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MANSFIELD PARK

(1814)

By Jane Austen


Contents

CHAPTER I
CHAPTER II
CHAPTER III
CHAPTER IV
CHAPTER V
CHAPTER VI
CHAPTER VII
CHAPTER VIII
CHAPTER IX
CHAPTER X
CHAPTER XI
CHAPTER XII
CHAPTER XIII
CHAPTER XIV
CHAPTER XV
CHAPTER XVI
CHAPTER XVII
CHAPTER XVIII
CHAPTER XIX
CHAPTER XX
CHAPTER XXI
CHAPTER XXII
CHAPTER XXIII
CHAPTER XXIV
CHAPTER XXV
CHAPTER XXVI
CHAPTER XXVII
CHAPTER XXVIII
CHAPTER XXIX
CHAPTER XXX
CHAPTER XXXI
CHAPTER XXXII
CHAPTER XXXIII
CHAPTER XXXIV
CHAPTER XXXV
CHAPTER XXXVI
CHAPTER XXXVII
CHAPTER XXXVIII
CHAPTER XXXIX
CHAPTER XL
CHAPTER XLI
CHAPTER XLII
CHAPTER XLIII
CHAPTER XLIV
CHAPTER XLV
CHAPTER XLVI
CHAPTER XLVII
CHAPTER XLVIII

CHAPTER I

About thirty years ago Miss Maria Ward, of Huntingdon, with only seven thousand pounds, had the good luck to captivate Sir Thomas Bertram, of Mansfield Park, in the county of Northampton, and to be thereby raised to the rank of a baronet’s lady, with all the comforts and consequences of an handsome house and large income. All Huntingdon exclaimed on the greatness of the match, and her uncle, the lawyer, himself, allowed her to be at least three thousand pounds short of any equitable claim to it. She had two sisters to be benefited by her elevation; and such of their acquaintance as thought Miss Ward and Miss Frances quite as handsome as Miss Maria, did not scruple to predict their marrying with almost equal advantage. But there certainly are not so many men of large fortune in the world as there are pretty women to deserve them. Miss Ward, at the end of half a dozen years, found herself obliged to be attached to the Rev. Mr. Norris, a friend of her brother-in-law, with scarcely any private fortune, and Miss Frances fared yet worse. Miss Ward’s match, indeed, when it came to the point, was not contemptible: Sir Thomas being happily able to give his friend an income in the living of Mansfield; and Mr. and Mrs. Norris began their career of conjugal felicity with very little less than a thousand a year. But Miss Frances married, in the common phrase, to disoblige her family, and by fixing on a lieutenant of marines, without education, fortune, or connexions, did it very thoroughly. She could hardly have made a more untoward choice. Sir Thomas Bertram had interest, which, from principle as well as pride—from a general wish of doing right, and a desire of seeing all that were connected with him in situations of respectability, he would have been glad to exert for the advantage of Lady Bertram’s sister; but her husband’s profession was such as no interest could reach; and before he had time to devise any other method of assisting them, an absolute breach between the sisters had taken place. It was the natural result of the conduct of each party, and such as a very imprudent marriage almost always produces. To save herself from useless remonstrance, Mrs. Price never wrote to her family on the subject till actually married. Lady Bertram, who was a woman of very tranquil feelings, and a temper remarkably easy and indolent, would have contented herself with merely giving up her sister, and thinking no more of the matter; but Mrs. Norris had a spirit of activity, which could not be satisfied till she had written a long and angry letter to Fanny, to point out the folly of her conduct, and threaten her with all its possible ill consequences. Mrs. Price, in her turn, was injured and angry; and an answer, which comprehended each sister in its bitterness, and bestowed such very disrespectful reflections on the pride of Sir Thomas as Mrs. Norris could not possibly keep to herself, put an end to all intercourse between them for a considerable period.

About thirty years ago, Miss Maria Ward from Huntingdon, with just seven thousand pounds, was fortunate enough to win over Sir Thomas Bertram from Mansfield Park in Northamptonshire, which elevated her to the status of a baronet's wife, complete with all the comforts of a nice house and a substantial income. Everyone in Huntingdon was amazed by the match, and even her uncle, the lawyer, admitted she was at least three thousand pounds short of having any fair claim to it. She had two sisters who would benefit from her rise in status; those in their circle who thought Miss Ward and Miss Frances were just as pretty as Miss Maria didn't hesitate to predict they would marry just as well. However, there are definitely not as many wealthy men as there are attractive women deserving of them. After six years, Miss Ward found herself tied to the Rev. Mr. Norris, a friend of her brother-in-law, with hardly any private fortune, and Miss Frances had an even worse situation. Miss Ward's match, when it came down to it, wasn’t terrible: Sir Thomas was able to provide his friend with an income from the living at Mansfield, and Mr. and Mrs. Norris started their married life with just under a thousand a year. But Miss Frances married, in common terms, to upset her family, and by choosing a lieutenant in the marines who had no education, money, or connections, she went all in on that. She could hardly have made a worse choice. Sir Thomas Bertram had connections, which he would have gladly used to help Lady Bertram's sister out of a sense of principle and pride, wanting to see those related to him in respectable positions; but her husband’s job was one that no connections could help, and before he could think of another way to assist them, a complete rift between the sisters had already occurred. This was the natural outcome of how each acted, and it’s something that a very imprudent marriage usually brings about. To avoid unnecessary arguments, Mrs. Price never wrote to her family about it until she was actually married. Lady Bertram, who was quite calm and had a notably easy-going temperament, would have been satisfied to just let go of her sister and move on; but Mrs. Norris had a more active spirit and couldn't rest until she wrote a long, angry letter to Fanny, pointing out the foolishness of her actions and warning her about all the possible negative repercussions. Mrs. Price, feeling wronged and upset in her turn, replied with a response that included bitter remarks about each sister and harsh reflections on Sir Thomas's pride that Mrs. Norris couldn’t keep to herself, leading to a significant break in their communication for quite some time.

Their homes were so distant, and the circles in which they moved so distinct, as almost to preclude the means of ever hearing of each other’s existence during the eleven following years, or, at least, to make it very wonderful to Sir Thomas that Mrs. Norris should ever have it in her power to tell them, as she now and then did, in an angry voice, that Fanny had got another child. By the end of eleven years, however, Mrs. Price could no longer afford to cherish pride or resentment, or to lose one connexion that might possibly assist her. A large and still increasing family, an husband disabled for active service, but not the less equal to company and good liquor, and a very small income to supply their wants, made her eager to regain the friends she had so carelessly sacrificed; and she addressed Lady Bertram in a letter which spoke so much contrition and despondence, such a superfluity of children, and such a want of almost everything else, as could not but dispose them all to a reconciliation. She was preparing for her ninth lying-in; and after bewailing the circumstance, and imploring their countenance as sponsors to the expected child, she could not conceal how important she felt they might be to the future maintenance of the eight already in being. Her eldest was a boy of ten years old, a fine spirited fellow, who longed to be out in the world; but what could she do? Was there any chance of his being hereafter useful to Sir Thomas in the concerns of his West Indian property? No situation would be beneath him; or what did Sir Thomas think of Woolwich? or how could a boy be sent out to the East?

Their homes were so far apart, and the circles they moved in were so different, that it almost made it impossible for them to hear about each other’s lives over the next eleven years, or at least made it quite surprising to Sir Thomas that Mrs. Norris could occasionally inform them, with annoyance, that Fanny had another child. However, after eleven years, Mrs. Price could no longer afford to hold onto pride or resentment, or to lose any connection that might help her. With a large and still growing family, a husband who could no longer work actively but still enjoyed socializing and good drinks, and a very small income to meet their needs, she was eager to reconnect with the friends she had so carelessly abandoned. She wrote to Lady Bertram, expressing deep regret and hopelessness, mentioning her many children and her lack of nearly everything else, which would surely encourage them all to reconcile. She was preparing for her ninth childbirth; after lamenting the situation and begging for their support as sponsors for the expected child, she couldn’t hide how crucial she felt their help might be for the future support of her eight existing children. Her oldest was a ten-year-old boy, a spirited kid who wanted to explore the world; but what could she do? Was there any chance he could be helpful to Sir Thomas in managing his West Indian estate in the future? No job would be too small for him; what did Sir Thomas think about Woolwich? Or could a boy be sent out to the East?

The letter was not unproductive. It re-established peace and kindness. Sir Thomas sent friendly advice and professions, Lady Bertram dispatched money and baby-linen, and Mrs. Norris wrote the letters.

The letter was quite effective. It restored peace and goodwill. Sir Thomas offered friendly advice and reassurances, Lady Bertram sent money and baby clothes, and Mrs. Norris wrote the letters.

Such were its immediate effects, and within a twelvemonth a more important advantage to Mrs. Price resulted from it. Mrs. Norris was often observing to the others that she could not get her poor sister and her family out of her head, and that, much as they had all done for her, she seemed to be wanting to do more; and at length she could not but own it to be her wish that poor Mrs. Price should be relieved from the charge and expense of one child entirely out of her great number. “What if they were among them to undertake the care of her eldest daughter, a girl now nine years old, of an age to require more attention than her poor mother could possibly give? The trouble and expense of it to them would be nothing, compared with the benevolence of the action.” Lady Bertram agreed with her instantly. “I think we cannot do better,” said she; “let us send for the child.”

Such were its immediate effects, and within a year, a more significant benefit for Mrs. Price came from it. Mrs. Norris often remarked to the others that she couldn't stop thinking about her poor sister and her family, and that, despite all they had done for her, she felt the need to do more; eventually, she had to admit that she wished for Mrs. Price to be relieved of the responsibility and expense of one child from her large family. “What if we took on the care of her eldest daughter, a girl now nine years old, who needs more attention than her poor mother can possibly provide? The trouble and expense for us would be negligible compared to the kindness of the gesture.” Lady Bertram instantly agreed. “I think we can't do better,” she said; “let's send for the child.”

Sir Thomas could not give so instantaneous and unqualified a consent. He debated and hesitated;—it was a serious charge;—a girl so brought up must be adequately provided for, or there would be cruelty instead of kindness in taking her from her family. He thought of his own four children, of his two sons, of cousins in love, etc.;—but no sooner had he deliberately begun to state his objections, than Mrs. Norris interrupted him with a reply to them all, whether stated or not.

Sir Thomas couldn't give an immediate and clear yes. He weighed his options and hesitated; it was a serious matter. A girl raised like that needed to be properly taken care of, or it would be cruel to take her away from her family. He thought about his own four kids, his two sons, and cousins in love, etc.; but as soon as he started to voice his concerns, Mrs. Norris interrupted him with answers to all of them, whether he had stated them or not.

“My dear Sir Thomas, I perfectly comprehend you, and do justice to the generosity and delicacy of your notions, which indeed are quite of a piece with your general conduct; and I entirely agree with you in the main as to the propriety of doing everything one could by way of providing for a child one had in a manner taken into one’s own hands; and I am sure I should be the last person in the world to withhold my mite upon such an occasion. Having no children of my own, who should I look to in any little matter I may ever have to bestow, but the children of my sisters?—and I am sure Mr. Norris is too just—but you know I am a woman of few words and professions. Do not let us be frightened from a good deed by a trifle. Give a girl an education, and introduce her properly into the world, and ten to one but she has the means of settling well, without farther expense to anybody. A niece of ours, Sir Thomas, I may say, or at least of yours, would not grow up in this neighbourhood without many advantages. I don’t say she would be so handsome as her cousins. I dare say she would not; but she would be introduced into the society of this country under such very favourable circumstances as, in all human probability, would get her a creditable establishment. You are thinking of your sons—but do not you know that, of all things upon earth, that is the least likely to happen, brought up as they would be, always together like brothers and sisters? It is morally impossible. I never knew an instance of it. It is, in fact, the only sure way of providing against the connexion. Suppose her a pretty girl, and seen by Tom or Edmund for the first time seven years hence, and I dare say there would be mischief. The very idea of her having been suffered to grow up at a distance from us all in poverty and neglect, would be enough to make either of the dear, sweet-tempered boys in love with her. But breed her up with them from this time, and suppose her even to have the beauty of an angel, and she will never be more to either than a sister.”

“My dear Sir Thomas, I completely understand you and appreciate the generosity and sensitivity of your thoughts, which really align with your usual behavior. I absolutely agree with you that we should do everything we can to provide for a child we’ve taken under our wing, and I’d be the last person to shy away from contributing in any way. Since I have no children of my own, who else would I think of for any little gifts I can give but my sisters' children?—and I’m sure Mr. Norris is fair—but you know I tend to be a woman of few words and declarations. Let’s not let a minor obstacle deter us from doing something good. Provide a girl with an education and introduce her properly to society, and there’s a good chance she’ll be able to secure a respectable future without further burdening anyone. A niece of ours, Sir Thomas, or at least yours, could grow up in this neighborhood with many advantages. I’m not saying she would be as beautiful as her cousins. I doubt she would be; however, she would be introduced into society under such favorable circumstances that it would likely lead to a decent match for her. You might be focused on your sons—but don’t you realize that, of all things on earth, that’s the least likely outcome, with them being raised together like siblings? It’s practically impossible. I’ve never seen it happen. In fact, it’s the only sure way to prevent that from happening. Imagine her as a pretty girl, first noticed by Tom or Edmund seven years from now, and I’m sure there would be trouble. The very thought of her having grown up away from us, in poverty and neglect, would be enough to make either of those dear, sweet boys fall for her. But if you raise her with them from now, even if she has the beauty of an angel, she will never be seen as anything more than a sister.”

“There is a great deal of truth in what you say,” replied Sir Thomas, “and far be it from me to throw any fanciful impediment in the way of a plan which would be so consistent with the relative situations of each. I only meant to observe that it ought not to be lightly engaged in, and that to make it really serviceable to Mrs. Price, and creditable to ourselves, we must secure to the child, or consider ourselves engaged to secure to her hereafter, as circumstances may arise, the provision of a gentlewoman, if no such establishment should offer as you are so sanguine in expecting.”

"There’s a lot of truth in what you’re saying," Sir Thomas replied. "I certainly don’t want to put any silly obstacles in the way of a plan that fits so well with our circumstances. I just wanted to point out that we shouldn’t take this lightly, and to really help Mrs. Price and maintain our own reputation, we need to ensure that the child is provided for, or be committed to doing so in the future, depending on how things develop, if there isn’t an opportunity for a suitable arrangement like you’re so optimistic about."

“I thoroughly understand you,” cried Mrs. Norris, “you are everything that is generous and considerate, and I am sure we shall never disagree on this point. Whatever I can do, as you well know, I am always ready enough to do for the good of those I love; and, though I could never feel for this little girl the hundredth part of the regard I bear your own dear children, nor consider her, in any respect, so much my own, I should hate myself if I were capable of neglecting her. Is not she a sister’s child? and could I bear to see her want while I had a bit of bread to give her? My dear Sir Thomas, with all my faults I have a warm heart; and, poor as I am, would rather deny myself the necessaries of life than do an ungenerous thing. So, if you are not against it, I will write to my poor sister tomorrow, and make the proposal; and, as soon as matters are settled, I will engage to get the child to Mansfield; you shall have no trouble about it. My own trouble, you know, I never regard. I will send Nanny to London on purpose, and she may have a bed at her cousin the saddler’s, and the child be appointed to meet her there. They may easily get her from Portsmouth to town by the coach, under the care of any creditable person that may chance to be going. I dare say there is always some reputable tradesman’s wife or other going up.”

“I completely get you,” Mrs. Norris exclaimed, “you are everything generous and thoughtful, and I’m sure we’ll never disagree on this. Whatever I can do, as you know, I’m always ready to help those I love; and, while I can never care for this little girl even close to how I feel about your own dear children, nor think of her as my own, I would hate myself if I ever neglected her. Isn’t she my sister’s child? How could I stand to see her in need while I have a bit of bread to share? My dear Sir Thomas, despite all my faults, I have a warm heart; and, as poor as I am, I’d rather go without the necessities of life than do something unkind. So, if you’re okay with it, I’ll write to my poor sister tomorrow and propose this; and as soon as everything is settled, I’ll make sure to get the child to Mansfield—you won’t have to worry about that. My own troubles, you know, don’t bother me. I’ll send Nanny to London specifically for this, and she can stay with her cousin the saddler, and the child can meet her there. They can easily get her from Portsmouth to the city by coach, supervised by any reputable person who happens to be traveling. I’m sure there’s always some trustworthy tradesman's wife or someone else going up.”

Except to the attack on Nanny’s cousin, Sir Thomas no longer made any objection, and a more respectable, though less economical rendezvous being accordingly substituted, everything was considered as settled, and the pleasures of so benevolent a scheme were already enjoyed. The division of gratifying sensations ought not, in strict justice, to have been equal; for Sir Thomas was fully resolved to be the real and consistent patron of the selected child, and Mrs. Norris had not the least intention of being at any expense whatever in her maintenance. As far as walking, talking, and contriving reached, she was thoroughly benevolent, and nobody knew better how to dictate liberality to others; but her love of money was equal to her love of directing, and she knew quite as well how to save her own as to spend that of her friends. Having married on a narrower income than she had been used to look forward to, she had, from the first, fancied a very strict line of economy necessary; and what was begun as a matter of prudence, soon grew into a matter of choice, as an object of that needful solicitude which there were no children to supply. Had there been a family to provide for, Mrs. Norris might never have saved her money; but having no care of that kind, there was nothing to impede her frugality, or lessen the comfort of making a yearly addition to an income which they had never lived up to. Under this infatuating principle, counteracted by no real affection for her sister, it was impossible for her to aim at more than the credit of projecting and arranging so expensive a charity; though perhaps she might so little know herself as to walk home to the Parsonage, after this conversation, in the happy belief of being the most liberal-minded sister and aunt in the world.

Except for the issue with Nanny’s cousin, Sir Thomas stopped objecting, and a more respectable, though less budget-friendly meeting place was chosen. As a result, everything seemed settled, and the joys of such a generous plan were already being enjoyed. The enjoyment of these good feelings shouldn’t have been equal, to be completely fair, because Sir Thomas was fully committed to being the real and consistent supporter of the chosen child, while Mrs. Norris had absolutely no intention of spending any money on her care. When it came to walking, talking, and planning, she was very charitable, and no one knew better how to instruct others on generosity; however, her love of money was just as strong as her love of being in control, and she was just as skilled at saving her own money as she was at spending that of her friends. After marrying on a tighter budget than she’d expected, she had always believed a strict economy was necessary; what started as a matter of caution soon became a matter of preference, filling a void of concern that having no children left behind. If she had a family to support, Mrs. Norris might never have saved her money; but with no such responsibilities, there was nothing to hinder her frugality or reduce the satisfaction of adding to an income they never fully utilized. Under this infatuating principle, which was not countered by any real affection for her sister, it was impossible for her to aim for anything more than the reputation of organizing and planning such an expensive charity; though perhaps she might have been unaware enough to walk home to the Parsonage after this conversation, believing herself to be the most open-minded sister and aunt in the world.

When the subject was brought forward again, her views were more fully explained; and, in reply to Lady Bertram’s calm inquiry of “Where shall the child come to first, sister, to you or to us?” Sir Thomas heard with some surprise that it would be totally out of Mrs. Norris’s power to take any share in the personal charge of her. He had been considering her as a particularly welcome addition at the Parsonage, as a desirable companion to an aunt who had no children of her own; but he found himself wholly mistaken. Mrs. Norris was sorry to say that the little girl’s staying with them, at least as things then were, was quite out of the question. Poor Mr. Norris’s indifferent state of health made it an impossibility: he could no more bear the noise of a child than he could fly; if, indeed, he should ever get well of his gouty complaints, it would be a different matter: she should then be glad to take her turn, and think nothing of the inconvenience; but just now, poor Mr. Norris took up every moment of her time, and the very mention of such a thing she was sure would distract him.

When the topic came up again, her opinions were explained in more detail; and in response to Lady Bertram’s calm question of “Where will the child come to first, sister, with you or with us?” Sir Thomas was somewhat surprised to hear that it would be completely impossible for Mrs. Norris to take any personal responsibility for her. He had been thinking of her as a particularly welcome addition to the Parsonage, a desirable companion for an aunt who had no children of her own; but he realized he was entirely mistaken. Mrs. Norris regretfully stated that having the little girl stay with them, at least under the current circumstances, was completely out of the question. Poor Mr. Norris's poor health made it impossible; he could bear the noise of a child no more than he could fly. If he ever did recover from his gout, it would be a different story: she would then be happy to take her turn and wouldn’t mind the inconvenience; but right now, poor Mr. Norris occupied every moment of her time, and even mentioning such a thing she was sure would upset him.

“Then she had better come to us,” said Lady Bertram, with the utmost composure. After a short pause Sir Thomas added with dignity, “Yes, let her home be in this house. We will endeavour to do our duty by her, and she will, at least, have the advantage of companions of her own age, and of a regular instructress.”

“Then she should come to us,” said Lady Bertram, remaining completely composed. After a brief pause, Sir Thomas added with a sense of authority, “Yes, let her make this house her home. We will do our best to support her, and she will, at the very least, benefit from having peers her own age and a proper instructor.”

“Very true,” cried Mrs. Norris, “which are both very important considerations; and it will be just the same to Miss Lee whether she has three girls to teach, or only two—there can be no difference. I only wish I could be more useful; but you see I do all in my power. I am not one of those that spare their own trouble; and Nanny shall fetch her, however it may put me to inconvenience to have my chief counsellor away for three days. I suppose, sister, you will put the child in the little white attic, near the old nurseries. It will be much the best place for her, so near Miss Lee, and not far from the girls, and close by the housemaids, who could either of them help to dress her, you know, and take care of her clothes, for I suppose you would not think it fair to expect Ellis to wait on her as well as the others. Indeed, I do not see that you could possibly place her anywhere else.”

"That’s absolutely true," Mrs. Norris exclaimed. "Both are very important points; and it won't make a difference to Miss Lee whether she has three girls to teach or just two—it's the same either way. I just wish I could be more helpful; but you see I’m doing everything I can. I'm not one to shy away from extra work; and Nanny will bring her, even if it causes me some inconvenience to have my primary advisor gone for three days. I suppose, sister, you'll put the child in the little white attic, near the old nurseries. That would be the best place for her, really close to Miss Lee, not far from the girls, and close to the housemaids, who could help dress her and take care of her clothes, since I assume you wouldn’t want to expect Ellis to wait on her as well as the others. Honestly, I can't see how you could place her anywhere else."

Lady Bertram made no opposition.

Lady Bertram didn't object.

“I hope she will prove a well-disposed girl,” continued Mrs. Norris, “and be sensible of her uncommon good fortune in having such friends.”

“I hope she turns out to be a kind girl,” continued Mrs. Norris, “and realizes how lucky she is to have such great friends.”

“Should her disposition be really bad,” said Sir Thomas, “we must not, for our own children’s sake, continue her in the family; but there is no reason to expect so great an evil. We shall probably see much to wish altered in her, and must prepare ourselves for gross ignorance, some meanness of opinions, and very distressing vulgarity of manner; but these are not incurable faults; nor, I trust, can they be dangerous for her associates. Had my daughters been younger than herself, I should have considered the introduction of such a companion as a matter of very serious moment; but, as it is, I hope there can be nothing to fear for them, and everything to hope for her, from the association.”

“Should her attitude really be terrible,” said Sir Thomas, “for the sake of our own children, we can’t keep her in the family; but there’s no reason to expect such a terrible outcome. We will probably notice a lot we’d like to change about her, and we need to prepare ourselves for some serious ignorance, a few narrow-minded opinions, and very upsetting lack of sophistication; but these are not permanent issues, nor, I hope, will they be harmful to her friends. If my daughters had been younger than she is, I would have viewed bringing in such a companion as a serious concern; but since that’s not the case, I believe there’s nothing to fear for them, and a lot to hope for her from this association.”

“That is exactly what I think,” cried Mrs. Norris, “and what I was saying to my husband this morning. It will be an education for the child, said I, only being with her cousins; if Miss Lee taught her nothing, she would learn to be good and clever from them.”

“That’s exactly what I think,” cried Mrs. Norris, “and what I was telling my husband this morning. It will be an education for the child, I said, just by being with her cousins; even if Miss Lee taught her nothing, she would learn to be good and clever from them.”

“I hope she will not tease my poor pug,” said Lady Bertram; “I have but just got Julia to leave it alone.”

“I hope she doesn’t tease my poor pug,” said Lady Bertram; “I’ve only just gotten Julia to leave it alone.”

“There will be some difficulty in our way, Mrs. Norris,” observed Sir Thomas, “as to the distinction proper to be made between the girls as they grow up: how to preserve in the minds of my daughters the consciousness of what they are, without making them think too lowly of their cousin; and how, without depressing her spirits too far, to make her remember that she is not a Miss Bertram. I should wish to see them very good friends, and would, on no account, authorise in my girls the smallest degree of arrogance towards their relation; but still they cannot be equals. Their rank, fortune, rights, and expectations will always be different. It is a point of great delicacy, and you must assist us in our endeavours to choose exactly the right line of conduct.”

“There will be some challenges ahead, Mrs. Norris,” Sir Thomas noted, “regarding the distinction we need to make between the girls as they grow up: how to keep my daughters aware of their identity without making them look down on their cousin; and how, without bringing her spirits too low, to remind her that she is not a Miss Bertram. I would like to see them be very good friends and would never allow my girls to show any arrogance towards their relative; but still, they cannot be equals. Their social status, wealth, privileges, and future prospects will always be different. This is a sensitive issue, and you must help us in our efforts to find the right approach.”

Mrs. Norris was quite at his service; and though she perfectly agreed with him as to its being a most difficult thing, encouraged him to hope that between them it would be easily managed.

Mrs. Norris was fully at his service, and although she completely agreed that it was a very challenging task, she encouraged him to believe that together they could handle it easily.

It will be readily believed that Mrs. Norris did not write to her sister in vain. Mrs. Price seemed rather surprised that a girl should be fixed on, when she had so many fine boys, but accepted the offer most thankfully, assuring them of her daughter’s being a very well-disposed, good-humoured girl, and trusting they would never have cause to throw her off. She spoke of her farther as somewhat delicate and puny, but was sanguine in the hope of her being materially better for change of air. Poor woman! she probably thought change of air might agree with many of her children.

It’s easy to believe that Mrs. Norris didn’t write to her sister for nothing. Mrs. Price seemed a bit surprised that a girl would be chosen when she had so many handsome boys, but she gratefully accepted the offer, assuring them that her daughter was a very well-behaved, good-natured girl and hoping they would never have a reason to dismiss her. She described her son as a bit delicate and weak but was hopeful that a change of air would help him significantly. Poor woman! She probably thought a change of air might benefit many of her children.

CHAPTER II

The little girl performed her long journey in safety; and at Northampton was met by Mrs. Norris, who thus regaled in the credit of being foremost to welcome her, and in the importance of leading her in to the others, and recommending her to their kindness.

The little girl made her long journey safely, and upon arriving in Northampton, she was greeted by Mrs. Norris, who took pride in being the first to welcome her, leading her to the others, and recommending her to their kindness.

Fanny Price was at this time just ten years old, and though there might not be much in her first appearance to captivate, there was, at least, nothing to disgust her relations. She was small of her age, with no glow of complexion, nor any other striking beauty; exceedingly timid and shy, and shrinking from notice; but her air, though awkward, was not vulgar, her voice was sweet, and when she spoke her countenance was pretty. Sir Thomas and Lady Bertram received her very kindly; and Sir Thomas, seeing how much she needed encouragement, tried to be all that was conciliating: but he had to work against a most untoward gravity of deportment; and Lady Bertram, without taking half so much trouble, or speaking one word where he spoke ten, by the mere aid of a good-humoured smile, became immediately the less awful character of the two.

Fanny Price was just ten years old at this time, and while her first impression might not be captivating, there was certainly nothing about her to repulse her relatives. She was small for her age, with a pale complexion and no standout beauty; very timid and shy, avoiding attention. However, her demeanor, though awkward, was not lacking in grace, her voice was sweet, and when she spoke, her face was quite pleasant. Sir Thomas and Lady Bertram welcomed her warmly, and Sir Thomas, seeing how much encouragement she needed, tried to be as supportive as possible. But he had to contend with her unusually serious demeanor; meanwhile, Lady Bertram, without putting in nearly as much effort or saying as much as he did, quickly became the friendlier of the two simply by offering a cheerful smile.

The young people were all at home, and sustained their share in the introduction very well, with much good humour, and no embarrassment, at least on the part of the sons, who, at seventeen and sixteen, and tall of their age, had all the grandeur of men in the eyes of their little cousin. The two girls were more at a loss from being younger and in greater awe of their father, who addressed them on the occasion with rather an injudicious particularity. But they were too much used to company and praise to have anything like natural shyness; and their confidence increasing from their cousin’s total want of it, they were soon able to take a full survey of her face and her frock in easy indifference.

The young people were all at home, and they handled the introduction well, showing a lot of good humor and no embarrassment, at least on the part of the sons, who at seventeen and sixteen, and tall for their age, appeared quite impressive to their little cousin. The two girls felt more uneasy due to being younger and more intimidated by their father, who addressed them with a bit too much scrutiny on this occasion. However, they were so accustomed to social situations and compliments that they didn’t experience any real shyness. As their confidence grew from their cousin's complete lack of it, they quickly became capable of casually observing her face and her dress without any fuss.

They were a remarkably fine family, the sons very well-looking, the daughters decidedly handsome, and all of them well-grown and forward of their age, which produced as striking a difference between the cousins in person, as education had given to their address; and no one would have supposed the girls so nearly of an age as they really were. There were in fact but two years between the youngest and Fanny. Julia Bertram was only twelve, and Maria but a year older. The little visitor meanwhile was as unhappy as possible. Afraid of everybody, ashamed of herself, and longing for the home she had left, she knew not how to look up, and could scarcely speak to be heard, or without crying. Mrs. Norris had been talking to her the whole way from Northampton of her wonderful good fortune, and the extraordinary degree of gratitude and good behaviour which it ought to produce, and her consciousness of misery was therefore increased by the idea of its being a wicked thing for her not to be happy. The fatigue, too, of so long a journey, became soon no trifling evil. In vain were the well-meant condescensions of Sir Thomas, and all the officious prognostications of Mrs. Norris that she would be a good girl; in vain did Lady Bertram smile and make her sit on the sofa with herself and pug, and vain was even the sight of a gooseberry tart towards giving her comfort; she could scarcely swallow two mouthfuls before tears interrupted her, and sleep seeming to be her likeliest friend, she was taken to finish her sorrows in bed.

They were a really impressive family, the sons very good-looking, the daughters definitely attractive, and all of them well-grown and advanced for their age, which created a striking contrast between the cousins in appearance, just as their education influenced their manners; you would never guess the girls were so close in age. In fact, there were only two years between the youngest and Fanny. Julia Bertram was only twelve, and Maria just a year older. Meanwhile, the little visitor was as unhappy as could be. She was scared of everyone, ashamed of herself, and desperately missing the home she had left; she didn't know how to lift her head and could barely speak without crying. Mrs. Norris had been talking to her the whole way from Northampton about her amazing luck and how grateful and well-behaved she should be, which only made her feel worse for not being happy. The exhaustion from such a long journey also became quite a burden. The well-meaning attempts from Sir Thomas to make her feel at ease, and all of Mrs. Norris's insistences that she would behave well, did nothing; even Lady Bertram's smile and invitation to sit on the sofa with her and the pug didn’t help, and the sight of a gooseberry tart was of no comfort either; she could barely manage two bites before tears interrupted her, so she was taken to bed to escape her sorrows.

“This is not a very promising beginning,” said Mrs. Norris, when Fanny had left the room. “After all that I said to her as we came along, I thought she would have behaved better; I told her how much might depend upon her acquitting herself well at first. I wish there may not be a little sulkiness of temper—her poor mother had a good deal; but we must make allowances for such a child—and I do not know that her being sorry to leave her home is really against her, for, with all its faults, it was her home, and she cannot as yet understand how much she has changed for the better; but then there is moderation in all things.”

“This isn’t a very promising start,” said Mrs. Norris, after Fanny had left the room. “Considering everything I said to her on the way here, I expected her to behave better; I told her how much depended on her doing well at first. I hope she’s not being a bit sulky—her poor mother had quite a bit of that; but we need to be understanding towards a child like her—and I don’t think her being upset about leaving home is necessarily a bad thing, since, despite its faults, it *was* her home, and she can’t fully grasp how much she has improved yet; but still, there should be balance in everything.”

It required a longer time, however, than Mrs. Norris was inclined to allow, to reconcile Fanny to the novelty of Mansfield Park, and the separation from everybody she had been used to. Her feelings were very acute, and too little understood to be properly attended to. Nobody meant to be unkind, but nobody put themselves out of their way to secure her comfort.

It took longer than Mrs. Norris wanted to get Fanny used to the newness of Mansfield Park and the separation from everyone she was familiar with. Her feelings were intense and not fully understood, so they weren’t addressed properly. No one intended to be unkind, but no one went out of their way to ensure her comfort.

The holiday allowed to the Miss Bertrams the next day, on purpose to afford leisure for getting acquainted with, and entertaining their young cousin, produced little union. They could not but hold her cheap on finding that she had but two sashes, and had never learned French; and when they perceived her to be little struck with the duet they were so good as to play, they could do no more than make her a generous present of some of their least valued toys, and leave her to herself, while they adjourned to whatever might be the favourite holiday sport of the moment, making artificial flowers or wasting gold paper.

The holiday given to Miss Bertram the next day was meant to give them time to get to know and entertain their young cousin, but it didn't bring them closer together. They couldn't help but think little of her when they found out she only had two sashes and had never learned French. When they noticed she wasn’t very impressed with the duet they kindly played, they could only give her some of their least valued toys as a generous gift and leave her to herself while they went off to whatever holiday activity they preferred at the moment, like making artificial flowers or wasting gold paper.

Fanny, whether near or from her cousins, whether in the schoolroom, the drawing-room, or the shrubbery, was equally forlorn, finding something to fear in every person and place. She was disheartened by Lady Bertram’s silence, awed by Sir Thomas’s grave looks, and quite overcome by Mrs. Norris’s admonitions. Her elder cousins mortified her by reflections on her size, and abashed her by noticing her shyness: Miss Lee wondered at her ignorance, and the maid-servants sneered at her clothes; and when to these sorrows was added the idea of the brothers and sisters among whom she had always been important as playfellow, instructress, and nurse, the despondence that sunk her little heart was severe.

Fanny, whether close to her cousins or away from them, whether in the classroom, the living room, or the garden, felt equally lonely, finding something to fear in every person and place. She was disheartened by Lady Bertram’s silence, intimidated by Sir Thomas’s serious expressions, and completely overwhelmed by Mrs. Norris’s scoldings. Her older cousins embarrassed her with comments about her size and made her self-conscious by pointing out her shyness: Miss Lee was astonished by her ignorance, and the maids mocked her clothes; and when she added to these troubles the thought of the brothers and sisters who had always seen her as a playmate, teacher, and caregiver, the sadness that weighed down her little heart was intense.

The grandeur of the house astonished, but could not console her. The rooms were too large for her to move in with ease: whatever she touched she expected to injure, and she crept about in constant terror of something or other; often retreating towards her own chamber to cry; and the little girl who was spoken of in the drawing-room when she left it at night as seeming so desirably sensible of her peculiar good fortune, ended every day’s sorrows by sobbing herself to sleep. A week had passed in this way, and no suspicion of it conveyed by her quiet passive manner, when she was found one morning by her cousin Edmund, the youngest of the sons, sitting crying on the attic stairs.

The grandeur of the house was astonishing, but it could not comfort her. The rooms were too big for her to move around easily: she was afraid she would damage anything she touched, and she crept around in constant fear of something or other; often retreating to her own room to cry. The little girl who was mentioned in the drawing room when she left at night as seeming so sensibly aware of her unique good luck ended each day’s troubles by sobbing herself to sleep. A week passed like this, her quiet and passive demeanor giving no hint of it, until one morning, her cousin Edmund, the youngest son, found her sitting and crying on the attic stairs.

“My dear little cousin,” said he, with all the gentleness of an excellent nature, “what can be the matter?” And sitting down by her, he was at great pains to overcome her shame in being so surprised, and persuade her to speak openly. Was she ill? or was anybody angry with her? or had she quarrelled with Maria and Julia? or was she puzzled about anything in her lesson that he could explain? Did she, in short, want anything he could possibly get her, or do for her? For a long while no answer could be obtained beyond a “no, no—not at all—no, thank you”; but he still persevered; and no sooner had he begun to revert to her own home, than her increased sobs explained to him where the grievance lay. He tried to console her.

“My dear little cousin,” he said, with all the kindness of a good person, “what's wrong?” He sat down beside her and worked hard to ease her embarrassment at being caught off guard and to get her to open up. Was she sick? Was someone upset with her? Did she have a fight with Maria and Julia? Or was she confused about something in her lesson that he could help her with? Did she, in short, need anything he could possibly get or do for her? For a long time, he couldn’t get any response except for a “no, no—not at all—no, thank you,” but he kept trying. As soon as he started to bring up her home, her louder sobs told him what the problem was. He tried to comfort her.

“You are sorry to leave Mama, my dear little Fanny,” said he, “which shows you to be a very good girl; but you must remember that you are with relations and friends, who all love you, and wish to make you happy. Let us walk out in the park, and you shall tell me all about your brothers and sisters.”

“You’re sad to leave Mama, my dear little Fanny,” he said, “which shows that you’re a really good girl; but you need to remember that you’re with family and friends who all love you and want to make you happy. Let’s go for a walk in the park, and you can tell me all about your brothers and sisters.”

On pursuing the subject, he found that, dear as all these brothers and sisters generally were, there was one among them who ran more in her thoughts than the rest. It was William whom she talked of most, and wanted most to see. William, the eldest, a year older than herself, her constant companion and friend; her advocate with her mother (of whom he was the darling) in every distress. “William did not like she should come away; he had told her he should miss her very much indeed.” “But William will write to you, I dare say.” “Yes, he had promised he would, but he had told her to write first.” “And when shall you do it?” She hung her head and answered hesitatingly, “she did not know; she had not any paper.”

On looking into the matter, he realized that, as dear as all of his brothers and sisters generally were, there was one who occupied her thoughts more than the others. It was William who she talked about the most and wanted to see the most. William, the eldest, a year older than her, her constant companion and friend; her supporter with their mother (who doted on him) during every trouble. “William didn’t want her to leave; he told her he would really miss her.” “But William will write to you, I’m sure.” “Yes, he promised he would, but he told her to write first.” “And when will you do that?” She lowered her head and replied hesitantly, “I don’t know; I don’t have any paper.”

“If that be all your difficulty, I will furnish you with paper and every other material, and you may write your letter whenever you choose. Would it make you happy to write to William?”

“If that’s all your trouble, I’ll provide you with paper and everything else you need, and you can write your letter whenever you want. Would it make you happy to write to William?”

“Yes, very.”

“Yeah, definitely.”

“Then let it be done now. Come with me into the breakfast-room, we shall find everything there, and be sure of having the room to ourselves.”

“Then let’s do this now. Come with me to the breakfast room; we’ll find everything there and can be sure we’ll have the room to ourselves.”

“But, cousin, will it go to the post?”

“But, cousin, will it go to the post office?”

“Yes, depend upon me it shall: it shall go with the other letters; and, as your uncle will frank it, it will cost William nothing.”

“Yes, you can count on me for that: it will go along with the other letters; and since your uncle will cover the postage, it won't cost William anything.”

“My uncle!” repeated Fanny, with a frightened look.

“My uncle!” Fanny repeated, her expression filled with fear.

“Yes, when you have written the letter, I will take it to my father to frank.”

“Yes, once you’ve written the letter, I’ll take it to my dad to get it stamped.”

Fanny thought it a bold measure, but offered no further resistance; and they went together into the breakfast-room, where Edmund prepared her paper, and ruled her lines with all the goodwill that her brother could himself have felt, and probably with somewhat more exactness. He continued with her the whole time of her writing, to assist her with his penknife or his orthography, as either were wanted; and added to these attentions, which she felt very much, a kindness to her brother which delighted her beyond all the rest. He wrote with his own hand his love to his cousin William, and sent him half a guinea under the seal. Fanny’s feelings on the occasion were such as she believed herself incapable of expressing; but her countenance and a few artless words fully conveyed all their gratitude and delight, and her cousin began to find her an interesting object. He talked to her more, and, from all that she said, was convinced of her having an affectionate heart, and a strong desire of doing right; and he could perceive her to be farther entitled to attention by great sensibility of her situation, and great timidity. He had never knowingly given her pain, but he now felt that she required more positive kindness; and with that view endeavoured, in the first place, to lessen her fears of them all, and gave her especially a great deal of good advice as to playing with Maria and Julia, and being as merry as possible.

Fanny thought it was a bold move but didn’t push back any further; they headed into the breakfast room together, where Edmund prepared her paper and ruled her lines with all the enthusiasm her brother would have had, probably with even more accuracy. He stayed by her side the entire time she was writing, helping her with his penknife or spelling whenever needed. Along with these gestures, which she appreciated greatly, he showed a kindness to his brother that made her extremely happy. He wrote a note by hand to his cousin William, sending him half a guinea along with it. Fanny felt such intense emotions that she thought she couldn’t express them, but her expression and a few simple words conveyed all her gratitude and joy, making her cousin find her increasingly interesting. He talked to her more, and from everything she said, he was convinced that she had a loving heart and a strong desire to do the right thing; he could also see that she deserved attention because of her great sensitivity to her circumstances and her shyness. He had never intentionally hurt her, but now he realized that she needed more direct kindness, so he first tried to ease her fears about them all and gave her a lot of good advice about playing with Maria and Julia and being as cheerful as possible.

From this day Fanny grew more comfortable. She felt that she had a friend, and the kindness of her cousin Edmund gave her better spirits with everybody else. The place became less strange, and the people less formidable; and if there were some amongst them whom she could not cease to fear, she began at least to know their ways, and to catch the best manner of conforming to them. The little rusticities and awkwardnesses which had at first made grievous inroads on the tranquillity of all, and not least of herself, necessarily wore away, and she was no longer materially afraid to appear before her uncle, nor did her aunt Norris’s voice make her start very much. To her cousins she became occasionally an acceptable companion. Though unworthy, from inferiority of age and strength, to be their constant associate, their pleasures and schemes were sometimes of a nature to make a third very useful, especially when that third was of an obliging, yielding temper; and they could not but own, when their aunt inquired into her faults, or their brother Edmund urged her claims to their kindness, that “Fanny was good-natured enough.”

From this day on, Fanny felt more at ease. She realized she had a friend, and her cousin Edmund's kindness lifted her spirits around everyone else. The place didn’t feel as strange, and the people seemed less intimidating; and while she still felt some fear towards a few of them, she started to understand their ways and figured out how to fit in better. The little awkward moments that had initially disturbed everyone, especially her, gradually faded, and she was no longer really afraid to be in front of her uncle, nor did her aunt Norris's voice make her jump as much. With her cousins, she sometimes became a welcome companion. Even though she wasn't as strong or as old as they were to be with them all the time, their activities and plans sometimes benefited from having a third person, especially when that person was easygoing and adaptable. They couldn't help but agree, when their aunt asked about her shortcomings or their brother Edmund defended her right to their friendship, that “Fanny was good-natured enough.”

Edmund was uniformly kind himself; and she had nothing worse to endure on the part of Tom than that sort of merriment which a young man of seventeen will always think fair with a child of ten. He was just entering into life, full of spirits, and with all the liberal dispositions of an eldest son, who feels born only for expense and enjoyment. His kindness to his little cousin was consistent with his situation and rights: he made her some very pretty presents, and laughed at her.

Edmund was always kind, and the only annoying thing she had to deal with from Tom was the kind of teasing that a 17-year-old thinks is okay to do with a 10-year-old. He was just starting to explore life, full of energy and all the carefree attitudes of the oldest son who feels like he was born to spend money and have fun. His kindness to his little cousin matched his position and privileges: he gave her some really nice gifts and laughed at her.

As her appearance and spirits improved, Sir Thomas and Mrs. Norris thought with greater satisfaction of their benevolent plan; and it was pretty soon decided between them that, though far from clever, she showed a tractable disposition, and seemed likely to give them little trouble. A mean opinion of her abilities was not confined to them. Fanny could read, work, and write, but she had been taught nothing more; and as her cousins found her ignorant of many things with which they had been long familiar, they thought her prodigiously stupid, and for the first two or three weeks were continually bringing some fresh report of it into the drawing-room. “Dear mama, only think, my cousin cannot put the map of Europe together—or my cousin cannot tell the principal rivers in Russia—or, she never heard of Asia Minor—or she does not know the difference between water-colours and crayons!—How strange!—Did you ever hear anything so stupid?”

As her looks and mood improved, Sir Thomas and Mrs. Norris felt increasingly pleased with their kind intention; and it was soon decided between them that, although she wasn't particularly bright, she seemed easy to manage and likely to cause them minimal trouble. Their low opinion of her abilities wasn't just shared by them. Fanny could read, sew, and write, but she hadn't been taught anything beyond that; and since her cousins found her clueless about many things they had known for a long time, they thought she was incredibly dull, and for the first couple of weeks, they were constantly bringing some new report of it into the living room. “Mom, can you believe it, my cousin can’t put the map of Europe together—or my cousin doesn’t know the main rivers in Russia—or she’s never heard of Asia Minor—or she doesn’t know the difference between watercolors and crayons!—How strange!—Have you ever heard anything so dumb?”

“My dear,” their considerate aunt would reply, “it is very bad, but you must not expect everybody to be as forward and quick at learning as yourself.”

“My dear,” their thoughtful aunt would reply, “it’s really unfortunate, but you can’t expect everyone to be as eager and fast at learning as you are.”

“But, aunt, she is really so very ignorant!—Do you know, we asked her last night which way she would go to get to Ireland; and she said, she should cross to the Isle of Wight. She thinks of nothing but the Isle of Wight, and she calls it the Island, as if there were no other island in the world. I am sure I should have been ashamed of myself, if I had not known better long before I was so old as she is. I cannot remember the time when I did not know a great deal that she has not the least notion of yet. How long ago it is, aunt, since we used to repeat the chronological order of the kings of England, with the dates of their accession, and most of the principal events of their reigns!”

“But, aunt, she is really so very clueless! Do you know, we asked her last night which way she would go to get to Ireland, and she said she would cross to the Isle of Wight. She thinks about nothing but the Isle of Wight, and she calls it the Island, as if there were no other island in the world. I would be embarrassed if I didn’t know better long before I was her age. I can’t remember a time when I didn’t know a lot of things that she hasn’t a clue about yet. How long has it been, aunt, since we used to recite the chronological order of the kings of England, with the dates they came to power and most of the major events of their reigns!”

“Yes,” added the other; “and of the Roman emperors as low as Severus; besides a great deal of the heathen mythology, and all the metals, semi-metals, planets, and distinguished philosophers.”

“Yes,” added the other; “and of the Roman emperors down to Severus; plus a lot about pagan mythology, and all the metals, semi-metals, planets, and notable philosophers.”

“Very true indeed, my dears, but you are blessed with wonderful memories, and your poor cousin has probably none at all. There is a vast deal of difference in memories, as well as in everything else, and therefore you must make allowance for your cousin, and pity her deficiency. And remember that, if you are ever so forward and clever yourselves, you should always be modest; for, much as you know already, there is a great deal more for you to learn.”

“Very true indeed, my dears, but you have great memories, and your poor cousin probably has none at all. Memories can vary a lot, just like everything else, so you need to be understanding toward your cousin and feel sorry for her lack. And remember that, no matter how confident and smart you think you are, you should always stay humble; because, even with what you already know, there’s still a lot more for you to learn.”

“Yes, I know there is, till I am seventeen. But I must tell you another thing of Fanny, so odd and so stupid. Do you know, she says she does not want to learn either music or drawing.”

“Yes, I know there is, until I turn seventeen. But I have to tell you something else about Fanny that’s so strange and silly. Do you know she says she doesn’t want to learn music or drawing either?”

“To be sure, my dear, that is very stupid indeed, and shows a great want of genius and emulation. But, all things considered, I do not know whether it is not as well that it should be so, for, though you know (owing to me) your papa and mama are so good as to bring her up with you, it is not at all necessary that she should be as accomplished as you are;—on the contrary, it is much more desirable that there should be a difference.”

"Honestly, my dear, that's really quite foolish and shows a lack of talent and ambition. But all things considered, I'm not sure it's such a bad thing, because even though you know (thanks to me) that your mom and dad are kind enough to raise her alongside you, it’s not at all necessary for her to be as skilled as you are; in fact, it’s much better if there’s a distinction."

Such were the counsels by which Mrs. Norris assisted to form her nieces’ minds; and it is not very wonderful that, with all their promising talents and early information, they should be entirely deficient in the less common acquirements of self-knowledge, generosity and humility. In everything but disposition they were admirably taught. Sir Thomas did not know what was wanting, because, though a truly anxious father, he was not outwardly affectionate, and the reserve of his manner repressed all the flow of their spirits before him.

These were the ways Mrs. Norris helped shape her nieces' minds; it's hardly surprising that, despite their promising skills and early knowledge, they completely lacked the rarer qualities of self-awareness, generosity, and humility. In every aspect except their personalities, they received excellent education. Sir Thomas didn't realize what was lacking because, although he was genuinely concerned as a father, he wasn't openly affectionate, and his reserved demeanor stifled their natural enthusiasm around him.

To the education of her daughters Lady Bertram paid not the smallest attention. She had not time for such cares. She was a woman who spent her days in sitting, nicely dressed, on a sofa, doing some long piece of needlework, of little use and no beauty, thinking more of her pug than her children, but very indulgent to the latter when it did not put herself to inconvenience, guided in everything important by Sir Thomas, and in smaller concerns by her sister. Had she possessed greater leisure for the service of her girls, she would probably have supposed it unnecessary, for they were under the care of a governess, with proper masters, and could want nothing more. As for Fanny’s being stupid at learning, “she could only say it was very unlucky, but some people were stupid, and Fanny must take more pains: she did not know what else was to be done; and, except her being so dull, she must add she saw no harm in the poor little thing, and always found her very handy and quick in carrying messages, and fetching what she wanted.”

Lady Bertram paid no attention to her daughters' education. She didn't have time for that. She was a woman who spent her days sitting on a sofa, nicely dressed, doing some long piece of needlework that was neither useful nor beautiful, caring more about her pug than her children, but she was very indulgent to her kids as long as it didn’t inconvenience her. She relied on Sir Thomas for important decisions and her sister for smaller matters. If she had more time to devote to her daughters, she probably would have thought it wasn't necessary since they had a governess and proper instructors, so they should be fine. As for Fanny being slow at learning, “she could only say it was very unfortunate, but some people were just slow, and Fanny needed to try harder: she didn’t know what else to do; and aside from her being so dull, she had to say she saw no harm in the poor little thing and always found her very helpful and quick at running errands and getting what she needed.”

Fanny, with all her faults of ignorance and timidity, was fixed at Mansfield Park, and learning to transfer in its favour much of her attachment to her former home, grew up there not unhappily among her cousins. There was no positive ill-nature in Maria or Julia; and though Fanny was often mortified by their treatment of her, she thought too lowly of her own claims to feel injured by it.

Fanny, despite her flaws of naivety and shyness, settled at Mansfield Park and began to redirect much of her affection for her previous home toward it, growing up there fairly content among her cousins. Maria and Julia weren't outright mean; although Fanny was frequently hurt by how they treated her, she undervalued her own worth enough not to feel truly wronged by it.

From about the time of her entering the family, Lady Bertram, in consequence of a little ill-health, and a great deal of indolence, gave up the house in town, which she had been used to occupy every spring, and remained wholly in the country, leaving Sir Thomas to attend his duty in Parliament, with whatever increase or diminution of comfort might arise from her absence. In the country, therefore, the Miss Bertrams continued to exercise their memories, practise their duets, and grow tall and womanly: and their father saw them becoming in person, manner, and accomplishments, everything that could satisfy his anxiety. His eldest son was careless and extravagant, and had already given him much uneasiness; but his other children promised him nothing but good. His daughters, he felt, while they retained the name of Bertram, must be giving it new grace, and in quitting it, he trusted, would extend its respectable alliances; and the character of Edmund, his strong good sense and uprightness of mind, bid most fairly for utility, honour, and happiness to himself and all his connexions. He was to be a clergyman.

From the time she joined the family, Lady Bertram, due to some health issues and a lot of laziness, stopped going to the house in town that she usually occupied every spring and stayed entirely in the country, leaving Sir Thomas to handle his duties in Parliament with whatever impact her absence had on his comfort. So, in the countryside, the Miss Bertrams continued to work on their memories, practice their duets, and grow taller and more graceful: their father watched them become everything he hoped for in terms of looks, behavior, and skills. His eldest son was careless and extravagant, causing him a lot of worry; however, his other children promised nothing but good. He felt that while his daughters kept the Bertram name, they were adding to its charm, and by marrying, he hoped they would further enhance its respectable connections. Edmund, with his strong common sense and integrity, seemed likely to bring utility, honor, and happiness to himself and everyone connected to him. He was meant to be a clergyman.

Amid the cares and the complacency which his own children suggested, Sir Thomas did not forget to do what he could for the children of Mrs. Price: he assisted her liberally in the education and disposal of her sons as they became old enough for a determinate pursuit; and Fanny, though almost totally separated from her family, was sensible of the truest satisfaction in hearing of any kindness towards them, or of anything at all promising in their situation or conduct. Once, and once only, in the course of many years, had she the happiness of being with William. Of the rest she saw nothing: nobody seemed to think of her ever going amongst them again, even for a visit, nobody at home seemed to want her; but William determining, soon after her removal, to be a sailor, was invited to spend a week with his sister in Northamptonshire before he went to sea. Their eager affection in meeting, their exquisite delight in being together, their hours of happy mirth, and moments of serious conference, may be imagined; as well as the sanguine views and spirits of the boy even to the last, and the misery of the girl when he left her. Luckily the visit happened in the Christmas holidays, when she could directly look for comfort to her cousin Edmund; and he told her such charming things of what William was to do, and be hereafter, in consequence of his profession, as made her gradually admit that the separation might have some use. Edmund’s friendship never failed her: his leaving Eton for Oxford made no change in his kind dispositions, and only afforded more frequent opportunities of proving them. Without any display of doing more than the rest, or any fear of doing too much, he was always true to her interests, and considerate of her feelings, trying to make her good qualities understood, and to conquer the diffidence which prevented their being more apparent; giving her advice, consolation, and encouragement.

Amid the worries and contentment that his own children brought, Sir Thomas didn't forget to help Mrs. Price's children as much as he could. He generously supported her in educating and finding suitable paths for her sons as they grew old enough to choose a career. Fanny, though mostly cut off from her family, felt a genuine sense of happiness whenever she heard about any kindness directed towards them or anything promising about their situation or behavior. Once, and only once, over many years, she had the joy of being with William. She didn't see the others; no one seemed to think of inviting her to visit, and no one at home seemed to miss her. However, William, deciding to become a sailor shortly after she was sent away, was invited to spend a week with his sister in Northamptonshire before he set off to sea. Their enthusiastic affection when they reunited, their immense joy in being together, their hours of cheerful laughter, and moments of serious discussion can be imagined, along with the hopeful outlook and spirit of the boy until the very end, and the heartbreak of the girl when he left. Fortunately, the visit took place during the Christmas holidays, allowing her to seek comfort from her cousin Edmund. He shared such wonderful things about what William would do and become in the future because of his profession that made her gradually accept that the separation might have some benefit. Edmund's friendship never wavered; his move from Eton to Oxford didn't change his kind nature, but rather provided more chances to show it. Without trying to outdo anyone else or fearing he'd do too much, he was always loyal to her interests and mindful of her feelings, working to make her strengths clear and help overcome the shyness that kept them from being more obvious, offering her advice, comfort, and encouragement.

Kept back as she was by everybody else, his single support could not bring her forward; but his attentions were otherwise of the highest importance in assisting the improvement of her mind, and extending its pleasures. He knew her to be clever, to have a quick apprehension as well as good sense, and a fondness for reading, which, properly directed, must be an education in itself. Miss Lee taught her French, and heard her read the daily portion of history; but he recommended the books which charmed her leisure hours, he encouraged her taste, and corrected her judgment: he made reading useful by talking to her of what she read, and heightened its attraction by judicious praise. In return for such services she loved him better than anybody in the world except William: her heart was divided between the two.

Held back by everyone else, his support alone couldn’t bring her forward; but his attention was incredibly important for helping her mind develop and enhancing her enjoyment. He recognized her intelligence, her quick understanding, and her love for reading, which, if guided properly, could be an education in itself. Miss Lee taught her French and listened to her read the daily history lesson; but he suggested the books that captivated her free time, encouraged her interests, and refined her judgment. He made reading valuable by discussing it with her and increased its appeal with thoughtful praise. In return for his support, she loved him more than anyone else in the world except William: her heart was torn between the two.

CHAPTER III

The first event of any importance in the family was the death of Mr. Norris, which happened when Fanny was about fifteen, and necessarily introduced alterations and novelties. Mrs. Norris, on quitting the Parsonage, removed first to the Park, and afterwards to a small house of Sir Thomas’s in the village, and consoled herself for the loss of her husband by considering that she could do very well without him; and for her reduction of income by the evident necessity of stricter economy.

The first significant event in the family was the death of Mr. Norris, which occurred when Fanny was around fifteen and naturally brought about changes and new situations. After leaving the Parsonage, Mrs. Norris moved first to the Park and then to a small house owned by Sir Thomas in the village. She comforted herself over the loss of her husband by telling herself that she could manage perfectly fine without him, and for the decrease in her income, she acknowledged the need for tighter budgeting.

The living was hereafter for Edmund; and, had his uncle died a few years sooner, it would have been duly given to some friend to hold till he were old enough for orders. But Tom’s extravagance had, previous to that event, been so great as to render a different disposal of the next presentation necessary, and the younger brother must help to pay for the pleasures of the elder. There was another family living actually held for Edmund; but though this circumstance had made the arrangement somewhat easier to Sir Thomas’s conscience, he could not but feel it to be an act of injustice, and he earnestly tried to impress his eldest son with the same conviction, in the hope of its producing a better effect than anything he had yet been able to say or do.

From now on, the living was for Edmund. If his uncle had died a few years earlier, it would have been given to a friend to hold until Edmund was old enough to take orders. However, Tom’s spending had been so excessive before that event that a different arrangement for the next presentation became necessary, and the younger brother had to help cover the costs of the older brother's lifestyle. There was another family living already set aside for Edmund, but while this made it a bit easier for Sir Thomas’s conscience, he couldn’t help but see it as unfair. He earnestly tried to convey this same belief to his eldest son, hoping it would have a greater impact than anything he had said or done before.

“I blush for you, Tom,” said he, in his most dignified manner; “I blush for the expedient which I am driven on, and I trust I may pity your feelings as a brother on the occasion. You have robbed Edmund for ten, twenty, thirty years, perhaps for life, of more than half the income which ought to be his. It may hereafter be in my power, or in yours (I hope it will), to procure him better preferment; but it must not be forgotten that no benefit of that sort would have been beyond his natural claims on us, and that nothing can, in fact, be an equivalent for the certain advantage which he is now obliged to forego through the urgency of your debts.”

“I’m embarrassed for you, Tom,” he said in his most dignified way; “I’m embarrassed by the situation I’m forced into, and I hope you’ll understand my feelings as a brother in this matter. You’ve taken from Edmund for ten, twenty, thirty years, maybe even for life, more than half the income that should be his. In the future, it may be within my power, or yours (I hope it will be), to help him achieve better opportunities; but we must remember that no benefit like that would be more than his natural entitlement from us, and that nothing can truly make up for the certain advantages he has to give up because of your pressing debts.”

Tom listened with some shame and some sorrow; but escaping as quickly as possible, could soon with cheerful selfishness reflect, firstly, that he had not been half so much in debt as some of his friends; secondly, that his father had made a most tiresome piece of work of it; and, thirdly, that the future incumbent, whoever he might be, would, in all probability, die very soon.

Tom listened with a mix of shame and sadness; but as he quickly escaped, he could soon cheerfully think, first, that he wasn’t nearly as deep in debt as some of his friends; second, that his dad had really made it a tedious situation; and third, that the next person taking over, whoever they were, would probably not last long.

On Mr. Norris’s death the presentation became the right of a Dr. Grant, who came consequently to reside at Mansfield; and on proving to be a hearty man of forty-five, seemed likely to disappoint Mr. Bertram’s calculations. But “no, he was a short-necked, apoplectic sort of fellow, and, plied well with good things, would soon pop off.”

On Mr. Norris's death, the presentation went to Dr. Grant, who then moved to Mansfield. At forty-five, he seemed like he would defy Mr. Bertram's expectations. But "no, he was a short-necked, apoplectic type, and if he kept indulging, he wouldn't last long."

He had a wife about fifteen years his junior, but no children; and they entered the neighbourhood with the usual fair report of being very respectable, agreeable people.

He had a wife who was about fifteen years younger than him, but they had no children; and they moved into the neighborhood with the usual good reputation of being very respectable and pleasant people.

The time was now come when Sir Thomas expected his sister-in-law to claim her share in their niece, the change in Mrs. Norris’s situation, and the improvement in Fanny’s age, seeming not merely to do away any former objection to their living together, but even to give it the most decided eligibility; and as his own circumstances were rendered less fair than heretofore, by some recent losses on his West India estate, in addition to his eldest son’s extravagance, it became not undesirable to himself to be relieved from the expense of her support, and the obligation of her future provision. In the fullness of his belief that such a thing must be, he mentioned its probability to his wife; and the first time of the subject’s occurring to her again happening to be when Fanny was present, she calmly observed to her, “So, Fanny, you are going to leave us, and live with my sister. How shall you like it?”

The time had come when Sir Thomas expected his sister-in-law to claim her share in their niece. The change in Mrs. Norris’s situation and Fanny’s age seemed not only to remove any previous objections to their living together but also to make it quite suitable. Since his own circumstances had become less favorable due to some recent losses on his West India estate and his eldest son’s extravagance, he was not unhappy about being relieved from the cost of her support and the responsibility for her future. Confident that this would happen, he mentioned the possibility to his wife. The first time the subject came up again, while Fanny was present, she calmly said to her, “So, Fanny, you are going to leave us and live with my sister. How will you like it?”

Fanny was too much surprised to do more than repeat her aunt’s words, “Going to leave you?”

Fanny was so surprised that she could only repeat her aunt’s words, “Going to leave you?”

“Yes, my dear; why should you be astonished? You have been five years with us, and my sister always meant to take you when Mr. Norris died. But you must come up and tack on my patterns all the same.”

“Yes, my dear; why are you surprised? You've been with us for five years, and my sister always planned to take you when Mr. Norris passed away. But you should still come up and attach my patterns anyway.”

The news was as disagreeable to Fanny as it had been unexpected. She had never received kindness from her aunt Norris, and could not love her.

The news was just as unpleasant for Fanny as it was unexpected. She had never experienced kindness from her Aunt Norris and couldn't bring herself to love her.

“I shall be very sorry to go away,” said she, with a faltering voice.

“I’ll be really sad to leave,” she said, her voice shaking.

“Yes, I dare say you will; that’s natural enough. I suppose you have had as little to vex you since you came into this house as any creature in the world.”

“Yes, I’m sure you will; that’s only natural. I guess you’ve had as few worries since you arrived in this house as anyone else in the world.”

“I hope I am not ungrateful, aunt,” said Fanny modestly.

"I hope I'm not being ungrateful, Aunt," Fanny said modestly.

“No, my dear; I hope not. I have always found you a very good girl.”

“No, my dear; I hope not. I’ve always thought you were a very good girl.”

“And am I never to live here again?”

“And am I never going to live here again?”

“Never, my dear; but you are sure of a comfortable home. It can make very little difference to you, whether you are in one house or the other.”

“Never, my dear; but you can always count on a comfortable home. It really doesn’t make much difference to you whether you’re in one house or the other.”

Fanny left the room with a very sorrowful heart; she could not feel the difference to be so small, she could not think of living with her aunt with anything like satisfaction. As soon as she met with Edmund she told him her distress.

Fanny left the room with a heavy heart; she couldn't see the difference as insignificant, and she couldn't imagine living with her aunt happily. As soon as she saw Edmund, she shared her distress with him.

“Cousin,” said she, “something is going to happen which I do not like at all; and though you have often persuaded me into being reconciled to things that I disliked at first, you will not be able to do it now. I am going to live entirely with my aunt Norris.”

“Cousin,” she said, “something is going to happen that I really don’t like; and even though you’ve often convinced me to accept things I didn’t like at first, you won’t be able to do that this time. I’m going to live completely with my Aunt Norris.”

“Indeed!”

"Absolutely!"

“Yes; my aunt Bertram has just told me so. It is quite settled. I am to leave Mansfield Park, and go to the White House, I suppose, as soon as she is removed there.”

“Yes; my Aunt Bertram just told me that. It's all settled. I'm supposed to leave Mansfield Park and head to the White House, I guess, as soon as she gets moved there.”

“Well, Fanny, and if the plan were not unpleasant to you, I should call it an excellent one.”

“Well, Fanny, if the plan didn’t bother you, I’d say it’s a great one.”

“Oh, cousin!”

“Oh, cousin!”

“It has everything else in its favour. My aunt is acting like a sensible woman in wishing for you. She is choosing a friend and companion exactly where she ought, and I am glad her love of money does not interfere. You will be what you ought to be to her. I hope it does not distress you very much, Fanny?”

“It has everything else going for it. My aunt is being reasonable in wanting you. She is picking a friend and companion exactly where she should, and I’m glad her love of money isn’t getting in the way. You will be what you need to be for her. I hope this doesn’t upset you too much, Fanny?”

“Indeed it does: I cannot like it. I love this house and everything in it: I shall love nothing there. You know how uncomfortable I feel with her.”

“Honestly, it doesn’t: I can’t stand it. I love this house and everything in it: I won’t love anything there. You know how uneasy I feel around her.”

“I can say nothing for her manner to you as a child; but it was the same with us all, or nearly so. She never knew how to be pleasant to children. But you are now of an age to be treated better; I think she is behaving better already; and when you are her only companion, you must be important to her.”

“I can't speak for how she treated you as a child, but it was pretty much the same for all of us. She never really knew how to be kind to kids. But you're now old enough to deserve better treatment; I think she's improving already; and when you're her only friend, you must be significant to her.”

“I can never be important to any one.”

“I can never be important to anyone.”

“What is to prevent you?”

“What’s stopping you?”

“Everything. My situation, my foolishness and awkwardness.”

“Everything. My circumstances, my stupidity, and my clumsiness.”

“As to your foolishness and awkwardness, my dear Fanny, believe me, you never have a shadow of either, but in using the words so improperly. There is no reason in the world why you should not be important where you are known. You have good sense, and a sweet temper, and I am sure you have a grateful heart, that could never receive kindness without wishing to return it. I do not know any better qualifications for a friend and companion.”

“As for your foolishness and awkwardness, my dear Fanny, trust me, you don’t have an ounce of either, except when you misuse words. There’s no reason at all why you shouldn’t be appreciated where you’re known. You have common sense, a kind disposition, and I’m sure you have a grateful heart that could never accept kindness without wanting to give it back. I can’t think of any better qualities in a friend and companion.”

“You are too kind,” said Fanny, colouring at such praise; “how shall I ever thank you as I ought, for thinking so well of me. Oh! cousin, if I am to go away, I shall remember your goodness to the last moment of my life.”

“You're too kind,” said Fanny, blushing at such praise; “how will I ever thank you properly for thinking so highly of me? Oh! cousin, if I have to leave, I’ll remember your kindness for the rest of my life.”

“Why, indeed, Fanny, I should hope to be remembered at such a distance as the White House. You speak as if you were going two hundred miles off instead of only across the park; but you will belong to us almost as much as ever. The two families will be meeting every day in the year. The only difference will be that, living with your aunt, you will necessarily be brought forward as you ought to be. Here there are too many whom you can hide behind; but with her you will be forced to speak for yourself.”

“Why, really, Fanny, I hope to be remembered even from a place as far away as the White House. You talk as if you were going two hundred miles instead of just across the park; but you will still be part of us just as much as before. The two families will see each other every day of the year. The only difference is that, living with your aunt, you’ll naturally be put in the spotlight as you should be. Here, there are too many people for you to hide behind; but with her, you’ll have to speak up for yourself.”

“Oh! do not say so.”

“Oh! Don’t say that.”

“I must say it, and say it with pleasure. Mrs. Norris is much better fitted than my mother for having the charge of you now. She is of a temper to do a great deal for anybody she really interests herself about, and she will force you to do justice to your natural powers.”

“I have to say this, and I'm happy to say it. Mrs. Norris is much more suited than my mother to take care of you right now. She has the kind of disposition that can do a lot for anyone she truly cares about, and she'll make sure you make the most of your natural abilities.”

Fanny sighed, and said, “I cannot see things as you do; but I ought to believe you to be right rather than myself, and I am very much obliged to you for trying to reconcile me to what must be. If I could suppose my aunt really to care for me, it would be delightful to feel myself of consequence to anybody. Here, I know, I am of none, and yet I love the place so well.”

Fanny sighed and said, “I can't see things the way you do; but I should probably trust that you’re right instead of myself, and I really appreciate you trying to help me accept what has to happen. If I could believe that my aunt actually cared about me, it would be wonderful to feel like I matter to someone. Here, I know I don’t, and yet I love this place so much.”

“The place, Fanny, is what you will not quit, though you quit the house. You will have as free a command of the park and gardens as ever. Even your constant little heart need not take fright at such a nominal change. You will have the same walks to frequent, the same library to choose from, the same people to look at, the same horse to ride.”

“The place, Fanny, is something you won't leave behind, even if you leave the house. You’ll have as much access to the park and gardens as you always did. Even your consistent little heart doesn’t need to worry about such a minor change. You’ll have the same paths to stroll, the same library to pick from, the same people to observe, and the same horse to ride.”

“Very true. Yes, dear old grey pony! Ah! cousin, when I remember how much I used to dread riding, what terrors it gave me to hear it talked of as likely to do me good (oh! how I have trembled at my uncle’s opening his lips if horses were talked of), and then think of the kind pains you took to reason and persuade me out of my fears, and convince me that I should like it after a little while, and feel how right you proved to be, I am inclined to hope you may always prophesy as well.”

“Absolutely. Yes, dear old grey pony! Ah! Cousin, when I think about how much I used to fear riding, how terrified I was to hear people say it would do me good (oh! how I used to shake when my uncle would start talking about horses), and then remember all the kind effort you made to talk me through my fears, convincing me that I would enjoy it after a bit, and realizing how right you were, I can't help but hope that you’ll always make such accurate predictions.”

“And I am quite convinced that your being with Mrs. Norris will be as good for your mind as riding has been for your health, and as much for your ultimate happiness too.”

“And I am completely convinced that spending time with Mrs. Norris will be just as beneficial for your mind as riding has been for your health, and just as important for your overall happiness too.”

So ended their discourse, which, for any very appropriate service it could render Fanny, might as well have been spared, for Mrs. Norris had not the smallest intention of taking her. It had never occurred to her, on the present occasion, but as a thing to be carefully avoided. To prevent its being expected, she had fixed on the smallest habitation which could rank as genteel among the buildings of Mansfield parish, the White House being only just large enough to receive herself and her servants, and allow a spare room for a friend, of which she made a very particular point. The spare rooms at the Parsonage had never been wanted, but the absolute necessity of a spare room for a friend was now never forgotten. Not all her precautions, however, could save her from being suspected of something better; or, perhaps, her very display of the importance of a spare room might have misled Sir Thomas to suppose it really intended for Fanny. Lady Bertram soon brought the matter to a certainty by carelessly observing to Mrs. Norris—

So ended their conversation, which, for any meaningful help it could offer Fanny, might as well have not happened at all, since Mrs. Norris had no intention of taking her in. It had never crossed her mind in this instance, viewing it as something to be avoided at all costs. To make sure it wasn’t expected, she chose the smallest place that could still be considered respectable among the buildings of Mansfield parish; the White House was barely big enough for her and her servants, while also leaving room for a guest, which she emphasized was very important to her. The spare rooms at the Parsonage had never been needed, but the absolute necessity of having a spare room for a guest was now always on her mind. Yet, none of her attempts to downplay her intentions could prevent others from suspecting there was something more going on; or maybe her insistence on the necessity of a spare room misled Sir Thomas into thinking it was actually meant for Fanny. Lady Bertram quickly confirmed the matter by casually mentioning to Mrs. Norris—

“I think, sister, we need not keep Miss Lee any longer, when Fanny goes to live with you.”

"I think, sister, we shouldn't keep Miss Lee any longer when Fanny moves in with you."

Mrs. Norris almost started. “Live with me, dear Lady Bertram! what do you mean?”

Mrs. Norris almost jumped. “Live with me, dear Lady Bertram! What do you mean?”

“Is she not to live with you? I thought you had settled it with Sir Thomas.”

“Is she not going to live with you? I thought you had already arranged that with Sir Thomas.”

“Me! never. I never spoke a syllable about it to Sir Thomas, nor he to me. Fanny live with me! the last thing in the world for me to think of, or for anybody to wish that really knows us both. Good heaven! what could I do with Fanny? Me! a poor, helpless, forlorn widow, unfit for anything, my spirits quite broke down; what could I do with a girl at her time of life? A girl of fifteen! the very age of all others to need most attention and care, and put the cheerfullest spirits to the test! Sure Sir Thomas could not seriously expect such a thing! Sir Thomas is too much my friend. Nobody that wishes me well, I am sure, would propose it. How came Sir Thomas to speak to you about it?”

“Me? Never. I never mentioned it to Sir Thomas, nor did he bring it up with me. Fanny living with me? That’s the last thing I could ever think of, or that anyone who truly knows us both would want. Good heavens! What would I do with Fanny? Me! A poor, helpless, miserable widow, unfit for anything, my spirits completely broken; what could I do with a girl at her age? A girl of fifteen! The very time when she needs the most attention and care, and can really test one’s spirits! Surely Sir Thomas couldn’t seriously expect that! Sir Thomas is too much of a friend to me. I’m sure no one who has my best interests at heart would suggest it. How did Sir Thomas even bring this up with you?”

“Indeed, I do not know. I suppose he thought it best.”

“Honestly, I don't know. I guess he thought it was for the best.”

“But what did he say? He could not say he wished me to take Fanny. I am sure in his heart he could not wish me to do it.”

“But what did he say? He couldn't say he wished for me to take Fanny. I'm sure in his heart, he couldn't wish that for me.”

“No; he only said he thought it very likely; and I thought so too. We both thought it would be a comfort to you. But if you do not like it, there is no more to be said. She is no encumbrance here.”

“No; he just said he thought it was very likely, and I thought so too. We both thought it would be comforting for you. But if you don’t like it, there’s nothing more to discuss. She’s not a burden here.”

“Dear sister, if you consider my unhappy state, how can she be any comfort to me? Here am I, a poor desolate widow, deprived of the best of husbands, my health gone in attending and nursing him, my spirits still worse, all my peace in this world destroyed, with hardly enough to support me in the rank of a gentlewoman, and enable me to live so as not to disgrace the memory of the dear departed—what possible comfort could I have in taking such a charge upon me as Fanny? If I could wish it for my own sake, I would not do so unjust a thing by the poor girl. She is in good hands, and sure of doing well. I must struggle through my sorrows and difficulties as I can.”

“Dear sister, if you consider how unhappy I am, how can she be any comfort to me? Here I am, a poor, lonely widow, stripped of the best husband, my health gone from caring for him, my spirits even worse, all my peace in this world shattered, with barely enough to live on as a gentlewoman and to uphold the memory of my dearly departed—what possible comfort could I get from taking on the responsibility of Fanny? Even if I wished it for my own sake, I wouldn’t do something so unfair to the poor girl. She’s in good hands and will certainly do well. I have to deal with my sorrows and struggles as best as I can.”

“Then you will not mind living by yourself quite alone?”

“Then you won’t mind living by yourself all alone?”

“Lady Bertram, I do not complain. I know I cannot live as I have done, but I must retrench where I can, and learn to be a better manager. I have been a liberal housekeeper enough, but I shall not be ashamed to practise economy now. My situation is as much altered as my income. A great many things were due from poor Mr. Norris, as clergyman of the parish, that cannot be expected from me. It is unknown how much was consumed in our kitchen by odd comers and goers. At the White House, matters must be better looked after. I must live within my income, or I shall be miserable; and I own it would give me great satisfaction to be able to do rather more, to lay by a little at the end of the year.”

“Lady Bertram, I’m not complaining. I know I can’t keep living the way I have, but I need to cut back where I can and learn to manage better. I’ve been generous enough with my household expenses, but I won’t be embarrassed to practice some economy now. My circumstances have changed just as much as my income. A lot of things were covered by poor Mr. Norris, the parish clergyman, that I can’t take on. It’s impossible to know how much was used in our kitchen with all the random visitors. At the White House, things need to be managed more carefully. I must live within my means, or I will be unhappy; and I admit it would really please me to be able to do a bit more, to save a little at the end of the year.”

“I dare say you will. You always do, don’t you?”

“I bet you will. You always do, right?”

“My object, Lady Bertram, is to be of use to those that come after me. It is for your children’s good that I wish to be richer. I have nobody else to care for, but I should be very glad to think I could leave a little trifle among them worth their having.”

“My goal, Lady Bertram, is to be helpful to those who come after me. I want to be wealthier for the sake of your children. I don’t have anyone else to care about, but I would be very happy to think I could leave a small gift for them that would be valuable.”

“You are very good, but do not trouble yourself about them. They are sure of being well provided for. Sir Thomas will take care of that.”

“You're very kind, but don't worry about them. They're definitely going to be taken care of. Sir Thomas will handle it.”

“Why, you know, Sir Thomas’s means will be rather straitened if the Antigua estate is to make such poor returns.”

“Look, you know, Sir Thomas’s finances will be pretty tight if the Antigua estate is going to bring in such low returns.”

“Oh! that will soon be settled. Sir Thomas has been writing about it, I know.”

“Oh! that will be settled soon. I know Sir Thomas has been writing about it.”

“Well, Lady Bertram,” said Mrs. Norris, moving to go, “I can only say that my sole desire is to be of use to your family: and so, if Sir Thomas should ever speak again about my taking Fanny, you will be able to say that my health and spirits put it quite out of the question; besides that, I really should not have a bed to give her, for I must keep a spare room for a friend.”

“Well, Lady Bertram,” Mrs. Norris said as she started to leave, “I can only say that my only wish is to help your family. So, if Sir Thomas ever brings up the idea of me taking Fanny, you can tell him that my health and mood make it impossible. Besides that, I wouldn't even have a bed to offer her, since I need to keep a spare room for a friend.”

Lady Bertram repeated enough of this conversation to her husband to convince him how much he had mistaken his sister-in-law’s views; and she was from that moment perfectly safe from all expectation, or the slightest allusion to it from him. He could not but wonder at her refusing to do anything for a niece whom she had been so forward to adopt; but, as she took early care to make him, as well as Lady Bertram, understand that whatever she possessed was designed for their family, he soon grew reconciled to a distinction which, at the same time that it was advantageous and complimentary to them, would enable him better to provide for Fanny himself.

Lady Bertram shared enough of this conversation with her husband to convince him how much he had misunderstood his sister-in-law’s views; and from that moment, she was completely free from any expectations or even the slightest mention of it from him. He couldn’t help but be puzzled by her refusal to do anything for a niece she had been so eager to take in; however, since she quickly made it clear to both him and Lady Bertram that everything she had was meant for their family, he soon accepted a distinction that, while beneficial and flattering to them, would also allow him to take better care of Fanny himself.

Fanny soon learnt how unnecessary had been her fears of a removal; and her spontaneous, untaught felicity on the discovery, conveyed some consolation to Edmund for his disappointment in what he had expected to be so essentially serviceable to her. Mrs. Norris took possession of the White House, the Grants arrived at the Parsonage, and these events over, everything at Mansfield went on for some time as usual.

Fanny soon realized how unfounded her worries about moving had been; her natural, unforced happiness at this discovery brought some comfort to Edmund for his disappointment in what he thought would be so helpful for her. Mrs. Norris moved into the White House, the Grants arrived at the Parsonage, and after these events, everything at Mansfield continued as usual for a while.

The Grants showing a disposition to be friendly and sociable, gave great satisfaction in the main among their new acquaintance. They had their faults, and Mrs. Norris soon found them out. The Doctor was very fond of eating, and would have a good dinner every day; and Mrs. Grant, instead of contriving to gratify him at little expense, gave her cook as high wages as they did at Mansfield Park, and was scarcely ever seen in her offices. Mrs. Norris could not speak with any temper of such grievances, nor of the quantity of butter and eggs that were regularly consumed in the house. “Nobody loved plenty and hospitality more than herself; nobody more hated pitiful doings; the Parsonage, she believed, had never been wanting in comforts of any sort, had never borne a bad character in her time, but this was a way of going on that she could not understand. A fine lady in a country parsonage was quite out of place. Her store-room, she thought, might have been good enough for Mrs. Grant to go into. Inquire where she would, she could not find out that Mrs. Grant had ever had more than five thousand pounds.”

The Grants, who had a friendly and sociable nature, were generally well-liked by their new acquaintances. They had their faults, which Mrs. Norris quickly noticed. The Doctor had a strong appetite and expected a good dinner every day; instead of trying to please him without spending too much, Mrs. Grant paid her cook the same high wages as at Mansfield Park and was rarely seen in the kitchen. Mrs. Norris couldn't discuss these issues calmly, nor could she ignore the amount of butter and eggs that were consumed in their household. “No one loved abundance and hospitality more than I do; no one hates stinginess more. The Parsonage, in my experience, has always been comfortable and respected, but I can’t understand this way of doing things. A refined lady in a country parsonage seems completely inappropriate. I would think my storeroom would be more than suitable for Mrs. Grant. No matter how hard I looked, I couldn't find out that Mrs. Grant ever had more than five thousand pounds.”

Lady Bertram listened without much interest to this sort of invective. She could not enter into the wrongs of an economist, but she felt all the injuries of beauty in Mrs. Grant’s being so well settled in life without being handsome, and expressed her astonishment on that point almost as often, though not so diffusely, as Mrs. Norris discussed the other.

Lady Bertram listened without much interest to this kind of rant. She couldn’t relate to the complaints of an economist, but she did feel the pain of beauty in Mrs. Grant being so well settled in life without being attractive, and she expressed her surprise about that almost as often, though not as extensively, as Mrs. Norris talked about the other issue.

These opinions had been hardly canvassed a year before another event arose of such importance in the family, as might fairly claim some place in the thoughts and conversation of the ladies. Sir Thomas found it expedient to go to Antigua himself, for the better arrangement of his affairs, and he took his eldest son with him, in the hope of detaching him from some bad connexions at home. They left England with the probability of being nearly a twelvemonth absent.

These opinions had hardly been discussed a year before another event came up in the family that could rightfully claim some attention in the ladies' thoughts and conversations. Sir Thomas decided it was best to go to Antigua himself to sort out his affairs, and he took his eldest son with him, hoping to pull him away from some bad influences back home. They left England with the expectation that they would be gone for almost a year.

The necessity of the measure in a pecuniary light, and the hope of its utility to his son, reconciled Sir Thomas to the effort of quitting the rest of his family, and of leaving his daughters to the direction of others at their present most interesting time of life. He could not think Lady Bertram quite equal to supply his place with them, or rather, to perform what should have been her own; but, in Mrs. Norris’s watchful attention, and in Edmund’s judgment, he had sufficient confidence to make him go without fears for their conduct.

The need for the measure in financial terms, and the hope that it would benefit his son, made Sir Thomas willing to leave the rest of his family and let others guide his daughters during such a crucial time in their lives. He didn’t believe Lady Bertram was quite capable of taking his place with them, or rather, of doing what should have been her responsibility; however, he had enough confidence in Mrs. Norris’s careful attention and in Edmund’s judgment to go without worrying about their behavior.

Lady Bertram did not at all like to have her husband leave her; but she was not disturbed by any alarm for his safety, or solicitude for his comfort, being one of those persons who think nothing can be dangerous, or difficult, or fatiguing to anybody but themselves.

Lady Bertram really didn't like it when her husband left her; however, she wasn't worried about his safety or concerned about his comfort, as she was one of those people who believe that nothing can be dangerous, difficult, or tiring for anyone but themselves.

The Miss Bertrams were much to be pitied on the occasion: not for their sorrow, but for their want of it. Their father was no object of love to them; he had never seemed the friend of their pleasures, and his absence was unhappily most welcome. They were relieved by it from all restraint; and without aiming at one gratification that would probably have been forbidden by Sir Thomas, they felt themselves immediately at their own disposal, and to have every indulgence within their reach. Fanny’s relief, and her consciousness of it, were quite equal to her cousins’; but a more tender nature suggested that her feelings were ungrateful, and she really grieved because she could not grieve. “Sir Thomas, who had done so much for her and her brothers, and who was gone perhaps never to return! that she should see him go without a tear! it was a shameful insensibility.” He had said to her, moreover, on the very last morning, that he hoped she might see William again in the course of the ensuing winter, and had charged her to write and invite him to Mansfield as soon as the squadron to which he belonged should be known to be in England. “This was so thoughtful and kind!” and would he only have smiled upon her, and called her “my dear Fanny,” while he said it, every former frown or cold address might have been forgotten. But he had ended his speech in a way to sink her in sad mortification, by adding, “If William does come to Mansfield, I hope you may be able to convince him that the many years which have passed since you parted have not been spent on your side entirely without improvement; though, I fear, he must find his sister at sixteen in some respects too much like his sister at ten.” She cried bitterly over this reflection when her uncle was gone; and her cousins, on seeing her with red eyes, set her down as a hypocrite.

The Miss Bertrams were to be pitied in this situation, not for their sadness, but for their lack of it. Their father didn’t seem to be someone they loved; he had never appeared to share in their joys, and his absence was, unfortunately, quite a relief. They felt free from all restrictions and didn’t have any desires that Sir Thomas might have forbidden. They immediately felt in control of their own lives and had every indulgence at their fingertips. Fanny felt just as relieved as her cousins, yet her more sensitive nature made her think that her feelings were ungrateful. She genuinely felt sorrow for not being able to feel sorrow. “Sir Thomas, who had done so much for her and her brothers, was leaving, perhaps never to return! How could she let him go without shedding a tear? It was a disgraceful lack of feeling.” He had told her, on that very last morning, that he hoped she would see William again during the upcoming winter and had asked her to write and invite him to Mansfield as soon as they knew his squadron was back in England. “That was so thoughtful and kind!” If he had only smiled at her and called her “my dear Fanny” while saying it, she could have forgotten every previous frown or cold comment. But he had finished his speech in a way that left her feeling deeply embarrassed by adding, “If William does come to Mansfield, I hope you can show him that the many years since you last saw each other haven't gone by without some improvements on your side; though I fear he might find his sixteen-year-old sister too much like the ten-year-old one.” She cried bitterly over this thought after her uncle left, and her cousins, noticing her red eyes, dismissed her as a hypocrite.

CHAPTER IV

Tom Bertram had of late spent so little of his time at home that he could be only nominally missed; and Lady Bertram was soon astonished to find how very well they did even without his father, how well Edmund could supply his place in carving, talking to the steward, writing to the attorney, settling with the servants, and equally saving her from all possible fatigue or exertion in every particular but that of directing her letters.

Tom Bertram had recently spent so little time at home that he could only be missed in name; and Lady Bertram was quickly surprised to discover how well they managed without his father, how well Edmund could take over his responsibilities in carving, talking to the steward, writing to the attorney, settling with the servants, and effectively preventing her from any potential fatigue or effort in everything except directing her letters.

The earliest intelligence of the travellers’ safe arrival at Antigua, after a favourable voyage, was received; though not before Mrs. Norris had been indulging in very dreadful fears, and trying to make Edmund participate them whenever she could get him alone; and as she depended on being the first person made acquainted with any fatal catastrophe, she had already arranged the manner of breaking it to all the others, when Sir Thomas’s assurances of their both being alive and well made it necessary to lay by her agitation and affectionate preparatory speeches for a while.

The first news of the travelers' safe arrival in Antigua, after a good voyage, came through, but not before Mrs. Norris had been consumed with terrible fears and trying to get Edmund to share them whenever she could get him alone. Since she expected to be the first to hear about any tragedy, she had already figured out how to tell everyone else, but Sir Thomas's reassurances that they were both alive and well meant she had to put her worries and her heartfelt speeches on hold for a bit.

The winter came and passed without their being called for; the accounts continued perfectly good; and Mrs. Norris, in promoting gaieties for her nieces, assisting their toilets, displaying their accomplishments, and looking about for their future husbands, had so much to do as, in addition to all her own household cares, some interference in those of her sister, and Mrs. Grant’s wasteful doings to overlook, left her very little occasion to be occupied in fears for the absent.

Winter came and went without any word from them; the finances were still in great shape; and Mrs. Norris, while organizing fun activities for her nieces, helping them get ready, showcasing their talents, and searching for their future husbands, had so much on her plate that, along with her own household responsibilities, some involvement in her sister's matters, and managing Mrs. Grant's extravagant habits, she barely had time to worry about those who were away.

The Miss Bertrams were now fully established among the belles of the neighbourhood; and as they joined to beauty and brilliant acquirements a manner naturally easy, and carefully formed to general civility and obligingness, they possessed its favour as well as its admiration. Their vanity was in such good order that they seemed to be quite free from it, and gave themselves no airs; while the praises attending such behaviour, secured and brought round by their aunt, served to strengthen them in believing they had no faults.

The Miss Bertrams were now well-known among the charming young women in the area; and along with their beauty and impressive talents, they had a naturally easy manner that was also polished to be polite and accommodating, earning them both admiration and affection. Their vanity was kept in check, making it seem like they didn't have any, and they didn't act superior; meanwhile, the compliments that came with such behavior, promoted and spread by their aunt, helped reinforce their belief that they had no flaws.

Lady Bertram did not go into public with her daughters. She was too indolent even to accept a mother’s gratification in witnessing their success and enjoyment at the expense of any personal trouble, and the charge was made over to her sister, who desired nothing better than a post of such honourable representation, and very thoroughly relished the means it afforded her of mixing in society without having horses to hire.

Lady Bertram didn't take her daughters out in public. She was too lazy to enjoy the satisfaction of seeing their success and happiness if it required any effort on her part, so she handed the responsibility over to her sister, who wouldn’t have wanted anything more than a role of such honorable representation. She truly enjoyed the opportunity it gave her to socialize without needing to rent horses.

Fanny had no share in the festivities of the season; but she enjoyed being avowedly useful as her aunt’s companion when they called away the rest of the family; and, as Miss Lee had left Mansfield, she naturally became everything to Lady Bertram during the night of a ball or a party. She talked to her, listened to her, read to her; and the tranquillity of such evenings, her perfect security in such a tête-à-tête from any sound of unkindness, was unspeakably welcome to a mind which had seldom known a pause in its alarms or embarrassments. As to her cousins’ gaieties, she loved to hear an account of them, especially of the balls, and whom Edmund had danced with; but thought too lowly of her own situation to imagine she should ever be admitted to the same, and listened, therefore, without an idea of any nearer concern in them. Upon the whole, it was a comfortable winter to her; for though it brought no William to England, the never-failing hope of his arrival was worth much.

Fanny didn’t take part in the celebrations of the season, but she enjoyed being openly helpful as her aunt’s companion when the rest of the family was away. And since Miss Lee had left Mansfield, she naturally became everything to Lady Bertram during the nights of balls or parties. She chatted with her, listened to her, and read to her; and the calmness of those evenings, her complete security in such a tête-à-tête from any hint of unkindness, was incredibly comforting to a mind that rarely knew a moment without worry or stress. As for her cousins’ fun, she liked hearing about it, especially the balls and whom Edmund had danced with; but she thought too little of her own situation to believe she would ever be part of it, so she listened without any thought of being more involved. Overall, it was a cozy winter for her; although it didn’t bring William to England, the constant hope of his arrival meant a lot.

The ensuing spring deprived her of her valued friend, the old grey pony; and for some time she was in danger of feeling the loss in her health as well as in her affections; for in spite of the acknowledged importance of her riding on horse-back, no measures were taken for mounting her again, “because,” as it was observed by her aunts, “she might ride one of her cousin’s horses at any time when they did not want them,” and as the Miss Bertrams regularly wanted their horses every fine day, and had no idea of carrying their obliging manners to the sacrifice of any real pleasure, that time, of course, never came. They took their cheerful rides in the fine mornings of April and May; and Fanny either sat at home the whole day with one aunt, or walked beyond her strength at the instigation of the other: Lady Bertram holding exercise to be as unnecessary for everybody as it was unpleasant to herself; and Mrs. Norris, who was walking all day, thinking everybody ought to walk as much. Edmund was absent at this time, or the evil would have been earlier remedied. When he returned, to understand how Fanny was situated, and perceived its ill effects, there seemed with him but one thing to be done; and that “Fanny must have a horse” was the resolute declaration with which he opposed whatever could be urged by the supineness of his mother, or the economy of his aunt, to make it appear unimportant. Mrs. Norris could not help thinking that some steady old thing might be found among the numbers belonging to the Park that would do vastly well; or that one might be borrowed of the steward; or that perhaps Dr. Grant might now and then lend them the pony he sent to the post. She could not but consider it as absolutely unnecessary, and even improper, that Fanny should have a regular lady’s horse of her own, in the style of her cousins. She was sure Sir Thomas had never intended it: and she must say that, to be making such a purchase in his absence, and adding to the great expenses of his stable, at a time when a large part of his income was unsettled, seemed to her very unjustifiable. “Fanny must have a horse,” was Edmund’s only reply. Mrs. Norris could not see it in the same light. Lady Bertram did: she entirely agreed with her son as to the necessity of it, and as to its being considered necessary by his father; she only pleaded against there being any hurry; she only wanted him to wait till Sir Thomas’s return, and then Sir Thomas might settle it all himself. He would be at home in September, and where would be the harm of only waiting till September?

The next spring took away her beloved friend, the old grey pony, and for a while, she was at risk of feeling the impact on her health as well as her emotions. Despite the acknowledged importance of horseback riding, no arrangements were made for her to ride again, “because,” her aunts noted, “she could ride one of her cousin’s horses anytime they didn’t need them.” Since the Miss Bertrams always wanted their horses on nice days and had no intention of sacrificing their enjoyment, that time never came. They enjoyed their cheerful rides on the lovely mornings of April and May, while Fanny either stayed home all day with one aunt or walked beyond her limits at the insistence of the other: Lady Bertram believed exercise was unnecessary for everyone as much as it was unpleasant for her, while Mrs. Norris, who walked all day, thought everyone should walk just as much. Edmund was away during this time, or the issue would have been addressed sooner. When he returned and understood Fanny's situation and its negative effects, he saw there was only one solution: “Fanny must have a horse,” he firmly stated, countering any arguments his mother or aunt made to downplay its importance. Mrs. Norris thought they could find some steady old horse among those at the Park that would be fine or possibly borrow one from the steward, or maybe Dr. Grant could occasionally lend them the pony he sent to the post. She felt it was completely unnecessary, and even inappropriate, for Fanny to have a proper lady’s horse like her cousins. She was sure Sir Thomas had never intended that, and buying such a horse in his absence and adding to the costs of his stable, especially when a significant part of his income was unsettled, seemed highly unjustifiable. “Fanny must have a horse,” was all Edmund said in response. Mrs. Norris didn’t see it that way. Lady Bertram did; she fully agreed with her son on its necessity and that Sir Thomas would consider it necessary too. She just argued against rushing it; she simply wanted him to wait until Sir Thomas returned, and then he could handle it all himself. He would be home in September, and what would be the harm in waiting until then?

Though Edmund was much more displeased with his aunt than with his mother, as evincing least regard for her niece, he could not help paying more attention to what she said; and at length determined on a method of proceeding which would obviate the risk of his father’s thinking he had done too much, and at the same time procure for Fanny the immediate means of exercise, which he could not bear she should be without. He had three horses of his own, but not one that would carry a woman. Two of them were hunters; the third, a useful road-horse: this third he resolved to exchange for one that his cousin might ride; he knew where such a one was to be met with; and having once made up his mind, the whole business was soon completed. The new mare proved a treasure; with a very little trouble she became exactly calculated for the purpose, and Fanny was then put in almost full possession of her. She had not supposed before that anything could ever suit her like the old grey pony; but her delight in Edmund’s mare was far beyond any former pleasure of the sort; and the addition it was ever receiving in the consideration of that kindness from which her pleasure sprung, was beyond all her words to express. She regarded her cousin as an example of everything good and great, as possessing worth which no one but herself could ever appreciate, and as entitled to such gratitude from her as no feelings could be strong enough to pay. Her sentiments towards him were compounded of all that was respectful, grateful, confiding, and tender.

Though Edmund was much more annoyed with his aunt than with his mother, who he felt showed less care for her niece, he couldn't help but pay more attention to what she said. Eventually, he decided on a way to act that would prevent his father from thinking he had done too much, while also getting Fanny the immediate chance to exercise, which he couldn't stand to deny her. He had three horses, but none were suitable for riding by a woman. Two were hunters, and the third was a useful road horse. He decided to trade the third one for a horse that his cousin could ride; he knew where to find one like that. Once he made up his mind, everything was arranged quickly. The new mare turned out to be a gem; with very little effort, she became just right for the purpose, and Fanny was almost fully in possession of her. She hadn’t thought anything could ever compare to her old gray pony, but her joy with Edmund’s mare was far greater than any previous happiness of that sort, and the ongoing appreciation she felt for that kindness that brought her joy was beyond anything she could express. She saw her cousin as a model of all that was good and admirable, possessing a worth that no one but her could truly recognize, and was deserving of a gratitude from her that no feelings could adequately convey. Her feelings towards him were a mix of respect, gratitude, trust, and affection.

As the horse continued in name, as well as fact, the property of Edmund, Mrs. Norris could tolerate its being for Fanny’s use; and had Lady Bertram ever thought about her own objection again, he might have been excused in her eyes for not waiting till Sir Thomas’s return in September, for when September came Sir Thomas was still abroad, and without any near prospect of finishing his business. Unfavourable circumstances had suddenly arisen at a moment when he was beginning to turn all his thoughts towards England; and the very great uncertainty in which everything was then involved determined him on sending home his son, and waiting the final arrangement by himself. Tom arrived safely, bringing an excellent account of his father’s health; but to very little purpose, as far as Mrs. Norris was concerned. Sir Thomas’s sending away his son seemed to her so like a parent’s care, under the influence of a foreboding of evil to himself, that she could not help feeling dreadful presentiments; and as the long evenings of autumn came on, was so terribly haunted by these ideas, in the sad solitariness of her cottage, as to be obliged to take daily refuge in the dining-room of the Park. The return of winter engagements, however, was not without its effect; and in the course of their progress, her mind became so pleasantly occupied in superintending the fortunes of her eldest niece, as tolerably to quiet her nerves. “If poor Sir Thomas were fated never to return, it would be peculiarly consoling to see their dear Maria well married,” she very often thought; always when they were in the company of men of fortune, and particularly on the introduction of a young man who had recently succeeded to one of the largest estates and finest places in the country.

As the horse continued to be, in name and in reality, Edmund's property, Mrs. Norris could accept that it was for Fanny’s use. If Lady Bertram had ever reconsidered her own objections, she might have understood why he didn't wait for Sir Thomas to return in September. However, when September arrived, Sir Thomas was still abroad with no immediate chance of finishing his business. Unfavorable circumstances suddenly came up just as he was starting to focus on England; the great uncertainty surrounding everything led him to send his son home while he handled the final arrangements himself. Tom arrived safely, bringing good news about his father's health, but that meant little to Mrs. Norris. To her, Sir Thomas’s decision to send his son away felt like a parent's instinct driven by a premonition of trouble, leaving her with dreadful feelings. As the long autumn evenings approached, she became overwhelmed by these thoughts in the lonely solitude of her cottage and had to seek refuge daily in the dining room of the Park. However, as winter engagements picked up, her mind became pleasantly engaged in overseeing the fortunes of her eldest niece, which helped ease her nerves. “If poor Sir Thomas is destined never to return, it would be especially comforting to see their dear Maria well married,” she often thought, especially when they were in the company of wealthy men, particularly when a young man recently inherited one of the largest estates and finest properties in the country.

Mr. Rushworth was from the first struck with the beauty of Miss Bertram, and, being inclined to marry, soon fancied himself in love. He was a heavy young man, with not more than common sense; but as there was nothing disagreeable in his figure or address, the young lady was well pleased with her conquest. Being now in her twenty-first year, Maria Bertram was beginning to think matrimony a duty; and as a marriage with Mr. Rushworth would give her the enjoyment of a larger income than her father’s, as well as ensure her the house in town, which was now a prime object, it became, by the same rule of moral obligation, her evident duty to marry Mr. Rushworth if she could. Mrs. Norris was most zealous in promoting the match, by every suggestion and contrivance likely to enhance its desirableness to either party; and, among other means, by seeking an intimacy with the gentleman’s mother, who at present lived with him, and to whom she even forced Lady Bertram to go through ten miles of indifferent road to pay a morning visit. It was not long before a good understanding took place between this lady and herself. Mrs. Rushworth acknowledged herself very desirous that her son should marry, and declared that of all the young ladies she had ever seen, Miss Bertram seemed, by her amiable qualities and accomplishments, the best adapted to make him happy. Mrs. Norris accepted the compliment, and admired the nice discernment of character which could so well distinguish merit. Maria was indeed the pride and delight of them all—perfectly faultless—an angel; and, of course, so surrounded by admirers, must be difficult in her choice: but yet, as far as Mrs. Norris could allow herself to decide on so short an acquaintance, Mr. Rushworth appeared precisely the young man to deserve and attach her.

Mr. Rushworth was immediately taken by Miss Bertram's beauty and, having the inclination to marry, soon believed he was in love. He was a dull young man with only average intelligence; however, since there was nothing unpleasant about his appearance or manner, the young lady was quite satisfied with her conquest. Now at twenty-one, Maria Bertram was beginning to view marriage as a responsibility; and since marrying Mr. Rushworth would provide her with a larger income than her father's, as well as guarantee her the house in town—which was now a main priority—it became her clear duty to marry Mr. Rushworth if she had the chance. Mrs. Norris was very eager to promote the match, using every suggestion and scheme to make it appealing to both parties; among other tactics, she sought to build a closeness with Mr. Rushworth’s mother, who lived with him, and even insisted that Lady Bertram travel ten miles of rough road to pay her a morning visit. It wasn’t long before a good rapport developed between these two women. Mrs. Rushworth expressed her strong desire for her son to marry and stated that out of all the young ladies she had met, Miss Bertram seemed, with her charming qualities and skills, most suited to make him happy. Mrs. Norris graciously accepted the compliment and appreciated the keen understanding of character that could so accurately recognize merit. Maria was indeed the pride and joy of everyone—utterly perfect—an angel; and, naturally surrounded by admirers, her choice would be difficult. Yet, as far as Mrs. Norris could judge from their brief acquaintance, Mr. Rushworth seemed just the young man deserving of her affection.

After dancing with each other at a proper number of balls, the young people justified these opinions, and an engagement, with a due reference to the absent Sir Thomas, was entered into, much to the satisfaction of their respective families, and of the general lookers-on of the neighbourhood, who had, for many weeks past, felt the expediency of Mr. Rushworth’s marrying Miss Bertram.

After dancing at a good number of balls, the young people confirmed these opinions, and an engagement, with appropriate consideration for the absent Sir Thomas, was established, much to the delight of their families and the local spectators, who had, for many weeks, seen the wisdom in Mr. Rushworth marrying Miss Bertram.

It was some months before Sir Thomas’s consent could be received; but, in the meanwhile, as no one felt a doubt of his most cordial pleasure in the connexion, the intercourse of the two families was carried on without restraint, and no other attempt made at secrecy than Mrs. Norris’s talking of it everywhere as a matter not to be talked of at present.

It took several months to get Sir Thomas’s approval; however, during that time, since everyone believed he was very happy about the connection, the two families interacted freely, with no other attempt at secrecy than Mrs. Norris mentioning it everywhere as something that shouldn’t be discussed right now.

Edmund was the only one of the family who could see a fault in the business; but no representation of his aunt’s could induce him to find Mr. Rushworth a desirable companion. He could allow his sister to be the best judge of her own happiness, but he was not pleased that her happiness should centre in a large income; nor could he refrain from often saying to himself, in Mr. Rushworth’s company—“If this man had not twelve thousand a year, he would be a very stupid fellow.”

Edmund was the only one in the family who could see a problem with the situation; yet, no argument from his aunt could make him view Mr. Rushworth as a good match. He could let his sister decide what made her happy, but he was not happy that her happiness depended on a big income; nor could he stop himself from thinking, while in Mr. Rushworth’s presence, “If this guy didn’t make twelve thousand a year, he would be really dull.”

Sir Thomas, however, was truly happy in the prospect of an alliance so unquestionably advantageous, and of which he heard nothing but the perfectly good and agreeable. It was a connexion exactly of the right sort—in the same county, and the same interest—and his most hearty concurrence was conveyed as soon as possible. He only conditioned that the marriage should not take place before his return, which he was again looking eagerly forward to. He wrote in April, and had strong hopes of settling everything to his entire satisfaction, and leaving Antigua before the end of the summer.

Sir Thomas, however, was genuinely happy about the prospect of such a clearly beneficial alliance, hearing only positive and agreeable things about it. It was exactly the right kind of connection—within the same county and shared interests—and he quickly expressed his full support. He only requested that the marriage not happen before his return, which he was eagerly anticipating. He wrote in April, holding strong hopes of finalizing everything to his complete satisfaction and leaving Antigua before summer ended.

Such was the state of affairs in the month of July; and Fanny had just reached her eighteenth year, when the society of the village received an addition in the brother and sister of Mrs. Grant, a Mr. and Miss Crawford, the children of her mother by a second marriage. They were young people of fortune. The son had a good estate in Norfolk, the daughter twenty thousand pounds. As children, their sister had been always very fond of them; but, as her own marriage had been soon followed by the death of their common parent, which left them to the care of a brother of their father, of whom Mrs. Grant knew nothing, she had scarcely seen them since. In their uncle’s house they had found a kind home. Admiral and Mrs. Crawford, though agreeing in nothing else, were united in affection for these children, or, at least, were no farther adverse in their feelings than that each had their favourite, to whom they showed the greatest fondness of the two. The Admiral delighted in the boy, Mrs. Crawford doted on the girl; and it was the lady’s death which now obliged her protegee, after some months’ further trial at her uncle’s house, to find another home. Admiral Crawford was a man of vicious conduct, who chose, instead of retaining his niece, to bring his mistress under his own roof; and to this Mrs. Grant was indebted for her sister’s proposal of coming to her, a measure quite as welcome on one side as it could be expedient on the other; for Mrs. Grant, having by this time run through the usual resources of ladies residing in the country without a family of children—having more than filled her favourite sitting-room with pretty furniture, and made a choice collection of plants and poultry—was very much in want of some variety at home. The arrival, therefore, of a sister whom she had always loved, and now hoped to retain with her as long as she remained single, was highly agreeable; and her chief anxiety was lest Mansfield should not satisfy the habits of a young woman who had been mostly used to London.

The situation in July was as follows: Fanny had just turned eighteen when the village welcomed Mrs. Grant's siblings, Mr. and Miss Crawford, who were her mother’s children from a second marriage. They were wealthy; the son owned a nice estate in Norfolk, and the daughter had twenty thousand pounds. As kids, their sister had always been very fond of them, but after her marriage, which was soon followed by the death of their shared parent, she hardly saw them again. They had found a caring home with their uncle, of whom Mrs. Grant knew little. Admiral and Mrs. Crawford, though they disagreed on many things, both cared deeply for the children—at least enough to each have a favorite to whom they showed the most affection. The Admiral favored the boy, while Mrs. Crawford doted on the girl. It was the lady’s death that now forced her protegee, after several months at her uncle’s home, to look for a new place to live. Admiral Crawford, known for his questionable behavior, chose to keep his mistress instead of his niece; this situation led to Mrs. Grant extending an invitation for her sister to come stay with her, which was equally welcome for both sides. By that point, Mrs. Grant had exhausted the usual activities for childless women living in the country—she had decorated her favorite sitting room with lovely furniture and started a nice collection of plants and animals—and was in need of some variety at home. Therefore, the arrival of a sister she had always cherished, whom she now hoped to keep around as long as she remained single, was very pleasing. Her main concern was whether Mansfield would suit the lifestyle of a young woman accustomed mostly to London.

Miss Crawford was not entirely free from similar apprehensions, though they arose principally from doubts of her sister’s style of living and tone of society; and it was not till after she had tried in vain to persuade her brother to settle with her at his own country house, that she could resolve to hazard herself among her other relations. To anything like a permanence of abode, or limitation of society, Henry Crawford had, unluckily, a great dislike: he could not accommodate his sister in an article of such importance; but he escorted her, with the utmost kindness, into Northamptonshire, and as readily engaged to fetch her away again, at half an hour’s notice, whenever she were weary of the place.

Miss Crawford wasn't completely free from similar worries, but they mainly stemmed from concerns about her sister’s way of life and social circle. It wasn't until she had unsuccessfully tried to convince her brother to settle down with her at his country house that she decided to take a chance and stay with their other relatives. Unfortunately, Henry Crawford had a strong dislike for anything resembling a permanent residence or limited social interactions, so he couldn’t accommodate his sister in such an important matter. However, he kindly took her to Northamptonshire and readily agreed to pick her up again on short notice whenever she felt tired of being there.

The meeting was very satisfactory on each side. Miss Crawford found a sister without preciseness or rusticity, a sister’s husband who looked the gentleman, and a house commodious and well fitted up; and Mrs. Grant received in those whom she hoped to love better than ever a young man and woman of very prepossessing appearance. Mary Crawford was remarkably pretty; Henry, though not handsome, had air and countenance; the manners of both were lively and pleasant, and Mrs. Grant immediately gave them credit for everything else. She was delighted with each, but Mary was her dearest object; and having never been able to glory in beauty of her own, she thoroughly enjoyed the power of being proud of her sister’s. She had not waited her arrival to look out for a suitable match for her: she had fixed on Tom Bertram; the eldest son of a baronet was not too good for a girl of twenty thousand pounds, with all the elegance and accomplishments which Mrs. Grant foresaw in her; and being a warm-hearted, unreserved woman, Mary had not been three hours in the house before she told her what she had planned.

The meeting was very satisfying for everyone involved. Miss Crawford met a sister who was neither too formal nor too rustic, a brother-in-law who looked like a true gentleman, and a home that was spacious and well-decorated. Mrs. Grant welcomed two young people she hoped to love even more: a young man and woman who were both very attractive. Mary Crawford was exceptionally pretty; Henry, while not exactly handsome, had a charming demeanor; both had lively and pleasant manners, which made Mrs. Grant think highly of them right away. She was thrilled with both of them, but Mary was her favorite. Having never been able to take pride in her own beauty, Mrs. Grant loved the chance to be proud of her sister’s looks. She didn't wait for Mary's arrival to start searching for a suitable match; she had already set her sights on Tom Bertram. The eldest son of a baronet was more than suitable for a girl with twenty thousand pounds, along with all the elegance and talents that Mrs. Grant anticipated in her. Being a warm and open woman, Mary had only been in the house for three hours before she shared her plans.

Miss Crawford was glad to find a family of such consequence so very near them, and not at all displeased either at her sister’s early care, or the choice it had fallen on. Matrimony was her object, provided she could marry well: and having seen Mr. Bertram in town, she knew that objection could no more be made to his person than to his situation in life. While she treated it as a joke, therefore, she did not forget to think of it seriously. The scheme was soon repeated to Henry.

Miss Crawford was pleased to discover a family of such importance nearby, and she wasn't at all bothered by her sister’s early efforts or the choice that had been made. Marriage was her goal, as long as she could marry someone suitable. Having seen Mr. Bertram in town, she knew there was no reason to object to either his looks or his social status. While she laughed about it, she also considered it seriously. She quickly shared the plan with Henry.

“And now,” added Mrs. Grant, “I have thought of something to make it complete. I should dearly love to settle you both in this country; and therefore, Henry, you shall marry the youngest Miss Bertram, a nice, handsome, good-humoured, accomplished girl, who will make you very happy.”

“And now,” added Mrs. Grant, “I’ve thought of something to make it perfect. I would really love to settle you both in this country; so, Henry, you will marry the youngest Miss Bertram, a lovely, attractive, cheerful, and talented girl who will make you very happy.”

Henry bowed and thanked her.

Henry bowed and thanked her.

“My dear sister,” said Mary, “if you can persuade him into anything of the sort, it will be a fresh matter of delight to me to find myself allied to anybody so clever, and I shall only regret that you have not half a dozen daughters to dispose of. If you can persuade Henry to marry, you must have the address of a Frenchwoman. All that English abilities can do has been tried already. I have three very particular friends who have been all dying for him in their turn; and the pains which they, their mothers (very clever women), as well as my dear aunt and myself, have taken to reason, coax, or trick him into marrying, is inconceivable! He is the most horrible flirt that can be imagined. If your Miss Bertrams do not like to have their hearts broke, let them avoid Henry.”

“My dear sister,” said Mary, “if you can convince him to do anything like that, I would be thrilled to be connected to someone so smart. I only wish you had half a dozen daughters to offer up. If you can persuade Henry to marry, you must know a Frenchwoman. We've already tried everything English abilities can achieve. I have three very close friends who have all been crazy about him in their own way, and the efforts they, their mothers (who are very clever), my dear aunt, and I have made to reason with, coax, or trick him into marrying are unimaginable! He is the worst flirt you can picture. If your Miss Bertrams don’t want their hearts broken, they should stay away from Henry.”

“My dear brother, I will not believe this of you.”

“My dear brother, I can't believe you would do this.”

“No, I am sure you are too good. You will be kinder than Mary. You will allow for the doubts of youth and inexperience. I am of a cautious temper, and unwilling to risk my happiness in a hurry. Nobody can think more highly of the matrimonial state than myself. I consider the blessing of a wife as most justly described in those discreet lines of the poet—‘Heaven’s last best gift.’”

“No, I’m sure you’re too good for that. You’ll be kinder than Mary. You’ll take into account the uncertainties of youth and inexperience. I’m naturally cautious and not willing to risk my happiness too quickly. No one values marriage more than I do. I see the blessing of a wife as perfectly captured in those wise lines of the poet—‘Heaven’s last best gift.’”

“There, Mrs. Grant, you see how he dwells on one word, and only look at his smile. I assure you he is very detestable; the Admiral’s lessons have quite spoiled him.”

“There, Mrs. Grant, you see how he fixates on one word, and just look at his smile. I promise you, he’s really unpleasant; the Admiral’s lessons have completely ruined him.”

“I pay very little regard,” said Mrs. Grant, “to what any young person says on the subject of marriage. If they profess a disinclination for it, I only set it down that they have not yet seen the right person.”

“I pay very little attention,” said Mrs. Grant, “to what any young person says about marriage. If they claim they’re not interested, I just assume they haven’t met the right person yet.”

Dr. Grant laughingly congratulated Miss Crawford on feeling no disinclination to the state herself.

Dr. Grant chuckled as he congratulated Miss Crawford on not having any hesitation about stating it herself.

“Oh yes! I am not at all ashamed of it. I would have everybody marry if they can do it properly: I do not like to have people throw themselves away; but everybody should marry as soon as they can do it to advantage.”

“Oh yes! I’m not ashamed of it at all. I think everyone should get married if they can do it right: I don’t like to see people waste their lives; but everyone should marry as soon as it makes sense for them.”

CHAPTER V

The young people were pleased with each other from the first. On each side there was much to attract, and their acquaintance soon promised as early an intimacy as good manners would warrant. Miss Crawford’s beauty did her no disservice with the Miss Bertrams. They were too handsome themselves to dislike any woman for being so too, and were almost as much charmed as their brothers with her lively dark eye, clear brown complexion, and general prettiness. Had she been tall, full formed, and fair, it might have been more of a trial: but as it was, there could be no comparison; and she was most allowably a sweet, pretty girl, while they were the finest young women in the country.

The young people liked each other right away. On both sides, there was a lot to admire, and their friendship quickly showed promise for a closeness that was appropriate. Miss Crawford’s beauty worked in her favor with the Miss Bertrams. They were attractive themselves, so they couldn’t dislike another woman for being attractive too, and they were just as charmed as their brothers by her lively dark eyes, clear brown skin, and overall prettiness. If she had been tall, curvy, and fair, it might have been more of a challenge: but since she wasn't, there was no real comparison; she was just a sweet, pretty girl, while they were the most beautiful young women in the country.

Her brother was not handsome: no, when they first saw him he was absolutely plain, black and plain; but still he was the gentleman, with a pleasing address. The second meeting proved him not so very plain: he was plain, to be sure, but then he had so much countenance, and his teeth were so good, and he was so well made, that one soon forgot he was plain; and after a third interview, after dining in company with him at the Parsonage, he was no longer allowed to be called so by anybody. He was, in fact, the most agreeable young man the sisters had ever known, and they were equally delighted with him. Miss Bertram’s engagement made him in equity the property of Julia, of which Julia was fully aware; and before he had been at Mansfield a week, she was quite ready to be fallen in love with.

Her brother wasn't handsome: no, when they first saw him he was completely plain, dark and plain; but he was still a gentleman, with a charming demeanor. Their second meeting revealed he wasn't that plain after all: he was certainly plain, but he had such a nice expression, his teeth were great, and he was well built, making it easy to forget his plainness; and after a third meeting, after having dinner with him at the Parsonage, no one could still call him plain. He became, in fact, the most likable young man the sisters had ever met, and they were both thrilled with him. Miss Bertram’s engagement made him effectively Julia’s property, a fact she was fully aware of; and by the time he had been at Mansfield for a week, she was totally ready to fall in love with him.

Maria’s notions on the subject were more confused and indistinct. She did not want to see or understand. “There could be no harm in her liking an agreeable man—everybody knew her situation—Mr. Crawford must take care of himself.” Mr. Crawford did not mean to be in any danger! the Miss Bertrams were worth pleasing, and were ready to be pleased; and he began with no object but of making them like him. He did not want them to die of love; but with sense and temper which ought to have made him judge and feel better, he allowed himself great latitude on such points.

Maria's thoughts on the subject were more unclear and vague. She didn't want to see or understand. “It can't hurt if she likes a charming guy—everyone knows her situation—Mr. Crawford has to look out for himself.” Mr. Crawford had no intention of being in any danger! The Miss Bertrams were worth impressing and were ready to be impressed; he started with no goal other than to make them like him. He didn’t want them to fall madly in love; but with the sense and temperament that should have made him judge and feel better, he gave himself a lot of leeway on such matters.

“I like your Miss Bertrams exceedingly, sister,” said he, as he returned from attending them to their carriage after the said dinner visit; “they are very elegant, agreeable girls.”

“I really like your Miss Bertrams, sister,” he said, as he returned from seeing them to their carriage after the dinner visit; “they're very classy and charming girls.”

“So they are indeed, and I am delighted to hear you say it. But you like Julia best.”

"So they really are, and I'm so happy to hear you say that. But you like Julia the most."

“Oh yes! I like Julia best.”

“Oh definitely! I like Julia the most.”

“But do you really? for Miss Bertram is in general thought the handsomest.”

“But do you really? Because Miss Bertram is generally considered the prettiest.”

“So I should suppose. She has the advantage in every feature, and I prefer her countenance; but I like Julia best; Miss Bertram is certainly the handsomest, and I have found her the most agreeable, but I shall always like Julia best, because you order me.”

“So I guess so. She has the edge in every aspect, and I prefer her face; but I like Julia the most; Miss Bertram is definitely the most beautiful, and I’ve found her to be the most pleasant, but I will always like Julia best, because you tell me to.”

“I shall not talk to you, Henry, but I know you will like her best at last.”

“I won't talk to you, Henry, but I know you will end up liking her the most.”

“Do not I tell you that I like her best at first?”

“Don’t I tell you that I like her the most at first?”

“And besides, Miss Bertram is engaged. Remember that, my dear brother. Her choice is made.”

“And by the way, Miss Bertram is engaged. Keep that in mind, my dear brother. She has made her choice.”

“Yes, and I like her the better for it. An engaged woman is always more agreeable than a disengaged. She is satisfied with herself. Her cares are over, and she feels that she may exert all her powers of pleasing without suspicion. All is safe with a lady engaged: no harm can be done.”

“Yes, and I like her even more for it. A woman who's engaged is always more pleasant than one who's not. She’s happy with herself. Her worries are gone, and she knows she can use all her charm without any doubts. Everything feels secure with an engaged lady: nothing can go wrong.”

“Why, as to that, Mr. Rushworth is a very good sort of young man, and it is a great match for her.”

“Honestly, Mr. Rushworth is a really nice young man, and it's a great match for her.”

“But Miss Bertram does not care three straws for him; that is your opinion of your intimate friend. I do not subscribe to it. I am sure Miss Bertram is very much attached to Mr. Rushworth. I could see it in her eyes, when he was mentioned. I think too well of Miss Bertram to suppose she would ever give her hand without her heart.”

“But Miss Bertram doesn't care at all for him; that is your opinion of your close friend. I don't agree with it. I'm sure Miss Bertram is very attached to Mr. Rushworth. I could see it in her eyes when he was mentioned. I think too highly of Miss Bertram to believe she would ever give her hand without her heart.”

“Mary, how shall we manage him?”

“Mary, how are we going to handle him?”

“We must leave him to himself, I believe. Talking does no good. He will be taken in at last.”

“We should let him figure things out on his own, I think. Talking won’t help. He’ll eventually come to terms with it.”

“But I would not have him taken in; I would not have him duped; I would have it all fair and honourable.”

“But I wouldn’t want him to be taken in; I wouldn’t want him to be fooled; I want everything to be fair and honorable.”

“Oh dear! let him stand his chance and be taken in. It will do just as well. Everybody is taken in at some period or other.”

“Oh no! Let him take his chance and get fooled. It’ll work out just fine. Everyone gets fooled at some point.”

“Not always in marriage, dear Mary.”

"Not always in marriage, dear Mary."

“In marriage especially. With all due respect to such of the present company as chance to be married, my dear Mrs. Grant, there is not one in a hundred of either sex who is not taken in when they marry. Look where I will, I see that it is so; and I feel that it must be so, when I consider that it is, of all transactions, the one in which people expect most from others, and are least honest themselves.”

“In marriage especially. With all due respect to those in this room who happen to be married, my dear Mrs. Grant, there isn’t one in a hundred, of either gender, who isn’t deceived when they get married. No matter where I look, I see that this is true; and I believe it must be true, considering that marriage, more than any other transaction, is where people expect the most from others while being the least honest themselves.”

“Ah! You have been in a bad school for matrimony, in Hill Street.”

“Ah! You’ve been in a bad place for marriage, in Hill Street.”

“My poor aunt had certainly little cause to love the state; but, however, speaking from my own observation, it is a manoeuvring business. I know so many who have married in the full expectation and confidence of some one particular advantage in the connexion, or accomplishment, or good quality in the person, who have found themselves entirely deceived, and been obliged to put up with exactly the reverse. What is this but a take in?”

“My poor aunt really had no reason to love the situation; still, based on what I’ve seen, it’s a tricky game. I know so many people who married thinking they would gain some specific benefit, skill, or good trait in their partner, only to discover they were completely misled and ended up with the exact opposite. What is this, if not a scam?”

“My dear child, there must be a little imagination here. I beg your pardon, but I cannot quite believe you. Depend upon it, you see but half. You see the evil, but you do not see the consolation. There will be little rubs and disappointments everywhere, and we are all apt to expect too much; but then, if one scheme of happiness fails, human nature turns to another; if the first calculation is wrong, we make a second better: we find comfort somewhere—and those evil-minded observers, dearest Mary, who make much of a little, are more taken in and deceived than the parties themselves.”

“My dear child, you need to use a little imagination here. I’m sorry, but I can’t quite believe you. Trust me, you only see part of the picture. You see the problems, but you're missing the comfort. There will be small bumps and disappointments everywhere, and we all tend to expect too much; however, if one plan for happiness doesn't work out, human nature just shifts to another. If our first guess is off, we come up with a better second one: we find solace somewhere—and those negative people, darling Mary, who blow things out of proportion, are often more fooled than the ones actually involved.”

“Well done, sister! I honour your esprit du corps. When I am a wife, I mean to be just as staunch myself; and I wish my friends in general would be so too. It would save me many a heartache.”

“Well done, sister! I admire your team spirit. When I become a wife, I plan to be just as steadfast myself; and I wish my friends would be the same too. It would save me a lot of heartache.”

“You are as bad as your brother, Mary; but we will cure you both. Mansfield shall cure you both, and without any taking in. Stay with us, and we will cure you.”

“You're just as bad as your brother, Mary, but we’ll fix you both. Mansfield will heal you both, and no tricks involved. Stick with us, and we’ll make you better.”

The Crawfords, without wanting to be cured, were very willing to stay. Mary was satisfied with the Parsonage as a present home, and Henry equally ready to lengthen his visit. He had come, intending to spend only a few days with them; but Mansfield promised well, and there was nothing to call him elsewhere. It delighted Mrs. Grant to keep them both with her, and Dr. Grant was exceedingly well contented to have it so: a talking pretty young woman like Miss Crawford is always pleasant society to an indolent, stay-at-home man; and Mr. Crawford’s being his guest was an excuse for drinking claret every day.

The Crawfords, not wanting to change, were more than happy to stay. Mary was pleased with the Parsonage as her current home, and Henry was just as willing to extend his visit. He had originally planned to spend only a few days with them, but Mansfield seemed charming, and there was nothing pulling him away. Mrs. Grant was thrilled to have them both with her, and Dr. Grant was very happy about it too: having a lively young woman like Miss Crawford around was always enjoyable company for a laid-back, homebody guy; plus, having Mr. Crawford as his guest was a great reason to enjoy claret every day.

The Miss Bertrams’ admiration of Mr. Crawford was more rapturous than anything which Miss Crawford’s habits made her likely to feel. She acknowledged, however, that the Mr. Bertrams were very fine young men, that two such young men were not often seen together even in London, and that their manners, particularly those of the eldest, were very good. He had been much in London, and had more liveliness and gallantry than Edmund, and must, therefore, be preferred; and, indeed, his being the eldest was another strong claim. She had felt an early presentiment that she should like the eldest best. She knew it was her way.

The Miss Bertrams' admiration for Mr. Crawford was more intense than anything Miss Crawford's personality would typically allow her to feel. She did admit, though, that the Mr. Bertrams were really impressive young men, that seeing two such young men together was rare even in London, and that their manners, especially those of the eldest, were quite good. He had spent a lot of time in London, had more energy and charm than Edmund, and so, he had to be the preferred choice; besides, being the eldest added to his appeal. She had sensed early on that she would end up liking the eldest best. She recognized that it was just her nature.

Tom Bertram must have been thought pleasant, indeed, at any rate; he was the sort of young man to be generally liked, his agreeableness was of the kind to be oftener found agreeable than some endowments of a higher stamp, for he had easy manners, excellent spirits, a large acquaintance, and a great deal to say; and the reversion of Mansfield Park, and a baronetcy, did no harm to all this. Miss Crawford soon felt that he and his situation might do. She looked about her with due consideration, and found almost everything in his favour: a park, a real park, five miles round, a spacious modern-built house, so well placed and well screened as to deserve to be in any collection of engravings of gentlemen’s seats in the kingdom, and wanting only to be completely new furnished—pleasant sisters, a quiet mother, and an agreeable man himself—with the advantage of being tied up from much gaming at present by a promise to his father, and of being Sir Thomas hereafter. It might do very well; she believed she should accept him; and she began accordingly to interest herself a little about the horse which he had to run at the B—— races.

Tom Bertram was definitely seen as a pleasant guy; he was the type of young man that people generally liked. His charm was more appealing than some higher-status traits because he had a relaxed demeanor, a cheerful outlook, a wide circle of friends, and plenty to talk about. Plus, the future inheritance of Mansfield Park and a baronetcy added to his appeal. Miss Crawford quickly realized that he and his situation could work for her. She looked around thoughtfully and found nearly everything in his favor: a real park surrounding the estate, a spacious modern house that was well-positioned and nicely secluded—worthy of any collection showcasing gentlemen’s homes in the country—needing only new furnishings. There were pleasant sisters, a calm mother, and an agreeable man himself, who was currently restricted from excessive gambling due to a promise to his father and was set to be Sir Thomas in the future. It seemed like a good match; she figured she would accept him, and she started to take an interest in the horse he had running at the B—— races.

These races were to call him away not long after their acquaintance began; and as it appeared that the family did not, from his usual goings on, expect him back again for many weeks, it would bring his passion to an early proof. Much was said on his side to induce her to attend the races, and schemes were made for a large party to them, with all the eagerness of inclination, but it would only do to be talked of.

These races were going to take him away not long after they met; and since it seemed that his family didn’t expect him back for many weeks due to his usual activities, it would put his feelings to the test early on. He said a lot to persuade her to come to the races, and there were plans made for a big group to go, fueled by excitement, but it ended up being just talk.

And Fanny, what was she doing and thinking all this while? and what was her opinion of the newcomers? Few young ladies of eighteen could be less called on to speak their opinion than Fanny. In a quiet way, very little attended to, she paid her tribute of admiration to Miss Crawford’s beauty; but as she still continued to think Mr. Crawford very plain, in spite of her two cousins having repeatedly proved the contrary, she never mentioned him. The notice, which she excited herself, was to this effect. “I begin now to understand you all, except Miss Price,” said Miss Crawford, as she was walking with the Mr. Bertrams. “Pray, is she out, or is she not? I am puzzled. She dined at the Parsonage, with the rest of you, which seemed like being out; and yet she says so little, that I can hardly suppose she is.”

And what was Fanny doing and thinking all this time? And what did she think of the newcomers? Few young ladies at eighteen were less likely to share their opinions than Fanny. In her quiet way, mostly overlooked, she admired Miss Crawford's beauty; however, she still thought Mr. Crawford was very plain, despite her two cousins repeatedly proving otherwise, so she never mentioned him. The observation she made was this: “I’m beginning to understand all of you, except for Miss Price,” said Miss Crawford as she walked with the Mr. Bertrams. “Is she out, or isn’t she? I’m confused. She dined at the Parsonage with the rest of you, which seemed like being out; yet she says so little that I can hardly believe she is.”

Edmund, to whom this was chiefly addressed, replied, “I believe I know what you mean, but I will not undertake to answer the question. My cousin is grown up. She has the age and sense of a woman, but the outs and not outs are beyond me.”

Edmund, to whom this was mainly directed, replied, “I think I understand what you mean, but I won’t attempt to answer that question. My cousin is all grown up. She has the age and maturity of a woman, but the ins and outs are beyond me.”

“And yet, in general, nothing can be more easily ascertained. The distinction is so broad. Manners as well as appearance are, generally speaking, so totally different. Till now, I could not have supposed it possible to be mistaken as to a girl’s being out or not. A girl not out has always the same sort of dress: a close bonnet, for instance; looks very demure, and never says a word. You may smile, but it is so, I assure you; and except that it is sometimes carried a little too far, it is all very proper. Girls should be quiet and modest. The most objectionable part is, that the alteration of manners on being introduced into company is frequently too sudden. They sometimes pass in such very little time from reserve to quite the opposite—to confidence! That is the faulty part of the present system. One does not like to see a girl of eighteen or nineteen so immediately up to every thing—and perhaps when one has seen her hardly able to speak the year before. Mr. Bertram, I dare say you have sometimes met with such changes.”

“And yet, in general, nothing could be easier to figure out. The difference is so clear. Manners and appearances are usually so completely distinct. Until now, I would not have thought it possible to mistakenly identify whether a girl is out or not. A girl who isn’t out always wears the same kind of dress: a close-fitting bonnet, for example; looks very reserved, and never says a word. You might laugh, but it’s true, I assure you; and aside from the fact that it can sometimes go a bit too far, it’s all quite proper. Girls should be quiet and modest. The most concerning part is that the shift in manners when introduced to company can be too abrupt. They can transition in such a short time from being reserved to being completely confident! That is the drawback of the current system. It’s unsettling to see an eighteen or nineteen-year-old girl so quickly become familiar—with perhaps only a year prior when she had trouble speaking. Mr. Bertram, I’m sure you have occasionally witnessed such transformations.”

“I believe I have, but this is hardly fair; I see what you are at. You are quizzing me and Miss Anderson.”

“I think I have, but this isn't fair at all; I get what you're doing. You’re putting me and Miss Anderson on the spot.”

“No, indeed. Miss Anderson! I do not know who or what you mean. I am quite in the dark. But I will quiz you with a great deal of pleasure, if you will tell me what about.”

“No, really, Miss Anderson! I have no idea who or what you're talking about. I'm completely in the dark. But I would love to question you about it, if you tell me what it's about.”

“Ah! you carry it off very well, but I cannot be quite so far imposed on. You must have had Miss Anderson in your eye, in describing an altered young lady. You paint too accurately for mistake. It was exactly so. The Andersons of Baker Street. We were speaking of them the other day, you know. Edmund, you have heard me mention Charles Anderson. The circumstance was precisely as this lady has represented it. When Anderson first introduced me to his family, about two years ago, his sister was not out, and I could not get her to speak to me. I sat there an hour one morning waiting for Anderson, with only her and a little girl or two in the room, the governess being sick or run away, and the mother in and out every moment with letters of business, and I could hardly get a word or a look from the young lady—nothing like a civil answer—she screwed up her mouth, and turned from me with such an air! I did not see her again for a twelvemonth. She was then out. I met her at Mrs. Holford’s, and did not recollect her. She came up to me, claimed me as an acquaintance, stared me out of countenance; and talked and laughed till I did not know which way to look. I felt that I must be the jest of the room at the time, and Miss Crawford, it is plain, has heard the story.”

"Ah! You pull it off really well, but I can’t be completely fooled. You must have had Miss Anderson in mind when you described a changed young lady. You’re too accurate for it to be a mistake. It was exactly that way. The Andersons of Baker Street. We were talking about them the other day, you know. Edmund, you’ve heard me mention Charles Anderson. The situation was just as this lady has described it. When Anderson first introduced me to his family about two years ago, his sister wasn’t out yet, and I couldn’t get her to talk to me. I sat there for an hour one morning waiting for Anderson, with just her and a couple of little girls in the room, the governess being sick or missing, and their mother in and out every moment with business letters, and I could barely get a word or a look from the young lady—nothing like a polite reply—she frowned at me and turned away with such an attitude! I didn’t see her again for a whole year. Then she was out. I ran into her at Mrs. Holford’s and didn’t recognize her. She came up to me, claimed to know me, stared me down; she talked and laughed until I didn’t know where to look. I felt like I must have been the joke of the room at that moment, and Miss Crawford, it’s clear, has heard the story."

“And a very pretty story it is, and with more truth in it, I dare say, than does credit to Miss Anderson. It is too common a fault. Mothers certainly have not yet got quite the right way of managing their daughters. I do not know where the error lies. I do not pretend to set people right, but I do see that they are often wrong.”

“And it’s a really nice story, and I’d say there’s more truth in it than Miss Anderson deserves. It’s a pretty common issue. Mothers definitely don’t have the best approach to managing their daughters yet. I’m not sure where the mistake comes from. I don’t claim to have all the answers, but it’s clear to me that they often get it wrong.”

“Those who are showing the world what female manners should be,” said Mr. Bertram gallantly, “are doing a great deal to set them right.”

“Those who are demonstrating what female behavior should be,” said Mr. Bertram confidently, “are doing a lot to correct them.”

“The error is plain enough,” said the less courteous Edmund; “such girls are ill brought up. They are given wrong notions from the beginning. They are always acting upon motives of vanity, and there is no more real modesty in their behaviour before they appear in public than afterwards.”

“The mistake is obvious,” said the less polite Edmund; “those girls are poorly raised. They get the wrong ideas from the start. They always act out of vanity, and there is no more real modesty in their behavior before they go out in public than there is afterward.”

“I do not know,” replied Miss Crawford hesitatingly. “Yes, I cannot agree with you there. It is certainly the modestest part of the business. It is much worse to have girls not out give themselves the same airs and take the same liberties as if they were, which I have seen done. That is worse than anything—quite disgusting!”

“I don’t know,” Miss Crawford replied hesitantly. “Yeah, I can’t agree with you on that. It’s definitely the most modest part of the whole thing. It’s much worse when girls who aren’t out act as if they are and take the same liberties, which I’ve seen happen. That’s worse than anything—totally disgusting!”

“Yes, that is very inconvenient indeed,” said Mr. Bertram. “It leads one astray; one does not know what to do. The close bonnet and demure air you describe so well (and nothing was ever juster), tell one what is expected; but I got into a dreadful scrape last year from the want of them. I went down to Ramsgate for a week with a friend last September, just after my return from the West Indies. My friend Sneyd—you have heard me speak of Sneyd, Edmund—his father, and mother, and sisters, were there, all new to me. When we reached Albion Place they were out; we went after them, and found them on the pier: Mrs. and the two Miss Sneyds, with others of their acquaintance. I made my bow in form; and as Mrs. Sneyd was surrounded by men, attached myself to one of her daughters, walked by her side all the way home, and made myself as agreeable as I could; the young lady perfectly easy in her manners, and as ready to talk as to listen. I had not a suspicion that I could be doing anything wrong. They looked just the same: both well-dressed, with veils and parasols like other girls; but I afterwards found that I had been giving all my attention to the youngest, who was not out, and had most excessively offended the eldest. Miss Augusta ought not to have been noticed for the next six months; and Miss Sneyd, I believe, has never forgiven me.”

“Yes, that is very inconvenient indeed,” said Mr. Bertram. “It leads one astray; one doesn’t know what to do. The close bonnet and proper demeanor you describe so well (and nothing was ever more accurate), tell one what is expected; but I got into a terrible situation last year because of their absence. I went down to Ramsgate for a week with a friend last September, just after I returned from the West Indies. My friend Sneyd—you’ve heard me talk about Sneyd, Edmund—his father, mother, and sisters were there, all new to me. When we reached Albion Place, they were out; we went after them and found them on the pier: Mrs. and the two Miss Sneyds, along with others they knew. I made my proper introduction; and as Mrs. Sneyd was surrounded by men, I attached myself to one of her daughters, walking by her side all the way home and trying to be as charming as I could; the young lady was completely at ease, and just as ready to talk as to listen. I had no idea I could be doing anything wrong. They looked just the same: both well-dressed, with veils and parasols like other girls; but I later found out that I had been paying all my attention to the youngest, who wasn't out, and had greatly offended the eldest. Miss Augusta shouldn’t have been acknowledged for the next six months; and I believe Miss Sneyd has never forgiven me.”

“That was bad indeed. Poor Miss Sneyd. Though I have no younger sister, I feel for her. To be neglected before one’s time must be very vexatious; but it was entirely the mother’s fault. Miss Augusta should have been with her governess. Such half-and-half doings never prosper. But now I must be satisfied about Miss Price. Does she go to balls? Does she dine out every where, as well as at my sister’s?”

"That was really unfortunate. Poor Miss Sneyd. Even though I don’t have a younger sister, I can empathize with her. Being overlooked at such a young age must be really frustrating; but it was totally the mother’s fault. Miss Augusta should have been with her governess. Those kinds of mixed arrangements never work out. But now I need to know about Miss Price. Does she go to parties? Does she eat out everywhere, as well as at my sister’s?"

“No,” replied Edmund; “I do not think she has ever been to a ball. My mother seldom goes into company herself, and dines nowhere but with Mrs. Grant, and Fanny stays at home with her.”

“No,” replied Edmund; “I don’t think she’s ever been to a ball. My mother rarely goes out, and only dines with Mrs. Grant, while Fanny stays home with her.”

“Oh! then the point is clear. Miss Price is not out.”

“Oh! Then the point is clear. Miss Price is still inside.”

CHAPTER VI

Mr. Bertram set off for————, and Miss Crawford was prepared to find a great chasm in their society, and to miss him decidedly in the meetings which were now becoming almost daily between the families; and on their all dining together at the Park soon after his going, she retook her chosen place near the bottom of the table, fully expecting to feel a most melancholy difference in the change of masters. It would be a very flat business, she was sure. In comparison with his brother, Edmund would have nothing to say. The soup would be sent round in a most spiritless manner, wine drank without any smiles or agreeable trifling, and the venison cut up without supplying one pleasant anecdote of any former haunch, or a single entertaining story, about “my friend such a one.” She must try to find amusement in what was passing at the upper end of the table, and in observing Mr. Rushworth, who was now making his appearance at Mansfield for the first time since the Crawfords’ arrival. He had been visiting a friend in the neighbouring county, and that friend having recently had his grounds laid out by an improver, Mr. Rushworth was returned with his head full of the subject, and very eager to be improving his own place in the same way; and though not saying much to the purpose, could talk of nothing else. The subject had been already handled in the drawing-room; it was revived in the dining-parlour. Miss Bertram’s attention and opinion was evidently his chief aim; and though her deportment showed rather conscious superiority than any solicitude to oblige him, the mention of Sotherton Court, and the ideas attached to it, gave her a feeling of complacency, which prevented her from being very ungracious.

Mr. Bertram set off for————, and Miss Crawford was prepared to notice a significant gap in their social circle and to definitely miss him during the meetings that were becoming almost daily among the families. When they all dined together at the Park shortly after he left, she took her usual seat near the bottom of the table, fully expecting to feel a very melancholy difference in the change of hosts. She was sure it would be quite dull. Compared to his brother, Edmund wouldn’t have anything interesting to say. The soup would be served in a very lifeless manner, wine would be consumed without any smiles or lighthearted banter, and the venison would be carved without any amusing anecdotes about previous haunches or entertaining stories about “my friend such-and-such.” She would have to find entertainment in what was happening at the other end of the table, particularly in observing Mr. Rushworth, who was now making his first appearance at Mansfield since the Crawfords' arrival. He had been visiting a friend in the nearby county, and that friend had recently had his grounds redesigned by an expert, so Mr. Rushworth returned with his mind full of ideas and was eager to improve his own estate in the same way; and although he didn't say much of real substance, he could only talk about that. The topic had already been discussed in the drawing-room; it came up again in the dining room. Clearly, Miss Bertram's attention and opinion were his main goals, and although her demeanor showed more of a conscious superiority than any desire to please him, the mention of Sotherton Court and the ideas associated with it gave her a sense of satisfaction that stopped her from being overly rude.

“I wish you could see Compton,” said he; “it is the most complete thing! I never saw a place so altered in my life. I told Smith I did not know where I was. The approach now, is one of the finest things in the country: you see the house in the most surprising manner. I declare, when I got back to Sotherton yesterday, it looked like a prison—quite a dismal old prison.”

“I wish you could see Compton,” he said; “it's amazing! I've never seen a place change so much in my life. I told Smith I didn’t even recognize it. The entrance now is one of the best in the country: you catch sight of the house in the most unexpected way. Honestly, when I returned to Sotherton yesterday, it looked like a prison—just a gloomy old jail.”

“Oh, for shame!” cried Mrs. Norris. “A prison indeed? Sotherton Court is the noblest old place in the world.”

“Oh, how shameful!” cried Mrs. Norris. “A prison, really? Sotherton Court is the finest old place in the world.”

“It wants improvement, ma’am, beyond anything. I never saw a place that wanted so much improvement in my life; and it is so forlorn that I do not know what can be done with it.”

“It needs improvement, ma’am, more than anything. I’ve never seen a place that needed so much improvement in my life; and it’s so hopeless that I don’t know what can be done with it.”

“No wonder that Mr. Rushworth should think so at present,” said Mrs. Grant to Mrs. Norris, with a smile; “but depend upon it, Sotherton will have every improvement in time which his heart can desire.”

“No wonder Mr. Rushworth thinks that way right now,” Mrs. Grant said to Mrs. Norris with a smile; “but trust me, Sotherton will have every improvement he could ever want over time.”

“I must try to do something with it,” said Mr. Rushworth, “but I do not know what. I hope I shall have some good friend to help me.”

“I need to figure something out with it,” Mr. Rushworth said, “but I have no idea what. I hope I can count on a good friend to help me.”

“Your best friend upon such an occasion,” said Miss Bertram calmly, “would be Mr. Repton, I imagine.”

“Your best friend in a situation like this,” Miss Bertram said calmly, “would be Mr. Repton, I guess.”

“That is what I was thinking of. As he has done so well by Smith, I think I had better have him at once. His terms are five guineas a day.”

“That’s what I was thinking. Since he has done so well for Smith, I think I should hire him immediately. His rate is five guineas a day.”

“Well, and if they were ten,” cried Mrs. Norris, “I am sure you need not regard it. The expense need not be any impediment. If I were you, I should not think of the expense. I would have everything done in the best style, and made as nice as possible. Such a place as Sotherton Court deserves everything that taste and money can do. You have space to work upon there, and grounds that will well reward you. For my own part, if I had anything within the fiftieth part of the size of Sotherton, I should be always planting and improving, for naturally I am excessively fond of it. It would be too ridiculous for me to attempt anything where I am now, with my little half acre. It would be quite a burlesque. But if I had more room, I should take a prodigious delight in improving and planting. We did a vast deal in that way at the Parsonage: we made it quite a different place from what it was when we first had it. You young ones do not remember much about it, perhaps; but if dear Sir Thomas were here, he could tell you what improvements we made: and a great deal more would have been done, but for poor Mr. Norris’s sad state of health. He could hardly ever get out, poor man, to enjoy anything, and that disheartened me from doing several things that Sir Thomas and I used to talk of. If it had not been for that, we should have carried on the garden wall, and made the plantation to shut out the churchyard, just as Dr. Grant has done. We were always doing something as it was. It was only the spring twelvemonth before Mr. Norris’s death that we put in the apricot against the stable wall, which is now grown such a noble tree, and getting to such perfection, sir,” addressing herself then to Dr. Grant.

“Well, even if it costs ten,” exclaimed Mrs. Norris, “I’m sure you shouldn’t worry about it. The cost shouldn’t be a problem. If I were in your shoes, I wouldn’t think about the expense. I would have everything done in the best way possible, making it as nice as I could. A place like Sotherton Court deserves everything that good taste and money can provide. You have the space to work with there, and the grounds will be very rewarding. Personally, if I had anything even one-fiftieth the size of Sotherton, I’d always be planting and improving because I genuinely love it. It would be absurd for me to attempt anything with my little half-acre now. That would just be a joke. But if I had more space, I would find immense joy in enhancing and planting. We did a lot in that respect at the Parsonage; we transformed it from what it was when we first got it. You young ones might not remember much about it, but if dear Sir Thomas were here, he could tell you about the improvements we made—and even more would have been done if not for poor Mr. Norris’s unfortunate health. He could hardly ever get out, poor man, to enjoy anything, and that discouraged me from doing several things that Sir Thomas and I had talked about. If it hadn’t been for that, we would have expanded the garden wall and created a planting area to block the churchyard, just like Dr. Grant has done. We were always working on something as it was. It was only the spring year before Mr. Norris’s death that we planted the apricot against the stable wall, which has now grown into such a beautiful tree, and is reaching such perfection, sir,” she said, turning to Dr. Grant.

“The tree thrives well, beyond a doubt, madam,” replied Dr. Grant. “The soil is good; and I never pass it without regretting that the fruit should be so little worth the trouble of gathering.”

“The tree is doing great, no doubt about it, ma'am,” replied Dr. Grant. “The soil is good, and I always walk by it wishing the fruit wasn’t such a hassle to pick.”

“Sir, it is a Moor Park, we bought it as a Moor Park, and it cost us—that is, it was a present from Sir Thomas, but I saw the bill—and I know it cost seven shillings, and was charged as a Moor Park.”

“Sir, it is a Moor Park. We bought it as a Moor Park, and it cost us—that is, it was a gift from Sir Thomas, but I saw the bill—and I know it cost seven shillings and was listed as a Moor Park.”

“You were imposed on, ma’am,” replied Dr. Grant: “these potatoes have as much the flavour of a Moor Park apricot as the fruit from that tree. It is an insipid fruit at the best; but a good apricot is eatable, which none from my garden are.”

“You've been misled, ma’am,” Dr. Grant replied. “These potatoes taste as much like a Moor Park apricot as the fruit from that tree does. It’s tasteless at best; but a good apricot is edible, which none from my garden are.”

“The truth is, ma’am,” said Mrs. Grant, pretending to whisper across the table to Mrs. Norris, “that Dr. Grant hardly knows what the natural taste of our apricot is: he is scarcely ever indulged with one, for it is so valuable a fruit; with a little assistance, and ours is such a remarkably large, fair sort, that what with early tarts and preserves, my cook contrives to get them all.”

“The truth is, ma’am,” said Mrs. Grant, pretending to whisper across the table to Mrs. Norris, “that Dr. Grant hardly knows what our apricot actually tastes like: he rarely gets to enjoy one because it’s such a valuable fruit; with a little help, and ours is such an unusually large, beautiful variety, that thanks to early tarts and preserves, my cook manages to use them all.”

Mrs. Norris, who had begun to redden, was appeased; and, for a little while, other subjects took place of the improvements of Sotherton. Dr. Grant and Mrs. Norris were seldom good friends; their acquaintance had begun in dilapidations, and their habits were totally dissimilar.

Mrs. Norris, who had started to blush, calmed down; and for a little while, different topics replaced the discussion about the improvements at Sotherton. Dr. Grant and Mrs. Norris were rarely on good terms; their relationship had started with some grievances, and their habits were completely different.

After a short interruption Mr. Rushworth began again. “Smith’s place is the admiration of all the country; and it was a mere nothing before Repton took it in hand. I think I shall have Repton.”

After a brief pause, Mr. Rushworth started again. “Smith’s place is the pride of the entire region; it was practically nothing before Repton got involved. I think I’ll hire Repton.”

“Mr. Rushworth,” said Lady Bertram, “if I were you, I would have a very pretty shrubbery. One likes to get out into a shrubbery in fine weather.”

“Mr. Rushworth,” Lady Bertram said, “if I were you, I would create a lovely shrub garden. It’s nice to be in a garden during good weather.”

Mr. Rushworth was eager to assure her ladyship of his acquiescence, and tried to make out something complimentary; but, between his submission to her taste, and his having always intended the same himself, with the superadded objects of professing attention to the comfort of ladies in general, and of insinuating that there was one only whom he was anxious to please, he grew puzzled, and Edmund was glad to put an end to his speech by a proposal of wine. Mr. Rushworth, however, though not usually a great talker, had still more to say on the subject next his heart. “Smith has not much above a hundred acres altogether in his grounds, which is little enough, and makes it more surprising that the place can have been so improved. Now, at Sotherton we have a good seven hundred, without reckoning the water meadows; so that I think, if so much could be done at Compton, we need not despair. There have been two or three fine old trees cut down, that grew too near the house, and it opens the prospect amazingly, which makes me think that Repton, or anybody of that sort, would certainly have the avenue at Sotherton down: the avenue that leads from the west front to the top of the hill, you know,” turning to Miss Bertram particularly as he spoke. But Miss Bertram thought it most becoming to reply—

Mr. Rushworth was eager to assure her ladyship of his agreement and tried to say something flattering; but with his submission to her preferences and his own intentions already aligned, along with his goals of showing concern for ladies’ comfort in general and hinting that there was only one woman he really wanted to please, he became confused. Edmund was relieved to interrupt him with a suggestion to have some wine. However, Mr. Rushworth, though not usually very chatty, had more to say about the topic closest to his heart. “Smith has barely a hundred acres total on his property, which is pretty small, so it’s surprising how much he’s managed to improve it. Meanwhile, we have a solid seven hundred acres at Sotherton, not counting the water meadows. So, if that much can be done at Compton, I think we shouldn’t lose hope. A couple of really nice old trees were cut down that were too close to the house, and it really opens up the view, which makes me think that Repton, or someone like him, would definitely recommend taking down the avenue at Sotherton—the one that goes from the west front to the top of the hill, you know,” he said, directing his comments specifically to Miss Bertram. But Miss Bertram felt it was most appropriate to reply—

“The avenue! Oh! I do not recollect it. I really know very little of Sotherton.”

“The avenue! Oh! I don’t remember it. I really don’t know much about Sotherton.”

Fanny, who was sitting on the other side of Edmund, exactly opposite Miss Crawford, and who had been attentively listening, now looked at him, and said in a low voice—

Fanny, sitting on the other side of Edmund, directly across from Miss Crawford, who had been listening carefully, now turned to him and said in a quiet voice—

“Cut down an avenue! What a pity! Does it not make you think of Cowper? ‘Ye fallen avenues, once more I mourn your fate unmerited.’”

“Cut down an avenue! What a shame! Doesn’t it remind you of Cowper? ‘You fallen avenues, once again I mourn your undeserved fate.’”

He smiled as he answered, “I am afraid the avenue stands a bad chance, Fanny.”

He smiled as he replied, “I’m afraid the avenue doesn’t stand much of a chance, Fanny.”

“I should like to see Sotherton before it is cut down, to see the place as it is now, in its old state; but I do not suppose I shall.”

“I’d like to see Sotherton before it’s cut down, to check out the place as it is now, in its original condition; but I doubt I will.”

“Have you never been there? No, you never can; and, unluckily, it is out of distance for a ride. I wish we could contrive it.”

“Have you never been there? No, you never can; and, unfortunately, it’s too far for a ride. I wish we could figure it out.”

“Oh! it does not signify. Whenever I do see it, you will tell me how it has been altered.”

“Oh! It doesn’t matter. Whenever I do see it, you’ll tell me how it’s changed.”

“I collect,” said Miss Crawford, “that Sotherton is an old place, and a place of some grandeur. In any particular style of building?”

“I collect,” said Miss Crawford, “that Sotherton is an old place and has some grandeur. In any specific style of architecture?”

“The house was built in Elizabeth’s time, and is a large, regular, brick building; heavy, but respectable looking, and has many good rooms. It is ill placed. It stands in one of the lowest spots of the park; in that respect, unfavourable for improvement. But the woods are fine, and there is a stream, which, I dare say, might be made a good deal of. Mr. Rushworth is quite right, I think, in meaning to give it a modern dress, and I have no doubt that it will be all done extremely well.”

"The house was built in Elizabeth's era, and it's a large, standard brick building; sturdy but looks respectable, with many nice rooms. However, it's poorly situated. It sits in one of the lowest areas of the park, which isn’t great for improvements. But the woods are impressive, and there’s a stream that could definitely be enhanced. I believe Mr. Rushworth is right in wanting to give it a modern look, and I'm sure it will be done extremely well."

Miss Crawford listened with submission, and said to herself, “He is a well-bred man; he makes the best of it.”

Miss Crawford listened quietly and thought to herself, “He’s a well-mannered guy; he makes the most of it.”

“I do not wish to influence Mr. Rushworth,” he continued; “but, had I a place to new fashion, I should not put myself into the hands of an improver. I would rather have an inferior degree of beauty, of my own choice, and acquired progressively. I would rather abide by my own blunders than by his.”

“I don’t want to sway Mr. Rushworth,” he went on; “but if I had a place to redesign, I wouldn’t rely on an expert. I’d prefer to have a lower level of beauty that’s my own choice and developed over time. I’d rather stick with my own mistakes than his.”

You would know what you were about, of course; but that would not suit me. I have no eye or ingenuity for such matters, but as they are before me; and had I a place of my own in the country, I should be most thankful to any Mr. Repton who would undertake it, and give me as much beauty as he could for my money; and I should never look at it till it was complete.”

You would know what you were doing, of course; but that wouldn’t work for me. I don’t have the eye or creativity for that kind of thing, but when it’s in front of me; and if I had a place of my own in the country, I would be really grateful to any Mr. Repton who would take it on and give me as much beauty as he could for my money; and I wouldn’t look at it until it was finished.

“It would be delightful to me to see the progress of it all,” said Fanny.

“It would be great for me to see how it all turns out,” said Fanny.

“Ay, you have been brought up to it. It was no part of my education; and the only dose I ever had, being administered by not the first favourite in the world, has made me consider improvements in hand as the greatest of nuisances. Three years ago the Admiral, my honoured uncle, bought a cottage at Twickenham for us all to spend our summers in; and my aunt and I went down to it quite in raptures; but it being excessively pretty, it was soon found necessary to be improved, and for three months we were all dirt and confusion, without a gravel walk to step on, or a bench fit for use. I would have everything as complete as possible in the country, shrubberies and flower-gardens, and rustic seats innumerable: but it must all be done without my care. Henry is different; he loves to be doing.”

"Yeah, you've been raised for this. It wasn't part of my upbringing; and the only experience I ever had, given to me by someone who wasn't exactly my favorite person, has made me see improvements as the biggest hassle. Three years ago, my esteemed uncle, the Admiral, bought a cottage in Twickenham for us to spend our summers in; and my aunt and I were over the moon about it. But since it was incredibly charming, we soon found it necessary to make improvements, and for three months, we were surrounded by dirt and chaos, without a gravel path to walk on or a bench that was actually usable. I want everything to be as perfect as possible in the countryside—shrubs, flower gardens, and countless rustic seats—but it all has to be done without me having to worry about it. Henry is different; he loves to be involved."

Edmund was sorry to hear Miss Crawford, whom he was much disposed to admire, speak so freely of her uncle. It did not suit his sense of propriety, and he was silenced, till induced by further smiles and liveliness to put the matter by for the present.

Edmund was disappointed to hear Miss Crawford, whom he admired a lot, speak so openly about her uncle. It didn't sit right with his sense of propriety, and he was at a loss for words until her continued smiles and energy encouraged him to set the issue aside for now.

“Mr. Bertram,” said she, “I have tidings of my harp at last. I am assured that it is safe at Northampton; and there it has probably been these ten days, in spite of the solemn assurances we have so often received to the contrary.” Edmund expressed his pleasure and surprise. “The truth is, that our inquiries were too direct; we sent a servant, we went ourselves: this will not do seventy miles from London; but this morning we heard of it in the right way. It was seen by some farmer, and he told the miller, and the miller told the butcher, and the butcher’s son-in-law left word at the shop.”

“Mr. Bertram,” she said, “I finally have news about my harp. I've been told that it’s safe in Northampton; and it’s likely been there for about ten days, despite all the firm reassurances we’ve received to the contrary.” Edmund expressed his happiness and surprise. “The truth is, our searches were too obvious; we sent a servant and we went ourselves: that doesn’t work when you’re seventy miles from London; but this morning we learned about it the right way. A farmer saw it, he told the miller, and the miller told the butcher, and the butcher’s son-in-law left a message at the shop.”

“I am very glad that you have heard of it, by whatever means, and hope there will be no further delay.”

“I’m really glad you’ve heard about it, however that happened, and I hope there won’t be any more delays.”

“I am to have it to-morrow; but how do you think it is to be conveyed? Not by a wagon or cart: oh no! nothing of that kind could be hired in the village. I might as well have asked for porters and a handbarrow.”

“I’m supposed to get it tomorrow; but how do you think it’s going to be delivered? Not by a wagon or cart: oh no! There’s nothing like that available in the village. I might as well have asked for porters and a hand truck.”

“You would find it difficult, I dare say, just now, in the middle of a very late hay harvest, to hire a horse and cart?”

“You would probably find it hard right now, in the middle of a very late hay harvest, to hire a horse and cart?”

“I was astonished to find what a piece of work was made of it! To want a horse and cart in the country seemed impossible, so I told my maid to speak for one directly; and as I cannot look out of my dressing-closet without seeing one farmyard, nor walk in the shrubbery without passing another, I thought it would be only ask and have, and was rather grieved that I could not give the advantage to all. Guess my surprise, when I found that I had been asking the most unreasonable, most impossible thing in the world; had offended all the farmers, all the labourers, all the hay in the parish! As for Dr. Grant’s bailiff, I believe I had better keep out of his way; and my brother-in-law himself, who is all kindness in general, looked rather black upon me when he found what I had been at.”

“I was shocked to see what trouble I had caused! Wanting a horse and cart in the countryside seemed ridiculous, so I told my maid to ask for one right away; and since I can’t look out of my dressing room without seeing one farmyard or walk in the garden without passing another, I thought it would be easy to just ask and receive, and I felt sorry that I couldn't give everyone a chance to help. Imagine my surprise when I learned that I had asked for the most unreasonable, impossible thing! I had upset all the farmers, all the laborers, and all the hay in the parish! As for Dr. Grant’s bailiff, I think it’s best to stay out of his way; and even my brother-in-law, who is usually kind, looked rather annoyed when he found out what I had done.”

“You could not be expected to have thought on the subject before; but when you do think of it, you must see the importance of getting in the grass. The hire of a cart at any time might not be so easy as you suppose: our farmers are not in the habit of letting them out; but, in harvest, it must be quite out of their power to spare a horse.”

"You probably hadn't thought about it before, but once you do, you'll realize how important it is to get the grass in. Renting a cart might not be as easy as you think: our farmers usually don't let them out; and during harvest time, they really can't afford to spare a horse."

“I shall understand all your ways in time; but, coming down with the true London maxim, that everything is to be got with money, I was a little embarrassed at first by the sturdy independence of your country customs. However, I am to have my harp fetched to-morrow. Henry, who is good-nature itself, has offered to fetch it in his barouche. Will it not be honourably conveyed?”

“I’ll understand all your ways eventually; but, sticking to the true London saying that you can get anything with money, I was a bit taken aback at first by your country’s strong sense of independence. However, I’m having my harp brought over tomorrow. Henry, who is just the kindest person, has offered to pick it up in his carriage. Won’t it be delivered properly?”

Edmund spoke of the harp as his favourite instrument, and hoped to be soon allowed to hear her. Fanny had never heard the harp at all, and wished for it very much.

Edmund talked about the harp as his favorite instrument and hoped he would be allowed to hear it soon. Fanny had never heard the harp either and wished she could.

“I shall be most happy to play to you both,” said Miss Crawford; “at least as long as you can like to listen: probably much longer, for I dearly love music myself, and where the natural taste is equal the player must always be best off, for she is gratified in more ways than one. Now, Mr. Bertram, if you write to your brother, I entreat you to tell him that my harp is come: he heard so much of my misery about it. And you may say, if you please, that I shall prepare my most plaintive airs against his return, in compassion to his feelings, as I know his horse will lose.”

“I would be really happy to play for both of you,” said Miss Crawford; “at least as long as you enjoy listening: probably much longer, because I love music myself, and when the taste is shared, the player is always in a better spot, since she gets satisfaction in more ways than one. Now, Mr. Bertram, if you write to your brother, please tell him that my harp has arrived: he heard so much about my sadness regarding it. And you may mention, if you like, that I will prepare my most sorrowful tunes for his return, out of sympathy for his feelings, knowing his horse will lose.”

“If I write, I will say whatever you wish me; but I do not, at present, foresee any occasion for writing.”

“If I write, I will say whatever you want me to; but right now, I don’t see any reason to write.”

“No, I dare say, nor if he were to be gone a twelvemonth, would you ever write to him, nor he to you, if it could be helped. The occasion would never be foreseen. What strange creatures brothers are! You would not write to each other but upon the most urgent necessity in the world; and when obliged to take up the pen to say that such a horse is ill, or such a relation dead, it is done in the fewest possible words. You have but one style among you. I know it perfectly. Henry, who is in every other respect exactly what a brother should be, who loves me, consults me, confides in me, and will talk to me by the hour together, has never yet turned the page in a letter; and very often it is nothing more than—‘Dear Mary, I am just arrived. Bath seems full, and everything as usual. Yours sincerely.’ That is the true manly style; that is a complete brother’s letter.”

“No, I honestly don’t think that even if he were gone for a whole year, you would ever write to him, nor he to you, if it could be avoided. The reason for writing would never be anticipated. How strange brothers can be! You wouldn’t reach out to each other unless it was absolutely necessary; and when you had to pick up the pen to say that a horse is sick or that a relative has died, it’s done in as few words as possible. You share only one style. I know it very well. Henry, who in every other way is exactly what a brother should be—who loves me, seeks my advice, confides in me, and can talk to me for hours—has never written more than a couple of lines in a letter; and often it’s nothing more than, ‘Dear Mary, I just arrived. Bath seems crowded, and everything is as usual. Yours sincerely.’ That’s the true manly style; that’s a proper brother’s letter.”

“When they are at a distance from all their family,” said Fanny, colouring for William’s sake, “they can write long letters.”

“When they’re away from all their family,” Fanny said, blushing for William’s sake, “they can write long letters.”

“Miss Price has a brother at sea,” said Edmund, “whose excellence as a correspondent makes her think you too severe upon us.”

“Miss Price has a brother at sea,” Edmund said, “whose skills in writing make her feel you’re being too hard on us.”

“At sea, has she? In the king’s service, of course?”

“At sea, has she? In the king’s service, right?”

Fanny would rather have had Edmund tell the story, but his determined silence obliged her to relate her brother’s situation: her voice was animated in speaking of his profession, and the foreign stations he had been on; but she could not mention the number of years that he had been absent without tears in her eyes. Miss Crawford civilly wished him an early promotion.

Fanny would have preferred Edmund to share the story, but his firm silence forced her to explain her brother’s situation: her voice lit up when she talked about his job and the different countries he had been stationed in; however, she couldn't mention how many years he had been gone without getting teary-eyed. Miss Crawford politely wished him a quick promotion.

“Do you know anything of my cousin’s captain?” said Edmund; “Captain Marshall? You have a large acquaintance in the navy, I conclude?”

“Do you know anything about my cousin’s captain?” asked Edmund; “Captain Marshall? I assume you have a lot of friends in the navy?”

“Among admirals, large enough; but,” with an air of grandeur, “we know very little of the inferior ranks. Post-captains may be very good sort of men, but they do not belong to us. Of various admirals I could tell you a great deal: of them and their flags, and the gradation of their pay, and their bickerings and jealousies. But, in general, I can assure you that they are all passed over, and all very ill used. Certainly, my home at my uncle’s brought me acquainted with a circle of admirals. Of Rears and Vices I saw enough. Now do not be suspecting me of a pun, I entreat.”

“Among admirals, there are plenty; but,” with a sense of importance, “we know very little about the lower ranks. Post-captains can be decent guys, but they’re not part of our group. I could tell you a lot about various admirals: their flags, their pay scale, and their conflicts and rivalries. But generally speaking, I can assure you that they are all overlooked and mistreated. My time at my uncle’s house definitely introduced me to a circle of admirals. I saw enough of Rears and Vices. Now, please don’t think I’m making a pun; I’m asking you not to.”

Edmund again felt grave, and only replied, “It is a noble profession.”

Edmund felt serious again and simply responded, “It's a great profession.”

“Yes, the profession is well enough under two circumstances: if it make the fortune, and there be discretion in spending it; but, in short, it is not a favourite profession of mine. It has never worn an amiable form to me.”

“Yes, the profession is fine enough under two conditions: if it brings wealth, and there's wisdom in how it's spent; but honestly, it's not a profession I favor. It has never seemed appealing to me.”

Edmund reverted to the harp, and was again very happy in the prospect of hearing her play.

Edmund went back to the harp and was once again very excited about the chance to hear her play.

The subject of improving grounds, meanwhile, was still under consideration among the others; and Mrs. Grant could not help addressing her brother, though it was calling his attention from Miss Julia Bertram.

The topic of enhancing the grounds was still being discussed by the others, and Mrs. Grant couldn't resist talking to her brother, even though it meant pulling his focus away from Miss Julia Bertram.

