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Emma
by Jane Austen
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CHAPTER I
Emma Woodhouse, handsome, clever, and rich, with a comfortable home and happy disposition, seemed to unite some of the best blessings of existence; and had lived nearly twenty-one years in the world with very little to distress or vex her.
Emma Woodhouse, attractive, smart, and wealthy, with a nice home and a cheerful personality, seemed to have some of the best gifts in life; and she had spent almost twenty-one years in the world with very few things to upset or annoy her.
She was the youngest of the two daughters of a most affectionate, indulgent father; and had, in consequence of her sister’s marriage, been mistress of his house from a very early period. Her mother had died too long ago for her to have more than an indistinct remembrance of her caresses; and her place had been supplied by an excellent woman as governess, who had fallen little short of a mother in affection.
She was the youngest of two daughters of a very loving and indulgent father, and because of her sister’s marriage, she had been the head of the household from a very young age. Her mother had passed away so long ago that she only had faint memories of her tenderness; her role had largely been taken over by a wonderful governess who was almost like a mother in her care and affection.
Sixteen years had Miss Taylor been in Mr. Woodhouse’s family, less as a governess than a friend, very fond of both daughters, but particularly of Emma. Between them it was more the intimacy of sisters. Even before Miss Taylor had ceased to hold the nominal office of governess, the mildness of her temper had hardly allowed her to impose any restraint; and the shadow of authority being now long passed away, they had been living together as friend and friend very mutually attached, and Emma doing just what she liked; highly esteeming Miss Taylor’s judgment, but directed chiefly by her own.
Miss Taylor had been with Mr. Woodhouse’s family for sixteen years, more as a friend than a governess, caring deeply for both daughters, but especially for Emma. Their relationship felt more like that of sisters. Even before Miss Taylor officially stopped being the governess, her gentle nature rarely let her impose any rules; and now that the authority she once had was long gone, they lived together as close friends, both very attached, with Emma doing whatever she wanted. Emma held Miss Taylor’s opinion in high regard but was mostly guided by her own preferences.
The real evils, indeed, of Emma’s situation were the power of having rather too much her own way, and a disposition to think a little too well of herself; these were the disadvantages which threatened alloy to her many enjoyments. The danger, however, was at present so unperceived, that they did not by any means rank as misfortunes with her.
The real problems in Emma's situation were having too much control over her own life and a tendency to think too highly of herself; these were the drawbacks that could tarnish her many pleasures. However, the danger was so unnoticed right now that she didn't regard them as misfortunes at all.
Sorrow came—a gentle sorrow—but not at all in the shape of any disagreeable consciousness.—Miss Taylor married. It was Miss Taylor’s loss which first brought grief. It was on the wedding-day of this beloved friend that Emma first sat in mournful thought of any continuance. The wedding over, and the bride-people gone, her father and herself were left to dine together, with no prospect of a third to cheer a long evening. Her father composed himself to sleep after dinner, as usual, and she had then only to sit and think of what she had lost.
Sorrow came—a gentle sorrow—but not at all in a frustrating way. Miss Taylor got married. It was her leaving that first made Emma feel sad. On the day of this dear friend’s wedding, Emma first found herself in deep, sorrowful thought. After the wedding was done and the newlyweds had left, she and her father were left to have dinner together, without anyone else to brighten up the long evening. As usual, her father settled in for a nap after dinner, leaving Emma to sit and reflect on what she had lost.
The event had every promise of happiness for her friend. Mr. Weston was a man of unexceptionable character, easy fortune, suitable age, and pleasant manners; and there was some satisfaction in considering with what self-denying, generous friendship she had always wished and promoted the match; but it was a black morning’s work for her. The want of Miss Taylor would be felt every hour of every day. She recalled her past kindness—the kindness, the affection of sixteen years—how she had taught and how she had played with her from five years old—how she had devoted all her powers to attach and amuse her in health—and how nursed her through the various illnesses of childhood. A large debt of gratitude was owing here; but the intercourse of the last seven years, the equal footing and perfect unreserve which had soon followed Isabella’s marriage, on their being left to each other, was yet a dearer, tenderer recollection. She had been a friend and companion such as few possessed: intelligent, well-informed, useful, gentle, knowing all the ways of the family, interested in all its concerns, and peculiarly interested in herself, in every pleasure, every scheme of hers—one to whom she could speak every thought as it arose, and who had such an affection for her as could never find fault.
The event promised happiness for her friend. Mr. Weston was a man of great character, financial stability, the right age, and a pleasant demeanor; and it was satisfying to think about how selflessly she had always wanted and supported the match. But it felt like a heavy loss for her. She would miss Miss Taylor every hour of every day. She remembered the kindness—the love—of sixteen years—how she had taught and played with her since she was five—how she had devoted all her energy to entertain and engage her during her childhood and cared for her through various illnesses. She owed a huge debt of gratitude here; however, the friendship of the past seven years, the equal relationship and complete openness that developed after Isabella got married, was an even dearer and more cherished memory. She had been a friend and companion like few others: smart, well-informed, helpful, caring, knowing all the family dynamics, involved in all its matters, and particularly invested in her—every joy, every plan she had—someone with whom she could share every thought as it came to her and who had such love for her that she could never find a fault.
How was she to bear the change?—It was true that her friend was going only half a mile from them; but Emma was aware that great must be the difference between a Mrs. Weston, only half a mile from them, and a Miss Taylor in the house; and with all her advantages, natural and domestic, she was now in great danger of suffering from intellectual solitude. She dearly loved her father, but he was no companion for her. He could not meet her in conversation, rational or playful.
How was she supposed to handle the change? It was true that her friend was moving only half a mile away; but Emma knew there would be a big difference between having Mrs. Weston just half a mile away and having Miss Taylor in the house. Despite all her advantages, both natural and domestic, she was now at risk of suffering from intellectual loneliness. She loved her father dearly, but he wasn't a companion for her. He couldn't engage in conversation, whether serious or playful.
The evil of the actual disparity in their ages (and Mr. Woodhouse had not married early) was much increased by his constitution and habits; for having been a valetudinarian all his life, without activity of mind or body, he was a much older man in ways than in years; and though everywhere beloved for the friendliness of his heart and his amiable temper, his talents could not have recommended him at any time.
The problem with the real difference in their ages (and Mr. Woodhouse hadn’t married young) was made worse by his health and lifestyle; having been an invalid his entire life, lacking activity both mentally and physically, he was much older in behavior than in age. And while he was loved everywhere for his kind heart and pleasant nature, his skills wouldn’t have impressed anyone at any time.
Her sister, though comparatively but little removed by matrimony, being settled in London, only sixteen miles off, was much beyond her daily reach; and many a long October and November evening must be struggled through at Hartfield, before Christmas brought the next visit from Isabella and her husband, and their little children, to fill the house, and give her pleasant society again.
Her sister, although just married and only sixteen miles away in London, was still out of her daily reach. Many long evenings in October and November would pass at Hartfield before Christmas brought Isabella, her husband, and their little kids for another visit to fill the house and provide her with enjoyable company again.
Highbury, the large and populous village, almost amounting to a town, to which Hartfield, in spite of its separate lawn, and shrubberies, and name, did really belong, afforded her no equals. The Woodhouses were first in consequence there. All looked up to them. She had many acquaintance in the place, for her father was universally civil, but not one among them who could be accepted in lieu of Miss Taylor for even half a day. It was a melancholy change; and Emma could not but sigh over it, and wish for impossible things, till her father awoke, and made it necessary to be cheerful. His spirits required support. He was a nervous man, easily depressed; fond of every body that he was used to, and hating to part with them; hating change of every kind. Matrimony, as the origin of change, was always disagreeable; and he was by no means yet reconciled to his own daughter’s marrying, nor could ever speak of her but with compassion, though it had been entirely a match of affection, when he was now obliged to part with Miss Taylor too; and from his habits of gentle selfishness, and of being never able to suppose that other people could feel differently from himself, he was very much disposed to think Miss Taylor had done as sad a thing for herself as for them, and would have been a great deal happier if she had spent all the rest of her life at Hartfield. Emma smiled and chatted as cheerfully as she could, to keep him from such thoughts; but when tea came, it was impossible for him not to say exactly as he had said at dinner,
Highbury, a large and bustling village, almost like a town, was where Hartfield belonged, despite its own separate lawn, gardens, and name. The Woodhouses were the most important people there. Everyone looked up to them. Emma had a lot of acquaintances in the area since her father was always polite, but none of them could replace Miss Taylor, even for just half a day. It was a sad change, and Emma couldn't help but sigh over it and wish for things that couldn’t happen until her father woke up and made it necessary for her to be cheerful. His spirits needed support. He was a nervous man, easily downhearted; he liked everyone he was used to and hated to say goodbye to them; he despised change in all forms. Marriage, being the source of change, was always unpleasant for him, and he definitely wasn’t okay with his daughter getting married. He could only speak of her with sympathy, even though it was a match based on love, especially now that he had to part with Miss Taylor too. Given his gentle selfishness and tendency to think others felt just like him, he believed Miss Taylor had done something tragic for herself as well as for them, and that she would have been much happier spending the rest of her life at Hartfield. Emma smiled and tried to chat as cheerfully as she could to keep him from such thoughts; but when tea came, he couldn’t help but say exactly what he had said at dinner.
“Poor Miss Taylor!—I wish she were here again. What a pity it is that Mr. Weston ever thought of her!”
“Poor Miss Taylor!—I wish she were here again. What a shame it is that Mr. Weston ever considered her!”
“I cannot agree with you, papa; you know I cannot. Mr. Weston is such a good-humoured, pleasant, excellent man, that he thoroughly deserves a good wife;—and you would not have had Miss Taylor live with us for ever, and bear all my odd humours, when she might have a house of her own?”
“I can't agree with you, Dad; you know I can't. Mr. Weston is such a good-natured, pleasant, wonderful man that he definitely deserves a great wife; and you wouldn’t want Miss Taylor to live with us forever and put up with all my quirks when she could have her own place, right?”
“A house of her own!—But where is the advantage of a house of her own? This is three times as large.—And you have never any odd humours, my dear.”
“A house of her own!—But what’s the point of having a house of her own? This one is three times bigger.—And you never have any strange moods, my dear.”
“How often we shall be going to see them, and they coming to see us!—We shall be always meeting! We must begin; we must go and pay wedding visit very soon.”
“How often are we going to see them, and they’re coming to see us!—We’ll always be running into each other! We need to start; we should go pay them a wedding visit very soon.”
“My dear, how am I to get so far? Randalls is such a distance. I could not walk half so far.”
“My dear, how am I supposed to get that far? Randalls is so far away. I couldn't walk half that distance.”
“No, papa, nobody thought of your walking. We must go in the carriage, to be sure.”
“No, Dad, nobody thought about you walking. We should definitely take the carriage.”
“The carriage! But James will not like to put the horses to for such a little way;—and where are the poor horses to be while we are paying our visit?”
"The carriage! But James won't want to harness the horses for such a short distance; and where will the poor horses be while we're visiting?"
“They are to be put into Mr. Weston’s stable, papa. You know we have settled all that already. We talked it all over with Mr. Weston last night. And as for James, you may be very sure he will always like going to Randalls, because of his daughter’s being housemaid there. I only doubt whether he will ever take us anywhere else. That was your doing, papa. You got Hannah that good place. Nobody thought of Hannah till you mentioned her—James is so obliged to you!”
“They're going to be put in Mr. Weston’s stable, Dad. We’ve already figured all that out. We discussed everything with Mr. Weston last night. And as for James, you can be sure he'll always enjoy going to Randalls because his daughter works there as a housemaid. I just question whether he’ll ever take us anywhere else. That was your doing, Dad. You got Hannah that great job. Nobody thought of Hannah until you brought her up—James is really grateful to you!”
“I am very glad I did think of her. It was very lucky, for I would not have had poor James think himself slighted upon any account; and I am sure she will make a very good servant: she is a civil, pretty-spoken girl; I have a great opinion of her. Whenever I see her, she always curtseys and asks me how I do, in a very pretty manner; and when you have had her here to do needlework, I observe she always turns the lock of the door the right way and never bangs it. I am sure she will be an excellent servant; and it will be a great comfort to poor Miss Taylor to have somebody about her that she is used to see. Whenever James goes over to see his daughter, you know, she will be hearing of us. He will be able to tell her how we all are.”
“I’m really glad I thought of her. It was lucky, because I wouldn’t want poor James to feel slighted for any reason; and I’m sure she’ll make a great servant: she’s a polite, well-spoken girl; I have a high opinion of her. Whenever I see her, she always curtsies and asks how I’m doing, in a really charming way; and when you have her here doing needlework, I notice she always turns the door lock the right way and never slams it. I’m sure she’ll be an excellent servant; and it will be a great comfort for poor Miss Taylor to have someone around her that she’s used to seeing. Whenever James goes over to see his daughter, you know she’ll be hearing about us. He’ll be able to tell her how we all are.”
Emma spared no exertions to maintain this happier flow of ideas, and hoped, by the help of backgammon, to get her father tolerably through the evening, and be attacked by no regrets but her own. The backgammon-table was placed; but a visitor immediately afterwards walked in and made it unnecessary.
Emma did everything she could to keep the good vibes going and hoped that playing backgammon would help her get her dad through the evening without too many regrets, aside from her own. The backgammon table was set up, but then a visitor came in right after and made it unnecessary.
Mr. Knightley, a sensible man about seven or eight-and-thirty, was not only a very old and intimate friend of the family, but particularly connected with it, as the elder brother of Isabella’s husband. He lived about a mile from Highbury, was a frequent visitor, and always welcome, and at this time more welcome than usual, as coming directly from their mutual connexions in London. He had returned to a late dinner, after some days’ absence, and now walked up to Hartfield to say that all were well in Brunswick Square. It was a happy circumstance, and animated Mr. Woodhouse for some time. Mr. Knightley had a cheerful manner, which always did him good; and his many inquiries after “poor Isabella” and her children were answered most satisfactorily. When this was over, Mr. Woodhouse gratefully observed, “It is very kind of you, Mr. Knightley, to come out at this late hour to call upon us. I am afraid you must have had a shocking walk.”
Mr. Knightley, a sensible man around thirty-seven or thirty-eight, was not only a long-time close friend of the family but also related to them, as he was the older brother of Isabella’s husband. He lived about a mile from Highbury, was a frequent visitor, and was always welcome, especially at this time since he had just come from their mutual connections in London. He had returned to a late dinner after being away for a few days and now walked up to Hartfield to let them know that everyone was well in Brunswick Square. This was a happy piece of news and lifted Mr. Woodhouse's spirits for a while. Mr. Knightley had a cheerful demeanor, which always had a positive effect on him, and his many questions about “poor Isabella” and her children were answered very satisfactorily. Once this was done, Mr. Woodhouse gratefully said, “It’s very kind of you, Mr. Knightley, to come by at this late hour. I’m afraid you must have had a terrible walk.”
“Not at all, sir. It is a beautiful moonlight night; and so mild that I must draw back from your great fire.”
“Not at all, sir. It’s a beautiful night with the moon shining, and it’s so mild that I have to step away from your big fire.”
“But you must have found it very damp and dirty. I wish you may not catch cold.”
"But you must have found it pretty wet and dirty. I hope you don’t catch a cold."
“Dirty, sir! Look at my shoes. Not a speck on them.”
“Dirty, sir! Look at my shoes. Not a single speck on them.”
“Well! that is quite surprising, for we have had a vast deal of rain here. It rained dreadfully hard for half an hour while we were at breakfast. I wanted them to put off the wedding.”
"Well! That's quite surprising because we’ve had a lot of rain here. It rained like crazy for half an hour while we were having breakfast. I wanted them to postpone the wedding."
“By the bye—I have not wished you joy. Being pretty well aware of what sort of joy you must both be feeling, I have been in no hurry with my congratulations; but I hope it all went off tolerably well. How did you all behave? Who cried most?”
“By the way—I haven't congratulated you. Since I have a pretty good idea of what kind of joy you must both be experiencing, I haven't rushed to offer my congratulations; but I hope everything went smoothly. How did everyone act? Who cried the most?”
“Ah! poor Miss Taylor! ’Tis a sad business.”
“Ah! poor Miss Taylor! It’s a sad situation.”
“Poor Mr. and Miss Woodhouse, if you please; but I cannot possibly say ‘poor Miss Taylor.’ I have a great regard for you and Emma; but when it comes to the question of dependence or independence!—At any rate, it must be better to have only one to please than two.”
“Poor Mr. and Miss Woodhouse, if you want; but I really can’t say ‘poor Miss Taylor.’ I have a lot of affection for you and Emma, but when it comes to being dependent or independent!—Anyway, it’s definitely better to have just one person to please than two.”
“Especially when one of those two is such a fanciful, troublesome creature!” said Emma playfully. “That is what you have in your head, I know—and what you would certainly say if my father were not by.”
“Especially when one of those two is such a whimsical, annoying creature!” Emma said playfully. “That’s what you’re thinking, I know—and what you would definitely say if my dad weren’t here.”
“I believe it is very true, my dear, indeed,” said Mr. Woodhouse, with a sigh. “I am afraid I am sometimes very fanciful and troublesome.”
“I really think it's true, my dear, honestly,” said Mr. Woodhouse, with a sigh. “I'm afraid I can be quite fanciful and bothersome at times.”
“My dearest papa! You do not think I could mean you, or suppose Mr. Knightley to mean you. What a horrible idea! Oh no! I meant only myself. Mr. Knightley loves to find fault with me, you know—in a joke—it is all a joke. We always say what we like to one another.”
“My dearest dad! You can’t think I meant you, or that Mr. Knightley meant you. What a terrible thought! Oh no! I meant just myself. Mr. Knightley loves to tease me, you know—in a playful way—it’s all in fun. We always say what we really think to each other.”
Mr. Knightley, in fact, was one of the few people who could see faults in Emma Woodhouse, and the only one who ever told her of them: and though this was not particularly agreeable to Emma herself, she knew it would be so much less so to her father, that she would not have him really suspect such a circumstance as her not being thought perfect by every body.
Mr. Knightley was actually one of the few people who could see flaws in Emma Woodhouse, and the only one who ever pointed them out to her. While this wasn't exactly pleasant for Emma, she knew it would be even less so for her father, so she didn't want him to ever suspect that anyone thought she wasn't perfect.
“Emma knows I never flatter her,” said Mr. Knightley, “but I meant no reflection on any body. Miss Taylor has been used to have two persons to please; she will now have but one. The chances are that she must be a gainer.”
“Emma knows I never flatter her,” said Mr. Knightley, “but I wasn't trying to criticize anyone. Miss Taylor was used to pleasing two people; now she’ll only have to please one. It’s likely that she’ll come out ahead.”
“Well,” said Emma, willing to let it pass—“you want to hear about the wedding; and I shall be happy to tell you, for we all behaved charmingly. Every body was punctual, every body in their best looks: not a tear, and hardly a long face to be seen. Oh no; we all felt that we were going to be only half a mile apart, and were sure of meeting every day.”
“Well,” Emma said, willing to let it go—“you want to hear about the wedding; and I’ll be happy to tell you, because we all acted wonderfully. Everyone was on time, everyone looked their best: not a tear in sight, and hardly a long face around. Oh no; we all knew we were going to be only half a mile apart, and we were sure we’d see each other every day.”
“Dear Emma bears every thing so well,” said her father. “But, Mr. Knightley, she is really very sorry to lose poor Miss Taylor, and I am sure she will miss her more than she thinks for.”
“Dear Emma handles everything so well,” said her father. “But, Mr. Knightley, she is truly very upset to lose poor Miss Taylor, and I’m sure she will miss her more than she realizes.”
Emma turned away her head, divided between tears and smiles. “It is impossible that Emma should not miss such a companion,” said Mr. Knightley. “We should not like her so well as we do, sir, if we could suppose it; but she knows how much the marriage is to Miss Taylor’s advantage; she knows how very acceptable it must be, at Miss Taylor’s time of life, to be settled in a home of her own, and how important to her to be secure of a comfortable provision, and therefore cannot allow herself to feel so much pain as pleasure. Every friend of Miss Taylor must be glad to have her so happily married.”
Emma turned her head away, caught between tears and smiles. “It’s impossible that Emma wouldn’t miss such a companion,” said Mr. Knightley. “We wouldn’t like her as much as we do, sir, if we thought otherwise; but she understands how much this marriage benefits Miss Taylor. She knows how important it is for Miss Taylor, at her age, to have her own home, and how vital it is for her to be sure of a comfortable future. Because of that, she can't let herself feel more pain than pleasure. Every friend of Miss Taylor must be happy to see her so well married.”
“And you have forgotten one matter of joy to me,” said Emma, “and a very considerable one—that I made the match myself. I made the match, you know, four years ago; and to have it take place, and be proved in the right, when so many people said Mr. Weston would never marry again, may comfort me for any thing.”
“And you’ve forgotten something that brings me a lot of joy,” said Emma, “and it’s a big deal—that I set up the match myself. I made the match, you know, four years ago; and for it to happen and be proven right, especially when so many people said Mr. Weston would never marry again, can make me feel good about anything.”
Mr. Knightley shook his head at her. Her father fondly replied, “Ah! my dear, I wish you would not make matches and foretell things, for whatever you say always comes to pass. Pray do not make any more matches.”
Mr. Knightley shook his head at her. Her dad affectionately replied, “Ah! my dear, I wish you wouldn't play matchmaker and predict things, because whatever you say always comes true. Please don’t make any more matches.”
“I promise you to make none for myself, papa; but I must, indeed, for other people. It is the greatest amusement in the world! And after such success, you know!—Every body said that Mr. Weston would never marry again. Oh dear, no! Mr. Weston, who had been a widower so long, and who seemed so perfectly comfortable without a wife, so constantly occupied either in his business in town or among his friends here, always acceptable wherever he went, always cheerful—Mr. Weston need not spend a single evening in the year alone if he did not like it. Oh no! Mr. Weston certainly would never marry again. Some people even talked of a promise to his wife on her deathbed, and others of the son and the uncle not letting him. All manner of solemn nonsense was talked on the subject, but I believed none of it.
“I promise I won’t make any for myself, Dad; but I really have to for other people. It’s the greatest fun in the world! And after such success, you know!—Everyone said Mr. Weston would never marry again. Oh no! Mr. Weston, who had been a widower for so long and seemed so perfectly fine without a wife, always busy either with his work in the city or hanging out with his friends here, always welcome wherever he went, always cheerful—Mr. Weston didn’t have to spend a single evening alone if he didn’t want to. Oh no! Mr. Weston would definitely never marry again. Some people even talked about a promise he made to his wife on her deathbed, and others said his son and uncle wouldn’t allow it. All sorts of serious nonsense was said on the topic, but I didn’t believe any of it.
“Ever since the day—about four years ago—that Miss Taylor and I met with him in Broadway Lane, when, because it began to drizzle, he darted away with so much gallantry, and borrowed two umbrellas for us from Farmer Mitchell’s, I made up my mind on the subject. I planned the match from that hour; and when such success has blessed me in this instance, dear papa, you cannot think that I shall leave off match-making.”
"Ever since the day—about four years ago—when Miss Taylor and I met him on Broadway Lane, and he rushed off so gallantly to borrow two umbrellas from Farmer Mitchell because it started to drizzle, I decided right then. I started planning the match from that moment, and now that I've had such success in this instance, dear dad, you can't possibly think I will stop matchmaking."
“I do not understand what you mean by ‘success,’” said Mr. Knightley. “Success supposes endeavour. Your time has been properly and delicately spent, if you have been endeavouring for the last four years to bring about this marriage. A worthy employment for a young lady’s mind! But if, which I rather imagine, your making the match, as you call it, means only your planning it, your saying to yourself one idle day, ‘I think it would be a very good thing for Miss Taylor if Mr. Weston were to marry her,’ and saying it again to yourself every now and then afterwards, why do you talk of success? Where is your merit? What are you proud of? You made a lucky guess; and that is all that can be said.”
“I don’t understand what you mean by ‘success,’” said Mr. Knightley. “Success requires effort. Your time has been well and thoughtfully spent if you’ve been working for the last four years to make this marriage happen. It’s a great use of a young lady’s mind! But if, as I suspect, your idea of making the match just means you thought to yourself one day, ‘It would be good for Miss Taylor if Mr. Weston married her,’ and you kept thinking that occasionally afterwards, then why do you call it success? What’s the achievement? What are you proud of? You made a lucky guess; and that is all there is to say.”
“And have you never known the pleasure and triumph of a lucky guess?—I pity you.—I thought you cleverer—for, depend upon it a lucky guess is never merely luck. There is always some talent in it. And as to my poor word ‘success,’ which you quarrel with, I do not know that I am so entirely without any claim to it. You have drawn two pretty pictures; but I think there may be a third—a something between the do-nothing and the do-all. If I had not promoted Mr. Weston’s visits here, and given many little encouragements, and smoothed many little matters, it might not have come to any thing after all. I think you must know Hartfield enough to comprehend that.”
“And have you never experienced the joy and victory of a lucky guess?—I feel sorry for you.—I thought you were smarter—because, believe me, a lucky guess is never just luck. There's always some skill involved. And regarding my poor word ‘success,’ which you seem to challenge, I don't think I'm completely without any claim to it. You've created two nice pictures, but I believe there’s a third—a middle ground between doing nothing and doing everything. If I hadn't encouraged Mr. Weston to visit here and offered him a little support, along with smoothing over various small issues, it might not have happened at all. I'm sure you know Hartfield well enough to understand that.”
“A straightforward, open-hearted man like Weston, and a rational, unaffected woman like Miss Taylor, may be safely left to manage their own concerns. You are more likely to have done harm to yourself, than good to them, by interference.”
“A straightforward, open-hearted guy like Weston, and a sensible, down-to-earth woman like Miss Taylor, can handle their own issues just fine. You’re more likely to hurt yourself than help them by getting involved.”
“Emma never thinks of herself, if she can do good to others,” rejoined Mr. Woodhouse, understanding but in part. “But, my dear, pray do not make any more matches; they are silly things, and break up one’s family circle grievously.”
“Emma never thinks about herself if she can help others,” replied Mr. Woodhouse, somewhat understanding. “But, my dear, please don’t try to set up any more matches; they are foolish and really disrupt the family.”
“Only one more, papa; only for Mr. Elton. Poor Mr. Elton! You like Mr. Elton, papa,—I must look about for a wife for him. There is nobody in Highbury who deserves him—and he has been here a whole year, and has fitted up his house so comfortably, that it would be a shame to have him single any longer—and I thought when he was joining their hands to-day, he looked so very much as if he would like to have the same kind office done for him! I think very well of Mr. Elton, and this is the only way I have of doing him a service.”
“Just one more, Dad; just for Mr. Elton. Poor Mr. Elton! You like Mr. Elton, Dad—I need to find a wife for him. There’s no one in Highbury who deserves him—and he’s been here a whole year, and has set up his house so nicely, that it would be a shame for him to be single any longer—and I thought when he was joining their hands today, he looked like he really wanted the same thing done for him! I have a good opinion of Mr. Elton, and this is the only way I can help him.”
“Mr. Elton is a very pretty young man, to be sure, and a very good young man, and I have a great regard for him. But if you want to shew him any attention, my dear, ask him to come and dine with us some day. That will be a much better thing. I dare say Mr. Knightley will be so kind as to meet him.”
“Mr. Elton is definitely a handsome young man, and a genuinely good guy, and I have a lot of respect for him. But if you want to show him any attention, my dear, invite him to come and have dinner with us one day. That would be much better. I'm sure Mr. Knightley will be nice enough to meet him.”
“With a great deal of pleasure, sir, at any time,” said Mr. Knightley, laughing, “and I agree with you entirely, that it will be a much better thing. Invite him to dinner, Emma, and help him to the best of the fish and the chicken, but leave him to chuse his own wife. Depend upon it, a man of six or seven-and-twenty can take care of himself.”
“With a lot of pleasure, sir, anytime,” Mr. Knightley said, laughing, “and I completely agree with you that it will be a much better situation. Invite him to dinner, Emma, and serve him the best of the fish and the chicken, but let him choose his own wife. Trust me, a man in his mid-twenties can take care of himself.”
CHAPTER II
Mr. Weston was a native of Highbury, and born of a respectable family, which for the last two or three generations had been rising into gentility and property. He had received a good education, but, on succeeding early in life to a small independence, had become indisposed for any of the more homely pursuits in which his brothers were engaged, and had satisfied an active, cheerful mind and social temper by entering into the militia of his county, then embodied.
Mr. Weston was from Highbury and came from a respectable family that had been moving up in social status and wealth for the last two or three generations. He had a good education, but after gaining some financial independence early in life, he lost interest in the more straightforward occupations his brothers were involved in. Instead, he channeled his active, cheerful personality and sociable nature into joining the militia of his county, which was then fully formed.
Captain Weston was a general favourite; and when the chances of his military life had introduced him to Miss Churchill, of a great Yorkshire family, and Miss Churchill fell in love with him, nobody was surprized, except her brother and his wife, who had never seen him, and who were full of pride and importance, which the connexion would offend.
Captain Weston was a general favorite; and when his military career brought him together with Miss Churchill from a prominent Yorkshire family, and Miss Churchill fell for him, no one was surprised, except her brother and his wife, who had never met him and who felt too proud and important for the connection.
Miss Churchill, however, being of age, and with the full command of her fortune—though her fortune bore no proportion to the family-estate—was not to be dissuaded from the marriage, and it took place, to the infinite mortification of Mr. and Mrs. Churchill, who threw her off with due decorum. It was an unsuitable connexion, and did not produce much happiness. Mrs. Weston ought to have found more in it, for she had a husband whose warm heart and sweet temper made him think every thing due to her in return for the great goodness of being in love with him; but though she had one sort of spirit, she had not the best. She had resolution enough to pursue her own will in spite of her brother, but not enough to refrain from unreasonable regrets at that brother’s unreasonable anger, nor from missing the luxuries of her former home. They lived beyond their income, but still it was nothing in comparison of Enscombe: she did not cease to love her husband, but she wanted at once to be the wife of Captain Weston, and Miss Churchill of Enscombe.
Miss Churchill, however, being of age and fully in control of her finances—though her wealth was nowhere near the family estate—was not going to be talked out of the marriage, and it happened, much to the dismay of Mr. and Mrs. Churchill, who cut ties with her in a proper manner. It was an unsuitable match and did not bring much happiness. Mrs. Weston should have found more joy in it, as she had a husband whose kind heart and sweet nature made him feel everything was owed to her for the great favor of being in love with him; but while she had a certain spirit, it wasn’t the best. She had enough determination to follow her own desires despite her brother, but not enough to avoid unreasonable regrets about her brother’s unreasonable anger or to miss the comforts of her old home. They lived beyond their means, but it was nothing compared to Enscombe: she didn’t stop loving her husband, but she wanted to be both Captain Weston’s wife and Miss Churchill of Enscombe at the same time.
Captain Weston, who had been considered, especially by the Churchills, as making such an amazing match, was proved to have much the worst of the bargain; for when his wife died, after a three years’ marriage, he was rather a poorer man than at first, and with a child to maintain. From the expense of the child, however, he was soon relieved. The boy had, with the additional softening claim of a lingering illness of his mother’s, been the means of a sort of reconciliation; and Mr. and Mrs. Churchill, having no children of their own, nor any other young creature of equal kindred to care for, offered to take the whole charge of the little Frank soon after her decease. Some scruples and some reluctance the widower-father may be supposed to have felt; but as they were overcome by other considerations, the child was given up to the care and the wealth of the Churchills, and he had only his own comfort to seek, and his own situation to improve as he could.
Captain Weston, who was seen, especially by the Churchills, as making an incredible match, ended up with the short end of the stick; when his wife died after three years of marriage, he was in a worse financial situation than before, now with a child to support. Fortunately, he was soon relieved of the expenses related to the child. The boy, along with the added emotional weight of his mother’s lingering illness, facilitated a sort of reconciliation; and Mr. and Mrs. Churchill, who had no children of their own or any other young relatives to care for, offered to take full responsibility for little Frank shortly after her death. The widowed father likely felt some hesitation and reluctance; however, as these feelings were overshadowed by other considerations, the child was entrusted to the care and resources of the Churchills, leaving him to focus on finding his own comfort and improving his situation as best he could.
A complete change of life became desirable. He quitted the militia and engaged in trade, having brothers already established in a good way in London, which afforded him a favourable opening. It was a concern which brought just employment enough. He had still a small house in Highbury, where most of his leisure days were spent; and between useful occupation and the pleasures of society, the next eighteen or twenty years of his life passed cheerfully away. He had, by that time, realised an easy competence—enough to secure the purchase of a little estate adjoining Highbury, which he had always longed for—enough to marry a woman as portionless even as Miss Taylor, and to live according to the wishes of his own friendly and social disposition.
He wanted a complete change in his life. He left the militia and got into trade, with brothers already well-established in London, which gave him a great opportunity. It was a business that provided just enough work. He still owned a small house in Highbury, where he spent most of his free time; and with a balance of productive work and social enjoyment, the next eighteen or twenty years of his life went by happily. By that time, he had achieved a comfortable income—enough to buy a small estate next to Highbury, which he had always wanted—enough to marry a woman as without a fortune as Miss Taylor, and to live according to his friendly and social nature.
It was now some time since Miss Taylor had begun to influence his schemes; but as it was not the tyrannic influence of youth on youth, it had not shaken his determination of never settling till he could purchase Randalls, and the sale of Randalls was long looked forward to; but he had gone steadily on, with these objects in view, till they were accomplished. He had made his fortune, bought his house, and obtained his wife; and was beginning a new period of existence, with every probability of greater happiness than in any yet passed through. He had never been an unhappy man; his own temper had secured him from that, even in his first marriage; but his second must shew him how delightful a well-judging and truly amiable woman could be, and must give him the pleasantest proof of its being a great deal better to choose than to be chosen, to excite gratitude than to feel it.
It had been a while since Miss Taylor had started to influence his plans; but since it wasn't the overpowering influence of youth on youth, it hadn't shaken his determination to wait until he could buy Randalls, and he had long anticipated the sale of Randalls. He had worked steadily with these goals in mind until he achieved them. He had made his fortune, bought his house, and married his wife; now he was starting a new chapter in life, with every reason to expect greater happiness than he had experienced before. He had never been an unhappy man; his own temperament had kept him from that, even during his first marriage. But his second would show him how delightful a well-balanced and genuinely kind woman could be, and would give him the best proof that it's far better to choose than to be chosen, to inspire gratitude rather than to feel it.
He had only himself to please in his choice: his fortune was his own; for as to Frank, it was more than being tacitly brought up as his uncle’s heir, it had become so avowed an adoption as to have him assume the name of Churchill on coming of age. It was most unlikely, therefore, that he should ever want his father’s assistance. His father had no apprehension of it. The aunt was a capricious woman, and governed her husband entirely; but it was not in Mr. Weston’s nature to imagine that any caprice could be strong enough to affect one so dear, and, as he believed, so deservedly dear. He saw his son every year in London, and was proud of him; and his fond report of him as a very fine young man had made Highbury feel a sort of pride in him too. He was looked on as sufficiently belonging to the place to make his merits and prospects a kind of common concern.
He only had himself to please with his choice: his fortune was his own; because as for Frank, it was more than just being quietly raised as his uncle’s heir; it had become so openly accepted that he took on the name Churchill when he turned 18. Therefore, it was very unlikely that he would ever need his father’s help. His father wasn’t worried about that. The aunt was unpredictable and completely controlled her husband; but it wasn’t in Mr. Weston’s nature to think that any whim could be strong enough to affect someone so dear to him, whom he believed was rightly cherished. He saw his son every year in London and was proud of him; and his affectionate description of him as a very fine young man made Highbury feel a sense of pride in him too. He was regarded as a fitting part of the community, making his accomplishments and future something everyone cared about.
Mr. Frank Churchill was one of the boasts of Highbury, and a lively curiosity to see him prevailed, though the compliment was so little returned that he had never been there in his life. His coming to visit his father had been often talked of but never achieved.
Mr. Frank Churchill was one of Highbury's prides, and everyone was eager to see him, even though he hardly returned the favor since he had never been there in his life. His visits to see his father were frequently discussed but never actually happened.
Now, upon his father’s marriage, it was very generally proposed, as a most proper attention, that the visit should take place. There was not a dissentient voice on the subject, either when Mrs. Perry drank tea with Mrs. and Miss Bates, or when Mrs. and Miss Bates returned the visit. Now was the time for Mr. Frank Churchill to come among them; and the hope strengthened when it was understood that he had written to his new mother on the occasion. For a few days, every morning visit in Highbury included some mention of the handsome letter Mrs. Weston had received. “I suppose you have heard of the handsome letter Mr. Frank Churchill has written to Mrs. Weston? I understand it was a very handsome letter, indeed. Mr. Woodhouse told me of it. Mr. Woodhouse saw the letter, and he says he never saw such a handsome letter in his life.”
Now that his father had gotten married, it was widely suggested, as a proper gesture, that they should pay a visit. There was no disagreement on the matter, whether Mrs. Perry was having tea with Mrs. and Miss Bates, or when Mrs. and Miss Bates returned the visit. This was the perfect time for Mr. Frank Churchill to join them; the anticipation grew when it became known that he had written to his new mother about the occasion. For a few days, every morning visit in Highbury included some mention of the lovely letter Mrs. Weston had received. “I suppose you’ve heard about the lovely letter Mr. Frank Churchill wrote to Mrs. Weston? I hear it was quite a nice letter. Mr. Woodhouse told me about it. Mr. Woodhouse saw the letter, and he says he’s never seen such a nice letter in his life.”
It was, indeed, a highly prized letter. Mrs. Weston had, of course, formed a very favourable idea of the young man; and such a pleasing attention was an irresistible proof of his great good sense, and a most welcome addition to every source and every expression of congratulation which her marriage had already secured. She felt herself a most fortunate woman; and she had lived long enough to know how fortunate she might well be thought, where the only regret was for a partial separation from friends whose friendship for her had never cooled, and who could ill bear to part with her.
It was truly a highly valued letter. Mrs. Weston had, of course, formed a very positive opinion of the young man; and such a thoughtful gesture was an undeniable sign of his good judgment, and a welcome boost to every source and expression of congratulations her marriage had already received. She felt like a very lucky woman; and she had lived long enough to understand how fortunate she might really seem, with the only regret being a partial separation from friends whose loyalty had never wavered, and who could hardly stand to be apart from her.
She knew that at times she must be missed; and could not think, without pain, of Emma’s losing a single pleasure, or suffering an hour’s ennui, from the want of her companionableness: but dear Emma was of no feeble character; she was more equal to her situation than most girls would have been, and had sense, and energy, and spirits that might be hoped would bear her well and happily through its little difficulties and privations. And then there was such comfort in the very easy distance of Randalls from Hartfield, so convenient for even solitary female walking, and in Mr. Weston’s disposition and circumstances, which would make the approaching season no hindrance to their spending half the evenings in the week together.
She realized that sometimes she must be missed, and it pained her to think of Emma losing even a bit of joy or feeling bored for an hour without her company. But dear Emma was strong; she was better suited to her situation than most girls would have been and had the sense, energy, and spirit that one could hope would help her get through the small challenges and hardships. Plus, it was so comforting knowing that Randalls was just a short distance from Hartfield, making it convenient for even a solitary woman to walk, and Mr. Weston’s attitude and circumstances meant they could easily spend half of their evenings together during the upcoming season.
Her situation was altogether the subject of hours of gratitude to Mrs. Weston, and of moments only of regret; and her satisfaction—her more than satisfaction—her cheerful enjoyment, was so just and so apparent, that Emma, well as she knew her father, was sometimes taken by surprize at his being still able to pity ‘poor Miss Taylor,’ when they left her at Randalls in the centre of every domestic comfort, or saw her go away in the evening attended by her pleasant husband to a carriage of her own. But never did she go without Mr. Woodhouse’s giving a gentle sigh, and saying, “Ah, poor Miss Taylor! She would be very glad to stay.”
Her situation was mostly a source of hours of gratitude towards Mrs. Weston and only moments of regret; her happiness—more than happiness—her cheerful enjoyment, was so genuine and so obvious that Emma, despite knowing her father well, was sometimes surprised that he could still pity ‘poor Miss Taylor’ when they left her at Randalls, surrounded by every domestic comfort, or saw her leave in the evening with her pleasant husband to their own carriage. But she never left without Mr. Woodhouse giving a soft sigh and saying, “Ah, poor Miss Taylor! She would be very glad to stay.”
There was no recovering Miss Taylor—nor much likelihood of ceasing to pity her; but a few weeks brought some alleviation to Mr. Woodhouse. The compliments of his neighbours were over; he was no longer teased by being wished joy of so sorrowful an event; and the wedding-cake, which had been a great distress to him, was all eat up. His own stomach could bear nothing rich, and he could never believe other people to be different from himself. What was unwholesome to him he regarded as unfit for any body; and he had, therefore, earnestly tried to dissuade them from having any wedding-cake at all, and when that proved vain, as earnestly tried to prevent any body’s eating it. He had been at the pains of consulting Mr. Perry, the apothecary, on the subject. Mr. Perry was an intelligent, gentlemanlike man, whose frequent visits were one of the comforts of Mr. Woodhouse’s life; and upon being applied to, he could not but acknowledge (though it seemed rather against the bias of inclination) that wedding-cake might certainly disagree with many—perhaps with most people, unless taken moderately. With such an opinion, in confirmation of his own, Mr. Woodhouse hoped to influence every visitor of the newly married pair; but still the cake was eaten; and there was no rest for his benevolent nerves till it was all gone.
Miss Taylor was gone for good, and there wasn’t much chance of stopping the sadness surrounding her; but after a few weeks, Mr. Woodhouse started to feel a bit better. The neighbors' well-wishes were over, and he was no longer teased about such a sad event; plus, the wedding cake that had bothered him so much was completely gone. His own stomach couldn’t handle anything rich, and he found it hard to believe that others were any different. What was unhealthy for him seemed unfit for anyone else; so he had genuinely tried to talk them out of having any wedding cake at all, and when that didn’t work, he seriously tried to keep anyone from eating it. He even went to the trouble of consulting Mr. Perry, the apothecary, about it. Mr. Perry was an intelligent, gentlemanly man whose frequent visits were one of the comforts of Mr. Woodhouse’s life; and when Mr. Woodhouse brought it up, he had to admit (even if it went against his usual feelings) that wedding cake might really upset many people—perhaps most, unless eaten in moderation. With this opinion supporting his own, Mr. Woodhouse hoped to convince every visitor to the newlyweds; but the cake was still eaten, and he had no peace of mind until it was all gone.
There was a strange rumour in Highbury of all the little Perrys being seen with a slice of Mrs. Weston’s wedding-cake in their hands: but Mr. Woodhouse would never believe it.
There was a strange rumor in Highbury that all the little Perrys were seen with a piece of Mrs. Weston’s wedding cake in their hands, but Mr. Woodhouse would never believe it.
CHAPTER III
Mr. Woodhouse was fond of society in his own way. He liked very much to have his friends come and see him; and from various united causes, from his long residence at Hartfield, and his good nature, from his fortune, his house, and his daughter, he could command the visits of his own little circle, in a great measure, as he liked. He had not much intercourse with any families beyond that circle; his horror of late hours, and large dinner-parties, made him unfit for any acquaintance but such as would visit him on his own terms. Fortunately for him, Highbury, including Randalls in the same parish, and Donwell Abbey in the parish adjoining, the seat of Mr. Knightley, comprehended many such. Not unfrequently, through Emma’s persuasion, he had some of the chosen and the best to dine with him: but evening parties were what he preferred; and, unless he fancied himself at any time unequal to company, there was scarcely an evening in the week in which Emma could not make up a card-table for him.
Mr. Woodhouse enjoyed socializing in his own way. He loved having his friends come over to visit him, and because he had lived in Hartfield for so long, was good-natured, and had some wealth, a nice house, and a daughter, he could mostly arrange visits from his small circle just the way he liked. He didn't have much interaction with families outside that circle; his dislike for late nights and large dinner parties made it difficult for him to connect with anyone who wouldn't come to him on his terms. Thankfully, Highbury—along with Randalls in the same parish and Donwell Abbey in the neighboring parish, where Mr. Knightley lived—had many people who fit that bill. Often, with Emma's encouragement, he would have some of his closest and best friends over for dinner, but he preferred evening gatherings. Unless he felt unwell or unable to host, there was hardly a weeknight when Emma couldn't set up a card game for him.
Real, long-standing regard brought the Westons and Mr. Knightley; and by Mr. Elton, a young man living alone without liking it, the privilege of exchanging any vacant evening of his own blank solitude for the elegancies and society of Mr. Woodhouse’s drawing-room, and the smiles of his lovely daughter, was in no danger of being thrown away.
Real, lasting respect brought the Westons and Mr. Knightley together; and for Mr. Elton, a young man living alone and not enjoying it, the opportunity to trade any empty evening of his own dull solitude for the elegance and company of Mr. Woodhouse’s living room, along with the smiles of his beautiful daughter, was definitely not going to be wasted.
After these came a second set; among the most come-at-able of whom were Mrs. and Miss Bates, and Mrs. Goddard, three ladies almost always at the service of an invitation from Hartfield, and who were fetched and carried home so often, that Mr. Woodhouse thought it no hardship for either James or the horses. Had it taken place only once a year, it would have been a grievance.
After these came a second group; among the most accessible of them were Mrs. and Miss Bates, and Mrs. Goddard, three ladies who almost always accepted an invitation from Hartfield, and who were driven to and from so often that Mr. Woodhouse didn't consider it a burden for either James or the horses. If it had only happened once a year, it would have been a problem.
Mrs. Bates, the widow of a former vicar of Highbury, was a very old lady, almost past every thing but tea and quadrille. She lived with her single daughter in a very small way, and was considered with all the regard and respect which a harmless old lady, under such untoward circumstances, can excite. Her daughter enjoyed a most uncommon degree of popularity for a woman neither young, handsome, rich, nor married. Miss Bates stood in the very worst predicament in the world for having much of the public favour; and she had no intellectual superiority to make atonement to herself, or frighten those who might hate her into outward respect. She had never boasted either beauty or cleverness. Her youth had passed without distinction, and her middle of life was devoted to the care of a failing mother, and the endeavour to make a small income go as far as possible. And yet she was a happy woman, and a woman whom no one named without good-will. It was her own universal good-will and contented temper which worked such wonders. She loved every body, was interested in every body’s happiness, quicksighted to every body’s merits; thought herself a most fortunate creature, and surrounded with blessings in such an excellent mother, and so many good neighbours and friends, and a home that wanted for nothing. The simplicity and cheerfulness of her nature, her contented and grateful spirit, were a recommendation to every body, and a mine of felicity to herself. She was a great talker upon little matters, which exactly suited Mr. Woodhouse, full of trivial communications and harmless gossip.
Mrs. Bates, the widow of a former vicar of Highbury, was an elderly lady, nearly past everything except tea and card games. She lived with her unmarried daughter in a very modest way and was regarded with all the respect and affection that a harmless old lady in such unfortunate circumstances could inspire. Her daughter enjoyed a surprisingly high level of popularity for a woman who was neither young, attractive, wealthy, nor married. Miss Bates was in the weakest position possible for earning public favor; she had no intellectual gifts to compensate for this, nor could she intimidate those who might dislike her into showing respect. She never claimed to be beautiful or clever. Her youth was unremarkable, and her middle years were dedicated to caring for her ailing mother and trying to stretch a small income as far as it would go. Yet, she was a happy woman, and no one mentioned her without goodwill. It was her universal warmth and cheerful temperament that worked such wonders. She loved everyone, cared about everyone's happiness, was quick to notice everyone’s strengths, considered herself incredibly fortunate to have such a wonderful mother, good neighbors and friends, and a home that lacked nothing. The simplicity and cheerfulness of her nature, along with her contented and grateful spirit, made her appealing to everyone and a source of happiness for herself. She talked a lot about small matters, which suited Mr. Woodhouse perfectly, as she was full of trivial updates and harmless gossip.
Mrs. Goddard was the mistress of a School—not of a seminary, or an establishment, or any thing which professed, in long sentences of refined nonsense, to combine liberal acquirements with elegant morality, upon new principles and new systems—and where young ladies for enormous pay might be screwed out of health and into vanity—but a real, honest, old-fashioned Boarding-school, where a reasonable quantity of accomplishments were sold at a reasonable price, and where girls might be sent to be out of the way, and scramble themselves into a little education, without any danger of coming back prodigies. Mrs. Goddard’s school was in high repute—and very deservedly; for Highbury was reckoned a particularly healthy spot: she had an ample house and garden, gave the children plenty of wholesome food, let them run about a great deal in the summer, and in winter dressed their chilblains with her own hands. It was no wonder that a train of twenty young couple now walked after her to church. She was a plain, motherly kind of woman, who had worked hard in her youth, and now thought herself entitled to the occasional holiday of a tea-visit; and having formerly owed much to Mr. Woodhouse’s kindness, felt his particular claim on her to leave her neat parlour, hung round with fancy-work, whenever she could, and win or lose a few sixpences by his fireside.
Mrs. Goddard ran a school—not a fancy seminary or any establishment that pretended, in long-winded phrases of pretentious nonsense, to mix liberal learning with refined morality under new principles and systems—or one where young ladies could pay a fortune and be pressured into sacrificing their health for vanity—but a real, honest, traditional boarding school, where a sensible amount of skills were offered at a fair price, and where girls could be sent to stay out of the way and gain a little education, without any risk of returning as child prodigies. Mrs. Goddard’s school was highly regarded—and rightly so; Highbury was considered a particularly healthy place. She had a large house and garden, provided the children with plenty of nutritious meals, let them play outside a lot in the summer, and in winter, treated their chilblains with her own hands. It was no surprise that a group of twenty young couples now walked behind her to church. She was a straightforward, motherly woman who had worked hard in her youth and now felt she deserved the occasional break for a tea visit. Having previously benefited from Mr. Woodhouse’s kindness, she felt a special obligation to leave her tidy parlor, decorated with her handicrafts, whenever she could, and try her luck winning or losing a few sixpences by his fireside.
These were the ladies whom Emma found herself very frequently able to collect; and happy was she, for her father’s sake, in the power; though, as far as she was herself concerned, it was no remedy for the absence of Mrs. Weston. She was delighted to see her father look comfortable, and very much pleased with herself for contriving things so well; but the quiet prosings of three such women made her feel that every evening so spent was indeed one of the long evenings she had fearfully anticipated.
These were the women Emma often managed to gather together, and she felt happy about it for her father's sake, although it didn’t really help her deal with Mrs. Weston’s absence. She loved seeing her father relaxed and felt proud of herself for organizing things so well, but the calm conversations with three such women made her realize that every evening spent this way was indeed one of those long evenings she had anxiously expected.
As she sat one morning, looking forward to exactly such a close of the present day, a note was brought from Mrs. Goddard, requesting, in most respectful terms, to be allowed to bring Miss Smith with her; a most welcome request: for Miss Smith was a girl of seventeen, whom Emma knew very well by sight, and had long felt an interest in, on account of her beauty. A very gracious invitation was returned, and the evening no longer dreaded by the fair mistress of the mansion.
As she sat one morning, looking forward to the end of the day, a note was delivered from Mrs. Goddard, politely asking if she could bring Miss Smith along; a request that was very much welcomed. Miss Smith was a seventeen-year-old girl whom Emma recognized well and had long been interested in because of her beauty. A warm invitation was sent back, and the evening was no longer something the lovely host of the house dreaded.
Harriet Smith was the natural daughter of somebody. Somebody had placed her, several years back, at Mrs. Goddard’s school, and somebody had lately raised her from the condition of scholar to that of parlour-boarder. This was all that was generally known of her history. She had no visible friends but what had been acquired at Highbury, and was now just returned from a long visit in the country to some young ladies who had been at school there with her.
Harriet Smith was the illegitimate daughter of someone. Someone had enrolled her at Mrs. Goddard’s school several years ago, and someone had recently promoted her from being a student to a parlor boarder. This was all that was generally known about her background. She had no obvious friends other than those she made at Highbury and had just returned from a long visit in the countryside with some young ladies who had been at school with her.
She was a very pretty girl, and her beauty happened to be of a sort which Emma particularly admired. She was short, plump, and fair, with a fine bloom, blue eyes, light hair, regular features, and a look of great sweetness, and, before the end of the evening, Emma was as much pleased with her manners as her person, and quite determined to continue the acquaintance.
She was a really pretty girl, and her beauty was exactly the kind that Emma especially liked. She was short, curvy, and fair-skinned, with a lovely complexion, blue eyes, light hair, even features, and a very sweet expression. By the end of the evening, Emma was just as impressed with her personality as she was with her looks, and she was definitely set on keeping in touch.
She was not struck by any thing remarkably clever in Miss Smith’s conversation, but she found her altogether very engaging—not inconveniently shy, not unwilling to talk—and yet so far from pushing, shewing so proper and becoming a deference, seeming so pleasantly grateful for being admitted to Hartfield, and so artlessly impressed by the appearance of every thing in so superior a style to what she had been used to, that she must have good sense, and deserve encouragement. Encouragement should be given. Those soft blue eyes, and all those natural graces, should not be wasted on the inferior society of Highbury and its connexions. The acquaintance she had already formed were unworthy of her. The friends from whom she had just parted, though very good sort of people, must be doing her harm. They were a family of the name of Martin, whom Emma well knew by character, as renting a large farm of Mr. Knightley, and residing in the parish of Donwell—very creditably, she believed—she knew Mr. Knightley thought highly of them—but they must be coarse and unpolished, and very unfit to be the intimates of a girl who wanted only a little more knowledge and elegance to be quite perfect. She would notice her; she would improve her; she would detach her from her bad acquaintance, and introduce her into good society; she would form her opinions and her manners. It would be an interesting, and certainly a very kind undertaking; highly becoming her own situation in life, her leisure, and powers.
She didn’t find anything particularly clever in Miss Smith’s conversation, but she found her very engaging—not overly shy and willing to chat—but still respectful, showing a nice gratitude for being welcomed to Hartfield, and genuinely impressed by everything that felt so much nicer than what she was used to, which indicated that she had good sense and deserved support. Support should be given. Those soft blue eyes and all her natural charm shouldn't be wasted on the lesser company of Highbury and its connections. The acquaintances she had already made were not worthy of her. The friends she had just left, although decent people, must be having a negative effect on her. They were a family named Martin, whom Emma knew well, as they rented a large farm from Mr. Knightley and lived in the parish of Donwell—very respectable, as she believed—she knew Mr. Knightley thought highly of them—but they must be rough and unrefined, very unsuitable to be close to a girl who only needed a bit more knowledge and elegance to be truly perfect. She would take notice of her; she would help her grow; she would pull her away from her bad friends and introduce her to good company; she would shape her opinions and her demeanor. It would be an interesting and certainly kind endeavor; very fitting for her own social status, her free time, and her abilities.
She was so busy in admiring those soft blue eyes, in talking and listening, and forming all these schemes in the in-betweens, that the evening flew away at a very unusual rate; and the supper-table, which always closed such parties, and for which she had been used to sit and watch the due time, was all set out and ready, and moved forwards to the fire, before she was aware. With an alacrity beyond the common impulse of a spirit which yet was never indifferent to the credit of doing every thing well and attentively, with the real good-will of a mind delighted with its own ideas, did she then do all the honours of the meal, and help and recommend the minced chicken and scalloped oysters, with an urgency which she knew would be acceptable to the early hours and civil scruples of their guests.
She was so caught up in admiring those soft blue eyes, talking and listening, and coming up with all these plans in between, that the evening sped by unusually fast. The supper table, which always wrapped up such gatherings, and for which she was used to sitting and waiting for the right moment, was already set and ready, moved closer to the fire, before she realized it. With a enthusiasm beyond the usual drive of someone who was never indifferent to doing everything well and carefully, and with the genuine joy of a mind pleased with its own thoughts, she then took charge of the meal, serving and recommending the minced chicken and scalloped oysters with a push that she knew would be appreciated by their early-rising and polite guests.
Upon such occasions poor Mr. Woodhouse’s feelings were in sad warfare. He loved to have the cloth laid, because it had been the fashion of his youth, but his conviction of suppers being very unwholesome made him rather sorry to see any thing put on it; and while his hospitality would have welcomed his visitors to every thing, his care for their health made him grieve that they would eat.
On these occasions, poor Mr. Woodhouse's feelings were conflicted. He loved having the table set because it was a tradition from his youth, but he was convinced that suppers were very unhealthy, which made him feel a bit sad to see anything placed on it. While his hospitality would have gladly welcomed his guests to anything, his concern for their health made him worry about them eating.
Such another small basin of thin gruel as his own was all that he could, with thorough self-approbation, recommend; though he might constrain himself, while the ladies were comfortably clearing the nicer things, to say:
Such a small bowl of thin gruel like his own was all he could confidently recommend; although he might hold back while the ladies were happily clearing away the nicer dishes to say:
“Mrs. Bates, let me propose your venturing on one of these eggs. An egg boiled very soft is not unwholesome. Serle understands boiling an egg better than any body. I would not recommend an egg boiled by any body else; but you need not be afraid, they are very small, you see—one of our small eggs will not hurt you. Miss Bates, let Emma help you to a little bit of tart—a very little bit. Ours are all apple-tarts. You need not be afraid of unwholesome preserves here. I do not advise the custard. Mrs. Goddard, what say you to half a glass of wine? A small half-glass, put into a tumbler of water? I do not think it could disagree with you.”
“Mrs. Bates, how about trying one of these eggs? A softly boiled egg is pretty healthy. Serle is the best at boiling eggs, trust me. I wouldn’t recommend one boiled by anyone else; but you don’t need to worry, they’re very small—one of our small eggs won’t hurt you. Miss Bates, let Emma serve you a tiny bit of tart—a really tiny bit. Ours are all apple tarts. You don’t have to worry about unhealthy preserves here. I wouldn’t suggest the custard. Mrs. Goddard, how about a half glass of wine? A small half-glass mixed into a tumbler of water? I don’t think it would upset your stomach.”
Emma allowed her father to talk—but supplied her visitors in a much more satisfactory style, and on the present evening had particular pleasure in sending them away happy. The happiness of Miss Smith was quite equal to her intentions. Miss Woodhouse was so great a personage in Highbury, that the prospect of the introduction had given as much panic as pleasure; but the humble, grateful little girl went off with highly gratified feelings, delighted with the affability with which Miss Woodhouse had treated her all the evening, and actually shaken hands with her at last!
Emma let her father talk, but she entertained her guests in a much more enjoyable way, and on this evening, she particularly enjoyed sending them home happy. Miss Smith's happiness matched her expectations. Miss Woodhouse was such an important person in Highbury that the thought of meeting her had caused as much anxiety as excitement; but the shy, grateful girl left feeling very pleased, thrilled by how friendly Miss Woodhouse had been to her all evening, and she even shook hands with her in the end!
CHAPTER IV
Harriet Smith’s intimacy at Hartfield was soon a settled thing. Quick and decided in her ways, Emma lost no time in inviting, encouraging, and telling her to come very often; and as their acquaintance increased, so did their satisfaction in each other. As a walking companion, Emma had very early foreseen how useful she might find her. In that respect Mrs. Weston’s loss had been important. Her father never went beyond the shrubbery, where two divisions of the ground sufficed him for his long walk, or his short, as the year varied; and since Mrs. Weston’s marriage her exercise had been too much confined. She had ventured once alone to Randalls, but it was not pleasant; and a Harriet Smith, therefore, one whom she could summon at any time to a walk, would be a valuable addition to her privileges. But in every respect, as she saw more of her, she approved her, and was confirmed in all her kind designs.
Harriet Smith’s friendship at Hartfield quickly became a settled matter. Prompt and assertive in her actions, Emma wasted no time inviting, encouraging, and suggesting that she come over often. As their relationship grew, so did their enjoyment of each other’s company. Emma had recognized early on how helpful Harriet could be as a walking companion. Losing Mrs. Weston had made a significant difference in that regard. Her father rarely went beyond the shrubbery, where the two sections of the garden were enough for his long or short walks, depending on the season; and since Mrs. Weston’s marriage, Emma’s exercise had been largely limited. She had once tried going to Randalls alone, but it wasn’t very enjoyable. So, having a Harriet Smith, someone she could easily call on for a walk, would be a great addition to her options. The more she got to know her, the more she liked her, reinforcing all her kind intentions.
Harriet certainly was not clever, but she had a sweet, docile, grateful disposition, was totally free from conceit, and only desiring to be guided by any one she looked up to. Her early attachment to herself was very amiable; and her inclination for good company, and power of appreciating what was elegant and clever, shewed that there was no want of taste, though strength of understanding must not be expected. Altogether she was quite convinced of Harriet Smith’s being exactly the young friend she wanted—exactly the something which her home required. Such a friend as Mrs. Weston was out of the question. Two such could never be granted. Two such she did not want. It was quite a different sort of thing, a sentiment distinct and independent. Mrs. Weston was the object of a regard which had its basis in gratitude and esteem. Harriet would be loved as one to whom she could be useful. For Mrs. Weston there was nothing to be done; for Harriet every thing.
Harriet definitely wasn’t the brightest, but she had a kind, gentle, and appreciative nature. She was completely free from arrogance and just wanted to be guided by someone she admired. Her early self-attachment was very charming, and her desire for good company along with her ability to appreciate elegance and intelligence showed that she had a sense of taste, even if she didn’t have much depth of understanding. Overall, she was completely sure that Harriet Smith was exactly the young friend she needed—exactly what her home needed. Having a friend like Mrs. Weston was out of the question. Two such friends could never exist. She didn’t want two; it was something completely different, a feeling that was separate and unique. Mrs. Weston was someone she respected and appreciated deeply. Harriet would be loved because she was someone Emma could help. There was nothing to be done for Mrs. Weston; everything could be done for Harriet.
Her first attempts at usefulness were in an endeavour to find out who were the parents, but Harriet could not tell. She was ready to tell every thing in her power, but on this subject questions were vain. Emma was obliged to fancy what she liked—but she could never believe that in the same situation she should not have discovered the truth. Harriet had no penetration. She had been satisfied to hear and believe just what Mrs. Goddard chose to tell her; and looked no farther.
Her first efforts to be helpful focused on trying to discover who her parents were, but Harriet couldn’t provide any information. She was willing to share everything she could, but when it came to this topic, questions were pointless. Emma had to imagine what she wanted, but she could never accept that if she were in the same position, she wouldn’t have figured out the truth. Harriet lacked insight. She was content to hear and believe whatever Mrs. Goddard decided to tell her and didn’t look beyond that.
Mrs. Goddard, and the teachers, and the girls and the affairs of the school in general, formed naturally a great part of the conversation—and but for her acquaintance with the Martins of Abbey-Mill Farm, it must have been the whole. But the Martins occupied her thoughts a good deal; she had spent two very happy months with them, and now loved to talk of the pleasures of her visit, and describe the many comforts and wonders of the place. Emma encouraged her talkativeness—amused by such a picture of another set of beings, and enjoying the youthful simplicity which could speak with so much exultation of Mrs. Martin’s having “two parlours, two very good parlours, indeed; one of them quite as large as Mrs. Goddard’s drawing-room; and of her having an upper maid who had lived five-and-twenty years with her; and of their having eight cows, two of them Alderneys, and one a little Welch cow, a very pretty little Welch cow indeed; and of Mrs. Martin’s saying as she was so fond of it, it should be called her cow; and of their having a very handsome summer-house in their garden, where some day next year they were all to drink tea:—a very handsome summer-house, large enough to hold a dozen people.”
Mrs. Goddard, along with the teachers, the girls, and everything related to the school, made up a big part of the conversation. If it weren't for her connection with the Martins from Abbey-Mill Farm, it would have been the only topic. But the Martins were often on her mind; she had spent two wonderful months with them and enjoyed sharing stories about the fun she had and the many comforts and delights of the place. Emma encouraged her to keep talking—she was entertained by this glimpse into another lifestyle and appreciated the youthful innocence that could excitedly go on about Mrs. Martin having “two parlors, two really nice parlors, in fact; one of which is almost as big as Mrs. Goddard’s drawing-room; and that she has a maid who has been with her for twenty-five years; and that they have eight cows, two of which are Alderneys, and one is a petite Welsh cow, a very cute little Welsh cow indeed; and how Mrs. Martin said that since she loved it so much, it should be called her cow; and that they have a beautiful summer-house in their garden, where next year, they were all supposed to have tea:—a lovely summer-house, large enough to hold a dozen people.”
For some time she was amused, without thinking beyond the immediate cause; but as she came to understand the family better, other feelings arose. She had taken up a wrong idea, fancying it was a mother and daughter, a son and son’s wife, who all lived together; but when it appeared that the Mr. Martin, who bore a part in the narrative, and was always mentioned with approbation for his great good-nature in doing something or other, was a single man; that there was no young Mrs. Martin, no wife in the case; she did suspect danger to her poor little friend from all this hospitality and kindness, and that, if she were not taken care of, she might be required to sink herself forever.
For a while, she was entertained, not thinking beyond the immediate situation; but as she got to know the family better, different feelings emerged. She had misunderstood, thinking it was a mother and daughter, along with a son and his wife, who all lived together; but when it turned out that Mr. Martin, who played a role in the story and was always mentioned positively for his great kindness in helping out, was actually a single man—there was no young Mrs. Martin, no wife involved—she began to worry for her poor little friend. She feared that if she wasn’t careful, this generosity and kindness might lead her to lose herself completely.
With this inspiriting notion, her questions increased in number and meaning; and she particularly led Harriet to talk more of Mr. Martin, and there was evidently no dislike to it. Harriet was very ready to speak of the share he had had in their moonlight walks and merry evening games; and dwelt a good deal upon his being so very good-humoured and obliging. He had gone three miles round one day in order to bring her some walnuts, because she had said how fond she was of them, and in every thing else he was so very obliging. He had his shepherd’s son into the parlour one night on purpose to sing to her. She was very fond of singing. He could sing a little himself. She believed he was very clever, and understood every thing. He had a very fine flock, and, while she was with them, he had been bid more for his wool than any body in the country. She believed every body spoke well of him. His mother and sisters were very fond of him. Mrs. Martin had told her one day (and there was a blush as she said it,) that it was impossible for any body to be a better son, and therefore she was sure, whenever he married, he would make a good husband. Not that she wanted him to marry. She was in no hurry at all.
With this uplifting idea, her questions grew more frequent and meaningful; and she especially encouraged Harriet to talk more about Mr. Martin, which she clearly didn't mind. Harriet was eager to share about his role in their moonlit walks and fun evening games; she often highlighted how good-natured and helpful he was. One day, he went three miles out of his way just to bring her some walnuts because she mentioned how much she liked them, and in every other way, he was incredibly accommodating. He even brought his shepherd’s son into the living room one night just to sing for her. She loved singing. He could carry a tune himself. She believed he was very smart and understood everything. He had a great flock, and while she was around, he got a better price for his wool than anyone else in the area. She thought everyone spoke highly of him. His mother and sisters adored him. Mrs. Martin told her one day (and she blushed as she said it) that no one could be a better son, so she was sure that when he did marry, he would be a good husband. Not that she wanted him to get married. She was in no rush at all.
“Well done, Mrs. Martin!” thought Emma. “You know what you are about.”
“Well done, Mrs. Martin!” Emma thought. “You really know what you’re doing.”
“And when she had come away, Mrs. Martin was so very kind as to send Mrs. Goddard a beautiful goose—the finest goose Mrs. Goddard had ever seen. Mrs. Goddard had dressed it on a Sunday, and asked all the three teachers, Miss Nash, and Miss Prince, and Miss Richardson, to sup with her.”
"And after she left, Mrs. Martin was really nice and sent Mrs. Goddard a beautiful goose—the best goose Mrs. Goddard had ever seen. Mrs. Goddard cooked it on a Sunday and invited all three teachers, Miss Nash, Miss Prince, and Miss Richardson, to dinner with her."
“Mr. Martin, I suppose, is not a man of information beyond the line of his own business? He does not read?”
"Mr. Martin, I assume, isn’t really someone who knows much outside of his own job? He doesn’t read?"
“Oh yes!—that is, no—I do not know—but I believe he has read a good deal—but not what you would think any thing of. He reads the Agricultural Reports, and some other books that lay in one of the window seats—but he reads all them to himself. But sometimes of an evening, before we went to cards, he would read something aloud out of the Elegant Extracts, very entertaining. And I know he has read the Vicar of Wakefield. He never read the Romance of the Forest, nor The Children of the Abbey. He had never heard of such books before I mentioned them, but he is determined to get them now as soon as ever he can.”
“Oh yes!—I mean, no—I don’t know—but I think he has read quite a bit—but not what you would consider important. He reads the Agricultural Reports and some other books that are on one of the window seats—but he reads all of those to himself. Sometimes in the evening, before we started playing cards, he would read something aloud from the Elegant Extracts, which was very entertaining. And I know he has read the Vicar of Wakefield. He never read the Romance of the Forest, nor The Children of the Abbey. He hadn’t even heard of those books until I brought them up, but he’s determined to get them as soon as he can.”
The next question was—
The next question was—
“What sort of looking man is Mr. Martin?”
“What does Mr. Martin look like?”
“Oh! not handsome—not at all handsome. I thought him very plain at first, but I do not think him so plain now. One does not, you know, after a time. But did you never see him? He is in Highbury every now and then, and he is sure to ride through every week in his way to Kingston. He has passed you very often.”
“Oh! not good-looking—not at all good-looking. I thought he was very plain at first, but I don’t think he’s so plain now. You start to see things differently after a while, you know. But haven’t you seen him? He’s in Highbury pretty often, and he definitely rides through every week on his way to Kingston. He’s passed by you many times.”
“That may be, and I may have seen him fifty times, but without having any idea of his name. A young farmer, whether on horseback or on foot, is the very last sort of person to raise my curiosity. The yeomanry are precisely the order of people with whom I feel I can have nothing to do. A degree or two lower, and a creditable appearance might interest me; I might hope to be useful to their families in some way or other. But a farmer can need none of my help, and is, therefore, in one sense, as much above my notice as in every other he is below it.”
"That might be true, and I may have seen him fifty times, but I have no idea what his name is. A young farmer, whether riding a horse or walking, is the last kind of person to spark my curiosity. The yeomanry are exactly the type of people I feel I can’t connect with. If they were a rung or two lower, their decent appearance might catch my interest; I might think I could be of some help to their families. But a farmer doesn’t need any of my assistance, and for that reason, he’s just as much beyond my attention as he is beneath it in every other sense."
“To be sure. Oh yes! It is not likely you should ever have observed him; but he knows you very well indeed—I mean by sight.”
"Sure thing. Oh yeah! It's unlikely you've ever seen him; but he definitely knows you very well—I mean, he recognizes you."
“I have no doubt of his being a very respectable young man. I know, indeed, that he is so, and, as such, wish him well. What do you imagine his age to be?”
“I have no doubt that he’s a very respectable young man. I know he is, and because of that, I wish him well. How old do you think he is?”
“He was four-and-twenty the 8th of last June, and my birthday is the 23rd just a fortnight and a day’s difference—which is very odd.”
“He was twenty-four on June 8th, and my birthday is on the 23rd—just a fortnight and a day apart—which is pretty strange.”
“Only four-and-twenty. That is too young to settle. His mother is perfectly right not to be in a hurry. They seem very comfortable as they are, and if she were to take any pains to marry him, she would probably repent it. Six years hence, if he could meet with a good sort of young woman in the same rank as his own, with a little money, it might be very desirable.”
“Only twenty-four. That’s too young to settle down. His mom is completely right not to rush. They seem really comfortable as they are, and if she tried hard to marry him off, she’d probably regret it. Six years from now, if he could meet a nice young woman from a similar background with a bit of money, that could be very appealing.”
“Six years hence! Dear Miss Woodhouse, he would be thirty years old!”
“Six years from now! Dear Miss Woodhouse, he will be thirty years old!”
“Well, and that is as early as most men can afford to marry, who are not born to an independence. Mr. Martin, I imagine, has his fortune entirely to make—cannot be at all beforehand with the world. Whatever money he might come into when his father died, whatever his share of the family property, it is, I dare say, all afloat, all employed in his stock, and so forth; and though, with diligence and good luck, he may be rich in time, it is next to impossible that he should have realised any thing yet.”
"Well, that's about as early as most guys can afford to get married if they’re not born into wealth. I assume Mr. Martin has to make his own fortune—he can't be ahead in life at all. Whatever money he might have inherited when his father passed away, or his share of the family property, I'm sure it's all tied up, all invested in his business and so on; and while, with hard work and a bit of luck, he might be wealthy eventually, it's nearly impossible that he’s made any real money yet."
“To be sure, so it is. But they live very comfortably. They have no indoors man, else they do not want for any thing; and Mrs. Martin talks of taking a boy another year.”
"Certainly, that’s true. But they live quite comfortably. They don’t have an indoor servant, yet they have everything they need; and Mrs. Martin has been mentioning getting a boy next year."
“I wish you may not get into a scrape, Harriet, whenever he does marry;—I mean, as to being acquainted with his wife—for though his sisters, from a superior education, are not to be altogether objected to, it does not follow that he might marry any body at all fit for you to notice. The misfortune of your birth ought to make you particularly careful as to your associates. There can be no doubt of your being a gentleman’s daughter, and you must support your claim to that station by every thing within your own power, or there will be plenty of people who would take pleasure in degrading you.”
“I hope you stay out of trouble, Harriet, whenever he does marry;—I mean, as far as knowing his wife goes—because even though his sisters, due to their better education, aren't completely bad, it doesn’t mean he might not marry someone who isn’t suitable for you to associate with. The unfortunate circumstances of your birth should make you especially cautious about who you spend time with. There’s no doubt that you’re a gentleman’s daughter, and you need to uphold that status by doing everything you can, or there will be plenty of people who would enjoy bringing you down.”
“Yes, to be sure, I suppose there are. But while I visit at Hartfield, and you are so kind to me, Miss Woodhouse, I am not afraid of what any body can do.”
"Yes, I guess there are. But while I'm visiting Hartfield, and you’re so nice to me, Miss Woodhouse, I’m not worried about what anyone can do."
“You understand the force of influence pretty well, Harriet; but I would have you so firmly established in good society, as to be independent even of Hartfield and Miss Woodhouse. I want to see you permanently well connected, and to that end it will be advisable to have as few odd acquaintance as may be; and, therefore, I say that if you should still be in this country when Mr. Martin marries, I wish you may not be drawn in by your intimacy with the sisters, to be acquainted with the wife, who will probably be some mere farmer’s daughter, without education.”
“You get the idea of influence pretty well, Harriet; but I want you to be so well established in good society that you won’t rely on Hartfield and Miss Woodhouse. I want to see you permanently well connected, and to achieve that, it’s best to have as few odd acquaintances as possible. So, I’m saying that if you’re still in this country when Mr. Martin gets married, I hope you won’t be pulled into meeting his wife through your friendship with the sisters. She’ll probably just be some farmer’s daughter with no education.”
“To be sure. Yes. Not that I think Mr. Martin would ever marry any body but what had had some education—and been very well brought up. However, I do not mean to set up my opinion against yours—and I am sure I shall not wish for the acquaintance of his wife. I shall always have a great regard for the Miss Martins, especially Elizabeth, and should be very sorry to give them up, for they are quite as well educated as me. But if he marries a very ignorant, vulgar woman, certainly I had better not visit her, if I can help it.”
"Of course. Yes. It's not that I think Mr. Martin would ever marry someone who doesn’t have an education and hasn’t been raised well. Still, I don’t want to impose my opinion on yours—and I definitely won't be looking to be friends with his wife. I will always hold a deep respect for the Miss Martins, especially Elizabeth, and I would be very upset to lose them, as they are just as well-educated as I am. But if he ends up marrying a truly ignorant, uncouth woman, then I should probably avoid visiting her, if I can."
Emma watched her through the fluctuations of this speech, and saw no alarming symptoms of love. The young man had been the first admirer, but she trusted there was no other hold, and that there would be no serious difficulty, on Harriet’s side, to oppose any friendly arrangement of her own.
Emma observed her during the ups and downs of this conversation and noticed no obvious signs of love. The young man had been her first admirer, but she was confident there were no other attachments, and that there wouldn’t be any significant obstacles from Harriet to prevent a friendly arrangement of her own.
They met Mr. Martin the very next day, as they were walking on the Donwell road. He was on foot, and after looking very respectfully at her, looked with most unfeigned satisfaction at her companion. Emma was not sorry to have such an opportunity of survey; and walking a few yards forward, while they talked together, soon made her quick eye sufficiently acquainted with Mr. Robert Martin. His appearance was very neat, and he looked like a sensible young man, but his person had no other advantage; and when he came to be contrasted with gentlemen, she thought he must lose all the ground he had gained in Harriet’s inclination. Harriet was not insensible of manner; she had voluntarily noticed her father’s gentleness with admiration as well as wonder. Mr. Martin looked as if he did not know what manner was.
They ran into Mr. Martin the very next day while walking on the Donwell road. He was on foot, and after giving her a respectful glance, he looked at her companion with genuine happiness. Emma was glad to have the chance to observe him, and after walking a few steps ahead while they chatted, she quickly got a good look at Mr. Robert Martin. He was neatly dressed and seemed like a sensible young man, but he didn't have any other advantages; and when compared to gentlemen, she thought he would lose all the favor he’d gained in Harriet’s eyes. Harriet was aware of manners; she had noticed her father’s kindness with both admiration and curiosity. Mr. Martin seemed like he had no understanding of what manners were.
They remained but a few minutes together, as Miss Woodhouse must not be kept waiting; and Harriet then came running to her with a smiling face, and in a flutter of spirits, which Miss Woodhouse hoped very soon to compose.
They spent just a few minutes together, as Miss Woodhouse couldn't be kept waiting; then Harriet came rushing to her with a big smile and a burst of excitement, which Miss Woodhouse hoped to calm down soon.
“Only think of our happening to meet him!—How very odd! It was quite a chance, he said, that he had not gone round by Randalls. He did not think we ever walked this road. He thought we walked towards Randalls most days. He has not been able to get the Romance of the Forest yet. He was so busy the last time he was at Kingston that he quite forgot it, but he goes again to-morrow. So very odd we should happen to meet! Well, Miss Woodhouse, is he like what you expected? What do you think of him? Do you think him so very plain?”
“Can you believe we ran into him! How strange! He mentioned it was quite a coincidence that he didn’t take the route through Randalls. He thought we usually walked this way. He figured we headed toward Randalls most days. He still hasn’t been able to get the Romance of the Forest. He was so busy the last time he was in Kingston that he completely forgot about it, but he’s going back tomorrow. It’s so odd that we crossed paths! So, Miss Woodhouse, is he what you expected? What do you think of him? Do you consider him really plain?”
“He is very plain, undoubtedly—remarkably plain:—but that is nothing compared with his entire want of gentility. I had no right to expect much, and I did not expect much; but I had no idea that he could be so very clownish, so totally without air. I had imagined him, I confess, a degree or two nearer gentility.”
“He's really quite plain, no doubt about it—extremely plain—but that’s nothing compared to how completely lacking he is in refinement. I had no reason to expect much, and I didn’t expect much; but I had no idea he could be so ridiculous, so totally lacking in sophistication. I had thought of him, I admit, as being a bit closer to refined.”
“To be sure,” said Harriet, in a mortified voice, “he is not so genteel as real gentlemen.”
“To be sure,” said Harriet, in a mortified voice, “he is not as refined as real gentlemen.”
“I think, Harriet, since your acquaintance with us, you have been repeatedly in the company of some such very real gentlemen, that you must yourself be struck with the difference in Mr. Martin. At Hartfield, you have had very good specimens of well educated, well bred men. I should be surprized if, after seeing them, you could be in company with Mr. Martin again without perceiving him to be a very inferior creature—and rather wondering at yourself for having ever thought him at all agreeable before. Do not you begin to feel that now? Were not you struck? I am sure you must have been struck by his awkward look and abrupt manner, and the uncouthness of a voice which I heard to be wholly unmodulated as I stood here.”
"I think, Harriet, since you’ve met us, you’ve spent time with some genuinely refined gentlemen, so you must notice the difference with Mr. Martin. At Hartfield, you’ve encountered truly educated and well-mannered men. I’d be surprised if, after seeing them, you could be around Mr. Martin again without realizing he’s quite inferior—and maybe even questioning why you ever found him agreeable before. Aren’t you starting to feel that way now? Weren’t you surprised? I’m sure you had to notice his awkward look and sudden manner, and his strange voice, which I could tell was completely unmodulated while I stood here."
“Certainly, he is not like Mr. Knightley. He has not such a fine air and way of walking as Mr. Knightley. I see the difference plain enough. But Mr. Knightley is so very fine a man!”
"Definitely, he's not like Mr. Knightley. He doesn't have the same graceful presence and way of walking as Mr. Knightley. I can see the difference clear enough. But Mr. Knightley is such a wonderful man!"
“Mr. Knightley’s air is so remarkably good that it is not fair to compare Mr. Martin with him. You might not see one in a hundred with gentleman so plainly written as in Mr. Knightley. But he is not the only gentleman you have been lately used to. What say you to Mr. Weston and Mr. Elton? Compare Mr. Martin with either of them. Compare their manner of carrying themselves; of walking; of speaking; of being silent. You must see the difference.”
“Mr. Knightley's presence is so exceptionally good that it isn't fair to compare Mr. Martin to him. You'd be hard-pressed to find one in a hundred with gentleman so clearly evident as in Mr. Knightley. But he isn't the only gentleman you've been around lately. What do you think of Mr. Weston and Mr. Elton? Compare Mr. Martin with either of them. Look at how they carry themselves, how they walk, how they speak, and how they stay quiet. You have to notice the difference.”
“Oh yes!—there is a great difference. But Mr. Weston is almost an old man. Mr. Weston must be between forty and fifty.”
“Oh yes!—there’s a big difference. But Mr. Weston is practically an old man. Mr. Weston must be between forty and fifty.”
“Which makes his good manners the more valuable. The older a person grows, Harriet, the more important it is that their manners should not be bad; the more glaring and disgusting any loudness, or coarseness, or awkwardness becomes. What is passable in youth is detestable in later age. Mr. Martin is now awkward and abrupt; what will he be at Mr. Weston’s time of life?”
“Which makes his good manners even more valuable. The older a person gets, Harriet, the more crucial it is that their manners aren’t bad; any loudness, coarseness, or awkwardness becomes more glaring and off-putting. What’s acceptable in youth is appalling in later years. Mr. Martin is currently awkward and abrupt; what will he be like when he's Mr. Weston’s age?”
“There is no saying, indeed,” replied Harriet rather solemnly.
“There’s no denying it,” replied Harriet rather seriously.
“But there may be pretty good guessing. He will be a completely gross, vulgar farmer, totally inattentive to appearances, and thinking of nothing but profit and loss.”
“But there might be some decent guessing. He'll be a totally crude, tacky farmer, completely oblivious to appearances, and focused only on profit and loss.”
“Will he, indeed? That will be very bad.”
“Will he, really? That would be really bad.”
“How much his business engrosses him already is very plain from the circumstance of his forgetting to inquire for the book you recommended. He was a great deal too full of the market to think of any thing else—which is just as it should be, for a thriving man. What has he to do with books? And I have no doubt that he will thrive, and be a very rich man in time—and his being illiterate and coarse need not disturb us.”
“How much his business occupies him is clear from the fact that he forgot to ask about the book you recommended. He was way too focused on the market to think about anything else—which is exactly how it should be for a successful person. What does he need with books? And I’m sure he will thrive and become very rich over time—and his lack of education and roughness shouldn’t bother us.”
“I wonder he did not remember the book”—was all Harriet’s answer, and spoken with a degree of grave displeasure which Emma thought might be safely left to itself. She, therefore, said no more for some time. Her next beginning was,
“I wonder why he didn’t remember the book,” was all Harriet replied, with a level of serious displeasure that Emma felt could just be ignored. So, she didn’t say anything for a while. When she finally spoke again,
“In one respect, perhaps, Mr. Elton’s manners are superior to Mr. Knightley’s or Mr. Weston’s. They have more gentleness. They might be more safely held up as a pattern. There is an openness, a quickness, almost a bluntness in Mr. Weston, which every body likes in him, because there is so much good-humour with it—but that would not do to be copied. Neither would Mr. Knightley’s downright, decided, commanding sort of manner, though it suits him very well; his figure, and look, and situation in life seem to allow it; but if any young man were to set about copying him, he would not be sufferable. On the contrary, I think a young man might be very safely recommended to take Mr. Elton as a model. Mr. Elton is good-humoured, cheerful, obliging, and gentle. He seems to me to be grown particularly gentle of late. I do not know whether he has any design of ingratiating himself with either of us, Harriet, by additional softness, but it strikes me that his manners are softer than they used to be. If he means any thing, it must be to please you. Did not I tell you what he said of you the other day?”
“In one way, Mr. Elton’s manners are perhaps better than Mr. Knightley’s or Mr. Weston’s. They have more gentleness. They could be held up as a good example. Mr. Weston has an openness, a quickness, almost a bluntness that everyone likes about him because he has such good humor, but that’s not something others should try to copy. Mr. Knightley’s straightforward, decisive, commanding manner works well for him; his appearance, demeanor, and status in life make it fitting. But if any young man tried to imitate him, it would be unbearable. On the other hand, I think a young man could safely look to Mr. Elton as a model. Mr. Elton is good-humored, cheerful, accommodating, and gentle. He seems to have become particularly gentle lately. I’m not sure if he’s trying to win us over, Harriet, by being extra soft, but it seems to me his manners are smoother than they used to be. If he’s up to something, it must be to charm you. Did I mention what he said about you the other day?”
She then repeated some warm personal praise which she had drawn from Mr. Elton, and now did full justice to; and Harriet blushed and smiled, and said she had always thought Mr. Elton very agreeable.
She then echoed some warm personal compliments that she had gathered from Mr. Elton, and now gave them her full attention; Harriet blushed and smiled, saying she had always found Mr. Elton to be very pleasant.
Mr. Elton was the very person fixed on by Emma for driving the young farmer out of Harriet’s head. She thought it would be an excellent match; and only too palpably desirable, natural, and probable, for her to have much merit in planning it. She feared it was what every body else must think of and predict. It was not likely, however, that any body should have equalled her in the date of the plan, as it had entered her brain during the very first evening of Harriet’s coming to Hartfield. The longer she considered it, the greater was her sense of its expediency. Mr. Elton’s situation was most suitable, quite the gentleman himself, and without low connexions; at the same time, not of any family that could fairly object to the doubtful birth of Harriet. He had a comfortable home for her, and Emma imagined a very sufficient income; for though the vicarage of Highbury was not large, he was known to have some independent property; and she thought very highly of him as a good-humoured, well-meaning, respectable young man, without any deficiency of useful understanding or knowledge of the world.
