Chapter 1
The Floressas Des Esseintes, to judge by the various portraits preserved in the Château de Lourps, had originally been a family of stalwart troopers and stern cavalry men. Closely arrayed, side by side, in the old frames which their broad shoulders filled, they startled one with the fixed gaze of their eyes, their fierce moustaches and the chests whose deep curves filled the enormous shells of their cuirasses.
The Floressas Des Esseintes, based on the various portraits kept in the Château de Lourps, had originally been a family of strong soldiers and serious cavalry men. Standing close together in the old frames that their broad shoulders filled, they startled viewers with their intense stares, fierce mustaches, and chests that filled the large curves of their armored vests.
These were the ancestors. There were no portraits of their descendants and a wide breach existed in the series of the faces of this race. Only one painting served as a link to connect the past and present—a crafty, mysterious head with haggard and gaunt features, cheekbones punctuated with a comma of paint, the hair overspread with pearls, a painted neck rising stiffly from the fluted ruff.
These were the ancestors. There were no pictures of their descendants, and a big gap existed in the faces of this race. Only one painting served as a link to connect the past and present—a sly, mysterious head with tired and thin features, cheekbones highlighted with a stroke of paint, hair adorned with pearls, and a painted neck rising rigidly from the fluted collar.
In this representation of one of the most intimate friends of the Duc d'Epernon and the Marquis d'O, the ravages of a sluggish and impoverished constitution were already noticeable.
In this portrayal of one of the closest friends of the Duke of Epernon and the Marquis de O, the effects of a weak and depleted constitution were already evident.
It was obvious that the decadence of this family had followed an unvarying course. The effemination of the males had continued with quickened tempo. As if to conclude the work of long years, the Des Esseintes had intermarried for two centuries, using up, in such consanguineous unions, such strength as remained.
It was clear that the decline of this family had followed a consistent path. The softness of the men had accelerated over time. As if to wrap up the work of many years, the Des Esseintes had intermarried for two centuries, depleting whatever strength they had left through these close family unions.
There was only one living scion of this family which had once been so numerous that it had occupied all the territories of the Ile-de-France and La Brie. The Duc Jean was a slender, nervous young man of thirty, with hollow cheeks, cold, steel-blue eyes, a straight, thin nose and delicate hands.
There was only one surviving member of this family, which had once been so large that it filled all the lands of the Île-de-France and La Brie. The Duke John was a slim, anxious young man of thirty, with gaunt cheeks, cold, steel-blue eyes, a straight, thin nose, and delicate hands.
By a singular, atavistic reversion, the last descendant resembled the old grandsire, from whom he had inherited the pointed, remarkably fair beard and an ambiguous expression, at once weary and cunning.
By a unique, old-fashioned throwback, the last descendant looked like his ancient grandfather, from whom he had inherited the sharp, very light beard and a confusing expression that was both tired and sly.
His childhood had been an unhappy one. Menaced with scrofula and afflicted with relentless fevers, he yet succeeded in crossing the breakers of adolescence, thanks to fresh air and careful attention. He grew stronger, overcame the languors of chlorosis and reached his full development.
His childhood had been unhappy. Battling scrofula and plagued by relentless fevers, he still managed to get through adolescence, thanks to fresh air and careful attention. He grew stronger, overcame the fatigue of chlorosis, and reached his full potential.
His mother, a tall, pale, taciturn woman, died of anæmia, and his father of some uncertain malady. Des Esseintes was then seventeen years of age.
His mother, a tall, pale, quiet woman, died of anemia, and his father of some unknown illness. Des Esseintes was then seventeen years old.
He retained but a vague memory of his parents and felt neither affection nor gratitude for them. He hardly knew his father, who usually resided in Paris. He recalled his mother as she lay motionless in a dim room of the Château de Lourps. The husband and wife would meet on rare occasions, and he remembered those lifeless interviews when his parents sat face to face in front of a round table faintly lit by a lamp with a wide, low-hanging shade, for the duchesse could not endure light or sound without being seized with a fit of nervousness. A few, halting words would be exchanged between them in the gloom and then the indifferent duc would depart to meet the first train back to Paris.
He only had a vague memory of his parents and didn’t feel any affection or gratitude toward them. He barely knew his father, who usually lived in Paris. He remembered his mother lying still in a dim room at the Château de Lourps. The husband and wife would meet rarely, and he recalled those lifeless encounters when his parents sat across from each other at a round table softly lit by a lamp with a wide, low-hanging shade, since the duchess couldn’t handle light or noise without getting anxious. A few awkward words would be exchanged in the darkness, and then the indifferent duc would leave to catch the first train back to Paris.
Jean's life at the Jesuit school, where he was sent to study, was more pleasant. At first the Fathers pampered the lad whose intelligence astonished them. But despite their efforts, they could not induce him to concentrate on studies requiring discipline. He nibbled at various books and was precociously brilliant in Latin. On the contrary, he was absolutely incapable of construing two Greek words, showed no aptitude for living languages and promptly proved himself a dunce when obliged to master the elements of the sciences.
Jeans's life at the Jesuit school, where he was sent to study, was more enjoyable. At first, the Fathers spoiled the boy, whose intelligence amazed them. But despite their efforts, they couldn't get him to focus on subjects that needed discipline. He skimmed through different books and was impressively smart in Latin. However, he was completely unable to make sense of two Greek words, showed no skill in modern languages, and quickly showed himself to be clueless when it came to grasping the basics of science.
His family gave him little heed. Sometimes his father visited him at school. "How are you . . . be good . . . study hard . . . "—and he was gone. The lad passed the summer vacations at the Château de Lourps, but his presence could not seduce his mother from her reveries. She scarcely noticed him; when she did, her gaze would rest on him for a moment with a sad smile—and that was all. The moment after she would again become absorbed in the artificial night with which the heavily curtained windows enshrouded the room.
His family paid him little attention. Sometimes his dad would visit him at school. "How are you... be good... study hard..."—and then he was gone. The boy spent the summer vacations at the Château de Lourps, but his presence couldn't pull his mom out of her daydreams. She hardly noticed him; when she did, she would look at him for a moment with a sad smile—and that was it. Just after, she would become lost again in the artificial darkness created by the heavy curtains covering the windows in the room.
The servants were old and dull. Left to himself, the boy delved into books on rainy days and roamed about the countryside on pleasant afternoons.
The servants were old and boring. When he was alone, the boy got lost in books on rainy days and explored the countryside on nice afternoons.
It was his supreme delight to wander down the little valley to Jutigny, a village planted at the foot of the hills, a tiny heap of cottages capped with thatch strewn with tufts of sengreen and clumps of moss. In the open fields, under the shadow of high ricks, he would lie, listening to the hollow splashing of the mills and inhaling the fresh breeze from Voulzie. Sometimes he went as far as the peat-bogs, to the green and black hamlet of Longueville, or climbed wind-swept hillsides affording magnificent views. There, below to one side, as far as the eye could reach, lay the Seine valley, blending in the distance with the blue sky; high up, near the horizon, on the other side, rose the churches and tower of Provins which seemed to tremble in the golden dust of the air.
It was his greatest joy to stroll down the small valley to Jutigny, a village nestled at the base of the hills, a tiny cluster of cottages topped with thatch, scattered with patches of greenery and clumps of moss. In the open fields, under the shade of tall haystacks, he would lie back, listening to the distant splashing of the mills and breathing in the fresh breeze from Voulzie. Sometimes he ventured all the way to the peat-bogs, to the green and black village of Longueville, or climbed the wind-swept hills that offered stunning views. There, below on one side, stretching as far as the eye could see, lay the Seine River valley, merging with the blue sky in the distance; high up near the horizon on the other side, rose the churches and tower of Provins, France, shimmering in the golden dust of the air.
Immersed in solitude, he would dream or read far into the night. By protracted contemplation of the same thoughts, his mind grew sharp, his vague, undeveloped ideas took on form. After each vacation, Jean returned to his masters more reflective and headstrong. These changes did not escape them. Subtle and observant, accustomed by their profession to plumb souls to their depths, they were fully aware of his unresponsiveness to their teachings. They knew that this student would never contribute to the glory of their order, and as his family was rich and apparently careless of his future, they soon renounced the idea of having him take up any of the professions their school offered. Although he willingly discussed with them those theological doctrines which intrigued his fancy by their subtleties and hair-splittings, they did not even think of training him for the religious orders, since, in spite of their efforts, his faith remained languid. As a last resort, through prudence and fear of the harm he might effect, they permitted him to pursue whatever studies pleased him and to neglect the others, being loath to antagonize this bold and independent spirit by the quibblings of the lay school assistants.
Lost in his own thoughts, he would dream or read late into the night. By spending extended time focusing on the same ideas, his mind sharpened, and his vague, undeveloped thoughts began to take shape. After each break, Jean returned to his teachers more reflective and determined. They noticed these changes. Subtle and perceptive, trained by their profession to understand people deeply, they recognized his indifference to their lessons. They realized this student would never bring honor to their order, and since his family was wealthy and seemingly unconcerned about his future, they quickly gave up on the idea of him pursuing any of the careers their school offered. Although he engaged eagerly in discussions about theological doctrines that piqued his interest with their complexities and nuances, they did not consider preparing him for the religious orders, as, despite their efforts, his faith remained weak. As a last resort, out of caution and concern for any negative impact he might have, they allowed him to study whatever he wanted and ignore the other subjects, unwilling to upset this bold and independent spirit with the nitpicking of the lay school assistants.
Thus he lived in perfect contentment, scarcely feeling the parental yoke of the priests. He continued his Latin and French studies when the whim seized him and, although theology did not figure in his schedule, he finished his apprenticeship in this science, begun at the Château de Lourps, in the library bequeathed by his grand-uncle, Dom Prosper, the old prior of the regular canons of Saint-Ruf.
Thus he lived in perfect happiness, barely noticing the controlling influence of the priests. He pursued his Latin and French studies whenever he felt like it, and even though theology wasn't part of his routine, he completed his apprenticeship in that subject, which had started at the Château de Lourps, in the library left to him by his grand-uncle, Father Prosper, the old prior of the regular canons of Saint-Ruf.
But soon the time came when he must quit the Jesuit institution. He attained his majority and became master of his fortune. The Comte de Montchevrel, his cousin and guardian, placed in his hands the title to his wealth. There was no intimacy between them, for there was no possible point of contact between these two men, the one young, the other old. Impelled by curiosity, idleness or politeness, Des Esseintes sometimes visited the Montchevrel family and spent some dull evenings in their Rue de la Chaise mansion where the ladies, old as antiquity itself, would gossip of quarterings of the noble arms, heraldic moons and anachronistic ceremonies.
But soon it was time for him to leave the Jesuit school. He came of age and took control of his fortune. The Count of Montchevrel, his cousin and guardian, handed him the title to his wealth. There wasn’t any closeness between them, as there was no common ground between these two men, one young and the other old. Out of curiosity, boredom, or politeness, Des Esseintes sometimes visited the Montchevrel family and spent some dull evenings in their Rue de la Chaise mansion, where the ladies, as old as time itself, would chat about noble lineages, heraldic moons, and outdated ceremonies.
The men, gathered around whist tables, proved even more shallow and insignificant than the dowagers; these descendants of ancient, courageous knights, these last branches of feudal races, appeared to Des Esseintes as catarrhal, crazy, old men repeating inanities and time-worn phrases. A fleur de lis seemed the sole imprint on the soft pap of their brains.
The men, gathered around card tables, turned out to be even more petty and unremarkable than the older women; these descendants of ancient, brave knights, the last remnants of feudal families, seemed to Des Esseintes as senile, eccentric old men endlessly repeating meaningless chatter and tired phrases. A fleur de lis appeared to be the only mark on the soft mush of their minds.
The youth felt an unutterable pity for these mummies buried in their elaborate hypogeums of wainscoting and grotto work, for these tedious triflers whose eyes were forever turned towards a hazy Canaan, an imaginary Palestine.
The young person felt an indescribable pity for these mummies buried in their ornate underground chambers decorated with paneling and grotto designs, for these tiresome dreamers whose eyes were always fixed on a distant Canaan, a made-up Palestine.
After a few visits with such relatives, he resolved never again to set foot in their homes, regardless of invitations or reproaches.
After a few visits with those relatives, he decided he would never return to their homes, no matter the invitations or complaints.
Then he began to seek out the young men of his own age and set.
Then he started looking for young men his age and social group.
One group, educated like himself in religious institutions, preserved the special marks of this training. They attended religious services, received the sacrament on Easter, frequented the Catholic circles and concealed as criminal their amorous escapades. For the most part, they were unintelligent, acquiescent fops, stupid bores who had tried the patience of their professors. Yet these professors were pleased to have bestowed such docile, pious creatures upon society.
One group, just like him, was educated in religious institutions and showed the typical signs of this training. They went to religious services, took communion on Easter, hung out in Catholic social circles, and hid their romantic adventures as if they were crimes. Mostly, they were not very bright, compliant pretenders, dull people who had worn out their professors’ patience. Still, these professors were happy to have sent such obedient, devout individuals into the world.
The other group, educated in the state colleges or in the lycées, were less hypocritical and much more courageous, but they were neither more interesting nor less bigoted. Gay young men dazzled by operettas and races, they played lansquenet and baccarat, staked large fortunes on horses and cards, and cultivated all the pleasures enchanting to brainless fools. After a year's experience, Des Esseintes felt an overpowering weariness of this company whose debaucheries seemed to him so unrefined, facile and indiscriminate without any ardent reactions or excitement of nerves and blood.
The other group, educated in state colleges or in the high schools, were less hypocritical and much braver, but they were neither more interesting nor less narrow-minded. Partying young men who were captivated by musicals and horse races, they played lansquenet and baccarat, bet big money on horses and cards, and indulged in all the pleasures that appealed to shallow fools. After a year, Des Esseintes felt a deep exhaustion from this crowd whose wild behavior seemed to him so unrefined, easy, and indiscriminate without any passionate reactions or thrills of nerves and blood.
He gradually forsook them to make the acquaintance of literary men, in whom he thought he might find more interest and feel more at ease. This, too, proved disappointing; he was revolted by their rancorous and petty judgments, their conversation as obvious as a church door, their dreary discussions in which they judged the value of a book by the number of editions it had passed and by the profits acquired. At the same time, he noticed that the free thinkers, the doctrinaires of the bourgeoisie, people who claimed every liberty that they might stifle the opinions of others, were greedy and shameless puritans whom, in education, he esteemed inferior to the corner shoemaker.
He gradually abandoned his old friends to meet literary people, thinking he might find them more interesting and feel more comfortable. This turned out to be disappointing as well; he was put off by their bitter and petty judgments, their conversations as predictable as a church door, and their dull discussions where they valued a book by how many editions it had gone through and how much money it made. At the same time, he noticed that the free thinkers, the ideologues of the middle class—people who demanded every freedom only to suppress the opinions of others—were greedy and shameless puritans whom he considered inferior in education to the local shoemaker.
His contempt for humanity deepened. He reached the conclusion that the world, for the most part, was composed of scoundrels and imbeciles. Certainly, he could not hope to discover in others aspirations and aversions similar to his own, could not expect companionship with an intelligence exulting in a studious decrepitude, nor anticipate meeting a mind as keen as his among the writers and scholars.
His disdain for humanity grew stronger. He concluded that, for the most part, the world was filled with crooks and fools. Definitely, he couldn't expect to find in others ambitions and dislikes similar to his own, couldn't hope for companionship with someone who reveled in a scholarly decline, nor look forward to encountering a mind as sharp as his among writers and scholars.
Irritated, ill at ease and offended by the poverty of ideas given and received, he became like those people described by Nicole—those who are always melancholy. He would fly into a rage when he read the patriotic and social balderdash retailed daily in the newspapers, and would exaggerate the significance of the plaudits which a sovereign public always reserves for works deficient in ideas and style.
Irritated, uncomfortable, and offended by the lack of ideas exchanged, he became like those people described by Nicole—those who are always sad. He would become furious when he read the patriotic and social nonsense published daily in the newspapers and would overstate the importance of the praise that the public always gives to works lacking in ideas and style.
Already, he was dreaming of a refined solitude, a comfortable desert, a motionless ark in which to seek refuge from the unending deluge of human stupidity.
Already, he was dreaming of a peaceful solitude, a cozy desert, a still sanctuary where he could escape from the endless flood of human foolishness.
A single passion, woman, might have curbed his contempt, but that, too, had palled on him. He had taken to carnal repasts with the eagerness of a crotchety man affected with a depraved appetite and given to sudden hungers, whose taste is quickly dulled and surfeited. Associating with country squires, he had taken part in their lavish suppers where, at dessert, tipsy women would unfasten their clothing and strike their heads against the tables; he had haunted the green rooms, loved actresses and singers, endured, in addition to the natural stupidity he had come to expect of women, the maddening vanity of female strolling players. Finally, satiated and weary of this monotonous extravagance and the sameness of their caresses, he had plunged into the foul depths, hoping by the contrast of squalid misery to revive his desires and stimulate his deadened senses.
A single passion, women, might have kept his contempt in check, but that, too, had lost its appeal for him. He had indulged in physical pleasures with the eagerness of a cranky man with a twisted appetite who often had sudden cravings, whose taste quickly turned bland and oversaturated. Hanging out with wealthy landowners, he had joined their extravagant dinners where, during dessert, intoxicated women would loosen their clothes and bang their heads on the tables; he had frequented backstage areas, romanced actresses and singers, and endured, in addition to the usual foolishness he had come to expect from women, the exasperating vanity of female performers. Eventually, feeling tired and fed up with this repetitive extravagance and the sameness of their affections, he had plunged into the grim depths, hoping that the sharp contrast of miserable conditions would rekindle his desires and awaken his numb senses.
Whatever he attempted proved vain; an unconquerable ennui oppressed him. Yet he persisted in his excesses and returned to the perilous embraces of accomplished mistresses. But his health failed, his nervous system collapsed, the back of his neck grew sensitive, his hand, still firm when it seized a heavy object, trembled when it held a tiny glass.
Whatever he tried ended up being pointless; an overwhelming boredom weighed down on him. Still, he kept going to extremes and returned to the risky arms of skilled mistresses. But his health deteriorated, his nerves gave out, the back of his neck became sensitive, and although his hand remained steady when gripping something heavy, it shook when he held a delicate glass.
The physicians whom he consulted frightened him. It was high time to check his excesses and renounce those pursuits which were dissipating his reserve of strength! For a while he was at peace, but his brain soon became over-excited. Like those young girls who, in the grip of puberty, crave coarse and vile foods, he dreamed of and practiced perverse loves and pleasures. This was the end! As though satisfied with having exhausted everything, as though completely surrendering to fatigue, his senses fell into a lethargy and impotence threatened him.
The doctors he spoke to scared him. It was time to rein in his excesses and give up the habits that were draining his energy! For a bit, he felt calm, but soon his mind became too active. Like young girls going through puberty who crave unhealthy and disgusting foods, he fantasized about and engaged in twisted loves and pleasures. This was the end! As if he was content with having pushed himself to the limit, as if completely giving in to exhaustion, his senses fell into a state of lethargy, and impotence loomed over him.
He recovered, but he was lonely, tired, sobered, imploring an end to his life which the cowardice of his flesh prevented him from consummating.
He got better, but he felt lonely, exhausted, and sober, desperately wishing for his life to end, which his body's weakness stopped him from achieving.
Once more he was toying with the idea of becoming a recluse, of living in some hushed retreat where the turmoil of life would be muffled—as in those streets covered with straw to prevent any sound from reaching invalids.
Once again, he was considering the idea of becoming a recluse, of living in a quiet retreat where the chaos of life would be silenced—like those streets covered with straw to keep any noise from disturbing the sick.
It was time to make up his mind. The condition of his finances terrified him. He had spent, in acts of folly and in drinking bouts, the greater part of his patrimony, and the remainder, invested in land, produced a ridiculously small income.
It was time to decide. His financial situation scared him. He had wasted most of his inheritance on foolish decisions and drinking sprees, and the little he had left, invested in land, barely brought in any income.
He decided to sell the Château de Lourps, which he no longer visited and where he left no memory or regret behind. He liquidated his other holdings, bought government bonds and in this way drew an annual interest of fifty thousand francs; in addition, he reserved a sum of money which he meant to use in buying and furnishing the house where he proposed to enjoy a perfect repose.
He decided to sell the Château de Lourps, which he no longer visited and where he had no memories or regrets. He got rid of his other assets, bought government bonds, and earned an annual interest of fifty thousand francs; additionally, he set aside some money to buy and furnish the house where he planned to enjoy perfect relaxation.
Exploring the suburbs of the capital, he found a place for sale at the top of Fontenay-aux-Roses, in a secluded section near the fort, far from any neighbors. His dream was realized! In this country place so little violated by Parisians, he could be certain of seclusion. The difficulty of reaching the place, due to an unreliable railroad passing by at the end of the town, and to the little street cars which came and went at irregular intervals, reassured him. He could picture himself alone on the bluff, sufficiently far away to prevent the Parisian throngs from reaching him, and yet near enough to the capital to confirm him in his solitude. And he felt that in not entirely closing the way, there was a chance that he would not be assailed by a wish to return to society, seeing that it is only the impossible, the unachievable that arouses desire.
Exploring the suburbs of the capital, he found a property for sale at the top of Fontenay-aux-Roses, in a quiet area near the fort, far from any neighbors. His dream had come true! In this country spot largely untouched by Parisians, he could be sure of privacy. The challenge of getting to the place, thanks to an unreliable train service that passed by at the edge of town and the infrequent streetcars, actually gave him peace of mind. He could imagine himself alone on the bluff, far enough away to keep the Parisian crowds from reaching him, yet close enough to the city to reinforce his solitude. He felt that by not completely blocking his way back, there was a chance he wouldn’t be overwhelmed by a desire to return to society, since it’s only the unattainable that sparks desire.
He put masons to work on the house he had acquired. Then, one day, informing no one of his plans, he quickly disposed of his old furniture, dismissed his servants, and left without giving the concierge any address.
He hired workers to start on the house he had bought. Then, one day, without telling anyone his plans, he quickly got rid of his old furniture, let go of his servants, and left without giving the concierge any address.
Chapter 2
More than two months passed before Des Esseintes could bury himself in the silent repose of his Fontenay abode. He was obliged to go to Paris again, to comb the city in his search for the things he wanted to buy.
More info than two months went by before Des Esseintes could settle into the quiet comfort of his Fontenay home. He had to head back to Paris once more to search the city for the items he wanted to buy.
What care he took, what meditations he surrendered himself to, before turning over his house to the upholsterers!
What care he took, what thoughts he gave himself to, before handing over his house to the upholsterers!
He had long been a connoisseur in the sincerities and evasions of color-tones. In the days when he had entertained women at his home, he had created a boudoir where, amid daintily carved furniture of pale, Japanese camphor-wood, under a sort of pavillion of Indian rose-tinted satin, the flesh would color delicately in the borrowed lights of the silken hangings.
He had long been an expert in the subtleties and deceptions of color shades. During the times when he hosted women at his home, he had designed a bedroom where, surrounded by elegantly carved furniture made of light Japanese camphor wood, beneath a kind of pavilion of Indian rose-tinted satin, the skin would glow softly in the reflected lights of the silk drapes.
This room, each of whose sides was lined with mirrors that echoed each other all along the walls, reflecting, as far as the eye could reach, whole series of rose boudoirs, had been celebrated among the women who loved to immerse their nudity in this bath of warm carnation, made fragrant with the odor of mint emanating from the exotic wood of the furniture.
This room, with mirrors on every side that reflected each other along the walls, showed endless rows of rosy boudoirs as far as the eye could see. It was famous among women who enjoyed soaking their naked bodies in this warm pink bath, filled with the scent of mint coming from the exotic wood of the furniture.
Aside from the sensual delights for which he had designed this chamber, this painted atmosphere which gave new color to faces grown dull and withered by the use of ceruse and by nights of dissipation, there were other, more personal and perverse pleasures which he enjoyed in these languorous surroundings,—pleasures which in some way stimulated memories of his past pains and dead ennuis.
Aside from the sensual pleasures he had created in this room, this vibrant setting that brought life back to faces that had become tired and worn from makeup and nights of excess, there were also other, more intimate and twisted pleasures that he found in these relaxing surroundings—pleasures that somehow triggered memories of his past suffering and boredom.
As a souvenir of the hated days of his childhood, he had suspended from the ceiling a small silver-wired cage where a captive cricket sang as if in the ashes of the chimneys of the Château de Lourps. Listening to the sound he had so often heard before, he lived over again the silent evenings spent near his mother, the wretchedness of his suffering, repressed youth. And then, while he yielded to the voluptuousness of the woman he mechanically caressed, whose words or laughter tore him from his revery and rudely recalled him to the moment, to the boudoir, to reality, a tumult arose in his soul, a need of avenging the sad years he had endured, a mad wish to sully the recollections of his family by shameful action, a furious desire to pant on cushions of flesh, to drain to their last dregs the most violent of carnal vices.
As a reminder of the awful days of his childhood, he had hung from the ceiling a small silver-wired cage where a trapped cricket sang as if in the ashes of the chimneys of the Château de Lourps. Listening to the sound he had heard so many times before, he relived the quiet evenings spent with his mother, the misery of his suffering, and his repressed youth. Then, while he surrendered to the pleasure of the woman he was mechanically touching, whose words or laughter pulled him from his daydream and abruptly brought him back to the moment, to the boudoir, to reality, a storm stirred within him, a need to avenge the sad years he had endured, a wild desire to tarnish the memories of his family with shameful actions, a fierce longing to sink into flesh cushions, to indulge in the most intense carnal vices until there was nothing left.
On rainy autumnal days when melancholy oppressed him, when a hatred of his home, the muddy yellow skies, the macadam clouds assailed him, he took refuge in this retreat, set the cage lightly in motion and watched it endlessly reflected in the play of the mirrors, until it seemed to his dazed eyes that the cage no longer stirred, but that the boudoir reeled and turned, filling the house with a rose-colored waltz.
On rainy autumn days when he felt overwhelmed by sadness, when he despised his home, the muddy yellow skies, and the gray clouds surrounding him, he sought solace in this retreat. He gently set the cage in motion and watched it endlessly reflected in the mirrors, until it seemed to his dazed eyes that the cage was no longer moving, but that the room itself was spinning, filling the house with a rosy waltz.
In the days when he had deemed it necessary to affect singularity, Des Esseintes had designed marvelously strange furnishings, dividing his salon into a series of alcoves hung with varied tapestries to relate by a subtle analogy, by a vague harmony of joyous or sombre, delicate or barbaric colors to the character of the Latin or French books he loved. And he would seclude himself in turn in the particular recess whose décor seemed best to correspond with the very essence of the work his caprice of the moment induced him to read.
In the days when he thought it was important to stand out, Des Esseintes created incredibly unique furniture, separating his living room into a series of alcoves draped with different tapestries to subtly connect, through a vague harmony of bright or dark, delicate or wild colors, to the nature of the Latin or French books he loved. He would take time to isolate himself in the specific nook whose décor seemed to match perfectly with the essence of the book he felt like reading at that moment.
He had constructed, too, a lofty high room intended for the reception of his tradesmen. Here they were ushered in and seated alongside each other in church pews, while from a pulpit he preached to them a sermon on dandyism, adjuring his bootmakers and tailors implicitly to obey his briefs in the matter of style, threatening them with pecuniary excommunication if they failed to follow to the letter the instructions contained in his monitories and bulls.
He had also built a tall room meant for meeting with his tradesmen. They were brought in and seated next to each other in church pews, while he stood at a podium preaching to them about dandyism, urging his shoemakers and tailors to implicitly follow his guidelines on style, threatening them with financial exclusion if they didn’t adhere exactly to the instructions in his notices and decrees.
He acquired the reputation of an eccentric, which he enhanced by wearing costumes of white velvet, and gold-embroidered waistcoats, by inserting, in place of a cravat, a Parma bouquet in the opening of his shirt, by giving famous dinners to men of letters, one of which, a revival of the eighteenth century, celebrating the most futile of his misadventures, was a funeral repast.
He gained a reputation for being eccentric, which he boosted by wearing white velvet outfits and gold-embroidered vests, by replacing his cravat with a Parma bouquet in the collar of his shirt, and by hosting famous dinners for literary figures. One of these dinners, a throwback to the eighteenth century, celebrated the most trivial of his misadventures and turned out to be a funeral feast.
In the dining room, hung in black and opening on the transformed garden with its ash-powdered walks, its little pool now bordered with basalt and filled with ink, its clumps of cypresses and pines, the dinner had been served on a table draped in black, adorned with baskets of violets and scabiouses, lit by candelabra from which green flames blazed, and by chandeliers from which wax tapers flared.
In the dining room, painted black and overlooking the revamped garden with its ash-covered paths, its small pool now lined with basalt and filled with ink, and its clusters of cypress and pine trees, dinner had been served on a table covered in black cloth, decorated with baskets of violets and scabious flowers, illuminated by candelabra with green flames and chandeliers from which wax candles flickered.
To the sound of funeral marches played by a concealed orchestra, nude negresses, wearing slippers and stockings of silver cloth with patterns of tears, served the guests.
To the sound of funeral marches played by a hidden orchestra, naked Black women, wearing slippers and stockings made of silver fabric with tear patterns, served the guests.
Out of black-edged plates they had drunk turtle soup and eaten Russian rye bread, ripe Turkish olives, caviar, smoked Frankfort black pudding, game with sauces that were the color of licorice and blacking, truffle gravy, chocolate cream, puddings, nectarines, grape preserves, mulberries and black-heart cherries; they had sipped, out of dark glasses, wines from Limagne, Roussillon, Tenedos, Val de Penas and Porto, and after the coffee and walnut brandy had partaken of kvas and porter and stout.
They had eaten turtle soup and had Russian rye bread, ripe Turkish olives, caviar, smoked black pudding from Frankfurt, and game with sauces that were black and chewy, truffle gravy, chocolate cream, puddings, nectarines, grape preserves, mulberries, and black cherries; they had sipped, from dark glasses, wines from Limagne, Roussillon, Tenedos, Val de Penas, and Porto, and after the coffee and walnut brandy, they enjoyed kefir and porter and stout.
The farewell dinner to a temporarily dead virility—this was what he had written on invitation cards designed like bereavement notices.
The farewell dinner for a temporarily lost sex drive—this is what he had written on invitation cards styled like funeral announcements.
But he was done with those extravagances in which he had once gloried. Today, he was filled with a contempt for those juvenile displays, the singular apparel, the appointments of his bizarre chambers. He contented himself with planning, for his own pleasure, and no longer for the astonishment of others, an interior that should be comfortable although embellished in a rare style; with building a curious, calm retreat to serve the needs of his future solitude.
But he was over those extravagances he had once reveled in. Today, he felt disdain for those childish show-offs, the unique outfits, and the odd decorations of his strange rooms. He focused on planning, for his own enjoyment, not to impress others, an interior that would be comfortable yet designed in a distinctive style; creating a unique, peaceful retreat to meet the needs of his future solitude.
When the Fontenay house was in readiness, fitted up by an architect according to his plans, when all that remained was to determine the color scheme, he again devoted himself to long speculations.
When the Fontenay house was ready, designed by an architect based on his plans, and all that was left was to decide on the color scheme, he once again engaged in lengthy thoughts.
He desired colors whose expressiveness would be displayed in the artificial light of lamps. To him it mattered not at all if they were lifeless or crude in daylight, for it was at night that he lived, feeling more completely alone then, feeling that only under the protective covering of darkness did the mind grow really animated and active. He also experienced a peculiar pleasure in being in a richly illuminated room, the only patch of light amid the shadow-haunted, sleeping houses. This was a form of enjoyment in which perhaps entered an element of vanity, that peculiar pleasure known to late workers when, drawing aside the window curtains, they perceive that everything about them is extinguished, silent, dead.
He craved colors that would come alive under the glow of lamps. It didn’t bother him at all if they looked dull or rough in daylight, because he truly lived at night. That was when he felt most alone, sensing that only in the safety of darkness did his thoughts become vibrant and engaged. He also found a strange joy in being in a brightly lit room, a solitary spot of light among the shadowy, sleeping houses. This enjoyment might have had a hint of vanity, similar to the satisfaction felt by night owls when they pull back the curtains and see everything around them faded, silent, and lifeless.
Slowly, one by one, he selected the colors.
Slowly, one by one, he picked the colors.
Blue inclines to a false green by candle light: if it is dark, like cobalt or indigo, it turns black; if it is bright, it turns grey; if it is soft, like turquoise, it grows feeble and faded.
Blue leans towards a fake green in candlelight: in the dark, like cobalt or indigo, it goes black; in bright light, it turns grey; if it’s soft, like turquoise, it becomes weak and faded.
There could be no question of making it the dominant note of a room unless it were blended with some other color.
There’s no way it could be the main color of a room unless it was mixed with another color.
Iron grey always frowns and is heavy; pearl grey loses its blue and changes to a muddy white; brown is lifeless and cold; as for deep green, such as emperor or myrtle, it has the same properties as blue and merges into black. There remained, then, the paler greens, such as peacock, cinnabar or lacquer, but the light banishes their blues and brings out their yellows in tones that have a false and undecided quality.
Iron grey always looks gloomy and feels heavy; pearl grey loses its blue and turns into a murky white; brown is dull and chilly; as for deep green, like emperor or myrtle, it has the same traits as blue and blends into black. This left only the lighter greens, like peacock, cinnabar, or lacquer, but the light washes out their blues and highlights their yellows in shades that seem insincere and uncertain.
No need to waste thought on the salmon, the maize and rose colors whose feminine associations oppose all ideas of isolation! No need to consider the violet which is completely neutralized at night; only the red in it holds its ground—and what a red! a viscous red like the lees of wine. Besides, it seemed useless to employ this color, for by using a certain amount of santonin, he could get an effect of violet on his hangings.
No need to dwell on the salmon, the shades of corn and pink that are linked to femininity and go against the whole idea of being alone! No need to think about the violet, which gets washed out at night; only the red in it stands strong—and what a red! It’s a thick, rich red, like the dregs of wine. Plus, it seemed pointless to use this color because with some santonin, he could achieve a violet effect on his fabrics.
These colors disposed of, only three remained: red, orange, yellow.
These colors set aside, only three were left: red, orange, yellow.
Of these, he preferred orange, thus by his own example confirming the truth of a theory which he declared had almost mathematical correctness—the theory that a harmony exists between the sensual nature of a truly artistic individual and the color which most vividly impresses him.
Of these, he preferred orange, thus confirming through his own example the truth of a theory he claimed had nearly mathematical accuracy—the theory that there is a harmony between the sensual nature of a genuinely artistic person and the color that resonates with them the most.
Disregarding entirely the generality of men whose gross retinas are capable of perceiving neither the cadence peculiar to each color nor the mysterious charm of their nuances of light and shade; ignoring the bourgeoisie, whose eyes are insensible to the pomp and splendor of strong, vibrant tones; and devoting himself only to people with sensitive pupils, refined by literature and art, he was convinced that the eyes of those among them who dream of the ideal and demand illusions are generally caressed by blue and its derivatives, mauve, lilac and pearl grey, provided always that these colors remain soft and do not overstep the bounds where they lose their personalities by being transformed into pure violets and frank greys.
Ignoring completely the majority of people whose dull eyes can't appreciate the unique rhythm of each color or the enchanting subtleties of light and shade; overlooking the middle class, whose vision is indifferent to the grandeur and brilliance of strong, vibrant hues; and focusing solely on those with sensitive eyes, honed by literature and art, he believed that the eyes of those who dream of ideals and yearn for illusions are typically soothed by blue and its shades, as well as mauve, lilac, and pearl gray, as long as these colors remain soft and don’t cross into the territory where they lose their distinctiveness by turning into pure violets and stark grays.
Those persons, on the contrary, who are energetic and incisive, the plethoric, red-blooded, strong males who fling themselves unthinkingly into the affair of the moment, generally delight in the bold gleams of yellows and reds, the clashing cymbals of vermilions and chromes that blind and intoxicate them.
Those people, on the other hand, who are energetic and sharp, the vibrant, passionate, strong individuals who dive headfirst into whatever is happening, usually enjoy the bright bursts of yellows and reds, the clashing sounds of vermilions and chromes that dazzle and thrill them.
But the eyes of enfeebled and nervous persons whose sensual appetites crave highly seasoned foods, the eyes of hectic and over-excited creatures have a predilection toward that irritating and morbid color with its fictitious splendors, its acid fevers—orange.
But the eyes of weak and anxious people whose cravings are for spicy foods, the eyes of restless and overly excited beings are drawn to that annoying and sickly color with its fake brilliance, its intense heat—orange.
Thus, there could be no question about Des Esseintes' choice, but unquestionable difficulties still arose. If red and yellow are heightened by light, the same does not always hold true of their compound, orange, which often seems to ignite and turns to nasturtium, to a flaming red.
Thus, there could be no doubt about Des Esseintes' choice, but certain difficulties still came up. While red and yellow are enhanced by light, the same isn’t always true for their combination, orange, which often appears to glow and shifts to nasturtium, to a bright red.
He studied all their nuances by candlelight, discovering a shade which, it seemed to him, would not lose its dominant tone, but would stand every test required of it. These preliminaries completed, he sought to refrain from using, for his study at least, oriental stuffs and rugs which have become cheapened and ordinary, now that rich merchants can easily pick them up at auctions and shops.
He examined all their details by candlelight, finding a color that, to him, seemed like it wouldn’t lose its main tone and could withstand any necessary test. With those initial steps done, he aimed to avoid using, at least for his study, oriental fabrics and rugs that had become cheap and common now that wealthy merchants can easily acquire them at auctions and stores.
He finally decided to bind his walls, like books, with coarse-grained morocco, with Cape skin, polished by strong steel plates under a powerful press.
He finally decided to cover his walls, like books, with rough-grained morocco leather, using Cape skin, polished by heavy steel plates under a strong press.
When the wainscoting was finished, he had the moulding and high plinths painted in indigo, a lacquered indigo like that which coachmakers employ for carriage panels. The ceiling, slightly rounded, was also lined with morocco. In the center was a wide opening resembling an immense bull's eye encased in orange skin—a circle of the firmament worked out on a background of king blue silk on which were woven silver seraphim with out-stretched wings. This material had long before been embroidered by the Cologne guild of weavers for an old cope.
When the wainscoting was done, he had the molding and tall plinths painted in a shiny indigo, similar to what coachmakers use for carriage panels. The slightly rounded ceiling was also lined with morocco leather. In the center was a large opening that looked like a giant bull's eye surrounded by orange skin—a circle of the sky designed on a king blue silk background with silver seraphim woven in, their wings spread out. This fabric had been embroidered long ago by the Cologne guild of weavers for an old cope.
The setting was complete. At night the room subsided into a restful, soothing harmony. The wainscoting preserved its blue which seemed sustained and warmed by the orange. And the orange remained pure, strengthened and fanned as it was by the insistent breath of the blues.
The atmosphere was perfect. At night, the room settled into a calm, relaxing vibe. The wainscoting kept its blue, which felt enhanced and warmed by the orange. And the orange stayed vibrant, boosted and stirred by the constant presence of the blues.
Des Esseintes was not deeply concerned about the furniture itself. The only luxuries in the room were books and rare flowers. He limited himself to these things, intending later on to hang a few drawings or paintings on the panels which remained bare; to place shelves and book racks of ebony around the walls; to spread the pelts of wild beasts and the skins of blue fox on the floor; to install, near a massive fifteenth century counting-table, deep armchairs and an old chapel reading-desk of forged iron, one of those old lecterns on which the deacon formerly placed the antiphonary and which now supported one of the heavy folios of Du Cange's Glossarium mediae et infimae latinitatis.
Des Esseintes didn’t care much about the furniture itself. The only luxuries in the room were books and rare flowers. He kept it simple, planning to later hang a few drawings or paintings on the empty panels; to put ebony shelves and book racks around the walls; to lay down the pelts of wild animals and the skins of blue fox on the floor; to set up deep armchairs and an old chapel reading desk made of forged iron near a massive 15th-century counting table, one of those old lecterns where the deacon used to place the antiphonary, which now held one of the heavy volumes from Du Cange's Glossary of medieval and low Latin.
The windows whose blue fissured panes, stippled with fragments of gold-edged bottles, intercepted the view of the country and only permitted a faint light to enter, were draped with curtains cut from old stoles of dark and reddish gold neutralized by an almost dead russet woven in the pattern.
The windows, with their cracked blue panes speckled with bits of gold-edged bottles, blocked the view of the countryside and let in only a dim light, were covered with curtains made from old stoles of dark and reddish gold that were toned down by a nearly lifeless russet woven into the design.
The mantel shelf was sumptuously draped with the remnant of a Florentine dalmatica. Between two gilded copper monstrances of Byzantine style, originally brought from the old Abbaye-au-Bois de Bièvre, stood a marvelous church canon divided into three separate compartments delicately wrought like lace work. It contained, under its glass frame, three works of Baudelaire copied on real vellum, with wonderful missal letters and splendid coloring: to the right and left, the sonnets bearing the titles of La Mort des Amants and L'Ennemi; in the center, the prose poem entitled, Anywhere Out of the World—n'importe ou, hors du monde.
The mantel shelf was lavishly draped with a piece of a Florentine dalmatica. Between two gilded copper monstrances in the Byzantine style, originally brought from the old Abbey of Bièvre Woods, stood a stunning church canon divided into three separate compartments intricately designed like lace. It held, under its glass cover, three works by Baudelaire copied onto real vellum, featuring beautiful missal letters and vibrant coloring: on the right and left, the sonnets titled The Death of Lovers and The Enemy; in the center, the prose poem called Anywhere Out of the World—anywhere, out of the world.
Chapter 3
After selling his effects, Des Esseintes retained the two old domestics who had tended his mother and filled the offices of steward and house porter at the Château de Lourps, which had remained deserted and uninhabited until its disposal.
After selling his belongings, Des Esseintes kept the two old servants who had taken care of his mother and served as the steward and doorman at the Château de Lourps, which had been empty and unused until it was sold.
These servants he brought to Fontenay. They were accustomed to the regular life of hospital attendants hourly serving the patients their stipulated food and drink, to the rigid silence of cloistral monks who live behind barred doors and windows, having no communication with the outside world.
These servants he brought to Fontenay. They were used to the routine life of hospital staff, regularly providing patients with their designated meals and drinks, and to the strict silence of cloistered monks who live behind locked doors and windows, having no contact with the outside world.
The man was assigned the task of keeping the house in order and of procuring provisions, the woman that of preparing the food. He surrendered the second story to them, forced them to wear heavy felt coverings over their shoes, put sound mufflers along the well-oiled doors and covered their floor with heavy rugs so that he would never hear their footsteps overhead.
The man was given the job of keeping the house in order and getting the supplies, while the woman was responsible for cooking the meals. He gave them the second floor, made them wear thick felt coverings over their shoes, installed soundproofing on the well-oiled doors, and covered their floor with thick rugs so he would never hear their footsteps above.
He devised an elaborate signal code of bells whereby his wants were made known. He pointed out the exact spot on his bureau where they were to place the account book each month while he slept. In short, matters were arranged in such wise that he would not be obliged to see or to converse with them very often.
He created a detailed system of bell signals to communicate his needs. He showed them the exact place on his desk where they should put the account book each month while he slept. In short, everything was organized so that he didn’t have to see or talk to them very often.
Nevertheless, since the woman had occasion to walk past the house so as to reach the woodshed, he wished to make sure that her shadow, as she passed his windows, would not offend him. He had designed for her a costume of Flemish silk with a white bonnet and large, black, lowered hood, such as is still worn by the nuns of Ghent. The shadow of this headdress, in the twilight, gave him the sensation of being in a cloister, brought back memories of silent, holy villages, dead quarters enclosed and buried in some quiet corner of a bustling town.
Nevertheless, since the woman needed to walk past the house to get to the woodshed, he wanted to make sure that her shadow, as she went by his windows, wouldn’t disturb him. He had designed a costume for her made of Flemish silk, complete with a white bonnet and a large, lowered black hood, similar to what nuns in Ghent still wear. The shadow of this headdress, in the fading light, made him feel like he was in a cloister, bringing back memories of quiet, sacred villages, abandoned areas tucked away in some peaceful part of a busy town.
The hours of eating were also regulated. His instructions in this regard were short and explicit, for the weakened state of his stomach no longer permitted him to absorb heavy or varied foods.
The eating hours were also controlled. His guidelines on this were brief and clear, since his weakened stomach could no longer handle heavy or diverse foods.
In winter, at five o'clock in the afternoon, when the day was drawing to a close, he breakfasted on two boiled eggs, toast and tea. At eleven o'clock he dined. During the night he drank coffee, and sometimes tea and wine, and at five o'clock in the morning, before retiring, he supped again lightly.
In winter, at five in the afternoon, when the day was coming to an end, he had breakfast with two boiled eggs, toast, and tea. He had dinner at eleven o'clock. During the night, he drank coffee, and sometimes tea and wine, and at five in the morning, before going to bed, he had a light supper again.
His meals, which were planned and ordered once for all at the beginning of each season, were served him on a table in the middle of a small room separated from his study by a padded corridor, hermetically sealed so as to permit neither sound nor odor to filter into either of the two rooms it joined.
His meals, which were planned and ordered all at once at the start of each season, were served to him on a table in the middle of a small room separated from his study by a padded corridor, tightly sealed so that neither sound nor smell could pass between the two rooms it connected.
With its vaulted ceiling fitted with beams in a half circle, its bulkheads and floor of pine, and the little window in the wainscoting that looked like a porthole, the dining room resembled the cabin of a ship.
With its vaulted ceiling supported by half-circle beams, its bulkheads and pine floor, and the small window in the wainscoting that looked like a porthole, the dining room felt like the cabin of a ship.
Like those Japanese boxes which fit into each other, this room was inserted in a larger apartment—the real dining room constructed by the architect.
Like those Japanese nesting boxes, this room was fitted into a larger space—the actual dining room designed by the architect.
It was pierced by two windows. One of them was invisible, hidden by a partition which could, however, be lowered by a spring so as to permit fresh air to circulate around this pinewood box and to penetrate into it. The other was visible, placed directly opposite the porthole built in the wainscoting, but it was blocked up. For a long aquarium occupied the entire space between the porthole and the genuine window placed in the outer wall. Thus the light, in order to brighten the room, traversed the window, whose panes had been replaced by a plate glass, the water, and, lastly, the window of the porthole.
It had two windows. One of them was hidden behind a partition that could be lowered with a spring to let fresh air flow into this pinewood box. The other was visible, directly in front of the porthole built into the wainscoting, but it was blocked. A long aquarium filled the entire space between the porthole and the real window in the outer wall. So, to light up the room, the light passed through the window, where the panes had been replaced with a sheet of glass, then through the water, and finally through the porthole window.
In autumn, at sunset, when the steam rose from the samovar on the table, the water of the aquarium, wan and glassy all during the morning, reddened like blazing gleams of embers and lapped restlessly against the light-colored wood.
In autumn, at sunset, when steam rose from the samovar on the table, the water in the aquarium, dull and glassy all morning, turned a fiery red like glowing embers and lapped restlessly against the light-colored wood.
Sometimes, when it chanced that Des Esseintes was awake in the afternoon, he operated the stops of the pipes and conduits which emptied the aquarium, replacing it with pure water. Into this, he poured drops of colored liquids that made it green or brackish, opaline or silvery—tones similar to those of rivers which reflect the color of the sky, the intensity of the sun, the menace of rain—which reflect, in a word, the state of the season and atmosphere.
Sometimes, when Des Esseintes happened to be awake in the afternoon, he adjusted the valves of the pipes and channels that drained the aquarium, filling it with fresh water. Into this, he added drops of colored liquids that turned it green or murky, opaline or silvery—shades reminiscent of rivers that mirror the sky's color, the sun's brightness, or the threat of rain—which reflect, in short, the mood of the season and environment.
When he did this, he imagined himself on a brig, between decks, and curiously he contemplated the marvelous, mechanical fish, wound like clocks, which passed before the porthole or clung to the artificial sea-weed. While he inhaled the odor of tar, introduced into the room shortly before his arrival, he examined colored engravings, hung on the walls, which represented, just as at Lloyd's office and the steamship agencies, steamers bound for Valparaiso and La Platte, and looked at framed pictures on which were inscribed the itineraries of the Royal Mail Steam Packet, the Lopez and the Valery Companies, the freight and port calls of the Atlantic mail boats.
When he did this, he pictured himself on a ship, below deck, and he curiously watched the amazing, mechanical fish, wound up like clocks, that swam by the window or clung to the fake seaweed. As he breathed in the smell of tar that had been brought into the room shortly before he arrived, he looked at colorful prints hanging on the walls, depicting, just like at Lloyd's office and the steamship agencies, ships headed for Valparaíso and La Platte. He also glanced at framed pictures displaying the routes of the Royal Mail Steam Packet, the Lopez and the Valery Companies, along with the schedules and port calls of the Atlantic mail boats.
If he tired of consulting these guides, he could rest his eyes by gazing at the chronometers and sea compasses, the sextants, field glasses and cards strewn on a table on which stood a single volume, bound in sealskin. The book was "The Adventures of Arthur Gordon Pym", specially printed for him on laid paper, each sheet carefully selected, with a sea-gull watermark.
If he got tired of looking at these guides, he could rest his eyes by staring at the clocks and compasses, the sextants, binoculars, and maps scattered on a table that had a single book sitting on it, bound in sealskin. The book was "The Adventures of Arthur Gordon Pym," specially printed for him on laid paper, each sheet carefully chosen, with a seagull watermark.
Or, he could look at fishing rods, tan-colored nets, rolls of russet sail, a tiny, black-painted cork anchor—all thrown in a heap near the door communicating with the kitchen by a passage furnished with cappadine silk which reabsorbed, just as in the corridor which connected the dining room with his study, every odor and sound.
Or, he could check out the fishing rods, tan-colored nets, rolls of brown sail, a small, black-painted cork anchor—all piled up in a heap near the door that led to the kitchen through a passage decorated with cappadine silk, which absorbed every smell and sound, just like in the hallway connecting the dining room to his study.
Thus, without stirring, he enjoyed the rapid motions of a long sea voyage. The pleasure of travel, which only exists as a matter of fact in retrospect and seldom in the present, at the instant when it is being experienced, he could fully relish at his ease, without the necessity of fatigue or confusion, here in this cabin whose studied disorder, whose transitory appearance and whose seemingly temporary furnishings corresponded so well with the briefness of the time he spent there on his meals, and contrasted so perfectly with his study, a well-arranged, well-furnished room where everything betokened a retired, orderly existence.
Thus, without moving, he enjoyed the fast pace of a long sea voyage. The joy of travel, which is usually only appreciated in hindsight and rarely in the moment, was something he could fully enjoy at his leisure, without any fatigue or confusion, here in this cabin that was thoughtfully disheveled, with a temporary look and seemingly makeshift furnishings that matched the brief time he spent there for meals, and contrasted perfectly with his study, a neatly arranged, well-furnished room where everything signaled a quiet, orderly life.
Movement, after all, seemed futile to him. He felt that imagination could easily be substituted for the vulgar realities of things. It was possible, in his opinion, to gratify the most extravagant, absurd desires by a subtle subterfuge, by a slight modification of the object of one's wishes. Every epicure nowadays enjoys, in restaurants celebrated for the excellence of their cellars, wines of capital taste manufactured from inferior brands treated by Pasteur's method. For they have the same aroma, the same color, the same bouquet as the rare wines of which they are an imitation, and consequently the pleasure experienced in sipping them is identical. The originals, moreover, are usually unprocurable, for love or money.
Movement, after all, felt pointless to him. He believed that imagination could easily replace the harsh realities of life. In his view, it was possible to satisfy the most extravagant, ridiculous desires through a clever trick—by slightly altering the object of one’s wishes. Every foodie today enjoys, in restaurants known for their excellent wine cellars, wines with great taste made from lower-quality brands that have been treated by Pasteur's method. Because they have the same aroma, color, and bouquet as the rare wines they imitate, the pleasure of sipping them is exactly the same. Plus, the originals are usually impossible to find, no matter how much money or effort you’re willing to spend.
Transposing this insidious deviation, this adroit deceit into the realm of the intellect, there was not the shadow of a doubt that fanciful delights resembling the true in every detail, could be enjoyed. One could revel, for instance, in long explorations while near one's own fireside, stimulating the restive or sluggish mind, if need be, by reading some suggestive narrative of travel in distant lands. One could enjoy the beneficent results of a sea bath, too, even in Paris. All that is necessary is to visit the Vigier baths situated in a boat on the Seine, far from the shore.
Transferring this subtle trickery, this clever deception into the world of thought, there was no doubt that imaginary pleasures that looked just like reality in every way could be enjoyed. For example, one could indulge in long journeys while sitting by one's own fireplace, sparking the restless or lazy mind as needed by reading an exciting travel story about faraway places. One could also experience the refreshing benefits of a sea bath, even in Paris. All that's needed is to go to the Vigier baths located on a boat in the Seine River, far from the riverbank.
There, the illusion of the sea is undeniable, imperious, positive. It is achieved by salting the water of the bath; by mixing, according to the Codex formula, sulphate of soda, hydrochlorate of magnesia and lime; by extracting from a box, carefully closed by means of a screw, a ball of thread or a very small piece of cable which had been specially procured from one of those great rope-making establishments whose vast warehouses and basements are heavy with odors of the sea and the port; by inhaling these perfumes held by the ball or the cable end; by consulting an exact photograph of the casino; by eagerly reading the Joanne guide describing the beauties of the seashore where one would wish to be; by being rocked on the waves, made by the eddy of fly boats lapping against the pontoon of baths; by listening to the plaint of the wind under the arches, or to the hollow murmur of the omnibuses passing above on the Port Royal, two steps away.
There, the illusion of the sea is unmistakable, commanding, and real. It’s created by adding salt to the bathwater; by mixing, following the Codex instructions, sodium sulfate, magnesium chloride, and lime; by taking out a ball of thread or a small piece of cable that was carefully sealed in a box with a screw, specially sourced from one of those big rope-making companies with warehouses and basements heavy with the scents of the sea and the harbor; by breathing in these aromas from the ball or cable end; by checking an accurate photo of the casino; by eagerly reading the Joanne guide that describes the attractions of the coastline one wishes to visit; by being rocked on waves created by the eddy of small boats lapping against the bathhouse dock; by listening to the wind’s moan under the arches or the dull sound of buses passing overhead on Port Royal, just a couple of steps away.
The secret lies in knowing how to proceed, how to concentrate deeply enough to produce the hallucination and succeed in substituting the dream reality for the reality itself.
The key is knowing how to move forward, how to focus deeply enough to create the hallucination and successfully replace the dream reality with actual reality.
Artifice, besides, seemed to Des Esseintes the final distinctive mark of man's genius.
Artifice, moreover, appeared to Des Esseintes as the ultimate distinguishing feature of human creativity.
Nature had had her day, as he put it. By the disgusting sameness of her landscapes and skies, she had once for all wearied the considerate patience of æsthetes. Really, what dullness! the dullness of the specialist confined to his narrow work. What manners! the manners of the tradesman offering one particular ware to the exclusion of all others. What a monotonous storehouse of fields and trees! What a banal agency of mountains and seas!
Nature had had her moment, as he said. With the boring uniformity of her landscapes and skies, she had finally exhausted the thoughtful patience of art lovers. Honestly, how dull! The dullness of a specialist stuck in his limited field. What a lack of style! The style of a merchant selling one specific product while ignoring everything else. What a repetitive collection of fields and trees! What a mundane display of mountains and seas!
There is not one of her inventions, no matter how subtle or imposing it may be, which human genius cannot create; no Fontainebleau forest, no moonlight which a scenic setting flooded with electricity cannot produce; no waterfall which hydraulics cannot imitate to perfection; no rock which pasteboard cannot be made to resemble; no flower which taffetas and delicately painted papers cannot simulate.
There isn't a single one of her inventions, regardless of how subtle or grand it might be, that human creativity can't replicate; no Fontainebleau forest, no moonlit scene that an electrically lit setting can't recreate; no waterfall that hydraulics can't perfectly mimic; no rock that cardboard can't be made to resemble; no flower that taffeta and beautifully painted paper can't imitate.
There can be no doubt about it: this eternal, driveling, old woman is no longer admired by true artists, and the moment has come to replace her by artifice.
There’s no doubt about it: this old, rambling woman is no longer respected by real artists, and it's time to replace her with something more appealing.
Closely observe that work of hers which is considered the most exquisite, that creation of hers whose beauty is everywhere conceded the most perfect and original—woman. Has not man made, for his own use, an animated and artificial being which easily equals woman, from the point of view of plastic beauty? Is there a woman, whose form is more dazzling, more splendid than the two locomotives that pass over the Northern Railroad lines?
Closely observe that work of hers that is considered the most exquisite, that creation of hers whose beauty is universally acknowledged as the most perfect and original—woman. Hasn’t man created an animated and artificial being that easily matches woman in terms of physical beauty? Is there any woman whose figure is more dazzling or more magnificent than the two locomotives that travel along the Northern Railroad lines?
One, the Crampton, is an adorable, shrill-voiced blonde, a trim, gilded blonde, with a large, fragile body imprisoned in a glittering corset of copper, and having the long, sinewy lines of a cat. Her extraordinary grace is frightening, as, with the sweat of her hot sides rising upwards and her steel muscles stiffening, she puts in motion the immense rose-window of her fine wheels and darts forward, mettlesome, along rapids and floods.
One, the Crampton, is a cute, high-pitched blonde with a slim, shiny figure, her large, delicate body trapped in a sparkling copper corset, and she has the long, lean lines of a cat. Her incredible grace is intimidating, as she glides forward, her hot sides glistening with sweat and her strong muscles tightening, setting in motion the huge rose-window of her fine wheels and racing ahead, spirited, through rapids and floods.
The other, the Engerth, is a nobly proportioned dusky brunette emitting raucous, muffled cries. Her heavy loins are strangled in a cast-iron breast-plate. A monstrous beast with a disheveled mane of black smoke and with six low, coupled wheels! What irresistible power she has when, causing the earth to tremble, she slowly and heavily drags the unwieldy queue of her merchandise!
The other, the Engerth, is a beautifully shaped dark-haired woman making loud, muffled sounds. Her strong hips are restrained by a heavy breastplate. A huge machine with a messy mane of black smoke and six low, connected wheels! What incredible power it has when it slowly and heavily pulls the cumbersome line of its cargo, causing the ground to shake!
Unquestionably, there is not one among the frail blondes and majestic brunettes of the flesh that can vie with their delicate grace and terrific strength.
Without a doubt, none of the fragile blondes or stunning brunettes can compete with their delicate elegance and incredible power.
Such were Des Esseintes' reflections when the breeze brought him the faint whistle of the toy railroad winding playfully, like a spinning top, between Paris and Sceaux. His house was situated at a twenty minutes' walk from the Fontenay station, but the height on which it was perched, its isolation, made it immune to the clatter of the noisy rabble which the vicinity of a railway station invariably attracts on a Sunday.
Such were Des Esseintes' thoughts when the breeze carried the soft sound of the toy train playfully winding, like a spinning top, between Paris and Sceaux. His house was about a twenty-minute walk from the Fontenay station, but its elevated position and isolation kept it safe from the noisy crowds that always gather around a train station on a Sunday.
As for the village itself, he hardly knew it. One night he had gazed through his window at the silent landscape which slowly unfolded, as it dipped to the foot of a slope, on whose summit the batteries of the Verrières woods were trained.
As for the village itself, he hardly knew it. One night, he looked through his window at the quiet landscape that gradually revealed itself, as it sloped down to the base of a hill, where the artillery from the Verrières woods was positioned.
In the darkness, to left and right, these masses, dim and confused, rose tier on tier, dominated far off by other batteries and forts whose high embankments seemed, in the moonlight, bathed in silver against the sombre sky.
In the darkness, to the left and right, these masses, faint and unclear, rose level upon level, overshadowed in the distance by other artillery and fortifications whose tall earthworks appeared, in the moonlight, to shimmer in silver against the dark sky.
Where the plain did not fall under the shadow of the hills, it seemed powdered with starch and smeared with white cold cream. In the warm air that fanned the faded grasses and exhaled a spicy perfume, the trees, chalky white under the moon, shook their pale leaves, and seemed to divide their trunks, whose shadows formed bars of black on the plaster-like ground where pebbles scintillated like glittering plates.
Where the flatland wasn't shaded by the hills, it looked like it was dusted with powder and coated in white lotion. In the warm air that rustled the dried grasses and released a fragrant scent, the trees, bright white under the moon, trembled their pale leaves, and seemed to split their trunks, whose shadows created dark bars on the chalky ground where pebbles sparkled like shining plates.
Because of its enameled look and its artificial air, the landscape did not displease Des Esseintes. But since that afternoon spent at Fontenay in search of a house, he had never ventured along its roads in daylight. The verdure of this region inspired him with no interest whatever, for it did not have the delicate and doleful charm of the sickly and pathetic vegetation which forces its way painfully through the rubbish heaps of the mounds which had once served as the ramparts of Paris. That day, in the village, he had perceived corpulent, bewhiskered bourgeois citizens and moustached uniformed men with heads of magistrates and soldiers, which they held as stiffly as monstrances in churches. And ever since that encounter, his detestation of the human face had been augmented.
Because of its shiny appearance and fake vibe, the landscape didn’t bother Des Esseintes. But since that afternoon at Fontenay when he looked for a house, he hadn’t walked its roads in the daylight. The greenery in this area didn’t interest him at all, since it lacked the delicate and sorrowful charm of the weak and pitiful plants that struggle to grow through the trash of the mounds that used to be the walls of Paris. That day, in the village, he had noticed fat, bearded middle-class men and mustached uniformed guys with heads of judges and soldiers, which they held as stiffly as religious relics in churches. And ever since that encounter, his disgust for the human face had only grown.
During the last month of his stay in Paris, when he was weary of everything, afflicted with hypochondria, the prey of melancholia, when his nerves had become so sensitive that the sight of an unpleasant object or person impressed itself deeply on his brain—so deeply that several days were required before the impression could be effaced—the touch of a human body brushing against him in the street had been an excruciating agony.
During the last month of his time in Paris, when he was tired of everything, suffering from hypochondria, and plagued by sadness, his nerves had grown so sensitive that just seeing something or someone unpleasant left a lasting mark on his mind—so much so that it took several days to forget the impression. The simple brush of a human body against him in the street felt like excruciating pain.
The very sight of certain faces made him suffer. He considered the crabbed expressions of some, insulting. He felt a desire to slap the fellow who walked, eyes closed, with such a learned air; the one who minced along, smiling at his image in the window panes; and the one who seemed stimulated by a whole world of thought while devouring, with contracted brow, the tedious contents of a newspaper.
The very sight of some people's faces made him miserable. He found the pouty expressions of a few, insulting. He had a strong urge to slap the guy who walked around with his eyes closed, acting all knowledgeable; the one who pranced along, grinning at his reflection in the window panes; and the one who looked deep in thought while concentrating on the boring stuff in a newspaper.
Such an inveterate stupidity, such a scorn for literature and art, such a hatred for all the ideas he worshipped, were implanted and anchored in these merchant minds, exclusively preoccupied with the business of swindling and money-making, and accessible only to ideas of politics—that base distraction of mediocrities—that he returned enraged to his home and locked himself in with his books.
Such deep-seated ignorance, such disrespect for literature and art, such a disdain for all the ideas he valued, were rooted and established in these merchants' minds, solely focused on cheating and making money, and only open to political ideas—that low-level distraction of average minds—that he returned home furious and locked himself away with his books.
He hated the new generation with all the energy in him. They were frightful clodhoppers who seemed to find it necessary to talk and laugh boisterously in restaurants and cafés. They jostled you on sidewalks without begging pardon. They pushed the wheels of their perambulators against your legs, without even apologizing.
He disliked the new generation with every bit of his being. They were awful clods who felt the need to talk and laugh loudly in restaurants and cafés. They bumped into you on sidewalks without any acknowledgment. They shoved the wheels of their strollers against your legs, without even saying sorry.
Chapter 4
A portion of the shelves which lined the walls of his orange and blue study was devoted exclusively to those Latin works assigned to the generic period of "The Decadence" by those whose minds have absorbed the deplorable teachings of the Sorbonne.
A share of the shelves that lined the walls of his orange and blue study was dedicated entirely to the Latin works categorized under the generic period of "The Decadence" by those whose minds have taken in the unfortunate teachings of the Sorbonne University.
The Latin written in that era which professors still persist in calling the Great Age, hardly stimulated Des Esseintes. With its carefully premeditated style, its sameness, its stripping of supple syntax, its poverty of color and nuance, this language, pruned of all the rugged and often rich expressions of the preceding ages, was confined to the enunciation of the majestic banalities, the empty commonplaces tiresomely reiterated by the rhetoricians and poets; but it betrayed such a lack of curiosity and such a humdrum tediousness, such a drabness, feebleness and jaded solemnity that to find its equal, it was necessary, in linguistic studies, to go to the French style of the period of Louis XIV.
The Latin written during that time, which professors still insist on calling the Great Age, barely inspired Des Esseintes. With its overly calculated style, monotony, lack of fluid syntax, and dullness in color and nuance, this language, stripped of the robust and often rich expressions of earlier times, was limited to expressing the grand but empty commonplaces that were endlessly repeated by rhetoricians and poets. It showed such a lack of curiosity and such a tiresome dullness, a drabness, weakness, and worn-out seriousness that to find anything comparable, one had to look at the French style of the period of Louis XIV.
The gentle Vergil, whom instructors call the Mantuan swan, perhaps because he was not born in that city, he considered one of the most terrible pedants ever produced by antiquity. Des Esseintes was exasperated by his immaculate and bedizened shepherds, his Orpheus whom he compares to a weeping nightingale, his Aristaeus who simpers about bees, his Aeneas, that weak-willed, irresolute person who walks with wooden gestures through the length of the poem. Des Esseintes would gladly have accepted the tedious nonsense which those marionettes exchange with each other off-stage; or even the poet's impudent borrowings from Homer, Theocritus, Ennius and Lucretius; the plain theft, revealed to us by Macrobius, of the second song of the Aeneid, copied almost word for word from one of Pisander's poems; in fine, all the unutterable emptiness of this heap of verses. The thing he could not forgive, however, and which infuriated him most, was the workmanship of the hexameters, beating like empty tin cans and extending their syllabic quantities measured according to the unchanging rule of a pedantic and dull prosody. He disliked the texture of those stiff verses, in their official garb, their abject reverence for grammar, their mechanical division by imperturbable cæsuras, always plugged at the end in the same way by the impact of a dactyl against a spondee.
The gentle Vergil, whom teachers call the Mantuan swan, maybe because he wasn’t born in that city, is considered one of the most tedious pedants ever produced by ancient times. Des Esseintes was irritated by his flawless and showy shepherds, his Orpheus, whom he compares to a crying nightingale, his Aristaeus who fawns over bees, and his Aeneas, that indecisive, weak-willed character who moves with stiff gestures throughout the poem. Des Esseintes would have gladly taken the boring nonsense those puppets exchange with each other off-stage; or even the poet’s bold borrowings from Homer, Theocritus, Ennius, and Lucretius; the outright theft, pointed out by Macrobius, of the second song of the Aeneid, copied almost word-for-word from one of Pisander's poems; in short, all the unbearable emptiness of this pile of verses. However, what he couldn’t forgive, and what infuriated him the most, was the craftsmanship of the hexameters, banging like empty tin cans and stretching their syllabic lengths measured according to the unchanging rules of a pedantic and dull prosody. He hated the texture of those rigid verses, dressed in their formal attire, their excessive respect for grammar, their mechanical breaks by steady caesuras, always wrapped up in the same way by the clash of a dactyl against a spondee.
Borrowed from the perfected forge of Catullus, this unvarying versification, lacking imagination, lacking pity, padded with useless words and refuse, with pegs of identical and anticipated assonances, this ceaseless wretchedness of Homeric epithet which designates nothing whatever and permits nothing to be seen, all this impoverished vocabulary of muffled, lifeless tones bored him beyond measure.
Borrowed from the perfected forge of Catullus, this repetitive verse, devoid of creativity and empathy, filled with unnecessary words and junk, with repetitive and expected sounds, this endless misery of Homeric descriptors that signifies nothing and reveals nothing, all of this dull vocabulary of muted, lifeless tones completely bored him.
It is no more than just to add that, if his admiration for Vergil was quite restrained, and his attraction for Ovid's lucid outpourings even more circumspect, there was no limit to his disgust at the elephantine graces of Horace, at the prattle of this hopeless lout who smirkingly utters the broad, crude jests of an old clown.
It’s only fair to mention that while his admiration for Vergil was pretty measured, and his appreciation for Ovid's clear writings was even more careful, he had absolutely no patience for Horace’s heavy-handed style, or the foolish chatter of this hopeless buffoon who arrogant ly spews the crude, broad jokes of an old clown.
Neither was he pleased, in prose, with the verbosities, the redundant metaphors, the ludicrous digressions of Cicero. There was nothing to beguile him in the boasting of his apostrophes, in the flow of his patriotic nonsense, in the emphasis of his harangues, in the ponderousness of his style, fleshy but ropy and lacking in marrow and bone, in the insupportable dross of his long adverbs with which he introduces phrases, in the unalterable formula of his adipose periods badly sewed together with the thread of conjunctions and, finally, in his wearisome habits of tautology. Nor was his enthusiasm wakened for Cæsar, celebrated for his laconic style. Here, on the contrary, was disclosed a surprising aridity, a sterility of recollection, an incredibly undue constipation.