“My dear Henry, have you nothing to say? You have been an improver yourself, and from what I hear of Everingham, it may vie with any place in England. Its natural beauties, I am sure, are great. Everingham, as it used to be, was perfect in my estimation: such a happy fall of ground, and such timber! What would I not give to see it again!”

“My dear Henry, don’t you have anything to say? You’ve improved things yourself, and from what I’ve heard about Everingham, it can compete with any place in England. Its natural beauty must be incredible. Everingham, as it used to be, was perfect in my eyes: such a lovely landscape and such great trees! What wouldn’t I give to see it again!”

“Nothing could be so gratifying to me as to hear your opinion of it,” was his answer; “but I fear there would be some disappointment: you would not find it equal to your present ideas. In extent, it is a mere nothing; you would be surprised at its insignificance; and, as for improvement, there was very little for me to do—too little: I should like to have been busy much longer.”

“Nothing would make me happier than to hear what you think about it,” he replied, “but I worry you might be disappointed: it won't match your current expectations. In terms of size, it’s practically nothing; you’d be shocked at how trivial it is; and when it comes to improvements, there was barely anything I could do—too little, really: I wish I could have worked on it for a lot longer.”

“You are fond of the sort of thing?” said Julia.

“You like that kind of thing?” Julia asked.

“Excessively; but what with the natural advantages of the ground, which pointed out, even to a very young eye, what little remained to be done, and my own consequent resolutions, I had not been of age three months before Everingham was all that it is now. My plan was laid at Westminster, a little altered, perhaps, at Cambridge, and at one-and-twenty executed. I am inclined to envy Mr. Rushworth for having so much happiness yet before him. I have been a devourer of my own.”

“Too much; but with the natural advantages of the land, which even a young eye could see needed very little work, and my own subsequent decisions, I had only been of age for three months when Everingham became what it is now. My plan was set at Westminster, maybe slightly changed at Cambridge, and carried out by the time I was twenty-one. I can’t help but envy Mr. Rushworth for having so much happiness still ahead of him. I’ve consumed my own.”

“Those who see quickly, will resolve quickly, and act quickly,” said Julia. “You can never want employment. Instead of envying Mr. Rushworth, you should assist him with your opinion.”

“Those who see things clearly will decide quickly and take action fast,” said Julia. “You will never be short of work. Instead of envying Mr. Rushworth, you should help him with your advice.”

Mrs. Grant, hearing the latter part of this speech, enforced it warmly, persuaded that no judgment could be equal to her brother’s; and as Miss Bertram caught at the idea likewise, and gave it her full support, declaring that, in her opinion, it was infinitely better to consult with friends and disinterested advisers, than immediately to throw the business into the hands of a professional man, Mr. Rushworth was very ready to request the favour of Mr. Crawford’s assistance; and Mr. Crawford, after properly depreciating his own abilities, was quite at his service in any way that could be useful. Mr. Rushworth then began to propose Mr. Crawford’s doing him the honour of coming over to Sotherton, and taking a bed there; when Mrs. Norris, as if reading in her two nieces’ minds their little approbation of a plan which was to take Mr. Crawford away, interposed with an amendment.

Mrs. Grant, hearing the last part of this speech, strongly supported it, believing that no judgment could compare to her brother’s. As Miss Bertram also embraced the idea and fully backed it, saying that it was much better to consult friends and unbiased advisors rather than immediately turning the matter over to a professional, Mr. Rushworth was quick to ask for Mr. Crawford’s help. Mr. Crawford, after modestly downplaying his own abilities, was more than happy to assist in any way he could. Mr. Rushworth then suggested that Mr. Crawford do him the honor of coming to Sotherton and staying overnight. At that moment, Mrs. Norris, as if sensing her two nieces' slight approval of a plan that would take Mr. Crawford away, stepped in with a suggestion.

“There can be no doubt of Mr. Crawford’s willingness; but why should not more of us go? Why should not we make a little party? Here are many that would be interested in your improvements, my dear Mr. Rushworth, and that would like to hear Mr. Crawford’s opinion on the spot, and that might be of some small use to you with their opinions; and, for my own part, I have been long wishing to wait upon your good mother again; nothing but having no horses of my own could have made me so remiss; but now I could go and sit a few hours with Mrs. Rushworth, while the rest of you walked about and settled things, and then we could all return to a late dinner here, or dine at Sotherton, just as might be most agreeable to your mother, and have a pleasant drive home by moonlight. I dare say Mr. Crawford would take my two nieces and me in his barouche, and Edmund can go on horseback, you know, sister, and Fanny will stay at home with you.”

“There’s no doubt about Mr. Crawford wanting to help; but why shouldn’t more of us join in? Why can’t we make it a little group? There are plenty of people here who would be interested in your improvements, my dear Mr. Rushworth, and who would like to hear Mr. Crawford’s thoughts in person, and they might offer some helpful insights as well; and as for me, I’ve been wanting to visit your lovely mother again for a while now; the only reason I haven’t is because I didn’t have my own horses. But now I could spend a few hours with Mrs. Rushworth while the rest of you walk around and sort things out, and then we could all head back here for a late dinner, or we could eat at Sotherton, depending on what your mother prefers, and enjoy a nice drive home in the moonlight. I’m sure Mr. Crawford would take my two nieces and me in his carriage, and Edmund can ride on horseback, you know, sister, while Fanny stays home with you.”

Lady Bertram made no objection; and every one concerned in the going was forward in expressing their ready concurrence, excepting Edmund, who heard it all and said nothing.

Lady Bertram had no objections, and everyone involved in the plan was quick to express their agreement, except for Edmund, who listened to everything and said nothing.

CHAPTER VII

“Well, Fanny, and how do you like Miss Crawford now?” said Edmund the next day, after thinking some time on the subject himself. “How did you like her yesterday?”

“Well, Fanny, how do you feel about Miss Crawford now?” Edmund asked the next day, after pondering the issue for a while. “What did you think of her yesterday?”

“Very well—very much. I like to hear her talk. She entertains me; and she is so extremely pretty, that I have great pleasure in looking at her.”

“Alright—very much so. I love listening to her talk. She keeps me entertained; and she’s so incredibly beautiful that I take great pleasure in watching her.”

“It is her countenance that is so attractive. She has a wonderful play of feature! But was there nothing in her conversation that struck you, Fanny, as not quite right?”

“It’s her face that’s so attractive. She has an amazing display of features! But didn’t anything in her conversation strike you, Fanny, as a bit off?”

“Oh yes! she ought not to have spoken of her uncle as she did. I was quite astonished. An uncle with whom she has been living so many years, and who, whatever his faults may be, is so very fond of her brother, treating him, they say, quite like a son. I could not have believed it!”

“Oh yes! She really shouldn't have talked about her uncle like that. I was completely shocked. An uncle she's been living with for so many years, and who, despite his flaws, is so fond of her brother, treating him, so they say, almost like a son. I just couldn't believe it!”

“I thought you would be struck. It was very wrong; very indecorous.”

“I thought you would be shocked. It was really inappropriate; very out of line.”

“And very ungrateful, I think.”

"And quite ungrateful, I think."

“Ungrateful is a strong word. I do not know that her uncle has any claim to her gratitude; his wife certainly had; and it is the warmth of her respect for her aunt’s memory which misleads her here. She is awkwardly circumstanced. With such warm feelings and lively spirits it must be difficult to do justice to her affection for Mrs. Crawford, without throwing a shade on the Admiral. I do not pretend to know which was most to blame in their disagreements, though the Admiral’s present conduct might incline one to the side of his wife; but it is natural and amiable that Miss Crawford should acquit her aunt entirely. I do not censure her opinions; but there certainly is impropriety in making them public.”

“Ungrateful is a strong word. I don’t think her uncle has any reason to expect her gratitude; his wife definitely did; and it’s her warm feelings and respect for her aunt’s memory that lead her to this conclusion. She’s in a tricky situation. With such strong feelings and vibrant energy, it must be hard for her to express her affection for Mrs. Crawford without casting a shadow on the Admiral. I won’t pretend to know who was more at fault in their arguments, though the Admiral’s current behavior might make one lean towards his wife; but it’s completely natural and kind-hearted for Miss Crawford to defend her aunt completely. I don’t criticize her opinions; but there definitely is a problem with making them public.”

“Do not you think,” said Fanny, after a little consideration, “that this impropriety is a reflection itself upon Mrs. Crawford, as her niece has been entirely brought up by her? She cannot have given her right notions of what was due to the Admiral.”

“Don’t you think,” said Fanny, after a bit of thought, “that this issue reflects poorly on Mrs. Crawford, since her niece was completely raised by her? She must not have instilled in her the right ideas about what was appropriate for the Admiral.”

“That is a fair remark. Yes, we must suppose the faults of the niece to have been those of the aunt; and it makes one more sensible of the disadvantages she has been under. But I think her present home must do her good. Mrs. Grant’s manners are just what they ought to be. She speaks of her brother with a very pleasing affection.”

"That's a fair point. Yes, we have to assume the niece's faults were those of the aunt; it really highlights the difficulties she's faced. However, I believe her current living situation will benefit her. Mrs. Grant's behavior is just how it should be. She talks about her brother with genuine affection."

“Yes, except as to his writing her such short letters. She made me almost laugh; but I cannot rate so very highly the love or good-nature of a brother who will not give himself the trouble of writing anything worth reading to his sisters, when they are separated. I am sure William would never have used me so, under any circumstances. And what right had she to suppose that you would not write long letters when you were absent?”

“Yes, except for him writing her such short letters. It almost made me laugh, but I can’t think too highly of a brother’s love or kindness if he won’t take the time to write something worth reading to his sisters when they’re apart. I’m sure William would never have treated me this way, no matter what. And what gives her the right to think that you wouldn’t write long letters when you were away?”

“The right of a lively mind, Fanny, seizing whatever may contribute to its own amusement or that of others; perfectly allowable, when untinctured by ill-humour or roughness; and there is not a shadow of either in the countenance or manner of Miss Crawford: nothing sharp, or loud, or coarse. She is perfectly feminine, except in the instances we have been speaking of. There she cannot be justified. I am glad you saw it all as I did.”

“The right of an active mind, Fanny, to grasp whatever may bring it joy or entertain others; completely acceptable, as long as it's free from negativity or harshness; and there isn't a hint of either in Miss Crawford's expression or behavior: nothing harsh, loud, or rude. She is entirely feminine, except in the cases we've discussed. In those, she can't be excused. I'm glad you perceived it just like I did.”

Having formed her mind and gained her affections, he had a good chance of her thinking like him; though at this period, and on this subject, there began now to be some danger of dissimilarity, for he was in a line of admiration of Miss Crawford, which might lead him where Fanny could not follow. Miss Crawford’s attractions did not lessen. The harp arrived, and rather added to her beauty, wit, and good-humour; for she played with the greatest obligingness, with an expression and taste which were peculiarly becoming, and there was something clever to be said at the close of every air. Edmund was at the Parsonage every day, to be indulged with his favourite instrument: one morning secured an invitation for the next; for the lady could not be unwilling to have a listener, and every thing was soon in a fair train.

Having shaped his thoughts and won his affection, he had a good chance of her sharing his views; however, at this point, and on this topic, there began to be some risk of differences emerging, as he was increasingly drawn to Miss Crawford, which could take him in a direction where Fanny could not follow. Miss Crawford’s charms only grew stronger. The harp arrived, enhancing her beauty, wit, and good humor; she played with great kindness, showcasing an expression and taste that were particularly appealing, and there was always something clever to remark at the end of each piece. Edmund visited the Parsonage every day, eager to indulge in his favorite instrument: one morning secured him an invitation for the next, as the lady would have been more than happy to have an audience, and soon everything was on a good path.

A young woman, pretty, lively, with a harp as elegant as herself, and both placed near a window, cut down to the ground, and opening on a little lawn, surrounded by shrubs in the rich foliage of summer, was enough to catch any man’s heart. The season, the scene, the air, were all favourable to tenderness and sentiment. Mrs. Grant and her tambour frame were not without their use: it was all in harmony; and as everything will turn to account when love is once set going, even the sandwich tray, and Dr. Grant doing the honours of it, were worth looking at. Without studying the business, however, or knowing what he was about, Edmund was beginning, at the end of a week of such intercourse, to be a good deal in love; and to the credit of the lady it may be added that, without his being a man of the world or an elder brother, without any of the arts of flattery or the gaieties of small talk, he began to be agreeable to her. She felt it to be so, though she had not foreseen, and could hardly understand it; for he was not pleasant by any common rule: he talked no nonsense; he paid no compliments; his opinions were unbending, his attentions tranquil and simple. There was a charm, perhaps, in his sincerity, his steadiness, his integrity, which Miss Crawford might be equal to feel, though not equal to discuss with herself. She did not think very much about it, however: he pleased her for the present; she liked to have him near her; it was enough.

A young woman, beautiful and lively, sat next to a window with a harp that matched her elegance. The window opened onto a small lawn surrounded by lush summer greenery, which was enough to win over any man's heart. The season, the setting, and the atmosphere all encouraged affection and romance. Mrs. Grant and her embroidery were also part of the pleasant scenery; everything felt harmonious. Even the sandwich tray, with Dr. Grant serving, was interesting to observe when love was in the air. Without really thinking about it or knowing what he was doing, Edmund was starting to fall quite a bit in love after a week of interaction. Remarkably, the lady found him agreeable, even though he wasn't worldly or an older brother type, and lacked the usual flattery or casual banter. She sensed this change, even though she hadn’t expected it and couldn’t quite grasp it; he didn’t fit the mold of being charming by standard measures. He didn’t chat nonsense or give compliments; his views were firm, and his attention was calm and straightforward. There was likely something appealing about his sincerity, steadiness, and integrity that Miss Crawford could appreciate, but not fully articulate. Still, she didn’t dwell on it too much; he made her happy in the moment, and she enjoyed having him close by—that was enough.

Fanny could not wonder that Edmund was at the Parsonage every morning; she would gladly have been there too, might she have gone in uninvited and unnoticed, to hear the harp; neither could she wonder that, when the evening stroll was over, and the two families parted again, he should think it right to attend Mrs. Grant and her sister to their home, while Mr. Crawford was devoted to the ladies of the Park; but she thought it a very bad exchange; and if Edmund were not there to mix the wine and water for her, would rather go without it than not. She was a little surprised that he could spend so many hours with Miss Crawford, and not see more of the sort of fault which he had already observed, and of which she was almost always reminded by a something of the same nature whenever she was in her company; but so it was. Edmund was fond of speaking to her of Miss Crawford, but he seemed to think it enough that the Admiral had since been spared; and she scrupled to point out her own remarks to him, lest it should appear like ill-nature. The first actual pain which Miss Crawford occasioned her was the consequence of an inclination to learn to ride, which the former caught, soon after her being settled at Mansfield, from the example of the young ladies at the Park, and which, when Edmund’s acquaintance with her increased, led to his encouraging the wish, and the offer of his own quiet mare for the purpose of her first attempts, as the best fitted for a beginner that either stable could furnish. No pain, no injury, however, was designed by him to his cousin in this offer: she was not to lose a day’s exercise by it. The mare was only to be taken down to the Parsonage half an hour before her ride were to begin; and Fanny, on its being first proposed, so far from feeling slighted, was almost over-powered with gratitude that he should be asking her leave for it.

Fanny couldn't help but notice that Edmund was at the Parsonage every morning; she would have loved to be there too, if she could have gone in without an invitation and without being noticed, just to hear the harp. She also didn’t find it surprising that, after their evening walk, when the two families split up, he thought it was right to escort Mrs. Grant and her sister home, while Mr. Crawford stayed with the ladies from the Park. However, she considered it a poor trade-off; if Edmund wasn't there to mix her wine and water, she'd rather skip it entirely. She was a bit surprised that he could spend so many hours with Miss Crawford and not notice more of the faults he had already pointed out, which she was usually reminded of with something similar whenever she was in her presence. But that was how it was. Edmund liked to talk to her about Miss Crawford, but he seemed satisfied that the Admiral had since been spared. She hesitated to mention her own observations to him, worrying it might seem petty. The first real pain that Miss Crawford caused her came from an urge to learn to ride, which Miss Crawford picked up soon after settling in at Mansfield, inspired by the young ladies at the Park. As Edmund's friendship with her grew, he encouraged this desire and offered his own gentle mare for her first attempts, thinking it was the best choice for a beginner from either stable. He had no intention of causing his cousin any pain with this offer; she was not supposed to miss out on a day’s exercise because of it. The mare was only meant to be brought down to the Parsonage half an hour before her ride was set to begin; and when this was first suggested, Fanny felt anything but slighted—she was nearly overwhelmed with gratitude that he had asked for her permission.

Miss Crawford made her first essay with great credit to herself, and no inconvenience to Fanny. Edmund, who had taken down the mare and presided at the whole, returned with it in excellent time, before either Fanny or the steady old coachman, who always attended her when she rode without her cousins, were ready to set forward. The second day’s trial was not so guiltless. Miss Crawford’s enjoyment of riding was such that she did not know how to leave off. Active and fearless, and though rather small, strongly made, she seemed formed for a horsewoman; and to the pure genuine pleasure of the exercise, something was probably added in Edmund’s attendance and instructions, and something more in the conviction of very much surpassing her sex in general by her early progress, to make her unwilling to dismount. Fanny was ready and waiting, and Mrs. Norris was beginning to scold her for not being gone, and still no horse was announced, no Edmund appeared. To avoid her aunt, and look for him, she went out.

Miss Crawford had a great first attempt, impressing herself and causing no hassle for Fanny. Edmund, who had taken the mare out and was in charge of everything, returned with it right on time, before either Fanny or the reliable old coachman, who always accompanied her when she rode without her cousins, were ready to leave. The second day’s experience wasn't quite as smooth. Miss Crawford loved riding so much that she didn’t want to stop. She was active and fearless, and although she was a bit smaller, she was well-built, making her seem perfect for horseback riding. Along with the sheer enjoyment of the activity, having Edmund there to support her and give instructions, plus the feeling that she was really outshining most women with her quick progress, likely made her hesitate to get off the horse. Fanny was ready and waiting, and Mrs. Norris was starting to scold her for not leaving yet, and still, there was no announcement of a horse, and no sign of Edmund. To avoid her aunt and look for him, she stepped outside.

The houses, though scarcely half a mile apart, were not within sight of each other; but, by walking fifty yards from the hall door, she could look down the park, and command a view of the Parsonage and all its demesnes, gently rising beyond the village road; and in Dr. Grant’s meadow she immediately saw the group—Edmund and Miss Crawford both on horse-back, riding side by side, Dr. and Mrs. Grant, and Mr. Crawford, with two or three grooms, standing about and looking on. A happy party it appeared to her, all interested in one object: cheerful beyond a doubt, for the sound of merriment ascended even to her. It was a sound which did not make her cheerful; she wondered that Edmund should forget her, and felt a pang. She could not turn her eyes from the meadow; she could not help watching all that passed. At first Miss Crawford and her companion made the circuit of the field, which was not small, at a foot’s pace; then, at her apparent suggestion, they rose into a canter; and to Fanny’s timid nature it was most astonishing to see how well she sat. After a few minutes they stopped entirely. Edmund was close to her; he was speaking to her; he was evidently directing her management of the bridle; he had hold of her hand; she saw it, or the imagination supplied what the eye could not reach. She must not wonder at all this; what could be more natural than that Edmund should be making himself useful, and proving his good-nature by any one? She could not but think, indeed, that Mr. Crawford might as well have saved him the trouble; that it would have been particularly proper and becoming in a brother to have done it himself; but Mr. Crawford, with all his boasted good-nature, and all his coachmanship, probably knew nothing of the matter, and had no active kindness in comparison of Edmund. She began to think it rather hard upon the mare to have such double duty; if she were forgotten, the poor mare should be remembered.

The houses, although barely half a mile apart, were out of sight of one another; but by walking fifty yards from the front door, she could look down the park and see the Parsonage and all its land gently rising beyond the village road. In Dr. Grant’s meadow, she immediately spotted the group—Edmund and Miss Crawford both on horseback, riding side by side, along with Dr. and Mrs. Grant, and Mr. Crawford, with a couple of grooms standing around watching. It looked like a happy gathering to her, all focused on one thing: undoubtedly cheerful, because she could hear their laughter even from where she was. That sound didn’t cheer her up; she wondered why Edmund had forgotten her, and it stung. She couldn’t take her eyes off the meadow; she couldn’t help but watch everything unfold. At first, Miss Crawford and her companion circled the field, which wasn’t small, at a slow pace; then, at her apparent suggestion, they broke into a canter, and to Fanny’s shy nature, it was amazing to see how well she managed it. After a few minutes, they stopped completely. Edmund was close to her, talking to her, clearly guiding her on how to handle the reins; he was holding her hand; she saw it, or maybe her imagination filled in what her eyes couldn’t catch. She shouldn’t be surprised by all this; what could be more natural than Edmund being helpful and showing his good nature? Still, she thought it was unfair that Mr. Crawford could have spared him the effort; it would have been especially appropriate for a brother to have done it himself. But Mr. Crawford, with all his claimed good nature and driving skills, probably didn’t know about it and didn’t have the same genuine kindness as Edmund. She started to feel it was a bit unfair to the mare to have to take on such double duty; if she was being forgotten, the poor mare should at least be remembered.

Her feelings for one and the other were soon a little tranquillised by seeing the party in the meadow disperse, and Miss Crawford still on horseback, but attended by Edmund on foot, pass through a gate into the lane, and so into the park, and make towards the spot where she stood. She began then to be afraid of appearing rude and impatient; and walked to meet them with a great anxiety to avoid the suspicion.

Her feelings for both of them were soon calmed a bit when she saw the group in the meadow break up. Miss Crawford was still on horseback, but Edmund was walking beside her as they went through a gate into the lane and then into the park, heading in her direction. She started to worry about coming off as rude or impatient, so she walked to meet them, anxious to avoid giving that impression.

“My dear Miss Price,” said Miss Crawford, as soon as she was at all within hearing, “I am come to make my own apologies for keeping you waiting; but I have nothing in the world to say for myself—I knew it was very late, and that I was behaving extremely ill; and therefore, if you please, you must forgive me. Selfishness must always be forgiven, you know, because there is no hope of a cure.”

“My dear Miss Price,” said Miss Crawford, as soon as she was within earshot, “I’ve come to apologize for keeping you waiting; but I really have no excuse—I knew it was very late and that my behavior was quite bad; so, if you don’t mind, you have to forgive me. Selfishness always needs to be forgiven, you know, because there’s no hope for a change.”

Fanny’s answer was extremely civil, and Edmund added his conviction that she could be in no hurry. “For there is more than time enough for my cousin to ride twice as far as she ever goes,” said he, “and you have been promoting her comfort by preventing her from setting off half an hour sooner: clouds are now coming up, and she will not suffer from the heat as she would have done then. I wish you may not be fatigued by so much exercise. I wish you had saved yourself this walk home.”

Fanny’s response was very polite, and Edmund agreed that she couldn’t be in a rush. “There’s definitely more than enough time for my cousin to ride twice the distance she usually does,” he said, “and you’ve been looking out for her comfort by keeping her from leaving half an hour earlier: clouds are rolling in now, so she won’t feel the heat like she would’ve then. I hope you aren’t worn out from all this walking. I wish you had just relaxed instead of taking this walk home.”

“No part of it fatigues me but getting off this horse, I assure you,” said she, as she sprang down with his help; “I am very strong. Nothing ever fatigues me but doing what I do not like. Miss Price, I give way to you with a very bad grace; but I sincerely hope you will have a pleasant ride, and that I may have nothing but good to hear of this dear, delightful, beautiful animal.”

“No part of it tires me except getting off this horse, I promise you,” she said as she jumped down with his help. “I’m really strong. Nothing ever tires me except doing what I don’t enjoy. Miss Price, I’m reluctantly giving in to you; but I truly hope you have a great ride, and that I hear nothing but good things about this lovely, wonderful, beautiful animal.”

The old coachman, who had been waiting about with his own horse, now joining them, Fanny was lifted on hers, and they set off across another part of the park; her feelings of discomfort not lightened by seeing, as she looked back, that the others were walking down the hill together to the village; nor did her attendant do her much good by his comments on Miss Crawford’s great cleverness as a horse-woman, which he had been watching with an interest almost equal to her own.

The old coachman, who had been hanging around with his own horse, now joined them. Fanny was helped onto her horse, and they began riding across another part of the park. Her discomfort didn't ease as she glanced back and saw the others walking down the hill together to the village. Her companion didn't help much either with his remarks about Miss Crawford's impressive skills as a horsewoman, which he had been observing with interest almost as strong as her own.

“It is a pleasure to see a lady with such a good heart for riding!” said he. “I never see one sit a horse better. She did not seem to have a thought of fear. Very different from you, miss, when you first began, six years ago come next Easter. Lord bless you! how you did tremble when Sir Thomas first had you put on!”

“It’s great to see a woman who rides so well!” he said. “I’ve never seen anyone sit a horse better. She didn’t seem afraid at all. It’s so different from you, miss, when you first started, six years ago next Easter. Goodness! You were shaking so much when Sir Thomas first put you on a horse!”

In the drawing-room Miss Crawford was also celebrated. Her merit in being gifted by Nature with strength and courage was fully appreciated by the Miss Bertrams; her delight in riding was like their own; her early excellence in it was like their own, and they had great pleasure in praising it.

In the drawing room, Miss Crawford was also well-known. The Miss Bertrams fully appreciated her natural strength and courage; her love for riding was just like theirs, and her early talent in it was similar too, and they took great pleasure in praising her for it.

“I was sure she would ride well,” said Julia; “she has the make for it. Her figure is as neat as her brother’s.”

“I was sure she would ride well,” said Julia; “she has the build for it. Her figure is just as neat as her brother’s.”

“Yes,” added Maria, “and her spirits are as good, and she has the same energy of character. I cannot but think that good horsemanship has a great deal to do with the mind.”

“Yeah,” added Maria, “and her mood is just as good, and she has the same level of energy. I can’t help but believe that being good with horses has a lot to do with the mindset.”

When they parted at night Edmund asked Fanny whether she meant to ride the next day.

When they separated at night, Edmund asked Fanny if she planned to ride the next day.

“No, I do not know—not if you want the mare,” was her answer.

“No, I don’t know—not if you want the mare,” was her answer.

“I do not want her at all for myself,” said he; “but whenever you are next inclined to stay at home, I think Miss Crawford would be glad to have her a longer time—for a whole morning, in short. She has a great desire to get as far as Mansfield Common: Mrs. Grant has been telling her of its fine views, and I have no doubt of her being perfectly equal to it. But any morning will do for this. She would be extremely sorry to interfere with you. It would be very wrong if she did. She rides only for pleasure; you for health.”

“I don’t want her for myself at all,” he said. “But whenever you feel like staying home next, I think Miss Crawford would love to have her for a longer time—for a whole morning, actually. She’s really eager to see Mansfield Common; Mrs. Grant has been telling her about its beautiful views, and I’m sure she could handle it perfectly. But any morning would work for this. She would feel really bad about interfering with you. It would be very wrong if she did. She rides just for fun; you ride for your health.”

“I shall not ride to-morrow, certainly,” said Fanny; “I have been out very often lately, and would rather stay at home. You know I am strong enough now to walk very well.”

“I definitely won’t ride tomorrow,” said Fanny; “I’ve been out a lot lately, and I’d rather just stay home. You know I’m strong enough now to walk just fine.”

Edmund looked pleased, which must be Fanny’s comfort, and the ride to Mansfield Common took place the next morning: the party included all the young people but herself, and was much enjoyed at the time, and doubly enjoyed again in the evening discussion. A successful scheme of this sort generally brings on another; and the having been to Mansfield Common disposed them all for going somewhere else the day after. There were many other views to be shewn; and though the weather was hot, there were shady lanes wherever they wanted to go. A young party is always provided with a shady lane. Four fine mornings successively were spent in this manner, in shewing the Crawfords the country, and doing the honours of its finest spots. Everything answered; it was all gaiety and good-humour, the heat only supplying inconvenience enough to be talked of with pleasure—till the fourth day, when the happiness of one of the party was exceedingly clouded. Miss Bertram was the one. Edmund and Julia were invited to dine at the Parsonage, and she was excluded. It was meant and done by Mrs. Grant, with perfect good-humour, on Mr. Rushworth’s account, who was partly expected at the Park that day; but it was felt as a very grievous injury, and her good manners were severely taxed to conceal her vexation and anger till she reached home. As Mr. Rushworth did not come, the injury was increased, and she had not even the relief of shewing her power over him; she could only be sullen to her mother, aunt, and cousin, and throw as great a gloom as possible over their dinner and dessert.

Edmund looked happy, which must have comforted Fanny, and the ride to Mansfield Common happened the next morning: the group included all the young people except her, and everyone enjoyed it at the time, and even more during the evening discussion. A successful outing like this usually leads to another, and having gone to Mansfield Common made them all eager to go somewhere else the following day. There were many other sights to see, and even though it was hot, there were shady lanes wherever they wanted to go. A group of young people is always provided with a shady lane. They spent four lovely mornings in this way, showing the Crawfords around the countryside and highlighting its best spots. Everything went well; it was all fun and good spirits, with the heat providing just enough inconvenience to be talked about with a smile—until the fourth day, when one person's happiness was greatly overshadowed. Miss Bertram was that person. Edmund and Julia were invited to dinner at the Parsonage, and she was left out. Mrs. Grant did this with complete good humor, on Mr. Rushworth’s account, who was partly expected at the Park that day; but it felt like a serious offense to her, and she had to put a lot of effort into hiding her frustration and anger until she got home. As Mr. Rushworth did not show up, her hurt feelings only worsened, and she was deprived of even the chance to show her influence over him; all she could do was sulk around her mother, aunt, and cousin, casting as much gloom as possible over their dinner and dessert.

Between ten and eleven Edmund and Julia walked into the drawing-room, fresh with the evening air, glowing and cheerful, the very reverse of what they found in the three ladies sitting there, for Maria would scarcely raise her eyes from her book, and Lady Bertram was half-asleep; and even Mrs. Norris, discomposed by her niece’s ill-humour, and having asked one or two questions about the dinner, which were not immediately attended to, seemed almost determined to say no more. For a few minutes the brother and sister were too eager in their praise of the night and their remarks on the stars, to think beyond themselves; but when the first pause came, Edmund, looking around, said, “But where is Fanny? Is she gone to bed?”

Between ten and eleven, Edmund and Julia walked into the living room, feeling refreshed from the evening air, bright and cheerful, which was the complete opposite of what they encountered with the three women sitting there. Maria barely lifted her eyes from her book, Lady Bertram was half-asleep, and even Mrs. Norris, unsettled by her niece’s bad mood and having asked a couple of questions about dinner that weren't answered right away, seemed determined to say nothing more. For a few minutes, the brother and sister were too caught up in praising the night and commenting on the stars to think about anything else. But when a pause finally came, Edmund looked around and said, “But where is Fanny? Has she gone to bed?”

“No, not that I know of,” replied Mrs. Norris; “she was here a moment ago.”

“No, not that I know of,” Mrs. Norris replied; “she was here a minute ago.”

Her own gentle voice speaking from the other end of the room, which was a very long one, told them that she was on the sofa. Mrs. Norris began scolding.

Her soft voice coming from the other side of the long room told them she was on the sofa. Mrs. Norris started to scold.

“That is a very foolish trick, Fanny, to be idling away all the evening upon a sofa. Why cannot you come and sit here, and employ yourself as we do? If you have no work of your own, I can supply you from the poor basket. There is all the new calico, that was bought last week, not touched yet. I am sure I almost broke my back by cutting it out. You should learn to think of other people; and, take my word for it, it is a shocking trick for a young person to be always lolling upon a sofa.”

"That’s a really silly thing to do, Fanny, just lounging around on the sofa all evening. Why don’t you come over here and do something like we are? If you don’t have any work of your own, I can give you something from the charity basket. There’s all that new calico we bought last week that hasn’t been used yet. I almost hurt my back cutting it out. You should learn to think of others; believe me, it's not great for a young person to always be sprawled out on a sofa."

Before half this was said, Fanny was returned to her seat at the table, and had taken up her work again; and Julia, who was in high good-humour, from the pleasures of the day, did her the justice of exclaiming, “I must say, ma’am, that Fanny is as little upon the sofa as anybody in the house.”

Before half of this was said, Fanny was back in her seat at the table and had picked up her work again. Julia, who was in a great mood from the day's fun, did Fanny justice by saying, “I have to say, ma’am, that Fanny spends as little time on the sofa as anyone else in the house.”

“Fanny,” said Edmund, after looking at her attentively, “I am sure you have the headache.”

“Fanny,” Edmund said, after looking at her closely, “I know you have a headache.”

She could not deny it, but said it was not very bad.

She couldn't deny it, but she said it wasn't that bad.

“I can hardly believe you,” he replied; “I know your looks too well. How long have you had it?”

“I can hardly believe you,” he replied, “I know your looks too well. How long have you had it?”

“Since a little before dinner. It is nothing but the heat.”

“Since just before dinner. It’s just the heat.”

“Did you go out in the heat?”

“Did you go outside in the heat?”

“Go out! to be sure she did,” said Mrs. Norris: “would you have her stay within such a fine day as this? Were not we all out? Even your mother was out to-day for above an hour.”

“Go out! Of course she did,” said Mrs. Norris. “Would you really have her stay inside on a beautiful day like this? Weren’t we all out? Even your mom was out today for over an hour.”

“Yes, indeed, Edmund,” added her ladyship, who had been thoroughly awakened by Mrs. Norris’s sharp reprimand to Fanny; “I was out above an hour. I sat three-quarters of an hour in the flower-garden, while Fanny cut the roses; and very pleasant it was, I assure you, but very hot. It was shady enough in the alcove, but I declare I quite dreaded the coming home again.”

“Yes, definitely, Edmund,” added her ladyship, who had been fully awakened by Mrs. Norris’s sharp reprimand to Fanny; “I was out for over an hour. I spent three-quarters of an hour in the flower garden while Fanny cut the roses; it was very enjoyable, I promise you, but really hot. It was cool enough in the alcove, but I really dreaded heading back home.”

“Fanny has been cutting roses, has she?”

“Fanny has been cutting roses, hasn’t she?”

“Yes, and I am afraid they will be the last this year. Poor thing! She found it hot enough; but they were so full-blown that one could not wait.”

“Yes, and I’m afraid they’ll be the last this year. Poor thing! She thought it was hot enough; but they were so fully bloomed that you couldn’t wait.”

“There was no help for it, certainly,” rejoined Mrs. Norris, in a rather softened voice; “but I question whether her headache might not be caught then, sister. There is nothing so likely to give it as standing and stooping in a hot sun; but I dare say it will be well to-morrow. Suppose you let her have your aromatic vinegar; I always forget to have mine filled.”

“There was no way around it, for sure,” Mrs. Norris replied in a slightly gentler tone. “But I wonder if her headache might not have come on back then, sister. There's nothing more likely to cause one than standing and bending in the hot sun; but I’m sure she’ll be fine tomorrow. Why don’t you let her use your aromatic vinegar? I always forget to get mine refilled.”

“She has got it,” said Lady Bertram; “she has had it ever since she came back from your house the second time.”

“She’s got it,” said Lady Bertram; “she’s had it ever since she came back from your place the second time.”

“What!” cried Edmund; “has she been walking as well as cutting roses; walking across the hot park to your house, and doing it twice, ma’am? No wonder her head aches.”

“What!” exclaimed Edmund. “Has she been walking as well as cutting roses? Walking all the way across the hot park to your house, and doing it twice, ma’am? No wonder her head hurts.”

Mrs. Norris was talking to Julia, and did not hear.

Mrs. Norris was talking to Julia and didn’t hear.

“I was afraid it would be too much for her,” said Lady Bertram; “but when the roses were gathered, your aunt wished to have them, and then you know they must be taken home.”

“I was worried it might be too much for her,” said Lady Bertram; “but when the roses were picked, your aunt wanted to have them, and you know they had to be taken home.”

“But were there roses enough to oblige her to go twice?”

"But were there enough roses to make her go twice?"

“No; but they were to be put into the spare room to dry; and, unluckily, Fanny forgot to lock the door of the room and bring away the key, so she was obliged to go again.”

“No; but they were to be put in the spare room to dry; and, unfortunately, Fanny forgot to lock the door and take the key, so she had to go back again.”

Edmund got up and walked about the room, saying, “And could nobody be employed on such an errand but Fanny? Upon my word, ma’am, it has been a very ill-managed business.”

Edmund stood up and paced around the room, saying, “And could no one be sent on such a task but Fanny? Honestly, ma'am, this has been very poorly handled.”

“I am sure I do not know how it was to have been done better,” cried Mrs. Norris, unable to be longer deaf; “unless I had gone myself, indeed; but I cannot be in two places at once; and I was talking to Mr. Green at that very time about your mother’s dairymaid, by her desire, and had promised John Groom to write to Mrs. Jefferies about his son, and the poor fellow was waiting for me half an hour. I think nobody can justly accuse me of sparing myself upon any occasion, but really I cannot do everything at once. And as for Fanny’s just stepping down to my house for me—it is not much above a quarter of a mile—I cannot think I was unreasonable to ask it. How often do I pace it three times a day, early and late, ay, and in all weathers too, and say nothing about it?”

“I’m not sure how it could have been done better,” Mrs. Norris exclaimed, finally unable to hold her tongue. “Unless I had gone myself, but I can’t be in two places at once. I was talking to Mr. Green at that very moment about your mother’s dairymaid, as she requested, and I promised John Groom I would write to Mrs. Jefferies about his son, and the poor guy was waiting for me for half an hour. I really don’t think anyone can fairly accuse me of not putting in the effort, but honestly, I can’t do everything at the same time. And as for Fanny just stepping down to my house to help—it’s barely a quarter of a mile. I don’t think it was unreasonable for me to ask. How often do I walk that distance three times a day, in the morning and evening, in all kinds of weather, and don’t say a word about it?”

“I wish Fanny had half your strength, ma’am.”

“I wish Fanny had half your strength, ma’am.”

“If Fanny would be more regular in her exercise, she would not be knocked up so soon. She has not been out on horseback now this long while, and I am persuaded that, when she does not ride, she ought to walk. If she had been riding before, I should not have asked it of her. But I thought it would rather do her good after being stooping among the roses; for there is nothing so refreshing as a walk after a fatigue of that kind; and though the sun was strong, it was not so very hot. Between ourselves, Edmund,” nodding significantly at his mother, “it was cutting the roses, and dawdling about in the flower-garden, that did the mischief.”

“If Fanny were more consistent with her exercise, she wouldn't get worn out so quickly. She hasn’t been riding for quite a while now, and I’m convinced that if she doesn’t ride, she should at least walk. If she had been riding regularly, I wouldn’t have suggested it. But I thought it would do her good after leaning over the roses; nothing is more refreshing than a walk after that kind of fatigue, and even though the sun was strong, it wasn't too hot. Between you and me, Edmund,” he nodded significantly at his mother, “it was cutting the roses and loitering in the flower garden that caused the trouble.”

“I am afraid it was, indeed,” said the more candid Lady Bertram, who had overheard her; “I am very much afraid she caught the headache there, for the heat was enough to kill anybody. It was as much as I could bear myself. Sitting and calling to Pug, and trying to keep him from the flower-beds, was almost too much for me.”

“I’m afraid it really was,” said the more honest Lady Bertram, who had heard her. “I’m really worried she got a headache from it because the heat was enough to make anyone ill. It was almost too much for me to handle. Sitting there and calling to Pug, trying to keep him away from the flower beds, was almost more than I could take.”

Edmund said no more to either lady; but going quietly to another table, on which the supper-tray yet remained, brought a glass of Madeira to Fanny, and obliged her to drink the greater part. She wished to be able to decline it; but the tears, which a variety of feelings created, made it easier to swallow than to speak.

Edmund didn’t say anything else to either lady; instead, he quietly went to another table where the supper tray was still sitting, brought a glass of Madeira to Fanny, and insisted she drink most of it. She wanted to refuse it, but the tears from her mixed emotions made it easier to drink than to speak.

Vexed as Edmund was with his mother and aunt, he was still more angry with himself. His own forgetfulness of her was worse than anything which they had done. Nothing of this would have happened had she been properly considered; but she had been left four days together without any choice of companions or exercise, and without any excuse for avoiding whatever her unreasonable aunts might require. He was ashamed to think that for four days together she had not had the power of riding, and very seriously resolved, however unwilling he must be to check a pleasure of Miss Crawford’s, that it should never happen again.

As annoyed as Edmund was with his mother and aunt, he was even angrier with himself. His own forgetfulness about her was worse than anything they had done. None of this would have happened if she had been properly considered; instead, she had been left for four days with no choice of company or activities, and with no way to avoid whatever unreasonable demands her aunts might have made. He felt ashamed to realize that for four whole days she hadn't been able to ride, and he seriously resolved, no matter how reluctant he might be to ruin a pleasure for Miss Crawford, that it would never happen again.

Fanny went to bed with her heart as full as on the first evening of her arrival at the Park. The state of her spirits had probably had its share in her indisposition; for she had been feeling neglected, and been struggling against discontent and envy for some days past. As she leant on the sofa, to which she had retreated that she might not be seen, the pain of her mind had been much beyond that in her head; and the sudden change which Edmund’s kindness had then occasioned, made her hardly know how to support herself.

Fanny went to bed with her heart just as full as on the first night she arrived at the Park. Her mood had likely contributed to her feeling unwell; she had been feeling ignored and struggling with discontent and envy for the past few days. As she leaned on the sofa, where she had gone to hide from view, the distress in her mind was far worse than the headache she had; and the sudden shift brought on by Edmund's kindness left her feeling lost and unsure of how to cope.

CHAPTER VIII

Fanny’s rides recommenced the very next day; and as it was a pleasant fresh-feeling morning, less hot than the weather had lately been, Edmund trusted that her losses, both of health and pleasure, would be soon made good. While she was gone Mr. Rushworth arrived, escorting his mother, who came to be civil and to shew her civility especially, in urging the execution of the plan for visiting Sotherton, which had been started a fortnight before, and which, in consequence of her subsequent absence from home, had since lain dormant. Mrs. Norris and her nieces were all well pleased with its revival, and an early day was named and agreed to, provided Mr. Crawford should be disengaged: the young ladies did not forget that stipulation, and though Mrs. Norris would willingly have answered for his being so, they would neither authorise the liberty nor run the risk; and at last, on a hint from Miss Bertram, Mr. Rushworth discovered that the properest thing to be done was for him to walk down to the Parsonage directly, and call on Mr. Crawford, and inquire whether Wednesday would suit him or not.

Fanny's rides started up again the very next day, and since it was a lovely, refreshing morning—less hot than it had been recently—Edmund hoped that her losses in both health and enjoyment would be quickly restored. While she was out, Mr. Rushworth arrived with his mother, who came to be polite and especially to push for the plan to visit Sotherton, which had been proposed a couple of weeks earlier but had been on hold due to her recent absence. Mrs. Norris and her nieces were all pleased to revive the idea, and they quickly agreed on an early date, as long as Mr. Crawford was free. The young ladies didn’t forget that condition, and even though Mrs. Norris would have gladly vouched for his availability, they refused to give him the green light or take the chance. Eventually, on a suggestion from Miss Bertram, Mr. Rushworth realized that the best move would be to head straight to the Parsonage, visit Mr. Crawford, and ask whether Wednesday would work for him.

Before his return Mrs. Grant and Miss Crawford came in. Having been out some time, and taken a different route to the house, they had not met him. Comfortable hopes, however, were given that he would find Mr. Crawford at home. The Sotherton scheme was mentioned of course. It was hardly possible, indeed, that anything else should be talked of, for Mrs. Norris was in high spirits about it; and Mrs. Rushworth, a well-meaning, civil, prosing, pompous woman, who thought nothing of consequence, but as it related to her own and her son’s concerns, had not yet given over pressing Lady Bertram to be of the party. Lady Bertram constantly declined it; but her placid manner of refusal made Mrs. Rushworth still think she wished to come, till Mrs. Norris’s more numerous words and louder tone convinced her of the truth.

Before he returned, Mrs. Grant and Miss Crawford arrived. They had been out for a while and took a different route to the house, so they hadn’t seen him. However, there were hopeful mentions that he would find Mr. Crawford at home. Naturally, they discussed the Sotherton plan. It was almost impossible to talk about anything else, especially since Mrs. Norris was in high spirits about it. Mrs. Rushworth, a well-meaning, polite, long-winded, and pompous woman, only cared about things that pertained to her own and her son’s interests. She hadn’t stopped urging Lady Bertram to join their group. Lady Bertram consistently declined, but her calm manner of refusal made Mrs. Rushworth still believe she wanted to come, until Mrs. Norris’s more frequent chatter and louder voice made her see the truth.

“The fatigue would be too much for my sister, a great deal too much, I assure you, my dear Mrs. Rushworth. Ten miles there, and ten back, you know. You must excuse my sister on this occasion, and accept of our two dear girls and myself without her. Sotherton is the only place that could give her a wish to go so far, but it cannot be, indeed. She will have a companion in Fanny Price, you know, so it will all do very well; and as for Edmund, as he is not here to speak for himself, I will answer for his being most happy to join the party. He can go on horseback, you know.”

"The trip would be too much for my sister, definitely too much, I promise you, my dear Mrs. Rushworth. Ten miles there and ten back, just so you know. Please excuse my sister this time, and accept our two lovely girls and me without her. Sotherton is the only place that would make her want to go that far, but it can't happen, truly. She'll have a companion in Fanny Price, so it will work out just fine; and as for Edmund, since he isn't here to speak for himself, I can assure you he would be more than happy to join the group. He can ride on horseback, you know."

Mrs. Rushworth being obliged to yield to Lady Bertram’s staying at home, could only be sorry. “The loss of her ladyship’s company would be a great drawback, and she should have been extremely happy to have seen the young lady too, Miss Price, who had never been at Sotherton yet, and it was a pity she should not see the place.”

Mrs. Rushworth had to accept that Lady Bertram was staying home and could only feel regret. “Not having her ladyship’s company would be a significant disadvantage, and I would have been very happy to see the young lady as well, Miss Price, who hasn’t been to Sotherton yet, and it’s a shame she won’t get to see the place.”

“You are very kind, you are all kindness, my dear madam,” cried Mrs. Norris; “but as to Fanny, she will have opportunities in plenty of seeing Sotherton. She has time enough before her; and her going now is quite out of the question. Lady Bertram could not possibly spare her.”

“You're so kind, really kind, my dear madam,” exclaimed Mrs. Norris. “But as for Fanny, she'll have plenty of chances to visit Sotherton. She has plenty of time ahead of her, and it's just not possible for her to go now. Lady Bertram can't spare her at all.”

“Oh no! I cannot do without Fanny.”

“Oh no! I can't live without Fanny.”

Mrs. Rushworth proceeded next, under the conviction that everybody must be wanting to see Sotherton, to include Miss Crawford in the invitation; and though Mrs. Grant, who had not been at the trouble of visiting Mrs. Rushworth, on her coming into the neighbourhood, civilly declined it on her own account, she was glad to secure any pleasure for her sister; and Mary, properly pressed and persuaded, was not long in accepting her share of the civility. Mr. Rushworth came back from the Parsonage successful; and Edmund made his appearance just in time to learn what had been settled for Wednesday, to attend Mrs. Rushworth to her carriage, and walk half-way down the park with the two other ladies.

Mrs. Rushworth then decided, thinking that everyone would want to see Sotherton, to invite Miss Crawford as well. Even though Mrs. Grant, who hadn’t bothered to visit Mrs. Rushworth since she moved to the area, politely declined the invitation for herself, she was happy to make sure her sister had some enjoyment. Mary, after being encouraged and persuaded, quickly agreed to join in the invitation. Mr. Rushworth returned from the Parsonage successfully, and Edmund showed up just in time to find out what was planned for Wednesday, escort Mrs. Rushworth to her carriage, and walk halfway down the park with the two other ladies.

On his return to the breakfast-room, he found Mrs. Norris trying to make up her mind as to whether Miss Crawford’s being of the party were desirable or not, or whether her brother’s barouche would not be full without her. The Miss Bertrams laughed at the idea, assuring her that the barouche would hold four perfectly well, independent of the box, on which one might go with him.

Upon returning to the breakfast room, he found Mrs. Norris trying to decide if it was a good idea for Miss Crawford to join the group or if her brother’s carriage would be full without her. The Miss Bertrams laughed at the thought, assuring her that the carriage could easily fit four people, aside from the seat where one could ride with him.

“But why is it necessary,” said Edmund, “that Crawford’s carriage, or his only, should be employed? Why is no use to be made of my mother’s chaise? I could not, when the scheme was first mentioned the other day, understand why a visit from the family were not to be made in the carriage of the family.”

“But why is it necessary,” said Edmund, “that Crawford’s carriage, or his only, should be used? Why can't we make use of my mother’s chaise? When the idea was first brought up the other day, I couldn’t understand why a visit from the family shouldn’t be made in the family’s carriage.”

“What!” cried Julia: “go boxed up three in a postchaise in this weather, when we may have seats in a barouche! No, my dear Edmund, that will not quite do.”

“What!” Julia exclaimed. “Are we really going to be cramped up three in a carriage in this weather when we could have seats in a nicer coach? No, my dear Edmund, that’s not going to work.”

“Besides,” said Maria, “I know that Mr. Crawford depends upon taking us. After what passed at first, he would claim it as a promise.”

“Besides,” Maria said, “I know that Mr. Crawford is counting on taking us. After what happened initially, he would see it as a promise.”

“And, my dear Edmund,” added Mrs. Norris, “taking out two carriages when one will do, would be trouble for nothing; and, between ourselves, coachman is not very fond of the roads between this and Sotherton: he always complains bitterly of the narrow lanes scratching his carriage, and you know one should not like to have dear Sir Thomas, when he comes home, find all the varnish scratched off.”

“And, my dear Edmund,” added Mrs. Norris, “taking out two carriages when one will do is just unnecessary trouble; and between us, the coachman really doesn’t like the roads between here and Sotherton. He always complains about the narrow lanes scratching his carriage, and you know we wouldn’t want dear Sir Thomas to come home and find all the varnish scratched off.”

“That would not be a very handsome reason for using Mr. Crawford’s,” said Maria; “but the truth is, that Wilcox is a stupid old fellow, and does not know how to drive. I will answer for it that we shall find no inconvenience from narrow roads on Wednesday.”

“That wouldn’t be a very good reason for using Mr. Crawford’s,” said Maria; “but the truth is, Wilcox is an old fool who doesn’t know how to drive. I can guarantee we won’t have any issues with narrow roads on Wednesday.”

“There is no hardship, I suppose, nothing unpleasant,” said Edmund, “in going on the barouche box.”

“There’s no hardship, I guess, nothing unpleasant,” said Edmund, “in sitting on the carriage box.”

“Unpleasant!” cried Maria: “oh dear! I believe it would be generally thought the favourite seat. There can be no comparison as to one’s view of the country. Probably Miss Crawford will choose the barouche-box herself.”

“Unpleasant!” cried Maria. “Oh dear! I think it would generally be considered the favorite seat. There's no comparison when it comes to the view of the countryside. I bet Miss Crawford will choose the box seat herself.”

“There can be no objection, then, to Fanny’s going with you; there can be no doubt of your having room for her.”

"There shouldn't be any problem with Fanny going with you; it’s clear that you have space for her."

“Fanny!” repeated Mrs. Norris; “my dear Edmund, there is no idea of her going with us. She stays with her aunt. I told Mrs. Rushworth so. She is not expected.”

“Fanny!” repeated Mrs. Norris; “my dear Edmund, there’s no way she’s coming with us. She’s staying with her aunt. I mentioned that to Mrs. Rushworth. She’s not expected.”

“You can have no reason, I imagine, madam,” said he, addressing his mother, “for wishing Fanny not to be of the party, but as it relates to yourself, to your own comfort. If you could do without her, you would not wish to keep her at home?”

“You probably have no reason, I imagine, mom,” he said, speaking to his mother, “for wanting Fanny not to join us, except for your own comfort. If you could manage without her, you wouldn’t want her to stay at home?”

“To be sure not, but I cannot do without her.”

“To be sure not, but I can’t do without her.”

“You can, if I stay at home with you, as I mean to do.”

“You can, if I stay home with you, which I intend to do.”

There was a general cry out at this. “Yes,” he continued, “there is no necessity for my going, and I mean to stay at home. Fanny has a great desire to see Sotherton. I know she wishes it very much. She has not often a gratification of the kind, and I am sure, ma’am, you would be glad to give her the pleasure now?”

There was a loud reaction to this. “Yes,” he went on, “there's no need for me to go, and I plan to stay home. Fanny really wants to see Sotherton. I know she’s very eager about it. She doesn’t often get to enjoy things like this, and I'm sure, ma'am, you’d be happy to give her that pleasure now?”

“Oh yes! very glad, if your aunt sees no objection.”

“Oh yes! I'm very glad, if your aunt has no problem with it.”

Mrs. Norris was very ready with the only objection which could remain—their having positively assured Mrs. Rushworth that Fanny could not go, and the very strange appearance there would consequently be in taking her, which seemed to her a difficulty quite impossible to be got over. It must have the strangest appearance! It would be something so very unceremonious, so bordering on disrespect for Mrs. Rushworth, whose own manners were such a pattern of good-breeding and attention, that she really did not feel equal to it. Mrs. Norris had no affection for Fanny, and no wish of procuring her pleasure at any time; but her opposition to Edmund now, arose more from partiality for her own scheme, because it was her own, than from anything else. She felt that she had arranged everything extremely well, and that any alteration must be for the worse. When Edmund, therefore, told her in reply, as he did when she would give him the hearing, that she need not distress herself on Mrs. Rushworth’s account, because he had taken the opportunity, as he walked with her through the hall, of mentioning Miss Price as one who would probably be of the party, and had directly received a very sufficient invitation for his cousin, Mrs. Norris was too much vexed to submit with a very good grace, and would only say, “Very well, very well, just as you chuse, settle it your own way, I am sure I do not care about it.”

Mrs. Norris quickly brought up the only objection that remained—they had assured Mrs. Rushworth that Fanny couldn't come, and it would look really odd to take her now, which she thought was a problem that couldn't be overlooked. It would seem so strange! It would be quite informal, almost disrespectful to Mrs. Rushworth, who was a model of good manners and thoughtfulness; Mrs. Norris really didn't feel up to it. She had no affection for Fanny and no desire to make her happy at any time, but her opposition to Edmund at that moment came more from her attachment to her own plan, simply because it was hers, than from any other reason. She believed she had organized everything perfectly and that any change would only make things worse. So, when Edmund replied, as he did whenever she would listen to him, that she shouldn’t worry about Mrs. Rushworth because he had taken the chance, while walking with her in the hall, to mention Miss Price as someone who would likely join the group, and that he had received a very clear invitation for his cousin, Mrs. Norris was too annoyed to respond graciously and could only say, “Fine, fine, do it your way; I really don’t care about it.”

“It seems very odd,” said Maria, “that you should be staying at home instead of Fanny.”

“It seems really strange,” said Maria, “that you’re the one staying home instead of Fanny.”

“I am sure she ought to be very much obliged to you,” added Julia, hastily leaving the room as she spoke, from a consciousness that she ought to offer to stay at home herself.

“I’m sure she should be really grateful to you,” Julia added, quickly leaving the room as she spoke, aware that she should offer to stay home herself.

“Fanny will feel quite as grateful as the occasion requires,” was Edmund’s only reply, and the subject dropt.

“Fanny will be just as grateful as the situation calls for,” was Edmund’s only reply, and the topic was dropped.

Fanny’s gratitude, when she heard the plan, was, in fact, much greater than her pleasure. She felt Edmund’s kindness with all, and more than all, the sensibility which he, unsuspicious of her fond attachment, could be aware of; but that he should forego any enjoyment on her account gave her pain, and her own satisfaction in seeing Sotherton would be nothing without him.

Fanny felt much more gratitude than pleasure when she heard the plan. She could feel Edmund's kindness deeply, even more than he realized, unaware of her strong feelings for him. However, the thought of him giving up any enjoyment for her sake pained her, and her happiness in going to Sotherton wouldn't mean anything without him.

The next meeting of the two Mansfield families produced another alteration in the plan, and one that was admitted with general approbation. Mrs. Grant offered herself as companion for the day to Lady Bertram in lieu of her son, and Dr. Grant was to join them at dinner. Lady Bertram was very well pleased to have it so, and the young ladies were in spirits again. Even Edmund was very thankful for an arrangement which restored him to his share of the party; and Mrs. Norris thought it an excellent plan, and had it at her tongue’s end, and was on the point of proposing it, when Mrs. Grant spoke.

The next meeting of the two Mansfield families resulted in another change to the plan, one that everyone accepted positively. Mrs. Grant volunteered to spend the day with Lady Bertram instead of her son, and Dr. Grant would join them for dinner. Lady Bertram was very pleased with this arrangement, and the young ladies were in good spirits again. Even Edmund was grateful for a plan that allowed him to participate in the gathering. Mrs. Norris thought it was an excellent idea and almost suggested it herself when Mrs. Grant spoke up.

Wednesday was fine, and soon after breakfast the barouche arrived, Mr. Crawford driving his sisters; and as everybody was ready, there was nothing to be done but for Mrs. Grant to alight and the others to take their places. The place of all places, the envied seat, the post of honour, was unappropriated. To whose happy lot was it to fall? While each of the Miss Bertrams were meditating how best, and with the most appearance of obliging the others, to secure it, the matter was settled by Mrs. Grant’s saying, as she stepped from the carriage, “As there are five of you, it will be better that one should sit with Henry; and as you were saying lately that you wished you could drive, Julia, I think this will be a good opportunity for you to take a lesson.”

Wednesday was lovely, and shortly after breakfast, the carriage arrived with Mr. Crawford driving his sisters. Since everyone was ready, Mrs. Grant just had to get out, and the others could take their seats. The most coveted spot, the seat of honor, was still available. Who would get to sit there? While the Miss Bertrams were trying to figure out how to secure it while seeming to be considerate of each other, Mrs. Grant settled the issue by saying as she got out of the carriage, “Since there are five of you, it would be better for one to sit with Henry; and since you mentioned recently wanting to drive, Julia, I think this is a great chance for you to take a lesson.”

Happy Julia! Unhappy Maria! The former was on the barouche-box in a moment, the latter took her seat within, in gloom and mortification; and the carriage drove off amid the good wishes of the two remaining ladies, and the barking of Pug in his mistress’s arms.

Happy Julia! Unhappy Maria! Julia jumped onto the driver's seat right away, while Maria settled inside, feeling down and embarrassed; the carriage drove off amidst the well-wishes from the two other ladies and the barking of Pug in his owner's arms.

Their road was through a pleasant country; and Fanny, whose rides had never been extensive, was soon beyond her knowledge, and was very happy in observing all that was new, and admiring all that was pretty. She was not often invited to join in the conversation of the others, nor did she desire it. Her own thoughts and reflections were habitually her best companions; and, in observing the appearance of the country, the bearings of the roads, the difference of soil, the state of the harvest, the cottages, the cattle, the children, she found entertainment that could only have been heightened by having Edmund to speak to of what she felt. That was the only point of resemblance between her and the lady who sat by her: in everything but a value for Edmund, Miss Crawford was very unlike her. She had none of Fanny’s delicacy of taste, of mind, of feeling; she saw Nature, inanimate Nature, with little observation; her attention was all for men and women, her talents for the light and lively. In looking back after Edmund, however, when there was any stretch of road behind them, or when he gained on them in ascending a considerable hill, they were united, and a “there he is” broke at the same moment from them both, more than once.

Their journey took them through a beautiful countryside, and Fanny, whose rides had never been long, quickly found herself in unfamiliar territory. She was delighted to notice everything new and admire all that was lovely. She wasn't often included in the conversations of the others, nor did she want to be. Her own thoughts and reflections were usually her best companions; while observing the landscape, the layout of the roads, the type of soil, the state of the harvest, the cottages, the livestock, and the children, she found entertainment that would only have been improved by having Edmund to share her feelings with. That was the only thing she had in common with the woman sitting next to her; aside from their shared regard for Edmund, Miss Crawford was very different from her. She lacked Fanny's refined taste, sensitivity, and emotions; she perceived nature, inanimate nature, with little attention; her focus was solely on people, and her talents were geared toward the fun and frivolous. However, when they glanced back to look for Edmund, whether there was a stretch of road behind them or when he was gaining on them while climbing a steep hill, they were connected, and a simultaneous “there he is” escaped their lips more than once.

For the first seven miles Miss Bertram had very little real comfort: her prospect always ended in Mr. Crawford and her sister sitting side by side, full of conversation and merriment; and to see only his expressive profile as he turned with a smile to Julia, or to catch the laugh of the other, was a perpetual source of irritation, which her own sense of propriety could but just smooth over. When Julia looked back, it was with a countenance of delight, and whenever she spoke to them, it was in the highest spirits: “her view of the country was charming, she wished they could all see it,” etc.; but her only offer of exchange was addressed to Miss Crawford, as they gained the summit of a long hill, and was not more inviting than this: “Here is a fine burst of country. I wish you had my seat, but I dare say you will not take it, let me press you ever so much;” and Miss Crawford could hardly answer before they were moving again at a good pace.

For the first seven miles, Miss Bertram found little real comfort. Her thoughts always ended with Mr. Crawford and her sister sitting close together, filled with conversation and laughter. Just seeing his expressive profile as he turned to smile at Julia or hearing her laughter was a constant source of irritation, which her own sense of propriety could barely smooth over. When Julia looked back, she wore an expression of delight, and whenever she spoke to them, she was in high spirits: “The view of the countryside is beautiful; I wish you all could see it,” etc. However, her only offer for a change was directed to Miss Crawford as they reached the top of a long hill, and it wasn’t more inviting than this: “Here’s a lovely view of the countryside. I wish you had my seat, but I doubt you’ll take it, even if I insist.” Miss Crawford could hardly respond before they were moving again at a good pace.

When they came within the influence of Sotherton associations, it was better for Miss Bertram, who might be said to have two strings to her bow. She had Rushworth feelings, and Crawford feelings, and in the vicinity of Sotherton the former had considerable effect. Mr. Rushworth’s consequence was hers. She could not tell Miss Crawford that “those woods belonged to Sotherton,” she could not carelessly observe that “she believed that it was now all Mr. Rushworth’s property on each side of the road,” without elation of heart; and it was a pleasure to increase with their approach to the capital freehold mansion, and ancient manorial residence of the family, with all its rights of court-leet and court-baron.

When they got close to Sotherton, it was better for Miss Bertram, who had two options for her affections. She had feelings for both Rushworth and Crawford, and around Sotherton, her feelings for Rushworth really mattered. Mr. Rushworth’s importance felt like hers too. She couldn’t tell Miss Crawford that “those woods belonged to Sotherton,” nor could she casually mention that “she believed it was now all Mr. Rushworth’s property on each side of the road,” without feeling a rush of happiness; and it was a joy to grow alongside their approach to the grand freehold mansion and the historic ancestral home of the family, complete with all its court-leet and court-baron rights.

“Now we shall have no more rough road, Miss Crawford; our difficulties are over. The rest of the way is such as it ought to be. Mr. Rushworth has made it since he succeeded to the estate. Here begins the village. Those cottages are really a disgrace. The church spire is reckoned remarkably handsome. I am glad the church is not so close to the great house as often happens in old places. The annoyance of the bells must be terrible. There is the parsonage: a tidy-looking house, and I understand the clergyman and his wife are very decent people. Those are almshouses, built by some of the family. To the right is the steward’s house; he is a very respectable man. Now we are coming to the lodge-gates; but we have nearly a mile through the park still. It is not ugly, you see, at this end; there is some fine timber, but the situation of the house is dreadful. We go down hill to it for half a mile, and it is a pity, for it would not be an ill-looking place if it had a better approach.”

“Now we won’t have any more rough roads, Miss Crawford; our troubles are behind us. The rest of the way is just as it should be. Mr. Rushworth has improved it since he took over the estate. Here starts the village. Those cottages are really an eyesore. The church spire is considered quite attractive. I’m glad the church isn’t too close to the big house like it often is in older places. The noise from the bells must be awful. There’s the parsonage: a neat-looking house, and I hear the clergyman and his wife are really nice people. Those are almshouses, built by some of the family. To the right is the steward’s house; he’s a very respectable man. Now we’re approaching the lodge gates, but we still have almost a mile to go through the park. It’s not unattractive here; there are some beautiful trees, but the location of the house is terrible. We go downhill to it for half a mile, which is a shame, because it wouldn’t look too bad if it had a better way to get there.”

Miss Crawford was not slow to admire; she pretty well guessed Miss Bertram’s feelings, and made it a point of honour to promote her enjoyment to the utmost. Mrs. Norris was all delight and volubility; and even Fanny had something to say in admiration, and might be heard with complacency. Her eye was eagerly taking in everything within her reach; and after being at some pains to get a view of the house, and observing that “it was a sort of building which she could not look at but with respect,” she added, “Now, where is the avenue? The house fronts the east, I perceive. The avenue, therefore, must be at the back of it. Mr. Rushworth talked of the west front.”

Miss Crawford was quick to admire; she pretty much figured out Miss Bertram’s feelings and made it her mission to ensure she enjoyed herself as much as possible. Mrs. Norris was all excitement and chatter; even Fanny had something to say in admiration and could be heard with satisfaction. Her eyes were eagerly taking in everything around her, and after making an effort to get a look at the house, and noticing that “it was the kind of building she could only respect,” she added, “Now, where is the avenue? The house faces east, I see. So, the avenue must be at the back. Mr. Rushworth mentioned the west front.”

“Yes, it is exactly behind the house; begins at a little distance, and ascends for half a mile to the extremity of the grounds. You may see something of it here—something of the more distant trees. It is oak entirely.”

“Yes, it’s right behind the house; it starts a short way off and climbs for half a mile to the edge of the property. You can see a bit of it from here—some of the trees further away. It’s all oak.”

Miss Bertram could now speak with decided information of what she had known nothing about when Mr. Rushworth had asked her opinion; and her spirits were in as happy a flutter as vanity and pride could furnish, when they drove up to the spacious stone steps before the principal entrance.

Miss Bertram could now confidently share what she had previously known nothing about when Mr. Rushworth had asked for her opinion; and her mood was as happily flustered as vanity and pride could provide when they drove up to the wide stone steps in front of the main entrance.

CHAPTER IX

Mr. Rushworth was at the door to receive his fair lady; and the whole party were welcomed by him with due attention. In the drawing-room they were met with equal cordiality by the mother, and Miss Bertram had all the distinction with each that she could wish. After the business of arriving was over, it was first necessary to eat, and the doors were thrown open to admit them through one or two intermediate rooms into the appointed dining-parlour, where a collation was prepared with abundance and elegance. Much was said, and much was ate, and all went well. The particular object of the day was then considered. How would Mr. Crawford like, in what manner would he chuse, to take a survey of the grounds? Mr. Rushworth mentioned his curricle. Mr. Crawford suggested the greater desirableness of some carriage which might convey more than two. “To be depriving themselves of the advantage of other eyes and other judgments, might be an evil even beyond the loss of present pleasure.”

Mr. Rushworth was at the door to greet his lovely lady, and he welcomed the whole group with appropriate attention. In the living room, they were met with equal warmth by his mother, and Miss Bertram received all the recognition she desired from each of them. Once the initial arrivals were over, it was time to eat, and the doors were opened to lead them through a couple of intermediate rooms into the designated dining room, where a generous and elegant spread was laid out. Plenty was said and eaten, and everything went smoothly. They then turned to the main focus of the day. How would Mr. Crawford prefer to explore the grounds? Mr. Rushworth mentioned his curricle. Mr. Crawford pointed out that it would be better to have a carriage that could carry more than two people. “Depriving themselves of the benefit of other perspectives and opinions might be a drawback even worse than missing out on immediate enjoyment.”

Mrs. Rushworth proposed that the chaise should be taken also; but this was scarcely received as an amendment: the young ladies neither smiled nor spoke. Her next proposition, of shewing the house to such of them as had not been there before, was more acceptable, for Miss Bertram was pleased to have its size displayed, and all were glad to be doing something.

Mrs. Rushworth suggested that they should take the carriage too, but this was hardly seen as an improvement: the young ladies neither smiled nor said anything. Her next idea, to show the house to those who hadn't been there before, was better received, as Miss Bertram was happy to have its size showcased, and everyone was glad to be engaged in something.

The whole party rose accordingly, and under Mrs. Rushworth’s guidance were shewn through a number of rooms, all lofty, and many large, and amply furnished in the taste of fifty years back, with shining floors, solid mahogany, rich damask, marble, gilding, and carving, each handsome in its way. Of pictures there were abundance, and some few good, but the larger part were family portraits, no longer anything to anybody but Mrs. Rushworth, who had been at great pains to learn all that the housekeeper could teach, and was now almost equally well qualified to shew the house. On the present occasion she addressed herself chiefly to Miss Crawford and Fanny, but there was no comparison in the willingness of their attention; for Miss Crawford, who had seen scores of great houses, and cared for none of them, had only the appearance of civilly listening, while Fanny, to whom everything was almost as interesting as it was new, attended with unaffected earnestness to all that Mrs. Rushworth could relate of the family in former times, its rise and grandeur, regal visits and loyal efforts, delighted to connect anything with history already known, or warm her imagination with scenes of the past.

The whole party got up and, under Mrs. Rushworth’s guidance, were shown through several rooms—tall and spacious, furnished in a style from fifty years ago, with shiny floors, solid mahogany, rich damask, marble, gilding, and intricate carving, each beautiful in its own way. There were plenty of pictures, some decent, but most were family portraits, which meant little to anyone except Mrs. Rushworth. She had worked hard to learn everything the housekeeper could teach and was now nearly as qualified to show the house herself. On this occasion, she mainly spoke to Miss Crawford and Fanny, but their levels of attention were very different; Miss Crawford, who had seen countless grand houses and cared little for any of them, seemed only to be politely listening, while Fanny, for whom everything was as intriguing as it was new, listened with genuine interest to all Mrs. Rushworth shared about the family’s history, its rise and grandeur, royal visits, and loyal contributions, thrilled to connect anything to known history or to spark her imagination with scenes from the past.

The situation of the house excluded the possibility of much prospect from any of the rooms; and while Fanny and some of the others were attending Mrs. Rushworth, Henry Crawford was looking grave and shaking his head at the windows. Every room on the west front looked across a lawn to the beginning of the avenue immediately beyond tall iron palisades and gates.

The house’s layout meant there wasn’t much of a view from any of the rooms; while Fanny and some others were helping Mrs. Rushworth, Henry Crawford was looking serious and shaking his head by the windows. Every room on the west side faced a lawn leading to the start of the avenue, right beyond tall iron fences and gates.

Having visited many more rooms than could be supposed to be of any other use than to contribute to the window-tax, and find employment for housemaids, “Now,” said Mrs. Rushworth, “we are coming to the chapel, which properly we ought to enter from above, and look down upon; but as we are quite among friends, I will take you in this way, if you will excuse me.”

Having visited many more rooms than anyone would think were useful for anything beyond adding to the window tax and keeping housemaids busy, “Now,” said Mrs. Rushworth, “we’re heading to the chapel, which we should ideally enter from above and look down into; but since we’re among friends, I’ll take you in this way, if you don’t mind.”

They entered. Fanny’s imagination had prepared her for something grander than a mere spacious, oblong room, fitted up for the purpose of devotion: with nothing more striking or more solemn than the profusion of mahogany, and the crimson velvet cushions appearing over the ledge of the family gallery above. “I am disappointed,” said she, in a low voice, to Edmund. “This is not my idea of a chapel. There is nothing awful here, nothing melancholy, nothing grand. Here are no aisles, no arches, no inscriptions, no banners. No banners, cousin, to be ‘blown by the night wind of heaven.’ No signs that a ‘Scottish monarch sleeps below.’”

They walked in. Fanny had imagined something more impressive than just a large rectangular room set up for worship, with nothing more striking or serious than the abundance of mahogany and the crimson velvet cushions peeking over the edge of the family gallery above. “I’m disappointed,” she whispered to Edmund. “This isn’t what I picture when I think of a chapel. There’s nothing awe-inspiring here, nothing gloomy, nothing magnificent. There are no aisles, no arches, no inscriptions, no banners. No banners, cousin, to be ‘blown by the night wind of heaven.’ No signs that a ‘Scottish monarch sleeps below.’”

“You forget, Fanny, how lately all this has been built, and for how confined a purpose, compared with the old chapels of castles and monasteries. It was only for the private use of the family. They have been buried, I suppose, in the parish church. There you must look for the banners and the achievements.”

“You're forgetting, Fanny, how recently all of this was built and how limited its purpose is compared to the old chapels of castles and monasteries. It was only meant for the family's private use. They’ve probably been buried in the parish church. There is where you should look for the banners and the achievements.”

“It was foolish of me not to think of all that; but I am disappointed.”

“It was dumb of me not to think of all that; but I’m disappointed.”

Mrs. Rushworth began her relation. “This chapel was fitted up as you see it, in James the Second’s time. Before that period, as I understand, the pews were only wainscot; and there is some reason to think that the linings and cushions of the pulpit and family seat were only purple cloth; but this is not quite certain. It is a handsome chapel, and was formerly in constant use both morning and evening. Prayers were always read in it by the domestic chaplain, within the memory of many; but the late Mr. Rushworth left it off.”

Mrs. Rushworth started her story. “This chapel was set up the way you see it during the time of James the Second. Before that, as I understand, the pews were just wood paneling; and there’s some reason to think that the linings and cushions of the pulpit and family seat were just purple fabric, but that isn’t completely certain. It’s a beautiful chapel and was previously used regularly for both morning and evening services. Prayers were always read here by the family chaplain, as many can remember; but the late Mr. Rushworth stopped that.”

“Every generation has its improvements,” said Miss Crawford, with a smile, to Edmund.

“Every generation has its advancements,” Miss Crawford said with a smile to Edmund.

Mrs. Rushworth was gone to repeat her lesson to Mr. Crawford; and Edmund, Fanny, and Miss Crawford remained in a cluster together.

Mrs. Rushworth had gone to review her lesson with Mr. Crawford, while Edmund, Fanny, and Miss Crawford stayed together in a group.

“It is a pity,” cried Fanny, “that the custom should have been discontinued. It was a valuable part of former times. There is something in a chapel and chaplain so much in character with a great house, with one’s ideas of what such a household should be! A whole family assembling regularly for the purpose of prayer is fine!”

“It’s such a shame,” Fanny exclaimed, “that the tradition has been abandoned. It was such an important aspect of the past. There’s something about having a chapel and a chaplain that really fits with a grand house, matching our ideas of what that kind of household should be! A whole family coming together regularly for prayer is wonderful!”

“Very fine indeed,” said Miss Crawford, laughing. “It must do the heads of the family a great deal of good to force all the poor housemaids and footmen to leave business and pleasure, and say their prayers here twice a day, while they are inventing excuses themselves for staying away.”

“Very nice indeed,” said Miss Crawford, laughing. “It must be great for the heads of the family to make all the poor housemaids and footmen leave their work and fun, and say their prayers here twice a day, while they come up with excuses to stay away themselves.”

That is hardly Fanny’s idea of a family assembling,” said Edmund. “If the master and mistress do not attend themselves, there must be more harm than good in the custom.”

That is hardly Fanny’s idea of a family gathering,” said Edmund. “If the master and mistress don’t attend themselves, there’s probably more harm than good in the tradition.”

“At any rate, it is safer to leave people to their own devices on such subjects. Everybody likes to go their own way—to chuse their own time and manner of devotion. The obligation of attendance, the formality, the restraint, the length of time—altogether it is a formidable thing, and what nobody likes; and if the good people who used to kneel and gape in that gallery could have foreseen that the time would ever come when men and women might lie another ten minutes in bed, when they woke with a headache, without danger of reprobation, because chapel was missed, they would have jumped with joy and envy. Cannot you imagine with what unwilling feelings the former belles of the house of Rushworth did many a time repair to this chapel? The young Mrs. Eleanors and Mrs. Bridgets—starched up into seeming piety, but with heads full of something very different—especially if the poor chaplain were not worth looking at—and, in those days, I fancy parsons were very inferior even to what they are now.”

“At any rate, it’s safer to let people handle things on their own when it comes to these topics. Everyone prefers to do things their own way—choosing their own time and manner of worship. The requirement to attend, the formalities, the restrictions, the length of the service—altogether it’s quite intimidating, and no one enjoys it; if the good folks who used to kneel and stare in that gallery could have imagined a time when men and women might stay in bed for an extra ten minutes when they woke up with a headache, without fearing judgment for missing chapel, they would have been thrilled and envious. Can you picture how reluctantly the former socialites of the Rushworth household often made their way to this chapel? The young Mrs. Eleanors and Mrs. Bridgets—putting on a show of piety while their minds were on completely different things—especially if the poor chaplain wasn’t even worth looking at—and back then, I suspect ministers were much less impressive than they are now.”

For a few moments she was unanswered. Fanny coloured and looked at Edmund, but felt too angry for speech; and he needed a little recollection before he could say, “Your lively mind can hardly be serious even on serious subjects. You have given us an amusing sketch, and human nature cannot say it was not so. We must all feel at times the difficulty of fixing our thoughts as we could wish; but if you are supposing it a frequent thing, that is to say, a weakness grown into a habit from neglect, what could be expected from the private devotions of such persons? Do you think the minds which are suffered, which are indulged in wanderings in a chapel, would be more collected in a closet?”

For a few moments, she didn't respond. Fanny blushed and looked at Edmund, feeling too angry to speak; he needed a moment to gather his thoughts before he could say, “Your lively mind can hardly take anything seriously, even important topics. You've given us an entertaining perspective, and human nature can’t deny that. We all struggle at times to focus our thoughts as we would like, but if you think it’s a common issue—meaning it’s a weakness that has become a habit due to neglect—what can we expect from the private prayers of such people? Do you think those whose minds wander during a chapel service will be any more focused in a personal setting?”

“Yes, very likely. They would have two chances at least in their favour. There would be less to distract the attention from without, and it would not be tried so long.”

“Yes, probably. They would have at least two advantages. There would be fewer external distractions, and it wouldn’t take as long.”

“The mind which does not struggle against itself under one circumstance, would find objects to distract it in the other, I believe; and the influence of the place and of example may often rouse better feelings than are begun with. The greater length of the service, however, I admit to be sometimes too hard a stretch upon the mind. One wishes it were not so; but I have not yet left Oxford long enough to forget what chapel prayers are.”

“The mind that doesn’t fight against itself in one situation will likely find distractions in another, I believe; and the impact of the environment and role models can often inspire better feelings than we start with. However, I do admit that the longer service can sometimes be a bit of a struggle for the mind. One wishes it weren’t the case; but I haven’t been away from Oxford long enough to forget what chapel prayers are like.”

While this was passing, the rest of the party being scattered about the chapel, Julia called Mr. Crawford’s attention to her sister, by saying, “Do look at Mr. Rushworth and Maria, standing side by side, exactly as if the ceremony were going to be performed. Have not they completely the air of it?”

While this was happening, the rest of the group was scattered around the chapel. Julia pointed out her sister to Mr. Crawford by saying, “Look at Mr. Rushworth and Maria, standing next to each other, just as if the ceremony were about to take place. Don’t they really look the part?”

Mr. Crawford smiled his acquiescence, and stepping forward to Maria, said, in a voice which she only could hear, “I do not like to see Miss Bertram so near the altar.”

Mr. Crawford smiled in agreement, and stepping closer to Maria, said in a voice that only she could hear, "I don’t like seeing Miss Bertram so close to the altar."

Starting, the lady instinctively moved a step or two, but recovering herself in a moment, affected to laugh, and asked him, in a tone not much louder, “If he would give her away?”

Starting out, the lady instinctively stepped back a bit, but after a moment, she composed herself, pretended to laugh, and asked him, in a tone that was barely louder, "Would you give her away?"

“I am afraid I should do it very awkwardly,” was his reply, with a look of meaning.

“I’m afraid I’d do it really awkwardly,” he replied, giving a meaningful look.

Julia, joining them at the moment, carried on the joke.

Julia, arriving at that moment, continued the joke.

“Upon my word, it is really a pity that it should not take place directly, if we had but a proper licence, for here we are altogether, and nothing in the world could be more snug and pleasant.” And she talked and laughed about it with so little caution as to catch the comprehension of Mr. Rushworth and his mother, and expose her sister to the whispered gallantries of her lover, while Mrs. Rushworth spoke with proper smiles and dignity of its being a most happy event to her whenever it took place.

"Honestly, it’s such a shame that it can't happen right now, if only we had the right license, because here we all are, and nothing could be more comfortable and enjoyable." She chatted and laughed about it so freely that Mr. Rushworth and his mother noticed, putting her sister in the path of her lover’s whispered flirtations, while Mrs. Rushworth spoke with polite smiles and grace about how happy it would make her whenever it happens.

“If Edmund were but in orders!” cried Julia, and running to where he stood with Miss Crawford and Fanny: “My dear Edmund, if you were but in orders now, you might perform the ceremony directly. How unlucky that you are not ordained; Mr. Rushworth and Maria are quite ready.”

“If Edmund were just in the clergy!” cried Julia, and running to where he stood with Miss Crawford and Fanny: “My dear Edmund, if you were in the clergy right now, you could perform the ceremony immediately. How unfortunate that you’re not ordained; Mr. Rushworth and Maria are all set.”

Miss Crawford’s countenance, as Julia spoke, might have amused a disinterested observer. She looked almost aghast under the new idea she was receiving. Fanny pitied her. “How distressed she will be at what she said just now,” passed across her mind.

Miss Crawford’s expression, as Julia spoke, could have amused an indifferent onlooker. She looked nearly shocked by the new idea she was taking in. Fanny felt sorry for her. “How upset she will be about what she just said,” crossed her mind.

“Ordained!” said Miss Crawford; “what, are you to be a clergyman?”

“Ordained!” said Miss Crawford; “what, are you going to be a clergyman?”

“Yes; I shall take orders soon after my father’s return—probably at Christmas.”

“Yes; I will take orders soon after my father gets back—probably at Christmas.”

Miss Crawford, rallying her spirits, and recovering her complexion, replied only, “If I had known this before, I would have spoken of the cloth with more respect,” and turned the subject.

Miss Crawford, pulling herself together and regaining her color, simply replied, “If I had known this earlier, I would have talked about the fabric with more respect,” and changed the subject.

The chapel was soon afterwards left to the silence and stillness which reigned in it, with few interruptions, throughout the year. Miss Bertram, displeased with her sister, led the way, and all seemed to feel that they had been there long enough.

The chapel was soon left to the silence and calm that filled it, with only a few interruptions, all year round. Miss Bertram, unhappy with her sister, took the lead, and everyone seemed to agree that they had stayed long enough.

The lower part of the house had been now entirely shewn, and Mrs. Rushworth, never weary in the cause, would have proceeded towards the principal staircase, and taken them through all the rooms above, if her son had not interposed with a doubt of there being time enough. “For if,” said he, with the sort of self-evident proposition which many a clearer head does not always avoid, “we are too long going over the house, we shall not have time for what is to be done out of doors. It is past two, and we are to dine at five.”

The lower part of the house had now been completely shown, and Mrs. Rushworth, always enthusiastic about the tour, would have moved on to the main staircase and taken them through all the rooms upstairs if her son hadn’t raised a concern about there being enough time. “Because if,” he said, with that obvious point that many smarter people often overlook, “we take too long going through the house, we won’t have time for what we need to do outside. It’s after two, and we’re supposed to have dinner at five.”

Mrs. Rushworth submitted; and the question of surveying the grounds, with the who and the how, was likely to be more fully agitated, and Mrs. Norris was beginning to arrange by what junction of carriages and horses most could be done, when the young people, meeting with an outward door, temptingly open on a flight of steps which led immediately to turf and shrubs, and all the sweets of pleasure-grounds, as by one impulse, one wish for air and liberty, all walked out.

Mrs. Rushworth gave in, and the discussion about surveying the grounds—who would do it and how—was likely to be more thoroughly explored. Mrs. Norris started planning the best combination of carriages and horses to maximize the outing when the young people, coming across an inviting open door leading to a staircase that went directly to the grass and shrubs, along with all the delights of the grounds, all felt a sudden urge for fresh air and freedom, and they all walked out together.

“Suppose we turn down here for the present,” said Mrs. Rushworth, civilly taking the hint and following them. “Here are the greatest number of our plants, and here are the curious pheasants.”

“Let’s take this turn for now,” said Mrs. Rushworth, politely picking up on the hint and following them. “This is where we have the most of our plants, and over here are the interesting pheasants.”

“Query,” said Mr. Crawford, looking round him, “whether we may not find something to employ us here before we go farther? I see walls of great promise. Mr. Rushworth, shall we summon a council on this lawn?”

“Hey,” Mr. Crawford said, looking around, “should we see if there’s something to do here before we move on? I see some interesting walls. Mr. Rushworth, should we hold a meeting on this lawn?”

“James,” said Mrs. Rushworth to her son, “I believe the wilderness will be new to all the party. The Miss Bertrams have never seen the wilderness yet.”

“James,” said Mrs. Rushworth to her son, “I think the wilderness will be a new experience for everyone. The Miss Bertrams have never been to the wilderness before.”

No objection was made, but for some time there seemed no inclination to move in any plan, or to any distance. All were attracted at first by the plants or the pheasants, and all dispersed about in happy independence. Mr. Crawford was the first to move forward to examine the capabilities of that end of the house. The lawn, bounded on each side by a high wall, contained beyond the first planted area a bowling-green, and beyond the bowling-green a long terrace walk, backed by iron palisades, and commanding a view over them into the tops of the trees of the wilderness immediately adjoining. It was a good spot for fault-finding. Mr. Crawford was soon followed by Miss Bertram and Mr. Rushworth; and when, after a little time, the others began to form into parties, these three were found in busy consultation on the terrace by Edmund, Miss Crawford, and Fanny, who seemed as naturally to unite, and who, after a short participation of their regrets and difficulties, left them and walked on. The remaining three, Mrs. Rushworth, Mrs. Norris, and Julia, were still far behind; for Julia, whose happy star no longer prevailed, was obliged to keep by the side of Mrs. Rushworth, and restrain her impatient feet to that lady’s slow pace, while her aunt, having fallen in with the housekeeper, who was come out to feed the pheasants, was lingering behind in gossip with her. Poor Julia, the only one out of the nine not tolerably satisfied with their lot, was now in a state of complete penance, and as different from the Julia of the barouche-box as could well be imagined. The politeness which she had been brought up to practise as a duty made it impossible for her to escape; while the want of that higher species of self-command, that just consideration of others, that knowledge of her own heart, that principle of right, which had not formed any essential part of her education, made her miserable under it.

No one objected, but for a while, there didn’t seem to be any rush to start any plans or go anywhere. At first, everyone was drawn in by the plants or the pheasants and spread out with a carefree attitude. Mr. Crawford was the first to move ahead and check out what that end of the house had to offer. The lawn, surrounded on either side by a high wall, contained a bowling green beyond the first planted area, and past the bowling green was a long terrace walk, backed by iron railings, offering a view over the tops of the trees in the nearby wilderness. It was a great spot for criticism. Mr. Crawford was soon joined by Miss Bertram and Mr. Rushworth; and after a little while, when the others began to group into parties, these three were found in deep discussion on the terrace by Edmund, Miss Crawford, and Fanny, who naturally came together and, after sharing a few regrets and difficulties, moved on. The other three, Mrs. Rushworth, Mrs. Norris, and Julia, were still far behind; Julia, whose luck had run out, was forced to keep pace with Mrs. Rushworth's slow steps, while her aunt, having met up with the housekeeper, who had come out to feed the pheasants, was lagging behind to chat. Poor Julia, the only one out of the nine not reasonably satisfied with her situation, was now in a complete state of penance, and utterly different from the Julia who had been in the carriage. The politeness she’d been taught to practice as a duty made it impossible for her to escape, while the lack of that deeper self-control, consideration for others, understanding of her own feelings, and sense of right, which hadn’t been an important part of her education, made her miserable.

“This is insufferably hot,” said Miss Crawford, when they had taken one turn on the terrace, and were drawing a second time to the door in the middle which opened to the wilderness. “Shall any of us object to being comfortable? Here is a nice little wood, if one can but get into it. What happiness if the door should not be locked! but of course it is; for in these great places the gardeners are the only people who can go where they like.”

“This is ridiculously hot,” said Miss Crawford, after they had walked one time around the terrace and were heading back to the door in the middle that led to the wilderness. “Does anyone mind if we get comfortable? There’s a lovely little woods if we can just get inside. How great would it be if the door wasn’t locked! But of course it is; in these big places, only the gardeners are free to go wherever they want.”

The door, however, proved not to be locked, and they were all agreed in turning joyfully through it, and leaving the unmitigated glare of day behind. A considerable flight of steps landed them in the wilderness, which was a planted wood of about two acres, and though chiefly of larch and laurel, and beech cut down, and though laid out with too much regularity, was darkness and shade, and natural beauty, compared with the bowling-green and the terrace. They all felt the refreshment of it, and for some time could only walk and admire. At length, after a short pause, Miss Crawford began with, “So you are to be a clergyman, Mr. Bertram. This is rather a surprise to me.”

The door, however, turned out not to be locked, and they all agreed to step through it joyfully, leaving the harsh brightness of day behind. A long flight of steps took them into the wilderness, which was a planted wood of about two acres. Although it was mostly made up of larch, laurel, and cut-down beech trees, and laid out with too much uniformity, it was still dark, shady, and beautiful in a natural way compared to the bowling green and terrace. They all felt refreshed by it, and for a while, they could only walk and admire. Finally, after a brief pause, Miss Crawford said, “So you’re going to be a clergyman, Mr. Bertram. This is quite a surprise to me.”

“Why should it surprise you? You must suppose me designed for some profession, and might perceive that I am neither a lawyer, nor a soldier, nor a sailor.”

“Why should that surprise you? You must think that I was meant for some profession, and you might notice that I’m neither a lawyer, nor a soldier, nor a sailor.”

“Very true; but, in short, it had not occurred to me. And you know there is generally an uncle or a grandfather to leave a fortune to the second son.”

“That's very true; but honestly, it just didn’t cross my mind. And you know there’s usually an uncle or a grandfather who leaves a fortune to the second son.”

“A very praiseworthy practice,” said Edmund, “but not quite universal. I am one of the exceptions, and being one, must do something for myself.”

“A very commendable practice,” said Edmund, “but not entirely universal. I am one of the exceptions, and being one, I must do something for myself.”

“But why are you to be a clergyman? I thought that was always the lot of the youngest, where there were many to chuse before him.”

“But why do you want to be a clergyman? I thought that was always the fate of the youngest, when there are many to choose from before him.”

“Do you think the church itself never chosen, then?”

“Do you think the church was never chosen, then?”

Never is a black word. But yes, in the never of conversation, which means not very often, I do think it. For what is to be done in the church? Men love to distinguish themselves, and in either of the other lines distinction may be gained, but not in the church. A clergyman is nothing.”

Never is a harsh word. But in the context of conversation, where it means not very often, I do think it. What needs to be done in the church? Men like to set themselves apart, and in other fields, they can achieve distinction, but not in the church. A clergyman amounts to nothing.”

“The nothing of conversation has its gradations, I hope, as well as the never. A clergyman cannot be high in state or fashion. He must not head mobs, or set the ton in dress. But I cannot call that situation nothing which has the charge of all that is of the first importance to mankind, individually or collectively considered, temporally and eternally, which has the guardianship of religion and morals, and consequently of the manners which result from their influence. No one here can call the office nothing. If the man who holds it is so, it is by the neglect of his duty, by foregoing its just importance, and stepping out of his place to appear what he ought not to appear.”

“The nothing in conversation has its levels, I hope, just like the never. A clergyman can't be prominent in society or fashion. He shouldn't lead mobs or set trends in clothing. But I can't describe a role as nothing when it carries the responsibility for what is most important to humanity, both individually and collectively, in terms of our lives now and in the afterlife, overseeing religion and morals, and consequently the behavior that comes from their influence. No one here can call the office nothing. If the person who holds it is, it’s because they are neglecting their responsibilities, undervaluing its true significance, and stepping out of their role to act like something they shouldn't be.”

You assign greater consequence to the clergyman than one has been used to hear given, or than I can quite comprehend. One does not see much of this influence and importance in society, and how can it be acquired where they are so seldom seen themselves? How can two sermons a week, even supposing them worth hearing, supposing the preacher to have the sense to prefer Blair’s to his own, do all that you speak of? govern the conduct and fashion the manners of a large congregation for the rest of the week? One scarcely sees a clergyman out of his pulpit.”

You place a lot more importance on the clergyman than I've usually heard or can fully understand. In society, this influence and significance aren't really apparent, and where do they gain it if we hardly ever see them? How can just two sermons a week—assuming they’re actually worth listening to, and that the preacher is wise enough to choose Blair’s over his own—actually manage to do everything you suggest? How can they guide the behavior and shape the manners of a large congregation for the rest of the week? You rarely see a clergyman outside of his pulpit.

You are speaking of London, I am speaking of the nation at large.”

"You are talking about London, I am talking about the country as a whole."

“The metropolis, I imagine, is a pretty fair sample of the rest.”

"The city, I think, is a pretty good representation of the rest."

“Not, I should hope, of the proportion of virtue to vice throughout the kingdom. We do not look in great cities for our best morality. It is not there that respectable people of any denomination can do most good; and it certainly is not there that the influence of the clergy can be most felt. A fine preacher is followed and admired; but it is not in fine preaching only that a good clergyman will be useful in his parish and his neighbourhood, where the parish and neighbourhood are of a size capable of knowing his private character, and observing his general conduct, which in London can rarely be the case. The clergy are lost there in the crowds of their parishioners. They are known to the largest part only as preachers. And with regard to their influencing public manners, Miss Crawford must not misunderstand me, or suppose I mean to call them the arbiters of good-breeding, the regulators of refinement and courtesy, the masters of the ceremonies of life. The manners I speak of might rather be called conduct, perhaps, the result of good principles; the effect, in short, of those doctrines which it is their duty to teach and recommend; and it will, I believe, be everywhere found, that as the clergy are, or are not what they ought to be, so are the rest of the nation.”

“Not, I hope, the balance of virtue to vice across the kingdom. We don’t find our best morality in large cities. It’s not there that respectable people from any background can do the most good; and it certainly isn’t where the influence of the clergy is felt the strongest. A great preacher may be followed and admired, but it’s not just through impressive preaching that a good clergyman is effective in his parish and community, where people can know his personal character and observe his overall behavior, which is rarely possible in London. The clergy get lost in the crowds of their parishioners. To most, they are known primarily as preachers. And as for them influencing public manners, Miss Crawford must not misunderstand me or think that I’m calling them the judges of good behavior, the setters of standards for refinement and courtesy, or the masters of life’s ceremonies. The manners I’m referring to might be better called conduct, which stems from good principles; essentially, the outcome of the teachings and values they are meant to share. I believe it will be found everywhere that the state of the clergy reflects, or fails to reflect, the state of the rest of the nation.”

“Certainly,” said Fanny, with gentle earnestness.

“Of course,” said Fanny, with a warm sincerity.

“There,” cried Miss Crawford, “you have quite convinced Miss Price already.”

“See,” exclaimed Miss Crawford, “you've already totally convinced Miss Price.”

“I wish I could convince Miss Crawford too.”

“I wish I could persuade Miss Crawford as well.”

“I do not think you ever will,” said she, with an arch smile; “I am just as much surprised now as I was at first that you should intend to take orders. You really are fit for something better. Come, do change your mind. It is not too late. Go into the law.”

“I don’t think you ever will,” she said with a playful smile. “I’m just as surprised now as I was at first that you want to become a clergyman. You’re actually suited for something better. Come on, change your mind. It’s not too late. Go into law.”

“Go into the law! With as much ease as I was told to go into this wilderness.”

“Go into the law! Just as easily as I was told to enter this wilderness.”

“Now you are going to say something about law being the worst wilderness of the two, but I forestall you; remember, I have forestalled you.”

“Now you might say that the law is the worst wilderness of the two, but I’m stopping you right there; remember, I’ve already stopped you.”

“You need not hurry when the object is only to prevent my saying a bon mot, for there is not the least wit in my nature. I am a very matter-of-fact, plain-spoken being, and may blunder on the borders of a repartee for half an hour together without striking it out.”

“You don’t need to rush just to stop me from making a clever remark, because I lack any wit. I’m a very straightforward, plain-spoken person, and I could stumble around the edges of a comeback for half an hour without actually coming up with one.”

A general silence succeeded. Each was thoughtful. Fanny made the first interruption by saying, “I wonder that I should be tired with only walking in this sweet wood; but the next time we come to a seat, if it is not disagreeable to you, I should be glad to sit down for a little while.”

A general silence followed. Everyone was lost in thought. Fanny broke the silence by saying, “I can’t believe I’m tired just from walking in this beautiful woods; but the next time we find a bench, if it’s okay with you, I’d love to sit for a bit.”

“My dear Fanny,” cried Edmund, immediately drawing her arm within his, “how thoughtless I have been! I hope you are not very tired. Perhaps,” turning to Miss Crawford, “my other companion may do me the honour of taking an arm.”

“My dear Fanny,” Edmund exclaimed, quickly pulling her arm into his, “how careless I’ve been! I hope you’re not too tired. Maybe,” he said, looking at Miss Crawford, “my other companion would be kind enough to take my other arm.”

“Thank you, but I am not at all tired.” She took it, however, as she spoke, and the gratification of having her do so, of feeling such a connexion for the first time, made him a little forgetful of Fanny. “You scarcely touch me,” said he. “You do not make me of any use. What a difference in the weight of a woman’s arm from that of a man! At Oxford I have been a good deal used to have a man lean on me for the length of a street, and you are only a fly in the comparison.”

“Thanks, but I’m not tired at all.” She took it anyway as she spoke, and the pleasure of her doing so, of feeling that connection for the first time, made him a bit forgetful of Fanny. “You hardly touch me,” he said. “You don’t make me feel useful. What a difference there is between the weight of a woman’s arm and that of a man’s! At Oxford, I’ve often had a man lean on me for an entire street, and you feel like just a feather in comparison.”

“I am really not tired, which I almost wonder at; for we must have walked at least a mile in this wood. Do not you think we have?”

“I’m actually not tired, which surprises me a bit; we must have walked at least a mile in this woods. Don’t you think so?”

“Not half a mile,” was his sturdy answer; for he was not yet so much in love as to measure distance, or reckon time, with feminine lawlessness.

“Not even half a mile,” was his firm reply; for he wasn't so in love yet that he would measure distance or time with a woman's carefree abandon.

“Oh! you do not consider how much we have wound about. We have taken such a very serpentine course, and the wood itself must be half a mile long in a straight line, for we have never seen the end of it yet since we left the first great path.”

“Oh! you don’t realize how much we’ve twisted and turned. We’ve taken such a winding route, and the forest itself must be half a mile long in a straight line because we haven’t seen the end of it since we left the main path.”

“But if you remember, before we left that first great path, we saw directly to the end of it. We looked down the whole vista, and saw it closed by iron gates, and it could not have been more than a furlong in length.”

“But if you remember, before we left that first great path, we saw directly to the end of it. We looked down the whole view and saw it blocked by iron gates, and it couldn't have been more than a furlong long.”

“Oh! I know nothing of your furlongs, but I am sure it is a very long wood, and that we have been winding in and out ever since we came into it; and therefore, when I say that we have walked a mile in it, I must speak within compass.”

“Oh! I don’t know anything about your furlongs, but I’m sure it’s a really long forest, and we’ve been going in circles ever since we entered; so when I say we’ve walked a mile in it, I have to be somewhat accurate.”

“We have been exactly a quarter of an hour here,” said Edmund, taking out his watch. “Do you think we are walking four miles an hour?”

“We’ve been here for exactly fifteen minutes,” said Edmund, pulling out his watch. “Do you think we’re walking at four miles an hour?”

“Oh! do not attack me with your watch. A watch is always too fast or too slow. I cannot be dictated to by a watch.”

“Oh! Don’t attack me with your watch. A watch is always too fast or too slow. I can’t be told what to do by a watch.”

A few steps farther brought them out at the bottom of the very walk they had been talking of; and standing back, well shaded and sheltered, and looking over a ha-ha into the park, was a comfortable-sized bench, on which they all sat down.

A few steps further led them to the end of the exact path they had been discussing; and stepping back, well shaded and sheltered, and looking over a ditch into the park, was a cozy-sized bench, on which they all sat down.

“I am afraid you are very tired, Fanny,” said Edmund, observing her; “why would not you speak sooner? This will be a bad day’s amusement for you if you are to be knocked up. Every sort of exercise fatigues her so soon, Miss Crawford, except riding.”

“I’m afraid you’re really tired, Fanny,” Edmund said, watching her. “Why didn’t you speak up sooner? This is going to be a frustrating day for you if you’re worn out. Every kind of activity tires her out quickly, Miss Crawford, except for riding.”

“How abominable in you, then, to let me engross her horse as I did all last week! I am ashamed of you and of myself, but it shall never happen again.”

“How terrible of you to let me take over her horse like I did all last week! I’m embarrassed by you and by myself, but it won’t happen again.”

Your attentiveness and consideration makes me more sensible of my own neglect. Fanny’s interest seems in safer hands with you than with me.”

Your attentiveness and consideration make me more aware of my own neglect. Fanny’s interest seems to be in better hands with you than with me.

“That she should be tired now, however, gives me no surprise; for there is nothing in the course of one’s duties so fatiguing as what we have been doing this morning: seeing a great house, dawdling from one room to another, straining one’s eyes and one’s attention, hearing what one does not understand, admiring what one does not care for. It is generally allowed to be the greatest bore in the world, and Miss Price has found it so, though she did not know it.”

"That she’s tired now doesn’t surprise me at all; there’s nothing so exhausting in the course of one’s duties as what we’ve been doing this morning: touring a big house, wandering from one room to another, straining our eyes and attention, hearing things we don’t understand, and admiring things we don’t care about. It’s widely accepted that it’s the biggest bore in the world, and Miss Price has found it to be just that, even if she didn’t realize it."

“I shall soon be rested,” said Fanny; “to sit in the shade on a fine day, and look upon verdure, is the most perfect refreshment.”

"I'll be rested soon," Fanny said; "sitting in the shade on a nice day and looking at greenery is the best refreshment."

After sitting a little while Miss Crawford was up again. “I must move,” said she; “resting fatigues me. I have looked across the ha-ha till I am weary. I must go and look through that iron gate at the same view, without being able to see it so well.”

After sitting for a bit, Miss Crawford stood up again. “I need to get moving,” she said; “sitting still wears me out. I’ve stared across the ha-ha until I’m tired. I have to go and look through that iron gate at the same view, even if I can’t see it as clearly.”

Edmund left the seat likewise. “Now, Miss Crawford, if you will look up the walk, you will convince yourself that it cannot be half a mile long, or half half a mile.”

Edmund got up from his seat too. “Now, Miss Crawford, if you look up the path, you’ll see for yourself that it can’t be half a mile long or even a quarter of a mile.”

“It is an immense distance,” said she; “I see that with a glance.”

“It’s a huge distance,” she said; “I can see that with one look.”

He still reasoned with her, but in vain. She would not calculate, she would not compare. She would only smile and assert. The greatest degree of rational consistency could not have been more engaging, and they talked with mutual satisfaction. At last it was agreed that they should endeavour to determine the dimensions of the wood by walking a little more about it. They would go to one end of it, in the line they were then in—for there was a straight green walk along the bottom by the side of the ha-ha—and perhaps turn a little way in some other direction, if it seemed likely to assist them, and be back in a few minutes. Fanny said she was rested, and would have moved too, but this was not suffered. Edmund urged her remaining where she was with an earnestness which she could not resist, and she was left on the bench to think with pleasure of her cousin’s care, but with great regret that she was not stronger. She watched them till they had turned the corner, and listened till all sound of them had ceased.

He still tried to reason with her, but it was no use. She wouldn’t analyze or compare. She would just smile and insist on her point. The highest level of logical consistency couldn’t have been more captivating, and they engaged in conversation with mutual satisfaction. Eventually, they agreed to try to figure out the size of the woods by walking around a bit more. They would head to one end along the straight green path next to the ha-ha, and maybe divert a little if it looked helpful, and be back in a few minutes. Fanny said she felt rested and would have joined them, but they wouldn't allow it. Edmund insisted she stay where she was with a sincerity she couldn’t resist, so she remained on the bench, pleased by her cousin’s care but feeling regret that she wasn’t stronger. She watched until they turned the corner and listened until she could no longer hear them.

CHAPTER X

A quarter of an hour, twenty minutes, passed away, and Fanny was still thinking of Edmund, Miss Crawford, and herself, without interruption from any one. She began to be surprised at being left so long, and to listen with an anxious desire of hearing their steps and their voices again. She listened, and at length she heard; she heard voices and feet approaching; but she had just satisfied herself that it was not those she wanted, when Miss Bertram, Mr. Rushworth, and Mr. Crawford issued from the same path which she had trod herself, and were before her.

Fifteen minutes passed, and Fanny was still thinking about Edmund, Miss Crawford, and herself, without any interruptions. She started to feel surprised at being left alone for so long and listened anxiously, hoping to hear their steps and voices again. Eventually, she did hear voices and footsteps approaching; however, just as she figured out it wasn’t who she wanted, Miss Bertram, Mr. Rushworth, and Mr. Crawford came out from the same path she had walked herself and appeared before her.

“Miss Price all alone” and “My dear Fanny, how comes this?” were the first salutations. She told her story. “Poor dear Fanny,” cried her cousin, “how ill you have been used by them! You had better have staid with us.”

“Miss Price all alone” and “My dear Fanny, what happened?” were the first greetings. She shared her story. “Poor dear Fanny,” exclaimed her cousin, “how badly they’ve treated you! You should have stayed with us.”

Then seating herself with a gentleman on each side, she resumed the conversation which had engaged them before, and discussed the possibility of improvements with much animation. Nothing was fixed on; but Henry Crawford was full of ideas and projects, and, generally speaking, whatever he proposed was immediately approved, first by her, and then by Mr. Rushworth, whose principal business seemed to be to hear the others, and who scarcely risked an original thought of his own beyond a wish that they had seen his friend Smith’s place.

Then, sitting down with a guy on each side, she picked up the conversation they were having before and enthusiastically talked about possible improvements. Nothing was settled, but Henry Crawford was brimming with ideas and plans, and, for the most part, whatever he suggested was quickly agreed upon, first by her and then by Mr. Rushworth, whose main role seemed to be listening to the others, as he hardly ventured an original thought of his own beyond wishing they had visited his friend Smith’s place.

After some minutes spent in this way, Miss Bertram, observing the iron gate, expressed a wish of passing through it into the park, that their views and their plans might be more comprehensive. It was the very thing of all others to be wished, it was the best, it was the only way of proceeding with any advantage, in Henry Crawford’s opinion; and he directly saw a knoll not half a mile off, which would give them exactly the requisite command of the house. Go therefore they must to that knoll, and through that gate; but the gate was locked. Mr. Rushworth wished he had brought the key; he had been very near thinking whether he should not bring the key; he was determined he would never come without the key again; but still this did not remove the present evil. They could not get through; and as Miss Bertram’s inclination for so doing did by no means lessen, it ended in Mr. Rushworth’s declaring outright that he would go and fetch the key. He set off accordingly.

After a few minutes spent this way, Miss Bertram, noticing the iron gate, expressed a desire to go through it into the park so their views and plans could be more expansive. It was exactly what they needed; in Henry Crawford's opinion, it was the best and only way to move forward effectively. He quickly spotted a knoll not far away that would give them the perfect view of the house. So, they needed to go to that knoll and through that gate; however, the gate was locked. Mr. Rushworth regretted not having brought the key. He had almost decided to bring it and vowed he would never come without it again, but that didn’t solve their current problem. They couldn’t get through, and since Miss Bertram's desire to do so didn't fade, Mr. Rushworth ultimately declared that he would go and fetch the key. He set off accordingly.

“It is undoubtedly the best thing we can do now, as we are so far from the house already,” said Mr. Crawford, when he was gone.

“It’s definitely the best thing we can do right now, since we’re already so far from the house,” said Mr. Crawford, after he had left.

“Yes, there is nothing else to be done. But now, sincerely, do not you find the place altogether worse than you expected?”

“Yes, there’s nothing else to do. But honestly, don’t you find the place way worse than you expected?”

“No, indeed, far otherwise. I find it better, grander, more complete in its style, though that style may not be the best. And to tell you the truth,” speaking rather lower, “I do not think that I shall ever see Sotherton again with so much pleasure as I do now. Another summer will hardly improve it to me.”

“No, not at all. I think it’s better, grander, and more complete in its style, even if that style might not be the best. And to be honest,” speaking a bit quieter, “I don’t think I’ll ever enjoy Sotherton as much as I do now. Another summer probably won’t make it better for me.”

After a moment’s embarrassment the lady replied, “You are too much a man of the world not to see with the eyes of the world. If other people think Sotherton improved, I have no doubt that you will.”

After a moment of embarrassment, the lady replied, “You’re too much of a worldly person not to see things the way others do. If other people think Sotherton has improved, I’m sure you will too.”

“I am afraid I am not quite so much the man of the world as might be good for me in some points. My feelings are not quite so evanescent, nor my memory of the past under such easy dominion as one finds to be the case with men of the world.”

“I’m afraid I’m not as much a worldly person as would be beneficial for me in some ways. My feelings aren’t as fleeting, and my memories of the past don’t yield so easily as you find with more experienced people.”

This was followed by a short silence. Miss Bertram began again. “You seemed to enjoy your drive here very much this morning. I was glad to see you so well entertained. You and Julia were laughing the whole way.”

This was followed by a brief silence. Miss Bertram started up again. “It seemed like you really enjoyed your drive here this morning. I was glad to see you having such a good time. You and Julia were laughing the entire way.”

“Were we? Yes, I believe we were; but I have not the least recollection at what. Oh! I believe I was relating to her some ridiculous stories of an old Irish groom of my uncle’s. Your sister loves to laugh.”

“Were we? Yeah, I think we were; but I can't remember what about. Oh! I think I was telling her some silly stories about an old Irish groom that belonged to my uncle. Your sister loves to laugh.”

“You think her more light-hearted than I am?”

“You think she’s more carefree than I am?”

“More easily amused,” he replied; “consequently, you know,” smiling, “better company. I could not have hoped to entertain you with Irish anecdotes during a ten miles’ drive.”

“More easily amused,” he said, smiling, “so, you know, better company. I couldn’t have hoped to entertain you with Irish stories during a ten-mile drive.”

“Naturally, I believe, I am as lively as Julia, but I have more to think of now.”

“Of course, I think I'm just as lively as Julia, but I have more on my mind right now.”

“You have, undoubtedly; and there are situations in which very high spirits would denote insensibility. Your prospects, however, are too fair to justify want of spirits. You have a very smiling scene before you.”

"You definitely do; and there are times when being overly cheerful can show a lack of awareness. However, your future looks too bright to feel down. You have an encouraging outlook ahead of you."

“Do you mean literally or figuratively? Literally, I conclude. Yes, certainly, the sun shines, and the park looks very cheerful. But unluckily that iron gate, that ha-ha, give me a feeling of restraint and hardship. ‘I cannot get out,’ as the starling said.” As she spoke, and it was with expression, she walked to the gate: he followed her. “Mr. Rushworth is so long fetching this key!”

“Do you mean that literally or figuratively? Literally, I guess. Yes, of course, the sun is shining, and the park looks very cheerful. But unfortunately, that iron gate and that ha-ha make me feel trapped and burdened. ‘I can't get out,’ like the starling said.” As she spoke, with emphasis, she walked to the gate, and he followed her. “Mr. Rushworth is taking forever to bring this key!”

“And for the world you would not get out without the key and without Mr. Rushworth’s authority and protection, or I think you might with little difficulty pass round the edge of the gate, here, with my assistance; I think it might be done, if you really wished to be more at large, and could allow yourself to think it not prohibited.”

“And for the world, you wouldn't be able to leave without the key and Mr. Rushworth’s permission and support. But I think you could manage to slip around the edge of the gate here with my help; I believe it could be done if you genuinely wanted to be freer and could convince yourself it's not against the rules.”

“Prohibited! nonsense! I certainly can get out that way, and I will. Mr. Rushworth will be here in a moment, you know; we shall not be out of sight.”

“Forbidden! That's ridiculous! I can totally leave that way, and I will. Mr. Rushworth will be here any minute, you know; we won’t be out of sight.”

“Or if we are, Miss Price will be so good as to tell him that he will find us near that knoll: the grove of oak on the knoll.”

“Or if we are, Miss Price will kindly let him know that he can find us near that hill: the oak grove on the hill.”

Fanny, feeling all this to be wrong, could not help making an effort to prevent it. “You will hurt yourself, Miss Bertram,” she cried; “you will certainly hurt yourself against those spikes; you will tear your gown; you will be in danger of slipping into the ha-ha. You had better not go.”

Fanny, sensing that this was all wrong, couldn’t help but try to stop it. “You’re going to hurt yourself, Miss Bertram,” she exclaimed; “you’re definitely going to hurt yourself on those spikes; you’ll tear your dress; you could slip into the ditch. It’s best if you don’t go.”

Her cousin was safe on the other side while these words were spoken, and, smiling with all the good-humour of success, she said, “Thank you, my dear Fanny, but I and my gown are alive and well, and so good-bye.”

Her cousin was safe on the other side while these words were spoken, and, smiling with all the good humor of success, she said, “Thank you, my dear Fanny, but I and my gown are alive and well, so goodbye.”

Fanny was again left to her solitude, and with no increase of pleasant feelings, for she was sorry for almost all that she had seen and heard, astonished at Miss Bertram, and angry with Mr. Crawford. By taking a circuitous, and, as it appeared to her, very unreasonable direction to the knoll, they were soon beyond her eye; and for some minutes longer she remained without sight or sound of any companion. She seemed to have the little wood all to herself. She could almost have thought that Edmund and Miss Crawford had left it, but that it was impossible for Edmund to forget her so entirely.

Fanny was once again left alone, and her feelings didn’t improve, as she felt regret for almost everything she had seen and heard, surprised by Miss Bertram, and frustrated with Mr. Crawford. They took a roundabout route that seemed very unreasonable to her to reach the knoll, and soon they were out of her sight. For a few more minutes, she remained without any sign or sound of others. It felt like the little woods belonged entirely to her. She almost thought that Edmund and Miss Crawford had left, but it was hard to believe that Edmund could forget her completely.

She was again roused from disagreeable musings by sudden footsteps: somebody was coming at a quick pace down the principal walk. She expected Mr. Rushworth, but it was Julia, who, hot and out of breath, and with a look of disappointment, cried out on seeing her, “Heyday! Where are the others? I thought Maria and Mr. Crawford were with you.”

She was pulled out of her unpleasant thoughts once more by the sound of quick footsteps: someone was approaching rapidly down the main path. She figured it was Mr. Rushworth, but it turned out to be Julia, who, looking flushed and breathless, and with a look of disappointment, exclaimed upon seeing her, “Hey! Where are the others? I thought Maria and Mr. Crawford were with you.”

Fanny explained.

Fanny explained.

“A pretty trick, upon my word! I cannot see them anywhere,” looking eagerly into the park. “But they cannot be very far off, and I think I am equal to as much as Maria, even without help.”

“A clever move, I swear! I can’t see them anywhere,” she said, looking eagerly into the park. “But they can’t be too far away, and I think I can handle as much as Maria, even without any help.”

“But, Julia, Mr. Rushworth will be here in a moment with the key. Do wait for Mr. Rushworth.”

“But, Julia, Mr. Rushworth will be here any minute with the key. Please wait for Mr. Rushworth.”

“Not I, indeed. I have had enough of the family for one morning. Why, child, I have but this moment escaped from his horrible mother. Such a penance as I have been enduring, while you were sitting here so composed and so happy! It might have been as well, perhaps, if you had been in my place, but you always contrive to keep out of these scrapes.”

“Not me, definitely. I’ve had enough of the family for one morning. You see, I just escaped from his awful mother. What a nightmare I’ve been going through while you were sitting here so calm and happy! Maybe it would have been better if you had been in my shoes, but you always manage to stay out of these messes.”

This was a most unjust reflection, but Fanny could allow for it, and let it pass: Julia was vexed, and her temper was hasty; but she felt that it would not last, and therefore, taking no notice, only asked her if she had not seen Mr. Rushworth.

This was an unfair comment, but Fanny could overlook it and let it go; Julia was annoyed, and her temper was quick to flare up; but she understood it wouldn’t last, so she ignored it and simply asked her if she had seen Mr. Rushworth.

“Yes, yes, we saw him. He was posting away as if upon life and death, and could but just spare time to tell us his errand, and where you all were.”

“Yes, yes, we saw him. He was posting away as if it were a matter of life and death, and could only just spare a moment to tell us his mission and where you all were.”

“It is a pity he should have so much trouble for nothing.”

“It’s a shame he has to go through so much trouble for nothing.”

That is Miss Maria’s concern. I am not obliged to punish myself for her sins. The mother I could not avoid, as long as my tiresome aunt was dancing about with the housekeeper, but the son I can get away from.”

That is Miss Maria’s problem. I don’t have to punish myself for her mistakes. I couldn’t escape the mother as long as my annoying aunt was bustling around with the housekeeper, but I can avoid the son.

And she immediately scrambled across the fence, and walked away, not attending to Fanny’s last question of whether she had seen anything of Miss Crawford and Edmund. The sort of dread in which Fanny now sat of seeing Mr. Rushworth prevented her thinking so much of their continued absence, however, as she might have done. She felt that he had been very ill-used, and was quite unhappy in having to communicate what had passed. He joined her within five minutes after Julia’s exit; and though she made the best of the story, he was evidently mortified and displeased in no common degree. At first he scarcely said anything; his looks only expressed his extreme surprise and vexation, and he walked to the gate and stood there, without seeming to know what to do.

And she quickly climbed over the fence and walked away, ignoring Fanny’s last question about whether she had seen anything of Miss Crawford and Edmund. The anxiety Fanny felt about running into Mr. Rushworth kept her from worrying too much about their ongoing absence, though. She knew he had been treated unfairly and felt quite unhappy having to share what had happened. He joined her within five minutes after Julia left, and even though she tried to make the best of the situation, he was clearly upset and frustrated. At first, he barely spoke; his expression showed his shock and annoyance, and he walked to the gate and stood there, seemingly unsure of what to do.

“They desired me to stay—my cousin Maria charged me to say that you would find them at that knoll, or thereabouts.”

“They wanted me to stay—my cousin Maria asked me to let you know that you would find them at that hill, or somewhere nearby.”

“I do not believe I shall go any farther,” said he sullenly; “I see nothing of them. By the time I get to the knoll they may be gone somewhere else. I have had walking enough.”

“I don’t think I’ll go any further,” he said gloomily; “I can’t see them at all. By the time I reach the hill, they might have already moved on. I’ve walked enough.”

And he sat down with a most gloomy countenance by Fanny.

And he sat down with a very gloomy expression next to Fanny.

“I am very sorry,” said she; “it is very unlucky.” And she longed to be able to say something more to the purpose.

“I’m really sorry,” she said; “it’s really unfortunate.” And she wished she could say something more relevant.

After an interval of silence, “I think they might as well have staid for me,” said he.

After a pause, he said, “I think they might as well have stayed for me.”

“Miss Bertram thought you would follow her.”

“Miss Bertram thought you would go after her.”

“I should not have had to follow her if she had staid.”

“I shouldn’t have had to follow her if she had stayed.”

This could not be denied, and Fanny was silenced. After another pause, he went on—“Pray, Miss Price, are you such a great admirer of this Mr. Crawford as some people are? For my part, I can see nothing in him.”

This couldn’t be denied, and Fanny had nothing to say. After another pause, he continued—“Please, Miss Price, are you really such a big fan of this Mr. Crawford like some people are? As for me, I see nothing appealing about him.”

“I do not think him at all handsome.”

“I don’t think he’s handsome at all.”

“Handsome! Nobody can call such an undersized man handsome. He is not five foot nine. I should not wonder if he is not more than five foot eight. I think he is an ill-looking fellow. In my opinion, these Crawfords are no addition at all. We did very well without them.”

“Good-looking! No one can call such a short man good-looking. He isn't five foot nine. I wouldn't be surprised if he's only five foot eight. I think he looks pretty rough. In my opinion, these Crawfords don’t add anything. We managed just fine without them.”

A small sigh escaped Fanny here, and she did not know how to contradict him.

A small sigh slipped out of Fanny, and she didn’t know how to argue with him.

“If I had made any difficulty about fetching the key, there might have been some excuse, but I went the very moment she said she wanted it.”

“If I had hesitated about getting the key, there might have been some reason for it, but I went right away as soon as she said she needed it.”

“Nothing could be more obliging than your manner, I am sure, and I dare say you walked as fast as you could; but still it is some distance, you know, from this spot to the house, quite into the house; and when people are waiting, they are bad judges of time, and every half minute seems like five.”

“Nothing could be more considerate than your approach, I'm sure, and I bet you walked as quickly as you could; but it’s still quite a distance from here to the house, all the way inside; and when people are waiting, they really lose track of time, and every half minute feels like five.”

He got up and walked to the gate again, and “wished he had had the key about him at the time.” Fanny thought she discerned in his standing there an indication of relenting, which encouraged her to another attempt, and she said, therefore, “It is a pity you should not join them. They expected to have a better view of the house from that part of the park, and will be thinking how it may be improved; and nothing of that sort, you know, can be settled without you.”

He got up and walked to the gate again and “wished he had the key with him at the time.” Fanny thought she saw in his standing there a sign of him softening, which encouraged her to try again, so she said, “It’s a shame you aren’t joining them. They were hoping to get a better view of the house from that part of the park and will be thinking about how it can be improved; and nothing like that, you know, can be decided without you.”

She found herself more successful in sending away than in retaining a companion. Mr. Rushworth was worked on. “Well,” said he, “if you really think I had better go: it would be foolish to bring the key for nothing.” And letting himself out, he walked off without farther ceremony.

She realized she was better at getting rid of a companion than keeping one around. Mr. Rushworth was affected by this. “Well,” he said, “if you really think I should go, it would be silly to bring the key for no reason.” And after letting himself out, he left without any further ado.

Fanny’s thoughts were now all engrossed by the two who had left her so long ago, and getting quite impatient, she resolved to go in search of them. She followed their steps along the bottom walk, and had just turned up into another, when the voice and the laugh of Miss Crawford once more caught her ear; the sound approached, and a few more windings brought them before her. They were just returned into the wilderness from the park, to which a sidegate, not fastened, had tempted them very soon after their leaving her, and they had been across a portion of the park into the very avenue which Fanny had been hoping the whole morning to reach at last, and had been sitting down under one of the trees. This was their history. It was evident that they had been spending their time pleasantly, and were not aware of the length of their absence. Fanny’s best consolation was in being assured that Edmund had wished for her very much, and that he should certainly have come back for her, had she not been tired already; but this was not quite sufficient to do away with the pain of having been left a whole hour, when he had talked of only a few minutes, nor to banish the sort of curiosity she felt to know what they had been conversing about all that time; and the result of the whole was to her disappointment and depression, as they prepared by general agreement to return to the house.

Fanny was completely absorbed in thoughts of the two who had left her so long ago, and feeling quite impatient, she decided to go look for them. She followed their footsteps along the lower path, and had just turned onto another when she heard Miss Crawford's voice and laughter again; the sound got closer, and a few more twists in the path brought them in front of her. They had just come back from the park, having been tempted by an unclosed side gate shortly after leaving her. They had crossed part of the park and made their way to the very avenue Fanny had been hoping to reach all morning, where they were sitting under one of the trees. It was clear they had been enjoying themselves and hadn’t realized how long they’d been gone. Fanny found some comfort in knowing that Edmund had missed her and would have returned for her if she hadn’t already been tired; however, that didn’t fully ease the sting of being left for a whole hour when he had mentioned only a few minutes, nor did it quiet her curiosity about what they had been talking about all that time. Ultimately, it left her feeling disappointed and down as they all prepared to head back to the house.

On reaching the bottom of the steps to the terrace, Mrs. Rushworth and Mrs. Norris presented themselves at the top, just ready for the wilderness, at the end of an hour and a half from their leaving the house. Mrs. Norris had been too well employed to move faster. Whatever cross-accidents had occurred to intercept the pleasures of her nieces, she had found a morning of complete enjoyment; for the housekeeper, after a great many courtesies on the subject of pheasants, had taken her to the dairy, told her all about their cows, and given her the receipt for a famous cream cheese; and since Julia’s leaving them they had been met by the gardener, with whom she had made a most satisfactory acquaintance, for she had set him right as to his grandson’s illness, convinced him that it was an ague, and promised him a charm for it; and he, in return, had shewn her all his choicest nursery of plants, and actually presented her with a very curious specimen of heath.

At the bottom of the steps to the terrace, Mrs. Rushworth and Mrs. Norris arrived at the top, just ready for the adventure, after spending an hour and a half away from the house. Mrs. Norris had been too busy to move any quicker. Despite whatever mishaps had interrupted her nieces' fun, she had enjoyed a delightful morning; the housekeeper, after a lot of polite conversation about pheasants, took her to the dairy, told her all about their cows, and gave her the recipe for an amazing cream cheese. Since Julia had left them, they had run into the gardener, with whom she had formed a very satisfying connection, as she had corrected him about his grandson’s illness, convinced him it was just a fever, and promised to give him a charm for it. In return, he showed her all his favorite plants and even gifted her a very unique specimen of heath.

On this rencontre they all returned to the house together, there to lounge away the time as they could with sofas, and chit-chat, and Quarterly Reviews, till the return of the others, and the arrival of dinner. It was late before the Miss Bertrams and the two gentlemen came in, and their ramble did not appear to have been more than partially agreeable, or at all productive of anything useful with regard to the object of the day. By their own accounts they had been all walking after each other, and the junction which had taken place at last seemed, to Fanny’s observation, to have been as much too late for re-establishing harmony, as it confessedly had been for determining on any alteration. She felt, as she looked at Julia and Mr. Rushworth, that hers was not the only dissatisfied bosom amongst them: there was gloom on the face of each. Mr. Crawford and Miss Bertram were much more gay, and she thought that he was taking particular pains, during dinner, to do away any little resentment of the other two, and restore general good-humour.

At this gathering, they all went back to the house together, where they relaxed on sofas, chatted, and read Quarterly Reviews until the others returned and dinner was served. It was late when the Miss Bertrams and the two gentlemen arrived, and their walk didn’t seem to have been very enjoyable or productive regarding the purpose of the day. By their own accounts, they had been walking after each other, and the meeting that finally took place seemed, to Fanny’s observation, to be too late to restore harmony, just as it was clearly too late to make any changes. As she looked at Julia and Mr. Rushworth, she realized that she wasn’t the only one feeling dissatisfied; each of their faces showed gloom. Mr. Crawford and Miss Bertram were much more cheerful, and she noticed that he was making an extra effort during dinner to ease any lingering resentment from the other two and bring back a general sense of good humor.

Dinner was soon followed by tea and coffee, a ten miles’ drive home allowed no waste of hours; and from the time of their sitting down to table, it was a quick succession of busy nothings till the carriage came to the door, and Mrs. Norris, having fidgeted about, and obtained a few pheasants’ eggs and a cream cheese from the housekeeper, and made abundance of civil speeches to Mrs. Rushworth, was ready to lead the way. At the same moment Mr. Crawford, approaching Julia, said, “I hope I am not to lose my companion, unless she is afraid of the evening air in so exposed a seat.” The request had not been foreseen, but was very graciously received, and Julia’s day was likely to end almost as well as it began. Miss Bertram had made up her mind to something different, and was a little disappointed; but her conviction of being really the one preferred comforted her under it, and enabled her to receive Mr. Rushworth’s parting attentions as she ought. He was certainly better pleased to hand her into the barouche than to assist her in ascending the box, and his complacency seemed confirmed by the arrangement.

Dinner was soon followed by tea and coffee, and the ten-mile drive home left no time to waste. From the moment they sat down at the table, it was a quick succession of trivial activities until the carriage arrived. Mrs. Norris, having fidgeted around and gotten a few pheasant eggs and a cream cheese from the housekeeper, filled the air with polite chatter to Mrs. Rushworth and was ready to lead the way. At the same time, Mr. Crawford approached Julia and said, “I hope I’m not going to lose my companion, unless she’s afraid of the evening air on such an open seat.” The request was unexpected but very welcome, and Julia’s day was likely to end almost as nicely as it had begun. Miss Bertram had been expecting something different and felt a bit disappointed; however, her belief that she was truly the one preferred helped her accept Mr. Rushworth’s parting attentions as she should. He certainly seemed happier to help her into the carriage than to assist her in getting up into the box, and his satisfaction appeared reinforced by the arrangement.

“Well, Fanny, this has been a fine day for you, upon my word,” said Mrs. Norris, as they drove through the park. “Nothing but pleasure from beginning to end! I am sure you ought to be very much obliged to your aunt Bertram and me for contriving to let you go. A pretty good day’s amusement you have had!”

“Well, Fanny, this has been a great day for you, I must say,” Mrs. Norris said as they drove through the park. “Pure enjoyment from start to finish! You should definitely be very grateful to your Aunt Bertram and me for arranging to let you go. You’ve had quite a nice day of fun!”

Maria was just discontented enough to say directly, “I think you have done pretty well yourself, ma’am. Your lap seems full of good things, and here is a basket of something between us which has been knocking my elbow unmercifully.”

Maria was just frustrated enough to say directly, “I think you have done pretty well yourself, ma’am. Your lap looks full of good things, and here’s a basket of something between us that has been jostling my elbow unrelentingly.”

“My dear, it is only a beautiful little heath, which that nice old gardener would make me take; but if it is in your way, I will have it in my lap directly. There, Fanny, you shall carry that parcel for me; take great care of it: do not let it fall; it is a cream cheese, just like the excellent one we had at dinner. Nothing would satisfy that good old Mrs. Whitaker, but my taking one of the cheeses. I stood out as long as I could, till the tears almost came into her eyes, and I knew it was just the sort that my sister would be delighted with. That Mrs. Whitaker is a treasure! She was quite shocked when I asked her whether wine was allowed at the second table, and she has turned away two housemaids for wearing white gowns. Take care of the cheese, Fanny. Now I can manage the other parcel and the basket very well.”

“My dear, it’s just a lovely little heather plant that the nice old gardener wants me to take. But if it’s in your way, I’ll hold it on my lap right now. There, Fanny, you’ll carry that package for me; be very careful with it: don’t let it drop; it’s a cream cheese, just like the fantastic one we had at dinner. Nothing would satisfy that sweet old Mrs. Whitaker except for me to take one of the cheeses. I held out as long as I could until she almost cried, and I knew it was exactly the kind my sister would love. That Mrs. Whitaker is a gem! She was totally shocked when I asked her if wine was allowed at the second table, and she has sent away two housemaids for wearing white dresses. Take care of the cheese, Fanny. Now I can handle the other package and the basket just fine.”

“What else have you been spunging?” said Maria, half-pleased that Sotherton should be so complimented.

“What else have you been mooching?” said Maria, half-pleased that Sotherton was getting such praise.

“Spunging, my dear! It is nothing but four of those beautiful pheasants’ eggs, which Mrs. Whitaker would quite force upon me: she would not take a denial. She said it must be such an amusement to me, as she understood I lived quite alone, to have a few living creatures of that sort; and so to be sure it will. I shall get the dairymaid to set them under the first spare hen, and if they come to good I can have them moved to my own house and borrow a coop; and it will be a great delight to me in my lonely hours to attend to them. And if I have good luck, your mother shall have some.”

“Spunging, my dear! It's just a few of those lovely pheasant eggs that Mrs. Whitaker insisted I take; she wouldn’t take no for an answer. She mentioned it must be such a fun distraction for me, since I live alone, to have a few living creatures like that; and it definitely will. I’ll have the dairymaid place them under the first available hen, and if all goes well, I can move them to my house and borrow a coop. It will bring me a lot of joy during my quiet hours to care for them. And if I’m lucky, your mother will get some too.”

It was a beautiful evening, mild and still, and the drive was as pleasant as the serenity of Nature could make it; but when Mrs. Norris ceased speaking, it was altogether a silent drive to those within. Their spirits were in general exhausted; and to determine whether the day had afforded most pleasure or pain, might occupy the meditations of almost all.

It was a beautiful evening, mild and calm, and the drive was as enjoyable as the peacefulness of Nature could make it; but when Mrs. Norris stopped talking, it became a completely silent drive for those inside. Their spirits were generally drained, and figuring out whether the day had brought more pleasure or pain might fill the thoughts of almost everyone.

CHAPTER XI

The day at Sotherton, with all its imperfections, afforded the Miss Bertrams much more agreeable feelings than were derived from the letters from Antigua, which soon afterwards reached Mansfield. It was much pleasanter to think of Henry Crawford than of their father; and to think of their father in England again within a certain period, which these letters obliged them to do, was a most unwelcome exercise.

The day at Sotherton, despite its flaws, brought the Miss Bertrams much more pleasant feelings than the letters from Antigua that soon arrived in Mansfield. It was much nicer to think about Henry Crawford than their father; and considering that their father would be back in England within a certain timeframe, as these letters indicated, was a really unwelcome thought.

November was the black month fixed for his return. Sir Thomas wrote of it with as much decision as experience and anxiety could authorise. His business was so nearly concluded as to justify him in proposing to take his passage in the September packet, and he consequently looked forward with the hope of being with his beloved family again early in November.

November was the set month for his return. Sir Thomas wrote about it with as much determination as experience and anxiety would allow. His affairs were so nearly wrapped up that he felt justified in planning to take a spot on the September packet, and he therefore looked forward to reuniting with his beloved family early in November.

Maria was more to be pitied than Julia; for to her the father brought a husband, and the return of the friend most solicitous for her happiness would unite her to the lover, on whom she had chosen that happiness should depend. It was a gloomy prospect, and all she could do was to throw a mist over it, and hope when the mist cleared away she should see something else. It would hardly be early in November, there were generally delays, a bad passage or something; that favouring something which everybody who shuts their eyes while they look, or their understandings while they reason, feels the comfort of. It would probably be the middle of November at least; the middle of November was three months off. Three months comprised thirteen weeks. Much might happen in thirteen weeks.

Maria was more to be sympathized with than Julia; because her father brought her a husband, and the return of the friend who cared most about her happiness would connect her with the man she had decided her happiness depended on. It was a bleak outlook, and all she could do was obscure it and hope that when the fog lifted, she would see something different. It would hardly be early in November; there were usually delays, a rough trip or something; that lucky something which everyone who closes their eyes while looking, or switches off their reasoning while thinking, feels reassured by. It would likely be at least the middle of November; the middle of November was three months away. Three months was thirteen weeks. A lot could happen in thirteen weeks.

Sir Thomas would have been deeply mortified by a suspicion of half that his daughters felt on the subject of his return, and would hardly have found consolation in a knowledge of the interest it excited in the breast of another young lady. Miss Crawford, on walking up with her brother to spend the evening at Mansfield Park, heard the good news; and though seeming to have no concern in the affair beyond politeness, and to have vented all her feelings in a quiet congratulation, heard it with an attention not so easily satisfied. Mrs. Norris gave the particulars of the letters, and the subject was dropt; but after tea, as Miss Crawford was standing at an open window with Edmund and Fanny looking out on a twilight scene, while the Miss Bertrams, Mr. Rushworth, and Henry Crawford were all busy with candles at the pianoforte, she suddenly revived it by turning round towards the group, and saying, “How happy Mr. Rushworth looks! He is thinking of November.”

Sir Thomas would have been really embarrassed by even a hint that his daughters had concerns about his return, and he wouldn't have found much comfort knowing that another young woman was interested in it. On her way to spend the evening at Mansfield Park with her brother, Miss Crawford heard the good news. Although she pretended to be indifferent and expressed only polite congratulations, she listened with an attention that couldn't be easily satisfied. Mrs. Norris shared the details from the letters, and the topic was dropped. But after tea, as Miss Crawford stood at an open window with Edmund and Fanny, looking out at the twilight scene while the Miss Bertrams, Mr. Rushworth, and Henry Crawford were busy lighting candles at the piano, she suddenly brought it up again by turning to the group and saying, “Mr. Rushworth looks so happy! He must be thinking about November.”

Edmund looked round at Mr. Rushworth too, but had nothing to say.

Edmund looked over at Mr. Rushworth as well, but didn’t have anything to say.

“Your father’s return will be a very interesting event.”

“Your dad coming back will be quite an interesting event.”

“It will, indeed, after such an absence; an absence not only long, but including so many dangers.”

“It definitely will, especially after such a long time away; a time that was not just long but also filled with many dangers.”

“It will be the forerunner also of other interesting events: your sister’s marriage, and your taking orders.”

“It will also be the start of other exciting events: your sister’s wedding and you becoming a clergyman.”

“Yes.”

“Yep.”

“Don’t be affronted,” said she, laughing, “but it does put me in mind of some of the old heathen heroes, who, after performing great exploits in a foreign land, offered sacrifices to the gods on their safe return.”

“Don’t take offense,” she said, laughing, “but it reminds me of some of the old pagan heroes who, after achieving great feats in a foreign land, made sacrifices to the gods when they got home safely.”

“There is no sacrifice in the case,” replied Edmund, with a serious smile, and glancing at the pianoforte again; “it is entirely her own doing.”

“There’s no sacrifice here,” Edmund replied with a serious smile, glancing at the piano again. “It’s completely her choice.”

“Oh yes I know it is. I was merely joking. She has done no more than what every young woman would do; and I have no doubt of her being extremely happy. My other sacrifice, of course, you do not understand.”

“Oh yes, I know it is. I was just joking. She has done no more than what any young woman would do, and I have no doubt she is extremely happy. My other sacrifice, of course, you don’t understand.”

“My taking orders, I assure you, is quite as voluntary as Maria’s marrying.”

“My willingness to take orders is just as voluntary as Maria’s choice to marry.”

“It is fortunate that your inclination and your father’s convenience should accord so well. There is a very good living kept for you, I understand, hereabouts.”

“It’s lucky that your preferences and your father’s situation align so nicely. I hear there’s a great opportunity waiting for you around here.”

“Which you suppose has biassed me?”

“Which one do you think has influenced me?”

“But that I am sure it has not,” cried Fanny.

“But that I’m sure it hasn’t,” shouted Fanny.

“Thank you for your good word, Fanny, but it is more than I would affirm myself. On the contrary, the knowing that there was such a provision for me probably did bias me. Nor can I think it wrong that it should. There was no natural disinclination to be overcome, and I see no reason why a man should make a worse clergyman for knowing that he will have a competence early in life. I was in safe hands. I hope I should not have been influenced myself in a wrong way, and I am sure my father was too conscientious to have allowed it. I have no doubt that I was biased, but I think it was blamelessly.”

“Thanks for your kind words, Fanny, but I wouldn’t say that about myself. Actually, knowing that I had such support probably did influence me. I don’t think that’s wrong. There was no natural reluctance to overcome, and I don’t see why a man would be a worse clergyman just because he knows he'll have enough to live on early in life. I was in good hands. I hope I wouldn’t have let it influence me in a bad way, and I’m sure my father was too principled to have allowed it. I have no doubt I was influenced, but I believe it was in a good way.”

“It is the same sort of thing,” said Fanny, after a short pause, “as for the son of an admiral to go into the navy, or the son of a general to be in the army, and nobody sees anything wrong in that. Nobody wonders that they should prefer the line where their friends can serve them best, or suspects them to be less in earnest in it than they appear.”

“It’s the same kind of thing,” Fanny said after a brief pause, “as when the son of an admiral joins the navy or the son of a general serves in the army, and no one thinks that’s wrong. No one questions why they’d choose the path where their connections can help them the most or doubts their commitment to it compared to how they seem.”

“No, my dear Miss Price, and for reasons good. The profession, either navy or army, is its own justification. It has everything in its favour: heroism, danger, bustle, fashion. Soldiers and sailors are always acceptable in society. Nobody can wonder that men are soldiers and sailors.”

“No, my dear Miss Price, and for good reasons. A career in the navy or army stands on its own merit. It has everything going for it: bravery, risk, excitement, and style. Soldiers and sailors are always welcome in society. It's no surprise that men choose to be soldiers and sailors.”

“But the motives of a man who takes orders with the certainty of preferment may be fairly suspected, you think?” said Edmund. “To be justified in your eyes, he must do it in the most complete uncertainty of any provision.”

“But you think the motives of a man who follows orders while expecting a promotion can be questioned?” said Edmund. “To gain your approval, he would need to act without any expectation of reward.”

“What! take orders without a living! No; that is madness indeed; absolute madness.”

“What! take orders without a paycheck! No; that’s just crazy; totally crazy.”

“Shall I ask you how the church is to be filled, if a man is neither to take orders with a living nor without? No; for you certainly would not know what to say. But I must beg some advantage to the clergyman from your own argument. As he cannot be influenced by those feelings which you rank highly as temptation and reward to the soldier and sailor in their choice of a profession, as heroism, and noise, and fashion, are all against him, he ought to be less liable to the suspicion of wanting sincerity or good intentions in the choice of his.”

“Can I ask you how the church is supposed to be filled if a person can’t take orders with a living or without one? No; you probably wouldn't know how to answer that. But I do need to highlight some benefits for the clergyman based on your own argument. Since he isn’t influenced by the feelings you highly regard as temptations and rewards for soldiers and sailors in their career choices—like heroism, excitement, and trends—he should be less likely to be suspected of lacking sincerity or good intentions in his choice.”

“Oh! no doubt he is very sincere in preferring an income ready made, to the trouble of working for one; and has the best intentions of doing nothing all the rest of his days but eat, drink, and grow fat. It is indolence, Mr. Bertram, indeed. Indolence and love of ease; a want of all laudable ambition, of taste for good company, or of inclination to take the trouble of being agreeable, which make men clergymen. A clergyman has nothing to do but be slovenly and selfish—read the newspaper, watch the weather, and quarrel with his wife. His curate does all the work, and the business of his own life is to dine.”

“Oh! no doubt he is very sincere in preferring a ready-made income to the effort of working for one; and he fully intends to do nothing for the rest of his days but eat, drink, and get lazy. It is laziness, Mr. Bertram, indeed. Laziness and a love of comfort; a lack of all worthy ambition, an appreciation for good company, or any desire to put in the effort to be pleasant, which make men clergymen. A clergyman has nothing to do but be messy and selfish—read the newspaper, watch the weather, and argue with his wife. His curate does all the work, and his main job in life is to have dinner.”

“There are such clergymen, no doubt, but I think they are not so common as to justify Miss Crawford in esteeming it their general character. I suspect that in this comprehensive and (may I say) commonplace censure, you are not judging from yourself, but from prejudiced persons, whose opinions you have been in the habit of hearing. It is impossible that your own observation can have given you much knowledge of the clergy. You can have been personally acquainted with very few of a set of men you condemn so conclusively. You are speaking what you have been told at your uncle’s table.”

“There are definitely some clergymen like that, but I don’t think they’re common enough for Miss Crawford to believe it’s their general character. I suspect that in this broad and (can I say) ordinary criticism, you’re not basing your judgment on your own experience but rather on the biased views of people you’ve frequently heard. It’s hard to believe that your own observations have given you much insight into the clergy. You must have only known a few people from the group you’re condemning so definitively. You’re repeating what you’ve heard at your uncle’s dinner table.”

“I speak what appears to me the general opinion; and where an opinion is general, it is usually correct. Though I have not seen much of the domestic lives of clergymen, it is seen by too many to leave any deficiency of information.”

“I share what seems to be the common opinion; and when an opinion is widespread, it’s usually right. Even though I haven’t observed much of the everyday lives of clergymen, too many people have for there to be a lack of information.”

“Where any one body of educated men, of whatever denomination, are condemned indiscriminately, there must be a deficiency of information, or (smiling) of something else. Your uncle, and his brother admirals, perhaps knew little of clergymen beyond the chaplains whom, good or bad, they were always wishing away.”

“Whenever a group of educated people, no matter their background, is judged without consideration, it shows a lack of information or (smirking) something else. Your uncle and his fellow admirals probably knew little about clergymen aside from the chaplains they were always hoping to send away, whether they were good or bad.”

“Poor William! He has met with great kindness from the chaplain of the Antwerp,” was a tender apostrophe of Fanny’s, very much to the purpose of her own feelings if not of the conversation.

“Poor William! He has received such kindness from the chaplain of Antwerp,” was a heartfelt remark from Fanny, perfectly reflecting her own feelings even if it wasn't directly related to the conversation.

“I have been so little addicted to take my opinions from my uncle,” said Miss Crawford, “that I can hardly suppose—and since you push me so hard, I must observe, that I am not entirely without the means of seeing what clergymen are, being at this present time the guest of my own brother, Dr. Grant. And though Dr. Grant is most kind and obliging to me, and though he is really a gentleman, and, I dare say, a good scholar and clever, and often preaches good sermons, and is very respectable, I see him to be an indolent, selfish bon vivant, who must have his palate consulted in everything; who will not stir a finger for the convenience of any one; and who, moreover, if the cook makes a blunder, is out of humour with his excellent wife. To own the truth, Henry and I were partly driven out this very evening by a disappointment about a green goose, which he could not get the better of. My poor sister was forced to stay and bear it.”

“I haven't really relied on my uncle's opinions,” said Miss Crawford. “So I can hardly imagine—and since you’re pressing me so much, I must point out that I’m not completely clueless about what clergymen are like, especially since I'm currently staying with my brother, Dr. Grant. And even though Dr. Grant is very kind and accommodating to me, and he’s certainly a gentleman, and I believe a good scholar and smart, and often delivers good sermons, and is quite respectable, I see him as an indolent, selfish bon vivant, who insists on having his tastes catered to in everything; who won’t lift a finger for anyone else’s convenience; and who, furthermore, if the cook makes a mistake, takes it out on his wonderful wife. To be honest, Henry and I were partly driven out this very evening because he couldn't let go of a disappointment over a green goose. My poor sister had to stay and deal with it.”

“I do not wonder at your disapprobation, upon my word. It is a great defect of temper, made worse by a very faulty habit of self-indulgence; and to see your sister suffering from it must be exceedingly painful to such feelings as yours. Fanny, it goes against us. We cannot attempt to defend Dr. Grant.”

“I’m not surprised by your disapproval, honestly. It’s a serious flaw in character, made worse by a really bad habit of self-indulgence; and seeing your sister suffer because of it must be incredibly painful for someone like you. Fanny, it works against us. We can’t defend Dr. Grant.”

“No,” replied Fanny, “but we need not give up his profession for all that; because, whatever profession Dr. Grant had chosen, he would have taken a—not a good temper into it; and as he must, either in the navy or army, have had a great many more people under his command than he has now, I think more would have been made unhappy by him as a sailor or soldier than as a clergyman. Besides, I cannot but suppose that whatever there may be to wish otherwise in Dr. Grant would have been in a greater danger of becoming worse in a more active and worldly profession, where he would have had less time and obligation—where he might have escaped that knowledge of himself, the frequency, at least, of that knowledge which it is impossible he should escape as he is now. A man—a sensible man like Dr. Grant, cannot be in the habit of teaching others their duty every week, cannot go to church twice every Sunday, and preach such very good sermons in so good a manner as he does, without being the better for it himself. It must make him think; and I have no doubt that he oftener endeavours to restrain himself than he would if he had been anything but a clergyman.”

“No,” Fanny replied, “but we don’t have to give up his profession for that reason; because, no matter what profession Dr. Grant chose, he wouldn’t have brought a—let's say a good temper into it; and since he would have had a lot more people under his command in the navy or army than he does now, I think more people would have ended up unhappy with him as a sailor or soldier than as a clergyman. Additionally, I can’t help but think that whatever faults Dr. Grant has would be at greater risk of getting worse in a more active and worldly profession, where he'd have less time and obligation—where he might have avoided that self-awareness, or at least the frequency of that self-awareness which he can’t escape as he does now. A man—a sensible man like Dr. Grant, can’t regularly teach others about their duties every week, can’t go to church twice every Sunday, and preach such good sermons in such a good way without benefiting from it himself. It must make him think; and I have no doubt that he often tries to hold himself back more than he would if he were anything other than a clergyman.”

“We cannot prove to the contrary, to be sure; but I wish you a better fate, Miss Price, than to be the wife of a man whose amiableness depends upon his own sermons; for though he may preach himself into a good-humour every Sunday, it will be bad enough to have him quarrelling about green geese from Monday morning till Saturday night.”

“We can’t prove otherwise, of course; but I hope for a better fate for you, Miss Price, than being the wife of a man whose kindness relies on his own sermons. He might be able to talk himself into a good mood every Sunday, but it’s going to be tough dealing with him arguing about green geese from Monday morning to Saturday night.”

“I think the man who could often quarrel with Fanny,” said Edmund affectionately, “must be beyond the reach of any sermons.”

“I think the guy who could often argue with Fanny,” said Edmund affectionately, “must be immune to any sermons.”

Fanny turned farther into the window; and Miss Crawford had only time to say, in a pleasant manner, “I fancy Miss Price has been more used to deserve praise than to hear it”; when, being earnestly invited by the Miss Bertrams to join in a glee, she tripped off to the instrument, leaving Edmund looking after her in an ecstasy of admiration of all her many virtues, from her obliging manners down to her light and graceful tread.

Fanny moved closer to the window, and Miss Crawford barely had time to say, in a friendly way, “I think Miss Price is more used to earning praise than receiving it”; when, warmly encouraged by the Miss Bertrams to join in a song, she happily went to the piano, leaving Edmund watching her with awe at all her wonderful qualities, from her friendly demeanor to her light and elegant steps.

“There goes good-humour, I am sure,” said he presently. “There goes a temper which would never give pain! How well she walks! and how readily she falls in with the inclination of others! joining them the moment she is asked. What a pity,” he added, after an instant’s reflection, “that she should have been in such hands!”

“There goes someone full of good humor, I’m sure,” he said after a moment. “There goes a person with a temperament that would never hurt anyone! Look at how gracefully she walks! And how easily she blends in with what others want to do! She joins in as soon as she’s invited. What a shame,” he added after a brief pause, “that she ended up with people like that!”

Fanny agreed to it, and had the pleasure of seeing him continue at the window with her, in spite of the expected glee; and of having his eyes soon turned, like hers, towards the scene without, where all that was solemn, and soothing, and lovely, appeared in the brilliancy of an unclouded night, and the contrast of the deep shade of the woods. Fanny spoke her feelings. “Here’s harmony!” said she; “here’s repose! Here’s what may leave all painting and all music behind, and what poetry only can attempt to describe! Here’s what may tranquillise every care, and lift the heart to rapture! When I look out on such a night as this, I feel as if there could be neither wickedness nor sorrow in the world; and there certainly would be less of both if the sublimity of Nature were more attended to, and people were carried more out of themselves by contemplating such a scene.”

Fanny agreed to it and felt delighted to see him stay at the window with her, despite the expected excitement. She watched as his gaze, like hers, turned toward the outside, where everything seemed solemn, calming, and beautiful in the brightness of a clear night, contrasted by the deep shadows of the woods. Fanny expressed her thoughts. “Here’s harmony!” she said; “here’s peace! Here’s something that surpasses all art and music, and what only poetry can try to describe! Here’s something that can soothe every worry and elevate the heart to joy! When I look out on a night like this, I feel like there can be no evil or sorrow in the world; and there would definitely be less of both if people paid more attention to the grandeur of Nature and allowed themselves to be moved by such a scene.”

“I like to hear your enthusiasm, Fanny. It is a lovely night, and they are much to be pitied who have not been taught to feel, in some degree, as you do; who have not, at least, been given a taste for Nature in early life. They lose a great deal.”

“I love hearing your enthusiasm, Fanny. It’s a beautiful night, and it’s such a shame for those who haven’t learned to feel, at least to some extent, like you do; who haven’t, at the very least, developed an appreciation for Nature in their early life. They miss out on so much.”

You taught me to think and feel on the subject, cousin.”

You taught me to think and feel about this, cousin.”

“I had a very apt scholar. There’s Arcturus looking very bright.”

“I had a really sharp student. There's Arcturus shining very brightly.”

“Yes, and the Bear. I wish I could see Cassiopeia.”

“Yes, and the Bear. I wish I could see Cassiopeia.”

“We must go out on the lawn for that. Should you be afraid?”

“We need to go out on the lawn for that. Are you scared?”

“Not in the least. It is a great while since we have had any star-gazing.”

“Not at all. It’s been a long time since we did any stargazing.”

“Yes; I do not know how it has happened.” The glee began. “We will stay till this is finished, Fanny,” said he, turning his back on the window; and as it advanced, she had the mortification of seeing him advance too, moving forward by gentle degrees towards the instrument, and when it ceased, he was close by the singers, among the most urgent in requesting to hear the glee again.

“Yes; I don’t know how this happened.” The glee began. “We’ll stay until this is over, Fanny,” he said, turning away from the window; and as it went on, she felt the embarrassment of seeing him move closer too, gradually approaching the instrument, and when it ended, he was right by the singers, among the most eager in asking to hear the glee again.

Fanny sighed alone at the window till scolded away by Mrs. Norris’s threats of catching cold.

Fanny sighed by the window until Mrs. Norris scolded her about getting a cold.

CHAPTER XII

Sir Thomas was to return in November, and his eldest son had duties to call him earlier home. The approach of September brought tidings of Mr. Bertram, first in a letter to the gamekeeper and then in a letter to Edmund; and by the end of August he arrived himself, to be gay, agreeable, and gallant again as occasion served, or Miss Crawford demanded; to tell of races and Weymouth, and parties and friends, to which she might have listened six weeks before with some interest, and altogether to give her the fullest conviction, by the power of actual comparison, of her preferring his younger brother.

Sir Thomas was set to return in November, and his oldest son had responsibilities that called him home sooner. As September approached, news about Mr. Bertram came first through a letter to the gamekeeper and then to Edmund; by the end of August, he arrived in person, being cheerful, charming, and dashing as the situation required or Miss Crawford expected. He talked about races, Weymouth, and social gatherings, which she might have found somewhat interesting six weeks earlier, ultimately making her fully realize, through direct comparison, that she preferred his younger brother.

It was very vexatious, and she was heartily sorry for it; but so it was; and so far from now meaning to marry the elder, she did not even want to attract him beyond what the simplest claims of conscious beauty required: his lengthened absence from Mansfield, without anything but pleasure in view, and his own will to consult, made it perfectly clear that he did not care about her; and his indifference was so much more than equalled by her own, that were he now to step forth the owner of Mansfield Park, the Sir Thomas complete, which he was to be in time, she did not believe she could accept him.

It was really frustrating, and she felt genuinely sad about it; but that was how things were. Instead of wanting to marry the older brother, she didn’t even want to catch his attention beyond what basic confidence in her looks required. His long absence from Mansfield, with nothing but enjoyment ahead of him, and his own choice to consider, made it clear that he didn’t care about her. His indifference was far outweighed by her own, to the point that if he were to suddenly return as the owner of Mansfield Park, the complete Sir Thomas he was meant to be in the future, she seriously doubted she could accept him.

The season and duties which brought Mr. Bertram back to Mansfield took Mr. Crawford into Norfolk. Everingham could not do without him in the beginning of September. He went for a fortnight—a fortnight of such dullness to the Miss Bertrams as ought to have put them both on their guard, and made even Julia admit, in her jealousy of her sister, the absolute necessity of distrusting his attentions, and wishing him not to return; and a fortnight of sufficient leisure, in the intervals of shooting and sleeping, to have convinced the gentleman that he ought to keep longer away, had he been more in the habit of examining his own motives, and of reflecting to what the indulgence of his idle vanity was tending; but, thoughtless and selfish from prosperity and bad example, he would not look beyond the present moment. The sisters, handsome, clever, and encouraging, were an amusement to his sated mind; and finding nothing in Norfolk to equal the social pleasures of Mansfield, he gladly returned to it at the time appointed, and was welcomed thither quite as gladly by those whom he came to trifle with further.

The season and responsibilities that brought Mr. Bertram back to Mansfield sent Mr. Crawford to Norfolk. Everingham couldn’t manage without him in early September. He was gone for two weeks—a dull two weeks for the Miss Bertrams that should have alerted them both and even made Julia, in her jealousy of her sister, admit that it was essential to be cautious of his attention and hope he wouldn’t come back. It was also a two weeks long enough, between shooting and sleeping, to make him realize that he should stay away longer, if he had been more accustomed to examining his own motives and reflecting on where his indulgence in idle vanity might lead. But, thoughtless and selfish from success and bad influences, he couldn’t see past the present moment. The sisters, attractive, smart, and encouraging, entertained his weary mind; and finding nothing in Norfolk that matched the social pleasures of Mansfield, he happily returned at the appointed time, welcomed just as warmly by those he intended to play with further.

Maria, with only Mr. Rushworth to attend to her, and doomed to the repeated details of his day’s sport, good or bad, his boast of his dogs, his jealousy of his neighbours, his doubts of their qualifications, and his zeal after poachers, subjects which will not find their way to female feelings without some talent on one side or some attachment on the other, had missed Mr. Crawford grievously; and Julia, unengaged and unemployed, felt all the right of missing him much more. Each sister believed herself the favourite. Julia might be justified in so doing by the hints of Mrs. Grant, inclined to credit what she wished, and Maria by the hints of Mr. Crawford himself. Everything returned into the same channel as before his absence; his manners being to each so animated and agreeable as to lose no ground with either, and just stopping short of the consistence, the steadiness, the solicitude, and the warmth which might excite general notice.

Maria, with only Mr. Rushworth to keep her company, was stuck listening to his endless stories about his day’s hunting, whether it went well or badly, his bragging about his dogs, his jealousy of his neighbors, his doubts about their skills, and his eagerness to chase poachers—topics that wouldn’t resonate with women unless there was some charm on one side or some affection on the other. She really missed Mr. Crawford. Julia, who had no plans or distractions, felt his absence even more acutely. Each sister thought she was the favorite. Julia might have had a reason to believe that based on Mrs. Grant’s hints, eager to believe her hopes, while Maria had hints from Mr. Crawford himself. Everything went back to the same routine as it was before he left; his presence was so lively and pleasant to both that he maintained his place with each, stopping just shy of the connection, stability, concern, and warmth that would draw attention from everyone.

Fanny was the only one of the party who found anything to dislike; but since the day at Sotherton, she could never see Mr. Crawford with either sister without observation, and seldom without wonder or censure; and had her confidence in her own judgment been equal to her exercise of it in every other respect, had she been sure that she was seeing clearly, and judging candidly, she would probably have made some important communications to her usual confidant. As it was, however, she only hazarded a hint, and the hint was lost. “I am rather surprised,” said she, “that Mr. Crawford should come back again so soon, after being here so long before, full seven weeks; for I had understood he was so very fond of change and moving about, that I thought something would certainly occur, when he was once gone, to take him elsewhere. He is used to much gayer places than Mansfield.”

Fanny was the only one in the group who found anything to dislike; but since the day at Sotherton, she could never see Mr. Crawford with either sister without feeling curious, and often without some criticism. If her confidence in her own judgment had been as strong as it was in other matters, and if she had been sure she was seeing things clearly and judging fairly, she probably would have shared some important thoughts with her usual confidant. However, she only offered a vague hint, which went unnoticed. “I’m a bit surprised,” she said, “that Mr. Crawford would come back so soon, after being here for a full seven weeks; I thought he was very fond of change and moving around, so I figured something would come up to take him elsewhere once he left. He’s used to much livelier places than Mansfield.”

“It is to his credit,” was Edmund’s answer; “and I dare say it gives his sister pleasure. She does not like his unsettled habits.”

“It’s to his credit,” Edmund replied, “and I’m sure it makes his sister happy. She doesn’t like his unstable habits.”

“What a favourite he is with my cousins!”

“What a favorite he is with my cousins!”

“Yes, his manners to women are such as must please. Mrs. Grant, I believe, suspects him of a preference for Julia; I have never seen much symptom of it, but I wish it may be so. He has no faults but what a serious attachment would remove.”

“Yes, his manners towards women are definitely appealing. Mrs. Grant seems to think he has a thing for Julia; I haven't noticed much of that, but I hope it's true. He has no flaws that a serious relationship wouldn't fix.”

“If Miss Bertram were not engaged,” said Fanny cautiously, “I could sometimes almost think that he admired her more than Julia.”

“If Miss Bertram weren’t engaged,” Fanny said carefully, “I could almost believe that he liked her more than Julia.”

“Which is, perhaps, more in favour of his liking Julia best, than you, Fanny, may be aware; for I believe it often happens that a man, before he has quite made up his own mind, will distinguish the sister or intimate friend of the woman he is really thinking of more than the woman herself. Crawford has too much sense to stay here if he found himself in any danger from Maria; and I am not at all afraid for her, after such a proof as she has given that her feelings are not strong.”

“Which might actually mean he likes Julia more than you, Fanny, realize; because I think it often happens that a guy, before he's fully settled on his own feelings, will pay more attention to the sister or close friend of the woman he's really thinking about than to the woman herself. Crawford is smart enough to leave if he felt any risk from Maria; and I’m not worried about her at all, especially after the proof she’s given that her feelings aren’t very strong.”

Fanny supposed she must have been mistaken, and meant to think differently in future; but with all that submission to Edmund could do, and all the help of the coinciding looks and hints which she occasionally noticed in some of the others, and which seemed to say that Julia was Mr. Crawford’s choice, she knew not always what to think. She was privy, one evening, to the hopes of her aunt Norris on the subject, as well as to her feelings, and the feelings of Mrs. Rushworth, on a point of some similarity, and could not help wondering as she listened; and glad would she have been not to be obliged to listen, for it was while all the other young people were dancing, and she sitting, most unwillingly, among the chaperons at the fire, longing for the re-entrance of her elder cousin, on whom all her own hopes of a partner then depended. It was Fanny’s first ball, though without the preparation or splendour of many a young lady’s first ball, being the thought only of the afternoon, built on the late acquisition of a violin player in the servants’ hall, and the possibility of raising five couple with the help of Mrs. Grant and a new intimate friend of Mr. Bertram’s just arrived on a visit. It had, however, been a very happy one to Fanny through four dances, and she was quite grieved to be losing even a quarter of an hour. While waiting and wishing, looking now at the dancers and now at the door, this dialogue between the two above-mentioned ladies was forced on her—

Fanny thought she must have been wrong and planned to change her mind in the future. But despite all the effort she put into being submissive to Edmund and the occasional looks and hints she noticed from some others suggesting that Julia was Mr. Crawford’s preference, she still didn’t know what to think. One evening, she overheard her Aunt Norris’s hopes regarding the situation, as well as Mrs. Rushworth's emotions concerning something similar, and she couldn’t help but wonder as she listened. She would have been happy not to have to listen at all because, while all the other young people were dancing, she was sitting unwillingly among the chaperones by the fire, eagerly waiting for her older cousin to return, on whom her hopes for a dance partner completely relied. It was Fanny’s first ball, but it lacked the preparation and glamor that many girls have for their first big event; it was only planned that afternoon, sparked by the recent arrival of a violinist among the servants, and the hope of gathering five couples with the help of Mrs. Grant and a new close friend of Mr. Bertram who had just come to visit. Still, Fanny had enjoyed the first four dances and felt quite sad about missing even a quarter of an hour. While she waited and wished, looking at the dancers and then at the door, she was drawn into the conversation between the two ladies mentioned above—

“I think, ma’am,” said Mrs. Norris, her eyes directed towards Mr. Rushworth and Maria, who were partners for the second time, “we shall see some happy faces again now.”

“I think, ma’am,” said Mrs. Norris, her eyes directed towards Mr. Rushworth and Maria, who were partners for the second time, “we should see some happy faces again now.”

“Yes, ma’am, indeed,” replied the other, with a stately simper, “there will be some satisfaction in looking on now, and I think it was rather a pity they should have been obliged to part. Young folks in their situation should be excused complying with the common forms. I wonder my son did not propose it.”

“Yes, ma’am, absolutely,” replied the other, with a dignified smile, “there will be some satisfaction in watching now, and I think it’s a shame they had to separate. Young people in their situation should be allowed to skip the usual formalities. I wonder why my son didn’t suggest it.”

“I dare say he did, ma’am. Mr. Rushworth is never remiss. But dear Maria has such a strict sense of propriety, so much of that true delicacy which one seldom meets with nowadays, Mrs. Rushworth—that wish of avoiding particularity! Dear ma’am, only look at her face at this moment; how different from what it was the two last dances!”

“I can definitely say he did, ma’am. Mr. Rushworth never forgets his duties. But dear Maria has such a strict sense of propriety, so much of that true delicacy that’s hard to find these days, Mrs. Rushworth—that desire to avoid being too specific! Dear ma’am, just look at her face right now; it's so different from how it was during the last two dances!”

Miss Bertram did indeed look happy, her eyes were sparkling with pleasure, and she was speaking with great animation, for Julia and her partner, Mr. Crawford, were close to her; they were all in a cluster together. How she had looked before, Fanny could not recollect, for she had been dancing with Edmund herself, and had not thought about her.

Miss Bertram really did look happy, her eyes were sparkling with excitement, and she was talking eagerly, as Julia and her partner, Mr. Crawford, were nearby; they were all gathered together. Fanny couldn't remember how she had looked before, as she had been dancing with Edmund herself and hadn’t thought about her.

Mrs. Norris continued, “It is quite delightful, ma’am, to see young people so properly happy, so well suited, and so much the thing! I cannot but think of dear Sir Thomas’s delight. And what do you say, ma’am, to the chance of another match? Mr. Rushworth has set a good example, and such things are very catching.”

Mrs. Norris continued, “It’s really wonderful, ma'am, to see young people so genuinely happy, so well matched, and so much in tune! I can’t help but think about dear Sir Thomas’s happiness. And what do you think, ma'am, about the possibility of another match? Mr. Rushworth has set a good example, and things like this are very contagious.”

Mrs. Rushworth, who saw nothing but her son, was quite at a loss.

Mrs. Rushworth, who only focused on her son, was completely confused.

“The couple above, ma’am. Do you see no symptoms there?”

“The couple over there, ma’am. Don’t you see any symptoms?”

“Oh dear! Miss Julia and Mr. Crawford. Yes, indeed, a very pretty match. What is his property?”

“Oh dear! Miss Julia and Mr. Crawford. Yes, definitely a very nice match. What’s his wealth?”

“Four thousand a year.”

“$4,000 a year.”

“Very well. Those who have not more must be satisfied with what they have. Four thousand a year is a pretty estate, and he seems a very genteel, steady young man, so I hope Miss Julia will be very happy.”

“Alright. Those who have less must be content with what they have. Four thousand a year is a decent income, and he seems like a really classy, reliable young man, so I hope Miss Julia will be very happy.”

“It is not a settled thing, ma’am, yet. We only speak of it among friends. But I have very little doubt it will be. He is growing extremely particular in his attentions.”

“It’s not a done deal yet, ma’am. We only talk about it with friends. But I have no doubt it will happen. He’s becoming very particular in how he pays attention.”