Mr. Elton was exactly the guy Emma had in mind to help get the young farmer out of Harriet’s thoughts. She believed it would be a great match; it seemed too obviously desirable, natural, and likely for her to take much credit for coming up with it. She worried that everyone else would think the same thing. However, it was unlikely that anyone could have matched her in timing, as the idea had popped into her head on the very first evening of Harriet’s arrival at Hartfield. The more she thought about it, the more she realized how practical it was. Mr. Elton’s situation was very fitting, he was quite the gentleman, and didn’t have any low connections; at the same time, he belonged to a family that couldn’t reasonably object to Harriet's uncertain background. He had a nice home for her, and Emma imagined he had a decent income; even though the vicarage in Highbury wasn’t large, he was known to own some property independently; plus, she thought highly of him as a good-natured, well-meaning, respectable young man, with no lack of useful understanding or worldly knowledge.
She had already satisfied herself that he thought Harriet a beautiful girl, which she trusted, with such frequent meetings at Hartfield, was foundation enough on his side; and on Harriet’s there could be little doubt that the idea of being preferred by him would have all the usual weight and efficacy. And he was really a very pleasing young man, a young man whom any woman not fastidious might like. He was reckoned very handsome; his person much admired in general, though not by her, there being a want of elegance of feature which she could not dispense with:—but the girl who could be gratified by a Robert Martin’s riding about the country to get walnuts for her might very well be conquered by Mr. Elton’s admiration.
She had already convinced herself that he thought Harriet was a beautiful girl, which she believed, given their frequent meetings at Hartfield, was enough reason on his part; and there was little doubt that the idea of being chosen by him would have an impact on Harriet. He was genuinely a very charming young man, someone any woman who wasn't overly picky could like. People considered him very handsome; his looks were generally admired, although she didn’t see it that way, as she felt he lacked the elegance of features that she couldn't overlook. However, the girl who could be pleased by Robert Martin riding around to collect walnuts for her could easily be won over by Mr. Elton's admiration.
CHAPTER V
“I do not know what your opinion may be, Mrs. Weston,” said Mr. Knightley, “of this great intimacy between Emma and Harriet Smith, but I think it a bad thing.”
“I don’t know what you think about the close friendship between Emma and Harriet Smith, Mrs. Weston,” said Mr. Knightley, “but I believe it’s a bad idea.”
“A bad thing! Do you really think it a bad thing?—why so?”
“A bad thing! Do you really think it's a bad thing?—why's that?”
“I think they will neither of them do the other any good.”
“I don't think either of them will do the other any good.”
“You surprize me! Emma must do Harriet good: and by supplying her with a new object of interest, Harriet may be said to do Emma good. I have been seeing their intimacy with the greatest pleasure. How very differently we feel!—Not think they will do each other any good! This will certainly be the beginning of one of our quarrels about Emma, Mr. Knightley.”
"You surprise me! Emma has to be good for Harriet: and by giving her a new focus, Harriet can be said to be good for Emma too. I've been watching their friendship with great pleasure. How differently we feel! — Not thinking they’ll be good for each other! This will definitely be the start of one of our disagreements about Emma, Mr. Knightley."
“Perhaps you think I am come on purpose to quarrel with you, knowing Weston to be out, and that you must still fight your own battle.”
“Maybe you think I came here just to argue with you, knowing Weston is out and that you have to handle this on your own.”
“Mr. Weston would undoubtedly support me, if he were here, for he thinks exactly as I do on the subject. We were speaking of it only yesterday, and agreeing how fortunate it was for Emma, that there should be such a girl in Highbury for her to associate with. Mr. Knightley, I shall not allow you to be a fair judge in this case. You are so much used to live alone, that you do not know the value of a companion; and, perhaps no man can be a good judge of the comfort a woman feels in the society of one of her own sex, after being used to it all her life. I can imagine your objection to Harriet Smith. She is not the superior young woman which Emma’s friend ought to be. But on the other hand, as Emma wants to see her better informed, it will be an inducement to her to read more herself. They will read together. She means it, I know.”
“Mr. Weston would definitely support me if he were here because he thinks just like I do on this topic. We were talking about it just yesterday and agreeing how lucky it is for Emma to have such a girl in Highbury to spend time with. Mr. Knightley, I can’t let you be an impartial judge in this situation. You’ve been living alone for so long that you don’t understand the value of a companion; and maybe no man can truly judge how comfortable a woman feels in the company of another woman after being used to it her whole life. I can see your concerns about Harriet Smith. She isn’t the kind of superior young woman Emma should be friends with. But on the flip side, since Emma wants to help her become more knowledgeable, it will encourage Emma to read more herself. They’re going to read together. She’s determined about it, I know.”
“Emma has been meaning to read more ever since she was twelve years old. I have seen a great many lists of her drawing-up at various times of books that she meant to read regularly through—and very good lists they were—very well chosen, and very neatly arranged—sometimes alphabetically, and sometimes by some other rule. The list she drew up when only fourteen—I remember thinking it did her judgment so much credit, that I preserved it some time; and I dare say she may have made out a very good list now. But I have done with expecting any course of steady reading from Emma. She will never submit to any thing requiring industry and patience, and a subjection of the fancy to the understanding. Where Miss Taylor failed to stimulate, I may safely affirm that Harriet Smith will do nothing.—You never could persuade her to read half so much as you wished.—You know you could not.”
“Emma has been wanting to read more ever since she was twelve. I’ve seen her make many lists at different times of books she planned to read regularly—and they were really good lists—well chosen and neatly organized—sometimes alphabetically, and sometimes sorted by other criteria. I remember the list she created when she was just fourteen; I thought it reflected her good judgment, so I kept it for a while. I suppose she might have put together another great list by now. But I’ve given up expecting Emma to follow any consistent reading plan. She will never commit to anything that requires effort and patience, or that demands controlling her whims in favor of understanding. Where Miss Taylor couldn’t motivate her, I can confidently say that Harriet Smith won’t either. You could never get her to read as much as you wanted her to—you know you couldn’t.”
“I dare say,” replied Mrs. Weston, smiling, “that I thought so then;—but since we have parted, I can never remember Emma’s omitting to do any thing I wished.”
“I have to say,” replied Mrs. Weston, smiling, “that I thought so then;—but since we separated, I can’t recall Emma ever not doing something I wanted.”
“There is hardly any desiring to refresh such a memory as that,”—said Mr. Knightley, feelingly; and for a moment or two he had done. “But I,” he soon added, “who have had no such charm thrown over my senses, must still see, hear, and remember. Emma is spoiled by being the cleverest of her family. At ten years old, she had the misfortune of being able to answer questions which puzzled her sister at seventeen. She was always quick and assured: Isabella slow and diffident. And ever since she was twelve, Emma has been mistress of the house and of you all. In her mother she lost the only person able to cope with her. She inherits her mother’s talents, and must have been under subjection to her.”
“There's hardly any desire to revisit a memory like that,” said Mr. Knightley, with feeling; and for a moment or two, he stopped. “But I,” he soon added, “who haven’t had such a charm cast over my senses, must still see, hear, and remember. Emma is spoiled because she’s the smartest one in her family. At ten years old, she had the misfortune of being able to answer questions that puzzled her sister at seventeen. She was always quick and confident, while Isabella was slow and unsure. Ever since she turned twelve, Emma has been in charge of the house and all of you. In losing her mother, she lost the only person who could handle her. She inherited her mother’s talents and must have been under her influence.”
“I should have been sorry, Mr. Knightley, to be dependent on your recommendation, had I quitted Mr. Woodhouse’s family and wanted another situation; I do not think you would have spoken a good word for me to any body. I am sure you always thought me unfit for the office I held.”
“I would have felt bad, Mr. Knightley, to rely on your recommendation if I had left Mr. Woodhouse’s family and needed another job; I don’t think you would have said anything positive about me to anyone. I’m sure you have always thought I was unqualified for the position I held.”
“Yes,” said he, smiling. “You are better placed here; very fit for a wife, but not at all for a governess. But you were preparing yourself to be an excellent wife all the time you were at Hartfield. You might not give Emma such a complete education as your powers would seem to promise; but you were receiving a very good education from her, on the very material matrimonial point of submitting your own will, and doing as you were bid; and if Weston had asked me to recommend him a wife, I should certainly have named Miss Taylor.”
“Yes,” he said, smiling. “You’re much better suited here; you're perfect as a wife, but not at all as a governess. But you were getting ready to be a great wife the whole time you were at Hartfield. You might not give Emma the complete education that your abilities would suggest; but you were learning a lot from her about the essential aspect of marriage, which is putting your own will aside and doing what you're told; and if Weston had asked me to recommend a wife, I definitely would have suggested Miss Taylor.”
“Thank you. There will be very little merit in making a good wife to such a man as Mr. Weston.”
“Thank you. There won't be much value in being a good wife to someone like Mr. Weston.”
“Why, to own the truth, I am afraid you are rather thrown away, and that with every disposition to bear, there will be nothing to be borne. We will not despair, however. Weston may grow cross from the wantonness of comfort, or his son may plague him.”
“Honestly, I’m afraid you’re kind of wasting your time, and that with all the patience in the world, there’s nothing to deal with. But we won’t lose hope. Weston might get grumpy from too much comfort, or his son might annoy him.”
“I hope not that.—It is not likely. No, Mr. Knightley, do not foretell vexation from that quarter.”
“I hope not that.—It’s not likely. No, Mr. Knightley, don’t predict any annoyance from that direction.”
“Not I, indeed. I only name possibilities. I do not pretend to Emma’s genius for foretelling and guessing. I hope, with all my heart, the young man may be a Weston in merit, and a Churchill in fortune.—But Harriet Smith—I have not half done about Harriet Smith. I think her the very worst sort of companion that Emma could possibly have. She knows nothing herself, and looks upon Emma as knowing every thing. She is a flatterer in all her ways; and so much the worse, because undesigned. Her ignorance is hourly flattery. How can Emma imagine she has any thing to learn herself, while Harriet is presenting such a delightful inferiority? And as for Harriet, I will venture to say that she cannot gain by the acquaintance. Hartfield will only put her out of conceit with all the other places she belongs to. She will grow just refined enough to be uncomfortable with those among whom birth and circumstances have placed her home. I am much mistaken if Emma’s doctrines give any strength of mind, or tend at all to make a girl adapt herself rationally to the varieties of her situation in life.—They only give a little polish.”
“Not me, for sure. I’m just naming possibilities. I don’t claim to have Emma’s talent for predicting and guessing. I sincerely hope the young man is as good as a Weston in character and as lucky as a Churchill in fortune.—But Harriet Smith—I haven’t even started talking about Harriet Smith. I think she’s the worst kind of companion for Emma. She knows nothing herself and thinks Emma knows everything. She flatters in every way, and it’s even worse because it’s unintentional. Her ignorance is constant flattery. How can Emma think she has anything to learn while Harriet is presenting such a charming inferiority? And as for Harriet, I bet she can’t benefit from their friendship. Hartfield will only make her dissatisfied with all the other places she belongs to. She’ll get just refined enough to feel uncomfortable with the people she’s actually from. I’m pretty sure Emma’s ideas don’t provide any mental strength or help a girl adapt rationally to the different situations life throws at her.—They only add a little bit of polish.”
“I either depend more upon Emma’s good sense than you do, or am more anxious for her present comfort; for I cannot lament the acquaintance. How well she looked last night!”
“I either rely on Emma’s good sense more than you do, or I care more about her current happiness; because I can’t regret knowing her. She looked so great last night!”
“Oh! you would rather talk of her person than her mind, would you? Very well; I shall not attempt to deny Emma’s being pretty.”
“Oh! you’d rather talk about her looks than her mind, would you? Alright; I won’t try to argue that Emma isn’t pretty.”
“Pretty! say beautiful rather. Can you imagine any thing nearer perfect beauty than Emma altogether—face and figure?”
“Pretty! I’d say beautiful instead. Can you imagine anything closer to perfect beauty than Emma as a whole—her face and figure?”
“I do not know what I could imagine, but I confess that I have seldom seen a face or figure more pleasing to me than hers. But I am a partial old friend.”
“I don't know what I could picture, but I admit that I've rarely seen a face or figure more pleasing to me than hers. But I am a biased old friend.”
“Such an eye!—the true hazle eye—and so brilliant! regular features, open countenance, with a complexion! oh! what a bloom of full health, and such a pretty height and size; such a firm and upright figure! There is health, not merely in her bloom, but in her air, her head, her glance. One hears sometimes of a child being ‘the picture of health;’ now, Emma always gives me the idea of being the complete picture of grown-up health. She is loveliness itself. Mr. Knightley, is not she?”
“Such an eye!—the true hazel eye—and so bright! Regular features, a friendly face, with a complexion! Oh! what a glow of good health, and such a lovely height and size; such a strong and upright figure! There is health, not just in her glow, but in her attitude, her head, her gaze. One sometimes hears about a child being ‘the picture of health;’ well, Emma always gives me the impression of being the complete picture of adult health. She is absolute beauty. Mr. Knightley, isn’t she?”
“I have not a fault to find with her person,” he replied. “I think her all you describe. I love to look at her; and I will add this praise, that I do not think her personally vain. Considering how very handsome she is, she appears to be little occupied with it; her vanity lies another way. Mrs. Weston, I am not to be talked out of my dislike of Harriet Smith, or my dread of its doing them both harm.”
“I have no complaints about her looks,” he replied. “I think she’s everything you say. I love looking at her; and I will add this compliment, that I don’t think she’s personally vain. Given how incredibly attractive she is, she seems to spend little time thinking about it; her vanity shows in other ways. Mrs. Weston, you won’t change my mind about my dislike for Harriet Smith, or my fear that it will hurt both of them.”
“And I, Mr. Knightley, am equally stout in my confidence of its not doing them any harm. With all dear Emma’s little faults, she is an excellent creature. Where shall we see a better daughter, or a kinder sister, or a truer friend? No, no; she has qualities which may be trusted; she will never lead any one really wrong; she will make no lasting blunder; where Emma errs once, she is in the right a hundred times.”
“And I, Mr. Knightley, am just as confident that it won’t do them any harm. With all of dear Emma’s little flaws, she is a wonderful person. Where else will we find a better daughter, a kinder sister, or a truer friend? No, no; she has qualities that can be trusted; she will never truly steer anyone wrong; she won't make any lasting mistakes; where Emma makes one error, she is right a hundred times.”
“Very well; I will not plague you any more. Emma shall be an angel, and I will keep my spleen to myself till Christmas brings John and Isabella. John loves Emma with a reasonable and therefore not a blind affection, and Isabella always thinks as he does; except when he is not quite frightened enough about the children. I am sure of having their opinions with me.”
“Okay, I won’t bother you anymore. Emma will be an angel, and I’ll keep my frustration to myself until Christmas brings John and Isabella. John loves Emma with a reasonable, not a blind, affection, and Isabella usually agrees with him; except when he’s not quite worried enough about the kids. I’m confident I’ll have their support.”
“I know that you all love her really too well to be unjust or unkind; but excuse me, Mr. Knightley, if I take the liberty (I consider myself, you know, as having somewhat of the privilege of speech that Emma’s mother might have had) the liberty of hinting that I do not think any possible good can arise from Harriet Smith’s intimacy being made a matter of much discussion among you. Pray excuse me; but supposing any little inconvenience may be apprehended from the intimacy, it cannot be expected that Emma, accountable to nobody but her father, who perfectly approves the acquaintance, should put an end to it, so long as it is a source of pleasure to herself. It has been so many years my province to give advice, that you cannot be surprized, Mr. Knightley, at this little remains of office.”
“I know that you all truly care for her too much to be unfair or unkind; but please forgive me, Mr. Knightley, if I take the liberty (I consider myself as having a bit of the privilege of speech that Emma’s mother might have had) to suggest that I don’t think any good can come from discussing Harriet Smith’s relationship too much among you. Please excuse me; but if there’s any concern about this friendship, it’s not reasonable to expect Emma, who is only accountable to her father and who fully supports the friendship, to end it as long as it brings her joy. It has been my role to give advice for so many years, so you can't be surprised, Mr. Knightley, at this little bit of duty.”
“Not at all,” cried he; “I am much obliged to you for it. It is very good advice, and it shall have a better fate than your advice has often found; for it shall be attended to.”
“Not at all,” he exclaimed; “I really appreciate it. It’s great advice, and it will have a better outcome than your advice has often had; I will definitely take it to heart.”
“Mrs. John Knightley is easily alarmed, and might be made unhappy about her sister.”
“Mrs. John Knightley gets anxious easily and could be upset about her sister.”
“Be satisfied,” said he, “I will not raise any outcry. I will keep my ill-humour to myself. I have a very sincere interest in Emma. Isabella does not seem more my sister; has never excited a greater interest; perhaps hardly so great. There is an anxiety, a curiosity in what one feels for Emma. I wonder what will become of her!”
"Just be content," he said. "I won't make a fuss. I'll keep my frustration to myself. I genuinely care about Emma. Isabella doesn't seem more like my sister; she has never sparked as much interest; maybe not even this much. There's a worry, a curiosity in how I feel about Emma. I wonder what will happen to her!"
“So do I,” said Mrs. Weston gently, “very much.”
“So do I,” Mrs. Weston said softly, “a lot.”
“She always declares she will never marry, which, of course, means just nothing at all. But I have no idea that she has yet ever seen a man she cared for. It would not be a bad thing for her to be very much in love with a proper object. I should like to see Emma in love, and in some doubt of a return; it would do her good. But there is nobody hereabouts to attach her; and she goes so seldom from home.”
“She always says she will never get married, which really doesn’t mean anything. But I have no idea if she has ever met a man she actually liked. It wouldn’t be a bad thing for her to be really in love with someone suitable. I’d like to see Emma in love and uncertain about whether it would be returned; it would be good for her. But there’s no one around here to attract her, and she rarely goes anywhere.”
“There does, indeed, seem as little to tempt her to break her resolution at present,” said Mrs. Weston, “as can well be; and while she is so happy at Hartfield, I cannot wish her to be forming any attachment which would be creating such difficulties on poor Mr. Woodhouse’s account. I do not recommend matrimony at present to Emma, though I mean no slight to the state, I assure you.”
“There really doesn’t seem to be anything to tempt her to change her mind right now,” said Mrs. Weston. “And as long as she’s so happy at Hartfield, I can’t wish her to be developing any feelings that would cause trouble for poor Mr. Woodhouse. I’m not suggesting marriage for Emma at the moment, though I don’t mean to disrespect the institution, I promise you.”
Part of her meaning was to conceal some favourite thoughts of her own and Mr. Weston’s on the subject, as much as possible. There were wishes at Randalls respecting Emma’s destiny, but it was not desirable to have them suspected; and the quiet transition which Mr. Knightley soon afterwards made to “What does Weston think of the weather; shall we have rain?” convinced her that he had nothing more to say or surmise about Hartfield.
Part of her intention was to keep some of her favorite thoughts about the topic, as well as Mr. Weston’s, private. There were hopes at Randalls regarding Emma’s future, but they didn’t want them to be suspected; and the smooth shift that Mr. Knightley soon made to, “What does Weston think about the weather? Are we going to get rain?” assured her that he had no more to say or guess about Hartfield.
CHAPTER VI
Emma could not feel a doubt of having given Harriet’s fancy a proper direction and raised the gratitude of her young vanity to a very good purpose, for she found her decidedly more sensible than before of Mr. Elton’s being a remarkably handsome man, with most agreeable manners; and as she had no hesitation in following up the assurance of his admiration by agreeable hints, she was soon pretty confident of creating as much liking on Harriet’s side, as there could be any occasion for. She was quite convinced of Mr. Elton’s being in the fairest way of falling in love, if not in love already. She had no scruple with regard to him. He talked of Harriet, and praised her so warmly, that she could not suppose any thing wanting which a little time would not add. His perception of the striking improvement of Harriet’s manner, since her introduction at Hartfield, was not one of the least agreeable proofs of his growing attachment.
Emma felt certain that she had given Harriet's infatuation the right direction and that she had effectively boosted her young vanity for a good cause. She noticed that Harriet was definitely more aware of Mr. Elton being a remarkably handsome guy with very pleasant manners. Without any doubt, she started to drop hints about his admiration, and soon she was pretty confident that she could foster as much affection on Harriet’s part as was needed. She was convinced that Mr. Elton was on the verge of falling in love, if he wasn't already. She had no doubts about him. He spoke of Harriet and praised her so enthusiastically that she couldn’t imagine there was anything lacking that a little time wouldn’t improve. His recognition of how much Harriet’s demeanor had enhanced since she came to Hartfield was one of the most agreeable signs of his growing feelings for her.
“You have given Miss Smith all that she required,” said he; “you have made her graceful and easy. She was a beautiful creature when she came to you, but, in my opinion, the attractions you have added are infinitely superior to what she received from nature.”
“You’ve given Miss Smith everything she needed,” he said; “you’ve made her graceful and comfortable. She was a beautiful person when she first came to you, but, in my opinion, the qualities you’ve added are way better than what she got from nature.”
“I am glad you think I have been useful to her; but Harriet only wanted drawing out, and receiving a few, very few hints. She had all the natural grace of sweetness of temper and artlessness in herself. I have done very little.”
“I’m glad you think I’ve been helpful to her; but Harriet just needed a little encouragement and a few, very few, suggestions. She had all the natural grace, sweetness of personality, and innocence within her. I haven’t done much at all.”
“If it were admissible to contradict a lady,” said the gallant Mr. Elton—
“If it were acceptable to disagree with a lady,” said the charming Mr. Elton—
“I have perhaps given her a little more decision of character, have taught her to think on points which had not fallen in her way before.”
"I might have given her a bit more confidence in her character and encouraged her to think about things she hadn't considered before."
“Exactly so; that is what principally strikes me. So much superadded decision of character! Skilful has been the hand!”
“Exactly; that's what stands out to me. Such a strong sense of character! It’s clear that a skilled hand has been at work!”
“Great has been the pleasure, I am sure. I never met with a disposition more truly amiable.”
“I'm sure it has been a great pleasure. I've never encountered a personality more genuinely kind.”
“I have no doubt of it.” And it was spoken with a sort of sighing animation, which had a vast deal of the lover. She was not less pleased another day with the manner in which he seconded a sudden wish of hers, to have Harriet’s picture.
“I’m sure of it.” And it was said with a kind of sighing enthusiasm that had a lot of romantic flair. She felt just as happy another day when he supported her sudden desire to have a picture of Harriet.
“Did you ever have your likeness taken, Harriet?” said she: “did you ever sit for your picture?”
“Have you ever had your portrait done, Harriet?” she asked. “Have you ever sat for a picture?”
Harriet was on the point of leaving the room, and only stopt to say, with a very interesting naïveté,
Harriet was about to leave the room but paused to say, with a very intriguing innocence,
“Oh! dear, no, never.”
“Oh no, never.”
No sooner was she out of sight, than Emma exclaimed,
No sooner had she disappeared from view than Emma exclaimed,
“What an exquisite possession a good picture of her would be! I would give any money for it. I almost long to attempt her likeness myself. You do not know it I dare say, but two or three years ago I had a great passion for taking likenesses, and attempted several of my friends, and was thought to have a tolerable eye in general. But from one cause or another, I gave it up in disgust. But really, I could almost venture, if Harriet would sit to me. It would be such a delight to have her picture!”
“What a beautiful thing it would be to have a good picture of her! I would pay anything for it. I almost want to try to capture her likeness myself. You probably don’t know this, but a couple of years ago, I was really passionate about portrait drawing and tried to capture several of my friends, and people thought I had a decent eye for it. But for various reasons, I gave it up in frustration. Honestly, I could almost consider trying again if Harriet would sit for me. It would be such a joy to have her picture!”
“Let me entreat you,” cried Mr. Elton; “it would indeed be a delight! Let me entreat you, Miss Woodhouse, to exercise so charming a talent in favour of your friend. I know what your drawings are. How could you suppose me ignorant? Is not this room rich in specimens of your landscapes and flowers; and has not Mrs. Weston some inimitable figure-pieces in her drawing-room, at Randalls?”
“Please, I’m asking you,” Mr. Elton exclaimed; “it would truly be wonderful! I’m begging you, Miss Woodhouse, to use your amazing talent for the benefit of your friend. I know how good your drawings are. How could you think I wouldn't know? Isn’t this room filled with examples of your landscapes and flowers? And doesn’t Mrs. Weston have some incredible figure pieces in her drawing room at Randalls?”
Yes, good man!—thought Emma—but what has all that to do with taking likenesses? You know nothing of drawing. Don’t pretend to be in raptures about mine. Keep your raptures for Harriet’s face. “Well, if you give me such kind encouragement, Mr. Elton, I believe I shall try what I can do. Harriet’s features are very delicate, which makes a likeness difficult; and yet there is a peculiarity in the shape of the eye and the lines about the mouth which one ought to catch.”
Yes, good man!—Emma thought—but what does any of that have to do with drawing? You don't know anything about art. Don’t pretend to be so excited about mine. Save your excitement for Harriet’s face. “Well, if you’re going to encourage me like that, Mr. Elton, I think I’ll give it a shot. Harriet has such delicate features, which makes it hard to get a good likeness; but there’s something unique about the shape of her eye and the lines around her mouth that I should try to capture.”
“Exactly so—The shape of the eye and the lines about the mouth—I have not a doubt of your success. Pray, pray attempt it. As you will do it, it will indeed, to use your own words, be an exquisite possession.”
“Absolutely—the shape of the eye and the lines around the mouth—I have no doubt you’ll succeed. Please, please give it a try. As you do it, it will truly, to use your own words, be a wonderful possession.”
“But I am afraid, Mr. Elton, Harriet will not like to sit. She thinks so little of her own beauty. Did not you observe her manner of answering me? How completely it meant, ‘why should my picture be drawn?’”
“But I'm afraid, Mr. Elton, that Harriet won't want to sit for you. She thinks so little of her own beauty. Didn’t you notice how she responded to me? It totally implied, ‘why should my picture be drawn?’”
“Oh! yes, I observed it, I assure you. It was not lost on me. But still I cannot imagine she would not be persuaded.”
“Oh! yes, I noticed it, I promise. It didn’t escape my attention. But still, I can’t believe she wouldn’t be convinced.”
Harriet was soon back again, and the proposal almost immediately made; and she had no scruples which could stand many minutes against the earnest pressing of both the others. Emma wished to go to work directly, and therefore produced the portfolio containing her various attempts at portraits, for not one of them had ever been finished, that they might decide together on the best size for Harriet. Her many beginnings were displayed. Miniatures, half-lengths, whole-lengths, pencil, crayon, and water-colours had been all tried in turn. She had always wanted to do every thing, and had made more progress both in drawing and music than many might have done with so little labour as she would ever submit to. She played and sang;—and drew in almost every style; but steadiness had always been wanting; and in nothing had she approached the degree of excellence which she would have been glad to command, and ought not to have failed of. She was not much deceived as to her own skill either as an artist or a musician, but she was not unwilling to have others deceived, or sorry to know her reputation for accomplishment often higher than it deserved.
Harriet was soon back, and the proposal was almost immediately made; she had no reservations that could hold out against the enthusiastic urging of the others for long. Emma wanted to get started right away, so she brought out the portfolio with her various attempts at portraits, since none of them had ever been finished, so they could decide together on the best size for Harriet. Her many starts were on display. She had tried miniatures, half-lengths, full-lengths, using pencil, crayon, and watercolor in turn. She had always wanted to do everything and had made more progress in both drawing and music than many could have with so little effort as she was willing to put in. She played and sang—and drew in almost every style; but she had always lacked consistency, and in nothing had she reached the level of excellence that she would have liked to achieve and should not have failed to reach. She wasn’t completely deluded about her own skill as an artist or musician, but she didn’t mind if others were misled, nor was she upset that her reputation for talent was often higher than it warranted.
There was merit in every drawing—in the least finished, perhaps the most; her style was spirited; but had there been much less, or had there been ten times more, the delight and admiration of her two companions would have been the same. They were both in ecstasies. A likeness pleases every body; and Miss Woodhouse’s performances must be capital.
There was value in every drawing—in the least finished, maybe even the most; her style was lively; but whether there was much less or ten times more, the delight and admiration of her two companions would have been unchanged. They were both thrilled. A likeness impresses everyone; and Miss Woodhouse’s work must be outstanding.
“No great variety of faces for you,” said Emma. “I had only my own family to study from. There is my father—another of my father—but the idea of sitting for his picture made him so nervous, that I could only take him by stealth; neither of them very like therefore. Mrs. Weston again, and again, and again, you see. Dear Mrs. Weston! always my kindest friend on every occasion. She would sit whenever I asked her. There is my sister; and really quite her own little elegant figure!—and the face not unlike. I should have made a good likeness of her, if she would have sat longer, but she was in such a hurry to have me draw her four children that she would not be quiet. Then, here come all my attempts at three of those four children;—there they are, Henry and John and Bella, from one end of the sheet to the other, and any one of them might do for any one of the rest. She was so eager to have them drawn that I could not refuse; but there is no making children of three or four years old stand still you know; nor can it be very easy to take any likeness of them, beyond the air and complexion, unless they are coarser featured than any of mama’s children ever were. Here is my sketch of the fourth, who was a baby. I took him as he was sleeping on the sofa, and it is as strong a likeness of his cockade as you would wish to see. He had nestled down his head most conveniently. That’s very like. I am rather proud of little George. The corner of the sofa is very good. Then here is my last,”—unclosing a pretty sketch of a gentleman in small size, whole-length—“my last and my best—my brother, Mr. John Knightley.—This did not want much of being finished, when I put it away in a pet, and vowed I would never take another likeness. I could not help being provoked; for after all my pains, and when I had really made a very good likeness of it—(Mrs. Weston and I were quite agreed in thinking it very like)—only too handsome—too flattering—but that was a fault on the right side”—after all this, came poor dear Isabella’s cold approbation of—“Yes, it was a little like—but to be sure it did not do him justice. We had had a great deal of trouble in persuading him to sit at all. It was made a great favour of; and altogether it was more than I could bear; and so I never would finish it, to have it apologised over as an unfavourable likeness, to every morning visitor in Brunswick Square;—and, as I said, I did then forswear ever drawing any body again. But for Harriet’s sake, or rather for my own, and as there are no husbands and wives in the case at present, I will break my resolution now.”
“No great variety of faces for you,” Emma said. “I only had my own family to study from. There’s my dad—another version of my dad—but the thought of sitting for his portrait made him so nervous that I could only sketch him secretly; neither of them looks very much like him. Then there’s Mrs. Weston, again and again—you see. Dear Mrs. Weston! always my kindest friend in every situation. She would sit whenever I asked her. There’s my sister, and really quite her own elegant figure!—and the face is somewhat similar. I would have made a good likeness of her if she could have sat still longer, but she was in such a rush to have me draw her four kids that she wouldn’t stay put. Then, here come all my attempts at three of those four kids;—there they are, Henry, John, and Bella, from one end of the sheet to the other, and any one of them could pass for any of the others. She was so eager to have them drawn that I couldn’t say no; but getting three or four-year-olds to sit still is impossible, you know; and it’s not easy to capture any likeness of them, beyond their general vibe and complexion, unless they have coarser features than any of Mama’s kids ever did. Here’s my sketch of the fourth, who was a baby. I caught him while he was sleeping on the sofa, and it’s as strong a likeness of his little face as you could wish to see. He had nestled down his head so conveniently. That’s very much like him. I’m kind of proud of little George. The corner of the sofa looks good too. Then here’s my last,”—revealing a nice sketch of a short full-length gentleman—“my last and my best—my brother, Mr. John Knightley.—This was almost finished when I put it aside in a huff, saying I would never try to draw another likeness. I couldn’t help being frustrated; because after all my hard work, and when I’d really made a very good likeness—(Mrs. Weston and I completely agreed it looked very much like him)—only too handsome—too flattering—but that was a fault on the right side”—after all this, came poor dear Isabella’s cold approval of—“Yes, it was somewhat like—but of course it didn’t do him justice. We had a lot of trouble convincing him to sit at all. It was seen as a huge favor, and overall, it was more than I could handle; so I never finished it, just to have it critiqued as an unfavorable likeness to every morning visitor in Brunswick Square;—and, as I said, I then swore I would never draw anyone again. But for Harriet’s sake, or rather for my own, and since there are no husbands and wives involved at present, I’ll break my resolution now.”
Mr. Elton seemed very properly struck and delighted by the idea, and was repeating, “No husbands and wives in the case at present indeed, as you observe. Exactly so. No husbands and wives,” with so interesting a consciousness, that Emma began to consider whether she had not better leave them together at once. But as she wanted to be drawing, the declaration must wait a little longer.
Mr. Elton seemed genuinely impressed and happy about the idea, and he kept saying, “No husbands and wives in the situation right now, as you pointed out. Exactly. No husbands and wives,” with such an interesting awareness that Emma started to think maybe she should just leave them alone together. But since she wanted to keep drawing, she decided to hold off on that for a little while longer.
She had soon fixed on the size and sort of portrait. It was to be a whole-length in water-colours, like Mr. John Knightley’s, and was destined, if she could please herself, to hold a very honourable station over the mantelpiece.
She quickly decided on the size and type of portrait. It was going to be a full-length in watercolors, like Mr. John Knightley’s, and she hoped it would have a very prominent spot over the mantelpiece.
The sitting began; and Harriet, smiling and blushing, and afraid of not keeping her attitude and countenance, presented a very sweet mixture of youthful expression to the steady eyes of the artist. But there was no doing any thing, with Mr. Elton fidgeting behind her and watching every touch. She gave him credit for stationing himself where he might gaze and gaze again without offence; but was really obliged to put an end to it, and request him to place himself elsewhere. It then occurred to her to employ him in reading.
The sitting started, and Harriet, smiling and blushing, worried about maintaining her pose and expression, displayed a charming mix of youthful looks to the artist's steady gaze. However, it was hard to get anything done with Mr. Elton fidgeting behind her and watching every move. She appreciated that he positioned himself where he could gaze without being intrusive, but she ultimately had to tell him to move elsewhere. Then, it struck her to have him read to her.
“If he would be so good as to read to them, it would be a kindness indeed! It would amuse away the difficulties of her part, and lessen the irksomeness of Miss Smith’s.”
“If he could be kind enough to read to them, it would be a real favor! It would take her mind off her challenges and make Miss Smith’s situation less tedious.”
Mr. Elton was only too happy. Harriet listened, and Emma drew in peace. She must allow him to be still frequently coming to look; any thing less would certainly have been too little in a lover; and he was ready at the smallest intermission of the pencil, to jump up and see the progress, and be charmed.—There was no being displeased with such an encourager, for his admiration made him discern a likeness almost before it was possible. She could not respect his eye, but his love and his complaisance were unexceptionable.
Mr. Elton was more than pleased. Harriet listened while Emma worked in peace. She had to let him come by often to check on her progress; anything less would have been inadequate for a lover. He was quick to jump up and see how it was going at the slightest pause in her drawing, always enchanted by the outcome. It was impossible to be upset with such a supporter, as his admiration allowed him to notice a resemblance even before it was apparent. She couldn’t respect his judgment, but his affection and willingness to please were undeniable.
The sitting was altogether very satisfactory; she was quite enough pleased with the first day’s sketch to wish to go on. There was no want of likeness, she had been fortunate in the attitude, and as she meant to throw in a little improvement to the figure, to give a little more height, and considerably more elegance, she had great confidence of its being in every way a pretty drawing at last, and of its filling its destined place with credit to them both—a standing memorial of the beauty of one, the skill of the other, and the friendship of both; with as many other agreeable associations as Mr. Elton’s very promising attachment was likely to add.
The session was really satisfying; she was pleased enough with the initial sketch to want to continue. There was no lack of resemblance; she had been fortunate with the pose, and since she planned to add a few enhancements to the figure—giving it a bit more height and a lot more elegance—she felt confident it would ultimately be a lovely drawing. It would serve as a lasting tribute to one person's beauty, the other person's skill, and their mutual friendship, along with all the pleasant memories that Mr. Elton’s very promising interest was likely to contribute.
Harriet was to sit again the next day; and Mr. Elton, just as he ought, entreated for the permission of attending and reading to them again.
Harriet was set to sit again the next day, and Mr. Elton, as he should, asked for permission to join them and read to them again.
“By all means. We shall be most happy to consider you as one of the party.”
"Of course! We'll be more than happy to include you in the group."
The same civilities and courtesies, the same success and satisfaction, took place on the morrow, and accompanied the whole progress of the picture, which was rapid and happy. Every body who saw it was pleased, but Mr. Elton was in continual raptures, and defended it through every criticism.
The same politeness and kindness, the same success and joy, happened the next day and accompanied the entire progress of the painting, which was quick and delightful. Everyone who saw it was happy, but Mr. Elton was constantly thrilled and defended it against every critique.
“Miss Woodhouse has given her friend the only beauty she wanted,”—observed Mrs. Weston to him—not in the least suspecting that she was addressing a lover.—“The expression of the eye is most correct, but Miss Smith has not those eyebrows and eyelashes. It is the fault of her face that she has them not.”
“Miss Woodhouse has given her friend the only beauty she wanted,” Mrs. Weston remarked to him, completely unaware that she was speaking to a lover. “The expression of the eye is perfect, but Miss Smith doesn’t have those eyebrows and eyelashes. It’s just a flaw in her face that she doesn’t have them.”
“Do you think so?” replied he. “I cannot agree with you. It appears to me a most perfect resemblance in every feature. I never saw such a likeness in my life. We must allow for the effect of shade, you know.”
“Do you really think so?” he replied. “I can't agree with you. To me, it's an exact likeness in every detail. I've never seen such a resemblance in my entire life. We have to take into account the effect of shadows, you know.”
“You have made her too tall, Emma,” said Mr. Knightley.
“You've made her too tall, Emma,” Mr. Knightley said.
Emma knew that she had, but would not own it; and Mr. Elton warmly added,
Emma knew that she had it, but wouldn't admit it; and Mr. Elton enthusiastically added,
“Oh no! certainly not too tall; not in the least too tall. Consider, she is sitting down—which naturally presents a different—which in short gives exactly the idea—and the proportions must be preserved, you know. Proportions, fore-shortening.—Oh no! it gives one exactly the idea of such a height as Miss Smith’s. Exactly so indeed!”
“Oh no! Definitely not too tall; not at all too tall. Just think, she’s sitting down—which obviously gives a different impression—which basically conveys the idea perfectly—and the proportions need to be kept in mind, you know. Proportions, foreshortening.—Oh no! It totally gives the impression of a height like Miss Smith’s. Exactly!”
“It is very pretty,” said Mr. Woodhouse. “So prettily done! Just as your drawings always are, my dear. I do not know any body who draws so well as you do. The only thing I do not thoroughly like is, that she seems to be sitting out of doors, with only a little shawl over her shoulders—and it makes one think she must catch cold.”
“It’s really beautiful,” Mr. Woodhouse said. “So beautifully done! Just like your drawings always are, my dear. I don’t know anyone who draws as well as you do. The only thing I’m not completely fond of is that she seems to be sitting outside, with just a little shawl over her shoulders—and it makes you think she might catch a cold.”
“But, my dear papa, it is supposed to be summer; a warm day in summer. Look at the tree.”
“But, my dear dad, it's supposed to be summer; a warm day in summer. Look at the tree.”
“But it is never safe to sit out of doors, my dear.”
“But it's never safe to sit outside, my dear.”
“You, sir, may say any thing,” cried Mr. Elton, “but I must confess that I regard it as a most happy thought, the placing of Miss Smith out of doors; and the tree is touched with such inimitable spirit! Any other situation would have been much less in character. The naïveté of Miss Smith’s manners—and altogether—Oh, it is most admirable! I cannot keep my eyes from it. I never saw such a likeness.”
“You can say whatever you want,” Mr. Elton exclaimed, “but I have to admit that I think it’s a brilliant idea to put Miss Smith outside; the tree has such an incredible energy! Any other setting would have been far less fitting. The simplicity of Miss Smith’s manner—everything about it—Oh, it’s truly impressive! I can’t take my eyes off it. I’ve never seen such a resemblance.”
The next thing wanted was to get the picture framed; and here were a few difficulties. It must be done directly; it must be done in London; the order must go through the hands of some intelligent person whose taste could be depended on; and Isabella, the usual doer of all commissions, must not be applied to, because it was December, and Mr. Woodhouse could not bear the idea of her stirring out of her house in the fogs of December. But no sooner was the distress known to Mr. Elton, than it was removed. His gallantry was always on the alert. “Might he be trusted with the commission, what infinite pleasure should he have in executing it! he could ride to London at any time. It was impossible to say how much he should be gratified by being employed on such an errand.”
The next thing to do was to get the picture framed, but there were a few challenges. It needed to be done right away, it had to be done in London, the order had to go through someone reliable with good taste, and Isabella, the usual go-to person for these tasks, shouldn’t be asked to do it because it was December, and Mr. Woodhouse couldn’t stand the thought of her going out in the December fog. However, as soon as Mr. Elton learned of the issue, he offered to help. His eagerness to be of assistance was always evident. “If I can take on this task, it would bring me so much joy! I could ride to London whenever. I can't express how happy I would be to be given such a job.”
“He was too good!—she could not endure the thought!—she would not give him such a troublesome office for the world,”—brought on the desired repetition of entreaties and assurances,—and a very few minutes settled the business.
“He was too good!—she couldn't stand the thought!—she wouldn't give him such a difficult task for anything,”—led to the expected repeated pleas and reassurances,—and in just a few minutes, everything was settled.
Mr. Elton was to take the drawing to London, chuse the frame, and give the directions; and Emma thought she could so pack it as to ensure its safety without much incommoding him, while he seemed mostly fearful of not being incommoded enough.
Mr. Elton was supposed to take the drawing to London, choose the frame, and give the instructions; and Emma believed she could pack it in a way that would keep it safe without really bothering him too much, while he mostly seemed worried about not being bothered enough.
“What a precious deposit!” said he with a tender sigh, as he received it.
“What a precious gift!” he said with a gentle sigh as he took it.
“This man is almost too gallant to be in love,” thought Emma. “I should say so, but that I suppose there may be a hundred different ways of being in love. He is an excellent young man, and will suit Harriet exactly; it will be an ‘Exactly so,’ as he says himself; but he does sigh and languish, and study for compliments rather more than I could endure as a principal. I come in for a pretty good share as a second. But it is his gratitude on Harriet’s account.”
“This guy is almost too charming to be in love,” Emma thought. “I would say so, but I guess there are a hundred different ways to be in love. He’s a great guy and will fit perfectly with Harriet; it will be an ‘Exactly so,’ as he says himself. But he does sigh and pine away, and looks for compliments more than I could handle as the main person. I get my fair share as the second. But it's his gratitude towards Harriet that matters.”
CHAPTER VII
The very day of Mr. Elton’s going to London produced a fresh occasion for Emma’s services towards her friend. Harriet had been at Hartfield, as usual, soon after breakfast; and, after a time, had gone home to return again to dinner: she returned, and sooner than had been talked of, and with an agitated, hurried look, announcing something extraordinary to have happened which she was longing to tell. Half a minute brought it all out. She had heard, as soon as she got back to Mrs. Goddard’s, that Mr. Martin had been there an hour before, and finding she was not at home, nor particularly expected, had left a little parcel for her from one of his sisters, and gone away; and on opening this parcel, she had actually found, besides the two songs which she had lent Elizabeth to copy, a letter to herself; and this letter was from him, from Mr. Martin, and contained a direct proposal of marriage. “Who could have thought it? She was so surprized she did not know what to do. Yes, quite a proposal of marriage; and a very good letter, at least she thought so. And he wrote as if he really loved her very much—but she did not know—and so, she was come as fast as she could to ask Miss Woodhouse what she should do.—” Emma was half-ashamed of her friend for seeming so pleased and so doubtful.
The day Mr. Elton left for London brought another opportunity for Emma to help her friend. Harriet had been at Hartfield, as usual, soon after breakfast. After a while, she went home only to return for dinner: she came back sooner than expected, looking agitated and rushed, eager to share some extraordinary news. In just half a minute, she spilled it all out. She had heard, right after getting back to Mrs. Goddard’s, that Mr. Martin had dropped by an hour earlier. Since she wasn’t home and wasn’t expected, he left a small package for her from one of his sisters and left. When she opened the parcel, she found, along with the two songs she had lent Elizabeth to copy, a letter addressed to her; a letter from Mr. Martin that included a straightforward marriage proposal. “Who would have thought it? She was so surprised, she didn’t know what to do. Yes, it was definitely a marriage proposal; and a really nice letter, or at least she thought so. He wrote as if he really loved her a lot—but she didn’t know—and so, she rushed over as fast as she could to ask Miss Woodhouse what she should do.” Emma felt slightly ashamed of her friend for being so pleased yet so unsure.
“Upon my word,” she cried, “the young man is determined not to lose any thing for want of asking. He will connect himself well if he can.”
“Honestly,” she exclaimed, “the young man is set on not missing out on anything just because he didn’t ask. He’ll make good connections if he can.”
“Will you read the letter?” cried Harriet. “Pray do. II’d rather you would.”
“Will you read the letter?” Harriet exclaimed. “Please do. I’d prefer that you do.”
Emma was not sorry to be pressed. She read, and was surprized. The style of the letter was much above her expectation. There were not merely no grammatical errors, but as a composition it would not have disgraced a gentleman; the language, though plain, was strong and unaffected, and the sentiments it conveyed very much to the credit of the writer. It was short, but expressed good sense, warm attachment, liberality, propriety, even delicacy of feeling. She paused over it, while Harriet stood anxiously watching for her opinion, with a “Well, well,” and was at last forced to add, “Is it a good letter? or is it too short?”
Emma was not unhappy to be pressed for an answer. She read it and was surprised. The style of the letter far exceeded her expectations. There were not just no grammatical mistakes, but as a piece of writing, it wouldn’t have embarrassed a gentleman; the language, though simple, was strong and genuine, and the sentiments it expressed were very commendable for the writer. It was brief, yet conveyed good sense, deep affection, generosity, propriety, and even a touch of sensitivity. She lingered over it while Harriet anxiously waited for her thoughts, with a “Well, well,” and eventually had to ask, “Is it a good letter? Or is it too short?”
“Yes, indeed, a very good letter,” replied Emma rather slowly—“so good a letter, Harriet, that every thing considered, I think one of his sisters must have helped him. I can hardly imagine the young man whom I saw talking with you the other day could express himself so well, if left quite to his own powers, and yet it is not the style of a woman; no, certainly, it is too strong and concise; not diffuse enough for a woman. No doubt he is a sensible man, and I suppose may have a natural talent for—thinks strongly and clearly—and when he takes a pen in hand, his thoughts naturally find proper words. It is so with some men. Yes, I understand the sort of mind. Vigorous, decided, with sentiments to a certain point, not coarse. A better written letter, Harriet (returning it,) than I had expected.”
“Yes, definitely, a really good letter,” Emma replied slowly. “It's such a good letter, Harriet, that all things considered, I think one of his sisters must have helped him. I can hardly believe the young man I saw talking to you the other day could express himself so well on his own. Yet, it doesn’t have a woman’s style; no, it’s too strong and concise, not wordy enough for a woman. No doubt he’s a smart guy, and I guess he has a natural talent for thinking clearly and strongly—and when he picks up a pen, his thoughts just find the right words. Some men are like that. Yes, I get the type of mind. Vigorous, decisive, with feelings to a point, but not crude. A better written letter, Harriet,” she said, handing it back, “than I expected.”
“Well,” said the still waiting Harriet;—“well—and—and what shall I do?”
“Well,” said the still waiting Harriet;—“well—and—and what should I do?”
“What shall you do! In what respect? Do you mean with regard to this letter?”
“What are you going to do? In what way? Are you talking about this letter?”
“Yes.”
“Yeah.”
“But what are you in doubt of? You must answer it of course—and speedily.”
“But what are you unsure about? You have to answer it, of course—and quickly.”
“Yes. But what shall I say? Dear Miss Woodhouse, do advise me.”
“Yes. But what should I say? Dear Miss Woodhouse, please advise me.”
“Oh no, no! the letter had much better be all your own. You will express yourself very properly, I am sure. There is no danger of your not being intelligible, which is the first thing. Your meaning must be unequivocal; no doubts or demurs: and such expressions of gratitude and concern for the pain you are inflicting as propriety requires, will present themselves unbidden to your mind, I am persuaded. You need not be prompted to write with the appearance of sorrow for his disappointment.”
“Oh no, no! The letter should definitely be all your own. I'm sure you’ll express yourself perfectly. There’s no risk of you being unclear, which is the most important thing. Your meaning has to be straightforward; no doubts or hesitations: and the necessary expressions of gratitude and concern for the pain you’re causing will come to your mind naturally, I’m convinced. You won’t need to be reminded to write with a sense of sorrow for his disappointment.”
“You think I ought to refuse him then,” said Harriet, looking down.
“You think I should turn him down then,” said Harriet, looking down.
“Ought to refuse him! My dear Harriet, what do you mean? Are you in any doubt as to that? I thought—but I beg your pardon, perhaps I have been under a mistake. I certainly have been misunderstanding you, if you feel in doubt as to the purport of your answer. I had imagined you were consulting me only as to the wording of it.”
“Ought to refuse him! My dear Harriet, what do you mean? Are you uncertain about that? I thought—but I apologize, maybe I was mistaken. I must have misunderstood you if you’re unsure about the meaning of your answer. I assumed you were just asking for my thoughts on how to phrase it.”
Harriet was silent. With a little reserve of manner, Emma continued:
Harriet was quiet. With a bit of restraint, Emma carried on:
“You mean to return a favourable answer, I collect.”
"You mean to give a positive answer, I gather."
“No, I do not; that is, I do not mean—What shall I do? What would you advise me to do? Pray, dear Miss Woodhouse, tell me what I ought to do.”
“No, I don't; that is, I don't mean—What should I do? What would you suggest I do? Please, dear Miss Woodhouse, tell me what I should do.”
“I shall not give you any advice, Harriet. I will have nothing to do with it. This is a point which you must settle with your feelings.”
"I won’t give you any advice, Harriet. I don’t want to be involved. This is something you need to figure out with your emotions."
“I had no notion that he liked me so very much,” said Harriet, contemplating the letter. For a little while Emma persevered in her silence; but beginning to apprehend the bewitching flattery of that letter might be too powerful, she thought it best to say,
“I had no idea he liked me so much,” said Harriet, looking at the letter. For a moment, Emma stayed quiet; but as she started to realize that the charming flattery in that letter could be really persuasive, she figured it was better to say,
“I lay it down as a general rule, Harriet, that if a woman doubts as to whether she should accept a man or not, she certainly ought to refuse him. If she can hesitate as to ‘Yes,’ she ought to say ‘No’ directly. It is not a state to be safely entered into with doubtful feelings, with half a heart. I thought it my duty as a friend, and older than yourself, to say thus much to you. But do not imagine that I want to influence you.”
“I'll put it this way, Harriet: if a woman is unsure about whether she should accept a man or not, she should definitely turn him down. If she can hesitate about saying ‘Yes,’ she should just say ‘No’ right away. It's not a situation you should enter into with any doubt or uncertainty. I felt it was my responsibility as a friend, and as someone older than you, to share this with you. But don’t think that I’m trying to influence you.”
“Oh! no, I am sure you are a great deal too kind to—but if you would just advise me what I had best do—No, no, I do not mean that—As you say, one’s mind ought to be quite made up—One should not be hesitating—It is a very serious thing.—It will be safer to say ‘No,’ perhaps.—Do you think I had better say ‘No?’”
“Oh! No, I’m sure you’re way too kind to—but if you could just tell me what I should do—No, that's not what I mean—As you said, one should be completely sure—There shouldn’t be any hesitation—It's a very serious matter.—It might be safer to just say ‘No.’ Do you think I should say ‘No?’”
“Not for the world,” said Emma, smiling graciously, “would I advise you either way. You must be the best judge of your own happiness. If you prefer Mr. Martin to every other person; if you think him the most agreeable man you have ever been in company with, why should you hesitate? You blush, Harriet.—Does any body else occur to you at this moment under such a definition? Harriet, Harriet, do not deceive yourself; do not be run away with by gratitude and compassion. At this moment whom are you thinking of?”
“Not for anything,” said Emma, smiling warmly, “would I tell you what to do. You need to be the best judge of your own happiness. If you like Mr. Martin more than anyone else; if you think he’s the most pleasant person you’ve ever been around, why would you hesitate? You’re blushing, Harriet.—Is there anyone else on your mind right now who fits that description? Harriet, Harriet, don’t trick yourself; don’t let gratitude and compassion cloud your judgment. Who are you thinking about at this moment?”
The symptoms were favourable.—Instead of answering, Harriet turned away confused, and stood thoughtfully by the fire; and though the letter was still in her hand, it was now mechanically twisted about without regard. Emma waited the result with impatience, but not without strong hopes. At last, with some hesitation, Harriet said—
The symptoms were promising. Instead of responding, Harriet turned away, confused, and stood lost in thought by the fire. Although she still held the letter, she was now just fiddling with it absentmindedly. Emma watched anxiously but remained hopeful. Finally, after a moment of hesitance, Harriet said—
“Miss Woodhouse, as you will not give me your opinion, I must do as well as I can by myself; and I have now quite determined, and really almost made up my mind—to refuse Mr. Martin. Do you think I am right?”
“Miss Woodhouse, since you won't share your thoughts, I have to figure this out on my own; and I've now pretty much decided—to turn down Mr. Martin. Do you think I'm making the right choice?”
“Perfectly, perfectly right, my dearest Harriet; you are doing just what you ought. While you were at all in suspense I kept my feelings to myself, but now that you are so completely decided I have no hesitation in approving. Dear Harriet, I give myself joy of this. It would have grieved me to lose your acquaintance, which must have been the consequence of your marrying Mr. Martin. While you were in the smallest degree wavering, I said nothing about it, because I would not influence; but it would have been the loss of a friend to me. I could not have visited Mrs. Robert Martin, of Abbey-Mill Farm. Now I am secure of you for ever.”
"Absolutely, totally right, my dearest Harriet; you're doing exactly what you should. While you were still unsure, I kept my feelings to myself, but now that you're completely decided, I have no problem in giving my approval. Dear Harriet, I'm genuinely happy about this. I would have been really sad to lose your friendship, which would have happened if you had married Mr. Martin. While you were even slightly uncertain, I didn’t say anything about it because I didn’t want to sway your decision; but it would have meant losing a friend for me. I wouldn’t have been able to visit Mrs. Robert Martin at Abbey-Mill Farm. Now I know I have you in my life forever."
Harriet had not surmised her own danger, but the idea of it struck her forcibly.
Harriet hadn't realized her own danger, but the thought of it hit her hard.
“You could not have visited me!” she cried, looking aghast. “No, to be sure you could not; but I never thought of that before. That would have been too dreadful!—What an escape!—Dear Miss Woodhouse, I would not give up the pleasure and honour of being intimate with you for any thing in the world.”
“You couldn't have visited me!” she exclaimed, looking shocked. “No, of course you couldn't; but I never realized that before. That would have been too awful!—What a close call!—Dear Miss Woodhouse, I wouldn't trade the joy and privilege of being close to you for anything in the world.”
“Indeed, Harriet, it would have been a severe pang to lose you; but it must have been. You would have thrown yourself out of all good society. I must have given you up.”
“Honestly, Harriet, it would have been really painful to lose you; but it had to happen. You would have cut yourself off from all good company. I would have had to let you go.”
“Dear me!—How should I ever have borne it! It would have killed me never to come to Hartfield any more!”
“OMG! How would I have ever handled it? It would have crushed me to never visit Hartfield again!”
“Dear affectionate creature!—You banished to Abbey-Mill Farm!—You confined to the society of the illiterate and vulgar all your life! I wonder how the young man could have the assurance to ask it. He must have a pretty good opinion of himself.”
“Dear sweet creature!—You stuck at Abbey-Mill Farm!—You limited to being around the uneducated and crude your whole life! I can't believe that young man had the nerve to ask that. He must think pretty highly of himself.”
“I do not think he is conceited either, in general,” said Harriet, her conscience opposing such censure; “at least, he is very good natured, and I shall always feel much obliged to him, and have a great regard for—but that is quite a different thing from—and you know, though he may like me, it does not follow that I should—and certainly I must confess that since my visiting here I have seen people—and if one comes to compare them, person and manners, there is no comparison at all, one is so very handsome and agreeable. However, I do really think Mr. Martin a very amiable young man, and have a great opinion of him; and his being so much attached to me—and his writing such a letter—but as to leaving you, it is what I would not do upon any consideration.”
“I don’t think he’s conceited either, really,” said Harriet, her conscience resisting such criticism. “At least, he’s very good-natured, and I will always be grateful to him and hold him in high regard—but that’s a completely different matter from—and you know, just because he might like me, it doesn’t mean I should feel that way—and I must admit that since I’ve been visiting here, I’ve met people—and if you compare them, in terms of personality and manners, there’s no comparison at all, one is just so much more attractive and pleasant. However, I do genuinely think Mr. Martin is a really nice young man, and I have a great opinion of him; and his being so attached to me—and his writing such a letter—but as for leaving you, that’s something I would never consider.”
“Thank you, thank you, my own sweet little friend. We will not be parted. A woman is not to marry a man merely because she is asked, or because he is attached to her, and can write a tolerable letter.”
“Thank you, thank you, my dear little friend. We won’t be separated. A woman shouldn’t marry a man just because he asks her, or because he has feelings for her and can write a decent letter.”
“Oh no;—and it is but a short letter too.”
“Oh no;—and it’s just a short letter too.”
Emma felt the bad taste of her friend, but let it pass with a “very true; and it would be a small consolation to her, for the clownish manner which might be offending her every hour of the day, to know that her husband could write a good letter.”
Emma sensed her friend's poor taste but brushed it off with a "very true; and it would be little comfort to her, considering the goofy way he might annoy her all day, to know that her husband was capable of writing a good letter."
“Oh! yes, very. Nobody cares for a letter; the thing is, to be always happy with pleasant companions. I am quite determined to refuse him. But how shall I do? What shall I say?”
“Oh! yes, definitely. Nobody really values a letter; the important thing is to always be happy with good friends. I'm completely set on turning him down. But how will I do that? What should I say?”
Emma assured her there would be no difficulty in the answer, and advised its being written directly, which was agreed to, in the hope of her assistance; and though Emma continued to protest against any assistance being wanted, it was in fact given in the formation of every sentence. The looking over his letter again, in replying to it, had such a softening tendency, that it was particularly necessary to brace her up with a few decisive expressions; and she was so very much concerned at the idea of making him unhappy, and thought so much of what his mother and sisters would think and say, and was so anxious that they should not fancy her ungrateful, that Emma believed if the young man had come in her way at that moment, he would have been accepted after all.
Emma assured her that there would be no trouble in finding the answer and suggested writing it out directly, which they agreed to in hopes of her help. Although Emma kept insisting that no assistance was needed, it was actually provided in the crafting of every sentence. Revisiting his letter while replying to it had such a softening effect that it was especially important to bolster her resolve with a few firm phrases. She was extremely worried about the thought of making him unhappy, cared a lot about what his mother and sisters might think and say, and was very eager for them not to see her as ungrateful. Emma believed that if the young man had appeared before her at that moment, she might have accepted him after all.
This letter, however, was written, and sealed, and sent. The business was finished, and Harriet safe. She was rather low all the evening, but Emma could allow for her amiable regrets, and sometimes relieved them by speaking of her own affection, sometimes by bringing forward the idea of Mr. Elton.
This letter, however, was written, sealed, and sent. The matter was settled, and Harriet was safe. She felt a bit down all evening, but Emma understood her gentle sadness and sometimes lifted her spirits by talking about her own feelings, and at other times by mentioning Mr. Elton.
“I shall never be invited to Abbey-Mill again,” was said in rather a sorrowful tone.
“I’ll never be invited to Abbey-Mill again,” was said in a rather sad tone.
“Nor, if you were, could I ever bear to part with you, my Harriet. You are a great deal too necessary at Hartfield to be spared to Abbey-Mill.”
“Nor, if you were, could I ever stand to be away from you, my Harriet. You are far too important at Hartfield to be sent off to Abbey-Mill.”
“And I am sure I should never want to go there; for I am never happy but at Hartfield.”
“And I'm sure I would never want to go there because I'm only happy at Hartfield.”
Some time afterwards it was, “I think Mrs. Goddard would be very much surprized if she knew what had happened. I am sure Miss Nash would—for Miss Nash thinks her own sister very well married, and it is only a linen-draper.”
Some time later, it was, “I think Mrs. Goddard would be really surprised if she knew what happened. I'm sure Miss Nash would be—because Miss Nash believes her own sister is very well married, and it’s just a linen-draper.”
“One should be sorry to see greater pride or refinement in the teacher of a school, Harriet. I dare say Miss Nash would envy you such an opportunity as this of being married. Even this conquest would appear valuable in her eyes. As to any thing superior for you, I suppose she is quite in the dark. The attentions of a certain person can hardly be among the tittle-tattle of Highbury yet. Hitherto I fancy you and I are the only people to whom his looks and manners have explained themselves.”
“One should be surprised to see more pride or sophistication in the teacher of a school, Harriet. I bet Miss Nash would be envious of you for having the chance to get married. Even this achievement would seem impressive to her. As for anything better for you, I assume she has no clue. The attention from a certain person probably isn’t common gossip in Highbury yet. Up until now, I think you and I are the only ones who understand his looks and behavior.”
Harriet blushed and smiled, and said something about wondering that people should like her so much. The idea of Mr. Elton was certainly cheering; but still, after a time, she was tender-hearted again towards the rejected Mr. Martin.
Harriet blushed and smiled, saying she was surprised that people liked her so much. The thought of Mr. Elton was definitely uplifting; however, after a while, she felt compassion again for the rejected Mr. Martin.
“Now he has got my letter,” said she softly. “I wonder what they are all doing—whether his sisters know—if he is unhappy, they will be unhappy too. I hope he will not mind it so very much.”
“Now he has my letter,” she said softly. “I wonder what they’re all doing—if his sisters know—if he’s feeling unhappy, they’ll be unhappy too. I hope he doesn’t mind it too much.”
“Let us think of those among our absent friends who are more cheerfully employed,” cried Emma. “At this moment, perhaps, Mr. Elton is shewing your picture to his mother and sisters, telling how much more beautiful is the original, and after being asked for it five or six times, allowing them to hear your name, your own dear name.”
“Let’s think about our friends who aren’t here and are happily busy,” Emma exclaimed. “Right now, Mr. Elton might be showing your picture to his mom and sisters, telling them how much more beautiful the real deal is, and after being asked five or six times, finally letting them hear your name, your lovely name.”
“My picture!—But he has left my picture in Bond-street.”
“My picture!—But he left my picture on Bond Street.”
“Has he so!—Then I know nothing of Mr. Elton. No, my dear little modest Harriet, depend upon it the picture will not be in Bond-street till just before he mounts his horse to-morrow. It is his companion all this evening, his solace, his delight. It opens his designs to his family, it introduces you among them, it diffuses through the party those pleasantest feelings of our nature, eager curiosity and warm prepossession. How cheerful, how animated, how suspicious, how busy their imaginations all are!”
“Really? Then I don’t know anything about Mr. Elton. No, my dear little modest Harriet, trust me, the painting won’t be in Bond Street until just before he gets on his horse tomorrow. It’s been with him all evening, his comfort, his joy. It reveals his plans to his family, it brings you into the mix, and it spreads those wonderful feelings of our nature throughout the group—eager curiosity and warm interest. How cheerful, how lively, how suspicious, how active their imaginations are!”
Harriet smiled again, and her smiles grew stronger.
Harriet smiled again, and her smiles became more radiant.
CHAPTER VIII
Harriet slept at Hartfield that night. For some weeks past she had been spending more than half her time there, and gradually getting to have a bed-room appropriated to herself; and Emma judged it best in every respect, safest and kindest, to keep her with them as much as possible just at present. She was obliged to go the next morning for an hour or two to Mrs. Goddard’s, but it was then to be settled that she should return to Hartfield, to make a regular visit of some days.
Harriet stayed at Hartfield that night. For the past few weeks, she had been spending more than half her time there and gradually getting her own bedroom. Emma thought it was best in every way—safest and kindest—to keep her with them as much as possible right now. She had to go to Mrs. Goddard’s for an hour or two the next morning, but it was then decided that she would come back to Hartfield for a proper visit of a few days.
While she was gone, Mr. Knightley called, and sat some time with Mr. Woodhouse and Emma, till Mr. Woodhouse, who had previously made up his mind to walk out, was persuaded by his daughter not to defer it, and was induced by the entreaties of both, though against the scruples of his own civility, to leave Mr. Knightley for that purpose. Mr. Knightley, who had nothing of ceremony about him, was offering by his short, decided answers, an amusing contrast to the protracted apologies and civil hesitations of the other.
While she was out, Mr. Knightley came over and spent some time with Mr. Woodhouse and Emma until Mr. Woodhouse, who had already decided to go for a walk, was convinced by his daughter not to put it off any longer. Despite his own reservations about being polite, he was persuaded by both of them to leave Mr. Knightley for that reason. Mr. Knightley, who was not one for formalities, provided a humorous contrast to the lengthy apologies and polite hesitations of the other.
“Well, I believe, if you will excuse me, Mr. Knightley, if you will not consider me as doing a very rude thing, I shall take Emma’s advice and go out for a quarter of an hour. As the sun is out, I believe I had better take my three turns while I can. I treat you without ceremony, Mr. Knightley. We invalids think we are privileged people.”
“Well, I think, if you don’t mind, Mr. Knightley, and if you won’t see it as rude, I’ll take Emma’s advice and step out for a little while. Since the sun is out, I believe I should take my three walks while I have the chance. I hope you don’t mind my informal approach, Mr. Knightley. We people dealing with health issues like to think we deserve a few privileges.”
“My dear sir, do not make a stranger of me.”
“My dear sir, please don’t treat me like a stranger.”
“I leave an excellent substitute in my daughter. Emma will be happy to entertain you. And therefore I think I will beg your excuse and take my three turns—my winter walk.”
“I have a great substitute in my daughter. Emma will be happy to keep you company. So, I think I’ll ask for your understanding and take my usual three turns—my winter walk.”
“You cannot do better, sir.”
"You can't do better, sir."
“I would ask for the pleasure of your company, Mr. Knightley, but I am a very slow walker, and my pace would be tedious to you; and, besides, you have another long walk before you, to Donwell Abbey.”
“I would love for you to join me, Mr. Knightley, but I walk really slowly, and my pace might bore you; plus, you have another long walk ahead to Donwell Abbey.”
“Thank you, sir, thank you; I am going this moment myself; and I think the sooner you go the better. I will fetch your greatcoat and open the garden door for you.”
“Thank you, sir, thank you; I’m heading out right now; and I think the sooner you leave, the better. I’ll grab your coat and unlock the garden door for you.”
Mr. Woodhouse at last was off; but Mr. Knightley, instead of being immediately off likewise, sat down again, seemingly inclined for more chat. He began speaking of Harriet, and speaking of her with more voluntary praise than Emma had ever heard before.
Mr. Woodhouse finally left; however, Mr. Knightley, instead of leaving right away, sat back down, appearing eager to continue the conversation. He started talking about Harriet, complimenting her more than Emma had ever heard him do before.
“I cannot rate her beauty as you do,” said he; “but she is a pretty little creature, and I am inclined to think very well of her disposition. Her character depends upon those she is with; but in good hands she will turn out a valuable woman.”
“I can't assess her beauty the way you do,” he said, “but she is a lovely little person, and I really think she has a great personality. Her character depends on the company she keeps; but in the right hands, she will become a wonderful woman.”
“I am glad you think so; and the good hands, I hope, may not be wanting.”
“I’m glad you feel that way; and I hope the good help won’t be missing.”
“Come,” said he, “you are anxious for a compliment, so I will tell you that you have improved her. You have cured her of her school-girl’s giggle; she really does you credit.”
“Come on,” he said, “you’re eager for a compliment, so I’ll tell you that you’ve made her better. You’ve helped her get rid of that school-girl giggle; she truly reflects well on you.”
“Thank you. I should be mortified indeed if I did not believe I had been of some use; but it is not every body who will bestow praise where they may. You do not often overpower me with it.”
“Thank you. I would be really embarrassed if I didn't think I had been of some help; but not everyone gives praise when they should. You don’t usually overwhelm me with it.”
“You are expecting her again, you say, this morning?”
“You’re expecting her again, you say, this morning?”
“Almost every moment. She has been gone longer already than she intended.”
“Almost every moment. She’s been gone longer than she planned.”
“Something has happened to delay her; some visitors perhaps.”
"Something must have come up to hold her up; maybe some guests."
“Highbury gossips!—Tiresome wretches!”
"Highbury gossip!—Annoying people!"
“Harriet may not consider every body tiresome that you would.”
“Harriet might not find everyone as annoying as you do.”
Emma knew this was too true for contradiction, and therefore said nothing. He presently added, with a smile,
Emma knew this was undeniably true, so she said nothing. He then added, with a smile,
“I do not pretend to fix on times or places, but I must tell you that I have good reason to believe your little friend will soon hear of something to her advantage.”
"I’m not trying to pinpoint exact times or places, but I have a strong feeling that your little friend will soon hear about something beneficial for her."
“Indeed! how so? of what sort?”
“Definitely! How? What kind?”
“A very serious sort, I assure you;” still smiling.
“A very serious person, I assure you;” still smiling.
“Very serious! I can think of but one thing—Who is in love with her? Who makes you their confidant?”
“Seriously! I can only think of one thing—Who loves her? Who trusts you with their secrets?”
Emma was more than half in hopes of Mr. Elton’s having dropt a hint. Mr. Knightley was a sort of general friend and adviser, and she knew Mr. Elton looked up to him.
Emma was more than halfway convinced that Mr. Elton had dropped a hint. Mr. Knightley was a kind of general friend and advisor, and she knew Mr. Elton respected him.
“I have reason to think,” he replied, “that Harriet Smith will soon have an offer of marriage, and from a most unexceptionable quarter:—Robert Martin is the man. Her visit to Abbey-Mill, this summer, seems to have done his business. He is desperately in love and means to marry her.”
“I have a good feeling,” he said, “that Harriet Smith will soon get a marriage proposal, and from a really solid guy: Robert Martin is the one. Her visit to Abbey-Mill this summer seems to have sealed the deal for him. He’s head over heels in love and plans to marry her.”
“He is very obliging,” said Emma; “but is he sure that Harriet means to marry him?”
“He's really helpful,” Emma said, “but is he certain that Harriet actually plans to marry him?”
“Well, well, means to make her an offer then. Will that do? He came to the Abbey two evenings ago, on purpose to consult me about it. He knows I have a thorough regard for him and all his family, and, I believe, considers me as one of his best friends. He came to ask me whether I thought it would be imprudent in him to settle so early; whether I thought her too young: in short, whether I approved his choice altogether; having some apprehension perhaps of her being considered (especially since your making so much of her) as in a line of society above him. I was very much pleased with all that he said. I never hear better sense from any one than Robert Martin. He always speaks to the purpose; open, straightforward, and very well judging. He told me every thing; his circumstances and plans, and what they all proposed doing in the event of his marriage. He is an excellent young man, both as son and brother. I had no hesitation in advising him to marry. He proved to me that he could afford it; and that being the case, I was convinced he could not do better. I praised the fair lady too, and altogether sent him away very happy. If he had never esteemed my opinion before, he would have thought highly of me then; and, I dare say, left the house thinking me the best friend and counsellor man ever had. This happened the night before last. Now, as we may fairly suppose, he would not allow much time to pass before he spoke to the lady, and as he does not appear to have spoken yesterday, it is not unlikely that he should be at Mrs. Goddard’s to-day; and she may be detained by a visitor, without thinking him at all a tiresome wretch.”
“Well, well, I guess that means he wants to make her an offer. Will that work? He came to the Abbey two evenings ago to talk to me about it. He knows I care a lot about him and his family, and I believe he considers me one of his best friends. He asked me whether I thought it would be a bad idea for him to settle down so early, whether I thought she was too young, and whether I approved of his choice overall. He seemed a bit worried that she might be seen as being from a higher social standing, especially since you’ve been making such a fuss over her. I was really pleased with everything he said. I’ve never heard anyone make more sense than Robert Martin. He’s always straightforward, clear, and has good judgment. He shared everything with me—his situation, his plans, and what they all intended to do if he got married. He’s an excellent young man, both as a son and a brother. I had no doubts in advising him to marry. He showed me that he could afford it, and since that was the case, I was convinced he couldn’t do better. I also praised the lovely lady, and overall, I sent him away feeling very happy. If he hadn’t valued my opinion before, he definitely did then; I’m sure he left thinking I was the best friend and advisor anyone could have. This was the night before last. Now, it’s reasonable to think he wouldn’t let much time pass before talking to the lady, and since it seems he didn’t speak to her yesterday, it’s likely that he’s at Mrs. Goddard’s today. She could be busy with a visitor and not think of him as a bothersome guy at all.”
“Pray, Mr. Knightley,” said Emma, who had been smiling to herself through a great part of this speech, “how do you know that Mr. Martin did not speak yesterday?”
“Please, Mr. Knightley,” Emma said, smiling to herself for much of this conversation, “how do you know that Mr. Martin didn’t speak yesterday?”
“Certainly,” replied he, surprized, “I do not absolutely know it; but it may be inferred. Was not she the whole day with you?”
“Of course,” he replied, surprised. “I don’t know for sure, but it can be inferred. Wasn’t she with you all day?”
“Come,” said she, “I will tell you something, in return for what you have told me. He did speak yesterday—that is, he wrote, and was refused.”
“Come,” she said, “I’ll tell you something in exchange for what you’ve told me. He did speak yesterday—that is, he wrote and was turned down.”
This was obliged to be repeated before it could be believed; and Mr. Knightley actually looked red with surprize and displeasure, as he stood up, in tall indignation, and said,
This had to be repeated before anyone could believe it; and Mr. Knightley actually looked flushed with surprise and annoyance as he stood up, in tall indignation, and said,
“Then she is a greater simpleton than I ever believed her. What is the foolish girl about?”
“Then she is a bigger fool than I ever thought she was. What is that silly girl doing?”
“Oh! to be sure,” cried Emma, “it is always incomprehensible to a man that a woman should ever refuse an offer of marriage. A man always imagines a woman to be ready for any body who asks her.”
“Oh! for sure,” cried Emma, “it's always baffling to a guy that a woman would ever turn down a marriage proposal. A guy always thinks a woman is up for grabs for anyone who asks her.”
“Nonsense! a man does not imagine any such thing. But what is the meaning of this? Harriet Smith refuse Robert Martin? madness, if it is so; but I hope you are mistaken.”
“Nonsense! A guy doesn’t think like that. But what does this mean? Harriet Smith rejecting Robert Martin? That’s crazy if it’s true; but I hope you’re wrong.”
“I saw her answer!—nothing could be clearer.”
“I saw her answer!—nothing could be more obvious.”
“You saw her answer!—you wrote her answer too. Emma, this is your doing. You persuaded her to refuse him.”
“You saw her answer!—you wrote her answer too. Emma, this is your doing. You convinced her to turn him down.”
“And if I did, (which, however, I am far from allowing) I should not feel that I had done wrong. Mr. Martin is a very respectable young man, but I cannot admit him to be Harriet’s equal; and am rather surprized indeed that he should have ventured to address her. By your account, he does seem to have had some scruples. It is a pity that they were ever got over.”
“And if I did, (which I absolutely don’t) I wouldn’t feel like it was wrong. Mr. Martin is a decent young man, but I can’t see him as Harriet's equal; I’m actually quite surprised he even dared to approach her. From what you’ve said, it sounds like he had some doubts. It's a shame those doubts were ever overcome.”
“Not Harriet’s equal!” exclaimed Mr. Knightley loudly and warmly; and with calmer asperity, added, a few moments afterwards, “No, he is not her equal indeed, for he is as much her superior in sense as in situation. Emma, your infatuation about that girl blinds you. What are Harriet Smith’s claims, either of birth, nature or education, to any connexion higher than Robert Martin? She is the natural daughter of nobody knows whom, with probably no settled provision at all, and certainly no respectable relations. She is known only as parlour-boarder at a common school. She is not a sensible girl, nor a girl of any information. She has been taught nothing useful, and is too young and too simple to have acquired any thing herself. At her age she can have no experience, and with her little wit, is not very likely ever to have any that can avail her. She is pretty, and she is good tempered, and that is all. My only scruple in advising the match was on his account, as being beneath his deserts, and a bad connexion for him. I felt that, as to fortune, in all probability he might do much better; and that as to a rational companion or useful helpmate, he could not do worse. But I could not reason so to a man in love, and was willing to trust to there being no harm in her, to her having that sort of disposition, which, in good hands, like his, might be easily led aright and turn out very well. The advantage of the match I felt to be all on her side; and had not the smallest doubt (nor have I now) that there would be a general cry-out upon her extreme good luck. Even your satisfaction I made sure of. It crossed my mind immediately that you would not regret your friend’s leaving Highbury, for the sake of her being settled so well. I remember saying to myself, ‘Even Emma, with all her partiality for Harriet, will think this a good match.’”
“Not Harriet’s equal!” Mr. Knightley exclaimed loudly and passionately; then, with a calmer edge to his voice, he added a few moments later, “No, he is not her equal at all. He is superior to her both in intelligence and status. Emma, your obsession with that girl is blinding you. What are Harriet Smith’s qualifications—whether in terms of background, character, or education—that justify any connection beyond Robert Martin? She is the illegitimate daughter of someone unknown, probably with no stable means of support and certainly no respectable relatives. She is only known as a boarder at an ordinary school. She isn’t a sensible girl, nor is she informed. She hasn’t learned anything useful and is too young and naive to have gained any knowledge on her own. At her age, she has no real experience, and with her limited wit, she’s unlikely to acquire any that would be of value to her. She’s pretty and has a pleasant demeanor, and that’s all there is to her. My only hesitation in advising the match was for his sake, believing she is below what he deserves and a poor match for him. I felt that, in terms of wealth, he could likely do much better, and that as a rational companion or helpful partner, he couldn’t do worse. But I couldn’t express that to a man in love, so I was willing to trust that she meant no harm, that she had the kind of disposition which, in the right hands like his, could be easily guided and turn out well. I believed the match would benefit her entirely, and I had no doubt (nor do I now) that there would be a widespread reaction to her incredible luck. I even knew you would be satisfied. It immediately occurred to me that you wouldn’t regret your friend leaving Highbury for the sake of her finding such a good match. I remember thinking, ‘Even Emma, with all her bias towards Harriet, will consider this a good match.’”
“I cannot help wondering at your knowing so little of Emma as to say any such thing. What! think a farmer, (and with all his sense and all his merit Mr. Martin is nothing more,) a good match for my intimate friend! Not regret her leaving Highbury for the sake of marrying a man whom I could never admit as an acquaintance of my own! I wonder you should think it possible for me to have such feelings. I assure you mine are very different. I must think your statement by no means fair. You are not just to Harriet’s claims. They would be estimated very differently by others as well as myself; Mr. Martin may be the richest of the two, but he is undoubtedly her inferior as to rank in society.—The sphere in which she moves is much above his.—It would be a degradation.”
“I can’t believe you know so little about Emma to say something like that. What? Think a farmer, (and with all his sense, Mr. Martin is just that,) is a good match for my close friend? I wouldn’t regret her leaving Highbury to marry someone I could never consider a friend! I’m surprised you think it’s possible for me to feel that way. I assure you, my feelings are very different. I think your statement is quite unfair. You aren’t giving Harriet’s situation the respect it deserves. Others, including myself, would see it very differently; Mr. Martin may have more money, but he’s definitely beneath her in terms of social status. The world she moves in is far above his. It would be a step down for her.”
“A degradation to illegitimacy and ignorance, to be married to a respectable, intelligent gentleman-farmer!”
“A fall into illegitimacy and ignorance, to be married to a respectable, intelligent farmer!”
“As to the circumstances of her birth, though in a legal sense she may be called Nobody, it will not hold in common sense. She is not to pay for the offence of others, by being held below the level of those with whom she is brought up.—There can scarcely be a doubt that her father is a gentleman—and a gentleman of fortune.—Her allowance is very liberal; nothing has ever been grudged for her improvement or comfort.—That she is a gentleman’s daughter, is indubitable to me; that she associates with gentlemen’s daughters, no one, I apprehend, will deny.—She is superior to Mr. Robert Martin.”
“As for the circumstances of her birth, even though legally she might be considered Nobody, that doesn't make sense in real life. She shouldn’t have to suffer because of other people's mistakes by being held to a lower standard than those around her. There’s hardly any doubt that her father is a gentleman—a wealthy one, at that. Her allowance is quite generous; nothing has ever been skimped on for her education or comfort. It’s undeniable to me that she is a gentleman’s daughter, and I think everyone can agree that she socializes with other gentlemen’s daughters. She is better than Mr. Robert Martin.”
“Whoever might be her parents,” said Mr. Knightley, “whoever may have had the charge of her, it does not appear to have been any part of their plan to introduce her into what you would call good society. After receiving a very indifferent education she is left in Mrs. Goddard’s hands to shift as she can;—to move, in short, in Mrs. Goddard’s line, to have Mrs. Goddard’s acquaintance. Her friends evidently thought this good enough for her; and it was good enough. She desired nothing better herself. Till you chose to turn her into a friend, her mind had no distaste for her own set, nor any ambition beyond it. She was as happy as possible with the Martins in the summer. She had no sense of superiority then. If she has it now, you have given it. You have been no friend to Harriet Smith, Emma. Robert Martin would never have proceeded so far, if he had not felt persuaded of her not being disinclined to him. I know him well. He has too much real feeling to address any woman on the haphazard of selfish passion. And as to conceit, he is the farthest from it of any man I know. Depend upon it he had encouragement.”
“Whoever her parents are,” Mr. Knightley said, “and whoever has been looking after her, it doesn’t seem like it was their intention to introduce her to what you’d consider good society. After getting a pretty mediocre education, she’s left in Mrs. Goddard's care to manage as best as she can;—essentially to operate in Mrs. Goddard's social circle and have Mrs. Goddard’s acquaintances. Her friends clearly thought this was good enough for her; and it was good enough. She wasn’t seeking anything better herself. Until you decided to turn her into a friend, she had no issue with her own group, nor any ambitions beyond it. She was as happy as could be with the Martins in the summer. She had no sense of superiority then. If she has it now, you’ve caused it. You have not been a friend to Harriet Smith, Emma. Robert Martin wouldn’t have pursued her so far if he hadn’t been convinced that she wasn’t opposed to him. I know him well. He has too much genuine feeling to approach any woman out of mere selfish desire. And as for arrogance, he is the least arrogant man I know. Trust me, he had encouragement.”
It was most convenient to Emma not to make a direct reply to this assertion; she chose rather to take up her own line of the subject again.
It was easiest for Emma not to respond directly to this statement; she preferred to steer the conversation back to her own point.
“You are a very warm friend to Mr. Martin; but, as I said before, are unjust to Harriet. Harriet’s claims to marry well are not so contemptible as you represent them. She is not a clever girl, but she has better sense than you are aware of, and does not deserve to have her understanding spoken of so slightingly. Waiving that point, however, and supposing her to be, as you describe her, only pretty and good-natured, let me tell you, that in the degree she possesses them, they are not trivial recommendations to the world in general, for she is, in fact, a beautiful girl, and must be thought so by ninety-nine people out of an hundred; and till it appears that men are much more philosophic on the subject of beauty than they are generally supposed; till they do fall in love with well-informed minds instead of handsome faces, a girl, with such loveliness as Harriet, has a certainty of being admired and sought after, of having the power of chusing from among many, consequently a claim to be nice. Her good-nature, too, is not so very slight a claim, comprehending, as it does, real, thorough sweetness of temper and manner, a very humble opinion of herself, and a great readiness to be pleased with other people. I am very much mistaken if your sex in general would not think such beauty, and such temper, the highest claims a woman could possess.”
“You're a really good friend to Mr. Martin, but as I mentioned before, you're being unfair to Harriet. Harriet's chances of marrying well aren't as worthless as you make them out to be. She may not be very bright, but she has more sense than you realize, and she doesn't deserve to have her intelligence dismissed so easily. Setting that aside, even if we accept your description of her as just pretty and nice, let me remind you that, to the extent she has those qualities, they're not insignificant in the eyes of the world. She is, in fact, an attractive girl, and most people—ninety-nine out of a hundred—would recognize that. Until it becomes clear that men are a lot more philosophical about beauty than we generally think, and until they start falling for sharp minds over pretty faces, a girl as lovely as Harriet is bound to be admired and pursued, giving her the ability to be selective in her choices, which means she deserves to have options. Her good-natured personality is not a trivial asset either; it includes genuine kindness and a humble view of herself, along with a great willingness to appreciate others. I would be very surprised if men in general didn’t see such beauty and temperament as the highest qualities a woman could have.”
“Upon my word, Emma, to hear you abusing the reason you have, is almost enough to make me think so too. Better be without sense, than misapply it as you do.”
“Honestly, Emma, listening to you criticize the reason you have is almost enough to make me think the same way. It’s better to be without sense than to misuse it like you do.”
“To be sure!” cried she playfully. “I know that is the feeling of you all. I know that such a girl as Harriet is exactly what every man delights in—what at once bewitches his senses and satisfies his judgment. Oh! Harriet may pick and chuse. Were you, yourself, ever to marry, she is the very woman for you. And is she, at seventeen, just entering into life, just beginning to be known, to be wondered at because she does not accept the first offer she receives? No—pray let her have time to look about her.”
"Of course!" she said playfully. "I know that's how all of you feel. I know that a girl like Harriet is exactly what every man loves—someone who captivates his senses and satisfies his judgment. Oh! Harriet can choose whoever she wants. If you ever decide to marry, she would be the perfect woman for you. And is it surprising that at seventeen, just starting in life, just beginning to get noticed, she doesn't jump at the first offer she receives? No—please let her take her time to explore her options."
“I have always thought it a very foolish intimacy,” said Mr. Knightley presently, “though I have kept my thoughts to myself; but I now perceive that it will be a very unfortunate one for Harriet. You will puff her up with such ideas of her own beauty, and of what she has a claim to, that, in a little while, nobody within her reach will be good enough for her. Vanity working on a weak head, produces every sort of mischief. Nothing so easy as for a young lady to raise her expectations too high. Miss Harriet Smith may not find offers of marriage flow in so fast, though she is a very pretty girl. Men of sense, whatever you may chuse to say, do not want silly wives. Men of family would not be very fond of connecting themselves with a girl of such obscurity—and most prudent men would be afraid of the inconvenience and disgrace they might be involved in, when the mystery of her parentage came to be revealed. Let her marry Robert Martin, and she is safe, respectable, and happy for ever; but if you encourage her to expect to marry greatly, and teach her to be satisfied with nothing less than a man of consequence and large fortune, she may be a parlour-boarder at Mrs. Goddard’s all the rest of her life—or, at least, (for Harriet Smith is a girl who will marry somebody or other,) till she grow desperate, and is glad to catch at the old writing-master’s son.”
