutes later, she felt like being together in their current situation could only lead to misunderstandings and misinterpretations that could be really harmful.
“Anne,” cried Mary, still at her window, “there is Mrs Clay, I am sure, standing under the colonnade, and a gentleman with her. I saw them turn the corner from Bath Street just now. They seemed deep in talk. Who is it? Come, and tell me. Good heavens! I recollect. It is Mr Elliot himself.”
“Anne,” shouted Mary, still at her window, “there’s Mrs. Clay, I’m sure, standing under the colonnade, and there’s a guy with her. I just saw them turn the corner from Bath Street. They looked deep in conversation. Who is it? Come here and tell me. Oh my goodness! I remember now. It’s Mr. Elliot himself.”
“No,” cried Anne, quickly, “it cannot be Mr Elliot, I assure you. He was to leave Bath at nine this morning, and does not come back till to-morrow.”
“No,” Anne exclaimed quickly, “it can't be Mr. Elliot, I promise you. He was supposed to leave Bath at nine this morning and isn't coming back until tomorrow.”
As she spoke, she felt that Captain Wentworth was looking at her, the consciousness of which vexed and embarrassed her, and made her regret that she had said so much, simple as it was.
As she talked, she felt Captain Wentworth watching her, which annoyed and embarrassed her, making her wish she hadn't said so much, even though it was so simple.
Mary, resenting that she should be supposed not to know her own cousin, began talking very warmly about the family features, and protesting still more positively that it was Mr Elliot, calling again upon Anne to come and look for herself, but Anne did not mean to stir, and tried to be cool and unconcerned. Her distress returned, however, on perceiving smiles and intelligent glances pass between two or three of the lady visitors, as if they believed themselves quite in the secret. It was evident that the report concerning her had spread, and a short pause succeeded, which seemed to ensure that it would now spread farther.
Mary, annoyed that people thought she didn't recognize her own cousin, began talking enthusiastically about the family traits, insisting even more firmly that it was Mr. Elliot. She called on Anne to come and see for herself, but Anne didn’t want to move and tried to act cool and indifferent. However, her discomfort returned when she noticed a few of the lady visitors exchanging smiles and knowing looks, as if they believed they were in on a secret. It was clear that news about her had circulated, and a brief pause followed, which seemed to guarantee that it would now spread even further.
“Do come, Anne,” cried Mary, “come and look yourself. You will be too late if you do not make haste. They are parting; they are shaking hands. He is turning away. Not know Mr Elliot, indeed! You seem to have forgot all about Lyme.”
“Come on, Anne,” Mary exclaimed, “come and see for yourself. You'll miss it if you don't hurry. They're saying goodbye; they're shaking hands. He’s walking away. You really don’t know Mr. Elliot? It seems like you've forgotten all about Lyme.”
To pacify Mary, and perhaps screen her own embarrassment, Anne did move quietly to the window. She was just in time to ascertain that it really was Mr Elliot, which she had never believed, before he disappeared on one side, as Mrs Clay walked quickly off on the other; and checking the surprise which she could not but feel at such an appearance of friendly conference between two persons of totally opposite interest, she calmly said, “Yes, it is Mr Elliot, certainly. He has changed his hour of going, I suppose, that is all, or I may be mistaken, I might not attend;” and walked back to her chair, recomposed, and with the comfortable hope of having acquitted herself well.
To calm Mary and possibly hide her own embarrassment, Anne quietly moved to the window. She got there just in time to confirm that it really was Mr. Elliot, which she had never believed, before he vanished on one side while Mrs. Clay quickly left on the other. Trying to suppress her surprise at such a friendly meeting between two people with completely opposing interests, she calmly said, “Yes, that’s definitely Mr. Elliot. He must have changed his departure time, I guess, that’s all, or I could be wrong; I might not have been paying attention,” and walked back to her chair, feeling collected and with the reassuring thought that she had handled the situation well.
The visitors took their leave; and Charles, having civilly seen them off, and then made a face at them, and abused them for coming, began with—
The visitors said their goodbyes, and Charles, politely seeing them off, then made a face at them and complained about their visit, starting with—
“Well, mother, I have done something for you that you will like. I have been to the theatre, and secured a box for to-morrow night. A’n’t I a good boy? I know you love a play; and there is room for us all. It holds nine. I have engaged Captain Wentworth. Anne will not be sorry to join us, I am sure. We all like a play. Have not I done well, mother?”
"Well, Mom, I did something nice for you that I think you'll love. I got us a box at the theater for tomorrow night. Aren’t I a good son? I know you enjoy a show, and there’s enough space for all of us. It can fit nine people. I’ve invited Captain Wentworth. I’m sure Anne will be happy to come with us. We all enjoy a play. Didn’t I do well, Mom?"
Mrs Musgrove was good humouredly beginning to express her perfect readiness for the play, if Henrietta and all the others liked it, when Mary eagerly interrupted her by exclaiming—
Mrs. Musgrove was cheerfully starting to say she was completely ready for the play, if Henrietta and everyone else was into it, when Mary excitedly cut in by exclaiming—
“Good heavens, Charles! how can you think of such a thing? Take a box for to-morrow night! Have you forgot that we are engaged to Camden Place to-morrow night? and that we were most particularly asked to meet Lady Dalrymple and her daughter, and Mr Elliot, and all the principal family connexions, on purpose to be introduced to them? How can you be so forgetful?”
"Goodness, Charles! How can you even think of something like that? Get a box for tomorrow night! Have you forgotten that we're supposed to be at Camden Place tomorrow night? We were specifically invited to meet Lady Dalrymple, her daughter, Mr. Elliot, and all the key family connections just to be introduced to them. How can you be so forgetful?"
“Phoo! phoo!” replied Charles, “what’s an evening party? Never worth remembering. Your father might have asked us to dinner, I think, if he had wanted to see us. You may do as you like, but I shall go to the play.”
"Phoo! phoo!" Charles replied, "What’s the point of an evening party? It's never worth remembering. Your father might have invited us to dinner if he actually wanted to see us. Do what you want, but I'm going to the play."
“Oh! Charles, I declare it will be too abominable if you do, when you promised to go.”
“Oh! Charles, I swear it will be just awful if you do, when you promised to go.”
“No, I did not promise. I only smirked and bowed, and said the word ‘happy.’ There was no promise.”
“No, I didn’t promise. I just smiled and nodded, and said the word ‘happy.’ There was no promise.”
“But you must go, Charles. It would be unpardonable to fail. We were asked on purpose to be introduced. There was always such a great connexion between the Dalrymples and ourselves. Nothing ever happened on either side that was not announced immediately. We are quite near relations, you know; and Mr Elliot too, whom you ought so particularly to be acquainted with! Every attention is due to Mr Elliot. Consider, my father’s heir: the future representative of the family.”
“But you have to go, Charles. It would be unforgivable not to. We were specifically invited to be introduced. There has always been such a strong connection between the Dalrymples and us. Anything that happened on either side was always communicated right away. We are pretty close relatives, you know; and Mr. Elliot too, whom you really should get to know! Mr. Elliot deserves every courtesy. Think about it, he's my father's heir: the future head of the family.”
“Don’t talk to me about heirs and representatives,” cried Charles. “I am not one of those who neglect the reigning power to bow to the rising sun. If I would not go for the sake of your father, I should think it scandalous to go for the sake of his heir. What is Mr Elliot to me?” The careless expression was life to Anne, who saw that Captain Wentworth was all attention, looking and listening with his whole soul; and that the last words brought his enquiring eyes from Charles to herself.
“Don’t talk to me about heirs and representatives,” Charles shouted. “I’m not someone who ignores the current power just to flatter the upcoming one. If I wouldn’t go for your father’s sake, I’d find it ridiculous to go for his heir. What does Mr. Elliot mean to me?” The flippant comment energized Anne, as she noticed that Captain Wentworth was completely engaged, looking and listening with all his attention; and that the final words shifted his curious gaze from Charles to her.
Charles and Mary still talked on in the same style; he, half serious and half jesting, maintaining the scheme for the play, and she, invariably serious, most warmly opposing it, and not omitting to make it known that, however determined to go to Camden Place herself, she should not think herself very well used, if they went to the play without her. Mrs Musgrove interposed.
Charles and Mary kept chatting in the same way; he was half serious and half joking, sticking to his plan for the play, while she was always serious, firmly opposing it and making it clear that even though she was set on going to Camden Place herself, she wouldn’t feel very appreciated if they went to the play without her. Mrs. Musgrove stepped in.
“We had better put it off. Charles, you had much better go back and change the box for Tuesday. It would be a pity to be divided, and we should be losing Miss Anne, too, if there is a party at her father’s; and I am sure neither Henrietta nor I should care at all for the play, if Miss Anne could not be with us.”
“We should probably postpone it. Charles, you should really go back and switch the box to Tuesday. It would be a shame to be split up, and we would miss Miss Anne too, if there’s a party at her father’s. I’m sure neither Henrietta nor I would enjoy the play at all if Miss Anne couldn’t join us.”
Anne felt truly obliged to her for such kindness; and quite as much so for the opportunity it gave her of decidedly saying—
Anne felt really grateful to her for such kindness; and just as much for the chance it gave her to clearly say—
“If it depended only on my inclination, ma’am, the party at home (excepting on Mary’s account) would not be the smallest impediment. I have no pleasure in the sort of meeting, and should be too happy to change it for a play, and with you. But, it had better not be attempted, perhaps.” She had spoken it; but she trembled when it was done, conscious that her words were listened to, and daring not even to try to observe their effect.
“If it were just up to me, ma’am, the gathering at home (except for Mary) wouldn’t be a problem at all. I don’t enjoy that kind of get-together, and I’d gladly swap it for a play with you. But maybe it’s best not to try, after all.” She had said it, but she trembled afterward, aware that her words were being heard and too afraid to see how they would be received.
It was soon generally agreed that Tuesday should be the day; Charles only reserving the advantage of still teasing his wife, by persisting that he would go to the play to-morrow if nobody else would.
It was quickly agreed that Tuesday would be the day; Charles just kept the upper hand by continuing to tease his wife, insisting that he would go to the play tomorrow if no one else would.
Captain Wentworth left his seat, and walked to the fire-place; probably for the sake of walking away from it soon afterwards, and taking a station, with less bare-faced design, by Anne.
Captain Wentworth got up from his seat and walked over to the fireplace; probably so he could walk away from it shortly after and find a spot next to Anne without being so obvious.
“You have not been long enough in Bath,” said he, “to enjoy the evening parties of the place.”
“You haven’t been in Bath long enough,” he said, “to enjoy the evening parties here.”
“Oh! no. The usual character of them has nothing for me. I am no card-player.”
“Oh! no. Their usual vibe doesn’t appeal to me. I'm not a card player.”
“You were not formerly, I know. You did not use to like cards; but time makes many changes.”
"You didn't used to be like this, I know. You weren't into cards, but time changes a lot."
“I am not yet so much changed,” cried Anne, and stopped, fearing she hardly knew what misconstruction. After waiting a few moments he said, and as if it were the result of immediate feeling, “It is a period, indeed! Eight years and a half is a period.”
“I haven't changed that much yet,” cried Anne, stopping, afraid of what might be misunderstood. After a moment's pause, he said, as if it were a spontaneous thought, “It really is a significant amount of time! Eight and a half years is quite a long time.”
