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ANTHEM
by Ayn Rand
Contents
PART ONE |
PART TWO |
PART THREE > |
PART FOUR |
PART FIVE |
PART SIX |
PART SEVEN |
PART EIGHT |
PART NINE |
PART TEN |
PART ELEVEN |
PART TWELVE |
PART ONE
It is a sin to write this. It is a sin to think words no others think and to put them down upon a paper no others are to see. It is base and evil. It is as if we were speaking alone to no ears but our own. And we know well that there is no transgression blacker than to do or think alone. We have broken the laws. The laws say that men may not write unless the Council of Vocations bid them so. May we be forgiven!
It’s wrong to write this. It’s wrong to think thoughts that no one else thinks and to write them down on a paper that no one else will see. It's low and immoral. It's like we’re talking to ourselves with no one else listening. And we know there’s no greater wrongdoing than to act or think alone. We have broken the rules. The rules say that people cannot write unless the Council of Vocations allows them to. May we be forgiven!
But this is not the only sin upon us. We have committed a greater crime, and for this crime there is no name. What punishment awaits us if it be discovered we know not, for no such crime has come in the memory of men and there are no laws to provide for it.
But this isn’t the only sin we carry. We’ve committed a greater crime, and there’s no name for it. We don’t know what punishment awaits us if it’s discovered, since no such crime has been recorded in anyone’s memory and there are no laws to address it.
It is dark here. The flame of the candle stands still in the air. Nothing moves in this tunnel save our hand on the paper. We are alone here under the earth. It is a fearful word, alone. The laws say that none among men may be alone, ever and at any time, for this is the great transgression and the root of all evil. But we have broken many laws. And now there is nothing here save our one body, and it is strange to see only two legs stretched on the ground, and on the wall before us the shadow of our one head.
It’s dark here. The candle’s flame stands still in the air. Nothing moves in this tunnel except our hand on the paper. We’re alone down here under the earth. “Alone” is a frightening word. The rules say that no one among men should ever be alone, because that’s the greatest sin and the source of all evil. But we’ve broken many rules. And now there’s nothing here except our single body, and it feels odd to see just two legs stretched out on the ground, with the shadow of our head on the wall in front of us.
The walls are cracked and water runs upon them in thin threads without sound, black and glistening as blood. We stole the candle from the larder of the Home of the Street Sweepers. We shall be sentenced to ten years in the Palace of Corrective Detention if it be discovered. But this matters not. It matters only that the light is precious and we should not waste it to write when we need it for that work which is our crime. Nothing matters save the work, our secret, our evil, our precious work. Still, we must also write, for—may the Council have mercy upon us!—we wish to speak for once to no ears but our own.
The walls are cracked, and water runs down them in thin, silent threads, black and shiny like blood. We took the candle from the pantry of the Home of the Street Sweepers. If we get caught, we’ll face ten years in the Palace of Corrective Detention. But that doesn’t really matter. What matters is that the light is valuable, and we shouldn’t waste it writing when we need it for the work that’s our crime. Nothing is more important than the work, our secret, our wrongdoing, our precious work. Still, we need to write, because—may the Council have mercy on us!—we want to speak for once to no one but ourselves.
Our name is Equality 7-2521, as it is written on the iron bracelet which all men wear on their left wrists with their names upon it. We are twenty-one years old. We are six feet tall, and this is a burden, for there are not many men who are six feet tall. Ever have the Teachers and the Leaders pointed to us and frowned and said:
Our name is Equality 7-2521, as it's displayed on the metal bracelet that every man wears on his left wrist with his name on it. We are twenty-one years old. We are six feet tall, and this is a challenge, because there aren't many men who are six feet tall. The Teachers and the Leaders have often pointed at us and frowned and said:
“There is evil in your bones, Equality 7-2521, for your body has grown beyond the bodies of your brothers.” But we cannot change our bones nor our body.
“There is something wrong with you, Equality 7-2521, because your body has developed differently than your brothers.” But we cannot change our bones or our body.
We were born with a curse. It has always driven us to thoughts which are forbidden. It has always given us wishes which men may not wish. We know that we are evil, but there is no will in us and no power to resist it. This is our wonder and our secret fear, that we know and do not resist.
We were born with a curse. It has always pushed us toward forbidden thoughts. It has always filled us with desires that people aren’t supposed to have. We realize that we are evil, but we lack the will and power to fight it. This is our mystery and our hidden fear, that we understand and yet do nothing to resist.
We strive to be like all our brother men, for all men must be alike. Over the portals of the Palace of the World Council, there are words cut in the marble, which we repeat to ourselves whenever we are tempted:
We aim to be just like all our fellow humans because everyone should be the same. Above the entrance of the Palace of the World Council, there are words carved in the marble that we tell ourselves whenever we feel tempted:
“WE ARE ONE IN ALL AND ALL IN ONE.
THERE ARE NO MEN BUT ONLY THE GREAT WE,
ONE, INDIVISIBLE AND FOREVER.”
“WE ARE ONE IN ALL AND ALL IN ONE.
THERE ARE NO MEN BUT ONLY THE GREAT WE,
ONE, INDIVISIBLE AND FOREVER.”
We repeat this to ourselves, but it helps us not.
We tell ourselves this over and over, but it doesn’t help us at all.
These words were cut long ago. There is green mould in the grooves of the letters and yellow streaks on the marble, which come from more years than men could count. And these words are the truth, for they are written on the Palace of the World Council, and the World Council is the body of all truth. Thus has it been ever since the Great Rebirth, and farther back than that no memory can reach.
These words were carved long ago. There’s green mold in the grooves of the letters and yellow streaks on the marble, marks from more years than anyone can count. And these words are the truth, as they are inscribed on the Palace of the World Council, and the World Council represents all truth. This has been the case since the Great Rebirth, and no memory extends further back than that.
But we must never speak of the times before the Great Rebirth, else we are sentenced to three years in the Palace of Corrective Detention. It is only the Old Ones who whisper about it in the evenings, in the Home of the Useless. They whisper many strange things, of the towers which rose to the sky, in those Unmentionable Times, and of the wagons which moved without horses, and of the lights which burned without flame. But those times were evil. And those times passed away, when men saw the Great Truth which is this: that all men are one and that there is no will save the will of all men together.
But we can never talk about the time before the Great Rebirth, or we risk being sent to three years in the Palace of Corrective Detention. Only the Old Ones talk about it at night, in the Home of the Useless. They share many strange stories about towers that reached the sky in those Unmentionable Times, about wagons that moved without horses, and about lights that burned without flames. But those times were dark. That era ended when people realized the Great Truth: that all men are one and that there is no will except for the collective will of all men together.
All men are good and wise. It is only we, Equality 7-2521, we alone who were born with a curse. For we are not like our brothers. And as we look back upon our life, we see that it has ever been thus and that it has brought us step by step to our last, supreme transgression, our crime of crimes hidden here under the ground.
All people are good and wise. It is just us, Equality 7-2521, who were born with a curse. We are different from our brothers. As we reflect on our life, we see that it has always been this way, leading us step by step to our final, greatest offense, our ultimate crime hidden here underground.
We remember the Home of the Infants where we lived till we were five years old, together with all the children of the City who had been born in the same year. The sleeping halls there were white and clean and bare of all things save one hundred beds. We were just like all our brothers then, save for the one transgression: we fought with our brothers. There are few offenses blacker than to fight with our brothers, at any age and for any cause whatsoever. The Council of the Home told us so, and of all the children of that year, we were locked in the cellar most often.
We remember the Home of the Infants where we lived until we were five, along with all the other kids from the City who were born in the same year. The sleeping rooms there were white, clean, and empty except for a hundred beds. We were just like all our brothers back then, except for one mistake: we fought with our brothers. There are few offenses worse than fighting with our brothers, no matter the age or reason. The Council of the Home told us this, and out of all the kids from that year, we were the ones locked in the cellar the most.
When we were five years old, we were sent to the Home of the Students, where there are ten wards, for our ten years of learning. Men must learn till they reach their fifteenth year. Then they go to work. In the Home of the Students we arose when the big bell rang in the tower and we went to our beds when it rang again. Before we removed our garments, we stood in the great sleeping hall, and we raised our right arms, and we said all together with the three Teachers at the head:
When we turned five, we were sent to the Student Home, where there are ten wards for our ten years of education. Boys must study until they turn fifteen. After that, they start working. At the Student Home, we got up when the big bell in the tower rang and went to bed when it rang again. Before we took off our clothes, we stood in the large sleeping hall, raised our right arms, and recited together with the three Teachers at the front:
“We are nothing. Mankind is all. By the grace of our brothers are we allowed our lives. We exist through, by and for our brothers who are the State. Amen.”
“We are nothing. Humanity is everything. Thanks to our fellow beings, we are allowed to live. We exist through, by, and for our fellow beings who make up the State. Amen.”
Then we slept. The sleeping halls were white and clean and bare of all things save one hundred beds.
Then we went to sleep. The sleeping quarters were white, clean, and empty except for one hundred beds.
We, Equality 7-2521, were not happy in those years in the Home of the Students. It was not that the learning was too hard for us. It was that the learning was too easy. This is a great sin, to be born with a head which is too quick. It is not good to be different from our brothers, but it is evil to be superior to them. The Teachers told us so, and they frowned when they looked upon us.
We, Equality 7-2521, were not happy during our time in the Home of the Students. It wasn't that the learning was too difficult for us; it was that the learning was too easy. This is considered a great sin, to be born with a mind that is too sharp. It's not good to be different from our peers, but it's wrong to be better than them. The Teachers said so, and they scowled when they looked at us.
So we fought against this curse. We tried to forget our lessons, but we always remembered. We tried not to understand what the Teachers taught, but we always understood it before the Teachers had spoken. We looked upon Union 5-3992, who were a pale boy with only half a brain, and we tried to say and do as they did, that we might be like them, like Union 5-3992, but somehow the Teachers knew that we were not. And we were lashed more often than all the other children.
So we battled against this curse. We tried to forget our lessons, but we always remembered. We tried not to grasp what the Teachers taught, but we understood it before the Teachers even spoke. We looked at Union 5-3992, a pale boy with only half a brain, and we tried to act and speak like him, hoping to be like Union 5-3992, but somehow the Teachers knew we weren’t. And we were punished more frequently than all the other kids.
The Teachers were just, for they had been appointed by the Councils, and the Councils are the voice of all justice, for they are the voice of all men. And if sometimes, in the secret darkness of our heart, we regret that which befell us on our fifteenth birthday, we know that it was through our own guilt. We had broken a law, for we had not paid heed to the words of our Teachers. The Teachers had said to us all:
The Teachers were fair because they were chosen by the Councils, and the Councils represent the voice of justice for everyone. Even if we sometimes feel regret in the hidden corners of our hearts about what happened on our fifteenth birthday, we understand it was due to our own fault. We had violated a law by ignoring the guidance of our Teachers. The Teachers had told all of us:
“Dare not choose in your minds the work you would like to do when you leave the Home of the Students. You shall do that which the Council of Vocations shall prescribe for you. For the Council of Vocations knows in its great wisdom where you are needed by your brother men, better than you can know it in your unworthy little minds. And if you are not needed by your brother man, there is no reason for you to burden the earth with your bodies.”
“Don’t even think about choosing the work you’d like to do when you leave the Home of Students. You will do what the Council of Vocations decides for you. The Council of Vocations understands, in its great wisdom, where you are needed by your fellow humans better than you can know with your limited minds. And if you’re not needed by your fellow man, there’s no reason for you to burden the earth with your bodies.”
We knew this well, in the years of our childhood, but our curse broke our will. We were guilty and we confess it here: we were guilty of the great Transgression of Preference. We preferred some work and some lessons to the others. We did not listen well to the history of all the Councils elected since the Great Rebirth. But we loved the Science of Things. We wished to know. We wished to know about all the things which make the earth around us. We asked so many questions that the Teachers forbade it.
We knew this well during our childhood, but our curse weakened our will. We were guilty, and we admit it here: we were guilty of the major Transgression of Preference. We preferred some tasks and lessons over others. We didn’t pay much attention to the history of all the Councils elected since the Great Rebirth. But we loved the Science of Things. We wanted to know. We wanted to learn about everything that makes up the world around us. We asked so many questions that the Teachers ended up forbidding it.
We think that there are mysteries in the sky and under the water and in the plants which grow. But the Council of Scholars has said that there are no mysteries, and the Council of Scholars knows all things. And we learned much from our Teachers. We learned that the earth is flat and that the sun revolves around it, which causes the day and the night. We learned the names of all the winds which blow over the seas and push the sails of our great ships. We learned how to bleed men to cure them of all ailments.
We believe there are mysteries in the sky, in the water, and in the plants that grow. But the Council of Scholars insists there are no mysteries, and they know everything. We’ve learned a lot from our Teachers. We learned that the earth is flat and that the sun moves around it, creating day and night. We learned the names of all the winds that blow over the seas and fill the sails of our great ships. We learned how to bleed people to cure them of all sorts of illnesses.
We loved the Science of Things. And in the darkness, in the secret hour, when we awoke in the night and there were no brothers around us, but only their shapes in the beds and their snores, we closed our eyes, and we held our lips shut, and we stopped our breath, that no shudder might let our brothers see or hear or guess, and we thought that we wished to be sent to the Home of the Scholars when our time would come.
We loved the science of everything. And in the dark, in the quiet hours when we woke up at night and our brothers weren't around, just their shapes in the beds and their snores, we closed our eyes, sealed our lips, and held our breath so that no shiver would let our brothers see, hear, or guess anything. We wished to be sent to the Home of the Scholars when our time came.
All the great modern inventions come from the Home of the Scholars, such as the newest one, which was found only a hundred years ago, of how to make candles from wax and string; also, how to make glass, which is put in our windows to protect us from the rain. To find these things, the Scholars must study the earth and learn from the rivers, from the sands, from the winds and the rocks. And if we went to the Home of the Scholars, we could learn from these also. We could ask questions of these, for they do not forbid questions.
All the great modern inventions come from the Home of the Scholars, like the latest one, discovered just a hundred years ago, about making candles from wax and string; also, how to create glass, which is used in our windows to shield us from the rain. To uncover these things, the Scholars need to study the earth and learn from the rivers, sands, winds, and rocks. And if we visited the Home of the Scholars, we could learn from them as well. We could ask them questions, as they do not discourage inquiries.
And questions give us no rest. We know not why our curse makes us seek we know not what, ever and ever. But we cannot resist it. It whispers to us that there are great things on this earth of ours, and that we can know them if we try, and that we must know them. We ask, why must we know, but it has no answer to give us. We must know that we may know.
And questions never let us rest. We don't understand why our curse drives us to seek something we can't even define, over and over again. But we can't resist it. It tells us that there are amazing things on this planet of ours, and that we can discover them if we make an effort, and that we have to discover them. We ask, why must we know? But it has no answer for us. We have to know so that we can know.
So we wished to be sent to the Home of the Scholars. We wished it so much that our hands trembled under the blankets in the night, and we bit our arm to stop that other pain which we could not endure. It was evil and we dared not face our brothers in the morning. For men may wish nothing for themselves. And we were punished when the Council of Vocations came to give us our life Mandates which tell those who reach their fifteenth year what their work is to be for the rest of their days.
So we wanted to be sent to the Home of the Scholars. We wanted it so badly that our hands trembled under the blankets at night, and we bit our arms to keep from feeling that other pain we couldn't stand. It was wrong, and we felt we couldn't face our brothers in the morning. Because people can't wish for anything for themselves. And we were punished when the Council of Vocations came to assign our life Mandates, which tell those who turn fifteen what their work will be for the rest of their lives.
The Council of Vocations came on the first day of spring, and they sat in the great hall. And we who were fifteen and all the Teachers came into the great hall. And the Council of Vocations sat on a high dais, and they had but two words to speak to each of the Students. They called the Students’ names, and when the Students stepped before them, one after another, the Council said: “Carpenter” or “Doctor” or “Cook” or “Leader.” Then each Student raised their right arm and said: “The will of our brothers be done.”
The Council of Vocations arrived on the first day of spring, and they gathered in the great hall. We, who were fifteen along with all the Teachers, entered the great hall. The Council of Vocations sat on a high platform, and they had just two words to say to each Student. They called out the names of the Students, and as each one stepped forward one by one, the Council said: “Carpenter,” “Doctor,” “Cook,” or “Leader.” Then each Student raised their right arm and said: “May our brothers' will be done.”
Now if the Council has said “Carpenter” or “Cook,” the Students so assigned go to work and they do not study any further. But if the Council has said “Leader,” then those Students go into the Home of the Leaders, which is the greatest house in the City, for it has three stories. And there they study for many years, so that they may become candidates and be elected to the City Council and the State Council and the World Council—by a free and general vote of all men. But we wished not to be a Leader, even though it is a great honor. We wished to be a Scholar.
Now, if the Council has designated someone as “Carpenter” or “Cook,” those students get to work and don’t study any further. But if the Council has designated someone as “Leader,” then those students go to the Home of the Leaders, which is the largest house in the City, with its three stories. There, they study for many years to become candidates and be elected to the City Council, the State Council, and the World Council—by a free and general vote of all people. However, we did not want to be a Leader, even though it’s a great honor. We wanted to be Scholars.
So we awaited our turn in the great hall and then we heard the Council of Vocations call our name: “Equality 7-2521.” We walked to the dais, and our legs did not tremble, and we looked up at the Council. There were five members of the Council, three of the male gender and two of the female. Their hair was white and their faces were cracked as the clay of a dry river bed. They were old. They seemed older than the marble of the Temple of the World Council. They sat before us and they did not move. And we saw no breath to stir the folds of their white togas. But we knew that they were alive, for a finger of the hand of the oldest rose, pointed to us, and fell down again. This was the only thing which moved, for the lips of the oldest did not move as they said: “Street Sweeper.”
So we waited for our turn in the great hall, and then we heard the Council of Vocations call our name: “Equality 7-2521.” We walked to the platform, and our legs didn’t shake, and we looked up at the Council. There were five members, three men and two women. Their hair was white, and their faces were as cracked as the dry mud of a riverbed. They were old. They seemed older than the marble of the Temple of the World Council. They sat before us and didn’t move. We saw no breath to stir the folds of their white togas. But we knew they were alive, for a finger of the oldest raised, pointed at us, and then dropped again. This was the only thing that moved, as the lips of the oldest stayed still while they spoke: “Street Sweeper.”
We felt the cords of our neck grow tight as our head rose higher to look upon the faces of the Council, and we were happy. We knew we had been guilty, but now we had a way to atone for it. We would accept our Life Mandate, and we would work for our brothers, gladly and willingly, and we would erase our sin against them, which they did not know, but we knew. So we were happy, and proud of ourselves and of our victory over ourselves. We raised our right arm and we spoke, and our voice was the clearest, the steadiest voice in the hall that day, and we said:
We felt the tension in our necks as we lifted our heads to look at the faces of the Council, and we were happy. We knew we had done wrong, but now we had a chance to make things right. We would accept our Life Mandate, and we would work for our brothers, gladly and willingly, erasing our sin against them—something they didn’t know, but we did. So, we were happy and proud of ourselves for overcoming our own challenges. We raised our right arm and spoke, and our voice was the clearest and steadiest in the hall that day, and we said:
“The will of our brothers be done.”