He wasn't impressed, either, with Cicero's long-winded prose, pointless metaphors, or ridiculous digressions. There was nothing captivating about his grand statements, the flow of his patriotic nonsense, the emphasis of his speeches, or the heaviness of his style, which was thick yet flimsy and lacking substance. He found the unbearable excess of his long adverbs irritating, the unchanging structure of his bloated sentences clumsily stitched together with conjunctions, and finally, his tedious repetition boring. His enthusiasm also didn’t extend to Caesar, known for his concise style. Instead, he found a surprising dryness, a lack of depth, and an incredibly excessive restraint.
He found pasture neither among them nor among those writers who are peculiarly the delight of the spuriously literate: Sallust, who is less colorless than the others; sentimental and pompous Titus Livius; turgid and lurid Seneca; watery and larval Suetonius; Tacitus who, in his studied conciseness, is the keenest, most wiry and muscular of them all. In poetry, he was untouched by Juvenal, despite some roughshod verses, and by Persius, despite his mysterious insinuations. In neglecting Tibullus and Propertius, Quintilian and the Plinies, Statius, Martial, even Terence and Plautus whose jargon full of neologisms, compound words and diminutives, could please him, but whose low comedy and gross humor he loathed, Des Esseintes only began to be interested in the Latin language with Lucan. Here it was liberated, already more expressive and less dull. This careful armor, these verses plated with enamel and studded with jewels, captivated him, but the exclusive preoccupation with form, the sonorities of tone, the clangor of metals, did not entirely conceal from him the emptiness of the thought, the turgidity of those blisters which emboss the skin of the Pharsale.
He didn't find anything appealing either among them or those writers who typically please the insincerely educated: Sallust, who is more vibrant than the rest; sentimental and pompous Titus Livius; heavy and flashy Seneca; bland and immature Suetonius; and Tacitus, who, with his careful conciseness, is the sharpest and most striking of them all. In poetry, he was indifferent to Juvenal, despite some rough verses, and to Persius, despite his mysterious hints. By overlooking Tibullus and Propertius, Quintilian and the Plinies, Statius, Martial, and even Terence and Plautus, whose language full of new words, compound terms, and diminutives could have appealed to him, but whose lowbrow comedy and crude humor he detested, Des Esseintes only began to take an interest in the Latin language with Lucan. Here, it was set free, already more expressive and less dull. This intricate style, these verses adorned with enamel and studded with jewels, fascinated him, but the intense focus on form, the musicality of tone, and the clashing of metals didn’t completely hide from him the emptiness of the ideas, the bloated nature of those blisters that embellish the skin of the Pharsale.
Petronius was the author whom he truly loved and who caused him forever to abandon the sonorous ingenuities of Lucan, for he was a keen observer, a delicate analyst, a marvelous painter. Tranquilly, without prejudice or hate, he described Rome's daily life, recounting the customs of his epoch in the sprightly little chapters of the Satyricon.
Petronius was the author he truly loved, leading him to completely move on from the grand styles of Lucan. Petronius was a sharp observer, a sensitive analyst, and an amazing storyteller. Calmly, without bias or resentment, he depicted everyday life in Rome, detailing the customs of his time in the lively chapters of the Satyricon.
Observing the facts of life, stating them in clear, definite form, he revealed the petty existence of the people, their happenings, their bestialities, their passions.
By observing the realities of life and expressing them in clear, straightforward terms, he uncovered the trivial existence of the people, their events, their brutality, and their emotions.
One glimpses the inspector of furnished lodgings who has inquired after the newly arrived travellers; bawdy houses where men prowl around nude women, while through the half-open doors of the rooms couples can be seen in dalliance; the society of the time, in villas of an insolent luxury, a revel of richness and magnificence, or in the poor quarters with their rumpled, bug-ridden folding-beds; impure sharpers, like Ascylte and Eumolpe in search of a rich windfall; old incubi with tucked-up dresses and plastered cheeks of white lead and red acacia; plump, curled, depraved little girls of sixteen; women who are the prey of hysterical attacks; hunters of heritages offering their sons and daughters to debauched testators. All pass across the pages. They debate in the streets, rub elbows in the baths, beat each other unmercifully as in a pantomime.
One sees the inspector of short-term rentals checking in on the newly arrived travelers; brothels where men lurk around naked women, while couples can be seen in various states of intimacy through the half-open doors of the rooms; the society of the time, in villas overflowing with luxury, a display of wealth and grandeur, or in the run-down neighborhoods with their messy, bug-infested fold-out beds; shady con artists, like Ascylte and Eumolpe, on the hunt for a hefty payout; old creeps with hiked-up dresses and faces plastered with white powder and red rouge; chubby, styled, corrupted girls of sixteen; women suffering from hysterical fits; heritage hunters offering their sons and daughters to debauched inheritors. All of them flit across the pages. They argue in the streets, jostle in the baths, and mercilessly beat each other as if in a play.
And all this recounted in a style of strange freshness and precise color, drawing from all dialects, borrowing expressions from all the languages that were drifting into Rome, extending all the limits, removing all the handicaps of the so-called Great Age. He made each person speak his own idiom: the uneducated freedmen, the vulgar Latin argot of the streets; the strangers, their barbarous patois, the corrupt speech of the African, Syrian and Greek; imbecile pedants, like the Agamemnon of the book, a rhetoric of artificial words. These people are depicted with swift strokes, wallowing around tables, exchanging stupid, drunken speech, uttering senile maxims and inept proverbs.
And all this is described in a style that's strangely fresh and colorful, pulling from every dialect and borrowing expressions from all the languages coming into Rome, breaking all boundaries and getting rid of the limitations of the so-called Great Age. He lets each character speak in their own way: the uneducated freedmen with the street slang of vulgar Latin; the outsiders with their rough dialects, the distorted speech of Africans, Syrians, and Greeks; clueless pedants, like the Agamemnon of the book, using a rhetoric of fancy words. These people are portrayed with quick strokes, lounging around tables, exchanging silly, drunken chatter, and spouting old sayings and useless proverbs.
This realistic novel, this slice of Roman life, without any preoccupation, whatever one may say of it, with reform and satire, without the need of any studied end, or of morality; this story without intrigue or action, portraying the adventures of evil persons, analyzing with a calm finesse the joys and sorrows of these lovers and couples, depicting life in a splendidly wrought language without surrendering himself to any commentary, without approving or cursing the acts and thoughts of his characters, the vices of a decrepit civilization, of an empire that cracks, struck Des Esseintes. In the keenness of the observation, in the firmness of the method, he found singular comparisons, curious analogies with the few modern French novels he could endure.
This realistic novel, this glimpse into Roman life, without any worry, no matter what anyone says, about reform or satire, without needing a specific purpose or a moral lesson; this story lacking intrigue or action, showcasing the experiences of flawed individuals, analyzing with a calm finesse the joys and sorrows of these lovers and couples, depicting life in beautifully crafted language without resorting to commentary, without endorsing or condemning the actions and thoughts of his characters, the vices of a crumbling civilization, of an empire that is breaking apart, struck Des Esseintes. In the sharpness of his observations, in the strength of his approach, he discovered unique comparisons and interesting analogies with the few modern French novels he could tolerate.
Certainly, he bitterly regretted the Eustion and the Albutiae, those two works by Petronius mentioned by Planciade Fulgence which are forever lost. But the bibliophile in him consoled the student, when he touched with worshipful hands the superb edition of the Satyricon which he possessed, the octavo bearing the date 1585 and the name of J. Dousa of Leyden.
Certainly, he deeply regretted the Eustion and the Albutiae, those two works by Petronius mentioned by Planciade Fulgence that are forever lost. But the bibliophile in him comforted the student when he reverently held the stunning edition of the Satyricon that he owned, the octavo dated 1585 and published by J. Dousa of Leyden.
Leaving Petronius, his Latin collection entered into the second century of the Christian era, passed over Fronto, the declaimer, with his antiquated terms; skipped the Attic Nights of Aulus Gellius, his disciple and friend,—a clever, ferreting mind, but a writer entangled in a glutinous vase; and halted at Apuleius, of whose works he owned the first edition printed at Rome in 1469.
Leaving Petronius, his Latin collection moved into the second century of the Christian era, bypassing Fronto, the declaimer, with his outdated terms; skipped over the *Attic Nights* of Aulus Gellius, his disciple and friend—a sharp, inquisitive mind, but a writer caught in a sticky situation; and stopped at Apuleius, whose works he had in the first edition printed in Rome in 1469.
This African delighted him. The Latin language was at its richest in the Metamorphoses; it contained ooze and rubbish-strewn water rushing from all the provinces, and the refuse mingled and was confused in a bizarre, exotic, almost new color. Mannerisms, new details of Latin society found themselves shaped into neologisms specially created for the needs of conversation, in a Roman corner of Africa. He was amused by the southern exuberance and joviality of a doubtlessly corpulent man. He seemed a salacious, gay crony compared with the Christian apologists who lived in the same century—the soporific Minucius Felix, a pseudo-classicist, pouring forth the still thick emulsions of Cicero into his Octavius; nay, even Tertullian—whom he perhaps preserved for his Aldine edition, more than for the work itself.
This African delighted him. The Latin language was at its richest in the Metamorphoses; it had a mix of muddy and trash-filled water flowing from all the provinces, and the debris blended together in a strange, exotic, almost new color. Mannerisms and fresh aspects of Latin society were formed into new words specifically created for conversational needs in a Roman corner of Africa. He found the southern exuberance and joviality of a definitely overweight man amusing. He seemed like a playful, carefree buddy compared to the Christian apologists of the same century—the dull Minucius Felix, a pseudo-classicist, regurgitating the still thick ideas of Cicero in his Octavius; and even Tertullian—whom he might have kept for his Aldine edition more than for the work itself.
Although he was sufficiently versed in theology, the disputes of the Montanists against the Catholic Church, the polemics against the gnostics, left him cold. Despite Tertullian's curious, concise style full of ambiguous terms, resting on participles, clashing with oppositions, bristling with puns and witticisms, dappled with vocables culled from the juridical science and the language of the Fathers of the Greek Church, he now hardly ever opened the Apologetica and the Treatise on Patience. At the most, he read several pages of De culta feminarum, where Tertullian counsels women not to bedeck themselves with jewels and precious stuffs, forbidding them the use of cosmetics, because these attempt to correct and improve nature.
Although he was knowledgeable in theology, the arguments of the Montanists against the Catholic Church and the debates against the Gnostics didn't interest him at all. Despite Tertullian's intriguing, concise style filled with ambiguous terms, centered on participles, and characterized by contradictions, puns, and clever remarks—mixed with terms from legal studies and the language of the Greek Church Fathers—he rarely opened the Apologetica and the Treatise on Patience anymore. At most, he skimmed through several pages of De culta feminarum, where Tertullian advises women not to adorn themselves with jewelry and luxurious items, prohibiting the use of cosmetics, as they aim to alter and enhance nature.
These ideas, diametrically opposed to his own, made him smile. Then the rôle played by Tertullian, in his Carthage bishopric, seemed to him suggestive in pleasant reveries. More even than his works did the man attract him.
These ideas, completely different from his own, made him smile. Then the role played by Tertullian during his time as bishop in Carthage struck him as inspiring in nice daydreams. Even more than his writings, the man himself fascinated him.
He had, in fact, lived in stormy times, agitated by frightful disorders, under Caracalla, under Macrinus, under the astonishing High Priest of Emesa, Elagabalus, and he tranquilly prepared his sermons, his dogmatic writings, his pleadings, his homelies, while the Roman Empire shook on its foundations, while the follies of Asia, while the ordures of paganism were full to the brim. With the utmost sang-froid, he recommended carnal abstinence, frugality in food, sobriety in dress, while, walking in silver powder and golden sand, a tiara on his head, his garb figured with precious stones, Elagabalus worked, amid his eunuchs, at womanish labor, calling himself the Empress and changing, every night, his Emperor, whom he preferably chose among barbers, scullions and circus drivers.
He had actually lived in chaotic times, troubled by terrible disturbances, during the reign of Caracalla, Macrinus, and the incredible High Priest of Emesa, Elagabalus. Yet, he calmly prepared his sermons, theological writings, arguments, and homilies while the Roman Empire teetered on the edge of collapse, overwhelmed by the craziness of Asia and the excesses of paganism. With complete composure, he advocated for sexual abstinence, moderation in food, and simplicity in clothing, all while Elagabalus, adorned with a tiara, dressed in lavishly bejeweled garments, and walking on silver dust and golden sand, engaged in effeminate pursuits among his eunuchs, declaring himself the Empress and changing his Emperor every night, often selecting from barbers, kitchen staff, and circus performers.
This antithesis delighted him. Then the Latin language, arrived at its supreme maturity under Petronius, commenced to decay; the Christian literature replaced it, bringing new words with new ideas, unemployed constructions, strange verbs, adjectives with subtle meanings, abstract words until then rare in the Roman language and whose usage Tertullian had been one of the first to adopt.
This contrast excited him. Then the Latin language, having reached its peak with Petronius, began to decline; Christian literature took its place, introducing new words with new ideas, unusual constructions, peculiar verbs, adjectives with nuanced meanings, and abstract terms that had been rare in the Roman language, which Tertullian was among the first to embrace.
But there was no attraction in this dissolution, continued after Tertullian's death by his pupil, Saint Cyprian, by Arnobius and by Lactantius. There was something lacking; it made clumsy returns to Ciceronian magniloquence, but had not yet acquired that special flavor which in the fourth century, and particularly during the centuries following, the odor of Christianity would give the pagan tongue, decomposed like old venison, crumbling at the same time that the old world civilization collapsed, and the Empires, putrefied by the sanies of the centuries, succumbed to the thrusts of the barbarians.
But there was no appeal in this breakdown, which continued after Tertullian's death through his student, Saint Cyprian, as well as by Arnobius and Lactantius. Something was missing; it made awkward returns to Ciceronian grandeur, but hadn't yet developed that distinct quality which in the fourth century, and especially in the following centuries, the scent of Christianity would bring to the pagan language, decaying like old venison, crumbling at the same time that ancient world civilization fell apart, and the empires, rotting from the decay of the centuries, fell to the assaults of the barbarians.
Only one Christian poet, Commodianus, represented the third century in his library. The Carmen apologeticum, written in 259, is a collection of instructions, twisted into acrostics, in popular hexameters, with cæsuras introduced according to the heroic verse style, composed without regard to quantity or hiatus and often accompanied by such rhymes as the Church Latin would later supply in such abundance.
Only one Christian poet, Commodianus, represents the third century in his library. The Carmen apologetic, written in 259, is a collection of instructions shaped into acrostics, using popular hexameters, with pauses introduced in line with heroic verse style, written without concern for meter or breaks, and often paired with rhymes that Church Latin would later produce in abundance.
These sombre, tortuous, gamy verses, crammed with terms of ordinary speech, with words diverted from their primitive meaning, claimed and interested him even more than the soft and already green style of the historians, Ammianus Marcellinus and Aurelius Victorus, Symmachus the letter writer, and Macrobius the grammarian and compiler. Them he even preferred to the genuinely scanned lines, the spotted and superb language of Claudian, Rutilius and Ausonius.
These dark, complex, gritty verses, filled with everyday language and words that have strayed from their original meanings, fascinated him even more than the smooth and already lush style of the historians, Ammianus Marcellinus and Aurelius Victorus, Symmachus the letter writer, and Macrobian the grammarian and compiler. He even preferred them to the well-crafted lines, the varied and beautiful language of Claudian, Rutilius, and Ausonius.
They were then the masters of art. They filled the dying Empire with their cries; the Christian Ausonius with his Centon Nuptial, and his exuberant, embellished Mosella; Rutilius, with his hymns to the glory of Rome, his anathemas against the Jews and the monks, his journey from Italy into Gaul and the impressions recorded along the way, the intervals of landscape reflected in the water, the mirage of vapors and the movement of mists that enveloped the mountains.
They were the masters of art. They filled the fading Empire with their voices; the Christian Ausonius with his *Centon Nuptial*, and his vibrant, decorative *Mosella*; Rutilius, with his praises of Rome, his criticisms of the Jews and the monks, his journey from Italy into Gaul, and the impressions he captured along the way, the scenes of nature mirrored in the water, the mirage of vapors, and the shifting mists that surrounded the mountains.
Claudian, a sort of avatar of Lucan, dominates the fourth century with the terrible clarion of his verses: a poet forging a loud and sonorous hexameter, striking the epithet with a sharp blow amid sheaves of sparks, achieving a certain grandeur which fills his work with a powerful breath. In the Occidental Empire tottering more and more in the perpetual menace of the Barbarians now pressing in hordes at the Empire's yielding gates, he revives antiquity, sings of the abduction of Proserpine, lays on his vibrant colors and passes with all his torches alight, into the obscurity that was then engulfing his world.
Claudian, in a way an embodiment of Lucan, commands the fourth century with the striking sound of his verses: a poet crafting a bold and resonant hexameter, delivering powerful descriptions with intensity amidst bursts of creativity, achieving a kind of grandeur that infuses his work with a strong energy. In the Western Empire, increasingly unstable under the constant threat of the Barbarians now massing at its crumbling gates, he revitalizes the past, tells the story of Proserpine's abduction, layers on vivid imagery, and moves forward with all his torches lit into the darkness that was consuming his world.
Paganism again lives in his verse, sounding its last fanfare, lifting its last great poet above the Christianity which was soon entirely to submerge the language, and which would forever be sole master of art. The new Christian spirit arose with Paulinus, disciple of Ausonius; Juvencus, who paraphrases the gospels in verse; Victorinus, author of the Maccabees; Sanctus Burdigalensis who, in an eclogue imitated from Vergil, makes his shepherds Egon and Buculus lament the maladies of their flock; and all the saints: Hilaire of Poitiers, defender of the Nicean faith, the Athanasius of the Occident, as he has been called; Ambrosius, author of the indigestible homelies, the wearisome Christian Cicero; Damasus, maker of lapidary epigrams; Jerome, translator of the Vulgate, and his adversary Vigilantius, who attacks the cult of saints and the abuse of miracles and fastings, and already preaches, with arguments which future ages were to repeat, against the monastic vows and celibacy of the priests.
Paganism still echoes in his poetry, giving its final performance, raising its last great poet above the Christianity that would soon completely drown the language and become the undisputed ruler of art. The new Christian spirit emerged with Paulinus, a student of Ausonius; Juvencus, who paraphrases the gospels in verse; Victorinus, author of the Maccabees; Sanctus Burdigalensis, who, in an eclogue modeled after Vergil, has his shepherds Egon and Buculus mourn the troubles of their flock; and all the saints: Hilaire of Poitiers, a defender of the Nicene faith, the "Athanasius" of the West, as he has been known; Ambrosius, author of difficult sermons, the tedious Christian Cicero; Damasus, creator of brief, impactful epigrams; Jerome, translator of the Vulgate, and his opponent Vigilantius, who criticizes the cult of saints and the misuse of miracles and fasting, and who is already preaching, with arguments that future generations would repeat, against monastic vows and the celibacy of priests.
Finally, in the fifth century came Augustine, bishop of Hippo. Des Esseintes knew him only too well, for he was the Church's most reputed writer, founder of Christian orthodoxy, considered an oracle and sovereign master by Catholics. He no longer opened the pages of this holy man's works, although he had sung his disgust of the earth in the Confessions, and although his lamenting piety had essayed, in the City of God, to mitigate the frightful distress of the times by sedative promises of a rosier future. When Des Esseintes had studied theology, he was already sick and weary of the old monk's preachings and jeremiads, his theories on predestination and grace, his combats against the schisms.
Finally, in the fifth century came Augustine, bishop of Hippo. Des Esseintes knew him all too well, as he was the Church's most famous writer, the founder of Christian orthodoxy, and considered an oracle and master by Catholics. He no longer opened the pages of this holy man's works, even though he had expressed his disgust for the earth in the Confessions, and although his sorrowful faith attempted, in the City of God, to ease the extreme distress of the times with comforting promises of a brighter future. By the time Des Esseintes had studied theology, he was already sick and tired of the old monk's sermons and laments, his theories on predestination and grace, and his battles against the schisms.
He preferred to thumb the Psychomachia of Prudentius, that first type of the allegorical poem which was later, in the Middle Ages, to be used continually, and the works of Sidonius Apollinaris whose correspondence interlarded with flashes of wit, pungencies, archaisms and enigmas, allured him. He willingly re-read the panegyrics in which this bishop invokes pagan deities in substantiation of his vainglorious eulogies; and, in spite of everything, he confessed a weakness for the affectations of these verses, fabricated, as it were, by an ingenious mechanician who operates his machine, oils his wheels and invents intricate and useless parts.
He liked to go through the Inner struggle by Prudentius, a groundbreaking type of allegorical poem that would be used frequently in the Middle Ages, and the works of Sidonius Apollinaris, whose letters mixed wit, sharpness, old-fashioned expressions, and puzzles, captivated him. He enjoyed re-reading the praises where this bishop called on pagan gods to support his boastful compliments; and, despite it all, he admitted he had a soft spot for the pretentiousness of these verses, crafted, so to speak, by a clever mechanic who manages his machine, lubricates its parts, and designs complex and unnecessary components.
After Sidonius, he sought Merobaudes, the panegyrist; Sedulius, author of the rhymed poems and abecedarian hymns, certain passages of which the Church has appropriated for its services; Marius Victorius, whose gloomy treatise on the Pervesity of the Times is illumed, here and there, with verses that gleam with phosphorescence; Paulinus of Pella, poet of the shivering Eucharisticon; and Orientius, bishop of Auch, who, in the distichs of his Monitories, inveighs against the licentiousness of women whose faces, he claims, corrupt the people.
After Sidonius, he looked for Merobaudes, the celebrator; Sedulius, writer of the rhymed poems and alphabet songs, some parts of which the Church has taken for its services; Marius Victorius, whose bleak work on the Perversity of the Times is brightened here and there by verses that shine with a glow; Paulinus of Pella, poet of the trembling Eucharist; and Orientius, bishop of Also, who, in the couplets of his Monitories, criticizes the immorality of women whose looks, he claims, corrupt the people.
The interest which Des Esseintes felt for the Latin language did not pause at this period which found it drooping, thoroughly putrid, losing its members and dropping its pus, and barely preserving through all the corruption of its body, those still firm elements which the Christians detached to marinate in the brine of their new language.
The interest that Des Esseintes had in the Latin language didn’t stop at this time when it was fading, completely decayed, losing its parts and oozing, and barely holding on through all the decay of its structure, those few strong elements that the Christians took to soak in the brine of their new language.
The second half of the fifth century had arrived, the horrible epoch when frightful motions convulsed the earth. The Barbarians sacked Gaul. Paralyzed Rome, pillaged by the Visigoths, felt its life grow feeble, perceived its extremities, the occident and the orient, writhe in blood and grow more exhausted from day to day.
The second half of the fifth century had come, the terrible time when violent upheavals shook the earth. The Barbarians invaded Gaul. Stricken Rome, looted by the Visigoths, sensed its energy fading, saw its far reaches, the west and the east, writhing in blood and becoming weaker every day.
In this general dissolution, in the successive assassination of the Caesars, in the turmoil of carnage from one end of Europe to another, there resounded a terrible shout of triumph, stifling all clamors, silencing all voices. On the banks of the Danube, thousands of men astride on small horses, clad in rat-skin coats, monstrous Tartars with enormous heads, flat noses, chins gullied with scars and gashes, and jaundiced faces bare of hair, rushed at full speed to envelop the territories of the Lower Empire like a whirlwind.
In this widespread chaos, amid the continuous killings of the Caesars, and in the violent bloodshed across Europe, a terrible shout of victory echoed, drowning out all protests and silencing every voice. Along the banks of the Danube, thousands of men on small horses, wearing rat-skin coats—huge Tartars with massive heads, flat noses, scarred and marked chins, and yellowed faces without hair—charged at full speed to engulf the lands of the Lower Empire like a storm.
Everything disappeared in the dust of their gallopings, in the smoke of the conflagrations. Darkness fell, and the amazed people trembled, as they heard the fearful tornado which passed with thunder crashes. The hordes of Huns razed Europe, rushed toward Gaul, overran the plains of Chalons where Aetius pillaged it in an awful charge. The plains, gorged with blood, foamed like a purple sea. Two hundred thousand corpses barred the way, broke the movement of this avalanche which, swerving, fell with mighty thunderclaps, against Italy whose exterminated towns flamed like burning bricks.
Everything vanished in the dust of their charge, in the smoke of the fires. Darkness fell, and the astonished people shook with fear as they heard the terrifying tornado roaring with thunderous crashes. The Huns devastated Europe, charged toward Gaul, and flooded the plains of Châlons where Aetius ravaged it in a horrific attack. The blood-soaked plains surged like a purple sea. Two hundred thousand bodies blocked the path, halting the force of this avalanche that, veering off, crashed down with massive thunder against Italy, where the destroyed towns blazed like flaming bricks.
The Occidental Empire crumbled beneath the shock; the moribund life which it was pursuing to imbecility and foulness, was extinguished. For another reason, the end of the universe seemed near; such cities as had been forgotten by Attila were decimated by famine and plague. The Latin language in its turn, seemed to sink under the world's ruins.
The Western Empire fell apart in shock; the dying life it was leading toward stupidity and decay was snuffed out. For another reason, the end of the world felt imminent; cities that Attila had overlooked were wiped out by hunger and disease. The Latin language, in its turn, appeared to fade away amid the world's wreckage.
Years hastened on. The Barbarian idioms began to be modulated, to leave their vein-stones and form real languages. Latin, saved in the debacle by the cloisters, was confined in its usage to the convents and monasteries.
Years flew by. The Barbarian languages started to change, moving beyond their rough origins to become proper languages. Latin, preserved in the chaos by the monasteries, was limited to use in those convents and monasteries.
Here and there some poets gleamed, dully and coldly: the African Dracontius with his Hexameron, Claudius Memertius, with his liturgical poetry; Avitus of Vienne; then, the biographers like Ennodius, who narrates the prodigies of that perspicacious and venerated diplomat, Saint Epiphanius, the upright and vigilant pastor; or like Eugippus, who tells of the life of Saint Severin, that mysterious hermit and humble ascetic who appeared like an angel of grace to the distressed people, mad with suffering and fear; writers like Veranius of Gevaudan who prepared a little treatise on continence; like Aurelianus and Ferreolus who compiled the ecclesiastical canons; historians like Rotherius, famous for a lost history of the Huns.
Here and there, some poets stood out, dull and cold: the African Dracontius with his Hexameron, Claudius Memertius with his liturgical poetry; Avitus of Vienne; then, the biographers like Ennodius, who recounts the remarkable deeds of that insightful and revered diplomat, Saint Epiphanius, the honest and watchful pastor; or like Eugippus, who tells the story of Saint Severin, that mysterious hermit and humble ascetic who appeared like an angel of grace to the suffering people, driven mad by pain and fear; writers like Veranius of Gevaudan who prepared a short treatise on self-control; Aurelianus and Ferreolus, who compiled the church canons; historians like Rotherius, known for a lost history of the Huns.
Des Esseintes' library did not contain many works of the centuries immediately succeeding. Notwithstanding this deficiency, the sixth century was represented by Fortunatus, bishop of Poitiers, whose hymns and Vexila regis, carved out of the old carrion of the Latin language and spiced with the aromatics of the Church, haunted him on certain days; by Boethius, Gregory of Tours, and Jornandez. In the seventh and eighth centuries since, in addition to the low Latin of the Chroniclers, the Fredegaires and Paul Diacres, and the poems contained in the Bangor antiphonary which he sometimes read for the alphabetical and mono-rhymed hymn sung in honor of Saint Comgill, the literature limited itself almost exclusively to biographies of saints, to the legend of Saint Columban, written by the monk, Jonas, and to that of the blessed Cuthbert, written by the Venerable Bede from the notes of an anonymous monk of Lindisfarn, he contented himself with glancing over, in his moments of tedium, the works of these hagiographers and in again reading several extracts from the lives of Saint Rusticula and Saint Radegonda, related, the one by Defensorius, the other by the modest and ingenious Baudonivia, a nun of Poitiers.
Des Esseintes' library didn’t have many works from the centuries right after. Despite this shortcoming, the sixth century was represented by Fortune-seeker, bishop of Poitiers, whose hymns and Vexilla regis, created from the remnants of the Latin language and infused with the essence of the Church, would linger in his mind on certain days; along with Boethius, Gregory of Tours, and Jornandez. In the seventh and eighth centuries, besides the simplistic Latin of the Chroniclers, the Fredericks and Paul Diacres, and the poems found in the Bangor antiphonary which he sometimes read for the alphabetical and mono-rhymed hymn celebrating Saint Comgill, the literature mostly consisted of biographies of saints, including the legend of Saint Columban written by the monk, Jonas, and the story of the blessed Cuthbert, penned by the Venerable Bede from notes taken by an anonymous monk of Lindisfarne. He settled for skimming through the works of these hagiographers during his dull moments and rereading several excerpts from the lives of Saint Rusticula and Saint Radegonda, recounted, one by Defender and the other by the humble and clever Baudonivia, a nun from Poitiers.
But the singular works of Latin and Anglo-Saxon literature allured him still further. They included the whole series of riddles by Adhelme, Tatwine and Eusebius, who were descendants of Symphosius, and especially the enigmas composed by Saint Boniface, in acrostic strophes whose solution could be found in the initial letters of the verses.
But the unique works of Latin and Anglo-Saxon literature drew him in even more. They included the entire collection of riddles by Adhelm, Tatwine, and Eusebius, who were descendants of Symphosius, and especially the puzzles created by Saint Boniface, structured in acrostic stanzas where the answers could be found in the initial letters of the lines.
His interest diminished with the end of those two centuries. Hardly pleased with the cumbersome mass of Carlovingian Latinists, the Alcuins and the Eginhards, he contented himself, as a specimen of the language of the ninth century, with the chronicles of Saint Gall, Freculfe and Reginon; with the poem of the siege of Paris written by Abbo le Courbe; with the didactic Hortulus, of the Benedictine Walafrid Strabo, whose chapter consecrated to the glory of the gourd as a symbol of fruitfulness, enlivened him; with the poem in which Ermold the Dark, celebrating the exploits of Louis the Debonair, a poem written in regular hexameters, in an austere, almost forbidding style and in a Latin of iron dipped in monastic waters with straws of sentiment, here and there, in the unpliant metal; with the De viribus herbarum, the poem of Macer Floridus, who particularly delighted him because of his poetic recipes and the very strange virtues which he ascribes to certain plants and flowers; to the aristolochia, for example, which, mixed with the flesh of a cow and placed on the lower part of a pregnant woman's abdomen, insures the birth of a male child; or to the borage which, when brewed into an infusion in a dining room, diverts guests; or to the peony whose powdered roots cure epilepsy; or to the fennel which, if placed on a woman's breasts, clears her water and stimulates the indolence of her periods.
His interest faded with the end of those two centuries. Not really impressed by the bulky works of the Carlovingian Latinists, like Alcuin and Eginhard, he settled for some examples of ninth-century language, including the chronicles of Saint Gall, Freculf, and Reginon; the poem about the siege of Paris written by Abbo le Courbe; and the instructional Hortulus by the Benedictine Walafrid Strabo, which features a chapter dedicated to the gourd as a symbol of fertility that inspired him. He also looked at the poem by Ermold the Dark, which celebrates the achievements of Louis the Debonair—written in regular hexameters with a serious, almost harsh style, and in a Latin that’s cold and infused with monastic traditions, with hints of sentiment. He enjoyed On the powers of herbs, the poem by Macer Floridus, especially for its poetic recipes and the unusual qualities attributed to certain plants and flowers; for example, the aristolochia, which when mixed with cow flesh and placed on the abdomen of a pregnant woman ensures the birth of a male child; or borage, which when brewed into a tea in a dining room cheers up guests; or the peony, whose ground roots are supposed to cure epilepsy; or fennel, which when placed on a woman’s breasts helps with her menstrual flow and stimulates her cycles.
Apart from several special, unclassified volumes, modern or dateless, certain works on the Cabbala, medicine and botany, certain odd tomes containing undiscoverable Christian poetry, and the anthology of the minor Latin poets of Wernsdorf; apart from Meursius, the manual of classical erotology of Forberg, and the diaconals used by confessors, which he dusted at rare intervals, his Latin library ended at the beginning of the tenth century.
Besides a few special, unclassified volumes that are modern or undated, some works on the Kabbalah, medicine, and botany, a few strange books with obscure Christian poetry, and the collection of lesser Latin poets by Wernsdorf; besides Meursius, Forberg's guide to classical erotology, and the manuals used by confessors, which he occasionally dusted off, his Latin library stopped at the beginning of the tenth century.
And, in fact, the curiosity, the complicated naïveté of the Christian language had also foundered. The balderdash of philosophers and scholars, the logomachy of the Middle Ages, thenceforth held absolute sway. The sooty mass of chronicles and historical books and cartularies accumulated, and the stammering grace, the often exquisite awkwardness of the monks, placing the poetic remains of antiquity in a ragout, were dead. The fabrications of verbs and purified essences, of substantives breathing of incense, of bizarre adjectives, coarsely carved from gold, with the barbarous and charming taste of Gothic jewels, were destroyed. The old editions, beloved by Des Esseintes, here ended; and with a formidable leap of centuries, the books on his shelves went straight to the French language of the present century.
And in fact, the curiosity and complex innocence of Christian language had also failed. The nonsense of philosophers and scholars, the word wars of the Middle Ages, now held complete control. The dark pile of chronicles, historical books, and documents grew, and the hesitant grace, often beautifully awkward, of the monks, who mixed the poetic leftovers of the past, was gone. The made-up verbs and refined essences, nouns scented with incense, and strange adjectives, roughly carved from gold and exhibiting the rough yet charming style of Gothic jewels, were destroyed. The old editions, cherished by Des Esseintes, came to an end here; and with a massive leap of centuries, the books on his shelves went straight to the modern French language of this century.
Chapter 5
The afternoon was drawing to its close when a carriage halted in front of the Fontenay house. Since Des Esseintes received no visitors, and since the postman never even ventured into these uninhabited parts, having no occasion to deliver any papers, magazines or letters, the servants hesitated before opening the door. Then, as the bell was rung furiously again, they peered through the peep-hole cut into the wall, and perceived a man, concealed, from neck to waist, behind an immense gold buckler.
The afternoon was coming to an end when a carriage stopped in front of the Fontenay house. Since Des Esseintes didn't have any visitors, and the postman never even bothered to come to these empty areas, having nothing to deliver, the servants were unsure about opening the door. Then, as the bell rang loudly again, they looked through the peephole cut into the wall and saw a man, hidden from neck to waist behind a huge gold shield.
They informed their master, who was breakfasting.
They told their boss, who was having breakfast.
"Ask him in," he said, for he recalled having given his address to a lapidary for the delivery of a purchase.
"Invite him in," he said, remembering that he had given his address to a gem cutter for the delivery of a purchase.
The man bowed and deposited the buckler on the pinewood floor of the dining room. It oscillated and wavered, revealing the serpentine head of a tortoise which, suddenly terrified, retreated into its shell.
The man bowed and set the shield down on the pinewood floor of the dining room. It shook and wobbled, showing the twisted head of a tortoise that, suddenly scared, pulled back into its shell.
This tortoise was a fancy which had seized Des Esseintes some time before his departure from Paris. Examining an Oriental rug, one day, in reflected light, and following the silver gleams which fell on its web of plum violet and alladin yellow, it suddenly occurred to him how much it would be improved if he could place on it some object whose deep color might enhance the vividness of its tints.
This tortoise was an obsession that had captured Des Esseintes some time before he left Paris. One day, while looking at an Oriental rug in the reflected light and noticing the silver gleams on its plum violet and Aladdin yellow pattern, he suddenly thought about how much better it would look if he could place an object with a deep color on it to enhance the vibrancy of its shades.
Possessed by this idea, he had been strolling aimlessly along the streets, when suddenly he found himself gazing at the very object of his wishes. There, in a shop window on the Palais Royal, lay a huge tortoise in a large basin. He had purchased it. Then he had sat a long time, with eyes half-shut, studying the effect.
Possessed by this idea, he had been wandering aimlessly through the streets when he suddenly found himself staring at the very thing he desired. There, in a shop window at the Palais Royal, sat a large tortoise in a big basin. He had bought it. Then, he sat for a long time, with his eyes half-closed, pondering the effect.
Decidedly, the Ethiopic black, the harsh Sienna tone of this shell dulled the rug's reflections without adding to it. The dominant silver gleams in it barely sparkled, crawling with lack-lustre tones of dead zinc against the edges of the hard, tarnished shell.
Clearly, the deep black of the shell and the rough Sienna color muted the rug's reflections without enhancing it. The prominent silver glimmers hardly shone, crawling with dull shades of lifeless zinc along the edges of the hard, tarnished shell.
He bit his nails while he studied a method of removing these discords and reconciling the determined opposition of the tones. He finally discovered that his first inspiration, which was to animate the fire of the weave by setting it off against some dark object, was erroneous. In fact, this rug was too new, too petulant and gaudy. The colors were not sufficiently subdued. He must reverse the process, dull the tones, and extinguish them by the contrast of a striking object, which would eclipse all else and cast a golden light on the pale silver. Thus stated, the problem was easier to solve. He therefore decided to glaze the shell of the tortoise with gold.
He bit his nails while he figured out a way to fix these clashes and balance the stubborn opposition of the tones. He eventually realized that his initial idea of bringing the fire of the weave to life by contrasting it with a dark object was wrong. The rug was just too new, too fussy, and too flashy. The colors weren’t muted enough. He needed to switch things up, tone down the colors, and overshadow them with a striking object that would stand out and cast a warm glow on the pale silver. With that in mind, the problem became easier to tackle. So, he decided to glaze the tortoise shell with gold.
The tortoise, just returned by the lapidary, shone brilliantly, softening the tones of the rug and casting on it a gorgeous reflection which resembled the irradiations from the scales of a barbaric Visigoth shield.
The tortoise, recently returned by the gem cutter, gleamed brightly, softening the colors of the rug and casting a stunning reflection that resembled the glow from the scales of a fierce Visigoth shield.
At first Des Esseintes was enchanted with this effect. Then he reflected that this gigantic jewel was only in outline, that it would not really be complete until it had been incrusted with rare stones.
At first Des Esseintes was fascinated by this effect. Then he thought about how this massive jewel was just an outline, and it wouldn’t truly be finished until it was adorned with rare stones.
From a Japanese collection he chose a design representing a cluster of flowers emanating spindle-like, from a slender stalk. Taking it to a jeweler, he sketched a border to enclose this bouquet in an oval frame, and informed the amazed lapidary that every petal and every leaf was to be designed with jewels and mounted on the scales of the tortoise.
From a Japanese collection, he picked a design that showed a bunch of flowers sprouting out from a thin stem. He brought it to a jeweler, sketched an oval frame around the bouquet, and told the astonished jeweler that each petal and leaf was to be made with jewels and set on tortoise shell.
The choice of stones made him pause. The diamond has become notoriously common since every tradesman has taken to wearing it on his little finger. The oriental emeralds and rubies are less vulgarized and cast brilliant, rutilant flames, but they remind one of the green and red antennæ of certain omnibuses which carry signal lights of these colors. As for topazes, whether sparkling or dim, they are cheap stones, precious only to women of the middle class who like to have jewel cases on their dressing-tables. And then, although the Church has preserved for the amethyst a sacerdotal character which is at once unctuous and solemn, this stone, too, is abused on the blood-red ears and veined hands of butchers' wives who love to adorn themselves inexpensively with real and heavy jewels. Only the sapphire, among all these stones, has kept its fires undefiled by any taint of commercialism. Its sparks, crackling in its limpid, cold depths have in some way protected its shy and proud nobility from pollution. Unfortunately, its fresh fire does not sparkle in artificial light: the blue retreats and seems to fall asleep, only awakening to shine at daybreak.
The choice of stones made him stop and think. The diamond has become incredibly common since every salesperson seems to wear it on their pinky finger. The oriental emeralds and rubies are less overused and shine with brilliant, glowing flames, but they remind one of the green and red lights on certain buses that signal different routes. As for topazes, whether they sparkle or look dull, they are cheap stones, valued only by middle-class women who like to have jewelry boxes on their vanities. And while the Church has given the amethyst a sacred character that is both rich and serious, this stone is also misused by the wives of butchers who enjoy decorating themselves inexpensively with real, heavy jewels. Only the sapphire, among all these stones, has kept its brilliance untouched by any hint of commercialism. Its sparks, crackling in its clear, cold depths, have somehow shielded its shy and proud nobility from contamination. Unfortunately, its vibrant fire doesn’t shine in artificial light: the blue fades and seems to fall asleep, only waking up to shine at dawn.
None of these satisfied Des Esseintes at all. They were too civilized and familiar. He let trickle through his fingers still more astonishing and bizarre stones, and finally selected a number of real and artificial ones which, used together, should produce a fascinating and disconcerting harmony.
None of these satisfied Des Esseintes at all. They were too refined and familiar. He let more astonishing and bizarre stones slip through his fingers, and finally picked a mix of real and artificial ones that, when used together, would create an intriguing and unsettling harmony.
This is how he composed his bouquet of flowers: the leaves were set with jewels of a pronounced, distinct green; the chrysoberyls of asparagus green; the chrysolites of leek green; the olivines of olive green. They hung from branches of almandine and ouwarovite of a violet red, darting spangles of a hard brilliance like tartar micas gleaming through forest depths.
This is how he arranged his bouquet of flowers: the leaves were adorned with jewels of a vibrant, distinct green; the chrysoberyls were a fresh asparagus green; the chrysolites resembled the color of leeks; the olivines were olive green. They hung from branches of almandine and ouwarovite in a violet-red shade, sparkling with a hard brilliance like tartar micas shining through the depths of the forest.
For the flowers, separated from the stalk and removed from the bottom of the sheaf, he used blue cinder. But he formally waived that oriental turquoise used for brooches and rings which, like the banal pearl and the odious coral, serves to delight people of no importance. He chose occidental turquoises exclusively, stones which, properly speaking, are only a fossil ivory impregnated with coppery substances whose sea blue is choked, opaque, sulphurous, as though yellowed by bile.
For the flowers, taken from the stalk and taken off the bottom of the bunch, he used blue cinder. But he intentionally passed on that oriental turquoise used for brooches and rings, which, like the common pearl and the disgusting coral, serves to please people of no significance. He chose only western turquoise, stones which, to be accurate, are just fossilized ivory soaked in coppery materials whose sea blue is dull, opaque, and sulfurous, as if it’s been tainted by bile.
This done, he could now set the petals of his flowers with transparent stones which had morbid and vitreous sparks, feverish and sharp lights.
This done, he could now arrange the petals of his flowers with clear stones that had unsettling and glassy glimmers, intense and sharp lights.
He composed them entirely with Ceylon snap-dragons, cymophanes and blue chalcedony.
He made them entirely with Ceylon snapdragons, cymophanes, and blue chalcedony.
These three stones darted mysterious and perverse scintillations, painfully torn from the frozen depths of their troubled waters.
These three stones shot out strange and twisted glimmers, painfully pulled from the icy depths of their troubled waters.
The snap-dragon of a greenish grey, streaked with concentric veins which seem to stir and change constantly, according to the dispositions of light.
The snapdragon, a greenish-grey, is lined with swirling veins that appear to shift and change continuously, depending on the way the light hits it.
The cymophane, whose azure waves float over the milky tint swimming in its depths.
The cymophane, with its blue waves gliding over the creamy hue swirling in its depths.
The blue chalcedony which kindles with bluish phosphorescent fires against a dead brown, chocolate background.
The blue chalcedony that glows with bluish phosphorescent sparks against a dull brown, chocolate background.
The lapidary made a note of the places where the stones were to be inlaid. "And the border of the shell?" he asked Des Esseintes.
The gem cutter took note of where the stones were to be set. "What about the edge of the shell?" he asked Des Esseintes.
At first he had thought of some opals and hydrophanes; but these stones, interesting for their hesitating colors, for the evasions of their flames, are too refractory and faithless; the opal has a quite rheumatic sensitiveness; the play of its rays alters according to the humidity, the warmth or cold; as for the hydrophane, it only burns in water and only consents to kindle its embers when moistened.
At first, he considered some opals and hydrophanes; however, these stones, fascinating for their shifting colors and the way their light dances, are too unreliable and untrustworthy. The opal has a sensitivity akin to rheumatism; the way its rays shift changes with humidity, warmth, or cold. As for the hydrophane, it only sparkles in water and only agrees to ignite its embers when wet.
He finally decided on minerals whose reflections vary; for the Compostelle hyacinth, mahogany red; the beryl, glaucous green; the balas ruby, vinegar rose; the Sudermanian ruby, pale slate. Their feeble sparklings sufficed to light the darkness of the shell and preserved the values of the flowering stones which they encircled with a slender garland of vague fires.
He finally chose minerals with varying reflections: the Compostelle hyacinth, mahogany red; the beryl, bluish-green; the balas ruby, rose color; the Sudermanian ruby, pale gray. Their faint sparkles were enough to light up the darkness of the shell and highlighted the value of the gems they surrounded with a delicate garland of soft flames.
Des Esseintes now watched the tortoise squatting in a corner of the dining room, shining in the shadow.
Des Esseintes now observed the tortoise sitting in a corner of the dining room, gleaming in the shadow.
He was perfectly happy. His eyes gleamed with pleasure at the resplendencies of the flaming corrollæ against the gold background. Then, he grew hungry—a thing that rarely if ever happened to him—and dipped his toast, spread with a special butter, in a cup of tea, a flawless blend of Siafayoune, Moyoutann and Khansky—yellow teas which had come from China to Russia by special caravans.
He was completely happy. His eyes sparkled with delight at the bright colors of the fiery flowers against the golden background. Then, he got hungry—something that hardly ever happened to him—and dipped his toast, spread with special butter, into a cup of tea, a perfect mix of Siafayoune, Moyoutann, and Khansky—yellow teas that had traveled from China to Russia via special caravans.
This liquid perfume he drank in those Chinese porcelains called egg-shell, so light and diaphanous they are. And, as an accompaniment to these adorable cups, he used a service of solid silver, slightly gilded; the silver showed faintly under the fatigued layer of gold, which gave it an aged, quite exhausted and moribund tint.
This liquid perfume he enjoyed from those Chinese porcelain cups called egg-shell, which are so light and translucent. And, alongside these beautiful cups, he used a solid silver service, lightly gilded; the silver faintly showed through the worn layer of gold, giving it an aged, tired, and somewhat lifeless look.
After he had finished his tea, he returned to his study and had the servant carry in the tortoise which stubbornly refused to budge.
After he finished his tea, he went back to his study and had the servant bring in the tortoise, which stubbornly refused to move.
The snow was falling. By the lamp light, he saw the icy patterns on the bluish windows, and the hoar-frost, like melted sugar, scintillating in the stumps of bottles spotted with gold.
The snow was falling. By the lamp light, he saw the icy patterns on the bluish windows, and the frost, like melted sugar, sparkling in the bottle stubs with gold spots.
A deep silence enveloped the cottage drooping in shadow.
A heavy silence surrounded the cottage, which was shrouded in shadow.
Des Esseintes fell into revery. The fireplace piled with logs gave forth a smell of burning wood. He opened the window slightly.
Des Esseintes drifted into a daydream. The fireplace stacked with logs released the scent of burning wood. He cracked the window open a bit.
Like a high tapestry of black ermine, the sky rose before him, black flecked with white.
Like a tall tapestry of black fur, the sky stretched out in front of him, black with white specks.
An icy wind swept past, accelerated the crazy flight of the snow, and reversed the color order.
An icy wind whipped through, speeding up the wild swirl of snow and flipping the color order.
The heraldic tapestry of heaven returned, became a true ermine, a white flecked with black, in its turn, by the specks of darkness dispersed among the flakes.
The colorful tapestry of the sky returned, turning into a true ermine, a white with black spots, marked by the dark specks scattered among the flakes.
He closed the window. This abrupt transition from torrid warmth to cold winter affected him. He crouched near the fire and it occurred to him that he needed a cordial to revive his flagging spirits.
He closed the window. This sudden shift from scorching heat to cold winter got to him. He huddled by the fire, and it struck him that he needed a drink to lift his fading spirits.
He went to the dining room where, built in one of the panels, was a closet containing a number of tiny casks, ranged side by side, and resting on small stands of sandal wood.
He went to the dining room where, built into one of the panels, was a closet containing several tiny casks, lined up side by side and resting on small sandalwood stands.
This collection of barrels he called his mouth organ.
This group of barrels he called his mouth organ.
A stem could connect all the spigots and control them by a single movement, so that once attached, he had only to press a button concealed in the woodwork to turn on all the taps at the same time and fill the mugs placed underneath.
A stem could link all the faucets and control them with a single motion, so that once attached, he just had to press a hidden button in the woodwork to turn on all the taps at once and fill the mugs placed underneath.
The organ was now open. The stops labelled flute, horn, celestial voice, were pulled out, ready to be placed. Des Esseintes sipped here and there, enjoying the inner symphonies, succeeded in procuring sensations in his throat analogous to those which music gives to the ear.
The organ was now open. The stops labeled flute, horn, and celestial voice were pulled out, ready to be set. Des Esseintes sipped here and there, enjoying the inner symphonies, managing to create sensations in his throat similar to those that music provides to the ear.
Moreover, each liquor corresponded, according to his thinking, to the sound of some instrument. Dry curacoa, for example, to the clarinet whose tone is sourish and velvety; kümmel to the oboe whose sonorous notes snuffle; mint and anisette to the flute, at once sugary and peppery, puling and sweet; while, to complete the orchestra, kirschwasser has the furious ring of the trumpet; gin and whiskey burn the palate with their strident crashings of trombones and cornets; brandy storms with the deafening hubbub of tubas; while the thunder-claps of the cymbals and the furiously beaten drum roll in the mouth by means of the rakis de Chio.
Moreover, each liquor, in his view, matched the sound of a specific instrument. Dry curacao, for instance, resonated with the clarinet, whose tone is slightly sour yet smooth; kümmel matched the oboe with its rich, snuffling notes; mint and anisette corresponded to the flute, which is both sweet and spicy, delicate and sugary; while to complete the orchestra, cherry brandy has the bold sound of the trumpet; gin and whiskey sting the palate with the sharp blasts of trombones and cornets; brandy erupts with the loud roar of tubas; while the crashing of cymbals and the fast-beaten drum roll echo in the mouth through rakis de Chio.
He also thought that the comparison could be continued, that quartets of string instruments could play under the palate, with the violin simulated by old brandy, fumous and fine, piercing and frail; the tenor violin by rum, louder and more sonorous; the cello by the lacerating and lingering ratafia, melancholy and caressing; with the double-bass, full-bodied, solid and dark as the old bitters. If one wished to form a quintet, one could even add a fifth instrument with the vibrant taste, the silvery detached and shrill note of dry cumin imitating the harp.
He also thought that the comparison could continue, with string quartets playing beneath the palate, where the old brandy simulates the violin—smoky and smooth, sharp and delicate; rum takes on the role of the tenor violin, louder and richer; the cello is represented by the sharp and lingering ratafia, both sad and comforting; while the double-bass is full-bodied, solid, and dark like old bitters. If someone wanted to create a quintet, they could even add a fifth instrument with the vibrant flavor, the bright, crisp, and piercing note of dry cumin mimicking the harp.
The comparison was further prolonged. Tone relationships existed in the music of liquors; to cite but one note, benedictine represents, so to speak, the minor key of that major key of alcohols which are designated in commercial scores, under the name of green Chartreuse.
The comparison went on even longer. There were tonal relationships in the music of beverages; for example, Benedictine represents, so to speak, the minor key of that major key of alcohols that are listed in commercial menus as green Chartreuse.
These principles once admitted, he succeeded, after numerous experiments, in enjoying silent melodies on his tongue, mute funeral marches, in hearing, in his mouth, solos of mint, duos of ratafia and rum.
These principles accepted, he managed, after many experiments, to savor silent melodies on his tongue, muted funeral marches, and to perceive solos of mint, duos of ratafia and rum in his mouth.
He was even able to transfer to his palate real pieces of music, following the composer step by step, rendering his thought, his effects, his nuances, by combinations or contrasts of liquors, by approximative and skilled mixtures.
He could even translate real pieces of music onto his palate, following the composer closely, capturing their thoughts, effects, and nuances through combinations or contrasts of drinks, by creating rough yet skillful mixes.
At other times, he himself composed melodies, executed pastorals with mild black-currant which evoked, in his throat, the trillings of nightingales; with the tender chouva cocoa which sang saccharine songs like "The romance of Estelle" and the "Ah! Shall I tell you, mama," of past days.
At other times, he would create melodies himself, performing gentle tunes with soft blackcurrants that brought to mind the sweet trills of nightingales; with the smooth cocoa that sang sugary songs like "The Romance of Estelle" and "Oh! Should I tell you, Mom," from days gone by.
But on this evening Des Esseintes was not inclined to listen to this music. He confined himself to sounding one note on the keyboard of his organ, by swallowing a little glass of genuine Irish whiskey.
But on this evening Des Esseintes didn’t feel like listening to the music. He just played one note on the keyboard of his organ after downing a small glass of real Irish whiskey.
He sank into his easy chair and slowly inhaled this fermented juice of oats and barley: a pronounced taste of creosote was in his mouth.
He sank into his recliner and slowly inhaled this fermented drink made from oats and barley: he could taste a strong hint of creosote in his mouth.
Gradually, as he drank, his thought followed the now revived sensitiveness of his palate, fitted its progress to the flavor of the whiskey, re-awakened, by a fatal exactitude of odors, memories effaced for years.
Slowly, as he drank, his thoughts aligned with the now heightened sensitivity of his taste buds, syncing with the flavor of the whiskey, which brought back, through an uncanny accuracy of smells, memories that had been buried for years.
This carbolic tartness forcibly recalled to him the same taste he had had on his tongue in the days when dentists worked on his gums.
This sharp, carbolic taste sharply reminded him of the same flavor he had experienced during the times when dentists worked on his gums.
Once abandoned on this track, his revery, at first dispersed among all the dentists he had known, concentrated and converged on one of them who was more firmly engraved in his memory.
Once left behind on this path, his daydream, initially scattered among all the dentists he had known, focused and zeroed in on one of them who was more vividly etched in his memory.
It had happened three years ago. Seized, in the middle of the night, with an abominable toothache, he put his hand to his cheek, stumbled against the furniture, pacing up and down the room like a demented person.
It had happened three years ago. Gripped by an awful toothache in the middle of the night, he pressed his hand to his cheek, stumbled into the furniture, and paced back and forth in the room like someone out of their mind.
It was a molar which had already been filled; no remedy was possible. Only a dentist could alleviate the pain. He feverishly waited for the day, resolved to bear the most atrocious operation provided it would only ease his sufferings.
It was a tooth that had already been filled; there was no fix possible. Only a dentist could relieve the pain. He anxiously waited for the day, determined to endure the worst procedure if it would just lessen his suffering.
Holding a hand to his jaw, he asked himself what should be done. The dentists who treated him were rich merchants whom one could not see at any time; one had to make an appointment. He told himself that this would never do, that he could not endure it. He decided to patronize the first one he could find, to hasten to a popular tooth-extractor, one of those iron-fisted men who, if they are ignorant of the useless art of dressing decaying teeth and of filling holes, know how to pull the stubbornest stump with an unequalled rapidity. There, the office is opened early in the morning and one is not required to wait. Seven o'clock struck at last. He hurried out, and recollecting the name of a mechanic who called himself a dentist and dwelt in the corner of a quay, he rushed through the streets, holding his cheek with his hands repressing the tears.
Holding his jaw, he wondered what to do. The dentists who treated him were wealthy and hard to reach; appointments were necessary. He thought this was unacceptable and that he couldn't stand it any longer. He decided to go to the first dentist he could find, rushing to a popular tooth extractor—one of those tough guys who, while clueless about the pointless skill of fixing decayed teeth or filling cavities, could yank out even the most stubborn tooth with incredible speed. Their office opens early, and you don't have to wait. Finally, seven o'clock struck. He rushed out, remembering the name of a guy who called himself a dentist and lived at the end of a pier, and he dashed through the streets, holding his cheek and trying to hold back tears.
Arrived in front of the house, recognizable by an immense wooden signboard where the name of "Gatonax" sprawled in enormous pumpkin-colored letters, and by two little glass cases where false teeth were carefully set in rose-colored wax, he gasped for breath. He perspired profusely. A horrible fear shook him, a trembling crept under his skin; suddenly a calm ensued, the suffering ceased, the tooth stopped paining.
Arriving in front of the house, marked by a huge wooden sign displaying the name "Gatonax" in large pumpkin-colored letters, and two small glass cases holding false teeth carefully placed in pink wax, he gasped for air. He was sweating heavily. A terrible fear gripped him, and he felt a shiver run through his body; then suddenly, it all quieted down, the pain went away, and the tooth stopped hurting.
He remained, stupefied, on the sidewalk; finally, he stiffened against the anguish, mounted the dim stairway, running up four steps at a time to the fourth story. He found himself in front of a door where an enamel plate repeated, inscribed in sky-blue lettering, the name on the signboard. He rang the bell and then, terrified by the great red spittles which he noticed on the steps, he faced about, resolved to endure his toothache all his life. At that moment an excruciating cry pierced the partitions, filled the cage of the doorway and glued him to the spot with horror, at the same time that a door was opened and an old woman invited him to enter.
He stood, stunned, on the sidewalk; finally, he gathered himself against the pain, climbed the dim staircase, taking four steps at a time to the fourth floor. He found himself in front of a door where an enamel plaque displayed the name in sky-blue letters, just like the sign outside. He rang the bell and then, horrified by the large red stains he saw on the steps, he turned around, ready to live with his toothache forever. Just then, a piercing scream echoed through the walls, filled the entryway, and froze him in place with fear, while a door opened and an old woman welcomed him inside.
His feeling of shame quickly changed to fear. He was ushered into a dining room. Another door creaked and in entered a terrible grenadier dressed in a frock-coat and black trousers. Des Esseintes followed him to another room.
His sense of shame quickly turned into fear. He was led into a dining room. Another door creaked open, and a menacing grenadier dressed in a frock coat and black trousers walked in. Des Esseintes followed him into another room.
From this instant, his sensations were confused. He vaguely remembered having sunk into a chair opposite a window, having murmured, as he put a finger to his tooth: "It has already been filled and I am afraid nothing more can be done with it."
From this moment on, he felt a mix of emotions. He vaguely recalled sitting down in a chair by the window and murmuring, as he touched his tooth, "It's already been filled, and I'm afraid there's nothing more that can be done about it."
The man immediately suppressed these explanations by introducing an enormous index finger into his mouth. Muttering beneath his waxed fang-like moustaches, he took an instrument from the table.
The man quickly silenced these explanations by sticking a huge index finger in his mouth. Grumbling under his waxed, fang-like mustache, he picked up a tool from the table.
Then the play began. Clinging to the arms of his seat, Des Esseintes felt a cold sensation in his cheek, and began to suffer unheard agonies. Then he beheld stars. He stamped his feet frantically and bleated like a sheep about to be slaughtered.
Then the play started. Gripping the arms of his seat, Des Esseintes felt a cold sensation on his cheek and began to endure silent torment. Then he saw stars. He stomped his feet wildly and cried out like a sheep ready for slaughter.
A snapping sound was heard, the molar had broken while being extracted. It seemed that his head was being shattered, that his skull was being smashed; he lost his senses, howled as loudly as he could, furiously defending himself from the man who rushed at him anew as if he wished to implant his whole arm in the depths of his bowels, brusquely recoiled a step and, lifting the tooth attached to the jaw, brutally let him fall back into the chair. Breathing heavily, his form filling the window, he brandished at one end of his forceps, a blue tooth with blood at one end.
A snapping sound echoed as the molar broke during extraction. It felt like his head was being crushed, like his skull was being smashed; he lost control, howling as loudly as he could, desperately defending himself from the man who lunged at him again, as if he wanted to shove his entire arm deep inside him. He jerked back a step and, holding the tooth still attached to the jaw, harshly let him fall back into the chair. Breathing heavily, his figure filling the window, he waved the forceps, showcasing a blue tooth with blood on one end.
Faint and prostrate, Des Esseintes spat blood into a basin, refused with a gesture, the tooth which the old woman was about to wrap in a piece of paper and fled, after paying two francs. Expectorating blood, in his turn, down the steps, he at length found himself in the street, joyous, feeling ten years younger, interested in every little occurrence.
Faint and lying down, Des Esseintes spat blood into a basin, waved away the tooth the old woman was about to wrap in paper, and left after paying two francs. Spitting blood as he went down the steps, he finally found himself on the street, feeling cheerful and ten years younger, intrigued by every little event.
"Phew!" he exclaimed, saddened by the assault of these memories. He rose to dissipate the horrible spell of this vision and, returning to reality, began to be concerned with the tortoise.
"Phew!" he exclaimed, troubled by the flood of these memories. He stood up to shake off the terrible grip of this vision and, returning to reality, started to focus on the tortoise.
It did not budge at all and he tapped it. The animal was dead. Doubtless accustomed to a sedentary existence, to a humble life spent underneath its poor shell, it had been unable to support the dazzling luxury imposed on it, the rutilant cope with which it had been covered, the jewels with which its back had been paved, like a pyx.
It didn’t move at all when he tapped it. The animal was dead. Clearly used to a quiet life beneath its simple shell, it couldn’t handle the blinding luxury forced upon it, the shiny covering it had been draped in, or the gems that adorned its back, like a relic.
Chapter 6
With the sharpening of his desire to withdraw from a hated age, he felt a despotic urge to shun pictures representing humanity striving in little holes or running to and fro in quest of money.
With his growing desire to escape from a detested era, he felt a compelling need to avoid images depicting people hustling in small spaces or rushing around in pursuit of money.
With his growing indifference to contemporary life he had resolved not to introduce into his cell any of the ghosts of distastes or regrets, but had desired to procure subtle and exquisite paintings, steeped in ancient dreams or antique corruptions, far removed from the manner of our present day.
With his increasing lack of interest in modern life, he decided not to bring into his cell any reminders of dislikes or regrets. Instead, he wanted to gather delicate and beautiful paintings, filled with ancient dreams or old corruptions, completely different from the style of today.
For the delight of his spirit and the joy of his eyes, he had desired a few suggestive creations that cast him into an unknown world, revealing to him the contours of new conjectures, agitating the nervous system by the violent deliriums, complicated nightmares, nonchalant or atrocious chimeræ they induced.
For the joy of his spirit and the happiness of his eyes, he wanted a few thought-provoking creations that threw him into an unknown world, showing him the outlines of new ideas, stirring his nerves with intense deliriums, complicated nightmares, and casual or horrific fantasies they triggered.
Among these were some executed by an artist whose genius allured and entranced him: Gustave Moreau.
Among these were some created by an artist whose genius captivated and mesmerized him: Gustave Moreau.
Des Esseintes had acquired his two masterpieces and, at night, used to sink into revery before one of them—a representation of Salomé, conceived in this fashion:
Des Esseintes had obtained his two masterpieces and, at night, would often lose himself in thought while gazing at one of them—a depiction of Salomé, imagined in this way:
A throne, resembling the high altar of a cathedral, reared itself beneath innumerable vaults leaping from heavy Romanesque pillars, studded with polychromatic bricks, set with mosaics, incrusted with lapis lazuli and sardonyx, in a palace that, like a basilica, was at once Mohammedan and Byzantine in design.
A throne, resembling the high altar of a cathedral, rose up beneath countless vaults supported by massive Romanesque pillars, adorned with colorful bricks, decorated with mosaics, inlaid with lapis lazuli and sardonyx, in a palace that was both Islamic and Byzantine in style, like a basilica.
In the center of the tabernacle, surmounting an altar approached by semi-circular steps, sat Herod the Tetrarch, a tiara upon his head, his legs pressed closely together, his hands resting upon his knees.
In the center of the tabernacle, sitting atop an altar with semi-circular steps, was Herod the Tetrarch, wearing a tiara on his head, his legs tightly together, and his hands resting on his knees.
His face was the color of yellow parchment; it was furrowed with wrinkles, ravaged with age. His long beard floated like a white cloud upon the star-like clusters of jewels constellating the orphrey robe fitting tightly over his breast.
His face was the color of yellowed paper; it was lined with wrinkles, worn down by age. His long beard floated like a white cloud over the star-like clusters of jewels decorating the orphrey robe that fit snugly over his chest.
Around this form, frozen into the immobile, sacerdotal, hieratic pose of a Hindoo god, burned perfumes wafting aloft clouds of incense which were perforated, like phosphorescent eyes of beasts, by the fiery rays of the stones set in the throne. Then the vapor rolled up, diffusing itself beneath arcades where the blue smoke mingled with the gold powder of the long sunbeams falling from the domes.
Around this figure, frozen in the still, sacred pose of a Hindu god, perfumes burned, sending fragrant clouds of incense into the air that were punctuated, like glowing eyes of animals, by the bright rays of the gems embedded in the throne. The vapor then rose, spreading beneath archways where the blue smoke blended with the golden dust of the long sunbeams streaming down from the domes.
In the perverse odor of the perfumes, in the overheated atmosphere of the temple, Salomé, her left arm outstretched in a gesture of command, her right arm drawn back and holding a large lotus on a level with her face, slowly advances on her toes, to the rhythm of a stringed instrument played by a woman seated on the ground.
In the intoxicating scent of the perfumes, in the stifling heat of the temple, Salomé, her left arm extended in a commanding gesture, her right arm pulled back and holding a large lotus at face level, slowly walks forward on her toes, moving to the rhythm of a stringed instrument played by a woman sitting on the ground.
Her face is meditative, solemn, almost august, as she commences the lascivious dance that will awaken the slumbering senses of old Herod. Diamonds scintillate against her glistening skin. Her bracelets, her girdles, her rings flash. On her triumphal robe, seamed with pearls, flowered with silver and laminated with gold, the breastplate of jewels, each link of which is a precious stone, flashes serpents of fire against the pallid flesh, delicate as a tea-rose: its jewels like splendid insects with dazzling elytra, veined with carmine, dotted with yellow gold, diapered with blue steel, speckled with peacock green.
Her face is thoughtful, serious, almost majestic, as she begins the seductive dance that will awaken the dormant senses of old Herod. Diamonds sparkle against her shining skin. Her bracelets, waistbands, and rings flash. On her triumphant robe, adorned with pearls, decorated with silver, and layered with gold, the jewel-encrusted breastplate, with each link a precious stone, flashes fiery serpents against her pale skin, delicate like a tea rose: its jewels resemble stunning insects with glittering wings, streaked with red, dotted with yellow gold, patterned with blue steel, and speckled with peacock green.
With a tense concentration, with the fixed gaze of a somnambulist, she beholds neither the trembling Tetrarch, nor her mother, the fierce Herodias who watches her, nor the hermaphrodite, nor the eunuch who sits, sword in hand, at the foot of the throne—a terrible figure, veiled to his eyes, whose breasts droop like gourds under his orange-checkered tunic.
With intense focus, with the blank stare of a sleepwalker, she doesn’t see the trembling Tetrarch, her mother, the fierce Herodias watching her, nor the hermaphrodite, nor the eunuch sitting with a sword in hand at the foot of the throne—a frightening figure, veiled to the eyes, whose breasts sag like gourds under his orange-checkered tunic.
This conception of Salomé, so haunting to artists and poets, had obsessed Des Esseintes for years. How often had he read in the old Bible of Pierre Variquet, translated by the theological doctors of the University of Louvain, the Gospel of Saint Matthew who, in brief and ingenuous phrases, recounts the beheading of the Baptist! How often had he fallen into revery, as he read these lines:
This idea of Salomé, so captivating to artists and poets, had obsessed Des Esseintes for years. How many times had he read in the old Bible of Pierre Variquet, translated by the theological scholars of the University of Louvain, the Gospel of Saint Matthew, which, in simple and straightforward language, tells the story of the beheading of the Baptist! How often had he drifted into daydreams while reading these lines:
But when Herod's birthday was kept, the daughter of Herodias danced before them, and pleased Herod.
When Herod threw his birthday party, Herodias' daughter danced for everyone, and it pleased Herod.
Whereupon he promised with an oath to give her whatsoever she would ask.
He then swore an oath to give her anything she wanted.
And she, being before instructed of her mother, said: Give me here John Baptist's head in a charger.
She, having been guided by her mother, said: Give me the head of John the Baptist on a platter.
And the king was sorry: nevertheless, for the oath's sake, and them which sat with him at meat, he commanded it to be given her.
The king felt regret; however, because of his oath and the guests at the table, he ordered it to be done.
And he sent, and beheaded John in the prison.
He commanded that John be beheaded in prison.
And his head was brought in a charger, and given to the damsel: and she brought it to her mother.
John's head was brought on a platter and given to the young woman, and she took it to her mother.