Fanny could listen no farther. Listening and wondering were all suspended for a time, for Mr. Bertram was in the room again; and though feeling it would be a great honour to be asked by him, she thought it must happen. He came towards their little circle; but instead of asking her to dance, drew a chair near her, and gave her an account of the present state of a sick horse, and the opinion of the groom, from whom he had just parted. Fanny found that it was not to be, and in the modesty of her nature immediately felt that she had been unreasonable in expecting it. When he had told of his horse, he took a newspaper from the table, and looking over it, said in a languid way, “If you want to dance, Fanny, I will stand up with you.” With more than equal civility the offer was declined; she did not wish to dance. “I am glad of it,” said he, in a much brisker tone, and throwing down the newspaper again, “for I am tired to death. I only wonder how the good people can keep it up so long. They had need be all in love, to find any amusement in such folly; and so they are, I fancy. If you look at them you may see they are so many couple of lovers—all but Yates and Mrs. Grant—and, between ourselves, she, poor woman, must want a lover as much as any one of them. A desperate dull life hers must be with the doctor,” making a sly face as he spoke towards the chair of the latter, who proving, however, to be close at his elbow, made so instantaneous a change of expression and subject necessary, as Fanny, in spite of everything, could hardly help laughing at. “A strange business this in America, Dr. Grant! What is your opinion? I always come to you to know what I am to think of public matters.”

Fanny couldn’t listen any longer. Both listening and wondering were paused for a moment, as Mr. Bertram had entered the room again; and although she felt it would be a great honor to be asked by him, she thought it was unlikely. He approached their little group, but instead of inviting her to dance, he pulled up a chair next to her and talked about the current condition of a sick horse, sharing the groom’s opinions from their recent conversation. Fanny realized that it wasn't meant to be, and in her modesty, she immediately felt unreasonable for expecting it. After discussing his horse, he picked up a newspaper from the table and casually said, “If you want to dance, Fanny, I’ll join you.” With more civility than necessary, she declined; she didn’t want to dance. “I’m glad to hear that,” he said in a much livelier tone, tossing the newspaper aside, “because I’m completely worn out. I just wonder how those people can keep it up for so long. They must all be in love to find any fun in such nonsense; and I think they are. If you look at them, you'll see they’re all couples, except for Yates and Mrs. Grant—and between us, poor woman must be longing for a partner just like the rest. She must have such a dreary life with the doctor,” he said, making a cheeky face toward the chair of the latter, who happened to be close by, causing an instant change in expression and topic that made Fanny nearly laugh despite everything. “What a strange situation this is in America, Dr. Grant! What do you think? I always come to you to figure out what I should think about public affairs.”

“My dear Tom,” cried his aunt soon afterwards, “as you are not dancing, I dare say you will have no objection to join us in a rubber; shall you?” Then leaving her seat, and coming to him to enforce the proposal, added in a whisper, “We want to make a table for Mrs. Rushworth, you know. Your mother is quite anxious about it, but cannot very well spare time to sit down herself, because of her fringe. Now, you and I and Dr. Grant will just do; and though we play but half-crowns, you know, you may bet half-guineas with him.”

"My dear Tom," his aunt exclaimed not long after, "since you’re not dancing, I bet you wouldn’t mind joining us for a card game, would you?" Then, stepping away from her seat and coming over to him to emphasize her suggestion, she whispered, "We need to set a table for Mrs. Rushworth, you know. Your mother is quite worried about it, but she can't really take the time to sit down herself because of her hair. Now, just you, me, and Dr. Grant will be enough, and even though we play for half-crowns, you can wager half-guineas with him."

“I should be most happy,” replied he aloud, and jumping up with alacrity, “it would give me the greatest pleasure; but that I am this moment going to dance. Come, Fanny,” taking her hand, “do not be dawdling any longer, or the dance will be over.”

“I’d be really happy,” he said loudly, jumping up eagerly, “it would give me so much pleasure; but right now, I’m about to dance. Come on, Fanny,” taking her hand, “stop wasting time, or the dance will be over.”

Fanny was led off very willingly, though it was impossible for her to feel much gratitude towards her cousin, or distinguish, as he certainly did, between the selfishness of another person and his own.

Fanny was taken away quite happily, although she couldn't feel much gratitude toward her cousin, nor recognize, as he clearly did, the difference between someone else's selfishness and his own.

“A pretty modest request upon my word,” he indignantly exclaimed as they walked away. “To want to nail me to a card-table for the next two hours with herself and Dr. Grant, who are always quarrelling, and that poking old woman, who knows no more of whist than of algebra. I wish my good aunt would be a little less busy! And to ask me in such a way too! without ceremony, before them all, so as to leave me no possibility of refusing. That is what I dislike most particularly. It raises my spleen more than anything, to have the pretence of being asked, of being given a choice, and at the same time addressed in such a way as to oblige one to do the very thing, whatever it be! If I had not luckily thought of standing up with you I could not have got out of it. It is a great deal too bad. But when my aunt has got a fancy in her head, nothing can stop her.”

“A pretty modest request, I must say,” he said indignantly as they walked away. “To want to stick me at a card table for the next two hours with her and Dr. Grant, who are always fighting, plus that annoying old woman who knows as much about whist as she does about algebra. I wish my good aunt would be a little less focused on her plans! And to ask me like that too! Without any formality, in front of everyone, leaving me no way to refuse. That is what I really dislike. It infuriates me more than anything to have the pretense of being asked, being given a choice, while being addressed in a way that forces me to do exactly what they want! If I hadn’t luckily thought of standing up with you, I wouldn’t have been able to get out of it. It’s really too bad. But when my aunt gets an idea in her head, nothing can change her mind.”

CHAPTER XIII

The Honourable John Yates, this new friend, had not much to recommend him beyond habits of fashion and expense, and being the younger son of a lord with a tolerable independence; and Sir Thomas would probably have thought his introduction at Mansfield by no means desirable. Mr. Bertram’s acquaintance with him had begun at Weymouth, where they had spent ten days together in the same society, and the friendship, if friendship it might be called, had been proved and perfected by Mr. Yates’s being invited to take Mansfield in his way, whenever he could, and by his promising to come; and he did come rather earlier than had been expected, in consequence of the sudden breaking-up of a large party assembled for gaiety at the house of another friend, which he had left Weymouth to join. He came on the wings of disappointment, and with his head full of acting, for it had been a theatrical party; and the play in which he had borne a part was within two days of representation, when the sudden death of one of the nearest connexions of the family had destroyed the scheme and dispersed the performers. To be so near happiness, so near fame, so near the long paragraph in praise of the private theatricals at Ecclesford, the seat of the Right Hon. Lord Ravenshaw, in Cornwall, which would of course have immortalised the whole party for at least a twelvemonth! and being so near, to lose it all, was an injury to be keenly felt, and Mr. Yates could talk of nothing else. Ecclesford and its theatre, with its arrangements and dresses, rehearsals and jokes, was his never-failing subject, and to boast of the past his only consolation.

The Honorable John Yates, this new friend, didn’t have much going for him besides his trendy habits and expensive tastes, and being the younger son of a lord with a decent amount of money. Sir Thomas probably would have thought introducing him at Mansfield was far from ideal. Mr. Bertram’s connection to him had started at Weymouth, where they spent ten days together in the same social circle, and the friendship—if it could even be called that—was solidified by Mr. Yates being invited to stop by Mansfield whenever he could and by his promise to come; and he did arrive a bit earlier than expected, due to the sudden ending of a large gathering at another friend's house, which he had left Weymouth to attend. He came with disappointment weighing on him and his mind full of acting, as it had been a theatrical gathering; and the play he had been a part of was just two days away from being performed when the sudden death of a close family member had ruined the plans and scattered the cast. To be so close to happiness, so close to fame, so close to that long paragraph praising the private theatricals at Ecclesford, the estate of the Right Hon. Lord Ravenshaw in Cornwall, which would have undoubtedly made the whole group well-known for at least a year! And to lose it all after being so close was a wound that cut deeply, and Mr. Yates couldn’t talk about anything else. Ecclesford and its theater, with its preparations, costumes, rehearsals, and jokes, was his constant topic, and bragging about the past was his only comfort.

Happily for him, a love of the theatre is so general, an itch for acting so strong among young people, that he could hardly out-talk the interest of his hearers. From the first casting of the parts to the epilogue it was all bewitching, and there were few who did not wish to have been a party concerned, or would have hesitated to try their skill. The play had been Lovers’ Vows, and Mr. Yates was to have been Count Cassel. “A trifling part,” said he, “and not at all to my taste, and such a one as I certainly would not accept again; but I was determined to make no difficulties. Lord Ravenshaw and the duke had appropriated the only two characters worth playing before I reached Ecclesford; and though Lord Ravenshaw offered to resign his to me, it was impossible to take it, you know. I was sorry for him that he should have so mistaken his powers, for he was no more equal to the Baron—a little man with a weak voice, always hoarse after the first ten minutes. It must have injured the piece materially; but I was resolved to make no difficulties. Sir Henry thought the duke not equal to Frederick, but that was because Sir Henry wanted the part himself; whereas it was certainly in the best hands of the two. I was surprised to see Sir Henry such a stick. Luckily the strength of the piece did not depend upon him. Our Agatha was inimitable, and the duke was thought very great by many. And upon the whole, it would certainly have gone off wonderfully.”

Fortunately for him, a love for the theater is so widespread, and a desire to act is so intense among young people that he could hardly outshine the enthusiasm of his audience. From the initial casting of roles to the epilogue, it was all captivating, and few didn’t wish they could be involved or would hesitate to try their hand. The play was Lovers’ Vows, and Mr. Yates was supposed to play Count Cassel. “A minor role,” he said, “and not at all to my liking, and certainly not one I would accept again; but I was determined to make no fuss. Lord Ravenshaw and the duke had claimed the only two decent roles before I got to Ecclesford; and even though Lord Ravenshaw offered to give his up to me, it was impossible to accept it, you know. I felt bad for him that he had so misjudged his abilities because he was no match for the Baron—a short guy with a weak voice, always hoarse after the first ten minutes. It must have hurt the production quite a bit; but I was set on making no fuss. Sir Henry thought the duke wasn’t suitable for Frederick, but that was because Sir Henry wanted the role for himself; meanwhile, it was definitely in the best hands of the two. I was surprised to see Sir Henry act so stiff. Fortunately, the strength of the play didn’t depend on him. Our Agatha was unbeatable, and many thought the duke was fantastic. Overall, it should have gone incredibly well.”

“It was a hard case, upon my word”; and, “I do think you were very much to be pitied,” were the kind responses of listening sympathy.

“It was a tough situation, honestly,” and, “I really think you deserved a lot of sympathy,” were the kind responses of attentive understanding.

“It is not worth complaining about; but to be sure the poor old dowager could not have died at a worse time; and it is impossible to help wishing that the news could have been suppressed for just the three days we wanted. It was but three days; and being only a grandmother, and all happening two hundred miles off, I think there would have been no great harm, and it was suggested, I know; but Lord Ravenshaw, who I suppose is one of the most correct men in England, would not hear of it.”

“It’s really not worth complaining about; but honestly, the poor old dowager couldn’t have died at a worse time. I can’t help but wish that the news could have been kept quiet for just the three days we needed. It was only three days; and since she was just a grandmother, and everything happened two hundred miles away, I think it wouldn’t have been too much trouble, and it was suggested, I know; but Lord Ravenshaw, who I suppose is one of the most proper men in England, wouldn’t allow it.”

“An afterpiece instead of a comedy,” said Mr. Bertram. “Lovers’ Vows were at an end, and Lord and Lady Ravenshaw left to act My Grandmother by themselves. Well, the jointure may comfort him; and perhaps, between friends, he began to tremble for his credit and his lungs in the Baron, and was not sorry to withdraw; and to make you amends, Yates, I think we must raise a little theatre at Mansfield, and ask you to be our manager.”

“An afterpiece instead of a comedy,” said Mr. Bertram. “Lovers’ Vows are over, and Lord and Lady Ravenshaw have gone off to perform My Grandmother on their own. Well, the jointure might soothe him; and maybe, to be honest, he started to worry about his reputation and his health in front of the Baron, and wasn’t upset to step back; and to make it up to you, Yates, I think we should set up a little theater at Mansfield and ask you to be our manager.”

This, though the thought of the moment, did not end with the moment; for the inclination to act was awakened, and in no one more strongly than in him who was now master of the house; and who, having so much leisure as to make almost any novelty a certain good, had likewise such a degree of lively talents and comic taste, as were exactly adapted to the novelty of acting. The thought returned again and again. “Oh for the Ecclesford theatre and scenery to try something with.” Each sister could echo the wish; and Henry Crawford, to whom, in all the riot of his gratifications it was yet an untasted pleasure, was quite alive at the idea. “I really believe,” said he, “I could be fool enough at this moment to undertake any character that ever was written, from Shylock or Richard III down to the singing hero of a farce in his scarlet coat and cocked hat. I feel as if I could be anything or everything; as if I could rant and storm, or sigh or cut capers, in any tragedy or comedy in the English language. Let us be doing something. Be it only half a play, an act, a scene; what should prevent us? Not these countenances, I am sure,” looking towards the Miss Bertrams; “and for a theatre, what signifies a theatre? We shall be only amusing ourselves. Any room in this house might suffice.”

This thought, though just at that moment, didn't stop there; the urge to act was sparked, especially in him, the new head of the household. With plenty of free time to make any new experience seem like a good idea, he also had a lively imagination and a sense of humor perfectly suited for the excitement of acting. The thought kept coming back. “Oh, if only we had the Ecclesford theater and set to try something out.” Each sister echoed the sentiment, and Henry Crawford, who had yet to experience this thrill amid all his other pleasures, was particularly intrigued by the idea. “I honestly believe,” he said, “that I could be silly enough right now to take on any character ever written, from Shylock or Richard III to the comedic hero in a farce with his red coat and cocked hat. I feel like I could be anything or everything; like I could shout and rage, or sigh and dance, in any tragedy or comedy in the English language. Let’s do something. Even if it’s just half a play, an act, a scene; what’s stopping us? Not those faces,” he said, glancing toward the Miss Bertrams; “and what does it matter if we have a proper theater? We’ll just be having fun. Any room in this house would work.”

“We must have a curtain,” said Tom Bertram; “a few yards of green baize for a curtain, and perhaps that may be enough.”

“We need a curtain,” said Tom Bertram; “a few yards of green baize for a curtain, and maybe that will be enough.”

“Oh, quite enough,” cried Mr. Yates, “with only just a side wing or two run up, doors in flat, and three or four scenes to be let down; nothing more would be necessary on such a plan as this. For mere amusement among ourselves we should want nothing more.”

“Oh, that's plenty,” exclaimed Mr. Yates, “with just a side wing or two set up, doors flat, and three or four scenes to drop down; nothing more would be needed for this kind of plan. For just entertaining ourselves, we wouldn't need anything else.”

“I believe we must be satisfied with less,” said Maria. “There would not be time, and other difficulties would arise. We must rather adopt Mr. Crawford’s views, and make the performance, not the theatre, our object. Many parts of our best plays are independent of scenery.”

“I think we need to be okay with less,” said Maria. “There won’t be enough time, and other problems will come up. We should take Mr. Crawford’s approach and focus on the performance, not the theatre. A lot of the best parts of our plays don’t rely on the scenery.”

“Nay,” said Edmund, who began to listen with alarm. “Let us do nothing by halves. If we are to act, let it be in a theatre completely fitted up with pit, boxes, and gallery, and let us have a play entire from beginning to end; so as it be a German play, no matter what, with a good tricking, shifting afterpiece, and a figure-dance, and a hornpipe, and a song between the acts. If we do not outdo Ecclesford, we do nothing.”

“Nah,” said Edmund, who suddenly felt uneasy. “Let’s not half-ass this. If we’re going to do something, let’s do it right in a fully set-up theater with a pit, boxes, and a gallery. We need a complete play from start to finish; it can be any German play, as long as it has a good trick, a change of scenes for the afterpiece, a figure dance, a hornpipe, and a song between the acts. If we don’t outshine Ecclesford, then we’ve done nothing.”

“Now, Edmund, do not be disagreeable,” said Julia. “Nobody loves a play better than you do, or can have gone much farther to see one.”

“Now, Edmund, don’t be difficult,” said Julia. “No one loves a play more than you do, or would go as far to see one.”

“True, to see real acting, good hardened real acting; but I would hardly walk from this room to the next to look at the raw efforts of those who have not been bred to the trade: a set of gentlemen and ladies, who have all the disadvantages of education and decorum to struggle through.”

“It's true, to see real acting, genuine and skilled acting; but I wouldn't even walk from this room to the next to watch the clumsy attempts of those who haven't been trained for the craft: a group of gentlemen and ladies who have to deal with all the disadvantages of education and etiquette.”

After a short pause, however, the subject still continued, and was discussed with unabated eagerness, every one’s inclination increasing by the discussion, and a knowledge of the inclination of the rest; and though nothing was settled but that Tom Bertram would prefer a comedy, and his sisters and Henry Crawford a tragedy, and that nothing in the world could be easier than to find a piece which would please them all, the resolution to act something or other seemed so decided as to make Edmund quite uncomfortable. He was determined to prevent it, if possible, though his mother, who equally heard the conversation which passed at table, did not evince the least disapprobation.

After a brief pause, the topic continued, and the discussion was as lively as ever, with everyone’s interest growing as they talked and sensed each other's enthusiasm. Although nothing was finalized except that Tom Bertram preferred a comedy, while his sisters and Henry Crawford favored a tragedy, and it was clear that finding a piece they could all enjoy wouldn’t be hard at all, the determination to act something was so strong that it made Edmund quite uneasy. He was set on stopping it, if he could, even though his mother, who also heard the conversation at the table, showed no signs of disapproval.

The same evening afforded him an opportunity of trying his strength. Maria, Julia, Henry Crawford, and Mr. Yates were in the billiard-room. Tom, returning from them into the drawing-room, where Edmund was standing thoughtfully by the fire, while Lady Bertram was on the sofa at a little distance, and Fanny close beside her arranging her work, thus began as he entered—“Such a horribly vile billiard-table as ours is not to be met with, I believe, above ground. I can stand it no longer, and I think, I may say, that nothing shall ever tempt me to it again; but one good thing I have just ascertained: it is the very room for a theatre, precisely the shape and length for it; and the doors at the farther end, communicating with each other, as they may be made to do in five minutes, by merely moving the bookcase in my father’s room, is the very thing we could have desired, if we had sat down to wish for it; and my father’s room will be an excellent greenroom. It seems to join the billiard-room on purpose.”

That same evening gave him a chance to test his strength. Maria, Julia, Henry Crawford, and Mr. Yates were in the billiard room. Tom, returning from them to the drawing room, where Edmund was standing thoughtfully by the fire, while Lady Bertram was on the sofa a little distance away, and Fanny was sitting close beside her, arranging her work, started to speak as he entered, "I've never seen such an awful billiard table as ours, and I don’t think I can take it anymore. I can confidently say that nothing will tempt me to play again; however, I just realized one good thing: this room is perfect for a theater—exactly the right shape and length for it. And the doors at the far end can be connected in just five minutes by simply moving the bookcase in my father’s room, which is exactly what we would have wished for. Plus, my father’s room will make a great green room. It feels like it was designed to connect to the billiard room."

“You are not serious, Tom, in meaning to act?” said Edmund, in a low voice, as his brother approached the fire.

“You can’t be serious, Tom, about actually going through with this?” Edmund said quietly as his brother walked over to the fire.

“Not serious! never more so, I assure you. What is there to surprise you in it?”

“Not serious! Never more so, I promise you. What’s surprising about it?”

“I think it would be very wrong. In a general light, private theatricals are open to some objections, but as we are circumstanced, I must think it would be highly injudicious, and more than injudicious to attempt anything of the kind. It would shew great want of feeling on my father’s account, absent as he is, and in some degree of constant danger; and it would be imprudent, I think, with regard to Maria, whose situation is a very delicate one, considering everything, extremely delicate.”

“I think that would be very wrong. In a general sense, private performances have some drawbacks, but given our situation, I believe it would be very unwise, and more than just unwise, to try something like that. It would show a lack of sensitivity towards my father, given that he is away and somewhat constantly in danger; and it would be reckless, I think, regarding Maria, whose situation is quite delicate, considering everything, really delicate.”

“You take up a thing so seriously! as if we were going to act three times a week till my father’s return, and invite all the country. But it is not to be a display of that sort. We mean nothing but a little amusement among ourselves, just to vary the scene, and exercise our powers in something new. We want no audience, no publicity. We may be trusted, I think, in chusing some play most perfectly unexceptionable; and I can conceive no greater harm or danger to any of us in conversing in the elegant written language of some respectable author than in chattering in words of our own. I have no fears and no scruples. And as to my father’s being absent, it is so far from an objection, that I consider it rather as a motive; for the expectation of his return must be a very anxious period to my mother; and if we can be the means of amusing that anxiety, and keeping up her spirits for the next few weeks, I shall think our time very well spent, and so, I am sure, will he. It is a very anxious period for her.”

“You take this way too seriously! It's not like we're going to perform three times a week until my dad comes back and invite everyone in the area. This isn't meant to be a big show. We just want a bit of fun among ourselves to change things up and try something new. We don’t want an audience or any attention. I believe we can choose a play that's completely fine; I can't see any real harm or risk in speaking the elegant language of a respectable author rather than just chatting in our own words. I'm not worried or hesitant about it. As for my dad being away, that's not a problem at all; I think it’s actually a reason to go ahead. My mom is going to be really anxious waiting for his return, and if we can help ease that anxiety and lift her spirits over the next few weeks, I’ll think our time will be very well spent, and I’m sure he will too. It’s a really anxious time for her.”

As he said this, each looked towards their mother. Lady Bertram, sunk back in one corner of the sofa, the picture of health, wealth, ease, and tranquillity, was just falling into a gentle doze, while Fanny was getting through the few difficulties of her work for her.

As he said this, they all looked toward their mother. Lady Bertram, relaxed in one corner of the sofa, the embodiment of health, wealth, comfort, and calmness, was just drifting off into a gentle nap, while Fanny was overcoming the few challenges of her work for her.

Edmund smiled and shook his head.

Edmund smiled and shook his head.

“By Jove! this won’t do,” cried Tom, throwing himself into a chair with a hearty laugh. “To be sure, my dear mother, your anxiety—I was unlucky there.”

“Wow! This won’t work,” laughed Tom as he threw himself into a chair. “Honestly, my dear mother, your worry—I really messed up there.”

“What is the matter?” asked her ladyship, in the heavy tone of one half-roused; “I was not asleep.”

“What’s going on?” her ladyship asked, sounding groggy; “I wasn’t asleep.”

“Oh dear, no, ma’am, nobody suspected you! Well, Edmund,” he continued, returning to the former subject, posture, and voice, as soon as Lady Bertram began to nod again, “but this I will maintain, that we shall be doing no harm.”

“Oh no, ma’am, nobody thought it was you! Well, Edmund,” he went on, getting back to the previous topic, posture, and tone as soon as Lady Bertram started to nod off again, “but this I will insist, that we won't be doing any harm.”

“I cannot agree with you; I am convinced that my father would totally disapprove it.”

“I can’t agree with you; I’m convinced that my dad would totally disapprove of it.”

“And I am convinced to the contrary. Nobody is fonder of the exercise of talent in young people, or promotes it more, than my father, and for anything of the acting, spouting, reciting kind, I think he has always a decided taste. I am sure he encouraged it in us as boys. How many a time have we mourned over the dead body of Julius Caesar, and to be’d and not to be’d, in this very room, for his amusement? And I am sure, my name was Norval, every evening of my life through one Christmas holidays.”

“And I really believe the opposite. No one appreciates the talent in young people more, or supports it better, than my dad, and when it comes to acting, performing, or reciting, he definitely has a strong preference for it. I'm sure he encouraged us to pursue it when we were kids. How many times did we lament over Julius Caesar's dead body, and to be and not to be, right in this very room, just to entertain him? And I'm certain, my name was Norval, every single evening of my life during one Christmas holiday.”

“It was a very different thing. You must see the difference yourself. My father wished us, as schoolboys, to speak well, but he would never wish his grown-up daughters to be acting plays. His sense of decorum is strict.”

“It was a completely different situation. You need to see the difference for yourself. My father wanted us, as schoolboys, to speak well, but he would never want his adult daughters to be performing in plays. His sense of decorum is very strict.”

“I know all that,” said Tom, displeased. “I know my father as well as you do; and I’ll take care that his daughters do nothing to distress him. Manage your own concerns, Edmund, and I’ll take care of the rest of the family.”

“I know all that,” Tom said, annoyed. “I know my dad just as well as you do, and I’ll make sure his daughters don’t upset him. Focus on your own issues, Edmund, and I’ll handle the rest of the family.”

“If you are resolved on acting,” replied the persevering Edmund, “I must hope it will be in a very small and quiet way; and I think a theatre ought not to be attempted. It would be taking liberties with my father’s house in his absence which could not be justified.”

“If you’re set on taking action,” replied the determined Edmund, “I just hope it’ll be done in a very small and low-key way; and I don’t think we should attempt a theater. It would be disrespectful to my father’s house while he’s away, and that can’t be justified.”

“For everything of that nature I will be answerable,” said Tom, in a decided tone. “His house shall not be hurt. I have quite as great an interest in being careful of his house as you can have; and as to such alterations as I was suggesting just now, such as moving a bookcase, or unlocking a door, or even as using the billiard-room for the space of a week without playing at billiards in it, you might just as well suppose he would object to our sitting more in this room, and less in the breakfast-room, than we did before he went away, or to my sister’s pianoforte being moved from one side of the room to the other. Absolute nonsense!”

“For everything like that, I’ll take full responsibility,” Tom said firmly. “His house won’t be harmed. I care just as much about being careful with his house as you do; and as for the changes I was mentioning earlier, like moving a bookcase, unlocking a door, or even using the billiard room for a week without playing billiards, you might as well think he would mind us spending more time in this room and less in the breakfast room than we did before he left, or my sister moving the piano from one side of the room to the other. It’s absolute nonsense!”

“The innovation, if not wrong as an innovation, will be wrong as an expense.”

“The innovation, if it’s not a bad idea as an innovation, will be a waste of money.”

“Yes, the expense of such an undertaking would be prodigious! Perhaps it might cost a whole twenty pounds. Something of a theatre we must have undoubtedly, but it will be on the simplest plan: a green curtain and a little carpenter’s work, and that’s all; and as the carpenter’s work may be all done at home by Christopher Jackson himself, it will be too absurd to talk of expense; and as long as Jackson is employed, everything will be right with Sir Thomas. Don’t imagine that nobody in this house can see or judge but yourself. Don’t act yourself, if you do not like it, but don’t expect to govern everybody else.”

“Yes, the cost of such a project would be massive! It might even set us back twenty pounds. We definitely need some sort of theater, but it will be really simple: just a green curtain and a bit of work from a carpenter, and that’s it. Since Christopher Jackson can do all the carpentry work at home, it would be ridiculous to talk about costs. As long as Jackson is on board, everything will be fine with Sir Thomas. Don’t think that you’re the only one in this house who can see or judge things. If you don’t like acting, then don’t do it, but don’t expect to control everyone else.”

“No, as to acting myself,” said Edmund, “that I absolutely protest against.”

“No, as for me acting,” said Edmund, “that I totally refuse to do.”

Tom walked out of the room as he said it, and Edmund was left to sit down and stir the fire in thoughtful vexation.

Tom walked out of the room as he said that, leaving Edmund to sit down and poke the fire in frustrated thought.

Fanny, who had heard it all, and borne Edmund company in every feeling throughout the whole, now ventured to say, in her anxiety to suggest some comfort, “Perhaps they may not be able to find any play to suit them. Your brother’s taste and your sisters’ seem very different.”

Fanny, who had heard everything and shared Edmund's feelings throughout, now took a chance to say, hoping to offer some comfort, “Maybe they won't be able to find a play that fits their tastes. Your brother's taste and your sisters’ seem quite different.”

“I have no hope there, Fanny. If they persist in the scheme, they will find something. I shall speak to my sisters and try to dissuade them, and that is all I can do.”

“I have no hope there, Fanny. If they keep at it, they will find something. I’ll talk to my sisters and try to convince them, and that’s all I can do.”

“I should think my aunt Norris would be on your side.”

“I think my Aunt Norris would be on your side.”

“I dare say she would, but she has no influence with either Tom or my sisters that could be of any use; and if I cannot convince them myself, I shall let things take their course, without attempting it through her. Family squabbling is the greatest evil of all, and we had better do anything than be altogether by the ears.”

“I bet she would, but she has no sway with either Tom or my sisters that would help; and if I can’t convince them myself, I’ll just let things unfold without trying to use her for that. Family arguments are the worst, and we’re better off doing anything than fighting with each other.”

His sisters, to whom he had an opportunity of speaking the next morning, were quite as impatient of his advice, quite as unyielding to his representation, quite as determined in the cause of pleasure, as Tom. Their mother had no objection to the plan, and they were not in the least afraid of their father’s disapprobation. There could be no harm in what had been done in so many respectable families, and by so many women of the first consideration; and it must be scrupulousness run mad that could see anything to censure in a plan like theirs, comprehending only brothers and sisters and intimate friends, and which would never be heard of beyond themselves. Julia did seem inclined to admit that Maria’s situation might require particular caution and delicacy—but that could not extend to her—she was at liberty; and Maria evidently considered her engagement as only raising her so much more above restraint, and leaving her less occasion than Julia to consult either father or mother. Edmund had little to hope, but he was still urging the subject when Henry Crawford entered the room, fresh from the Parsonage, calling out, “No want of hands in our theatre, Miss Bertram. No want of understrappers: my sister desires her love, and hopes to be admitted into the company, and will be happy to take the part of any old duenna or tame confidante, that you may not like to do yourselves.”

His sisters, whom he had a chance to talk to the next morning, were just as impatient with his advice, just as resistant to his arguments, and just as set on having fun as Tom. Their mother had no issues with the plan, and they weren't at all worried about their father's disapproval. There was nothing wrong with what had been done in so many respected families and by so many high-profile women; it would be pure overthinking to find anything to criticize in their plan, which involved only siblings and close friends and would never be known beyond their own circle. Julia did seem to agree that Maria’s situation might need some extra caution and sensitivity—but that couldn’t apply to her—she was free to do as she pleased; and Maria clearly thought her engagement only gave her more freedom and meant she had even less reason than Julia to check in with their parents. Edmund had little hope, but he was still pushing the topic when Henry Crawford walked into the room, fresh from the Parsonage, announcing, “We’re not short on hands in our theater, Miss Bertram. We’ve got plenty of support: my sister sends her love and hopes to join the group, and would be happy to take on any role as an old governess or tame confidante that you might not want to do yourselves.”

Maria gave Edmund a glance, which meant, “What say you now? Can we be wrong if Mary Crawford feels the same?” And Edmund, silenced, was obliged to acknowledge that the charm of acting might well carry fascination to the mind of genius; and with the ingenuity of love, to dwell more on the obliging, accommodating purport of the message than on anything else.

Maria gave Edmund a look that said, “What do you think now? Can we really be wrong if Mary Crawford feels the same way?” And Edmund, at a loss for words, had to admit that the allure of acting could definitely captivate the mind of a genius; and with the cleverness of love, he focused more on the kind, understanding meaning of the message than on anything else.

The scheme advanced. Opposition was vain; and as to Mrs. Norris, he was mistaken in supposing she would wish to make any. She started no difficulties that were not talked down in five minutes by her eldest nephew and niece, who were all-powerful with her; and as the whole arrangement was to bring very little expense to anybody, and none at all to herself, as she foresaw in it all the comforts of hurry, bustle, and importance, and derived the immediate advantage of fancying herself obliged to leave her own house, where she had been living a month at her own cost, and take up her abode in theirs, that every hour might be spent in their service, she was, in fact, exceedingly delighted with the project.

The plan moved forward. Any opposition was pointless; and as for Mrs. Norris, he was wrong to think she would want to create any. She raised no issues that couldn’t be talked down in five minutes by her oldest nephew and niece, who had all the influence over her. Since the whole arrangement would involve very little cost to anyone, and none at all to her, as she envisioned all the comforts of being busy and feeling important, and gained the immediate benefit of believing she had to leave her own house—where she had been living for a month at her own expense—and move into theirs so she could spend every hour helping them, she was, in fact, really pleased with the idea.

CHAPTER XIV

Fanny seemed nearer being right than Edmund had supposed. The business of finding a play that would suit everybody proved to be no trifle; and the carpenter had received his orders and taken his measurements, had suggested and removed at least two sets of difficulties, and having made the necessity of an enlargement of plan and expense fully evident, was already at work, while a play was still to seek. Other preparations were also in hand. An enormous roll of green baize had arrived from Northampton, and been cut out by Mrs. Norris (with a saving by her good management of full three-quarters of a yard), and was actually forming into a curtain by the housemaids, and still the play was wanting; and as two or three days passed away in this manner, Edmund began almost to hope that none might ever be found.

Fanny seemed to be more right than Edmund had thought. Finding a play that worked for everyone turned out to be quite a challenge; the carpenter had received his instructions and taken his measurements, suggested and resolved at least two sets of issues, and made it clear that enlarging the plan and budget was necessary. He was already working, while a play was still being searched for. Other preparations were also underway. A massive roll of green baize had arrived from Northampton, been cut by Mrs. Norris (who cleverly saved about three-quarters of a yard), and was being turned into a curtain by the housemaids, yet the play was still missing. As two or three days passed in this manner, Edmund began to almost wish that none might ever be found.

There were, in fact, so many things to be attended to, so many people to be pleased, so many best characters required, and, above all, such a need that the play should be at once both tragedy and comedy, that there did seem as little chance of a decision as anything pursued by youth and zeal could hold out.

There were, in fact, so many things to take care of, so many people to please, so many outstanding qualities needed, and, above all, such a demand for the play to be both a tragedy and a comedy, that there seemed to be as little chance of reaching a decision as anything driven by youth and enthusiasm could offer.

On the tragic side were the Miss Bertrams, Henry Crawford, and Mr. Yates; on the comic, Tom Bertram, not quite alone, because it was evident that Mary Crawford’s wishes, though politely kept back, inclined the same way: but his determinateness and his power seemed to make allies unnecessary; and, independent of this great irreconcilable difference, they wanted a piece containing very few characters in the whole, but every character first-rate, and three principal women. All the best plays were run over in vain. Neither Hamlet, nor Macbeth, nor Othello, nor Douglas, nor The Gamester, presented anything that could satisfy even the tragedians; and The Rivals, The School for Scandal, Wheel of Fortune, Heir at Law, and a long et cetera, were successively dismissed with yet warmer objections. No piece could be proposed that did not supply somebody with a difficulty, and on one side or the other it was a continual repetition of, “Oh no, that will never do! Let us have no ranting tragedies. Too many characters. Not a tolerable woman’s part in the play. Anything but that, my dear Tom. It would be impossible to fill it up. One could not expect anybody to take such a part. Nothing but buffoonery from beginning to end. That might do, perhaps, but for the low parts. If I must give my opinion, I have always thought it the most insipid play in the English language. I do not wish to make objections; I shall be happy to be of any use, but I think we could not chuse worse.”

On the serious side were the Miss Bertrams, Henry Crawford, and Mr. Yates; on the lighter side, Tom Bertram, not quite alone since it was clear that Mary Crawford’s preferences, though politely withheld, leaned the same way. However, his determination and influence made allies unnecessary; and aside from this major disagreement, they were looking for a play with very few characters overall, but each character being top-notch, including three main female roles. They went through all the best plays in vain. Neither Hamlet, Macbeth, Othello, Douglas, nor The Gamester offered anything that could even satisfy the tragedians; and The Rivals, The School for Scandal, Wheel of Fortune, Heir at Law, and many others were dismissed with increasingly stronger objections. No play could be suggested that didn’t create a problem for someone, and it was a constant back-and-forth of, “Oh no, that will never work! Let’s avoid any melodramatic tragedies. Too many characters. There’s not a decent female role in the play. Anything but that, my dear Tom. It would be impossible to fill it out. Anyone would struggle with such a role. Just nothing but silly antics from start to finish. That might work, maybe, but only for the minor roles. If I must give my opinion, I’ve always thought it to be the dullest play in the English language. I don’t want to object; I’d be happy to help, but I think we couldn’t possibly choose worse.”

Fanny looked on and listened, not unamused to observe the selfishness which, more or less disguised, seemed to govern them all, and wondering how it would end. For her own gratification she could have wished that something might be acted, for she had never seen even half a play, but everything of higher consequence was against it.

Fanny watched and listened, somewhat amused by the selfishness that, though somewhat hidden, seemed to control them all, and she wondered how it would turn out. For her own enjoyment, she would have liked to see something performed, since she had never even seen half a play, but everything more important stood in the way.

“This will never do,” said Tom Bertram at last. “We are wasting time most abominably. Something must be fixed on. No matter what, so that something is chosen. We must not be so nice. A few characters too many must not frighten us. We must double them. We must descend a little. If a part is insignificant, the greater our credit in making anything of it. From this moment I make no difficulties. I take any part you chuse to give me, so as it be comic. Let it but be comic, I condition for nothing more.”

“This isn’t going to work,” Tom Bertram finally said. “We’re wasting time really badly. We need to settle on something. It doesn’t matter what, just as long as we choose something. We can’t be too picky. We shouldn’t let a few extra characters scare us. We need to double them up. We need to lower our standards a bit. If a part is minor, it just makes our achievement even greater in making something of it. From now on, I’m not going to make any demands. I’ll take any role you want to give me, as long as it’s funny. Just make it funny; I’m not asking for anything more.”

For about the fifth time he then proposed the Heir at Law, doubting only whether to prefer Lord Duberley or Dr. Pangloss for himself; and very earnestly, but very unsuccessfully, trying to persuade the others that there were some fine tragic parts in the rest of the Dramatis Personæ.

For about the fifth time, he suggested the Heir at Law, unsure whether to choose Lord Duberley or Dr. Pangloss for himself; and he earnestly, but unsuccessfully, tried to convince the others that there were some great tragic roles in the rest of the Dramatis Personæ.

The pause which followed this fruitless effort was ended by the same speaker, who, taking up one of the many volumes of plays that lay on the table, and turning it over, suddenly exclaimed—“Lovers’ Vows! And why should not Lovers’ Vows do for us as well as for the Ravenshaws? How came it never to be thought of before? It strikes me as if it would do exactly. What say you all? Here are two capital tragic parts for Yates and Crawford, and here is the rhyming Butler for me, if nobody else wants it; a trifling part, but the sort of thing I should not dislike, and, as I said before, I am determined to take anything and do my best. And as for the rest, they may be filled up by anybody. It is only Count Cassel and Anhalt.”

The silence that followed this pointless discussion was broken by the same person, who picked up one of the many playbooks on the table and flipped through it, suddenly exclaiming, “Lovers’ Vows! Why can’t Lovers’ Vows work for us just like it does for the Ravenshaws? How come we never thought of it before? It seems perfect to me. What do you all think? Here are two great tragic roles for Yates and Crawford, and I’ll take the rhyming Butler if no one else wants it; it’s a small part, but I wouldn’t mind it, and as I said before, I'm ready to take anything and give it my best shot. As for the others, anyone can fill those roles. It’s just Count Cassel and Anhalt.”

The suggestion was generally welcome. Everybody was growing weary of indecision, and the first idea with everybody was, that nothing had been proposed before so likely to suit them all. Mr. Yates was particularly pleased: he had been sighing and longing to do the Baron at Ecclesford, had grudged every rant of Lord Ravenshaw’s, and been forced to re-rant it all in his own room. The storm through Baron Wildenheim was the height of his theatrical ambition; and with the advantage of knowing half the scenes by heart already, he did now, with the greatest alacrity, offer his services for the part. To do him justice, however, he did not resolve to appropriate it; for remembering that there was some very good ranting-ground in Frederick, he professed an equal willingness for that. Henry Crawford was ready to take either. Whichever Mr. Yates did not chuse would perfectly satisfy him, and a short parley of compliment ensued. Miss Bertram, feeling all the interest of an Agatha in the question, took on her to decide it, by observing to Mr. Yates that this was a point in which height and figure ought to be considered, and that his being the tallest, seemed to fit him peculiarly for the Baron. She was acknowledged to be quite right, and the two parts being accepted accordingly, she was certain of the proper Frederick. Three of the characters were now cast, besides Mr. Rushworth, who was always answered for by Maria as willing to do anything; when Julia, meaning, like her sister, to be Agatha, began to be scrupulous on Miss Crawford’s account.

The suggestion was generally well-received. Everyone was getting tired of indecision, and the first thought was that nothing had been proposed before that seemed so likely to please everyone. Mr. Yates was particularly happy: he had been sighing and wishing to play the Baron at Ecclesford, had resented every rant from Lord Ravenshaw, and had to rehash it all in his own room. The storm in Baron Wildenheim was the peak of his theatrical dreams; and since he already knew half the scenes by heart, he eagerly offered to take on the part. To be fair, he did not insist on claiming it; remembering that there was some great ranting to be done in Frederick, he expressed equal willingness for that role. Henry Crawford was ready to take either. Whichever role Mr. Yates didn't choose would be perfectly fine with him, leading to a brief exchange of compliments. Miss Bertram, feeling very invested in the decision like Agatha, took it upon herself to suggest it to Mr. Yates, noting that height and figure should be considered, and that since his was the tallest, he seemed particularly suited for the Baron. She was acknowledged as correct, and the two roles were accepted accordingly, ensuring she had the right Frederick. Three of the characters were now cast, along with Mr. Rushworth, who Maria always guaranteed would be willing to do anything; when Julia, intending to be Agatha like her sister, started to have reservations on Miss Crawford’s behalf.

“This is not behaving well by the absent,” said she. “Here are not women enough. Amelia and Agatha may do for Maria and me, but here is nothing for your sister, Mr. Crawford.”

“This is not acceptable behavior from the absent,” she said. “There aren’t enough women here. Amelia and Agatha might be fine for Maria and me, but there’s nothing for your sister, Mr. Crawford.”

Mr. Crawford desired that might not be thought of: he was very sure his sister had no wish of acting but as she might be useful, and that she would not allow herself to be considered in the present case. But this was immediately opposed by Tom Bertram, who asserted the part of Amelia to be in every respect the property of Miss Crawford, if she would accept it. “It falls as naturally, as necessarily to her,” said he, “as Agatha does to one or other of my sisters. It can be no sacrifice on their side, for it is highly comic.”

Mr. Crawford hoped that wouldn’t be considered: he was certain his sister only wanted to act if she could be helpful, and that she wouldn’t let herself be seen as relevant in this situation. But Tom Bertram quickly disagreed, claiming that the role of Amelia belonged entirely to Miss Crawford, if she was willing to take it. “It fits her just as naturally and necessarily as Agatha does for one of my sisters,” he said. “It wouldn't be a sacrifice for them, since it’s very funny.”

A short silence followed. Each sister looked anxious; for each felt the best claim to Agatha, and was hoping to have it pressed on her by the rest. Henry Crawford, who meanwhile had taken up the play, and with seeming carelessness was turning over the first act, soon settled the business.

A brief silence followed. Each sister looked worried; they all believed they had the best claim on Agatha and were hoping the others would support that. Henry Crawford, who had meanwhile picked up the play and was casually flipping through the first act, quickly resolved the situation.

“I must entreat Miss Julia Bertram,” said he, “not to engage in the part of Agatha, or it will be the ruin of all my solemnity. You must not, indeed you must not” (turning to her). “I could not stand your countenance dressed up in woe and paleness. The many laughs we have had together would infallibly come across me, and Frederick and his knapsack would be obliged to run away.”

“I must ask Miss Julia Bertram,” he said, “not to take on the role of Agatha, or it will ruin my serious mood. You really mustn’t” (turning to her). “I couldn’t handle seeing your face all dressed up in sadness and pale. All the laughs we’ve had together would definitely flash in my mind, and Frederick and his backpack would have to make a quick getaway.”

Pleasantly, courteously, it was spoken; but the manner was lost in the matter to Julia’s feelings. She saw a glance at Maria which confirmed the injury to herself: it was a scheme, a trick; she was slighted, Maria was preferred; the smile of triumph which Maria was trying to suppress shewed how well it was understood; and before Julia could command herself enough to speak, her brother gave his weight against her too, by saying, “Oh yes! Maria must be Agatha. Maria will be the best Agatha. Though Julia fancies she prefers tragedy, I would not trust her in it. There is nothing of tragedy about her. She has not the look of it. Her features are not tragic features, and she walks too quick, and speaks too quick, and would not keep her countenance. She had better do the old countrywoman: the Cottager’s wife; you had, indeed, Julia. Cottager’s wife is a very pretty part, I assure you. The old lady relieves the high-flown benevolence of her husband with a good deal of spirit. You shall be Cottager’s wife.”

It was spoken pleasantly and courteously; however, the tone was overshadowed by what it meant for Julia's feelings. She caught a glance at Maria that confirmed her hurt: it was a scheme, a trick; she was overlooked, and Maria was favored; the triumphant smile that Maria tried to hide showed just how well it was understood. Before Julia could regain her composure enough to respond, her brother added to her discomfort by saying, “Oh yes! Maria should definitely be Agatha. Maria will make the best Agatha. Even though Julia thinks she prefers tragedy, I wouldn’t trust her to pull it off. There’s nothing tragic about her. She doesn’t have a tragic look; her features aren’t tragic, and she moves and talks too quickly to carry it off. She’d be better off as the old countrywoman: the Cottager’s wife; you really should, Julia. The Cottager’s wife is a lovely role, I promise you. The old lady brings a lot of spirit to balance out the lofty benevolence of her husband. You should play the Cottager’s wife.”

“Cottager’s wife!” cried Mr. Yates. “What are you talking of? The most trivial, paltry, insignificant part; the merest commonplace; not a tolerable speech in the whole. Your sister do that! It is an insult to propose it. At Ecclesford the governess was to have done it. We all agreed that it could not be offered to anybody else. A little more justice, Mr. Manager, if you please. You do not deserve the office, if you cannot appreciate the talents of your company a little better.”

“Cottager’s wife!” Mr. Yates shouted. “What are you talking about? It’s the most trivial, pathetic, and insignificant role; just a boring routine. Your sister could never handle it! It’s insulting to even suggest it. At Ecclesford, the governess was supposed to do it. We all agreed it shouldn’t be offered to anyone else. Show a little more fairness, Mr. Manager, if you don’t mind. You don’t deserve the job if you can’t recognize the talents of your cast better.”

“Why, as to that, my good friend, till I and my company have really acted there must be some guesswork; but I mean no disparagement to Julia. We cannot have two Agathas, and we must have one Cottager’s wife; and I am sure I set her the example of moderation myself in being satisfied with the old Butler. If the part is trifling she will have more credit in making something of it; and if she is so desperately bent against everything humorous, let her take Cottager’s speeches instead of Cottager’s wife’s, and so change the parts all through; he is solemn and pathetic enough, I am sure. It could make no difference in the play, and as for Cottager himself, when he has got his wife’s speeches, I would undertake him with all my heart.”

“Regarding that, my good friend, until my group and I have actually performed, there will have to be some guesswork; but I mean no disrespect to Julia. We can't have two Agathas, and we need one Cottager’s wife; and I'm sure I led by example by being content with the old Butler. If the role is minor, she’ll gain more credit for making something of it; and if she's really against anything funny, let her take the Cottager’s lines instead of the Cottager’s wife’s, and change the roles entirely; he is serious and emotional enough, I'm sure. It wouldn’t make any difference in the play, and as for the Cottager himself, once he has his wife’s lines, I would take him on with all my heart.”

“With all your partiality for Cottager’s wife,” said Henry Crawford, “it will be impossible to make anything of it fit for your sister, and we must not suffer her good-nature to be imposed on. We must not allow her to accept the part. She must not be left to her own complaisance. Her talents will be wanted in Amelia. Amelia is a character more difficult to be well represented than even Agatha. I consider Amelia is the most difficult character in the whole piece. It requires great powers, great nicety, to give her playfulness and simplicity without extravagance. I have seen good actresses fail in the part. Simplicity, indeed, is beyond the reach of almost every actress by profession. It requires a delicacy of feeling which they have not. It requires a gentlewoman—a Julia Bertram. You will undertake it, I hope?” turning to her with a look of anxious entreaty, which softened her a little; but while she hesitated what to say, her brother again interposed with Miss Crawford’s better claim.

“With all your favoritism for the Cottager’s wife,” said Henry Crawford, “it’ll be impossible to make anything suitable for your sister, and we can’t let her kindness be taken advantage of. We can’t let her accept the role. She shouldn’t be left to her own willingness. Her talents will be needed for Amelia. Amelia is a character that’s trickier to portray than even Agatha. I think Amelia is the most challenging character in the whole play. It takes great skill and precision to capture her playfulness and simplicity without going overboard. I’ve seen good actresses fail in this role. Simplicity, in fact, is nearly unattainable for almost every professional actress. It demands a sensitivity of feeling that they often lack. It requires a true lady—a Julia Bertram. You will take it on, right?” He turned to her with a look of anxious pleading that softened her a bit; but while she was hesitating on how to respond, her brother once again spoke up with Miss Crawford’s stronger claim.

“No, no, Julia must not be Amelia. It is not at all the part for her. She would not like it. She would not do well. She is too tall and robust. Amelia should be a small, light, girlish, skipping figure. It is fit for Miss Crawford, and Miss Crawford only. She looks the part, and I am persuaded will do it admirably.”

“No, no, Julia can’t be Amelia. That role isn’t suited for her at all. She wouldn’t enjoy it. She wouldn’t perform well. She’s too tall and strong. Amelia should be a small, delicate, girlish figure who skips around. It's perfect for Miss Crawford, and only her. She has the look for it, and I’m convinced she’ll do it wonderfully.”

Without attending to this, Henry Crawford continued his supplication. “You must oblige us,” said he, “indeed you must. When you have studied the character, I am sure you will feel it suit you. Tragedy may be your choice, but it will certainly appear that comedy chuses you. You will be to visit me in prison with a basket of provisions; you will not refuse to visit me in prison? I think I see you coming in with your basket.”

Without paying attention to this, Henry Crawford kept pressing his case. “You have to help us,” he said, “you really do. Once you understand the character, I’m sure you’ll find it’s a great fit for you. Tragedy might be your preference, but it will definitely seem like comedy has chosen you. You’ll come visit me in prison with a basket of food; you won’t say no to visiting me in prison, will you? I can just picture you walking in with your basket.”

The influence of his voice was felt. Julia wavered; but was he only trying to soothe and pacify her, and make her overlook the previous affront? She distrusted him. The slight had been most determined. He was, perhaps, but at treacherous play with her. She looked suspiciously at her sister; Maria’s countenance was to decide it: if she were vexed and alarmed—but Maria looked all serenity and satisfaction, and Julia well knew that on this ground Maria could not be happy but at her expense. With hasty indignation, therefore, and a tremulous voice, she said to him, “You do not seem afraid of not keeping your countenance when I come in with a basket of provisions—though one might have supposed—but it is only as Agatha that I was to be so overpowering!” She stopped—Henry Crawford looked rather foolish, and as if he did not know what to say. Tom Bertram began again—

The impact of his voice was noticeable. Julia hesitated; was he just trying to calm her down and get her to forget the previous insult? She didn't trust him. The slight had been quite intentional. Maybe he was just playing games with her. She looked at her sister with suspicion; Maria’s expression would determine her thoughts: if she seemed upset or worried—but Maria looked completely calm and satisfied, and Julia knew that Maria could only feel happy if it was at her expense. With quick anger, and her voice shaking, she said to him, “You don’t seem worried about keeping your cool when I walk in with a basket of supplies—though one might think you would be—yet it was only as Agatha that I was supposed to be so overwhelming!” She paused—Henry Crawford looked a bit silly, as if he didn’t know what to say. Tom Bertram started again—

“Miss Crawford must be Amelia. She will be an excellent Amelia.”

“Miss Crawford has to be Amelia. She’ll make a fantastic Amelia.”

“Do not be afraid of my wanting the character,” cried Julia, with angry quickness: “I am not to be Agatha, and I am sure I will do nothing else; and as to Amelia, it is of all parts in the world the most disgusting to me. I quite detest her. An odious, little, pert, unnatural, impudent girl. I have always protested against comedy, and this is comedy in its worst form.” And so saying, she walked hastily out of the room, leaving awkward feelings to more than one, but exciting small compassion in any except Fanny, who had been a quiet auditor of the whole, and who could not think of her as under the agitations of jealousy without great pity.

“Don’t be afraid of my wanting the role,” Julia shouted, her anger flaring up. “I am not going to be Agatha, and I’m sure I won’t do anything like that; and as for Amelia, she’s the most repulsive character I can think of. I completely detest her. An awful, little, overconfident, unnatural, rude girl. I’ve always spoken out against comedy, and this is comedy at its worst.” With that, she hurried out of the room, leaving everyone feeling awkward, but stirring little sympathy in anyone except Fanny, who had quietly listened to the whole thing and couldn’t help but feel great pity for Julia, knowing she was experiencing jealousy.

A short silence succeeded her leaving them; but her brother soon returned to business and Lovers’ Vows, and was eagerly looking over the play, with Mr. Yates’s help, to ascertain what scenery would be necessary—while Maria and Henry Crawford conversed together in an under-voice, and the declaration with which she began of, “I am sure I would give up the part to Julia most willingly, but that though I shall probably do it very ill, I feel persuaded she would do it worse,” was doubtless receiving all the compliments it called for.

A brief silence followed her departure; but her brother quickly got back to work and Lovers’ Vows, eagerly reviewing the play with Mr. Yates’s assistance to figure out what scenery would be needed—while Maria and Henry Crawford whispered to each other, and her declaration that began with, “I’m sure I would happily give the part to Julia, but even though I’ll probably do it poorly, I’m convinced she would do it worse,” was certainly getting all the praise it deserved.

When this had lasted some time, the division of the party was completed by Tom Bertram and Mr. Yates walking off together to consult farther in the room now beginning to be called the Theatre, and Miss Bertram’s resolving to go down to the Parsonage herself with the offer of Amelia to Miss Crawford; and Fanny remained alone.

When this went on for a while, the group split up, with Tom Bertram and Mr. Yates walking off together to discuss further in the room that was just starting to be called the Theatre. Miss Bertram decided to go down to the Parsonage herself to offer Amelia's message to Miss Crawford, and Fanny was left alone.

The first use she made of her solitude was to take up the volume which had been left on the table, and begin to acquaint herself with the play of which she had heard so much. Her curiosity was all awake, and she ran through it with an eagerness which was suspended only by intervals of astonishment, that it could be chosen in the present instance, that it could be proposed and accepted in a private theatre! Agatha and Amelia appeared to her in their different ways so totally improper for home representation—the situation of one, and the language of the other, so unfit to be expressed by any woman of modesty, that she could hardly suppose her cousins could be aware of what they were engaging in; and longed to have them roused as soon as possible by the remonstrance which Edmund would certainly make.

The first thing she did with her solitude was to pick up the book that had been left on the table and start familiarizing herself with the play she had heard so much about. Her curiosity was fully sparked, and she read through it with such eagerness that it was only paused by moments of astonishment at the fact that it could be chosen in this instance, that it could be proposed and accepted for a private performance! Agatha and Amelia seemed to her, in their different ways, completely inappropriate for a home production—the situation of one and the language of the other felt so unsuitable for any modest woman to express, that she could hardly believe her cousins were aware of what they were getting into; she longed to see them alerted as soon as possible by the objections that Edmund would definitely raise.

CHAPTER XV

Miss Crawford accepted the part very readily; and soon after Miss Bertram’s return from the Parsonage, Mr. Rushworth arrived, and another character was consequently cast. He had the offer of Count Cassel and Anhalt, and at first did not know which to chuse, and wanted Miss Bertram to direct him; but upon being made to understand the different style of the characters, and which was which, and recollecting that he had once seen the play in London, and had thought Anhalt a very stupid fellow, he soon decided for the Count. Miss Bertram approved the decision, for the less he had to learn the better; and though she could not sympathise in his wish that the Count and Agatha might be to act together, nor wait very patiently while he was slowly turning over the leaves with the hope of still discovering such a scene, she very kindly took his part in hand, and curtailed every speech that admitted being shortened; besides pointing out the necessity of his being very much dressed, and chusing his colours. Mr. Rushworth liked the idea of his finery very well, though affecting to despise it; and was too much engaged with what his own appearance would be to think of the others, or draw any of those conclusions, or feel any of that displeasure which Maria had been half prepared for.

Miss Crawford gladly accepted the role, and shortly after Miss Bertram returned from the Parsonage, Mr. Rushworth arrived, prompting another character assignment. He had the option to play Count Cassel or Anhalt, and at first, he wasn’t sure which to choose, hoping Miss Bertram would guide him. However, once he understood the differences between the characters and remembered that he had seen the play in London, where he thought Anhalt was quite dull, he quickly opted for the Count. Miss Bertram approved his choice, since the less he had to learn, the better. Even though she couldn’t share his wish for the Count and Agatha to be in the same scenes, nor was she very patient as he slowly flipped through the pages hoping to find such a moment, she kindly took charge of his part, trimming any speeches that could be shortened. She also pointed out how important it was for him to dress extravagantly and choose his colors. Mr. Rushworth liked the idea of looking fancy, even though he pretended to look down on it, and he was too focused on his own appearance to think about the others or come to any of the conclusions—or feel any of the displeasure—that Maria had been somewhat prepared for.

Thus much was settled before Edmund, who had been out all the morning, knew anything of the matter; but when he entered the drawing-room before dinner, the buzz of discussion was high between Tom, Maria, and Mr. Yates; and Mr. Rushworth stepped forward with great alacrity to tell him the agreeable news.

Thus much was settled before Edmund, who had been out all morning, knew anything about it; but when he entered the living room before dinner, there was a lively discussion between Tom, Maria, and Mr. Yates; and Mr. Rushworth quickly stepped forward to share the good news with him.

“We have got a play,” said he. “It is to be Lovers’ Vows; and I am to be Count Cassel, and am to come in first with a blue dress and a pink satin cloak, and afterwards am to have another fine fancy suit, by way of a shooting-dress. I do not know how I shall like it.”

“We have a play,” he said. “It’s called Lovers’ Vows; I’m playing Count Cassel, and I’ll come in first wearing a blue dress and a pink satin cloak. Then I’ll have another nice outfit for a shooting scene. I’m not sure how I’ll like it.”

Fanny’s eyes followed Edmund, and her heart beat for him as she heard this speech, and saw his look, and felt what his sensations must be.

Fanny watched Edmund, her heart racing for him as she listened to his words, saw his expression, and imagined what he must be feeling.

“Lovers’ Vows!” in a tone of the greatest amazement, was his only reply to Mr. Rushworth, and he turned towards his brother and sisters as if hardly doubting a contradiction.

“Lovers’ Vows!” he exclaimed in complete astonishment, his only response to Mr. Rushworth, and he looked at his brother and sisters as if he could hardly believe they wouldn’t contradict him.

“Yes,” cried Mr. Yates. “After all our debatings and difficulties, we find there is nothing that will suit us altogether so well, nothing so unexceptionable, as Lovers’ Vows. The wonder is that it should not have been thought of before. My stupidity was abominable, for here we have all the advantage of what I saw at Ecclesford; and it is so useful to have anything of a model! We have cast almost every part.”

“Yes,” exclaimed Mr. Yates. “After all our discussions and challenges, we discover that nothing suits us quite as well, nothing so flawless, as Lovers’ Vows. It’s amazing that it wasn’t considered before. I can’t believe I didn’t think of it, because we have the benefit of what I saw at Ecclesford; and having a model is incredibly helpful! We’ve already cast almost every role.”

“But what do you do for women?” said Edmund gravely, and looking at Maria.

“But what do you do for women?” Edmund said seriously, looking at Maria.

Maria blushed in spite of herself as she answered, “I take the part which Lady Ravenshaw was to have done, and” (with a bolder eye) “Miss Crawford is to be Amelia.”

Maria blushed despite herself as she replied, “I’m taking the role that Lady Ravenshaw was supposed to play, and” (with a bolder gaze) “Miss Crawford will be Amelia.”

“I should not have thought it the sort of play to be so easily filled up, with us,” replied Edmund, turning away to the fire, where sat his mother, aunt, and Fanny, and seating himself with a look of great vexation.

“I shouldn’t have thought it was the kind of play that could be so easily filled with us,” replied Edmund, turning away to the fire, where his mother, aunt, and Fanny were sitting, and taking a seat with a look of great frustration.

Mr. Rushworth followed him to say, “I come in three times, and have two-and-forty speeches. That’s something, is not it? But I do not much like the idea of being so fine. I shall hardly know myself in a blue dress and a pink satin cloak.”

Mr. Rushworth followed him to say, “I come in three times and have forty-two lines. That’s something, right? But I don’t really like the idea of being so fancy. I’ll hardly recognize myself in a blue dress and a pink satin cloak.”

Edmund could not answer him. In a few minutes Mr. Bertram was called out of the room to satisfy some doubts of the carpenter; and being accompanied by Mr. Yates, and followed soon afterwards by Mr. Rushworth, Edmund almost immediately took the opportunity of saying, “I cannot, before Mr. Yates, speak what I feel as to this play, without reflecting on his friends at Ecclesford; but I must now, my dear Maria, tell you, that I think it exceedingly unfit for private representation, and that I hope you will give it up. I cannot but suppose you will when you have read it carefully over. Read only the first act aloud to either your mother or aunt, and see how you can approve it. It will not be necessary to send you to your father’s judgment, I am convinced.”

Edmund couldn't respond to him. A few minutes later, Mr. Bertram was called out of the room to clear up some questions from the carpenter. He was joined by Mr. Yates, and shortly after, Mr. Rushworth followed them. Edmund quickly took the chance to say, "I can't express what I really feel about this play in front of Mr. Yates, without thinking about his friends at Ecclesford; but now, my dear Maria, I have to tell you that I believe it’s completely unsuitable for a private performance, and I hope you’ll drop it. I can’t help but think you will once you read it closely. Just read the first act aloud to either your mother or aunt and see how you feel about it. I don’t think it’ll be necessary to involve your father’s opinion; I’m sure of that.”

“We see things very differently,” cried Maria. “I am perfectly acquainted with the play, I assure you; and with a very few omissions, and so forth, which will be made, of course, I can see nothing objectionable in it; and I am not the only young woman you find who thinks it very fit for private representation.”

“We see things very differently,” shouted Maria. “I know the play very well, I promise you; and with just a few changes and so on, which will be made, of course, I don’t see anything wrong with it; and I am not the only young woman you meet who thinks it's perfectly suitable for private performance.”

“I am sorry for it,” was his answer; “but in this matter it is you who are to lead. You must set the example. If others have blundered, it is your place to put them right, and shew them what true delicacy is. In all points of decorum your conduct must be law to the rest of the party.”

“I’m sorry about that,” he replied, “but in this situation, it’s you who needs to take the lead. You have to set the example. If others have made mistakes, it’s your responsibility to correct them and show them what true delicacy looks like. In all matters of decorum, your behavior must guide the rest of the group.”

This picture of her consequence had some effect, for no one loved better to lead than Maria; and with far more good-humour she answered, “I am much obliged to you, Edmund; you mean very well, I am sure: but I still think you see things too strongly; and I really cannot undertake to harangue all the rest upon a subject of this kind. There would be the greatest indecorum, I think.”

This image of her consequences made an impact, as no one loved to lead more than Maria; and with much more cheerfulness she replied, “Thank you so much, Edmund; you have the best intentions, I’m sure: but I still believe you’re overreacting; and I honestly can’t take on the task of lecturing everyone else about this kind of issue. That would be the height of rudeness, I think.”

“Do you imagine that I could have such an idea in my head? No; let your conduct be the only harangue. Say that, on examining the part, you feel yourself unequal to it; that you find it requiring more exertion and confidence than you can be supposed to have. Say this with firmness, and it will be quite enough. All who can distinguish will understand your motive. The play will be given up, and your delicacy honoured as it ought.”

“Do you really think I could have such an idea in my mind? No; let your actions speak for themselves. Just say that after considering the role, you feel it's beyond your abilities; that it demands more effort and confidence than you’re likely to have. If you say this with conviction, that's all you'll need. Those who can see will understand your reasoning. The play will be canceled, and your sensitivity respected as it should be.”

“Do not act anything improper, my dear,” said Lady Bertram. “Sir Thomas would not like it.—Fanny, ring the bell; I must have my dinner.—To be sure, Julia is dressed by this time.”

“Don't do anything inappropriate, my dear,” said Lady Bertram. “Sir Thomas wouldn’t approve. —Fanny, ring the bell; I need to have my dinner. —I’m sure Julia is dressed by now.”

“I am convinced, madam,” said Edmund, preventing Fanny, “that Sir Thomas would not like it.”

“I’m sure, ma’am,” said Edmund, stopping Fanny, “that Sir Thomas wouldn’t approve.”

“There, my dear, do you hear what Edmund says?”

“There, my dear, do you hear what Edmund is saying?”

“If I were to decline the part,” said Maria, with renewed zeal, “Julia would certainly take it.”

“If I were to pass on the role,” said Maria, with renewed enthusiasm, “Julia would definitely take it.”

“What!” cried Edmund, “if she knew your reasons!”

“What!” exclaimed Edmund, “if she knew why you did it!”

“Oh! she might think the difference between us—the difference in our situations—that she need not be so scrupulous as I might feel necessary. I am sure she would argue so. No; you must excuse me; I cannot retract my consent; it is too far settled, everybody would be so disappointed, Tom would be quite angry; and if we are so very nice, we shall never act anything.”

“Oh! She might believe that the difference between us—the difference in our situations—means that she doesn’t have to be as careful as I feel is necessary. I’m sure she would argue that. No; you have to forgive me; I can’t take back my agreement; it’s too far along, everyone would be so let down, Tom would be really upset; and if we’re this particular, we’ll never get anything done.”

“I was just going to say the very same thing,” said Mrs. Norris. “If every play is to be objected to, you will act nothing, and the preparations will be all so much money thrown away, and I am sure that would be a discredit to us all. I do not know the play; but, as Maria says, if there is anything a little too warm (and it is so with most of them) it can be easily left out. We must not be over-precise, Edmund. As Mr. Rushworth is to act too, there can be no harm. I only wish Tom had known his own mind when the carpenters began, for there was the loss of half a day’s work about those side-doors. The curtain will be a good job, however. The maids do their work very well, and I think we shall be able to send back some dozens of the rings. There is no occasion to put them so very close together. I am of some use, I hope, in preventing waste and making the most of things. There should always be one steady head to superintend so many young ones. I forgot to tell Tom of something that happened to me this very day. I had been looking about me in the poultry-yard, and was just coming out, when who should I see but Dick Jackson making up to the servants’ hall-door with two bits of deal board in his hand, bringing them to father, you may be sure; mother had chanced to send him of a message to father, and then father had bid him bring up them two bits of board, for he could not no how do without them. I knew what all this meant, for the servants’ dinner-bell was ringing at the very moment over our heads; and as I hate such encroaching people (the Jacksons are very encroaching, I have always said so: just the sort of people to get all they can), I said to the boy directly (a great lubberly fellow of ten years old, you know, who ought to be ashamed of himself), ‘I’ll take the boards to your father, Dick, so get you home again as fast as you can.’ The boy looked very silly, and turned away without offering a word, for I believe I might speak pretty sharp; and I dare say it will cure him of coming marauding about the house for one while. I hate such greediness—so good as your father is to the family, employing the man all the year round!”

“I was just about to say the same thing,” said Mrs. Norris. “If we’re going to criticize every play, you won’t end up performing anything, and all this preparation will just be a waste of money, which I’m sure would reflect poorly on all of us. I don’t know the play; but as Maria says, if there’s something a bit too risqué (which is true for most of them), it can easily be omitted. We shouldn’t be too uptight, Edmund. Since Mr. Rushworth is acting too, it won’t hurt. I just wish Tom had been clearer about what he wanted when the carpenters started, because we lost half a day’s work over those side doors. The curtain will turn out well, though. The maids do their jobs perfectly, and I think we’ll be able to return several dozen of the rings. There’s no need to space them out so tightly. I hope I’m being somewhat useful by preventing waste and maximizing our resources. There should always be a steady hand overseeing so many young ones. I forgot to tell Tom about something that happened to me today. I was checking out the poultry yard and was just about to leave when I spotted Dick Jackson heading toward the servants' hall door with two pieces of board in his hands, bringing them to his father, of course; his mother had asked him to deliver a message to his father, who then told him to grab those two pieces of board because he couldn’t manage without them. I knew what this was all about since the servants' dinner bell was ringing right above us at that moment; and since I can’t stand people who take advantage (the Jacksons are very opportunistic, I’ve always said that: just the type of people who try to get everything they can), I told the boy directly (a big clumsy kid of ten years old, mind you, who should be embarrassed), ‘I’ll take the boards to your father, Dick, so you get home as quickly as you can.’ The boy looked foolish and turned away without saying a word, because I think I might have been a bit sharp; and I dare say this will teach him not to come scavenging around the house for a while. I really dislike that kind of greed—especially considering how good your father is to the family, keeping that man employed all year round!”

Nobody was at the trouble of an answer; the others soon returned; and Edmund found that to have endeavoured to set them right must be his only satisfaction.

Nobody bothered to answer; the others quickly came back; and Edmund realized that trying to correct them was his only source of satisfaction.

Dinner passed heavily. Mrs. Norris related again her triumph over Dick Jackson, but neither play nor preparation were otherwise much talked of, for Edmund’s disapprobation was felt even by his brother, though he would not have owned it. Maria, wanting Henry Crawford’s animating support, thought the subject better avoided. Mr. Yates, who was trying to make himself agreeable to Julia, found her gloom less impenetrable on any topic than that of his regret at her secession from their company; and Mr. Rushworth, having only his own part and his own dress in his head, had soon talked away all that could be said of either.

Dinner felt heavy. Mrs. Norris went on about her victory over Dick Jackson again, but there wasn't much talk about the play or its preparation, as Edmund's disapproval was felt by everyone, including his brother, even if he wouldn’t admit it. Maria, missing Henry Crawford's encouraging support, thought it was better to avoid the topic. Mr. Yates, trying to win over Julia, found that her mood was less dim on any topic except for his regret about her leaving their group; and Mr. Rushworth, focused only on his own role and outfit, quickly exhausted the conversation about either.

But the concerns of the theatre were suspended only for an hour or two: there was still a great deal to be settled; and the spirits of evening giving fresh courage, Tom, Maria, and Mr. Yates, soon after their being reassembled in the drawing-room, seated themselves in committee at a separate table, with the play open before them, and were just getting deep in the subject when a most welcome interruption was given by the entrance of Mr. and Miss Crawford, who, late and dark and dirty as it was, could not help coming, and were received with the most grateful joy.

But the theater's concerns were put on hold for only an hour or two: there was still a lot to figure out; and with the evening's energy giving them fresh motivation, Tom, Maria, and Mr. Yates quickly sat down together at a separate table in the drawing-room, with the script open in front of them. They were just diving into the details when they were pleasantly interrupted by the arrival of Mr. and Miss Crawford, who, despite the late hour and the gloomy, dirty weather, couldn’t resist coming, and they were welcomed with immense joy.

“Well, how do you go on?” and “What have you settled?” and “Oh! we can do nothing without you,” followed the first salutations; and Henry Crawford was soon seated with the other three at the table, while his sister made her way to Lady Bertram, and with pleasant attention was complimenting her. “I must really congratulate your ladyship,” said she, “on the play being chosen; for though you have borne it with exemplary patience, I am sure you must be sick of all our noise and difficulties. The actors may be glad, but the bystanders must be infinitely more thankful for a decision; and I do sincerely give you joy, madam, as well as Mrs. Norris, and everybody else who is in the same predicament,” glancing half fearfully, half slyly, beyond Fanny to Edmund.

“Well, how do you keep going?” and “What have you decided?” and “Oh! we can’t do anything without you,” came after the first greetings; and Henry Crawford was soon sitting at the table with the other three, while his sister went over to Lady Bertram, pleasantly complimenting her. “I really must congratulate you, your ladyship,” she said, “on the play being chosen; for although you have handled it with amazing patience, I’m sure you must be tired of all our noise and troubles. The actors might be happy, but the spectators must be so much more grateful for a decision; and I sincerely congratulate you, madam, as well as Mrs. Norris, and everyone else in the same situation,” glancing half nervously, half playfully, beyond Fanny to Edmund.

She was very civilly answered by Lady Bertram, but Edmund said nothing. His being only a bystander was not disclaimed. After continuing in chat with the party round the fire a few minutes, Miss Crawford returned to the party round the table; and standing by them, seemed to interest herself in their arrangements till, as if struck by a sudden recollection, she exclaimed, “My good friends, you are most composedly at work upon these cottages and alehouses, inside and out; but pray let me know my fate in the meanwhile. Who is to be Anhalt? What gentleman among you am I to have the pleasure of making love to?”

She was replied to very politely by Lady Bertram, but Edmund didn’t say anything. He didn’t deny that he was just a bystander. After chatting with the group around the fire for a few minutes, Miss Crawford went back to the group at the table; and standing with them, she appeared to be interested in their plans until, as if remembering something all of a sudden, she exclaimed, “My dear friends, you are all so calmly working on these cottages and alehouses, both inside and out; but please, tell me my fate in the meantime. Who will be Anhalt? Which gentleman among you will I have the pleasure of flirting with?”

For a moment no one spoke; and then many spoke together to tell the same melancholy truth, that they had not yet got any Anhalt. “Mr. Rushworth was to be Count Cassel, but no one had yet undertaken Anhalt.”

For a moment, no one said anything; then everyone started talking at once to share the same sad news—that they still hadn’t gotten Anhalt. “Mr. Rushworth was supposed to be Count Cassel, but no one had stepped up for Anhalt yet.”

“I had my choice of the parts,” said Mr. Rushworth; “but I thought I should like the Count best, though I do not much relish the finery I am to have.”

“I could choose any role,” said Mr. Rushworth, “but I thought I would like the Count the most, even though I’m not really into all the fancy stuff I have to wear.”

“You chose very wisely, I am sure,” replied Miss Crawford, with a brightened look; “Anhalt is a heavy part.”

“You made a really smart choice, I’m sure,” replied Miss Crawford, with a brightened expression; “Anhalt is a tough role.”

The Count has two-and-forty speeches,” returned Mr. Rushworth, “which is no trifle.”

The Count has forty-two speeches,” replied Mr. Rushworth, “which is no small matter.”

“I am not at all surprised,” said Miss Crawford, after a short pause, “at this want of an Anhalt. Amelia deserves no better. Such a forward young lady may well frighten the men.”

“I’m not surprised at all,” said Miss Crawford, after a brief pause, “about this lack of an Anhalt. Amelia deserves nothing better. A bold young woman like her can easily intimidate the men.”

“I should be but too happy in taking the part, if it were possible,” cried Tom; “but, unluckily, the Butler and Anhalt are in together. I will not entirely give it up, however; I will try what can be done—I will look it over again.”

“I would be really happy to take part if it were possible,” cried Tom; “but unfortunately, the Butler and Anhalt are in on it together. I won’t completely give up, though; I’ll see what can be done—I’ll review it again.”

“Your brother should take the part,” said Mr. Yates, in a low voice. “Do not you think he would?”

“Your brother should take the part,” Mr. Yates said quietly. “Don’t you think he would?”

I shall not ask him,” replied Tom, in a cold, determined manner.

I won’t ask him,” Tom replied, with a cold, determined tone.

Miss Crawford talked of something else, and soon afterwards rejoined the party at the fire.

Miss Crawford talked about something else, and soon after, she rejoined the group by the fire.

“They do not want me at all,” said she, seating herself. “I only puzzle them, and oblige them to make civil speeches. Mr. Edmund Bertram, as you do not act yourself, you will be a disinterested adviser; and, therefore, I apply to you. What shall we do for an Anhalt? Is it practicable for any of the others to double it? What is your advice?”

“They don’t want me at all,” she said, sitting down. “I just confuse them and force them to make polite comments. Mr. Edmund Bertram, since you’re not involved yourself, you can be an unbiased advisor; so I’m asking you. What should we do for an Anhalt? Can any of the others take on that role? What do you suggest?”

“My advice,” said he calmly, “is that you change the play.”

“My advice,” he said calmly, “is that you change the play.”

I should have no objection,” she replied; “for though I should not particularly dislike the part of Amelia if well supported, that is, if everything went well, I shall be sorry to be an inconvenience; but as they do not chuse to hear your advice at that table” (looking round), “it certainly will not be taken.”

I wouldn't mind,” she responded; “even though I wouldn't particularly dislike playing Amelia if it’s well done, meaning if everything goes smoothly, I’d hate to be a bother; but since they don’t want to hear your advice at that table” (looking around), “it definitely won’t be considered.”

Edmund said no more.

Edmund was silent.

“If any part could tempt you to act, I suppose it would be Anhalt,” observed the lady archly, after a short pause; “for he is a clergyman, you know.”

“If any part could tempt you to act, I guess it would be Anhalt,” the lady remarked playfully after a brief pause; “because he’s a clergyman, you know.”

That circumstance would by no means tempt me,” he replied, “for I should be sorry to make the character ridiculous by bad acting. It must be very difficult to keep Anhalt from appearing a formal, solemn lecturer; and the man who chuses the profession itself is, perhaps, one of the last who would wish to represent it on the stage.”

That situation wouldn’t tempt me at all,” he replied, “because I would hate to make the character look ridiculous with poor acting. It must be really hard to avoid making Anhalt come off as a stiff, serious lecturer; and the person who chooses that profession is probably one of the last people who would want to portray it on stage.”

Miss Crawford was silenced, and with some feelings of resentment and mortification, moved her chair considerably nearer the tea-table, and gave all her attention to Mrs. Norris, who was presiding there.

Miss Crawford was quieted, and feeling a mix of resentment and embarrassment, moved her chair much closer to the tea table and focused all her attention on Mrs. Norris, who was in charge there.

“Fanny,” cried Tom Bertram, from the other table, where the conference was eagerly carrying on, and the conversation incessant, “we want your services.”

“Fanny,” called Tom Bertram from the other table, where the meeting was lively and the conversation nonstop, “we need your help.”

Fanny was up in a moment, expecting some errand; for the habit of employing her in that way was not yet overcome, in spite of all that Edmund could do.

Fanny got up right away, thinking she had some task to do; the habit of putting her to work like that hadn’t faded yet, despite all of Edmund's efforts.

“Oh! we do not want to disturb you from your seat. We do not want your present services. We shall only want you in our play. You must be Cottager’s wife.”

“Oh! we don’t want to pull you away from your seat. We don’t need your present services. We will only need you for our play. You must be the Cottager’s wife.”

“Me!” cried Fanny, sitting down again with a most frightened look. “Indeed you must excuse me. I could not act anything if you were to give me the world. No, indeed, I cannot act.”

“Me!” Fanny yelled, sitting down again with a really scared expression. “You have to excuse me. I couldn’t act at all, even if you offered me the world. No, really, I can’t act.”

“Indeed, but you must, for we cannot excuse you. It need not frighten you: it is a nothing of a part, a mere nothing, not above half a dozen speeches altogether, and it will not much signify if nobody hears a word you say; so you may be as creep-mouse as you like, but we must have you to look at.”

“Sure, but you have to, because we can't let you off the hook. You shouldn't be scared: it's a tiny role, just a few lines, and it won't matter if nobody hears what you say; so you can be as quiet as you want, but we need you to be there for us to see.”

“If you are afraid of half a dozen speeches,” cried Mr. Rushworth, “what would you do with such a part as mine? I have forty-two to learn.”

“If you’re scared of giving a few speeches,” shouted Mr. Rushworth, “what would you do with a role like mine? I have to learn forty-two of them.”

“It is not that I am afraid of learning by heart,” said Fanny, shocked to find herself at that moment the only speaker in the room, and to feel that almost every eye was upon her; “but I really cannot act.”

“It’s not that I’m afraid of memorizing,” Fanny said, surprised to find herself the only one talking in the room and feeling that almost every eye was on her; “but I truly can’t perform.”

“Yes, yes, you can act well enough for us. Learn your part, and we will teach you all the rest. You have only two scenes, and as I shall be Cottager, I’ll put you in and push you about, and you will do it very well, I’ll answer for it.”

“Yes, yes, you can perform well enough for us. Learn your role, and we’ll teach you everything else. You only have two scenes, and since I’ll be playing the Cottager, I’ll help you out and guide you along, and you’ll do it great, I promise.”

“No, indeed, Mr. Bertram, you must excuse me. You cannot have an idea. It would be absolutely impossible for me. If I were to undertake it, I should only disappoint you.”

“No, really, Mr. Bertram, you need to understand. You can't even imagine. It would be totally impossible for me. If I tried to do it, I would just let you down.”

“Phoo! Phoo! Do not be so shamefaced. You’ll do it very well. Every allowance will be made for you. We do not expect perfection. You must get a brown gown, and a white apron, and a mob cap, and we must make you a few wrinkles, and a little of the crowsfoot at the corner of your eyes, and you will be a very proper, little old woman.”

“Come on! Don’t be so embarrassed. You’ll do great. We’ll take it easy on you. We’re not looking for perfection. You need to get a brown dress, a white apron, and a mob cap, and we’ll add some wrinkles and a bit of crow's feet at the corners of your eyes, and you’ll look like a proper little old woman.”

“You must excuse me, indeed you must excuse me,” cried Fanny, growing more and more red from excessive agitation, and looking distressfully at Edmund, who was kindly observing her; but unwilling to exasperate his brother by interference, gave her only an encouraging smile. Her entreaty had no effect on Tom: he only said again what he had said before; and it was not merely Tom, for the requisition was now backed by Maria, and Mr. Crawford, and Mr. Yates, with an urgency which differed from his but in being more gentle or more ceremonious, and which altogether was quite overpowering to Fanny; and before she could breathe after it, Mrs. Norris completed the whole by thus addressing her in a whisper at once angry and audible—“What a piece of work here is about nothing: I am quite ashamed of you, Fanny, to make such a difficulty of obliging your cousins in a trifle of this sort—so kind as they are to you! Take the part with a good grace, and let us hear no more of the matter, I entreat.”

"You have to forgive me, really you do," Fanny cried, turning redder from anxiety and looking desperately at Edmund, who kindly watched her; but wanting to avoid upsetting his brother by getting involved, he just gave her an encouraging smile. Her plea had no impact on Tom: he repeated what he had said before; and it wasn’t just Tom, as now Maria, Mr. Crawford, and Mr. Yates were also insisting, their tone different from his but more gentle and formal, which overwhelmed Fanny completely. Before she could recover, Mrs. Norris added to it by whispering to her, both angry and loud enough to hear, "What a fuss this is over nothing: I’m really ashamed of you, Fanny, for making such a big deal out of helping your cousins with something so small—especially when they’re so kind to you! Just take the part and let’s not talk about this anymore, please."

“Do not urge her, madam,” said Edmund. “It is not fair to urge her in this manner. You see she does not like to act. Let her chuse for herself, as well as the rest of us. Her judgment may be quite as safely trusted. Do not urge her any more.”

“Don’t pressure her, ma’am,” said Edmund. “It’s not right to push her like this. You can see she doesn’t want to act. Let her decide for herself, just like the rest of us. Her judgment can be trusted just as much. Please don’t pressure her anymore.”

“I am not going to urge her,” replied Mrs. Norris sharply; “but I shall think her a very obstinate, ungrateful girl, if she does not do what her aunt and cousins wish her—very ungrateful, indeed, considering who and what she is.”

“I’m not going to push her,” Mrs. Norris replied sharply; “but I’ll think she’s a very stubborn, ungrateful girl if she doesn’t do what her aunt and cousins want her to do—very ungrateful, especially considering who she is.”

Edmund was too angry to speak; but Miss Crawford, looking for a moment with astonished eyes at Mrs. Norris, and then at Fanny, whose tears were beginning to shew themselves, immediately said, with some keenness, “I do not like my situation: this place is too hot for me,” and moved away her chair to the opposite side of the table, close to Fanny, saying to her, in a kind, low whisper, as she placed herself, “Never mind, my dear Miss Price, this is a cross evening: everybody is cross and teasing, but do not let us mind them”; and with pointed attention continued to talk to her and endeavour to raise her spirits, in spite of being out of spirits herself. By a look at her brother she prevented any farther entreaty from the theatrical board, and the really good feelings by which she was almost purely governed were rapidly restoring her to all the little she had lost in Edmund’s favour.

Edmund was too angry to say anything; but Miss Crawford, looking for a moment with surprised eyes at Mrs. Norris and then at Fanny, whose tears were starting to show, immediately said with some intensity, “I don’t like my situation: this place is too hot for me,” and moved her chair to the opposite side of the table, close to Fanny. She leaned in and said in a kind, quiet whisper as she settled in, “Don’t worry, my dear Miss Price, this is a rough evening: everyone is irritable and teasing, but let’s not pay them any mind.” With focused attention, she continued to engage Fanny and tried to lift her spirits, even though she was feeling down herself. With a glance at her brother, she silenced any further pleas from the theatrical board, and the genuinely good feelings that mostly guided her were quickly bringing her back to the little she had lost in Edmund’s favor.

Fanny did not love Miss Crawford; but she felt very much obliged to her for her present kindness; and when, from taking notice of her work, and wishing she could work as well, and begging for the pattern, and supposing Fanny was now preparing for her appearance, as of course she would come out when her cousin was married, Miss Crawford proceeded to inquire if she had heard lately from her brother at sea, and said that she had quite a curiosity to see him, and imagined him a very fine young man, and advised Fanny to get his picture drawn before he went to sea again—she could not help admitting it to be very agreeable flattery, or help listening, and answering with more animation than she had intended.

Fanny didn't love Miss Crawford, but she felt really grateful for her current kindness. When Miss Crawford noticed her work and expressed a wish to work as well, asking for the pattern and assuming that Fanny was getting ready for her debut, especially since she would be coming out when her cousin got married, she then asked if Fanny had heard from her brother at sea recently. Miss Crawford mentioned that she was quite curious to meet him, imagining him to be a very handsome young man, and suggested that Fanny get his picture taken before he set sail again. Fanny couldn’t help but acknowledge it as flattering and found herself listening and responding with more enthusiasm than she had anticipated.

The consultation upon the play still went on, and Miss Crawford’s attention was first called from Fanny by Tom Bertram’s telling her, with infinite regret, that he found it absolutely impossible for him to undertake the part of Anhalt in addition to the Butler: he had been most anxiously trying to make it out to be feasible, but it would not do; he must give it up. “But there will not be the smallest difficulty in filling it,” he added. “We have but to speak the word; we may pick and chuse. I could name, at this moment, at least six young men within six miles of us, who are wild to be admitted into our company, and there are one or two that would not disgrace us: I should not be afraid to trust either of the Olivers or Charles Maddox. Tom Oliver is a very clever fellow, and Charles Maddox is as gentlemanlike a man as you will see anywhere, so I will take my horse early to-morrow morning and ride over to Stoke, and settle with one of them.”

The discussion about the play continued, and Miss Crawford’s attention was first diverted from Fanny when Tom Bertram told her, with great regret, that it was absolutely impossible for him to take on the role of Anhalt in addition to being the Butler. He had been desperately trying to figure out how it could work, but it just wasn’t feasible; he had to let it go. “But filling the role won’t be a problem at all,” he added. “We only need to say the word; we can pick and choose. I could name at least six young men within six miles who are eager to join our company, and a few of them would do us proud: I wouldn’t hesitate to recommend either of the Olivers or Charles Maddox. Tom Oliver is a really talented guy, and Charles Maddox is as gentlemanly as they come, so I’ll take my horse early tomorrow morning and ride over to Stoke to talk to one of them.”

While he spoke, Maria was looking apprehensively round at Edmund in full expectation that he must oppose such an enlargement of the plan as this: so contrary to all their first protestations; but Edmund said nothing. After a moment’s thought, Miss Crawford calmly replied, “As far as I am concerned, I can have no objection to anything that you all think eligible. Have I ever seen either of the gentlemen? Yes, Mr. Charles Maddox dined at my sister’s one day, did not he, Henry? A quiet-looking young man. I remember him. Let him be applied to, if you please, for it will be less unpleasant to me than to have a perfect stranger.”

While he spoke, Maria anxiously glanced at Edmund, fully expecting him to oppose this expansion of the plan, which was so contrary to all their earlier promises; but Edmund said nothing. After thinking for a moment, Miss Crawford calmly replied, “As far as I’m concerned, I don’t have any objections to anything you all find suitable. Have I ever met either of the gentlemen? Yes, Mr. Charles Maddox had dinner at my sister’s one day, didn’t he, Henry? A quiet-looking young man. I remember him. Let him be contacted, if you don’t mind, because it would be less uncomfortable for me than having to deal with a complete stranger.”

Charles Maddox was to be the man. Tom repeated his resolution of going to him early on the morrow; and though Julia, who had scarcely opened her lips before, observed, in a sarcastic manner, and with a glance first at Maria and then at Edmund, that “the Mansfield theatricals would enliven the whole neighbourhood exceedingly,” Edmund still held his peace, and shewed his feelings only by a determined gravity.

Charles Maddox was going to be the guy. Tom reaffirmed his decision to see him early the next day; and although Julia, who had hardly said anything before, pointed out sarcastically, glancing first at Maria and then at Edmund, that “the Mansfield shows would really liven up the neighborhood,” Edmund remained quiet and only expressed his feelings through a serious demeanor.

“I am not very sanguine as to our play,” said Miss Crawford, in an undervoice to Fanny, after some consideration; “and I can tell Mr. Maddox that I shall shorten some of his speeches, and a great many of my own, before we rehearse together. It will be very disagreeable, and by no means what I expected.”

“I’m not very optimistic about our play,” Miss Crawford said quietly to Fanny after thinking it over. “And I can let Mr. Maddox know that I’ll be cutting some of his lines and a lot of my own before we rehearse together. It’s going to be really unpleasant and not at all what I expected.”

CHAPTER XVI

It was not in Miss Crawford’s power to talk Fanny into any real forgetfulness of what had passed. When the evening was over, she went to bed full of it, her nerves still agitated by the shock of such an attack from her cousin Tom, so public and so persevered in, and her spirits sinking under her aunt’s unkind reflection and reproach. To be called into notice in such a manner, to hear that it was but the prelude to something so infinitely worse, to be told that she must do what was so impossible as to act; and then to have the charge of obstinacy and ingratitude follow it, enforced with such a hint at the dependence of her situation, had been too distressing at the time to make the remembrance when she was alone much less so, especially with the superadded dread of what the morrow might produce in continuation of the subject. Miss Crawford had protected her only for the time; and if she were applied to again among themselves with all the authoritative urgency that Tom and Maria were capable of, and Edmund perhaps away, what should she do? She fell asleep before she could answer the question, and found it quite as puzzling when she awoke the next morning. The little white attic, which had continued her sleeping-room ever since her first entering the family, proving incompetent to suggest any reply, she had recourse, as soon as she was dressed, to another apartment more spacious and more meet for walking about in and thinking, and of which she had now for some time been almost equally mistress. It had been their school-room; so called till the Miss Bertrams would not allow it to be called so any longer, and inhabited as such to a later period. There Miss Lee had lived, and there they had read and written, and talked and laughed, till within the last three years, when she had quitted them. The room had then become useless, and for some time was quite deserted, except by Fanny, when she visited her plants, or wanted one of the books, which she was still glad to keep there, from the deficiency of space and accommodation in her little chamber above: but gradually, as her value for the comforts of it increased, she had added to her possessions, and spent more of her time there; and having nothing to oppose her, had so naturally and so artlessly worked herself into it, that it was now generally admitted to be hers. The East room, as it had been called ever since Maria Bertram was sixteen, was now considered Fanny’s, almost as decidedly as the white attic: the smallness of the one making the use of the other so evidently reasonable that the Miss Bertrams, with every superiority in their own apartments which their own sense of superiority could demand, were entirely approving it; and Mrs. Norris, having stipulated for there never being a fire in it on Fanny’s account, was tolerably resigned to her having the use of what nobody else wanted, though the terms in which she sometimes spoke of the indulgence seemed to imply that it was the best room in the house.

Miss Crawford couldn't get Fanny to truly forget what had happened. By the time the evening ended, Fanny went to bed still consumed by it, her nerves shaken from the shock of Tom’s public and relentless attack, and her spirits weighed down by her aunt's harsh criticism and blame. Being singled out like that, knowing it was just the lead-up to something far worse, being told she had to do what felt impossible, and then facing accusations of stubbornness and ingratitude—especially with the reminder of her dependent situation—had been overwhelmingly distressing at the time and made being alone with those memories even harder, especially with the added worry about what the next day might bring regarding the subject. Miss Crawford had only protected her for that moment; if Tom and Maria approached her again with their typical authority and Edmund happened to be away, what could she do? She fell asleep before she could figure that out, and it remained just as confusing when she woke up the next morning. The small, white attic she had slept in since joining the family was no help at offering any answers, so once she got dressed, she went to a larger room better suited for thinking and walking around, a space she had almost equally claimed over time. It had once been their schoolroom, a name the Miss Bertrams refused to let remain, and it had served as such for a while longer. There, Miss Lee had lived, and they had read, written, talked, and laughed together until three years ago, when she had left them. After that, the room went unused and was mostly neglected, except by Fanny when she checked on her plants or needed one of the books she was happy to keep there due to the lack of space in her tiny room above. However, as she appreciated its comforts more, she gradually added her belongings and spent more time there; having no opposition, she naturally and effortlessly made it her own, so much so that it was now generally accepted as hers. The East room, as it had been called since Maria Bertram was sixteen, was almost as unquestionably Fanny's as the white attic was—its small size made using the other room so clearly reasonable that the Miss Bertrams, despite their own sense of superiority, fully approved. Mrs. Norris, having made sure there would never be a fire in it for Fanny’s sake, was reasonably resigned to her using what nobody else wanted, even though the way she sometimes spoke of that "indulgence" hinted that it was the best room in the house.

The aspect was so favourable that even without a fire it was habitable in many an early spring and late autumn morning to such a willing mind as Fanny’s; and while there was a gleam of sunshine she hoped not to be driven from it entirely, even when winter came. The comfort of it in her hours of leisure was extreme. She could go there after anything unpleasant below, and find immediate consolation in some pursuit, or some train of thought at hand. Her plants, her books—of which she had been a collector from the first hour of her commanding a shilling—her writing-desk, and her works of charity and ingenuity, were all within her reach; or if indisposed for employment, if nothing but musing would do, she could scarcely see an object in that room which had not an interesting remembrance connected with it. Everything was a friend, or bore her thoughts to a friend; and though there had been sometimes much of suffering to her; though her motives had often been misunderstood, her feelings disregarded, and her comprehension undervalued; though she had known the pains of tyranny, of ridicule, and neglect, yet almost every recurrence of either had led to something consolatory: her aunt Bertram had spoken for her, or Miss Lee had been encouraging, or, what was yet more frequent or more dear, Edmund had been her champion and her friend: he had supported her cause or explained her meaning, he had told her not to cry, or had given her some proof of affection which made her tears delightful; and the whole was now so blended together, so harmonised by distance, that every former affliction had its charm. The room was most dear to her, and she would not have changed its furniture for the handsomest in the house, though what had been originally plain had suffered all the ill-usage of children; and its greatest elegancies and ornaments were a faded footstool of Julia’s work, too ill done for the drawing-room, three transparencies, made in a rage for transparencies, for the three lower panes of one window, where Tintern Abbey held its station between a cave in Italy and a moonlight lake in Cumberland, a collection of family profiles, thought unworthy of being anywhere else, over the mantelpiece, and by their side, and pinned against the wall, a small sketch of a ship sent four years ago from the Mediterranean by William, with H.M.S. Antwerp at the bottom, in letters as tall as the mainmast.

The place was so inviting that even without a fire, it was livable on many early spring and late autumn mornings for someone as eager as Fanny; and as long as the sun was shining, she hoped she wouldn’t be completely driven away, even when winter arrived. The comfort it provided during her free time was immense. She could retreat there after any unpleasant experiences below and find instant solace in a hobby or a train of thought ready to engage her. Her plants, her books—of which she had been a collector since she earned her first shilling—her writing desk, and her charitable and creative projects were all at her fingertips; or if she felt unproductive and just wanted to daydream, she could hardly spot an object in that room that didn’t bring back an interesting memory. Everything felt like a friend, or it reminded her of a friend; and although there had been times of much suffering for her; her intentions were often misunderstood, her feelings overlooked, and her intellect undervalued; despite enduring the pains of oppression, mockery, and neglect, almost every instance of hardship led to something comforting: her aunt Bertram had stood up for her, or Miss Lee had offered encouragement, or, even more frequently and dearly, Edmund had been her defender and friend: he had backed her cause or clarified her thoughts, told her not to cry, or shown her affection that made her tears sweet; and now everything was intertwined, softened by time, that every previous hardship carried its own charm. The room was incredibly precious to her, and she wouldn’t have swapped its furnishings for the finest pieces in the house, even though what had started out simple had endured all the roughness of children; and its greatest touches of elegance and decoration were a faded footstool made by Julia, too poorly done for the drawing room, three transparencies hurriedly created for the lower panes of one window, where Tintern Abbey sat between a cave in Italy and a moonlit lake in Cumberland, a collection of family portraits considered unworthy of display anywhere else above the mantelpiece, and beside them, stuck to the wall, a small sketch of a ship sent four years ago from the Mediterranean by William, with H.M.S. Antwerp written at the bottom in letters as tall as the mainmast.

To this nest of comforts Fanny now walked down to try its influence on an agitated, doubting spirit, to see if by looking at Edmund’s profile she could catch any of his counsel, or by giving air to her geraniums she might inhale a breeze of mental strength herself. But she had more than fears of her own perseverance to remove: she had begun to feel undecided as to what she ought to do; and as she walked round the room her doubts were increasing. Was she right in refusing what was so warmly asked, so strongly wished for—what might be so essential to a scheme on which some of those to whom she owed the greatest complaisance had set their hearts? Was it not ill-nature, selfishness, and a fear of exposing herself? And would Edmund’s judgment, would his persuasion of Sir Thomas’s disapprobation of the whole, be enough to justify her in a determined denial in spite of all the rest? It would be so horrible to her to act that she was inclined to suspect the truth and purity of her own scruples; and as she looked around her, the claims of her cousins to being obliged were strengthened by the sight of present upon present that she had received from them. The table between the windows was covered with work-boxes and netting-boxes which had been given her at different times, principally by Tom; and she grew bewildered as to the amount of the debt which all these kind remembrances produced. A tap at the door roused her in the midst of this attempt to find her way to her duty, and her gentle “Come in” was answered by the appearance of one, before whom all her doubts were wont to be laid. Her eyes brightened at the sight of Edmund.

Fanny now walked down to her cozy spot, hoping to soothe her troubled mind. She wondered if gazing at Edmund’s profile might help her find guidance or if tending to her geraniums could bring her some clarity. But she had more than just her worries to confront; she was starting to feel uncertain about what she really *should* *do*. As she moved around the room, her doubts were growing. Was she *right* to turn down what was being so eagerly requested, something that might be crucial for a plan that some people she respected had their hearts set on? Was it just meanness, selfishness, and a fear of putting herself out there? Would Edmund’s judgment and his concerns about Sir Thomas’s disapproval be enough reason for her to firmly say no despite everything else? It felt awful to act this way, leading her to question the validity of her own principles. As she glanced around, the demands from her cousins to feel grateful became stronger with every present she had received from them. The table between the windows was piled high with workboxes and netting boxes that Tom had given her at various times, leaving her confused about how much she owed them in return. A knock at the door pulled her from her thoughts, and her soft “Come in” was met with the arrival of someone she always turned to when in doubt. Her eyes lit up at the sight of Edmund.

“Can I speak with you, Fanny, for a few minutes?” said he.

“Can I talk to you for a few minutes, Fanny?” he said.

“Yes, certainly.”

"Yes, of course."

“I want to consult. I want your opinion.”

“I want to get your input. I’d like to know what you think.”

“My opinion!” she cried, shrinking from such a compliment, highly as it gratified her.

“My opinion!” she exclaimed, pulling away from such a compliment, even though it made her feel really good.

“Yes, your advice and opinion. I do not know what to do. This acting scheme gets worse and worse, you see. They have chosen almost as bad a play as they could, and now, to complete the business, are going to ask the help of a young man very slightly known to any of us. This is the end of all the privacy and propriety which was talked about at first. I know no harm of Charles Maddox; but the excessive intimacy which must spring from his being admitted among us in this manner is highly objectionable, the more than intimacy—the familiarity. I cannot think of it with any patience; and it does appear to me an evil of such magnitude as must, if possible, be prevented. Do not you see it in the same light?”

“Yes, your advice and opinion matter. I don’t know what to do. This acting situation keeps getting worse, you see. They’ve chosen one of the worst plays they could, and now, to top it off, they're bringing in a young man that hardly any of us know. This totally ruins the privacy and propriety we talked about at first. I don’t have anything against Charles Maddox; but the close relationship that’s bound to develop from including him like this is really concerning—the more than just being close—the familiarity. I can’t bear to think about it; it seems like a problem so big that we must, if possible, do something to stop it. Don’t you see it the same way?”

“Yes; but what can be done? Your brother is so determined.”

“Yes, but what can we do? Your brother is so set on this.”

“There is but one thing to be done, Fanny. I must take Anhalt myself. I am well aware that nothing else will quiet Tom.”

"There is just one thing to do, Fanny. I need to handle Anhalt myself. I know that nothing else will calm Tom down."

Fanny could not answer him.

Fanny couldn't answer him.

“It is not at all what I like,” he continued. “No man can like being driven into the appearance of such inconsistency. After being known to oppose the scheme from the beginning, there is absurdity in the face of my joining them now, when they are exceeding their first plan in every respect; but I can think of no other alternative. Can you, Fanny?”

“It’s not at all what I like,” he continued. “No one enjoys being pushed into looking so inconsistent. After being known for opposing the plan from the start, it seems ridiculous for me to join them now, when they’re going beyond their original idea in every way; but I can’t think of any other option. Can you, Fanny?”

“No,” said Fanny slowly, “not immediately, but—”

“No,” Fanny said slowly, “not right away, but—”

“But what? I see your judgment is not with me. Think it a little over. Perhaps you are not so much aware as I am of the mischief that may, of the unpleasantness that must arise from a young man’s being received in this manner: domesticated among us; authorised to come at all hours, and placed suddenly on a footing which must do away all restraints. To think only of the licence which every rehearsal must tend to create. It is all very bad! Put yourself in Miss Crawford’s place, Fanny. Consider what it would be to act Amelia with a stranger. She has a right to be felt for, because she evidently feels for herself. I heard enough of what she said to you last night to understand her unwillingness to be acting with a stranger; and as she probably engaged in the part with different expectations—perhaps without considering the subject enough to know what was likely to be—it would be ungenerous, it would be really wrong to expose her to it. Her feelings ought to be respected. Does it not strike you so, Fanny? You hesitate.”

“But what? I can see you're not on my side. Think about it a little more. Maybe you don’t realize as much as I do the trouble that might, and the awkwardness that will come from a young man being welcomed like this: living among us, allowed to come at all hours, and suddenly having a relationship that removes all boundaries. Just think about the freedom that every rehearsal will likely encourage. It’s not good! Put yourself in Miss Crawford’s shoes, Fanny. Think about how it would feel to perform as Amelia with someone you don’t know. She deserves our consideration because she clearly cares about herself. I heard enough of what she said to you last night to understand her reluctance to act with someone unfamiliar; and since she probably took on the role with different expectations—maybe without thinking through what might happen—it would be unfair, it would be genuinely wrong to put her in that situation. Her feelings should be acknowledged. Don’t you see it that way, Fanny? You seem unsure.”

“I am sorry for Miss Crawford; but I am more sorry to see you drawn in to do what you had resolved against, and what you are known to think will be disagreeable to my uncle. It will be such a triumph to the others!”

“I feel bad for Miss Crawford; but I feel worse seeing you getting involved in something you decided against, and that you know my uncle will find unpleasant. It will be such a victory for the others!”

“They will not have much cause of triumph when they see how infamously I act. But, however, triumph there certainly will be, and I must brave it. But if I can be the means of restraining the publicity of the business, of limiting the exhibition, of concentrating our folly, I shall be well repaid. As I am now, I have no influence, I can do nothing: I have offended them, and they will not hear me; but when I have put them in good-humour by this concession, I am not without hopes of persuading them to confine the representation within a much smaller circle than they are now in the high road for. This will be a material gain. My object is to confine it to Mrs. Rushworth and the Grants. Will not this be worth gaining?”

“They won’t have much reason to celebrate when they see how poorly I behave. But there will definitely be some celebration, and I have to face it. However, if I can help limit the publicity of this situation, reduce the exposure, and focus our foolishness, I’ll feel rewarded. Right now, I have no influence, I can’t do anything: I’ve upset them, and they won’t listen to me; but once I get them in a better mood with this concession, I’m hopeful that I can convince them to keep the representation within a much smaller group than they’re currently heading towards. That would be a significant win. My goal is to limit it to Mrs. Rushworth and the Grants. Isn’t that worth aiming for?”

“Yes, it will be a great point.”

“Yes, it will be a great point.”

“But still it has not your approbation. Can you mention any other measure by which I have a chance of doing equal good?”

“But it still hasn’t received your approval. Can you name any other way I might be able to do as much good?”

“No, I cannot think of anything else.”

“No, I can’t think of anything else.”

“Give me your approbation, then, Fanny. I am not comfortable without it.”

“Please give me your approval, Fanny. I’m not at ease without it.”

“Oh, cousin!”

“Oh, cuz!”

“If you are against me, I ought to distrust myself, and yet—But it is absolutely impossible to let Tom go on in this way, riding about the country in quest of anybody who can be persuaded to act—no matter whom: the look of a gentleman is to be enough. I thought you would have entered more into Miss Crawford’s feelings.”

“If you’re against me, I should probably question myself, and yet—But it’s definitely impossible to let Tom continue like this, riding around the countryside looking for anyone who can be convinced to act—regardless of who it is: just looking like a gentleman should be enough. I thought you would have understood Miss Crawford’s feelings more.”

“No doubt she will be very glad. It must be a great relief to her,” said Fanny, trying for greater warmth of manner.

“No doubt she will be really happy. It must be a huge relief for her,” said Fanny, trying to be friendlier.

“She never appeared more amiable than in her behaviour to you last night. It gave her a very strong claim on my goodwill.”

“She never seemed more friendly than how she acted toward you last night. It really earned her a lot of my goodwill.”

“She was very kind, indeed, and I am glad to have her spared”...

“She was very kind, and I’m glad she was spared.”

She could not finish the generous effusion. Her conscience stopt her in the middle, but Edmund was satisfied.

She couldn't complete the heartfelt outpouring. Her conscience stopped her halfway, but Edmund was content.

“I shall walk down immediately after breakfast,” said he, “and am sure of giving pleasure there. And now, dear Fanny, I will not interrupt you any longer. You want to be reading. But I could not be easy till I had spoken to you, and come to a decision. Sleeping or waking, my head has been full of this matter all night. It is an evil, but I am certainly making it less than it might be. If Tom is up, I shall go to him directly and get it over, and when we meet at breakfast we shall be all in high good-humour at the prospect of acting the fool together with such unanimity. You, in the meanwhile, will be taking a trip into China, I suppose. How does Lord Macartney go on?”—opening a volume on the table and then taking up some others. “And here are Crabbe’s Tales, and the Idler, at hand to relieve you, if you tire of your great book. I admire your little establishment exceedingly; and as soon as I am gone, you will empty your head of all this nonsense of acting, and sit comfortably down to your table. But do not stay here to be cold.”

“I’ll head down right after breakfast,” he said, “and I’m sure it’ll be enjoyable. Now, dear Fanny, I won’t keep you any longer. You want to read. But I couldn’t relax until I had talked to you and made a decision. My mind has been on this all night, whether I was asleep or awake. It’s a tricky situation, but I’m definitely making it less complicated than it could be. If Tom’s up, I’ll go talk to him right away and get it over with, and when we meet at breakfast, we’ll all be in a good mood, excited to act foolishly together. You, meanwhile, will be heading off on a trip to China, I suppose. How’s Lord Macartney doing?”—he opened a book on the table and picked up a few others. “And here are Crabbe’s Tales, and the Idler, ready for you if you get bored with your big book. I really admire your little setup; and as soon as I’m gone, you’ll clear your head of all this acting nonsense and settle down comfortably at your table. But don’t stay here and get cold.”

He went; but there was no reading, no China, no composure for Fanny. He had told her the most extraordinary, the most inconceivable, the most unwelcome news; and she could think of nothing else. To be acting! After all his objections—objections so just and so public! After all that she had heard him say, and seen him look, and known him to be feeling. Could it be possible? Edmund so inconsistent! Was he not deceiving himself? Was he not wrong? Alas! it was all Miss Crawford’s doing. She had seen her influence in every speech, and was miserable. The doubts and alarms as to her own conduct, which had previously distressed her, and which had all slept while she listened to him, were become of little consequence now. This deeper anxiety swallowed them up. Things should take their course; she cared not how it ended. Her cousins might attack, but could hardly tease her. She was beyond their reach; and if at last obliged to yield—no matter—it was all misery now.

He left, but Fanny couldn’t focus on reading, China, or anything calm. He had shared with her the most shocking, unbelievable, and unwelcome news, and she couldn't think about anything else. Acting? After all his objections—so valid and so public! After everything she had heard him say, seen him express, and felt him think. Could this really be happening? Edmund being so inconsistent! Wasn’t he fooling himself? Wasn’t he mistaken? Sadly, it was all Miss Crawford’s fault. She could see her influence in every word, and it made her miserable. The doubts and worries about her own actions that had previously bothered her, which had all faded while she listened to him, seemed trivial now. This deeper anxiety overwhelmed them. Things would unfold as they would; she didn’t care how it all turned out. Her cousins could criticize, but they could hardly bother her. She was out of their reach, and if she eventually had to give in—whatever—it was all just misery now.

CHAPTER XVII

It was, indeed, a triumphant day to Mr. Bertram and Maria. Such a victory over Edmund’s discretion had been beyond their hopes, and was most delightful. There was no longer anything to disturb them in their darling project, and they congratulated each other in private on the jealous weakness to which they attributed the change, with all the glee of feelings gratified in every way. Edmund might still look grave, and say he did not like the scheme in general, and must disapprove the play in particular; their point was gained: he was to act, and he was driven to it by the force of selfish inclinations only. Edmund had descended from that moral elevation which he had maintained before, and they were both as much the better as the happier for the descent.

It was definitely a triumphant day for Mr. Bertram and Maria. Their unexpected victory over Edmund’s judgment exceeded all their hopes and brought them immense joy. There was nothing left to hinder their cherished plan, and they quietly celebrated their perceived jealous weakness that they believed led to this change, feeling fully satisfied in every way. Edmund might still appear serious and claim he didn’t like the overall idea and specifically disapproved of the play; but they had won: he was going to act, driven by his own selfish desires alone. Edmund had stepped down from the moral high ground he had previously held, and both of them were better off and happier for it.

They behaved very well, however, to him on the occasion, betraying no exultation beyond the lines about the corners of the mouth, and seemed to think it as great an escape to be quit of the intrusion of Charles Maddox, as if they had been forced into admitting him against their inclination. “To have it quite in their own family circle was what they had particularly wished. A stranger among them would have been the destruction of all their comfort”; and when Edmund, pursuing that idea, gave a hint of his hope as to the limitation of the audience, they were ready, in the complaisance of the moment, to promise anything. It was all good-humour and encouragement. Mrs. Norris offered to contrive his dress, Mr. Yates assured him that Anhalt’s last scene with the Baron admitted a good deal of action and emphasis, and Mr. Rushworth undertook to count his speeches.

They acted very well towards him on this occasion, showing no excitement except for a slight smile, and seemed to feel it was a huge relief to be rid of Charles Maddox, as if they had been forced to include him against their will. “Having it entirely within their own family was exactly what they wanted. A stranger among them would have ruined all their comfort”; and when Edmund, following that thought, hinted at his hope to limit the audience, they were quick, in their good-natured moment, to promise anything. It was all good vibes and support. Mrs. Norris offered to help with his outfit, Mr. Yates assured him that Anhalt’s last scene with the Baron had a lot of action and emphasis, and Mr. Rushworth took on the task of counting his lines.

“Perhaps,” said Tom, “Fanny may be more disposed to oblige us now. Perhaps you may persuade her.”

"Maybe," Tom said, "Fanny might be more willing to help us now. Maybe you can convince her."

“No, she is quite determined. She certainly will not act.”

“No, she is really determined. She absolutely will not take action.”

“Oh! very well.” And not another word was said; but Fanny felt herself again in danger, and her indifference to the danger was beginning to fail her already.

“Oh! fine.” And not another word was said; but Fanny felt herself in danger again, and her indifference to the danger was starting to fade already.

There were not fewer smiles at the Parsonage than at the Park on this change in Edmund; Miss Crawford looked very lovely in hers, and entered with such an instantaneous renewal of cheerfulness into the whole affair as could have but one effect on him. “He was certainly right in respecting such feelings; he was glad he had determined on it.” And the morning wore away in satisfactions very sweet, if not very sound. One advantage resulted from it to Fanny: at the earnest request of Miss Crawford, Mrs. Grant had, with her usual good-humour, agreed to undertake the part for which Fanny had been wanted; and this was all that occurred to gladden her heart during the day; and even this, when imparted by Edmund, brought a pang with it, for it was Miss Crawford to whom she was obliged—it was Miss Crawford whose kind exertions were to excite her gratitude, and whose merit in making them was spoken of with a glow of admiration. She was safe; but peace and safety were unconnected here. Her mind had been never farther from peace. She could not feel that she had done wrong herself, but she was disquieted in every other way. Her heart and her judgment were equally against Edmund’s decision: she could not acquit his unsteadiness, and his happiness under it made her wretched. She was full of jealousy and agitation. Miss Crawford came with looks of gaiety which seemed an insult, with friendly expressions towards herself which she could hardly answer calmly. Everybody around her was gay and busy, prosperous and important; each had their object of interest, their part, their dress, their favourite scene, their friends and confederates: all were finding employment in consultations and comparisons, or diversion in the playful conceits they suggested. She alone was sad and insignificant: she had no share in anything; she might go or stay; she might be in the midst of their noise, or retreat from it to the solitude of the East room, without being seen or missed. She could almost think anything would have been preferable to this. Mrs. Grant was of consequence: her good-nature had honourable mention; her taste and her time were considered; her presence was wanted; she was sought for, and attended, and praised; and Fanny was at first in some danger of envying her the character she had accepted. But reflection brought better feelings, and shewed her that Mrs. Grant was entitled to respect, which could never have belonged to her; and that, had she received even the greatest, she could never have been easy in joining a scheme which, considering only her uncle, she must condemn altogether.

There were just as many smiles at the Parsonage as there were at the Park with this change in Edmund; Miss Crawford looked stunning, and her renewed cheerfulness instantly lifted the mood of the whole situation, which could only have one effect on him. “He was definitely right to value such feelings; he was glad he made that decision.” The morning passed with sweet, although somewhat shallow, satisfactions. One positive outcome for Fanny was that, at Miss Crawford's earnest request, Mrs. Grant happily agreed to take on the role that Fanny had been needed for; and this was the only thing that brought joy to her heart throughout the day. However, even this news from Edmund stung, because it was Miss Crawford to whom she was indebted—it was Miss Crawford whose kind efforts stirred her gratitude and whose merits were discussed with admiration. She felt safe; but peace and safety were not related here. Her mind had never been further from peace. She didn’t feel she had done anything wrong, but she was troubled in every other way. Her heart and judgment were both against Edmund’s choice: she couldn’t justify his inconsistency, and his happiness despite it made her miserable. She was filled with jealousy and agitation. Miss Crawford arrived, her cheerful demeanor feeling like an insult, and offered friendly words to Fanny that she could barely respond to calmly. Everyone around her was cheerful and active, accomplished and important; each person had their own interests, roles, outfits, favorite spots, friends, and partners in crime: all were engaged in discussions and comparisons, or found joy in the playful ideas they shared. She was the only one who felt sad and insignificant: she had no part in anything; she could leave or stay; she could join in their noise or retreat to the solitude of the East room without anyone noticing or missing her. She could almost think that anything would have been better than this. Mrs. Grant mattered: her good nature was praised; her taste and time were valued; her presence was desired; she was sought out, attended to, and commended; and initially, Fanny was at risk of envying her for the role she had taken on. But reflection brought better feelings and showed her that Mrs. Grant deserved respect that could never have belong to her; and that even if she had received even the highest praise, she could never have comfortably joined a plan that, if only considering her uncle, she completely condemned.

Fanny’s heart was not absolutely the only saddened one amongst them, as she soon began to acknowledge to herself. Julia was a sufferer too, though not quite so blamelessly.

Fanny’s heart wasn't the only one feeling sad among them, as she soon started to realize. Julia was hurting as well, though not quite as innocently.

Henry Crawford had trifled with her feelings; but she had very long allowed and even sought his attentions, with a jealousy of her sister so reasonable as ought to have been their cure; and now that the conviction of his preference for Maria had been forced on her, she submitted to it without any alarm for Maria’s situation, or any endeavour at rational tranquillity for herself. She either sat in gloomy silence, wrapt in such gravity as nothing could subdue, no curiosity touch, no wit amuse; or allowing the attentions of Mr. Yates, was talking with forced gaiety to him alone, and ridiculing the acting of the others.

Henry Crawford had played with her feelings; but she had long allowed and even encouraged his attention, with a jealousy of her sister that was so reasonable it should have cured her. Now that she was forced to realize his preference for Maria, she accepted it without worrying about Maria’s situation or trying to find any sense of calm for herself. She either sat in gloomy silence, wrapped in a seriousness that nothing could break, no curiosity could touch, and no humor could distract her; or, when she allowed Mr. Yates to pay attention to her, she engaged in forced cheerful conversation with him alone, mocking the performances of the others.

For a day or two after the affront was given, Henry Crawford had endeavoured to do it away by the usual attack of gallantry and compliment, but he had not cared enough about it to persevere against a few repulses; and becoming soon too busy with his play to have time for more than one flirtation, he grew indifferent to the quarrel, or rather thought it a lucky occurrence, as quietly putting an end to what might ere long have raised expectations in more than Mrs. Grant. She was not pleased to see Julia excluded from the play, and sitting by disregarded; but as it was not a matter which really involved her happiness, as Henry must be the best judge of his own, and as he did assure her, with a most persuasive smile, that neither he nor Julia had ever had a serious thought of each other, she could only renew her former caution as to the elder sister, entreat him not to risk his tranquillity by too much admiration there, and then gladly take her share in anything that brought cheerfulness to the young people in general, and that did so particularly promote the pleasure of the two so dear to her.

For a day or two after the insult was given, Henry Crawford tried to smooth things over with the usual flattery and compliments, but he didn’t care enough to keep trying after a few setbacks. Soon, he got too caught up in his play to spare time for more than one flirtation, and he became indifferent to the argument, even considering it a fortunate turn of events since it quietly ended what could have raised expectations for more than just Mrs. Grant. She wasn't happy to see Julia left out of the play and sitting by, ignored; but since it wasn’t something that really affected her happiness, and since Henry reassured her, with a charming smile, that neither he nor Julia had ever taken each other seriously, she could only repeat her earlier warnings about the older sister, urging him not to jeopardize his peace by admiring her too much. Then, she eagerly took part in anything that brought joy to the young people in general, especially to the two she cherished most.

“I rather wonder Julia is not in love with Henry,” was her observation to Mary.

“I find it a bit surprising that Julia isn’t in love with Henry,” she said to Mary.

“I dare say she is,” replied Mary coldly. “I imagine both sisters are.”

“I guess she is,” replied Mary coldly. “I assume both sisters are.”

“Both! no, no, that must not be. Do not give him a hint of it. Think of Mr. Rushworth!”

“Both! No, no, that can’t happen. Don’t give him any hint of it. Think about Mr. Rushworth!”

“You had better tell Miss Bertram to think of Mr. Rushworth. It may do her some good. I often think of Mr. Rushworth’s property and independence, and wish them in other hands; but I never think of him. A man might represent the county with such an estate; a man might escape a profession and represent the county.”

“You should really tell Miss Bertram to consider Mr. Rushworth. It might benefit her. I often think about Mr. Rushworth’s wealth and independence, and wish they were in different hands; but I never think of him. A man could represent the county with such an estate; a man could avoid a profession and represent the county.”

“I dare say he will be in parliament soon. When Sir Thomas comes, I dare say he will be in for some borough, but there has been nobody to put him in the way of doing anything yet.”

“I’m sure he will be in parliament soon. When Sir Thomas arrives, I bet he’ll be running for some borough, but no one has helped him get there yet.”

“Sir Thomas is to achieve many mighty things when he comes home,” said Mary, after a pause. “Do you remember Hawkins Browne’s ‘Address to Tobacco,’ in imitation of Pope?—

“Sir Thomas is going to accomplish a lot of great things when he gets back home,” said Mary, after a pause. “Do you remember Hawkins Browne’s ‘Address to Tobacco,’ inspired by Pope?—

Blest leaf! whose aromatic gales dispense
To Templars modesty, to Parsons sense.

Blessed leaf! whose fragrant breezes provide
Modesty to Templars, and sense to Parsons.

I will parody them—

I'm going to parody them—

Blest Knight! whose dictatorial looks dispense
To Children affluence, to Rushworth sense.

Blessed Knight! whose commanding gaze offers
To Children wealth, to Rushworth understanding.

Will not that do, Mrs. Grant? Everything seems to depend upon Sir Thomas’s return.”

"Isn't that enough, Mrs. Grant? Everything seems to hinge on Sir Thomas's return."

“You will find his consequence very just and reasonable when you see him in his family, I assure you. I do not think we do so well without him. He has a fine dignified manner, which suits the head of such a house, and keeps everybody in their place. Lady Bertram seems more of a cipher now than when he is at home; and nobody else can keep Mrs. Norris in order. But, Mary, do not fancy that Maria Bertram cares for Henry. I am sure Julia does not, or she would not have flirted as she did last night with Mr. Yates; and though he and Maria are very good friends, I think she likes Sotherton too well to be inconstant.”

"You'll find his influence quite fair and reasonable when you see him with his family, I promise you. I really don’t think we manage well without him. He has a dignified presence that fits the head of such a household and keeps everyone in line. Lady Bertram seems even more irrelevant now than when he’s at home, and no one else can keep Mrs. Norris in check. But, Mary, don’t think for a second that Maria Bertram is interested in Henry. I’m sure Julia isn’t either, or she wouldn’t have flirted with Mr. Yates like she did last night; and even though he and Maria are good friends, I believe she likes Sotherton too much to be unfaithful."

“I would not give much for Mr. Rushworth’s chance if Henry stept in before the articles were signed.”

“I wouldn't think much of Mr. Rushworth’s chances if Henry stepped in before the contracts were signed.”

“If you have such a suspicion, something must be done; and as soon as the play is all over, we will talk to him seriously and make him know his own mind; and if he means nothing, we will send him off, though he is Henry, for a time.”

“If you think that’s the case, we need to take action; and as soon as the play is over, we’ll have a serious talk with him and help him figure things out; if he’s just messing around, we’ll send him away, even though he’s Henry, for a while.”

Julia did suffer, however, though Mrs. Grant discerned it not, and though it escaped the notice of many of her own family likewise. She had loved, she did love still, and she had all the suffering which a warm temper and a high spirit were likely to endure under the disappointment of a dear, though irrational hope, with a strong sense of ill-usage. Her heart was sore and angry, and she was capable only of angry consolations. The sister with whom she was used to be on easy terms was now become her greatest enemy: they were alienated from each other; and Julia was not superior to the hope of some distressing end to the attentions which were still carrying on there, some punishment to Maria for conduct so shameful towards herself as well as towards Mr. Rushworth. With no material fault of temper, or difference of opinion, to prevent their being very good friends while their interests were the same, the sisters, under such a trial as this, had not affection or principle enough to make them merciful or just, to give them honour or compassion. Maria felt her triumph, and pursued her purpose, careless of Julia; and Julia could never see Maria distinguished by Henry Crawford without trusting that it would create jealousy, and bring a public disturbance at last.

Julia did suffer, even though Mrs. Grant didn’t notice it, and many of her own family members missed it too. She had loved, still loved, and felt all the pain that a passionate spirit and strong pride could endure from the disappointment of a cherished, yet unrealistic hope, along with a deep sense of being wronged. Her heart was hurt and angry, and she could only find solace in her anger. The sister she used to get along with easily had now become her greatest enemy: they were estranged from each other; and Julia still held onto the hope that there would be some kind of distressing outcome to the attention Maria was receiving, some kind of punishment for her shameful behavior towards both Julia and Mr. Rushworth. With no real fault of temperament or difference in opinion to stop them from being good friends while they shared the same interests, the sisters, facing such a trial, lacked the affection or principles to be merciful or fair, or to show honor or compassion. Maria reveled in her triumph and continued her pursuit, indifferent to Julia; and Julia could never see Maria being acknowledged by Henry Crawford without hoping it would spark jealousy and cause a public uproar in the end.

Fanny saw and pitied much of this in Julia; but there was no outward fellowship between them. Julia made no communication, and Fanny took no liberties. They were two solitary sufferers, or connected only by Fanny’s consciousness.

Fanny noticed a lot of this in Julia and felt sorry for her; however, there was no visible bond between them. Julia didn’t share anything, and Fanny didn’t overstep. They were two lonely individuals, connected only by Fanny's awareness.

The inattention of the two brothers and the aunt to Julia’s discomposure, and their blindness to its true cause, must be imputed to the fullness of their own minds. They were totally preoccupied. Tom was engrossed by the concerns of his theatre, and saw nothing that did not immediately relate to it. Edmund, between his theatrical and his real part, between Miss Crawford’s claims and his own conduct, between love and consistency, was equally unobservant; and Mrs. Norris was too busy in contriving and directing the general little matters of the company, superintending their various dresses with economical expedient, for which nobody thanked her, and saving, with delighted integrity, half a crown here and there to the absent Sir Thomas, to have leisure for watching the behaviour, or guarding the happiness of his daughters.

The two brothers and their aunt were so wrapped up in their own issues that they completely overlooked Julia’s distress and its true cause. They were entirely focused on their own preoccupations. Tom was fixated on his theater matters and noticed nothing that didn't directly relate to that. Edmund, caught between his theatrical role and real life, Miss Crawford’s expectations and his own actions, and the struggle between love and integrity, was just as oblivious. Meanwhile, Mrs. Norris was too busy managing the small details of the group, overseeing their outfits with her frugal plans—which no one appreciated—and happily saving a few coins here and there for the absent Sir Thomas, to pay attention to how his daughters were behaving or ensure their happiness.

CHAPTER XVIII

Everything was now in a regular train: theatre, actors, actresses, and dresses, were all getting forward; but though no other great impediments arose, Fanny found, before many days were past, that it was not all uninterrupted enjoyment to the party themselves, and that she had not to witness the continuance of such unanimity and delight as had been almost too much for her at first. Everybody began to have their vexation. Edmund had many. Entirely against his judgment, a scene-painter arrived from town, and was at work, much to the increase of the expenses, and, what was worse, of the eclat of their proceedings; and his brother, instead of being really guided by him as to the privacy of the representation, was giving an invitation to every family who came in his way. Tom himself began to fret over the scene-painter’s slow progress, and to feel the miseries of waiting. He had learned his part—all his parts, for he took every trifling one that could be united with the Butler, and began to be impatient to be acting; and every day thus unemployed was tending to increase his sense of the insignificance of all his parts together, and make him more ready to regret that some other play had not been chosen.

Everything was now moving along smoothly: the theater, the actors, the actresses, and the costumes were all making progress. However, after a few days, Fanny realized that it wasn't all seamless enjoyment for the group, and she wouldn't see the same harmony and excitement as she initially had. Everyone began to experience their own frustrations. Edmund had many. Completely against his better judgment, a scene-painter arrived from the city and started working, which only drove up their costs and, worse, the attention their production was receiving. Instead of really following his guidance on keeping the performance private, his brother was inviting every family that crossed his path. Tom himself started to stress over the scene-painter’s slow progress and felt the agony of waiting. He had learned his part—actually, all his parts, since he took on every small role that went along with the butler—and was growing impatient to perform. Each day spent without acting made him feel more and more that all his roles were insignificant, leading him to regret that they hadn't chosen a different play.

Fanny, being always a very courteous listener, and often the only listener at hand, came in for the complaints and the distresses of most of them. She knew that Mr. Yates was in general thought to rant dreadfully; that Mr. Yates was disappointed in Henry Crawford; that Tom Bertram spoke so quick he would be unintelligible; that Mrs. Grant spoiled everything by laughing; that Edmund was behindhand with his part, and that it was misery to have anything to do with Mr. Rushworth, who was wanting a prompter through every speech. She knew, also, that poor Mr. Rushworth could seldom get anybody to rehearse with him: his complaint came before her as well as the rest; and so decided to her eye was her cousin Maria’s avoidance of him, and so needlessly often the rehearsal of the first scene between her and Mr. Crawford, that she had soon all the terror of other complaints from him. So far from being all satisfied and all enjoying, she found everybody requiring something they had not, and giving occasion of discontent to the others. Everybody had a part either too long or too short; nobody would attend as they ought; nobody would remember on which side they were to come in; nobody but the complainer would observe any directions.

Fanny, always a very polite listener and often the only one around, ended up hearing the complaints and troubles of most of them. She knew that Mr. Yates was generally seen as someone who rambled on, that Mr. Yates was let down by Henry Crawford, that Tom Bertram spoke so quickly he was hard to understand, that Mrs. Grant ruined everything by laughing, that Edmund was behind on his part, and that it was a nightmare to deal with Mr. Rushworth, who needed a prompter for every line. She also knew that poor Mr. Rushworth rarely had anyone to rehearse with him: his complaints came to her just like the others, and she could clearly see how her cousin Maria avoided him, and how unnecessarily often the first scene between her and Mr. Crawford was rehearsed, which made her dread his complaints even more. Instead of everyone being happy and enjoying themselves, she found that everyone wanted something they didn’t have, causing frustration for others. Everyone had parts that were either too long or too short; no one would pay attention as they should; nobody remembered when they were supposed to come in; and only the complainer seemed to follow any directions.

Fanny believed herself to derive as much innocent enjoyment from the play as any of them; Henry Crawford acted well, and it was a pleasure to her to creep into the theatre, and attend the rehearsal of the first act, in spite of the feelings it excited in some speeches for Maria. Maria, she also thought, acted well, too well; and after the first rehearsal or two, Fanny began to be their only audience; and sometimes as prompter, sometimes as spectator, was often very useful. As far as she could judge, Mr. Crawford was considerably the best actor of all: he had more confidence than Edmund, more judgment than Tom, more talent and taste than Mr. Yates. She did not like him as a man, but she must admit him to be the best actor, and on this point there were not many who differed from her. Mr. Yates, indeed, exclaimed against his tameness and insipidity; and the day came at last, when Mr. Rushworth turned to her with a black look, and said, “Do you think there is anything so very fine in all this? For the life and soul of me, I cannot admire him; and, between ourselves, to see such an undersized, little, mean-looking man, set up for a fine actor, is very ridiculous in my opinion.”

Fanny thought she enjoyed the play just as much as anyone else; Henry Crawford was a good actor, and she found it delightful to sneak into the theater and watch the rehearsal of the first act, even though some of Maria's lines stirred up feelings in her. She also believed Maria acted well—too well, in fact. After the first couple of rehearsals, Fanny became their only audience; sometimes she acted as the prompter and sometimes just as a spectator, which proved to be quite helpful. From what she could tell, Mr. Crawford was definitely the best actor of the bunch: he had more confidence than Edmund, more judgment than Tom, and more talent and taste than Mr. Yates. She didn’t like him as a person, but she had to admit he was the best performer, and not many disagreed with her on that. Mr. Yates, however, complained about his lack of energy and dullness; eventually, there came a day when Mr. Rushworth turned to her with a scowl and said, “Do you think there’s anything really impressive about all this? Honestly, I can’t admire him at all. Between you and me, seeing such a small, unimposing man trying to be a great actor is just ridiculous, in my opinion.”

From this moment there was a return of his former jealousy, which Maria, from increasing hopes of Crawford, was at little pains to remove; and the chances of Mr. Rushworth’s ever attaining to the knowledge of his two-and-forty speeches became much less. As to his ever making anything tolerable of them, nobody had the smallest idea of that except his mother; she, indeed, regretted that his part was not more considerable, and deferred coming over to Mansfield till they were forward enough in their rehearsal to comprehend all his scenes; but the others aspired at nothing beyond his remembering the catchword, and the first line of his speech, and being able to follow the prompter through the rest. Fanny, in her pity and kindheartedness, was at great pains to teach him how to learn, giving him all the helps and directions in her power, trying to make an artificial memory for him, and learning every word of his part herself, but without his being much the forwarder.

From this moment on, his old jealousy returned, which Maria, buoyed by her growing hopes about Crawford, was little inclined to address; and the chances of Mr. Rushworth ever mastering his two-and-forty speeches dropped significantly. As for him ever making anything tolerable of them, no one thought it possible except for his mother; she actually wished that his role was bigger and postponed coming to Mansfield until they were far enough along in their rehearsals to understand all his scenes. The others aimed for nothing more than for him to remember the cue and the first line of his speech, and to be able to follow the prompter for the rest. Fanny, out of her compassion and kindness, worked hard to teach him how to learn, giving him all the support and guidance she could, trying to create an artificial memory for him, and memorizing every word of his part herself, but he still didn’t make much progress.

Many uncomfortable, anxious, apprehensive feelings she certainly had; but with all these, and other claims on her time and attention, she was as far from finding herself without employment or utility amongst them, as without a companion in uneasiness; quite as far from having no demand on her leisure as on her compassion. The gloom of her first anticipations was proved to have been unfounded. She was occasionally useful to all; she was perhaps as much at peace as any.

She definitely had a lot of uncomfortable, anxious feelings; but despite all this, and other demands on her time and attention, she was just as busy and useful as ever and not at all alone in her discomfort. She had just as much request on her free time as she did on her compassion. The worries she had at first turned out to be unfounded. She was sometimes helpful to everyone, and she was probably as at peace as anyone else.

There was a great deal of needlework to be done, moreover, in which her help was wanted; and that Mrs. Norris thought her quite as well off as the rest, was evident by the manner in which she claimed it—“Come, Fanny,” she cried, “these are fine times for you, but you must not be always walking from one room to the other, and doing the lookings-on at your ease, in this way; I want you here. I have been slaving myself till I can hardly stand, to contrive Mr. Rushworth’s cloak without sending for any more satin; and now I think you may give me your help in putting it together. There are but three seams; you may do them in a trice. It would be lucky for me if I had nothing but the executive part to do. You are best off, I can tell you: but if nobody did more than you, we should not get on very fast.”

There was a lot of needlework to get done, and they really needed her help. It was clear that Mrs. Norris thought Fanny was just as capable as everyone else, judging by how she demanded her assistance—“Come on, Fanny,” she exclaimed, “these are good times for you, but you can't just keep wandering from one room to another and lounging around. I need you here. I've been working myself to the bone to arrange Mr. Rushworth’s cloak without ordering more satin, and now I think you can help me put it together. There are only three seams; you can finish those in no time. I would be lucky if I only had the easy part to do. You have it easy, let me tell you: but if everyone worked as little as you do, we wouldn't get very far.”

Fanny took the work very quietly, without attempting any defence; but her kinder aunt Bertram observed on her behalf—

Fanny accepted the work calmly, without trying to defend herself; however, her caring aunt Bertram spoke up for her—

“One cannot wonder, sister, that Fanny should be delighted: it is all new to her, you know; you and I used to be very fond of a play ourselves, and so am I still; and as soon as I am a little more at leisure, I mean to look in at their rehearsals too. What is the play about, Fanny? you have never told me.”

“One can't blame you, sister, for thinking Fanny is excited: it’s all new to her, you know; you and I used to really enjoy a play ourselves, and I still do; and as soon as I have a bit more free time, I’m planning to check out their rehearsals too. What’s the play about, Fanny? You’ve never mentioned it.”

“Oh! sister, pray do not ask her now; for Fanny is not one of those who can talk and work at the same time. It is about Lovers’ Vows.”

“Oh! sister, please don’t ask her now; Fanny isn’t someone who can talk and work at the same time. It’s about Lovers’ Vows.”

“I believe,” said Fanny to her aunt Bertram, “there will be three acts rehearsed to-morrow evening, and that will give you an opportunity of seeing all the actors at once.”

“I think,” Fanny said to her aunt Bertram, “there will be three acts rehearsed tomorrow evening, and that will give you a chance to see all the actors at once.”

“You had better stay till the curtain is hung,” interposed Mrs. Norris; “the curtain will be hung in a day or two—there is very little sense in a play without a curtain—and I am much mistaken if you do not find it draw up into very handsome festoons.”

“You should really stay until the curtain is up,” Mrs. Norris interrupted; “the curtain will be up in a day or two—there’s not much point in a play without a curtain—and I wouldn’t be surprised if you see it pulled up into really nice drapes.”

Lady Bertram seemed quite resigned to waiting. Fanny did not share her aunt’s composure: she thought of the morrow a great deal, for if the three acts were rehearsed, Edmund and Miss Crawford would then be acting together for the first time; the third act would bring a scene between them which interested her most particularly, and which she was longing and dreading to see how they would perform. The whole subject of it was love—a marriage of love was to be described by the gentleman, and very little short of a declaration of love be made by the lady.

Lady Bertram seemed pretty okay with waiting. Fanny didn’t share her aunt’s calmness; she thought a lot about the next day, because if they practiced all three acts, Edmund and Miss Crawford would be performing together for the first time. The third act would feature a scene between them that particularly interested her, and she was both excited and anxious to see how they would play it out. The whole topic was love—a marriage based on love was to be described by the man, and the woman would come very close to making a declaration of love.

She had read and read the scene again with many painful, many wondering emotions, and looked forward to their representation of it as a circumstance almost too interesting. She did not believe they had yet rehearsed it, even in private.

She had read and reread the scene with a mix of painful and curious emotions, and anticipated their performance of it as something almost too intriguing. She didn't think they had rehearsed it yet, even privately.

The morrow came, the plan for the evening continued, and Fanny’s consideration of it did not become less agitated. She worked very diligently under her aunt’s directions, but her diligence and her silence concealed a very absent, anxious mind; and about noon she made her escape with her work to the East room, that she might have no concern in another, and, as she deemed it, most unnecessary rehearsal of the first act, which Henry Crawford was just proposing, desirous at once of having her time to herself, and of avoiding the sight of Mr. Rushworth. A glimpse, as she passed through the hall, of the two ladies walking up from the Parsonage made no change in her wish of retreat, and she worked and meditated in the East room, undisturbed, for a quarter of an hour, when a gentle tap at the door was followed by the entrance of Miss Crawford.

The next day came, the plan for the evening was still on, and Fanny’s thoughts about it were still frazzled. She worked hard under her aunt’s instructions, but her effort and silence hid a restless, anxious mind. Around noon, she managed to slip away with her work to the East room so she wouldn’t have to deal with another, what she considered an unnecessary rehearsal of the first act, which Henry Crawford was eager to propose. She wanted some time to herself and to avoid seeing Mr. Rushworth. A quick glimpse of the two ladies walking up from the Parsonage as she passed through the hall didn’t change her desire to escape, and she worked and contemplated in the East room, undisturbed, for about fifteen minutes, when a gentle knock at the door was followed by Miss Crawford coming in.

“Am I right? Yes; this is the East room. My dear Miss Price, I beg your pardon, but I have made my way to you on purpose to entreat your help.”

“Am I correct? Yes, this is the East room. My dear Miss Price, I apologize, but I’ve come to you specifically to ask for your help.”

Fanny, quite surprised, endeavoured to shew herself mistress of the room by her civilities, and looked at the bright bars of her empty grate with concern.

Fanny, feeling quite surprised, tried to take control of the room with her politeness and gazed at the shiny bars of her empty fireplace with worry.

“Thank you; I am quite warm, very warm. Allow me to stay here a little while, and do have the goodness to hear me my third act. I have brought my book, and if you would but rehearse it with me, I should be so obliged! I came here to-day intending to rehearse it with Edmund—by ourselves—against the evening, but he is not in the way; and if he were, I do not think I could go through it with him, till I have hardened myself a little; for really there is a speech or two. You will be so good, won’t you?”

“Thank you; I'm feeling pretty warm, really warm. Can I stay here for a bit and would you mind listening to my third act? I brought my book, and if you could just practice it with me, I'd be so grateful! I came here today planning to rehearse it with Edmund—just the two of us—before tonight, but he’s not available; and even if he were, I don’t think I could go through it with him until I’ve gotten a bit tougher; because honestly, there are a line or two that are tricky. You’ll help me, won’t you?”

Fanny was most civil in her assurances, though she could not give them in a very steady voice.

Fanny was very polite in her reassurances, although she couldn't say them very steadily.

“Have you ever happened to look at the part I mean?” continued Miss Crawford, opening her book. “Here it is. I did not think much of it at first—but, upon my word. There, look at that speech, and that, and that. How am I ever to look him in the face and say such things? Could you do it? But then he is your cousin, which makes all the difference. You must rehearse it with me, that I may fancy you him, and get on by degrees. You have a look of his sometimes.”

“Have you ever taken a look at the part I’m talking about?” Miss Crawford asked, opening her book. “Here it is. I didn’t think much of it at first—but honestly. Look at that speech, and that, and that. How am I supposed to look him in the face and say those things? Could you do it? But then he’s your cousin, which changes everything. You have to rehearse it with me, so I can imagine you as him and get through it little by little. You do have a look of his sometimes.”

“Have I? I will do my best with the greatest readiness; but I must read the part, for I can say very little of it.”

“Have I? I’ll do my best with complete willingness; but I have to read the part, because I can’t say much about it.”

None of it, I suppose. You are to have the book, of course. Now for it. We must have two chairs at hand for you to bring forward to the front of the stage. There—very good school-room chairs, not made for a theatre, I dare say; much more fitted for little girls to sit and kick their feet against when they are learning a lesson. What would your governess and your uncle say to see them used for such a purpose? Could Sir Thomas look in upon us just now, he would bless himself, for we are rehearsing all over the house. Yates is storming away in the dining-room. I heard him as I came upstairs, and the theatre is engaged of course by those indefatigable rehearsers, Agatha and Frederick. If they are not perfect, I shall be surprised. By the bye, I looked in upon them five minutes ago, and it happened to be exactly at one of the times when they were trying not to embrace, and Mr. Rushworth was with me. I thought he began to look a little queer, so I turned it off as well as I could, by whispering to him, ‘We shall have an excellent Agatha; there is something so maternal in her manner, so completely maternal in her voice and countenance.’ Was not that well done of me? He brightened up directly. Now for my soliloquy.”

None of it, I guess. You’re definitely getting the book. Now, let’s figure this out. We need to have two chairs ready for you to bring to the front of the stage. There—really good classroom chairs, probably not made for a theater, I'd say; much more suited for little girls to sit on and kick their feet when they’re learning a lesson. What would your governess and your uncle think if they saw those chairs being used like this? If Sir Thomas were to walk in on us right now, he would be shocked, because we’re rehearsing all over the house. Yates is making a scene in the dining room. I heard him as I came upstairs, and the theater is, of course, occupied by those tireless rehearsers, Agatha and Frederick. If they aren’t perfect, I will be surprised. By the way, I popped in on them five minutes ago, and it just happened to be the perfect moment when they were trying not to hug, and Mr. Rushworth was with me. I thought he started looking a bit uncomfortable, so I tried to change the subject by whispering to him, ‘We’re going to have an amazing Agatha; there’s something so motherly in her manner, so completely motherly in her voice and face.’ Wasn’t that a good move on my part? He perked up right away. Now, time for my soliloquy.

She began, and Fanny joined in with all the modest feeling which the idea of representing Edmund was so strongly calculated to inspire; but with looks and voice so truly feminine as to be no very good picture of a man. With such an Anhalt, however, Miss Crawford had courage enough; and they had got through half the scene, when a tap at the door brought a pause, and the entrance of Edmund, the next moment, suspended it all.

She started, and Fanny joined in with all the modesty that the thought of portraying Edmund was sure to inspire; but with looks and a voice so distinctly feminine that they didn't really look like a man at all. However, with such a partner, Miss Crawford felt bold enough; they had made it through half the scene when a knock at the door interrupted them, and Edmund's entrance a moment later halted everything completely.

Surprise, consciousness, and pleasure appeared in each of the three on this unexpected meeting; and as Edmund was come on the very same business that had brought Miss Crawford, consciousness and pleasure were likely to be more than momentary in them. He too had his book, and was seeking Fanny, to ask her to rehearse with him, and help him to prepare for the evening, without knowing Miss Crawford to be in the house; and great was the joy and animation of being thus thrown together, of comparing schemes, and sympathising in praise of Fanny’s kind offices.

Surprise, awareness, and joy were felt by each of them during this unexpected meeting; and since Edmund was there for the same reason as Miss Crawford, their awareness and joy were likely to last longer than just a moment. He also had his book and was looking for Fanny to ask her to practice with him and help him get ready for the evening, completely unaware that Miss Crawford was in the house; and there was great happiness and excitement in being together, comparing plans, and sharing appreciation for Fanny’s helpfulness.

She could not equal them in their warmth. Her spirits sank under the glow of theirs, and she felt herself becoming too nearly nothing to both to have any comfort in having been sought by either. They must now rehearse together. Edmund proposed, urged, entreated it, till the lady, not very unwilling at first, could refuse no longer, and Fanny was wanted only to prompt and observe them. She was invested, indeed, with the office of judge and critic, and earnestly desired to exercise it and tell them all their faults; but from doing so every feeling within her shrank—she could not, would not, dared not attempt it: had she been otherwise qualified for criticism, her conscience must have restrained her from venturing at disapprobation. She believed herself to feel too much of it in the aggregate for honesty or safety in particulars. To prompt them must be enough for her; and it was sometimes more than enough; for she could not always pay attention to the book. In watching them she forgot herself; and, agitated by the increasing spirit of Edmund’s manner, had once closed the page and turned away exactly as he wanted help. It was imputed to very reasonable weariness, and she was thanked and pitied; but she deserved their pity more than she hoped they would ever surmise. At last the scene was over, and Fanny forced herself to add her praise to the compliments each was giving the other; and when again alone and able to recall the whole, she was inclined to believe their performance would, indeed, have such nature and feeling in it as must ensure their credit, and make it a very suffering exhibition to herself. Whatever might be its effect, however, she must stand the brunt of it again that very day.

She couldn’t match their warmth. Her spirits felt low in comparison to theirs, and she sensed herself fading into nothingness, leaving her no comfort in having been chosen by either of them. They had to practice together now. Edmund suggested, pushed, and begged until the lady, who had been somewhat willing at first, could refuse no longer, and Fanny was needed just to prompt and observe them. She was indeed given the role of judge and critic and genuinely wanted to fulfill it and point out all their faults; but the thought of doing so made her recoil—she couldn’t, wouldn’t, or didn’t dare attempt it: even if she believed she was capable of criticism, her conscience would have stopped her from expressing disapproval. She felt too much of it overall to be honest or safe with specifics. Just prompting them should be enough for her; and sometimes it was even more than enough; because she couldn’t always focus on the book. While watching them, she lost track of herself; and, caught up in Edmund’s growing enthusiasm, she once turned the page and looked away exactly when he needed help. It was seen as completely understandable fatigue, and they thanked and pitied her; but she deserved their pity more than they would ever guess. Finally, the scene ended, and Fanny forced herself to add her praise to the compliments they were giving each other; and when she was alone again and could reflect on the entire situation, she felt inclined to believe their performance would indeed have the nature and emotion to ensure their success, and it would be quite a painful experience for her. Whatever its impact might be, she had to face it again that very day.

The first regular rehearsal of the three first acts was certainly to take place in the evening: Mrs. Grant and the Crawfords were engaged to return for that purpose as soon as they could after dinner; and every one concerned was looking forward with eagerness. There seemed a general diffusion of cheerfulness on the occasion. Tom was enjoying such an advance towards the end; Edmund was in spirits from the morning’s rehearsal, and little vexations seemed everywhere smoothed away. All were alert and impatient; the ladies moved soon, the gentlemen soon followed them, and with the exception of Lady Bertram, Mrs. Norris, and Julia, everybody was in the theatre at an early hour; and having lighted it up as well as its unfinished state admitted, were waiting only the arrival of Mrs. Grant and the Crawfords to begin.

The first regular rehearsal of the first three acts was definitely set for the evening: Mrs. Grant and the Crawfords were expected to return as soon as they could after dinner, and everyone involved was eagerly looking forward to it. A general sense of cheerfulness spread throughout the group. Tom was excited about making progress toward the end; Edmund was in good spirits from the morning’s rehearsal, and little annoyances seemed to have faded away. Everyone was alert and eager; the ladies moved quickly, and the gentlemen followed soon after, so that except for Lady Bertram, Mrs. Norris, and Julia, everyone was in the theater early. After lighting it up as brightly as its unfinished state allowed, they were just waiting for Mrs. Grant and the Crawfords to start.

They did not wait long for the Crawfords, but there was no Mrs. Grant. She could not come. Dr. Grant, professing an indisposition, for which he had little credit with his fair sister-in-law, could not spare his wife.

They didn’t wait long for the Crawfords, but Mrs. Grant wasn't there. She couldn’t make it. Dr. Grant, claiming to be unwell, which didn’t earn him much trust from his sister-in-law, couldn’t let his wife go.

“Dr. Grant is ill,” said she, with mock solemnity. “He has been ill ever since he did not eat any of the pheasant today. He fancied it tough, sent away his plate, and has been suffering ever since”.

“Dr. Grant is sick,” she said, with a playful seriousness. “He’s been unwell ever since he didn’t eat any of the pheasant today. He thought it was tough, sent his plate back, and has been feeling bad ever since.”

Here was disappointment! Mrs. Grant’s non-attendance was sad indeed. Her pleasant manners and cheerful conformity made her always valuable amongst them; but now she was absolutely necessary. They could not act, they could not rehearse with any satisfaction without her. The comfort of the whole evening was destroyed. What was to be done? Tom, as Cottager, was in despair. After a pause of perplexity, some eyes began to be turned towards Fanny, and a voice or two to say, “If Miss Price would be so good as to read the part.” She was immediately surrounded by supplications; everybody asked it; even Edmund said, “Do, Fanny, if it is not very disagreeable to you.”

Here was disappointment! Mrs. Grant not showing up was truly sad. Her friendly nature and upbeat attitude always made her a valuable part of the group; but now she was absolutely essential. They couldn't perform, they couldn't rehearse with any satisfaction without her. The whole evening's enjoyment was ruined. What could they do? Tom, as the Cottager, was in despair. After a moment of confusion, some people started looking at Fanny, and a few voices said, “If Miss Price would be so kind as to read the part.” She quickly found herself surrounded by requests; everyone asked her; even Edmund said, “Please, Fanny, if it’s not too unpleasant for you.”

But Fanny still hung back. She could not endure the idea of it. Why was not Miss Crawford to be applied to as well? Or why had not she rather gone to her own room, as she had felt to be safest, instead of attending the rehearsal at all? She had known it would irritate and distress her; she had known it her duty to keep away. She was properly punished.

But Fanny still hesitated. She couldn’t stand the thought of it. Why wasn’t Miss Crawford being consulted too? Or why hadn’t she just gone to her own room, which felt like the safest option, instead of going to the rehearsal at all? She had known it would upset and trouble her; she knew it was her duty to stay away. She got what she deserved.

“You have only to read the part,” said Henry Crawford, with renewed entreaty.

“You just have to read that part,” said Henry Crawford, with a fresh plea.

“And I do believe she can say every word of it,” added Maria, “for she could put Mrs. Grant right the other day in twenty places. Fanny, I am sure you know the part.”

“And I really think she can say every word of it,” added Maria, “because she corrected Mrs. Grant the other day in twenty different ways. Fanny, I’m sure you know the part.”

Fanny could not say she did not; and as they all persevered, as Edmund repeated his wish, and with a look of even fond dependence on her good-nature, she must yield. She would do her best. Everybody was satisfied; and she was left to the tremors of a most palpitating heart, while the others prepared to begin.

Fanny couldn't say she didn't want to; and since they all kept pressing her, and Edmund voiced his wish again with an expression of genuine reliance on her kindness, she had to give in. She would try her hardest. Everyone was happy, and she was left with the jitters of a racing heart while the others got ready to start.

They did begin; and being too much engaged in their own noise to be struck by an unusual noise in the other part of the house, had proceeded some way when the door of the room was thrown open, and Julia, appearing at it, with a face all aghast, exclaimed, “My father is come! He is in the hall at this moment.”

They did begin; and so caught up in their own noise that they didn't notice an unusual sound coming from another part of the house, they had moved on some distance when the door of the room was thrown open. Julia appeared at the door, looking shocked, and exclaimed, “My father is here! He’s in the hall right now.”

CHAPTER XIX

How is the consternation of the party to be described? To the greater number it was a moment of absolute horror. Sir Thomas in the house! All felt the instantaneous conviction. Not a hope of imposition or mistake was harboured anywhere. Julia’s looks were an evidence of the fact that made it indisputable; and after the first starts and exclamations, not a word was spoken for half a minute: each with an altered countenance was looking at some other, and almost each was feeling it a stroke the most unwelcome, most ill-timed, most appalling! Mr. Yates might consider it only as a vexatious interruption for the evening, and Mr. Rushworth might imagine it a blessing; but every other heart was sinking under some degree of self-condemnation or undefined alarm, every other heart was suggesting, “What will become of us? what is to be done now?” It was a terrible pause; and terrible to every ear were the corroborating sounds of opening doors and passing footsteps.

How can we describe the party's shock? For most, it was a moment of pure dread. Sir Thomas in the house! Everyone felt an immediate certainty. There was no hope for a misunderstanding or mistake anywhere. Julia's expression showed the undeniable truth, and after the initial gasps and exclamations, not a word was spoken for half a minute: each person, with a changed expression, looked at one another, and almost everyone felt it was the most unwelcome, ill-timed, and shocking news! Mr. Yates might see it as just a bothersome interruption for the evening, and Mr. Rushworth might think of it as a blessing; but everyone else's heart was sinking under some level of self-blame or vague fear, with each heart wondering, "What will happen to us? What do we do now?" It was a dreadful silence, and the sounds of opening doors and footsteps were terrifying to every ear.

Julia was the first to move and speak again. Jealousy and bitterness had been suspended: selfishness was lost in the common cause; but at the moment of her appearance, Frederick was listening with looks of devotion to Agatha’s narrative, and pressing her hand to his heart; and as soon as she could notice this, and see that, in spite of the shock of her words, he still kept his station and retained her sister’s hand, her wounded heart swelled again with injury, and looking as red as she had been white before, she turned out of the room, saying, “I need not be afraid of appearing before him.”

Julia was the first to move and speak again. Jealousy and bitterness had been put on hold; selfishness was lost in the shared purpose. But when she walked in, Frederick was gazing at Agatha with admiration as he held her hand close to his heart. As soon as Julia noticed this and saw that, despite the shock of her words, he still stayed put and held onto her sister’s hand, her hurt feelings flared up again. Turning as red as she had been pale before, she left the room, saying, “I don’t need to be afraid of facing him.”

Her going roused the rest; and at the same moment the two brothers stepped forward, feeling the necessity of doing something. A very few words between them were sufficient. The case admitted no difference of opinion: they must go to the drawing-room directly. Maria joined them with the same intent, just then the stoutest of the three; for the very circumstance which had driven Julia away was to her the sweetest support. Henry Crawford’s retaining her hand at such a moment, a moment of such peculiar proof and importance, was worth ages of doubt and anxiety. She hailed it as an earnest of the most serious determination, and was equal even to encounter her father. They walked off, utterly heedless of Mr. Rushworth’s repeated question of, “Shall I go too? Had not I better go too? Will not it be right for me to go too?” but they were no sooner through the door than Henry Crawford undertook to answer the anxious inquiry, and, encouraging him by all means to pay his respects to Sir Thomas without delay, sent him after the others with delighted haste.

Her departure stirred the others, and at that moment, the two brothers stepped forward, feeling the need to act. A brief exchange between them was enough. There was no room for disagreement: they had to head to the drawing-room immediately. Maria joined them with the same purpose, being the most determined of the three; for the very reason that had prompted Julia to leave was, to her, a comforting support. Henry Crawford holding her hand at such a critical moment was worth all the uncertainty and worry. She saw it as a sign of serious intent and felt ready to face her father. They walked off, completely ignoring Mr. Rushworth's repeated questions of, “Should I come too? Wouldn't it be better if I went too? Isn't it right for me to go too?” As soon as they were through the door, Henry Crawford took it upon himself to address the worried query, encouraging him to pay his respects to Sir Thomas without delay and sending him after the others with eager haste.

Fanny was left with only the Crawfords and Mr. Yates. She had been quite overlooked by her cousins; and as her own opinion of her claims on Sir Thomas’s affection was much too humble to give her any idea of classing herself with his children, she was glad to remain behind and gain a little breathing-time. Her agitation and alarm exceeded all that was endured by the rest, by the right of a disposition which not even innocence could keep from suffering. She was nearly fainting: all her former habitual dread of her uncle was returning, and with it compassion for him and for almost every one of the party on the development before him, with solicitude on Edmund’s account indescribable. She had found a seat, where in excessive trembling she was enduring all these fearful thoughts, while the other three, no longer under any restraint, were giving vent to their feelings of vexation, lamenting over such an unlooked-for premature arrival as a most untoward event, and without mercy wishing poor Sir Thomas had been twice as long on his passage, or were still in Antigua.

Fanny was left with just the Crawfords and Mr. Yates. Her cousins had completely overlooked her, and since she thought very little of her standing with Sir Thomas, she felt no need to see herself as one of his children. She was grateful to stay behind and catch her breath. Her anxiety and fear were far greater than what the others felt, simply due to her nature, which even innocence couldn’t shield from distress. She was almost fainting; all her past fears of her uncle were returning, along with sympathy for him and nearly everyone else in the group, especially for Edmund, which she felt intensely. She found a seat and trembled as she endured these harrowing thoughts, while the other three, no longer restrained, expressed their frustration, lamenting the unexpected early arrival as a terrible turn of events and mercilessly wishing Sir Thomas had taken twice as long to get back or was still in Antigua.

The Crawfords were more warm on the subject than Mr. Yates, from better understanding the family, and judging more clearly of the mischief that must ensue. The ruin of the play was to them a certainty: they felt the total destruction of the scheme to be inevitably at hand; while Mr. Yates considered it only as a temporary interruption, a disaster for the evening, and could even suggest the possibility of the rehearsal being renewed after tea, when the bustle of receiving Sir Thomas were over, and he might be at leisure to be amused by it. The Crawfords laughed at the idea; and having soon agreed on the propriety of their walking quietly home and leaving the family to themselves, proposed Mr. Yates’s accompanying them and spending the evening at the Parsonage. But Mr. Yates, having never been with those who thought much of parental claims, or family confidence, could not perceive that anything of the kind was necessary; and therefore, thanking them, said, “he preferred remaining where he was, that he might pay his respects to the old gentleman handsomely since he was come; and besides, he did not think it would be fair by the others to have everybody run away.”

The Crawfords were more invested in the situation than Mr. Yates because they understood the family better and could see the trouble that would surely follow. They believed the play was doomed; they felt the complete failure of the plan was unavoidable, while Mr. Yates saw it as just a temporary setback, a problem for the evening, and even suggested that rehearsal might continue after tea, once the chaos of welcoming Sir Thomas was over and he had some free time to enjoy it. The Crawfords found this idea amusing, and after agreeing that it would be best to quietly head home and leave the family alone, they invited Mr. Yates to join them and spend the evening at the Parsonage. However, Mr. Yates, who had never been around people who valued parental responsibilities or family loyalty, didn’t think that was necessary; so, he thanked them and said he preferred to stay where he was to properly pay his respects to the old gentleman since he was there, and also because he didn’t think it would be fair to the others if everyone just left.

Fanny was just beginning to collect herself, and to feel that if she staid longer behind it might seem disrespectful, when this point was settled, and being commissioned with the brother and sister’s apology, saw them preparing to go as she quitted the room herself to perform the dreadful duty of appearing before her uncle.

Fanny was just starting to pull herself together, feeling that if she stayed any longer it might come off as disrespectful. Just then, this issue was resolved, and after being given the brother and sister’s apology, she watched them get ready to leave as she stepped out of the room to face the difficult task of confronting her uncle.

Too soon did she find herself at the drawing-room door; and after pausing a moment for what she knew would not come, for a courage which the outside of no door had ever supplied to her, she turned the lock in desperation, and the lights of the drawing-room, and all the collected family, were before her. As she entered, her own name caught her ear. Sir Thomas was at that moment looking round him, and saying, “But where is Fanny? Why do not I see my little Fanny?”—and on perceiving her, came forward with a kindness which astonished and penetrated her, calling her his dear Fanny, kissing her affectionately, and observing with decided pleasure how much she was grown! Fanny knew not how to feel, nor where to look. She was quite oppressed. He had never been so kind, so very kind to her in his life. His manner seemed changed, his voice was quick from the agitation of joy; and all that had been awful in his dignity seemed lost in tenderness. He led her nearer the light and looked at her again—inquired particularly after her health, and then, correcting himself, observed that he need not inquire, for her appearance spoke sufficiently on that point. A fine blush having succeeded the previous paleness of her face, he was justified in his belief of her equal improvement in health and beauty. He inquired next after her family, especially William: and his kindness altogether was such as made her reproach herself for loving him so little, and thinking his return a misfortune; and when, on having courage to lift her eyes to his face, she saw that he was grown thinner, and had the burnt, fagged, worn look of fatigue and a hot climate, every tender feeling was increased, and she was miserable in considering how much unsuspected vexation was probably ready to burst on him.

Too soon she found herself at the drawing-room door. After pausing for a moment, hoping for courage that she knew wouldn't come, she turned the lock in desperation, and the lights of the drawing room, along with the assembled family, were before her. As she entered, she heard her name. Sir Thomas was looking around and saying, “But where is Fanny? Why don’t I see my little Fanny?” When he spotted her, he came forward with a kindness that surprised and touched her, calling her his dear Fanny, kissing her affectionately, and noting with real pleasure how much she had grown! Fanny didn’t know how to feel or where to look. She was completely overwhelmed. He had never been so kind, so very kind to her before. His manner seemed changed, his voice was quick with the joy of the moment; all that had seemed intimidating in his demeanor was now softened with tenderness. He brought her closer to the light and looked at her again, asking in detail about her health, and then, correcting himself, said he didn't need to ask because her appearance said it all. A nice blush had replaced the previous paleness of her face, so he was right to believe in her improvement in both health and beauty. Next, he asked about her family, especially William; his overall kindness made her feel guilty for loving him so little and for thinking his return was a misfortune. And when she finally dared to look into his face, noticing that he had lost weight and had the burnt, worn-out look from fatigue and a hot climate, every tender feeling intensified, making her miserable as she realized how much unrecognized distress might be weighing on him.

Sir Thomas was indeed the life of the party, who at his suggestion now seated themselves round the fire. He had the best right to be the talker; and the delight of his sensations in being again in his own house, in the centre of his family, after such a separation, made him communicative and chatty in a very unusual degree; and he was ready to give every information as to his voyage, and answer every question of his two sons almost before it was put. His business in Antigua had latterly been prosperously rapid, and he came directly from Liverpool, having had an opportunity of making his passage thither in a private vessel, instead of waiting for the packet; and all the little particulars of his proceedings and events, his arrivals and departures, were most promptly delivered, as he sat by Lady Bertram and looked with heartfelt satisfaction on the faces around him—interrupting himself more than once, however, to remark on his good fortune in finding them all at home—coming unexpectedly as he did—all collected together exactly as he could have wished, but dared not depend on. Mr. Rushworth was not forgotten: a most friendly reception and warmth of hand-shaking had already met him, and with pointed attention he was now included in the objects most intimately connected with Mansfield. There was nothing disagreeable in Mr. Rushworth’s appearance, and Sir Thomas was liking him already.

Sir Thomas was definitely the life of the party, and at his suggestion, everyone gathered around the fire. He had every reason to be the one talking; the joy of being back in his own home, surrounded by his family after such a long absence, made him unusually chatty and open. He was eager to share details about his voyage and answered his two sons' questions almost before they even asked. His business in Antigua had been going very well lately, and he had come straight from Liverpool, taking a private ship instead of waiting for the mail packet. He quickly shared all the little details about his travels, his arrivals, and departures, as he sat next to Lady Bertram, looking around at the familiar faces with genuine happiness—interrupting himself a few times to mention how lucky he felt to find them all at home, especially since he had arrived unexpectedly and everyone was gathered just as he had hoped, but never imagined. Mr. Rushworth was not overlooked: he received a warm welcome and a friendly handshake as well, and Sir Thomas now included him in the important matters relating to Mansfield. There was nothing unpleasant about Mr. Rushworth’s appearance, and Sir Thomas already found himself liking him.

By not one of the circle was he listened to with such unbroken, unalloyed enjoyment as by his wife, who was really extremely happy to see him, and whose feelings were so warmed by his sudden arrival as to place her nearer agitation than she had been for the last twenty years. She had been almost fluttered for a few minutes, and still remained so sensibly animated as to put away her work, move Pug from her side, and give all her attention and all the rest of her sofa to her husband. She had no anxieties for anybody to cloud her pleasure: her own time had been irreproachably spent during his absence: she had done a great deal of carpet-work, and made many yards of fringe; and she would have answered as freely for the good conduct and useful pursuits of all the young people as for her own. It was so agreeable to her to see him again, and hear him talk, to have her ear amused and her whole comprehension filled by his narratives, that she began particularly to feel how dreadfully she must have missed him, and how impossible it would have been for her to bear a lengthened absence.

He was listened to with such genuine, uninterrupted enjoyment by no one in the group as by his wife, who was truly thrilled to see him. Her feelings were so warmed by his sudden arrival that she felt more agitated than she had in the last twenty years. For a few minutes, she was almost fluttered, and she still seemed so lively that she put her work aside, moved Pug off her lap, and directed all her attention, along with the rest of her space on the sofa, to her husband. She had no worries about anyone to overshadow her happiness: she had spent her time productively during his absence, doing a lot of carpet-work and making many yards of fringe. She would have confidently vouched for the good behavior and useful activities of all the young people as much as for her own. It was so delightful for her to see him again and hear him talk, to have her ear entertained and her mind filled with his stories, that she began to realize just how much she must have missed him and how unbearable a prolonged absence would have been.

Mrs. Norris was by no means to be compared in happiness to her sister. Not that she was incommoded by many fears of Sir Thomas’s disapprobation when the present state of his house should be known, for her judgment had been so blinded that, except by the instinctive caution with which she had whisked away Mr. Rushworth’s pink satin cloak as her brother-in-law entered, she could hardly be said to shew any sign of alarm; but she was vexed by the manner of his return. It had left her nothing to do. Instead of being sent for out of the room, and seeing him first, and having to spread the happy news through the house, Sir Thomas, with a very reasonable dependence, perhaps, on the nerves of his wife and children, had sought no confidant but the butler, and had been following him almost instantaneously into the drawing-room. Mrs. Norris felt herself defrauded of an office on which she had always depended, whether his arrival or his death were to be the thing unfolded; and was now trying to be in a bustle without having anything to bustle about, and labouring to be important where nothing was wanted but tranquillity and silence. Would Sir Thomas have consented to eat, she might have gone to the housekeeper with troublesome directions, and insulted the footmen with injunctions of despatch; but Sir Thomas resolutely declined all dinner: he would take nothing, nothing till tea came—he would rather wait for tea. Still Mrs. Norris was at intervals urging something different; and in the most interesting moment of his passage to England, when the alarm of a French privateer was at the height, she burst through his recital with the proposal of soup. “Sure, my dear Sir Thomas, a basin of soup would be a much better thing for you than tea. Do have a basin of soup.”