“The wishes of our brothers will be carried out.”
And we looked straight into the eyes of the Council, but their eyes were as cold blue glass buttons.
And we looked directly into the eyes of the Council, but their eyes were like cold blue glass buttons.
So we went into the Home of the Street Sweepers. It is a grey house on a narrow street. There is a sundial in its courtyard, by which the Council of the Home can tell the hours of the day and when to ring the bell. When the bell rings, we all arise from our beds. The sky is green and cold in our windows to the east. The shadow on the sundial marks off a half-hour while we dress and eat our breakfast in the dining hall, where there are five long tables with twenty clay plates and twenty clay cups on each table. Then we go to work in the streets of the City, with our brooms and our rakes. In five hours, when the sun is high, we return to the Home and we eat our midday meal, for which one-half hour is allowed. Then we go to work again. In five hours, the shadows are blue on the pavements, and the sky is blue with a deep brightness which is not bright. We come back to have our dinner, which lasts one hour. Then the bell rings and we walk in a straight column to one of the City Halls, for the Social Meeting. Other columns of men arrive from the Homes of the different Trades. The candles are lit, and the Councils of the different Homes stand in a pulpit, and they speak to us of our duties and of our brother men. Then visiting Leaders mount the pulpit and they read to us the speeches which were made in the City Council that day, for the City Council represents all men and all men must know. Then we sing hymns, the Hymn of Brotherhood, and the Hymn of Equality, and the Hymn of the Collective Spirit. The sky is a soggy purple when we return to the Home. Then the bell rings and we walk in a straight column to the City Theatre for three hours of Social Recreation. There a play is shown upon the stage, with two great choruses from the Home of the Actors, which speak and answer all together, in two great voices. The plays are about toil and how good it is. Then we walk back to the Home in a straight column. The sky is like a black sieve pierced by silver drops that tremble, ready to burst through. The moths beat against the street lanterns. We go to our beds and we sleep, till the bell rings again. The sleeping halls are white and clean and bare of all things save one hundred beds.
So we went into the House of the Street Sweepers. It's a gray house on a narrow street. There's a sundial in the courtyard, which the Council of the House uses to tell the time of day and when to ring the bell. When the bell rings, we all get out of bed. The sky is green and cold in our windows to the east. The shadow on the sundial marks a half-hour as we get dressed and eat breakfast in the dining hall, where there are five long tables with twenty clay plates and twenty clay cups at each one. Then we head out to work in the streets of the City, with our brooms and rakes. After five hours, when the sun is high, we come back to the House for our midday meal, which we have half an hour to eat. Then we go back to work. After another five hours, the shadows are blue on the sidewalks, and the sky is a bright blue that isn’t really bright. We return for dinner, which lasts for an hour. Then the bell rings, and we walk in a straight line to one of the City Halls for the Social Meeting. Other rows of men arrive from the Homes of different Trades. The candles are lit, and the Councils of the different Homes stand on a platform and talk to us about our responsibilities and our fellow men. Then guest Leaders take the stage and read to us the speeches given in the City Council that day, since the City Council represents all men and everyone should know. After that, we sing hymns: the Hymn of Brotherhood, the Hymn of Equality, and the Hymn of the Collective Spirit. The sky is a dull purple when we return to the House. Then the bell rings, and we walk in a straight line to the City Theatre for three hours of Social Recreation. There’s a play performed on stage, featuring two great choruses from the House of Actors, which speak and respond all together in two powerful voices. The plays are about hard work and how good it is. Afterward, we walk back to the House in a straight line. The sky looks like a black screen pierced by silver drops that shake and seem ready to fall. Moths flutter against the street lamps. We go to bed and sleep until the bell rings again. The sleeping quarters are white and clean, empty of everything except one hundred beds.
Thus have we lived each day of four years, until two springs ago when our crime happened. Thus must all men live until they are forty. At forty, they are worn out. At forty, they are sent to the Home of the Useless, where the Old Ones live. The Old Ones do not work, for the State takes care of them. They sit in the sun in summer and they sit by the fire in winter. They do not speak often, for they are weary. The Old Ones know that they are soon to die. When a miracle happens and some live to be forty-five, they are the Ancient Ones, and the children stare at them when passing by the Home of the Useless. Such is to be our life, as that of all our brothers and of the brothers who came before us.
So we lived each day for four years, until two springs ago when our crime happened. That's how all men have to live until they turn forty. By forty, they’re worn out. At forty, they get sent to the Home of the Useless, where the Old Ones live. The Old Ones don’t work because the State takes care of them. They sit in the sun during summer and by the fire in winter. They don’t talk much because they’re tired. The Old Ones know they’re close to dying. When a miracle occurs and some reach forty-five, they become the Ancient Ones, and kids stare at them when they walk by the Home of the Useless. This is what our life is like, just like all our brothers and the brothers who came before us.
Such would have been our life, had we not committed our crime which changed all things for us. And it was our curse which drove us to our crime. We had been a good Street Sweeper and like all our brother Street Sweepers, save for our cursed wish to know. We looked too long at the stars at night, and at the trees and the earth. And when we cleaned the yard of the Home of the Scholars, we gathered the glass vials, the pieces of metal, the dried bones which they had discarded. We wished to keep these things and to study them, but we had no place to hide them. So we carried them to the City Cesspool. And then we made the discovery.
Our life would have been like that if we hadn't committed our crime, which changed everything for us. It was our curse that led us to that crime. We had been good Street Sweepers, just like all our fellow Street Sweepers, except for our cursed desire to know more. We spent too long gazing at the stars at night, at the trees, and at the ground. While cleaning the yard of the Home of the Scholars, we collected the glass vials, bits of metal, and dried bones they had thrown away. We wanted to keep these things and study them, but we had no place to hide them. So, we took them to the City Cesspool. And then we made our discovery.
It was on a day of the spring before last. We Street Sweepers work in brigades of three, and we were with Union 5-3992, they of the half-brain, and with International 4-8818. Now Union 5-3992 are a sickly lad and sometimes they are stricken with convulsions, when their mouth froths and their eyes turn white. But International 4-8818 are different. They are a tall, strong youth and their eyes are like fireflies, for there is laughter in their eyes. We cannot look upon International 4-8818 and not smile in answer. For this they were not liked in the Home of the Students, as it is not proper to smile without reason. And also they were not liked because they took pieces of coal and they drew pictures upon the walls, and they were pictures which made men laugh. But it is only our brothers in the Home of the Artists who are permitted to draw pictures, so International 4-8818 were sent to the Home of the Street Sweepers, like ourselves.
It was on a spring day two years ago. We Street Sweepers work in teams of three, and we were with Union 5-3992, who are a bit slow, and with International 4-8818. Union 5-3992 is a weak kid and sometimes has seizures, with frothy mouths and wide, white eyes. But International 4-8818 is different. They are a tall, strong young person with eyes that spark like fireflies, full of laughter. We can’t look at International 4-8818 without smiling back. Because of this, they weren’t liked at the Home of the Students, where it's not considered proper to smile without a reason. They also weren’t liked because they took pieces of coal and drew pictures on the walls that made people laugh. But only our brothers in the Home of the Artists are allowed to draw, so International 4-8818 was sent to the Home of the Street Sweepers, just like us.
International 4-8818 and we are friends. This is an evil thing to say, for it is a transgression, the great Transgression of Preference, to love any among men better than the others, since we must love all men and all men are our friends. So International 4-8818 and we have never spoken of it. But we know. We know, when we look into each other’s eyes. And when we look thus without words, we both know other things also, strange things for which there are no words, and these things frighten us.
International 4-8818 and I are friends. Saying that is wrong because it’s a violation, the big violation of Preference, to love one person more than others, since we’re supposed to love everyone and everyone is our friend. So International 4-8818 and I have never talked about it. But we understand. We understand when we look into each other’s eyes. And when we look like this without speaking, we both know other things too, strange things that can’t be expressed in words, and these things scare us.
So on that day of the spring before last, Union 5-3992 were stricken with convulsions on the edge of the City, near the City Theatre. We left them to lie in the shade of the Theatre tent and we went with International 4-8818 to finish our work. We came together to the great ravine behind the Theatre. It is empty save for trees and weeds. Beyond the ravine there is a plain, and beyond the plain there lies the Uncharted Forest, about which men must not think.
So on that day in the spring two years ago, Union 5-3992 was hit with convulsions on the edge of the City, near the City Theatre. We left them lying in the shade of the Theatre tent and went with International 4-8818 to finish our work. We gathered at the big ravine behind the Theatre. It's empty except for trees and weeds. Beyond the ravine is a plain, and beyond the plain lies the Uncharted Forest, which people must not think about.
We were gathering the papers and the rags which the wind had blown from the Theatre, when we saw an iron bar among the weeds. It was old and rusted by many rains. We pulled with all our strength, but we could not move it. So we called International 4-8818, and together we scraped the earth around the bar. Of a sudden the earth fell in before us, and we saw an old iron grill over a black hole.
We were picking up the papers and debris that the wind had blown from the theater when we noticed an iron bar among the weeds. It was old and rusted from years of rain. We pulled with all our might, but we couldn’t budge it. So we called International 4-8818, and together we cleared the dirt around the bar. Suddenly, the ground caved in in front of us, and we saw an old iron grill covering a dark hole.
International 4-8818 stepped back. But we pulled at the grill and it gave way. And then we saw iron rings as steps leading down a shaft into a darkness without bottom.
International 4-8818 stepped back. But we pulled at the grill and it gave way. And then we saw iron rings as steps leading down a shaft into a bottomless darkness.
“We shall go down,” we said to International 4-8818.
“We'll go down,” we told International 4-8818.
“It is forbidden,” they answered.
“It’s forbidden,” they answered.
We said: “The Council does not know of this hole, so it cannot be forbidden.”
We said, "The Council doesn't know about this hole, so it can't be forbidden."
And they answered: “Since the Council does not know of this hole, there can be no law permitting to enter it. And everything which is not permitted by law is forbidden.”
And they replied, “Since the Council is unaware of this hole, there’s no law allowing entry into it. And anything that isn’t allowed by law is prohibited.”
But we said: “We shall go, none the less.”
But we said, "We're still going, no matter what."
They were frightened, but they stood by and watched us go.
They were scared, but they stayed back and watched us leave.
We hung on the iron rings with our hands and our feet. We could see nothing below us. And above us the hole open upon the sky grew smaller and smaller, till it came to be the size of a button. But still we went down. Then our foot touched the ground. We rubbed our eyes, for we could not see. Then our eyes became used to the darkness, but we could not believe what we saw.
We clung to the iron rings with our hands and feet. We couldn’t see anything below us. Above us, the opening to the sky got smaller and smaller, until it was the size of a button. But we kept going down. Then our foot hit the ground. We rubbed our eyes because we couldn't see. As our eyes adjusted to the darkness, we still couldn't believe what we were seeing.
No men known to us could have built this place, nor the men known to our brothers who lived before us, and yet it was built by men. It was a great tunnel. Its walls were hard and smooth to the touch; it felt like stone, but it was not stone. On the ground there were long thin tracks of iron, but it was not iron; it felt smooth and cold as glass. We knelt, and we crawled forward, our hand groping along the iron line to see where it would lead. But there was an unbroken night ahead. Only the iron tracks glowed through it, straight and white, calling us to follow. But we could not follow, for we were losing the puddle of light behind us. So we turned and we crawled back, our hand on the iron line. And our heart beat in our fingertips, without reason. And then we knew.
No men we know could have built this place, nor could the men known to our brothers who lived before us, and yet it was built by men. It was a great tunnel. Its walls were hard and smooth to the touch; it felt like stone, but it wasn’t stone. On the ground were long thin tracks made of iron, but it wasn’t iron; it felt smooth and cold like glass. We knelt and crawled forward, our hands groping along the iron line to see where it would lead. But there was an endless darkness ahead. Only the iron tracks glowed through it, straight and white, beckoning us to follow. But we couldn’t follow, because we were losing the small light behind us. So we turned and crawled back, our hands on the iron line. And our hearts beat in our fingertips, without reason. And then we knew.
We knew suddenly that this place was left from the Unmentionable Times. So it was true, and those Times had been, and all the wonders of those Times. Hundreds upon hundreds of years ago men knew secrets which we have lost. And we thought: “This is a foul place. They are damned who touch the things of the Unmentionable Times.” But our hand which followed the track, as we crawled, clung to the iron as if it would not leave it, as if the skin of our hand were thirsty and begging of the metal some secret fluid beating in its coldness.
We suddenly realized that this place had been left behind from the Unmentionable Times. So it was true, and those Times existed, along with all their wonders. Hundreds of years ago, people knew secrets that we have lost. We thought, “This is a disgusting place. Those who touch the things from the Unmentionable Times are cursed.” Yet, our hand, as we crawled along the path, clung to the iron like it didn’t want to let go, as if our skin was thirsty and begging the metal for some secret fluid pulsing within its coldness.
We returned to the earth. International 4-8818 looked upon us and stepped back.
We returned to the ground. International 4-8818 looked at us and took a step back.
“Equality 7-2521,” they said, “your face is white.”
“Equality 7-2521,” they said, “your face is pale.”
But we could not speak and we stood looking upon them.
But we couldn't talk, and we just stood there looking at them.
They backed away, as if they dared not touch us. Then they smiled, but it was not a gay smile; it was lost and pleading. But still we could not speak. Then they said:
They stepped back, as if afraid to touch us. Then they smiled, but it wasn’t a happy smile; it felt lost and desperate. But we still couldn’t speak. Then they said:
“We shall report our find to the City Council and both of us will be rewarded.”
“We'll tell the City Council about our discovery, and we'll both get a reward.”
And then we spoke. Our voice was hard and there was no mercy in our voice. We said:
And then we talked. Our tone was harsh, and there was no compassion in our words. We said:
“We shall not report our find to the City Council. We shall not report it to any men.”
“We won't tell the City Council about our discovery. We won’t tell any men.”
They raised their hands to their ears, for never had they heard such words as these.
They raised their hands to their ears, because they had never heard words like these before.
“International 4-8818,” we asked, “will you report us to the Council and see us lashed to death before your eyes?”
“International 4-8818,” we asked, “are you going to report us to the Council and watch us get whipped to death right in front of you?”
They stood straight all of a sudden and they answered: “Rather would we die.”
They suddenly stood up straight and replied, “We would rather die.”
“Then,” we said, “keep silent. This place is ours. This place belongs to us, Equality 7-2521, and to no other men on earth. And if ever we surrender it, we shall surrender our life with it also.”
“Then,” we said, “stay quiet. This place is ours. This place belongs to us, Equality 7-2521, and to no one else on earth. And if we ever give it up, we will give up our lives along with it.”
Then we saw that the eyes of International 4-8818 were full to the lids with tears they dared not drop. They whispered, and their voice trembled, so that their words lost all shape:
Then we saw that the eyes of International 4-8818 were filled to the brim with tears they didn’t dare let fall. They whispered, and their voice shook, causing their words to lose all meaning:
“The will of the Council is above all things, for it is the will of our brothers, which is holy. But if you wish it so, we shall obey you. Rather shall we be evil with you than good with all our brothers. May the Council have mercy upon both our hearts!”
“The will of the Council is the most important thing, because it reflects the wishes of our brothers, which is sacred. However, if you want it this way, we will follow you. We would rather be bad alongside you than good with all our brothers. May the Council have compassion for both our hearts!”
Then we walked away together and back to the Home of the Street Sweepers. And we walked in silence.
Then we walked away together and back to the home of the street sweepers. And we walked in silence.
Thus did it come to pass that each night, when the stars are high and the Street Sweepers sit in the City Theatre, we, Equality 7-2521, steal out and run through the darkness to our place. It is easy to leave the Theatre; when the candles are blown out and the Actors come onto the stage, no eyes can see us as we crawl under our seat and under the cloth of the tent. Later, it is easy to steal through the shadows and fall in line next to International 4-8818, as the column leaves the Theatre. It is dark in the streets and there are no men about, for no men may walk through the City when they have no mission to walk there. Each night, we run to the ravine, and we remove the stones which we have piled upon the iron grill to hide it from the men. Each night, for three hours, we are under the earth, alone.
So it happened that every night, when the stars are shining bright and the Street Sweepers are at the City Theatre, we, Equality 7-2521, sneak out and dash through the darkness to our spot. It's easy to slip away from the Theatre; when the candles are snuffed out and the Actors take the stage, no one can see us as we crawl under our seat and beneath the tent fabric. Later, we quietly slip through the shadows and join International 4-8818 in line as the group leaves the Theatre. The streets are dark and empty, as no one is allowed to walk through the City without a purpose. Each night, we race to the ravine, where we remove the stones we’ve piled on the iron grill to keep it hidden from the men. Each night, we spend three hours underground, alone.
We have stolen candles from the Home of the Street Sweepers, we have stolen flints and knives and paper, and we have brought them to this place. We have stolen glass vials and powders and acids from the Home of the Scholars. Now we sit in the tunnel for three hours each night and we study. We melt strange metals, and we mix acids, and we cut open the bodies of the animals which we find in the City Cesspool. We have built an oven of the bricks we gathered in the streets. We burn the wood we find in the ravine. The fire flickers in the oven and blue shadows dance upon the walls, and there is no sound of men to disturb us.
We’ve taken candles from the Street Sweepers' home, along with flints, knives, and paper, and brought them here. We’ve also stolen glass vials, powders, and acids from the Scholars’ home. Now, we sit in the tunnel for three hours each night and study. We melt strange metals, mix acids, and cut open the bodies of the animals we find in the City Cesspool. We built an oven from the bricks we collected in the streets. We burn the wood we find in the ravine. The fire flickers in the oven, casting blue shadows on the walls, and there’s no sound of men to interrupt us.
We have stolen manuscripts. This is a great offense. Manuscripts are precious, for our brothers in the Home of the Clerks spend one year to copy one single script in their clear handwriting. Manuscripts are rare and they are kept in the Home of the Scholars. So we sit under the earth and we read the stolen scripts. Two years have passed since we found this place. And in these two years we have learned more than we had learned in the ten years of the Home of the Students.
We have stolen manuscripts. This is a serious crime. Manuscripts are valuable because our fellow scholars in the Home of the Clerks spend a whole year copying just one script in their neat handwriting. Manuscripts are rare and are stored in the Home of the Scholars. So here we are, hidden underground, reading the stolen texts. It’s been two years since we discovered this place, and in these two years, we’ve learned more than we did in the ten years at the Home of the Students.
We have learned things which are not in the scripts. We have solved secrets of which the Scholars have no knowledge. We have come to see how great is the unexplored, and many lifetimes will not bring us to the end of our quest. But we wish no end to our quest. We wish nothing, save to be alone and to learn, and to feel as if with each day our sight were growing sharper than the hawk’s and clearer than rock crystal.