But neither Saint Matthew, nor Saint Mark, nor Saint Luke, nor the other Evangelists had emphasized the maddening charms and depravities of the dancer. She remained vague and hidden, mysterious and swooning in the far-off mist of the centuries, not to be grasped by vulgar and materialistic minds, accessible only to disordered and volcanic intellects made visionaries by their neuroticism; rebellious to painters of the flesh, to Rubens who disguised her as a butcher's wife of Flanders; a mystery to all the writers who had never succeeded in portraying the disquieting exaltation of this dancer, the refined grandeur of this murderess.
But neither Saint Matthew, nor Saint Mark, nor Saint Luke, nor the other Evangelists highlighted the maddening allure and corruption of the dancer. She remained vague and hidden, mysterious and swaying in the distant mist of the ages, beyond the reach of ordinary and materialistic minds, accessible only to disordered and passionate thinkers made visionary by their neuroses; resistant to painters of the flesh, to Rubens who depicted her as a butcher's wife from Flanders; a mystery to all the writers who had never managed to capture the unsettling exhilaration of this dancer, the refined grandeur of this killer.
In Gustave Moreau's work, conceived independently of the Testament themes, Des Esseintes as last saw realized the superhuman and exotic Salomé of his dreams. She was no longer the mere performer who wrests a cry of desire and of passion from an old man by a perverted twisting of her loins; who destroys the energy and breaks the will of a king by trembling breasts and quivering belly. She became, in a sense, the symbolic deity of indestructible lust, the goddess of immortal Hysteria, of accursed Beauty, distinguished from all others by the catalepsy which stiffens her flesh and hardens her muscles; the monstrous Beast, indifferent, irresponsible, insensible, baneful, like the Helen of antiquity, fatal to all who approach her, all who behold her, all whom she touches.
In Gustave Moreau's work, created apart from the Testament themes, Des Esseintes finally saw the superhuman and exotic Salomé of his dreams come to life. She was no longer just a performer who stirred a cry of desire and passion from an old man through a twisted display of her body; who drained the energy and broke the will of a king with her trembling breasts and quivering belly. She became, in a way, the symbolic goddess of unbreakable lust, the deity of eternal Hysteria, of cursed Beauty, set apart from all others by the catalepsy that stiffens her flesh and hardens her muscles; the monstrous Beast, indifferent, irresponsible, insensitive, and harmful, like the Helen of ancient times, fatal to everyone who gets close to her, everyone who gazes at her, everyone she touches.
Thus understood, she was associated with the theogonies of the Far East. She no longer sprang from biblical traditions, could no longer even be assimilated with the living image of Babylon, the royal Prostitute of the Apocalypse, garbed like her in jewels and purple, and painted like her; for she was not hurled by a fatidical power, by a supreme force, into the alluring vileness of debauchery.
Thus understood, she was linked to the creation myths of the Far East. She no longer originated from biblical traditions and could no longer be compared to the vivid image of Babylon, the royal Prostitute of the Apocalypse, dressed like her in jewels and purple and decorated like her; because she was not thrown by a prophetic power, by a supreme force, into the tempting filth of debauchery.
The painter, moreover, seems to have wished to affirm his desire of remaining outside the centuries, scorning to designate the origin, nation and epoch, by placing his Salomé in this extraordinary palace with its confused and imposing style, in clothing her with sumptuous and chimerical robes, in crowning her with a fantastic mitre shaped like a Phœnician tower, such as Salammbô bore, and placing in her hand the sceptre of Isis, the tall lotus, sacred flower of Egypt and India.
The painter also seems to want to express his wish to stay outside of time, refusing to identify the origin, nation, or era by situating his Salomé in this extraordinary palace with its chaotic and grand style, dressing her in lavish and fantastical garments, crowning her with a whimsical mitre shaped like a Phoenician tower, like the one Salammbô wore, and placing the scepter of Isis, the tall lotus, sacred flower of Egypt and India, in her hand.
Des Esseintes sought the sense of this emblem. Had it that phallic significance which the primitive cults of India gave it? Did it enunciate an oblation of virginity to the senile Herod, an exchange of blood, an impure and voluntary wound, offered under the express stipulation of a monstrous sin? Or did it represent the allegory of fecundity, the Hindoo myth of life, an existence held between the hands of woman, distorted and trampled by the palpitant hands of man whom a fit of madness seizes, seduced by a convulsion of the flesh?
Des Esseintes tried to understand the meaning of this symbol. Did it hold the phallic significance that primitive cults in India attributed to it? Did it express a sacrifice of virginity to the old Herod, a trade of blood, an impure and voluntary wound, offered under the clear condition of a monstrous sin? Or did it symbolize fertility, the Hindu myth of life, a life grasped by the hands of a woman, twisted and crushed by the eager hands of a man overtaken by madness, seduced by a wild surge of desire?
Perhaps, too, in arming his enigmatic goddess with the venerated lotus, the painter had dreamed of the dancer, the mortal woman with the polluted Vase, from whom spring all sins and crimes. Perhaps he had recalled the rites of ancient Egypt, the sepulchral ceremonies of the embalming when, after stretching the corpse on a bench of jasper, extracting the brain with curved needles through the chambers of the nose, the chemists and the priests, before gilding the nails and teeth and coating the body with bitumens and essences, inserted the chaste petals of the divine flower in the sexual parts, to purify them.
Maybe, by equipping his mysterious goddess with the revered lotus, the artist envisioned the dancer, the mortal woman with the tainted vase, from whom all sins and crimes arise. Perhaps he remembered the rituals of ancient Egypt, the funerary ceremonies of embalming when, after laying the body on a jasper bench, removing the brain with curved needles through the nostrils, the embalmers and priests, before gilding the nails and teeth and coating the body with resins and perfumes, placed the pure petals of the divine flower in the sexual organs to cleanse them.
However this may be, an irresistible fascination emanated from this painting; but the water-color entitled The Apparition was perhaps even more disturbing.
However this may be, an irresistible fascination came from this painting; but the watercolor titled The Apparition was perhaps even more unsettling.
There, the palace of Herod arose like an Alhambra on slender, iridescent columns with moorish tile, joined with silver beton and gold cement. Arabesques proceeded from lozenges of lapis lazuli, wove their patterns on the cupolas where, on nacreous marquetry, crept rainbow gleams and prismatic flames.
There, Herod's palace stood like the Alhambra on slender, shimmering columns with Moorish tiles, connected with silver concrete and gold cement. Arabesques emerged from diamond shapes of lapis lazuli, weaving their designs on the domes where rainbow glimmers and prismatic flames danced on mother-of-pearl inlays.
The murder was accomplished. The executioner stood impassive, his hands on the hilt of his long, blood-stained sword.
The murder was done. The executioner stood emotionless, his hands on the grip of his long, blood-soaked sword.
The severed head of the saint stared lividly on the charger resting on the slabs; the mouth was discolored and open, the neck crimson, and tears fell from the eyes. The face was encircled by an aureole worked in mosaic, which shot rays of light under the porticos and illuminated the horrible ascension of the head, brightening the glassy orbs of the contracted eyes which were fixed with a ghastly stare upon the dancer.
The severed head of the saint stared brightly on the platter resting on the stones; the mouth was discolored and open, the neck red, and tears fell from the eyes. The face was surrounded by a mosaic halo that cast rays of light under the arches and illuminated the horrifying sight of the head, making the glassy orbs of the contracted eyes shine with a dreadful gaze fixed on the dancer.
With a gesture of terror, Salomé thrusts from her the horrible vision which transfixes her, motionless, to the ground. Her eyes dilate, her hands clasp her neck in a convulsive clutch.
With a terrified gesture, Salomé pushes away the horrifying vision that pins her to the ground, leaving her motionless. Her eyes widen, and her hands grip her neck in a frantic clutch.
She is almost nude. In the ardor of the dance, her veils had become loosened. She is garbed only in gold-wrought stuffs and limpid stones; a neck-piece clasps her as a corselet does the body and, like a superb buckle, a marvelous jewel sparkles on the hollow between her breasts. A girdle encircles her hips, concealing the upper part of her thighs, against which beats a gigantic pendant streaming with carbuncles and emeralds.
She is nearly naked. In the heat of the dance, her veils have come undone. She’s dressed only in gold fabric and clear stones; a necklace holds her like a corset holds the body, and a stunning jewel sparkles in the hollow between her breasts like an exquisite buckle. A belt wraps around her hips, hiding the upper part of her thighs, against which a huge pendant adorned with rubies and emeralds swings.
All the facets of the jewels kindle under the ardent shafts of light escaping from the head of the Baptist. The stones grow warm, outlining the woman's body with incandescent rays, striking her neck, feet and arms with tongues of fire,—vermilions like coals, violets like jets of gas, blues like flames of alcohol, and whites like star light.
All the angles of the jewels spark under the bright beams of light coming from the head of the Baptist. The stones heat up, outlining the woman's body with glowing rays, hitting her neck, feet, and arms with fiery tongues—reds like coals, purples like gas jets, blues like alcohol flames, and whites like starlight.
The horrible head blazes, bleeding constantly, clots of sombre purple on the ends of the beard and hair. Visible for Salomé alone, it does not, with its fixed gaze, attract Herodias, musing on her finally consummated revenge, nor the Tetrarch who, bent slightly forward, his hands on his knees, still pants, maddened by the nudity of the woman saturated with animal odors, steeped in balms, exuding incense and myrrh.
The terrible head burns, bleeding all the time, with dark purple clots on the tips of the beard and hair. Only Salomé can see it, and its intense stare doesn’t catch Herodias's attention as she reflects on her long-awaited revenge, nor does it disturb the Tetrarch, who leans slightly forward, hands on his knees, still breathing heavily, driven wild by the sight of the woman soaked in animal scents, drenched in perfumes, giving off incense and myrrh.
Like the old king, Des Esseintes remained dumbfounded, overwhelmed and seized with giddiness, in the presence of this dancer who was less majestic, less haughty but more disquieting than the Salomé of the oil painting.
Like the old king, Des Esseintes was stunned, overwhelmed, and dizzy in the presence of this dancer who was less majestic, less arrogant, but more unsettling than the Salomé in the oil painting.
In this insensate and pitiless image, in this innocent and dangerous idol, the eroticism and terror of mankind were depicted. The tall lotus had disappeared, the goddess had vanished; a frightful nightmare now stifled the woman, dizzied by the whirlwind of the dance, hypnotized and petrified by terror.
In this heartless and unforgiving image, in this pure yet perilous idol, the eroticism and fear of humanity were portrayed. The tall lotus was gone, the goddess had vanished; a terrifying nightmare now overwhelmed the woman, dizzy from the whirlwind of the dance, entranced and frozen by fear.
It was here that she was indeed Woman, for here she gave rein to her ardent and cruel temperament. She was living, more refined and savage, more execrable and exquisite. She more energetically awakened the dulled senses of man, more surely bewitched and subdued his power of will, with the charm of a tall venereal flower, cultivated in sacrilegious beds, in impious hothouses.
It was here that she truly embraced her femininity, letting her passionate and fierce nature take control. She was living, both more refined and more wild, more despicable and beautiful. She invigorated the dulled senses of men, more effectively enchanting and overpowering their will, with the allure of a tall erotic flower, grown in forbidden gardens, in impious greenhouses.
Des Esseintes thought that never before had a water color attained such magnificent coloring; never before had the poverty of colors been able to force jeweled corruscations from paper, gleams like stained glass windows touched by rays of sunlight, splendors of tissue and flesh so fabulous and dazzling. Lost in contemplation, he sought to discover the origins of this great artist and mystic pagan, this visionary who succeeded in removing himself from the world sufficiently to behold, here in Paris, the splendor of these cruel visions and the enchanting sublimation of past ages.
Des Esseintes thought that never before had a watercolor achieved such stunning colors; never had the lack of colors managed to bring out jewel-like sparkles from the paper, glimmers like stained glass windows illuminated by sunlight, and stunning textures and tones that were so extraordinary and striking. Lost in thought, he tried to uncover the origins of this great artist and mystical pagan, this visionary who managed to distance himself from the world enough to witness, right here in Paris, the beauty of these harsh visions and the captivating elevation of bygone eras.
Des Esseintes could not trace the genesis of this artist. Here and there were vague suggestions of Mantegna and of Jacopo de Barbari; here and there were confused hints of Vinci and of the feverish colors of Delacroix. But the influences of such masters remained negligible. The fact was that Gustave Moreau derived from no one else. He remained unique in contemporary art, without ancestors and without possible descendants. He went to ethnographic sources, to the origins of myths, and he compared and elucidated their intricate enigmas. He reunited the legends of the Far East into a whole, the myths which had been altered by the superstitions of other peoples; thus justifying his architectonic fusions, his luxurious and outlandish fabrics, his hieratic and sinister allegories sharpened by the restless perceptions of a pruriently modern neurosis. And he remained saddened, haunted by the symbols of perversities and superhuman loves, of divine stuprations brought to end without abandonment and without hope.
Des Esseintes couldn’t pin down the origins of this artist. Here and there were vague hints of Mantegna and Jacopo de Barbari; scattered hints of Vince and the intense colors of Delacroix. But the influence of such masters was minimal. The truth was that Gustave Moreau didn’t derive from anyone else. He stood out in contemporary art, with no predecessors and no apparent successors. He turned to ethnographic sources, the origins of myths, and explored their complex mysteries. He brought together the legends of the Far East into a unified whole, merging myths that had been altered by the superstitions of other cultures; this justified his architectural fusions, his rich and exotic fabrics, and his compelling and dark allegories sharpened by the restless perceptions of a disturbingly modern neurosis. He remained sorrowful, haunted by symbols of perversions and superhuman loves, of divine violations that ended without closure and without hope.
His depressing and erudite productions possessed a strange enchantment, an incantation that stirred one to the depths, just as do certain poems of Baudelaire, caused one to pause disconcerted, amazed, brooding on the spell of an art which leaped beyond the confines of painting, borrowing its most subtle effects from the art of writing, its most marvelous stokes from the art of Limosin, its most exquisite refinements from the art of the lapidary and the engraver. These two pictures of Salomé, for which Des Esseintes' admiration was boundless, he had hung on the walls of his study on special panels between the bookshelves, so that they might live under his eyes.
His somber and knowledgeable works had a peculiar charm, a magic that dug deep, much like some poems by Baudelaire, leaving one feeling unsettled, amazed, and pondering the enchantment of an art that transcended the limits of painting, drawing its most subtle effects from writing, its most incredible strokes from the work of Limousine, and its finest nuances from the crafts of gem-cutting and engraving. He had hung these two paintings of Salomé, which Des Esseintes admired endlessly, on special panels in his study between the bookshelves so that he could gaze at them constantly.
But these were not the only pictures he had acquired to divert his solitude.
But these weren't the only pictures he had collected to ease his loneliness.
Although he had surrendered to his servants the second story of his house, which he himself never used at all, the ground floor had required a number of pictures to fit the walls.
Although he had given up the second floor of his house to his servants, which he never used himself, the ground floor needed several pictures to decorate the walls.
It was thus arranged:
It was set up this way:
A dressing room, communicating with the bedroom, occupied one of the corners of the house. One passed from the bedroom to the library, and from the library into the dining room, which formed the other corner.
A dressing room connected to the bedroom and took up one corner of the house. You could go from the bedroom to the library, and from the library into the dining room, which made up the other corner.
These rooms, whose windows looked out on the Aunay Valley, composed one of the sides of the dwelling.
These rooms, which had windows facing the Aunay Valley, formed one side of the house.
The other side of the house had four rooms arranged in the same order. Thus, the kitchen formed an angle, and corresponded with the dining room; a long corridor, which served as the entrance, with the library; a small dressing room, with the bedroom; and the toilet, forming a second angle, with the dressing room.
The other side of the house had four rooms set up in the same layout. So, the kitchen was at an angle and lined up with the dining room; a long hallway, which served as the entrance, connected to the library; a small dressing room was next to the bedroom; and the bathroom, creating a second angle, was next to the dressing room.
These rooms received the light from the side opposite the Aunay Valley and faced the Towers of Croy and Chatillon.
These rooms got light from the side facing away from the Aunay Valley and looked out at the Towers of Croy and Chatillon.
As for the staircase, it was built outside, against one of the sides of the house, and the footsteps of his servants in ascending or descending thus reached Des Esseintes less distinctly.
As for the staircase, it was built outside, against one of the sides of the house, so the footsteps of his servants going up or down reached Des Esseintes less clearly.
The dressing room was tapestried in deep red. On the walls, in ebony frames, hung the prints of Jan Luyken, an old Dutch engraver almost unknown in France.
The dressing room was decorated in deep red. On the walls, in black frames, hung prints by Jan Luyken, an old Dutch engraver who was almost unknown in France.
He possessed of the work of this artist, who was fantastic and melancholy, vehement and wild, the series of his Religious Persecutions, horrible prints depicting all the agonies invented by the madness of religions: prints pregnant with human sufferings, showing bodies roasting on fires, skulls slit open with swords, trepaned with nails and gashed with saws, intestines separated from the abdomen and twisted on spools, finger nails slowly extracted with pincers, eyes gouged, limbs dislocated and deliberately broken, and bones bared of flesh and agonizingly scraped by sheets of metal.
He owned works by this artist, who was both amazing and gloomy, passionate and untamed, particularly the series of his Religious Persecutions, horrifying prints showing all the torments created by the madness of religions: prints filled with human suffering, depicting bodies burning on fires, skulls sliced open with swords, drilled with nails and cut with saws, intestines pulled from the body and twisted on spools, fingernails slowly yanked out with pliers, eyes gouged out, limbs dislocated and intentionally broken, and bones stripped of flesh and painfully scraped by sheets of metal.
These works filled with abominable imaginings, offensive with their odors of burning, oozing with blood and clamorous with cries of horror and maledictions, gave Des Esseintes, who was held fascinated in this red room, the creeping sensations of goose-flesh.
These works, full of disgusting ideas, with their smell of smoke, dripping with blood and echoing with screams of terror and curses, gave Des Esseintes, who was captivated in this red room, a creepy feeling of goosebumps.
But in addition to the tremblings they occasioned, beyond the terrible skill of this man, the extraordinary life which animates his characters, one discovered, among his astonishing, swarming throngs—among his mobs of people delineated with a dexterity which recalled Callot, but which had a strength never possessed by that amusing dauber—curious reconstructions of bygone ages. The architecture, costumes and customs during the time of the Maccabeans, of Rome under the Christian persecutions, of Spain under the Inquisition, of France during the Middle Ages, at the time of Saint Bartholomew and the Dragonnades, were studied with a meticulous care and noted with scientific accuracy.
But besides the tremors they caused and the incredible skill of this man, the remarkable life that brings his characters to life revealed, among his amazing, bustling crowds—among his mobs of people depicted with a skill that reminded one of Callot, but with a strength that never belonged to that amusing painter—fascinating reconstructions of past eras. The architecture, clothing, and customs from the time of the Maccabees, from Rome during the Christian persecutions, from Spain during the Inquisition, and from France in the Middle Ages, during the time of Saint Bartholomew and the Dragonnades, were studied with meticulous care and captured with scientific accuracy.
These prints were veritable treasures of learning. One could gaze at them for hours without experiencing any sense of weariness. Profoundly suggestive in reflections, they assisted Des Esseintes in passing many a day when his books failed to charm him.
These prints were true treasures of knowledge. You could look at them for hours without getting tired. Deeply thought-provoking, they helped Des Esseintes get through many days when his books didn't captivate him.
Luyken's life, too, fascinated him, by explaining the hallucination of his work. A fervent Calvinist, a stubborn sectarian, unbalanced by prayers and hymns, he wrote religious poetry which he illustrated, paraphrased the psalms in verse, lost himself in the reading of the Bible from which he emerged haggard and frenzied, his brain haunted by monstrous subjects, his mouth twisted by the maledictions of the Reformation and by its songs of terror and hate.
Luyken's life also captivated him, revealing the inner turmoil behind his work. As a passionate Calvinist and a determined sectarian, he was consumed by prayers and hymns. He created religious poetry, illustrated it, and paraphrased the psalms into verse. He would become engrossed in reading the Bible, emerging from it looking exhausted and frenzied, his mind haunted by horrifying themes, his mouth contorted by the curses of the Reformation and its songs of fear and hatred.
And he scorned the world, surrendering his wealth to the poor and subsisting on a slice of bread. He ended his life in travelling, with an equally fanatical servant, going where chance led his boat, preaching the Gospel far and wide, endeavoring to forego nourishment, and eventually becoming almost demented and violent.
And he rejected the world, giving his wealth to the poor and living on a piece of bread. He spent his life traveling with an equally passionate servant, going wherever the current took them, sharing the Gospel everywhere, trying to go without food, and eventually becoming almost crazy and aggressive.
Other bizarre sketches were hung in the larger, adjoining room, as well as in the corridor, both of which had woodwork of red cedar.
Other strange sketches were hung in the bigger room next door, as well as in the hallway, both of which had red cedar woodwork.
There was Bresdin's Comedy of Death in which, in the fantastic landscape bristling with trees, brushwood and tufts of grass resembling phantom, demon forms, teeming with rat-headed, pod-tailed birds, on earth covered with ribs, skulls and bones, gnarled and cracked willows rear their trunks, surmounted by agitated skeletons whose arms beat the air while they intone a song of victory. A Christ speeds across a clouded sky; a hermit in the depths of a cave meditates, holding his head in his hands; one wretch dies, exhausted by long privation and enfeebled by hunger, lying on his back, his legs outstretched in front of a pond.
There was Bresdin's Comedy of Death in which, in the surreal landscape filled with trees, bushes, and patches of grass that looked like ghostly, demon-like figures, swarming with rat-headed, pod-tailed birds, the ground was littered with ribs, skulls, and bones. Gnarled and cracked willows rise up, topped with restless skeletons whose arms flail in the air while they chant a victory song. A Christ figure races across a cloudy sky; a hermit deep inside a cave reflects, his head resting in his hands; one unfortunate soul lies dying, worn out from long suffering and weakened by hunger, stretched out on his back with his legs extended in front of a pond.
The Good Samaritan, by the same artist, is a large engraving on stone: an incongruous medley of palms, sorbs and oaks grown together, heedless of seasons and climates, peopled with monkeys and owls, covered with old stumps as misshapen as the roots of the mandrake; then a magical forest, cut in the center near a glade through which a stream can be seen far away, behind a camel and the Samaritan group; then an elfin town appearing on the horizon of an exotic sky dotted with birds and covered with masses of fleecy clouds.
The Good Samaritan, by the same artist, is a large stone engraving: an odd mix of palms, sorbs, and oaks intertwined, ignoring seasons and climates, filled with monkeys and owls, and scattered with old stumps as twisted as mandrake roots; then a magical forest, split in the center near a glade where a stream can be seen far off, behind a camel and the group of Samaritans; then an enchanting town appearing on the horizon against an exotic sky filled with birds and covered in fluffy clouds.
It could be called the design of an uncertain, primitive Durer with an opium-steeped brain. But although he liked the finesse of the detail and the imposing appearance of this print, Des Esseintes had a special weakness for the other frames adorning the room.
It might be referred to as the design of a vague, basic Dürer with a brain clouded by opium. Yet, even though he appreciated the intricate details and the impressive look of this print, Des Esseintes had a particular fondness for the other frames that decorated the room.
They were signed: Odilon Redon.
They were signed: Odilon Redon.
They enclosed inconceivable apparitions in their rough, gold-striped pear-tree wood. A head of a Merovingian style, resting against a bowl, a bearded man, at once resembling a Buddhist priest and an orator at a public reunion, touching the ball of a gigantic cannon with his fingers; a frightful spider revealing a human face in its body. The charcoal drawings went even farther into dream terrors. Here, an enormous die in which a sad eye winked; there, dry and arid landscapes, dusty plains, shifting ground, volcanic upheavals catching rebellious clouds, stagnant and livid skies. Sometimes the subjects even seemed to have borrowed from the cacodemons of science, reverting to prehistoric times. A monstrous plant on the rocks, queer blocks everywhere, glacial mud, figures whose simian shapes, heavy jaws, beetling eyebrows, retreating foreheads and flat skulls, recalled the ancestral heads of the first quaternary periods, when inarticulate man still devoured fruits and seeds, and was still contemporaneous with the mammoth, the rhinoceros and the big bear. These designs were beyond anything imaginable; they leaped, for the most part, beyond the limits of painting and introduced a fantasy that was unique, the fantasy of a diseased and delirious mind.
They captured unimaginable visions in their rough, gold-striped pear-wood. A Merovingian-style head leaned against a bowl—it's a bearded man, looking like a Buddhist monk and a speaker at a public meeting, his fingers touching the ball of a giant cannon; a terrifying spider with a human face on its body. The charcoal drawings went even deeper into nightmarish visions. Here, a huge die with a sad eye blinking; there, dry and barren landscapes, dusty plains, shifting ground, volcanic eruptions trapping rebellious clouds, stagnant and gray skies. Sometimes the subjects seemed to be influenced by the demons of science, taking us back to prehistoric times. A monstrous plant on the rocks, strange blocks everywhere, icy mud, figures with simian shapes, heavy jaws, prominent brows, receding foreheads, and flat skulls, evoking the ancient heads of the earliest Quaternary periods when primitive man still ate fruits and seeds, coexisting with the mammoth, rhinoceros, and large bear. These designs were beyond anything imaginable; they often transcended the boundaries of painting and introduced a fantasy that was entirely unique, the fantasy of a sick and delirious mind.
And, indeed, certain of these faces, with their monstrous, insane eyes, certain of these swollen, deformed bodies resembling carafes, induced in Des Esseintes recollections of typhoid, memories of feverish nights and of the shocking visions of his infancy which persisted and would not be suppressed.
And, indeed, some of these faces, with their bizarre, crazy eyes, some of these swollen, misshapen bodies that looked like carafes, brought back to Des Esseintes memories of typhoid, recollections of feverish nights and the disturbing visions from his childhood that lingered and wouldn’t be pushed away.
Seized with an indefinable uneasiness in the presence of these sketches, the same sensation caused by certain Proverbs of Goya which they recalled, or by the reading of Edgar Allen Poe's tales, whose mirages of hallucination and effects of fear Odilon Redon seemed to have transposed to a different art, he rubbed his eyes and turned to contemplate a radiant figure which, amid these tormenting sketches, arose serene and calm—a figure of Melancholy seated near the disk of a sun, on the rocks, in a dejected and gloomy posture.
Caught in a vague sense of unease from these sketches, he felt the same sensation triggered by certain Proverbs of Goya that they reminded him of, or from reading Edgar Allan Poe’s stories, where illusions of madness and feelings of fear Odilon Redon seemed to have transformed into a different kind of art. He rubbed his eyes and turned to look at a glowing figure that, amidst these disturbing sketches, appeared calm and serene—a figure of Melancholy sitting by the sun’s disk, on the rocks, in a downcast and sorrowful position.
The shadows were dispersed as though by an enchantment. A charming sadness, a languid and desolate feeling flowed through him. He meditated long before this work which, with its dashes of paint flecking the thick crayon, spread a brilliance of sea-green and of pale gold among the protracted darkness of the charcoal prints.
The shadows faded away as if by magic. A beautiful sadness, a weary and lonely feeling washed over him. He contemplated this artwork for a long time, which, with its splashes of paint contrasting against the thick crayon, brought a bright mix of sea-green and soft gold into the lingering darkness of the charcoal drawings.
In addition to this series of the works of Redon which adorned nearly every panel of the passage, he had hung a disturbing sketch by El Greco in his bedroom. It was a Christ done in strange tints, in a strained design, possessing a wild color and a disordered energy: a picture executed in the painter's second manner when he had been tormented by the necessity of avoiding imitation of Titian.
In addition to this series of works by Redone that decorated almost every panel of the hallway, he had also hung a striking sketch by El Greco in his bedroom. It depicted Christ in unusual colors, with a tense composition that conveyed a chaotic energy: a piece created during the artist's later style when he struggled to steer clear of imitating Titian.
This sinister painting, with its wax and sickly green tones, bore an affinity to certain ideas Des Esseintes had with regard to furnishing a room.
This creepy painting, with its waxy and sickly green tones, was related to certain ideas Des Esseintes had about decorating a room.
According to him, there were but two ways of fitting a bedroom. One could either make it a sense-stimulating alcove, a place for nocturnal delights, or a cell for solitude and repose, a retreat for thought, a sort of oratory.
According to him, there were only two ways to set up a bedroom. You could either turn it into a sensory-stimulating alcove, a space for nighttime pleasures, or a quiet retreat for solitude and rest, a place for reflection, almost like a sanctuary.
For the first instance, the Louis XV style was inevitable for the fastidious, for the cerebrally morbid. Only the eighteenth century had succeeded in enveloping woman with a vicious atmosphere, imitating her contours in the undulations and twistings of wood and copper, accentuating the sugary languor of the blond with its clear and lively décors, attenuating the pungency of the brunette with its tapestries of aqueous, sweet, almost insipid tones.
For the first case, the Louis XV style was unavoidable for the picky and the overly intellectual. Only the eighteenth century managed to surround women with a twisted atmosphere, mirroring their shapes in the curves and turns of wood and copper, highlighting the delicate languor of blondes with its bright and lively décors, softening the intensity of brunettes with its tapestries of watery, sweet, almost bland colors.
He had once had such a room in Paris, with a lofty, white, lacquered bed which is one stimulant the more, a source of depravity to old roues, leering at the false chastity and hypocritical modesty of Greuze's tender virgins, at the deceptive candor of a bed evocative of babes and chaste maidens.
He had once had a room in Paris, with a tall, white, polished bed that served as yet another temptation, feeding into the corrupt ways of old seducers, mocking the false purity and hypocritical modesty of Greuze's delicate virgins, with a bed that falsely suggested innocence and the presence of innocent maidens.
For the second instance,—and now that he wished to put behind him the irritating memories of his past life, this was the only possible expedient—he was compelled to design a room that would be like a monastic cell. But difficulties faced him here, for he refused to accept in its entirety the austere ugliness of those asylums of penitence and prayer.
For the second time—and wanting to leave behind the annoying memories of his past—he had no choice but to create a room that resembled a monastic cell. However, he encountered challenges because he wouldn’t fully embrace the harsh ugliness of those places meant for penance and prayer.
By dint of studying the problem in all its phases, he concluded that the end to be attained could thus be stated: to devise a sombre effect by means of cheerful objects, or rather to give a tone of elegance and distinction to the room thus treated, meanwhile preserving its character of ugliness; to reverse the practice of the theatre, whose vile tinsel imitates sumptuous and costly textures; to obtain the contrary effect by use of splendid fabrics; in a word, to have the cell of a Carthusian monk which should possess the appearance of reality without in fact being so.
By thoroughly examining the issue from every angle, he concluded that the goal could be summarized as follows: to create a dark atmosphere using bright objects, or more accurately, to add a sense of elegance and distinction to the room while still maintaining its inherent ugliness; to turn the theater’s approach on its head, where cheap glitter mimics rich and lavish textures; to achieve the opposite effect with beautiful fabrics; in short, to design a monk’s cell that looks authentic without actually being so.
Thus he proceeded. To imitate the stone-color of ochre and clerical yellow, he had his walls covered with saffron silk; to stimulate the chocolate hue of the dadoes common to this type of room, he used pieces of violet wood deepened with amarinth. The effect was bewitching, while recalling to Des Esseintes the repellant rigidity of the model he had followed and yet transformed. The ceiling, in turn, was hung with white, unbleached cloth, in imitation of plaster, but without its discordant brightness. As for the cold pavement of the cell, he was able to copy it, by means of a bit of rug designed in red squares, with whitish spots in the weave to imitate the wear of sandals and the friction of boots.
So he went on. To mimic the stone-like colors of ochre and pale yellow, he had his walls draped in saffron silk; to evoke the chocolate shade of the lower walls typical of this kind of room, he used pieces of deep violet wood tinged with amaranth. The result was enchanting, reminding Des Esseintes of the unappealing stiffness of the model he had followed yet transformed. The ceiling was adorned with white, unbleached fabric, mimicking plaster, but without its harsh brightness. As for the cold floor of the cell, he managed to replicate it with a piece of rug designed in red squares, featuring whitish spots in the weave to replicate the wear from sandals and the friction from boots.
Into this chamber he introduced a small iron bed, the kind used by monks, fashioned of antique, forged and polished iron, the head and foot adorned with thick filigrees of blossoming tulips enlaced with vine branches and leaves. Once this had been part of a balustrade of an old hostel's superb staircase.
Into this room, he brought in a small iron bed, the type used by monks, made of vintage, forged, and polished iron. The head and foot were decorated with thick filigree designs of blooming tulips intertwined with vine branches and leaves. This had once been part of a beautiful staircase railing from an old hostel.
For his table, he installed an antique praying-desk the inside of which could contain an urn and the outside a prayer book. Against the wall, opposite it, he placed a church pew surmounted by a tall dais with little benches carved out of solid wood. His church tapers were made of real wax, procured from a special house which catered exclusively to houses of worship, for Des Esseintes professed a sincere repugnance to gas, oil and ordinary candles, to all modern forms of illumination, so gaudy and brutal.
For his table, he set up an old-fashioned prayer desk that could hold an urn inside and a prayer book on the outside. On the wall across from it, he positioned a church pew topped with a tall platform featuring small benches carved from solid wood. His church candles were made from real wax, sourced from a special supplier that exclusively served places of worship, as Des Esseintes had a genuine dislike for gas, oil, and regular candles, and all modern types of lighting that he found too flashy and harsh.
Before going to sleep in the morning, he would gaze, with his head on the pillows, at his El Greco whose barbaric color rebuked the smiling, yellow material and recalled it to a more serious tone. Then he could easily imagine himself living a hundred leagues removed from Paris, far from society, in cloistral security.
Before going to sleep in the morning, he would lie with his head on the pillows, staring at his El Greco, whose wild colors contrasted with the cheerful, yellow fabric and brought a more serious vibe. In that moment, he could easily picture himself living a hundred leagues away from Paris, far from society, in a peaceful, secluded place.
And, all in all, the illusion was not difficult, since he led an existence that approached the life of a monk. Thus he had the advantages of monasticism without the inconveniences of its vigorous discipline, its lack of service, its dirt, its promiscuity and its monotonous idleness. Just as he had transformed his cell into a comfortable chamber, so had he made his life normal, pleasant, surrounded by comforts, occupied and free.
And overall, the illusion wasn't hard to maintain since he lived a life similar to that of a monk. He enjoyed the benefits of monastic living without the downsides of its strict discipline, lack of service, dirt, chaos, and boring inactivity. Just as he had turned his cell into a cozy room, he had also made his life normal and enjoyable, filled with comforts, engaged, and free.
Like a hermit he was ripe for isolation, since life harassed him and he no longer desired anything of it. Again like a monk, he was depressed and in the grip of an obsessing lassitude, seized with the need of self-communion and with a desire to have nothing in common with the profane who were, for him, the utilitarian and the imbecile.
Like a recluse, he was ready for solitude, as life had overwhelmed him and he no longer wanted anything from it. Similarly to a monk, he felt down and trapped in a constant fatigue, filled with a need for self-reflection and a wish to have nothing in common with the ordinary people who, to him, were the practical-minded and the foolish.
Although he experienced no inclination for the state of grace, he felt a genuine sympathy for those souls immured in monasteries, persecuted by a vengeful society which can forgive neither the merited scorn with which it inspires them, nor the desire to expiate, to atone by long silences, for the ever growing shamelessness of its ridiculous or trifling gossipings.
Although he had no desire for grace, he felt real sympathy for those trapped in monasteries, persecuted by a vengeful society that can't forgive either the justified disdain it inspires in them or the wish to make amends, to atone through long silences, for the increasingly shameless nature of its absurd or trivial gossip.
Chapter 7
Ever since the night when he had evoked, for no apparent reason, a whole train of melancholy memories, pictures of his past life returned to Des Esseintes and gave him no peace.
Always since the night he had unexpectedly stirred up a wave of sad memories, images from his past kept haunting Des Esseintes and wouldn’t let him rest.
He found himself unable to understand a single word of the books he read. He could not even receive impressions through his eyes. It seemed to him that his mind, saturated with literature and art, refused to absorb any more.
He found himself unable to understand a single word of the books he read. He couldn't even take in any impressions through his eyes. It felt like his mind, saturated with literature and art, was refusing to absorb anything more.
He lived within himself, nourished by his own substance, like some torpid creature which hibernates in caves. Solitude had reacted upon his brain like a narcotic. After having strained and enervated it, his mind had fallen victim to a sluggishness which annihilated his plans, broke his will power and invoked a cortège of vague reveries to which he passively submitted.
He lived in his own world, sustained by his own thoughts, like a lazy creature hibernating in a cave. Solitude had impacted his mind like a drug. After tiring and weakening it, his brain had succumbed to a fog that crushed his ambitions, weakened his willpower, and summoned a parade of vague daydreams to which he just went along.
The confused medley of meditations on art and literature in which he had indulged since his isolation, as a dam to bar the current of old memories, had been rudely swept away, and the onrushing, irresistible wave crashed into the present and future, submerging everything beneath the blanket of the past, filling his mind with an immensity of sorrow, on whose surface floated, like futile wreckage, absurd trifles and dull episodes of his life.
The tangled thoughts about art and literature that he had surrounded himself with during his isolation, as a way to block out old memories, had been violently washed away. The powerful wave of the past surged into his present and future, drowning everything under the weight of what once was, overwhelming him with an immense sadness, on which floated, like useless debris, silly little things and unexciting moments from his life.
The book he held in his hands fell to his knees. He abandoned himself to the mood which dominated him, watching the dead years of his life filled with so many disgusts and fears, move past. What a life he had lived! He thought of the evenings spent in society, the horse races, card parties, love affairs ordered in advance and served at the stroke of midnight, in his rose-colored boudoir! He recalled faces, expressions, vain words which obsessed him with the stubbornness of popular melodies which one cannot help humming, but which suddenly and inexplicably end by boring one.
The book he was holding slipped to his knees. He let himself sink into the mood that overcame him, watching the years of his life filled with so much disgust and fear drift by. What a life he had lived! He thought of the evenings spent socializing, the horse races, card games, love affairs arranged ahead of time and served up at the stroke of midnight in his pink-hued boudoir! He remembered faces, expressions, and empty words that obsessed him like catchy pop songs that you can't help but hum, only to suddenly feel bored by them for no reason.
This phase had not lasted long. His memory gave him respite and he plunged again into his Latin studies, so as to efface the impressions of such recollections.
This phase didn't last long. His memory offered him a break, and he dove back into his Latin studies to erase the impact of those memories.
But almost instantly the rushing force of his memories swept him into a second phase, that of his childhood, especially of the years spent at the school of the Fathers.
But almost immediately, the strong wave of his memories pulled him into another phase, that of his childhood, particularly the years he spent at the school of the Fathers.
Although more remote, they were more positive and more indelibly stamped on his brain. The leafy park, the long walks, the flower beds, the benches—all the actual details of the monastery rose before him, here in his room.
Although they were more distant, they had a stronger impact and were more vividly imprinted in his mind. The green park, the long strolls, the flower beds, the benches—all the real details of the monastery came back to him in his room.
The gardens filled and he heard the ringing cries of the students, mingling with the laughter of the professors as they played tennis, with their cassocks tucked up between their knees, or perhaps chatted under the trees with the youngsters, without any posturing or hauteur, as though they were companions of the same age.
The gardens were bustling, and he heard the joyful shouts of the students blending with the laughter of the professors as they played tennis, their robes hiked up between their knees, or maybe chatting under the trees with the young people, without any pretentiousness or superiority, as if they were friends of the same age.
He recalled the easy yoke of the monks who declined to administer punishment by inflicting the committment of five hundred or a thousand lines while the others were at play, being satisfied with making those delinquents prepare the lesson that had not been mastered, and most often simply having recourse to a gentle admonition. They surrounded the children with an active but gentle watch, seeking to please them, consenting to whatever expeditions they wished to take on Tuesdays, taking the occasion of every minor holiday not formally observed by the Church to add cakes and wine to the ordinary fare, and to entertain them with picnics. It was a paternal discipline whose success lay in the fact that they did not seek to domineer over the pupils, that they gossiped with them, treating them as men while showering them with the attentions paid a spoiled child.
He remembered the easygoing approach of the monks, who chose not to punish by making kids write five hundred or a thousand lines while others played. Instead, they were happy just to have those misbehaving students prepare the lessons they hadn’t mastered, and most of the time, they simply used a gentle reminder. They kept a watchful but gentle eye on the kids, trying to make them happy, agreeing to whatever outings they wanted on Tuesdays, and taking advantage of every minor holiday, not officially recognized by the Church, to add cakes and wine to their usual meals and to treat them to picnics. This was a fatherly discipline that worked because they didn’t try to dominate the students; they chatted with them, treated them like equals, while also giving them the kind of attention usually reserved for a spoiled child.
In this manner, the monks succeeded in assuming a real influence over the youngsters; in molding, to some extent, the minds which they were cultivating; in directing them, in a sense; in instilling special ideas; in assuring the growth of their thoughts by insinuating, wheedling methods with which they continued to flatter them throughout their careers, taking pains not to lose sight of them in their later life, and by sending them affectionate letters like those which the Dominican Lacordaire so skillfully wrote to his former pupils of Sorrèze.
In this way, the monks managed to have a genuine influence over the young people, shaping their thoughts to some degree, guiding them somewhat, and instilling specific ideas. They ensured the development of their minds by using subtle, flattering methods to keep their support throughout their lives. They made an effort not to lose track of them later on, sending them caring letters similar to those that the Dominican Lacordaire expertly crafted for his former students from Sorrèze.
Des Esseintes took note of this system which had been so fruitlessly expended on him. His stubborn, captious and inquisitive character, disposed to controversies, had prevented him from being modelled by their discipline or subdued by their lessons. His scepticism had increased after he left the precincts of the college. His association with a legitimist, intolerant and shallow society, his conversations with unintelligent church wardens and abbots, whose blunders tore away the veil so subtly woven by the Jesuits, had still more fortified his spirit of independence and increased his scorn for any faith whatever.
Des Esseintes noticed this system that had been so wasted on him. His stubborn, critical, and curious nature, which leaned towards arguments, had kept him from being shaped by their discipline or subdued by their teachings. His doubt had grown after he left the college. His connections with a reactionary, intolerant, and superficial society, along with his talks with dim-witted church wardens and abbots, whose mistakes ripped apart the delicate facade carefully crafted by the Jesuits, only strengthened his independence and deepened his contempt for any belief system.
He had deemed himself free of all bonds and constraints. Unlike most graduates of lycées or private schools, he had preserved a vivid memory of his college and of his masters. And now, as he considered these matters, he asked himself if the seeds sown until now on barren soil were not beginning to take root.
He thought he was free of all ties and limitations. Unlike most graduates from high schools or private schools, he had retained a clear memory of his college and his mentors. Now, as he reflected on these things, he wondered if the seeds he had planted in unproductive ground were starting to take root.
For several days, in fact, his soul had been strangely perturbed. At moments, he felt himself veering towards religion. Then, at the slightest approach of reason, his faith would dissolve. Yet he remained deeply troubled.
For several days, his soul had been oddly unsettled. Sometimes, he found himself leaning towards religion. Then, at the slightest hint of reason, his faith would disappear. Still, he was left feeling deeply troubled.
Analyzing himself, he was well aware that he would never possess a truly Christian spirit of humility and penitence. He knew without a doubt that he would never experience that moment of grace mentioned by Lacordaire, "when the last shaft of light penetrates the soul and unites the truths there lying dispersed." He never felt the need of mortification and of prayer, without which no conversion in possible, if one is to believe the majority of priests. He had no desire to implore a God whose forgiveness seemed most improbable. Yet the sympathy he felt for his old teachers lent him an interest in their works and doctrines. Those inimitable accents of conviction, those ardent voices of men of indubitably superior intelligence returned to him and led him to doubt his own mind and strength. Amid the solitude in which he lived, without new nourishment, without any fresh experiences, without any renovation of thought, without that exchange of sensations common to society, in this unnatural confinement in which he persisted, all the questionings forgotten during his stay in Paris were revived as active irritants. The reading of his beloved Latin works, almost all of them written by bishops and monks, had doubtless contributed to this crisis. Enveloped in a convent-like atmosphere, in a heady perfume of incense, his nervous brain had grown excitable. And by an association of ideas, these books had driven back the memories of his life as a young man, revealing in full light the years spent with the Fathers.
Analyzing himself, he was fully aware that he would never have a true Christian spirit of humility and repentance. He knew for sure that he would never feel that moment of grace mentioned by Lacordaire, "when the last beam of light touches the soul and unites the scattered truths within." He never felt the need for self-denial and prayer, without which conversion seems impossible, according to most priests. He had no desire to plead with a God whose forgiveness seemed unlikely. Yet, the sympathy he felt for his former teachers gave him an interest in their works and beliefs. Those unique tones of conviction, those passionate voices of undoubtedly intelligent men returned to him and made him question his own thoughts and strength. In the solitude he lived, without new nourishment, fresh experiences, or renewed thoughts, without the exchange of feelings typical of society, in this unnatural confinement he maintained, all the questions he had pushed aside during his time in Paris came back as active irritants. Reading his cherished Latin works, mostly written by bishops and monks, had certainly contributed to this crisis. Surrounded by a convent-like environment, filled with the heady scent of incense, his sensitive mind had become easily stirred. And, through a stream of thoughts, these books brought back memories of his youth, shining a spotlight on the years he spent with the Fathers.
"There is no doubt about it," Des Esseintes mused, as he reasoned the matter and followed the progress of this introduction of the Jesuitic spirit into Fontenay. "Since my childhood, although unaware of it, I have had this leaven which has never fermented. The weakness I have always borne for religious subjects is perhaps a positive proof of it." But he sought to persuade himself to the contrary, disturbed at no longer being his own master. He searched for motives; it had required a struggle for him to abandon things sacerdotal, since the Church alone had treasured objects of art—the lost forms of past ages. Even in its wretched modern reproductions, she had preserved the contours of the gold and silver ornaments, the charm of chalices curving like petunias, and the charm of pyxes with their chaste sides; even in aluminum and imitation enamels and colored glasses, she had preserved the grace of vanished modes. In short, most of the precious objects now to be found in the Cluny museum, which have miraculously escaped the crude barbarism of the philistines, come from the ancient French abbeys. And just as the Church had preserved philosophy and history and letters from barbarism in the Middle Ages, so had she saved the plastic arts, bringing to our own days those marvelous fabrics and jewelries which the makers of sacred objects spoil to the best of their ability, without being able to destroy the originally exquisite form. It followed, then, that there was nothing surprising in his having bought these old trinkets, in his having, together with a number of other collectors, purchased such relics from the antique shops of Paris and the second-hand dealers of the provinces.
"There’s no doubt about it," Des Esseintes reflected, as he considered how the Jesuit spirit had taken root in Fontenay. "Since my childhood, even without realizing it, I’ve carried this influence that has never really developed. My ongoing fascination with religious topics might be proof of that." Yet he tried to convince himself otherwise, troubled by the feeling that he was no longer in control of his own life. He looked for reasons; it had been a struggle for him to turn away from religious things, since the Church was the only place that had preserved artistic treasures—the remnants of past eras. Even in its poor modern reproductions, it had kept the shapes of gold and silver decorations, the beauty of chalices shaped like petunias, and the elegance of pyxes with their pure lines; even through aluminum and fake enamels and colored glass, it had managed to hold onto the grace of lost styles. In short, most of the valuable items you find today in the Cluny museum, which have somehow survived the harshness of the philistines, come from ancient French abbeys. Just as the Church preserved philosophy, history, and literature from the darkness of the Middle Ages, it also saved the visual arts, bringing to our time those amazing fabrics and jewelry that the creators of sacred objects ruin to the best of their ability, yet they can’t fully destroy the originally exquisite designs. So, it was not surprising that he had bought these old trinkets, along with other collectors, purchasing such relics from the antique shops of Paris and the second-hand stores across the provinces.
But these reasons he evoked in vain. He did not wholly succeed in convincing himself. He persisted in considering religion as a superb legend, a magnificent imposture. Yet, despite his convictions, his scepticism began to be shattered.
But he brought up these reasons in vain. He didn't fully convince himself. He continued to see religion as an amazing story, a grand deception. Yet, despite his beliefs, his skepticism started to crumble.
This was the singular fact he was obliged to face: he was less confident now than in childhood, when he had been directly under the influence of the Jesuits, when their instruction could not be shunned, when he was in their hands and belonged to them body and soul, without family ties, with no outside influence powerful enough to counteract their precepts. Moreover, they had inculcated in him a certain tendency towards the marvelous which, interned and exercised in the close quarters of his fixed ideas, had slowly and obscurely developed in his soul, until today it was blossoming in his solitude, affecting his spirit, regardless of arguments.
This was the undeniable truth he had to confront: he felt less confident now than he did in childhood, when he was directly influenced by the Jesuits. Their teachings were inescapable back then; he was completely under their control, belonging to them fully, without family connections and with no external influences strong enough to challenge their teachings. Additionally, they had instilled in him a certain fascination with the extraordinary, which, confined and nurtured within the boundaries of his fixed beliefs, had gradually and subtly grown within him. Today, it was flourishing in his solitude, shaping his spirit, regardless of any arguments.
By examining the process of his reasoning, by seeking to unite its threads and to discover its sources and causes, he concluded that his previous mode of living was derived from the education he had received. Thus, his tendencies towards artificiality and his craving for eccentricity, were no more than the results of specious studies, spiritual refinements and quasi-theological speculations. They were, in the last analysis, ecstacies, aspirations towards an ideal, towards an unknown universe as desirable as that promised us by the Holy Scriptures.
By looking closely at how he reasoned, trying to connect the dots and identify where his thoughts came from, he realized that his past way of living was shaped by the education he had received. So, his inclinations toward artificiality and his desire for eccentricity were just the outcomes of misleading studies, spiritual pretensions, and half-baked theological ideas. Ultimately, they were just fleeting moments of excitement and aspirations for an ideal, for a mysterious universe as appealing as the one promised in the Holy Scriptures.
He curbed his thoughts sharply and broke the thread of his reflections.
He quickly snapped out of his thoughts and interrupted the flow of his reflections.
"Well!" he thought, vexed, "I am even more affected than I had imagined. Here am I arguing with myself like a very casuist!"
"Well!" he thought, frustrated, "I'm even more impacted than I realized. Here I am debating with myself like a real lawyer!"
He was left pensive, agitated by a vague fear. Certainly, if Lacordaire's theory were sound, he had nothing to be afraid of, since the magic touch of conversion is not to be consummated in a moment. To bring about the explosion, the ground must be constantly and assiduously mined. But just as the romancers speak of the thunderclap of love, so do theologians also speak of the thunderclap of conversion. No one was safe, should one admit the truth of this doctrine. There was no longer any need of self-analysis, of paying heed to presentiments, of taking preventive measures. The psychology of mysticism was void. Things were so because they were so, and that was all.
He was left deep in thought, troubled by a vague fear. Clearly, if Lacordaire's theory were correct, he had nothing to worry about since the transformative power of conversion doesn’t happen instantly. To create that explosion, the foundation must be steadily and diligently prepared. But just like romance writers talk about the sudden jolt of love, theologians discuss the sudden jolt of conversion. No one was safe if one accepted this doctrine as truth. There was no longer a need for self-reflection, for paying attention to hunches, or for taking precautions. The psychology of mysticism was meaningless. Things were simply as they were, and that was all there was to it.
"I am really becoming stupid," thought Des Esseintes. "The very fear of this malady will end by bringing it on, if this continues."
"I’m really getting dumb," thought Des Esseintes. "This constant worry about it will eventually make it happen if it keeps up."
He partially succeeded in shaking off this influence. The memories of his life with the Jesuits waned, only to be replaced by other thoughts. He was entirely dominated by morbid abstractions. Despite himself, he thought of the contradictory interpretations of the dogmas, of the lost apostasies of Father Labbe, recorded in the works on the Decrees. Fragments of these schisms, scraps of these heresies which for centuries had divided the Churches of the Orient and the Occident, returned to him.
He partly managed to shake off this influence. The memories of his time with the Jesuits faded, only to be replaced by other thoughts. He was completely overwhelmed by dark abstract ideas. Against his will, he thought about the conflicting interpretations of the dogmas, and the lost apostasies of Father Labbe, noted in the writings about the Decrees. Fragments of these schisms, bits of these heresies that had divided the Churches of the East and West for centuries, came back to him.
Here, Nestorius denied the title of "Mother of God" to the Virgin because, in the mystery of the Incarnation, it was not God but rather a human being she had nourished in her womb; there, Eutyches declared that Christ's image could not resemble that of other men, since divinity had chosen to dwell in his body and had consequently entirely altered the form of everything. Other quibblers maintained that the Redeemer had had no body at all and that this expression of the holy books must be taken figuratively, while Tertullian put forth his famous, semi-materialistic axiom: "Only that which is not, has no body; everything which is, has a body fitting it." Finally, this ancient question, debated for years, demanded an answer: was Christ hanged on the cross, or was it the Trinity which had suffered as one in its triple hypostasis, on the cross at Calvary? And mechanically, like a lesson long ago learned, he proposed the questions to himself and answered them.
Here, Nestorius rejected the title "Mother of God" for the Virgin because, in the mystery of the Incarnation, she bore a human being in her womb, not God. Meanwhile, Eutyches argued that Christ's appearance couldn’t look like that of other men, since divinity had chosen to live in his body, completely transforming everything's form. Other skeptics claimed that the Redeemer didn’t have a body at all and that this term in the holy texts should be understood metaphorically, while Tertullian presented his well-known, semi-materialistic statement: "Only that which does not exist has no body; everything that exists has a body suited to it." Ultimately, this age-old question, debated for years, needed an answer: was Christ crucified, or was it the Trinity that suffered together in its three forms on the cross at Calvary? And mechanically, like a lesson learned long ago, he posed the questions to himself and answered them.
For several days his brain was a swarm of paradoxes, subtleties and hair-splittings, a skein of rules as complicated as the articles of the codes that involved the sense of everything, indulged in puns and ended in a most tenuous and singular celestial jurisprudence. The abstract side vanished, in its turn, and under the influence of the Gustave Moreau paintings of the wall, yielded to a concrete succession of pictures.
For several days, his mind was a jumble of contradictions, nuances, and nitpicking, a tangled mess of rules as complicated as legal codes that shaped the meaning of everything, filled with wordplay and culminating in a delicate and unique cosmic law. The abstract side faded away, and influenced by the Gustave Moreau paintings on the wall, it gave way to a detailed series of images.
Before him he saw marching a procession of prelates. The archimandrites and patriarchs, their white beards waving during the reading of the prayers, lifted golden arms to bless kneeling throngs. He saw silent files of penitents marching into dim crypts. Before him rose vast cathedrals where white monks intoned from pulpits. Just as De Quincey, having taken a dose of opium and uttered the word "Consul Romanus," evoked entire pages of Livius, and beheld the solemn advance of the consuls and the magnificent, pompous march of the Roman armies, so he, at a theological expression, paused breathless as he viewed the onrush of penitents and the churchly apparitions which detached themselves from the glowing depths of the basilica. These scenes held him enchanted. They moved from age to age, culminating in the modern religious ceremonies, bathing his soul in a tender, mournful infinity of music.
Before him, he saw a parade of church leaders marching. The archimandrites and patriarchs, their white beards swaying as they read the prayers, raised their golden arms to bless the kneeling crowds. He watched silent lines of penitents heading into dim crypts. Towering cathedrals rose around him where white-robed monks chanted from the pulpits. Just like De Quincey, who, after taking a dose of opium and saying the words "Consul Romanus," conjured whole pages of Livy and witnessed the serious procession of the consuls and the grand, ceremonial march of the Roman armies, he, upon hearing a theological phrase, paused, breathless, as he observed the rush of penitents and the churchly figures emerging from the radiant depths of the basilica. These visuals captivated him. They flowed through time, linking to modern religious ceremonies, enveloping his soul in a gentle, sorrowful infinity of music.
On this plane, no reasonings were necessary; there were no further contests to be endured. He had an indescribable impression of respect and fear. His artistic sense was conquered by the skillfully calculated Catholic rituals. His nerves quivered at these memories. Then, in sudden rebellion, in a sudden reversion, monstrous ideas were born in him, fancies concerning those sacrileges warned against by the manual of the Father confessors, of the scandalous, impure desecration of holy water and sacred oil. The Demon, a powerful rival, now stood against an omnipotent God. A frightful grandeur seemed to Des Esseintes to emanate from a crime committed in church by a believer bent, with blasphemously horrible glee and sadistic joy, over such revered objects, covering them with outrages and saturating them in opprobrium.
On this level, no reasoning was needed; there were no more struggles to be faced. He had an overwhelming sense of respect and fear. His artistic sensibility was overwhelmed by the carefully orchestrated Catholic rituals. His nerves trembled at these memories. Then, in a sudden act of rebellion, monstrous ideas surfaced within him, fantasies about the sacrileges warned against by the guidelines of confessors, the scandalous and impure desecration of holy water and sacred oil. The Demon, a strong adversary, now stood against an all-powerful God. A terrifying grandeur seemed to emanate from a crime committed in church by a believer who, with blasphemous delight and sadistic pleasure, leaned over these sacred items, covering them with offenses and soaking them in disgrace.
Before him were conjured up the madnesses of magic, of the black mass, of the witches' revels, of terrors of possessions and of exorcisms. He reached the point where he wondered if he were not committing a sacrilege in possessing objects which had once been consecrated: the Church canons, chasubles and pyx covers. And this idea of a state of sin imparted to him a mixed sensation of pride and relief. The pleasures of sacrilege were unravelled from the skein of this idea, but these were debatable sacrileges, in any case, and hardly serious, since he really loved these objects and did not pollute them by misuse. In this wise he lulled himself with prudent and cowardly thoughts, the caution of his soul forbidding obvious crimes and depriving him of the courage necessary to the consummation of frightful and deliberate sins.
Before him were conjured up the madnesses of magic, of the black mass, of the witches' parties, of the terrors of possessions and exorcisms. He reached a point where he wondered if he was committing a sin by having objects that had once been blessed: the Church canons, chasubles, and pyx covers. This idea of being in a state of sin gave him a mixed feeling of pride and relief. The pleasures of sacrilege unraveled from this idea, but these were questionable sacrileges, in any case, and hardly serious, since he genuinely loved these objects and didn’t taint them by misusing them. In this way, he comforted himself with careful and cowardly thoughts, the caution of his soul forbidding obvious wrongs and depriving him of the courage needed for committing terrible and intentional sins.
Little by little this tendency to ineffectual quibbling disappeared. In his mind's eye he saw the panorama of the Church with its hereditary influence on humanity through the centuries. He imagined it as imposing and suffering, emphasizing to man the horror of life, the infelicity of man's destiny; preaching patience, penitence and the spirit of sacrifice; seeking to heal wounds, while it displayed the bleeding wounds of Christ; bespeaking divine privileges; promising the richest part of paradise to the afflicted; exhorting humanity to suffer and to render to God, like a holocaust, its trials and offenses, its vicissitudes and pains. Thus the Church grew truly eloquent, the beneficent mother of the oppressed, the eternal menace of oppressors and despots.
Slowly, this tendency toward pointless arguing faded away. In his mind, he envisioned the Church's long-standing impact on humanity over the centuries. He pictured it as both grand and suffering, highlighting the harsh realities of life and the unfortunate fate of mankind; preaching patience, repentance, and sacrifice; trying to heal wounds while showing the bleeding wounds of Christ; representing divine rights; promising the best part of paradise to those who suffer; urging humanity to endure and offer up its hardships and wrongs, its ups and downs, and its pain to God like a sacrifice. In this way, the Church became truly powerful, the caring mother of the downtrodden, and an everlasting threat to oppressors and tyrants.
Here, Des Esseintes was on firm ground. He was thoroughly satisfied with this admission of social ordure, but he revolted against the vague hope of remedy in the beyond. Schopenhauer was more true. His doctrine and that of the Church started from common premises. He, too, based his system on the vileness of the world; he, too, like the author of the Imitation of Christ, uttered that grievous outcry: "Truly life on earth is wretched." He, also, preached the nothingness of life, the advantages of solitude, and warned humanity that no matter what it does, in whatever direction it may turn, it must remain wretched, the poor by reason of the sufferings entailed by want, the rich by reason of the unconquerable weariness engendered by abundance; but this philosophy promised no universal remedies, did not entice one with false hopes, so as to minimize the inevitable evils of life.
Here, Des Esseintes felt grounded. He was completely satisfied with this acknowledgment of social decay, but he resisted the vague hope of a solution in the afterlife. Schopenhauer was more accurate. His philosophy and that of the Church began from shared foundations. He, too, built his system on the ugliness of the world; he, like the author of the Imitation of Christ, voiced that painful cry: "Truly, life on earth is miserable." He also preached the emptiness of life, the benefits of solitude, and cautioned humanity that no matter what it does, in whatever direction it turns, it must remain miserable—the poor due to the pain of scarcity, the rich because of the unending fatigue that comes with excess; but this philosophy offered no universal fixes and didn't tempt anyone with false hopes to lessen the unavoidable hardships of life.
He did not affirm the revolting conception of original sin, nor did he feel inclined to argue that it is a beneficent God who protects the worthless and wicked, rains misfortunes on children, stultifies the aged and afflicts the innocent. He did not exalt the virtues of a Providence which has invented that useless, incomprehensible, unjust and senseless abomination, physical suffering. Far from seeking to justify, as does the Church, the necessity of torments and afflictions, he cried, in his outraged pity: "If a God has made this world, I should not wish to be that God. The world's wretchedness would rend my heart."
He didn’t accept the disturbing idea of original sin, nor was he willing to argue that it’s a good God who protects the worthless and wicked, pours misfortunes on children, stifles the elderly, and afflicts the innocent. He didn’t praise the virtues of a Providence that created that useless, incomprehensible, unjust, and senseless horror, physical suffering. Instead of trying to justify, as the Church does, the need for pain and suffering, he shouted, in his deep compassion: "If a God created this world, I wouldn’t want to be that God. The world's misery would break my heart."
Ah! Schopenhauer alone was right. Compared with these treatises of spiritual hygiene, of what avail were the evangelical pharmacopœias? He did not claim to cure anything, and he offered no alleviation to the sick. But his theory of pessimism was, in the end, the great consoler of choice intellects and lofty souls. He revealed society as it is, asserted woman's inherent stupidity, indicated the safest course, preserved you from disillusionment by warning you to restrain hopes as much as possible, to refuse to yield to their allurement, to deem yourself fortunate, finally, if they did not come toppling about your ears at some unexpected moment.
Ah! Schopenhauer was absolutely right. Compared to these guides on spiritual well-being, what good were the evangelical remedies? He didn’t claim to heal anything and didn’t offer any relief to the suffering. But his theory of pessimism ultimately provided great comfort to discerning minds and noble spirits. He showed society as it truly is, pointed out women’s natural ignorance, suggested the safest path to take, and protected you from disappointment by advising you to limit your hopes as much as possible, to resist their temptations, and to consider yourself lucky if they didn’t come crashing down around you at some unexpected moment.
Traversing the same path as the Imitation, this theory, too, ended in similar highways of resignation and indifference, but without going astray in mysterious labyrinths and remote roads.
Traversing the same path as the Imitation, this theory, too, ended on similar routes of resignation and indifference, but without getting lost in confusing mazes and distant paths.
But if this resignation, which was obviously the only outcome of the deplorable condition of things and their irremediability, was open to the spiritually rich, it was all the more difficult of approach to the poor whose passions and cravings were more easily satisfied by the benefits of religion.
But if this resignation, which was clearly the only result of the unfortunate situation and its inability to change, was accessible to those who were spiritually wealthy, it was even harder for the poor, whose desires and needs were more easily met by the rewards of religion.
These reflections relieved Des Esseintes of a heavy burden. The aphorisms of the great German calmed his excited thoughts, and the points of contact in these two doctrines helped him to correlate them; and he could never forget that poignant and poetic Catholicism in which he had bathed, and whose essence he had long ago absorbed.
These thoughts lifted a heavy weight off Des Esseintes. The sayings of the great German eased his restless mind, and the connections between these two ideas helped him link them together; he could never forget that intense and poetic Catholicism he had immersed himself in, and whose essence he had long since absorbed.
These reversions to religion, these intimations of faith tormented him particularly since the changes that had lately taken place in his health. Their progress coincided with that of his recent nervous disorders.
These returns to religion, these hints of faith troubled him, especially since the recent changes in his health. Their development coincided with his recent nervous issues.
He had been tortured since his youth by inexplicable aversions, by shudderings which chilled his spine and made him grit his teeth, as, for example, when he saw a girl wringing wet linen. These reactions had long persisted. Even now he suffered poignantly when he heard the tearing of cloth, the rubbing of a finger against a piece of chalk, or a hand touching a bit of moire.
He had been tortured since childhood by strange dislikes, by shivers that ran down his spine and made him clench his teeth, like when he saw a girl wringing out wet laundry. These reactions had lasted for a long time. Even now, he felt a sharp pain when he heard the sound of fabric tearing, the scrape of a finger against chalk, or a hand brushing against a piece of moire.
The excesses of his youthful life, the exaggerated tension of his mind had strangely aggravated his earliest nervous disorder, and had thinned the already impoverished blood of his race. In Paris, he had been compelled to submit to hydrotherapic treatments for his trembling fingers, frightful pains, neuralgic strokes which cut his face in two, drummed maddeningly against his temples, pricked his eyelids agonizingly and induced a nausea which could be dispelled only by lying flat on his back in the dark.
The excesses of his youth and the intense pressure on his mind had oddly worsened his early nervous condition and drained the already weakened blood of his lineage. In Paris, he had to undergo hydrotherapy for his shaky hands, intense pain, and neuralgic attacks that split his face in half, pounded relentlessly against his temples, stabbed his eyelids painfully, and caused nausea that could only be relieved by lying flat in the dark.
These afflictions had gradually disappeared, thanks to a more regulated and sane mode of living. They now returned in another form, attacking his whole body. The pains left his head, but affected his inflated stomach. His entrails seemed pierced by hot bars of iron. A nervous cough racked him at regular intervals, awakening and almost strangling him in his bed. Then his appetite forsook him; gaseous, hot acids and dry heats coursed through his stomach. He grew swollen, was choked for breath, and could not endure his clothes after each attempt at eating.
These issues had slowly faded away, thanks to a more balanced and healthy lifestyle. Now they returned in a different way, affecting his entire body. The pain left his head but targeted his bloated stomach. It felt like his insides were being pierced by hot iron rods. A nervous cough seized him at regular intervals, waking him up and nearly choking him in bed. Then he lost his appetite; gas, hot acids, and dryness surged through his stomach. He became swollen, struggled to breathe, and couldn't stand the feel of his clothes after each meal.
He shunned alcoholic beverages, coffee and tea, and drank only milk. And he took recourse to baths of cold water and dosed himself with assafœtida, valerian and quinine. He even felt a desire to go out, and strolled about the country when the rainy days came to make it desolate and still. He obliged himself to take exercise. As a last resort, he temporarily abandoned his books and, corroded with ennui, determined to make his listless life tolerable by realizing a project he had long deferred through laziness and a dislike of change, since his installment at Fontenay.
He avoided alcohol, coffee, and tea, and only drank milk. He took cold baths and used remedies like assafœtida, valerian, and quinine. He even wanted to go outside and walked around the countryside when the rainy days made it desolate and quiet. He made himself get some exercise. As a last resort, he temporarily set aside his books and, feeling bored, decided to make his dull life more bearable by tackling a project he had long postponed due to laziness and a dislike of change since moving to Fontenay.
Being no longer able to intoxicate himself with the felicities of style, with the delicious witchery of the rare epithet which, while remaining precise, yet opens to the imagination of the initiate infinite and distant vistas, he determined to give the finishing touches to the decorations of his home. He would procure precious hot-house flowers and thus permit himself a material occupation which might distract him, calm his nerves and rest his brain. He also hoped that the sight of their strange and splendid nuances would in some degree atone for the fanciful and genuine colors of style which he was for the time to lose from his literary diet.
Being unable to indulge in the joys of style anymore, with the enchanting allure of rare words that, while precise, open up endless possibilities for those in the know, he decided to put the final touches on his home's decor. He would get some beautiful greenhouse flowers and allow himself a tangible activity that could distract him, soothe his nerves, and rest his mind. He also hoped that seeing their unique and vibrant colors would somewhat make up for the imaginative and rich language he was temporarily giving up from his writing.
Chapter 8
He had always been passionately fond of flowers, but during his residence at Jutigny, that love had been lavished upon flowers of all sorts; he had never cultivated distinctions and discriminations in regard to them. Now his taste in this direction had grown refined and self-conscious.
He had always had a deep love for flowers, but during his time at Jutigny, that affection was directed towards all kinds of flowers; he had never bothered to make distinctions among them. Now his taste had become more refined and deliberate.
For a long time he had scorned the popular plants which grow in flat baskets, in watered pots, under green awnings or under the red parasols of Parisian markets.
For a long time, he had looked down on the trendy plants that thrive in flat baskets, in watered pots, beneath green awnings, or under the red umbrellas of Parisian markets.
Simultaneous with the refinement of his literary taste and his preoccupations with art, which permitted him to be content only in the presence of choice creations, distilled by subtly troubled brains, and simultaneous with the weariness he began to feel in the presence of popular ideas, his love for flowers had grown purged of all impurities and lees, and had become clarified.