Mrs. Norris was definitely not as happy as her sister. Not that she was worried about Sir Thomas’s disapproval once everyone found out what was happening, because her judgment had been so clouded that, apart from the instinctive way she quickly whisked away Mr. Rushworth’s pink satin cloak as her brother-in-law came in, she didn't really show any signs of concern; but she was frustrated by how he had returned. It left her with nothing to do. Instead of being called out of the room, seeing him first, and getting to spread the good news around the house, Sir Thomas, perhaps reasonably depending on the nerves of his wife and kids, had confided in no one but the butler and had immediately followed him into the drawing room. Mrs. Norris felt robbed of a role she had always relied on, whether it was about his arrival or his death being revealed; now she was trying to act busy without anything to actually be busy with, struggling to feel important when all that was needed was calm and quiet. If Sir Thomas had agreed to eat, she could have gone to the housekeeper with annoying instructions and bossed the footmen around to hurry up; but Sir Thomas firmly refused all dinner: he would have nothing, nothing until tea came—he would rather wait for tea. Still, Mrs. Norris kept suggesting something different; and at the most exciting moment of his journey to England, when the alarm about a French privateer was at its peak, she interrupted his story with a proposal for soup. “Surely, my dear Sir Thomas, a bowl of soup would be much better for you than tea. Please have a bowl of soup.”

Sir Thomas could not be provoked. “Still the same anxiety for everybody’s comfort, my dear Mrs. Norris,” was his answer. “But indeed I would rather have nothing but tea.”

Sir Thomas couldn't be stirred. “Always concerned about everyone’s comfort, my dear Mrs. Norris,” was his reply. “But really, I would prefer nothing but tea.”

“Well, then, Lady Bertram, suppose you speak for tea directly; suppose you hurry Baddeley a little; he seems behindhand to-night.” She carried this point, and Sir Thomas’s narrative proceeded.

“Well, Lady Bertram, why don't you go ahead and ask for tea directly? Maybe you could rush Baddeley a bit; he seems a bit slow tonight.” She made her point, and Sir Thomas continued his story.

At length there was a pause. His immediate communications were exhausted, and it seemed enough to be looking joyfully around him, now at one, now at another of the beloved circle; but the pause was not long: in the elation of her spirits Lady Bertram became talkative, and what were the sensations of her children upon hearing her say, “How do you think the young people have been amusing themselves lately, Sir Thomas? They have been acting. We have been all alive with acting.”

At last, there was a pause. He had run out of things to say, and it felt good just to look happily around at one and then another of his beloved friends; but the pause didn't last long: in her excitement, Lady Bertram became chatty, and what were her children's reactions when they heard her say, “What do you think the young people have been up to lately, Sir Thomas? They’ve been acting. We've all been buzzing with acting.”

“Indeed! and what have you been acting?”

“Absolutely! So, what have you been up to?”

“Oh! they’ll tell you all about it.”

“Oh! they’ll fill you in on everything.”

“The all will soon be told,” cried Tom hastily, and with affected unconcern; “but it is not worth while to bore my father with it now. You will hear enough of it to-morrow, sir. We have just been trying, by way of doing something, and amusing my mother, just within the last week, to get up a few scenes, a mere trifle. We have had such incessant rains almost since October began, that we have been nearly confined to the house for days together. I have hardly taken out a gun since the 3rd. Tolerable sport the first three days, but there has been no attempting anything since. The first day I went over Mansfield Wood, and Edmund took the copses beyond Easton, and we brought home six brace between us, and might each have killed six times as many, but we respect your pheasants, sir, I assure you, as much as you could desire. I do not think you will find your woods by any means worse stocked than they were. I never saw Mansfield Wood so full of pheasants in my life as this year. I hope you will take a day’s sport there yourself, sir, soon.”

“The whole story will come out soon,” Tom said quickly, trying to sound nonchalant. “But it’s not worth bothering my dad with it right now. You’ll hear plenty about it tomorrow, sir. We’ve been trying to put together a few scenes just to keep my mom entertained over the past week. With all this nonstop rain since October started, we’ve been mostly stuck inside for days. I’ve hardly taken my gun out since the 3rd. It was decent hunting the first three days, but there’s been no point in trying since then. On the first day, I went through Mansfield Wood, and Edmund went to the copses beyond Easton. We brought home six brace between us and could have easily shot six times that many, but we respect your pheasants, sir, believe me; as much as you could want us to. I don’t think you’ll find your woods any less stocked than they were. I have never seen Mansfield Wood so full of pheasants as I have this year. I hope you’ll come out for a day of hunting there yourself soon, sir.”

For the present the danger was over, and Fanny’s sick feelings subsided; but when tea was soon afterwards brought in, and Sir Thomas, getting up, said that he found that he could not be any longer in the house without just looking into his own dear room, every agitation was returning. He was gone before anything had been said to prepare him for the change he must find there; and a pause of alarm followed his disappearance. Edmund was the first to speak—

For now, the danger was gone, and Fanny’s nausea faded; but when tea was brought in shortly after, and Sir Thomas stood up, saying he needed to check on his beloved room, all her anxiety came rushing back. He left before anyone could say anything to prepare him for the changes he would encounter there, and a tense silence followed his exit. Edmund was the first to break the silence—

“Something must be done,” said he.

“Something has to be done,” he said.

“It is time to think of our visitors,” said Maria, still feeling her hand pressed to Henry Crawford’s heart, and caring little for anything else. “Where did you leave Miss Crawford, Fanny?”

“It’s time to think about our guests,” said Maria, still feeling her hand pressed to Henry Crawford’s heart, and not caring much about anything else. “Where did you leave Miss Crawford, Fanny?”

Fanny told of their departure, and delivered their message.

Fanny shared the details of their departure and conveyed their message.

“Then poor Yates is all alone,” cried Tom. “I will go and fetch him. He will be no bad assistant when it all comes out.”

“Then poor Yates is all alone,” shouted Tom. “I’ll go and get him. He’ll be a great help when everything comes to light.”

To the theatre he went, and reached it just in time to witness the first meeting of his father and his friend. Sir Thomas had been a good deal surprised to find candles burning in his room; and on casting his eye round it, to see other symptoms of recent habitation and a general air of confusion in the furniture. The removal of the bookcase from before the billiard-room door struck him especially, but he had scarcely more than time to feel astonished at all this, before there were sounds from the billiard-room to astonish him still farther. Some one was talking there in a very loud accent; he did not know the voice—more than talking—almost hallooing. He stepped to the door, rejoicing at that moment in having the means of immediate communication, and, opening it, found himself on the stage of a theatre, and opposed to a ranting young man, who appeared likely to knock him down backwards. At the very moment of Yates perceiving Sir Thomas, and giving perhaps the very best start he had ever given in the whole course of his rehearsals, Tom Bertram entered at the other end of the room; and never had he found greater difficulty in keeping his countenance. His father’s looks of solemnity and amazement on this his first appearance on any stage, and the gradual metamorphosis of the impassioned Baron Wildenheim into the well-bred and easy Mr. Yates, making his bow and apology to Sir Thomas Bertram, was such an exhibition, such a piece of true acting, as he would not have lost upon any account. It would be the last—in all probability—the last scene on that stage; but he was sure there could not be a finer. The house would close with the greatest eclat.

He went to the theater and arrived just in time to see his father meet his friend for the first time. Sir Thomas was quite surprised to find candles burning in his room, and as he looked around, he noticed other signs of recent use and a general clutter in the furniture. The bookcase being moved from in front of the billiard-room door particularly caught his attention, but he barely had time to be astonished by all this before he heard sounds from the billiard-room that amazed him even more. Someone was there speaking very loudly; he didn’t recognize the voice—more than speaking—almost shouting. He stepped to the door, feeling grateful for the chance to communicate right away, and when he opened it, he found himself on the stage of a theater facing a dramatic young man who seemed ready to knock him over. Just as Yates noticed Sir Thomas, possibly giving his biggest start in any rehearsal, Tom Bertram walked in from the other side of the room and struggled more than ever to keep a straight face. His father's expression of seriousness and shock on this, his first appearance on any stage, and the slow transformation of the passionate Baron Wildenheim into the composed and polite Mr. Yates, as he made his bow and apologized to Sir Thomas Bertram, was such a sight, such a display of true acting that he wouldn’t have missed it for anything. It would likely be the last scene on that stage; but he was certain there couldn’t be a better one. The theater would close with the greatest flair.

There was little time, however, for the indulgence of any images of merriment. It was necessary for him to step forward, too, and assist the introduction, and with many awkward sensations he did his best. Sir Thomas received Mr. Yates with all the appearance of cordiality which was due to his own character, but was really as far from pleased with the necessity of the acquaintance as with the manner of its commencement. Mr. Yates’s family and connexions were sufficiently known to him to render his introduction as the “particular friend,” another of the hundred particular friends of his son, exceedingly unwelcome; and it needed all the felicity of being again at home, and all the forbearance it could supply, to save Sir Thomas from anger on finding himself thus bewildered in his own house, making part of a ridiculous exhibition in the midst of theatrical nonsense, and forced in so untoward a moment to admit the acquaintance of a young man whom he felt sure of disapproving, and whose easy indifference and volubility in the course of the first five minutes seemed to mark him the most at home of the two.

There was hardly any time to indulge in thoughts of happiness. He had to step up and help with the introduction, and despite feeling awkward, he did his best. Sir Thomas greeted Mr. Yates with all the warmth appropriate to his character but was actually far from pleased about having to make the acquaintance, especially given how it started. He knew enough about Mr. Yates’s family and connections to make the introduction as the "close friend," yet another one of his son's many close friends, very unwelcome. It took all the joy of being back home and all the patience he could muster to keep Sir Thomas from getting angry at finding himself so confused in his own house, participating in a ridiculous spectacle amid theatrical nonsense, and being forced at such an inconvenient moment to acknowledge a young man he was sure he would not like, whose casual indifference and talkativeness in the first five minutes made him seem the more comfortable of the two.

Tom understood his father’s thoughts, and heartily wishing he might be always as well disposed to give them but partial expression, began to see, more clearly than he had ever done before, that there might be some ground of offence, that there might be some reason for the glance his father gave towards the ceiling and stucco of the room; and that when he inquired with mild gravity after the fate of the billiard-table, he was not proceeding beyond a very allowable curiosity. A few minutes were enough for such unsatisfactory sensations on each side; and Sir Thomas having exerted himself so far as to speak a few words of calm approbation in reply to an eager appeal of Mr. Yates, as to the happiness of the arrangement, the three gentlemen returned to the drawing-room together, Sir Thomas with an increase of gravity which was not lost on all.

Tom understood what his father was thinking, and wishing he could always express it a little less directly, started to realize more clearly than ever before that there might be some reason to feel offended, and that his father's glance at the ceiling and walls of the room might mean something. When his father asked with a calm seriousness about the billiard table, it wasn't just idle curiosity. A few minutes were enough for both sides to feel unsatisfied; Sir Thomas managed to say a few words of approval in response to Mr. Yates's eager question about the arrangement's happiness. The three men went back to the drawing room together, with Sir Thomas showing an increase in seriousness that didn't go unnoticed by everyone.

“I come from your theatre,” said he composedly, as he sat down; “I found myself in it rather unexpectedly. Its vicinity to my own room—but in every respect, indeed, it took me by surprise, as I had not the smallest suspicion of your acting having assumed so serious a character. It appears a neat job, however, as far as I could judge by candlelight, and does my friend Christopher Jackson credit.” And then he would have changed the subject, and sipped his coffee in peace over domestic matters of a calmer hue; but Mr. Yates, without discernment to catch Sir Thomas’s meaning, or diffidence, or delicacy, or discretion enough to allow him to lead the discourse while he mingled among the others with the least obtrusiveness himself, would keep him on the topic of the theatre, would torment him with questions and remarks relative to it, and finally would make him hear the whole history of his disappointment at Ecclesford. Sir Thomas listened most politely, but found much to offend his ideas of decorum, and confirm his ill-opinion of Mr. Yates’s habits of thinking, from the beginning to the end of the story; and when it was over, could give him no other assurance of sympathy than what a slight bow conveyed.

“I came from your theater,” he said calmly as he took a seat; “I found myself there quite unexpectedly. Its proximity to my own room—well, it took me by surprise in every way, as I had no idea your acting had taken such a serious turn. It seems well done, though, from what I could see by candlelight, and it does my friend Christopher Jackson proud.” He would have changed the topic and enjoyed his coffee in peace, focusing on more mundane matters; however, Mr. Yates, lacking the ability to grasp Sir Thomas’s meaning, or the subtlety, delicacy, or discretion to let him steer the conversation while he mingled with others unobtrusively, kept pushing the topic of the theater. He bombarded him with questions and comments related to it and eventually made him listen to the entire story of his disappointment at Ecclesford. Sir Thomas listened politely but found much that clashed with his sense of decorum and confirmed his poor opinion of Mr. Yates’s way of thinking throughout the story; when it finished, he could only convey a slight bow as a token of sympathy.

“This was, in fact, the origin of our acting,” said Tom, after a moment’s thought. “My friend Yates brought the infection from Ecclesford, and it spread—as those things always spread, you know, sir—the faster, probably, from your having so often encouraged the sort of thing in us formerly. It was like treading old ground again.”

“This was really the beginning of our acting,” Tom said after a moment of thought. “My friend Yates brought the bug back from Ecclesford, and it spread—like these things always do, you know, sir—probably even faster because you had so often encouraged that kind of thing in us before. It felt like walking over familiar ground again.”

Mr. Yates took the subject from his friend as soon as possible, and immediately gave Sir Thomas an account of what they had done and were doing: told him of the gradual increase of their views, the happy conclusion of their first difficulties, and present promising state of affairs; relating everything with so blind an interest as made him not only totally unconscious of the uneasy movements of many of his friends as they sat, the change of countenance, the fidget, the hem! of unquietness, but prevented him even from seeing the expression of the face on which his own eyes were fixed—from seeing Sir Thomas’s dark brow contract as he looked with inquiring earnestness at his daughters and Edmund, dwelling particularly on the latter, and speaking a language, a remonstrance, a reproof, which he felt at his heart. Not less acutely was it felt by Fanny, who had edged back her chair behind her aunt’s end of the sofa, and, screened from notice herself, saw all that was passing before her. Such a look of reproach at Edmund from his father she could never have expected to witness; and to feel that it was in any degree deserved was an aggravation indeed. Sir Thomas’s look implied, “On your judgment, Edmund, I depended; what have you been about?” She knelt in spirit to her uncle, and her bosom swelled to utter, “Oh, not to him! Look so to all the others, but not to him!”

Mr. Yates quickly took over the conversation and updated Sir Thomas on everything they had done and were currently doing. He mentioned how their ideas had gradually expanded, the successful resolution of their initial challenges, and their encouraging current situation—all with such a complete investment that he was completely unaware of the anxious shifts among many of his friends as they sat there, the changes in their expressions, the fidgeting, the uncomfortable coughs. He didn’t even notice the look on the face he was focused on—Sir Thomas’s dark brow furrowing as he looked intently at his daughters and Edmund, particularly on Edmund, conveying a message that felt like a reminder, a reprimand, which weighed heavy in his heart. Fanny was just as affected; she had edged her chair back behind her aunt’s end of the sofa, hidden from view, and watched everything unfold before her. She could never have imagined seeing such a look of disappointment from Edmund’s father; knowing it was somewhat deserved only made it worse. Sir Thomas’s expression seemed to say, “I relied on your judgement, Edmund. What have you been doing?” She silently pleaded with her uncle, her heart aching to say, “Oh, not to him! Direct your gaze at everyone else, but not at him!”

Mr. Yates was still talking. “To own the truth, Sir Thomas, we were in the middle of a rehearsal when you arrived this evening. We were going through the three first acts, and not unsuccessfully upon the whole. Our company is now so dispersed, from the Crawfords being gone home, that nothing more can be done to-night; but if you will give us the honour of your company to-morrow evening, I should not be afraid of the result. We bespeak your indulgence, you understand, as young performers; we bespeak your indulgence.”

Mr. Yates was still talking. “To be honest, Sir Thomas, we were in the middle of a rehearsal when you arrived this evening. We were working through the first three acts, and overall, it was going quite well. Our group is now so scattered since the Crawfords have gone home that nothing more can be done tonight; but if you would honor us with your presence tomorrow evening, I’m confident it will go well. We ask for your understanding, as we are young performers; we ask for your understanding.”

“My indulgence shall be given, sir,” replied Sir Thomas gravely, “but without any other rehearsal.” And with a relenting smile, he added, “I come home to be happy and indulgent.” Then turning away towards any or all of the rest, he tranquilly said, “Mr. and Miss Crawford were mentioned in my last letters from Mansfield. Do you find them agreeable acquaintance?”

“My indulgence will be granted, sir,” replied Sir Thomas seriously, “but there will be no further discussion.” Then, with a softening smile, he added, “I’ve come home to be happy and generous.” Turning to the others, he calmly said, “Mr. and Miss Crawford were mentioned in my last letters from Mansfield. Do you find them pleasant company?”

Tom was the only one at all ready with an answer, but he being entirely without particular regard for either, without jealousy either in love or acting, could speak very handsomely of both. “Mr. Crawford was a most pleasant, gentleman-like man; his sister a sweet, pretty, elegant, lively girl.”

Tom was the only one who had an answer, but since he had no special feelings for either person, and wasn't jealous in love or acting, he could speak nicely about both. “Mr. Crawford was a really pleasant, gentlemanly man; his sister was a sweet, pretty, elegant, lively girl.”

Mr. Rushworth could be silent no longer. “I do not say he is not gentleman-like, considering; but you should tell your father he is not above five feet eight, or he will be expecting a well-looking man.”

Mr. Rushworth couldn't stay quiet anymore. “I'm not saying he's not gentlemanly, but you should let your dad know he's only about five feet eight, or he might be expecting a good-looking guy.”

Sir Thomas did not quite understand this, and looked with some surprise at the speaker.

Sir Thomas didn’t fully understand this, and looked at the speaker with some surprise.

“If I must say what I think,” continued Mr. Rushworth, “in my opinion it is very disagreeable to be always rehearsing. It is having too much of a good thing. I am not so fond of acting as I was at first. I think we are a great deal better employed, sitting comfortably here among ourselves, and doing nothing.”

“If I have to share my thoughts,” Mr. Rushworth continued, “I find it really annoying to keep rehearsing. It’s like having too much of a good thing. I’m not as into acting as I used to be. I believe we’re much better off just sitting here comfortably together and doing nothing.”

Sir Thomas looked again, and then replied with an approving smile, “I am happy to find our sentiments on this subject so much the same. It gives me sincere satisfaction. That I should be cautious and quick-sighted, and feel many scruples which my children do not feel, is perfectly natural; and equally so that my value for domestic tranquillity, for a home which shuts out noisy pleasures, should much exceed theirs. But at your time of life to feel all this, is a most favourable circumstance for yourself, and for everybody connected with you; and I am sensible of the importance of having an ally of such weight.”

Sir Thomas looked again and then replied with a nod of approval, “I’m glad to see that our views on this topic are so aligned. It truly makes me happy. It’s completely natural for me to be cautious and observant, and to have many concerns that my children don’t share. It’s also natural that my appreciation for a peaceful home, one free from loud distractions, would be much stronger than theirs. However, at your age, feeling this way is a great advantage for you and everyone around you; I recognize how important it is to have such a strong ally.”

Sir Thomas meant to be giving Mr. Rushworth’s opinion in better words than he could find himself. He was aware that he must not expect a genius in Mr. Rushworth; but as a well-judging, steady young man, with better notions than his elocution would do justice to, he intended to value him very highly. It was impossible for many of the others not to smile. Mr. Rushworth hardly knew what to do with so much meaning; but by looking, as he really felt, most exceedingly pleased with Sir Thomas’s good opinion, and saying scarcely anything, he did his best towards preserving that good opinion a little longer.

Sir Thomas intended to express Mr. Rushworth’s thoughts in a more articulate way than Mr. Rushworth could manage on his own. He knew not to expect brilliance from Mr. Rushworth, but as a sensible and reliable young man, with better ideas than his speaking skills could convey, he planned to hold him in high regard. It was hard for many of the others not to smile. Mr. Rushworth barely knew how to handle such meaningful compliments; however, by showing that he was genuinely pleased with Sir Thomas’s favorable opinion and saying very little, he tried his best to maintain that good opinion a bit longer.

CHAPTER XX

Edmund’s first object the next morning was to see his father alone, and give him a fair statement of the whole acting scheme, defending his own share in it as far only as he could then, in a soberer moment, feel his motives to deserve, and acknowledging, with perfect ingenuousness, that his concession had been attended with such partial good as to make his judgment in it very doubtful. He was anxious, while vindicating himself, to say nothing unkind of the others: but there was only one amongst them whose conduct he could mention without some necessity of defence or palliation. “We have all been more or less to blame,” said he, “every one of us, excepting Fanny. Fanny is the only one who has judged rightly throughout; who has been consistent. Her feelings have been steadily against it from first to last. She never ceased to think of what was due to you. You will find Fanny everything you could wish.”

Edmund’s first priority the next morning was to see his father alone and give him a clear account of the whole acting scheme, justifying his own involvement as much as he could at that moment, recognizing honestly that his concession had led to some partial good, making his judgment on it quite doubtful. He was determined, while defending himself, to speak kindly of the others: but there was only one among them whose actions he could mention without needing to justify or soften. “We’ve all messed up to some extent,” he said, “every one of us, except for Fanny. Fanny is the only one who has judged correctly all along; who has been consistent. Her feelings have been firmly against it from start to finish. She never stopped thinking about what was right for you. You will find Fanny to be everything you could want.”

Sir Thomas saw all the impropriety of such a scheme among such a party, and at such a time, as strongly as his son had ever supposed he must; he felt it too much, indeed, for many words; and having shaken hands with Edmund, meant to try to lose the disagreeable impression, and forget how much he had been forgotten himself as soon as he could, after the house had been cleared of every object enforcing the remembrance, and restored to its proper state. He did not enter into any remonstrance with his other children: he was more willing to believe they felt their error than to run the risk of investigation. The reproof of an immediate conclusion of everything, the sweep of every preparation, would be sufficient.

Sir Thomas recognized how inappropriate the situation was for everyone involved and at that time, just as strongly as his son had thought he would. He found it too much to express in words. After shaking hands with Edmund, he planned to try to shake off the unpleasant feeling and forget how much he had been overlooked, as soon as the house was cleared of anything that reminded him of it and got back to its usual state. He didn’t want to confront his other kids about it; he preferred to think they realized their mistake rather than risk digging deeper. A clear end to everything and a complete removal of all preparations would be enough.

There was one person, however, in the house, whom he could not leave to learn his sentiments merely through his conduct. He could not help giving Mrs. Norris a hint of his having hoped that her advice might have been interposed to prevent what her judgment must certainly have disapproved. The young people had been very inconsiderate in forming the plan; they ought to have been capable of a better decision themselves; but they were young; and, excepting Edmund, he believed, of unsteady characters; and with greater surprise, therefore, he must regard her acquiescence in their wrong measures, her countenance of their unsafe amusements, than that such measures and such amusements should have been suggested. Mrs. Norris was a little confounded and as nearly being silenced as ever she had been in her life; for she was ashamed to confess having never seen any of the impropriety which was so glaring to Sir Thomas, and would not have admitted that her influence was insufficient—that she might have talked in vain. Her only resource was to get out of the subject as fast as possible, and turn the current of Sir Thomas’s ideas into a happier channel. She had a great deal to insinuate in her own praise as to general attention to the interest and comfort of his family, much exertion and many sacrifices to glance at in the form of hurried walks and sudden removals from her own fireside, and many excellent hints of distrust and economy to Lady Bertram and Edmund to detail, whereby a most considerable saving had always arisen, and more than one bad servant been detected. But her chief strength lay in Sotherton. Her greatest support and glory was in having formed the connexion with the Rushworths. There she was impregnable. She took to herself all the credit of bringing Mr. Rushworth’s admiration of Maria to any effect. “If I had not been active,” said she, “and made a point of being introduced to his mother, and then prevailed on my sister to pay the first visit, I am as certain as I sit here that nothing would have come of it; for Mr. Rushworth is the sort of amiable modest young man who wants a great deal of encouragement, and there were girls enough on the catch for him if we had been idle. But I left no stone unturned. I was ready to move heaven and earth to persuade my sister, and at last I did persuade her. You know the distance to Sotherton; it was in the middle of winter, and the roads almost impassable, but I did persuade her.”

There was one person in the house, though, whom he couldn’t just leave to figure out his feelings based on his actions. He couldn’t help but give Mrs. Norris a hint that he had hoped her advice would have stepped in to stop what she must have definitely disapproved of. The young people had been thoughtless in making their plans; they should have been able to decide better on their own; but they were young, and, except for Edmund, he believed they had unstable characters. Thus, he was more surprised by her approval of their poor choices and her support of their risky activities than he was by the fact that such choices and activities had even been suggested in the first place. Mrs. Norris was a bit taken aback and almost silent for the first time in her life; she was embarrassed to admit that she had never seen the issues that were so obvious to Sir Thomas, and she wouldn’t accept that her influence was lacking—that she might have had no impact at all. Her only option was to change the topic as quickly as possible and redirect Sir Thomas’s thoughts into a happier direction. She had a lot to say about her own contributions regarding the general well-being and comfort of his family, countless efforts, and sacrifices that she could mention in the form of hasty walks and sudden trips away from her own home, and many excellent suggestions regarding caution and budgeting for Lady Bertram and Edmund, which had resulted in significant savings and uncovered more than one bad servant. But her main strength was in Sotherton. Her greatest achievement and pride came from establishing the connection with the Rushworths. There she felt invincible. She claimed all the credit for turning Mr. Rushworth’s admiration for Maria into something real. “If I hadn’t been proactive,” she said, “and insisted on being introduced to his mother, and then convinced my sister to make the first visit, I’m absolutely sure that nothing would have happened; because Mr. Rushworth is the type of kind, modest young man who requires a lot of encouragement, and there were plenty of girls ready for him if we had just sat back. But I left no stone unturned. I was willing to do anything to persuade my sister, and eventually, I did convince her. You know how far Sotherton is; it was the middle of winter, and the roads were nearly unpassable, but I did persuade her.”

“I know how great, how justly great, your influence is with Lady Bertram and her children, and am the more concerned that it should not have been—”

“I know how significant, how rightfully significant, your influence is with Lady Bertram and her children, and I’m even more worried that it should not have been—”

“My dear Sir Thomas, if you had seen the state of the roads that day! I thought we should never have got through them, though we had the four horses of course; and poor old coachman would attend us, out of his great love and kindness, though he was hardly able to sit the box on account of the rheumatism which I had been doctoring him for ever since Michaelmas. I cured him at last; but he was very bad all the winter—and this was such a day, I could not help going to him up in his room before we set off to advise him not to venture: he was putting on his wig; so I said, ‘Coachman, you had much better not go; your Lady and I shall be very safe; you know how steady Stephen is, and Charles has been upon the leaders so often now, that I am sure there is no fear.’ But, however, I soon found it would not do; he was bent upon going, and as I hate to be worrying and officious, I said no more; but my heart quite ached for him at every jolt, and when we got into the rough lanes about Stoke, where, what with frost and snow upon beds of stones, it was worse than anything you can imagine, I was quite in an agony about him. And then the poor horses too! To see them straining away! You know how I always feel for the horses. And when we got to the bottom of Sandcroft Hill, what do you think I did? You will laugh at me; but I got out and walked up. I did indeed. It might not be saving them much, but it was something, and I could not bear to sit at my ease and be dragged up at the expense of those noble animals. I caught a dreadful cold, but that I did not regard. My object was accomplished in the visit.”

“My dear Sir Thomas, if you had seen the state of the roads that day! I thought we would never get through them, even with the four horses. Our poor old coachman came with us out of his great love and kindness, even though he could hardly sit in the box because of the rheumatism I had been treating him for since Michaelmas. I finally cured him, but he was really bad all winter—and it was such a day that I had to go up to his room before we set off to advise him not to venture out. He was putting on his wig, so I said, ‘Coachman, you’d be better off staying home; your Lady and I will be perfectly safe; you know how steady Stephen is, and Charles has been on the leaders so often now that I’m sure there’s no risk.’ However, I quickly realized that wouldn’t work; he was determined to go, and since I dislike being pushy, I said no more. But my heart ached for him with every jolt, and when we got into the rough lanes around Stoke, where the frost and snow were on the stone beds, it was worse than anything you can imagine. I was in agony for him. And then the poor horses too! Seeing them straining away! You know how I always sympathize with the horses. And when we reached the bottom of Sandcroft Hill, do you know what I did? You’ll laugh at me, but I got out and walked up. I really did. It might not have saved them much, but it was something, and I couldn’t stand sitting comfortably while being pulled up at the expense of those noble animals. I caught a terrible cold, but that didn’t bother me. My goal was accomplished with the visit.”

“I hope we shall always think the acquaintance worth any trouble that might be taken to establish it. There is nothing very striking in Mr. Rushworth’s manners, but I was pleased last night with what appeared to be his opinion on one subject: his decided preference of a quiet family party to the bustle and confusion of acting. He seemed to feel exactly as one could wish.”

“I hope we always find our connection worth any effort it takes to maintain it. There's nothing particularly impressive about Mr. Rushworth's manners, but I appreciated his perspective last night on one thing: he clearly prefers a quiet family gathering over the chaos and noise of acting. He seemed to feel just as we would hope.”

“Yes, indeed, and the more you know of him the better you will like him. He is not a shining character, but he has a thousand good qualities; and is so disposed to look up to you, that I am quite laughed at about it, for everybody considers it as my doing. ‘Upon my word, Mrs. Norris,’ said Mrs. Grant the other day, ‘if Mr. Rushworth were a son of your own, he could not hold Sir Thomas in greater respect.’”

“Yes, definitely, and the more you get to know him, the more you'll like him. He's not perfect, but he has a ton of great qualities; and he looks up to you so much that I get teased about it, because everyone thinks it's my influence. ‘Honestly, Mrs. Norris,’ Mrs. Grant said the other day, ‘if Mr. Rushworth were your own son, he couldn’t respect Sir Thomas any more than he does.’”

Sir Thomas gave up the point, foiled by her evasions, disarmed by her flattery; and was obliged to rest satisfied with the conviction that where the present pleasure of those she loved was at stake, her kindness did sometimes overpower her judgment.

Sir Thomas gave up on the issue, thwarted by her evasions and disarmed by her flattery; he had to be content with the belief that when it came to the happiness of those she cared about, her kindness occasionally outweighed her judgment.

It was a busy morning with him. Conversation with any of them occupied but a small part of it. He had to reinstate himself in all the wonted concerns of his Mansfield life: to see his steward and his bailiff; to examine and compute, and, in the intervals of business, to walk into his stables and his gardens, and nearest plantations; but active and methodical, he had not only done all this before he resumed his seat as master of the house at dinner, he had also set the carpenter to work in pulling down what had been so lately put up in the billiard-room, and given the scene-painter his dismissal long enough to justify the pleasing belief of his being then at least as far off as Northampton. The scene-painter was gone, having spoilt only the floor of one room, ruined all the coachman’s sponges, and made five of the under-servants idle and dissatisfied; and Sir Thomas was in hopes that another day or two would suffice to wipe away every outward memento of what had been, even to the destruction of every unbound copy of Lovers’ Vows in the house, for he was burning all that met his eye.

It was a busy morning for him. Interacting with any of them took up only a small part of it. He had to get back into all the familiar responsibilities of his Mansfield life: meet with his steward and bailiff; review and calculate, and during breaks from work, stroll through his stables, gardens, and nearby fields; but being active and organized, he not only completed all of this before he sat down as the head of the household at dinner, he also had the carpenter start taking down what had just been put up in the billiard room, and had already dismissed the scene-painter long enough to create the comfortable belief that he was at least as far away as Northampton. The scene-painter was gone, having ruined only the floor of one room, messed up all the coachman’s sponges, and made five of the junior staff idle and unhappy; and Sir Thomas was hopeful that another day or two would be enough to erase every visible reminder of what had been, including the destruction of every unbound copy of Lovers’ Vows in the house, as he was burning everything that caught his eye.

Mr. Yates was beginning now to understand Sir Thomas’s intentions, though as far as ever from understanding their source. He and his friend had been out with their guns the chief of the morning, and Tom had taken the opportunity of explaining, with proper apologies for his father’s particularity, what was to be expected. Mr. Yates felt it as acutely as might be supposed. To be a second time disappointed in the same way was an instance of very severe ill-luck; and his indignation was such, that had it not been for delicacy towards his friend, and his friend’s youngest sister, he believed he should certainly attack the baronet on the absurdity of his proceedings, and argue him into a little more rationality. He believed this very stoutly while he was in Mansfield Wood, and all the way home; but there was a something in Sir Thomas, when they sat round the same table, which made Mr. Yates think it wiser to let him pursue his own way, and feel the folly of it without opposition. He had known many disagreeable fathers before, and often been struck with the inconveniences they occasioned, but never, in the whole course of his life, had he seen one of that class so unintelligibly moral, so infamously tyrannical as Sir Thomas. He was not a man to be endured but for his children’s sake, and he might be thankful to his fair daughter Julia that Mr. Yates did yet mean to stay a few days longer under his roof.

Mr. Yates was starting to grasp Sir Thomas’s intentions, although he still had no idea where they were coming from. He and his friend had spent most of the morning hunting, and Tom had used the chance to explain, with proper apologies for his father’s quirks, what to expect. Mr. Yates felt it as keenly as one might expect. Being let down a second time in the same way felt like extremely bad luck; his frustration was so strong that if it wasn't for his consideration for his friend and his friend’s youngest sister, he believed he would have confronted the baronet about his ridiculous behavior and tried to talk some sense into him. He was very convinced of this while walking in Mansfield Wood and all the way home, but there was something about Sir Thomas, when they were all sitting around the same table, that made Mr. Yates think it was smarter to let him carry on as he pleased and realize his foolishness without any pushback. He had encountered many difficult fathers before and frequently noticed the troubles they caused, but never in his life had he seen one so confusingly moral and tyrannical as Sir Thomas. He was not a man anyone could tolerate unless it was for his children’s sake, and he might want to thank his lovely daughter Julia that Mr. Yates still planned to stay a few more days under his roof.

The evening passed with external smoothness, though almost every mind was ruffled; and the music which Sir Thomas called for from his daughters helped to conceal the want of real harmony. Maria was in a good deal of agitation. It was of the utmost consequence to her that Crawford should now lose no time in declaring himself, and she was disturbed that even a day should be gone by without seeming to advance that point. She had been expecting to see him the whole morning, and all the evening, too, was still expecting him. Mr. Rushworth had set off early with the great news for Sotherton; and she had fondly hoped for such an immediate eclaircissement as might save him the trouble of ever coming back again. But they had seen no one from the Parsonage, not a creature, and had heard no tidings beyond a friendly note of congratulation and inquiry from Mrs. Grant to Lady Bertram. It was the first day for many, many weeks, in which the families had been wholly divided. Four-and-twenty hours had never passed before, since August began, without bringing them together in some way or other. It was a sad, anxious day; and the morrow, though differing in the sort of evil, did by no means bring less. A few moments of feverish enjoyment were followed by hours of acute suffering. Henry Crawford was again in the house: he walked up with Dr. Grant, who was anxious to pay his respects to Sir Thomas, and at rather an early hour they were ushered into the breakfast-room, where were most of the family. Sir Thomas soon appeared, and Maria saw with delight and agitation the introduction of the man she loved to her father. Her sensations were indefinable, and so were they a few minutes afterwards upon hearing Henry Crawford, who had a chair between herself and Tom, ask the latter in an undervoice whether there were any plans for resuming the play after the present happy interruption (with a courteous glance at Sir Thomas), because, in that case, he should make a point of returning to Mansfield at any time required by the party: he was going away immediately, being to meet his uncle at Bath without delay; but if there were any prospect of a renewal of Lovers’ Vows, he should hold himself positively engaged, he should break through every other claim, he should absolutely condition with his uncle for attending them whenever he might be wanted. The play should not be lost by his absence.

The evening passed smoothly on the outside, but almost everyone was on edge; the music Sir Thomas requested from his daughters helped to cover up the lack of real harmony. Maria was quite anxious. It was crucial for her that Crawford not waste any time in declaring his feelings, and she was upset that even a single day had gone by without any progress on that front. She had anticipated seeing him all morning and continued to hope he would show up that evening. Mr. Rushworth had left early with exciting news for Sotherton; she had optimistically wished for such an immediate clarification that would save him the hassle of returning. But they hadn’t seen anyone from the Parsonage—not a soul—and had heard nothing except a friendly note of congratulations and inquiry from Mrs. Grant to Lady Bertram. It marked the first day in many weeks that the families had been completely apart. Never before since August had a full 24 hours passed without bringing them together in some way. It was a grim, anxious day; and the next day, though different in the type of trouble, brought no less distress. A few moments of frenzied enjoyment were followed by hours of intense suffering. Henry Crawford was back in the house: he arrived with Dr. Grant, who was eager to pay his respects to Sir Thomas, and at a fairly early hour, they were shown into the breakfast room where most of the family was gathered. Sir Thomas appeared soon after, and Maria watched with both joy and nervousness as the man she loved was introduced to her father. Her feelings were indescribable, and they grew even more complex a few minutes later when she heard Henry Crawford, who was seated between her and Tom, quietly ask Tom if there were any plans to resume the play after this pleasant interruption (with a polite glance at Sir Thomas), because if so, he would make sure to return to Mansfield whenever the group needed him: he was leaving right away to meet his uncle in Bath, but if there was any possibility of reviving Lovers’ Vows, he would definitely make himself available, break off from any other commitment, and absolutely negotiate with his uncle to attend them whenever he was wanted. The play should not suffer from his absence.

“From Bath, Norfolk, London, York, wherever I may be,” said he; “I will attend you from any place in England, at an hour’s notice.”

“From Bath, Norfolk, London, York, wherever I am,” he said; “I'll be there for you from anywhere in England with just an hour's notice.”

It was well at that moment that Tom had to speak, and not his sister. He could immediately say with easy fluency, “I am sorry you are going; but as to our play, that is all over—entirely at an end” (looking significantly at his father). “The painter was sent off yesterday, and very little will remain of the theatre to-morrow. I knew how that would be from the first. It is early for Bath. You will find nobody there.”

It was good that Tom had to speak and not his sister. He could instantly say with ease, “I’m sorry you’re leaving, but as for our play, that is completely finished—totally over” (glancing significantly at his father). “The painter was sent away yesterday, and very little of the theater will be left tomorrow. I knew it would go this way from the start. It’s too soon for Bath. You won’t find anyone there.”

“It is about my uncle’s usual time.”

“It’s about the usual time for my uncle.”

“When do you think of going?”

“When are you thinking of going?”

“I may, perhaps, get as far as Banbury to-day.”

“I might, maybe, make it to Banbury today.”

“Whose stables do you use at Bath?” was the next question; and while this branch of the subject was under discussion, Maria, who wanted neither pride nor resolution, was preparing to encounter her share of it with tolerable calmness.

“Whose stables do you use at Bath?” was the next question; and while this topic was being discussed, Maria, who didn't want to show either pride or determination, was getting ready to face her part of it with reasonable calmness.

To her he soon turned, repeating much of what he had already said, with only a softened air and stronger expressions of regret. But what availed his expressions or his air? He was going, and, if not voluntarily going, voluntarily intending to stay away; for, excepting what might be due to his uncle, his engagements were all self-imposed. He might talk of necessity, but she knew his independence. The hand which had so pressed hers to his heart! the hand and the heart were alike motionless and passive now! Her spirit supported her, but the agony of her mind was severe. She had not long to endure what arose from listening to language which his actions contradicted, or to bury the tumult of her feelings under the restraint of society; for general civilities soon called his notice from her, and the farewell visit, as it then became openly acknowledged, was a very short one. He was gone—he had touched her hand for the last time, he had made his parting bow, and she might seek directly all that solitude could do for her. Henry Crawford was gone, gone from the house, and within two hours afterwards from the parish; and so ended all the hopes his selfish vanity had raised in Maria and Julia Bertram.

He soon turned to her, repeating much of what he had already said, but with a softer tone and stronger expressions of regret. But what good were his words or demeanor? He was leaving, and whether he was doing so willingly or not, he intended to stay away; aside from what might be owed to his uncle, his commitments were all made by himself. He could talk about necessity, but she knew he was independent. The hand that had pressed hers to his heart was now still and unmoving, just like his heart! Her spirit kept her strong, but the pain in her mind was intense. She wouldn’t have to endure long the conflict between his words and his actions or suppress her feelings under the weight of social expectations; soon enough, general pleasantries pulled his attention away from her, and the farewell visit, as it was now openly acknowledged, was very brief. He was gone—he had held her hand for the last time, made his parting bow, and she could now seek whatever solitude could provide. Henry Crawford was gone, left the house, and within two hours, he had also left the parish; thus ended all the hopes his selfish vanity had inspired in Maria and Julia Bertram.

Julia could rejoice that he was gone. His presence was beginning to be odious to her; and if Maria gained him not, she was now cool enough to dispense with any other revenge. She did not want exposure to be added to desertion. Henry Crawford gone, she could even pity her sister.

Julia could be glad that he was gone. His presence was starting to annoy her, and if Maria didn’t get him, she was now calm enough to let go of any desire for revenge. She didn’t want the pain of being exposed to be added to the hurt of being deserted. With Henry Crawford gone, she could even feel sorry for her sister.

With a purer spirit did Fanny rejoice in the intelligence. She heard it at dinner, and felt it a blessing. By all the others it was mentioned with regret; and his merits honoured with due gradation of feeling—from the sincerity of Edmund’s too partial regard, to the unconcern of his mother speaking entirely by rote. Mrs. Norris began to look about her, and wonder that his falling in love with Julia had come to nothing; and could almost fear that she had been remiss herself in forwarding it; but with so many to care for, how was it possible for even her activity to keep pace with her wishes?

Fanny celebrated the news with a joyful heart. She heard it at dinner and felt it was a blessing. Everyone else mentioned it with sadness, honoring his qualities with varying levels of emotion—from Edmund’s heartfelt admiration to his mother’s indifferent comments as if she were just reciting lines. Mrs. Norris started to look around and wondered why his feelings for Julia hadn’t led anywhere; she almost feared she had neglected to help it along, but with so many people to worry about, how could even her energy keep up with her intentions?

Another day or two, and Mr. Yates was gone likewise. In his departure Sir Thomas felt the chief interest: wanting to be alone with his family, the presence of a stranger superior to Mr. Yates must have been irksome; but of him, trifling and confident, idle and expensive, it was every way vexatious. In himself he was wearisome, but as the friend of Tom and the admirer of Julia he became offensive. Sir Thomas had been quite indifferent to Mr. Crawford’s going or staying: but his good wishes for Mr. Yates’s having a pleasant journey, as he walked with him to the hall-door, were given with genuine satisfaction. Mr. Yates had staid to see the destruction of every theatrical preparation at Mansfield, the removal of everything appertaining to the play: he left the house in all the soberness of its general character; and Sir Thomas hoped, in seeing him out of it, to be rid of the worst object connected with the scheme, and the last that must be inevitably reminding him of its existence.

Another day or two passed, and Mr. Yates was gone as well. In his departure, Sir Thomas felt the main relief: wanting to be alone with his family, the presence of a stranger better than Mr. Yates must have been annoying; but Mr. Yates, who was trivial and self-assured, lazy and costly, was particularly bothersome. On his own, he was tiresome, but as Tom's friend and Julia's admirer, he became irritating. Sir Thomas didn't care much whether Mr. Crawford stayed or left: but his well wishes for Mr. Yates to have a nice trip, as he walked with him to the front door, were genuinely heartfelt. Mr. Yates had stayed to see the end of all the theatrical preparations at Mansfield, the removal of everything related to the play: he left the house in all its usual seriousness; and Sir Thomas hoped that by seeing him out, he would finally be rid of the worst aspect connected with the plan, as well as the last reminder of its existence.

Mrs. Norris contrived to remove one article from his sight that might have distressed him. The curtain, over which she had presided with such talent and such success, went off with her to her cottage, where she happened to be particularly in want of green baize.

Mrs. Norris managed to take away one item from his view that could have upset him. The curtain, which she had handled with such skill and success, went with her to her cottage, where she just happened to need green baize.

CHAPTER XXI

Sir Thomas’s return made a striking change in the ways of the family, independent of Lovers’ Vows. Under his government, Mansfield was an altered place. Some members of their society sent away, and the spirits of many others saddened—it was all sameness and gloom compared with the past—a sombre family party rarely enlivened. There was little intercourse with the Parsonage. Sir Thomas, drawing back from intimacies in general, was particularly disinclined, at this time, for any engagements but in one quarter. The Rushworths were the only addition to his own domestic circle which he could solicit.

Sir Thomas's return made a noticeable change in the family dynamics, regardless of Lovers’ Vows. Under his authority, Mansfield was a different place. Some members of their social circle were sent away, and the spirits of many others were dampened—it was all dullness and sadness compared to the past—a gloomy family gathering that was rarely brightened. There was little interaction with the Parsonage. Sir Thomas, pulling back from close relationships in general, was especially unwilling, at this time, to engage with anyone except in one area. The Rushworths were the only new addition to his own home life that he could invite.

Edmund did not wonder that such should be his father’s feelings, nor could he regret anything but the exclusion of the Grants. “But they,” he observed to Fanny, “have a claim. They seem to belong to us; they seem to be part of ourselves. I could wish my father were more sensible of their very great attention to my mother and sisters while he was away. I am afraid they may feel themselves neglected. But the truth is, that my father hardly knows them. They had not been here a twelvemonth when he left England. If he knew them better, he would value their society as it deserves; for they are in fact exactly the sort of people he would like. We are sometimes a little in want of animation among ourselves: my sisters seem out of spirits, and Tom is certainly not at his ease. Dr. and Mrs. Grant would enliven us, and make our evenings pass away with more enjoyment even to my father.”

Edmund didn’t question his father’s feelings, nor could he regret anything except the exclusion of the Grants. “But they,” he said to Fanny, “have a right to be here. They feel like they belong to us; they feel like a part of us. I wish my father was more aware of how much they cared for my mother and sisters while he was away. I’m worried they might feel overlooked. But the truth is, my father hardly knows them. He left England before they had even been here a year. If he knew them better, he would appreciate their company as it should be; they’re exactly the kind of people he would enjoy. We sometimes lack energy among ourselves: my sisters seem down, and Tom definitely isn’t comfortable. Dr. and Mrs. Grant would bring some life to us and make our evenings more enjoyable, even for my father.”

“Do you think so?” said Fanny: “in my opinion, my uncle would not like any addition. I think he values the very quietness you speak of, and that the repose of his own family circle is all he wants. And it does not appear to me that we are more serious than we used to be—I mean before my uncle went abroad. As well as I can recollect, it was always much the same. There was never much laughing in his presence; or, if there is any difference, it is not more, I think, than such an absence has a tendency to produce at first. There must be a sort of shyness; but I cannot recollect that our evenings formerly were ever merry, except when my uncle was in town. No young people’s are, I suppose, when those they look up to are at home”.

“Do you really think so?” Fanny said. “I believe my uncle wouldn’t want any change at all. I think he appreciates the quietness you mentioned, and he just wants the comfort of his family around him. It also seems to me that we aren’t any more serious than we used to be—I mean before my uncle went abroad. As far as I can remember, it was always pretty much the same. There was never much laughter when he was around; if there is any difference, it’s probably just the kind of awkwardness that comes with the absence at first. There has to be a bit of shyness, but I can’t remember our evenings ever being particularly cheerful, except when my uncle was in town. I guess no young people’s gatherings are lively when those they look up to are home.”

“I believe you are right, Fanny,” was his reply, after a short consideration. “I believe our evenings are rather returned to what they were, than assuming a new character. The novelty was in their being lively. Yet, how strong the impression that only a few weeks will give! I have been feeling as if we had never lived so before.”

“I think you’re right, Fanny,” he replied after a moment of thought. “I believe our evenings are pretty much back to how they used to be rather than taking on a new vibe. The excitement was in how lively they were. Yet, it’s amazing how strong an impression just a few weeks can make! I’ve been feeling like we’ve never lived like this before.”

“I suppose I am graver than other people,” said Fanny. “The evenings do not appear long to me. I love to hear my uncle talk of the West Indies. I could listen to him for an hour together. It entertains me more than many other things have done; but then I am unlike other people, I dare say.”

“I guess I’m more serious than other people,” said Fanny. “Evenings don’t feel long to me. I enjoy listening to my uncle talk about the West Indies. I could listen to him for an hour straight. It entertains me more than a lot of other things do; but then again, I’m probably different from most people.”

“Why should you dare say that?” (smiling). “Do you want to be told that you are only unlike other people in being more wise and discreet? But when did you, or anybody, ever get a compliment from me, Fanny? Go to my father if you want to be complimented. He will satisfy you. Ask your uncle what he thinks, and you will hear compliments enough: and though they may be chiefly on your person, you must put up with it, and trust to his seeing as much beauty of mind in time.”

“Why would you even say that?” (smiling). “Do you want me to tell you that you’re just different from others because you’re wiser and more careful? But when did you or anyone else ever get a compliment from me, Fanny? Go to my dad if you want compliments. He’ll give you plenty. Ask your uncle what he thinks, and you’ll get enough compliments: and even though they might mostly be about your looks, you’ll have to accept it and hope he notices your inner beauty eventually.”

Such language was so new to Fanny that it quite embarrassed her.

Such language was so new to Fanny that it made her feel pretty awkward.

“Your uncle thinks you very pretty, dear Fanny—and that is the long and the short of the matter. Anybody but myself would have made something more of it, and anybody but you would resent that you had not been thought very pretty before; but the truth is, that your uncle never did admire you till now—and now he does. Your complexion is so improved!—and you have gained so much countenance!—and your figure—nay, Fanny, do not turn away about it—it is but an uncle. If you cannot bear an uncle’s admiration, what is to become of you? You must really begin to harden yourself to the idea of being worth looking at. You must try not to mind growing up into a pretty woman.”

“Your uncle thinks you're really pretty, dear Fanny—and that's the whole point. Anyone else would have made a bigger deal out of it, and anyone but you would feel annoyed that they weren’t considered pretty before; but honestly, your uncle never admired you until now—and now he does. Your complexion has improved so much!—and you’ve gained so much confidence!—and your figure—come on, Fanny, don’t shy away from this—it’s just an uncle. If you can’t handle an uncle’s admiration, what’s going to happen to you? You really need to start getting used to the idea that you’re worth looking at. You have to try not to worry about becoming a beautiful woman.”

“Oh! don’t talk so, don’t talk so,” cried Fanny, distressed by more feelings than he was aware of; but seeing that she was distressed, he had done with the subject, and only added more seriously—

“Oh! don’t say that, don’t say that,” Fanny exclaimed, overwhelmed by more emotions than he realized; but noticing her distress, he dropped the topic and only added more seriously—

“Your uncle is disposed to be pleased with you in every respect; and I only wish you would talk to him more. You are one of those who are too silent in the evening circle.”

“Your uncle tends to be pleased with you in every way, and I just wish you would talk to him more. You’re one of those people who are too quiet in the evening gatherings.”

“But I do talk to him more than I used. I am sure I do. Did not you hear me ask him about the slave-trade last night?”

“But I talk to him more than I used to. I’m sure of it. Didn’t you hear me ask him about the slave trade last night?”

“I did—and was in hopes the question would be followed up by others. It would have pleased your uncle to be inquired of farther.”

“I did—and I was hoping others would also ask questions. It would have made your uncle happy to be asked more.”

“And I longed to do it—but there was such a dead silence! And while my cousins were sitting by without speaking a word, or seeming at all interested in the subject, I did not like—I thought it would appear as if I wanted to set myself off at their expense, by shewing a curiosity and pleasure in his information which he must wish his own daughters to feel.”

“And I really wanted to do it—but there was such an awkward silence! While my cousins sat there without saying a word or seeming interested at all, I felt uneasy—I thought it would look like I was trying to show off at their expense by showing curiosity and enjoying his information in a way that he probably wanted his own daughters to feel.”

“Miss Crawford was very right in what she said of you the other day: that you seemed almost as fearful of notice and praise as other women were of neglect. We were talking of you at the Parsonage, and those were her words. She has great discernment. I know nobody who distinguishes characters better. For so young a woman it is remarkable! She certainly understands you better than you are understood by the greater part of those who have known you so long; and with regard to some others, I can perceive, from occasional lively hints, the unguarded expressions of the moment, that she could define many as accurately, did not delicacy forbid it. I wonder what she thinks of my father! She must admire him as a fine-looking man, with most gentlemanlike, dignified, consistent manners; but perhaps, having seen him so seldom, his reserve may be a little repulsive. Could they be much together, I feel sure of their liking each other. He would enjoy her liveliness and she has talents to value his powers. I wish they met more frequently! I hope she does not suppose there is any dislike on his side.”

“Miss Crawford was absolutely right about you the other day: you seem almost as afraid of attention and praise as other women are of being overlooked. We were discussing you at the Parsonage, and those were her words. She has great insight. I don’t know anyone who understands people better. For such a young woman, that’s impressive! She definitely understands you better than most of the people who have known you for so long; and as for others, I can tell from her occasional lively hints and candid remarks that she could define many of them just as accurately, if politeness didn’t hold her back. I wonder what she thinks of my father! She must see him as a handsome man with very gentlemanly, dignified, and consistent manners; but maybe, having seen him so rarely, his reserve could come off as a bit off-putting. If they spent more time together, I’m sure they would like each other. He would appreciate her energy, and she has the talent to recognize his strengths. I wish they could meet more often! I hope she doesn’t think there’s any dislike from him.”

“She must know herself too secure of the regard of all the rest of you,” said Fanny, with half a sigh, “to have any such apprehension. And Sir Thomas’s wishing just at first to be only with his family, is so very natural, that she can argue nothing from that. After a little while, I dare say, we shall be meeting again in the same sort of way, allowing for the difference of the time of year.”

“She must be pretty confident about how the rest of you feel,” said Fanny, with a soft sigh, “to have any worries like that. And Sir Thomas wanting to spend some time only with his family at first is totally understandable, so she can’t read anything into that. After a while, I’m sure we’ll be hanging out again in a similar way, considering the change in season.”

“This is the first October that she has passed in the country since her infancy. I do not call Tunbridge or Cheltenham the country; and November is a still more serious month, and I can see that Mrs. Grant is very anxious for her not finding Mansfield dull as winter comes on.”

“This is the first October she’s spent in the countryside since she was a baby. I don’t consider Tunbridge or Cheltenham as true countryside, and November will be an even bigger challenge. I can tell that Mrs. Grant is really worried about her finding Mansfield boring as winter approaches.”

Fanny could have said a great deal, but it was safer to say nothing, and leave untouched all Miss Crawford’s resources—her accomplishments, her spirits, her importance, her friends, lest it should betray her into any observations seemingly unhandsome. Miss Crawford’s kind opinion of herself deserved at least a grateful forbearance, and she began to talk of something else.

Fanny could have said a lot, but it was safer to stay silent and avoid touching on all of Miss Crawford's strengths—her talents, her energy, her significance, her friendships—so she wouldn't be led into making any comments that could come off as ungracious. Miss Crawford's positive view of herself deserved at least a respectful silence, and she started to discuss something else.

“To-morrow, I think, my uncle dines at Sotherton, and you and Mr. Bertram too. We shall be quite a small party at home. I hope my uncle may continue to like Mr. Rushworth.”

"Tomorrow, I believe, my uncle is having dinner at Sotherton with you and Mr. Bertram as well. We'll be a pretty small group at home. I hope my uncle still appreciates Mr. Rushworth."

“That is impossible, Fanny. He must like him less after to-morrow’s visit, for we shall be five hours in his company. I should dread the stupidity of the day, if there were not a much greater evil to follow—the impression it must leave on Sir Thomas. He cannot much longer deceive himself. I am sorry for them all, and would give something that Rushworth and Maria had never met.”

"That’s impossible, Fanny. He’s definitely going to like him less after tomorrow’s visit because we’ll be stuck with him for five hours. I would dread the boredom of the day if it weren’t for the bigger problem that will come after—the impression it’s going to leave on Sir Thomas. He can’t keep fooling himself for much longer. I feel bad for all of them and wish that Rushworth and Maria had never met."

In this quarter, indeed, disappointment was impending over Sir Thomas. Not all his good-will for Mr. Rushworth, not all Mr. Rushworth’s deference for him, could prevent him from soon discerning some part of the truth—that Mr. Rushworth was an inferior young man, as ignorant in business as in books, with opinions in general unfixed, and without seeming much aware of it himself.

In this quarter, disappointment was clearly on the horizon for Sir Thomas. Not all his goodwill towards Mr. Rushworth, nor all of Mr. Rushworth’s respect for him, could stop him from quickly realizing part of the truth—that Mr. Rushworth was an inferior young man, just as clueless in practical matters as he was in academics, with generally unstable opinions, and without seeming to be very aware of it himself.

He had expected a very different son-in-law; and beginning to feel grave on Maria’s account, tried to understand her feelings. Little observation there was necessary to tell him that indifference was the most favourable state they could be in. Her behaviour to Mr. Rushworth was careless and cold. She could not, did not like him. Sir Thomas resolved to speak seriously to her. Advantageous as would be the alliance, and long standing and public as was the engagement, her happiness must not be sacrificed to it. Mr. Rushworth had, perhaps, been accepted on too short an acquaintance, and, on knowing him better, she was repenting.

He had expected a very different son-in-law, and starting to worry about Maria, he tried to understand her feelings. It was clear that indifference was the best situation they could be in. Her behavior towards Mr. Rushworth was careless and distant. She didn’t like him, and Sir Thomas decided to have a serious talk with her. Even though the alliance would be beneficial and their engagement was long-standing and public, her happiness should not be sacrificed for it. Mr. Rushworth may have been accepted too quickly, and now, as she got to know him better, she was starting to regret it.

With solemn kindness Sir Thomas addressed her: told her his fears, inquired into her wishes, entreated her to be open and sincere, and assured her that every inconvenience should be braved, and the connexion entirely given up, if she felt herself unhappy in the prospect of it. He would act for her and release her. Maria had a moment’s struggle as she listened, and only a moment’s: when her father ceased, she was able to give her answer immediately, decidedly, and with no apparent agitation. She thanked him for his great attention, his paternal kindness, but he was quite mistaken in supposing she had the smallest desire of breaking through her engagement, or was sensible of any change of opinion or inclination since her forming it. She had the highest esteem for Mr. Rushworth’s character and disposition, and could not have a doubt of her happiness with him.

With sincere kindness, Sir Thomas spoke to her: he shared his worries, asked about her desires, begged her to be open and honest, and assured her that he would face any challenges and completely end the engagement if she felt unhappy about it. He would do what was best for her and set her free. Maria had a brief internal struggle as she listened, just a moment: when her father finished, she was able to respond right away, clearly, and without any visible distress. She thanked him for his great concern and fatherly kindness, but he was completely wrong to think she had the slightest wish to break off her engagement or that she felt any change of mind or feeling since she made it. She held Mr. Rushworth in the highest regard and had no doubts about her happiness with him.

Sir Thomas was satisfied; too glad to be satisfied, perhaps, to urge the matter quite so far as his judgment might have dictated to others. It was an alliance which he could not have relinquished without pain; and thus he reasoned. Mr. Rushworth was young enough to improve. Mr. Rushworth must and would improve in good society; and if Maria could now speak so securely of her happiness with him, speaking certainly without the prejudice, the blindness of love, she ought to be believed. Her feelings, probably, were not acute; he had never supposed them to be so; but her comforts might not be less on that account; and if she could dispense with seeing her husband a leading, shining character, there would certainly be everything else in her favour. A well-disposed young woman, who did not marry for love, was in general but the more attached to her own family; and the nearness of Sotherton to Mansfield must naturally hold out the greatest temptation, and would, in all probability, be a continual supply of the most amiable and innocent enjoyments. Such and such-like were the reasonings of Sir Thomas, happy to escape the embarrassing evils of a rupture, the wonder, the reflections, the reproach that must attend it; happy to secure a marriage which would bring him such an addition of respectability and influence, and very happy to think anything of his daughter’s disposition that was most favourable for the purpose.

Sir Thomas was content; maybe too pleased to be content, to push the issue as far as he might have advised others. It was a partnership he couldn't let go of without feeling pain; and so he reasoned. Mr. Rushworth was young enough to grow. Mr. Rushworth would definitely improve in a good environment; and if Maria could now confidently talk about her happiness with him, certainly without the bias or blindness of love, she should be taken at her word. Her feelings probably weren’t intense; he never thought they would be; but that didn't mean her comforts weren't valid; and if she could do without having her husband as a prominent, shining figure, there would definitely be everything else going for her. A young woman of good character who didn’t marry for love generally became even closer with her own family; and the close proximity of Sotherton to Mansfield would naturally offer plenty of temptation, providing a continuous source of the most pleasant and innocent joys. Such thoughts were the reasoning of Sir Thomas, relieved to dodge the uncomfortable issues of a breakup, the curiosity, the thoughts, the blame that would follow; pleased to secure a marriage that would bring him more respectability and influence, and very glad to think of his daughter’s feelings in a way that highlighted the positives for this purpose.

To her the conference closed as satisfactorily as to him. She was in a state of mind to be glad that she had secured her fate beyond recall: that she had pledged herself anew to Sotherton; that she was safe from the possibility of giving Crawford the triumph of governing her actions, and destroying her prospects; and retired in proud resolve, determined only to behave more cautiously to Mr. Rushworth in future, that her father might not be again suspecting her.

To her, the conference ended just as positively as it did for him. She felt relieved that she had secured her future beyond any doubt: that she had committed herself again to Sotherton; that she was free from the risk of letting Crawford influence her actions and ruin her chances; and she left with a sense of pride, resolved to be more careful with Mr. Rushworth going forward, so her father wouldn't suspect her again.

Had Sir Thomas applied to his daughter within the first three or four days after Henry Crawford’s leaving Mansfield, before her feelings were at all tranquillised, before she had given up every hope of him, or absolutely resolved on enduring his rival, her answer might have been different; but after another three or four days, when there was no return, no letter, no message, no symptom of a softened heart, no hope of advantage from separation, her mind became cool enough to seek all the comfort that pride and self revenge could give.

Had Sir Thomas talked to his daughter within the first three or four days after Henry Crawford left Mansfield, before her feelings had settled down, before she had completely given up on him or decided to tolerate his rival, her response might have been different. But after another three or four days, with no sign of return, no letter, no message, no indication of a softened heart, and no hope of any benefits from the separation, her mind became calm enough to find solace in pride and self-revenge.

Henry Crawford had destroyed her happiness, but he should not know that he had done it; he should not destroy her credit, her appearance, her prosperity, too. He should not have to think of her as pining in the retirement of Mansfield for him, rejecting Sotherton and London, independence and splendour, for his sake. Independence was more needful than ever; the want of it at Mansfield more sensibly felt. She was less and less able to endure the restraint which her father imposed. The liberty which his absence had given was now become absolutely necessary. She must escape from him and Mansfield as soon as possible, and find consolation in fortune and consequence, bustle and the world, for a wounded spirit. Her mind was quite determined, and varied not.

Henry Crawford had ruined her happiness, but he shouldn’t know he did; he shouldn’t ruin her reputation, her appearance, her success, too. He shouldn’t have to think of her longing in the solitude of Mansfield for him, turning down Sotherton and London, freedom and luxury, for his sake. Independence was more essential than ever; the lack of it at Mansfield was felt more deeply. She was finding it harder to tolerate the restrictions her father placed on her. The freedom his absence had provided was now absolutely necessary. She needed to break away from him and Mansfield as soon as possible and seek comfort in wealth and status, excitement and the world, for a wounded spirit. Her mind was set, and it didn’t waver.

To such feelings delay, even the delay of much preparation, would have been an evil, and Mr. Rushworth could hardly be more impatient for the marriage than herself. In all the important preparations of the mind she was complete: being prepared for matrimony by an hatred of home, restraint, and tranquillity; by the misery of disappointed affection, and contempt of the man she was to marry. The rest might wait. The preparations of new carriages and furniture might wait for London and spring, when her own taste could have fairer play.

To feel such things delayed, even the delay of a lot of preparation, would have been a bad thing, and Mr. Rushworth couldn't be more eager for the marriage than she was. In all the significant mental preparations, she was ready: prepared for marriage by a dislike of home, restriction, and calm; by the pain of unfulfilled love, and disdain for the man she was going to marry. The rest could wait. The arrangements for new carriages and furniture could wait for London and spring, when her own taste could be expressed better.

The principals being all agreed in this respect, it soon appeared that a very few weeks would be sufficient for such arrangements as must precede the wedding.

The principals all agreed on this, and it soon became clear that just a few weeks would be enough for the preparations that needed to happen before the wedding.

Mrs. Rushworth was quite ready to retire, and make way for the fortunate young woman whom her dear son had selected; and very early in November removed herself, her maid, her footman, and her chariot, with true dowager propriety, to Bath, there to parade over the wonders of Sotherton in her evening parties; enjoying them as thoroughly, perhaps, in the animation of a card-table, as she had ever done on the spot; and before the middle of the same month the ceremony had taken place which gave Sotherton another mistress.

Mrs. Rushworth was more than happy to step aside for the lucky young woman her son had chosen; so, very early in November, she took herself, her maid, her footman, and her carriage, with all the decorum expected of a dowager, to Bath. There, she would proudly discuss the wonders of Sotherton at her evening gatherings, enjoying them just as much, perhaps, in the excitement of a card game, as she ever had in person; and before the middle of that same month, the ceremony had occurred that made Sotherton the home of another mistress.

It was a very proper wedding. The bride was elegantly dressed; the two bridesmaids were duly inferior; her father gave her away; her mother stood with salts in her hand, expecting to be agitated; her aunt tried to cry; and the service was impressively read by Dr. Grant. Nothing could be objected to when it came under the discussion of the neighbourhood, except that the carriage which conveyed the bride and bridegroom and Julia from the church-door to Sotherton was the same chaise which Mr. Rushworth had used for a twelvemonth before. In everything else the etiquette of the day might stand the strictest investigation.

It was a very proper wedding. The bride was elegantly dressed; the two bridesmaids were appropriately less impressive; her father gave her away; her mother stood with smelling salts in her hand, expecting to feel faint; her aunt tried to cry; and the service was impressively conducted by Dr. Grant. Nothing could be criticized when the neighborhood discussed it, except that the carriage that took the bride and groom and Julia from the church door to Sotherton was the same one that Mr. Rushworth had used for a year before. In every other aspect, the etiquette of the day could withstand the strictest examination.

It was done, and they were gone. Sir Thomas felt as an anxious father must feel, and was indeed experiencing much of the agitation which his wife had been apprehensive of for herself, but had fortunately escaped. Mrs. Norris, most happy to assist in the duties of the day, by spending it at the Park to support her sister’s spirits, and drinking the health of Mr. and Mrs. Rushworth in a supernumerary glass or two, was all joyous delight; for she had made the match; she had done everything; and no one would have supposed, from her confident triumph, that she had ever heard of conjugal infelicity in her life, or could have the smallest insight into the disposition of the niece who had been brought up under her eye.

It was done, and they were gone. Sir Thomas felt like an anxious father must feel and was indeed experiencing much of the anxiety his wife had feared for herself, but had fortunately avoided. Mrs. Norris, thrilled to help with the day's duties by spending it at the Park to lift her sister’s spirits and toasting Mr. and Mrs. Rushworth with a couple of extra drinks, was filled with joy; she had orchestrated the match, she had done it all, and no one would have guessed from her confident triumph that she had ever heard of marital unhappiness in her life, or could have the slightest understanding of the temperament of the niece raised under her watchful eye.

The plan of the young couple was to proceed, after a few days, to Brighton, and take a house there for some weeks. Every public place was new to Maria, and Brighton is almost as gay in winter as in summer. When the novelty of amusement there was over, it would be time for the wider range of London.

The young couple planned to head to Brighton after a few days and rent a house for a few weeks. Every public place was new to Maria, and Brighton is almost as lively in winter as it is in summer. Once the excitement of visiting there faded, it would be time to explore the bigger city of London.

Julia was to go with them to Brighton. Since rivalry between the sisters had ceased, they had been gradually recovering much of their former good understanding; and were at least sufficiently friends to make each of them exceedingly glad to be with the other at such a time. Some other companion than Mr. Rushworth was of the first consequence to his lady; and Julia was quite as eager for novelty and pleasure as Maria, though she might not have struggled through so much to obtain them, and could better bear a subordinate situation.

Julia was set to go with them to Brighton. Since the rivalry between the sisters had ended, they had gradually been rekindling much of their earlier friendship; and they were at least friendly enough to genuinely enjoy each other's company at such a time. Having another companion besides Mr. Rushworth was very important to his lady; and Julia was just as eager for new experiences and fun as Maria, even if she hadn’t gone through as much to get them and was more comfortable in a supporting role.

Their departure made another material change at Mansfield, a chasm which required some time to fill up. The family circle became greatly contracted; and though the Miss Bertrams had latterly added little to its gaiety, they could not but be missed. Even their mother missed them; and how much more their tenderhearted cousin, who wandered about the house, and thought of them, and felt for them, with a degree of affectionate regret which they had never done much to deserve!

Their departure created a significant change at Mansfield, leaving a gap that took time to fill. The family circle became much smaller; and although the Miss Bertrams hadn’t contributed much to the fun lately, they were still missed. Even their mother felt their absence; and how much more their caring cousin, who roamed around the house, thought about them, and felt for them, with a level of affectionate sadness that they had never truly earned!

CHAPTER XXII

Fanny’s consequence increased on the departure of her cousins. Becoming, as she then did, the only young woman in the drawing-room, the only occupier of that interesting division of a family in which she had hitherto held so humble a third, it was impossible for her not to be more looked at, more thought of and attended to, than she had ever been before; and “Where is Fanny?” became no uncommon question, even without her being wanted for any one’s convenience.

Fanny's status rose with the departure of her cousins. Now, as the only young woman in the drawing-room and the sole occupant of that intriguing part of the family where she had previously held such a modest position, it was impossible for her not to be observed, thought about, and given more attention than ever before; and "Where is Fanny?" became a common question, even when she wasn't needed for anyone's convenience.

Not only at home did her value increase, but at the Parsonage too. In that house, which she had hardly entered twice a year since Mr. Norris’s death, she became a welcome, an invited guest, and in the gloom and dirt of a November day, most acceptable to Mary Crawford. Her visits there, beginning by chance, were continued by solicitation. Mrs. Grant, really eager to get any change for her sister, could, by the easiest self-deceit, persuade herself that she was doing the kindest thing by Fanny, and giving her the most important opportunities of improvement in pressing her frequent calls.

Not only did her worth grow at home, but also at the Parsonage. In that house, which she had barely visited more than twice a year since Mr. Norris's death, she became a welcome and invited guest, particularly appreciated by Mary Crawford on a gloomy, dirty November day. Her visits there, which started by chance, continued because of requests. Mrs. Grant, genuinely eager to bring any change for her sister, was easily able to convince herself that she was doing the kindest thing for Fanny, providing her with valuable opportunities for growth by encouraging her frequent visits.

Fanny, having been sent into the village on some errand by her aunt Norris, was overtaken by a heavy shower close to the Parsonage; and being descried from one of the windows endeavouring to find shelter under the branches and lingering leaves of an oak just beyond their premises, was forced, though not without some modest reluctance on her part, to come in. A civil servant she had withstood; but when Dr. Grant himself went out with an umbrella, there was nothing to be done but to be very much ashamed, and to get into the house as fast as possible; and to poor Miss Crawford, who had just been contemplating the dismal rain in a very desponding state of mind, sighing over the ruin of all her plan of exercise for that morning, and of every chance of seeing a single creature beyond themselves for the next twenty-four hours, the sound of a little bustle at the front door, and the sight of Miss Price dripping with wet in the vestibule, was delightful. The value of an event on a wet day in the country was most forcibly brought before her. She was all alive again directly, and among the most active in being useful to Fanny, in detecting her to be wetter than she would at first allow, and providing her with dry clothes; and Fanny, after being obliged to submit to all this attention, and to being assisted and waited on by mistresses and maids, being also obliged, on returning downstairs, to be fixed in their drawing-room for an hour while the rain continued, the blessing of something fresh to see and think of was thus extended to Miss Crawford, and might carry on her spirits to the period of dressing and dinner.

Fanny, sent to the village on an errand by her aunt Norris, was caught in a heavy rainstorm near the Parsonage. Spotted from one of the windows trying to find shelter under the branches and leaves of an oak just outside their property, she was reluctantly forced to come inside. She had managed to ignore a polite servant, but when Dr. Grant himself stepped out with an umbrella, she felt nothing but shame and hurried inside. For poor Miss Crawford, who had been staring at the dreary rain, feeling hopeless about her exercise plans for the morning and the lack of company for the next twenty-four hours, the sound of a commotion at the front door and the sight of Miss Price dripping wet in the vestibule was a delightful surprise. The significance of an event on a rainy day in the countryside hit her hard. She immediately felt energized and was among the first to help Fanny, quickly noticing that she was wetter than she had initially admitted and providing her with dry clothes. Fanny, after being obliged to accept all this attention and being assisted by both mistresses and maids, also had to stay in their drawing-room for an hour while the rain continued. This fresh distraction brought Miss Crawford some joy and likely lifted her spirits until it was time to get ready for dinner.

The two sisters were so kind to her, and so pleasant, that Fanny might have enjoyed her visit could she have believed herself not in the way, and could she have foreseen that the weather would certainly clear at the end of the hour, and save her from the shame of having Dr. Grant’s carriage and horses out to take her home, with which she was threatened. As to anxiety for any alarm that her absence in such weather might occasion at home, she had nothing to suffer on that score; for as her being out was known only to her two aunts, she was perfectly aware that none would be felt, and that in whatever cottage aunt Norris might chuse to establish her during the rain, her being in such cottage would be indubitable to aunt Bertram.

The two sisters were so kind and friendly to her that Fanny might have enjoyed her visit if she could have believed she wasn't a burden and if she had known for sure that the weather would clear up right after an hour, sparing her the embarrassment of needing Dr. Grant’s carriage and horses to take her home, which she feared. As for worrying about any concern that her absence in such weather might cause at home, she felt no anxiety about that; since only her two aunts knew she was out, she was completely sure that no one would worry, and whichever cottage Aunt Norris chose to stay in during the rain, Aunt Bertram would definitely know she was there.

It was beginning to look brighter, when Fanny, observing a harp in the room, asked some questions about it, which soon led to an acknowledgment of her wishing very much to hear it, and a confession, which could hardly be believed, of her having never yet heard it since its being in Mansfield. To Fanny herself it appeared a very simple and natural circumstance. She had scarcely ever been at the Parsonage since the instrument’s arrival, there had been no reason that she should; but Miss Crawford, calling to mind an early expressed wish on the subject, was concerned at her own neglect; and “Shall I play to you now?” and “What will you have?” were questions immediately following with the readiest good-humour.

It was starting to look brighter when Fanny, noticing a harp in the room, asked some questions about it, which quickly led to her admitting that she really wanted to hear it, and confessing, almost in disbelief, that she had never heard it since it arrived in Mansfield. To Fanny, it seemed like a very simple and natural situation. She had hardly ever been at the Parsonage since the instrument's arrival, and there was really no reason for her to be there; however, Miss Crawford, recalling an earlier expressed wish on the topic, felt bad about her own neglect. "Shall I play for you now?" and "What do you want to hear?" were the first questions she asked with the friendliest good humor.

She played accordingly; happy to have a new listener, and a listener who seemed so much obliged, so full of wonder at the performance, and who shewed herself not wanting in taste. She played till Fanny’s eyes, straying to the window on the weather’s being evidently fair, spoke what she felt must be done.

She played accordingly, happy to have a new audience—someone who seemed genuinely appreciative, full of curiosity about the performance, and who demonstrated good taste. She continued playing until Fanny’s eyes wandered to the window, noticing that the weather was clearly nice, expressing what she felt had to be done.

“Another quarter of an hour,” said Miss Crawford, “and we shall see how it will be. Do not run away the first moment of its holding up. Those clouds look alarming.”

“Another fifteen minutes,” said Miss Crawford, “and we’ll see how it goes. Don’t leave the moment it starts to clear up. Those clouds look pretty threatening.”

“But they are passed over,” said Fanny. “I have been watching them. This weather is all from the south.”

“But they are ignored,” Fanny said. “I’ve been keeping an eye on them. This weather is all coming from the south.”

“South or north, I know a black cloud when I see it; and you must not set forward while it is so threatening. And besides, I want to play something more to you—a very pretty piece—and your cousin Edmund’s prime favourite. You must stay and hear your cousin’s favourite.”

“Whether it’s south or north, I can recognize a black cloud when I see one; and you shouldn’t move ahead while it looks so ominous. Besides, I want to play something else for you—a really nice piece that’s your cousin Edmund’s absolute favorite. You have to stay and listen to your cousin’s favorite.”

Fanny felt that she must; and though she had not waited for that sentence to be thinking of Edmund, such a memento made her particularly awake to his idea, and she fancied him sitting in that room again and again, perhaps in the very spot where she sat now, listening with constant delight to the favourite air, played, as it appeared to her, with superior tone and expression; and though pleased with it herself, and glad to like whatever was liked by him, she was more sincerely impatient to go away at the conclusion of it than she had been before; and on this being evident, she was so kindly asked to call again, to take them in her walk whenever she could, to come and hear more of the harp, that she felt it necessary to be done, if no objection arose at home.

Fanny felt that she had to do it; and even though she hadn’t waited for that moment to be thinking of Edmund, this reminder made her particularly aware of him. She imagined him sitting in that room over and over, perhaps in the same spot where she was now, listening with constant joy to the favorite tune, played, as it seemed to her, with greater tone and expression. While she was happy with it herself and glad to enjoy whatever he liked, she was even more eager to leave at the end than she had been before. When this became clear, she was kindly invited to come by again, to join them on her walks whenever she could, to come and hear more of the harp. She felt it was necessary to agree if there were no objections at home.

Such was the origin of the sort of intimacy which took place between them within the first fortnight after the Miss Bertrams’ going away—an intimacy resulting principally from Miss Crawford’s desire of something new, and which had little reality in Fanny’s feelings. Fanny went to her every two or three days: it seemed a kind of fascination: she could not be easy without going, and yet it was without loving her, without ever thinking like her, without any sense of obligation for being sought after now when nobody else was to be had; and deriving no higher pleasure from her conversation than occasional amusement, and that often at the expense of her judgment, when it was raised by pleasantry on people or subjects which she wished to be respected. She went, however, and they sauntered about together many an half-hour in Mrs. Grant’s shrubbery, the weather being unusually mild for the time of year, and venturing sometimes even to sit down on one of the benches now comparatively unsheltered, remaining there perhaps till, in the midst of some tender ejaculation of Fanny’s on the sweets of so protracted an autumn, they were forced, by the sudden swell of a cold gust shaking down the last few yellow leaves about them, to jump up and walk for warmth.

This is how the kind of closeness developed between them within the first two weeks after the Miss Bertrams left—an intimacy mainly driven by Miss Crawford's need for something new, which didn't truly reflect Fanny's feelings. Fanny visited her every two or three days; it felt almost like an obsession. She couldn't relax without going, yet it wasn't out of love for her, nor did she ever think like her, and she didn't feel any obligation to be appreciated now that no one else was around. She found no greater enjoyment in their conversations than occasional amusement, often at the cost of her judgment, especially when Miss Crawford joked about people or topics Fanny wanted to be respected. Still, she went, and they would stroll together for half an hour in Mrs. Grant's garden. The weather was unusually mild for the season, and they sometimes even sat on one of the now more exposed benches, lingering until, in the middle of Fanny's heartfelt comments on the delight of such a long autumn, a sudden cold gust shook down the last few yellow leaves around them, forcing them to get up and walk for warmth.

“This is pretty, very pretty,” said Fanny, looking around her as they were thus sitting together one day; “every time I come into this shrubbery I am more struck with its growth and beauty. Three years ago, this was nothing but a rough hedgerow along the upper side of the field, never thought of as anything, or capable of becoming anything; and now it is converted into a walk, and it would be difficult to say whether most valuable as a convenience or an ornament; and perhaps, in another three years, we may be forgetting—almost forgetting what it was before. How wonderful, how very wonderful the operations of time, and the changes of the human mind!” And following the latter train of thought, she soon afterwards added: “If any one faculty of our nature may be called more wonderful than the rest, I do think it is memory. There seems something more speakingly incomprehensible in the powers, the failures, the inequalities of memory, than in any other of our intelligences. The memory is sometimes so retentive, so serviceable, so obedient; at others, so bewildered and so weak; and at others again, so tyrannic, so beyond control! We are, to be sure, a miracle every way; but our powers of recollecting and of forgetting do seem peculiarly past finding out.”

“This is beautiful, really beautiful,” Fanny said, looking around as they sat together one day. “Every time I come into this area filled with shrubs, I’m more amazed by its growth and beauty. Three years ago, this was just a rough hedge along the edge of the field, never thought of as anything significant or capable of becoming something better; and now it’s transformed into a pathway, and it’s hard to say which is more valuable, its convenience or its appearance. And maybe, in another three years, we’ll almost forget what it looked like before. How incredible, how truly incredible the effects of time are, and the changes of the human mind!” Following that line of thought, she soon added, “If any one aspect of our nature can be called more remarkable than the others, I really think it’s memory. There’s something particularly perplexing about the powers, the shortcomings, the inconsistencies of memory, compared to any of our other abilities. Sometimes memory is so sharp, so useful, so obedient; at other times, it’s so confused and weak; and at other times again, it’s so controlling, so out of our hands! We are, without a doubt, a miracle in every way; but our abilities to remember and forget really do seem especially difficult to understand.”

Miss Crawford, untouched and inattentive, had nothing to say; and Fanny, perceiving it, brought back her own mind to what she thought must interest.

Miss Crawford, indifferent and disengaged, had nothing to contribute; and Fanny, noticing this, redirected her thoughts to what she believed would be interesting.

“It may seem impertinent in me to praise, but I must admire the taste Mrs. Grant has shewn in all this. There is such a quiet simplicity in the plan of the walk! Not too much attempted!”

“It might seem rude for me to compliment, but I have to admire the taste Mrs. Grant has shown in all this. There’s such a calm simplicity in the design of the walk! Not too much attempted!”

“Yes,” replied Miss Crawford carelessly, “it does very well for a place of this sort. One does not think of extent here; and between ourselves, till I came to Mansfield, I had not imagined a country parson ever aspired to a shrubbery, or anything of the kind.”

“Yes,” replied Miss Crawford casually, “it works just fine for a place like this. You don't really think about size here; and honestly, until I got to Mansfield, I never thought a country priest would even dream of having a garden, or anything like that.”

“I am so glad to see the evergreens thrive!” said Fanny, in reply. “My uncle’s gardener always says the soil here is better than his own, and so it appears from the growth of the laurels and evergreens in general. The evergreen! How beautiful, how welcome, how wonderful the evergreen! When one thinks of it, how astonishing a variety of nature! In some countries we know the tree that sheds its leaf is the variety, but that does not make it less amazing that the same soil and the same sun should nurture plants differing in the first rule and law of their existence. You will think me rhapsodising; but when I am out of doors, especially when I am sitting out of doors, I am very apt to get into this sort of wondering strain. One cannot fix one’s eyes on the commonest natural production without finding food for a rambling fancy.”

“I’m so happy to see the evergreens thriving!” Fanny replied. “My uncle’s gardener always says the soil here is better than his own, and it definitely shows in the growth of the laurels and evergreens. The evergreen! How beautiful, how welcome, how wonderful the evergreen! When you think about it, it’s amazing how diverse nature is! In some countries, the trees that shed their leaves are the norm, but it’s still incredible that the same soil and sun can support plants that differ in the very essence of their existence. You might think I’m being overly romantic; but when I’m outside, especially when I’m sitting outdoors, I often find myself in this kind of wondering mood. You can’t look at even the simplest natural thing without sparking some imaginative thoughts.”

“To say the truth,” replied Miss Crawford, “I am something like the famous Doge at the court of Lewis XIV.; and may declare that I see no wonder in this shrubbery equal to seeing myself in it. If anybody had told me a year ago that this place would be my home, that I should be spending month after month here, as I have done, I certainly should not have believed them. I have now been here nearly five months; and, moreover, the quietest five months I ever passed.”

“To be honest,” replied Miss Crawford, “I feel a bit like the famous Doge at the court of Louis XIV; I can honestly say there’s nothing in this garden that amazes me as much as seeing myself in it. If someone had told me a year ago that this place would be my home, and that I would be spending month after month here as I have, I definitely wouldn’t have believed them. I’ve now been here for almost five months; and, on top of that, they’ve been the quietest five months I’ve ever spent.”

Too quiet for you, I believe.”

“It's too quiet for you, I think.”

“I should have thought so theoretically myself, but,” and her eyes brightened as she spoke, “take it all and all, I never spent so happy a summer. But then,” with a more thoughtful air and lowered voice, “there is no saying what it may lead to.”

“I should have thought so theoretically myself, but,” and her eyes brightened as she spoke, “taking it all into account, I never had such a happy summer. But then,” with a more thoughtful expression and quieter voice, “there's no telling where it may lead.”

Fanny’s heart beat quick, and she felt quite unequal to surmising or soliciting anything more. Miss Crawford, however, with renewed animation, soon went on—

Fanny’s heart raced, and she felt completely unable to guess or ask for anything more. Miss Crawford, however, with new energy, quickly continued—

“I am conscious of being far better reconciled to a country residence than I had ever expected to be. I can even suppose it pleasant to spend half the year in the country, under certain circumstances, very pleasant. An elegant, moderate-sized house in the centre of family connexions; continual engagements among them; commanding the first society in the neighbourhood; looked up to, perhaps, as leading it even more than those of larger fortune, and turning from the cheerful round of such amusements to nothing worse than a tête-à-tête with the person one feels most agreeable in the world. There is nothing frightful in such a picture, is there, Miss Price? One need not envy the new Mrs. Rushworth with such a home as that.”

“I realize that I’m much more at ease with living in the country than I ever thought I would be. I can even imagine it being enjoyable to spend half the year in the countryside, under certain conditions, quite enjoyable. A stylish, moderately-sized house in the heart of family connections; constant events with them; having the best company in the area; perhaps even being seen as a leader in social gatherings more so than those with larger fortunes, and shifting from the lively mix of such entertainments to nothing more than a tête-à-tête with the person you find most agreeable in the world. There's nothing dreadful in such a scenario, is there, Miss Price? One shouldn’t envy the new Mrs. Rushworth with a home like that.”

“Envy Mrs. Rushworth!” was all that Fanny attempted to say. “Come, come, it would be very un-handsome in us to be severe on Mrs. Rushworth, for I look forward to our owing her a great many gay, brilliant, happy hours. I expect we shall be all very much at Sotherton another year. Such a match as Miss Bertram has made is a public blessing; for the first pleasures of Mr. Rushworth’s wife must be to fill her house, and give the best balls in the country.”

“Envy Mrs. Rushworth!” was all that Fanny could manage to say. “Come on, it wouldn’t be fair to be hard on Mrs. Rushworth, because I’m looking forward to all the fun, exciting, happy times we owe her. I expect we’ll all be at Sotherton a lot next year. A match like the one Miss Bertram has made is a public blessing; the first thing Mr. Rushworth’s wife will do is fill her house and host the best parties in the area.”

Fanny was silent, and Miss Crawford relapsed into thoughtfulness, till suddenly looking up at the end of a few minutes, she exclaimed, “Ah! here he is.” It was not Mr. Rushworth, however, but Edmund, who then appeared walking towards them with Mrs. Grant. “My sister and Mr. Bertram. I am so glad your eldest cousin is gone, that he may be Mr. Bertram again. There is something in the sound of Mr. Edmund Bertram so formal, so pitiful, so younger-brother-like, that I detest it.”

Fanny was quiet, and Miss Crawford fell into deep thought until she suddenly looked up a few minutes later and exclaimed, “Ah! here he is.” However, it wasn’t Mr. Rushworth, but Edmund, who had just appeared walking toward them with Mrs. Grant. “My sister and Mr. Bertram. I'm so glad your oldest cousin is gone, so he can be Mr. Bertram again. There’s something about the name Mr. Edmund Bertram that feels so formal, so pitiful, so younger-brother-like, that I can’t stand it.”

“How differently we feel!” cried Fanny. “To me, the sound of Mr. Bertram is so cold and nothing-meaning, so entirely without warmth or character! It just stands for a gentleman, and that’s all. But there is nobleness in the name of Edmund. It is a name of heroism and renown; of kings, princes, and knights; and seems to breathe the spirit of chivalry and warm affections.”

“How differently we feel!” cried Fanny. “To me, the sound of Mr. Bertram is so cold and meaningless, entirely lacking warmth or character! It just represents a gentleman, and that’s it. But there is nobility in the name of Edmund. It’s a name associated with heroism and fame; with kings, princes, and knights; and it seems to embody the spirit of chivalry and deep affection.”

“I grant you the name is good in itself, and Lord Edmund or Sir Edmund sound delightfully; but sink it under the chill, the annihilation of a Mr., and Mr. Edmund is no more than Mr. John or Mr. Thomas. Well, shall we join and disappoint them of half their lecture upon sitting down out of doors at this time of year, by being up before they can begin?”

“I admit that the name itself is good, and Lord Edmund or Sir Edmund sounds wonderful; but when you reduce it to Mr., Mr. Edmund becomes just like Mr. John or Mr. Thomas. So, should we go ahead and surprise them by being out before they can even start their outdoor lecture at this time of year?”

Edmund met them with particular pleasure. It was the first time of his seeing them together since the beginning of that better acquaintance which he had been hearing of with great satisfaction. A friendship between two so very dear to him was exactly what he could have wished: and to the credit of the lover’s understanding, be it stated, that he did not by any means consider Fanny as the only, or even as the greater gainer by such a friendship.

Edmund greeted them with great happiness. It was the first time he had seen them together since he had been hearing about their improved relationship, which he welcomed with delight. A friendship between two people so close to him was just what he had hoped for. And to give credit to the lover's perspective, it's worth noting that he didn’t think of Fanny as the only, or even the main, beneficiary of this friendship.

“Well,” said Miss Crawford, “and do you not scold us for our imprudence? What do you think we have been sitting down for but to be talked to about it, and entreated and supplicated never to do so again?”

“Well,” said Miss Crawford, “aren't you going to scold us for being reckless? What do you think we've been sitting here for if not to be lectured about it and begged not to do it again?”

“Perhaps I might have scolded,” said Edmund, “if either of you had been sitting down alone; but while you do wrong together, I can overlook a great deal.”

“Maybe I would have scolded,” said Edmund, “if either of you had been sitting alone; but since you’re both doing wrong together, I can let a lot slide.”

“They cannot have been sitting long,” cried Mrs. Grant, “for when I went up for my shawl I saw them from the staircase window, and then they were walking.”

“They can’t have been sitting for long,” exclaimed Mrs. Grant, “because when I went upstairs to grab my shawl, I saw them from the staircase window, and then they were walking.”

“And really,” added Edmund, “the day is so mild, that your sitting down for a few minutes can be hardly thought imprudent. Our weather must not always be judged by the calendar. We may sometimes take greater liberties in November than in May.”

“And really,” added Edmund, “the day is so nice that sitting down for a few minutes hardly seems unwise. We shouldn't always judge our weather by the calendar. Sometimes we can be more carefree in November than in May.”

“Upon my word,” cried Miss Crawford, “you are two of the most disappointing and unfeeling kind friends I ever met with! There is no giving you a moment’s uneasiness. You do not know how much we have been suffering, nor what chills we have felt! But I have long thought Mr. Bertram one of the worst subjects to work on, in any little manoeuvre against common sense, that a woman could be plagued with. I had very little hope of him from the first; but you, Mrs. Grant, my sister, my own sister, I think I had a right to alarm you a little.”

“Honestly,” cried Miss Crawford, “you two are the most disappointing and uncaring friends I’ve ever come across! You don’t even let yourselves feel a moment of worry. You have no idea how much we’ve been suffering or the chills we’ve experienced! But I’ve always thought Mr. Bertram is one of the worst people to try to manipulate against common sense that a woman could deal with. I had very little hope for him from the start; but you, Mrs. Grant, my sister, my own sister, I think I had a right to make you a bit uneasy.”

“Do not flatter yourself, my dearest Mary. You have not the smallest chance of moving me. I have my alarms, but they are quite in a different quarter; and if I could have altered the weather, you would have had a good sharp east wind blowing on you the whole time—for here are some of my plants which Robert will leave out because the nights are so mild, and I know the end of it will be, that we shall have a sudden change of weather, a hard frost setting in all at once, taking everybody (at least Robert) by surprise, and I shall lose every one; and what is worse, cook has just been telling me that the turkey, which I particularly wished not to be dressed till Sunday, because I know how much more Dr. Grant would enjoy it on Sunday after the fatigues of the day, will not keep beyond to-morrow. These are something like grievances, and make me think the weather most unseasonably close.”

"Don't get ahead of yourself, my dear Mary. You have no chance of swaying me. I have my worries, but they are about different things; and if I could change the weather, you would have been feeling a harsh east wind the entire time—because here are some of my plants that Robert *will* leave outside since the nights are so mild, and I know this will lead to a sudden change in the weather, with a hard frost hitting us out of nowhere, catching everyone (at least Robert) off guard, and I’ll end up losing all of them; and worse, the cook just told me that the turkey, which I really wanted to be cooked on Sunday, because I know Dr. Grant will enjoy it so much more after the long day, won’t last beyond tomorrow. These are the kind of annoyances that make me think the weather feels unseasonably oppressive."

“The sweets of housekeeping in a country village!” said Miss Crawford archly. “Commend me to the nurseryman and the poulterer.”

“The delights of running a household in a small town!” said Miss Crawford playfully. “I’ll take the gardener and the butcher.”

“My dear child, commend Dr. Grant to the deanery of Westminster or St. Paul’s, and I should be as glad of your nurseryman and poulterer as you could be. But we have no such people in Mansfield. What would you have me do?”

“My dear child, recommend Dr. Grant for the deanship of Westminster or St. Paul’s, and I would be just as pleased with your gardener and butcher as you could be. But we don’t have those kinds of people in Mansfield. What do you want me to do?”

“Oh! you can do nothing but what you do already: be plagued very often, and never lose your temper.”

“Oh! you can only do what you already do: get annoyed very often and never lose your cool.”

“Thank you; but there is no escaping these little vexations, Mary, live where we may; and when you are settled in town and I come to see you, I dare say I shall find you with yours, in spite of the nurseryman and the poulterer, perhaps on their very account. Their remoteness and unpunctuality, or their exorbitant charges and frauds, will be drawing forth bitter lamentations.”

“Thank you; but there’s no avoiding these minor annoyances, Mary, no matter where we live. When you’re settled in town and I come to visit you, I’m sure I’ll find you dealing with your own issues, possibly because of the nurseryman and the poulterer. Their distance and unreliability, or their crazy prices and scams, will likely lead to a lot of complaints.”

“I mean to be too rich to lament or to feel anything of the sort. A large income is the best recipe for happiness I ever heard of. It certainly may secure all the myrtle and turkey part of it.”

“I plan to be too wealthy to complain or feel anything like that. A big income is the best way to achieve happiness I've ever come across. It can definitely ensure all the nice things in life.”

“You intend to be very rich?” said Edmund, with a look which, to Fanny’s eye, had a great deal of serious meaning.

“You plan to be very rich?” said Edmund, with a look that, to Fanny, carried a lot of serious meaning.

“To be sure. Do not you? Do not we all?”

“To be sure. Don't you? Don't we all?”

“I cannot intend anything which it must be so completely beyond my power to command. Miss Crawford may chuse her degree of wealth. She has only to fix on her number of thousands a year, and there can be no doubt of their coming. My intentions are only not to be poor.”

“I can’t plan anything that I have no control over. Miss Crawford can choose how wealthy she wants to be. She just needs to decide on her annual income, and I’m sure it will come through. My only intention is not to be poor.”

“By moderation and economy, and bringing down your wants to your income, and all that. I understand you—and a very proper plan it is for a person at your time of life, with such limited means and indifferent connexions. What can you want but a decent maintenance? You have not much time before you; and your relations are in no situation to do anything for you, or to mortify you by the contrast of their own wealth and consequence. Be honest and poor, by all means—but I shall not envy you; I do not much think I shall even respect you. I have a much greater respect for those that are honest and rich.”

"By being moderate and thrifty, and keeping your wants in line with your income, and all of that. I get you—and it's a sensible plan for someone your age, especially with your limited resources and questionable connections. What else do you need but a decent living? You don't have a lot of time ahead of you; and your family isn't in a position to help you out or make you feel bad by flaunting their wealth and status. Sure, be honest and broke, but I won’t envy you; I doubt I'll even respect you. I have a lot more respect for those who are both honest and wealthy."

“Your degree of respect for honesty, rich or poor, is precisely what I have no manner of concern with. I do not mean to be poor. Poverty is exactly what I have determined against. Honesty, in the something between, in the middle state of worldly circumstances, is all that I am anxious for your not looking down on.”

“Your respect for honesty, whether you're rich or poor, is not something I care about at all. I don't intend to be poor. I've firmly decided against poverty. What I really hope is that you don't look down on honesty when it comes to the ups and downs of everyday life.”

“But I do look down upon it, if it might have been higher. I must look down upon anything contented with obscurity when it might rise to distinction.”

“But I do look down on it if it could have been better. I can’t respect anything that is happy with being unknown when it could achieve greatness.”

“But how may it rise? How may my honesty at least rise to any distinction?”

“But how can it rise? How can my honesty, at least, rise to any kind of distinction?”

This was not so very easy a question to answer, and occasioned an “Oh!” of some length from the fair lady before she could add, “You ought to be in parliament, or you should have gone into the army ten years ago.”

This wasn’t an easy question to answer, and it made the lady gasp for a while before she could say, “You should be in parliament, or you should have joined the army ten years ago.”

That is not much to the purpose now; and as to my being in parliament, I believe I must wait till there is an especial assembly for the representation of younger sons who have little to live on. No, Miss Crawford,” he added, in a more serious tone, “there are distinctions which I should be miserable if I thought myself without any chance—absolutely without chance or possibility of obtaining—but they are of a different character.”

That isn’t really relevant right now; and regarding my position in parliament, I think I’ll have to wait until there’s a special assembly for younger sons who don’t have much to live on. No, Miss Crawford,” he said, in a more serious tone, “there are distinctions that I would be really unhappy about if I thought I had no chance—absolutely no chance or possibility of getting them—but they are of a different nature.”

A look of consciousness as he spoke, and what seemed a consciousness of manner on Miss Crawford’s side as she made some laughing answer, was sorrowfull food for Fanny’s observation; and finding herself quite unable to attend as she ought to Mrs. Grant, by whose side she was now following the others, she had nearly resolved on going home immediately, and only waited for courage to say so, when the sound of the great clock at Mansfield Park, striking three, made her feel that she had really been much longer absent than usual, and brought the previous self-inquiry of whether she should take leave or not just then, and how, to a very speedy issue. With undoubting decision she directly began her adieus; and Edmund began at the same time to recollect that his mother had been inquiring for her, and that he had walked down to the Parsonage on purpose to bring her back.

A look of awareness crossed his face as he spoke, and Miss Crawford seemed to be aware of her own manner as she answered him with laughter, which was painful for Fanny to observe. Since she found it hard to focus on Mrs. Grant, who she was following, she almost decided to go home right away and only needed a little courage to say so. When the big clock at Mansfield Park chimed three, it hit her that she had been gone longer than usual, which prompted her to quickly decide whether to say goodbye and how to do it. With clear determination, she started her goodbyes, and at the same time, Edmund remembered that his mother had been asking for her and that he had walked down to the Parsonage specifically to bring her back.

Fanny’s hurry increased; and without in the least expecting Edmund’s attendance, she would have hastened away alone; but the general pace was quickened, and they all accompanied her into the house, through which it was necessary to pass. Dr. Grant was in the vestibule, and as they stopt to speak to him she found, from Edmund’s manner, that he did mean to go with her. He too was taking leave. She could not but be thankful. In the moment of parting, Edmund was invited by Dr. Grant to eat his mutton with him the next day; and Fanny had barely time for an unpleasant feeling on the occasion, when Mrs. Grant, with sudden recollection, turned to her and asked for the pleasure of her company too. This was so new an attention, so perfectly new a circumstance in the events of Fanny’s life, that she was all surprise and embarrassment; and while stammering out her great obligation, and her “but she did not suppose it would be in her power,” was looking at Edmund for his opinion and help. But Edmund, delighted with her having such an happiness offered, and ascertaining with half a look, and half a sentence, that she had no objection but on her aunt’s account, could not imagine that his mother would make any difficulty of sparing her, and therefore gave his decided open advice that the invitation should be accepted; and though Fanny would not venture, even on his encouragement, to such a flight of audacious independence, it was soon settled, that if nothing were heard to the contrary, Mrs. Grant might expect her.

Fanny’s urgency grew, and without expecting Edmund to join her, she would have rushed off alone; but everyone stepped up their pace, following her into the house they had to pass through. Dr. Grant was in the foyer, and as they paused to talk to him, she realized from Edmund’s demeanor that he actually intended to come with her. He was also saying goodbye. She couldn't help but feel grateful. As they were parting, Dr. Grant invited Edmund to join him for mutton the next day, and Fanny barely had time to feel uncomfortable about it when Mrs. Grant suddenly turned to her and invited her as well. This kind of attention was completely new to Fanny, leaving her surprised and flustered; as she stumbled through her expressions of gratitude and her “but I didn’t think it would be possible for me,” she looked at Edmund for his input and support. But Edmund, thrilled that she had such an enjoyable opportunity, quickly gauged with a glance and a few words that her only concern was about her aunt. He couldn’t believe that his mother would have any issues with letting her go, so he confidently advised her to accept the invitation. Although Fanny wouldn’t dare to assert such bold independence even with his encouragement, they soon agreed that unless they heard otherwise, Mrs. Grant could expect her.

“And you know what your dinner will be,” said Mrs. Grant, smiling—“the turkey, and I assure you a very fine one; for, my dear,” turning to her husband, “cook insists upon the turkey’s being dressed to-morrow.”

“And you know what your dinner will be,” Mrs. Grant said, smiling. “It’s going to be turkey, and I promise you, it’s a really good one; because, my dear,” she turned to her husband, “the cook insists that the turkey has to be prepared tomorrow.”

“Very well, very well,” cried Dr. Grant, “all the better; I am glad to hear you have anything so good in the house. But Miss Price and Mr. Edmund Bertram, I dare say, would take their chance. We none of us want to hear the bill of fare. A friendly meeting, and not a fine dinner, is all we have in view. A turkey, or a goose, or a leg of mutton, or whatever you and your cook chuse to give us.”

“Alright, alright,” Dr. Grant exclaimed, “that’s even better; I’m happy to hear you have something nice at home. But I’m sure Miss Price and Mr. Edmund Bertram wouldn’t mind taking their chances. None of us want to go over the menu. We’re just looking for a friendly get-together, not a fancy dinner. A turkey, a goose, a leg of lamb, or whatever you and your cook decide to serve us.”

The two cousins walked home together; and, except in the immediate discussion of this engagement, which Edmund spoke of with the warmest satisfaction, as so particularly desirable for her in the intimacy which he saw with so much pleasure established, it was a silent walk; for having finished that subject, he grew thoughtful and indisposed for any other.

The two cousins walked home together. Aside from their immediate conversation about the engagement, which Edmund discussed with genuine happiness, seeing it as very beneficial for her due to the close relationship he appreciated, it was a quiet walk. Once they wrapped up that topic, he became pensive and uninterested in discussing anything else.

CHAPTER XXIII

“But why should Mrs. Grant ask Fanny?” said Lady Bertram. “How came she to think of asking Fanny? Fanny never dines there, you know, in this sort of way. I cannot spare her, and I am sure she does not want to go. Fanny, you do not want to go, do you?”

“But why would Mrs. Grant ask Fanny?” Lady Bertram said. “How did she come up with the idea to ask Fanny? Fanny never dines there, you know, not like this. I can’t let her go, and I’m sure she doesn’t want to go. Fanny, you don’t want to go, do you?”

“If you put such a question to her,” cried Edmund, preventing his cousin’s speaking, “Fanny will immediately say No; but I am sure, my dear mother, she would like to go; and I can see no reason why she should not.”

“If you ask her that question,” exclaimed Edmund, cutting off his cousin, “Fanny will instantly say No; but I’m certain, my dear mother, she’d love to go; and I can’t see any reason why she shouldn’t.”

“I cannot imagine why Mrs. Grant should think of asking her? She never did before. She used to ask your sisters now and then, but she never asked Fanny.”

“I can't understand why Mrs. Grant would think of asking her. She never did before. She used to ask your sisters sometimes, but she never asked Fanny.”

“If you cannot do without me, ma’am—” said Fanny, in a self-denying tone.

“If you can't do without me, ma’am—” said Fanny, in a self-denying tone.

“But my mother will have my father with her all the evening.”

"But my mom will have my dad with her all evening."

“To be sure, so I shall.”

"I'll definitely do it."

“Suppose you take my father’s opinion, ma’am.”

“Could you consider my father's opinion, ma'am?”

“That’s well thought of. So I will, Edmund. I will ask Sir Thomas, as soon as he comes in, whether I can do without her.”

"That’s a good idea. So I will, Edmund. I will ask Sir Thomas, as soon as he arrives, if I can manage without her."

“As you please, ma’am, on that head; but I meant my father’s opinion as to the propriety of the invitation’s being accepted or not; and I think he will consider it a right thing by Mrs. Grant, as well as by Fanny, that being the first invitation it should be accepted.”

“As you wish, ma’am, in that regard; but I was referring to my father’s opinion on whether the invitation should be accepted or not; and I believe he will see it as the right thing for both Mrs. Grant and Fanny that it should be accepted since it’s the first invitation.”

“I do not know. We will ask him. But he will be very much surprised that Mrs. Grant should ask Fanny at all.”

“I don’t know. We’ll ask him. But he will be really surprised that Mrs. Grant would ask Fanny at all.”

There was nothing more to be said, or that could be said to any purpose, till Sir Thomas were present; but the subject involving, as it did, her own evening’s comfort for the morrow, was so much uppermost in Lady Bertram’s mind, that half an hour afterwards, on his looking in for a minute in his way from his plantation to his dressing-room, she called him back again, when he had almost closed the door, with “Sir Thomas, stop a moment—I have something to say to you.”

There was nothing more to say, or that could be said for any reason, until Sir Thomas was present; but the topic, which affected her own comfort for the next evening, was so much on Lady Bertram's mind that half an hour later, when he stopped by for a minute on his way from his plantation to his dressing room, she called him back just as he was about to close the door, saying, “Sir Thomas, wait a moment—I have something to tell you.”

Her tone of calm languor, for she never took the trouble of raising her voice, was always heard and attended to; and Sir Thomas came back. Her story began; and Fanny immediately slipped out of the room; for to hear herself the subject of any discussion with her uncle was more than her nerves could bear. She was anxious, she knew—more anxious perhaps than she ought to be—for what was it after all whether she went or staid? but if her uncle were to be a great while considering and deciding, and with very grave looks, and those grave looks directed to her, and at last decide against her, she might not be able to appear properly submissive and indifferent. Her cause, meanwhile, went on well. It began, on Lady Bertram’s part, with—“I have something to tell you that will surprise you. Mrs. Grant has asked Fanny to dinner.”

Her calm and relaxed tone—she never bothered to raise her voice—was always heard and acknowledged, and Sir Thomas came back. She began her story, and Fanny quickly slipped out of the room because hearing herself be discussed by her uncle was more than her nerves could handle. She felt anxious; perhaps more anxious than she should have been—after all, did it really matter whether she stayed or left? But if her uncle took a long time considering and deciding, looking very serious, especially with those serious looks aimed at her, and then ultimately decided against her, she might not be able to appear properly submissive and indifferent. In the meantime, her situation was progressing well. Lady Bertram started with, “I have something to tell you that will surprise you. Mrs. Grant has asked Fanny to dinner.”

“Well,” said Sir Thomas, as if waiting more to accomplish the surprise.

“Well,” said Sir Thomas, as if he was waiting to create more suspense.

“Edmund wants her to go. But how can I spare her?”

“Edmund wants her to leave. But how can I let her go?”

“She will be late,” said Sir Thomas, taking out his watch; “but what is your difficulty?”

“She'll be late,” said Sir Thomas, checking his watch; “but what's bothering you?”

Edmund found himself obliged to speak and fill up the blanks in his mother’s story. He told the whole; and she had only to add, “So strange! for Mrs. Grant never used to ask her.”

Edmund felt he had to speak up and fill in the gaps in his mother’s story. He shared everything, and she just had to add, “How odd! Mrs. Grant never used to ask her.”

“But is it not very natural,” observed Edmund, “that Mrs. Grant should wish to procure so agreeable a visitor for her sister?”

“But isn’t it totally natural,” Edmund remarked, “that Mrs. Grant would want to bring such a pleasant visitor for her sister?”

“Nothing can be more natural,” said Sir Thomas, after a short deliberation; “nor, were there no sister in the case, could anything, in my opinion, be more natural. Mrs. Grant’s shewing civility to Miss Price, to Lady Bertram’s niece, could never want explanation. The only surprise I can feel is, that this should be the first time of its being paid. Fanny was perfectly right in giving only a conditional answer. She appears to feel as she ought. But as I conclude that she must wish to go, since all young people like to be together, I can see no reason why she should be denied the indulgence.”

“Nothing could be more natural,” said Sir Thomas, after a brief pause; “and, even if there wasn’t a sister in the mix, I still think it would be just as natural. Mrs. Grant being polite to Miss Price, who is Lady Bertram’s niece, doesn’t need any explanation. The only surprise for me is that this is the first time it’s happened. Fanny was completely right to give only a conditional response. She seems to feel as she should. But since I assume she must want to go, like all young people do, I see no reason why she shouldn’t be allowed that opportunity.”

“But can I do without her, Sir Thomas?”

“But can I manage without her, Sir Thomas?”

“Indeed I think you may.”

"I think you can."

“She always makes tea, you know, when my sister is not here.”

“She always makes tea, you know, when my sister isn’t around.”

“Your sister, perhaps, may be prevailed on to spend the day with us, and I shall certainly be at home.”

“Maybe we can convince your sister to spend the day with us, and I’ll definitely be home.”

“Very well, then, Fanny may go, Edmund.”

“Alright then, Fanny can go, Edmund.”

The good news soon followed her. Edmund knocked at her door in his way to his own.

The good news quickly came to her. Edmund knocked on her door as he was heading to his own.

“Well, Fanny, it is all happily settled, and without the smallest hesitation on your uncle’s side. He had but one opinion. You are to go.”

“Well, Fanny, everything is settled happily, and your uncle didn't hesitate at all. He had only one opinion. You are going.”

“Thank you, I am so glad,” was Fanny’s instinctive reply; though when she had turned from him and shut the door, she could not help feeling, “And yet why should I be glad? for am I not certain of seeing or hearing something there to pain me?”

“Thank you, I am so glad,” was Fanny’s instinctive reply; though when she had turned from him and shut the door, she couldn’t help feeling, “And yet why should I be glad? Because am I not sure I’ll see or hear something there that will hurt me?”

In spite of this conviction, however, she was glad. Simple as such an engagement might appear in other eyes, it had novelty and importance in hers, for excepting the day at Sotherton, she had scarcely ever dined out before; and though now going only half a mile, and only to three people, still it was dining out, and all the little interests of preparation were enjoyments in themselves. She had neither sympathy nor assistance from those who ought to have entered into her feelings and directed her taste; for Lady Bertram never thought of being useful to anybody, and Mrs. Norris, when she came on the morrow, in consequence of an early call and invitation from Sir Thomas, was in a very ill humour, and seemed intent only on lessening her niece’s pleasure, both present and future, as much as possible.

Despite this belief, she felt happiness. As simple as this outing might seem to others, it held a sense of novelty and significance for her. Aside from the day at Sotherton, she had hardly ever gone out to dinner before; and even though she was only going half a mile and only to three people, it still qualified as dining out, and all the little preparations were enjoyable in their own right. She received no support or understanding from those who should have appreciated her feelings and guided her choices; Lady Bertram never considered being helpful to anyone, and Mrs. Norris, who arrived the next day due to an early invitation from Sir Thomas, was in a foul mood, seemingly focused only on diminishing her niece’s enjoyment, both now and in the future.

“Upon my word, Fanny, you are in high luck to meet with such attention and indulgence! You ought to be very much obliged to Mrs. Grant for thinking of you, and to your aunt for letting you go, and you ought to look upon it as something extraordinary; for I hope you are aware that there is no real occasion for your going into company in this sort of way, or ever dining out at all; and it is what you must not depend upon ever being repeated. Nor must you be fancying that the invitation is meant as any particular compliment to you; the compliment is intended to your uncle and aunt and me. Mrs. Grant thinks it a civility due to us to take a little notice of you, or else it would never have come into her head, and you may be very certain that, if your cousin Julia had been at home, you would not have been asked at all.”

“Honestly, Fanny, you’re really lucky to get so much attention and kindness! You should be very grateful to Mrs. Grant for thinking of you, and to your aunt for letting you go. You should see this as something pretty special; I hope you know there’s no real need for you to go out like this or even eat out at all, and you shouldn’t count on it happening again. Also, don’t think that the invitation is meant as a special compliment to you; the compliment is really meant for your uncle, aunt, and me. Mrs. Grant thinks it’s polite to acknowledge us by taking a little notice of you, or else she wouldn’t have thought of it, and you can be sure that if your cousin Julia had been home, you wouldn’t have been invited at all.”

Mrs. Norris had now so ingeniously done away all Mrs. Grant’s part of the favour, that Fanny, who found herself expected to speak, could only say that she was very much obliged to her aunt Bertram for sparing her, and that she was endeavouring to put her aunt’s evening work in such a state as to prevent her being missed.

Mrs. Norris had cleverly eliminated all of Mrs. Grant’s share of the favor, so Fanny, who realized she was expected to say something, could only express her gratitude to her Aunt Bertram for letting her off the hook and that she was trying to organize her aunt’s evening tasks to ensure she wouldn’t be missed.

“Oh! depend upon it, your aunt can do very well without you, or you would not be allowed to go. I shall be here, so you may be quite easy about your aunt. And I hope you will have a very agreeable day, and find it all mighty delightful. But I must observe that five is the very awkwardest of all possible numbers to sit down to table; and I cannot but be surprised that such an elegant lady as Mrs. Grant should not contrive better! And round their enormous great wide table, too, which fills up the room so dreadfully! Had the doctor been contented to take my dining-table when I came away, as anybody in their senses would have done, instead of having that absurd new one of his own, which is wider, literally wider than the dinner-table here, how infinitely better it would have been! and how much more he would have been respected! for people are never respected when they step out of their proper sphere. Remember that, Fanny. Five—only five to be sitting round that table. However, you will have dinner enough on it for ten, I dare say.”

“Oh! You can be sure your aunt will be fine without you, or you wouldn’t be allowed to go. I will be here, so you can stop worrying about your aunt. I hope you have a really pleasant day and find it all extremely enjoyable. But I must point out that five is the most awkward number to sit down to a table; I’m surprised that such an elegant lady as Mrs. Grant hasn’t figured that out better! Especially around their huge, wide table that takes up so much space in the room! If the doctor had just taken my dining table when I left, like any sensible person would have, instead of getting that ridiculous new one of his that’s literally wider than the dinner table here, it would have been so much better! And he would have been respected more! People are never respected when they go outside their proper place. Keep that in mind, Fanny. Five—only five sitting around that table. But I’m sure there will be enough food on it for ten, anyway.”

Mrs. Norris fetched breath, and went on again.

Mrs. Norris paused to catch her breath and continued speaking.

“The nonsense and folly of people’s stepping out of their rank and trying to appear above themselves, makes me think it right to give you a hint, Fanny, now that you are going into company without any of us; and I do beseech and entreat you not to be putting yourself forward, and talking and giving your opinion as if you were one of your cousins—as if you were dear Mrs. Rushworth or Julia. That will never do, believe me. Remember, wherever you are, you must be the lowest and last; and though Miss Crawford is in a manner at home at the Parsonage, you are not to be taking place of her. And as to coming away at night, you are to stay just as long as Edmund chuses. Leave him to settle that.”

"The foolishness of people stepping out of their place and trying to seem more important than they are makes me feel it's necessary to give you a heads-up, Fanny, now that you're going out without any of us. I really urge you not to put yourself forward, or talk and share your opinions as if you were one of your cousins—like dear Mrs. Rushworth or Julia. That won't work, trust me. Remember, no matter where you are, you should always be humble and reserved; and even though Miss Crawford feels at home at the Parsonage, you shouldn't try to take her place. As for coming home at night, you should stay out as long as Edmund wants. Let him handle that."

“Yes, ma’am, I should not think of anything else.”

“Yes, ma’am, I can’t think of anything else.”

“And if it should rain, which I think exceedingly likely, for I never saw it more threatening for a wet evening in my life, you must manage as well as you can, and not be expecting the carriage to be sent for you. I certainly do not go home to-night, and, therefore, the carriage will not be out on my account; so you must make up your mind to what may happen, and take your things accordingly.”

“And if it rains, which I think is very likely since I’ve never seen such a threatening sky for a rainy evening in my life, you’ll have to manage as best as you can and not expect a carriage to be sent for you. I definitely won’t be going home tonight, so the carriage won’t be out for me; therefore, you need to prepare for whatever may happen and take your things accordingly.”

Her niece thought it perfectly reasonable. She rated her own claims to comfort as low even as Mrs. Norris could; and when Sir Thomas soon afterwards, just opening the door, said, “Fanny, at what time would you have the carriage come round?” she felt a degree of astonishment which made it impossible for her to speak.

Her niece thought it was completely fair. She regarded her own need for comfort as minimal, just like Mrs. Norris did; and when Sir Thomas, shortly after, opened the door and asked, “Fanny, what time would you like the carriage to come around?” she felt so surprised that she couldn’t speak.

“My dear Sir Thomas!” cried Mrs. Norris, red with anger, “Fanny can walk.”

“My dear Sir Thomas!” exclaimed Mrs. Norris, her face flushed with anger, “Fanny can walk.”

“Walk!” repeated Sir Thomas, in a tone of most unanswerable dignity, and coming farther into the room. “My niece walk to a dinner engagement at this time of the year! Will twenty minutes after four suit you?”

“Walk!” repeated Sir Thomas, with an air of undeniable authority, stepping further into the room. “My niece walking to a dinner engagement at this time of year! Would twenty minutes after four work for you?”

“Yes, sir,” was Fanny’s humble answer, given with the feelings almost of a criminal towards Mrs. Norris; and not bearing to remain with her in what might seem a state of triumph, she followed her uncle out of the room, having staid behind him only long enough to hear these words spoken in angry agitation—

“Yes, sir,” Fanny replied humbly, feeling almost like a criminal around Mrs. Norris; not wanting to stay with her in what might seem like a moment of victory, she followed her uncle out of the room, having lingered just long enough to hear these words spoken in furious agitation—

“Quite unnecessary! a great deal too kind! But Edmund goes; true, it is upon Edmund’s account. I observed he was hoarse on Thursday night.”

“Completely unnecessary! Way too kind! But Edmund is leaving; it's true, it's for Edmund’s sake. I noticed he was hoarse on Thursday night.”

But this could not impose on Fanny. She felt that the carriage was for herself, and herself alone: and her uncle’s consideration of her, coming immediately after such representations from her aunt, cost her some tears of gratitude when she was alone.

But this couldn’t pressure Fanny. She felt that the carriage was for her and her alone: and her uncle’s thoughtfulness towards her, coming right after her aunt’s statements, brought her some tears of gratitude when she was by herself.

The coachman drove round to a minute; another minute brought down the gentleman; and as the lady had, with a most scrupulous fear of being late, been many minutes seated in the drawing-room, Sir Thomas saw them off in as good time as his own correctly punctual habits required.

The coachman drove around for a minute; another minute brought down the gentleman; and since the lady had, with a meticulous concern about being late, spent several minutes sitting in the drawing room, Sir Thomas saw them off right on time, as his own punctual habits demanded.

“Now I must look at you, Fanny,” said Edmund, with the kind smile of an affectionate brother, “and tell you how I like you; and as well as I can judge by this light, you look very nicely indeed. What have you got on?”

“Now I have to look at you, Fanny,” said Edmund, with the kind smile of a loving brother, “and tell you how much I like you; and from what I can see in this light, you look really nice. What are you wearing?”

“The new dress that my uncle was so good as to give me on my cousin’s marriage. I hope it is not too fine; but I thought I ought to wear it as soon as I could, and that I might not have such another opportunity all the winter. I hope you do not think me too fine.”

“The new dress that my uncle kindly gave me for my cousin’s wedding. I hope it’s not too fancy; but I thought I should wear it as soon as possible, since I might not have another chance to wear it all winter. I hope you don’t think I’m overdressed.”

“A woman can never be too fine while she is all in white. No, I see no finery about you; nothing but what is perfectly proper. Your gown seems very pretty. I like these glossy spots. Has not Miss Crawford a gown something the same?”

“A woman can never look too elegant when she's dressed in white. No, I don't see any extravagance about you; just what's completely appropriate. Your dress looks really nice. I like those shiny details. Doesn't Miss Crawford have a dress that’s similar?”

In approaching the Parsonage they passed close by the stable-yard and coach-house.

As they got closer to the Parsonage, they walked right by the stable and the coach house.

“Heyday!” said Edmund, “here’s company, here’s a carriage! who have they got to meet us?” And letting down the side-glass to distinguish, “’Tis Crawford’s, Crawford’s barouche, I protest! There are his own two men pushing it back into its old quarters. He is here, of course. This is quite a surprise, Fanny. I shall be very glad to see him.”

“Heyday!” said Edmund, “look, there’s company, there’s a carriage! Who are they here to meet?” And lowering the side window to see better, “It’s Crawford’s, Crawford’s carriage, I swear! There are his two guys pushing it back into its usual spot. He’s here, of course. This is quite a surprise, Fanny. I’m really looking forward to seeing him.”

There was no occasion, there was no time for Fanny to say how very differently she felt; but the idea of having such another to observe her was a great increase of the trepidation with which she performed the very awful ceremony of walking into the drawing-room.

There was no chance, there was no time for Fanny to express how differently she felt; but the thought of having someone else watching her made her even more anxious as she went through the intimidating process of walking into the living room.

In the drawing-room Mr. Crawford certainly was, having been just long enough arrived to be ready for dinner; and the smiles and pleased looks of the three others standing round him, shewed how welcome was his sudden resolution of coming to them for a few days on leaving Bath. A very cordial meeting passed between him and Edmund; and with the exception of Fanny, the pleasure was general; and even to her there might be some advantage in his presence, since every addition to the party must rather forward her favourite indulgence of being suffered to sit silent and unattended to. She was soon aware of this herself; for though she must submit, as her own propriety of mind directed, in spite of her aunt Norris’s opinion, to being the principal lady in company, and to all the little distinctions consequent thereon, she found, while they were at table, such a happy flow of conversation prevailing, in which she was not required to take any part—there was so much to be said between the brother and sister about Bath, so much between the two young men about hunting, so much of politics between Mr. Crawford and Dr. Grant, and of everything and all together between Mr. Crawford and Mrs. Grant, as to leave her the fairest prospect of having only to listen in quiet, and of passing a very agreeable day. She could not compliment the newly arrived gentleman, however, with any appearance of interest, in a scheme for extending his stay at Mansfield, and sending for his hunters from Norfolk, which, suggested by Dr. Grant, advised by Edmund, and warmly urged by the two sisters, was soon in possession of his mind, and which he seemed to want to be encouraged even by her to resolve on. Her opinion was sought as to the probable continuance of the open weather, but her answers were as short and indifferent as civility allowed. She could not wish him to stay, and would much rather not have him speak to her.

In the drawing-room was Mr. Crawford, who had just arrived in time for dinner, and the smiles and happy expressions of the three others around him showed how much they welcomed his sudden decision to spend a few days with them after leaving Bath. There was a warm greeting between him and Edmund, and aside from Fanny, everyone seemed to enjoy the reunion. Even she might benefit from his presence since having more people around could help her indulge in her preference for sitting quietly and not being the center of attention. She quickly realized this herself; although she felt she had to fulfill her role as the main lady in the group, as her own sense of propriety dictated—despite her aunt Norris’s views—she found, while at the table, that the conversation flowed so wonderfully around her, without her needing to join in. There was so much to discuss between the brother and sister about Bath, much for the two young men about hunting, plenty of political talk between Mr. Crawford and Dr. Grant, and a variety of topics exchanged between Mr. Crawford and Mrs. Grant, all allowing her the chance to simply listen in peace and enjoy a pleasant day. However, she couldn't express any genuine interest in the suggestion for him to extend his stay at Mansfield and have his hunters brought from Norfolk, a proposal put forward by Dr. Grant, recommended by Edmund, and strongly encouraged by the two sisters. This idea soon occupied his thoughts, and he seemed to want her support to decide on it. When asked about how long the nice weather might last, her responses were as brief and uninterested as politeness permitted. She couldn't wish for him to stay and would much prefer if he didn't talk to her at all.

Her two absent cousins, especially Maria, were much in her thoughts on seeing him; but no embarrassing remembrance affected his spirits. Here he was again on the same ground where all had passed before, and apparently as willing to stay and be happy without the Miss Bertrams, as if he had never known Mansfield in any other state. She heard them spoken of by him only in a general way, till they were all re-assembled in the drawing-room, when Edmund, being engaged apart in some matter of business with Dr. Grant, which seemed entirely to engross them, and Mrs. Grant occupied at the tea-table, he began talking of them with more particularity to his other sister. With a significant smile, which made Fanny quite hate him, he said, “So! Rushworth and his fair bride are at Brighton, I understand; happy man!”

Her two missing cousins, especially Maria, were on her mind when she saw him; but no awkward memories bothered his mood. Here he was again on the same ground where everything had happened before, and he seemed just as ready to stay and be happy without the Miss Bertrams as if he had never experienced Mansfield any other way. She only heard him mention them in a general sense until they were all gathered again in the drawing room. While Edmund was pulled aside for some business with Dr. Grant, which seemed to completely occupy them, and Mrs. Grant was busy at the tea table, he started discussing them in more detail with his other sister. With a knowing smile that made Fanny dislike him even more, he said, “So! Rushworth and his lovely bride are at Brighton, I hear; lucky guy!”

“Yes, they have been there about a fortnight, Miss Price, have they not? And Julia is with them.”

“Yes, they’ve been there for about two weeks, Miss Price, haven’t they? And Julia is with them.”

“And Mr. Yates, I presume, is not far off.”

“And Mr. Yates, I assume, is not far away.”

“Mr. Yates! Oh! we hear nothing of Mr. Yates. I do not imagine he figures much in the letters to Mansfield Park; do you, Miss Price? I think my friend Julia knows better than to entertain her father with Mr. Yates.”

“Mr. Yates! Oh! we don’t hear anything about Mr. Yates. I don’t think he plays much of a role in the letters to Mansfield Park; do you, Miss Price? I believe my friend Julia knows better than to bring up Mr. Yates to her father.”

“Poor Rushworth and his two-and-forty speeches!” continued Crawford. “Nobody can ever forget them. Poor fellow! I see him now—his toil and his despair. Well, I am much mistaken if his lovely Maria will ever want him to make two-and-forty speeches to her”; adding, with a momentary seriousness, “She is too good for him—much too good.” And then changing his tone again to one of gentle gallantry, and addressing Fanny, he said, “You were Mr. Rushworth’s best friend. Your kindness and patience can never be forgotten, your indefatigable patience in trying to make it possible for him to learn his part—in trying to give him a brain which nature had denied—to mix up an understanding for him out of the superfluity of your own! He might not have sense enough himself to estimate your kindness, but I may venture to say that it had honour from all the rest of the party.”

“Poor Rushworth and his forty-two speeches!” Crawford continued. “No one can ever forget them. Poor guy! I can picture him now—his hard work and his frustration. Well, I’d be surprised if his beautiful Maria ever expects him to deliver forty-two speeches to her.” He added, with a brief seriousness, “She’s too good for him—way too good.” Then he switched back to a tone of playful charm and addressed Fanny, saying, “You were Mr. Rushworth’s best friend. Your kindness and patience will never be forgotten, your tireless efforts to help him learn his lines—trying to give him a mind that nature didn’t give him—to create an understanding for him out of the excess of your own! He may not have the sense to recognize your kindness, but I can say with confidence that it was respected by everyone else in the group.”

Fanny coloured, and said nothing.

Fanny blushed and said nothing.

“It is as a dream, a pleasant dream!” he exclaimed, breaking forth again, after a few minutes’ musing. “I shall always look back on our theatricals with exquisite pleasure. There was such an interest, such an animation, such a spirit diffused. Everybody felt it. We were all alive. There was employment, hope, solicitude, bustle, for every hour of the day. Always some little objection, some little doubt, some little anxiety to be got over. I never was happier.”

“It’s like a dream, a wonderful dream!” he exclaimed, breaking out again after a few minutes of thinking. “I’ll always look back on our performances with great pleasure. There was so much excitement, so much energy, such a lively atmosphere. Everyone felt it. We were all so alive. There was work, hope, concern, and activity every hour of the day. Always some small issue, some little doubt, some little worry to deal with. I’ve never been happier.”

With silent indignation Fanny repeated to herself, “Never happier!—never happier than when doing what you must know was not justifiable!—never happier than when behaving so dishonourably and unfeelingly! Oh! what a corrupted mind!”

With quiet anger, Fanny kept telling herself, “Never happier!—never happier than when doing something you must know wasn’t right!—never happier than when acting so dishonorably and thoughtlessly! Oh! what a messed-up mind!”

“We were unlucky, Miss Price,” he continued, in a lower tone, to avoid the possibility of being heard by Edmund, and not at all aware of her feelings, “we certainly were very unlucky. Another week, only one other week, would have been enough for us. I think if we had had the disposal of events—if Mansfield Park had had the government of the winds just for a week or two, about the equinox, there would have been a difference. Not that we would have endangered his safety by any tremendous weather—but only by a steady contrary wind, or a calm. I think, Miss Price, we would have indulged ourselves with a week’s calm in the Atlantic at that season.”

“We had some bad luck, Miss Price,” he said quietly, to make sure Edmund wouldn’t hear him, completely oblivious to her feelings. “We really were quite unlucky. Just one more week—only one more week—would have been enough for us. I believe if we could have controlled the events—if Mansfield Park had the ability to steer the winds just for a week or two around the equinox, things would have turned out differently. Not that we would have put his safety at risk with any extreme weather—but just a steady headwind or a calm would have done the trick. I think, Miss Price, we could have treated ourselves to a week's calm in the Atlantic during that time.”

He seemed determined to be answered; and Fanny, averting her face, said, with a firmer tone than usual, “As far as I am concerned, sir, I would not have delayed his return for a day. My uncle disapproved it all so entirely when he did arrive, that in my opinion everything had gone quite far enough.”

He seemed set on getting a response; and Fanny, turning her face away, said, in a steadier voice than usual, “As far as I am concerned, sir, I wouldn’t have postponed his return for even a day. My uncle was completely against it all when he finally arrived, so in my view, everything had gone on long enough.”

She had never spoken so much at once to him in her life before, and never so angrily to any one; and when her speech was over, she trembled and blushed at her own daring. He was surprised; but after a few moments’ silent consideration of her, replied in a calmer, graver tone, and as if the candid result of conviction, “I believe you are right. It was more pleasant than prudent. We were getting too noisy.” And then turning the conversation, he would have engaged her on some other subject, but her answers were so shy and reluctant that he could not advance in any.

She had never talked to him this much at once in her life, and never so angrily to anyone; and when she finished, she trembled and blushed at her own boldness. He was taken aback, but after a moment of silently considering her, he replied in a calmer, more serious tone, as if he genuinely believed it, “I think you’re right. It was more fun than wise. We were getting too loud.” Then, trying to change the subject, he attempted to engage her in another topic, but her responses were so shy and hesitant that he couldn’t make any progress.

Miss Crawford, who had been repeatedly eyeing Dr. Grant and Edmund, now observed, “Those gentlemen must have some very interesting point to discuss.”

Miss Crawford, who had been watching Dr. Grant and Edmund closely, now remarked, “Those guys must be discussing something really interesting.”

“The most interesting in the world,” replied her brother—“how to make money; how to turn a good income into a better. Dr. Grant is giving Bertram instructions about the living he is to step into so soon. I find he takes orders in a few weeks. They were at it in the dining-parlour. I am glad to hear Bertram will be so well off. He will have a very pretty income to make ducks and drakes with, and earned without much trouble. I apprehend he will not have less than seven hundred a year. Seven hundred a year is a fine thing for a younger brother; and as of course he will still live at home, it will be all for his menus plaisirs; and a sermon at Christmas and Easter, I suppose, will be the sum total of sacrifice.”

“The most interesting thing in the world,” replied her brother, “is how to make money; how to turn a decent income into something better. Dr. Grant is giving Bertram advice about the position he’s going to take on soon. I found out he starts in a few weeks. They were discussing it in the dining room. I’m glad to hear Bertram will be doing so well. He’ll have a nice income to play with, and he’ll earn it without much effort. I expect he’ll make no less than seven hundred a year. Seven hundred a year is great for a younger brother; and since he’ll still be living at home, it will all be for his pleasures; and I guess a sermon at Christmas and Easter will be the extent of his sacrifices.”

His sister tried to laugh off her feelings by saying, “Nothing amuses me more than the easy manner with which everybody settles the abundance of those who have a great deal less than themselves. You would look rather blank, Henry, if your menus plaisirs were to be limited to seven hundred a year.”

His sister tried to brush off her feelings by saying, “Nothing amuses me more than how casually everyone discusses the wealth of those who have a lot less than they do. You’d look pretty stunned, Henry, if your menus plaisirs were limited to seven hundred a year.”

“Perhaps I might; but all that you know is entirely comparative. Birthright and habit must settle the business. Bertram is certainly well off for a cadet of even a baronet’s family. By the time he is four or five and twenty he will have seven hundred a year, and nothing to do for it.”

“Maybe I could; but everything you know is completely relative. Birth and upbringing have to determine things. Bertram is definitely in a good position for someone who's even just a younger son of a baronet. By the time he’s in his mid-twenties, he’ll be getting seven hundred a year, and he won’t have to work for it.”

Miss Crawford could have said that there would be a something to do and to suffer for it, which she could not think lightly of; but she checked herself and let it pass; and tried to look calm and unconcerned when the two gentlemen shortly afterwards joined them.

Miss Crawford could have mentioned that there would be things to do and endure because of it, which she couldn't take lightly; but she stopped herself and let it go; and tried to appear calm and indifferent when the two gentlemen soon joined them.

“Bertram,” said Henry Crawford, “I shall make a point of coming to Mansfield to hear you preach your first sermon. I shall come on purpose to encourage a young beginner. When is it to be? Miss Price, will not you join me in encouraging your cousin? Will not you engage to attend with your eyes steadily fixed on him the whole time—as I shall do—not to lose a word; or only looking off just to note down any sentence preeminently beautiful? We will provide ourselves with tablets and a pencil. When will it be? You must preach at Mansfield, you know, that Sir Thomas and Lady Bertram may hear you.”

“Bertram,” said Henry Crawford, “I’m definitely going to come to Mansfield to hear you preach your first sermon. I’ll come specifically to support a young beginner. When is it going to be? Miss Price, won’t you join me in supporting your cousin? Will you promise to attend and keep your eyes on him the whole time—just like I will—to catch every word; or only looking away just to jot down any sentence that’s especially beautiful? We’ll bring notepads and a pencil. When will it be? You know you have to preach at Mansfield so that Sir Thomas and Lady Bertram can hear you.”

“I shall keep clear of you, Crawford, as long as I can,” said Edmund; “for you would be more likely to disconcert me, and I should be more sorry to see you trying at it than almost any other man.”

“I'll stay away from you, Crawford, for as long as I can,” said Edmund; “because you’re more likely to throw me off balance, and I’d be less sorry to see anyone else trying than you.”

“Will he not feel this?” thought Fanny. “No, he can feel nothing as he ought.”

"Will he not feel this?" thought Fanny. "No, he can't feel anything as he should."

The party being now all united, and the chief talkers attracting each other, she remained in tranquillity; and as a whist-table was formed after tea—formed really for the amusement of Dr. Grant, by his attentive wife, though it was not to be supposed so—and Miss Crawford took her harp, she had nothing to do but to listen; and her tranquillity remained undisturbed the rest of the evening, except when Mr. Crawford now and then addressed to her a question or observation, which she could not avoid answering. Miss Crawford was too much vexed by what had passed to be in a humour for anything but music. With that she soothed herself and amused her friend.

The group was now all together, and the main speakers were engaging with each other, so she stayed calm; when a whist game started after tea—really organized for Dr. Grant’s enjoyment by his caring wife, even though that wasn’t how it appeared—and Miss Crawford picked up her harp, she had nothing to do but listen. Her calm remained undisturbed for the rest of the evening, except when Mr. Crawford occasionally directed a question or comment her way, which she couldn’t avoid responding to. Miss Crawford was too upset about what had happened to be in the mood for anything other than music. With that, she found comfort and kept her friend entertained.

The assurance of Edmund’s being so soon to take orders, coming upon her like a blow that had been suspended, and still hoped uncertain and at a distance, was felt with resentment and mortification. She was very angry with him. She had thought her influence more. She had begun to think of him; she felt that she had, with great regard, with almost decided intentions; but she would now meet him with his own cool feelings. It was plain that he could have no serious views, no true attachment, by fixing himself in a situation which he must know she would never stoop to. She would learn to match him in his indifference. She would henceforth admit his attentions without any idea beyond immediate amusement. If he could so command his affections, hers should do her no harm.

The news that Edmund was about to become a clergyman hit her like a delayed punch, raising feelings of resentment and humiliation. She was really angry with him. She had thought she had more influence over him. She had started to think about him seriously; she felt that she had genuine feelings, with almost firm intentions; but now she would face him with his own detached attitude. It was clear that he couldn't have any serious intentions or real feelings if he was putting himself in a position he must know she would never accept. She would learn to mirror his indifference. From now on, she would accept his attention just for fun, without any deeper thoughts. If he could control his feelings, hers wouldn't hurt her.

CHAPTER XXIV

Henry Crawford had quite made up his mind by the next morning to give another fortnight to Mansfield, and having sent for his hunters, and written a few lines of explanation to the Admiral, he looked round at his sister as he sealed and threw the letter from him, and seeing the coast clear of the rest of the family, said, with a smile, “And how do you think I mean to amuse myself, Mary, on the days that I do not hunt? I am grown too old to go out more than three times a week; but I have a plan for the intermediate days, and what do you think it is?”

Henry Crawford had definitely decided by the next morning to spend another two weeks at Mansfield. After calling for his hunters and writing a brief note to the Admiral, he glanced at his sister as he sealed the letter and tossed it aside. Noticing that the rest of the family was out of sight, he smiled and said, “So how do you think I plan to entertain myself, Mary, on the days I don’t hunt? I’m too old to go out more than three times a week, but I have a plan for the other days. Can you guess what it is?”

“To walk and ride with me, to be sure.”

“To walk and ride with me, for sure.”

“Not exactly, though I shall be happy to do both, but that would be exercise only to my body, and I must take care of my mind. Besides, that would be all recreation and indulgence, without the wholesome alloy of labour, and I do not like to eat the bread of idleness. No, my plan is to make Fanny Price in love with me.”

“Not exactly, but I’d be happy to do both. However, that would only be exercise for my body, and I need to take care of my mind. Plus, that would be all fun and indulgence without the healthy balance of work, and I don’t like to live off the bread of idleness. No, my plan is to make Fanny Price fall in love with me.”

“Fanny Price! Nonsense! No, no. You ought to be satisfied with her two cousins.”

“Fanny Price! Nonsense! No, no. You should be happy with her two cousins.”

“But I cannot be satisfied without Fanny Price, without making a small hole in Fanny Price’s heart. You do not seem properly aware of her claims to notice. When we talked of her last night, you none of you seemed sensible of the wonderful improvement that has taken place in her looks within the last six weeks. You see her every day, and therefore do not notice it; but I assure you she is quite a different creature from what she was in the autumn. She was then merely a quiet, modest, not plain-looking girl, but she is now absolutely pretty. I used to think she had neither complexion nor countenance; but in that soft skin of hers, so frequently tinged with a blush as it was yesterday, there is decided beauty; and from what I observed of her eyes and mouth, I do not despair of their being capable of expression enough when she has anything to express. And then, her air, her manner, her tout ensemble, is so indescribably improved! She must be grown two inches, at least, since October.”

“But I can’t be happy without Fanny Price, without making a little mark on Fanny Price’s heart. You don’t seem to fully recognize her importance. When we talked about her last night, none of you seemed to notice the amazing improvement in her looks over the past six weeks. You see her every day, so you might not notice it; but I assure you she is a completely different person from what she was in the fall. Back then, she was just a quiet, modest girl who wasn't exactly plain, but now she’s really quite pretty. I used to think she had neither a good complexion nor a nice face; but in that soft skin of hers, which often has a blush like it did yesterday, there’s real beauty. From what I’ve seen of her eyes and mouth, I believe they’re capable of expressing a lot when she has something to say. Plus, her presence, her manner, her overall vibe is so incredibly improved! She must have grown at least two inches since October.”

“Phoo! phoo! This is only because there were no tall women to compare her with, and because she has got a new gown, and you never saw her so well dressed before. She is just what she was in October, believe me. The truth is, that she was the only girl in company for you to notice, and you must have a somebody. I have always thought her pretty—not strikingly pretty—but ‘pretty enough,’ as people say; a sort of beauty that grows on one. Her eyes should be darker, but she has a sweet smile; but as for this wonderful degree of improvement, I am sure it may all be resolved into a better style of dress, and your having nobody else to look at; and therefore, if you do set about a flirtation with her, you never will persuade me that it is in compliment to her beauty, or that it proceeds from anything but your own idleness and folly.”

“Ugh! This is only because there weren't any tall women to compare her to, and because she has a new dress, and you've never seen her looking this good before. She's exactly the same as she was in October, trust me. The truth is, she was the only girl in the room for you to notice, and you need someone to focus on. I've always thought she was pretty—not stunningly pretty—but ‘pretty enough,’ as people say; a kind of beauty that grows on you. Her eyes could be darker, but she has a nice smile; but as for this so-called amazing improvement, I’m sure it all comes down to her having a better style of dress and you having no one else to look at; so if you decide to flirt with her, you won't convince me it's because of her beauty or that it's anything other than your own boredom and foolishness.”

Her brother gave only a smile to this accusation, and soon afterwards said, “I do not quite know what to make of Miss Fanny. I do not understand her. I could not tell what she would be at yesterday. What is her character? Is she solemn? Is she queer? Is she prudish? Why did she draw back and look so grave at me? I could hardly get her to speak. I never was so long in company with a girl in my life, trying to entertain her, and succeed so ill! Never met with a girl who looked so grave on me! I must try to get the better of this. Her looks say, ‘I will not like you, I am determined not to like you’; and I say she shall.”

Her brother only smiled at the accusation and then said, “I really don’t know what to make of Miss Fanny. I just don’t understand her. I couldn't figure out what she was up to yesterday. What’s her deal? Is she serious? Is she strange? Is she uptight? Why did she pull back and look so serious at me? I could hardly get her to talk. I’ve never spent so much time with a girl in my life, trying to entertain her and failing so miserably! I've never met a girl who looked so serious at me! I’ve got to figure this out. Her expression says, ‘I won’t like you, I’m determined not to like you’; and I say she will.”

“Foolish fellow! And so this is her attraction after all! This it is, her not caring about you, which gives her such a soft skin, and makes her so much taller, and produces all these charms and graces! I do desire that you will not be making her really unhappy; a little love, perhaps, may animate and do her good, but I will not have you plunge her deep, for she is as good a little creature as ever lived, and has a great deal of feeling.”

“Foolish guy! So this is her appeal after all! It’s her indifference toward you that gives her such smooth skin, makes her taller, and brings out all these charms and graces! I really hope you won't make her truly unhappy; a little love, maybe, could lift her spirits and do her good, but I won’t let you hurt her deeply, because she’s as good a person as you’ll ever meet and has a lot of feelings.”

“It can be but for a fortnight,” said Henry; “and if a fortnight can kill her, she must have a constitution which nothing could save. No, I will not do her any harm, dear little soul! I only want her to look kindly on me, to give me smiles as well as blushes, to keep a chair for me by herself wherever we are, and be all animation when I take it and talk to her; to think as I think, be interested in all my possessions and pleasures, try to keep me longer at Mansfield, and feel when I go away that she shall be never happy again. I want nothing more.”

“It can only be for two weeks,” said Henry; “and if two weeks can kill her, she must have a constitution that nothing could save. No, I won’t harm her, dear little soul! I just want her to look kindly on me, to give me smiles as well as blushes, to save a chair for me by herself wherever we are, and to be full of life when I sit down and talk to her; to think like I think, be interested in all my belongings and pleasures, try to keep me at Mansfield longer, and feel when I leave that she will never be happy again. I want nothing more.”

“Moderation itself!” said Mary. “I can have no scruples now. Well, you will have opportunities enough of endeavouring to recommend yourself, for we are a great deal together.”

“Moderation itself!” Mary said. “I have no doubts now. Well, you’ll have plenty of chances to try to win me over, since we spend a lot of time together.”

And without attempting any farther remonstrance, she left Fanny to her fate, a fate which, had not Fanny’s heart been guarded in a way unsuspected by Miss Crawford, might have been a little harder than she deserved; for although there doubtless are such unconquerable young ladies of eighteen (or one should not read about them) as are never to be persuaded into love against their judgment by all that talent, manner, attention, and flattery can do, I have no inclination to believe Fanny one of them, or to think that with so much tenderness of disposition, and so much taste as belonged to her, she could have escaped heart-whole from the courtship (though the courtship only of a fortnight) of such a man as Crawford, in spite of there being some previous ill opinion of him to be overcome, had not her affection been engaged elsewhere. With all the security which love of another and disesteem of him could give to the peace of mind he was attacking, his continued attentions—continued, but not obtrusive, and adapting themselves more and more to the gentleness and delicacy of her character—obliged her very soon to dislike him less than formerly. She had by no means forgotten the past, and she thought as ill of him as ever; but she felt his powers: he was entertaining; and his manners were so improved, so polite, so seriously and blamelessly polite, that it was impossible not to be civil to him in return.

And without trying to argue any further, she left Fanny to her fate, a fate that, if Fanny’s heart hadn’t been protected in a way Miss Crawford didn’t see coming, might have been tougher than she deserved. While it’s true there are undoubtedly some strong-willed girls at eighteen (or else we wouldn’t read about them) who can’t be swayed into love against their better judgment by all the charm, attention, and flattery in the world, I don’t believe Fanny was one of them. With her kind nature and good taste, I find it hard to think she could have remained unaffected by the courtship—albeit brief—that she received from a man like Crawford, especially considering that she had feelings for someone else. With all the reassurance that comes from loving another and disliking him, Fanny’s mind was under attack from his relentless attention—persistent, yet not pushy—tailoring itself more and more to her gentle and delicate character, which soon made her dislike him less than before. She hadn’t forgotten the past at all, and she still thought poorly of him, but she recognized his charm: he was engaging, and his manners had improved greatly—they were so refined and genuinely polite that it was impossible not to respond kindly to him.

A very few days were enough to effect this; and at the end of those few days, circumstances arose which had a tendency rather to forward his views of pleasing her, inasmuch as they gave her a degree of happiness which must dispose her to be pleased with everybody. William, her brother, the so long absent and dearly loved brother, was in England again. She had a letter from him herself, a few hurried happy lines, written as the ship came up Channel, and sent into Portsmouth with the first boat that left the Antwerp at anchor in Spithead; and when Crawford walked up with the newspaper in his hand, which he had hoped would bring the first tidings, he found her trembling with joy over this letter, and listening with a glowing, grateful countenance to the kind invitation which her uncle was most collectedly dictating in reply.

Just a few days were enough to make this happen; and by the end of those days, circumstances came up that tended to help his goal of pleasing her, as they brought her a level of happiness that made her more likely to be happy with everyone. William, her long-absent and much-loved brother, was back in England. She had a letter from him, just a few rushed happy lines, written as the ship came up the Channel and sent into Portsmouth on the first boat that left the Antwerp anchored in Spithead. When Crawford walked in with the newspaper, hoping it would bring the first news, he found her trembling with joy over this letter, listening with a bright and grateful expression as her uncle calmly dictated a kind reply.

It was but the day before that Crawford had made himself thoroughly master of the subject, or had in fact become at all aware of her having such a brother, or his being in such a ship, but the interest then excited had been very properly lively, determining him on his return to town to apply for information as to the probable period of the Antwerp’s return from the Mediterranean, etc.; and the good luck which attended his early examination of ship news the next morning seemed the reward of his ingenuity in finding out such a method of pleasing her, as well as of his dutiful attention to the Admiral, in having for many years taken in the paper esteemed to have the earliest naval intelligence. He proved, however, to be too late. All those fine first feelings, of which he had hoped to be the exciter, were already given. But his intention, the kindness of his intention, was thankfully acknowledged: quite thankfully and warmly, for she was elevated beyond the common timidity of her mind by the flow of her love for William.

It was just the day before that Crawford had completely mastered the subject or had even become aware that she had a brother or that he was on such a ship. However, the interest that this had sparked was understandably strong, prompting him, on his return to town, to seek information about when the Antwerp would be back from the Mediterranean, etc. The good fortune that came with his early check of ship news the next morning felt like a reward for his clever way of trying to impress her, as well as for his loyal attention to the Admiral by having subscribed to the paper known for having the earliest naval updates for many years. However, he turned out to be too late. All those wonderful initial feelings he had hoped to inspire had already been expressed. But his intention, that kind and thoughtful intention, was genuinely appreciated: very gratefully and warmly, as she was uplifted beyond her usual shyness by the depth of her love for William.

This dear William would soon be amongst them. There could be no doubt of his obtaining leave of absence immediately, for he was still only a midshipman; and as his parents, from living on the spot, must already have seen him, and be seeing him perhaps daily, his direct holidays might with justice be instantly given to the sister, who had been his best correspondent through a period of seven years, and the uncle who had done most for his support and advancement; and accordingly the reply to her reply, fixing a very early day for his arrival, came as soon as possible; and scarcely ten days had passed since Fanny had been in the agitation of her first dinner-visit, when she found herself in an agitation of a higher nature, watching in the hall, in the lobby, on the stairs, for the first sound of the carriage which was to bring her a brother.

This dear William would soon be among them. There was no doubt he would get leave of absence right away since he was still just a midshipman. His parents, living nearby, must have already seen him and might be seeing him daily, so his immediate holiday could justifiably go to his sister, who had been his best correspondent for seven years, and to the uncle who had supported him the most. Accordingly, the response to her reply, setting a very early date for his arrival, came as quickly as possible. Barely ten days had passed since Fanny had experienced the nerves of her first dinner invitation when she found herself in a heightened state of excitement, waiting in the hall, in the lobby, on the stairs, for the first sound of the carriage that would bring her brother.

It came happily while she was thus waiting; and there being neither ceremony nor fearfulness to delay the moment of meeting, she was with him as he entered the house, and the first minutes of exquisite feeling had no interruption and no witnesses, unless the servants chiefly intent upon opening the proper doors could be called such. This was exactly what Sir Thomas and Edmund had been separately conniving at, as each proved to the other by the sympathetic alacrity with which they both advised Mrs. Norris’s continuing where she was, instead of rushing out into the hall as soon as the noises of the arrival reached them.

It happened joyfully while she was waiting; and with no formalities or anxiety to hold up their meeting, she was with him as he walked into the house. The first few moments of pure emotion went uninterrupted and unnoticed, except for the servants, who were focused on opening the right doors. This was exactly what Sir Thomas and Edmund had been secretly planning, as each demonstrated to the other by the quick enthusiasm with which they suggested that Mrs. Norris stay where she was instead of dashing into the hall as soon as they heard the sounds of the arrival.

William and Fanny soon shewed themselves; and Sir Thomas had the pleasure of receiving, in his protégé, certainly a very different person from the one he had equipped seven years ago, but a young man of an open, pleasant countenance, and frank, unstudied, but feeling and respectful manners, and such as confirmed him his friend.

William and Fanny quickly appeared, and Sir Thomas enjoyed welcoming his protégé, who was definitely a very different person from the one he had sent off seven years earlier. Now, he was a young man with an open, pleasant face and straightforward, genuine, yet thoughtful and respectful manners, which confirmed his friendship.

It was long before Fanny could recover from the agitating happiness of such an hour as was formed by the last thirty minutes of expectation, and the first of fruition; it was some time even before her happiness could be said to make her happy, before the disappointment inseparable from the alteration of person had vanished, and she could see in him the same William as before, and talk to him, as her heart had been yearning to do through many a past year. That time, however, did gradually come, forwarded by an affection on his side as warm as her own, and much less encumbered by refinement or self-distrust. She was the first object of his love, but it was a love which his stronger spirits, and bolder temper, made it as natural for him to express as to feel. On the morrow they were walking about together with true enjoyment, and every succeeding morrow renewed a tête-à-tête which Sir Thomas could not but observe with complacency, even before Edmund had pointed it out to him.

It took Fanny a while to recover from the overwhelming happiness of those final thirty minutes of anticipation and the first moments of reality; it was some time before her happiness could truly make her feel happy, before the disappointment that comes with change had faded, allowing her to see in him the same William as before and talk to him as her heart had longed to do for many years. That moment eventually arrived, aided by a love on his part that was as intense as hers, but much less complicated by refinement or self-doubt. She was the first person he loved, and his stronger spirit and bolder character made it just as natural for him to express that love as it was to feel it. The next day, they were walking together with genuine enjoyment, and each following day brought a private conversation that Sir Thomas couldn't help but notice with satisfaction, even before Edmund had pointed it out to him.

Excepting the moments of peculiar delight, which any marked or unlooked-for instance of Edmund’s consideration of her in the last few months had excited, Fanny had never known so much felicity in her life, as in this unchecked, equal, fearless intercourse with the brother and friend who was opening all his heart to her, telling her all his hopes and fears, plans, and solicitudes respecting that long thought of, dearly earned, and justly valued blessing of promotion; who could give her direct and minute information of the father and mother, brothers and sisters, of whom she very seldom heard; who was interested in all the comforts and all the little hardships of her home at Mansfield; ready to think of every member of that home as she directed, or differing only by a less scrupulous opinion, and more noisy abuse of their aunt Norris, and with whom (perhaps the dearest indulgence of the whole) all the evil and good of their earliest years could be gone over again, and every former united pain and pleasure retraced with the fondest recollection. An advantage this, a strengthener of love, in which even the conjugal tie is beneath the fraternal. Children of the same family, the same blood, with the same first associations and habits, have some means of enjoyment in their power, which no subsequent connexions can supply; and it must be by a long and unnatural estrangement, by a divorce which no subsequent connexion can justify, if such precious remains of the earliest attachments are ever entirely outlived. Too often, alas! it is so. Fraternal love, sometimes almost everything, is at others worse than nothing. But with William and Fanny Price it was still a sentiment in all its prime and freshness, wounded by no opposition of interest, cooled by no separate attachment, and feeling the influence of time and absence only in its increase.

Except for the moments of unusual joy sparked by any notable or unexpected sign of Edmund’s thoughtfulness toward her in the last few months, Fanny had never experienced as much happiness in her life as she did in this open, equal, and fearless interaction with the brother and friend who was sharing his heart with her. He was telling her all about his hopes and fears, plans, and worries regarding that long-anticipated, dearly earned, and truly valued blessing of a promotion; he could provide her with detailed information about their father and mother, brothers and sisters, about whom she rarely heard; he was interested in all the comforts and little hardships of her home at Mansfield; ready to think of every family member the way she suggested, or differing only with a less careful opinion and more boisterous criticism of Aunt Norris, and with whom (perhaps the dearest indulgence of all) she could revisit all the good and bad from their early years, reliving every shared pain and pleasure with the fondest memories. This connection, a source of strength for love, is something even a marital bond can’t surpass. Children from the same family, sharing the same blood, with the same early experiences and habits have a form of joy available to them that no later relationships can replace; it would take a long and unnatural separation, a break that no subsequent bond can justify, for such precious remnants of early attachments to ever be entirely forgotten. Too often, unfortunately, this is the case. Fraternal love can sometimes mean everything, but at other times, it can feel worthless. However, with William and Fanny Price, it remained a feeling in all its prime and freshness, not hurt by competing interests, not cooled by separate attachments, and feeling the effects of time and distance only in its growth.

An affection so amiable was advancing each in the opinion of all who had hearts to value anything good. Henry Crawford was as much struck with it as any. He honoured the warm-hearted, blunt fondness of the young sailor, which led him to say, with his hands stretched towards Fanny’s head, “Do you know, I begin to like that queer fashion already, though when I first heard of such things being done in England, I could not believe it; and when Mrs. Brown, and the other women at the Commissioner’s at Gibraltar, appeared in the same trim, I thought they were mad; but Fanny can reconcile me to anything”; and saw, with lively admiration, the glow of Fanny’s cheek, the brightness of her eye, the deep interest, the absorbed attention, while her brother was describing any of the imminent hazards, or terrific scenes, which such a period at sea must supply.

A charm so appealing was growing in the eyes of everyone who could appreciate anything good. Henry Crawford was just as captivated as anyone else. He admired the warm-hearted, straightforward affection of the young sailor, which made him say, with his hands reaching towards Fanny’s head, “You know, I’m starting to really like that odd style already. When I first heard about this happening in England, I couldn’t believe it; and when Mrs. Brown and the other women at the Commissioner’s in Gibraltar showed up looking the same way, I thought they were crazy. But Fanny makes me open to anything.” He watched with lively admiration as he saw the blush on Fanny’s cheeks, the sparkle in her eyes, the deep interest, and the focused attention while her brother described the dangers and dramatic scenes that a time at sea would surely bring.

It was a picture which Henry Crawford had moral taste enough to value. Fanny’s attractions increased—increased twofold; for the sensibility which beautified her complexion and illumined her countenance was an attraction in itself. He was no longer in doubt of the capabilities of her heart. She had feeling, genuine feeling. It would be something to be loved by such a girl, to excite the first ardours of her young unsophisticated mind! She interested him more than he had foreseen. A fortnight was not enough. His stay became indefinite.

It was a picture that Henry Crawford had enough good taste to appreciate. Fanny’s charm grew—doubled, in fact; because the sensitivity that enhanced her complexion and brightened her expression was appealing all on its own. He no longer doubted the depth of her feelings. She had real, authentic emotions. It would be special to be loved by someone like her, to spark the initial passions of her young, innocent mind! She intrigued him more than he expected. Two weeks wasn’t sufficient. His stay turned into an open-ended one.

William was often called on by his uncle to be the talker. His recitals were amusing in themselves to Sir Thomas, but the chief object in seeking them was to understand the reciter, to know the young man by his histories; and he listened to his clear, simple, spirited details with full satisfaction, seeing in them the proof of good principles, professional knowledge, energy, courage, and cheerfulness, everything that could deserve or promise well. Young as he was, William had already seen a great deal. He had been in the Mediterranean; in the West Indies; in the Mediterranean again; had been often taken on shore by the favour of his captain, and in the course of seven years had known every variety of danger which sea and war together could offer. With such means in his power he had a right to be listened to; and though Mrs. Norris could fidget about the room, and disturb everybody in quest of two needlefuls of thread or a second-hand shirt button, in the midst of her nephew’s account of a shipwreck or an engagement, everybody else was attentive; and even Lady Bertram could not hear of such horrors unmoved, or without sometimes lifting her eyes from her work to say, “Dear me! how disagreeable! I wonder anybody can ever go to sea.”

William was often called upon by his uncle to be the storyteller. His stories were entertaining to Sir Thomas, but the main reason for asking him was to get to know the young man through his tales; Sir Thomas listened to his clear, straightforward, and energetic details with great satisfaction, seeing in them proof of strong values, professional insight, energy, bravery, and positivity—all qualities that deserved respect and promise. Despite his youth, William had already experienced a lot. He had traveled to the Mediterranean, the West Indies, and back to the Mediterranean again; he had often gone ashore thanks to his captain’s favor, and over seven years he had faced every kind of danger that the sea and war could present. With such experiences, he merited everyone’s attention; and even though Mrs. Norris could fuss around the room, disturbing everyone in search of a couple of needlefuls of thread or a used shirt button, everyone else was focused during her nephew’s accounts of a shipwreck or a battle. Even Lady Bertram couldn’t hear about such distressing events without occasionally looking up from her work to say, “Goodness! How awful! I wonder how anyone can go to sea.”

To Henry Crawford they gave a different feeling. He longed to have been at sea, and seen and done and suffered as much. His heart was warmed, his fancy fired, and he felt the highest respect for a lad who, before he was twenty, had gone through such bodily hardships and given such proofs of mind. The glory of heroism, of usefulness, of exertion, of endurance, made his own habits of selfish indulgence appear in shameful contrast; and he wished he had been a William Price, distinguishing himself and working his way to fortune and consequence with so much self-respect and happy ardour, instead of what he was!

To Henry Crawford, it felt different. He wished he had been at sea, experienced everything, and suffered as much. His heart warmed, his imagination ignited, and he held great respect for a young man who, before turning twenty, had endured such physical hardships and proved his intelligence. The glory of heroism, usefulness, effort, and endurance highlighted his own selfish habits in a shameful way; he wished he could be a William Price, making a name for himself and building his way to success and respect with so much self-respect and enthusiasm, instead of being who he was!

The wish was rather eager than lasting. He was roused from the reverie of retrospection and regret produced by it, by some inquiry from Edmund as to his plans for the next day’s hunting; and he found it was as well to be a man of fortune at once with horses and grooms at his command. In one respect it was better, as it gave him the means of conferring a kindness where he wished to oblige. With spirits, courage, and curiosity up to anything, William expressed an inclination to hunt; and Crawford could mount him without the slightest inconvenience to himself, and with only some scruples to obviate in Sir Thomas, who knew better than his nephew the value of such a loan, and some alarms to reason away in Fanny. She feared for William; by no means convinced by all that he could relate of his own horsemanship in various countries, of the scrambling parties in which he had been engaged, the rough horses and mules he had ridden, or his many narrow escapes from dreadful falls, that he was at all equal to the management of a high-fed hunter in an English fox-chase; nor till he returned safe and well, without accident or discredit, could she be reconciled to the risk, or feel any of that obligation to Mr. Crawford for lending the horse which he had fully intended it should produce. When it was proved, however, to have done William no harm, she could allow it to be a kindness, and even reward the owner with a smile when the animal was one minute tendered to his use again; and the next, with the greatest cordiality, and in a manner not to be resisted, made over to his use entirely so long as he remained in Northamptonshire.

The wish was more eager than lasting. He was brought back from his daydream of reflection and regret by Edmund asking about his plans for the next day's hunt; and he realized it was quite convenient to be a wealthy man with horses and grooms at his disposal. In one way, it was better, as it allowed him to do a favor where he wanted to help. With his spirits, courage, and curiosity at an all-time high, William expressed a desire to hunt; and Crawford could easily get him mounted without any trouble to himself, though he had to deal with some concerns from Sir Thomas, who understood better than his nephew the value of such a favor, as well as some worries from Fanny. She was worried about William; not at all convinced by everything he told her about his riding experience in various countries, the rough outings he'd been part of, the tough horses and mules he'd ridden, or his many narrow escapes from serious falls. She didn’t believe he was at all prepared to handle a well-fed hunter in an English fox hunt; and only once he returned safe and sound, without any mishaps or embarrassment, could she accept the risk or feel any gratitude toward Mr. Crawford for lending the horse, which he fully intended to provide. However, once it was proven that William had come to no harm, she could see it as a kindness, and even reward Crawford with a smile when the horse was offered for his use again, and then very warmly and irresistibly made it available to him for as long as he stayed in Northamptonshire.

CHAPTER XXV

The intercourse of the two families was at this period more nearly restored to what it had been in the autumn, than any member of the old intimacy had thought ever likely to be again. The return of Henry Crawford, and the arrival of William Price, had much to do with it, but much was still owing to Sir Thomas’s more than toleration of the neighbourly attempts at the Parsonage. His mind, now disengaged from the cares which had pressed on him at first, was at leisure to find the Grants and their young inmates really worth visiting; and though infinitely above scheming or contriving for any the most advantageous matrimonial establishment that could be among the apparent possibilities of any one most dear to him, and disdaining even as a littleness the being quick-sighted on such points, he could not avoid perceiving, in a grand and careless way, that Mr. Crawford was somewhat distinguishing his niece—nor perhaps refrain (though unconsciously) from giving a more willing assent to invitations on that account.

The relationship between the two families was at this time closer to how it had been in the fall than anyone from their old circle had thought possible again. The return of Henry Crawford and the arrival of William Price played a big part in this, but a lot also had to do with Sir Thomas being more than just tolerant of the neighbors' visits to the Parsonage. Now free from the pressure he felt at first, he was able to see that the Grants and their young residents were genuinely worth visiting. Although he was far above scheming or planning for any advantageous marriage arrangements for someone dear to him, and even looked down on being overly perceptive about such matters, he couldn’t help but notice, in a grand but careless way, that Mr. Crawford was showing some interest in his niece—nor could he help but unconsciously be more inclined to accept invitations for that reason.

His readiness, however, in agreeing to dine at the Parsonage, when the general invitation was at last hazarded, after many debates and many doubts as to whether it were worth while, “because Sir Thomas seemed so ill inclined, and Lady Bertram was so indolent!” proceeded from good-breeding and goodwill alone, and had nothing to do with Mr. Crawford, but as being one in an agreeable group: for it was in the course of that very visit that he first began to think that any one in the habit of such idle observations would have thought that Mr. Crawford was the admirer of Fanny Price.

His willingness to accept the invitation to dinner at the Parsonage, after much discussion and uncertainty about whether it was worth it—"since Sir Thomas seemed so unwelcoming and Lady Bertram was so lazy!"—came from his politeness and goodwill alone, and had nothing to do with Mr. Crawford, except for the fact that he was part of a pleasant group. It was during that very visit that he started to think that anyone who often made such lazy observations would have assumed that Mr. Crawford was Fanny Price's admirer.

The meeting was generally felt to be a pleasant one, being composed in a good proportion of those who would talk and those who would listen; and the dinner itself was elegant and plentiful, according to the usual style of the Grants, and too much according to the usual habits of all to raise any emotion except in Mrs. Norris, who could never behold either the wide table or the number of dishes on it with patience, and who did always contrive to experience some evil from the passing of the servants behind her chair, and to bring away some fresh conviction of its being impossible among so many dishes but that some must be cold.

