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THE ATHEIST'S MASS





By Honore De Balzac





Translated by Clara Bell














This is dedicated to Auguste Borget by his friend De Balzac










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THE ATHEIST'S MASS

Bianchon, a physician to whom science owes a fine system of theoretical physiology, and who, while still young, made himself a celebrity in the medical school of Paris, that central luminary to which European doctors do homage, practised surgery for a long time before he took up medicine. His earliest studies were guided by one of the greatest of French surgeons, the illustrious Desplein, who flashed across science like a meteor. By the consensus even of his enemies, he took with him to the tomb an incommunicable method. Like all men of genius, he had no heirs; he carried everything in him, and carried it away with him. The glory of a surgeon is like that of an actor: they live only so long as they are alive, and their talent leaves no trace when they are gone. Actors and surgeons, like great singers too, like the executants who by their performance increase the power of music tenfold, are all the heroes of a moment.

Bianchon, a doctor credited with a great theoretical physiology system, became a well-known figure at the medical school in Paris while still young, a central hub that European doctors respect. He practiced surgery for many years before switching to medicine. His early training was under one of France's greatest surgeons, the renowned Desplein, who shone like a meteor in the scientific world. Even his critics agreed he took to his grave an unshareable method. Like all geniuses, he had no heirs; everything he knew was contained within him, and he took it with him. The glory of a surgeon is like that of an actor: they only exist in the moment, and their skills leave no lasting impact after they’re gone. Actors, surgeons, and great singers, like performers who amplify music's power, are all heroes of the moment.

Desplein is a case in proof of this resemblance in the destinies of such transient genius. His name, yesterday so famous, to-day almost forgotten, will survive in his special department without crossing its limits. For must there not be some extraordinary circumstances to exalt the name of a professor from the history of Science to the general history of the human race? Had Desplein that universal command of knowledge which makes a man the living word, the great figure of his age? Desplein had a godlike eye; he saw into the sufferer and his malady by an intuition, natural or acquired, which enabled him to grasp the diagnostics peculiar to the individual, to determine the very time, the hour, the minute when an operation should be performed, making due allowance for atmospheric conditions and peculiarities of individual temperament. To proceed thus, hand in hand with nature, had he then studied the constant assimilation by living beings, of the elements contained in the atmosphere, or yielded by the earth to man who absorbs them, deriving from them a particular expression of life? Did he work it all out by the power of deduction and analogy, to which we owe the genius of Cuvier? Be this as it may, this man was in all the secrets of the human frame; he knew it in the past and in the future, emphasizing the present.

Desplein is a perfect example of how fleeting genius can be. His name, once so well-known, is now almost forgotten, yet it will remain in his specific field without extending beyond it. After all, aren’t extraordinary circumstances needed to elevate a professor’s name from the history of Science to the broader story of humanity? Did Desplein possess that universal mastery of knowledge that turns a person into a living legend, a prominent figure of their time? Desplein had an almost divine ability; he could understand the patient and their illness through an intuition, whether natural or learned, that allowed him to identify the unique diagnostics of each individual, pinpointing exactly when an operation should take place, considering weather conditions and each person's temperament. By working closely with nature, did he study how living beings assimilate elements from the atmosphere or those provided by the earth, which humans take in, deriving from them a distinct expression of life? Did he figure it all out using deduction and analogy, methods that birthed the genius of Cuvier? Regardless, this man understood all the intricacies of the human body; he knew it in both its past and future, focusing particularly on the present.

But did he epitomize all science in his own person as Hippocrates did and Galen and Aristotle? Did he guide a whole school towards new worlds? No. Though it is impossible to deny that this persistent observer of human chemistry possessed that antique science of the Mages, that is to say, knowledge of the elements in fusion, the causes of life, life antecedent to life, and what it must be in its incubation or ever it is, it must be confessed that, unfortunately, everything in him was purely personal. Isolated during his life by his egoism, that egoism is now suicidal of his glory. On his tomb there is no proclaiming statue to repeat to posterity the mysteries which genius seeks out at its own cost.

But did he represent all of science like Hippocrates, Galen, and Aristotle did? Did he lead an entire school toward new discoveries? No. While it’s undeniable that this dedicated observer of human chemistry had that ancient knowledge of the Mages, meaning understanding the elements in transformation, the origins of life, life before life, and what it must be during its development or ever it is, it must be admitted that, unfortunately, everything about him was very personal. Isolated during his life by his selfishness, that selfishness now undermines his legacy. On his tomb, there’s no grand statue to share with future generations the mysteries that genius uncovers at its own expense.

But perhaps Desplein's genius was answerable for his beliefs, and for that reason mortal. To him the terrestrial atmosphere was a generative envelope; he saw the earth as an egg within its shell; and not being able to determine whether the egg or the hen first was, he would not recognize either the cock or the egg. He believed neither in the antecedent animal nor the surviving spirit of man. Desplein had no doubts; he was positive. His bold and unqualified atheism was like that of many scientific men, the best men in the world, but invincible atheists—atheists such as religious people declare to be impossible. This opinion could scarcely exist otherwise in a man who was accustomed from his youth to dissect the creature above all others—before, during, and after life; to hunt through all his organs without ever finding the individual soul, which is indispensable to religious theory. When he detected a cerebral centre, a nervous centre, and a centre for aerating the blood—the first two so perfectly complementary that in the latter years of his life he came to a conviction that the sense of hearing is not absolutely necessary for hearing, nor the sense of sight for seeing, and that the solar plexus could supply their place without any possibility of doubt—Desplein, thus finding two souls in man, confirmed his atheism by this fact, though it is no evidence against God. This man died, it is said, in final impenitence, as do, unfortunately, many noble geniuses, whom God may forgive.

But maybe Desplein's genius was responsible for his beliefs, and for that reason, he was mortal. To him, the Earth's atmosphere was like a protective layer; he viewed the Earth as an egg inside its shell; and since he couldn't determine whether the egg or the chicken came first, he wouldn’t recognize either the rooster or the egg. He didn't believe in the predecessor animal or the surviving spirit of humans. Desplein had no doubts; he was certain. His bold and unapologetic atheism was similar to that of many scientific men, the best people in the world, but unwavering atheists—atheists that religious people claim are impossible. This perspective could hardly exist in someone who was used to dissecting living beings above all others—before, during, and after life; exploring all their organs without ever finding the individual soul, which is essential to religious theory. When he identified a brain center, a nervous center, and a center for oxygenating blood—the first two so perfectly complementary that in his later years he became convinced that the sense of hearing is not absolutely necessary for hearing, nor the sense of sight for seeing, and that the solar plexus could take their place without any doubt—Desplein, thus discovering two souls in humans, reaffirmed his atheism with this finding, even though it doesn't disprove God. This man is said to have died in complete defiance, like many noble geniuses who, unfortunately, God may forgive.

The life of this man, great as he was, was marred by many meannesses, to use the expression employed by his enemies, who were anxious to diminish his glory, but which it would be more proper to call apparent contradictions. Envious people and fools, having no knowledge of the determinations by which superior spirits are moved, seize at once on superficial inconsistencies, to formulate an accusation and so to pass sentence on them. If, subsequently, the proceedings thus attacked are crowned with success, showing the correlations of the preliminaries and the results, a few of the vanguard of calumnies always survive. In our day, for instance, Napoleon was condemned by our contemporaries when he spread his eagle's wings to alight in England: only 1822 could explain 1804 and the flatboats at Boulogne.