At the same time he was refining his literary taste and focusing on art, which made him only happy in the presence of carefully crafted works born from deeply thoughtful minds, he also started feeling tired of common ideas. His love for flowers had become pure and clear, stripped of any impurities.
He compared a florist's shop to a microcosm wherein all the categories of society are represented. Here are poor common flowers, the kind found in hovels, which are truly at home only when resting on ledges of garret windows, their roots thrust into milk bottles and old pans, like the gilly-flower for example.
He compared a florist's shop to a small world where all parts of society are represented. There are common flowers that grow in humble homes, only really thriving when they’re sitting on the sills of attic windows, their roots stuck in milk bottles and old pans, like the gilly-flower for instance.
And one also finds stupid and pretentious flowers like the rose which belongs in the porcelain flowerpots painted by young girls.
And you also find silly and showy flowers like the rose, which belongs in the delicate flowerpots decorated by young girls.
Then, there are flowers of noble lineage like the orchid, so delicate and charming, at once cold and palpitating, exotic flowers exiled in the heated glass palaces of Paris, princesses of the vegetable kingdom living in solitude, having absolutely nothing in common with the street plants and other bourgeois flora.
Then, there are flowers of noble lineage like the orchid, so delicate and charming, both cold and vibrant, exotic blooms stuck in the warm glass houses of Paris, princesses of the plant world living in isolation, sharing nothing at all with the street plants and other ordinary greenery.
He permitted himself to feel a certain interest and pity only for the popular flowers enfeebled by their nearness to the odors of sinks and drains in the poor quarters. In revenge he detested the bouquets harmonizing with the cream and gold rooms of pretentious houses. For the joy of his eyes he reserved those distinguished, rare blooms which had been brought from distant lands and whose lives were sustained by artful devices under artificial equators.
He allowed himself to feel a bit of interest and pity only for the common flowers weakened by their closeness to the smells of sewers and drains in the poor neighborhoods. In return, he loathed the bouquets that matched the cream and gold decor of flashy homes. For the pleasure of his eyes, he saved those unique, rare flowers brought from faraway places, thriving under clever methods in artificial climates.
But this very choice, this predilection for the conservatory plants had itself changed under the influence of his mode of thought. Formerly, during his Parisian days, his love for artificiality had led him to abandon real flowers and to use in their place replicas faithfully executed by means of the miracles performed with India rubber and wire, calico and taffeta, paper and silk. He was the possessor of a marvelous collection of tropical plants, the result of the labors of skilful artists who knew how to follow nature and recreate her step by step, taking the flower as a bud, leading it to its full development, even imitating its decline, reaching such a point of perfection as to convey every nuance—the most fugitive expressions of the flower when it opens at dawn and closes at evening, observing the appearance of the petals curled by the wind or rumpled by the rain, applying dew drops of gum on its matutinal corollas; shaping it in full bloom, when the branches bend under the burden of their sap, or showing the dried stem and shrivelled cupules, when calyxes are thrown off and leaves fall to the ground.
But this very choice, this preference for the indoor plants had itself changed because of his way of thinking. In the past, during his time in Paris, his love for artificiality had pushed him to stop using real flowers, replacing them instead with replicas carefully made using the wonders of rubber and wire, fabric and taffeta, paper and silk. He owned an amazing collection of tropical plants, the result of the work of skilled artists who knew how to follow nature and recreate it step by step, taking the flower from a bud to its full bloom, even mimicking its decline, achieving such perfection that they captured every detail—the most fleeting expressions of the flower as it opens in the morning and closes at night, observing the way the petals curl in the wind or get crumpled by rain, applying dew drops of gum to its morning blooms; shaping it in full bloom, when the branches bend under the weight of their sap, or showing the dried stem and withered cups when the calyxes drop off and leaves fall to the ground.
This wonderful art had held him entranced for a long while, but now he was dreaming of another experiment.
This amazing art had captivated him for a long time, but now he was imagining a new experiment.
He wished to go one step beyond. Instead of artificial flowers imitating real flowers, natural flowers should mimic the artificial ones.
He wanted to take it a step further. Instead of fake flowers copying real ones, real flowers should mimic the fake ones.
He directed his ideas to this end and had not to seek long or go far, since his house lay in the very heart of a famous horticultural region. He visited the conservatories of the Avenue de Chatillon and of the Aunay valley, and returned exhausted, his purse empty, astonished at the strange forms of vegetation he had seen, thinking of nothing but the species he had acquired and continually haunted by memories of magnificent and fantastic plants.
He focused his thoughts on this goal and didn’t have to look far, as his home was right in the center of a well-known gardening area. He visited the greenhouses on the Avenue de Chatillon and in the Aunay valley, and came back exhausted, his wallet empty, amazed by the unusual types of plants he had encountered, thinking only about the species he had collected and constantly plagued by memories of stunning and bizarre plants.
The flowers came several days later.
The flowers arrived a few days later.
Des Esseintes holding a list in his hands, verified each one of his purchases. The gardeners from their wagons brought a collection of caladiums which sustained enormous heartshaped leaves on turgid hairy stalks; while preserving an air of relationship with its neighbor, no one leaf repeated the same pattern.
Des Esseintes holding a list in his hands, checked off each of his purchases. The gardeners from their carts brought a variety of caladiums that featured large heart-shaped leaves on thick, fuzzy stems; although they seemed to relate to each other, no two leaves had the same pattern.
Others were equally extraordinary. The roses like the Virginale seemed cut out of varnished cloth or oil-silks; the white ones, like the Albano, appeared to have been cut out of an ox's transparent pleura, or the diaphanous bladder of a pig. Some, particularly the Madame Mame, imitated zinc and parodied pieces of stamped metal having a hue of emperor green, stained by drops of oil paint and by spots of white and red lead; others like the Bosphorous, gave the illusion of a starched calico in crimson and myrtle green; still others, like the Aurora Borealis, displayed leaves having the color of raw meat, streaked with purple sides, violet fibrils, tumefied leaves from which oozed blue wine and blood.
Others were just as incredible. The roses, like the Virginale, looked like they were made from glossy fabric or oil-silk; the white ones, like the Albano, seemed to be cut from a cow's transparent pleura or the clear bladder of a pig. Some, especially the Madame Mame, mimicked zinc and parodied pieces of stamped metal in a color similar to emperor green, splattered with drops of oil paint and spots of white and red lead; others, like the Bosphorous, gave the impression of starched calico in crimson and myrtle green; still others, like the Aurora Borealis, showcased leaves that had the color of raw meat, streaked with purple sides, violet fibers, and swollen leaves from which blue wine and blood seeped.
The Albano and the Aurora sounded the two extreme notes of temperament, the apoplexy and chlorosis of this plant.
The Albano and the Aurora represented the two opposite ends of temperament, the extremes of apoplexy and chlorosis in this plant.
The gardeners brought still other varieties which had the appearance of artificial skin ridged with false veins, and most of them looked as though consumed by syphilis and leprosy, for they exhibited livid surfaces of flesh veined with scarlet rash and damasked with eruptions. Some had the deep red hue of scars that have just closed or the dark tint of incipient scabs. Others were marked with matter raised by scaldings. There were forms which exhibited shaggy skins hollowed by ulcers and relieved by cankers. And a few appeared embossed with wounds, covered with black mercurial hog lard, with green unguents of belladonna smeared with grains of dust and the yellow micas of iodoforme.
The gardeners brought in even more varieties that looked like fake skin marked with false veins, and most of them seemed to suffer from syphilis and leprosy, as they showed livid flesh with scarlet rashes and were covered in eruptions. Some had a deep red color of freshly healed scars or the dark shade of early scabs. Others had raised areas from scalds. There were forms that displayed shaggy skins hollowed out by ulcers and marked by cankers. A few looked like they were embossed with wounds, covered in black mercurial hog lard, with green belladonna ointment mixed with dust and yellow iodoform mica.
Collected in his home, these flowers seemed to Des Esseintes more monstrous than when he had beheld them, confused with others among the glass rooms of the conservatory.
Collected in his home, these flowers seemed to Des Esseintes more monstrous than when he had seen them, mixed with others in the glass rooms of the conservatory.
"Sapristi!" he exclaimed enthusiastically.
"Wow!" he exclaimed enthusiastically.
A new plant, modelled like the Caladiums, the Alocasia Metallica, excited him even more. It was coated with a layer of bronze green on which glanced silver reflections. It was the masterpiece of artificiality. It could be called a piece of stove pipe, cut by a chimney-maker into the form of a pike head.
A new plant, shaped like the Caladiums, the Alocasia Metallica, thrilled him even more. It was covered in bronze-green with silver reflections glimmering on its surface. It was the ultimate in artificial beauty. It could be described as a segment of stove pipe, fashioned by a chimney-maker into the shape of a spearhead.
The men next brought clusters of leaves, lozenge-like in shape and bottle-green in color. In the center rose a rod at whose end a varnished ace of hearts swayed. As though meaning to defy all conceivable forms of plants, a fleshy stalk climbed through the heart of this intense vermilion ace—a stalk that in some specimens was straight, in others showed ringlets like a pig's tail.
The men then brought over clusters of leaves, shaped like lozenges and in a deep green color. At the center, a rod rose up with a shiny ace of hearts swaying at its top. Defying all known plant shapes, a thick stalk grew through the center of this vibrant red ace—a stalk that was straight in some cases, while in others it curled like a pig's tail.
It was the Anthurium, an aroid recently imported into France from Columbia; a variety of that family to which also belonged an Amorphophallus, a Cochin China plant with leaves shaped like fish-knives, with long dark stems seamed with gashes, like lambs flecked with black.
It was the Anthurium, an aroid that had recently been imported to France from Colombia; a type of that family that also included an Amorphophallus, a plant from Cochin China with leaves shaped like fish knives, featuring long dark stems marked with cuts, like lambs spotted with black.
Des Esseintes exulted.
Des Esseintes was thrilled.
They brought a new batch of monstrosities from the wagon: Echinopses, issuing from padded compresses with rose-colored flowers that looked like the pitiful stumps; gaping Nidularia revealing skinless foundations in steel plates; Tillandsia Lindeni, the color of wine must, with jagged scrapers; Cypripedia, with complicated contours, a crazy piece of work seemingly designed by a crazy inventor. They looked like sabots or like a lady's work-table on which lies a human tongue with taut filaments, such as one sees designed on the illustrated pages of works treating of the diseases of the throat and mouth; two little side-pieces, of a red jujube color, which appeared to have been borrowed from a child's toy mill completed this singular collection of a tongue's underside with the color of slate and wine lees, and of a glossy pocket from whose lining oozed a viscous glue.
They brought a new batch of grotesque creations from the wagon: Echinopses, emerging from cushioned wraps with rose-colored flowers that looked like sad stumps; gaping Nidularia showing skinless bases in steel plates; Tillandsia Lindeni, the color of wine must, with sharp scrapers; Cypripedia, with complex shapes, a bizarre creation seemingly made by a mad inventor. They resembled wooden shoes or a lady's worktable on which lay a human tongue with taut threads, like those illustrated in medical books about throat and mouth diseases; two small side pieces, a red jujube color, seemed to have come from a child's toy mill, completing this unusual collection of a tongue's underside with slate and wine lees colors, and a shiny pocket from which a thick glue oozed.
He could not remove his eyes from this unnatural orchid which had been brought from India. Then the gardeners, impatient at his procrastinations, themselves began to read the labels fastened to the pots they were carrying in.
He couldn't take his eyes off this strange orchid that had been brought from India. Then the gardeners, frustrated with his delays, started reading the labels attached to the pots they were carrying in.
Bewildered, Des Esseintes looked on and listened to the cacophonous sounds of the names: the Encephalartos horridus, a gigantic iron rust-colored artichoke, like those put on portals of chateaux to foil wall climbers; the Cocos Micania, a sort of notched and slender palm surrounded by tall leaves resembling paddles and oars; the Zamia Lehmanni, an immense pineapple, a wondrous Chester leaf, planted in sweet-heather soil, its top bristling with barbed javelins and jagged arrows; the Cibotium Spectabile, surpassing the others by the craziness of its structure, hurling a defiance to revery, as it darted, through the palmated foliage, an enormous orang-outang tail, a hairy dark tail whose end was twisted into the shape of a bishop's cross.
Bewildered, Des Esseintes watched and listened to the chaotic sounds of the names: the Encephalartos horridus, a massive iron rust-colored artichoke, like those put on the entrances of chateaux to deter climbers; the Cocos Micania, a type of slender palm with notched leaves that looked like paddles and oars; the Zamia Lehmanni, an enormous pineapple, a remarkable Chester leaf, planted in sweet-heather soil, its top bristling with barbed javelins and sharp arrows; the Cibotium Spectabile, standing out for its bizarre structure, challenging reverie, as it shot through the fan-like foliage an enormous orangutan tail, a hairy dark tail whose end was twisted in the shape of a bishop's cross.
But he gave little heed, for he was impatiently awaiting the series of plants which most bewitched him, the vegetable ghouls, the carnivorous plants; the Antilles Fly-Trap, with its shaggy border, secreting a digestive liquid, armed with crooked prickles coiling around each other, forming a grating about the imprisoned insect; the Drosera of the peat-bogs, provided with glandular hair; the Sarracena and the Cephalothus, opening greedy horns capable of digesting and absorbing real meat; lastly, the Nepenthes, whose capricious appearance transcends all limits of eccentric forms.
But he paid little attention because he was eagerly waiting for the collection of plants that fascinated him the most: the vegetable ghouls, the carnivorous plants; the Antilles Fly-Trap, with its shaggy edges, secreting a digestive liquid, armed with twisted thorns coiling around each other, forming a cage around the trapped insect; the Drosera from the peat-bogs, equipped with glandular hairs; the Sarracena and the Cephalothus, opening their greedy traps capable of digesting and absorbing actual meat; and finally, the Nepenthes, whose whimsical shape goes beyond all bounds of eccentric forms.
He never wearied of turning in his hands the pot in which this floral extravagance stirred. It imitated the gum-tree whose long leaf of dark metallic green it possessed, but it differed in that a green string hung from the end of its leaf, an umbilic cord supporting a greenish urn, streaked with jasper, a sort of German porcelain pipe, a strange bird's nest which tranquilly swung about, revealing an interior covered with hair.
He never got tired of holding the pot that contained this floral display. It looked like a gum tree with its long leaves of dark metallic green, but it was different because a green string hung from the end of its leaf, like an umbilical cord supporting a greenish urn, marked with jasper, a kind of German porcelain pipe, a weird bird's nest that gently swung around, showing an interior covered in hair.
"This is really something worth while," Des Esseintes murmured.
"This is really something worthwhile," Des Esseintes murmured.
He was forced to tear himself away, for the gardeners, anxious to leave, were emptying the wagons of their contents and depositing, without any semblance of order, the tuberous Begonias and black Crotons stained like sheet iron with Saturn red.
He had to pull himself away because the gardeners, eager to finish, were unloading the wagons in a haphazard way, dropping the tuberous Begonias and black Crotons that were stained like sheet metal with a deep red color.
Then he perceived that one name still remained on his list. It was the Cattleya of New Granada. On it was designed a little winged bell of a faded lilac, an almost dead mauve. He approached, placed his nose above the plant and quickly recoiled. It exhaled an odor of toy boxes of painted pine; it recalled the horrors of a New Year's Day.
Then he realized that there was still one name left on his list. It was the Cattleya from New Granada. It had a small winged bell design in a faded lilac, an almost dead mauve. He leaned in, took a sniff of the plant, and quickly pulled back. It released a scent reminiscent of painted pine toy boxes; it brought back the terrible memories of a New Year's Day.
He felt that he would do well to mistrust it and he almost regretted having admitted, among the scentless plants, this orchid which evoked the most disagreeable memories.
He thought it would be best to distrust it and he almost regretted bringing in this orchid among the scentless plants, as it brought back the most unpleasant memories.
As soon as he was alone his gaze took in this vegetable tide which foamed in the vestibule. Intermingled with each other, they crossed their swords, their krisses and stanchions, taking on a resemblance to a green pile of arms, above which, like barbaric penons, floated flowers with hard dazzling colors.
As soon as he was alone, he looked at the wave of vegetables that filled the entryway. They tangled together, crossing their knives and sticks, resembling a chaotic heap of weapons, above which, like exotic flags, colorful flowers with bright, bold hues floated.
The air of the room grew rarefied. Then, in the shadowy dimness of a corner, near the floor, a white soft light crept.
The air in the room became thin. Then, in the shadowy dimness of a corner, close to the floor, a soft white light appeared.
He approached and perceived that the phenomenon came from the Rhizomorphes which threw out these night-lamp gleams while respiring.
He came closer and realized that the light was coming from the Rhizomorphes, which emitted these night-lamp glimmers as they breathed.
"These plants are amazing," he reflected. Then he drew back to let his eye encompass the whole collection at a glance. His purpose was achieved. Not one single specimen seemed real; the cloth, paper, porcelain and metal seemed to have been loaned by man to nature to enable her to create her monstrosities. When unable to imitate man's handiwork, nature had been reduced to copying the inner membranes of animals, to borrowing the vivid tints of their rotting flesh, their magnificent corruptions.
"These plants are incredible," he thought. Then he stepped back to take in the entire collection at once. His goal was accomplished. Not a single specimen looked real; the fabric, paper, porcelain, and metal seemed like they had been lent by people to nature to help her create her oddities. When nature couldn't mimic human craftsmanship, it resorted to imitating the inner membranes of animals, borrowing the bright colors of their decaying flesh, their stunning degradations.
"All is syphilis," thought Des Esseintes, his eye riveted upon the horrible streaked stainings of the Caladium plants caressed by a ray of light. And he beheld a sudden vision of humanity consumed through the centuries by the virus of this disease. Since the world's beginnings, every single creature had, from sire to son, transmitted the imperishable heritage, the eternal malady which has ravaged man's ancestors and whose effects are visible even in the bones of old fossils that have been exhumed.
"Everything is syphilis," thought Des Esseintes, his gaze fixated on the horrible, streaked marks of the Caladium plants lit up by a ray of light. He suddenly envisioned humanity, over the centuries, consumed by the virus of this disease. Since the dawn of time, every single being has passed down, from generation to generation, the lasting legacy, the eternal illness that has devastated human ancestors and whose effects can still be seen in the bones of ancient fossils that have been dug up.
The disease had swept on through the centuries gaining momentum. It even raged today, concealed in obscure sufferings, dissimulated under symptoms of headaches and bronchitis, hysterics and gout. It crept to the surface from time to time, preferably attacking the ill-nourished and the poverty stricken, spotting faces with gold pieces, ironically decorating the faces of poor wretches, stamping the mark of money on their skins to aggravate their unhappiness.
The disease had passed through the centuries, gaining speed. It still raged today, hidden in vague ailments, disguised as headaches, bronchitis, anxiety, and gout. It occasionally surfaced, targeting those with poor nutrition and the impoverished, marking their faces with gold coins, ironically embellishing the expressions of these unfortunate people, leaving the mark of wealth on their skin to deepen their misery.
And here on the colored leaves of the plants it was resurgent in its original splendor.
And here on the colorful leaves of the plants, it came back to life in its original splendor.
"It is true," pursued Des Esseintes, returning to the course of reasoning he had momentarily abandoned, "it is true that most often nature, left alone, is incapable of begetting such perverse and sickly specimens. She furnishes the original substance, the germ and the earth, the nourishing womb and the elements of the plant which man then sets up, models, paints, and sculpts as he wills. Limited, stubborn and formless though she be, nature has at last been subjected and her master has succeeded in changing, through chemical reaction, the earth's substances, in using combinations which had been long matured, cross-fertilization processes long prepared, in making use of slips and graftings, and man now forces differently colored flowers in the same species, invests new tones for her, modifies to his will the long-standing form of her plants, polishes the rough clods, puts an end to the period of botch work, places his stamp on them, imposes on them the mark of his own unique art."
"It’s true," continued Des Esseintes, getting back to the line of thought he had temporarily set aside, "it’s true that most of the time, nature, when left to its own devices, can’t create such twisted and unhealthy specimens. It provides the raw materials, the seed, the soil, the nourishing environment, and the elements of the plant, which humans then shape, paint, and sculpt as they choose. Even though nature is limited, stubborn, and formless, it has finally been tamed, and its master has managed to change the substances of the earth through chemical reactions, using combinations that have been patiently developed, and employing cross-fertilization processes that were long in preparation. Now, humans can force different colored flowers to bloom from the same species, introduce new hues for her, alter her plants to fit their desires, refine the rough patches, put an end to shoddy work, leave their mark on them, and impose the signature of their own unique art."
"It cannot be gainsaid," he thought, resuming his reflections, "that man in several years is able to effect a selection which slothful nature can produce only after centuries. Decidedly the horticulturists are the real artists nowadays."
"It can't be denied," he thought, continuing his reflections, "that over the years, humans can achieve a selection that lazy nature can only produce after centuries. Clearly, the horticulturists are the true artists these days."
He was a little tired and he felt stifled in this atmosphere of crowded plants. The promenades he had taken during the last few days had exhausted him. The transition had been too sudden from the tepid atmosphere of his room to the out-of-doors, from the placid tranquillity of a reclusive life to an active one. He left the vestibule and stretched out on his bed to rest, but, absorbed by this new fancy of his, his mind, even in his sleep, could not lessen its tension and he was soon wandering among the gloomy insanities of a nightmare.
He was feeling a bit tired and overwhelmed by the packed plants around him. The walks he had taken over the last few days had worn him out. The change had been too abrupt from the warm comfort of his room to the outside, from the calm solitude of a secluded life to a busy one. He left the entryway and lay down on his bed to rest, but caught up in this new obsession of his, his mind couldn't relax even in sleep, and he soon found himself lost in the dark chaos of a nightmare.
He found himself in the center of a walk, in the heart of the wood; twilight had fallen. He was strolling by the side of a woman whom he had never seen before. She was emaciated and had flaxen hair, a bulldog face, freckles on her cheeks, crooked teeth projecting under a flat nose. She wore a nurse's white apron, a long neckerchief, torn in strips on her bosom; half-shoes like those worn by Prussian soldiers and a black bonnet adorned with frillings and trimmed with a rosette.
He found himself in the middle of a path, deep in the woods; twilight had set in. He was walking next to a woman he had never met before. She was thin and had blonde hair, a bulldog-style face, freckles on her cheeks, and crooked teeth sticking out from under a flat nose. She wore a white nurse's apron, a long neckerchief that was torn into strips on her chest; half-shoes like those worn by Prussian soldiers, and a black bonnet decorated with frills and finished with a rosette.
There was a foreign look about her, like that of a mountebank at a fair.
There was something exotic about her, like a con artist at a fair.
He asked himself who the woman could be; he felt that she had long been an intimate part of his life; vainly he sought her origin, her name, her profession, her reason for being. No recollection of this liaison, which was inexplicable and yet positive, rewarded him.
He wondered who the woman could be; he sensed that she had been an intimate part of his life for a long time; he fruitlessly searched for her background, her name, her job, her purpose. No memory of this connection, which was puzzling yet undeniable, came to him.
He was searching his past for a clue, when a strange figure suddenly appeared on horse-back before them, trotting about for a moment and then turning around in its saddle. Des Esseintes' heart almost stopped beating and he stood riveted to the spot with horror. He nearly fainted. This enigmatic, sexless figure was green; through her violet eyelids the eyes were terrible in their cold blue; pimples surrounded her mouth; horribly emaciated, skeleton arms bared to the elbows issued from ragged tattered sleeves and trembled feverishly; and the skinny legs shivered in shoes that were several sizes too large.
He was searching his past for a clue when a strange figure suddenly appeared on horseback in front of them, trotting around for a moment and then turning in the saddle. Des Esseintes' heart nearly stopped, and he stood frozen in horror. He almost fainted. This mysterious, genderless figure was green; through her violet eyelids, her cold blue eyes were chilling; bumps surrounded her mouth; and her horribly thin, skeletal arms were exposed to the elbows from ripped, tattered sleeves and trembled uncontrollably. The skinny legs shook in shoes that were several sizes too big.
The ghastly eyes were fixed on Des Esseintes, penetrating him, freezing his very marrow; wilder than ever, the bulldog woman threw herself at him and commenced to howl like a dog at the killing, her head hanging on her rigid neck.
The horrifying eyes were locked onto Des Esseintes, piercing him, chilling him to his core; more frenzied than before, the bulldog woman lunged at him and started howling like a dog at the slaughter, her head hanging on her stiff neck.
Suddenly he understood the meaning of the frightful vision. Before him was the image of Syphilis.
Suddenly, he realized what the terrifying vision meant. In front of him was the image of Syphilis.
Pursued by fear and quite beside himself, he sped down a pathway at top speed and gained a pavillion standing among the laburnums to the left, where he fell into a chair, in the passage way.
Chased by fear and completely overwhelmed, he rushed down a path as fast as he could and reached a pavilion surrounded by the laburnum trees to the left, where he collapsed into a chair in the hallway.
After a few moments, when he was beginning to recover his breath, the sound of sobbing made him lift his head. The bulldog woman was in front of him and, grotesque and woeful, while warm tears fell from her eyes, she told him that she had lost her teeth in her flight. As she spoke she drew clay pipes from the pocket of her nurse's apron, breaking them and shoving pieces of the stems into the hollows of her gums.
After a few moments, as he was starting to catch his breath, the sound of crying made him look up. The bulldog woman was in front of him, looking both bizarre and sad, with warm tears streaming down her face. She told him that she had lost her teeth while running away. As she spoke, she pulled clay pipes from the pocket of her nurse's apron, broke them, and stuffed pieces of the stems into the gaps in her gums.
"But she is really absurd," Des Esseintes told himself. "These stems will never stick." And, as a matter of fact, they dropped out one after another.
"But she is really ridiculous," Des Esseintes told himself. "These stems won't stay in place." And, in fact, they fell out one by one.
At this moment were heard the galloping sounds of an approaching horse. A fearful terror pierced Des Esseintes. His limbs gave way. The galloping grew louder. Despair brought him sharply to his senses. He threw himself upon the woman who was stamping on the pipe bowls, entreating her to be silent, not to give notice of their presence by the sound of her shoes. She writhed and struggled in his grip; he led her to the end of the corridor, strangling her to prevent her from crying out. Suddenly he noticed the door of a coffee house, with green Venetian shutters. It was unlocked; he pushed it, rushed in headlong and then paused.
At that moment, they heard the sounds of a horse galloping closer. A wave of fear hit Des Esseintes. His legs went weak. The galloping grew louder. Despair jolted him back to reality. He lunged at the woman who was stomping on the pipe bowls, begging her to be quiet, not to alert anyone to their presence with the noise of her shoes. She squirmed and fought against him; he pulled her toward the end of the corridor, tightening his grip to keep her from screaming. Suddenly, he spotted the door of a coffee shop, with green Venetian shutters. It was unlocked; he pushed it open, dashed inside, and then hesitated.
Before him, in the center of a vast glade, huge white pierrots were leaping rabbit-like under the rays of the moon.
Before him, in the middle of a large clearing, giant white figures were jumping around like rabbits under the moonlight.
Tears of discouragement welled to his eyes; never, no never would he succeed in crossing the threshold. "I shall be crushed," he thought. And as though to justify his fears, the ranks of tall pierrots swarmed and multiplied; their somersaults now covered the entire horizon, the whole sky on which they landed now on their heads, now on their feet.
Tears of frustration filled his eyes; he thought he would never manage to cross the threshold. "I’m going to be crushed," he thought. And just to confirm his fears, the groups of tall pierrots surged and multiplied; their acrobatics now filled the entire horizon, the whole sky flipping as they landed on their heads and then on their feet.
Then the hoof beats paused. He was in the passage, behind a round skylight. More dead than alive, Des Esseintes turned about and through the round window beheld projecting erect ears, yellow teeth, nostrils from which breathed two jets of vapor smelling of phenol.
Then the hoof beats stopped. He was in the hallway, under a round skylight. More dead than alive, Des Esseintes turned around and through the round window saw pointed ears, yellow teeth, and nostrils from which puffed two jets of vapor that smelled like phenol.
He sank to the ground, renouncing all ideas of flight or of resistance. He closed his eyes so as not to behold the horrible gaze of Syphilis which penetrated through the wall, which even pierced his closed lids, which he felt gliding over his moist spine, over his body whose hair bristled in pools of cold sweat. He waited for the worst and even hoped for the coup de grâce to end everything. A moment which seemed to last a century passed. Shuddering, he opened his eyes. Everything had vanished. Without any transition, as though by some stage device, a frightful mineral landscape receded into the distance, a wan, dead, waste, gullied landscape. A light illumined this desolate site, a peaceful white light that recalled gleams of phosphorus dissolved in oil.
He dropped to the ground, giving up all thoughts of escape or resistance. He shut his eyes to avoid the horrifying gaze of Syphilis that seemed to seep through the wall, even invading his closed lids, sliding over his damp spine and the body drenched in cold sweat. He braced for the worst and even wished for the final blow to end it all. A moment that felt like a century dragged on. Trembling, he opened his eyes. Everything had vanished. Without any transition, as if by some stage trick, a terrifying, barren landscape faded into the distance—a dull, lifeless, eroded landscape. A light bathed this desolate scene, a calm white light that reminded him of phosphorus gleaming in oil.
Something that stirred on the ground became a deathly pale, nude woman whose feet were covered with green silk stockings.
Something that moved on the ground became a deathly pale, naked woman whose feet were covered with green silk stockings.
He contemplated her with curiosity. As though frizzed by overheated irons, her hair curled, becoming straight again at the end; her distended nostrils were the color of roast veal. Her eyes were desirous, and she called to him in low tones.
He looked at her with curiosity. Her hair was frizzy from the heat, curling and then straightening at the ends; her flared nostrils were the color of cooked veal. Her eyes were full of desire, and she spoke to him in a soft voice.
He had no time to answer, for already the woman was changing. Flamboyant colors passed and repassed in her eyes. Her lips were stained with a furious Anthurium red. The nipples of her breasts flashed, painted like two pods of red pepper.
He didn’t have time to respond because the woman was already transforming. Vibrant colors flickered in her eyes. Her lips were painted a fierce Anthurium red. The nipples of her breasts stood out, colored like two red pepper pods.
A sudden intuition came to him. "It is the Flower," he said. And his reasoning mania persisted in his nightmare.
A sudden intuition hit him. "It's the Flower," he said. And his obsessive reasoning continued in his nightmare.
Then he observed the frightful irritation of the breasts and mouth, discovered spots of bister and copper on the skin of her body, and recoiled bewildered. But the woman's eyes fascinated him and he advanced slowly, attempting to thrust his heels into the earth so as not to move, letting himself fall, and yet lifting himself to reach her. Just as he touched her, the dark Amorphophalli leaped up from all sides and thrust their leaves into his abdomen which rose and fell like a sea. He had broken all the plants, experiencing a limitless disgust in seeing these warm, firm stems stirring in his hands. Suddenly the detested plants had disappeared and two arms sought to enlace him. A terrible anguish made his heart beat furiously, for the eyes, the horrible eyes of the woman, had become a clear, cold and terrible blue. He made a superhuman effort to free himself from her embrace, but she held him with an irresistible movement. He beheld the wild Nidularium which yawned, bleeding, in steel plates.
Then he noticed the terrible irritation of her breasts and mouth, saw dark spots of brown and copper on her skin, and felt confused. But the woman’s eyes captivated him, and he moved slowly, trying to push his heels into the ground to stay still, letting himself fall while also reaching for her. Just as he touched her, the dark Amorphophalli sprang up from all sides and thrust their leaves into his stomach, which rose and fell like the sea. He broke all the plants, feeling an overwhelming disgust as he saw the warm, firm stems stirring in his hands. Suddenly, the plants he hated vanished, and two arms reached out to embrace him. A terrible anxiety made his heart race because the eyes, the horrifying eyes of the woman, had turned a clear, cold, and ghastly blue. He made an incredible effort to escape her hold, but she grabbed him with an irresistible force. He stared at the wild Nidularium, which yawned, bleeding, in steel plates.
With his body he touched the hideous wound of this plant. He felt himself dying, awoke with a start, suffocating, frozen, mad with fear and sighing: "Ah! thank God, it was but a dream!"
With his body, he touched the ugly wound of this plant. He felt himself dying, abruptly woke up, gasping for air, paralyzed with fear, and sighed: "Oh! Thank God, it was just a dream!"
Chapter 9
These nightmares attacked him repeatedly. He was afraid to fall asleep. For hours he remained stretched on his bed, now a prey to feverish and agitated wakefulness, now in the grip of oppressive dreams in which he tumbled down flights of stairs and felt himself sinking, powerless, into abysmal depths.
These nightmares kept haunting him. He was scared to sleep. For hours, he lay on his bed, sometimes caught in a restless and anxious wakefulness, other times trapped in suffocating dreams where he fell down stairs and felt himself sinking, helpless, into dark depths.
His nervous attacks, which had abated for several days, became acute, more violent and obstinate than ever, unearthing new tortures.
His panic attacks, which had lessened for a few days, flared up again, more intense and stubborn than ever, bringing out new suffering.
The bed covers tormented him. He stifled under the sheets, his body smarted and tingled as though stung by swarms of insects. These symptoms were augmented by a dull pain in his jaws and a throbbing in his temples which seemed to be gripped in a vise.
The bed covers tortured him. He felt suffocated under the sheets, his body ached and tingled as if it were stung by swarms of insects. These symptoms were worsened by a dull pain in his jaw and a throbbing in his temples that felt like they were being squeezed in a vise.
His alarm increased; but unfortunately the means of subduing the inexorable malady were not at hand. He had unsuccessfully sought to install a hydropathic apparatus in his dressing room. But the impossibility of forcing water to the height on which his house was perched, and the difficulty of procuring water even in the village where the fountains functioned sparingly and only at certain hours of the day, caused him to renounce the project. Since he could not have floods of water playing on him from the nozzle of a hose, (the only efficacious means of overcoming his insomnia and calming his nerves through its action on his spinal column) he was reduced to brief sprays or to mere cold baths, followed by energetic massages applied by his servant with the aid of a horse-hair glove.
His anxiety grew, but unfortunately, the means to combat the relentless illness were not available. He had tried unsuccessfully to set up a hydrotherapy system in his dressing room. However, the challenge of getting water to the height where his house sat, along with the difficulty of finding enough water in the village—where the fountains worked only sporadically and at specific times during the day—led him to give up on the idea. Since he couldn't have streams of water hitting him from a hose (the only effective way to beat his insomnia and soothe his nerves by impacting his spinal column), he was stuck with only quick sprays or cold baths, followed by vigorous massages from his servant using a horse-hair glove.
But these measures failed to stem the march of his nervous disorder. At best they afforded him a few hours' relief, dearly paid for by the return of the attacks in an even more virulent form.
But these measures failed to stop the progression of his anxiety disorder. At best, they gave him a few hours of relief, which he paid for dearly with the return of the attacks in an even more intense form.
His ennui passed all bounds. His pleasure in the possession of his wonderful flowers was exhausted. Their textures and nuances palled on him. Besides, despite the care he lavished on them, most of his plants drooped. He had them removed from his rooms, but in his state of extreme excitability, their very absence exasperated him, for his eyes were pained by the void.
His boredom reached new heights. His enjoyment of his amazing flowers had faded. Their textures and details no longer interested him. Plus, even with all the attention he gave them, most of his plants wilted. He had them taken out of his rooms, but in his highly agitated state, their absence only irritated him more, as the emptiness hurt his eyes.
To while away the interminable hours, he had recourse to his portfolios of prints, and arranged his Goyas. The first impressions of certain plates of the Caprices, recognizable as proofs by their reddish hues, which he had bought at auction at a high price, comforted him, and he lost himself in them, following the painter's fantasies, distracted by his vertiginous scenes, his witches astride on cats, his women striving to pluck out the teeth of a hanged man, his bandits, his succubi, his demons and dwarfs.
To pass the endless hours, he turned to his portfolios of prints and organized his Goyas. The early impressions of certain plates from the Caprices, identifiable as proofs by their reddish tones, which he had purchased at a high price at an auction, brought him comfort, and he got lost in them, following the painter's fantasies, captivated by his dizzying scenes, his witches riding on cats, his women trying to pull out the teeth of a hanged man, his bandits, his succubi, his demons, and dwarfs.
Then he examined his other series of etchings and aquatints, his Proverbs with their macabre horror, his war subjects with their wild rage, finally his plate of the Garot, of which he cherished a marvelous trial proof, printed on heavy water-marked paper, unmounted.
Then he looked over his other series of etchings and aquatints, his Proverbs with their dark horror, his war themes filled with wild rage, and finally his plate of the Garot, which he treasured as a stunning trial proof, printed on thick watermarked paper, unframed.
Goya's savage verve and keenly fanciful talent delighted him, but the universal admiration his works had won nevertheless estranged him slightly. And for years he had refused to frame them for fear that the first blundering fool who caught sight of them might deem it necessary to fly into banal and facile raptures before them.
Goya's wild energy and imaginative talent thrilled him, but the widespread admiration for his works had still made him feel a bit distant. For years, he avoided framing them, worried that some clueless person might feel the need to gush mindlessly over them.
The same applied to his Rembrandts which he examined from time to time, half secretly; and if it be true that the loveliest tune imaginable becomes vulgar and insupportable as soon as the public begins to hum it and the hurdy-gurdies make it their own, the work of art which does not remain indifferent to the spurious artists, which is not contested by fools, and which is not satisfied with awakening the enthusiasm of the few, by this very fact becomes profaned, trite, almost repulsive to the initiate.
The same went for his Rembrandts, which he looked at from time to time, partially in secret; and if it’s true that the most beautiful song imaginable becomes cliché and unbearable as soon as the public starts humming it and the street musicians make it theirs, then a work of art that doesn’t ignore the fake artists, isn’t challenged by idiots, and doesn’t just inspire a few happy enthusiasts, by that very fact becomes cheapened, common, and almost off-putting to those in the know.
This promiscuity in admiration, furthermore, was one of the greatest sources of regret in his life. Incomprehensible successes had forever spoiled for him many pictures and books once cherished and dear. Approved by the mob, they began to reveal imperceptible defects to him, and he rejected them, wondering meanwhile if his perceptions were not growing blunted.
This tendency to admire everything was, moreover, one of the biggest regrets of his life. Unexplainable successes had ruined many pictures and books that he once loved and valued. Cheered on by the crowd, they started to show subtle flaws to him, and he turned away from them, questioning whether his perspective was becoming dull.
He closed his portfolios and, completely disconcerted, again plunged into melancholy. To divert the current of his thoughts and cool his brain, he sought books that would soothe him and turned to the romances of Dickens, those charming novels which are so satisfying to invalids and convalescents who might grow fatigued by works of a more profound and vigorous nature.
He closed his folders and, feeling completely unsettled, fell back into a deep sadness. To distract himself and calm his mind, he looked for books that would comfort him and picked up the stories of Dickens, those delightful novels that are so enjoyable for those who are unwell and recovering, who might find more intense and demanding works exhausting.
But they produced an effect contrary to his expectations. These chaste lovers, these protesting heroines garbed to the neck, loved among the stars, confined themselves to lowered eyes and blushes, wept tears of joy and clasped hands—an exaggeration of purity which threw him into an opposite excess. By the law of contrast, he leaped from one extreme to the other, let his imagination dwell on vibrant scenes between human lovers, and mused on their sensual kisses and passionate embraces.
But they had the opposite effect than what he expected. These pure lovers, these modest heroines dressed all the way up, loved among the stars, kept their eyes down and blushed, shed tears of joy, and held hands—an over-the-top display of innocence that pushed him to the other extreme. By the law of contrast, he jumped from one extreme to the other, letting his imagination linger on vibrant scenes between lovers, and reflected on their sensual kisses and passionate embraces.
His mind wandered off from his book to worlds far removed from the English prude: to wanton peccadilloes and salacious practices condemned by the Church. He grew excited. The impotence of his mind and body which he had supposed final, vanished. Solitude again acted on his disordered nerves; he was once more obsessed, not by religion itself, but by the acts and sins it forbids, by the subject of all its obsecrations and threats. The carnal side, atrophied for months, which had been stirred by the enervation of his pious readings, then brought to a crisis by the English cant, came to the surface. His stimulated senses carried him back to the past and he wallowed in memories of his old sin.
His mind drifted from his book to worlds far removed from the English moralists: to mischievous antics and forbidden pleasures condemned by the Church. He felt a rush of excitement. The inability he thought was permanent faded away. Solitude once again affected his jangled nerves; he found himself fixated, not on religion itself, but on the actions and sins it prohibits, on the very subject of all its prayers and warnings. The physical desires, dormant for months and ignited by the fatigue of his pious readings, reached a peak due to the English hypocrisy, surfacing forcefully. His heightened senses took him back to the past, and he reveled in memories of his former misdeeds.
He rose and pensively opened a little box of vermeil with a lid of aventurine.
He got up and thoughtfully opened a small gold-plated box with a lid made of aventurine.
It was filled with violet bonbons. He took one up and pressed it between his fingers, thinking of the strange properties of this sugary, frosted sweetmeat. When his virility had been impaired, when the thought of woman had roused in him no sharp regret or desire, he had only to put one in his mouth, let it melt, and almost at once it induced misty, languishing memories, infinitely tender.
It was filled with violet candies. He picked one up and squeezed it between his fingers, considering the odd effects of this sugary, frosted treat. When his libido had faded, when he felt no strong regret or desire at the thought of a woman, all he had to do was pop one in his mouth, let it dissolve, and almost immediately it brought about dreamy, wistful memories that were incredibly tender.
These bonbons invented by Siraudin and bearing the ridiculous name of "Perles des Pyrénées" were each a drop of sarcanthus perfume, a drop of feminine essence crystallized in a morsel of sugar. They penetrated the papillæ of the tongue, recalling the very savor of voluptuous kisses.
These candies created by Siraudin and oddly named "Pyrénées Pearls" were each a drop of sarcanthus perfume, a drop of feminine essence crystallized in a piece of sugar. They melted on the tongue, evoking the very taste of passionate kisses.
Usually he smiled as he inhaled this love aroma, this shadow of a caress which for a moment restored the delights of women he had once adored. Today they were not merely suggestive, they no longer served as a delicate hint of his distant riotous past. They were become powerful, thrusting aside the veils, exposing before his eyes the importunate, corporeal and brutal reality.
Usually, he smiled as he breathed in this scent of love, this hint of a caress that momentarily brought back the joys of the women he had once adored. Today, they weren’t just suggestive; they no longer served as a subtle reminder of his wild past. They had become intense, stripping away the layers and revealing to him the demanding, physical, and harsh reality.
At the head of the procession of mistresses whom the fragrance of the bonbons helped to place in bold relief, one paused, displaying long white teeth, a satiny rose skin, a snub nose, mouse-colored eyes, and close-cropped blond hair.
At the front of the line of women, highlighted by the sweetness of the candies, one stopped to show off her long white teeth, smooth rose-colored skin, a small upturned nose, grayish eyes, and short blonde hair.
This was Miss Urania, an American, with a vigorous body, sinewy limbs, muscles of steel and arms of iron.
This was Miss Urania, an American, with a strong body, toned limbs, muscles of steel, and arms of iron.
She had been one of the most celebrated acrobats of the Circus.
She had been one of the most famous acrobats in the circus.
Des Esseintes had watched her attentively through many long evenings. At first, she had seemed to him what she really was, a strong and beautiful woman, but the desire to know her never troubled him. She possessed nothing to recommend her in the eyes of a blasé man, and yet he returned to the Circus, allured by he knew not what, importuned by a sentiment difficult to define.
Des Esseintes had watched her closely for many long evenings. At first, she appeared to him as she truly was—a strong and beautiful woman—but he was never disturbed by the desire to get to know her. She offered nothing to attract a jaded man, yet he kept going back to the Circus, drawn by an unknown force and troubled by a feeling that was hard to describe.
Gradually, as he watched her, a fantastic idea seized him. Her graceful antics and arch feminine ways receded to the background of his mind, replaced by her power and strength which had for him all the charm of masculinity. Compared with her, Des Esseintes seemed to himself a frail, effeminate creature, and he began to desire her as ardently as an anæmic young girl might desire some loutish Hercules whose arms could crush her in a strong embrace.
Gradually, as he watched her, a brilliant idea took hold of him. Her graceful movements and playful feminine charm faded into the background of his mind, replaced by her power and strength which felt to him all the appeal of masculinity. Compared to her, Des Esseintes appeared to him a weak, delicate being, and he started to desire her as passionately as a frail young girl might crave some rugged Hercules whose arms could crush her in a powerful embrace.
One evening he finally decided to communicate with her and dispatched one of the attendants on this errand. Miss Urania deemed it necessary not to yield before a preliminary courtship; but she showed herself amenable, as it was common gossip that Des Esseintes was rich and that his name was instrumental in establishing women.
One evening, he finally decided to reach out to her and sent one of the attendants to do so. Miss Urania felt it was important not to give in without some initial courting; however, she was open to it since it was commonly said that Des Esseintes was wealthy and that his name was helpful for women’s status.
But as soon as his wishes were granted, his disappointment surpassed any he had yet experienced. He had persuaded himself that the American woman would be as bestial and stupid as a wrestler at a county fair, and instead her stupidity was of an altogether feminine nature. Certainly, she lacked education and tact, had neither good sense nor wit, and displayed an animal voracity at table, but she possessed all the childish traits of a woman. Her manner and speech were coquettish and affected, those of a silly, scandal-loving young girl. There was absolutely nothing masculine about her.
But as soon as his wishes were granted, his disappointment exceeded anything he had felt before. He had convinced himself that the American woman would be as crude and foolish as a wrestler at a county fair, but instead, her foolishness was distinctly feminine. Sure, she had no education or tact, lacked good sense and wit, and ate with an animal-like hunger, but she also had all the childish characteristics of a woman. Her behavior and speech were flirtatious and pretentious, like that of a shallow, gossip-loving young girl. There was absolutely nothing masculine about her.
Furthermore, she was withdrawn and puritanical in her embraces, displaying none of the brute force he had dreaded yet longed for, and she was subject to none of the perturbations of his sex.
Furthermore, she was reserved and strict in her embraces, showing none of the raw intensity he had feared yet desired, and she was unaffected by any of the anxieties related to his sexuality.
Des Esseintes inevitably returned to the masculine rôle he had momentarily abandoned.
Des Esseintes inevitably returned to the masculine role he had briefly set aside.
His impression of femininity, weakness, need of protection, of fear even, disappeared. The illusion was no longer possible! Miss Urania was an ordinary mistress, in no wise justifying the cerebral curiosity she had at first awakened in him.
His view of femininity, weakness, the need for protection, and even fear disappeared. The illusion was no longer feasible! Miss Urania was just an ordinary woman, in no way justifying the intellectual curiosity she had initially sparked in him.
Although the charm of her firm skin and magnificent beauty had at first astonished and captivated Des Esseintes, he lost no time in terminating this liaison, for his impotence was prematurely hastened by the frozen and prudish caresses of this woman.
Although the allure of her firm skin and stunning beauty initially amazed and captivated Des Esseintes, he quickly ended the affair, as his impotence was hastened by the cold and reserved touches of this woman.
And yet she was the first of all the women he had loved, now flitting through his revery, to stand out. But if she was more strongly imprinted on his memory than a host of others whose allurements had been less spurious and more seductive, the reason must be ascribed to her healthy animalism, to her exuberance which contrasted so strikingly with the perfumed anæmia of the others, a faint suggestion of which he found in the delicate Siraudin bonbon.
And yet she was the first woman he had truly loved, now dancing through his thoughts, to stand out. But if she was more vividly etched in his memory than many others whose charms had been less fake and more enticing, the reason had to do with her vibrant, earthy energy, her liveliness which stood in sharp contrast to the delicate frailty of the others, a subtle hint of which he found in the delicate Siraudin candy.
Miss Urania haunted him by reason of her very difference, but almost instantly, offended by the intrusion of this natural, crude aroma, the antithesis of the scented confection, Des Esseintes returned to more civilized exhalations and his thoughts reverted to his other mistresses. They pressed upon him in a throng; but above them all rose a woman whose startling talents had satisfied him for months.
Miss Urania intrigued him because she was so different, but almost immediately, put off by the overwhelming, raw scent—so unlike the sweet fragrances he preferred, Des Esseintes turned back to more refined aromas and his thoughts shifted to his other lovers. They crowded his mind; but above them all stood a woman whose impressive talents had pleased him for months.
She was a little, slender brunette, with black eyes and burnished hair parted on one side and sleeked down over her head. He had known her in a café where she gave ventriloqual performances.
She was a petite, slender brunette, with dark eyes and shiny hair parted to one side and slicked down over her head. He had met her in a café where she did ventriloquist performances.
Before the amazed patrons, she caused her tiny cardboard figures, placed near each other on chairs, to talk; she conversed with the animated mannikins while flies buzzed around the chandeliers. Then one heard the rustling of the tense audience, surprised to find itself seated and instinctively recoiling when they heard the rumbling of imaginary carriages.
Before the astonished audience, she made her tiny cardboard figures, set close together on chairs, come to life; she chatted with the animated dolls while flies buzzed around the chandeliers. Then the tense audience stirred, surprised to find themselves seated and instinctively pulling back when they heard the sound of imaginary carriages.
Des Esseintes had been fascinated. He lost no time in winning over the ventriloquist, tempting her with large sums of money. She delighted him by the very contrast she exhibited to the American woman. This brunette used strong perfumes and burned like a crater. Despite all her blandishments, Des Esseintes wearied of her in a few short hours. But this did not prevent him from letting himself be fleeced, for the phenomenon of the ventriloquist attracted him more than did the charms of the mistress.
Des Esseintes was intrigued. He quickly worked on impressing the ventriloquist, luring her in with generous amounts of money. She pleased him with the stark difference she showed compared to the American woman. This brunette wore strong perfumes and had an intense presence. Even with all her flattery, Des Esseintes grew tired of her in just a few hours. However, that didn’t stop him from being taken advantage of, as the spectacle of the ventriloquist fascinated him more than the allure of his companion.
Certain plans he had long pondered upon ripened, and he decided to bring them to fruition.
Certain plans he had been thinking about for a long time came together, and he decided to make them happen.
One evening he ordered a tiny sphinx brought in—a sphinx carved from black marble and resting in the classic pose with outstretched paws and erect head. He also purchased a chimera of polychrome clay; it brandished its mane of hair, and its sides resembled a pair of bellows. These two images he placed in a corner of the room. Then he extinguished the lamps, permitting the glowing embers to throw a dim light around the room and to magnify the objects which were almost immersed in gloom.
One evening, he had a small sphinx brought in—a sphinx made of black marble, posed classically with outstretched paws and an upright head. He also bought a chimera made of multicolored clay; it flaunted its mane, and its sides looked like a pair of bellows. He put these two figures in a corner of the room. Then he turned off the lamps, allowing the glowing embers to cast a soft light around the room and highlight the objects that were nearly lost in the darkness.
Then he stretched out on a couch beside the woman whose motionless figure was touched by the ember gleams, and waited.
Then he lay down on a couch next to the woman whose still figure was highlighted by the glowing embers, and waited.
With strange intonations that he had long and patiently taught her, she animated the two monsters; she did not even move her lips, she did not even glance in their direction.
With odd tones that he had taught her over a long period, she brought the two monsters to life; she didn't even move her lips or look in their direction.
And in the silence followed the marvelous dialogue of the Chimera and the Sphinx; it was recited in deep guttural tones which were at first raucous, then turned shrill and unearthly.
And in the silence, the amazing conversation between the Chimera and the Sphinx began; it was spoken in deep, guttural voices that started off rough, then became piercing and otherworldly.
"Here, Chimera, pause!"
"Wait, Chimera!"
"Never!"
"Not a chance!"
Lulled by the admirable prose of Flaubert, he listened; he panted and shivering sensations raced through his frame, when the Chimera uttered the magical and solemn phrase:
Lulled by the impressive writing of Flaubert, he listened; he gasped and shivering sensations raced through his body when the Chimera spoke the magical and solemn phrase:
"New perfumes I seek, stranger flowers I seek, pleasures not yet discovered."
"New scents I search for, unfamiliar blooms I look for, pleasures yet to be found."
Ah! it was to him that this voice, mysterious as an incantation, spoke; it was to him that this voice recounted her feverish agitation for the unknown, her insatiable ideals, her imperative need to escape from the horrible reality of existence, to leap beyond the confines of thought, to grope towards the mists of elusive, unattainable art. The poignant tragedy of his past failures rent his heart. Gently he clasped the silent woman at his side, he sought refuge in her nearness, like a child who is inconsolable; he was blind to the sulkiness of the comedienne obliged to perform off-scene, in her leisure moments, far from the spotlight.
Ah! It was to him that this mysterious voice, like a spell, spoke; it was to him that this voice shared her intense restlessness for the unknown, her endless ideals, her urgent need to escape the harsh reality of life, to break free from the limits of thought, to reach for the fog of elusive, unattainable art. The painful tragedy of his past failures tore at his heart. Gently, he held the silent woman beside him, seeking comfort in her closeness, like a child who cannot be comforted; he was oblivious to the sulkiness of the comedienne forced to perform off-stage, in her free time, far from the spotlight.
Their liaison continued, but his spells of exhaustion soon became acute. His brain no longer sufficed to stimulate his benumbed body. No longer did his nerves obey his will; and now the crazy whims of dotards dominated him. Terrified by the approach of a disastrous weakness in the presence of his mistress, he resorted to fear—that oldest, most efficacious of excitants.
Their relationship went on, but his bouts of fatigue quickly became intense. His mind could no longer energize his numbed body. His nerves no longer listened to his commands, and now the irrational whims of old age took over. Frightened by the looming threat of weakness around his partner, he turned to fear—that oldest, most powerful stimulant.
A hoarse voice from behind the door would exclaim, while he held the woman in his arms: "Open the door, woman, I know you're in there, and with whom. Just wait, wait!" Instantly, like a libertine stirred by fear of discovery in the open, he recovered his strength and hurled himself madly upon the ventriloquist whose voice continued to bluster outside the room. In this wise he experienced the pleasures of a panic-stricken person.
A hoarse voice from behind the door shouted while he held the woman in his arms: "Open the door, I know you're in there, and I know who you’re with. Just wait, wait!" Right away, like someone terrified of being caught, he regained his strength and threw himself wildly at the ventriloquist whose voice kept blustering outside the room. In this way, he felt the thrill of someone in a panic.
But this state, unfortunately, did not last long, and despite the sums he paid her, the ventriloquist parted to offer herself to someone less exigent and less complex.
But this situation, unfortunately, didn't last long, and despite the amounts he gave her, the ventriloquist moved on to offer herself to someone less demanding and less complicated.
He had regretted her defection, and now, recalling her, the other women seemed insipid, their childish graces and monotonous coquetry disgusting him.
He regretted her leaving, and now, thinking about her, the other women felt bland, their childish charms and repetitive flirting repulsing him.
In the ferment of his disordered brain, he delighted in mingling with these recollections of his past, other more gloomy pleasures, as theology qualifies the evocation of past, disgraceful acts. With the physical visions he mingled spiritual ardors brought into play and motivated by his old readings of the casuists, of the Busembaums and the Dianas, of the Liguoris and the Sanchezes, treating of transgressions against the sixth and ninth commandments of the Decalogue.
In the chaos of his troubled mind, he found pleasure in mixing his memories of the past with darker joys, as theology defines the recalling of shameful acts. Along with physical visions, he combined spiritual passions triggered by his old readings of the casuists, Busembaum, Dianas, Liguoris, and Sanchezes, discussing violations of the sixth and ninth commandments of the Decalogue.
In awakening an almost divine ideal in this soul steeped in her precepts—a soul possibly predisposed to the teachings of the Church through hereditary influences dating back from the reign of Henry III, religion had also stirred the illegitimate, forbidden enjoyment of the senses. Licentious and mystical obsessions haunted his brain, they mingled confusedly, and he would often be troubled by an unappeasable desire to shun the vulgarities of the world and to plunge, far from the customs and modes held in such reverence, into convulsions and raptures which were holy or infernal and which, in either case, proved too exhausting and enervating.
In awakening a nearly divine ideal in this soul deeply influenced by her beliefs—a soul perhaps inclined towards the Church's teachings due to family traditions from the time of Henry III—religion also stirred the forbidden, illicit pleasures of the senses. Licentious and mystical obsessions tormented his mind, they mixed chaotically, and he often felt an insatiable urge to escape the vulgarities of the world and immerse himself, far from the customs and values held in such high regard, into convulsions and ecstasies that were either sacred or damning and which, in either case, proved to be too exhausting and draining.
He would arise prostrate from such reveries, fatigued and all but lifeless. He would light the lamps and candles so as to flood the room with light, for he hoped that by so doing he might possibly diminish the intolerably persistent and dull throbbing of his arteries which beat under his neck with redoubled strokes.
He would get up feeling exhausted and nearly lifeless from those daydreams. He would turn on the lamps and candles to brighten the room because he hoped that doing so might ease the unrelenting and dull pounding of his arteries that beat under his neck even harder.
Chapter 10
During the course of this malady which attacks impoverished races, sudden calms succeed an attack. Strangely enough, Des Esseintes awoke one morning recovered; no longer was he tormented by the throbbing of his neck or by his racking cough. Instead, he had an ineffable sensation of contentment, a lightness of mind in which thought was sparklingly clear, turning from a turbid, opaque, green color to a liquid iridescence magical with tender rainbow tints.
During the course of this illness that affects marginalized groups, sudden calm follows an episode. Strangely, Des Esseintes woke up one morning feeling better; he was no longer plagued by the throbbing in his neck or the persistent cough. Instead, he experienced an indescribable sense of happiness, a lightness in his mind where thoughts were crystal clear, shifting from a murky, dull green to a shimmering liquid filled with soft rainbow hues.
This lasted several days. Then hallucinations of odor suddenly appeared.
This went on for several days. Then, out of nowhere, hallucinations involving smells started to occur.
His room was aromatic with the fragrance of frangipane; he tried to ascertain if a bottle were not uncorked—no! not a bottle was to be found in the room, and he passed into his study and thence to the kitchen. Still the odor persisted.
His room smelled sweet like frangipane; he tried to figure out if a bottle was uncorked—no! There wasn’t a single bottle in the room, so he went into his study and then to the kitchen. Still, the scent lingered.
Des Esseintes rang for his servant and asked if he smelled anything. The domestic sniffed the air and declared he could not detect any perfume. There was no doubt about it: his nervous attacks had returned again, under the appearance of a new illusion of the senses.
Des Esseintes called for his servant and asked if he smelled anything. The servant sniffed the air and said he couldn't smell any perfume. There was no doubt about it: his anxiety attacks had come back again, manifesting as a new sensory illusion.
Fatigued by the tenacity of this imaginary aroma, he resolved to steep himself in real perfumes, hoping that this homeopathic treatment would cure him or would at least drown the persistent odor.
Tired of the persistence of this imaginary scent, he decided to immerse himself in real perfumes, hoping that this homeopathic approach would either cure him or at least overpower the nagging smell.
He betook himself to his dressing room. There, near an old baptistery which he used as a wash basin, under a long mirror of forged iron, which, like the edge of a well silvered by the moon, confined the green dull surface of the mirror, were bottles of every conceivable size and form, placed on ivory shelves.
He went to his dressing room. There, beside an old baptismal font he used as a washbasin, beneath a long mirror made of wrought iron, which, like the edge of a well reflecting the moon, framed the green, dull surface of the mirror, were bottles of every imaginable size and shape, arranged on ivory shelves.
He set them on the table and divided them into two series: one of the simple perfumes, pure extracts or spirits, the other of compound perfumes, designated under the generic term of bouquets.
He placed them on the table and split them into two groups: one of simple perfumes, pure extracts or essences, and the other of compound perfumes, referred to by the general term bouquets.
He sank into an easy chair and meditated.
He sank into a comfy chair and thought for a while.
He had long been skilled in the science of smell. He believed that this sense could give one delights equal to those of hearing and sight; each sense being susceptible, if naturally keen and if properly cultivated, to new impressions, which it could intensify, coordinate and compose into that unity which constitutes a creative work. And it was not more abnormal and unnatural that an art should be called into existence by disengaging odors than that another art should be evoked by detaching sound waves or by striking the eye with diversely colored rays. But if no person could discern, without intuition developed by study, a painting by a master from a daub, a melody of Beethoven from one by Clapisson, no more could any one at first, without preliminary initiation, help confusing a bouquet invented by a sincere artist with a pot pourri made by some manufacturer to be sold in groceries and bazaars.
He had long been skilled in the science of smell. He believed that this sense could provide pleasures equal to those of hearing and sight; each sense, if naturally sharp and properly trained, could receive new impressions, which it could amplify, coordinate, and combine into that unity that makes up a creative work. It was no more strange or unnatural for an art to be created through fragrances than for another art to emerge from sound waves or by striking the eye with different colored rays. However, just as no one could tell, without intuition developed through study, a painting by a master from a mere smudge, or a melody by Beethoven from one by Clapisson, no one could initially, without prior knowledge, avoid confusing a bouquet crafted by a genuine artist with a potpourri made by a manufacturer to be sold in stores and markets.
In this art, the branch devoted to achieving certain effects by artificial methods particularly delighted him.
In this art, the part focused on achieving specific effects through artificial methods particularly fascinated him.
Perfumes, in fact, rarely come from the flowers whose names they bear. The artist who dared to borrow nature's elements would only produce a bastard work which would have neither authenticity nor style, inasmuch as the essence obtained by the distillation of flowers would bear but a distant and vulgar relation to the odor of the living flower, wafting its fragrance into the air.
Perfumes usually don't come from the flowers they’re named after. An artist who tries to take from nature would end up creating something lacking in authenticity and style, because the essence extracted from flowers would only faintly and poorly resemble the scent of the actual living flower that releases its fragrance into the air.
Thus, with the exception of the inimitable jasmine which it is impossible to counterfeit, all flowers are perfectly represented by the blend of aromatic spirits, stealing the very personality of the model, and to it adding that nuance the more, that heady scent, that rare touch which entitled a thing to be called a work of art.
Thus, except for the unique jasmine that can't be replicated, all flowers are accurately represented by a mix of fragrant essences, capturing the true essence of the original and adding that extra nuance, that intoxicating fragrance, that special quality that makes something worthy of being called a work of art.
To resume, in the science of perfumery, the artist develops the natural odor of the flowers, working over his subject like a jeweler refining the lustre of a gem and making it precious.
To sum up, in the art of perfume making, the creator enhances the natural scent of flowers, crafting their work like a jeweler polishing the brilliance of a gem and turning it into something valuable.
Little by little, the arcana of this art, most neglected of all, was revealed to Des Esseintes who could now read this language, as diversified and insinuating as that of literature, this style with its unexpected concision under its vague flowing appearance.
Little by little, the secrets of this art, the most overlooked of all, were revealed to Des Esseintes, who could now understand this language, as varied and intricate as that of literature, this style with its surprising brevity beneath its vague, flowing appearance.
To achieve this end he had first been compelled to master the grammar and understand the syntax of odors, learning the secret of the rules that regulate them, and, once familiarized with the dialect, he compared the works of the masters, of the Atkinsons and Lubins, the Chardins and Violets, the Legrands and Piesses; then he separated the construction of their phrases, weighed the value of their words and the arrangement of their periods.
To reach this goal, he first had to learn the grammar and understand the structure of smells, figuring out the rules that control them. Once he got the hang of the language, he compared the work of the masters—Atkinsons and Lubins, Chardins and Violets, Legrands and Piesses. Then, he broke down how they constructed their phrases, assessed the value of their words, and analyzed the way they organized their sentences.
Later on, in this idiom of fluids, experience was able to support theories too often incomplete and banal.
Later on, in this fluid language, experience was able to back up theories that were too often incomplete and dull.
Classic perfumery, in fact, was scarcely diversified, almost colorless and uniformly issuing from the mold cast by the ancient chemists. It was in its dotage, confined to its old alambics, when the romantic period was born and had modified the old style, rejuvenating it, making it more supple and malleable.
Classic perfumery was really not very diverse, almost bland, and uniformly produced from the mold created by ancient chemists. It was in decline, stuck in its old stills, when the romantic period emerged and changed the traditional style, refreshing it, making it more flexible and adaptable.
Step by step, its history followed that of our language. The perfumed Louis XIII style, composed of elements highly prized at that time, of iris powder, musk, chive and myrtle water already designated under the name of "water of the angels," was hardly sufficient to express the cavalier graces, the rather crude tones of the period which certain sonnets of Saint-Amand have preserved for us. Later, with myrrh and olibanum, the mystic odors, austere and powerful, the pompous gesture of the great period, the redundant artifices of oratorial art, the full, sustained harmonious style of Bossuet and the masters of the pulpit were almost possible. Still later, the sophisticated, rather bored graces of French society under Louis XV, more easily found their interpretation in the almond which in a manner summed up this epoch; then, after the ennui and jadedness of the first empire, which misused Eau de Cologne and rosemary, perfumery rushed, in the wake of Victor Hugo and Gautier, towards the Levant. It created oriental combinations, vivid Eastern nosegays, discovered new intonations, antitheses which until then had been unattempted, selected and made use of antique nuances which it complicated, refined and assorted. It resolutely rejected that voluntary decrepitude to which it had been reduced by the Malesherbes, the Boileaus, the Andrieuxes and the Baour-Lormians, wretched distillers of their own poems.
Step by step, its history mirrored that of our language. The fragrant Louis XIII style, made up of elements highly valued at that time, like iris powder, musk, chive, and myrtle water—already referred to as "water of the angels"—was hardly enough to convey the charming yet somewhat raw tones of the era, which certain sonnets by Saint-Amand have captured for us. Later on, with myrrh and frankincense, the mystical, austere, and powerful scents, along with the grand gestures of the great period, the elaborate techniques of oratory, and the rich, flowing style of Bossuet and the pulpit masters became nearly achievable. Even later, the refined, somewhat bored elegance of French society under Louis XV found its expression more easily in the almond scent, which somewhat summarized that era; then, after the boredom and weariness of the first empire, which misused Eau de Cologne and rosemary, perfumery surged, following in the footsteps of Victor Hugo and Gautier, towards the Levant. It crafted oriental blends, vibrant Eastern bouquets, uncovered new tones and contrasts that had never been attempted before, and selected and utilized ancient nuances, complicating, refining, and arranging them. It boldly rejected the artificial decay to which it had been subjected by the Malesherbes, the Boileaus, the Andrieuxs, and the Baour-Lormians, the pitiful distillers of their own works.
But this language had not remained stationery since the period of 1830. It had continued to evolve and, patterning itself on the progress of the century, had advanced parallel with the other arts. It, too, had yielded to the desires of amateurs and artists, receiving its inspiration from the Chinese and Japanese, conceiving fragrant albums, imitating the Takeoka bouquets of flowers, obtaining the odor of Rondeletia from the blend of lavender and clove; the peculiar aroma of Chinese ink from the marriage of patchouli and camphor; the emanation of Japanese Hovenia by compounds of citron, clove and neroli.
But this language hasn't stayed the same since 1830. It has continued to evolve and, reflecting the progress of the century, has moved forward alongside other arts. It has also responded to the wishes of amateurs and artists, drawing inspiration from the Chinese and Japanese, creating fragrant albums, mimicking the Takeoka flower arrangements, capturing the scent of Rondeletia through a blend of lavender and clove; the unique fragrance of Chinese ink through a combination of patchouli and camphor; and the aroma of Japanese Hovenia through mixtures of citron, clove, and neroli.
Des Esseintes studied and analyzed the essences of these fluids, experimenting to corroborate their texts. He took pleasure in playing the rôle of a psychologist for his personal satisfaction, in taking apart and re-assembling the machinery of a work, in separating the pieces forming the structure of a compound exhalation, and his sense of smell had thereby attained a sureness that was all but perfect.
Des Esseintes examined and analyzed the essences of these fluids, experimenting to verify their texts. He enjoyed taking on the role of a psychologist for his own amusement, dismantling and reassembling the machinery of a work, breaking down the components that made up a complex exhalation, and as a result, his sense of smell had become almost perfectly refined.
Just as a wine merchant has only to smell a drop of wine to recognize the grape, as a hop dealer determines the exact value of hops by sniffing a bag, as a Chinese trader can immediately tell the origin of the teas he smells, knowing in what farms of what mountains, in what Buddhistic convents it was cultivated, the very time when its leaves were gathered, the state and the degree of torrefaction, the effect upon it of its proximity to the plum-tree and other flowers, to all those perfumes which change its essence, adding to it an unexpected touch and introducing into its dryish flavor a hint of distant fresh flowers; just so could Des Esseintes, by inhaling a dash of perfume, instantly explain its mixture and the psychology of its blend, and could almost give the name of the artist who had composed and given it the personal mark of his individual style.
Just like a wine merchant can identify a grape just by smelling a drop of wine, and a hop dealer can assess the value of hops by sniffing a bag, and a Chinese trader can instantly recognize the origin of the teas he smells—knowing which farms and mountains they come from, in which Buddhist monasteries they were grown, when their leaves were picked, how they were processed, and how the nearby plum trees and other flowers influence their scent, adding unexpected notes and a hint of fresh flowers to their somewhat dry flavor—Des Esseintes could, by inhaling a bit of perfume, quickly analyze its composition and the psychology behind its blend, and could almost identify the artist who crafted it, marking it with his unique style.