Whether he would have proceeded farther was left to Anne’s imagination to ponder over in a calmer hour; for while still hearing the sounds he had uttered, she was startled to other subjects by Henrietta, eager to make use of the present leisure for getting out, and calling on her companions to lose no time, lest somebody else should come in.
Whether he would have gone further was left for Anne to think about later when things were quieter; because, while she was still hearing the sounds he had made, she was distracted by Henrietta, who was eager to take advantage of the free time to go out and urging her friends not to waste a moment, in case someone else showed up.
They were obliged to move. Anne talked of being perfectly ready, and tried to look it; but she felt that could Henrietta have known the regret and reluctance of her heart in quitting that chair, in preparing to quit the room, she would have found, in all her own sensations for her cousin, in the very security of his affection, wherewith to pity her.
They had to leave. Anne spoke as if she was completely ready and tried to appear that way; but she felt that if Henrietta had known about the regret and hesitation in her heart about leaving that chair and getting ready to leave the room, she would have found in her own feelings for her cousin, in the very certainty of his love, a reason to feel sorry for her.
Their preparations, however, were stopped short. Alarming sounds were heard; other visitors approached, and the door was thrown open for Sir Walter and Miss Elliot, whose entrance seemed to give a general chill. Anne felt an instant oppression, and wherever she looked saw symptoms of the same. The comfort, the freedom, the gaiety of the room was over, hushed into cold composure, determined silence, or insipid talk, to meet the heartless elegance of her father and sister. How mortifying to feel that it was so!
Their preparations, however, were abruptly interrupted. Disturbing sounds were heard; other guests were coming, and the door swung open for Sir Walter and Miss Elliot, whose arrival seemed to cast a general chill. Anne felt a sudden heaviness, and wherever she looked, she saw signs of the same. The comfort, the freedom, the cheerfulness of the room was gone, replaced by a cold composure, determined silence, or dull conversation to match the heartless elegance of her father and sister. How humiliating to feel that it was so!
Her jealous eye was satisfied in one particular. Captain Wentworth was acknowledged again by each, by Elizabeth more graciously than before. She even addressed him once, and looked at him more than once. Elizabeth was, in fact, revolving a great measure. The sequel explained it. After the waste of a few minutes in saying the proper nothings, she began to give the invitation which was to comprise all the remaining dues of the Musgroves. “To-morrow evening, to meet a few friends: no formal party.” It was all said very gracefully, and the cards with which she had provided herself, the “Miss Elliot at home,” were laid on the table, with a courteous, comprehensive smile to all, and one smile and one card more decidedly for Captain Wentworth. The truth was, that Elizabeth had been long enough in Bath to understand the importance of a man of such an air and appearance as his. The past was nothing. The present was that Captain Wentworth would move about well in her drawing-room. The card was pointedly given, and Sir Walter and Elizabeth arose and disappeared.
Her jealous gaze was satisfied in one way. Captain Wentworth was acknowledged again by everyone, with Elizabeth being more gracious than before. She even spoke to him once and glanced at him more than once. Elizabeth was, in fact, considering something significant. The outcome explained it. After spending a few minutes exchanging polite small talk, she started to extend an invitation that would include all the remaining obligations of the Musgroves. “Tomorrow evening, to meet a few friends: no formal party.” It was all said very elegantly, and the cards she had prepared, the “Miss Elliot at home,” were placed on the table, accompanied by a courteous, inclusive smile for everyone, and one more focused smile and card specifically for Captain Wentworth. The truth was, Elizabeth had been in Bath long enough to recognize the value of a man with his charm and presence. The past didn’t matter. What mattered now was that Captain Wentworth would fit in nicely in her drawing-room. The card was deliberately handed over, and Sir Walter and Elizabeth stood up and left.
The interruption had been short, though severe, and ease and animation returned to most of those they left as the door shut them out, but not to Anne. She could think only of the invitation she had with such astonishment witnessed, and of the manner in which it had been received; a manner of doubtful meaning, of surprise rather than gratification, of polite acknowledgement rather than acceptance. She knew him; she saw disdain in his eye, and could not venture to believe that he had determined to accept such an offering, as an atonement for all the insolence of the past. Her spirits sank. He held the card in his hand after they were gone, as if deeply considering it.
The interruption was brief but intense, and once the door closed behind them, most of the others quickly returned to their usual selves, except for Anne. She could only think about the invitation she had just witnessed in disbelief and how it had been received. The response was unclear—more surprised than pleased, more of a polite nod than an actual acceptance. She knew him well enough; she saw contempt in his eyes and couldn’t bring herself to believe he would truly accept such an offer as a way to make up for all the rudeness of the past. Her mood plummeted. He held the card in his hand after they left, as if he was thinking it over deeply.
“Only think of Elizabeth’s including everybody!” whispered Mary very audibly. “I do not wonder Captain Wentworth is delighted! You see he cannot put the card out of his hand.”
“Just think about how Elizabeth invited everyone!” Mary whispered quite loudly. “I’m not surprised Captain Wentworth is so pleased! You can see he can’t get that card out of his hand.”
Anne caught his eye, saw his cheeks glow, and his mouth form itself into a momentary expression of contempt, and turned away, that she might neither see nor hear more to vex her.
Anne caught his eye, noticed his cheeks flush and his mouth twist into a brief look of disdain, and turned away so she wouldn’t see or hear anything else to annoy her.
The party separated. The gentlemen had their own pursuits, the ladies proceeded on their own business, and they met no more while Anne belonged to them. She was earnestly begged to return and dine, and give them all the rest of the day, but her spirits had been so long exerted that at present she felt unequal to more, and fit only for home, where she might be sure of being as silent as she chose.
The group split up. The men went off to do their own things, and the women continued with theirs, and they didn't see each other again while Anne was with them. They urged her to come back and have dinner and spend the rest of the day with them, but she had been so tired for a while that she felt she couldn't handle any more and just wanted to go home, where she could be as quiet as she liked.
Promising to be with them the whole of the following morning, therefore, she closed the fatigues of the present by a toilsome walk to Camden Place, there to spend the evening chiefly in listening to the busy arrangements of Elizabeth and Mrs Clay for the morrow’s party, the frequent enumeration of the persons invited, and the continually improving detail of all the embellishments which were to make it the most completely elegant of its kind in Bath, while harassing herself with the never-ending question, of whether Captain Wentworth would come or not? They were reckoning him as certain, but with her it was a gnawing solicitude never appeased for five minutes together. She generally thought he would come, because she generally thought he ought; but it was a case which she could not so shape into any positive act of duty or discretion, as inevitably to defy the suggestions of very opposite feelings.
Promising to be with them all the next morning, she wrapped up the day's fatigue with a tiring walk to Camden Place, where she spent the evening mainly listening to the busy plans of Elizabeth and Mrs. Clay for the party the next day. They frequently listed the invited guests and discussed all the decorations that would make it the most elegant event in Bath, while she was troubled by the constant question of whether Captain Wentworth would attend. They were counting on him being there for sure, but for her, it was a persistent worry that never left her for more than five minutes. She usually thought he would come because she believed he should, but she couldn’t turn that into a definite act of duty or reason without contradicting her conflicting feelings.
She only roused herself from the broodings of this restless agitation, to let Mrs Clay know that she had been seen with Mr Elliot three hours after his being supposed to be out of Bath, for having watched in vain for some intimation of the interview from the lady herself, she determined to mention it, and it seemed to her there was guilt in Mrs Clay’s face as she listened. It was transient: cleared away in an instant; but Anne could imagine she read there the consciousness of having, by some complication of mutual trick, or some overbearing authority of his, been obliged to attend (perhaps for half an hour) to his lectures and restrictions on her designs on Sir Walter. She exclaimed, however, with a very tolerable imitation of nature:—
She only pulled herself away from her restless thoughts to tell Mrs. Clay that she had seen Mr. Elliot three hours after he was thought to be out of Bath. After waiting in vain for some sign of the meeting from the lady herself, she decided to bring it up, and it seemed to her that there was something guilty in Mrs. Clay’s expression as she listened. It was fleeting, gone in an instant, but Anne imagined she could see the awareness of having been forced, through some tricky situation or his overpowering influence, to listen to his lectures and restrictions about her intentions with Sir Walter (maybe for half an hour). Still, she exclaimed with a pretty good imitation of naturalness:—
“Oh! dear! very true. Only think, Miss Elliot, to my great surprise I met with Mr Elliot in Bath Street. I was never more astonished. He turned back and walked with me to the Pump Yard. He had been prevented setting off for Thornberry, but I really forget by what; for I was in a hurry, and could not much attend, and I can only answer for his being determined not to be delayed in his return. He wanted to know how early he might be admitted to-morrow. He was full of ‘to-morrow,’ and it is very evident that I have been full of it too, ever since I entered the house, and learnt the extension of your plan and all that had happened, or my seeing him could never have gone so entirely out of my head.”
“Oh! dear! how true. Just think, Miss Elliot, to my shock, I ran into Mr. Elliot on Bath Street. I was completely taken aback. He turned around and walked with me to the Pump Yard. He had been held up from leaving for Thornberry, but I honestly can’t remember why; I was in a rush and couldn’t pay much attention, and I can only say he was definitely eager to get back. He wanted to know how early he could come by tomorrow. He was all about ‘tomorrow,’ and it’s clear that I’ve been thinking about it too ever since I got here and found out about your plans and everything else, or I would have never forgotten about seeing him so completely.”
CHAPTER XXIII.
One day only had passed since Anne’s conversation with Mrs Smith; but a keener interest had succeeded, and she was now so little touched by Mr Elliot’s conduct, except by its effects in one quarter, that it became a matter of course the next morning, still to defer her explanatory visit in Rivers Street. She had promised to be with the Musgroves from breakfast to dinner. Her faith was plighted, and Mr Elliot’s character, like the Sultaness Scheherazade’s head, must live another day.
One day had passed since Anne's conversation with Mrs. Smith, but she was now much more interested, and she was hardly affected by Mr. Elliot's behavior, except for its impact in one area. It became routine the next morning to put off her planned visit to Rivers Street. She had promised to spend the entire day with the Musgroves, from breakfast to dinner. Her commitment was made, and like the character of Scheherazade, Mr. Elliot would get another day.
She could not keep her appointment punctually, however; the weather was unfavourable, and she had grieved over the rain on her friends’ account, and felt it very much on her own, before she was able to attempt the walk. When she reached the White Hart, and made her way to the proper apartment, she found herself neither arriving quite in time, nor the first to arrive. The party before her were, Mrs Musgrove, talking to Mrs Croft, and Captain Harville to Captain Wentworth; and she immediately heard that Mary and Henrietta, too impatient to wait, had gone out the moment it had cleared, but would be back again soon, and that the strictest injunctions had been left with Mrs Musgrove to keep her there till they returned. She had only to submit, sit down, be outwardly composed, and feel herself plunged at once in all the agitations which she had merely laid her account of tasting a little before the morning closed. There was no delay, no waste of time. She was deep in the happiness of such misery, or the misery of such happiness, instantly. Two minutes after her entering the room, Captain Wentworth said—
She couldn't make it to her appointment on time, though; the weather was bad, and she was upset about the rain for her friends and felt it a lot herself before she could even think about going out. When she got to the White Hart and walked to the right room, she found she hadn't arrived on time and wasn't the first one there. The people ahead of her were Mrs. Musgrove talking to Mrs. Croft and Captain Harville chatting with Captain Wentworth; she quickly heard that Mary and Henrietta, too impatient to wait, had gone out as soon as it had cleared up, but they'd be back soon, and Mrs. Musgrove had been told to keep her there until they returned. She just had to accept it, sit down, appear calm, and feel herself immediately caught up in all the emotions she'd only expected to experience a little of before the day ended. There was no hesitation, no wasting time. She was suddenly deep in the joy of such misery or the misery of such joy. Two minutes after she entered the room, Captain Wentworth said—
“We will write the letter we were talking of, Harville, now, if you will give me materials.”