The life of this man, impressive as he was, was tainted by many petty actions, as his enemies liked to say in an effort to undermine his greatness. However, it would be more accurate to call these apparent contradictions. Jealous individuals and fools, lacking an understanding of the motivations that drive remarkable people, quickly latch onto superficial inconsistencies to make accusations and pass judgment. If, later on, the actions they criticized succeed, revealing the connection between the initial decisions and the outcomes, a few of the slanders always linger on. In our time, for example, Napoleon was condemned by our contemporaries when he sought to land in England: only 1822 could clarify 1804 and the flatboats at Boulogne.

As, in Desplein, his glory and science were invulnerable, his enemies attacked his odd moods and his temper, whereas, in fact, he was simply characterized by what the English call eccentricity. Sometimes very handsomely dressed, like Crebillon the tragical, he would suddenly affect extreme indifference as to what he wore; he was sometimes seen in a carriage, and sometimes on foot. By turns rough and kind, harsh and covetous on the surface, but capable of offering his whole fortune to his exiled masters—who did him the honor of accepting it for a few days—no man ever gave rise to such contradictory judgements. Although to obtain a black ribbon, which physicians ought not to intrigue for, he was capable of dropping a prayer-book out of his pocket at Court, in his heart he mocked at everything; he had a deep contempt for men, after studying them from above and below, after detecting their genuine expression when performing the most solemn and the meanest acts of their lives.

In Desplein, his reputation and expertise were unassailable, so his critics targeted his peculiar moods and temperament, while in reality, he simply had what the English call eccentricity. Sometimes he dressed very elegantly, like Crebillon the tragic, but at other times, he suddenly seemed completely indifferent to his appearance; he was seen both in a carriage and on foot. He alternated between being rough and kind, harsh and greedy on the surface, yet he was capable of offering his entire fortune to his exiled masters—who honored him by accepting it for a few days. No one ever sparked such mixed opinions about them. Although he would stoop to dropping a prayer book from his pocket at Court to get a black ribbon, which physicians shouldn’t pursue, deep down he ridiculed everything; he held a profound disdain for humanity after observing them closely, recognizing their true selves while they performed both their most serious and most trivial acts.

The qualities of a great man are often federative. If among these colossal spirits one has more talent than wit, his wit is still superior to that of a man of whom it is simply stated that "he is witty." Genius always presupposes moral insight. This insight may be applied to a special subject; but he who can see a flower must be able to see the sun. The man who on hearing a diplomate he has saved ask, "How is the Emperor?" could say, "The courtier is alive; the man will follow!"—that man is not merely a surgeon or a physician, he is prodigiously witty also. Hence a patient and diligent student of human nature will admit Desplein's exorbitant pretensions, and believe—as he himself believed—that he might have been no less great as a minister than he was as a surgeon.

The qualities of a great person are often interconnected. If one of these extraordinary individuals has more talent than charm, their charm still surpasses that of someone who's just described as "charming." True genius always includes moral insight. This insight might focus on a specific area, but anyone who can appreciate a flower must also be able to see the sun. The person who, upon hearing a diplomat he saved ask, "How is the Emperor?" could respond, "The courtier is alive; the man will follow!"—that person isn't just a surgeon or a doctor; they are incredibly witty as well. Therefore, a patient and observant student of human behavior would acknowledge Desplein's high ambitions and believe—as he himself believed—that he could have been just as successful as a minister as he was as a surgeon.

Among the riddles which Desplein's life presents to many of his contemporaries, we have chosen one of the most interesting, because the answer is to be found at the end of the narrative, and will avenge him for some foolish charges.

Among the mysteries of Desplein's life that puzzle many of his contemporaries, we've selected one of the most intriguing, as the answer is revealed at the end of the story and will vindicate him from some silly accusations.

Of all the students in Desplein's hospital, Horace Bianchon was one of those to whom he most warmly attached himself. Before being a house surgeon at the Hotel-Dieu, Horace Bianchon had been a medical student lodging in a squalid boarding house in the Quartier Latin, known as the Maison Vauquer. This poor young man had felt there the gnawing of that burning poverty which is a sort of crucible from which great talents are to emerge as pure and incorruptible as diamonds, which may be subjected to any shock without being crushed. In the fierce fire of their unbridled passions they acquire the most impeccable honesty, and get into the habit of fighting the battles which await genius with the constant work by which they coerce their cheated appetites.

Of all the students in Desplein's hospital, Horace Bianchon was one of the ones he felt most attached to. Before becoming a house surgeon at the Hotel-Dieu, Horace Bianchon had been a medical student living in a run-down boarding house in the Quartier Latin, known as the Maison Vauquer. This poor young man experienced the relentless struggle of poverty, which can serve as a crucible for great talents, making them as pure and unbreakable as diamonds, able to withstand any pressure without being crushed. In the intense fire of their uncontrolled passions, they develop an unmatched integrity and get used to fighting the challenges that come with genius through the constant effort needed to manage their unsatisfied desires.

Horace was an upright young fellow, incapable of tergiversation on a matter of honor, going to the point without waste of words, and as ready to pledge his cloak for a friend as to give him his time and his night hours. Horace, in short, was one of those friends who are never anxious as to what they may get in return for what they give, feeling sure that they will in their turn get more than they give. Most of his friends felt for him that deeply-seated respect which is inspired by unostentatious virtue, and many of them dreaded his censure. But Horace made no pedantic display of his qualities. He was neither a puritan nor a preacher; he could swear with a grace as he gave his advice, and was always ready for a jollification when occasion offered. A jolly companion, not more prudish than a trooper, as frank and outspoken—not as a sailor, for nowadays sailors are wily diplomates—but as an honest man who has nothing in his life to hide, he walked with his head erect, and a mind content. In short, to put the facts into a word, Horace was the Pylades of more than one Orestes—creditors being regarded as the nearest modern equivalent to the Furies of the ancients.

Horace was a good guy, someone who never wavered on matters of honor, getting straight to the point without beating around the bush. He was just as ready to lend his cloak to a friend as he was to give them his time and spend his nights with them. In short, Horace was the kind of friend who didn’t worry about what he’d get in return for his generosity because he was confident he would receive more than he gave in the end. Most of his friends held a deep respect for him, inspired by his genuine character, and many feared his judgment. However, Horace didn't show off his virtues in a boring way. He wasn’t a puritan or a preacher; he could curse with style while giving advice, and he was always up for a good time whenever it came up. A fun companion, he wasn’t prudish at all, being just as open and straightforward—not like today’s sailors, who can be crafty diplomats—but like an honest man with nothing to hide. He walked with his head held high and a satisfied mind. In other words, to sum it up, Horace was the loyal friend to more than one troubled soul—creditors being seen as the closest modern equivalent to the ancient Furies.

He carried his poverty with the cheerfulness which is perhaps one of the chief elements of courage, and, like all people who have nothing, he made very few debts. As sober as a camel and active as a stag, he was steadfast in his ideas and his conduct.

He carried his poverty with a cheerfulness that’s probably one of the main aspects of courage, and, like everyone who has nothing, he racked up very few debts. As serious as a camel and as lively as a stag, he was consistent in his beliefs and his behavior.

The happy phase of Bianchon's life began on the day when the famous surgeon had proof of the qualities and the defects which, these no less than those, make Doctor Horace Bianchon doubly dear to his friends. When a leading clinical practitioner takes a young man to his bosom, that young man has, as they say, his foot in the stirrup. Desplein did not fail to take Bianchon as his assistant to wealthy houses, where some complimentary fee almost always found its way into the student's pocket, and where the mysteries of Paris life were insensibly revealed to the young provincial; he kept him at his side when a consultation was to be held, and gave him occupation; sometimes he would send him to a watering-place with a rich patient; in fact, he was making a practice for him. The consequence was that in the course of time the Tyrant of surgery had a devoted ally. These two men—one at the summit of honor and of his science, enjoying an immense fortune and an immense reputation; the other a humble Omega, having neither fortune nor fame—became intimate friends.