The meeting was generally seen as pleasant, featuring a good mix of talkers and listeners; the dinner itself was elegant and abundant, true to the usual style of the Grants, and familiar enough to everyone present that it hardly stirred any strong feelings, except for Mrs. Norris. She could never look at the long table or the many dishes without annoyance, always managing to feel bothered by the servants moving behind her chair and coming away with a new certainty that with so many dishes, some of them had to be cold.

In the evening it was found, according to the predetermination of Mrs. Grant and her sister, that after making up the whist-table there would remain sufficient for a round game, and everybody being as perfectly complying and without a choice as on such occasions they always are, speculation was decided on almost as soon as whist; and Lady Bertram soon found herself in the critical situation of being applied to for her own choice between the games, and being required either to draw a card for whist or not. She hesitated. Luckily Sir Thomas was at hand.

In the evening, it was determined by Mrs. Grant and her sister that after setting up the whist table, there would be enough for a round of a different game. Since everyone was as agreeable and without preference as they usually are in those situations, they quickly decided to play a speculative game almost as soon as they had organized whist. Lady Bertram soon found herself in a tricky position, faced with a choice between the two games and being asked to either draw a card for whist or pass. She hesitated. Fortunately, Sir Thomas was nearby.

“What shall I do, Sir Thomas? Whist and speculation; which will amuse me most?”

“What should I do, Sir Thomas? Play whist or speculate; which will be more entertaining for me?”

Sir Thomas, after a moment’s thought, recommended speculation. He was a whist player himself, and perhaps might feel that it would not much amuse him to have her for a partner.

Sir Thomas, after a moment of consideration, suggested speculation. He played whist himself and might have felt that having her as a partner wouldn’t be very entertaining.

“Very well,” was her ladyship’s contented answer; “then speculation, if you please, Mrs. Grant. I know nothing about it, but Fanny must teach me.”

“Alright,” her ladyship replied happily; “then let’s do speculation, if you don’t mind, Mrs. Grant. I don’t know anything about it, but Fanny will have to teach me.”

Here Fanny interposed, however, with anxious protestations of her own equal ignorance; she had never played the game nor seen it played in her life; and Lady Bertram felt a moment’s indecision again; but upon everybody’s assuring her that nothing could be so easy, that it was the easiest game on the cards, and Henry Crawford’s stepping forward with a most earnest request to be allowed to sit between her ladyship and Miss Price, and teach them both, it was so settled; and Sir Thomas, Mrs. Norris, and Dr. and Mrs. Grant being seated at the table of prime intellectual state and dignity, the remaining six, under Miss Crawford’s direction, were arranged round the other. It was a fine arrangement for Henry Crawford, who was close to Fanny, and with his hands full of business, having two persons’ cards to manage as well as his own; for though it was impossible for Fanny not to feel herself mistress of the rules of the game in three minutes, he had yet to inspirit her play, sharpen her avarice, and harden her heart, which, especially in any competition with William, was a work of some difficulty; and as for Lady Bertram, he must continue in charge of all her fame and fortune through the whole evening; and if quick enough to keep her from looking at her cards when the deal began, must direct her in whatever was to be done with them to the end of it.

Here Fanny jumped in, nervously insisting that she knew just as little as everyone else; she had never played the game or seen it played before. Lady Bertram hesitated for a moment, but everyone reassured her that it was incredibly simple, the easiest card game there was. When Henry Crawford earnestly requested to sit between her ladyship and Miss Price to teach them both, it was decided. Sir Thomas, Mrs. Norris, and Dr. and Mrs. Grant took their seats at the main table, full of intellectual weight and dignity, while the other six, led by Miss Crawford, gathered around the other table. This worked out well for Henry Crawford, who was close to Fanny and had a lot on his plate, as he had to manage not just his own cards but also those of two other players. Although Fanny quickly understood the rules of the game, he still needed to encourage her to play more aggressively and toughen her up, especially when competing against William, which was no easy task. As for Lady Bertram, he had to oversee all her moves and outcomes throughout the evening and ensure that she didn't peek at her cards when the dealing started, guiding her with what to do with them until the end of the game.

He was in high spirits, doing everything with happy ease, and preeminent in all the lively turns, quick resources, and playful impudence that could do honour to the game; and the round table was altogether a very comfortable contrast to the steady sobriety and orderly silence of the other.

He was in great spirits, doing everything with cheerful ease, and standing out with all the lively moves, quick wits, and playful cheekiness that could add excitement to the game; and the round table was a pleasant contrast to the serious atmosphere and quiet order of the other.

Twice had Sir Thomas inquired into the enjoyment and success of his lady, but in vain; no pause was long enough for the time his measured manner needed; and very little of her state could be known till Mrs. Grant was able, at the end of the first rubber, to go to her and pay her compliments.

Twice Sir Thomas asked about how his lady was enjoying herself and whether she was successful, but it was pointless; no pause lasted long enough for his methodical way of speaking. He couldn't find out much about her state until Mrs. Grant was able, at the end of the first game, to go to her and offer her compliments.

“I hope your ladyship is pleased with the game.”

“I hope you’re happy with the game.”

“Oh dear, yes! very entertaining indeed. A very odd game. I do not know what it is all about. I am never to see my cards; and Mr. Crawford does all the rest.”

“Oh dear, yes! This is quite entertaining indeed. It's a very strange game. I have no idea what it's all about. I never get to see my cards, and Mr. Crawford does everything else.”

“Bertram,” said Crawford, some time afterwards, taking the opportunity of a little languor in the game, “I have never told you what happened to me yesterday in my ride home.” They had been hunting together, and were in the midst of a good run, and at some distance from Mansfield, when his horse being found to have flung a shoe, Henry Crawford had been obliged to give up, and make the best of his way back. “I told you I lost my way after passing that old farmhouse with the yew-trees, because I can never bear to ask; but I have not told you that, with my usual luck—for I never do wrong without gaining by it—I found myself in due time in the very place which I had a curiosity to see. I was suddenly, upon turning the corner of a steepish downy field, in the midst of a retired little village between gently rising hills; a small stream before me to be forded, a church standing on a sort of knoll to my right—which church was strikingly large and handsome for the place, and not a gentleman or half a gentleman’s house to be seen excepting one—to be presumed the Parsonage—within a stone’s throw of the said knoll and church. I found myself, in short, in Thornton Lacey.”

“Bertram,” Crawford said later on, taking a moment during a lull in their game, “I never told you what happened to me yesterday on my ride home.” They had been hunting together, deep into a great run, and quite far from Mansfield when his horse lost a shoe. Henry Crawford had to give up and head back. “I mentioned I got lost after passing that old farmhouse with the yew trees because I can never bring myself to ask for directions; but what I haven’t told you is that, as usual—I always seem to benefit from my blunders—I ended up right where I wanted to be. Suddenly, when I turned the corner of a somewhat steep, grassy field, I found myself in a charming little village nestled between gently rolling hills; there was a small stream I needed to cross, and to my right stood a church on a little hill—surprisingly large and beautiful for such a place, with only one gentleman's house, likely the Parsonage, within a stone’s throw of the church and knoll. In short, I found myself in Thornton Lacey.”

“It sounds like it,” said Edmund; “but which way did you turn after passing Sewell’s farm?”

“It sounds like it,” said Edmund; “but which way did you turn after passing Sewell’s farm?”

“I answer no such irrelevant and insidious questions; though were I to answer all that you could put in the course of an hour, you would never be able to prove that it was not Thornton Lacey—for such it certainly was.”

“I won’t respond to such irrelevant and sneaky questions; even if I answered everything you could ask in an hour, you’d still never be able to prove that it was not Thornton Lacey—because it definitely was.”

“You inquired, then?”

"Did you ask?"

“No, I never inquire. But I told a man mending a hedge that it was Thornton Lacey, and he agreed to it.”

“No, I never ask. But I told a guy fixing a hedge that it was Thornton Lacey, and he went along with it.”

“You have a good memory. I had forgotten having ever told you half so much of the place.”

“You have a great memory. I had completely forgotten that I shared this much about the place with you.”

Thornton Lacey was the name of his impending living, as Miss Crawford well knew; and her interest in a negotiation for William Price’s knave increased.

Thornton Lacey was the name of his upcoming home, as Miss Crawford well knew; and her interest in a deal for William Price’s scoundrel grew.

“Well,” continued Edmund, “and how did you like what you saw?”

“Well,” continued Edmund, “what did you think of what you saw?”

“Very much indeed. You are a lucky fellow. There will be work for five summers at least before the place is liveable.”

“Absolutely. You’re a lucky guy. It’ll take at least five summers of work before the place is livable.”

“No, no, not so bad as that. The farmyard must be moved, I grant you; but I am not aware of anything else. The house is by no means bad, and when the yard is removed, there may be a very tolerable approach to it.”

“No, no, it’s not that bad. I agree that the farmyard needs to be moved; but I'm not aware of anything else that should be changed. The house is actually quite decent, and once the yard is gone, there could be a pretty nice entrance to it.”

“The farmyard must be cleared away entirely, and planted up to shut out the blacksmith’s shop. The house must be turned to front the east instead of the north—the entrance and principal rooms, I mean, must be on that side, where the view is really very pretty; I am sure it may be done. And there must be your approach, through what is at present the garden. You must make a new garden at what is now the back of the house; which will be giving it the best aspect in the world, sloping to the south-east. The ground seems precisely formed for it. I rode fifty yards up the lane, between the church and the house, in order to look about me; and saw how it might all be. Nothing can be easier. The meadows beyond what will be the garden, as well as what now is, sweeping round from the lane I stood in to the north-east, that is, to the principal road through the village, must be all laid together, of course; very pretty meadows they are, finely sprinkled with timber. They belong to the living, I suppose; if not, you must purchase them. Then the stream—something must be done with the stream; but I could not quite determine what. I had two or three ideas.”

"The farmyard needs to be completely cleared out and replanted to block the view of the blacksmith’s shop. The house should face east instead of north—the entrance and main rooms should be on that side, where the view is really nice; I’m sure it can be done. And that should be your entrance, through what’s currently the garden. You need to create a new garden at what is now the back of the house; that will give it the best look, sloping towards the southeast. The land seems perfectly shaped for this. I rode fifty yards up the lane, between the church and the house, to check out the surroundings; and I could see how it all could work. It couldn’t be easier. The meadows beyond what will be the garden, as well as what now is, sweep around from the lane I was in to the northeast, which leads to the main road through the village—they all need to be combined, of course; they’re beautiful meadows, nicely dotted with trees. They probably belong to the church; if not, you’ll need to buy them. Then there’s the stream—something needs to be done with the stream, but I couldn’t quite figure out what. I had a couple of ideas."

“And I have two or three ideas also,” said Edmund, “and one of them is, that very little of your plan for Thornton Lacey will ever be put in practice. I must be satisfied with rather less ornament and beauty. I think the house and premises may be made comfortable, and given the air of a gentleman’s residence, without any very heavy expense, and that must suffice me; and, I hope, may suffice all who care about me.”

“And I have a few ideas too,” said Edmund, “and one of them is that very little of your plan for Thornton Lacey will actually be put into action. I need to be okay with a little less decoration and elegance. I believe the house and property can be made comfortable and have the feel of a gentleman’s home without spending too much money, and that will have to be enough for me; and, I hope it will be enough for everyone who cares about me.”

Miss Crawford, a little suspicious and resentful of a certain tone of voice, and a certain half-look attending the last expression of his hope, made a hasty finish of her dealings with William Price; and securing his knave at an exorbitant rate, exclaimed, “There, I will stake my last like a woman of spirit. No cold prudence for me. I am not born to sit still and do nothing. If I lose the game, it shall not be from not striving for it.”

Miss Crawford, a bit suspicious and upset by a particular tone in his voice and the way he looked when he expressed his hope, quickly wrapped up her business with William Price. After securing his rogue at an outrageous price, she declared, “There, I’m going to put everything on the line like a spirited woman. No cold practicality for me. I wasn’t born to sit around and do nothing. If I lose the game, it won’t be for lack of trying.”

The game was hers, and only did not pay her for what she had given to secure it. Another deal proceeded, and Crawford began again about Thornton Lacey.

The game was hers, and she just wasn’t paid for what she had done to secure it. Another deal came up, and Crawford started talking about Thornton Lacey again.

“My plan may not be the best possible: I had not many minutes to form it in; but you must do a good deal. The place deserves it, and you will find yourself not satisfied with much less than it is capable of. (Excuse me, your ladyship must not see your cards. There, let them lie just before you.) The place deserves it, Bertram. You talk of giving it the air of a gentleman’s residence. That will be done by the removal of the farmyard; for, independent of that terrible nuisance, I never saw a house of the kind which had in itself so much the air of a gentleman’s residence, so much the look of a something above a mere parsonage-house—above the expenditure of a few hundreds a year. It is not a scrambling collection of low single rooms, with as many roofs as windows; it is not cramped into the vulgar compactness of a square farmhouse: it is a solid, roomy, mansion-like looking house, such as one might suppose a respectable old country family had lived in from generation to generation, through two centuries at least, and were now spending from two to three thousand a year in.” Miss Crawford listened, and Edmund agreed to this. “The air of a gentleman’s residence, therefore, you cannot but give it, if you do anything. But it is capable of much more. (Let me see, Mary; Lady Bertram bids a dozen for that queen; no, no, a dozen is more than it is worth. Lady Bertram does not bid a dozen. She will have nothing to say to it. Go on, go on.) By some such improvements as I have suggested (I do not really require you to proceed upon my plan, though, by the bye, I doubt anybody’s striking out a better) you may give it a higher character. You may raise it into a place. From being the mere gentleman’s residence, it becomes, by judicious improvement, the residence of a man of education, taste, modern manners, good connexions. All this may be stamped on it; and that house receive such an air as to make its owner be set down as the great landholder of the parish by every creature travelling the road; especially as there is no real squire’s house to dispute the point—a circumstance, between ourselves, to enhance the value of such a situation in point of privilege and independence beyond all calculation. You think with me, I hope” (turning with a softened voice to Fanny). “Have you ever seen the place?”

"My plan might not be the best one; I only had a few minutes to come up with it, but you need to do a lot. The place deserves it, and you'll find that you're not satisfied with anything less than what it's capable of. (Excuse me, Your Ladyship, you must not see your cards. There, let them lie right in front of you.) The place deserves it, Bertram. You talk about giving it the feel of a gentleman’s residence. That can be achieved by getting rid of the farmyard; aside from that awful nuisance, I’ve never seen a house of this kind that exudes so much of a gentleman’s residence, with a look that’s definitely more than just a simple parsonage—above the costs of just a few hundred a year. It’s not a hodgepodge of small rooms, each with as many roofs as there are windows; it’s not squeezed into the common shape of a square farmhouse: it’s a solid, spacious home that looks like it could belong to a respectable old country family who lived there for generations, at least two centuries, and who are now spending two to three thousand a year on it.” Miss Crawford listened, and Edmund agreed. “So, you can’t help but give it the feel of a gentleman’s residence if you do anything. But it has the potential for much more. (Let me see, Mary; Lady Bertram bids a dozen for that queen; no, no, a dozen is more than it’s worth. Lady Bertram doesn’t bid a dozen. She won’t have anything to do with it. Go on, go on.) With some improvements like the ones I’ve suggested (I don’t actually expect you to follow my plan, though, to be honest, I doubt anyone could come up with a better one), you can elevate its status. You can transform it from just a gentleman’s residence to the home of a well-educated, tasteful man with modern manners and good connections. All of this can be imprinted on it, so that the house projects an image of its owner as the major landholder of the parish, seen by everyone traveling the road; especially since there isn’t a real squire’s house to compete with it—this fact, just between us, adds even more value to the location in terms of privilege and independence. You think the same, I hope” (turning with a softer voice to Fanny). “Have you ever seen the place?”

Fanny gave a quick negative, and tried to hide her interest in the subject by an eager attention to her brother, who was driving as hard a bargain, and imposing on her as much as he could; but Crawford pursued with “No, no, you must not part with the queen. You have bought her too dearly, and your brother does not offer half her value. No, no, sir, hands off, hands off. Your sister does not part with the queen. She is quite determined. The game will be yours,” turning to her again; “it will certainly be yours.”

Fanny quickly shook her head and tried to hide her interest in the topic by paying close attention to her brother, who was negotiating as hard as he could and taking advantage of her. But Crawford continued, "No, no, you can't give up the queen. You've invested too much in her, and your brother isn't offering even half her worth. No, no, sir, back off, back off. Your sister isn't giving up the queen. She's completely set on that. The game will be yours," he said, turning to her again; "it will definitely be yours."

“And Fanny had much rather it were William’s,” said Edmund, smiling at her. “Poor Fanny! not allowed to cheat herself as she wishes!”

“And Fanny would much prefer it to be William’s,” said Edmund, smiling at her. “Poor Fanny! Not allowed to deceive herself as she wants!”

“Mr. Bertram,” said Miss Crawford, a few minutes afterwards, “you know Henry to be such a capital improver, that you cannot possibly engage in anything of the sort at Thornton Lacey without accepting his help. Only think how useful he was at Sotherton! Only think what grand things were produced there by our all going with him one hot day in August to drive about the grounds, and see his genius take fire. There we went, and there we came home again; and what was done there is not to be told!”

“Mr. Bertram,” Miss Crawford said a few minutes later, “you know Henry is such a great innovator that you can’t possibly take on anything like that at Thornton Lacey without his help. Just think about how helpful he was at Sotherton! Just think about the amazing things we accomplished when we all went with him one hot day in August to explore the grounds and see his creativity ignite. We went there, and we came back; and what happened there is beyond words!”

Fanny’s eyes were turned on Crawford for a moment with an expression more than grave—even reproachful; but on catching his, were instantly withdrawn. With something of consciousness he shook his head at his sister, and laughingly replied, “I cannot say there was much done at Sotherton; but it was a hot day, and we were all walking after each other, and bewildered.” As soon as a general buzz gave him shelter, he added, in a low voice, directed solely at Fanny, “I should be sorry to have my powers of planning judged of by the day at Sotherton. I see things very differently now. Do not think of me as I appeared then.”

Fanny glanced at Crawford for a moment with an expression that was serious—almost accusing; but when their eyes met, she quickly looked away. With a hint of awareness, he shook his head at his sister and jokingly said, “I can’t say much happened at Sotherton; it was a hot day, and we were all just following each other around, feeling confused.” Once the general chatter provided him some cover, he leaned in closer and quietly told Fanny, “I would hate for you to judge my ability to plan based on what happened at Sotherton. I see things very differently now. Please don’t think of me as I was then.”

Sotherton was a word to catch Mrs. Norris, and being just then in the happy leisure which followed securing the odd trick by Sir Thomas’s capital play and her own against Dr. and Mrs. Grant’s great hands, she called out, in high good-humour, “Sotherton! Yes, that is a place, indeed, and we had a charming day there. William, you are quite out of luck; but the next time you come, I hope dear Mr. and Mrs. Rushworth will be at home, and I am sure I can answer for your being kindly received by both. Your cousins are not of a sort to forget their relations, and Mr. Rushworth is a most amiable man. They are at Brighton now, you know; in one of the best houses there, as Mr. Rushworth’s fine fortune gives them a right to be. I do not exactly know the distance, but when you get back to Portsmouth, if it is not very far off, you ought to go over and pay your respects to them; and I could send a little parcel by you that I want to get conveyed to your cousins.”

Sotherton was a term that caught Mrs. Norris's attention, and just then, enjoying the pleasant downtime after winning the odd trick with Sir Thomas's brilliant play and her own against Dr. and Mrs. Grant’s strong hands, she exclaimed cheerfully, “Sotherton! Yes, that’s a real place, and we had a lovely day there. William, you’re quite unlucky; but next time you visit, I hope dear Mr. and Mrs. Rushworth will be home, and I’m sure I can guarantee you’ll be warmly welcomed by both. Your cousins aren’t the type to forget their family, and Mr. Rushworth is a very kind man. They’re in Brighton now, you know; in one of the best houses there, thanks to Mr. Rushworth’s good fortune. I don't exactly know the distance, but when you get back to Portsmouth, if it's not too far, you should go over and pay your respects to them; and I could send a small parcel with you that I want to get delivered to your cousins.”

“I should be very happy, aunt; but Brighton is almost by Beachey Head; and if I could get so far, I could not expect to be welcome in such a smart place as that—poor scrubby midshipman as I am.”

“I should be really happy, Aunt; but Brighton is almost by Beachy Head; and if I could get that far, I couldn’t expect to be welcomed in such a fancy place as that—poor scruffy midshipman that I am.”

Mrs. Norris was beginning an eager assurance of the affability he might depend on, when she was stopped by Sir Thomas’s saying with authority, “I do not advise your going to Brighton, William, as I trust you may soon have more convenient opportunities of meeting; but my daughters would be happy to see their cousins anywhere; and you will find Mr. Rushworth most sincerely disposed to regard all the connexions of our family as his own.”

Mrs. Norris was just starting to confidently assure him of the friendliness he could count on when Sir Thomas interrupted her with authority, saying, “I don’t think you should go to Brighton, William, as I hope you’ll soon have better chances to meet. However, my daughters would love to see their cousins anywhere, and you’ll find Mr. Rushworth genuinely eager to consider all of our family connections as his own.”

“I would rather find him private secretary to the First Lord than anything else,” was William’s only answer, in an undervoice, not meant to reach far, and the subject dropped.

“I would rather see him as private secretary to the First Lord than anything else,” was William’s only response, said quietly, not meant to be heard by many, and the topic was dropped.

As yet Sir Thomas had seen nothing to remark in Mr. Crawford’s behaviour; but when the whist-table broke up at the end of the second rubber, and leaving Dr. Grant and Mrs. Norris to dispute over their last play, he became a looker-on at the other, he found his niece the object of attentions, or rather of professions, of a somewhat pointed character.

As of now, Sir Thomas hadn't noticed anything unusual in Mr. Crawford’s behavior; but when the whist game ended after the second round, and leaving Dr. Grant and Mrs. Norris to argue about their last move, he joined the other game and saw his niece receiving attention, or rather expressions of interest, that were somewhat direct.

Henry Crawford was in the first glow of another scheme about Thornton Lacey; and not being able to catch Edmund’s ear, was detailing it to his fair neighbour with a look of considerable earnestness. His scheme was to rent the house himself the following winter, that he might have a home of his own in that neighbourhood; and it was not merely for the use of it in the hunting-season (as he was then telling her), though that consideration had certainly some weight, feeling as he did that, in spite of all Dr. Grant’s very great kindness, it was impossible for him and his horses to be accommodated where they now were without material inconvenience; but his attachment to that neighbourhood did not depend upon one amusement or one season of the year: he had set his heart upon having a something there that he could come to at any time, a little homestall at his command, where all the holidays of his year might be spent, and he might find himself continuing, improving, and perfecting that friendship and intimacy with the Mansfield Park family which was increasing in value to him every day. Sir Thomas heard and was not offended. There was no want of respect in the young man’s address; and Fanny’s reception of it was so proper and modest, so calm and uninviting, that he had nothing to censure in her. She said little, assented only here and there, and betrayed no inclination either of appropriating any part of the compliment to herself, or of strengthening his views in favour of Northamptonshire. Finding by whom he was observed, Henry Crawford addressed himself on the same subject to Sir Thomas, in a more everyday tone, but still with feeling.

Henry Crawford was enthusiastically working on another plan regarding Thornton Lacey. Unable to catch Edmund's attention, he was explaining it to his lovely neighbor with a look of serious intent. His plan was to rent the house himself the following winter so he could have a place of his own in that area. While he was telling her it was mainly for the hunting season, that definitely played a role since he felt that, despite all of Dr. Grant’s kindness, it was just too inconvenient for him and his horses to stay where they currently were. However, his connection to the area wasn’t just about one activity or one season of the year; he was really set on having a place he could visit anytime, a little home away from home, where he could spend all his holidays and continue to grow and strengthen his friendship with the Mansfield Park family, which meant more to him with each passing day. Sir Thomas listened and wasn’t offended. The young man showed respect in his words, and Fanny's response was appropriate and modest, calm and distant enough that he had nothing to criticize. She spoke little, agreed occasionally, and showed no desire to take any part of the compliment for herself or to encourage his interest in Northamptonshire. Noticing who was listening, Henry Crawford then spoke on the same topic to Sir Thomas, using a more casual tone but still conveying emotion.

“I want to be your neighbour, Sir Thomas, as you have, perhaps, heard me telling Miss Price. May I hope for your acquiescence, and for your not influencing your son against such a tenant?”

“I want to be your neighbor, Sir Thomas, as you may have heard me mentioning to Miss Price. Can I hope for your agreement, and for you not to influence your son against having me as a tenant?”

Sir Thomas, politely bowing, replied, “It is the only way, sir, in which I could not wish you established as a permanent neighbour; but I hope, and believe, that Edmund will occupy his own house at Thornton Lacey. Edmund, am I saying too much?”

Sir Thomas, politely bowing, replied, “It’s the only way, sir, that I could not want you as a permanent neighbor; but I hope, and believe, that Edmund will live in his own house at Thornton Lacey. Edmund, am I saying too much?”

Edmund, on this appeal, had first to hear what was going on; but, on understanding the question, was at no loss for an answer.

Edmund, upon hearing this request, needed to understand what was happening; however, once he grasped the issue, he had no trouble finding a response.

“Certainly, sir, I have no idea but of residence. But, Crawford, though I refuse you as a tenant, come to me as a friend. Consider the house as half your own every winter, and we will add to the stables on your own improved plan, and with all the improvements of your improved plan that may occur to you this spring.”

“Of course, sir, I can only think of home. But, Crawford, even though I can’t accept you as a tenant, come to me as a friend. Think of the house as mostly yours every winter, and we’ll expand the stables based on your own ideas, along with any upgrades you come up with this spring.”

“We shall be the losers,” continued Sir Thomas. “His going, though only eight miles, will be an unwelcome contraction of our family circle; but I should have been deeply mortified if any son of mine could reconcile himself to doing less. It is perfectly natural that you should not have thought much on the subject, Mr. Crawford. But a parish has wants and claims which can be known only by a clergyman constantly resident, and which no proxy can be capable of satisfying to the same extent. Edmund might, in the common phrase, do the duty of Thornton, that is, he might read prayers and preach, without giving up Mansfield Park: he might ride over every Sunday, to a house nominally inhabited, and go through divine service; he might be the clergyman of Thornton Lacey every seventh day, for three or four hours, if that would content him. But it will not. He knows that human nature needs more lessons than a weekly sermon can convey; and that if he does not live among his parishioners, and prove himself, by constant attention, their well-wisher and friend, he does very little either for their good or his own.”

“We will be the ones at a loss,” Sir Thomas continued. “His leaving, even though it’s just eight miles away, will be an unwelcome shrinkage of our family circle; but I would have been deeply embarrassed if any son of mine could be okay with doing less. It’s completely understandable that you haven’t thought much about it, Mr. Crawford. However, a parish has needs and responsibilities that can only be understood by a clergyman who is always present, and no substitute can satisfy those to the same degree. Edmund could, in common terms, perform the duties of Thornton, which means he could read prayers and preach without giving up Mansfield Park: he could ride over every Sunday to a house that is technically inhabited, and conduct the divine service; he could be the clergyman of Thornton Lacey every seventh day for three or four hours, if that’s enough for him. But it won’t be. He recognizes that human nature requires more lessons than a weekly sermon can provide; and if he doesn’t live among his parishioners and show, through constant attention, that he cares for them as a friend, he’s not doing much for their benefit or his own.”

Mr. Crawford bowed his acquiescence.

Mr. Crawford nodded in agreement.

“I repeat again,” added Sir Thomas, “that Thornton Lacey is the only house in the neighbourhood in which I should not be happy to wait on Mr. Crawford as occupier.”

“I'll say it again,” Sir Thomas added, “that Thornton Lacey is the only house in the area where I would not be happy to serve Mr. Crawford as the tenant.”

Mr. Crawford bowed his thanks.

Mr. Crawford expressed his thanks.

“Sir Thomas,” said Edmund, “undoubtedly understands the duty of a parish priest. We must hope his son may prove that he knows it too.”

“Sir Thomas,” said Edmund, “definitely understands the responsibilities of a parish priest. We can only hope that his son will show that he knows them too.”

Whatever effect Sir Thomas’s little harangue might really produce on Mr. Crawford, it raised some awkward sensations in two of the others, two of his most attentive listeners—Miss Crawford and Fanny. One of whom, having never before understood that Thornton was so soon and so completely to be his home, was pondering with downcast eyes on what it would be not to see Edmund every day; and the other, startled from the agreeable fancies she had been previously indulging on the strength of her brother’s description, no longer able, in the picture she had been forming of a future Thornton, to shut out the church, sink the clergyman, and see only the respectable, elegant, modernised, and occasional residence of a man of independent fortune, was considering Sir Thomas, with decided ill-will, as the destroyer of all this, and suffering the more from that involuntary forbearance which his character and manner commanded, and from not daring to relieve herself by a single attempt at throwing ridicule on his cause.

Whatever effect Sir Thomas’s speech might have had on Mr. Crawford, it stirred some uncomfortable feelings in two of the other listeners—Miss Crawford and Fanny. One of them, having never realized that Thornton would soon and fully become his home, was lost in thought, downcast, about what it would be like not to see Edmund every day. The other, abruptly pulled from the pleasant daydreams she had been enjoying based on her brother’s description, could no longer envision her future at Thornton without including the church, the clergyman, and the reality of a respectable, elegant, modernized home of a man with independent means. Instead, she saw Sir Thomas as the one ruining all her hopes and felt even more frustrated by her instinctive restraint to mock his position, as his character and demeanor demanded respect, leaving her unable to express her feelings.

All the agreeable of her speculation was over for that hour. It was time to have done with cards, if sermons prevailed; and she was glad to find it necessary to come to a conclusion, and be able to refresh her spirits by a change of place and neighbour.

All the enjoyment of her thoughts was finished for that hour. It was time to put away the cards, if lectures took over; and she was happy to realize it was necessary to reach a decision and could lift her spirits by changing her surroundings and company.

The chief of the party were now collected irregularly round the fire, and waiting the final break-up. William and Fanny were the most detached. They remained together at the otherwise deserted card-table, talking very comfortably, and not thinking of the rest, till some of the rest began to think of them. Henry Crawford’s chair was the first to be given a direction towards them, and he sat silently observing them for a few minutes; himself, in the meanwhile, observed by Sir Thomas, who was standing in chat with Dr. Grant.

The main members of the group were now gathered haphazardly around the fire, waiting for the final departure. William and Fanny were the most distanced from everyone else. They stayed together at the otherwise empty card table, chatting comfortably and not paying attention to the others, until some of the others started to pay attention to them. Henry Crawford was the first to shift his chair in their direction, sitting quietly and watching them for a few minutes; at the same time, he was being watched by Sir Thomas, who was engaged in conversation with Dr. Grant.

“This is the assembly night,” said William. “If I were at Portsmouth I should be at it, perhaps.”

“This is the night for the assembly,” William said. “If I were in Portsmouth, I’d probably be there.”

“But you do not wish yourself at Portsmouth, William?”

"But you don't want to be in Portsmouth, William?"

“No, Fanny, that I do not. I shall have enough of Portsmouth and of dancing too, when I cannot have you. And I do not know that there would be any good in going to the assembly, for I might not get a partner. The Portsmouth girls turn up their noses at anybody who has not a commission. One might as well be nothing as a midshipman. One is nothing, indeed. You remember the Gregorys; they are grown up amazing fine girls, but they will hardly speak to me, because Lucy is courted by a lieutenant.”

“No, Fanny, I don’t. I’ll have plenty of Portsmouth and dancing too when I can’t have you. And I don’t see the point in going to the assembly, since I might not even find a partner. The girls in Portsmouth look down on anyone without a commission. It’s as good as being nothing if you’re just a midshipman. You really are nothing, to be honest. You remember the Gregorys? They’ve turned into such lovely girls, but they barely even talk to me because Lucy is being pursued by a lieutenant.”

“Oh! shame, shame! But never mind it, William” (her own cheeks in a glow of indignation as she spoke). “It is not worth minding. It is no reflection on you; it is no more than what the greatest admirals have all experienced, more or less, in their time. You must think of that, you must try to make up your mind to it as one of the hardships which fall to every sailor’s share, like bad weather and hard living, only with this advantage, that there will be an end to it, that there will come a time when you will have nothing of that sort to endure. When you are a lieutenant! only think, William, when you are a lieutenant, how little you will care for any nonsense of this kind.”

“Oh! Shame, shame! But don’t worry about it, William” (her own cheeks flushed with indignation as she spoke). “It’s not worth worrying about. It’s not a reflection on you; it’s just something that all the greatest admirals have gone through, more or less, in their time. You have to keep that in mind, you need to accept it as one of the challenges that every sailor faces, like bad weather and tough living, but with the advantage that it will come to an end, that there will be a time when you won’t have to endure any of that. When you’re a lieutenant! Just think, William, when you’re a lieutenant, how little you’ll care about any nonsense like this.”

“I begin to think I shall never be a lieutenant, Fanny. Everybody gets made but me.”

“I’m starting to think I’ll never be a lieutenant, Fanny. Everyone else gets promoted but me.”

“Oh! my dear William, do not talk so; do not be so desponding. My uncle says nothing, but I am sure he will do everything in his power to get you made. He knows, as well as you do, of what consequence it is.”

“Oh! my dear William, don’t say things like that; don’t be so down. My uncle isn’t saying anything, but I’m sure he will do everything he can to help you. He knows, just like you do, how important this is.”

She was checked by the sight of her uncle much nearer to them than she had any suspicion of, and each found it necessary to talk of something else.

She was startled to see her uncle much closer to them than she expected, and they both felt the need to change the subject.

“Are you fond of dancing, Fanny?”

"Do you like to dance, Fanny?"

“Yes, very; only I am soon tired.”

“Yes, very much; I just get tired quickly.”

“I should like to go to a ball with you and see you dance. Have you never any balls at Northampton? I should like to see you dance, and I’d dance with you if you would, for nobody would know who I was here, and I should like to be your partner once more. We used to jump about together many a time, did not we? when the hand-organ was in the street? I am a pretty good dancer in my way, but I dare say you are a better.” And turning to his uncle, who was now close to them, “Is not Fanny a very good dancer, sir?”

“I’d really love to go to a ball with you and watch you dance. Don't they have any balls in Northampton? I want to see you dance, and I’d dance with you if you’d like, because no one would know who I am here, and I’d love to be your partner again. We used to jump around together all the time, didn’t we? When the hand-organ played in the street? I think I’m a pretty good dancer, but I bet you’re better.” And turning to his uncle, who was now nearby, “Isn’t Fanny a really good dancer, sir?”

Fanny, in dismay at such an unprecedented question, did not know which way to look, or how to be prepared for the answer. Some very grave reproof, or at least the coldest expression of indifference, must be coming to distress her brother, and sink her to the ground. But, on the contrary, it was no worse than, “I am sorry to say that I am unable to answer your question. I have never seen Fanny dance since she was a little girl; but I trust we shall both think she acquits herself like a gentlewoman when we do see her, which, perhaps, we may have an opportunity of doing ere long.”

Fanny, shocked by such an unexpected question, didn’t know where to look or how to prepare for the answer. She expected some serious reprimand, or at the very least, a cold show of indifference that would upset her brother and crush her. But instead, it was nothing worse than, “I’m sorry to say I can’t answer your question. I haven’t seen Fanny dance since she was a little girl; but I hope we’ll both think she carries herself like a lady when we finally see her, which, hopefully, we’ll get the chance to do soon.”

“I have had the pleasure of seeing your sister dance, Mr. Price,” said Henry Crawford, leaning forward, “and will engage to answer every inquiry which you can make on the subject, to your entire satisfaction. But I believe” (seeing Fanny looked distressed) “it must be at some other time. There is one person in company who does not like to have Miss Price spoken of.”

“I’ve had the pleasure of watching your sister dance, Mr. Price,” said Henry Crawford, leaning forward, “and I’m ready to answer any questions you have about it to your complete satisfaction. But I think” (noticing Fanny looked upset) “it should be at another time. There’s one person here who doesn't like having Miss Price talked about.”

True enough, he had once seen Fanny dance; and it was equally true that he would now have answered for her gliding about with quiet, light elegance, and in admirable time; but, in fact, he could not for the life of him recall what her dancing had been, and rather took it for granted that she had been present than remembered anything about her.

Sure, here’s the updated text: It’s true that he had once seen Fanny dance, and it’s also true that he would now describe her as gliding around with quiet, light elegance, and in perfect rhythm; but honestly, he couldn’t remember what her dancing had been like, and he was more inclined to assume that she had been there than to recall anything about her.

He passed, however, for an admirer of her dancing; and Sir Thomas, by no means displeased, prolonged the conversation on dancing in general, and was so well engaged in describing the balls of Antigua, and listening to what his nephew could relate of the different modes of dancing which had fallen within his observation, that he had not heard his carriage announced, and was first called to the knowledge of it by the bustle of Mrs. Norris.

He pretended to be a fan of her dancing; and Sir Thomas, not at all put off, continued the conversation about dancing in general, and became so absorbed in describing the balls of Antigua and listening to what his nephew had to say about the different dancing styles he had seen that he didn’t notice his carriage being announced, only realizing it when Mrs. Norris made a fuss about it.

“Come, Fanny, Fanny, what are you about? We are going. Do not you see your aunt is going? Quick, quick! I cannot bear to keep good old Wilcox waiting. You should always remember the coachman and horses. My dear Sir Thomas, we have settled it that the carriage should come back for you, and Edmund and William.”

“Come on, Fanny, what are you doing? We're leaving. Can't you see your aunt is going? Hurry up! I can't stand keeping good old Wilcox waiting. You should always think of the coachman and the horses. My dear Sir Thomas, we've agreed that the carriage will come back for you, and for Edmund and William.”

Sir Thomas could not dissent, as it had been his own arrangement, previously communicated to his wife and sister; but that seemed forgotten by Mrs. Norris, who must fancy that she settled it all herself.

Sir Thomas couldn’t disagree, as it had been his own plan that he had already shared with his wife and sister; but that seemed to be overlooked by Mrs. Norris, who must think she made all the decisions herself.

Fanny’s last feeling in the visit was disappointment: for the shawl which Edmund was quietly taking from the servant to bring and put round her shoulders was seized by Mr. Crawford’s quicker hand, and she was obliged to be indebted to his more prominent attention.

Fanny’s final feeling during the visit was disappointment: the shawl that Edmund was calmly taking from the servant to drape around her shoulders was grabbed by Mr. Crawford’s quicker hand, and she had to rely on his more noticeable attention.

CHAPTER XXVI

William’s desire of seeing Fanny dance made more than a momentary impression on his uncle. The hope of an opportunity, which Sir Thomas had then given, was not given to be thought of no more. He remained steadily inclined to gratify so amiable a feeling; to gratify anybody else who might wish to see Fanny dance, and to give pleasure to the young people in general; and having thought the matter over, and taken his resolution in quiet independence, the result of it appeared the next morning at breakfast, when, after recalling and commending what his nephew had said, he added, “I do not like, William, that you should leave Northamptonshire without this indulgence. It would give me pleasure to see you both dance. You spoke of the balls at Northampton. Your cousins have occasionally attended them; but they would not altogether suit us now. The fatigue would be too much for your aunt. I believe we must not think of a Northampton ball. A dance at home would be more eligible; and if—”

William's wish to see Fanny dance left a lasting impression on his uncle. The opportunity that Sir Thomas had mentioned wasn’t something to forget. He was determined to fulfill such a kind desire; to also please anyone else who wanted to see Fanny dance, and to bring joy to the young people in general. After considering the situation and coming to his decision quietly, the outcome showed up the next morning at breakfast. After recalling and praising what his nephew had suggested, he added, “I don’t think, William, that you should leave Northamptonshire without this enjoyment. It would make me happy to see you both dance. You mentioned the balls at Northampton. Your cousins have gone to them occasionally; however, they wouldn't really suit us now. The effort would be too much for your aunt. I believe we shouldn’t consider a Northampton ball. A dance at home would be a better choice; and if—”

“Ah, my dear Sir Thomas!” interrupted Mrs. Norris, “I knew what was coming. I knew what you were going to say. If dear Julia were at home, or dearest Mrs. Rushworth at Sotherton, to afford a reason, an occasion for such a thing, you would be tempted to give the young people a dance at Mansfield. I know you would. If they were at home to grace the ball, a ball you would have this very Christmas. Thank your uncle, William, thank your uncle!”

“Ah, my dear Sir Thomas!” interrupted Mrs. Norris, “I knew what was coming. I knew what you were going to say. If dear Julia were at home, or our beloved Mrs. Rushworth at Sotherton, providing a reason or occasion for such a thing, you would be tempted to throw a dance for the young people at Mansfield. I know you would. If they were at home to add charm to the ball, you would have one this very Christmas. Thank your uncle, William, thank your uncle!”

“My daughters,” replied Sir Thomas, gravely interposing, “have their pleasures at Brighton, and I hope are very happy; but the dance which I think of giving at Mansfield will be for their cousins. Could we be all assembled, our satisfaction would undoubtedly be more complete, but the absence of some is not to debar the others of amusement.”

“My daughters,” Sir Thomas replied seriously, interrupting, “are enjoying themselves in Brighton, and I hope they’re very happy; but the dance I’m planning to hold at Mansfield will be for their cousins. If we could all be together, it would certainly make our enjoyment even better, but just because some are missing doesn’t mean the others shouldn’t have fun.”

Mrs. Norris had not another word to say. She saw decision in his looks, and her surprise and vexation required some minutes’ silence to be settled into composure. A ball at such a time! His daughters absent and herself not consulted! There was comfort, however, soon at hand. She must be the doer of everything: Lady Bertram would of course be spared all thought and exertion, and it would all fall upon her. She should have to do the honours of the evening; and this reflection quickly restored so much of her good-humour as enabled her to join in with the others, before their happiness and thanks were all expressed.

Mrs. Norris had nothing more to say. She noticed the determination in his expression, and her surprise and frustration needed a few moments of silence to turn into calm. A ball at such a time! His daughters were away, and she hadn’t been consulted! However, comfort was soon at hand. She had to take charge of everything: Lady Bertram would, of course, be free from any concerns or effort, and it would all fall on her. She would have to host the evening; this thought quickly brought back enough of her good mood for her to participate with the others before their happiness and thanks were fully expressed.

Edmund, William, and Fanny did, in their different ways, look and speak as much grateful pleasure in the promised ball as Sir Thomas could desire. Edmund’s feelings were for the other two. His father had never conferred a favour or shewn a kindness more to his satisfaction.

Edmund, William, and Fanny each expressed their gratitude and excitement for the upcoming ball in their own ways, just as Sir Thomas hoped they would. Edmund's thoughts were focused on the other two. His father had never given him a favor or shown him kindness that made him happier.

Lady Bertram was perfectly quiescent and contented, and had no objections to make. Sir Thomas engaged for its giving her very little trouble; and she assured him “that she was not at all afraid of the trouble; indeed, she could not imagine there would be any.”

Lady Bertram was completely calm and satisfied, and she had no objections to raise. Sir Thomas made sure it would cause her very little inconvenience; and she assured him "that she wasn't worried about any trouble at all; in fact, she couldn't imagine there would be any."

Mrs. Norris was ready with her suggestions as to the rooms he would think fittest to be used, but found it all prearranged; and when she would have conjectured and hinted about the day, it appeared that the day was settled too. Sir Thomas had been amusing himself with shaping a very complete outline of the business; and as soon as she would listen quietly, could read his list of the families to be invited, from whom he calculated, with all necessary allowance for the shortness of the notice, to collect young people enough to form twelve or fourteen couple: and could detail the considerations which had induced him to fix on the 22nd as the most eligible day. William was required to be at Portsmouth on the 24th; the 22nd would therefore be the last day of his visit; but where the days were so few it would be unwise to fix on any earlier. Mrs. Norris was obliged to be satisfied with thinking just the same, and with having been on the point of proposing the 22nd herself, as by far the best day for the purpose.

Mrs. Norris had her suggestions ready for which rooms he would think were best to use, but she found everything already arranged. When she tried to guess and hint about the date, it turned out that the date was settled too. Sir Thomas had been busy working out a detailed plan for the event, and as soon as she settled down to listen, he could read her his list of families to invite, from which he figured, even with the short notice, he could gather enough young people to form twelve or fourteen couples. He could also explain the reasons why he chose the 22nd as the best day. William needed to be in Portsmouth on the 24th, so the 22nd would be the last day of his visit; with so few days left, it wouldn’t make sense to pick any sooner. Mrs. Norris had to be okay with thinking the same thing and lamenting that she had almost suggested the 22nd herself, as it was definitely the best day for the occasion.

The ball was now a settled thing, and before the evening a proclaimed thing to all whom it concerned. Invitations were sent with despatch, and many a young lady went to bed that night with her head full of happy cares as well as Fanny. To her the cares were sometimes almost beyond the happiness; for young and inexperienced, with small means of choice and no confidence in her own taste, the “how she should be dressed” was a point of painful solicitude; and the almost solitary ornament in her possession, a very pretty amber cross which William had brought her from Sicily, was the greatest distress of all, for she had nothing but a bit of ribbon to fasten it to; and though she had worn it in that manner once, would it be allowable at such a time in the midst of all the rich ornaments which she supposed all the other young ladies would appear in? And yet not to wear it! William had wanted to buy her a gold chain too, but the purchase had been beyond his means, and therefore not to wear the cross might be mortifying him. These were anxious considerations; enough to sober her spirits even under the prospect of a ball given principally for her gratification.

The ball was officially happening now, and by evening it was announced to everyone involved. Invitations were sent out quickly, and many young ladies went to bed that night, filled with happy worries just like Fanny. For her, though, the worries sometimes overshadowed the happiness; being young and inexperienced, with limited options and no confidence in her own style, the question of “how she should dress” was a source of great concern. The only piece of jewelry she owned, a lovely amber cross that William had brought her from Sicily, caused her the most distress of all because she only had a piece of ribbon to attach it with. Although she had worn it that way once before, she wondered if it would be acceptable at such an event, surrounded by all the fancy jewelry she imagined the other young ladies would wear. And yet, not wearing it felt wrong! William had wanted to buy her a gold chain as well, but it was beyond his budget, so not wearing the cross might hurt his feelings. These were distressing thoughts, enough to dampen her spirits even with the excitement of a ball meant to please her.

The preparations meanwhile went on, and Lady Bertram continued to sit on her sofa without any inconvenience from them. She had some extra visits from the housekeeper, and her maid was rather hurried in making up a new dress for her: Sir Thomas gave orders, and Mrs. Norris ran about; but all this gave her no trouble, and as she had foreseen, “there was, in fact, no trouble in the business.”

The preparations continued, and Lady Bertram stayed comfortably on her sofa without being bothered by them. She had a few extra visits from the housekeeper, and her maid was quite busy making a new dress for her. Sir Thomas issued orders, and Mrs. Norris was rushing around; but none of this troubled her, and as she had anticipated, “there was, in fact, no trouble in the business.”

Edmund was at this time particularly full of cares: his mind being deeply occupied in the consideration of two important events now at hand, which were to fix his fate in life—ordination and matrimony—events of such a serious character as to make the ball, which would be very quickly followed by one of them, appear of less moment in his eyes than in those of any other person in the house. On the 23rd he was going to a friend near Peterborough, in the same situation as himself, and they were to receive ordination in the course of the Christmas week. Half his destiny would then be determined, but the other half might not be so very smoothly wooed. His duties would be established, but the wife who was to share, and animate, and reward those duties, might yet be unattainable. He knew his own mind, but he was not always perfectly assured of knowing Miss Crawford’s. There were points on which they did not quite agree; there were moments in which she did not seem propitious; and though trusting altogether to her affection, so far as to be resolved—almost resolved—on bringing it to a decision within a very short time, as soon as the variety of business before him were arranged, and he knew what he had to offer her, he had many anxious feelings, many doubting hours as to the result. His conviction of her regard for him was sometimes very strong; he could look back on a long course of encouragement, and she was as perfect in disinterested attachment as in everything else. But at other times doubt and alarm intermingled with his hopes; and when he thought of her acknowledged disinclination for privacy and retirement, her decided preference of a London life, what could he expect but a determined rejection? unless it were an acceptance even more to be deprecated, demanding such sacrifices of situation and employment on his side as conscience must forbid.

Edmund was particularly stressed at this time, his mind heavily focused on two significant events approaching that would determine his future—ordination and marriage. These serious matters made the upcoming ball seem less important to him than to anyone else in the house. On the 23rd, he was heading to a friend's place near Peterborough, who was in the same situation, and they were both set to receive ordination during Christmas week. This would settle half of his fate, but the other half might not be so easily achieved. His responsibilities would be established, but the wife who would share, inspire, and reward those responsibilities might still be out of reach. He was certain of his own feelings, but he wasn't always completely sure about Miss Crawford’s. There were areas where they didn't completely align, and there were times when she didn't seem favorable. Although he was almost ready to make a decision soon, once the various tasks he had were sorted and he knew what he could offer her, he experienced many anxious moments and doubts about the outcome. He often felt strongly about her feelings for him, recalling a long history of encouragement; she was as genuine in her affection as she was in everything else. But at other times, uncertainty and fear mixed with his hopes. When he considered her clear dislike for privacy and her strong preference for city life, how could he expect anything but a firm rejection? Unless it was an acceptance that would demand sacrifices in his position and career that his conscience would never allow.

The issue of all depended on one question. Did she love him well enough to forego what had used to be essential points? Did she love him well enough to make them no longer essential? And this question, which he was continually repeating to himself, though oftenest answered with a “Yes,” had sometimes its “No.”

The whole matter came down to one question. Did she love him enough to give up what used to be essential? Did she love him enough to make those things no longer important? And this question, which he kept asking himself, though most of the time answered with a “Yes,” occasionally had a “No.”

Miss Crawford was soon to leave Mansfield, and on this circumstance the “no” and the “yes” had been very recently in alternation. He had seen her eyes sparkle as she spoke of the dear friend’s letter, which claimed a long visit from her in London, and of the kindness of Henry, in engaging to remain where he was till January, that he might convey her thither; he had heard her speak of the pleasure of such a journey with an animation which had “no” in every tone. But this had occurred on the first day of its being settled, within the first hour of the burst of such enjoyment, when nothing but the friends she was to visit was before her. He had since heard her express herself differently, with other feelings, more chequered feelings: he had heard her tell Mrs. Grant that she should leave her with regret; that she began to believe neither the friends nor the pleasures she was going to were worth those she left behind; and that though she felt she must go, and knew she should enjoy herself when once away, she was already looking forward to being at Mansfield again. Was there not a “yes” in all this?

Miss Crawford was about to leave Mansfield, and because of this, she had been going back and forth between saying “no” and “yes.” He had watched her eyes light up as she talked about her dear friend's letter, which invited her for a long visit in London, and about Henry's kindness in agreeing to stay where he was until January so he could take her there; he had listened as she described the excitement of such a trip with a vibe that felt like “no” in every tone. But that was on the first day it was decided, in the first hour of that burst of excitement, when all she could think about were the friends she was going to see. Since then, he had heard her express herself differently, with mixed feelings: he heard her tell Mrs. Grant that she would leave her with regret; that she was starting to believe neither the friends nor the fun she was headed for were worth what she would be leaving behind; and that even though she felt she had to go, and knew she would enjoy herself once she was away, she was already looking forward to being back at Mansfield. Wasn’t there a “yes” in all this?

With such matters to ponder over, and arrange, and re-arrange, Edmund could not, on his own account, think very much of the evening which the rest of the family were looking forward to with a more equal degree of strong interest. Independent of his two cousins’ enjoyment in it, the evening was to him of no higher value than any other appointed meeting of the two families might be. In every meeting there was a hope of receiving farther confirmation of Miss Crawford’s attachment; but the whirl of a ballroom, perhaps, was not particularly favourable to the excitement or expression of serious feelings. To engage her early for the two first dances was all the command of individual happiness which he felt in his power, and the only preparation for the ball which he could enter into, in spite of all that was passing around him on the subject, from morning till night.

With all these things to think about, organize, and reorganize, Edmund couldn’t really enjoy the evening that the rest of the family was looking forward to so eagerly. Besides his two cousins’ excitement, the evening held no more significance for him than any other scheduled gathering of the two families. At every meeting, there was a hope of getting further confirmation of Miss Crawford’s feelings, but the chaos of a ballroom might not be the best setting for serious emotions. The most he could do to secure his own happiness was to ask her to dance early in the evening, and that was the only way he could get ready for the ball, despite all the conversation surrounding it from morning till night.

Thursday was the day of the ball; and on Wednesday morning Fanny, still unable to satisfy herself as to what she ought to wear, determined to seek the counsel of the more enlightened, and apply to Mrs. Grant and her sister, whose acknowledged taste would certainly bear her blameless; and as Edmund and William were gone to Northampton, and she had reason to think Mr. Crawford likewise out, she walked down to the Parsonage without much fear of wanting an opportunity for private discussion; and the privacy of such a discussion was a most important part of it to Fanny, being more than half-ashamed of her own solicitude.

Thursday was the day of the ball, and on Wednesday morning, Fanny, still unsure about what she should wear, decided to seek advice from those with better taste. She thought of asking Mrs. Grant and her sister, whose style was well-regarded and would surely make her feel less guilty about her choice. Since Edmund and William had gone to Northampton, and she suspected Mr. Crawford was out too, she walked down to the Parsonage without much concern about finding a chance for a private conversation. That privacy was really important to Fanny because she was more than a little embarrassed about her worries.

She met Miss Crawford within a few yards of the Parsonage, just setting out to call on her, and as it seemed to her that her friend, though obliged to insist on turning back, was unwilling to lose her walk, she explained her business at once, and observed, that if she would be so kind as to give her opinion, it might be all talked over as well without doors as within. Miss Crawford appeared gratified by the application, and after a moment’s thought, urged Fanny’s returning with her in a much more cordial manner than before, and proposed their going up into her room, where they might have a comfortable coze, without disturbing Dr. and Mrs. Grant, who were together in the drawing-room. It was just the plan to suit Fanny; and with a great deal of gratitude on her side for such ready and kind attention, they proceeded indoors, and upstairs, and were soon deep in the interesting subject. Miss Crawford, pleased with the appeal, gave her all her best judgment and taste, made everything easy by her suggestions, and tried to make everything agreeable by her encouragement. The dress being settled in all its grander parts—“But what shall you have by way of necklace?” said Miss Crawford. “Shall not you wear your brother’s cross?” And as she spoke she was undoing a small parcel, which Fanny had observed in her hand when they met. Fanny acknowledged her wishes and doubts on this point: she did not know how either to wear the cross, or to refrain from wearing it. She was answered by having a small trinket-box placed before her, and being requested to chuse from among several gold chains and necklaces. Such had been the parcel with which Miss Crawford was provided, and such the object of her intended visit: and in the kindest manner she now urged Fanny’s taking one for the cross and to keep for her sake, saying everything she could think of to obviate the scruples which were making Fanny start back at first with a look of horror at the proposal.

She ran into Miss Crawford just a few yards from the Parsonage, who was on her way to visit her. Since it seemed that her friend, even though she had to insist on turning back, didn’t really want to miss her walk, she quickly explained her purpose and noted that if Miss Crawford could kindly share her opinion, they could discuss it just as easily outside as inside. Miss Crawford looked pleased with the request and after a moment's thought, encouraged Fanny to come back with her in a much more friendly way than before, suggesting they go up to her room for a cozy chat without bothering Dr. and Mrs. Grant, who were in the drawing-room. This plan was perfect for Fanny, and feeling very grateful for such quick and kind attention, they went inside and upstairs, soon diving into their interesting discussion. Miss Crawford, happy about the call, offered all her best judgment and taste, made everything easier with her suggestions, and tried to keep the atmosphere pleasant with her encouragement. Once they had settled the main parts of the dress, Miss Crawford asked, “But what are you going to wear for a necklace? Are you not going to wear your brother’s cross?” As she spoke, she started to unpack a small parcel that Fanny had noticed in her hand when they bumped into each other. Fanny admitted her mixed feelings about this: she wasn't sure how to either wear the cross or not wear it at all. Miss Crawford responded by placing a small trinket box in front of her and asked her to choose from several gold chains and necklaces. That was what Miss Crawford had brought along and the real reason for her visit; she kindly insisted that Fanny take one for the cross to keep for her sake, saying everything she could think of to ease Fanny's hesitation, who initially recoiled with a horrified look at the suggestion.

“You see what a collection I have,” said she; “more by half than I ever use or think of. I do not offer them as new. I offer nothing but an old necklace. You must forgive the liberty, and oblige me.”

“You see what a collection I have,” she said; “more than half of it is stuff I never use or even think about. I’m not suggesting they’re new. I’m offering nothing but an old necklace. Please forgive my boldness and do me this favor.”

Fanny still resisted, and from her heart. The gift was too valuable. But Miss Crawford persevered, and argued the case with so much affectionate earnestness through all the heads of William and the cross, and the ball, and herself, as to be finally successful. Fanny found herself obliged to yield, that she might not be accused of pride or indifference, or some other littleness; and having with modest reluctance given her consent, proceeded to make the selection. She looked and looked, longing to know which might be least valuable; and was determined in her choice at last, by fancying there was one necklace more frequently placed before her eyes than the rest. It was of gold, prettily worked; and though Fanny would have preferred a longer and a plainer chain as more adapted for her purpose, she hoped, in fixing on this, to be chusing what Miss Crawford least wished to keep. Miss Crawford smiled her perfect approbation; and hastened to complete the gift by putting the necklace round her, and making her see how well it looked. Fanny had not a word to say against its becomingness, and, excepting what remained of her scruples, was exceedingly pleased with an acquisition so very apropos. She would rather, perhaps, have been obliged to some other person. But this was an unworthy feeling. Miss Crawford had anticipated her wants with a kindness which proved her a real friend. “When I wear this necklace I shall always think of you,” said she, “and feel how very kind you were.”

Fanny still resisted, and she truly meant it. The gift was too precious. But Miss Crawford persisted, arguing her case with such heartfelt passion about William and the cross and the ball, as well as herself, that she eventually won Fanny over. Fanny realized she had to give in so she wouldn't be seen as prideful or indifferent or petty in some other way; and after some modest hesitation, she agreed and began to make her choice. She looked and looked, wishing to find the least valuable item, and finally settled on a necklace because she noticed it was presented to her more often than the others. It was a gold piece, intricately designed; and although Fanny would have preferred a longer and simpler chain for her own use, she hoped that by choosing this one, she was picking something Miss Crawford cared less about. Miss Crawford smiled with total approval and quickly finished the gift by putting the necklace around Fanny’s neck, making her see how great it looked. Fanny couldn't find any fault with how it suited her, and aside from her lingering reservations, she was really happy about such a fitting addition. She might have preferred for someone else to be the giver. But that was a selfish thought. Miss Crawford had shown thoughtful kindness that proved she was a true friend. “Whenever I wear this necklace, I’ll always think of you,” she said, “and remember how kind you were.”

“You must think of somebody else too, when you wear that necklace,” replied Miss Crawford. “You must think of Henry, for it was his choice in the first place. He gave it to me, and with the necklace I make over to you all the duty of remembering the original giver. It is to be a family remembrancer. The sister is not to be in your mind without bringing the brother too.”

“You need to think of someone else too when you wear that necklace,” replied Miss Crawford. “You should think of Henry, since it was his choice in the first place. He gave it to me, and along with the necklace, I pass on to you the responsibility of remembering who gave it originally. It’s meant to remind you of family. You shouldn’t think of the sister without also remembering the brother.”

Fanny, in great astonishment and confusion, would have returned the present instantly. To take what had been the gift of another person, of a brother too, impossible! it must not be! and with an eagerness and embarrassment quite diverting to her companion, she laid down the necklace again on its cotton, and seemed resolved either to take another or none at all. Miss Crawford thought she had never seen a prettier consciousness. “My dear child,” said she, laughing, “what are you afraid of? Do you think Henry will claim the necklace as mine, and fancy you did not come honestly by it? or are you imagining he would be too much flattered by seeing round your lovely throat an ornament which his money purchased three years ago, before he knew there was such a throat in the world? or perhaps”—looking archly—“you suspect a confederacy between us, and that what I am now doing is with his knowledge and at his desire?”

Fanny, feeling both shocked and confused, wanted to give the gift back immediately. Taking something that had been given to her by someone else, especially a brother, was unthinkable! It just couldn’t happen! With a mix of eagerness and embarrassment that was quite amusing for her companion, she placed the necklace back on its cotton and seemed determined to either choose something else or nothing at all. Miss Crawford thought she had never seen such an adorable realization. “My dear,” she said with a laugh, “what are you worried about? Do you think Henry will say the necklace belongs to me and believe you didn’t get it honestly? Or do you think he’d be too flattered to see such a beautiful ornament around your neck that he bought three years ago, before he even knew you existed? Or maybe”—giving a playful look—“you think there’s some sort of arrangement between us, and that what I’m doing now is with his knowledge and at his request?”

With the deepest blushes Fanny protested against such a thought.

With the deepest blushes, Fanny protested against such an idea.

“Well, then,” replied Miss Crawford more seriously, but without at all believing her, “to convince me that you suspect no trick, and are as unsuspicious of compliment as I have always found you, take the necklace and say no more about it. Its being a gift of my brother’s need not make the smallest difference in your accepting it, as I assure you it makes none in my willingness to part with it. He is always giving me something or other. I have such innumerable presents from him that it is quite impossible for me to value or for him to remember half. And as for this necklace, I do not suppose I have worn it six times: it is very pretty, but I never think of it; and though you would be most heartily welcome to any other in my trinket-box, you have happened to fix on the very one which, if I have a choice, I would rather part with and see in your possession than any other. Say no more against it, I entreat you. Such a trifle is not worth half so many words.”

“Well, then,” Miss Crawford replied more seriously, but without really believing her, “to prove that you aren't suspicious at all and that you're as unsuspecting of flattery as I’ve always thought, just take the necklace and let’s not discuss it anymore. The fact that it’s a gift from my brother shouldn’t matter when you accept it, and I assure you it doesn't affect my willingness to give it away. He’s always giving me things. I have so many gifts from him that it’s impossible for me to value or for him to remember even half of them. As for this necklace, I don’t think I’ve worn it more than six times: it’s very pretty, but I never think about it; and although you would be completely welcome to any other piece in my jewelry box, you’ve chosen the exact one that, if I had to choose, I’d prefer to give away and see in your hands than any other. Please don’t say anything more against it. Such a small thing isn’t worth this many words.”

Fanny dared not make any farther opposition; and with renewed but less happy thanks accepted the necklace again, for there was an expression in Miss Crawford’s eyes which she could not be satisfied with.

Fanny didn’t dare to resist any further; and with renewed but less joyful thanks, she accepted the necklace again, because there was something in Miss Crawford’s eyes that left her unsettled.

It was impossible for her to be insensible of Mr. Crawford’s change of manners. She had long seen it. He evidently tried to please her: he was gallant, he was attentive, he was something like what he had been to her cousins: he wanted, she supposed, to cheat her of her tranquillity as he had cheated them; and whether he might not have some concern in this necklace—she could not be convinced that he had not, for Miss Crawford, complaisant as a sister, was careless as a woman and a friend.

It was impossible for her to ignore Mr. Crawford’s change in behavior. She had noticed it for a while. He was clearly trying to win her over: he was charming, he was attentive, and he was somewhat like how he used to be with her cousins. She thought he might be trying to disrupt her peace of mind just like he had with them; and she couldn’t shake the feeling that he might have something to do with this necklace—she just couldn’t believe he didn’t, because Miss Crawford, as accommodating as a sister, was as careless as a woman and a friend.

Reflecting and doubting, and feeling that the possession of what she had so much wished for did not bring much satisfaction, she now walked home again, with a change rather than a diminution of cares since her treading that path before.

Reflecting and questioning, and realizing that having what she had longed for didn’t bring her much satisfaction, she walked home again, feeling a shift rather than a decrease in her worries since she had last walked that path.

CHAPTER XXVII

On reaching home Fanny went immediately upstairs to deposit this unexpected acquisition, this doubtful good of a necklace, in some favourite box in the East room, which held all her smaller treasures; but on opening the door, what was her surprise to find her cousin Edmund there writing at the table! Such a sight having never occurred before, was almost as wonderful as it was welcome.

On arriving home, Fanny quickly went upstairs to put away this unexpected find, this questionable treasure of a necklace, in her favorite box in the East room, which contained all her smaller treasures. But when she opened the door, she was surprised to see her cousin Edmund sitting at the table writing! This sight had never happened before and was almost as amazing as it was delightful.

“Fanny,” said he directly, leaving his seat and his pen, and meeting her with something in his hand, “I beg your pardon for being here. I came to look for you, and after waiting a little while in hope of your coming in, was making use of your inkstand to explain my errand. You will find the beginning of a note to yourself; but I can now speak my business, which is merely to beg your acceptance of this little trifle—a chain for William’s cross. You ought to have had it a week ago, but there has been a delay from my brother’s not being in town by several days so soon as I expected; and I have only just now received it at Northampton. I hope you will like the chain itself, Fanny. I endeavoured to consult the simplicity of your taste; but, at any rate, I know you will be kind to my intentions, and consider it, as it really is, a token of the love of one of your oldest friends.”

“Fanny,” he said directly, getting up from his seat and leaving his pen behind, as he approached her with something in his hand, “I’m sorry for being here. I came to find you, and after waiting for a bit hoping you’d arrive, I was using your inkstand to explain why I’m here. You’ll see the start of a note to you; but I can now share my purpose, which is simply to ask you to accept this small gift—a chain for William’s cross. You should have had it a week ago, but there was a delay because my brother wasn’t in town as soon as I expected; I just got it in Northampton. I hope you like the chain itself, Fanny. I tried to keep it simple to match your taste; but I know you will appreciate my intentions and see it for what it really is—a sign of affection from one of your oldest friends.”

And so saying, he was hurrying away, before Fanny, overpowered by a thousand feelings of pain and pleasure, could attempt to speak; but quickened by one sovereign wish, she then called out, “Oh! cousin, stop a moment, pray stop!”

And with that, he rushed off before Fanny, overwhelmed by a mix of emotions, could say anything; but driven by a strong desire, she called out, “Oh! cousin, please wait a moment, just wait!”

He turned back.

He looked back.

“I cannot attempt to thank you,” she continued, in a very agitated manner; “thanks are out of the question. I feel much more than I can possibly express. Your goodness in thinking of me in such a way is beyond—”

“I can’t even begin to thank you,” she continued, visibly upset; “saying thanks just doesn’t cover it. I feel so much more than I can possibly put into words. Your kindness in considering me like this is beyond—”

“If that is all you have to say, Fanny” smiling and turning away again.

“If that’s all you have to say, Fanny,” she said, smiling and turning away again.

“No, no, it is not. I want to consult you.”

“No, no, it’s not that. I want to talk to you.”

Almost unconsciously she had now undone the parcel he had just put into her hand, and seeing before her, in all the niceness of jewellers’ packing, a plain gold chain, perfectly simple and neat, she could not help bursting forth again, “Oh, this is beautiful indeed! This is the very thing, precisely what I wished for! This is the only ornament I have ever had a desire to possess. It will exactly suit my cross. They must and shall be worn together. It comes, too, in such an acceptable moment. Oh, cousin, you do not know how acceptable it is.”

Almost without thinking, she had now opened the package he had just handed her, and seeing in front of her, all neatly wrapped by the jeweler, a plain gold chain—simple and elegant—she couldn't help but exclaim again, “Oh, this is truly beautiful! This is exactly what I wanted! This is the only piece of jewelry I've ever wanted to have. It will go perfectly with my cross. They absolutely must be worn together. And it comes at such a great time. Oh, cousin, you have no idea how perfect this is.”

“My dear Fanny, you feel these things a great deal too much. I am most happy that you like the chain, and that it should be here in time for to-morrow; but your thanks are far beyond the occasion. Believe me, I have no pleasure in the world superior to that of contributing to yours. No, I can safely say, I have no pleasure so complete, so unalloyed. It is without a drawback.”

“My dear Fanny, you take these things way too seriously. I'm really glad you like the chain and that it arrived in time for tomorrow; however, your thanks are way more than what's needed. Trust me, I find no greater joy than being able to contribute to your happiness. Honestly, I can say there's no pleasure as pure or satisfying as that. It comes with no drawbacks.”

Upon such expressions of affection Fanny could have lived an hour without saying another word; but Edmund, after waiting a moment, obliged her to bring down her mind from its heavenly flight by saying, “But what is it that you want to consult me about?”

Upon such expressions of affection, Fanny could have gone on for an hour without saying another word; but Edmund, after waiting a moment, made her come back to reality by asking, “But what do you want to talk to me about?”

It was about the necklace, which she was now most earnestly longing to return, and hoped to obtain his approbation of her doing. She gave the history of her recent visit, and now her raptures might well be over; for Edmund was so struck with the circumstance, so delighted with what Miss Crawford had done, so gratified by such a coincidence of conduct between them, that Fanny could not but admit the superior power of one pleasure over his own mind, though it might have its drawback. It was some time before she could get his attention to her plan, or any answer to her demand of his opinion: he was in a reverie of fond reflection, uttering only now and then a few half-sentences of praise; but when he did awake and understand, he was very decided in opposing what she wished.

It was about the necklace, which she was now really eager to return, hoping to get his approval for doing so. She recounted the story of her recent visit, and her excitement might as well be over; because Edmund was so impressed by the situation, so happy with what Miss Crawford had done, and so pleased by the coincidence in their behavior, that Fanny couldn’t help but recognize the stronger influence of one joy over his feelings, even if it had its downsides. It took her a while to catch his attention for her plan or get any feedback on her request for his opinion: he was lost in a daydream of warm thoughts, occasionally mumbling a few half-phrases of praise; but when he finally came back to reality and understood, he was very firm in opposing what she wanted.

“Return the necklace! No, my dear Fanny, upon no account. It would be mortifying her severely. There can hardly be a more unpleasant sensation than the having anything returned on our hands which we have given with a reasonable hope of its contributing to the comfort of a friend. Why should she lose a pleasure which she has shewn herself so deserving of?”

“Return the necklace! No, my dear Fanny, absolutely not. That would be extremely embarrassing for her. There's hardly a worse feeling than having something returned that we gave with the hope it would bring comfort to a friend. Why should she lose out on a pleasure she clearly deserves?”

“If it had been given to me in the first instance,” said Fanny, “I should not have thought of returning it; but being her brother’s present, is not it fair to suppose that she would rather not part with it, when it is not wanted?”

“If I had received it first,” Fanny said, “I wouldn’t have thought about returning it; but since it was a gift from her brother, isn’t it fair to assume she would prefer not to give it up when it’s not needed?”

“She must not suppose it not wanted, not acceptable, at least: and its having been originally her brother’s gift makes no difference; for as she was not prevented from offering, nor you from taking it on that account, it ought not to prevent you from keeping it. No doubt it is handsomer than mine, and fitter for a ballroom.”

“She shouldn’t think it’s not wanted or not acceptable, at least: and the fact that it was originally her brother’s gift doesn’t change anything; since she wasn’t stopped from offering it, and you weren’t stopped from taking it, it shouldn’t stop you from keeping it. No doubt it’s nicer than mine and more suitable for a ballroom.”

“No, it is not handsomer, not at all handsomer in its way, and, for my purpose, not half so fit. The chain will agree with William’s cross beyond all comparison better than the necklace.”

“No, it’s not more handsome, not at all more handsome in its way, and for what I need, not nearly as suitable. The chain will complement William’s cross far better than the necklace.”

“For one night, Fanny, for only one night, if it be a sacrifice; I am sure you will, upon consideration, make that sacrifice rather than give pain to one who has been so studious of your comfort. Miss Crawford’s attentions to you have been—not more than you were justly entitled to—I am the last person to think that could be, but they have been invariable; and to be returning them with what must have something the air of ingratitude, though I know it could never have the meaning, is not in your nature, I am sure. Wear the necklace, as you are engaged to do, to-morrow evening, and let the chain, which was not ordered with any reference to the ball, be kept for commoner occasions. This is my advice. I would not have the shadow of a coolness between the two whose intimacy I have been observing with the greatest pleasure, and in whose characters there is so much general resemblance in true generosity and natural delicacy as to make the few slight differences, resulting principally from situation, no reasonable hindrance to a perfect friendship. I would not have the shadow of a coolness arise,” he repeated, his voice sinking a little, “between the two dearest objects I have on earth.”

"For one night, Fanny, just one night, if it means making a sacrifice; I'm sure you'll choose to make that sacrifice rather than cause pain to someone who has cared so much about your comfort. Miss Crawford’s attention to you has been—no more than what you rightfully deserve—I’m the last person to think it could be less, but it has been constant; and returning that attention with what must seem like ingratitude, even though it would never have that meaning, isn’t in your nature, I know. Wear the necklace, as you agreed to do, tomorrow evening, and save the chain, which wasn’t meant for the ball, for more casual occasions. That's my advice. I wouldn’t want there to be any hint of coldness between the two people whose friendship I've enjoyed watching grow, and whose characters share so much in terms of true generosity and natural grace that the few slight differences, mostly due to circumstance, shouldn’t prevent a perfect friendship. I wouldn't want even the slightest coolness to come up,” he repeated, his voice dropping slightly, “between the two people I care about most in the world.”

He was gone as he spoke; and Fanny remained to tranquillise herself as she could. She was one of his two dearest—that must support her. But the other: the first! She had never heard him speak so openly before, and though it told her no more than what she had long perceived, it was a stab, for it told of his own convictions and views. They were decided. He would marry Miss Crawford. It was a stab, in spite of every long-standing expectation; and she was obliged to repeat again and again, that she was one of his two dearest, before the words gave her any sensation. Could she believe Miss Crawford to deserve him, it would be—oh, how different would it be—how far more tolerable! But he was deceived in her: he gave her merits which she had not; her faults were what they had ever been, but he saw them no longer. Till she had shed many tears over this deception, Fanny could not subdue her agitation; and the dejection which followed could only be relieved by the influence of fervent prayers for his happiness.

He was gone as he spoke, and Fanny stayed behind to calm herself as best as she could. She was one of his two closest friends—that had to keep her going. But the other one: the first! She had never heard him speak so openly before, and even though it revealed nothing she hadn't already sensed, it felt like a blow because it showed his true beliefs and opinions. They were clear. He would marry Miss Crawford. It was a blow, despite all her previous expectations; and she had to keep telling herself that she was one of his two closest friends before the words affected her at all. If only she could believe that Miss Crawford deserved him, it would be—oh, how different it would be—how much easier! But he was mistaken about her: he attributed qualities to her that she didn't have; her flaws remained the same, but he no longer saw them. Until she had cried many tears over this misconception, Fanny couldn't calm her turmoil, and the sadness that followed could only be soothed by her passionate prayers for his happiness.

It was her intention, as she felt it to be her duty, to try to overcome all that was excessive, all that bordered on selfishness, in her affection for Edmund. To call or to fancy it a loss, a disappointment, would be a presumption for which she had not words strong enough to satisfy her own humility. To think of him as Miss Crawford might be justified in thinking, would in her be insanity. To her he could be nothing under any circumstances; nothing dearer than a friend. Why did such an idea occur to her even enough to be reprobated and forbidden? It ought not to have touched on the confines of her imagination. She would endeavour to be rational, and to deserve the right of judging of Miss Crawford’s character, and the privilege of true solicitude for him by a sound intellect and an honest heart.

It was her intention, as she felt it was her duty, to try to overcome everything that was excessive, everything that bordered on selfishness, in her feelings for Edmund. To call it a loss or a disappointment would be a presumption for which she couldn’t find words strong enough to satisfy her own humility. To think of him the way Miss Crawford might think would be insane for her. To her, he could be nothing under any circumstances; nothing closer than a friend. Why did such an idea even enter her mind enough to be condemned and rejected? It shouldn’t have touched the edges of her imagination. She would strive to be rational and to earn the right to judge Miss Crawford’s character, and the privilege of genuinely caring for him, with a sound mind and an honest heart.

She had all the heroism of principle, and was determined to do her duty; but having also many of the feelings of youth and nature, let her not be much wondered at, if, after making all these good resolutions on the side of self-government, she seized the scrap of paper on which Edmund had begun writing to her, as a treasure beyond all her hopes, and reading with the tenderest emotion these words, “My very dear Fanny, you must do me the favour to accept” locked it up with the chain, as the dearest part of the gift. It was the only thing approaching to a letter which she had ever received from him; she might never receive another; it was impossible that she ever should receive another so perfectly gratifying in the occasion and the style. Two lines more prized had never fallen from the pen of the most distinguished author—never more completely blessed the researches of the fondest biographer. The enthusiasm of a woman’s love is even beyond the biographer’s. To her, the handwriting itself, independent of anything it may convey, is a blessedness. Never were such characters cut by any other human being as Edmund’s commonest handwriting gave! This specimen, written in haste as it was, had not a fault; and there was a felicity in the flow of the first four words, in the arrangement of “My very dear Fanny,” which she could have looked at for ever.

She had all the courage of her principles and was determined to do her duty; but given her youthful feelings and natural instincts, it’s not surprising that after making all these good resolutions about self-control, she grabbed the piece of paper on which Edmund had started writing to her, treating it like a treasure beyond her wildest dreams. Reading with the sweetest emotion the words, “My very dear Fanny, you must do me the favour to accept,” she locked it up with the chain, as the most cherished part of the gift. It was the closest thing to a letter she had ever received from him; she might never get another; it was unlikely she would ever receive anything so completely satisfying in both occasion and tone. No two lines more treasured had ever come from the pen of the most celebrated author—never had they blessed the work of the most devoted biographer so fully. The excitement of a woman’s love surpasses even that of the biographer. To her, the handwriting itself, regardless of what it says, is a joy. No one else could write characters like Edmund’s ordinary handwriting! This example, written quickly as it was, had no flaws; and there was a joy in the flow of the first four words and in the phrasing of “My very dear Fanny,” which she could have stared at forever.

Having regulated her thoughts and comforted her feelings by this happy mixture of reason and weakness, she was able in due time to go down and resume her usual employments near her aunt Bertram, and pay her the usual observances without any apparent want of spirits.

Having organized her thoughts and soothed her feelings with this pleasant blend of logic and vulnerability, she was eventually able to go downstairs, return to her usual tasks with her aunt Bertram, and show her the usual attentiveness without any obvious lack of energy.

Thursday, predestined to hope and enjoyment, came; and opened with more kindness to Fanny than such self-willed, unmanageable days often volunteer, for soon after breakfast a very friendly note was brought from Mr. Crawford to William, stating that as he found himself obliged to go to London on the morrow for a few days, he could not help trying to procure a companion; and therefore hoped that if William could make up his mind to leave Mansfield half a day earlier than had been proposed, he would accept a place in his carriage. Mr. Crawford meant to be in town by his uncle’s accustomary late dinner-hour, and William was invited to dine with him at the Admiral’s. The proposal was a very pleasant one to William himself, who enjoyed the idea of travelling post with four horses, and such a good-humoured, agreeable friend; and, in likening it to going up with despatches, was saying at once everything in favour of its happiness and dignity which his imagination could suggest; and Fanny, from a different motive, was exceedingly pleased; for the original plan was that William should go up by the mail from Northampton the following night, which would not have allowed him an hour’s rest before he must have got into a Portsmouth coach; and though this offer of Mr. Crawford’s would rob her of many hours of his company, she was too happy in having William spared from the fatigue of such a journey, to think of anything else. Sir Thomas approved of it for another reason. His nephew’s introduction to Admiral Crawford might be of service. The Admiral, he believed, had interest. Upon the whole, it was a very joyous note. Fanny’s spirits lived on it half the morning, deriving some accession of pleasure from its writer being himself to go away.

Thursday, a day meant for hope and enjoyment, arrived and started off kinder to Fanny than such stubborn, unpredictable days usually are. Soon after breakfast, a friendly note came from Mr. Crawford to William, saying that he had to go to London the next day for a few days and was hoping to find a companion. He suggested that if William could leave Mansfield half a day earlier than planned, he would be welcome to join him in his carriage. Mr. Crawford aimed to reach town by his uncle’s usual late dinner time and invited William to dinner with him at the Admiral’s. This was a delightful proposal for William, who was excited by the thought of traveling with four horses and such a cheerful, pleasant friend. He compared it to going up with important messages, imagining all the happiness and prestige it could bring. Fanny, for a different reason, was really happy, too; the original plan was for William to take the mail from Northampton the following night, which wouldn’t give him any time to rest before he had to get into a coach to Portsmouth. Although Mr. Crawford's offer meant she would miss many hours of his company, she was too glad that William would avoid the exhaustion of that journey to think about anything else. Sir Thomas had another reason for approving it—his nephew’s introduction to Admiral Crawford could be beneficial. He believed the Admiral had connections. Overall, it was a very cheerful note. Fanny’s spirits were lifted by it for half the morning, gaining extra pleasure from the fact that its author was leaving too.

As for the ball, so near at hand, she had too many agitations and fears to have half the enjoyment in anticipation which she ought to have had, or must have been supposed to have by the many young ladies looking forward to the same event in situations more at ease, but under circumstances of less novelty, less interest, less peculiar gratification, than would be attributed to her. Miss Price, known only by name to half the people invited, was now to make her first appearance, and must be regarded as the queen of the evening. Who could be happier than Miss Price? But Miss Price had not been brought up to the trade of coming out; and had she known in what light this ball was, in general, considered respecting her, it would very much have lessened her comfort by increasing the fears she already had of doing wrong and being looked at. To dance without much observation or any extraordinary fatigue, to have strength and partners for about half the evening, to dance a little with Edmund, and not a great deal with Mr. Crawford, to see William enjoy himself, and be able to keep away from her aunt Norris, was the height of her ambition, and seemed to comprehend her greatest possibility of happiness. As these were the best of her hopes, they could not always prevail; and in the course of a long morning, spent principally with her two aunts, she was often under the influence of much less sanguine views. William, determined to make this last day a day of thorough enjoyment, was out snipe-shooting; Edmund, she had too much reason to suppose, was at the Parsonage; and left alone to bear the worrying of Mrs. Norris, who was cross because the housekeeper would have her own way with the supper, and whom she could not avoid though the housekeeper might, Fanny was worn down at last to think everything an evil belonging to the ball, and when sent off with a parting worry to dress, moved as languidly towards her own room, and felt as incapable of happiness as if she had been allowed no share in it.

As for the ball, which was so close, she had too many anxieties and fears to enjoy the anticipation as much as she should have or as others expected her to, especially the many young women looking forward to the same event with less stress but also less excitement, interest, and unique satisfaction than what would be associated with her. Miss Price, who was only known by name to half of the guests, was about to make her first appearance and would be seen as the star of the evening. Who could be happier than Miss Price? But Miss Price hadn’t been raised for the experience of “coming out”; if she had known how this ball was generally viewed in relation to her, it would have made her comfort drop, increasing her fears of making mistakes and being scrutinized. To dance without much attention or exhausting herself, to have enough energy and partners for about half the night, to dance a little with Edmund and not too much with Mr. Crawford, to see William having fun, and to be able to avoid her Aunt Norris—that was the peak of her dreams, and it seemed to represent her best chance for happiness. As these were her highest hopes, they couldn’t always hold up; throughout a long morning mainly spent with her two aunts, she often found herself feeling much less optimistic. William, determined to make this last day fully enjoyable, was out snipe-shooting; Edmund, she had strong reasons to believe, was at the Parsonage; and left alone to deal with the complaints of Mrs. Norris, who was upset because the housekeeper insisted on having things her way for the supper, Fanny ultimately felt overwhelmed and thought everything related to the ball was a burden. When she was sent off with a final worry to get dressed, she moved slowly to her room and felt as incapable of happiness as if she had been excluded from it entirely.

As she walked slowly upstairs she thought of yesterday; it had been about the same hour that she had returned from the Parsonage, and found Edmund in the East room. “Suppose I were to find him there again to-day!” said she to herself, in a fond indulgence of fancy.

As she slowly walked upstairs, she thought about yesterday; it was around this same time that she had come back from the Parsonage and found Edmund in the East room. “What if I found him there again today?” she thought, indulging in a hopeful daydream.

“Fanny,” said a voice at that moment near her. Starting and looking up, she saw, across the lobby she had just reached, Edmund himself, standing at the head of a different staircase. He came towards her. “You look tired and fagged, Fanny. You have been walking too far.”

“Fanny,” said a voice nearby at that moment. Startled, she looked up and saw Edmund himself standing at the top of another staircase across the lobby she had just entered. He walked over to her. “You look tired and worn out, Fanny. You’ve been walking too much.”

“No, I have not been out at all.”

“No, I haven’t been out at all.”

“Then you have had fatigues within doors, which are worse. You had better have gone out.”

“Then you've had stress inside, which is even worse. You would have been better off going outside.”

Fanny, not liking to complain, found it easiest to make no answer; and though he looked at her with his usual kindness, she believed he had soon ceased to think of her countenance. He did not appear in spirits: something unconnected with her was probably amiss. They proceeded upstairs together, their rooms being on the same floor above.

Fanny, not wanting to complain, found it easiest to stay silent; and even though he looked at her with his usual kindness, she thought he had quickly stopped considering her expression. He didn’t seem in a good mood: something unrelated to her was probably wrong. They went upstairs together, as their rooms were on the same floor above.

“I come from Dr. Grant’s,” said Edmund presently. “You may guess my errand there, Fanny.” And he looked so conscious, that Fanny could think but of one errand, which turned her too sick for speech. “I wished to engage Miss Crawford for the two first dances,” was the explanation that followed, and brought Fanny to life again, enabling her, as she found she was expected to speak, to utter something like an inquiry as to the result.

“I just came from Dr. Grant’s,” Edmund said after a moment. “You can probably guess why I was there, Fanny.” He looked so aware of himself that Fanny could only think of one reason, which made her feel too nauseous to respond. “I wanted to ask Miss Crawford to dance for the first two dances,” he explained, which revived Fanny and, noticing she was expected to reply, she managed to ask about the outcome.

“Yes,” he answered, “she is engaged to me; but” (with a smile that did not sit easy) “she says it is to be the last time that she ever will dance with me. She is not serious. I think, I hope, I am sure she is not serious; but I would rather not hear it. She never has danced with a clergyman, she says, and she never will. For my own sake, I could wish there had been no ball just at—I mean not this very week, this very day; to-morrow I leave home.”

“Yes,” he replied, “she's engaged to me; but” (with a forced smile) “she says this will be the last time she ever dances with me. She's not serious. I think, I hope, I’m sure she’s not serious; but I’d prefer not to hear it. She says she’s never danced with a clergyman, and she never will. For my own sake, I wish there hadn’t been a ball just at— I mean not this very week, this very day; tomorrow I’m leaving home.”

Fanny struggled for speech, and said, “I am very sorry that anything has occurred to distress you. This ought to be a day of pleasure. My uncle meant it so.”

Fanny struggled to find the right words and said, “I’m really sorry that something has upset you. This should be a day of joy. That’s what my uncle intended.”

“Oh yes, yes! and it will be a day of pleasure. It will all end right. I am only vexed for a moment. In fact, it is not that I consider the ball as ill-timed; what does it signify? But, Fanny,” stopping her, by taking her hand, and speaking low and seriously, “you know what all this means. You see how it is; and could tell me, perhaps better than I could tell you, how and why I am vexed. Let me talk to you a little. You are a kind, kind listener. I have been pained by her manner this morning, and cannot get the better of it. I know her disposition to be as sweet and faultless as your own, but the influence of her former companions makes her seem—gives to her conversation, to her professed opinions, sometimes a tinge of wrong. She does not think evil, but she speaks it, speaks it in playfulness; and though I know it to be playfulness, it grieves me to the soul.”

“Oh yes, yes! It’s going to be a fun day. Everything will turn out okay. I’m just a bit annoyed for now. Honestly, it’s not that I think the ball is poorly timed; what does that matter? But, Fanny,” she said, stopping her by taking her hand and speaking softly and seriously, “you know what all this means. You see how things are, and you could probably explain to me better than I can explain to you why I’m upset. Let me talk to you for a bit. You’re such a kind listener. I’ve been bothered by her attitude this morning, and I can’t shake it off. I know her nature is as sweet and perfect as yours, but the influence of her past friends makes her seem—gives her conversations, her stated opinions, sometimes a hint of wrongness. She doesn’t think evil, but she talks about it, jokes about it; and even though I know it’s all in fun, it deeply disturbs me.”

“The effect of education,” said Fanny gently.

“The impact of education,” Fanny said softly.

Edmund could not but agree to it. “Yes, that uncle and aunt! They have injured the finest mind; for sometimes, Fanny, I own to you, it does appear more than manner: it appears as if the mind itself was tainted.”

Edmund couldn't help but agree. “Yes, that uncle and aunt! They have harmed the brightest mind; for sometimes, Fanny, I have to admit, it seems more than just behavior: it feels like the mind itself is damaged.”

Fanny imagined this to be an appeal to her judgment, and therefore, after a moment’s consideration, said, “If you only want me as a listener, cousin, I will be as useful as I can; but I am not qualified for an adviser. Do not ask advice of me. I am not competent.”

Fanny thought this was a request for her opinion, and after a brief pause, she said, “If you just want me to listen, cousin, I’ll help as much as I can; but I’m not suited to give advice. Please don’t ask for my advice. I’m not qualified.”

“You are right, Fanny, to protest against such an office, but you need not be afraid. It is a subject on which I should never ask advice; it is the sort of subject on which it had better never be asked; and few, I imagine, do ask it, but when they want to be influenced against their conscience. I only want to talk to you.”

“You're right, Fanny, to refuse such a position, but you don’t need to worry. It’s a topic I would never seek advice on; it’s the kind of topic that’s best left unasked; and I imagine few people do ask it unless they want to go against their better judgment. I just want to talk to you.”

“One thing more. Excuse the liberty; but take care how you talk to me. Do not tell me anything now, which hereafter you may be sorry for. The time may come—”

“One more thing. Sorry for being forward, but watch how you talk to me. Don’t say anything now that you might regret later. The time might come—”

The colour rushed into her cheeks as she spoke.

The color flooded her cheeks as she spoke.

“Dearest Fanny!” cried Edmund, pressing her hand to his lips with almost as much warmth as if it had been Miss Crawford’s, “you are all considerate thought! But it is unnecessary here. The time will never come. No such time as you allude to will ever come. I begin to think it most improbable: the chances grow less and less; and even if it should, there will be nothing to be remembered by either you or me that we need be afraid of, for I can never be ashamed of my own scruples; and if they are removed, it must be by changes that will only raise her character the more by the recollection of the faults she once had. You are the only being upon earth to whom I should say what I have said; but you have always known my opinion of her; you can bear me witness, Fanny, that I have never been blinded. How many a time have we talked over her little errors! You need not fear me; I have almost given up every serious idea of her; but I must be a blockhead indeed, if, whatever befell me, I could think of your kindness and sympathy without the sincerest gratitude.”

“Dearest Fanny!” exclaimed Edmund, kissing her hand with almost as much warmth as if it were Miss Crawford’s, “you are so thoughtful! But this isn’t needed here. That time will never come. The moment you’re talking about won’t ever happen. I’m starting to think it’s very unlikely: the chances are getting slimmer and slimmer; and even if it did happen, there would be nothing for either of us to regret, because I can never be ashamed of my own principles; and if they change, it will only enhance her character by recalling the mistakes she once made. You’re the only person in the world I would say this to; but you’ve always known how I feel about her; you can confirm, Fanny, that I’ve never been deceived. How many times have we discussed her little faults! You don’t need to worry about me; I’ve nearly given up any serious thoughts of her; but I’d truly have to be a fool if, no matter what happens to me, I couldn’t think of your kindness and support without feeling the deepest gratitude.”

He had said enough to shake the experience of eighteen. He had said enough to give Fanny some happier feelings than she had lately known, and with a brighter look, she answered, “Yes, cousin, I am convinced that you would be incapable of anything else, though perhaps some might not. I cannot be afraid of hearing anything you wish to say. Do not check yourself. Tell me whatever you like.”

He had said enough to change the experience of eighteen. He had said enough to give Fanny some happier feelings than she had experienced recently, and with a brighter look, she replied, “Yes, cousin, I am sure that you would never do anything else, though maybe others might. I can't be afraid of hearing anything you want to say. Don't hold back. Tell me whatever you want.”

They were now on the second floor, and the appearance of a housemaid prevented any farther conversation. For Fanny’s present comfort it was concluded, perhaps, at the happiest moment: had he been able to talk another five minutes, there is no saying that he might not have talked away all Miss Crawford’s faults and his own despondence. But as it was, they parted with looks on his side of grateful affection, and with some very precious sensations on hers. She had felt nothing like it for hours. Since the first joy from Mr. Crawford’s note to William had worn away, she had been in a state absolutely the reverse; there had been no comfort around, no hope within her. Now everything was smiling. William’s good fortune returned again upon her mind, and seemed of greater value than at first. The ball, too—such an evening of pleasure before her! It was now a real animation; and she began to dress for it with much of the happy flutter which belongs to a ball. All went well: she did not dislike her own looks; and when she came to the necklaces again, her good fortune seemed complete, for upon trial the one given her by Miss Crawford would by no means go through the ring of the cross. She had, to oblige Edmund, resolved to wear it; but it was too large for the purpose. His, therefore, must be worn; and having, with delightful feelings, joined the chain and the cross—those memorials of the two most beloved of her heart, those dearest tokens so formed for each other by everything real and imaginary—and put them round her neck, and seen and felt how full of William and Edmund they were, she was able, without an effort, to resolve on wearing Miss Crawford’s necklace too. She acknowledged it to be right. Miss Crawford had a claim; and when it was no longer to encroach on, to interfere with the stronger claims, the truer kindness of another, she could do her justice even with pleasure to herself. The necklace really looked very well; and Fanny left her room at last, comfortably satisfied with herself and all about her.

They were now on the second floor, and the appearance of a housemaid interrupted any further conversation. For Fanny’s current comfort, it seemed to be the happiest moment: if he had been able to talk for another five minutes, who knows, he might have talked away all of Miss Crawford’s faults and his own worries. But as it was, they parted with grateful looks from him and some very cherished feelings from her. She hadn’t felt anything like it for hours. Since the initial joy from Mr. Crawford’s note to William had faded, she had been in a completely opposite state; there had been no comfort around her, no hope within her. Now everything was bright. William’s good fortune came back to her mind and seemed even more valuable than before. The ball, too—such an enjoyable evening awaited her! She felt genuinely excited and began to get ready for it with the happy nervousness that comes with a ball. Everything went well: she liked how she looked; and when she reached for the necklaces again, her good luck seemed complete, because when she tried the one given to her by Miss Crawford, it definitely wouldn’t fit through the ring of the cross. She had promised Edmund she would wear it, but it was too big for that. So, she had to wear his instead; and feeling delighted, she joined the chain and the cross—those reminders of the two people she loved most, the dearest tokens crafted for each other by everything real and imaginary—and put them around her neck. Seeing and feeling how full of William and Edmund they were, she was able, without any effort, to decide to wear Miss Crawford’s necklace too. She recognized that it was the right thing to do. Miss Crawford had a claim; and when it no longer interfered with the stronger claims and the genuine kindness of another, she could do justice to Miss Crawford even while enjoying herself. The necklace actually looked quite nice; and Fanny finally left her room, feeling comfortable and satisfied with herself and everything around her.

Her aunt Bertram had recollected her on this occasion with an unusual degree of wakefulness. It had really occurred to her, unprompted, that Fanny, preparing for a ball, might be glad of better help than the upper housemaid’s, and when dressed herself, she actually sent her own maid to assist her; too late, of course, to be of any use. Mrs. Chapman had just reached the attic floor, when Miss Price came out of her room completely dressed, and only civilities were necessary; but Fanny felt her aunt’s attention almost as much as Lady Bertram or Mrs. Chapman could do themselves.

Her Aunt Bertram had noticed her this time with an unusual level of attentiveness. It had genuinely crossed her mind, without anyone suggesting it, that Fanny, getting ready for a ball, might appreciate better assistance than what the upper housemaid could provide. After getting dressed herself, she actually sent her own maid to help her; unfortunately, it was too late to be of any assistance. Mrs. Chapman had just reached the attic floor when Miss Price emerged from her room fully dressed, and only a few polite exchanges were needed; however, Fanny felt her aunt's attention just as keenly as Lady Bertram or Mrs. Chapman did.

CHAPTER XXVIII

Her uncle and both her aunts were in the drawing-room when Fanny went down. To the former she was an interesting object, and he saw with pleasure the general elegance of her appearance, and her being in remarkably good looks. The neatness and propriety of her dress was all that he would allow himself to commend in her presence, but upon her leaving the room again soon afterwards, he spoke of her beauty with very decided praise.

Her uncle and both her aunts were in the living room when Fanny came down. To her uncle, she was an intriguing sight, and he felt pleased by the overall elegance of her look and how she was remarkably beautiful. The neatness and appropriateness of her outfit were all he would allow himself to compliment in front of her, but once she left the room shortly afterward, he spoke about her beauty with strong admiration.

“Yes,” said Lady Bertram, “she looks very well. I sent Chapman to her.”

“Yes,” said Lady Bertram, “she looks great. I sent Chapman to see her.”

“Look well! Oh, yes!” cried Mrs. Norris, “she has good reason to look well with all her advantages: brought up in this family as she has been, with all the benefit of her cousins’ manners before her. Only think, my dear Sir Thomas, what extraordinary advantages you and I have been the means of giving her. The very gown you have been taking notice of is your own generous present to her when dear Mrs. Rushworth married. What would she have been if we had not taken her by the hand?”

“Look at her! Oh, yes!” exclaimed Mrs. Norris, “she has every reason to look good with all her advantages: raised in this family as she has been, with the benefit of her cousins’ manners to guide her. Just think, dear Sir Thomas, of the incredible advantages we’ve given her. The very dress you’ve noticed is your own generous gift to her when dear Mrs. Rushworth got married. What would she have become if we hadn’t taken her under our wing?”

Sir Thomas said no more; but when they sat down to table the eyes of the two young men assured him that the subject might be gently touched again, when the ladies withdrew, with more success. Fanny saw that she was approved; and the consciousness of looking well made her look still better. From a variety of causes she was happy, and she was soon made still happier; for in following her aunts out of the room, Edmund, who was holding open the door, said, as she passed him, “You must dance with me, Fanny; you must keep two dances for me; any two that you like, except the first.” She had nothing more to wish for. She had hardly ever been in a state so nearly approaching high spirits in her life. Her cousins’ former gaiety on the day of a ball was no longer surprising to her; she felt it to be indeed very charming, and was actually practising her steps about the drawing-room as long as she could be safe from the notice of her aunt Norris, who was entirely taken up at first in fresh arranging and injuring the noble fire which the butler had prepared.

Sir Thomas didn’t say anything more; but when they sat down at the table, the looks from the two young men told him that the topic could be brought up again gently after the ladies left, and it would likely go better. Fanny sensed that she was appreciated, and the awareness of looking good made her even more attractive. For various reasons, she felt happy, and she soon became even happier; as she followed her aunts out of the room, Edmund, who was holding the door open, said as she walked by, “You have to dance with me, Fanny; you have to save two dances for me, any two you want, except the first.” She couldn’t have wished for anything more. She had rarely felt so close to being in high spirits in her life. Her cousins’ previous excitement on the day of a ball no longer surprised her; she found it genuinely delightful and was actually practicing her steps around the drawing room as long as she could avoid being noticed by Aunt Norris, who was completely engrossed in rearranging and messing up the beautiful fire the butler had set up.

Half an hour followed that would have been at least languid under any other circumstances, but Fanny’s happiness still prevailed. It was but to think of her conversation with Edmund, and what was the restlessness of Mrs. Norris? What were the yawns of Lady Bertram?

Half an hour passed that would have felt at least slow under any other circumstances, but Fanny’s happiness still triumphed. All she had to do was think about her conversation with Edmund, and what did Mrs. Norris’s restlessness matter? What did Lady Bertram’s yawns mean?

The gentlemen joined them; and soon after began the sweet expectation of a carriage, when a general spirit of ease and enjoyment seemed diffused, and they all stood about and talked and laughed, and every moment had its pleasure and its hope. Fanny felt that there must be a struggle in Edmund’s cheerfulness, but it was delightful to see the effort so successfully made.

The guys joined them; and shortly after, the excitement of a carriage arrived, creating a vibe of relaxation and enjoyment as they gathered around, chatting and laughing, with every moment filled with joy and anticipation. Fanny sensed that Edmund's cheerful demeanor required some effort, but it was wonderful to witness him managing it so well.

When the carriages were really heard, when the guests began really to assemble, her own gaiety of heart was much subdued: the sight of so many strangers threw her back into herself; and besides the gravity and formality of the first great circle, which the manners of neither Sir Thomas nor Lady Bertram were of a kind to do away, she found herself occasionally called on to endure something worse. She was introduced here and there by her uncle, and forced to be spoken to, and to curtsey, and speak again. This was a hard duty, and she was never summoned to it without looking at William, as he walked about at his ease in the background of the scene, and longing to be with him.

When the carriages arrived, and the guests started to gather, her cheerful mood faded significantly. The sight of so many strangers made her retreat into herself. Additionally, the seriousness and formality of the initial big gathering, which neither Sir Thomas nor Lady Bertram were able to lighten, made things even more challenging for her. Her uncle introduced her here and there, making her engage in conversation, curtsey, and speak again. This was a tough obligation, and each time she was called to do it, she glanced at William, who was casually walking around in the background, wishing she could be with him.

The entrance of the Grants and Crawfords was a favourable epoch. The stiffness of the meeting soon gave way before their popular manners and more diffused intimacies: little groups were formed, and everybody grew comfortable. Fanny felt the advantage; and, drawing back from the toils of civility, would have been again most happy, could she have kept her eyes from wandering between Edmund and Mary Crawford. She looked all loveliness—and what might not be the end of it? Her own musings were brought to an end on perceiving Mr. Crawford before her, and her thoughts were put into another channel by his engaging her almost instantly for the first two dances. Her happiness on this occasion was very much à la mortal, finely chequered. To be secure of a partner at first was a most essential good—for the moment of beginning was now growing seriously near; and she so little understood her own claims as to think that if Mr. Crawford had not asked her, she must have been the last to be sought after, and should have received a partner only through a series of inquiry, and bustle, and interference, which would have been terrible; but at the same time there was a pointedness in his manner of asking her which she did not like, and she saw his eye glancing for a moment at her necklace, with a smile—she thought there was a smile—which made her blush and feel wretched. And though there was no second glance to disturb her, though his object seemed then to be only quietly agreeable, she could not get the better of her embarrassment, heightened as it was by the idea of his perceiving it, and had no composure till he turned away to some one else. Then she could gradually rise up to the genuine satisfaction of having a partner, a voluntary partner, secured against the dancing began.

The arrival of the Grants and Crawfords was a welcomed moment. The initial awkwardness of the gathering quickly faded, thanks to their friendly demeanor and more relaxed interactions: small groups formed, and everyone began to relax. Fanny felt the shift; stepping back from the effort of politeness, she would have been very happy, if only she could stop her gaze from drifting between Edmund and Mary Crawford. She radiated beauty—and what could come of that? Her daydreaming was interrupted when she noticed Mr. Crawford in front of her, and her thoughts were redirected when he immediately asked her to join him for the first two dances. Her happiness in this situation was quite à la mortal, filled with ups and downs. It was crucial to have a dance partner at the start, as the moment to begin was rapidly approaching; she had so little confidence in her own appeal that she thought if Mr. Crawford hadn’t asked her, she would have been the last person chosen and would have ended up with a partner only after a frustrating series of inquiries, commotion, and interference, which would have been awful. However, there was something off-putting about the way he asked her, and she noticed his glance at her necklace, accompanied by a smile—she thought it was a smile—which made her blush and feel uneasy. Although there was no second look to trouble her, and his intent seemed to be simply pleasant, she couldn’t shake her embarrassment, especially with the thought of him noticing it, and she didn’t feel at ease until he turned to someone else. Then she could gradually appreciate the genuine joy of having a partner, a willing partner, secured before the dancing began.

When the company were moving into the ballroom, she found herself for the first time near Miss Crawford, whose eyes and smiles were immediately and more unequivocally directed as her brother’s had been, and who was beginning to speak on the subject, when Fanny, anxious to get the story over, hastened to give the explanation of the second necklace: the real chain. Miss Crawford listened; and all her intended compliments and insinuations to Fanny were forgotten: she felt only one thing; and her eyes, bright as they had been before, shewing they could yet be brighter, she exclaimed with eager pleasure, “Did he? Did Edmund? That was like himself. No other man would have thought of it. I honour him beyond expression.” And she looked around as if longing to tell him so. He was not near, he was attending a party of ladies out of the room; and Mrs. Grant coming up to the two girls, and taking an arm of each, they followed with the rest.

As the group entered the ballroom, she found herself for the first time near Miss Crawford, whose eyes and smiles were clearly directed at her, just like her brother’s had been. Miss Crawford was about to speak when Fanny, eager to wrap up the story, quickly explained the second necklace: the real chain. Miss Crawford listened, and all her planned compliments and hints to Fanny vanished. She felt only one thing; her eyes, as bright as before, showed they could be even brighter, and she exclaimed with eager pleasure, “Did he? Did Edmund? That’s just like him. No other man would have thought of it. I admire him immensely.” She looked around as if wanting to tell him so. He wasn’t close by; he was attending to a group of ladies in another room. Mrs. Grant came up to the two girls, took an arm of each, and they followed the rest of the group.

Fanny’s heart sunk, but there was no leisure for thinking long even of Miss Crawford’s feelings. They were in the ballroom, the violins were playing, and her mind was in a flutter that forbade its fixing on anything serious. She must watch the general arrangements, and see how everything was done.

Fanny's heart dropped, but there was no time to dwell on Miss Crawford's feelings. They were in the ballroom, the violins were playing, and her mind was racing, preventing her from focusing on anything serious. She needed to observe the overall setup and see how everything was coming together.

In a few minutes Sir Thomas came to her, and asked if she were engaged; and the “Yes, sir; to Mr. Crawford,” was exactly what he had intended to hear. Mr. Crawford was not far off; Sir Thomas brought him to her, saying something which discovered to Fanny, that she was to lead the way and open the ball; an idea that had never occurred to her before. Whenever she had thought of the minutiae of the evening, it had been as a matter of course that Edmund would begin with Miss Crawford; and the impression was so strong, that though her uncle spoke the contrary, she could not help an exclamation of surprise, a hint of her unfitness, an entreaty even to be excused. To be urging her opinion against Sir Thomas’s was a proof of the extremity of the case; but such was her horror at the first suggestion, that she could actually look him in the face and say that she hoped it might be settled otherwise; in vain, however: Sir Thomas smiled, tried to encourage her, and then looked too serious, and said too decidedly, “It must be so, my dear,” for her to hazard another word; and she found herself the next moment conducted by Mr. Crawford to the top of the room, and standing there to be joined by the rest of the dancers, couple after couple, as they were formed.

In a few minutes, Sir Thomas approached her and asked if she was busy. The reply, “Yes, sir; with Mr. Crawford,” was exactly what he wanted to hear. Mr. Crawford was nearby, so Sir Thomas brought him to her, saying something that indicated to Fanny that she was supposed to take the lead and start the dance—an idea that had never crossed her mind before. Whenever she thought about the details of the evening, it had always seemed natural that Edmund would begin with Miss Crawford; the impression was so strong that even though her uncle said otherwise, she couldn't help but exclaim in surprise, expressing her sense of unworthiness and even pleading to be excused. Disagreeing with Sir Thomas was a sign of how desperate she felt, but her horror at the suggestion was so intense that she managed to look him in the eye and say she hoped it would turn out differently. It was in vain, though: Sir Thomas smiled, tried to reassure her, and then became too serious and said too firmly, “It must be so, my dear,” leaving her with no choice but to stay silent. The next moment, she found herself being led by Mr. Crawford to the front of the room, waiting for the other dancers to join them, couple after couple, as they formed.

She could hardly believe it. To be placed above so many elegant young women! The distinction was too great. It was treating her like her cousins! And her thoughts flew to those absent cousins with most unfeigned and truly tender regret, that they were not at home to take their own place in the room, and have their share of a pleasure which would have been so very delightful to them. So often as she had heard them wish for a ball at home as the greatest of all felicities! And to have them away when it was given—and for her to be opening the ball—and with Mr. Crawford too! She hoped they would not envy her that distinction now; but when she looked back to the state of things in the autumn, to what they had all been to each other when once dancing in that house before, the present arrangement was almost more than she could understand herself.

She could hardly believe it. To be placed above so many elegant young women! The honor was overwhelming. It felt like she was being treated like her cousins! Her thoughts raced to those absent cousins with genuine and heartfelt regret that they weren't home to take their own place in the room and enjoy a pleasure that would have been so delightful for them. She had often heard them wish for a ball at home as the greatest happiness! And now they were away when it was happening—and she was the one opening the ball—and with Mr. Crawford too! She hoped they wouldn’t envy her that honor now; but when she remembered how things were in the autumn, when they had all been together dancing in that house before, the current situation was almost too much for her to comprehend.

The ball began. It was rather honour than happiness to Fanny, for the first dance at least: her partner was in excellent spirits, and tried to impart them to her; but she was a great deal too much frightened to have any enjoyment till she could suppose herself no longer looked at. Young, pretty, and gentle, however, she had no awkwardnesses that were not as good as graces, and there were few persons present that were not disposed to praise her. She was attractive, she was modest, she was Sir Thomas’s niece, and she was soon said to be admired by Mr. Crawford. It was enough to give her general favour. Sir Thomas himself was watching her progress down the dance with much complacency; he was proud of his niece; and without attributing all her personal beauty, as Mrs. Norris seemed to do, to her transplantation to Mansfield, he was pleased with himself for having supplied everything else: education and manners she owed to him.

The ball started. For Fanny, it was more about honor than happiness, especially during the first dance: her partner was in great spirits and tried to share that with her, but she was way too anxious to enjoy it until she felt like nobody was watching her. Young, pretty, and gentle, she had no awkwardness that wasn’t more like a charm, and there were few people there who didn’t want to praise her. She was attractive, she was modest, she was Sir Thomas’s niece, and soon people started saying that Mr. Crawford admired her. That was enough to earn her general favor. Sir Thomas himself was watching her dance with a sense of satisfaction; he was proud of his niece, and while he didn’t think, like Mrs. Norris, that all her beauty came from moving to Mansfield, he was pleased with himself for providing everything else: her education and manners came from him.

Miss Crawford saw much of Sir Thomas’s thoughts as he stood, and having, in spite of all his wrongs towards her, a general prevailing desire of recommending herself to him, took an opportunity of stepping aside to say something agreeable of Fanny. Her praise was warm, and he received it as she could wish, joining in it as far as discretion, and politeness, and slowness of speech would allow, and certainly appearing to greater advantage on the subject than his lady did soon afterwards, when Mary, perceiving her on a sofa very near, turned round before she began to dance, to compliment her on Miss Price’s looks.

Miss Crawford noticed what Sir Thomas was thinking as he stood there, and despite all the wrongs he had done to her, she had a strong desire to win his favor. She took the chance to step aside and say something nice about Fanny. Her praise was heartfelt, and he received it just as she wanted, agreeing as much as his discretion, politeness, and slow speech would allow. He certainly seemed to handle the topic much better than his wife did soon after, when Mary, seeing her on a sofa nearby, turned around before starting to dance to compliment her on Miss Price’s appearance.

“Yes, she does look very well,” was Lady Bertram’s placid reply. “Chapman helped her to dress. I sent Chapman to her.” Not but that she was really pleased to have Fanny admired; but she was so much more struck with her own kindness in sending Chapman to her, that she could not get it out of her head.

“Yes, she looks really well,” Lady Bertram said calmly. “Chapman helped her get dressed. I sent Chapman to her.” It’s not that she wasn’t genuinely happy to see Fanny admired; she was just so caught up in her own thoughtfulness for sending Chapman that she couldn’t stop thinking about it.

Miss Crawford knew Mrs. Norris too well to think of gratifying her by commendation of Fanny; to her, it was as the occasion offered—“Ah! ma’am, how much we want dear Mrs. Rushworth and Julia to-night!” and Mrs. Norris paid her with as many smiles and courteous words as she had time for, amid so much occupation as she found for herself in making up card-tables, giving hints to Sir Thomas, and trying to move all the chaperons to a better part of the room.

Miss Crawford knew Mrs. Norris too well to think that praising Fanny would please her; it was more about the moment—“Ah! ma’am, how much we miss dear Mrs. Rushworth and Julia tonight!” And Mrs. Norris responded with as many smiles and polite words as she could manage while being busy setting up card tables, giving tips to Sir Thomas, and trying to relocate all the chaperones to a better spot in the room.

Miss Crawford blundered most towards Fanny herself in her intentions to please. She meant to be giving her little heart a happy flutter, and filling her with sensations of delightful self-consequence; and, misinterpreting Fanny’s blushes, still thought she must be doing so when she went to her after the two first dances, and said, with a significant look, “Perhaps you can tell me why my brother goes to town to-morrow? He says he has business there, but will not tell me what. The first time he ever denied me his confidence! But this is what we all come to. All are supplanted sooner or later. Now, I must apply to you for information. Pray, what is Henry going for?”

Miss Crawford made a big mistake in her efforts to please Fanny. She intended to give her little heart a happy flutter and fill her with feelings of delightful self-importance. Misreading Fanny's blushes, she still thought she was succeeding when she approached her after the first two dances and said with a meaningful look, “Maybe you can tell me why my brother is going to town tomorrow? He says he has business there but won’t tell me what it is. It’s the first time he’s ever kept something from me! But this is how it goes. Everyone gets replaced sooner or later. Now, I have to turn to you for information. Please, what is Henry going for?”

Fanny protested her ignorance as steadily as her embarrassment allowed.

Fanny insisted on her lack of knowledge as much as her embarrassment would permit.

“Well, then,” replied Miss Crawford, laughing, “I must suppose it to be purely for the pleasure of conveying your brother, and of talking of you by the way.”

“Well, then,” replied Miss Crawford, laughing, “I guess I have to think it’s just for the enjoyment of taking your brother along and talking about you on the way.”

Fanny was confused, but it was the confusion of discontent; while Miss Crawford wondered she did not smile, and thought her over-anxious, or thought her odd, or thought her anything rather than insensible of pleasure in Henry’s attentions. Fanny had a good deal of enjoyment in the course of the evening; but Henry’s attentions had very little to do with it. She would much rather not have been asked by him again so very soon, and she wished she had not been obliged to suspect that his previous inquiries of Mrs. Norris, about the supper hour, were all for the sake of securing her at that part of the evening. But it was not to be avoided: he made her feel that she was the object of all; though she could not say that it was unpleasantly done, that there was indelicacy or ostentation in his manner; and sometimes, when he talked of William, he was really not unagreeable, and shewed even a warmth of heart which did him credit. But still his attentions made no part of her satisfaction. She was happy whenever she looked at William, and saw how perfectly he was enjoying himself, in every five minutes that she could walk about with him and hear his account of his partners; she was happy in knowing herself admired; and she was happy in having the two dances with Edmund still to look forward to, during the greatest part of the evening, her hand being so eagerly sought after that her indefinite engagement with him was in continual perspective. She was happy even when they did take place; but not from any flow of spirits on his side, or any such expressions of tender gallantry as had blessed the morning. His mind was fagged, and her happiness sprung from being the friend with whom it could find repose. “I am worn out with civility,” said he. “I have been talking incessantly all night, and with nothing to say. But with you, Fanny, there may be peace. You will not want to be talked to. Let us have the luxury of silence.” Fanny would hardly even speak her agreement. A weariness, arising probably, in great measure, from the same feelings which he had acknowledged in the morning, was peculiarly to be respected, and they went down their two dances together with such sober tranquillity as might satisfy any looker-on that Sir Thomas had been bringing up no wife for his younger son.

Fanny felt confused, but it was more a confusion rooted in discontent. Meanwhile, Miss Crawford wondered why Fanny wasn’t smiling and thought she was overly anxious, or odd, or anything but unresponsive to Henry’s attention. Fanny found some enjoyment throughout the evening, but Henry's attention had little to do with it. She would have preferred not to be approached by him again so soon, and she wished she hadn’t suspected that his earlier questions to Mrs. Norris about the supper time were just to make sure he could secure her during that part of the evening. But there was no way to avoid it: he made her feel like she was the center of everything, though she couldn’t say it was done unpleasantly, nor was there anything inappropriate or showy in his manner. Sometimes, when he talked about William, he was actually quite agreeable and showed a warmth of heart that reflected well on him. Still, his attention didn’t contribute to her happiness. She felt joyful whenever she looked at William and saw how much he was enjoying himself, especially during the moments they could walk together and she could hear about his dance partners. She was happy knowing she was admired, and she looked forward to the two dances with Edmund throughout much of the evening, with her hand being eagerly sought after, keeping her engagement with him constantly in mind. She enjoyed those dances when they happened, but not because of any liveliness on his part, or any expressions of tender affection like those from the morning. He was exhausted, and her happiness came from being the friend he could find solace with. “I’m worn out from being polite,” he said. “I’ve been talking non-stop all night with nothing to say. But with you, Fanny, I can have peace. You won’t want to talk. Let’s enjoy the luxury of silence.” Fanny could hardly even voice her agreement. A weariness, likely stemming from the same feelings he acknowledged in the morning, needed to be respected, and they shared their two dances together with such quiet calm that it could convince any observer that Sir Thomas wasn't raising a wife for his younger son.

The evening had afforded Edmund little pleasure. Miss Crawford had been in gay spirits when they first danced together, but it was not her gaiety that could do him good: it rather sank than raised his comfort; and afterwards, for he found himself still impelled to seek her again, she had absolutely pained him by her manner of speaking of the profession to which he was now on the point of belonging. They had talked, and they had been silent; he had reasoned, she had ridiculed; and they had parted at last with mutual vexation. Fanny, not able to refrain entirely from observing them, had seen enough to be tolerably satisfied. It was barbarous to be happy when Edmund was suffering. Yet some happiness must and would arise from the very conviction that he did suffer.

The evening had brought Edmund little joy. Miss Crawford had been in high spirits when they first danced together, but her cheerfulness didn’t help him; it only made him feel worse. Afterward, he still felt drawn to seek her out, but she had genuinely upset him with the way she talked about the profession he was about to join. They had both talked and been quiet; he had tried to reason with her, but she had mocked him, and by the end, they parted ways, both frustrated. Fanny, unable to completely stop watching them, saw enough to feel somewhat satisfied. It seemed cruel to be happy while Edmund was in pain. Still, some happiness would inevitably come from the very fact that he was suffering.

When her two dances with him were over, her inclination and strength for more were pretty well at an end; and Sir Thomas, having seen her walk rather than dance down the shortening set, breathless, and with her hand at her side, gave his orders for her sitting down entirely. From that time Mr. Crawford sat down likewise.

When her two dances with him were over, her desire and energy for more were pretty much gone; and Sir Thomas, seeing her walk more than dance down the dwindling set, breathless and holding her side, instructed her to sit down completely. From that point on, Mr. Crawford sat down as well.

“Poor Fanny!” cried William, coming for a moment to visit her, and working away his partner’s fan as if for life, “how soon she is knocked up! Why, the sport is but just begun. I hope we shall keep it up these two hours. How can you be tired so soon?”

“Poor Fanny!” exclaimed William, stopping by for a moment to see her, and fanning her partner vigorously as if it were a life-or-death situation. “How can you be worn out already? The game has just started! I hope we can keep this going for another two hours. How can you be tired so quickly?”

“So soon! my good friend,” said Sir Thomas, producing his watch with all necessary caution; “it is three o’clock, and your sister is not used to these sort of hours.”

“So soon! my good friend,” said Sir Thomas, carefully pulling out his watch. “It’s three o’clock, and your sister isn’t used to staying up this late.”

“Well, then, Fanny, you shall not get up to-morrow before I go. Sleep as long as you can, and never mind me.”

"Well, Fanny, you shouldn't get up tomorrow before I leave. Sleep as long as you want, and don’t worry about me."

“Oh! William.”

“Oh! Will.”

“What! Did she think of being up before you set off?”

"What! Did she plan to be up before you left?"

“Oh! yes, sir,” cried Fanny, rising eagerly from her seat to be nearer her uncle; “I must get up and breakfast with him. It will be the last time, you know; the last morning.”

“Oh! yes, sir,” exclaimed Fanny, eager as she got up from her seat to move closer to her uncle; “I have to get up and have breakfast with him. It’s the last time, you know; the last morning.”

“You had better not. He is to have breakfasted and be gone by half-past nine. Mr. Crawford, I think you call for him at half-past nine?”

“You'd better not. He needs to have breakfast and leave by half-past nine. Mr. Crawford, I believe you're picking him up at half-past nine?”

Fanny was too urgent, however, and had too many tears in her eyes for denial; and it ended in a gracious “Well, well!” which was permission.

Fanny was too desperate, though, and had too many tears in her eyes to deny it; and it ended with a kind “Well, well!” that meant she could go ahead.

“Yes, half-past nine,” said Crawford to William as the latter was leaving them, “and I shall be punctual, for there will be no kind sister to get up for me.” And in a lower tone to Fanny, “I shall have only a desolate house to hurry from. Your brother will find my ideas of time and his own very different to-morrow.”

“Yes, it’s half-past nine,” Crawford told William as he was leaving them, “and I’ll be on time, since there won’t be a kind sister to get up for me.” Then, in a quieter voice to Fanny, he added, “I’ll just have a lonely house to rush from. Your brother will see that my sense of time and his are quite different tomorrow.”

After a short consideration, Sir Thomas asked Crawford to join the early breakfast party in that house instead of eating alone: he should himself be of it; and the readiness with which his invitation was accepted convinced him that the suspicions whence, he must confess to himself, this very ball had in great measure sprung, were well founded. Mr. Crawford was in love with Fanny. He had a pleasing anticipation of what would be. His niece, meanwhile, did not thank him for what he had just done. She had hoped to have William all to herself the last morning. It would have been an unspeakable indulgence. But though her wishes were overthrown, there was no spirit of murmuring within her. On the contrary, she was so totally unused to have her pleasure consulted, or to have anything take place at all in the way she could desire, that she was more disposed to wonder and rejoice in having carried her point so far, than to repine at the counteraction which followed.

After a quick thought, Sir Thomas invited Crawford to join the early breakfast group in that house instead of eating alone: he would be joining too; and the eagerness with which Crawford accepted his invitation convinced him that the suspicions, which he had to admit were largely responsible for this very ball, were justified. Mr. Crawford was in love with Fanny. He was looking forward to what was to come. Meanwhile, his niece didn’t appreciate what he had just done. She had hoped to have William all to herself for their last morning together. It would have been an incredible treat. But even though her wishes were dashed, she didn’t feel resentful. On the contrary, she was so unaccustomed to having her wishes considered, or to having anything happen in the way she wanted, that she felt more inclined to be surprised and happy about having achieved her goal so far, rather than to complain about the setback that followed.

Shortly afterward, Sir Thomas was again interfering a little with her inclination, by advising her to go immediately to bed. “Advise” was his word, but it was the advice of absolute power, and she had only to rise, and, with Mr. Crawford’s very cordial adieus, pass quietly away; stopping at the entrance-door, like the Lady of Branxholm Hall, “one moment and no more,” to view the happy scene, and take a last look at the five or six determined couple who were still hard at work; and then, creeping slowly up the principal staircase, pursued by the ceaseless country-dance, feverish with hopes and fears, soup and negus, sore-footed and fatigued, restless and agitated, yet feeling, in spite of everything, that a ball was indeed delightful.

Soon after, Sir Thomas was once again meddling with her wishes by urging her to go to bed right away. "Advise" was his word, but it was really a command, and she could only rise and, with Mr. Crawford's warm goodbyes, slip away quietly; pausing at the entrance door, like the Lady of Branxholm Hall, “just one moment and not more,” to take in the joyful scene and steal a last glance at the five or six couples who were still fully engaged in dancing; and then, slowly making her way up the main staircase, surrounded by the unending country dance, filled with hopes and worries, from soup and negus, sore-footed and tired, restless and uneasy, yet feeling, despite everything, that a ball was truly wonderful.

In thus sending her away, Sir Thomas perhaps might not be thinking merely of her health. It might occur to him that Mr. Crawford had been sitting by her long enough, or he might mean to recommend her as a wife by shewing her persuadableness.

In sending her away like this, Sir Thomas might not just be considering her health. He could have realized that Mr. Crawford had been sitting next to her for long enough, or he might want to present her as a potential wife by showing how easily she can be influenced.

CHAPTER XXIX

The ball was over, and the breakfast was soon over too; the last kiss was given, and William was gone. Mr. Crawford had, as he foretold, been very punctual, and short and pleasant had been the meal.

The party was over, and breakfast followed soon after; the last kiss was exchanged, and William left. Mr. Crawford had been as punctual as he predicted, and the meal was brief and enjoyable.

After seeing William to the last moment, Fanny walked back to the breakfast-room with a very saddened heart to grieve over the melancholy change; and there her uncle kindly left her to cry in peace, conceiving, perhaps, that the deserted chair of each young man might exercise her tender enthusiasm, and that the remaining cold pork bones and mustard in William’s plate might but divide her feelings with the broken egg-shells in Mr. Crawford’s. She sat and cried con amore as her uncle intended, but it was con amore fraternal and no other. William was gone, and she now felt as if she had wasted half his visit in idle cares and selfish solicitudes unconnected with him.

After saying goodbye to William, Fanny walked back to the breakfast room with a heavy heart, mourning the sad change. Her uncle kindly left her to cry in peace, perhaps thinking that the empty chair of each young man might stir her emotions, and that the leftover cold pork bones and mustard on William’s plate could share her feelings with the broken egg shells on Mr. Crawford’s plate. She sat and cried with affection as her uncle hoped, but it was a brotherly kind of affection and nothing more. William was gone, and she now felt like she had wasted half his visit worrying about trivial things that weren't really about him.

Fanny’s disposition was such that she could never even think of her aunt Norris in the meagreness and cheerlessness of her own small house, without reproaching herself for some little want of attention to her when they had been last together; much less could her feelings acquit her of having done and said and thought everything by William that was due to him for a whole fortnight.

Fanny's nature was such that she could never think of her aunt Norris in the sparsity and gloom of her own tiny house without feeling guilty for not giving her enough attention the last time they were together; even more so, she couldn't shake off the guilt of having done, said, and thought everything that William deserved for a whole two weeks.

It was a heavy, melancholy day. Soon after the second breakfast, Edmund bade them good-bye for a week, and mounted his horse for Peterborough, and then all were gone. Nothing remained of last night but remembrances, which she had nobody to share in. She talked to her aunt Bertram—she must talk to somebody of the ball; but her aunt had seen so little of what had passed, and had so little curiosity, that it was heavy work. Lady Bertram was not certain of anybody’s dress or anybody’s place at supper but her own. “She could not recollect what it was that she had heard about one of the Miss Maddoxes, or what it was that Lady Prescott had noticed in Fanny: she was not sure whether Colonel Harrison had been talking of Mr. Crawford or of William when he said he was the finest young man in the room—somebody had whispered something to her; she had forgot to ask Sir Thomas what it could be.” And these were her longest speeches and clearest communications: the rest was only a languid “Yes, yes; very well; did you? did he? I did not see that; I should not know one from the other.” This was very bad. It was only better than Mrs. Norris’s sharp answers would have been; but she being gone home with all the supernumerary jellies to nurse a sick maid, there was peace and good-humour in their little party, though it could not boast much beside.

It was a heavy, gloomy day. Shortly after the second breakfast, Edmund said goodbye for a week and got on his horse for Peterborough, and then they were all gone. All that was left from last night were memories she had nobody to share with. She talked to her aunt Bertram—she had to talk to someone about the ball; but her aunt had seen so little of what had happened and didn’t have much curiosity, making it a tough conversation. Lady Bertram couldn’t remember anyone’s outfit or where anyone sat at dinner except her own. “She couldn’t recall what she had heard about one of the Miss Maddoxes or what it was that Lady Prescott had commented on regarding Fanny; she wasn’t sure whether Colonel Harrison was talking about Mr. Crawford or William when he said he was the best-looking guy in the room—someone had whispered something to her; she forgot to ask Sir Thomas what it was.” And these were her longest sentences and clearest thoughts: the rest was just a lazy “Yes, yes; very well; did you? did he? I didn’t see that; I wouldn’t be able to tell one from the other.” This was really bad. It was only better than Mrs. Norris’s sharp replies would have been; but with her gone home with all the extra jellies to take care of a sick maid, there was peace and good humor in their little group, though it didn’t have much else to offer.

The evening was heavy like the day. “I cannot think what is the matter with me,” said Lady Bertram, when the tea-things were removed. “I feel quite stupid. It must be sitting up so late last night. Fanny, you must do something to keep me awake. I cannot work. Fetch the cards; I feel so very stupid.”

The evening felt just as weighed down as the day. “I don’t know what’s wrong with me,” said Lady Bertram after the tea things were taken away. “I feel really dull. It’s probably because I stayed up so late last night. Fanny, you need to do something to keep me awake. I can’t focus. Get the cards; I just feel really dull.”

The cards were brought, and Fanny played at cribbage with her aunt till bedtime; and as Sir Thomas was reading to himself, no sounds were heard in the room for the next two hours beyond the reckonings of the game—“And that makes thirty-one; four in hand and eight in crib. You are to deal, ma’am; shall I deal for you?” Fanny thought and thought again of the difference which twenty-four hours had made in that room, and all that part of the house. Last night it had been hope and smiles, bustle and motion, noise and brilliancy, in the drawing-room, and out of the drawing-room, and everywhere. Now it was languor, and all but solitude.

The cards were dealt, and Fanny played cribbage with her aunt until bedtime; while Sir Thomas was reading to himself, the only sounds in the room for the next two hours were the counts of the game—“And that makes thirty-one; four in hand and eight in crib. It’s your turn to deal, ma’am; should I deal for you?” Fanny kept reflecting on how much had changed in that room and the rest of the house in just twenty-four hours. Last night, it was filled with hope and smiles, activity and movement, noise and brightness, in the drawing-room and everywhere else. Now it felt weary and almost empty.

A good night’s rest improved her spirits. She could think of William the next day more cheerfully; and as the morning afforded her an opportunity of talking over Thursday night with Mrs. Grant and Miss Crawford, in a very handsome style, with all the heightenings of imagination, and all the laughs of playfulness which are so essential to the shade of a departed ball, she could afterwards bring her mind without much effort into its everyday state, and easily conform to the tranquillity of the present quiet week.

A good night’s sleep lifted her mood. She could think about William the next day with more positivity; and since the morning gave her a chance to discuss Thursday night with Mrs. Grant and Miss Crawford in a very stylish way, complete with all the embellishments of imagination and all the playful laughter that are so important to the memory of a past party, she could then shift her mind back to its usual state without much trouble and easily adjust to the calmness of the current peaceful week.

They were indeed a smaller party than she had ever known there for a whole day together, and he was gone on whom the comfort and cheerfulness of every family meeting and every meal chiefly depended. But this must be learned to be endured. He would soon be always gone; and she was thankful that she could now sit in the same room with her uncle, hear his voice, receive his questions, and even answer them, without such wretched feelings as she had formerly known.

They were definitely a smaller group than she had ever experienced there for an entire day, and he was missing—the person on whom the comfort and happiness of every family gathering and meal mostly relied. But this had to be accepted. He would soon be gone for good; and she was grateful that she could now sit in the same room with her uncle, hear his voice, answer his questions, and even respond to him without the awful feelings she had felt before.

“We miss our two young men,” was Sir Thomas’s observation on both the first and second day, as they formed their very reduced circle after dinner; and in consideration of Fanny’s swimming eyes, nothing more was said on the first day than to drink their good health; but on the second it led to something farther. William was kindly commended and his promotion hoped for. “And there is no reason to suppose,” added Sir Thomas, “but that his visits to us may now be tolerably frequent. As to Edmund, we must learn to do without him. This will be the last winter of his belonging to us, as he has done.”

“We miss our two young men,” Sir Thomas remarked on both the first and second day as they gathered in their small circle after dinner. Considering Fanny’s watery eyes, they only raised a toast to their good health on the first day. However, on the second day, it led to a deeper conversation. William was praised for his kindness, and everyone hoped for his promotion. “And there’s no reason to think,” Sir Thomas added, “that his visits to us won’t be pretty frequent from now on. As for Edmund, we’ll have to learn to manage without him. This will be the last winter he spends with us as he has.”

“Yes,” said Lady Bertram, “but I wish he was not going away. They are all going away, I think. I wish they would stay at home.”

“Yes,” said Lady Bertram, “but I wish he wasn’t leaving. I think they’re all leaving. I wish they would stay home.”

This wish was levelled principally at Julia, who had just applied for permission to go to town with Maria; and as Sir Thomas thought it best for each daughter that the permission should be granted, Lady Bertram, though in her own good-nature she would not have prevented it, was lamenting the change it made in the prospect of Julia’s return, which would otherwise have taken place about this time. A great deal of good sense followed on Sir Thomas’s side, tending to reconcile his wife to the arrangement. Everything that a considerate parent ought to feel was advanced for her use; and everything that an affectionate mother must feel in promoting her children’s enjoyment was attributed to her nature. Lady Bertram agreed to it all with a calm “Yes”; and at the end of a quarter of an hour’s silent consideration spontaneously observed, “Sir Thomas, I have been thinking—and I am very glad we took Fanny as we did, for now the others are away we feel the good of it.”

This wish was aimed mainly at Julia, who had just asked for permission to go to town with Maria; and since Sir Thomas thought it was best for both daughters that the permission should be granted, Lady Bertram, although she wouldn’t have blocked it due to her naturally good-natured disposition, was regretting the impact it had on when Julia would return, which would have been around this time. Sir Thomas offered a lot of common sense to help his wife come to terms with the decision. Everything a considerate parent should feel was presented for her consideration; and every feeling that a loving mother must have in wanting her children to enjoy themselves was attributed to her nature. Lady Bertram agreed with a calm “Yes”; and after about fifteen minutes of silent thought, she casually remarked, “Sir Thomas, I’ve been thinking—and I’m really glad we took Fanny in the way we did, because now that the others are away, we can see the benefits of it.”

Sir Thomas immediately improved this compliment by adding, “Very true. We shew Fanny what a good girl we think her by praising her to her face, she is now a very valuable companion. If we have been kind to her, she is now quite as necessary to us.”

Sir Thomas quickly enhanced this compliment by adding, “That’s absolutely right. We show Fanny how much we value her by praising her directly; she has become a really valuable companion. If we’ve been kind to her, she is now just as essential to us.”

“Yes,” said Lady Bertram presently; “and it is a comfort to think that we shall always have her.”

"Yes," Lady Bertram said after a moment; "and it’s comforting to know that we will always have her."

Sir Thomas paused, half smiled, glanced at his niece, and then gravely replied, “She will never leave us, I hope, till invited to some other home that may reasonably promise her greater happiness than she knows here.”

Sir Thomas paused, gave a half-smile, looked at his niece, and then seriously replied, “I hope she never leaves us until she's invited to another home that can genuinely offer her more happiness than she knows here.”

“And that is not very likely to be, Sir Thomas. Who should invite her? Maria might be very glad to see her at Sotherton now and then, but she would not think of asking her to live there; and I am sure she is better off here; and besides, I cannot do without her.”

“And that is not very likely to happen, Sir Thomas. Who would invite her? Maria might be happy to see her at Sotherton every now and then, but she wouldn’t consider asking her to live there; and I’m sure she is better off here; plus, I can’t do without her.”

The week which passed so quietly and peaceably at the great house in Mansfield had a very different character at the Parsonage. To the young lady, at least, in each family, it brought very different feelings. What was tranquillity and comfort to Fanny was tediousness and vexation to Mary. Something arose from difference of disposition and habit: one so easily satisfied, the other so unused to endure; but still more might be imputed to difference of circumstances. In some points of interest they were exactly opposed to each other. To Fanny’s mind, Edmund’s absence was really, in its cause and its tendency, a relief. To Mary it was every way painful. She felt the want of his society every day, almost every hour, and was too much in want of it to derive anything but irritation from considering the object for which he went. He could not have devised anything more likely to raise his consequence than this week’s absence, occurring as it did at the very time of her brother’s going away, of William Price’s going too, and completing the sort of general break-up of a party which had been so animated. She felt it keenly. They were now a miserable trio, confined within doors by a series of rain and snow, with nothing to do and no variety to hope for. Angry as she was with Edmund for adhering to his own notions, and acting on them in defiance of her (and she had been so angry that they had hardly parted friends at the ball), she could not help thinking of him continually when absent, dwelling on his merit and affection, and longing again for the almost daily meetings they lately had. His absence was unnecessarily long. He should not have planned such an absence—he should not have left home for a week, when her own departure from Mansfield was so near. Then she began to blame herself. She wished she had not spoken so warmly in their last conversation. She was afraid she had used some strong, some contemptuous expressions in speaking of the clergy, and that should not have been. It was ill-bred; it was wrong. She wished such words unsaid with all her heart.

The week that passed quietly and peacefully at the big house in Mansfield was completely different at the Parsonage. For the young lady in each family, it brought very different feelings. What was calm and comforting for Fanny felt boring and frustrating for Mary. Their differences came from their personalities and habits: one easily satisfied, the other not used to enduring discomfort; but even more, it was about their different circumstances. In some key areas of interest, they were totally opposed to each other. For Fanny, Edmund’s absence was, in its cause and effect, a relief. But for Mary, it was painful in every way. She missed his company every day, almost every hour, and she wanted it so badly that thinking about why he was gone only made her more irritated. He couldn’t have done anything more to boost his importance than to be absent this week, especially since it coincided with her brother’s departure and William Price leaving too, creating a complete breakdown of a group that had once been so lively. She felt it intensely. They were now a miserable trio, stuck indoors due to a string of rain and snow, with nothing to do and no change in sight. Although she was angry with Edmund for sticking to his own views and acting on them despite how she felt (so angry that they had hardly parted on good terms at the ball), she couldn’t help but think about him constantly when he was away, reflecting on his qualities and affection, and longing for the almost daily meetings they had recently enjoyed. His absence felt unnecessarily long. He shouldn’t have planned to be away for a week, especially with her own departure from Mansfield coming up so soon. Then she began to blame herself. She wished she hadn’t spoken so passionately in their last conversation. She feared she might have used some harsh, even contemptuous words when talking about the clergy, and that shouldn’t have happened. It was rude; it was wrong. She wished she could take back those words with all her heart.

Her vexation did not end with the week. All this was bad, but she had still more to feel when Friday came round again and brought no Edmund; when Saturday came and still no Edmund; and when, through the slight communication with the other family which Sunday produced, she learned that he had actually written home to defer his return, having promised to remain some days longer with his friend.

Her frustration didn’t end with the week. All of this was bad, but she had even more to feel when Friday came again and brought no Edmund; when Saturday came and still no Edmund; and when, through the little communication with the other family that Sunday brought, she learned that he had actually written home to delay his return, having promised to stay a few more days with his friend.

If she had felt impatience and regret before—if she had been sorry for what she said, and feared its too strong effect on him—she now felt and feared it all tenfold more. She had, moreover, to contend with one disagreeable emotion entirely new to her—jealousy. His friend Mr. Owen had sisters; he might find them attractive. But, at any rate, his staying away at a time when, according to all preceding plans, she was to remove to London, meant something that she could not bear. Had Henry returned, as he talked of doing, at the end of three or four days, she should now have been leaving Mansfield. It became absolutely necessary for her to get to Fanny and try to learn something more. She could not live any longer in such solitary wretchedness; and she made her way to the Park, through difficulties of walking which she had deemed unconquerable a week before, for the chance of hearing a little in addition, for the sake of at least hearing his name.

If she had felt impatience and regret before—if she had been sorry for what she said and worried about its strong impact on him—she now felt all those emotions ten times more intensely. On top of that, she had to deal with a completely new and uncomfortable feeling—jealousy. His friend Mr. Owen had sisters; he might find them attractive. But regardless, his absence at a time when, according to previous plans, she was supposed to move to London, meant something that she couldn’t handle. If Henry had returned as he mentioned he would after three or four days, she would have been leaving Mansfield by now. It became absolutely essential for her to get to Fanny and try to find out more. She couldn’t live in such painful solitude any longer; so she made her way to the Park, overcoming walking difficulties she thought were impossible just a week ago, in hopes of hearing a bit more, or at least hearing his name.

The first half-hour was lost, for Fanny and Lady Bertram were together, and unless she had Fanny to herself she could hope for nothing. But at last Lady Bertram left the room, and then almost immediately Miss Crawford thus began, with a voice as well regulated as she could—“And how do you like your cousin Edmund’s staying away so long? Being the only young person at home, I consider you as the greatest sufferer. You must miss him. Does his staying longer surprise you?”

The first half-hour was wasted because Fanny and Lady Bertram were together, and unless she had Fanny all to herself, she could expect nothing. But finally, Lady Bertram left the room, and then almost immediately, Miss Crawford began with a tone as controlled as she could manage—“So, how do you feel about your cousin Edmund being away for so long? Since you’re the only young person at home, I think you must be the one suffering the most. You must miss him. Are you surprised that he’s staying away longer?”

“I do not know,” said Fanny hesitatingly. “Yes; I had not particularly expected it.”

“I don't know,” Fanny said hesitantly. “Yeah; I didn't really expect it.”

“Perhaps he will always stay longer than he talks of. It is the general way all young men do.”

“Maybe he’ll always stick around longer than he says he will. That’s just how it is with most young guys.”

“He did not, the only time he went to see Mr. Owen before.”

“He didn't, the only time he went to see Mr. Owen before.”

“He finds the house more agreeable now. He is a very—a very pleasing young man himself, and I cannot help being rather concerned at not seeing him again before I go to London, as will now undoubtedly be the case. I am looking for Henry every day, and as soon as he comes there will be nothing to detain me at Mansfield. I should like to have seen him once more, I confess. But you must give my compliments to him. Yes; I think it must be compliments. Is not there a something wanted, Miss Price, in our language—a something between compliments and—and love—to suit the sort of friendly acquaintance we have had together? So many months’ acquaintance! But compliments may be sufficient here. Was his letter a long one? Does he give you much account of what he is doing? Is it Christmas gaieties that he is staying for?”

“He finds the house more enjoyable now. He is a really—a very charming young man himself, and I can't help but feel a bit worried about not seeing him again before I head to London, which seems likely to happen now. I'm expecting Henry every day, and as soon as he arrives, there will be nothing holding me back at Mansfield. I do wish I could see him one more time, I admit. But please send him my regards. Yes, I think it should be regards. Isn’t there something missing in our language, Miss Price, something between regards and—love—to fit the kind of friendly connection we've had? So many months of knowing each other! But regards might be enough here. Was his letter long? Does he tell you much about what he’s up to? Is he staying for the Christmas festivities?”

“I only heard a part of the letter; it was to my uncle; but I believe it was very short; indeed I am sure it was but a few lines. All that I heard was that his friend had pressed him to stay longer, and that he had agreed to do so. A few days longer, or some days longer; I am not quite sure which.”

“I only heard part of the letter; it was to my uncle; but I think it was very short; in fact, I’m sure it was just a few lines. All I heard was that his friend had urged him to stay longer, and that he had agreed to it. A few days longer, or some days longer; I’m not entirely sure which.”

“Oh! if he wrote to his father; but I thought it might have been to Lady Bertram or you. But if he wrote to his father, no wonder he was concise. Who could write chat to Sir Thomas? If he had written to you, there would have been more particulars. You would have heard of balls and parties. He would have sent you a description of everything and everybody. How many Miss Owens are there?”

“Oh! If he wrote to his dad; but I thought it could have been to Lady Bertram or you. But if he wrote to his dad, it’s no surprise he was brief. Who could write casually to Sir Thomas? If he had written to you, there would have been more details. You would have heard about balls and parties. He would have sent you a description of everything and everyone. How many Miss Owens are there?”

“Three grown up.”

"Three adults."

“Are they musical?”

“Are they musical?”

“I do not at all know. I never heard.”

“I have no idea. I've never heard of it.”

“That is the first question, you know,” said Miss Crawford, trying to appear gay and unconcerned, “which every woman who plays herself is sure to ask about another. But it is very foolish to ask questions about any young ladies—about any three sisters just grown up; for one knows, without being told, exactly what they are: all very accomplished and pleasing, and one very pretty. There is a beauty in every family; it is a regular thing. Two play on the pianoforte, and one on the harp; and all sing, or would sing if they were taught, or sing all the better for not being taught; or something like it.”

"That's the first question, you know," Miss Crawford said, trying to seem cheerful and casual, "that every woman who puts herself out there is bound to ask about another. But it's really silly to ask questions about any young women—about any three sisters who just came of age; because you know, without needing to be told, exactly what they're like: all very talented and charming, and one really pretty. There's always a beauty in every family; it's a common thing. Two play the piano, and one plays the harp; and all of them sing, or would sing if they had lessons, or they might sing even better without lessons; or something like that."

“I know nothing of the Miss Owens,” said Fanny calmly.

“I know nothing about Miss Owens,” Fanny said calmly.

“You know nothing and you care less, as people say. Never did tone express indifference plainer. Indeed, how can one care for those one has never seen? Well, when your cousin comes back, he will find Mansfield very quiet; all the noisy ones gone, your brother and mine and myself. I do not like the idea of leaving Mrs. Grant now the time draws near. She does not like my going.”

“You know nothing and you care even less, as people say. Never has tone expressed indifference more clearly. Really, how can someone care about people they've never met? Well, when your cousin comes back, he'll find Mansfield very quiet; all the loud ones gone—your brother, mine, and me. I don’t like the idea of leaving Mrs. Grant now that the time is getting close. She doesn’t want me to go.”

Fanny felt obliged to speak. “You cannot doubt your being missed by many,” said she. “You will be very much missed.”

Fanny felt she had to say something. “You can't doubt that many people will miss you,” she said. “You will be missed a lot.”

Miss Crawford turned her eye on her, as if wanting to hear or see more, and then laughingly said, “Oh yes! missed as every noisy evil is missed when it is taken away; that is, there is a great difference felt. But I am not fishing; don’t compliment me. If I am missed, it will appear. I may be discovered by those who want to see me. I shall not be in any doubtful, or distant, or unapproachable region.”

Miss Crawford looked at her as if she wanted to hear or see more, and then playfully said, “Oh yes! I'm missed just like any loud nuisance is missed when it's gone; there's definitely a noticeable difference. But I'm not trying to fish for compliments, so don't flatter me. If I really am missed, it will show. People who want to see me will find me. I won’t be in any questionable, far-off, or hard-to-reach place.”

Now Fanny could not bring herself to speak, and Miss Crawford was disappointed; for she had hoped to hear some pleasant assurance of her power from one who she thought must know, and her spirits were clouded again.

Now Fanny couldn't bring herself to speak, and Miss Crawford was disappointed; she had hoped to hear some encouraging confirmation of her influence from someone she thought would know, and her spirits fell once more.

“The Miss Owens,” said she, soon afterwards; “suppose you were to have one of the Miss Owens settled at Thornton Lacey; how should you like it? Stranger things have happened. I dare say they are trying for it. And they are quite in the right, for it would be a very pretty establishment for them. I do not at all wonder or blame them. It is everybody’s duty to do as well for themselves as they can. Sir Thomas Bertram’s son is somebody; and now he is in their own line. Their father is a clergyman, and their brother is a clergyman, and they are all clergymen together. He is their lawful property; he fairly belongs to them. You don’t speak, Fanny; Miss Price, you don’t speak. But honestly now, do not you rather expect it than otherwise?”

“The Miss Owens,” she said soon after. “What if one of the Miss Owens settled at Thornton Lacey? How would you feel about that? Strange things happen. I bet they’re hoping for it. They’re right to aim for it; it would be a lovely setup for them. I completely understand and don’t blame them at all. It’s everyone’s responsibility to do as well as they can for themselves. Sir Thomas Bertram’s son is someone significant, and now he’s in their circle. Their father is a clergyman, their brother is a clergyman, and they’re all clergymen together. He’s essentially theirs; he belongs to them. You’re quiet, Fanny; Miss Price, you’re quiet. But honestly, don’t you think it’s more likely than not?”

“No,” said Fanny stoutly, “I do not expect it at all.”

“No,” Fanny said firmly, “I don't expect that at all.”

“Not at all!” cried Miss Crawford with alacrity. “I wonder at that. But I dare say you know exactly—I always imagine you are—perhaps you do not think him likely to marry at all—or not at present.”

“Not at all!” exclaimed Miss Crawford eagerly. “I find that surprising. But I assume you know exactly—I always picture you to be—maybe you don't think he's likely to marry at all—or at least not right now.”

“No, I do not,” said Fanny softly, hoping she did not err either in the belief or the acknowledgment of it.

“No, I don’t,” Fanny said quietly, hoping she wasn’t wrong in either her belief or admitting it.

Her companion looked at her keenly; and gathering greater spirit from the blush soon produced from such a look, only said, “He is best off as he is,” and turned the subject.

Her companion looked at her intently; and feeling more encouraged by the blush that such a look brought out, simply said, “He’s better off as he is,” and changed the subject.

CHAPTER XXX

Miss Crawford’s uneasiness was much lightened by this conversation, and she walked home again in spirits which might have defied almost another week of the same small party in the same bad weather, had they been put to the proof; but as that very evening brought her brother down from London again in quite, or more than quite, his usual cheerfulness, she had nothing farther to try her own. His still refusing to tell her what he had gone for was but the promotion of gaiety; a day before it might have irritated, but now it was a pleasant joke—suspected only of concealing something planned as a pleasant surprise to herself. And the next day did bring a surprise to her. Henry had said he should just go and ask the Bertrams how they did, and be back in ten minutes, but he was gone above an hour; and when his sister, who had been waiting for him to walk with her in the garden, met him at last most impatiently in the sweep, and cried out, “My dear Henry, where can you have been all this time?” he had only to say that he had been sitting with Lady Bertram and Fanny.

Miss Crawford felt much better after their conversation, and she walked home in a good mood that could have handled almost another week of the same small group in the same bad weather, if it came to that. However, that very evening, her brother returned from London in his usual cheerful spirits, which left her with nothing more to test her own mood. His continued refusal to tell her why he had gone only added to the fun; a day ago it might have annoyed her, but now it felt like a charming joke—she suspected it might hide a nice surprise for her. The next day did bring her a surprise. Henry had said he would just stop by to check in on the Bertrams and be back in ten minutes, but he was gone for over an hour. When his sister, who had been waiting for him to walk with her in the garden, finally saw him in the driveway, she called out, “My dear Henry, where have you been all this time?” He simply replied that he had been sitting with Lady Bertram and Fanny.

“Sitting with them an hour and a half!” exclaimed Mary.

“Sitting with them for an hour and a half!” exclaimed Mary.

But this was only the beginning of her surprise.

But this was just the start of her surprise.

“Yes, Mary,” said he, drawing her arm within his, and walking along the sweep as if not knowing where he was: “I could not get away sooner; Fanny looked so lovely! I am quite determined, Mary. My mind is entirely made up. Will it astonish you? No: you must be aware that I am quite determined to marry Fanny Price.”

“Yes, Mary,” he said, linking his arm with hers and strolling along the path like he didn’t have a clue where he was going. “I couldn’t leave any earlier; Fanny looked stunning! I’m completely set on this, Mary. My mind is totally made up. Will that surprise you? No, you must already know that I’m absolutely determined to marry Fanny Price.”

The surprise was now complete; for, in spite of whatever his consciousness might suggest, a suspicion of his having any such views had never entered his sister’s imagination; and she looked so truly the astonishment she felt, that he was obliged to repeat what he had said, and more fully and more solemnly. The conviction of his determination once admitted, it was not unwelcome. There was even pleasure with the surprise. Mary was in a state of mind to rejoice in a connexion with the Bertram family, and to be not displeased with her brother’s marrying a little beneath him.

The surprise was complete; despite what he might think, his sister had never suspected he held any such views. She looked genuinely astonished, so he had to repeat what he had said, more clearly and seriously. Once she accepted his decision, it wasn't unwelcome. There was even some pleasure mixed with the surprise. Mary was in a mindset to be happy about a connection with the Bertram family and didn’t mind her brother marrying someone slightly beneath him.

“Yes, Mary,” was Henry’s concluding assurance. “I am fairly caught. You know with what idle designs I began; but this is the end of them. I have, I flatter myself, made no inconsiderable progress in her affections; but my own are entirely fixed.”

“Yes, Mary,” was Henry’s final assurance. “I’m definitely caught. You know how I started with such aimless plans; but this is where it all ends. I believe I’ve made significant progress in winning her heart; but my own feelings are completely set.”

“Lucky, lucky girl!” cried Mary, as soon as she could speak; “what a match for her! My dearest Henry, this must be my first feeling; but my second, which you shall have as sincerely, is, that I approve your choice from my soul, and foresee your happiness as heartily as I wish and desire it. You will have a sweet little wife; all gratitude and devotion. Exactly what you deserve. What an amazing match for her! Mrs. Norris often talks of her luck; what will she say now? The delight of all the family, indeed! And she has some true friends in it! How they will rejoice! But tell me all about it! Talk to me for ever. When did you begin to think seriously about her?”

“Lucky, lucky girl!” Mary exclaimed as soon as she could speak. “What a perfect match for her! My dearest Henry, this is my first feeling; but my second, which I’ll share with you just as genuinely, is that I completely support your choice and genuinely wish for your happiness. You’re going to have a sweet little wife, full of gratitude and devotion. Just what you deserve. What an incredible match for her! Mrs. Norris often talks about her luck; what will she say now? The delight of the whole family, for sure! And she has some true friends in this! How they will celebrate! But tell me everything! Talk to me forever. When did you start to seriously consider her?”

Nothing could be more impossible than to answer such a question, though nothing could be more agreeable than to have it asked. “How the pleasing plague had stolen on him” he could not say; and before he had expressed the same sentiment with a little variation of words three times over, his sister eagerly interrupted him with, “Ah, my dear Henry, and this is what took you to London! This was your business! You chose to consult the Admiral before you made up your mind.”

Nothing could be more impossible than answering such a question, yet nothing could be more enjoyable than having it asked. “How this delightful trouble crept up on him,” he couldn't say; and before he had expressed the same thought with slight variations three times, his sister interrupted him eagerly with, “Ah, my dear Henry, so this is what took you to London! This was your reason! You decided to consult the Admiral before making up your mind.”

But this he stoutly denied. He knew his uncle too well to consult him on any matrimonial scheme. The Admiral hated marriage, and thought it never pardonable in a young man of independent fortune.

But he firmly denied it. He knew his uncle well enough not to ask for his opinion on any marriage plans. The Admiral despised marriage and believed it was never acceptable for a young man with his own fortune.

“When Fanny is known to him,” continued Henry, “he will doat on her. She is exactly the woman to do away every prejudice of such a man as the Admiral, for she is exactly such a woman as he thinks does not exist in the world. She is the very impossibility he would describe, if indeed he has now delicacy of language enough to embody his own ideas. But till it is absolutely settled—settled beyond all interference, he shall know nothing of the matter. No, Mary, you are quite mistaken. You have not discovered my business yet.”

“When Fanny becomes known to him,” continued Henry, “he will be smitten by her. She is exactly the kind of woman who can dispel every prejudice of a man like the Admiral, because she embodies the type he believes doesn’t exist in the world. She is the very impossibility he would depict, if he even has the finesse to articulate his own thoughts. But until it is completely settled—settled beyond any interference—he shall know nothing about it. No, Mary, you’re completely mistaken. You haven’t figured out my plan yet.”

“Well, well, I am satisfied. I know now to whom it must relate, and am in no hurry for the rest. Fanny Price! wonderful, quite wonderful! That Mansfield should have done so much for—that you should have found your fate in Mansfield! But you are quite right; you could not have chosen better. There is not a better girl in the world, and you do not want for fortune; and as to her connexions, they are more than good. The Bertrams are undoubtedly some of the first people in this country. She is niece to Sir Thomas Bertram; that will be enough for the world. But go on, go on. Tell me more. What are your plans? Does she know her own happiness?”

“Well, well, I’m satisfied. I know now who this is about, and I’m in no rush for the rest. Fanny Price! Amazing, just amazing! That Mansfield should have done so much for—that you should have found your fate in Mansfield! But you’re absolutely right; you couldn’t have made a better choice. There isn’t a better girl in the world, and you’re not lacking for fortune; as for her connections, they’re more than good. The Bertrams are undoubtedly among the top families in this country. She’s the niece of Sir Thomas Bertram; that’s enough for society. But keep going, keep going. Tell me more. Does she realize her own happiness?”

“No.”

“Nope.”

“What are you waiting for?”

"What are you waiting on?"

“For—for very little more than opportunity. Mary, she is not like her cousins; but I think I shall not ask in vain.”

"For—just a bit more than opportunity. Mary isn't like her cousins; but I don't think I'll be asking in vain."

“Oh no! you cannot. Were you even less pleasing—supposing her not to love you already (of which, however, I can have little doubt)—you would be safe. The gentleness and gratitude of her disposition would secure her all your own immediately. From my soul I do not think she would marry you without love; that is, if there is a girl in the world capable of being uninfluenced by ambition, I can suppose it her; but ask her to love you, and she will never have the heart to refuse.”

“Oh no! You can’t. Even if you were less charming—assuming she doesn’t love you already (which I doubt)—you’d still be fine. Her gentle and grateful nature would ensure she would belong to you right away. Honestly, I don’t believe she would marry you without love; if there’s anyone in the world who isn’t swayed by ambition, it could be her; but if you ask her to love you, she wouldn’t have the heart to say no.”

As soon as her eagerness could rest in silence, he was as happy to tell as she could be to listen; and a conversation followed almost as deeply interesting to her as to himself, though he had in fact nothing to relate but his own sensations, nothing to dwell on but Fanny’s charms. Fanny’s beauty of face and figure, Fanny’s graces of manner and goodness of heart, were the exhaustless theme. The gentleness, modesty, and sweetness of her character were warmly expatiated on; that sweetness which makes so essential a part of every woman’s worth in the judgment of man, that though he sometimes loves where it is not, he can never believe it absent. Her temper he had good reason to depend on and to praise. He had often seen it tried. Was there one of the family, excepting Edmund, who had not in some way or other continually exercised her patience and forbearance? Her affections were evidently strong. To see her with her brother! What could more delightfully prove that the warmth of her heart was equal to its gentleness? What could be more encouraging to a man who had her love in view? Then, her understanding was beyond every suspicion, quick and clear; and her manners were the mirror of her own modest and elegant mind. Nor was this all. Henry Crawford had too much sense not to feel the worth of good principles in a wife, though he was too little accustomed to serious reflection to know them by their proper name; but when he talked of her having such a steadiness and regularity of conduct, such a high notion of honour, and such an observance of decorum as might warrant any man in the fullest dependence on her faith and integrity, he expressed what was inspired by the knowledge of her being well principled and religious.

As soon as she settled down and stopped being so eager, he was just as happy to share as she was to listen; a conversation followed that was nearly as interesting to her as it was to him, even though he really only had his own feelings to share, and could only focus on Fanny’s charms. Fanny’s beauty, her figure, her graceful mannerisms, and her kind heart were topics that never ran dry. He enthusiastically talked about the gentleness, modesty, and sweetness of her character, which is such an essential part of every woman’s value in a man’s eyes that even though he might sometimes love someone lacking it, he can never truly believe it’s missing. He had every reason to trust and praise her temperament, having seen it tested often. Was there anyone in the family, besides Edmund, who hadn’t in some way continually pushed her patience and tolerance? Her affections were clearly strong. Watching her with her brother! What could better demonstrate that her warmth matched her gentleness? What could be more encouraging for a man with hopes of her love? Plus, her intellect was beyond reproach, sharp and clear; her mannerisms reflected her own modest and refined mind. And that’s not all. Henry Crawford was smart enough to recognize the value of good principles in a wife, though he wasn't used to serious thought enough to name them correctly; but when he spoke about her steady and regular behavior, her strong sense of honor, and her adherence to decorum that would reassure any man about her faithfulness and integrity, he was expressing what came from knowing she was grounded and religious.

“I could so wholly and absolutely confide in her,” said he; “and that is what I want.”

“I could trust her completely,” he said; “and that is what I want.”

Well might his sister, believing as she really did that his opinion of Fanny Price was scarcely beyond her merits, rejoice in her prospects.

Well might his sister, truly believing that his opinion of Fanny Price was hardly better than she deserved, feel happy about her future.

“The more I think of it,” she cried, “the more am I convinced that you are doing quite right; and though I should never have selected Fanny Price as the girl most likely to attach you, I am now persuaded she is the very one to make you happy. Your wicked project upon her peace turns out a clever thought indeed. You will both find your good in it.”

“The more I think about it,” she exclaimed, “the more I’m convinced you’re doing the right thing; and even though I would never have picked Fanny Price as the girl who could win your heart, I now believe she’s the perfect one to make you happy. Your mischievous plan regarding her happiness actually turns out to be a brilliant idea. You’ll both benefit from it.”

“It was bad, very bad in me against such a creature; but I did not know her then; and she shall have no reason to lament the hour that first put it into my head. I will make her very happy, Mary; happier than she has ever yet been herself, or ever seen anybody else. I will not take her from Northamptonshire. I shall let Everingham, and rent a place in this neighbourhood; perhaps Stanwix Lodge. I shall let a seven years’ lease of Everingham. I am sure of an excellent tenant at half a word. I could name three people now, who would give me my own terms and thank me.”

“It was really wrong of me to think that way about her; but I didn’t know her back then, and she won’t have any reason to regret the moment I first thought of it. I’m going to make her extremely happy, Mary; happier than she has ever been or seen anyone else be. I won’t take her away from Northamptonshire. I’ll keep Everingham and rent a place nearby; maybe Stanwix Lodge. I’ll let Everingham for a seven-year lease. I’m sure I could find an excellent tenant without even trying hard. I could name three people right now who would agree to my terms and thank me for it.”

“Ha!” cried Mary; “settle in Northamptonshire! That is pleasant! Then we shall be all together.”

“Ha!” cried Mary; “moving to Northamptonshire! That sounds great! Then we’ll all be together.”

When she had spoken it, she recollected herself, and wished it unsaid; but there was no need of confusion; for her brother saw her only as the supposed inmate of Mansfield parsonage, and replied but to invite her in the kindest manner to his own house, and to claim the best right in her.

When she said it, she regretted it and wished she hadn't. But there was no reason to feel awkward; her brother saw her only as the supposed resident of Mansfield parsonage and kindly invited her to his house, asserting his claim to her.

“You must give us more than half your time,” said he. “I cannot admit Mrs. Grant to have an equal claim with Fanny and myself, for we shall both have a right in you. Fanny will be so truly your sister!”

“You have to give us more than half your time,” he said. “I can’t agree that Mrs. Grant has the same claim as Fanny and me, because both Fanny and I will have a right to you. Fanny will really be your sister!”

Mary had only to be grateful and give general assurances; but she was now very fully purposed to be the guest of neither brother nor sister many months longer.

Mary just needed to be thankful and make some general promises; however, she was now entirely determined not to stay with either her brother or sister for many more months.

“You will divide your year between London and Northamptonshire?”

“You're going to split your year between London and Northamptonshire?”

“Yes.”

“Yes.”

“That’s right; and in London, of course, a house of your own: no longer with the Admiral. My dearest Henry, the advantage to you of getting away from the Admiral before your manners are hurt by the contagion of his, before you have contracted any of his foolish opinions, or learned to sit over your dinner as if it were the best blessing of life! You are not sensible of the gain, for your regard for him has blinded you; but, in my estimation, your marrying early may be the saving of you. To have seen you grow like the Admiral in word or deed, look or gesture, would have broken my heart.”

"That's right; and in London, of course, your own place: no longer with the Admiral. My dear Henry, it’s a huge benefit for you to get away from the Admiral before his manners rub off on you, before you pick up any of his silly opinions, or learn to sit at dinner like it’s the greatest gift in life! You don’t realize how much you’ll gain, because your feelings for him have clouded your judgment; but, in my opinion, marrying young could save you. Seeing you turn out like the Admiral in speech or actions, looks or gestures, would have completely broken my heart."

“Well, well, we do not think quite alike here. The Admiral has his faults, but he is a very good man, and has been more than a father to me. Few fathers would have let me have my own way half so much. You must not prejudice Fanny against him. I must have them love one another.”

“Well, well, we don’t think quite the same here. The Admiral has his flaws, but he’s a really good man and has been more than a father to me. Few fathers would have let me have my own way as much as he has. You shouldn’t turn Fanny against him. I need them to love each other.”

Mary refrained from saying what she felt, that there could not be two persons in existence whose characters and manners were less accordant: time would discover it to him; but she could not help this reflection on the Admiral. “Henry, I think so highly of Fanny Price, that if I could suppose the next Mrs. Crawford would have half the reason which my poor ill-used aunt had to abhor the very name, I would prevent the marriage, if possible; but I know you: I know that a wife you loved would be the happiest of women, and that even when you ceased to love, she would yet find in you the liberality and good-breeding of a gentleman.”

Mary held back her feelings, knowing there couldn't be two people whose personalities and behaviors were less compatible. Time would reveal that to him, but she couldn't stop herself from reflecting on the Admiral. “Henry, I think so highly of Fanny Price that if I believed the next Mrs. Crawford would have even half the reason my poor, misused aunt had to hate that name, I would try to stop the marriage, if I could. But I know you: I know that a wife you loved would be the happiest woman, and even when you stopped loving her, she would still find in you the generosity and good manners of a gentleman.”

The impossibility of not doing everything in the world to make Fanny Price happy, or of ceasing to love Fanny Price, was of course the groundwork of his eloquent answer.

The idea that he couldn't help but do everything he could to make Fanny Price happy, or stop loving her, was clearly the basis of his heartfelt reply.

“Had you seen her this morning, Mary,” he continued, “attending with such ineffable sweetness and patience to all the demands of her aunt’s stupidity, working with her, and for her, her colour beautifully heightened as she leant over the work, then returning to her seat to finish a note which she was previously engaged in writing for that stupid woman’s service, and all this with such unpretending gentleness, so much as if it were a matter of course that she was not to have a moment at her own command, her hair arranged as neatly as it always is, and one little curl falling forward as she wrote, which she now and then shook back, and in the midst of all this, still speaking at intervals to me, or listening, and as if she liked to listen, to what I said. Had you seen her so, Mary, you would not have implied the possibility of her power over my heart ever ceasing.”

“Had you seen her this morning, Mary,” he continued, “caring with such incredible sweetness and patience for all the demands of her aunt’s foolishness, working with her, and for her, her complexion beautifully glowing as she leaned over the work, then returning to her seat to finish a note she was already writing for that silly woman's sake, and all this with such unpretentious gentleness, as if it were completely normal for her not to have a moment to herself, her hair styled as neatly as always, with one little curl falling forward as she wrote, which she occasionally shook back, and amidst all this, still talking to me at intervals, or listening, and seemingly enjoying listening, to what I said. Had you seen her like that, Mary, you wouldn't have suggested that it was possible for her hold over my heart to ever fade.”

“My dearest Henry,” cried Mary, stopping short, and smiling in his face, “how glad I am to see you so much in love! It quite delights me. But what will Mrs. Rushworth and Julia say?”

"My dear Henry," Mary exclaimed, pausing and smiling at him, "I'm so happy to see you so in love! It truly makes me happy. But what will Mrs. Rushworth and Julia think?"