“We’ll write the letter we were discussing, Harville, now, if you’ll provide me with the supplies.”
Materials were at hand, on a separate table; he went to it, and nearly turning his back to them all, was engrossed by writing.
Materials were ready on a separate table; he walked over, almost turning his back on everyone, and became absorbed in writing.
Mrs Musgrove was giving Mrs Croft the history of her eldest daughter’s engagement, and just in that inconvenient tone of voice which was perfectly audible while it pretended to be a whisper. Anne felt that she did not belong to the conversation, and yet, as Captain Harville seemed thoughtful and not disposed to talk, she could not avoid hearing many undesirable particulars; such as, “how Mr Musgrove and my brother Hayter had met again and again to talk it over; what my brother Hayter had said one day, and what Mr Musgrove had proposed the next, and what had occurred to my sister Hayter, and what the young people had wished, and what I said at first I never could consent to, but was afterwards persuaded to think might do very well,” and a great deal in the same style of open-hearted communication: minutiae which, even with every advantage of taste and delicacy, which good Mrs Musgrove could not give, could be properly interesting only to the principals. Mrs Croft was attending with great good-humour, and whenever she spoke at all, it was very sensibly. Anne hoped the gentlemen might each be too much self-occupied to hear.
Mrs. Musgrove was sharing the story of her eldest daughter’s engagement with Mrs. Croft, using that annoying tone of voice that was clearly audible while pretending to be a whisper. Anne felt out of place in the conversation, and since Captain Harville seemed deep in thought and not inclined to speak, she couldn’t help but overhear many unwanted details; like how Mr. Musgrove and her brother Hayter had met repeatedly to discuss it, what her brother Hayter had said one day, and what Mr. Musgrove had suggested the next, along with what had come to her sister Hayter, what the young couple wanted, and what she claimed at first she could never agree to but was later convinced could work just fine, and a lot more in the same vein of overly open sharing: details that, even with all the taste and tact that good Mrs. Musgrove could muster, would only truly interest those directly involved. Mrs. Croft was listening with great good humor, and whenever she did speak, it was quite sensible. Anne hoped that the gentlemen might be too absorbed in their own thoughts to pay attention.
“And so, ma’am, all these thing considered,” said Mrs Musgrove, in her powerful whisper, “though we could have wished it different, yet, altogether, we did not think it fair to stand out any longer, for Charles Hayter was quite wild about it, and Henrietta was pretty near as bad; and so we thought they had better marry at once, and make the best of it, as many others have done before them. At any rate, said I, it will be better than a long engagement.”
“And so, ma’am, with all this in mind,” said Mrs. Musgrove in her strong whisper, “even though we might have preferred it to be different, overall, we didn’t think it was right to hold out any longer, since Charles Hayter was really eager about it, and Henrietta was almost as excited; so we figured they should just get married right away and make the most of it, like many others have done before them. At the very least, I said, it will be better than having a long engagement.”
“That is precisely what I was going to observe,” cried Mrs Croft. “I would rather have young people settle on a small income at once, and have to struggle with a few difficulties together, than be involved in a long engagement. I always think that no mutual—”
“That’s exactly what I was going to say,” yelled Mrs. Croft. “I’d much rather see young people start out on a small income right away and face a few challenges together than go through a long engagement. I always think that no mutual—”
“Oh! dear Mrs Croft,” cried Mrs Musgrove, unable to let her finish her speech, “there is nothing I so abominate for young people as a long engagement. It is what I always protested against for my children. It is all very well, I used to say, for young people to be engaged, if there is a certainty of their being able to marry in six months, or even in twelve; but a long engagement—”
“Oh! dear Mrs. Croft,” exclaimed Mrs. Musgrove, cutting her off, “there's nothing I dislike more for young people than a long engagement. I've always been against it for my kids. I used to say it’s fine for young people to be engaged if they can definitely get married in six months, or even in a year; but a long engagement—”
“Yes, dear ma’am,” said Mrs Croft, “or an uncertain engagement, an engagement which may be long. To begin without knowing that at such a time there will be the means of marrying, I hold to be very unsafe and unwise, and what I think all parents should prevent as far as they can.”
“Yes, ma’am,” said Mrs. Croft, “or a vague commitment, a commitment that could take a long time. Starting out without knowing that there are the means to get married at that time seems very risky and unwise to me, and I believe all parents should do their best to avoid it.”
Anne found an unexpected interest here. She felt its application to herself, felt it in a nervous thrill all over her; and at the same moment that her eyes instinctively glanced towards the distant table, Captain Wentworth’s pen ceased to move, his head was raised, pausing, listening, and he turned round the next instant to give a look, one quick, conscious look at her.
Anne discovered an unexpected interest here. She felt its relevance to her, experiencing a nervous thrill all over; at the same time her eyes instinctively flickered toward the distant table, Captain Wentworth’s pen stopped, he lifted his head, pausing to listen, and in the next moment, he turned to give her a quick, aware glance.
The two ladies continued to talk, to re-urge the same admitted truths, and enforce them with such examples of the ill effect of a contrary practice as had fallen within their observation, but Anne heard nothing distinctly; it was only a buzz of words in her ear, her mind was in confusion.
The two women kept talking, repeating the same accepted truths and backing them up with examples of the negative impact of the opposite behavior that they had seen. However, Anne didn't listen closely; it was just a buzz of words in her ear, and her mind was a mess.
Captain Harville, who had in truth been hearing none of it, now left his seat, and moved to a window, and Anne seeming to watch him, though it was from thorough absence of mind, became gradually sensible that he was inviting her to join him where he stood. He looked at her with a smile, and a little motion of the head, which expressed, “Come to me, I have something to say;” and the unaffected, easy kindness of manner which denoted the feelings of an older acquaintance than he really was, strongly enforced the invitation. She roused herself and went to him. The window at which he stood was at the other end of the room from where the two ladies were sitting, and though nearer to Captain Wentworth’s table, not very near. As she joined him, Captain Harville’s countenance re-assumed the serious, thoughtful expression which seemed its natural character.
Captain Harville, who honestly hadn’t been paying attention, got up from his seat and moved to a window. Anne, seemingly watching him, but actually lost in thought, gradually became aware that he was inviting her to join him. He smiled at her and gave a slight nod that said, "Come over; I have something to discuss." His genuine, friendly demeanor suggested a familiarity beyond what their time together had indicated, making the invitation even more compelling. She snapped back to reality and walked over to him. The window where he stood was at the opposite end of the room from where the two ladies were sitting, and while it was closer to Captain Wentworth's table, it wasn't very close. As she approached him, Captain Harville's face returned to the serious, contemplative look that seemed to be his natural expression.
“Look here,” said he, unfolding a parcel in his hand, and displaying a small miniature painting, “do you know who that is?”
“Look here,” he said, unfolding a package in his hand and showing a small miniature painting, “do you know who this is?”
“Certainly: Captain Benwick.”
"Sure thing: Captain Benwick."
“Yes, and you may guess who it is for. But,” (in a deep tone), “it was not done for her. Miss Elliot, do you remember our walking together at Lyme, and grieving for him? I little thought then—but no matter. This was drawn at the Cape. He met with a clever young German artist at the Cape, and in compliance with a promise to my poor sister, sat to him, and was bringing it home for her; and I have now the charge of getting it properly set for another! It was a commission to me! But who else was there to employ? I hope I can allow for him. I am not sorry, indeed, to make it over to another. He undertakes it;” (looking towards Captain Wentworth,) “he is writing about it now.” And with a quivering lip he wound up the whole by adding, “Poor Fanny! she would not have forgotten him so soon!”
“Yes, and you might guess who it’s for. But,” (in a serious tone), “it wasn’t done for her. Miss Elliot, do you remember when we walked together at Lyme and mourned for him? I never thought back then—but it doesn’t matter. This was sketched at the Cape. He met a talented young German artist there, and as a promise to my poor sister, he sat for him and was bringing it home for her; and now I’m responsible for making sure it’s properly prepared for someone else! It was a commission for me! But who else could I ask? I hope I can forgive him. I’m not upset, really, to pass it on to another. He’s taking it on;” (looking at Captain Wentworth,) “he’s writing about it right now.” And with a trembling lip, he concluded by saying, “Poor Fanny! She wouldn’t have forgotten him so quickly!”
“No,” replied Anne, in a low, feeling voice. “That I can easily believe.”
“No,” Anne replied, in a quiet, emotional voice. “I can easily believe that.”
“It was not in her nature. She doted on him.”
“It wasn’t in her nature. She adored him.”
“It would not be the nature of any woman who truly loved.”
“It wouldn't be in the nature of any woman who truly loved.”
Captain Harville smiled, as much as to say, “Do you claim that for your sex?” and she answered the question, smiling also, “Yes. We certainly do not forget you as soon as you forget us. It is, perhaps, our fate rather than our merit. We cannot help ourselves. We live at home, quiet, confined, and our feelings prey upon us. You are forced on exertion. You have always a profession, pursuits, business of some sort or other, to take you back into the world immediately, and continual occupation and change soon weaken impressions.”
Captain Harville smiled, as if to ask, “Is that how your gender feels?” She responded, also smiling, “Yes. We definitely don’t forget you as quickly as you forget us. It’s probably more about our situation than our worth. We can’t help it. We stay at home, quiet and limited, and our feelings consume us. You have to engage in activities. You always have a job, interests, or some sort of business that pulls you back into the world right away, and constant activity and change quickly dull your memories.”
“Granting your assertion that the world does all this so soon for men (which, however, I do not think I shall grant), it does not apply to Benwick. He has not been forced upon any exertion. The peace turned him on shore at the very moment, and he has been living with us, in our little family circle, ever since.”
“Even if I accept your claim that the world moves quickly for men (which I don’t really think I will), it doesn’t apply to Benwick. He hasn’t been pushed into any effort. The peace brought him ashore at just the right moment, and he has been living with us in our small family circle ever since.”
“True,” said Anne, “very true; I did not recollect; but what shall we say now, Captain Harville? If the change be not from outward circumstances, it must be from within; it must be nature, man’s nature, which has done the business for Captain Benwick.”
“True,” said Anne, “very true; I didn’t remember that; but what should we say now, Captain Harville? If the change isn’t due to external circumstances, it has to come from within; it must be human nature that has affected Captain Benwick.”
“No, no, it is not man’s nature. I will not allow it to be more man’s nature than woman’s to be inconstant and forget those they do love, or have loved. I believe the reverse. I believe in a true analogy between our bodily frames and our mental; and that as our bodies are the strongest, so are our feelings; capable of bearing most rough usage, and riding out the heaviest weather.”
“No, no, it’s not in human nature. I won’t accept that it is more natural for men than for women to be unfaithful and forget those they love or have loved. I believe the opposite. I see a real similarity between our physical bodies and our minds; just as our bodies can endure the toughest challenges, so can our feelings; they are strong enough to handle a lot of rough treatment and can withstand the worst storms.”