The happy chapter of Bianchon's life started the day the renowned surgeon recognized both the strengths and weaknesses that made Doctor Horace Bianchon especially dear to his friends. When a prominent clinical practitioner takes a young man under his wing, that young man is, as they say, well on his way. Desplein made sure to take Bianchon along as his assistant to affluent households, where a generous fee often found its way into the student’s pocket, and where the secrets of Parisian life gradually unfolded for the young provincial; he kept him by his side during consultations and gave him tasks to do; sometimes he would send him to a spa with a wealthy patient; in essence, he was building a practice for him. As a result, over time, the Tyrant of surgery gained a loyal ally. These two men—one at the height of honor and expertise, enjoying vast wealth and a stellar reputation; the other a humble underdog, with neither wealth nor fame—became close friends.

The great Desplein told his house surgeon everything; the disciple knew whether such or such a woman had sat on a chair near the master, or on the famous couch in Desplein's surgery, on which he slept. Bianchon knew the mysteries of that temperament, a compound of the lion and the bull, which at last expanded and enlarged beyond measure the great man's torso, and caused his death by degeneration of the heart. He studied the eccentricities of that busy life, the schemes of that sordid avarice, the hopes of the politician who lurked behind the man of science; he was able to foresee the mortifications that awaited the only sentiment that lay hid in a heart that was steeled, but not of steel.

The great Desplein shared everything with his house surgeon; the apprentice knew whether a particular woman had sat on a chair near the master or on the famous couch in Desplein's office, where he slept. Bianchon understood the complexities of that personality, a mix of the lion and the bull, which ultimately expanded and overwhelmed the great man's frame, leading to his death from heart failure. He observed the peculiarities of that hectic life, the schemes driven by greed, the ambitions of the politician hiding behind the scientist; he could anticipate the disappointments that awaited the only emotion buried in a heart that was tough, but not unfeeling.

One day Bianchon spoke to Desplein of a poor water-carrier of the Saint-Jacques district, who had a horrible disease caused by fatigue and want; this wretched Auvergnat had had nothing but potatoes to eat during the dreadful winter of 1821. Desplein left all his visits, and at the risk of killing his horse, he rushed off, followed by Bianchon, to the poor man's dwelling, and saw, himself, to his being removed to a sick house, founded by the famous Dubois in the Faubourg Saint-Denis. Then he went to attend the man, and when he had cured him he gave him the necessary sum to buy a horse and a water-barrel. This Auvergnat distinguished himself by an amusing action. One of his friends fell ill, and he took him at once to Desplein, saying to his benefactor, "I could not have borne to let him go to any one else!"

One day, Bianchon told Desplein about a poor water-carrier from the Saint-Jacques neighborhood who was suffering from a terrible illness brought on by exhaustion and poverty; this unfortunate Auvergnat had survived solely on potatoes during the harsh winter of 1821. Desplein immediately canceled all his appointments and, at the risk of exhausting his horse, rushed off with Bianchon to the man's home. He personally ensured that the man was taken to a hospital founded by the famous Dubois in the Faubourg Saint-Denis. After caring for him and successfully treating his illness, he gave him enough money to buy a horse and a water barrel. This Auvergnat made himself known through a humorous gesture. When one of his friends fell ill, he promptly brought him to Desplein, saying to his benefactor, "I couldn’t bear to let him go to anyone else!"

Rough customer as he was, Desplein grasped the water-carrier's hand, and said, "Bring them all to me."

Rough as he was, Desplein took the water-carrier's hand and said, "Bring them all to me."

He got the native of Cantal into the Hotel-Dieu, where he took the greatest care of him. Bianchon had already observed in his chief a predilection for Auvergnats, and especially for water carriers; but as Desplein took a sort of pride in his cures at the Hotel-Dieu, the pupil saw nothing very strange in that.

He brought the local from Cantal into the Hotel-Dieu, where he took great care of him. Bianchon had already noticed that his boss had a preference for people from Auvergne, especially water carriers; but since Desplein took pride in his treatments at the Hotel-Dieu, his student didn't find it unusual.

One day, as he crossed the Place Saint-Sulpice, Bianchon caught sight of his master going into the church at about nine in the morning. Desplein, who at that time never went a step without his cab, was on foot, and slipped in by the door in the Rue du Petit-Lion, as if he were stealing into some house of ill fame. The house surgeon, naturally possessed by curiosity, knowing his master's opinions, and being himself a rabid follower of Cabanis (Cabaniste en dyable, with the y, which in Rabelais seems to convey an intensity of devilry)—Bianchon stole into the church, and was not a little astonished to see the great Desplein, the atheist, who had no mercy on the angels—who give no work to the lancet, and cannot suffer from fistula or gastritis—in short, this audacious scoffer kneeling humbly, and where? In the Lady Chapel, where he remained through the mass, giving alms for the expenses of the service, alms for the poor, and looking as serious as though he were superintending an operation.

One day, while crossing Place Saint-Sulpice, Bianchon noticed his mentor entering the church around nine in the morning. Desplein, who usually never took a single step without his cab, was walking and discreetly slipped in through the door on Rue du Petit-Lion, as if he were sneaking into a disreputable place. The house surgeon, driven by curiosity, aware of his mentor's views and being a devoted follower of Cabanis (Cabaniste en dyable, with the y, which in Rabelais suggests a level of wickedness)—Bianchon quietly entered the church and was quite surprised to see the great Desplein, the atheist who had no patience for angels—who don't undergo surgical procedures and can't suffer from conditions like fistulas or gastritis—in short, this bold skeptic kneeling humbly, and where? In the Lady Chapel, where he stayed throughout the mass, giving donations for the service costs, donations for the needy, and looking as serious as if he were overseeing a surgical operation.

"He has certainly not come here to clear up the question of the Virgin's delivery," said Bianchon to himself, astonished beyond measure. "If I had caught him holding one of the ropes of the canopy on Corpus Christi day, it would be a thing to laugh at; but at this hour, alone, with no one to see—it is surely a thing to marvel at!"

"He definitely didn’t come here to settle the issue of the Virgin’s delivery," Bianchon thought to himself, completely astonished. "If I had caught him holding one of the ropes of the canopy on Corpus Christi day, that would have been something to laugh about; but right now, alone here with no one around to see—it really is something to marvel at!"

Bianchon did not wish to seem as though he were spying the head surgeon of the Hotel-Dieu; he went away. As it happened, Desplein asked him to dine with him that day, not at his own house, but at a restaurant. At dessert Bianchon skilfully contrived to talk of the mass, speaking of it as mummery and a farce.

Bianchon didn’t want to come across as if he were spying on the chief surgeon of the Hotel-Dieu, so he decided to leave. As it turned out, Desplein invited him to dinner that day, not at his home, but at a restaurant. During dessert, Bianchon cleverly brought up the topic of the mass, referring to it as a spectacle and a joke.

"A farce," said Desplein, "which has cost Christendom more blood than all Napoleon's battles and all Broussais' leeches. The mass is a papal invention, not older than the sixth century, and based on the Hoc est corpus. What floods of blood were shed to establish the Fete-Dieu, the Festival of Corpus Christi—the institution by which Rome established her triumph in the question of the Real Presence, a schism which rent the Church during three centuries! The wars of the Count of Toulouse against the Albigenses were the tail end of that dispute. The Vaudois and the Albigenses refused to recognize this innovation."