Naturally he had a collection of all the products used by perfumers. He even had the real Mecca balm, that rare balm cultivated only in certain parts of Arabia Petraea and under the monopoly of the ruler.
Naturally, he had a collection of all the products used by perfumers. He even had the authentic Mecca balm, that rare balm produced only in certain parts of Arabia Petraea and controlled by the ruler.
Now, seated in his dressing room in front of his table, he thought of creating a new bouquet; and he was overcome by that moment of wavering confidence familiar to writers when, after months of inaction, they prepare for a new work.
Now, sitting in his dressing room in front of his table, he thought about creating a new bouquet; and he was filled with that familiar moment of uncertainty that writers experience when, after months of doing nothing, they get ready to start on a new project.
Like Balzac who was wont to scribble on many sheets of paper so as to put himself in a mood for work, Des Esseintes felt the necessity of steadying his hand by several initial and unimportant experiments. Desiring to create heliotrope, he took down bottles of vanilla and almond, then changed his idea and decided to experiment with sweet peas.
Like Balzac, who used to write on many sheets of paper to get himself in the right mood for work, Des Esseintes felt the need to steady his hand with a few small and unimportant experiments. Wanting to create heliotrope, he grabbed bottles of vanilla and almond, then changed his mind and decided to try sweet peas instead.
He groped for a long time, unable to effect the proper combinations, for orange is dominant in the fragrance of this flower. He attempted several combinations and ended in achieving the exact blend by joining tuberose and rose to orange, the whole united by a drop of vanilla.
He fumbled for a while, unable to get the right combinations, since orange is the dominant scent of this flower. He tried several combinations and finally got the perfect blend by mixing tuberose and rose with orange, all tied together with a drop of vanilla.
His hesitation disappeared. He felt alert and ready for work; now he made some tea by blending cassie with iris, then, sure of his technique, he decided to proceed with a fulminating phrase whose thunderous roar would annihilate the insidious odor of almond still hovering over his room.
His hesitation vanished. He felt awake and ready to work; he made some tea by mixing cassia with iris, then, confident in his method, he decided to go ahead with a powerful phrase whose thunderous impact would wipe out the annoying smell of almond still lingering in his room.
He worked with amber and with Tonkin musk, marvelously powerful; with patchouli, the most poignant of vegetable perfumes whose flower, in its habitat, wafts an odor of mildew. Try what he would, the eighteenth century obsessed him; the panier robes and furbelows appeared before his eyes; memories of Boucher's Venus haunted him; recollections of Themidor's romance, of the exquisite Rosette pursued him. Furious, he rose and to rid himself of the obsession, with all his strength he inhaled that pure essence of spikenard, so dear to Orientals and so repulsive to Europeans because of its pronounced odor of valerian. He was stunned by the violence of the shock. As though pounded by hammer strokes, the filigranes of the delicate odor disappeared; he profited by the period of respite to escape the dead centuries, the antiquated fumes, and to enter, as he formerly had done, less limited or more recent works.
He worked with amber and Tonkin musk, which were incredibly powerful; with patchouli, the most intense of plant-based perfumes, whose flower, in its natural environment, has a musty smell. No matter what he did, he was haunted by the eighteenth century; the panier dresses and frills appeared before him; memories of Boucher's Venus lingered in his mind; recollections of Themidor's romance and the exquisite Rosette chased him. Frustrated, he stood up and, to free himself from the obsession, inhaled deeply the pure essence of spikenard, so cherished by Easterners and so off-putting to Europeans because of its strong valerian scent. He was taken aback by the intensity of the shock. As if struck by hammer blows, the intricate layers of the delicate scent vanished; he took advantage of the brief moment of relief to escape the dead centuries, the outdated smells, and to dive back into, as he had done before, less restrictive or more recent works.
He had of old loved to lull himself with perfumes. He used effects analogous to those of the poets, and employed the admirable order of certain pieces of Baudelaire, such as Irreparable and le Balcon, where the last of the five lines composing the strophe is the echo of the first verse and returns, like a refrain, to steep the soul in infinite depths of melancholy and languor.
He used to love surrounding himself with scents. He applied techniques similar to those of poets and made use of the brilliant structure of certain pieces by Baudelaire, like Irreparable and the Balcony, where the last of the five lines in the stanza mirrors the first line and returns, like a refrain, to immerse the soul in endless depths of sadness and relaxation.
He strayed into reveries evoked by those aromatic stanzas, suddenly brought to his point of departure, to the motive of his meditation, by the return of the initial theme, reappearing, at stated intervals, in the fragrant orchestration of the poem.
He drifted into daydreams inspired by those fragrant lines, suddenly brought back to where he started, to the reason for his thoughts, by the return of the original theme, reappearing at regular intervals in the sweet melody of the poem.
He actually wished to saunter through an astonishing, diversified landscape, and he began with a sonorous, ample phrase that suddenly opened a long vista of fields for him.
He really wanted to wander through a stunning, varied landscape, so he started with a rich, broad phrase that suddenly revealed a long view of fields ahead of him.
With his vaporizers, he injected an essence formed of ambrosia, lavender and sweet peas into this room; this formed an essence which, when distilled by an artist, deserves the name by which it is known: "extract of wild grass"; into this he introduced an exact blend of tuberose, orange flower and almond, and forthwith artificial lilacs sprang into being, while the linden-trees rustled, their thin emanations, imitated by extract of London tilia, drooping earthward.
With his vaporizers, he filled the room with a blend of ambrosia, lavender, and sweet peas; this created a fragrance that, when crafted by an artist, deserves the title it holds: "wild grass extract." He added a precise mix of tuberose, orange blossom, and almond, and instantly, artificial lilacs appeared, while the linden trees rustled, their subtle scents, mimicked by London linden extract, gently drifting downward.
Into this décor, arranged with a few broad lines, receding as far as the eye could reach, under his closed lids, he introduced a light rain of human and half feline essences, possessing the aroma of petticoats, breathing of the powdered, painted woman, the stephanotis, ayapana, opopanax, champaka, sarcanthus and cypress wine, to which he added a dash of syringa, in order to give to the artificial life of paints which they exhaled, a suggestion of natural dewy laughter and pleasures enjoyed in the open air.
Into this décor, laid out with a few broad lines, stretching as far as the eye could see beneath his closed lids, he infused a gentle rain of human and partly feline scents, carrying the fragrance of petticoats, reminiscent of the powdered, made-up woman, along with stephanotis, ayapana, opopanax, champaka, sarcanthus, and cypress wine. He topped it off with a hint of syringa to give the artificial essence of colors they released a touch of natural, fresh laughter and pleasures experienced outdoors.
Then, through a ventilator, he permitted these fragrant waves to escape, only preserving the field which he renewed, compelling it to return in his strophes like a ritornello.
Then, through a vent, he let these fragrant waves flow out, only keeping the field that he refreshed, forcing it to come back in his verses like a refrain.
The women had gradually disappeared. Now the plain had grown solitary. Suddenly, on the enchanted horizon, factories appeared whose tall chimneys flared like bowls of punch.
The women had slowly vanished. Now the plain felt empty. Suddenly, on the magical horizon, factories showed up with their tall chimneys blazing like bowls of punch.
The odor of factories and of chemical products now passed with the breeze which was simulated by means of fans; nature exhaled its sweet effluvia amid this putrescence.
The smell of factories and chemicals drifted with the breeze created by fans; nature released its pleasant scents amid this decay.
Des Esseintes warmed a pellet of storax, and a singular odor, at once repugnant and exquisite, pervaded the room. It partook of the delicious fragrance of jonquil and of the stench of gutta percha and coal oil. He disinfected his hands, inserted his resin in a hermetically sealed box, and the factories disappeared.
Des Esseintes warmed a piece of storax, and a unique smell, both off-putting and delightful, filled the room. It combined the beautiful scent of jonquil with the unpleasant odor of gutta percha and coal oil. He disinfected his hands, placed the resin in an airtight box, and the factories vanished.
Then, among the revived vapors of the lindens and meadow grass, he threw several drops of new mown hay, and, amid this magic site for the moment despoiled of its lilacs, sheaves of hay were piled up, introducing a new season and scattering their fine effluence into these summer odors.
Then, among the fresh scents of the linden trees and meadow grass, he added a few drops of freshly cut hay, and in this magical place, momentarily stripped of its lilacs, piles of hay were stacked up, bringing in a new season and spreading their delicate fragrance into the summer air.
At last, when he had sufficiently enjoyed this sight, he suddenly scattered the exotic perfumes, emptied his vaporizers, threw in his concentrated spirits, poured his balms, and, in the exasperated and stifling heat of the room there rose a crazy sublimated nature, a paradoxical nature which was neither genuine nor charming, reuniting the tropical spices and the peppery breath of Chinese sandal wood and Jamaica hediosmia with the French odors of jasmine, hawthorn and verbena. Regardless of seasons and climates he forced trees of diverse essences into life, and flowers with conflicting fragrances and colors. By the clash of these tones he created a general, nondescript, unexpected, strange perfume in which reappeared, like an obstinate refrain, the decorative phrase of the beginning, the odor of the meadows fanned by the lilacs and lindens.
At last, when he had fully taken in this view, he suddenly scattered the exotic perfumes, emptied his vaporizers, added his concentrated spirits, poured in his balms, and in the stifling heat of the room, there rose a wild, transformed essence—a confusing mix that was neither genuine nor appealing—bringing together tropical spices and the spicy scent of Chinese sandalwood and Jamaican hediosmia with the French fragrances of jasmine, hawthorn, and verbena. Ignoring seasons and climates, he forced trees of different essences to come alive, along with flowers that had conflicting scents and colors. The clash of these aromas created a general, indistinct, unexpected, strange fragrance that echoed, like a stubborn refrain, the original scent of meadows stirred by lilacs and linden trees.
Suddenly a poignant pain seized him; he felt as though wimbles were drilling into his temples. Opening his eyes he found himself in his dressing room, seated in front of his table. Stupefied, he painfully walked across the room to the window which he half opened. A puff of wind dispelled the stifling atmosphere which was enveloping him. To exercise his limbs, he walked up and down gazing at the ceiling where crabs and sea-wrack stood out in relief against a background as light in color as the sands of the seashore. A similar décor covered the plinths and bordered the partitions which were covered with Japanese sea-green crêpe, slightly wrinkled, imitating a river rippled by the wind. In this light current swam a rose petal, around which circled a school of tiny fish painted with two strokes of the brush.
Suddenly, a sharp pain hit him; it felt like something was drilling into his temples. When he opened his eyes, he found himself in his dressing room, sitting in front of his table. Confused, he walked painfully across the room to the window and opened it halfway. A breeze blew in, clearing the stuffy air that surrounded him. To get his muscles moving, he walked back and forth, looking up at the ceiling where crabs and seaweed stood out against a background as light as the sand at the beach. The same decor covered the bases and framed the walls, which were draped in Japanese sea-green crêpe that was slightly wrinkled, mimicking a river ruffled by the wind. In this gentle current, a rose petal floated, surrounded by a school of tiny fish that had been painted with just two brush strokes.
But his eyelids remained heavy. He ceased to pace about the short space between the baptistery and the bath; he leaned against the window. His dizziness ended. He carefully stopped up the vials, and used the occasion to arrange his cosmetics. Since his arrival at Fontenay he had not touched them; and now was quite astonished to behold once more this collection formerly visited by so many women. The flasks and jars were lying heaped up against each other. Here, a porcelain box contained a marvelous white cream which, when applied on the cheeks, turns to a tender rose color, under the action of the air—to such a true flesh-color that it procures the very illusion of a skin touched with blood; there, lacquer objects incrusted with mother of pearl enclosed Japanese gold and Athenian green, the color of the cantharis wing, gold and green which change to deep purple when wetted; there were jars filled with filbert paste, the serkis of the harem, emulsions of lilies, lotions of strawberry water and elders for the complexion, and tiny bottles filled with solutions of Chinese ink and rose water for the eyes. There were tweezers, scissors, rouge and powder-puffs, files and beauty patches.
But his eyelids felt heavy. He stopped pacing between the baptistery and the bath and leaned against the window. His dizziness was gone. He carefully capped the vials and took the chance to organize his cosmetics. Since arriving in Fontenay, he hadn't used them and was now surprised to see this collection that had once been frequented by so many women. The flasks and jars were piled together. Here, a porcelain box held a fantastic white cream that, when applied to the cheeks, turns a soft rose color in the air—so realistic that it gives the illusion of skin with a hint of blood; there, lacquered items inlayed with mother of pearl contained Japanese gold and Athenian green, the same color as a beetle's wing, gold and green that shift to a deep purple when wet; there were jars filled with hazelnut paste, the harem’s favorite, emulsions of lilies, lotions of strawberry water and elderflower for the complexion, and tiny bottles of Chinese ink and rose water for the eyes. There were tweezers, scissors, blush and powder puffs, files, and beauty patches.
He handled this collection, formerly bought to please a mistress who swooned under the influence of certain aromatics and balms,—a nervous, unbalanced woman who loved to steep the nipples of her breasts in perfumes, but who never really experienced a delicious and overwhelming ecstacy save when her head was scraped with a comb or when she could inhale, amid caresses, the odor of perspiration, or the plaster of unfinished houses on rainy days, or of dust splashed by huge drops of rain during summer storms.
He took care of this collection, which was originally purchased to impress a mistress who fainted from certain scents and oils—a nervous, unstable woman who loved to soak her breasts in perfume, yet never truly felt a deep and overwhelming pleasure except when her scalp was brushed with a comb or when she could breathe in, during moments of intimacy, the smell of sweat, the dampness of unfinished buildings on rainy days, or the dust that rose when heavy raindrops splashed during summer storms.
He mused over these memories, and one afternoon spent at Pantin through idleness and curiosity, in company with this woman at the home of one of her sisters, returned to him, stirring in him a forgotten world of old ideas and perfumes; while the two women prattled and displayed their gowns, he had drawn near the window and had seen, through the dusty panes, the muddy street sprawling before him, and had heard the repeated sounds of galoches over the puddles of the pavement.
He recalled those memories, and one afternoon spent at Pantin in laziness and curiosity, with this woman at her sister's house, came back to him, awakening a long-lost world of old thoughts and scents; while the two women chatted and showed off their dresses, he had moved closer to the window and had seen, through the dusty glass, the muddy street stretching out in front of him, and had heard the constant sound of galoshes splashing in the puddles on the pavement.
This scene, already far removed, came to him suddenly, strangely and vividly. Pantin was there before him, animated and throbbing in this greenish and dull mirror into which his unseeing eyes plunged. A hallucination transported him far from Fontenay. Beside reflecting the street, the mirror brought back thoughts it had once been instrumental in evoking, and plunged in revery, he repeated to himself this ingenious, sad and comforting composition he had formerly written upon returning to Paris:
This scene, now distant, came to him suddenly, strangely, and vividly. Pantin was right in front of him, alive and pulsating in this greenish and dull mirror that his unseeing eyes gazed into. A hallucination took him far away from Fontenay. In addition to reflecting the street, the mirror brought back memories it had once helped awaken, and lost in thought, he repeated to himself this clever, melancholic, and comforting piece he had written after returning to Paris:
"Yes, the season of downpours is come. Now behold water-spouts vomiting as they rush over the pavements, and rubbish marinates in puddles that fill the holes scooped out of the macadam.
"Yes, the rainy season has arrived. Look at the water spouts gushing as they rush over the sidewalks, and trash soaking in the puddles that fill the holes dug out of the asphalt."
"Under a lowering sky, in the damp air, the walls of houses have black perspiration and their air-holes are fetid; the loathsomeness of existence increases and melancholy overwhelms one; the seeds of vileness which each person harbors in his soul, sprout. The craving for vile debaucheries seizes austere people and base desires grow rampant in the brains of respectable men.
"Under a darkening sky, in the humid air, the walls of houses are sweating black stains and their vents smell terrible; the unpleasantness of life grows stronger and sadness weighs heavily on one; the seeds of evil that everyone carries in their soul begin to sprout. The desire for disgusting excesses grips serious people and lowly desires spread wildly in the minds of respectable men."
"And yet I warm myself, here before a cheerful fire. From a basket of blossoming flowers comes the aroma of balsamic benzoin, geranium and the whorl-flowered bent-grass which permeates the room. In the very month of November, at Pantin, in the rue de Paris, springtime persists. Here in my solitude I laugh at the fears of families which, to shun the approaching cold weather, escape on every steamer to Cannes and to other winter resorts.
"And yet I find warmth here in front of a cozy fire. The scent of balsamic benzoin, geranium, and the spiraled flowers of bent-grass fills the room from a basket of blooming flowers. Even in November, at Pantin, on the rue de Paris, it feels like spring. Here in my solitude, I laugh at the worries of families who, trying to avoid the coming cold, flee to every steamer heading to Cannes Film Festival and other winter getaways."
"Inclement nature does nothing to contribute to this extraordinary phenomenon. It must be said that his artificial season at Pantin is the result of man's ingenuity.
"Bad weather doesn't help this amazing phenomenon. It's worth noting that his created season at Pantin is a product of human creativity."
"In fact, these flowers are made of taffeta and are mounted on wire. The springtime odor filters through the window joints, exhaled from the neighboring factories, from the perfumeries of Pinaud and Saint James.
"In fact, these flowers are made of taffeta and are attached to wire. The scent of spring wafts through the window joints, carried from the nearby factories, from the perfumeries of Pinaud and Saint James."
"For the workmen exhausted by the hard labors of the plants, for the young employes who too often are fathers, the illusion of a little healthy air is possible, thanks to these manufacturers.
"For the workers worn out by the tough jobs at the factories, for the young employees who are often fathers, the chance for a bit of fresh air is made possible by these manufacturers."
"So, from this fabulous subterfuge of a country can an intelligent cure arise. The consumptive men about town who are sent to the South die, their end due to the change in their habits and to the nostalgia for the Parisian excesses which destroyed them. Here, under an artificial climate, libertine memories will reappear, the languishing feminine emanations evaporated by the factories. Instead of the deadly ennui of provincial life, the doctor can thus platonically substitute for his patient the atmosphere of the Parisian women and of boudoirs. Most often, all that is necessary to effect the cure is for the subject to have a somewhat fertile imagination.
"So, from this amazing deception of a country can a smart cure emerge. The sick men in town who are sent to the South often die, their end linked to changes in their habits and the longing for the Parisian indulgences that brought them down. Here, in a man-made climate, seductive memories will come rushing back, the enticing feminine allure lost to the factories. Instead of the dullness of country life, the doctor can provide his patient with the atmosphere of Parisian women and their intimate spaces. Often, all that’s needed for recovery is for the person to have a somewhat vivid imagination."
"Since, nowadays, nothing genuine exists, since the wine one drinks and the liberty one boldly proclaims are laughable and a sham, since it really needs a healthy dose of good will to believe that the governing classes are respectable and that the lower classes are worthy of being assisted or pitied, it seems to me," concluded Des Esseintes, "to be neither ridiculous nor senseless, to ask of my fellow men a quantity of illusion barely equivalent to what they spend daily in idiotic ends, so as to be able to convince themselves that the town of Pantin is an artificial Nice or a Menton.
"Since nowadays nothing real exists, since the wine we drink and the freedom we claim are laughable and fake, since it really takes a strong leap of faith to believe that those in power are respectable and that the less fortunate deserve help or sympathy, it seems to me," concluded Des Esseintes, "that it's neither ridiculous nor foolish to ask my fellow humans for a bit of illusion, roughly equivalent to what they waste every day on pointless things, just to convince themselves that the town of Pantin is an imitation of Cool or Menton.
"But all this does not prevent me from seeing," he said, forced by weakness from his meditations, "that I must be careful to mistrust these delicious and abominable practices which may ruin my constitution." He sighed. "Well, well, more pleasures to moderate, more precautions to be taken."
"But all this doesn't stop me from noticing," he said, pulled from his thoughts by weakness, "that I need to be cautious about these tempting yet harmful habits that could wreck my health." He sighed. "Well, more pleasures to keep in check, more precautions to consider."
And he passed into his study, hoping the more easily to escape the spell of these perfumes.
And he went into his study, hoping to more easily escape the hold of these fragrances.
He opened the window wide, glad to be able to breath the air. But it suddenly seemed to him that the breeze brought in a vague tide of bergamot with which jasmine and rose water were blent. Agitated, he asked himself whether he was not really under the yoke of one of those possessions exercised in the Middle Ages. The odor changed and was transformed, but it persisted. A faint scent of tincture of tolu, of balm of Peru and of saffron, united by several drams of amber and musk, now issued from the sleeping village and suddenly, the metamorphosis was effected, those scattered elements were blent, and once more the frangipane spread from the valley of Fontenay as far as the fort, assailing his exhausted nostrils, once more shattering his helpless nerves and throwing him into such a prostration that he fell unconscious on the window sill.
He threw open the window, happy to breathe in the fresh air. But suddenly, it felt like the breeze brought in a faint wave of bergamot mixed with jasmine and rosewater. Anxious, he wondered if he was somehow under the influence of one of those medieval possessions. The scent shifted and changed, but it lingered. Now, a light aroma of tolu tincture, Peru balsam, and saffron, combined with several drams of amber and musk, wafted from the sleeping village. Suddenly, the transformation happened; those scattered elements blended together, and once again, the frangipane spread from the valley of Fontenay all the way to the fort, overwhelming his weary senses, shattering his frazzled nerves, and causing him to collapse unconscious onto the window sill.
Chapter 11
The servants were seized with alarm and lost no time in calling the Fontenay physician who was completely at sea about Des Esseintes' condition. He mumbled a few medical terms, felt his pulse, examined the invalid's tongue, unsuccessfully sought to make him speak, prescribed sedatives and rest, promised to return on the morrow and, at the negative sign made by Des Esseintes who recovered enough strength to chide the zeal of his servants and to bid farewell to this intruder, he departed and was soon retailing through the village the eccentricities of this house whose decorations had positively amazed him and held him rooted to the spot.
The servants were filled with panic and quickly called the Fontenay doctor, who was completely confused about Des Esseintes's condition. He stumbled through a few medical terms, checked his pulse, looked at the sick man's tongue, tried in vain to get him to speak, prescribed sedatives and rest, promised to come back the next day, and, upon seeing Des Esseintes's negative gesture—he had regained just enough strength to scold his overzealous servants and to say goodbye to this unwelcome visitor—he left, soon spreading tales through the village about the peculiarities of this house, whose decorations had truly astonished him and kept him speechless.
To the great astonishment of the domestics, who no longer dared stir from the servants' quarters, their master recovered in a few days, and they surprised him drumming against the window panes, gazing at the sky with a troubled look.
To the great surprise of the household staff, who were too scared to leave the servants' quarters, their master recovered in just a few days, and they caught him tapping against the window panes, looking at the sky with a worried expression.
One afternoon the bells were peremptorily rung and Des Esseintes commanded his trunks to be packed for a long voyage.
One afternoon, the bells rang insistently, and Des Esseintes ordered his bags to be packed for a long journey.
While the man and the woman were choosing, under his guidance, the necessary equipment, he feverishly paced up and down the cabin of the dining room, consulted the timetables of the steamers, walked through his study where he continued to gaze at the clouds with an air at once impatient and satisfied.
While the man and the woman were selecting the right equipment with his help, he anxiously paced back and forth in the dining room cabin, checked the steamer schedules, and strolled through his study, where he kept staring at the clouds with a mix of impatience and satisfaction.
For a whole week, the weather had been atrocious. Streams of soot raced unceasing across the grey fields of the sky-masses of clouds like rocks torn from the earth.
For a whole week, the weather had been terrible. Streams of soot raced endlessly across the grey fields of the sky—huge clouds like rocks ripped from the ground.
At intervals, showers swept downward, engulfing the valley with torrents of rain.
At times, heavy rain poured down, flooding the valley with downpours.
Today, the appearance of the heavens had changed. The rivers of ink had evaporated and vanished, and the harsh contours of the clouds had softened. The sky was uniformly flat and covered with a brackish film. Little by little, this film seemed to drop, and a watery haze covered the country side. The rain no longer fell in cataracts as on the preceding evening; instead, it fell incessantly, fine, sharp and penetrating; it inundated the walks, covered the roads with its innumerable threads which joined heaven and earth. The livid sky threw a wan leaden light on the village which was now transformed into a lake of mud pricked by needles of water that dotted the puddles with drops of bright silver. In this desolation of nature, everything was gray, and only the housetops gleamed against the dead tones of the walls.
Today, the sky looked different. The rivers of ink had evaporated and disappeared, and the harsh edges of the clouds had softened. The sky was dull and covered with a murky layer. Gradually, this layer seemed to drop, creating a watery mist over the countryside. The rain no longer poured down in torrents like the night before; instead, it fell continuously, fine, sharp, and penetrating; it soaked the paths and covered the roads with countless threads connecting heaven and earth. The pale sky cast a dim, gray light on the village, which had now become a muddy lake, punctuated by droplets of water that created bright silver spots in the puddles. In this desolate landscape, everything was gray, and only the rooftops stood out against the dull colors of the walls.
"What weather!" sighed the aged domestic, placing on a chair the clothes which his master had requested of him—an outfit formerly ordered from London.
"What terrible weather!" sighed the old servant, putting on a chair the clothes his master had asked for—a set he had previously ordered from London.
Des Esseintes' sole response was to rub his hands and to sit down in front of a book-case with glass doors. He examined the socks which had been placed nearby for his inspection. For a moment he hesitated on the color; then he quickly studied the melancholy day and earnestly bethought himself of the effect he desired. He chose a pair the color of feuillemort, quickly slipped them on, put on a pair of buttoned shoes, donned the mouse grey suit which was checquered with a lava gray and dotted with black, placed a small hunting cap on his head and threw a blue raincoat over him. He reached the railway station, followed by the servant who almost bent under the weight of a trunk, a valise, a carpet bag, a hat box and a traveling rug containing umbrellas and canes. He informed his servant that the date of his return was problematical, that he might return in a year, in a month, in a week, or even sooner, and enjoined him to change nothing in the house. He gave a sum of money which he thought would be necessary for the upkeep of the house during his absence, and climbed into the coach, leaving the old man astounded, arms waving and mouth gaping, behind the rail, while the train got under way.
Des Esseintes just rubbed his hands and sat down in front of a bookcase with glass doors. He looked over the socks that had been laid out for him. For a moment, he hesitated on the color; then he quickly observed the gloomy day and seriously thought about the effect he wanted to achieve. He picked a pair the color of dead leaves, slipped them on, put on a pair of button-up shoes, wore a mouse-grey suit that was checkered with a lava grey and dotted with black, placed a small hunting cap on his head, and threw on a blue raincoat. He arrived at the train station, followed by a servant who was nearly struggling under the weight of a trunk, a suitcase, a carpet bag, a hat box, and a travel rug filled with umbrellas and canes. He told his servant that the date of his return was uncertain, that he might come back in a year, a month, a week, or even sooner, and instructed him not to change anything in the house. He handed over a sum of money that he thought would be necessary for maintaining the house during his absence and got into the coach, leaving the old man dumbfounded, arms waving and mouth agape, behind the rail as the train started moving.
He was alone in his compartment; a vague and dirty country side, such as one sees through an aquarium of troubled water, receded rapidly behind the train which was lashed by the rain. Plunged in his meditations, Des Esseintes closed his eyes.
He was alone in his compartment; a hazy and grimy landscape, like what you see through a disturbed aquarium, quickly faded behind the train, which was being whipped by the rain. Lost in his thoughts, Des Esseintes shut his eyes.
Once more, this so ardently desired and finally attained solitude had ended in a fearful distress. This silence which formerly would have appeared as a compensation for the stupidities heard for years, now weighed on him with an unendurable burden. One morning he had awakened, as uneasy as a prisoner in his cell; his lips had sought to articulate sounds, tears had welled to his eyes and he had found it impossible to breathe, suffocating like a person who had sobbed for hours.
Once again, this longed-for solitude that he had finally achieved ended in deep distress. The silence, which used to feel like a reward for all the nonsense he had heard over the years, now felt like an unbearable weight on him. One morning, he woke up feeling as anxious as a prisoner in his cell; his lips tried to form words, tears filled his eyes, and he found it impossible to breathe, suffocating like someone who had been crying for hours.
Seized with a desire to walk, to behold a human figure, to speak to someone, to mingle with life, he had proceeded to call his domestics, employing a specious pretext; but conversation with them was impossible. Besides the fact that these old people, bowed down by years of silence and the customs of attendants, were almost dumb, the distance at which Des Esseintes had always kept them was hardly conducive to inducing them to open their mouths now. Too, they possessed dull brains and were incapable of answering his questions other than by monosyllables.
Overcome by a need to go for a walk, to see another person, to talk to someone, to engage with life, he decided to call his servants, using a clever pretext; but talking to them was impossible. Besides the fact that these old folks, worn down by years of silence and the habits of servants, were almost mute, the distance Des Esseintes had always maintained from them hardly encouraged them to speak now. Additionally, they had dull minds and could only respond to his questions with monosyllables.
It was impossible, therefore, to find any solace in their society; but a new phenomenon now occurred. The reading of the novels of Dickens, which he had lately undertaken to soothe his nerves and which had only produced effects the opposite of those hoped for, began slowly to act in an unexpected manner, bringing on visions of English existence on which he mused for hours; little by little, in these fictive contemplations, ideas insinuated themselves, ideas of the voyage brought to an end, of verified dreams on which was imposed the desire to experience new impressions, and thus escape the exhausting cerebral debauches intent upon beating in the void.
It was therefore impossible to find any comfort in their society; however, a new development now took place. The novels of Dickens, which he had recently started reading to calm his nerves but which had only resulted in the opposite effect, began to influence him in an unanticipated way, triggering visions of English life that he pondered for hours. Gradually, in these imaginary reflections, thoughts crept in—thoughts about the journey coming to an end, of realized dreams, accompanied by a longing to seek new experiences and thus escape the draining mental exhaustion that aimed at confronting emptiness.
With its mist and rain, this abominable weather aided his thoughts still more, by reinforcing the memories of his readings, by placing under his eyes the unfading image of a land of fog and mud, and by refusing to let his ideas wander idly.
With its mist and rain, this dreadful weather only fueled his thoughts, strengthening the memories of what he had read, presenting him with a lasting image of a land of fog and mud, and preventing his ideas from drifting away.
One day, able to endure it no longer, he had instantly decided. Such was his haste that he even took flight before the designated time, for he wished to shun the present moment, wished to find himself jostled and shouldered in the hubbub of crowded streets and railway stations.
One day, unable to take it any longer, he made a quick decision. He was in such a rush that he left early, wanting to escape the present moment and seeking to be swept along in the chaos of busy streets and train stations.
"I breathe!" he exclaimed when the train moderated its waltz and stopped in the Sceaux station rotunda, panting while its wheels performed its last pirouettes.
"I can breathe!" he exclaimed when the train slowed its dance and stopped in the Sceaux station rotunda, panting as its wheels made their final spins.
Once in the boulevard d'Enfer, he hailed a coachman. In some strange manner he extracted a pleasure from the fact that he was so hampered with trunks and rugs. By promising a substantial tip, he reached an understanding with the man of the brown trousers and red waistcoat.
Once he was on the Boulevard of Hell, he called over a cab driver. In a strange way, he found it enjoyable to be so loaded down with trunks and rugs. By offering a generous tip, he struck a deal with the guy in the brown pants and red vest.
"At once!" he commanded. "And when you reach the rue de Rivoli, stop in front of Galignani's Messenger." Before departing, he desired to buy a Baedeker or Murray guide of London.
"Right away!" he ordered. "And when you get to the rue de Rivoli, stop in front of Galignani's Messenger." Before leaving, he wanted to buy a Baedeker or Murray guide to London.
The carriage got under way heavily, raising rings of mud around its wheels and moving through marsh-like ground. Beneath the gray sky which seemed suspended over the house tops, water gushed down the thick sides of the high walls, spouts overflowed, and the streets were coated with a slimy dirt in which passersby slipped. Thickset men paused on sidewalks bespattered by passing omnibuses, and women, their skirts tucked up to the knees, bent under umbrellas, flattened themselves against the shops to avoid being splashed.
The carriage set off with difficulty, kicking up mud around its wheels as it moved over the marshy ground. Under the gray sky that hung over the rooftops, water poured down the thick walls, spouts overflowed, and the streets were covered in slimy dirt that made it slippery for those passing by. Stocky men paused on sidewalks splattered by passing buses, while women, their skirts pulled up to their knees, hunched under umbrellas, pressing themselves against shop walls to avoid getting splashed.
The rain entered diagonally through the carriage doors. Des Esseintes was obliged to lift the carriage windows down which the water ran, while drops of mud furrowed their way like fireworks on each side of the fiacre. To the monotonous sound of sacks of peas shaking against his head through the action of the showers pattering against the trunks and on the carriage rug, Des Esseintes dreamed of his voyage. This already was a partial realization of his England, enjoyed in Paris through the means of this frightful weather: a rainy, colossal London smelling of molten metal and of soot, ceaselessly steaming and smoking in the fog now spread out before his eyes; then rows of docks sprawled ahead, as far as the eye could reach, docks full of cranes, hand winches and bales, swarming with men perched on masts or astride yard sails, while myriads of other men on the quays pushed hogsheads into cellars.
The rain came in at an angle through the carriage doors. Des Esseintes had to lower the carriage windows, through which the water flowed, while drops of mud streaked down like fireworks on either side of the fiacre. To the dull sound of sacks of peas rattling against his head from the showers pattering on the trunks and the carriage rug, Des Esseintes drifted into thoughts of his journey. This was already a glimpse of his vision of England, experienced in Paris through this dreadful weather: a rainy, massive London filled with the scent of molten metal and soot, continuously steaming and billowing in the fog now laid out before him; then rows of docks stretched out as far as he could see, docks packed with cranes, hand winches, and bales, bustling with men perched on masts or straddling yard sails, while countless others on the quays pushed hogsheads into cellars.
All this was transpiring in vast warehouses along the river banks which were bathed by the muddy and dull water of an imaginary Thames, in a forest of masts and girders piercing the wan clouds of the firmament, while trains rushed past at full speed or rumpled underground uttering horrible cries and vomiting waves of smoke, and while, through every street, monstrous and gaudy and infamous advertisements flared through the eternal twilight, and strings of carriages passed between rows of preoccupied and taciturn people whose eyes stared ahead and whose elbows pressed closely against their bodies.
All of this was happening in huge warehouses along the riverbanks, washed by the murky, dull water of a fictional Thames, surrounded by a forest of masts and beams piercing the gray clouds above. Trains rushed by at full speed or rattled underground, making terrible noises and belching out clouds of smoke. Meanwhile, in every street, huge, flashy, and scandalous advertisements blazed in the ongoing twilight, and lines of carriages moved between rows of distracted and silent people whose eyes were fixed ahead and whose elbows were tucked tightly against their bodies.
Des Esseintes shivered deliciously to feel himself mingling in this terrible world of merchants, in this insulating mist, in this incessant activity, in this pitiless gearing which ground millions of the disinherited, urged by the comfort-distilling philanthropists to recite Biblical verses and to sing psalms.
Des Esseintes shivered with pleasure to find himself blending into this awful world of merchants, in this isolating fog, in this constant hustle, in this relentless machine that crushed millions of the disadvantaged, pushed by the well-meaning philanthropists to recite Bible verses and sing hymns.
Then the vision faded suddenly with a jolt of the fiacre which made him rebound in his seat. He gazed through the carriage windows. Night had fallen; gas burners blinked through the fog, amid a yellowish halo; ribbons of fire swam in puddles of water and seemed to revolve around wheels of carriages moving through liquid and dirty flame. He endeavored to get his bearings, perceived the Carrousel and suddenly, unreasoningly, perhaps through the simple effect of the high fall from fanciful spaces, his thought reverted to a very trivial incident. He remembered that his domestic had neglected to put a tooth brush in his belongings. Then, he passed in review the list of objects packed up; everything had been placed in his valise, but the annoyance of having omitted this brush persisted until the driver, pulling up, broke the chain of his reminiscences and regrets.
Then the vision suddenly faded with a jolt of the fiacre that made him bounce in his seat. He looked through the carriage windows. Night had fallen; gas lights flickered through the fog, surrounded by a yellowish glow; ribbons of fire danced in puddles of water and seemed to swirl around the wheels of carriages moving through the murky flame. He tried to get his bearings, spotted the Carrousel and, suddenly and unreasonably, perhaps due to the impact of falling from those fanciful thoughts, his mind drifted to a very mundane incident. He remembered that his housekeeper had forgotten to pack a toothbrush. Then, he reviewed the list of items packed; everything was in his suitcase, but the annoyance of not having that brush lingered until the driver stopped, interrupting his stream of memories and regrets.
He was in the rue de Rivoli, in front of Galignani's Messenger. Separated by a door whose unpolished glass was covered with inscriptions and with strips of passe-partout framing newspaper clippings and telegrams, were two vast shop windows crammed with albums and books. He drew near, attracted by the sight of these books bound in parrot-blue and cabbage-green paper, embossed with silver and golden letterings. All this had an anti-Parisian touch, a mercantile appearance, more brutal and yet less wretched than those worthless bindings of French books; here and there, in the midst of the opened albums, reproducing humorous scenes from Du Maurier and John Leech, or the delirious cavalcades of Caldecott, some French novels appeared, blending placid and satisfied vulgarities to these rich verjuice hues. He tore himself away from his contemplation, opened the door and entered a large library which was full of people. Seated strangers unfolded maps and jabbered in strange languages. A clerk brought him a complete collection of guides. He, in turns, sat down to examine the books with their flexible covers. He glanced through them and paused at a page of the Baedeker describing the London museums. He became interested in the laconic and exact details of the guide books, but his attention wandered away from the old English paintings to the moderns which attracted him much more. He recalled certain works he had seen at international expositions, and imagined that he might possibly behold them once more at London: pictures by Millais—the Eve of Saint Agnes with its lunar clear green; pictures by Watts, strange in color, checquered with gamboge and indigo, pictures sketched by a sick Gustave Moreau, painted by an anæmic Michael Angelo and retouched by a Raphael submerged in blue. Among other canvasses, he recalled a Denunciation of Cain, an Ida, some Eves where, in the strange and mysterious mixture of these three masters, rose the personality, at once refined and crude, of a learned and dreamy Englishman tormented by the bewitchment of cruel tones.
He was on the Rivoli Street, in front of Galignani's Messenger. Separated by a door with unpolished glass covered in inscriptions and strips of passe-partout framing newspaper clippings and telegrams, were two large shop windows packed with albums and books. He approached, drawn in by the sight of those books bound in vibrant parrot-blue and cabbage-green paper, embossed with silver and gold lettering. Everything had an un-Parisian vibe, a commercial look, more intense yet less pitiful than the worthless bindings of French books; mixed in among the open albums, showcasing humorous scenes by Du Maurier and John Leech, or the whimsical cavalcades of Caldecott, were some French novels that added a laid-back, satisfied crudeness to those rich, bright colors. He pulled himself away from his thoughts, opened the door, and entered a large library bustling with people. Strangers were seated, spreading out maps and chattering in strange languages. A clerk handed him a full set of guides. He then sat down to check out the books with their flexible covers. He flipped through them and stopped at a page in the Baedeker detailing the London museums. He became intrigued by the concise and precise information in the guidebooks, but his attention drifted from the old English paintings to the moderns that fascinated him much more. He remembered certain works he had seen at international exhibitions and imagined he might have the chance to see them again in London: paintings by Millais—the Eve of Saint Agnes with its lunar green; paintings by Watts, strange in color, mixed with gamboge and indigo, sketches by ailing Gustave Moreau, painted by a pale Michelangelo and touched up by a Raphael submerged in blue. Among other canvases, he recalled a Denunciation of Cain, an Ida, some Eves where, in the strange and mysterious blend of these three masters, emerged the personality, both refined and rough, of a learned and dreamy Englishman troubled by the allure of harsh tones.
These canvasses thronged through his memory. The clerk, astonished by this client who was so lost to the world, asked him which of the guides he would take. Des Esseintes remained dumbfounded, then excused himself, bought a Baedeker and departed. The dampness froze him to the spot; the wind blew from the side, lashing the arcades with whips of rain. "Proceed to that place," he said to the driver, pointing with his finger to the end of a passage where a store formed the angle of the rue de Rivoli and the rue Castiglione and, with its whitish panes of glass illumed from within, resembled a vast night lamp burning through the wretchedness of this mist, in the misery of this crazy weather.
These images crowded his mind. The clerk, shocked by this client who seemed so disconnected from reality, asked him which guide he would like to take. Des Esseintes was taken aback, then apologized, bought a Baedeker, and left. The dampness froze him in place; the wind blew from the side, whipping the arcades with rain. "Take me to that place," he told the driver, pointing to the end of a passage where a shop formed the corner of the Rue de Rivoli and the Castiglione Street. Its pale glass windows, glowing from within, looked like a giant nightlight piercing through the gloom of the mist, battling the misery of this terrible weather.
It was the Bodega. Des Esseintes strayed into a large room sustained by iron pillars and lined, on each side of its walls, with tall barrels placed on their ends upon gantries, hooped with iron, their paunches with wooden loopholes imitating a rack of pipes and from whose notches hung tulip-shaped glasses, upside down. The lower sides were bored and hafted with stone cocks. These hogsheads painted with a royal coat of arms displayed the names of their drinks, the contents, and the prices on colored labels and stated that they were to be purchased by the cask, by the bottle or by the glass.
It was the Bodega. Des Esseintes wandered into a big room supported by iron pillars and lined on both sides with tall barrels set upright on platforms, wrapped in iron. Their round bodies had wooden openings that resembled a row of pipes, and from these openings hung tulip-shaped glasses, turned upside down. The lower sides had holes and were fitted with stone taps. These casks, painted with a royal coat of arms, featured labels displaying the names of their drinks, what was inside, and the prices, indicating that they could be bought by the cask, by the bottle, or by the glass.
In the passage between these rows of casks, under the gas jets which flared at one end of an ugly iron-gray chandelier, tables covered with baskets of Palmers biscuits, hard and salty cakes, plates piled with mince pies and sandwiches concealing strong, mustardy concoctions under their unsavory covers, succeeded each other between a row of seats and as far as the end of this cellar which was lined with still more hogsheads carrying tiny barrels on their tops, resting on their sides and bearing their names stamped with hot metal into the oak.
In the corridor between these rows of barrels, under the gas lights flickering at one end of a dull iron-gray chandelier, tables set with baskets of Palmers biscuits, hard and salty cakes, and stacks of mince pies and sandwiches hiding strong, mustardy fillings beneath their unappealing coverings, lined up between rows of seats and extended to the end of this cellar, which was filled with even more large barrels with smaller barrels on top, resting on their sides and stamped with their names burned into the oak.
An odor of alcohol assailed Des Esseintes upon taking a seat in this room heavy with strong wines. He looked about him. Here, the tuns were placed in a straight line, exhibiting the whole series of ports, the sweet or sour wines the color of mahogany or amaranth, and distinguished by such laudatory epithets as old port, light delicate, Cockburn's very fine, magnificent old Regina. There, protruding formidable abdomens pressed closely against each other, huge casks contained the martial Spanish wines, sherry and its derivatives, the san lucar, pasto, pale dry, oloroso and amontilla.
An aroma of alcohol hit Des Esseintes as he took a seat in this room filled with strong wines. He glanced around. Here, the barrels were lined up, displaying an array of ports, sweet or sour wines the shade of mahogany or amaranth, and noted with flattering names like old port, light delicate, Cockburn's very fine, magnificent old Regina. There, with their formidable bellies pressed tightly together, large casks held the bold Spanish wines, sherry and its variations, Sanlúcar, pasture, pale dry, oloroso, and amontillado.
The cellar was filled with people. Leaning on his elbows on a corner of the table, Des Esseintes sat waiting for his glass of port ordered of a gentleman who was opening explosive sodas contained in oval bottles which recalled, while exaggerating, the capsules of gelatine and gluten used by pharmacies to conceal the taste of certain medicines.
The cellar was packed with people. Leaning on his elbows at a corner of the table, Des Esseintes sat waiting for his glass of port, which he had ordered from a guy who was opening fizzy drinks in oval bottles that reminded him, though in an exaggerated way, of the gelatin and gluten caps that pharmacies used to mask the taste of some medicines.
Englishmen were everywhere,—awkward pale clergymen garbed in black from head to foot, with soft hats, laced shoes, very long coats dotted in the front with tiny buttons, clean-shaved chins, round spectacles, greasy flat hair; faces of tripe dealers and mastiff snouts with apoplectic necks, ears like tomatoes, vinous cheeks, blood-shot crazy eyes, whiskers that looked like those of some big monkeys; farther away, at the end of the wine store, a long row of tow-headed individuals, their chins covered with white hair like the end of an artichoke, reading, through a microscope, the tiny roman type of an English newspaper; opposite him, a sort of American commodore, dumpy and thick-set, with smoked skin and bulbous nose, was sleeping, a cigar planted in the hairy aperture of his mouth. Opposite were frames hanging on the wall enclosing advertisements of Champagne, the trade marks of Perrier and Roederer, Heidsieck and Mumm, and a hooded head of a monk, with the name of Dom Perignon, Rheims, written in Gothic characters.
Englishmen were everywhere—awkward, pale clergymen dressed in black from head to toe, wearing soft hats, laced shoes, and very long coats with tiny buttons in the front. They had clean-shaven chins, round glasses, greasy flat hair; faces resembling tripe dealers and mastiff snouts, with thick necks, tomato-like ears, flushed cheeks, bloodshot insane eyes, and whiskers that looked like those of large monkeys. Further away, at the end of the wine store, there was a long line of light-haired individuals, their chins covered in white hair resembling the tips of artichokes, reading the tiny Roman type of an English newspaper through a microscope. Across from him sat a sort of American commodore, short and stout, with tanned skin and a bulbous nose, asleep with a cigar stuck in the hairy part of his mouth. On the opposite wall, there were frames displaying advertisements for Champagne, featuring the trademarks of Perrier sparkling water, Roederer, Heidsieck Champagne, and Mum, along with the hooded head of a monk, featuring the name Dom Perignon, Reims, written in Gothic letters.
A certain enervation enveloped Des Esseintes in this guard house atmosphere; stunned by the prattle of the Englishmen conversing among themselves, he fell into a revery, evoking, before the purple port which filled the glasses, the creatures of Dickens that love this drink so very much, imaginatively peopling the cellar with new personages, seeing here, the white head of hair and the ruddy complexion of Mr. Wickfield; there, the phlegmatic, crafty face and the vengeful eye of Mr. Tulkinghorn, the melancholy solicitor in Bleak House. Positively, all of them broke away from his memory and installed themselves in the Bodega, with their peculiar characteristics and their betraying gestures. His memories, brought to life by his recent readings, attained a startling precision. The city of the romancer, the house illumined and warmed, so perfectly tended and isolated, the bottles poured slowly by little Dorrit and Dora Copperfield and Tom Pinch's sister, appeared to him sailing like an ark in a deluge of mire and soot. Idly he wandered through this imaginary London, happy to be sheltered, as he listened to the sinister shrieks of tugs plying up and down the Thames. His glass was empty. Despite the heavy fumes in this cellar, caused by the cigars and pipes, he experienced a cold shiver when he returned to the reality of the damp and fetid weather.
A certain exhaustion wrapped around Des Esseintes in this guardhouse vibe; overwhelmed by the chatter of the Englishmen talking to each other, he drifted into a daydream, conjuring up the characters from Dickens who love this drink so much, imaginatively filling the cellar with new figures, envisioning here the white hair and rosy face of Mr. Wickfield; there, the calm, scheming face and vengeful gaze of Mr. Tulkinghorn, the gloomy lawyer in Bleak House. Truly, all of them broke free from his memory and set themselves down in the Bodega, with their distinctive traits and revealing gestures. His memories, sparked by his recent readings, gained a striking clarity. The city of the storyteller, the house lit up and warmed, so perfectly looked after and secluded, the bottles poured slowly by Little Dorrit and Dora Copperfield and Tom Pinch's sister, came to him like a boat floating in a flood of mud and soot. Leisurely, he roamed this imaginary London, glad to be sheltered, as he listened to the eerie cries of tugboats going up and down the Thames. His glass was empty. Despite the thick smoke in this cellar from the cigars and pipes, he felt a chill when he returned to the reality of the damp, filthy weather.
He called for a glass of amontillado, and suddenly, beside this pale, dry wine, the lenitive, sweetish stories of the English author were routed, to be replaced by the pitiless revulsives and the grievous irritants of Edgar Allen Poe; the cold nightmares of The Cask of Amontillado, of the man immured in a vault, assailed him; the ordinary placid faces of American and English drinkers who occupied the room, appeared to him to reflect involuntary frightful thoughts, to be harboring instinctive, odious plots. Then he perceived that he was left alone here and that the dinner hour was near. He payed his bill, tore himself from his seat and dizzily gained the door. He received a wet slap in the face upon leaving the place. The street lamps moved their tiny fans of flame which failed to illuminate; the sky had dropped to the very houses. Des Esseintes viewed the arcades of the rue de Rivoli, drowned in the gloom and submerged by water, and it seemed to him that he was in the gloomy tunnel under the Thames. Twitchings of his stomach recalled him to reality. He regained his carriage, gave the driver the address of the tavern in the rue d'Amsterdam near the station, and looked at his watch: seven o'clock. He had just time to eat dinner; the train would not leave until ten minutes of nine, and he counted on his fingers, reckoning the hours of travel from Dieppe to Newhaven, saying to himself: "If the figures of the timetable are correct, I shall be at London tomorrow at twelve-thirty."
He ordered a glass of Amontillado, and suddenly, alongside this pale, dry wine, the soothing, sweet stories of the English author were pushed aside, replaced by the harsh revulsions and the painful irritants of Edgar Allan Poe; the chilling nightmares of The Cask of Amontillado, of the man trapped in a vault, overwhelmed him; the ordinary, calm faces of the American and English drinkers in the room seemed to reflect involuntary terrifying thoughts, harboring instinctive, nasty plots. Then he realized he was alone and that dinner time was approaching. He paid his bill, tore himself away from his seat, and unsteadily made his way to the door. He was met with a wet slap to the face as he stepped outside. The street lamps flickered their tiny flames which failed to provide any light; the sky felt like it had dropped down to the rooftops. Des Esseintes looked at the arcades of the Rivoli Street, engulfed in darkness and submerged in water, and it seemed to him that he was in the dreary tunnel beneath the Thames. Twists in his stomach brought him back to reality. He got into his carriage, gave the driver the address of the tavern on the Amsterdam Street near the station, and checked his watch: seven o'clock. He had just enough time to have dinner; the train wouldn’t leave until ten minutes to nine, and he counted on his fingers, calculating the travel hours from Dieppe to Newhaven, telling himself, "If the timetable is correct, I’ll be in London by twelve-thirty tomorrow."
The fiacre stopped in front of the tavern. Once more, Des Esseintes alighted and entered a long dark plain room, divided into partitions as high as a man's waist,—a series of compartments resembling stalls. In this room, wider towards the door, many beer pumps stood on a counter, near hams having the color of old violins, red lobsters, marinated mackerel, with onions and carrots, slices of lemon, bunches of laurel and thym, juniper berries and long peppers swimming in thick sauce.
The fiacre pulled up in front of the bar. Once again, Des Esseintes got out and walked into a long, dark plain room, separated into waist-high partitions—a series of sections that looked like stalls. In this room, which was wider near the entrance, several beer taps lined the counter, next to hams that were the color of old violins, red lobsters, marinated mackerel with onions and carrots, lemon slices, and bunches of laurel and thyme, along with juniper berries and long peppers floating in thick sauce.
One of these boxes was unoccupied. He took it and called a young black-suited man who bent forward, muttering something in a jargon he could not understand. While the cloth was being laid, Des Esseintes viewed his neighbors. They were islanders, just as at the Bodega, with cold faience eyes, crimson complexions, thoughtful or haughty airs. They were reading foreign newspapers. The only ones eating were unescorted women in pairs, robust English women with boyish faces, large teeth, ruddy apple cheeks, long hands and legs. They attacked, with genuine ardor, a rumpsteak pie, a warm meat dish cooked in mushroom sauce and covered with a crust, like a pie.
One of these boxes was empty. He took it and called over a young man in a black suit who leaned in, mumbling something in a language he couldn’t understand. While the cloth was being spread, Des Esseintes looked at his neighbors. They were islanders, just like at the Bodega, with cold, glazed eyes, reddish complexions, and either thoughtful or arrogant expressions. They were reading foreign newspapers. The only ones eating were women, paired off and unaccompanied, sturdy English women with boyish faces, big teeth, rosy cheeks, and long hands and legs. They eagerly dug into a rump steak pie, a warm meat dish cooked in mushroom sauce and topped with a crust, like a pie.
After having lacked appetite for such a long time, he remained amazed in the presence of these hearty eaters whose voracity whetted his hunger. He ordered oxtail soup and enjoyed it heartily. Then he glanced at the menu for the fish, ordered a haddock and, seized with a sudden pang of hunger at the sight of so many people relishing their food, he ate some roast beef and drank two pints of ale, stimulated by the flavor of a cow-shed which this fine, pale beer exhaled.
After not having an appetite for such a long time, he was surprised by the sight of these hearty eaters whose eagerness made him feel hungry. He ordered oxtail soup and enjoyed it thoroughly. Then he looked at the menu for fish, ordered haddock, and, suddenly hit by a wave of hunger from seeing so many people enjoying their meals, he ate some roast beef and drank two pints of ale, invigorated by the aroma of a barn that this fine, light beer gave off.
His hunger persisted. He lingered over a piece of blue Stilton cheese, made quick work of a rhubarb tart, and to vary his drinking, quenched his thirst with porter, that dark beer which smells of Spanish licorice but which does not have its sugary taste.
His hunger continued. He took his time with a piece of blue Stilton cheese, quickly finished a rhubarb tart, and to mix things up, satisfied his thirst with porter, the dark beer that smells like Spanish licorice but doesn't taste sweet.
He breathed deeply. Not for years had he eaten and drunk so much. This change of habit, this choice of unexpected and solid food had awakened his stomach from its long sleep. He leaned back in his chair, lit a cigarette and prepared to sip his coffee into which gin had been poured.
He took a deep breath. It had been years since he’d eaten and drunk so much. This change in his habits, this choice of surprising and hearty food, had stirred his stomach from its long slumber. He leaned back in his chair, lit a cigarette, and got ready to sip his coffee, which had gin mixed in.
The rain continued to fall. He heard it patter on the panes which formed a ceiling at the end of the room; it fell in cascades down the spouts. No one was stirring in the room. Everybody, utterly weary, was indulging himself in front of his wine glass.
The rain kept falling. He heard it tapping on the windows that formed a ceiling at the end of the room; it poured down the downspouts. No one was moving in the room. Everyone, completely exhausted, was enjoying themselves in front of their wine glasses.
Tongues were now wagging freely. As almost all the English men and women raised their eyes as they spoke, Des Esseintes concluded that they were talking of the bad weather; not one of them laughed. He threw a delighted glance on their suits whose color and cut did not perceivably differ from that of others, and he experienced a sense of contentment in not being out of tune in this environment, of being, in some way, though superficially, a naturalized London citizen. Then he suddenly started. "And what about the train?" he asked himself. He glanced at his watch: ten minutes to eight. "I still have nearly a half-hour to remain here." Once more, he began to muse upon the plan he had conceived.
Tongues were now wagging freely. As almost all the English men and women raised their eyes while they spoke, Des Esseintes figured they were discussing the bad weather; not one of them laughed. He cast a satisfied glance at their suits, which differed little in color and style from others, and he felt a sense of contentment in not being out of place in this environment, in some way, though superficially, a naturalized London citizen. Then he suddenly jolted. "What about the train?" he asked himself. He looked at his watch: ten minutes to eight. "I still have nearly half an hour to stay here." Once again, he began to think about the plan he had come up with.
In his sedentary life, only two countries had ever attracted him: Holland and England.
In his quiet life, only two countries had ever captured his interest: Netherlands and England.
He had satisfied the first of his desires. Unable to keep away, one fine day he had left Paris and visited the towns of the Low Lands, one by one.
He had fulfilled the first of his desires. Unable to resist, one beautiful day he left Paris and explored the towns of the Low Lands, one after another.
In short, nothing but cruel disillusions had resulted from this trip. He had fancied a Holland after the works of Teniers and Steen, of Rembrandt and Ostade, in his usual way imagining rich, unique and incomparable Ghettos, had thought of amazing kermesses, continual debauches in the country sides, intent for a view of that patriarchal simplicity, that jovial lusty spirit celebrated by the old masters.
In short, this trip led to nothing but harsh disappointments. He had imagined a Netherlands inspired by the works of Teniers and Steen, Rembrandt and Ostade, picturing rich, unique, and unmatched neighborhoods. He envisioned amazing fairs and endless parties in the countryside, all in search of that simple, joyful spirit celebrated by the old masters.
Certainly, Haarlem and Amsterdam had enraptured him. The unwashed people, seen in their country farms, really resembled those types painted by Van Ostade, with their uncouth children and their old fat women, embossed with huge breasts and enormous bellies. But of the unrestrained joys, the drunken family carousals, not a whit. He had to admit that the Dutch paintings at the Louvre had misled him. They had simply served as a springing board for his dreams. He had rushed forward on a false track and had wandered into capricious visions, unable to discover in the land itself, anything of that real and magical country which he had hoped to behold, seeing nothing at all, on the plots of ground strewn with barrels, of the dances of petticoated and stockinged peasants crying for very joy, stamping their feet out of sheer happiness and laughing loudly.
Certainly, Haarlem and Amsterdam had captivated him. The unkempt people, seen on their rural farms, truly resembled those characters painted by Van Ostade, with their awkward children and their overweight older women, marked by large breasts and big bellies. But he didn't see any of the uninhibited joys or drunken family celebrations. He had to admit that the Dutch paintings at the Louvre Museum had misled him. They had merely served as a launching pad for his dreams. He had rushed ahead on a false path and wandered into whimsical visions, unable to find in the land itself anything of that real and magical country he had hoped to witness, seeing nothing at all on the plots scattered with barrels, of the dances of petticoated and stockinged peasants crying out with joy, stamping their feet in pure happiness and laughing loudly.
Decidedly nothing of all this was visible. Holland was a country just like any other country, and what was more, a country in no wise primitive, not at all simple, for the Protestant religion with its formal hypocricies and solemn rigidness held sway here.
Decidedly nothing of all this was visible. Netherlands was a country just like any other country, and what was more, a country in no way primitive, not at all simple, for the Protestant religion with its formal hypocrisies and solemn rigidity held sway here.
The memory of that disenchantment returned to him. Once more he glanced at his watch: ten minutes still separated him from the train's departure. "It is about time to ask for the bill and leave," he told himself.
The memory of that disappointment came back to him. He checked his watch again: ten more minutes until the train left. "It's time to ask for the bill and get going," he thought to himself.
He felt an extreme heaviness in his stomach and through his body. "Come!" he addressed himself, "let us drink and screw up our courage." He filled a glass of brandy, while asking for the reckoning. An individual in black suit and with a napkin under one arm, a sort of majordomo with a bald and sharp head, a greying beard without moustaches, came forward. A pencil rested behind his ear and he assumed an attitude like a singer, one foot in front of the other; he drew a note book from his pocket, and without glancing at his paper, his eyes fixed on the ceiling, near a chandelier, wrote while counting. "There you are!" he said, tearing the sheet from his note book and giving it to Des Esseintes who looked at him with curiosity, as though he were a rare animal. What a surprising John Bull, he thought, contemplating this phlegmatic person who had, because of his shaved mouth, the appearance of a wheelsman of an American ship.
He felt a heavy weight in his stomach and throughout his body. "Come on!" he said to himself, "let's drink and gather our courage." He poured a glass of brandy while asking for the bill. A man in a black suit, with a napkin under one arm—a kind of headwaiter with a bald head, a sharp face, and a grey beard without a mustache—approached. A pencil was tucked behind his ear, and he stood like a performer, one foot in front of the other; he pulled a notebook from his pocket and, without looking at the paper, his eyes fixed on the ceiling near a chandelier, wrote while counting. "Here you go!" he said, tearing the sheet from his notebook and handing it to Des Esseintes, who watched him with curiosity as if he were a rare creature. What an interesting character, he thought, observing this phlegmatic man who, because of his clean-shaven face, looked like a helmsman on an American ship.
At this moment, the tavern door opened. Several persons entered bringing with them an odor of wet dog to which was blent the smell of coal wafted by the wind through the opened door. Des Esseintes was incapable of moving a limb. A soft warm languor prevented him from even stretching out his hand to light a cigar. He told himself: "Come now, let us get up, we must take ourselves off." Immediate objections thwarted his orders. What is the use of moving, when one can travel on a chair so magnificently? Was he not even now in London, whose aromas and atmosphere and inhabitants, whose food and utensils surrounded him? For what could he hope, if not new disillusionments, as had happened to him in Holland?
At that moment, the tavern door swung open. Several people walked in, bringing with them the smell of wet dog mixed with the scent of coal carried by the breeze through the open door. Des Esseintes found himself unable to move. A soft, warm lethargy kept him from even reaching for his cigar. He thought to himself, "Come on, let’s get up, we need to leave." Immediate objections interrupted his thoughts. What’s the point of moving when you can travel so comfortably in a chair? Was he not currently in London, surrounded by its scents, atmosphere, people, food, and utensils? What could he really expect, if not more disillusionment, as he had experienced in Netherlands?
He had but sufficient time to race to the station. An overwhelming aversion for the trip, an imperious need of remaining tranquil, seized him with a more and more obvious and stubborn strength. Pensively, he let the minutes pass, thus cutting off all retreat, and he said to himself, "Now it would be necessary to rush to the gate and crowd into the baggage room! What ennui! What a bore that would be!" Then he repeated to himself once more, "In fine, I have experienced and seen all I wished to experience and see. I have been filled with English life since my departure. I would be mad indeed to go and, by an awkward trip, lose those imperishable sensations. How stupid of me to have sought to disown my old ideas, to have doubted the efficacy of the docile phantasmagories of my brain, like a very fool to have thought of the necessity, of the curiosity, of the interest of an excursion!"
He barely had enough time to rush to the station. A strong dislike for the trip and an urgent need to stay calm took hold of him with increasing and stubborn intensity. Lost in thought, he let the minutes slip by, effectively closing off any possibility of turning back, and he said to himself, "Now I'd have to hurry to the gate and squeeze into the baggage room! How tedious! What a drag that would be!" Then he told himself again, "Honestly, I've experienced and seen everything I wanted to. I've had my fill of English life since I left. It would be crazy to go and, with a clumsy trip, lose those unforgettable feelings. How foolish of me to try to renounce my old ideas, to doubt the power of my mind's vivid fantasies, like an absolute fool to have considered the necessity, curiosity, and interest of a trip!"
"Well!" he exclaimed, consulting his watch, "it is now time to return home."
"Well!" he exclaimed, checking his watch, "it's time to go home."
This time, he arose and left, ordered the driver to bring him back to the Sceaux station, and returned with his trunks, packages, valises, rugs, umbrellas and canes, to Fontenay, feeling the physical stimulation and the moral fatigue of a man coming back to his home after a long and dangerous voyage.
This time, he got up and left, told the driver to take him back to the Sceaux station, and returned with his luggage, bags, suitcases, rugs, umbrellas, and canes to Fontenay, feeling both the physical excitement and the mental exhaustion of someone returning home after a long and risky journey.
Chapter 12
During the days following his return, Des Esseintes contemplated his books and experienced, at the thought that he might have been separated from them for a long period, a satisfaction as complete as that which comes after a protracted absence. Under the touch of this sentiment, these objects possessed a renewed novelty to his mind, and he perceived in them beauties forgotten since the time he had purchased them.
During the days after his return, Des Esseintes looked over his books and felt, at the thought of possibly being away from them for a long time, a satisfaction as deep as what one feels after a long absence. With this feeling, these objects seemed to him fresh and new again, and he noticed beauties he had forgotten since he bought them.
Everything there, books, bric-a-brac and furniture, had an individual charm for him. His bed seemed the softer by comparison with the hard bed he would have occupied in London. The silent, discreet ministrations of his servants charmed him, exhausted as he was at the thought of the loud loquacity of hotel attendants. The methodical organization of his life made him feel that it was especially to be envied since the possibility of traveling had become imminent.
Everything there—books, knick-knacks, and furniture—had its own unique charm for him. His bed felt softer compared to the hard one he would have had in London. The quiet, thoughtful help from his servants delighted him, especially considering how tiring the constant chatter of hotel staff could be. The orderly way his life was set up made him feel it was something to be envied, especially now that traveling was on the horizon.
He steeped himself in this bath of habitude, to which artificial regrets insinuated a tonic quality.
He immersed himself in this routine, which artificial regrets added a refreshing quality to.
But his books chiefly preoccupied him. He examined them, re-arranged them on the shelves, anxious to learn if the hot weather and the rains had damaged the bindings and injured the rare paper.
But he was mostly focused on his books. He looked them over, rearranged them on the shelves, worried about whether the heat and rain had damaged the bindings and harmed the rare paper.
He began by moving all his Latin books; then he arranged in a new order the special works of Archelaus, Albert le Grand, Lully and Arnaud de Villanova treating of cabbala and the occult sciences; finally he examined his modern books, one by one, and was happy to perceive that all had remained intact.
He started by moving all his Latin books, then he reorganized the special works of Archelaus, Albert the Great, Lully, and Arnaud de Villanova that dealt with Kabbalah and the occult sciences. Finally, he looked at his modern books one by one and was pleased to see that they were all still intact.
This collection had cost him a considerable sum of money. He would not suffer, in his library, the books he loved to resemble other similar volumes, printed on cotton paper with the watermarks of Auvergne.
This collection had cost him a significant amount of money. He would not allow the books he loved in his library to look like other similar volumes, printed on cotton paper with the watermarks of Auvergne.
Formerly in Paris he had ordered made, for himself alone, certain volumes which specially engaged mechanics printed from hand presses. Sometimes, he applied to Perrin of Lyons, whose graceful, clear type was suitable for archaic reprints of old books. At other times he dispatched orders to England or to America for the execution of modern literature and the works of the present century. Still again, he applied to a house in Lille, which for centuries had possessed a complete set of Gothic characters; he also would send requisitions to the old Enschede printing house of Haarlem whose foundry still has the stamps and dies of certain antique letters.
Formerly in Paris, he had certain volumes made just for himself by mechanics who used hand presses. Sometimes, he ordered from Perrin in Lyons, whose elegant, clear type was perfect for reprinting old books. Other times, he sent requests to England or America to print modern literature and works from the current century. He also reached out to a company in Lille, which had a full set of Gothic fonts for centuries; and he would send orders to the old Enschede printing house in Haarlem, whose foundry still had the stamps and dies for certain antique letters.
He had followed the same method in selecting his papers. Finally growing weary of the snowy Chinese and the nacreous and gilded Japanese papers, the white Whatmans, the brown Hollands, the buff-colored Turkeys and Seychal Mills, and equally disgusted with all mechanically manufactured sheets, he had ordered special laid paper in the mould, from the old plants of Vire which still employ the pestles once in use to grind hemp. To introduce a certain variety into his collection, he had repeatedly brought from London prepared stuffs, paper interwoven with hairs, and as a mark of his disdain for bibliophiles, he had a Lubeck merchant prepare for him an improved candle paper of bottle-blue tint, clear and somewhat brittle, in the pulp of which the straw was replaced by golden spangles resembling those which dot Danzig brandy.
He used the same approach to choose his papers. Eventually, he got tired of the snowy Chinese and shiny, gilded Japanese papers, the white Whatmans, the brown Hollands, the buff-colored Turkeys and Seychal Mills, and was equally fed up with all the mass-produced sheets. So, he ordered special laid paper from the old mills in Vire, which still use the pestles that were once used to grind hemp. To add some variety to his collection, he often brought back prepared papers from London, including paper mixed with hair. And to show his disdain for bibliophiles, he had a Lübeck merchant create an improved candle paper in a bottle-blue color, clear and somewhat brittle, with golden sparkles in the pulp that looked like those found in Gdańsk brandy.
Under these circumstances he had succeeded in procuring unique books, adopting obsolete formats which he had bound by Lortic, by Trautz-Bauzonnet or Chambolle, by the successors of Capé, in irreproachable covers of old silk, stamped cow hide, Cape goat skin, in full bindings with compartments and in mosaic designs, protected by tabby or moire watered silk, ecclesiastically ornamented with clasps and corners, and sometimes even enamelled by Gruel Engelmann with silver oxide and clear enamels.
Under these circumstances, he had managed to acquire unique books, using outdated formats that he had bound by Lortic, Trautz-Bauzonnet, or Chambolle, the successors of Capé, in impeccable covers made of old silk, stamped cowhide, and Cape goat skin. These books were in full bindings with compartments and mosaic designs, protected by tabby or watered moire silk, and ornately decorated with clasps and corners, sometimes even enamelled by Gruel Engelmann using silver oxide and clear enamels.