We’ve discovered things that aren’t in the texts. We’ve unraveled mysteries that scholars aren’t aware of. We’ve realized how vast the unexplored world is, and many lifetimes wouldn’t be enough to complete our journey. Yet, we don’t want our quest to end. We desire nothing but to be alone, to learn, and to feel that with each passing day our vision is sharpening more than a hawk's and becoming clearer than crystal.
Strange are the ways of evil. We are false in the faces of our brothers. We are defying the will of our Councils. We alone, of the thousands who walk this earth, we alone in this hour are doing a work which has no purpose save that we wish to do it. The evil of our crime is not for the human mind to probe. The nature of our punishment, if it be discovered, is not for the human heart to ponder. Never, not in the memory of the Ancient Ones’ Ancients, never have men done that which we are doing.
Evil works in strange ways. We pretend to be true in front of our brothers. We are going against the decisions of our Councils. Only we, among the thousands who walk this earth, are taking on a task that has no purpose other than our desire to do it. The wrongness of our actions is beyond what the human mind can understand. The nature of our punishment, if it is revealed, is not something for the human heart to contemplate. Never, not in the memory of the Ancient Ones’ Ancients, have people done what we are doing.
And yet there is no shame in us and no regret. We say to ourselves that we are a wretch and a traitor. But we feel no burden upon our spirit and no fear in our heart. And it seems to us that our spirit is clear as a lake troubled by no eyes save those of the sun. And in our heart—strange are the ways of evil!—in our heart there is the first peace we have known in twenty years.
And yet there is no shame in us and no regret. We tell ourselves that we are wretched and traitors. But we feel no weight on our spirit and no fear in our hearts. It seems to us that our spirit is as clear as a lake, disturbed only by the sun's gaze. And in our hearts—how strange the ways of evil!—in our hearts, we have found the first peace we’ve known in twenty years.
PART TWO
Liberty 5-3000... Liberty five-three thousand ... Liberty 5-3000....
Liberty 5-3000... Liberty five-three thousand ... Liberty 5-3000....
We wish to write this name. We wish to speak it, but we dare not speak it above a whisper. For men are forbidden to take notice of women, and women are forbidden to take notice of men. But we think of one among women, they whose name is Liberty 5-3000, and we think of no others. The women who have been assigned to work the soil live in the Homes of the Peasants beyond the City. Where the City ends there is a great road winding off to the north, and we Street Sweepers must keep this road clean to the first milepost. There is a hedge along the road, and beyond the hedge lie the fields. The fields are black and ploughed, and they lie like a great fan before us, with their furrows gathered in some hand beyond the sky, spreading forth from that hand, opening wide apart as they come toward us, like black pleats that sparkle with thin, green spangles. Women work in the fields, and their white tunics in the wind are like the wings of sea-gulls beating over the black soil.
We want to write this name. We want to say it, but we can only whisper it. Men can’t pay attention to women, and women can’t pay attention to men. But we think of one woman, the one whose name is Liberty 5-3000, and we think of no one else. The women who are assigned to work the land live in the Peasant Homes beyond the City. Where the City ends, there’s a big road that curves off to the north, and we Street Sweepers have to keep this road clean up to the first milepost. There’s a hedge along the road, and beyond the hedge are the fields. The fields are black and plowed, spreading out like a large fan in front of us, with their furrows gathered in some hand beyond the sky, stretching out from that hand, widening as they come toward us, like black pleats sparkling with tiny green specks. Women work in the fields, and their white tunics in the wind look like the wings of sea-gulls flying over the black soil.
And there it was that we saw Liberty 5-3000 walking along the furrows. Their body was straight and thin as a blade of iron. Their eyes were dark and hard and glowing, with no fear in them, no kindness and no guilt. Their hair was golden as the sun; their hair flew in the wind, shining and wild, as if it defied men to restrain it. They threw seeds from their hand as if they deigned to fling a scornful gift, and the earth was a beggar under their feet.
And there we saw Liberty 5-3000 walking along the furrows. Their body was straight and thin like a blade of iron. Their eyes were dark, hard, and glowing, with no fear, kindness, or guilt. Their hair was as golden as the sun; it flew in the wind, shining and wild, as if it challenged men to try and control it. They tossed seeds from their hand as if they were giving a scornful gift, and the earth was a beggar beneath their feet.
We stood still; for the first time did we know fear, and then pain. And we stood still that we might not spill this pain more precious than pleasure.
We stood still; for the first time, we felt fear, and then pain. And we stood still so we wouldn't let this pain, more valuable than pleasure, escape us.
Then we heard a voice from the others call their name: “Liberty 5-3000,” and they turned and walked back. Thus we learned their name, and we stood watching them go, till their white tunic was lost in the blue mist.
Then we heard someone from the others call out their name: “Liberty 5-3000,” and they turned and walked back. That’s how we learned their name, and we stood there watching them until their white tunic disappeared into the blue mist.
And the following day, as we came to the northern road, we kept our eyes upon Liberty 5-3000 in the field. And each day thereafter we knew the illness of waiting for our hour on the northern road. And there we looked at Liberty 5-3000 each day. We know not whether they looked at us also, but we think they did. Then one day they came close to the hedge, and suddenly they turned to us. They turned in a whirl and the movement of their body stopped, as if slashed off, as suddenly as it had started. They stood still as a stone, and they looked straight upon us, straight into our eyes. There was no smile on their face, and no welcome. But their face was taut, and their eyes were dark. Then they turned as swiftly, and they walked away from us.
And the next day, when we got to the northern road, we kept our eyes on Liberty 5-3000 in the field. Every day after that, we felt the tension of waiting for our moment on the northern road. We looked at Liberty 5-3000 each day. We didn’t know if they were looking at us too, but we thought they might be. Then one day, they came close to the hedge, and suddenly turned to face us. They spun around and then stopped, as if they had been cut off mid-movement. They stood still like a statue and stared directly at us, right into our eyes. There was no smile or welcome on their face. But their face was tense, and their eyes were dark. Then they turned quickly and walked away from us.
But the following day, when we came to the road, they smiled. They smiled to us and for us. And we smiled in answer. Their head fell back, and their arms fell, as if their arms and their thin white neck were stricken suddenly with a great lassitude. They were not looking upon us, but upon the sky. Then they glanced at us over their shoulder, as we felt as if a hand had touched our body, slipping softly from our lips to our feet.
But the next day, when we got to the road, they smiled. They smiled at us and for us. We smiled back. Their heads fell back, and their arms dropped, as if they were suddenly overcome with extreme tiredness. They weren’t looking at us, but at the sky. Then they glanced over their shoulder at us, and it felt like a hand had touched our bodies, gently moving from our lips to our feet.
Every morning thereafter, we greeted each other with our eyes. We dared not speak. It is a transgression to speak to men of other Trades, save in groups at the Social Meetings. But once, standing at the hedge, we raised our hand to our forehead and then moved it slowly, palm down, toward Liberty 5-3000. Had the others seen it, they could have guessed nothing, for it looked only as if we were shading our eyes from the sun. But Liberty 5-3000 saw it and understood. They raised their hand to their forehead and moved it as we had. Thus, each day, we greet Liberty 5-3000, and they answer, and no men can suspect.
Every morning after that, we greeted each other with our eyes. We didn’t dare to speak. It’s a violation to talk to people from other Trades, except in groups at the Social Meetings. But once, while standing by the hedge, we raised our hand to our forehead and then slowly moved it, palm down, toward Liberty 5-3000. If the others had seen it, they wouldn’t have guessed anything, since it just looked like we were shading our eyes from the sun. But Liberty 5-3000 noticed it and understood. They raised their hand to their forehead and moved it like we did. So, each day, we greet Liberty 5-3000, and they respond, and no one suspects a thing.
We do not wonder at this new sin of ours. It is our second Transgression of Preference, for we do not think of all our brothers, as we must, but only of one, and their name is Liberty 5-3000. We do not know why we think of them. We do not know why, when we think of them, we feel all of a sudden that the earth is good and that it is not a burden to live. We do not think of them as Liberty 5-3000 any longer. We have given them a name in our thoughts. We call them the Golden One. But it is a sin to give men names which distinguish them from other men. Yet we call them the Golden One, for they are not like the others. The Golden One are not like the others.
We aren’t surprised by this new sin of ours. It’s our second act of Preference because we don’t think of all our brothers, as we should, but only of one, and their name is Liberty 5-3000. We don’t know why they occupy our thoughts. We don’t know why, when we think of them, we suddenly feel that the world is good and that living isn’t a burden. We no longer think of them as Liberty 5-3000. We’ve given them a name in our minds. We call them the Golden One. But it’s a sin to give people names that set them apart from others. Still, we call them the Golden One because they’re not like the rest. The Golden One is not like the others.
And we take no heed of the law which says that men may not think of women, save at the Time of Mating. This is the time each spring when all the men older than twenty and all the women older than eighteen are sent for one night to the City Palace of Mating. And each of the men have one of the women assigned to them by the Council of Eugenics. Children are born each winter, but women never see their children and children never know their parents. Twice have we been sent to the Palace of Mating, but it is an ugly and shameful matter, of which we do not like to think.
And we pay no attention to the law that says men shouldn’t think about women, except during the Mating Time. This is the time each spring when all the men over twenty and all the women over eighteen are sent to the City Palace of Mating for one night. Each man is assigned a woman by the Council of Eugenics. Children are born every winter, but women never see their children, and children never know their parents. We’ve been sent to the Palace of Mating twice, but it’s an ugly and embarrassing situation that we prefer not to think about.
We had broken so many laws, and today we have broken one more. Today, we spoke to the Golden One.
We had broken so many laws, and today we broke one more. Today, we talked to the Golden One.
The other women were far off in the field, when we stopped at the hedge by the side of the road. The Golden One were kneeling alone at the moat which runs through the field. And the drops of water falling from their hands, as they raised the water to their lips, were like sparks of fire in the sun. Then the Golden One saw us, and they did not move, kneeling there, looking at us, and circles of light played upon their white tunic, from the sun on the water of the moat, and one sparkling drop fell from a finger of their hand held as frozen in the air.
The other women were far away in the field when we stopped by the hedge next to the road. The Golden One was kneeling alone at the moat that runs through the field. The drops of water falling from their hands as they lifted it to their lips sparkled like fire in the sun. Then the Golden One noticed us and stayed still, kneeling there, looking at us, with circles of light dancing on their white tunic from the sun reflecting off the water of the moat, and one sparkling drop hung in the air, suspended from a finger.
Then the Golden One rose and walked to the hedge, as if they had heard a command in our eyes. The two other Street Sweepers of our brigade were a hundred paces away down the road. And we thought that International 4-8818 would not betray us, and Union 5-3992 would not understand. So we looked straight upon the Golden One, and we saw the shadows of their lashes on their white cheeks and the sparks of sun on their lips. And we said:
Then the Golden One stood up and walked to the hedge, as if they had heard a command in our eyes. The other two Street Sweepers from our group were a hundred paces down the road. We believed that International 4-8818 wouldn’t expose us, and Union 5-3992 wouldn’t comprehend. So we gazed directly at the Golden One and noticed the shadows of their lashes on their pale cheeks and the sunlight sparkling on their lips. And we said:
“You are beautiful, Liberty 5-3000.”
“You're beautiful, Liberty 5-3000.”
Their face did not move and they did not avert their eyes. Only their eyes grew wider, and there was triumph in their eyes, and it was not triumph over us, but over things we could not guess.
Their face didn’t change, and they didn’t look away. Only their eyes got wider, and there was a sense of triumph in their eyes, but it wasn't triumph over us; it was triumph over things we couldn’t imagine.
Then they asked:
Then they asked:
“What is your name?”
"What’s your name?"
“Equality 7-2521,” we answered.
"Equality 7-2521," we replied.
“You are not one of our brothers, Equality 7-2521, for we do not wish you to be.”
“You're not one of us, Equality 7-2521, because we don't want you to be.”
We cannot say what they meant, for there are no words for their meaning, but we know it without words and we knew it then.
We can't express what they meant because there are no words for it, but we understand it without words, and we understood it then.
“No,” we answered, “nor are you one of our sisters.”
“No,” we replied, “and you’re not one of our sisters either.”
“If you see us among scores of women, will you look upon us?”
“If you see us among a crowd of women, will you notice us?”
“We shall look upon you, Liberty 5-3000, if we see you among all the women of the earth.”
“We will see you, Liberty 5-3000, when we look among all the women in the world.”
Then they asked:
Then they asked:
“Are Street Sweepers sent to different parts of the City or do they always work in the same places?”
“Are street sweepers sent to different parts of the city, or do they always work in the same places?”
“They always work in the same places,” we answered, “and no one will take this road away from us.”
“They always work in the same spots,” we replied, “and no one will take this path away from us.”
“Your eyes,” they said, “are not like the eyes of any among men.”
“Your eyes,” they said, “are unlike any other man’s.”
And suddenly, without cause for the thought which came to us, we felt cold, cold to our stomach.
And suddenly, for no reason at all, we felt a chill, a chill deep in our stomachs.
“How old are you?” we asked.
“How old are you?” we asked.
They understood our thought, for they lowered their eyes for the first time.
They got our point, as they looked down for the first time.
“Seventeen,” they whispered.
"Seventeen," they murmured.
And we sighed, as if a burden had been taken from us, for we had been thinking without reason of the Palace of Mating. And we thought that we would not let the Golden One be sent to the Palace. How to prevent it, how to bar the will of the Councils, we knew not, but we knew suddenly that we would. Only we do not know why such thought came to us, for these ugly matters bear no relation to us and the Golden One. What relation can they bear?
And we sighed, as if a weight had been lifted off our shoulders, because we had been unreasonably worrying about the Palace of Mating. We decided that we wouldn’t let the Golden One be sent there. We didn’t know how to stop it or defy the will of the Councils, but we realized we would. Yet, we couldn’t explain why that thought came to us, since these unpleasant matters have nothing to do with us and the Golden One. What connection could there possibly be?
Still, without reason, as we stood there by the hedge, we felt our lips drawn tight with hatred, a sudden hatred for all our brother men. And the Golden One saw it and smiled slowly, and there was in their smile the first sadness we had seen in them. We think that in the wisdom of women the Golden One had understood more than we can understand.
Still, without any reason, as we stood there by the hedge, we felt our lips tighten with hatred, a sudden hatred for all our fellow men. And the Golden One noticed it and smiled slowly, and in their smile was the first sadness we had seen in them. We believe that in the wisdom of women, the Golden One understood more than we can grasp.
Then three of the sisters in the field appeared, coming toward the road, so the Golden One walked away from us. They took the bag of seeds, and they threw the seeds into the furrows of earth as they walked away. But the seeds flew wildly, for the hand of the Golden One was trembling.
Then three of the sisters in the field showed up, coming toward the road, so the Golden One walked away from us. They grabbed the bag of seeds and tossed the seeds into the furrows of soil as they walked off. But the seeds scattered everywhere because the hand of the Golden One was shaking.
Yet as we walked back to the Home of the Street Sweepers, we felt that we wanted to sing, without reason. So we were reprimanded tonight, in the dining hall, for without knowing it we had begun to sing aloud some tune we had never heard. But it is not proper to sing without reason, save at the Social Meetings.
Yet as we walked back to the Home of the Street Sweepers, we felt an urge to sing for no reason. So we got scolded tonight in the dining hall for unknowingly starting to sing a tune we had never heard before. But it isn't appropriate to sing without a reason, except at the Social Meetings.
“We are singing because we are happy,” we answered the one of the Home Council who reprimanded us.
“We're singing because we're happy,” we replied to one of the Home Council members who scolded us.
“Indeed you are happy,” they answered. “How else can men be when they live for their brothers?”
“Of course you’re happy,” they replied. “How can anyone be otherwise when they live for their brothers?”
And now, sitting here in our tunnel, we wonder about these words. It is forbidden, not to be happy. For, as it has been explained to us, men are free and the earth belongs to them; and all things on earth belong to all men; and the will of all men together is good for all; and so all men must be happy.
And now, sitting here in our tunnel, we wonder about these words. It's forbidden not to be happy. Because, as we've been taught, people are free and the earth belongs to them; everything on earth belongs to everyone; and the collective will of all people is good for everyone; therefore, everyone must be happy.
Yet as we stand at night in the great hall, removing our garments for sleep, we look upon our brothers and we wonder. The heads of our brothers are bowed. The eyes of our brothers are dull, and never do they look one another in the eyes. The shoulders of our brothers are hunched, and their muscles are drawn, as if their bodies were shrinking and wished to shrink out of sight. And a word steals into our mind, as we look upon our brothers, and that word is fear.
Yet as we stand at night in the great hall, taking off our clothes to sleep, we look at our brothers and we wonder. Our brothers' heads are bowed. Their eyes are dull, and they never look each other in the eyes. Their shoulders are hunched, and their muscles are tense, as if their bodies are shrinking and want to disappear. And a word comes to mind as we look at our brothers, and that word is fear.
There is fear hanging in the air of the sleeping halls, and in the air of the streets. Fear walks through the City, fear without name, without shape. All men feel it and none dare to speak.
There is fear hanging in the air of the quiet halls and in the streets. Fear moves through the City, nameless and formless. Everyone feels it, but no one dares to talk about it.
We feel it also, when we are in the Home of the Street Sweepers. But here, in our tunnel, we feel it no longer. The air is pure under the ground. There is no odor of men. And these three hours give us strength for our hours above the ground.
We feel it too when we're at the home of the street sweepers. But down here, in our tunnel, we don't feel it anymore. The air is clean underground. There's no smell of people. And these three hours give us the energy we need for our time above ground.
Our body is betraying us, for the Council of the Home looks with suspicion upon us. It is not good to feel too much joy nor to be glad that our body lives. For we matter not and it must not matter to us whether we live or die, which is to be as our brothers will it. But we, Equality 7-2521, are glad to be living. If this is a vice, then we wish no virtue.
Our bodies are letting us down, as the Council of the Home watches us with distrust. It's not right to feel too much joy or to be happy that we're alive. We don’t really matter, and we shouldn’t care whether we live or die, as that’s up to our brothers. But we, Equality 7-2521, are happy to be alive. If this is a flaw, then we don’t want any virtue.
Yet our brothers are not like us. All is not well with our brothers. There are Fraternity 2-5503, a quiet boy with wise, kind eyes, who cry suddenly, without reason, in the midst of day or night, and their body shakes with sobs they cannot explain. There are Solidarity 9-6347, who are a bright youth, without fear in the day; but they scream in their sleep, and they scream: “Help us! Help us! Help us!” into the night, in a voice which chills our bones, but the Doctors cannot cure Solidarity 9-6347.