“I’ve always thought this closeness was pretty foolish,” Mr. Knightley said after a moment, “though I’ve kept my opinions to myself; but now I see it’s going to be really unfortunate for Harriet. You’ll fill her head with all these ideas about her own beauty and what she deserves, and soon enough, no one she meets will seem good enough for her. Vanity mixed with a weak mind leads to all sorts of trouble. It’s so easy for a young woman to raise her expectations too high. Miss Harriet Smith might not get marriage proposals as quickly as she thinks, even though she’s quite pretty. Smart men, no matter what you say, don’t want silly wives. Men with status wouldn’t be excited about marrying someone so unknown—and most sensible men would worry about the trouble and embarrassment that might come if her parentage was revealed. If she marries Robert Martin, she’ll be safe, respected, and happy for life; but if you encourage her to aim for a big marriage and teach her to settle for nothing less than a man of importance and wealth, she might end up boarding at Mrs. Goddard’s for the rest of her days—or, at least, (because Harriet Smith will eventually marry someone) until she gets desperate and is happy to settle for the old writing-master’s son.”
“We think so very differently on this point, Mr. Knightley, that there can be no use in canvassing it. We shall only be making each other more angry. But as to my letting her marry Robert Martin, it is impossible; she has refused him, and so decidedly, I think, as must prevent any second application. She must abide by the evil of having refused him, whatever it may be; and as to the refusal itself, I will not pretend to say that I might not influence her a little; but I assure you there was very little for me or for any body to do. His appearance is so much against him, and his manner so bad, that if she ever were disposed to favour him, she is not now. I can imagine, that before she had seen any body superior, she might tolerate him. He was the brother of her friends, and he took pains to please her; and altogether, having seen nobody better (that must have been his great assistant) she might not, while she was at Abbey-Mill, find him disagreeable. But the case is altered now. She knows now what gentlemen are; and nothing but a gentleman in education and manner has any chance with Harriet.”
"We see this differently, Mr. Knightley, so there's really no point in discussing it. We'll just end up angrier with each other. As for me letting her marry Robert Martin, that's not happening; she's already turned him down, and so firmly that I don't think he can even ask again. She has to deal with the consequences of her refusal, whatever they may be. And as for the refusal itself, I won’t pretend that I didn't have some influence, but honestly, there wasn’t much I or anyone else could do. His looks work against him, and his attitude is poor, so even if she once had some feelings for him, she doesn’t anymore. I can imagine that before she met anyone better, she might have tolerated him. After all, he was friends with her friends, and he tried to win her over; and since she hadn’t seen anyone better (which surely helped him), she might not have found him unpleasant while at Abbey-Mill. But that’s changed now. She knows what gentlemen are like now, and only a gentleman in education and manner stands a chance with Harriet."
“Nonsense, errant nonsense, as ever was talked!” cried Mr. Knightley.—“Robert Martin’s manners have sense, sincerity, and good-humour to recommend them; and his mind has more true gentility than Harriet Smith could understand.”
"Nonsense, complete nonsense, as always!" exclaimed Mr. Knightley. "Robert Martin's manners show sense, sincerity, and good humor; and his character has more genuine gentility than Harriet Smith could ever grasp."
Emma made no answer, and tried to look cheerfully unconcerned, but was really feeling uncomfortable and wanting him very much to be gone. She did not repent what she had done; she still thought herself a better judge of such a point of female right and refinement than he could be; but yet she had a sort of habitual respect for his judgment in general, which made her dislike having it so loudly against her; and to have him sitting just opposite to her in angry state, was very disagreeable. Some minutes passed in this unpleasant silence, with only one attempt on Emma’s side to talk of the weather, but he made no answer. He was thinking. The result of his thoughts appeared at last in these words.
Emma didn’t say anything and tried to look casually indifferent, but deep down she felt uncomfortable and really wanted him to leave. She didn’t regret what she had done; she still believed she understood female rights and refinement better than he did. However, she had a certain habitual respect for his opinions in general, which made it hard for her to deal with the fact that he was so openly against her. Having him sitting directly across from her in an angry mood was quite unpleasant. A few minutes went by in this awkward silence, with only one attempt from Emma to chat about the weather, but he didn’t respond. He was lost in thought. Eventually, his thoughts came out in these words.
“Robert Martin has no great loss—if he can but think so; and I hope it will not be long before he does. Your views for Harriet are best known to yourself; but as you make no secret of your love of match-making, it is fair to suppose that views, and plans, and projects you have;—and as a friend I shall just hint to you that if Elton is the man, I think it will be all labour in vain.”
“Robert Martin has no major loss—if he can just realize it; and I hope it won’t take too long for him to do so. Your thoughts about Harriet are best known to you, but since you’re open about your passion for match-making, it’s reasonable to assume that you have your ideas, plans, and schemes;—and as a friend, I’ll just suggest to you that if Elton is the guy, I think it will all be a waste of effort.”
Emma laughed and disclaimed. He continued,
Emma laughed and denied it. He went on,
“Depend upon it, Elton will not do. Elton is a very good sort of man, and a very respectable vicar of Highbury, but not at all likely to make an imprudent match. He knows the value of a good income as well as any body. Elton may talk sentimentally, but he will act rationally. He is as well acquainted with his own claims, as you can be with Harriet’s. He knows that he is a very handsome young man, and a great favourite wherever he goes; and from his general way of talking in unreserved moments, when there are only men present, I am convinced that he does not mean to throw himself away. I have heard him speak with great animation of a large family of young ladies that his sisters are intimate with, who have all twenty thousand pounds apiece.”
“Trust me, Elton is not the right choice. Elton is a decent guy and a respectable vicar of Highbury, but he’s not someone who would make a risky match. He understands the importance of a good income just like anyone else. Elton might talk about feelings, but he’ll make practical decisions. He knows his own worth just as well as you know Harriet’s. He’s aware that he’s a very attractive young man and quite popular wherever he goes; and from how he talks openly when it’s just men around, I’m sure he doesn’t intend to settle for just anyone. I’ve heard him speak enthusiastically about a big group of young women his sisters are friends with, all of whom have twenty thousand pounds each.”
“I am very much obliged to you,” said Emma, laughing again. “If I had set my heart on Mr. Elton’s marrying Harriet, it would have been very kind to open my eyes; but at present I only want to keep Harriet to myself. I have done with match-making indeed. I could never hope to equal my own doings at Randalls. I shall leave off while I am well.”
“I really appreciate it,” Emma said, laughing again. “If I had been set on Mr. Elton marrying Harriet, it would have been nice of you to show me the truth; but right now, I just want to keep Harriet to myself. I’m done with trying to play matchmaker, honestly. I could never match what I did at Randalls. I think I’ll quit while I’m ahead.”
“Good morning to you,”—said he, rising and walking off abruptly. He was very much vexed. He felt the disappointment of the young man, and was mortified to have been the means of promoting it, by the sanction he had given; and the part which he was persuaded Emma had taken in the affair, was provoking him exceedingly.
“Good morning to you,” he said, getting up and walking away suddenly. He was really upset. He could feel the young man’s disappointment and felt embarrassed to have contributed to it by giving his approval; the role he was sure Emma played in the situation was annoying him a lot.
Emma remained in a state of vexation too; but there was more indistinctness in the causes of her’s, than in his. She did not always feel so absolutely satisfied with herself, so entirely convinced that her opinions were right and her adversary’s wrong, as Mr. Knightley. He walked off in more complete self-approbation than he left for her. She was not so materially cast down, however, but that a little time and the return of Harriet were very adequate restoratives. Harriet’s staying away so long was beginning to make her uneasy. The possibility of the young man’s coming to Mrs. Goddard’s that morning, and meeting with Harriet and pleading his own cause, gave alarming ideas. The dread of such a failure after all became the prominent uneasiness; and when Harriet appeared, and in very good spirits, and without having any such reason to give for her long absence, she felt a satisfaction which settled her with her own mind, and convinced her, that let Mr. Knightley think or say what he would, she had done nothing which woman’s friendship and woman’s feelings would not justify.
Emma was also very upset, but her reasons were less clear than his. She didn’t always feel completely confident in herself or as sure that her opinions were right while her opponent’s were wrong, like Mr. Knightley did. He left feeling much better about himself than she did. However, she wasn’t too downcast; a little time and Harriet’s return were enough to lift her spirits. Harriet’s long absence was starting to make her anxious. The thought of the young man possibly coming to Mrs. Goddard’s that morning, meeting Harriet, and trying to win her over brought on some unsettling thoughts. The fear of such a setback became her main concern; but when Harriet showed up, in great spirits and without any explanation for her long absence, Emma felt a relief that put her mind at ease, convincing her that no matter what Mr. Knightley thought or said, she hadn’t done anything that wouldn’t be justified by female friendship and feelings.
He had frightened her a little about Mr. Elton; but when she considered that Mr. Knightley could not have observed him as she had done, neither with the interest, nor (she must be allowed to tell herself, in spite of Mr. Knightley’s pretensions) with the skill of such an observer on such a question as herself, that he had spoken it hastily and in anger, she was able to believe, that he had rather said what he wished resentfully to be true, than what he knew any thing about. He certainly might have heard Mr. Elton speak with more unreserve than she had ever done, and Mr. Elton might not be of an imprudent, inconsiderate disposition as to money matters; he might naturally be rather attentive than otherwise to them; but then, Mr. Knightley did not make due allowance for the influence of a strong passion at war with all interested motives. Mr. Knightley saw no such passion, and of course thought nothing of its effects; but she saw too much of it to feel a doubt of its overcoming any hesitations that a reasonable prudence might originally suggest; and more than a reasonable, becoming degree of prudence, she was very sure did not belong to Mr. Elton.
He had scared her a bit about Mr. Elton; but when she thought about it, she realized that Mr. Knightley couldn't have observed Mr. Elton the way she had, neither with the same interest nor, she had to admit, with the same keen observation on a matter as personal as herself. He had spoken out of frustration and anger, and she could believe that he was more expressing what he wished were true out of resentment than stating what he actually knew. He might have heard Mr. Elton speak more openly than she ever had, and Mr. Elton might not be careless or thoughtless when it came to money; he might be naturally more cautious about those things. But Mr. Knightley didn't consider the impact of a strong passion clashing with any selfish motives. Mr. Knightley didn’t see that passion at all, so he didn’t think about how it could influence things; but she certainly saw enough of it to feel confident it would override any hesitations that common sense might suggest. And she was sure that Mr. Elton didn't possess a level of caution that was appropriate or reasonable.
Harriet’s cheerful look and manner established hers: she came back, not to think of Mr. Martin, but to talk of Mr. Elton. Miss Nash had been telling her something, which she repeated immediately with great delight. Mr. Perry had been to Mrs. Goddard’s to attend a sick child, and Miss Nash had seen him, and he had told Miss Nash, that as he was coming back yesterday from Clayton Park, he had met Mr. Elton, and found to his great surprize, that Mr. Elton was actually on his road to London, and not meaning to return till the morrow, though it was the whist-club night, which he had been never known to miss before; and Mr. Perry had remonstrated with him about it, and told him how shabby it was in him, their best player, to absent himself, and tried very much to persuade him to put off his journey only one day; but it would not do; Mr. Elton had been determined to go on, and had said in a very particular way indeed, that he was going on business which he would not put off for any inducement in the world; and something about a very enviable commission, and being the bearer of something exceedingly precious. Mr. Perry could not quite understand him, but he was very sure there must be a lady in the case, and he told him so; and Mr. Elton only looked very conscious and smiling, and rode off in great spirits. Miss Nash had told her all this, and had talked a great deal more about Mr. Elton; and said, looking so very significantly at her, “that she did not pretend to understand what his business might be, but she only knew that any woman whom Mr. Elton could prefer, she should think the luckiest woman in the world; for, beyond a doubt, Mr. Elton had not his equal for beauty or agreeableness.”
Harriet’s cheerful demeanor made her presence known: she returned not to think about Mr. Martin, but to discuss Mr. Elton. Miss Nash had shared some news with her, which she immediately repeated, clearly delighted. Mr. Perry had visited Mrs. Goddard to see a sick child, and Miss Nash had encountered him. He told her that on his way back yesterday from Clayton Park, he had run into Mr. Elton, and to his surprise, Mr. Elton was actually heading to London and wouldn’t be back until tomorrow, even though it was whist-club night, which he had never missed before. Mr. Perry had confronted him about it and pointed out how inconsiderate it was for their best player to skip, trying hard to persuade him to delay his trip by just a day. But it didn’t work; Mr. Elton was determined to go and said in a very specific way that he had business he wouldn’t postpone for any reason. He mentioned something about a very enviable assignment and carrying something extremely valuable. Mr. Perry didn’t fully grasp it, but he was sure there had to be a lady involved, and he told Mr. Elton so. Mr. Elton just smiled knowingly and rode off in high spirits. Miss Nash relayed all this to her, talking a lot more about Mr. Elton, and said, looking at her meaningfully, “I can’t pretend to understand what his business might be, but I know that any woman Mr. Elton chooses would be the luckiest woman in the world, because without a doubt, he has no equal when it comes to looks or charm.”
CHAPTER IX
Mr. Knightley might quarrel with her, but Emma could not quarrel with herself. He was so much displeased, that it was longer than usual before he came to Hartfield again; and when they did meet, his grave looks shewed that she was not forgiven. She was sorry, but could not repent. On the contrary, her plans and proceedings were more and more justified and endeared to her by the general appearances of the next few days.
Mr. Knightley might have issues with her, but Emma couldn't have issues with herself. He was so annoyed that it took him longer than usual to come back to Hartfield; and when they finally saw each other, his serious expression showed that she wasn't forgiven. She felt bad, but she couldn't take it back. On the contrary, her plans and actions were increasingly justified and grew dearer to her because of how things looked in the days that followed.
The Picture, elegantly framed, came safely to hand soon after Mr. Elton’s return, and being hung over the mantelpiece of the common sitting-room, he got up to look at it, and sighed out his half sentences of admiration just as he ought; and as for Harriet’s feelings, they were visibly forming themselves into as strong and steady an attachment as her youth and sort of mind admitted. Emma was soon perfectly satisfied of Mr. Martin’s being no otherwise remembered, than as he furnished a contrast with Mr. Elton, of the utmost advantage to the latter.
The Picture, beautifully framed, arrived safely soon after Mr. Elton returned, and after it was hung above the mantelpiece in the common sitting room, he got up to admire it, sighing out his half-hearted compliments just as he should. As for Harriet’s emotions, they were clearly developing into a strong and steady attachment, suitable for her age and personality. Emma quickly realized that Mr. Martin was only remembered as a contrast to Mr. Elton, which ultimately benefited the latter the most.
Her views of improving her little friend’s mind, by a great deal of useful reading and conversation, had never yet led to more than a few first chapters, and the intention of going on to-morrow. It was much easier to chat than to study; much pleasanter to let her imagination range and work at Harriet’s fortune, than to be labouring to enlarge her comprehension or exercise it on sober facts; and the only literary pursuit which engaged Harriet at present, the only mental provision she was making for the evening of life, was the collecting and transcribing all the riddles of every sort that she could meet with, into a thin quarto of hot-pressed paper, made up by her friend, and ornamented with ciphers and trophies.
Her ideas about improving her little friend's mind through lots of useful reading and conversation had never gone beyond a few first chapters and the plan to continue tomorrow. It was much easier to chat than to study; it felt way more enjoyable to let her imagination wander and ponder Harriet’s future than to work on expanding her understanding or engaging her with serious facts. The only literary activity that kept Harriet busy right now, the only mental preparation she was making for her later years, was collecting and copying all the riddles of every kind she could find into a thin quarto of high-quality paper, created by her friend and decorated with symbols and designs.
In this age of literature, such collections on a very grand scale are not uncommon. Miss Nash, head-teacher at Mrs. Goddard’s, had written out at least three hundred; and Harriet, who had taken the first hint of it from her, hoped, with Miss Woodhouse’s help, to get a great many more. Emma assisted with her invention, memory and taste; and as Harriet wrote a very pretty hand, it was likely to be an arrangement of the first order, in form as well as quantity.
In today’s literary world, large collections like these are fairly common. Miss Nash, the head teacher at Mrs. Goddard’s, had written out at least three hundred; and Harriet, who had first gotten the idea from her, hoped, with Miss Woodhouse’s help, to gather many more. Emma contributed with her creativity, memory, and taste; and since Harriet had very nice handwriting, it was sure to be a top-notch collection, both in style and in number.
Mr. Woodhouse was almost as much interested in the business as the girls, and tried very often to recollect something worth their putting in. “So many clever riddles as there used to be when he was young—he wondered he could not remember them! but he hoped he should in time.” And it always ended in “Kitty, a fair but frozen maid.”
Mr. Woodhouse was almost as interested in the activity as the girls were, and he often tried to think of something worth contributing. “There used to be so many clever riddles when he was young—he wondered why he couldn't remember them! But he hoped he would eventually.” And it always ended with “Kitty, a fair but frozen maid.”
His good friend Perry, too, whom he had spoken to on the subject, did not at present recollect any thing of the riddle kind; but he had desired Perry to be upon the watch, and as he went about so much, something, he thought, might come from that quarter.
His good friend Perry, whom he had discussed the topic with, also couldn't remember anything related to the riddle at the moment; however, he had asked Perry to keep an eye out, and since he was out and about so often, he thought something might come from that direction.
It was by no means his daughter’s wish that the intellects of Highbury in general should be put under requisition. Mr. Elton was the only one whose assistance she asked. He was invited to contribute any really good enigmas, charades, or conundrums that he might recollect; and she had the pleasure of seeing him most intently at work with his recollections; and at the same time, as she could perceive, most earnestly careful that nothing ungallant, nothing that did not breathe a compliment to the sex should pass his lips. They owed to him their two or three politest puzzles; and the joy and exultation with which at last he recalled, and rather sentimentally recited, that well-known charade,
It wasn't at all her daughter's desire for the minds of Highbury to be engaged. Mr. Elton was the only one she asked for help. She invited him to contribute any truly good riddles, charades, or puzzles he could remember; and she enjoyed watching him work hard to recall them. At the same time, she could see he was being very careful to ensure that nothing disrespectful, nothing that didn't compliment women, came out of his mouth. They were grateful to him for a few of their most polite puzzles; and the joy and excitement with which he finally remembered and somewhat sentimentally recited that well-known charade,
My first doth affliction denote,
Which my second is destin’d to feel
And my whole is the best antidote
That affliction to soften and heal.—
My first shows the pain,
Which my second is meant to feel.
And my whole is the best cure
To soften and heal that pain.—
made her quite sorry to acknowledge that they had transcribed it some pages ago already.
made her quite sorry to admit that they had already transcribed it a few pages back.
“Why will not you write one yourself for us, Mr. Elton?” said she; “that is the only security for its freshness; and nothing could be easier to you.”
“Why don’t you write one yourself for us, Mr. Elton?” she said; “that’s the only way to ensure it’s fresh, and it couldn’t be easier for you.”
“Oh no! he had never written, hardly ever, any thing of the kind in his life. The stupidest fellow! He was afraid not even Miss Woodhouse”—he stopt a moment—“or Miss Smith could inspire him.”
“Oh no! He had hardly ever written anything like that in his life. What a foolish guy! He was afraid that even Miss Woodhouse”—he paused for a moment—“or Miss Smith couldn't inspire him.”
The very next day however produced some proof of inspiration. He called for a few moments, just to leave a piece of paper on the table containing, as he said, a charade, which a friend of his had addressed to a young lady, the object of his admiration, but which, from his manner, Emma was immediately convinced must be his own.
The very next day, however, brought some evidence of inspiration. He stopped by for a few minutes just to leave a piece of paper on the table, which he claimed was a charade that a friend of his had written for a young woman he admired, but from his demeanor, Emma was instantly sure it was actually his.
“I do not offer it for Miss Smith’s collection,” said he. “Being my friend’s, I have no right to expose it in any degree to the public eye, but perhaps you may not dislike looking at it.”
“I’m not offering it for Miss Smith’s collection,” he said. “Since it belongs to my friend, I have no right to show it to the public at all, but maybe you wouldn’t mind taking a look at it.”
The speech was more to Emma than to Harriet, which Emma could understand. There was deep consciousness about him, and he found it easier to meet her eye than her friend’s. He was gone the next moment:—after another moment’s pause,
The speech meant more to Emma than to Harriet, and Emma understood that. He was very aware of his feelings, and he found it easier to look her in the eye than to look at her friend. He left in the next moment:—after another brief pause,
“Take it,” said Emma, smiling, and pushing the paper towards Harriet—“it is for you. Take your own.”
“Take it,” Emma said with a smile, sliding the paper toward Harriet. “It’s for you. Take what’s yours.”
But Harriet was in a tremor, and could not touch it; and Emma, never loth to be first, was obliged to examine it herself.
But Harriet was shaking and couldn't handle it; and Emma, always eager to take the lead, had to check it out herself.
To Miss——
To Ms.——
CHARADE.
CHARADES.
My first displays the wealth and pomp of kings,
Lords of the earth! their luxury and ease.
Another view of man, my second brings,
Behold him there, the monarch of the seas!
But ah! united, what reverse we have!
Man’s boasted power and freedom, all are flown;
Lord of the earth and sea, he bends a slave,
And woman, lovely woman, reigns alone.
Thy ready wit the word will soon supply,
May its approval beam in that soft eye!
My first shows the wealth and extravagance of kings,
Lords of the earth! their luxury and comfort.
Another perspective on man, my second offers,
Look at him there, the ruler of the seas!
But oh! together, what a downfall we face!
Man’s claimed power and freedom have all vanished;
Master of the earth and sea, he becomes a slave,
And woman, beautiful woman, reigns alone.
Your quick wit will soon provide the word,
May its approval shine in that soft eye!
She cast her eye over it, pondered, caught the meaning, read it through again to be quite certain, and quite mistress of the lines, and then passing it to Harriet, sat happily smiling, and saying to herself, while Harriet was puzzling over the paper in all the confusion of hope and dulness, “Very well, Mr. Elton, very well indeed. I have read worse charades. Courtship—a very good hint. I give you credit for it. This is feeling your way. This is saying very plainly—‘Pray, Miss Smith, give me leave to pay my addresses to you. Approve my charade and my intentions in the same glance.’
She looked it over, thought it through, understood the meaning, read it again to be completely sure and confident in the lines, and then passed it to Harriet, sitting happily with a smile, saying to herself while Harriet was trying to make sense of the paper amidst a mix of hope and confusion, “Very nice, Mr. Elton, very nice indeed. I’ve seen worse charades. Courtship—a great clue. I give you credit for that. This is you feeling your way. This is clearly saying—‘Please, Miss Smith, let me express my feelings for you. Approve of my charade and my intentions in one glance.’”
May its approval beam in that soft eye!
May its approval shine in that gentle eye!
Harriet exactly. Soft is the very word for her eye—of all epithets, the justest that could be given.
Harriet, definitely. "Soft" is the perfect word to describe her eye—it's the most accurate term that could be used.
Thy ready wit the word will soon supply.
Your quick wit will soon provide the words.
Humph—Harriet’s ready wit! All the better. A man must be very much in love, indeed, to describe her so. Ah! Mr. Knightley, I wish you had the benefit of this; I think this would convince you. For once in your life you would be obliged to own yourself mistaken. An excellent charade indeed! and very much to the purpose. Things must come to a crisis soon now.”
Humph—Harriet’s cleverness! That’s great. A man has to be really in love to describe her that way. Ah! Mr. Knightley, I wish you could see this; I think it would change your mind. For once in your life, you’d have to admit you were wrong. A brilliant charade indeed! and very relevant. Things have to come to a head soon now.
She was obliged to break off from these very pleasant observations, which were otherwise of a sort to run into great length, by the eagerness of Harriet’s wondering questions.
She had to stop these really nice thoughts, which could have gone on for a long time, because Harriet was eagerly asking her curious questions.
“What can it be, Miss Woodhouse?—what can it be? I have not an idea—I cannot guess it in the least. What can it possibly be? Do try to find it out, Miss Woodhouse. Do help me. I never saw any thing so hard. Is it kingdom? I wonder who the friend was—and who could be the young lady. Do you think it is a good one? Can it be woman?
“What could it be, Miss Woodhouse?—what could it be? I have no idea—I can't guess at all. What could it possibly be? Please try to figure it out, Miss Woodhouse. Please help me. I've never seen anything so difficult. Is it a kingdom? I wonder who the friend was—and who the young lady could be. Do you think it's a good one? Could it be a woman?
And woman, lovely woman, reigns alone.
And woman, beautiful woman, rules by herself.
Can it be Neptune?
Could it be Neptune?
Behold him there, the monarch of the seas!
Behold him there, the king of the seas!
Or a trident? or a mermaid? or a shark? Oh, no! shark is only one syllable. It must be very clever, or he would not have brought it. Oh! Miss Woodhouse, do you think we shall ever find it out?”
Or a trident? Or a mermaid? Or a shark? Oh, no! Shark is only one syllable. It must be very clever, or he wouldn't have brought it. Oh! Miss Woodhouse, do you think we'll ever figure it out?”
“Mermaids and sharks! Nonsense! My dear Harriet, what are you thinking of? Where would be the use of his bringing us a charade made by a friend upon a mermaid or a shark? Give me the paper and listen.
“Mermaids and sharks! Nonsense! My dear Harriet, what are you thinking? What would be the point of him bringing us a charade created by a friend about a mermaid or a shark? Hand me the paper and pay attention.”
For Miss ———, read Miss Smith.
For Miss ———, read Miss Smith.
My first displays the wealth and pomp of kings,
Lords of the earth! their luxury and ease.
My first shows the riches and grandeur of kings,
Lords of the earth! their luxury and comfort.
That is court.
That is court.
Another view of man, my second brings;
Behold him there, the monarch of the seas!
Another view of man, my second brings;
Look at him there, the king of the seas!
That is ship;—plain as it can be.—Now for the cream.
That is ship;—simple as that.—Now for the good stuff.
But ah! united, (courtship, you know,) what reverse we have!
Man’s boasted power and freedom, all are flown.
Lord of the earth and sea, he bends a slave,
And woman, lovely woman, reigns alone.
But oh! together, (courtship, you know,) what a turn of events we have!
Man’s claimed power and freedom are all gone.
The lord of the earth and sea becomes a slave,
And woman, beautiful woman, reigns alone.
A very proper compliment!—and then follows the application, which I think, my dear Harriet, you cannot find much difficulty in comprehending. Read it in comfort to yourself. There can be no doubt of its being written for you and to you.”
A very nice compliment!—and then comes the point, which I believe, my dear Harriet, you won't have much trouble understanding. Read it comfortably for yourself. There's no doubt that it's written for you and about you.
Harriet could not long resist so delightful a persuasion. She read the concluding lines, and was all flutter and happiness. She could not speak. But she was not wanted to speak. It was enough for her to feel. Emma spoke for her.
Harriet couldn't resist such a tempting offer for long. She read the final lines and felt a rush of joy and excitement. She was at a loss for words. But no one expected her to speak. It was enough for her to feel. Emma voiced what Harriet couldn't.
“There is so pointed, and so particular a meaning in this compliment,” said she, “that I cannot have a doubt as to Mr. Elton’s intentions. You are his object—and you will soon receive the completest proof of it. I thought it must be so. I thought I could not be so deceived; but now, it is clear; the state of his mind is as clear and decided, as my wishes on the subject have been ever since I knew you. Yes, Harriet, just so long have I been wanting the very circumstance to happen that has happened. I could never tell whether an attachment between you and Mr. Elton were most desirable or most natural. Its probability and its eligibility have really so equalled each other! I am very happy. I congratulate you, my dear Harriet, with all my heart. This is an attachment which a woman may well feel pride in creating. This is a connexion which offers nothing but good. It will give you every thing that you want—consideration, independence, a proper home—it will fix you in the centre of all your real friends, close to Hartfield and to me, and confirm our intimacy for ever. This, Harriet, is an alliance which can never raise a blush in either of us.”
“There's such a specific and clear meaning in this compliment,” she said, “that I can’t doubt Mr. Elton’s intentions. You are his focus—and you’ll soon get the clearest proof of it. I thought it had to be this way. I didn’t think I could be so misled; but now it’s obvious; his feelings are as clear and definite as my hopes have been ever since I met you. Yes, Harriet, I’ve wanted this very situation to happen for just as long. I could never decide if a connection between you and Mr. Elton was more desirable or more natural. The chances and the appeal of it have really matched each other! I’m really happy. I congratulate you, my dear Harriet, with all my heart. This is a relationship that a woman can take great pride in initiating. This is a connection that offers nothing but positives. It will give you everything you want—respect, independence, a proper home—it will place you at the heart of all your true friends, close to Hartfield and me, and strengthen our friendship forever. This, Harriet, is a partnership that will never make either of us blush.”
“Dear Miss Woodhouse!”—and “Dear Miss Woodhouse,” was all that Harriet, with many tender embraces could articulate at first; but when they did arrive at something more like conversation, it was sufficiently clear to her friend that she saw, felt, anticipated, and remembered just as she ought. Mr. Elton’s superiority had very ample acknowledgment.
“Dear Miss Woodhouse!”—and “Dear Miss Woodhouse,” was all that Harriet could manage to say at first, hugging her tightly. But when they finally moved on to a more complete conversation, it became clear to her friend that she was seeing, feeling, anticipating, and remembering exactly as she should. Mr. Elton’s superiority was thoroughly acknowledged.
“Whatever you say is always right,” cried Harriet, “and therefore I suppose, and believe, and hope it must be so; but otherwise I could not have imagined it. It is so much beyond any thing I deserve. Mr. Elton, who might marry any body! There cannot be two opinions about him. He is so very superior. Only think of those sweet verses—‘To Miss ———.’ Dear me, how clever!—Could it really be meant for me?”
“Anything you say is always right,” Harriet exclaimed, “so I guess, and believe, and hope it must be true; otherwise, I couldn’t have imagined it. It feels so far beyond anything I deserve. Mr. Elton, who could marry anyone! There’s no debate about him. He’s so much better than anyone else. Just think of those lovely verses—‘To Miss ———.’ Wow, how smart!—Could it actually be meant for me?”
“I cannot make a question, or listen to a question about that. It is a certainty. Receive it on my judgment. It is a sort of prologue to the play, a motto to the chapter; and will be soon followed by matter-of-fact prose.”
“I can’t ask a question or hear any questions about that. It’s a certainty. Trust my judgment on this. It’s like a prologue to the play, a motto for the chapter; and it will soon be followed by straightforward prose.”
“It is a sort of thing which nobody could have expected. I am sure, a month ago, I had no more idea myself!—The strangest things do take place!”
“It’s the kind of thing nobody could have predicted. I’m sure that a month ago, I had no clue myself!—The weirdest things really do happen!”
“When Miss Smiths and Mr. Eltons get acquainted—they do indeed—and really it is strange; it is out of the common course that what is so evidently, so palpably desirable—what courts the pre-arrangement of other people, should so immediately shape itself into the proper form. You and Mr. Elton are by situation called together; you belong to one another by every circumstance of your respective homes. Your marrying will be equal to the match at Randalls. There does seem to be a something in the air of Hartfield which gives love exactly the right direction, and sends it into the very channel where it ought to flow.
"When Miss Smith and Mr. Elton meet—they really do—and it's quite odd; it's not typical for something so obviously, so clearly desirable—something that seems to invite the arrangement of others—to align itself so perfectly. You and Mr. Elton are naturally brought together; everything about your families connects you. Your marriage would be just as suitable as the match at Randalls. There seems to be something about the atmosphere at Hartfield that guides love in just the right way, steering it toward the path it should take."
The course of true love never did run smooth—
The path of true love has never been easy—
A Hartfield edition of Shakespeare would have a long note on that passage.”
A Hartfield edition of Shakespeare would include a lengthy note on that passage.
“That Mr. Elton should really be in love with me,—me, of all people, who did not know him, to speak to him, at Michaelmas! And he, the very handsomest man that ever was, and a man that every body looks up to, quite like Mr. Knightley! His company so sought after, that every body says he need not eat a single meal by himself if he does not chuse it; that he has more invitations than there are days in the week. And so excellent in the Church! Miss Nash has put down all the texts he has ever preached from since he came to Highbury. Dear me! When I look back to the first time I saw him! How little did I think!—The two Abbots and I ran into the front room and peeped through the blind when we heard he was going by, and Miss Nash came and scolded us away, and staid to look through herself; however, she called me back presently, and let me look too, which was very good-natured. And how beautiful we thought he looked! He was arm-in-arm with Mr. Cole.”
“That Mr. Elton could actually be in love with me—me, of all people, who didn’t even know him enough to talk to him at Michaelmas! And he’s the most handsome man you've ever seen, someone everyone looks up to, just like Mr. Knightley! His company is so highly sought after that everyone says he doesn’t have to eat a single meal alone if he doesn’t want to; he has more invitations than there are days in the week. And he’s so impressive in the Church! Miss Nash has recorded all the sermons he’s preached since he arrived in Highbury. Oh my! When I think back to the first time I saw him! How little did I know! The two Abbots and I rushed into the front room and peeked through the blind when we heard he was passing by, and Miss Nash came and scolded us away, but she stayed to look for herself; however, she called me back shortly after and let me look too, which was really kind of her. And how gorgeous we thought he looked! He was walking arm-in-arm with Mr. Cole.”
“This is an alliance which, whoever—whatever your friends may be, must be agreeable to them, provided at least they have common sense; and we are not to be addressing our conduct to fools. If they are anxious to see you happily married, here is a man whose amiable character gives every assurance of it;—if they wish to have you settled in the same country and circle which they have chosen to place you in, here it will be accomplished; and if their only object is that you should, in the common phrase, be well married, here is the comfortable fortune, the respectable establishment, the rise in the world which must satisfy them.”
“This is an alliance that, no matter who your friends are, should be agreeable to them, at least if they have any common sense; we shouldn’t be trying to please fools. If they truly want to see you happily married, here’s a man whose pleasant character guarantees that;—if they want you to settle in the same country and social circle they’ve chosen for you, that will happen here; and if their only goal is for you to be, in simple terms, well married, here’s the solid fortune, the respectable establishment, and the chance for advancement in life that will satisfy them.”
“Yes, very true. How nicely you talk; I love to hear you. You understand every thing. You and Mr. Elton are one as clever as the other. This charade!—If I had studied a twelvemonth, I could never have made any thing like it.”
“Yes, that's absolutely true. You speak so well; I love listening to you. You understand everything. You and Mr. Elton are equally clever. This charade!—If I had studied for a whole year, I could never have come up with anything like it.”
“I thought he meant to try his skill, by his manner of declining it yesterday.”
“I thought he was trying to show off his skills by the way he refused it yesterday.”
“I do think it is, without exception, the best charade I ever read.”
“I really think it’s, without a doubt, the best charade I’ve ever read.”
“I never read one more to the purpose, certainly.”
“I definitely never read one that was more to the point.”
“It is as long again as almost all we have had before.”
“It is nearly twice as long as everything we've had so far.”
“I do not consider its length as particularly in its favour. Such things in general cannot be too short.”
“I don't think its length is really a positive feature. Generally speaking, things like this can never be too short.”
Harriet was too intent on the lines to hear. The most satisfactory comparisons were rising in her mind.
Harriet was too focused on the lines to notice. The best comparisons were forming in her mind.
“It is one thing,” said she, presently—her cheeks in a glow—“to have very good sense in a common way, like every body else, and if there is any thing to say, to sit down and write a letter, and say just what you must, in a short way; and another, to write verses and charades like this.”
“It’s one thing,” she said, her cheeks flushed, “to have common sense like everyone else, and if there’s something to say, to sit down and write a letter that gets straight to the point. It’s another thing entirely to write poems and riddles like this.”
Emma could not have desired a more spirited rejection of Mr. Martin’s prose.
Emma couldn't have wanted a more enthusiastic rejection of Mr. Martin's writing.
“Such sweet lines!” continued Harriet—“these two last!—But how shall I ever be able to return the paper, or say I have found it out?—Oh! Miss Woodhouse, what can we do about that?”
“Such sweet lines!” continued Harriet—“these last two! But how am I ever going to return the paper, or admit that I figured it out?—Oh! Miss Woodhouse, what can we do about that?”
“Leave it to me. You do nothing. He will be here this evening, I dare say, and then I will give it him back, and some nonsense or other will pass between us, and you shall not be committed.—Your soft eyes shall chuse their own time for beaming. Trust to me.”
“Leave it to me. You don’t have to do anything. He’ll be here this evening, I’m sure, and then I’ll give it back to him, and some silly conversation will happen between us, and you won’t be involved. Your gentle eyes can shine whenever they want. Just trust me.”
“Oh! Miss Woodhouse, what a pity that I must not write this beautiful charade into my book! I am sure I have not got one half so good.”
“Oh! Miss Woodhouse, what a shame that I can’t write this beautiful charade in my book! I’m sure I don’t have anything half as good.”
“Leave out the two last lines, and there is no reason why you should not write it into your book.”
“Remove the last two lines, and there's no reason you shouldn't include it in your book.”
“Oh! but those two lines are”—
“Oh! but those two lines are”—
—“The best of all. Granted;—for private enjoyment; and for private enjoyment keep them. They are not at all the less written you know, because you divide them. The couplet does not cease to be, nor does its meaning change. But take it away, and all appropriation ceases, and a very pretty gallant charade remains, fit for any collection. Depend upon it, he would not like to have his charade slighted, much better than his passion. A poet in love must be encouraged in both capacities, or neither. Give me the book, I will write it down, and then there can be no possible reflection on you.”
—“The best of all. Sure;—for private enjoyment; and for private enjoyment keep them. They’re not any less written, you know, just because you split them up. The couplet doesn’t stop existing, nor does its meaning change. But take it away, and all appropriation stops, and a very nice playful charade remains, perfect for any collection. You can count on it; he wouldn’t want his charade dismissed, much better than his feelings. A poet in love should be supported in both roles, or neither. Hand me the book, I’ll write it down, and then there can’t be any possible reflection on you.”
Harriet submitted, though her mind could hardly separate the parts, so as to feel quite sure that her friend were not writing down a declaration of love. It seemed too precious an offering for any degree of publicity.
Harriet agreed, although she could barely distinguish the details enough to be sure that her friend wasn’t actually writing a love confession. It felt like such a valuable gift to share with the world.
“I shall never let that book go out of my own hands,” said she.
“I'll never let that book out of my hands,” she said.
“Very well,” replied Emma; “a most natural feeling; and the longer it lasts, the better I shall be pleased. But here is my father coming: you will not object to my reading the charade to him. It will be giving him so much pleasure! He loves any thing of the sort, and especially any thing that pays woman a compliment. He has the tenderest spirit of gallantry towards us all!—You must let me read it to him.”
“Okay,” Emma replied. “That’s a totally natural feeling, and the longer it lasts, the happier I’ll be. But here comes my dad: you won’t mind if I read the charade to him, will you? It will make him so happy! He loves stuff like this, especially anything that compliments women. He has the kindest, most gallant spirit towards all of us! You have to let me read it to him.”
Harriet looked grave.
Harriet looked serious.
“My dear Harriet, you must not refine too much upon this charade.—You will betray your feelings improperly, if you are too conscious and too quick, and appear to affix more meaning, or even quite all the meaning which may be affixed to it. Do not be overpowered by such a little tribute of admiration. If he had been anxious for secrecy, he would not have left the paper while I was by; but he rather pushed it towards me than towards you. Do not let us be too solemn on the business. He has encouragement enough to proceed, without our sighing out our souls over this charade.”
“My dear Harriet, you shouldn’t think too much about this charade. If you become overly aware and too quick to react, you might end up revealing your feelings inappropriately, as if you’re giving it more importance—or even all the importance—than it actually deserves. Don’t let such a small token of admiration overwhelm you. If he really wanted to keep it a secret, he wouldn’t have left the paper out while I was around; instead, he actually pushed it toward me more than you. Let’s not take this too seriously. He has enough encouragement to move forward without us making a big deal out of this charade.”
“Oh! no—I hope I shall not be ridiculous about it. Do as you please.”
“Oh! no—I hope I won't look ridiculous about it. Do whatever you want.”
Mr. Woodhouse came in, and very soon led to the subject again, by the recurrence of his very frequent inquiry of “Well, my dears, how does your book go on?—Have you got any thing fresh?”
Mr. Woodhouse came in and quickly brought up the topic again by asking his usual question, “Well, my dears, how’s your book coming along? Do you have anything new?”
“Yes, papa; we have something to read you, something quite fresh. A piece of paper was found on the table this morning—(dropt, we suppose, by a fairy)—containing a very pretty charade, and we have just copied it in.”
“Yes, Dad; we have something to read to you, something brand new. A piece of paper was found on the table this morning—(dropped, we assume, by a fairy)—containing a really nice charade, and we just copied it in.”
She read it to him, just as he liked to have any thing read, slowly and distinctly, and two or three times over, with explanations of every part as she proceeded—and he was very much pleased, and, as she had foreseen, especially struck with the complimentary conclusion.
She read it to him, just as he preferred to have anything read, slowly and clearly, and two or three times, with explanations of every part as she went along—and he was very pleased, and, as she had anticipated, particularly impressed by the flattering conclusion.
“Aye, that’s very just, indeed, that’s very properly said. Very true. ‘Woman, lovely woman.’ It is such a pretty charade, my dear, that I can easily guess what fairy brought it.—Nobody could have written so prettily, but you, Emma.”
“Yeah, that’s totally right, that’s really well said. So true. ‘Woman, beautiful woman.’ It’s such a lovely act, my dear, that I can easily imagine which fairy created it.—No one could have written so beautifully except for you, Emma.”
Emma only nodded, and smiled.—After a little thinking, and a very tender sigh, he added,
Emma just nodded and smiled. After a moment of thought and a soft sigh, he added,
“Ah! it is no difficulty to see who you take after! Your dear mother was so clever at all those things! If I had but her memory! But I can remember nothing;—not even that particular riddle which you have heard me mention; I can only recollect the first stanza; and there are several.
“Ah! it’s easy to see who you resemble! Your wonderful mother was so talented at all those things! If only I had her memory! But I can’t remember anything—not even that specific riddle I’ve mentioned; I can only recall the first stanza, and there are a few.”
Kitty, a fair but frozen maid,
Kindled a flame I yet deplore,
The hood-wink’d boy I called to aid,
Though of his near approach afraid,
So fatal to my suit before.
Kitty, a beautiful but distant maid,
Sparked a flame I still regret,
I called the blind boy for help,
Even though I feared his presence,
So destructive to my hopes before.
And that is all that I can recollect of it—but it is very clever all the way through. But I think, my dear, you said you had got it.”
And that's all I can remember about it—but it's really clever all the way through. But I think, my dear, you said you had it.
“Yes, papa, it is written out in our second page. We copied it from the Elegant Extracts. It was Garrick’s, you know.”
“Yes, dad, it’s written out on our second page. We copied it from the Elegant Extracts. It was Garrick’s, you know.”
“Aye, very true.—I wish I could recollect more of it.
“Aye, very true.—I wish I could remember more of it.
Kitty, a fair but frozen maid.
Kitty, a pretty but reserved maid.
The name makes me think of poor Isabella; for she was very near being christened Catherine after her grandmama. I hope we shall have her here next week. Have you thought, my dear, where you shall put her—and what room there will be for the children?”
The name makes me think of poor Isabella because she was almost named Catherine after her grandma. I hope we can have her here next week. Have you thought about where you'll put her—and if there's enough room for the kids?”
“Oh! yes—she will have her own room, of course; the room she always has;—and there is the nursery for the children,—just as usual, you know. Why should there be any change?”
“Oh! yes—she will have her own room, of course; the room she always has;—and there’s the nursery for the kids,—just like usual, you know. Why should anything change?”
“I do not know, my dear—but it is so long since she was here!—not since last Easter, and then only for a few days.—Mr. John Knightley’s being a lawyer is very inconvenient.—Poor Isabella!—she is sadly taken away from us all!—and how sorry she will be when she comes, not to see Miss Taylor here!”
“I don’t know, my dear—but it’s been so long since she was here!—not since last Easter, and then only for a few days.—Mr. John Knightley being a lawyer is really inconvenient.—Poor Isabella!—she will be so upset when she comes and finds that Miss Taylor isn’t here!”
“She will not be surprized, papa, at least.”
“She won’t be surprised, dad, at least.”
“I do not know, my dear. I am sure I was very much surprized when I first heard she was going to be married.”
“I don’t know, my dear. I was really surprised when I first heard she was getting married.”
“We must ask Mr. and Mrs. Weston to dine with us, while Isabella is here.”
“We should invite Mr. and Mrs. Weston to dinner while Isabella is here.”
“Yes, my dear, if there is time.—But—(in a very depressed tone)—she is coming for only one week. There will not be time for any thing.”
“Yes, my dear, if there's time.—But—(in a very depressed tone)—she's only coming for one week. There won't be time for anything.”
“It is unfortunate that they cannot stay longer—but it seems a case of necessity. Mr. John Knightley must be in town again on the 28th, and we ought to be thankful, papa, that we are to have the whole of the time they can give to the country, that two or three days are not to be taken out for the Abbey. Mr. Knightley promises to give up his claim this Christmas—though you know it is longer since they were with him, than with us.”
“It’s unfortunate that they can’t stay longer—but it seems like a necessity. Mr. John Knightley has to be back in town on the 28th, and we should be grateful, Dad, that we’ll get all the time they can spend in the country, and that two or three days won’t be taken out for the Abbey. Mr. Knightley has promised to give up his claim this Christmas—though you know it's been longer since they were with him than with us.”
“It would be very hard, indeed, my dear, if poor Isabella were to be anywhere but at Hartfield.”
“It would be really difficult, my dear, if poor Isabella were anywhere other than Hartfield.”
Mr. Woodhouse could never allow for Mr. Knightley’s claims on his brother, or any body’s claims on Isabella, except his own. He sat musing a little while, and then said,
Mr. Woodhouse could never accept Mr. Knightley’s claims on his brother, or anyone’s claims on Isabella, except for his own. He sat thinking for a bit, and then said,
“But I do not see why poor Isabella should be obliged to go back so soon, though he does. I think, Emma, I shall try and persuade her to stay longer with us. She and the children might stay very well.”
“But I don’t understand why poor Isabella has to go back so soon, even if he does. I think, Emma, I’ll try to convince her to stay longer with us. She and the kids could stay just fine.”
“Ah! papa—that is what you never have been able to accomplish, and I do not think you ever will. Isabella cannot bear to stay behind her husband.”
“Ah! Dad—that’s something you’ve never been able to do, and I don’t think you ever will. Isabella can’t stand to be away from her husband.”
This was too true for contradiction. Unwelcome as it was, Mr. Woodhouse could only give a submissive sigh; and as Emma saw his spirits affected by the idea of his daughter’s attachment to her husband, she immediately led to such a branch of the subject as must raise them.
This was undeniably true. As unwelcome as it was, Mr. Woodhouse could only sigh in acceptance; and when Emma noticed that his mood was affected by the thought of his daughter being attached to her husband, she quickly steered the conversation toward a topic that would lift his spirits.
“Harriet must give us as much of her company as she can while my brother and sister are here. I am sure she will be pleased with the children. We are very proud of the children, are not we, papa? I wonder which she will think the handsomest, Henry or John?”
“Harriet should spend as much time with us as she can while my brother and sister are here. I’m sure she’ll enjoy the kids. We’re really proud of them, aren’t we, Dad? I wonder which one she’ll think is the most handsome, Henry or John?”
“Aye, I wonder which she will. Poor little dears, how glad they will be to come. They are very fond of being at Hartfield, Harriet.”
“Aye, I wonder which one she’ll choose. Those poor little dears, they’ll be so happy to come. They really love being at Hartfield, Harriet.”
“I dare say they are, sir. I am sure I do not know who is not.”
“I would say they are, sir. I'm certain I don't know anyone who isn't.”
“Henry is a fine boy, but John is very like his mama. Henry is the eldest, he was named after me, not after his father. John, the second, is named after his father. Some people are surprized, I believe, that the eldest was not, but Isabella would have him called Henry, which I thought very pretty of her. And he is a very clever boy, indeed. They are all remarkably clever; and they have so many pretty ways. They will come and stand by my chair, and say, ‘Grandpapa, can you give me a bit of string?’ and once Henry asked me for a knife, but I told him knives were only made for grandpapas. I think their father is too rough with them very often.”
“Henry is a great kid, but John really takes after his mom. Henry is the oldest; he was named after me, not his dad. John, the second one, is named after his father. Some people are surprised, I think, that the oldest wasn't, but Isabella wanted him to be called Henry, which I thought was really sweet of her. And he’s such a smart boy, for sure. They are all incredibly bright, and they have so many charming little habits. They come and stand by my chair and say, ‘Grandpapa, can you give me a piece of string?’ Once, Henry asked me for a knife, but I told him knives are only for grandpapas. I think their dad is too rough with them way too often.”
“He appears rough to you,” said Emma, “because you are so very gentle yourself; but if you could compare him with other papas, you would not think him rough. He wishes his boys to be active and hardy; and if they misbehave, can give them a sharp word now and then; but he is an affectionate father—certainly Mr. John Knightley is an affectionate father. The children are all fond of him.”
“He seems rough to you,” Emma said, “because you are so gentle yourself; but if you could compare him to other dads, you wouldn’t think he’s rough. He wants his boys to be active and tough, and if they misbehave, he can definitely give them a firm word now and then; but he’s a caring father—Mr. John Knightley is definitely a caring father. The kids all love him.”
“And then their uncle comes in, and tosses them up to the ceiling in a very frightful way!”
“And then their uncle comes in and throws them up to the ceiling in a very scary way!”
“But they like it, papa; there is nothing they like so much. It is such enjoyment to them, that if their uncle did not lay down the rule of their taking turns, whichever began would never give way to the other.”
“But they love it, dad; there’s nothing they enjoy more. It brings them so much joy that if their uncle didn’t insist on them taking turns, the one who started would never let the other have a chance.”
“Well, I cannot understand it.”
“Well, I don’t get it.”
“That is the case with us all, papa. One half of the world cannot understand the pleasures of the other.”
"That’s how it is for all of us, Dad. Half of the world can’t understand the joys of the other half."
Later in the morning, and just as the girls were going to separate in preparation for the regular four o’clock dinner, the hero of this inimitable charade walked in again. Harriet turned away; but Emma could receive him with the usual smile, and her quick eye soon discerned in his the consciousness of having made a push—of having thrown a die; and she imagined he was come to see how it might turn up. His ostensible reason, however, was to ask whether Mr. Woodhouse’s party could be made up in the evening without him, or whether he should be in the smallest degree necessary at Hartfield. If he were, every thing else must give way; but otherwise his friend Cole had been saying so much about his dining with him—had made such a point of it, that he had promised him conditionally to come.
Later that morning, just as the girls were getting ready to separate for the usual four o'clock dinner, the star of this unique charade walked in again. Harriet turned away, but Emma greeted him with her usual smile, and her sharp eye quickly picked up on the awareness in his that he had made a move—had taken a risk; she guessed he had come to see how it would play out. His stated reason, though, was to ask if Mr. Woodhouse’s gathering could go ahead in the evening without him or if he was at all essential at Hartfield. If he was, everything else would have to be put on hold; but otherwise, his friend Cole had been talking so much about him dining with him—had emphasized it so much—that he had conditionally promised to go.
Emma thanked him, but could not allow of his disappointing his friend on their account; her father was sure of his rubber. He re-urged—she re-declined; and he seemed then about to make his bow, when taking the paper from the table, she returned it—
Emma thanked him, but she couldn't let him down in front of his friend because of them; her dad was confident about his game. He insisted again—she turned him down again; and just as he was getting ready to leave, she picked up the paper from the table and handed it back—
“Oh! here is the charade you were so obliging as to leave with us; thank you for the sight of it. We admired it so much, that I have ventured to write it into Miss Smith’s collection. Your friend will not take it amiss I hope. Of course I have not transcribed beyond the first eight lines.”
“Oh! here’s the charade you kindly left with us; thank you for sharing it. We admired it so much that I took the liberty of adding it to Miss Smith’s collection. I hope your friend won’t mind. Of course, I haven’t copied beyond the first eight lines.”
Mr. Elton certainly did not very well know what to say. He looked rather doubtingly—rather confused; said something about “honour,”—glanced at Emma and at Harriet, and then seeing the book open on the table, took it up, and examined it very attentively. With the view of passing off an awkward moment, Emma smilingly said,
Mr. Elton really didn't know what to say. He looked unsure and a bit confused; he mentioned something about "honor," glanced at Emma and Harriet, and then noticed the book on the table, picking it up and studying it closely. To ease the awkward moment, Emma smiled and said,
“You must make my apologies to your friend; but so good a charade must not be confined to one or two. He may be sure of every woman’s approbation while he writes with such gallantry.”
“You have to pass on my apologies to your friend; but such a great charade shouldn’t be limited to just one or two people. He can be confident that every woman will approve of him as long as he writes with such charm.”
“I have no hesitation in saying,” replied Mr. Elton, though hesitating a good deal while he spoke; “I have no hesitation in saying—at least if my friend feels at all as I do—I have not the smallest doubt that, could he see his little effusion honoured as I see it, (looking at the book again, and replacing it on the table), he would consider it as the proudest moment of his life.”
“I have no doubt in saying,” replied Mr. Elton, though he seemed a bit uncertain as he spoke; “I have no doubt in saying—at least if my friend feels anything like I do—I’m sure that, if he could see his little work appreciated the way I do,” (glancing at the book again and putting it back on the table), “he would view it as the proudest moment of his life.”
After this speech he was gone as soon as possible. Emma could not think it too soon; for with all his good and agreeable qualities, there was a sort of parade in his speeches which was very apt to incline her to laugh. She ran away to indulge the inclination, leaving the tender and the sublime of pleasure to Harriet’s share.
After his speech, he left as quickly as he could. Emma didn’t think it was too soon; despite all his good and charming qualities, there was a kind of showiness in his speeches that made her want to laugh. She hurried away to give in to that feeling, leaving the deeper and more meaningful enjoyment to Harriet.
CHAPTER X
Though now the middle of December, there had yet been no weather to prevent the young ladies from tolerably regular exercise; and on the morrow, Emma had a charitable visit to pay to a poor sick family, who lived a little way out of Highbury.
Though it's now the middle of December, the weather hadn't stopped the young ladies from getting their usual exercise. The next day, Emma planned to make a charitable visit to a poor sick family who lived a short distance outside of Highbury.
Their road to this detached cottage was down Vicarage Lane, a lane leading at right angles from the broad, though irregular, main street of the place; and, as may be inferred, containing the blessed abode of Mr. Elton. A few inferior dwellings were first to be passed, and then, about a quarter of a mile down the lane rose the Vicarage, an old and not very good house, almost as close to the road as it could be. It had no advantage of situation; but had been very much smartened up by the present proprietor; and, such as it was, there could be no possibility of the two friends passing it without a slackened pace and observing eyes.—Emma’s remark was—
Their path to the detached cottage was down Vicarage Lane, which branched off at a right angle from the broad, though uneven, main street of the area; and, as you can guess, it included the beloved home of Mr. Elton. They first passed a few lesser houses, and then, about a quarter of a mile down the lane, stood the Vicarage, an old and not very appealing house, positioned almost as close to the road as it could get. It didn't have a great location but had been nicely updated by the current owner; and despite its flaws, there was no way the two friends could walk by without slowing down and taking a good look. —Emma’s remark was—
“There it is. There go you and your riddle-book one of these days.”—Harriet’s was—
“There it is. One of these days, you and your riddle-book are going to go.” —Harriet’s was—
“Oh, what a sweet house!—How very beautiful!—There are the yellow curtains that Miss Nash admires so much.”
“Oh, what a lovely house!—So beautiful!—Look at those yellow curtains that Miss Nash loves so much.”
“I do not often walk this way now,” said Emma, as they proceeded, “but then there will be an inducement, and I shall gradually get intimately acquainted with all the hedges, gates, pools and pollards of this part of Highbury.”
“I don’t often walk this way now,” Emma said as they continued, “but then there will be a reason to, and I’ll slowly get to know all the hedges, gates, ponds, and trees of this area in Highbury.”
Harriet, she found, had never in her life been inside the Vicarage, and her curiosity to see it was so extreme, that, considering exteriors and probabilities, Emma could only class it, as a proof of love, with Mr. Elton’s seeing ready wit in her.
Harriet, she realized, had never been inside the Vicarage in her entire life, and her curiosity to see it was so intense that, based on appearances and what seemed likely, Emma could only consider it a sign of affection, similar to Mr. Elton’s perception of her quick wit.
“I wish we could contrive it,” said she; “but I cannot think of any tolerable pretence for going in;—no servant that I want to inquire about of his housekeeper—no message from my father.”
"I wish we could figure it out," she said; "but I can't think of any decent excuse for going in;—no servant I need to ask about with his housekeeper—no message from my dad."
She pondered, but could think of nothing. After a mutual silence of some minutes, Harriet thus began again—
She thought about it but came up empty. After a shared silence of a few minutes, Harriet started speaking again—
“I do so wonder, Miss Woodhouse, that you should not be married, or going to be married! so charming as you are!”—
“I really wonder, Miss Woodhouse, why you’re not married or about to get married, since you’re so charming!”—
Emma laughed, and replied,
Emma laughed and replied,
“My being charming, Harriet, is not quite enough to induce me to marry; I must find other people charming—one other person at least. And I am not only, not going to be married, at present, but have very little intention of ever marrying at all.”
“My charm, Harriet, isn’t enough to make me want to get married; I need to find other people charming—at least one other person. And not only am I not planning to get married right now, but I have very little intention of ever getting married at all.”
“Ah!—so you say; but I cannot believe it.”
“Ah!—that’s what you say; but I can’t believe it.”
“I must see somebody very superior to any one I have seen yet, to be tempted; Mr. Elton, you know, (recollecting herself,) is out of the question: and I do not wish to see any such person. I would rather not be tempted. I cannot really change for the better. If I were to marry, I must expect to repent it.”
“I need to meet someone much better than anyone I've met so far to genuinely feel tempted; Mr. Elton, you know, (she reminded herself) is definitely not an option: and I do not want to meet anyone like that. I'd prefer to avoid temptation. I can't truly change for the better. If I were to get married, I would have to prepare myself to regret it.”
“Dear me!—it is so odd to hear a woman talk so!”—
“Wow! It’s so strange to hear a woman speak like that!”—
“I have none of the usual inducements of women to marry. Were I to fall in love, indeed, it would be a different thing! but I never have been in love; it is not my way, or my nature; and I do not think I ever shall. And, without love, I am sure I should be a fool to change such a situation as mine. Fortune I do not want; employment I do not want; consequence I do not want: I believe few married women are half as much mistress of their husband’s house as I am of Hartfield; and never, never could I expect to be so truly beloved and important; so always first and always right in any man’s eyes as I am in my father’s.”
“I don’t have any of the usual reasons women have for getting married. If I were to fall in love, that would be a different story! But I’ve never been in love; it’s not my style or my nature, and I don’t think I ever will be. And without love, I know I’d be foolish to change my current situation. I don’t want wealth; I don’t want a job; I don’t want status: I believe very few married women are half as much in charge of their husband’s household as I am of Hartfield; and I could never, ever expect to be as truly loved and valued—always the first and always right in any man’s eyes—as I am in my father’s.”
“But then, to be an old maid at last, like Miss Bates!”
“But then, to end up an old maid like Miss Bates!”
“That is as formidable an image as you could present, Harriet; and if I thought I should ever be like Miss Bates! so silly—so satisfied—so smiling—so prosing—so undistinguishing and unfastidious—and so apt to tell every thing relative to every body about me, I would marry to-morrow. But between us, I am convinced there never can be any likeness, except in being unmarried.”
"That’s as striking an image as you could show, Harriet; and if I ever thought I might end up like Miss Bates—so foolish, so content, so cheerful, so talkative, so indiscriminate and easygoing, and so likely to share every detail about everyone regarding me, I would get married tomorrow. But between us, I'm sure there can never be any resemblance, except for being single."
“But still, you will be an old maid! and that’s so dreadful!”
“But still, you'll be a spinster! And that's just terrible!”
“Never mind, Harriet, I shall not be a poor old maid; and it is poverty only which makes celibacy contemptible to a generous public! A single woman, with a very narrow income, must be a ridiculous, disagreeable old maid! the proper sport of boys and girls, but a single woman, of good fortune, is always respectable, and may be as sensible and pleasant as any body else. And the distinction is not quite so much against the candour and common sense of the world as appears at first; for a very narrow income has a tendency to contract the mind, and sour the temper. Those who can barely live, and who live perforce in a very small, and generally very inferior, society, may well be illiberal and cross. This does not apply, however, to Miss Bates; she is only too good natured and too silly to suit me; but, in general, she is very much to the taste of every body, though single and though poor. Poverty certainly has not contracted her mind: I really believe, if she had only a shilling in the world, she would be very likely to give away sixpence of it; and nobody is afraid of her: that is a great charm.”
“Never mind, Harriet, I won’t end up a lonely old maid; it’s only poverty that makes being single look bad to a generous society! A single woman with a tiny income is seen as a ridiculous, unpleasant old maid—just the right target for kids to tease. But a single woman with a good fortune is always respected and can be just as sensible and enjoyable as anyone else. The difference isn’t quite as unfair to the honesty and common sense of the world as it seems at first; having a very limited income tends to narrow a person’s perspective and sour their mood. Those who can barely make ends meet and have to live in a very small and often subpar social circle may very well end up bitter and irritable. This doesn’t apply, though, to Miss Bates; she’s just too good-natured and silly for my taste. But in general, everyone else really likes her even though she’s single and poor. Poverty definitely hasn’t limited her thinking: I honestly believe that if she had just a shilling to her name, she’d likely give away sixpence of it; and nobody is afraid of her, which is a big plus.”
“Dear me! but what shall you do? how shall you employ yourself when you grow old?”
“Oh my! What are you going to do? How will you spend your time when you get older?”
“If I know myself, Harriet, mine is an active, busy mind, with a great many independent resources; and I do not perceive why I should be more in want of employment at forty or fifty than one-and-twenty. Woman’s usual occupations of hand and mind will be as open to me then as they are now; or with no important variation. If I draw less, I shall read more; if I give up music, I shall take to carpet-work. And as for objects of interest, objects for the affections, which is in truth the great point of inferiority, the want of which is really the great evil to be avoided in not marrying, I shall be very well off, with all the children of a sister I love so much, to care about. There will be enough of them, in all probability, to supply every sort of sensation that declining life can need. There will be enough for every hope and every fear; and though my attachment to none can equal that of a parent, it suits my ideas of comfort better than what is warmer and blinder. My nephews and nieces!—I shall often have a niece with me.”
“If I know myself, Harriet, I have an active, busy mind with plenty of resources. I don’t see why I should need employment any more at forty or fifty than I do at twenty-one. The typical activities for women, both mental and physical, will still be available to me then just as they are now, or with only slight differences. If I draw less, I’ll read more; if I stop playing music, I’ll pick up carpet-making. And when it comes to things that interest me or that I care about—this is really the main point about feeling inferior and the biggest drawback of not getting married—I’ll be just fine with all the kids of a sister I love dearly to care about. There will probably be enough of them to cover every kind of feeling that old age may bring. They’ll be enough for every hope and every fear; and while my bond with none of them can compare to that of a parent, it suits my ideas of comfort better than something more intense and blind. My nephews and nieces! I’ll often have a niece with me.”
“Do you know Miss Bates’s niece? That is, I know you must have seen her a hundred times—but are you acquainted?”
“Do you know Miss Bates’s niece? I mean, I know you must have seen her a hundred times— but do you actually know her?”
“Oh! yes; we are always forced to be acquainted whenever she comes to Highbury. By the bye, that is almost enough to put one out of conceit with a niece. Heaven forbid! at least, that I should ever bore people half so much about all the Knightleys together, as she does about Jane Fairfax. One is sick of the very name of Jane Fairfax. Every letter from her is read forty times over; her compliments to all friends go round and round again; and if she does but send her aunt the pattern of a stomacher, or knit a pair of garters for her grandmother, one hears of nothing else for a month. I wish Jane Fairfax very well; but she tires me to death.”
“Oh! yes; we always have to get to know each other whenever she comes to Highbury. By the way, that almost makes you lose your fondness for a niece. Heaven forbid! At least I hope I never bore people as much about all the Knightleys as she does about Jane Fairfax. I’m sick of just hearing the name Jane Fairfax. Every letter from her is read over and over again; her compliments to all her friends get repeated endlessly; and if she just sends her aunt the pattern for a stomacher or knits a pair of garters for her grandmother, that’s all anyone talks about for a month. I wish Jane Fairfax well, but she drives me crazy.”
They were now approaching the cottage, and all idle topics were superseded. Emma was very compassionate; and the distresses of the poor were as sure of relief from her personal attention and kindness, her counsel and her patience, as from her purse. She understood their ways, could allow for their ignorance and their temptations, had no romantic expectations of extraordinary virtue from those for whom education had done so little; entered into their troubles with ready sympathy, and always gave her assistance with as much intelligence as good-will. In the present instance, it was sickness and poverty together which she came to visit; and after remaining there as long as she could give comfort or advice, she quitted the cottage with such an impression of the scene as made her say to Harriet, as they walked away,
They were now getting close to the cottage, and all casual conversation had stopped. Emma was very empathetic; the challenges faced by the less fortunate were sure to receive her personal attention and kindness, along with her advice and patience, just as much as financial help. She understood their ways, could account for their lack of knowledge and the pressures they faced, had no unrealistic expectations of extraordinary behavior from those who had received so little education; she connected with their struggles with genuine sympathy and always offered her help with as much insight as goodwill. In this situation, she was visiting because of sickness and poverty combined; and after staying as long as she could provide comfort or advice, she left the cottage with such feelings about the scene that she said to Harriet as they walked away,
“These are the sights, Harriet, to do one good. How trifling they make every thing else appear!—I feel now as if I could think of nothing but these poor creatures all the rest of the day; and yet, who can say how soon it may all vanish from my mind?”
“These are the sights, Harriet, that truly matter. They make everything else seem so insignificant! I feel like I could think about these poor people for the rest of the day; but who knows how quickly all this might fade from my memory?”
“Very true,” said Harriet. “Poor creatures! one can think of nothing else.”
“Very true,” said Harriet. “Those poor souls! You can’t think about anything else.”
“And really, I do not think the impression will soon be over,” said Emma, as she crossed the low hedge, and tottering footstep which ended the narrow, slippery path through the cottage garden, and brought them into the lane again. “I do not think it will,” stopping to look once more at all the outward wretchedness of the place, and recall the still greater within.
“And honestly, I don’t think the impact will wear off anytime soon,” Emma said as she stepped over the low hedge, navigating the unsteady footing that wrapped up the narrow, slippery path through the cottage garden and led them back to the lane. “I really don’t think it will,” she paused to glance once more at the visible misery of the place, remembering the even deeper struggles within.
“Oh! dear, no,” said her companion.
“Oh! no way,” said her companion.
They walked on. The lane made a slight bend; and when that bend was passed, Mr. Elton was immediately in sight; and so near as to give Emma time only to say farther,
They continued walking. The path turned slightly, and as soon as they rounded the bend, Mr. Elton came into view, close enough for Emma to say only, “further,”
“Ah! Harriet, here comes a very sudden trial of our stability in good thoughts. Well, (smiling,) I hope it may be allowed that if compassion has produced exertion and relief to the sufferers, it has done all that is truly important. If we feel for the wretched, enough to do all we can for them, the rest is empty sympathy, only distressing to ourselves.”
“Ah! Harriet, here comes a sudden test of how steady we are in our positive thoughts. Well, (smiling,) I hope it’s fair to say that if compassion has driven us to take action and help those in need, it has achieved everything that really matters. If we care for the unfortunate enough to do everything we can for them, then the rest is just hollow sympathy, only upsetting for us.”
Harriet could just answer, “Oh! dear, yes,” before the gentleman joined them. The wants and sufferings of the poor family, however, were the first subject on meeting. He had been going to call on them. His visit he would now defer; but they had a very interesting parley about what could be done and should be done. Mr. Elton then turned back to accompany them.
Harriet could only reply, “Oh! of course,” before the guy joined them. However, the needs and struggles of the poor family were the first topic they discussed upon meeting. He had intended to visit them. He would put that off for now, but they had a really interesting chat about what could and should be done. Mr. Elton then turned back to join them.
“To fall in with each other on such an errand as this,” thought Emma; “to meet in a charitable scheme; this will bring a great increase of love on each side. I should not wonder if it were to bring on the declaration. It must, if I were not here. I wish I were anywhere else.”
“To come together for a mission like this,” Emma thought; “to connect over a charitable project; this will definitely boost the love between us. I wouldn’t be surprised if it leads to a confession. It certainly would, if I weren’t here. I wish I were anywhere else.”
Anxious to separate herself from them as far as she could, she soon afterwards took possession of a narrow footpath, a little raised on one side of the lane, leaving them together in the main road. But she had not been there two minutes when she found that Harriet’s habits of dependence and imitation were bringing her up too, and that, in short, they would both be soon after her. This would not do; she immediately stopped, under pretence of having some alteration to make in the lacing of her half-boot, and stooping down in complete occupation of the footpath, begged them to have the goodness to walk on, and she would follow in half a minute. They did as they were desired; and by the time she judged it reasonable to have done with her boot, she had the comfort of farther delay in her power, being overtaken by a child from the cottage, setting out, according to orders, with her pitcher, to fetch broth from Hartfield. To walk by the side of this child, and talk to and question her, was the most natural thing in the world, or would have been the most natural, had she been acting just then without design; and by this means the others were still able to keep ahead, without any obligation of waiting for her. She gained on them, however, involuntarily: the child’s pace was quick, and theirs rather slow; and she was the more concerned at it, from their being evidently in a conversation which interested them. Mr. Elton was speaking with animation, Harriet listening with a very pleased attention; and Emma, having sent the child on, was beginning to think how she might draw back a little more, when they both looked around, and she was obliged to join them.
Eager to distance herself from them as much as possible, she quickly took a narrow footpath, slightly elevated on one side of the lane, leaving them on the main road. But she had barely been there two minutes when she realized that Harriet’s tendency to depend on and imitate her was pulling her back too, and soon they would both be after her. This wouldn’t do; she immediately stopped, pretending to adjust the lacing of her half-boot, and bending down to fully occupy the footpath, she asked them nicely to keep walking and promised she’d catch up in half a minute. They followed her request, and by the time she thought it was reasonable to finish with her boot, she had the added comfort of further delay as a child from the cottage approached, setting off with her pitcher to fetch broth from Hartfield. Walking alongside the child, talking to and asking her questions, felt totally natural—at least it would have been if she hadn’t been doing it with a purpose; thus, the others could stay ahead without feeling the need to wait for her. However, she unintentionally caught up to them: the child was moving quickly while they were going rather slowly; and she was increasingly worried about it since they were clearly engaged in an interesting conversation. Mr. Elton was speaking enthusiastically, and Harriet was listening with great interest. Just as Emma had sent the child on her way, she was starting to think about how she could hang back a bit more when both of them looked around, and she had no choice but to join them.
Mr. Elton was still talking, still engaged in some interesting detail; and Emma experienced some disappointment when she found that he was only giving his fair companion an account of the yesterday’s party at his friend Cole’s, and that she was come in herself for the Stilton cheese, the north Wiltshire, the butter, the celery, the beet-root, and all the dessert.
Mr. Elton was still chatting, still getting into some interesting details; and Emma felt a bit disappointed when she realized he was just recounting the party he attended at his friend Cole's yesterday, and that she was only mentioned for the Stilton cheese, the north Wiltshire, the butter, the celery, the beetroot, and all the dessert.
“This would soon have led to something better, of course,” was her consoling reflection; “any thing interests between those who love; and any thing will serve as introduction to what is near the heart. If I could but have kept longer away!”
“This would soon lead to something better, of course,” was her comforting thought; “anything interests those who love; and anything can serve as an introduction to what is close to the heart. If only I could have stayed away longer!”
They now walked on together quietly, till within view of the vicarage pales, when a sudden resolution, of at least getting Harriet into the house, made her again find something very much amiss about her boot, and fall behind to arrange it once more. She then broke the lace off short, and dexterously throwing it into a ditch, was presently obliged to entreat them to stop, and acknowledged her inability to put herself to rights so as to be able to walk home in tolerable comfort.
They continued walking together in silence until they were close to the vicarage fence, when a sudden decision to at least get Harriet into the house made her realize that something was wrong with her boot again, causing her to lag behind to fix it. Then she broke the lace short and cleverly tossed it into a ditch, and soon had to ask them to stop, admitting that she couldn’t manage to fix herself up enough to walk home comfortably.
“Part of my lace is gone,” said she, “and I do not know how I am to contrive. I really am a most troublesome companion to you both, but I hope I am not often so ill-equipped. Mr. Elton, I must beg leave to stop at your house, and ask your housekeeper for a bit of ribband or string, or any thing just to keep my boot on.”
“Part of my lace is missing,” she said, “and I don’t know how I’ll manage. I really am a bit of a bother to both of you, but I hope I’m not usually this unprepared. Mr. Elton, I must ask if I can stop by your house and see your housekeeper for a piece of ribbon or string, or anything to help keep my boot on.”
Mr. Elton looked all happiness at this proposition; and nothing could exceed his alertness and attention in conducting them into his house and endeavouring to make every thing appear to advantage. The room they were taken into was the one he chiefly occupied, and looking forwards; behind it was another with which it immediately communicated; the door between them was open, and Emma passed into it with the housekeeper to receive her assistance in the most comfortable manner. She was obliged to leave the door ajar as she found it; but she fully intended that Mr. Elton should close it. It was not closed, however, it still remained ajar; but by engaging the housekeeper in incessant conversation, she hoped to make it practicable for him to chuse his own subject in the adjoining room. For ten minutes she could hear nothing but herself. It could be protracted no longer. She was then obliged to be finished, and make her appearance.
Mr. Elton looked really happy about this suggestion; and nothing could beat his eagerness and focus in showing them into his house and trying to make everything look its best. The room they entered was the one he mostly used, and looking ahead; behind it was another room that connected with it directly; the door between them was open, and Emma moved into it with the housekeeper to get her help in the most comfortable way. She had to leave the door slightly open as she found it; but she fully expected Mr. Elton to close it. However, it didn't close and stayed open; but by keeping the housekeeper busy in nonstop conversation, she hoped to give him the chance to choose his own topic in the next room. For ten minutes, she could hear nothing but her own voice. It couldn’t go on any longer. She then had to wrap up and make her appearance.
The lovers were standing together at one of the windows. It had a most favourable aspect; and, for half a minute, Emma felt the glory of having schemed successfully. But it would not do; he had not come to the point. He had been most agreeable, most delightful; he had told Harriet that he had seen them go by, and had purposely followed them; other little gallantries and allusions had been dropt, but nothing serious.
The couple was standing together at one of the windows. It had a great view, and for a moment, Emma felt the triumph of having planned things perfectly. But it wasn’t enough; he hadn’t gotten to the point. He had been very charming, truly enjoyable; he told Harriet that he had seen them pass by and had deliberately followed them; other little flirty comments and hints had been made, but nothing substantial.
“Cautious, very cautious,” thought Emma; “he advances inch by inch, and will hazard nothing till he believes himself secure.”
“Careful, really careful,” Emma thought; “he moves forward bit by bit, and won’t take any risks until he feels safe.”
Still, however, though every thing had not been accomplished by her ingenious device, she could not but flatter herself that it had been the occasion of much present enjoyment to both, and must be leading them forward to the great event.
Still, even though not everything had been achieved by her clever plan, she couldn't help but feel that it had brought a lot of immediate happiness to both of them and was surely moving them closer to the big event.
CHAPTER XI
Mr. Elton must now be left to himself. It was no longer in Emma’s power to superintend his happiness or quicken his measures. The coming of her sister’s family was so very near at hand, that first in anticipation, and then in reality, it became henceforth her prime object of interest; and during the ten days of their stay at Hartfield it was not to be expected—she did not herself expect—that any thing beyond occasional, fortuitous assistance could be afforded by her to the lovers. They might advance rapidly if they would, however; they must advance somehow or other whether they would or no. She hardly wished to have more leisure for them. There are people, who the more you do for them, the less they will do for themselves.
Mr. Elton had to be left to his own devices now. Emma could no longer oversee his happiness or speed up his actions. With her sister’s family arriving so soon, her main focus became that, both in anticipation and reality. During the ten days of their stay at Hartfield, it was unrealistic to expect—she didn’t even expect—that she could do anything more than offer occasional, random help to the couple. They could move forward quickly if they wanted to; they had to move forward in some way, whether they liked it or not. She hardly wanted more time to dedicate to them. There are people who, the more you do for them, the less they’ll do for themselves.
Mr. and Mrs. John Knightley, from having been longer than usual absent from Surry, were exciting of course rather more than the usual interest. Till this year, every long vacation since their marriage had been divided between Hartfield and Donwell Abbey; but all the holidays of this autumn had been given to sea-bathing for the children, and it was therefore many months since they had been seen in a regular way by their Surry connexions, or seen at all by Mr. Woodhouse, who could not be induced to get so far as London, even for poor Isabella’s sake; and who consequently was now most nervously and apprehensively happy in forestalling this too short visit.
Mr. and Mrs. John Knightley, having been away from Surrey for longer than usual, naturally sparked more than the usual interest. Until this year, every long vacation since their marriage had been split between Hartfield and Donwell Abbey; but all the holidays this autumn had been dedicated to beach trips for the kids, meaning it had been months since they had been seen regularly by their Surrey connections, or seen at all by Mr. Woodhouse, who couldn’t be persuaded to venture all the way to London, even for poor Isabella’s sake; and as a result, he was now feeling both nervously and anxiously happy while anticipating this too short visit.
He thought much of the evils of the journey for her, and not a little of the fatigues of his own horses and coachman who were to bring some of the party the last half of the way; but his alarms were needless; the sixteen miles being happily accomplished, and Mr. and Mrs. John Knightley, their five children, and a competent number of nursery-maids, all reaching Hartfield in safety. The bustle and joy of such an arrival, the many to be talked to, welcomed, encouraged, and variously dispersed and disposed of, produced a noise and confusion which his nerves could not have borne under any other cause, nor have endured much longer even for this; but the ways of Hartfield and the feelings of her father were so respected by Mrs. John Knightley, that in spite of maternal solicitude for the immediate enjoyment of her little ones, and for their having instantly all the liberty and attendance, all the eating and drinking, and sleeping and playing, which they could possibly wish for, without the smallest delay, the children were never allowed to be long a disturbance to him, either in themselves or in any restless attendance on them.
He worried a lot about the problems of the journey for her, and also about the weariness of his horses and the coachman who would be bringing part of the group the last half of the way; but his concerns were unnecessary. The sixteen miles were successfully completed, and Mr. and Mrs. John Knightley, along with their five children and a good number of nursery maids, all arrived at Hartfield safely. The excitement and joy of such an arrival, with so many people to talk to, welcome, encourage, and organize, created a noise and chaos that his nerves would not have been able to handle under any other circumstances, and even this was becoming a bit too much for him. However, Mrs. John Knightley was considerate of Hartfield's routines and her father's feelings, so despite her motherly worry for her children's immediate happiness and their need for all the freedom, attention, food, drink, sleep, and play they could possibly want without any delay, the kids were never allowed to be a long disruption to him, either in themselves or by having anyone fuss over them.
Mrs. John Knightley was a pretty, elegant little woman, of gentle, quiet manners, and a disposition remarkably amiable and affectionate; wrapt up in her family; a devoted wife, a doating mother, and so tenderly attached to her father and sister that, but for these higher ties, a warmer love might have seemed impossible. She could never see a fault in any of them. She was not a woman of strong understanding or any quickness; and with this resemblance of her father, she inherited also much of his constitution; was delicate in her own health, over-careful of that of her children, had many fears and many nerves, and was as fond of her own Mr. Wingfield in town as her father could be of Mr. Perry. They were alike too, in a general benevolence of temper, and a strong habit of regard for every old acquaintance.
Mrs. John Knightley was a pretty, elegant woman with gentle, quiet manners and a remarkably kind and loving personality. She was completely devoted to her family—a dedicated wife, an adoring mother, and so lovingly attached to her father and sister that, apart from these deep connections, a stronger love might have seemed impossible. She could never see a fault in any of them. She wasn't particularly sharp or quick-witted, and like her father, she also had a delicate constitution; her own health was fragile, and she was overly concerned about her children's well-being, full of worries and nerves. She was just as fond of her own Mr. Wingfield in town as her father was of Mr. Perry. They also shared a general kindness and a strong habit of maintaining connections with old acquaintances.
Mr. John Knightley was a tall, gentleman-like, and very clever man; rising in his profession, domestic, and respectable in his private character; but with reserved manners which prevented his being generally pleasing; and capable of being sometimes out of humour. He was not an ill-tempered man, not so often unreasonably cross as to deserve such a reproach; but his temper was not his great perfection; and, indeed, with such a worshipping wife, it was hardly possible that any natural defects in it should not be increased. The extreme sweetness of her temper must hurt his. He had all the clearness and quickness of mind which she wanted, and he could sometimes act an ungracious, or say a severe thing.
Mr. John Knightley was a tall, refined, and very smart man; advancing in his career, family-oriented, and respected in his personal life; but his reserved demeanor made him less generally likable and he could occasionally be in a bad mood. He wasn’t a mean-spirited person and didn’t often get unreasonable enough to earn that label; however, his temper wasn’t his strongest trait, and with such a devoted wife, any natural flaws in his temperament were likely to be magnified. The extreme kindness of her temperament likely aggravated his. He had all the clarity and quickness of thought that she lacked, and he could sometimes act unkindly or say something harsh.
He was not a great favourite with his fair sister-in-law. Nothing wrong in him escaped her. She was quick in feeling the little injuries to Isabella, which Isabella never felt herself. Perhaps she might have passed over more had his manners been flattering to Isabella’s sister, but they were only those of a calmly kind brother and friend, without praise and without blindness; but hardly any degree of personal compliment could have made her regardless of that greatest fault of all in her eyes which he sometimes fell into, the want of respectful forbearance towards her father. There he had not always the patience that could have been wished. Mr. Woodhouse’s peculiarities and fidgetiness were sometimes provoking him to a rational remonstrance or sharp retort equally ill-bestowed. It did not often happen; for Mr. John Knightley had really a great regard for his father-in-law, and generally a strong sense of what was due to him; but it was too often for Emma’s charity, especially as there was all the pain of apprehension frequently to be endured, though the offence came not. The beginning, however, of every visit displayed none but the properest feelings, and this being of necessity so short might be hoped to pass away in unsullied cordiality. They had not been long seated and composed when Mr. Woodhouse, with a melancholy shake of the head and a sigh, called his daughter’s attention to the sad change at Hartfield since she had been there last.
He wasn’t a favorite of his sister-in-law. Nothing wrong with him got past her. She was quick to notice the small slights to Isabella, which Isabella herself never noticed. Maybe she would have overlooked more if his behavior had been more flattering towards Isabella’s sister, but it was just that of a calmly supportive brother and friend, without any praise or blindness; however, no amount of personal flattery could make her overlook what she considered his greatest fault—his lack of respectful patience toward her father. He didn’t always have the patience one would hope for. Mr. Woodhouse’s quirks and fidgeting sometimes provoked him into a rational complaint or sharp reply, which weren’t always appropriate. This didn’t happen often because Mr. John Knightley genuinely cared for his father-in-law and usually understood what was appropriate; still, it happened too often for Emma’s liking, especially since she often had to endure the anxiety of anticipating it, even if the offense didn’t occur. However, at the start of every visit, he showed nothing but the proper feelings, and since these visits were necessarily short, it was hoped that they would pass in untainted friendliness. They had hardly settled in when Mr. Woodhouse, with a sad shake of his head and a sigh, drew his daughter’s attention to the unfortunate changes at Hartfield since her last visit.
“Ah, my dear,” said he, “poor Miss Taylor—It is a grievous business.”
“Ah, my dear,” he said, “poor Miss Taylor—It’s a sad situation.”
“Oh yes, sir,” cried she with ready sympathy, “how you must miss her! And dear Emma, too!—What a dreadful loss to you both!—I have been so grieved for you.—I could not imagine how you could possibly do without her.—It is a sad change indeed.—But I hope she is pretty well, sir.”
“Oh yes, sir,” she exclaimed with genuine sympathy, “you must really miss her! And dear Emma, too!—What a terrible loss for both of you!—I've been so saddened for you.—I can’t even imagine how you’re managing without her.—It’s a truly sad change.—But I hope she’s doing okay, sir.”
“Pretty well, my dear—I hope—pretty well.—I do not know but that the place agrees with her tolerably.”
“Pretty well, my dear—I hope—pretty well.—I don’t know if the place suits her pretty well.”
Mr. John Knightley here asked Emma quietly whether there were any doubts of the air of Randalls.
Mr. John Knightley quietly asked Emma if there were any concerns about the atmosphere at Randalls.
“Oh! no—none in the least. I never saw Mrs. Weston better in my life—never looking so well. Papa is only speaking his own regret.”
“Oh! No—not at all. I’ve never seen Mrs. Weston looking better in my life—she’s never looked this good. Dad is just expressing his own disappointment.”
“Very much to the honour of both,” was the handsome reply.
“Very much to the honor of both,” was the flattering response.
“And do you see her, sir, tolerably often?” asked Isabella in the plaintive tone which just suited her father.
“And do you see her, sir, pretty often?” asked Isabella in the sad tone that suited her father perfectly.
Mr. Woodhouse hesitated.—“Not near so often, my dear, as I could wish.”
Mr. Woodhouse hesitated. — “Not nearly as often, my dear, as I would like.”
“Oh! papa, we have missed seeing them but one entire day since they married. Either in the morning or evening of every day, excepting one, have we seen either Mr. Weston or Mrs. Weston, and generally both, either at Randalls or here—and as you may suppose, Isabella, most frequently here. They are very, very kind in their visits. Mr. Weston is really as kind as herself. Papa, if you speak in that melancholy way, you will be giving Isabella a false idea of us all. Every body must be aware that Miss Taylor must be missed, but every body ought also to be assured that Mr. and Mrs. Weston do really prevent our missing her by any means to the extent we ourselves anticipated—which is the exact truth.”
“Oh! Dad, we’ve only missed seeing them for one whole day since they got married. We’ve seen either Mr. Weston or Mrs. Weston every day except one, usually both of them, either at Randalls or here—and as you can imagine, Isabella, most often here. They are really, really generous with their visits. Mr. Weston is just as kind as she is. Dad, if you keep talking like that, you’ll give Isabella a wrong impression of all of us. Everyone knows we miss Miss Taylor, but everyone should also know that Mr. and Mrs. Weston really help us not to miss her as much as we thought we would—which is the honest truth.”