Thus, with the marvelous episcopal lettering used in the old house of Le Clere, he had Baudelaire's works printed in a large format recalling that of ancient missals, on a very light and spongy Japan paper, soft as elder pith and imperceptibly tinted with a light rose hue through its milky white. This edition, limited to one copy, printed with a velvety black Chinese ink, had been covered outside and then recovered within with a wonderful genuine sow skin, chosen among a thousand, the color of flesh, its surface spotted where the hairs had been and adorned with black silk stamped in cold iron in miraculous designs by a great artist.
So, using the stunning episcopal lettering from the old house of Le Clere, he had Baudelaire's works printed in a large format that resembled ancient missals, on very lightweight, spongy Japan paper—soft like elder pith and subtly tinted with a light pink hue against its milky white background. This edition, limited to one copy, was printed in velvety black Chinese ink, and its exterior was covered and then lined inside with amazing genuine pigskin, carefully selected from a thousand options. The color was flesh-like, its surface dotted where the hairs had been, and it was decorated with black silk stamped in cold iron in exquisite designs by a master artist.
That day, Des Esseintes took this incomparable book from his shelves and handled it devotedly, once more reading certain pieces which seemed to him, in this simple but inestimable frame, more than ordinarily penetrating.
That day, Des Esseintes took this amazing book from his shelves and handled it with care, reading certain sections again that struck him as especially insightful in this straightforward yet priceless context.
His admiration for this writer was unqualified. According to him, until Baudelaire's advent in literature, writers had limited themselves to exploring the surfaces of the soul or to penetrating into the accessible and illuminated caverns, restoring here and there the layers of capital sins, studying their veins, their growths, and noting, like Balzac for example, the layers of strata in the soul possessed by the monomania of a passion, by ambition, by avarice, by paternal stupidity, or by senile love.
His admiration for this writer was absolute. He believed that until Baudelaire emerged in literature, writers had only scratched the surface of the soul or explored the well-lit depths, occasionally uncovering the layers of deadly sins, examining their patterns, their developments, and noting, like Balzac for instance, the different layers within a soul consumed by a single passion, driven by ambition, greed, foolish paternal instincts, or old love.
What had been treated heretofore was the abundant health of virtues and of vices, the tranquil functioning of commonplace brains, and the practical reality of contemporary ideas, without any ideal of sickly depravation or of any beyond. In short, the discoveries of those analysts had stopped at the speculations of good or evil classified by the Church. It was the simple investigation, the conventional examination of a botanist minutely observing the anticipated development of normal efflorescence abounding in the natural earth.
What had been discussed up until now was the rich health of virtues and vices, the smooth operation of ordinary minds, and the practical reality of modern ideas, without any notion of sickly corruption or anything beyond that. In short, the findings of those analysts had only reached the moral questions of good or evil as defined by the Church. It was just a straightforward investigation, the standard examination of a botanist carefully watching the expected growth of normal flowers thriving in the natural world.
Baudelaire had gone farther. He had descended to the very bowels of the inexhaustible mine, had involved his mind in abandoned and unfamiliar levels, and come to those districts of the soul where monstrous vegetations of thought extend their branches.
Baudelaire had gone further. He had descended to the depths of the endless mine, engaged his mind in forgotten and strange realms, and reached those areas of the soul where monstrous thoughts grow like wild vegetation.
There, near those confines, the haunt of aberrations and of sickness, of the mystic lockjaw, the warm fever of lust, and the typhoids and vomits of crime, he had found, brooding under the gloomy clock of Ennui, the terrifying spectre of the age of sentiments and ideas.
There, close to those boundaries, the place of oddities and illness, of the strange sickness of despair, the intense fever of desire, and the poisons and outbursts of wrongdoing, he had discovered, lingering under the dark weight of Boredom, the frightening ghost of an era defined by emotions and thoughts.
He had revealed the morbid psychology of the mind which has attained the October of its sensations, recounted the symptoms of souls summoned by grief and licensed by spleen, and shown the increasing decay of impressions while the enthusiasms and beliefs of youth are enfeebled and the only thing remaining is the arid memory of miseries borne, intolerances endured and affronts suffered by intelligences oppressed by a ridiculous destiny.
He had uncovered the dark mindset of a person who has fully experienced their emotions, described the signs of souls weighed down by sadness and bitterness, and illustrated the growing dullness of feelings as the passions and beliefs of youth fade away, leaving behind only the dry memory of suffered hardships, endured injustices, and insults faced by minds crushed by a foolish fate.
He had pursued all the phases of that lamentable autumn, studying the human creature, quick to exasperation, ingenious in deceiving himself, compelling his thoughts to cheat each other so as to suffer the more keenly, and frustrating in advance all possible joy by his faculty of analysis and observation.
He had gone through all the stages of that unfortunate autumn, examining humanity—quick to anger, clever at self-deception, forcing his thoughts to betray one another to feel pain more intensely, and preemptively sabotaging any potential happiness with his ability to analyze and observe.
Then, in this vexed sensibility of the soul, in this ferocity of reflection that repels the restless ardor of devotions and the well-meaning outrages of charity, he gradually saw arising the horror of those senile passions, those ripe loves, where one person yields while the other is still suspicious, where lassitude denies such couples the filial caresses whose apparent youthfulness seems new, and the maternal candors whose gentleness and comfort impart, in a sense, the engaging remorse of a vague incest.
Then, in this troubled state of the soul, in this intense self-reflection that pushes away the restless zeal of devotion and the misguided attempts at charity, he slowly began to recognize the horror of those aging passions, those mature loves, where one person submits while the other remains wary, where exhaustion deprives couples of the affectionate touches that seem youthful and fresh, and the nurturing comforts that provide, in a way, a disturbing sense of a vague incest.
In magnificent pages he exposed his hybrid loves who were exasperated by the impotence in which they were overwhelmed, the hazardous deceits of narcotics and poisons invoked to aid in calming suffering and conquering ennui. At an epoch when literature attributed unhappiness of life almost exclusively to the mischances of unrequited love or to the jealousies that attend adulterous love, he disregarded such puerile maladies and probed into those wounds which are more fatal, more keen and deep, which arise from satiety, disillusion and scorn in ruined souls whom the present tortures, the past fills with loathing and the future frightens and menaces with despair.
In stunning pages, he revealed his mixed-up loves, who were frustrated by the helplessness they felt. They turned to risky deceptions through drugs and poisons to help ease their pain and fight off boredom. At a time when literature mostly blamed life’s unhappiness on the misfortune of unreturned love or the jealousy that comes with cheating, he ignored those childish issues and dug into wounds that are more deadly, sharper, and deeper—those that come from boredom, disappointment, and disdain in broken souls who are tortured by the present, filled with hatred for the past, and threatened with despair about the future.
And the more Des Esseintes read Baudelaire, the more he felt the ineffable charm of this writer who, in an age when verse served only to portray the external semblance of beings and things, had succeeded in expressing the inexpressible in a muscular and brawny language; who, more than any other writer possessed a marvelous power to define with a strange robustness of expression, the most fugitive and tentative morbidities of exhausted minds and sad souls.
And the more Des Esseintes read Baudelaire, the more he sensed the indescribable allure of this author who, in a time when poetry was only meant to reflect the external appearances of people and things, managed to convey the unspeakable in a strong and forceful language; who, more than any other writer, had an incredible ability to capture with a unique intensity the fleeting and tentative anxieties of tired minds and troubled souls.
After Baudelaire's works, the number of French books given place in his shelves was strictly limited. He was completely indifferent to those works which it is fashionable to praise. "The broad laugh of Rabelais," and "the deep comedy of Moliere," did not succeed in diverting him, and the antipathy he felt against these farces was so great that he did not hesitate to liken them, in the point of art, to the capers of circus clowns.
After Baudelaire's works, the number of French books on his shelves was very limited. He couldn’t care less about those works that are trendy to praise. "The broad laughter of Rabelais" and "the deep comedy of Molière" didn’t entertain him at all; his dislike for these farces was so strong that he didn’t hesitate to compare them, in terms of artistry, to the antics of circus clowns.
As for old poetry, he read hardly anything except Villon, whose melancholy ballads touched him, and, here and there, certain fragments from d'Aubigné, which stimulated his blood with the incredible vehemence of their apostrophes and curses.
As for old poetry, he barely read anything except Villon, whose sad ballads moved him, and occasionally some passages from d'Aubigné, which energized him with the intense passion of their outbursts and curses.
In prose, he cared little for Voltaire and Rousseau, and was unmoved even by Diderot, whose so greatly praised Salons he found strangely saturated with moralizing twaddle and futility; in his hatred toward all this balderdash, he limited himself almost exclusively to the reading of Christian eloquence, to the books of Bourdaloue and Bossuet whose sonorously embellished periods were imposing; but, still more, he relished suggestive ideas condensed into severe and strong phrases, such as those created by Nicole in his reflections, and especially Pascal, whose austere pessimism and attrition deeply touched him.
In prose, he didn't care much for Voltaire and Rousseau, and was even indifferent to Diderot, whose highly praised Salons he found oddly filled with moralizing nonsense and futility. Out of his disdain for all this nonsense, he mostly limited himself to reading Christian eloquence, particularly the works of Bourdaloue and Bossuet, whose grandly crafted sentences were impressive. However, he particularly enjoyed powerful ideas expressed in concise and strong phrases, like those created by Nicole in his reflections, and especially Pascal, whose severe pessimism and struggle deeply resonated with him.
Apart from such books as these, French literature began in his library with the nineteenth century.
Apart from books like these, French literature in his library started with the nineteenth century.
This section was divided into two groups, one of which included the ordinary, secular literature, and the other the Catholic literature, a special but little known literature published by large publishing houses and circulated to the four corners of the earth.
This section was divided into two groups, one of which included regular, secular literature, and the other Catholic literature, a special but lesser-known type of literature published by major publishing houses and distributed worldwide.
He had had the hardihood to explore such crypts as these, just as in the secular art he had discovered, under an enormous mass of insipid writings, a few books written by true masters.
He had the boldness to explore crypts like these, just as in secular art he had found, buried under a huge pile of boring writings, a few books by true masters.
The distinctive character of this literature was the constant immutability of its ideas and language. Just as the Church perpetuated the primitive form of holy objects, so she has preserved the relics of her dogmas, piously retaining, as the frame that encloses them, the oratorical language of the celebrated century. As one of the Church's own writers, Ozanam, has put it, the Christian style needed only to make use of the dialect employed by Bourdaloue and by Bossuet to the exclusion of all else.
The unique aspect of this literature was its ideas and language that never changed. Just as the Church kept the original form of sacred objects, it has also preserved the core of its doctrines, faithfully maintaining the eloquent language of that renowned era as its framework. As one of the Church's own writers, Ozanam, stated, the Christian style only needed to use the language of Bourdaloue and Bossuet, ignoring everything else.
In spite of this statement, the Church, more indulgent, closed its eyes to certain expressions, certain turns of style borrowed from the secular language of the same century, and the Catholic idiom had slightly purified itself of its heavy and massive phrases, especially cleaning itself, in Bossuet, of its prolixity and the painful rallying of its pronouns; but here ended the concessions, and others would doubtless have been purposeless for the prose sufficed without this ballast for the limited range of subjects to which the Church confined itself.
Despite this statement, the Church, being more lenient, turned a blind eye to certain expressions and stylistic choices taken from the everyday language of the time. The Catholic language had somewhat cleaned up its heavy and clunky phrases, particularly in Bossuet, removing its wordiness and awkward pronoun constructions. However, this was where the leniency ended, and other allowances would likely have been pointless, as the prose was adequate without this extra weight for the narrow range of topics the Church focused on.
Incapable of grappling with contemporary life, of rendering the most simple aspects of things and persons visible and palpable, unqualified to explain the complicated wiles of intellects indifferent to the benefits of salvation, this language was nevertheless excellent when it treated of abstract subjects. It proved valuable in the argument of controversy, in the demonstration of a theory, in the obscurity of a commentary and, more than any other style, had the necessary authority to affirm, without any discussion, the intent of a doctrine.
Unable to deal with modern life, to make the simplest aspects of things and people clear and tangible, unfit to explain the clever tricks of minds indifferent to the benefits of salvation, this language was still excellent when discussing abstract topics. It was useful in debates, in proving a theory, in the complexity of a commentary, and more than any other style, it had the necessary authority to assert, without any debate, the meaning of a doctrine.
Unfortunately, here as everywhere, the sanctuary had been invaded by a numerous army of pedants who smirched by their ignorance and lack of talent the Church's noble and austere attire. Further to profane it, devout women had interfered, and stupid sacristans and foolish salons had acclaimed as works of genius the wretched prattle of such women.
Unfortunately, here as everywhere, the sanctuary had been invaded by a large group of know-it-alls who stained the Church's noble and austere appearance with their ignorance and lack of talent. To further desecrate it, devout women had gotten involved, and foolish sacristans and silly social circles had praised the pathetic ramblings of these women as if they were masterpieces.
Among such works, Des Esseintes had had the curiosity to read those of Madame Swetchine, the Russian, whose house in Paris was the rendezvous of the most fervent Catholics. Her writings had filled him with insufferably horrible boredom; they were more than merely wretched: they were wretched in every way, resembling the echoes of a tiny chapel where the solemn worshippers mumble their prayers, asking news of one another in low voices, while they repeat with a deeply mysterious air the common gossip of politics, weather forecasts and the state of the weather.
Among such works, Des Esseintes had been curious enough to read those of Madam Swetchine, the Russian, whose home in Paris was the meeting place for the most passionate Catholics. Her writings had utterly bored him; they were not just terrible: they were terrible in every way, resembling the hushed atmosphere of a small chapel where solemn worshippers mumble their prayers, quietly catching up with each other while they repeat with an air of deep mystery the usual gossip about politics, weather, and the state of things.
But there was even worse: a female laureate licensed by the Institute, Madame Augustus Craven, author of Recit d'une soeur, of Eliane and Fleaurange, puffed into reputation by the whole apostolic press. Never, no, never, had Des Esseintes imagined that any person could write such ridiculous nonsense. In the point of conception, these books were so absurd, and were written in such a disgusting style, that by these tokens they became almost remarkable and rare.
But there was something even worse: a female laureate endorsed by the Institute, Madame Augustus Craven, author of Récit d'une sœur, Eliane, and Fleaurange, who was inflated to fame by the entire apostolic press. Never, ever, had Des Esseintes imagined that anyone could write such ridiculous nonsense. In terms of ideas, these books were so absurd and written in such an awful style that by those measures they became almost noteworthy and rare.
It was not at all among the works of women that Des Esseintes, whose soul was completely jaded and whose nature was not inclined to sentimentality, could come upon a literary retreat suited to his taste.
It was definitely not among the works of women that Des Esseintes, whose soul was completely worn out and whose nature was not geared towards sentimentality, could find a literary escape that matched his taste.
Yet he strove, with a diligence that no impatience could overcome, to enjoy the works of a certain girl of genius, the blue-stocking pucelle of the group, but his efforts miscarried. He did not take to the Journal and the Lettres in which Eugénie de Guérin celebrates, without discretion, the amazing talent of a brother who rhymed, with such cleverness and grace that one must go to the works of de Jouy and Écouchard Lebrun to find anything so novel and daring.
Yet he worked hard, with a persistence that no impatience could shake, to appreciate the creations of a certain talented girl, the intellectual star of the group, but his attempts failed. He didn’t connect with the Journal and the Letters in which Eugénie de Guérin openly praises the incredible ability of her brother, who wrote rhymes with such skill and elegance that one must look to the works of de Jouy and Écouchard Lebrun to find anything so fresh and bold.
He had also unavailingly attempted to comprehend the delights of those works in which one may find such things as these:
He had also unsuccessfully tried to understand the joys of those works that contain things like these:
This morning I hung on papa's bed a cross which a little girl had given him yesterday.
This morning, I hung a cross on Dad's bed that a little girl gave him yesterday.
Or:
Otherwise:
Mimi and I are invited by Monsieur Roquiers to attend the consecration of a bell tomorrow. This does not displease me at all.
Mimi and I have been invited by Monsieur Roquiers to attend the bell consecration tomorrow. I'm really looking forward to it.
Or wherein we find such important events as these:
Or where we find such significant events like these:
On my neck I have hung a medal of the Holy Virgin which Louise had brought me, as an amulet against cholera.
I've got a medal of the Holy Virgin hanging from my neck that Louise gave me as a charm to protect against cholera.
Or poetry of this sort:
Or this kind of poetry:
O the lovely moonbeam which fell on the Bible I was reading!
Oh, the beautiful moonlight that fell on the Bible I was reading!
And, finally, such fine and penetrating observations as these:
And finally, such insightful and sharp observations as these:
When I see a man pass before a crucifix, lift his hat and make the sign of the Cross, I say to myself, 'There goes a Christian.'
When I see a man walk past a crucifix, take off his hat, and make the sign of the Cross, I think to myself, 'There goes a Christian.'
And she continued in this fashion, without pause, until after Maurice de Guérin had died, after which his sister bewailed him in other pages, written in a watery prose strewn here and there with bits of poems whose humiliating poverty ended by moving Des Esseintes to pity.
And she kept going like this, without stopping, until after Maurice de Guérin had died, after which his sister mourned him in different pages, filled with an emotional style scattered here and there with lines of poetry whose desperate simplicity ultimately made Des Esseintes feel sorry for her.
Ah! it was hardly worth mentioning, but the Catholic party was not at all particular in the choice of its proteges and not at all artistic. Without exception, all these writers wrote in the pallid white prose of pensioners of a monastery, in a flowing movement of phrase which no astringent could counterbalance.
Ah! It was hardly worth mentioning, but the Catholic group was not picky at all in choosing its favorites and didn’t have much of an artistic sense. Without exception, all these writers wrote in the dull, lifeless prose typical of retired monks, using a smooth flow of phrases that no strong critique could offset.
So Des Esseintes, horror-stricken at such insipidities, entirely forsook this literature. But neither did he find atonement for his disappointments among the modern masters of the clergy. These latter were one-sided divines or impeccably correct controversialists, but the Christian language in their orations and books had ended by becoming impersonal and congealing into a rhetoric whose every movement and pause was anticipated, in a sequence of periods constructed after a single model. And, in fact, Des Esseintes discovered that all the ecclesiastics wrote in the same manner, with a little more or a little less abandon or emphasis, and there was seldom any variations between the bodiless patterns traded by Dupanloup or Landriot, La Bouillerie or Gaume, by Dom Gueranger or Ratisbonne, by Freppel or Perraud, by Ravignan or Gratry, by Olivain or Dosithée, by Didon or Chocarne.
So Des Esseintes, horrified by such blandness, completely abandoned this literature. But he also didn't find solace for his disappointments among the modern masters of the church. These were either narrow-minded theologians or perfectly correct debaters, but the Christian language in their speeches and writings had become impersonal, solidifying into a rhetoric where every movement and pause was predictable, following a pattern constructed from a single model. In fact, Des Esseintes realized that all the clergy wrote in the same way, with just a bit more or less flair or emphasis, and there was rarely any real difference among the soulless styles offered by Dupanloup or Land Riot, La Bouillerie or Gaume, Dom Guéranger or Ratisbonne, Freppel or Perraud, Ravignan or Gratitude, Olivain or Dosithée, and Didon or Chocarne.
Des Esseintes had often pondered upon this matter. A really authentic talent, a supremely profound originality, a well-anchored conviction, he thought, was needed to animate this formal style which was too frail to support any thought that was unforseen or any thesis that was audacious.
Des Esseintes had often thought about this issue. He believed that a truly genuine talent, a deeply profound originality, and a strong conviction were necessary to bring life to this formal style, which was too weak to hold any unexpected ideas or bold theories.
Yet, despite all this, there were several writers whose burning eloquence fused and shaped this language, notably Lacordaire, who was one of the few really great writers the Church had produced for many years.
Yet, despite all this, there were several writers whose passionate eloquence fused and shaped this language, notably Lacordaire, who was one of the few truly great writers the Church had produced in many years.
Immured, like his colleagues, in the narrow circle of orthodox speculations, likewise obliged to dissipate his energies in the exclusive consideration of those theories which had been expressed and consecrated by the Fathers of the Church and developed by the masters of the pulpit, he succeeded in inbuing them with novelty and in rejuvenating, almost in modifying them, by clothing them in a more personal and stimulating form. Here and there in his Conférences de Notre-Dame, were treasures of expression, audacious usages of words, accents of love, rapid movements, cries of joy and distracted effusions. Then, to his position as a brilliant and gentle monk whose ingenuity and labors had been exhausted in the impossible task of conciliating the liberal doctrines of society with the authoritarian dogmas of the Church, he added a temperament of fierce love and suave diplomatic tenderness. In his letters to young men may be found the caressing inflections of a father exhorting his sons with smiling reprimands, the well-meaning advice and the indulgent forgiveness. Some of these Des Esseintes found charming, confessing as they did the monk's yearning for affection, while others were even imposing when they sought to sustain courage and dissipate doubts by the inimitable certainties of Faith. In fine, this sentiment of paternity, which gave his pen a delicately feminine quality, lent to his prose a characteristically individual accent discernible among all the clerical literature.
Trapped like his colleagues in the narrow circle of traditional theories, also forced to spend his energy on the exclusive study of ideas set forth and endorsed by the Church Fathers and developed by the great preachers, he managed to infuse them with new life, refreshing and almost transforming them by presenting them in a more personal and engaging way. Scattered throughout his Notre-Dame Conferences are gems of expression, bold uses of language, notes of affection, swift movements, shouts of joy, and spontaneous outpourings. To his role as a brilliant and gentle monk, whose creativity and efforts were exhausted in the impossible task of reconciling the liberal ideas of society with the strict doctrines of the Church, he added a temperament filled with passionate love and smooth diplomatic kindness. In his letters to young men, one can find the tender tones of a father encouraging his sons with gentle reprimands, heartfelt advice, and forgiving understanding. Some of these Des Esseintes found delightful, revealing the monk's longing for connection, while others were even impressive in their attempt to bolster courage and dispel doubts with the unique certainties of Faith. Ultimately, this paternal sentiment, which gave his writing a subtly feminine touch, added a distinctly personal tone to his prose that stood out in all clerical literature.
After Lacordaire, ecclesiastics and monks possessing any individuality were extremely rare. At the very most, a few pages of his pupil, the Abbé Peyreyve, merited reading. He left sympathetic biographies of his master, wrote a few loveable letters, composed treatises in the sonorous language of formal discourse, and delivered panegyrics in which the declamatory tone was too broadly stressed. Certainly the Abbé Peyreyve had neither the emotion nor the ardor of Lacordaire. He was too much a priest and too little a man. Yet, here and there in the rhetoric of his sermons, flashed interesting effects of large and solid phrasing or touches of nobility that were almost venerable.
After Lacordaire, it became quite rare to find individualistic clergy and monks. At most, a few pages written by his student, the Abbé Peyreyve, were worth reading. He produced sympathetic biographies of his mentor, penned a few charming letters, created essays in the formal style of the time, and gave speeches where the grand tone was often overdone. Clearly, the Abbé Peyreyve lacked the passion and fervor of Lacordaire. He was more of a priest and less of a person. Still, in some moments of his sermon rhetoric, there were striking examples of strong, substantial phrasing or hints of nobility that were nearly timeless.
But to find writers of prose whose works justify close study, one was obliged to seek those who had not submitted to Ordination; to the secular writers whom the interests of Catholicism engaged and devoted to its cause.
But to find prose writers whose works are worth a deep dive, one had to look for those who hadn’t been ordained; the secular writers who got involved with and dedicated themselves to the interests of Catholicism.
With the Comte de Falloux, the episcopal style, so stupidly handled by the prelates, recruited new strength and in a manner recovered its masculine vigor. Under his guise of moderation, this academician exuded gall. The discourse which he delivered to Parliament in 1848 was diffuse and abject, but his articles, first printed in the Correspondant and since collected into books, were mordant and discerning under the exaggerated politeness of their form. Conceived as harangues, they contained a certain strong muscular energy and were astonishing in the intolerance of their convictions.
With the Count de Falloux, the episcopal style, which had been so poorly managed by the bishops, gained new strength and somewhat regained its masculine energy. Behind his facade of moderation, this academician was sharp and bitter. The speech he delivered to Parliament in 1848 was lengthy and pathetic, but his articles, originally published in the Correspondent and later compiled into books, were incisive and insightful beneath their excessively polite surface. Designed as speeches, they possessed a certain strong muscular energy and were striking in the intensity of their beliefs.
A dangerous polemist because of his ambuscades, a shrewd logician, executing flanking movements and attacking unexpectedly, the Comte de Falloux had also written striking, penetrating pages on the death of Madame Swetchine, whose tracts he had collected and whom he revered as a saint.
A dangerous debater due to his traps, a sharp logician who executed flanking moves and struck unexpectedly, the Comte de Falloux had also written powerful, insightful pieces on the death of Madam Swetchine, whose writings he had compiled and whom he revered as a saint.
But the true temperament of the writer was betrayed in the two brochures which appeared in 1848 and 1880, the latter entitled l'Unité nationale.
But the true character of the writer was revealed in the two brochures that came out in 1848 and 1880, the latter titled National Unity.
Moved by a cold rage, the implacable legitimist this time fought openly, contrary to his custom, and hurled against the infidels, in the form of a peroration, such fulminating invectives as these:
Moved by a cold rage, the unyielding legitimist this time fought openly, unlike his usual practice, and threw against the infidels, in the form of a closing statement, such explosive insults as these:
"And you, systematic Utopians, who make an abstraction of human nature, fomentors of atheism, fed on chimeræ and hatreds, emancipators of woman, destroyers of the family, genealogists of the simian race, you whose name was but lately an outrage, be satisfied: you shall have been the prophets, and your disciples will be the high-priests of an abominable future!"
"And you, systematic Utopians, who create an abstract idea of human nature, promoters of atheism, fueled by illusions and resentments, liberators of women, destroyers of the family, tracing the lineage of the ape, you whose name was recently an insult, be content: you will have been the prophets, and your followers will be the high priests of a terrible future!"
The other brochure bore the title le Parti catholique and was directed against the despotism of the Univers and against Veuillot whose name he refused to mention. Here the sinuous attacks were resumed, venom filtered beneath each line, when the gentleman, clad in blue answered the sharp physical blows of the fighter with scornful sarcasms.
The other brochure was titled the Catholic Party and targeted the tyranny of the Universe and Veuillot, whose name he wouldn't utter. Here, the indirect attacks continued, with venom seeping through every line, while the man in blue responded to the fighter's physical blows with scornful sarcasm.
These contestants represented the two parties of the Church, the two factions whose differences were resolved into virulent hatreds. De Falloux, the more haughty and cunning, belonged to the liberal camp which already claimed Montalembert and Cochin, Lacordaire and De Broglie. He subscribed to the principles of the Correspondant, a review which attempted to cover the imperious theories of the Church with a varnish of tolerance. Veuillot, franker and more open, scorned such masks, unhesitatingly admitted the tyranny of the ultramontaine doctrines and confessed, with a certain compunction, the pitiless yoke of the Church's dogma.
These contestants represented the two factions within the Church, whose differences had turned into intense hatreds. De Falloux, the more arrogant and sly, was part of the liberal side, which already included Montalembert, Kochi, Lacordaire, and De Broglie. He supported the principles of the Correspondent, a magazine that tried to cover the strict theories of the Church with a facade of tolerance. Veuillot, more straightforward and candid, dismissed such disguises, openly recognized the oppressive nature of ultramontane doctrines, and admitted, somewhat regretfully, the relentless burden of the Church's dogma.
For the conduct of this verbal warfare, Veuillot had made himself master of a special style, partly borrowed from La Bruyère and Du Gros-Caillou. This half-solemn, half-slang style, had the force of a tomahawk in the hands of this vehement personality. Strangely headstrong and brave, he had overwhelmed both free thinkers and bishops with this terrible weapon, charging at his enemies like a bull, regardless of the party to which they belonged. Distrusted by the Church, which would tolerate neither his contraband style nor his fortified theories, he had nevertheless overawed everybody by his powerful talent, incurring the attack of the entire press which he effectively thrashed in his Odeurs de Paris, coping with every assault, freeing himself with a kick of the foot of all the wretched hack-writers who had presumed to attack him.
For this verbal battle, Veuillot had developed a unique style, partly inspired by La Bruyère and Du Gros-Caillou. This mix of formal and slang language struck like a tomahawk in the hands of his passionate nature. Strong-willed and fearless, he took on both free thinkers and bishops with this formidable weapon, charging at his foes like a bull, no matter their affiliation. Distrusted by the Church, which rejected both his unconventional style and his bold theories, he nonetheless impressed everyone with his exceptional talent, provoking the wrath of the whole press, which he effectively beat down in his Scents of Paris, dealing with every attack and shaking off all the pathetic hacks who had dared to challenge him.
Unfortunately, this undisputed talent only existed in pugilism. At peace, Veuillot was no more than a mediocre writer. His poetry and novels were pitiful. His language was vapid, when it was not engaged in a striking controversy. In repose, he changed, uttering banal litanies and mumbling childish hymns.
Unfortunately, this undeniable talent only showed in boxing. In normal life, Veuillot was just an average writer. His poetry and novels were disappointing. His language was dull, except when he was involved in a heated debate. In calm moments, he transformed, reciting boring phrases and mumbling childish songs.
More formal, more constrained and more serious was the beloved apologist of the Church, Ozanam, the inquisitor of the Christian language. Although he was very difficult to understand, Des Esseintes never failed to be astonished by the insouciance of this writer, who spoke confidently of God's impenetrable designs, although he felt obliged to establish proof of the improbable assertions he advanced. With the utmost self-confidence, he deformed events, contradicted, with greater impudence even than the panegyrists of other parties, the known facts of history, averred that the Church had never concealed the esteem it had for science, called heresies impure miasmas, and treated Buddhism and other religions with such contempt that he apologized for even soiling his Catholic prose by onslaught on their doctrines.
More formal, more constrained, and more serious was the beloved apologist of the Church, Ozanam, the critic of the Christian language. Although he was very hard to understand, Des Esseintes was always amazed by the nonchalance of this writer, who spoke confidently about God's mysterious plans, even though he felt the need to provide proof for the unlikely claims he made. With great self-assurance, he twisted events, contradicted, with even more shamelessness than the supporters of other groups, the known facts of history, claimed that the Church had never hidden its respect for science, called heresies dirty miasmas, and treated Buddhism and other religions with such disdain that he apologized for even tainting his Catholic prose with attacks on their beliefs.
At times, religious passion breathed a certain ardor into his oratorical language, under the ice of which seethed a violent current; in his numerous writings on Dante, on Saint Francis, on the author of Stabat Mater, on the Franciscan poets, on socialism, on commercial law and every imaginable subject, this man pleaded for the defense of the Vatican which he held indefectible, and judged causes and opinions according to their harmony or discord with those that he advanced.
Sometimes, religious passion infused a certain intensity into his speeches, beneath which a powerful current simmered; in his many writings on Dante, Saint Francis, the author of Stabat Mater, the Franciscan poets, socialism, commercial law, and every possible topic, this man advocated for the defense of the Vatican, which he believed was infallible, and evaluated causes and opinions based on how well they aligned or conflicted with his own views.
This manner of viewing questions from a single viewpoint was also the method of that literary scamp, Nettement, whom some people would have made the other's rival. The latter was less bigoted than the master, affected less arrogance and admitted more worldly pretentions. He repeatedly left the literary cloister in which Ozanam had imprisoned himself, and had read secular works so as to be able to judge of them. This province he entered gropingly, like a child in a vault, seeing nothing but shadow around him, perceiving in this gloom only the gleam of the candle which illumed the place a few paces before him.
This way of looking at questions from just one perspective was also the approach of that literary trickster, Clearly, whom some would have considered a rival to the other. The latter was less narrow-minded than the master, showed less arrogance, and accepted more worldly aspirations. He often stepped out of the literary bubble where Ozanam had confined himself and had explored secular works so he could evaluate them. This area he entered cautiously, like a child in a dark room, seeing nothing but shadows around him, noticing in this dimness only the flicker of the candle that lit up the area a few steps ahead.
In this gloom, uncertain of his bearings, he stumbled at every turn, speaking of Murger who had "the care of a chiselled and carefully finished style"; of Hugo who sought the noisome and unclean and to whom he dared compare De Laprade; of Paul Delacroix who scorned the rules; of Paul Delaroche and of the poet Reboul, whom he praised because of their apparent faith.
In this darkness, unsure of his direction, he stumbled at every turn, talking about Murger, who had "the care of a polished and meticulously crafted style"; about Hugo, who sought the foul and dirty and whom he dared to compare to De Laprade; about Paul Delacroix, who ignored the rules; about Paul Delaroche and the poet Reboul, whom he admired for their seeming belief.
Des Esseintes could not restrain a shrug of the shoulders before these stupid opinions, covered by a borrowed prose whose already worn texture clung or became torn at each phrase.
Des Esseintes couldn't help but shrug at these foolish opinions, wrapped in a borrowed style of writing that was already frayed and would cling or tear with each phrase.
In a different way, the works of Poujoulat and Genoude, Montalembert, Nicolas and Carné failed to inspire him with any definite interest. His taste for history was not pronounced, even when treated with the scholarly fidelity and harmonious style of the Duc de Broglie, nor was his penchant for the social and religious questions, even when broached by Henry Cochin, who revealed his true self in a letter where he gave a stirring account of the taking of the veil at the Sacré-Cœur. He had not touched these books for a long time, and the period was already remote when he had thrown with his waste paper the puerile lucubrations of the gloomy Pontmartin and the pitiful Féval; and long since he had given to his servants, for a certain vulgar usage, the short stories of Aubineau and Lasserre, in which are recorded wretched hagiographies of miracles effected by Dupont of Tours and by the Virgin.
In a different way, the works of Poujoulat and Genoude, Montalembert, Nicolas, and Carné didn’t spark any real interest for him. He didn’t have a strong taste for history, even when it was approached with the scholarly accuracy and graceful style of the Duke de Broglie, nor did he show much interest in social and religious issues, even when touched upon by Henry Cochin, who revealed his true feelings in a letter where he passionately described the taking of the veil at the Sacred Heart. He hadn’t picked up these books in a long time, and it had been a while since he had discarded, along with his waste paper, the simplistic writings of the gloomy Pontmartin and the pitiful Féval; and long ago, he had given to his servants, for some common use, the short stories of Aubineau and Lasserre, which contain pathetic hagiographies of the miracles performed by Dupont of Tours and by the Virgin.
In no way did Des Esseintes derive even a fugitive distraction from his boredom from this literature. The mass of books which he had once studied he had thrown into dim corners of his library shelves when he left the Fathers' school. "I should have left them in Paris," he told himself, as he turned out some books which were particularly insufferable: those of the Abbé Lamennais and that impervious sectarian so magisterially, so pompously dull and empty, the Comte Joseph de Maistre.
In no way did Des Esseintes find even a momentary escape from his boredom in this literature. The pile of books he had once studied was thrown into the dark corners of his library shelves when he left the Fathers' school. "I should have left them in Paris," he told himself as he pulled out some books that were especially unbearable: those of Abbé Lamennais and that stubbornly sectarian writer who was so pompously dull and empty, Count Joseph de Maistre.
A single volume remained on a shelf, within reach of his hand. It was the Homme of Ernest Hello. This writer was the absolute opposite of his religious confederates. Almost isolated among the pious group terrified by his conduct, Ernest Hello had ended by abandoning the open road that led from earth to heaven. Probably disgusted by the dullness of the journey and the noisy mob of those pilgrims of letters who for centuries followed one after the other upon the same highway, marching in each other's steps, stopping at the same places to exchange the same commonplace remarks on religion, on the Church Fathers, on their similar beliefs, on their common masters, he had departed through the byways to wander in the gloomy glade of Pascal, where he tarried long to recover his breath before continuing on his way and going even farther in the regions of human thought than the Jansenist, whom he derided.
A single book remained on a shelf, within reach of his hand. It was the Man by Ernest, hi!. This writer was completely different from his religious peers. Almost isolated among the devout group shocked by his behavior, Ernest, hi eventually turned away from the open road that led from earth to heaven. Probably fed up with the tediousness of the journey and the loud crowd of literary pilgrims who had been following the same path for centuries, marching in each other's footsteps, pausing at the same spots to exchange the same predictable comments on religion, the Church Fathers, their similar beliefs, and their shared influences, he took a detour to wander in the dark grove of Pascal, where he lingered for a long time to catch his breath before continuing on his journey and exploring even further into the realms of human thought than the Jansenist he mocked.
Tortuous and precious, doctoral and complex, Hello, by the piercing cunning of his analysis, recalled to Des Esseintes the sharp, probing investigations of some of the infidel psychologists of the preceding and present century. In him was a sort of Catholic Duranty, but more dogmatic and penetrating, an experienced manipulation of the magnifying glass, a sophisticated engineer of the soul, a skillful watchmaker of the brain, delighting to examine the mechanism of a passion and elucidate it by details of the wheel work.
Tortuous and precious, doctoral and complex, Hello, through the sharp insight of his analysis, reminded Des Esseintes of the intense, probing investigations by some of the unfaithful psychologists from both the past and present centuries. He was like a Catholic Duranty, but more dogmatic and insightful, expertly using the magnifying glass, a sophisticated engineer of the soul, a skilled watchmaker of the mind, enjoying the examination of a passion's mechanics and explaining it through the details of its inner workings.
In this oddly formed mind existed unsurmised relationships of thoughts, harmonies and oppositions; furthermore, he affected a wholly novel manner of action which used the etymology of words as a spring-board for ideas whose associations sometimes became tenuous, but which almost constantly remained ingenious and sparkling.
In this strangely shaped mind were unrecognized connections of thoughts, both harmonious and conflicting; moreover, he adopted a completely new way of acting that utilized the origins of words as a springboard for ideas whose links sometimes grew weak, but which almost always stayed clever and vibrant.
Thus, despite the awkwardness of his structure, he dissected with a singular perspicacity, the Avare, "the ordinary man," and "the passion of unhappiness," revealing meanwhile interesting comparisons which could be constructed between the operations of photography and of memory.
Thus, even with the clumsiness of his structure, he analyzed the Greedy, "the ordinary man," and "the passion of unhappiness," uncovering intriguing comparisons that could be made between the processes of photography and memory.
But such skill in handling this perfected instrument of analysis, stolen from the enemies of the Church, represented only one of the temperamental phases of this man.
But this mastery of the refined tool for analysis, taken from the Church's enemies, was just one aspect of this man's character.
Still another existed. This mind divided itself in two parts and revealed, besides the writer, the religious fanatic and Biblical prophet.
Still another existed. This mind split into two parts and showed, in addition to the writer, the religious fanatic and Biblical prophet.
Like Hugo, whom he now and again recalled in distortions of phrases and words, Ernest Hello had delighted in imitating Saint John of Patmos. He pontificated and vaticinated from his retreat in the rue Saint-Sulpice, haranguing the reader with an apocalyptic language partaking in spots of the bitterness of an Isaiah.
Like Hugo, whom he occasionally remembered in twisted phrases and words, Ernest Hi enjoyed mimicking Saint John of Patmos. He preached and prophesied from his hideaway on the Saint-Sulpice Street, addressing the reader with a dramatic, apocalyptic language that sometimes echoed the bitterness of an Isaiah.
He affected inordinate pretentions of profundity. There were some fawning and complacent people who pretended to consider him a great man, the reservoir of learning, the encyclopedic giant of the age. Perhaps he was a well, but one at whose bottom one often could not find a drop of water.
He put on an excessive show of deep thinking. There were some sycophantic and self-satisfied people who pretended to view him as a great man, the source of knowledge, the all-knowing giant of his time. Maybe he was a well, but one where you often couldn't find even a drop of water at the bottom.
In his volume Paroles de Dieu, he paraphrased the Holy Scriptures, endeavoring to complicate their ordinarily obvious sense. In his other book Homme, and in his brochure le Jour du Seigneur, written in a biblical style, rugged and obscure, he sought to appear like a vengeful apostle, prideful and tormented with spleen, but showed himself a deacon touched with a mystic epilepsy, or like a talented Maistre, a surly and bitter sectarian.
In his book Words of God, he rephrased the Holy Scriptures, trying to make their usually clear meanings more complex. In his other book Man, and in his pamphlet Sunday Worship, written in a biblical style that is rough and obscure, he aimed to come across as a vengeful apostle, proud and filled with bitterness, but instead, he revealed himself as a deacon influenced by a mystical frenzy, or like a skilled Maistre, grumpy and resentful.
But, thought Des Esseintes, this sickly shamelessness often obstructed the inventive sallies of the casuist. With more intolerance than even Ozanam, he resolutely denied all that pertained to his clan, proclaimed the most disconcerting axioms, maintained with a disconcerting authority that "geology is returning toward Moses," and that natural history, like chemistry and every contemporary science, verifies the scientific truth of the Bible. The proposition on each page was of the unique truth and the superhuman knowledge of the Church, and everywhere were interspersed more than perilous aphorisms and raging curses cast at the art of the last century.
But, thought Des Esseintes, this sickly shamelessness often got in the way of the clever ideas of the moralist. With even more intolerance than Ozanam, he firmly denied everything related to his group, announced the most shocking statements, and insisted with unsettling confidence that "geology is going back to Moses," and that natural history, like chemistry and all modern sciences, confirms the scientific truth of the Bible. Each page presented the unique truth and the extraordinary knowledge of the Church, filled with more than dangerous sayings and furious insults aimed at the art of the last century.
To this strange mixture was added the love of sanctimonious delights, such as a translation of the Visions by Angèle de Foligno, a book of an unparalleled fluid stupidity, with selected works of Jean Rusbrock l'Admirable, a mystic of the thirteenth century whose prose offered an incomprehensible but alluring combination of dusky exaltations, caressing effusions, and poignant transports.
To this odd mix was added a love for self-righteous pleasures, like a translation of the Visions by Angèle of Foligno, a book of unmatched silly simplicity, along with selected works of Jean Rusbrock the Admirable, a thirteenth-century mystic whose writing presented a confusing yet captivating blend of dark thrills, tender expressions, and intense emotions.
The whole attitude of this presumptuous pontiff, Hello, had leaped from a preface written for this book. He himself remarked that "extraordinary things can only be stammered," and he stammered in good truth, declaring that "the holy gloom where Rusbrock extends his eagle wings is his ocean, his prey, his glory, and for such as him the far horizons would be a too narrow garment."
The entire attitude of this arrogant pope, Hello, had jumped out from a preface written for this book. He himself noted that "extraordinary things can only be stammered," and he did indeed stammer, claiming that "the holy gloom where Rusbrock spreads his eagle wings is his ocean, his target, his glory, and for someone like him, the distant horizons would be too tight a fit."
However this might be, Des Esseintes felt himself intrigued toward this ill-balanced but subtile mind. No fusion had been effected between the skilful psychologist and the pious pedant, and the very jolts and incoherencies constituted the personality of the man.
However this might be, Des Esseintes found himself intrigued by this unbalanced but subtle mind. There was no merging between the skilled psychologist and the devout pedant, and the very jolts and inconsistencies shaped the personality of the man.
With him was recruited the little group of writers who fought on the front battle line of the clerical camp. They did not belong to the regular army, but were more properly the scouts of a religion which distrusted men of such talent as Veuillot and Hello, because they did not seem sufficiently submissive and shallow. What the Church really desires is soldiers who do not reason, files of such blind combatants and such mediocrities as Hello describes with the rage of one who has submitted to their yoke. Thus it was that Catholicism had lost no time in driving away one of its partisans, an enraged pamphleteer who wrote in a style at once rare and exasperated, the savage Léon Bloy; and caused to be cast from the doors of its bookshops, as it would a plague or a filthy vagrant, another writer who had made himself hoarse with celebrating its praises, Barbey d'Aurevilly.
With him was a small group of writers who fought on the front lines of the clerical camp. They weren’t part of the regular army but were more like the scouts for a faith that was wary of talented individuals like Veuillot and Hello, as they didn’t appear sufficiently obedient or superficial. What the Church really wants are soldiers who don’t think, a lineup of blind fighters and mediocrities like those described with anger by Hello, who had submitted to their will. This is how Catholicism quickly pushed away one of its supporters, an enraged pamphleteer known for his rare and intense writing style, the fierce Léon Bloy; and also expelled from its bookstores, as if dealing with a plague or a filthy beggar, another writer who had tirelessly praised it, Barbey d'Aurevilly.
It is true that the latter was too prone to compromise and not sufficiently docile. Others bent their heads under rebukes and returned to the ranks; but he was the enfant terrible, and was unrecognized by the party. In a literary way, he pursued women whom he dragged into the sanctuary. Nay, even that vast disdain was invoked, with which Catholicism enshrouds talent to prevent excommunication from putting beyond the pale of the law a perplexing servant who, under pretext of honoring his masters, broke the window panes of the chapel, juggled with the holy pyxes and executed eccentric dances around the tabernacle.
It’s true that he was too quick to compromise and not submissive enough. Others lowered their heads to criticism and fell back in line; but he was the troublesome child and wasn’t accepted by the group. In a literary sense, he went after women, bringing them into sacred spaces. Indeed, even that immense disregard was called upon, with which Catholicism wraps talent to keep a confusing servant from being cast out of society for, under the guise of honoring his superiors, breaking the windows of the chapel, playing with the holy communion containers, and doing quirky dances around the altar.
Two works of Barbey d'Aurevilly specially attracted Des Esseintes, the Prêtre marié and the Diaboliques. Others, such as the Ensorcelé, the Chevalier des touches and Une Vieille Maîtresse, were certainly more comprehensive and more finely balanced, but they left Des Esseintes untouched, for he was really interested only in unhealthy works which were consumed and irritated by fever.
Two works by Barbey d'Aurevilly especially caught Des Esseintes' attention: the Married priest and the Diabolical. Others, like the Enchanted, the Keyboard Knight, and An Old Mistress, were definitely more extensive and better balanced, but they didn't resonate with Des Esseintes, as he was genuinely only interested in unhealthy works that were consumed and stirred up by fever.
In these all but healthy volumes, Barbey d'Aurevilly constantly hesitated between those two pits which the Catholic religion succeeds in reconciling: mysticism and sadism.
In these almost unhealthy volumes, Barbey d'Aurevilly constantly struggled between the two extremes that the Catholic religion manages to reconcile: mysticism and sadism.
In these two books which Des Esseintes was thumbing, Barbey had lost all prudence, given full rein to his steed, and galloped at full speed over roads to their farthest limits.
In these two books that Des Esseintes was flipping through, Barbey had completely thrown caution to the wind, letting his imagination run wild, and raced at full speed down paths to their farthest reaches.
All the mysterious horror of the Middle Ages hovered over that improbable book, the Prêtre marié; magic blended with religion, black magic with prayer and, more pitiless and savage than the Devil himself, the God of Original Sin incessantly tortured the innocent Calixte, His reprobate, as once He had caused one of his angels to mark the houses of unbelievers whom he wished to slay.
All the eerie terror of the Middle Ages surrounded that unlikely book, the Married priest; magic mixed with religion, black magic with prayer, and, more ruthless and savage than the Devil himself, the God of Original Sin relentlessly tormented the innocent Calixte, His outcast, just as He had once caused one of His angels to mark the homes of nonbelievers He wanted to destroy.
Conceived by a fasting monk in the grip of delirium, these scenes were unfolded in the uneven style of a tortured soul. Unfortunately, among those disordered creatures that were like galvanized Coppelias of Hoffmann, some, like Néel de Néhou, seemed to have been imagined in moments of exhaustion following convulsions, and were discordant notes in this harmony of sombre madness, where they were as comical and ridiculous as a tiny zinc figure playing on a horn on a timepiece.
Conceived by a fasting monk in a state of delirium, these scenes unfolded in the uneven style of a tortured soul. Unfortunately, among those disordered beings that resembled the animated dolls from Hoffmann, some, like Néel de Néhou, seemed to have been envisioned in moments of exhaustion after convulsions, acting as discordant notes in this harmony of dark madness, where they were as humorous and silly as a small zinc figure playing a horn on a clock.
After these mystic divagations, the writer had experienced a period of calm. Then a terrible relapse followed.
After these mystical wanderings, the writer went through a time of peace. Then a horrible setback occurred.
This belief that man is a Buridanesque donkey, a being balanced between two forces of equal attraction which successively remain victorious and vanquished, this conviction that human life is only an uncertain combat waged between hell and heaven, this faith in two opposite beings, Satan and Christ, was fatally certain to engender such inner discords of the soul, exalted by incessant struggle, excited at once by promises and menaces, and ending by abandoning itself to whichever of the two forces persisted in the pursuit the more relentlessly.
This belief that humans are like a Buridanesque donkey, caught between two equally strong forces that alternately win and lose, this idea that life is just an uncertain battle between hell and heaven, this faith in two opposing figures, Satan and Christ, was bound to create deep inner conflicts within the soul. This struggle, fueled by constant tension and stirred by both promises and threats, ultimately leads to surrendering to whichever of the two forces pursues more relentlessly.
In the Prêtre marié, Barbey d'Aurevilly sang the praises of Christ, who had prevailed against temptations; in the Diaboliques, the author succumbed to the Devil, whom he celebrated; then appeared sadism, that bastard of Catholicism, which through the centuries religion has relentlessly pursued with its exorcisms and stakes.
In the Married priest, Barbey d'Aurevilly praised Christ, who overcame temptation. In the Diabolical, the author gave in to the Devil, whom he glorified; then came sadism, that illegitimate offspring of Catholicism, which religion has relentlessly chased through the centuries with its exorcisms and stakes.
This condition, at once fascinating and ambiguous, can not arise in the soul of an unbeliever. It does not merely consist in sinking oneself in the excesses of the flesh, excited by outrageous blasphemies, for in such a case it would be no more than a case of satyriasis that had reached its climax. Before all, it consists in sacrilegious practice, in moral rebellion, in spiritual debauchery, in a wholly ideal aberration, and in this it is exemplarily Christian. It also is founded upon a joy tempered by fear, a joy analogous to the satisfaction of children who disobey their parents and play with forbidden things, for no reason other than that they had been forbidden to do so.
This condition, both intriguing and unclear, cannot exist in the soul of a non-believer. It’s not just about indulging in physical excesses stirred up by shocking blasphemies, as that would simply be a case of extreme lust. Above all, it involves sacrilegious actions, moral defiance, spiritual indulgence, and a completely ideal deviation, making it distinctly Christian. It is rooted in a joy mixed with fear, similar to the delight children feel when they disobey their parents and play with things they’re not supposed to, simply because they were told not to.
In fact, if it did not admit of sacrilege, sadism would have no reason for existence. Besides, the sacrilege proceeding from the very existence of a religion, can only be intentionally and pertinently performed by a believer, for no one would take pleasure in profaning a faith that was indifferent or unknown to him.
In fact, if it didn’t involve sacrilege, sadism wouldn’t have any reason to exist. Additionally, the sacrilege that comes from the very existence of a religion can only be intentionally and relevantly carried out by someone who believes in it, because no one would take pleasure in disrespecting a faith that they either don’t care about or don’t know.
The power of sadism and the attraction it presents, lies entirely then in the prohibited enjoyment of transferring to Satan the praises and prayers due to God; it lies in the non-observance of Catholic precepts which one really follows unwillingly, by committing in deeper scorn of Christ, those sins which the Church has especially cursed, such as pollution of worship and carnal orgy.
The appeal of sadism comes from the forbidden thrill of giving the praise and prayers meant for God to Satan instead. It comes from the disregard for Catholic rules that one secretly follows, by willingly committing deeper offenses against Christ, specifically the sins that the Church has condemned, like desecration of worship and sexual debauchery.
In its elements, this phenomenon to which the Marquis de Sade has bequeathed his name is as old as the Church. It had reared its head in the eighteenth century, recalling, to go back no farther, by a simple phenomenon of atavism the impious practices of the Sabbath, the witches' revels of the Middle Ages.
In its basic form, this phenomenon that the Marquis de Sade has left his name to is as old as the Church itself. It emerged in the eighteenth century, reminding us, without going further back, of the impious practices of the Sabbath and the witches' gatherings of the Middle Ages, through a simple act of atavism.
By having consulted the Malleus maleficorum, that terrible code of Jacob Sprenger which permits the Church wholesale burnings of necromancers and sorcerers, Des Esseintes recognized in the witches' Sabbath, all the obscene practices and all the blasphemies of sadism. In addition to the unclean scenes beloved by Malin, the nights successively and lawfully consecrated to excessive sensual orgies and devoted to the bestialities of passion, he once more discovered the parody of the processions, the insults and eternal threats levelled at God and the devotion bestowed upon His rival, while amid cursing of the wine and the bread, the black mass was being celebrated on the back of a woman on all fours, whose stained bare thighs served as the altar from which the congregation received the communion from a black goblet stamped with an image of a goat.
By consulting the Hammer of Witches, that awful code by Jacob Sprenger that allows the Church to burn necromancers and sorcerers en masse, Des Esseintes recognized in the witches' Sabbath all the obscene practices and blasphemies of sadism. Along with the dirty scenes favored by Malin, the nights were lawfully dedicated to excessive sensual orgies and the brutalities of passion. He once again found the parody of processions, the insults and constant threats aimed at God, and the devotion given to His rival, all while the wine and bread were cursed, and the black mass was performed on the back of a woman on all fours, whose stained bare thighs served as the altar from which the congregation received communion from a black goblet marked with a goat image.
This profusion of impure mockeries and foul shames were marked in the career of the Marquis de Sade, who garnished his terrible pleasures with outrageous sacrileges.
This abundance of dirty mockeries and disgraceful shames was evident in the career of the Marquis de Sade, who decorated his awful pleasures with shocking blasphemies.
He cried out to the sky, invoked Lucifer, shouted his contempt of God, calling Him rogue and imbecile, spat upon the communion, endeavored to contaminate with vile ordures a Divinity who he prayed might damn him, the while he declared, to defy Him the more, that He did not exist.
He yelled at the sky, called out to Lucifer, expressed his disdain for God, labeling Him a fraud and a fool, spat on the communion, tried to defile a Divinity he wished would condemn him, all while asserting, to challenge Him even further, that He didn’t exist.
Barbey d'Aurevilly approached this psychic state. If he did not presume as far as De Sade in uttering atrocious curses against the Saviour; if, more prudent or more timid, he claimed ever to honor the Church, he none the less addressed his suit to the Devil as was done in medieval times and he, too, in order to brave God, fell into demoniac nymphomania, inventing sensual monstrosities, even borrowing from bedroom philosophy a certain episode which he seasoned with new condiments when he wrote the story le Dîner d'un athée.
Barbey d'Aurevilly explored this psychic state. While he didn’t go as far as De Sade in hurling horrific curses at the Savior; if, perhaps more cautious or fearful, he claimed to respect the Church, he still directed his appeal to the Devil just as they did in medieval times. In his defiance of God, he descended into demonic nymphomania, creating sensual monstrosities and even borrowing a certain episode from bedroom philosophy, which he flavored with new details when he wrote the story An Atheist's Dinner.
This extravagant book pleased Des Esseintes. He had caused to be printed, in violet ink and in a frame of cardinal purple, on a genuine parchment which the judges of the Rota had blessed, a copy of the Diaboliques, with characters whose quaint quavers and flourishes in turned up tails and claws affected a satanic form.
This extravagant book delighted Des Esseintes. He had printed, in violet ink and framed in cardinal purple, a copy of the Diabolical on genuine parchment that had been blessed by the judges of the Rota. The characters were designed with quirky curls and flourishes that took on a demonic shape.
After certain pieces of Baudelaire that, in imitation of the clamorous songs of nocturnal revels, celebrated infernal litanies, this volume alone of all the works of contemporary apostolic literature testified to this state of mind, at once impious and devout, toward which Catholicism often thrust Des Esseintes.
After certain pieces of Baudelaire that, in imitation of the loud songs of nighttime parties, celebrated hellish litanies, this volume, more than any other work in modern spiritual literature, reflected this mindset, which was both sinful and devout, that Catholicism often pushed Des Esseintes toward.
With Barbey d'Aurevilly ended the line of religious writers; and in truth, that pariah belonged more, from every point of view, to secular literature than to the other with which he demanded a place that was denied him. His language was the language of disheveled romanticism, full of involved expressions, unfamiliar turns of speech, delighted with extravagant comparisons and with whip strokes and phrases which exploded, like the clangor of noisy bells, along the text. In short, d'Aurevilly was like a stallion among the geldings of the ultramontaine stables.
With Barbey d'Aurevilly, the line of religious writers came to an end; and honestly, that outsider belonged more to secular literature than to the realm he sought recognition in but was denied. His writing was a wild mix of romanticism, filled with complicated phrases, unusual expressions, and a fondness for dramatic comparisons, alongside sharp remarks and phrases that burst forth like the loud clanging of bells throughout the text. In short, d'Aurevilly was like a stallion among the geldings of the ultramontaine stables.
Des Esseintes reflected in this wise while re-reading, here and there, several passages of the book and, comparing its nervous and changing style with the fixed manner of other Church writers, he thought of the evolution of language which Darwin has so truly revealed.
Des Esseintes thought about this as he reread various passages of the book and, comparing its lively and shifting style with the steady approach of other Church writers, he considered the evolution of language that Darwin has so clearly shown.
Compelled to live in a secular atmosphere, raised in the heart of the romantic school, constantly being in the current of modern literature and accustomed to reading contemporary publications, Barbey d'Aurevilly had acquired a dialect which although it had sustained numerous and profound changes since the Great Age, had nevertheless renewed itself in his works.
Compelled to live in a secular environment, raised in the heart of the romantic movement, constantly engaged with modern literature and used to reading contemporary publications, Barbey d'Aurevilly had developed a style that, although it had undergone countless and significant changes since the Great Age, had nonetheless revitalized itself in his works.
The ecclesiastical writers, on the contrary, confined within specific limitations, restricted to ancient Church literature, knowing nothing of the literary progress of the centuries and determined if need be to blind their eyes the more surely not to see, necessarily were constrained to the use of an inflexible language, like that of the eighteenth century which descendants of the French who settled in Canada still speak and write today, without change of phrasing or words, having succeeded in preserving their original idiom by isolation in certain metropolitan centres, despite the fact that they are enveloped upon every side by English-speaking peoples.
The church writers, on the other hand, were limited by specific constraints, tied to ancient Church texts, unaware of the literary developments over the centuries, and if necessary, they chose to deliberately ignore these changes. As a result, they were forced to use a rigid language, similar to that of the eighteenth century, which descendants of the French settlers in Canada still speak and write today, without altering their phrasing or vocabulary. They managed to keep their original language due to isolation in certain urban centers, even though they are surrounded by English-speaking communities.
Meanwhile the silvery sound of a clock that tolled the angelus announced breakfast time to Des Esseintes. He abandoned his books, pressed his brow and went to the dining room, saying to himself that, among all the volumes he had just arranged, the works of Barbey d'Aurevilly were the only ones whose ideas and style offered the gaminess he so loved to savor in the Latin and decadent, monastic writers of past ages.
Meanwhile, the soft chime of a clock that signaled the angelus announced breakfast time to Des Esseintes. He set aside his books, rubbed his forehead, and made his way to the dining room, telling himself that among all the volumes he had just organized, the works of Barbey d'Aurevilly were the only ones whose ideas and style provided the excitement he loved to indulge in from the Latin and decadent, monastic writers of earlier times.
Chapter 13
As the season advanced, the weather, far from improving, grew worse. Everything seemed to go wrong that year. After the squalls and mists, the sky was covered with a white expanse of heat, like plates of sheet iron. In two days, without transition, a torrid heat, an atmosphere of frightful heaviness, succeeded the damp cold of foggy days and the streaming of the rains. As though stirred by furious pokers, the sun showed like a kiln-hole, darting a light almost white-hot, burning one's face. A hot dust rose from the roads, scorching the dry trees, and the yellowed lawns became a deep brown. A temperature like that of a foundry hung over the dwelling of Des Esseintes.
As the season went on, the weather, far from getting better, just got worse. Everything seemed to fall apart that year. After the storms and fog, the sky turned into a white blanket of heat, like sheets of metal. In just two days, a sweltering heat and an atmosphere of unbearable heaviness replaced the chilly dampness of the foggy days and the pouring rain. The sun, like a furious furnace, appeared like a blistering hole, sending down an almost white-hot light that burned the skin. Hot dust lifted from the roads, scorching the parched trees, and the once-green lawns turned deep brown. A temperature like that of a foundry hung over the home of Des Esseintes.
Half naked, he opened a window and received the air like a furnace blast in his face. The dining room, to which he fled, was fiery, and the rarefied air simmered. Utterly distressed, he sat down, for the stimulation that had seized him had ended since the close of his reveries.
Half-dressed, he opened a window and felt the hot air hit his face like a blast from a furnace. The dining room he rushed into was suffocating, and the thin air felt like it was boiling. Completely overwhelmed, he sat down, because the excitement that had taken hold of him had faded since his daydreams ended.
Like all people tormented by nervousness, heat distracted him. And his anæmia, checked by cold weather, again became pronounced, weakening his body which had been debilitated by copious perspiration.
Like everyone who struggles with anxiety, he was distracted by the heat. His anemia, which had been under control in the cold weather, flared up again, weakening his already fragile body that had been drained by excessive sweating.
The back of his shirt was saturated, his perinæum was damp, his feet and arms moist, his brow overflowing with sweat that ran down his cheeks. Des Esseintes reclined, annihilated, on a chair.
The back of his shirt was soaked, his groin was damp, his feet and arms sweaty, and his forehead was dripping with sweat that ran down his cheeks. Des Esseintes lay back, exhausted, in a chair.
The sight of the meat placed on the table at that moment caused his stomach to rise. He ordered the food removed, asked for boiled eggs, and tried to swallow some bread soaked in eggs, but his stomach would have none of it. A fit of nausea overcame him. He drank a few drops of wine that pricked his stomach like points of fire. He wet his face; the perspiration, alternately warm and cold, coursed along his temples. He began to suck some pieces of ice to overcome his troubled heart—but in vain.
The sight of the meat on the table made his stomach turn. He had the food taken away, asked for boiled eggs, and tried to eat some bread soaked in eggs, but his stomach rejected it. A wave of nausea hit him. He sipped a few drops of wine that felt like fire inside him. He wet his face; the sweat, hot and cold, ran down his temples. He started sucking on some ice to calm his racing heart—but it didn’t help.
So weak was he that he leaned against the table. He rose, feeling the need of air, but the bread had slowly risen in his gullet and remained there. Never had he felt so distressed, so shattered, so ill at ease. To add to his discomfort, his eyes distressed him and he saw objects in double. Soon he lost his sense of distance, and his glass seemed to be a league away. He told himself that he was the play-thing of sensorial illusions and that he was incapable of reacting. He stretched out on a couch, but instantly he was cradled as by the tossing of a moving ship, and the affection of his heart increased. He rose to his feet, determined to rid himself, by means of a digestive, of the food which was choking him.
He felt so weak that he leaned against the table. He got up, craving fresh air, but the bread felt stuck in his throat. He had never felt this distressed, broken, and uneasy. To make matters worse, his eyes were bothering him, and everything looked double. Before long, he lost his sense of distance, and his glass seemed like it was a mile away. He reminded himself that he was just a victim of sensory illusions and couldn't react properly. He lay back on a couch, but it felt like he was rocking on a ship, and his anxiety grew. He stood up, determined to find something to help him digest the food that was suffocating him.
He again reached the dining room and sadly compared himself, in this cabin, to passengers seized with sea-sickness. Stumbling, he made his way to the closet, examined the mouth organ without opening any of the stops, but instead took from a high shelf a bottle of benedictine which he kept because of its form which to him seemed suggestive of thoughts that were at once gently wanton and vaguely mystic.
He walked back into the dining room and sadly compared himself, in this cabin, to passengers suffering from seasickness. Stumbling, he made his way to the closet, looked at the harmonica without opening any of the stops, but instead took down a bottle of Benedictine from a high shelf that he kept because its shape seemed to evoke thoughts that were both playfully indulgent and vaguely mystical.
But at this moment he remained indifferent, gazing with lack-lustre, staring eyes at this squat, dark-green bottle which, at other times, had brought before him images of the medieval priories by its old-fashioned monkish paunch, its head and neck covered with a parchment hood, its red wax stamp quartered with three silver mitres against a field of azure and fastened at the neck, like a papal bull, with bands of lead, its label inscribed in sonorous Latin, on paper that seemed to have yellowed with age: Liquor Monachorum Benedictinorum Abbatiae Fiscannensis.
But right now he was indifferent, staring blankly at the short, dark-green bottle that, at other times, had reminded him of medieval monasteries with its old-fashioned, plump monk shape, its head and neck covered with a parchment hood, its red wax seal marked with three silver miters on a blue background, fastened at the neck like a papal bull with lead bands, and its label written in elegant Latin on paper that looked like it had yellowed with age: Benedictine Monks' Liquor of Fiscaux.
Under this thoroughly abbatial robe, signed with a cross and the ecclesiastic initials 'D.O.M.', pressed in between its parchments and ligatures, slept an exquisitely fine saffron-colored liquid. It breathed an aroma that seemed the quintessence of angelica and hyssop blended with sea-weeds and of iodines and bromes hidden in sweet essences, and it stimulated the palate with a spiritous ardor concealed under a virginal daintiness, and charmed the sense of smell by a pungency enveloped in a caress innocent and devout.
Under this elaborate abbey robe, marked with a cross and the church initials 'D.O.M.', nestled between its layers and bindings, rested an exquisite saffron-colored liquid. It exuded a fragrance that felt like the essence of angelica and hyssop mixed with seaweed, along with hints of iodine and bromine concealed in sweet aromas. It delighted the taste buds with a spirited warmth hidden beneath a delicate sweetness and captivated the sense of smell with a sharpness wrapped in an innocent and devout embrace.
This deceit which resulted from the extraordinary disharmony between contents and container, between the liturgic form of the flask and its so feminine and modern soul, had formerly stimulated Des Esseintes to revery and, facing the bottle, he was inclined to think at great length of the monks who sold it, the Benedictines of the Abbey of Fécamp who, belonging to the brotherhood of Saint-Maur which had been celebrated for its controversial works under the rule of Saint Benoît, followed neither the observances of the white monks of Cîteaux nor of the black monks of Cluny. He could not but think of them as being like their brethren of the Middle Ages, cultivating simples, heating retorts and distilling faultless panaceas and prescriptions.
This deception, caused by the unusual mismatch between the contents and the container, between the ceremonial style of the flask and its so feminine and modern essence, had previously inspired Des Esseintes to daydream. While staring at the bottle, he couldn't help but think deeply about the monks who sold it, the Benedictines of the Abbey of Fécamp, who were part of the Saint-Maur brotherhood, known for their controversial works under the rule of Saint Benedict. They didn't adhere to the practices of the white monks of Cistercians or the black monks of Cluny. He envisioned them as similar to their medieval counterparts, cultivating herbs, heating glassware, and distilling perfect remedies and prescriptions.
He tasted a drop of this liquor and, for a few moments, had relief. But soon the fire, which the dash of wine had lit in his bowels, revived. He threw down his napkin, returned to his study, and paced the floor. He felt as if he were under a pneumatic clock, and a numbing weakness stole from his brain through his limbs. Unable to endure it longer, he betook himself to the garden. It was the first time he had done this since his arrival at Fontenay. There he found shelter beneath a tree which radiated a circle of shadow. Seated on the lawn, he looked around with a besotted air at the square beds of vegetables planted by the servants. He gazed, but it was only at the end of an hour that he really saw them, for a greenish film floated before his eyes, permitting him only to see, as in the depths of water, flickering images of shifting tones.
He took a sip of the liquor and, for a little while, felt some relief. But soon the burning sensation that the wine had ignited in his stomach came back. He tossed aside his napkin, went back to his study, and started pacing the floor. It felt like he was trapped in a pneumatic clock, and a numbing weakness spread from his head to his limbs. Unable to handle it any longer, he made his way to the garden. It was the first time he had done this since arriving at Fontenay. There, he found shade under a tree that cast a circle of shadow. Sitting on the grass, he looked around with a dazed expression at the square vegetable beds planted by the servants. He stared blankly, but it wasn't until an hour later that he truly saw them, as a greenish haze floated in front of his eyes, allowing him to see only flickering images of shifting colors, like looking through water.
But when he recovered his balance, he clearly distinguished the onions and cabbages, a garden bed of lettuce further off, and, in the distance along the hedge, a row of white lillies recumbent in the heavy air.
But when he regained his balance, he could clearly see the onions and cabbages, a garden bed of lettuce farther away, and, in the distance along the hedge, a row of white lilies lying flat in the heavy air.
A smile played on his lips, for he suddenly recalled the strange comparison of old Nicandre, who likened, in the point of form, the pistils of lillies to the genital organs of a donkey; and he recalled also a passage from Albert le Grand, in which that thaumaturgist describes a strange way of discovering whether a girl is still a virgin, by means of a lettuce.
A smile appeared on his lips as he suddenly remembered the odd comparison from old Nicandre, who said that, in terms of shape, the pistils of lilies resembled the genital organs of a donkey; and he also recalled a line from Albert the Great, where that miracle worker describes a peculiar method for determining if a girl is still a virgin, using a lettuce.
These remembrances distracted him somewhat. He examined the garden, interesting himself in the plants withered by the heat, and in the hot ground whose vapors rose into the dusty air. Then, above the hedge which separated the garden below from the embankment leading to the fort, he watched the urchins struggling and tumbling on the ground.