Yet our brothers aren’t like us. Everything isn’t okay with our brothers. There’s Fraternity 2-5503, a quiet kid with wise, kind eyes, who suddenly cries without reason, in the middle of day or night, and their body shakes with sobs they can’t explain. There’s Solidarity 9-6347, who is a bright young person, fearless during the day; but they scream in their sleep, crying out: “Help us! Help us! Help us!” into the night, in a voice that chills us to the bone, but the doctors can’t cure Solidarity 9-6347.
And as we all undress at night, in the dim light of the candles, our brothers are silent, for they dare not speak the thoughts of their minds. For all must agree with all, and they cannot know if their thoughts are the thoughts of all, and so they fear to speak. And they are glad when the candles are blown for the night. But we, Equality 7-2521, look through the window upon the sky, and there is peace in the sky, and cleanliness, and dignity. And beyond the City there lies the plain, and beyond the plain, black upon the black sky, there lies the Uncharted Forest.
And as we all get undressed at night, in the soft glow of the candles, our brothers are quiet, because they’re afraid to share what’s on their minds. Everyone has to agree with everyone else, and they can't tell if their ideas match those of the group, so they hesitate to speak up. They feel relieved when the candles are extinguished for the night. But we, Equality 7-2521, gaze out the window at the sky, and it brings us a sense of calm, freshness, and dignity. Beyond the City stretches the plain, and beyond the plain, dark against the dark sky, lies the Uncharted Forest.
We do not wish to look upon the Uncharted Forest. We do not wish to think of it. But ever do our eyes return to that black patch upon the sky. Men never enter the Uncharted Forest, for there is no power to explore it and no path to lead among its ancient trees which stand as guards of fearful secrets. It is whispered that once or twice in a hundred years, one among the men of the City escape alone and run to the Uncharted Forest, without call or reason. These men do not return. They perish from hunger and from the claws of the wild beasts which roam the Forest. But our Councils say that this is only a legend. We have heard that there are many Uncharted Forests over the land, among the Cities. And it is whispered that they have grown over the ruins of many cities of the Unmentionable Times. The trees have swallowed the ruins, and the bones under the ruins, and all the things which perished. And as we look upon the Uncharted Forest far in the night, we think of the secrets of the Unmentionable Times. And we wonder how it came to pass that these secrets were lost to the world. We have heard the legends of the great fighting, in which many men fought on one side and only a few on the other. These few were the Evil Ones and they were conquered. Then great fires raged over the land. And in these fires the Evil Ones and all the things made by the Evil Ones were burned. And the fire which is called the Dawn of the Great Rebirth, was the Script Fire where all the scripts of the Evil Ones were burned, and with them all the words of the Evil Ones. Great mountains of flame stood in the squares of the Cities for three months. Then came the Great Rebirth.
We don't want to look at the Uncharted Forest. We don't want to think about it. But our eyes keep going back to that dark spot in the sky. No one ever enters the Uncharted Forest because there's no power to explore it, and no path through its ancient trees that serve as sentinels to terrifying secrets. It's said that once or twice every hundred years, someone from the City escapes alone and runs into the Uncharted Forest without any reason or call. These people never come back. They die of hunger or from the wild beasts roaming the Forest. But our Councils claim this is just a legend. We’ve heard that there are many Uncharted Forests scattered across the land, among the Cities. It’s whispered that they’ve covered the ruins of many cities from the Unmentionable Times. The trees have engulfed the ruins, the bones beneath them, and everything that was lost. And as we gaze at the Uncharted Forest in the deep night, we ponder the secrets of the Unmentionable Times. We wonder how it happened that these secrets were forgotten. We have heard legends of great battles in which many men fought on one side, while only a few stood against them. These few were the Evil Ones and they were defeated. Then massive fires swept across the land. In those fires, the Evil Ones and everything created by them were burned. The fire known as the Dawn of the Great Rebirth was the Script Fire where all the writings of the Evil Ones were incinerated, along with all their words. Great mountains of flame stood in the squares of the Cities for three months. Then came the Great Rebirth.
The words of the Evil Ones... The words of the Unmentionable Times... What are the words which we have lost?
The words of the Evil Ones... The words of the Unmentionable Times... What are the words we’ve lost?
May the Council have mercy upon us! We had no wish to write such a question, and we knew not what we were doing till we had written it. We shall not ask this question and we shall not think it. We shall not call death upon our head.
May the Council have mercy on us! We didn’t want to ask such a question, and we didn’t realize what we were doing until we had written it. We won't ask this question and we won't think it. We won't bring death upon ourselves.
And yet... And yet... There is some word, one single word which is not in the language of men, but which had been. And this is the Unspeakable Word, which no men may speak nor hear. But sometimes, and it is rare, sometimes, somewhere, one among men find that word. They find it upon scraps of old manuscripts or cut into the fragments of ancient stones. But when they speak it they are put to death. There is no crime punished by death in this world, save this one crime of speaking the Unspeakable Word.
And yet... And yet... There is a word, just one word, that isn’t in the language of humans, but once was. This is the Unspeakable Word, which no one can say or hear. But occasionally, although it’s rare, someone among us discovers that word. They find it in bits of old manuscripts or carved into pieces of ancient stones. But when they say it, they are executed. There is no other crime that carries the death penalty in this world, except for the crime of speaking the Unspeakable Word.
We have seen one of such men burned alive in the square of the City. And it was a sight which has stayed with us through the years, and it haunts us, and follows us, and it gives us no rest. We were a child then, ten years old. And we stood in the great square with all the children and all the men of the City, sent to behold the burning. They brought the Transgressor out into the square and they led them to the pyre. They had torn out the tongue of the Transgressor, so that they could speak no longer. The Transgressor were young and tall. They had hair of gold and eyes blue as morning. They walked to the pyre, and their step did not falter. And of all the faces on that square, of all the faces which shrieked and screamed and spat curses upon them, theirs was the calmest and the happiest face.
We witnessed one of those men burned alive in the city square. It’s an image that has stuck with us over the years; it haunts us, follows us, and gives us no peace. We were just a child then, ten years old. We stood in the big square with all the other kids and the men of the city, gathered to watch the burning. They brought the Transgressor into the square and led them to the pyre. They had cut out the Transgressor's tongue, so they could no longer speak. The Transgressor was young and tall. They had golden hair and eyes as blue as the morning sky. They walked to the pyre without faltering. And of all the faces in that square, of all the people who screamed and shouted curses at them, theirs was the calmest and happiest face.
As the chains were wound over their body at the stake, and a flame set to the pyre, the Transgressor looked upon the City. There was a thin thread of blood running from the corner of their mouth, but their lips were smiling. And a monstrous thought came to us then, which has never left us. We had heard of Saints. There are the Saints of Labor, and the Saints of the Councils, and the Saints of the Great Rebirth. But we had never seen a Saint nor what the likeness of a Saint should be. And we thought then, standing in the square, that the likeness of a Saint was the face we saw before us in the flames, the face of the Transgressor of the Unspeakable Word.
As the chains were wrapped around their body at the stake and a fire was set to the pyre, the Transgressor gazed at the City. There was a thin line of blood trailing from the corner of their mouth, yet their lips were smiling. At that moment, a terrible thought struck us, one that has never left us since. We had heard of Saints. There are Saints of Labor, Saints of the Councils, and Saints of the Great Rebirth. But we had never seen a Saint or what a Saint should look like. And we thought then, standing in the square, that the image of a Saint was the face we saw in the flames, the face of the Transgressor of the Unspeakable Word.
As the flames rose, a thing happened which no eyes saw but ours, else we would not be living today. Perhaps it had only seemed to us. But it seemed to us that the eyes of the Transgressor had chosen us from the crowd and were looking straight upon us. There was no pain in their eyes and no knowledge of the agony of their body. There was only joy in them, and pride, a pride holier than is fit for human pride to be. And it seemed as if these eyes were trying to tell us something through the flames, to send into our eyes some word without sound. And it seemed as if these eyes were begging us to gather that word and not to let it go from us and from the earth. But the flames rose and we could not guess the word....
As the flames climbed higher, something happened that only we witnessed; if others had seen it, we wouldn’t be alive today. Maybe it was just our imagination. But to us, it felt like the eyes of the Transgressor were fixed on us from the crowd, looking directly at us. There was no pain in those eyes and no awareness of the suffering of their body. Instead, there was only joy and a pride that was purer than what human pride should be. It felt as if those eyes were trying to convey something to us through the flames, trying to send an unspoken message into our own eyes. It seemed as if they were urging us to grasp that message and to hold onto it, not to let it slip away from us or from the earth. But as the flames rose, we couldn’t decipher the message...
What—even if we have to burn for it like the Saint of the Pyre—what is the Unspeakable Word?
What—even if we have to suffer for it like the Saint of the Pyre—what is the Unspeakable Word?
PART THREE
We, Equality 7-2521, have discovered a new power of nature. And we have discovered it alone, and we alone are to know it.
We, Equality 7-2521, have found a new force of nature. And we discovered it ourselves, and we alone are meant to understand it.
It is said. Now let us be lashed for it, if we must. The Council of Scholars has said that we all know the things which exist and therefore the things which are not known by all do not exist. But we think that the Council of Scholars is blind. The secrets of this earth are not for all men to see, but only for those who will seek them. We know, for we have found a secret unknown to all our brothers.
It is said. Now let us be punished for it, if we must. The Council of Scholars has claimed that we all know the things that exist and therefore the things that are not known by everyone do not exist. But we believe the Council of Scholars is misguided. The secrets of this world are not meant for everyone to see, but only for those who seek them out. We know this because we have discovered a secret unknown to all our peers.
We know not what this power is nor whence it comes. But we know its nature, we have watched it and worked with it. We saw it first two years ago. One night, we were cutting open the body of a dead frog when we saw its leg jerking. It was dead, yet it moved. Some power unknown to men was making it move. We could not understand it. Then, after many tests, we found the answer. The frog had been hanging on a wire of copper; and it had been the metal of our knife which had sent the strange power to the copper through the brine of the frog’s body. We put a piece of copper and a piece of zinc into a jar of brine, we touched a wire to them, and there, under our fingers, was a miracle which had never occurred before, a new miracle and a new power.
We don’t know what this power is or where it comes from. But we understand its nature; we’ve observed it and interacted with it. We first encountered it two years ago. One night, while we were dissecting a dead frog, we noticed its leg twitching. It was dead, yet it moved. Some unknown force was causing it to move. We couldn't comprehend it. After many experiments, we figured out the answer. The frog had been hanging on a copper wire, and it was the metal of our knife that transmitted the strange power to the copper through the frog’s saline body. We placed a piece of copper and a piece of zinc in a jar of brine, touched a wire to them, and there, beneath our fingers, was a miracle that had never happened before—a new miracle and a new power.
This discovery haunted us. We followed it in preference to all our studies. We worked with it, we tested it in more ways than we can describe, and each step was as another miracle unveiling before us. We came to know that we had found the greatest power on earth. For it defies all the laws known to men. It makes the needle move and turn on the compass which we stole from the Home of the Scholars; but we had been taught, when still a child, that the loadstone points to the north and that this is a law which nothing can change; yet our new power defies all laws. We found that it causes lightning, and never have men known what causes lightning. In thunderstorms, we raised a tall rod of iron by the side of our hole, and we watched it from below. We have seen the lightning strike it again and again. And now we know that metal draws the power of the sky, and that metal can be made to give it forth.
This discovery haunted us. We pursued it over all our other studies. We worked with it, tested it in more ways than we can describe, and each step felt like another miracle unfolding before us. We came to realize that we had found the greatest power on earth. It defies all the laws known to humankind. It makes the needle on the compass, which we took from the Home of the Scholars, move and turn; but we had been taught as children that a loadstone points north and that this is a law that cannot be changed; yet our new power defies all laws. We discovered that it produces lightning, and no one has ever understood what causes lightning. During thunderstorms, we raised a tall iron rod by the side of our hole and watched it from below. We’ve seen the lightning strike it over and over again. And now we know that metal attracts the power of the sky and can also release it.
We have built strange things with this discovery of ours. We used for it the copper wires which we found here under the ground. We have walked the length of our tunnel, with a candle lighting the way. We could go no farther than half a mile, for earth and rock had fallen at both ends. But we gathered all the things we found and we brought them to our work place. We found strange boxes with bars of metal inside, with many cords and strands and coils of metal. We found wires that led to strange little globes of glass on the walls; they contained threads of metal thinner than a spider’s web.
We’ve created some unusual things with our discovery. We used the copper wires we found underground. We walked the length of our tunnel, using a candle to light our way. We couldn’t go farther than half a mile because earth and rock had collapsed at both ends. But we collected everything we found and brought it to our workspace. We discovered odd boxes with metal bars inside, along with numerous cords and strands and coils of metal. We found wires that connected to strange little glass globes on the walls; they held threads of metal thinner than a spider’s web.
These things help us in our work. We do not understand them, but we think that the men of the Unmentionable Times had known our power of the sky, and these things had some relation to it. We do not know, but we shall learn. We cannot stop now, even though it frightens us that we are alone in our knowledge.
These things assist us in our work. We don't fully understand them, but we believe that the people from the Unmentionable Times were aware of our power over the sky, and these things were somehow related to that. We don't know for sure, but we will learn. We can't stop now, even though it scares us to know that we are alone in this knowledge.
No single one can possess greater wisdom than the many Scholars who are elected by all men for their wisdom. Yet we can. We do. We have fought against saying it, but now it is said. We do not care. We forget all men, all laws and all things save our metals and our wires. So much is still to be learned! So long a road lies before us, and what care we if we must travel it alone!
No one can have more wisdom than the many Scholars chosen by everyone for their knowledge. But we can. We do. We've struggled against admitting it, but now it's out there. We don’t care. We forget everyone, all laws, and everything except our metals and our wires. There’s still so much to learn! A long journey lies ahead of us, and we don’t mind if we have to travel it alone!
PART FOUR
Many days passed before we could speak to the Golden One again. But then came the day when the sky turned white, as if the sun had burst and spread its flame in the air, and the fields lay still without breath, and the dust of the road was white in the glow. So the women of the field were weary, and they tarried over their work, and they were far from the road when we came. But the Golden One stood alone at the hedge, waiting. We stopped and we saw that their eyes, so hard and scornful to the world, were looking at us as if they would obey any word we might speak.
Many days went by before we could talk to the Golden One again. But then came the day when the sky turned white, as if the sun had exploded and scattered its light everywhere, and the fields were completely still, and the dust on the road glowed white. The women in the fields were tired, and they lingered over their work, far from the road when we arrived. But the Golden One stood alone by the hedge, waiting. We stopped and saw that their eyes, once so hardened and disdainful toward the world, now looked at us as if they were ready to follow any command we might give.
And we said:
And we said:
“We have given you a name in our thoughts, Liberty 5-3000.”
“We’ve given you a name in our minds, Liberty 5-3000.”
“What is our name?” they asked.
“What’s our name?” they asked.
“The Golden One.”
“The Gold One.”
“Nor do we call you Equality 7-2521 when we think of you.”
“Nor do we think of you as Equality 7-2521.”
“What name have you given us?” They looked straight into our eyes and they held their head high and they answered:
"What name have you given us?" They stared directly into our eyes, held their heads up high, and replied:
“The Unconquered.”
"The Unconquered."
For a long time we could not speak. Then we said:
For a long time, we couldn't speak. Then we said:
“Such thoughts as these are forbidden, Golden One.”
"Those kinds of thoughts are not allowed, Golden One."
“But you think such thoughts as these and you wish us to think them.”
“But you have these thoughts, and you want us to think them too.”
We looked into their eyes and we could not lie.
We looked into their eyes, and we couldn't lie.
“Yes,” we whispered, and they smiled, and then we said: “Our dearest one, do not obey us.”
“Yes,” we whispered, and they smiled, and then we said: “Our beloved one, don’t listen to us.”
They stepped back, and their eyes were wide and still.
They stepped back, their eyes wide and fixed.
“Speak these words again,” they whispered.
“Say these words again,” they whispered.
“Which words?” we asked. But they did not answer, and we knew it.
“Which words?” we asked. But they didn’t respond, and we knew it.
“Our dearest one,” we whispered.
“Our beloved,” we whispered.
Never have men said this to women.
Never have men said this to women.
The head of the Golden One bowed slowly, and they stood still before us, their arms at their sides, the palms of their hands turned to us, as if their body were delivered in submission to our eyes. And we could not speak.
The leader of the Golden One bowed slowly, and they stood still in front of us, their arms at their sides, palms facing us, as if their body was submitting to our gaze. And we couldn't speak.
Then they raised their head, and they spoke simply and gently, as if they wished us to forget some anxiety of their own.
Then they lifted their heads and spoke softly and kindly, as if they wanted us to forget some worry of their own.
“The day is hot,” they said, “and you have worked for many hours and you must be weary.”
“The day is hot,” they said, “and you’ve been working for many hours, so you must be tired.”
“No,” we answered.
“No,” we said.
“It is cooler in the fields,” they said, “and there is water to drink. Are you thirsty?”
“It’s cooler in the fields,” they said, “and there’s water to drink. Are you thirsty?”
“Yes,” we answered, “but we cannot cross the hedge.”
“Yes,” we replied, “but we can't cross the hedge.”
“We shall bring the water to you,” they said.
“We'll bring the water to you,” they said.
Then they knelt by the moat, they gathered water in their two hands, they rose and they held the water out to our lips.
Then they knelt by the moat, scooped water in their two hands, stood up, and held the water out to our lips.
We do not know if we drank that water. We only knew suddenly that their hands were empty, but we were still holding our lips to their hands, and that they knew it, but did not move.
We don't know if we drank that water. We suddenly realized that their hands were empty, but we were still pressing our lips against their hands, and they knew it, yet didn't move.
We raised our head and stepped back. For we did not understand what had made us do this, and we were afraid to understand it.
We lifted our head and took a step back. We didn't understand why we had done this, and we were scared to find out.
And the Golden One stepped back, and stood looking upon their hands in wonder. Then the Golden One moved away, even though no others were coming, and they moved, stepping back, as if they could not turn from us, their arms bent before them, as if they could not lower their hands.
And the Golden One took a step back, staring at their hands in amazement. Then the Golden One moved away, even though no one else was approaching, and they stepped back, as if unable to turn away from us, their arms bent in front of them, as if they couldn't lower their hands.
PART FIVE
We made it. We created it. We brought it forth from the night of the ages. We alone. Our hands. Our mind. Ours alone and only.
We did it. We made it happen. We brought it into existence from the depths of time. Just us. Our hands. Our minds. Ours and ours alone.
We know not what we are saying. Our head is reeling. We look upon the light which we have made. We shall be forgiven for anything we say tonight....
We don't know what we're saying. Our heads are spinning. We look at the light we've created. We'll be forgiven for anything we say tonight...
Tonight, after more days and trials than we can count, we finished building a strange thing, from the remains of the Unmentionable Times, a box of glass, devised to give forth the power of the sky of greater strength than we had ever achieved before. And when we put our wires to this box, when we closed the current—the wire glowed! It came to life, it turned red, and a circle of light lay on the stone before us.