“Just as it should be,” said Mr. John Knightley, “and just as I hoped it was from your letters. Her wish of shewing you attention could not be doubted, and his being a disengaged and social man makes it all easy. I have been always telling you, my love, that I had no idea of the change being so very material to Hartfield as you apprehended; and now you have Emma’s account, I hope you will be satisfied.”
“Just as it should be,” said Mr. John Knightley, “and just as I hoped it was from your letters. Her desire to pay you attention couldn't be doubted, and his being an available and social guy makes it all easy. I’ve always told you, my love, that I didn’t think the change would be as significant for Hartfield as you feared; and now that you have Emma’s account, I hope you’ll feel satisfied.”
“Why, to be sure,” said Mr. Woodhouse—“yes, certainly—I cannot deny that Mrs. Weston, poor Mrs. Weston, does come and see us pretty often—but then—she is always obliged to go away again.”
“Of course,” said Mr. Woodhouse, “yes, definitely—I can’t deny that Mrs. Weston, poor Mrs. Weston, visits us quite often—but then—she always has to leave again.”
“It would be very hard upon Mr. Weston if she did not, papa.—You quite forget poor Mr. Weston.”
“It would be really tough on Mr. Weston if she didn’t, Dad.—You totally forget poor Mr. Weston.”
“I think, indeed,” said John Knightley pleasantly, “that Mr. Weston has some little claim. You and I, Emma, will venture to take the part of the poor husband. I, being a husband, and you not being a wife, the claims of the man may very likely strike us with equal force. As for Isabella, she has been married long enough to see the convenience of putting all the Mr. Westons aside as much as she can.”
“I think, actually,” said John Knightley with a smile, “that Mr. Weston has some valid points. You and I, Emma, will dare to support the poor husband. I, being a husband, and you, not being a wife, might both feel the man's claims just as strongly. As for Isabella, she’s been married long enough to recognize the advantage of distancing herself from all the Mr. Westons as much as possible.”
“Me, my love,” cried his wife, hearing and understanding only in part.— “Are you talking about me?—I am sure nobody ought to be, or can be, a greater advocate for matrimony than I am; and if it had not been for the misery of her leaving Hartfield, I should never have thought of Miss Taylor but as the most fortunate woman in the world; and as to slighting Mr. Weston, that excellent Mr. Weston, I think there is nothing he does not deserve. I believe he is one of the very best-tempered men that ever existed. Excepting yourself and your brother, I do not know his equal for temper. I shall never forget his flying Henry’s kite for him that very windy day last Easter—and ever since his particular kindness last September twelvemonth in writing that note, at twelve o’clock at night, on purpose to assure me that there was no scarlet fever at Cobham, I have been convinced there could not be a more feeling heart nor a better man in existence.—If any body can deserve him, it must be Miss Taylor.”
“Me, my love,” cried his wife, hearing and understanding only in part. — “Are you talking about me? — I’m sure no one should be a bigger supporter of marriage than I am; and if it weren't for the sadness of her leaving Hartfield, I would have only thought of Miss Taylor as the luckiest woman in the world; and as for disrespecting Mr. Weston, that wonderful Mr. Weston, I believe there’s nothing he doesn’t deserve. I think he’s one of the most easy-going men ever. Besides you and your brother, I don’t know anyone who matches his temperament. I’ll never forget him flying Henry’s kite for him that really windy day last Easter — and ever since his special kindness last September, when he wrote that note at midnight just to reassure me that there was no scarlet fever at Cobham, I’ve been convinced there’s no more compassionate heart or better man out there. — If anyone deserves him, it has to be Miss Taylor.”
“Where is the young man?” said John Knightley. “Has he been here on this occasion—or has he not?”
“Where's the young man?” John Knightley asked. “Has he been here this time—or not?”
“He has not been here yet,” replied Emma. “There was a strong expectation of his coming soon after the marriage, but it ended in nothing; and I have not heard him mentioned lately.”
“He hasn’t been here yet,” Emma replied. “There was a lot of hope that he would come soon after the wedding, but it didn’t amount to anything; and I haven’t heard anyone mention him recently.”
“But you should tell them of the letter, my dear,” said her father. “He wrote a letter to poor Mrs. Weston, to congratulate her, and a very proper, handsome letter it was. She shewed it to me. I thought it very well done of him indeed. Whether it was his own idea you know, one cannot tell. He is but young, and his uncle, perhaps—”
“But you should tell them about the letter, my dear,” her father said. “He wrote a letter to poor Mrs. Weston to congratulate her, and it was a very nice and proper letter. She showed it to me. I thought it was really well done of him. Whether it was his own idea, you know, is hard to say. He is still young, and maybe his uncle—”
“My dear papa, he is three-and-twenty. You forget how time passes.”
“My dear dad, he is twenty-three. You forget how quickly time flies.”
“Three-and-twenty!—is he indeed?—Well, I could not have thought it—and he was but two years old when he lost his poor mother! Well, time does fly indeed!—and my memory is very bad. However, it was an exceeding good, pretty letter, and gave Mr. and Mrs. Weston a great deal of pleasure. I remember it was written from Weymouth, and dated Sept. 28th—and began, ‘My dear Madam,’ but I forget how it went on; and it was signed ‘F. C. Weston Churchill.’—I remember that perfectly.”
“Twenty-three!—Is that really true?—I wouldn’t have thought it—and he was only two years old when he lost his poor mother! Well, time really flies!—and my memory isn’t great. Still, it was a really nice letter, and it made Mr. and Mrs. Weston very happy. I remember it was written from Weymouth, dated September 28th—and it started with ‘My dear Madam,’ but I can’t recall how it continued; and it was signed ‘F. C. Weston Churchill.’—I remember that perfectly.”
“How very pleasing and proper of him!” cried the good-hearted Mrs. John Knightley. “I have no doubt of his being a most amiable young man. But how sad it is that he should not live at home with his father! There is something so shocking in a child’s being taken away from his parents and natural home! I never could comprehend how Mr. Weston could part with him. To give up one’s child! I really never could think well of any body who proposed such a thing to any body else.”
“How lovely and appropriate of him!” exclaimed the kind-hearted Mrs. John Knightley. “I’m sure he’s a really nice young man. But how unfortunate it is that he doesn’t live at home with his father! There’s something so disturbing about a child being removed from their parents and their true home! I could never understand how Mr. Weston could let him go. To give up your child! I honestly could never have a good opinion of anyone who suggested such a thing to someone else.”
“Nobody ever did think well of the Churchills, I fancy,” observed Mr. John Knightley coolly. “But you need not imagine Mr. Weston to have felt what you would feel in giving up Henry or John. Mr. Weston is rather an easy, cheerful-tempered man, than a man of strong feelings; he takes things as he finds them, and makes enjoyment of them somehow or other, depending, I suspect, much more upon what is called society for his comforts, that is, upon the power of eating and drinking, and playing whist with his neighbours five times a week, than upon family affection, or any thing that home affords.”
“Nobody ever thought much of the Churchills, I guess,” Mr. John Knightley remarked coolly. “But you shouldn’t assume Mr. Weston felt what you would feel if you had to give up Henry or John. Mr. Weston is more of an easygoing, cheerful person than someone with strong feelings; he takes things as they come and finds a way to enjoy them, relying, I suspect, much more on what’s called social life for his comforts, meaning the chance to eat, drink, and play whist with his neighbors five times a week, rather than on family ties or anything that home provides.”
Emma could not like what bordered on a reflection on Mr. Weston, and had half a mind to take it up; but she struggled, and let it pass. She would keep the peace if possible; and there was something honourable and valuable in the strong domestic habits, the all-sufficiency of home to himself, whence resulted her brother’s disposition to look down on the common rate of social intercourse, and those to whom it was important.—It had a high claim to forbearance.
Emma couldn't help but think about Mr. Weston, and she almost brought it up; but she fought against it and let it go. She wanted to maintain peace if she could; and there was something honorable and valuable in the strong family dynamics, the way home was everything to her brother, which led him to look down on the usual level of social interaction and those who valued it. It deserved some patience.
CHAPTER XII
Mr. Knightley was to dine with them—rather against the inclination of Mr. Woodhouse, who did not like that any one should share with him in Isabella’s first day. Emma’s sense of right however had decided it; and besides the consideration of what was due to each brother, she had particular pleasure, from the circumstance of the late disagreement between Mr. Knightley and herself, in procuring him the proper invitation.
Mr. Knightley was going to have dinner with them, much to Mr. Woodhouse's dismay, as he didn’t want anyone else to be there on Isabella’s first day. However, Emma felt it was the right thing to do; and aside from wanting to be fair to both brothers, she also found particular pleasure in sending him the proper invitation, especially considering the recent disagreement between her and Mr. Knightley.
She hoped they might now become friends again. She thought it was time to make up. Making-up indeed would not do. She certainly had not been in the wrong, and he would never own that he had. Concession must be out of the question; but it was time to appear to forget that they had ever quarrelled; and she hoped it might rather assist the restoration of friendship, that when he came into the room she had one of the children with her—the youngest, a nice little girl about eight months old, who was now making her first visit to Hartfield, and very happy to be danced about in her aunt’s arms. It did assist; for though he began with grave looks and short questions, he was soon led on to talk of them all in the usual way, and to take the child out of her arms with all the unceremoniousness of perfect amity. Emma felt they were friends again; and the conviction giving her at first great satisfaction, and then a little sauciness, she could not help saying, as he was admiring the baby,
She hoped they could be friends again. She thought it was time to make up. Just making up wouldn’t be enough. She definitely hadn’t been in the wrong, and he would never admit that he had been. Giving in was not an option; but it was time to act like they had never had a fight. She hoped it would help restore their friendship that when he came into the room, she had one of the kids with her—the youngest, a sweet little girl about eight months old, who was now visiting Hartfield for the first time and was really happy being held in her aunt’s arms. It did help; because even though he started with a serious expression and brief questions, he quickly warmed up and began to talk about them all in his usual way, and took the child from her arms with all the ease of close friends. Emma felt they were friends again; and the realization brought her great satisfaction at first, followed by a bit of cheekiness, so she couldn’t resist saying, as he admired the baby,
“What a comfort it is, that we think alike about our nephews and nieces. As to men and women, our opinions are sometimes very different; but with regard to these children, I observe we never disagree.”
“What a relief it is that we share the same thoughts about our nephews and nieces. When it comes to men and women, our views can be quite different; however, when it comes to these kids, I notice we never argue.”
“If you were as much guided by nature in your estimate of men and women, and as little under the power of fancy and whim in your dealings with them, as you are where these children are concerned, we might always think alike.”
“If you let nature guide your judgment of people as much as you do with these children, and didn't let fancy and whims influence your interactions with them, we could always see eye to eye.”
“To be sure—our discordancies must always arise from my being in the wrong.”
"Surely, our disagreements must always come from me being in the wrong."
“Yes,” said he, smiling—“and reason good. I was sixteen years old when you were born.”
“Yeah,” he said with a smile, “and for good reason. I was sixteen when you were born.”
“A material difference then,” she replied—“and no doubt you were much my superior in judgment at that period of our lives; but does not the lapse of one-and-twenty years bring our understandings a good deal nearer?”
“A significant difference then,” she replied—“and no doubt you were much better than me in judgment at that time in our lives; but doesn’t the passing of twenty-one years bring our understandings much closer?”
“Yes—a good deal nearer.”
“Yes—a lot closer.”
“But still, not near enough to give me a chance of being right, if we think differently.”
“But still, not nearly enough to give me a chance of being right if we see things differently.”
“I have still the advantage of you by sixteen years’ experience, and by not being a pretty young woman and a spoiled child. Come, my dear Emma, let us be friends, and say no more about it. Tell your aunt, little Emma, that she ought to set you a better example than to be renewing old grievances, and that if she were not wrong before, she is now.”
“I still have the advantage over you with sixteen years of experience, and by not being a pretty young woman and a spoiled child. Come on, my dear Emma, let’s be friends and stop talking about this. Tell your aunt, little Emma, that she should set a better example than to bring up old grievances again, and that if she wasn’t wrong before, she is now.”
“That’s true,” she cried—“very true. Little Emma, grow up a better woman than your aunt. Be infinitely cleverer and not half so conceited. Now, Mr. Knightley, a word or two more, and I have done. As far as good intentions went, we were both right, and I must say that no effects on my side of the argument have yet proved wrong. I only want to know that Mr. Martin is not very, very bitterly disappointed.”
“That’s true,” she exclaimed, “very true. Little Emma, grow up to be a better woman than your aunt. Be much smarter and not nearly as full of yourself. Now, Mr. Knightley, just a few more words and I’m done. As far as good intentions go, we were both right, and I have to say that nothing on my side of the argument has turned out wrong yet. I just want to know that Mr. Martin isn’t extremely, heartbreakingly disappointed.”
“A man cannot be more so,” was his short, full answer.
“A man can't be any more than that,” was his brief, complete response.
“Ah!—Indeed I am very sorry.—Come, shake hands with me.”
“Ah!—I’m really sorry.—Come on, let’s shake hands.”
This had just taken place and with great cordiality, when John Knightley made his appearance, and “How d’ye do, George?” and “John, how are you?” succeeded in the true English style, burying under a calmness that seemed all but indifference, the real attachment which would have led either of them, if requisite, to do every thing for the good of the other.
This had just happened and in a friendly manner when John Knightley showed up, and “How are you, George?” and “John, how’s it going?” followed in classic English style, hiding under a calmness that felt almost like indifference the genuine bond that would have driven either of them, if needed, to do anything for the other's well-being.
The evening was quiet and conversable, as Mr. Woodhouse declined cards entirely for the sake of comfortable talk with his dear Isabella, and the little party made two natural divisions; on one side he and his daughter; on the other the two Mr. Knightleys; their subjects totally distinct, or very rarely mixing—and Emma only occasionally joining in one or the other.
The evening was calm and easy to chat in, as Mr. Woodhouse completely skipped cards to enjoy comfortable conversation with his dear Isabella. The small group naturally split into two sides: Mr. Woodhouse and his daughter on one side, and the two Mr. Knightleys on the other. Their topics were completely different or rarely overlapped—and Emma only chimed in from time to time with one group or the other.
The brothers talked of their own concerns and pursuits, but principally of those of the elder, whose temper was by much the most communicative, and who was always the greater talker. As a magistrate, he had generally some point of law to consult John about, or, at least, some curious anecdote to give; and as a farmer, as keeping in hand the home-farm at Donwell, he had to tell what every field was to bear next year, and to give all such local information as could not fail of being interesting to a brother whose home it had equally been the longest part of his life, and whose attachments were strong. The plan of a drain, the change of a fence, the felling of a tree, and the destination of every acre for wheat, turnips, or spring corn, was entered into with as much equality of interest by John, as his cooler manners rendered possible; and if his willing brother ever left him any thing to inquire about, his inquiries even approached a tone of eagerness.
The brothers discussed their own issues and interests, but mostly focused on the elder brother, whose temperament was much more open and who was always more talkative. As a magistrate, he usually had some legal question to run by John or, at the very least, an interesting story to share. As a farmer managing the home farm at Donwell, he had to explain what each field was going to produce next year and provide all kinds of local details that would surely interest a brother who had also spent much of his life there and had strong connections. The plan for a drainage system, a change in fencing, cutting down a tree, and the plans for every acre dedicated to wheat, turnips, or spring crops were discussed with as much interest from John as his more reserved personality allowed; and if his eager brother ever left him something to ask about, John's questions even showed a hint of enthusiasm.
While they were thus comfortably occupied, Mr. Woodhouse was enjoying a full flow of happy regrets and fearful affection with his daughter.
While they were comfortably engaged, Mr. Woodhouse was experiencing a stream of happy memories and anxious love for his daughter.
“My poor dear Isabella,” said he, fondly taking her hand, and interrupting, for a few moments, her busy labours for some one of her five children—“How long it is, how terribly long since you were here! And how tired you must be after your journey! You must go to bed early, my dear—and I recommend a little gruel to you before you go.—You and I will have a nice basin of gruel together. My dear Emma, suppose we all have a little gruel.”
“My poor dear Isabella,” he said, affectionately taking her hand and pausing her work for a moment as she cared for one of her five kids, “It’s been so long, way too long since you were last here! You must be exhausted from your trip! You should go to bed early, my dear—and I suggest you have a little gruel before you sleep. Let’s share a nice bowl of gruel together. My dear Emma, how about we all have a little gruel?”
Emma could not suppose any such thing, knowing as she did, that both the Mr. Knightleys were as unpersuadable on that article as herself;—and two basins only were ordered. After a little more discourse in praise of gruel, with some wondering at its not being taken every evening by every body, he proceeded to say, with an air of grave reflection,
Emma couldn't believe such a thing, knowing as she did that both Mr. Knightleys were just as stubborn about it as she was;—and only two bowls were ordered. After a bit more conversation praising gruel, with some wondering why everyone didn't have it every evening, he went on to say, with a serious expression,
“It was an awkward business, my dear, your spending the autumn at South End instead of coming here. I never had much opinion of the sea air.”
“It was a bit strange, my dear, that you spent the autumn at South End instead of coming here. I never thought much of the sea air.”
“Mr. Wingfield most strenuously recommended it, sir—or we should not have gone. He recommended it for all the children, but particularly for the weakness in little Bella’s throat,—both sea air and bathing.”
“Mr. Wingfield strongly suggested it, sir—or we wouldn’t have gone. He recommended it for all the kids, but especially for little Bella’s throat weakness—both the sea air and the bathing.”
“Ah! my dear, but Perry had many doubts about the sea doing her any good; and as to myself, I have been long perfectly convinced, though perhaps I never told you so before, that the sea is very rarely of use to any body. I am sure it almost killed me once.”
“Ah! my dear, but Perry had a lot of doubts about the sea helping her at all; and as for me, I’ve been completely convinced for a long time, although I might not have mentioned it to you before, that the sea hardly ever benefits anyone. I’m pretty sure it nearly killed me once.”
“Come, come,” cried Emma, feeling this to be an unsafe subject, “I must beg you not to talk of the sea. It makes me envious and miserable;—I who have never seen it! South End is prohibited, if you please. My dear Isabella, I have not heard you make one inquiry about Mr. Perry yet; and he never forgets you.”
“Come on,” Emma exclaimed, sensing this was a tricky topic. “I really need to ask you not to talk about the sea. It just makes me envious and unhappy—I’ve never even seen it! South End is off-limits, if you don’t mind. My dear Isabella, I haven’t heard you ask anything about Mr. Perry yet, and he always remembers you.”
“Oh! good Mr. Perry—how is he, sir?”
“Oh! Good Mr. Perry—how is he, sir?”
“Why, pretty well; but not quite well. Poor Perry is bilious, and he has not time to take care of himself—he tells me he has not time to take care of himself—which is very sad—but he is always wanted all round the country. I suppose there is not a man in such practice anywhere. But then there is not so clever a man any where.”
“Why, pretty much; but not entirely. Poor Perry is feeling sick, and he claims he doesn’t have time to take care of himself—which is really unfortunate—but he’s always in demand all over the place. I doubt there’s anyone else in such high demand. But then again, there isn’t anyone quite as skilled as he is.”
“And Mrs. Perry and the children, how are they? do the children grow? I have a great regard for Mr. Perry. I hope he will be calling soon. He will be so pleased to see my little ones.”
“And how are Mrs. Perry and the kids? Are they growing up? I have a lot of respect for Mr. Perry. I hope he’ll be stopping by soon. He’ll be so happy to see my little ones.”
“I hope he will be here to-morrow, for I have a question or two to ask him about myself of some consequence. And, my dear, whenever he comes, you had better let him look at little Bella’s throat.”
“I hope he'll be here tomorrow because I have a question or two to ask him about myself that are quite important. And, my dear, whenever he comes, you should definitely let him check little Bella's throat.”
“Oh! my dear sir, her throat is so much better that I have hardly any uneasiness about it. Either bathing has been of the greatest service to her, or else it is to be attributed to an excellent embrocation of Mr. Wingfield’s, which we have been applying at times ever since August.”
“Oh! My dear sir, her throat is so much better that I hardly worry about it anymore. Either the baths have really helped her, or it’s due to an excellent ointment from Mr. Wingfield that we’ve been using occasionally since August.”
“It is not very likely, my dear, that bathing should have been of use to her—and if I had known you were wanting an embrocation, I would have spoken to—
“It’s unlikely, my dear, that bathing would have helped her—and if I had known you needed a lotion, I would have mentioned it—
“You seem to me to have forgotten Mrs. and Miss Bates,” said Emma, “I have not heard one inquiry after them.”
"You seem to have forgotten Mrs. and Miss Bates," Emma said, "I haven't heard a single question about them."
“Oh! the good Bateses—I am quite ashamed of myself—but you mention them in most of your letters. I hope they are quite well. Good old Mrs. Bates—I will call upon her to-morrow, and take my children.—They are always so pleased to see my children.—And that excellent Miss Bates!—such thorough worthy people!—How are they, sir?”
“Oh! the good Bateses—I feel a bit embarrassed, but you mention them in almost all your letters. I hope they’re doing well. Good old Mrs. Bates—I’ll visit her tomorrow and bring my kids. They’re always so happy to see my children. And that wonderful Miss Bates!—such genuinely good people!—How are they, sir?”
“Why, pretty well, my dear, upon the whole. But poor Mrs. Bates had a bad cold about a month ago.”
“Honestly, pretty well, my dear, all things considered. But poor Mrs. Bates had a bad cold about a month ago.”
“How sorry I am! But colds were never so prevalent as they have been this autumn. Mr. Wingfield told me that he has never known them more general or heavy—except when it has been quite an influenza.”
“How sorry I am! But colds have never been as widespread as they have been this fall. Mr. Wingfield told me that he has never seen them more common or severe—except when it has been a full-blown influenza.”
“That has been a good deal the case, my dear; but not to the degree you mention. Perry says that colds have been very general, but not so heavy as he has very often known them in November. Perry does not call it altogether a sickly season.”
“That has definitely been the case, my dear; but not as much as you say. Perry says that colds have been quite common, but not as severe as he has often seen them in November. Perry doesn’t consider it an entirely sickly season.”
“No, I do not know that Mr. Wingfield considers it very sickly except—
“No, I do not know that Mr. Wingfield thinks it very sickly except—
“Ah! my poor dear child, the truth is, that in London it is always a sickly season. Nobody is healthy in London, nobody can be. It is a dreadful thing to have you forced to live there! so far off!—and the air so bad!”
“Ah! my poor dear child, the truth is, that in London it’s always a sickly time. Nobody is healthy in London, nobody can be. It’s terrible that you have to live there! so far away!—and the air is so bad!”
“No, indeed—we are not at all in a bad air. Our part of London is very superior to most others!—You must not confound us with London in general, my dear sir. The neighbourhood of Brunswick Square is very different from almost all the rest. We are so very airy! I should be unwilling, I own, to live in any other part of the town;—there is hardly any other that I could be satisfied to have my children in: but we are so remarkably airy!—Mr. Wingfield thinks the vicinity of Brunswick Square decidedly the most favourable as to air.”
“No, of course not—we’re definitely not in a bad area. Our part of London is way better than most others! You shouldn’t confuse us with London as a whole, my dear sir. The neighborhood around Brunswick Square is really different from almost all the rest. It’s so much more open! Honestly, I wouldn’t want to live anywhere else in town; there’s hardly anywhere else I’d be comfortable raising my children: but we have such a wonderfully open space!—Mr. Wingfield thinks the area around Brunswick Square is definitely the best for fresh air.”
“Ah! my dear, it is not like Hartfield. You make the best of it—but after you have been a week at Hartfield, you are all of you different creatures; you do not look like the same. Now I cannot say, that I think you are any of you looking well at present.”
“Ah! my dear, it’s not like Hartfield. You make the most of it—but after you’ve spent a week at Hartfield, you all seem like different people; you don’t look the same at all. I can’t say that I think any of you look particularly well right now.”
“I am sorry to hear you say so, sir; but I assure you, excepting those little nervous head-aches and palpitations which I am never entirely free from anywhere, I am quite well myself; and if the children were rather pale before they went to bed, it was only because they were a little more tired than usual, from their journey and the happiness of coming. I hope you will think better of their looks to-morrow; for I assure you Mr. Wingfield told me, that he did not believe he had ever sent us off altogether, in such good case. I trust, at least, that you do not think Mr. Knightley looking ill,” turning her eyes with affectionate anxiety towards her husband.
“I’m sorry to hear you say that, sir; but I promise you, aside from those little nervous headaches and palpitations that I never fully shake off, I’m doing just fine myself. And if the kids looked a bit pale before they went to bed, it’s only because they were a bit more tired than usual from the journey and the excitement of coming here. I hope you’ll feel better about how they look tomorrow; because I assure you Mr. Wingfield told me he didn’t think he had ever sent us off in such good shape. I at least hope that you don’t think Mr. Knightley looks unwell,” she said, her eyes filled with affectionate concern for her husband.
“Middling, my dear; I cannot compliment you. I think Mr. John Knightley very far from looking well.”
“Middling, my dear; I can’t compliment you. I think Mr. John Knightley looks quite unwell.”
“What is the matter, sir?—Did you speak to me?” cried Mr. John Knightley, hearing his own name.
“What’s wrong, sir?—Did you call me?” shouted Mr. John Knightley, hearing his own name.
“I am sorry to find, my love, that my father does not think you looking well—but I hope it is only from being a little fatigued. I could have wished, however, as you know, that you had seen Mr. Wingfield before you left home.”
“I’m sorry to hear, my love, that my dad doesn’t think you look well—but I hope it’s just that you’re a bit tired. I would have preferred, as you know, that you had seen Mr. Wingfield before you left home.”
“My dear Isabella,”—exclaimed he hastily—“pray do not concern yourself about my looks. Be satisfied with doctoring and coddling yourself and the children, and let me look as I chuse.”
“My dear Isabella,” he said quickly, “please don’t worry about how I look. Focus on taking care of yourself and the kids, and let me look how I want.”
“I did not thoroughly understand what you were telling your brother,” cried Emma, “about your friend Mr. Graham’s intending to have a bailiff from Scotland, to look after his new estate. What will it answer? Will not the old prejudice be too strong?”
“I didn’t really get what you were saying to your brother,” Emma exclaimed, “about your friend Mr. Graham wanting to hire a bailiff from Scotland to manage his new estate. What’s the point? Isn’t the old bias going to be too much to overcome?”
And she talked in this way so long and successfully that, when forced to give her attention again to her father and sister, she had nothing worse to hear than Isabella’s kind inquiry after Jane Fairfax; and Jane Fairfax, though no great favourite with her in general, she was at that moment very happy to assist in praising.
And she chatted like this for so long and so well that, when she had to turn her attention back to her father and sister, the worst she heard was Isabella’s nice question about Jane Fairfax; and even though Jane Fairfax wasn't usually her favorite, she was really glad to help praise her at that moment.
“That sweet, amiable Jane Fairfax!” said Mrs. John Knightley.—“It is so long since I have seen her, except now and then for a moment accidentally in town! What happiness it must be to her good old grandmother and excellent aunt, when she comes to visit them! I always regret excessively on dear Emma’s account that she cannot be more at Highbury; but now their daughter is married, I suppose Colonel and Mrs. Campbell will not be able to part with her at all. She would be such a delightful companion for Emma.”
“That sweet, lovely Jane Fairfax!” said Mrs. John Knightley. “I haven’t seen her in so long, except for the occasional brief encounter in town! What joy it must bring to her kind old grandmother and wonderful aunt when she comes to see them! I always feel so bad for dear Emma that she can’t spend more time in Highbury; but now that their daughter is married, I guess Colonel and Mrs. Campbell won’t want to let her go at all. She would be such a wonderful companion for Emma.”
Mr. Woodhouse agreed to it all, but added,
Mr. Woodhouse agreed to it all, but added,
“Our little friend Harriet Smith, however, is just such another pretty kind of young person. You will like Harriet. Emma could not have a better companion than Harriet.”
“Our little friend Harriet Smith is just another lovely young person. You'll like Harriet. Emma couldn't have a better friend than Harriet.”
“I am most happy to hear it—but only Jane Fairfax one knows to be so very accomplished and superior!—and exactly Emma’s age.”
“I’m really glad to hear that—but only Jane Fairfax is known to be so talented and exceptional!—and she’s exactly Emma’s age.”
This topic was discussed very happily, and others succeeded of similar moment, and passed away with similar harmony; but the evening did not close without a little return of agitation. The gruel came and supplied a great deal to be said—much praise and many comments—undoubting decision of its wholesomeness for every constitution, and pretty severe Philippics upon the many houses where it was never met with tolerably;—but, unfortunately, among the failures which the daughter had to instance, the most recent, and therefore most prominent, was in her own cook at South End, a young woman hired for the time, who never had been able to understand what she meant by a basin of nice smooth gruel, thin, but not too thin. Often as she had wished for and ordered it, she had never been able to get any thing tolerable. Here was a dangerous opening.
This topic was discussed quite enthusiastically, and others of similar importance followed suit, all in good spirits; however, the evening didn’t end without a bit of unease. The gruel arrived, providing a lot to talk about—plenty of praise and remarks—unquestionable agreement on its suitability for everyone, and rather harsh critiques of the many places where it was never prepared properly;—but, unfortunately, among the failures the daughter had to mention, the most recent and thus most noteworthy was her own cook at South End, a young woman hired temporarily, who had never managed to grasp what she meant by a bowl of nice smooth gruel, thin but not too thin. Despite how often she had wished for and ordered it, she had never been able to get anything acceptable. This was a risky situation.
“Ah!” said Mr. Woodhouse, shaking his head and fixing his eyes on her with tender concern.—The ejaculation in Emma’s ear expressed, “Ah! there is no end of the sad consequences of your going to South End. It does not bear talking of.” And for a little while she hoped he would not talk of it, and that a silent rumination might suffice to restore him to the relish of his own smooth gruel. After an interval of some minutes, however, he began with,
“Ah!” Mr. Woodhouse said, shaking his head and looking at her with gentle concern. The sigh in Emma’s ear conveyed, “Ah! there’s no end to the unfortunate results of your going to South End. It’s not worth discussing.” For a moment, she hoped he wouldn’t bring it up and that a quiet moment would be enough to bring him back to enjoying his plain porridge. After a few minutes, though, he started with,
“I shall always be very sorry that you went to the sea this autumn, instead of coming here.”
“I will always regret that you went to the ocean this fall instead of coming here.”
“But why should you be sorry, sir?—I assure you, it did the children a great deal of good.”
“But why should you feel sorry, sir?—I promise you, it really helped the kids a lot.”
“And, moreover, if you must go to the sea, it had better not have been to South End. South End is an unhealthy place. Perry was surprized to hear you had fixed upon South End.”
“And, what's more, if you have to go to the beach, you really shouldn't choose South End. South End is not a healthy spot. Perry was surprised to hear you decided on South End.”
“I know there is such an idea with many people, but indeed it is quite a mistake, sir.—We all had our health perfectly well there, never found the least inconvenience from the mud; and Mr. Wingfield says it is entirely a mistake to suppose the place unhealthy; and I am sure he may be depended on, for he thoroughly understands the nature of the air, and his own brother and family have been there repeatedly.”
“I know a lot of people think that way, but it's really a mistake, sir. We were all perfectly healthy there and never had any issues with the mud. Mr. Wingfield says it's completely wrong to believe the place is unhealthy, and I trust him completely because he really understands the air quality; plus, his brother and family have been there multiple times.”
“You should have gone to Cromer, my dear, if you went anywhere.—Perry was a week at Cromer once, and he holds it to be the best of all the sea-bathing places. A fine open sea, he says, and very pure air. And, by what I understand, you might have had lodgings there quite away from the sea—a quarter of a mile off—very comfortable. You should have consulted Perry.”
“You should have gone to Cromer, my dear, if you were going anywhere. Perry spent a week in Cromer once, and he thinks it’s the best of all the seaside spots. He says the sea is great and the air is really fresh. From what I hear, you could have found accommodations quite a distance from the beach—about a quarter of a mile—very comfortable. You should have talked to Perry.”
“But, my dear sir, the difference of the journey;—only consider how great it would have been.—An hundred miles, perhaps, instead of forty.”
“But, my dear sir, think about the difference in the journey;—just consider how significant it would have been.—A hundred miles, maybe, instead of forty.”
“Ah! my dear, as Perry says, where health is at stake, nothing else should be considered; and if one is to travel, there is not much to chuse between forty miles and an hundred.—Better not move at all, better stay in London altogether than travel forty miles to get into a worse air. This is just what Perry said. It seemed to him a very ill-judged measure.”
“Ah! my dear, as Perry says, when health is on the line, nothing else should matter; and if someone has to travel, there’s not much difference between forty miles and a hundred. —It’s better not to move at all, better to stay in London than to travel forty miles for worse air. This is exactly what Perry said. He thought it was a very unwise decision.”
Emma’s attempts to stop her father had been vain; and when he had reached such a point as this, she could not wonder at her brother-in-law’s breaking out.
Emma's efforts to stop her father had been pointless; and when he had reached this point, she couldn't blame her brother-in-law for losing his temper.
“Mr. Perry,” said he, in a voice of very strong displeasure, “would do as well to keep his opinion till it is asked for. Why does he make it any business of his, to wonder at what I do?—at my taking my family to one part of the coast or another?—I may be allowed, I hope, the use of my judgment as well as Mr. Perry.—I want his directions no more than his drugs.” He paused—and growing cooler in a moment, added, with only sarcastic dryness, “If Mr. Perry can tell me how to convey a wife and five children a distance of an hundred and thirty miles with no greater expense or inconvenience than a distance of forty, I should be as willing to prefer Cromer to South End as he could himself.”
“Mr. Perry,” he said, sounding very displeased, “should really hold his opinions until they're requested. Why does he feel the need to question my choices?—like taking my family to one part of the coast or another?—I hope I’m allowed to use my judgment just as much as Mr. Perry is. I don't need his advice any more than I need his medications.” He paused, then, feeling a bit calmer, added with a hint of sarcasm, “If Mr. Perry can figure out how to transport a wife and five kids over a hundred thirty miles with no more expense or hassle than forty miles, I’d be just as happy to choose Cromer over South End as he would.”
“True, true,” cried Mr. Knightley, with most ready interposition—“very true. That’s a consideration indeed.—But John, as to what I was telling you of my idea of moving the path to Langham, of turning it more to the right that it may not cut through the home meadows, I cannot conceive any difficulty. I should not attempt it, if it were to be the means of inconvenience to the Highbury people, but if you call to mind exactly the present line of the path.... The only way of proving it, however, will be to turn to our maps. I shall see you at the Abbey to-morrow morning I hope, and then we will look them over, and you shall give me your opinion.”
“Right, right,” Mr. Knightley exclaimed, quickly jumping in—“absolutely true. That's definitely something to think about.—But John, regarding what I mentioned about relocating the path to Langham, shifting it more to the right so it doesn't cut through the home meadows, I really can’t see any problems. I wouldn’t propose it if it would cause any issues for the people of Highbury, but if you remember the current path.... The only way to confirm it, though, is to check our maps. I hope to see you at the Abbey tomorrow morning, and then we can go over them, and you can share your thoughts.”
Mr. Woodhouse was rather agitated by such harsh reflections on his friend Perry, to whom he had, in fact, though unconsciously, been attributing many of his own feelings and expressions;—but the soothing attentions of his daughters gradually removed the present evil, and the immediate alertness of one brother, and better recollections of the other, prevented any renewal of it.
Mr. Woodhouse was quite upset by the harsh comments about his friend Perry, to whom he had, unknowingly, been assigning many of his own feelings and expressions; however, the comforting care of his daughters slowly eased his distress, and the attentiveness of one brother and the better memories of the other kept anything from coming up again.
CHAPTER XIII
There could hardly be a happier creature in the world than Mrs. John Knightley, in this short visit to Hartfield, going about every morning among her old acquaintance with her five children, and talking over what she had done every evening with her father and sister. She had nothing to wish otherwise, but that the days did not pass so swiftly. It was a delightful visit;—perfect, in being much too short.
There could hardly be a happier person in the world than Mrs. John Knightley during this short visit to Hartfield, going about every morning among her old friends with her five kids, and talking every evening about what she had done with her father and sister. She didn't wish for anything else, except that the days didn’t go by so quickly. It was a wonderful visit—perfect, but way too short.
In general their evenings were less engaged with friends than their mornings; but one complete dinner engagement, and out of the house too, there was no avoiding, though at Christmas. Mr. Weston would take no denial; they must all dine at Randalls one day;—even Mr. Woodhouse was persuaded to think it a possible thing in preference to a division of the party.
Overall, their evenings were less social with friends compared to their mornings; however, there was one dinner invitation they couldn’t turn down, even during Christmas. Mr. Weston wouldn't take no for an answer; they all had to have dinner at Randalls one day—even Mr. Woodhouse was convinced it was a reasonable idea rather than splitting the group.
How they were all to be conveyed, he would have made a difficulty if he could, but as his son and daughter’s carriage and horses were actually at Hartfield, he was not able to make more than a simple question on that head; it hardly amounted to a doubt; nor did it occupy Emma long to convince him that they might in one of the carriages find room for Harriet also.
How they were all going to get there, he would have made a big deal about if he could, but since his son and daughter’s carriage and horses were already at Hartfield, he could only ask a straightforward question about it; it barely felt like a doubt. It didn’t take Emma long to show him that there would be enough space in one of the carriages for Harriet too.
Harriet, Mr. Elton, and Mr. Knightley, their own especial set, were the only persons invited to meet them;—the hours were to be early, as well as the numbers few; Mr. Woodhouse’s habits and inclination being consulted in every thing.
Harriet, Mr. Elton, and Mr. Knightley, their own special group, were the only people invited to meet them; the hours were set to be early, and the numbers were kept small, considering Mr. Woodhouse’s habits and preferences in everything.
The evening before this great event (for it was a very great event that Mr. Woodhouse should dine out, on the 24th of December) had been spent by Harriet at Hartfield, and she had gone home so much indisposed with a cold, that, but for her own earnest wish of being nursed by Mrs. Goddard, Emma could not have allowed her to leave the house. Emma called on her the next day, and found her doom already signed with regard to Randalls. She was very feverish and had a bad sore throat: Mrs. Goddard was full of care and affection, Mr. Perry was talked of, and Harriet herself was too ill and low to resist the authority which excluded her from this delightful engagement, though she could not speak of her loss without many tears.
The night before this big event (because it was a really big deal for Mr. Woodhouse to dine out on December 24th) was spent by Harriet at Hartfield, and she had gone home feeling so unwell with a cold that, if it weren’t for her strong desire to be taken care of by Mrs. Goddard, Emma wouldn’t have let her leave the house. Emma visited her the next day and found that her fate regarding Randalls was already sealed. She was very feverish and had a bad sore throat: Mrs. Goddard was filled with care and concern, Mr. Perry was mentioned, and Harriet herself was too sick and down to resist the authority that kept her from this enjoyable outing, even though she couldn’t talk about her loss without crying a lot.
Emma sat with her as long as she could, to attend her in Mrs. Goddard’s unavoidable absences, and raise her spirits by representing how much Mr. Elton’s would be depressed when he knew her state; and left her at last tolerably comfortable, in the sweet dependence of his having a most comfortless visit, and of their all missing her very much. She had not advanced many yards from Mrs. Goddard’s door, when she was met by Mr. Elton himself, evidently coming towards it, and as they walked on slowly together in conversation about the invalid—of whom he, on the rumour of considerable illness, had been going to inquire, that he might carry some report of her to Hartfield—they were overtaken by Mr. John Knightley returning from the daily visit to Donwell, with his two eldest boys, whose healthy, glowing faces shewed all the benefit of a country run, and seemed to ensure a quick despatch of the roast mutton and rice pudding they were hastening home for. They joined company and proceeded together. Emma was just describing the nature of her friend’s complaint;—“a throat very much inflamed, with a great deal of heat about her, a quick, low pulse, &c. and she was sorry to find from Mrs. Goddard that Harriet was liable to very bad sore-throats, and had often alarmed her with them.” Mr. Elton looked all alarm on the occasion, as he exclaimed,
Emma stayed with her for as long as she could, to keep her company during Mrs. Goddard’s unavoidable absences and to lift her spirits by suggesting how much Mr. Elton would be worried when he found out about her condition. She eventually left her feeling somewhat comfortable, relying on the fact that he would have a very difficult visit and that everyone would miss her greatly. She had barely walked a few yards from Mrs. Goddard’s door when she ran into Mr. Elton himself, clearly heading toward it. As they walked slowly together, discussing the sick friend—who he had intended to check on because of the news of her serious illness, so he could bring a report back to Hartfield—they were joined by Mr. John Knightley, who was returning from his daily visit to Donwell with his two oldest boys. Their healthy, glowing faces showed the benefits of a countryside outing and suggested they would soon devour the roast mutton and rice pudding they were eager to bring home. They formed a group and continued on together. Emma was just explaining the nature of her friend’s illness: “a very inflamed throat, a lot of heat, a quick, weak pulse, etc., and she was sorry to learn from Mrs. Goddard that Harriet was prone to very bad sore throats, which had often alarmed her.” Mr. Elton reacted with concern, exclaiming,
“A sore-throat!—I hope not infectious. I hope not of a putrid infectious sort. Has Perry seen her? Indeed you should take care of yourself as well as of your friend. Let me entreat you to run no risks. Why does not Perry see her?”
“A sore throat! I hope it's not contagious. I hope it's not some nasty infectious type. Has Perry checked on her? Seriously, you should look after yourself as well as your friend. Please, I'm urging you to avoid any risks. Why hasn’t Perry seen her?”
Emma, who was not really at all frightened herself, tranquillised this excess of apprehension by assurances of Mrs. Goddard’s experience and care; but as there must still remain a degree of uneasiness which she could not wish to reason away, which she would rather feed and assist than not, she added soon afterwards—as if quite another subject,
Emma, who wasn't actually scared herself, calmed down this overwhelming worry by assuring everyone of Mrs. Goddard's experience and care; however, since there was still some level of unease that she didn't want to dismiss, which she preferred to nurture and support instead, she added soon after, as if it was a completely different topic,
“It is so cold, so very cold—and looks and feels so very much like snow, that if it were to any other place or with any other party, I should really try not to go out to-day—and dissuade my father from venturing; but as he has made up his mind, and does not seem to feel the cold himself, I do not like to interfere, as I know it would be so great a disappointment to Mr. and Mrs. Weston. But, upon my word, Mr. Elton, in your case, I should certainly excuse myself. You appear to me a little hoarse already, and when you consider what demand of voice and what fatigues to-morrow will bring, I think it would be no more than common prudence to stay at home and take care of yourself to-night.”
“It’s so cold, really cold—and it looks and feels so much like snow that if I were anywhere else or with anyone else, I would definitely try not to go out today—and I’d convince my dad to stay in too; but since he’s decided to go and doesn’t seem to mind the cold, I don’t want to interfere because I know it would really disappoint Mr. and Mrs. Weston. But honestly, Mr. Elton, for you, I would definitely make an exception. You sound a little hoarse already, and considering what tomorrow will bring in terms of needing your voice and the exhaustion it’ll cause, I think it makes sense to stay home and look after yourself tonight.”
Mr. Elton looked as if he did not very well know what answer to make; which was exactly the case; for though very much gratified by the kind care of such a fair lady, and not liking to resist any advice of her’s, he had not really the least inclination to give up the visit;—but Emma, too eager and busy in her own previous conceptions and views to hear him impartially, or see him with clear vision, was very well satisfied with his muttering acknowledgment of its being “very cold, certainly very cold,” and walked on, rejoicing in having extricated him from Randalls, and secured him the power of sending to inquire after Harriet every hour of the evening.
Mr. Elton looked uncertain about how to respond, which was exactly what was happening; even though he appreciated the thoughtful care of such a lovely lady and didn't want to go against any of her advice, he really had no desire to skip the visit. Emma, too eager and focused on her own ideas and plans to listen to him fairly or see him clearly, was perfectly satisfied with his mumbling acknowledgment that it was "very cold, certainly very cold," and continued walking, pleased that she had helped him escape from Randalls and ensured that he could check on Harriet every hour that evening.
“You do quite right,” said she;—“we will make your apologies to Mr. and Mrs. Weston.”
"You’re absolutely right," she said;—"we'll apologize to Mr. and Mrs. Weston."
But hardly had she so spoken, when she found her brother was civilly offering a seat in his carriage, if the weather were Mr. Elton’s only objection, and Mr. Elton actually accepting the offer with much prompt satisfaction. It was a done thing; Mr. Elton was to go, and never had his broad handsome face expressed more pleasure than at this moment; never had his smile been stronger, nor his eyes more exulting than when he next looked at her.
But just as she finished speaking, she realized her brother was politely offering a seat in his carriage, if the weather was Mr. Elton’s only concern, and Mr. Elton actually accepted the offer with much eagerness. It was settled; Mr. Elton was going, and never had his broad, handsome face shown more delight than at that moment; never had his smile been wider, nor his eyes more triumphant than when he next looked at her.
“Well,” said she to herself, “this is most strange!—After I had got him off so well, to chuse to go into company, and leave Harriet ill behind!—Most strange indeed!—But there is, I believe, in many men, especially single men, such an inclination—such a passion for dining out—a dinner engagement is so high in the class of their pleasures, their employments, their dignities, almost their duties, that any thing gives way to it—and this must be the case with Mr. Elton; a most valuable, amiable, pleasing young man undoubtedly, and very much in love with Harriet; but still, he cannot refuse an invitation, he must dine out wherever he is asked. What a strange thing love is! he can see ready wit in Harriet, but will not dine alone for her.”
“Well,” she said to herself, “this is really strange! After I got him off so well, he chooses to go out with others and leave Harriet sick behind! It's truly odd! But I think there is, in many men, especially single ones, a tendency—almost a passion for going out to eat—a dinner invitation ranks really high in their list of pleasures, activities, status, and even responsibilities, that anything else gets pushed aside for it. This must be true for Mr. Elton; he is a genuinely valuable, kind, and charming young man, and he is definitely very much in love with Harriet. Yet, he can't say no to an invitation; he has to dine out wherever he's asked. How strange love is! He can see Harriet's quick wit, but he won't eat alone for her.”
Soon afterwards Mr. Elton quitted them, and she could not but do him the justice of feeling that there was a great deal of sentiment in his manner of naming Harriet at parting; in the tone of his voice while assuring her that he should call at Mrs. Goddard’s for news of her fair friend, the last thing before he prepared for the happiness of meeting her again, when he hoped to be able to give a better report; and he sighed and smiled himself off in a way that left the balance of approbation much in his favour.
Soon after, Mr. Elton left them, and she couldn’t help but recognize that there was a lot of feeling in how he mentioned Harriet as he was saying goodbye. The way he spoke while promising to stop by Mrs. Goddard’s for updates on her lovely friend, just before he got ready for the joy of seeing her again, when he hoped to have better news to share; he sighed and smiled as he departed, which made her think positively of him.
After a few minutes of entire silence between them, John Knightley began with—
After a few minutes of total silence between them, John Knightley started with—
“I never in my life saw a man more intent on being agreeable than Mr. Elton. It is downright labour to him where ladies are concerned. With men he can be rational and unaffected, but when he has ladies to please, every feature works.”
“I've never seen a guy more focused on being liked than Mr. Elton. It's a real effort for him when it comes to women. With men, he can be sensible and genuine, but when he’s trying to impress ladies, every part of him shows it.”
“Mr. Elton’s manners are not perfect,” replied Emma; “but where there is a wish to please, one ought to overlook, and one does overlook a great deal. Where a man does his best with only moderate powers, he will have the advantage over negligent superiority. There is such perfect good-temper and good-will in Mr. Elton as one cannot but value.”
“Mr. Elton’s manners aren’t perfect,” Emma replied; “but when someone wants to please, it’s important to overlook flaws, and we often do overlook a lot. When a man puts in his best effort with only average abilities, he has an edge over those who are carelessly superior. Mr. Elton has such wonderful good nature and goodwill that it’s hard not to appreciate it.”
“Yes,” said Mr. John Knightley presently, with some slyness, “he seems to have a great deal of good-will towards you.”
“Yes,” said Mr. John Knightley a moment later, with a hint of slyness, “he seems to have a lot of goodwill towards you.”
“Me!” she replied with a smile of astonishment, “are you imagining me to be Mr. Elton’s object?”
"Me!" she said, smiling in surprise. "Do you really think I'm Mr. Elton's interest?"
“Such an imagination has crossed me, I own, Emma; and if it never occurred to you before, you may as well take it into consideration now.”
“Such an idea has come to me, I admit, Emma; and if you’ve never thought about it before, you might as well consider it now.”
“Mr. Elton in love with me!—What an idea!”
“Mr. Elton is in love with me!—What a thought!”
“I do not say it is so; but you will do well to consider whether it is so or not, and to regulate your behaviour accordingly. I think your manners to him encouraging. I speak as a friend, Emma. You had better look about you, and ascertain what you do, and what you mean to do.”
“I’m not saying it’s true, but you should really think about whether it is or not, and adjust your behavior accordingly. I find your manners toward him encouraging. I’m speaking as a friend, Emma. You should take a moment to observe what you’re doing and what your intentions are.”
“I thank you; but I assure you you are quite mistaken. Mr. Elton and I are very good friends, and nothing more;” and she walked on, amusing herself in the consideration of the blunders which often arise from a partial knowledge of circumstances, of the mistakes which people of high pretensions to judgment are for ever falling into; and not very well pleased with her brother for imagining her blind and ignorant, and in want of counsel. He said no more.
“I appreciate it, but I assure you, you’re completely mistaken. Mr. Elton and I are just good friends, nothing more,” she said as she walked away, entertaining herself with thoughts about the misunderstandings that often come from knowing only part of the story, and how people who think they’re very wise constantly make mistakes. She was also not too happy with her brother for thinking she was naive and needed advice. He didn’t say anything else.
Mr. Woodhouse had so completely made up his mind to the visit, that in spite of the increasing coldness, he seemed to have no idea of shrinking from it, and set forward at last most punctually with his eldest daughter in his own carriage, with less apparent consciousness of the weather than either of the others; too full of the wonder of his own going, and the pleasure it was to afford at Randalls to see that it was cold, and too well wrapt up to feel it. The cold, however, was severe; and by the time the second carriage was in motion, a few flakes of snow were finding their way down, and the sky had the appearance of being so overcharged as to want only a milder air to produce a very white world in a very short time.
Mr. Woodhouse had completely decided on the visit, so despite the increasing cold, he didn’t seem to consider backing out. He set off on time with his eldest daughter in his own carriage, appearing less aware of the weather than anyone else; he was too caught up in the excitement of going and the pleasure of visiting Randalls to notice it was cold, and he was bundled up well enough not to feel it. The cold was definitely harsh, though, and by the time the second carriage started moving, a few flakes of snow were starting to fall, and the sky looked so heavy that it seemed like it just needed a slightly warmer breeze to quickly turn everything into a white landscape.
Emma soon saw that her companion was not in the happiest humour. The preparing and the going abroad in such weather, with the sacrifice of his children after dinner, were evils, were disagreeables at least, which Mr. John Knightley did not by any means like; he anticipated nothing in the visit that could be at all worth the purchase; and the whole of their drive to the vicarage was spent by him in expressing his discontent.
Emma soon noticed that her friend wasn’t in the best mood. Preparing to go out in such weather, along with having to leave his kids after dinner, were definitely unpleasant things that Mr. John Knightley didn’t like at all; he didn’t see anything about the visit that would make it worth it. The entire drive to the vicarage was spent with him voicing his dissatisfaction.
“A man,” said he, “must have a very good opinion of himself when he asks people to leave their own fireside, and encounter such a day as this, for the sake of coming to see him. He must think himself a most agreeable fellow; I could not do such a thing. It is the greatest absurdity—Actually snowing at this moment!—The folly of not allowing people to be comfortable at home—and the folly of people’s not staying comfortably at home when they can! If we were obliged to go out such an evening as this, by any call of duty or business, what a hardship we should deem it;—and here are we, probably with rather thinner clothing than usual, setting forward voluntarily, without excuse, in defiance of the voice of nature, which tells man, in every thing given to his view or his feelings, to stay at home himself, and keep all under shelter that he can;—here are we setting forward to spend five dull hours in another man’s house, with nothing to say or to hear that was not said and heard yesterday, and may not be said and heard again to-morrow. Going in dismal weather, to return probably in worse;—four horses and four servants taken out for nothing but to convey five idle, shivering creatures into colder rooms and worse company than they might have had at home.”
“A man,” he said, “must really think highly of himself when he asks people to leave their own warm homes and brave a day like this just to see him. He must consider himself quite charming; I couldn't do such a thing. It's the biggest absurdity—actually snowing right now!—The foolishness of not letting people be comfortable at home—and the foolishness of people not choosing to stay cozy at home when they can! If we had to go out on a night like this for some duty or work, we would see it as such a hardship;—and here we are, probably wearing lighter clothes than usual, heading out voluntarily, without any reason, defying the natural instinct that tells us, through everything we see or feel, to stay home and keep ourselves sheltered;—here we are, preparing to spend five boring hours in someone else's house, with nothing to say or hear that wasn’t said and heard yesterday, and probably won’t be said and heard again tomorrow. Going out in miserable weather, likely to come back to worse;—four horses and four servants sent out only to carry five idle, shivering people into colder rooms and worse company than they could have had at home.”
Emma did not find herself equal to give the pleased assent, which no doubt he was in the habit of receiving, to emulate the “Very true, my love,” which must have been usually administered by his travelling companion; but she had resolution enough to refrain from making any answer at all. She could not be complying, she dreaded being quarrelsome; her heroism reached only to silence. She allowed him to talk, and arranged the glasses, and wrapped herself up, without opening her lips.
Emma didn't think she could give him the pleased agreement he was probably used to receiving, like the “Very true, my love,” that his travel companion likely offered regularly. However, she was determined enough to keep quiet. She couldn't bring herself to comply, but she also feared being argumentative; her bravery only went as far as being silent. She let him talk, adjusted the glasses, and wrapped herself up without saying a word.
They arrived, the carriage turned, the step was let down, and Mr. Elton, spruce, black, and smiling, was with them instantly. Emma thought with pleasure of some change of subject. Mr. Elton was all obligation and cheerfulness; he was so very cheerful in his civilities indeed, that she began to think he must have received a different account of Harriet from what had reached her. She had sent while dressing, and the answer had been, “Much the same—not better.”
They arrived, the carriage turned, the step came down, and Mr. Elton, looking sharp in black and smiling, was with them right away. Emma happily considered changing the subject. Mr. Elton was all about gratitude and positivity; he was so cheerful in his manners that she started to think he must have gotten a different story about Harriet than what she had heard. She had sent a message while getting ready, and the reply had been, “About the same—nothing better.”
“My report from Mrs. Goddard’s,” said she presently, “was not so pleasant as I had hoped—‘Not better’ was my answer.”
“My report from Mrs. Goddard’s,” she said after a moment, “wasn’t as pleasant as I had hoped—‘Not better’ was my answer.”
His face lengthened immediately; and his voice was the voice of sentiment as he answered.
His face immediately grew serious, and his voice took on a sentimental tone as he replied.
“Oh! no—I am grieved to find—I was on the point of telling you that when I called at Mrs. Goddard’s door, which I did the very last thing before I returned to dress, I was told that Miss Smith was not better, by no means better, rather worse. Very much grieved and concerned—I had flattered myself that she must be better after such a cordial as I knew had been given her in the morning.”
“Oh! No—I’m so sorry to say—I was just about to tell you that when I stopped by Mrs. Goddard’s place, which I did right before I went to get ready, I was told that Miss Smith wasn’t any better, not at all, and actually worse. I felt very upset and worried—I had really hoped she would be better after such a nice drink that I knew she had in the morning.”
Emma smiled and answered—“My visit was of use to the nervous part of her complaint, I hope; but not even I can charm away a sore throat; it is a most severe cold indeed. Mr. Perry has been with her, as you probably heard.”
Emma smiled and replied, “I hope my visit helped with her anxiety, but even I can’t make a sore throat go away; she really has a bad cold. Mr. Perry has been with her, as you probably heard.”
“Yes—I imagined—that is—I did not—”
“Yes—I thought—that is—I didn’t—”
“He has been used to her in these complaints, and I hope to-morrow morning will bring us both a more comfortable report. But it is impossible not to feel uneasiness. Such a sad loss to our party to-day!”
“He’s gotten used to her expressing these concerns, and I hope tomorrow morning brings us both a more reassuring update. But it’s hard not to feel uneasy. It’s such a sad loss for our group today!”
“Dreadful!—Exactly so, indeed.—She will be missed every moment.”
“Terrible!—Absolutely, yes.—We’ll miss her every second.”
This was very proper; the sigh which accompanied it was really estimable; but it should have lasted longer. Emma was rather in dismay when only half a minute afterwards he began to speak of other things, and in a voice of the greatest alacrity and enjoyment.
This was quite appropriate; the sigh that went along with it was truly commendable; however, it should have lasted longer. Emma felt a bit disheartened when just half a minute later he started talking about other topics, and in a tone full of enthusiasm and delight.
“What an excellent device,” said he, “the use of a sheepskin for carriages. How very comfortable they make it;—impossible to feel cold with such precautions. The contrivances of modern days indeed have rendered a gentleman’s carriage perfectly complete. One is so fenced and guarded from the weather, that not a breath of air can find its way unpermitted. Weather becomes absolutely of no consequence. It is a very cold afternoon—but in this carriage we know nothing of the matter.—Ha! snows a little I see.”
“What a great invention,” he said, “using sheepskin for carriages. They make it so comfortable; it’s impossible to feel cold with such measures. The innovations of today have truly made a gentleman’s carriage completely perfect. You’re so protected from the weather that not even a breath of air can sneak in uninvited. The weather doesn’t really matter at all. It’s a pretty cold afternoon—but in this carriage, we’re completely unaware of it. Oh! It’s starting to snow a little, I see.”
“Yes,” said John Knightley, “and I think we shall have a good deal of it.”
“Yes,” said John Knightley, “and I think we’re going to have quite a bit of it.”
“Christmas weather,” observed Mr. Elton. “Quite seasonable; and extremely fortunate we may think ourselves that it did not begin yesterday, and prevent this day’s party, which it might very possibly have done, for Mr. Woodhouse would hardly have ventured had there been much snow on the ground; but now it is of no consequence. This is quite the season indeed for friendly meetings. At Christmas every body invites their friends about them, and people think little of even the worst weather. I was snowed up at a friend’s house once for a week. Nothing could be pleasanter. I went for only one night, and could not get away till that very day se’nnight.”
“Christmas weather,” Mr. Elton noted. “It’s pretty typical; and we can consider ourselves very lucky that it didn’t start snowing yesterday, which could have disrupted today’s gathering. Mr. Woodhouse definitely wouldn’t have ventured out if there had been a lot of snow on the ground, but now it doesn’t matter. This really is the perfect season for friendly get-togethers. At Christmas, everyone invites their friends over, and people hardly care about even the worst weather. I once got stuck at a friend’s place for a week because of the snow. It couldn’t have been more enjoyable. I had gone for just one night and ended up staying until a week later.”
Mr. John Knightley looked as if he did not comprehend the pleasure, but said only, coolly,
Mr. John Knightley looked like he didn’t understand the joy, but just said, coolly,
“I cannot wish to be snowed up a week at Randalls.”
“I really can’t imagine being stuck at Randalls for a week.”
At another time Emma might have been amused, but she was too much astonished now at Mr. Elton’s spirits for other feelings. Harriet seemed quite forgotten in the expectation of a pleasant party.
At another time, Emma might have found it funny, but she was too shocked by Mr. Elton’s enthusiasm to feel anything else. Harriet seemed completely forgotten in the anticipation of a fun gathering.
“We are sure of excellent fires,” continued he, “and every thing in the greatest comfort. Charming people, Mr. and Mrs. Weston;—Mrs. Weston indeed is much beyond praise, and he is exactly what one values, so hospitable, and so fond of society;—it will be a small party, but where small parties are select, they are perhaps the most agreeable of any. Mr. Weston’s dining-room does not accommodate more than ten comfortably; and for my part, I would rather, under such circumstances, fall short by two than exceed by two. I think you will agree with me, (turning with a soft air to Emma,) I think I shall certainly have your approbation, though Mr. Knightley perhaps, from being used to the large parties of London, may not quite enter into our feelings.”
“We can expect great fires,” he continued, “and everything in the highest comfort. Mr. and Mrs. Weston are lovely people; Mrs. Weston is truly exceptional, and he is exactly what you value—so welcoming and so fond of socializing. It will be a small gathering, but when small gatherings are select, they can be the most enjoyable of all. Mr. Weston’s dining room doesn’t fit more than ten comfortably; and honestly, I’d prefer to have two fewer than two more in this situation. I think you’ll agree with me, (turning gently to Emma,) I believe I’ll definitely have your approval, although Mr. Knightley might not fully understand our perspective since he’s used to larger gatherings in London.”
“I know nothing of the large parties of London, sir—I never dine with any body.”
"I don't know anything about the big parties in London, sir—I never have dinner with anyone."
“Indeed! (in a tone of wonder and pity,) I had no idea that the law had been so great a slavery. Well, sir, the time must come when you will be paid for all this, when you will have little labour and great enjoyment.”
“Wow! (in a tone of amazement and sympathy,) I had no idea that the law was such a heavy burden. Well, sir, the time will come when you’ll be rewarded for all of this, when you’ll have little work and a lot of enjoyment.”
“My first enjoyment,” replied John Knightley, as they passed through the sweep-gate, “will be to find myself safe at Hartfield again.”
“My first enjoyment,” replied John Knightley, as they passed through the sweep-gate, “will be to find myself safe at Hartfield again.”
CHAPTER XIV
Some change of countenance was necessary for each gentleman as they walked into Mrs. Weston’s drawing-room;—Mr. Elton must compose his joyous looks, and Mr. John Knightley disperse his ill-humour. Mr. Elton must smile less, and Mr. John Knightley more, to fit them for the place.—Emma only might be as nature prompted, and shew herself just as happy as she was. To her it was real enjoyment to be with the Westons. Mr. Weston was a great favourite, and there was not a creature in the world to whom she spoke with such unreserve, as to his wife; not any one, to whom she related with such conviction of being listened to and understood, of being always interesting and always intelligible, the little affairs, arrangements, perplexities, and pleasures of her father and herself. She could tell nothing of Hartfield, in which Mrs. Weston had not a lively concern; and half an hour’s uninterrupted communication of all those little matters on which the daily happiness of private life depends, was one of the first gratifications of each.
Some change in expression was needed for each gentleman as they walked into Mrs. Weston’s drawing-room; Mr. Elton had to tone down his cheerful demeanor, and Mr. John Knightley needed to shake off his bad mood. Mr. Elton should smile less, and Mr. John Knightley should smile more, to make them appropriate for the situation. Emma, on the other hand, could be herself and show just how happy she truly was. For her, being with the Westons was a genuine pleasure. Mr. Weston was a big favorite of hers, and there was no one else in the world with whom she spoke so openly as with his wife; no one else to whom she shared the little happenings, plans, challenges, and joys of her life and her father's with such certainty of being heard and understood, always feeling interesting and clear. She could share everything about Hartfield, knowing that Mrs. Weston cared deeply; and having half an hour of uninterrupted conversation about all those little things that make up the daily happiness of private life was one of the greatest pleasures for both of them.
This was a pleasure which perhaps the whole day’s visit might not afford, which certainly did not belong to the present half-hour; but the very sight of Mrs. Weston, her smile, her touch, her voice was grateful to Emma, and she determined to think as little as possible of Mr. Elton’s oddities, or of any thing else unpleasant, and enjoy all that was enjoyable to the utmost.
This was a pleasure that maybe the whole day's visit wouldn't provide, and it definitely didn't belong to the current half-hour; but just seeing Mrs. Weston, her smile, her touch, her voice was a comfort to Emma. She decided to focus as little as possible on Mr. Elton's weirdness or anything else unpleasant, and to fully enjoy everything that was enjoyable.
The misfortune of Harriet’s cold had been pretty well gone through before her arrival. Mr. Woodhouse had been safely seated long enough to give the history of it, besides all the history of his own and Isabella’s coming, and of Emma’s being to follow, and had indeed just got to the end of his satisfaction that James should come and see his daughter, when the others appeared, and Mrs. Weston, who had been almost wholly engrossed by her attentions to him, was able to turn away and welcome her dear Emma.
The unfortunate situation with Harriet’s cold had been pretty much discussed before she arrived. Mr. Woodhouse had been comfortably settled long enough to recount the details of it, along with the backstory of his and Isabella’s visit, and of Emma’s upcoming arrival. He had just finished expressing his delight that James would come and see his daughter when the others showed up, and Mrs. Weston, who had been almost entirely focused on him, was finally able to turn her attention to welcome her dear Emma.
Emma’s project of forgetting Mr. Elton for a while made her rather sorry to find, when they had all taken their places, that he was close to her. The difficulty was great of driving his strange insensibility towards Harriet, from her mind, while he not only sat at her elbow, but was continually obtruding his happy countenance on her notice, and solicitously addressing her upon every occasion. Instead of forgetting him, his behaviour was such that she could not avoid the internal suggestion of “Can it really be as my brother imagined? can it be possible for this man to be beginning to transfer his affections from Harriet to me?—Absurd and insufferable!”—Yet he would be so anxious for her being perfectly warm, would be so interested about her father, and so delighted with Mrs. Weston; and at last would begin admiring her drawings with so much zeal and so little knowledge as seemed terribly like a would-be lover, and made it some effort with her to preserve her good manners. For her own sake she could not be rude; and for Harriet’s, in the hope that all would yet turn out right, she was even positively civil; but it was an effort; especially as something was going on amongst the others, in the most overpowering period of Mr. Elton’s nonsense, which she particularly wished to listen to. She heard enough to know that Mr. Weston was giving some information about his son; she heard the words “my son,” and “Frank,” and “my son,” repeated several times over; and, from a few other half-syllables very much suspected that he was announcing an early visit from his son; but before she could quiet Mr. Elton, the subject was so completely past that any reviving question from her would have been awkward.
Emma’s plan to forget Mr. Elton for a while made her regretful when she realized, once everyone was seated, that he was right next to her. It was really challenging to push aside his odd disregard for Harriet while he not only sat beside her but also kept drawing her attention with his cheerful face and constantly engaging her in conversation. Instead of forgetting him, his actions led her to think, “Could it really be as my brother suggested? Could this man be starting to transfer his feelings from Harriet to me?—That’s ridiculous and infuriating!” Yet, he was so eager to make sure she was warm, so concerned about her father, and so thrilled with Mrs. Weston; and eventually, he began to admire her drawings with such enthusiasm and such little understanding that it seemed very much like a wannabe lover, making it hard for her to keep her composure. For her own sake, she couldn’t be rude; and for Harriet’s, hoping that everything would turn out okay, she was even somewhat polite; but it was a challenge, especially since something interesting was happening among the others during the most overwhelming moments of Mr. Elton’s nonsense that she particularly wanted to hear. She caught enough to know that Mr. Weston was sharing some news about his son; she heard the phrases “my son,” “Frank,” and “my son” repeated several times; and from a few other snippets, she strongly suspected he was announcing an upcoming visit from his son; but before she could distract Mr. Elton, the topic had moved on completely, making any question from her seem awkward.
Now, it so happened that in spite of Emma’s resolution of never marrying, there was something in the name, in the idea of Mr. Frank Churchill, which always interested her. She had frequently thought—especially since his father’s marriage with Miss Taylor—that if she were to marry, he was the very person to suit her in age, character and condition. He seemed by this connexion between the families, quite to belong to her. She could not but suppose it to be a match that every body who knew them must think of. That Mr. and Mrs. Weston did think of it, she was very strongly persuaded; and though not meaning to be induced by him, or by any body else, to give up a situation which she believed more replete with good than any she could change it for, she had a great curiosity to see him, a decided intention of finding him pleasant, of being liked by him to a certain degree, and a sort of pleasure in the idea of their being coupled in their friends’ imaginations.
Now, despite Emma's decision never to marry, there was something about the name and the idea of Mr. Frank Churchill that always caught her attention. She had often thought—especially since his father married Miss Taylor—that if she did consider marriage, he would be the perfect match for her in age, personality, and status. With this connection between their families, he felt somewhat like he belonged to her. She couldn’t help but think it was a match that everyone who knew them would consider. She strongly believed that Mr. and Mrs. Weston did think about it; and even though she didn’t intend to be swayed by him or anyone else to give up a situation she believed offered more benefits than any alternative, she was very curious to meet him. She had a clear intention of finding him enjoyable, wanting to be appreciated by him to some extent, and she took pleasure in imagining how their friends might see them together.
With such sensations, Mr. Elton’s civilities were dreadfully ill-timed; but she had the comfort of appearing very polite, while feeling very cross—and of thinking that the rest of the visit could not possibly pass without bringing forward the same information again, or the substance of it, from the open-hearted Mr. Weston.—So it proved;—for when happily released from Mr. Elton, and seated by Mr. Weston, at dinner, he made use of the very first interval in the cares of hospitality, the very first leisure from the saddle of mutton, to say to her,
With those feelings in mind, Mr. Elton’s politeness was completely out of place; but she found some comfort in seeming very courteous while feeling quite upset—and in believing that the rest of the visit couldn’t go by without Mr. Weston, who was so open-hearted, bringing up the same information again, or at least something similar. And that’s exactly what happened; for when she was finally free from Mr. Elton and seated beside Mr. Weston at dinner, he took advantage of the first break in the responsibilities of hosting, the very first moment away from the roast, to say to her,
“We want only two more to be just the right number. I should like to see two more here,—your pretty little friend, Miss Smith, and my son—and then I should say we were quite complete. I believe you did not hear me telling the others in the drawing-room that we are expecting Frank. I had a letter from him this morning, and he will be with us within a fortnight.”
“We just need two more to make it the perfect number. I would love to have two more here—your lovely little friend, Miss Smith, and my son—and then I’d say we’d be all set. I believe you didn’t hear me telling the others in the living room that we’re expecting Frank. I got a letter from him this morning, and he’ll be with us in about two weeks.”
Emma spoke with a very proper degree of pleasure; and fully assented to his proposition of Mr. Frank Churchill and Miss Smith making their party quite complete.
Emma expressed her pleasure in a very proper way and completely agreed with his suggestion of Mr. Frank Churchill and Miss Smith joining their group to make it perfectly complete.
“He has been wanting to come to us,” continued Mr. Weston, “ever since September: every letter has been full of it; but he cannot command his own time. He has those to please who must be pleased, and who (between ourselves) are sometimes to be pleased only by a good many sacrifices. But now I have no doubt of seeing him here about the second week in January.”
“He's been wanting to come see us,” Mr. Weston continued, “ever since September; every letter has mentioned it. But he can't manage his own schedule. He has people he needs to impress, and, just between us, sometimes they can only be satisfied with quite a few sacrifices. But now, I’m sure we’ll see him here around the second week of January.”
“What a very great pleasure it will be to you! and Mrs. Weston is so anxious to be acquainted with him, that she must be almost as happy as yourself.”
“What a great pleasure this will be for you! And Mrs. Weston is so eager to meet him that she must be nearly as happy as you are.”
“Yes, she would be, but that she thinks there will be another put-off. She does not depend upon his coming so much as I do: but she does not know the parties so well as I do. The case, you see, is—(but this is quite between ourselves: I did not mention a syllable of it in the other room. There are secrets in all families, you know)—The case is, that a party of friends are invited to pay a visit at Enscombe in January; and that Frank’s coming depends upon their being put off. If they are not put off, he cannot stir. But I know they will, because it is a family that a certain lady, of some consequence, at Enscombe, has a particular dislike to: and though it is thought necessary to invite them once in two or three years, they always are put off when it comes to the point. I have not the smallest doubt of the issue. I am as confident of seeing Frank here before the middle of January, as I am of being here myself: but your good friend there (nodding towards the upper end of the table) has so few vagaries herself, and has been so little used to them at Hartfield, that she cannot calculate on their effects, as I have been long in the practice of doing.”
“Yes, she will be, but she thinks there might be another delay. She doesn’t rely on his arrival as much as I do, but she doesn’t know the people involved as well as I do. The situation is—(but this is just between us: I didn’t say a word about it in the other room. There are secrets in every family, after all)—the situation is that a group of friends is invited to visit Enscombe in January, and Frank’s arrival depends on their cancellation. If they don’t cancel, he can’t come. But I know they will, because there’s a certain lady of some importance at Enscombe who really dislikes that family; and even though it’s considered necessary to invite them every couple of years, they always end up getting canceled when it’s time. I have no doubt about it. I’m as sure I’ll see Frank here before mid-January as I am that I’ll be here myself: but your good friend there (nodding towards the upper end of the table) has so few surprises of her own and has been so rarely confronted with them at Hartfield that she can’t foresee their effects, while I’ve been accustomed to doing just that for a long time.”
“I am sorry there should be any thing like doubt in the case,” replied Emma; “but am disposed to side with you, Mr. Weston. If you think he will come, I shall think so too; for you know Enscombe.”
“I’m sorry there’s any doubt about this,” replied Emma. “But I’m inclined to agree with you, Mr. Weston. If you believe he will come, then I will believe it too, since you know Enscombe.”
“Yes—I have some right to that knowledge; though I have never been at the place in my life.—She is an odd woman!—But I never allow myself to speak ill of her, on Frank’s account; for I do believe her to be very fond of him. I used to think she was not capable of being fond of any body, except herself: but she has always been kind to him (in her way—allowing for little whims and caprices, and expecting every thing to be as she likes). And it is no small credit, in my opinion, to him, that he should excite such an affection; for, though I would not say it to any body else, she has no more heart than a stone to people in general; and the devil of a temper.”
“Yes—I have some right to that knowledge, even though I've never been in that position in my life. She is a strange woman! But I never let myself speak badly about her, for Frank's sake; I really believe she cares for him a lot. I used to think she couldn't care about anyone except herself, but she has always been kind to him (in her own way—considering her little quirks and her expectation that everything should go her way). And I think it's quite impressive that he can inspire such affection, because, although I wouldn't say this to anyone else, she has no more heart than a stone when it comes to most people, and she has a terrible temper.”
Emma liked the subject so well, that she began upon it, to Mrs. Weston, very soon after their moving into the drawing-room: wishing her joy—yet observing, that she knew the first meeting must be rather alarming.— Mrs. Weston agreed to it; but added, that she should be very glad to be secure of undergoing the anxiety of a first meeting at the time talked of: “for I cannot depend upon his coming. I cannot be so sanguine as Mr. Weston. I am very much afraid that it will all end in nothing. Mr. Weston, I dare say, has been telling you exactly how the matter stands?”
Emma liked the subject so much that she brought it up with Mrs. Weston very soon after they moved into the drawing room, wishing her well—while noting that she knew the first meeting could be quite nerve-wracking. Mrs. Weston agreed but added that she would be very happy to face the anxiety of a first meeting at the expected time: “Because I can’t count on his coming. I can’t be as optimistic as Mr. Weston. I'm really worried that it will all come to nothing. Mr. Weston, I’m sure, has been telling you exactly how things stand?”
“Yes—it seems to depend upon nothing but the ill-humour of Mrs. Churchill, which I imagine to be the most certain thing in the world.”
“Yes—it seems to rely solely on Mrs. Churchill's bad mood, which I believe is the most predictable thing in the world.”
“My Emma!” replied Mrs. Weston, smiling, “what is the certainty of caprice?” Then turning to Isabella, who had not been attending before—“You must know, my dear Mrs. Knightley, that we are by no means so sure of seeing Mr. Frank Churchill, in my opinion, as his father thinks. It depends entirely upon his aunt’s spirits and pleasure; in short, upon her temper. To you—to my two daughters—I may venture on the truth. Mrs. Churchill rules at Enscombe, and is a very odd-tempered woman; and his coming now, depends upon her being willing to spare him.”
“My Emma!” Mrs. Weston replied with a smile, “what’s the certainty of whims?” Then turning to Isabella, who hadn’t been paying attention before—“You should know, my dear Mrs. Knightley, that we can’t be as sure of seeing Mr. Frank Churchill as his father thinks. It all depends on his aunt's mood and whether she feels like it; in short, it’s up to her temper. To you—to my two daughters—I can speak honestly. Mrs. Churchill is in charge at Enscombe, and she’s quite an unpredictable woman; whether he comes now depends on her willingness to let him.”
“Oh, Mrs. Churchill; every body knows Mrs. Churchill,” replied Isabella: “and I am sure I never think of that poor young man without the greatest compassion. To be constantly living with an ill-tempered person, must be dreadful. It is what we happily have never known any thing of; but it must be a life of misery. What a blessing, that she never had any children! Poor little creatures, how unhappy she would have made them!”
“Oh, Mrs. Churchill; everyone knows Mrs. Churchill,” replied Isabella. “And I’m sure I never think of that poor young man without feeling deep compassion. Living with someone who's always in a bad mood must be awful. It’s something we’re lucky enough to have never experienced, but it must be a miserable life. What a blessing that she never had any children! Those poor little ones—how unhappy she would have made them!”
Emma wished she had been alone with Mrs. Weston. She should then have heard more: Mrs. Weston would speak to her, with a degree of unreserve which she would not hazard with Isabella; and, she really believed, would scarcely try to conceal any thing relative to the Churchills from her, excepting those views on the young man, of which her own imagination had already given her such instinctive knowledge. But at present there was nothing more to be said. Mr. Woodhouse very soon followed them into the drawing-room. To be sitting long after dinner, was a confinement that he could not endure. Neither wine nor conversation was any thing to him; and gladly did he move to those with whom he was always comfortable.
Emma wished she could have had some time alone with Mrs. Weston. Then she would have learned more: Mrs. Weston would talk to her openly in a way she wouldn’t do with Isabella; and she really believed Mrs. Weston wouldn't try to hide anything about the Churchills from her, except for those thoughts about the young man, which she already had an instinctive understanding of. But right now, there was nothing more to say. Mr. Woodhouse quickly followed them into the drawing room. Sitting for too long after dinner was something he just couldn’t handle. Neither wine nor conversation meant anything to him; he happily moved to join those he was always comfortable with.
While he talked to Isabella, however, Emma found an opportunity of saying,
While he was talking to Isabella, Emma found a chance to say,
“And so you do not consider this visit from your son as by any means certain. I am sorry for it. The introduction must be unpleasant, whenever it takes place; and the sooner it could be over, the better.”
“And so you don’t see this visit from your son as a sure thing. I’m sorry about that. The introduction must be awkward, whenever it happens; and the sooner it’s over, the better.”
“Yes; and every delay makes one more apprehensive of other delays. Even if this family, the Braithwaites, are put off, I am still afraid that some excuse may be found for disappointing us. I cannot bear to imagine any reluctance on his side; but I am sure there is a great wish on the Churchills’ to keep him to themselves. There is jealousy. They are jealous even of his regard for his father. In short, I can feel no dependence on his coming, and I wish Mr. Weston were less sanguine.”
“Yes, and every delay just makes me more worried about more delays. Even if this family, the Braithwaites, gets postponed, I still fear some excuse will come up to let us down. I can't stand the thought of any hesitation on his part, but I know the Churchills really want to keep him to themselves. There's jealousy. They're even jealous of how much he cares for his father. In short, I can't rely on him showing up, and I wish Mr. Weston was less optimistic.”
“He ought to come,” said Emma. “If he could stay only a couple of days, he ought to come; and one can hardly conceive a young man’s not having it in his power to do as much as that. A young woman, if she fall into bad hands, may be teased, and kept at a distance from those she wants to be with; but one cannot comprehend a young man’s being under such restraint, as not to be able to spend a week with his father, if he likes it.”
“He should come,” said Emma. “If he could just stay for a couple of days, he should come; and it’s hard to imagine a young man not being able to manage that. A young woman, if she ends up in the wrong situation, might be bullied and kept away from those she wants to be with; but it’s hard to understand a young man being so restricted that he can't spend a week with his father if he wants to.”
“One ought to be at Enscombe, and know the ways of the family, before one decides upon what he can do,” replied Mrs. Weston. “One ought to use the same caution, perhaps, in judging of the conduct of any one individual of any one family; but Enscombe, I believe, certainly must not be judged by general rules: she is so very unreasonable; and every thing gives way to her.”
“One should be at Enscombe and understand the family dynamics before deciding what one can do,” Mrs. Weston responded. “It’s important to exercise the same caution when judging the actions of any individual within a family; however, Enscombe definitely shouldn't be evaluated by general standards: she is quite unreasonable, and everything seems to bend to her will.”
“But she is so fond of the nephew: he is so very great a favourite. Now, according to my idea of Mrs. Churchill, it would be most natural, that while she makes no sacrifice for the comfort of the husband, to whom she owes every thing, while she exercises incessant caprice towards him, she should frequently be governed by the nephew, to whom she owes nothing at all.”
“But she loves her nephew so much: he’s definitely her favorite. Now, in my view of Mrs. Churchill, it seems completely natural that while she makes no sacrifices for the comfort of her husband, to whom she owes everything, and while she often behaves unpredictably towards him, she would frequently be influenced by her nephew, to whom she owes nothing at all.”
“My dearest Emma, do not pretend, with your sweet temper, to understand a bad one, or to lay down rules for it: you must let it go its own way. I have no doubt of his having, at times, considerable influence; but it may be perfectly impossible for him to know beforehand when it will be.”
"My dearest Emma, don't pretend, with your kind nature, to understand a difficult one or to set rules for it: you must let it take its own course. I have no doubt that he has, at times, a significant influence; but it may be totally impossible for him to know in advance when it will be."
Emma listened, and then coolly said, “I shall not be satisfied, unless he comes.”
Emma listened and then calmly said, “I won’t be satisfied unless he comes.”
“He may have a great deal of influence on some points,” continued Mrs. Weston, “and on others, very little: and among those, on which she is beyond his reach, it is but too likely, may be this very circumstance of his coming away from them to visit us.”
“He might have a lot of influence on some issues,” Mrs. Weston continued, “and on others, very little. And among the things he can't control, it’s likely that this very situation of him leaving them to visit us is one of them.”
CHAPTER XV
Mr. Woodhouse was soon ready for his tea; and when he had drank his tea he was quite ready to go home; and it was as much as his three companions could do, to entertain away his notice of the lateness of the hour, before the other gentlemen appeared. Mr. Weston was chatty and convivial, and no friend to early separations of any sort; but at last the drawing-room party did receive an augmentation. Mr. Elton, in very good spirits, was one of the first to walk in. Mrs. Weston and Emma were sitting together on a sofa. He joined them immediately, and, with scarcely an invitation, seated himself between them.
Mr. Woodhouse was soon ready for his tea; and after he had drank his tea, he was quite ready to go home; and it was all his three companions could do to keep him from noticing how late it was, before the other gentlemen arrived. Mr. Weston was chatty and friendly, and not a fan of early farewells of any kind; but eventually, the drawing-room party did get a boost. Mr. Elton, in great spirits, was one of the first to walk in. Mrs. Weston and Emma were sitting together on a sofa. He joined them right away and, with hardly any invitation, took a seat between them.
Emma, in good spirits too, from the amusement afforded her mind by the expectation of Mr. Frank Churchill, was willing to forget his late improprieties, and be as well satisfied with him as before, and on his making Harriet his very first subject, was ready to listen with most friendly smiles.
Emma, feeling cheerful too because her mind was entertained by the anticipation of Mr. Frank Churchill, was willing to overlook his recent mistakes and be just as pleased with him as she had been before. When he made Harriet his very first topic of conversation, she was ready to listen with friendly smiles.
He professed himself extremely anxious about her fair friend—her fair, lovely, amiable friend. “Did she know?—had she heard any thing about her, since their being at Randalls?—he felt much anxiety—he must confess that the nature of her complaint alarmed him considerably.” And in this style he talked on for some time very properly, not much attending to any answer, but altogether sufficiently awake to the terror of a bad sore throat; and Emma was quite in charity with him.
He expressed that he was really worried about her beautiful friend—her lovely, kind friend. “Does she know?—Has she heard anything about her since they were at Randalls?—I’m feeling quite anxious—I have to admit that the seriousness of her condition really concerns me.” And he continued speaking like this for a while, not really paying much attention to any reply, but fully aware of the fear of a serious sore throat; and Emma was completely sympathetic towards him.
But at last there seemed a perverse turn; it seemed all at once as if he were more afraid of its being a bad sore throat on her account, than on Harriet’s—more anxious that she should escape the infection, than that there should be no infection in the complaint. He began with great earnestness to entreat her to refrain from visiting the sick-chamber again, for the present—to entreat her to promise him not to venture into such hazard till he had seen Mr. Perry and learnt his opinion; and though she tried to laugh it off and bring the subject back into its proper course, there was no putting an end to his extreme solicitude about her. She was vexed. It did appear—there was no concealing it—exactly like the pretence of being in love with her, instead of Harriet; an inconstancy, if real, the most contemptible and abominable! and she had difficulty in behaving with temper. He turned to Mrs. Weston to implore her assistance, “Would not she give him her support?—would not she add her persuasions to his, to induce Miss Woodhouse not to go to Mrs. Goddard’s till it were certain that Miss Smith’s disorder had no infection? He could not be satisfied without a promise—would not she give him her influence in procuring it?”
But finally, there seemed to be a strange shift; it felt like he was more worried about it being a bad sore throat for her than for Harriet—more concerned that she should avoid the infection than whether there actually was an infection in the illness. He started earnestly begging her to stay away from the sick room for now—to ask her to promise him not to take that risk until he had seen Mr. Perry and learned his opinion; and even though she tried to laugh it off and steer the conversation back on track, there was no stopping his intense worry about her. She was annoyed. It did seem—there was no hiding it—just like pretending to be in love with her instead of Harriet; a fickleness, if genuine, the most despicable and horrible! and she struggled to stay composed. He turned to Mrs. Weston to ask for her help, “Wouldn't she support him?—wouldn't she add her persuasion to his to convince Miss Woodhouse not to visit Mrs. Goddard’s until it was clear that Miss Smith’s illness wasn't infectious? He couldn't feel at ease without a promise—wouldn't she use her influence to help him get it?”
“So scrupulous for others,” he continued, “and yet so careless for herself! She wanted me to nurse my cold by staying at home to-day, and yet will not promise to avoid the danger of catching an ulcerated sore throat herself. Is this fair, Mrs. Weston?—Judge between us. Have not I some right to complain? I am sure of your kind support and aid.”
“So careful for others,” he continued, “and yet so neglectful of herself! She wanted me to take care of my cold by staying home today, but she won’t promise to avoid the risk of getting an ulcerated sore throat herself. Is this fair, Mrs. Weston?—Decide for us. Do I not have some right to complain? I know I can count on your support and help.”