These memories distracted him a bit. He looked at the garden, taking an interest in the plants that were wilted from the heat, and in the dry ground where steam rose into the dusty air. Then, above the hedge that separated the garden from the pathway leading to the fort, he watched the kids tumbling around on the ground.
He was concentrating his attention upon them when another younger, sorry little specimen appeared. He had hair like seaweed covered with sand, two green bubbles beneath his nose, and disgusting lips surrounded by a dirty white frame formed by a slice of bread smeared with cheese and filled with pieces of scallions.
He was focused on them when another younger, pathetic little guy showed up. His hair looked like seaweed covered in sand, he had two green boogers beneath his nose, and gross lips surrounded by a nasty white ring made of a slice of bread slathered with cheese and filled with bits of scallions.
Des Esseintes inhaled the air. A perverse appetite seized him. This dirty slice made his mouth water. It seemed to him that his stomach, refusing all other nourishment, could digest this shocking food, and that his palate would enjoy it as though it were a feast.
Des Esseintes breathed in the air. An unusual craving overtook him. This filthy piece made his mouth water. He felt that his stomach, rejecting all other kinds of food, could handle this outrageous meal, and that his taste buds would relish it as if it were a banquet.
He leaped up, ran to the kitchen and ordered a loaf, white cheese and green onions to be brought from the village, emphasizing his desire for a slice exactly like the one being eaten by the child. Then he returned to sit beneath the tree.
He jumped up, ran to the kitchen, and asked for a loaf of bread, white cheese, and green onions to be brought from the village, stressing that he wanted a slice just like the one the child was eating. Then he went back to sit under the tree.
The little chaps were fighting with one another. They struggled for bits of bread which they shoved into their cheeks, meanwhile sucking their fingers. Kicks and blows rained freely, and the weakest, trampled upon, cried out.
The little kids were fighting with each other. They struggled for pieces of bread that they stuffed into their cheeks while sucking on their fingers. Kicks and punches flew everywhere, and the weakest, being trampled, cried out.
At this sight, Des Esseintes recovered his animation. The interest he took in this fight distracted his thoughts from his illness. Contemplating the blind fury of these urchins, he thought of the cruel and abominable law of the struggle of existence; and, although these children were mean, he could not help being interested in their futures, yet could not but believe that it had been better for them had their mothers never given them birth.
At this sight, Des Esseintes regained his energy. The interest he had in this fight took his mind off his illness. Watching the reckless rage of these kids, he thought about the harsh and terrible reality of survival; and even though these children were mischievous, he couldn’t help but care about their futures, yet he couldn’t shake the feeling that it would have been better for them if their mothers had never brought them into the world.
In fact, all they could expect of life was rash, colic, fever, and measles in their earliest years; slaps in the face and degrading drudgeries up to thirteen years; deceptions by women, sicknesses and infidelity during manhood and, toward the last, infirmities and agonies in a poorhouse or asylum.
In reality, all they could anticipate from life were reckless behavior, stomach aches, fevers, and measles in their early years; getting slapped in the face and enduring humiliating work until they were thirteen; being deceived by women, dealing with illnesses and unfaithfulness during adulthood, and ultimately facing frailties and suffering in a poorhouse or asylum.
And the future was the same for every one, and none in his good senses could envy his neighbor. The rich had the same passions, the same anxieties, the same pains and the same illnesses, but in a different environment; the same mediocre enjoyments, whether alcoholic, literary or carnal. There was even a vague compensation in evils, a sort of justice which re-established the balance of misfortune between the classes, permitting the poor to bear physical suffering more easily, and making it difficult for the unresisting, weaker bodies of the rich to withstand it.
And the future was the same for everyone, and no one in their right mind could envy their neighbor. The rich had the same desires, the same worries, the same pains, and the same illnesses, just in a different setting; the same average pleasures, whether they came from drinking, reading, or physical indulgence. There was even a vague sense of balance in suffering, a kind of fairness that leveled out misfortune between the classes, allowing the poor to cope with physical pain more easily, while making it harder for the vulnerable, weaker bodies of the rich to endure it.
How vain, silly and mad it is to beget brats! And Des Esseintes thought of those ecclesiastics who had taken vows of sterility, yet were so inconsistent as to canonize Saint Vincent de Paul, because he brought vain tortures to innocent creatures.
How vain, silly, and crazy it is to have kids! And Des Esseintes thought about those priests who took vows of not having children, yet were so inconsistent that they canonized St. Vincent de Paul because he brought pointless suffering to innocent beings.
By means of his hateful precautions, Vincent de Paul had deferred for years the death of unintelligent and insensate beings, in such a way that when they later became almost intelligent and sentient to grief, they were able to anticipate the future, to await and fear that death of whose very name they had of late been ignorant, some of them going as far to invoke it, in hatred of that sentence of life which the monk inflicted upon them by an absurd theological code.
By using his cruel methods, Vincent de Paul postponed for years the deaths of mindless and unfeeling beings, so that when they eventually became somewhat aware and capable of feeling sorrow, they could foresee the future, waiting for and fearing the death they had recently been unaware of, with some even going so far as to call for it, in rejection of the life sentence that the monk imposed on them through a ridiculous religious doctrine.
And since this old man's death, his ideas had prevailed. Abandoned children were sheltered instead of being killed and yet their lives daily became increasingly rigorous and barren! Then, under pretext of liberty and progress, Society had discovered another means of increasing man's miseries by tearing him from his home, forcing him to don a ridiculous uniform and carry weapons, by brutalizing him in a slavery in every respect like that from which he had compassionately freed the negro, and all to enable him to slaughter his neighbor without risking the scaffold like ordinary murderers who operate single-handed, without uniforms and with weapons that are less swift and deafening.
Since the old man died, his ideas took over. Abandoned children were taken in instead of being killed, but their lives became more and more difficult and empty each day! Then, pretending to promote freedom and progress, society found another way to increase human suffering by ripping people away from their homes, forcing them to wear ridiculous uniforms and carry weapons, brutalizing them in a form of slavery just like the one he had compassionately eliminated for the Black people, all so they could kill their neighbors without facing the gallows like ordinary murderers who act alone, without uniforms and with weapons that aren't as quick and loud.
Des Esseintes wondered if there had ever been such a time as ours. Our age invokes the causes of humanity, endeavors to perfect anæsthesia to suppress physical suffering. Yet at the same time it prepares these very stimulants to increase moral wretchedness.
Des Esseintes wondered if there had ever been a time like ours. Our era focuses on the needs of humanity, striving to perfect anesthesia to eliminate physical pain. Yet at the same time, it creates the very stimulants that heighten moral misery.
Ah! if ever this useless procreation should be abolished, it were now. But here, again, the laws enacted by men like Portalis and Homais appeared strange and cruel.
Ah! If there was ever a time to end this pointless reproduction, it would be now. But once again, the laws made by men like Portalis and Homais seemed odd and harsh.
In the matter of generation, Justice finds the agencies for deception to be quite natural. It is a recognized and acknowledged fact. There is scarcely a home of any station that does not confide its children to the drain pipes, or that does not employ contrivances that are freely sold, and which it would enter no person's mind to prohibit. And yet, if these subterfuges proved insufficient, if the attempt miscarried and if, to remedy matters, one had recourse to more efficacious measures, ah! then there were not prisons enough, not municipal jails enough to confine those who, in good faith, were condemned by other individuals who had that very evening, on the conjugal bed, done their utmost to avoid giving birth to children.
In terms of having kids, people often find ways to deceive that seem completely normal. It's widely known and accepted. Almost every household, regardless of their status, relies on methods that are readily available and no one thinks to ban. However, if these tricks fall short, if attempts fail, and if someone turns to more effective measures for a solution, oh! then there are not enough prisons or municipal jails to hold those who, in good faith, were judged by others who had just that evening, in their marital bed, done everything they could to prevent having kids.
The deceit itself was not a crime, it seemed. The crime lay in the justification of the deceit.
The deceit itself wasn't a crime, it seemed. The crime was in justifying the deceit.
What Society considered a crime was the act of killing a being endowed with life; and yet, in expelling a foetus, one destroyed an animal that was less formed and living and certainly less intelligent and more ugly than a dog or a cat, although it is permissible to strangle these creatures as soon as they are born.
What society viewed as a crime was the act of killing a living being; and yet, by terminating a fetus, one was destroying an animal that was less developed and alive, and certainly less intelligent and more unattractive than a dog or a cat, even though it's acceptable to strangle these animals as soon as they are born.
It is only right to add, for the sake of fairness, thought Des Esseintes, that it is not the awkward man, who generally loses no time in disappearing, but rather the woman, the victim of his stupidity, who expiates the crime of having saved an innocent life.
It’s only fair to mention, thought Des Esseintes, that it’s not the clumsy guy, who usually makes a quick exit, but the woman, who suffers because of his foolishness, that pays the price for having saved an innocent life.
Yet was it right that the world should be filled with such prejudice as to wish to repress manoeuvres so natural that primitive man, the Polynesian savage, for instance, instinctively practices them?
Yet was it right that the world should be filled with such prejudice as to wish to suppress actions so natural that primitive man, the Polynesian savage, for example, instinctively practices them?
The servant interrupted the charitable reflections of Des Esseintes, who received the slice of bread on a plate of vermeil. Pains shot through his heart. He did not have the courage to eat this bread, for the unhealthy excitement of his stomach had ceased. A sensation of frightful decay swept upon him. He was compelled to rise. The sun turned, and slowly fell upon the place that he had lately occupied. The heat became more heavy and fierce.
The servant interrupted Des Esseintes's charitable thoughts as he received a slice of bread on a gilded plate. Pain shot through his heart. He couldn't bring himself to eat the bread because the unhealthy excitement in his stomach had faded. A feeling of dreadful decay washed over him. He felt he had to get up. The sun moved and slowly illuminated the spot where he had just been. The heat grew heavier and more intense.
"Throw this slice of bread to those children who are murdering each other on the road," he ordered his servant. "Let the weakest be crippled, be denied share in the prize, and be soundly thrashed into the bargain, as they will be when they return to their homes with torn trousers and bruised eyes. This will give them an idea of the life that awaits them!"
"Throw this piece of bread to those kids who are fighting each other on the street," he told his servant. "Let the weakest get hurt, miss out on the reward, and be thoroughly beaten up too, just like they'll be when they go home with ripped pants and black eyes. This will show them what life has in store for them!"
And he entered the house and sank into his armchair.
And he walked into the house and plopped down in his armchair.
"But I must try to eat something," he said. And he attempted to soak a biscuit in old Constantia wine, several bottles of which remained in his cellar.
"But I have to try to eat something," he said. And he tried to soak a biscuit in some old Constantia wine, with several bottles still left in his cellar.
That wine, the color of slightly burned onions, partaking of Malaga and Port, but with a specially luscious flavor, and an after-taste of grapes dried by fiery suns, had often comforted him, given a new energy to his stomach weakened by the fasts which he was forced to undergo. But this cordial, usually so efficacious, now failed. Then he thought that an emollient might perhaps counteract the fiery pains which were consuming him, and he took out the Nalifka, a Russian liqueur, contained in a bottle frosted with unpolished glass. This unctuous raspberry-flavored syrup also failed. Alas! the time was far off when, enjoying good health, Des Esseintes had ridden to his house in the hot summer days in a sleigh, and there, covered with furs wrapped about his chest, forced himself to shiver, saying, as he listened attentively to the chattering of his teeth: "Ah, how biting this wind is! It is freezing!" Thus he had almost succeeded in convincing himself that it was cold.
That wine, the color of slightly burned onions, a mix of Malaga and Port but with a particularly rich flavor and an aftertaste of grapes dried by scorching suns, had often comforted him, giving new energy to his stomach weakened by the fasting he had to endure. But this drink, usually so effective, failed him now. He then thought that a soothing drink might help with the fiery pains consuming him, so he took out the Nalifka, a Russian liqueur, from a bottle with frosted, unpolished glass. This rich raspberry-flavored syrup also didn't work. Sadly, the time seemed far away when, enjoying good health, Des Esseintes had ridden to his house on hot summer days in a sleigh, where, covered with furs wrapped around his chest, he forced himself to shiver, saying as he listened to his teeth chattering: "Ah, how biting this wind is! It's freezing!" He had nearly convinced himself that it was cold.
Unfortunately, such remedies as these had failed of their purpose ever since his sickness became vital.
Unfortunately, remedies like these have not been effective ever since his illness became serious.
With all this, he was unable to make use of laudanum: instead of allaying the pain, this sedative irritated him even to the degree of depriving him of rest. At one time he had endeavored to procure visions through opium and hashish, but these two substances had led to vomitings and intense nervous disturbances. He had instantly been forced to give up the idea of taking them, and without the aid of these coarse stimulants, demand of his brain alone to transport him into the land of dreams, far, far from life.
With all this, he couldn't use laudanum: instead of easing the pain, this sedative only irritated him to the point of preventing any rest. At one point, he tried to seek visions through opium and hashish, but both substances caused him to vomit and experience severe nervous issues. He quickly had to abandon the idea of using them, and without the help of these harsh stimulants, he relied solely on his mind to take him to the realm of dreams, far, far away from life.
"What a day!" he said to himself, sponging his neck, feeling every ounce of his strength dissolve in perspiration; a feverish agitation still prevented him from remaining in one spot; once more he walked up and down, trying every chair in the room in turn. Wearied of the struggle, at last he fell against his bureau and leaning mechanically against the table, without thinking of anything, he touched an astrolabe which rested on a mass of books and notes and served as a paper weight.
"What a day!" he said to himself, wiping his neck and feeling every bit of his energy drain away in sweat; a restless energy kept him from staying still. He wandered back and forth, trying out each chair in the room. Tired of the struggle, he finally leaned against his desk, resting mechanically against the table without really thinking, and touched an astrolabe that lay on a stack of books and notes, acting as a paperweight.
He had purchased this engraved and gilded copper instrument (it had come from Germany and dated from the seventeenth century) of a second-hand Paris dealer, after a visit to the Cluny Museum, where he had stood for a long while in ecstatic admiration before a marvelous astrolabe made of chiseled ivory, whose cabalistic appearance enchanted him.
He bought this engraved and gilded copper instrument (it was from Germany and dated back to the seventeenth century) from a second-hand Paris dealer, after visiting the Cluny Museum, where he had spent a long time in awe admiring a beautiful astrolabe made of carved ivory, whose mystical look captivated him.
This paper weight evoked many reminiscences within him. Aroused and actuated by the appearance of this trinket, his thoughts rushed from Fontenay to Paris, to the curio shop where he had purchased it, then returned to the Museum, and he mentally beheld the ivory astrolabe, while his unseeing eyes continued to gaze upon the copper astrolabe on the table.
This paperweight stirred up many memories for him. Prompted by the sight of this little item, his thoughts raced from Fontenay to Paris, to the antique shop where he had bought it, and then back to the Museum, where he imagined the ivory astrolabe, even as his unseeing eyes remained fixed on the copper astrolabe on the table.
Then he left the Museum and, without quitting the town, strolled down the streets, wandered through the rue du Sommerard and the boulevard Saint-Michel, branched off into the neighboring streets, and paused before certain shops whose quite extraordinary appearance and profusion had often attracted him.
Then he left the museum and, without leaving the town, walked down the streets, wandered through the Sommerard Street and the Boulevard Saint-Michel, branched off into the nearby streets, and stopped in front of some shops whose unique appearance and variety had often caught his attention.
Beginning with an astrolabe, this spiritual jaunt ended in the cafés of the Latin Quarter.
Beginning with an astrolabe, this spiritual journey ended in the cafes of the Latin Quarter.
He remembered how these places were crowded in the rue Monsieur-le-Prince and at the end of the rue de Vaugirard, touching the Odeon; sometimes they followed one another like the old riddecks of the Canal-aux-Harengs, at Antwerp, each of which revealed a front, the counterpart of its neighbor.
He remembered how crowded these spots were on the rue Monsieur-le-Prince and at the end of the Rue de Vaugirard, next to the Odeon; sometimes they lined up like the old riddles of the Canal de Harengs in Antwerp, each one showing a facade that mirrored its neighbor.
Through the half-opened doors and the windows dimmed with colored panes or curtains, he had often seen women who walked about like geese; others, on benches, rested their elbows on the marble tables, humming, their temples resting between their hands; still others strutted and posed in front of mirrors, playing with their false hair pomaded by hair-dressers; others, again, took money from their purses and methodically sorted the different denominations in little heaps.
Through the half-open doors and the windows dimmed with colored panes or curtains, he often saw women who walked around like geese; others, on benches, rested their elbows on the marble tables, humming, their temples resting in their hands; still others strutted and posed in front of mirrors, playing with their styled wigs from hairdressers; and some took money from their purses and carefully sorted the different bills into little stacks.
Most of them had heavy features, hoarse voices, flabby necks and painted eyes; and all of them, like automatons, moved simultaneously upon the same impulse, flung the same enticements with the same tone and uttered the identical queer words, the same odd inflections and the same smile.
Most of them had strong features, rough voices, loose necks, and heavy makeup; and all of them, like robots, moved at the same time, offered the same lures in the same tone, and spoke the same strange words, with the same odd inflections and identical smiles.
Certain ideas associated themselves in the mind of Des Esseintes, whose reveries came to an end, now that he recalled this collection of coffee-houses and streets.
Certain ideas linked together in the mind of Des Esseintes, whose daydreams ended now that he remembered this collection of coffee shops and streets.
He understood the significance of those cafés which reflected the state of soul of an entire generation, and from it he discovered the synthesis of the period.
He recognized the importance of those cafés that mirrored the feelings of an entire generation, and from that, he uncovered the essence of the era.
And, in fact, the symptoms were certain and obvious. The houses of prostitution disappeared, and as soon as one of them closed, a café began to operate.
And, in fact, the symptoms were clear and unmistakable. The brothels vanished, and as soon as one of them shut down, a café started to open.
This restriction of prostitution which proved profitable to clandestine loves, evidently arose from the incomprehensible illusions of men in the matter of carnal life.
This limit on prostitution, which turned out to be beneficial for secret loves, clearly came from the baffling misconceptions men have about sexual life.
Monstrous as it may appear, these haunts satisfied an ideal.
As monstrous as they might seem, these places fulfilled an ideal.
Although the utilitarian tendencies transmitted by heredity and developed by the precocious rudeness and constant brutalities of the colleges had made the youth of the day strangely crude and as strangely positive and cold, it had none the less preserved, in the back of their heads, an old blue flower, an old ideal of a vague, sour affection.
Although the practical tendencies passed down through genetics and shaped by the early harshness and ongoing brutalities of the schools had made the youth of the day oddly rough and equally strangely certain and unemotional, it still preserved, in the back of their minds, an old blue flower, an old ideal of a vague, bitter affection.
Today, when the blood clamored, youths could not bring themselves to go through the formality of entering, ending, paying and leaving; in their eyes, this was bestiality, the action of a dog attacking a bitch without much ado. Then, too, vanity fled unsatisfied from these houses where there was no semblance of resistance; there was no victory, no hoped for preference, nor even largess obtained from the tradeswoman who measured her caresses according to the price. On the contrary, the courting of a girl of the cafés stimulated all the susceptibilities of love, all the refinements of sentiment. One disputed with the others for such a girl, and those to whom she granted a rendezvous, in consideration of much money, were sincere in imagining that they had won her from a rival, and in so thinking they were the objects of honorary distinction and favor.
Today, when desire overwhelmed them, young people couldn't bring themselves to go through the routine of entering, finishing, paying, and leaving; to them, it felt like animal behavior, like a dog attacking a female dog without much fuss. Plus, vanity left unfulfilled from these places where there was no hint of resistance; there was no victory, no desired attention, and no generosity from the saleswoman who measured her affection based on the price. In contrast, flirting with a girl from the cafés brought out all the feelings of love and the complexities of emotion. People competed with each other for such a girl, and those who were lucky enough to get a date with her, for a good amount of money, genuinely believed they had outdone a rival. In thinking this way, they felt honored and favored.
Yet this domesticity was as stupid, as selfish, as vile as that of houses of ill-fame. Its creatures drank without being thirsty, laughed without reason, were charmed by the caresses of a slut, quarrelled and fought for no reason whatever, despite everything. The Parisian youth had not been able to see that these girls were, from the point of plastic beauty, graceful attitudes and necessary attire, quite inferior to the women in the bawdy houses! "My God," Des Esseintes exclaimed, "what ninnies are these fellows who flutter around the cafés; for, over and above their silly illusions, they forget the danger of degraded, suspicious allurements, and they are unaware of the sums of money given for affairs priced in advance by the mistress, of the time lost in waiting for an assignation deferred so as to increase its value and cost, delays which are repeated to provide more tips for the waiters."
Yet this domestic life was just as foolish, selfish, and disgusting as that of brothels. Its inhabitants drank without being thirsty, laughed for no reason, were captivated by the affections of a promiscuous woman, and fought for no reason at all, despite everything. The young people of Paris couldn’t see that these girls, in terms of physical beauty, graceful postures, and proper attire, were far inferior to the women in the red-light districts! "My God," Des Esseintes exclaimed, "what fools these guys are who flutter around the cafés; beyond their ridiculous fantasies, they overlook the risks of degraded, shady temptations, and they don’t realize the amount of money spent for encounters priced in advance by the mistress, nor the time wasted waiting for postponed meetings meant to increase their value and cost, delays that are repeated just to give bigger tips to the waiters."
This imbecile sentimentality, combined with a ferociously practical sense, represented the dominant motive of the age. These very persons who would have gouged their neighbors' eyes to gain ten sous, lost all presence of mind and discrimination before suspicious looking girls in restaurants who pitilessly harassed and relentlessly fleeced them. Fathers devoted their lives to their businesses and labors, families devoured one another on the pretext of trade, only to be robbed by their sons who, in turn, allowed themselves to be fleeced by women who posed as sweethearts to obtain their money.
This foolish sentimentality, combined with a harshly practical mindset, represented the main motivation of the time. These same people who would have harmed their neighbors for a mere ten sous vide, completely lost their judgment and critical thinking when faced with suspicious-looking women in restaurants who mercilessly harassed and continually took advantage of them. Fathers dedicated their lives to their work and responsibilities, families turned against each other in the name of business, only to be robbed by their sons, who, in turn, let themselves be exploited by women pretending to be their girlfriends just to get their money.
In all Paris, from east to west and from north to south, there existed an unbroken chain of female tricksters, a system of organized theft, and all because, instead of satisfying men at once, these women were skilled in the subterfuges of delay.
In all Paris, from east to west and from north to south, there was an unbroken network of female con artists, a system of organized theft, and all because, instead of giving men what they wanted right away, these women were experts in the art of delay.
At bottom, one might say that human wisdom consisted in the protraction of all things, in saying "no" before saying "yes," for one could manage people only by trifling with them.
At its core, you could say that human wisdom was about stretching things out, about saying "no" before saying "yes," because you could only handle people by playing with them.
"Ah! if the same were but true of the stomach," sighed Des Esseintes, racked by a cramp which instantly and sharply brought back his mind, that had roved far off, to Fontenay.
"Ah! if only that were true for the stomach," sighed Des Esseintes, gripped by a cramp that quickly and painfully snapped his wandering thoughts back to Fontenay.
Chapter 14
Several days slowly passed thanks to certain measures which succeeded in tricking the stomach, but one morning Des Esseintes could endure food no longer, and he asked himself anxiously whether his already serious weakness would not grow worse and force him to take to bed. A sudden gleam of light relieved his distress; he remembered that one of his friends, quite ill at one time, had made use of a Papin's digester to overcome his anæmia and preserve what little strength he had.
Multiple days dragged on due to certain tricks that helped him get by without eating, but one morning Des Esseintes couldn’t handle not eating any longer, and he worried whether his already serious weakness would worsen and force him to stay in bed. Suddenly, an idea came to him that eased his worries; he recalled that one of his friends, who had been quite sick at one point, had used a Papin's digester to combat his anemia and keep what little strength he had.
He dispatched his servant to Paris for this precious utensil, and following the directions contained in the prospectus which the manufacturer had enclosed, he himself instructed the cook how to cut the roast beef into bits, put it into the pewter pot, with a slice of leek and carrot, and screw on the cover to let it boil for four hours.
He sent his servant to Paris for this valuable tool, and following the instructions included in the brochure from the manufacturer, he personally showed the cook how to chop the roast beef into pieces, put it in the pewter pot with a slice of leek and carrot, and screw on the lid to let it simmer for four hours.
At the end of this time the meat fibres were strained. He drank a spoonful of the thick salty juice deposited at the bottom of the pot. Then he felt a warmth, like a smooth caress, descend upon him.
At the end of this time, the meat fibers were strained. He drank a spoonful of the thick, salty juice that settled at the bottom of the pot. Then he felt a warmth, like a gentle caress, wash over him.
This nourishment relieved his pain and nausea, and even strengthened his stomach which did not refuse to accept these few drops of soup.
This food eased his pain and nausea and even strengthened his stomach, which was willing to accept these few drops of soup.
Thanks to this digester, his neurosis was arrested and Des Esseintes said to himself: "Well, it is so much gained; perhaps the temperature will change, the sky will throw some ashes upon this abominable sun which exhausts me, and I shall hold out without accident till the first fogs and frosts of winter."
Thanks to this digester, his neurosis was stopped and Des Esseintes thought to himself: "Well, that's a win; maybe the weather will shift, the sky will cover this awful sun that drains me, and I can get through without any issues until the first fogs and frosts of winter."
In the torpor and listless ennui in which he was sunk, the disorder of his library, whose arrangement had never been completed, irritated him. Helpless in his armchair, he had constantly in sight the books set awry on the shelves propped against each other or lying flat on their sides, like a tumbled pack of cards. This disorder offended him the more when he contrasted it with the perfect order of his religious works, carefully placed on parade along the walls.
In the sluggish boredom he found himself in, the messy state of his library, which he had never managed to organize, frustrated him. Stuck in his armchair, he could see the books jumbled on the shelves, leaning against each other or lying flat like a shuffled deck of cards. This chaos disturbed him even more when he compared it to the neatly arranged order of his religious texts, meticulously lined up along the walls.
He tried to clear up the confusion, but after ten minutes of work, perspiration covered him; the effort weakened him. He stretched himself on a couch and rang for his servant.
He tried to sort out the confusion, but after ten minutes of effort, he was sweating; the work drained his energy. He lay down on a couch and called for his servant.
Following his directions, the old man continued the task, bringing each book in turn to Des Esseintes who examined it and directed where it was to be placed.
Following his instructions, the old man kept working, bringing each book one by one to Des Esseintes, who inspected it and told him where to put it.
This task did not last long, for Des Esseintes' library contained but a very limited number of contemporary, secular works.
This task didn't take long because Des Esseintes' library had only a small selection of contemporary, secular works.
They were drawn through his brain as bands of metal are drawn through a steel-plate from which they issue thin, light, and reduced to almost imperceptible wires; and he had ended by possessing only those books which could submit to such treatment and which were so solidly tempered as to withstand the rolling-mill of each new reading. In his desire to refine, he had restrained and almost sterilized his enjoyment, ever accentuating the irremediable conflict existing between his ideas and those of the world in which he had happened to be born. He had now reached such a pass that he could no longer discover any writings to content his secret longings. And his admiration even weaned itself from those volumes which had certainly contributed to sharpen his mind, making it so suspicious and subtle.
They were filtered through his mind like metal is drawn through a steel plate, turning into thin, light wires that were almost invisible; in the end, he only kept the books that could endure such processing, ones that were strong enough to survive the pressure of each new reading. In his quest to refine, he had stifled and nearly sterilized his enjoyment, constantly highlighting the unresolvable conflict between his thoughts and the world he was born into. He had reached a point where he could no longer find any writings that satisfied his hidden desires. Even his admiration had drifted away from those books that had definitely honed his intellect, making it overly suspicious and intricate.
In art, his ideas had sprung from a simple point of view. For him schools did not exist, and only the temperament of the writer mattered, only the working of his brain interested him, regardless of the subject. Unfortunately, this verity of appreciation, worthy of Palisse, was scarcely applicable, for the simple reason that, even while desiring to be free of prejudices and passion, each person naturally goes to the works which most intimately correspond with his own temperament, and ends by relegating all others to the rear.
In art, his ideas came from a straightforward perspective. For him, schools didn’t matter, and only the writer’s temperament was important; he was interested solely in how their mind worked, no matter the subject. Unfortunately, this honest appreciation, worthy of Palisse, was hardly feasible, because even while wanting to be free of biases and emotions, each person tends to gravitate towards the works that resonate most with their own temperament and ultimately pushes all others aside.
This work of selection had slowly acted within him; not long ago he had adored the great Balzac, but as his body weakened and his nerves became troublesome, his tastes modified and his admirations changed.
This process of selection had gradually taken place within him; not long ago he had admired the great Balzac, but as his body grew weaker and his nerves became more bothersome, his tastes shifted and his admiration changed.
Very soon, and despite the fact that he was aware of his injustice to the amazing author of the Comédie humaine, Des Esseintes had reached a point where he no longer opened Balzac's books; their healthy spirit jarred on him. Other aspirations now stirred in him, somehow becoming undefinable.
Very soon, and even though he recognized that he was being unfair to the brilliant creator of the Human Comedy, Des Esseintes had reached a point where he no longer picked up Balzac's books; their lively spirit grated on him. Other ambitions were now rising within him, becoming somewhat hard to define.
Yet when he probed himself he understood that to attract, a work must have that character of strangeness demanded by Edgar Allen Poe; but he ventured even further on this path and called for Byzantine flora of brain and complicated deliquescences of language. He desired a troubled indecision on which he might brood until he could shape it at will to a more vague or determinate form, according to the momentary state of his soul. In short, he desired a work of art both for what it was in itself and for what it permitted him to endow it. He wished to pass by means of it into a sphere of sublimated sensation which would arouse in him new commotions whose cause he might long and vainly seek to analyze.
Yet when he examined himself, he realized that to attract, a work must have that sense of strangeness demanded by Edgar Allan Poe; but he went even further on this path and called for intricate ideas and elaborate use of language. He wanted a troubling ambiguity on which he could reflect until he could shape it into a more vague or defined form, depending on his mood at the moment. In short, he wanted a piece of art both for what it was in itself and for what he could project onto it. He wished to use it as a means to enter a realm of heightened feeling that would stir in him new emotions, the causes of which he might long and fruitlessly attempt to analyze.
In short, since leaving Paris, Des Esseintes was removing himself further and further from reality, especially from the contemporary world which he held in an ever growing detestation. This hatred had inevitably reacted on his literary and artistic tastes, and he would have as little as possible to do with paintings and books whose limited subjects dealt with modern life.
In short, since leaving Paris, Des Esseintes was distancing himself more and more from reality, especially from the modern world that he increasingly despised. This hatred had a noticeable impact on his literary and artistic tastes, and he wanted to engage as little as possible with paintings and books that focused on the narrow topics of contemporary life.
Thus, losing the faculty of admiring beauty indiscriminately under whatever form it was presented, he preferred Flaubert's Tentation de saint Antoine to his Éducation sentimentale; Goncourt's Faustin to his Germinie Lacerteux; Zola's Faute de l'abbé Mouret to his Assommoir.
Thus, losing the ability to admire beauty indiscriminately in any form, he preferred Flaubert's Saint Anthony's Temptation to his Emotional education; Goncourt Prize's Faustin to his Germinie Lacerteux; Zola's The Abbe Mouret’s Fault to his The Drunkard.
This point of view seemed logical to him; these works less immediate, but just as vibrant and human, enabled him to penetrate farther into the depths of the temperaments of these masters who revealed in them the most mysterious transports of their being with a more sincere abandon; and they lifted him far above this trivial life which wearied him so.
This perspective made sense to him; these works, though less direct, were just as vibrant and relatable, allowing him to dive deeper into the personalities of these masters who expressed the most enigmatic emotions of their existence with a genuine freedom. They elevated him far above the mundane life that exhausted him.
In them he entered into a perfect communion of ideas with their authors who had written them when their state of soul was analogous to his own.
In them, he connected perfectly with the authors, who wrote them when their mindset was similar to his own.
In fact, when the period in which a man of talent is obliged to live is dull and stupid, the artist, though unconsciously, is haunted by a nostalgia of some past century.
In fact, when the time a talented person has to live in is boring and dull, the artist, even if unknowingly, feels a longing for some past era.
Finding himself unable to harmonize, save at rare intervals, with the environment in which he lives and not discovering sufficient distraction in the pleasures of observation and analysis, in the examination of the environment and its people, he feels in himself the dawning of strange ideas. Confused desires for other lands awake and are clarified by reflection and study. Instincts, sensations and thoughts bequeathed by heredity, awake, grow fixed, assert themselves with an imperious assurance. He recalls memories of beings and things he has never really known and a time comes when he escapes from the penitentiary of his age and roves, in full liberty, into another epoch with which, through a last illusion, he seems more in harmony.
Struggling to fit in, except for rare moments, with his surroundings and not finding enough distraction in observing and analyzing the world and its people, he starts to feel strange ideas emerging within him. Confused desires for other places awaken and are sharpened by reflection and study. Instincts, feelings, and thoughts passed down through generations emerge, become fixed, and assert themselves with undeniable confidence. He remembers beings and things he has never truly experienced, and eventually, he breaks free from the confines of his time, wandering freely into another era that, through a final illusion, feels more in tune with him.
With some, it is a return to vanished ages, to extinct civilizations, to dead epochs; with others, it is an urge towards a fantastic future, to a more or less intense vision of a period about to dawn, whose image, by an effect of atavism of which he is unaware, is a reproduction of some past age.
For some, it's a journey back to lost times, to long-gone civilizations, to dead eras; for others, it's a drive toward an incredible future, to a somewhat vivid vision of a moment that’s about to begin, whose image, due to a primal instinct they don't realize, is a reflection of a past age.
In Flaubert this nostalgia is expressed in solemn and majestic pictures of magnificent splendors, in whose gorgeous, barbaric frames move palpitating and delicate creatures, mysterious and haughty—women gifted, in the perfection of their beauty, with souls capable of suffering and in whose depths he discerned frightful derangements, mad aspirations, grieved as they were by the haunting premonition of the dissillusionments their follies held in store.
In Flaubert, this nostalgia is portrayed through serious and grand images of stunning splendors, where vibrant and graceful beings move within lavish, wild settings—women who, in the height of their beauty, possess souls that can feel pain, and in their depths, he saw terrifying disturbances, insane desires, troubled by the persistent fear of the disillusionment their foolishness would bring.
The temperament of this great artist is fully revealed in the incomparable pages of the Tentation de saint Antoine and Salammbô where, far from our sorry life, he evokes the splendors of old Asia, the age of fervent prayer and mystic depression, of languorous passions and excesses induced by the unbearable ennui resulting from opulence and prayer.
The character of this amazing artist is completely showcased in the unmatched pages of the Saint Anthony's Temptation and Salammbô, where, away from our mundane lives, he calls to mind the glories of ancient Asia—an era of intense prayer and deep mysticism, of dreamy passions and the extremes brought on by the unbearable boredom that comes from wealth and devotion.
In de Goncourt, it was the nostalgia of the preceding century, a return to the elegances of a society forever lost. The stupendous setting of seas beating against jetties, of deserts stretching under torrid skies to distant horizons, did not exist in his nostalgic work which confined itself to a boudoir, near an aulic park, scented with the voluptuous fragrance of a woman with a tired smile, a perverse little pout and unresigned, pensive eyes. The soul with which he animated his characters was not that breathed by Flaubert into his creatures, no longer the soul early thrown in revolt by the inexorable certainty that no new happiness is possible; it was a soul that had too late revolted, after the experience, against all the useless attempts to invent new spiritual liaisons and to heighten the enjoyment of lovers, which from immemorial times has always ended in satiety.
In de Goncourt, it was the longing for the past century, a return to the elegance of a society that’s forever gone. The stunning backdrop of waves crashing against piers and deserts sprawling beneath scorching skies to far-off horizons didn’t feature in his nostalgic work, which was limited to a boudoir, next to a fancy park, filled with the sensual scent of a woman who wore a tired smile, a slightly mischievous pout, and thoughtful, unresolved eyes. The spirit that brought his characters to life wasn’t the same as the one Flaubert infused into his creations, no longer the spirit that had early on rebelled against the harsh reality that no new happiness is achievable; instead, it was a spirit that had risen in revolt too late, after experiencing the futility of trying to create new emotional connections and amplify the pleasures of lovers, which, since ancient times, has always ended in boredom.
Although she lived in, and partook of the life of our time, Faustin, by her ancestral influences, was a creature of the past century whose cerebral lassitude and sensual excesses she possessed.
Although she lived in and participated in the life of our time, Faustin, due to her family background, was a product of the past century, embodying both its mental fatigue and indulgent excesses.
This book of Edmond de Goncourt was one of the volumes which Des Esseintes loved best, and the suggestion of revery which he demanded lived in this work where, under each written line, another line was etched, visible to the spirit alone, indicated by a hint which revealed passion, by a reticence permitting one to divine subtle states of soul which no idiom could express. And it was no longer Flaubert's language in its inimitable magnificence, but a morbid, perspicacious style, nervous and twisted, keen to note the impalpable impression that strikes the senses, a style expert in modulating the complicated nuances of an epoch which in itself was singularly complex. In short, it was the epithet indispensable to decrepit civilizations, no matter how old they be, which must have words with new meanings and forms, innovations in phrases and words for their complex needs.
This book by Edmond de Goncourt was one of the volumes that Des Esseintes cherished most. The sense of daydreaming he sought was present in this work, where beneath every written line, another line was inscribed, visible only to the mind, indicated by a suggestion that revealed passion and by a restraint that allowed one to perceive subtle emotional states that no language could articulate. It was no longer Flaubert's language in its unmatched splendor, but a morbid, insightful style—nervous and convoluted—keen on capturing the intangible impressions that affect the senses, a style skilled in expressing the intricate nuances of an era that was inherently complex. In short, it was the term essential for aging civilizations, no matter their age, which must have words with new meanings and forms, innovations in phrases and vocabulary for their intricate needs.
At Rome, the dying paganism had modified its prosody and transmuted its language with Ausonius, with Claudian and Rutilius whose attentive, scrupulous, sonorous and powerful style presented, in its descriptive parts especially, reflections, hints and nuances bearing an affinity with the style of de Goncourt.
In Rome, dying paganism changed its rhythm and transformed its language with Ausonius, Claudian, and Rutilius, whose careful, meticulous, rich, and strong style especially in its descriptive sections offered reflections, suggestions, and subtleties reminiscent of de Goncourt's style.
At Paris, a fact unique in literary history had been consummated. That moribund society of the eighteenth century, which possessed painters, musicians and architects imbued with its tastes and doctrines, had not been able to produce a writer who could truly depict its dying elegances, the quintessence of its joys so cruelly expiated. It had been necessary to await the arrival of de Goncourt (whose temperament was formed of memories and regrets made more poignant by the sad spectacle of the intellectual poverty and the pitiful aspirations of his own time) to resuscitate, not only in his historical works, but even more in Faustin, the very soul of that period; incarnating its nervous refinements in this actress who tortured her mind and her senses so as to savor to exhaustion the grievous revulsives of love and of art.
At Paris, a unique moment in literary history had occurred. That fading society of the eighteenth century, which had painters, musicians, and architects shaped by its tastes and beliefs, failed to produce a writer who could genuinely capture its diminishing elegance and the essence of its joys, which had been so harshly atoned for. It had taken the arrival of de Goncourt (whose character was shaped by memories and regrets, intensified by the sad reality of the intellectual poverty and the pitiful aspirations of his own time) to revive, not only in his historical works but even more so in Faustin, the very spirit of that era; embodying its delicate nuances in this actress who tormented her mind and senses in order to fully experience the painful contradictions of love and art.
With Zola, the nostalgia of the far-away was different. In him was no longing for vanished ages, no aspiring toward worlds lost in the night of time. His strong and solid temperament, dazzled with the luxuriance of life, its sanguine forces and moral health, diverted him from the artificial graces and painted chloroses of the past century, as well as from the hierarchic solemnity, the brutal ferocity and misty, effeminate dreams of the old orient. When he, too, had become obsessed by this nostalgia, by this need, which is nothing less than poetry itself, of shunning the contemporary world he was studying, he had rushed into an ideal and fruitful country, had dreamed of fantastic passions of skies, of long raptures of earth, and of fecund rains of pollen falling into panting organs of flowers. He had ended in a gigantic pantheism, had created, unwittingly perhaps, with this Edenesque environment in which he placed his Adam and Eve, a marvelous Hindoo poem, singing, in a style whose broad, crude strokes had something of the bizarre brilliance of an Indian painting, the song of the flesh, of animated living matter revealing, to the human creature, by its passion for reproduction the forbidden fruits of love, its suffocations, its instinctive caresses and natural attitudes.
With Zola, the longing for what was far away felt different. He didn't yearn for lost ages or dream of worlds vanished in the darkness of time. His strong and vibrant nature, inspired by the richness of life, its energetic forces and moral clarity, pulled him away from the artificial charm and sickly aesthetics of the previous century, as well as from the rigid solemnity, brutal intensity, and unclear, delicate dreams of the ancient East. When he also became captivated by this nostalgia, by this need that is essentially poetry itself, to escape the contemporary world he was examining, he fled to an ideal and fertile land, imagining fantastic passions in the skies, prolonged raptures on the earth, and abundant rains of pollen falling into the eager organs of flowers. He ended up in a vast pantheism, and perhaps unknowingly, created with this Eden-like setting for his Adam and Eve, a wonderful Hindu poem, celebrating, in a style whose broad, bold strokes reflect something of the vivid brilliance of an Indian painting, the song of the flesh, of living matter that reveals to humanity, through its drive for reproduction, the forbidden fruits of love, its suffocations, its instinctive caresses, and natural postures.
With Baudelaire, these three masters had most affected Des Esseintes in modern, French, secular literature. But he had read them so often, had saturated himself in them so completely, that in order to absorb them he had been compelled to lay them aside and let them remain unread on his shelves.
With Baudelaire, these three masters had the greatest impact on Des Esseintes in modern, French, secular literature. But he had read them so many times and had immersed himself in them so thoroughly that, to truly absorb their essence, he had to put them down and leave them unread on his shelves.
Even now when the servant was arranging them for him, he did not care to open them, and contented himself merely with indicating the place they were to occupy and seeing that they were properly classified and put away.
Even now, as the servant was arranging them for him, he didn't bother to open them and was satisfied just to point out where they should go and to make sure they were properly sorted and stored away.
The servant brought him a new series of books. These oppressed him more. They were books toward which his taste had gradually veered, books which diverted him by their very faults from the perfection of more vigorous writers. Here, too, Des Esseintes had reached the point where he sought, among these troubled pages, only phrases which discharged a sort of electricity that made him tremble; they transmitted their fluid through a medium which at first sight seemed refractory.
The servant brought him a new set of books. These weighed even more heavily on him. They were books that his taste had slowly shifted towards, ones that entertained him with their flaws rather than the excellence of stronger writers. In this way, Des Esseintes had arrived at a point where he looked through these chaotic pages only for phrases that sparked a kind of electricity that made him shiver; they conveyed their energy through a medium that at first glance seemed resistant.
Their imperfections pleased him, provided they were neither parasitic nor servile, and perhaps there was a grain of truth in his theory that the inferior and decadent writer, who is more subjective, though unfinished, distills a more irritating aperient and acid balm than the artist of the same period who is truly great. In his opinion, it was in their turbulent sketches that one perceived the exaltations of the most excitable sensibilities, the caprices of the most morbid psychological states, the most extravagant depravities of language charged, in spite of its rebelliousness, with the difficult task of containing the effervescent salts of sensations and ideas.
Their flaws fascinated him, as long as they weren't parasitic or submissive. Maybe there’s some truth in his theory that the lesser, more decadent writer, who is more subjective and unfinished, produces a more irritating and sharp balm than the truly great artist of the same period. In his view, it was in their chaotic sketches that one could see the heightened emotions of the most sensitive souls, the whims of the most disturbed psychological states, and the most outrageous twists of language, which, despite its rebellious nature, struggled to hold the bubbling essence of feelings and ideas.
Thus, after the masters, he betook himself to a few writers who attracted him all the more because of the disdain in which they were held by the public incapable of understanding them.
Thus, after the masters, he turned to a few writers who intrigued him even more because of the scorn in which they were held by the public that couldn’t appreciate them.
One of them was Paul Verlaine who had begun with a volume of verse, the Poèmes Saturniens, a rather ineffectual book where imitations of Leconte de Lisle jostled with exercises in romantic rhetoric, but through which already filtered the real personality of the poet in such poems as the sonnet Rêve Familier.
One of them was Paul Verlaine, who started with a collection of poems, the Saturnian Poems, a somewhat weak book where imitations of Leconte de Lisle clashed with attempts at romantic rhetoric. However, the poet's true personality began to shine through in poems like the sonnet Familiar Dream.
In searching for his antecedents, Des Esseintes discovered, under the hesitant strokes of the sketches, a talent already deeply affected by Baudelaire, whose influence had been accentuated later on, acquiesced in by the peerless master; but the imitation was never flagrant.
In looking for his roots, Des Esseintes found, through the tentative strokes of the sketches, a talent already significantly shaped by Baudelaire, whose influence grew stronger later on, accepted by the unparalleled master; however, the imitation was never obvious.
And in some of his books, Bonne Chanson, Fêtes Galantes, Romances sans paroles, and his last volume, Sagesse, were poems where he himself was revealed as an original and outstanding figure.
And in some of his books, Good Song, Galant Parties, Wordless romances, and his last volume, Wisdom, were poems where he himself was shown to be an original and remarkable figure.
With rhymes obtained from verb tenses, sometimes even from long adverbs preceded by a monosyllable from which they fell as from a rock into a heavy cascade of water, his verses, divided by improbable cæsuras, often became strangely obscure with their audacious ellipses and strange inaccuracies which none the less did not lack grace.
With rhymes pulled from verb tenses, and sometimes even from long adverbs that dropped like stones into a rushing waterfall, his lines, broken by unlikely pauses, often became oddly unclear with their daring omissions and peculiar inaccuracies, which still managed to have a certain charm.
With his unrivalled ability to handle metre, he had sought to rejuvenate the fixed poetic forms. He turned the tail of the sonnet into the air, like those Japanese fish of polychrome clay which rest on stands, their heads straight down, their tails on top. Sometimes he corrupted it by using only masculine rhymes to which he seemed partial. He had often employed a bizarre form—a stanza of three lines whose middle verse was unrhymed, and a tiercet with but one rhyme, followed by a single line, an echoing refrain like "Dansons la Gigue" in Streets. He had employed other rhymes whose dim echoes are repeated in remote stanzas, like faint reverberations of a bell.
With his unmatched skill in handling meter, he aimed to revive the traditional poetic forms. He flipped the ending of the sonnet into the air, similar to those colorful clay fish that sit on stands, heads pointing down and tails on top. Sometimes he distorted it by using only masculine rhymes, which he seemed to favor. He often used a strange form—a three-line stanza with an unrhymed middle line and a tercet with just one rhyme, followed by a single line, a repeating refrain like "Let's dance the jig" in Streets. He also used other rhymes whose faint echoes are repeated in distant stanzas, like soft reverberations of a bell.
But his personality expressed itself most of all in vague and delicious confidences breathed in hushed accents, in the twilight. He alone had been able to reveal the troubled Ultima Thules of the soul; low whisperings of thoughts, avowals so haltingly and murmuringly confessed that the ear which hears them remains hesitant, passing on to the soul languors quickened by the mystery of this suggestion which is divined rather than felt. Everything characteristic of Verlaine was expressed in these adorable verses of the Fêtes Galantes:
But his personality showed itself most of all in vague and enchanting confidences shared in quiet tones during twilight. He alone had managed to reveal the troubled depths of the soul; soft whispers of thoughts, confessions so shy and murmured that the listening ear remains uncertain, passing on to the soul a languor heightened by the mystery of this suggestion that is sensed more than felt. Everything typical of Verlaine was captured in these beautiful verses from the Fancy Parties:
Evening fell, an ambiguous
autumn night,
The beauties hung dreamily onto our
arms,
Then whispered such deceptive words
softly,
That our soul has trembled and been amazed
ever since
It was no longer the immense horizon opened by the unforgettable portals of Baudelaire; it was a crevice in the moonlight, opening on a field which was more intimate and more restrained, peculiar to Verlaine who had formulated his poetic system in those lines of which Des Esseintes was so fond:
It was no longer the vast horizon revealed by the unforgettable portals of Baudelaire; it was a small opening in the moonlight, leading to a field that was more personal and more subdued, characteristic of Verlaine who had developed his poetic style in those lines that Des Esseintes admired so much:
Because we want the nuance again,
Not the color, just the nuance.
And everything else is just literature.
Des Esseintes had followed him with delight in his most diversified works. After his Romances sans paroles which had appeared in a journal, Verlaine had preserved a long silence, reappearing later in those charming verses, hauntingly suggestive of the gentle and cold accents of Villon, singing of the Virgin, "removed from our days of carnal thought and weary flesh." Des Esseintes often re-read Sagesse whose poems provoked him to secret reveries, a fanciful love for a Byzantine Madonna who, at a certain moment, changed into a distracted modern Cydalise so mysterious and troubling that one could not know whether she aspired toward depravities so monstrous that they became irresistible, or whether she moved in an immaculate dream where the adoration of the soul floated around her ever unavowed and ever pure.
Des Esseintes had followed him with delight in his most varied works. After his Wordless romances, which had been published in a journal, Verlaine had remained silent for a long time, later returning with those charming verses, hauntingly reminiscent of the gentle and cold tones of Villon, singing of the Virgin, "removed from our days of carnal thought and weary flesh." Des Esseintes often re-read Wisdom, whose poems stirred up secret daydreams, a fanciful love for a Byzantine Madonna who, at one moment, transformed into a distracted modern Cydalise so mysterious and troubling that it was impossible to tell whether she desired depravity so monstrous that it became irresistible, or if she existed in an immaculate dream where the adoration of the soul floated around her, ever unconfessed and ever pure.
There were other poets, too, who induced him to confide himself to them: Tristan Corbière who, in 1873, in the midst of the general apathy had issued a most eccentric volume entitled: Les Amours jaunes. Des Esseintes who, in his hatred of the banal and commonplace, would gladly have accepted the most affected folly and the most singular extravagance, spent many enjoyable hours with this work where drollery mingled with a disordered energy, and where disconcerting lines blazed out of poems so absolutely obscure as the litanies of Sommeil, that they qualified their author for the name of
There were other poets as well who encouraged him to open up to them: Tristan Corbière, who in 1873, in the midst of general indifference, released a very unconventional book called: Les Amours jaunes. Des Esseintes, who, in his disdain for the ordinary and mundane, would have gladly embraced the most affected absurdity and the most unique eccentricity, spent many enjoyable hours with this work where humor blended with chaotic energy, and where surprising lines burst forth from poems that were as completely obscure as the litanies of Sommeil, which made their author worthy of the name.
Obscène confesseur des dévotes mort-nées.
Obscene confessor of devoted souls.
The style was hardly French. The author wrote in the negro dialect, was telegraphic in form, suppressed verbs, affected a teasing phraseology, revelled in the impossible puns of a travelling salesman; then out of this jumble, laughable conceits and sly affectations emerged, and suddenly a cry of keen anguish rang out, like the snapping string of a violoncello. And with all this, in his hard rugged style, bristling with obsolescent words and unexpected neologisms, flashed perfect originalities, treasures of expression and superbly nomadic lines amputated of rhyme. Finally, over and above his Poèmes Parisiens, where Des Esseintes had discovered this profound definition of woman:
The style wasn’t really French. The author wrote in a Black dialect, used a concise format, left out verbs, employed a playful way of phrasing, and indulged in the strange puns of a traveling salesman; then from this mix of funny ideas and sly quirks, a sharp cry of deep anguish broke through, like the snapping string of a cello. Alongside all this, in his tough, rugged style, packed with outdated words and unexpected new terms, there were flashes of perfect originality, rich expressions, and beautifully free lines without rhyme. Finally, above his Parisian Poems, where Des Esseintes found this deep definition of woman:
Éternel féminin de l'éternel jocrisse
Timeless woman of the eternal fool
Tristan Corbière had celebrated in a powerfully concise style, the Sea of Brittany, mermaids and the Pardon of Saint Anne. And he had even risen to an eloquence of hate in the insults he hurled, apropos of the Conlie camp, at the individuals whom he designated under the name of "foreigners of the Fourth of September."
Tristan Corbière had powerfully and succinctly celebrated the Sea of Brittany, mermaids, and the Pardon of Saint Anne. He even expressed a passionate eloquence of hate in the insults he directed, regarding the Conlie camp, at those he referred to as "foreigners of the Fourth of September."
The raciness of which he was so fond, which Corbière offered him in his sharp epithets, his beauties which ever remained a trifle suspect, Des Esseintes found again in another poet, Théodore Hannon, a disciple of Baudelaire and Gautier, moved by a very unusual sense of the exquisite and the artificial.
The boldness he loved, which Corbière provided with his biting words, and those beauties that always felt a bit questionable, Des Esseintes discovered once more in another poet, Théodore Hannon, a student of Baudelaire and Gautier, who was driven by a very rare appreciation for the exquisite and the artificial.
Unlike Verlaine whose work was directly influenced by Baudelaire, especially on the psychological side, in his insidious nuances of thought and skilful quintessence of sentiment, Théodore Hannon especially descended from the master on the plastic side, by the external vision of persons and things.
Unlike Verlaine, whose work was directly influenced by Baudelaire, particularly in terms of psychology, with his subtle nuances of thought and masterful essence of feeling, Théodore Hannon mainly drew from the master in a visual way, focusing on the outward appearance of people and things.
His charming corruption fatally corresponded to the tendencies of Des Esseintes who, on misty or rainy days, enclosed himself in the retreat fancied by the poet and intoxicated his eyes with the rustlings of his fabrics, with the incandescence of his stones, with his exclusively material sumptuousness which ministered to cerebral reactions, and rose like a cantharides powder in a cloud of fragrant incense toward a Brussel idol with painted face and belly stained by the perfumes.
His charming corruption perfectly matched the tendencies of Des Esseintes, who, on foggy or rainy days, isolated himself in the retreat imagined by the poet and indulged his eyes in the fluttering of his fabrics, the glow of his stones, and his solely material luxury that stimulated his mind. It rose like cantharides powder in a cloud of fragrant incense towards a Brussels idol with a painted face and a belly stained by perfumes.
With the exception of the works of these poets and of Stéphane Mallarmé, which his servant was told to place to one side so that he might classify them separately, Des Esseintes was but slightly attracted towards the poets.
With the exception of the works of these poets and of Stéphane Mallarmé, which his servant was instructed to set aside for separate classification, Des Esseintes was only somewhat interested in the poets.
Notwithstanding the majestic form and the imposing quality of his verse which struck such a brilliant note that even the hexameters of Hugo seemed pale in comparison, Leconte de Lisle could no longer satisfy him. The antiquity so marvelously restored by Flaubert remained cold and immobile in his hands. Nothing palpitated in his verses, which lacked depth and which, most often, contained no idea. Nothing moved in those gloomy, waste poems whose impassive mythologies ended by finally leaving him cold. Too, after having long delighted in Gautier, Des Esseintes reached the point where he no longer cared for him. The admiration he felt for this man's incomparable painting had gradually dissolved; now he was more astonished than ravished by his descriptions. Objects impressed themselves upon Gautier's perceptive eyes but they went no further, they never penetrated deeper into his brain and flesh. Like a giant mirror, this writer constantly limited himself to reflecting surrounding objects with impersonal clearness. Certainly, Des Esseintes still loved the works of these two poets, as he loved rare stones and precious objects, but none of the variations of these perfect instrumentalists could hold him longer, neither being evocative of revery, neither opening for him, at least, broad roads of escape to beguile the tedium of dragging hours.
Despite the impressive style and powerful quality of his poetry, which resonated so brilliantly that even Hugo's hexameters seemed dull in comparison, Leconte de Lisle could no longer satisfy him. The ancient world, wonderfully revived by Flaubert, felt cold and lifeless in his hands. His verses lacked any pulse, depth, or often even ideas. Those dark, barren poems, with their emotionless mythologies, ultimately left him indifferent. After enjoying Gautier for a long time, Des Esseintes reached a point where he no longer cared for him. His admiration for this man's incomparable painting gradually faded; now he found himself more astonished than captivated by his descriptions. Objects captured Gautier's discerning gaze, but they didn’t resonate deeper; they never penetrated further into his mind or spirit. Like a giant mirror, this writer continually limited himself to reflecting the surrounding objects with an impersonal clarity. Certainly, Des Esseintes still appreciated the works of these two poets, just as he valued rare stones and precious items, but none of the variations from these perfect craftsmen could hold his attention any longer, as neither evoked reverie nor offered him, at least, broad paths of escape to alleviate the tedium of endless hours.
These two books left him unsatisfied. And it was the same with Hugo; the oriental and patriarchal side was too conventional and barren to detain him. And his manners, at once childish and that of a grandfather, exasperated him. He had to go to the Chansons des rues et des bois to enjoy the perfect acrobatics of his metrics. But how gladly, after all, would he not have exchanged all this tour de force for a new work by Baudelaire which might equal the others, for he, decidedly, was almost the only one whose verses, under their splendid form, contained a healing and nutritive substance. In passing from one extreme to the other, from form deprived of ideas to ideas deprived of form, Des Esseintes remained no less circumspect and cold. The psychological labyrinths of Stendhal, the analytical detours of Duranty seduced him, but their administrative, colorless and arid language, their static prose, fit at best for the wretched industry of the theatre, repelled him. Then their interesting works and their astute analyses applied to brains agitated by passions in which he was no longer interested. He was not at all concerned with general affections or points of view, with associations of common ideas, now that the reserve of his mind was more keenly developed and that he no longer admitted aught but superfine sensations and catholic or sensual torments. To enjoy a work which should combine, according to his wishes, incisive style with penetrating and feline analysis, he had to go to the master of induction, the profound and strange Edgar Allen Poe, for whom, since the time when he re-read him, his preference had never wavered.
These two books left him feeling unfulfilled. The same went for Hugo; the eastern and patriarchal aspects were too traditional and dull to hold his attention. His behavior, both naive and like that of an old man, annoyed him. He had to turn to the Songs of the Streets and the Woods to appreciate the flawless execution of his metrics. But how gladly would he have traded all this tour de force for a new piece by Baudelaire that might match the others, for he was truly one of the few whose verses, beneath their stunning structure, contained healing and nourishing qualities. Moving from one extreme to the other, from form without ideas to ideas without form, Des Esseintes remained equally cautious and detached. The psychological intricacies of Stendhal and the analytical meanderings of Duranty intrigued him, but their dull, lifeless language and static prose, more suited for the miserable theater industry, pushed him away. Their compelling works and insightful analyses related to minds stirred by passions he no longer cared about. He was no longer interested in general emotions or perspectives, or in common ideas, now that his mind's reserve was more finely tuned and he only accepted the subtlest sensations and both sophisticated and sensual torments. To find a work that combined, as he desired, sharp style with deep and keen analysis, he had to turn to the master of induction, the profound and strange Edgar Allan Poe, for whom, since he re-read him, his preference had remained unwavering.
More than any other, perhaps, he approached, by his intimate affinity, Des Esseintes' meditative cast of mind.
More than anyone else, he perhaps came closest, with his deep connection, to Des Esseintes' reflective way of thinking.
If Baudelaire, in the hieroglyphics of the soul, had deciphered the return of the age of sentiment and ideas, Poe, in the field of morbid psychology had more especially investigated the domain of the soul.
If Baudelaire, in the symbols of the soul, had unlocked the resurgence of feelings and thoughts, Poe, in the realm of dark psychology, had particularly explored the territory of the soul.
Under the emblematic title, The Demon of Perversity, he had been the first in literature to pry into the irresistible, unconscious impulses of the will which mental pathology now explains more scientifically. He had also been the first to divulge, if not to signal the impressive influence of fear which acts on the will like an anæsthetic, paralyzing sensibility and like the curare, stupefying the nerves. It was on the problem of the lethargy of the will, that Poe had centered his studies, analyzing the effects of this moral poison, indicating the symptoms of its progress, the troubles commencing with anxiety, continuing through anguish, ending finally in the terror which deadens the will without intelligence succumbing, though sorely disturbed. Death, which the dramatists had so much abused, he had in some manner changed and made more poignant, by introducing an algebraic and superhuman element; but in truth, it was less the real agony of the dying person which he described and more the moral agony of the survivor, haunted at the death bed by monstrous hallucinations engendered by grief and fatigue. With a frightful fascination, he dwelt on acts of terror, on the snapping of the will, coldly reasoning about them, little by little making the reader gasp, suffocated and panting before these feverish mechanically contrived nightmares.
Under the evocative title, The Demon of Perversity, he was the first in literature to explore the irresistible, unconscious urges of the will that mental health now explains more scientifically. He also highlighted, if not explicitly noted, the significant impact of fear, which affects the will like an anesthetic, numbing sensitivity and, much like curare, dulling the nerves. Poe focused his studies on the issue of the will's lethargy, analyzing the effects of this moral poison, identifying the symptoms of its progression, which start with anxiety, move through anguish, and ultimately culminate in the terror that paralyzes the will without intelligence, although deeply troubled. Death, which dramatists had so often misused, he transformed and made more poignant by introducing a mathematical and superhuman aspect; however, it was less about the real suffering of the dying person he depicted and more about the moral torment of the survivor, tormented at the deathbed by monstrous hallucinations born from grief and exhaustion. With a chilling fascination, he focused on acts of terror, the breakdown of the will, reasoning through them coolly, gradually making the reader gasp, suffocated and breathless before these feverish, mechanically constructed nightmares.
Convulsed by hereditary neurosis, maddened by a moral St. Vitus dance, Poe's creatures lived only through their nerves; his women, the Morellas and Ligeias, possessed an immense erudition. They were steeped in the mists of German philosophy and the cabalistic mysteries of the old Orient; and all had the boyish and inert breasts of angels, all were sexless.
Convulsed by inherited neurosis, driven crazy by a moral St. Vitus dance, Poe's characters existed solely through their nerves; his women, the Morellas and Ligeias, had vast knowledge. They were immersed in the depths of German philosophy and the mystical secrets of the ancient East; and all had the flat and lifeless chests of angels, all were devoid of gender.
Baudelaire and Poe, these two men who had often been compared because of their common poetic strain and predilection for the examination of mental maladies, differed radically in the affective conceptions which held such a large place in their works; Baudelaire with his iniquitous and debased loves—cruel loves which made one think of the reprisals of an inquisition; Poe with his chaste, ærial loves, in which the senses played no part, where only the mind functioned without corresponding to organs which, if they existed, remained forever frozen and virgin. This cerebral clinic where, vivisecting in a stifling atmosphere, that spiritual surgeon became, as soon as his attention flagged, a prey to an imagination which evoked, like delicious miasmas, somnambulistic and angelic apparitions, was to Des Esseintes a source of unwearying conjecture. But now that his nervous disorders were augmented, days came when his readings broke his spirit and when, hands trembling, body alert, like the desolate Usher he was haunted by an unreasoning fear and a secret terror.
Baudelaire and Poe, two men often compared for their similar poetic styles and fascination with mental illnesses, had very different emotional perspectives in their works. Baudelaire showcased twisted and degraded loves—cruel relationships that evoked the revenge of an inquisition; Poe, on the other hand, portrayed pure, ethereal loves, where the senses played no role and only the mind was engaged, with any physical aspects remaining eternally untouched and untainted. This cerebral exploration, where that spiritual surgeon dissected ideas in a suffocating atmosphere, became a source of restless speculation for Des Esseintes. However, as his nervous issues worsened, there were days when his readings drained his spirit, leaving him trembling, alert, and consumed by irrational fear and hidden terror, much like the desolate Usher.
Thus he was compelled to moderate his desires, and he rarely touched these fearful elixirs, in the same way that he could no longer with impunity visit his red corridor and grow ecstatic at the sight of the gloomy Odilon Redon prints and the Jan Luyken horrors. And yet, when he felt inclined to read, all literature seemed to him dull after these terrible American imported philtres. Then he betook himself to Villiers de L'Isle Adam in whose scattered works he noted seditious observations and spasmodic vibrations, but which no longer gave one, with the exception of his Claire Lenoir, such troubling horror.
So, he had to tone down his cravings, and he hardly ever indulged in those scary potions, just like he could no longer safely wander through his red corridor and get lost in the gloomy Odilon Redon prints and the Jan Luyken horrors. Yet, whenever he felt like reading, all literature seemed boring after those frightening American-imported potions. So, he turned to Villiers de L'Isle Adam, whose scattered works he found filled with rebellious thoughts and intense emotions, but which no longer provided, except for his Claire Lenoir, such disturbing horror.
This Claire Lenoir which appeared in 1867 in the Revue des lettres et des arts, opened a series of tales comprised under the title of Histoires Moroses where against a background of obscure speculations borrowed from old Hegel, dislocated creatures stirred, Dr. Tribulat Bonhomet, solemn and childish, a Claire Lenoir, farcical and sinister, with blue spectacles, round and large as franc pieces, which covered her almost dead eyes.
This Claire Lenoir, which was published in 1867 in the Review of Letters and Arts, began a series of stories collected under the title of Sad Stories. Set against a backdrop of vague speculations inspired by old Hegel, twisted beings moved about, Dr. Tribulat Bonhomet, serious yet childlike, and a Claire Lenoir, both absurd and eerie, with blue glasses as round and large as coins, obscuring her nearly lifeless eyes.
This story centered about a simple adultery and ended with an inexpressible terror when Bonhomet, opening Claire's eyelids, as she lies in her death bed, and penetrating them with monstrous plummets, distinctively perceives the reflection of the husband brandishing the lover's decapitated head, while shouting a war song, like a Kanaka.
This story revolves around a straightforward affair and concludes with an indescribable horror when Bonhomme, lifting Claire's eyelids as she lies on her deathbed, gazes into them with overwhelming dread, clearly seeing her husband holding the lover's severed head, while yelling a battle song like a Kanaka.
Based on this more or less just observation that the eyes of certain animals, cows for instance, preserve even to decomposition, like photographic plates, the image of the beings and things their eyes behold at the moment they expire, this story evidently derived from Poe, from whom he appropriated the terrifying and elaborate technique.
Based on this somewhat straightforward observation that the eyes of certain animals, like cows, retain, even until decomposition, like photographic plates, the images of the beings and things they see at the moment they die, this story clearly comes from Poe, from whom he borrowed the frightening and intricate technique.
This also applied to the Intersigne, which had later been joined to the Contes cruels, a collection of indisputable talent in which was found Véra, which Des Esseintes considered a little masterpiece.
This also applied to the Intersign, which was later combined with the Cruel tales, a collection of undeniable talent that included Vera, which Des Esseintes regarded as a minor masterpiece.
Here, the hallucination was marked with an exquisite tenderness; no longer was it the dark mirages of the American author, but the fluid, warm, almost celestial vision; it was in an identical genre, the reverse of the Beatrices and Legeias, those gloomy and dark phantoms engendered by the inexorable nightmare of opium.
Here, the hallucination was filled with a beautiful gentleness; it was no longer the dark illusions of the American writer, but a fluid, warm, almost heavenly vision; it belonged to the same type, the opposite of the Beatrices and Lenore, those gloomy and dark figures created by the relentless nightmare of opium.
This story also put in play the operations of the will, but it no longer treated of its defeats and helplessness under the effects of fear; on the contrary, it studied the exaltations of the will under the impulse of a fixed idea; it demonstrated its power which often succeeded in saturating the atmosphere and in imposing its qualities on surrounding objects.
This story also explored the workings of the will, but it didn’t focus on its failures and weaknesses when faced with fear; instead, it examined the heightened state of the will driven by a fixed idea. It showcased its strength, which often managed to fill the atmosphere and influence the characteristics of the objects around it.
Another book by Villiers de L'Isle Adam, Isis, seemed to him curious in other respects. The philosophic medley of Clair Lenoir was evident in this work which offered an unbelievable jumble of verbal and troubled observations, souvenirs of old melodramas, poniards and rope ladders—all the romanticism which Villiers de L'Isle Adam could never rejuvenate in his Elën and Morgane, forgotten pieces published by an obscure man, Sieur Francisque Guyon.
Another book by Villiers de l'Isle-Adam, Isis, seemed interesting to him for other reasons. The philosophical mix of Clair Lenoir was clear in this work, which presented an unbelievable jumble of confused thoughts, memories of old melodramas, daggers and rope ladders—all the romanticism that Villiers de L'Isle Adam could never revive in his Elena and Morgane, forgotten works published by an obscure figure, Sir Francisque Guyon.
The heroine of this book, Marquise Tullia Fabriana, reputed to have assimilated the Chaldean science of the women of Edgar Allen Poe, and the diplomatic sagacities of Stendhal, had the enigmatic countenance of Bradamante abused by an antique Circe. These insoluble mixtures developed a fuliginous vapor across which philosophic and literary influences jostled, without being able to be regulated in the author's brain when he wrote the prolegomenæ of this work which could not have embraced less than seven volumes.