"A farce," said Desplein, "that has cost Christendom more lives than all of Napoleon's battles and all of Broussais' leeches. The mass is a papal invention, not older than the sixth century, and based on the Hoc est corpus. What rivers of blood were spilled to establish the Fete-Dieu, the Festival of Corpus Christi—the event through which Rome asserted its dominance in the debate over the Real Presence, a division that split the Church for three centuries! The wars led by the Count of Toulouse against the Albigenses were the tail end of that conflict. The Vaudois and the Albigenses refused to accept this change."

In short, Desplein was delighted to disport himself in his most atheistical vein; a flow of Voltairean satire, or, to be accurate, a vile imitation of the Citateur.

In short, Desplein was thrilled to show off his most atheistic side; a stream of Voltairean sarcasm, or, to be precise, a poor imitation of the Citateur.

"Hallo! where is my worshiper of this morning?" said Bianchon to himself.

"Hello! Where is my worshiper from this morning?" Bianchon said to himself.

He said nothing; he began to doubt whether he had really seen his chief at Saint-Sulpice. Desplein would not have troubled himself to tell Bianchon a lie, they knew each other too well; they had already exchanged thoughts on quite equally serious subjects, and discussed systems de natura rerum, probing or dissecting them with the knife and scalpel of incredulity.

He said nothing; he started to question whether he had actually seen his boss at Saint-Sulpice. Desplain wouldn’t have bothered to lie to Bianchon; they knew each other too well. They had already shared thoughts on equally serious topics and discussed systems of the nature of things, analyzing or breaking them down with the knife and scalpel of skepticism.

Three months went by. Bianchon did not attempt to follow the matter up, though it remained stamped on his memory. One day that year, one of the physicians of the Hotel-Dieu took Desplein by the arm, as if to question him, in Bianchon's presence.

Three months passed. Bianchon didn’t try to look into the situation, even though it stayed on his mind. One day that year, one of the doctors from the Hotel-Dieu took Desplein by the arm, as if to ask him something, in front of Bianchon.

"What were you doing at Saint-Sulpice, my dear master?" said he.

"What were you doing at Saint-Sulpice, my dear master?" he asked.

"I went to see a priest who has a diseased knee-bone, and to whom the Duchesse d'Angouleme did me the honor to recommend me," said Desplein.

"I went to see a priest who has a bad knee, and who the Duchesse d'Angouleme was kind enough to recommend to me," said Desplein.

The questioner took this defeat for an answer; not so Bianchon.

The questioner accepted this defeat as an answer; Bianchon did not.

"Oh, he goes to see damaged knees in church!—He went to mass," said the young man to himself.

"Oh, he goes to church to check out hurt knees!—He went to mass," the young man thought to himself.

Bianchon resolved to watch Desplein. He remembered the day and hour when he had detected him going into Saint-Sulpice, and resolved to be there again next year on the same day and at the same hour, to see if he should find him there again. In that case the periodicity of his devotion would justify a scientific investigation; for in such a man there ought to be no direct antagonism of thought and action.

Bianchon decided to keep an eye on Desplein. He recalled the specific day and time when he saw him enter Saint-Sulpice, and made a plan to be there again next year at the same day and time to see if he showed up again. If he did, the regularity of his devotion would warrant a scientific study; because someone like him should not have a conflict between what he thinks and what he does.

Next year, on the said day and hour, Bianchon, who had already ceased to be Desplein's house surgeon, saw the great man's cab standing at the corner of the Rue de Tournon and the Rue du Petit-Lion, whence his friend jesuitically crept along by the wall of Saint-Sulpice, and once more attended mass in front of the Virgin's altar. It was Desplein, sure enough! The master-surgeon, the atheist at heart, the worshiper by chance. The mystery was greater than ever; the regularity of the phenomenon complicated it. When Desplein had left, Bianchon went to the sacristan, who took charge of the chapel, and asked him whether the gentleman were a constant worshiper.

Next year, on that same day and time, Bianchon, who was no longer Desplein's house surgeon, saw the great man's cab parked at the corner of Rue de Tournon and Rue du Petit-Lion. From there, his friend slyly made his way along the wall of Saint-Sulpice and once again attended mass in front of the Virgin's altar. It was Desplein, for sure! The master surgeon, secretly an atheist, yet a casual worshiper. The mystery was even deeper; the regularity of this occurrence made it more complicated. After Desplein left, Bianchon approached the sacristan who managed the chapel and asked if the gentleman was a regular worshiper.

"For twenty years that I have been here," replied the man, "M. Desplein has come four times a year to attend this mass. He founded it."

"For twenty years that I've been here," the man replied, "M. Desplein has come four times a year to attend this mass. He started it."

"A mass founded by him!" said Bianchon, as he went away. "This is as great a mystery as the Immaculate Conception—an article which alone is enough to make a physician an unbeliever."

"A mass created by him!" said Bianchon as he walked away. "This is just as big a mystery as the Immaculate Conception—something that alone is enough to make any doctor doubt their faith."

Some time elapsed before Doctor Bianchon, though so much his friend, found an opportunity of speaking to Desplein of this incident of his life. Though they met in consultation, or in society, it was difficult to find an hour of confidential solitude when, sitting with their feet on the fire-dogs and their head resting on the back of an armchair, two men tell each other their secrets. At last, seven years later, after the Revolution of 1830, when the mob invaded the Archbishop's residence, when Republican agitators spurred them on to destroy the gilt crosses which flashed like streaks of lightning in the immensity of the ocean of houses; when Incredulity flaunted itself in the streets, side by side with Rebellion, Bianchon once more detected Desplein going into Saint-Sulpice. The doctor followed him, and knelt down by him without the slightest notice or demonstration of surprise from his friend. They both attended this mass of his founding.

Some time passed before Doctor Bianchon, despite being such a good friend, found a chance to talk to Desplein about this event in his life. Even though they met during consultations or social gatherings, it was tough to carve out an hour of private time where they could sit back with their feet up on the fire-dogs, leaning against their armchairs, and share their secrets. Finally, seven years later, after the Revolution of 1830, when the mob stormed the Archbishop's residence, with Republican agitators egging them on to tear down the golden crosses that shone like flashes of lightning in the vast sea of buildings; when skepticism marched through the streets alongside rebellion, Bianchon spotted Desplein heading into Saint-Sulpice again. The doctor followed him and quietly knelt down next to him without any hint of surprise or acknowledgment from his friend. They both attended the mass dedicated to its foundation.

"Will you tell me, my dear fellow," said Bianchon, as they left the church, "the reason for your fit of monkishness? I have caught you three times going to mass—— You! You must account to me for this mystery, explain such a flagrant disagreement between your opinions and your conduct. You do not believe in God, and yet you attend mass? My dear master, you are bound to give me an answer."

"Could you tell me, my friend," said Bianchon as they were leaving the church, "what's up with your sudden religious phase? I’ve seen you go to mass three times now—You! You have to explain this mystery to me, clarify this obvious contradiction between what you believe and how you act. You don’t believe in God, yet you’re attending mass? Come on, you owe me an explanation."

"I am like a great many devout people, men who on the surface are deeply religious, but quite as much atheists as you or I can be."

"I’m like a lot of devout people—men who seem very religious on the outside, but are just as much atheists as you or I can be."

And he poured out a torrent of epigrams on certain political personages, of whom the best known gives us, in this century, a new edition of Moliere's Tartufe.

And he unleashed a flood of clever remarks about certain politicians, one of whom is most famously giving us a new version of Moliere's Tartufe in this century.

"All that has nothing to do with my question," retorted Bianchon. "I want to know the reason for what you have just been doing, and why you founded this mass."

"That's irrelevant to my question," Bianchon shot back. "I want to know why you just did what you did and why you started this mass."