Emma saw Mrs. Weston’s surprize, and felt that it must be great, at an address which, in words and manner, was assuming to himself the right of first interest in her; and as for herself, she was too much provoked and offended to have the power of directly saying any thing to the purpose. She could only give him a look; but it was such a look as she thought must restore him to his senses, and then left the sofa, removing to a seat by her sister, and giving her all her attention.
Emma noticed Mrs. Weston’s surprise and realized it must be significant, considering that the way he spoke and acted was taking the first claim on her interest. As for Emma, she was too angry and offended to say anything meaningful. All she could do was give him a look; but it was the kind of look she believed would bring him back to reality. Then she got up from the sofa, moved to sit next to her sister, and focused all her attention on her.
She had not time to know how Mr. Elton took the reproof, so rapidly did another subject succeed; for Mr. John Knightley now came into the room from examining the weather, and opened on them all with the information of the ground being covered with snow, and of its still snowing fast, with a strong drifting wind; concluding with these words to Mr. Woodhouse:
She didn’t have time to see how Mr. Elton reacted to the criticism because another topic quickly took over; Mr. John Knightley entered the room after checking the weather and immediately informed everyone that the ground was covered in snow and it was still snowing heavily, with a strong drifting wind; he wrapped up with these words to Mr. Woodhouse:
“This will prove a spirited beginning of your winter engagements, sir. Something new for your coachman and horses to be making their way through a storm of snow.”
“This will be an exciting start to your winter plans, sir. It's something different for your driver and horses to navigate through a snowstorm.”
Poor Mr. Woodhouse was silent from consternation; but every body else had something to say; every body was either surprized or not surprized, and had some question to ask, or some comfort to offer. Mrs. Weston and Emma tried earnestly to cheer him and turn his attention from his son-in-law, who was pursuing his triumph rather unfeelingly.
Poor Mr. Woodhouse was speechless with shock; however, everyone else had something to say. Everyone was either surprised or not surprised, and they all had questions to ask or some support to offer. Mrs. Weston and Emma made a genuine effort to lift his spirits and distract him from his son-in-law, who was celebrating his victory rather insensitively.
“I admired your resolution very much, sir,” said he, “in venturing out in such weather, for of course you saw there would be snow very soon. Every body must have seen the snow coming on. I admired your spirit; and I dare say we shall get home very well. Another hour or two’s snow can hardly make the road impassable; and we are two carriages; if one is blown over in the bleak part of the common field there will be the other at hand. I dare say we shall be all safe at Hartfield before midnight.”
“I really admire your determination, sir,” he said, “for going out in this weather, because you must have known that snow was on the way. Everyone could see the snow coming. I respect your courage; and I'm sure we’ll get home just fine. A couple more hours of snow can hardly make the road impassable, and we have two carriages—if one gets blown over in the open field, the other will be right there. I'm confident we’ll all be safe at Hartfield before midnight.”
Mr. Weston, with triumph of a different sort, was confessing that he had known it to be snowing some time, but had not said a word, lest it should make Mr. Woodhouse uncomfortable, and be an excuse for his hurrying away. As to there being any quantity of snow fallen or likely to fall to impede their return, that was a mere joke; he was afraid they would find no difficulty. He wished the road might be impassable, that he might be able to keep them all at Randalls; and with the utmost good-will was sure that accommodation might be found for every body, calling on his wife to agree with him, that with a little contrivance, every body might be lodged, which she hardly knew how to do, from the consciousness of there being but two spare rooms in the house.
Mr. Weston, feeling a different kind of triumph, admitted that he had known it was snowing for a while but hadn't mentioned it to avoid making Mr. Woodhouse uncomfortable or giving him a reason to hurry off. The idea that there was so much snow that it would hinder their return was just a joke; he was sure they wouldn't have any trouble at all. He wished the road were completely blocked so he could keep them all at Randalls, and he genuinely believed that with a little creativity, they could find accommodations for everyone, even though his wife was hesitant, knowing they only had two spare rooms in the house.
“What is to be done, my dear Emma?—what is to be done?” was Mr. Woodhouse’s first exclamation, and all that he could say for some time. To her he looked for comfort; and her assurances of safety, her representation of the excellence of the horses, and of James, and of their having so many friends about them, revived him a little.
“What should we do, my dear Emma?—what should we do?” was Mr. Woodhouse’s first exclamation, and the only thing he could say for a while. He turned to her for comfort; and her reassurances of safety, her description of how great the horses were, along with James, and the fact that they had so many friends around them, helped to calm him down a bit.
His eldest daughter’s alarm was equal to his own. The horror of being blocked up at Randalls, while her children were at Hartfield, was full in her imagination; and fancying the road to be now just passable for adventurous people, but in a state that admitted no delay, she was eager to have it settled, that her father and Emma should remain at Randalls, while she and her husband set forward instantly through all the possible accumulations of drifted snow that might impede them.
His eldest daughter was just as alarmed as he was. The dread of being stuck at Randalls while her kids were at Hartfield filled her mind completely; and imagining that the road was barely passable for brave souls but could not afford any delays, she was determined to make sure that her father and Emma stayed at Randalls while she and her husband rushed off immediately through any snow drifts that might slow them down.
“You had better order the carriage directly, my love,” said she; “I dare say we shall be able to get along, if we set off directly; and if we do come to any thing very bad, I can get out and walk. I am not at all afraid. I should not mind walking half the way. I could change my shoes, you know, the moment I got home; and it is not the sort of thing that gives me cold.”
“You should just order the carriage right away, my love,” she said. “I’m sure we can manage if we leave immediately; and if things get too tough, I can always get out and walk. I’m not scared at all. I wouldn’t mind walking half the way. I could change my shoes as soon as I get home, and it’s not the kind of thing that makes me cold.”
“Indeed!” replied he. “Then, my dear Isabella, it is the most extraordinary sort of thing in the world, for in general every thing does give you cold. Walk home!—you are prettily shod for walking home, I dare say. It will be bad enough for the horses.”
“Absolutely!” he replied. “Then, my dear Isabella, this is the most incredible thing in the world because usually everything makes you feel cold. Walk home!—I bet you’re not exactly dressed for a walk home. It’ll be tough enough for the horses.”
Isabella turned to Mrs. Weston for her approbation of the plan. Mrs. Weston could only approve. Isabella then went to Emma; but Emma could not so entirely give up the hope of their being all able to get away; and they were still discussing the point, when Mr. Knightley, who had left the room immediately after his brother’s first report of the snow, came back again, and told them that he had been out of doors to examine, and could answer for there not being the smallest difficulty in their getting home, whenever they liked it, either now or an hour hence. He had gone beyond the sweep—some way along the Highbury road—the snow was nowhere above half an inch deep—in many places hardly enough to whiten the ground; a very few flakes were falling at present, but the clouds were parting, and there was every appearance of its being soon over. He had seen the coachmen, and they both agreed with him in there being nothing to apprehend.
Isabella turned to Mrs. Weston for her approval of the plan. Mrs. Weston could only agree. Isabella then went to Emma, but Emma couldn’t completely give up the hope that they could all manage to get away. They were still discussing it when Mr. Knightley, who had left the room right after his brother’s first report about the snow, returned and told them he had gone outside to check and could assure them there wasn’t the slightest difficulty in getting home, whenever they wanted, whether it was now or in an hour. He had gone beyond the bend—some way along the Highbury road—the snow was nowhere more than half an inch deep—in many places barely enough to cover the ground; only a few flakes were falling at the moment, but the clouds were breaking up, and it looked like it would end soon. He had spoken to the coachmen, and they both agreed with him that there was nothing to worry about.
To Isabella, the relief of such tidings was very great, and they were scarcely less acceptable to Emma on her father’s account, who was immediately set as much at ease on the subject as his nervous constitution allowed; but the alarm that had been raised could not be appeased so as to admit of any comfort for him while he continued at Randalls. He was satisfied of there being no present danger in returning home, but no assurances could convince him that it was safe to stay; and while the others were variously urging and recommending, Mr. Knightley and Emma settled it in a few brief sentences: thus—
To Isabella, the relief from the news was immense, and Emma appreciated it just as much for her father's sake, who felt a bit reassured on the topic, within the limits of his anxious nature. However, the alarm that had been raised could not be calmed enough for him to feel any comfort while he remained at Randalls. He was certain there was no immediate danger in going home, but no reassurances could convince him that it was safe to stay. While others were discussing and suggesting various options, Mr. Knightley and Emma concluded the matter in just a few short sentences: thus—
“Your father will not be easy; why do not you go?”
“Your dad won’t be easy to deal with; why don’t you just go?”
“I am ready, if the others are.”
"I'm ready if they are."
“Shall I ring the bell?”
"Should I ring the bell?"
“Yes, do.”
"Yeah, do it."
And the bell was rung, and the carriages spoken for. A few minutes more, and Emma hoped to see one troublesome companion deposited in his own house, to get sober and cool, and the other recover his temper and happiness when this visit of hardship were over.
And the bell was rung, and the carriages were reserved. A few more minutes, and Emma hoped to see one annoying companion dropped off at his own house to get sober and calm down, while the other would regain his temper and happiness once this difficult visit was over.
The carriage came: and Mr. Woodhouse, always the first object on such occasions, was carefully attended to his own by Mr. Knightley and Mr. Weston; but not all that either could say could prevent some renewal of alarm at the sight of the snow which had actually fallen, and the discovery of a much darker night than he had been prepared for. “He was afraid they should have a very bad drive. He was afraid poor Isabella would not like it. And there would be poor Emma in the carriage behind. He did not know what they had best do. They must keep as much together as they could;” and James was talked to, and given a charge to go very slow and wait for the other carriage.
The carriage arrived, and Mr. Woodhouse, always the focus in situations like this, was attentively looked after by Mr. Knightley and Mr. Weston. However, no amount of reassurance from either of them could ease his worries at the sight of the snow that had actually fallen and the realization that it was a much darker night than he expected. “He feared they would have a rough drive. He worried poor Isabella wouldn't handle it well. And then there was poor Emma in the carriage behind. He didn't know what they should do. They needed to stick together as much as possible,” So, he spoke to James and instructed him to drive very slowly and wait for the other carriage.
Isabella stept in after her father; John Knightley, forgetting that he did not belong to their party, stept in after his wife very naturally; so that Emma found, on being escorted and followed into the second carriage by Mr. Elton, that the door was to be lawfully shut on them, and that they were to have a tête-à-tête drive. It would not have been the awkwardness of a moment, it would have been rather a pleasure, previous to the suspicions of this very day; she could have talked to him of Harriet, and the three-quarters of a mile would have seemed but one. But now, she would rather it had not happened. She believed he had been drinking too much of Mr. Weston’s good wine, and felt sure that he would want to be talking nonsense.
Isabella stepped in after her father; John Knightley, forgetting he wasn’t part of their group, followed his wife in naturally; so Emma found, when Mr. Elton escorted and followed her into the second carriage, that they were now allowed to close the door on them, and they were going to have a private drive. It wouldn’t have been an awkward moment; in fact, it would have been a pleasure, before the suspicions of that very day. She could have talked to him about Harriet, and the three-quarters of a mile would have felt like just a short distance. But now, she wished it hadn’t happened. She believed he had drunk too much of Mr. Weston’s good wine and was sure he would want to talk nonsense.
To restrain him as much as might be, by her own manners, she was immediately preparing to speak with exquisite calmness and gravity of the weather and the night; but scarcely had she begun, scarcely had they passed the sweep-gate and joined the other carriage, than she found her subject cut up—her hand seized—her attention demanded, and Mr. Elton actually making violent love to her: availing himself of the precious opportunity, declaring sentiments which must be already well known, hoping—fearing—adoring—ready to die if she refused him; but flattering himself that his ardent attachment and unequalled love and unexampled passion could not fail of having some effect, and in short, very much resolved on being seriously accepted as soon as possible. It really was so. Without scruple—without apology—without much apparent diffidence, Mr. Elton, the lover of Harriet, was professing himself her lover. She tried to stop him; but vainly; he would go on, and say it all. Angry as she was, the thought of the moment made her resolve to restrain herself when she did speak. She felt that half this folly must be drunkenness, and therefore could hope that it might belong only to the passing hour. Accordingly, with a mixture of the serious and the playful, which she hoped would best suit his half and half state, she replied,
To hold him back as much as she could with her own demeanor, she was getting ready to talk with effortless calm and seriousness about the weather and the night; but as soon as she started, barely had they passed the sweep-gate and joined the other carriage when she found her topic interrupted—her hand grabbed—her attention demanded, and Mr. Elton was actually making an intense romantic advance toward her: seizing the valuable opportunity, declaring feelings that she must already know, hoping—fearing—adoring—prepared to be heartbroken if she turned him down; but he convinced himself that his deep affection and unmatched love and exceptional passion would surely have some impact, and in short, he was very much determined to be taken seriously as soon as possible. It truly was that way. Without hesitation—without excuses—without much visible shyness, Mr. Elton, who was in love with Harriet, was declaring himself her admirer. She tried to interrupt him; but in vain; he continued on, saying everything. As angry as she was, the thought of the moment made her decide to hold herself back when she did respond. She realized that much of this nonsense must be the result of intoxication, and therefore she could hope it was just a fleeting moment. So, with a blend of seriousness and playfulness, which she thought would best match his mixed state, she replied,
“I am very much astonished, Mr. Elton. This to me! you forget yourself—you take me for my friend—any message to Miss Smith I shall be happy to deliver; but no more of this to me, if you please.”
“I’m really surprised, Mr. Elton. You’ve forgotten yourself—you think I’m my friend. I’d be happy to pass along any message to Miss Smith; but please, no more of this with me.”
“Miss Smith!—message to Miss Smith!—What could she possibly mean!”—And he repeated her words with such assurance of accent, such boastful pretence of amazement, that she could not help replying with quickness,
“Miss Smith!—message for Miss Smith!—What could she possibly mean!”—And he repeated her words with such confidence in his tone, such a proud display of surprise, that she couldn’t help but respond quickly,
“Mr. Elton, this is the most extraordinary conduct! and I can account for it only in one way; you are not yourself, or you could not speak either to me, or of Harriet, in such a manner. Command yourself enough to say no more, and I will endeavour to forget it.”
“Mr. Elton, this is the most outrageous behavior! I can only explain it in one way; you aren't acting like yourself, or you wouldn’t speak to me or about Harriet like this. Please gather yourself and say no more, and I will try to forget it.”
But Mr. Elton had only drunk wine enough to elevate his spirits, not at all to confuse his intellects. He perfectly knew his own meaning; and having warmly protested against her suspicion as most injurious, and slightly touched upon his respect for Miss Smith as her friend,—but acknowledging his wonder that Miss Smith should be mentioned at all,—he resumed the subject of his own passion, and was very urgent for a favourable answer.
But Mr. Elton had only had enough wine to lift his mood, not to cloud his judgment. He clearly understood what he meant; and after strongly denying her suspicion as very harmful, and briefly acknowledging his respect for Miss Smith as her friend—but admitting he was puzzled that Miss Smith was mentioned at all—he went back to discussing his own feelings, insisting on a positive response.
As she thought less of his inebriety, she thought more of his inconstancy and presumption; and with fewer struggles for politeness, replied,
As she cared less about his drinking, she focused more on his unfaithfulness and arrogance; and with less effort to be polite, she replied,
“It is impossible for me to doubt any longer. You have made yourself too clear. Mr. Elton, my astonishment is much beyond any thing I can express. After such behaviour, as I have witnessed during the last month, to Miss Smith—such attentions as I have been in the daily habit of observing—to be addressing me in this manner—this is an unsteadiness of character, indeed, which I had not supposed possible! Believe me, sir, I am far, very far, from gratified in being the object of such professions.”
“I can’t doubt it anymore. You’ve made yourself too clear. Mr. Elton, I’m way more astonished than I can put into words. After the way you've acted towards Miss Smith over the past month—those attentions I’ve seen you give her—to now be speaking to me like this—shows a lack of stability in your character that I never thought was possible! Believe me, sir, I’m far from pleased to be on the receiving end of such declarations.”
“Good Heaven!” cried Mr. Elton, “what can be the meaning of this?—Miss Smith!—I never thought of Miss Smith in the whole course of my existence—never paid her any attentions, but as your friend: never cared whether she were dead or alive, but as your friend. If she has fancied otherwise, her own wishes have misled her, and I am very sorry—extremely sorry—But, Miss Smith, indeed!—Oh! Miss Woodhouse! who can think of Miss Smith, when Miss Woodhouse is near! No, upon my honour, there is no unsteadiness of character. I have thought only of you. I protest against having paid the smallest attention to any one else. Every thing that I have said or done, for many weeks past, has been with the sole view of marking my adoration of yourself. You cannot really, seriously, doubt it. No!—(in an accent meant to be insinuating)—I am sure you have seen and understood me.”
“Good heavens!” cried Mr. Elton, “what could this mean? — Miss Smith! — I never thought about Miss Smith in my entire life — never showed her any attention, except as your friend: never cared whether she was dead or alive, except as your friend. If she has misinterpreted that, her own desires have led her astray, and I’m very sorry — extremely sorry — But, Miss Smith, really! — Oh! Miss Woodhouse! who can think about Miss Smith when Miss Woodhouse is around! No, honestly, there’s no inconsistency in my character. I have only thought of you. I swear I haven’t paid the slightest attention to anyone else. Everything I’ve said or done for the past few weeks has been solely to show my admiration for you. You can’t really, seriously doubt it. No! — (in a tone meant to be charming) — I’m sure you’ve seen and understood me.”
It would be impossible to say what Emma felt, on hearing this—which of all her unpleasant sensations was uppermost. She was too completely overpowered to be immediately able to reply: and two moments of silence being ample encouragement for Mr. Elton’s sanguine state of mind, he tried to take her hand again, as he joyously exclaimed—
It would be impossible to say what Emma felt upon hearing this—which of all her unpleasant feelings was the strongest. She was so overwhelmed that she couldn't respond right away; and after a couple of moments of silence, which gave Mr. Elton hope, he tried to take her hand again as he excitedly exclaimed—
“Charming Miss Woodhouse! allow me to interpret this interesting silence. It confesses that you have long understood me.”
“Charming Miss Woodhouse! Let me explain this intriguing silence. It admits that you have understood me for a long time.”
“No, sir,” cried Emma, “it confesses no such thing. So far from having long understood you, I have been in a most complete error with respect to your views, till this moment. As to myself, I am very sorry that you should have been giving way to any feelings—Nothing could be farther from my wishes—your attachment to my friend Harriet—your pursuit of her, (pursuit, it appeared,) gave me great pleasure, and I have been very earnestly wishing you success: but had I supposed that she were not your attraction to Hartfield, I should certainly have thought you judged ill in making your visits so frequent. Am I to believe that you have never sought to recommend yourself particularly to Miss Smith?—that you have never thought seriously of her?”
“No, sir,” Emma exclaimed, “that’s not true at all. Up until now, I’ve completely misunderstood your intentions. Honestly, I’m really sorry that you’ve been feeling this way—nothing could be further from my desires. Your feelings for my friend Harriet, your pursuit of her, actually gave me a lot of joy, and I’ve been hoping for your success. But if I had thought she wasn’t the reason for your visits to Hartfield, I would have definitely believed it was unwise to visit so often. Can I really believe you’ve never tried to make a special impression on Miss Smith? That you’ve never seriously considered her?”
“Never, madam,” cried he, affronted in his turn: “never, I assure you. I think seriously of Miss Smith!—Miss Smith is a very good sort of girl; and I should be happy to see her respectably settled. I wish her extremely well: and, no doubt, there are men who might not object to—Every body has their level: but as for myself, I am not, I think, quite so much at a loss. I need not so totally despair of an equal alliance, as to be addressing myself to Miss Smith!—No, madam, my visits to Hartfield have been for yourself only; and the encouragement I received—”
“Never, ma’am,” he exclaimed, offended in return. “Never, I assure you. I am very much interested in Miss Smith! Miss Smith is a really nice girl, and I would be happy to see her well settled. I sincerely wish her the best: and I’m sure there are men who wouldn’t mind—Everyone has their own match: but as for me, I don't think I’m that desperate. I shouldn't have to settle for Miss Smith! No, ma’am, my visits to Hartfield have been solely for you; and the encouragement I received—”
“Encouragement!—I give you encouragement!—Sir, you have been entirely mistaken in supposing it. I have seen you only as the admirer of my friend. In no other light could you have been more to me than a common acquaintance. I am exceedingly sorry: but it is well that the mistake ends where it does. Had the same behaviour continued, Miss Smith might have been led into a misconception of your views; not being aware, probably, any more than myself, of the very great inequality which you are so sensible of. But, as it is, the disappointment is single, and, I trust, will not be lasting. I have no thoughts of matrimony at present.”
“Encouragement!—I'm giving you encouragement!—Sir, you’ve completely misunderstood. I’ve only seen you as my friend’s admirer. In no other way could you have been more to me than just a casual acquaintance. I’m really sorry, but it’s good that the misunderstanding ends here. If the same behavior had continued, Miss Smith might have gotten the wrong idea about your feelings; she probably doesn’t realize, any more than I do, the significant difference in our social standings that you are so aware of. But as things stand, the disappointment is only on your side, and I hope it won’t last long. I have no intentions of marriage at the moment.”
He was too angry to say another word; her manner too decided to invite supplication; and in this state of swelling resentment, and mutually deep mortification, they had to continue together a few minutes longer, for the fears of Mr. Woodhouse had confined them to a foot-pace. If there had not been so much anger, there would have been desperate awkwardness; but their straightforward emotions left no room for the little zigzags of embarrassment. Without knowing when the carriage turned into Vicarage Lane, or when it stopped, they found themselves, all at once, at the door of his house; and he was out before another syllable passed.—Emma then felt it indispensable to wish him a good night. The compliment was just returned, coldly and proudly; and, under indescribable irritation of spirits, she was then conveyed to Hartfield.
He was too angry to say another word; her demeanor was too firm to encourage any pleading; and in this state of rising resentment and mutual embarrassment, they had to stick together for a few more minutes, as Mr. Woodhouse's worries forced them to walk slowly. If there hadn’t been so much anger, the situation would have been incredibly awkward; but their straightforward feelings left no space for the little awkwardnesses. Without realizing when the carriage turned into Vicarage Lane or when it stopped, they suddenly found themselves at his doorstep; and he was out before another word was spoken. Emma then felt it necessary to wish him good night. The compliment was returned coldly and with pride; and, feeling indescribably irritated, she was then taken back to Hartfield.
There she was welcomed, with the utmost delight, by her father, who had been trembling for the dangers of a solitary drive from Vicarage Lane—turning a corner which he could never bear to think of—and in strange hands—a mere common coachman—no James; and there it seemed as if her return only were wanted to make every thing go well: for Mr. John Knightley, ashamed of his ill-humour, was now all kindness and attention; and so particularly solicitous for the comfort of her father, as to seem—if not quite ready to join him in a basin of gruel—perfectly sensible of its being exceedingly wholesome; and the day was concluding in peace and comfort to all their little party, except herself.—But her mind had never been in such perturbation; and it needed a very strong effort to appear attentive and cheerful till the usual hour of separating allowed her the relief of quiet reflection.
There she was welcomed with great joy by her father, who had been nervous about the risks of a solo drive from Vicarage Lane—turning a corner he could never stand to think about—and in unfamiliar hands—a regular coachman—no James; and it seemed that her return was all that was needed to make everything go smoothly: Mr. John Knightley, embarrassed by his earlier bad mood, was now all kindness and attention; he was particularly concerned about her father's comfort, seeming—if not quite ready to share a bowl of gruel—perfectly aware of how very healthy it was; and the day was ending peacefully and comfortably for all of them, except her. But her mind had never been so troubled; it took a significant effort to seem attentive and cheerful until the usual time to part, which finally gave her the chance for quiet reflection.
CHAPTER XVI
The hair was curled, and the maid sent away, and Emma sat down to think and be miserable.—It was a wretched business indeed!—Such an overthrow of every thing she had been wishing for!—Such a development of every thing most unwelcome!—Such a blow for Harriet!—that was the worst of all. Every part of it brought pain and humiliation, of some sort or other; but, compared with the evil to Harriet, all was light; and she would gladly have submitted to feel yet more mistaken—more in error—more disgraced by mis-judgment, than she actually was, could the effects of her blunders have been confined to herself.
The hair was curled, the maid was sent away, and Emma sat down to think and feel miserable. It was truly a terrible situation! Such a destruction of everything she had been hoping for! Such an unfolding of things most unwelcome! Such a blow for Harriet! That was the worst part. Every aspect of it brought pain and humiliation in one way or another; but compared to the hurt it caused Harriet, everything else felt minor. She would have gladly accepted feeling even more mistaken, more wrong, more embarrassed by her poor judgment than she actually was if it meant that the consequences of her mistakes could have only affected her.
“If I had not persuaded Harriet into liking the man, I could have borne any thing. He might have doubled his presumption to me—but poor Harriet!”
“If I hadn’t convinced Harriet to like the guy, I could have handled anything. He could have been twice as arrogant with me—but poor Harriet!”
How she could have been so deceived!—He protested that he had never thought seriously of Harriet—never! She looked back as well as she could; but it was all confusion. She had taken up the idea, she supposed, and made every thing bend to it. His manners, however, must have been unmarked, wavering, dubious, or she could not have been so misled.
How could she have been so fooled? He insisted that he never seriously considered Harriet—not once! She tried to reflect on it, but everything felt jumbled. She must have latched onto the idea and twisted everything to fit. His behavior, though, must have been unclear, unstable, or uncertain, or else she wouldn't have been so misled.
The picture!—How eager he had been about the picture!—and the charade!—and an hundred other circumstances;—how clearly they had seemed to point at Harriet. To be sure, the charade, with its “ready wit”—but then the “soft eyes”—in fact it suited neither; it was a jumble without taste or truth. Who could have seen through such thick-headed nonsense?
The picture!—How excited he had been about the picture!—and the charade!—and a hundred other things;—how clearly they had seemed to point to Harriet. Of course, the charade, with its “quick wit”—but then the “gentle eyes”—in reality, it suited neither; it was a mess without style or honesty. Who could have figured out such clueless nonsense?
Certainly she had often, especially of late, thought his manners to herself unnecessarily gallant; but it had passed as his way, as a mere error of judgment, of knowledge, of taste, as one proof among others that he had not always lived in the best society, that with all the gentleness of his address, true elegance was sometimes wanting; but, till this very day, she had never, for an instant, suspected it to mean any thing but grateful respect to her as Harriet’s friend.
Certainly, she had often, especially recently, thought his manners to herself unnecessarily charming; but she took it as just his way, a small mistake in judgment, knowledge, or taste, showing that he hadn't always been around the best company. Despite his gentle demeanor, true elegance was sometimes lacking. However, until today, she had never, even for a moment, suspected it meant anything other than genuine respect for her as Harriet’s friend.
To Mr. John Knightley was she indebted for her first idea on the subject, for the first start of its possibility. There was no denying that those brothers had penetration. She remembered what Mr. Knightley had once said to her about Mr. Elton, the caution he had given, the conviction he had professed that Mr. Elton would never marry indiscreetly; and blushed to think how much truer a knowledge of his character had been there shewn than any she had reached herself. It was dreadfully mortifying; but Mr. Elton was proving himself, in many respects, the very reverse of what she had meant and believed him; proud, assuming, conceited; very full of his own claims, and little concerned about the feelings of others.
She owed her first idea on the subject to Mr. John Knightley, for he was the one who first suggested its possibility. There was no denying that those brothers were insightful. She remembered what Mr. Knightley once told her about Mr. Elton, the warning he had given and the strong belief he expressed that Mr. Elton would never marry foolishly; and she felt embarrassed to realize how much more accurate his understanding of Mr. Elton's character was compared to her own. It was incredibly humiliating; but Mr. Elton was showing himself, in many ways, to be the complete opposite of what she had thought and believed; proud, arrogant, conceited; very focused on his own importance and hardly caring about the feelings of others.
Contrary to the usual course of things, Mr. Elton’s wanting to pay his addresses to her had sunk him in her opinion. His professions and his proposals did him no service. She thought nothing of his attachment, and was insulted by his hopes. He wanted to marry well, and having the arrogance to raise his eyes to her, pretended to be in love; but she was perfectly easy as to his not suffering any disappointment that need be cared for. There had been no real affection either in his language or manners. Sighs and fine words had been given in abundance; but she could hardly devise any set of expressions, or fancy any tone of voice, less allied with real love. She need not trouble herself to pity him. He only wanted to aggrandise and enrich himself; and if Miss Woodhouse of Hartfield, the heiress of thirty thousand pounds, were not quite so easily obtained as he had fancied, he would soon try for Miss Somebody else with twenty, or with ten.
Unlike what usually happens, Mr. Elton wanting to pursue her had actually lowered her opinion of him. His declarations and proposals didn’t help him at all. She thought very little of his feelings and felt insulted by his hopes. He wanted to marry well and, with the arrogance to pursue her, pretended to be in love; but she was completely unconcerned about any disappointment he might feel. There was no real affection in his words or behavior. He’d given plenty of sighs and sweet talk, but she could hardly imagine any combination of words or tone of voice that felt less genuine. She didn’t need to waste her sympathy on him. He just wanted to elevate and enrich himself; and if Miss Woodhouse of Hartfield, the heiress of thirty thousand pounds, wasn’t as easy to win as he thought, he’d quickly move on to Miss Somebody else with twenty or even ten.
But—that he should talk of encouragement, should consider her as aware of his views, accepting his attentions, meaning (in short), to marry him!—should suppose himself her equal in connexion or mind!—look down upon her friend, so well understanding the gradations of rank below him, and be so blind to what rose above, as to fancy himself shewing no presumption in addressing her!—It was most provoking.
But that he would talk about encouragement, think of her as someone aware of his feelings, and believe that she was accepting his advances, with the intention of marrying him!—to consider himself her equal in status or intellect!—to look down on her friend, fully aware of the social hierarchy beneath him, and be so oblivious to what was above him, thinking he was showing no arrogance by speaking to her!—It was extremely frustrating.
Perhaps it was not fair to expect him to feel how very much he was her inferior in talent, and all the elegancies of mind. The very want of such equality might prevent his perception of it; but he must know that in fortune and consequence she was greatly his superior. He must know that the Woodhouses had been settled for several generations at Hartfield, the younger branch of a very ancient family—and that the Eltons were nobody. The landed property of Hartfield certainly was inconsiderable, being but a sort of notch in the Donwell Abbey estate, to which all the rest of Highbury belonged; but their fortune, from other sources, was such as to make them scarcely secondary to Donwell Abbey itself, in every other kind of consequence; and the Woodhouses had long held a high place in the consideration of the neighbourhood which Mr. Elton had first entered not two years ago, to make his way as he could, without any alliances but in trade, or any thing to recommend him to notice but his situation and his civility.—But he had fancied her in love with him; that evidently must have been his dependence; and after raving a little about the seeming incongruity of gentle manners and a conceited head, Emma was obliged in common honesty to stop and admit that her own behaviour to him had been so complaisant and obliging, so full of courtesy and attention, as (supposing her real motive unperceived) might warrant a man of ordinary observation and delicacy, like Mr. Elton, in fancying himself a very decided favourite. If she had so misinterpreted his feelings, she had little right to wonder that he, with self-interest to blind him, should have mistaken hers.
Maybe it wasn’t fair to expect him to realize just how much he was below her in talent and sophistication. The fact that he lacked that kind of equality might have blinded him to it; still, he had to understand that in terms of wealth and social standing, she was far superior. He should know that the Woodhouses had been established at Hartfield for several generations, being the younger branch of a very old family—and that the Eltons were considered nobody. The land at Hartfield was definitely not much, just a small part of the Donwell Abbey estate, which encompassed the rest of Highbury; however, their wealth from other sources was such that they were hardly secondary to Donwell Abbey in every other way that mattered, and the Woodhouses had long been respected in the community that Mr. Elton had only recently become part of, trying to make his way with no connections besides business, and nothing to make him stand out except for his position and politeness. Yet he had believed she was in love with him; that clearly was his basis for confidence; and after thinking a bit about the oddness of gentle manners combined with a big ego, Emma had to honestly acknowledge that her own behavior toward him had been so friendly and accommodating, so full of courtesy and attention, that (if we assume he didn’t see her true feelings) it could lead a man of ordinary perception and sensitivity, like Mr. Elton, to think he was a definite favorite. If she had misread his feelings like that, she had little reason to be surprised that he, blinded by self-interest, had misinterpreted hers.
The first error and the worst lay at her door. It was foolish, it was wrong, to take so active a part in bringing any two people together. It was adventuring too far, assuming too much, making light of what ought to be serious, a trick of what ought to be simple. She was quite concerned and ashamed, and resolved to do such things no more.
The first and biggest mistake was hers. It was stupid and wrong to take such an active role in bringing two people together. It was taking too many risks, overstepping boundaries, and trivializing what should be serious—turning something simple into a complicated mess. She felt worried and embarrassed and decided never to do such things again.
“Here have I,” said she, “actually talked poor Harriet into being very much attached to this man. She might never have thought of him but for me; and certainly never would have thought of him with hope, if I had not assured her of his attachment, for she is as modest and humble as I used to think him. Oh! that I had been satisfied with persuading her not to accept young Martin. There I was quite right. That was well done of me; but there I should have stopped, and left the rest to time and chance. I was introducing her into good company, and giving her the opportunity of pleasing some one worth having; I ought not to have attempted more. But now, poor girl, her peace is cut up for some time. I have been but half a friend to her; and if she were not to feel this disappointment so very much, I am sure I have not an idea of any body else who would be at all desirable for her;—William Coxe—Oh! no, I could not endure William Coxe—a pert young lawyer.”
“Here I am,” she said, “actually talked poor Harriet into being really attached to this guy. She might never have even thought about him if it weren't for me; and she definitely wouldn’t have thought of him with hope if I hadn’t assured her of his feelings, because she is as modest and humble as I used to think he was. Oh! I wish I had just been content with convincing her not to accept young Martin. I was right about that. That was a good call on my part; but I should have stopped there and let time and chance take care of the rest. I was introducing her to good company and giving her a chance to impress someone worth her time; I shouldn’t have tried to do more. But now, poor girl, her peace is disturbed for a while. I have only been half a friend to her; and if she didn’t feel this disappointment so intensely, I honestly can’t think of anyone else who would be at all suitable for her—William Coxe—Oh! no, I couldn't stand William Coxe—a smug young lawyer.”
She stopt to blush and laugh at her own relapse, and then resumed a more serious, more dispiriting cogitation upon what had been, and might be, and must be. The distressing explanation she had to make to Harriet, and all that poor Harriet would be suffering, with the awkwardness of future meetings, the difficulties of continuing or discontinuing the acquaintance, of subduing feelings, concealing resentment, and avoiding eclat, were enough to occupy her in most unmirthful reflections some time longer, and she went to bed at last with nothing settled but the conviction of her having blundered most dreadfully.
She stopped to blush and laugh at her own mistake, and then went back to a more serious, more depressing thought about what had happened, what could happen, and what had to happen. The painful conversation she would have to have with Harriet, and all the things poor Harriet would go through, like the awkwardness of future meetings, the challenges of keeping or ending their friendship, managing her feelings, hiding her resentment, and avoiding drama, were enough to keep her in not-so-happy thoughts for a while longer. In the end, she went to bed with nothing resolved except the feeling that she had really messed up.
To youth and natural cheerfulness like Emma’s, though under temporary gloom at night, the return of day will hardly fail to bring return of spirits. The youth and cheerfulness of morning are in happy analogy, and of powerful operation; and if the distress be not poignant enough to keep the eyes unclosed, they will be sure to open to sensations of softened pain and brighter hope.
For someone young and naturally cheerful like Emma, even when feeling a bit down at night, the arrival of morning is sure to lift her spirits again. The youthfulness and brightness of the morning go hand in hand and have a strong effect; if the sadness isn’t too overwhelming to keep her from sleeping, she'll wake up to feelings of mild discomfort and renewed hope.
Emma got up on the morrow more disposed for comfort than she had gone to bed, more ready to see alleviations of the evil before her, and to depend on getting tolerably out of it.
Emma got up the next morning feeling more inclined for comfort than she had the night before, more prepared to see the silver linings in the challenges ahead, and to rely on managing to get through it reasonably well.
It was a great consolation that Mr. Elton should not be really in love with her, or so particularly amiable as to make it shocking to disappoint him—that Harriet’s nature should not be of that superior sort in which the feelings are most acute and retentive—and that there could be no necessity for any body’s knowing what had passed except the three principals, and especially for her father’s being given a moment’s uneasiness about it.
It was really comforting that Mr. Elton wasn't actually in love with her, or so charming that it would be terrible to let him down—that Harriet's personality wasn't of that sensitive kind where emotions are really strong and hard to forget—and that there was no need for anyone to know what had happened except for the three main people involved, particularly her father, who wouldn’t have to worry about it at all.
These were very cheering thoughts; and the sight of a great deal of snow on the ground did her further service, for any thing was welcome that might justify their all three being quite asunder at present.
These were very uplifting thoughts; and seeing a lot of snow on the ground helped her even more, because anything was welcome that could justify their being apart right now.
The weather was most favourable for her; though Christmas Day, she could not go to church. Mr. Woodhouse would have been miserable had his daughter attempted it, and she was therefore safe from either exciting or receiving unpleasant and most unsuitable ideas. The ground covered with snow, and the atmosphere in that unsettled state between frost and thaw, which is of all others the most unfriendly for exercise, every morning beginning in rain or snow, and every evening setting in to freeze, she was for many days a most honourable prisoner. No intercourse with Harriet possible but by note; no church for her on Sunday any more than on Christmas Day; and no need to find excuses for Mr. Elton’s absenting himself.
The weather was perfect for her; even though it was Christmas Day, she couldn’t go to church. Mr. Woodhouse would have been upset if his daughter had tried to go, so she was protected from any uncomfortable or inappropriate ideas. The ground was covered in snow, and the atmosphere was stuck in that awkward state between frost and thaw, which is the worst for exercising. Every morning started with rain or snow, and every evening ended with freezing temperatures, so she was a very respectable prisoner for many days. She could only communicate with Harriet by note; she couldn’t go to church on Sunday any more than she could on Christmas Day; and there was no need to make excuses for Mr. Elton not being there.
It was weather which might fairly confine every body at home; and though she hoped and believed him to be really taking comfort in some society or other, it was very pleasant to have her father so well satisfied with his being all alone in his own house, too wise to stir out; and to hear him say to Mr. Knightley, whom no weather could keep entirely from them,—
It was weather that could easily keep everyone stuck at home; and while she hoped and believed he was genuinely finding comfort in someone’s company, it was really nice to see her father so content being all alone in his own house, smart enough to stay inside; and to hear him say to Mr. Knightley, whom no weather could completely keep away from them,—
“Ah! Mr. Knightley, why do not you stay at home like poor Mr. Elton?”
“Ah! Mr. Knightley, why don’t you stay home like poor Mr. Elton?”
These days of confinement would have been, but for her private perplexities, remarkably comfortable, as such seclusion exactly suited her brother, whose feelings must always be of great importance to his companions; and he had, besides, so thoroughly cleared off his ill-humour at Randalls, that his amiableness never failed him during the rest of his stay at Hartfield. He was always agreeable and obliging, and speaking pleasantly of every body. But with all the hopes of cheerfulness, and all the present comfort of delay, there was still such an evil hanging over her in the hour of explanation with Harriet, as made it impossible for Emma to be ever perfectly at ease.
These days of being stuck at home would have been really comfortable, except for her personal troubles, because this kind of isolation suited her brother perfectly. His feelings were always very important to those around him, and he had completely let go of his bad mood from Randalls, so he was friendly for the rest of his time at Hartfield. He was always pleasant and helpful, talking kindly about everyone. But despite all the hopes for happiness and the current comfort of taking a break, there was still a looming worry about the conversation with Harriet that made it impossible for Emma to feel completely at ease.
CHAPTER XVII
Mr. and Mrs. John Knightley were not detained long at Hartfield. The weather soon improved enough for those to move who must move; and Mr. Woodhouse having, as usual, tried to persuade his daughter to stay behind with all her children, was obliged to see the whole party set off, and return to his lamentations over the destiny of poor Isabella;—which poor Isabella, passing her life with those she doated on, full of their merits, blind to their faults, and always innocently busy, might have been a model of right feminine happiness.
Mr. and Mrs. John Knightley didn’t stay at Hartfield for long. The weather soon got better, allowing those who needed to leave to do so; and Mr. Woodhouse, as always, tried to convince his daughter to stay behind with all her kids, but he had to watch the whole group leave and go back to his complaints about the unfortunate situation of poor Isabella. Poor Isabella, spending her life with the people she loved, focused on their good qualities, ignoring their faults, and always keeping herself busy in a genuine way, could have been a perfect example of true feminine happiness.
The evening of the very day on which they went brought a note from Mr. Elton to Mr. Woodhouse, a long, civil, ceremonious note, to say, with Mr. Elton’s best compliments, “that he was proposing to leave Highbury the following morning in his way to Bath; where, in compliance with the pressing entreaties of some friends, he had engaged to spend a few weeks, and very much regretted the impossibility he was under, from various circumstances of weather and business, of taking a personal leave of Mr. Woodhouse, of whose friendly civilities he should ever retain a grateful sense—and had Mr. Woodhouse any commands, should be happy to attend to them.”
That evening, Mr. Elton sent a note to Mr. Woodhouse—a long, polite, formal note—saying, with Mr. Elton’s best regards, “that he planned to leave Highbury the next morning on his way to Bath; where, due to some close friends’ strong requests, he had committed to spending a few weeks. He regretted that, due to various weather and business circumstances, he couldn’t say goodbye in person to Mr. Woodhouse, whose kind hospitality he would always appreciate—and if Mr. Woodhouse had any requests, he would be happy to fulfill them.”
Emma was most agreeably surprized.—Mr. Elton’s absence just at this time was the very thing to be desired. She admired him for contriving it, though not able to give him much credit for the manner in which it was announced. Resentment could not have been more plainly spoken than in a civility to her father, from which she was so pointedly excluded. She had not even a share in his opening compliments.—Her name was not mentioned;—and there was so striking a change in all this, and such an ill-judged solemnity of leave-taking in his graceful acknowledgments, as she thought, at first, could not escape her father’s suspicion.
Emma was pleasantly surprised. Mr. Elton’s absence at that moment was exactly what she wanted. She admired his ability to arrange it, even though she couldn’t give him much credit for how it was communicated. The resentment was clearly expressed in the politeness he showed to her father, from which she was obviously left out. She didn’t even get a mention in his opening compliments. There was such a noticeable shift in all this and an awkward seriousness in his graceful acknowledgments that she initially thought her father would catch on to it.
It did, however.—Her father was quite taken up with the surprize of so sudden a journey, and his fears that Mr. Elton might never get safely to the end of it, and saw nothing extraordinary in his language. It was a very useful note, for it supplied them with fresh matter for thought and conversation during the rest of their lonely evening. Mr. Woodhouse talked over his alarms, and Emma was in spirits to persuade them away with all her usual promptitude.
It did, however. Her father was so caught up in the shock of such a sudden trip and his worries that Mr. Elton might not make it safely that he didn't find anything unusual in his words. It was a very helpful note because it gave them new topics to think about and discuss for the rest of their quiet evening. Mr. Woodhouse shared his concerns, and Emma was in the mood to cheer him up and reassure him as she always did.
She now resolved to keep Harriet no longer in the dark. She had reason to believe her nearly recovered from her cold, and it was desirable that she should have as much time as possible for getting the better of her other complaint before the gentleman’s return. She went to Mrs. Goddard’s accordingly the very next day, to undergo the necessary penance of communication; and a severe one it was.—She had to destroy all the hopes which she had been so industriously feeding—to appear in the ungracious character of the one preferred—and acknowledge herself grossly mistaken and mis-judging in all her ideas on one subject, all her observations, all her convictions, all her prophecies for the last six weeks.
She decided it was time to stop keeping Harriet in the dark. She believed Harriet was almost fully recovered from her cold, and it was important for her to have as much time as possible to heal from her other issue before the gentleman returned. So, she went to Mrs. Goddard's the very next day to face the necessary punishment of sharing the news; and it was indeed a tough one. She had to crush all the hopes she had been carefully nurturing—she would have to take on the unflattering role of the one who was favored—and admit that she had been completely wrong and judgmental about everything related to one particular matter, all her observations, all her beliefs, and all her predictions from the past six weeks.
The confession completely renewed her first shame—and the sight of Harriet’s tears made her think that she should never be in charity with herself again.
The confession brought back her initial shame completely—and seeing Harriet’s tears made her feel like she should never forgive herself again.
Harriet bore the intelligence very well—blaming nobody—and in every thing testifying such an ingenuousness of disposition and lowly opinion of herself, as must appear with particular advantage at that moment to her friend.
Harriet handled the news surprisingly well—she didn’t blame anyone—and in everything, she showed such sincerity and a humble view of herself that it must have impressed her friend greatly at that moment.
Emma was in the humour to value simplicity and modesty to the utmost; and all that was amiable, all that ought to be attaching, seemed on Harriet’s side, not her own. Harriet did not consider herself as having any thing to complain of. The affection of such a man as Mr. Elton would have been too great a distinction.—She never could have deserved him—and nobody but so partial and kind a friend as Miss Woodhouse would have thought it possible.
Emma was in the mood to appreciate simplicity and modesty above all else; everything charming and appealing seemed to be on Harriet’s side, not her own. Harriet didn’t feel like she had anything to complain about. The affection of a man like Mr. Elton would have been too significant a distinction for her. She could never have deserved him—and no one but such a supportive and kind friend like Miss Woodhouse would have thought it was even possible.
Her tears fell abundantly—but her grief was so truly artless, that no dignity could have made it more respectable in Emma’s eyes—and she listened to her and tried to console her with all her heart and understanding—really for the time convinced that Harriet was the superior creature of the two—and that to resemble her would be more for her own welfare and happiness than all that genius or intelligence could do.
Her tears flowed freely—but her sadness was so genuine that no amount of dignity could have made it more admirable in Emma’s eyes—and she listened to her and tried to comfort her with all her heart and understanding—truly believing for that moment that Harriet was the better person of the two—and that being like her would be more beneficial for her own well-being and happiness than anything that talent or intelligence could offer.
It was rather too late in the day to set about being simple-minded and ignorant; but she left her with every previous resolution confirmed of being humble and discreet, and repressing imagination all the rest of her life. Her second duty now, inferior only to her father’s claims, was to promote Harriet’s comfort, and endeavour to prove her own affection in some better method than by match-making. She got her to Hartfield, and shewed her the most unvarying kindness, striving to occupy and amuse her, and by books and conversation, to drive Mr. Elton from her thoughts.
It was pretty late in the day to start acting simple-minded and clueless; but she left her with every previous resolution reinforced to be humble and discreet, and to suppress her imagination for the rest of her life. Her second priority now, just below her father's needs, was to ensure Harriet’s happiness and find a better way to show her affection than by trying to set her up with someone. She got Harriet to Hartfield and showed her constant kindness, working to keep her occupied and entertained, using books and conversation to help her forget about Mr. Elton.
Time, she knew, must be allowed for this being thoroughly done; and she could suppose herself but an indifferent judge of such matters in general, and very inadequate to sympathise in an attachment to Mr. Elton in particular; but it seemed to her reasonable that at Harriet’s age, and with the entire extinction of all hope, such a progress might be made towards a state of composure by the time of Mr. Elton’s return, as to allow them all to meet again in the common routine of acquaintance, without any danger of betraying sentiments or increasing them.
Time, she realized, needed to be taken for this to be done properly; and she considered herself not very good at judging these sorts of things in general, and especially not capable of understanding an attachment to Mr. Elton. Still, it seemed reasonable to her that at Harriet’s age, and with the complete loss of any hope, a level of calm could be achieved by the time Mr. Elton returned, so they could all interact again in their usual acquaintance without the risk of revealing feelings or making them stronger.
Harriet did think him all perfection, and maintained the non-existence of any body equal to him in person or goodness—and did, in truth, prove herself more resolutely in love than Emma had foreseen; but yet it appeared to her so natural, so inevitable to strive against an inclination of that sort unrequited, that she could not comprehend its continuing very long in equal force.
Harriet thought he was perfect and believed that there was no one as good or charming as he was—and, in reality, she showed herself to be more deeply in love than Emma had expected; but it seemed so natural and unavoidable for her to fight against such a one-sided feeling that she couldn't understand how it could last much longer with the same intensity.
If Mr. Elton, on his return, made his own indifference as evident and indubitable as she could not doubt he would anxiously do, she could not imagine Harriet’s persisting to place her happiness in the sight or the recollection of him.
If Mr. Elton, upon his return, made his indifference as clear and undeniable as she was sure he would, she couldn't imagine Harriet continuing to find her happiness in seeing or remembering him.
Their being fixed, so absolutely fixed, in the same place, was bad for each, for all three. Not one of them had the power of removal, or of effecting any material change of society. They must encounter each other, and make the best of it.
Their being stuck, so completely stuck, in the same place was bad for each of them, all three. None of them had the ability to move away or to make any real change in society. They had to face each other and make the best of the situation.
Harriet was farther unfortunate in the tone of her companions at Mrs. Goddard’s; Mr. Elton being the adoration of all the teachers and great girls in the school; and it must be at Hartfield only that she could have any chance of hearing him spoken of with cooling moderation or repellent truth. Where the wound had been given, there must the cure be found if anywhere; and Emma felt that, till she saw her in the way of cure, there could be no true peace for herself.
Harriet was further unfortunate in the attitude of her friends at Mrs. Goddard's; Mr. Elton was adored by all the teachers and older girls in the school, and it was only at Hartfield that she had any hope of hearing him talked about with some level of moderation or honesty. Where the hurt had occurred, that was where the healing needed to happen, if it was to happen at all; and Emma realized that until she saw her on the path to healing, she wouldn't find any real peace for herself.
CHAPTER XVIII
Mr. Frank Churchill did not come. When the time proposed drew near, Mrs. Weston’s fears were justified in the arrival of a letter of excuse. For the present, he could not be spared, to his “very great mortification and regret; but still he looked forward with the hope of coming to Randalls at no distant period.”
Mr. Frank Churchill didn’t show up. As the expected time approached, Mrs. Weston’s worries were confirmed when she received a letter explaining his absence. For now, he couldn’t leave, which was a source of “great disappointment and regret” for him; however, he was still hopeful about visiting Randalls sometime soon.
Mrs. Weston was exceedingly disappointed—much more disappointed, in fact, than her husband, though her dependence on seeing the young man had been so much more sober: but a sanguine temper, though for ever expecting more good than occurs, does not always pay for its hopes by any proportionate depression. It soon flies over the present failure, and begins to hope again. For half an hour Mr. Weston was surprized and sorry; but then he began to perceive that Frank’s coming two or three months later would be a much better plan; better time of year; better weather; and that he would be able, without any doubt, to stay considerably longer with them than if he had come sooner.
Mrs. Weston was really disappointed—way more than her husband, even though she had been more rational about seeing the young man. But a hopeful attitude, even while expecting more good than actually happens, doesn’t always suffer a drop in mood that matches its expectations. It quickly overlooks the current letdown and starts hoping again. For half an hour, Mr. Weston was surprised and upset; but then he began to realize that Frank coming two or three months later would be a much better idea; the timing would be better, the weather would be nicer, and he would definitely be able to stay much longer with them than if he had come earlier.
These feelings rapidly restored his comfort, while Mrs. Weston, of a more apprehensive disposition, foresaw nothing but a repetition of excuses and delays; and after all her concern for what her husband was to suffer, suffered a great deal more herself.
These feelings quickly brought him back to a state of comfort, while Mrs. Weston, being more anxious by nature, anticipated nothing but more excuses and delays. Despite all her worry about what her husband would go through, she ended up suffering a lot more herself.
Emma was not at this time in a state of spirits to care really about Mr. Frank Churchill’s not coming, except as a disappointment at Randalls. The acquaintance at present had no charm for her. She wanted, rather, to be quiet, and out of temptation; but still, as it was desirable that she should appear, in general, like her usual self, she took care to express as much interest in the circumstance, and enter as warmly into Mr. and Mrs. Weston’s disappointment, as might naturally belong to their friendship.
Emma wasn't really in the mood to care about Mr. Frank Churchill not showing up, except for the disappointment at Randalls. Right now, the acquaintance held no appeal for her. She preferred to be quiet and away from temptation; however, since it was important for her to seem like her usual self, she made sure to show as much interest in the situation and engage as warmly with Mr. and Mrs. Weston’s disappointment as was appropriate for their friendship.
She was the first to announce it to Mr. Knightley; and exclaimed quite as much as was necessary, (or, being acting a part, perhaps rather more,) at the conduct of the Churchills, in keeping him away. She then proceeded to say a good deal more than she felt, of the advantage of such an addition to their confined society in Surry; the pleasure of looking at somebody new; the gala-day to Highbury entire, which the sight of him would have made; and ending with reflections on the Churchills again, found herself directly involved in a disagreement with Mr. Knightley; and, to her great amusement, perceived that she was taking the other side of the question from her real opinion, and making use of Mrs. Weston’s arguments against herself.
She was the first to tell Mr. Knightley about it and reacted just enough, (or maybe a bit more since she was performing a role,) to the Churchills' behavior in keeping him away. Then she went on to say much more than she really felt about how nice it would be to add someone new to their small society in Surrey; the joy of seeing a fresh face; how his presence would have been a celebration for all of Highbury; and by reflecting on the Churchills again, she found herself in a disagreement with Mr. Knightley. To her great amusement, she realized she was arguing the opposite side of the issue from what she truly believed, using Mrs. Weston’s arguments against herself.
“The Churchills are very likely in fault,” said Mr. Knightley, coolly; “but I dare say he might come if he would.”
“The Churchills are probably at fault,” Mr. Knightley said calmly; “but I’m sure he could come if he wanted to.”
“I do not know why you should say so. He wishes exceedingly to come; but his uncle and aunt will not spare him.”
“I don’t know why you’d say that. He really wants to come, but his uncle and aunt won’t let him.”
“I cannot believe that he has not the power of coming, if he made a point of it. It is too unlikely, for me to believe it without proof.”
“I can't believe he doesn't have the ability to come if he really wanted to. It's too unlikely for me to accept it without proof.”
“How odd you are! What has Mr. Frank Churchill done, to make you suppose him such an unnatural creature?”
“How strange you are! What has Mr. Frank Churchill done to make you think he’s such an unnatural person?”
“I am not supposing him at all an unnatural creature, in suspecting that he may have learnt to be above his connexions, and to care very little for any thing but his own pleasure, from living with those who have always set him the example of it. It is a great deal more natural than one could wish, that a young man, brought up by those who are proud, luxurious, and selfish, should be proud, luxurious, and selfish too. If Frank Churchill had wanted to see his father, he would have contrived it between September and January. A man at his age—what is he?—three or four-and-twenty—cannot be without the means of doing as much as that. It is impossible.”
“I don't think he's an unnatural person for suspecting that he might have learned to rise above his background and care only about his own enjoyment from being around people who have always modeled that behavior. It's far more natural than we'd like to admit that a young man, raised by those who are proud, extravagant, and selfish, would also be proud, extravagant, and selfish. If Frank Churchill really wanted to see his father, he could have arranged it between September and January. A man his age—what is he?—twenty-three or twenty-four—must have the means to do at least that. It's impossible otherwise.”
“That’s easily said, and easily felt by you, who have always been your own master. You are the worst judge in the world, Mr. Knightley, of the difficulties of dependence. You do not know what it is to have tempers to manage.”
"That's easy for you to say and feel, since you've always been in control of your own life. You are the worst person to judge the challenges of relying on others, Mr. Knightley; you don't understand what it's like to manage different moods."
“It is not to be conceived that a man of three or four-and-twenty should not have liberty of mind or limb to that amount. He cannot want money—he cannot want leisure. We know, on the contrary, that he has so much of both, that he is glad to get rid of them at the idlest haunts in the kingdom. We hear of him for ever at some watering-place or other. A little while ago, he was at Weymouth. This proves that he can leave the Churchills.”
“It’s hard to believe that a man who’s in his early twenties doesn’t have some freedom to think and move around. He can’t be short on cash—he can’t be short on free time. In fact, we know he has so much of both that he’s eager to spend them in the most laid-back spots in the country. We keep hearing about him at various beach resorts. Not long ago, he was at Weymouth. This shows that he can step away from the Churchills.”
“Yes, sometimes he can.”
"Yeah, he can sometimes."
“And those times are whenever he thinks it worth his while; whenever there is any temptation of pleasure.”
“And those times are whenever he thinks it’s worth his time; whenever there’s any temptation for pleasure.”
“It is very unfair to judge of any body’s conduct, without an intimate knowledge of their situation. Nobody, who has not been in the interior of a family, can say what the difficulties of any individual of that family may be. We ought to be acquainted with Enscombe, and with Mrs. Churchill’s temper, before we pretend to decide upon what her nephew can do. He may, at times, be able to do a great deal more than he can at others.”
“It's really unfair to judge anyone's behavior without knowing their situation well. No one who hasn’t been inside a family can understand the challenges any member of that family might face. We need to know about Enscombe and Mrs. Churchill’s temperament before we assume what her nephew is capable of. He might be able to accomplish a lot more at certain times than he can at others.”
“There is one thing, Emma, which a man can always do, if he chuses, and that is, his duty; not by manoeuvring and finessing, but by vigour and resolution. It is Frank Churchill’s duty to pay this attention to his father. He knows it to be so, by his promises and messages; but if he wished to do it, it might be done. A man who felt rightly would say at once, simply and resolutely, to Mrs. Churchill—‘Every sacrifice of mere pleasure you will always find me ready to make to your convenience; but I must go and see my father immediately. I know he would be hurt by my failing in such a mark of respect to him on the present occasion. I shall, therefore, set off to-morrow.’—If he would say so to her at once, in the tone of decision becoming a man, there would be no opposition made to his going.”
“There’s one thing, Emma, that a man can always do if he chooses, and that’s his duty; not through manipulation and tricks, but with strength and resolve. It’s Frank Churchill’s responsibility to pay attention to his father. He knows this from his promises and messages; if he wanted to, he could do it. A man who feels correctly would simply and firmly say to Mrs. Churchill—‘I’m always willing to make any sacrifice of mere pleasure for your convenience, but I need to see my father right away. I know he would be hurt if I didn’t show him this respect on this occasion. So, I’ll be leaving tomorrow.’—If he said that to her right away, with the kind of decisive tone that a man should have, there would be no objections to his going.”
“No,” said Emma, laughing; “but perhaps there might be some made to his coming back again. Such language for a young man entirely dependent, to use!—Nobody but you, Mr. Knightley, would imagine it possible. But you have not an idea of what is requisite in situations directly opposite to your own. Mr. Frank Churchill to be making such a speech as that to the uncle and aunt, who have brought him up, and are to provide for him!—Standing up in the middle of the room, I suppose, and speaking as loud as he could!—How can you imagine such conduct practicable?”
“No,” Emma said, laughing. “But maybe there could be some reasons for him to come back again. Can you believe a young man who is completely dependent would say such things! No one but you, Mr. Knightley, would think that’s possible. But you don’t understand what’s needed in situations very different from your own. For Mr. Frank Churchill to say something like that to the uncle and aunt who raised him and are taking care of him!—I can just picture him standing in the middle of the room, shouting as loud as he could!—How can you think that kind of behavior is even possible?”
“Depend upon it, Emma, a sensible man would find no difficulty in it. He would feel himself in the right; and the declaration—made, of course, as a man of sense would make it, in a proper manner—would do him more good, raise him higher, fix his interest stronger with the people he depended on, than all that a line of shifts and expedients can ever do. Respect would be added to affection. They would feel that they could trust him; that the nephew who had done rightly by his father, would do rightly by them; for they know, as well as he does, as well as all the world must know, that he ought to pay this visit to his father; and while meanly exerting their power to delay it, are in their hearts not thinking the better of him for submitting to their whims. Respect for right conduct is felt by every body. If he would act in this sort of manner, on principle, consistently, regularly, their little minds would bend to his.”
“Trust me on this, Emma, a sensible man wouldn’t have any trouble with it. He would feel justified, and the declaration—made, naturally, in the way a sensible man would—would benefit him more, elevate him further, and strengthen his ties with the people he depends on than any series of tricks and schemes ever could. They would have respect for him alongside their affection. They’d realize they could trust him; that the nephew who treated his father right would treat them right, too, because they know, as well as he does, and as everyone knows, that he should pay this visit to his father; and while they’re selfishly trying to put it off, they’re not actually thinking any better of him for going along with their wishes. Everyone feels respect for doing the right thing. If he acted this way, on principle, consistently, and reliably, their narrow minds would start to align with his.”
“I rather doubt that. You are very fond of bending little minds; but where little minds belong to rich people in authority, I think they have a knack of swelling out, till they are quite as unmanageable as great ones. I can imagine, that if you, as you are, Mr. Knightley, were to be transported and placed all at once in Mr. Frank Churchill’s situation, you would be able to say and do just what you have been recommending for him; and it might have a very good effect. The Churchills might not have a word to say in return; but then, you would have no habits of early obedience and long observance to break through. To him who has, it might not be so easy to burst forth at once into perfect independence, and set all their claims on his gratitude and regard at nought. He may have as strong a sense of what would be right, as you can have, without being so equal, under particular circumstances, to act up to it.”
“I really doubt that. You're quite good at influencing small minds; but when those small minds belong to wealthy people in power, I think they tend to expand until they're just as difficult to handle as big ones. I can imagine that if you, as you are, Mr. Knightley, were suddenly put in Mr. Frank Churchill’s position, you'd be able to say and do exactly what you've been suggesting for him; and it could have a really positive outcome. The Churchills might not have anything to say in response; but then, you wouldn't have any ingrained habits of early obedience and long-standing compliance to overcome. For someone who does, it might not be as easy to suddenly jump into total independence and disregard all their claims on his gratitude and respect. He might have just as strong a sense of what's right as you do, but under those specific circumstances, he might not be as able to act on it.”
“Then it would not be so strong a sense. If it failed to produce equal exertion, it could not be an equal conviction.”
“Then it wouldn't feel as intense. If it didn't create the same effort, it couldn't be the same belief.”
“Oh, the difference of situation and habit! I wish you would try to understand what an amiable young man may be likely to feel in directly opposing those, whom as child and boy he has been looking up to all his life.”
“Oh, the difference in situation and habit! I wish you could see what a nice young man might feel when directly opposing those he has admired all his life as a child and boy.”
“Our amiable young man is a very weak young man, if this be the first occasion of his carrying through a resolution to do right against the will of others. It ought to have been a habit with him by this time, of following his duty, instead of consulting expediency. I can allow for the fears of the child, but not of the man. As he became rational, he ought to have roused himself and shaken off all that was unworthy in their authority. He ought to have opposed the first attempt on their side to make him slight his father. Had he begun as he ought, there would have been no difficulty now.”
“Our friendly young man is really quite weak if this is the first time he’s actually stuck to his resolve to do what’s right against others' wishes. By now, it should have been second nature for him to follow his duty rather than just going with what’s convenient. I can understand a child’s fears, but not those of an adult. As he grew more rational, he should have found the strength to reject anything unworthy about their authority. He should have challenged the first attempt to belittle his father. If he had started out as he should have, there wouldn’t be any problem now.”
“We shall never agree about him,” cried Emma; “but that is nothing extraordinary. I have not the least idea of his being a weak young man: I feel sure that he is not. Mr. Weston would not be blind to folly, though in his own son; but he is very likely to have a more yielding, complying, mild disposition than would suit your notions of man’s perfection. I dare say he has; and though it may cut him off from some advantages, it will secure him many others.”
“We're never going to see eye to eye on him,” Emma exclaimed. “But that's not surprising. I have no doubt that he’s not some weak young man: I'm convinced he isn’t. Mr. Weston wouldn’t overlook foolishness, even in his own son; but it’s very possible he has a more accommodating, gentle, and easygoing nature than what fits your idea of a perfect man. I wouldn't be surprised if he does; and while that might limit him in some ways, it will definitely bring him many other benefits.”
“Yes; all the advantages of sitting still when he ought to move, and of leading a life of mere idle pleasure, and fancying himself extremely expert in finding excuses for it. He can sit down and write a fine flourishing letter, full of professions and falsehoods, and persuade himself that he has hit upon the very best method in the world of preserving peace at home and preventing his father’s having any right to complain. His letters disgust me.”
“Yes; he enjoys all the benefits of staying put when he should be taking action, living a life of pure leisure, and convincing himself that he's really good at making excuses for it. He can sit down and write a fancy letter, full of promises and lies, and convince himself that he's found the best way to keep the peace at home and stop his father from having any reason to complain. His letters make me sick.”
“Your feelings are singular. They seem to satisfy every body else.”
“Your feelings are unique. They seem to please everyone else.”
“I suspect they do not satisfy Mrs. Weston. They hardly can satisfy a woman of her good sense and quick feelings: standing in a mother’s place, but without a mother’s affection to blind her. It is on her account that attention to Randalls is doubly due, and she must doubly feel the omission. Had she been a person of consequence herself, he would have come I dare say; and it would not have signified whether he did or no. Can you think your friend behindhand in these sort of considerations? Do you suppose she does not often say all this to herself? No, Emma, your amiable young man can be amiable only in French, not in English. He may be very ‘amiable,’ have very good manners, and be very agreeable; but he can have no English delicacy towards the feelings of other people: nothing really amiable about him.”
“I doubt they meet Mrs. Weston’s expectations. It’s hard for someone of her good judgment and strong emotions to be satisfied: she stands in a mother’s role, but without a mother’s love to cloud her judgment. Because of her, attention to Randalls is especially important, and she must really feel the neglect. If she were more important herself, I’m sure he would have come; and it wouldn’t have mattered if he did or not. Can you believe your friend overlooks these kinds of things? Do you think she doesn’t often remind herself of this? No, Emma, your charming young man can only be charming in French, not in English. He might be very ‘charming,’ have great manners, and be quite pleasant; but he lacks any genuine English sensitivity towards other people’s feelings: there’s nothing truly charming about him.”
“You seem determined to think ill of him.”
"You seem set on thinking poorly of him."
“Me!—not at all,” replied Mr. Knightley, rather displeased; “I do not want to think ill of him. I should be as ready to acknowledge his merits as any other man; but I hear of none, except what are merely personal; that he is well-grown and good-looking, with smooth, plausible manners.”
“Me!—not at all,” Mr. Knightley replied, looking quite displeased; “I don’t want to think badly of him. I would be just as quick to recognize his strengths as anyone else; but I haven’t heard of any, other than just personal ones—that he’s tall and good-looking, with charming, smooth manners.”
“Well, if he have nothing else to recommend him, he will be a treasure at Highbury. We do not often look upon fine young men, well-bred and agreeable. We must not be nice and ask for all the virtues into the bargain. Cannot you imagine, Mr. Knightley, what a sensation his coming will produce? There will be but one subject throughout the parishes of Donwell and Highbury; but one interest—one object of curiosity; it will be all Mr. Frank Churchill; we shall think and speak of nobody else.”
“Well, if he has nothing else to recommend him, he will be a real asset in Highbury. We don’t often see fine young men who are well-bred and pleasant. We shouldn’t be too picky and demand all the virtues as well. Can’t you imagine, Mr. Knightley, what a sensation his arrival will cause? There will be just one topic of conversation throughout the parishes of Donwell and Highbury; just one interest—one object of curiosity; it will all be about Mr. Frank Churchill; we’ll think and talk about nobody else.”
“You will excuse my being so much over-powered. If I find him conversable, I shall be glad of his acquaintance; but if he is only a chattering coxcomb, he will not occupy much of my time or thoughts.”
“You'll have to excuse me for being so overwhelmed. If I find him easy to talk to, I’ll be happy to get to know him; but if he’s just a talkative fool, he won’t take up much of my time or thoughts.”
“My idea of him is, that he can adapt his conversation to the taste of every body, and has the power as well as the wish of being universally agreeable. To you, he will talk of farming; to me, of drawing or music; and so on to every body, having that general information on all subjects which will enable him to follow the lead, or take the lead, just as propriety may require, and to speak extremely well on each; that is my idea of him.”
“My opinion of him is that he can tailor his conversation to suit anyone's preferences, and he has both the desire and ability to be likable to everyone. To you, he’ll discuss farming; to me, he’ll talk about art or music; and he adapts to everyone, having a broad knowledge of many topics that allows him to either follow or take charge of the conversation as needed, and to express himself very well on each topic; that’s what I think of him.”
“And mine,” said Mr. Knightley warmly, “is, that if he turn out any thing like it, he will be the most insufferable fellow breathing! What! at three-and-twenty to be the king of his company—the great man—the practised politician, who is to read every body’s character, and make every body’s talents conduce to the display of his own superiority; to be dispensing his flatteries around, that he may make all appear like fools compared with himself! My dear Emma, your own good sense could not endure such a puppy when it came to the point.”
“And mine,” said Mr. Knightley warmly, “is that if he turns out anything like that, he will be the most unbearable guy alive! What? At twenty-three, to be the king of his group—the big shot—the seasoned politician, who thinks he can read everyone’s character and use their talents to show off his own superiority; dishing out compliments just to make everyone else look like fools compared to him! My dear Emma, your own good sense wouldn’t tolerate such a brat when it came down to it.”
“I will say no more about him,” cried Emma, “you turn every thing to evil. We are both prejudiced; you against, I for him; and we have no chance of agreeing till he is really here.”
“I won't say anything more about him,” Emma exclaimed, “you twist everything into something bad. We're both biased; you’re against him, and I’m for him; and we won't be able to agree until he's actually here.”
“Prejudiced! I am not prejudiced.”
"Prejudiced? No way!"
“But I am very much, and without being at all ashamed of it. My love for Mr. and Mrs. Weston gives me a decided prejudice in his favour.”
“But I absolutely am, and I'm not ashamed of it at all. My love for Mr. and Mrs. Weston makes me biased in his favor.”
“He is a person I never think of from one month’s end to another,” said Mr. Knightley, with a degree of vexation, which made Emma immediately talk of something else, though she could not comprehend why he should be angry.
“He’s someone I never think about from one month to the next,” said Mr. Knightley, sounding a bit annoyed, which made Emma quickly change the subject, even though she couldn’t understand why he was upset.
To take a dislike to a young man, only because he appeared to be of a different disposition from himself, was unworthy the real liberality of mind which she was always used to acknowledge in him; for with all the high opinion of himself, which she had often laid to his charge, she had never before for a moment supposed it could make him unjust to the merit of another.
Disliking a young man just because he seemed to have a different personality than her was beneath the true open-mindedness she always recognized in him. Despite all the high opinions she had often held about him, she had never thought for a second that it could make him unfair to someone else's worth.
CHAPTER I
Emma and Harriet had been walking together one morning, and, in Emma’s opinion, had been talking enough of Mr. Elton for that day. She could not think that Harriet’s solace or her own sins required more; and she was therefore industriously getting rid of the subject as they returned;—but it burst out again when she thought she had succeeded, and after speaking some time of what the poor must suffer in winter, and receiving no other answer than a very plaintive—“Mr. Elton is so good to the poor!” she found something else must be done.
Emma and Harriet had been out for a walk one morning, and Emma felt they had talked enough about Mr. Elton for that day. She didn’t believe that either Harriet’s comfort or her own mistakes needed more discussion on the topic, so she was trying hard to change the subject as they walked back. But it came up again when she thought she had successfully moved on, and after discussing for a while what the poor must go through in winter, and getting no response other than a very sad, “Mr. Elton is so good to the poor!” she realized something else needed to happen.
They were just approaching the house where lived Mrs. and Miss Bates. She determined to call upon them and seek safety in numbers. There was always sufficient reason for such an attention; Mrs. and Miss Bates loved to be called on, and she knew she was considered by the very few who presumed ever to see imperfection in her, as rather negligent in that respect, and as not contributing what she ought to the stock of their scanty comforts.
They were just getting close to the house where Mrs. and Miss Bates lived. She decided to visit them and find comfort in being with others. There was always a good reason for such a visit; Mrs. and Miss Bates enjoyed having guests, and she knew that the few people who dared to think she had flaws considered her somewhat neglectful in this regard and felt that she wasn't doing her part to support their limited comforts.
She had had many a hint from Mr. Knightley and some from her own heart, as to her deficiency—but none were equal to counteract the persuasion of its being very disagreeable,—a waste of time—tiresome women—and all the horror of being in danger of falling in with the second-rate and third-rate of Highbury, who were calling on them for ever, and therefore she seldom went near them. But now she made the sudden resolution of not passing their door without going in—observing, as she proposed it to Harriet, that, as well as she could calculate, they were just now quite safe from any letter from Jane Fairfax.
She had received many hints from Mr. Knightley and some from her own feelings about her shortcomings—but none were strong enough to outweigh the belief that visiting them was very unpleasant—a waste of time—boring women—and the dread of running into the second-rate and third-rate people of Highbury, who were always dropping by, so she rarely went near them. But now she suddenly decided not to walk past their door without going in—pointing out to Harriet that, as far as she could tell, they were currently in the clear from any letters from Jane Fairfax.
The house belonged to people in business. Mrs. and Miss Bates occupied the drawing-room floor; and there, in the very moderate-sized apartment, which was every thing to them, the visitors were most cordially and even gratefully welcomed; the quiet neat old lady, who with her knitting was seated in the warmest corner, wanting even to give up her place to Miss Woodhouse, and her more active, talking daughter, almost ready to overpower them with care and kindness, thanks for their visit, solicitude for their shoes, anxious inquiries after Mr. Woodhouse’s health, cheerful communications about her mother’s, and sweet-cake from the beaufet—“Mrs. Cole had just been there, just called in for ten minutes, and had been so good as to sit an hour with them, and she had taken a piece of cake and been so kind as to say she liked it very much; and, therefore, she hoped Miss Woodhouse and Miss Smith would do them the favour to eat a piece too.”
The house belonged to some business people. Mrs. and Miss Bates lived on the drawing-room floor, and there, in their modestly sized apartment, which meant everything to them, they warmly and gratefully welcomed their visitors. The quiet, neat old lady, who was sitting in the coziest corner with her knitting, even offered to give up her spot for Miss Woodhouse. Her more lively and talkative daughter was almost ready to overwhelm them with care and kindness—thanking them for their visit, checking on their shoes, asking about Mr. Woodhouse’s health, sharing cheerful updates about her mother’s well-being, and offering sweet cake from the sideboard. “Mrs. Cole had just been here, just stopped by for ten minutes, and she'd been so nice as to spend an hour with us, and she had a piece of cake and kindly said she liked it a lot; so, we hope that Miss Woodhouse and Miss Smith will do us the favor of having a piece too.”
The mention of the Coles was sure to be followed by that of Mr. Elton. There was intimacy between them, and Mr. Cole had heard from Mr. Elton since his going away. Emma knew what was coming; they must have the letter over again, and settle how long he had been gone, and how much he was engaged in company, and what a favourite he was wherever he went, and how full the Master of the Ceremonies’ ball had been; and she went through it very well, with all the interest and all the commendation that could be requisite, and always putting forward to prevent Harriet’s being obliged to say a word.
The mention of the Coles was always followed by talk of Mr. Elton. There was a close connection between them, and Mr. Cole had heard from Mr. Elton since he left. Emma knew what was coming; they would have to go over the letter again, discuss how long he’d been away, how busy he was in social gatherings, how popular he was wherever he went, and how packed the Master of the Ceremonies’ ball had been. She handled it all quite well, with all the interest and praise that was needed, always stepping in to keep Harriet from having to say anything.
This she had been prepared for when she entered the house; but meant, having once talked him handsomely over, to be no farther incommoded by any troublesome topic, and to wander at large amongst all the Mistresses and Misses of Highbury, and their card-parties. She had not been prepared to have Jane Fairfax succeed Mr. Elton; but he was actually hurried off by Miss Bates, she jumped away from him at last abruptly to the Coles, to usher in a letter from her niece.
This was something she had been ready for when she walked into the house; however, she intended to charm him enough that she wouldn't have to deal with any annoying subjects, and instead could freely mingle with all the women in Highbury and their card games. She hadn't expected Jane Fairfax to take Mr. Elton’s place; but he was actually rushed away by Miss Bates, and she abruptly left him to go to the Coles, to bring in a letter from her niece.
“Oh! yes—Mr. Elton, I understand—certainly as to dancing—Mrs. Cole was telling me that dancing at the rooms at Bath was—Mrs. Cole was so kind as to sit some time with us, talking of Jane; for as soon as she came in, she began inquiring after her, Jane is so very great a favourite there. Whenever she is with us, Mrs. Cole does not know how to shew her kindness enough; and I must say that Jane deserves it as much as any body can. And so she began inquiring after her directly, saying, ‘I know you cannot have heard from Jane lately, because it is not her time for writing;’ and when I immediately said, ‘But indeed we have, we had a letter this very morning,’ I do not know that I ever saw any body more surprized. ‘Have you, upon your honour?’ said she; ‘well, that is quite unexpected. Do let me hear what she says.’”
“Oh, yes—Mr. Elton, I get it—definitely about dancing—Mrs. Cole was telling me that dancing at the rooms in Bath was—Mrs. Cole was so nice to spend some time with us, talking about Jane; as soon as she came in, she started asking about her. Jane is such a favorite there. Whenever she is with us, Mrs. Cole just doesn’t know how to show her kindness enough; and I must say that Jane deserves it as much as anyone can. So she began asking about her right away, saying, ‘I know you can’t have heard from Jane lately, because it’s not her time to write;’ and when I quickly said, ‘But actually we have, we got a letter this very morning,’ I don’t think I’ve ever seen anyone more surprised. ‘Have you, really?’ she said; ‘well, that’s totally unexpected. Do let me know what she says.’”
Emma’s politeness was at hand directly, to say, with smiling interest—
Emma’s politeness was right there, ready to express itself with a smiling interest—
“Have you heard from Miss Fairfax so lately? I am extremely happy. I hope she is well?”
“Have you heard from Miss Fairfax recently? I'm really happy. I hope she's doing well?”
“Thank you. You are so kind!” replied the happily deceived aunt, while eagerly hunting for the letter.—“Oh! here it is. I was sure it could not be far off; but I had put my huswife upon it, you see, without being aware, and so it was quite hid, but I had it in my hand so very lately that I was almost sure it must be on the table. I was reading it to Mrs. Cole, and since she went away, I was reading it again to my mother, for it is such a pleasure to her—a letter from Jane—that she can never hear it often enough; so I knew it could not be far off, and here it is, only just under my huswife—and since you are so kind as to wish to hear what she says;—but, first of all, I really must, in justice to Jane, apologise for her writing so short a letter—only two pages you see—hardly two—and in general she fills the whole paper and crosses half. My mother often wonders that I can make it out so well. She often says, when the letter is first opened, ‘Well, Hetty, now I think you will be put to it to make out all that checker-work’—don’t you, ma’am?—And then I tell her, I am sure she would contrive to make it out herself, if she had nobody to do it for her—every word of it—I am sure she would pore over it till she had made out every word. And, indeed, though my mother’s eyes are not so good as they were, she can see amazingly well still, thank God! with the help of spectacles. It is such a blessing! My mother’s are really very good indeed. Jane often says, when she is here, ‘I am sure, grandmama, you must have had very strong eyes to see as you do—and so much fine work as you have done too!—I only wish my eyes may last me as well.’”
“Thank you. You’re so kind!” replied the happily deceived aunt as she eagerly searched for the letter. “Oh! Here it is. I knew it couldn’t be far away; I had put my sewing supplies on top of it without realizing, so it was completely hidden. But I had it in my hand just a little while ago, so I was almost sure it must be on the table. I was reading it to Mrs. Cole, and since she left, I was reading it again to my mother because it’s such a pleasure for her—a letter from Jane—that she can never hear it often enough; so I knew it had to be close by, and here it is, just under my sewing supplies—and since you’re so kind as to want to hear what she says; but first, I really must, to be fair to Jane, apologize for her writing such a short letter—only two pages, you see—hardly even two—and usually she fills the whole page and crosses half of it. My mother often wonders how I can read it so well. She often says, when the letter is first opened, ‘Well, Hetty, now I think you’re going to have a hard time figuring out all that crossed writing’—don’t you, ma’am?—And then I tell her, I’m sure she would manage to figure it out herself if no one were there to help her—every word of it—I’m sure she would study it until she understood every single word. And, indeed, even though my mother’s eyesight isn’t what it used to be, she can still see incredibly well, thank God! with the help of her glasses. It’s such a blessing! My mother’s glasses are actually very good. Jane often says when she’s here, ‘I’m sure, grandmama, you must have had very strong eyes to see as well as you do—and to have done so much fine work too! I just hope my eyes last as long as yours.’”
All this spoken extremely fast obliged Miss Bates to stop for breath; and Emma said something very civil about the excellence of Miss Fairfax’s handwriting.
All this talking so quickly made Miss Bates stop to catch her breath; and Emma said something very polite about how great Miss Fairfax’s handwriting was.
“You are extremely kind,” replied Miss Bates, highly gratified; “you who are such a judge, and write so beautifully yourself. I am sure there is nobody’s praise that could give us so much pleasure as Miss Woodhouse’s. My mother does not hear; she is a little deaf you know. Ma’am,” addressing her, “do you hear what Miss Woodhouse is so obliging to say about Jane’s handwriting?”
“You're so kind,” replied Miss Bates, truly pleased; “especially coming from someone with such great taste and who writes so beautifully themselves. I’m sure no one’s compliment would make us happier than Miss Woodhouse’s. My mother doesn’t hear well; she’s a bit deaf, you know. Ma’am,” she said, addressing her, “do you hear what Miss Woodhouse is kindly saying about Jane’s handwriting?”
And Emma had the advantage of hearing her own silly compliment repeated twice over before the good old lady could comprehend it. She was pondering, in the meanwhile, upon the possibility, without seeming very rude, of making her escape from Jane Fairfax’s letter, and had almost resolved on hurrying away directly under some slight excuse, when Miss Bates turned to her again and seized her attention.
And Emma got the benefit of hearing her own silly compliment repeated twice before the kind old lady could understand it. Meanwhile, she was thinking about how to slip away from Jane Fairfax’s letter without coming off as rude and had almost decided to hurry away under some minor excuse when Miss Bates turned to her again and grabbed her attention.
“My mother’s deafness is very trifling you see—just nothing at all. By only raising my voice, and saying any thing two or three times over, she is sure to hear; but then she is used to my voice. But it is very remarkable that she should always hear Jane better than she does me. Jane speaks so distinct! However, she will not find her grandmama at all deafer than she was two years ago; which is saying a great deal at my mother’s time of life—and it really is full two years, you know, since she was here. We never were so long without seeing her before, and as I was telling Mrs. Cole, we shall hardly know how to make enough of her now.”
"My mom's deafness is really minor, you know—it's hardly anything at all. If I just raise my voice and repeat something two or three times, she'll definitely hear me; she’s just used to my voice. But it's funny how she always hears Jane better than she hears me. Jane speaks so clearly! Anyway, she won't find her grandma any deafer than she was two years ago, which is quite a lot considering my mom's age—and it’s been a full two years since she last visited. We've never gone this long without seeing her before, and as I was telling Mrs. Cole, we’re not going to know how to spend enough time with her now."
“Are you expecting Miss Fairfax here soon?”
“Are you expecting Miss Fairfax to arrive soon?”
“Oh yes; next week.”
“Oh yes, next week.”
“Indeed!—that must be a very great pleasure.”
“Absolutely! That must be such a great pleasure.”
“Thank you. You are very kind. Yes, next week. Every body is so surprized; and every body says the same obliging things. I am sure she will be as happy to see her friends at Highbury, as they can be to see her. Yes, Friday or Saturday; she cannot say which, because Colonel Campbell will be wanting the carriage himself one of those days. So very good of them to send her the whole way! But they always do, you know. Oh yes, Friday or Saturday next. That is what she writes about. That is the reason of her writing out of rule, as we call it; for, in the common course, we should not have heard from her before next Tuesday or Wednesday.”
“Thank you. You're really kind. Yes, next week. Everyone is so surprised, and everyone is saying the same nice things. I'm sure she will be just as happy to see her friends in Highbury as they will be to see her. Yes, Friday or Saturday; she can’t say which because Colonel Campbell will need the carriage himself one of those days. It’s so generous of them to send her the whole way! But they always do, you know. Oh yes, Friday or Saturday next. That’s what she writes about. That’s the reason for her writing outside of the usual schedule, as we call it; because, normally, we wouldn’t have heard from her until next Tuesday or Wednesday.”
“Yes, so I imagined. I was afraid there could be little chance of my hearing any thing of Miss Fairfax to-day.”
“Yes, that's what I thought. I was worried there would be little chance of hearing anything about Miss Fairfax today.”
“So obliging of you! No, we should not have heard, if it had not been for this particular circumstance, of her being to come here so soon. My mother is so delighted!—for she is to be three months with us at least. Three months, she says so, positively, as I am going to have the pleasure of reading to you. The case is, you see, that the Campbells are going to Ireland. Mrs. Dixon has persuaded her father and mother to come over and see her directly. They had not intended to go over till the summer, but she is so impatient to see them again—for till she married, last October, she was never away from them so much as a week, which must make it very strange to be in different kingdoms, I was going to say, but however different countries, and so she wrote a very urgent letter to her mother—or her father, I declare I do not know which it was, but we shall see presently in Jane’s letter—wrote in Mr. Dixon’s name as well as her own, to press their coming over directly, and they would give them the meeting in Dublin, and take them back to their country seat, Baly-craig, a beautiful place, I fancy. Jane has heard a great deal of its beauty; from Mr. Dixon, I mean—I do not know that she ever heard about it from any body else; but it was very natural, you know, that he should like to speak of his own place while he was paying his addresses—and as Jane used to be very often walking out with them—for Colonel and Mrs. Campbell were very particular about their daughter’s not walking out often with only Mr. Dixon, for which I do not at all blame them; of course she heard every thing he might be telling Miss Campbell about his own home in Ireland; and I think she wrote us word that he had shewn them some drawings of the place, views that he had taken himself. He is a most amiable, charming young man, I believe. Jane was quite longing to go to Ireland, from his account of things.”
“So nice of you! No, we wouldn’t have known about her coming here so soon if it hadn’t been for this particular circumstance. My mom is thrilled!—she’ll be with us for at least three months. She says so, definitely, as I’m looking forward to reading to you. The situation is that the Campbells are going to Ireland. Mrs. Dixon has convinced her parents to come visit her right away. They didn’t plan to go until summer, but she’s so eager to see them again—before she got married last October, she never spent more than a week apart from them, so it must feel very strange to be in different countries. She wrote a very urgent letter to her mom—or her dad, I can’t remember which—but we’ll find out soon in Jane’s letter. She wrote in Mr. Dixon’s name as well as her own, asking them to come over immediately, and they would meet in Dublin and take them back to their country house, Baly-craig, which I think is a beautiful place. Jane has heard a lot about its beauty; from Mr. Dixon, that is—I’m not sure she heard about it from anyone else. But it makes sense he would want to talk about his own home while he was courting her—and since Jane often walked with them, because Colonel and Mrs. Campbell were very particular about their daughter not going out with only Mr. Dixon, which I completely understand; naturally, she heard everything he might have told Miss Campbell about his home in Ireland. I think she mentioned that he showed them some drawings of the place, views he had taken himself. He seems to be a very nice, charming young man. Jane was really eager to go to Ireland based on his descriptions.”