The main character of this book, None, known for mastering the mystical knowledge of the women from Edgar Allen Poe's world and the diplomatic skills of Stendhal, had the mysterious look of Bradamante tormented by an ancient Circe. These complex combinations created a dark haze where philosophical and literary influences clashed, unable to find a balance in the author's mind when he wrote the introduction of this work that could have easily expanded to seven volumes.
But there was another side to Villiers' temperament. It was piercing and acute in an altogether different sense—a side of forbidding pleasantry and fierce raillery. No longer was it the paradoxical mystifications of Poe, but a scoffing that had in it the lugubrious and savage comedy which Swift possessed. A series of sketches, les Demoiselles de Bienfilâtre, l'Affichage céleste, la Machine à gloire, and le Plus beau dîner du monde, betrayed a singularly inventive and keenly bantering mind. The whole order of contemporary and utilitarian ideas, the whole commercialized baseness of the age were glorified in stories whose poignant irony transported Des Esseintes.
But there was another side to Villiers' personality. It was sharp and intense in a completely different way—a side of harsh humor and fierce sarcasm. It was no longer the enigmatic puzzles of Poe, but a mocking tone that carried the dark and brutal comedy that Swift had. A series of pieces, the Ladies of Bienfilâtre, Sky Display, the Glory Machine, and The most beautiful dinner in the world, revealed a uniquely inventive and sharply witty mind. The entire framework of contemporary and practical ideas, the commercialized vulgarity of the time, was celebrated in stories whose sharp irony captivated Des Esseintes.
No other French book had been written in this serious and bitter style. At the most, a tale by Charles Cros, La science de l'amour, printed long ago in the Revue du Monde-Nouveau, could astonish by reason of its chemical whims, by its affected humor and by its coldly facetious observations. But the pleasure to be extracted from the story was merely relative, since its execution was a dismal failure. The firm, colored and often original style of Villiers had disappeared to give way to a mixture scraped on the literary bench of the first-comer.
No other French book had been written in such a serious and bitter style. At best, a tale by Charles Cros, The science of love, published long ago in the Revue du Monde-Nouveau, could surprise with its quirky chemical themes, its affected humor, and its coldly ironic observations. However, the enjoyment from the story was only relative, since its execution was a complete failure. The strong, colorful, and often original style of Villiers had faded away, giving way to a blend that seemed hastily put together by just anyone.
"Heavens! heavens! how few books are really worth re-reading," sighed Des Esseintes, gazing at the servant who left the stool on which he had been perched, to permit Des Esseintes to survey his books with a single glance.
"Heavens! How few books are truly worth re-reading," sighed Des Esseintes, watching the servant who got off the stool he had been sitting on, allowing Des Esseintes to take a quick look at his books.
Des Esseintes nodded his head. But two small books remained on the table. With a sigh, he dismissed the old man, and turned over the leaves of a volume bound in onager skin which had been glazed by a hydraulic press and speckled with silver clouds. It was held together by fly-leaves of old silk damask whose faint patterns held that charm of faded things celebrated by Mallarmé in an exquisite poem.
Des Esseintes nodded. But two small books were left on the table. With a sigh, he sent the old man away and flipped through a book bound in onager skin that had been pressed and covered in silver speckles. It was held together by fly-leaves of old silk damask, whose delicate patterns had the beauty of worn things celebrated by Mallarmé in a beautiful poem.
These pages, numbering nine, had been extracted from copies of the two first Parnassian books; it was printed on parchment paper and preceded by this title: Quelques vers de Mallarmé, designed in a surprising calligraphy in uncial letters, illuminated and relieved with gold, as in old manuscripts.
These nine pages were taken from copies of the first two Parnassian books; they were printed on parchment paper and preceded by this title: Some lines by Mallarmé, created in an impressive calligraphy with uncial letters, decorated and highlighted with gold, like in old manuscripts.
Among the eleven poems brought together in these covers, several invited him: Les fenêtres, l'épilogue and Azur; but one among them all, a fragment of the Hérodiade, held him at certain hours in a spell.
Among the eleven poems gathered in this collection, several caught his attention: The windows, the epilogue, and Azure; but one in particular, a fragment from Herodias, captivated him at certain times.
How often, beneath the lamp that threw a low light on the silent chamber, had he not felt himself haunted by this Hérodiade who, in the work of Gustave Moreau, was now plunged in gloom revealing but a dim white statue in a brazier extinguished by stones.
How often, under the lamp that cast a soft glow on the quiet room, did he not feel himself haunted by this Herodias, who, in Gustave Moreau's artwork, was now surrounded by darkness, showing only a faint white statue in a brazier put out by stones.
The darkness concealed the blood, the reflections and the golds, hid the temple's farther sides, drowned the supernumeraries of the crime enshrouded in their dead colors, and, only sparing the aquerelle whites, revealed the woman's jewels and heightened her nudity.
The darkness hid the blood, the reflections, and the gold, obscured the far sides of the temple, and drowned the extra details of the crime wrapped in their dull colors. It only spared the watercolor whites, highlighting the woman's jewels and emphasizing her nudity.
At such times he was forced to gaze upon her unforgotten outlines; and she lived for him, her lips articulating those bizarre and delicate lines which Mallarmé makes her utter:
At those times, he had to look at her unforgettable features; and she existed for him, her lips forming those strange and delicate words that Mallarmé makes her say:
O
Cold water from boredom in your frame
frozen
How many times, and for hours,
desolated
Dreaming and searching for my memories
that are
Like leaves under your ice at the
deep hole,
I appeared in you like a distant shadow!
But, horror! some evenings, in your
harsh fountain,
I came to know the nakedness of my scattered dream!
These lines he loved, as he loved the works of this poet who, in an age of democracy devoted to lucre, lived his solitary and literary life sheltered by his disdain from the encompassing stupidity, delighting, far from society, in the surprises of the intellect, in cerebral visions, refining on subtle ideas, grafting Byzantine delicacies upon them, perpetuating them in suggestions lightly connected by an almost imperceptible thread.
He loved these lines just as he loved the works of this poet who, in a time of democracy obsessed with money, lived a solitary literary life, sheltered from the surrounding ignorance. He found joy, far away from society, in intellectual surprises, cerebral visions, and refined subtle ideas, adding intricate details to them and keeping them alive with suggestions connected by a nearly invisible thread.
These twisted and precious ideas were bound together with an adhesive and secret language full of phrase contractions, ellipses and bold tropes.
These complex and valuable ideas were connected by a hidden language filled with shortened phrases, omissions, and striking metaphors.
Perceiving the remotest analogies, with a single term which by an effect of similitude at once gave the form, the perfume, the color and the quality, he described the object or being to which otherwise he would have been compelled to place numerous and different epithets so as to disengage all their facets and nuances, had he simply contented himself with indicating the technical name. Thus he succeeded in dispensing with the comparison, which formed in the reader's mind by analogy as soon as the symbol was understood. Neither was the attention of the reader diverted by the enumeration of the qualities which the juxtaposition of adjectives would have induced. Concentrating upon a single word, he produced, as for a picture, the ensemble, a unique and complete aspect.
Seeing the farthest similarities, with just one word that instantly conveyed the form, the scent, the color, and the quality, he depicted the object or being that otherwise would have required many different terms to capture all their aspects and subtleties, if he had only used the technical name. This way, he avoided the need for comparison, which would have formed in the reader's mind through analogy as soon as the symbol was recognized. The reader's focus was also not distracted by listing the qualities that the stacking of adjectives would have created. By concentrating on a single word, he created, like in a painting, a complete and unified vision.
It became a concentrated literature, an essential unity, a sublimate of art. This style was at first employed with restraint in his earlier works, but Mallarmé had boldly proclaimed it in a verse on Théophile Gautier and in l'Après-midi du faune, an eclogue where the subtleties of sensual joys are described in mysterious and caressing verses suddenly pierced by this wild, rending faun cry:
It became a focused body of literature, a fundamental unity, an essence of art. This style was initially used sparingly in his earlier works, but Mallarmé boldly showcased it in a poem about Théophile Gautier and in The Afternoon of a Faun, a pastoral poem where the intricacies of sensual pleasures are depicted in enigmatic and tender verses suddenly interrupted by a wild, tearing cry of the faun:
Then shall I awaken to the fervor
of the first,
Standing tall and alone beneath an ancient
light,
Lily! and one of you all for
innocence.
That line with the monosyllable lys like a sprig, evoked the image of something rigid, slender and white; it rhymed with the substantive ingénuité, allegorically expressing, by a single term, the passion, the effervescence, the fugitive mood of a virgin faun amorously distracted by the sight of nymphs.
That line with the one-syllable word lys like a branch brought to mind something firm, thin, and white; it matched with the noun ingenuity, symbolically capturing, in just one word, the passion, the excitement, and the fleeting feelings of a virgin faun distracted by the sight of nymphs.
In this extraordinary poem, surprising and unthought of images leaped up at the end of each line, when the poet described the elations and regrets of the faun contemplating, at the edge of a fen, the tufts of reeds still preserving, in its transitory mould, the form made by the naiades who had occupied it.
In this amazing poem, unexpected and shocking images popped up at the end of each line, as the poet described the joys and regrets of the faun reflecting, at the edge of a marsh, on the clumps of reeds that still held, in their temporary shape, the form created by the naiads who had been there.
Then, Des Esseintes also experienced insidious delights in touching this diminutive book whose cover of Japan vellum, as white as curdled milk, were held together by two silk bands, one of Chinese rose, the other of black.
Then, Des Esseintes also felt subtle pleasures in touching this small book, its cover made of Japanese vellum, as white as curdled milk, held together by two silk ribbons, one in Chinese rose and the other in black.
Hidden behind the cover, the black band rejoined the rose which rested like a touch of modern Japanese paint or like a lascivious adjutant against the antique white, against the candid carnation tint of the book, and enlaced it, united its sombre color with the light color into a light rosette. It insinuated a faint warning of that regret, a vague menace of that sadness which succeeds the ended transports and the calmed excitements of the senses.
Hidden behind the cover, the black band rejoined the rose that rested like a touch of modern Japanese paint or like a seductive assistant against the antique white, against the pure carnation tint of the book, and merged it, uniting its dark color with the light color into a light rosette. It hinted at a subtle warning of that regret, a vague threat of that sadness that follows the fleeting pleasures and the settled excitements of the senses.
Des Esseintes placed l'Après-midi du faune on the table and examined another little book he had printed, an anthology of prose poems, a tiny chapel, placed under the invocation of Baudelaire and opening on the parvise of his poems.
Des Esseintes set Afternoon of a Faun on the table and looked at another small book he had published, an anthology of prose poems, a tiny chapel dedicated to Baudelaire that opened up to the courtyard of his poems.
This anthology comprised a selection of Gaspard de la nuit of that fantastic Aloysius Bertrand who had transferred the behavior of Leonard in prose and, with his metallic oxydes, painted little pictures whose vivid colors sparkle like those of clear enamels. To this, Des Esseintes had joined le Vox populi of Villiers, a superb piece of work in a hammered, golden style after the manner of Leconte de Lisle and of Flaubert, and some selections from that delicate livre de Jade whose exotic perfume of ginseng and of tea blends with the odorous freshness of water babbling along the book, under moonlight.
This anthology included a selection from Gaspard of the Night by the amazing Aloysius Bertrand, who captured Leonard’s essence in prose and, with his metallic oxides, created small pictures full of vibrant colors that shine like clear enamels. Additionally, Des Esseintes incorporated the people's voice by Villiers, a stunning work crafted in a rich, golden style reminiscent of Leconte de Lisle and Flaubert, along with selections from that delicate jade book, which exudes an exotic blend of ginseng and tea with the fresh aroma of water gently flowing through the pages under the moonlight.
But in this collection had been gathered certain poems resurrected from defunct reviews: le Démon de l'analogie, la Pipe, le Pauvre enfant pâle, le Spectacle interrompu, le Phénomène futur, and especially Plaintes d'automne and Frisson d'hiver which were Mallarmé's masterpieces and were also celebrated among the masterpieces of prose poems, for they united such a magnificently delicate language that they cradled, like a melancholy incantation or a maddening melody, thoughts of an irresistible suggestiveness, pulsations of the soul of a sensitive person whose excited nerves vibrate with a keenness which penetrates ravishingly and induces a sadness.
But this collection brings together certain poems revived from vanished reviews: The Analogy Demon, la Pipe, the poor pale child, The Interrupted Show, The Future Phenomenon, and especially Autumn complaints and Winter thrill, which were Mallarmé's masterpieces and were also celebrated among the masterpieces of prose poems, as they combined such exquisitely delicate language that they cradled, like a mournful chant or a haunting melody, thoughts that were irresistibly suggestive, the pulsations of a sensitive person's soul whose excited nerves resonate with an intensity that penetrates beautifully and evokes a sense of sadness.
Of all the forms of literature, that of the prose poem was the form Des Esseintes preferred. Handled by an alchemist of genius, it contained in its slender volume the strength of the novel whose analytic developments and descriptive redundancies it suppressed. Quite often, Des Esseintes had meditated on that disquieting problem—to write a novel concentrated in a few phrases which should contain the essence of hundreds of pages always employed to establish the setting, to sketch the characters, and to pile up observations and minute details. Then the chosen words would be so unexchangeable that they would do duty for many others, the adjective placed in such an ingenious and definite fashion that it could not be displaced, opening such perspectives that the reader could dream for whole weeks on its sense at once precise and complex, could record the present, reconstruct the past, divine the future of the souls of the characters, revealed by the gleams of this unique epithet.
Of all the types of literature, the prose poem was the style that Des Esseintes favored. Crafted by a genius alchemist, it packed the power of a novel into its slender volume, eliminating the lengthy analyses and repetitive descriptions. Frequently, Des Esseintes contemplated the unsettling challenge of writing a novel condensed into a few sentences that would capture the essence of hundreds of pages typically used to set the scene, outline characters, and gather observations and intricate details. The selected words would be so unique that they could serve as substitutes for many others, with the adjective placed so cleverly and precisely that it couldn’t be altered, unlocking perspectives that could inspire the reader to ponder its simultaneously clear and complex meaning for weeks, to capture the present, reconstruct the past, and sense the future of the characters’ souls, revealed through the brilliance of this singular epithet.
Thus conceived and condensed in a page or two, the novel could become a communion of thought between a magical writer and an ideal reader, a spiritual collaboration agreed to between ten superior persons scattered throughout the universe, a delight offered to the refined, and accessible to them alone.
Thus shaped and summarized in a page or two, the novel could become a shared experience between a talented writer and an ideal reader, a spiritual partnership formed among ten exceptional individuals scattered across the universe, a pleasure offered to the discerning, and accessible only to them.
To Des Esseintes, the prose poem represented the concrete juice of literature, the essential oil of art.
To Des Esseintes, the prose poem was the real essence of literature, the core element of art.
That succulence, developed and concentrated into a drop, already existed in Baudelaire and in those poems of Mallarmé which he read with such deep joy.
That richness, refined and intensified into a single drop, was already present in Baudelaire and in those poems of Mallarmé that he read with such profound joy.
When he had closed his anthology, Des Esseintes told himself that his books which had ended on this last book, would probably never have anything added to it.
When he finished his anthology, Des Esseintes thought to himself that the books concluding with this last one would likely never have anything added to them.
In fact, the decadence of a literature, irreparably affected in its organism, enfeebled by old ideas, exhausted by excesses of syntax, sensitive only to the curiosities which make sick persons feverish, and yet intent upon expressing everything in its decline, eager to repair all the omissions of enjoyment, to bequeath the most subtle memories of grief in its death bed, was incarnate in Mallarmé, in the most perfect exquisite manner imaginable.
In fact, the decline of literature, irreparably damaged in its structure, weakened by outdated ideas, drained by excessive syntax, sensitive only to the curiosities that make sick people feverish, and still focused on expressing everything in its decline, eager to fix all the missed opportunities of pleasure, to leave behind the most nuanced memories of sorrow on its deathbed, was embodied in Mallarmé, in the most perfectly exquisite way imaginable.
Here were the quintessences of Baudelaire and of Poe; here were their fine and powerful substances distilled and disengaging new flavors and intoxications.
Here were the essences of Baudelaire and Poe; here were their rich and strong elements refined and releasing new tastes and sensations.
It was the agony of the old language which, after having become moldy from age to age, ended by dissolving, by reaching that deliquescence of the Latin language which expired in the mysterious concepts and the enigmatical expressions of Saint Boniface and Saint Adhelme.
It was the pain of the old language which, after becoming outdated over time, eventually faded away, reaching the breakdown of Latin that vanished into the mysterious ideas and puzzling phrases of Saint Boniface and Saint Adhelme.
The decomposition of the French language had been effected suddenly. In the Latin language, a long transition, a distance of four hundred years existed between the spotted and superb epithet of Claudian and Rutilius and the gamy epithet of the eighth century. In the French language, no lapse of time, no succession of ages had taken place; the stained and superb style of the de Goncourts and the gamy style of Verlaine and Mallarmé jostled in Paris, living in the same period, epoch and century.
The breakdown of the French language happened all at once. In Latin, there was a long transition, a gap of four hundred years between the distinctive and impressive expressions of Claudian and Rutilius and the more playful language of the eighth century. In French, there was no passage of time, no succession of ages; the rich and elegant style of the de Goncourts and the playful styles of Verlaine and Mallarmé coexisted in Paris, all in the same period, era, and century.
And Des Esseintes, gazing at one of the folios opened on his chapel desk, smiled at the thought that the moment would soon come when an erudite scholar would prepare for the decadence of the French language a glossary similar to that in which the savant, Du Cange, has noted the last murmurings, the last spasms, the last flashes of the Latin language dying of old age in the cloisters and sounding its death rattle.
And Des Esseintes, looking at one of the books open on his chapel desk, smiled at the thought that the time would soon arrive when a learned scholar would create a glossary for the decline of the French language, similar to the one where the scholar Du Cange recorded the final murmurs, the last gasps, and the last remnants of the Latin language fading away in the cloisters and making its last sounds.
Chapter 15
Burning at first like a rick on fire, his enthusiasm for the digester as quickly died out. Torpid at first, his nervous dyspepsia reappeared, and then this hot essence induced such an irritation in his stomach that Des Esseintes was quickly compelled to stop using it.
On Fire at first like a blazing fire, his excitement for the digester quickly faded. Initially sluggish, his nervous indigestion returned, and then this intense substance caused such irritation in his stomach that Des Esseintes was soon forced to stop using it.
The malady increased in strength; peculiar symptoms attended it. After the nightmares, hallucinations of smell, pains in the eye and deep coughing which recurred with clock-like regularity, after the pounding of his heart and arteries and the cold perspiration, arose illusions of hearing, those alterations which only reveal themselves in the last period of sickness.
The illness grew stronger, accompanied by strange symptoms. After the nightmares, he experienced smell hallucinations, eye pain, and deep coughing that happened with clock-like precision. After the pounding of his heart and arteries and cold sweat, he began to have auditory hallucinations, those changes that only show up in the final stage of an illness.
Attacked by a strong fever, Des Esseintes suddenly heard murmurings of water; then those sounds united into one and resembled a roaring which increased and then slowly resolved itself into a silvery bell sound.
Attacked by a high fever, Des Esseintes suddenly heard the sound of water murmuring; then those sounds came together into one and turned into a roar that grew louder and then gradually transformed into the sound of a silver bell.
He felt his delirious brain whirling in musical waves, engulfed in the mystic whirlwinds of his infancy. The songs learned at the Jesuits reappeared, bringing with them pictures of the school and the chapel where they had resounded, driving their hallucinations to the olfactory and visual organs, veiling them with clouds of incense and the pallid light irradiating through the stained-glass windows, under the lofty arches.
He felt his dizzy mind spinning in musical waves, surrounded by the mystical whirlwinds of his childhood. The songs he learned at the Jesuit school resurfaced, bringing back images of the school and the chapel where they echoed, flooding his senses with scents and visuals, shrouding them in clouds of incense and the pale light coming through the stained-glass windows beneath the high arches.
At the Fathers, the religious ceremonies had been practiced with great pomp. An excellent organist and remarkable singing director made an artistic delight of these spiritual exercises that were conducive to worship. The organist was in love with the old masters and on holidays celebrated masses by Palestrina and Orlando Lasso, psalms by Marcello, oratorios by Handel, motets by Bach; he preferred to render the sweet and facile compilations of Father Lambillotte so much favored by priests, the "Laudi Spirituali" of the sixteenth century whose sacerdotal beauty had often bewitched Des Esseintes.
At the Fathers, the religious ceremonies were performed with great splendor. A talented organist and an amazing choir director turned these spiritual exercises into an artistic experience that enhanced worship. The organist loved the old masters and would celebrate masses on holidays with Palestrina and Orlando Lasso, psalms by Marcello, oratorios by Handel, and motets by Bach; he particularly enjoyed performing the sweet and easy compositions by Father Lambillotte, which were so popular with priests, the "Spiritual Hymns" of the sixteenth century that had often captivated Des Esseintes.
But he particularly extracted ineffable pleasures while listening to the plain-chant which the organist had preserved regardless of new ideas.
But he especially took great pleasure in listening to the plain chant that the organist had kept alive despite new trends.
That form which was now considered a decrepit and Gothic form of Christian liturgy, an archæological curiosity, a relic of ancient time, had been the voice of the early Church, the soul of the Middle Age. It was the eternal prayer that had been sung and modulated in harmony with the soul's transports, the enduring hymn uplifted for centuries to the Almighty.
That style, now seen as an outdated and Gothic version of Christian worship, an archaeological oddity, a remnant of a bygone era, had once been the voice of the early Church and the essence of the Middle Ages. It was the timeless prayer that had been chanted and shaped in tune with the soul's emotions, the lasting hymn raised for centuries to the Almighty.
That traditional melody was the only one which, with its strong unison, its solemn and massive harmonies, like freestone, was not out of place with the old basilicas, making eloquent the Romanesque vaults, whose emanation and very spirit they seemed to be.
That traditional melody was the only one that, with its powerful unison and solemn, solid harmonies, like stone, fit perfectly with the old basilicas, bringing the Romanesque vaults to life, as if it embodied their essence and spirit.
How often had Des Esseintes not thrilled under its spell, when the "Christus factus est" of the Gregorian chant rose from the nave whose pillars seemed to tremble among the rolling clouds from censers, or when the "De Profundis" was sung, sad and mournful as a suppressed sob, poignant as a despairing invocation of humanity bewailing its mortal destiny and imploring the tender forgiveness of its Savior!
How often had Des Esseintes been captivated by its magic, when the "Christ has been made" of the Gregorian chant rose from the nave, with its pillars seemingly shaking among the swirling clouds from the incense, or when the "From the Depths" was sung, sad and sorrowful like a stifled sob, touching as a desperate cry from humanity lamenting its mortal fate and begging for the gentle forgiveness of its Savior!
All religious music seemed profane to him compared with that magnificent chant created by the genius of the Church, anonymous as the organ whose inventor is unknown. At bottom, in the works of Jomelli and Porpora, Carissimi and Durante, in the most wonderful compositions of Handel and Bach, there was never a hint of a renunciation of public success, or the sacrifice of an effect of art, or the abdication of human pride hearkening to its own prayer.
All religious music felt trivial to him compared to that amazing chant created by the genius of the Church, as anonymous as the organ whose inventor is unknown. Deep down, in the works of Jomelli and Porpora, Dear friends and During, in the most incredible compositions of Handel and Bach, there was never a hint of giving up public success, sacrificing the impact of art, or letting go of human pride that responded to its own prayer.
At the most, the religious style, august and solemn, had crystallized in Lesueur's imposing masses celebrated at Saint-Roch, tending to approach the severe nudity and austere majesty of the old plain-chant.
At its peak, the religious style, grand and serious, had solidified in Lesueur's impressive works celebrated at Saint-Roch, moving towards the stark simplicity and solemn grandeur of the old plainchant.
Since then, absolutely revolted by these pretexts at Stabat Maters devised by the Pergolesis and the Rossinis, by this intrusion of profane art in liturgic art, Des Esseintes had shunned those ambiguous works tolerated by the indulgent Church.
Since then, completely disgusted by the excuses in Stabat Mater created by the Pergolesis and the Rossinis, and by this intrusion of secular art into sacred art, Des Esseintes had avoided those ambiguous pieces allowed by the lenient Church.
In addition, this weakness brought about by the desire for large congregations had quickly resulted in the adoption of songs borrowed from Italian operas, of low cavatinas and indecent quadrilles played in churches converted to boudoirs and surrendered to stage actors whose voices resounded aloft, their impurity tainting the tones of the holy organ.
Additionally, this weakness caused by the desire for large crowds quickly led to the use of songs taken from Italian operas, along with low cavatinas and inappropriate quadrilles played in churches turned into boudoirs and dominated by stage actors whose voices rang out, their impurity tainting the sacred tones of the organ.
For years he had obstinately refused to take part in these pious entertainments, contenting himself with his memories of childhood. He even regretted having heard the Te Deum of the great masters, for he remembered that admirable plain-chant, that hymn so simple and solemn composed by some unknown saint, a Saint Ambrose or Hilary who, lacking the complicated resources of an orchestra and the musical mechanics of modern science, revealed an ardent faith, a delirious jubilation, uttered, from the soul of humanity, in the piercing and almost celestial accents of conviction.
For years, he stubbornly refused to join in these devout gatherings, preferring to focus on his childhood memories. He even regretted having heard the Te Deum by the great masters because he recalled that amazing plain chant, that hymn so simple and solemn created by some unknown saint, maybe Saint Ambrose or Hilary, who, without the complex tools of an orchestra and the musical techniques of today, expressed a deep faith and overwhelming joy, voiced from the soul of humanity in the piercing and almost heavenly tones of conviction.
Des Esseintes' ideas on music were in flagrant contradiction with the theories he professed regarding the other arts. In religious music, he approved only of the monastic music of the Middle Ages, that emaciated music which instinctively reacted on his nerves like certain pages of the old Christian Latin. Then (he freely confessed it) he was incapable of understanding the tricks that the contemporary masters had introduced into Catholic art. And he had not studied music with that passion which had led him towards painting and letters. He played indifferently on the piano and after many painful attempts had succeeded in reading a score, but he was ignorant of harmony, of the technique needed really to understand a nuance, to appreciate a finesse, to savor a refinement with full comprehension.
Des Esseintes' views on music were in clear conflict with the theories he held about other art forms. He only appreciated the monastic music of the Middle Ages in religious music, a bare and thin sound that instinctively affected his nerves like certain texts from old Christian Latin. He openly admitted that he couldn't grasp the tricks that contemporary composers had brought into Catholic art. He hadn't studied music with the same passion that drove him toward painting and literature. He played the piano poorly and, after many frustrating attempts, managed to read music, but he knew nothing about harmony or the skills needed to truly understand a nuance, appreciate a subtlety, or fully enjoy a refinement.
In other respects, when not read in solitude, profane music is a promiscuous art. To enjoy music, one must become part of that public which fills the theatres where, in a vile atmosphere, one perceives a loutish-looking man butchering episodes from Wagner, to the huge delight of the ignorant mob.
In other ways, when not experienced alone, popular music is a social art. To appreciate music, you have to join the crowd that fills the theaters where, in a terrible atmosphere, you see an uncultured guy ruining pieces by Wagner, much to the delight of the clueless audience.
He had always lacked the courage to plunge in this mob-bath so as to listen to Berlioz' compositions, several fragments of which had bewitched him by their passionate exaltations and their vigorous fugues, and he was certain that there was not one single scene, not even a phrase of one of the operas of the amazing Wagner which could with impunity be detached from its whole.
He had always lacked the bravery to dive into this crowd to listen to Berlioz's compositions, several parts of which had captivated him with their passionate highs and strong fugues. He was sure that there wasn’t a single scene, not even a line from one of the incredible Wagner’s operas, that could be taken out of context without losing its meaning.
The fragments, cut and served on the plate of a concert, lost all significance and remained senseless, since (like the chapters of a book, completing each other and moving to an inevitable conclusion) Wagner's melodies were necessary to sketch the characters, to incarnate their thoughts and to express their apparent or secret motives. He knew that their ingenious and persistent returns were understood only by the auditors who followed the subject from the beginning and gradually beheld the characters in relief, in a setting from which they could not be removed without dying, like branches torn from a tree.
The fragments, cut and served on the plate of a concert, lost all meaning and felt empty, since (like the chapters of a book, each one completing the other and leading to an inevitable conclusion) Wagner's melodies were essential to outline the characters, bring their thoughts to life, and reveal their obvious or hidden motivations. He understood that their clever and repeated themes were only grasped by the audience who followed the story from the beginning and slowly saw the characters stand out against a backdrop they couldn’t be taken from without losing their essence, like branches ripped from a tree.
That was why he felt that, among the vulgar herd of melomaniacs enthusing each Sunday on benches, scarcely any knew the score that was being massacred, when the ushers consented to be silent and permit the orchestra to be heard.
That’s why he thought that, among the crowd of music lovers getting excited every Sunday on the benches, hardly anyone understood the music being butchered when the ushers decided to be quiet and let the orchestra play.
Granted also that intelligent patriotism forbade a French theatre to give a Wagnerian opera, the only thing left to the curious who know nothing of musical arcana and either cannot or will not betake themselves to Bayreuth, is to remain at home. And that was precisely the course of conduct he had pursued.
Granted that smart patriotism prevented a French theater from presenting a Wagnerian opera, the only option left for those who know nothing about the intricacies of music and either can't or won't travel to Bayreuth is to stay home. And that was exactly what he had chosen to do.
The more public and facile music and the independent pieces of the old operas hardly interested him; the wretched trills of Auber and Boieldieu, of Adam and Flotow and the rhetorical commonplaces of Ambroise Thomas and the Bazins disgusted him as did the superannuated affectations and vulgar graces of Italians. That was why he had resolutely broken with musical art, and during the years of his abstention, he pleasurably recalled only certain programs of chamber music when he had heard Beethoven, and especially Schumann and Schubert which had affected his nerves in the same manner as had the more intimate and troubling poems of Edgar Allen Poe.
The more mainstream and easy-listening music, along with the lesser-known pieces from old operas, barely caught his interest; the awful trills of Auber and Boieldieu, Adam and Flotow, along with the clichéd expressions of Ambroise Thomas and the Bazins repulsed him, just like the outdated pretensions and tacky charm of Italian composers. That’s why he had firmly cut ties with musical art, and during his years away from it, he fondly remembered only certain chamber music programs that featured Beethoven, especially Schumann and Schubert, which stirred his emotions much like the more personal and haunting poems of Edgar Allan Poe.
Some of Schubert's parts for violoncello had positively left him panting, in the grip of hysteria. But it was particularly Schubert's lieders that had immeasurably excited him, causing him to experience similar sensations as after a waste of nervous fluid, or a mystic dissipation of the soul.
Some of Schubert's sections for cello had definitely left him breathless, feeling frantic. But it was especially Schubert's songs that had stirred him immensely, making him feel similar sensations to those experienced after exhausting his nerves or going through a spiritual release.
This music penetrated and drove back an infinity of forgotten sufferings and spleen in his heart. He was astonished at being able to contain so many dim miseries and vague griefs. This desolate music, crying from the inmost depths, terrified while charming him. Never could he repeat the "Young Girl's Lament" without a welling of tears in his eyes, for in this plaint resided something beyond a mere broken-hearted state; something in it clutched him, something like a romance ending in a gloomy landscape.
This music reached deep into his heart and stirred up countless forgotten pains and sorrows. He was shocked to realize he could hold so many dim struggles and vague sadness. This haunting music, coming from the deepest part of him, both terrified and enchanted him. He could never play the "Young Girl's Lament" without tears welling up in his eyes, because within this lament there was something more than just heartbreak; something in it grabbed him, like a romance ending in a bleak landscape.
And always, when these exquisite, sad plaints returned to his lips, there was evoked for him a suburban, flinty and gloomy site where a succession of silent bent persons, harassed by life, filed past into the twilight, while, steeped in bitterness and overflowing with disgust, he felt himself solitary in this dejected landscape, struck by an inexpressibly melancholy and stubborn distress whose mysterious intensity excluded all consolation, pity and repose. Like a funeral-knell, this despairing chant haunted him, now that he was in bed, prostrated by fever and agitated by an anxiety so much the more inappeasable for the fact that he could not discover its cause. He ended by abandoning himself to the torrent of anguishes suddenly dammed by the chant of psalms slowly rising in his tortured head.
And always, when these beautiful but sad complaints came back to him, he would think of a suburban, harsh, and gloomy place where a line of silent, bent people, worn out by life, walked into the twilight. Deeply bitter and filled with disgust, he felt alone in this sad landscape, overwhelmed by an indescribable and persistent distress whose mysterious intensity blocked out any comfort, compassion, or peace. Like a funeral bell, this despairing song lingered in his mind now that he was in bed, weakened by fever and stirred by a restless anxiety that felt even harder to bear because he couldn’t figure out its cause. Eventually, he surrendered to the rush of pains suddenly interrupted by the slow rising chant of psalms in his troubled mind.
One morning, nevertheless, he felt more tranquil and requested the servant to bring a looking-glass. It fell from his hands. He hardly recognized himself. His face was a clay color, the lips bloated and dry, the tongue parched, the skin rough. His hair and beard, untended since his illness by the domestic, added to the horror of the sunken face and staring eyes burning with feverish intensity in this skeleton head that bristled with hair. More than his weakness, more than his vomitings which began with each attempt at taking nourishment, more than his emaciation, did his changed visage terrify him. He felt lost. Then, in the dejection which overcame him, a sudden energy forced him in a sitting posture. He had strength to write a letter to his Paris physician and to order the servant to depart instantly, seek and bring him back that very day.
One morning, however, he felt a bit calmer and asked the servant to bring him a mirror. It slipped from his hands. He could barely recognize himself. His face was an ashen color, his lips swollen and dry, his tongue parched, and his skin rough. His unkempt hair and beard, neglected by the servant since he fell ill, added to the horror of his sunken face and wide, feverish eyes in this skeletal head that was bristling with hair. More than his weakness, more than the vomiting that started with each attempt to eat, and more than his emaciated body, it was his altered appearance that terrified him. He felt lost. Then, in the gloom that overtook him, a sudden surge of energy forced him to sit up. He had enough strength to write a letter to his Paris doctor and to order the servant to leave immediately and find him and bring him back that very day.
He passed suddenly from complete depression into boundless hope. This physician was a celebrated specialist, a doctor renowned for his cures of nervous maladies "He must have cured many more dangerous cases than mine," Des Esseintes reflected. "I shall certainly be on my feet in a few days." Disenchantment succeeded his confidence. Learned and intuitive though they be, physicians know absolutely nothing of neurotic diseases, being ignorant of their origins. Like the others, this one would prescribe the eternal oxyde of zinc and quinine, bromide of potassium and valerian. He had recourse to another thought: "If these remedies have availed me little in the past, could it not be due to the fact that I have not taken the right quantities?"
He suddenly went from feeling completely down to feeling full of hope. This doctor was a famous specialist, known for his success in treating nervous disorders. "He must have treated many more serious cases than mine," Des Esseintes thought. "I’ll definitely be back on my feet in a few days." Disappointment followed his optimism. Even though they are knowledgeable and intuitive, doctors really know very little about neurotic diseases and don’t understand their causes. Like the others, this one would recommend the usual treatments: oxide of zinc and quinine, potassium bromide, and valerian. He had another thought: "If these remedies haven’t worked for me in the past, could it be because I haven't taken the right amounts?"
In spite of everything, this expectation of being cured cheered him, but then a new fear entered. His servant might have failed to find the physician. Again he grew faint, passing instantly from the most unreasoning hopes to the most baseless fears, exaggerating the chances of a sudden recovery and his apprehensions of danger. The hours passed and the moment came when, in utter despair and convinced that the physician would not arrive, he angrily told himself that he certainly would have been saved, had he acted sooner. Then his rage against the servant and the physician whom he accused of permitting him to die, vanished, and he ended by reproaching himself for having waited so long before seeking aid, persuading himself that he would now be wholly cured had he that very last evening used the medicine.
Despite everything, the hope of being cured lifted his spirits, but then a new fear crept in. His servant might not have found the doctor. Once again, he felt weak, flipping from wild hopes to unfounded fears, obsessing over the chances of a sudden recovery and his worries about danger. Hours went by, and the moment came when, in total despair and convinced that the doctor wouldn’t come, he angrily told himself that he definitely would have been saved if he had acted sooner. Then his anger towards the servant and the doctor, whom he blamed for letting him die, faded away, and he ended up blaming himself for waiting so long to get help, convincing himself that he would be completely cured now if he had taken the medicine that very last evening.
Little by little, these alternations of hope and alarms jostling in his poor head, abated. The struggles ended by crushing him, and he relapsed into exhausted sleep interrupted by incoherent dreams, a sort of syncope pierced by awakenings in which he was barely conscious of anything. He had reached such a state where he lost all idea of desires and fears, and he was stupefied, experiencing neither astonishment or joy, when the physician suddenly arrived.
Little by little, the ups and downs of hope and worry clashing in his tired mind faded away. The struggles ultimately overwhelmed him, and he sank into a deep sleep interrupted by confusing dreams, a kind of faintness marked by brief awakenings in which he barely registered anything. He had reached a point where he lost all sense of desires and fears, and he felt dazed, experiencing neither surprise nor joy, when the doctor suddenly showed up.
The doctor had doubtless been apprised by the servant of Des Esseintes' mode of living and of the various symptoms observed since the day when the master of the house had been found near the window, overwhelmed by the violence of perfumes. He put very few questions to the patient whom he had known for many years. He felt his pulse and attentively studied the urine where certain white spots revealed one of the determining causes of nervousness. He wrote a prescription and left without saying more than that he would soon return.
The doctor had surely heard from the servant about Des Esseintes' lifestyle and the different symptoms noticed since the day the homeowner was found by the window, overwhelmed by strong scents. He asked the patient, whom he had known for many years, very few questions. He felt his pulse and carefully examined the urine where some white spots indicated one of the main causes of his anxiety. He wrote a prescription and left, saying only that he would be back soon.
This visit comforted Des Esseintes who none the less was frightened by the taciturnity observed; he adjured his servant not to conceal the truth from him any longer. But the servant declared that the doctor had exhibited no uneasiness, and despite his suspicions, Des Esseintes could seize upon no sign that might betray a shadow of a lie on the tranquil countenance of the old man.
This visit reassured Des Esseintes, even though he was still unsettled by the silence he noticed. He urged his servant to stop hiding the truth from him. But the servant insisted that the doctor showed no signs of worry, and despite his doubts, Des Esseintes couldn't find any indication of deceit on the calm face of the old man.
Then his thoughts began to obsess him less; his suffering disappeared and to the exhaustion he had felt throughout his members was grafted a certain indescribable languor. He was astonished and satisfied not to be weighted with drugs and vials, and a faint smile played on his lips when the servant brought a nourishing injection of peptone and told him he was to take it three times every twenty-four hours.
Then his thoughts started to bother him less; his pain faded away, and the exhaustion he had felt all over his body was replaced by a certain indescribable fatigue. He was amazed and relieved not to be burdened with drugs and vials, and a faint smile appeared on his lips when the servant brought a nourishing injection of peptone and told him he needed to take it three times a day.
The operation succeeded and Des Esseintes could not forbear to congratulate himself on this event which in a manner crowned the existence he had created. His penchant towards the artificial had now, though involuntarily, reached the supreme goal.
The operation succeeded, and Des Esseintes couldn’t help but congratulate himself on this event, which in a way crowned the life he had built. His preference for the artificial had now, even if unintentionally, reached the ultimate goal.
Farther one could not go. The nourishment thus absorbed was the ultimate deviation one could possibly commit.
You couldn't go any further. The nourishment you took in was the final mistake you could ever make.
"How delicious it would be" he reflected, "to continue this simple regime in complete health! What economy of time, what a pronounced deliverance from the aversion which food gives those who lack appetite! What a complete riddance from the disgust induced by food forcibly eaten! What an energetic protestation against the vile sin of gluttony, what a positive insult hurled at old nature whose monotonous demands would thus be avoided."
"How great would it be," he thought, "to stick to this simple routine while feeling completely healthy! What a saving of time, what a clear escape from the dislike that food brings to those who aren’t hungry! What a total freedom from the disgust caused by eating food that you have to force down! What a strong stand against the terrible sin of gluttony, what a definite rebuke to nature’s boring demands that would be avoided."
And he continued, talking to himself half-aloud. One could easily stimulate desire for food by swallowing a strong aperitif. After the question, "what time is it getting to be? I am famished," one would move to the table and place the instrument on the cloth, and then, in the time it takes to say grace, one could have suppressed the tiresome and vulgar demands of the body.
And he kept talking to himself, almost out loud. You could easily spark an appetite by downing a strong drink. After asking, "What time is it? I'm starving," you’d head to the table, set the utensil on the cloth, and then, in the time it takes to say a quick prayer, you could have silenced the annoying and basic needs of your body.
Several days afterwards, the servant presented an injection whose color and odor differed from the other.
Several days later, the servant brought an injection that had a different color and smell than the others.
"But it is not the same at all!" Des Esseintes cried, gazing with deep feeling at the liquid poured into the apparatus. As if in a restaurant, he asked for the card, and unfolding the physician's prescription, read:
"But it's not the same at all!" Des Esseintes exclaimed, looking intently at the liquid poured into the device. As if in a restaurant, he requested the menu, and opening the doctor's prescription, read:
Cod Liver Oil . . . . . . . . 20 gramsBeef Tea . . . . . . . . . . 200 gramsBurgundy Wine . . . . . . . . 200 gramsYolk of one egg.
He remained meditative. He who by reason of the weakened state of his stomach had never seriously preoccupied himself with the art of the cuisine, was surprised to find himself thinking of combinations to please an artificial epicure. Then a strange idea crossed his brain. Perhaps the physician had imagined that the strange palate of his patient was fatigued by the taste of the peptone; perhaps he had wished, like a clever chef, to vary the taste of foods and to prevent the monotony of dishes that might lead to want of appetite. Once in the wake of these reflections, Des Esseintes sketched new recipes, preparing vegetable dinners for Fridays, using the dose of cod liver oil and wine, dismissing the beef tea as a meat food specially prohibited by the Church. But he had no occasion longer to ruminate on these nourishing drinks, for the physician succeeded gradually in curing the vomiting attacks, and he was soon swallowing, in the normal manner, a syrup of punch containing a pulverized meat whose faint aroma of cacao pleased his palate.
He stayed deep in thought. He, who because of his upset stomach had never really paid much attention to cooking, was surprised to find himself considering different combinations to satisfy a picky eater. Then a curious thought struck him. Maybe the doctor thought that his patient's unusual taste had grown tired of the peptone; perhaps he wanted, like a skilled chef, to change up the flavors and avoid the boredom of meals that could cause a loss of appetite. Following these thoughts, Des Esseintes sketched out new recipes, planning meatless dinners for Fridays, using cod liver oil and wine, while setting aside the beef tea as a meat food specifically forbidden by the Church. But he didn’t have to think about these nourishing drinks for long, as the doctor gradually managed to stop the vomiting, and he soon found himself sipping a punch syrup containing ground meat with a subtle cocoa aroma that pleased his taste buds.
Weeks passed before his stomach decided to function. The nausea returned at certain moments, but these attacks were disposed of by ginger ale and Rivières' antiemetic drink.
Weeks went by before his stomach finally started to work. The nausea came back at times, but these episodes were managed with ginger ale and Rivers' anti-nausea drink.
Finally the organs were restored. Meats were digested with the aid of pepsines. Recovering strength, he was able to stand up and attempt to walk, leaning on a cane and supporting himself on the furniture. Instead of being thankful over his success, he forgot his past pains, grew irritated at the length of time needed for convalescence and reproached the doctor for not effecting a more rapid cure.
Finally, the organs were fixed. Food was digested with the help of pepsins. Gaining strength, he could stand up and try to walk, leaning on a cane and using the furniture for support. Instead of being grateful for his recovery, he forgot his past suffering, got annoyed at how long it was taking to heal, and blamed the doctor for not making him better faster.
At last the day came when he could remain standing for whole afternoons. Then his study irritated him. Certain blemishes it possessed, and which habit had accustomed him to overlook, now were apparent. The colors chosen to be seen by lamp-light seemed discordant in full day. He thought of changing them and for whole hours he combined rebellious harmonies of hues, hybrid pairings of cloth and leathers.
At last, the day arrived when he could stand for entire afternoons. Then his study started to annoy him. Certain flaws it had, which he had gotten used to ignoring, were now obvious. The colors he had picked to look good in lamp light seemed out of place in broad daylight. He considered changing them and spent hours mixing defiant color combinations, creating mismatched pairings of fabrics and leathers.
"I am certainly on the road to recovery," he reflected, taking note of his old hobbies.
"I’m definitely on the road to recovery," he thought, noticing his old hobbies.
One morning, while contemplating his orange and blue walls, considering some ideal tapestries worked with stoles of the Greek Church, dreaming of Russian orphrey dalmaticas and brocaded copes flowered with Slavonic letters done in Ural stones and rows of pearls, the physician entered and, noticing the patient's eyes, questioned him.
One morning, while looking at his orange and blue walls, thinking about some perfect tapestries featuring stoles from the Greek Church, dreaming of Russian orphrey dalmaticas and ornate copes decorated with Slavic letters made from Ural stones and strings of pearls, the doctor came in and, seeing the patient’s eyes, asked him some questions.
Des Esseintes spoke of his unrealizable longings. He commenced to contrive new color schemes, to talk of harmonies and discords of tones he meant to produce, when the doctor stunned him by peremptorily announcing that these projects would never be executed here.
Des Esseintes talked about his unattainable desires. He started to come up with new color combinations, discussing the harmonies and dissonances of tones he intended to create, when the doctor shocked him by decisively stating that these plans would never be carried out here.
And, without giving him time to catch breath, he informed Des Esseintes that he had done his utmost in re-establishing the digestive functions and that now it was necessary to attack the neurosis which was by no means cured and which would necessitate years of diet and care. He added that before attempting a cure, before commencing any hydrotherapic treatment, impossible of execution at Fontenay, Des Esseintes must quit that solitude, return to Paris, and live an ordinary mode of existence by amusing himself like others.
And, without giving him a moment to catch his breath, he told Des Esseintes that he had done everything he could to restore his digestive functions, and now it was essential to tackle the neurosis, which was far from cured and would require years of diet and care. He added that before starting any treatment, especially hydrotherapy, which couldn't be done at Fontenay, Des Esseintes needed to leave that solitude, return to Paris, and live a normal life by having fun like everyone else.
"But the pleasures of others will not amuse me," Des Esseintes indignantly cried.
"But the pleasures of others won't entertain me," Des Esseintes angrily exclaimed.
Without debating the matter, the doctor merely asserted that this radical change was, in his eyes, a question of life or death, a question of health or insanity possibly complicated in the near future by tuberculosis.
Without discussing the issue, the doctor simply claimed that this drastic change was, in his view, a matter of life or death, a matter of health or insanity, potentially made more complicated in the near future by tuberculosis.
"So it is a choice between death and the hulks!" Des Esseintes exasperatedly exclaimed.
"So it's a choice between death and the hulks!" Des Esseintes exclaimed in frustration.
The doctor, who was imbued with all the prejudices of a man of the world, smiled and reached the door without saying a word.
The doctor, who was filled with all the biases of a worldly man, smiled and walked to the door without saying a word.
Chapter 16
Des Esseintes locked himself up in his bedroom, closing his ears to the sounds of hammers on packing cases. Each stroke rent his heart, drove a sorrow into his flesh. The physician's order was being fulfilled; the fear of once more submitting to the pains he had endured, the fear of a frightful agony had acted more powerfully on Des Esseintes than the hatred of the detestable existence to which the medical order condemned him.
Des Esseintes shut himself in his bedroom, blocking out the noise of hammers on packing boxes. Each strike pierced his heart, embedding sorrow deep within him. The doctor's orders were being followed; the dread of facing the pains he had previously suffered, the terror of an excruciating agony, affected Des Esseintes more intensely than his aversion to the miserable life that the medical command sentenced him to.
Yet he told himself there were people who live without conversing with anyone, absorbed far from the world in their own affairs, like recluses and trappists, and there is nothing to prove that these wretches and sages become madmen or consumptives. He had unsuccessfully cited these examples to the doctor; the latter had repeated, coldly and firmly, in a tone that admitted of no reply, that his verdict, (confirmed besides by consultation with all the experts on neurosis) was that distraction, amusement, pleasure alone might make an impression on this malady whose spiritual side eluded all remedy; and made impatient by the recriminations of his patient, he for the last time declared that he would refuse to continue treating him if he did not consent to a change of air, and live under new hygienic conditions.
Yet he told himself there were people who live without talking to anyone, wrapped up in their own lives, like recluses and monks, and there's no evidence that these unfortunate souls or wise people go crazy or become sick. He had tried to bring up these examples to the doctor, but the doctor had coldly and firmly replied, in a way that didn't invite further discussion, that his verdict—backed up by consultations with all the experts on neurosis—was that only distraction, fun, and pleasure could help with this illness whose emotional aspect was beyond any cure. Frustrated by the complaints of his patient, he finally declared that he would refuse to continue treating him if he didn’t agree to change his surroundings and live in healthier conditions.
Des Esseintes had instantly betaken himself to Paris, had consulted other specialists, had impartially put the case before them. All having unhesitatingly approved of the action of their colleague, he had rented an apartment in a new house, had returned to Fontenay and, white with rage, had given orders to have his trunks packed.
Des Esseintes immediately made his way to Paris, consulted other specialists, and presented his case to them without bias. All of them unreservedly supported the actions of their colleague, so he rented an apartment in a new building, returned to Fontenay, and, furious, ordered his trunks to be packed.
Sunk in his easy chair, he now ruminated upon that unyielding order which was wrecking his plans, breaking the strings of his present life and overturning his future plans. His beatitude was ended. He was compelled to abandon this sheltering haven and return at full speed into the stupidity which had once attacked him.
Sinking into his comfortable chair, he now thought about that stubborn order that was ruining his plans, disrupting his current life, and derailing his future plans. His happiness was over. He had to leave this safe retreat and rush back into the nonsense that had once overwhelmed him.
The physicians spoke of amusement and distraction. With whom, and with what did they wish him to distract and amuse himself?
The doctors talked about fun and diversion. Who did they want him to distract himself with, and what did they expect him to do for entertainment?
Had he not banished himself from society? Did he know a single person whose existence would approximate his in seclusion and contemplation? Did he know a man capable of appreciating the fineness of a phrase, the subtlety of a painting, the quintessence of an idea,—a man whose soul was delicate and exquisite enough to understand Mallarmé and love Verlaine?
Had he not removed himself from society? Did he know anyone whose life was as solitary and reflective as his? Did he know a man who could appreciate the beauty of a phrase, the subtleties of a painting, the essence of an idea—a man whose soul was sensitive and refined enough to understand Mallarmé and love Verlaine?
Where and when must he search to discover a twin spirit, a soul detached from commonplaces, blessing silence as a benefit, ingratitude as a solace, contempt as a refuge and port?
Where and when does he have to look to find a twin spirit, a soul separate from the ordinary, valuing silence as a gift, ingratitude as comfort, and contempt as a safe haven and shelter?
In the world where he had dwelt before his departure for Fontenay? But most of the county squires he had associated with must since have stultified themselves near card tables or ended upon the lips of women; most by this time must have married; after having enjoyed, during their life, the spoils of cads, their spouses now possessed the remains of strumpets, for, master of first-fruits, the people alone waste nothing.
In the world he lived in before he left for Fontenay? But most of the county gentlemen he used to hang out with must have dulled their minds at card tables or found themselves the talk of women; by now, most must have gotten married; after enjoying, throughout their lives, the benefits of scoundrels, their wives now have the leftovers of promiscuous women, because, being the first to claim what’s theirs, only the common people waste nothing.
"A pretty change—this custom adopted by a prudish society!" Des Esseintes reflected.
"A striking change—this trend embraced by a conservative society!" Des Esseintes reflected.
The nobility had died, the aristocracy had marched to imbecility or ordure! It was extinguished in the corruption of its descendants whose faculties grew weaker with each generation and ended in the instincts of gorillas fermented in the brains of grooms and jockeys; or rather, as with the Choiseul-Praslins, Polignacs and Chevreuses, wallowed in the mud of lawsuits which made it equal the other classes in turpitude.
The nobility had vanished, and the aristocracy had sunk into foolishness and filth! It was wiped out by the corruption of its descendants, whose abilities diminished with each generation until they were reduced to the instincts of gorillas, steeped in the minds of grooms and jockeys; or rather, like the Choiseul-Praslins, Polignacs, and Chevreuses, they rolled in the muck of lawsuits that brought them down to the same level of disgrace as the other classes.
The mansions themselves, the secular escutcheons, the heraldic deportment of this antique caste had disappeared. The land no longer yielding anything was put up for sale, money being needed to procure the venereal witchcraft for the besotted descendants of the old races.
The mansions themselves, the worldly emblems, the ceremonial demeanor of this ancient class had vanished. The land, no longer producing anything, was put up for sale, as money was needed to buy the seductive allure for the intoxicated descendants of the old families.
The less scrupulous and stupid threw aside all sense of shame. They weltered in the mire of fraud and deceit, behaved like cheap sharpers.
The less principled and foolish ignored any sense of shame. They wallowed in a mess of fraud and deceit, acting like low-level con artists.
This eagerness for gain, this lust for lucre had even reacted on that other class which had constantly supported itself on the nobility—the clergy. Now one perceived, in newspapers, announcements of corn cures by priests. The monasteries had changed into apothecary or liqueur workrooms. They sold recipes or manufactured products: the Cîteaux order, chocolate; the trappists, semolina; the Maristes Brothers, biphosphate of medicinal lime and arquebuse water; the jacobins, an anti-apoplectic elixir; the disciples of Saint Benoît, benedictine; the friars of Saint Bruno, chartreuse.
This eagerness for profit, this greed for money had even affected that other class which had always leaned on the nobility—the clergy. Now, you could see in newspapers, ads for corn remedies by priests. The monasteries had turned into shops for medicines or liquor. They sold recipes or made products: the Cîteaux order, chocolate; the Trappists, semolina; the Marist Brothers, medicinal lime and arquebuse water; the Jacobins, an anti-stroke elixir; the followers of Saint Benedict, Benedictine; the friars of Saint Bruno, Chartreuse.
Business had invaded the cloisters where, in place of antiphonaries, heavy ledgers reposed on reading-desks. Like leprosy, the avidity of the age was ravaging the Church, weighing down the monks with inventories and invoices.
Business had taken over the quiet spaces where, instead of hymn books, heavy ledgers sat on reading desks. Like a disease, the greed of the times was destroying the Church, burdening the monks with lists of goods and bills.
And yet, in spite of everything, it was only among the ecclesiastics that Des Esseintes could hope for pleasurable contract. In the society of well-bred and learned canons, he would have been compelled to share their faith, to refrain from floating between sceptical ideas and transports of conviction which rose from time to time on the water, sustained by recollections of childhood.
And yet, despite everything, it was only among the clergy that Des Esseintes could expect any pleasurable connection. In the company of well-mannered and educated canons, he would have been forced to share their beliefs, to avoid drifting between doubtful ideas and bursts of strong conviction that occasionally surfaced, fueled by memories from his childhood.
He would have had to muster identical opinions and never admit (he freely did in his ardent moments) a Catholicism charged with a soupcon of magic, as under Henry the Third, and with a dash of sadism, as at the end of the last century. This special clericalism, this depraved and artistically perverse mysticism towards which he wended could not even be discussed with a priest who would not have understood them or who would have banished them with horror.
He would have had to gather the same opinions and never admit (which he openly did during his passionate moments) to a Catholicism that included a hint of magic, like during Henry the Third's time, and a touch of sadism, like at the end of the last century. This particular clericalism, this twisted and artistically perverse mysticism he was drawn to couldn't even be talked about with a priest who either wouldn't understand it or would reject it in horror.
For the twentieth time, this irresolvable problem troubled him. He would have desired an end to this irresolute state in which he floundered. Now that he was pursuing a changed life, he would have liked to possess faith, to incrust it as soon as seized, to screw it into his soul, to shield it finally from all those reflections which uprooted and agitated it. But the more he desired it and the less his emptiness of spirit was evident, the more Christ's visitation receded. As his religious hunger augmented and he gazed eagerly at this faith visible but so far off that the distance terrified him, ideas pressed upon his active mind, driving back his will, rejecting, by common sense and mathematical proofs, the mysteries and dogmas. He sadly told himself that he would have to find a way to abstain from self-discussion. He would have to learn how to close his eyes and let himself be swept along by the current, forgetting those accursed discoveries which have destroyed the religious edifice, from top to bottom, since the last two centuries.
For the twentieth time, this unresolved issue troubled him. He wished he could escape this uncertain state where he felt lost. Now that he was trying to live a different life, he wanted to have faith, to grab hold of it as soon as he could, to embed it in his soul, and to finally protect it from all those thoughts that unsettled and disturbed him. But the more he wanted it and the more his spiritual emptiness became apparent, the further away Christ's presence seemed. As his craving for faith grew and he looked longingly at this belief that felt so close yet was terrifyingly distant, ideas crowded his active mind, pushing back his will and rejecting, through common sense and logical proofs, the mysteries and doctrines. He sadly admitted to himself that he needed to figure out how to stop overthinking. He would have to learn to close his eyes and let himself be carried along by the flow, forgetting those painful realizations that had dismantled the foundations of religion completely in the last two centuries.
He sighed. It is neither the physiologists nor the infidels that demolish Catholicism, but the priests, whose stupid works could extirpate convictions the most steadfast.
He sighed. It's not the physiologists or the skeptics who destroy Catholicism, but the priests, whose foolish actions could wipe out even the strongest beliefs.
A Dominican friar, Rouard de Card, had proved in a brochure entitled "On the Adulteration of Sacramental Substances" that most masses were not valid, because the elements used for worship had been adulterated by the manufacturers.
A Dominican friar, Rouard de Card, demonstrated in a pamphlet titled "On the Adulteration of Sacramental Substances" that most masses were not legitimate because the materials used for worship had been tampered with by the producers.
For years, the holy oils had been adulterated with chicken fat; wax, with burned bones; incense, with cheap resin and benzoin. But the thing that was worse was that the substances, indispensable to the holy sacrifice, the two substances without which no oblation is possible, had also been debased: the wine, by numerous dilutions and by illicit introductions of Pernambuco wood, danewort berries, alcohol and alum; the bread of the Eucharist that must be kneaded with the fine flour of wheat, by kidney beans, potash and pipe clay.
For years, the sacred oils had been mixed with chicken fat; the wax, with charred bones; incense, with cheap resin and benzoin. But the worst part was that the substances essential for the holy sacrifice, the two things without which no offering is possible, had also been corrupted: the wine, through multiple dilutions and the illegal addition of Pernambuco wood, danewort berries, alcohol, and alum; the Eucharistic bread, which should be made with fine wheat flour, with kidney beans, potash, and pipe clay.
But they had gone even farther. They had dared suppress the wheat and shameless dealers were making almost all the Host with the fecula of potatoes.
But they had gone even further. They had the audacity to withhold the wheat, and shameless merchants were using almost entirely potato starch to make the Host.
Now, God refused to descend into the fecula. It was an undeniable fact and a certain one. In the second volume of his treatise on moral theology, Cardinal Gousset had dwelt at length on this question of the fraud practiced from the divine point of view. And, according to the incontestable authority of this master, one could not consecrate bread made of flour of oats, buckwheat or barley, and if the matter of using rye be less doubtful, no argument was possible in regard to the fecula which, according to the ecclesiastic expression, was in no way fit for sacramental purposes.
Now, God refused to come down into the mess. This was an undeniable and certain fact. In the second volume of his treatise on moral theology, Cardinal Gousset had spent a lot of time discussing the issue of fraud from the divine perspective. And, based on the indisputable authority of this expert, one could not bless bread made from oat, buckwheat, or barley flour; while the use of rye was a bit less questionable, there could be no argument regarding the mess which, according to church terminology, was in no way suitable for sacramental purposes.
By means of the rapid manipulation of the fecula and the beautiful appearance presented by the unleavened breads created with this element, the shameless imposture had been so propagated that now the mystery of the transubstantiation hardly existed any longer and the priests and faithful were holding communion, without being aware of it, with neutral elements.
Through quickly manipulating the starch and the appealing look of the unleavened breads made with it, the shameless deception had spread so widely that the mystery of transubstantiation hardly existed anymore, and both the priests and the faithful were sharing communion, unaware that they were doing so with neutral elements.
Ah! far off was the time when Radegonda, Queen of France, had with her own hands prepared the bread destined for the alters, or the time when, after the customs of Cluny, three priests or deacons, fasting and garbed in alb and amice, washed their faces and hands and then picked out the wheat, grain by grain, grinding it under millstone, kneading the paste in a cold and pure water and themselves baking it under a clear fire, while chanting psalms.
Ah! It was so long ago when Radegonda, Queen of France, had personally prepared the bread meant for the altars, or when, following the customs of Cluny, three priests or deacons, fasting and dressed in alb and amice, washed their faces and hands, then carefully selected the wheat, grain by grain, grinding it under the millstone, kneading the dough in cold and pure water, and baking it themselves over a clear fire, while singing psalms.
"All this matter of eternal dupery," Des Esseintes reflected, "is not conducive to the steadying of my already weakened faith. And how admit that omnipotence which stops at such a trifle as a pinch of fecula or a soupcon of alcohol?"
"All this nonsense about eternal nonsense," Des Esseintes thought, "doesn't help strengthen my already shaky faith. And how can I accept an omnipotence that holds back at something as trivial as a pinch of starch or a hint of alcohol?"
These reflections all the more threw a gloom over the view of his future life and rendered his horizon more menacing and dark.
These thoughts only added to the gloom surrounding his view of the future and made his outlook feel more threatening and bleak.
He was lost, utterly lost. What would become of him in this Paris where he had neither family nor friends? No bond united him to the Saint-Germain quarters now in its dotage, scaling into the dust of desuetude, buried in a new society like an empty husk. And what contact could exist between him and that bourgeois class which had gradually climbed up, profiting by all the disasters to grow rich, making use of all the catastrophes to impose respect on its crimes and thefts.
He was completely lost. What would happen to him in this Paris where he had no family or friends? He had no connection to the Saint-Germain neighborhood, which was now fading away, buried under a new society like an empty shell. And what connection could he possibly have with that bourgeois class that had slowly risen, getting rich off the disasters, using all the catastrophes to demand respect for its crimes and thefts?
After the aristocracy of birth had come the aristocracy of money. Now one saw the reign of the caliphates of commerce, the despotism of the rue du Sentier, the tyranny of trade, bringing in its train venal narrow ideas, knavish and vain instincts.
After the elite born into privilege came the elite of wealth. Now we witness the dominance of commerce, the authoritarian control of the Sentier Street, the oppressive nature of trade, which brings with it corrupt, limited thinking and deceitful, superficial instincts.
Viler and more dishonest than the nobility despoiled and the decayed clergy, the bourgeoisie borrowed their frivolous ostentations, their braggadoccio, degrading these qualities by its lack of savoir-vivre; the bourgeoisie stole their faults and converted them into hypocritical vices. And, authoritative and sly, low and cowardly, it pitilessly attacked its eternal and necessary dupe, the populace, unmuzzled and placed in ambush so as to be in readiness to assault the old castes.
Worse and more dishonest than the looted nobility and the corrupt clergy, the bourgeoisie borrowed their flashy displays and bragging, degrading these traits with their lack of social etiquette; they took their faults and turned them into hypocritical vices. Authoritative and sneaky, low and cowardly, they relentlessly attacked their constant and helpless target, the common people, unleashed and set up to prepare for an assault on the old social classes.
It was now an acknowledged fact. Its task once terminated, the proletariat had been bled, supposedly as a measure of hygiene. The bourgeoisie, reassured, strutted about in good humor, thanks to its wealth and the contagion of its stupidity. The result of its accession to power had been the destruction of all intelligence, the negation of all honesty, the death of all art, and, in fact, the debased artists had fallen on their knees, and they eagerly kissed the dirty feet of the eminent jobbers and low satraps whose alms permitted them to live.
It was now a well-known fact. Once its mission was complete, the working class had been drained, supposedly for the sake of cleanliness. The middle class, feeling secure, walked around in high spirits, thanks to their wealth and the spread of their ignorance. The outcome of their rise to power had been the eradication of all intelligence, the denial of all honesty, the end of all art, and, in reality, the degraded artists had fallen to their knees, eagerly kissing the filthy feet of the prominent brokers and petty rulers whose charity allowed them to survive.
In painting, one now beheld a deluge of silliness; in literature, an intemperate mixture of dull style and cowardly ideas, for they had to credit the business man with honesty, the buccaneer who purchased a dot for his son and refused to pay that of his daughter, with virtue; chaste love to the Voltairian agnostic who accused the clergy of rapes and then went hypocritically and stupidly to sniff, in the obscene chambers.
In painting, there was now an overwhelming amount of nonsense; in literature, a reckless blend of boring style and weak ideas, as they had to credit the businessman with honesty, the pirate who bought a piece of land for his son and refused to pay for his daughter, with morality; pure love to the Voltairian skeptic who accused the clergy of abuses and then hypocritically and foolishly went to lurk around in the seedy places.
It was the great American hulks transported to our continent. It was the immense, the profound, the incommensurable peasantry of the financier and the parvenu, beaming, like a pitiful sun, upon the idolatrous town which wallowed on the ground the while it uttered impure psalms before the impious tabernacle of banks.
It was the great American ships brought to our shores. It was the vast, the deep, the immeasurable masses of the wealthy and the newly rich, shining, like a sad sun, on the idolizing town that lay on the ground as it sang unholy hymns before the godless altar of banks.
"Well, then, society, crash to ruin! Die, aged world!" cried Des Esseintes, angered by the ignominy of the spectacle he had evoked. This cry of hate broke the nightmare that oppressed him.
"Well, then, society, go ahead and fall apart! Die, old world!" shouted Des Esseintes, furious at the disgrace of the scene he had called forth. This cry of anger shattered the nightmare that weighed on him.
"Ah!" he exclaimed, "To think that all this is not a dream, to think that I am going to return into the cowardly and servile crowd of this century!" To console himself, he recalled the comforting maxims of Schopenhauer, and repeated to himself the sad axiom of Pascal: "The soul is pained by all things it thinks upon." But the words resounded in his mind like sounds deprived of sense; his ennui disintegrated, lifting all significance from the words, all healing virtue, all effective and gentle vigor.
"Ah!" he exclaimed, "To think that this is not just a dream, to think I’m about to go back to the cowardly and servile crowd of this century!" To comfort himself, he recalled the reassuring sayings of Schopenhauer, and repeated to himself the gloomy axiom of Pascal: "The soul is pained by everything it thinks about." But the words echoed in his mind like sounds without meaning; his boredom shattered, stripping the words of all significance, all healing power, all effective and gentle energy.
He came at last to perceive that the reasonings of pessimism availed little in comforting him, that impossible faith in a future life alone would pacify him.
He finally realized that the arguments of pessimism did little to comfort him, and that only an impossible belief in an afterlife could bring him peace.
An access of rage swept aside, like a hurricane, his attempts at resignation and indifference. He could no longer conceal the hideous truth—nothing was left, all was in ruins. The bourgeoisie were gormandizing on the solemn ruins of the Church which had become a place of rendez-vous, a mass of rubbish, soiled by petty puns and scandalous jests. Were the terrible God of Genesis and the Pale Christ of Golgotha not going to prove their existence by commanding the cataclysms of yore, by rekindling the flames that once consumed the sinful cities? Was this degradation to continue to flow and cover with its pestilence the old world planted with seeds of iniquities and shames?
A wave of rage overwhelmed him, pushing aside his attempts at resignation and indifference like a hurricane. He could no longer hide the ugly truth—there was nothing left; everything was in ruins. The middle class was feasting on the solemn wreckage of the Church, which had turned into a place of meeting, a heap of trash, tainted by petty jokes and scandalous remarks. Were the terrible God of Genesis and the Pale Christ of Golgotha not going to prove their existence by unleashing the cataclysms of the past, by reigniting the flames that once destroyed the wicked cities? Was this decline going to keep spreading, covering the old world that was already sown with seeds of wrongdoing and shame?
The door was suddenly opened. Clean-shaved men appeared, bringing chests and carrying the furniture; then the door closed once more on the servant who was removing packages of books.
The door swung open unexpectedly. Clean-shaven men walked in, bringing chests and hauling in furniture; then the door shut again on the servant who was taking away boxes of books.
Des Esseintes sank into a chair.
Des Esseintes collapsed into a chair.
"I shall be in Paris in two days. Well, all is finished. The waves of human mediocrity rise to the sky and they will engulf the refuge whose dams I open. Ah! courage leaves me, my heart breaks! O Lord, pity the Christian who doubts, the sceptic who would believe, the convict of life embarking alone in the night, under a sky no longer illumined by the consoling beacons of ancient faith."
"I’ll be in Paris in two days. Well, it’s all over. The waves of human mediocrity rise high and they’re going to drown the refuge that I’ve let loose. Ah! I’m losing my courage, my heart is breaking! O Lord, have mercy on the Christians who doubt, on the skeptics who want to believe, on the people sentenced to life embarking alone into the night, under a sky that’s no longer lit by the comforting lights of old faith."