“Your feelings may be the strongest,” replied Anne, “but the same spirit of analogy will authorise me to assert that ours are the most tender. Man is more robust than woman, but he is not longer lived; which exactly explains my view of the nature of their attachments. Nay, it would be too hard upon you, if it were otherwise. You have difficulties, and privations, and dangers enough to struggle with. You are always labouring and toiling, exposed to every risk and hardship. Your home, country, friends, all quitted. Neither time, nor health, nor life, to be called your own. It would be hard, indeed” (with a faltering voice), “if woman’s feelings were to be added to all this.”
“Your feelings might be the strongest,” replied Anne, “but the same analogy allows me to say that ours are the most tender. Men are stronger than women, but they don’t live as long; that perfectly explains my view on the nature of their attachments. It would be too harsh for you if it were any different. You face enough challenges, hardships, and dangers to deal with. You’re constantly working and struggling, facing every risk and difficulty. You’ve left behind your home, your country, your friends. You can’t claim time, health, or even life as your own. It would be too much, really” (with a trembling voice), “if women’s feelings were piled on top of all this.”
“We shall never agree upon this question,” Captain Harville was beginning to say, when a slight noise called their attention to Captain Wentworth’s hitherto perfectly quiet division of the room. It was nothing more than that his pen had fallen down; but Anne was startled at finding him nearer than she had supposed, and half inclined to suspect that the pen had only fallen because he had been occupied by them, striving to catch sounds, which yet she did not think he could have caught.
“We're never going to agree on this,” Captain Harville was starting to say when a small noise drew their attention to Captain Wentworth’s previously quiet part of the room. It was just that his pen had dropped; but Anne was surprised to realize he was closer than she thought and half suspected that the pen had only fallen because he had been focused on them, trying to catch snippets of their conversation, which she didn’t believe he could have heard.
“Have you finished your letter?” said Captain Harville.
“Have you finished your letter?” asked Captain Harville.
“Not quite, a few lines more. I shall have done in five minutes.”
“Not quite, just a few more lines. I’ll be done in five minutes.”
“There is no hurry on my side. I am only ready whenever you are. I am in very good anchorage here,” (smiling at Anne), “well supplied, and want for nothing. No hurry for a signal at all. Well, Miss Elliot,” (lowering his voice), “as I was saying, we shall never agree, I suppose, upon this point. No man and woman would, probably. But let me observe that all histories are against you—all stories, prose and verse. If I had such a memory as Benwick, I could bring you fifty quotations in a moment on my side the argument, and I do not think I ever opened a book in my life which had not something to say upon woman’s inconstancy. Songs and proverbs, all talk of woman’s fickleness. But perhaps you will say, these were all written by men.”
“There’s no rush on my end. I’m only ready whenever you are. I’m in a great spot here,” (smiling at Anne), “well stocked, and lacking nothing. No rush for a signal at all. Well, Miss Elliot,” (lowering his voice), “as I was saying, I suppose we’ll never agree on this point. No man and woman probably would. But let me point out that all the histories are against you—all the stories, prose and poetry. If I had a memory like Benwick, I could give you fifty quotes in an instant on my side of the argument, and I don’t think I’ve ever opened a book that didn’t have something to say about women’s inconstancy. Songs and proverbs all talk about women’s fickleness. But maybe you’ll say these were all written by men.”
“Perhaps I shall. Yes, yes, if you please, no reference to examples in books. Men have had every advantage of us in telling their own story. Education has been theirs in so much higher a degree; the pen has been in their hands. I will not allow books to prove anything.”
“Maybe I will. Yes, yes, if you don’t mind, let’s not reference examples from books. Men have had every advantage over us in telling their own stories. Their education has been so much better; they’ve held the pen. I won’t let books prove anything.”
“But how shall we prove anything?”
“But how are we supposed to prove anything?”
“We never shall. We never can expect to prove any thing upon such a point. It is a difference of opinion which does not admit of proof. We each begin, probably, with a little bias towards our own sex; and upon that bias build every circumstance in favour of it which has occurred within our own circle; many of which circumstances (perhaps those very cases which strike us the most) may be precisely such as cannot be brought forward without betraying a confidence, or in some respect saying what should not be said.”
“We never will. We can’t really expect to prove anything on this point. It’s a difference of opinion that doesn’t allow for proof. We likely each start with a bit of bias toward our own gender, and from that bias, we construct every circumstance in favor of it that’s happened within our own circles; many of which circumstances (maybe those very cases that stand out to us the most) may be exactly the kind that can’t be brought up without breaking a confidence, or in some way saying something that shouldn’t be said.”
“Ah!” cried Captain Harville, in a tone of strong feeling, “if I could but make you comprehend what a man suffers when he takes a last look at his wife and children, and watches the boat that he has sent them off in, as long as it is in sight, and then turns away and says, ‘God knows whether we ever meet again!’ And then, if I could convey to you the glow of his soul when he does see them again; when, coming back after a twelvemonth’s absence, perhaps, and obliged to put into another port, he calculates how soon it be possible to get them there, pretending to deceive himself, and saying, ‘They cannot be here till such a day,’ but all the while hoping for them twelve hours sooner, and seeing them arrive at last, as if Heaven had given them wings, by many hours sooner still! If I could explain to you all this, and all that a man can bear and do, and glories to do, for the sake of these treasures of his existence! I speak, you know, only of such men as have hearts!” pressing his own with emotion.
“Ah!” exclaimed Captain Harville, with deep emotion, “if only I could help you understand what a man goes through when he takes a last look at his wife and kids, watching the boat he sent them off in until it’s out of sight, then turning away and saying, ‘God knows if we'll ever see each other again!’ And then, if I could show you the joy in his heart when he does see them again; when, after being away for a year, maybe, and having to dock at another port, he begins to figure out how soon he can get to them, trying to convince himself by saying, ‘They can’t be here until such a day,’ but all the while hoping for them to arrive twelve hours earlier, and then finally seeing them come, as if Heaven gave them wings, arriving even earlier than that! If I could explain all this, and everything a man can endure and strive to do, proudly, for the sake of these precious people in his life! I’m only talking about men who have real hearts!” pressing his own with feeling.
“Oh!” cried Anne eagerly, “I hope I do justice to all that is felt by you, and by those who resemble you. God forbid that I should undervalue the warm and faithful feelings of any of my fellow-creatures! I should deserve utter contempt if I dared to suppose that true attachment and constancy were known only by woman. No, I believe you capable of everything great and good in your married lives. I believe you equal to every important exertion, and to every domestic forbearance, so long as—if I may be allowed the expression—so long as you have an object. I mean while the woman you love lives, and lives for you. All the privilege I claim for my own sex (it is not a very enviable one; you need not covet it), is that of loving longest, when existence or when hope is gone.”
“Oh!” Anne exclaimed eagerly, “I really hope I do justice to what you and others like you feel. God forbid that I should ever underestimate the warm and loyal feelings of any of my fellow humans! I would deserve complete disdain if I thought that true love and loyalty were only known by women. No, I believe you're capable of everything great and good in your marriages. I believe you're up for every significant effort and every act of patience, as long as—if I may put it this way—there's a purpose. I mean while the woman you love is alive and lives for you. The only privilege I claim for my own gender (it’s not a very desirable one; you shouldn’t envy it) is the ability to love the longest, even when life or hope is gone.”
She could not immediately have uttered another sentence; her heart was too full, her breath too much oppressed.
She couldn’t have said anything else right away; her heart was too overwhelmed, her breath was too heavy.
“You are a good soul,” cried Captain Harville, putting his hand on her arm, quite affectionately. “There is no quarrelling with you. And when I think of Benwick, my tongue is tied.”
“You’re a good person,” exclaimed Captain Harville, placing his hand on her arm with great affection. “I can’t argue with you. And when I think of Benwick, I’m at a loss for words.”
Their attention was called towards the others. Mrs Croft was taking leave.
Their attention was drawn to the others. Mrs. Croft was saying goodbye.
“Here, Frederick, you and I part company, I believe,” said she. “I am going home, and you have an engagement with your friend. To-night we may have the pleasure of all meeting again at your party,” (turning to Anne). “We had your sister’s card yesterday, and I understood Frederick had a card too, though I did not see it; and you are disengaged, Frederick, are you not, as well as ourselves?”
“Look, Frederick, I think this is where we say goodbye,” she said. “I’m heading home, and you have plans with your friend. We can all enjoy each other’s company again tonight at your party,” (turning to Anne). “We got your sister’s invitation yesterday, and I heard Frederick got one too, even though I didn’t see it; and you’re free, right, Frederick, just like us?”
Captain Wentworth was folding up a letter in great haste, and either could not or would not answer fully.
Captain Wentworth was quickly folding a letter and either couldn’t or didn’t want to respond completely.
“Yes,” said he, “very true; here we separate, but Harville and I shall soon be after you; that is, Harville, if you are ready, I am in half a minute. I know you will not be sorry to be off. I shall be at your service in half a minute.”
“Yes,” he said, “that’s right; we’re parting ways here, but Harville and I will catch up with you soon. That is, Harville, if you’re ready, I’ll be ready in just a moment. I know you’ll be glad to leave. I’ll be at your service in a minute.”
Mrs Croft left them, and Captain Wentworth, having sealed his letter with great rapidity, was indeed ready, and had even a hurried, agitated air, which shewed impatience to be gone. Anne knew not how to understand it. She had the kindest “Good morning, God bless you!” from Captain Harville, but from him not a word, nor a look! He had passed out of the room without a look!
Mrs. Croft left them, and Captain Wentworth, quickly sealing his letter, was clearly ready to go, even showing a hurried, anxious vibe that showed he wanted to leave. Anne didn’t know how to interpret this. She received the warmest “Good morning, God bless you!” from Captain Harville, but from him, there was nothing—no words, no glance! He had exited the room without a look back!
She had only time, however, to move closer to the table where he had been writing, when footsteps were heard returning; the door opened, it was himself. He begged their pardon, but he had forgotten his gloves, and instantly crossing the room to the writing table, he drew out a letter from under the scattered paper, placed it before Anne with eyes of glowing entreaty fixed on her for a time, and hastily collecting his gloves, was again out of the room, almost before Mrs Musgrove was aware of his being in it: the work of an instant!
She only had time to step closer to the table where he had been writing when footsteps were heard coming back; the door opened, and it was him. He apologized, saying he had forgotten his gloves, and quickly crossed the room to the writing table. He pulled out a letter from under the messy papers, placed it in front of Anne, and looked at her with intense pleading for a moment. Then, he hurriedly grabbed his gloves and was out of the room almost before Mrs. Musgrove realized he was there: it happened in an instant!