At this moment, an ingenious and animating suspicion entering Emma’s brain with regard to Jane Fairfax, this charming Mr. Dixon, and the not going to Ireland, she said, with the insidious design of farther discovery,
At that moment, a clever and exciting suspicion popped into Emma’s mind about Jane Fairfax, the charming Mr. Dixon, and not going to Ireland. She said this with the hidden intention of finding out more,
“You must feel it very fortunate that Miss Fairfax should be allowed to come to you at such a time. Considering the very particular friendship between her and Mrs. Dixon, you could hardly have expected her to be excused from accompanying Colonel and Mrs. Campbell.”
“You must feel really lucky that Miss Fairfax was allowed to visit you at this time. Given the close friendship between her and Mrs. Dixon, you could hardly have expected her to be let off from going with Colonel and Mrs. Campbell.”
“Very true, very true, indeed. The very thing that we have always been rather afraid of; for we should not have liked to have her at such a distance from us, for months together—not able to come if any thing was to happen. But you see, every thing turns out for the best. They want her (Mr. and Mrs. Dixon) excessively to come over with Colonel and Mrs. Campbell; quite depend upon it; nothing can be more kind or pressing than their joint invitation, Jane says, as you will hear presently; Mr. Dixon does not seem in the least backward in any attention. He is a most charming young man. Ever since the service he rendered Jane at Weymouth, when they were out in that party on the water, and she, by the sudden whirling round of something or other among the sails, would have been dashed into the sea at once, and actually was all but gone, if he had not, with the greatest presence of mind, caught hold of her habit— (I can never think of it without trembling!)—But ever since we had the history of that day, I have been so fond of Mr. Dixon!”
“Very true, very true, indeed. It’s the very thing we’ve always been a bit worried about; we wouldn’t have liked having her so far away from us for months—not being able to come if anything happened. But you see, everything turns out for the best. Mr. and Mrs. Dixon really want her to come over with Colonel and Mrs. Campbell; you can count on it; nothing could be kinder or more insistent than their joint invitation, Jane says, as you’ll hear shortly; Mr. Dixon doesn’t hold back on any attention at all. He’s a really charming young man. Ever since he helped Jane at Weymouth when they were on that boat trip, and she almost got thrown into the sea because of a sudden gust of wind messing with the sails—she was just about gone if he hadn’t, with incredible quick thinking, grabbed her habit—(I still get anxious just thinking about it!)—but ever since we heard about that day, I’ve been so fond of Mr. Dixon!”
“But, in spite of all her friends’ urgency, and her own wish of seeing Ireland, Miss Fairfax prefers devoting the time to you and Mrs. Bates?”
“But, despite all her friends' insistence and her own desire to see Ireland, Miss Fairfax chooses to spend the time with you and Mrs. Bates?”
“Yes—entirely her own doing, entirely her own choice; and Colonel and Mrs. Campbell think she does quite right, just what they should recommend; and indeed they particularly wish her to try her native air, as she has not been quite so well as usual lately.”
“Yes—completely her own decision, completely her own choice; and Colonel and Mrs. Campbell believe she is doing the right thing, exactly what they would suggest; and in fact, they specifically want her to try her home environment, as she hasn’t been feeling quite herself lately.”
“I am concerned to hear of it. I think they judge wisely. But Mrs. Dixon must be very much disappointed. Mrs. Dixon, I understand, has no remarkable degree of personal beauty; is not, by any means, to be compared with Miss Fairfax.”
“I’m worried to hear about it. I think they’re making a wise judgment. But Mrs. Dixon must be really disappointed. From what I understand, Mrs. Dixon doesn’t have any outstanding beauty; she certainly can’t be compared to Miss Fairfax.”
“Oh! no. You are very obliging to say such things—but certainly not. There is no comparison between them. Miss Campbell always was absolutely plain—but extremely elegant and amiable.”
“Oh! no. You're very kind to say such things—but that's definitely not true. There's no comparison between them. Miss Campbell has always been completely plain—but very stylish and kind.”
“Yes, that of course.”
"Yes, of course."
“Jane caught a bad cold, poor thing! so long ago as the 7th of November, (as I am going to read to you,) and has never been well since. A long time, is not it, for a cold to hang upon her? She never mentioned it before, because she would not alarm us. Just like her! so considerate!—But however, she is so far from well, that her kind friends the Campbells think she had better come home, and try an air that always agrees with her; and they have no doubt that three or four months at Highbury will entirely cure her—and it is certainly a great deal better that she should come here, than go to Ireland, if she is unwell. Nobody could nurse her, as we should do.”
“Jane caught a terrible cold, poor thing! It happened on November 7th (as I’m about to tell you), and she hasn’t been well since. Isn’t it a long time for a cold to last? She never mentioned it before because she didn’t want to worry us. Just like her! So thoughtful!—But the truth is, she’s not well enough that her kind friends, the Campbells, think it would be better for her to come home and try the air that always suits her; and they’re sure that a few months in Highbury will completely cure her—and it’s definitely much better for her to come here than go to Ireland if she’s feeling unwell. Nobody could take care of her like we would.”
“It appears to me the most desirable arrangement in the world.”
“It seems to me the best setup in the world.”
“And so she is to come to us next Friday or Saturday, and the Campbells leave town in their way to Holyhead the Monday following—as you will find from Jane’s letter. So sudden!—You may guess, dear Miss Woodhouse, what a flurry it has thrown me in! If it was not for the drawback of her illness—but I am afraid we must expect to see her grown thin, and looking very poorly. I must tell you what an unlucky thing happened to me, as to that. I always make a point of reading Jane’s letters through to myself first, before I read them aloud to my mother, you know, for fear of there being any thing in them to distress her. Jane desired me to do it, so I always do: and so I began to-day with my usual caution; but no sooner did I come to the mention of her being unwell, than I burst out, quite frightened, with ‘Bless me! poor Jane is ill!’—which my mother, being on the watch, heard distinctly, and was sadly alarmed at. However, when I read on, I found it was not near so bad as I had fancied at first; and I make so light of it now to her, that she does not think much about it. But I cannot imagine how I could be so off my guard. If Jane does not get well soon, we will call in Mr. Perry. The expense shall not be thought of; and though he is so liberal, and so fond of Jane that I dare say he would not mean to charge any thing for attendance, we could not suffer it to be so, you know. He has a wife and family to maintain, and is not to be giving away his time. Well, now I have just given you a hint of what Jane writes about, we will turn to her letter, and I am sure she tells her own story a great deal better than I can tell it for her.”
“And so she’s supposed to come to us next Friday or Saturday, and the Campbells are leaving town on their way to Holyhead the following Monday—as you’ll see from Jane’s letter. It’s so sudden!—You can imagine, dear Miss Woodhouse, how flustered I’ve become! If it weren’t for her illness—but I’m afraid we should expect to see her looking thin and unwell. I have to tell you about an unfortunate thing that happened to me regarding that. I always make sure to read Jane’s letters to myself first before reading them aloud to my mother, you know, to avoid anything that might distress her. Jane asked me to do this, so I always do: and today, I started with my usual caution; but as soon as I got to the part about her being ill, I blurted out, quite startled, ‘Bless me! Poor Jane is ill!’—which my mother, being alert, heard distinctly and was very alarmed. However, when I kept reading, I found it wasn’t nearly as bad as I’d first thought; and now I downplay it for her so much that she doesn’t think much of it. But I can’t imagine how I could have been so careless. If Jane doesn’t get better soon, we’ll call in Mr. Perry. We won’t worry about the cost; and although he’s very generous and fond of Jane, so I’m sure he wouldn’t intend to charge anything for his visits, we couldn’t let it be that way, you know. He has a wife and family to support and shouldn’t be giving away his time. Well, now that I've given you a little insight into what Jane writes about, let’s turn to her letter, and I’m sure she tells her own story much better than I can for her.”
“I am afraid we must be running away,” said Emma, glancing at Harriet, and beginning to rise—“My father will be expecting us. I had no intention, I thought I had no power of staying more than five minutes, when I first entered the house. I merely called, because I would not pass the door without inquiring after Mrs. Bates; but I have been so pleasantly detained! Now, however, we must wish you and Mrs. Bates good morning.”
“I’m afraid we have to leave,” said Emma, looking at Harriet and getting up. “My father will be expecting us. I had no plans to stay more than five minutes when I first came in. I just stopped by because I didn’t want to walk past without asking about Mrs. Bates, but I’ve enjoyed my time here so much! Now, though, we need to say good morning to you and Mrs. Bates.”
And not all that could be urged to detain her succeeded. She regained the street—happy in this, that though much had been forced on her against her will, though she had in fact heard the whole substance of Jane Fairfax’s letter, she had been able to escape the letter itself.
And not everyone who tried to keep her there succeeded. She got back to the street—feeling good about the fact that even though a lot had been pushed onto her against her will, and she had actually heard everything from Jane Fairfax’s letter, she had managed to avoid the letter itself.
CHAPTER II
Jane Fairfax was an orphan, the only child of Mrs. Bates’s youngest daughter.
Jane Fairfax was an orphan, the only child of Mrs. Bates's youngest daughter.
The marriage of Lieut. Fairfax of the ——regiment of infantry, and Miss Jane Bates, had had its day of fame and pleasure, hope and interest; but nothing now remained of it, save the melancholy remembrance of him dying in action abroad—of his widow sinking under consumption and grief soon afterwards—and this girl.
The marriage of Lieut. Fairfax from the ——regiment of infantry and Miss Jane Bates had its moments of fame, joy, hope, and intrigue; but now all that was left was the sad memory of him dying in action overseas—his widow soon succumbing to illness and grief—and this girl.
By birth she belonged to Highbury: and when at three years old, on losing her mother, she became the property, the charge, the consolation, the foundling of her grandmother and aunt, there had seemed every probability of her being permanently fixed there; of her being taught only what very limited means could command, and growing up with no advantages of connexion or improvement, to be engrafted on what nature had given her in a pleasing person, good understanding, and warm-hearted, well-meaning relations.
By birth, she was from Highbury. When she lost her mother at the age of three, she became the responsibility, the care, and the comfort of her grandmother and aunt. It seemed likely that she would stay there permanently; being taught only what their limited resources could provide and growing up without any connections or opportunities for improvement, relying on the good traits nature had given her—a pleasant appearance, good sense, and kind-hearted, well-meaning relatives.
But the compassionate feelings of a friend of her father gave a change to her destiny. This was Colonel Campbell, who had very highly regarded Fairfax, as an excellent officer and most deserving young man; and farther, had been indebted to him for such attentions, during a severe camp-fever, as he believed had saved his life. These were claims which he did not learn to overlook, though some years passed away from the death of poor Fairfax, before his own return to England put any thing in his power. When he did return, he sought out the child and took notice of her. He was a married man, with only one living child, a girl, about Jane’s age: and Jane became their guest, paying them long visits and growing a favourite with all; and before she was nine years old, his daughter’s great fondness for her, and his own wish of being a real friend, united to produce an offer from Colonel Campbell of undertaking the whole charge of her education. It was accepted; and from that period Jane had belonged to Colonel Campbell’s family, and had lived with them entirely, only visiting her grandmother from time to time.
But the kind feelings of a friend of her father's changed her fate. This was Colonel Campbell, who held Fairfax in high regard as an excellent officer and a truly deserving young man. He also felt indebted to him for the care he received during a severe camp fever, which he believed had saved his life. These were debts he couldn’t ignore, even though several years passed after the death of poor Fairfax before he could return to England and take action. When he finally did come back, he sought out the child and paid attention to her. He was married and had only one living child, a girl about Jane’s age. Jane became their guest, visiting them for long stays and quickly becoming a favorite with everyone. By the time she turned nine, his daughter’s strong affection for her, along with his desire to be a true friend, led Colonel Campbell to offer to take full responsibility for her education. This was accepted, and from then on, Jane became part of Colonel Campbell’s family, living with them completely, only visiting her grandmother occasionally.
The plan was that she should be brought up for educating others; the very few hundred pounds which she inherited from her father making independence impossible. To provide for her otherwise was out of Colonel Campbell’s power; for though his income, by pay and appointments, was handsome, his fortune was moderate and must be all his daughter’s; but, by giving her an education, he hoped to be supplying the means of respectable subsistence hereafter.
The plan was for her to be raised to educate others; the few hundred pounds she inherited from her father made independence impossible. It was beyond Colonel Campbell's ability to provide for her in any other way; although his income from pay and appointments was good, his fortune was modest and had to go entirely to his daughter. By giving her an education, he hoped to ensure she would have the means to support herself respectably in the future.
Such was Jane Fairfax’s history. She had fallen into good hands, known nothing but kindness from the Campbells, and been given an excellent education. Living constantly with right-minded and well-informed people, her heart and understanding had received every advantage of discipline and culture; and Colonel Campbell’s residence being in London, every lighter talent had been done full justice to, by the attendance of first-rate masters. Her disposition and abilities were equally worthy of all that friendship could do; and at eighteen or nineteen she was, as far as such an early age can be qualified for the care of children, fully competent to the office of instruction herself; but she was too much beloved to be parted with. Neither father nor mother could promote, and the daughter could not endure it. The evil day was put off. It was easy to decide that she was still too young; and Jane remained with them, sharing, as another daughter, in all the rational pleasures of an elegant society, and a judicious mixture of home and amusement, with only the drawback of the future, the sobering suggestions of her own good understanding to remind her that all this might soon be over.
This was Jane Fairfax’s story. She had ended up in good hands, experienced nothing but kindness from the Campbells, and received an excellent education. Living constantly with thoughtful and knowledgeable people, her heart and mind benefited from discipline and culture; and since Colonel Campbell lived in London, every lighter talent had been well nurtured by top-notch instructors. Her character and skills were deserving of all that friendship could offer; by the time she was eighteen or nineteen, she was fully capable of taking on the role of teaching children, as much as someone her age could be. However, she was too beloved to be separated from them. Neither her father nor mother could make that happen, and the daughter couldn't bear it. The day of departure was postponed. It was easy to conclude that she was still too young; so Jane stayed with them, enjoying, as another daughter, all the thoughtful pleasures of an elegant society and a balanced mix of home life and entertainment, with only the concern of the future, the sobering reminders from her own good sense to make her aware that all of this might soon come to an end.
The affection of the whole family, the warm attachment of Miss Campbell in particular, was the more honourable to each party from the circumstance of Jane’s decided superiority both in beauty and acquirements. That nature had given it in feature could not be unseen by the young woman, nor could her higher powers of mind be unfelt by the parents. They continued together with unabated regard however, till the marriage of Miss Campbell, who by that chance, that luck which so often defies anticipation in matrimonial affairs, giving attraction to what is moderate rather than to what is superior, engaged the affections of Mr. Dixon, a young man, rich and agreeable, almost as soon as they were acquainted; and was eligibly and happily settled, while Jane Fairfax had yet her bread to earn.
The love of the entire family, especially the strong bond with Miss Campbell, was even more commendable for everyone involved given that Jane clearly excelled in both looks and accomplishments. The young woman couldn’t help but notice her own advantages in appearance, nor could her parents ignore Jane’s impressive intellect. Nevertheless, they maintained their affection for each other without any decline until Miss Campbell got married. Thanks to chance—often unpredictable in matters of marriage—she caught the attention of Mr. Dixon, a wealthy and charming young man, almost immediately after they met. Meanwhile, Jane Fairfax was still working to support herself.
This event had very lately taken place; too lately for any thing to be yet attempted by her less fortunate friend towards entering on her path of duty; though she had now reached the age which her own judgment had fixed on for beginning. She had long resolved that one-and-twenty should be the period. With the fortitude of a devoted novitiate, she had resolved at one-and-twenty to complete the sacrifice, and retire from all the pleasures of life, of rational intercourse, equal society, peace and hope, to penance and mortification for ever.
This event had just happened; too recently for her less fortunate friend to start her journey of duty; although she had now reached the age that she had decided was right to begin. She had long determined that twenty-one would be the time. With the determination of a committed novice, she had resolved that at twenty-one she would make the sacrifice and withdraw from all the pleasures of life, meaningful connections, social equality, peace, and hope, to embrace a life of penance and self-denial forever.
The good sense of Colonel and Mrs. Campbell could not oppose such a resolution, though their feelings did. As long as they lived, no exertions would be necessary, their home might be hers for ever; and for their own comfort they would have retained her wholly; but this would be selfishness:—what must be at last, had better be soon. Perhaps they began to feel it might have been kinder and wiser to have resisted the temptation of any delay, and spared her from a taste of such enjoyments of ease and leisure as must now be relinquished. Still, however, affection was glad to catch at any reasonable excuse for not hurrying on the wretched moment. She had never been quite well since the time of their daughter’s marriage; and till she should have completely recovered her usual strength, they must forbid her engaging in duties, which, so far from being compatible with a weakened frame and varying spirits, seemed, under the most favourable circumstances, to require something more than human perfection of body and mind to be discharged with tolerable comfort.
Colonel and Mrs. Campbell knew they couldn’t really oppose that decision, even though their emotions were against it. As long as they lived, they wouldn’t have to do anything—her home could be hers forever. For their own comfort, they would have kept her entirely, but that would have been selfish—what has to happen eventually is better faced sooner. They might have started to feel it would have been kinder and smarter to avoid delaying things and protect her from experiencing the comforts of ease and leisure that she now had to give up. Still, love was eager to find any reasonable excuse to avoid rushing into that painful moment. She had never felt quite well since their daughter got married; and until she fully regained her strength, they had to prevent her from taking on responsibilities that, far from being suitable for someone in her weakened state and fluctuating emotions, seemed to require almost superhuman perfection of body and mind to manage with any level of comfort.
With regard to her not accompanying them to Ireland, her account to her aunt contained nothing but truth, though there might be some truths not told. It was her own choice to give the time of their absence to Highbury; to spend, perhaps, her last months of perfect liberty with those kind relations to whom she was so very dear: and the Campbells, whatever might be their motive or motives, whether single, or double, or treble, gave the arrangement their ready sanction, and said, that they depended more on a few months spent in her native air, for the recovery of her health, than on any thing else. Certain it was that she was to come; and that Highbury, instead of welcoming that perfect novelty which had been so long promised it—Mr. Frank Churchill—must put up for the present with Jane Fairfax, who could bring only the freshness of a two years’ absence.
Regarding her not going with them to Ireland, her explanation to her aunt was entirely honest, though there might have been some truths left out. She chose to spend their time away in Highbury, possibly enjoying her last months of true freedom with those dear relatives who meant so much to her. The Campbells, no matter what their reasons were—whether one, two, or three—quickly agreed to this plan and stated that they relied more on a few months in her home environment to help her health than on anything else. It was certain she would come; and that Highbury, instead of welcoming the exciting novelty it had long awaited—Mr. Frank Churchill—would have to settle for Jane Fairfax, who could only offer the refreshment of a two-year absence.
Emma was sorry;—to have to pay civilities to a person she did not like through three long months!—to be always doing more than she wished, and less than she ought! Why she did not like Jane Fairfax might be a difficult question to answer; Mr. Knightley had once told her it was because she saw in her the really accomplished young woman, which she wanted to be thought herself; and though the accusation had been eagerly refuted at the time, there were moments of self-examination in which her conscience could not quite acquit her. But “she could never get acquainted with her: she did not know how it was, but there was such coldness and reserve—such apparent indifference whether she pleased or not—and then, her aunt was such an eternal talker!—and she was made such a fuss with by every body!—and it had been always imagined that they were to be so intimate—because their ages were the same, every body had supposed they must be so fond of each other.” These were her reasons—she had no better.
Emma was sorry;—to have to be polite to someone she didn’t like for three long months!—to always be doing more than she wanted and less than she should! Why she didn’t like Jane Fairfax might be a tough question to answer; Mr. Knightley had once told her it was because she saw in her the truly accomplished young woman she wanted to be seen as herself; and although she had vehemently denied it at the time, there were moments of self-reflection when her conscience couldn’t quite let her off the hook. But “she could never get to know her: she didn’t know why, but there was such coldness and distance—such clear indifference to whether she pleased her or not—and then, her aunt was such a nonstop talker!—and everybody made such a fuss over her!—and everyone always thought they were supposed to be really close—because they were the same age, everyone assumed they must be really fond of each other.” Those were her reasons—she had no better ones.
It was a dislike so little just—every imputed fault was so magnified by fancy, that she never saw Jane Fairfax the first time after any considerable absence, without feeling that she had injured her; and now, when the due visit was paid, on her arrival, after a two years’ interval, she was particularly struck with the very appearance and manners, which for those two whole years she had been depreciating. Jane Fairfax was very elegant, remarkably elegant; and she had herself the highest value for elegance. Her height was pretty, just such as almost every body would think tall, and nobody could think very tall; her figure particularly graceful; her size a most becoming medium, between fat and thin, though a slight appearance of ill-health seemed to point out the likeliest evil of the two. Emma could not but feel all this; and then, her face—her features—there was more beauty in them altogether than she had remembered; it was not regular, but it was very pleasing beauty. Her eyes, a deep grey, with dark eye-lashes and eyebrows, had never been denied their praise; but the skin, which she had been used to cavil at, as wanting colour, had a clearness and delicacy which really needed no fuller bloom. It was a style of beauty, of which elegance was the reigning character, and as such, she must, in honour, by all her principles, admire it:—elegance, which, whether of person or of mind, she saw so little in Highbury. There, not to be vulgar, was distinction, and merit.
It was a dislike so minor that every perceived flaw was exaggerated by her imagination. She never saw Jane Fairfax after a long absence without feeling like she had wronged her. Now, after a two-year gap, she was especially struck by the very appearance and demeanor that she had been downplaying for those two years. Jane Fairfax was very elegant—extraordinarily elegant—and Emma valued elegance highly herself. Her height was just right; most people would consider her tall, but no one would think she was overly tall. Her figure was particularly graceful, and her size was a perfect balance between slim and fuller, although a hint of frailty suggested there might be a health issue. Emma couldn’t help but notice all of this; and then there was her face—her features had more overall beauty than she remembered. It wasn’t symmetrical, but it was a very attractive beauty. Her deep grey eyes, with dark lashes and eyebrows, had always received admiration, but the skin she used to criticize for lacking color now had a clarity and delicacy that didn’t need any additional bloom. It was a style of beauty where elegance was the main quality, and she had to admire it out of respect for all her values—elegance of both body and mind, something so rare in Highbury. To avoid being ordinary was to have distinction and merit.
In short, she sat, during the first visit, looking at Jane Fairfax with twofold complacency; the sense of pleasure and the sense of rendering justice, and was determining that she would dislike her no longer. When she took in her history, indeed, her situation, as well as her beauty; when she considered what all this elegance was destined to, what she was going to sink from, how she was going to live, it seemed impossible to feel any thing but compassion and respect; especially, if to every well-known particular entitling her to interest, were added the highly probable circumstance of an attachment to Mr. Dixon, which she had so naturally started to herself. In that case, nothing could be more pitiable or more honourable than the sacrifices she had resolved on. Emma was very willing now to acquit her of having seduced Mr. Dixon’s affections from his wife, or of any thing mischievous which her imagination had suggested at first. If it were love, it might be simple, single, successless love on her side alone. She might have been unconsciously sucking in the sad poison, while a sharer of his conversation with her friend; and from the best, the purest of motives, might now be denying herself this visit to Ireland, and resolving to divide herself effectually from him and his connexions by soon beginning her career of laborious duty.
In short, during the first visit, she sat looking at Jane Fairfax with a double sense of satisfaction—both pleasure and a sense of justice—and decided she would no longer dislike her. When she considered Jane's background, her situation, and her beauty; when she thought about what all this elegance was meant for, what she would be losing, and how she would live, it seemed impossible to feel anything but compassion and respect; especially if you added to all the well-known details that made her interesting the highly likely fact of her being attached to Mr. Dixon, which Emma had naturally assumed. In that case, nothing could be more pitiable or honorable than the sacrifices Jane had chosen to make. Emma was now very willing to absolve her of having taken Mr. Dixon’s affections away from his wife or any of the harmful thoughts her imagination had suggested at first. If it were love, it might just be simple, unfulfilled love on her part. She might have been unknowingly absorbing the bitter pain while sharing his conversation with her friend; and for the best, purest reasons, she might now be denying herself this trip to Ireland and planning to effectively distance herself from him and his connections by soon starting her hard work.
Upon the whole, Emma left her with such softened, charitable feelings, as made her look around in walking home, and lament that Highbury afforded no young man worthy of giving her independence; nobody that she could wish to scheme about for her.
Overall, Emma left her with such gentle, compassionate feelings that as she walked home, she looked around and regretted that Highbury had no young man who was worthy of giving her independence; no one she could dream about planning her future with.
These were charming feelings—but not lasting. Before she had committed herself by any public profession of eternal friendship for Jane Fairfax, or done more towards a recantation of past prejudices and errors, than saying to Mr. Knightley, “She certainly is handsome; she is better than handsome!” Jane had spent an evening at Hartfield with her grandmother and aunt, and every thing was relapsing much into its usual state. Former provocations reappeared. The aunt was as tiresome as ever; more tiresome, because anxiety for her health was now added to admiration of her powers; and they had to listen to the description of exactly how little bread and butter she ate for breakfast, and how small a slice of mutton for dinner, as well as to see exhibitions of new caps and new workbags for her mother and herself; and Jane’s offences rose again. They had music; Emma was obliged to play; and the thanks and praise which necessarily followed appeared to her an affectation of candour, an air of greatness, meaning only to shew off in higher style her own very superior performance. She was, besides, which was the worst of all, so cold, so cautious! There was no getting at her real opinion. Wrapt up in a cloak of politeness, she seemed determined to hazard nothing. She was disgustingly, was suspiciously reserved.
These feelings were charming—but not lasting. Before she had officially declared her eternal friendship for Jane Fairfax or done much more to take back her past prejudices and mistakes than to say to Mr. Knightley, “She’s definitely pretty; she’s more than pretty!” Jane had spent an evening at Hartfield with her grandmother and aunt, and everything was sliding back into its usual state. Old annoyances resurfaced. The aunt was as annoying as ever, even more so now that worry for her health was added to admiration for her abilities; they had to listen to detailed accounts of just how little bread and butter she ate for breakfast and how small a piece of mutton she had for dinner, as well as see displays of new hats and new workbags for her mother and herself; and Jane’s faults came up again. They had music; Emma had to play; and the thanks and praise that inevitably followed seemed to Emma like a show of false honesty, a way to flaunt her superior talent in a more refined manner. She was also, which was the worst part, so cold, so careful! There was no revealing her true opinion. Wrapped up in a cloak of politeness, she seemed determined not to risk anything. She was disgustingly, and suspiciously, reserved.
If any thing could be more, where all was most, she was more reserved on the subject of Weymouth and the Dixons than any thing. She seemed bent on giving no real insight into Mr. Dixon’s character, or her own value for his company, or opinion of the suitableness of the match. It was all general approbation and smoothness; nothing delineated or distinguished. It did her no service however. Her caution was thrown away. Emma saw its artifice, and returned to her first surmises. There probably was something more to conceal than her own preference; Mr. Dixon, perhaps, had been very near changing one friend for the other, or been fixed only to Miss Campbell, for the sake of the future twelve thousand pounds.
If anything could be more, where everything was at its peak, she was more reserved about Weymouth and the Dixons than anything else. She seemed determined not to reveal any real insight into Mr. Dixon’s character, her own feelings about his company, or her thoughts on how suitable the match was. It was all general approval and smooth talk; nothing specific or unique. However, this didn’t help her at all. Her caution was wasted. Emma saw through the pretense and returned to her initial guesses. There was probably something more to hide than just her own preference; perhaps Mr. Dixon had almost switched one friend for another, or was only committed to Miss Campbell for the sake of the future twelve thousand pounds.
The like reserve prevailed on other topics. She and Mr. Frank Churchill had been at Weymouth at the same time. It was known that they were a little acquainted; but not a syllable of real information could Emma procure as to what he truly was. “Was he handsome?”—“She believed he was reckoned a very fine young man.” “Was he agreeable?”—“He was generally thought so.” “Did he appear a sensible young man; a young man of information?”—“At a watering-place, or in a common London acquaintance, it was difficult to decide on such points. Manners were all that could be safely judged of, under a much longer knowledge than they had yet had of Mr. Churchill. She believed every body found his manners pleasing.” Emma could not forgive her.
The same reserve applied to other topics. She and Mr. Frank Churchill had been at Weymouth at the same time. It was known that they were somewhat acquainted, but Emma couldn't get a word of actual information about who he really was. “Is he handsome?”—“She believed he was considered a very fine young man.” “Is he nice?”—“He was generally thought to be.” “Does he seem like a sensible young man? A man of knowledge?”—“At a resort, or in a typical London setting, it’s hard to judge such things. You could only really assess manners, and they hadn’t known Mr. Churchill long enough for that. She believed everyone found his manners pleasing.” Emma couldn't forgive her.
CHAPTER III
Emma could not forgive her;—but as neither provocation nor resentment were discerned by Mr. Knightley, who had been of the party, and had seen only proper attention and pleasing behaviour on each side, he was expressing the next morning, being at Hartfield again on business with Mr. Woodhouse, his approbation of the whole; not so openly as he might have done had her father been out of the room, but speaking plain enough to be very intelligible to Emma. He had been used to think her unjust to Jane, and had now great pleasure in marking an improvement.
Emma couldn’t forgive her; but since neither provocation nor resentment were noticed by Mr. Knightley, who had been present and only witnessed proper attention and pleasant behavior from both sides, he was expressing his approval the next morning while he was back at Hartfield on business with Mr. Woodhouse. He didn’t say it as openly as he might have if her father hadn’t been in the room, but he spoke clearly enough for Emma to understand. He had often thought she was unfair to Jane, and now he was pleased to see an improvement.
“A very pleasant evening,” he began, as soon as Mr. Woodhouse had been talked into what was necessary, told that he understood, and the papers swept away;—“particularly pleasant. You and Miss Fairfax gave us some very good music. I do not know a more luxurious state, sir, than sitting at one’s ease to be entertained a whole evening by two such young women; sometimes with music and sometimes with conversation. I am sure Miss Fairfax must have found the evening pleasant, Emma. You left nothing undone. I was glad you made her play so much, for having no instrument at her grandmother’s, it must have been a real indulgence.”
“A very nice evening,” he started, once Mr. Woodhouse was convinced of what needed to be done, assured that he understood, and the papers were taken away;—“especially nice. You and Miss Fairfax gave us some really good music. I can’t think of a more enjoyable situation, sir, than relaxing while being entertained all evening by two such young women; sometimes with music and sometimes with conversation. I’m sure Miss Fairfax must have enjoyed the evening, Emma. You did everything right. I was glad you had her play so much, since she has no instrument at her grandmother’s, it must have been a real treat.”
“I am happy you approved,” said Emma, smiling; “but I hope I am not often deficient in what is due to guests at Hartfield.”
“I’m glad you approved,” Emma said with a smile, “but I hope I’m not often lacking in what’s expected for guests at Hartfield.”
“No, my dear,” said her father instantly; “that I am sure you are not. There is nobody half so attentive and civil as you are. If any thing, you are too attentive. The muffin last night—if it had been handed round once, I think it would have been enough.”
“No, my dear,” her father said immediately; “that I’m sure you’re not. There’s no one as attentive and polite as you are. If anything, you’re too attentive. The muffin last night—if it had been passed around once, I think that would have been enough.”
“No,” said Mr. Knightley, nearly at the same time; “you are not often deficient; not often deficient either in manner or comprehension. I think you understand me, therefore.”
“No,” Mr. Knightley said almost simultaneously, “you’re not usually lacking; you’re not usually lacking in either your manner or understanding. So, I believe you understand me.”
An arch look expressed—“I understand you well enough;” but she said only, “Miss Fairfax is reserved.”
An arched look conveyed, “I get you,” but she simply replied, “Miss Fairfax is reserved.”
“I always told you she was—a little; but you will soon overcome all that part of her reserve which ought to be overcome, all that has its foundation in diffidence. What arises from discretion must be honoured.”
"I've always said she's a bit reserved; however, you'll soon get past all that part of her shyness that needs to be addressed, everything that comes from being unsure. What comes from being careful deserves respect."
“You think her diffident. I do not see it.”
"You think she's shy. I don't see it that way."
“My dear Emma,” said he, moving from his chair into one close by her, “you are not going to tell me, I hope, that you had not a pleasant evening.”
“My dear Emma,” he said, getting up from his chair to sit next to her, “I hope you're not going to tell me you didn’t have a nice evening.”
“Oh! no; I was pleased with my own perseverance in asking questions; and amused to think how little information I obtained.”
“Oh! no; I was happy with my own persistence in asking questions; and found it funny how little information I actually got.”
“I am disappointed,” was his only answer.
"I’m disappointed," was his only response.
“I hope every body had a pleasant evening,” said Mr. Woodhouse, in his quiet way. “I had. Once, I felt the fire rather too much; but then I moved back my chair a little, a very little, and it did not disturb me. Miss Bates was very chatty and good-humoured, as she always is, though she speaks rather too quick. However, she is very agreeable, and Mrs. Bates too, in a different way. I like old friends; and Miss Jane Fairfax is a very pretty sort of young lady, a very pretty and a very well-behaved young lady indeed. She must have found the evening agreeable, Mr. Knightley, because she had Emma.”
“I hope everyone had a nice evening,” said Mr. Woodhouse, in his gentle way. “I did. At one point, I felt the fire a bit too much, but then I adjusted my chair slightly, just a little, and it was fine. Miss Bates was quite talkative and cheerful, as she always is, though she does speak a bit too quickly. Still, she’s very pleasant, and Mrs. Bates is too, in her own way. I like old friends; and Miss Jane Fairfax is a lovely young lady, very pretty and very well-mannered indeed. She must have enjoyed the evening, Mr. Knightley, because she had Emma.”
“True, sir; and Emma, because she had Miss Fairfax.”
“That's true, sir; and Emma, because she had Miss Fairfax.”
Emma saw his anxiety, and wishing to appease it, at least for the present, said, and with a sincerity which no one could question—
Emma noticed his anxiety, and wanting to ease it, at least for now, said, with a sincerity that no one could doubt—
“She is a sort of elegant creature that one cannot keep one’s eyes from. I am always watching her to admire; and I do pity her from my heart.”
“She is an elegant person that you just can’t help but stare at. I’m always watching her to admire her, and I genuinely feel sorry for her.”
Mr. Knightley looked as if he were more gratified than he cared to express; and before he could make any reply, Mr. Woodhouse, whose thoughts were on the Bates’s, said—
Mr. Knightley looked like he was more pleased than he wanted to show; and before he could respond, Mr. Woodhouse, whose mind was on the Bateses, said—
“It is a great pity that their circumstances should be so confined! a great pity indeed! and I have often wished—but it is so little one can venture to do—small, trifling presents, of any thing uncommon—Now we have killed a porker, and Emma thinks of sending them a loin or a leg; it is very small and delicate—Hartfield pork is not like any other pork—but still it is pork—and, my dear Emma, unless one could be sure of their making it into steaks, nicely fried, as ours are fried, without the smallest grease, and not roast it, for no stomach can bear roast pork—I think we had better send the leg—do not you think so, my dear?”
“It’s such a shame their situation is so limited! Truly a shame! I’ve often wished—though there’s so little we can actually do—small, thoughtful gifts of something unique. We just slaughtered a pig, and Emma is thinking about sending them a loin or a leg; it’s very small and delicate—Hartfield pork is unlike any other pork—but still it’s pork—and, my dear Emma, unless we can be sure they cook it into steaks, nicely fried like ours are, without any grease at all, and not roast it, because no one can tolerate roast pork—I think we should send the leg—don’t you agree, my dear?”
“My dear papa, I sent the whole hind-quarter. I knew you would wish it. There will be the leg to be salted, you know, which is so very nice, and the loin to be dressed directly in any manner they like.”
“My dear dad, I sent the whole back leg. I knew you’d want it. There will be the leg to be salted, which is really nice, and the loin to be prepared however they like.”
“That’s right, my dear, very right. I had not thought of it before, but that is the best way. They must not over-salt the leg; and then, if it is not over-salted, and if it is very thoroughly boiled, just as Serle boils ours, and eaten very moderately of, with a boiled turnip, and a little carrot or parsnip, I do not consider it unwholesome.”
"Exactly, my dear, you’re completely right. I hadn’t thought of it before, but that’s the best way to do it. They shouldn’t over-salt the leg; if it's not over-salted, and if it’s boiled very well, just like Serle boils ours, and eaten in moderation with a boiled turnip, and a little carrot or parsnip, I don’t think it’s unhealthy."
“Emma,” said Mr. Knightley presently, “I have a piece of news for you. You like news—and I heard an article in my way hither that I think will interest you.”
“Emma,” Mr. Knightley said after a moment, “I have some news for you. I know you love news—and I heard something on my way here that I think will interest you.”
“News! Oh! yes, I always like news. What is it?—why do you smile so?—where did you hear it?—at Randalls?”
“News! Oh! yes, I always love news. What is it?—why are you smiling like that?—where did you hear it?—at Randalls?”
He had time only to say,
He had just enough time to say,
“No, not at Randalls; I have not been near Randalls,” when the door was thrown open, and Miss Bates and Miss Fairfax walked into the room. Full of thanks, and full of news, Miss Bates knew not which to give quickest. Mr. Knightley soon saw that he had lost his moment, and that not another syllable of communication could rest with him.
“No, not at Randalls; I haven’t been near Randalls,” when the door swung open, and Miss Bates and Miss Fairfax entered the room. Overflowing with gratitude and news, Miss Bates didn’t know which to share first. Mr. Knightley quickly realized he had missed his chance, and that not another word of conversation would come from him.
“Oh! my dear sir, how are you this morning? My dear Miss Woodhouse—I come quite over-powered. Such a beautiful hind-quarter of pork! You are too bountiful! Have you heard the news? Mr. Elton is going to be married.”
“Oh! My dear sir, how are you this morning? My dear Miss Woodhouse—I’m completely overwhelmed. What a beautiful cut of pork! You’re too generous! Have you heard the news? Mr. Elton is getting married.”
Emma had not had time even to think of Mr. Elton, and she was so completely surprized that she could not avoid a little start, and a little blush, at the sound.
Emma hadn’t even had the chance to think about Mr. Elton, and she was so shocked that she couldn’t help but flinch a bit and blush when she heard his name.
“There is my news:—I thought it would interest you,” said Mr. Knightley, with a smile which implied a conviction of some part of what had passed between them.
“There’s my news:—I thought you’d find it interesting,” said Mr. Knightley, with a smile that suggested he understood some of what had happened between them.
“But where could you hear it?” cried Miss Bates. “Where could you possibly hear it, Mr. Knightley? For it is not five minutes since I received Mrs. Cole’s note—no, it cannot be more than five—or at least ten—for I had got my bonnet and spencer on, just ready to come out—I was only gone down to speak to Patty again about the pork—Jane was standing in the passage—were not you, Jane?—for my mother was so afraid that we had not any salting-pan large enough. So I said I would go down and see, and Jane said, ‘Shall I go down instead? for I think you have a little cold, and Patty has been washing the kitchen.’—‘Oh! my dear,’ said I—well, and just then came the note. A Miss Hawkins—that’s all I know. A Miss Hawkins of Bath. But, Mr. Knightley, how could you possibly have heard it? for the very moment Mr. Cole told Mrs. Cole of it, she sat down and wrote to me. A Miss Hawkins—”
“But where could you hear it?” yelled Miss Bates. “Where could you possibly have heard it, Mr. Knightley? It hasn’t been five minutes since I got Mrs. Cole’s note—no, it can't be more than five—or at least ten—because I had just put on my bonnet and spencer, all ready to head out—I was only going down to talk to Patty again about the pork—Jane was standing in the hall—weren’t you, Jane?—because my mother was really worried that we didn’t have a salting-pan big enough. So I said I would check, and Jane suggested, ‘Should I go down instead? Because I think you have a bit of a cold, and Patty is washing the kitchen.’—‘Oh! my dear,’ I said—well, just then, the note arrived. A Miss Hawkins—that’s all I know. A Miss Hawkins from Bath. But, Mr. Knightley, how could you have possibly heard it? Because the very moment Mr. Cole told Mrs. Cole, she sat down and wrote to me. A Miss Hawkins—”
“I was with Mr. Cole on business an hour and a half ago. He had just read Elton’s letter as I was shewn in, and handed it to me directly.”
“I was with Mr. Cole on business an hour and a half ago. He had just read Elton’s letter when I was brought in, and he handed it to me right away.”
“Well! that is quite—I suppose there never was a piece of news more generally interesting. My dear sir, you really are too bountiful. My mother desires her very best compliments and regards, and a thousand thanks, and says you really quite oppress her.”
“Well! That’s quite— I suppose there’s never been a piece of news more universally interesting. My dear sir, you truly are too generous. My mother sends her warmest regards and a thousand thanks, and says you really do overwhelm her.”
“We consider our Hartfield pork,” replied Mr. Woodhouse—“indeed it certainly is, so very superior to all other pork, that Emma and I cannot have a greater pleasure than—”
“We think our Hartfield pork is the best,” replied Mr. Woodhouse, “it’s definitely so much better than all other pork, that Emma and I can’t take more pleasure than—”
“Oh! my dear sir, as my mother says, our friends are only too good to us. If ever there were people who, without having great wealth themselves, had every thing they could wish for, I am sure it is us. We may well say that ‘our lot is cast in a goodly heritage.’ Well, Mr. Knightley, and so you actually saw the letter; well—”
“Oh! my dear sir, as my mother says, our friends are just too kind to us. If there were ever people who, without having great wealth themselves, had everything they could wish for, I’m sure it’s us. We can truly say that ‘our lot is cast in a goodly heritage.’ Well, Mr. Knightley, you actually saw the letter; well—”
“It was short—merely to announce—but cheerful, exulting, of course.”— Here was a sly glance at Emma. “He had been so fortunate as to—I forget the precise words—one has no business to remember them. The information was, as you state, that he was going to be married to a Miss Hawkins. By his style, I should imagine it just settled.”
“It was brief—just an announcement—but joyful, triumphant, obviously.”— Here was a sly look at Emma. “He had been lucky enough to—I can’t recall the exact words—who needs to remember them? The news was, as you said, that he was going to marry a Miss Hawkins. From the way he spoke, I’d guess it’s already a done deal.”
“Mr. Elton going to be married!” said Emma, as soon as she could speak. “He will have every body’s wishes for his happiness.”
“Mr. Elton is going to get married!” said Emma, as soon as she could speak. “Everyone will wish him happiness.”
“He is very young to settle,” was Mr. Woodhouse’s observation. “He had better not be in a hurry. He seemed to me very well off as he was. We were always glad to see him at Hartfield.”
“He's too young to settle down,” Mr. Woodhouse said. “He shouldn't rush into things. He seemed perfectly fine as he was. We always enjoyed having him at Hartfield.”
“A new neighbour for us all, Miss Woodhouse!” said Miss Bates, joyfully; “my mother is so pleased!—she says she cannot bear to have the poor old Vicarage without a mistress. This is great news, indeed. Jane, you have never seen Mr. Elton!—no wonder that you have such a curiosity to see him.”
“A new neighbor for all of us, Miss Woodhouse!” said Miss Bates, happily. “My mother is so pleased! She says she can't stand having the poor old Vicarage without a mistress. This is really exciting news. Jane, you’ve never met Mr. Elton! No wonder you’re so curious to see him.”
Jane’s curiosity did not appear of that absorbing nature as wholly to occupy her.
Jane's curiosity didn't seem so intense that it completely occupied her.
“No—I have never seen Mr. Elton,” she replied, starting on this appeal; “is he—is he a tall man?”
“No—I’ve never seen Mr. Elton,” she replied, starting on this request; “is he— is he tall?”
“Who shall answer that question?” cried Emma. “My father would say ‘yes,’ Mr. Knightley ‘no;’ and Miss Bates and I that he is just the happy medium. When you have been here a little longer, Miss Fairfax, you will understand that Mr. Elton is the standard of perfection in Highbury, both in person and mind.”
“Who’s going to answer that question?” Emma exclaimed. “My dad would say ‘yes,’ Mr. Knightley would say ‘no,’ and Miss Bates and I would say he’s just the happy medium. When you've been here a bit longer, Miss Fairfax, you'll see that Mr. Elton is seen as the perfect example in Highbury, both in looks and in character.”
“Very true, Miss Woodhouse, so she will. He is the very best young man—But, my dear Jane, if you remember, I told you yesterday he was precisely the height of Mr. Perry. Miss Hawkins,—I dare say, an excellent young woman. His extreme attention to my mother—wanting her to sit in the vicarage pew, that she might hear the better, for my mother is a little deaf, you know—it is not much, but she does not hear quite quick. Jane says that Colonel Campbell is a little deaf. He fancied bathing might be good for it—the warm bath—but she says it did him no lasting benefit. Colonel Campbell, you know, is quite our angel. And Mr. Dixon seems a very charming young man, quite worthy of him. It is such a happiness when good people get together—and they always do. Now, here will be Mr. Elton and Miss Hawkins; and there are the Coles, such very good people; and the Perrys—I suppose there never was a happier or a better couple than Mr. and Mrs. Perry. I say, sir,” turning to Mr. Woodhouse, “I think there are few places with such society as Highbury. I always say, we are quite blessed in our neighbours.—My dear sir, if there is one thing my mother loves better than another, it is pork—a roast loin of pork—”
“Very true, Miss Woodhouse, so she will. He is the best young man—But, my dear Jane, if you remember, I told you yesterday he’s exactly the height of Mr. Perry. Miss Hawkins—I’m sure she’s a wonderful young woman. His incredible attention to my mother—wanting her to sit in the vicarage pew so she could hear better, since she’s a little hard of hearing, you know—it’s not much, but she doesn’t catch everything right away. Jane says Colonel Campbell is a bit hard of hearing too. He thought bathing might help—with the warm bath—but she says it didn’t do him any lasting good. Colonel Campbell, you know, is like our angel. And Mr. Dixon seems like a charming young man, definitely deserving of him. It’s such a joy when good people come together—and they always do. Now, here will be Mr. Elton and Miss Hawkins; and there are the Coles, such good people; and the Perrys—I suppose there was never a happier or better couple than Mr. and Mrs. Perry. I say, sir,” turning to Mr. Woodhouse, “I think there are few places with such good company as Highbury. I always say we are truly blessed with our neighbors.—My dear sir, if there’s one thing my mother loves more than anything else, it’s pork—a roast loin of pork—”
“As to who, or what Miss Hawkins is, or how long he has been acquainted with her,” said Emma, “nothing I suppose can be known. One feels that it cannot be a very long acquaintance. He has been gone only four weeks.”
“As for who Miss Hawkins is, or how long he’s known her,” said Emma, “I guess there’s no way to know. It seems like it can’t have been a very long time. He’s only been gone for four weeks.”
Nobody had any information to give; and, after a few more wonderings, Emma said,
Nobody had any information to share; and, after a few more moments of curiosity, Emma said,
“You are silent, Miss Fairfax—but I hope you mean to take an interest in this news. You, who have been hearing and seeing so much of late on these subjects, who must have been so deep in the business on Miss Campbell’s account—we shall not excuse your being indifferent about Mr. Elton and Miss Hawkins.”
“You’re quiet, Miss Fairfax—but I hope you plan to pay attention to this news. You, who have been hearing and seeing so much lately about these matters, who must have been so involved because of Miss Campbell—we won’t let you off the hook for being indifferent about Mr. Elton and Miss Hawkins.”
“When I have seen Mr. Elton,” replied Jane, “I dare say I shall be interested—but I believe it requires that with me. And as it is some months since Miss Campbell married, the impression may be a little worn off.”
“When I see Mr. Elton,” replied Jane, “I’m sure I’ll be interested—but I think it takes that for me. And since it’s been a few months since Miss Campbell got married, the impression might have faded a bit.”
“Yes, he has been gone just four weeks, as you observe, Miss Woodhouse,” said Miss Bates, “four weeks yesterday.—A Miss Hawkins!—Well, I had always rather fancied it would be some young lady hereabouts; not that I ever—Mrs. Cole once whispered to me—but I immediately said, ‘No, Mr. Elton is a most worthy young man—but’—In short, I do not think I am particularly quick at those sort of discoveries. I do not pretend to it. What is before me, I see. At the same time, nobody could wonder if Mr. Elton should have aspired—Miss Woodhouse lets me chatter on, so good-humouredly. She knows I would not offend for the world. How does Miss Smith do? She seems quite recovered now. Have you heard from Mrs. John Knightley lately? Oh! those dear little children. Jane, do you know I always fancy Mr. Dixon like Mr. John Knightley. I mean in person—tall, and with that sort of look—and not very talkative.”
“Yes, he has been gone just four weeks, as you noticed, Miss Woodhouse,” said Miss Bates, “four weeks yesterday.—A Miss Hawkins!—Well, I always thought it would be some young lady around here; not that I ever—Mrs. Cole once whispered to me—but I immediately said, ‘No, Mr. Elton is a really good young man—but’—In short, I don’t think I’m particularly quick at those kinds of discoveries. I don’t pretend to be. What’s in front of me, I see. At the same time, no one could blame Mr. Elton if he hoped for something—Miss Woodhouse lets me talk on, so good-naturedly. She knows I wouldn’t offend for the world. How is Miss Smith doing? She seems to be completely recovered now. Have you heard from Mrs. John Knightley lately? Oh! those dear little kids. Jane, do you know I always think Mr. Dixon looks like Mr. John Knightley. I mean in appearance—tall, and with that kind of look—and not very talkative.”
“Quite wrong, my dear aunt; there is no likeness at all.”
“That's completely incorrect, my dear aunt; there's no resemblance whatsoever.”
“Very odd! but one never does form a just idea of any body beforehand. One takes up a notion, and runs away with it. Mr. Dixon, you say, is not, strictly speaking, handsome?”
“Very strange! But you can never really form a true opinion of someone ahead of time. You get an idea and just go with it. Mr. Dixon, you’re saying, isn’t exactly handsome?”
“Handsome! Oh! no—far from it—certainly plain. I told you he was plain.”
“Good-looking! Oh, no—far from it—definitely not attractive. I said he wasn’t attractive.”
“My dear, you said that Miss Campbell would not allow him to be plain, and that you yourself—”
“My dear, you said that Miss Campbell wouldn't let him be ordinary, and that you yourself—”
“Oh! as for me, my judgment is worth nothing. Where I have a regard, I always think a person well-looking. But I gave what I believed the general opinion, when I called him plain.”
“Oh! as for me, my judgment doesn't mean much. When I like someone, I always think they're good-looking. But I was just mentioning what I thought was the general opinion when I called him plain.”
“Well, my dear Jane, I believe we must be running away. The weather does not look well, and grandmama will be uneasy. You are too obliging, my dear Miss Woodhouse; but we really must take leave. This has been a most agreeable piece of news indeed. I shall just go round by Mrs. Cole’s; but I shall not stop three minutes: and, Jane, you had better go home directly—I would not have you out in a shower!—We think she is the better for Highbury already. Thank you, we do indeed. I shall not attempt calling on Mrs. Goddard, for I really do not think she cares for any thing but boiled pork: when we dress the leg it will be another thing. Good morning to you, my dear sir. Oh! Mr. Knightley is coming too. Well, that is so very!—I am sure if Jane is tired, you will be so kind as to give her your arm.—Mr. Elton, and Miss Hawkins!—Good morning to you.”
“Well, my dear Jane, I think we need to leave now. The weather doesn't look too good, and grandma will be worried. You’re so kind, my dear Miss Woodhouse; but we really must say goodbye. This has been really great news. I’ll just swing by Mrs. Cole’s; but I won’t stay more than three minutes: and, Jane, you should head home right away—I wouldn’t want you out in the rain!—We think she’s already feeling better in Highbury. Thank you, we really do. I won’t try visiting Mrs. Goddard, because I truly don’t think she cares about anything except boiled pork: when we prepare the leg, it will be a different story. Good morning to you, my dear sir. Oh! Mr. Knightley is coming too. Well, that’s wonderful!—I’m sure if Jane gets tired, you'll kindly lend her your arm.—Mr. Elton, and Miss Hawkins!—Good morning to you.”
Emma, alone with her father, had half her attention wanted by him while he lamented that young people would be in such a hurry to marry—and to marry strangers too—and the other half she could give to her own view of the subject. It was to herself an amusing and a very welcome piece of news, as proving that Mr. Elton could not have suffered long; but she was sorry for Harriet: Harriet must feel it—and all that she could hope was, by giving the first information herself, to save her from hearing it abruptly from others. It was now about the time that she was likely to call. If she were to meet Miss Bates in her way!—and upon its beginning to rain, Emma was obliged to expect that the weather would be detaining her at Mrs. Goddard’s, and that the intelligence would undoubtedly rush upon her without preparation.
Emma, alone with her dad, had to split her attention between him as he complained about how young people rush to get married—and to marry strangers too—and her own thoughts on the matter. To her, it was a funny and welcome piece of news since it showed that Mr. Elton couldn't have been upset for long; but she felt bad for Harriet: Harriet would definitely feel it—and all Emma could hope for was that by sharing the news first, she could save her from hearing it abruptly from someone else. It was around the time when Harriet was likely to call. If she happened to run into Miss Bates on her way!—and with the rain starting, Emma figured that Harriet would probably be stuck at Mrs. Goddard’s, and that the news would definitely hit her without any warning.
The shower was heavy, but short; and it had not been over five minutes, when in came Harriet, with just the heated, agitated look which hurrying thither with a full heart was likely to give; and the “Oh! Miss Woodhouse, what do you think has happened!” which instantly burst forth, had all the evidence of corresponding perturbation. As the blow was given, Emma felt that she could not now shew greater kindness than in listening; and Harriet, unchecked, ran eagerly through what she had to tell. “She had set out from Mrs. Goddard’s half an hour ago—she had been afraid it would rain—she had been afraid it would pour down every moment—but she thought she might get to Hartfield first—she had hurried on as fast as possible; but then, as she was passing by the house where a young woman was making up a gown for her, she thought she would just step in and see how it went on; and though she did not seem to stay half a moment there, soon after she came out it began to rain, and she did not know what to do; so she ran on directly, as fast as she could, and took shelter at Ford’s.”—Ford’s was the principal woollen-draper, linen-draper, and haberdasher’s shop united; the shop first in size and fashion in the place.—“And so, there she had set, without an idea of any thing in the world, full ten minutes, perhaps—when, all of a sudden, who should come in—to be sure it was so very odd!—but they always dealt at Ford’s—who should come in, but Elizabeth Martin and her brother!—Dear Miss Woodhouse! only think. I thought I should have fainted. I did not know what to do. I was sitting near the door—Elizabeth saw me directly; but he did not; he was busy with the umbrella. I am sure she saw me, but she looked away directly, and took no notice; and they both went to quite the farther end of the shop; and I kept sitting near the door!—Oh! dear; I was so miserable! I am sure I must have been as white as my gown. I could not go away you know, because of the rain; but I did so wish myself anywhere in the world but there.—Oh! dear, Miss Woodhouse—well, at last, I fancy, he looked round and saw me; for instead of going on with her buyings, they began whispering to one another. I am sure they were talking of me; and I could not help thinking that he was persuading her to speak to me—(do you think he was, Miss Woodhouse?)—for presently she came forward—came quite up to me, and asked me how I did, and seemed ready to shake hands, if I would. She did not do any of it in the same way that she used; I could see she was altered; but, however, she seemed to try to be very friendly, and we shook hands, and stood talking some time; but I know no more what I said—I was in such a tremble!—I remember she said she was sorry we never met now; which I thought almost too kind! Dear, Miss Woodhouse, I was absolutely miserable! By that time, it was beginning to hold up, and I was determined that nothing should stop me from getting away—and then—only think!—I found he was coming up towards me too—slowly you know, and as if he did not quite know what to do; and so he came and spoke, and I answered—and I stood for a minute, feeling dreadfully, you know, one can’t tell how; and then I took courage, and said it did not rain, and I must go; and so off I set; and I had not got three yards from the door, when he came after me, only to say, if I was going to Hartfield, he thought I had much better go round by Mr. Cole’s stables, for I should find the near way quite floated by this rain. Oh! dear, I thought it would have been the death of me! So I said, I was very much obliged to him: you know I could not do less; and then he went back to Elizabeth, and I came round by the stables—I believe I did—but I hardly knew where I was, or any thing about it. Oh! Miss Woodhouse, I would rather done any thing than have it happen: and yet, you know, there was a sort of satisfaction in seeing him behave so pleasantly and so kindly. And Elizabeth, too. Oh! Miss Woodhouse, do talk to me and make me comfortable again.”
The rain was heavy but brief, and it hadn’t been more than five minutes when Harriet rushed in, looking all heated and flustered, which was expected given how eagerly she had come with a full heart. “Oh! Miss Woodhouse, guess what happened!” she exclaimed, her tone revealing her agitation. Emma realized that the best way to show her kindness was just to listen as Harriet eagerly spilled everything. “I left Mrs. Goddard’s half an hour ago—I was worried it would rain—I thought it might pour down any minute—but I hoped I could get to Hartfield first—so I hurried as fast as I could. But then, as I was passing by the house where a young woman was making a dress for me, I thought I’d just pop in to see how it was going; it felt like I barely stayed more than a moment, but as soon as I came out, it started to rain, and I didn’t know what to do. So, I ran straight on as fast as I could and sought shelter at Ford’s.” — Ford’s was the main shop for wool, linen, and haberdashery; the biggest and most fashionable place in town. — “And there I sat, completely blank, for maybe ten minutes—when suddenly, would you believe it—it was so odd!—but of course they always shopped at Ford’s—who should come in but Elizabeth Martin and her brother!—Oh, dear Miss Woodhouse! Just think about that. I thought I might faint. I didn’t know what to do. I was sitting close to the door—Elizabeth spotted me right away, but he didn’t; he was busy with the umbrella. I’m sure she saw me, but she looked away instantly and ignored me; they both went to the far end of the shop while I just sat there near the door!—Oh! I was so miserable! I must have been as pale as my dress. I couldn’t leave because of the rain, but I wished I could be anywhere else in the world. — Oh! Miss Woodhouse—well, finally, I think he must have turned around and saw me; because instead of continuing their shopping, they started whispering to each other. I couldn’t help but think he was trying to convince her to talk to me—(do you think he was, Miss Woodhouse?)—because soon enough, she came over—walked right up to me, asked how I was, and seemed ready to shake hands if I wanted. She didn’t do it the same way as before; I could tell she had changed; still, she tried to be friendly, and we shook hands and chatted for a while, but I don’t even know what I said—I was so nervous!—I remember she said she was sorry we hadn’t met lately, which I thought was almost too nice! Oh, Miss Woodhouse, I was absolutely miserable! By then, it was starting to let up, and I was determined nothing would keep me from leaving—and then—just think!—I saw he was coming toward me too—slowly, you know, like he wasn’t sure what to do; so he approached and spoke, and I replied—and I stood there for a minute, feeling dreadful, you know, that indescribable feeling; and then I found my courage and said it wasn’t raining anymore, and I had to go; so off I went; and I had barely gotten three yards from the door when he ran after me, just to say if I was heading to Hartfield, I should probably take the route by Mr. Cole’s stables because the short way was totally flooded from the rain. Oh! I thought that would be the end of me! So I said thank you very much: I mean, I couldn’t do less; and then he went back to Elizabeth, and I went around by the stables—I think I did—but I could hardly remember where I was or anything. Oh! Miss Woodhouse, I’d rather have done anything than this happen: and yet, you know, there was a weird satisfaction in seeing him act so nicely and kindly. And Elizabeth, too. Oh! Miss Woodhouse, please talk to me and help me feel better again.”
Very sincerely did Emma wish to do so; but it was not immediately in her power. She was obliged to stop and think. She was not thoroughly comfortable herself. The young man’s conduct, and his sister’s, seemed the result of real feeling, and she could not but pity them. As Harriet described it, there had been an interesting mixture of wounded affection and genuine delicacy in their behaviour. But she had believed them to be well-meaning, worthy people before; and what difference did this make in the evils of the connexion? It was folly to be disturbed by it. Of course, he must be sorry to lose her—they must be all sorry. Ambition, as well as love, had probably been mortified. They might all have hoped to rise by Harriet’s acquaintance: and besides, what was the value of Harriet’s description?—So easily pleased—so little discerning;—what signified her praise?
Emma sincerely wished to do so, but it wasn't immediately possible for her. She had to pause and think. She wasn't completely comfortable herself. The young man's behavior and his sister's seemed to come from genuine feelings, and she couldn't help but feel sorry for them. As Harriet described it, their actions had an interesting mix of hurt feelings and true sensitivity. But she had already thought of them as kind, good people; what difference did that make in the issues surrounding their connection? It was foolish to let it upset her. Of course, he had to be upset about losing her—they all had to be. Both ambition and love had probably taken a hit. They might have all hoped to benefit from knowing Harriet. Besides, how valuable was Harriet's opinion?—So easily satisfied—so lacking in discernment;—what did her praise really matter?
She exerted herself, and did try to make her comfortable, by considering all that had passed as a mere trifle, and quite unworthy of being dwelt on,
She put in the effort and tried to make her comfortable by thinking of everything that had happened as just a minor issue, not worth spending time on.
“It might be distressing, for the moment,” said she; “but you seem to have behaved extremely well; and it is over—and may never—can never, as a first meeting, occur again, and therefore you need not think about it.”
“It might be upsetting right now,” she said, “but you seem to have handled it really well; and it’s over—and it may never happen again, so you don’t need to worry about it.”
Harriet said, “very true,” and she “would not think about it;” but still she talked of it—still she could talk of nothing else; and Emma, at last, in order to put the Martins out of her head, was obliged to hurry on the news, which she had meant to give with so much tender caution; hardly knowing herself whether to rejoice or be angry, ashamed or only amused, at such a state of mind in poor Harriet—such a conclusion of Mr. Elton’s importance with her!
Harriet said, “very true,” and that she “wouldn't think about it;” but she still talked about it—she could talk of nothing else; and Emma, in the end, to get the Martins out of her mind, had to rush through the news she had meant to share with so much gentle care; hardly knowing herself whether to feel happy or angry, ashamed or just amused, at Harriet's state of mind—such a conclusion about Mr. Elton’s significance to her!
Mr. Elton’s rights, however, gradually revived. Though she did not feel the first intelligence as she might have done the day before, or an hour before, its interest soon increased; and before their first conversation was over, she had talked herself into all the sensations of curiosity, wonder and regret, pain and pleasure, as to this fortunate Miss Hawkins, which could conduce to place the Martins under proper subordination in her fancy.
Mr. Elton’s rights, however, slowly came back into focus. Even though she didn’t react to the initial news as strongly as she might have the day before or even an hour earlier, her interest quickly grew. By the time their first conversation ended, she had convinced herself to feel all sorts of emotions—curiosity, wonder, regret, pain, and pleasure—about this lucky Miss Hawkins, which helped to put the Martins in the right place in her mind.
Emma learned to be rather glad that there had been such a meeting. It had been serviceable in deadening the first shock, without retaining any influence to alarm. As Harriet now lived, the Martins could not get at her, without seeking her, where hitherto they had wanted either the courage or the condescension to seek her; for since her refusal of the brother, the sisters never had been at Mrs. Goddard’s; and a twelvemonth might pass without their being thrown together again, with any necessity, or even any power of speech.
Emma was actually happy that there had been that meeting. It helped lessen the initial shock without having any lingering effects that would cause panic. Since Harriet now lived in a way that kept the Martins from reaching her, they would have to actively look for her, something they hadn't had the courage or humility to do before. Ever since Harriet turned down the brother, the sisters hadn't visited Mrs. Goddard’s, and a whole year could go by without them being forced to interact again, or even having the chance to speak.
CHAPTER IV
Human nature is so well disposed towards those who are in interesting situations, that a young person, who either marries or dies, is sure of being kindly spoken of.
Human nature is so inclined to favor those in compelling circumstances that a young person, whether they marry or pass away, is guaranteed to be talked about kindly.
A week had not passed since Miss Hawkins’s name was first mentioned in Highbury, before she was, by some means or other, discovered to have every recommendation of person and mind; to be handsome, elegant, highly accomplished, and perfectly amiable: and when Mr. Elton himself arrived to triumph in his happy prospects, and circulate the fame of her merits, there was very little more for him to do, than to tell her Christian name, and say whose music she principally played.
A week hadn’t gone by since Miss Hawkins’s name was first brought up in Highbury, before it was somehow discovered that she had all the qualities one could ask for; she was beautiful, graceful, well-educated, and very kind. When Mr. Elton finally arrived to celebrate his good fortune and share her praises, there was hardly anything left for him to do except to mention her first name and say whose music she mainly played.
Mr. Elton returned, a very happy man. He had gone away rejected and mortified—disappointed in a very sanguine hope, after a series of what appeared to him strong encouragement; and not only losing the right lady, but finding himself debased to the level of a very wrong one. He had gone away deeply offended—he came back engaged to another—and to another as superior, of course, to the first, as under such circumstances what is gained always is to what is lost. He came back gay and self-satisfied, eager and busy, caring nothing for Miss Woodhouse, and defying Miss Smith.
Mr. Elton returned as a very happy man. He had left feeling rejected and embarrassed—disappointed after having high hopes fueled by what he thought were strong signals of encouragement; and not only had he lost the right woman, but he also found himself stooping to someone completely wrong for him. He had left deeply offended—now he came back engaged to someone else—and this new woman was, of course, superior to the first one, as is usually the case when you gain something new after losing something. He returned cheerful and full of himself, eager and busy, completely indifferent to Miss Woodhouse and dismissive of Miss Smith.
The charming Augusta Hawkins, in addition to all the usual advantages of perfect beauty and merit, was in possession of an independent fortune, of so many thousands as would always be called ten; a point of some dignity, as well as some convenience: the story told well; he had not thrown himself away—he had gained a woman of 10,000 l. or thereabouts; and he had gained her with such delightful rapidity—the first hour of introduction had been so very soon followed by distinguishing notice; the history which he had to give Mrs. Cole of the rise and progress of the affair was so glorious—the steps so quick, from the accidental rencontre, to the dinner at Mr. Green’s, and the party at Mrs. Brown’s—smiles and blushes rising in importance—with consciousness and agitation richly scattered—the lady had been so easily impressed—so sweetly disposed—had in short, to use a most intelligible phrase, been so very ready to have him, that vanity and prudence were equally contented.
The charming Augusta Hawkins, besides having all the usual advantages of perfect beauty and talent, also had her own independent fortune, amounting to so many thousands that it would always be referred to as ten; a fact that added both dignity and convenience. The story was impressive; he hadn’t settled for less—he had won a woman worth around 10,000 l. and he had done so with such delightful speed—the first hour of their meeting was quickly followed by special attention; the tale he had to share with Mrs. Cole about how their relationship blossomed was glorious—the journey was so swift, from their chance meeting to dinner at Mr. Green’s and a gathering at Mrs. Brown’s—smiles and blushes gaining significance—with feelings of awareness and excitement richly sprinkled throughout—the lady was so easily impressed—so sweetly inclined—had, in short, to use a very clear expression, been so ready to accept him, that both his vanity and his sense of caution were equally satisfied.
He had caught both substance and shadow—both fortune and affection, and was just the happy man he ought to be; talking only of himself and his own concerns—expecting to be congratulated—ready to be laughed at—and, with cordial, fearless smiles, now addressing all the young ladies of the place, to whom, a few weeks ago, he would have been more cautiously gallant.
He had captured both reality and illusion—both luck and love—and was the happy man he was meant to be; talking only about himself and his own issues—expecting praise—open to being teased—and, with warm, fearless smiles, now chatting with all the young ladies in the area, to whom just a few weeks ago he would have approached with more careful charm.
The wedding was no distant event, as the parties had only themselves to please, and nothing but the necessary preparations to wait for; and when he set out for Bath again, there was a general expectation, which a certain glance of Mrs. Cole’s did not seem to contradict, that when he next entered Highbury he would bring his bride.
The wedding was right around the corner, since the couple only needed to satisfy themselves and just had to finish a few necessary preparations; and when he left for Bath again, everyone expected, and a particular look from Mrs. Cole seemed to confirm, that when he returned to Highbury, he would come back with his bride.
During his present short stay, Emma had barely seen him; but just enough to feel that the first meeting was over, and to give her the impression of his not being improved by the mixture of pique and pretension, now spread over his air. She was, in fact, beginning very much to wonder that she had ever thought him pleasing at all; and his sight was so inseparably connected with some very disagreeable feelings, that, except in a moral light, as a penance, a lesson, a source of profitable humiliation to her own mind, she would have been thankful to be assured of never seeing him again. She wished him very well; but he gave her pain, and his welfare twenty miles off would administer most satisfaction.
During his current short visit, Emma had hardly seen him; just enough to feel that their first meeting was done and to get the impression that he was not bettered by the mix of irritation and pretense that now surrounded him. She was really starting to wonder why she had ever found him appealing at all; and seeing him was so closely tied to some very unpleasant feelings that, aside from a moral perspective—as a form of penance, a lesson, a source of useful embarrassment for her own mind—she would have been grateful to be told she’d never have to see him again. She wished him well; but he caused her pain, and knowing he was twenty miles away would bring her the most satisfaction.
The pain of his continued residence in Highbury, however, must certainly be lessened by his marriage. Many vain solicitudes would be prevented—many awkwardnesses smoothed by it. A Mrs. Elton would be an excuse for any change of intercourse; former intimacy might sink without remark. It would be almost beginning their life of civility again.
The discomfort of him staying in Highbury, however, would definitely be eased by his marriage. Many unnecessary worries would be avoided—many awkward situations smoothed over by it. A Mrs. Elton would provide a reason for any change in social interactions; their previous closeness could fade without a mention. It would be like starting their life of politeness all over again.
Of the lady, individually, Emma thought very little. She was good enough for Mr. Elton, no doubt; accomplished enough for Highbury—handsome enough—to look plain, probably, by Harriet’s side. As to connexion, there Emma was perfectly easy; persuaded, that after all his own vaunted claims and disdain of Harriet, he had done nothing. On that article, truth seemed attainable. What she was, must be uncertain; but who she was, might be found out; and setting aside the 10,000 l., it did not appear that she was at all Harriet’s superior. She brought no name, no blood, no alliance. Miss Hawkins was the youngest of the two daughters of a Bristol—merchant, of course, he must be called; but, as the whole of the profits of his mercantile life appeared so very moderate, it was not unfair to guess the dignity of his line of trade had been very moderate also. Part of every winter she had been used to spend in Bath; but Bristol was her home, the very heart of Bristol; for though the father and mother had died some years ago, an uncle remained—in the law line—nothing more distinctly honourable was hazarded of him, than that he was in the law line; and with him the daughter had lived. Emma guessed him to be the drudge of some attorney, and too stupid to rise. And all the grandeur of the connexion seemed dependent on the elder sister, who was very well married, to a gentleman in a great way, near Bristol, who kept two carriages! That was the wind-up of the history; that was the glory of Miss Hawkins.
Emma didn't think much of the lady as an individual. She was definitely good enough for Mr. Elton; accomplished enough for Highbury—probably even pretty enough to look plain next to Harriet. As for connections, Emma felt completely assured; convinced that despite Mr. Elton’s self-praise and contempt for Harriet, he had not really accomplished anything. On that point, truth seemed attainable. What she was could be uncertain; but who she was could be discovered. Setting aside the £10,000, it didn’t seem like she was really superior to Harriet at all. She brought no name, no lineage, no alliance. Miss Hawkins was the younger of the two daughters of a Bristol merchant, or at least he must be called that; however, given how modest the profits of his trade appeared, it wasn’t unfair to guess that the prestige of his profession was also quite humble. She had spent part of every winter in Bath, but Bristol was her true home, right in the heart of the city; for although her parents had passed away a few years ago, she still had an uncle—who was in the legal profession—though nothing more distinguished was said about him than that. She had lived with him, and Emma suspected he was just the lackey of some attorney, too dull to move up in the world. All the significance of the connection seemed to hinge on the older sister, who was very well married to a gentleman of some means near Bristol, who even owned two carriages! That was the climax of her story; that was the pride of Miss Hawkins.
Could she but have given Harriet her feelings about it all! She had talked her into love; but, alas! she was not so easily to be talked out of it. The charm of an object to occupy the many vacancies of Harriet’s mind was not to be talked away. He might be superseded by another; he certainly would indeed; nothing could be clearer; even a Robert Martin would have been sufficient; but nothing else, she feared, would cure her. Harriet was one of those, who, having once begun, would be always in love. And now, poor girl! she was considerably worse from this reappearance of Mr. Elton. She was always having a glimpse of him somewhere or other. Emma saw him only once; but two or three times every day Harriet was sure just to meet with him, or just to miss him, just to hear his voice, or see his shoulder, just to have something occur to preserve him in her fancy, in all the favouring warmth of surprize and conjecture. She was, moreover, perpetually hearing about him; for, excepting when at Hartfield, she was always among those who saw no fault in Mr. Elton, and found nothing so interesting as the discussion of his concerns; and every report, therefore, every guess—all that had already occurred, all that might occur in the arrangement of his affairs, comprehending income, servants, and furniture, was continually in agitation around her. Her regard was receiving strength by invariable praise of him, and her regrets kept alive, and feelings irritated by ceaseless repetitions of Miss Hawkins’s happiness, and continual observation of, how much he seemed attached!—his air as he walked by the house—the very sitting of his hat, being all in proof of how much he was in love!
If only she could have shared her feelings about it all with Harriet! She had managed to talk her into love, but, unfortunately, it was much harder to talk her out of it. The appeal of someone to fill the gaps in Harriet’s mind couldn’t just be dismissed. He might be replaced by someone else; that much was certain; even someone like Robert Martin would have been enough; but nothing else, she worried, would cure her. Harriet was one of those people who, once they start loving someone, would always be in love. And now, poor girl! She was feeling even worse because of Mr. Elton's reappearance. She kept catching glimpses of him everywhere. Emma saw him only once, but several times a day, Harriet was sure to either run into him or just miss him, just hear his voice, or see his shoulder, just have some encounter that would keep him alive in her mind, in the warm glow of surprise and speculation. Plus, she was constantly hearing about him; when she wasn’t at Hartfield, she was surrounded by people who recognized no faults in Mr. Elton and found nothing more engaging than discussing his life. Every story, every guess—everything that had happened, everything that could happen regarding his income, servants, and furniture—was always buzzing around her. Her feelings for him grew stronger with all the praise he received, and her sadness lingered on, fueled by endless talk of Miss Hawkins's happiness and constant observations about how devoted he seemed! His manner as he walked past the house, the way he wore his hat, all pointed to how much he was in love!
Had it been allowable entertainment, had there been no pain to her friend, or reproach to herself, in the waverings of Harriet’s mind, Emma would have been amused by its variations. Sometimes Mr. Elton predominated, sometimes the Martins; and each was occasionally useful as a check to the other. Mr. Elton’s engagement had been the cure of the agitation of meeting Mr. Martin. The unhappiness produced by the knowledge of that engagement had been a little put aside by Elizabeth Martin’s calling at Mrs. Goddard’s a few days afterwards. Harriet had not been at home; but a note had been prepared and left for her, written in the very style to touch; a small mixture of reproach, with a great deal of kindness; and till Mr. Elton himself appeared, she had been much occupied by it, continually pondering over what could be done in return, and wishing to do more than she dared to confess. But Mr. Elton, in person, had driven away all such cares. While he staid, the Martins were forgotten; and on the very morning of his setting off for Bath again, Emma, to dissipate some of the distress it occasioned, judged it best for her to return Elizabeth Martin’s visit.
If it had been acceptable entertainment, and if it hadn’t caused her friend any pain or brought reproach to herself, Emma would have found amusement in Harriet’s changing feelings. Sometimes Mr. Elton was the focus, and sometimes the Martins; and each offered a useful contrast to the other. Mr. Elton’s engagement had eased the anxiety of running into Mr. Martin. The unhappiness that came from knowing about that engagement had been somewhat set aside by Elizabeth Martin’s visit to Mrs. Goddard’s a few days later. Harriet had not been home, but a note had been prepared and left for her, written in a way that was touching—a bit of reproach mixed with a lot of kindness; and until Mr. Elton actually showed up, she had been preoccupied with it, constantly thinking about what she could do in response, hoping to do more than she felt she could admit. But Mr. Elton’s presence dismissed all those worries. While he was around, she forgot about the Martins; and on the very morning he was leaving for Bath again, Emma decided that to alleviate some of the distress this caused, it would be best for her to return Elizabeth Martin’s visit.
How that visit was to be acknowledged—what would be necessary—and what might be safest, had been a point of some doubtful consideration. Absolute neglect of the mother and sisters, when invited to come, would be ingratitude. It must not be: and yet the danger of a renewal of the acquaintance—!
How to acknowledge that visit—what would be necessary—and what might be the safest option—had been a matter of some uncertainty. Totally ignoring the mother and sisters when invited would be ungrateful. That couldn't happen; and yet, the risk of rekindling the relationship—!
After much thinking, she could determine on nothing better, than Harriet’s returning the visit; but in a way that, if they had understanding, should convince them that it was to be only a formal acquaintance. She meant to take her in the carriage, leave her at the Abbey Mill, while she drove a little farther, and call for her again so soon, as to allow no time for insidious applications or dangerous recurrences to the past, and give the most decided proof of what degree of intimacy was chosen for the future.
After thinking it over, she could come up with nothing better than having Harriet return the visit; but in a way that, if they understood, would make it clear that it was just a formal acquaintance. She planned to take her in the carriage, drop her off at the Abbey Mill, drive a little further, and come back for her so quickly that there would be no time for any tricky suggestions or dangerous reminders of the past, and to show clearly what level of intimacy was intended for the future.
She could think of nothing better: and though there was something in it which her own heart could not approve—something of ingratitude, merely glossed over—it must be done, or what would become of Harriet?
She couldn't think of anything better; and even though there was something about it that her own heart couldn't agree with—something that felt ungrateful, even if it was just brushed aside—it had to be done, or what would happen to Harriet?
CHAPTER V
Small heart had Harriet for visiting. Only half an hour before her friend called for her at Mrs. Goddard’s, her evil stars had led her to the very spot where, at that moment, a trunk, directed to The Rev. Philip Elton, White-Hart, Bath, was to be seen under the operation of being lifted into the butcher’s cart, which was to convey it to where the coaches past; and every thing in this world, excepting that trunk and the direction, was consequently a blank.
Small heart had Harriet for visiting. Only half an hour before her friend picked her up at Mrs. Goddard’s, her bad luck had guided her to the exact spot where, at that moment, a trunk, addressed to The Rev. Philip Elton, White-Hart, Bath, was being loaded into the butcher’s cart, which was set to take it to where the coaches passed; and everything in this world, except for that trunk and the address, was completely blank.
She went, however; and when they reached the farm, and she was to be put down, at the end of the broad, neat gravel walk, which led between espalier apple-trees to the front door, the sight of every thing which had given her so much pleasure the autumn before, was beginning to revive a little local agitation; and when they parted, Emma observed her to be looking around with a sort of fearful curiosity, which determined her not to allow the visit to exceed the proposed quarter of an hour. She went on herself, to give that portion of time to an old servant who was married, and settled in Donwell.
She went, though; and when they got to the farm, and she was about to be dropped off at the end of the wide, tidy gravel path that ran between the espalier apple trees to the front door, seeing everything that had brought her so much joy the autumn before started to stir up some local anxiety. When they said their goodbyes, Emma noticed her looking around with a kind of nervous curiosity, which made Emma decide not to let the visit go longer than the planned fifteen minutes. She continued on herself, to give that time to an old servant who was married and settled in Donwell.
The quarter of an hour brought her punctually to the white gate again; and Miss Smith receiving her summons, was with her without delay, and unattended by any alarming young man. She came solitarily down the gravel walk—a Miss Martin just appearing at the door, and parting with her seemingly with ceremonious civility.
The fifteen minutes brought her right back to the white gate; and Miss Smith, upon receiving her signal, joined her without hesitation, and without any intimidating young man in tow. She walked alone down the gravel path—Miss Martin was just emerging from the door, bidding her farewell with what seemed like formal politeness.
Harriet could not very soon give an intelligible account. She was feeling too much; but at last Emma collected from her enough to understand the sort of meeting, and the sort of pain it was creating. She had seen only Mrs. Martin and the two girls. They had received her doubtingly, if not coolly; and nothing beyond the merest commonplace had been talked almost all the time—till just at last, when Mrs. Martin’s saying, all of a sudden, that she thought Miss Smith was grown, had brought on a more interesting subject, and a warmer manner. In that very room she had been measured last September, with her two friends. There were the pencilled marks and memorandums on the wainscot by the window. He had done it. They all seemed to remember the day, the hour, the party, the occasion—to feel the same consciousness, the same regrets—to be ready to return to the same good understanding; and they were just growing again like themselves, (Harriet, as Emma must suspect, as ready as the best of them to be cordial and happy,) when the carriage reappeared, and all was over. The style of the visit, and the shortness of it, were then felt to be decisive. Fourteen minutes to be given to those with whom she had thankfully passed six weeks not six months ago!—Emma could not but picture it all, and feel how justly they might resent, how naturally Harriet must suffer. It was a bad business. She would have given a great deal, or endured a great deal, to have had the Martins in a higher rank of life. They were so deserving, that a little higher should have been enough: but as it was, how could she have done otherwise?—Impossible!—She could not repent. They must be separated; but there was a great deal of pain in the process—so much to herself at this time, that she soon felt the necessity of a little consolation, and resolved on going home by way of Randalls to procure it. Her mind was quite sick of Mr. Elton and the Martins. The refreshment of Randalls was absolutely necessary.
Harriet couldn't easily explain what happened. She was feeling too overwhelmed, but eventually Emma was able to piece together enough to understand the kind of meeting it had been and the pain it caused. She had only met with Mrs. Martin and the two girls. They had received her with some doubt, if not a bit coldly, and almost all they talked about was small talk—until Mrs. Martin suddenly remarked that she thought Miss Smith had grown, which sparked a more interesting conversation and a warmer atmosphere. In that same room, she had been measured the previous September with her two friends. The pencil marks and notes were still visible on the wall by the window. He had done it. They all seemed to remember the day, the hour, the group, and the occasion—sharing the same feelings, the same regrets—and were ready to return to their good understanding. They were just starting to feel like themselves again, with Harriet, as Emma expected, just as eager as the others to be friendly and happy, when the carriage came back and everything was over. The briefness and tone of the visit were clearly significant. Fourteen minutes with those whom she had joyfully spent six weeks with just six months ago! Emma couldn't help but imagine it all and realize how justifiably they might feel hurt, and how naturally Harriet would be affected. It was a tough situation. She would have given or endured a lot to have the Martins in a higher social class. They deserved better—just a little higher would have sufficed. But as it stood, how could she have done otherwise?—It was impossible!—She couldn’t regret it. They had to be apart, but the process was painful—so much so that she soon felt the need for a little comfort and decided to go home via Randalls to get it. Her mind was completely fed up with Mr. Elton and the Martins. She absolutely needed the refreshment of Randalls.
It was a good scheme; but on driving to the door they heard that neither “master nor mistress was at home;” they had both been out some time; the man believed they were gone to Hartfield.
It was a solid plan; but upon arriving at the door, they learned that neither the “master nor mistress was at home;” they had both been out for a while; the man thought they had gone to Hartfield.
“This is too bad,” cried Emma, as they turned away. “And now we shall just miss them; too provoking!—I do not know when I have been so disappointed.” And she leaned back in the corner, to indulge her murmurs, or to reason them away; probably a little of both—such being the commonest process of a not ill-disposed mind. Presently the carriage stopt; she looked up; it was stopt by Mr. and Mrs. Weston, who were standing to speak to her. There was instant pleasure in the sight of them, and still greater pleasure was conveyed in sound—for Mr. Weston immediately accosted her with,
“This is so frustrating,” Emma exclaimed as they turned away. “And now we’re going to just miss them; so annoying! I can’t remember the last time I felt this disappointed.” She leaned back in the corner, letting her thoughts linger or trying to rationalize them away; probably a bit of both—this being the usual way for a generally good-natured person. Soon the carriage stopped; she looked up; it had halted because Mr. and Mrs. Weston were stopping to talk to her. Seeing them brought her immediate joy, and the sound of their voices brought even greater happiness, as Mr. Weston immediately addressed her with,
“How d’ye do?—how d’ye do?—We have been sitting with your father—glad to see him so well. Frank comes to-morrow—I had a letter this morning—we see him to-morrow by dinner-time to a certainty—he is at Oxford to-day, and he comes for a whole fortnight; I knew it would be so. If he had come at Christmas he could not have staid three days; I was always glad he did not come at Christmas; now we are going to have just the right weather for him, fine, dry, settled weather. We shall enjoy him completely; every thing has turned out exactly as we could wish.”
“How are you?—how are you?—We’ve been sitting with your dad—so happy to see him doing well. Frank is coming tomorrow—I got a letter this morning—we’ll definitely see him by dinner time tomorrow—he’s in Oxford today, and he’s coming for a whole two weeks; I knew it would happen. If he had come at Christmas, he wouldn’t have been able to stay more than three days; I was always glad he didn’t come at Christmas; now we’re going to have just the right weather for him, nice, dry, settled weather. We’ll really enjoy his visit; everything has turned out just as we hoped.”
There was no resisting such news, no possibility of avoiding the influence of such a happy face as Mr. Weston’s, confirmed as it all was by the words and the countenance of his wife, fewer and quieter, but not less to the purpose. To know that she thought his coming certain was enough to make Emma consider it so, and sincerely did she rejoice in their joy. It was a most delightful reanimation of exhausted spirits. The worn-out past was sunk in the freshness of what was coming; and in the rapidity of half a moment’s thought, she hoped Mr. Elton would now be talked of no more.
There was no way to resist such news or avoid the impact of Mr. Weston’s cheerful face, especially with the words and expression of his wife backing it up, although she was quieter and said less, it was still just as meaningful. Knowing that she believed his arrival was certain made Emma believe it too, and she genuinely felt happy for their happiness. It was a refreshing boost to her tired spirits. The challenging past faded away in the excitement of what was ahead; in the blink of an eye, she hoped Mr. Elton would no longer be a topic of conversation.
Mr. Weston gave her the history of the engagements at Enscombe, which allowed his son to answer for having an entire fortnight at his command, as well as the route and the method of his journey; and she listened, and smiled, and congratulated.
Mr. Weston shared the history of the engagements at Enscombe, which allowed his son to confirm that he had a full two weeks at his disposal, along with the details of his travel route and plans; she listened, smiled, and congratulated him.