"Faith! my dear boy," said Desplein, "I am on the verge of the tomb; I may safely tell you about the beginning of my life."

"Faith! my dear boy," said Desplein, "I am near the end of my life; I can safely share the story of how it all began."

At this moment Bianchon and the great man were in the Rue des Quatre-Vents, one of the worst streets in Paris. Desplein pointed to the sixth floor of one of the houses looking like obelisks, of which the narrow door opens into a passage with a winding staircase at the end, with windows appropriately termed "borrowed lights"—or, in French, jours de souffrance. It was a greenish structure; the ground floor occupied by a furniture-dealer, while each floor seemed to shelter a different and independent form of misery. Throwing up his arm with a vehement gesture, Desplein exclaimed:

At that moment, Bianchon and the prominent figure were on Rue des Quatre-Vents, one of the worst streets in Paris. Desplein pointed to the sixth floor of one of the buildings that looked like obelisks, where a narrow door leads into a passage with a winding staircase at the end, featuring windows aptly called "borrowed lights"—or, in French, jours de souffrance. It was a greenish building; the ground floor was occupied by a furniture dealer, while each floor seemed to host a different and independent kind of misery. Throwing up his arm with a passionate gesture, Desplein exclaimed:

"I lived up there for two years."

"I lived up there for two years."

"I know; Arthez lived there; I went up there almost every day during my first youth; we used to call it then the pickle-jar of great men! What then?"

"I know; Arthez lived there; I went there almost every day during my early years; we used to call it the pickle-jar of great men! What about it?"

"The mass I have just attended is connected with some events which took place at the time when I lived in the garret where you say Arthez lived; the one with the window where the clothes line is hanging with linen over a pot of flowers. My early life was so hard, my dear Bianchon, that I may dispute the palm of Paris suffering with any man living. I have endured everything: hunger and thirst, want of money, want of clothes, of shoes, of linen, every cruelty that penury can inflict. I have blown on my frozen fingers in that pickle-jar of great men, which I should like to see again, now, with you. I worked through a whole winter, seeing my head steam, and perceiving the atmosphere of my own moisture as we see that of horses on a frosty day. I do not know where a man finds the fulcrum that enables him to hold out against such a life.

"The mass I just attended is linked to some events from the time I lived in the attic where you say Arthez lived; the one with the window where the clothesline hangs with linens over a pot of flowers. My early life was so tough, my dear Bianchon, that I could compete with anyone in Paris for who has suffered the most. I've been through it all: hunger and thirst, lack of money, clothes, shoes, linens, and every cruelty that poverty can bring. I’ve warmed my frozen fingers in that pickle-jar of great men, which I’d love to see again now, with you. I worked all winter, watching steam rise from my head and seeing my own breath in the frosty air, like the steam from horses on a cold day. I don’t know where a person finds the strength to endure such a life."

"I was alone, with no one to help me, no money to buy books or to pay the expenses of my medical training; I had not a friend; my irascible, touchy, restless temper was against me. No one understood that this irritability was the distress and toil of a man who, at the bottom of the social scale, is struggling to reach the surface. Still, I had, as I may say to you, before whom I need wear no draperies, I had that ground-bed of good feeling and keen sensitiveness which must always be the birthright of any man who is strong enough to climb to any height whatever, after having long trampled in the bogs of poverty. I could obtain nothing from my family, nor from my home, beyond my inadequate allowance. In short, at that time, I breakfasted off a roll which the baker in the Rue du Petit-Lion sold me cheap because it was left from yesterday or the day before, and I crumbled it into milk; thus my morning meal cost me but two sous. I dined only every other day in a boarding-house where the meal cost me sixteen sous. You know as well as I what care I must have taken of my clothes and shoes. I hardly know whether in later life we feel grief so deep when a colleague plays us false as we have known, you and I, on detecting the mocking smile of a gaping seam in a shoe, or hearing the armhole of a coat split, I drank nothing but water; I regarded a cafe with distant respect. Zoppi's seemed to me a promised land where none but the Lucullus of the pays Latin had a right of entry. 'Shall I ever take a cup of coffee there with milk in it?' said I to myself, 'or play a game of dominoes?'

I was all alone, with no one to help me, no money to buy books or pay for my medical training; I didn’t have a friend; my irritable, touchy, restless nature was against me. No one understood that this irritability was the struggle and strain of a man who, at the bottom of the social ladder, is trying to rise up. Still, I had, as I can say to you, without any pretense, this underlying sense of goodwill and heightened sensitivity that is always the birthright of anyone strong enough to reach any height after having long been stuck in the muck of poverty. I received nothing from my family or home beyond my meager allowance. In short, at that time, I had breakfast with a roll that the baker on Rue du Petit-Lion sold me for cheap because it was leftover from the day before, and I crumbled it into milk; thus, my morning meal cost me only two sous. I ate dinner only every other day at a boarding house where the meal cost me sixteen sous. You know as well as I do how carefully I had to take care of my clothes and shoes. I hardly even know whether we feel such deep grief later in life when a colleague betrays us, like when we notice the mocking grin of a gaping seam in a shoe or hear the armhole of a coat rip; I drank nothing but water; I viewed a café with distant admiration. Zoppi's seemed to me like a promised land where only the wealthy of the pays Latin had any right to enter. 'Will I ever have a cup of coffee with milk there?' I asked myself, 'or play a game of dominoes?'

"I threw into my work the fury I felt at my misery. I tried to master positive knowledge so as to acquire the greatest personal value, and merit the position I should hold as soon as I could escape from nothingness. I consumed more oil than bread; the light I burned during these endless nights cost me more than food. It was a long duel, obstinate, with no sort of consolation. I found no sympathy anywhere. To have friends, must we not form connections with young men, have a few sous so as to be able to go tippling with them, and meet them where students congregate? And I had nothing! And no one in Paris can understand that nothing means nothing. When I even thought of revealing my beggary, I had that nervous contraction of the throat which makes a sick man believe that a ball rises up from the oesophagus into the larynx.

"I poured all my anger about my misery into my work. I tried to gain real knowledge to become more valuable and earn the position I deserved as soon as I could escape from nothingness. I used more oil than food; the light I burned during those endless nights cost me more than meals. It was a long, stubborn struggle, with no relief in sight. I found no sympathy anywhere. To have friends, don’t we need to connect with other young men, have a few coins to go out drinking with them, and meet at places where students gather? But I had nothing! And nobody in Paris can understand that nothing means nothing. Just the thought of revealing my poverty made me feel that tightness in my throat, like a sick person believing something is rising from their stomach into their throat."

"In later life I have met people born to wealth who, never having wanted for anything, had never even heard this problem in the rule of three: A young man is to crime as a five-franc piece is to X.—These gilded idiots say to me, 'Why did you get into debt? Why did you involve yourself in such onerous obligations?' They remind me of the princess who, on hearing that the people lacked bread, said, 'Why do not they buy cakes?' I should like to see one of these rich men, who complain that I charge too much for an operation,—yes, I should like to see him alone in Paris without a sou, without a friend, without credit, and forced to work with his five fingers to live at all! What would he do? Where would he go to satisfy his hunger?

"In my later years, I've met people born into wealth who, having never faced any hardships, have no clue about this problem in the rule of three: A young man is to crime as a five-franc piece is to X. These pampered folks ask me, 'Why did you go into debt? Why did you take on such heavy obligations?' They remind me of the princess who, upon learning that the people had no bread, said, 'Why don't they just buy cakes?' I would love to see one of these wealthy individuals, who complains that I charge too much for a procedure — yes, I would like to see him stranded in Paris with no money, no friends, no credit, and forced to work with his bare hands just to survive! What would he do? Where would he go to satisfy his hunger?"