The revolution which one instant had made in Anne, was almost beyond expression. The letter, with a direction hardly legible, to “Miss A. E.—,” was evidently the one which he had been folding so hastily. While supposed to be writing only to Captain Benwick, he had been also addressing her! On the contents of that letter depended all which this world could do for her. Anything was possible, anything might be defied rather than suspense. Mrs Musgrove had little arrangements of her own at her own table; to their protection she must trust, and sinking into the chair which he had occupied, succeeding to the very spot where he had leaned and written, her eyes devoured the following words:
The sudden change in Anne was almost indescribable. The letter, with a barely legible address to “Miss A. E.—,” was clearly the one he had been folding so quickly. While he seemed to be writing only to Captain Benwick, he had also been addressing her! Everything she could hope for depended on the contents of that letter. Anything was possible; she would rather face the unknown than endure suspense. Mrs. Musgrove had her own little plans at her own table; she had to trust in their protection. Sinking into the chair he had occupied, settling into the exact spot where he had leaned and written, her eyes eagerly scanned the following words:
“I can listen no longer in silence. I must speak to you by such means as are within my reach. You pierce my soul. I am half agony, half hope. Tell me not that I am too late, that such precious feelings are gone for ever. I offer myself to you again with a heart even more your own than when you almost broke it, eight years and a half ago. Dare not say that man forgets sooner than woman, that his love has an earlier death. I have loved none but you. Unjust I may have been, weak and resentful I have been, but never inconstant. You alone have brought me to Bath. For you alone, I think and plan. Have you not seen this? Can you fail to have understood my wishes? I had not waited even these ten days, could I have read your feelings, as I think you must have penetrated mine. I can hardly write. I am every instant hearing something which overpowers me. You sink your voice, but I can distinguish the tones of that voice when they would be lost on others. Too good, too excellent creature! You do us justice, indeed. You do believe that there is true attachment and constancy among men. Believe it to be most fervent, most undeviating, in
“I can’t stay silent any longer. I have to talk to you in whatever way I can. You touch my soul. I’m feeling both agony and hope. Please don’t tell me it’s too late, that these precious feelings are gone forever. I offer myself to you again with a heart that is even more yours than it was when you almost broke it eight and a half years ago. Don’t dare say that men forget faster than women, or that their love dies sooner. I have loved no one but you. I may have been unfair, weak, and resentful, but I have never been unfaithful. You are the only reason I came to Bath. For you alone, I think and plan. Haven’t you seen it? Surely, you must understand my feelings. If I could have read yours as I believe you’ve read mine, I wouldn't have waited even these ten days. I can hardly write. I feel overwhelmed at every moment. You lower your voice, but I can still recognize its tone when it would be missed by others. You are too good, too wonderful! You really do us justice, don’t you? You believe that there is true attachment and loyalty among men. Know that it is most fervent and most unwavering in
F. W.
F. W.
“I must go, uncertain of my fate; but I shall return hither, or follow your party, as soon as possible. A word, a look, will be enough to decide whether I enter your father’s house this evening or never.”
“I have to go, not knowing what will happen to me; but I will come back here, or join your group, as soon as I can. Just a word, just a glance, will determine if I enter your father's house tonight or never.”
Such a letter was not to be soon recovered from. Half an hour’s solitude and reflection might have tranquillized her; but the ten minutes only which now passed before she was interrupted, with all the restraints of her situation, could do nothing towards tranquillity. Every moment rather brought fresh agitation. It was overpowering happiness. And before she was beyond the first stage of full sensation, Charles, Mary, and Henrietta all came in.
Such a letter was not something she would get over easily. Thirty minutes alone to think might have calmed her down, but the ten minutes that passed before she was interrupted, along with all the pressures of her situation, did nothing to bring her peace. Instead, every moment added to her anxiety. It was overwhelming joy. And before she could even process her intense feelings, Charles, Mary, and Henrietta all walked in.
The absolute necessity of seeming like herself produced then an immediate struggle; but after a while she could do no more. She began not to understand a word they said, and was obliged to plead indisposition and excuse herself. They could then see that she looked very ill, were shocked and concerned, and would not stir without her for the world. This was dreadful. Would they only have gone away, and left her in the quiet possession of that room it would have been her cure; but to have them all standing or waiting around her was distracting, and in desperation, she said she would go home.
The urgent need to seem like herself led to an immediate struggle; but after a while, she could do no more. She started to understand nothing they said and had to make an excuse about not feeling well. They noticed she looked very sick, grew shocked and worried, and said they wouldn't leave her side for anything. This was awful. If only they had left her alone in that room, it would have helped her; but having them all around her was distracting, and in desperation, she announced she would go home.
“By all means, my dear,” cried Mrs Musgrove, “go home directly, and take care of yourself, that you may be fit for the evening. I wish Sarah was here to doctor you, but I am no doctor myself. Charles, ring and order a chair. She must not walk.”
“Of course, my dear,” exclaimed Mrs. Musgrove, “go home right away and take care of yourself so that you’re ready for the evening. I wish Sarah were here to help you, but I’m not a doctor. Charles, call for a chair. She shouldn’t have to walk.”
But the chair would never do. Worse than all! To lose the possibility of speaking two words to Captain Wentworth in the course of her quiet, solitary progress up the town (and she felt almost certain of meeting him) could not be borne. The chair was earnestly protested against, and Mrs Musgrove, who thought only of one sort of illness, having assured herself with some anxiety, that there had been no fall in the case; that Anne had not at any time lately slipped down, and got a blow on her head; that she was perfectly convinced of having had no fall; could part with her cheerfully, and depend on finding her better at night.
But the chair just wouldn’t do. It was the worst! The thought of not being able to say even a couple of words to Captain Wentworth on her quiet, solitary stroll through town (and she was nearly certain she'd run into him) was unbearable. She firmly protested against the chair, and Mrs. Musgrove, who only considered one kind of illness, had assured herself with some worry that there had been no fall in this case; that Anne hadn’t slipped and hit her head recently; and that she was completely sure there had been no fall at all; therefore, she could let her go with a clear conscience, expecting to find her feeling better by evening.
Anxious to omit no possible precaution, Anne struggled, and said—
Anxious not to overlook any precaution, Anne struggled and said—
“I am afraid, ma’am, that it is not perfectly understood. Pray be so good as to mention to the other gentlemen that we hope to see your whole party this evening. I am afraid there had been some mistake; and I wish you particularly to assure Captain Harville and Captain Wentworth, that we hope to see them both.”
“I’m sorry, ma’am, but it’s not completely clear. Please kindly let the other gentlemen know that we hope to see your entire group this evening. I think there may have been some misunderstanding; and I’d particularly like you to assure Captain Harville and Captain Wentworth that we look forward to seeing them both.”
“Oh! my dear, it is quite understood, I give you my word. Captain Harville has no thought but of going.”
“Oh! my dear, it's completely clear, I promise you. Captain Harville has no intention other than to leave.”
“Do you think so? But I am afraid; and I should be so very sorry. Will you promise me to mention it, when you see them again? You will see them both this morning, I dare say. Do promise me.”
“Do you really think so? But I’m worried, and I would be really upset. Can you promise me to bring it up when you see them again? You’ll probably see them both this morning. Please promise me.”
“To be sure I will, if you wish it. Charles, if you see Captain Harville anywhere, remember to give Miss Anne’s message. But indeed, my dear, you need not be uneasy. Captain Harville holds himself quite engaged, I’ll answer for it; and Captain Wentworth the same, I dare say.”
"Sure, I will, if that's what you want. Charles, if you run into Captain Harville, make sure to pass on Miss Anne’s message. But honestly, my dear, you don’t need to worry. Captain Harville is definitely occupied, I can promise you that; and I bet Captain Wentworth is too."
Anne could do no more; but her heart prophesied some mischance to damp the perfection of her felicity. It could not be very lasting, however. Even if he did not come to Camden Place himself, it would be in her power to send an intelligible sentence by Captain Harville. Another momentary vexation occurred. Charles, in his real concern and good nature, would go home with her; there was no preventing him. This was almost cruel. But she could not be long ungrateful; he was sacrificing an engagement at a gunsmith’s, to be of use to her; and she set off with him, with no feeling but gratitude apparent.
Anne could do no more; but her heart sensed that something might spoil the perfection of her happiness. Still, it couldn't last forever. Even if he didn't come to Camden Place himself, she could still send a clear message through Captain Harville. Then another small annoyance happened. Charles, out of genuine concern and kindness, insisted on going home with her; there was no way to stop him. This felt almost cruel. But she couldn't remain ungrateful for long; he was giving up his plans at the gunsmith’s to help her, and she set off with him, showing only gratitude.
They were on Union Street, when a quicker step behind, a something of familiar sound, gave her two moments’ preparation for the sight of Captain Wentworth. He joined them; but, as if irresolute whether to join or to pass on, said nothing, only looked. Anne could command herself enough to receive that look, and not repulsively. The cheeks which had been pale now glowed, and the movements which had hesitated were decided. He walked by her side. Presently, struck by a sudden thought, Charles said—
They were on Union Street when a faster pace behind them, a sound she recognized, gave her a couple of moments to prepare for seeing Captain Wentworth. He joined them but seemed unsure whether to stay or move on, so he didn’t say anything, just looked. Anne managed to hold herself together enough to accept that look without being cold. Her cheeks, previously pale, now flushed, and her hesitant movements became more confident. He walked beside her. After a moment, Charles suddenly said—
“Captain Wentworth, which way are you going? Only to Gay Street, or farther up the town?”
“Captain Wentworth, where are you headed? Just to Gay Street, or further into town?”
“I hardly know,” replied Captain Wentworth, surprised.
“I really don’t know,” replied Captain Wentworth, surprised.
“Are you going as high as Belmont? Are you going near Camden Place? Because, if you are, I shall have no scruple in asking you to take my place, and give Anne your arm to her father’s door. She is rather done for this morning, and must not go so far without help, and I ought to be at that fellow’s in the Market Place. He promised me the sight of a capital gun he is just going to send off; said he would keep it unpacked to the last possible moment, that I might see it; and if I do not turn back now, I have no chance. By his description, a good deal like the second size double-barrel of mine, which you shot with one day round Winthrop.”
“Are you heading up to Belmont? Are you going near Camden Place? Because if you are, I won't hesitate to ask you to take my spot and give Anne your arm to her dad’s door. She’s a bit worn out this morning and shouldn’t go that far without support, and I need to be at that guy’s place in the Market Place. He promised I could check out a great gun he’s about to ship out; he said he would leave it unpacked until the last minute so I could see it. If I don’t leave now, I won’t get the chance. From his description, it’s a lot like my second size double-barrel that you shot with one day around Winthrop.”
There could not be an objection. There could be only the most proper alacrity, a most obliging compliance for public view; and smiles reined in and spirits dancing in private rapture. In half a minute Charles was at the bottom of Union Street again, and the other two proceeding together: and soon words enough had passed between them to decide their direction towards the comparatively quiet and retired gravel walk, where the power of conversation would make the present hour a blessing indeed, and prepare it for all the immortality which the happiest recollections of their own future lives could bestow. There they exchanged again those feelings and those promises which had once before seemed to secure everything, but which had been followed by so many, many years of division and estrangement. There they returned again into the past, more exquisitely happy, perhaps, in their re-union, than when it had been first projected; more tender, more tried, more fixed in a knowledge of each other’s character, truth, and attachment; more equal to act, more justified in acting. And there, as they slowly paced the gradual ascent, heedless of every group around them, seeing neither sauntering politicians, bustling housekeepers, flirting girls, nor nursery-maids and children, they could indulge in those retrospections and acknowledgements, and especially in those explanations of what had directly preceded the present moment, which were so poignant and so ceaseless in interest. All the little variations of the last week were gone through; and of yesterday and to-day there could scarcely be an end.