“I care neither what they say nor what they feel. They will now see what sort of woman it is that can attach me, that can attach a man of sense. I wish the discovery may do them any good. And they will now see their cousin treated as she ought to be, and I wish they may be heartily ashamed of their own abominable neglect and unkindness. They will be angry,” he added, after a moment’s silence, and in a cooler tone; “Mrs. Rushworth will be very angry. It will be a bitter pill to her; that is, like other bitter pills, it will have two moments’ ill flavour, and then be swallowed and forgotten; for I am not such a coxcomb as to suppose her feelings more lasting than other women’s, though I was the object of them. Yes, Mary, my Fanny will feel a difference indeed: a daily, hourly difference, in the behaviour of every being who approaches her; and it will be the completion of my happiness to know that I am the doer of it, that I am the person to give the consequence so justly her due. Now she is dependent, helpless, friendless, neglected, forgotten.”

“I don’t care what they say or feel. They’re about to see what kind of woman can attract me, a man of reason. I hope that realization benefits them. And they’ll now see their cousin treated the way she deserves, and I hope they feel truly ashamed of their horrible neglect and unkindness. They’ll be angry,” he added after a brief silence, in a cooler tone; “Mrs. Rushworth will be very upset. It’ll be a tough pill for her to swallow; like any unpleasant pill, it will taste bad for a moment, and then she’ll move on and forget it; because I’m not so vain as to think her feelings are deeper than those of other women, even though I was the center of them. Yes, Mary, my Fanny will certainly notice a difference: a daily, hourly difference in how everyone around her behaves; and it will complete my happiness to know that I’m the one making that happen, that I’m the one giving her the recognition she rightfully deserves. Right now, she’s dependent, helpless, friendless, neglected, forgotten.”

“Nay, Henry, not by all; not forgotten by all; not friendless or forgotten. Her cousin Edmund never forgets her.”

“Nah, Henry, not at all; not forgotten by everyone; not without friends or forgotten. Her cousin Edmund never forgets her.”

“Edmund! True, I believe he is, generally speaking, kind to her, and so is Sir Thomas in his way; but it is the way of a rich, superior, long-worded, arbitrary uncle. What can Sir Thomas and Edmund together do, what do they do for her happiness, comfort, honour, and dignity in the world, to what I shall do?”

“Edmund! It's true, I think he is, overall, kind to her, and so is Sir Thomas in his own way; but it's the way of a wealthy, powerful, long-winded, controlling uncle. What can Sir Thomas and Edmund do together, what do they do for her happiness, comfort, honor, and dignity in the world, compared to what I will do?”

CHAPTER XXXI

Henry Crawford was at Mansfield Park again the next morning, and at an earlier hour than common visiting warrants. The two ladies were together in the breakfast-room, and, fortunately for him, Lady Bertram was on the very point of quitting it as he entered. She was almost at the door, and not chusing by any means to take so much trouble in vain, she still went on, after a civil reception, a short sentence about being waited for, and a “Let Sir Thomas know” to the servant.

Henry Crawford was back at Mansfield Park the next morning, and he arrived earlier than usual for a visit. The two ladies were in the breakfast room, and fortunately for him, Lady Bertram was just about to leave as he walked in. She was almost at the door, and not wanting to put in so much effort for nothing, she continued on after a polite greeting, a quick sentence about being expected, and telling the servant to “Let Sir Thomas know.”

Henry, overjoyed to have her go, bowed and watched her off, and without losing another moment, turned instantly to Fanny, and, taking out some letters, said, with a most animated look, “I must acknowledge myself infinitely obliged to any creature who gives me such an opportunity of seeing you alone: I have been wishing it more than you can have any idea. Knowing as I do what your feelings as a sister are, I could hardly have borne that any one in the house should share with you in the first knowledge of the news I now bring. He is made. Your brother is a lieutenant. I have the infinite satisfaction of congratulating you on your brother’s promotion. Here are the letters which announce it, this moment come to hand. You will, perhaps, like to see them.”

Henry, thrilled to see her go, bowed and watched her leave. Without wasting a moment, he turned to Fanny, and pulling out some letters, said with a bright expression, “I can't tell you how grateful I am to anyone who gives me a chance to talk to you alone. I've been hoping for this more than you can imagine. Knowing how you feel as a sister, I could hardly stand the thought of anyone else in the house sharing the news I’m about to tell you. He’s made it. Your brother is a lieutenant. I’m so happy to congratulate you on his promotion. Here are the letters confirming it, just arrived.”

Fanny could not speak, but he did not want her to speak. To see the expression of her eyes, the change of her complexion, the progress of her feelings, their doubt, confusion, and felicity, was enough. She took the letters as he gave them. The first was from the Admiral to inform his nephew, in a few words, of his having succeeded in the object he had undertaken, the promotion of young Price, and enclosing two more, one from the Secretary of the First Lord to a friend, whom the Admiral had set to work in the business, the other from that friend to himself, by which it appeared that his lordship had the very great happiness of attending to the recommendation of Sir Charles; that Sir Charles was much delighted in having such an opportunity of proving his regard for Admiral Crawford, and that the circumstance of Mr. William Price’s commission as Second Lieutenant of H.M. Sloop Thrush being made out was spreading general joy through a wide circle of great people.

Fanny couldn’t say a word, but he didn’t want her to. Just seeing the look in her eyes, the change in her complexion, and the shift in her emotions—their uncertainty, confusion, and happiness—was enough. She took the letters as he handed them to her. The first was from the Admiral, informing his nephew briefly that he had succeeded in his mission: the promotion of young Price. It included two more letters, one from the Secretary of the First Lord to a friend who the Admiral had enlisted for help, and another from that friend back to him. It revealed that his lordship was very pleased to act on Sir Charles’s recommendation, that Sir Charles was excited to have the chance to show his support for Admiral Crawford, and that the news of Mr. William Price’s commission as Second Lieutenant of H.M. Sloop Thrush was bringing widespread joy among a large circle of influential people.

While her hand was trembling under these letters, her eye running from one to the other, and her heart swelling with emotion, Crawford thus continued, with unfeigned eagerness, to express his interest in the event—

While her hand shook as she held these letters, her gaze darting from one to another and her heart filled with emotion, Crawford continued, genuinely excited, to express his interest in the event—

“I will not talk of my own happiness,” said he, “great as it is, for I think only of yours. Compared with you, who has a right to be happy? I have almost grudged myself my own prior knowledge of what you ought to have known before all the world. I have not lost a moment, however. The post was late this morning, but there has not been since a moment’s delay. How impatient, how anxious, how wild I have been on the subject, I will not attempt to describe; how severely mortified, how cruelly disappointed, in not having it finished while I was in London! I was kept there from day to day in the hope of it, for nothing less dear to me than such an object would have detained me half the time from Mansfield. But though my uncle entered into my wishes with all the warmth I could desire, and exerted himself immediately, there were difficulties from the absence of one friend, and the engagements of another, which at last I could no longer bear to stay the end of, and knowing in what good hands I left the cause, I came away on Monday, trusting that many posts would not pass before I should be followed by such very letters as these. My uncle, who is the very best man in the world, has exerted himself, as I knew he would, after seeing your brother. He was delighted with him. I would not allow myself yesterday to say how delighted, or to repeat half that the Admiral said in his praise. I deferred it all till his praise should be proved the praise of a friend, as this day does prove it. Now I may say that even I could not require William Price to excite a greater interest, or be followed by warmer wishes and higher commendation, than were most voluntarily bestowed by my uncle after the evening they had passed together.”

“I won’t talk about my own happiness,” he said, “as great as it is, because I’m only focused on yours. Compared to you, who deserves to be happy? I almost regretted knowing something you should have figured out before anyone else. But I didn’t waste any time. The mail was late this morning, but there hasn’t been a moment’s delay since then. How impatient, anxious, and crazy I’ve been about this, I won’t even try to describe; how deeply embarrassed and disappointed I was that it wasn’t resolved while I was in London! I stayed there day after day, hoping for it, because nothing less important than this would have kept me from Mansfield for half the time. But even though my uncle supported my wishes with all the warmth I could want and jumped into action right away, there were challenges due to one friend being absent and another’s commitments, which I could no longer bear to wait on. Knowing I left the situation in good hands, I left on Monday, trusting that it wouldn’t be long before I received letters like these. My uncle, who is the best man in the world, has done everything I knew he would after meeting your brother. He was thrilled with him. I didn’t let myself say yesterday just how thrilled or repeat even half of what the Admiral said in his praise. I held off until those praises could be confirmed by a friend, as today does. Now I can say that even I couldn’t expect William Price to spark more interest or receive warmer wishes and greater compliments than those my uncle so freely gave after the evening they spent together.”

“Has this been all your doing, then?” cried Fanny. “Good heaven! how very, very kind! Have you really—was it by your desire? I beg your pardon, but I am bewildered. Did Admiral Crawford apply? How was it? I am stupefied.”

“Is this all your doing?” Fanny exclaimed. “Oh my goodness! How incredibly kind of you! Did you really—was it because of your wishes? I’m so sorry, but I’m confused. Did Admiral Crawford reach out? What happened? I’m totally stunned.”

Henry was most happy to make it more intelligible, by beginning at an earlier stage, and explaining very particularly what he had done. His last journey to London had been undertaken with no other view than that of introducing her brother in Hill Street, and prevailing on the Admiral to exert whatever interest he might have for getting him on. This had been his business. He had communicated it to no creature: he had not breathed a syllable of it even to Mary; while uncertain of the issue, he could not have borne any participation of his feelings, but this had been his business; and he spoke with such a glow of what his solicitude had been, and used such strong expressions, was so abounding in the deepest interest, in twofold motives, in views and wishes more than could be told, that Fanny could not have remained insensible of his drift, had she been able to attend; but her heart was so full and her senses still so astonished, that she could listen but imperfectly even to what he told her of William, and saying only when he paused, “How kind! how very kind! Oh, Mr. Crawford, we are infinitely obliged to you! Dearest, dearest William!” She jumped up and moved in haste towards the door, crying out, “I will go to my uncle. My uncle ought to know it as soon as possible.” But this could not be suffered. The opportunity was too fair, and his feelings too impatient. He was after her immediately. “She must not go, she must allow him five minutes longer,” and he took her hand and led her back to her seat, and was in the middle of his farther explanation, before she had suspected for what she was detained. When she did understand it, however, and found herself expected to believe that she had created sensations which his heart had never known before, and that everything he had done for William was to be placed to the account of his excessive and unequalled attachment to her, she was exceedingly distressed, and for some moments unable to speak. She considered it all as nonsense, as mere trifling and gallantry, which meant only to deceive for the hour; she could not but feel that it was treating her improperly and unworthily, and in such a way as she had not deserved; but it was like himself, and entirely of a piece with what she had seen before; and she would not allow herself to shew half the displeasure she felt, because he had been conferring an obligation, which no want of delicacy on his part could make a trifle to her. While her heart was still bounding with joy and gratitude on William’s behalf, she could not be severely resentful of anything that injured only herself; and after having twice drawn back her hand, and twice attempted in vain to turn away from him, she got up, and said only, with much agitation, “Don’t, Mr. Crawford, pray don’t! I beg you would not. This is a sort of talking which is very unpleasant to me. I must go away. I cannot bear it.” But he was still talking on, describing his affection, soliciting a return, and, finally, in words so plain as to bear but one meaning even to her, offering himself, hand, fortune, everything, to her acceptance. It was so; he had said it. Her astonishment and confusion increased; and though still not knowing how to suppose him serious, she could hardly stand. He pressed for an answer.

Henry was really happy to clarify things by starting from the beginning and explaining in detail what he had done. His last trip to London was solely to introduce her brother in Hill Street and encourage the Admiral to use any influence he had to help him out. This had been his mission. He hadn’t shared it with anyone—not even Mary—because while he was unsure of the outcome, he couldn’t bear to involve anyone else in his feelings. But this had been his goal, and he spoke with such enthusiasm about his concerns and used such strong words, overflowing with genuine interest, dual motives, plans, and wishes that were more than he could express, that Fanny couldn’t help but see where he was headed if she’d been able to focus. But her heart was so full and her senses still so shocked that she could only listen imperfectly to what he told her about William, and when he paused, she could only say, “How kind! How very kind! Oh, Mr. Crawford, we are incredibly grateful to you! Dearest, dearest William!” She jumped up and hurried toward the door, exclaiming, “I’ll go to my uncle. He should know as soon as possible.” But he wouldn’t allow that. The moment was too perfect, and he was too anxious. He rushed after her. “She can’t go; she must give him five more minutes,” and he took her hand and led her back to her seat, launching into further explanation before she even realized why she was being held back. When she did understand, however, and found herself expected to believe that she had stirred feelings in him that his heart had never experienced before, and that everything he had done for William was because of his overwhelming and unmatched affection for her, she felt extremely upset and was momentarily unable to speak. She saw it all as nonsense, mere flirtation meant to deceive for a moment; she couldn’t help but feel that it was an improper and unworthy way to treat her, something she didn’t deserve. But it was just like him, entirely in line with what she had witnessed before, and she wouldn’t allow herself to show even half the displeasure she felt because he had conferred an obligation on her that no lack of tact on his part could make insignificant. While her heart was still racing with joy and gratitude for William, she couldn’t be seriously angry at anything that only harmed herself; and after trying twice to pull her hand back and twice attempting in vain to turn away from him, she stood up and said, with much agitation, “Don’t, Mr. Crawford, please don’t! I beg you not to. This kind of conversation is very uncomfortable for me. I have to go. I can’t take it.” But he kept talking, expressing his feelings, seeking a response, and finally, in words so clear that they could only mean one thing—even to her—he offered himself, his fortune, everything, for her to accept. It was true; he had said it. Her astonishment and confusion grew; and although she still couldn’t believe he was serious, she could hardly stand. He pressed her for an answer.

“No, no, no!” she cried, hiding her face. “This is all nonsense. Do not distress me. I can hear no more of this. Your kindness to William makes me more obliged to you than words can express; but I do not want, I cannot bear, I must not listen to such—No, no, don’t think of me. But you are not thinking of me. I know it is all nothing.”

“Stop, stop, stop!” she exclaimed, covering her face. “This is ridiculous. Please don’t upset me. I can’t take any more of this. Your kindness to William makes me more grateful than I can say; but I don’t want to, I can’t handle, I shouldn’t listen to such—No, no, don’t think about me. But you’re not thinking about me. I know it’s all just nonsense.”

She had burst away from him, and at that moment Sir Thomas was heard speaking to a servant in his way towards the room they were in. It was no time for farther assurances or entreaty, though to part with her at a moment when her modesty alone seemed, to his sanguine and preassured mind, to stand in the way of the happiness he sought, was a cruel necessity. She rushed out at an opposite door from the one her uncle was approaching, and was walking up and down the East room in the utmost confusion of contrary feeling, before Sir Thomas’s politeness or apologies were over, or he had reached the beginning of the joyful intelligence which his visitor came to communicate.

She broke away from him, and just then, Sir Thomas was heard talking to a servant as he made his way to the room they were in. It wasn’t the right moment for more reassurances or pleas, but parting with her when her modesty seemed to be the only thing standing in the way of the happiness he wanted was a harsh necessity. She dashed out through a door opposite to the one her uncle was coming through and began pacing in the East room, completely confused by her mixed emotions, before Sir Thomas’s polite remarks or apologies were even finished, or before he got to the good news his visitor had come to share.

She was feeling, thinking, trembling about everything; agitated, happy, miserable, infinitely obliged, absolutely angry. It was all beyond belief! He was inexcusable, incomprehensible! But such were his habits that he could do nothing without a mixture of evil. He had previously made her the happiest of human beings, and now he had insulted—she knew not what to say, how to class, or how to regard it. She would not have him be serious, and yet what could excuse the use of such words and offers, if they meant but to trifle?

She was feeling, thinking, and trembling about everything; agitated, happy, miserable, infinitely thankful, and absolutely furious. It was all unbelievable! He was inexcusable and incomprehensible! But that was just how he was; he couldn't do anything without mixing in some wrongdoing. He had once made her the happiest person alive, and now he had insulted her—she didn't know what to say, how to categorize it, or how to deal with it. She didn't want him to be serious, but what could justify such words and offers if they were just meant to be a joke?

But William was a lieutenant. That was a fact beyond a doubt, and without an alloy. She would think of it for ever and forget all the rest. Mr. Crawford would certainly never address her so again: he must have seen how unwelcome it was to her; and in that case, how gratefully she could esteem him for his friendship to William!

But William was a lieutenant. That was a fact beyond doubt and unblemished. She would think about it forever and forget everything else. Mr. Crawford would definitely never speak to her like that again; he must have noticed how unwelcome it was to her; and in that case, how much she could appreciate his friendship to William!

She would not stir farther from the East room than the head of the great staircase, till she had satisfied herself of Mr. Crawford’s having left the house; but when convinced of his being gone, she was eager to go down and be with her uncle, and have all the happiness of his joy as well as her own, and all the benefit of his information or his conjectures as to what would now be William’s destination. Sir Thomas was as joyful as she could desire, and very kind and communicative; and she had so comfortable a talk with him about William as to make her feel as if nothing had occurred to vex her, till she found, towards the close, that Mr. Crawford was engaged to return and dine there that very day. This was a most unwelcome hearing, for though he might think nothing of what had passed, it would be quite distressing to her to see him again so soon.

She wouldn’t move farther from the East room than the top of the large staircase until she was sure that Mr. Crawford had left the house. Once she was convinced he was gone, she was anxious to go down, be with her uncle, and share in his joy alongside her own, and gain all the insight or thoughts he had about where William would go next. Sir Thomas was as cheerful as she could hope for, as well as very kind and open; their conversation about William was so comforting that it made her feel like nothing had troubled her, until she learned, near the end of their talk, that Mr. Crawford was scheduled to return and have dinner there that very day. This was terribly unwelcome news, because even though he may not think much of what had happened, it would be really upsetting for her to see him again so soon.

She tried to get the better of it; tried very hard, as the dinner hour approached, to feel and appear as usual; but it was quite impossible for her not to look most shy and uncomfortable when their visitor entered the room. She could not have supposed it in the power of any concurrence of circumstances to give her so many painful sensations on the first day of hearing of William’s promotion.

She tried to handle it; she worked really hard, as dinner time got closer, to feel and act like she normally did; but it was just impossible for her not to look really shy and uncomfortable when their guest walked into the room. She never thought that any combination of events could cause her so much pain on the first day she heard about William’s promotion.

Mr. Crawford was not only in the room—he was soon close to her. He had a note to deliver from his sister. Fanny could not look at him, but there was no consciousness of past folly in his voice. She opened her note immediately, glad to have anything to do, and happy, as she read it, to feel that the fidgetings of her aunt Norris, who was also to dine there, screened her a little from view.

Mr. Crawford was not just in the room—he soon moved close to her. He had a note to deliver from his sister. Fanny couldn’t look at him, but there was no hint of past mistakes in his voice. She opened her note right away, relieved to have something to focus on, and happy, as she read it, to feel that her aunt Norris’s restless behavior, who was also dining there, provided her with a bit of cover.

“MY DEAR FANNY,—for so I may now always call you, to the infinite relief of a tongue that has been stumbling at Miss Price for at least the last six weeks—I cannot let my brother go without sending you a few lines of general congratulation, and giving my most joyful consent and approval. Go on, my dear Fanny, and without fear; there can be no difficulties worth naming. I chuse to suppose that the assurance of my consent will be something; so you may smile upon him with your sweetest smiles this afternoon, and send him back to me even happier than he goes.

“My dear Fanny—because I can now always call you that, which is a great relief for a tongue that has been tripping over ‘Miss Price’ for at least the last six weeks—I can't let my brother leave without sending you a few lines of general congratulations and giving you my joyful consent and approval. Go ahead, my dear Fanny, and don’t worry; there aren't any real difficulties to mention. I prefer to think that my assurance of consent will mean something to you, so you can smile at him with your sweetest smiles this afternoon and send him back to me even happier than he leaves.”

Yours affectionately,
M. C.”

Yours affectionately,
M. C.

These were not expressions to do Fanny any good; for though she read in too much haste and confusion to form the clearest judgment of Miss Crawford’s meaning, it was evident that she meant to compliment her on her brother’s attachment, and even to appear to believe it serious. She did not know what to do, or what to think. There was wretchedness in the idea of its being serious; there was perplexity and agitation every way. She was distressed whenever Mr. Crawford spoke to her, and he spoke to her much too often; and she was afraid there was a something in his voice and manner in addressing her very different from what they were when he talked to the others. Her comfort in that day’s dinner was quite destroyed: she could hardly eat anything; and when Sir Thomas good-humouredly observed that joy had taken away her appetite, she was ready to sink with shame, from the dread of Mr. Crawford’s interpretation; for though nothing could have tempted her to turn her eyes to the right hand, where he sat, she felt that his were immediately directed towards her.

These comments didn’t do Fanny any favors; even though she was reading too quickly and chaotically to fully grasp Miss Crawford’s intentions, it was clear that she was trying to compliment her on her brother’s feelings and even to seem like she believed they were serious. Fanny felt lost, unsure of what to do or think. The thought of it being serious was distressing, and she felt confused and agitated in every direction. She felt uneasy every time Mr. Crawford talked to her, which was way too often; she sensed that there was something different about the way he spoke to her compared to how he interacted with others. Her comfort during dinner was completely shattered: she could barely eat anything, and when Sir Thomas humorously noted that happiness had stolen her appetite, she wanted to disappear from embarrassment, terrified of how Mr. Crawford would interpret it; because although nothing could have made her look to her right where he was sitting, she had the feeling that his gaze was constantly on her.

She was more silent than ever. She would hardly join even when William was the subject, for his commission came all from the right hand too, and there was pain in the connexion.

She was quieter than ever. She barely spoke even when William was the topic, since his commission came entirely from the right source as well, and there was pain in the connection.

She thought Lady Bertram sat longer than ever, and began to be in despair of ever getting away; but at last they were in the drawing-room, and she was able to think as she would, while her aunts finished the subject of William’s appointment in their own style.

She thought Lady Bertram was sitting longer than usual and started to lose hope of ever leaving; but finally, they made it to the drawing room, and she could think freely while her aunts wrapped up the topic of William’s appointment in their own way.

Mrs. Norris seemed as much delighted with the saving it would be to Sir Thomas as with any part of it. “Now William would be able to keep himself, which would make a vast difference to his uncle, for it was unknown how much he had cost his uncle; and, indeed, it would make some difference in her presents too. She was very glad that she had given William what she did at parting, very glad, indeed, that it had been in her power, without material inconvenience, just at that time to give him something rather considerable; that is, for her, with her limited means, for now it would all be useful in helping to fit up his cabin. She knew he must be at some expense, that he would have many things to buy, though to be sure his father and mother would be able to put him in the way of getting everything very cheap; but she was very glad she had contributed her mite towards it.”

Mrs. Norris seemed just as happy about how much money it would save Sir Thomas as she was about any other aspect of it. “Now William will be able to take care of himself, which will make a big difference for his uncle, since it’s hard to say how much he has cost him; and, in fact, it will even make a difference for my gifts too. I’m really glad I gave William what I did when we parted, very glad that at that moment I was able to give him something significant; at least for me, considering my limited means, because now it will all be useful in setting up his cabin. I know he’ll have some expenses and will need to buy many things, although his parents will definitely help him get everything at a good price; but I’m really happy that I contributed my little bit towards it.”

“I am glad you gave him something considerable,” said Lady Bertram, with most unsuspicious calmness, “for I gave him only £10.”

“I’m glad you gave him something significant,” said Lady Bertram, with the most unsuspecting calmness, “because I only gave him £10.”

“Indeed!” cried Mrs. Norris, reddening. “Upon my word, he must have gone off with his pockets well lined, and at no expense for his journey to London either!”

“Indeed!” exclaimed Mrs. Norris, blushing. “I swear, he must have left with his pockets full, and without spending a dime on his trip to London either!”

“Sir Thomas told me £10 would be enough.”

“Sir Thomas told me that £10 would be enough.”

Mrs. Norris, being not at all inclined to question its sufficiency, began to take the matter in another point.

Mrs. Norris, not at all inclined to question its adequacy, began to look at the issue from a different angle.

“It is amazing,” said she, “how much young people cost their friends, what with bringing them up and putting them out in the world! They little think how much it comes to, or what their parents, or their uncles and aunts, pay for them in the course of the year. Now, here are my sister Price’s children; take them all together, I dare say nobody would believe what a sum they cost Sir Thomas every year, to say nothing of what I do for them.”

“It’s incredible,” she said, “how much young people cost their friends, with all the effort it takes to raise them and help them get started in life! They don't realize how much it adds up or what their parents, uncles, and aunts spend on them throughout the year. Now, look at my sister Price’s kids; if you add them all up, I bet nobody would believe how much they cost Sir Thomas every year, not to mention what I contribute for them.”

“Very true, sister, as you say. But, poor things! they cannot help it; and you know it makes very little difference to Sir Thomas. Fanny, William must not forget my shawl if he goes to the East Indies; and I shall give him a commission for anything else that is worth having. I wish he may go to the East Indies, that I may have my shawl. I think I will have two shawls, Fanny.”

“Very true, sister, as you say. But, poor things! They can’t help it; and you know it makes very little difference to Sir Thomas. Fanny, William must not forget my shawl if he goes to the East Indies, and I will give him a commission for anything else that’s worth having. I hope he goes to the East Indies so I can get my shawl. I think I’ll get two shawls, Fanny.”

Fanny, meanwhile, speaking only when she could not help it, was very earnestly trying to understand what Mr. and Miss Crawford were at. There was everything in the world against their being serious but his words and manner. Everything natural, probable, reasonable, was against it; all their habits and ways of thinking, and all her own demerits. How could she have excited serious attachment in a man who had seen so many, and been admired by so many, and flirted with so many, infinitely her superiors; who seemed so little open to serious impressions, even where pains had been taken to please him; who thought so slightly, so carelessly, so unfeelingly on all such points; who was everything to everybody, and seemed to find no one essential to him? And farther, how could it be supposed that his sister, with all her high and worldly notions of matrimony, would be forwarding anything of a serious nature in such a quarter? Nothing could be more unnatural in either. Fanny was ashamed of her own doubts. Everything might be possible rather than serious attachment, or serious approbation of it toward her. She had quite convinced herself of this before Sir Thomas and Mr. Crawford joined them. The difficulty was in maintaining the conviction quite so absolutely after Mr. Crawford was in the room; for once or twice a look seemed forced on her which she did not know how to class among the common meaning; in any other man, at least, she would have said that it meant something very earnest, very pointed. But she still tried to believe it no more than what he might often have expressed towards her cousins and fifty other women.

Fanny, meanwhile, only speaking when she had to, was earnestly trying to figure out what Mr. and Miss Crawford were up to. Everything suggested they couldn't be serious except for his words and attitude. All the natural, likely, reasonable things went against it; their habits, ways of thinking, and all her own flaws. How could she have stirred serious feelings in a man who had seen so many, been admired by so many, and flirted with so many, all of whom were far above her; who seemed so closed off to serious impressions, even when people tried hard to impress him; who thought so lightly, so carelessly, and so coldly about all that; who was everything to everyone, yet seemed to find no one essential to him? Moreover, how could anyone think that his sister, with all her high and worldly ideas about marriage, would support anything serious in that situation? Nothing could be more unnatural for either of them. Fanny felt embarrassed by her own doubts. Anything seemed possible except for serious feelings or serious approval of them towards her. She had almost convinced herself of this before Sir Thomas and Mr. Crawford joined them. The challenge was in keeping that belief so absolute once Mr. Crawford entered the room; because a glance a couple of times seemed to catch her off guard, and she wasn’t sure how to interpret it. In any other guy, she would have thought it meant something very serious, very intentional. But she still tried to convince herself it was no more than what he might have shown towards her cousins and a hundred other women.

She thought he was wishing to speak to her unheard by the rest. She fancied he was trying for it the whole evening at intervals, whenever Sir Thomas was out of the room, or at all engaged with Mrs. Norris, and she carefully refused him every opportunity.

She thought he wanted to talk to her without anyone else hearing. She imagined he was trying to find a moment the whole evening, whenever Sir Thomas left the room or was busy with Mrs. Norris, and she deliberately avoided giving him any chance.

At last—it seemed an at last to Fanny’s nervousness, though not remarkably late—he began to talk of going away; but the comfort of the sound was impaired by his turning to her the next moment, and saying, “Have you nothing to send to Mary? No answer to her note? She will be disappointed if she receives nothing from you. Pray write to her, if it be only a line.”

At last—it felt like a long time for Fanny’s nervousness, even though it wasn’t particularly late—he started to mention leaving; but the comfort of his words was broken when he turned to her a moment later and said, “Don’t you have anything to send to Mary? No response to her note? She’ll be let down if she doesn’t hear from you. Please write to her, even if it’s just a line.”

“Oh yes! certainly,” cried Fanny, rising in haste, the haste of embarrassment and of wanting to get away—“I will write directly.”

“Oh yes! Of course,” Fanny exclaimed, quickly getting up, her rush driven by embarrassment and the desire to escape—“I’ll write right away.”

She went accordingly to the table, where she was in the habit of writing for her aunt, and prepared her materials without knowing what in the world to say. She had read Miss Crawford’s note only once, and how to reply to anything so imperfectly understood was most distressing. Quite unpractised in such sort of note-writing, had there been time for scruples and fears as to style she would have felt them in abundance: but something must be instantly written; and with only one decided feeling, that of wishing not to appear to think anything really intended, she wrote thus, in great trembling both of spirits and hand—

She went over to the table, where she usually wrote for her aunt, and set up her materials without knowing what to say. She had read Miss Crawford’s note only once, and figuring out how to respond to something so vaguely understood was really upsetting. Since she wasn't used to writing notes like this, if she'd had time to worry about style, she would have felt a lot of doubts and fears. But she had to write something right away; with only one clear feeling—wanting to make it seem like she didn't take anything seriously—she wrote, trembling both inside and out—

“I am very much obliged to you, my dear Miss Crawford, for your kind congratulations, as far as they relate to my dearest William. The rest of your note I know means nothing; but I am so unequal to anything of the sort, that I hope you will excuse my begging you to take no farther notice. I have seen too much of Mr. Crawford not to understand his manners; if he understood me as well, he would, I dare say, behave differently. I do not know what I write, but it would be a great favour of you never to mention the subject again. With thanks for the honour of your note,

“I really appreciate your kind congratulations, my dear Miss Crawford, especially regarding my beloved William. The rest of your note doesn’t mean much to me; however, I’m not good at handling these things, so I hope you won’t mind me asking you to let it go. I've seen enough of Mr. Crawford to understand his behavior; if he understood me as well, I’m sure he’d act differently. I'm not sure what I’m writing, but I would really appreciate it if you never brought this up again. Thank you for your note.”

I remain, dear Miss Crawford,
&c., &c.”

I remain, dear Miss Crawford,
etc., etc.”

The conclusion was scarcely intelligible from increasing fright, for she found that Mr. Crawford, under pretence of receiving the note, was coming towards her.

The conclusion was barely understandable due to her rising fear, as she realized that Mr. Crawford, under the guise of getting the note, was approaching her.

“You cannot think I mean to hurry you,” said he, in an undervoice, perceiving the amazing trepidation with which she made up the note, “you cannot think I have any such object. Do not hurry yourself, I entreat.”

“You can’t really think I’m trying to rush you,” he said softly, noticing the incredible anxiety with which she wrote the note. “You can’t believe I have any such intention. Please, take your time.”

“Oh! I thank you; I have quite done, just done; it will be ready in a moment; I am very much obliged to you; if you will be so good as to give that to Miss Crawford.”

“Oh! Thank you; I’m all done, just finished; it will be ready in a moment; I really appreciate it; if you could please give that to Miss Crawford.”

The note was held out, and must be taken; and as she instantly and with averted eyes walked towards the fireplace, where sat the others, he had nothing to do but to go in good earnest.

The note was offered, and she had to take it; as she quickly turned away and walked towards the fireplace where the others were sitting, he had no choice but to proceed earnestly.

Fanny thought she had never known a day of greater agitation, both of pain and pleasure; but happily the pleasure was not of a sort to die with the day; for every day would restore the knowledge of William’s advancement, whereas the pain, she hoped, would return no more. She had no doubt that her note must appear excessively ill-written, that the language would disgrace a child, for her distress had allowed no arrangement; but at least it would assure them both of her being neither imposed on nor gratified by Mr. Crawford’s attentions.

Fanny thought she had never experienced a day filled with such intense emotion, both painful and joyful; but thankfully, the joy was not something that would fade with the sunset; every day would remind her of William’s progress, while she hoped the pain wouldn’t come back again. She was sure her note must seem poorly written, that the language would be embarrassing even for a child, as her distress had prevented any proper organization; but at the very least, it would show them both that she was neither being fooled nor pleased by Mr. Crawford’s attention.

CHAPTER XXXII

Fanny had by no means forgotten Mr. Crawford when she awoke the next morning; but she remembered the purport of her note, and was not less sanguine as to its effect than she had been the night before. If Mr. Crawford would but go away! That was what she most earnestly desired: go and take his sister with him, as he was to do, and as he returned to Mansfield on purpose to do. And why it was not done already she could not devise, for Miss Crawford certainly wanted no delay. Fanny had hoped, in the course of his yesterday’s visit, to hear the day named; but he had only spoken of their journey as what would take place ere long.

Fanny definitely hadn't forgotten about Mr. Crawford when she woke up the next morning; she still remembered what her note was about and felt just as hopeful about its impact as she had the night before. If only Mr. Crawford would just leave! That was her biggest wish: for him to go and take his sister with him, as he was supposed to do, and as he had come back to Mansfield specifically to do. She couldn't understand why it hadn't happened yet, since Miss Crawford clearly didn't want to wait. Fanny had hoped to hear the date of their departure during his visit yesterday, but he had only mentioned their trip as something that would happen soon.

Having so satisfactorily settled the conviction her note would convey, she could not but be astonished to see Mr. Crawford, as she accidentally did, coming up to the house again, and at an hour as early as the day before. His coming might have nothing to do with her, but she must avoid seeing him if possible; and being then on her way upstairs, she resolved there to remain, during the whole of his visit, unless actually sent for; and as Mrs. Norris was still in the house, there seemed little danger of her being wanted.

Having thoroughly convinced herself of the message her note would send, she couldn’t help but be shocked to see Mr. Crawford, as she did by chance, approaching the house again, and at the same early hour as the day before. His arrival might not be related to her, but she intended to avoid seeing him if she could; and since she was on her way upstairs, she decided to stay there for the entire duration of his visit, unless she was actually called down. With Mrs. Norris still at home, there seemed to be little risk of her being needed.

She sat some time in a good deal of agitation, listening, trembling, and fearing to be sent for every moment; but as no footsteps approached the East room, she grew gradually composed, could sit down, and be able to employ herself, and able to hope that Mr. Crawford had come and would go without her being obliged to know anything of the matter.

She sat for a while, feeling very anxious, listening intently, shaking, and dreading that someone would call for her at any moment; but as no footsteps came toward the East room, she slowly calmed down, was able to sit down, keep herself occupied, and hope that Mr. Crawford had come and would leave without her having to learn anything about it.

Nearly half an hour had passed, and she was growing very comfortable, when suddenly the sound of a step in regular approach was heard; a heavy step, an unusual step in that part of the house: it was her uncle’s; she knew it as well as his voice; she had trembled at it as often, and began to tremble again, at the idea of his coming up to speak to her, whatever might be the subject. It was indeed Sir Thomas who opened the door and asked if she were there, and if he might come in. The terror of his former occasional visits to that room seemed all renewed, and she felt as if he were going to examine her again in French and English.

Nearly half an hour had gone by, and she was getting really comfortable when suddenly she heard the sound of someone approaching. It was a heavy, unusual step for that part of the house; it was her uncle’s. She recognized it as well as his voice, and she had felt anxious about it before, so she started to feel anxious again at the thought of him coming up to talk to her, no matter the subject. It was indeed Sir Thomas who opened the door and asked if she was there and if he could come in. The fear from his previous visits to that room came rushing back, and she felt like he was going to question her again in French and English.

She was all attention, however, in placing a chair for him, and trying to appear honoured; and, in her agitation, had quite overlooked the deficiencies of her apartment, till he, stopping short as he entered, said, with much surprise, “Why have you no fire to-day?”

She was completely focused on arranging a chair for him and tried to look honored; in her nervousness, she completely forgot about the shortcomings of her place, until he paused as he walked in and said, with surprise, “Why don’t you have a fire today?”

There was snow on the ground, and she was sitting in a shawl. She hesitated.

There was snow on the ground, and she was sitting in a shawl. She hesitated.

“I am not cold, sir: I never sit here long at this time of year.”

“I’m not cold, sir; I never sit here for long at this time of year.”

“But you have a fire in general?”

“But do you have a fire in general?”

“No, sir.”

“Nope, sir.”

“How comes this about? Here must be some mistake. I understood that you had the use of this room by way of making you perfectly comfortable. In your bedchamber I know you cannot have a fire. Here is some great misapprehension which must be rectified. It is highly unfit for you to sit, be it only half an hour a day, without a fire. You are not strong. You are chilly. Your aunt cannot be aware of this.”

"How did this happen? There must be some mistake. I thought you were using this room to make yourself comfortable. In your bedroom, I know you can’t have a fire. There’s some major misunderstanding that needs to be cleared up. It’s really not suitable for you to sit here, even for just half an hour a day, without a fire. You’re not strong. You feel cold. Your aunt can’t be aware of this."

Fanny would rather have been silent; but being obliged to speak, she could not forbear, in justice to the aunt she loved best, from saying something in which the words “my aunt Norris” were distinguishable.

Fanny would have preferred to stay quiet; but since she had to speak, she couldn't help but, out of respect for the aunt she loved the most, mention something that included the words “my aunt Norris.”

“I understand,” cried her uncle, recollecting himself, and not wanting to hear more: “I understand. Your aunt Norris has always been an advocate, and very judiciously, for young people’s being brought up without unnecessary indulgences; but there should be moderation in everything. She is also very hardy herself, which of course will influence her in her opinion of the wants of others. And on another account, too, I can perfectly comprehend. I know what her sentiments have always been. The principle was good in itself, but it may have been, and I believe has been, carried too far in your case. I am aware that there has been sometimes, in some points, a misplaced distinction; but I think too well of you, Fanny, to suppose you will ever harbour resentment on that account. You have an understanding which will prevent you from receiving things only in part, and judging partially by the event. You will take in the whole of the past, you will consider times, persons, and probabilities, and you will feel that they were not least your friends who were educating and preparing you for that mediocrity of condition which seemed to be your lot. Though their caution may prove eventually unnecessary, it was kindly meant; and of this you may be assured, that every advantage of affluence will be doubled by the little privations and restrictions that may have been imposed. I am sure you will not disappoint my opinion of you, by failing at any time to treat your aunt Norris with the respect and attention that are due to her. But enough of this. Sit down, my dear. I must speak to you for a few minutes, but I will not detain you long.”

“I understand,” her uncle said, collecting himself and not wanting to hear more. “I get it. Your Aunt Norris has always supported the idea, quite wisely, that young people should be raised without unnecessary indulgences; but moderation is key in everything. She’s also very resilient herself, which of course shapes her views on what others need. And for another reason, I can completely understand. I know what her opinions have always been. The principle was good, but it may have been, and I believe it has been, taken too far in your situation. I know there have been times when there was some misguided distinction, but I think highly enough of you, Fanny, to believe you won’t ever hold a grudge about it. You have the understanding that will stop you from seeing things in parts and judging just by the outcome. You’ll take in the whole picture, considering the times, people, and possibilities, and you’ll realize that those who were educating and preparing you for the average situation you faced were, in fact, your friends. Even if their caution turns out to be unnecessary in the end, it was well-intentioned; and you can be sure that every benefit of wealth will be enhanced by the little sacrifices and limits they may have set. I’m confident you won’t let me down by failing to treat your Aunt Norris with the respect and attention she deserves. But enough of that. Sit down, my dear. I need to talk to you for a few minutes, but I won’t keep you long.”

Fanny obeyed, with eyes cast down and colour rising. After a moment’s pause, Sir Thomas, trying to suppress a smile, went on.

Fanny complied, looking down and blushing. After a brief pause, Sir Thomas, struggling to hold back a smile, continued.

“You are not aware, perhaps, that I have had a visitor this morning. I had not been long in my own room, after breakfast, when Mr. Crawford was shewn in. His errand you may probably conjecture.”

"You might not know that I had a visitor this morning. I had just been in my own room for a little while after breakfast when Mr. Crawford came in. You can probably guess why he visited."

Fanny’s colour grew deeper and deeper; and her uncle, perceiving that she was embarrassed to a degree that made either speaking or looking up quite impossible, turned away his own eyes, and without any farther pause proceeded in his account of Mr. Crawford’s visit.

Fanny’s face turned redder and redder; and her uncle, noticing that she was so embarrassed she couldn’t speak or look up, turned his own gaze away and, without any further delay, continued with his story about Mr. Crawford’s visit.

Mr. Crawford’s business had been to declare himself the lover of Fanny, make decided proposals for her, and entreat the sanction of the uncle, who seemed to stand in the place of her parents; and he had done it all so well, so openly, so liberally, so properly, that Sir Thomas, feeling, moreover, his own replies, and his own remarks to have been very much to the purpose, was exceedingly happy to give the particulars of their conversation; and little aware of what was passing in his niece’s mind, conceived that by such details he must be gratifying her far more than himself. He talked, therefore, for several minutes without Fanny’s daring to interrupt him. She had hardly even attained the wish to do it. Her mind was in too much confusion. She had changed her position; and, with her eyes fixed intently on one of the windows, was listening to her uncle in the utmost perturbation and dismay. For a moment he ceased, but she had barely become conscious of it, when, rising from his chair, he said, “And now, Fanny, having performed one part of my commission, and shewn you everything placed on a basis the most assured and satisfactory, I may execute the remainder by prevailing on you to accompany me downstairs, where, though I cannot but presume on having been no unacceptable companion myself, I must submit to your finding one still better worth listening to. Mr. Crawford, as you have perhaps foreseen, is yet in the house. He is in my room, and hoping to see you there.”

Mr. Crawford’s goal was to declare himself as Fanny’s lover, make clear proposals to her, and get her uncle’s approval, who was filling in for her parents. He handled everything so well, so openly, so generously, and so appropriately that Sir Thomas, feeling that his own responses and comments had been very relevant, was very happy to share the details of their conversation. Little did he know what was going on in his niece’s mind, believing that by sharing these details, he was pleasing her more than himself. So he talked for several minutes without Fanny finding the courage to interrupt him. She barely even wanted to. Her mind was too confused. She had shifted her position, and with her eyes focused intently on one of the windows, she listened to her uncle in complete agitation and distress. For a moment, he stopped, but she hardly noticed before he got up from his chair and said, “And now, Fanny, having completed one part of my mission and shown you everything laid out on the most solid and satisfying basis, I can finish the rest by persuading you to come downstairs with me, where, although I hope I haven't been an unwelcome companion, I must let you find someone even more worth listening to. Mr. Crawford, as you may have guessed, is still in the house. He’s in my room, hoping to see you there.”

There was a look, a start, an exclamation on hearing this, which astonished Sir Thomas; but what was his increase of astonishment on hearing her exclaim—“Oh! no, sir, I cannot, indeed I cannot go down to him. Mr. Crawford ought to know—he must know that: I told him enough yesterday to convince him; he spoke to me on this subject yesterday, and I told him without disguise that it was very disagreeable to me, and quite out of my power to return his good opinion.”

There was a glance, a reaction, and a gasp upon hearing this, which shocked Sir Thomas; but his shock grew even more when he heard her exclaim—“Oh! No, sir, I absolutely cannot go down to him. Mr. Crawford should know—he must know that: I told him enough yesterday to make it clear; he brought up this topic with me yesterday, and I told him honestly that it was very uncomfortable for me and completely impossible for me to regain his good opinion.”

“I do not catch your meaning,” said Sir Thomas, sitting down again. “Out of your power to return his good opinion? What is all this? I know he spoke to you yesterday, and (as far as I understand) received as much encouragement to proceed as a well-judging young woman could permit herself to give. I was very much pleased with what I collected to have been your behaviour on the occasion; it shewed a discretion highly to be commended. But now, when he has made his overtures so properly, and honourably—what are your scruples now?”

“I don’t understand what you mean,” said Sir Thomas, sitting down again. “It’s out of your control to change his good opinion? What’s all this about? I know he talked to you yesterday, and (as far as I can tell) he got as much encouragement to move forward as a sensible young woman could give. I was very pleased with what I gathered about your behavior during that time; it showed a discretion that’s highly commendable. But now, when he has made his intentions so properly and honorably—what are your concerns now?”

“You are mistaken, sir,” cried Fanny, forced by the anxiety of the moment even to tell her uncle that he was wrong; “you are quite mistaken. How could Mr. Crawford say such a thing? I gave him no encouragement yesterday. On the contrary, I told him, I cannot recollect my exact words, but I am sure I told him that I would not listen to him, that it was very unpleasant to me in every respect, and that I begged him never to talk to me in that manner again. I am sure I said as much as that and more; and I should have said still more, if I had been quite certain of his meaning anything seriously; but I did not like to be, I could not bear to be, imputing more than might be intended. I thought it might all pass for nothing with him.”

“You're wrong, sir,” Fanny exclaimed, feeling anxious enough in the moment to tell her uncle he was mistaken; “you’re completely wrong. How could Mr. Crawford say something like that? I didn’t encourage him yesterday. In fact, I told him—I can’t remember my exact words, but I’m sure I told him I wouldn’t listen to him, that it was very uncomfortable for me in every way, and that I asked him never to speak to me like that again. I’m sure I said at least that and more; and I would have said even more if I had been sure he meant anything serious; but I didn't want to assume, and I couldn’t stand the idea of thinking he meant more than he might have intended. I thought it might all just blow over for him.”

She could say no more; her breath was almost gone.

She couldn’t say anything else; she was almost out of breath.

“Am I to understand,” said Sir Thomas, after a few moments’ silence, “that you mean to refuse Mr. Crawford?”

“Am I to understand,” said Sir Thomas, after a few moments’ silence, “that you intend to refuse Mr. Crawford?”

“Yes, sir.”

"Yep, sir."

“Refuse him?”

"Reject him?"

“Yes, sir.”

"Yes, sir."

“Refuse Mr. Crawford! Upon what plea? For what reason?”

“Refuse Mr. Crawford! On what grounds? For what reason?”

“I—I cannot like him, sir, well enough to marry him.”

“I—I can’t like him enough, sir, to marry him.”

“This is very strange!” said Sir Thomas, in a voice of calm displeasure. “There is something in this which my comprehension does not reach. Here is a young man wishing to pay his addresses to you, with everything to recommend him: not merely situation in life, fortune, and character, but with more than common agreeableness, with address and conversation pleasing to everybody. And he is not an acquaintance of to-day; you have now known him some time. His sister, moreover, is your intimate friend, and he has been doing that for your brother, which I should suppose would have been almost sufficient recommendation to you, had there been no other. It is very uncertain when my interest might have got William on. He has done it already.”

“This is really strange!” said Sir Thomas, in a calm but displeased tone. “There’s something about this that I just can’t understand. Here’s a young man wanting to pursue you, and he has everything going for him: not just his status in life, wealth, and character, but also an uncommon charm, and his conversation pleases everyone. And he's not just a recent acquaintance; you've known him for a while now. Plus, his sister is your close friend, and he’s been doing things for your brother that I would think would be enough to win you over, even without anything else. It’s quite uncertain when my interest might have helped William out. He’s already done that.”

“Yes,” said Fanny, in a faint voice, and looking down with fresh shame; and she did feel almost ashamed of herself, after such a picture as her uncle had drawn, for not liking Mr. Crawford.

“Yes,” Fanny said in a soft voice, looking down in fresh embarrassment; she did feel somewhat ashamed of herself after the picture her uncle had painted, for not liking Mr. Crawford.

“You must have been aware,” continued Sir Thomas presently, “you must have been some time aware of a particularity in Mr. Crawford’s manners to you. This cannot have taken you by surprise. You must have observed his attentions; and though you always received them very properly (I have no accusation to make on that head), I never perceived them to be unpleasant to you. I am half inclined to think, Fanny, that you do not quite know your own feelings.”

“You must have realized,” Sir Thomas continued after a moment, “you must have noticed for a while now a certain way Mr. Crawford behaves around you. This can’t be a surprise to you. You must have seen his attentions; and while you’ve always responded to them very appropriately (I have no complaints about that), I’ve never sensed that they made you uncomfortable. I’m starting to think, Fanny, that you might not fully understand your own feelings.”

“Oh yes, sir! indeed I do. His attentions were always—what I did not like.”

“Oh yes, sir! I certainly do. His attentions were always—what I didn't like.”

Sir Thomas looked at her with deeper surprise. “This is beyond me,” said he. “This requires explanation. Young as you are, and having seen scarcely any one, it is hardly possible that your affections—”

Sir Thomas looked at her with even more surprise. “This is beyond me,” he said. “This needs some explanation. Given your youth and the fact that you’ve hardly met anyone, it’s almost impossible that your feelings—”

He paused and eyed her fixedly. He saw her lips formed into a no, though the sound was inarticulate, but her face was like scarlet. That, however, in so modest a girl, might be very compatible with innocence; and chusing at least to appear satisfied, he quickly added, “No, no, I know that is quite out of the question; quite impossible. Well, there is nothing more to be said.”

He paused and looked at her intently. He saw her lips form a no, although the sound was unclear, but her face was bright red. However, in such a modest girl, that might still indicate innocence; and choosing at least to seem satisfied, he quickly added, “No, no, I get that that's completely out of the question; totally impossible. Well, there's nothing more to say.”

And for a few minutes he did say nothing. He was deep in thought. His niece was deep in thought likewise, trying to harden and prepare herself against farther questioning. She would rather die than own the truth; and she hoped, by a little reflection, to fortify herself beyond betraying it.

And for a few minutes, he stayed silent. He was lost in thought. His niece was also deep in thought, trying to toughen up and get ready for more questions. She would rather die than admit the truth, and she hoped that with a little reflection, she could strengthen herself enough to avoid revealing it.

“Independently of the interest which Mr. Crawford’s choice seemed to justify” said Sir Thomas, beginning again, and very composedly, “his wishing to marry at all so early is recommendatory to me. I am an advocate for early marriages, where there are means in proportion, and would have every young man, with a sufficient income, settle as soon after four-and-twenty as he can. This is so much my opinion, that I am sorry to think how little likely my own eldest son, your cousin, Mr. Bertram, is to marry early; but at present, as far as I can judge, matrimony makes no part of his plans or thoughts. I wish he were more likely to fix.” Here was a glance at Fanny. “Edmund, I consider, from his dispositions and habits, as much more likely to marry early than his brother. He, indeed, I have lately thought, has seen the woman he could love, which, I am convinced, my eldest son has not. Am I right? Do you agree with me, my dear?”

“Regardless of the interest that Mr. Crawford’s choice seems to justify,” said Sir Thomas, starting again, calmly, “his desire to get married so early is something I find commendable. I believe in early marriages, provided there are adequate resources, and I think every young man with a decent income should settle down as soon as he can after turning twenty-four. I feel so strongly about this that it concerns me to think how unlikely it is that my own eldest son, your cousin Mr. Bertram, will marry early; at this point, as far as I can tell, marriage doesn’t seem to be on his mind. I wish he were more inclined to settle down.” He glanced at Fanny. “I consider Edmund, given his character and habits, to be much more likely to marry early than his brother. He, in fact, I have recently thought, has found the woman he could love, which I am convinced my eldest son has not. Am I right? Do you agree with me, my dear?”

“Yes, sir.”

“Sure thing, sir.”

It was gently, but it was calmly said, and Sir Thomas was easy on the score of the cousins. But the removal of his alarm did his niece no service: as her unaccountableness was confirmed his displeasure increased; and getting up and walking about the room with a frown, which Fanny could picture to herself, though she dared not lift up her eyes, he shortly afterwards, and in a voice of authority, said, “Have you any reason, child, to think ill of Mr. Crawford’s temper?”

It was said softly and calmly, and Sir Thomas was relaxed about the cousins. But removing his worry did nothing to help his niece: as her strange behavior continued, his irritation grew; and getting up and pacing the room with a frown, which Fanny could imagine even though she didn’t dare look up, he soon after said, in a commanding tone, “Do you have any reason, child, to think badly of Mr. Crawford’s temper?”

“No, sir.”

"No, thanks."

She longed to add, “But of his principles I have”; but her heart sunk under the appalling prospect of discussion, explanation, and probably non-conviction. Her ill opinion of him was founded chiefly on observations, which, for her cousins’ sake, she could scarcely dare mention to their father. Maria and Julia, and especially Maria, were so closely implicated in Mr. Crawford’s misconduct, that she could not give his character, such as she believed it, without betraying them. She had hoped that, to a man like her uncle, so discerning, so honourable, so good, the simple acknowledgment of settled dislike on her side would have been sufficient. To her infinite grief she found it was not.

She wanted to say, “But I know his principles”; however, her heart sank at the daunting idea of discussing it, explaining, and probably not changing anyone’s mind. Her low opinion of him was mainly based on things she observed, which, for her cousins’ sake, she could hardly mention to their father. Maria and Julia, especially Maria, were so involved in Mr. Crawford’s wrongdoings that she couldn’t share her view of his character without betraying them. She had hoped that, to a man like her uncle, who was so perceptive, honorable, and good, simply admitting her strong dislike would be enough. To her great sorrow, she realized it wasn’t.

Sir Thomas came towards the table where she sat in trembling wretchedness, and with a good deal of cold sternness, said, “It is of no use, I perceive, to talk to you. We had better put an end to this most mortifying conference. Mr. Crawford must not be kept longer waiting. I will, therefore, only add, as thinking it my duty to mark my opinion of your conduct, that you have disappointed every expectation I had formed, and proved yourself of a character the very reverse of what I had supposed. For I had, Fanny, as I think my behaviour must have shewn, formed a very favourable opinion of you from the period of my return to England. I had thought you peculiarly free from wilfulness of temper, self-conceit, and every tendency to that independence of spirit which prevails so much in modern days, even in young women, and which in young women is offensive and disgusting beyond all common offence. But you have now shewn me that you can be wilful and perverse; that you can and will decide for yourself, without any consideration or deference for those who have surely some right to guide you, without even asking their advice. You have shewn yourself very, very different from anything that I had imagined. The advantage or disadvantage of your family, of your parents, your brothers and sisters, never seems to have had a moment’s share in your thoughts on this occasion. How they might be benefited, how they must rejoice in such an establishment for you, is nothing to you. You think only of yourself, and because you do not feel for Mr. Crawford exactly what a young heated fancy imagines to be necessary for happiness, you resolve to refuse him at once, without wishing even for a little time to consider of it, a little more time for cool consideration, and for really examining your own inclinations; and are, in a wild fit of folly, throwing away from you such an opportunity of being settled in life, eligibly, honourably, nobly settled, as will, probably, never occur to you again. Here is a young man of sense, of character, of temper, of manners, and of fortune, exceedingly attached to you, and seeking your hand in the most handsome and disinterested way; and let me tell you, Fanny, that you may live eighteen years longer in the world without being addressed by a man of half Mr. Crawford’s estate, or a tenth part of his merits. Gladly would I have bestowed either of my own daughters on him. Maria is nobly married; but had Mr. Crawford sought Julia’s hand, I should have given it to him with superior and more heartfelt satisfaction than I gave Maria’s to Mr. Rushworth.” After half a moment’s pause: “And I should have been very much surprised had either of my daughters, on receiving a proposal of marriage at any time which might carry with it only half the eligibility of this, immediately and peremptorily, and without paying my opinion or my regard the compliment of any consultation, put a decided negative on it. I should have been much surprised and much hurt by such a proceeding. I should have thought it a gross violation of duty and respect. You are not to be judged by the same rule. You do not owe me the duty of a child. But, Fanny, if your heart can acquit you of ingratitude—”

Sir Thomas walked over to the table where she sat, trembling and distressed, and said coldly, “There’s really no point in discussing this any further. We should end this most embarrassing conversation. Mr. Crawford shouldn’t be kept waiting any longer. So I’ll just say this, as it's my duty to express my opinion on your actions: you have disappointed every expectation I had and revealed a character that’s the complete opposite of what I thought. Because I had, Fanny, as my behavior must have shown, formed a very positive opinion of you since I returned to England. I believed you were particularly free from stubbornness, arrogance, and that sense of independence that’s so common today, even among young women, and which is incredibly off-putting. But you've now shown me that you can be willful and contrary; that you can and will make your own choices without considering or respecting those who have every right to guide you, without even seeking their advice. You are quite different from anything I had imagined. The advantages or disadvantages of your family, your parents, your brothers and sisters never seemed to cross your mind. How they might benefit or how they must be pleased for you to have such an offer is nothing to you. You only think about yourself, and because you don’t feel for Mr. Crawford exactly what some romantic notion says is necessary for happiness, you decide to refuse him immediately, without even taking a moment to really think about your own feelings; you’re recklessly throwing away the chance to secure yourself an eligible, honorable, and noble future, something that probably won’t come your way again. Here is a young man of sense, character, temperament, manners, and fortune, who is deeply attached to you and seeking your hand in the most generous and selfless way; and let me tell you, Fanny, you could go on living for another eighteen years without being approached by a man who has even half of Mr. Crawford’s wealth or a fraction of his worth. I would have gladly given either of my daughters to him. Maria is happily married; but if Mr. Crawford had sought Julia’s hand, I would have gladly given it to him with more joy and sincerity than I did when giving Maria to Mr. Rushworth.” After a brief pause, he continued, “And I would have been very surprised if either of my daughters, when receiving a marriage proposal that might have only half the appeal of this one, had immediately and firmly rejected it without even considering my opinion or consulting me. I would have been quite shocked and hurt by such an action. I would have seen it as a serious breach of duty and respect. You’re not held to the same standard, though. You don’t owe me the duty of a child. But, Fanny, if your heart allows you to feel no sense of ingratitude—”

He ceased. Fanny was by this time crying so bitterly that, angry as he was, he would not press that article farther. Her heart was almost broke by such a picture of what she appeared to him; by such accusations, so heavy, so multiplied, so rising in dreadful gradation! Self-willed, obstinate, selfish, and ungrateful. He thought her all this. She had deceived his expectations; she had lost his good opinion. What was to become of her?

He stopped. By this time, Fanny was crying so hard that, as angry as he was, he wouldn’t push the matter further. Her heart was nearly broken by how she seemed to him; by such heavy, numerous, and escalating accusations! Stubborn, obstinate, selfish, and ungrateful. He thought all of this about her. She had let him down; she had ruined his good opinion of her. What was going to happen to her?

“I am very sorry,” said she inarticulately, through her tears, “I am very sorry indeed.”

“I’m really sorry,” she said, struggling to get the words out through her tears, “I’m truly sorry.”

“Sorry! yes, I hope you are sorry; and you will probably have reason to be long sorry for this day’s transactions.”

“Sorry! Yeah, I hope you really mean that; and you’re likely going to regret what happened today for a long time.”

“If it were possible for me to do otherwise” said she, with another strong effort; “but I am so perfectly convinced that I could never make him happy, and that I should be miserable myself.”

“If it were possible for me to do anything different,” she said, with another strong effort, “but I am completely convinced that I could never make him happy, and that I would be miserable myself.”

Another burst of tears; but in spite of that burst, and in spite of that great black word miserable, which served to introduce it, Sir Thomas began to think a little relenting, a little change of inclination, might have something to do with it; and to augur favourably from the personal entreaty of the young man himself. He knew her to be very timid, and exceedingly nervous; and thought it not improbable that her mind might be in such a state as a little time, a little pressing, a little patience, and a little impatience, a judicious mixture of all on the lover’s side, might work their usual effect on. If the gentleman would but persevere, if he had but love enough to persevere, Sir Thomas began to have hopes; and these reflections having passed across his mind and cheered it, “Well,” said he, in a tone of becoming gravity, but of less anger, “well, child, dry up your tears. There is no use in these tears; they can do no good. You must now come downstairs with me. Mr. Crawford has been kept waiting too long already. You must give him your own answer: we cannot expect him to be satisfied with less; and you only can explain to him the grounds of that misconception of your sentiments, which, unfortunately for himself, he certainly has imbibed. I am totally unequal to it.”

Another round of tears, but despite that outburst, and despite that heavy word miserable that introduced it, Sir Thomas started to think that a bit of softness, a slight change of heart, might play a part in all this. He hoped positively from the young man's personal appeal. He knew her to be very shy and extremely nervous; and he thought it was possible that her mind was in such a state that a little time, a little encouragement, a little patience, and a little impatience—an effective blend of all from the lover's side—might work its usual magic. If the gentleman could just stick with it, if he had enough love to endure, Sir Thomas began to feel hopeful. These thoughts crossed his mind and uplifted it. “Well,” he said, in a serious tone, but with less anger, “well, dear, dry your tears. There’s no point in crying; it won't help. You need to come downstairs with me now. Mr. Crawford has already waited too long. You must give him your own answer: we can’t expect him to settle for anything less, and only you can clarify to him the misunderstanding regarding your feelings that, unfortunately for him, he certainly has picked up. I am not capable of explaining it.”

But Fanny shewed such reluctance, such misery, at the idea of going down to him, that Sir Thomas, after a little consideration, judged it better to indulge her. His hopes from both gentleman and lady suffered a small depression in consequence; but when he looked at his niece, and saw the state of feature and complexion which her crying had brought her into, he thought there might be as much lost as gained by an immediate interview. With a few words, therefore, of no particular meaning, he walked off by himself, leaving his poor niece to sit and cry over what had passed, with very wretched feelings.

But Fanny showed such reluctance and misery at the thought of going down to see him that Sir Thomas, after thinking it over for a bit, decided it would be better to let her be. His hopes for both the gentleman and the lady took a bit of a hit because of this, but when he looked at his niece and saw how upset she was from crying, he realized that an immediate meeting might cause just as much trouble as it would solve. So, with a few meaningless words, he walked away by himself, leaving his poor niece alone to sit and cry about what had happened, feeling very miserable.

Her mind was all disorder. The past, present, future, everything was terrible. But her uncle’s anger gave her the severest pain of all. Selfish and ungrateful! to have appeared so to him! She was miserable for ever. She had no one to take her part, to counsel, or speak for her. Her only friend was absent. He might have softened his father; but all, perhaps all, would think her selfish and ungrateful. She might have to endure the reproach again and again; she might hear it, or see it, or know it to exist for ever in every connexion about her. She could not but feel some resentment against Mr. Crawford; yet, if he really loved her, and were unhappy too! It was all wretchedness together.

Her mind was a complete mess. The past, present, and future—all of it was awful. But her uncle’s anger hurt her the most. Selfish and ungrateful! How could she have appeared that way to him? She felt miserable forever. She had no one on her side, no one to advise her or speak up for her. Her only friend was gone. He might have been able to soften his father's stance; but everyone, maybe even everyone, would think she was selfish and ungrateful. She might have to face that blame over and over again; she could hear it, see it, or just know that it lingered forever in every connection around her. She couldn’t help but feel some resentment towards Mr. Crawford; yet, if he truly loved her and was suffering too! It was all just misery piled on top of misery.

In about a quarter of an hour her uncle returned; she was almost ready to faint at the sight of him. He spoke calmly, however, without austerity, without reproach, and she revived a little. There was comfort, too, in his words, as well as his manner, for he began with, “Mr. Crawford is gone: he has just left me. I need not repeat what has passed. I do not want to add to anything you may now be feeling, by an account of what he has felt. Suffice it, that he has behaved in the most gentlemanlike and generous manner, and has confirmed me in a most favourable opinion of his understanding, heart, and temper. Upon my representation of what you were suffering, he immediately, and with the greatest delicacy, ceased to urge to see you for the present.”

In about fifteen minutes, her uncle came back; she was almost ready to faint when she saw him. However, he spoke calmly, without sternness or blame, and she felt a bit better. There was comfort in both his words and his demeanor, as he began with, “Mr. Crawford has left: he just met with me. I don’t need to go over what happened. I don’t want to add to whatever you’re feeling right now with details of his feelings. It’s enough to say that he behaved in a very gentlemanly and generous way, and he has strengthened my positive opinion of his intelligence, kindness, and character. When I told him what you were going through, he immediately, and very considerately, stopped trying to see you for the time being.”

Here Fanny, who had looked up, looked down again. “Of course,” continued her uncle, “it cannot be supposed but that he should request to speak with you alone, be it only for five minutes; a request too natural, a claim too just to be denied. But there is no time fixed; perhaps to-morrow, or whenever your spirits are composed enough. For the present you have only to tranquillise yourself. Check these tears; they do but exhaust you. If, as I am willing to suppose, you wish to shew me any observance, you will not give way to these emotions, but endeavour to reason yourself into a stronger frame of mind. I advise you to go out: the air will do you good; go out for an hour on the gravel; you will have the shrubbery to yourself, and will be the better for air and exercise. And, Fanny” (turning back again for a moment), “I shall make no mention below of what has passed; I shall not even tell your aunt Bertram. There is no occasion for spreading the disappointment; say nothing about it yourself.”

Here Fanny, who had looked up, looked down again. “Of course,” her uncle continued, “it’s reasonable to think he would want to speak with you alone, even if it’s just for five minutes; it’s a request that’s too natural and fair to be denied. But there’s no set time; maybe tomorrow, or whenever you feel calm enough. For now, you just need to relax. Hold back those tears; they only make you feel worse. If, as I believe, you want to show me some respect, don’t give in to these feelings, but try to think your way into a stronger mindset. I suggest you go outside; fresh air will do you good. Take a walk for an hour on the gravel; you’ll have the shrubbery to yourself and will feel better with some air and exercise. And, Fanny” (turning back for a moment), “I won’t mention anything downstairs; I won’t even tell your aunt Bertram. There’s no need to spread the disappointment, so don’t bring it up yourself.”

This was an order to be most joyfully obeyed; this was an act of kindness which Fanny felt at her heart. To be spared from her aunt Norris’s interminable reproaches! he left her in a glow of gratitude. Anything might be bearable rather than such reproaches. Even to see Mr. Crawford would be less overpowering.

This was a command that she was more than happy to follow; it was a kind gesture that Fanny truly appreciated. Being saved from her Aunt Norris's endless complaints! It filled her with gratitude. Anything would be better than hearing those complaints. Even seeing Mr. Crawford would feel easier to handle.

She walked out directly, as her uncle recommended, and followed his advice throughout, as far as she could; did check her tears; did earnestly try to compose her spirits and strengthen her mind. She wished to prove to him that she did desire his comfort, and sought to regain his favour; and he had given her another strong motive for exertion, in keeping the whole affair from the knowledge of her aunts. Not to excite suspicion by her look or manner was now an object worth attaining; and she felt equal to almost anything that might save her from her aunt Norris.

She walked out just as her uncle suggested and tried to follow his advice as much as possible; she held back her tears and really tried to calm herself and gather her thoughts. She wanted to show him that she cared about his well-being and hoped to win back his approval. He also gave her another strong reason to push through, which was to keep the entire situation a secret from her aunts. Avoiding any suspicion through her expression or behavior became a goal worth achieving, and she felt ready to do almost anything to protect herself from Aunt Norris.

She was struck, quite struck, when, on returning from her walk and going into the East room again, the first thing which caught her eye was a fire lighted and burning. A fire! it seemed too much; just at that time to be giving her such an indulgence was exciting even painful gratitude. She wondered that Sir Thomas could have leisure to think of such a trifle again; but she soon found, from the voluntary information of the housemaid, who came in to attend it, that so it was to be every day. Sir Thomas had given orders for it.

She was really surprised when, after her walk, she stepped back into the East room and saw a fire lit and crackling. A fire! It felt overwhelming; at that moment, receiving such a luxury filled her with a mix of excitement and painful gratitude. She couldn’t believe Sir Thomas had the time to think about something so small again; but she quickly learned from the housemaid, who came in to tend to it, that this would be the case every day. Sir Thomas had ordered it.

“I must be a brute, indeed, if I can be really ungrateful!” said she, in soliloquy. “Heaven defend me from being ungrateful!”

“I must be a complete jerk if I can actually be ungrateful!” she said to herself. “God help me from being ungrateful!”

She saw nothing more of her uncle, nor of her aunt Norris, till they met at dinner. Her uncle’s behaviour to her was then as nearly as possible what it had been before; she was sure he did not mean there should be any change, and that it was only her own conscience that could fancy any; but her aunt was soon quarrelling with her; and when she found how much and how unpleasantly her having only walked out without her aunt’s knowledge could be dwelt on, she felt all the reason she had to bless the kindness which saved her from the same spirit of reproach, exerted on a more momentous subject.

She didn't see her uncle or Aunt Norris again until dinner. Her uncle treated her almost exactly as he had before; she was certain he didn’t want things to change, and that any feeling of difference was just in her own head. But her aunt quickly started arguing with her, and when she realized how much her aunt focused on her simply taking a walk without telling her, she appreciated the kindness that spared her from having to face the same kind of guilt over something much more significant.

“If I had known you were going out, I should have got you just to go as far as my house with some orders for Nanny,” said she, “which I have since, to my very great inconvenience, been obliged to go and carry myself. I could very ill spare the time, and you might have saved me the trouble, if you would only have been so good as to let us know you were going out. It would have made no difference to you, I suppose, whether you had walked in the shrubbery or gone to my house.”

“If I had known you were leaving, I would have asked you to drop by my house with some instructions for Nanny,” she said, “which I’ve now had to do myself, much to my inconvenience. I really could have used that time, and you could have saved me the hassle if you had just let us know you were heading out. It wouldn’t have made a difference to you, I guess, whether you walked through the garden or came to my place.”

“I recommended the shrubbery to Fanny as the driest place,” said Sir Thomas.

“I suggested the bushes to Fanny as the driest spot,” said Sir Thomas.

“Oh!” said Mrs. Norris, with a moment’s check, “that was very kind of you, Sir Thomas; but you do not know how dry the path is to my house. Fanny would have had quite as good a walk there, I assure you, with the advantage of being of some use, and obliging her aunt: it is all her fault. If she would but have let us know she was going out but there is a something about Fanny, I have often observed it before—she likes to go her own way to work; she does not like to be dictated to; she takes her own independent walk whenever she can; she certainly has a little spirit of secrecy, and independence, and nonsense, about her, which I would advise her to get the better of.”

“Oh!” said Mrs. Norris, pausing for a moment, “that was very kind of you, Sir Thomas; but you don’t realize how dry the path is to my house. Fanny would have had just as nice a walk there, I assure you, with the added benefit of being helpful and doing something for her aunt: it’s all her fault. If she had just let us know she was going out… but there’s something about Fanny, I’ve noticed it before—she likes to do things her own way; she doesn’t want anyone telling her what to do; she takes her own independent walk whenever she can; she definitely has a bit of a secretive and independent streak, and some nonsense about her, which I would advise her to overcome.”

As a general reflection on Fanny, Sir Thomas thought nothing could be more unjust, though he had been so lately expressing the same sentiments himself, and he tried to turn the conversation: tried repeatedly before he could succeed; for Mrs. Norris had not discernment enough to perceive, either now, or at any other time, to what degree he thought well of his niece, or how very far he was from wishing to have his own children’s merits set off by the depreciation of hers. She was talking at Fanny, and resenting this private walk half through the dinner.

As Sir Thomas reflected on Fanny, he felt that nothing could be more unfair, even though he had recently expressed the same thoughts himself. He tried to change the subject, making several attempts before he finally succeeded. Mrs. Norris lacked the insight to realize how much he thought of his niece, or how far he was from wanting his own children’s worth to be highlighted by putting Fanny down. She was directing her conversation at Fanny and was holding a grudge about this private walk for most of the dinner.

It was over, however, at last; and the evening set in with more composure to Fanny, and more cheerfulness of spirits than she could have hoped for after so stormy a morning; but she trusted, in the first place, that she had done right: that her judgment had not misled her. For the purity of her intentions she could answer; and she was willing to hope, secondly, that her uncle’s displeasure was abating, and would abate farther as he considered the matter with more impartiality, and felt, as a good man must feel, how wretched, and how unpardonable, how hopeless, and how wicked it was to marry without affection.

It was finally over; the evening arrived with a sense of calm for Fanny and a level of cheerfulness she hadn’t expected after such a turbulent morning. She believed, first and foremost, that she had made the right choice and that her judgment hadn’t failed her. She was confident in the goodness of her intentions and was also hopeful that her uncle’s anger was cooling off, and would continue to lessen as he thought it through more fairly. A decent person, she trusted, would feel how heartbreaking, unforgivable, hopeless, and wrong it was to marry without love.

When the meeting with which she was threatened for the morrow was past, she could not but flatter herself that the subject would be finally concluded, and Mr. Crawford once gone from Mansfield, that everything would soon be as if no such subject had existed. She would not, could not believe, that Mr. Crawford’s affection for her could distress him long; his mind was not of that sort. London would soon bring its cure. In London he would soon learn to wonder at his infatuation, and be thankful for the right reason in her which had saved him from its evil consequences.

Once the meeting she dreaded for tomorrow was over, she couldn't help but think that the issue would be wrapped up for good, and with Mr. Crawford gone from Mansfield, everything would soon feel like it had never happened. She refused to believe that Mr. Crawford's feelings for her would trouble him for long; he just wasn't that kind of person. London would quickly work its magic. In London, he would soon realize how foolish he had been and appreciate the clarity that had kept him from the negative fallout.

While Fanny’s mind was engaged in these sort of hopes, her uncle was, soon after tea, called out of the room; an occurrence too common to strike her, and she thought nothing of it till the butler reappeared ten minutes afterwards, and advancing decidedly towards herself, said, “Sir Thomas wishes to speak with you, ma’am, in his own room.” Then it occurred to her what might be going on; a suspicion rushed over her mind which drove the colour from her cheeks; but instantly rising, she was preparing to obey, when Mrs. Norris called out, “Stay, stay, Fanny! what are you about? where are you going? don’t be in such a hurry. Depend upon it, it is not you who are wanted; depend upon it, it is me” (looking at the butler); “but you are so very eager to put yourself forward. What should Sir Thomas want you for? It is me, Baddeley, you mean; I am coming this moment. You mean me, Baddeley, I am sure; Sir Thomas wants me, not Miss Price.”

While Fanny was caught up in these kinds of hopes, her uncle was soon called out of the room after tea; something so common that it didn’t strike her as unusual. She thought nothing of it until the butler came back ten minutes later and approached her confidently, saying, “Sir Thomas wishes to speak with you, ma'am, in his own room.” At that moment, she realized what might be happening; a suspicion flooded her mind, draining the color from her cheeks. But as soon as she stood up, ready to go, Mrs. Norris shouted, “Wait, wait, Fanny! What are you doing? Where are you going? Don’t rush. I'm telling you, it’s not you he wants; it’s definitely me” (looking at the butler); “but you’re so eager to step in. What could Sir Thomas possibly want with you? It’s me, Baddeley, you meant; I’ll be there in a moment. You meant me, Baddeley, I’m sure; Sir Thomas wants me, not Miss Price.”

But Baddeley was stout. “No, ma’am, it is Miss Price; I am certain of its being Miss Price.” And there was a half-smile with the words, which meant, “I do not think you would answer the purpose at all.”

But Baddeley was hefty. “No, ma’am, it’s Miss Price; I’m sure it’s Miss Price.” And there was a half-smile with the words, which meant, “I don’t think you would be suitable at all.”

Mrs. Norris, much discontented, was obliged to compose herself to work again; and Fanny, walking off in agitating consciousness, found herself, as she anticipated, in another minute alone with Mr. Crawford.

Mrs. Norris, feeling very unhappy, had to pull herself together and get back to work; and Fanny, walking away with a troubled mind, found herself, just as she expected, alone with Mr. Crawford in another minute.

CHAPTER XXXIII

The conference was neither so short nor so conclusive as the lady had designed. The gentleman was not so easily satisfied. He had all the disposition to persevere that Sir Thomas could wish him. He had vanity, which strongly inclined him in the first place to think she did love him, though she might not know it herself; and which, secondly, when constrained at last to admit that she did know her own present feelings, convinced him that he should be able in time to make those feelings what he wished.

The conference wasn't as brief or definitive as the woman had hoped. The man wasn't easily satisfied. He had all the determination to keep going that Sir Thomas could want. He had a sense of vanity that made him first think she loved him, even if she didn’t realize it herself; and secondly, when he had to finally accept that she was aware of her feelings, it convinced him that he could, in time, make those feelings align with his desires.

He was in love, very much in love; and it was a love which, operating on an active, sanguine spirit, of more warmth than delicacy, made her affection appear of greater consequence because it was withheld, and determined him to have the glory, as well as the felicity, of forcing her to love him.

He was in love, really in love; and this love, coming from a passionate and lively spirit, which was more intense than subtle, made her feelings seem more important because they were not given freely, and drove him to achieve both the pride and happiness of making her love him.

He would not despair: he would not desist. He had every well-grounded reason for solid attachment; he knew her to have all the worth that could justify the warmest hopes of lasting happiness with her; her conduct at this very time, by speaking the disinterestedness and delicacy of her character (qualities which he believed most rare indeed), was of a sort to heighten all his wishes, and confirm all his resolutions. He knew not that he had a pre-engaged heart to attack. Of that he had no suspicion. He considered her rather as one who had never thought on the subject enough to be in danger; who had been guarded by youth, a youth of mind as lovely as of person; whose modesty had prevented her from understanding his attentions, and who was still overpowered by the suddenness of addresses so wholly unexpected, and the novelty of a situation which her fancy had never taken into account.

He wouldn’t give up hope: he wouldn’t back down. He had every solid reason to feel deeply attached; he recognized that she had all the qualities that could support his strongest hopes for lasting happiness with her. Her behavior at that moment showed the selflessness and sensitivity of her character (traits he believed were quite rare), which only intensified his desires and solidified his resolve. He wasn’t aware that he was trying to win over someone who was already taken. He had no idea about that. He saw her as someone who hadn’t thought about it enough to feel at risk; someone protected by youth, a youth of spirit as beautiful as her appearance; whose modesty had kept her from recognizing his interest, and who was still overwhelmed by the suddenness of such unexpected attention and the novelty of a situation she had never considered.

Must it not follow of course, that, when he was understood, he should succeed? He believed it fully. Love such as his, in a man like himself, must with perseverance secure a return, and at no great distance; and he had so much delight in the idea of obliging her to love him in a very short time, that her not loving him now was scarcely regretted. A little difficulty to be overcome was no evil to Henry Crawford. He rather derived spirits from it. He had been apt to gain hearts too easily. His situation was new and animating.

Must it not be obvious that when he was understood, he would succeed? He believed it completely. A love like his, coming from a man like him, should surely earn a return with patience, and not too far off. He was so thrilled by the thought of making her love him in no time that he hardly regretted her not loving him yet. A small challenge to overcome was not a problem for Henry Crawford. In fact, it energized him. He had often found it too easy to win hearts before. This situation was fresh and exciting.

To Fanny, however, who had known too much opposition all her life to find any charm in it, all this was unintelligible. She found that he did mean to persevere; but how he could, after such language from her as she felt herself obliged to use, was not to be understood. She told him that she did not love him, could not love him, was sure she never should love him; that such a change was quite impossible; that the subject was most painful to her; that she must entreat him never to mention it again, to allow her to leave him at once, and let it be considered as concluded for ever. And when farther pressed, had added, that in her opinion their dispositions were so totally dissimilar as to make mutual affection incompatible; and that they were unfitted for each other by nature, education, and habit. All this she had said, and with the earnestness of sincerity; yet this was not enough, for he immediately denied there being anything uncongenial in their characters, or anything unfriendly in their situations; and positively declared, that he would still love, and still hope!

To Fanny, however, who had faced too much opposition throughout her life to find any appeal in it, all this was baffling. She realized he intended to persist; but how he could, after the words she felt forced to say, was beyond her comprehension. She told him she didn't love him, couldn't love him, and was sure she never would love him; that such a change was completely impossible; that the topic was extremely painful for her; that she had to ask him never to bring it up again, to let her leave him immediately, and to consider it settled forever. And when he pressed further, she added that she believed their personalities were so completely different that mutual affection was impossible; and that they were unsuited for each other by nature, upbringing, and habit. She had said all this with sincere earnestness; yet it wasn’t enough, because he immediately rejected the idea that there was anything incompatible in their characters or anything unfriendly in their circumstances; and he firmly declared that he would still love her and still have hope!

Fanny knew her own meaning, but was no judge of her own manner. Her manner was incurably gentle; and she was not aware how much it concealed the sternness of her purpose. Her diffidence, gratitude, and softness made every expression of indifference seem almost an effort of self-denial; seem, at least, to be giving nearly as much pain to herself as to him. Mr. Crawford was no longer the Mr. Crawford who, as the clandestine, insidious, treacherous admirer of Maria Bertram, had been her abhorrence, whom she had hated to see or to speak to, in whom she could believe no good quality to exist, and whose power, even of being agreeable, she had barely acknowledged. He was now the Mr. Crawford who was addressing herself with ardent, disinterested love; whose feelings were apparently become all that was honourable and upright, whose views of happiness were all fixed on a marriage of attachment; who was pouring out his sense of her merits, describing and describing again his affection, proving as far as words could prove it, and in the language, tone, and spirit of a man of talent too, that he sought her for her gentleness and her goodness; and to complete the whole, he was now the Mr. Crawford who had procured William’s promotion!

Fanny understood her own feelings but wasn't good at assessing her own behavior. Her demeanor was inherently gentle, and she didn't realize how much it masked the determination behind her intentions. Her shyness, thankfulness, and softness made each show of indifference feel like a struggle against her own emotions; it seemed to cause her almost as much pain as it did to him. Mr. Crawford was no longer the Mr. Crawford who had secretly and deceitfully pursued Maria Bertram—someone she couldn't stand, who she hated to see or talk to, and in whom she saw no redeeming qualities. His ability to be charming was something she barely acknowledged then. He was now the Mr. Crawford who expressed passionate, selfless love for her; a man whose feelings seemed completely honorable and virtuous, whose dreams of happiness were all centered on a meaningful marriage. He was articulating his admiration for her, repeatedly expressing his feelings, proving as much as words could convey, all with the sophistication and spirit of a talented man, showing that he admired her gentleness and goodness; and to top it all off, he was now the Mr. Crawford who had helped William get promoted!

Here was a change, and here were claims which could not but operate! She might have disdained him in all the dignity of angry virtue, in the grounds of Sotherton, or the theatre at Mansfield Park; but he approached her now with rights that demanded different treatment. She must be courteous, and she must be compassionate. She must have a sensation of being honoured, and whether thinking of herself or her brother, she must have a strong feeling of gratitude. The effect of the whole was a manner so pitying and agitated, and words intermingled with her refusal so expressive of obligation and concern, that to a temper of vanity and hope like Crawford’s, the truth, or at least the strength of her indifference, might well be questionable; and he was not so irrational as Fanny considered him, in the professions of persevering, assiduous, and not desponding attachment which closed the interview.

Here was a change, and here were claims that couldn't be ignored! She might have looked down on him with all the dignity of righteous anger, either on the grounds of Sotherton or in the theater at Mansfield Park; but now he approached her with rights that required a different response. She had to be polite, and she had to be understanding. She needed to feel honored, and whether thinking of herself or her brother, she had to feel a strong sense of gratitude. The overall effect was a manner that was both pitying and anxious, with words mixed in with her refusal that expressed obligation and concern, so that to someone with a temperament of vanity and hope like Crawford's, the reality, or at least the depth of her indifference, might be in question; and he wasn’t as unreasonable as Fanny thought he was, in the expressions of persistent, devoted, and hopeful attachment that ended the conversation.

It was with reluctance that he suffered her to go; but there was no look of despair in parting to belie his words, or give her hopes of his being less unreasonable than he professed himself.

He reluctantly let her leave; but there was no look of despair in their goodbye to contradict his words or give her false hope that he was being less unreasonable than he claimed.

Now she was angry. Some resentment did arise at a perseverance so selfish and ungenerous. Here was again a want of delicacy and regard for others which had formerly so struck and disgusted her. Here was again a something of the same Mr. Crawford whom she had so reprobated before. How evidently was there a gross want of feeling and humanity where his own pleasure was concerned—And, alas! how always known no principle to supply as a duty what the heart was deficient in. Had her own affections been as free—as perhaps they ought to have been—he never could have engaged them.

Now she was angry. Some resentment arose at a stubbornness that was so selfish and inconsiderate. Here was once again a lack of sensitivity and regard for others that had previously struck and repulsed her. Here was again a hint of the same Mr. Crawford she had criticized before. It was so clear that he had a complete lack of feeling and humanity when it came to his own pleasure—And, sadly, he had never seemed to recognize any principle to substitute for the duty that the heart failed to provide. If her own feelings had been as free—as perhaps they should have been—he could never have captured them.

So thought Fanny, in good truth and sober sadness, as she sat musing over that too great indulgence and luxury of a fire upstairs: wondering at the past and present; wondering at what was yet to come, and in a nervous agitation which made nothing clear to her but the persuasion of her being never under any circumstances able to love Mr. Crawford, and the felicity of having a fire to sit over and think of it.

So thought Fanny, in all honesty and quiet sadness, as she sat reflecting on the excessive comfort and luxury of a fire upstairs: pondering the past and present; wondering about what was still to come, and in a nervous restlessness that made nothing clear to her except the certainty that she would never be able to love Mr. Crawford, and the happiness of having a fire to sit by while thinking about it.

Sir Thomas was obliged, or obliged himself, to wait till the morrow for a knowledge of what had passed between the young people. He then saw Mr. Crawford, and received his account. The first feeling was disappointment: he had hoped better things; he had thought that an hour’s entreaty from a young man like Crawford could not have worked so little change on a gentle-tempered girl like Fanny; but there was speedy comfort in the determined views and sanguine perseverance of the lover; and when seeing such confidence of success in the principal, Sir Thomas was soon able to depend on it himself.

Sir Thomas had to wait until the next day to find out what had happened between the young people. When he saw Mr. Crawford, he got his side of the story. His first reaction was disappointment; he had expected better. He thought that an hour of pleading from a young man like Crawford would have had a bigger impact on a kind-hearted girl like Fanny. However, he quickly found comfort in the resolute goals and optimistic determination of the suitor. Seeing such confidence from the main player, Sir Thomas was soon able to trust in it himself.

Nothing was omitted, on his side, of civility, compliment, or kindness, that might assist the plan. Mr. Crawford’s steadiness was honoured, and Fanny was praised, and the connexion was still the most desirable in the world. At Mansfield Park Mr. Crawford would always be welcome; he had only to consult his own judgment and feelings as to the frequency of his visits, at present or in future. In all his niece’s family and friends, there could be but one opinion, one wish on the subject; the influence of all who loved her must incline one way.

He held nothing back when it came to being polite, complimenting, or showing kindness that could help with the plan. Mr. Crawford’s reliability was respected, and Fanny was praised; the connection was still the most desirable one in the world. At Mansfield Park, Mr. Crawford would always be welcomed; he just had to decide for himself how often to visit, now or in the future. Among all of his niece’s family and friends, there could only be one opinion, one wish regarding the matter; everyone who cared for her would naturally lean in that direction.

Everything was said that could encourage, every encouragement received with grateful joy, and the gentlemen parted the best of friends.

Everything that could be said to uplift was said, and every bit of encouragement was met with heartfelt gratitude, and the gentlemen left as the best of friends.

Satisfied that the cause was now on a footing the most proper and hopeful, Sir Thomas resolved to abstain from all farther importunity with his niece, and to shew no open interference. Upon her disposition he believed kindness might be the best way of working. Entreaty should be from one quarter only. The forbearance of her family on a point, respecting which she could be in no doubt of their wishes, might be their surest means of forwarding it. Accordingly, on this principle, Sir Thomas took the first opportunity of saying to her, with a mild gravity, intended to be overcoming, “Well, Fanny, I have seen Mr. Crawford again, and learn from him exactly how matters stand between you. He is a most extraordinary young man, and whatever be the event, you must feel that you have created an attachment of no common character; though, young as you are, and little acquainted with the transient, varying, unsteady nature of love, as it generally exists, you cannot be struck as I am with all that is wonderful in a perseverance of this sort against discouragement. With him it is entirely a matter of feeling: he claims no merit in it; perhaps is entitled to none. Yet, having chosen so well, his constancy has a respectable stamp. Had his choice been less unexceptionable, I should have condemned his persevering.”

Satisfied that the situation was now in the best possible place for success, Sir Thomas decided to stop pushing his niece and to avoid any open interference. He believed that kindness might be the best approach for influencing her. Requests should come from only one side. The family's restraint on a matter she was surely aware of regarding their wishes might be the best way to support it. So, based on this idea, Sir Thomas took the first chance to say to her, with a gentle seriousness meant to be persuasive, “Well, Fanny, I've seen Mr. Crawford again and learned exactly where things stand between you. He is a remarkable young man, and no matter the outcome, you have to recognize that you've sparked a connection that's anything but ordinary; even though you’re young and not very familiar with the often fleeting and inconsistent nature of love, as it usually is, you can't help but notice how impressive it is that he remains steadfast despite challenges. For him, it’s purely about feeling: he doesn’t take credit for it; he might not deserve it. Yet, having made such a good choice, his persistence is commendable. If his choice had been less than perfect, I would have criticized his determination.”

“Indeed, sir,” said Fanny, “I am very sorry that Mr. Crawford should continue to—I know that it is paying me a very great compliment, and I feel most undeservedly honoured; but I am so perfectly convinced, and I have told him so, that it never will be in my power—”

“Of course, sir,” Fanny said, “I really regret that Mr. Crawford continues to—I know that it’s a huge compliment to me, and I feel incredibly unworthy of it; but I’m completely convinced, and I’ve told him so, that it will never be within my ability—”

“My dear,” interrupted Sir Thomas, “there is no occasion for this. Your feelings are as well known to me as my wishes and regrets must be to you. There is nothing more to be said or done. From this hour the subject is never to be revived between us. You will have nothing to fear, or to be agitated about. You cannot suppose me capable of trying to persuade you to marry against your inclinations. Your happiness and advantage are all that I have in view, and nothing is required of you but to bear with Mr. Crawford’s endeavours to convince you that they may not be incompatible with his. He proceeds at his own risk. You are on safe ground. I have engaged for your seeing him whenever he calls, as you might have done had nothing of this sort occurred. You will see him with the rest of us, in the same manner, and, as much as you can, dismissing the recollection of everything unpleasant. He leaves Northamptonshire so soon, that even this slight sacrifice cannot be often demanded. The future must be very uncertain. And now, my dear Fanny, this subject is closed between us.”

“My dear,” interrupted Sir Thomas, “there’s no need for this. I understand your feelings as well as you know my wishes and regrets. There’s nothing more to say or do. From now on, we won’t bring this up again. You have nothing to fear or worry about. You can’t possibly think I would try to persuade you to marry someone against your wishes. Your happiness and well-being are my only concerns, and all I ask is that you tolerate Mr. Crawford’s attempts to convince you that his interests might not conflict with yours. He’s taking his own chances. You’re safe in this. I’ve arranged for you to see him whenever he visits, just as you could have done if none of this had happened. You’ll see him along with the rest of us, and try to put aside any unpleasant memories. He’ll be leaving Northamptonshire soon, so this minor sacrifice won’t be needed often. The future is very uncertain. And now, my dear Fanny, this topic is closed between us.”

The promised departure was all that Fanny could think of with much satisfaction. Her uncle’s kind expressions, however, and forbearing manner, were sensibly felt; and when she considered how much of the truth was unknown to him, she believed she had no right to wonder at the line of conduct he pursued. He, who had married a daughter to Mr. Rushworth: romantic delicacy was certainly not to be expected from him. She must do her duty, and trust that time might make her duty easier than it now was.

The promised departure was all Fanny could think about with great satisfaction. However, she could really feel her uncle's kind words and patient demeanor; and when she realized how much he didn't know, she thought she had no reason to question his behavior. After all, he had married a daughter off to Mr. Rushworth, so expecting any romantic sensitivity from him was really unrealistic. She had to do her duty and hope that over time, her duty would become easier than it was now.

She could not, though only eighteen, suppose Mr. Crawford’s attachment would hold out for ever; she could not but imagine that steady, unceasing discouragement from herself would put an end to it in time. How much time she might, in her own fancy, allot for its dominion, is another concern. It would not be fair to inquire into a young lady’s exact estimate of her own perfections.

She couldn’t believe that Mr. Crawford’s feelings would last forever, even at just eighteen; she figured that her constant and steady disinterest would eventually make him lose interest. How long she imagined that might take is a different matter. It wouldn’t be right to question a young woman’s true assessment of her own qualities.

In spite of his intended silence, Sir Thomas found himself once more obliged to mention the subject to his niece, to prepare her briefly for its being imparted to her aunts; a measure which he would still have avoided, if possible, but which became necessary from the totally opposite feelings of Mr. Crawford as to any secrecy of proceeding. He had no idea of concealment. It was all known at the Parsonage, where he loved to talk over the future with both his sisters, and it would be rather gratifying to him to have enlightened witnesses of the progress of his success. When Sir Thomas understood this, he felt the necessity of making his own wife and sister-in-law acquainted with the business without delay; though, on Fanny’s account, he almost dreaded the effect of the communication to Mrs. Norris as much as Fanny herself. He deprecated her mistaken but well-meaning zeal. Sir Thomas, indeed, was, by this time, not very far from classing Mrs. Norris as one of those well-meaning people who are always doing mistaken and very disagreeable things.

Despite his intention to stay silent, Sir Thomas found himself once again having to discuss the matter with his niece, to briefly prepare her for sharing it with her aunts. He would still have preferred to avoid this if he could, but it became necessary due to Mr. Crawford’s completely different approach to secrecy. He had no concept of hiding anything. Everyone at the Parsonage knew about it, where he liked to discuss the future with both his sisters, and it would be somewhat satisfying for him to have informed witnesses to his success. Once Sir Thomas realized this, he felt the urgent need to inform his own wife and sister-in-law about the situation without delay; however, for Fanny’s sake, he was almost as anxious about Mrs. Norris hearing the news as Fanny was herself. He disapproved of her misguided but well-meaning enthusiasm. By this point, Sir Thomas was close to considering Mrs. Norris one of those well-meaning individuals who are always making mistakes and doing rather unpleasant things.

Mrs. Norris, however, relieved him. He pressed for the strictest forbearance and silence towards their niece; she not only promised, but did observe it. She only looked her increased ill-will. Angry she was: bitterly angry; but she was more angry with Fanny for having received such an offer than for refusing it. It was an injury and affront to Julia, who ought to have been Mr. Crawford’s choice; and, independently of that, she disliked Fanny, because she had neglected her; and she would have grudged such an elevation to one whom she had been always trying to depress.

Mrs. Norris, however, eased his worries. He insisted on the strictest restraint and silence regarding their niece; she not only agreed but also followed through. She merely showed her growing resentment. She was angry—bitterly angry; but she was more upset with Fanny for having received such an offer than for turning it down. It was an insult and offense to Julia, who should have been Mr. Crawford’s choice; and aside from that, she disliked Fanny because she had ignored her; she would have begrudged such an elevation to someone she had always tried to bring down.

Sir Thomas gave her more credit for discretion on the occasion than she deserved; and Fanny could have blessed her for allowing her only to see her displeasure, and not to hear it.

Sir Thomas thought she was more careful than she really was; and Fanny could have thanked her for only showing her annoyance instead of saying it out loud.

Lady Bertram took it differently. She had been a beauty, and a prosperous beauty, all her life; and beauty and wealth were all that excited her respect. To know Fanny to be sought in marriage by a man of fortune, raised her, therefore, very much in her opinion. By convincing her that Fanny was very pretty, which she had been doubting about before, and that she would be advantageously married, it made her feel a sort of credit in calling her niece.

Lady Bertram viewed it differently. She had been attractive and wealthy her entire life; beauty and wealth were all that earned her respect. Knowing that Fanny was being pursued for marriage by a wealthy man significantly raised Fanny's status in her eyes. By persuading her that Fanny *was* indeed very pretty—something she had been uncertain about before—and that she would be well married, it gave her a sense of pride in referring to Fanny as her niece.

“Well, Fanny,” said she, as soon as they were alone together afterwards, and she really had known something like impatience to be alone with her, and her countenance, as she spoke, had extraordinary animation; “Well, Fanny, I have had a very agreeable surprise this morning. I must just speak of it once, I told Sir Thomas I must once, and then I shall have done. I give you joy, my dear niece.” And looking at her complacently, she added, “Humph, we certainly are a handsome family!”

“Well, Fanny,” she said, as soon as they were alone together later, and she really had felt a bit impatient to be alone with her, her expression full of excitement; “Well, Fanny, I had a really nice surprise this morning. I just have to mention it once, I told Sir Thomas I had to once, and then I’ll be done. I’m so happy for you, my dear niece.” And glancing at her with satisfaction, she added, “Humph, we really are a good-looking family!”

Fanny coloured, and doubted at first what to say; when, hoping to assail her on her vulnerable side, she presently answered—

Fanny blushed and wasn't sure what to say at first; then, hoping to hit her where she was most vulnerable, she quickly replied—

“My dear aunt, you cannot wish me to do differently from what I have done, I am sure. You cannot wish me to marry; for you would miss me, should not you? Yes, I am sure you would miss me too much for that.”

“My dear aunt, you can’t want me to do anything differently than I have. You can’t want me to get married; you would miss me, wouldn’t you? Yes, I’m sure you would miss me too much for that.”

“No, my dear, I should not think of missing you, when such an offer as this comes in your way. I could do very well without you, if you were married to a man of such good estate as Mr. Crawford. And you must be aware, Fanny, that it is every young woman’s duty to accept such a very unexceptionable offer as this.”

“No, my dear, I can’t imagine missing you when such an opportunity comes your way. I could manage just fine without you if you were married to a man with such a good background as Mr. Crawford. And you should know, Fanny, that it’s every young woman’s responsibility to accept such an outstanding offer as this.”

This was almost the only rule of conduct, the only piece of advice, which Fanny had ever received from her aunt in the course of eight years and a half. It silenced her. She felt how unprofitable contention would be. If her aunt’s feelings were against her, nothing could be hoped from attacking her understanding. Lady Bertram was quite talkative.

This was pretty much the only rule of behavior, the only advice, that Fanny had ever gotten from her aunt in eight and a half years. It shut her up. She realized how pointless arguing would be. If her aunt felt one way about things, there was no chance of changing her mind through reason. Lady Bertram was quite chatty.

“I will tell you what, Fanny,” said she, “I am sure he fell in love with you at the ball; I am sure the mischief was done that evening. You did look remarkably well. Everybody said so. Sir Thomas said so. And you know you had Chapman to help you to dress. I am very glad I sent Chapman to you. I shall tell Sir Thomas that I am sure it was done that evening.” And still pursuing the same cheerful thoughts, she soon afterwards added, “And I will tell you what, Fanny, which is more than I did for Maria: the next time Pug has a litter you shall have a puppy.”

“I’ll tell you something, Fanny,” she said, “I’m sure he fell in love with you at the ball; I’m convinced that’s when it happened. You looked amazing. Everyone said so. Sir Thomas said so. And you know you had Chapman to help you get ready. I’m really glad I sent Chapman to you. I’ll make sure to tell Sir Thomas that I’m sure it all started that evening.” Still caught up in her cheerful thoughts, she soon added, “And you know what, Fanny? Unlike what I did for Maria, the next time Pug has a litter, you can have a puppy.”

CHAPTER XXXIV

Edmund had great things to hear on his return. Many surprises were awaiting him. The first that occurred was not least in interest: the appearance of Henry Crawford and his sister walking together through the village as he rode into it. He had concluded—he had meant them to be far distant. His absence had been extended beyond a fortnight purposely to avoid Miss Crawford. He was returning to Mansfield with spirits ready to feed on melancholy remembrances, and tender associations, when her own fair self was before him, leaning on her brother’s arm, and he found himself receiving a welcome, unquestionably friendly, from the woman whom, two moments before, he had been thinking of as seventy miles off, and as farther, much farther, from him in inclination than any distance could express.

Edmund had plenty of exciting news awaiting him on his return. Many surprises were in store for him. The first one was especially interesting: he saw Henry Crawford and his sister walking together through the village as he rode in. He had assumed—they were supposed to be far away. He had deliberately extended his absence beyond two weeks to avoid Miss Crawford. He was coming back to Mansfield feeling ready to indulge in melancholy memories and sweet associations when there she was, right in front of him, leaning on her brother’s arm. He found himself receiving a welcome that was undeniably friendly from the woman he had just been thinking of as if she were seventy miles away, and much farther, in terms of feelings, than any distance could convey.

Her reception of him was of a sort which he could not have hoped for, had he expected to see her. Coming as he did from such a purport fulfilled as had taken him away, he would have expected anything rather than a look of satisfaction, and words of simple, pleasant meaning. It was enough to set his heart in a glow, and to bring him home in the properest state for feeling the full value of the other joyful surprises at hand.

Her reception of him was something he could never have anticipated, even if he had expected to see her. Coming back from a situation that had taken him away, he would have expected anything but a look of satisfaction and words that were straightforward and pleasant. It was enough to fill his heart with warmth and to prepare him to appreciate all the other joyful surprises waiting for him.

William’s promotion, with all its particulars, he was soon master of; and with such a secret provision of comfort within his own breast to help the joy, he found in it a source of most gratifying sensation and unvarying cheerfulness all dinner-time.

William quickly mastered all the details of his promotion, and with a personal sense of comfort to enhance his joy, he discovered it became a source of great satisfaction and constant happiness throughout dinner.

After dinner, when he and his father were alone, he had Fanny’s history; and then all the great events of the last fortnight, and the present situation of matters at Mansfield were known to him.

After dinner, when he and his father were alone, he learned about Fanny’s history; and then he was informed about all the significant events of the past two weeks, as well as the current situation in Mansfield.

Fanny suspected what was going on. They sat so much longer than usual in the dining-parlour, that she was sure they must be talking of her; and when tea at last brought them away, and she was to be seen by Edmund again, she felt dreadfully guilty. He came to her, sat down by her, took her hand, and pressed it kindly; and at that moment she thought that, but for the occupation and the scene which the tea-things afforded, she must have betrayed her emotion in some unpardonable excess.

Fanny had a feeling about what was happening. They lingered longer than usual in the dining room, and she was convinced they were discussing her; when tea finally drew them away and she saw Edmund again, she felt terribly guilty. He approached her, sat beside her, took her hand, and squeezed it gently; at that moment, she thought that if it wasn't for the distraction and the setting that the tea things provided, she would have revealed her feelings in some unforgivable way.

He was not intending, however, by such action, to be conveying to her that unqualified approbation and encouragement which her hopes drew from it. It was designed only to express his participation in all that interested her, and to tell her that he had been hearing what quickened every feeling of affection. He was, in fact, entirely on his father’s side of the question. His surprise was not so great as his father’s at her refusing Crawford, because, so far from supposing her to consider him with anything like a preference, he had always believed it to be rather the reverse, and could imagine her to be taken perfectly unprepared, but Sir Thomas could not regard the connexion as more desirable than he did. It had every recommendation to him; and while honouring her for what she had done under the influence of her present indifference, honouring her in rather stronger terms than Sir Thomas could quite echo, he was most earnest in hoping, and sanguine in believing, that it would be a match at last, and that, united by mutual affection, it would appear that their dispositions were as exactly fitted to make them blessed in each other, as he was now beginning seriously to consider them. Crawford had been too precipitate. He had not given her time to attach herself. He had begun at the wrong end. With such powers as his, however, and such a disposition as hers, Edmund trusted that everything would work out a happy conclusion. Meanwhile, he saw enough of Fanny’s embarrassment to make him scrupulously guard against exciting it a second time, by any word, or look, or movement.

He didn't mean to send her a message of total approval and encouragement that her hopes had drawn from his actions. He just wanted to show his support for everything that mattered to her and to let her know he was paying attention to what stirred his feelings for her. Actually, he was completely on his father's side of the argument. His surprise at her rejecting Crawford wasn’t as strong as his father's because he never thought she considered Crawford favorably; in fact, he believed it was the opposite and imagined she would be caught completely off-guard. But Sir Thomas couldn't see the connection as more desirable than Edmund did. It had everything going for it in his eyes. While he respected her for what she’d done due to her current indifference—more than Sir Thomas could fully appreciate—he was genuinely hopeful, and optimistic in his belief, that there would eventually be a match, and that, united by mutual affection, they were perfectly suited to make each other happy, as he was starting to seriously believe. Crawford had acted too hastily. He hadn’t given her enough time to develop feelings. He had started at the wrong end. But with Crawford’s charm and her nature, Edmund trusted that it would all lead to a happy ending. In the meantime, he noticed enough of Fanny’s discomfort to be especially careful not to provoke it again with any words, looks, or gestures.

Crawford called the next day, and on the score of Edmund’s return, Sir Thomas felt himself more than licensed to ask him to stay dinner; it was really a necessary compliment. He staid of course, and Edmund had then ample opportunity for observing how he sped with Fanny, and what degree of immediate encouragement for him might be extracted from her manners; and it was so little, so very, very little—every chance, every possibility of it, resting upon her embarrassment only; if there was not hope in her confusion, there was hope in nothing else—that he was almost ready to wonder at his friend’s perseverance. Fanny was worth it all; he held her to be worth every effort of patience, every exertion of mind, but he did not think he could have gone on himself with any woman breathing, without something more to warm his courage than his eyes could discern in hers. He was very willing to hope that Crawford saw clearer, and this was the most comfortable conclusion for his friend that he could come to from all that he observed to pass before, and at, and after dinner.

Crawford called the next day, and with Edmund back, Sir Thomas felt totally justified in asking him to stay for dinner; it was really a necessary gesture. He stayed, of course, and Edmund had plenty of chances to see how things were going with Fanny, and what kind of immediate encouragement he might get from her behavior; but it was so little, barely anything—every chance, every possibility resting solely on her embarrassment; if there was no hope in her confusion, there was hope in nothing else—that he began to question his friend’s persistence. Fanny was worth it all; he believed she deserved every bit of patience and mental effort, but he didn’t think he could keep going with any woman without something more to boost his confidence than what he could read in her eyes. He really hoped that Crawford had a clearer view, and this was the most reassuring conclusion he could draw from everything he observed before, during, and after dinner.

In the evening a few circumstances occurred which he thought more promising. When he and Crawford walked into the drawing-room, his mother and Fanny were sitting as intently and silently at work as if there were nothing else to care for. Edmund could not help noticing their apparently deep tranquillity.

In the evening, a few things happened that he found more encouraging. When he and Crawford walked into the living room, his mother and Fanny were sitting quietly and focused on their work as if there was nothing else that mattered. Edmund couldn't help but notice their calmness.

“We have not been so silent all the time,” replied his mother. “Fanny has been reading to me, and only put the book down upon hearing you coming.” And sure enough there was a book on the table which had the air of being very recently closed: a volume of Shakespeare. “She often reads to me out of those books; and she was in the middle of a very fine speech of that man’s—what’s his name, Fanny?—when we heard your footsteps.”

“We haven't been completely quiet all this time,” his mother replied. “Fanny was reading to me and only set the book down when she heard you coming.” And sure enough, there was a book on the table that looked like it had just been closed: a volume of Shakespeare. “She often reads those books to me, and she was in the middle of a really great speech by that guy—what's his name, Fanny?—when we heard you coming.”

Crawford took the volume. “Let me have the pleasure of finishing that speech to your ladyship,” said he. “I shall find it immediately.” And by carefully giving way to the inclination of the leaves, he did find it, or within a page or two, quite near enough to satisfy Lady Bertram, who assured him, as soon as he mentioned the name of Cardinal Wolsey, that he had got the very speech. Not a look or an offer of help had Fanny given; not a syllable for or against. All her attention was for her work. She seemed determined to be interested by nothing else. But taste was too strong in her. She could not abstract her mind five minutes: she was forced to listen; his reading was capital, and her pleasure in good reading extreme. To good reading, however, she had been long used: her uncle read well, her cousins all, Edmund very well, but in Mr. Crawford’s reading there was a variety of excellence beyond what she had ever met with. The King, the Queen, Buckingham, Wolsey, Cromwell, all were given in turn; for with the happiest knack, the happiest power of jumping and guessing, he could always alight at will on the best scene, or the best speeches of each; and whether it were dignity, or pride, or tenderness, or remorse, or whatever were to be expressed, he could do it with equal beauty. It was truly dramatic. His acting had first taught Fanny what pleasure a play might give, and his reading brought all his acting before her again; nay, perhaps with greater enjoyment, for it came unexpectedly, and with no such drawback as she had been used to suffer in seeing him on the stage with Miss Bertram.

Crawford took the book. “Let me finish that speech for you, my lady,” he said. “I’ll find it right away.” And by carefully flipping through the pages, he located it, or at least close enough for Lady Bertram, who told him as soon as he mentioned Cardinal Wolsey that he had found the exact speech. Fanny didn’t give a look or offer any help; she remained silent, focused entirely on her work. She seemed committed to ignoring everything else. But her sense of appreciation was too strong. She couldn’t keep her mind from wandering for five minutes; she had to listen. His reading was outstanding, and she derived immense pleasure from good reading. However, she was used to great reading: her uncle read well, her cousins all did, and Edmund was very good, but Mr. Crawford’s reading had a variety of excellence she had never experienced before. The King, the Queen, Buckingham, Wolsey, Cromwell—all were portrayed in turn; with a perfect knack for picking the most captivating scenes and speeches, he could always hit upon the best. Whether it was dignity, pride, tenderness, remorse, or whatever emotion was to be conveyed, he expressed it beautifully. It was truly theatrical. His acting had shown Fanny the joy of a play, and his reading brought all his performances back to her, perhaps with even more enjoyment since it was unexpected and without the distractions she usually faced when watching him on stage with Miss Bertram.

Edmund watched the progress of her attention, and was amused and gratified by seeing how she gradually slackened in the needlework, which at the beginning seemed to occupy her totally: how it fell from her hand while she sat motionless over it, and at last, how the eyes which had appeared so studiously to avoid him throughout the day were turned and fixed on Crawford—fixed on him for minutes, fixed on him, in short, till the attraction drew Crawford’s upon her, and the book was closed, and the charm was broken. Then she was shrinking again into herself, and blushing and working as hard as ever; but it had been enough to give Edmund encouragement for his friend, and as he cordially thanked him, he hoped to be expressing Fanny’s secret feelings too.

Edmund watched her attention shift, amused and pleased to see how she slowly lost focus on her needlework, which had seemed to completely engage her at first. He noticed it slipped from her hands as she sat there still, and eventually, the eyes that had deliberately avoided him all day were turned and fixated on Crawford—staring at him for minutes until Crawford noticed her too, closing the book and breaking the spell. After that, she curled back into herself, blushing and working just as hard as before; but it was enough to give Edmund hope for his friend, and as he gratefully thanked him, he believed he was also expressing Fanny’s hidden feelings.

“That play must be a favourite with you,” said he; “you read as if you knew it well.”

"That play must be one of your favorites," he said; "you read like you know it really well."

“It will be a favourite, I believe, from this hour,” replied Crawford; “but I do not think I have had a volume of Shakespeare in my hand before since I was fifteen. I once saw Henry the Eighth acted, or I have heard of it from somebody who did, I am not certain which. But Shakespeare one gets acquainted with without knowing how. It is a part of an Englishman’s constitution. His thoughts and beauties are so spread abroad that one touches them everywhere; one is intimate with him by instinct. No man of any brain can open at a good part of one of his plays without falling into the flow of his meaning immediately.”

“It’s going to be a favorite, I’m sure, from this moment on,” replied Crawford. “But I don’t think I’ve held a volume of Shakespeare since I was fifteen. I once saw Henry the Eighth performed, or maybe I just heard about it from someone who did; I’m not sure which. But you get to know Shakespeare without realizing it. It’s part of being English. His thoughts and beauty are so widespread that you encounter them everywhere; you have an instinctive familiarity with him. No intelligent person can open to a great part of one of his plays without quickly understanding the meaning.”

“No doubt one is familiar with Shakespeare in a degree,” said Edmund, “from one’s earliest years. His celebrated passages are quoted by everybody; they are in half the books we open, and we all talk Shakespeare, use his similes, and describe with his descriptions; but this is totally distinct from giving his sense as you gave it. To know him in bits and scraps is common enough; to know him pretty thoroughly is, perhaps, not uncommon; but to read him well aloud is no everyday talent.”

“No doubt one is somewhat familiar with Shakespeare,” said Edmund, “from our earliest years. His famous lines are quoted by everyone; they appear in half the books we read, and we all reference Shakespeare, use his comparisons, and describe things with his descriptions. But that’s completely different from conveying his meaning as you did. Knowing him in pieces and fragments is quite common; knowing him fairly well is not unusual; but reading him aloud skillfully is a rare talent.”

“Sir, you do me honour,” was Crawford’s answer, with a bow of mock gravity.

“Sir, you honor me,” Crawford replied, bowing in a sarcastically serious manner.

Both gentlemen had a glance at Fanny, to see if a word of accordant praise could be extorted from her; yet both feeling that it could not be. Her praise had been given in her attention; that must content them.

Both gentlemen glanced at Fanny, hoping to elicit a word of agreement or praise from her; yet both knew it wouldn't happen. Her approval had already been shown through her attention; that had to be enough for them.

Lady Bertram’s admiration was expressed, and strongly too. “It was really like being at a play,” said she. “I wish Sir Thomas had been here.”

Lady Bertram's admiration was clear, and she was quite strong about it. “It was just like being at a play,” she said. “I wish Sir Thomas had been here.”

Crawford was excessively pleased. If Lady Bertram, with all her incompetency and languor, could feel this, the inference of what her niece, alive and enlightened as she was, must feel, was elevating.

Crawford was extremely pleased. If Lady Bertram, despite her clumsiness and laziness, could feel this, then the implication of what her niece, vibrant and aware as she was, must feel was uplifting.

“You have a great turn for acting, I am sure, Mr. Crawford,” said her ladyship soon afterwards; “and I will tell you what, I think you will have a theatre, some time or other, at your house in Norfolk. I mean when you are settled there. I do indeed. I think you will fit up a theatre at your house in Norfolk.”

“You have a real talent for acting, I’m sure of it, Mr. Crawford,” her ladyship said soon after. “And I’ll tell you something, I believe you’ll have a theater at your house in Norfolk someday. I mean when you’re settled there. I really do. I think you’ll set up a theater at your place in Norfolk.”

“Do you, ma’am?” cried he, with quickness. “No, no, that will never be. Your ladyship is quite mistaken. No theatre at Everingham! Oh no!” And he looked at Fanny with an expressive smile, which evidently meant, “That lady will never allow a theatre at Everingham.”

“Do you, ma’am?” he exclaimed quickly. “No, no, that will never happen. Your ladyship is completely mistaken. No theater at Everingham! Oh no!” And he glanced at Fanny with a knowing smile, which clearly meant, “That lady will never permit a theater at Everingham.”

Edmund saw it all, and saw Fanny so determined not to see it, as to make it clear that the voice was enough to convey the full meaning of the protestation; and such a quick consciousness of compliment, such a ready comprehension of a hint, he thought, was rather favourable than not.

Edmund saw everything and noticed how Fanny was so determined not to see it that it became clear to him that her voice was enough to express the full meaning of the protest; and he thought that her quick awareness of flattery and her ability to grasp a hint were actually more positive than negative.

The subject of reading aloud was farther discussed. The two young men were the only talkers, but they, standing by the fire, talked over the too common neglect of the qualification, the total inattention to it, in the ordinary school-system for boys, the consequently natural, yet in some instances almost unnatural, degree of ignorance and uncouthness of men, of sensible and well-informed men, when suddenly called to the necessity of reading aloud, which had fallen within their notice, giving instances of blunders, and failures with their secondary causes, the want of management of the voice, of proper modulation and emphasis, of foresight and judgment, all proceeding from the first cause: want of early attention and habit; and Fanny was listening again with great entertainment.

The topic of reading aloud was discussed further. The two young men were the only speakers, and as they stood by the fire, they talked about the common neglect of this skill and the complete lack of attention to it in the typical school system for boys. This neglect resulted in a level of ignorance and awkwardness, even among sensible and well-informed men, when they suddenly had to read aloud. They shared examples of mistakes and failures, and their underlying causes: a lack of voice control, proper modulation and emphasis, foresight, and judgment, all stemming from one major issue—insufficient early attention and practice. Fanny listened intently, clearly entertained.

“Even in my profession,” said Edmund, with a smile, “how little the art of reading has been studied! how little a clear manner, and good delivery, have been attended to! I speak rather of the past, however, than the present. There is now a spirit of improvement abroad; but among those who were ordained twenty, thirty, forty years ago, the larger number, to judge by their performance, must have thought reading was reading, and preaching was preaching. It is different now. The subject is more justly considered. It is felt that distinctness and energy may have weight in recommending the most solid truths; and besides, there is more general observation and taste, a more critical knowledge diffused than formerly; in every congregation there is a larger proportion who know a little of the matter, and who can judge and criticise.”

“Even in my profession,” said Edmund, smiling, “it's surprising how little the art of reading has been valued! How little attention has been given to clear expression and good delivery! I’m mostly referring to the past, though, rather than the present. There's a spirit of improvement around now; but among those who were ordained twenty, thirty, or even forty years ago, the majority, judging by their performances, seemed to think that reading was just reading and preaching was just preaching. It's different now. The subject is given more serious consideration. People recognize that clarity and energy can greatly enhance the impact of even the most solid truths. Plus, there's a broader understanding and taste, with a more critical knowledge spread out compared to before; in every congregation, there's a larger group who know a bit about the subject and can judge and critique.”

Edmund had already gone through the service once since his ordination; and upon this being understood, he had a variety of questions from Crawford as to his feelings and success; questions, which being made, though with the vivacity of friendly interest and quick taste, without any touch of that spirit of banter or air of levity which Edmund knew to be most offensive to Fanny, he had true pleasure in satisfying; and when Crawford proceeded to ask his opinion and give his own as to the properest manner in which particular passages in the service should be delivered, shewing it to be a subject on which he had thought before, and thought with judgment, Edmund was still more and more pleased. This would be the way to Fanny’s heart. She was not to be won by all that gallantry and wit and good-nature together could do; or, at least, she would not be won by them nearly so soon, without the assistance of sentiment and feeling, and seriousness on serious subjects.

Edmund had already gone through the service once since he was ordained; and once this was understood, Crawford had a lot of questions about his feelings and success. Although Crawford asked these questions with enthusiasm and genuine interest, and without any hint of mockery or light-heartedness—which Edmund knew Fanny found especially off-putting—he found real joy in answering them. When Crawford went on to ask for his opinion and share his own thoughts on the best way to deliver specific passages in the service, showing he had actually thought about the topic with care, Edmund felt even more pleased. This was the way to win Fanny's heart. She wouldn’t be won over by all the charm, wit, and goodwill in the world; or at least, she wouldn’t be swayed nearly as quickly without a touch of sentiment, emotion, and seriousness regarding serious matters.

“Our liturgy,” observed Crawford, “has beauties, which not even a careless, slovenly style of reading can destroy; but it has also redundancies and repetitions which require good reading not to be felt. For myself, at least, I must confess being not always so attentive as I ought to be” (here was a glance at Fanny); “that nineteen times out of twenty I am thinking how such a prayer ought to be read, and longing to have it to read myself. Did you speak?” stepping eagerly to Fanny, and addressing her in a softened voice; and upon her saying “No,” he added, “Are you sure you did not speak? I saw your lips move. I fancied you might be going to tell me I ought to be more attentive, and not allow my thoughts to wander. Are not you going to tell me so?”

“Our liturgy,” Crawford noted, “has its beauty that even a careless, sloppy reading can’t ruin; but it also has redundancies and repetitions that good reading can help avoid feeling. Personally, I have to admit that I’m not always as focused as I should be” (this was a glance at Fanny); “that nineteen times out of twenty, I’m thinking about how such a prayer should be read and wishing I could read it myself. Did you say something?” he said, stepping eagerly toward Fanny and speaking in a softer tone. When she replied, “No,” he continued, “Are you sure you didn’t say anything? I saw your lips move. I thought you might be about to tell me I should pay more attention and not let my mind wander. Aren’t you going to tell me that?”

“No, indeed, you know your duty too well for me to—even supposing—”

“No, really, you know your duty too well for me to—even if I were to—”

She stopt, felt herself getting into a puzzle, and could not be prevailed on to add another word, not by dint of several minutes of supplication and waiting. He then returned to his former station, and went on as if there had been no such tender interruption.

She stopped, realized she was getting caught up in a complicated situation, and couldn’t be convinced to say another word, even after several minutes of pleading and waiting. He then went back to his previous position and continued as if there hadn’t been any such emotional interruption.

“A sermon, well delivered, is more uncommon even than prayers well read. A sermon, good in itself, is no rare thing. It is more difficult to speak well than to compose well; that is, the rules and trick of composition are oftener an object of study. A thoroughly good sermon, thoroughly well delivered, is a capital gratification. I can never hear such a one without the greatest admiration and respect, and more than half a mind to take orders and preach myself. There is something in the eloquence of the pulpit, when it is really eloquence, which is entitled to the highest praise and honour. The preacher who can touch and affect such an heterogeneous mass of hearers, on subjects limited, and long worn threadbare in all common hands; who can say anything new or striking, anything that rouses the attention without offending the taste, or wearing out the feelings of his hearers, is a man whom one could not, in his public capacity, honour enough. I should like to be such a man.”

“A well-delivered sermon is even rarer than prayers being read well. A good sermon isn't that hard to come by. Speaking well is more challenging than writing well; the rules and techniques of writing are often what we study more. A truly good sermon, delivered exceptionally well, is a great pleasure. I can never listen to one like that without feeling immense admiration and respect, and a strong urge to take orders and preach myself. There’s something about the eloquence of the pulpit, when it’s truly eloquent, that deserves the highest praise and honor. The preacher who can engage and influence such a diverse audience on topics that are limited and often overdone by others, who can say anything new or impactful, anything that captures attention without offending sensibilities or exhausting the emotions of their listeners, is someone whose public role deserves the highest respect. I would love to be that kind of person.”

Edmund laughed.

Edmund chuckled.

“I should indeed. I never listened to a distinguished preacher in my life without a sort of envy. But then, I must have a London audience. I could not preach but to the educated; to those who were capable of estimating my composition. And I do not know that I should be fond of preaching often; now and then, perhaps once or twice in the spring, after being anxiously expected for half a dozen Sundays together; but not for a constancy; it would not do for a constancy.”

“I definitely should. I've never listened to a distinguished preacher in my life without feeling a bit envious. But, I need a London audience. I couldn’t preach to anyone but the educated; to those who can appreciate my work. And I’m not sure I’d enjoy preaching regularly; maybe once or twice in the spring, after being eagerly awaited for several Sundays in a row; but not consistently; that just wouldn’t work for me.”

Here Fanny, who could not but listen, involuntarily shook her head, and Crawford was instantly by her side again, entreating to know her meaning; and as Edmund perceived, by his drawing in a chair, and sitting down close by her, that it was to be a very thorough attack, that looks and undertones were to be well tried, he sank as quietly as possible into a corner, turned his back, and took up a newspaper, very sincerely wishing that dear little Fanny might be persuaded into explaining away that shake of the head to the satisfaction of her ardent lover; and as earnestly trying to bury every sound of the business from himself in murmurs of his own, over the various advertisements of “A most desirable Estate in South Wales”; “To Parents and Guardians”; and a “Capital season’d Hunter.”

Here, Fanny, who couldn't help but listen, shook her head involuntarily. Crawford was immediately by her side again, asking for clarification on what she meant. Edmund noticed Crawford pulling up a chair and sitting down close to her, realizing it was going to be a full-on conversation, with looks and undertones being tested. He quietly sank into a corner, turned his back, and picked up a newspaper, genuinely hoping that dear little Fanny would find a way to explain that head shake to satisfy her eager admirer. At the same time, he focused on drowning out the sounds of their conversation with his own murmurs as he browsed through various ads for “A most desirable Estate in South Wales,” “To Parents and Guardians,” and a “Capital seasoned Hunter.”

Fanny, meanwhile, vexed with herself for not having been as motionless as she was speechless, and grieved to the heart to see Edmund’s arrangements, was trying by everything in the power of her modest, gentle nature, to repulse Mr. Crawford, and avoid both his looks and inquiries; and he, unrepulsable, was persisting in both.

Fanny, frustrated with herself for not being as still as she was silent, and deeply hurt by Edmund’s plans, was trying with all the strength of her modest and gentle nature to push away Mr. Crawford and avoid both his gaze and questions; but he, impossible to deter, kept on with both.

“What did that shake of the head mean?” said he. “What was it meant to express? Disapprobation, I fear. But of what? What had I been saying to displease you? Did you think me speaking improperly, lightly, irreverently on the subject? Only tell me if I was. Only tell me if I was wrong. I want to be set right. Nay, nay, I entreat you; for one moment put down your work. What did that shake of the head mean?”

“What did that head shake mean?” he asked. “What was it supposed to express? Disapproval, I’m afraid. But about what? What was I saying that upset you? Did you think I was speaking inappropriately, casually, or disrespectfully about the topic? Just tell me if I was. Just tell me if I was wrong. I want to be corrected. Please, I beg you; for just a moment, put down your work. What did that head shake mean?”

In vain was her “Pray, sir, don’t; pray, Mr. Crawford,” repeated twice over; and in vain did she try to move away. In the same low, eager voice, and the same close neighbourhood, he went on, reurging the same questions as before. She grew more agitated and displeased.

In vain was her “Please, sir, don’t; please, Mr. Crawford,” repeated twice; and in vain did she try to pull away. In the same quiet, eager voice, and the same close proximity, he continued to press the same questions as before. She became more upset and annoyed.

“How can you, sir? You quite astonish me; I wonder how you can—”

“How can you, sir? You really surprise me; I’m curious how you can—”

“Do I astonish you?” said he. “Do you wonder? Is there anything in my present entreaty that you do not understand? I will explain to you instantly all that makes me urge you in this manner, all that gives me an interest in what you look and do, and excites my present curiosity. I will not leave you to wonder long.”

“Am I surprising you?” he asked. “Are you curious? Is there anything about what I'm asking that you don’t get? I’ll quickly explain everything that makes me push you like this, everything that gets me interested in what you say and do, and fuels my current curiosity. I won't keep you wondering for long.”

In spite of herself, she could not help half a smile, but she said nothing.

In spite of herself, she couldn't help but smile a little, but she said nothing.

“You shook your head at my acknowledging that I should not like to engage in the duties of a clergyman always for a constancy. Yes, that was the word. Constancy: I am not afraid of the word. I would spell it, read it, write it with anybody. I see nothing alarming in the word. Did you think I ought?”

“You shook your head at my admission that I wouldn’t want to take on the responsibilities of a clergyman all the time. Yes, that was the word. Constancy: I’m not afraid of that word. I would spell it, read it, and write it with anyone. I don’t see anything scary about it. Did you think I should?”

“Perhaps, sir,” said Fanny, wearied at last into speaking—“perhaps, sir, I thought it was a pity you did not always know yourself as well as you seemed to do at that moment.”

“Maybe, sir,” Fanny said, finally tired enough to speak—“maybe, sir, I thought it was a shame you didn’t always understand yourself as well as you seemed to at that moment.”

Crawford, delighted to get her to speak at any rate, was determined to keep it up; and poor Fanny, who had hoped to silence him by such an extremity of reproof, found herself sadly mistaken, and that it was only a change from one object of curiosity and one set of words to another. He had always something to entreat the explanation of. The opportunity was too fair. None such had occurred since his seeing her in her uncle’s room, none such might occur again before his leaving Mansfield. Lady Bertram’s being just on the other side of the table was a trifle, for she might always be considered as only half-awake, and Edmund’s advertisements were still of the first utility.

Crawford, thrilled to get her to talk anyway, was determined to keep the conversation going; and poor Fanny, who had hoped to shut him down with such a severe reprimand, found herself sadly mistaken, realizing it was just a switch from one source of curiosity and one set of words to another. He always had something to ask her about. The chance was too good to pass up. None like it had come up since he saw her in her uncle’s room, and there might not be another before he left Mansfield. Lady Bertram sitting right across the table was a minor issue, as she could always be seen as half-asleep, and Edmund’s suggestions were still very useful.

“Well,” said Crawford, after a course of rapid questions and reluctant answers; “I am happier than I was, because I now understand more clearly your opinion of me. You think me unsteady: easily swayed by the whim of the moment, easily tempted, easily put aside. With such an opinion, no wonder that—But we shall see.—It is not by protestations that I shall endeavour to convince you I am wronged; it is not by telling you that my affections are steady. My conduct shall speak for me; absence, distance, time shall speak for me. They shall prove that, as far as you can be deserved by anybody, I do deserve you. You are infinitely my superior in merit; all that I know. You have qualities which I had not before supposed to exist in such a degree in any human creature. You have some touches of the angel in you beyond what—not merely beyond what one sees, because one never sees anything like it—but beyond what one fancies might be. But still I am not frightened. It is not by equality of merit that you can be won. That is out of the question. It is he who sees and worships your merit the strongest, who loves you most devotedly, that has the best right to a return. There I build my confidence. By that right I do and will deserve you; and when once convinced that my attachment is what I declare it, I know you too well not to entertain the warmest hopes. Yes, dearest, sweetest Fanny. Nay” (seeing her draw back displeased), “forgive me. Perhaps I have as yet no right; but by what other name can I call you? Do you suppose you are ever present to my imagination under any other? No, it is ‘Fanny’ that I think of all day, and dream of all night. You have given the name such reality of sweetness, that nothing else can now be descriptive of you.”

“Well,” Crawford said after a series of quick questions and hesitant answers, “I’m happier than I was because I now understand your opinion of me more clearly. You think I’m unreliable: easily swayed by passing fancies, easily tempted, easily brushed aside. With such an opinion, it’s no wonder that—But we’ll see. It’s not by protests that I’ll try to convince you I’m wronged; it’s not by telling you that my feelings are steadfast. My actions will speak for me; absence, distance, and time will speak for me. They will prove that, as far as anyone can deserve you, I do deserve you. You are far superior to me in worth; I recognize that. You have qualities I never thought could exist to such a degree in any human being. You have touches of an angel that go beyond what—not just beyond what one sees, since one never sees anything like it—but beyond what one might imagine. Yet I’m not scared. It’s not equal merit that wins you over. That’s out of the question. It’s the one who admires your worth the most, who loves you most sincerely, that has the best right to expect a return. That’s where I find my confidence. By that right, I do and will deserve you; and once convinced that my feelings are what I say they are, I know you well enough not to harbor anything but the warmest hopes. Yes, dearest, sweetest Fanny. No” (seeing her pull away, displeased), “forgive me. Maybe I don’t have the right yet, but what other name can I call you? Do you think of yourself in any other way? No, it’s ‘Fanny’ that I think of all day and dream of all night. You’ve given that name such a sweet reality that nothing else can truly describe you.”

Fanny could hardly have kept her seat any longer, or have refrained from at least trying to get away in spite of all the too public opposition she foresaw to it, had it not been for the sound of approaching relief, the very sound which she had been long watching for, and long thinking strangely delayed.

Fanny could barely stay in her seat any longer, or hold back from at least trying to leave despite all the very public objections she anticipated, if it weren't for the sound of help approaching, the same sound she had been waiting for and had oddly thought was taking too long to arrive.

The solemn procession, headed by Baddeley, of tea-board, urn, and cake-bearers, made its appearance, and delivered her from a grievous imprisonment of body and mind. Mr. Crawford was obliged to move. She was at liberty, she was busy, she was protected.

The serious procession, led by Baddeley, with the tea tray, urn, and cake servers, showed up and freed her from a heavy confinement of body and mind. Mr. Crawford had to leave. She was free, she was occupied, she was safe.

Edmund was not sorry to be admitted again among the number of those who might speak and hear. But though the conference had seemed full long to him, and though on looking at Fanny he saw rather a flush of vexation, he inclined to hope that so much could not have been said and listened to without some profit to the speaker.

Edmund was glad to be welcomed back into the group of those who could speak and be heard. Even though the discussion felt long to him, and he noticed a hint of annoyance on Fanny's face, he hoped that so much had been said and listened to that it had to have been useful for the speaker.

CHAPTER XXXV

Edmund had determined that it belonged entirely to Fanny to chuse whether her situation with regard to Crawford should be mentioned between them or not; and that if she did not lead the way, it should never be touched on by him; but after a day or two of mutual reserve, he was induced by his father to change his mind, and try what his influence might do for his friend.

Edmund had decided that it was entirely up to Fanny to choose whether to bring up her situation with Crawford between them or not; and if she didn’t take the lead, he wouldn’t mention it either. But after a day or two of mutual silence, his father encouraged him to change his mind and see if he could help his friend.

A day, and a very early day, was actually fixed for the Crawfords’ departure; and Sir Thomas thought it might be as well to make one more effort for the young man before he left Mansfield, that all his professions and vows of unshaken attachment might have as much hope to sustain them as possible.

A day, and a very early day, was actually set for the Crawfords’ departure; and Sir Thomas thought it might be a good idea to make one more effort for the young man before he left Mansfield, so that all his promises and vows of unwavering loyalty could have as much hope to support them as possible.

Sir Thomas was most cordially anxious for the perfection of Mr. Crawford’s character in that point. He wished him to be a model of constancy; and fancied the best means of effecting it would be by not trying him too long.

Sir Thomas was really eager for Mr. Crawford to be perfect in that regard. He wanted him to be a model of loyalty and thought the best way to achieve that was by not testing him for too long.

Edmund was not unwilling to be persuaded to engage in the business; he wanted to know Fanny’s feelings. She had been used to consult him in every difficulty, and he loved her too well to bear to be denied her confidence now; he hoped to be of service to her, he thought he must be of service to her; whom else had she to open her heart to? If she did not need counsel, she must need the comfort of communication. Fanny estranged from him, silent and reserved, was an unnatural state of things; a state which he must break through, and which he could easily learn to think she was wanting him to break through.

Edmund was open to being persuaded to get involved in the matter; he wanted to understand Fanny’s feelings. She had always turned to him for help in every difficulty, and he cared for her too much to accept being shut out now; he wanted to be of help to her, and he believed he had to be of help to her. Who else could she confide in? Even if she didn’t need advice, she must still crave the comfort of talking to someone. Fanny being distant, quiet, and reserved felt wrong; it was a situation he needed to change, and he could easily convince himself that she wanted him to change it.

“I will speak to her, sir: I will take the first opportunity of speaking to her alone,” was the result of such thoughts as these; and upon Sir Thomas’s information of her being at that very time walking alone in the shrubbery, he instantly joined her.

“I’ll talk to her, sir: I’ll take the first chance to speak with her alone,” was the outcome of thoughts like these; and when Sir Thomas informed him that she was at that moment walking alone in the shrubbery, he immediately joined her.

“I am come to walk with you, Fanny,” said he. “Shall I?” Drawing her arm within his. “It is a long while since we have had a comfortable walk together.”

“I've come to walk with you, Fanny,” he said. “Shall I?” He linked his arm with hers. “It's been a long time since we've had a nice walk together.”

She assented to it all rather by look than word. Her spirits were low.

She agreed to it all more with her expression than with words. She was feeling down.

“But, Fanny,” he presently added, “in order to have a comfortable walk, something more is necessary than merely pacing this gravel together. You must talk to me. I know you have something on your mind. I know what you are thinking of. You cannot suppose me uninformed. Am I to hear of it from everybody but Fanny herself?”

“But, Fanny,” he soon added, “to have a comfortable walk, we need more than just walking on this gravel path. You have to talk to me. I know you have something on your mind. I know what you're thinking. You can't think I’m not aware of it. Am I supposed to hear about it from everyone else except Fanny herself?”

Fanny, at once agitated and dejected, replied, “If you hear of it from everybody, cousin, there can be nothing for me to tell.”

Fanny, feeling both anxious and down, replied, “If everyone else is talking about it, cousin, there's really nothing for me to share.”

“Not of facts, perhaps; but of feelings, Fanny. No one but you can tell me them. I do not mean to press you, however. If it is not what you wish yourself, I have done. I had thought it might be a relief.”

“Not facts, maybe; but feelings, Fanny. No one but you can share them with me. I don't want to pressure you, though. If it’s not what you want, I’m done. I just thought it might be a relief.”

“I am afraid we think too differently for me to find any relief in talking of what I feel.”

“I’m afraid we think too differently for me to find any comfort in talking about how I feel.”

“Do you suppose that we think differently? I have no idea of it. I dare say that, on a comparison of our opinions, they would be found as much alike as they have been used to be: to the point—I consider Crawford’s proposals as most advantageous and desirable, if you could return his affection. I consider it as most natural that all your family should wish you could return it; but that, as you cannot, you have done exactly as you ought in refusing him. Can there be any disagreement between us here?”

“Do you think we have different opinions? I really don’t know. I bet that if we compared our views, they would seem as similar as they used to be. To the point—I see Crawford’s proposals as very beneficial and desirable, if only you could return his feelings. I think it’s perfectly natural for your family to wish you could, but since you can’t, you’ve done exactly the right thing by rejecting him. Is there any disagreement between us on this?”

“Oh no! But I thought you blamed me. I thought you were against me. This is such a comfort!”

"Oh no! But I thought you held me responsible. I thought you were on the opposite side. This is such a relief!"

“This comfort you might have had sooner, Fanny, had you sought it. But how could you possibly suppose me against you? How could you imagine me an advocate for marriage without love? Were I even careless in general on such matters, how could you imagine me so where your happiness was at stake?”

“This comfort you could have had earlier, Fanny, if you had looked for it. But how could you think I was against you? How could you believe I would support marriage without love? Even if I were generally indifferent about such things, how could you think I would be when your happiness was involved?”

“My uncle thought me wrong, and I knew he had been talking to you.”

“My uncle thought I was wrong, and I knew he had been talking to you.”

“As far as you have gone, Fanny, I think you perfectly right. I may be sorry, I may be surprised—though hardly that, for you had not had time to attach yourself—but I think you perfectly right. Can it admit of a question? It is disgraceful to us if it does. You did not love him; nothing could have justified your accepting him.”

“As far as you've come, Fanny, I think you’re completely right. I might feel sorry, I might be surprised—though hardly that, because you didn't have time to get attached—but I think you’re completely right. Is there any question about it? It would be shameful for us if there is. You didn't love him; nothing could have justified you accepting him.”

Fanny had not felt so comfortable for days and days.

Fanny hadn't felt this comfortable in days.

“So far your conduct has been faultless, and they were quite mistaken who wished you to do otherwise. But the matter does not end here. Crawford’s is no common attachment; he perseveres, with the hope of creating that regard which had not been created before. This, we know, must be a work of time. But” (with an affectionate smile) “let him succeed at last, Fanny, let him succeed at last. You have proved yourself upright and disinterested, prove yourself grateful and tender-hearted; and then you will be the perfect model of a woman which I have always believed you born for.”

“So far, your behavior has been flawless, and those who expected you to act differently were completely wrong. But it doesn’t stop here. Crawford’s feelings are no ordinary infatuation; he’s persistent, hoping to build a connection that hasn’t existed before. We know this will take time. But” (with a warm smile) “let him succeed in the end, Fanny, let him succeed in the end. You have shown yourself to be honest and selfless; now show that you’re grateful and kind-hearted, and then you will be the ideal woman I’ve always believed you were meant to be.”

“Oh! never, never, never! he never will succeed with me.” And she spoke with a warmth which quite astonished Edmund, and which she blushed at the recollection of herself, when she saw his look, and heard him reply, “Never! Fanny!—so very determined and positive! This is not like yourself, your rational self.”

“Oh! never, never, never! He will never succeed with me.” And she spoke with a passion that surprised Edmund, and which made her blush when she remembered it herself, as she saw his expression and heard him respond, “Never! Fanny!—so very resolute and certain! This isn't like you, your rational self.”

“I mean,” she cried, sorrowfully correcting herself, “that I think I never shall, as far as the future can be answered for; I think I never shall return his regard.”

“I mean,” she said, correcting herself sadly, “that I think I never will, as far as the future can be predicted; I think I never will return his feelings.”

“I must hope better things. I am aware, more aware than Crawford can be, that the man who means to make you love him (you having due notice of his intentions) must have very uphill work, for there are all your early attachments and habits in battle array; and before he can get your heart for his own use he has to unfasten it from all the holds upon things animate and inanimate, which so many years’ growth have confirmed, and which are considerably tightened for the moment by the very idea of separation. I know that the apprehension of being forced to quit Mansfield will for a time be arming you against him. I wish he had not been obliged to tell you what he was trying for. I wish he had known you as well as I do, Fanny. Between us, I think we should have won you. My theoretical and his practical knowledge together could not have failed. He should have worked upon my plans. I must hope, however, that time, proving him (as I firmly believe it will) to deserve you by his steady affection, will give him his reward. I cannot suppose that you have not the wish to love him—the natural wish of gratitude. You must have some feeling of that sort. You must be sorry for your own indifference.”

"I have to hope for better things. I understand, more than Crawford does, that a guy who wants you to love him (especially when you’re aware of his intentions) has a tough challenge ahead. Your past attachments and habits are standing in his way, and before he can truly have your heart, he needs to break the connections you have with all the people and things that have mattered to you over the years, which are currently being tightened by the very idea of leaving Mansfield. I know that the fear of having to leave is making you resistant to him. I wish he hadn't had to reveal what he was aiming for. I wish he understood you as well as I do, Fanny. If it had just been the two of us, I think we could have won you over. My theoretical insights and his practical approach combined would have worked. He should have gone along with my ideas. Still, I hope that in time, as he proves himself (which I truly believe he will) to be worthy of you through his constant affection, he will be rewarded. I can’t believe you don’t have the wish to love him—the natural wish that comes from gratitude. You must feel something like that. You must regret your own indifference."

“We are so totally unlike,” said Fanny, avoiding a direct answer, “we are so very, very different in all our inclinations and ways, that I consider it as quite impossible we should ever be tolerably happy together, even if I could like him. There never were two people more dissimilar. We have not one taste in common. We should be miserable.”

"We are so completely different," Fanny said, dodging a direct answer, "we have such contrasting preferences and behaviors that I really think it’s impossible for us to be truly happy together, even if I could like him. There have never been two people more unlike each other. We don’t share a single interest. We would be miserable."

“You are mistaken, Fanny. The dissimilarity is not so strong. You are quite enough alike. You have tastes in common. You have moral and literary tastes in common. You have both warm hearts and benevolent feelings; and, Fanny, who that heard him read, and saw you listen to Shakespeare the other night, will think you unfitted as companions? You forget yourself: there is a decided difference in your tempers, I allow. He is lively, you are serious; but so much the better: his spirits will support yours. It is your disposition to be easily dejected and to fancy difficulties greater than they are. His cheerfulness will counteract this. He sees difficulties nowhere: and his pleasantness and gaiety will be a constant support to you. Your being so far unlike, Fanny, does not in the smallest degree make against the probability of your happiness together: do not imagine it. I am myself convinced that it is rather a favourable circumstance. I am perfectly persuaded that the tempers had better be unlike: I mean unlike in the flow of the spirits, in the manners, in the inclination for much or little company, in the propensity to talk or to be silent, to be grave or to be gay. Some opposition here is, I am thoroughly convinced, friendly to matrimonial happiness. I exclude extremes, of course; and a very close resemblance in all those points would be the likeliest way to produce an extreme. A counteraction, gentle and continual, is the best safeguard of manners and conduct.”

"You’re wrong, Fanny. The differences aren’t that significant. You have enough in common. You share similar moral and literary tastes. You both have warm hearts and kind feelings; and, Fanny, who heard him read and saw you listen to Shakespeare the other night would think you’re unsuited as companions? You’re not considering everything: I admit there’s a definite difference in your temperaments. He’s lively, while you’re serious; but that’s a good thing: his energy will lift yours. You tend to get easily down and see problems as bigger than they are. His cheerfulness will help with that. He sees problems as minor: his pleasantness and joy will always support you. The fact that you’re somewhat different, Fanny, doesn’t at all lessen the chances of your happiness together; don’t think that. I’m convinced it could actually be a positive factor. I firmly believe that it’s better for temperaments to be different: I mean different in how energetic they are, in their manners, in their preference for socializing, in their tendency to talk or be quiet, to be serious or lighthearted. I truly believe that some contrast in these areas is beneficial for a happy marriage. Of course, I’m excluding extremes; too much similarity in all these aspects could lead to excessive behavior. A gentle and consistent counterbalance is the best safeguard for behavior and conduct."

Full well could Fanny guess where his thoughts were now: Miss Crawford’s power was all returning. He had been speaking of her cheerfully from the hour of his coming home. His avoiding her was quite at an end. He had dined at the Parsonage only the preceding day.

Full well could Fanny guess where his thoughts were now: Miss Crawford’s influence was coming back strong. He had been talking about her positively since he got home. His attempts to avoid her were completely over. He had just had dinner at the Parsonage the day before.

After leaving him to his happier thoughts for some minutes, Fanny, feeling it due to herself, returned to Mr. Crawford, and said, “It is not merely in temper that I consider him as totally unsuited to myself; though, in that respect, I think the difference between us too great, infinitely too great: his spirits often oppress me; but there is something in him which I object to still more. I must say, cousin, that I cannot approve his character. I have not thought well of him from the time of the play. I then saw him behaving, as it appeared to me, so very improperly and unfeelingly—I may speak of it now because it is all over—so improperly by poor Mr. Rushworth, not seeming to care how he exposed or hurt him, and paying attentions to my cousin Maria, which—in short, at the time of the play, I received an impression which will never be got over.”

After giving him a few minutes to enjoy his happier thoughts, Fanny, feeling it was important to herself, went back to Mr. Crawford and said, “It’s not just in temper that I find him completely unsuitable for me; though, in that way, I think the difference between us is too vast, infinitely too vast: his energy often overwhelms me; but there’s something about him that I find even more objectionable. I must say, cousin, that I can’t approve of his character. I haven’t thought well of him since the time of the play. I saw him behaving, as it seemed to me, very improperly and without feeling—I can talk about it now since it’s all behind us—so improperly towards poor Mr. Rushworth, not caring how he exposed or hurt him, and paying attention to my cousin Maria, which—in short, during the play, I formed an impression that I’ll never be able to shake off.”

“My dear Fanny,” replied Edmund, scarcely hearing her to the end, “let us not, any of us, be judged by what we appeared at that period of general folly. The time of the play is a time which I hate to recollect. Maria was wrong, Crawford was wrong, we were all wrong together; but none so wrong as myself. Compared with me, all the rest were blameless. I was playing the fool with my eyes open.”

“My dear Fanny,” replied Edmund, barely hearing her out, “let’s not judge any of us by how we acted during that time of general foolishness. I hate to think back to that time of the play. Maria was wrong, Crawford was wrong, we were all wrong together; but I was the most wrong of all. Compared to me, everyone else was blameless. I was being a fool while fully aware of it.”

“As a bystander,” said Fanny, “perhaps I saw more than you did; and I do think that Mr. Rushworth was sometimes very jealous.”

“As an observer,” Fanny said, “maybe I noticed more than you did; and I do believe that Mr. Rushworth was often quite jealous.”

“Very possibly. No wonder. Nothing could be more improper than the whole business. I am shocked whenever I think that Maria could be capable of it; but, if she could undertake the part, we must not be surprised at the rest.”

“Probably. No surprise there. Nothing could be more inappropriate than the whole situation. I’m stunned whenever I consider that Maria could be capable of this; but if she could take on that role, we shouldn't be shocked by anything else.”

“Before the play, I am much mistaken if Julia did not think he was paying her attentions.”

“Before the play, I’d be surprised if Julia didn’t think he was showing her some interest.”

“Julia! I have heard before from some one of his being in love with Julia; but I could never see anything of it. And, Fanny, though I hope I do justice to my sisters’ good qualities, I think it very possible that they might, one or both, be more desirous of being admired by Crawford, and might shew that desire rather more unguardedly than was perfectly prudent. I can remember that they were evidently fond of his society; and with such encouragement, a man like Crawford, lively, and it may be, a little unthinking, might be led on to—there could be nothing very striking, because it is clear that he had no pretensions: his heart was reserved for you. And I must say, that its being for you has raised him inconceivably in my opinion. It does him the highest honour; it shews his proper estimation of the blessing of domestic happiness and pure attachment. It proves him unspoilt by his uncle. It proves him, in short, everything that I had been used to wish to believe him, and feared he was not.”

“Julia! I’ve heard from someone that he’s in love with Julia, but I never really saw any signs of it. And, Fanny, while I think I appreciate my sisters’ good qualities, I believe it’s possible that they might, one or both, want Crawford’s admiration and could show that eagerness a bit too openly, which wasn’t exactly wise. I remember they seemed to really enjoy his company; and with that kind of encouragement, a guy like Crawford, who is lively and maybe a bit careless, could easily be led on—there was nothing particularly striking about it, since it’s clear he never had any intentions: his heart was reserved for you. And I have to say, the fact that it’s for you has raised him immensely in my estimation. It speaks volumes about his understanding of the value of domestic happiness and genuine attachment. It shows he hasn’t been spoiled by his uncle. In short, it confirms everything I had hoped to believe about him and was afraid he might not be.”

“I am persuaded that he does not think, as he ought, on serious subjects.”

“I believe that he doesn’t think about serious topics the way he should.”

“Say, rather, that he has not thought at all upon serious subjects, which I believe to be a good deal the case. How could it be otherwise, with such an education and adviser? Under the disadvantages, indeed, which both have had, is it not wonderful that they should be what they are? Crawford’s feelings, I am ready to acknowledge, have hitherto been too much his guides. Happily, those feelings have generally been good. You will supply the rest; and a most fortunate man he is to attach himself to such a creature—to a woman who, firm as a rock in her own principles, has a gentleness of character so well adapted to recommend them. He has chosen his partner, indeed, with rare felicity. He will make you happy, Fanny; I know he will make you happy; but you will make him everything.”

"Let’s say he hasn’t really thought deeply about serious issues, which I think is mostly true. How could it be any different with that kind of education and mentor? Given the challenges they both faced, isn’t it amazing they turned out the way they did? I must admit that Crawford’s feelings have often led him too much. Fortunately, those feelings have mostly been positive. You will see the rest; he’s incredibly lucky to be with someone like you—a woman who, as solid in her beliefs as a rock, also has a gentle nature that complements them perfectly. He has chosen his partner with exceptional luck. He will make you happy, Fanny; I know he will make you happy; but you will be everything to him."

“I would not engage in such a charge,” cried Fanny, in a shrinking accent; “in such an office of high responsibility!”

“I wouldn’t take on such a task,” Fanny exclaimed in a hesitant tone, “in such a position of great responsibility!”

“As usual, believing yourself unequal to anything! fancying everything too much for you! Well, though I may not be able to persuade you into different feelings, you will be persuaded into them, I trust. I confess myself sincerely anxious that you may. I have no common interest in Crawford’s well-doing. Next to your happiness, Fanny, his has the first claim on me. You are aware of my having no common interest in Crawford.”

“As usual, you think you’re not good enough for anything! You believe everything is too much for you! Well, even if I can’t change how you feel, I hope you'll come around to a different mindset. I truly care about you doing well. I don’t have any personal stakes in Crawford’s success. After your happiness, Fanny, his well-being is what matters most to me. You know I don’t have a personal stake in Crawford.”

Fanny was too well aware of it to have anything to say; and they walked on together some fifty yards in mutual silence and abstraction. Edmund first began again—

Fanny was too aware of it to say anything; and they walked on together for about fifty yards in shared silence and thought. Edmund was the first to speak again—

“I was very much pleased by her manner of speaking of it yesterday, particularly pleased, because I had not depended upon her seeing everything in so just a light. I knew she was very fond of you; but yet I was afraid of her not estimating your worth to her brother quite as it deserved, and of her regretting that he had not rather fixed on some woman of distinction or fortune. I was afraid of the bias of those worldly maxims, which she has been too much used to hear. But it was very different. She spoke of you, Fanny, just as she ought. She desires the connexion as warmly as your uncle or myself. We had a long talk about it. I should not have mentioned the subject, though very anxious to know her sentiments; but I had not been in the room five minutes before she began introducing it with all that openness of heart, and sweet peculiarity of manner, that spirit and ingenuousness which are so much a part of herself. Mrs. Grant laughed at her for her rapidity.”

“I was really pleased with the way she talked about it yesterday, especially because I didn’t expect her to see everything so clearly. I knew she was very fond of you, but I worried that she wouldn’t appreciate your worth to her brother as much as she should and that she might regret he hadn’t chosen some woman of status or wealth instead. I feared she had been influenced too much by those worldly ideas she’s often heard. But it was completely different. She spoke of you, Fanny, exactly as she should. She wants this connection just as much as your uncle or I do. We had a long conversation about it. I wouldn’t have brought it up, even though I was eager to know her thoughts, but I hadn’t been in the room for five minutes before she started talking about it with all the openness of heart and that sweet uniqueness of hers, that spirit and sincerity that are such a big part of who she is. Mrs. Grant laughed at her for being so quick to discuss it.”

“Was Mrs. Grant in the room, then?”

“Was Mrs. Grant in the room, then?”

“Yes, when I reached the house I found the two sisters together by themselves; and when once we had begun, we had not done with you, Fanny, till Crawford and Dr. Grant came in.”

“Yes, when I got to the house, I found the two sisters there by themselves; and once we started, we couldn't finish talking about you, Fanny, until Crawford and Dr. Grant came in.”

“It is above a week since I saw Miss Crawford.”

“It’s been more than a week since I saw Miss Crawford.”

“Yes, she laments it; yet owns it may have been best. You will see her, however, before she goes. She is very angry with you, Fanny; you must be prepared for that. She calls herself very angry, but you can imagine her anger. It is the regret and disappointment of a sister, who thinks her brother has a right to everything he may wish for, at the first moment. She is hurt, as you would be for William; but she loves and esteems you with all her heart.”

“Yes, she regrets it; but she admits it might have been for the best. You’ll see her before she leaves. She’s really upset with you, Fanny; you need to be ready for that. She says she’s really angry, but you can guess how deep that anger goes. It’s the disappointment and sadness of a sister who believes her brother should get everything he wants right away. She feels hurt, just like you would for William; but she loves and respects you with all her heart.”

“I knew she would be very angry with me.”

“I knew she would be really mad at me.”

“My dearest Fanny,” cried Edmund, pressing her arm closer to him, “do not let the idea of her anger distress you. It is anger to be talked of rather than felt. Her heart is made for love and kindness, not for resentment. I wish you could have overheard her tribute of praise; I wish you could have seen her countenance, when she said that you should be Henry’s wife. And I observed that she always spoke of you as ‘Fanny,’ which she was never used to do; and it had a sound of most sisterly cordiality.”

“My dearest Fanny,” cried Edmund, pulling her arm closer to him, “don’t let the thought of her anger upset you. It’s the kind of anger that’s better discussed than felt. Her heart is made for love and kindness, not for bitterness. I wish you could have overheard her praise; I wish you could have seen her face when she said that you should be Henry’s wife. And I noticed that she always referred to you as ‘Fanny,’ which she never used to do; it sounded very sisterly and warm.”

“And Mrs. Grant, did she say—did she speak; was she there all the time?”

“And Mrs. Grant, did she say anything—did she talk; was she there the entire time?”

“Yes, she was agreeing exactly with her sister. The surprise of your refusal, Fanny, seems to have been unbounded. That you could refuse such a man as Henry Crawford seems more than they can understand. I said what I could for you; but in good truth, as they stated the case—you must prove yourself to be in your senses as soon as you can by a different conduct; nothing else will satisfy them. But this is teasing you. I have done. Do not turn away from me.”

“Yes, she completely agreed with her sister. The shock of your refusal, Fanny, seems to be beyond comprehension. They just can't grasp how you could say no to someone like Henry Crawford. I said whatever I could on your behalf; but honestly, given how they see it—you need to show that you're thinking clearly by acting differently as soon as possible; nothing else will convince them. But I’m just bothering you with this. I'm done. Please don’t turn away from me.”

“I should have thought,” said Fanny, after a pause of recollection and exertion, “that every woman must have felt the possibility of a man’s not being approved, not being loved by some one of her sex at least, let him be ever so generally agreeable. Let him have all the perfections in the world, I think it ought not to be set down as certain that a man must be acceptable to every woman he may happen to like himself. But, even supposing it is so, allowing Mr. Crawford to have all the claims which his sisters think he has, how was I to be prepared to meet him with any feeling answerable to his own? He took me wholly by surprise. I had not an idea that his behaviour to me before had any meaning; and surely I was not to be teaching myself to like him only because he was taking what seemed very idle notice of me. In my situation, it would have been the extreme of vanity to be forming expectations on Mr. Crawford. I am sure his sisters, rating him as they do, must have thought it so, supposing he had meant nothing. How, then, was I to be—to be in love with him the moment he said he was with me? How was I to have an attachment at his service, as soon as it was asked for? His sisters should consider me as well as him. The higher his deserts, the more improper for me ever to have thought of him. And, and—we think very differently of the nature of women, if they can imagine a woman so very soon capable of returning an affection as this seems to imply.”

“I should have thought,” said Fanny, after a moment of reflection and effort, “that every woman must have considered the possibility of a man not being approved of, not being loved by at least one woman, no matter how generally likable he is. Even if he has every quality in the world, it shouldn’t be assumed that a man will be accepted by every woman he happens to like. But even if we assume that's the case, allowing Mr. Crawford to have all the qualities his sisters believe he has, how was I supposed to be ready to respond to him with feelings that matched his? He completely caught me off guard. I had no idea that his previous behavior toward me meant anything; surely I wasn’t going to force myself to like him just because he seemed to take some idle interest in me. In my position, it would have been incredibly vain to form any expectations about Mr. Crawford. I’m sure his sisters, who hold him in such high regard, must think so as well, assuming he meant nothing by it. So, how could I be—falling in love with him the moment he said he felt that way about me? How could I just have an attachment ready for him as soon as he asked for it? His sisters should consider me just as much as him. The more admirable he is, the more inappropriate it would be for me to have even thought of him. And we clearly have very different views on the nature of women if they can think that a woman could quickly be capable of returning such affection as this seems to suggest.”

“My dear, dear Fanny, now I have the truth. I know this to be the truth; and most worthy of you are such feelings. I had attributed them to you before. I thought I could understand you. You have now given exactly the explanation which I ventured to make for you to your friend and Mrs. Grant, and they were both better satisfied, though your warm-hearted friend was still run away with a little by the enthusiasm of her fondness for Henry. I told them that you were of all human creatures the one over whom habit had most power and novelty least; and that the very circumstance of the novelty of Crawford’s addresses was against him. Their being so new and so recent was all in their disfavour; that you could tolerate nothing that you were not used to; and a great deal more to the same purpose, to give them a knowledge of your character. Miss Crawford made us laugh by her plans of encouragement for her brother. She meant to urge him to persevere in the hope of being loved in time, and of having his addresses most kindly received at the end of about ten years’ happy marriage.”

"My dear, dear Fanny, now I know the truth. I know this is the truth; and you truly deserve such feelings. I had already thought they were yours. I believed I could understand you. You’ve now provided exactly the explanation I tried to give to your friend and Mrs. Grant, and they were both more satisfied, although your warm-hearted friend was still a bit caught up in her excitement for Henry. I told them that you are the one person I know who is most affected by habit and least by novelty; that the very fact that Crawford’s advances were new played against him. Their being so fresh was all to their disadvantage; you can tolerate nothing you’re not used to; and I said a lot more to help them understand your character. Miss Crawford made us laugh with her ideas for encouraging her brother. She intended to motivate him to keep hoping to be loved in time and to have his proposals warmly accepted after about ten years of a happy marriage."

Fanny could with difficulty give the smile that was here asked for. Her feelings were all in revolt. She feared she had been doing wrong: saying too much, overacting the caution which she had been fancying necessary; in guarding against one evil, laying herself open to another; and to have Miss Crawford’s liveliness repeated to her at such a moment, and on such a subject, was a bitter aggravation.

Fanny found it hard to muster the smile that was expected of her. Her emotions were in turmoil. She worried she might have overstepped: speaking too much, overdoing the caution she thought she needed; in trying to avoid one problem, she exposed herself to another. Hearing Miss Crawford's cheerfulness at that moment and about that topic was an annoying reminder.

Edmund saw weariness and distress in her face, and immediately resolved to forbear all farther discussion; and not even to mention the name of Crawford again, except as it might be connected with what must be agreeable to her. On this principle, he soon afterwards observed—“They go on Monday. You are sure, therefore, of seeing your friend either to-morrow or Sunday. They really go on Monday; and I was within a trifle of being persuaded to stay at Lessingby till that very day! I had almost promised it. What a difference it might have made! Those five or six days more at Lessingby might have been felt all my life.”

Edmund noticed weariness and distress on her face, and immediately decided to avoid further discussion; he wouldn't even mention Crawford's name again unless it was connected to something that would please her. Based on this, he soon remarked, “They leave on Monday. So, you can definitely see your friend either tomorrow or Sunday. They really are leaving on Monday, and I almost let myself be talked into staying at Lessingby until that very day! I had nearly promised it. What a difference that could have made! Those extra five or six days at Lessingby could have impacted me for the rest of my life.”

“You were near staying there?”

"You almost stayed there?"

“Very. I was most kindly pressed, and had nearly consented. Had I received any letter from Mansfield, to tell me how you were all going on, I believe I should certainly have staid; but I knew nothing that had happened here for a fortnight, and felt that I had been away long enough.”

“Very. I was urged quite kindly, and I was almost ready to agree. If I had received any letter from Mansfield telling me how you all were doing, I believe I would have definitely stayed; but I hadn’t heard anything that had happened here for two weeks and felt like I had been away long enough.”

“You spent your time pleasantly there?”

“You had a good time there?”

“Yes; that is, it was the fault of my own mind if I did not. They were all very pleasant. I doubt their finding me so. I took uneasiness with me, and there was no getting rid of it till I was in Mansfield again.”

“Yes; that is, it was my own mind's fault if I didn’t. They were all very nice. I doubt they found me that way. I carried my uneasiness with me, and there was no shaking it off until I was back in Mansfield again.”

“The Miss Owens—you liked them, did not you?”

“The Miss Owens—you liked them, right?”

“Yes, very well. Pleasant, good-humoured, unaffected girls. But I am spoilt, Fanny, for common female society. Good-humoured, unaffected girls will not do for a man who has been used to sensible women. They are two distinct orders of being. You and Miss Crawford have made me too nice.”

“Yes, very well. Nice, cheerful, down-to-earth girls. But I’m spoiled, Fanny, when it comes to regular women. Cheerful, down-to-earth girls aren’t enough for a man who’s been around smart women. They are two completely different types of people. You and Miss Crawford have made me too picky.”

Still, however, Fanny was oppressed and wearied; he saw it in her looks, it could not be talked away; and attempting it no more, he led her directly, with the kind authority of a privileged guardian, into the house.

Still, Fanny felt weighed down and exhausted; he could see it in her expression, and it couldn’t just be brushed off. Not wanting to push the issue any further, he took her directly, with the gentle authority of a trusted guardian, into the house.

CHAPTER XXXVI

Edmund now believed himself perfectly acquainted with all that Fanny could tell, or could leave to be conjectured of her sentiments, and he was satisfied. It had been, as he before presumed, too hasty a measure on Crawford’s side, and time must be given to make the idea first familiar, and then agreeable to her. She must be used to the consideration of his being in love with her, and then a return of affection might not be very distant.

Edmund now felt he understood everything Fanny could say or hint at about her feelings, and he was content with that. As he had suspected before, Crawford had acted too quickly, and Fanny needed time to first get used to the idea and then find it pleasing. She needed to adjust to the thought of him being in love with

He gave this opinion as the result of the conversation to his father; and recommended there being nothing more said to her: no farther attempts to influence or persuade; but that everything should be left to Crawford’s assiduities, and the natural workings of her own mind.

He shared this view with his father as a result of their conversation and suggested that they should say nothing more to her: no further attempts to influence or persuade her, but to leave everything to Crawford's efforts and the natural workings of her own mind.

Sir Thomas promised that it should be so. Edmund’s account of Fanny’s disposition he could believe to be just; he supposed she had all those feelings, but he must consider it as very unfortunate that she had; for, less willing than his son to trust to the future, he could not help fearing that if such very long allowances of time and habit were necessary for her, she might not have persuaded herself into receiving his addresses properly before the young man’s inclination for paying them were over. There was nothing to be done, however, but to submit quietly and hope the best.

Sir Thomas promised that it would be so. Edmund’s description of Fanny’s character seemed accurate to him; he assumed she felt all those things, but he thought it was quite unfortunate that she did. Less optimistic than his son about the future, he couldn't help but worry that if she needed such a long time to adjust, she might not be ready to accept his affections before Edmund lost interest. There was nothing to do, though, except to accept the situation calmly and hope for the best.

The promised visit from “her friend,” as Edmund called Miss Crawford, was a formidable threat to Fanny, and she lived in continual terror of it. As a sister, so partial and so angry, and so little scrupulous of what she said, and in another light so triumphant and secure, she was in every way an object of painful alarm. Her displeasure, her penetration, and her happiness were all fearful to encounter; and the dependence of having others present when they met was Fanny’s only support in looking forward to it. She absented herself as little as possible from Lady Bertram, kept away from the East room, and took no solitary walk in the shrubbery, in her caution to avoid any sudden attack.

The anticipated visit from "her friend," as Edmund referred to Miss Crawford, was a major source of anxiety for Fanny, and she was constantly on edge about it. As a sister, she was so biased, so angry, and so careless about what she said, yet in another way, she was so triumphant and secure, making her a constant source of distress. Her anger, sharp observations, and happiness were all daunting to face; the fact that Fanny could rely on having others around when they met was her only comfort in thinking about it. She tried to spend as little time away from Lady Bertram as possible, avoided the East room, and refrained from taking solitary walks in the shrubbery, all to prevent any sudden confrontation.

She succeeded. She was safe in the breakfast-room, with her aunt, when Miss Crawford did come; and the first misery over, and Miss Crawford looking and speaking with much less particularity of expression than she had anticipated, Fanny began to hope there would be nothing worse to be endured than a half-hour of moderate agitation. But here she hoped too much; Miss Crawford was not the slave of opportunity. She was determined to see Fanny alone, and therefore said to her tolerably soon, in a low voice, “I must speak to you for a few minutes somewhere”; words that Fanny felt all over her, in all her pulses and all her nerves. Denial was impossible. Her habits of ready submission, on the contrary, made her almost instantly rise and lead the way out of the room. She did it with wretched feelings, but it was inevitable.

She succeeded. She was safe in the breakfast room with her aunt when Miss Crawford arrived; after the initial distress passed, and with Miss Crawford looking and speaking with much less intensity than Fanny had expected, she began to hope that there would be nothing worse to endure than half an hour of mild anxiety. But she was being overly optimistic; Miss Crawford was not going to let the opportunity slip by. She was determined to speak to Fanny alone and, therefore, soon said to her in a low voice, “I need to talk to you for a few minutes somewhere”; words that Fanny felt resonate throughout her, in every pulse and nerve. Refusal was impossible. Her habit of readily submitting made her almost immediately stand up and lead the way out of the room. She did it with a heavy heart, but it was unavoidable.