“I shall soon bring him over to Hartfield,” said he, at the conclusion.
“I’ll be bringing him over to Hartfield soon,” he said, at the end.
Emma could imagine she saw a touch of the arm at this speech, from his wife.
Emma thought she noticed a hint of her wife's arm at this comment.
“We had better move on, Mr. Weston,” said she, “we are detaining the girls.”
“We should get going, Mr. Weston,” she said, “we're holding up the girls.”
“Well, well, I am ready;”—and turning again to Emma, “but you must not be expecting such a very fine young man; you have only had my account you know; I dare say he is really nothing extraordinary:”—though his own sparkling eyes at the moment were speaking a very different conviction.
“Well, well, I’m ready;”—and turning back to Emma, “but don’t expect such a very fine young man; you’ve only heard my side of things, you know; I bet he’s not really anything special:” —though his own sparkling eyes at that moment were expressing a completely different belief.
Emma could look perfectly unconscious and innocent, and answer in a manner that appropriated nothing.
Emma could appear completely unaware and innocent, responding in a way that took nothing for herself.
“Think of me to-morrow, my dear Emma, about four o’clock,” was Mrs. Weston’s parting injunction; spoken with some anxiety, and meant only for her.
“Think of me tomorrow, my dear Emma, around four o’clock,” was Mrs. Weston’s last request; spoken with some worry, and meant only for her.
“Four o’clock!—depend upon it he will be here by three,” was Mr. Weston’s quick amendment; and so ended a most satisfactory meeting. Emma’s spirits were mounted quite up to happiness; every thing wore a different air; James and his horses seemed not half so sluggish as before. When she looked at the hedges, she thought the elder at least must soon be coming out; and when she turned round to Harriet, she saw something like a look of spring, a tender smile even there.
“Four o’clock!—you can count on it he’ll be here by three,” Mr. Weston quickly corrected; and that wrapped up a very satisfying meeting. Emma felt truly happy; everything seemed different; James and his horses didn’t look nearly as sluggish as before. As she looked at the hedges, she thought the elder must be about to bloom soon; and when she turned to Harriet, she noticed a hint of spring in her expression, even a gentle smile.
“Will Mr. Frank Churchill pass through Bath as well as Oxford?”—was a question, however, which did not augur much.
“Will Mr. Frank Churchill be passing through Bath as well as Oxford?”—was a question, however, that didn’t promise much.
But neither geography nor tranquillity could come all at once, and Emma was now in a humour to resolve that they should both come in time.
But neither the landscape nor peace could arrive all at once, and Emma was now in a mood to decide that they would both come eventually.
The morning of the interesting day arrived, and Mrs. Weston’s faithful pupil did not forget either at ten, or eleven, or twelve o’clock, that she was to think of her at four.
The morning of the exciting day came, and Mrs. Weston’s dedicated student didn’t forget, at ten, eleven, or twelve o’clock, that she was supposed to think of her at four.
“My dear, dear anxious friend,”—said she, in mental soliloquy, while walking downstairs from her own room, “always overcareful for every body’s comfort but your own; I see you now in all your little fidgets, going again and again into his room, to be sure that all is right.” The clock struck twelve as she passed through the hall. “’Tis twelve; I shall not forget to think of you four hours hence; and by this time to-morrow, perhaps, or a little later, I may be thinking of the possibility of their all calling here. I am sure they will bring him soon.”
“My dear, anxious friend,” she thought to herself as she walked downstairs from her room, “always so worried about everyone else’s comfort but your own; I can see you now, fidgeting and going back and forth to his room, checking to make sure everything is okay.” The clock struck twelve as she walked through the hall. “It’s twelve; I won't forget to think of you in four hours; and by this time tomorrow, maybe a little later, I might be considering the possibility of them all coming here. I’m sure they’ll bring him soon.”
She opened the parlour door, and saw two gentlemen sitting with her father—Mr. Weston and his son. They had been arrived only a few minutes, and Mr. Weston had scarcely finished his explanation of Frank’s being a day before his time, and her father was yet in the midst of his very civil welcome and congratulations, when she appeared, to have her share of surprize, introduction, and pleasure.
She opened the parlor door and saw two men sitting with her father—Mr. Weston and his son. They had only just arrived a few minutes earlier, and Mr. Weston had barely finished explaining that Frank was a day early, while her father was still in the middle of welcoming him and offering congratulations when she walked in to join in the surprise, introductions, and enjoyment.
The Frank Churchill so long talked of, so high in interest, was actually before her—he was presented to her, and she did not think too much had been said in his praise; he was a very good looking young man; height, air, address, all were unexceptionable, and his countenance had a great deal of the spirit and liveliness of his father’s; he looked quick and sensible. She felt immediately that she should like him; and there was a well-bred ease of manner, and a readiness to talk, which convinced her that he came intending to be acquainted with her, and that acquainted they soon must be.
The Frank Churchill everyone had been talking about, who was so interesting, was right in front of her—he was introduced to her, and she thought the praise he received was well-deserved; he was a really good-looking young man; his height, demeanor, and presence were all impressive, and his face carried a lot of the energy and liveliness of his father's; he looked quick and smart. She instantly felt that she would like him; there was a polished ease in his manner and a willingness to engage in conversation that made her believe he had come wanting to get to know her, and that they would soon be acquainted.
He had reached Randalls the evening before. She was pleased with the eagerness to arrive which had made him alter his plan, and travel earlier, later, and quicker, that he might gain half a day.
He had arrived at Randalls the night before. She was happy about his eagerness to get there, which had caused him to change his plans, traveling earlier, later, and faster so he could gain half a day.
“I told you yesterday,” cried Mr. Weston with exultation, “I told you all that he would be here before the time named. I remembered what I used to do myself. One cannot creep upon a journey; one cannot help getting on faster than one has planned; and the pleasure of coming in upon one’s friends before the look-out begins, is worth a great deal more than any little exertion it needs.”
“I told you yesterday,” Mr. Weston exclaimed with excitement, “I told you he would arrive before the scheduled time. I remember what I used to do myself. You can't take it slow on a journey; you inevitably end up moving faster than you planned. The joy of surprising your friends before they start looking for you is way more valuable than any effort it takes.”
“It is a great pleasure where one can indulge in it,” said the young man, “though there are not many houses that I should presume on so far; but in coming home I felt I might do any thing.”
“It’s a real pleasure to be able to enjoy it,” said the young man, “even though there aren’t many places I would feel comfortable doing so yet; but as I was coming home, I felt like I could do anything.”
The word home made his father look on him with fresh complacency. Emma was directly sure that he knew how to make himself agreeable; the conviction was strengthened by what followed. He was very much pleased with Randalls, thought it a most admirably arranged house, would hardly allow it even to be very small, admired the situation, the walk to Highbury, Highbury itself, Hartfield still more, and professed himself to have always felt the sort of interest in the country which none but one’s own country gives, and the greatest curiosity to visit it. That he should never have been able to indulge so amiable a feeling before, passed suspiciously through Emma’s brain; but still, if it were a falsehood, it was a pleasant one, and pleasantly handled. His manner had no air of study or exaggeration. He did really look and speak as if in a state of no common enjoyment.
The word home made his father look at him with renewed satisfaction. Emma was certain he knew how to be charming; her belief grew stronger with what happened next. He was really impressed with Randalls, thought it was a beautifully arranged house, wouldn’t even admit it was small, admired the location, the walk to Highbury, Highbury itself, even more Hartfield, and claimed he had always felt a connection to the countryside that only one’s own country can inspire, and a great curiosity to visit it. The fact that he had never been able to feel such a nice sentiment before made Emma a bit suspicious; but even if it wasn’t true, it was a pleasant lie, and well delivered. His demeanor didn’t seem forced or over the top. He genuinely looked and spoke as if he were enjoying himself immensely.
Their subjects in general were such as belong to an opening acquaintance. On his side were the inquiries,—“Was she a horsewoman?—Pleasant rides?—Pleasant walks?—Had they a large neighbourhood?—Highbury, perhaps, afforded society enough?—There were several very pretty houses in and about it.—Balls—had they balls?—Was it a musical society?”
Their topics were typical for a new friendship. He had questions like, “Does she ride horses? Are the rides nice? What about walks? Is there a big community around? Maybe Highbury has enough social activities? There are some really nice houses in and around there. Do they have dances? Is there a music group?”
But when satisfied on all these points, and their acquaintance proportionably advanced, he contrived to find an opportunity, while their two fathers were engaged with each other, of introducing his mother-in-law, and speaking of her with so much handsome praise, so much warm admiration, so much gratitude for the happiness she secured to his father, and her very kind reception of himself, as was an additional proof of his knowing how to please—and of his certainly thinking it worth while to try to please her. He did not advance a word of praise beyond what she knew to be thoroughly deserved by Mrs. Weston; but, undoubtedly he could know very little of the matter. He understood what would be welcome; he could be sure of little else. “His father’s marriage,” he said, “had been the wisest measure, every friend must rejoice in it; and the family from whom he had received such a blessing must be ever considered as having conferred the highest obligation on him.”
But once he was sure about all these points and their relationship was noticeably better, he found a chance, while their two dads were chatting, to bring up his mother-in-law. He spoke about her with so much genuine praise, so much heartfelt admiration, and so much gratitude for the happiness she brought to his dad, along with her very warm reception of him. This was just another sign of his ability to impress—and that he genuinely thought it was worth the effort to please her. He didn’t say anything beyond what Mrs. Weston fully deserved; however, he surely didn’t know much about the details. He knew what would be appreciated; he could be certain of little else. “My dad’s marriage,” he said, “was the smartest decision; every friend must celebrate it; and the family who gave me such a gift should always be regarded as having done me the greatest favor.”
He got as near as he could to thanking her for Miss Taylor’s merits, without seeming quite to forget that in the common course of things it was to be rather supposed that Miss Taylor had formed Miss Woodhouse’s character, than Miss Woodhouse Miss Taylor’s. And at last, as if resolved to qualify his opinion completely for travelling round to its object, he wound it all up with astonishment at the youth and beauty of her person.
He got as close as he could to thanking her for Miss Taylor’s qualities, without making it seem like he completely overlooked the fact that it was generally assumed Miss Taylor had shaped Miss Woodhouse’s character, rather than the other way around. And finally, as if determined to fully express his feelings before getting to the point, he concluded with admiration for her youth and beauty.
“Elegant, agreeable manners, I was prepared for,” said he; “but I confess that, considering every thing, I had not expected more than a very tolerably well-looking woman of a certain age; I did not know that I was to find a pretty young woman in Mrs. Weston.”
“Elegant, pleasant manners, I was prepared for,” he said; “but I admit that, taking everything into account, I didn’t expect more than a fairly decent-looking woman of a certain age; I had no idea I would find a lovely young woman in Mrs. Weston.”
“You cannot see too much perfection in Mrs. Weston for my feelings,” said Emma; “were you to guess her to be eighteen, I should listen with pleasure; but she would be ready to quarrel with you for using such words. Don’t let her imagine that you have spoken of her as a pretty young woman.”
“You can't see too much perfection in Mrs. Weston for my taste,” said Emma. “If you guessed her to be eighteen, I would be happy to hear it; but she would definitely object to you saying such things. Don’t let her think that you've called her a pretty young woman.”
“I hope I should know better,” he replied; “no, depend upon it, (with a gallant bow,) that in addressing Mrs. Weston I should understand whom I might praise without any danger of being thought extravagant in my terms.”
“I hope I know better,” he replied; “no, trust me, (with a charming bow,) that when I talk to Mrs. Weston, I know exactly who I can compliment without risking being seen as over-the-top in my words.”
Emma wondered whether the same suspicion of what might be expected from their knowing each other, which had taken strong possession of her mind, had ever crossed his; and whether his compliments were to be considered as marks of acquiescence, or proofs of defiance. She must see more of him to understand his ways; at present she only felt they were agreeable.
Emma wondered if the same suspicion about what could be expected from their knowing each other, which had occupied her mind, had ever crossed his. She questioned whether his compliments were signs of agreement or acts of defiance. She needed to spend more time with him to understand his behavior; for now, she only sensed that he was pleasant.
She had no doubt of what Mr. Weston was often thinking about. His quick eye she detected again and again glancing towards them with a happy expression; and even, when he might have determined not to look, she was confident that he was often listening.
She was sure of what Mr. Weston was usually thinking about. She noticed his quick gaze repeatedly shifting toward them with a happy expression; and even when he might have decided not to look, she was certain he was often listening.
Her own father’s perfect exemption from any thought of the kind, the entire deficiency in him of all such sort of penetration or suspicion, was a most comfortable circumstance. Happily he was not farther from approving matrimony than from foreseeing it.—Though always objecting to every marriage that was arranged, he never suffered beforehand from the apprehension of any; it seemed as if he could not think so ill of any two persons’ understanding as to suppose they meant to marry till it were proved against them. She blessed the favouring blindness. He could now, without the drawback of a single unpleasant surmise, without a glance forward at any possible treachery in his guest, give way to all his natural kind-hearted civility in solicitous inquiries after Mr. Frank Churchill’s accommodation on his journey, through the sad evils of sleeping two nights on the road, and express very genuine unmixed anxiety to know that he had certainly escaped catching cold—which, however, he could not allow him to feel quite assured of himself till after another night.
Her father’s complete lack of any such thoughts, and his total inability to suspect or question, was a really comforting thing. Thankfully, he wasn’t any closer to approving marriage than he was to anticipating it. Although he always objected to every marriage that was arranged, he never worried beforehand about any of them; it was as if he couldn’t think so poorly of anyone’s understanding to believe they would get married until it was clearly proven. She appreciated this blissful ignorance. He could now, without the burden of a single unpleasant thought or worrying about any possible betrayal from his guest, fully express his natural kindness by asking how Mr. Frank Churchill was doing on his journey, especially considering the unfortunate hardship of sleeping two nights on the road. He showed genuine concern and wanted to be sure that Mr. Churchill had avoided catching a cold—which, of course, he couldn’t let him feel completely confident about until after another night.
A reasonable visit paid, Mr. Weston began to move.—“He must be going. He had business at the Crown about his hay, and a great many errands for Mrs. Weston at Ford’s, but he need not hurry any body else.” His son, too well bred to hear the hint, rose immediately also, saying,
A polite visit made, Mr. Weston started to leave. "He needs to go. He has business at the Crown regarding his hay and a bunch of errands for Mrs. Weston at Ford's, but he doesn't need to rush anyone else." His son, too well-mannered to acknowledge the hint, stood up as well, saying,
“As you are going farther on business, sir, I will take the opportunity of paying a visit, which must be paid some day or other, and therefore may as well be paid now. I have the honour of being acquainted with a neighbour of yours, (turning to Emma,) a lady residing in or near Highbury; a family of the name of Fairfax. I shall have no difficulty, I suppose, in finding the house; though Fairfax, I believe, is not the proper name—I should rather say Barnes, or Bates. Do you know any family of that name?”
"As you’re heading out on business, sir, I’ll take the chance to pay a visit that I have to make eventually, so it might as well be now. I have the pleasure of knowing a neighbor of yours," (turning to Emma), "a lady who lives in or near Highbury; a family by the name of Fairfax. I shouldn’t have any trouble finding the house; although, I think Fairfax isn’t quite the right name—I’d say it’s more likely Barnes or Bates. Do you know any family with that name?"
“To be sure we do,” cried his father; “Mrs. Bates—we passed her house—I saw Miss Bates at the window. True, true, you are acquainted with Miss Fairfax; I remember you knew her at Weymouth, and a fine girl she is. Call upon her, by all means.”
"Of course we do," his father exclaimed. "Mrs. Bates—we passed her house—I saw Miss Bates at the window. It's true, you know Miss Fairfax; I remember you met her at Weymouth, and she's a wonderful girl. Definitely go visit her."
“There is no necessity for my calling this morning,” said the young man; “another day would do as well; but there was that degree of acquaintance at Weymouth which—”
“There’s no need for my visit this morning,” said the young man; “another day would be fine; but there was a certain level of familiarity at Weymouth that—”
“Oh! go to-day, go to-day. Do not defer it. What is right to be done cannot be done too soon. And, besides, I must give you a hint, Frank; any want of attention to her here should be carefully avoided. You saw her with the Campbells, when she was the equal of every body she mixed with, but here she is with a poor old grandmother, who has barely enough to live on. If you do not call early it will be a slight.”
“Oh! Go today, go today. Don’t put it off. What needs to be done can never be done too soon. And also, I have to give you a heads up, Frank; you should be careful not to ignore her here. You saw her with the Campbells, when she was on the same level as everyone else, but now she’s with a poor old grandmother who barely has enough to get by. If you don’t call early, it will come off as a slight.”
The son looked convinced.
The son seemed convinced.
“I have heard her speak of the acquaintance,” said Emma; “she is a very elegant young woman.”
“I’ve heard her talk about the acquaintance,” said Emma; “she’s a very stylish young woman.”
He agreed to it, but with so quiet a “Yes,” as inclined her almost to doubt his real concurrence; and yet there must be a very distinct sort of elegance for the fashionable world, if Jane Fairfax could be thought only ordinarily gifted with it.
He agreed to it, but with such a quiet “Yes” that made her almost doubt if he truly meant it; and yet there must be a very distinct kind of elegance for the fashionable world if Jane Fairfax could only be seen as having it in an ordinary way.
“If you were never particularly struck by her manners before,” said she, “I think you will to-day. You will see her to advantage; see her and hear her—no, I am afraid you will not hear her at all, for she has an aunt who never holds her tongue.”
“If you never really noticed her manners before,” she said, “I think you will today. You'll see her at her best; see her and hear her—no, actually, I'm afraid you won't hear her at all, because she has an aunt who never stops talking.”
“You are acquainted with Miss Jane Fairfax, sir, are you?” said Mr. Woodhouse, always the last to make his way in conversation; “then give me leave to assure you that you will find her a very agreeable young lady. She is staying here on a visit to her grandmama and aunt, very worthy people; I have known them all my life. They will be extremely glad to see you, I am sure; and one of my servants shall go with you to shew you the way.”
“You know Miss Jane Fairfax, right?” said Mr. Woodhouse, always the last to join in on a conversation. “Then let me assure you that you’ll find her to be a really pleasant young lady. She’s here visiting her grandmother and aunt, who are both lovely people; I’ve known them my whole life. I’m sure they’ll be really happy to see you, and one of my staff will go with you to show you the way.”
“My dear sir, upon no account in the world; my father can direct me.”
"My dear sir, not at all; my father can guide me."
“But your father is not going so far; he is only going to the Crown, quite on the other side of the street, and there are a great many houses; you might be very much at a loss, and it is a very dirty walk, unless you keep on the footpath; but my coachman can tell you where you had best cross the street.”
“But your father isn't going that far; he's just going to the Crown, which is right across the street, and there are a lot of houses; you could easily get lost, and it's a pretty dirty walk unless you stick to the sidewalk; but my driver can tell you the best place to cross the street.”
Mr. Frank Churchill still declined it, looking as serious as he could, and his father gave his hearty support by calling out, “My good friend, this is quite unnecessary; Frank knows a puddle of water when he sees it, and as to Mrs. Bates’s, he may get there from the Crown in a hop, step, and jump.”
Mr. Frank Churchill still turned it down, trying to look as serious as possible, and his father showed his full support by saying, “My good friend, this is totally unnecessary; Frank knows a puddle when he sees one, and as for Mrs. Bates’s place, he can get there from the Crown in a hop, skip, and jump.”
They were permitted to go alone; and with a cordial nod from one, and a graceful bow from the other, the two gentlemen took leave. Emma remained very well pleased with this beginning of the acquaintance, and could now engage to think of them all at Randalls any hour of the day, with full confidence in their comfort.
They were allowed to go on their own; and with a friendly nod from one and a polite bow from the other, the two gentlemen said their goodbyes. Emma felt very happy about this start to their friendship and could now confidently think of them at Randalls at any time of the day, assured of their comfort.
CHAPTER VI
The next morning brought Mr. Frank Churchill again. He came with Mrs. Weston, to whom and to Highbury he seemed to take very cordially. He had been sitting with her, it appeared, most companionably at home, till her usual hour of exercise; and on being desired to chuse their walk, immediately fixed on Highbury.—“He did not doubt there being very pleasant walks in every direction, but if left to him, he should always chuse the same. Highbury, that airy, cheerful, happy-looking Highbury, would be his constant attraction.”—Highbury, with Mrs. Weston, stood for Hartfield; and she trusted to its bearing the same construction with him. They walked thither directly.
The next morning, Mr. Frank Churchill returned. He came with Mrs. Weston, to whom he seemed to take quite a liking, as well as to Highbury. It turned out he had been happily sitting with her at home until her usual time for exercise, and when asked to choose their walk, he immediately picked Highbury. “I’m sure there are lovely walks in every direction, but if it were up to me, I’d always choose the same one. Highbury— that light, cheerful, beautiful Highbury—would always be my top choice.” Highbury, with Mrs. Weston, represented Hartfield, and she hoped he felt the same way about it. They walked there directly.
Emma had hardly expected them: for Mr. Weston, who had called in for half a minute, in order to hear that his son was very handsome, knew nothing of their plans; and it was an agreeable surprize to her, therefore, to perceive them walking up to the house together, arm in arm. She was wanting to see him again, and especially to see him in company with Mrs. Weston, upon his behaviour to whom her opinion of him was to depend. If he were deficient there, nothing should make amends for it. But on seeing them together, she became perfectly satisfied. It was not merely in fine words or hyperbolical compliment that he paid his duty; nothing could be more proper or pleasing than his whole manner to her—nothing could more agreeably denote his wish of considering her as a friend and securing her affection. And there was time enough for Emma to form a reasonable judgment, as their visit included all the rest of the morning. They were all three walking about together for an hour or two—first round the shrubberies of Hartfield, and afterwards in Highbury. He was delighted with every thing; admired Hartfield sufficiently for Mr. Woodhouse’s ear; and when their going farther was resolved on, confessed his wish to be made acquainted with the whole village, and found matter of commendation and interest much oftener than Emma could have supposed.
Emma had barely expected them: Mr. Weston, who had stopped by for just a moment to hear that his son was very handsome, knew nothing of their plans; so it was a nice surprise for her to see them walking up to the house together, arm in arm. She wanted to see him again, especially in the company of Mrs. Weston, as her opinion of him would depend on how he behaved towards her. If he fell short there, nothing would make up for it. But seeing them together, she felt completely satisfied. He wasn’t just being polite with flowery words or exaggerated compliments—nothing could have been more appropriate or pleasant than his entire demeanor towards her. It clearly showed that he wanted to consider her a friend and win her affection. And there was plenty of time for Emma to form a fair judgment since their visit lasted for the rest of the morning. The three of them spent about an hour or two walking around together—first through the gardens at Hartfield, and later in Highbury. He was thrilled with everything, praised Hartfield just enough to please Mr. Woodhouse, and when they decided to go further, he expressed his desire to get to know the whole village, finding things to compliment and show interest in far more often than Emma would have guessed.
Some of the objects of his curiosity spoke very amiable feelings. He begged to be shewn the house which his father had lived in so long, and which had been the home of his father’s father; and on recollecting that an old woman who had nursed him was still living, walked in quest of her cottage from one end of the street to the other; and though in some points of pursuit or observation there was no positive merit, they shewed, altogether, a good-will towards Highbury in general, which must be very like a merit to those he was with.
Some of the things he was curious about showed very kind feelings. He asked to see the house where his father had lived for so long, which had also been the home of his grandfather. Remembering that an old woman who had taken care of him was still alive, he walked from one end of the street to the other looking for her cottage. Although there wasn’t anything particularly impressive about his search or observations, they demonstrated a general goodwill towards Highbury that must have felt commendable to those with him.
Emma watched and decided, that with such feelings as were now shewn, it could not be fairly supposed that he had been ever voluntarily absenting himself; that he had not been acting a part, or making a parade of insincere professions; and that Mr. Knightley certainly had not done him justice.
Emma observed and concluded that, given the feelings he was now showing, it couldn't be assumed that he had ever been voluntarily absent. He wasn't just playing a role or putting on a show of insincere declarations; Mr. Knightley definitely hadn't judged him fairly.
Their first pause was at the Crown Inn, an inconsiderable house, though the principal one of the sort, where a couple of pair of post-horses were kept, more for the convenience of the neighbourhood than from any run on the road; and his companions had not expected to be detained by any interest excited there; but in passing it they gave the history of the large room visibly added; it had been built many years ago for a ball-room, and while the neighbourhood had been in a particularly populous, dancing state, had been occasionally used as such;—but such brilliant days had long passed away, and now the highest purpose for which it was ever wanted was to accommodate a whist club established among the gentlemen and half-gentlemen of the place. He was immediately interested. Its character as a ball-room caught him; and instead of passing on, he stopt for several minutes at the two superior sashed windows which were open, to look in and contemplate its capabilities, and lament that its original purpose should have ceased. He saw no fault in the room, he would acknowledge none which they suggested. No, it was long enough, broad enough, handsome enough. It would hold the very number for comfort. They ought to have balls there at least every fortnight through the winter. Why had not Miss Woodhouse revived the former good old days of the room?—She who could do any thing in Highbury! The want of proper families in the place, and the conviction that none beyond the place and its immediate environs could be tempted to attend, were mentioned; but he was not satisfied. He could not be persuaded that so many good-looking houses as he saw around him, could not furnish numbers enough for such a meeting; and even when particulars were given and families described, he was still unwilling to admit that the inconvenience of such a mixture would be any thing, or that there would be the smallest difficulty in every body’s returning into their proper place the next morning. He argued like a young man very much bent on dancing; and Emma was rather surprized to see the constitution of the Weston prevail so decidedly against the habits of the Churchills. He seemed to have all the life and spirit, cheerful feelings, and social inclinations of his father, and nothing of the pride or reserve of Enscombe. Of pride, indeed, there was, perhaps, scarcely enough; his indifference to a confusion of rank, bordered too much on inelegance of mind. He could be no judge, however, of the evil he was holding cheap. It was but an effusion of lively spirits.
Their first stop was at the Crown Inn, a pretty modest place, though the main one in the area, where a few post-horses were kept more for the convenience of the locals than for any actual demand on the road. His companions didn’t expect to be held back by anything interesting there; but as they passed, they talked about the large room that had been added on. It had been built many years ago for a ballroom, and while the neighborhood had been particularly lively and into dancing, it had occasionally been used for that purpose. But those vibrant days were long gone, and now the highest purpose it served was to host a whist club formed among the gentlemen and semi-gentlemen of the area. He became instantly intrigued. The room’s history as a ballroom caught his attention, and instead of moving on, he stopped for several minutes at the two nice, open windows to look inside, consider its potential, and regret that it had lost its original purpose. He found no fault with the room and wouldn’t admit any flaws that were pointed out to him. No, it was long enough, wide enough, and attractive enough. It could comfortably hold just the right number of people. They should be having balls there at least every two weeks throughout the winter. Why hadn’t Miss Woodhouse brought back the good old days of that room? She who could do anything in Highbury! The lack of suitable families in the area and the belief that no one from outside could be tempted to come were mentioned, but he wasn’t convinced. He couldn’t accept that so many good-looking houses around him couldn’t provide enough people for such an event; and even when specific details and families were discussed, he was still reluctant to accept that mixing would be a problem, or that anyone would have any difficulty returning to their own place the next morning. He reasoned like a young man really eager to dance, and Emma was rather surprised to see the spirit of the Weston family dominate so strongly over the habits of the Churchills. He seemed to embody all the energy and cheerful social instincts of his father, with none of the pride or reserve of Enscombe. In fact, there might have been a bit too little pride; his indifference to a mix of social classes crossed into lack of refinement. However, he couldn’t judge the trouble he was undervaluing. It was just an outpouring of lively spirits.
At last he was persuaded to move on from the front of the Crown; and being now almost facing the house where the Bateses lodged, Emma recollected his intended visit the day before, and asked him if he had paid it.
At last, he was convinced to step away from the front of the Crown; and now, nearly facing the house where the Bateses stayed, Emma remembered his planned visit from the day before and asked him if he had gone.
“Yes, oh! yes”—he replied; “I was just going to mention it. A very successful visit:—I saw all the three ladies; and felt very much obliged to you for your preparatory hint. If the talking aunt had taken me quite by surprize, it must have been the death of me. As it was, I was only betrayed into paying a most unreasonable visit. Ten minutes would have been all that was necessary, perhaps all that was proper; and I had told my father I should certainly be at home before him—but there was no getting away, no pause; and, to my utter astonishment, I found, when he (finding me nowhere else) joined me there at last, that I had been actually sitting with them very nearly three-quarters of an hour. The good lady had not given me the possibility of escape before.”
“Yes, oh! yes,” he replied. “I was just about to mention it. It was a very successful visit: I met all three ladies, and I really appreciated your heads-up. If the chatty aunt had caught me off guard, it could have been the end of me. As it was, I ended up making a very lengthy visit. Just ten minutes would have been enough, maybe even appropriate, and I had told my dad I’d definitely be home before he was—but there was no way to leave, no break; and to my complete surprise, when he finally found me there (after looking for me everywhere else), I realized I had been sitting with them for almost three-quarters of an hour. The kind lady didn’t give me a chance to escape before that.”
“And how did you think Miss Fairfax looking?”
“And how do you think Miss Fairfax looks?”
“Ill, very ill—that is, if a young lady can ever be allowed to look ill. But the expression is hardly admissible, Mrs. Weston, is it? Ladies can never look ill. And, seriously, Miss Fairfax is naturally so pale, as almost always to give the appearance of ill health.—A most deplorable want of complexion.”
"Unwell, very unwell—that is, if a young woman can ever be considered to look unwell. But that phrase hardly applies, right, Mrs. Weston? Women can never look unwell. And honestly, Miss Fairfax is just naturally so pale that she almost always looks like she’s in poor health.—Such a sad lack of color."
Emma would not agree to this, and began a warm defence of Miss Fairfax’s complexion. “It was certainly never brilliant, but she would not allow it to have a sickly hue in general; and there was a softness and delicacy in her skin which gave peculiar elegance to the character of her face.” He listened with all due deference; acknowledged that he had heard many people say the same—but yet he must confess, that to him nothing could make amends for the want of the fine glow of health. Where features were indifferent, a fine complexion gave beauty to them all; and where they were good, the effect was—fortunately he need not attempt to describe what the effect was.
Emma wouldn't agree with this and started a heartfelt defense of Miss Fairfax’s complexion. “It wasn’t ever vibrant, but she wouldn’t admit it had a sickly tone overall; and there was a softness and delicacy to her skin that added unique elegance to her facial features.” He listened with all due respect; acknowledged that he had heard many people say the same—but he had to admit, for him, nothing could compensate for the lack of a healthy glow. When features were average, a beautiful complexion enhanced them all; and when they were already attractive, the result was—thankfully, he didn’t need to explain what the result was.
“Well,” said Emma, “there is no disputing about taste.—At least you admire her except her complexion.”
“Well,” said Emma, “there's no arguing about taste. At least you admire her, except for her complexion.”
He shook his head and laughed.—“I cannot separate Miss Fairfax and her complexion.”
He shook his head and laughed. — “I can’t separate Miss Fairfax from her complexion.”
“Did you see her often at Weymouth? Were you often in the same society?”
“Did you see her a lot at Weymouth? Were you often in the same social circles?”
At this moment they were approaching Ford’s, and he hastily exclaimed, “Ha! this must be the very shop that every body attends every day of their lives, as my father informs me. He comes to Highbury himself, he says, six days out of the seven, and has always business at Ford’s. If it be not inconvenient to you, pray let us go in, that I may prove myself to belong to the place, to be a true citizen of Highbury. I must buy something at Ford’s. It will be taking out my freedom.—I dare say they sell gloves.”
At that moment, they were getting close to Ford's, and he quickly said, “Wow! This must be the shop everyone visits every day, just like my dad tells me. He says he goes to Highbury six days a week and always has business at Ford's. If it’s not too much trouble, let’s go in so I can show that I belong here, that I’m a real citizen of Highbury. I need to buy something at Ford's. It’ll be like claiming my freedom.—I bet they sell gloves.”
“Oh! yes, gloves and every thing. I do admire your patriotism. You will be adored in Highbury. You were very popular before you came, because you were Mr. Weston’s son—but lay out half a guinea at Ford’s, and your popularity will stand upon your own virtues.”
“Oh! yes, gloves and everything. I really admire your patriotism. You’re going to be loved in Highbury. You were already quite popular before you arrived because you were Mr. Weston’s son—but spend half a guinea at Ford’s, and your popularity will be based on your own qualities.”
They went in; and while the sleek, well-tied parcels of “Men’s Beavers” and “York Tan” were bringing down and displaying on the counter, he said—“But I beg your pardon, Miss Woodhouse, you were speaking to me, you were saying something at the very moment of this burst of my amor patriae. Do not let me lose it. I assure you the utmost stretch of public fame would not make me amends for the loss of any happiness in private life.”
They went inside, and while the stylishly packaged “Men’s Beavers” and “York Tan” hats were being brought down and shown on the counter, he said, “But excuse me, Miss Woodhouse, you were talking to me; you were saying something right at the moment I got caught up in this rush of my love for my country. Please don’t let me forget it. I promise you, no amount of public fame could make up for losing any happiness in my personal life.”
“I merely asked, whether you had known much of Miss Fairfax and her party at Weymouth.”
“I just asked if you knew much about Miss Fairfax and her group at Weymouth.”
“And now that I understand your question, I must pronounce it to be a very unfair one. It is always the lady’s right to decide on the degree of acquaintance. Miss Fairfax must already have given her account.—I shall not commit myself by claiming more than she may chuse to allow.”
“And now that I understand your question, I have to say it’s really unfair. It’s always the woman’s right to decide how well she knows someone. Miss Fairfax must have already given her version of things.—I won’t put myself out there by claiming more than she’s comfortable with.”
“Upon my word! you answer as discreetly as she could do herself. But her account of every thing leaves so much to be guessed, she is so very reserved, so very unwilling to give the least information about any body, that I really think you may say what you like of your acquaintance with her.”
"Honestly! You respond just as tactfully as she does. But her version of everything leaves so much to the imagination; she's really reserved, so hesitant to share even the slightest detail about anyone, that I truly believe you can say whatever you want about your relationship with her."
“May I, indeed?—Then I will speak the truth, and nothing suits me so well. I met her frequently at Weymouth. I had known the Campbells a little in town; and at Weymouth we were very much in the same set. Colonel Campbell is a very agreeable man, and Mrs. Campbell a friendly, warm-hearted woman. I like them all.”
“May I, really?—Then I’ll tell the truth, and nothing fits me better. I saw her often at Weymouth. I had known the Campbells a bit in the city; and at Weymouth we were all part of the same crowd. Colonel Campbell is a very likable guy, and Mrs. Campbell is a friendly, warm-hearted woman. I like all of them.”
“You know Miss Fairfax’s situation in life, I conclude; what she is destined to be?”
"You know what Miss Fairfax's situation in life is, I assume; what she is meant to become?"
“Yes—(rather hesitatingly)—I believe I do.”
“Yeah—(a bit unsure)—I think I do.”
“You get upon delicate subjects, Emma,” said Mrs. Weston smiling; “remember that I am here.—Mr. Frank Churchill hardly knows what to say when you speak of Miss Fairfax’s situation in life. I will move a little farther off.”
“You're touching on some sensitive topics, Emma,” Mrs. Weston said with a smile; “just remember that I'm here.—Mr. Frank Churchill barely knows what to say when you bring up Miss Fairfax’s situation. I’ll move a bit farther away.”
“I certainly do forget to think of her,” said Emma, “as having ever been any thing but my friend and my dearest friend.”
“I really do forget to think of her,” said Emma, “as having ever been anything other than my friend and my closest friend.”
He looked as if he fully understood and honoured such a sentiment.
He looked like he completely understood and appreciated that feeling.
When the gloves were bought, and they had quitted the shop again, “Did you ever hear the young lady we were speaking of, play?” said Frank Churchill.
When they bought the gloves and left the shop, Frank Churchill said, “Did you ever hear the young lady we were talking about play?”
“Ever hear her!” repeated Emma. “You forget how much she belongs to Highbury. I have heard her every year of our lives since we both began. She plays charmingly.”
“Have you ever listened to her!” Emma said again. “You forget how much she’s a part of Highbury. I’ve heard her every year of our lives since we both started. She plays beautifully.”
“You think so, do you?—I wanted the opinion of some one who could really judge. She appeared to me to play well, that is, with considerable taste, but I know nothing of the matter myself.—I am excessively fond of music, but without the smallest skill or right of judging of any body’s performance.—I have been used to hear her’s admired; and I remember one proof of her being thought to play well:—a man, a very musical man, and in love with another woman—engaged to her—on the point of marriage—would yet never ask that other woman to sit down to the instrument, if the lady in question could sit down instead—never seemed to like to hear one if he could hear the other. That, I thought, in a man of known musical talent, was some proof.”
"You think so, do you? I wanted the opinion of someone who could really judge. She seemed to play well, with a good sense of style, but I don’t know much about it myself. I really love music, but I have no skill or authority to judge anyone's performance. I’ve always heard her playing praised, and I remember one instance that showed she was thought to play well: a very musical man, who was in love with another woman—engaged to her, about to get married—still wouldn’t ask that woman to play the piano if the lady we’re talking about could play instead. He never seemed to enjoy listening to one if he could hear the other. I thought that was quite a testament considering his known musical talent."
“Proof indeed!” said Emma, highly amused.—“Mr. Dixon is very musical, is he? We shall know more about them all, in half an hour, from you, than Miss Fairfax would have vouchsafed in half a year.”
“Proof indeed!” said Emma, highly amused. “Mr. Dixon is really into music, huh? We’ll learn more about all of them in half an hour from you than Miss Fairfax would have shared in six months.”
“Yes, Mr. Dixon and Miss Campbell were the persons; and I thought it a very strong proof.”
“Yes, Mr. Dixon and Miss Campbell were the ones; and I thought it was a very strong proof.”
“Certainly—very strong it was; to own the truth, a great deal stronger than, if I had been Miss Campbell, would have been at all agreeable to me. I could not excuse a man’s having more music than love—more ear than eye—a more acute sensibility to fine sounds than to my feelings. How did Miss Campbell appear to like it?”
“Definitely—it was very strong; to be honest, much stronger than it would have been enjoyable for me if I had been Miss Campbell. I couldn’t accept a guy having more appreciation for music than for love—having a better ear than eye—a sharper sensitivity to beautiful sounds than to my emotions. How did Miss Campbell seem to feel about it?”
“It was her very particular friend, you know.”
“It was her very close friend, you know.”
“Poor comfort!” said Emma, laughing. “One would rather have a stranger preferred than one’s very particular friend—with a stranger it might not recur again—but the misery of having a very particular friend always at hand, to do every thing better than one does oneself!—Poor Mrs. Dixon! Well, I am glad she is gone to settle in Ireland.”
“Such a hassle!” Emma said, laughing. “It’s better to have a stranger liked than your close friend—because with a stranger, it’s less likely to happen again—but the frustration of having a close friend always around, doing everything better than you do! Poor Mrs. Dixon! Well, I’m glad she’s gone to settle in Ireland.”
“You are right. It was not very flattering to Miss Campbell; but she really did not seem to feel it.”
“You're right. It wasn't very flattering to Miss Campbell, but she honestly didn't seem to care.”
“So much the better—or so much the worse:—I do not know which. But be it sweetness or be it stupidity in her—quickness of friendship, or dulness of feeling—there was one person, I think, who must have felt it: Miss Fairfax herself. She must have felt the improper and dangerous distinction.”
“So much the better—or so much the worse—I really can’t say. But whether it’s sweetness or foolishness in her—being quick to befriend or lacking in emotional depth—there’s definitely one person who must have sensed it: Miss Fairfax herself. She must have recognized the inappropriate and risky distinction.”
“As to that—I do not—”
"I don't agree with that—"
“Oh! do not imagine that I expect an account of Miss Fairfax’s sensations from you, or from any body else. They are known to no human being, I guess, but herself. But if she continued to play whenever she was asked by Mr. Dixon, one may guess what one chuses.”
“Oh! don’t think that I expect you, or anyone else, to explain Miss Fairfax’s feelings. I would guess that only she knows them. But if she kept playing whenever Mr. Dixon asked her to, one could make their own assumptions.”
“There appeared such a perfectly good understanding among them all—” he began rather quickly, but checking himself, added, “however, it is impossible for me to say on what terms they really were—how it might all be behind the scenes. I can only say that there was smoothness outwardly. But you, who have known Miss Fairfax from a child, must be a better judge of her character, and of how she is likely to conduct herself in critical situations, than I can be.”
“There seemed to be a really good understanding among them all—” he started rather quickly, but then caught himself and added, “however, I can’t say what their actual relationship was—how things might be behind the scenes. All I can say is that everything appeared smooth on the surface. But you, who have known Miss Fairfax since she was a child, must have a better sense of her character and how she is likely to behave in critical situations than I do.”
“I have known her from a child, undoubtedly; we have been children and women together; and it is natural to suppose that we should be intimate,—that we should have taken to each other whenever she visited her friends. But we never did. I hardly know how it has happened; a little, perhaps, from that wickedness on my side which was prone to take disgust towards a girl so idolized and so cried up as she always was, by her aunt and grandmother, and all their set. And then, her reserve—I never could attach myself to any one so completely reserved.”
"I’ve known her since we were kids, for sure; we’ve grown up together as children and women, so it’s natural to think we’d be close—especially when she came to visit her friends. But we never were. I'm not really sure why that is; maybe it’s partly because of my own unreasonableness that made me feel distaste for someone so adored and praised by her aunt, grandmother, and their friends. And then there’s her aloofness—I could never connect with someone so completely reserved."
“It is a most repulsive quality, indeed,” said he. “Oftentimes very convenient, no doubt, but never pleasing. There is safety in reserve, but no attraction. One cannot love a reserved person.”
“It’s really a disgusting quality,” he said. “It’s often very convenient, for sure, but never appealing. There’s safety in being reserved, but no charm. You can’t love someone who’s reserved.”
“Not till the reserve ceases towards oneself; and then the attraction may be the greater. But I must be more in want of a friend, or an agreeable companion, than I have yet been, to take the trouble of conquering any body’s reserve to procure one. Intimacy between Miss Fairfax and me is quite out of the question. I have no reason to think ill of her—not the least—except that such extreme and perpetual cautiousness of word and manner, such a dread of giving a distinct idea about any body, is apt to suggest suspicions of there being something to conceal.”
“Not until the reserve fades away towards me; and then the attraction might actually be stronger. But I need to really want a friend or a pleasant companion more than I have so far to go through the effort of breaking down anyone's reserve to get one. There's no chance for intimacy between Miss Fairfax and me. I have no reason to think badly of her—not at all—except that her extreme and constant cautiousness in her words and actions, and her fear of giving a clear idea about anyone, makes me suspect that there might be something she's trying to hide.”
He perfectly agreed with her: and after walking together so long, and thinking so much alike, Emma felt herself so well acquainted with him, that she could hardly believe it to be only their second meeting. He was not exactly what she had expected; less of the man of the world in some of his notions, less of the spoiled child of fortune, therefore better than she had expected. His ideas seemed more moderate—his feelings warmer. She was particularly struck by his manner of considering Mr. Elton’s house, which, as well as the church, he would go and look at, and would not join them in finding much fault with. No, he could not believe it a bad house; not such a house as a man was to be pitied for having. If it were to be shared with the woman he loved, he could not think any man to be pitied for having that house. There must be ample room in it for every real comfort. The man must be a blockhead who wanted more.
He completely agreed with her, and after walking together for so long and having such similar thoughts, Emma felt so familiar with him that she could hardly believe it was only their second meeting. He wasn’t exactly what she had expected; he was less of a worldly man in some of his ideas and less of a spoiled child of fortune, making him better than she had anticipated. His views seemed more balanced—his feelings warmer. She was especially impressed by how he regarded Mr. Elton’s house, which, like the church, he intended to check out, and he wouldn’t join in their complaints about it. No, he couldn’t see it as a bad house; certainly not a place for which any man should be pitied. If it was to be shared with the woman he loved, he couldn’t understand why any man would be pitied for having that house. It must have plenty of room for every real comfort. A man would have to be a fool to want more.
Mrs. Weston laughed, and said he did not know what he was talking about. Used only to a large house himself, and without ever thinking how many advantages and accommodations were attached to its size, he could be no judge of the privations inevitably belonging to a small one. But Emma, in her own mind, determined that he did know what he was talking about, and that he shewed a very amiable inclination to settle early in life, and to marry, from worthy motives. He might not be aware of the inroads on domestic peace to be occasioned by no housekeeper’s room, or a bad butler’s pantry, but no doubt he did perfectly feel that Enscombe could not make him happy, and that whenever he were attached, he would willingly give up much of wealth to be allowed an early establishment.
Mrs. Weston laughed and said he didn’t know what he was talking about. Used to a big house himself and never considering how many benefits and conveniences came with its size, he couldn’t really judge the drawbacks that inevitably came with a smaller one. But Emma, in her own mind, decided that he *did* know what he was talking about and that he showed a very kind desire to settle down early in life and marry for good reasons. He might not realize how much domestic peace could be disrupted by not having a housekeeper’s room or having a poorly-run butler’s pantry, but he definitely knew that Enscombe wouldn't make him happy, and that whenever he fell in love, he would be willing to give up a lot of wealth for the chance to start a family early.
CHAPTER VII
Emma’s very good opinion of Frank Churchill was a little shaken the following day, by hearing that he was gone off to London, merely to have his hair cut. A sudden freak seemed to have seized him at breakfast, and he had sent for a chaise and set off, intending to return to dinner, but with no more important view that appeared than having his hair cut. There was certainly no harm in his travelling sixteen miles twice over on such an errand; but there was an air of foppery and nonsense in it which she could not approve. It did not accord with the rationality of plan, the moderation in expense, or even the unselfish warmth of heart, which she had believed herself to discern in him yesterday. Vanity, extravagance, love of change, restlessness of temper, which must be doing something, good or bad; heedlessness as to the pleasure of his father and Mrs. Weston, indifferent as to how his conduct might appear in general; he became liable to all these charges. His father only called him a coxcomb, and thought it a very good story; but that Mrs. Weston did not like it, was clear enough, by her passing it over as quickly as possible, and making no other comment than that “all young people would have their little whims.”
Emma’s good opinion of Frank Churchill got a little shaken the next day when she heard he had gone off to London just to get his hair cut. A sudden whim seemed to take hold of him during breakfast, and he had called for a carriage and left, planning to return for dinner, but with no more important reason than getting his hair cut. There was certainly nothing wrong with him traveling sixteen miles twice for such a reason; but there was an air of vanity and silliness about it that she couldn’t approve of. It didn’t match the rational planning, moderation in spending, or even the selfless warmth she thought she saw in him the day before. He seemed to be guilty of vanity, extravagance, a desire for change, and a restless temperament that needed to be busy, whether good or bad; carelessness regarding his father and Mrs. Weston’s feelings, and indifference to how his actions might be perceived overall; he was open to all these criticisms. His father simply called him a fool and thought it was a funny story; but it was clear that Mrs. Weston didn’t like it, as she brushed over it quickly, making no other comment than that “all young people have their little whims.”
With the exception of this little blot, Emma found that his visit hitherto had given her friend only good ideas of him. Mrs. Weston was very ready to say how attentive and pleasant a companion he made himself—how much she saw to like in his disposition altogether. He appeared to have a very open temper—certainly a very cheerful and lively one; she could observe nothing wrong in his notions, a great deal decidedly right; he spoke of his uncle with warm regard, was fond of talking of him—said he would be the best man in the world if he were left to himself; and though there was no being attached to the aunt, he acknowledged her kindness with gratitude, and seemed to mean always to speak of her with respect. This was all very promising; and, but for such an unfortunate fancy for having his hair cut, there was nothing to denote him unworthy of the distinguished honour which her imagination had given him; the honour, if not of being really in love with her, of being at least very near it, and saved only by her own indifference—(for still her resolution held of never marrying)—the honour, in short, of being marked out for her by all their joint acquaintance.
Aside from this little flaw, Emma thought that his visit so far had only created good impressions of him in her friend's mind. Mrs. Weston was quick to mention how attentive and enjoyable a companion he was—how much there was to like about his overall character. He seemed to have a very open nature—definitely a cheerful and lively one; she didn’t notice anything wrong with his ideas, and quite a lot that was definitely right. He spoke of his uncle with genuine fondness, enjoyed talking about him—he said his uncle would be the best man in the world if left to his own devices; and although he didn’t seem attached to the aunt, he expressed gratitude for her kindness and always intended to refer to her with respect. This was all very promising; and, if it weren't for his unfortunate preference for getting his hair cut, there was nothing to suggest he wasn't worthy of the great honor her imagination had given him—the honor, if not of being truly in love with her, at least of being very close, saved only by her own indifference—for she still resolved never to marry—the honor, in short, of being singled out for her by all their mutual acquaintances.
Mr. Weston, on his side, added a virtue to the account which must have some weight. He gave her to understand that Frank admired her extremely—thought her very beautiful and very charming; and with so much to be said for him altogether, she found she must not judge him harshly. As Mrs. Weston observed, “all young people would have their little whims.”
Mr. Weston, for his part, added a positive note to the situation that had to mean something. He made it clear that Frank thought she was incredibly beautiful and charming; with that much in his favor, she realized she shouldn’t judge him too harshly. As Mrs. Weston pointed out, “all young people have their little quirks.”
There was one person among his new acquaintance in Surry, not so leniently disposed. In general he was judged, throughout the parishes of Donwell and Highbury, with great candour; liberal allowances were made for the little excesses of such a handsome young man—one who smiled so often and bowed so well; but there was one spirit among them not to be softened, from its power of censure, by bows or smiles—Mr. Knightley. The circumstance was told him at Hartfield; for the moment, he was silent; but Emma heard him almost immediately afterwards say to himself, over a newspaper he held in his hand, “Hum! just the trifling, silly fellow I took him for.” She had half a mind to resent; but an instant’s observation convinced her that it was really said only to relieve his own feelings, and not meant to provoke; and therefore she let it pass.
There was one person among his new acquaintances in Surrey who was not so forgiving. Generally, he was viewed with great fairness throughout the parishes of Donwell and Highbury; people made liberal allowances for the minor flaws of such a handsome young man—one who smiled often and bowed charmingly. But there was one person among them who wouldn’t be swayed by bows or smiles—Mr. Knightley. This was mentioned to him at Hartfield; for a moment, he was silent, but Emma soon heard him mutter to himself, while looking at a newspaper in his hand, “Hum! just the foolish, silly guy I thought he was.” She considered being offended, but a quick observation made her realize that it was just something he said to vent his own feelings and wasn’t meant to provoke her; so she decided to let it slide.
Although in one instance the bearers of not good tidings, Mr. and Mrs. Weston’s visit this morning was in another respect particularly opportune. Something occurred while they were at Hartfield, to make Emma want their advice; and, which was still more lucky, she wanted exactly the advice they gave.
Although in one case the news wasn’t great, Mr. and Mrs. Weston’s visit this morning was particularly well-timed in another way. Something happened while they were at Hartfield that made Emma seek their advice; and, even luckier, she needed exactly the advice they offered.
This was the occurrence:—The Coles had been settled some years in Highbury, and were very good sort of people—friendly, liberal, and unpretending; but, on the other hand, they were of low origin, in trade, and only moderately genteel. On their first coming into the country, they had lived in proportion to their income, quietly, keeping little company, and that little unexpensively; but the last year or two had brought them a considerable increase of means—the house in town had yielded greater profits, and fortune in general had smiled on them. With their wealth, their views increased; their want of a larger house, their inclination for more company. They added to their house, to their number of servants, to their expenses of every sort; and by this time were, in fortune and style of living, second only to the family at Hartfield. Their love of society, and their new dining-room, prepared every body for their keeping dinner-company; and a few parties, chiefly among the single men, had already taken place. The regular and best families Emma could hardly suppose they would presume to invite—neither Donwell, nor Hartfield, nor Randalls. Nothing should tempt her to go, if they did; and she regretted that her father’s known habits would be giving her refusal less meaning than she could wish. The Coles were very respectable in their way, but they ought to be taught that it was not for them to arrange the terms on which the superior families would visit them. This lesson, she very much feared, they would receive only from herself; she had little hope of Mr. Knightley, none of Mr. Weston.
This is what happened: The Coles had been living in Highbury for several years and were nice people—friendly, generous, and down-to-earth. However, they came from humble beginnings, were in business, and were only somewhat refined. When they first moved to the area, they lived within their means, quietly keeping to themselves and socializing on a budget. But over the past couple of years, their financial situation had improved significantly—the house in town had earned them more money, and luck had been on their side. With their newfound wealth, their ambitions grew; they wanted a bigger house and more social interaction. They expanded their home, hired more servants, and increased their overall spending; at this point, they were second only to the family at Hartfield in terms of wealth and lifestyle. Their desire for socializing, along with their new dining room, got everyone ready for them to host dinner parties; already, a few gatherings, mostly among the single men, had happened. Emma couldn’t really imagine them inviting the truly respectable families—neither Donwell, Hartfield, nor Randalls. Nothing would make her go if they did invite her; she regretted that her father's usual habits would make her refusal seem less significant than she wanted. The Coles were quite respectable in their own way, but they needed to understand that it wasn’t for them to dictate the terms on which the more prestigious families would visit them. She worried that the only way they would learn this lesson would be through her; she had little hope that Mr. Knightley would address it and none at all that Mr. Weston would.
But she had made up her mind how to meet this presumption so many weeks before it appeared, that when the insult came at last, it found her very differently affected. Donwell and Randalls had received their invitation, and none had come for her father and herself; and Mrs. Weston’s accounting for it with “I suppose they will not take the liberty with you; they know you do not dine out,” was not quite sufficient. She felt that she should like to have had the power of refusal; and afterwards, as the idea of the party to be assembled there, consisting precisely of those whose society was dearest to her, occurred again and again, she did not know that she might not have been tempted to accept. Harriet was to be there in the evening, and the Bateses. They had been speaking of it as they walked about Highbury the day before, and Frank Churchill had most earnestly lamented her absence. Might not the evening end in a dance? had been a question of his. The bare possibility of it acted as a farther irritation on her spirits; and her being left in solitary grandeur, even supposing the omission to be intended as a compliment, was but poor comfort.
But she had already decided how to handle this situation weeks before it came up, so when the insult finally arrived, it found her in a very different mood. Donwell and Randalls had received their invitation, but nothing had come for her father and her. Mrs. Weston’s explanation that “I suppose they won’t take the liberty with you; they know you don’t dine out,” wasn't quite enough. She wished she could have had the option to refuse; and later, as she thought about the gathering, filled with exactly those whose company she cherished the most, the idea kept coming back to her. She realized she might have been tempted to say yes. Harriet was supposed to be there in the evening, along with the Bateses. They had talked about it while walking around Highbury the day before, and Frank Churchill had sincerely expressed how much he missed her. He had wondered if the evening might end with a dance. The mere thought of it only heightened her frustration; being left alone in solitary splendor, even if the snub was meant as a compliment, was little consolation.
It was the arrival of this very invitation while the Westons were at Hartfield, which made their presence so acceptable; for though her first remark, on reading it, was that “of course it must be declined,” she so very soon proceeded to ask them what they advised her to do, that their advice for her going was most prompt and successful.
It was the arrival of this invitation while the Westons were at Hartfield that made their presence so welcome. Even though her first reaction to reading it was, “of course I should decline,” she quickly asked them for their advice on what to do, and their suggestion for her to go was both prompt and effective.
She owned that, considering every thing, she was not absolutely without inclination for the party. The Coles expressed themselves so properly—there was so much real attention in the manner of it—so much consideration for her father. “They would have solicited the honour earlier, but had been waiting the arrival of a folding-screen from London, which they hoped might keep Mr. Woodhouse from any draught of air, and therefore induce him the more readily to give them the honour of his company.” Upon the whole, she was very persuadable; and it being briefly settled among themselves how it might be done without neglecting his comfort—how certainly Mrs. Goddard, if not Mrs. Bates, might be depended on for bearing him company—Mr. Woodhouse was to be talked into an acquiescence of his daughter’s going out to dinner on a day now near at hand, and spending the whole evening away from him. As for his going, Emma did not wish him to think it possible, the hours would be too late, and the party too numerous. He was soon pretty well resigned.
She admitted that, all things considered, she did have some interest in the gathering. The Coles communicated so politely—there was so much genuine attention in their approach—so much thought for her father. “They would have asked for the honor of his company sooner, but they were waiting for a folding screen from London, which they hoped would protect Mr. Woodhouse from any drafts and make him more willing to join them.” Overall, she was quite open to persuasion; and it was quickly agreed among themselves how they could do it without neglecting his comfort—how certainly Mrs. Goddard, if not Mrs. Bates, could be counted on to keep him company—so Mr. Woodhouse was to be gently convinced to allow his daughter to go out to dinner on a day that was approaching, and spend the entire evening away from him. As for *his* going, Emma didn’t want him to even consider it possible, since the evening would be too late and the gathering too large. He soon accepted it pretty well.
“I am not fond of dinner-visiting,” said he—“I never was. No more is Emma. Late hours do not agree with us. I am sorry Mr. and Mrs. Cole should have done it. I think it would be much better if they would come in one afternoon next summer, and take their tea with us—take us in their afternoon walk; which they might do, as our hours are so reasonable, and yet get home without being out in the damp of the evening. The dews of a summer evening are what I would not expose any body to. However, as they are so very desirous to have dear Emma dine with them, and as you will both be there, and Mr. Knightley too, to take care of her, I cannot wish to prevent it, provided the weather be what it ought, neither damp, nor cold, nor windy.” Then turning to Mrs. Weston, with a look of gentle reproach—“Ah! Miss Taylor, if you had not married, you would have staid at home with me.”
“I’m not really into dinner parties,” he said. “I never have been. Neither is Emma. We don't do well with late hours. I wish Mr. and Mrs. Cole hadn’t planned this. It would be much nicer if they came by one afternoon next summer for tea—joined us on their afternoon walk; they could easily do that since our hours are so reasonable, and still get home without being out in the evening damp. I wouldn’t want to expose anyone to the dews of a summer evening. That said, since they’re so eager to have dear Emma for dinner, and since you’ll both be there, along with Mr. Knightley to look after her, I can’t bring myself to stop it, as long as the weather is suitable—neither damp, nor cold, nor windy.” Then he turned to Mrs. Weston, giving her a gentle reproachful look—“Ah! Miss Taylor, if you hadn’t married, you would have stayed home with me.”
“Well, sir,” cried Mr. Weston, “as I took Miss Taylor away, it is incumbent on me to supply her place, if I can; and I will step to Mrs. Goddard in a moment, if you wish it.”
“Alright, sir,” exclaimed Mr. Weston, “since I’ve taken Miss Taylor away, it’s my duty to fill her role if I can; and I’ll go see Mrs. Goddard in just a moment, if you’d like.”
But the idea of any thing to be done in a moment, was increasing, not lessening, Mr. Woodhouse’s agitation. The ladies knew better how to allay it. Mr. Weston must be quiet, and every thing deliberately arranged.
But the idea of anything being done in a moment was increasing, not diminishing, Mr. Woodhouse’s anxiety. The ladies understood better how to calm him down. Mr. Weston needed to be calm, and everything should be organized carefully.
With this treatment, Mr. Woodhouse was soon composed enough for talking as usual. “He should be happy to see Mrs. Goddard. He had a great regard for Mrs. Goddard; and Emma should write a line, and invite her. James could take the note. But first of all, there must be an answer written to Mrs. Cole.”
With this treatment, Mr. Woodhouse soon felt calm enough to talk as usual. “He would be happy to see Mrs. Goddard. He had a lot of respect for Mrs. Goddard, and Emma should write a note and invite her. James could deliver the note. But first, a response needs to be written to Mrs. Cole.”
“You will make my excuses, my dear, as civilly as possible. You will say that I am quite an invalid, and go no where, and therefore must decline their obliging invitation; beginning with my compliments, of course. But you will do every thing right. I need not tell you what is to be done. We must remember to let James know that the carriage will be wanted on Tuesday. I shall have no fears for you with him. We have never been there above once since the new approach was made; but still I have no doubt that James will take you very safely. And when you get there, you must tell him at what time you would have him come for you again; and you had better name an early hour. You will not like staying late. You will get very tired when tea is over.”
“You will politely pass along my regrets, my dear. Please say that I am quite ill and don’t go out, so I must decline their kind invitation, starting with my compliments, of course. But you’ll handle everything perfectly. I don’t need to tell you what to do. We should remember to inform James that we’ll need the carriage on Tuesday. I’m not worried about you being with him. We’ve only been there once since the new entrance was built, but I’m sure James will get you there safely. And when you arrive, make sure to tell him what time you want him to pick you up again; you should suggest an early time. You won’t want to stay late. You’re going to feel very tired once tea is over.”
“But you would not wish me to come away before I am tired, papa?”
“But you wouldn’t want me to leave before I’m tired, dad?”
“Oh! no, my love; but you will soon be tired. There will be a great many people talking at once. You will not like the noise.”
“Oh! no, my love; but you’ll get tired soon. There will be a lot of people talking all at once. You won’t like the noise.”
“But, my dear sir,” cried Mr. Weston, “if Emma comes away early, it will be breaking up the party.”
“But, my dear sir,” exclaimed Mr. Weston, “if Emma leaves early, it will break up the party.”
“And no great harm if it does,” said Mr. Woodhouse. “The sooner every party breaks up, the better.”
"And it's not a big deal if it does," Mr. Woodhouse said. "The sooner everyone goes their separate ways, the better."
“But you do not consider how it may appear to the Coles. Emma’s going away directly after tea might be giving offence. They are good-natured people, and think little of their own claims; but still they must feel that any body’s hurrying away is no great compliment; and Miss Woodhouse’s doing it would be more thought of than any other person’s in the room. You would not wish to disappoint and mortify the Coles, I am sure, sir; friendly, good sort of people as ever lived, and who have been your neighbours these ten years.”
“But you haven't thought about how it might look to the Coles. Emma leaving right after tea could come off as disrespectful. They’re nice people and don’t think much of their own importance, but they still have to feel that anyone rushing off isn’t really a compliment; and Miss Woodhouse leaving early would be noticed more than anyone else in the room. You wouldn’t want to let down and embarrass the Coles, I know that, sir; they're friendly, good-hearted people who have been your neighbors for these ten years.”
“No, upon no account in the world, Mr. Weston; I am much obliged to you for reminding me. I should be extremely sorry to be giving them any pain. I know what worthy people they are. Perry tells me that Mr. Cole never touches malt liquor. You would not think it to look at him, but he is bilious—Mr. Cole is very bilious. No, I would not be the means of giving them any pain. My dear Emma, we must consider this. I am sure, rather than run the risk of hurting Mr. and Mrs. Cole, you would stay a little longer than you might wish. You will not regard being tired. You will be perfectly safe, you know, among your friends.”
“No, absolutely not, Mr. Weston; I really appreciate you reminding me. I would feel terrible if I caused them any distress. I know how good they are. Perry tells me that Mr. Cole never drinks beer. You wouldn't guess it by looking at him, but he has a liver issue—Mr. Cole really does. No, I wouldn’t want to cause them any pain. My dear Emma, we need to think this through. I’m sure, rather than risk upsetting Mr. and Mrs. Cole, you'd stay a little longer than you'd prefer. You won’t mind being tired. You’ll be perfectly safe, after all, among your friends.”
“Oh yes, papa. I have no fears at all for myself; and I should have no scruples of staying as late as Mrs. Weston, but on your account. I am only afraid of your sitting up for me. I am not afraid of your not being exceedingly comfortable with Mrs. Goddard. She loves piquet, you know; but when she is gone home, I am afraid you will be sitting up by yourself, instead of going to bed at your usual time—and the idea of that would entirely destroy my comfort. You must promise me not to sit up.”
“Oh yes, Dad. I’m not worried about myself at all, and I wouldn’t hesitate to stay out as late as Mrs. Weston, but it’s because of you. I just worry that you’ll be waiting up for me. I’m not concerned about you not having a great time with Mrs. Goddard. She loves playing piquet, you know; but once she goes home, I’m worried you’ll end up staying up alone instead of going to bed at your usual time—and the thought of that would completely ruin my comfort. You have to promise me you won’t stay up.”
He did, on the condition of some promises on her side: such as that, if she came home cold, she would be sure to warm herself thoroughly; if hungry, that she would take something to eat; that her own maid should sit up for her; and that Serle and the butler should see that every thing were safe in the house, as usual.
He agreed, but only if she promised a few things: that if she came home cold, she'd make sure to warm up properly; if she was hungry, she'd grab something to eat; that her maid would wait up for her; and that Serle and the butler would make sure everything in the house was safe, as always.
CHAPTER VIII
Frank Churchill came back again; and if he kept his father’s dinner waiting, it was not known at Hartfield; for Mrs. Weston was too anxious for his being a favourite with Mr. Woodhouse, to betray any imperfection which could be concealed.
Frank Churchill came back again, and if he made his father's dinner wait, no one at Hartfield knew about it; Mrs. Weston was too eager for him to be a favorite with Mr. Woodhouse to reveal any flaws that could be hidden.
He came back, had had his hair cut, and laughed at himself with a very good grace, but without seeming really at all ashamed of what he had done. He had no reason to wish his hair longer, to conceal any confusion of face; no reason to wish the money unspent, to improve his spirits. He was quite as undaunted and as lively as ever; and, after seeing him, Emma thus moralised to herself:—
He came back, had his hair cut, and laughed at himself with a lot of grace, but he didn’t seem ashamed of what he had done at all. He had no reason to wish his hair was longer to hide any embarrassment; no reason to regret the money spent to lift his mood. He was just as fearless and lively as ever; and after seeing him, Emma thought to herself:—
“I do not know whether it ought to be so, but certainly silly things do cease to be silly if they are done by sensible people in an impudent way. Wickedness is always wickedness, but folly is not always folly.—It depends upon the character of those who handle it. Mr. Knightley, he is not a trifling, silly young man. If he were, he would have done this differently. He would either have gloried in the achievement, or been ashamed of it. There would have been either the ostentation of a coxcomb, or the evasions of a mind too weak to defend its own vanities.—No, I am perfectly sure that he is not trifling or silly.”
“I don't know if it should be this way, but definitely silly things stop being silly when sensible people do them in a bold manner. Evil is always evil, but foolishness isn't always foolish—it depends on the character of the person dealing with it. Mr. Knightley is not a frivolous, silly young man. If he were, he would have handled this differently. He would either have taken pride in the accomplishment or felt ashamed of it. There would have been either the showiness of a vain person or the excuses of someone too weak to acknowledge their own flaws. No, I am completely sure that he is neither frivolous nor silly.”
With Tuesday came the agreeable prospect of seeing him again, and for a longer time than hitherto; of judging of his general manners, and by inference, of the meaning of his manners towards herself; of guessing how soon it might be necessary for her to throw coldness into her air; and of fancying what the observations of all those might be, who were now seeing them together for the first time.
With Tuesday came the nice possibility of seeing him again, and for longer than before; of assessing his overall behavior, and by extension, understanding what his behavior towards her meant; of wondering how soon it might be necessary for her to act distant; and of imagining what everyone watching them together for the first time might think.
She meant to be very happy, in spite of the scene being laid at Mr. Cole’s; and without being able to forget that among the failings of Mr. Elton, even in the days of his favour, none had disturbed her more than his propensity to dine with Mr. Cole.
She wanted to be very happy, despite the situation being at Mr. Cole's; and even though she couldn't forget that among Mr. Elton's shortcomings, even during his better days, none had bothered her more than his habit of having dinner with Mr. Cole.
Her father’s comfort was amply secured, Mrs. Bates as well as Mrs. Goddard being able to come; and her last pleasing duty, before she left the house, was to pay her respects to them as they sat together after dinner; and while her father was fondly noticing the beauty of her dress, to make the two ladies all the amends in her power, by helping them to large slices of cake and full glasses of wine, for whatever unwilling self-denial his care of their constitution might have obliged them to practise during the meal.—She had provided a plentiful dinner for them; she wished she could know that they had been allowed to eat it.
Her father's comfort was well taken care of, with both Mrs. Bates and Mrs. Goddard able to join them; and her final enjoyable task before leaving the house was to greet them as they sat together after dinner. While her father admired the beauty of her dress, she aimed to make up for any reluctant self-denial they might have felt due to his concerns for their health by serving them generous slices of cake and full glasses of wine. She had organized a plentiful dinner for them and wished she could be sure that they had actually been able to enjoy it.
She followed another carriage to Mr. Cole’s door; and was pleased to see that it was Mr. Knightley’s; for Mr. Knightley keeping no horses, having little spare money and a great deal of health, activity, and independence, was too apt, in Emma’s opinion, to get about as he could, and not use his carriage so often as became the owner of Donwell Abbey. She had an opportunity now of speaking her approbation while warm from her heart, for he stopped to hand her out.
She followed another carriage to Mr. Cole’s door and was happy to see that it was Mr. Knightley’s. Since Mr. Knightley didn't keep any horses, had little extra money, but plenty of health, energy, and independence, Emma thought he often got around however he could and didn’t use his carriage as often as someone with Donwell Abbey should. Now she had the chance to express her appreciation while feeling genuinely warm about it, as he paused to help her out.
“This is coming as you should do,” said she; “like a gentleman.—I am quite glad to see you.”
“This is how you should behave,” she said; “like a gentleman. I'm really glad to see you.”
He thanked her, observing, “How lucky that we should arrive at the same moment! for, if we had met first in the drawing-room, I doubt whether you would have discerned me to be more of a gentleman than usual.—You might not have distinguished how I came, by my look or manner.”
He thanked her, noticing, “How fortunate that we arrived at the same time! Because if we had met in the living room first, I’m not sure you would have seen me as more of a gentleman than usual. You might not have noticed how I came across through my appearance or behavior.”
“Yes I should, I am sure I should. There is always a look of consciousness or bustle when people come in a way which they know to be beneath them. You think you carry it off very well, I dare say, but with you it is a sort of bravado, an air of affected unconcern; I always observe it whenever I meet you under those circumstances. Now you have nothing to try for. You are not afraid of being supposed ashamed. You are not striving to look taller than any body else. Now I shall really be very happy to walk into the same room with you.”
“Yes, I should, I’m sure I should. There's always this vibe of self-awareness or chaos when people enter a situation they know is beneath them. You probably think you handle it really well, but for you, it’s like a show of confidence, this fake calmness; I always notice it whenever I run into you in those situations. Right now, you have nothing to prove. You’re not worried about looking ashamed. You’re not trying to seem taller than anyone else. Now, I’ll genuinely be happy to walk into the same room with you.”
“Nonsensical girl!” was his reply, but not at all in anger.
“Nonsensical girl!” he replied, but not at all in anger.
Emma had as much reason to be satisfied with the rest of the party as with Mr. Knightley. She was received with a cordial respect which could not but please, and given all the consequence she could wish for. When the Westons arrived, the kindest looks of love, the strongest of admiration were for her, from both husband and wife; the son approached her with a cheerful eagerness which marked her as his peculiar object, and at dinner she found him seated by her—and, as she firmly believed, not without some dexterity on his side.
Emma had just as much reason to be pleased with the rest of the party as she did with Mr. Knightley. She was welcomed with genuine respect that was quite gratifying, and she got all the attention she could hope for. When the Westons arrived, both husband and wife looked at her with the kindest expressions of love and the strongest admiration. Their son approached her with a bright enthusiasm that clearly showed he had his eye on her, and at dinner, she found him sitting next to her—and, as she confidently believed, not without some skill on his part.
The party was rather large, as it included one other family, a proper unobjectionable country family, whom the Coles had the advantage of naming among their acquaintance, and the male part of Mr. Cox’s family, the lawyer of Highbury. The less worthy females were to come in the evening, with Miss Bates, Miss Fairfax, and Miss Smith; but already, at dinner, they were too numerous for any subject of conversation to be general; and, while politics and Mr. Elton were talked over, Emma could fairly surrender all her attention to the pleasantness of her neighbour. The first remote sound to which she felt herself obliged to attend, was the name of Jane Fairfax. Mrs. Cole seemed to be relating something of her that was expected to be very interesting. She listened, and found it well worth listening to. That very dear part of Emma, her fancy, received an amusing supply. Mrs. Cole was telling that she had been calling on Miss Bates, and as soon as she entered the room had been struck by the sight of a pianoforte—a very elegant looking instrument—not a grand, but a large-sized square pianoforte; and the substance of the story, the end of all the dialogue which ensued of surprize, and inquiry, and congratulations on her side, and explanations on Miss Bates’s, was, that this pianoforte had arrived from Broadwood’s the day before, to the great astonishment of both aunt and niece—entirely unexpected; that at first, by Miss Bates’s account, Jane herself was quite at a loss, quite bewildered to think who could possibly have ordered it—but now, they were both perfectly satisfied that it could be from only one quarter;—of course it must be from Colonel Campbell.
The party was quite large, as it included another family, a perfectly nice country family, whom the Coles were proud to count among their friends, along with the male members of Mr. Cox's family, the lawyer from Highbury. The less desirable women were coming in the evening, along with Miss Bates, Miss Fairfax, and Miss Smith; but already, at dinner, there were too many people for any one topic to be talked about broadly. While politics and Mr. Elton were being discussed, Emma was able to focus all her attention on the pleasantness of her neighbor. The first distant mention that drew her attention was the name Jane Fairfax. Mrs. Cole seemed to be sharing something about her that was expected to be very interesting. Emma listened and found it was indeed worth her attention. That very dear part of Emma, her imagination, received an entertaining boost. Mrs. Cole was saying that she had been visiting Miss Bates, and as soon as she walked into the room, she was struck by the sight of a pianoforte—a very elegant-looking instrument—not a grand, but a large square piano; and the essence of the story, the conclusion of all the surprise, inquiry, and congratulations on her part, and explanations from Miss Bates, was that this piano had arrived from Broadwood's the day before, astonishing both the aunt and niece—completely unexpected; that initially, according to Miss Bates, Jane was quite puzzled and confused about who could have possibly ordered it—but now, they were both completely convinced that it could only have come from one source;—of course, it had to be from Colonel Campbell.
“One can suppose nothing else,” added Mrs. Cole, “and I was only surprized that there could ever have been a doubt. But Jane, it seems, had a letter from them very lately, and not a word was said about it. She knows their ways best; but I should not consider their silence as any reason for their not meaning to make the present. They might chuse to surprize her.”
"One can't think anything else,” Mrs. Cole said, “and I was just surprised that there was ever any doubt. But it seems Jane got a letter from them recently, and not a word was mentioned about it. She knows their habits best; but I wouldn’t take their silence as a sign that they don’t intend to make the gift. They might want to surprise her."
Mrs. Cole had many to agree with her; every body who spoke on the subject was equally convinced that it must come from Colonel Campbell, and equally rejoiced that such a present had been made; and there were enough ready to speak to allow Emma to think her own way, and still listen to Mrs. Cole.
Mrs. Cole had a lot of people who agreed with her; everyone who talked about it was just as convinced that it had to come from Colonel Campbell and equally happy that such a gift had been given. There were enough people willing to weigh in that Emma felt she could think for herself while still paying attention to Mrs. Cole.
“I declare, I do not know when I have heard any thing that has given me more satisfaction!—It always has quite hurt me that Jane Fairfax, who plays so delightfully, should not have an instrument. It seemed quite a shame, especially considering how many houses there are where fine instruments are absolutely thrown away. This is like giving ourselves a slap, to be sure! and it was but yesterday I was telling Mr. Cole, I really was ashamed to look at our new grand pianoforte in the drawing-room, while I do not know one note from another, and our little girls, who are but just beginning, perhaps may never make any thing of it; and there is poor Jane Fairfax, who is mistress of music, has not any thing of the nature of an instrument, not even the pitifullest old spinet in the world, to amuse herself with.—I was saying this to Mr. Cole but yesterday, and he quite agreed with me; only he is so particularly fond of music that he could not help indulging himself in the purchase, hoping that some of our good neighbours might be so obliging occasionally to put it to a better use than we can; and that really is the reason why the instrument was bought—or else I am sure we ought to be ashamed of it.—We are in great hopes that Miss Woodhouse may be prevailed with to try it this evening.”
“I honestly don’t know when I’ve heard anything that made me happier! It always bothered me that Jane Fairfax, who plays so beautifully, doesn’t have an instrument. It seems such a shame, especially considering how many homes have fine instruments just sitting there unused. It feels like we’re doing ourselves a disservice! Just yesterday, I was telling Mr. Cole how embarrassed I am to look at our new grand piano in the drawing room when I can’t play a single note, and our little girls are just starting out; they might never really play it at all. Then there's poor Jane Fairfax, a true mistress of music, who doesn’t have even the most pathetic old spinet to enjoy. I mentioned this to Mr. Cole just yesterday, and he completely agreed. He loves music so much that he couldn’t resist buying it, hoping some of our kind neighbors might occasionally put it to better use than we can. That’s really the reason we got the instrument—or else we should be ashamed of it. We’re really hoping that Miss Woodhouse will be persuaded to try it out this evening.”
Miss Woodhouse made the proper acquiescence; and finding that nothing more was to be entrapped from any communication of Mrs. Cole’s, turned to Frank Churchill.
Miss Woodhouse agreed appropriately, and realizing that no further information could be gathered from Mrs. Cole’s remarks, she turned to Frank Churchill.
“Why do you smile?” said she.
“Why are you smiling?” she asked.
“Nay, why do you?”
“Why do you?”
“Me!—I suppose I smile for pleasure at Colonel Campbell’s being so rich and so liberal.—It is a handsome present.”
“Me!—I guess I smile out of joy that Colonel Campbell is so wealthy and generous.—It’s a great gift.”
“Very.”
"Extremely."
“I rather wonder that it was never made before.”
"I really wonder why it was never done before."
“Perhaps Miss Fairfax has never been staying here so long before.”
“Maybe Miss Fairfax has never stayed here this long before.”
“Or that he did not give her the use of their own instrument—which must now be shut up in London, untouched by any body.”
“Or that he didn’t let her use their own instrument—which must now be sitting in London, unused by anyone.”
“That is a grand pianoforte, and he might think it too large for Mrs. Bates’s house.”
“That is a grand piano, and he might think it’s too big for Mrs. Bates’s house.”
“You may say what you chuse—but your countenance testifies that your thoughts on this subject are very much like mine.”
“You can say whatever you want—but your expression shows that your thoughts on this topic are very similar to mine.”
“I do not know. I rather believe you are giving me more credit for acuteness than I deserve. I smile because you smile, and shall probably suspect whatever I find you suspect; but at present I do not see what there is to question. If Colonel Campbell is not the person, who can be?”
“I don’t know. I think you’re giving me more credit for insight than I deserve. I smile because you smile, and I’ll probably doubt whatever you doubt; but right now, I don’t see anything to question. If Colonel Campbell isn’t the one, who else could be?”
“What do you say to Mrs. Dixon?”
“What do you want to say to Mrs. Dixon?”
“Mrs. Dixon! very true indeed. I had not thought of Mrs. Dixon. She must know as well as her father, how acceptable an instrument would be; and perhaps the mode of it, the mystery, the surprize, is more like a young woman’s scheme than an elderly man’s. It is Mrs. Dixon, I dare say. I told you that your suspicions would guide mine.”
“Mrs. Dixon! That’s very true. I hadn’t considered Mrs. Dixon. She probably knows just as well as her father how welcome an instrument would be; and maybe the way it’s done, the mystery, the surprise, is more like something a young woman would plan than an older man. It must be Mrs. Dixon, I’m sure. I warned you that your suspicions would lead me to think the same.”
“If so, you must extend your suspicions and comprehend Mr. Dixon in them.”
“If that’s the case, you need to expand your suspicions to include Mr. Dixon.”
“Mr. Dixon.—Very well. Yes, I immediately perceive that it must be the joint present of Mr. and Mrs. Dixon. We were speaking the other day, you know, of his being so warm an admirer of her performance.”
“Mr. Dixon.—Alright. Yes, I can see right away that this must be a joint gift from Mr. and Mrs. Dixon. We were talking the other day, you know, about how he is such a big fan of her performance.”
“Yes, and what you told me on that head, confirmed an idea which I had entertained before.—I do not mean to reflect upon the good intentions of either Mr. Dixon or Miss Fairfax, but I cannot help suspecting either that, after making his proposals to her friend, he had the misfortune to fall in love with her, or that he became conscious of a little attachment on her side. One might guess twenty things without guessing exactly the right; but I am sure there must be a particular cause for her chusing to come to Highbury instead of going with the Campbells to Ireland. Here, she must be leading a life of privation and penance; there it would have been all enjoyment. As to the pretence of trying her native air, I look upon that as a mere excuse.—In the summer it might have passed; but what can any body’s native air do for them in the months of January, February, and March? Good fires and carriages would be much more to the purpose in most cases of delicate health, and I dare say in her’s. I do not require you to adopt all my suspicions, though you make so noble a profession of doing it, but I honestly tell you what they are.”
“Yes, and what you told me about that confirmed an idea I had been thinking about before. I don’t mean to question the good intentions of either Mr. Dixon or Miss Fairfax, but I can’t help but wonder if, after proposing to her friend, he ended up falling in love with her, or if he realized that she had a bit of a crush on him. You could speculate endlessly without hitting the nail on the head, but I’m sure there’s a specific reason why she chose to come to Highbury instead of going with the Campbells to Ireland. Here, she must be living a life of hardship and self-denial; there, it would have been all fun. As for the excuse about needing to try her native air, I see that as just a cover. In the summer, it might have worked, but what good is anyone’s native air in January, February, and March? Good fires and car rides would definitely be more beneficial in most cases of fragile health, and I’m sure in her case, too. I don’t expect you to share all my suspicions, although you do make such a grand claim of doing so, but I’m honestly telling you what they are.”
“And, upon my word, they have an air of great probability. Mr. Dixon’s preference of her music to her friend’s, I can answer for being very decided.”
"And, I swear, they seem very likely. I can assure you that Mr. Dixon definitely prefers her music over her friend's."
“And then, he saved her life. Did you ever hear of that?—A water party; and by some accident she was falling overboard. He caught her.”
“And then, he saved her life. Have you heard about that?—It was a party on the water, and by some accident, she was falling overboard. He caught her.”
“He did. I was there—one of the party.”
“He did. I was there—part of the group.”
“Were you really?—Well!—But you observed nothing of course, for it seems to be a new idea to you.—If I had been there, I think I should have made some discoveries.”
“Were you really?—Well!—But you didn’t notice anything, of course, since this seems like a new idea to you.—If I had been there, I think I would have figured some things out.”
“I dare say you would; but I, simple I, saw nothing but the fact, that Miss Fairfax was nearly dashed from the vessel and that Mr. Dixon caught her.—It was the work of a moment. And though the consequent shock and alarm was very great and much more durable—indeed I believe it was half an hour before any of us were comfortable again—yet that was too general a sensation for any thing of peculiar anxiety to be observable. I do not mean to say, however, that you might not have made discoveries.”
“I would say you might; but I, in my simplicity, saw nothing but the fact that Miss Fairfax was almost thrown from the ship and that Mr. Dixon caught her. It happened in an instant. Although the resulting shock and alarm were significant and lasted much longer—actually, I think it took about half an hour before any of us felt comfortable again—those feelings were too widespread for any specific anxiety to be noticeable. However, I do not mean to say that you couldn’t have made some observations.”
The conversation was here interrupted. They were called on to share in the awkwardness of a rather long interval between the courses, and obliged to be as formal and as orderly as the others; but when the table was again safely covered, when every corner dish was placed exactly right, and occupation and ease were generally restored, Emma said,
The conversation was interrupted here. They were asked to join in the awkwardness of a rather long break between the courses and had to be as formal and organized as everyone else; but when the table was once again properly set, when every dish was positioned just right, and a sense of comfort and ease returned, Emma said,
“The arrival of this pianoforte is decisive with me. I wanted to know a little more, and this tells me quite enough. Depend upon it, we shall soon hear that it is a present from Mr. and Mrs. Dixon.”
“The arrival of this piano is a game-changer for me. I wanted to find out a bit more, and this gives me plenty of information. You can count on it; we’ll soon learn that it’s a gift from Mr. and Mrs. Dixon.”
“And if the Dixons should absolutely deny all knowledge of it we must conclude it to come from the Campbells.”
“And if the Dixons completely deny knowing anything about it, we have to assume it comes from the Campbells.”
“No, I am sure it is not from the Campbells. Miss Fairfax knows it is not from the Campbells, or they would have been guessed at first. She would not have been puzzled, had she dared fix on them. I may not have convinced you perhaps, but I am perfectly convinced myself that Mr. Dixon is a principal in the business.”
“No, I’m sure it’s not from the Campbells. Miss Fairfax knows it’s not from the Campbells, or they would have been the first ones guessed. She wouldn’t have been confused if she had dared to point them out. I might not have convinced you, but I’m absolutely convinced myself that Mr. Dixon is a key player in this.”
“Indeed you injure me if you suppose me unconvinced. Your reasonings carry my judgment along with them entirely. At first, while I supposed you satisfied that Colonel Campbell was the giver, I saw it only as paternal kindness, and thought it the most natural thing in the world. But when you mentioned Mrs. Dixon, I felt how much more probable that it should be the tribute of warm female friendship. And now I can see it in no other light than as an offering of love.”
“Honestly, you hurt me if you think I’m not convinced. Your arguments completely sway my opinion. At first, when I thought you believed Colonel Campbell was the one giving, I saw it as just a fatherly gesture and thought it was the most natural thing ever. But when you brought up Mrs. Dixon, I realized how much more likely it is that it was a gesture of close friendship. Now I only see it as an act of love.”
There was no occasion to press the matter farther. The conviction seemed real; he looked as if he felt it. She said no more, other subjects took their turn; and the rest of the dinner passed away; the dessert succeeded, the children came in, and were talked to and admired amid the usual rate of conversation; a few clever things said, a few downright silly, but by much the larger proportion neither the one nor the other—nothing worse than everyday remarks, dull repetitions, old news, and heavy jokes.
There was no reason to push the issue any further. The belief seemed genuine; he looked like he really felt it. She didn't say anything more; other topics came up, and the rest of dinner went by. Dessert was served, the kids came in, and everyone chatted and praised them amidst the usual flow of conversation; a few smart comments were made, a few really silly ones, but mostly it was just average—nothing worse than everyday remarks, dull repeats, old news, and lame jokes.