There couldn’t be any objections. There could only be the most proper eagerness, a willing compliance for show; and smiles held back while their spirits soared in private joy. In less than a minute, Charles was back at the bottom of Union Street, and the other two walked together: soon enough, they exchanged enough words to decide to head towards the relatively quiet and secluded gravel path, where the power of conversation would truly make the moment a blessing and prepare it for the lasting joy that the happiest memories of their future lives could offer. There, they shared once more those feelings and promises that had once seemed to secure everything, but which had been followed by so many years of separation and distance. They returned to the past, perhaps even more blissfully happy in their reunion than when their plans had first begun; more tender, more tested, more certain of each other’s character, truth, and commitment; more ready to act, more justified in taking action. As they slowly walked up the gentle slope, oblivious to the groups around them, not noticing leisurely politicians, busy housekeepers, flirty girls, or nannies with children, they indulged in those reflections and acknowledgments, especially the explanations of what had just happened before this moment, which were so moving and endlessly interesting. They went through all the little changes of the past week; and there could hardly be an end to the tales from yesterday and today.
She had not mistaken him. Jealousy of Mr Elliot had been the retarding weight, the doubt, the torment. That had begun to operate in the very hour of first meeting her in Bath; that had returned, after a short suspension, to ruin the concert; and that had influenced him in everything he had said and done, or omitted to say and do, in the last four-and-twenty hours. It had been gradually yielding to the better hopes which her looks, or words, or actions occasionally encouraged; it had been vanquished at last by those sentiments and those tones which had reached him while she talked with Captain Harville; and under the irresistible governance of which he had seized a sheet of paper, and poured out his feelings.
She wasn't wrong about him. Jealousy of Mr. Elliot had been the heavy burden, the doubt, the agony. It had started to affect him the moment he first met her in Bath; it had come back, after a brief pause, to ruin the concert; and it had influenced everything he said and did, or didn’t say and do, in the last twenty-four hours. Slowly, it had been giving way to the better hopes that her looks, words, or actions occasionally inspired; it had finally been defeated by the feelings and tones he experienced while she was talking with Captain Harville; and under the overwhelming influence of those feelings, he grabbed a sheet of paper and poured out his emotions.
Of what he had then written, nothing was to be retracted or qualified. He persisted in having loved none but her. She had never been supplanted. He never even believed himself to see her equal. Thus much indeed he was obliged to acknowledge: that he had been constant unconsciously, nay unintentionally; that he had meant to forget her, and believed it to be done. He had imagined himself indifferent, when he had only been angry; and he had been unjust to her merits, because he had been a sufferer from them. Her character was now fixed on his mind as perfection itself, maintaining the loveliest medium of fortitude and gentleness; but he was obliged to acknowledge that only at Uppercross had he learnt to do her justice, and only at Lyme had he begun to understand himself. At Lyme, he had received lessons of more than one sort. The passing admiration of Mr Elliot had at least roused him, and the scenes on the Cobb and at Captain Harville’s had fixed her superiority.
Nothing he had written then would be taken back or qualified. He stuck to his claim that he had loved no one but her. She had never been replaced. He didn’t even think he could find someone equal to her. He had to admit that he had been constant without even realizing it, even unintentionally; he had meant to forget her and thought he had succeeded. He had convinced himself that he was indifferent when he was really just angry, and he had been unfair to her qualities because he had suffered from them. Her character was firmly set in his mind as perfection, embodying a beautiful balance of strength and kindness; but he had to concede that it was only at Uppercross that he had learned to appreciate her, and only at Lyme that he had started to understand himself. At Lyme, he had gained lessons of more than one kind. Mr. Elliot's brief admiration had at least awakened him, and the events on the Cobb and at Captain Harville’s had confirmed her superiority.
In his preceding attempts to attach himself to Louisa Musgrove (the attempts of angry pride), he protested that he had for ever felt it to be impossible; that he had not cared, could not care, for Louisa; though till that day, till the leisure for reflection which followed it, he had not understood the perfect excellence of the mind with which Louisa’s could so ill bear a comparison, or the perfect unrivalled hold it possessed over his own. There, he had learnt to distinguish between the steadiness of principle and the obstinacy of self-will, between the darings of heedlessness and the resolution of a collected mind. There he had seen everything to exalt in his estimation the woman he had lost; and there begun to deplore the pride, the folly, the madness of resentment, which had kept him from trying to regain her when thrown in his way.
In his earlier attempts to connect with Louisa Musgrove (motivated by angry pride), he claimed that he had always felt it was impossible; that he didn't care, and couldn't care, for Louisa. However, until that day, until he had the time to reflect afterward, he hadn't realized the incredible superiority of the mind that Louisa's could hardly be compared to, or the unmatched grip it had on his own. In that moment, he learned to differentiate between the strength of principle and the stubbornness of self-will, between the recklessness of thoughtlessness and the determination of a focused mind. There, he had seen everything that elevated his opinion of the woman he had lost; and that was when he began to regret the pride, the foolishness, the madness of resentment that had prevented him from trying to win her back when the opportunity arose.
From that period his penance had become severe. He had no sooner been free from the horror and remorse attending the first few days of Louisa’s accident, no sooner begun to feel himself alive again, than he had begun to feel himself, though alive, not at liberty.
From that time, his punishment had gotten intense. As soon as he was free from the horror and guilt that came in the first few days after Louisa's accident, and as soon as he started to feel like himself again, he realized that even though he was alive, he wasn't truly free.
“I found,” said he, “that I was considered by Harville an engaged man! That neither Harville nor his wife entertained a doubt of our mutual attachment. I was startled and shocked. To a degree, I could contradict this instantly; but, when I began to reflect that others might have felt the same—her own family, nay, perhaps herself—I was no longer at my own disposal. I was hers in honour if she wished it. I had been unguarded. I had not thought seriously on this subject before. I had not considered that my excessive intimacy must have its danger of ill consequence in many ways; and that I had no right to be trying whether I could attach myself to either of the girls, at the risk of raising even an unpleasant report, were there no other ill effects. I had been grossly wrong, and must abide the consequences.”
“I found,” he said, “that Harville considered me to be engaged! That neither Harville nor his wife had any doubt about our mutual feelings. I was taken aback and disturbed. I could easily deny this right away; but as I started to think that others might have seen it the same way—her family, and maybe even her—I realized I no longer had control over the situation. I was bound to her in honor if she wanted it. I had been careless. I hadn't really thought seriously about this before. I hadn’t considered that being so close could lead to all sorts of problems; and that I shouldn’t be testing whether I could form a connection with either of the girls, especially if it risked causing even an awkward rumor, not to mention other negative consequences. I had been terribly wrong, and now I had to face the fallout.”
He found too late, in short, that he had entangled himself; and that precisely as he became fully satisfied of his not caring for Louisa at all, he must regard himself as bound to her, if her sentiments for him were what the Harvilles supposed. It determined him to leave Lyme, and await her complete recovery elsewhere. He would gladly weaken, by any fair means, whatever feelings or speculations concerning him might exist; and he went, therefore, to his brother’s, meaning after a while to return to Kellynch, and act as circumstances might require.
He realized too late that he had gotten himself stuck; and just when he was completely sure that he didn’t have feelings for Louisa at all, he felt obligated to her if her feelings for him were what the Harvilles thought. This motivated him to leave Lyme and wait for her to fully recover somewhere else. He wanted to diminish, by any fair means, any feelings or thoughts about him that might exist; so he went to his brother’s place, intending to return to Kellynch after some time and act according to the situation.
“I was six weeks with Edward,” said he, “and saw him happy. I could have no other pleasure. I deserved none. He enquired after you very particularly; asked even if you were personally altered, little suspecting that to my eye you could never alter.”
“I spent six weeks with Edward,” he said, “and saw him happy. I couldn't find any other joy in that. I didn’t deserve any. He asked about you in great detail; he even wanted to know if you had changed at all, not realizing that to me, you could never change.”
Anne smiled, and let it pass. It was too pleasing a blunder for a reproach. It is something for a woman to be assured, in her eight-and-twentieth year, that she has not lost one charm of earlier youth; but the value of such homage was inexpressibly increased to Anne, by comparing it with former words, and feeling it to be the result, not the cause of a revival of his warm attachment.
Anne smiled and let it go. It was too delightful a mistake to scold him over. For a woman at twenty-eight, it's a comfort to know she hasn't lost any of her youthful charm; but the significance of such admiration was even greater for Anne when she compared it to what had been said before and realized it was the result, not the cause, of a rekindling of his deep affection.
He had remained in Shropshire, lamenting the blindness of his own pride, and the blunders of his own calculations, till at once released from Louisa by the astonishing and felicitous intelligence of her engagement with Benwick.
He had stayed in Shropshire, regretting the blindness of his own pride and the mistakes in his own judgments, until he was suddenly freed from Louisa by the surprising and fortunate news of her engagement to Benwick.
“Here,” said he, “ended the worst of my state; for now I could at least put myself in the way of happiness; I could exert myself; I could do something. But to be waiting so long in inaction, and waiting only for evil, had been dreadful. Within the first five minutes I said, ‘I will be at Bath on Wednesday,’ and I was. Was it unpardonable to think it worth my while to come? and to arrive with some degree of hope? You were single. It was possible that you might retain the feelings of the past, as I did; and one encouragement happened to be mine. I could never doubt that you would be loved and sought by others, but I knew to a certainty that you had refused one man, at least, of better pretensions than myself; and I could not help often saying, ‘Was this for me?’”
“Here,” he said, “was the end of my worst state; because now I could at least pursue happiness; I could take action; I could do something. But waiting in inaction for so long, just for bad things to happen, had been terrible. Within the first five minutes, I thought, ‘I will be in Bath on Wednesday,’ and I was. Was it unreasonable to think it was worth my time to come? And to arrive with some hope? You were single. It was possible that you still felt something for the past, just like I did; and there was one reason I felt encouraged. I could never doubt that you would be loved and pursued by others, but I knew for sure that you had turned down at least one man who was more qualified than me; and I often found myself wondering, ‘Was this for me?’”
Their first meeting in Milsom Street afforded much to be said, but the concert still more. That evening seemed to be made up of exquisite moments. The moment of her stepping forward in the Octagon Room to speak to him: the moment of Mr Elliot’s appearing and tearing her away, and one or two subsequent moments, marked by returning hope or increasing despondency, were dwelt on with energy.
Their first meeting on Milsom Street gave them a lot to talk about, but the concert was even more significant. That evening felt like a collection of perfect moments. The moment when she stepped forward in the Octagon Room to talk to him; the moment Mr. Elliot showed up and pulled her away; and a few other moments filled with either hope or growing despair were recounted with passion.
“To see you,” cried he, “in the midst of those who could not be my well-wishers; to see your cousin close by you, conversing and smiling, and feel all the horrible eligibilities and proprieties of the match! To consider it as the certain wish of every being who could hope to influence you! Even if your own feelings were reluctant or indifferent, to consider what powerful supports would be his! Was it not enough to make the fool of me which I appeared? How could I look on without agony? Was not the very sight of the friend who sat behind you, was not the recollection of what had been, the knowledge of her influence, the indelible, immoveable impression of what persuasion had once done—was it not all against me?”
"Seeing you," he exclaimed, "surrounded by those who couldn't possibly care for me; seeing your cousin right next to you, chatting and smiling, while I felt all the terrible possibilities and expectations of the match! To think that it was the obvious desire of everyone who could have any sway over you! Even if you personally didn’t feel anything special, just imagining how strong his support would be! Wasn't it enough to make me look like a fool? How could I watch without feeling agony? Wasn't the very sight of the friend sitting behind you, the memories of what we had, the awareness of her influence, the lasting, unchangeable effect of the persuasion she once had—wasn't it all stacked against me?"