They were no sooner in the hall than all restraint of countenance was over on Miss Crawford’s side. She immediately shook her head at Fanny with arch, yet affectionate reproach, and taking her hand, seemed hardly able to help beginning directly. She said nothing, however, but, “Sad, sad girl! I do not know when I shall have done scolding you,” and had discretion enough to reserve the rest till they might be secure of having four walls to themselves. Fanny naturally turned upstairs, and took her guest to the apartment which was now always fit for comfortable use; opening the door, however, with a most aching heart, and feeling that she had a more distressing scene before her than ever that spot had yet witnessed. But the evil ready to burst on her was at least delayed by the sudden change in Miss Crawford’s ideas; by the strong effect on her mind which the finding herself in the East room again produced.

As soon as they entered the hall, Miss Crawford lost all control over her expressions. She shook her head at Fanny with a playful yet affectionate reprimand, and taking her hand, it seemed she could barely hold back from starting right away. She didn't say much, just, “Sad, sad girl! I don’t know when I’ll stop scolding you,” and had enough sense to save the rest for when they were sure they had some privacy. Fanny naturally led them upstairs, taking her guest to the room that was now always ready for comfortable use. However, she opened the door with a heavy heart, knowing that she was about to face a more distressing situation than this place had ever seen. But at least the trouble waiting to unfold was temporarily stalled by the sudden shift in Miss Crawford’s thoughts; the strong impact of being back in the East room affected her mind significantly.

“Ha!” she cried, with instant animation, “am I here again? The East room! Once only was I in this room before”; and after stopping to look about her, and seemingly to retrace all that had then passed, she added, “Once only before. Do you remember it? I came to rehearse. Your cousin came too; and we had a rehearsal. You were our audience and prompter. A delightful rehearsal. I shall never forget it. Here we were, just in this part of the room: here was your cousin, here was I, here were the chairs. Oh! why will such things ever pass away?”

“Ha!” she exclaimed, with immediate excitement, “Am I here again? The East room! I’ve only been in this room once before.” After pausing to look around and seemingly recall everything that had happened then, she added, “Only once before. Do you remember? I came to rehearse. Your cousin was there too, and we had a rehearsal. You were our audience and prompter. It was such a delightful rehearsal. I’ll never forget it. We were right here, in this part of the room: there was your cousin, there was me, there were the chairs. Oh! Why do such things ever have to pass away?”

Happily for her companion, she wanted no answer. Her mind was entirely self-engrossed. She was in a reverie of sweet remembrances.

Happily for her friend, she didn’t want an answer. Her mind was completely consumed with herself. She was lost in a daydream of sweet memories.

“The scene we were rehearsing was so very remarkable! The subject of it so very—very—what shall I say? He was to be describing and recommending matrimony to me. I think I see him now, trying to be as demure and composed as Anhalt ought, through the two long speeches. ‘When two sympathetic hearts meet in the marriage state, matrimony may be called a happy life.’ I suppose no time can ever wear out the impression I have of his looks and voice as he said those words. It was curious, very curious, that we should have such a scene to play! If I had the power of recalling any one week of my existence, it should be that week—that acting week. Say what you would, Fanny, it should be that; for I never knew such exquisite happiness in any other. His sturdy spirit to bend as it did! Oh! it was sweet beyond expression. But alas, that very evening destroyed it all. That very evening brought your most unwelcome uncle. Poor Sir Thomas, who was glad to see you? Yet, Fanny, do not imagine I would now speak disrespectfully of Sir Thomas, though I certainly did hate him for many a week. No, I do him justice now. He is just what the head of such a family should be. Nay, in sober sadness, I believe I now love you all.” And having said so, with a degree of tenderness and consciousness which Fanny had never seen in her before, and now thought only too becoming, she turned away for a moment to recover herself. “I have had a little fit since I came into this room, as you may perceive,” said she presently, with a playful smile, “but it is over now; so let us sit down and be comfortable; for as to scolding you, Fanny, which I came fully intending to do, I have not the heart for it when it comes to the point.” And embracing her very affectionately, “Good, gentle Fanny! when I think of this being the last time of seeing you for I do not know how long, I feel it quite impossible to do anything but love you.”

“The scene we were rehearsing was truly remarkable! The subject was so very—very—what can I say? He was supposed to be describing and recommending marriage to me. I can still picture him now, trying to remain as modest and composed as Anhalt should be, through those two long speeches. ‘When two sympathetic hearts come together in marriage, matrimony can be called a happy life.’ I doubt any time can ever fade the memory I have of his expression and voice when he said those words. It was strange, very strange, that we had such a scene to perform! If I could relive any one week of my life, it would be that week—that acting week. No matter what you say, Fanny, it would be that; because I’ve never known such exquisite happiness in any other time. His strong spirit to bend as it did! Oh! it was sweet beyond words. But sadly, that very evening ruined it all. That evening brought your most unwelcome uncle. Poor Sir Thomas, who was happy to see you? Yet, Fanny, don’t think I’m speaking disrespectfully about Sir Thomas now, even though I definitely hated him for many weeks. No, I see him more fairly now. He is exactly what the head of such a family should be. In all seriousness, I think I really love you all now.” And having said this, with a level of tenderness and awareness that Fanny had never seen in her before, and which she now thought was very suitable, she turned away for a moment to collect herself. “I’ve had a little moment since I came into this room, as you might notice,” she said with a playful smile, “but it’s passed now; so let’s sit down and be comfortable; because as for scolding you, Fanny, which I originally planned to do, I don’t have the heart for it when it comes down to it.” And hugging her very affectionately, “Good, sweet Fanny! when I think that this might be the last time I see you for I don’t know how long, I find it impossible to do anything but love you.”

Fanny was affected. She had not foreseen anything of this, and her feelings could seldom withstand the melancholy influence of the word “last.” She cried as if she had loved Miss Crawford more than she possibly could; and Miss Crawford, yet farther softened by the sight of such emotion, hung about her with fondness, and said, “I hate to leave you. I shall see no one half so amiable where I am going. Who says we shall not be sisters? I know we shall. I feel that we are born to be connected; and those tears convince me that you feel it too, dear Fanny.”

Fanny was deeply moved. She hadn't expected any of this, and her emotions rarely held up against the sad weight of the word “last.” She cried as if she had loved Miss Crawford more than she possibly could; and Miss Crawford, further softened by seeing such emotion, stayed close to her with affection and said, “I hate to leave you. I won’t find anyone as lovely where I’m going. Who says we can’t be sisters? I know we can. I feel like we’re meant to be connected; and those tears show me that you feel it too, dear Fanny.”

Fanny roused herself, and replying only in part, said, “But you are only going from one set of friends to another. You are going to a very particular friend.”

Fanny woke up and replied, only partially, "But you're just moving from one group of friends to another. You're going to a very special friend."

“Yes, very true. Mrs. Fraser has been my intimate friend for years. But I have not the least inclination to go near her. I can think only of the friends I am leaving: my excellent sister, yourself, and the Bertrams in general. You have all so much more heart among you than one finds in the world at large. You all give me a feeling of being able to trust and confide in you, which in common intercourse one knows nothing of. I wish I had settled with Mrs. Fraser not to go to her till after Easter, a much better time for the visit, but now I cannot put her off. And when I have done with her I must go to her sister, Lady Stornaway, because she was rather my most particular friend of the two, but I have not cared much for her these three years.”

“Yes, very true. Mrs. Fraser has been my close friend for years. But I have no desire to see her. I can only think of the friends I'm leaving behind: my wonderful sister, you, and the Bertrams in general. You all have so much more heart than one typically finds in the world. You give me a sense of being able to trust and confide in you, which is rare in everyday interactions. I wish I had decided with Mrs. Fraser not to see her until after Easter, which would be a much better time for a visit, but now I can't cancel on her. And once I'm done with her, I have to visit her sister, Lady Stornaway, because she was actually my closest friend of the two, but I haven't cared much for her these past three years.”

After this speech the two girls sat many minutes silent, each thoughtful: Fanny meditating on the different sorts of friendship in the world, Mary on something of less philosophic tendency. She first spoke again.

After this speech, the two girls sat in silence for several minutes, each deep in thought: Fanny reflecting on the different types of friendship in the world, while Mary pondered something less philosophical. She was the first to break the silence again.

“How perfectly I remember my resolving to look for you upstairs, and setting off to find my way to the East room, without having an idea whereabouts it was! How well I remember what I was thinking of as I came along, and my looking in and seeing you here sitting at this table at work; and then your cousin’s astonishment, when he opened the door, at seeing me here! To be sure, your uncle’s returning that very evening! There never was anything quite like it.”

“How well I remember deciding to look for you upstairs and starting my way to the East room, without having any clue where it was! I can still recall my thoughts as I walked along and how I looked in to see you sitting at this table working; and then your cousin's surprise when he opened the door and saw me here! Of course, your uncle returned that very evening! There’s never been anything like it.”

Another short fit of abstraction followed, when, shaking it off, she thus attacked her companion.

Another brief moment of distraction passed, and then, shaking it off, she confronted her companion.

“Why, Fanny, you are absolutely in a reverie. Thinking, I hope, of one who is always thinking of you. Oh! that I could transport you for a short time into our circle in town, that you might understand how your power over Henry is thought of there! Oh! the envyings and heartburnings of dozens and dozens; the wonder, the incredulity that will be felt at hearing what you have done! For as to secrecy, Henry is quite the hero of an old romance, and glories in his chains. You should come to London to know how to estimate your conquest. If you were to see how he is courted, and how I am courted for his sake! Now, I am well aware that I shall not be half so welcome to Mrs. Fraser in consequence of his situation with you. When she comes to know the truth she will, very likely, wish me in Northamptonshire again; for there is a daughter of Mr. Fraser, by a first wife, whom she is wild to get married, and wants Henry to take. Oh! she has been trying for him to such a degree. Innocent and quiet as you sit here, you cannot have an idea of the sensation that you will be occasioning, of the curiosity there will be to see you, of the endless questions I shall have to answer! Poor Margaret Fraser will be at me for ever about your eyes and your teeth, and how you do your hair, and who makes your shoes. I wish Margaret were married, for my poor friend’s sake, for I look upon the Frasers to be about as unhappy as most other married people. And yet it was a most desirable match for Janet at the time. We were all delighted. She could not do otherwise than accept him, for he was rich, and she had nothing; but he turns out ill-tempered and exigeant, and wants a young woman, a beautiful young woman of five-and-twenty, to be as steady as himself. And my friend does not manage him well; she does not seem to know how to make the best of it. There is a spirit of irritation which, to say nothing worse, is certainly very ill-bred. In their house I shall call to mind the conjugal manners of Mansfield Parsonage with respect. Even Dr. Grant does shew a thorough confidence in my sister, and a certain consideration for her judgment, which makes one feel there is attachment; but of that I shall see nothing with the Frasers. I shall be at Mansfield for ever, Fanny. My own sister as a wife, Sir Thomas Bertram as a husband, are my standards of perfection. Poor Janet has been sadly taken in, and yet there was nothing improper on her side: she did not run into the match inconsiderately; there was no want of foresight. She took three days to consider of his proposals, and during those three days asked the advice of everybody connected with her whose opinion was worth having, and especially applied to my late dear aunt, whose knowledge of the world made her judgment very generally and deservedly looked up to by all the young people of her acquaintance, and she was decidedly in favour of Mr. Fraser. This seems as if nothing were a security for matrimonial comfort. I have not so much to say for my friend Flora, who jilted a very nice young man in the Blues for the sake of that horrid Lord Stornaway, who has about as much sense, Fanny, as Mr. Rushworth, but much worse-looking, and with a blackguard character. I had my doubts at the time about her being right, for he has not even the air of a gentleman, and now I am sure she was wrong. By the bye, Flora Ross was dying for Henry the first winter she came out. But were I to attempt to tell you of all the women whom I have known to be in love with him, I should never have done. It is you, only you, insensible Fanny, who can think of him with anything like indifference. But are you so insensible as you profess yourself? No, no, I see you are not.”

“Why, Fanny, you’re completely lost in thought. I hope you’re thinking about someone who’s always thinking about you. Oh, if only I could bring you into our circle in town for a bit, so you could see how much power you have over Henry! The envy and heartache from dozens of people; the shock and disbelief when they hear what you’ve done! Because when it comes to secrecy, Henry is like the hero of an old romance, proud of his chains. You should come to London to understand how to measure your success. If you could see how he is adored, and how I’m adored for his sake! I know I won’t be half as welcome to Mrs. Fraser now because of his situation with you. When she finds out the truth, she’ll probably wish I was back in Northamptonshire; she’s desperate to marry off a daughter from Mr. Fraser’s first wife, and she wants Henry to take her. Oh, she’s been pushing for him so hard. Innocent and calm as you sit here, you can’t imagine the buzz you’ll create, the curiosity to meet you, the endless questions I’ll have to answer! Poor Margaret Fraser will grill me forever about your eyes and teeth, how you do your hair, and who makes your shoes. I wish Margaret were married, for my friend’s sake, because I think the Frasers are just as unhappy as most married couples. Yet it was a great match for Janet at the time. We were all thrilled. She had no choice but to accept him since he was rich and she had nothing; but he turns out to be ill-tempered and demanding, wanting a beautiful twenty-five-year-old woman to be as composed as he is. And my friend doesn’t handle him well; she doesn’t know how to make the best of it. There’s a spirit of irritation that, to say the least, is quite rude. In their house, I’ll think of the married life at Mansfield Parsonage with respect. Even Dr. Grant shows complete trust in my sister and a certain regard for her judgment, which suggests there is attachment; but I see none of that with the Frasers. I will forever be at Mansfield, Fanny. My own sister as a wife and Sir Thomas Bertram as a husband are my standards of perfection. Poor Janet has been sadly misled, yet she was completely proper: she didn’t rush into the match recklessly; there was no lack of foresight. She took three days to consider his proposals, asking everyone whose opinion mattered, particularly my late dear aunt, whose worldly wisdom was respected by all the young people she knew, and she was definitively in favor of Mr. Fraser. This shows that nothing guarantees matrimonial happiness. I don’t have much to say for my friend Flora, who dumped a really nice guy in the Blues for that awful Lord Stornaway, who has about as much sense, Fanny, as Mr. Rushworth, but is much worse looking and has a shady reputation. I had my doubts about her decision at the time, since he didn’t even carry himself like a gentleman, and now I’m sure she made a mistake. By the way, Flora Ross was infatuated with Henry the first winter she came out. But if I tried to tell you about all the women I’ve known who’ve been in love with him, I’d never finish. It’s only you, insensible Fanny, who can think of him with any indifference. But are you really as indifferent as you claim? No, no, I can see you’re not.”

There was, indeed, so deep a blush over Fanny’s face at that moment as might warrant strong suspicion in a predisposed mind.

There was, in fact, such a deep blush on Fanny's face at that moment that it could raise strong suspicion in someone already inclined to doubt.

“Excellent creature! I will not tease you. Everything shall take its course. But, dear Fanny, you must allow that you were not so absolutely unprepared to have the question asked as your cousin fancies. It is not possible but that you must have had some thoughts on the subject, some surmises as to what might be. You must have seen that he was trying to please you by every attention in his power. Was not he devoted to you at the ball? And then before the ball, the necklace! Oh! you received it just as it was meant. You were as conscious as heart could desire. I remember it perfectly.”

"Wonderful creature! I won't tease you. Everything will happen as it should. But, dear Fanny, you have to admit that you weren't completely unprepared for the question your cousin thinks you were. It's impossible that you didn’t have some thoughts about it, some ideas about what could happen. You must have noticed that he was trying to impress you with every gesture he could. Wasn't he devoted to you at the ball? And then before the ball, the necklace! Oh! You took it exactly as it was intended. You were as aware as anyone could be. I remember it perfectly."

“Do you mean, then, that your brother knew of the necklace beforehand? Oh! Miss Crawford, that was not fair.”

“Are you saying that your brother knew about the necklace in advance? Oh! Miss Crawford, that wasn’t fair.”

“Knew of it! It was his own doing entirely, his own thought. I am ashamed to say that it had never entered my head, but I was delighted to act on his proposal for both your sakes.”

“Knew about it! It was all his doing, his own idea. I’m ashamed to admit it never crossed my mind, but I was happy to go along with his suggestion for both of you.”

“I will not say,” replied Fanny, “that I was not half afraid at the time of its being so, for there was something in your look that frightened me, but not at first; I was as unsuspicious of it at first—indeed, indeed I was. It is as true as that I sit here. And had I had an idea of it, nothing should have induced me to accept the necklace. As to your brother’s behaviour, certainly I was sensible of a particularity: I had been sensible of it some little time, perhaps two or three weeks; but then I considered it as meaning nothing: I put it down as simply being his way, and was as far from supposing as from wishing him to have any serious thoughts of me. I had not, Miss Crawford, been an inattentive observer of what was passing between him and some part of this family in the summer and autumn. I was quiet, but I was not blind. I could not but see that Mr. Crawford amused himself in gallantries which did mean nothing.”

"I won’t say," Fanny replied, "that I wasn’t a bit scared when it happened, because there was something in your expression that frightened me, but not at first; I was completely unaware of it initially—truly, I was. It’s as true as I’m sitting here. And if I had even an inkling of it, nothing would have made me accept the necklace. As for your brother’s behavior, I definitely noticed something unusual: I had been sensing it for a little while, maybe two or three weeks; but I just thought it didn’t mean anything. I figured it was simply his way, and I was far from believing or wanting him to have any serious feelings for me. I hadn’t, Miss Crawford, been an unobservant bystander to what was going on between him and some members of this family over the summer and autumn. I might have been quiet, but I wasn’t blind. I could see that Mr. Crawford was entertaining himself with flirtations that didn’t mean anything."

“Ah! I cannot deny it. He has now and then been a sad flirt, and cared very little for the havoc he might be making in young ladies’ affections. I have often scolded him for it, but it is his only fault; and there is this to be said, that very few young ladies have any affections worth caring for. And then, Fanny, the glory of fixing one who has been shot at by so many; of having it in one’s power to pay off the debts of one’s sex! Oh! I am sure it is not in woman’s nature to refuse such a triumph.”

“Ah! I can’t deny it. He’s been quite the flirt now and then, and he seems to care very little about the chaos he might create in young women’s feelings. I’ve often scolded him for it, but that’s his only flaw; and it’s worth mentioning that very few young women have feelings that are truly worth caring about. And then, Fanny, the thrill of being the one to settle the score for someone who’s been pursued by so many; to have the chance to redeem the honor of one’s gender! Oh! I’m sure it’s not in a woman’s nature to turn down such a victory.”

Fanny shook her head. “I cannot think well of a man who sports with any woman’s feelings; and there may often be a great deal more suffered than a stander-by can judge of.”

Fanny shook her head. “I can't think well of a man who plays with any woman’s feelings; and there can often be a lot more going on than an outsider can understand.”

“I do not defend him. I leave him entirely to your mercy, and when he has got you at Everingham, I do not care how much you lecture him. But this I will say, that his fault, the liking to make girls a little in love with him, is not half so dangerous to a wife’s happiness as a tendency to fall in love himself, which he has never been addicted to. And I do seriously and truly believe that he is attached to you in a way that he never was to any woman before; that he loves you with all his heart, and will love you as nearly for ever as possible. If any man ever loved a woman for ever, I think Henry will do as much for you.”

“I’m not defending him. I’ll leave his fate entirely in your hands, and when he’s at Everingham with you, I won’t care how much you scold him. But I will say this: his mistake of wanting to make girls a little in love with him isn’t nearly as harmful to a wife’s happiness as the habit of falling in love himself, which he’s never really had. I genuinely believe that he’s attached to you in a way he never was to any other woman; that he loves you with all his heart and will love you as close to forever as possible. If any man has ever loved a woman forever, I believe Henry will do just that for you.”

Fanny could not avoid a faint smile, but had nothing to say.

Fanny couldn't help but smile a little, but she didn't say anything.

“I cannot imagine Henry ever to have been happier,” continued Mary presently, “than when he had succeeded in getting your brother’s commission.”

“I can’t imagine Henry ever being happier,” Mary continued, “than when he managed to get your brother’s commission.”

She had made a sure push at Fanny’s feelings here.

She had really targeted Fanny’s feelings here.

“Oh! yes. How very, very kind of him.”

“Oh! Yes. How really, really nice of him.”

“I know he must have exerted himself very much, for I know the parties he had to move. The Admiral hates trouble, and scorns asking favours; and there are so many young men’s claims to be attended to in the same way, that a friendship and energy, not very determined, is easily put by. What a happy creature William must be! I wish we could see him.”

“I know he must have worked really hard, because I’m aware of the people he had to deal with. The Admiral dislikes issues and avoids asking for favors; plus, there are so many young men’s requests that need attention in the same way, that a friendship and enthusiasm, which aren't very strong, can easily be set aside. What a lucky guy William must be! I wish we could see him.”

Poor Fanny’s mind was thrown into the most distressing of all its varieties. The recollection of what had been done for William was always the most powerful disturber of every decision against Mr. Crawford; and she sat thinking deeply of it till Mary, who had been first watching her complacently, and then musing on something else, suddenly called her attention by saying: “I should like to sit talking with you here all day, but we must not forget the ladies below, and so good-bye, my dear, my amiable, my excellent Fanny, for though we shall nominally part in the breakfast-parlour, I must take leave of you here. And I do take leave, longing for a happy reunion, and trusting that when we meet again, it will be under circumstances which may open our hearts to each other without any remnant or shadow of reserve.”

Poor Fanny’s mind was in complete turmoil. The memory of what had been done for William was always the biggest obstacle in her thoughts about Mr. Crawford; she sat there, deep in thought, until Mary, who had been watching her with a satisfied look and then pondering her own thoughts, suddenly grabbed her attention by saying: “I would love to sit and chat with you here all day, but we can’t forget about the ladies downstairs, so goodbye, my dear, my lovely, my wonderful Fanny. Although we’ll technically part ways in the breakfast room, I have to say goodbye to you here. And I do say goodbye, hoping for a joyful reunion, and trusting that when we meet again, it will be in a way that allows us to share our feelings openly without any trace of hesitation.”

A very, very kind embrace, and some agitation of manner, accompanied these words.

A really kind hug, along with some nervousness in their manner, came with these words.

“I shall see your cousin in town soon: he talks of being there tolerably soon; and Sir Thomas, I dare say, in the course of the spring; and your eldest cousin, and the Rushworths, and Julia, I am sure of meeting again and again, and all but you. I have two favours to ask, Fanny: one is your correspondence. You must write to me. And the other, that you will often call on Mrs. Grant, and make her amends for my being gone.”

“I’ll be seeing your cousin in town soon: he mentions being there pretty soon; and Sir Thomas, I’m sure, will be around in the spring; also your eldest cousin, the Rushworths, and Julia—I’m certain I’ll meet them again and again, just not you. I have two favors to ask, Fanny: first, you have to write to me. And second, please visit Mrs. Grant often and make up for my absence.”

The first, at least, of these favours Fanny would rather not have been asked; but it was impossible for her to refuse the correspondence; it was impossible for her even not to accede to it more readily than her own judgment authorised. There was no resisting so much apparent affection. Her disposition was peculiarly calculated to value a fond treatment, and from having hitherto known so little of it, she was the more overcome by Miss Crawford’s. Besides, there was gratitude towards her, for having made their tête-à-tête so much less painful than her fears had predicted.

The first of these favors was something Fanny would have preferred not to be asked about; however, she found it impossible to refuse the communication. She couldn't help but agree to it more easily than her own judgment allowed. She couldn't resist such obvious affection. Her nature was particularly inclined to appreciate kind treatment, and since she had experienced so little of it before, she was even more touched by Miss Crawford's. Additionally, she felt grateful to her for making their tête-à-tête much less uncomfortable than she had feared.

It was over, and she had escaped without reproaches and without detection. Her secret was still her own; and while that was the case, she thought she could resign herself to almost everything.

It was over, and she had gotten away without any blame or being caught. Her secret was still hers; and as long as that was true, she believed she could accept almost anything.

In the evening there was another parting. Henry Crawford came and sat some time with them; and her spirits not being previously in the strongest state, her heart was softened for a while towards him, because he really seemed to feel. Quite unlike his usual self, he scarcely said anything. He was evidently oppressed, and Fanny must grieve for him, though hoping she might never see him again till he were the husband of some other woman.

In the evening, there was another goodbye. Henry Crawford came and sat with them for a while; and since her mood wasn’t the best, her heart softened for a bit towards him because he actually seemed to care. Unlike his usual self, he barely spoke. He clearly looked troubled, and Fanny couldn’t help but feel sad for him, although she hoped she wouldn’t see him again until he was married to someone else.

When it came to the moment of parting, he would take her hand, he would not be denied it; he said nothing, however, or nothing that she heard, and when he had left the room, she was better pleased that such a token of friendship had passed.

When it was time to say goodbye, he would take her hand, and he wouldn’t let go; he didn’t say anything, or at least nothing she heard, and after he left the room, she felt happier that such a sign of friendship had happened.

On the morrow the Crawfords were gone.

The next day, the Crawfords were gone.

CHAPTER XXXVII

Mr. Crawford gone, Sir Thomas’s next object was that he should be missed; and he entertained great hope that his niece would find a blank in the loss of those attentions which at the time she had felt, or fancied, an evil. She had tasted of consequence in its most flattering form; and he did hope that the loss of it, the sinking again into nothing, would awaken very wholesome regrets in her mind. He watched her with this idea; but he could hardly tell with what success. He hardly knew whether there were any difference in her spirits or not. She was always so gentle and retiring that her emotions were beyond his discrimination. He did not understand her: he felt that he did not; and therefore applied to Edmund to tell him how she stood affected on the present occasion, and whether she were more or less happy than she had been.

With Mr. Crawford gone, Sir Thomas's next goal was to make sure he was missed; he hoped his niece would feel the absence of those attentions that at one time she had seen—or thought of—as a nuisance. She had experienced being important in the most flattering way, and he hoped that losing that status and slipping back into obscurity would stir up some genuine regrets in her. He kept an eye on her with this thought in mind, but he could hardly tell how successful he was. He couldn’t determine if her spirits had changed at all. She was always so gentle and reserved that her feelings were hard for him to read. He didn’t really understand her; he was aware of that; so he asked Edmund to let him know how she was feeling now and whether she was happier or less happy than before.

Edmund did not discern any symptoms of regret, and thought his father a little unreasonable in supposing the first three or four days could produce any.

Edmund didn’t see any signs of regret and thought his father was being a bit unreasonable to believe that the first few days could bring any.

What chiefly surprised Edmund was, that Crawford’s sister, the friend and companion who had been so much to her, should not be more visibly regretted. He wondered that Fanny spoke so seldom of her, and had so little voluntarily to say of her concern at this separation.

What really surprised Edmund was that Crawford’s sister, the friend and companion who meant so much to her, didn’t seem to be more missed. He was puzzled that Fanny hardly talked about her and had so little to say on her own about how she felt about this separation.

Alas! it was this sister, this friend and companion, who was now the chief bane of Fanny’s comfort. If she could have believed Mary’s future fate as unconnected with Mansfield as she was determined the brother’s should be, if she could have hoped her return thither to be as distant as she was much inclined to think his, she would have been light of heart indeed; but the more she recollected and observed, the more deeply was she convinced that everything was now in a fairer train for Miss Crawford’s marrying Edmund than it had ever been before. On his side the inclination was stronger, on hers less equivocal. His objections, the scruples of his integrity, seemed all done away, nobody could tell how; and the doubts and hesitations of her ambition were equally got over—and equally without apparent reason. It could only be imputed to increasing attachment. His good and her bad feelings yielded to love, and such love must unite them. He was to go to town as soon as some business relative to Thornton Lacey were completed—perhaps within a fortnight; he talked of going, he loved to talk of it; and when once with her again, Fanny could not doubt the rest. Her acceptance must be as certain as his offer; and yet there were bad feelings still remaining which made the prospect of it most sorrowful to her, independently, she believed, independently of self.

Unfortunately, it was this sister, this friend and companion, who was now the main source of Fanny’s discomfort. If she could have believed that Mary’s future was not tied to Mansfield the way she was determined her brother’s would be, or if she could have hoped that her return there would be as far off as she was inclined to think his would be, she would have felt a lot lighter in spirit. But the more she remembered and observed, the more convinced she became that everything was now lined up for Miss Crawford to marry Edmund more than it had ever been before. On his side, the feelings were stronger, while on hers they were less clear. His objections, his moral scruples, seemed to have vanished, nobody knew how; and the doubts and hesitations surrounding her ambition were just as easily resolved—also without any clear reason. It could only be attributed to growing affection. His positive traits and her negative traits gave way to love, and such love was sure to bring them together. He was planning to go to town as soon as some business regarding Thornton Lacey was sorted out—maybe within a couple of weeks; he talked about it often, he loved discussing it; and once he was with her again, Fanny couldn’t doubt what would happen next. Her acceptance had to be as certain as his proposal; yet there were still negative feelings that made the thought of it deeply sad for her, independently, she believed, of her own feelings.

In their very last conversation, Miss Crawford, in spite of some amiable sensations, and much personal kindness, had still been Miss Crawford; still shewn a mind led astray and bewildered, and without any suspicion of being so; darkened, yet fancying itself light. She might love, but she did not deserve Edmund by any other sentiment. Fanny believed there was scarcely a second feeling in common between them; and she may be forgiven by older sages for looking on the chance of Miss Crawford’s future improvement as nearly desperate, for thinking that if Edmund’s influence in this season of love had already done so little in clearing her judgment, and regulating her notions, his worth would be finally wasted on her even in years of matrimony.

In their final conversation, Miss Crawford, despite some pleasant feelings and a lot of personal kindness, remained Miss Crawford. She still showed a confused and misled mind, without any awareness of it; she was in the dark but thought she was in the light. She might love him, but she didn't deserve Edmund for any other reason. Fanny felt there was hardly any real connection between them, and she could be forgiven by wiser minds for seeing the possibility of Miss Crawford’s future improvement as nearly hopeless. She thought that if Edmund’s influence during this season of love had achieved so little in clearing her judgment and shaping her thoughts, then his value would ultimately be wasted on her even after years of marriage.

Experience might have hoped more for any young people so circumstanced, and impartiality would not have denied to Miss Crawford’s nature that participation of the general nature of women which would lead her to adopt the opinions of the man she loved and respected as her own. But as such were Fanny’s persuasions, she suffered very much from them, and could never speak of Miss Crawford without pain.

Experience might have expected more from any young people in her situation, and fairness wouldn't deny that Miss Crawford's personality had that common trait found in many women, which would prompt her to adopt the opinions of the man she loved and respected as her own. But Fanny's beliefs were different, and she suffered a lot because of them; she could never talk about Miss Crawford without feeling pain.

Sir Thomas, meanwhile, went on with his own hopes and his own observations, still feeling a right, by all his knowledge of human nature, to expect to see the effect of the loss of power and consequence on his niece’s spirits, and the past attentions of the lover producing a craving for their return; and he was soon afterwards able to account for his not yet completely and indubitably seeing all this, by the prospect of another visitor, whose approach he could allow to be quite enough to support the spirits he was watching. William had obtained a ten days’ leave of absence, to be given to Northamptonshire, and was coming, the happiest of lieutenants, because the latest made, to shew his happiness and describe his uniform.

Sir Thomas, in the meantime, continued with his own hopes and observations, confident, based on his understanding of human nature, that he should expect to see the impact of the loss of power and status on his niece’s mood, as well as her past lover’s attention creating a desire for its return. He quickly realized that his inability to fully see this was due to the anticipation of another visitor, whose arrival was enough to buoy the spirits he was monitoring. William had secured a ten-day leave to head to Northamptonshire and was coming, the happiest of lieutenants, eager to share his joy and describe his uniform.

He came; and he would have been delighted to shew his uniform there too, had not cruel custom prohibited its appearance except on duty. So the uniform remained at Portsmouth, and Edmund conjectured that before Fanny had any chance of seeing it, all its own freshness and all the freshness of its wearer’s feelings must be worn away. It would be sunk into a badge of disgrace; for what can be more unbecoming, or more worthless, than the uniform of a lieutenant, who has been a lieutenant a year or two, and sees others made commanders before him? So reasoned Edmund, till his father made him the confidant of a scheme which placed Fanny’s chance of seeing the second lieutenant of H.M.S. Thrush in all his glory in another light.

He arrived, and he would have been happy to show off his uniform there too, if cruel tradition hadn’t banned its display except when on duty. So the uniform stayed at Portsmouth, and Edmund figured that by the time Fanny had a chance to see it, both its original freshness and the excitement of its wearer would be gone. It would just become a symbol of embarrassment; after all, what could be more unappealing or less valuable than the uniform of a lieutenant who's been one for a year or two, watching others get promoted to commander before him? That's how Edmund thought, until his father shared a plan that gave Fanny a new opportunity to see the second lieutenant of H.M.S. Thrush in all his glory.

This scheme was that she should accompany her brother back to Portsmouth, and spend a little time with her own family. It had occurred to Sir Thomas, in one of his dignified musings, as a right and desirable measure; but before he absolutely made up his mind, he consulted his son. Edmund considered it every way, and saw nothing but what was right. The thing was good in itself, and could not be done at a better time; and he had no doubt of it being highly agreeable to Fanny. This was enough to determine Sir Thomas; and a decisive “then so it shall be” closed that stage of the business; Sir Thomas retiring from it with some feelings of satisfaction, and views of good over and above what he had communicated to his son; for his prime motive in sending her away had very little to do with the propriety of her seeing her parents again, and nothing at all with any idea of making her happy. He certainly wished her to go willingly, but he as certainly wished her to be heartily sick of home before her visit ended; and that a little abstinence from the elegancies and luxuries of Mansfield Park would bring her mind into a sober state, and incline her to a juster estimate of the value of that home of greater permanence, and equal comfort, of which she had the offer.

This plan was for her to go back to Portsmouth with her brother and spend some time with her family. Sir Thomas had thought of it during one of his serious reflections as a good and acceptable idea; but before he made a final decision, he talked to his son. Edmund considered it from every angle and saw nothing wrong with it. It was obviously a good thing to do, and the timing couldn’t have been better; he also believed it would be very welcome to Fanny. This was enough to convince Sir Thomas, and a firm “then so it shall be” wrapped up that part of the matter; Sir Thomas walked away feeling satisfied, with thoughts of benefits beyond what he had shared with his son. His primary reason for sending her away had little to do with the appropriateness of her seeing her parents again and nothing to do with the goal of making her happy. He certainly wanted her to leave willingly, but he definitely wanted her to be thoroughly sick of home by the time her visit was over; he believed that a little time away from the comforts and luxuries of Mansfield Park would help her reflect more clearly and appreciate the value of the more permanent and equally comfortable home she had the chance to accept.

It was a medicinal project upon his niece’s understanding, which he must consider as at present diseased. A residence of eight or nine years in the abode of wealth and plenty had a little disordered her powers of comparing and judging. Her father’s house would, in all probability, teach her the value of a good income; and he trusted that she would be the wiser and happier woman, all her life, for the experiment he had devised.

It was a healing project for his niece’s understanding, which he had to view as currently flawed. Spending eight or nine years in a home of wealth and abundance had somewhat muddled her ability to compare and evaluate. Her father’s home would likely teach her the value of a good income, and he hoped that she would be a wiser and happier woman for the experience he had planned.

Had Fanny been at all addicted to raptures, she must have had a strong attack of them when she first understood what was intended, when her uncle first made her the offer of visiting the parents, and brothers, and sisters, from whom she had been divided almost half her life; of returning for a couple of months to the scenes of her infancy, with William for the protector and companion of her journey, and the certainty of continuing to see William to the last hour of his remaining on land. Had she ever given way to bursts of delight, it must have been then, for she was delighted, but her happiness was of a quiet, deep, heart-swelling sort; and though never a great talker, she was always more inclined to silence when feeling most strongly. At the moment she could only thank and accept. Afterwards, when familiarised with the visions of enjoyment so suddenly opened, she could speak more largely to William and Edmund of what she felt; but still there were emotions of tenderness that could not be clothed in words. The remembrance of all her earliest pleasures, and of what she had suffered in being torn from them, came over her with renewed strength, and it seemed as if to be at home again would heal every pain that had since grown out of the separation. To be in the centre of such a circle, loved by so many, and more loved by all than she had ever been before; to feel affection without fear or restraint; to feel herself the equal of those who surrounded her; to be at peace from all mention of the Crawfords, safe from every look which could be fancied a reproach on their account. This was a prospect to be dwelt on with a fondness that could be but half acknowledged.

If Fanny had ever been someone to get lost in excitement, she definitely would have felt a strong wave of it when she first realized what was about to happen. When her uncle first offered her the chance to visit her parents, brothers, and sisters, whom she had been separated from for almost half her life; when she could return for a couple of months to the places of her childhood, with William as her protector and travel companion, and the certainty of spending time with William until he had to leave land for good. If she had ever let herself burst into joy, it would have been at that moment, because she was thrilled, but her happiness was quiet and deep, swelling in her heart. Although she wasn’t a big talker, she tended to be even quieter when she felt intensely. In that moment, all she could do was thank him and accept the offer. Later, as she became more familiar with the exciting possibilities that had suddenly opened up, she could share more with William and Edmund about what she was feeling, but there were still tender emotions that couldn’t be expressed in words. Memories of all her earliest joys, and the pain of being taken from them, washed over her with renewed strength, making it seem like being home again would heal all the hurt she had endured since their separation. To be at the center of such a loving circle, cherished by many, and loved more than ever before; to feel affection without fear or limitations; to view herself as equal to those around her; to be free from any mention of the Crawfords, and safe from any looks that could be seen as reproachful concerning them. This was a vision to linger on with a fondness that could only be partially acknowledged.

Edmund, too—to be two months from him (and perhaps she might be allowed to make her absence three) must do her good. At a distance, unassailed by his looks or his kindness, and safe from the perpetual irritation of knowing his heart, and striving to avoid his confidence, she should be able to reason herself into a properer state; she should be able to think of him as in London, and arranging everything there, without wretchedness. What might have been hard to bear at Mansfield was to become a slight evil at Portsmouth.

Edmund, too—being two months away from him (and maybe she could stretch her absence to three) should do her some good. From a distance, free from his looks or kindness, and safe from the constant annoyance of knowing how he feels while trying to steer clear of his trust, she should be able to get herself into a better mindset. She should be able to picture him in London, taking care of everything there, without feeling miserable. What might have been difficult to handle at Mansfield would become a minor issue at Portsmouth.

The only drawback was the doubt of her aunt Bertram’s being comfortable without her. She was of use to no one else; but there she might be missed to a degree that she did not like to think of; and that part of the arrangement was, indeed, the hardest for Sir Thomas to accomplish, and what only he could have accomplished at all.

The only downside was the worry about whether her Aunt Bertram would be okay without her. She didn't really help anyone else; but over there, she might be missed more than she cared to imagine; and that part of the plan was definitely the hardest for Sir Thomas to manage, and only he could have made it happen at all.

But he was master at Mansfield Park. When he had really resolved on any measure, he could always carry it through; and now by dint of long talking on the subject, explaining and dwelling on the duty of Fanny’s sometimes seeing her family, he did induce his wife to let her go; obtaining it rather from submission, however, than conviction, for Lady Bertram was convinced of very little more than that Sir Thomas thought Fanny ought to go, and therefore that she must. In the calmness of her own dressing-room, in the impartial flow of her own meditations, unbiased by his bewildering statements, she could not acknowledge any necessity for Fanny’s ever going near a father and mother who had done without her so long, while she was so useful to herself. And as to the not missing her, which under Mrs. Norris’s discussion was the point attempted to be proved, she set herself very steadily against admitting any such thing.

But he was in charge at Mansfield Park. When he had truly made up his mind about something, he could always see it through; and now, after a lot of discussion about the importance of Fanny visiting her family, he managed to convince his wife to let her go. He achieved this more through submission than true belief, as Lady Bertram was hardly convinced of anything beyond the fact that Sir Thomas thought Fanny should go, and therefore, in her mind, she must. In the peacefulness of her own dressing room, lost in her own thoughts and not swayed by his confusing arguments, she couldn't see any reason for Fanny to visit parents who had managed without her for so long while she was so helpful to herself. And regarding the idea that they wouldn’t miss her, which Mrs. Norris tried to assert, she firmly opposed accepting that notion.

Sir Thomas had appealed to her reason, conscience, and dignity. He called it a sacrifice, and demanded it of her goodness and self-command as such. But Mrs. Norris wanted to persuade her that Fanny could be very well spared—she being ready to give up all her own time to her as requested—and, in short, could not really be wanted or missed.

Sir Thomas had appealed to her logic, morals, and self-respect. He referred to it as a sacrifice and insisted that it came from her kindness and self-control. But Mrs. Norris wanted to convince her that Fanny could be easily replaced—she was willing to devote all her own time to her as needed—and, in short, could genuinely be considered unnecessary or unmissed.

“That may be, sister,” was all Lady Bertram’s reply. “I dare say you are very right; but I am sure I shall miss her very much.”

“That may be, sister,” was all Lady Bertram’s reply. “I’m sure you’re right; but I know I’ll miss her a lot.”

The next step was to communicate with Portsmouth. Fanny wrote to offer herself; and her mother’s answer, though short, was so kind—a few simple lines expressed so natural and motherly a joy in the prospect of seeing her child again, as to confirm all the daughter’s views of happiness in being with her—convincing her that she should now find a warm and affectionate friend in the “mama” who had certainly shewn no remarkable fondness for her formerly; but this she could easily suppose to have been her own fault or her own fancy. She had probably alienated love by the helplessness and fretfulness of a fearful temper, or been unreasonable in wanting a larger share than any one among so many could deserve. Now, when she knew better how to be useful, and how to forbear, and when her mother could be no longer occupied by the incessant demands of a house full of little children, there would be leisure and inclination for every comfort, and they should soon be what mother and daughter ought to be to each other.

The next step was to get in touch with Portsmouth. Fanny wrote to offer herself; and her mother’s reply, though brief, was incredibly kind—a few simple lines showed such a natural and motherly joy at the thought of seeing her daughter again, confirming all of Fanny’s hopes for happiness in being with her—making her believe that she would now find a warm and loving friend in the “mom” who hadn’t shown much affection for her before; but she could easily think that had been her own fault or just her imagination. She probably pushed love away with the helplessness and irritability of a fearful temper, or had been unreasonable in wanting more attention than anyone among so many could fairly deserve. Now, with a better understanding of how to be helpful and patient, and with her mother no longer tied down by the constant demands of a house full of little kids, there would be time and willingness for every comfort, and they would soon be the kind of mother and daughter they were meant to be for each other.

William was almost as happy in the plan as his sister. It would be the greatest pleasure to him to have her there to the last moment before he sailed, and perhaps find her there still when he came in from his first cruise. And besides, he wanted her so very much to see the Thrush before she went out of harbour—the Thrush was certainly the finest sloop in the service—and there were several improvements in the dockyard, too, which he quite longed to shew her.

William was almost as excited about the plan as his sister was. It would mean so much to him to have her there right up until he sailed, and maybe even see her when he returned from his first trip. Plus, he really wanted her to see the Thrush before it left the harbor—the Thrush was definitely the best sloop in the fleet—and there were a few improvements at the dockyard that he couldn't wait to show her.

He did not scruple to add that her being at home for a while would be a great advantage to everybody.

He didn’t hesitate to say that her staying at home for a while would be a big benefit for everyone.

“I do not know how it is,” said he; “but we seem to want some of your nice ways and orderliness at my father’s. The house is always in confusion. You will set things going in a better way, I am sure. You will tell my mother how it all ought to be, and you will be so useful to Susan, and you will teach Betsey, and make the boys love and mind you. How right and comfortable it will all be!”

“I don’t know how it is,” he said, “but we really need some of your nice habits and organization at my dad’s place. The house is always a mess. You’ll definitely improve things, I’m sure of it. You’ll show my mom how it should all work, and you’ll be so helpful to Susan, and you’ll teach Betsey, and the boys will love and respect you. It’ll all be so right and comfortable!”

By the time Mrs. Price’s answer arrived, there remained but a very few days more to be spent at Mansfield; and for part of one of those days the young travellers were in a good deal of alarm on the subject of their journey, for when the mode of it came to be talked of, and Mrs. Norris found that all her anxiety to save her brother-in-law’s money was vain, and that in spite of her wishes and hints for a less expensive conveyance of Fanny, they were to travel post; when she saw Sir Thomas actually give William notes for the purpose, she was struck with the idea of there being room for a third in the carriage, and suddenly seized with a strong inclination to go with them, to go and see her poor dear sister Price. She proclaimed her thoughts. She must say that she had more than half a mind to go with the young people; it would be such an indulgence to her; she had not seen her poor dear sister Price for more than twenty years; and it would be a help to the young people in their journey to have her older head to manage for them; and she could not help thinking her poor dear sister Price would feel it very unkind of her not to come by such an opportunity.

By the time Mrs. Price’s response arrived, there were only a few days left to spend at Mansfield. During part of one of those days, the young travelers were quite anxious about their trip. As they discussed how they would travel, Mrs. Norris realized that all her worries about saving her brother-in-law’s money were pointless. Despite her hopes and hints for a cheaper way to send Fanny, they were going to travel by post. When she saw Sir Thomas actually handing William money for this purpose, it struck her that there might be room for a third person in the carriage. Suddenly feeling a strong urge to join them to visit her poor dear sister Price, she shared her thoughts. She mentioned that she was seriously considering going with the young people; it would be such a treat for her. She hadn’t seen her poor dear sister Price in over twenty years, and it would be helpful for the young travelers to have her experience guiding them. She couldn’t shake the thought that her poor dear sister Price would find it very unkind if she didn’t take this chance to visit.

William and Fanny were horror-struck at the idea.

William and Fanny were terrified at the thought.

All the comfort of their comfortable journey would be destroyed at once. With woeful countenances they looked at each other. Their suspense lasted an hour or two. No one interfered to encourage or dissuade. Mrs. Norris was left to settle the matter by herself; and it ended, to the infinite joy of her nephew and niece, in the recollection that she could not possibly be spared from Mansfield Park at present; that she was a great deal too necessary to Sir Thomas and Lady Bertram for her to be able to answer it to herself to leave them even for a week, and therefore must certainly sacrifice every other pleasure to that of being useful to them.

All the comfort of their pleasant journey would be ruined in an instant. With sad faces, they looked at each other. Their suspense lasted for an hour or two. No one stepped in to encourage or discourage them. Mrs. Norris had to handle the situation on her own, and it ended, to the immense joy of her nephew and niece, with the realization that she absolutely couldn’t leave Mansfield Park right now; she was far too important to Sir Thomas and Lady Bertram to justify leaving them even for a week, so she would definitely have to sacrifice any other enjoyment to be helpful to them.

It had, in fact, occurred to her, that though taken to Portsmouth for nothing, it would be hardly possible for her to avoid paying her own expenses back again. So her poor dear sister Price was left to all the disappointment of her missing such an opportunity, and another twenty years’ absence, perhaps, begun.

It actually crossed her mind that even though she was taken to Portsmouth for free, it would be pretty much impossible for her to avoid covering her own expenses on the way back. So, her poor sister Price was left to deal with the disappointment of missing out on such an opportunity, starting what could be another twenty years of absence.

Edmund’s plans were affected by this Portsmouth journey, this absence of Fanny’s. He too had a sacrifice to make to Mansfield Park as well as his aunt. He had intended, about this time, to be going to London; but he could not leave his father and mother just when everybody else of most importance to their comfort was leaving them; and with an effort, felt but not boasted of, he delayed for a week or two longer a journey which he was looking forward to with the hope of its fixing his happiness for ever.

Edmund’s plans were impacted by this trip to Portsmouth and Fanny's absence. He also had to make a sacrifice for Mansfield Park, just like his aunt. He had intended to go to London around this time, but he couldn’t leave his parents when everyone else important to their well-being was leaving them too. With an effort he didn’t brag about, he postponed the journey he had been looking forward to, hoping it would secure his happiness forever, for a week or two longer.

He told Fanny of it. She knew so much already, that she must know everything. It made the substance of one other confidential discourse about Miss Crawford; and Fanny was the more affected from feeling it to be the last time in which Miss Crawford’s name would ever be mentioned between them with any remains of liberty. Once afterwards she was alluded to by him. Lady Bertram had been telling her niece in the evening to write to her soon and often, and promising to be a good correspondent herself; and Edmund, at a convenient moment, then added in a whisper, “And I shall write to you, Fanny, when I have anything worth writing about, anything to say that I think you will like to hear, and that you will not hear so soon from any other quarter.” Had she doubted his meaning while she listened, the glow in his face, when she looked up at him, would have been decisive.

He told Fanny about it. She already knew so much that she had to know everything. It formed the basis of one more private conversation about Miss Crawford; and Fanny was even more affected because she realized it was the last time Miss Crawford’s name would be mentioned between them with any sense of freedom. Later, he referred to her again. Lady Bertram had been telling her niece in the evening to write to her soon and often, promising to be a good pen pal herself; and Edmund, at a suitable moment, added in a whisper, “And I will write to you, Fanny, when I have something worth sharing, something I think you'll want to hear, and that you won't hear so soon from anyone else.” If she had doubted his meaning while listening, the look on his face when she looked up at him would have confirmed it.

For this letter she must try to arm herself. That a letter from Edmund should be a subject of terror! She began to feel that she had not yet gone through all the changes of opinion and sentiment which the progress of time and variation of circumstances occasion in this world of changes. The vicissitudes of the human mind had not yet been exhausted by her.

For this letter, she needed to prepare herself. That a letter from Edmund could cause such fear! She started to realize that she hadn’t yet experienced all the shifts in opinion and feelings that time and changing circumstances bring in this ever-changing world. The ups and downs of the human mind hadn't yet been fully explored by her.

Poor Fanny! though going as she did willingly and eagerly, the last evening at Mansfield Park must still be wretchedness. Her heart was completely sad at parting. She had tears for every room in the house, much more for every beloved inhabitant. She clung to her aunt, because she would miss her; she kissed the hand of her uncle with struggling sobs, because she had displeased him; and as for Edmund, she could neither speak, nor look, nor think, when the last moment came with him; and it was not till it was over that she knew he was giving her the affectionate farewell of a brother.

Poor Fanny! Even though she was leaving willingly and eagerly, her last evening at Mansfield Park was still filled with misery. Her heart was completely heavy with sadness at the thought of parting. She had tears for every room in the house, and even more for every beloved person in it. She clung to her aunt because she would miss her; she kissed her uncle’s hand with tears, feeling she had disappointed him; and when it came to Edmund, she could neither speak, nor look, nor think in that final moment with him; it wasn't until it was over that she realized he was giving her a warm farewell like a brother would.

All this passed overnight, for the journey was to begin very early in the morning; and when the small, diminished party met at breakfast, William and Fanny were talked of as already advanced one stage.

All of this happened overnight, since the journey was set to start very early in the morning; and when the small, reduced group gathered for breakfast, William and Fanny were discussed as if they had already moved on to the next stage.

CHAPTER XXXVIII

The novelty of travelling, and the happiness of being with William, soon produced their natural effect on Fanny’s spirits, when Mansfield Park was fairly left behind; and by the time their first stage was ended, and they were to quit Sir Thomas’s carriage, she was able to take leave of the old coachman, and send back proper messages, with cheerful looks.

The excitement of traveling and the joy of being with William quickly lifted Fanny’s spirits once they left Mansfield Park behind. By the time they reached their first stop and were getting out of Sir Thomas's carriage, she was ready to say goodbye to the old coachman and send back friendly messages with a bright smile.

Of pleasant talk between the brother and sister there was no end. Everything supplied an amusement to the high glee of William’s mind, and he was full of frolic and joke in the intervals of their higher-toned subjects, all of which ended, if they did not begin, in praise of the Thrush, conjectures how she would be employed, schemes for an action with some superior force, which (supposing the first lieutenant out of the way, and William was not very merciful to the first lieutenant) was to give himself the next step as soon as possible, or speculations upon prize-money, which was to be generously distributed at home, with only the reservation of enough to make the little cottage comfortable, in which he and Fanny were to pass all their middle and later life together.

There was no end to the cheerful conversation between the brother and sister. Everything brought joy to William’s lively spirit, and he was full of fun and jokes during their deeper discussions, all of which, if they didn’t start, definitely ended with compliments for the Thrush, ideas about how she might be used, plans for an encounter with some stronger force—which, assuming the first lieutenant was out of the picture (and William was not very kind to the first lieutenant)—was to help him advance to the next rank as soon as he could, or thoughts about prize money, which was to be generously shared at home, with just enough set aside to make the little cottage comfortable, where he and Fanny would spend all their middle and later years together.

Fanny’s immediate concerns, as far as they involved Mr. Crawford, made no part of their conversation. William knew what had passed, and from his heart lamented that his sister’s feelings should be so cold towards a man whom he must consider as the first of human characters; but he was of an age to be all for love, and therefore unable to blame; and knowing her wish on the subject, he would not distress her by the slightest allusion.

Fanny’s immediate worries about Mr. Crawford didn’t come up in their conversation. William was aware of what had happened and sincerely felt sorry that his sister had such a cold attitude towards a man he considered to be the best of people. However, he was at an age where he was completely in favor of love, so he couldn’t blame her. Knowing her feelings on the matter, he didn’t want to upset her by even hinting at it.

She had reason to suppose herself not yet forgotten by Mr. Crawford. She had heard repeatedly from his sister within the three weeks which had passed since their leaving Mansfield, and in each letter there had been a few lines from himself, warm and determined like his speeches. It was a correspondence which Fanny found quite as unpleasant as she had feared. Miss Crawford’s style of writing, lively and affectionate, was itself an evil, independent of what she was thus forced into reading from the brother’s pen, for Edmund would never rest till she had read the chief of the letter to him; and then she had to listen to his admiration of her language, and the warmth of her attachments. There had, in fact, been so much of message, of allusion, of recollection, so much of Mansfield in every letter, that Fanny could not but suppose it meant for him to hear; and to find herself forced into a purpose of that kind, compelled into a correspondence which was bringing her the addresses of the man she did not love, and obliging her to administer to the adverse passion of the man she did, was cruelly mortifying. Here, too, her present removal promised advantage. When no longer under the same roof with Edmund, she trusted that Miss Crawford would have no motive for writing strong enough to overcome the trouble, and that at Portsmouth their correspondence would dwindle into nothing.

She had reason to believe she wasn't forgotten by Mr. Crawford. She had heard from his sister several times in the three weeks since they left Mansfield, and each letter included a few lines from him, warm and determined like his speeches. This correspondence was just as unpleasant for Fanny as she had feared. Miss Crawford’s writing style, lively and affectionate, was a problem in itself, separate from what she was forced to read from her brother, since Edmund would never stop until she had read the main part of the letter to him; then, she had to listen to his praise for her words and the warmth of her feelings. There had been so much messaging, allusion, and recollection, so much about Mansfield in every letter, that Fanny couldn’t help but think it was meant for him to hear; and being forced into that kind of situation, being obligated to correspond with the man she didn’t love while also catering to the feelings of the man she did, was incredibly humiliating. Still, her current distance offered a silver lining. With Edmund no longer living under the same roof, she hoped Miss Crawford wouldn’t have a strong enough reason to write, and that their correspondence would fizzle out once they were in Portsmouth.

With such thoughts as these, among ten hundred others, Fanny proceeded in her journey safely and cheerfully, and as expeditiously as could rationally be hoped in the dirty month of February. They entered Oxford, but she could take only a hasty glimpse of Edmund’s college as they passed along, and made no stop anywhere till they reached Newbury, where a comfortable meal, uniting dinner and supper, wound up the enjoyments and fatigues of the day.

With thoughts like these, among many others, Fanny continued her journey safely and happily, as quickly as could reasonably be expected in the muddy month of February. They arrived in Oxford, but she only caught a quick glimpse of Edmund’s college as they passed by, and didn’t stop anywhere until they got to Newbury, where a nice meal, combining dinner and supper, wrapped up the day's pleasures and exhaustion.

The next morning saw them off again at an early hour; and with no events, and no delays, they regularly advanced, and were in the environs of Portsmouth while there was yet daylight for Fanny to look around her, and wonder at the new buildings. They passed the drawbridge, and entered the town; and the light was only beginning to fail as, guided by William’s powerful voice, they were rattled into a narrow street, leading from the High Street, and drawn up before the door of a small house now inhabited by Mr. Price.

The next morning, they set off again early. Without any incidents or delays, they made good progress and reached the outskirts of Portsmouth while it was still light enough for Fanny to explore and marvel at the new buildings. They crossed the drawbridge and entered the town; the light was just starting to fade as they, guided by William’s loud voice, rattled into a narrow street off the High Street and stopped in front of a small house now occupied by Mr. Price.

Fanny was all agitation and flutter; all hope and apprehension. The moment they stopped, a trollopy-looking maidservant, seemingly in waiting for them at the door, stepped forward, and more intent on telling the news than giving them any help, immediately began with, “The Thrush is gone out of harbour, please sir, and one of the officers has been here to—” She was interrupted by a fine tall boy of eleven years old, who, rushing out of the house, pushed the maid aside, and while William was opening the chaise-door himself, called out, “You are just in time. We have been looking for you this half-hour. The Thrush went out of harbour this morning. I saw her. It was a beautiful sight. And they think she will have her orders in a day or two. And Mr. Campbell was here at four o’clock to ask for you: he has got one of the Thrush’s boats, and is going off to her at six, and hoped you would be here in time to go with him.”

Fanny was filled with anxiety and excitement; a mix of hope and worry. As soon as they arrived, a disheveled-looking maidservant, seemingly waiting for them at the door, stepped forward. More focused on sharing the news than offering help, she immediately started with, “The Thrush has left the harbor, sir, and one of the officers came by to—” She was interrupted by a tall boy of eleven who rushed out of the house, shoved the maid aside, and while William was opening the carriage door himself, shouted, “You made it just in time! We've been looking for you for the last half hour. The Thrush left the harbor this morning. I saw it. It was an amazing sight. They think she’ll get her orders in a day or two. And Mr. Campbell was here at four o’clock asking for you: he’s got one of the Thrush’s boats and is leaving for her at six, hoping you’d make it in time to go with him.”

A stare or two at Fanny, as William helped her out of the carriage, was all the voluntary notice which this brother bestowed; but he made no objection to her kissing him, though still entirely engaged in detailing farther particulars of the Thrush’s going out of harbour, in which he had a strong right of interest, being to commence his career of seamanship in her at this very time.

A glance or two at Fanny, while William assisted her out of the carriage, was all the attention this brother gave her; but he didn’t mind her kissing him, even though he was still fully focused on sharing more details about the Thrush leaving the harbor, in which he had a significant stake, as he was about to start his sailing career on her at that very moment.

Another moment and Fanny was in the narrow entrance-passage of the house, and in her mother’s arms, who met her there with looks of true kindness, and with features which Fanny loved the more, because they brought her aunt Bertram’s before her, and there were her two sisters: Susan, a well-grown fine girl of fourteen, and Betsey, the youngest of the family, about five—both glad to see her in their way, though with no advantage of manner in receiving her. But manner Fanny did not want. Would they but love her, she should be satisfied.

Another moment and Fanny was in the narrow entrance of the house, wrapped in her mother’s embrace, who greeted her there with genuine kindness. Fanny loved her mother’s features even more because they reminded her of Aunt Bertram, and there were her two sisters: Susan, a tall, lovely fourteen-year-old, and Betsey, the youngest in the family at about five—both happy to see her in their own way, though lacking in how they welcomed her. But Fanny didn't care about that. As long as they loved her, she would be content.

She was then taken into a parlour, so small that her first conviction was of its being only a passage-room to something better, and she stood for a moment expecting to be invited on; but when she saw there was no other door, and that there were signs of habitation before her, she called back her thoughts, reproved herself, and grieved lest they should have been suspected. Her mother, however, could not stay long enough to suspect anything. She was gone again to the street-door, to welcome William. “Oh! my dear William, how glad I am to see you. But have you heard about the Thrush? She is gone out of harbour already; three days before we had any thought of it; and I do not know what I am to do about Sam’s things, they will never be ready in time; for she may have her orders to-morrow, perhaps. It takes me quite unawares. And now you must be off for Spithead too. Campbell has been here, quite in a worry about you; and now what shall we do? I thought to have had such a comfortable evening with you, and here everything comes upon me at once.”

She was then taken into a small sitting room, so cramped that her first thought was that it was just a hallway to somewhere nicer. She stood for a moment, expecting to be invited further in, but when she noticed there was no other door and signs of life in front of her, she quickly pulled her thoughts back, scolded herself, and felt worried that she might have seemed suspicious. Her mother, however, couldn’t stay long enough to suspect anything. She rushed back to the front door to greet William. “Oh! My dear William, I’m so glad to see you. But have you heard about the Thrush? She has already set sail; three days earlier than we expected, and I don’t know what to do about Sam’s things—they won’t be ready in time; she might get her orders tomorrow, perhaps. It takes me completely by surprise. And now you have to head to Spithead too. Campbell has been here, quite worried about you, and now what are we going to do? I was hoping to have such a nice evening with you, and suddenly everything is happening at once.”

Her son answered cheerfully, telling her that everything was always for the best; and making light of his own inconvenience in being obliged to hurry away so soon.

Her son replied happily, saying that everything was always for the best and downplaying his own annoyance at having to leave so quickly.

“To be sure, I had much rather she had stayed in harbour, that I might have sat a few hours with you in comfort; but as there is a boat ashore, I had better go off at once, and there is no help for it. Whereabouts does the Thrush lay at Spithead? Near the Canopus? But no matter; here’s Fanny in the parlour, and why should we stay in the passage? Come, mother, you have hardly looked at your own dear Fanny yet.”

"Honestly, I'd much prefer if she had stayed in the harbor so I could spend a few hours with you comfortably, but since there's a boat on shore, I should head out right away, and there's no way around it. Where's the Thrush docked at Spithead? Close to the Canopus? But that's not important; Fanny is in the living room, so why should we linger in the hallway? Come on, Mom, you haven't really looked at your beloved Fanny yet."

In they both came, and Mrs. Price having kindly kissed her daughter again, and commented a little on her growth, began with very natural solicitude to feel for their fatigues and wants as travellers.

In they both came, and Mrs. Price, having kindly kissed her daughter again and noted her growth, started to express genuine concern for their tiredness and needs as travelers.

“Poor dears! how tired you must both be! and now, what will you have? I began to think you would never come. Betsey and I have been watching for you this half-hour. And when did you get anything to eat? And what would you like to have now? I could not tell whether you would be for some meat, or only a dish of tea, after your journey, or else I would have got something ready. And now I am afraid Campbell will be here before there is time to dress a steak, and we have no butcher at hand. It is very inconvenient to have no butcher in the street. We were better off in our last house. Perhaps you would like some tea as soon as it can be got.”

"Poor things! You must be both so tired! So, what do you want? I honestly thought you might never arrive. Betsey and I have been waiting for you for half an hour. When did you last eat? What would you like now? I couldn't tell if you'd want some meat or just a cup of tea after your trip, or I would have prepared something. I'm worried Campbell will show up before I have time to cook a steak, and we don't have a butcher nearby. It's really inconvenient not having a butcher on this street. We were better off at our last place. Maybe you'd like some tea as soon as we can get it."

They both declared they should prefer it to anything. “Then, Betsey, my dear, run into the kitchen and see if Rebecca has put the water on; and tell her to bring in the tea-things as soon as she can. I wish we could get the bell mended; but Betsey is a very handy little messenger.”

They both said they would rather have it than anything else. “Then, Betsey, my dear, can you go into the kitchen and check if Rebecca has started heating the water? And ask her to bring in the tea set as soon as she can. I wish we could get the bell fixed; but Betsey is a really helpful little messenger.”

Betsey went with alacrity, proud to shew her abilities before her fine new sister.

Betsey went eagerly, proud to showcase her skills in front of her lovely new sister.

“Dear me!” continued the anxious mother, “what a sad fire we have got, and I dare say you are both starved with cold. Draw your chair nearer, my dear. I cannot think what Rebecca has been about. I am sure I told her to bring some coals half an hour ago. Susan, you should have taken care of the fire.”

“Goodness!” continued the worried mother, “what a terrible fire we have, and I bet you’re both freezing. Come closer, my dear. I don’t know what Rebecca has been doing. I'm pretty sure I asked her to bring some coal half an hour ago. Susan, you should have looked after the fire.”

“I was upstairs, mama, moving my things,” said Susan, in a fearless, self-defending tone, which startled Fanny. “You know you had but just settled that my sister Fanny and I should have the other room; and I could not get Rebecca to give me any help.”

“I was upstairs, Mom, moving my stuff,” said Susan, in a bold, defensive tone that surprised Fanny. “You just decided that my sister Fanny and I would have the other room, and I couldn’t get Rebecca to help me.”

Farther discussion was prevented by various bustles: first, the driver came to be paid; then there was a squabble between Sam and Rebecca about the manner of carrying up his sister’s trunk, which he would manage all his own way; and lastly, in walked Mr. Price himself, his own loud voice preceding him, as with something of the oath kind he kicked away his son’s portmanteau and his daughter’s bandbox in the passage, and called out for a candle; no candle was brought, however, and he walked into the room.

Further conversation was interrupted by various commotions: first, the driver came to collect his payment; then there was a disagreement between Sam and Rebecca about how to carry up his sister's trunk, which he insisted on handling his own way; and finally, in walked Mr. Price himself, his booming voice announcing his arrival as he kicked aside his son's suitcase and his daughter's box in the hallway, demanding a candle. No candle was brought, however, and he entered the room.

Fanny with doubting feelings had risen to meet him, but sank down again on finding herself undistinguished in the dusk, and unthought of. With a friendly shake of his son’s hand, and an eager voice, he instantly began—“Ha! welcome back, my boy. Glad to see you. Have you heard the news? The Thrush went out of harbour this morning. Sharp is the word, you see! By G—, you are just in time! The doctor has been here inquiring for you: he has got one of the boats, and is to be off for Spithead by six, so you had better go with him. I have been to Turner’s about your mess; it is all in a way to be done. I should not wonder if you had your orders to-morrow: but you cannot sail with this wind, if you are to cruise to the westward; and Captain Walsh thinks you will certainly have a cruise to the westward, with the Elephant. By G—, I wish you may! But old Scholey was saying, just now, that he thought you would be sent first to the Texel. Well, well, we are ready, whatever happens. But by G—, you lost a fine sight by not being here in the morning to see the Thrush go out of harbour! I would not have been out of the way for a thousand pounds. Old Scholey ran in at breakfast-time, to say she had slipped her moorings and was coming out, I jumped up, and made but two steps to the platform. If ever there was a perfect beauty afloat, she is one; and there she lays at Spithead, and anybody in England would take her for an eight-and-twenty. I was upon the platform two hours this afternoon looking at her. She lays close to the Endymion, between her and the Cleopatra, just to the eastward of the sheer hulk.”

Fanny, feeling uncertain, had gotten up to greet him but sat back down when she realized she was unnoticed in the dim light. With a friendly handshake and an excited voice, he immediately started, "Hey! Welcome back, my boy. Great to see you. Have you heard the news? The Thrush left the harbor this morning. Things are moving quickly, you see! By gosh, you’re just in time! The doctor was here asking for you; he has one of the boats and is leaving for Spithead by six, so you should go with him. I’ve spoken to Turner about your mess; everything is on track. I wouldn’t be surprised if you get your orders tomorrow, but you can’t set sail with this wind if you’re headed west; Captain Walsh thinks you will definitely have a western cruise with the Elephant. By gosh, I hope you do! But old Scholey just said that he thought you’d be sent to the Texel first. Well, we’re ready for whatever comes. But by gosh, you missed an amazing sight by not being here this morning to see the Thrush leave the harbor! I wouldn’t have missed it for a thousand pounds. Old Scholey popped in during breakfast to say she had slipped her moorings and was coming out. I jumped up and took just two steps to the platform. If there’s ever been a perfect beauty at sea, she’s it; and there she is at Spithead, anyone in England would think she's a twenty-eight. I was on the platform for two hours this afternoon just watching her. She’s anchored close to the Endymion, between her and the Cleopatra, just east of the sheer hulk."

“Ha!” cried William, “that’s just where I should have put her myself. It’s the best berth at Spithead. But here is my sister, sir; here is Fanny,” turning and leading her forward; “it is so dark you do not see her.”

“Ha!” shouted William, “that’s exactly where I would have put her myself. It’s the best spot at Spithead. But here’s my sister, sir; here’s Fanny,” he said, turning and bringing her forward; “it’s so dark you can’t see her.”

With an acknowledgment that he had quite forgot her, Mr. Price now received his daughter; and having given her a cordial hug, and observed that she was grown into a woman, and he supposed would be wanting a husband soon, seemed very much inclined to forget her again. Fanny shrunk back to her seat, with feelings sadly pained by his language and his smell of spirits; and he talked on only to his son, and only of the Thrush, though William, warmly interested as he was in that subject, more than once tried to make his father think of Fanny, and her long absence and long journey.

Realizing he had completely forgotten about her, Mr. Price finally acknowledged his daughter; after giving her a warm hug and noting that she had grown into a woman—and assuming she would want to find a husband soon—he seemed quite ready to forget her once more. Fanny pulled back to her seat, hurt by his words and the smell of alcohol on him; he continued talking only to his son and strictly about the Thrush. Even though William was genuinely interested in that topic, he tried several times to steer his father's attention back to Fanny, her long absence, and her extended journey.

After sitting some time longer, a candle was obtained; but as there was still no appearance of tea, nor, from Betsey’s reports from the kitchen, much hope of any under a considerable period, William determined to go and change his dress, and make the necessary preparations for his removal on board directly, that he might have his tea in comfort afterwards.

After sitting for a while longer, they managed to get a candle; but since there was still no sign of tea and, according to Betsey's updates from the kitchen, not much hope of it anytime soon, William decided to go change his clothes and get ready for his move on board right away, so he could enjoy his tea in comfort later.

As he left the room, two rosy-faced boys, ragged and dirty, about eight and nine years old, rushed into it just released from school, and coming eagerly to see their sister, and tell that the Thrush was gone out of harbour; Tom and Charles. Charles had been born since Fanny’s going away, but Tom she had often helped to nurse, and now felt a particular pleasure in seeing again. Both were kissed very tenderly, but Tom she wanted to keep by her, to try to trace the features of the baby she had loved, and talked to, of his infant preference of herself. Tom, however, had no mind for such treatment: he came home not to stand and be talked to, but to run about and make a noise; and both boys had soon burst from her, and slammed the parlour-door till her temples ached.

As he left the room, two rosy-cheeked boys, scruffy and dirty, around eight and nine years old, rushed in, just out of school, eager to see their sister and share that the Thrush had left the harbor; Tom and Charles. Charles had been born since Fanny had left, but Tom was someone she had often helped take care of, and she felt a special joy in seeing him again. Both boys received very tender kisses, but Fanny wanted to keep Tom close to her so she could trace the features of the baby she had loved and talked to, remembering how he favored her as an infant. However, Tom wasn’t interested in that: he was home to run around and make noise, and both boys quickly broke free from her, slamming the parlor door until her temples throbbed.

She had now seen all that were at home; there remained only two brothers between herself and Susan, one of whom was a clerk in a public office in London, and the other midshipman on board an Indiaman. But though she had seen all the members of the family, she had not yet heard all the noise they could make. Another quarter of an hour brought her a great deal more. William was soon calling out from the landing-place of the second story for his mother and for Rebecca. He was in distress for something that he had left there, and did not find again. A key was mislaid, Betsey accused of having got at his new hat, and some slight, but essential alteration of his uniform waistcoat, which he had been promised to have done for him, entirely neglected.

She had now met everyone who was at home; only two brothers were left between her and Susan, one of whom worked as a clerk in a public office in London, and the other was a midshipman on an Indiaman ship. But even though she had met all the family members, she still had not heard all the noise they could make. Another fifteen minutes brought her a lot more. William was soon shouting from the landing of the second floor for his mother and for Rebecca. He was upset about something he had left there and couldn’t find. A key was missing, Betsey was accused of messing with his new hat, and a small but crucial alteration to his uniform waistcoat, which he had been promised would be done for him, was completely overlooked.

Mrs. Price, Rebecca, and Betsey all went up to defend themselves, all talking together, but Rebecca loudest, and the job was to be done as well as it could in a great hurry; William trying in vain to send Betsey down again, or keep her from being troublesome where she was; the whole of which, as almost every door in the house was open, could be plainly distinguished in the parlour, except when drowned at intervals by the superior noise of Sam, Tom, and Charles chasing each other up and down stairs, and tumbling about and hallooing.

Mrs. Price, Rebecca, and Betsey all went upstairs to defend themselves, talking all at once, but Rebecca was the loudest. They needed to get things done quickly. William tried in vain to send Betsey back down or to keep her from being a nuisance where she was. Everything was easily heard in the parlor since almost every door in the house was open, except when it was drowned out now and then by the louder noise of Sam, Tom, and Charles running up and down the stairs, tumbling around, and shouting.

Fanny was almost stunned. The smallness of the house and thinness of the walls brought everything so close to her, that, added to the fatigue of her journey, and all her recent agitation, she hardly knew how to bear it. Within the room all was tranquil enough, for Susan having disappeared with the others, there were soon only her father and herself remaining; and he, taking out a newspaper, the accustomary loan of a neighbour, applied himself to studying it, without seeming to recollect her existence. The solitary candle was held between himself and the paper, without any reference to her possible convenience; but she had nothing to do, and was glad to have the light screened from her aching head, as she sat in bewildered, broken, sorrowful contemplation.

Fanny was almost stunned. The small size of the house and the thinness of the walls made everything feel so close to her that, combined with her tiredness from the journey and all her recent stress, she hardly knew how to cope. Inside the room, everything was calm enough, as Susan had gone off with the others, leaving just her father and her. He took out a newspaper, a usual borrowed item from a neighbor, and focused on reading it, seemingly unaware of her presence. The lone candle was positioned between him and the paper, with no thought for her comfort; but she had nothing to occupy her and was grateful to have the light blocked from her aching head as she sat in confused, broken, sorrowful thought.

She was at home. But, alas! it was not such a home, she had not such a welcome, as—she checked herself; she was unreasonable. What right had she to be of importance to her family? She could have none, so long lost sight of! William’s concerns must be dearest, they always had been, and he had every right. Yet to have so little said or asked about herself, to have scarcely an inquiry made after Mansfield! It did pain her to have Mansfield forgotten; the friends who had done so much—the dear, dear friends! But here, one subject swallowed up all the rest. Perhaps it must be so. The destination of the Thrush must be now preeminently interesting. A day or two might shew the difference. She only was to blame. Yet she thought it would not have been so at Mansfield. No, in her uncle’s house there would have been a consideration of times and seasons, a regulation of subject, a propriety, an attention towards everybody which there was not here.

She was at home. But, unfortunately, it wasn't the kind of home she wanted; she didn’t feel that kind of welcome, as—she stopped herself; she was being unreasonable. What right did she have to feel important to her family? She had none, as she had been so out of touch! William's concerns must be the most important; they always had been, and he had every right to that. Still, to have so little said or asked about her, to have hardly anyone check in on Mansfield! It hurt her that Mansfield had been forgotten; the friends who had done so much—the dear, dear friends! But here, one topic overshadowed everything else. Maybe it had to be that way. The news about the Thrush must be the most interesting thing now. A day or two might show the difference. She was the only one to blame. Yet she felt it wouldn’t have been like this at Mansfield. No, in her uncle’s house, there would have been an awareness of timing and topics, a proper approach, a consideration for everyone that just wasn’t happening here.

The only interruption which thoughts like these received for nearly half an hour was from a sudden burst of her father’s, not at all calculated to compose them. At a more than ordinary pitch of thumping and hallooing in the passage, he exclaimed, “Devil take those young dogs! How they are singing out! Ay, Sam’s voice louder than all the rest! That boy is fit for a boatswain. Holla, you there! Sam, stop your confounded pipe, or I shall be after you.”

The only interruption to thoughts like these for nearly half an hour came from a sudden outburst from her father, which definitely didn’t help calm them down. With an unusually loud commotion in the hallway, he yelled, “Damn those kids! They're making such a racket! And Sam’s voice is louder than all the others! That kid is made for a boatswain. Hey, you there! Sam, stop that annoying singing, or I’ll come after you.”

This threat was so palpably disregarded, that though within five minutes afterwards the three boys all burst into the room together and sat down, Fanny could not consider it as a proof of anything more than their being for the time thoroughly fagged, which their hot faces and panting breaths seemed to prove, especially as they were still kicking each other’s shins, and hallooing out at sudden starts immediately under their father’s eye.

This threat was so clearly ignored that even when the three boys rushed into the room together and sat down just five minutes later, Fanny couldn't see it as anything more than them being completely worn out, which their flushed faces and heavy breathing indicated, especially since they were still kicking each other’s shins and suddenly shouting right in front of their father.

The next opening of the door brought something more welcome: it was for the tea-things, which she had begun almost to despair of seeing that evening. Susan and an attendant girl, whose inferior appearance informed Fanny, to her great surprise, that she had previously seen the upper servant, brought in everything necessary for the meal; Susan looking, as she put the kettle on the fire and glanced at her sister, as if divided between the agreeable triumph of shewing her activity and usefulness, and the dread of being thought to demean herself by such an office. “She had been into the kitchen,” she said, “to hurry Sally and help make the toast, and spread the bread and butter, or she did not know when they should have got tea, and she was sure her sister must want something after her journey.”

The next time the door opened, it brought something more welcome: it was the tea set, which she had almost given up hope of seeing that evening. Susan and a girl who looked a bit lesser, which surprised Fanny because she recognized her as one of the upper servants, came in with everything needed for the meal. Susan, as she put the kettle on the fire and glanced at her sister, seemed torn between the happy triumph of showing her activity and usefulness and the worry that people might think she was lowering herself by doing such work. “I went to the kitchen,” she said, “to hurry Sally and help make the toast and spread the butter on the bread, or I wasn’t sure when we would get tea. I was sure you must want something after your journey.”

Fanny was very thankful. She could not but own that she should be very glad of a little tea, and Susan immediately set about making it, as if pleased to have the employment all to herself; and with only a little unnecessary bustle, and some few injudicious attempts at keeping her brothers in better order than she could, acquitted herself very well. Fanny’s spirit was as much refreshed as her body; her head and heart were soon the better for such well-timed kindness. Susan had an open, sensible countenance; she was like William, and Fanny hoped to find her like him in disposition and goodwill towards herself.

Fanny was very grateful. She couldn’t help but admit that she would really appreciate a bit of tea, and Susan quickly got to work making it, seemingly happy to have the task to herself. With just a bit of unnecessary fuss and a few misguided attempts to keep her brothers in line, she managed quite well. Fanny felt her spirits lifted as much as her body; her head and heart were soon much improved by such thoughtful kindness. Susan had an open, sensible face; she was like William, and Fanny hoped she would also be similar to him in character and kindness toward her.

In this more placid state of things William reentered, followed not far behind by his mother and Betsey. He, complete in his lieutenant’s uniform, looking and moving all the taller, firmer, and more graceful for it, and with the happiest smile over his face, walked up directly to Fanny, who, rising from her seat, looked at him for a moment in speechless admiration, and then threw her arms round his neck to sob out her various emotions of pain and pleasure.

In this calmer moment, William came back in, followed not too far behind by his mother and Betsey. He was fully dressed in his lieutenant’s uniform, looking taller, more confident, and more graceful because of it, with a huge smile on his face. He walked right up to Fanny, who stood up from her seat, staring at him for a moment in silent admiration, and then wrapped her arms around his neck, crying out her mixed feelings of pain and joy.

Anxious not to appear unhappy, she soon recovered herself; and wiping away her tears, was able to notice and admire all the striking parts of his dress; listening with reviving spirits to his cheerful hopes of being on shore some part of every day before they sailed, and even of getting her to Spithead to see the sloop.

Anxious not to seem upset, she quickly pulled herself together; and after wiping away her tears, she was able to notice and admire all the standout features of his outfit. She listened with renewed spirits to his cheerful hopes of being on land part of every day before they set sail, and even of bringing her to Spithead to see the sloop.

The next bustle brought in Mr. Campbell, the surgeon of the Thrush, a very well-behaved young man, who came to call for his friend, and for whom there was with some contrivance found a chair, and with some hasty washing of the young tea-maker’s, a cup and saucer; and after another quarter of an hour of earnest talk between the gentlemen, noise rising upon noise, and bustle upon bustle, men and boys at last all in motion together, the moment came for setting off; everything was ready, William took leave, and all of them were gone; for the three boys, in spite of their mother’s entreaty, determined to see their brother and Mr. Campbell to the sally-port; and Mr. Price walked off at the same time to carry back his neighbour’s newspaper.

The next commotion brought in Mr. Campbell, the surgeon of the Thrush, a well-behaved young man who came to visit his friend. They managed to find a chair for him and, after a quick wash of the young tea-maker's tools, a cup and saucer. After another fifteen minutes of serious conversation between the men, with noise building and activity increasing, everyone—men and boys—finally got moving. The moment to leave arrived; everything was set, William bid farewell, and they all left. Despite their mother's pleas, the three boys decided to accompany their brother and Mr. Campbell to the sally-port, while Mr. Price went off at the same time to return his neighbor's newspaper.

Something like tranquillity might now be hoped for; and accordingly, when Rebecca had been prevailed on to carry away the tea-things, and Mrs. Price had walked about the room some time looking for a shirt-sleeve, which Betsey at last hunted out from a drawer in the kitchen, the small party of females were pretty well composed, and the mother having lamented again over the impossibility of getting Sam ready in time, was at leisure to think of her eldest daughter and the friends she had come from.

Something like calmness might now be expected; so, after Rebecca was convinced to take away the tea things, and Mrs. Price had walked around the room for a while searching for a shirt sleeve, which Betsey eventually found in a drawer in the kitchen, the small group of women were mostly settled. The mother, having once again complained about the difficulty of getting Sam ready on time, now had the time to think about her eldest daughter and the friends she had come from.

A few inquiries began: but one of the earliest—“How did sister Bertram manage about her servants?” “Was she as much plagued as herself to get tolerable servants?”—soon led her mind away from Northamptonshire, and fixed it on her own domestic grievances, and the shocking character of all the Portsmouth servants, of whom she believed her own two were the very worst, engrossed her completely. The Bertrams were all forgotten in detailing the faults of Rebecca, against whom Susan had also much to depose, and little Betsey a great deal more, and who did seem so thoroughly without a single recommendation, that Fanny could not help modestly presuming that her mother meant to part with her when her year was up.

A few questions started to come up: but one of the first—“How did Sister Bertram handle her servants?” “Was she as frustrated as I am to find decent help?”—quickly shifted her thoughts away from Northamptonshire and focused them on her own household issues, particularly the terrible reputation of all the Portsmouth servants, who she believed her own two were the absolute worst. She became completely absorbed in this. The Bertrams were completely forgotten as she went on about Rebecca's faults, which Susan also had plenty to say about, and little Betsey had even more. It seemed like Rebecca was so lacking in any redeeming qualities that Fanny couldn’t help but think her mother planned to let her go when her year was up.

“Her year!” cried Mrs. Price; “I am sure I hope I shall be rid of her before she has staid a year, for that will not be up till November. Servants are come to such a pass, my dear, in Portsmouth, that it is quite a miracle if one keeps them more than half a year. I have no hope of ever being settled; and if I was to part with Rebecca, I should only get something worse. And yet I do not think I am a very difficult mistress to please; and I am sure the place is easy enough, for there is always a girl under her, and I often do half the work myself.”

“Her year!” exclaimed Mrs. Price. “I really hope I can get rid of her before she’s been here a whole year, which won’t be until November. Servants in Portsmouth have gotten so bad, my dear, that it’s a miracle if you can keep them for more than six months. I have no hope of ever being settled; and if I let go of Rebecca, I’d only end up with someone worse. Yet, I don’t think I’m a very demanding boss; and I know the job isn’t too hard, since there’s always a girl below her, and I often do half the work myself.”

Fanny was silent; but not from being convinced that there might not be a remedy found for some of these evils. As she now sat looking at Betsey, she could not but think particularly of another sister, a very pretty little girl, whom she had left there not much younger when she went into Northamptonshire, who had died a few years afterwards. There had been something remarkably amiable about her. Fanny in those early days had preferred her to Susan; and when the news of her death had at last reached Mansfield, had for a short time been quite afflicted. The sight of Betsey brought the image of little Mary back again, but she would not have pained her mother by alluding to her for the world. While considering her with these ideas, Betsey, at a small distance, was holding out something to catch her eyes, meaning to screen it at the same time from Susan’s.

Fanny was quiet, but not because she believed there couldn’t be a solution to some of these problems. As she sat there looking at Betsey, she couldn’t help but think about another sister, a very cute little girl, whom she had left behind when she went to Northamptonshire, who had passed away a few years later. There had been something really sweet about her. Fanny in those early days had liked her more than Susan, and when the news of her death finally reached Mansfield, she had been quite upset for a while. The sight of Betsey brought back memories of little Mary, but she wouldn’t have wanted to upset her mother by mentioning her for anything. While she was lost in those thoughts, Betsey, standing a little way off, was holding out something to get her attention, trying to keep it hidden from Susan at the same time.

“What have you got there, my love?” said Fanny; “come and shew it to me.”

“What do you have there, my love?” said Fanny; “come and show it to me.”

It was a silver knife. Up jumped Susan, claiming it as her own, and trying to get it away; but the child ran to her mother’s protection, and Susan could only reproach, which she did very warmly, and evidently hoping to interest Fanny on her side. “It was very hard that she was not to have her own knife; it was her own knife; little sister Mary had left it to her upon her deathbed, and she ought to have had it to keep herself long ago. But mama kept it from her, and was always letting Betsey get hold of it; and the end of it would be that Betsey would spoil it, and get it for her own, though mama had promised her that Betsey should not have it in her own hands.”

It was a silver knife. Susan jumped up, claiming it as hers and trying to grab it, but the child ran to her mother for protection, leaving Susan only able to complain, which she did quite passionately, clearly hoping to get Fanny on her side. “It's so unfair that I can’t have my own knife; it’s my knife! Little sister Mary left it to me on her deathbed, and I should have had it to keep a long time ago. But Mom kept it from me and always let Betsey get her hands on it; in the end, Betsey will ruin it and make it hers, even though Mom had promised that Betsey wouldn’t be allowed to have it.”

Fanny was quite shocked. Every feeling of duty, honour, and tenderness was wounded by her sister’s speech and her mother’s reply.

Fanny was really shocked. Every sense of duty, honor, and affection was hurt by her sister's words and her mother's response.

“Now, Susan,” cried Mrs. Price, in a complaining voice, “now, how can you be so cross? You are always quarrelling about that knife. I wish you would not be so quarrelsome. Poor little Betsey; how cross Susan is to you! But you should not have taken it out, my dear, when I sent you to the drawer. You know I told you not to touch it, because Susan is so cross about it. I must hide it another time, Betsey. Poor Mary little thought it would be such a bone of contention when she gave it me to keep, only two hours before she died. Poor little soul! she could but just speak to be heard, and she said so prettily, ‘Let sister Susan have my knife, mama, when I am dead and buried.’ Poor little dear! she was so fond of it, Fanny, that she would have it lay by her in bed, all through her illness. It was the gift of her good godmother, old Mrs. Admiral Maxwell, only six weeks before she was taken for death. Poor little sweet creature! Well, she was taken away from evil to come. My own Betsey” (fondling her), “you have not the luck of such a good godmother. Aunt Norris lives too far off to think of such little people as you.”

“Now, Susan,” sighed Mrs. Price, sounding frustrated, “how can you be so upset? You’re always arguing about that knife. I wish you wouldn’t be so difficult. Poor little Betsey; look how mean Susan is to you! But you shouldn’t have taken it out, my dear, when I sent you to the drawer. I told you not to touch it because Susan is so worked up about it. I’ll have to hide it next time, Betsey. Poor Mary never thought it would cause such a fuss when she gave it to me to keep, just two hours before she passed away. Poor little thing! She could barely speak, and she said so sweetly, ‘Let sister Susan have my knife, mama, when I’m dead and buried.’ Poor little dear! She loved it so much, Fanny, that she had it by her side in bed throughout her illness. It was a gift from her wonderful godmother, old Mrs. Admiral Maxwell, just six weeks before she was taken from us. Poor little sweet girl! Well, she was taken away from all the bad to come. My own Betsey” (stroking her), “you don’t have the luck of such a good godmother. Aunt Norris lives too far away to think of little ones like you.”

Fanny had indeed nothing to convey from aunt Norris, but a message to say she hoped that her god-daughter was a good girl, and learnt her book. There had been at one moment a slight murmur in the drawing-room at Mansfield Park about sending her a prayer-book; but no second sound had been heard of such a purpose. Mrs. Norris, however, had gone home and taken down two old prayer-books of her husband with that idea; but, upon examination, the ardour of generosity went off. One was found to have too small a print for a child’s eyes, and the other to be too cumbersome for her to carry about.

Fanny really had nothing to share from Aunt Norris, just a message saying she hoped her goddaughter was a good girl and was studying her lessons. At one point, there was a slight discussion in the drawing room at Mansfield Park about sending her a prayer book, but nothing came of it. Mrs. Norris, however, went home and took down two old prayer books that belonged to her husband with that intention, but after looking them over, her enthusiasm faded. One was found to have print that was too small for a child’s eyes, and the other was too heavy for her to carry around.

Fanny, fatigued and fatigued again, was thankful to accept the first invitation of going to bed; and before Betsey had finished her cry at being allowed to sit up only one hour extraordinary in honour of sister, she was off, leaving all below in confusion and noise again; the boys begging for toasted cheese, her father calling out for his rum and water, and Rebecca never where she ought to be.

Fanny, tired and worn out, was grateful to accept the first chance to go to bed; and before Betsey had finished her tears at only getting to stay up an extra hour for her sister, she was gone, leaving everything below in chaos and noise again; the boys begging for toasted cheese, her father calling for his rum and water, and Rebecca never where she was supposed to be.

There was nothing to raise her spirits in the confined and scantily furnished chamber that she was to share with Susan. The smallness of the rooms above and below, indeed, and the narrowness of the passage and staircase, struck her beyond her imagination. She soon learned to think with respect of her own little attic at Mansfield Park, in that house reckoned too small for anybody’s comfort.

There was nothing to lift her spirits in the small, sparsely furnished room that she was supposed to share with Susan. The tightness of the rooms above and below, as well as the narrow hallway and staircase, shocked her more than she could have imagined. She quickly came to appreciate her own little attic at Mansfield Park, in that house considered too small for anyone's comfort.

CHAPTER XXXIX

Could Sir Thomas have seen all his niece’s feelings, when she wrote her first letter to her aunt, he would not have despaired; for though a good night’s rest, a pleasant morning, the hope of soon seeing William again, and the comparatively quiet state of the house, from Tom and Charles being gone to school, Sam on some project of his own, and her father on his usual lounges, enabled her to express herself cheerfully on the subject of home, there were still, to her own perfect consciousness, many drawbacks suppressed. Could he have seen only half that she felt before the end of a week, he would have thought Mr. Crawford sure of her, and been delighted with his own sagacity.

If Sir Thomas could have seen all of his niece’s emotions when she wrote her first letter to her aunt, he wouldn’t have despaired; because even though a good night’s sleep, a nice morning, the anticipation of seeing William again soon, and the relatively calm atmosphere at home—since Tom and Charles were at school, Sam was off on his own project, and her father was lounging as usual—allowed her to express herself happily about home, she still had a lot of suppressed feelings that she was fully aware of. If he could have seen just half of what she felt by the end of the week, he would have believed Mr. Crawford was definitely interested in her and would have been pleased with his own insight.

Before the week ended, it was all disappointment. In the first place, William was gone. The Thrush had had her orders, the wind had changed, and he was sailed within four days from their reaching Portsmouth; and during those days she had seen him only twice, in a short and hurried way, when he had come ashore on duty. There had been no free conversation, no walk on the ramparts, no visit to the dockyard, no acquaintance with the Thrush, nothing of all that they had planned and depended on. Everything in that quarter failed her, except William’s affection. His last thought on leaving home was for her. He stepped back again to the door to say, “Take care of Fanny, mother. She is tender, and not used to rough it like the rest of us. I charge you, take care of Fanny.”

Before the week was over, it was all disappointment. First of all, William was gone. The Thrush had her orders, the wind had changed, and he set sail within four days of their arrival in Portsmouth; and during those days, she had only seen him twice, briefly, when he came ashore on duty. There hadn’t been any meaningful conversation, no walk on the ramparts, no visit to the dockyard, no getting to know the Thrush, none of the plans they had relied on. Everything in that area let her down, except for William’s love. His last thought when leaving home was for her. He stepped back to the door to say, “Take care of Fanny, Mom. She’s delicate and not used to toughing it out like the rest of us. I insist, take care of Fanny.”

William was gone: and the home he had left her in was, Fanny could not conceal it from herself, in almost every respect the very reverse of what she could have wished. It was the abode of noise, disorder, and impropriety. Nobody was in their right place, nothing was done as it ought to be. She could not respect her parents as she had hoped. On her father, her confidence had not been sanguine, but he was more negligent of his family, his habits were worse, and his manners coarser, than she had been prepared for. He did not want abilities but he had no curiosity, and no information beyond his profession; he read only the newspaper and the navy-list; he talked only of the dockyard, the harbour, Spithead, and the Motherbank; he swore and he drank, he was dirty and gross. She had never been able to recall anything approaching to tenderness in his former treatment of herself. There had remained only a general impression of roughness and loudness; and now he scarcely ever noticed her, but to make her the object of a coarse joke.

William was gone, and the home he left her in was, Fanny couldn't deny, almost the exact opposite of what she had hoped for. It was a place filled with noise, chaos, and inappropriate behavior. No one was in their proper role, and nothing was done the right way. She couldn't respect her parents as she had wanted to. She hadn't had high hopes for her father, but he was even more negligent of his family, had worse habits, and was coarser than she expected. He wasn’t lacking in ability, but he had no curiosity or knowledge beyond his job; he only read the newspaper and the navy list. His conversations revolved around the dockyard, the harbor, Spithead, and the Motherbank. He swore and drank, and he was dirty and crude. She couldn't remember any moments of tenderness in how he treated her before. All she could recall was a general sense of roughness and loudness; now he barely noticed her unless it was to make her the punchline of a crude joke.

Her disappointment in her mother was greater: there she had hoped much, and found almost nothing. Every flattering scheme of being of consequence to her soon fell to the ground. Mrs. Price was not unkind; but, instead of gaining on her affection and confidence, and becoming more and more dear, her daughter never met with greater kindness from her than on the first day of her arrival. The instinct of nature was soon satisfied, and Mrs. Price’s attachment had no other source. Her heart and her time were already quite full; she had neither leisure nor affection to bestow on Fanny. Her daughters never had been much to her. She was fond of her sons, especially of William, but Betsey was the first of her girls whom she had ever much regarded. To her she was most injudiciously indulgent. William was her pride; Betsey her darling; and John, Richard, Sam, Tom, and Charles occupied all the rest of her maternal solicitude, alternately her worries and her comforts. These shared her heart: her time was given chiefly to her house and her servants. Her days were spent in a kind of slow bustle; all was busy without getting on, always behindhand and lamenting it, without altering her ways; wishing to be an economist, without contrivance or regularity; dissatisfied with her servants, without skill to make them better, and whether helping, or reprimanding, or indulging them, without any power of engaging their respect.

Her disappointment in her mother was even greater: there she had hoped for a lot and found almost nothing. Every flattering idea about being important to her quickly fell apart. Mrs. Price wasn't unkind; but instead of earning her daughter's love and trust, and becoming more dear to her, Fanny never experienced more kindness from her than on her first day there. The instinctual connection was soon fulfilled, and Mrs. Price’s affection had no other source. Her heart and time were already completely occupied; she had neither the time nor the affection to give to Fanny. Her daughters had never meant much to her. She was attached to her sons, especially William, but Betsey was the first of her girls she had ever really cared about. She was surprisingly indulgent with her. William was her pride; Betsey was her favorite; and John, Richard, Sam, Tom, and Charles filled the rest of her maternal concerns, alternating between being her worries and her comforts. These children shared her heart: her time was mostly dedicated to her home and her servants. Her days were a constant, slow hustle; everything was busy but never got done, always falling behind and lamenting it, without changing her methods; wanting to be economical, but lacking planning or consistency; dissatisfied with her servants, without the skills to improve them, and whether she was helping, scolding, or indulging them, she had no way to earn their respect.

Of her two sisters, Mrs. Price very much more resembled Lady Bertram than Mrs. Norris. She was a manager by necessity, without any of Mrs. Norris’s inclination for it, or any of her activity. Her disposition was naturally easy and indolent, like Lady Bertram’s; and a situation of similar affluence and do-nothingness would have been much more suited to her capacity than the exertions and self-denials of the one which her imprudent marriage had placed her in. She might have made just as good a woman of consequence as Lady Bertram, but Mrs. Norris would have been a more respectable mother of nine children on a small income.

Of her two sisters, Mrs. Price looked much more like Lady Bertram than Mrs. Norris. She managed out of necessity but lacked Mrs. Norris’s motivation and energy. Her nature was easygoing and lazy, like Lady Bertram’s; a life of similar wealth and leisure would have suited her abilities much better than the struggles and sacrifices required by her imprudent marriage. She could have been as significant a person as Lady Bertram, but Mrs. Norris would have made a more respectable mother of nine kids on a tight budget.

Much of all this Fanny could not but be sensible of. She might scruple to make use of the words, but she must and did feel that her mother was a partial, ill-judging parent, a dawdle, a slattern, who neither taught nor restrained her children, whose house was the scene of mismanagement and discomfort from beginning to end, and who had no talent, no conversation, no affection towards herself; no curiosity to know her better, no desire of her friendship, and no inclination for her company that could lessen her sense of such feelings.

Much of this Fanny couldn't help but notice. She might hesitate to express it, but she definitely felt that her mother was a biased, unfair parent, a lazy and untidy person, who neither educated nor guided her children. Their home was a constant place of chaos and unhappiness, and her mother showed no skill, no engaging conversation, no love for her; there was no interest in getting to know her better, no wish for her friendship, and no desire for her company that could soften those feelings.

Fanny was very anxious to be useful, and not to appear above her home, or in any way disqualified or disinclined, by her foreign education, from contributing her help to its comforts, and therefore set about working for Sam immediately; and by working early and late, with perseverance and great despatch, did so much that the boy was shipped off at last, with more than half his linen ready. She had great pleasure in feeling her usefulness, but could not conceive how they would have managed without her.

Fanny was eager to be useful and didn’t want to seem above her upbringing or in any way unqualified or unwilling because of her foreign education to help improve their home. So, she immediately started working for Sam. By putting in long hours with determination and speed, she accomplished so much that the boy was finally sent off with more than half of his linens ready. She took great pleasure in feeling helpful but couldn’t imagine how they would have managed without her.

Sam, loud and overbearing as he was, she rather regretted when he went, for he was clever and intelligent, and glad to be employed in any errand in the town; and though spurning the remonstrances of Susan, given as they were, though very reasonable in themselves, with ill-timed and powerless warmth, was beginning to be influenced by Fanny’s services and gentle persuasions; and she found that the best of the three younger ones was gone in him: Tom and Charles being at least as many years as they were his juniors distant from that age of feeling and reason, which might suggest the expediency of making friends, and of endeavouring to be less disagreeable. Their sister soon despaired of making the smallest impression on them; they were quite untameable by any means of address which she had spirits or time to attempt. Every afternoon brought a return of their riotous games all over the house; and she very early learned to sigh at the approach of Saturday’s constant half-holiday.

Sam, as loud and overbearing as he was, she actually felt regret when he left because he was smart and capable, always willing to run errands around town. Even though he often dismissed Susan's reasonable protests with ill-timed and useless enthusiasm, he was starting to be swayed by Fanny’s kindness and gentle encouragement. She realized that the best of the three younger ones was gone in him: Tom and Charles were still many years younger and far from that age of feeling and reason that would lead them to make friends and try to be less annoying. Their sister soon gave up on making any impression on them; they were completely unmanageable by any approach she had the energy or time to try. Every afternoon brought a resurgence of their noisy games throughout the house, and she quickly learned to sigh at the constant arrival of Saturday’s half-holiday.

Betsey, too, a spoiled child, trained up to think the alphabet her greatest enemy, left to be with the servants at her pleasure, and then encouraged to report any evil of them, she was almost as ready to despair of being able to love or assist; and of Susan’s temper she had many doubts. Her continual disagreements with her mother, her rash squabbles with Tom and Charles, and petulance with Betsey, were at least so distressing to Fanny that, though admitting they were by no means without provocation, she feared the disposition that could push them to such length must be far from amiable, and from affording any repose to herself.

Betsey, also a spoiled child, was raised to see the alphabet as her biggest enemy. She was often left to hang out with the servants whenever she wanted, and then encouraged to report any wrongdoing on their part. As a result, she was nearly as quick to lose hope in her ability to love or help others. Fanny had many concerns about Susan's temperament. Susan's constant arguments with her mother, her reckless fights with Tom and Charles, and her irritability with Betsey were so troubling to Fanny that, while she acknowledged they weren't without cause, she worried that a temperament that could lead to such extremes couldn't be very pleasant and wouldn't bring her any peace.

Such was the home which was to put Mansfield out of her head, and teach her to think of her cousin Edmund with moderated feelings. On the contrary, she could think of nothing but Mansfield, its beloved inmates, its happy ways. Everything where she now was in full contrast to it. The elegance, propriety, regularity, harmony, and perhaps, above all, the peace and tranquillity of Mansfield, were brought to her remembrance every hour of the day, by the prevalence of everything opposite to them here.

Such was the home that was supposed to make Mansfield fade from her mind and help her think of her cousin Edmund with more balanced feelings. Instead, she could think of nothing but Mansfield, its cherished residents, its joyful atmosphere. Everything around her now was in stark contrast to it. The elegance, propriety, order, harmony, and perhaps most importantly, the peace and calm of Mansfield were reminded to her every hour of the day by the abundance of everything that was the complete opposite here.

The living in incessant noise was, to a frame and temper delicate and nervous like Fanny’s, an evil which no superadded elegance or harmony could have entirely atoned for. It was the greatest misery of all. At Mansfield, no sounds of contention, no raised voice, no abrupt bursts, no tread of violence, was ever heard; all proceeded in a regular course of cheerful orderliness; everybody had their due importance; everybody’s feelings were consulted. If tenderness could be ever supposed wanting, good sense and good breeding supplied its place; and as to the little irritations sometimes introduced by aunt Norris, they were short, they were trifling, they were as a drop of water to the ocean, compared with the ceaseless tumult of her present abode. Here everybody was noisy, every voice was loud (excepting, perhaps, her mother’s, which resembled the soft monotony of Lady Bertram’s, only worn into fretfulness). Whatever was wanted was hallooed for, and the servants hallooed out their excuses from the kitchen. The doors were in constant banging, the stairs were never at rest, nothing was done without a clatter, nobody sat still, and nobody could command attention when they spoke.

Living in constant noise was, for someone as delicate and nervous as Fanny, an issue that no added elegance or harmony could fully make up for. It was the worst kind of misery. At Mansfield, there were no sounds of argument, no raised voices, no sudden outbursts, and no violent footsteps; everything happened in a calm and cheerful order. Everyone had their proper importance, and everyone’s feelings were taken into account. If tenderness ever seemed lacking, good sense and good manners filled the gap; and as for the minor irritations sometimes caused by Aunt Norris, they were brief, insignificant, and like a drop of water in the ocean compared to the constant chaos of her current home. Here, everyone was loud, every voice was raised (except maybe her mother’s, which was like Lady Bertram’s soft monotone, only worn down by irritation). Whatever was needed was shouted for, and the servants shouted back their excuses from the kitchen. Doors were constantly slamming, the stairs were never quiet, nothing was done without a racket, nobody sat still, and nobody could hold anyone's attention when they spoke.

In a review of the two houses, as they appeared to her before the end of a week, Fanny was tempted to apply to them Dr. Johnson’s celebrated judgment as to matrimony and celibacy, and say, that though Mansfield Park might have some pains, Portsmouth could have no pleasures.

In a review of the two houses, as they appeared to her before the end of a week, Fanny was tempted to use Dr. Johnson’s famous opinion about marriage and being single, and say that while Mansfield Park might have some hardships, Portsmouth could have no joys.

CHAPTER XL

Fanny was right enough in not expecting to hear from Miss Crawford now at the rapid rate in which their correspondence had begun; Mary’s next letter was after a decidedly longer interval than the last, but she was not right in supposing that such an interval would be felt a great relief to herself. Here was another strange revolution of mind! She was really glad to receive the letter when it did come. In her present exile from good society, and distance from everything that had been wont to interest her, a letter from one belonging to the set where her heart lived, written with affection, and some degree of elegance, was thoroughly acceptable. The usual plea of increasing engagements was made in excuse for not having written to her earlier; “And now that I have begun,” she continued, “my letter will not be worth your reading, for there will be no little offering of love at the end, no three or four lines passionnées from the most devoted H. C. in the world, for Henry is in Norfolk; business called him to Everingham ten days ago, or perhaps he only pretended the call, for the sake of being travelling at the same time that you were. But there he is, and, by the bye, his absence may sufficiently account for any remissness of his sister’s in writing, for there has been no ‘Well, Mary, when do you write to Fanny? Is not it time for you to write to Fanny?’ to spur me on. At last, after various attempts at meeting, I have seen your cousins, ‘dear Julia and dearest Mrs. Rushworth’; they found me at home yesterday, and we were glad to see each other again. We seemed very glad to see each other, and I do really think we were a little. We had a vast deal to say. Shall I tell you how Mrs. Rushworth looked when your name was mentioned? I did not use to think her wanting in self-possession, but she had not quite enough for the demands of yesterday. Upon the whole, Julia was in the best looks of the two, at least after you were spoken of. There was no recovering the complexion from the moment that I spoke of ‘Fanny,’ and spoke of her as a sister should. But Mrs. Rushworth’s day of good looks will come; we have cards for her first party on the 28th. Then she will be in beauty, for she will open one of the best houses in Wimpole Street. I was in it two years ago, when it was Lady Lascelle’s, and prefer it to almost any I know in London, and certainly she will then feel, to use a vulgar phrase, that she has got her pennyworth for her penny. Henry could not have afforded her such a house. I hope she will recollect it, and be satisfied, as well as she may, with moving the queen of a palace, though the king may appear best in the background; and as I have no desire to tease her, I shall never force your name upon her again. She will grow sober by degrees. From all that I hear and guess, Baron Wildenheim’s attentions to Julia continue, but I do not know that he has any serious encouragement. She ought to do better. A poor honourable is no catch, and I cannot imagine any liking in the case, for take away his rants, and the poor baron has nothing. What a difference a vowel makes! If his rents were but equal to his rants! Your cousin Edmund moves slowly; detained, perchance, by parish duties. There may be some old woman at Thornton Lacey to be converted. I am unwilling to fancy myself neglected for a young one. Adieu! my dear sweet Fanny, this is a long letter from London: write me a pretty one in reply to gladden Henry’s eyes, when he comes back, and send me an account of all the dashing young captains whom you disdain for his sake.”

Fanny was right to not expect to hear from Miss Crawford given how quickly their correspondence had started; Mary's next letter took quite a bit longer to arrive than the last one did, but she was wrong in thinking that such a wait would be a relief for her. Here’s another odd shift in mindset! She was genuinely happy to receive the letter when it finally came. In her current isolation from good company and her distance from everything she used to find interesting, a letter from someone in the circle where her heart belonged—written with warmth and a bit of elegance—was truly welcome. The usual excuse of increased obligations was given for not having written sooner: “And now that I’ve started,” she continued, “this letter won’t be worth your time, because there won’t be any sweet notes of love at the end, no three or four passionate lines from the most devoted H. C. in the world. Henry is in Norfolk; he left for Everingham ten days ago on business, or maybe he just pretended there was business to do so he could travel at the same time you were. But there he is, and by the way, his absence might explain his sister’s delay in writing, since there hasn’t been anyone saying, ‘Well, Mary, when will you write to Fanny? Isn’t it time for you to write to her?’ to push me along. Finally, after several attempts to meet up, I saw your cousins, ‘dear Julia and dearest Mrs. Rushworth’; they found me at home yesterday, and we were happy to see each other again. We really did seem excited to see each other, and I think we genuinely were a bit. We had so much to talk about. Should I tell you how Mrs. Rushworth reacted when your name came up? I used to think she was composed, but she didn’t have quite enough composure for yesterday’s demands. Overall, Julia looked better than her, at least after your name was mentioned. Mrs. Rushworth lost her color the moment I said ‘Fanny’ and spoke of her like a sister should. But Mrs. Rushworth will have her day of good looks; we have invitations for her first party on the 28th. She’ll be stunning because she will be hosting one of the best houses on Wimpole Street. I was there two years ago when it belonged to Lady Lascelle, and I prefer it to nearly any place I know in London. She’ll certainly feel, to use a common phrase, that she’s getting her money’s worth for her money. Henry couldn’t have given her that kind of house. I hope she remembers that and is satisfied, as well as she can be, with being the queen of a palace, even if the king shines best in the background; and since I don’t want to annoy her, I’ll never bring up your name in front of her again. She’ll become more serious over time. From what I hear and can guess, Baron Wildenheim is still paying attention to Julia, but I don’t know if he has any real encouragement. She deserves better. A poor nobleman is not a great catch, and I can’t imagine any attraction in that situation, because if you take away his rants, the poor baron has nothing. What a difference a vowel makes! If only his rents matched his rants! Your cousin Edmund is moving slowly; perhaps he’s held up by parish duties. There might be an old woman at Thornton Lacey who needs converting. I’m reluctant to think of myself as being overlooked for a younger woman. Adieu! my dear sweet Fanny, this is a long letter from London: write me a lovely one in return to brighten Henry’s eyes when he gets back, and tell me about all the dashing young captains you disdain for his sake.”

There was great food for meditation in this letter, and chiefly for unpleasant meditation; and yet, with all the uneasiness it supplied, it connected her with the absent, it told her of people and things about whom she had never felt so much curiosity as now, and she would have been glad to have been sure of such a letter every week. Her correspondence with her aunt Bertram was her only concern of higher interest.

There was a lot to think about in this letter, mostly uncomfortable thoughts; and despite all the discomfort it brought, it linked her to those who were far away, and it introduced her to people and things she had never been this curious about before. She would have happily welcomed such a letter every week. Her communication with her aunt Bertram was her only concern of greater interest.

As for any society in Portsmouth, that could at all make amends for deficiencies at home, there were none within the circle of her father’s and mother’s acquaintance to afford her the smallest satisfaction: she saw nobody in whose favour she could wish to overcome her own shyness and reserve. The men appeared to her all coarse, the women all pert, everybody underbred; and she gave as little contentment as she received from introductions either to old or new acquaintance. The young ladies who approached her at first with some respect, in consideration of her coming from a baronet’s family, were soon offended by what they termed “airs”; for, as she neither played on the pianoforte nor wore fine pelisses, they could, on farther observation, admit no right of superiority.

In Portsmouth, where any community might compensate for the shortcomings at home, there was no one among her parents' friends who could provide even the slightest comfort to her: she didn’t see anyone she’d want to overcome her own shyness and reserve for. The men seemed crude to her, the women all pretentious, and everyone felt uncultured; she offered as little enjoyment as she got from introductions to both old and new acquaintances. The young ladies who initially approached her with some respect because she came from a family of baronets quickly became offended by what they called “airs”; since she neither played the piano nor wore fancy coats, they couldn’t, upon closer inspection, acknowledge any sense of superiority.

The first solid consolation which Fanny received for the evils of home, the first which her judgment could entirely approve, and which gave any promise of durability, was in a better knowledge of Susan, and a hope of being of service to her. Susan had always behaved pleasantly to herself, but the determined character of her general manners had astonished and alarmed her, and it was at least a fortnight before she began to understand a disposition so totally different from her own. Susan saw that much was wrong at home, and wanted to set it right. That a girl of fourteen, acting only on her own unassisted reason, should err in the method of reform, was not wonderful; and Fanny soon became more disposed to admire the natural light of the mind which could so early distinguish justly, than to censure severely the faults of conduct to which it led. Susan was only acting on the same truths, and pursuing the same system, which her own judgment acknowledged, but which her more supine and yielding temper would have shrunk from asserting. Susan tried to be useful, where she could only have gone away and cried; and that Susan was useful she could perceive; that things, bad as they were, would have been worse but for such interposition, and that both her mother and Betsey were restrained from some excesses of very offensive indulgence and vulgarity.

The first real comfort Fanny found from the struggles at home, the first one her judgment could fully accept and that seemed like it could last, came from better understanding Susan and hoping to be helpful to her. Susan had always treated her nicely, but the firmness of her overall behavior had surprised and unsettled Fanny, and it took at least two weeks for her to start to grasp a mindset that was so different from her own. Susan recognized that a lot was wrong at home and wanted to fix it. It wasn’t surprising that a fourteen-year-old, relying only on her own reasoning, would make mistakes in how to bring about change; Fanny quickly became more inclined to appreciate the natural intelligence that could identify what was right so early on, rather than harshly judging the resulting mishaps. Susan was only acting on the same truths and following the same principles that Fanny's own judgment acknowledged, but which her more passive nature would have held back from expressing. Susan tried to be helpful in ways that Fanny could only have responded to by crying; and Fanny could see that Susan was making a difference; that even though things were bad, they would have been worse without Susan’s actions, and that both her mother and Betsey were held back from some really excessive indulgence and lack of class.

In every argument with her mother, Susan had in point of reason the advantage, and never was there any maternal tenderness to buy her off. The blind fondness which was for ever producing evil around her she had never known. There was no gratitude for affection past or present to make her better bear with its excesses to the others.

In every argument with her mother, Susan always had the upper hand when it came to reasoning, and there was never any maternal affection to sway her. She had never experienced the blind love that constantly caused trouble around her. There was no gratitude for past or present affection that made her more tolerant of its excesses towards others.

All this became gradually evident, and gradually placed Susan before her sister as an object of mingled compassion and respect. That her manner was wrong, however, at times very wrong, her measures often ill-chosen and ill-timed, and her looks and language very often indefensible, Fanny could not cease to feel; but she began to hope they might be rectified. Susan, she found, looked up to her and wished for her good opinion; and new as anything like an office of authority was to Fanny, new as it was to imagine herself capable of guiding or informing any one, she did resolve to give occasional hints to Susan, and endeavour to exercise for her advantage the juster notions of what was due to everybody, and what would be wisest for herself, which her own more favoured education had fixed in her.

All of this gradually became clear and placed Susan in front of her sister as someone deserving both compassion and respect. Fanny couldn’t ignore that Susan’s behavior was often inappropriate, her actions poorly chosen and poorly timed, and her expressions and words frequently unjustifiable. However, she started to hope that these issues could be corrected. Fanny realized that Susan looked up to her and wanted her approval; and even though it was completely new for Fanny to think of herself in a position of authority or to believe she could guide or inform someone, she decided to occasionally offer Susan some advice and try to use her own better understanding of what was fair to everyone and what would be smartest for herself, which came from her own more privileged education.

Her influence, or at least the consciousness and use of it, originated in an act of kindness by Susan, which, after many hesitations of delicacy, she at last worked herself up to. It had very early occurred to her that a small sum of money might, perhaps, restore peace for ever on the sore subject of the silver knife, canvassed as it now was continually, and the riches which she was in possession of herself, her uncle having given her £10 at parting, made her as able as she was willing to be generous. But she was so wholly unused to confer favours, except on the very poor, so unpractised in removing evils, or bestowing kindnesses among her equals, and so fearful of appearing to elevate herself as a great lady at home, that it took some time to determine that it would not be unbecoming in her to make such a present. It was made, however, at last: a silver knife was bought for Betsey, and accepted with great delight, its newness giving it every advantage over the other that could be desired; Susan was established in the full possession of her own, Betsey handsomely declaring that now she had got one so much prettier herself, she should never want that again; and no reproach seemed conveyed to the equally satisfied mother, which Fanny had almost feared to be impossible. The deed thoroughly answered: a source of domestic altercation was entirely done away, and it was the means of opening Susan’s heart to her, and giving her something more to love and be interested in. Susan shewed that she had delicacy: pleased as she was to be mistress of property which she had been struggling for at least two years, she yet feared that her sister’s judgment had been against her, and that a reproof was designed her for having so struggled as to make the purchase necessary for the tranquillity of the house.

Her influence, or at least her awareness and use of it, came from an act of kindness by Susan, which she finally worked herself up to after much hesitation. She had realized early on that a small amount of money might, perhaps, restore peace forever regarding the much-discussed silver knife. The money she had, as her uncle had given her £10 when he left, made her able and willing to be generous. However, she was so unused to giving favors, except to those very poor, and so inexperienced in removing troubles or showing kindness to her equals, that it took her some time to convince herself that making such a gift would not be inappropriate. In the end, though, she made the gesture: a silver knife was bought for Betsey, who accepted it with great joy, its newness giving it every advantage over the old one; Susan felt fully satisfied as Betsey happily declared that now she had one that was so much prettier, she would never want that again. No reproach seemed directed at the equally pleased mother, which Fanny had almost thought was impossible. The gesture was a complete success: a source of domestic conflict was entirely eliminated, and it opened Susan’s heart, giving her something more to love and care about. Susan showed that she had sensitivity: even though she was delighted to have property that she had been striving for over the past two years, she still worried that her sister’s judgment was against her and that she was meant to be reproached for having struggled so hard to make the purchase necessary for bringing peace to the household.

Her temper was open. She acknowledged her fears, blamed herself for having contended so warmly; and from that hour Fanny, understanding the worth of her disposition and perceiving how fully she was inclined to seek her good opinion and refer to her judgment, began to feel again the blessing of affection, and to entertain the hope of being useful to a mind so much in need of help, and so much deserving it. She gave advice, advice too sound to be resisted by a good understanding, and given so mildly and considerately as not to irritate an imperfect temper, and she had the happiness of observing its good effects not unfrequently. More was not expected by one who, while seeing all the obligation and expediency of submission and forbearance, saw also with sympathetic acuteness of feeling all that must be hourly grating to a girl like Susan. Her greatest wonder on the subject soon became—not that Susan should have been provoked into disrespect and impatience against her better knowledge—but that so much better knowledge, so many good notions should have been hers at all; and that, brought up in the midst of negligence and error, she should have formed such proper opinions of what ought to be; she, who had had no cousin Edmund to direct her thoughts or fix her principles.

Her temper was clear. She acknowledged her fears and took responsibility for being so passionate; and from that moment on, Fanny, recognizing the value of her character and realizing how eager she was to gain her approval and consult her judgment, began to feel the joy of affection again, and to hope that she could be helpful to a mind so in need and truly deserving of support. She offered advice, wisdom too solid to be ignored by someone with good sense, and delivered it in such a gentle and thoughtful way that it wouldn’t annoy someone with a rough temper, and she was happy to see its positive effects fairly often. More was not expected from someone who, while aware of the necessity and advantages of patience and restraint, also deeply felt everything that must be frustrating to a girl like Susan. Her greatest surprise on the matter soon became—not that Susan should have acted out in disrespect and impatience against her better judgment—but that so much better judgment, so many good ideas should have belonged to her at all; and that, raised in an environment of neglect and mistakes, she could have developed such sensible views on what should be; she, who had no cousin Edmund to guide her thoughts or establish her principles.

The intimacy thus begun between them was a material advantage to each. By sitting together upstairs, they avoided a great deal of the disturbance of the house; Fanny had peace, and Susan learned to think it no misfortune to be quietly employed. They sat without a fire; but that was a privation familiar even to Fanny, and she suffered the less because reminded by it of the East room. It was the only point of resemblance. In space, light, furniture, and prospect, there was nothing alike in the two apartments; and she often heaved a sigh at the remembrance of all her books and boxes, and various comforts there. By degrees the girls came to spend the chief of the morning upstairs, at first only in working and talking, but after a few days, the remembrance of the said books grew so potent and stimulative that Fanny found it impossible not to try for books again. There were none in her father’s house; but wealth is luxurious and daring, and some of hers found its way to a circulating library. She became a subscriber; amazed at being anything in propria persona, amazed at her own doings in every way, to be a renter, a chuser of books! And to be having any one’s improvement in view in her choice! But so it was. Susan had read nothing, and Fanny longed to give her a share in her own first pleasures, and inspire a taste for the biography and poetry which she delighted in herself.

The closeness that formed between them was beneficial for both. By sitting together upstairs, they avoided a lot of the noise from the house; Fanny found peace, and Susan learned that it wasn't such a bad thing to be quietly occupied. They sat without a fire, but that was a lack Fanny was used to, and she felt it less because it reminded her of the East room. It was the only thing that resembled it. In terms of space, light, furniture, and view, the two rooms were nothing alike; she often sighed at the memory of all her books, boxes, and various comforts there. Gradually, the girls began spending most of their mornings upstairs, initially just working and talking. But after a few days, the memory of those books became so powerful and inspiring that Fanny found it hard to resist trying to get books again. There were none in her father's house, but her wealth was luxurious and bold, and some of it made its way to a circulating library. She became a subscriber, amazed to be anything in propria persona, surprised by her own actions in every way, to be a renter and a chooser of books! And to be considering someone else's improvement in her selections! But that was how it was. Susan had read nothing, and Fanny wanted to share her own early joys with her and spark an interest in the biography and poetry that she herself loved.

In this occupation she hoped, moreover, to bury some of the recollections of Mansfield, which were too apt to seize her mind if her fingers only were busy; and, especially at this time, hoped it might be useful in diverting her thoughts from pursuing Edmund to London, whither, on the authority of her aunt’s last letter, she knew he was gone. She had no doubt of what would ensue. The promised notification was hanging over her head. The postman’s knock within the neighbourhood was beginning to bring its daily terrors, and if reading could banish the idea for even half an hour, it was something gained.

In this job, she hoped to bury some of her memories of Mansfield, which too often invaded her thoughts if her hands were just busy; and especially at this moment, she hoped it would help distract her from chasing after Edmund to London, where she knew he had gone according to her aunt’s last letter. She had no doubt about what would happen next. The expected notification was looming over her. The postman’s knock nearby was starting to bring daily dread, and if reading could push that thought away for even half an hour, it was a small victory.

CHAPTER XLI

A week was gone since Edmund might be supposed in town, and Fanny had heard nothing of him. There were three different conclusions to be drawn from his silence, between which her mind was in fluctuation; each of them at times being held the most probable. Either his going had been again delayed, or he had yet procured no opportunity of seeing Miss Crawford alone, or he was too happy for letter-writing!

A week had passed since Edmund was supposed to be in town, and Fanny hadn't heard anything from him. There were three possible reasons for his silence that she kept going back and forth on; each one seemed likely at times. Either his departure had been delayed again, he still hadn’t found a chance to see Miss Crawford alone, or he was too happy to bother with writing letters!

One morning, about this time, Fanny having now been nearly four weeks from Mansfield, a point which she never failed to think over and calculate every day, as she and Susan were preparing to remove, as usual, upstairs, they were stopped by the knock of a visitor, whom they felt they could not avoid, from Rebecca’s alertness in going to the door, a duty which always interested her beyond any other.

One morning, around this time, Fanny, who had been away from Mansfield for nearly four weeks—a fact she calculated and thought about every day—was getting ready to go upstairs with Susan, as usual, when they were interrupted by the knock of a visitor. They could tell they couldn't ignore it, especially with Rebecca eagerly heading to the door, a task that always intrigued her more than anything else.

It was a gentleman’s voice; it was a voice that Fanny was just turning pale about, when Mr. Crawford walked into the room.

It was a gentleman's voice; it was a voice that Fanny was just starting to turn pale at when Mr. Crawford walked into the room.

Good sense, like hers, will always act when really called upon; and she found that she had been able to name him to her mother, and recall her remembrance of the name, as that of “William’s friend,” though she could not previously have believed herself capable of uttering a syllable at such a moment. The consciousness of his being known there only as William’s friend was some support. Having introduced him, however, and being all reseated, the terrors that occurred of what this visit might lead to were overpowering, and she fancied herself on the point of fainting away.

Good sense, like hers, will always kick in when it’s really needed; and she realized she had managed to mention him to her mother and remind her of his name, referring to him as “William’s friend,” even though she wouldn’t have believed she could speak a word in that moment. The fact that he was known there only as William’s friend was somewhat reassuring. However, after introducing him and everyone settling back down, the fears of what this visit could lead to became overwhelming, and she felt like she was about to faint.

While trying to keep herself alive, their visitor, who had at first approached her with as animated a countenance as ever, was wisely and kindly keeping his eyes away, and giving her time to recover, while he devoted himself entirely to her mother, addressing her, and attending to her with the utmost politeness and propriety, at the same time with a degree of friendliness, of interest at least, which was making his manner perfect.

While trying to stay alive, their visitor, who initially came to her with an animated face, was wisely and kindly keeping his eyes away and giving her time to recover. He focused entirely on her mother, speaking to her and attending to her with the utmost politeness and propriety, along with a level of friendliness and genuine interest that made his behavior perfect.

Mrs. Price’s manners were also at their best. Warmed by the sight of such a friend to her son, and regulated by the wish of appearing to advantage before him, she was overflowing with gratitude—artless, maternal gratitude—which could not be unpleasing. Mr. Price was out, which she regretted very much. Fanny was just recovered enough to feel that she could not regret it; for to her many other sources of uneasiness was added the severe one of shame for the home in which he found her. She might scold herself for the weakness, but there was no scolding it away. She was ashamed, and she would have been yet more ashamed of her father than of all the rest.

Mrs. Price was on her best behavior. Feeling grateful for having such a friend for her son and wanting to impress him, she was filled with genuine, maternal gratitude that was hard not to appreciate. Mr. Price was out, which she found quite disappointing. Fanny had just recovered enough to realize that she couldn't feel regret; in addition to her many other worries, she felt the strong burden of shame about the home he found her in. She could scold herself for being weak, but that wouldn’t change anything. She was ashamed, and she would have felt even more ashamed of her father than of everything else.

They talked of William, a subject on which Mrs. Price could never tire; and Mr. Crawford was as warm in his commendation as even her heart could wish. She felt that she had never seen so agreeable a man in her life; and was only astonished to find that, so great and so agreeable as he was, he should be come down to Portsmouth neither on a visit to the port-admiral, nor the commissioner, nor yet with the intention of going over to the island, nor of seeing the dockyard. Nothing of all that she had been used to think of as the proof of importance, or the employment of wealth, had brought him to Portsmouth. He had reached it late the night before, was come for a day or two, was staying at the Crown, had accidentally met with a navy officer or two of his acquaintance since his arrival, but had no object of that kind in coming.

They talked about William, a topic Mrs. Price could never get enough of; and Mr. Crawford praised him as warmly as she could hope for. She felt she had never met such an charming man in her life; and was only surprised to find that, as impressive and pleasant as he was, he had come to Portsmouth neither to visit the port-admiral, nor the commissioner, nor to go over to the island, nor to check out the dockyard. Nothing that she had always associated with importance or the perks of wealth had brought him to Portsmouth. He had arrived late the night before, was there for a day or two, was staying at the Crown, had run into a couple of navy officers he knew since arriving, but had no specific purpose in coming.

By the time he had given all this information, it was not unreasonable to suppose that Fanny might be looked at and spoken to; and she was tolerably able to bear his eye, and hear that he had spent half an hour with his sister the evening before his leaving London; that she had sent her best and kindest love, but had had no time for writing; that he thought himself lucky in seeing Mary for even half an hour, having spent scarcely twenty-four hours in London, after his return from Norfolk, before he set off again; that her cousin Edmund was in town, had been in town, he understood, a few days; that he had not seen him himself, but that he was well, had left them all well at Mansfield, and was to dine, as yesterday, with the Frasers.

By the time he shared all this information, it wasn't unreasonable to think that Fanny might be looked at and spoken to; she was reasonably able to handle his gaze and hear that he had spent half an hour with his sister the evening before leaving London; she had sent her best and warmest love, but hadn’t had time to write; he considered himself lucky to see Mary for even half an hour, having spent barely twenty-four hours in London after his return from Norfolk before setting off again; her cousin Edmund was in town, he understood, for a few days; he hadn’t seen him himself, but he was doing well, had left everyone at Mansfield in good spirits, and was supposed to have dinner, like yesterday, with the Frasers.

Fanny listened collectedly, even to the last-mentioned circumstance; nay, it seemed a relief to her worn mind to be at any certainty; and the words, “then by this time it is all settled,” passed internally, without more evidence of emotion than a faint blush.

Fanny listened calmly, even to the last thing mentioned; in fact, it seemed to ease her tired mind to have some clarity; and the words, “then by this time it’s all settled,” went through her mind without showing more emotion than a slight blush.

After talking a little more about Mansfield, a subject in which her interest was most apparent, Crawford began to hint at the expediency of an early walk. “It was a lovely morning, and at that season of the year a fine morning so often turned off, that it was wisest for everybody not to delay their exercise”; and such hints producing nothing, he soon proceeded to a positive recommendation to Mrs. Price and her daughters to take their walk without loss of time. Now they came to an understanding. Mrs. Price, it appeared, scarcely ever stirred out of doors, except of a Sunday; she owned she could seldom, with her large family, find time for a walk. “Would she not, then, persuade her daughters to take advantage of such weather, and allow him the pleasure of attending them?” Mrs. Price was greatly obliged and very complying. “Her daughters were very much confined; Portsmouth was a sad place; they did not often get out; and she knew they had some errands in the town, which they would be very glad to do.” And the consequence was, that Fanny, strange as it was—strange, awkward, and distressing—found herself and Susan, within ten minutes, walking towards the High Street with Mr. Crawford.

After chatting a bit more about Mansfield, a topic she clearly cared about, Crawford started suggesting that it would be a good idea to go for a walk soon. “It’s a beautiful morning, and at this time of year, nice mornings can change quickly, so it’s best for everyone not to put off their exercise.” When his hints didn't lead anywhere, he quickly made a direct suggestion to Mrs. Price and her daughters to take their walk without delay. They reached an understanding. It turned out that Mrs. Price hardly ever went outside except on Sundays; she admitted that with her big family, she rarely found time for a walk. “Wouldn’t she encourage her daughters to make the most of this nice weather and let him enjoy their company?” Mrs. Price was very grateful and agreeable. “Her daughters were quite restricted; Portsmouth wasn’t the best place; they didn’t get out often, and she knew they had some errands in town that they would be happy to run.” As a result, Fanny, as strange, awkward, and distressing as it was, found herself and Susan, in just ten minutes, walking towards High Street with Mr. Crawford.

It was soon pain upon pain, confusion upon confusion; for they were hardly in the High Street before they met her father, whose appearance was not the better from its being Saturday. He stopt; and, ungentlemanlike as he looked, Fanny was obliged to introduce him to Mr. Crawford. She could not have a doubt of the manner in which Mr. Crawford must be struck. He must be ashamed and disgusted altogether. He must soon give her up, and cease to have the smallest inclination for the match; and yet, though she had been so much wanting his affection to be cured, this was a sort of cure that would be almost as bad as the complaint; and I believe there is scarcely a young lady in the United Kingdoms who would not rather put up with the misfortune of being sought by a clever, agreeable man, than have him driven away by the vulgarity of her nearest relations.

It was soon pain on top of pain, confusion on top of confusion; as soon as they were on the High Street, they ran into her dad, who definitely didn’t look any better because it was Saturday. He stopped, and despite how unrefined he seemed, Fanny had to introduce him to Mr. Crawford. She had no doubt about how Mr. Crawford would react. He must have felt completely ashamed and disgusted. He would quickly lose interest in her and give up on the relationship; yet, even though she had longed for a remedy to his affection, this kind of cure would be almost as bad as the problem itself. I believe there’s hardly a young woman in the UK who wouldn’t prefer to deal with the misfortune of being pursued by a smart, charming man than to have him turned off by the crudeness of her closest relatives.

Mr. Crawford probably could not regard his future father-in-law with any idea of taking him for a model in dress; but (as Fanny instantly, and to her great relief, discerned) her father was a very different man, a very different Mr. Price in his behaviour to this most highly respected stranger, from what he was in his own family at home. His manners now, though not polished, were more than passable: they were grateful, animated, manly; his expressions were those of an attached father, and a sensible man; his loud tones did very well in the open air, and there was not a single oath to be heard. Such was his instinctive compliment to the good manners of Mr. Crawford; and, be the consequence what it might, Fanny’s immediate feelings were infinitely soothed.

Mr. Crawford probably couldn't see his future father-in-law as a role model for how to dress; but (as Fanny quickly noticed, much to her relief) her dad was a completely different person, a different Mr. Price in his behavior toward this highly respected stranger compared to how he acted at home with family. His manners now, while not refined, were more than acceptable: they were genuine, lively, and manly; his words reflected the feelings of a caring father and a sensible man; his loud voice worked well outdoors, and there wasn't a single curse word to be heard. This was his instinctive way of showing respect for Mr. Crawford's good manners; and regardless of the consequences, Fanny felt an immense sense of comfort in that moment.

The conclusion of the two gentlemen’s civilities was an offer of Mr. Price’s to take Mr. Crawford into the dockyard, which Mr. Crawford, desirous of accepting as a favour what was intended as such, though he had seen the dockyard again and again, and hoping to be so much the longer with Fanny, was very gratefully disposed to avail himself of, if the Miss Prices were not afraid of the fatigue; and as it was somehow or other ascertained, or inferred, or at least acted upon, that they were not at all afraid, to the dockyard they were all to go; and but for Mr. Crawford, Mr. Price would have turned thither directly, without the smallest consideration for his daughters’ errands in the High Street. He took care, however, that they should be allowed to go to the shops they came out expressly to visit; and it did not delay them long, for Fanny could so little bear to excite impatience, or be waited for, that before the gentlemen, as they stood at the door, could do more than begin upon the last naval regulations, or settle the number of three-deckers now in commission, their companions were ready to proceed.

The conclusion of the two gentlemen's polite conversation was Mr. Price's offer to take Mr. Crawford to the dockyard. Mr. Crawford, eager to accept this favor—despite having visited the dockyard many times before—and hoping to spend more time with Fanny, was very grateful for the opportunity, as long as the Miss Prices weren’t worried about getting tired. It somehow became known, or at least assumed, that they were not at all concerned about fatigue, so everyone decided to go to the dockyard. If it weren’t for Mr. Crawford, Mr. Price would have headed there straightaway, without considering his daughters' errands in the High Street. He made sure they could go to the shops they had come out specifically to visit, and it didn’t take long, because Fanny could hardly bear to cause any impatience or make anyone wait. Before the gentlemen, standing at the door, could more than start discussing the latest naval regulations or count the number of three-deckers currently in commission, their companions were ready to move on.

They were then to set forward for the dockyard at once, and the walk would have been conducted—according to Mr. Crawford’s opinion—in a singular manner, had Mr. Price been allowed the entire regulation of it, as the two girls, he found, would have been left to follow, and keep up with them or not, as they could, while they walked on together at their own hasty pace. He was able to introduce some improvement occasionally, though by no means to the extent he wished; he absolutely would not walk away from them; and at any crossing or any crowd, when Mr. Price was only calling out, “Come, girls; come, Fan; come, Sue, take care of yourselves; keep a sharp lookout!” he would give them his particular attendance.

They were supposed to head for the dockyard right away, and the walk would have gone—according to Mr. Crawford—quite strangely if Mr. Price had been in complete control, because the two girls would have been left to follow along as best they could while he and Mr. Price walked on at their own quick pace. He managed to make some improvements now and then, though not as much as he wanted; he absolutely refused to leave them behind. At any crossing or in a crowd, when Mr. Price was just calling out, “Come on, girls; come on, Fan; come on, Sue, watch yourselves; stay alert!” he would make sure to stay with them.

Once fairly in the dockyard, he began to reckon upon some happy intercourse with Fanny, as they were very soon joined by a brother lounger of Mr. Price’s, who was come to take his daily survey of how things went on, and who must prove a far more worthy companion than himself; and after a time the two officers seemed very well satisfied going about together, and discussing matters of equal and never-failing interest, while the young people sat down upon some timbers in the yard, or found a seat on board a vessel in the stocks which they all went to look at. Fanny was most conveniently in want of rest. Crawford could not have wished her more fatigued or more ready to sit down; but he could have wished her sister away. A quick-looking girl of Susan’s age was the very worst third in the world: totally different from Lady Bertram, all eyes and ears; and there was no introducing the main point before her. He must content himself with being only generally agreeable, and letting Susan have her share of entertainment, with the indulgence, now and then, of a look or hint for the better-informed and conscious Fanny. Norfolk was what he had mostly to talk of: there he had been some time, and everything there was rising in importance from his present schemes. Such a man could come from no place, no society, without importing something to amuse; his journeys and his acquaintance were all of use, and Susan was entertained in a way quite new to her. For Fanny, somewhat more was related than the accidental agreeableness of the parties he had been in. For her approbation, the particular reason of his going into Norfolk at all, at this unusual time of year, was given. It had been real business, relative to the renewal of a lease in which the welfare of a large and—he believed—industrious family was at stake. He had suspected his agent of some underhand dealing; of meaning to bias him against the deserving; and he had determined to go himself, and thoroughly investigate the merits of the case. He had gone, had done even more good than he had foreseen, had been useful to more than his first plan had comprehended, and was now able to congratulate himself upon it, and to feel that in performing a duty, he had secured agreeable recollections for his own mind. He had introduced himself to some tenants whom he had never seen before; he had begun making acquaintance with cottages whose very existence, though on his own estate, had been hitherto unknown to him. This was aimed, and well aimed, at Fanny. It was pleasing to hear him speak so properly; here he had been acting as he ought to do. To be the friend of the poor and the oppressed! Nothing could be more grateful to her; and she was on the point of giving him an approving look, when it was all frightened off by his adding a something too pointed of his hoping soon to have an assistant, a friend, a guide in every plan of utility or charity for Everingham: a somebody that would make Everingham and all about it a dearer object than it had ever been yet.

Once they were settled in the dockyard, he started to think about how nice it would be to spend time with Fanny. They were soon joined by one of Mr. Price’s buddies, who had come to check on how things were going and who turned out to be a much better companion than he was. After a while, the two officers seemed to enjoy each other's company, discussing topics that were always interesting, while the younger people sat on some timber in the yard or found a spot on a ship in the stocks that they all went to see. Fanny conveniently needed a break. Crawford couldn't have hoped for her to be more exhausted or ready to take a seat, but he did wish her sister wasn’t there. A quick-witted girl like Susan was the worst possible third wheel: so different from Lady Bertram, with her sharp eyes and ears, making it impossible to get to the main point in front of her. He had to settle for being generally pleasant and letting Susan share in the fun, while occasionally giving a look or hint to the more aware and understanding Fanny. What he primarily discussed was Norfolk: he had spent some time there, and everything was becoming increasingly significant because of his current plans. A guy like him couldn’t come from any place or society without bringing something interesting; his travels and connections were all useful, and Susan found the conversation entertaining in a whole new way. For Fanny, he shared a bit more than just the enjoyable parts of his visits. He explained the specific reason for his trip to Norfolk during this unusual time of year. It was due to real business regarding the renewal of a lease that affected the well-being of a large and, he believed, hardworking family. He had suspected his agent of some shady behavior, trying to turn him against those who deserved better, and he had decided to go himself to fully investigate the situation. He had gone, done even more good than he expected, helped more people than his initial plan had considered, and now he was able to applaud himself for it, feeling that by doing his duty, he had also created positive memories for himself. He had introduced himself to some tenants he had never met before and started to get to know cottages that, surprisingly, were on his own estate yet had always been unknown to him. This was aimed, quite effectively, at Fanny. It was nice to hear him speak so properly; he had been acting as he should. Being a friend to the poor and oppressed! There was nothing that could please her more, and she was about to give him a approving look when that thought was dashed by him saying something too pointed about his hope to soon have an assistant, a friend, a guide for every plan of utility or charity for Everingham: someone who would make Everingham and all its surroundings even dearer to him than they had ever been.

She turned away, and wished he would not say such things. She was willing to allow he might have more good qualities than she had been wont to suppose. She began to feel the possibility of his turning out well at last; but he was and must ever be completely unsuited to her, and ought not to think of her.

She turned away, hoping he wouldn't say those things. She was open to the idea that he might have more good qualities than she had previously thought. She started to feel that he might actually end up being a good person; however, he was and would always be completely wrong for her, and he shouldn’t consider her.

He perceived that enough had been said of Everingham, and that it would be as well to talk of something else, and turned to Mansfield. He could not have chosen better; that was a topic to bring back her attention and her looks almost instantly. It was a real indulgence to her to hear or to speak of Mansfield. Now so long divided from everybody who knew the place, she felt it quite the voice of a friend when he mentioned it, and led the way to her fond exclamations in praise of its beauties and comforts, and by his honourable tribute to its inhabitants allowed her to gratify her own heart in the warmest eulogium, in speaking of her uncle as all that was clever and good, and her aunt as having the sweetest of all sweet tempers.

He felt that they had talked enough about Everingham and decided it was better to discuss something else, so he turned to Mansfield. He couldn't have picked a better topic; it instantly captured her attention and her expressions. Talking about Mansfield was a real treat for her. After being away from everyone who knew the place for so long, hearing it mentioned felt like the voice of a friend. It prompted her to eagerly share her praises for its beauty and comforts, and through his respectful comments about its residents, she was able to express her feelings warmly about her uncle, who she viewed as clever and kind, and her aunt, who had the sweetest temper of all.

He had a great attachment to Mansfield himself; he said so; he looked forward with the hope of spending much, very much, of his time there; always there, or in the neighbourhood. He particularly built upon a very happy summer and autumn there this year; he felt that it would be so: he depended upon it; a summer and autumn infinitely superior to the last. As animated, as diversified, as social, but with circumstances of superiority undescribable.

He was really attached to Mansfield; he said so. He looked forward to spending a lot, really a lot, of his time there—always there or in the area. He was especially counting on having a very happy summer and autumn there this year; he felt it would be that way. He relied on it—a summer and autumn that would be much better than the last one. Just as lively, just as varied, just as social, but with circumstances that were indescribably better.

“Mansfield, Sotherton, Thornton Lacey,” he continued; “what a society will be comprised in those houses! And at Michaelmas, perhaps, a fourth may be added: some small hunting-box in the vicinity of everything so dear; for as to any partnership in Thornton Lacey, as Edmund Bertram once good-humouredly proposed, I hope I foresee two objections: two fair, excellent, irresistible objections to that plan.”

“Mansfield, Sotherton, Thornton Lacey,” he went on; “what a community those houses will create! And by Michaelmas, maybe we’ll add a fourth: a small hunting lodge nearby everything we hold dear; because when it comes to any partnership in Thornton Lacey, which Edmund Bertram once jokingly suggested, I think I can see two reasons against it: two good, solid, undeniable reasons for that idea.”

Fanny was doubly silenced here; though when the moment was passed, could regret that she had not forced herself into the acknowledged comprehension of one half of his meaning, and encouraged him to say something more of his sister and Edmund. It was a subject which she must learn to speak of, and the weakness that shrunk from it would soon be quite unpardonable.

Fanny felt doubly silenced here; although once the moment passed, she could regret not pushing herself to understand part of his meaning and encouraging him to talk more about his sister and Edmund. It was a topic she needed to learn to discuss, and the hesitation she felt about it would soon become completely unforgivable.

When Mr. Price and his friend had seen all that they wished, or had time for, the others were ready to return; and in the course of their walk back, Mr. Crawford contrived a minute’s privacy for telling Fanny that his only business in Portsmouth was to see her; that he was come down for a couple of days on her account, and hers only, and because he could not endure a longer total separation. She was sorry, really sorry; and yet in spite of this and the two or three other things which she wished he had not said, she thought him altogether improved since she had seen him; he was much more gentle, obliging, and attentive to other people’s feelings than he had ever been at Mansfield; she had never seen him so agreeable—so near being agreeable; his behaviour to her father could not offend, and there was something particularly kind and proper in the notice he took of Susan. He was decidedly improved. She wished the next day over, she wished he had come only for one day; but it was not so very bad as she would have expected: the pleasure of talking of Mansfield was so very great!

When Mr. Price and his friend had seen all that they wanted, or had time for, the others were ready to head back; and during their walk, Mr. Crawford found a moment to tell Fanny that his only reason for being in Portsmouth was to see her. He came down for a couple of days just for her, because he couldn’t stand a longer complete separation. She felt genuinely sorry; and yet, despite this and a few other things she wished he hadn’t said, she thought he had improved a lot since she last saw him; he was much more gentle, accommodating, and attentive to other people’s feelings than he had ever been at Mansfield. She had never found him so likable—so almost likable; his behavior toward her father was respectful, and he was particularly kind and appropriate in how he treated Susan. He was definitely improved. She wished the next day was over, she wished he had come for just one day; but it wasn’t as bad as she had expected: the joy of talking about Mansfield was really great!

Before they parted, she had to thank him for another pleasure, and one of no trivial kind. Her father asked him to do them the honour of taking his mutton with them, and Fanny had time for only one thrill of horror, before he declared himself prevented by a prior engagement. He was engaged to dinner already both for that day and the next; he had met with some acquaintance at the Crown who would not be denied; he should have the honour, however, of waiting on them again on the morrow, etc., and so they parted—Fanny in a state of actual felicity from escaping so horrible an evil!

Before they separated, she needed to thank him for yet another favor, one that was far from trivial. Her father invited him to join them for dinner, but Fanny only had a moment of panic before he said he couldn't make it due to a prior commitment. He was already booked for dinner that day and the next; he had run into some acquaintances at the Crown who wouldn’t take no for an answer. However, he assured them he would have the pleasure of visiting again the next day, and with that, they parted ways—Fanny feeling genuinely happy to have avoided such a dreadful situation!

To have had him join their family dinner-party, and see all their deficiencies, would have been dreadful! Rebecca’s cookery and Rebecca’s waiting, and Betsey’s eating at table without restraint, and pulling everything about as she chose, were what Fanny herself was not yet enough inured to for her often to make a tolerable meal. She was nice only from natural delicacy, but he had been brought up in a school of luxury and epicurism.

To have him join their family dinner party and witness all their shortcomings would have been awful! Rebecca’s cooking and waiting, and Betsey’s unrestricted eating at the table, pulling everything around as she pleased, were things Fanny herself wasn't used to enough yet to make a decent meal. She was refined simply out of natural delicacy, but he had been raised in an environment of luxury and indulgence.

CHAPTER XLII

The Prices were just setting off for church the next day when Mr. Crawford appeared again. He came, not to stop, but to join them; he was asked to go with them to the Garrison chapel, which was exactly what he had intended, and they all walked thither together.

The Prices were just about to head to church the next day when Mr. Crawford showed up again. He came not to interrupt but to go with them; they invited him to join them at the Garrison chapel, which was exactly what he had planned, and they all walked there together.

The family were now seen to advantage. Nature had given them no inconsiderable share of beauty, and every Sunday dressed them in their cleanest skins and best attire. Sunday always brought this comfort to Fanny, and on this Sunday she felt it more than ever. Her poor mother now did not look so very unworthy of being Lady Bertram’s sister as she was but too apt to look. It often grieved her to the heart to think of the contrast between them; to think that where nature had made so little difference, circumstances should have made so much, and that her mother, as handsome as Lady Bertram, and some years her junior, should have an appearance so much more worn and faded, so comfortless, so slatternly, so shabby. But Sunday made her a very creditable and tolerably cheerful-looking Mrs. Price, coming abroad with a fine family of children, feeling a little respite of her weekly cares, and only discomposed if she saw her boys run into danger, or Rebecca pass by with a flower in her hat.

The family looked good now. Nature had given them a decent amount of beauty, and every Sunday they dressed in their cleanest clothes and best outfits. Sunday always brought Fanny comfort, and this Sunday she felt it more than ever. Her poor mother didn’t seem as unworthy of being Lady Bertram’s sister as she often did. It often hurt her to think about the contrast between them; to think that where nature had made so little difference, circumstances had created so much. Her mother, as pretty as Lady Bertram and a few years younger, looked so much more worn out, faded, unkempt, and shabby. But on Sunday, she appeared as a respectable and fairly cheerful Mrs. Price, out with a lovely group of kids, feeling a brief break from her weekly worries, and only getting bothered if she saw her boys getting into trouble or Rebecca walking by with a flower in her hat.

In chapel they were obliged to divide, but Mr. Crawford took care not to be divided from the female branch; and after chapel he still continued with them, and made one in the family party on the ramparts.

In chapel, they had to separate, but Mr. Crawford made sure to stay with the women. After chapel, he kept hanging out with them and joined the family gathering on the ramparts.

Mrs. Price took her weekly walk on the ramparts every fine Sunday throughout the year, always going directly after morning service and staying till dinner-time. It was her public place: there she met her acquaintance, heard a little news, talked over the badness of the Portsmouth servants, and wound up her spirits for the six days ensuing.

Mrs. Price took her weekly walk on the ramparts every nice Sunday of the year, always going right after morning service and staying until dinner time. It was her social spot: that’s where she met friends, caught up on the latest news, discussed the poor quality of the Portsmouth servants, and boosted her mood for the following six days.

Thither they now went; Mr. Crawford most happy to consider the Miss Prices as his peculiar charge; and before they had been there long, somehow or other, there was no saying how, Fanny could not have believed it, but he was walking between them with an arm of each under his, and she did not know how to prevent or put an end to it. It made her uncomfortable for a time, but yet there were enjoyments in the day and in the view which would be felt.

They went there now; Mr. Crawford was thrilled to see the Miss Prices as his special responsibility. Before long, somehow, and Fanny couldn’t quite believe it, he was walking between them with an arm around each of their shoulders, and she didn’t know how to stop or change it. It made her uneasy for a while, but there were still enjoyable moments throughout the day and in the scenery that she appreciated.

The day was uncommonly lovely. It was really March; but it was April in its mild air, brisk soft wind, and bright sun, occasionally clouded for a minute; and everything looked so beautiful under the influence of such a sky, the effects of the shadows pursuing each other on the ships at Spithead and the island beyond, with the ever-varying hues of the sea, now at high water, dancing in its glee and dashing against the ramparts with so fine a sound, produced altogether such a combination of charms for Fanny, as made her gradually almost careless of the circumstances under which she felt them. Nay, had she been without his arm, she would soon have known that she needed it, for she wanted strength for a two hours’ saunter of this kind, coming, as it generally did, upon a week’s previous inactivity. Fanny was beginning to feel the effect of being debarred from her usual regular exercise; she had lost ground as to health since her being in Portsmouth; and but for Mr. Crawford and the beauty of the weather would soon have been knocked up now.

The day was unusually beautiful. It really was March, but it felt like April with its mild air, refreshing breeze, and bright sun, which was occasionally covered by clouds for a minute. Everything looked stunning under such a sky, with shadows playing on the ships at Spithead and the distant island, and the sea, now at high tide, sparkling and crashing against the walls, creating a lovely sound. All of this combined to create a charm for Fanny that made her almost forget about the circumstances surrounding her enjoyment. In fact, if she hadn't had his arm, she would have quickly realized that she needed it, as she wanted the strength for a two-hour stroll like this, especially coming off a week of not being active. Fanny was starting to feel the effects of missing her usual exercise; her health had declined since arriving in Portsmouth, and without Mr. Crawford and the lovely weather, she would have been exhausted by now.

The loveliness of the day, and of the view, he felt like herself. They often stopt with the same sentiment and taste, leaning against the wall, some minutes, to look and admire; and considering he was not Edmund, Fanny could not but allow that he was sufficiently open to the charms of nature, and very well able to express his admiration. She had a few tender reveries now and then, which he could sometimes take advantage of to look in her face without detection; and the result of these looks was, that though as bewitching as ever, her face was less blooming than it ought to be. She said she was very well, and did not like to be supposed otherwise; but take it all in all, he was convinced that her present residence could not be comfortable, and therefore could not be salutary for her, and he was growing anxious for her being again at Mansfield, where her own happiness, and his in seeing her, must be so much greater.

The beauty of the day and the view made him feel like himself. They often paused with the same thoughts and tastes, leaning against the wall for a few minutes to look and admire. Considering he wasn’t Edmund, Fanny couldn’t help but admit that he was quite receptive to the charms of nature and was able to express his admiration well. She had a few tender daydreams now and then, which he could sometimes take advantage of to glance at her face without being noticed; and the result of these glances was that, although still captivating, her face looked less vibrant than it should. She said she was fine and didn’t want to be thought otherwise; but overall, he was convinced that her current living situation couldn't be comfortable, and therefore couldn’t be good for her. He was becoming anxious for her to be back at Mansfield, where her happiness, and his joy in seeing her, would be much greater.

“You have been here a month, I think?” said he.

"You've been here for a month, right?" he said.

“No; not quite a month. It is only four weeks to-morrow since I left Mansfield.”

“No; not quite a month. It’s only four weeks tomorrow since I left Mansfield.”

“You are a most accurate and honest reckoner. I should call that a month.”

"You have a great sense of accuracy and honesty in calculations. I would consider that a month."

“I did not arrive here till Tuesday evening.”

"I didn't get here until Tuesday evening."

“And it is to be a two months’ visit, is not?”

“And it’s going to be a two-month visit, right?”

“Yes. My uncle talked of two months. I suppose it will not be less.”

“Yes. My uncle mentioned two months. I assume it won't be any less.”

“And how are you to be conveyed back again? Who comes for you?”

“And how will you get back? Who's coming for you?”

“I do not know. I have heard nothing about it yet from my aunt. Perhaps I may be to stay longer. It may not be convenient for me to be fetched exactly at the two months’ end.”

“I don’t know. I haven’t heard anything about it from my aunt yet. Maybe I might have to stay longer. It might not be convenient for me to be picked up exactly at the end of two months.”

After a moment’s reflection, Mr. Crawford replied, “I know Mansfield, I know its way, I know its faults towards you. I know the danger of your being so far forgotten, as to have your comforts give way to the imaginary convenience of any single being in the family. I am aware that you may be left here week after week, if Sir Thomas cannot settle everything for coming himself, or sending your aunt’s maid for you, without involving the slightest alteration of the arrangements which he may have laid down for the next quarter of a year. This will not do. Two months is an ample allowance; I should think six weeks quite enough. I am considering your sister’s health,” said he, addressing himself to Susan, “which I think the confinement of Portsmouth unfavourable to. She requires constant air and exercise. When you know her as well as I do, I am sure you will agree that she does, and that she ought never to be long banished from the free air and liberty of the country. If, therefore” (turning again to Fanny), “you find yourself growing unwell, and any difficulties arise about your returning to Mansfield, without waiting for the two months to be ended, that must not be regarded as of any consequence, if you feel yourself at all less strong or comfortable than usual, and will only let my sister know it, give her only the slightest hint, she and I will immediately come down, and take you back to Mansfield. You know the ease and the pleasure with which this would be done. You know all that would be felt on the occasion.”

After thinking for a moment, Mr. Crawford replied, “I know Mansfield, I'm familiar with how it works, and I understand its shortcomings regarding you. I recognize the risk of you being forgotten to the point where your comforts are sacrificed for the supposed convenience of any one person in the family. I realize that you might be left here week after week if Sir Thomas can’t sort things out himself or send your aunt’s maid to fetch you, without making even the slightest change to the plans he has set for the next three months. This isn’t acceptable. Two months is a lot of time; I’d say six weeks is plenty. I’m thinking about your sister’s health,” he said, turning to Susan, “which I believe is negatively impacted by the confinement in Portsmouth. She needs fresh air and exercise. Once you know her as well as I do, you’ll definitely agree that she does, and that she shouldn’t be away from the open air and freedom of the countryside for too long. So, if” (turning back to Fanny), “you find yourself starting to feel unwell, and there are any issues with returning to Mansfield before the two months are up, that shouldn’t be a big deal. If you feel at all weaker or less comfortable than usual, just let my sister know—give her the slightest hint, and she and I will come down immediately and take you back to Mansfield. You know how easy and pleasant that would be. You know how everyone would feel about it.”

Fanny thanked him, but tried to laugh it off.

Fanny thanked him but attempted to brush it off with a laugh.

“I am perfectly serious,” he replied, “as you perfectly know. And I hope you will not be cruelly concealing any tendency to indisposition. Indeed, you shall not; it shall not be in your power; for so long only as you positively say, in every letter to Mary, ‘I am well,’ and I know you cannot speak or write a falsehood, so long only shall you be considered as well.”

“I’m completely serious,” he replied, “as you already know. And I hope you won’t be unfairly hiding any signs of being unwell. In fact, you will not; it won’t be up to you; for as long as you clearly state in every letter to Mary, ‘I’m fine,’ and I know you can’t lie, you will be considered fine.”

Fanny thanked him again, but was affected and distressed to a degree that made it impossible for her to say much, or even to be certain of what she ought to say. This was towards the close of their walk. He attended them to the last, and left them only at the door of their own house, when he knew them to be going to dinner, and therefore pretended to be waited for elsewhere.

Fanny thanked him again, but she was so overwhelmed and upset that she could hardly speak or even figure out what she should say. This was near the end of their walk. He accompanied them until the very end and only left them at the door of their house when he realized they were heading to dinner, so he pretended he had somewhere else to be.

“I wish you were not so tired,” said he, still detaining Fanny after all the others were in the house—“I wish I left you in stronger health. Is there anything I can do for you in town? I have half an idea of going into Norfolk again soon. I am not satisfied about Maddison. I am sure he still means to impose on me if possible, and get a cousin of his own into a certain mill, which I design for somebody else. I must come to an understanding with him. I must make him know that I will not be tricked on the south side of Everingham, any more than on the north: that I will be master of my own property. I was not explicit enough with him before. The mischief such a man does on an estate, both as to the credit of his employer and the welfare of the poor, is inconceivable. I have a great mind to go back into Norfolk directly, and put everything at once on such a footing as cannot be afterwards swerved from. Maddison is a clever fellow; I do not wish to displace him, provided he does not try to displace me; but it would be simple to be duped by a man who has no right of creditor to dupe me, and worse than simple to let him give me a hard-hearted, griping fellow for a tenant, instead of an honest man, to whom I have given half a promise already. Would it not be worse than simple? Shall I go? Do you advise it?”

“I wish you weren’t so tired,” he said, still holding Fanny back after everyone else had gone into the house. “I wish I had left you in better health. Is there anything I can do for you in town? I’m thinking of heading back to Norfolk again soon. I’m not satisfied with Maddison. I’m sure he still wants to take advantage of me if he can and get one of his relatives into a certain mill that I have in mind for someone else. I need to have a clear conversation with him. He needs to understand that I won’t be fooled on the south side of Everingham any more than on the north: that I will be in control of my own property. I wasn’t clear enough with him before. The damage a man like him can cause on an estate, both to his employer's reputation and to the welfare of the poor, is unimaginable. I really want to go back to Norfolk right away and set everything up in a way that can’t be changed later. Maddison is a smart guy; I don’t want to fire him as long as he doesn’t try to push me out. But it would be naive to let someone who has no right to deceive me actually trick me, and even worse to let him give me a greedy, hard-hearted tenant instead of an honest one, to whom I’ve already made half a promise. Wouldn’t that be worse than naive? Should I go? What do you think?”

“I advise! You know very well what is right.”

"I advise! You know exactly what’s right."

“Yes. When you give me your opinion, I always know what is right. Your judgment is my rule of right.”

“Yes. When you share your opinion, I always know what’s right. Your judgment is my standard for what’s right.”

“Oh, no! do not say so. We have all a better guide in ourselves, if we would attend to it, than any other person can be. Good-bye; I wish you a pleasant journey to-morrow.”

“Oh, no! Don’t say that. Each of us has a better guide within ourselves, if we just pay attention to it, than anyone else can provide. Goodbye; I wish you a great trip tomorrow.”

“Is there nothing I can do for you in town?”

“Is there anything I can do for you in town?”

“Nothing; I am much obliged to you.”

"Nothing; I really appreciate it."

“Have you no message for anybody?”

“Don’t you have a message for anyone?”

“My love to your sister, if you please; and when you see my cousin, my cousin Edmund, I wish you would be so good as to say that I suppose I shall soon hear from him.”

“My love to your sister, if you don’t mind; and when you see my cousin, my cousin Edmund, could you please let him know that I expect to hear from him soon?”

“Certainly; and if he is lazy or negligent, I will write his excuses myself.”

“Sure; and if he’s lazy or careless, I’ll write his excuses myself.”

He could say no more, for Fanny would be no longer detained. He pressed her hand, looked at her, and was gone. He went to while away the next three hours as he could, with his other acquaintance, till the best dinner that a capital inn afforded was ready for their enjoyment, and she turned in to her more simple one immediately.

He couldn’t say anything else, as Fanny was no longer staying. He squeezed her hand, looked at her, and left. He spent the next three hours as best as he could with another friend until the best dinner a top-notch inn offered was ready for them to enjoy, while she headed to her simpler meal right away.

Their general fare bore a very different character; and could he have suspected how many privations, besides that of exercise, she endured in her father’s house, he would have wondered that her looks were not much more affected than he found them. She was so little equal to Rebecca’s puddings and Rebecca’s hashes, brought to table, as they all were, with such accompaniments of half-cleaned plates, and not half-cleaned knives and forks, that she was very often constrained to defer her heartiest meal till she could send her brothers in the evening for biscuits and buns. After being nursed up at Mansfield, it was too late in the day to be hardened at Portsmouth; and though Sir Thomas, had he known all, might have thought his niece in the most promising way of being starved, both mind and body, into a much juster value for Mr. Crawford’s good company and good fortune, he would probably have feared to push his experiment farther, lest she might die under the cure.

Their overall situation was quite different; if he had known how many hardships, besides the lack of exercise, she faced in her father's house, he would have been surprised that her appearance was not more affected than it was. She was so unprepared for Rebecca’s puddings and hashes, which were served with poorly cleaned plates and dirty knives and forks, that she often had to wait until evening to send her brothers out for biscuits and buns. After being cared for at Mansfield, it was too late to toughen up at Portsmouth; and although Sir Thomas, if he had known everything, might have thought that his niece was on her way to being starved, both mentally and physically, into appreciating Mr. Crawford’s good company and fortune more, he would likely have been worried about pushing it too far, fearing she might not survive the treatment.

Fanny was out of spirits all the rest of the day. Though tolerably secure of not seeing Mr. Crawford again, she could not help being low. It was parting with somebody of the nature of a friend; and though, in one light, glad to have him gone, it seemed as if she was now deserted by everybody; it was a sort of renewed separation from Mansfield; and she could not think of his returning to town, and being frequently with Mary and Edmund, without feelings so near akin to envy as made her hate herself for having them.

Fanny was in a bad mood for the rest of the day. Although she felt fairly certain she wouldn't see Mr. Crawford again, she couldn't shake off her sadness. It felt like saying goodbye to someone who was a friend. Even though part of her was relieved he was gone, it also felt like she had been abandoned by everyone. It was like a fresh break from Mansfield, and the thought of him coming back to town and spending time with Mary and Edmund made her feel feelings close to envy, which made her resent herself for having them.

Her dejection had no abatement from anything passing around her; a friend or two of her father’s, as always happened if he was not with them, spent the long, long evening there; and from six o’clock till half-past nine, there was little intermission of noise or grog. She was very low. The wonderful improvement which she still fancied in Mr. Crawford was the nearest to administering comfort of anything within the current of her thoughts. Not considering in how different a circle she had been just seeing him, nor how much might be owing to contrast, she was quite persuaded of his being astonishingly more gentle and regardful of others than formerly. And, if in little things, must it not be so in great? So anxious for her health and comfort, so very feeling as he now expressed himself, and really seemed, might not it be fairly supposed that he would not much longer persevere in a suit so distressing to her?

Her sadness didn’t lessen with anything happening around her; a couple of her father’s friends, as always happened when he wasn’t with them, spent the long evening there. From six o’clock until half-past nine, there was hardly a break in the noise or drinks. She felt very down. The slight improvement she imagined in Mr. Crawford was the closest thing to comfort in her thoughts. Not realizing how different the situation had been when she last saw him, or how much of her impression was based on contrast, she was convinced he was remarkably more considerate and caring than before. And if it was true in small matters, wouldn’t it also apply to larger ones? He seemed so concerned for her health and happiness, and expressed himself so sincerely; could it be reasonable to believe he would continue pursuing a relationship that caused her so much distress?

CHAPTER XLIII

It was presumed that Mr. Crawford was travelling back, to London, on the morrow, for nothing more was seen of him at Mr. Price’s; and two days afterwards, it was a fact ascertained to Fanny by the following letter from his sister, opened and read by her, on another account, with the most anxious curiosity:—

It was thought that Mr. Crawford was traveling back to London the next day, since he was no longer seen at Mr. Price’s; and two days later, Fanny confirmed this through a letter from his sister, which she opened and read for another reason, with intense curiosity:—

“I have to inform you, my dearest Fanny, that Henry has been down to Portsmouth to see you; that he had a delightful walk with you to the dockyard last Saturday, and one still more to be dwelt on the next day, on the ramparts; when the balmy air, the sparkling sea, and your sweet looks and conversation were altogether in the most delicious harmony, and afforded sensations which are to raise ecstasy even in retrospect. This, as well as I understand, is to be the substance of my information. He makes me write, but I do not know what else is to be communicated, except this said visit to Portsmouth, and these two said walks, and his introduction to your family, especially to a fair sister of yours, a fine girl of fifteen, who was of the party on the ramparts, taking her first lesson, I presume, in love. I have not time for writing much, but it would be out of place if I had, for this is to be a mere letter of business, penned for the purpose of conveying necessary information, which could not be delayed without risk of evil. My dear, dear Fanny, if I had you here, how I would talk to you! You should listen to me till you were tired, and advise me till you were still tired more; but it is impossible to put a hundredth part of my great mind on paper, so I will abstain altogether, and leave you to guess what you like. I have no news for you. You have politics, of course; and it would be too bad to plague you with the names of people and parties that fill up my time. I ought to have sent you an account of your cousin’s first party, but I was lazy, and now it is too long ago; suffice it, that everything was just as it ought to be, in a style that any of her connexions must have been gratified to witness, and that her own dress and manners did her the greatest credit. My friend, Mrs. Fraser, is mad for such a house, and it would not make me miserable. I go to Lady Stornaway after Easter; she seems in high spirits, and very happy. I fancy Lord S. is very good-humoured and pleasant in his own family, and I do not think him so very ill-looking as I did—at least, one sees many worse. He will not do by the side of your cousin Edmund. Of the last-mentioned hero, what shall I say? If I avoided his name entirely, it would look suspicious. I will say, then, that we have seen him two or three times, and that my friends here are very much struck with his gentlemanlike appearance. Mrs. Fraser (no bad judge) declares she knows but three men in town who have so good a person, height, and air; and I must confess, when he dined here the other day, there were none to compare with him, and we were a party of sixteen. Luckily there is no distinction of dress nowadays to tell tales, but—but—but Yours affectionately.”