Tonight, after more days and challenges than we can count, we finally finished building a weird thing, made from the remnants of the Unmentionable Times, a glass box designed to harness the power of the sky with greater strength than we had ever achieved before. And when we connected our wires to this box, when we closed the current—the wire lit up! It came to life, it turned red, and a circle of light appeared on the stone in front of us.
We stood, and we held our head in our hands. We could not conceive of that which we had created. We had touched no flint, made no fire. Yet here was light, light that came from nowhere, light from the heart of metal.
We stood, holding our heads in our hands. We couldn’t wrap our minds around what we had created. We hadn’t struck any flint, made no fire. Yet here was light, light that came from nowhere, light from the heart of metal.
We blew out the candle. Darkness swallowed us. There was nothing left around us, nothing save night and a thin thread of flame in it, as a crack in the wall of a prison. We stretched our hands to the wire, and we saw our fingers in the red glow. We could not see our body nor feel it, and in that moment nothing existed save our two hands over a wire glowing in a black abyss.
We blew out the candle. Darkness engulfed us. There was nothing around us, nothing but the night and a faint flicker of flame in it, like a crack in the wall of a prison. We reached out to the wire, and we could see our fingers in the red light. We couldn't see our bodies or feel them, and in that moment, nothing existed except our two hands hovering over a wire glowing in a black void.
Then we thought of the meaning of that which lay before us. We can light our tunnel, and the City, and all the Cities of the world with nothing save metal and wires. We can give our brothers a new light, cleaner and brighter than any they have ever known. The power of the sky can be made to do men’s bidding. There are no limits to its secrets and its might, and it can be made to grant us anything if we but choose to ask.
Then we considered what lay ahead of us. We can illuminate our tunnel, the City, and all the Cities in the world with nothing but metal and wires. We can provide our fellow humans with a new light, cleaner and brighter than anything they’ve ever experienced. The power of the sky can be harnessed to serve humanity. Its secrets and strength are endless, and we can ask it for anything we desire.
Then we knew what we must do. Our discovery is too great for us to waste our time in sweeping the streets. We must not keep our secret to ourselves, nor buried under the ground. We must bring it into the sight of all men. We need all our time, we need the work rooms of the Home of the Scholars, we want the help of our brother Scholars and their wisdom joined to ours. There is so much work ahead for all of us, for all the Scholars of the world.
Then we knew what we had to do. Our discovery is too important for us to waste time cleaning the streets. We can't keep our secret to ourselves or hide it underground. We need to bring it to everyone's attention. We need all our time, we need the workrooms of the Home of the Scholars, and we want the help of our fellow Scholars and their wisdom combined with ours. There's so much work ahead for all of us, for all the Scholars in the world.
In a month, the World Council of Scholars is to meet in our City. It is a great Council, to which the wisest of all lands are elected, and it meets once a year in the different Cities of the earth. We shall go to this Council and we shall lay before them, as our gift, this glass box with the power of the sky. We shall confess everything to them. They will see, understand and forgive. For our gift is greater than our transgression. They will explain it to the Council of Vocations, and we shall be assigned to the Home of the Scholars. This has never been done before, but neither has a gift such as ours ever been offered to men.
In a month, the World Council of Scholars will be meeting in our city. It's a prestigious council made up of the wisest people from all over the world, and it convenes once a year in different cities across the globe. We will attend this council and present our gift: this glass box with the power of the sky. We will confess everything to them. They will see, understand, and forgive. Our gift is greater than our wrongdoing. They will explain it to the Council of Vocations, and we will be assigned to the Home of the Scholars. This has never happened before, but neither has a gift like ours ever been given to anyone.
We must wait. We must guard our tunnel as we had never guarded it before. For should any men save the Scholars learn of our secret, they would not understand it, nor would they believe us. They would see nothing, save our crime of working alone, and they would destroy us and our light. We care not about our body, but our light is...
We have to wait. We have to protect our tunnel like we never have before. If anyone other than the Scholars finds out about our secret, they won't get it or believe us. They will only see our crime of working alone, and they will come after us and extinguish our light. We don't care about our bodies, but our light is...
Yes, we do care. For the first time do we care about our body. For this wire is as a part of our body, as a vein torn from us, glowing with our blood. Are we proud of this thread of metal, or of our hands which made it, or is there a line to divide these two?
Yes, we do care. For the first time, we care about our body. This wire is part of our body, like a vein ripped from us, glowing with our blood. Are we proud of this metal thread, or of the hands that created it, or is there a line that separates these two?
We stretch out our arms. For the first time do we know how strong our arms are. And a strange thought comes to us: we wonder, for the first time in our life, what we look like. Men never see their own faces and never ask their brothers about it, for it is evil to have concern for their own faces or bodies. But tonight, for a reason we cannot fathom, we wish it were possible to us to know the likeness of our own person.
We stretch out our arms. For the first time, we realize how strong they are. And a strange thought hits us: we wonder, for the first time in our lives, what we look like. Men never see their own faces and never ask their brothers about it, because it’s wrong to care about their own faces or bodies. But tonight, for some reason we can’t understand, we wish we could know what we look like.
PART SIX
We have not written for thirty days. For thirty days we have not been here, in our tunnel. We had been caught. It happened on that night when we wrote last. We forgot, that night, to watch the sand in the glass which tells us when three hours have passed and it is time to return to the City Theatre. When we remembered it, the sand had run out.
We haven’t written in thirty days. For thirty days, we haven’t been here in our tunnel. We got caught. It happened the night we wrote last. That night, we forgot to keep an eye on the sand in the hourglass that tells us when three hours have passed and it’s time to head back to the City Theatre. When we finally remembered, the sand had run out.
We hastened to the Theatre. But the big tent stood grey and silent against the sky. The streets of the City lay before us, dark and empty. If we went back to hide in our tunnel, we would be found and our light found with us. So we walked to the Home of the Street Sweepers.
We rushed to the theater. But the huge tent loomed gray and silent against the sky. The streets of the city stretched out before us, dark and empty. If we went back to hide in our tunnel, we would be discovered and our light would be found with us. So we walked to the home of the street sweepers.
When the Council of the Home questioned us, we looked upon the faces of the Council, but there was no curiosity in those faces, and no anger, and no mercy. So when the oldest of them asked us: “Where have you been?” we thought of our glass box and of our light, and we forgot all else. And we answered:
When the Home Council questioned us, we looked at the faces of the Council, but there was no curiosity, no anger, and no mercy in those faces. So when the oldest of them asked us, “Where have you been?” we thought of our glass box and our light, and we forgot everything else. And we replied:
“We will not tell you.”
"We're not telling you."
The oldest did not question us further. They turned to the two youngest, and said, and their voice was bored:
The oldest didn’t ask us anything else. They turned to the two youngest and said, their tone was indifferent:
“Take our brother Equality 7-2521 to the Palace of Corrective Detention. Lash them until they tell.”
“Take our brother Equality 7-2521 to the Palace of Corrective Detention. Beat them until they confess.”
So we were taken to the Stone Room under the Palace of Corrective Detention. This room has no windows and it is empty save for an iron post. Two men stood by the post, naked but for leather aprons and leather hoods over their faces. Those who had brought us departed, leaving us to the two Judges who stood in a corner of the room. The Judges were small, thin men, grey and bent. They gave the signal to the two strong hooded ones.
So, we were taken to the Stone Room beneath the Palace of Corrective Detention. This room has no windows and is empty except for an iron post. Two men stood by the post, wearing nothing but leather aprons and leather hoods over their faces. The people who brought us left, leaving us with the two Judges who stood in a corner of the room. The Judges were short, thin men, gray and hunched. They signaled to the two strong hooded men.
They tore the clothes from our body, they threw us down upon our knees and they tied our hands to the iron post. The first blow of the lash felt as if our spine had been cut in two. The second blow stopped the first, and for a second we felt nothing, then the pain struck us in our throat and fire ran in our lungs without air. But we did not cry out.
They ripped the clothes off our bodies, threw us to our knees, and tied our hands to the iron post. The first lash felt like our spine had been snapped in two. The second hit overshadowed the first, and for a moment, we felt nothing; then the pain hit us in our throats, and fire surged through our lungs, desperate for air. But we didn’t scream.
The lash whistled like a singing wind. We tried to count the blows, but we lost count. We knew that the blows were falling upon our back. Only we felt nothing upon our back any longer. A flaming grill kept dancing before our eyes, and we thought of nothing save that grill, a grill, a grill of red squares, and then we knew that we were looking at the squares of the iron grill in the door, and there were also the squares of stone on the walls, and the squares which the lash was cutting upon our back, crossing and re-crossing itself in our flesh.
The whip cracked like a gust of wind. We tried to keep track of the hits, but we lost count. We knew the blows were landing on our back, but we didn’t feel anything there anymore. A fiery grid kept flashing in front of our eyes, and we thought about nothing but that grid, a grid, a grid of red squares. Then we realized we were staring at the squares of the iron grill in the door, and there were also the stone squares on the walls, and the squares that the whip was slicing into our back, crossing and re-crossing into our flesh.
Then we saw a fist before us. It knocked our chin up, and we saw the red froth of our mouth on the withered fingers, and the Judge asked:
Then we saw a fist in front of us. It lifted our chin, and we saw the red foam from our mouth on the withered fingers, and the Judge asked:
“Where have you been?”
"Where have you been?"
But we jerked our head away, hid our face upon our tied hands, and bit our lips.
But we turned our heads away, buried our faces in our tied hands, and bit our lips.
The lash whistled again. We wondered who was sprinkling burning coal dust upon the floor, for we saw drops of red twinkling on the stones around us.
The whip cracked again. We were curious about who was scattering burning coal dust on the floor, as we noticed red specks sparkling on the stones around us.
Then we knew nothing, save two voices snarling steadily, one after the other, even though we knew they were speaking many minutes apart:
Then we knew nothing, except for two voices growling constantly, one after the other, even though we realized they were speaking many minutes apart:
“Where have you been where have you been where have you been where have you been?...”
“Where have you been? Where have you been? Where have you been? Where have you been?…”
And our lips moved, but the sound trickled back into our throat, and the sound was only:
And our lips moved, but the sound got stuck in our throats, and the only sound was:
“The light... The light... The light....”
“The light... The light... The light....”
Then we knew nothing.
Now we know nothing.
We opened our eyes, lying on our stomach on the brick floor of a cell. We looked upon two hands lying far before us on the bricks, and we moved them, and we knew that they were our hands. But we could not move our body. Then we smiled, for we thought of the light and that we had not betrayed it.
We opened our eyes, lying on our stomach on the brick floor of a cell. We looked at two hands lying far in front of us on the bricks, and we moved them, realizing they were our hands. But we couldn't move our bodies. Then we smiled, thinking of the light and that we hadn't betrayed it.
We lay in our cell for many days. The door opened twice each day, once for the men who brought us bread and water, and once for the Judges. Many Judges came to our cell, first the humblest and then the most honored Judges of the City. They stood before us in their white togas, and they asked:
We lay in our cell for many days. The door opened twice each day, once for the men who brought us bread and water, and once for the Judges. Many Judges came to our cell, first the humblest and then the most respected Judges of the City. They stood before us in their white togas, and they asked:
“Are you ready to speak?”
"Ready to talk?"
But we shook our head, lying before them on the floor. And they departed.
But we shook our heads, lying on the floor in front of them. And they left.
We counted each day and each night as it passed. Then, tonight, we knew that we must escape. For tomorrow the World Council of Scholars is to meet in our City.
We counted every day and every night as they went by. Then, tonight, we realized that we had to escape. Because tomorrow, the World Council of Scholars is meeting in our City.
It was easy to escape from the Palace of Corrective Detention. The locks are old on the doors and there are no guards about. There is no reason to have guards, for men have never defied the Councils so far as to escape from whatever place they were ordered to be. Our body is healthy and strength returns to it speedily. We lunged against the door and it gave way. We stole through the dark passages, and through the dark streets, and down into our tunnel.
It was easy to get out of the Palace of Corrective Detention. The locks on the doors are old, and there are no guards around. There’s no need for guards because no man has ever dared to defy the Councils by escaping from wherever they were ordered to stay. Our bodies are healthy, and our strength returns quickly. We pushed against the door, and it opened. We slipped through the dark hallways, across the dark streets, and down into our tunnel.
We lit the candle and we saw that our place had not been found and nothing had been touched. And our glass box stood before us on the cold oven, as we had left it. What matter they now, the scars upon our back!
We lit the candle and saw that our place hadn’t been found and nothing had been touched. Our glass box was right there on the cold oven, just like we left it. What do the scars on our backs matter now!
Tomorrow, in the full light of day, we shall take our box, and leave our tunnel open, and walk through the streets to the Home of the Scholars. We shall put before them the greatest gift ever offered to men. We shall tell them the truth. We shall hand to them, as our confession, these pages we have written. We shall join our hands to theirs, and we shall work together, with the power of the sky, for the glory of mankind. Our blessing upon you, our brothers! Tomorrow, you will take us back into your fold and we shall be an outcast no longer. Tomorrow we shall be one of you again. Tomorrow...
Tomorrow, in the bright daylight, we’ll take our box, leave our tunnel open, and walk through the streets to the Home of the Scholars. We’ll present them with the greatest gift ever offered to humanity. We’ll tell them the truth. We’ll hand over these pages we’ve written as our confession. We’ll join our hands with theirs, and we’ll work together, with the power of the sky, for the glory of mankind. Our blessing to you, our brothers! Tomorrow, you will welcome us back into your fold, and we won’t be outcasts anymore. Tomorrow, we’ll be one of you again. Tomorrow...
PART SEVEN
It is dark here in the forest. The leaves rustle over our head, black against the last gold of the sky. The moss is soft and warm. We shall sleep on this moss for many nights, till the beasts of the forest come to tear our body. We have no bed now, save the moss, and no future, save the beasts.
It’s dark here in the forest. The leaves rustle above us, black against the fading gold of the sky. The moss feels soft and warm. We'll sleep on this moss for many nights until the forest creatures come to tear us apart. We have no bed now except for the moss and no future, except for the beasts.
We are old now, yet we were young this morning, when we carried our glass box through the streets of the City to the Home of the Scholars. No men stopped us, for there were none about from the Palace of Corrective Detention, and the others knew nothing. No men stopped us at the gate. We walked through empty passages and into the great hall where the World Council of Scholars sat in solemn meeting.
We’re old now, but we were young this morning when we carried our glass box through the streets of the City to the Home of the Scholars. No one stopped us because there were no men around from the Palace of Corrective Detention, and the others didn’t have a clue. No one stopped us at the gate. We walked through empty hallways and into the great hall where the World Council of Scholars was having a serious meeting.
We saw nothing as we entered, save the sky in the great windows, blue and glowing. Then we saw the Scholars who sat around a long table; they were as shapeless clouds huddled at the rise of the great sky. There were men whose famous names we knew, and others from distant lands whose names we had not heard. We saw a great painting on the wall over their heads, of the twenty illustrious men who had invented the candle.
We saw nothing as we walked in, except for the blue and glowing sky through the big windows. Then we noticed the Scholars sitting around a long table; they looked like shapeless clouds gathered at the edge of the vast sky. There were men whose famous names we recognized, along with others from faraway places whose names we didn’t know. We spotted a large painting on the wall above them, depicting the twenty remarkable men who had invented the candle.
All the heads of the Council turned to us as we entered. These great and wise of the earth did not know what to think of us, and they looked upon us with wonder and curiosity, as if we were a miracle. It is true that our tunic was torn and stained with brown stains which had been blood. We raised our right arm and we said:
All the members of the Council turned to us as we walked in. These great and wise people of the world were unsure what to make of us, and they stared at us with amazement and curiosity, as if we were something extraordinary. It’s true that our tunic was torn and stained with dark marks that were probably blood. We raised our right arm and said:
“Our greeting to you, our honored brothers of the World Council of Scholars!”
“Our greetings to you, our esteemed brothers of the World Council of Scholars!”
Then Collective 0-0009, the oldest and wisest of the Council, spoke and asked:
Then Collective 0-0009, the oldest and wisest of the Council, spoke and asked:
“Who are you, our brother? For you do not look like a Scholar.”
“Who are you, our brother? You sure don’t look like a Scholar.”
“Our name is Equality 7-2521,” we answered, “and we are a Street Sweeper of this City.”
"Our name is Equality 7-2521," we replied, "and we are a Street Sweeper of this City."
Then it was as if a great wind had stricken the hall, for all the Scholars spoke at once, and they were angry and frightened.
Then it felt like a powerful wind had swept through the hall, as all the Scholars began to speak at once, and they were both angry and scared.
“A Street Sweeper! A Street Sweeper walking in upon the World Council of Scholars! It is not to be believed! It is against all the rules and all the laws!”
“A street sweeper! A street sweeper walking in on the World Council of Scholars! I can't believe it! It's against all the rules and all the laws!”
But we knew how to stop them.
But we knew how to stop them.
“Our brothers!” we said. “We matter not, nor our transgression. It is only our brother men who matter. Give no thought to us, for we are nothing, but listen to our words, for we bring you a gift such as had never been brought to men. Listen to us, for we hold the future of mankind in our hands.”
“Our brothers!” we said. “We don’t matter, nor does our wrongdoing. It’s only our fellow men who matter. Don’t think about us, because we are nothing, but pay attention to our words, for we bring you a gift unlike any ever given to humanity. Listen to us, because we hold the future of mankind in our hands.”
Then they listened.
Then they paid attention.
We placed our glass box upon the table before them. We spoke of it, and of our long quest, and of our tunnel, and of our escape from the Palace of Corrective Detention. Not a hand moved in that hall, as we spoke, nor an eye. Then we put the wires to the box, and they all bent forward and sat still, watching. And we stood still, our eyes upon the wire. And slowly, slowly as a flush of blood, a red flame trembled in the wire. Then the wire glowed.
We set our glass box on the table in front of them. We talked about it, our long journey, our tunnel, and our escape from the Palace of Corrective Detention. Not a single hand moved in that room as we spoke, nor did anyone blink. Then we connected the wires to the box, and everyone leaned forward, sitting quietly and watching. We remained still, our eyes focused on the wire. And slowly, like a rush of blood, a red flame flickered in the wire. Then the wire lit up.
But terror struck the men of the Council. They leapt to their feet, they ran from the table, and they stood pressed against the wall, huddled together, seeking the warmth of one another’s bodies to give them courage.
But fear hit the members of the Council. They jumped to their feet, ran from the table, and pressed against the wall, huddled together, seeking the warmth of each other’s bodies to give them courage.
We looked upon them and we laughed and said:
We looked at them and laughed, saying:
“Fear nothing, our brothers. There is a great power in these wires, but this power is tamed. It is yours. We give it to you.”
“Fear nothing, our brothers. There is great power in these wires, but this power is controlled. It belongs to you. We hand it over to you.”
Still they would not move.
Still, they wouldn't move.
“We give you the power of the sky!” we cried. “We give you the key to the earth! Take it, and let us be one of you, the humblest among you. Let us all work together, and harness this power, and make it ease the toil of men. Let us throw away our candles and our torches. Let us flood our cities with light. Let us bring a new light to men!”