"Bianchon, if you have sometimes seen me hard and bitter, it was because I was adding my early sufferings on to the insensibility, the selfishness of which I have seen thousands of instances in the highest circles; or, perhaps, I was thinking of the obstacles which hatred, envy, jealousy, and calumny raised up between me and success. In Paris, when certain people see you ready to set your foot in the stirrup, some pull your coat-tails, others loosen the buckle of the strap that you may fall and crack your skull; one wrenches off your horse's shoes, another steals your whip, and the least treacherous of them all is the man whom you see coming to fire his pistol at you point blank.

"Bianchon, if you've sometimes found me hard and bitter, it's because I've been adding my early struggles to the apathy and selfishness I've witnessed countless times in the upper circles; or maybe I was thinking about the barriers that hatred, envy, jealousy, and slander put up between me and success. In Paris, when some people see you about to make your move, some will tug at your coat tails, others will loosen your strap so you might fall and crack your head; one will take off your horse's shoes, another will steal your whip, and the least harmful of them all is the one you see coming to shoot at you from close range."

"You yourself, my dear boy, are clever enough to make acquaintance before long with the odious and incessant warfare waged by mediocrity against the superior man. If you should drop five-and-twenty louis one day, you will be accused of gambling on the next, and your best friends will report that you have lost twenty-five thousand. If you have a headache, you will be considered mad. If you are a little hasty, no one can live with you. If, to make a stand against this armament of pigmies, you collect your best powers, your best friends will cry out that you want to have everything, that you aim at domineering, at tyranny. In short, your good points will become your faults, your faults will be vices, and your virtues crime.

You, my dear boy, are smart enough to soon realize the disgusting and constant battle that mediocrity fights against someone who stands out. If you happen to lose twenty-five louis one day, people will accuse you of gambling the next, and your closest friends will say you lost twenty-five thousand. If you have a headache, they'll think you're crazy. If you're a little impatient, no one will want to be around you. If you try to stand firm against this army of small-minded people by gathering your strengths, your best friends will claim you want it all, that you're trying to dominate, that you’re being tyrannical. In short, your strengths will become your weaknesses, your weaknesses will be seen as flaws, and your virtues will be considered crimes.

"If you save a man, you will be said to have killed him; if he reappears on the scene, it will be positive that you have secured the present at the cost of the future. If he is not dead, he will die. Stumble, and you fall! Invent anything of any kind and claim your rights, you will be crotchety, cunning, ill-disposed to rising younger men.

"If you save a man, people will say you’ve killed him; if he comes back, it will definitely seem like you’ve secured the present at the expense of the future. If he’s not dead, he will eventually die. Trip up, and you’ll fall! Create anything at all and assert your rights, and you’ll come off as cranky, crafty, and unfriendly toward younger men trying to get ahead."

"So, you see, my dear fellow, if I do not believe in God, I believe still less in man. But do not you know in me another Desplein, altogether different from the Desplein whom every one abuses?—However, we will not stir that mud-heap.

"So, you see, my dear friend, if I don’t believe in God, I believe even less in people. But don’t you see in me another Desplein, completely different from the Desplein that everyone criticizes?—However, let’s not get into that mess."

"Well, I was living in that house, I was working hard to pass my first examination, and I had no money at all. You know. I had come to one of those moments of extremity when a man says, 'I will enlist.' I had one hope. I expected from my home a box full of linen, a present from one of those old aunts who, knowing nothing of Paris, think of your shirts, while they imagine that their nephew with thirty francs a month is eating ortolans. The box arrived while I was at the schools; it had cost forty francs for carriage. The porter, a German shoemaker living in a loft, had paid the money and kept the box. I walked up and down the Rue des Fosses-Saint-Germain-des-Pres and the Rue de l'Ecole de Medecine without hitting on any scheme which would release my trunk without the payment of the forty francs, which of course I could pay as soon as I should have sold the linen. My stupidity proved to me that surgery was my only vocation. My good fellow, refined souls, whose powers move in a lofty atmosphere, have none of that spirit of intrigue that is fertile in resource and device; their good genius is chance; they do not invent, things come to them.

"Well, I was living in that house, working hard to pass my first exam, and I had no money at all. You know how it goes. I had reached one of those desperate moments when someone says, 'I will enlist.' I had one hope. I expected a box full of linens from home, a gift from one of those old aunts who, knowing nothing about Paris, think of your shirts while imagining that their nephew, with thirty francs a month, is eating fancy meals. The box arrived while I was at school; it had cost forty francs for shipping. The porter, a German shoemaker living in an attic, had paid the money and held onto the box. I paced up and down Rue des Fossés-Saint-Germain-des-Prés and Rue de l'École de Médecine, unable to come up with any plan to get my trunk back without paying the forty francs, which I could cover as soon as I sold the linens. My cluelessness showed me that surgery was my only calling. My good friend, refined souls whose talents thrive in a high-minded environment, lack that knack for crafty resourcefulness; their luck comes from chance; they don't create, things just happen to them."

"At night I went home, at the very moment when my fellow lodger also came in—a water-carrier named Bourgeat, a native of Saint-Flour. We knew each other as two lodgers do who have rooms off the same landing, and who hear each other sleeping, coughing, dressing, and so at last become used to one another. My neighbor informed me that the landlord, to whom I owed three quarters' rent, had turned me out; I must clear out next morning. He himself was also turned out on account of his occupation. I spent the most miserable night of my life. Where was I to get a messenger who could carry my few chattels and my books? How could I pay him and the porter? Where was I to go? I repeated these unanswerable questions again and again, in tears, as madmen repeat their tunes. I fell asleep; poverty has for its friends heavenly slumbers full of beautiful dreams.

At night, I went home just as my fellow lodger, a water-carrier named Bourgeat from Saint-Flour, walked in. We knew each other like two lodgers do, sharing the same hallway, hearing each other sleep, cough, get dressed, and eventually getting used to one another. My neighbor told me that the landlord, to whom I owed three months' rent, had kicked me out; I had to leave the next morning. He was also being thrown out because of his job. I spent the most miserable night of my life. Where was I supposed to find someone to carry my few belongings and my books? How could I pay him and the porter? Where was I supposed to go? I kept repeating these unanswerable questions over and over, in tears, like madmen repeating their songs. I eventually fell asleep; poverty brings along dreamy, heavenly slumbers filled with beautiful dreams.

"Next morning, just as I was swallowing my little bowl of bread soaked in milk, Bourgeat came in and said to me in his vile Auvergne accent:

"Next morning, just as I was finishing my small bowl of bread soaked in milk, Bourgeat came in and said to me in his terrible Auvergne accent:"

"'Mouchieur l'Etudiant, I am a poor man, a foundling from the hospital at Saint-Flour, without either father or mother, and not rich enough to marry. You are not fertile in relations either, nor well supplied with the ready? Listen, I have a hand-cart downstairs which I have hired for two sous an hour; it will hold all our goods; if you like, we will try to find lodgings together, since we are both turned out of this. It is not the earthly paradise, when all is said and done.'

Mouchieur l'Etudiant, I’m a poor man, a foundling from the hospital in Saint-Flour, with neither father nor mother, and I’m not wealthy enough to marry. You’re not exactly loaded with family connections either, nor do you have much cash on hand, right? Here’s the deal: I have a hand-cart downstairs that I’ve rented for two sous an hour; it can carry all our stuff. If you want, we can look for a place to stay together since we’ve both been kicked out of here. It’s not exactly paradise on earth, after all.”

"'I know that, my good Bourgeat,' said I. 'But I am in a great fix. I have a trunk downstairs with a hundred francs' worth of linen in it, out of which I could pay the landlord and all I owe to the porter, and I have not a hundred sous.'