“I have to tell you, my dearest Fanny, that Henry went to Portsmouth to see you; he had a lovely walk with you to the dockyard last Saturday, and an even better one the next day on the ramparts; when the lovely air, the sparkling sea, and your sweet looks and conversation were all in perfect harmony, creating sensations that can elevate ecstasy even in memory. This, as much as I understand, is the main point of my message. He makes me write, but I’m not sure what else to include, except for this visit to Portsmouth, these two walks, and his introduction to your family, especially to your fair sister, a lovely girl of fifteen, who joined you on the ramparts, likely taking her first lesson in love. I don’t have time to write much, but even if I did, it wouldn’t be suitable, since this is just a business letter meant to convey important information that couldn’t be delayed without causing issues. My dear Fanny, if you were here, I would talk to you endlessly! You’d have to listen to me until you got tired, and you’d advise me until you were even more tired; but it’s impossible to put a fraction of my thoughts on paper, so I’ll hold back and leave you to imagine what you want. I have no news for you. You have politics to follow, of course, and it would be pointless to bother you with the names of the people and parties filling my time. I should have sent you an update about your cousin’s first party, but I was lazy, and now it’s too late; suffice it to say, everything went just as it should, in a style that would have pleased any of her connections, and her dress and manners did her great credit. My friend, Mrs. Fraser, is crazy about such a house, and it wouldn’t make me unhappy. I’m going to Lady Stornaway after Easter; she seems to be in high spirits and very happy. I think Lord S. is very good-humored and pleasant at home, and I don’t find him as unattractive as I did—at least, there are many worse-looking men. He doesn’t compare to your cousin Edmund, though. Speaking of that last hero, what can I say? If I completely avoid his name, it would seem suspicious. So, I’ll mention that we’ve seen him two or three times, and my friends here are very impressed with his gentlemanly appearance. Mrs. Fraser (not a bad judge) says she only knows three men in town who are as well put together, and I must admit, when he dined here the other day, there was no one to compare with him, and we had a group of sixteen. Luckily, there’s no dress code these days to give away too much, but—but—but Yours affectionately.”

“I had almost forgot (it was Edmund’s fault: he gets into my head more than does me good) one very material thing I had to say from Henry and myself—I mean about our taking you back into Northamptonshire. My dear little creature, do not stay at Portsmouth to lose your pretty looks. Those vile sea-breezes are the ruin of beauty and health. My poor aunt always felt affected if within ten miles of the sea, which the Admiral of course never believed, but I know it was so. I am at your service and Henry’s, at an hour’s notice. I should like the scheme, and we would make a little circuit, and shew you Everingham in our way, and perhaps you would not mind passing through London, and seeing the inside of St. George’s, Hanover Square. Only keep your cousin Edmund from me at such a time: I should not like to be tempted. What a long letter! one word more. Henry, I find, has some idea of going into Norfolk again upon some business that you approve; but this cannot possibly be permitted before the middle of next week; that is, he cannot anyhow be spared till after the 14th, for we have a party that evening. The value of a man like Henry, on such an occasion, is what you can have no conception of; so you must take it upon my word to be inestimable. He will see the Rushworths, which I own I am not sorry for—having a little curiosity, and so I think has he—though he will not acknowledge it.”

“I had almost forgotten (it’s Edmund’s fault; he gets into my head more than is good for me) one important thing I needed to mention from Henry and myself—I mean about us bringing you back to Northamptonshire. My dear little creature, don’t stay in Portsmouth and ruin your pretty looks. Those nasty sea breezes are terrible for beauty and health. My poor aunt always felt affected if she was within ten miles of the sea, which the Admiral, of course, never believed, but I know it was true. I'm at your and Henry’s service at a moment's notice. I would love the plan, and we could take a little detour and show you Everingham on the way, and maybe you wouldn’t mind passing through London and seeing the inside of St. George’s, Hanover Square. Just keep your cousin Edmund away from me during that time; I wouldn’t want to be tempted. What a long letter! One more thing. Henry has some idea of going to Norfolk again for some business that you approve of; but that can’t possibly happen before the middle of next week; that is, he can’t be spared until after the 14th, because we have a gathering that evening. The value of a man like Henry on such an occasion is something you can’t possibly understand; so you have to take my word for it that it’s invaluable. He will see the Rushworths, which I admit I’m not sorry about—having a bit of curiosity, and I think he does too—even if he won’t admit it.”

This was a letter to be run through eagerly, to be read deliberately, to supply matter for much reflection, and to leave everything in greater suspense than ever. The only certainty to be drawn from it was, that nothing decisive had yet taken place. Edmund had not yet spoken. How Miss Crawford really felt, how she meant to act, or might act without or against her meaning; whether his importance to her were quite what it had been before the last separation; whether, if lessened, it were likely to lessen more, or to recover itself, were subjects for endless conjecture, and to be thought of on that day and many days to come, without producing any conclusion. The idea that returned the oftenest was that Miss Crawford, after proving herself cooled and staggered by a return to London habits, would yet prove herself in the end too much attached to him to give him up. She would try to be more ambitious than her heart would allow. She would hesitate, she would tease, she would condition, she would require a great deal, but she would finally accept.

This was a letter to be eagerly skimmed, to be read carefully, to provide a lot to think about, and to leave everything even more uncertain than before. The only sure thing was that nothing definitive had happened yet. Edmund hadn’t said anything. How Miss Crawford truly felt, how she planned to act, or might act despite her intentions; whether her feelings for him were still as strong as they were before their last separation; whether, if they had faded, they were likely to fade further or bounce back—those were subjects for endless guessing and would be thought about that day and for many days to come, without leading to any conclusions. The thought that came back most often was that Miss Crawford, after showing herself to be unsettled by returning to London’s ways, would ultimately be too attached to him to let him go. She would try to be more ambitious than her heart would permit. She would hesitate, she would play games, she would set conditions, she would ask for a lot, but in the end, she would agree.

This was Fanny’s most frequent expectation. A house in town—that, she thought, must be impossible. Yet there was no saying what Miss Crawford might not ask. The prospect for her cousin grew worse and worse. The woman who could speak of him, and speak only of his appearance! What an unworthy attachment! To be deriving support from the commendations of Mrs. Fraser! She who had known him intimately half a year! Fanny was ashamed of her. Those parts of the letter which related only to Mr. Crawford and herself, touched her, in comparison, slightly. Whether Mr. Crawford went into Norfolk before or after the 14th was certainly no concern of hers, though, everything considered, she thought he would go without delay. That Miss Crawford should endeavour to secure a meeting between him and Mrs. Rushworth, was all in her worst line of conduct, and grossly unkind and ill-judged; but she hoped he would not be actuated by any such degrading curiosity. He acknowledged no such inducement, and his sister ought to have given him credit for better feelings than her own.

This was Fanny’s most common expectation. A house in town—that, she thought, must be impossible. But who knew what Miss Crawford might ask. The outlook for her cousin got worse and worse. The woman who could only talk about him and focus on his looks! What a shallow attachment! To be relying on the praise of Mrs. Fraser! She, who had only known him well for half a year! Fanny felt embarrassed for her. The parts of the letter that were just about Mr. Crawford and her felt, in comparison, insignificant. Whether Mr. Crawford went to Norfolk before or after the 14th was definitely not her concern, although, considering everything, she thought he would go without delay. That Miss Crawford would try to set up a meeting between him and Mrs. Rushworth was just typical of her worst behavior, and it was really unkind and poorly thought out; but she hoped he wouldn’t be influenced by any such embarrassing curiosity. He had no such reason, and his sister should have trusted he had better feelings than she did.

She was yet more impatient for another letter from town after receiving this than she had been before; and for a few days was so unsettled by it altogether, by what had come, and what might come, that her usual readings and conversation with Susan were much suspended. She could not command her attention as she wished. If Mr. Crawford remembered her message to her cousin, she thought it very likely, most likely, that he would write to her at all events; it would be most consistent with his usual kindness; and till she got rid of this idea, till it gradually wore off, by no letters appearing in the course of three or four days more, she was in a most restless, anxious state.

She was even more anxious for another letter from town after receiving this one than she had been before; and for a few days, she was so unsettled by it all—by what had happened and what might happen—that her usual reading and conversations with Susan were mostly interrupted. She couldn’t focus as she wanted. If Mr. Crawford remembered her message to her cousin, she thought it was very likely, even most likely, that he would write to her anyway; that would be the most consistent with his usual kindness. Until she could shake off this idea, until it gradually faded away after not receiving any letters over the next three or four days, she was in a state of restlessness and anxiety.

At length, a something like composure succeeded. Suspense must be submitted to, and must not be allowed to wear her out, and make her useless. Time did something, her own exertions something more, and she resumed her attentions to Susan, and again awakened the same interest in them.

At last, she found a sense of calm. She had to accept the suspense without letting it drain her energy and make her ineffective. Time helped a bit, but her own efforts made an even bigger difference. She turned her focus back to Susan and reignited the same interest in her.

Susan was growing very fond of her, and though without any of the early delight in books which had been so strong in Fanny, with a disposition much less inclined to sedentary pursuits, or to information for information’s sake, she had so strong a desire of not appearing ignorant, as, with a good clear understanding, made her a most attentive, profitable, thankful pupil. Fanny was her oracle. Fanny’s explanations and remarks were a most important addition to every essay, or every chapter of history. What Fanny told her of former times dwelt more on her mind than the pages of Goldsmith; and she paid her sister the compliment of preferring her style to that of any printed author. The early habit of reading was wanting.

Susan was becoming very fond of her, and although she didn't have the early love for books that Fanny had, and was less drawn to sitting around or learning just for the sake of it, she had such a strong desire not to seem ignorant that, with her good clear understanding, she became a very attentive, eager, and grateful student. Fanny was her go-to source. Fanny's explanations and comments were a significant addition to every essay and every chapter of history. What Fanny shared about the past stuck in her mind more than the pages of Goldsmith, and she complimented her sister by preferring her writing style over that of any published author. She simply hadn't developed the early habit of reading.

Their conversations, however, were not always on subjects so high as history or morals. Others had their hour; and of lesser matters, none returned so often, or remained so long between them, as Mansfield Park, a description of the people, the manners, the amusements, the ways of Mansfield Park. Susan, who had an innate taste for the genteel and well-appointed, was eager to hear, and Fanny could not but indulge herself in dwelling on so beloved a theme. She hoped it was not wrong; though, after a time, Susan’s very great admiration of everything said or done in her uncle’s house, and earnest longing to go into Northamptonshire, seemed almost to blame her for exciting feelings which could not be gratified.

Their conversations, however, weren't always about deep topics like history or morals. Others had their turn, but none of the lighter subjects came up as often or lasted as long as discussions about Mansfield Park—its people, customs, entertainment, and way of life. Susan, who had a natural taste for the refined and well-furnished, was eager to listen, and Fanny couldn’t help but indulge in such a cherished topic. She hoped it wasn’t wrong; although, over time, Susan's intense admiration for everything that happened in her uncle's house and her strong desire to visit Northamptonshire seemed to subtly criticize Fanny for stirring up feelings that couldn’t be fulfilled.

Poor Susan was very little better fitted for home than her elder sister; and as Fanny grew thoroughly to understand this, she began to feel that when her own release from Portsmouth came, her happiness would have a material drawback in leaving Susan behind. That a girl so capable of being made everything good should be left in such hands, distressed her more and more. Were she likely to have a home to invite her to, what a blessing it would be! And had it been possible for her to return Mr. Crawford’s regard, the probability of his being very far from objecting to such a measure would have been the greatest increase of all her own comforts. She thought he was really good-tempered, and could fancy his entering into a plan of that sort most pleasantly.

Poor Susan was barely any better suited for home than her older sister; and as Fanny came to realize this more fully, she started to feel that when her own escape from Portsmouth finally happened, her happiness would be somewhat tainted by having to leave Susan behind. It distressed her more and more that a girl who could be made into something wonderful was left in such circumstances. If only she were likely to have a home to invite her to, what a blessing that would be! And if it had been possible for her to return Mr. Crawford’s feelings, the chance that he wouldn’t mind such an arrangement would have greatly increased her own comfort. She believed he was genuinely good-natured and could easily imagine him being very agreeable to such a plan.

CHAPTER XLIV

Seven weeks of the two months were very nearly gone, when the one letter, the letter from Edmund, so long expected, was put into Fanny’s hands. As she opened, and saw its length, she prepared herself for a minute detail of happiness and a profusion of love and praise towards the fortunate creature who was now mistress of his fate. These were the contents—

Seven weeks into the two months had almost passed when the one letter, the letter from Edmund, which Fanny had been waiting for so long, was handed to her. As she opened it and saw how long it was, she braced herself for an extensive recounting of happiness and a flood of love and praise for the lucky person who was now in control of his destiny. These were the contents—

“My Dear Fanny,—Excuse me that I have not written before. Crawford told me that you were wishing to hear from me, but I found it impossible to write from London, and persuaded myself that you would understand my silence. Could I have sent a few happy lines, they should not have been wanting, but nothing of that nature was ever in my power. I am returned to Mansfield in a less assured state than when I left it. My hopes are much weaker. You are probably aware of this already. So very fond of you as Miss Crawford is, it is most natural that she should tell you enough of her own feelings to furnish a tolerable guess at mine. I will not be prevented, however, from making my own communication. Our confidences in you need not clash. I ask no questions. There is something soothing in the idea that we have the same friend, and that whatever unhappy differences of opinion may exist between us, we are united in our love of you. It will be a comfort to me to tell you how things now are, and what are my present plans, if plans I can be said to have. I have been returned since Saturday. I was three weeks in London, and saw her (for London) very often. I had every attention from the Frasers that could be reasonably expected. I dare say I was not reasonable in carrying with me hopes of an intercourse at all like that of Mansfield. It was her manner, however, rather than any unfrequency of meeting. Had she been different when I did see her, I should have made no complaint, but from the very first she was altered: my first reception was so unlike what I had hoped, that I had almost resolved on leaving London again directly. I need not particularise. You know the weak side of her character, and may imagine the sentiments and expressions which were torturing me. She was in high spirits, and surrounded by those who were giving all the support of their own bad sense to her too lively mind. I do not like Mrs. Fraser. She is a cold-hearted, vain woman, who has married entirely from convenience, and though evidently unhappy in her marriage, places her disappointment not to faults of judgment, or temper, or disproportion of age, but to her being, after all, less affluent than many of her acquaintance, especially than her sister, Lady Stornaway, and is the determined supporter of everything mercenary and ambitious, provided it be only mercenary and ambitious enough. I look upon her intimacy with those two sisters as the greatest misfortune of her life and mine. They have been leading her astray for years. Could she be detached from them!—and sometimes I do not despair of it, for the affection appears to me principally on their side. They are very fond of her; but I am sure she does not love them as she loves you. When I think of her great attachment to you, indeed, and the whole of her judicious, upright conduct as a sister, she appears a very different creature, capable of everything noble, and I am ready to blame myself for a too harsh construction of a playful manner. I cannot give her up, Fanny. She is the only woman in the world whom I could ever think of as a wife. If I did not believe that she had some regard for me, of course I should not say this, but I do believe it. I am convinced that she is not without a decided preference. I have no jealousy of any individual. It is the influence of the fashionable world altogether that I am jealous of. It is the habits of wealth that I fear. Her ideas are not higher than her own fortune may warrant, but they are beyond what our incomes united could authorise. There is comfort, however, even here. I could better bear to lose her because not rich enough, than because of my profession. That would only prove her affection not equal to sacrifices, which, in fact, I am scarcely justified in asking; and, if I am refused, that, I think, will be the honest motive. Her prejudices, I trust, are not so strong as they were. You have my thoughts exactly as they arise, my dear Fanny; perhaps they are sometimes contradictory, but it will not be a less faithful picture of my mind. Having once begun, it is a pleasure to me to tell you all I feel. I cannot give her up. Connected as we already are, and, I hope, are to be, to give up Mary Crawford would be to give up the society of some of those most dear to me; to banish myself from the very houses and friends whom, under any other distress, I should turn to for consolation. The loss of Mary I must consider as comprehending the loss of Crawford and of Fanny. Were it a decided thing, an actual refusal, I hope I should know how to bear it, and how to endeavour to weaken her hold on my heart, and in the course of a few years—but I am writing nonsense. Were I refused, I must bear it; and till I am, I can never cease to try for her. This is the truth. The only question is how? What may be the likeliest means? I have sometimes thought of going to London again after Easter, and sometimes resolved on doing nothing till she returns to Mansfield. Even now, she speaks with pleasure of being in Mansfield in June; but June is at a great distance, and I believe I shall write to her. I have nearly determined on explaining myself by letter. To be at an early certainty is a material object. My present state is miserably irksome. Considering everything, I think a letter will be decidedly the best method of explanation. I shall be able to write much that I could not say, and shall be giving her time for reflection before she resolves on her answer, and I am less afraid of the result of reflection than of an immediate hasty impulse; I think I am. My greatest danger would lie in her consulting Mrs. Fraser, and I at a distance unable to help my own cause. A letter exposes to all the evil of consultation, and where the mind is anything short of perfect decision, an adviser may, in an unlucky moment, lead it to do what it may afterwards regret. I must think this matter over a little. This long letter, full of my own concerns alone, will be enough to tire even the friendship of a Fanny. The last time I saw Crawford was at Mrs. Fraser’s party. I am more and more satisfied with all that I see and hear of him. There is not a shadow of wavering. He thoroughly knows his own mind, and acts up to his resolutions: an inestimable quality. I could not see him and my eldest sister in the same room without recollecting what you once told me, and I acknowledge that they did not meet as friends. There was marked coolness on her side. They scarcely spoke. I saw him draw back surprised, and I was sorry that Mrs. Rushworth should resent any former supposed slight to Miss Bertram. You will wish to hear my opinion of Maria’s degree of comfort as a wife. There is no appearance of unhappiness. I hope they get on pretty well together. I dined twice in Wimpole Street, and might have been there oftener, but it is mortifying to be with Rushworth as a brother. Julia seems to enjoy London exceedingly. I had little enjoyment there, but have less here. We are not a lively party. You are very much wanted. I miss you more than I can express. My mother desires her best love, and hopes to hear from you soon. She talks of you almost every hour, and I am sorry to find how many weeks more she is likely to be without you. My father means to fetch you himself, but it will not be till after Easter, when he has business in town. You are happy at Portsmouth, I hope, but this must not be a yearly visit. I want you at home, that I may have your opinion about Thornton Lacey. I have little heart for extensive improvements till I know that it will ever have a mistress. I think I shall certainly write. It is quite settled that the Grants go to Bath; they leave Mansfield on Monday. I am glad of it. I am not comfortable enough to be fit for anybody; but your aunt seems to feel out of luck that such an article of Mansfield news should fall to my pen instead of hers.—Yours ever, my dearest Fanny.”

“My Dear Fanny, I’m sorry I haven’t written sooner. Crawford mentioned that you were hoping to hear from me, but I couldn’t manage to write from London, convincing myself that you would understand my silence. If I could have sent you some cheerful lines, I would have, but I just wasn’t able to. I’ve come back to Mansfield feeling less certain than when I left. My hopes are much weaker now. You probably already know this. Since Miss Crawford is so fond of you, it’s natural for her to share enough of her feelings for you to make a decent guess about mine. That said, I won’t let that stop me from sharing my own thoughts. Our confiding in you can coexist without conflict. I’m not asking questions. There’s something comforting in knowing we share the same friend, and whatever unhappy disagreements may exist between us, we are united in our love for you. It comforts me to tell you how things are at the moment and what my current plans are, if they can be called plans at all. I’ve been back since Saturday. I spent three weeks in London and saw her quite often, considering it was London. I received every reasonable kindness from the Frasers. I suppose I was being unreasonable to expect an interaction even close to what we had in Mansfield. It was more her demeanor than the infrequency of our meetings that bothered me. If she had been different during the times we did meet, I wouldn’t have complained, but from the very start, she was changed: my initial reception was so unlike what I had hoped for that I nearly decided to leave London right then. I don’t need to go into details. You know her weak points and can imagine the feelings and words that were tormenting me. She was in high spirits, surrounded by people who were feeding her overactive mind with their own misguided support. I don’t like Mrs. Fraser. She’s a cold-hearted, vain woman who married purely for convenience, and even though she’s evidently unhappy in her marriage, she blames her disappointment not on faults in judgment, temperament, or age difference, but on the fact that she is less wealthy than many of her acquaintances, especially her sister, Lady Stornaway. She’s a staunch supporter of everything mercenary and ambitious, as long as it’s ambitious enough. I see her friendship with those two sisters as the greatest misfortune of her life and mine. They’ve been leading her astray for years. If only she could be detached from them! Sometimes I hold on to hope, as it seems their affection for her is stronger. They do care for her, but I’m sure she doesn’t love them like she loves you. When I think of her deep attachment to you and how wise and dependable she can be as a sister, she seems like a completely different person, capable of everything noble, and I feel guilty for misjudging her playful manner. I can’t give her up, Fanny. She’s the only woman I could ever think of as a wife. If I didn’t believe she cared for me at all, I wouldn’t say this, but I do believe it. I’m convinced she has a clear preference. I have no jealousy of any specific person. It’s the influence of the fashionable world that makes me jealous. I fear the habits of the wealthy. Her expectations aren’t higher than what her own fortune might allow, but they’re beyond what our combined incomes could support. However, there’s some comfort in that. I could accept losing her for not being rich enough more easily than losing her because of my profession. That would only prove her affection isn't strong enough to handle sacrifices, which I can barely justify asking for; and if I’m turned down, I think I’d understand her reasoning. I trust her prejudices aren’t as strong as they once were. You have my thoughts exactly as they come, my dear Fanny; they might sometimes contradict each other, but they create a faithful portrait of my mind. Once I started writing, it’s a pleasure to share everything I feel. I can’t give her up. Being connected as we already are, and I hope will be, letting go of Mary Crawford would mean sacrificing the company of some of the people I hold dearest; I’d be shutting myself off from the very homes and friends I’d turn to for comfort in any other distress. Losing Mary means losing Crawford and you too. If it were a definite refusal, I hope I’d know how to handle it and find ways to lessen her hold on my heart, and after a few years—but I’m rambling. If I were turned down, I’d have to accept it; until then, I can never stop trying for her. This is the truth. The only question is how? What are the best approaches? I’ve sometimes thought about going to London again after Easter, and at other times, I’ve decided to do nothing until she returns to Mansfield. Even now, she talks excitedly about being in Mansfield in June; but June is a long way off, and I think I’ll write to her. I’ve nearly made up my mind to explain everything in a letter. Getting clarity as soon as possible is important. My current state is maddeningly frustrating. Considering everything, I believe a letter will be the best way to explain. I can write much more than I could say, and it gives her time to think before she replies, and I’m less afraid of her reflection than of an immediate, rash reaction; at least I hope I am. My greatest risk would be her consulting Mrs. Fraser, with me far away and unable to defend my side. A letter opens the door to all the dangers of consultation, and whenever the mind isn’t perfectly set, an adviser might lead to choices one might later regret. I need to think this over a bit more. This lengthy letter, focused solely on my concerns, might tire even your friendship, Fanny. The last time I saw Crawford was at Mrs. Fraser’s party. I’m increasingly satisfied with everything I see and hear about him. There’s not a hint of uncertainty. He knows his own mind and sticks to his resolutions: an invaluable quality. I couldn’t see him and my oldest sister in the same room without remembering what you once told me, and I admit that they didn’t act like friends. There was clear coolness on her part. They scarcely spoke. I saw him pull back in surprise, and I regretted that Mrs. Rushworth should take offense over any previous slight to Miss Bertram. You’ll want to know my take on Maria’s happiness as a wife. There’s no sign of unhappiness. I hope they’re getting along pretty well. I dined at Wimpole Street twice and could have gone more often, but it’s disheartening to be with Rushworth as a brother. Julia seems to be having a great time in London. I found little enjoyment there, and even less here. We’re not a lively group. You’re greatly missed. I can’t express how much I miss you. My mother sends her love and hopes to hear from you soon. She talks about you almost every hour, and I regret that it seems she’ll be without you for several more weeks. My father intends to fetch you himself, but that won’t be until after Easter when he has business in town. I hope you’re happy in Portsmouth, but this can’t become a yearly trip. I want you home so I can get your opinion on Thornton Lacey. I lack the motivation for major improvements until I know it will have a mistress. I think it’s settled that I will write. The Grants are definitely going to Bath; they’ll leave Mansfield on Monday. I’m glad about that. I’m not comfortable enough to be fit for anyone; but your aunt seems to feel unlucky that such a piece of Mansfield news should fall to me instead of her. Yours always, my dearest Fanny.”

“I never will, no, I certainly never will wish for a letter again,” was Fanny’s secret declaration as she finished this. “What do they bring but disappointment and sorrow? Not till after Easter! How shall I bear it? And my poor aunt talking of me every hour!”

“I will never, no, I definitely will never wish for a letter again,” Fanny privately vowed as she finished this. “What do they bring but disappointment and sadness? Not until after Easter! How will I manage? And my poor aunt is talking about me every hour!”

Fanny checked the tendency of these thoughts as well as she could, but she was within half a minute of starting the idea that Sir Thomas was quite unkind, both to her aunt and to herself. As for the main subject of the letter, there was nothing in that to soothe irritation. She was almost vexed into displeasure and anger against Edmund. “There is no good in this delay,” said she. “Why is not it settled? He is blinded, and nothing will open his eyes; nothing can, after having had truths before him so long in vain. He will marry her, and be poor and miserable. God grant that her influence do not make him cease to be respectable!” She looked over the letter again. “‘So very fond of me!’ ’tis nonsense all. She loves nobody but herself and her brother. Her friends leading her astray for years! She is quite as likely to have led them astray. They have all, perhaps, been corrupting one another; but if they are so much fonder of her than she is of them, she is the less likely to have been hurt, except by their flattery. ‘The only woman in the world whom he could ever think of as a wife.’ I firmly believe it. It is an attachment to govern his whole life. Accepted or refused, his heart is wedded to her for ever. ‘The loss of Mary I must consider as comprehending the loss of Crawford and Fanny.’ Edmund, you do not know me. The families would never be connected if you did not connect them! Oh! write, write. Finish it at once. Let there be an end of this suspense. Fix, commit, condemn yourself.”

Fanny tried to hold back her negative thoughts as best as she could, but in less than a minute, she was leaning towards the idea that Sir Thomas was quite unkind, both to her aunt and to her. As for the main point of the letter, it did nothing to ease her irritation. She was almost pushed into frustration and anger towards Edmund. “There’s no benefit in this delay,” she said. “Why isn’t it settled? He’s blind, and nothing will make him see; nothing can, after having the truth in front of him for so long without any effect. He’ll marry her, and end up poor and unhappy. God help us if her influence makes him lose his respectability!” She reviewed the letter again. “‘So very fond of me!’ It’s all nonsense. She only loves herself and her brother. Her friends have been leading her astray for years! She’s just as likely to have led them astray. They may have all been corrupting each other; but if they care about her more than she cares about them, she’s less likely to be harmed, except by their flattery. ‘The only woman in the world he could ever think of as a wife.’ I truly believe it. It’s an attachment that will define his entire life. Whether accepted or rejected, his heart is tied to her forever. ‘The loss of Mary I must consider as including the loss of Crawford and Fanny.’ Edmund, you don’t know me. The families would never be connected if you didn’t bring them together! Oh! write, write. Finish it now. Let’s end this suspense. Decide, commit, condemn yourself.”

Such sensations, however, were too near akin to resentment to be long guiding Fanny’s soliloquies. She was soon more softened and sorrowful. His warm regard, his kind expressions, his confidential treatment, touched her strongly. He was only too good to everybody. It was a letter, in short, which she would not but have had for the world, and which could never be valued enough. This was the end of it.

Such feelings, however, were too close to resentment to keep guiding Fanny’s thoughts for long. She quickly became more gentle and sad. His warm affection, kind words, and trusting treatment deeply affected her. He was just too good to everyone. In short, it was a letter that she wouldn’t trade for anything and could never be appreciated enough. That was the conclusion of it.

Everybody at all addicted to letter-writing, without having much to say, which will include a large proportion of the female world at least, must feel with Lady Bertram that she was out of luck in having such a capital piece of Mansfield news as the certainty of the Grants going to Bath, occur at a time when she could make no advantage of it, and will admit that it must have been very mortifying to her to see it fall to the share of her thankless son, and treated as concisely as possible at the end of a long letter, instead of having it to spread over the largest part of a page of her own. For though Lady Bertram rather shone in the epistolary line, having early in her marriage, from the want of other employment, and the circumstance of Sir Thomas’s being in Parliament, got into the way of making and keeping correspondents, and formed for herself a very creditable, common-place, amplifying style, so that a very little matter was enough for her: she could not do entirely without any; she must have something to write about, even to her niece; and being so soon to lose all the benefit of Dr. Grant’s gouty symptoms and Mrs. Grant’s morning calls, it was very hard upon her to be deprived of one of the last epistolary uses she could put them to.

Everyone who is addicted to writing letters, even when they don’t have much to say—which definitely includes a large part of the female population—must empathize with Lady Bertram for being unlucky enough to have such great news from Mansfield, like the Grants going to Bath, come at a time when she couldn't take advantage of it. They would agree it must have been quite distressing for her to see it go to her ungrateful son and be mentioned so briefly at the end of a long letter, rather than spreading it out over most of a page of her own. Although Lady Bertram was quite skilled at writing letters, having started early in her marriage due to the lack of other activities and the fact that Sir Thomas was in Parliament, she developed a solid, elaborate writing style that allowed her to stretch even the smallest news into something substantial. She couldn’t completely go without something to write about, even to her niece; and with the impending loss of Dr. Grant’s gout troubles and Mrs. Grant’s morning visits, it really was tough for her to lose one of the last uses for her letters.

There was a rich amends, however, preparing for her. Lady Bertram’s hour of good luck came. Within a few days from the receipt of Edmund’s letter, Fanny had one from her aunt, beginning thus—

There was a generous reward waiting for her, though. Lady Bertram’s moment of good fortune arrived. Within a few days of receiving Edmund’s letter, Fanny got one from her aunt, starting like this—

“My Dear Fanny,—I take up my pen to communicate some very alarming intelligence, which I make no doubt will give you much concern”.

“My Dear Fanny,—I’m writing to share some very disturbing news, which I’m sure will upset you a lot.”

This was a great deal better than to have to take up the pen to acquaint her with all the particulars of the Grants’ intended journey, for the present intelligence was of a nature to promise occupation for the pen for many days to come, being no less than the dangerous illness of her eldest son, of which they had received notice by express a few hours before.

This was much better than having to write to her about all the details of the Grants’ upcoming trip, because the news was serious enough to keep her busy writing for many days. They had just received a message a few hours ago about the dangerous illness of her oldest son.

Tom had gone from London with a party of young men to Newmarket, where a neglected fall and a good deal of drinking had brought on a fever; and when the party broke up, being unable to move, had been left by himself at the house of one of these young men to the comforts of sickness and solitude, and the attendance only of servants. Instead of being soon well enough to follow his friends, as he had then hoped, his disorder increased considerably, and it was not long before he thought so ill of himself as to be as ready as his physician to have a letter despatched to Mansfield.

Tom had traveled from London with a group of young men to Newmarket, where a neglected injury and a lot of drinking had caused him to come down with a fever. When the group broke up, he was too weak to move and ended up alone at the house of one of the young men, facing the discomforts of illness and solitude, with only servants to attend to him. Instead of quickly recovering to join his friends as he had hoped, his condition worsened significantly, and it wasn’t long before he felt so poorly that he was just as eager as his doctor to send a letter to Mansfield.

“This distressing intelligence, as you may suppose,” observed her ladyship, after giving the substance of it, “has agitated us exceedingly, and we cannot prevent ourselves from being greatly alarmed and apprehensive for the poor invalid, whose state Sir Thomas fears may be very critical; and Edmund kindly proposes attending his brother immediately, but I am happy to add that Sir Thomas will not leave me on this distressing occasion, as it would be too trying for me. We shall greatly miss Edmund in our small circle, but I trust and hope he will find the poor invalid in a less alarming state than might be apprehended, and that he will be able to bring him to Mansfield shortly, which Sir Thomas proposes should be done, and thinks best on every account, and I flatter myself the poor sufferer will soon be able to bear the removal without material inconvenience or injury. As I have little doubt of your feeling for us, my dear Fanny, under these distressing circumstances, I will write again very soon.”

“This upsetting news, as you can imagine,” her ladyship said after sharing the details, “has really unsettled us, and we can’t help but feel anxious and worried for the poor invalid, whose condition Sir Thomas fears may be quite serious; and Edmund has kindly offered to visit his brother right away, but I’m pleased to say that Sir Thomas won’t leave me during this tough time, as it would be too much for me. We will really miss Edmund in our small group, but I hope he finds the poor invalid in a less serious condition than we fear, and that he can bring him back to Mansfield soon, which Sir Thomas thinks is best for all reasons, and I’m confident that the poor sufferer will be able to handle the trip without any major problems or harm. Since I’m sure you empathize with us, my dear Fanny, during this difficult time, I will write again very soon.”

Fanny’s feelings on the occasion were indeed considerably more warm and genuine than her aunt’s style of writing. She felt truly for them all. Tom dangerously ill, Edmund gone to attend him, and the sadly small party remaining at Mansfield, were cares to shut out every other care, or almost every other. She could just find selfishness enough to wonder whether Edmund had written to Miss Crawford before this summons came, but no sentiment dwelt long with her that was not purely affectionate and disinterestedly anxious. Her aunt did not neglect her: she wrote again and again; they were receiving frequent accounts from Edmund, and these accounts were as regularly transmitted to Fanny, in the same diffuse style, and the same medley of trusts, hopes, and fears, all following and producing each other at haphazard. It was a sort of playing at being frightened. The sufferings which Lady Bertram did not see had little power over her fancy; and she wrote very comfortably about agitation, and anxiety, and poor invalids, till Tom was actually conveyed to Mansfield, and her own eyes had beheld his altered appearance. Then a letter which she had been previously preparing for Fanny was finished in a different style, in the language of real feeling and alarm; then she wrote as she might have spoken. “He is just come, my dear Fanny, and is taken upstairs; and I am so shocked to see him, that I do not know what to do. I am sure he has been very ill. Poor Tom! I am quite grieved for him, and very much frightened, and so is Sir Thomas; and how glad I should be if you were here to comfort me. But Sir Thomas hopes he will be better to-morrow, and says we must consider his journey.”

Fanny’s feelings at the time were definitely warmer and more genuine than her aunt’s way of writing. She truly cared for them all. With Tom dangerously ill, Edmund gone to be with him, and the sadly small group left at Mansfield, her worries pushed out almost everything else. She could only find a bit of selfishness to wonder whether Edmund had written to Miss Crawford before this call for help came, but no thought lingered with her for long that wasn’t filled with affection and genuine concern. Her aunt didn't forget her: she wrote repeatedly; they received frequent updates from Edmund, and these messages were passed on to Fanny in the same long-winded way, filled with a mix of hopes, fears, and trust, all coming together in a random way. It was like playing at being scared. The sufferings that Lady Bertram didn’t see didn’t affect her imagination much; she wrote comfortably about agitation, anxiety, and sick people until Tom was actually brought to Mansfield and she saw his changed appearance for herself. Then a letter she had been preparing for Fanny was finished in a different tone, with the language of real emotion and fear; she wrote as she might have spoken. “He just arrived, my dear Fanny, and has been taken upstairs; I am so shocked to see him that I don’t know what to do. I’m sure he’s been very ill. Poor Tom! I’m really upset for him, and very frightened, and so is Sir Thomas; how I wish you were here to comfort me. But Sir Thomas hopes he’ll be better tomorrow and says we must think about his journey.”

The real solicitude now awakened in the maternal bosom was not soon over. Tom’s extreme impatience to be removed to Mansfield, and experience those comforts of home and family which had been little thought of in uninterrupted health, had probably induced his being conveyed thither too early, as a return of fever came on, and for a week he was in a more alarming state than ever. They were all very seriously frightened. Lady Bertram wrote her daily terrors to her niece, who might now be said to live upon letters, and pass all her time between suffering from that of to-day and looking forward to to-morrow’s. Without any particular affection for her eldest cousin, her tenderness of heart made her feel that she could not spare him, and the purity of her principles added yet a keener solicitude, when she considered how little useful, how little self-denying his life had (apparently) been.

The genuine concern now stirred in the mother's heart didn't fade quickly. Tom's intense eagerness to be taken to Mansfield and enjoy the comforts of home and family, which he had hardly thought about while healthy, likely led to him being taken there too soon, resulting in a return of his fever, and for a week he was in a more serious condition than ever. They were all genuinely scared. Lady Bertram wrote her daily fears to her niece, who could now be said to live on letters, spending all her time caught between today's suffering and tomorrow's anticipation. Without any particular affection for her oldest cousin, her compassionate nature made her realize she couldn't bear to lose him, and the purity of her values only heightened her worry as she reflected on how seemingly unhelpful and how little selfless his life had been.

Susan was her only companion and listener on this, as on more common occasions. Susan was always ready to hear and to sympathise. Nobody else could be interested in so remote an evil as illness in a family above an hundred miles off; not even Mrs. Price, beyond a brief question or two, if she saw her daughter with a letter in her hand, and now and then the quiet observation of, “My poor sister Bertram must be in a great deal of trouble.”

Susan was her only friend and confidante in this, just like on many other occasions. Susan was always willing to listen and show support. No one else could care about such a distant issue as illness in a family over a hundred miles away; not even Mrs. Price, who would only ask a couple of questions if she noticed her daughter holding a letter, and occasionally comment, “My poor sister Bertram must be going through a lot.”

So long divided and so differently situated, the ties of blood were little more than nothing. An attachment, originally as tranquil as their tempers, was now become a mere name. Mrs. Price did quite as much for Lady Bertram as Lady Bertram would have done for Mrs. Price. Three or four Prices might have been swept away, any or all except Fanny and William, and Lady Bertram would have thought little about it; or perhaps might have caught from Mrs. Norris’s lips the cant of its being a very happy thing and a great blessing to their poor dear sister Price to have them so well provided for.

So long divided and in such different situations, their family ties meant almost nothing. What started as a calm attachment, much like their personalities, had reduced to just a name. Mrs. Price did just as much for Lady Bertram as Lady Bertram would have done for Mrs. Price. If three or four Prices had vanished, except for Fanny and William, Lady Bertram wouldn’t have thought much of it; or she might have picked up from Mrs. Norris’s comments that it was a very happy and great blessing for their poor sister Price to have them so well taken care of.

CHAPTER XLV

At about the week’s end from his return to Mansfield, Tom’s immediate danger was over, and he was so far pronounced safe as to make his mother perfectly easy; for being now used to the sight of him in his suffering, helpless state, and hearing only the best, and never thinking beyond what she heard, with no disposition for alarm and no aptitude at a hint, Lady Bertram was the happiest subject in the world for a little medical imposition. The fever was subdued; the fever had been his complaint; of course he would soon be well again. Lady Bertram could think nothing less, and Fanny shared her aunt’s security, till she received a few lines from Edmund, written purposely to give her a clearer idea of his brother’s situation, and acquaint her with the apprehensions which he and his father had imbibed from the physician with respect to some strong hectic symptoms, which seemed to seize the frame on the departure of the fever. They judged it best that Lady Bertram should not be harassed by alarms which, it was to be hoped, would prove unfounded; but there was no reason why Fanny should not know the truth. They were apprehensive for his lungs.

At about the end of the week since his return to Mansfield, Tom’s immediate danger had passed, and he was considered safe enough to put his mother at ease. Now that she was accustomed to seeing him in his suffering, helpless state and only heard positive updates, without thinking beyond what she was told and with no tendency to worry at any hint, Lady Bertram was the happiest person in the world to be gently misled about his condition. The fever was under control; it had been his illness, so it was only natural that he would soon recover. Lady Bertram could think nothing else, and Fanny shared her aunt’s sense of security until she received a few lines from Edmund, written specifically to give her a clearer picture of his brother’s situation and inform her of the concerns that he and their father had picked up from the doctor regarding some strong symptoms that seemed to affect him after the fever passed. They thought it best that Lady Bertram should not be troubled by concerns that hopefully would turn out to be unfounded, but there was no reason for Fanny to be kept in the dark. They were worried about his lungs.

A very few lines from Edmund shewed her the patient and the sickroom in a juster and stronger light than all Lady Bertram’s sheets of paper could do. There was hardly any one in the house who might not have described, from personal observation, better than herself; not one who was not more useful at times to her son. She could do nothing but glide in quietly and look at him; but when able to talk or be talked to, or read to, Edmund was the companion he preferred. His aunt worried him by her cares, and Sir Thomas knew not how to bring down his conversation or his voice to the level of irritation and feebleness. Edmund was all in all. Fanny would certainly believe him so at least, and must find that her estimation of him was higher than ever when he appeared as the attendant, supporter, cheerer of a suffering brother. There was not only the debility of recent illness to assist: there was also, as she now learnt, nerves much affected, spirits much depressed to calm and raise, and her own imagination added that there must be a mind to be properly guided.

A few words from Edmund showed her the patient and the sickroom in a clearer and more accurate way than all of Lady Bertram’s letters ever could. There was hardly anyone in the house who couldn’t have described it better, based on their own experiences; no one who wasn't more helpful to her son at times. She could only quietly come in and look at him; but when he was able to talk, listen, or be read to, Edmund was the companion he preferred. His aunt's worries bothered him, and Sir Thomas didn't know how to bring his conversation or tone down to match his irritation and weakness. Edmund was everything to him. Fanny would definitely see him that way, and she would realize that her opinion of him was even higher when he was there as the helper, supporter, and cheerleader for her suffering brother. It wasn't just the weakness from recent illness to consider: there were also, as she learned, nerves that were very affected, spirits that were deeply down, and her imagination added that there must be a mind to guide properly.

The family were not consumptive, and she was more inclined to hope than fear for her cousin, except when she thought of Miss Crawford; but Miss Crawford gave her the idea of being the child of good luck, and to her selfishness and vanity it would be good luck to have Edmund the only son.

The family wasn't affected by consumption, and she felt more hopeful than fearful for her cousin, except when she thought about Miss Crawford; however, Miss Crawford made her think of being someone who was just lucky, and for her selfishness and vanity, it would be lucky to have Edmund as the only son.

Even in the sick chamber the fortunate Mary was not forgotten. Edmund’s letter had this postscript. “On the subject of my last, I had actually begun a letter when called away by Tom’s illness, but I have now changed my mind, and fear to trust the influence of friends. When Tom is better, I shall go.”

Even in the sickroom, the lucky Mary was still remembered. Edmund’s letter included this postscript: “Regarding my last message, I actually started a letter before I was interrupted by Tom’s illness, but now I've changed my mind and worry about the influence of friends. When Tom gets better, I will go.”

Such was the state of Mansfield, and so it continued, with scarcely any change, till Easter. A line occasionally added by Edmund to his mother’s letter was enough for Fanny’s information. Tom’s amendment was alarmingly slow.

Such was the state of Mansfield, and it stayed that way, with hardly any change, until Easter. A brief note occasionally added by Edmund to his mother’s letter was enough for Fanny to stay informed. Tom's recovery was worryingly slow.

Easter came particularly late this year, as Fanny had most sorrowfully considered, on first learning that she had no chance of leaving Portsmouth till after it. It came, and she had yet heard nothing of her return—nothing even of the going to London, which was to precede her return. Her aunt often expressed a wish for her, but there was no notice, no message from the uncle on whom all depended. She supposed he could not yet leave his son, but it was a cruel, a terrible delay to her. The end of April was coming on; it would soon be almost three months, instead of two, that she had been absent from them all, and that her days had been passing in a state of penance, which she loved them too well to hope they would thoroughly understand; and who could yet say when there might be leisure to think of or fetch her?

Easter came particularly late this year, as Fanny had sadly realized when she first learned she wouldn't be able to leave Portsmouth until after the holiday. It arrived, and she still hadn’t heard anything about her return—nothing even about going to London, which was supposed to happen before she could come back. Her aunt often mentioned wanting her to return, but there was no notice, no message from the uncle on whom everything depended. She guessed he couldn’t leave his son yet, but the delay felt cruel and terrible to her. The end of April was approaching; it would soon be almost three months instead of two that she had been away from them all, and her days were passing in a state of hardship that she loved them too much to expect they would fully understand; and who could say when there might be time to think about bringing her back?

Her eagerness, her impatience, her longings to be with them, were such as to bring a line or two of Cowper’s Tirocinium for ever before her. “With what intense desire she wants her home,” was continually on her tongue, as the truest description of a yearning which she could not suppose any schoolboy’s bosom to feel more keenly.

Her eagerness, her impatience, her strong desire to be with them, often reminded her of a line or two from Cowper’s Tirocinium. “With what intense desire she wants her home,” was always on her lips, perfectly describing a longing she couldn’t imagine any schoolboy feeling more deeply.

When she had been coming to Portsmouth, she had loved to call it her home, had been fond of saying that she was going home; the word had been very dear to her, and so it still was, but it must be applied to Mansfield. That was now the home. Portsmouth was Portsmouth; Mansfield was home. They had been long so arranged in the indulgence of her secret meditations, and nothing was more consolatory to her than to find her aunt using the same language: “I cannot but say I much regret your being from home at this distressing time, so very trying to my spirits. I trust and hope, and sincerely wish you may never be absent from home so long again,” were most delightful sentences to her. Still, however, it was her private regale. Delicacy to her parents made her careful not to betray such a preference of her uncle’s house. It was always: “When I go back into Northamptonshire, or when I return to Mansfield, I shall do so and so.” For a great while it was so, but at last the longing grew stronger, it overthrew caution, and she found herself talking of what she should do when she went home before she was aware. She reproached herself, coloured, and looked fearfully towards her father and mother. She need not have been uneasy. There was no sign of displeasure, or even of hearing her. They were perfectly free from any jealousy of Mansfield. She was as welcome to wish herself there as to be there.

When she visited Portsmouth, she loved to call it her home and often said she was going home; the word meant a lot to her, and it still did, but it had to refer to Mansfield. That was her true home. Portsmouth was just Portsmouth; Mansfield was home. She had thought of them that way in her private reflections for a long time, and nothing was more comforting than finding her aunt speaking the same way: “I really regret that you are away from home during this difficult time, which is so hard on my spirits. I truly hope you won't be away from home for so long again,” were the most delightful words to her. Still, it was her little secret. Out of respect for her parents, she tried not to show her preference for her uncle’s house. It was always, “When I go back to Northamptonshire, or when I return to Mansfield, I’ll do this or that.” For a long time, that’s how it was, but eventually, her desire grew stronger, overcoming her caution, and she started talking about what she would do when she got home before she even realized it. She scolded herself, felt embarrassed, and glanced nervously at her father and mother. She didn’t need to worry. There were no signs of disapproval, or even that they had heard her. They felt no jealousy towards Mansfield. She was just as welcome to wish to be there as she was to actually be there.

It was sad to Fanny to lose all the pleasures of spring. She had not known before what pleasures she had to lose in passing March and April in a town. She had not known before how much the beginnings and progress of vegetation had delighted her. What animation, both of body and mind, she had derived from watching the advance of that season which cannot, in spite of its capriciousness, be unlovely, and seeing its increasing beauties from the earliest flowers in the warmest divisions of her aunt’s garden, to the opening of leaves of her uncle’s plantations, and the glory of his woods. To be losing such pleasures was no trifle; to be losing them, because she was in the midst of closeness and noise, to have confinement, bad air, bad smells, substituted for liberty, freshness, fragrance, and verdure, was infinitely worse: but even these incitements to regret were feeble, compared with what arose from the conviction of being missed by her best friends, and the longing to be useful to those who were wanting her!

Fanny was sad to miss out on all the joys of spring. She hadn’t realized before what she was giving up by spending March and April in a town. She hadn’t known how much she enjoyed watching nature come to life. The energy, both physically and mentally, she got from seeing that season move forward—despite its unpredictability—was undeniable. From the early blooms in the sunniest spots of her aunt’s garden to the budding leaves of her uncle’s plantations and the beauty of his woods, every little change brought her joy. Losing such pleasures was no small thing; losing them because she was surrounded by confinement and noise, with the bad air and unpleasant smells f replacing freedom, freshness, and greenery, was so much worse. Yet, even these reasons for regret were nothing compared to the deep feeling of being missed by her closest friends and the desire to be there for those who needed her.

Could she have been at home, she might have been of service to every creature in the house. She felt that she must have been of use to all. To all she must have saved some trouble of head or hand; and were it only in supporting the spirits of her aunt Bertram, keeping her from the evil of solitude, or the still greater evil of a restless, officious companion, too apt to be heightening danger in order to enhance her own importance, her being there would have been a general good. She loved to fancy how she could have read to her aunt, how she could have talked to her, and tried at once to make her feel the blessing of what was, and prepare her mind for what might be; and how many walks up and down stairs she might have saved her, and how many messages she might have carried.

If she had been at home, she could have helped everyone in the house. She felt she must have been useful to all. She should have saved everyone some hassle, whether it was keeping her aunt Bertram’s spirits up, preventing her from the negative effects of solitude, or the even worse impact of a restless, overbearing companion who often made situations worse to feel more important; just her presence would have been a benefit. She loved to imagine how she could have read to her aunt, how she could have talked to her, striving to make her appreciate what was good and preparing her for what might come; and how many trips up and down the stairs she could have saved her, and how many messages she could have delivered.

It astonished her that Tom’s sisters could be satisfied with remaining in London at such a time, through an illness which had now, under different degrees of danger, lasted several weeks. They might return to Mansfield when they chose; travelling could be no difficulty to them, and she could not comprehend how both could still keep away. If Mrs. Rushworth could imagine any interfering obligations, Julia was certainly able to quit London whenever she chose. It appeared from one of her aunt’s letters that Julia had offered to return if wanted, but this was all. It was evident that she would rather remain where she was.

It amazed her that Tom's sisters were okay with staying in London at such a time, during an illness that had now lasted several weeks with varying levels of danger. They could go back to Mansfield whenever they wanted; traveling shouldn't be a problem for them, and she just couldn’t understand why they would still want to stay away. If Mrs. Rushworth thought there were any obligations holding them back, Julia could definitely leave London whenever she wanted. One of her aunt's letters mentioned that Julia had offered to come back if needed, but that was it. It was clear that she preferred to stay where she was.

Fanny was disposed to think the influence of London very much at war with all respectable attachments. She saw the proof of it in Miss Crawford, as well as in her cousins; her attachment to Edmund had been respectable, the most respectable part of her character; her friendship for herself had at least been blameless. Where was either sentiment now? It was so long since Fanny had had any letter from her, that she had some reason to think lightly of the friendship which had been so dwelt on. It was weeks since she had heard anything of Miss Crawford or of her other connexions in town, except through Mansfield, and she was beginning to suppose that she might never know whether Mr. Crawford had gone into Norfolk again or not till they met, and might never hear from his sister any more this spring, when the following letter was received to revive old and create some new sensations—

Fanny believed that the influence of London was strongly opposed to any respectable relationships. She saw proof of this in Miss Crawford and her cousins; Miss Crawford’s connection with Edmund had been respectable, the most admirable aspect of her character, and her friendship with Fanny had at least been innocent. But where were those feelings now? It had been so long since Fanny had received any letter from her that she started to doubt the friendship that had been emphasized so much. Weeks had passed without news of Miss Crawford or her other connections in town, aside from what she heard from Mansfield, and she began to think she might never find out if Mr. Crawford had gone to Norfolk again until they met, and that she might not hear from his sister again this spring. Then, the following letter arrived, stirring up old emotions and bringing some new ones—

“Forgive me, my dear Fanny, as soon as you can, for my long silence, and behave as if you could forgive me directly. This is my modest request and expectation, for you are so good, that I depend upon being treated better than I deserve, and I write now to beg an immediate answer. I want to know the state of things at Mansfield Park, and you, no doubt, are perfectly able to give it. One should be a brute not to feel for the distress they are in; and from what I hear, poor Mr. Bertram has a bad chance of ultimate recovery. I thought little of his illness at first. I looked upon him as the sort of person to be made a fuss with, and to make a fuss himself in any trifling disorder, and was chiefly concerned for those who had to nurse him; but now it is confidently asserted that he is really in a decline, that the symptoms are most alarming, and that part of the family, at least, are aware of it. If it be so, I am sure you must be included in that part, that discerning part, and therefore entreat you to let me know how far I have been rightly informed. I need not say how rejoiced I shall be to hear there has been any mistake, but the report is so prevalent that I confess I cannot help trembling. To have such a fine young man cut off in the flower of his days is most melancholy. Poor Sir Thomas will feel it dreadfully. I really am quite agitated on the subject. Fanny, Fanny, I see you smile and look cunning, but, upon my honour, I never bribed a physician in my life. Poor young man! If he is to die, there will be two poor young men less in the world; and with a fearless face and bold voice would I say to any one, that wealth and consequence could fall into no hands more deserving of them. It was a foolish precipitation last Christmas, but the evil of a few days may be blotted out in part. Varnish and gilding hide many stains. It will be but the loss of the Esquire after his name. With real affection, Fanny, like mine, more might be overlooked. Write to me by return of post, judge of my anxiety, and do not trifle with it. Tell me the real truth, as you have it from the fountainhead. And now, do not trouble yourself to be ashamed of either my feelings or your own. Believe me, they are not only natural, they are philanthropic and virtuous. I put it to your conscience, whether ‘Sir Edmund’ would not do more good with all the Bertram property than any other possible ‘Sir.’ Had the Grants been at home I would not have troubled you, but you are now the only one I can apply to for the truth, his sisters not being within my reach. Mrs. R. has been spending the Easter with the Aylmers at Twickenham (as to be sure you know), and is not yet returned; and Julia is with the cousins who live near Bedford Square, but I forget their name and street. Could I immediately apply to either, however, I should still prefer you, because it strikes me that they have all along been so unwilling to have their own amusements cut up, as to shut their eyes to the truth. I suppose Mrs. R.’s Easter holidays will not last much longer; no doubt they are thorough holidays to her. The Aylmers are pleasant people; and her husband away, she can have nothing but enjoyment. I give her credit for promoting his going dutifully down to Bath, to fetch his mother; but how will she and the dowager agree in one house? Henry is not at hand, so I have nothing to say from him. Do not you think Edmund would have been in town again long ago, but for this illness?—Yours ever, Mary.”

“Forgive me, my dear Fanny, as soon as you can, for my long silence, and please act like you’ve already forgiven me. This is my simple request and hope, as you are so kind that I expect to be treated better than I deserve. I’m writing now to ask for an immediate answer. I want to know what’s happening at Mansfield Park, and you’re surely in the best position to tell me. It would be unfeeling not to empathize with the distress they’re experiencing; from what I hear, poor Mr. Bertram has a slim chance of recovering. At first, I didn’t think much of his illness. I regarded him as someone who tends to fuss over minor ailments, and I was mostly worried about those who have to take care of him. But now it’s being confidently stated that he is truly declining, that the symptoms are very serious, and that at least part of the family is aware of it. If that’s the case, I’m sure you’re one of them, the insightful ones, and I therefore urge you to tell me how accurate my information is. I shouldn’t need to say how relieved I would be to hear there has been some mistake, but the rumor is so widespread that I can’t help but worry. It’s incredibly sad for such a fine young man to be taken in the prime of his life. Poor Sir Thomas will be devastated. I’m really quite upset about it. Fanny, Fanny, I see you smiling and looking sly, but I promise I’ve never bribed a doctor in my life. Poor young man! If he is to die, it will mean there are two fewer young men in the world; and with confidence, I would tell anyone that wealth and social status could not fall into more deserving hands. Last Christmas was a foolish rush, but we can partially forget a few days of bad judgment. A little polish and embellishment can hide a lot of flaws. It will only be the loss of the title after his name. With real affection, Fanny, a lot could be overlooked. Write back to me at once, understand my anxiety, and don’t take it lightly. Tell me the honest truth, as you have it directly from the source. And now, don’t bother feeling ashamed about my feelings or yours. Believe me, they are not just natural; they are compassionate and noble. I ask your conscience whether ‘Sir Edmund’ would not do more good with all the Bertram property than any other possible ‘Sir.’ If the Grants were home, I wouldn’t trouble you, but you’re the only one I can ask for the truth, as his sisters are out of reach for me. Mrs. R. has been spending Easter with the Aylmers at Twickenham (as I’m sure you know), and hasn’t returned yet; and Julia is with cousins near Bedford Square, but I forget their name and street. Even if I could contact either of them, I’d still prefer to ask you, because it seems they’ve always been so reluctant to let their own fun be interrupted that they’ve turned a blind eye to the truth. I assume Mrs. R.’s Easter holiday won’t last much longer; it must be a true holiday for her. The Aylmers are nice people; and with her husband away, she can enjoy herself completely. I give her credit for supporting his trip down to Bath to get his mother; but how will she and the dowager get along in one house? Henry isn’t around, so I have nothing to share from him. Don’t you think Edmund would have been back in town long ago, if it weren't for this illness?—Yours always, Mary.”

“I had actually begun folding my letter when Henry walked in, but he brings no intelligence to prevent my sending it. Mrs. R. knows a decline is apprehended; he saw her this morning: she returns to Wimpole Street to-day; the old lady is come. Now do not make yourself uneasy with any queer fancies because he has been spending a few days at Richmond. He does it every spring. Be assured he cares for nobody but you. At this very moment he is wild to see you, and occupied only in contriving the means for doing so, and for making his pleasure conduce to yours. In proof, he repeats, and more eagerly, what he said at Portsmouth about our conveying you home, and I join him in it with all my soul. Dear Fanny, write directly, and tell us to come. It will do us all good. He and I can go to the Parsonage, you know, and be no trouble to our friends at Mansfield Park. It would really be gratifying to see them all again, and a little addition of society might be of infinite use to them; and as to yourself, you must feel yourself to be so wanted there, that you cannot in conscience—conscientious as you are—keep away, when you have the means of returning. I have not time or patience to give half Henry’s messages; be satisfied that the spirit of each and every one is unalterable affection.”

“I had actually started folding my letter when Henry walked in, but he has no news to stop me from sending it. Mrs. R. knows a decline is expected; he saw her this morning: she’s going back to Wimpole Street today; the old lady has arrived. Don’t let yourself worry with any strange ideas just because he’s been spending a few days at Richmond. He does it every spring. Rest assured he cares for no one but you. Right now, he’s eager to see you and is focused only on figuring out how to make that happen while ensuring his enjoyment matches yours. To prove it, he is repeating, even more eagerly, what he said in Portsmouth about us bringing you home, and I fully support him. Dear Fanny, write back right away and tell us to come. It would do us all good. He and I can go to the Parsonage, and we won’t be any trouble to our friends at Mansfield Park. It would really be nice to see them all again, and having a little more company could be incredibly helpful for them; and as for you, you must realize how much you’re needed there, so you cannot, with a clear conscience—being as principled as you are—stay away when you have the chance to return. I don’t have the time or patience to deliver half of Henry’s messages; just know that the essence of every single one is unwavering affection.”

Fanny’s disgust at the greater part of this letter, with her extreme reluctance to bring the writer of it and her cousin Edmund together, would have made her (as she felt) incapable of judging impartially whether the concluding offer might be accepted or not. To herself, individually, it was most tempting. To be finding herself, perhaps within three days, transported to Mansfield, was an image of the greatest felicity, but it would have been a material drawback to be owing such felicity to persons in whose feelings and conduct, at the present moment, she saw so much to condemn: the sister’s feelings, the brother’s conduct, her cold-hearted ambition, his thoughtless vanity. To have him still the acquaintance, the flirt perhaps, of Mrs. Rushworth! She was mortified. She had thought better of him. Happily, however, she was not left to weigh and decide between opposite inclinations and doubtful notions of right; there was no occasion to determine whether she ought to keep Edmund and Mary asunder or not. She had a rule to apply to, which settled everything. Her awe of her uncle, and her dread of taking a liberty with him, made it instantly plain to her what she had to do. She must absolutely decline the proposal. If he wanted, he would send for her; and even to offer an early return was a presumption which hardly anything would have seemed to justify. She thanked Miss Crawford, but gave a decided negative. “Her uncle, she understood, meant to fetch her; and as her cousin’s illness had continued so many weeks without her being thought at all necessary, she must suppose her return would be unwelcome at present, and that she should be felt an encumbrance.”

Fanny was disgusted by most of this letter and was extremely hesitant about bringing the writer and her cousin Edmund together. This made her feel incapable of judging whether the final offer should be accepted. For her personally, it was incredibly tempting. The thought of possibly being at Mansfield in just three days was a picture of great happiness, but it would be a major drawback to owe that happiness to people whose feelings and actions she currently found so objectionable: the sister’s feelings, the brother’s behavior, her cold-hearted ambition, his thoughtless vanity. The idea of him still being acquainted, or perhaps flirting, with Mrs. Rushworth mortified her. She had thought better of him. Fortunately, she wasn’t left to weigh and decide between conflicting feelings and uncertain ideas of what was right; she didn’t need to determine whether or not to keep Edmund and Mary apart. She had a principle that solved everything. Her respect for her uncle and her fear of overstepping made it instantly clear what she had to do. She must absolutely decline the proposal. If he wanted her, he would send for her, and even suggesting an early return felt presumptuous to the point of being unjustifiable. She thanked Miss Crawford, but gave a firm no. “Her uncle, she understood, planned to come for her; and since her cousin's illness had gone on for so many weeks without her being considered necessary, she assumed her return would be unwelcome right now and that she would be seen as a burden.”

Her representation of her cousin’s state at this time was exactly according to her own belief of it, and such as she supposed would convey to the sanguine mind of her correspondent the hope of everything she was wishing for. Edmund would be forgiven for being a clergyman, it seemed, under certain conditions of wealth; and this, she suspected, was all the conquest of prejudice which he was so ready to congratulate himself upon. She had only learnt to think nothing of consequence but money.

Her description of her cousin’s situation at this time matched her own beliefs and was intended to give her hopeful correspondent the optimism she wished for. It seemed that Edmund could be forgiven for being a clergyman if he had the right amount of wealth, and she suspected that this was all the triumph over prejudice that he was so eager to commend himself for. She had come to believe that only money truly mattered.

CHAPTER XLVI

As Fanny could not doubt that her answer was conveying a real disappointment, she was rather in expectation, from her knowledge of Miss Crawford’s temper, of being urged again; and though no second letter arrived for the space of a week, she had still the same feeling when it did come.

As Fanny couldn't doubt that her response was expressing genuine disappointment, she was somewhat expecting, based on her understanding of Miss Crawford’s personality, to be asked again. And although a second letter didn't arrive for a week, she still felt the same way when it finally did come.

On receiving it, she could instantly decide on its containing little writing, and was persuaded of its having the air of a letter of haste and business. Its object was unquestionable; and two moments were enough to start the probability of its being merely to give her notice that they should be in Portsmouth that very day, and to throw her into all the agitation of doubting what she ought to do in such a case. If two moments, however, can surround with difficulties, a third can disperse them; and before she had opened the letter, the possibility of Mr. and Miss Crawford’s having applied to her uncle and obtained his permission was giving her ease. This was the letter—

Upon receiving it, she could instantly tell from the brief writing that it had the feel of a hurried business letter. Its purpose was clear, and just a moment was enough to suggest that it was simply to inform her that they would be in Portsmouth that very day, throwing her into a flurry of uncertainty about what she should do in that situation. But if a moment can bring complications, a second can clear them away; and before she had opened the letter, the thought that Mr. and Miss Crawford might have asked her uncle and received his permission gave her some relief. This was the letter—

“A most scandalous, ill-natured rumour has just reached me, and I write, dear Fanny, to warn you against giving the least credit to it, should it spread into the country. Depend upon it, there is some mistake, and that a day or two will clear it up; at any rate, that Henry is blameless, and in spite of a moment’s etourderie, thinks of nobody but you. Say not a word of it; hear nothing, surmise nothing, whisper nothing till I write again. I am sure it will be all hushed up, and nothing proved but Rushworth’s folly. If they are gone, I would lay my life they are only gone to Mansfield Park, and Julia with them. But why would not you let us come for you? I wish you may not repent it.—Yours, etc.”

“A really scandalous and nasty rumor just reached me, and I’m writing, dear Fanny, to warn you not to believe even a little bit of it, should it spread into the countryside. Trust me, there’s some mistake, and in a day or two it will be cleared up; anyway, Henry is blameless and despite a moment’s carelessness, thinks of no one but you. Don’t say a word about it; don’t hear anything, guess anything, or whisper anything until I write again. I’m sure it will all be silenced, and nothing will be proven except Rushworth’s foolishness. If they’ve left, I would bet my life they’ve only gone to Mansfield Park, and Julia is with them. But why wouldn’t you let us come for you? I hope you won’t regret it.—Yours, etc.”

Fanny stood aghast. As no scandalous, ill-natured rumour had reached her, it was impossible for her to understand much of this strange letter. She could only perceive that it must relate to Wimpole Street and Mr. Crawford, and only conjecture that something very imprudent had just occurred in that quarter to draw the notice of the world, and to excite her jealousy, in Miss Crawford’s apprehension, if she heard it. Miss Crawford need not be alarmed for her. She was only sorry for the parties concerned and for Mansfield, if the report should spread so far; but she hoped it might not. If the Rushworths were gone themselves to Mansfield, as was to be inferred from what Miss Crawford said, it was not likely that anything unpleasant should have preceded them, or at least should make any impression.

Fanny stood in shock. Since she hadn’t heard any scandalous or spiteful rumors, she found it hard to make sense of the strange letter. All she could gather was that it had to do with Wimpole Street and Mr. Crawford, and she could only guess that something very reckless had just happened there that would catch the public’s attention and make Miss Crawford worry about her jealousy if she found out. Miss Crawford didn’t need to be concerned for her. Fanny just felt sorry for those involved and for Mansfield if the news spread that far; but she hoped it wouldn’t. If the Rushworths had gone to Mansfield themselves, as it seemed from what Miss Crawford said, it was unlikely that anything unpleasant would have happened before them, or at least that it would leave any lasting impact.

As to Mr. Crawford, she hoped it might give him a knowledge of his own disposition, convince him that he was not capable of being steadily attached to any one woman in the world, and shame him from persisting any longer in addressing herself.

As for Mr. Crawford, she hoped it would make him aware of his own nature, show him that he couldn't be truly devoted to any one woman in the world, and embarrass him into stopping his attempts to pursue her.

It was very strange! She had begun to think he really loved her, and to fancy his affection for her something more than common; and his sister still said that he cared for nobody else. Yet there must have been some marked display of attentions to her cousin, there must have been some strong indiscretion, since her correspondent was not of a sort to regard a slight one.

It was really weird! She had started to believe he genuinely loved her and thought his feelings for her were something special; his sister kept insisting that he didn’t care about anyone else. Still, there had to be some clear signs of affection towards her cousin, there had to be some serious oversight, since her friend wasn’t the type to overlook something minor.

Very uncomfortable she was, and must continue, till she heard from Miss Crawford again. It was impossible to banish the letter from her thoughts, and she could not relieve herself by speaking of it to any human being. Miss Crawford need not have urged secrecy with so much warmth; she might have trusted to her sense of what was due to her cousin.

She felt very uneasy and had to keep going until she heard from Miss Crawford again. She couldn't stop thinking about the letter, and there was no way to ease her mind by discussing it with anyone. Miss Crawford didn't need to emphasize secrecy so strongly; she could have relied on her understanding of what was right for her cousin.

The next day came and brought no second letter. Fanny was disappointed. She could still think of little else all the morning; but, when her father came back in the afternoon with the daily newspaper as usual, she was so far from expecting any elucidation through such a channel that the subject was for a moment out of her head.

The next day arrived and brought no second letter. Fanny was let down. She could barely think about anything else all morning; however, when her father returned in the afternoon with the daily newspaper as usual, she was so far from expecting any clarity from that source that the topic slipped her mind for a moment.

She was deep in other musing. The remembrance of her first evening in that room, of her father and his newspaper, came across her. No candle was now wanted. The sun was yet an hour and half above the horizon. She felt that she had, indeed, been three months there; and the sun’s rays falling strongly into the parlour, instead of cheering, made her still more melancholy, for sunshine appeared to her a totally different thing in a town and in the country. Here, its power was only a glare: a stifling, sickly glare, serving but to bring forward stains and dirt that might otherwise have slept. There was neither health nor gaiety in sunshine in a town. She sat in a blaze of oppressive heat, in a cloud of moving dust, and her eyes could only wander from the walls, marked by her father’s head, to the table cut and notched by her brothers, where stood the tea-board never thoroughly cleaned, the cups and saucers wiped in streaks, the milk a mixture of motes floating in thin blue, and the bread and butter growing every minute more greasy than even Rebecca’s hands had first produced it. Her father read his newspaper, and her mother lamented over the ragged carpet as usual, while the tea was in preparation, and wished Rebecca would mend it; and Fanny was first roused by his calling out to her, after humphing and considering over a particular paragraph: “What’s the name of your great cousins in town, Fan?”

She was lost in her thoughts. She remembered her first evening in that room, her dad with his newspaper. There was no need for a candle now; the sun was still an hour and a half above the horizon. She realized she had been there for three months, and the sunlight pouring into the room only made her feel more down because sunshine seemed so different in a city compared to the countryside. Here, it was just a harsh glare: a stifling, unhealthy glare that highlighted stains and dirt that would otherwise stay hidden. There was no health or joy in city sunshine. She sat in the intense heat, surrounded by swirling dust, and her eyes could only drift from the walls marked by her father's head to the table scarred by her brothers, where the tea set was never fully cleaned, the cups and saucers were wiped in streaks, the milk had bits floating in a thin blue liquid, and the bread and butter became greasier by the minute, even more than what Rebecca had made it. Her father read his newspaper, while her mother complained about the tattered carpet as usual, wishing Rebecca would fix it; Fanny was first stirred when he called out to her after pondering over a particular paragraph: "What are the names of your great cousins in town, Fan?"

A moment’s recollection enabled her to say, “Rushworth, sir.”

A moment of thinking allowed her to say, “Rushworth, sir.”

“And don’t they live in Wimpole Street?”

“And don’t they live on Wimpole Street?”

“Yes, sir.”

"Yes, sir."

“Then, there’s the devil to pay among them, that’s all! There” (holding out the paper to her); “much good may such fine relations do you. I don’t know what Sir Thomas may think of such matters; he may be too much of the courtier and fine gentleman to like his daughter the less. But, by G—! if she belonged to me, I’d give her the rope’s end as long as I could stand over her. A little flogging for man and woman too would be the best way of preventing such things.”

“Then there’s going to be some trouble among them, that’s for sure! Here” (holding out the paper to her); “I don’t know how much good those fancy connections will do you. I’m not sure what Sir Thomas thinks about this kind of stuff; he might be too much of a courteous gentleman to think less of his daughter. But, honestly! If she were mine, I’d keep her in check as long as I could. A little punishment for both men and women would be the best way to prevent this kind of thing.”

Fanny read to herself that “it was with infinite concern the newspaper had to announce to the world a matrimonial fracas in the family of Mr. R. of Wimpole Street; the beautiful Mrs. R., whose name had not long been enrolled in the lists of Hymen, and who had promised to become so brilliant a leader in the fashionable world, having quitted her husband’s roof in company with the well-known and captivating Mr. C., the intimate friend and associate of Mr. R., and it was not known even to the editor of the newspaper whither they were gone.”

Fanny read to herself that “with great concern, the newspaper had to announce to the world a marital scandal in the family of Mr. R. of Wimpole Street; the beautiful Mrs. R., whose name had only recently been added to the lists of marriage, and who had promised to be a brilliant leader in the fashion world, had left her husband’s home with the well-known and charming Mr. C., the close friend and associate of Mr. R., and even the editor of the newspaper did not know where they had gone.”

“It is a mistake, sir,” said Fanny instantly; “it must be a mistake, it cannot be true; it must mean some other people.”

“It’s a mistake, sir,” Fanny said immediately; “it has to be a mistake, it can’t be true; it must be referring to someone else.”

She spoke from the instinctive wish of delaying shame; she spoke with a resolution which sprung from despair, for she spoke what she did not, could not believe herself. It had been the shock of conviction as she read. The truth rushed on her; and how she could have spoken at all, how she could even have breathed, was afterwards matter of wonder to herself.

She spoke from the instinctive desire to avoid shame; she spoke with a determination that came from despair, saying things she didn’t believe herself. It was the shock of realization as she read. The truth hit her hard; and she later wondered how she could have spoken at all, how she could even have breathed.

Mr. Price cared too little about the report to make her much answer. “It might be all a lie,” he acknowledged; “but so many fine ladies were going to the devil nowadays that way, that there was no answering for anybody.”

Mr. Price didn't care much about the report to give her a proper response. “It could all be a lie,” he admitted; “but so many respectable ladies were heading to ruin these days, who can say for sure?”

“Indeed, I hope it is not true,” said Mrs. Price plaintively; “it would be so very shocking! If I have spoken once to Rebecca about that carpet, I am sure I have spoke at least a dozen times; have not I, Betsey? And it would not be ten minutes’ work.”

“Honestly, I hope it’s not true,” Mrs. Price said sadly; “that would be so shocking! If I've mentioned that carpet to Rebecca even once, I know I've brought it up at least a dozen times; haven’t I, Betsey? And it wouldn’t take more than ten minutes.”

The horror of a mind like Fanny’s, as it received the conviction of such guilt, and began to take in some part of the misery that must ensue, can hardly be described. At first, it was a sort of stupefaction; but every moment was quickening her perception of the horrible evil. She could not doubt, she dared not indulge a hope, of the paragraph being false. Miss Crawford’s letter, which she had read so often as to make every line her own, was in frightful conformity with it. Her eager defence of her brother, her hope of its being hushed up, her evident agitation, were all of a piece with something very bad; and if there was a woman of character in existence, who could treat as a trifle this sin of the first magnitude, who would try to gloss it over, and desire to have it unpunished, she could believe Miss Crawford to be the woman! Now she could see her own mistake as to who were gone, or said to be gone. It was not Mr. and Mrs. Rushworth; it was Mrs. Rushworth and Mr. Crawford.

The horror of a mind like Fanny's, as she grasped the weight of such guilt and started to process some of the misery that would follow, is hard to describe. At first, she felt a sort of numbness, but with each passing moment, her awareness of the dreadful reality sharpened. She couldn’t doubt it, and she didn’t dare let herself hope that the news was false. Miss Crawford’s letter, which she had read so many times that every line felt like her own, terrifyingly matched it. Her eager defense of her brother, her hope that it would be hushed up, her obvious distress, all pointed towards something very wrong; and if there was any woman of integrity out there who could downplay this serious sin, who would try to cover it up and want it to go unpunished, she would think Miss Crawford fit that description! Now she could see how wrong she had been about who had left, or was said to have left. It wasn’t Mr. and Mrs. Rushworth; it was Mrs. Rushworth and Mr. Crawford.

Fanny seemed to herself never to have been shocked before. There was no possibility of rest. The evening passed without a pause of misery, the night was totally sleepless. She passed only from feelings of sickness to shudderings of horror; and from hot fits of fever to cold. The event was so shocking, that there were moments even when her heart revolted from it as impossible: when she thought it could not be. A woman married only six months ago; a man professing himself devoted, even engaged to another; that other her near relation; the whole family, both families connected as they were by tie upon tie; all friends, all intimate together! It was too horrible a confusion of guilt, too gross a complication of evil, for human nature, not in a state of utter barbarism, to be capable of! yet her judgment told her it was so. His unsettled affections, wavering with his vanity, Maria’s decided attachment, and no sufficient principle on either side, gave it possibility: Miss Crawford’s letter stampt it a fact.

Fanny felt like she had never been this shocked before. There was no chance of resting. The evening dragged on in misery, and the night was completely sleepless. She went from feeling nauseous to shuddering in horror; from hot flashes to chills. The situation was so shocking that there were moments when her heart rejected it as impossible: how could it be? A woman who had just gotten married six months ago; a man who claimed to be devoted, even engaged to someone else; that someone being her close relative; the entire family, both families connected in so many ways; all friends, all close! It was too horrific a mess of guilt, too twisted a complication of evil, for any decent person to handle! And yet her mind told her it was true. His uncertain feelings, swayed by his vanity, Maria’s strong attachment, and no solid principle on either side made it possible: Miss Crawford’s letter confirmed it as real.

What would be the consequence? Whom would it not injure? Whose views might it not affect? Whose peace would it not cut up for ever? Miss Crawford, herself, Edmund; but it was dangerous, perhaps, to tread such ground. She confined herself, or tried to confine herself, to the simple, indubitable family misery which must envelop all, if it were indeed a matter of certified guilt and public exposure. The mother’s sufferings, the father’s; there she paused. Julia’s, Tom’s, Edmund’s; there a yet longer pause. They were the two on whom it would fall most horribly. Sir Thomas’s parental solicitude and high sense of honour and decorum, Edmund’s upright principles, unsuspicious temper, and genuine strength of feeling, made her think it scarcely possible for them to support life and reason under such disgrace; and it appeared to her that, as far as this world alone was concerned, the greatest blessing to every one of kindred with Mrs. Rushworth would be instant annihilation.

What would be the outcome? Who wouldn’t be hurt? Whose opinions wouldn’t be influenced? Whose peace wouldn’t be destroyed forever? Miss Crawford, Edmund himself; but it might be risky to go there. She limited herself, or tried to limit herself, to the basic, undeniable family distress that would affect everyone if it were truly a case of confirmed guilt and public exposure. The mother’s pain, the father’s; she paused there. Julia’s, Tom’s, Edmund’s; there was a longer pause. They were the two who would be affected the most horrifically. Sir Thomas’s parental care and strong sense of honor and decency, Edmund’s honest principles, trusting nature, and genuine emotional strength, made her believe it was nearly impossible for them to survive with their sanity intact under such disgrace; and it seemed to her that, as far as this world was concerned, the greatest blessing for everyone related to Mrs. Rushworth would be immediate oblivion.

Nothing happened the next day, or the next, to weaken her terrors. Two posts came in, and brought no refutation, public or private. There was no second letter to explain away the first from Miss Crawford; there was no intelligence from Mansfield, though it was now full time for her to hear again from her aunt. This was an evil omen. She had, indeed, scarcely the shadow of a hope to soothe her mind, and was reduced to so low and wan and trembling a condition, as no mother, not unkind, except Mrs. Price could have overlooked, when the third day did bring the sickening knock, and a letter was again put into her hands. It bore the London postmark, and came from Edmund.

Nothing happened the next day, or the one after, to lessen her fears. Two letters arrived, but neither nor anyone had contradicted her anxieties. Miss Crawford didn’t send a second letter to clarify the first, and she hadn’t heard from Mansfield, even though it was well overdue for her to get news from her aunt. This felt like a bad sign. She hardly had any hope to calm her mind and was in such a low, pale, and shaky state that no mother, not even an unkind one, except Mrs. Price, could have failed to notice. Then, on the third day, the dreaded knock came, and another letter was placed in her hands. It had a London postmark and was from Edmund.

“Dear Fanny,—You know our present wretchedness. May God support you under your share! We have been here two days, but there is nothing to be done. They cannot be traced. You may not have heard of the last blow—Julia’s elopement; she is gone to Scotland with Yates. She left London a few hours before we entered it. At any other time this would have been felt dreadfully. Now it seems nothing; yet it is an heavy aggravation. My father is not overpowered. More cannot be hoped. He is still able to think and act; and I write, by his desire, to propose your returning home. He is anxious to get you there for my mother’s sake. I shall be at Portsmouth the morning after you receive this, and hope to find you ready to set off for Mansfield. My father wishes you to invite Susan to go with you for a few months. Settle it as you like; say what is proper; I am sure you will feel such an instance of his kindness at such a moment! Do justice to his meaning, however I may confuse it. You may imagine something of my present state. There is no end of the evil let loose upon us. You will see me early by the mail.—Yours, etc.”

“Dear Fanny, — You know how terrible things are for us right now. I hope God gives you strength to bear your part in this! We’ve been here for two days, but there’s nothing we can do. They can’t be found. You might not have heard the latest shock—Julia ran away; she’s gone to Scotland with Yates. She left London just hours before we arrived. At any other time, this would be unbearable. Now it feels trivial, yet it adds to our burden. My father isn’t completely overwhelmed. We can’t hope for more than that. He’s still capable of thinking and acting, and he asked me to write to suggest you come home. He really wants you there for my mother’s sake. I will be in Portsmouth the morning after you get this, and I hope to find you ready to head to Mansfield. My father wants you to invite Susan to join you for a few months. Arrange it as you see fit; say what you think is right; I know you’ll appreciate his kindness during this time! Do justice to his intentions, no matter how confused I might make it. You can probably guess how I’m feeling right now. There seems to be no end to the troubles we’re facing. You’ll see me early by mail. — Yours, etc.”

Never had Fanny more wanted a cordial. Never had she felt such a one as this letter contained. To-morrow! to leave Portsmouth to-morrow! She was, she felt she was, in the greatest danger of being exquisitely happy, while so many were miserable. The evil which brought such good to her! She dreaded lest she should learn to be insensible of it. To be going so soon, sent for so kindly, sent for as a comfort, and with leave to take Susan, was altogether such a combination of blessings as set her heart in a glow, and for a time seemed to distance every pain, and make her incapable of suitably sharing the distress even of those whose distress she thought of most. Julia’s elopement could affect her comparatively but little; she was amazed and shocked; but it could not occupy her, could not dwell on her mind. She was obliged to call herself to think of it, and acknowledge it to be terrible and grievous, or it was escaping her, in the midst of all the agitating pressing joyful cares attending this summons to herself.

Never had Fanny wanted a drink more. Never had she felt one like the joy contained in this letter. Tomorrow! Leaving Portsmouth tomorrow! She felt, she truly felt, like she was in danger of being incredibly happy while so many others were suffering. The bad that brought her such good! She worried she might become numb to it. To be leaving so soon, invited so kindly, invited as a source of comfort, and allowed to bring Susan was an incredible set of blessings that lit up her heart and for a moment seemed to push aside every pain, making her unable to genuinely share in the sorrow of those she cared about most. Julia’s elopement affected her only slightly; she was shocked and amazed, but it didn’t occupy her thoughts for long. She had to remind herself to think about it, to acknowledge it as terrible and heartbreaking, or it would slip away from her amidst all the overwhelming joyful thoughts surrounding this invitation for her.

There is nothing like employment, active indispensable employment, for relieving sorrow. Employment, even melancholy, may dispel melancholy, and her occupations were hopeful. She had so much to do, that not even the horrible story of Mrs. Rushworth (now fixed to the last point of certainty), could affect her as it had done before. She had not time to be miserable. Within twenty-four hours she was hoping to be gone; her father and mother must be spoken to, Susan prepared, everything got ready. Business followed business; the day was hardly long enough. The happiness she was imparting, too, happiness very little alloyed by the black communication which must briefly precede it—the joyful consent of her father and mother to Susan’s going with her—the general satisfaction with which the going of both seemed regarded, and the ecstasy of Susan herself, was all serving to support her spirits.

There's nothing quite like being busy, genuinely busy, to lift your spirits. Even a sad task can chase away sadness, and her tasks were filled with hope. She had so much to do that even the terrible news about Mrs. Rushworth—now confirmed beyond a doubt—couldn't affect her the way it did before. She simply didn't have time to be unhappy. Within twenty-four hours, she was looking forward to leaving; she needed to talk to her parents, prepare Susan, and get everything in order. One task led to another; the day barely felt long enough. The happiness she was sharing, mostly untouched by the grim news that had to come first—her parents' joyful agreement for Susan to go with her—the overall excitement about both of them leaving, and Susan's own exhilaration, all helped to lift her mood.

The affliction of the Bertrams was little felt in the family. Mrs. Price talked of her poor sister for a few minutes, but how to find anything to hold Susan’s clothes, because Rebecca took away all the boxes and spoilt them, was much more in her thoughts: and as for Susan, now unexpectedly gratified in the first wish of her heart, and knowing nothing personally of those who had sinned, or of those who were sorrowing—if she could help rejoicing from beginning to end, it was as much as ought to be expected from human virtue at fourteen.

The Bertram family's troubles didn't really affect them much. Mrs. Price brought up her poor sister for a few minutes, but what was really on her mind was figuring out where to store Susan’s clothes since Rebecca had taken all the boxes and ruined them. As for Susan, who was unexpectedly happy to see her biggest wish come true and didn’t know anything about those who had done wrong or those who were sad—if she could manage to feel joy from start to finish, that was about all anyone could expect from a fourteen-year-old.

As nothing was really left for the decision of Mrs. Price, or the good offices of Rebecca, everything was rationally and duly accomplished, and the girls were ready for the morrow. The advantage of much sleep to prepare them for their journey was impossible. The cousin who was travelling towards them could hardly have less than visited their agitated spirits—one all happiness, the other all varying and indescribable perturbation.

As Mrs. Price and Rebecca had no more decisions to make, everything was handled properly, and the girls were set for the next day. They couldn’t really get much sleep to get ready for their journey. The cousin who was on his way to see them could hardly have done anything but stir their anxious emotions—one filled with joy, the other a mix of confusing feelings.

By eight in the morning Edmund was in the house. The girls heard his entrance from above, and Fanny went down. The idea of immediately seeing him, with the knowledge of what he must be suffering, brought back all her own first feelings. He so near her, and in misery. She was ready to sink as she entered the parlour. He was alone, and met her instantly; and she found herself pressed to his heart with only these words, just articulate, “My Fanny, my only sister; my only comfort now!” She could say nothing; nor for some minutes could he say more.

By eight in the morning, Edmund was at the house. The girls heard him come in from upstairs, and Fanny went down. The thought of seeing him, knowing how much he was hurting, brought back all her own initial feelings. He was so close to her, and in pain. She felt like she might collapse as she entered the parlor. He was alone and immediately embraced her, managing to say only these words, barely able to speak: "My Fanny, my only sister; my only comfort now!" She couldn't say anything, and for several minutes, neither could he.

He turned away to recover himself, and when he spoke again, though his voice still faltered, his manner shewed the wish of self-command, and the resolution of avoiding any farther allusion. “Have you breakfasted? When shall you be ready? Does Susan go?” were questions following each other rapidly. His great object was to be off as soon as possible. When Mansfield was considered, time was precious; and the state of his own mind made him find relief only in motion. It was settled that he should order the carriage to the door in half an hour. Fanny answered for their having breakfasted and being quite ready in half an hour. He had already ate, and declined staying for their meal. He would walk round the ramparts, and join them with the carriage. He was gone again; glad to get away even from Fanny.

He turned away to collect himself, and when he spoke again, although his voice still wavered, he showed a desire for self-control and a determination to avoid any further mention of the topic. “Have you had breakfast? When will you be ready? Is Susan coming?” were questions that followed one another quickly. His main goal was to leave as soon as possible. Considering Mansfield, time was of the essence; and his own state of mind made him find relief only in movement. It was decided that he would order the carriage to the door in half an hour. Fanny confirmed that they had eaten and would be ready in half an hour. He had already eaten and declined to stay for their meal. He planned to walk around the ramparts and meet them with the carriage. He was off again, glad to get away even from Fanny.

He looked very ill; evidently suffering under violent emotions, which he was determined to suppress. She knew it must be so, but it was terrible to her.

He looked really unwell; clearly struggling with intense emotions that he was determined to hide. She knew it had to be true, but it was awful for her.

The carriage came; and he entered the house again at the same moment, just in time to spend a few minutes with the family, and be a witness—but that he saw nothing—of the tranquil manner in which the daughters were parted with, and just in time to prevent their sitting down to the breakfast-table, which, by dint of much unusual activity, was quite and completely ready as the carriage drove from the door. Fanny’s last meal in her father’s house was in character with her first: she was dismissed from it as hospitably as she had been welcomed.

The carriage arrived, and he walked back into the house at the same moment, just in time to spend a few minutes with the family and witness—but he didn’t see anything—how calmly the daughters were saying goodbye. He also arrived just in time to stop them from sitting down to breakfast, which, thanks to a lot of unusual hustle, was fully prepared as the carriage pulled away from the door. Fanny’s last meal in her father’s house mirrored her first: she was sent off as warmly as she had been welcomed.

How her heart swelled with joy and gratitude as she passed the barriers of Portsmouth, and how Susan’s face wore its broadest smiles, may be easily conceived. Sitting forwards, however, and screened by her bonnet, those smiles were unseen.

How her heart filled with joy and gratitude as she crossed the borders of Portsmouth, and how Susan wore her biggest smiles, is easy to imagine. Leaning forward, however, and hidden by her bonnet, those smiles went unnoticed.

The journey was likely to be a silent one. Edmund’s deep sighs often reached Fanny. Had he been alone with her, his heart must have opened in spite of every resolution; but Susan’s presence drove him quite into himself, and his attempts to talk on indifferent subjects could never be long supported.

The journey was probably going to be a quiet one. Edmund’s heavy sighs often reached Fanny. If he had been alone with her, his heart would have surely opened up despite his resolutions; but Susan’s presence made him withdraw into himself, and his efforts to discuss unimportant topics could never last long.

Fanny watched him with never-failing solicitude, and sometimes catching his eye, revived an affectionate smile, which comforted her; but the first day’s journey passed without her hearing a word from him on the subjects that were weighing him down. The next morning produced a little more. Just before their setting out from Oxford, while Susan was stationed at a window, in eager observation of the departure of a large family from the inn, the other two were standing by the fire; and Edmund, particularly struck by the alteration in Fanny’s looks, and from his ignorance of the daily evils of her father’s house, attributing an undue share of the change, attributing all to the recent event, took her hand, and said in a low, but very expressive tone, “No wonder—you must feel it—you must suffer. How a man who had once loved, could desert you! But yours—your regard was new compared with——Fanny, think of me!”

Fanny watched him with constant concern, and sometimes when their eyes met, she gave him a warm smile that comforted her. However, the first day’s journey went by without her getting any updates from him about the things that were bothering him. The next morning offered a bit more connection. Just before they left Oxford, while Susan was looking out the window, eagerly watching a large family leave the inn, the other two stood by the fire. Edmund, particularly noticing the change in Fanny’s expression and unaware of the daily troubles at her father’s house, wrongly assumed that most of her distress was due to the recent event. He took her hand and said in a soft but meaningful tone, “No wonder—you must feel it—you must suffer. How could a man who once loved you abandon you? But yours—your feelings were fresh compared to—Fanny, think of me!”

The first division of their journey occupied a long day, and brought them, almost knocked up, to Oxford; but the second was over at a much earlier hour. They were in the environs of Mansfield long before the usual dinner-time, and as they approached the beloved place, the hearts of both sisters sank a little. Fanny began to dread the meeting with her aunts and Tom, under so dreadful a humiliation; and Susan to feel with some anxiety, that all her best manners, all her lately acquired knowledge of what was practised here, was on the point of being called into action. Visions of good and ill breeding, of old vulgarisms and new gentilities, were before her; and she was meditating much upon silver forks, napkins, and finger-glasses. Fanny had been everywhere awake to the difference of the country since February; but when they entered the Park her perceptions and her pleasures were of the keenest sort. It was three months, full three months, since her quitting it, and the change was from winter to summer. Her eye fell everywhere on lawns and plantations of the freshest green; and the trees, though not fully clothed, were in that delightful state when farther beauty is known to be at hand, and when, while much is actually given to the sight, more yet remains for the imagination. Her enjoyment, however, was for herself alone. Edmund could not share it. She looked at him, but he was leaning back, sunk in a deeper gloom than ever, and with eyes closed, as if the view of cheerfulness oppressed him, and the lovely scenes of home must be shut out.

The first leg of their journey took a long day and nearly exhausted them by the time they reached Oxford; but the second part was completed much earlier. They were in the area around Mansfield long before the usual dinner time, and as they got closer to the beloved place, both sisters felt a pang of anxiety. Fanny started to dread the encounter with her aunts and Tom, feeling so terribly humiliated; and Susan felt a bit anxious as well, realizing that all her good manners and everything she had recently learned about proper conduct were about to be put to the test. Thoughts of good and bad etiquette, old habits and new social norms filled her mind, and she was deep in thought about silver forks, napkins, and finger bowls. Fanny had been acutely aware of the differences in the countryside since February, but when they entered the Park, her feelings and joys were at their peak. It had been three full months since she had left, and the shift had gone from winter to summer. Her eyes landed everywhere on lawns and groves of the freshest green; the trees, though not fully dressed, were in that lovely stage where more beauty was just around the corner, providing a sight that's rich while still leaving plenty to the imagination. However, her enjoyment was solely for herself. Edmund couldn’t share in it. She glanced at him, but he was slumped back, lost in a deeper gloom than before, with his eyes closed as if cheerful sights were too much for him, and the beautiful scenes of home needed to be blocked out.

It made her melancholy again; and the knowledge of what must be enduring there, invested even the house, modern, airy, and well situated as it was, with a melancholy aspect.

It made her feel sad again; and the awareness of what must be lasting there gave even the house, modern, bright, and well-located as it was, a somber look.

By one of the suffering party within they were expected with such impatience as she had never known before. Fanny had scarcely passed the solemn-looking servants, when Lady Bertram came from the drawing-room to meet her; came with no indolent step; and falling on her neck, said, “Dear Fanny! now I shall be comfortable.”

By one of the suffering group, they were awaited with a level of impatience that she had never experienced before. Fanny had barely passed the serious-looking servants when Lady Bertram came from the living room to greet her; she approached with a determined stride and, throwing her arms around Fanny, said, “Dear Fanny! Now I can relax.”

CHAPTER XLVII

It had been a miserable party, each of the three believing themselves most miserable. Mrs. Norris, however, as most attached to Maria, was really the greatest sufferer. Maria was her first favourite, the dearest of all; the match had been her own contriving, as she had been wont with such pride of heart to feel and say, and this conclusion of it almost overpowered her.

It had been a terrible party, with each of the three thinking they were the most miserable. However, Mrs. Norris, who was closest to Maria, was truly the greatest sufferer. Maria was her first favorite, the one she cherished the most; the match had been arranged by her own design, something she had often felt and proudly stated, and this outcome nearly overwhelmed her.

She was an altered creature, quieted, stupefied, indifferent to everything that passed. The being left with her sister and nephew, and all the house under her care, had been an advantage entirely thrown away; she had been unable to direct or dictate, or even fancy herself useful. When really touched by affliction, her active powers had been all benumbed; and neither Lady Bertram nor Tom had received from her the smallest support or attempt at support. She had done no more for them than they had done for each other. They had been all solitary, helpless, and forlorn alike; and now the arrival of the others only established her superiority in wretchedness. Her companions were relieved, but there was no good for her. Edmund was almost as welcome to his brother as Fanny to her aunt; but Mrs. Norris, instead of having comfort from either, was but the more irritated by the sight of the person whom, in the blindness of her anger, she could have charged as the daemon of the piece. Had Fanny accepted Mr. Crawford this could not have happened.

She was a changed person, quiet, dazed, and indifferent to everything around her. The responsibility of taking care of her sister and nephew, along with the entire house, was an opportunity she completely wasted; she couldn't lead, make decisions, or even see herself as helpful. When faced with real sorrow, all her abilities were frozen; neither Lady Bertram nor Tom received any support or even an attempt at support from her. She had done no more for them than they had done for each other. They were all lonely, helpless, and miserable together; and now, the arrival of others only highlighted her own misery. Her companions felt some relief, but there was no benefit for her. Edmund was almost as welcomed by his brother as Fanny was by her aunt; but Mrs. Norris, instead of finding comfort from either of them, was even more annoyed by the sight of the person she, in her anger, could have blamed as the source of her troubles. If Fanny had accepted Mr. Crawford, this wouldn't have happened.

Susan too was a grievance. She had not spirits to notice her in more than a few repulsive looks, but she felt her as a spy, and an intruder, and an indigent niece, and everything most odious. By her other aunt, Susan was received with quiet kindness. Lady Bertram could not give her much time, or many words, but she felt her, as Fanny’s sister, to have a claim at Mansfield, and was ready to kiss and like her; and Susan was more than satisfied, for she came perfectly aware that nothing but ill-humour was to be expected from aunt Norris; and was so provided with happiness, so strong in that best of blessings, an escape from many certain evils, that she could have stood against a great deal more indifference than she met with from the others.

Susan was also a source of annoyance. She didn't have the energy to acknowledge her beyond a few disgusted looks, but she felt Susan was a spy, an intruder, a needy niece—everything that was unpleasant. Her other aunt welcomed Susan with quiet kindness. Lady Bertram couldn't spend much time or say many words, but she appreciated that, as Fanny’s sister, Susan had a right to be at Mansfield. She was ready to be affectionate, and Susan was more than happy with that since she knew to expect nothing but bad moods from Aunt Norris. She was so filled with happiness, so blessed to escape numerous certain troubles, that she could have tolerated much more indifference than she received from the others.

She was now left a good deal to herself, to get acquainted with the house and grounds as she could, and spent her days very happily in so doing, while those who might otherwise have attended to her were shut up, or wholly occupied each with the person quite dependent on them, at this time, for everything like comfort; Edmund trying to bury his own feelings in exertions for the relief of his brother’s, and Fanny devoted to her aunt Bertram, returning to every former office with more than former zeal, and thinking she could never do enough for one who seemed so much to want her.

She was now mostly on her own, getting to know the house and the grounds as best she could, and spent her days happily doing so, while those who might have looked after her were preoccupied, each focused entirely on the person who depended on them for comfort. Edmund was trying to suppress his own feelings by helping his brother, and Fanny was devoted to her Aunt Bertram, returning to her previous duties with even more enthusiasm, believing she could never do enough for someone who seemed to need her so much.

To talk over the dreadful business with Fanny, talk and lament, was all Lady Bertram’s consolation. To be listened to and borne with, and hear the voice of kindness and sympathy in return, was everything that could be done for her. To be otherwise comforted was out of the question. The case admitted of no comfort. Lady Bertram did not think deeply, but, guided by Sir Thomas, she thought justly on all important points; and she saw, therefore, in all its enormity, what had happened, and neither endeavoured herself, nor required Fanny to advise her, to think little of guilt and infamy.

Talking about the terrible situation with Fanny, venting and mourning, was all that brought Lady Bertram any comfort. Being listened to, supported, and hearing kind and sympathetic voices in response was everything anyone could do for her. Any other form of comfort was impossible. There was no way to find comfort in this situation. Lady Bertram didn’t think deeply, but with Sir Thomas’s guidance, she understood the important issues clearly; she recognized the full seriousness of what had happened and neither tried to minimize the guilt and disgrace herself nor expected Fanny to suggest that she do so.

Her affections were not acute, nor was her mind tenacious. After a time, Fanny found it not impossible to direct her thoughts to other subjects, and revive some interest in the usual occupations; but whenever Lady Bertram was fixed on the event, she could see it only in one light, as comprehending the loss of a daughter, and a disgrace never to be wiped off.

Her feelings weren't intense, and she wasn't very focused. After a while, Fanny found it possible to shift her thoughts to other topics and regain some interest in her usual activities; but whenever Lady Bertram was focused on the situation, she could only see it in one way: as the loss of a daughter and a disgrace that would never go away.

Fanny learnt from her all the particulars which had yet transpired. Her aunt was no very methodical narrator, but with the help of some letters to and from Sir Thomas, and what she already knew herself, and could reasonably combine, she was soon able to understand quite as much as she wished of the circumstances attending the story.

Fanny learned from her all the details that had happened so far. Her aunt wasn't very organized in telling the story, but with the help of some letters to and from Sir Thomas, along with what she already knew and could piece together, she was quickly able to grasp as much of the circumstances surrounding the story as she wanted.

Mrs. Rushworth had gone, for the Easter holidays, to Twickenham, with a family whom she had just grown intimate with: a family of lively, agreeable manners, and probably of morals and discretion to suit, for to their house Mr. Crawford had constant access at all times. His having been in the same neighbourhood Fanny already knew. Mr. Rushworth had been gone at this time to Bath, to pass a few days with his mother, and bring her back to town, and Maria was with these friends without any restraint, without even Julia; for Julia had removed from Wimpole Street two or three weeks before, on a visit to some relations of Sir Thomas; a removal which her father and mother were now disposed to attribute to some view of convenience on Mr. Yates’s account. Very soon after the Rushworths’ return to Wimpole Street, Sir Thomas had received a letter from an old and most particular friend in London, who hearing and witnessing a good deal to alarm him in that quarter, wrote to recommend Sir Thomas’s coming to London himself, and using his influence with his daughter to put an end to the intimacy which was already exposing her to unpleasant remarks, and evidently making Mr. Rushworth uneasy.

Mrs. Rushworth had gone to Twickenham for the Easter holidays with a family she had just become close with: a family with lively, friendly behaviors and likely morals and discretion to match, as Mr. Crawford had constant access to their house at all times. Fanny already knew that he lived in the same neighborhood. Mr. Rushworth had gone to Bath for a few days to visit his mother and bring her back to town, leaving Maria free to stay with these friends without any restrictions, not even with Julia; Julia had moved out of Wimpole Street a couple of weeks earlier to visit some relatives of Sir Thomas, a move her parents now thought might have been for Mr. Yates's convenience. Shortly after the Rushworths returned to Wimpole Street, Sir Thomas received a letter from an old, very close friend in London. This friend had seen and heard enough to be alarmed, so he wrote to suggest that Sir Thomas come to London himself and use his influence with his daughter to end the relationship, which was already causing her unpleasant gossip and obviously making Mr. Rushworth uncomfortable.

Sir Thomas was preparing to act upon this letter, without communicating its contents to any creature at Mansfield, when it was followed by another, sent express from the same friend, to break to him the almost desperate situation in which affairs then stood with the young people. Mrs. Rushworth had left her husband’s house: Mr. Rushworth had been in great anger and distress to him (Mr. Harding) for his advice; Mr. Harding feared there had been at least very flagrant indiscretion. The maidservant of Mrs. Rushworth, senior, threatened alarmingly. He was doing all in his power to quiet everything, with the hope of Mrs. Rushworth’s return, but was so much counteracted in Wimpole Street by the influence of Mr. Rushworth’s mother, that the worst consequences might be apprehended.

Sir Thomas was getting ready to act on this letter without sharing its contents with anyone at Mansfield when he received another one, sent specifically by the same friend, to inform him of the nearly desperate situation with the young couple. Mrs. Rushworth had left her husband’s house; Mr. Rushworth was very angry and upset with him (Mr. Harding) for his advice. Mr. Harding feared there had been at least some very serious misconduct. The maidservant of Mrs. Rushworth, senior, was making alarming threats. He was doing everything he could to calm things down, hoping for Mrs. Rushworth’s return, but he was facing significant obstacles from Mr. Rushworth’s mother in Wimpole Street, raising fears of the worst possible outcomes.

This dreadful communication could not be kept from the rest of the family. Sir Thomas set off, Edmund would go with him, and the others had been left in a state of wretchedness, inferior only to what followed the receipt of the next letters from London. Everything was by that time public beyond a hope. The servant of Mrs. Rushworth, the mother, had exposure in her power, and supported by her mistress, was not to be silenced. The two ladies, even in the short time they had been together, had disagreed; and the bitterness of the elder against her daughter-in-law might perhaps arise almost as much from the personal disrespect with which she had herself been treated as from sensibility for her son.

This awful news couldn’t be kept from the rest of the family. Sir Thomas set off, and Edmund went with him, while the others were left in a state of misery, only slightly less than what they felt after receiving the next letters from London. By that point, everything was so public that there was no hope left. The servant of Mrs. Rushworth, the mother, had the ability to expose the situation and, backed by her mistress, was not going to be silenced. The two ladies, even in the short time they had been together, had argued; and the resentment of the older woman towards her daughter-in-law might stem as much from the personal disrespect she felt as from her concern for her son.

However that might be, she was unmanageable. But had she been less obstinate, or of less weight with her son, who was always guided by the last speaker, by the person who could get hold of and shut him up, the case would still have been hopeless, for Mrs. Rushworth did not appear again, and there was every reason to conclude her to be concealed somewhere with Mr. Crawford, who had quitted his uncle’s house, as for a journey, on the very day of her absenting herself.

However that may be, she was impossible to handle. But even if she had been less stubborn, or had less influence over her son, who always followed the last person he spoke to, the situation would still have been hopeless. Mrs. Rushworth did not show up again, and there were plenty of reasons to believe she was hiding somewhere with Mr. Crawford, who left his uncle’s house, seemingly for a trip, on the very day she disappeared.

Sir Thomas, however, remained yet a little longer in town, in the hope of discovering and snatching her from farther vice, though all was lost on the side of character.

Sir Thomas, however, stayed a bit longer in town, hoping to find her and rescue her from further wrongdoing, even though all hope was lost when it came to her reputation.

His present state Fanny could hardly bear to think of. There was but one of his children who was not at this time a source of misery to him. Tom’s complaints had been greatly heightened by the shock of his sister’s conduct, and his recovery so much thrown back by it, that even Lady Bertram had been struck by the difference, and all her alarms were regularly sent off to her husband; and Julia’s elopement, the additional blow which had met him on his arrival in London, though its force had been deadened at the moment, must, she knew, be sorely felt. She saw that it was. His letters expressed how much he deplored it. Under any circumstances it would have been an unwelcome alliance; but to have it so clandestinely formed, and such a period chosen for its completion, placed Julia’s feelings in a most unfavourable light, and severely aggravated the folly of her choice. He called it a bad thing, done in the worst manner, and at the worst time; and though Julia was yet as more pardonable than Maria as folly than vice, he could not but regard the step she had taken as opening the worst probabilities of a conclusion hereafter like her sister’s. Such was his opinion of the set into which she had thrown herself.

His current situation was almost too much for Fanny to think about. Only one of his children wasn’t causing him distress at the moment. Tom’s complaints had increased significantly due to the shock of his sister's actions, and his recovery had been set back so much because of it that even Lady Bertram noticed the change and regularly sent her concerns to her husband. Julia’s elopement, which had hit him hard upon his arrival in London, had lost its impact at that moment, but she knew it would be deeply felt. She could see that it was. His letters showed how much he regretted it. Under any circumstances, it would have been an unwelcome match, but the fact that it was formed so secretly and at such a bad time cast Julia’s feelings in a very negative light and significantly worsened the foolishness of her choice. He considered it a bad decision made in the worst way and at the worst time; and though Julia was certainly more forgivable than Maria, considering that folly is less blameworthy than vice, he couldn’t help but see her choice as opening the door to the worst possible outcomes, similar to her sister’s. That’s how he viewed the crowd she had gotten involved with.

Fanny felt for him most acutely. He could have no comfort but in Edmund. Every other child must be racking his heart. His displeasure against herself she trusted, reasoning differently from Mrs. Norris, would now be done away. She should be justified. Mr. Crawford would have fully acquitted her conduct in refusing him; but this, though most material to herself, would be poor consolation to Sir Thomas. Her uncle’s displeasure was terrible to her; but what could her justification or her gratitude and attachment do for him? His stay must be on Edmund alone.

Fanny felt deeply for him. His only source of comfort could be Edmund. Every other child must be breaking his heart. She hoped that his anger towards her, which she believed was different from what Mrs. Norris thought, would now be gone. She would be in the right. Mr. Crawford would have completely understood her decision to refuse him; however, while this was important to her, it wouldn't bring much comfort to Sir Thomas. Her uncle’s anger affected her greatly; but what could her justification, gratitude, or attachment do for him? He would rely solely on Edmund.

She was mistaken, however, in supposing that Edmund gave his father no present pain. It was of a much less poignant nature than what the others excited; but Sir Thomas was considering his happiness as very deeply involved in the offence of his sister and friend; cut off by it, as he must be, from the woman whom he had been pursuing with undoubted attachment and strong probability of success; and who, in everything but this despicable brother, would have been so eligible a connexion. He was aware of what Edmund must be suffering on his own behalf, in addition to all the rest, when they were in town: he had seen or conjectured his feelings; and, having reason to think that one interview with Miss Crawford had taken place, from which Edmund derived only increased distress, had been as anxious on that account as on others to get him out of town, and had engaged him in taking Fanny home to her aunt, with a view to his relief and benefit, no less than theirs. Fanny was not in the secret of her uncle’s feelings, Sir Thomas not in the secret of Miss Crawford’s character. Had he been privy to her conversation with his son, he would not have wished her to belong to him, though her twenty thousand pounds had been forty.

She was wrong to think that Edmund didn’t cause his father any pain. It was a different kind of hurt than what the others stirred up; still, Sir Thomas felt that his happiness was deeply affected by the wrongdoing of his sister and friend. It cut him off from the woman he had been pursuing with real affection and a good chance of success, and who, aside from this disgraceful brother, would have been a great match. He understood what Edmund must be going through on his own account, on top of everything else, when they were in town: he had seen or guessed at his feelings. Having reason to believe that Edmund had a meeting with Miss Crawford that only added to his distress, Sir Thomas was eager to get him out of town for that reason as well as others. He arranged for Edmund to take Fanny back to her aunt, hoping it would help them both. Fanny wasn't aware of her uncle's feelings, nor was Sir Thomas aware of Miss Crawford's true nature. If he had known what she had said to his son, he wouldn't have wanted her to be part of their family, even if her fortune was double what it was.

That Edmund must be for ever divided from Miss Crawford did not admit of a doubt with Fanny; and yet, till she knew that he felt the same, her own conviction was insufficient. She thought he did, but she wanted to be assured of it. If he would now speak to her with the unreserve which had sometimes been too much for her before, it would be most consoling; but that she found was not to be. She seldom saw him: never alone. He probably avoided being alone with her. What was to be inferred? That his judgment submitted to all his own peculiar and bitter share of this family affliction, but that it was too keenly felt to be a subject of the slightest communication. This must be his state. He yielded, but it was with agonies which did not admit of speech. Long, long would it be ere Miss Crawford’s name passed his lips again, or she could hope for a renewal of such confidential intercourse as had been.

Fanny had no doubt that Edmund would always be separated from Miss Crawford; however, until she knew that he felt the same way, her own belief wasn’t enough. She thought he did, but she needed confirmation. If he could just talk to her openly like he sometimes had before, it would be really comforting; but that wasn’t going to happen. She rarely saw him and never when they were alone. He was probably avoiding being alone with her. What could be concluded from this? That while he was dealing with his own unique and painful part of this family issue, it was too deeply felt to be discussed, even lightly. This had to be his situation. He accepted it, but it was with suffering that he couldn't express. It would be a long time before Miss Crawford’s name crossed his lips again, or before she could hope for a return to the kind of close communication they once had.

It was long. They reached Mansfield on Thursday, and it was not till Sunday evening that Edmund began to talk to her on the subject. Sitting with her on Sunday evening—a wet Sunday evening—the very time of all others when, if a friend is at hand, the heart must be opened, and everything told; no one else in the room, except his mother, who, after hearing an affecting sermon, had cried herself to sleep, it was impossible not to speak; and so, with the usual beginnings, hardly to be traced as to what came first, and the usual declaration that if she would listen to him for a few minutes, he should be very brief, and certainly never tax her kindness in the same way again; she need not fear a repetition; it would be a subject prohibited entirely: he entered upon the luxury of relating circumstances and sensations of the first interest to himself, to one of whose affectionate sympathy he was quite convinced.

It was long. They got to Mansfield on Thursday, and it wasn't until Sunday evening that Edmund started to talk to her about it. Sitting with her on that wet Sunday evening—the perfect time when, if a friend is nearby, you can't help but open up and share everything—there was no one else in the room except for his mother, who had fallen asleep after crying through an emotional sermon. It felt impossible not to speak, so with the usual awkward starts—hardly remember what came first—and the usual promise that if she would just listen to him for a few minutes, he would be very brief and never bother her like this again; she didn't have to worry about going through this again; he would completely drop the subject—he began to indulge in sharing his most personal thoughts and feelings with someone he was sure would be sympathetic.

How Fanny listened, with what curiosity and concern, what pain and what delight, how the agitation of his voice was watched, and how carefully her own eyes were fixed on any object but himself, may be imagined. The opening was alarming. He had seen Miss Crawford. He had been invited to see her. He had received a note from Lady Stornaway to beg him to call; and regarding it as what was meant to be the last, last interview of friendship, and investing her with all the feelings of shame and wretchedness which Crawford’s sister ought to have known, he had gone to her in such a state of mind, so softened, so devoted, as made it for a few moments impossible to Fanny’s fears that it should be the last. But as he proceeded in his story, these fears were over. She had met him, he said, with a serious—certainly a serious—even an agitated air; but before he had been able to speak one intelligible sentence, she had introduced the subject in a manner which he owned had shocked him. “‘I heard you were in town,’ said she; ‘I wanted to see you. Let us talk over this sad business. What can equal the folly of our two relations?’ I could not answer, but I believe my looks spoke. She felt reproved. Sometimes how quick to feel! With a graver look and voice she then added, ‘I do not mean to defend Henry at your sister’s expense.’ So she began, but how she went on, Fanny, is not fit, is hardly fit to be repeated to you. I cannot recall all her words. I would not dwell upon them if I could. Their substance was great anger at the folly of each. She reprobated her brother’s folly in being drawn on by a woman whom he had never cared for, to do what must lose him the woman he adored; but still more the folly of poor Maria, in sacrificing such a situation, plunging into such difficulties, under the idea of being really loved by a man who had long ago made his indifference clear. Guess what I must have felt. To hear the woman whom—no harsher name than folly given! So voluntarily, so freely, so coolly to canvass it! No reluctance, no horror, no feminine, shall I say, no modest loathings? This is what the world does. For where, Fanny, shall we find a woman whom nature had so richly endowed? Spoilt, spoilt!”

How Fanny listened, with curiosity and concern, with pain and delight, how she watched the agitation in his voice, and how her own eyes were carefully fixed on anything but him, can only be imagined. The beginning was alarming. He had seen Miss Crawford. He had been invited to see her. He had received a note from Lady Stornaway asking him to call; and considering it as the final, final meeting of friendship, and filling her with all the feelings of shame and misery that Crawford’s sister should have recognized, he went to her in such a softened, devoted state of mind that for a few moments, Fanny’s fears of it being the last meeting vanished. But as he continued his story, those fears returned. He said she met him with a serious—indeed, a serious—even an agitated expression; but before he could say a single clear sentence, she brought up the subject in a way that he admitted shocked him. “‘I heard you were in town,’ she said; ‘I wanted to see you. Let’s discuss this sad situation. What can be more foolish than our two relatives?’ I couldn’t answer, but I think my expression spoke for me. She felt reprimanded. Sometimes she was so quick to pick up on things! With a more serious look and tone, she then added, ‘I don’t intend to defend Henry at your sister’s expense.’ That’s how she started, but how she continued, Fanny, is not something I should repeat to you. I can’t recall all her words. I wouldn’t dwell on them even if I could. The essence was her great anger at the **folly** of both. She condemned her brother’s foolishness in being led on by a woman he had never cared for, which would cost him the woman he loved; but even more, she condemned poor Maria’s folly in sacrificing such a position, diving into such troubles, under the illusion of being truly loved by a man who had long made his indifference clear. Imagine what I must have felt. To hear the woman whom—no harsher term than folly used! So voluntarily, so openly, so casually discussing it! No reluctance, no horror, no feminine, shall I say, no modest disgust? This is what the world does. For where, Fanny, can we find a woman so richly endowed by nature? Spoilt, spoilt!”

After a little reflection, he went on with a sort of desperate calmness. “I will tell you everything, and then have done for ever. She saw it only as folly, and that folly stamped only by exposure. The want of common discretion, of caution: his going down to Richmond for the whole time of her being at Twickenham; her putting herself in the power of a servant; it was the detection, in short—oh, Fanny! it was the detection, not the offence, which she reprobated. It was the imprudence which had brought things to extremity, and obliged her brother to give up every dearer plan in order to fly with her.”

After thinking about it for a bit, he continued with a kind of desperate calm. “I’ll tell you everything, and then it’ll be over for good. She saw it just as foolishness, and that foolishness was only marked by being exposed. The lack of common sense, of caution: his going down to Richmond for the entire time she was at Twickenham; her putting herself at the mercy of a servant; it was the exposure, really—oh, Fanny! it was the exposure, not the wrongdoing, that she condemned. It was the recklessness that had pushed things to the limit and forced her brother to give up every more important plan to run away with her.”

He stopt. “And what,” said Fanny (believing herself required to speak), “what could you say?”

He stopped. “And what,” said Fanny (thinking she needed to say something), “what could you say?”

“Nothing, nothing to be understood. I was like a man stunned. She went on, began to talk of you; yes, then she began to talk of you, regretting, as well she might, the loss of such a—. There she spoke very rationally. But she has always done justice to you. ‘He has thrown away,’ said she, ‘such a woman as he will never see again. She would have fixed him; she would have made him happy for ever.’ My dearest Fanny, I am giving you, I hope, more pleasure than pain by this retrospect of what might have been—but what never can be now. You do not wish me to be silent? If you do, give me but a look, a word, and I have done.”

“Nothing, nothing to understand. I felt like a man knocked senseless. She continued, started talking about you; yes, then she began to talk about you, expressing regret, as she rightly should, for losing such a—. In that moment, she spoke very rationally. But she has always recognized your worth. ‘He has let go,’ she said, ‘of a woman like her who he will never see again. She would have grounded him; she would have made him happy forever.’ My dearest Fanny, I hope sharing this reflection on what could have been is bringing you more joy than pain—but what can never happen now. You don’t want me to stop talking, do you? If you do, just give me a look, a word, and I’ll be quiet.”

No look or word was given.

No glance or word was exchanged.

“Thank God,” said he. “We were all disposed to wonder, but it seems to have been the merciful appointment of Providence that the heart which knew no guile should not suffer. She spoke of you with high praise and warm affection; yet, even here, there was alloy, a dash of evil; for in the midst of it she could exclaim, ‘Why would not she have him? It is all her fault. Simple girl! I shall never forgive her. Had she accepted him as she ought, they might now have been on the point of marriage, and Henry would have been too happy and too busy to want any other object. He would have taken no pains to be on terms with Mrs. Rushworth again. It would have all ended in a regular standing flirtation, in yearly meetings at Sotherton and Everingham.’ Could you have believed it possible? But the charm is broken. My eyes are opened.”

“Thank God,” he said. “We all wondered about it, but it seems like it was a merciful decision from Providence that the heart that knew no deceit should not suffer. She spoke about you with high praise and warm affection; yet, even in that, there was a hint of negativity, because in the midst of it, she could exclaim, ‘Why wouldn’t she have him? It’s all her fault. Silly girl! I will never forgive her. If she had accepted him as she should have, they might have been on the verge of marriage by now, and Henry would have been too happy and too occupied to want anything else. He wouldn’t have bothered to get close to Mrs. Rushworth again. It would have all resulted in a regular ongoing flirtation, with yearly meetings at Sotherton and Everingham.’ Could you have believed that was possible? But the charm is gone. My eyes have been opened.”

“Cruel!” said Fanny, “quite cruel. At such a moment to give way to gaiety, to speak with lightness, and to you! Absolute cruelty.”

“Cruel!” Fanny said. “Completely cruel. At a time like this, to act cheerful, to talk so lightly, and to you! It's pure cruelty.”

“Cruelty, do you call it? We differ there. No, hers is not a cruel nature. I do not consider her as meaning to wound my feelings. The evil lies yet deeper: in her total ignorance, unsuspiciousness of there being such feelings; in a perversion of mind which made it natural to her to treat the subject as she did. She was speaking only as she had been used to hear others speak, as she imagined everybody else would speak. Hers are not faults of temper. She would not voluntarily give unnecessary pain to any one, and though I may deceive myself, I cannot but think that for me, for my feelings, she would—. Hers are faults of principle, Fanny; of blunted delicacy and a corrupted, vitiated mind. Perhaps it is best for me, since it leaves me so little to regret. Not so, however. Gladly would I submit to all the increased pain of losing her, rather than have to think of her as I do. I told her so.”

“Cruelty, is that what you call it? We see it differently. No, she doesn't have a cruel nature. I don’t believe she intends to hurt my feelings. The real issue runs much deeper: it's her complete ignorance and unawareness that such feelings exist; it’s a twisted mindset that makes it seem natural for her to discuss things the way she did. She was just speaking how she had heard others speak, thinking that’s how everyone talks. These aren't flaws of character. She wouldn't intentionally cause anyone unnecessary pain, and even if I’m fooling myself, I honestly believe that for my sake, for my feelings, she would—. Her issues are ones of principle, Fanny; a dull sense of delicacy and a tainted, warped mind. Maybe it’s for the best for me, since it leaves me with so little to regret. But that's not true. I’d gladly endure all the extra pain of losing her instead of thinking of her the way I do. I told her so.”

“Did you?”

"Did you?"

“Yes; when I left her I told her so.”

“Yes; when I left her, I mentioned that.”

“How long were you together?”

“How long were you dating?”

“Five-and-twenty minutes. Well, she went on to say that what remained now to be done was to bring about a marriage between them. She spoke of it, Fanny, with a steadier voice than I can.” He was obliged to pause more than once as he continued. “‘We must persuade Henry to marry her,’ said she; ‘and what with honour, and the certainty of having shut himself out for ever from Fanny, I do not despair of it. Fanny he must give up. I do not think that even he could now hope to succeed with one of her stamp, and therefore I hope we may find no insuperable difficulty. My influence, which is not small shall all go that way; and when once married, and properly supported by her own family, people of respectability as they are, she may recover her footing in society to a certain degree. In some circles, we know, she would never be admitted, but with good dinners, and large parties, there will always be those who will be glad of her acquaintance; and there is, undoubtedly, more liberality and candour on those points than formerly. What I advise is, that your father be quiet. Do not let him injure his own cause by interference. Persuade him to let things take their course. If by any officious exertions of his, she is induced to leave Henry’s protection, there will be much less chance of his marrying her than if she remain with him. I know how he is likely to be influenced. Let Sir Thomas trust to his honour and compassion, and it may all end well; but if he get his daughter away, it will be destroying the chief hold.’”

"Twenty-five minutes. Well, she continued by saying that what needed to happen now was to arrange a marriage between them. She spoke about it, Fanny, with a steadier voice than I can.” He had to pause more than once as he went on. “‘We have to convince Henry to marry her,’ she said; ‘and considering his honor, and the fact that he would be completely shutting himself off from Fanny, I’m hopeful about it. He must give up Fanny. I don’t think even he could hope to win over someone like her now, so I believe we shouldn’t face any huge obstacles. My influence, which isn’t insignificant, will all go towards that; and once she's married and properly supported by her own family, who are respectable people, she might regain some standing in society. We know she would never be accepted in some circles, but with good dinners and big parties, there will always be those who would appreciate knowing her; and there’s definitely more openness and understanding about these things than there used to be. What I suggest is that your father stays calm. He shouldn't sabotage his own cause by interfering. Convince him to let things unfold naturally. If he causes her to leave Henry’s protection through any overzealous actions, there will be much less chance of him marrying her than if she stays with him. I know how he might be swayed. Let Sir Thomas rely on his honor and compassion, and it could all work out; but if he gets his daughter away, it will ruin the main opportunity.’”

After repeating this, Edmund was so much affected that Fanny, watching him with silent, but most tender concern, was almost sorry that the subject had been entered on at all. It was long before he could speak again. At last, “Now, Fanny,” said he, “I shall soon have done. I have told you the substance of all that she said. As soon as I could speak, I replied that I had not supposed it possible, coming in such a state of mind into that house as I had done, that anything could occur to make me suffer more, but that she had been inflicting deeper wounds in almost every sentence. That though I had, in the course of our acquaintance, been often sensible of some difference in our opinions, on points, too, of some moment, it had not entered my imagination to conceive the difference could be such as she had now proved it. That the manner in which she treated the dreadful crime committed by her brother and my sister (with whom lay the greater seduction I pretended not to say), but the manner in which she spoke of the crime itself, giving it every reproach but the right; considering its ill consequences only as they were to be braved or overborne by a defiance of decency and impudence in wrong; and last of all, and above all, recommending to us a compliance, a compromise, an acquiescence in the continuance of the sin, on the chance of a marriage which, thinking as I now thought of her brother, should rather be prevented than sought; all this together most grievously convinced me that I had never understood her before, and that, as far as related to mind, it had been the creature of my own imagination, not Miss Crawford, that I had been too apt to dwell on for many months past. That, perhaps, it was best for me; I had less to regret in sacrificing a friendship, feelings, hopes which must, at any rate, have been torn from me now. And yet, that I must and would confess that, could I have restored her to what she had appeared to me before, I would infinitely prefer any increase of the pain of parting, for the sake of carrying with me the right of tenderness and esteem. This is what I said, the purport of it; but, as you may imagine, not spoken so collectedly or methodically as I have repeated it to you. She was astonished, exceedingly astonished—more than astonished. I saw her change countenance. She turned extremely red. I imagined I saw a mixture of many feelings: a great, though short struggle; half a wish of yielding to truths, half a sense of shame, but habit, habit carried it. She would have laughed if she could. It was a sort of laugh, as she answered, ‘A pretty good lecture, upon my word. Was it part of your last sermon? At this rate you will soon reform everybody at Mansfield and Thornton Lacey; and when I hear of you next, it may be as a celebrated preacher in some great society of Methodists, or as a missionary into foreign parts.’ She tried to speak carelessly, but she was not so careless as she wanted to appear. I only said in reply, that from my heart I wished her well, and earnestly hoped that she might soon learn to think more justly, and not owe the most valuable knowledge we could any of us acquire, the knowledge of ourselves and of our duty, to the lessons of affliction, and immediately left the room. I had gone a few steps, Fanny, when I heard the door open behind me. ‘Mr. Bertram,’ said she. I looked back. ‘Mr. Bertram,’ said she, with a smile; but it was a smile ill-suited to the conversation that had passed, a saucy playful smile, seeming to invite in order to subdue me; at least it appeared so to me. I resisted; it was the impulse of the moment to resist, and still walked on. I have since, sometimes, for a moment, regretted that I did not go back, but I know I was right, and such has been the end of our acquaintance. And what an acquaintance has it been! How have I been deceived! Equally in brother and sister deceived! I thank you for your patience, Fanny. This has been the greatest relief, and now we will have done.”

After saying this again, Edmund was so moved that Fanny, watching him with silent but very tender concern, almost wished they hadn't brought up the topic at all. It took him a long time to speak again. Finally, he said, “Now, Fanny, I’ll soon be done. I’ve told you everything she said. As soon as I could reply, I said I never thought it possible that, coming into that house in such a state of mind as I was, anything could make me suffer more. But she kept inflicting deeper wounds with almost every sentence. Even though I had felt some differences in our opinions during our time together—on points that mattered—I never imagined the difference could be as great as she just showed me. The way she talked about the terrible crime committed by her brother and my sister (with whom lay the greater seduction I didn’t say), the way she spoke about the crime itself, giving it every criticism except the right one; considering its bad consequences only as something to be faced or ignored with a challenge of decency and audacity in wrongdoing; and finally, above all, suggesting that we should accept, compromise, and tolerate the ongoing sin on the chance of a marriage, which, given how I now viewed her brother, should be avoided rather than pursued; all this convinced me painfully that I never truly understood her before. As far as her mind was concerned, it had been a product of my imagination, not Miss Crawford, that I had been too quick to dwell on for the past few months. Perhaps it was best for me; I had less to regret in sacrificing a friendship, feelings, and hopes that would ultimately have been taken from me now. And yet, I must confess that if I could restore her to how she appeared to me before, I would prefer any increase in the pain of parting just to carry with me the right of tenderness and esteem. This is what I said, the essence of it; but, as you can imagine, it wasn't delivered so clearly or systematically as I've repeated it to you. She was astonished—truly astonished—far more than that. I saw her change in expression. She turned bright red. I thought I saw a mix of feelings: a significant yet brief struggle; half a desire to accept the truth, half a sense of shame, but habit took over. She would have laughed if she could. It was a sort of laugh when she replied, ‘What a good lecture! Was that part of your last sermon? At this rate, you’ll soon reform everyone at Mansfield and Thornton Lacey; when I next hear of you, it might be as a renowned preacher in some big Methodist society or as a missionary in foreign countries.’ She tried to sound casual, but she wasn’t as careless as she wanted to seem. I simply said in response that I genuinely wished her well and hoped she would soon learn to think more rightly, and not owe the most valuable knowledge we could have—the knowledge of ourselves and our duty—to the lessons of suffering, and I immediately left the room. I had taken a few steps, Fanny, when I heard the door open behind me. ‘Mr. Bertram,’ she said. I looked back. ‘Mr. Bertram,’ she said, with a smile; but it was a smile that didn’t fit the conversation they had just had, a cheeky playful smile, seeming to invite me back just to control me; at least, that’s how it seemed to me. I resisted; it was an instinct of the moment to resist, and I kept walking. Since then, I’ve occasionally regretted not going back for a moment, but I know I was right, and that’s how our acquaintance ended. And what an acquaintance it has been! How deceived I have been! Deceived equally by both brother and sister! I thank you for your patience, Fanny. This has been the greatest relief, and now we will be done.”

And such was Fanny’s dependence on his words, that for five minutes she thought they had done. Then, however, it all came on again, or something very like it, and nothing less than Lady Bertram’s rousing thoroughly up could really close such a conversation. Till that happened, they continued to talk of Miss Crawford alone, and how she had attached him, and how delightful nature had made her, and how excellent she would have been, had she fallen into good hands earlier. Fanny, now at liberty to speak openly, felt more than justified in adding to his knowledge of her real character, by some hint of what share his brother’s state of health might be supposed to have in her wish for a complete reconciliation. This was not an agreeable intimation. Nature resisted it for a while. It would have been a vast deal pleasanter to have had her more disinterested in her attachment; but his vanity was not of a strength to fight long against reason. He submitted to believe that Tom’s illness had influenced her, only reserving for himself this consoling thought, that considering the many counteractions of opposing habits, she had certainly been more attached to him than could have been expected, and for his sake been more near doing right. Fanny thought exactly the same; and they were also quite agreed in their opinion of the lasting effect, the indelible impression, which such a disappointment must make on his mind. Time would undoubtedly abate somewhat of his sufferings, but still it was a sort of thing which he never could get entirely the better of; and as to his ever meeting with any other woman who could—it was too impossible to be named but with indignation. Fanny’s friendship was all that he had to cling to.

And so Fanny relied on his words so much that for five minutes she thought it was over. Then, however, it all came back, or something very similar, and nothing less than Lady Bertram fully waking up could really wrap up such a conversation. Until that happened, they kept talking about Miss Crawford and how she had captivated him, how wonderfully nature had made her, and how great she would have been if she had found the right guidance earlier. Now free to speak her mind, Fanny felt justified in giving him a hint about how his brother’s health might have influenced her desire for a full reconciliation. This was not a pleasant suggestion. Nature resisted it for a bit. It would have been much nicer if she had been more selfless in her affection; however, his vanity wasn't strong enough to resist reason for long. He accepted the idea that Tom’s illness had affected her, only allowing himself the comforting thought that given the many opposing influences, she had definitely been more attached to him than anyone would have expected, and for his sake, she had come closer to doing the right thing. Fanny felt exactly the same way; they both agreed that the lasting impact, the indelible mark, such a disappointment would leave on his mind was significant. Time would surely lessen his pain a bit, but it was the kind of thing he could never fully recover from; as for him ever meeting another woman who could—it's too impossible to even mention without anger. Fanny's friendship was all he had to hold on to.

CHAPTER XLVIII

Let other pens dwell on guilt and misery. I quit such odious subjects as soon as I can, impatient to restore everybody, not greatly in fault themselves, to tolerable comfort, and to have done with all the rest.

Let other writers focus on guilt and misery. I move on from those unpleasant topics as soon as possible, eager to help everyone, who aren't really to blame, find some comfort and put all that behind us.

My Fanny, indeed, at this very time, I have the satisfaction of knowing, must have been happy in spite of everything. She must have been a happy creature in spite of all that she felt, or thought she felt, for the distress of those around her. She had sources of delight that must force their way. She was returned to Mansfield Park, she was useful, she was beloved; she was safe from Mr. Crawford; and when Sir Thomas came back she had every proof that could be given in his then melancholy state of spirits, of his perfect approbation and increased regard; and happy as all this must make her, she would still have been happy without any of it, for Edmund was no longer the dupe of Miss Crawford.

My Fanny, at this very moment, I find comfort in knowing that she must have been happy despite everything. She must have been a joyful person even with all the emotions she felt, or thought she felt, for the struggles of those around her. She had sources of happiness that must have broken through. She was back at Mansfield Park, she was helpful, she was loved; she was safe from Mr. Crawford; and when Sir Thomas returned, she received every indication that could be offered in his then gloomy state of mind, of his complete approval and growing affection; and as happy as all this would make her, she would still have found happiness without any of it, because Edmund was no longer being misled by Miss Crawford.

It is true that Edmund was very far from happy himself. He was suffering from disappointment and regret, grieving over what was, and wishing for what could never be. She knew it was so, and was sorry; but it was with a sorrow so founded on satisfaction, so tending to ease, and so much in harmony with every dearest sensation, that there are few who might not have been glad to exchange their greatest gaiety for it.

Edmund was definitely not happy. He was dealing with disappointment and regret, upset about the past and longing for things that could never happen. She understood this and felt sorry for him; however, her sorrow was mixed with a sense of satisfaction, which brought her a certain comfort and aligned with all her most cherished feelings. It was a feeling that few wouldn't have wanted to trade their happiest moments for.

Sir Thomas, poor Sir Thomas, a parent, and conscious of errors in his own conduct as a parent, was the longest to suffer. He felt that he ought not to have allowed the marriage; that his daughter’s sentiments had been sufficiently known to him to render him culpable in authorising it; that in so doing he had sacrificed the right to the expedient, and been governed by motives of selfishness and worldly wisdom. These were reflections that required some time to soften; but time will do almost everything; and though little comfort arose on Mrs. Rushworth’s side for the misery she had occasioned, comfort was to be found greater than he had supposed in his other children. Julia’s match became a less desperate business than he had considered it at first. She was humble, and wishing to be forgiven; and Mr. Yates, desirous of being really received into the family, was disposed to look up to him and be guided. He was not very solid; but there was a hope of his becoming less trifling, of his being at least tolerably domestic and quiet; and at any rate, there was comfort in finding his estate rather more, and his debts much less, than he had feared, and in being consulted and treated as the friend best worth attending to. There was comfort also in Tom, who gradually regained his health, without regaining the thoughtlessness and selfishness of his previous habits. He was the better for ever for his illness. He had suffered, and he had learned to think: two advantages that he had never known before; and the self-reproach arising from the deplorable event in Wimpole Street, to which he felt himself accessory by all the dangerous intimacy of his unjustifiable theatre, made an impression on his mind which, at the age of six-and-twenty, with no want of sense or good companions, was durable in its happy effects. He became what he ought to be: useful to his father, steady and quiet, and not living merely for himself.

Sir Thomas, poor Sir Thomas, a father aware of his mistakes in parenting, took the longest to cope. He felt that he shouldn't have allowed the marriage; he knew well enough how his daughter felt to hold himself responsible for approving it. By doing so, he believed he had sacrificed what was right for what was convenient, driven by selfishness and a desire for worldly wisdom. These thoughts took time to soften, but time can heal almost anything. Even though Mrs. Rushworth offered little comfort for the pain she caused, he found more solace in his other children than he expected. Julia's marriage became less desperate than he had originally thought. She was humble and wanted forgiveness, while Mr. Yates, eager to genuinely become part of the family, was inclined to look up to him for guidance. He wasn’t very substantial, but there was hope that he could become more dependable, at least somewhat domestic and composed. Moreover, it was reassuring to discover that his estate was better than he feared and his debts were much less, and that he was consulted and treated as the most valued friend. Tom also brought comfort as he gradually regained his health, without returning to the thoughtlessness and selfishness of his old habits. He benefited greatly from his illness. He had endured suffering and learned to think—two advantages he hadn’t experienced before. The self-reproach stemming from the tragic incident in Wimpole Street, to which he felt complicit due to his dangerously close ties to the unacceptable theater, left a lasting impression on him. At twenty-six, with plenty of sense and good friends, it positively influenced him. He became what he should be: helpful to his father, steady and calm, no longer living just for himself.

Here was comfort indeed! and quite as soon as Sir Thomas could place dependence on such sources of good, Edmund was contributing to his father’s ease by improvement in the only point in which he had given him pain before—improvement in his spirits. After wandering about and sitting under trees with Fanny all the summer evenings, he had so well talked his mind into submission as to be very tolerably cheerful again.

Here was real comfort! As soon as Sir Thomas could rely on such good sources, Edmund was helping his father feel better by improving in the one area that had previously caused him pain—his mood. After spending summer evenings wandering and sitting under trees with Fanny, he had managed to calm his thoughts enough to feel fairly cheerful once more.

These were the circumstances and the hopes which gradually brought their alleviation to Sir Thomas, deadening his sense of what was lost, and in part reconciling him to himself; though the anguish arising from the conviction of his own errors in the education of his daughters was never to be entirely done away.

These were the circumstances and hopes that slowly eased Sir Thomas's troubles, dulling his awareness of what he had lost and helping him come to terms with himself; however, the pain from realizing his mistakes in raising his daughters could never be completely erased.

Too late he became aware how unfavourable to the character of any young people must be the totally opposite treatment which Maria and Julia had been always experiencing at home, where the excessive indulgence and flattery of their aunt had been continually contrasted with his own severity. He saw how ill he had judged, in expecting to counteract what was wrong in Mrs. Norris by its reverse in himself; clearly saw that he had but increased the evil by teaching them to repress their spirits in his presence so as to make their real disposition unknown to him, and sending them for all their indulgences to a person who had been able to attach them only by the blindness of her affection, and the excess of her praise.

Too late did he realize how damaging the completely different treatment that Maria and Julia received at home must be for their character. Their aunt's excessive indulgence and flattery contrasted sharply with his own strictness. He recognized how poorly he had judged the situation, thinking he could counteract Mrs. Norris's wrongs by simply being her opposite; he clearly saw that he had only made things worse by teaching them to suppress their true selves around him. This led them to seek affection and approval from someone who could only win them over through her blind affection and excessive praise.

Here had been grievous mismanagement; but, bad as it was, he gradually grew to feel that it had not been the most direful mistake in his plan of education. Something must have been wanting within, or time would have worn away much of its ill effect. He feared that principle, active principle, had been wanting; that they had never been properly taught to govern their inclinations and tempers by that sense of duty which can alone suffice. They had been instructed theoretically in their religion, but never required to bring it into daily practice. To be distinguished for elegance and accomplishments, the authorised object of their youth, could have had no useful influence that way, no moral effect on the mind. He had meant them to be good, but his cares had been directed to the understanding and manners, not the disposition; and of the necessity of self-denial and humility, he feared they had never heard from any lips that could profit them.

There had been serious mismanagement; but, bad as it was, he gradually came to believe that it hadn't been the worst mistake in his educational plan. There must have been something missing inside, or time would have diminished much of its negative impact. He worried that they lacked principle, a guiding principle, and that they had never been properly taught to control their desires and emotions through a sense of duty, which is the only thing that can truly help. They had been taught about their religion theoretically, but they were never asked to apply it in their daily lives. Being recognized for their elegance and achievements, the main goal of their youth, didn’t have any real influence in that regard—no moral impact on their minds. He wanted them to be good, but his focus had been on their knowledge and manners, not their character; and he feared they had never heard about the importance of self-denial and humility from anyone who could make a difference.

Bitterly did he deplore a deficiency which now he could scarcely comprehend to have been possible. Wretchedly did he feel, that with all the cost and care of an anxious and expensive education, he had brought up his daughters without their understanding their first duties, or his being acquainted with their character and temper.

He bitterly regretted a shortcoming that he could hardly believe was even possible. He felt miserable that, despite all the expense and effort of a careful education, he had raised his daughters without them understanding their basic responsibilities, or him really knowing their personalities and behaviors.

The high spirit and strong passions of Mrs. Rushworth, especially, were made known to him only in their sad result. She was not to be prevailed on to leave Mr. Crawford. She hoped to marry him, and they continued together till she was obliged to be convinced that such hope was vain, and till the disappointment and wretchedness arising from the conviction rendered her temper so bad, and her feelings for him so like hatred, as to make them for a while each other’s punishment, and then induce a voluntary separation.

The strong emotions and intense feelings of Mrs. Rushworth became clear to him only through their unfortunate outcome. She wasn't going to be persuaded to leave Mr. Crawford. She hoped to marry him, and they stayed together until she had to face the fact that such hope was unrealistic. The disappointment and misery from this realization made her so irritable and her feelings for him so close to hatred that they ended up punishing each other for a time, which ultimately led to a mutual decision to separate.

She had lived with him to be reproached as the ruin of all his happiness in Fanny, and carried away no better consolation in leaving him than that she had divided them. What can exceed the misery of such a mind in such a situation?

She had lived with him only to be blamed as the cause of all his unhappiness with Fanny, and when she left him, she found no better consolation than that she had separated them. What could be worse than the suffering of someone with such a mind in such a situation?

Mr. Rushworth had no difficulty in procuring a divorce; and so ended a marriage contracted under such circumstances as to make any better end the effect of good luck not to be reckoned on. She had despised him, and loved another; and he had been very much aware that it was so. The indignities of stupidity, and the disappointments of selfish passion, can excite little pity. His punishment followed his conduct, as did a deeper punishment the deeper guilt of his wife. He was released from the engagement to be mortified and unhappy, till some other pretty girl could attract him into matrimony again, and he might set forward on a second, and, it is to be hoped, more prosperous trial of the state: if duped, to be duped at least with good humour and good luck; while she must withdraw with infinitely stronger feelings to a retirement and reproach which could allow no second spring of hope or character.

Mr. Rushworth had no trouble getting a divorce; thus ended a marriage that began under circumstances that made any happier outcome purely a matter of luck. She had looked down on him and loved someone else, and he knew it all too well. The insults of ignorance and the letdowns of selfish desire inspire little sympathy. His punishment followed his actions, just as a more serious punishment followed the greater wrong of his wife. He was freed from the obligation to feel humiliated and unhappy until some other attractive girl could lure him into marriage again, giving him the chance for a second attempt at wedded life, which hopefully would be more successful; if deceived, at least he could be deceived with a good attitude and some luck. Meanwhile, she would have to retreat with much stronger emotions into a life of regret that would leave no room for renewed hope or personal growth.

Where she could be placed became a subject of most melancholy and momentous consultation. Mrs. Norris, whose attachment seemed to augment with the demerits of her niece, would have had her received at home and countenanced by them all. Sir Thomas would not hear of it; and Mrs. Norris’s anger against Fanny was so much the greater, from considering her residence there as the motive. She persisted in placing his scruples to her account, though Sir Thomas very solemnly assured her that, had there been no young woman in question, had there been no young person of either sex belonging to him, to be endangered by the society or hurt by the character of Mrs. Rushworth, he would never have offered so great an insult to the neighbourhood as to expect it to notice her. As a daughter, he hoped a penitent one, she should be protected by him, and secured in every comfort, and supported by every encouragement to do right, which their relative situations admitted; but farther than that he could not go. Maria had destroyed her own character, and he would not, by a vain attempt to restore what never could be restored, by affording his sanction to vice, or in seeking to lessen its disgrace, be anywise accessory to introducing such misery in another man’s family as he had known himself.

Where Fanny could live became a topic of deep sadness and serious discussion. Mrs. Norris, whose attachment only seemed to grow as Fanny's faults became more apparent, wanted her to come live with them and receive their support. Sir Thomas wouldn’t hear of it; Mrs. Norris’s anger towards Fanny increased, believing that Fanny was the reason for Sir Thomas's reservations. She insisted that his concerns were all about her, even though Sir Thomas seriously assured her that if there hadn’t been a young woman involved, or anyone associated with him who could be harmed by Mrs. Rushworth’s reputation, he would never have dared to insult the neighborhood by expecting it to take notice of her. As a daughter—he hoped a repentant one—she would be protected by him, provided with comfort, and encouraged to do right as much as their family roles allowed; but beyond that, he could not go. Maria had ruined her own reputation, and he would not, by a futile attempt to restore something that could never be fixed, support wrongdoing or diminish its shame, thereby contributing to the same misery in another family that he had experienced.

It ended in Mrs. Norris’s resolving to quit Mansfield and devote herself to her unfortunate Maria, and in an establishment being formed for them in another country, remote and private, where, shut up together with little society, on one side no affection, on the other no judgment, it may be reasonably supposed that their tempers became their mutual punishment.

It ended with Mrs. Norris deciding to leave Mansfield and dedicate herself to her unfortunate Maria, leading to a new life being set up for them in a distant and secluded place. There, isolated from most society and with little affection on one side and no judgment on the other, it's fair to say that their personalities became a source of mutual frustration.

Mrs. Norris’s removal from Mansfield was the great supplementary comfort of Sir Thomas’s life. His opinion of her had been sinking from the day of his return from Antigua: in every transaction together from that period, in their daily intercourse, in business, or in chat, she had been regularly losing ground in his esteem, and convincing him that either time had done her much disservice, or that he had considerably over-rated her sense, and wonderfully borne with her manners before. He had felt her as an hourly evil, which was so much the worse, as there seemed no chance of its ceasing but with life; she seemed a part of himself that must be borne for ever. To be relieved from her, therefore, was so great a felicity that, had she not left bitter remembrances behind her, there might have been danger of his learning almost to approve the evil which produced such a good.

Mrs. Norris’s departure from Mansfield was the biggest relief in Sir Thomas’s life. His opinion of her had been declining since he returned from Antigua: in every interaction after that point, whether in their daily conversations, business dealings, or casual chats, she had consistently lost his respect, making him realize that either time had changed her significantly for the worse or that he had greatly overestimated her intelligence and tolerated her manners far too long. He felt her presence was a constant annoyance, and what made it worse was that it seemed like the only way to get rid of her was through death; she felt like a part of him that he would have to endure forever. So, being free from her was such a huge relief that, if she hadn't left behind bitter memories, he might have actually started to see the bad situation that led to such a relief in a more positive light.

She was regretted by no one at Mansfield. She had never been able to attach even those she loved best; and since Mrs. Rushworth’s elopement, her temper had been in a state of such irritation as to make her everywhere tormenting. Not even Fanny had tears for aunt Norris, not even when she was gone for ever.

No one at Mansfield missed her. She had never truly connected with even those she loved the most; and since Mrs. Rushworth’s elopement, her temperament had been so irritable that she was a source of constant annoyance to everyone. Not even Fanny shed tears for Aunt Norris, not even when she was gone for good.

That Julia escaped better than Maria was owing, in some measure, to a favourable difference of disposition and circumstance, but in a greater to her having been less the darling of that very aunt, less flattered and less spoilt. Her beauty and acquirements had held but a second place. She had been always used to think herself a little inferior to Maria. Her temper was naturally the easiest of the two; her feelings, though quick, were more controllable, and education had not given her so very hurtful a degree of self-consequence.

That Julia got away better than Maria was partly due to a favorable difference in their personalities and situations, but mostly because she wasn’t as much the favorite of that aunt, wasn’t as flattered, and wasn’t spoiled. Her beauty and talents took a backseat. She always thought of herself as a bit inferior to Maria. Her temperament was naturally the easier of the two; her emotions, although intense, were more manageable, and her upbringing hadn’t inflated her sense of self-importance to such a damaging level.

She had submitted the best to the disappointment in Henry Crawford. After the first bitterness of the conviction of being slighted was over, she had been tolerably soon in a fair way of not thinking of him again; and when the acquaintance was renewed in town, and Mr. Rushworth’s house became Crawford’s object, she had had the merit of withdrawing herself from it, and of chusing that time to pay a visit to her other friends, in order to secure herself from being again too much attracted. This had been her motive in going to her cousin’s. Mr. Yates’s convenience had had nothing to do with it. She had been allowing his attentions some time, but with very little idea of ever accepting him; and had not her sister’s conduct burst forth as it did, and her increased dread of her father and of home, on that event, imagining its certain consequence to herself would be greater severity and restraint, made her hastily resolve on avoiding such immediate horrors at all risks, it is probable that Mr. Yates would never have succeeded. She had not eloped with any worse feelings than those of selfish alarm. It had appeared to her the only thing to be done. Maria’s guilt had induced Julia’s folly.

She had submitted to the disappointment caused by Henry Crawford. After the initial bitterness of feeling overlooked faded, she managed to not think about him for a while; and when they met again in town, with Mr. Rushworth’s house becoming Crawford’s focus, she made the choice to distance herself. She took that opportunity to visit her other friends, aiming to protect herself from being overly drawn to him again. That was her true reason for going to her cousin’s. Mr. Yates’s situation had nothing to do with it. She had been acknowledging his attention for some time, but had never really considered accepting him; and if her sister hadn’t acted as she did, leading to her growing fear of her father and home, which she thought would bring greater strictness and limitations, she likely would not have rushed to escape such immediate distress at all costs. It’s likely Mr. Yates would have never succeeded. She hadn’t run away with anything worse than feelings of selfish fear. To her, it seemed like the only option. Maria’s wrongdoing had led to Julia’s foolishness.

Henry Crawford, ruined by early independence and bad domestic example, indulged in the freaks of a cold-blooded vanity a little too long. Once it had, by an opening undesigned and unmerited, led him into the way of happiness. Could he have been satisfied with the conquest of one amiable woman’s affections, could he have found sufficient exultation in overcoming the reluctance, in working himself into the esteem and tenderness of Fanny Price, there would have been every probability of success and felicity for him. His affection had already done something. Her influence over him had already given him some influence over her. Would he have deserved more, there can be no doubt that more would have been obtained, especially when that marriage had taken place, which would have given him the assistance of her conscience in subduing her first inclination, and brought them very often together. Would he have persevered, and uprightly, Fanny must have been his reward, and a reward very voluntarily bestowed, within a reasonable period from Edmund’s marrying Mary.

Henry Crawford, messed up by his early independence and a bad family example, spent too long indulging in his cold, self-centered vanity. At one point, by an unexpected and unearned turn of fate, he had found a path to happiness. If he could have been satisfied with winning the affection of just one kind woman, if he could have taken enough joy in winning Fanny Price’s trust and admiration, he would have had a good chance for success and happiness. His feelings had already changed things. Her influence on him had started to give him some influence over her. If he had deserved more, there’s no doubt he would have received it, especially after the marriage that would have helped him tame her initial reluctance and brought them together often. If he had persevered with integrity, Fanny would have been his reward, and it would have been a reward given willingly, within a reasonable time after Edmund married Mary.

Had he done as he intended, and as he knew he ought, by going down to Everingham after his return from Portsmouth, he might have been deciding his own happy destiny. But he was pressed to stay for Mrs. Fraser’s party; his staying was made of flattering consequence, and he was to meet Mrs. Rushworth there. Curiosity and vanity were both engaged, and the temptation of immediate pleasure was too strong for a mind unused to make any sacrifice to right: he resolved to defer his Norfolk journey, resolved that writing should answer the purpose of it, or that its purpose was unimportant, and staid. He saw Mrs. Rushworth, was received by her with a coldness which ought to have been repulsive, and have established apparent indifference between them for ever; but he was mortified, he could not bear to be thrown off by the woman whose smiles had been so wholly at his command: he must exert himself to subdue so proud a display of resentment; it was anger on Fanny’s account; he must get the better of it, and make Mrs. Rushworth Maria Bertram again in her treatment of himself.

If he had done what he planned, as he knew he should have, by going down to Everingham after returning from Portsmouth, he might have shaped his own happy future. But he felt pressured to stay for Mrs. Fraser’s party; his presence was considered significant, and he was set to meet Mrs. Rushworth there. Curiosity and vanity both played a role, and the lure of immediate enjoyment was too strong for someone not accustomed to sacrificing for what's right: he decided to postpone his trip to Norfolk, convinced that writing would be enough, or that the trip itself wasn’t that important, and stayed. He saw Mrs. Rushworth, who greeted him with a coldness that should have been off-putting and should have established a clear indifference between them for good; but he was hurt, unable to accept being dismissed by the woman whose smiles had always been his to command: he felt he had to manage so bold a display of resentment; it was anger on Fanny’s behalf; he had to overcome it and restore Mrs. Rushworth to being Maria Bertram again in her treatment of him.

In this spirit he began the attack, and by animated perseverance had soon re-established the sort of familiar intercourse, of gallantry, of flirtation, which bounded his views; but in triumphing over the discretion which, though beginning in anger, might have saved them both, he had put himself in the power of feelings on her side more strong than he had supposed. She loved him; there was no withdrawing attentions avowedly dear to her. He was entangled by his own vanity, with as little excuse of love as possible, and without the smallest inconstancy of mind towards her cousin. To keep Fanny and the Bertrams from a knowledge of what was passing became his first object. Secrecy could not have been more desirable for Mrs. Rushworth’s credit than he felt it for his own. When he returned from Richmond, he would have been glad to see Mrs. Rushworth no more. All that followed was the result of her imprudence; and he went off with her at last, because he could not help it, regretting Fanny even at the moment, but regretting her infinitely more when all the bustle of the intrigue was over, and a very few months had taught him, by the force of contrast, to place a yet higher value on the sweetness of her temper, the purity of her mind, and the excellence of her principles.

In this spirit, he started the pursuit, and through persistent enthusiasm, he quickly restored the kind of familiar interaction, flirtation, and charm that limited his ambitions; however, by conquering the caution that, although sparked by anger, could have saved them both, he had subjected himself to feelings on her side that were stronger than he had realized. She loved him; there was no stepping back from the attention that she openly cherished. He was caught up in his own vanity, with barely any genuine love involved, and without the slightest wavering in his feelings for her cousin. Keeping Fanny and the Bertrams unaware of what was happening became his primary goal. Privacy seemed just as important for Mrs. Rushworth’s reputation as it did for him. When he came back from Richmond, he would have preferred never to see Mrs. Rushworth again. Everything that followed was the result of her carelessness; he ended up leaving with her because he couldn’t avoid it, feeling regret for Fanny even at that moment, but feeling infinitely more regret for her once all the chaos of the intrigue had passed, and a few months had taught him, by the power of contrast, to appreciate even more the sweetness of her nature, the purity of her mind, and the quality of her principles.

That punishment, the public punishment of disgrace, should in a just measure attend his share of the offence is, we know, not one of the barriers which society gives to virtue. In this world the penalty is less equal than could be wished; but without presuming to look forward to a juster appointment hereafter, we may fairly consider a man of sense, like Henry Crawford, to be providing for himself no small portion of vexation and regret: vexation that must rise sometimes to self-reproach, and regret to wretchedness, in having so requited hospitality, so injured family peace, so forfeited his best, most estimable, and endeared acquaintance, and so lost the woman whom he had rationally as well as passionately loved.

That punishment, the public disgrace of being punished, should appropriately reflect his share of the offense and is not one of the barriers society puts up to protect virtue. In this world, the consequences are not as fair as we might hope; but without assuming a more just resolution in the future, we can reasonably consider a sensible man like Henry Crawford to be inviting a good deal of frustration and regret into his life: frustration that will sometimes lead to self-blame, and regret that will turn into misery from having repaid kindness with betrayal, disrupted family harmony, lost his most valued and beloved friendships, and lost the woman he loved both rationally and passionately.

After what had passed to wound and alienate the two families, the continuance of the Bertrams and Grants in such close neighbourhood would have been most distressing; but the absence of the latter, for some months purposely lengthened, ended very fortunately in the necessity, or at least the practicability, of a permanent removal. Dr. Grant, through an interest on which he had almost ceased to form hopes, succeeded to a stall in Westminster, which, as affording an occasion for leaving Mansfield, an excuse for residence in London, and an increase of income to answer the expenses of the change, was highly acceptable to those who went and those who staid.

After everything that happened to hurt and separate the two families, it would have been really upsetting for the Bertrams and Grants to stay so close to each other. However, the Grants' absence, which they intentionally extended for several months, ended up fortunately leading to their permanent move. Dr. Grant, who had almost given up hope, got a position at Westminster that provided a reason to leave Mansfield, an excuse to live in London, and an increase in income to cover the costs of the move. This was very welcome news for both those who were leaving and those who were staying.

Mrs. Grant, with a temper to love and be loved, must have gone with some regret from the scenes and people she had been used to; but the same happiness of disposition must in any place, and any society, secure her a great deal to enjoy, and she had again a home to offer Mary; and Mary had had enough of her own friends, enough of vanity, ambition, love, and disappointment in the course of the last half-year, to be in need of the true kindness of her sister’s heart, and the rational tranquillity of her ways. They lived together; and when Dr. Grant had brought on apoplexy and death, by three great institutionary dinners in one week, they still lived together; for Mary, though perfectly resolved against ever attaching herself to a younger brother again, was long in finding among the dashing representatives, or idle heir-apparents, who were at the command of her beauty, and her £20,000, any one who could satisfy the better taste she had acquired at Mansfield, whose character and manners could authorise a hope of the domestic happiness she had there learned to estimate, or put Edmund Bertram sufficiently out of her head.

Mrs. Grant, with a temperament that welcomed love and affection, must have felt some regret leaving the familiar scenes and people she was used to; but her cheerful nature would surely bring her joy in any setting and among any crowd. She also had a home to offer Mary, who had seen enough of her friends, enough of vanity, ambition, love, and disappointment over the past six months to need the genuine kindness of her sister’s heart and the sensible calmness of her ways. They lived together, and even after Dr. Grant's apoplexy and death from hosting three big dinners in one week, they continued to live together. Mary, although completely resolved not to attach herself to another younger brother, took a long time to find among the flashy representatives or idle heirs who were drawn to her beauty and her £20,000 any man who could meet the higher standard she had developed at Mansfield, whose character and manners could inspire hopes of the domestic happiness she had come to value, or effectively erase Edmund Bertram from her thoughts.

Edmund had greatly the advantage of her in this respect. He had not to wait and wish with vacant affections for an object worthy to succeed her in them. Scarcely had he done regretting Mary Crawford, and observing to Fanny how impossible it was that he should ever meet with such another woman, before it began to strike him whether a very different kind of woman might not do just as well, or a great deal better: whether Fanny herself were not growing as dear, as important to him in all her smiles and all her ways, as Mary Crawford had ever been; and whether it might not be a possible, a hopeful undertaking to persuade her that her warm and sisterly regard for him would be foundation enough for wedded love.

Edmund had a big advantage over her in this regard. He didn't have to wait and wish with empty feelings for someone worthy to take her place. Hardly had he finished regretting Mary Crawford and telling Fanny how impossible it was for him to meet another woman like her before he started to think whether a very different type of woman might not be just as good, or even better: whether Fanny herself was becoming just as dear and important to him in all her smiles and ways as Mary Crawford had ever been; and whether it might not be a realistic, hopeful idea to convince her that her warm and sisterly feelings for him could be enough to build a foundation for married love.

I purposely abstain from dates on this occasion, that every one may be at liberty to fix their own, aware that the cure of unconquerable passions, and the transfer of unchanging attachments, must vary much as to time in different people. I only entreat everybody to believe that exactly at the time when it was quite natural that it should be so, and not a week earlier, Edmund did cease to care about Miss Crawford, and became as anxious to marry Fanny as Fanny herself could desire.

I intentionally leave out dates here so that everyone can choose their own, knowing that healing deep passions and changing lasting attachments can take different amounts of time for different people. I just ask everyone to believe that right when it was completely natural for it to happen—and not a week earlier—Edmund stopped caring about Miss Crawford and became as eager to marry Fanny as she could ever want.

With such a regard for her, indeed, as his had long been, a regard founded on the most endearing claims of innocence and helplessness, and completed by every recommendation of growing worth, what could be more natural than the change? Loving, guiding, protecting her, as he had been doing ever since her being ten years old, her mind in so great a degree formed by his care, and her comfort depending on his kindness, an object to him of such close and peculiar interest, dearer by all his own importance with her than any one else at Mansfield, what was there now to add, but that he should learn to prefer soft light eyes to sparkling dark ones. And being always with her, and always talking confidentially, and his feelings exactly in that favourable state which a recent disappointment gives, those soft light eyes could not be very long in obtaining the pre-eminence.

With the kind of regard he had for her, which had been strong for a long time, based on her innocence and helplessness, and heightened by her growing value, what could be more natural than the change? He had loved, guided, and protected her since she was ten, her mind shaped by his care, and her comfort relying on his kindness. She was of such close and unique importance to him, dearer to him than anyone else at Mansfield. So what could he possibly add, except for learning to prefer soft light eyes over sparkling dark ones? Being with her all the time, sharing personal thoughts, and feeling just the right way after a recent disappointment, those soft light eyes wouldn't take long to become his favorite.

Having once set out, and felt that he had done so on this road to happiness, there was nothing on the side of prudence to stop him or make his progress slow; no doubts of her deserving, no fears of opposition of taste, no need of drawing new hopes of happiness from dissimilarity of temper. Her mind, disposition, opinions, and habits wanted no half-concealment, no self-deception on the present, no reliance on future improvement. Even in the midst of his late infatuation, he had acknowledged Fanny’s mental superiority. What must be his sense of it now, therefore? She was of course only too good for him; but as nobody minds having what is too good for them, he was very steadily earnest in the pursuit of the blessing, and it was not possible that encouragement from her should be long wanting. Timid, anxious, doubting as she was, it was still impossible that such tenderness as hers should not, at times, hold out the strongest hope of success, though it remained for a later period to tell him the whole delightful and astonishing truth. His happiness in knowing himself to have been so long the beloved of such a heart, must have been great enough to warrant any strength of language in which he could clothe it to her or to himself; it must have been a delightful happiness. But there was happiness elsewhere which no description can reach. Let no one presume to give the feelings of a young woman on receiving the assurance of that affection of which she has scarcely allowed herself to entertain a hope.

Once he had set out on this path to happiness, nothing about being cautious could stop him or slow him down; there were no doubts about her worthiness, no worries about opposing tastes, and no need to draw new hopes of happiness from being different in nature. Her thoughts, personality, opinions, and behaviors needed no half-truths, no self-deception about the present, and no dependence on potential future changes. Even in his recent obsession, he had recognized Fanny’s intelligence. So, what must he feel about it now? She was undoubtedly too good for him, but since no one minds having something that’s too good for them, he was very determined in chasing this blessing, and it was inevitable that her encouragement wouldn’t be long in coming. Although she was timid, anxious, and doubtful, there was no way her tenderness wouldn’t sometimes give him strong hope for success, even if it would take a while for him to learn the entire wonderful and surprising truth. His happiness in knowing he had been loved by such a heart for so long must have been profound enough that he could use any strong words to express it to her or to himself; it must have been a truly delightful joy. But there was another kind of happiness that no words can capture. Let no one try to describe the feelings of a young woman when she receives the assurance of a love she has barely dared to hope for.

Their own inclinations ascertained, there were no difficulties behind, no drawback of poverty or parent. It was a match which Sir Thomas’s wishes had even forestalled. Sick of ambitious and mercenary connexions, prizing more and more the sterling good of principle and temper, and chiefly anxious to bind by the strongest securities all that remained to him of domestic felicity, he had pondered with genuine satisfaction on the more than possibility of the two young friends finding their natural consolation in each other for all that had occurred of disappointment to either; and the joyful consent which met Edmund’s application, the high sense of having realised a great acquisition in the promise of Fanny for a daughter, formed just such a contrast with his early opinion on the subject when the poor little girl’s coming had been first agitated, as time is for ever producing between the plans and decisions of mortals, for their own instruction, and their neighbours’ entertainment.

Once they figured out what they wanted, there were no obstacles left, no worries about poverty or parents. It was a match that Sir Thomas had even hoped for. Tired of ambitious and money-driven connections, valuing more and more the genuine goodness of character and temperament, and mainly wanting to secure everything that remained of his family happiness, he had genuinely pleased himself thinking about the likelihood of the two young friends becoming each other’s comfort after everything they had both experienced in disappointment. The joyful agreement that followed Edmund’s proposal and the strong feeling of having gained a wonderful addition in Fanny as a daughter stood in stark contrast to his initial thoughts when the idea of the little girl first came up, reflecting how time always changes the perspectives and decisions of people, for their own learning and the entertainment of others.

Fanny was indeed the daughter that he wanted. His charitable kindness had been rearing a prime comfort for himself. His liberality had a rich repayment, and the general goodness of his intentions by her deserved it. He might have made her childhood happier; but it had been an error of judgment only which had given him the appearance of harshness, and deprived him of her early love; and now, on really knowing each other, their mutual attachment became very strong. After settling her at Thornton Lacey with every kind attention to her comfort, the object of almost every day was to see her there, or to get her away from it.

Fanny was definitely the daughter he had always wanted. His generous kindness had provided him with considerable comfort. His openness had brought him great rewards, and the overall goodness of his intentions toward her warranted it. He could have made her childhood happier; however, it was just a mistake in judgment that made him seem harsh and cost him her early affection. Now that they truly understood each other, their bond grew very strong. After making sure she was settled at Thornton Lacey with every attention to her comfort, his goal almost every day was to visit her there or to take her away from it.

Selfishly dear as she had long been to Lady Bertram, she could not be parted with willingly by her. No happiness of son or niece could make her wish the marriage. But it was possible to part with her, because Susan remained to supply her place. Susan became the stationary niece, delighted to be so; and equally well adapted for it by a readiness of mind, and an inclination for usefulness, as Fanny had been by sweetness of temper, and strong feelings of gratitude. Susan could never be spared. First as a comfort to Fanny, then as an auxiliary, and last as her substitute, she was established at Mansfield, with every appearance of equal permanency. Her more fearless disposition and happier nerves made everything easy to her there. With quickness in understanding the tempers of those she had to deal with, and no natural timidity to restrain any consequent wishes, she was soon welcome and useful to all; and after Fanny’s removal succeeded so naturally to her influence over the hourly comfort of her aunt, as gradually to become, perhaps, the most beloved of the two. In her usefulness, in Fanny’s excellence, in William’s continued good conduct and rising fame, and in the general well-doing and success of the other members of the family, all assisting to advance each other, and doing credit to his countenance and aid, Sir Thomas saw repeated, and for ever repeated, reason to rejoice in what he had done for them all, and acknowledge the advantages of early hardship and discipline, and the consciousness of being born to struggle and endure.

Selfishly dear as she had long been to Lady Bertram, she could not be parted with willingly by her. No happiness from her son or niece could make her wish for the marriage. But it was possible to part with her because Susan was there to take her place. Susan became the permanent niece, thrilled to be so, and equally well-suited for it with her quick thinking and desire to be helpful, just as Fanny had been with her gentle nature and deep sense of gratitude. Susan could never be let go. First as a comfort to Fanny, then as a helper, and finally as her replacement, she was established at Mansfield, appearing to be just as permanent. Her more fearless nature and relaxed nerves made everything easier for her there. With her quick understanding of the moods of those around her and no natural shyness to hold back any resulting desires, she soon became welcome and helpful to everyone; after Fanny’s departure, she seamlessly took over the influence in her aunt’s daily comfort, eventually becoming perhaps the most beloved of the two. In her usefulness, in Fanny’s excellence, in William’s steady good behavior and growing reputation, and in the overall success and well-being of the other family members, all helping each other and reflecting well on him, Sir Thomas found countless reasons to be grateful for what he had done for them all. He recognized the benefits of early hardship and discipline, and the awareness of being born to face challenges and persevere.

With so much true merit and true love, and no want of fortune and friends, the happiness of the married cousins must appear as secure as earthly happiness can be. Equally formed for domestic life, and attached to country pleasures, their home was the home of affection and comfort; and to complete the picture of good, the acquisition of Mansfield living, by the death of Dr. Grant, occurred just after they had been married long enough to begin to want an increase of income, and feel their distance from the paternal abode an inconvenience.

With a lot of genuine worth and love, and no shortage of wealth and friends, the happiness of the married cousins must seem as stable as earthly happiness can be. Well-suited for family life and fond of country pleasures, their home was a place of love and comfort; to make things even better, they inherited Mansfield living after Dr. Grant's passing, just as they had been married long enough to start wanting a higher income and feeling the inconvenience of being far from their parents' home.

On that event they removed to Mansfield; and the Parsonage there, which, under each of its two former owners, Fanny had never been able to approach but with some painful sensation of restraint or alarm, soon grew as dear to her heart, and as thoroughly perfect in her eyes, as everything else within the view and patronage of Mansfield Park had long been.

On that occasion, they moved to Mansfield; and the Parsonage there, which Fanny had always found uncomfortable or intimidating under its two previous owners, soon became as dear to her as anything else in the view and care of Mansfield Park had long been.

FINIS.

FINIS.


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