“We give you the power of the sky!” we shouted. “We give you the key to the earth! Take it, and let us be one of you, the most humble among you. Let’s all work together, harness this power, and make it ease the labor of people. Let’s get rid of our candles and our torches. Let’s fill our cities with light. Let’s bring a new light to humanity!”
But they looked upon us, and suddenly we were afraid. For their eyes were still, and small, and evil.
But they stared at us, and suddenly we felt scared. Their eyes were cold, small, and wicked.
“Our brothers!” we cried. “Have you nothing to say to us?”
“Our brothers!” we shouted. “Don’t you have anything to say to us?”
Then Collective 0-0009 moved forward. They moved to the table and the others followed.
Then Collective 0-0009 stepped ahead. They approached the table, and the others followed.
“Yes,” spoke Collective 0-0009, “we have much to say to you.”
“Yes,” said Collective 0-0009, “we have a lot to tell you.”
The sound of their voices brought silence to the hall and to beat of our heart.
The sound of their voices fell over the hall, silencing everything and making our hearts race.
“Yes,” said Collective 0-0009, “we have much to say to a wretch who have broken all the laws and who boast of their infamy!
“Yes,” said Collective 0-0009, “we have a lot to say to a miserable person who has broken all the laws and brags about their infamy!
“How dared you think that your mind held greater wisdom than the minds of your brothers? And if the Councils had decreed that you should be a Street Sweeper, how dared you think that you could be of greater use to men than in sweeping the streets?”
“How dare you think that your mind is wiser than your brothers'? And if the Councils decided you should be a Street Sweeper, how could you think you would be of greater use to people than by sweeping the streets?”
“How dared you, gutter cleaner,” spoke Fraternity 9-3452, “to hold yourself as one alone and with the thoughts of the one and not of the many?”
“How dare you, gutter cleaner,” spoke Fraternity 9-3452, “to consider yourself as an individual with your own thoughts instead of thinking about the collective?”
“You shall be burned at the stake,” said Democracy 4-6998.
“You will be burned at the stake,” said Democracy 4-6998.
“No, they shall be lashed,” said Unanimity 7-3304, “till there is nothing left under the lashes.”
“No, they shall be whipped,” said Unanimity 7-3304, “until there is nothing left under the strikes.”
“No,” said Collective 0-0009, “we cannot decide upon this, our brothers. No such crime has ever been committed, and it is not for us to judge. Nor for any small Council. We shall deliver this creature to the World Council itself and let their will be done.”
“No,” said Collective 0-0009, “we can’t make this decision, our brothers. No such crime has ever occurred, and it’s not for us to judge. Nor is it for any small Council. We will deliver this creature to the World Council itself and let them determine what to do.”
We looked upon them and we pleaded:
We looked at them and we begged:
“Our brothers! You are right. Let the will of the Council be done upon our body. We do not care. But the light? What will you do with the light?”
“Our brothers! You’re right. Let the Council's will be done upon us. We don’t mind. But the light? What will you do about the light?”
Collective 0-0009 looked upon us, and they smiled.
Collective 0-0009 looked at us and smiled.
“So you think that you have found a new power,” said Collective 0-0009. “Do all your brothers think that?”
“So you believe you've discovered a new power,” said Collective 0-0009. “Do all your brothers agree?”
“No,” we answered.
“Nope,” we replied.
“What is not thought by all men cannot be true,” said Collective 0-0009.
“What everyone doesn’t believe can’t be true,” said Collective 0-0009.
“You have worked on this alone?” asked International 1-5537.
“You did all of this by yourself?” asked International 1-5537.
“Many men in the Homes of the Scholars have had strange new ideas in the past,” said Solidarity 8-1164, “but when the majority of their brother Scholars voted against them, they abandoned their ideas, as all men must.”
“Many men in the Scholars' Homes have had odd new ideas in the past,” said Solidarity 8-1164, “but when the majority of their fellow Scholars voted against them, they let go of their ideas, as everyone must.”
“This box is useless,” said Alliance 6-7349.
"This box is useless," said Alliance 6-7349.
“Should it be what they claim of it,” said Harmony 9-2642, “then it would bring ruin to the Department of Candles. The Candle is a great boon to mankind, as approved by all men. Therefore it cannot be destroyed by the whim of one.”
“Assuming what they say is true,” said Harmony 9-2642, “then it would spell disaster for the Department of Candles. The Candle is a huge benefit to humanity, as recognized by everyone. So, it can't be wiped out just because of one person's desire.”
“This would wreck the Plans of the World Council,” said Unanimity 2-9913, “and without the Plans of the World Council the sun cannot rise. It took fifty years to secure the approval of all the Councils for the Candle, and to decide upon the number needed, and to re-fit the Plans so as to make candles instead of torches. This touched upon thousands and thousands of men working in scores of States. We cannot alter the Plans again so soon.”
“This would ruin the World Council's plans,” said Unanimity 2-9913, “and without the World Council's plans, the sun can't rise. It took fifty years to get all the Councils to approve the Candle, decide how many we needed, and adjust the plans to make candles instead of torches. This involved thousands of men working across dozens of states. We can't change the plans again so soon.”
“And if this should lighten the toil of men,” said Similarity 5-0306, “then it is a great evil, for men have no cause to exist save in toiling for other men.”
“And if this makes life easier for people,” said Similarity 5-0306, “then it’s a major problem because people exist only to work for others.”
Then Collective 0-0009 rose and pointed at our box.
Then Collective 0-0009 stood up and pointed at our box.
“This thing,” they said, “must be destroyed.”
“This thing,” they said, “has to be destroyed.”
And all the others cried as one:
And everyone else cried too:
“It must be destroyed!”
"It needs to be destroyed!"
Then we leapt to the table.
Then we jumped to the table.
We seized our box, we shoved them aside, and we ran to the window. We turned and we looked at them for the last time, and a rage, such as it is not fit for humans to know, choked our voice in our throat.
We grabbed our box, pushed them out of the way, and ran to the window. We turned and looked at them one last time, and a rage, unlike anything humans should experience, choked our voice in our throat.
“You fools!” we cried. “You fools! You thrice-damned fools!”
“You idiots!” we shouted. “You idiots! You damn idiots!”
We swung our fist through the windowpane, and we leapt out in a ringing rain of glass.
We punched through the window, and we jumped out in a shower of glass.
We fell, but we never let the box fall from our hands. Then we ran. We ran blindly, and men and houses streaked past us in a torrent without shape. And the road seemed not to be flat before us, but as if it were leaping up to meet us, and we waited for the earth to rise and strike us in the face. But we ran. We knew not where we were going. We knew only that we must run, run to the end of the world, to the end of our days.
We fell, but we never dropped the box from our hands. Then we ran. We ran blindly, and people and buildings blurred past us in a rush without form. The road didn’t seem flat ahead of us; it felt like it was rising up to greet us, and we braced ourselves for the ground to hit us in the face. But we kept running. We had no idea where we were heading. We only knew that we had to run, run to the end of the world, to the end of our lives.
Then we knew suddenly that we were lying on a soft earth and that we had stopped. Trees taller than we had ever seen before stood over us in great silence. Then we knew. We were in the Uncharted Forest. We had not thought of coming here, but our legs had carried our wisdom, and our legs had brought us to the Uncharted Forest against our will.
Then we suddenly realized that we were lying on soft ground and that we had stopped. Trees taller than we had ever seen before loomed over us in deep silence. Then we understood. We were in the Uncharted Forest. We hadn’t planned to come here, but our legs had led us, and our legs had brought us to the Uncharted Forest despite our wishes.
Our glass box lay beside us. We crawled to it, we fell upon it, our face in our arms, and we lay still.
Our glass box was next to us. We crawled over to it, collapsed on it, our faces in our arms, and we lay still.
We lay thus for a long time. Then we rose, we took our box and walked on into the forest.
We stayed like that for a long time. Then we got up, took our box, and walked deeper into the forest.
It mattered not where we went. We knew that men would not follow us, for they never enter the Uncharted Forest. We had nothing to fear from them. The forest disposes of its own victims. This gave us no fear either. Only we wished to be away, away from the City and from the air that touches upon the air of the City. So we walked on, our box in our arms, our heart empty.
It didn't matter where we went. We knew that men wouldn't follow us because they never enter the Uncharted Forest. We had nothing to fear from them. The forest takes care of its own victims. That didn't scare us either. We just wanted to be away, away from the City and from the air that mixes with the air of the City. So we kept walking, our box in our arms, our hearts empty.
We are doomed. Whatever days are left to us, we shall spend them alone. And we have heard of the corruption to be found in solitude. We have torn ourselves from the truth which is our brother men, and there is no road back for us, and no redemption.
We are doomed. Any days we have left will be spent alone. And we've heard about the corruption that comes from being isolated. We've cut ourselves off from the truth that is our fellow humans, and there’s no way back for us, and no chance for redemption.
We know these things, but we do not care. We care for nothing on earth. We are tired.
We know these things, but we don’t care. We don’t care about anything on this earth. We’re exhausted.
Only the glass box in our arms is like a living heart that gives us strength. We have lied to ourselves. We have not built this box for the good of our brothers. We built it for its own sake. It is above all our brothers to us, and its truth above their truth. Why wonder about this? We have not many days to live. We are walking to the fangs awaiting us somewhere among the great, silent trees. There is not a thing behind us to regret.
Only the glass box in our arms feels like a living heart that gives us strength. We've been dishonest with ourselves. We didn't create this box for the benefit of our brothers. We made it for its own sake. It matters to us more than our brothers do, and its truth is more important than their truth. Why question this? We don’t have many days left. We're heading toward the dangers that await us somewhere among the tall, quiet trees. There's nothing behind us to regret.
Then a blow of pain struck us, our first and our only. We thought of the Golden One. We thought of the Golden One whom we shall never see again. Then the pain passed. It is best. We are one of the Damned. It is best if the Golden One forget our name and the body which bore that name.
Then a wave of pain hit us, our first and only. We thought of the Golden One. We thought of the Golden One whom we will never see again. Then the pain faded. It’s for the best. We are among the Damned. It's better if the Golden One forgets our name and the body that carried that name.
PART EIGHT
It has been a day of wonder, this, our first day in the forest.
It has been an amazing day, our first day in the forest.
We awoke when a ray of sunlight fell across our face. We wanted to leap to our feet, as we have had to leap every morning of our life, but we remembered suddenly that no bell had rung and that there was no bell to ring anywhere. We lay on our back, we threw our arms out, and we looked up at the sky. The leaves had edges of silver that trembled and rippled like a river of green and fire flowing high above us.
We woke up when a beam of sunlight hit our face. We wanted to jump up like we did every morning of our lives, but then we suddenly remembered that no bell had rung and that there was no bell anywhere to ring. We lay on our backs, stretched our arms out, and looked up at the sky. The leaves had silver edges that shimmered and waved like a river of green and fire flowing high above us.
We did not wish to move. We thought suddenly that we could lie thus as long as we wished, and we laughed aloud at the thought. We could also rise, or run, or leap, or fall down again. We were thinking that these were thoughts without sense, but before we knew it our body had risen in one leap. Our arms stretched out of their own will, and our body whirled and whirled, till it raised a wind to rustle through the leaves of the bushes. Then our hands seized a branch and swung us high into a tree, with no aim save the wonder of learning the strength of our body. The branch snapped under us and we fell upon the moss that was soft as a cushion. Then our body, losing all sense, rolled over and over on the moss, dry leaves in our tunic, in our hair, in our face. And we heard suddenly that we were laughing, laughing aloud, laughing as if there were no power left in us save laughter.
We didn’t want to move. Suddenly, we realized we could lie here as long as we wanted, and we laughed at that thought. We could also get up, or run, or jump, or fall back down again. We thought those were silly ideas, but before we knew it, our body had leaped up in one motion. Our arms stretched out on their own, and our body spun around and around, creating a breeze that rustled the leaves of the bushes. Then our hands grabbed a branch and swung us high up into a tree, with no goal other than to explore the strength of our body. The branch broke beneath us, and we fell onto the moss, which felt as soft as a cushion. Then our body, losing all sense of direction, rolled over and over on the moss, with dry leaves in our tunic, in our hair, on our face. Suddenly, we realized we were laughing—laughing out loud, laughing as if there was nothing left in us but laughter.
Then we took our glass box, and we went on into the forest. We went on, cutting through the branches, and it was as if we were swimming through a sea of leaves, with the bushes as waves rising and falling and rising around us, and flinging their green sprays high to the treetops. The trees parted before us, calling us forward. The forest seemed to welcome us. We went on, without thought, without care, with nothing to feel save the song of our body.
Then we grabbed our glass box and headed into the forest. We kept moving, pushing through the branches, and it felt like we were swimming in a sea of leaves, with the bushes rolling like waves around us, splashing their green leaves up to the treetops. The trees opened up for us, urging us on. The forest seemed to embrace us. We continued, thoughtless and carefree, with nothing to feel except the rhythm of our bodies.
We stopped when we felt hunger. We saw birds in the tree branches, and flying from under our footsteps. We picked a stone and we sent it as an arrow at a bird. It fell before us. We made a fire, we cooked the bird, and we ate it, and no meal had ever tasted better to us. And we thought suddenly that there was a great satisfaction to be found in the food which we need and obtain by our own hand. And we wished to be hungry again and soon, that we might know again this strange new pride in eating.
We stopped when we got hungry. We saw birds in the tree branches and flying away from our footsteps. We picked up a stone and threw it at a bird like an arrow. It fell in front of us. We made a fire, cooked the bird, and ate it, and no meal had ever tasted better to us. Suddenly, we realized there was a great satisfaction in the food we needed and obtained with our own hands. We wished to be hungry again soon so we could feel this strange new pride in eating once more.
Then we walked on. And we came to a stream which lay as a streak of glass among the trees. It lay so still that we saw no water but only a cut in the earth, in which the trees grew down, upturned, and the sky lay at the bottom. We knelt by the stream and we bent down to drink. And then we stopped. For, upon the blue of the sky below us, we saw our own face for the first time.
Then we continued walking. We came across a stream that looked like a streak of glass among the trees. It was so still that we saw no water, only a channel in the earth where the trees grew downwards, their roots exposed, and the sky was reflected at the bottom. We knelt by the stream and leaned down to drink. Then we paused. For, upon the blue of the sky below us, we saw our own faces for the first time.
We sat still and we held our breath. For our face and our body were beautiful. Our face was not like the faces of our brothers, for we felt not pity when looking upon it. Our body was not like the bodies of our brothers, for our limbs were straight and thin and hard and strong. And we thought that we could trust this being who looked upon us from the stream, and that we had nothing to fear with this being.
We sat quietly and held our breath. Our face and body were beautiful. Our face was different from our brothers' faces because we didn't feel pity when we looked at it. Our body was unlike our brothers' bodies, as our limbs were straight, slim, firm, and strong. And we believed we could trust the being looking at us from the stream, and that we had nothing to fear from this being.
We walked on till the sun had set. When the shadows gathered among the trees, we stopped in a hollow between the roots, where we shall sleep tonight. And suddenly, for the first time this day, we remembered that we are the Damned. We remembered it, and we laughed.
We walked on until the sun set. When the shadows gathered among the trees, we paused in a hollow between the roots, where we would sleep tonight. And suddenly, for the first time today, we remembered that we are the Damned. We remembered it, and we laughed.
We are writing this on the paper we had hidden in our tunic together with the written pages we had brought for the World Council of Scholars, but never given to them. We have much to speak of to ourselves, and we hope we shall find the words for it in the days to come. Now, we cannot speak, for we cannot understand.
We’re writing this on the paper we hid in our tunic along with the pages we had intended to submit to the World Council of Scholars, but never did. We have a lot to discuss with ourselves, and we hope to find the right words for it in the days ahead. Right now, we can’t speak because we can’t understand.
PART NINE
We have not written for many days. We did not wish to speak. For we needed no words to remember that which has happened to us.
We haven't written in days. We didn't want to talk. We didn't need any words to remember what happened to us.
It was on our second day in the forest that we heard steps behind us. We hid in the bushes, and we waited. The steps came closer. And then we saw the fold of a white tunic among the trees, and a gleam of gold.
It was on our second day in the woods that we heard footsteps behind us. We hid in the bushes and waited. The footsteps got closer. Then we saw the edge of a white tunic among the trees and a flash of gold.
We leapt forward, we ran to them, and we stood looking upon the Golden One.
We jumped forward, ran to them, and stood looking at the Golden One.
They saw us, and their hands closed into fists, and the fists pulled their arms down, as if they wished their arms to hold them, while their body swayed. And they could not speak.
They saw us, and their hands clenched into fists, pulling their arms down, as if they wanted their arms to support them, while their bodies swayed. And they couldn't speak.
We dared not come too close to them. We asked, and our voice trembled:
We didn't dare to get too close to them. We asked, and our voice shook:
“How did you come to be here, Golden One?”
“How did you end up here, Golden One?”
But they whispered only:
But they only whispered:
“We have found you....”
“We found you....”
“How did you come to be in the forest?” we asked.
“How did you end up in the forest?” we asked.
They raised their head, and there was a great pride in their voice; they answered:
They lifted their heads, and there was a strong sense of pride in their voices; they replied:
“We have followed you.”
“We've been following you.”
Then we could not speak, and they said:
Then we couldn’t talk, and they said:
“We heard that you had gone to the Uncharted Forest, for the whole City is speaking of it. So on the night of the day when we heard it, we ran away from the Home of the Peasants. We found the marks of your feet across the plain where no men walk. So we followed them, and we went into the forest, and we followed the path where the branches were broken by your body.”
“We heard that you went to the Uncharted Forest because everyone in the City is talking about it. So, on the night we found out, we ran away from the Peasants' Home. We saw the marks of your feet across the plain where no one walks. So we followed them, went into the forest, and tracked the path where the branches were broken by your body.”
Their white tunic was torn, and the branches had cut the skin of their arms, but they spoke as if they had never taken notice of it, nor of weariness, nor of fear.
Their white tunic was torn, and the branches had scratched their arms, but they spoke as if they were completely unaware of it, or of their exhaustion, or of any fear.
“We have followed you,” they said, “and we shall follow you wherever you go. If danger threatens you, we shall face it also. If it be death, we shall die with you. You are damned, and we wish to share your damnation.”
“We have been following you,” they said, “and we will follow you wherever you go. If danger comes your way, we’ll face it too. If it’s death, we’ll die with you. You are doomed, and we want to share in your doom.”
They looked upon us, and their voice was low, but there was bitterness and triumph in their voice.
They looked at us, and their voice was quiet, but there was bitterness and triumph in it.
“Your eyes are as a flame, but our brothers have neither hope nor fire. Your mouth is cut of granite, but our brothers are soft and humble. Your head is high, but our brothers cringe. You walk, but our brothers crawl. We wish to be damned with you, rather than blessed with all our brothers. Do as you please with us, but do not send us away from you.”