“You should have distinguished,” replied Anne. “You should not have suspected me now; the case is so different, and my age is so different. If I was wrong in yielding to persuasion once, remember that it was to persuasion exerted on the side of safety, not of risk. When I yielded, I thought it was to duty, but no duty could be called in aid here. In marrying a man indifferent to me, all risk would have been incurred, and all duty violated.”
“You should have recognized,” Anne replied. “You shouldn’t have doubted me now; the situation is so different, and I’m at a different stage in my life. If I was mistaken in giving in to persuasion before, remember it was to protect myself, not take a chance. When I gave in, I believed it was for a sense of duty, but there’s no duty that applies here. Marrying a man who doesn’t care for me would have meant taking a huge risk and going against all sense of duty.”
“Perhaps I ought to have reasoned thus,” he replied, “but I could not. I could not derive benefit from the late knowledge I had acquired of your character. I could not bring it into play; it was overwhelmed, buried, lost in those earlier feelings which I had been smarting under year after year. I could think of you only as one who had yielded, who had given me up, who had been influenced by any one rather than by me. I saw you with the very person who had guided you in that year of misery. I had no reason to believe her of less authority now. The force of habit was to be added.”
“Maybe I should have thought like this,” he replied, “but I couldn’t. I couldn’t make use of the new understanding I had gained about your character. I couldn’t apply it; it was overwhelmed, buried, lost in those earlier feelings that I had been suffering from year after year. I could only think of you as someone who had given in, who had let me go, who had been influenced by anyone but me. I saw you with the very person who had guided you during that year of misery. I had no reason to believe she had less influence now. The power of habit was another factor.”
“I should have thought,” said Anne, “that my manner to yourself might have spared you much or all of this.”
"I should have considered," said Anne, "that the way I've treated you could have saved you from a lot, if not all, of this."
“No, no! your manner might be only the ease which your engagement to another man would give. I left you in this belief; and yet, I was determined to see you again. My spirits rallied with the morning, and I felt that I had still a motive for remaining here.”
“No, no! Your demeanor might just be the confidence that comes from being engaged to someone else. I left you thinking that, yet I was set on seeing you again. My spirits lifted with the morning, and I felt I still had a reason to stay here.”
At last Anne was at home again, and happier than any one in that house could have conceived. All the surprise and suspense, and every other painful part of the morning dissipated by this conversation, she re-entered the house so happy as to be obliged to find an alloy in some momentary apprehensions of its being impossible to last. An interval of meditation, serious and grateful, was the best corrective of everything dangerous in such high-wrought felicity; and she went to her room, and grew steadfast and fearless in the thankfulness of her enjoyment.
At last, Anne was back home, happier than anyone in that house could have imagined. All the surprise and tension, along with every other stressful part of the morning, faded away with this conversation. She entered the house so blissful that she had to check herself with some fleeting worries about how it couldn't possibly last. A period of serious and grateful reflection was the best way to ground herself amidst such intense happiness, and she went to her room, becoming steady and unafraid in her sense of gratitude for her joy.
The evening came, the drawing-rooms were lighted up, the company assembled. It was but a card party, it was but a mixture of those who had never met before, and those who met too often; a commonplace business, too numerous for intimacy, too small for variety; but Anne had never found an evening shorter. Glowing and lovely in sensibility and happiness, and more generally admired than she thought about or cared for, she had cheerful or forbearing feelings for every creature around her. Mr Elliot was there; she avoided, but she could pity him. The Wallises, she had amusement in understanding them. Lady Dalrymple and Miss Carteret—they would soon be innoxious cousins to her. She cared not for Mrs Clay, and had nothing to blush for in the public manners of her father and sister. With the Musgroves, there was the happy chat of perfect ease; with Captain Harville, the kind-hearted intercourse of brother and sister; with Lady Russell, attempts at conversation, which a delicious consciousness cut short; with Admiral and Mrs Croft, everything of peculiar cordiality and fervent interest, which the same consciousness sought to conceal; and with Captain Wentworth, some moments of communications continually occurring, and always the hope of more, and always the knowledge of his being there.
The evening arrived, the living rooms were lit up, and the guests gathered. It was just a card game, a mix of people who had never met before and those who saw each other too often; a typical event, too many for close connections, too few for excitement; but Anne had never felt an evening pass so quickly. Radiant and full of joy, more admired than she realized or cared about, she felt cheerful or tolerant toward everyone around her. Mr. Elliot was there; she kept her distance, but she could still feel sorry for him. The Wallises amused her as she figured them out. Lady Dalrymple and Miss Carteret—they would soon feel like harmless cousins to her. She didn’t care for Mrs. Clay and felt no shame about her father and sister's public behavior. With the Musgroves, there was the joyful chat of complete comfort; with Captain Harville, the kind-hearted interactions of siblings; with Lady Russell, attempts at conversation that were repeatedly interrupted by a delightful awareness; with Admiral and Mrs. Croft, everything was filled with warmth and genuine interest, which she tried to hide; and with Captain Wentworth, moments of ongoing communication and the constant hope for more, along with the simple knowledge of his presence.
It was in one of these short meetings, each apparently occupied in admiring a fine display of greenhouse plants, that she said—
It was during one of these brief meetings, each seemingly focused on admiring a stunning array of greenhouse plants, that she said—
“I have been thinking over the past, and trying impartially to judge of the right and wrong, I mean with regard to myself; and I must believe that I was right, much as I suffered from it, that I was perfectly right in being guided by the friend whom you will love better than you do now. To me, she was in the place of a parent. Do not mistake me, however. I am not saying that she did not err in her advice. It was, perhaps, one of those cases in which advice is good or bad only as the event decides; and for myself, I certainly never should, in any circumstance of tolerable similarity, give such advice. But I mean, that I was right in submitting to her, and that if I had done otherwise, I should have suffered more in continuing the engagement than I did even in giving it up, because I should have suffered in my conscience. I have now, as far as such a sentiment is allowable in human nature, nothing to reproach myself with; and if I mistake not, a strong sense of duty is no bad part of a woman’s portion.”
“I’ve been reflecting on the past and trying to judge the right and wrong fairly, especially when it comes to myself. I truly believe I was right, despite how much I suffered, to follow the guidance of the friend you will come to love even more than you do now. To me, she was like a parent. But don’t get me wrong; I’m not suggesting she didn’t make mistakes in her advice. It was probably one of those situations where advice is only deemed good or bad based on the outcome. Personally, I would never give that kind of advice in any similar situation. What I mean is, I was correct in choosing to listen to her, and had I chosen differently, I would have faced more suffering in keeping the engagement than I did in letting it go, because I would have felt guilty in my conscience. Right now, as much as human nature allows, I have nothing to blame myself for; and if I’m not mistaken, a strong sense of duty is an important part of a woman’s role.”
He looked at her, looked at Lady Russell, and looking again at her, replied, as if in cool deliberation—
He looked at her, looked at Lady Russell, and after looking at her again, replied, as if in calm thought—
“Not yet. But there are hopes of her being forgiven in time. I trust to being in charity with her soon. But I too have been thinking over the past, and a question has suggested itself, whether there may not have been one person more my enemy even than that lady? My own self. Tell me if, when I returned to England in the year eight, with a few thousand pounds, and was posted into the Laconia, if I had then written to you, would you have answered my letter? Would you, in short, have renewed the engagement then?”
“Not yet. But I hope she’ll be forgiven eventually. I’m confident I’ll be on good terms with her soon. However, I’ve also been reflecting on the past, and a question has come to mind: could there have been someone even more of an enemy to me than that lady? Myself. Tell me, when I returned to England in '08 with a few thousand pounds and was assigned to the Laconia, if I had written to you back then, would you have replied to my letter? Would you have, in fact, renewed our engagement at that time?”
“Would I!” was all her answer; but the accent was decisive enough.
“Absolutely!” was all she said; but the tone was clear enough.
“Good God!” he cried, “you would! It is not that I did not think of it, or desire it, as what could alone crown all my other success; but I was proud, too proud to ask again. I did not understand you. I shut my eyes, and would not understand you, or do you justice. This is a recollection which ought to make me forgive every one sooner than myself. Six years of separation and suffering might have been spared. It is a sort of pain, too, which is new to me. I have been used to the gratification of believing myself to earn every blessing that I enjoyed. I have valued myself on honourable toils and just rewards. Like other great men under reverses,” he added, with a smile. “I must endeavour to subdue my mind to my fortune. I must learn to brook being happier than I deserve.”
“Good God!” he exclaimed, “you would! It’s not that I didn’t think of it or want it, as it could have been the one thing to complete all my other successes; but I was proud, too proud to ask again. I didn’t understand you. I closed my eyes and refused to understand you or give you what you deserved. This is a memory that should make me forgive everyone faster than myself. Six years of separation and suffering could have been avoided. It’s a kind of pain that’s new to me. I’ve always taken comfort in believing that I earned every blessing I enjoyed. I’ve prided myself on honorable work and fair rewards. Like other great men facing setbacks,” he added with a smile. “I must try to adjust my mindset to my circumstances. I need to learn to accept being happier than I think I deserve.”
CHAPTER XXIV.
Who can be in doubt of what followed? When any two young people take it into their heads to marry, they are pretty sure by perseverance to carry their point, be they ever so poor, or ever so imprudent, or ever so little likely to be necessary to each other’s ultimate comfort. This may be bad morality to conclude with, but I believe it to be truth; and if such parties succeed, how should a Captain Wentworth and an Anne Elliot, with the advantage of maturity of mind, consciousness of right, and one independent fortune between them, fail of bearing down every opposition? They might in fact, have borne down a great deal more than they met with, for there was little to distress them beyond the want of graciousness and warmth. Sir Walter made no objection, and Elizabeth did nothing worse than look cold and unconcerned. Captain Wentworth, with five-and-twenty thousand pounds, and as high in his profession as merit and activity could place him, was no longer nobody. He was now esteemed quite worthy to address the daughter of a foolish, spendthrift baronet, who had not had principle or sense enough to maintain himself in the situation in which Providence had placed him, and who could give his daughter at present but a small part of the share of ten thousand pounds which must be hers hereafter.
Who can doubt what happened next? When two young people decide they want to get married, they're usually determined enough to make it happen, no matter how poor, reckless, or unlikely they are to truly need each other for happiness. This might not be the best moral conclusion, but I believe it's true; and if such couples can succeed, how could Captain Wentworth and Anne Elliot, with their maturity, sense of right, and one independent fortune between them, not overcome any obstacles? In fact, they could have faced much more than they did, as there was little to trouble them apart from a lack of warmth and kindness. Sir Walter raised no objections, and Elizabeth only responded with a cold and indifferent demeanor. Captain Wentworth, with twenty-five thousand pounds and climbing the ranks in his profession through hard work and talent, was no longer a nobody. He was now seen as perfectly worthy of courting the daughter of a foolish, spendthrift baronet, who lacked the principles or sense to maintain his position in life and could currently offer his daughter only a small portion of the ten thousand pounds that would eventually be hers.