"'I know that, my good Bourgeat,' I said. 'But I'm in a real bind. I have a trunk downstairs with a hundred francs' worth of linen in it, which I could use to pay the landlord and settle what I owe the porter, and I don't even have a hundred sous.'"

"'Pooh! I have a few dibs,' replied Bourgeat joyfully, and he pulled out a greasy old leather purse. 'Keep your linen.'

"'Pooh! I have a few dibs,' Bourgeat replied happily, pulling out a greasy old leather purse. 'Keep your linen.'"

"Bourgeat paid up my arrears and his own, and settled with the porter. Then he put our furniture and my box of linen in his cart, and pulled it along the street, stopping in front of every house where there was a notice board. I went up to see whether the rooms to let would suit us. At midday we were still wandering about the neighborhood without having found anything. The price was the great difficulty. Bourgeat proposed that we should eat at a wine shop, leaving the cart at the door. Towards evening I discovered, in the Cour de Rohan, Passage du Commerce, at the very top of a house next the roof, two rooms with a staircase between them. Each of us was to pay sixty francs a year. So there we were housed, my humble friend and I. We dined together. Bourgeat, who earned about fifty sous a day, had saved a hundred crowns or so; he would soon be able to gratify his ambition by buying a barrel and a horse. On learning of my situation—for he extracted my secrets with a quiet craftiness and good nature, of which the remembrance touches my heart to this day, he gave up for a time the ambition of his whole life; for twenty-two years he had been carrying water in the street, and he now devoted his hundred crowns to my future prospects."

Bourgeat paid off my debts and his own, and settled with the porter. Then he loaded our furniture and my box of linen into his cart and pulled it down the street, stopping in front of every house with a "rooms for rent" sign. I went to check if the available rooms would work for us. By lunchtime, we were still wandering around the neighborhood without finding anything. The cost was a major issue. Bourgeat suggested we eat at a wine shop, leaving the cart at the door. Later in the evening, I found in the Cour de Rohan, Passage du Commerce, at the very top of a house next to the roof, two rooms separated by a staircase. Each of us would pay sixty francs a year. So my humble friend and I finally had a place to stay. We had dinner together. Bourgeat, who earned about fifty sous a day, had saved around a hundred crowns; he would soon be able to fulfill his dream of buying a barrel and a horse. After learning about my situation—his quiet cleverness and kindness helped him draw out my secrets, which I still remember fondly—he temporarily set aside his lifelong ambition; for twenty-two years he had been hauling water in the street, and he now committed his hundred crowns to support my future.

Desplein at these words clutched Bianchon's arm tightly. "He gave me the money for my examination fees! That man, my friend, understood that I had a mission, that the needs of my intellect were greater than his. He looked after me, he called me his boy, he lent me money to buy books, he would come in softly sometimes to watch me at work, and took a mother's care in seeing that I had wholesome and abundant food, instead of the bad and insufficient nourishment I had been condemned to. Bourgeat, a man of about forty, had a homely, mediaeval type of face, a prominent forehead, a head that a painter might have chosen as a model for that of Lycurgus. The poor man's heart was big with affections seeking an object; he had never been loved but by a poodle that had died some time since, of which he would talk to me, asking whether I thought the Church would allow masses to be said for the repose of its soul. His dog, said he, had been a good Christian, who for twelve years had accompanied him to church, never barking, listening to the organ without opening his mouth, and crouching beside him in a way that made it seem as though he were praying too.

Desplein, hearing this, grasped Bianchon's arm tightly. "He gave me the money for my exam fees! That guy, my friend, understood that I had a mission, that my intellectual needs were greater than his. He looked out for me, called me his boy, lent me money to buy books, and would sometimes come in quietly to watch me work. He took a mother's care in ensuring I had healthy and plenty of food, instead of the bad and insufficient meals I had been stuck with. Bourgeat, a man in his forties, had a plain, medieval-looking face, a prominent forehead, a head that a painter might have used as a model for Lycurgus. This poor man's heart was full of affection looking for an outlet; he had never been loved by anyone except for a poodle that had passed away some time ago. He would talk about it, asking if I thought the Church would allow masses to be said for its soul. His dog, he said, was a good Christian who had accompanied him to church for twelve years, never barking, listening to the organ without making a sound, and sitting beside him in a way that made it seem like he was praying too.

"This man centered all his affections in me; he looked upon me as a forlorn and suffering creature, and he became, to me, the most thoughtful mother, the most considerate benefactor, the ideal of the virtue which rejoices in its own work. When I met him in the street, he would throw me a glance of intelligence full of unutterable dignity; he would affect to walk as though he carried no weight, and seemed happy in seeing me in good health and well dressed. It was, in fact, the devoted affection of the lower classes, the love of a girl of the people transferred to a loftier level. Bourgeat did all my errands, woke me at night at any fixed hour, trimmed my lamp, cleaned our landing; as good as a servant as he was as a father, and as clean as an English girl. He did all the housework. Like Philopoemen, he sawed our wood, and gave to all he did the grace of simplicity while preserving his dignity, for he seemed to understand that the end ennobles every act.

"This man poured all his affection into me; he saw me as a lonely and suffering soul, and he became, for me, the most caring mother, the most considerate supporter, the ideal of virtue that takes joy in its own efforts. Whenever I saw him on the street, he would give me a knowing look filled with indescribable dignity; he would seem to walk as if he had no burdens and appeared genuinely happy to see me healthy and well-dressed. It was, in essence, the devoted love of the lower classes, the affection of a common girl elevated to a higher level. Bourgeat handled all my errands, woke me at any hour I needed, trimmed my lamp, and cleaned our landing; as reliable as he was as a father, he was as tidy as an English girl. He took care of all the housework. Like Philopoemen, he chopped our wood, bringing an effortless grace to everything he did while maintaining his dignity, as if he recognized that the purpose makes every action noble."

"When I left this good fellow, to be house surgeon at the Hotel-Dieu, I felt an indescribable, dull pain, knowing that he could no longer live with me; but he comforted himself with the prospect of saving up money enough for me to take my degree, and he made me promise to go to see him whenever I had a day out: Bourgeat was proud of me. He loved me for my own sake, and for his own. If you look up my thesis, you will see that I dedicated it to him.

When I left this good guy to become the house surgeon at the Hotel-Dieu, I felt an indescribable, dull ache, knowing that he could no longer live with me; but he found comfort in the thought of saving enough money for me to get my degree, and he made me promise to visit him anytime I had a day off: Bourgeat was proud of me. He cared for me for who I was and for his own reasons. If you look up my thesis, you’ll see that I dedicated it to him.

"During the last year of my residence as house surgeon I earned enough to repay all I owed to this worthy Auvergnat by buying him a barrel and a horse. He was furious with rage at learning that I had been depriving myself of spending my money, and yet he was delighted to see his wishes fulfilled; he laughed and scolded, he looked at his barrel, at his horse, and wiped away a tear, as he said, 'It is too bad. What a splendid barrel! You really ought not. Why, that horse is as strong as an Auvergnat!'

"During my last year as a house surgeon, I made enough money to pay off all my debts to this kind Auvergnat by buying him a barrel and a horse. He was furious when he found out I had been saving my money instead of spending it, but he was also thrilled to see his wishes come true; he laughed and scolded at the same time, looking at his barrel and horse, wiping away a tear as he said, 'It’s too bad. What an amazing barrel! You really shouldn’t have. That horse is as strong as an Auvergnat!'"