“Your eyes are like a flame, but our brothers have neither hope nor fire. Your mouth is made of stone, but our brothers are gentle and humble. You stand tall, but our brothers cower. You walk, but our brothers crawl. We would rather be damned with you than blessed with all our brothers. Do whatever you want with us, but don’t send us away from you.”
Then they knelt, and bowed their golden head before us.
Then they knelt and lowered their golden heads before us.
We had never thought of that which we did. We bent to raise the Golden One to their feet, but when we touched them, it was as if madness had stricken us. We seized their body and we pressed our lips to theirs. The Golden One breathed once, and their breath was a moan, and then their arms closed around us.
We had never considered what we were doing. We leaned down to lift the Golden One to their feet, but when we made contact, it felt like madness had taken hold of us. We grabbed their body and pressed our lips against theirs. The Golden One breathed out a single moan, and then their arms wrapped around us.
We stood together for a long time. And we were frightened that we had lived for twenty-one years and had never known what joy is possible to men.
We stood together for a long time, scared that we had lived for twenty-one years and had never experienced the joy that’s possible for people.
Then we said:
Then we said:
“Our dearest one. Fear nothing of the forest. There is no danger in solitude. We have no need of our brothers. Let us forget their good and our evil, let us forget all things save that we are together and that there is joy as a bond between us. Give us your hand. Look ahead. It is our own world, Golden One, a strange, unknown world, but our own.”
“Our dearest one. Don’t be afraid of the forest. There’s no danger in being alone. We don’t need our brothers. Let’s forget their goodness and our wrongs, let’s forget everything except that we’re together and there’s happiness connecting us. Take my hand. Look ahead. It’s our own world, Golden One, a strange, unknown world, but it’s ours.”
Then we walked on into the forest, their hand in ours.
Then we continued walking into the forest, their hand in ours.
And that night we knew that to hold the body of women in our arms is neither ugly nor shameful, but the one ecstasy granted to the race of men.
And that night we realized that holding a woman's body in our arms isn't ugly or shameful; it's the one ecstasy given to the male race.
We have walked for many days. The forest has no end, and we seek no end. But each day added to the chain of days between us and the City is like an added blessing.
We have been walking for many days. The forest goes on forever, and we aren't looking for an end. But each day that adds to the chain of days between us and the City feels like a new blessing.
We have made a bow and many arrows. We can kill more birds than we need for our food; we find water and fruit in the forest. At night, we choose a clearing, and we build a ring of fires around it. We sleep in the midst of that ring, and the beasts dare not attack us. We can see their eyes, green and yellow as coals, watching us from the tree branches beyond. The fires smoulder as a crown of jewels around us, and smoke stands still in the air, in columns made blue by the moonlight. We sleep together in the midst of the ring, the arms of the Golden One around us, their head upon our breast.
We’ve made a bow and plenty of arrows. We can hunt more birds than we actually need for food; we find water and fruit in the woods. At night, we pick a clearing and build a circle of fires around it. We sleep right in the middle of that circle, and the animals won’t dare to attack us. We can see their eyes, glowing green and yellow like coals, watching us from the tree branches beyond. The fires glow like a crown of jewels around us, and the smoke hangs still in the air, forming blue columns in the moonlight. We sleep together in the center of the circle, the arms of the Golden One around us, their head resting on our chest.
Some day, we shall stop and build a house, when we shall have gone far enough. But we do not have to hasten. The days before us are without end, like the forest.
Some day, we will pause and build a house when we've traveled far enough. But we don't need to rush. The days ahead of us are endless, like the forest.
We cannot understand this new life which we have found, yet it seems so clear and so simple. When questions come to puzzle us, we walk faster, then turn and forget all things as we watch the Golden One following. The shadows of leaves fall upon their arms, as they spread the branches apart, but their shoulders are in the sun. The skin of their arms is like a blue mist, but their shoulders are white and glowing, as if the light fell not from above, but rose from under their skin. We watch the leaf which has fallen upon their shoulder, and it lies at the curve of their neck, and a drop of dew glistens upon it like a jewel. They approach us, and they stop, laughing, knowing what we think, and they wait obediently, without questions, till it pleases us to turn and go on.
We can't fully grasp this new life we've discovered, but it feels so clear and straightforward. When questions arise that confuse us, we pick up our pace, then pause and forget everything as we watch the Golden One follow us. The shadows of leaves dance on their arms as they spread the branches apart, but their shoulders catch the sun. The skin of their arms looks like a blue mist, while their shoulders are white and radiant, as if the light doesn’t just come from above but rises from beneath their skin. We notice a leaf that’s fallen on their shoulder, resting at the curve of their neck, with a drop of dew shimmering on it like a jewel. They come closer, then stop, laughing, aware of our thoughts, and they wait patiently, without questions, until we decide to turn and move on.
We go on and we bless the earth under our feet. But questions come to us again, as we walk in silence. If that which we have found is the corruption of solitude, then what can men wish for save corruption? If this is the great evil of being alone, then what is good and what is evil?
We continue on, blessing the ground beneath us. But questions arise as we walk in silence. If what we've discovered is the corruption of solitude, then what can people desire except for corruption? If this is the major drawback of being alone, then what truly is good and what is evil?
Everything which comes from the many is good. Everything which comes from one is evil. This have we been taught with our first breath. We have broken the law, but we have never doubted it. Yet now, as we walk through the forest, we are learning to doubt.
Everything that comes from the many is good. Everything that comes from one is evil. This is what we were taught from our very first breath. We have broken the law, but we have never questioned it. Yet now, as we walk through the forest, we are starting to doubt.
There is no life for men, save in useful toil for the good of all their brothers. But we lived not, when we toiled for our brothers, we were only weary. There is no joy for men, save the joy shared with all their brothers. But the only things which taught us joy were the power we created in our wires, and the Golden One. And both these joys belong to us alone, they come from us alone, they bear no relation to all our brothers, and they do not concern our brothers in any way. Thus do we wonder.
There’s no life for men except in meaningful work for the benefit of all their brothers. But we didn’t truly live when we worked for our brothers; we were just exhausted. There’s no happiness for men except the happiness shared with all their brothers. Yet the only things that brought us joy were the power we generated in our wires and the Golden One. And both of these joys are ours alone; they come from us and have nothing to do with our brothers, and they don’t affect our brothers at all. So we find ourselves wondering.
There is some error, one frightful error, in the thinking of men. What is that error? We do not know, but the knowledge struggles within us, struggles to be born. Today, the Golden One stopped suddenly and said:
There is a major mistake, a terrible mistake, in how people think. What is that mistake? We don't know, but the understanding fights within us, trying to emerge. Today, the Golden One suddenly stopped and said:
“We love you.”
"We love you."
But they frowned and shook their head and looked at us helplessly.
But they frowned, shook their heads, and looked at us helplessly.
“No,” they whispered, “that is not what we wished to say.”
“No,” they whispered, “that’s not what we meant to say.”
They were silent, then they spoke slowly, and their words were halting, like the words of a child learning to speak for the first time:
They were quiet, then they spoke slowly, and their words were hesitant, like a child learning to talk for the first time:
“We are one... alone... and only... and we love you who are one... alone... and only.”
“We are one... alone... and unique... and we love you who are one... alone... and unique.”
We looked into each other’s eyes and we knew that the breath of a miracle had touched us, and fled, and left us groping vainly.
We looked into each other’s eyes and knew that the breath of a miracle had touched us, then slipped away, leaving us blindly searching in vain.
And we felt torn, torn for some word we could not find.
And we felt conflicted, conflicted for some word we couldn't find.
PART TEN
We are sitting at a table and we are writing this upon paper made thousands of years ago. The light is dim, and we cannot see the Golden One, only one lock of gold on the pillow of an ancient bed. This is our home.
We’re sitting at a table writing this on paper made thousands of years ago. The light is dim, and we can’t see the Golden One, just a single lock of gold on the pillow of an ancient bed. This is our home.
We came upon it today, at sunrise. For many days we had been crossing a chain of mountains. The forest rose among cliffs, and whenever we walked out upon a barren stretch of rock we saw great peaks before us in the west, and to the north of us, and to the south, as far as our eyes could see. The peaks were red and brown, with the green streaks of forests as veins upon them, with blue mists as veils over their heads. We had never heard of these mountains, nor seen them marked on any map. The Uncharted Forest has protected them from the Cities and from the men of the Cities.
We came across it today at sunrise. For many days, we had been crossing a chain of mountains. The forest grew among cliffs, and whenever we stepped onto a barren stretch of rock, we saw towering peaks before us in the west, and to the north, and to the south, as far as our eyes could see. The peaks were red and brown, with green streaks of forests like veins on them, and blue mists hanging like veils over their tops. We had never heard of these mountains or seen them marked on any map. The Uncharted Forest has kept them safe from the Cities and the people of the Cities.
We climbed paths where the wild goat dared not follow. Stones rolled from under our feet, and we heard them striking the rocks below, farther and farther down, and the mountains rang with each stroke, and long after the strokes had died. But we went on, for we knew that no men would ever follow our track nor reach us here.
We climbed trails where even the wild goats wouldn't go. Stones rolled beneath our feet, and we could hear them hitting the rocks below, farther down and down, echoing through the mountains with each hit, lingering long after the sound faded away. But we kept going because we knew that no one would ever follow our path or reach us here.
Then today, at sunrise, we saw a white flame among the trees, high on a sheer peak before us. We thought that it was a fire and stopped. But the flame was unmoving, yet blinding as liquid metal. So we climbed toward it through the rocks. And there, before us, on a broad summit, with the mountains rising behind it, stood a house such as we had never seen, and the white fire came from the sun on the glass of its windows.
Then today, at sunrise, we saw a white flame among the trees, high on a sheer peak in front of us. We thought it was a fire and stopped. But the flame was still, yet dazzling like liquid metal. So we climbed toward it through the rocks. And there, in front of us, on a wide summit, with the mountains rising behind it, stood a house like none we had ever seen, and the white fire came from the sun reflecting off the glass of its windows.
The house had two stories and a strange roof flat as a floor. There was more window than wall upon its walls, and the windows went on straight around the corners, though how this kept the house standing we could not guess. The walls were hard and smooth, of that stone unlike stone which we had seen in our tunnel.
The house had two stories and a weird flat roof that was like a floor. There were more windows than walls, and the windows wrapped around the corners, though we could never figure out how that kept the house from falling down. The walls were hard and smooth, made of a stone that was unlike any stone we had seen in our tunnel.
We both knew it without words: this house was left from the Unmentionable Times. The trees had protected it from time and weather, and from men who have less pity than time and weather. We turned to the Golden One and we asked:
We both understood it without saying a word: this house came from the Unmentionable Times. The trees had sheltered it from time and the elements, as well as from people who are less compassionate than time and nature. We turned to the Golden One and asked:
“Are you afraid?”
"Are you scared?"
But they shook their head. So we walked to the door, and we threw it open, and we stepped together into the house of the Unmentionable Times.
But they shook their heads. So we walked to the door, threw it open, and stepped together into the house of the Unmentionable Times.
We shall need the days and the years ahead, to look, to learn, and to understand the things of this house. Today, we could only look and try to believe the sight of our eyes. We pulled the heavy curtains from the windows and we saw that the rooms were small, and we thought that not more than twelve men could have lived here. We thought it strange that men had been permitted to build a house for only twelve.
We’ll need the coming days and years to observe, learn, and understand the things in this house. Today, we could only look and try to believe what we saw. We pulled back the heavy curtains from the windows and saw that the rooms were small, and we thought that no more than twelve men could have lived here. It struck us as odd that men were allowed to build a house for only twelve.
Never had we seen rooms so full of light. The sunrays danced upon colors, colors, more colors than we thought possible, we who had seen no houses save the white ones, the brown ones and the grey. There were great pieces of glass on the walls, but it was not glass, for when we looked upon it we saw our own bodies and all the things behind us, as on the face of a lake. There were strange things which we had never seen and the use of which we do not know. And there were globes of glass everywhere, in each room, the globes with the metal cobwebs inside, such as we had seen in our tunnel.
We had never seen rooms so filled with light. Sunbeams danced on colors, so many colors that we thought were impossible, we who had only seen white, brown, and gray houses. There were large pieces of glass on the walls, but it wasn’t just glass; when we looked at it, we saw our own reflections and everything behind us, like the surface of a lake. There were strange objects we had never encountered and had no idea how to use. And there were glass globes everywhere, in each room, globes with metal webs inside, just like the ones we had seen in our tunnel.
We found the sleeping hall and we stood in awe upon its threshold. For it was a small room and there were only two beds in it. We found no other beds in the house, and then we knew that only two had lived here, and this passes understanding. What kind of world did they have, the men of the Unmentionable Times?
We discovered the sleeping room and stood in amazement at its entrance. It was a small space with only two beds in it. We didn’t find any other beds in the house, and then we realized that only two people had lived here, which is hard to comprehend. What kind of world did the men of the Unmentionable Times inhabit?
We found garments, and the Golden One gasped at the sight of them. For they were not white tunics, nor white togas; they were of all colors, no two of them alike. Some crumbled to dust as we touched them. But others were of heavier cloth, and they felt soft and new in our fingers.
We discovered clothes, and the Golden One was amazed at the sight. They weren't white tunics or white togas; they were all different colors, with not a single one the same. Some fell apart when we touched them, but others were made of thicker fabric, and they felt soft and new in our hands.
We found a room with walls made of shelves, which held rows of manuscripts, from the floor to the ceiling. Never had we seen such a number of them, nor of such strange shape. They were not soft and rolled, they had hard shells of cloth and leather; and the letters on their pages were so small and so even that we wondered at the men who had such handwriting. We glanced through the pages, and we saw that they were written in our language, but we found many words which we could not understand. Tomorrow, we shall begin to read these scripts.
We discovered a room with walls lined with shelves filled with manuscripts, reaching from the floor to the ceiling. We had never seen so many or such oddly shaped ones. They weren’t soft and rolled up; they had sturdy covers made of cloth and leather, and the letters on the pages were so tiny and uniform that we were amazed at the people who could write like that. We flipped through the pages and noticed they were written in our language, but there were a lot of words we didn’t understand. Tomorrow, we’ll start reading these texts.
When we had seen all the rooms of the house, we looked at the Golden One and we both knew the thought in our minds.
When we had seen all the rooms in the house, we looked at the Golden One and we both knew what we were thinking.
“We shall never leave this house,” we said, “nor let it be taken from us. This is our home and the end of our journey. This is your house, Golden One, and ours, and it belongs to no other men whatever as far as the earth may stretch. We shall not share it with others, as we share not our joy with them, nor our love, nor our hunger. So be it to the end of our days.”
“We will never leave this house,” we said, “nor let anyone take it from us. This is our home and the end of our journey. This is your house, Golden One, and ours, and it belongs to no one else as far as the earth extends. We will not share it with others, just as we don’t share our joy with them, nor our love, nor our hunger. So it shall be until the end of our days.”
“Your will be done,” they said.
“Your will be done,” they said.
Then we went out to gather wood for the great hearth of our home. We brought water from the stream which runs among the trees under our windows. We killed a mountain goat, and we brought its flesh to be cooked in a strange copper pot we found in a place of wonders, which must have been the cooking room of the house.
Then we went out to collect wood for the big fireplace in our home. We got water from the stream that flows through the trees by our windows. We hunted a mountain goat and brought its meat to cook in a strange copper pot we found in a place of wonders, which must have been the kitchen of the house.
We did this work alone, for no words of ours could take the Golden One away from the big glass which is not glass. They stood before it and they looked and looked upon their own body.
We did this work on our own, because no words from us could remove the Golden One from the big glass that isn’t really glass. They stood in front of it and kept staring at their own reflection.
When the sun sank beyond the mountains, the Golden One fell asleep on the floor, amidst jewels, and bottles of crystal, and flowers of silk. We lifted the Golden One in our arms and we carried them to a bed, their head falling softly upon our shoulder. Then we lit a candle, and we brought paper from the room of the manuscripts, and we sat by the window, for we knew that we could not sleep tonight.
When the sun set behind the mountains, the Golden One fell asleep on the floor, surrounded by jewels, crystal bottles, and silk flowers. We lifted the Golden One in our arms and carried them to a bed, their head gently resting on our shoulder. Then we lit a candle, brought paper from the manuscript room, and sat by the window, knowing we wouldn’t be able to sleep tonight.
And now we look upon the earth and sky. This spread of naked rock and peaks and moonlight is like a world ready to be born, a world that waits. It seems to us it asks a sign from us, a spark, a first commandment. We cannot know what word we are to give, nor what great deed this earth expects to witness. We know it waits. It seems to say it has great gifts to lay before us, but it wishes a greater gift for us. We are to speak. We are to give its goal, its highest meaning to all this glowing space of rock and sky.
And now we look at the earth and sky. This stretch of bare rock, peaks, and moonlight feels like a world about to be born, a world that's waiting. It seems to us to be asking for a sign, a spark, a first commandment. We can’t know what word we’re meant to give, or what amazing thing this earth expects to see. We know it’s waiting. It feels like it has great gifts to offer us, but it wants something even bigger from us. We need to speak. We need to give its purpose, its highest meaning to all this shining space of rock and sky.
We look ahead, we beg our heart for guidance in answering this call no voice has spoken, yet we have heard. We look upon our hands. We see the dust of centuries, the dust which hid the great secrets and perhaps great evils. And yet it stirs no fear within our heart, but only silent reverence and pity.
We look forward, asking our hearts for guidance in responding to this call that hasn’t been articulated, yet we can sense it. We examine our hands and notice the remnants of centuries, the remnants that concealed profound secrets and possibly great wrongs. Still, it doesn't invoke fear in our hearts, only quiet respect and compassion.
May knowledge come to us! What is the secret our heart has understood and yet will not reveal to us, although it seems to beat as if it were endeavoring to tell it?
May knowledge come to us! What is the secret our heart understands but won't reveal to us, even though it seems to beat as if it's trying to share it?
PART ELEVEN
I am. I think. I will.
I am. I think. I will.
My hands... My spirit... My sky... My forest... This earth of mine.... What must I say besides? These are the words. This is the answer.
My hands... My spirit... My sky... My forest... This earth of mine.... What more can I say? These are the words. This is the answer.
I stand here on the summit of the mountain. I lift my head and I spread my arms. This, my body and spirit, this is the end of the quest. I wished to know the meaning of things. I am the meaning. I wished to find a warrant for being. I need no warrant for being, and no word of sanction upon my being. I am the warrant and the sanction.
I stand here at the top of the mountain. I lift my head and spread my arms. This, my body and spirit, is the end of my journey. I wanted to understand the meaning of everything. I am the meaning. I wanted to find a reason for existence. I don't need a reason for existence, and I don't need anyone to validate my existence. I am the reason and the validation.
It is my eyes which see, and the sight of my eyes grants beauty to the earth. It is my ears which hear, and the hearing of my ears gives its song to the world. It is my mind which thinks, and the judgement of my mind is the only searchlight that can find the truth. It is my will which chooses, and the choice of my will is the only edict I must respect.