Sir Walter, indeed, though he had no affection for Anne, and no vanity flattered, to make him really happy on the occasion, was very far from thinking it a bad match for her. On the contrary, when he saw more of Captain Wentworth, saw him repeatedly by daylight, and eyed him well, he was very much struck by his personal claims, and felt that his superiority of appearance might be not unfairly balanced against her superiority of rank; and all this, assisted by his well-sounding name, enabled Sir Walter at last to prepare his pen, with a very good grace, for the insertion of the marriage in the volume of honour.
Sir Walter, although he had no feelings for Anne and wasn't flattered enough to be truly happy about the situation, didn’t think it was a bad match for her. On the contrary, after seeing more of Captain Wentworth, noticing him in daylight, and observing him closely, he was quite impressed by Wentworth's looks. He felt that Wentworth's attractiveness could somewhat balance out Anne's higher social status; and all of this, along with his impressive name, finally led Sir Walter to get his pen ready, quite gracefully, to add the marriage to his book of honor.
The only one among them, whose opposition of feeling could excite any serious anxiety was Lady Russell. Anne knew that Lady Russell must be suffering some pain in understanding and relinquishing Mr Elliot, and be making some struggles to become truly acquainted with, and do justice to Captain Wentworth. This however was what Lady Russell had now to do. She must learn to feel that she had been mistaken with regard to both; that she had been unfairly influenced by appearances in each; that because Captain Wentworth’s manners had not suited her own ideas, she had been too quick in suspecting them to indicate a character of dangerous impetuosity; and that because Mr Elliot’s manners had precisely pleased her in their propriety and correctness, their general politeness and suavity, she had been too quick in receiving them as the certain result of the most correct opinions and well-regulated mind. There was nothing less for Lady Russell to do, than to admit that she had been pretty completely wrong, and to take up a new set of opinions and of hopes.
The only one among them whose strong feelings could cause any real concern was Lady Russell. Anne understood that Lady Russell must be struggling with the emotional pain of letting go of Mr. Elliot while trying to genuinely appreciate and acknowledge Captain Wentworth. This was what Lady Russell had to do now. She needed to realize that she had been mistaken about both men; that she had let appearances sway her judgment with each of them; that because Captain Wentworth's behavior didn't align with her expectations, she had prematurely judged him as dangerously impulsive; and that because Mr. Elliot's demeanor had pleased her with its correctness and politeness, she had too quickly accepted it as a sign of a well-regulated mind and sound opinions. Lady Russell had nothing less to do than acknowledge that she had been largely wrong and to adopt a new perspective and set of hopes.
There is a quickness of perception in some, a nicety in the discernment of character, a natural penetration, in short, which no experience in others can equal, and Lady Russell had been less gifted in this part of understanding than her young friend. But she was a very good woman, and if her second object was to be sensible and well-judging, her first was to see Anne happy. She loved Anne better than she loved her own abilities; and when the awkwardness of the beginning was over, found little hardship in attaching herself as a mother to the man who was securing the happiness of her other child.
Some people have a quick ability to understand others, a keen insight into character, a natural intuition that others can't match, and Lady Russell wasn't as skilled in this regard as her young friend. However, she was a genuinely good person, and while her secondary goal was to be sensible and wise, her primary goal was to see Anne happy. She cared for Anne more than she valued her own skills; and once the initial awkwardness faded, she found it easy to connect as a mother to the man who was bringing happiness to her other child.
Of all the family, Mary was probably the one most immediately gratified by the circumstance. It was creditable to have a sister married, and she might flatter herself with having been greatly instrumental to the connexion, by keeping Anne with her in the autumn; and as her own sister must be better than her husband’s sisters, it was very agreeable that Captain Wentworth should be a richer man than either Captain Benwick or Charles Hayter. She had something to suffer, perhaps, when they came into contact again, in seeing Anne restored to the rights of seniority, and the mistress of a very pretty landaulette; but she had a future to look forward to, of powerful consolation. Anne had no Uppercross Hall before her, no landed estate, no headship of a family; and if they could but keep Captain Wentworth from being made a baronet, she would not change situations with Anne.
Of all the family, Mary was probably the one who felt the most pleased by the situation. It was impressive to have a sister married, and she could think of herself as having played a big role in bringing them together by keeping Anne with her in the fall. Plus, since her own sister had to be better than her husband’s sisters, it was nice that Captain Wentworth was wealthier than either Captain Benwick or Charles Hayter. She might have to endure some discomfort when they saw each other again, watching Anne take back her place as the eldest and be the owner of a nice little carriage. But she had a future to look forward to that offered her a lot of comfort. Anne didn’t have Uppercross Hall ahead of her, no estate, and no headship of a family; and if they could just keep Captain Wentworth from becoming a baronet, she wouldn't want to switch places with Anne.
It would be well for the eldest sister if she were equally satisfied with her situation, for a change is not very probable there. She had soon the mortification of seeing Mr Elliot withdraw, and no one of proper condition has since presented himself to raise even the unfounded hopes which sunk with him.
It would be better for the oldest sister if she were content with her situation, as a change is unlikely to happen there. She quickly faced the disappointment of watching Mr. Elliot leave, and no one of suitable standing has come along since to even spark the unfounded hopes that disappeared with him.
The news of his cousin Anne’s engagement burst on Mr Elliot most unexpectedly. It deranged his best plan of domestic happiness, his best hope of keeping Sir Walter single by the watchfulness which a son-in-law’s rights would have given. But, though discomfited and disappointed, he could still do something for his own interest and his own enjoyment. He soon quitted Bath; and on Mrs Clay’s quitting it soon afterwards, and being next heard of as established under his protection in London, it was evident how double a game he had been playing, and how determined he was to save himself from being cut out by one artful woman, at least.
The news about his cousin Anne’s engagement hit Mr. Elliot totally by surprise. It threw off his best plans for a happy home and his hopes of keeping Sir Walter single through the oversight that being a son-in-law would have given him. But even though he felt thrown off and let down, he could still do something for his own benefit and enjoyment. He quickly left Bath; and after Mrs. Clay left soon after him and was later spotted living under his protection in London, it was clear how cleverly he had been playing both sides and how determined he was to avoid being outmaneuvered by at least one scheming woman.
Mrs Clay’s affections had overpowered her interest, and she had sacrificed, for the young man’s sake, the possibility of scheming longer for Sir Walter. She has abilities, however, as well as affections; and it is now a doubtful point whether his cunning, or hers, may finally carry the day; whether, after preventing her from being the wife of Sir Walter, he may not be wheedled and caressed at last into making her the wife of Sir William.
Mrs. Clay’s feelings had overtaken her interests, and she had given up, for the young man's sake, the chance to plot longer for Sir Walter. However, she has both skills and feelings; and it is now uncertain whether his cleverness or hers will ultimately win out; whether, after stopping her from becoming Sir Walter’s wife, he might not be sweet-talked and flattered into eventually making her Sir William’s wife.
It cannot be doubted that Sir Walter and Elizabeth were shocked and mortified by the loss of their companion, and the discovery of their deception in her. They had their great cousins, to be sure, to resort to for comfort; but they must long feel that to flatter and follow others, without being flattered and followed in turn, is but a state of half enjoyment.
It’s clear that Sir Walter and Elizabeth were shocked and humiliated by the loss of their companion and the revelation of their deception towards her. They certainly had their distant relatives to turn to for comfort, but they would long feel that flattering and following others, without receiving any flattery and attention in return, is only a half-hearted kind of enjoyment.
Anne, satisfied at a very early period of Lady Russell’s meaning to love Captain Wentworth as she ought, had no other alloy to the happiness of her prospects than what arose from the consciousness of having no relations to bestow on him which a man of sense could value. There she felt her own inferiority very keenly. The disproportion in their fortune was nothing; it did not give her a moment’s regret; but to have no family to receive and estimate him properly, nothing of respectability, of harmony, of good will to offer in return for all the worth and all the prompt welcome which met her in his brothers and sisters, was a source of as lively pain as her mind could well be sensible of under circumstances of otherwise strong felicity. She had but two friends in the world to add to his list, Lady Russell and Mrs Smith. To those, however, he was very well disposed to attach himself. Lady Russell, in spite of all her former transgressions, he could now value from his heart. While he was not obliged to say that he believed her to have been right in originally dividing them, he was ready to say almost everything else in her favour, and as for Mrs Smith, she had claims of various kinds to recommend her quickly and permanently.
Anne, happy early on that Lady Russell intended to love Captain Wentworth as she should, only felt a slight disappointment about her future because she realized she had no family to offer him that a sensible man would appreciate. She felt her own inferiority very acutely. The difference in their wealth didn’t bother her at all; she didn't regret it for a second. But the fact that she had no family to welcome and properly value him—nothing respectable, harmonious, or warm to offer in return for all the worth and instant kindness she received from his brothers and sisters—was a painful reminder that overshadowed her otherwise great happiness. She had only two friends to add to his list: Lady Russell and Mrs. Smith. However, he was more than willing to connect with them. Despite her past mistakes, he could genuinely appreciate Lady Russell now. While he didn't have to say he believed she was right to separate them initially, he was ready to say almost anything else good about her, and as for Mrs. Smith, she had various reasons to make a strong and lasting impression.
Her recent good offices by Anne had been enough in themselves, and their marriage, instead of depriving her of one friend, secured her two. She was their earliest visitor in their settled life; and Captain Wentworth, by putting her in the way of recovering her husband’s property in the West Indies, by writing for her, acting for her, and seeing her through all the petty difficulties of the case with the activity and exertion of a fearless man and a determined friend, fully requited the services which she had rendered, or ever meant to render, to his wife.
Her recent help from Anne had been enough on its own, and their marriage, instead of taking away one friend, actually gave her two. She was the first visitor in their new life together; and Captain Wentworth, by helping her recover her husband’s property in the West Indies, writing on her behalf, acting for her, and guiding her through all the small challenges of the situation with the energy and determination of a brave man and a loyal friend, completely repaid the support she had offered, or ever intended to offer, to his wife.
Mrs Smith’s enjoyments were not spoiled by this improvement of income, with some improvement of health, and the acquisition of such friends to be often with, for her cheerfulness and mental alacrity did not fail her; and while these prime supplies of good remained, she might have bid defiance even to greater accessions of worldly prosperity. She might have been absolutely rich and perfectly healthy, and yet be happy. Her spring of felicity was in the glow of her spirits, as her friend Anne’s was in the warmth of her heart. Anne was tenderness itself, and she had the full worth of it in Captain Wentworth’s affection. His profession was all that could ever make her friends wish that tenderness less, the dread of a future war all that could dim her sunshine. She gloried in being a sailor’s wife, but she must pay the tax of quick alarm for belonging to that profession which is, if possible, more distinguished in its domestic virtues than in its national importance.
Mrs. Smith's enjoyment wasn't affected by her increased income, slight improvement in health, or the new friends she had around her; her cheerfulness and mental sharpness stayed strong. As long as she had these primary sources of happiness, she could face even greater wealth with confidence. She could have been completely rich and perfectly healthy, yet still feel joyful. Her happiness came from her vibrant spirit, just like her friend Anne's came from her warm heart. Anne embodied tenderness, and she fully earned it with Captain Wentworth's love. His career was the only thing that could make her friends wish for less of that tenderness; the fear of potential war was the only thing that could shadow her happiness. She took pride in being a sailor's wife, but she had to deal with the anxiety that came with being part of a profession known for its strong domestic values as much as for its national significance.
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