"I never saw a more touching scene. Bourgeat insisted on buying for me the case of instruments mounted in silver which you have seen in my room, and which is to me the most precious thing there. Though enchanted with my first success, never did the least sign, the least word, escape him which might imply, 'This man owes all to me!' And yet, but for him, I should have died of want; he had eaten bread rubbed with garlic that I might have coffee to enable me to sit up at night.

"I've never seen a more moving scene. Bourgeat insisted on buying me the case of silver instruments that you’ve seen in my room, which is the most valuable thing I own. Even though I was thrilled with my first success, he never once hinted or said anything that suggested, 'This man owes everything to me!' But if it weren't for him, I would have starved; he had eaten bread smeared with garlic just so I could have coffee to keep me awake at night."

"He fell ill. As you may suppose, I passed my nights by his bedside, and the first time I pulled him through; but two years after he had a relapse; in spite of the utmost care, in spite of the greatest exertions of science, he succumbed. No king was ever nursed as he was. Yes, Bianchon, to snatch that man from death I tried unheard-of things. I wanted him to live long enough to show him his work accomplished, to realize all his hopes, to give expression to the only need for gratitude that ever filled my heart, to quench a fire that burns in me to this day.

He got sick. As you can imagine, I spent my nights by his bedside, and the first time I managed to pull him through; but two years later, he had a relapse; despite my best efforts and the greatest advancements in medicine, he didn't make it. No king was ever cared for the way he was. Yes, Bianchon, I tried the most extraordinary measures to save him from death. I wanted him to live long enough to see his work finished, to achieve all his dreams, to express the only feeling of gratitude that ever filled my heart, to extinguish a fire that still burns in me to this day.

"Bourgeat, my second father, died in my arms," Desplein went on, after a pause, visibly moved. "He left me everything he possessed by a will he had had made by a public scrivener, dating from the year when we had gone to live in the Cour de Rohan.

"Bourgeat, my second father, died in my arms," Desplein continued, after a pause, clearly emotional. "He left me everything he owned in a will he had drawn up by a public notary, dated from the year we moved into the Cour de Rohan.

"This man's faith was perfect; he loved the Holy Virgin as he might have loved his wife. He was an ardent Catholic, but never said a word to me about my want of religion. When he was dying he entreated me to spare no expense that he might have every possible benefit of clergy. I had a mass said for him every day. Often, in the night, he would tell me of his fears as to his future fate; he feared his life had not been saintly enough. Poor man! he was at work from morning till night. For whom, then, is Paradise—if there be a Paradise? He received the last sacrament like the saint that he was, and his death was worthy of his life.

"This man's faith was unwavering; he loved the Holy Virgin as he might have loved his wife. He was a devoted Catholic but never commented on my lack of religion. As he was dying, he asked me to spare no expense to ensure he received every possible benefit from the clergy. I had a mass held for him every day. Often at night, he would share his fears about what would happen to him after death; he worried that his life hadn't been holy enough. Poor man! He worked tirelessly from morning until night. So, for whom is Paradise—if there is such a thing? He received the last rites with the grace of a saint, and his death reflected the integrity of his life."

"I alone followed him to the grave. When I had laid my only benefactor to rest, I looked about to see how I could pay my debt to him; I found he had neither family nor friends, neither wife nor child. But he believed. He had a religious conviction; had I any right to dispute it? He had spoken to me timidly of masses said for the repose of the dead; he would not impress it on me as a duty, thinking that it would be a form of repayment for his services. As soon as I had money enough I paid to Saint-Sulpice the requisite sum for four masses every year. As the only thing I can do for Bourgeat is thus to satisfy his pious wishes, on the days when that mass is said, at the beginning of each season of the year, I go for his sake and say the required prayers; and I say with the good faith of a sceptic—'Great God, if there is a sphere which Thou hast appointed after death for those who have been perfect, remember good Bourgeat; and if he should have anything to suffer, let me suffer it for him, that he may enter all the sooner into what is called Paradise.'

"I alone followed him to the grave. After I buried my only benefactor, I looked around to see how I could repay him; I discovered he had no family or friends, no wife or child. But he had faith. He held strong religious beliefs; did I have any right to challenge that? He had timidly mentioned masses said for the souls of the dead; he didn't push it on me as a duty, thinking it would be a way to repay him for his kindness. As soon as I had enough money, I paid Saint-Sulpice for the necessary fees for four masses each year. Since the only thing I can do for Bourgeat is to fulfill his pious wishes, on the days when those masses are held, at the start of each season, I go and say the required prayers for him; and I pray earnestly, even as a skeptic—'Great God, if there is a place You have prepared for those who are perfect after death, please remember good Bourgeat; and if he is suffering in any way, let me take on that suffering for him, so that he may enter what is referred to as Paradise all the sooner.'"

"That, my dear fellow, is as much as a man who holds my opinions can allow himself. But God must be a good fellow; He cannot owe me any grudge. I swear to you, I would give my whole fortune if faith such as Bourgeat's could enter my brain."

"That, my friend, is all a person like me can allow for. But God must be a good guy; He can't hold any grudges against me. I swear, I would give up my entire fortune if I could believe like Bourgeat does."

Bianchon, who was with Desplein all through his last illness, dares not affirm to this day that the great surgeon died an atheist. Will not those who believe like to fancy that the humble Auvergnat came to open the gate of Heaven to his friend, as he did that of the earthly temple on whose pediment we read the words—"A grateful country to its great men."

Bianchon, who stayed with Desplein throughout his last illness, still won’t say for sure that the great surgeon died an atheist. Isn’t it nice for those who believe to imagine that the humble Auvergnat welcomed his friend at the gates of Heaven, just as he did at the earthly temple where we read the words—"A grateful country to its great men."

PARIS, January 1836.

PARIS, January 1836.





ADDENDUM

The following personages appear in other stories of the Human Comedy.

     Bianchon, Horace
       Father Goriot
       Cesar Birotteau
       The Commission in Lunacy
       Lost Illusions
       A Distinguished Provincial at Paris
       A Bachelor's Establishment
       The Secrets of a Princess
       The Government Clerks
       Pierrette
       A Study of Woman
       Scenes from a Courtesan's Life
       Honorine
       The Seamy Side of History
       The Magic Skin
       A Second Home
       A Prince of Bohemia
       Letters of Two Brides
       The Muse of the Department
       The Imaginary Mistress
       The Middle Classes
       Cousin Betty
       The Country Parson
     In addition, M. Bianchon narrated the following:
       Another Study of Woman
       La Grande Breteche

     Desplein
       Cousin Pons
       Lost Illusions
       The Thirteen
       The Government Clerks
       Pierrette
       A Bachelor's Establishment
       The Seamy Side of History
       Modeste Mignon
       Scenes from a Courtesan's Life
       Honorine
     Bianchon, Horace  
       Father Goriot  
       Cesar Birotteau  
       The Commission in Lunacy  
       Lost Illusions  
       A Distinguished Provincial in Paris  
       A Bachelor's Household  
       The Secrets of a Princess  
       The Government Clerks  
       Pierrette  
       A Study of Woman  
       Scenes from a Courtesan's Life  
       Honorine  
       The Dark Side of History  
       The Magic Skin  
       A Second Home  
       A Prince of Bohemia  
       Letters of Two Brides  
       The Muse of the Department  
       The Imaginary Mistress  
       The Middle Classes  
       Cousin Betty  
       The Country Parson  
     Additionally, M. Bianchon shared the following:  
       Another Study of Woman  
       La Grande Breteche  

     Desplein  
       Cousin Pons  
       Lost Illusions  
       The Thirteen  
       The Government Clerks  
       Pierrette  
       A Bachelor's Household  
       The Dark Side of History  
       Modeste Mignon  
       Scenes from a Courtesan's Life  
       Honorine  











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