It’s my eyes that see, and what I see brings beauty to the earth. It’s my ears that hear, and what I hear gives its song to the world. It’s my mind that thinks, and the judgments of my mind are the only light that can find the truth. It’s my will that chooses, and the choices I make are the only rules I need to follow.
Many words have been granted me, and some are wise, and some are false, but only three are holy: “I will it!”
Many words have been given to me, some are wise, and some are not true, but only three are sacred: “I will it!”
Whatever road I take, the guiding star is within me; the guiding star and the loadstone which point the way. They point in but one direction. They point to me.
Whatever path I choose, the guiding star is inside me; the guiding star and the magnet that show the way. They point in only one direction. They point to me.
I know not if this earth on which I stand is the core of the universe or if it is but a speck of dust lost in eternity. I know not and I care not. For I know what happiness is possible to me on earth. And my happiness needs no higher aim to vindicate it. My happiness is not the means to any end. It is the end. It is its own goal. It is its own purpose.
I don't know if this earth I'm standing on is the center of the universe or just a tiny speck lost in eternity. I don't know, and I don't care. What matters to me is that I understand the happiness I can find here. My happiness doesn't need to justify itself with a higher purpose. It isn't a means to an end; it is the end itself. It is its own goal. It is its own purpose.
Neither am I the means to any end others may wish to accomplish. I am not a tool for their use. I am not a servant of their needs. I am not a bandage for their wounds. I am not a sacrifice on their altars.
I’m not a means to anyone else's goals. I’m not a tool for them to use. I’m not here to serve their needs. I’m not a bandage for their injuries. I’m not a sacrifice for their demands.
I am a man. This miracle of me is mine to own and keep, and mine to guard, and mine to use, and mine to kneel before!
I am a man. This miracle of me is something I own and keep, something I protect, something I use, and something I kneel before!
I do not surrender my treasures, nor do I share them. The fortune of my spirit is not to be blown into coins of brass and flung to the winds as alms for the poor of the spirit. I guard my treasures: my thought, my will, my freedom. And the greatest of these is freedom.
I don’t give up my treasures, nor do I share them. The wealth of my spirit isn’t meant to be turned into brass coins and tossed to the wind as charity for the needy. I protect my treasures: my thoughts, my will, my freedom. And the most important of these is freedom.
I owe nothing to my brothers, nor do I gather debts from them. I ask none to live for me, nor do I live for any others. I covet no man’s soul, nor is my soul theirs to covet.
I owe nothing to my brothers, and I don’t take anything from them. I don’t ask anyone to live for me, and I don’t live for anyone else. I don’t desire anyone’s soul, nor is my soul theirs to desire.
I am neither foe nor friend to my brothers, but such as each of them shall deserve of me. And to earn my love, my brothers must do more than to have been born. I do not grant my love without reason, nor to any chance passer-by who may wish to claim it. I honor men with my love. But honor is a thing to be earned.
I am neither an enemy nor a friend to my brothers; I treat each of them based on what they deserve from me. To earn my love, my brothers must do more than just exist. I don’t give my love freely or to anyone who just wants it. I bestow my love as a sign of respect. And respect has to be earned.
I shall choose friends among men, but neither slaves nor masters. And I shall choose only such as please me, and them I shall love and respect, but neither command nor obey. And we shall join our hands when we wish, or walk alone when we so desire. For in the temple of his spirit, each man is alone. Let each man keep his temple untouched and undefiled. Then let him join hands with others if he wishes, but only beyond his holy threshold.
I will choose friends from among men, but neither slaves nor bosses. I will only pick those who please me, and I will love and respect them, but won’t command or obey. We’ll join hands when we want, or walk alone when we prefer. In the sanctuary of his spirit, each man is alone. Each man should keep his sanctuary untouched and pure. Then he can join hands with others if he wants, but only beyond his sacred threshold.
For the word “We” must never be spoken, save by one’s choice and as a second thought. This word must never be placed first within man’s soul, else it becomes a monster, the root of all the evils on earth, the root of man’s torture by men, and of an unspeakable lie.
For the word “We” should only be used when you really want to and as a second thought. This word shouldn't come first in a person's heart, or it turns into a monster, the source of all the problems in the world, the cause of people's suffering at the hands of others, and an unthinkable lie.
The word “We” is as lime poured over men, which sets and hardens to stone, and crushes all beneath it, and that which is white and that which is black are lost equally in the grey of it. It is the word by which the depraved steal the virtue of the good, by which the weak steal the might of the strong, by which the fools steal the wisdom of the sages.
The word "We" is like lime poured over people, solidifying and turning into stone, crushing everything underneath it, making both what is white and what is black blend into the grey. It's the word that lets the corrupt take away the goodness of the virtuous, the weak take the strength of the strong, and the foolish take the wisdom of the wise.
What is my joy if all hands, even the unclean, can reach into it? What is my wisdom, if even the fools can dictate to me? What is my freedom, if all creatures, even the botched and the impotent, are my masters? What is my life, if I am but to bow, to agree and to obey?
What joy do I have if anyone, even those unworthy, can take part in it? What wisdom do I possess if even fools can tell me what to do? What freedom do I really have if all beings, even the flawed and the weak, control me? What is my life if all I do is bow down, agree, and obey?
But I am done with this creed of corruption.
But I'm done with this belief in corruption.
I am done with the monster of “We,” the word of serfdom, of plunder, of misery, falsehood and shame.
I’m finished with the monster of “We,” the word of servitude, of theft, of suffering, lies, and embarrassment.
And now I see the face of god, and I raise this god over the earth, this god whom men have sought since men came into being, this god who will grant them joy and peace and pride.
And now I see the face of God, and I raise this God over the earth, this God whom people have searched for since humanity began, this God who will bring them joy, peace, and pride.
This god, this one word:
This deity, this single word:
“I.”
“I.”
PART TWELVE
It was when I read the first of the books I found in my house that I saw the word “I.” And when I understood this word, the book fell from my hands, and I wept, I who had never known tears. I wept in deliverance and in pity for all mankind.
It was when I read the first of the books I found in my house that I saw the word "I." And when I understood this word, the book fell from my hands, and I cried, I who had never known tears. I cried in relief and in compassion for all humanity.
I understood the blessed thing which I had called my curse. I understood why the best in me had been my sins and my transgressions; and why I had never felt guilt in my sins. I understood that centuries of chains and lashes will not kill the spirit of man nor the sense of truth within him.
I realized the blessing in what I had thought of as my curse. I understood why the worst parts of me had been my sins and wrongdoings, and why I had never felt guilty about them. I understood that centuries of shackles and punishment won't break the human spirit or the sense of truth inside us.
I read many books for many days. Then I called the Golden One, and I told her what I had read and what I had learned. She looked at me and the first words she spoke were:
I read a lot of books over several days. Then I called the Golden One and shared with her what I had read and what I had learned. She looked at me, and the first thing she said was:
“I love you.”
“I love you.”
Then I said:
Then I said:
“My dearest one, it is not proper for men to be without names. There was a time when each man had a name of his own to distinguish him from all other men. So let us choose our names. I have read of a man who lived many thousands of years ago, and of all the names in these books, his is the one I wish to bear. He took the light of the gods and he brought it to men, and he taught men to be gods. And he suffered for his deed as all bearers of light must suffer. His name was Prometheus.”
“My dearest one, it’s not right for men to be without names. There was a time when each man had a unique name to set him apart from all others. So let’s choose our names. I’ve read about a man who lived thousands of years ago, and among all the names in these stories, his is the one I want to carry. He took the light of the gods and brought it to humanity, teaching them to be like gods. And he suffered for his actions, as all bearers of light must. His name was Prometheus.”
“It shall be your name,” said the Golden One.
“It will be your name,” said the Golden One.
“And I have read of a goddess,” I said, “who was the mother of the earth and of all the gods. Her name was Gaea. Let this be your name, my Golden One, for you are to be the mother of a new kind of gods.”
“And I read about a goddess,” I said, “who was the mother of the earth and all the gods. Her name was Gaea. Let this be your name, my Golden One, because you will be the mother of a new kind of gods.”
“It shall be my name,” said the Golden One.
“It will be my name,” said the Golden One.
Now I look ahead. My future is clear before me. The Saint of the pyre had seen the future when he chose me as his heir, as the heir of all the saints and all the martyrs who came before him and who died for the same cause, for the same word, no matter what name they gave to their cause and their truth.
Now I look forward. My future is clear in front of me. The Saint of the pyre saw the future when he chose me as his heir, as the heir of all the saints and all the martyrs who came before him and who died for the same cause, for the same word, regardless of the name they gave to their cause and their truth.
I shall live here, in my own house. I shall take my food from the earth by the toil of my own hands. I shall learn many secrets from my books. Through the years ahead, I shall rebuild the achievements of the past, and open the way to carry them further, the achievements which are open to me, but closed forever to my brothers, for their minds are shackled to the weakest and dullest ones among them.
I will live here, in my own home. I will get my food from the earth through the hard work of my own hands. I will discover many secrets from my books. In the years to come, I will rebuild the accomplishments of the past and pave the way to take them further—accomplishments that are available to me but forever out of reach for my brothers, as their minds are tied to the weakest and dullest among them.
I have learned that my power of the sky was known to men long ago; they called it Electricity. It was the power that moved their greatest inventions. It lit this house with light which came from those globes of glass on the walls. I have found the engine which produced this light. I shall learn how to repair it and how to make it work again. I shall learn how to use the wires which carry this power. Then I shall build a barrier of wires around my home, and across the paths which lead to my home; a barrier light as a cobweb, more impassable than a wall of granite; a barrier my brothers will never be able to cross. For they have nothing to fight me with, save the brute force of their numbers. I have my mind.
I’ve discovered that my sky power was recognized by people a long time ago; they called it Electricity. It was the force that drove their greatest inventions. It illuminated this house with light from those glass bulbs on the walls. I’ve found the machine that created this light. I will learn how to fix it and make it work again. I will learn how to use the wires that carry this power. Then I will build a web of wires around my home and along the paths leading to it; a barrier as light as a spider's web, yet more impenetrable than a granite wall; a barrier my brothers will never be able to cross. They have nothing to fight me with except their sheer numbers. I have my intellect.
Then here, on this mountaintop, with the world below me and nothing above me but the sun, I shall live my own truth. Gaea is pregnant with my child. Our son will be raised as a man. He will be taught to say “I” and to bear the pride of it. He will be taught to walk straight and on his own feet. He will be taught reverence for his own spirit.
Then here, on this mountaintop, with the world below me and nothing above me but the sun, I will live my own truth. Gaea is pregnant with my child. Our son will be raised as a man. He will be taught to say “I” and to take pride in it. He will be taught to walk upright and on his own two feet. He will be taught to respect his own spirit.
When I shall have read all the books and learned my new way, when my home will be ready and my earth tilled, I shall steal one day, for the last time, into the cursed City of my birth. I shall call to me my friend who has no name save International 4-8818, and all those like him, Fraternity 2-5503, who cries without reason, and Solidarity 9-6347 who calls for help in the night, and a few others. I shall call to me all the men and the women whose spirit has not been killed within them and who suffer under the yoke of their brothers. They will follow me and I shall lead them to my fortress. And here, in this uncharted wilderness, I and they, my chosen friends, my fellow-builders, shall write the first chapter in the new history of man.
When I’ve read all the books and learned my new way, when my home is ready and my land is tilled, I’ll sneak back one last time into the cursed City where I was born. I’ll summon my friend who has no name except International 4-8818, along with others like him, Fraternity 2-5503, who cries without reason, and Solidarity 9-6347, who calls for help in the night, and a few others. I’ll gather all the men and women whose spirits haven’t been crushed and who suffer under the oppression of their brothers. They’ll follow me, and I’ll lead them to my fortress. Here, in this uncharted wilderness, I and my chosen friends, my fellow-builders, will write the first chapter of the new history of humanity.
These are the things before me. And as I stand here at the door of glory, I look behind me for the last time. I look upon the history of men, which I have learned from the books, and I wonder. It was a long story, and the spirit which moved it was the spirit of man’s freedom. But what is freedom? Freedom from what? There is nothing to take a man’s freedom away from him, save other men. To be free, a man must be free of his brothers. That is freedom. That and nothing else.
These are the things in front of me. And as I stand here at the door of glory, I look back one last time. I reflect on the history of humanity, which I've learned from books, and I wonder. It’s a long story, and the driving force behind it was the spirit of human freedom. But what is freedom? Freedom from what? Nothing can take away a man's freedom except for other people. To be free, a person must be free from their brothers. That is freedom. That and nothing more.
At first, man was enslaved by the gods. But he broke their chains. Then he was enslaved by the kings. But he broke their chains. He was enslaved by his birth, by his kin, by his race. But he broke their chains. He declared to all his brothers that a man has rights which neither god nor king nor other men can take away from him, no matter what their number, for his is the right of man, and there is no right on earth above this right. And he stood on the threshold of the freedom for which the blood of the centuries behind him had been spilled.
At first, people were enslaved by the gods. But they broke free from those chains. Then they were enslaved by kings. But they broke free from those chains too. They were enslaved by their birth, by their families, by their race. But they broke free from those chains as well. They declared to all their fellow humans that every person has rights that neither gods, nor kings, nor other people can take away, no matter how many there are, for these are the rights of all human beings, and there is no right on earth greater than this. And they stood at the brink of the freedom for which the blood of generations before them had been spilled.
But then he gave up all he had won, and fell lower than his savage beginning.
But then he lost everything he had gained and fell even lower than where he started.
What brought it to pass? What disaster took their reason away from men? What whip lashed them to their knees in shame and submission? The worship of the word “We.”
What caused this? What disaster stripped away people's reason? What punishment brought them to their knees in shame and submission? The worship of the word "We."
When men accepted that worship, the structure of centuries collapsed about them, the structure whose every beam had come from the thought of some one man, each in his day down the ages, from the depth of some one spirit, such spirit as existed but for its own sake. Those men who survived those eager to obey, eager to live for one another, since they had nothing else to vindicate them—those men could neither carry on, nor preserve what they had received. Thus did all thought, all science, all wisdom perish on earth. Thus did men—men with nothing to offer save their great number—lost the steel towers, the flying ships, the power wires, all the things they had not created and could never keep. Perhaps, later, some men had been born with the mind and the courage to recover these things which were lost; perhaps these men came before the Councils of Scholars. They were answered as I have been answered—and for the same reasons.
When men accepted that worship, the structure built over centuries crumbled around them, a structure whose every beam had come from the thoughts of individual men, each in his time throughout history, stemming from the essence of a spirit that existed for its own sake. Those men who remained—eager to obey and live for each other because they had nothing else to justify their existence—could neither continue nor maintain what they had inherited. As a result, all thought, all science, and all wisdom faded from the earth. Thus, men—who had nothing to contribute except their sheer numbers—lost the steel towers, the flying ships, the power lines, all the things they hadn’t created and could never hold onto. Perhaps, later on, some men were born with the intellect and bravery to reclaim what had been lost; maybe these men came before the Councils of Scholars. They were met with the same response I received—and for the same reasons.
But I still wonder how it was possible, in those graceless years of transition, long ago, that men did not see whither they were going, and went on, in blindness and cowardice, to their fate. I wonder, for it is hard for me to conceive how men who knew the word “I” could give it up and not know what they lost. But such has been the story, for I have lived in the City of the damned, and I know what horror men permitted to be brought upon them.
But I still wonder how it was possible, in those awkward years of change, long ago, that people didn’t see where they were headed and continued on, blindly and fearfully, toward their fate. I wonder, because it's hard for me to understand how individuals who understood the word “I” could give it up and not realize what they lost. But that’s the story, for I have lived in the City of the damned, and I know what horrors people allowed to be brought upon themselves.
Perhaps, in those days, there were a few among men, a few of clear sight and clean soul, who refused to surrender that word. What agony must have been theirs before that which they saw coming and could not stop! Perhaps they cried out in protest and in warning. But men paid no heed to their warning. And they, these few, fought a hopeless battle, and they perished with their banners smeared by their own blood. And they chose to perish, for they knew. To them, I send my salute across the centuries, and my pity.
Maybe, back then, there were a few people, a few with clear vision and good hearts, who refused to let go of that word. What suffering must they have endured as they saw what was coming and couldn't stop it! Maybe they shouted out in protest and tried to warn others. But people ignored their warnings. And these few fought a losing battle, dying with their banners stained by their own blood. They chose to fight until the end because they understood. To them, I offer my respect across the ages, and my sympathy.
Theirs is the banner in my hand. And I wish I had the power to tell them that the despair of their hearts was not to be final, and their night was not without hope. For the battle they lost can never be lost. For that which they died to save can never perish. Through all the darkness, through all the shame of which men are capable, the spirit of man will remain alive on this earth. It may sleep, but it will awaken. It may wear chains, but it will break through. And man will go on. Man, not men.
Theirs is the banner in my hand. And I wish I had the power to tell them that the despair in their hearts doesn’t have to be the end, and their night isn’t without hope. The battle they lost can never truly be lost. What they died to protect can never vanish. Through all the darkness, through all the shame that humans can create, the spirit of humanity will stay alive on this planet. It may sleep, but it will wake up. It may be chained, but it will break free. And humanity will continue on. Humanity, not individuals.
Here on this mountain, I and my sons and my chosen friends shall build our new land and our fort. And it will become as the heart of the earth, lost and hidden at first, but beating, beating louder each day. And word of it will reach every corner of the earth. And the roads of the world will become as veins which will carry the best of the world’s blood to my threshold. And all my brothers, and the Councils of my brothers, will hear of it, but they will be impotent against me. And the day will come when I shall break all the chains of the earth, and raze the cities of the enslaved, and my home will become the capital of a world where each man will be free to exist for his own sake.
Here on this mountain, my sons, my chosen friends, and I will build our new land and our fort. It will become the heart of the earth, initially lost and hidden, but beating louder each day. News of it will spread to every corner of the globe. The roads of the world will turn into veins, bringing the best of the world’s vitality to my doorstep. All my brothers and their councils will hear about it, but they won’t be able to stop me. The day will come when I will break all the chains of the earth, tear down the cities of the oppressed, and my home will become the capital of a world where everyone is free to live for their own sake.
For the coming of that day shall I fight, I and my sons and my chosen friends. For the freedom of Man. For his rights. For his life. For his honor.
For the arrival of that day, I will fight, along with my sons and my chosen friends. For the freedom of humanity. For their rights. For their lives. For their honor.
And here, over the portals of my fort, I shall cut in the stone the word which is to be my beacon and my banner. The word which will not die, should we all perish in battle. The word which can never die on this earth, for it is the heart of it and the meaning and the glory.
And here, above the entrance to my fort, I’ll carve into the stone the word that will be my light and my flag. The word that won’t fade away, even if we all fall in battle. The word that can never be extinguished on this earth, because it is its essence, its meaning, and its glory.
The sacred word:
The holy word:
EGO
Ego
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