The ladies had not been long in the drawing-room, before the other ladies, in their different divisions, arrived. Emma watched the entree of her own particular little friend; and if she could not exult in her dignity and grace, she could not only love the blooming sweetness and the artless manner, but could most heartily rejoice in that light, cheerful, unsentimental disposition which allowed her so many alleviations of pleasure, in the midst of the pangs of disappointed affection. There she sat—and who would have guessed how many tears she had been lately shedding? To be in company, nicely dressed herself and seeing others nicely dressed, to sit and smile and look pretty, and say nothing, was enough for the happiness of the present hour. Jane Fairfax did look and move superior; but Emma suspected she might have been glad to change feelings with Harriet, very glad to have purchased the mortification of having loved—yes, of having loved even Mr. Elton in vain—by the surrender of all the dangerous pleasure of knowing herself beloved by the husband of her friend.
The ladies hadn't been in the drawing room for long before the other women arrived in their different groups. Emma watched as her own dear little friend entered, and while she couldn't revel in her dignity and grace, she absolutely adored her blooming sweetness and natural charm. She genuinely rejoiced in the light-hearted, cheerful, and practical attitude that brought her so much joy despite the heartache of unrequited love. There she sat—and who would have guessed how many tears she'd recently shed? Being among company, dressed nicely herself and surrounded by others who looked great, sitting quietly and smiling, was all she needed to feel happy in that moment. Jane Fairfax appeared elegant and graceful, but Emma suspected she would have been happy to trade feelings with Harriet—very happy to have exchanged the pain of loving—yes, even loving Mr. Elton in vain—for the risk of knowing she was loved by her friend’s husband.
In so large a party it was not necessary that Emma should approach her. She did not wish to speak of the pianoforte, she felt too much in the secret herself, to think the appearance of curiosity or interest fair, and therefore purposely kept at a distance; but by the others, the subject was almost immediately introduced, and she saw the blush of consciousness with which congratulations were received, the blush of guilt which accompanied the name of “my excellent friend Colonel Campbell.”
In such a large group, Emma didn't need to go up to her. She didn’t want to talk about the piano—it felt too personal for her to pretend to be curious or interested, so she purposely stayed away. However, the others brought it up right away, and she noticed the blush of awareness that came with their congratulations, as well as the guilty flush that appeared whenever someone mentioned “my wonderful friend Colonel Campbell.”
Mrs. Weston, kind-hearted and musical, was particularly interested by the circumstance, and Emma could not help being amused at her perseverance in dwelling on the subject; and having so much to ask and to say as to tone, touch, and pedal, totally unsuspicious of that wish of saying as little about it as possible, which she plainly read in the fair heroine’s countenance.
Mrs. Weston, warm-hearted and into music, was especially intrigued by the situation, and Emma couldn't help but be entertained by her determination to focus on it; she had so many questions and comments about tone, touch, and pedal, completely unaware of the desire to say as little about it as possible, which Emma could clearly see on the lovely heroine's face.
They were soon joined by some of the gentlemen; and the very first of the early was Frank Churchill. In he walked, the first and the handsomest; and after paying his compliments en passant to Miss Bates and her niece, made his way directly to the opposite side of the circle, where sat Miss Woodhouse; and till he could find a seat by her, would not sit at all. Emma divined what every body present must be thinking. She was his object, and every body must perceive it. She introduced him to her friend, Miss Smith, and, at convenient moments afterwards, heard what each thought of the other. “He had never seen so lovely a face, and was delighted with her naïveté.” And she, “Only to be sure it was paying him too great a compliment, but she did think there were some looks a little like Mr. Elton.” Emma restrained her indignation, and only turned from her in silence.
They were soon joined by some of the gentlemen, and the very first to arrive was Frank Churchill. He walked in, looking the best and most charming; and after briefly acknowledging Miss Bates and her niece, he made his way directly to the opposite side of the circle, where Miss Woodhouse was sitting. He wouldn't take a seat until he could sit next to her. Emma could tell what everyone in the room was thinking. She was his focus, and everyone must have noticed it. She introduced him to her friend, Miss Smith, and at the right moments afterward, she found out what each of them thought about the other. “He had never seen such a lovely face and was thrilled with her innocence.” And she said, “Only to be sure it was giving him too much credit, but she did think there were some features a little like Mr. Elton.” Emma held back her frustration and quietly turned away from her.
Smiles of intelligence passed between her and the gentleman on first glancing towards Miss Fairfax; but it was most prudent to avoid speech. He told her that he had been impatient to leave the dining-room—hated sitting long—was always the first to move when he could—that his father, Mr. Knightley, Mr. Cox, and Mr. Cole, were left very busy over parish business—that as long as he had staid, however, it had been pleasant enough, as he had found them in general a set of gentlemanlike, sensible men; and spoke so handsomely of Highbury altogether—thought it so abundant in agreeable families—that Emma began to feel she had been used to despise the place rather too much. She questioned him as to the society in Yorkshire—the extent of the neighbourhood about Enscombe, and the sort; and could make out from his answers that, as far as Enscombe was concerned, there was very little going on, that their visitings were among a range of great families, none very near; and that even when days were fixed, and invitations accepted, it was an even chance that Mrs. Churchill were not in health and spirits for going; that they made a point of visiting no fresh person; and that, though he had his separate engagements, it was not without difficulty, without considerable address at times, that he could get away, or introduce an acquaintance for a night.
Intelligent smiles exchanged between her and the gentleman when they first glanced at Miss Fairfax; but it was wiser to stay silent. He mentioned that he had been eager to leave the dining room—disliked sitting for too long—always preferred to be the first to go when he could. He noted that his father, Mr. Knightley, Mr. Cox, and Mr. Cole were all busy with parish matters. However, he found it enjoyable enough while he was there, describing them as generally gentlemanly and sensible men. He spoke positively about Highbury overall, thinking it had a wealth of agreeable families, which made Emma realize she had perhaps looked down on the place a bit too much. She asked him about the social scene in Yorkshire—the layout of the neighborhood around Enscombe and the like; from his responses, she gathered that, relating to Enscombe, there wasn't much happening, that their visits were mostly among a few prominent families, none very close by. Even when dates were set and invitations were accepted, it was a toss-up whether Mrs. Churchill would be well enough to go, as they were determined not to visit anyone new. He also mentioned that even though he had his own commitments, it was often challenging, requiring a good deal of effort at times, for him to get away or introduce a friend for an evening.
She saw that Enscombe could not satisfy, and that Highbury, taken at its best, might reasonably please a young man who had more retirement at home than he liked. His importance at Enscombe was very evident. He did not boast, but it naturally betrayed itself, that he had persuaded his aunt where his uncle could do nothing, and on her laughing and noticing it, he owned that he believed (excepting one or two points) he could with time persuade her to any thing. One of those points on which his influence failed, he then mentioned. He had wanted very much to go abroad—had been very eager indeed to be allowed to travel—but she would not hear of it. This had happened the year before. Now, he said, he was beginning to have no longer the same wish.
She realized that Enscombe couldn't truly satisfy him, and that Highbury, at its best, might reasonably please a young man who preferred more solitude at home than he cared to admit. His importance at Enscombe was clear. He didn't brag, but it was obvious that he had convinced his aunt when his uncle couldn't, and when she laughed and pointed it out, he admitted that he believed (with a couple of exceptions) he could eventually persuade her to do anything. He then mentioned one of those exceptions where his influence didn’t work. He had really wanted to go abroad—he had been quite eager to travel—but she wouldn’t allow it. That had happened the year before. "Now," he said, "I'm starting to lose that same desire."
The unpersuadable point, which he did not mention, Emma guessed to be good behaviour to his father.
The point he wouldn't budge on, which he didn't bring up, Emma figured was about being well-behaved with his dad.
“I have made a most wretched discovery,” said he, after a short pause.— “I have been here a week to-morrow—half my time. I never knew days fly so fast. A week to-morrow!—And I have hardly begun to enjoy myself. But just got acquainted with Mrs. Weston, and others!—I hate the recollection.”
“I’ve made a really terrible discovery,” he said, after a brief pause. “I’ve been here for a week tomorrow—half my time. I’ve never seen days go by so quickly. A week tomorrow!—And I’ve hardly started to enjoy myself. I just got to know Mrs. Weston and the others!—I can’t stand thinking about it.”
“Perhaps you may now begin to regret that you spent one whole day, out of so few, in having your hair cut.”
“Maybe you're starting to regret that you spent an entire day, out of so few, getting your hair cut.”
“No,” said he, smiling, “that is no subject of regret at all. I have no pleasure in seeing my friends, unless I can believe myself fit to be seen.”
“No,” he said with a smile, “that’s not something to regret at all. I don’t enjoy seeing my friends unless I feel like I’m good enough to be seen.”
The rest of the gentlemen being now in the room, Emma found herself obliged to turn from him for a few minutes, and listen to Mr. Cole. When Mr. Cole had moved away, and her attention could be restored as before, she saw Frank Churchill looking intently across the room at Miss Fairfax, who was sitting exactly opposite.
The rest of the gentlemen were now in the room, and Emma realized she had to turn away from him for a few minutes to listen to Mr. Cole. Once Mr. Cole moved away and she could focus again, she noticed Frank Churchill staring intently across the room at Miss Fairfax, who was sitting directly opposite her.
“What is the matter?” said she.
"What's wrong?" she asked.
He started. “Thank you for rousing me,” he replied. “I believe I have been very rude; but really Miss Fairfax has done her hair in so odd a way—so very odd a way—that I cannot keep my eyes from her. I never saw any thing so outrée!—Those curls!—This must be a fancy of her own. I see nobody else looking like her!—I must go and ask her whether it is an Irish fashion. Shall I?—Yes, I will—I declare I will—and you shall see how she takes it;—whether she colours.”
He started. “Thanks for waking me up,” he replied. “I realize I've been quite rude; but honestly, Miss Fairfax has styled her hair in such a strange way—so very strange—that I can't take my eyes off her. I've never seen anything so outrageous!—Those curls!—This must be her own thing. I don't see anyone else looking like her!—I should go ask her if it’s an Irish trend. Should I?—Yeah, I will—I swear I will—and you’ll see how she reacts;—whether she blushes.”
He was gone immediately; and Emma soon saw him standing before Miss Fairfax, and talking to her; but as to its effect on the young lady, as he had improvidently placed himself exactly between them, exactly in front of Miss Fairfax, she could absolutely distinguish nothing.
He left right away, and Emma soon spotted him talking to Miss Fairfax. However, since he had carelessly positioned himself directly between them, right in front of Miss Fairfax, she couldn’t make out how it affected the young lady at all.
Before he could return to his chair, it was taken by Mrs. Weston.
Before he could go back to his chair, Mrs. Weston took it.
“This is the luxury of a large party,” said she:—“one can get near every body, and say every thing. My dear Emma, I am longing to talk to you. I have been making discoveries and forming plans, just like yourself, and I must tell them while the idea is fresh. Do you know how Miss Bates and her niece came here?”
“This is the advantage of a big party,” she said. “You can get close to everyone and say anything. My dear Emma, I can’t wait to talk to you. I’ve been making discoveries and coming up with plans, just like you, and I need to share them while the idea is still fresh. Do you know how Miss Bates and her niece ended up here?”
“How?—They were invited, were not they?”
“How? They were invited, weren’t they?”
“Oh! yes—but how they were conveyed hither?—the manner of their coming?”
“Oh! yes—but how did they get here? What brought them?”
“They walked, I conclude. How else could they come?”
“They walked, I guess. How else could they have arrived?”
“Very true.—Well, a little while ago it occurred to me how very sad it would be to have Jane Fairfax walking home again, late at night, and cold as the nights are now. And as I looked at her, though I never saw her appear to more advantage, it struck me that she was heated, and would therefore be particularly liable to take cold. Poor girl! I could not bear the idea of it; so, as soon as Mr. Weston came into the room, and I could get at him, I spoke to him about the carriage. You may guess how readily he came into my wishes; and having his approbation, I made my way directly to Miss Bates, to assure her that the carriage would be at her service before it took us home; for I thought it would be making her comfortable at once. Good soul! she was as grateful as possible, you may be sure. ‘Nobody was ever so fortunate as herself!’—but with many, many thanks—‘there was no occasion to trouble us, for Mr. Knightley’s carriage had brought, and was to take them home again.’ I was quite surprized;—very glad, I am sure; but really quite surprized. Such a very kind attention—and so thoughtful an attention!—the sort of thing that so few men would think of. And, in short, from knowing his usual ways, I am very much inclined to think that it was for their accommodation the carriage was used at all. I do suspect he would not have had a pair of horses for himself, and that it was only as an excuse for assisting them.”
“Very true.—Well, not long ago, it struck me how sad it would be for Jane Fairfax to be walking home alone late at night, especially in this cold weather. And as I looked at her, even though she never looked better, it hit me that she was warmed up and might be especially prone to getting sick. Poor girl! I couldn’t stand the thought of that, so as soon as Mr. Weston came into the room and I had a chance to talk to him, I mentioned the carriage. You can imagine how quickly he agreed to my wishes; and having his approval, I went straight to Miss Bates to let her know that the carriage would be ready for her before taking us home. I thought it would make her feel comfortable right away. Good soul! She was incredibly grateful, as you can imagine. ‘Nobody was ever as lucky as I am!’—but with many, many thanks—‘there’s no need to trouble you, since Mr. Knightley’s carriage brought us and will take us home again.’ I was quite surprised;—very glad, of course; but genuinely quite surprised. Such a kind and thoughtful gesture!—the kind of thing that so few men would consider. In short, knowing his usual ways, I strongly suspect that the carriage was used just for their convenience. I don't think he would have taken the horses for himself, and it was likely just an excuse to help them out.”
“Very likely,” said Emma—“nothing more likely. I know no man more likely than Mr. Knightley to do the sort of thing—to do any thing really good-natured, useful, considerate, or benevolent. He is not a gallant man, but he is a very humane one; and this, considering Jane Fairfax’s ill-health, would appear a case of humanity to him;—and for an act of unostentatious kindness, there is nobody whom I would fix on more than on Mr. Knightley. I know he had horses to-day—for we arrived together; and I laughed at him about it, but he said not a word that could betray.”
“Very likely,” said Emma—“nothing is more likely. I can’t think of anyone more likely than Mr. Knightley to do something kind, useful, thoughtful, or generous. He’s not a flashy guy, but he’s really compassionate; and given Jane Fairfax’s poor health, this would seem like something humane to him. For a quiet act of kindness, there’s no one I’d pick over Mr. Knightley. I know he had horses today—since we arrived together; I teased him about it, but he didn’t say a word that would give it away.”
“Well,” said Mrs. Weston, smiling, “you give him credit for more simple, disinterested benevolence in this instance than I do; for while Miss Bates was speaking, a suspicion darted into my head, and I have never been able to get it out again. The more I think of it, the more probable it appears. In short, I have made a match between Mr. Knightley and Jane Fairfax. See the consequence of keeping you company!—What do you say to it?”
“Well,” said Mrs. Weston, smiling, “you give him more credit for being genuinely nice in this case than I do; because while Miss Bates was talking, a suspicion crossed my mind, and I haven't been able to shake it off. The more I think about it, the more likely it seems. In short, I think Mr. Knightley and Jane Fairfax are a match. See what happens when I spend time with you!—What do you think?”
“Mr. Knightley and Jane Fairfax!” exclaimed Emma. “Dear Mrs. Weston, how could you think of such a thing?—Mr. Knightley!—Mr. Knightley must not marry!—You would not have little Henry cut out from Donwell?—Oh! no, no, Henry must have Donwell. I cannot at all consent to Mr. Knightley’s marrying; and I am sure it is not at all likely. I am amazed that you should think of such a thing.”
“Mr. Knightley and Jane Fairfax!” Emma exclaimed. “Dear Mrs. Weston, how could you even consider that?—Mr. Knightley!—Mr. Knightley must not get married!—You wouldn’t want little Henry to be cut out from Donwell, right?—Oh, no, no, Henry must have Donwell. I absolutely can’t agree to Mr. Knightley marrying; and I’m sure it’s not even likely to happen. I’m shocked that you would think of such a thing.”
“My dear Emma, I have told you what led me to think of it. I do not want the match—I do not want to injure dear little Henry—but the idea has been given me by circumstances; and if Mr. Knightley really wished to marry, you would not have him refrain on Henry’s account, a boy of six years old, who knows nothing of the matter?”
“My dear Emma, I’ve explained what made me consider it. I don’t want the match—I don’t want to hurt dear little Henry—but the thought has come to me due to the situation; and if Mr. Knightley genuinely wanted to marry, you wouldn’t ask him to hold back for Henry, a six-year-old boy who knows nothing about it, would you?”
“Yes, I would. I could not bear to have Henry supplanted.—Mr. Knightley marry!—No, I have never had such an idea, and I cannot adopt it now. And Jane Fairfax, too, of all women!”
“Yes, I would. I couldn't stand the thought of Henry being replaced.—Mr. Knightley getting married!—No, I’ve never thought of that, and I can't consider it now. And Jane Fairfax, too, of all people!”
“Nay, she has always been a first favourite with him, as you very well know.”
“Nah, she's always been his favorite, as you know very well.”
“But the imprudence of such a match!”
“But the recklessness of such a relationship!”
“I am not speaking of its prudence; merely its probability.”
“I’m not talking about its caution; just its likelihood.”
“I see no probability in it, unless you have any better foundation than what you mention. His good-nature, his humanity, as I tell you, would be quite enough to account for the horses. He has a great regard for the Bateses, you know, independent of Jane Fairfax—and is always glad to shew them attention. My dear Mrs. Weston, do not take to match-making. You do it very ill. Jane Fairfax mistress of the Abbey!—Oh! no, no;—every feeling revolts. For his own sake, I would not have him do so mad a thing.”
“I see no chance of that happening, unless you have a better reason than what you've mentioned. His kindness and humanity, as I told you, would be enough to explain the horses. He has a lot of respect for the Bateses, you know, apart from Jane Fairfax—and he’s always happy to show them kindness. My dear Mrs. Weston, please don’t start playing matchmaker. You’re really not good at it. Jane Fairfax as mistress of the Abbey!—Oh no, no; every instinct rebels against that. For his own sake, I wouldn’t want him to do something so crazy.”
“Imprudent, if you please—but not mad. Excepting inequality of fortune, and perhaps a little disparity of age, I can see nothing unsuitable.”
"Careless, if you want to call it that—but not crazy. Aside from the difference in wealth and maybe a slight age gap, I don't see anything inappropriate."
“But Mr. Knightley does not want to marry. I am sure he has not the least idea of it. Do not put it into his head. Why should he marry?—He is as happy as possible by himself; with his farm, and his sheep, and his library, and all the parish to manage; and he is extremely fond of his brother’s children. He has no occasion to marry, either to fill up his time or his heart.”
“But Mr. Knightley doesn’t want to get married. I’m sure he hasn’t even thought about it. Don’t suggest it to him. Why should he marry? He’s as happy as can be on his own; with his farm, his sheep, his library, and all the parish to take care of; and he really loves his brother’s kids. He has no need to marry, either to occupy his time or to find fulfillment.”
“My dear Emma, as long as he thinks so, it is so; but if he really loves Jane Fairfax—”
“My dear Emma, as long as he believes that, it’s true; but if he really loves Jane Fairfax—”
“Nonsense! He does not care about Jane Fairfax. In the way of love, I am sure he does not. He would do any good to her, or her family; but—”
“Nonsense! He doesn’t care about Jane Fairfax. When it comes to love, I’m sure he doesn’t. He would do anything good for her or her family; but—”
“Well,” said Mrs. Weston, laughing, “perhaps the greatest good he could do them, would be to give Jane such a respectable home.”
“Well,” said Mrs. Weston, laughing, “maybe the best thing he could do for them would be to give Jane a nice, respectable home.”
“If it would be good to her, I am sure it would be evil to himself; a very shameful and degrading connexion. How would he bear to have Miss Bates belonging to him?—To have her haunting the Abbey, and thanking him all day long for his great kindness in marrying Jane?—‘So very kind and obliging!—But he always had been such a very kind neighbour!’ And then fly off, through half a sentence, to her mother’s old petticoat. ‘Not that it was such a very old petticoat either—for still it would last a great while—and, indeed, she must thankfully say that their petticoats were all very strong.’”
“If it would be good for her, I’m sure it would be terrible for him; a truly shameful and degrading connection. How would he manage having Miss Bates attached to him?—Having her hanging around the Abbey, thanking him all day for his immense kindness in marrying Jane?—‘So incredibly kind and helpful!—But he always has been such a wonderful neighbor!’ And then she’d suddenly shift, mid-sentence, to her mother’s old petticoat. ‘Not that it was such an old petticoat either—because it would still last a long time—and honestly, she has to say with gratitude that their petticoats are all very sturdy.’”
“For shame, Emma! Do not mimic her. You divert me against my conscience. And, upon my word, I do not think Mr. Knightley would be much disturbed by Miss Bates. Little things do not irritate him. She might talk on; and if he wanted to say any thing himself, he would only talk louder, and drown her voice. But the question is not, whether it would be a bad connexion for him, but whether he wishes it; and I think he does. I have heard him speak, and so must you, so very highly of Jane Fairfax! The interest he takes in her—his anxiety about her health—his concern that she should have no happier prospect! I have heard him express himself so warmly on those points!—Such an admirer of her performance on the pianoforte, and of her voice! I have heard him say that he could listen to her for ever. Oh! and I had almost forgotten one idea that occurred to me—this pianoforte that has been sent here by somebody—though we have all been so well satisfied to consider it a present from the Campbells, may it not be from Mr. Knightley? I cannot help suspecting him. I think he is just the person to do it, even without being in love.”
“For shame, Emma! Don’t imitate her. You're making me go against my better judgment. Honestly, I don’t think Mr. Knightley would be bothered much by Miss Bates. Little things don’t annoy him. She could keep talking, and if he wanted to say anything, he would just speak louder to drown her out. But the real question isn’t whether it would be a bad match for him, but whether he actually wants it; and I believe he does. I’ve heard him talk, and you must have too, very highly of Jane Fairfax! The interest he shows in her—his worries about her health—his concern that she has no better prospects! I’ve heard him express himself so passionately on those topics! He’s such a fan of her playing on the piano and her singing! I’ve even heard him say that he could listen to her forever. Oh! And I almost forgot an idea that popped into my head—this piano that has been sent here by someone—even though we’ve all been so happy to think of it as a gift from the Campbells, could it possibly be from Mr. Knightley? I can’t help but suspect him. I think he’s exactly the kind of person who would do that, even without being in love.”
“Then it can be no argument to prove that he is in love. But I do not think it is at all a likely thing for him to do. Mr. Knightley does nothing mysteriously.”
“Then there’s no reason to believe that he is in love. But I really don’t think he would do that at all. Mr. Knightley doesn’t act in mysterious ways.”
“I have heard him lamenting her having no instrument repeatedly; oftener than I should suppose such a circumstance would, in the common course of things, occur to him.”
“I have heard him complaining about her not having an instrument over and over again; more often than I would expect that kind of situation to come up for him.”
“Very well; and if he had intended to give her one, he would have told her so.”
“Sure; and if he had meant to give her one, he would have said so.”
“There might be scruples of delicacy, my dear Emma. I have a very strong notion that it comes from him. I am sure he was particularly silent when Mrs. Cole told us of it at dinner.”
“There might be some concerns about being sensitive, my dear Emma. I have a strong feeling that it comes from him. I’m sure he was especially quiet when Mrs. Cole mentioned it at dinner.”
“You take up an idea, Mrs. Weston, and run away with it; as you have many a time reproached me with doing. I see no sign of attachment—I believe nothing of the pianoforte—and proof only shall convince me that Mr. Knightley has any thought of marrying Jane Fairfax.”
“You grab onto an idea, Mrs. Weston, and run with it, just like you’ve often accused me of doing. I see no sign of attachment—I don’t believe anything about the piano—and only proof will convince me that Mr. Knightley has any intention of marrying Jane Fairfax.”
They combated the point some time longer in the same way; Emma rather gaining ground over the mind of her friend; for Mrs. Weston was the most used of the two to yield; till a little bustle in the room shewed them that tea was over, and the instrument in preparation;—and at the same moment Mr. Cole approaching to entreat Miss Woodhouse would do them the honour of trying it. Frank Churchill, of whom, in the eagerness of her conversation with Mrs. Weston, she had been seeing nothing, except that he had found a seat by Miss Fairfax, followed Mr. Cole, to add his very pressing entreaties; and as, in every respect, it suited Emma best to lead, she gave a very proper compliance.
They talked about the topic a bit longer the same way; Emma was starting to win over her friend’s thoughts; since Mrs. Weston was the more inclined of the two to give in; until a little commotion in the room indicated that tea had ended, and the music was about to begin;—and at that moment Mr. Cole came over to ask Miss Woodhouse if she would honor them by trying it. Frank Churchill, whom she had hardly noticed during her enthusiastic conversation with Mrs. Weston, except that he had sat next to Miss Fairfax, followed Mr. Cole to add his urgent requests; and since it worked out best for Emma to take the lead, she agreed in a very appropriate manner.
She knew the limitations of her own powers too well to attempt more than she could perform with credit; she wanted neither taste nor spirit in the little things which are generally acceptable, and could accompany her own voice well. One accompaniment to her song took her agreeably by surprize—a second, slightly but correctly taken by Frank Churchill. Her pardon was duly begged at the close of the song, and every thing usual followed. He was accused of having a delightful voice, and a perfect knowledge of music; which was properly denied; and that he knew nothing of the matter, and had no voice at all, roundly asserted. They sang together once more; and Emma would then resign her place to Miss Fairfax, whose performance, both vocal and instrumental, she never could attempt to conceal from herself, was infinitely superior to her own.
She was well aware of her own limits, so she only tried what she could do well; she didn’t need to impress anyone with the little things that are usually appreciated and that could blend nicely with her own voice. One surprise moment during her song was when Frank Churchill harmonized with her, and it was just right. At the end of the song, he was asked for forgiveness, and everything usual followed. People complimented him on his lovely voice and great knowledge of music, which he modestly denied, asserting that he didn’t know much about music and had no voice at all. They sang together again, and then Emma stepped aside for Miss Fairfax, whose singing and playing were, she couldn’t help but admit, far better than her own.
With mixed feelings, she seated herself at a little distance from the numbers round the instrument, to listen. Frank Churchill sang again. They had sung together once or twice, it appeared, at Weymouth. But the sight of Mr. Knightley among the most attentive, soon drew away half Emma’s mind; and she fell into a train of thinking on the subject of Mrs. Weston’s suspicions, to which the sweet sounds of the united voices gave only momentary interruptions. Her objections to Mr. Knightley’s marrying did not in the least subside. She could see nothing but evil in it. It would be a great disappointment to Mr. John Knightley; consequently to Isabella. A real injury to the children—a most mortifying change, and material loss to them all;—a very great deduction from her father’s daily comfort—and, as to herself, she could not at all endure the idea of Jane Fairfax at Donwell Abbey. A Mrs. Knightley for them all to give way to!—No—Mr. Knightley must never marry. Little Henry must remain the heir of Donwell.
With mixed feelings, she sat a little distance away from the group around the instrument to listen. Frank Churchill sang again. They had sung together once or twice, it seemed, at Weymouth. But seeing Mr. Knightley among the most attentive soon distracted half of Emma’s mind, and she began to think about Mrs. Weston’s suspicions, interrupted only momentarily by the sweet sounds of their combined voices. Her objections to Mr. Knightley marrying did not diminish at all. She could see nothing but trouble in it. It would greatly disappoint Mr. John Knightley and, consequently, Isabella. It would be a real hardship for the children—a very upsetting change and significant loss for all of them; a considerable reduction in her father’s daily comfort—and as for herself, she could not stand the idea of Jane Fairfax at Donwell Abbey. A Mrs. Knightley for them all to accommodate!—No—Mr. Knightley must never marry. Little Henry must remain the heir of Donwell.
Presently Mr. Knightley looked back, and came and sat down by her. They talked at first only of the performance. His admiration was certainly very warm; yet she thought, but for Mrs. Weston, it would not have struck her. As a sort of touchstone, however, she began to speak of his kindness in conveying the aunt and niece; and though his answer was in the spirit of cutting the matter short, she believed it to indicate only his disinclination to dwell on any kindness of his own.
Currently, Mr. Knightley looked back, walked over, and sat down beside her. At first, they only discussed the performance. His admiration was definitely strong; still, she thought that if it weren't for Mrs. Weston, it wouldn't have occurred to her. As a way to bring it up, she started to mention his kindness in taking the aunt and niece home, and even though his response seemed to brush off the topic, she believed it showed just his reluctance to focus on any kindness of his own.
“I often feel concern,” said she, “that I dare not make our carriage more useful on such occasions. It is not that I am without the wish; but you know how impossible my father would deem it that James should put-to for such a purpose.”
“I often worry,” she said, “that I can't make our carriage more useful on these occasions. It's not that I don't want to; but you know how impossible my father would think it is for James to harness it for that purpose.”
“Quite out of the question, quite out of the question,” he replied;—“but you must often wish it, I am sure.” And he smiled with such seeming pleasure at the conviction, that she must proceed another step.
“Absolutely not, absolutely not,” he replied;—“but I’m sure you often wish it.” And he smiled with such apparent delight at the idea that she felt she had to take another step forward.
“This present from the Campbells,” said she—“this pianoforte is very kindly given.”
“This gift from the Campbells,” she said, “this piano is very generously given.”
“Yes,” he replied, and without the smallest apparent embarrassment.—“But they would have done better had they given her notice of it. Surprizes are foolish things. The pleasure is not enhanced, and the inconvenience is often considerable. I should have expected better judgment in Colonel Campbell.”
“Yeah,” he said, without showing any sign of embarrassment. “But they would have done better if they had given her a heads-up. Surprises are silly. The enjoyment doesn’t increase, and the hassle can be pretty significant. I would have expected better judgment from Colonel Campbell.”
From that moment, Emma could have taken her oath that Mr. Knightley had had no concern in giving the instrument. But whether he were entirely free from peculiar attachment—whether there were no actual preference—remained a little longer doubtful. Towards the end of Jane’s second song, her voice grew thick.
From that moment, Emma could have sworn that Mr. Knightley had nothing to do with giving the instrument. But whether he was completely free from a special attachment—whether there was no real preference—remained uncertain for a little while longer. Towards the end of Jane’s second song, her voice became thick.
“That will do,” said he, when it was finished, thinking aloud—“you have sung quite enough for one evening—now be quiet.”
“That’s enough,” he said when it was done, thinking out loud—“you’ve sung enough for one evening—now be quiet.”
Another song, however, was soon begged for. “One more;—they would not fatigue Miss Fairfax on any account, and would only ask for one more.” And Frank Churchill was heard to say, “I think you could manage this without effort; the first part is so very trifling. The strength of the song falls on the second.”
Another song, however, was soon requested. “One more; they definitely wouldn’t tire Miss Fairfax out, and they’d only ask for one more.” And Frank Churchill was heard to say, “I think you could handle this easily; the first part is really simple. The emotional weight of the song is in the second part.”
Mr. Knightley grew angry.
Mr. Knightley got angry.
“That fellow,” said he, indignantly, “thinks of nothing but shewing off his own voice. This must not be.” And touching Miss Bates, who at that moment passed near—“Miss Bates, are you mad, to let your niece sing herself hoarse in this manner? Go, and interfere. They have no mercy on her.”
“That guy,” he said, annoyed, “only thinks about showing off his own voice. This can’t happen.” And touching Miss Bates, who happened to pass by—“Miss Bates, are you crazy to let your niece sing herself hoarse like this? Go and do something about it. They have no mercy on her.”
Miss Bates, in her real anxiety for Jane, could hardly stay even to be grateful, before she stept forward and put an end to all farther singing. Here ceased the concert part of the evening, for Miss Woodhouse and Miss Fairfax were the only young lady performers; but soon (within five minutes) the proposal of dancing—originating nobody exactly knew where—was so effectually promoted by Mr. and Mrs. Cole, that every thing was rapidly clearing away, to give proper space. Mrs. Weston, capital in her country-dances, was seated, and beginning an irresistible waltz; and Frank Churchill, coming up with most becoming gallantry to Emma, had secured her hand, and led her up to the top.
Miss Bates, genuinely worried about Jane, could barely hold back her gratitude before she stepped in to stop any more singing. That marked the end of the concert portion of the evening since Miss Woodhouse and Miss Fairfax were the only young women performing. But soon (within five minutes), the idea of dancing—though no one knew exactly who started it—was enthusiastically pushed by Mr. and Mrs. Cole, and everything was quickly being moved to make space. Mrs. Weston, excellent at country dances, was seated and starting an irresistible waltz, and Frank Churchill approached Emma with charming gallantry, took her hand, and led her to the front.
While waiting till the other young people could pair themselves off, Emma found time, in spite of the compliments she was receiving on her voice and her taste, to look about, and see what became of Mr. Knightley. This would be a trial. He was no dancer in general. If he were to be very alert in engaging Jane Fairfax now, it might augur something. There was no immediate appearance. No; he was talking to Mrs. Cole—he was looking on unconcerned; Jane was asked by somebody else, and he was still talking to Mrs. Cole.
While waiting for the other young people to pair off, Emma used the time, despite the compliments she was getting about her voice and taste, to look around and see what Mr. Knightley was doing. This would be a test. He generally wasn't much of a dancer. If he were quick to engage Jane Fairfax now, it might mean something. There was no sign of him right away. No; he was talking to Mrs. Cole—he seemed unconcerned; someone else asked Jane to dance, and he was still chatting with Mrs. Cole.
Emma had no longer an alarm for Henry; his interest was yet safe; and she led off the dance with genuine spirit and enjoyment. Not more than five couple could be mustered; but the rarity and the suddenness of it made it very delightful, and she found herself well matched in a partner. They were a couple worth looking at.
Emma no longer felt anxious about Henry; he was still interested, and she started the dance with genuine energy and joy. There were only five couples, but the rarity and spontaneity made it really enjoyable, and she found herself perfectly matched with her partner. They were a couple worth noticing.
Two dances, unfortunately, were all that could be allowed. It was growing late, and Miss Bates became anxious to get home, on her mother’s account. After some attempts, therefore, to be permitted to begin again, they were obliged to thank Mrs. Weston, look sorrowful, and have done.
Two dances were all that could be managed, unfortunately. It was getting late, and Miss Bates was eager to head home for her mother's sake. After a few tries to start again, they had to thank Mrs. Weston, look disappointed, and wrap it up.
“Perhaps it is as well,” said Frank Churchill, as he attended Emma to her carriage. “I must have asked Miss Fairfax, and her languid dancing would not have agreed with me, after yours.”
“Maybe it’s for the best,” said Frank Churchill, as he helped Emma into her carriage. “I would have asked Miss Fairfax to dance, but her slow dancing wouldn’t have suited me after yours.”
CHAPTER IX
Emma did not repent her condescension in going to the Coles. The visit afforded her many pleasant recollections the next day; and all that she might be supposed to have lost on the side of dignified seclusion, must be amply repaid in the splendour of popularity. She must have delighted the Coles—worthy people, who deserved to be made happy!—And left a name behind her that would not soon die away.
Emma did not regret her decision to visit the Coles. The visit gave her lots of enjoyable memories the next day, and whatever she might have given up in terms of dignified solitude was more than made up for by the glow of being popular. She must have made the Coles—good people who deserved happiness!—very happy, and left a legacy that would not be forgotten anytime soon.
Perfect happiness, even in memory, is not common; and there were two points on which she was not quite easy. She doubted whether she had not transgressed the duty of woman by woman, in betraying her suspicions of Jane Fairfax’s feelings to Frank Churchill. It was hardly right; but it had been so strong an idea, that it would escape her, and his submission to all that she told, was a compliment to her penetration, which made it difficult for her to be quite certain that she ought to have held her tongue.
Perfect happiness, even in memory, is rare; and there were two things that made her uneasy. She wondered if she had crossed the line of a woman's duty by revealing her doubts about Jane Fairfax's feelings to Frank Churchill. It didn't feel entirely right; but the thought was so compelling that it slipped out, and his acceptance of everything she said felt like a compliment to her insight, making it hard for her to be completely sure she should have kept quiet.
The other circumstance of regret related also to Jane Fairfax; and there she had no doubt. She did unfeignedly and unequivocally regret the inferiority of her own playing and singing. She did most heartily grieve over the idleness of her childhood—and sat down and practised vigorously an hour and a half.
The other thing she regretted was related to Jane Fairfax, and she was sure about it. She genuinely and clearly felt sorry for her own inferior playing and singing. She truly mourned the wasted time of her childhood—and sat down to practice seriously for an hour and a half.
She was then interrupted by Harriet’s coming in; and if Harriet’s praise could have satisfied her, she might soon have been comforted.
She was then interrupted by Harriet entering; and if Harriet’s praise could have made her feel better, she might have been comforted quickly.
“Oh! if I could but play as well as you and Miss Fairfax!”
“Oh! if only I could play as well as you and Miss Fairfax!”
“Don’t class us together, Harriet. My playing is no more like her’s, than a lamp is like sunshine.”
“Don’t group us together, Harriet. My playing is nothing like hers, just as a lamp isn’t the same as sunlight.”
“Oh! dear—I think you play the best of the two. I think you play quite as well as she does. I am sure I had much rather hear you. Every body last night said how well you played.”
“Oh dear—I think you play better than the other one. I think you play just as well as she does. I would definitely rather listen to you. Everyone last night said how well you played.”
“Those who knew any thing about it, must have felt the difference. The truth is, Harriet, that my playing is just good enough to be praised, but Jane Fairfax’s is much beyond it.”
“Anyone who knew anything about it must have felt the difference. The truth is, Harriet, that my playing is just good enough to be praised, but Jane Fairfax’s is far superior.”
“Well, I always shall think that you play quite as well as she does, or that if there is any difference nobody would ever find it out. Mr. Cole said how much taste you had; and Mr. Frank Churchill talked a great deal about your taste, and that he valued taste much more than execution.”
“Well, I'll always believe that you play just as well as she does, or that if there is any difference, nobody would ever notice it. Mr. Cole mentioned how much taste you have; and Mr. Frank Churchill talked a lot about your taste, saying that he values taste far more than execution.”
“Ah! but Jane Fairfax has them both, Harriet.”
“Ah! but Jane Fairfax has both of them, Harriet.”
“Are you sure? I saw she had execution, but I did not know she had any taste. Nobody talked about it. And I hate Italian singing.—There is no understanding a word of it. Besides, if she does play so very well, you know, it is no more than she is obliged to do, because she will have to teach. The Coxes were wondering last night whether she would get into any great family. How did you think the Coxes looked?”
“Are you sure? I saw she had skill, but I didn't know she had any flair. No one mentioned it. And I can't stand Italian singing—it's impossible to understand a word. Besides, if she plays that well, it's just what she's expected to do since she'll have to teach. The Coxes were wondering last night if she would marry into any prominent family. What did you think of the Coxes' appearance?”
“Just as they always do—very vulgar.”
“Just like they always do—really crude.”
“They told me something,” said Harriet rather hesitatingly; “but it is nothing of any consequence.”
“They told me something,” Harriet said a bit uncertainly; “but it’s nothing important.”
Emma was obliged to ask what they had told her, though fearful of its producing Mr. Elton.
Emma had to ask what they had told her, although she was worried it would bring up Mr. Elton.
“They told me—that Mr. Martin dined with them last Saturday.”
“They told me that Mr. Martin had dinner with them last Saturday.”
“Oh!”
“Oh!”
“He came to their father upon some business, and he asked him to stay to dinner.”
“He went to their dad about some business and asked him to stay for dinner.”
“Oh!”
“Oh!”
“They talked a great deal about him, especially Anne Cox. I do not know what she meant, but she asked me if I thought I should go and stay there again next summer.”
“They talked a lot about him, especially Anne Cox. I’m not sure what she meant, but she asked me if I thought I should go stay there again next summer.”
“She meant to be impertinently curious, just as such an Anne Cox should be.”
“She intended to be annoyingly curious, just like an Anne Cox should be.”
“She said he was very agreeable the day he dined there. He sat by her at dinner. Miss Nash thinks either of the Coxes would be very glad to marry him.”
“She said he was really pleasant the day he had dinner there. He sat next to her at the table. Miss Nash believes either of the Coxes would be really happy to marry him.”
“Very likely.—I think they are, without exception, the most vulgar girls in Highbury.”
“Definitely. I think they’re, without a doubt, the most uncouth girls in Highbury.”
Harriet had business at Ford’s.—Emma thought it most prudent to go with her. Another accidental meeting with the Martins was possible, and in her present state, would be dangerous.
Harriet had business at Ford’s. Emma thought it would be wise to go with her. Another chance encounter with the Martins was possible, and in her current state, it could be risky.
Harriet, tempted by every thing and swayed by half a word, was always very long at a purchase; and while she was still hanging over muslins and changing her mind, Emma went to the door for amusement.—Much could not be hoped from the traffic of even the busiest part of Highbury;—Mr. Perry walking hastily by, Mr. William Cox letting himself in at the office-door, Mr. Cole’s carriage-horses returning from exercise, or a stray letter-boy on an obstinate mule, were the liveliest objects she could presume to expect; and when her eyes fell only on the butcher with his tray, a tidy old woman travelling homewards from shop with her full basket, two curs quarrelling over a dirty bone, and a string of dawdling children round the baker’s little bow-window eyeing the gingerbread, she knew she had no reason to complain, and was amused enough; quite enough still to stand at the door. A mind lively and at ease, can do with seeing nothing, and can see nothing that does not answer.
Harriet, easily tempted and influenced by the slightest suggestion, always took a long time to make a purchase. While she was still debating over fabrics, Emma went to the door for a bit of entertainment. There wasn't much to expect from even the busiest part of Highbury. Mr. Perry rushed by, Mr. William Cox entered his office, Mr. Cole’s carriage-horses came back from exercise, and a letter-boy reluctantly rode by on his stubborn mule—these were the most exciting sights she could hope for. When she only spotted the butcher with his tray, a neat old woman heading home with her full basket, two dogs fighting over a dirty bone, and a group of slow-moving kids gathered around the baker’s window eyeing the gingerbread, she realized she had no reason to complain and found it entertaining enough to stand at the door. A lively and relaxed mind can be satisfied with seeing nothing and can find something meaningful in whatever it does see.
She looked down the Randalls road. The scene enlarged; two persons appeared; Mrs. Weston and her son-in-law; they were walking into Highbury;—to Hartfield of course. They were stopping, however, in the first place at Mrs. Bates’s; whose house was a little nearer Randalls than Ford’s; and had all but knocked, when Emma caught their eye.—Immediately they crossed the road and came forward to her; and the agreeableness of yesterday’s engagement seemed to give fresh pleasure to the present meeting. Mrs. Weston informed her that she was going to call on the Bateses, in order to hear the new instrument.
She looked down Randalls Road. The view widened; two people appeared: Mrs. Weston and her son-in-law. They were walking into Highbury—heading to Hartfield, of course. However, they were first stopping at Mrs. Bates’s, which was a bit closer to Randalls than Ford’s. They had almost knocked when Emma caught their eye. Immediately, they crossed the road and approached her, and the pleasantness of yesterday’s engagement seemed to add to the joy of their current meeting. Mrs. Weston told her that she was going to visit the Bateses to hear the new instrument.
“For my companion tells me,” said she, “that I absolutely promised Miss Bates last night, that I would come this morning. I was not aware of it myself. I did not know that I had fixed a day, but as he says I did, I am going now.”
“For my friend tells me,” she said, “that I definitely promised Miss Bates last night that I would come this morning. I wasn’t aware of it myself. I didn’t realize I had set a date, but since he says I did, I’m going now.”
“And while Mrs. Weston pays her visit, I may be allowed, I hope,” said Frank Churchill, “to join your party and wait for her at Hartfield—if you are going home.”
“And while Mrs. Weston is visiting, I hope you’ll let me,” said Frank Churchill, “join your group and wait for her at Hartfield—if you’re heading home.”
Mrs. Weston was disappointed.
Mrs. Weston was let down.
“I thought you meant to go with me. They would be very much pleased.”
“I thought you were planning to come with me. They would be really happy.”
“Me! I should be quite in the way. But, perhaps—I may be equally in the way here. Miss Woodhouse looks as if she did not want me. My aunt always sends me off when she is shopping. She says I fidget her to death; and Miss Woodhouse looks as if she could almost say the same. What am I to do?”
“Me! I should probably just stay out of the way. But maybe—I might be just as much in the way here. Miss Woodhouse seems like she doesn’t want me around. My aunt always sends me away when she’s shopping. She says I drive her crazy; and Miss Woodhouse looks like she could almost say the same. What am I supposed to do?”
“I am here on no business of my own,” said Emma; “I am only waiting for my friend. She will probably have soon done, and then we shall go home. But you had better go with Mrs. Weston and hear the instrument.”
“I’m not here for myself,” Emma said. “I’m just waiting for my friend. She should be done soon, and then we’ll head home. But you might as well go with Mrs. Weston and listen to the music.”
“Well—if you advise it.—But (with a smile) if Colonel Campbell should have employed a careless friend, and if it should prove to have an indifferent tone—what shall I say? I shall be no support to Mrs. Weston. She might do very well by herself. A disagreeable truth would be palatable through her lips, but I am the wretchedest being in the world at a civil falsehood.”
"Well—if you think it's a good idea. But (with a smile) if Colonel Campbell happened to ask a careless friend, and if it turns out to have a neutral tone—what will I say? I won't be any help to Mrs. Weston. She could handle it just fine on her own. An unpleasant truth would sound better coming from her, but I’m the worst person in the world at telling a polite lie."
“I do not believe any such thing,” replied Emma.—“I am persuaded that you can be as insincere as your neighbours, when it is necessary; but there is no reason to suppose the instrument is indifferent. Quite otherwise indeed, if I understood Miss Fairfax’s opinion last night.”
“I don’t believe any of that,” Emma replied. “I’m convinced you can be just as insincere as your neighbors when needed, but there’s no reason to think the instrument is neutral. Quite the opposite, actually, if I understood Miss Fairfax’s opinion last night.”
“Do come with me,” said Mrs. Weston, “if it be not very disagreeable to you. It need not detain us long. We will go to Hartfield afterwards. We will follow them to Hartfield. I really wish you to call with me. It will be felt so great an attention! and I always thought you meant it.”
“Please come with me,” said Mrs. Weston, “if it won’t be too much trouble for you. It won’t take long. We’ll go to Hartfield afterward. We’ll follow them to Hartfield. I really want you to join me. It would be such a nice gesture! I always thought you intended to.”
He could say no more; and with the hope of Hartfield to reward him, returned with Mrs. Weston to Mrs. Bates’s door. Emma watched them in, and then joined Harriet at the interesting counter,—trying, with all the force of her own mind, to convince her that if she wanted plain muslin it was of no use to look at figured; and that a blue ribbon, be it ever so beautiful, would still never match her yellow pattern. At last it was all settled, even to the destination of the parcel.
He couldn’t say anything more; and with the hope of Hartfield as a reward, he went back with Mrs. Weston to Mrs. Bates’s door. Emma watched them go in, and then joined Harriet at the interesting counter, trying with all her might to convince her that if she wanted plain muslin, it was pointless to look at patterned ones; and that a blue ribbon, no matter how beautiful, would never match her yellow pattern. Finally, everything was settled, right down to where the parcel was going.
“Should I send it to Mrs. Goddard’s, ma’am?” asked Mrs. Ford.—“Yes—no—yes, to Mrs. Goddard’s. Only my pattern gown is at Hartfield. No, you shall send it to Hartfield, if you please. But then, Mrs. Goddard will want to see it.—And I could take the pattern gown home any day. But I shall want the ribbon directly—so it had better go to Hartfield—at least the ribbon. You could make it into two parcels, Mrs. Ford, could not you?”
“Should I send it to Mrs. Goddard's, ma'am?” asked Mrs. Ford. “Yes—no—yes, send it to Mrs. Goddard's. But my pattern gown is at Hartfield. No, please send it to Hartfield. But then, Mrs. Goddard will want to see it. And I could take the pattern gown home any day. But I need the ribbon right away—so it’s better to send at least the ribbon to Hartfield. Could you make it into two packages, Mrs. Ford?”
“It is not worth while, Harriet, to give Mrs. Ford the trouble of two parcels.”
“It’s not worth it, Harriet, to bother Mrs. Ford with two packages.”
“No more it is.”
"Not anymore."
“No trouble in the world, ma’am,” said the obliging Mrs. Ford.
“No trouble at all, ma’am,” said the helpful Mrs. Ford.
“Oh! but indeed I would much rather have it only in one. Then, if you please, you shall send it all to Mrs. Goddard’s—I do not know—No, I think, Miss Woodhouse, I may just as well have it sent to Hartfield, and take it home with me at night. What do you advise?”
“Oh! but I would definitely prefer to have it all in one place. If you don’t mind, please send it all to Mrs. Goddard’s—I’m not sure—No, I think, Miss Woodhouse, I might as well have it sent to Hartfield and take it home with me at night. What do you think?”
“That you do not give another half-second to the subject. To Hartfield, if you please, Mrs. Ford.”
“That you don’t spend another half-second on the subject. To Hartfield, if you please, Mrs. Ford.”
“Aye, that will be much best,” said Harriet, quite satisfied, “I should not at all like to have it sent to Mrs. Goddard’s.”
“Yeah, that’ll be much better,” said Harriet, feeling quite satisfied. “I really wouldn’t want it sent to Mrs. Goddard’s.”
Voices approached the shop—or rather one voice and two ladies: Mrs. Weston and Miss Bates met them at the door.
Voices were coming towards the shop—or more accurately, one voice and two ladies: Mrs. Weston and Miss Bates greeted them at the door.
“My dear Miss Woodhouse,” said the latter, “I am just run across to entreat the favour of you to come and sit down with us a little while, and give us your opinion of our new instrument; you and Miss Smith. How do you do, Miss Smith?—Very well I thank you.—And I begged Mrs. Weston to come with me, that I might be sure of succeeding.”
“Dear Miss Woodhouse,” the latter said, “I just came over to ask you to join us for a bit and share your thoughts on our new instrument; you and Miss Smith. How are you, Miss Smith?—Very well, thank you.—I also asked Mrs. Weston to come along with me, so I could be sure to succeed.”
“I hope Mrs. Bates and Miss Fairfax are—”
“I hope Mrs. Bates and Miss Fairfax are—”
“Very well, I am much obliged to you. My mother is delightfully well; and Jane caught no cold last night. How is Mr. Woodhouse?—I am so glad to hear such a good account. Mrs. Weston told me you were here.—Oh! then, said I, I must run across, I am sure Miss Woodhouse will allow me just to run across and entreat her to come in; my mother will be so very happy to see her—and now we are such a nice party, she cannot refuse.—‘Aye, pray do,’ said Mr. Frank Churchill, ‘Miss Woodhouse’s opinion of the instrument will be worth having.’—But, said I, I shall be more sure of succeeding if one of you will go with me.—‘Oh,’ said he, ‘wait half a minute, till I have finished my job;’—For, would you believe it, Miss Woodhouse, there he is, in the most obliging manner in the world, fastening in the rivet of my mother’s spectacles.—The rivet came out, you know, this morning.—So very obliging!—For my mother had no use of her spectacles—could not put them on. And, by the bye, every body ought to have two pair of spectacles; they should indeed. Jane said so. I meant to take them over to John Saunders the first thing I did, but something or other hindered me all the morning; first one thing, then another, there is no saying what, you know. At one time Patty came to say she thought the kitchen chimney wanted sweeping. Oh, said I, Patty do not come with your bad news to me. Here is the rivet of your mistress’s spectacles out. Then the baked apples came home, Mrs. Wallis sent them by her boy; they are extremely civil and obliging to us, the Wallises, always—I have heard some people say that Mrs. Wallis can be uncivil and give a very rude answer, but we have never known any thing but the greatest attention from them. And it cannot be for the value of our custom now, for what is our consumption of bread, you know? Only three of us.—besides dear Jane at present—and she really eats nothing—makes such a shocking breakfast, you would be quite frightened if you saw it. I dare not let my mother know how little she eats—so I say one thing and then I say another, and it passes off. But about the middle of the day she gets hungry, and there is nothing she likes so well as these baked apples, and they are extremely wholesome, for I took the opportunity the other day of asking Mr. Perry; I happened to meet him in the street. Not that I had any doubt before—I have so often heard Mr. Woodhouse recommend a baked apple. I believe it is the only way that Mr. Woodhouse thinks the fruit thoroughly wholesome. We have apple-dumplings, however, very often. Patty makes an excellent apple-dumpling. Well, Mrs. Weston, you have prevailed, I hope, and these ladies will oblige us.”
“Very well, thank you so much. My mother is doing wonderfully; and Jane didn’t catch a cold last night. How’s Mr. Woodhouse?—I’m so glad to hear such good news. Mrs. Weston told me you were here.—Oh! then, I said, I must run over, I’m sure Miss Woodhouse will let me quickly pop in and ask her to come in; my mother will be so happy to see her—and now that we have such a nice group, she can’t refuse.—‘Yes, please do,’ said Mr. Frank Churchill, ‘Miss Woodhouse’s thoughts on the instrument will be valuable.’—But, I said, I’ll be more likely to succeed if one of you comes with me.—‘Oh,’ he said, ‘wait just a minute until I finish this task;’—Can you believe it, Miss Woodhouse, there he is, being the most helpful person ever, fastening the rivet on my mother’s spectacles.—The rivet came out this morning, you know.—So very considerate!—Because my mother couldn’t use her spectacles—couldn’t put them on. And by the way, everyone should have two pairs of spectacles; they really should. Jane mentioned that. I meant to take them over to John Saunders first thing, but something kept coming up all morning; one thing after another, you know how it is. At one point, Patty came to say the kitchen chimney probably needed sweeping. Oh, I told her, Patty, don’t bring me bad news. The rivet of your mistress’s spectacles is out. Then the baked apples arrived; Mrs. Wallis sent them with her boy; they are always very polite and helpful to us, the Wallises—I’ve heard some people say that Mrs. Wallis can be rude and give very sharp replies, but we’ve never experienced anything but great courtesy from them. And it can’t be just because of how much we spend, since what do we really consume? Just three of us—besides dear Jane at the moment—and she hardly eats anything—has such a shocking breakfast, you’d be quite shocked if you saw it. I’m afraid to let my mother know how little she eats—so I say one thing and then another, and it all smooths over. But around midday, she gets hungry, and nothing makes her happier than these baked apples, and they’re really good for you, because I took the chance the other day to ask Mr. Perry; I ran into him on the street. Not that I doubted before—I’ve heard Mr. Woodhouse recommend a baked apple so many times. We do have apple dumplings quite often, though. Patty makes an excellent apple dumpling. Well, Mrs. Weston, I hope you’ve convinced them, and these ladies will do us the honor.”
Emma would be “very happy to wait on Mrs. Bates, &c.,” and they did at last move out of the shop, with no farther delay from Miss Bates than,
Emma would be “more than happy to wait on Mrs. Bates, etc.,” and they eventually left the shop, with no further hold-up from Miss Bates than,
“How do you do, Mrs. Ford? I beg your pardon. I did not see you before. I hear you have a charming collection of new ribbons from town. Jane came back delighted yesterday. Thank ye, the gloves do very well—only a little too large about the wrist; but Jane is taking them in.”
“How are you, Mrs. Ford? Sorry, I didn’t see you earlier. I heard you have a lovely collection of new ribbons from town. Jane came back thrilled yesterday. Thank you, the gloves fit well—just a bit too big around the wrist; but Jane is fixing that.”
“What was I talking of?” said she, beginning again when they were all in the street.
“What was I talking about?” she said, starting over once they were all in the street.
Emma wondered on what, of all the medley, she would fix.
Emma was unsure about what, out of everything, she would focus on.
“I declare I cannot recollect what I was talking of.—Oh! my mother’s spectacles. So very obliging of Mr. Frank Churchill! ‘Oh!’ said he, ‘I do think I can fasten the rivet; I like a job of this kind excessively.’—Which you know shewed him to be so very.... Indeed I must say that, much as I had heard of him before and much as I had expected, he very far exceeds any thing.... I do congratulate you, Mrs. Weston, most warmly. He seems every thing the fondest parent could.... ‘Oh!’ said he, ‘I can fasten the rivet. I like a job of that sort excessively.’ I never shall forget his manner. And when I brought out the baked apples from the closet, and hoped our friends would be so very obliging as to take some, ‘Oh!’ said he directly, ‘there is nothing in the way of fruit half so good, and these are the finest-looking home-baked apples I ever saw in my life.’ That, you know, was so very.... And I am sure, by his manner, it was no compliment. Indeed they are very delightful apples, and Mrs. Wallis does them full justice—only we do not have them baked more than twice, and Mr. Woodhouse made us promise to have them done three times—but Miss Woodhouse will be so good as not to mention it. The apples themselves are the very finest sort for baking, beyond a doubt; all from Donwell—some of Mr. Knightley’s most liberal supply. He sends us a sack every year; and certainly there never was such a keeping apple anywhere as one of his trees—I believe there is two of them. My mother says the orchard was always famous in her younger days. But I was really quite shocked the other day—for Mr. Knightley called one morning, and Jane was eating these apples, and we talked about them and said how much she enjoyed them, and he asked whether we were not got to the end of our stock. ‘I am sure you must be,’ said he, ‘and I will send you another supply; for I have a great many more than I can ever use. William Larkins let me keep a larger quantity than usual this year. I will send you some more, before they get good for nothing.’ So I begged he would not—for really as to ours being gone, I could not absolutely say that we had a great many left—it was but half a dozen indeed; but they should be all kept for Jane; and I could not at all bear that he should be sending us more, so liberal as he had been already; and Jane said the same. And when he was gone, she almost quarrelled with me—No, I should not say quarrelled, for we never had a quarrel in our lives; but she was quite distressed that I had owned the apples were so nearly gone; she wished I had made him believe we had a great many left. Oh, said I, my dear, I did say as much as I could. However, the very same evening William Larkins came over with a large basket of apples, the same sort of apples, a bushel at least, and I was very much obliged, and went down and spoke to William Larkins and said every thing, as you may suppose. William Larkins is such an old acquaintance! I am always glad to see him. But, however, I found afterwards from Patty, that William said it was all the apples of that sort his master had; he had brought them all—and now his master had not one left to bake or boil. William did not seem to mind it himself, he was so pleased to think his master had sold so many; for William, you know, thinks more of his master’s profit than any thing; but Mrs. Hodges, he said, was quite displeased at their being all sent away. She could not bear that her master should not be able to have another apple-tart this spring. He told Patty this, but bid her not mind it, and be sure not to say any thing to us about it, for Mrs. Hodges would be cross sometimes, and as long as so many sacks were sold, it did not signify who ate the remainder. And so Patty told me, and I was excessively shocked indeed! I would not have Mr. Knightley know any thing about it for the world! He would be so very.... I wanted to keep it from Jane’s knowledge; but, unluckily, I had mentioned it before I was aware.”
“I honestly can't remember what I was talking about.—Oh! my mother’s glasses. It was so kind of Mr. Frank Churchill! ‘Oh!’ he said, ‘I think I can fix the rivet; I really enjoy a job like this.’—Which you know showed him to be so very.... Honestly, I have to say that, despite how much I had heard about him before and how much I had expected, he totally exceeds anything.... I truly congratulate you, Mrs. Weston, very warmly. He seems to be everything a devoted parent could.... ‘Oh!’ he said, ‘I can fix the rivet. I like a job like that a lot.’ I’ll never forget how he acted. And when I brought out the baked apples from the cupboard and hoped our friends would be so kind as to take some, ‘Oh!’ he said right away, ‘there’s nothing in the way of fruit that’s half as good, and these are the best-looking home-baked apples I've ever seen.’ That, you know, was so very.... And I’m sure from his manner it was no flattery. They really are delightful apples, and Mrs. Wallis does them justice—only we don’t bake them more than twice, and Mr. Woodhouse made us promise to bake them three times—but Miss Woodhouse will kindly keep that to herself. The apples are definitely the best kind for baking; all from Donwell—some from Mr. Knightley’s generous supply. He sends us a sack every year, and there’s certainly never been a better keeping apple than one from his trees—I think there are two of them. My mother says the orchard was always famous in her younger days. But I was actually quite shocked the other day—Mr. Knightley came by one morning, and Jane was eating these apples, and we talked about them and mentioned how much she enjoyed them, and he asked whether we hadn’t run out of our stock. ‘I’m sure you must be,’ he said, ‘so I’ll send you more; I have many more than I can ever use. William Larkins let me keep a larger quantity than usual this year. I’ll send you some more before they go bad.’ So, I begged him not to—for honestly, as for ours being gone, I couldn’t say we had many left—it was only half a dozen in fact; but they should all be saved for Jane; and I really couldn’t stand the thought of him sending us more, especially since he had already been so generous; and Jane thought the same. And after he left, she almost argued with me—No, I shouldn’t say argued, because we’ve never had an argument in our lives; but she was really upset that I had admitted the apples were nearly gone; she wished I had made him think we had plenty left. Oh, I said, my dear, I did say as much as I could. Anyway, that very same evening William Larkins came over with a big basket of apples, the same kind, at least a bushel, and I was very grateful, and went down and talked to William Larkins and said everything, as you can imagine. William Larkins is such an old friend! I’m always happy to see him. But then I found out later from Patty that William said it was all the apples of that kind his master had; he had brought them all—and now his master didn’t have any left to bake or boil. William didn’t seem to mind it himself; he was so happy to think his master had sold so many; because William, you know, cares more about his master’s profits than anything else; but Mrs. Hodges, he said, was quite unhappy about them all being sent away. She couldn’t stand that her master wouldn’t be able to have another apple tart this spring. He told Patty this but told her not to worry about it, and not to mention it to us, because Mrs. Hodges would get upset sometimes, and as long as so many sacks were sold, it didn’t matter who ate the rest. And so Patty told me, and I was honestly very shocked! I wouldn’t want Mr. Knightley to find out anything about it for the world! He would be so very.... I wanted to keep it from Jane too; but, unfortunately, I had mentioned it before I realized.”
Miss Bates had just done as Patty opened the door; and her visitors walked upstairs without having any regular narration to attend to, pursued only by the sounds of her desultory good-will.
Miss Bates had just finished speaking as Patty opened the door; and her visitors went upstairs without any structured conversation to listen to, only accompanied by the sounds of her random kindness.
“Pray take care, Mrs. Weston, there is a step at the turning. Pray take care, Miss Woodhouse, ours is rather a dark staircase—rather darker and narrower than one could wish. Miss Smith, pray take care. Miss Woodhouse, I am quite concerned, I am sure you hit your foot. Miss Smith, the step at the turning.”
“Please be careful, Mrs. Weston, there’s a step at the turn. Please be careful, Miss Woodhouse, our staircase is quite dark—darker and narrower than one would like. Miss Smith, please be careful. Miss Woodhouse, I’m really worried, I’m sure you hit your foot. Miss Smith, the step at the turn.”
CHAPTER X
The appearance of the little sitting-room as they entered, was tranquillity itself; Mrs. Bates, deprived of her usual employment, slumbering on one side of the fire, Frank Churchill, at a table near her, most deedily occupied about her spectacles, and Jane Fairfax, standing with her back to them, intent on her pianoforte.
The little sitting room looked completely peaceful as they walked in; Mrs. Bates, without her usual tasks, was dozing off on one side of the fire, Frank Churchill was at a table nearby, busily focused on her glasses, and Jane Fairfax stood with her back to them, focused on her piano.
Busy as he was, however, the young man was yet able to shew a most happy countenance on seeing Emma again.
Busy as he was, the young man still managed to show a very happy face when he saw Emma again.
“This is a pleasure,” said he, in rather a low voice, “coming at least ten minutes earlier than I had calculated. You find me trying to be useful; tell me if you think I shall succeed.”
"This is a pleasure," he said in a low voice, "arriving at least ten minutes earlier than I expected. You see me trying to be helpful; let me know if you think I'll succeed."
“What!” said Mrs. Weston, “have not you finished it yet? you would not earn a very good livelihood as a working silversmith at this rate.”
“What!” said Mrs. Weston, “haven't you finished it yet? You wouldn't make a very good living as a working silversmith at this rate.”
“I have not been working uninterruptedly,” he replied, “I have been assisting Miss Fairfax in trying to make her instrument stand steadily, it was not quite firm; an unevenness in the floor, I believe. You see we have been wedging one leg with paper. This was very kind of you to be persuaded to come. I was almost afraid you would be hurrying home.”
“I haven’t been working straight through,” he replied, “I’ve been helping Miss Fairfax with her instrument; it wasn’t very stable. I think it was because the floor is uneven. We’ve been propping one leg up with paper. It was really nice of you to be convinced to come. I was worried you’d be rushing home.”
He contrived that she should be seated by him; and was sufficiently employed in looking out the best baked apple for her, and trying to make her help or advise him in his work, till Jane Fairfax was quite ready to sit down to the pianoforte again. That she was not immediately ready, Emma did suspect to arise from the state of her nerves; she had not yet possessed the instrument long enough to touch it without emotion; she must reason herself into the power of performance; and Emma could not but pity such feelings, whatever their origin, and could not but resolve never to expose them to her neighbour again.
He arranged for her to sit next to him and was busy looking for the best baked apple for her, trying to get her to help or give him advice on his work, until Jane Fairfax was ready to sit down at the piano again. Emma suspected that Jane wasn't immediately ready because of her nerves; she hadn't had the instrument long enough to play it without feeling something. She needed to convince herself she could perform, and Emma couldn’t help but feel sympathy for those emotions, no matter where they came from, and she resolved never to put her neighbor in that position again.
At last Jane began, and though the first bars were feebly given, the powers of the instrument were gradually done full justice to. Mrs. Weston had been delighted before, and was delighted again; Emma joined her in all her praise; and the pianoforte, with every proper discrimination, was pronounced to be altogether of the highest promise.
At last, Jane started playing, and even though the first notes were weak, she gradually did the instrument justice. Mrs. Weston had been pleased before and was pleased again; Emma joined her in all the compliments, and they both agreed that the piano had exceptional potential.
“Whoever Colonel Campbell might employ,” said Frank Churchill, with a smile at Emma, “the person has not chosen ill. I heard a good deal of Colonel Campbell’s taste at Weymouth; and the softness of the upper notes I am sure is exactly what he and all that party would particularly prize. I dare say, Miss Fairfax, that he either gave his friend very minute directions, or wrote to Broadwood himself. Do not you think so?”
“Whoever Colonel Campbell ends up hiring,” said Frank Churchill, smiling at Emma, “clearly made a good choice. I heard a lot about Colonel Campbell's taste while we were at Weymouth; and I’m sure the softness of the higher notes is exactly what he and everyone in that group would really appreciate. I bet, Miss Fairfax, that he either gave his friend very specific instructions or wrote to Broadwood himself. Don’t you think so?”
Jane did not look round. She was not obliged to hear. Mrs. Weston had been speaking to her at the same moment.
Jane didn’t turn around. She didn’t have to listen. Mrs. Weston had been talking to her at the same time.
“It is not fair,” said Emma, in a whisper; “mine was a random guess. Do not distress her.”
“It’s not fair,” Emma whispered. “I just guessed. Don’t upset her.”
He shook his head with a smile, and looked as if he had very little doubt and very little mercy. Soon afterwards he began again,
He shook his head with a smile, looking like he had very few doubts and little mercy. Soon after, he started again,
“How much your friends in Ireland must be enjoying your pleasure on this occasion, Miss Fairfax. I dare say they often think of you, and wonder which will be the day, the precise day of the instrument’s coming to hand. Do you imagine Colonel Campbell knows the business to be going forward just at this time?—Do you imagine it to be the consequence of an immediate commission from him, or that he may have sent only a general direction, an order indefinite as to time, to depend upon contingencies and conveniences?”
“How much your friends in Ireland must be enjoying your happiness right now, Miss Fairfax. I bet they often think of you and wonder when, exactly, the instrument will arrive. Do you think Colonel Campbell knows that this is happening at the moment? Do you think it’s because he specifically asked for it, or did he just give a general instruction, leaving the timing open and dependent on circumstances?”
He paused. She could not but hear; she could not avoid answering,
He paused. She couldn’t help but hear; she couldn’t avoid answering,
“Till I have a letter from Colonel Campbell,” said she, in a voice of forced calmness, “I can imagine nothing with any confidence. It must be all conjecture.”
“Until I get a letter from Colonel Campbell,” she said, in a voice that seemed calm but wasn't, “I can't confidently imagine anything. It has to be all guesswork.”
“Conjecture—aye, sometimes one conjectures right, and sometimes one conjectures wrong. I wish I could conjecture how soon I shall make this rivet quite firm. What nonsense one talks, Miss Woodhouse, when hard at work, if one talks at all;—your real workmen, I suppose, hold their tongues; but we gentlemen labourers if we get hold of a word—Miss Fairfax said something about conjecturing. There, it is done. I have the pleasure, madam, (to Mrs. Bates,) of restoring your spectacles, healed for the present.”
“Speculation—yeah, sometimes you guess right, and sometimes you guess wrong. I wish I could figure out how soon I’ll get this rivet really secure. It’s funny what people say, Miss Woodhouse, when they’re really focused on their work, if they even talk at all; your true craftsmen, I suppose, keep quiet. But we gentleman laborers, if we come up with a word—Miss Fairfax mentioned something about guessing. There, it’s done. I have the pleasure, madam, (to Mrs. Bates,) of returning your glasses, fixed for now.”
He was very warmly thanked both by mother and daughter; to escape a little from the latter, he went to the pianoforte, and begged Miss Fairfax, who was still sitting at it, to play something more.
He was thanked very warmly by both mother and daughter; to get a little distance from the latter, he went to the piano and asked Miss Fairfax, who was still sitting at it, to play something else.
“If you are very kind,” said he, “it will be one of the waltzes we danced last night;—let me live them over again. You did not enjoy them as I did; you appeared tired the whole time. I believe you were glad we danced no longer; but I would have given worlds—all the worlds one ever has to give—for another half-hour.”
“If you’re really nice,” he said, “it’ll be one of the waltzes we danced last night;—let me relive them. You didn’t enjoy them like I did; you looked tired the whole time. I think you were relieved we didn’t dance any longer; but I would have given anything—all the anything one could ever give—for another half-hour.”
She played.
She performed.
“What felicity it is to hear a tune again which has made one happy!—If I mistake not that was danced at Weymouth.”
“What a joy it is to hear a tune again that has made me happy!—If I'm not wrong, that was danced at Weymouth.”
She looked up at him for a moment, coloured deeply, and played something else. He took some music from a chair near the pianoforte, and turning to Emma, said,
She glanced up at him for a moment, blushing deeply, and started playing something different. He grabbed some sheet music from a chair near the piano and turned to Emma, saying,
“Here is something quite new to me. Do you know it?—Cramer.—And here are a new set of Irish melodies. That, from such a quarter, one might expect. This was all sent with the instrument. Very thoughtful of Colonel Campbell, was not it?—He knew Miss Fairfax could have no music here. I honour that part of the attention particularly; it shews it to have been so thoroughly from the heart. Nothing hastily done; nothing incomplete. True affection only could have prompted it.”
“Here’s something completely new to me. Do you know about it?—Cramer.—And here’s a new collection of Irish melodies. You’d expect that from such a source. All of this was sent with the instrument. It was very thoughtful of Colonel Campbell, wasn’t it?—He knew Miss Fairfax wouldn’t have any music here. I really appreciate that part of the gesture; it shows it came straight from the heart. Nothing done half-heartedly; nothing lacking. Only true affection could have inspired it.”
Emma wished he would be less pointed, yet could not help being amused; and when on glancing her eye towards Jane Fairfax she caught the remains of a smile, when she saw that with all the deep blush of consciousness, there had been a smile of secret delight, she had less scruple in the amusement, and much less compunction with respect to her.—This amiable, upright, perfect Jane Fairfax was apparently cherishing very reprehensible feelings.
Emma wished he would be less direct, but she couldn't help finding it funny; and when she glanced over at Jane Fairfax and caught the remnants of a smile, noticing that despite the deep blush of awareness, there had been a hidden smile of joy, she felt less guilty about her amusement and much less remorseful about it concerning Jane. This lovely, honest, perfect Jane Fairfax was seemingly harboring some quite questionable feelings.
He brought all the music to her, and they looked it over together.—Emma took the opportunity of whispering,
He brought all the music to her, and they looked it over together.—Emma took the chance to whisper,
“You speak too plain. She must understand you.”
“You're being too straightforward. She has to get what you're saying.”
“I hope she does. I would have her understand me. I am not in the least ashamed of my meaning.”
“I hope she does. I want her to understand me. I’m not at all ashamed of what I mean.”
“But really, I am half ashamed, and wish I had never taken up the idea.”
“But honestly, I feel a bit embarrassed and wish I had never taken on the idea.”
“I am very glad you did, and that you communicated it to me. I have now a key to all her odd looks and ways. Leave shame to her. If she does wrong, she ought to feel it.”
“I’m really glad you told me that. Now I understand all her strange looks and behaviors. Let her feel ashamed. If she does something wrong, she should own up to it.”
“She is not entirely without it, I think.”
“She doesn’t completely lack it, I believe.”
“I do not see much sign of it. She is playing Robin Adair at this moment—his favourite.”
“I don’t see much evidence of that. She’s playing Robin Adair right now—his favorite.”
Shortly afterwards Miss Bates, passing near the window, descried Mr. Knightley on horse-back not far off.
Shortly after, Miss Bates, walking by the window, spotted Mr. Knightley on horseback not far away.
“Mr. Knightley I declare!—I must speak to him if possible, just to thank him. I will not open the window here; it would give you all cold; but I can go into my mother’s room you know. I dare say he will come in when he knows who is here. Quite delightful to have you all meet so!—Our little room so honoured!”
“Mr. Knightley, I can't believe it!—I have to talk to him if I can, just to thank him. I won't open the window here; it would make you all cold; but I can go into my mom’s room, you know. I’m sure he will come in when he knows who’s here. It's so great to have all of you here like this!—Our little room feels so special!”
She was in the adjoining chamber while she still spoke, and opening the casement there, immediately called Mr. Knightley’s attention, and every syllable of their conversation was as distinctly heard by the others, as if it had passed within the same apartment.
She was in the next room while she spoke, and as she opened the window there, she immediately caught Mr. Knightley’s attention, and every word of their conversation was heard by the others just as clearly as if it had taken place in the same room.
“How d’ ye do?—how d’ye do?—Very well, I thank you. So obliged to you for the carriage last night. We were just in time; my mother just ready for us. Pray come in; do come in. You will find some friends here.”
“How do you do?—how do you do?—Very well, thank you. I really appreciate the ride last night. We made it just in time; my mother was all set for us. Please come in; do come in. You’ll find some friends here.”
So began Miss Bates; and Mr. Knightley seemed determined to be heard in his turn, for most resolutely and commandingly did he say,
So began Miss Bates; and Mr. Knightley seemed determined to make his voice heard too, as he firmly and decisively said,
“How is your niece, Miss Bates?—I want to inquire after you all, but particularly your niece. How is Miss Fairfax?—I hope she caught no cold last night. How is she to-day? Tell me how Miss Fairfax is.”
“How is your niece, Miss Bates? I want to check in on all of you, but especially your niece. How is Miss Fairfax? I hope she didn’t catch a cold last night. How is she today? Let me know how Miss Fairfax is.”
And Miss Bates was obliged to give a direct answer before he would hear her in any thing else. The listeners were amused; and Mrs. Weston gave Emma a look of particular meaning. But Emma still shook her head in steady scepticism.
And Miss Bates had to give a straight answer before he’d listen to her about anything else. The listeners found it amusing, and Mrs. Weston shot Emma a glance of special significance. But Emma continued to shake her head in firm disbelief.
“So obliged to you!—so very much obliged to you for the carriage,” resumed Miss Bates.
"Thank you so much!—I really appreciate you for the ride," picked up Miss Bates.
He cut her short with,
He interrupted her with,
“I am going to Kingston. Can I do any thing for you?”
“I’m heading to Kingston. Can I do anything for you?”
“Oh! dear, Kingston—are you?—Mrs. Cole was saying the other day she wanted something from Kingston.”
“Oh dear, Kingston—are you?—Mrs. Cole said the other day she needed something from Kingston.”
“Mrs. Cole has servants to send. Can I do any thing for you?”
“Mrs. Cole has staff to send. Can I do anything for you?”
“No, I thank you. But do come in. Who do you think is here?—Miss Woodhouse and Miss Smith; so kind as to call to hear the new pianoforte. Do put up your horse at the Crown, and come in.”
“No, thank you. But please come in. Can you guess who's here?—Miss Woodhouse and Miss Smith; so nice of them to stop by to check out the new piano. Please stable your horse at the Crown and come inside.”
“Well,” said he, in a deliberating manner, “for five minutes, perhaps.”
“Well,” he said thoughtfully, “maybe five minutes.”
“And here is Mrs. Weston and Mr. Frank Churchill too!—Quite delightful; so many friends!”
“And here are Mrs. Weston and Mr. Frank Churchill too!—So great; so many friends!”
“No, not now, I thank you. I could not stay two minutes. I must get on to Kingston as fast as I can.”
“No, not right now, thank you. I can’t stay for even two minutes. I need to get to Kingston as quickly as possible.”
“Oh! do come in. They will be so very happy to see you.”
“Oh! Please come in. They’ll be so happy to see you.”
“No, no; your room is full enough. I will call another day, and hear the pianoforte.”
“No, no; your room is full enough. I’ll come another day and listen to the piano.”
“Well, I am so sorry!—Oh! Mr. Knightley, what a delightful party last night; how extremely pleasant.—Did you ever see such dancing?—Was not it delightful?—Miss Woodhouse and Mr. Frank Churchill; I never saw any thing equal to it.”
“Well, I’m so sorry!—Oh! Mr. Knightley, what a wonderful party last night; it was so enjoyable.—Did you see that dancing?—Wasn't it amazing?—Miss Woodhouse and Mr. Frank Churchill; I’ve never seen anything like it.”
“Oh! very delightful indeed; I can say nothing less, for I suppose Miss Woodhouse and Mr. Frank Churchill are hearing every thing that passes. And (raising his voice still more) I do not see why Miss Fairfax should not be mentioned too. I think Miss Fairfax dances very well; and Mrs. Weston is the very best country-dance player, without exception, in England. Now, if your friends have any gratitude, they will say something pretty loud about you and me in return; but I cannot stay to hear it.”
“Oh! absolutely delightful; I can't say anything less because I assume Miss Woodhouse and Mr. Frank Churchill are hearing everything that’s being said. And (raising his voice even more) I don't see why Miss Fairfax shouldn't be mentioned too. I think Miss Fairfax dances really well; and Mrs. Weston is, without a doubt, the best country-dance player in England. Now, if your friends have any appreciation, they'll say something nice about you and me in return; but I can’t stick around to hear it.”
“Oh! Mr. Knightley, one moment more; something of consequence—so shocked!—Jane and I are both so shocked about the apples!”
“Oh! Mr. Knightley, wait a second; there’s something important—so shocking!—Jane and I are both really shocked about the apples!”
“What is the matter now?”
"What's the problem now?"
“To think of your sending us all your store apples. You said you had a great many, and now you have not one left. We really are so shocked! Mrs. Hodges may well be angry. William Larkins mentioned it here. You should not have done it, indeed you should not. Ah! he is off. He never can bear to be thanked. But I thought he would have staid now, and it would have been a pity not to have mentioned.... Well, (returning to the room,) I have not been able to succeed. Mr. Knightley cannot stop. He is going to Kingston. He asked me if he could do any thing....”
“To think you sent us all your stored apples. You said you had a lot, and now you don’t have any left. We’re really shocked! Mrs. Hodges has every right to be upset. William Larkins brought it up here. You really shouldn’t have done that. Ah! he’s gone. He can never stand being thanked. But I thought he would have stayed this time, and it would have been a shame not to mention it... Well, (returning to the room,) I haven’t been able to succeed. Mr. Knightley can’t stay. He’s going to Kingston. He asked me if he could do anything...”
“Yes,” said Jane, “we heard his kind offers, we heard every thing.”
"Yes," Jane said, "we heard his generous offers, we heard everything."
“Oh! yes, my dear, I dare say you might, because you know, the door was open, and the window was open, and Mr. Knightley spoke loud. You must have heard every thing to be sure. ‘Can I do any thing for you at Kingston?’ said he; so I just mentioned.... Oh! Miss Woodhouse, must you be going?—You seem but just come—so very obliging of you.”
“Oh! yes, my dear, I suppose you could, because, you see, the door was open, and the window was open, and Mr. Knightley spoke loudly. You must have heard everything for sure. ‘Can I do anything for you at Kingston?’ he asked; so I just mentioned... Oh! Miss Woodhouse, do you have to leave?—You seem like you just got here—so very kind of you.”
Emma found it really time to be at home; the visit had already lasted long; and on examining watches, so much of the morning was perceived to be gone, that Mrs. Weston and her companion taking leave also, could allow themselves only to walk with the two young ladies to Hartfield gates, before they set off for Randalls.
Emma felt it was really time to head home; the visit had already gone on for a while; and when she checked the time, she realized that so much of the morning had passed that Mrs. Weston and her friend, when they said their goodbyes, could only walk with the two young ladies to the Hartfield gates before they left for Randalls.
CHAPTER XI
It may be possible to do without dancing entirely. Instances have been known of young people passing many, many months successively, without being at any ball of any description, and no material injury accrue either to body or mind;—but when a beginning is made—when the felicities of rapid motion have once been, though slightly, felt—it must be a very heavy set that does not ask for more.
It might be possible to completely skip dancing. There are examples of young people going many months without attending any kind of ball, and they don’t suffer any notable harm, either physically or mentally;—but once you start—once you experience the joys of moving quickly, even just a little—it takes a lot to not want to do it again.
Frank Churchill had danced once at Highbury, and longed to dance again; and the last half-hour of an evening which Mr. Woodhouse was persuaded to spend with his daughter at Randalls, was passed by the two young people in schemes on the subject. Frank’s was the first idea; and his the greatest zeal in pursuing it; for the lady was the best judge of the difficulties, and the most solicitous for accommodation and appearance. But still she had inclination enough for shewing people again how delightfully Mr. Frank Churchill and Miss Woodhouse danced—for doing that in which she need not blush to compare herself with Jane Fairfax—and even for simple dancing itself, without any of the wicked aids of vanity—to assist him first in pacing out the room they were in to see what it could be made to hold—and then in taking the dimensions of the other parlour, in the hope of discovering, in spite of all that Mr. Weston could say of their exactly equal size, that it was a little the largest.
Frank Churchill had danced once at Highbury and couldn’t wait to dance again. The last half-hour of the evening that Mr. Woodhouse agreed to spend with his daughter at Randalls was spent by the two young people making plans about it. Frank had the first idea and was the most enthusiastic about pursuing it, while the lady was the better judge of the challenges and was more concerned about fitting in and appearances. Still, she was eager to show everyone again how wonderfully Mr. Frank Churchill and Miss Woodhouse danced—something she could confidently compare herself to Jane Fairfax—and even just to enjoy dancing itself, without any of the negative influences of vanity. They first measured the room they were in to see how many people it could hold, and then measured the other parlor, hoping to prove, despite all Mr. Weston’s comments about their equal sizes, that it was slightly larger.
His first proposition and request, that the dance begun at Mr. Cole’s should be finished there—that the same party should be collected, and the same musician engaged, met with the readiest acquiescence. Mr. Weston entered into the idea with thorough enjoyment, and Mrs. Weston most willingly undertook to play as long as they could wish to dance; and the interesting employment had followed, of reckoning up exactly who there would be, and portioning out the indispensable division of space to every couple.
His initial suggestion and request, that the dance started at Mr. Cole’s should be completed there—that the same group should gather, and the same musician hired, was met with immediate agreement. Mr. Weston embraced the idea with great enthusiasm, and Mrs. Weston happily agreed to play for as long as they wanted to dance; and then the enjoyable task followed of figuring out exactly who would be there and allocating the necessary space for each couple.
“You and Miss Smith, and Miss Fairfax, will be three, and the two Miss Coxes five,” had been repeated many times over. “And there will be the two Gilberts, young Cox, my father, and myself, besides Mr. Knightley. Yes, that will be quite enough for pleasure. You and Miss Smith, and Miss Fairfax, will be three, and the two Miss Coxes five; and for five couple there will be plenty of room.”
“You, Miss Smith, and Miss Fairfax will be three, and the two Miss Coxes will make five,” had been said many times. “Then there will be the two Gilberts, young Cox, my father, and me, plus Mr. Knightley. Yes, that will be more than enough for a good time. You, Miss Smith, and Miss Fairfax will be three, and the two Miss Coxes will make five; and for five couples, there will be plenty of room.”
But soon it came to be on one side,
But soon it ended up on one side,
“But will there be good room for five couple?—I really do not think there will.”
“But will there be enough space for five couples?—I honestly don’t think there will.”
On another,
On another note,
“And after all, five couple are not enough to make it worth while to stand up. Five couple are nothing, when one thinks seriously about it. It will not do to invite five couple. It can be allowable only as the thought of the moment.”
"And after all, five couples aren't enough to make it worth standing up for. Five couples are nothing when you think about it seriously. You can't really invite five couples. It can only be accepted as a passing thought."
Somebody said that Miss Gilbert was expected at her brother’s, and must be invited with the rest. Somebody else believed Mrs. Gilbert would have danced the other evening, if she had been asked. A word was put in for a second young Cox; and at last, Mr. Weston naming one family of cousins who must be included, and another of very old acquaintance who could not be left out, it became a certainty that the five couple would be at least ten, and a very interesting speculation in what possible manner they could be disposed of.
Somebody mentioned that Miss Gilbert was expected at her brother's and needed to be invited along with everyone else. Someone else thought Mrs. Gilbert would have danced the other night if she had been asked. A suggestion was made for a second young Cox, and eventually, Mr. Weston brought up one family of cousins that had to be included and another family of long-time friends that couldn't be left out. It became clear that five couples would mean at least ten people, leading to an interesting speculation on how they might be arranged.
The doors of the two rooms were just opposite each other. “Might not they use both rooms, and dance across the passage?” It seemed the best scheme; and yet it was not so good but that many of them wanted a better. Emma said it would be awkward; Mrs. Weston was in distress about the supper; and Mr. Woodhouse opposed it earnestly, on the score of health. It made him so very unhappy, indeed, that it could not be persevered in.
The doors of the two rooms faced each other. “Couldn’t they use both rooms and dance across the hallway?” It seemed like a good idea, but many wanted something better. Emma said it would be awkward; Mrs. Weston was worried about the dinner; and Mr. Woodhouse strongly opposed it for health reasons. It upset him so much that they couldn’t go through with it.
“Oh! no,” said he; “it would be the extreme of imprudence. I could not bear it for Emma!—Emma is not strong. She would catch a dreadful cold. So would poor little Harriet. So you would all. Mrs. Weston, you would be quite laid up; do not let them talk of such a wild thing. Pray do not let them talk of it. That young man (speaking lower) is very thoughtless. Do not tell his father, but that young man is not quite the thing. He has been opening the doors very often this evening, and keeping them open very inconsiderately. He does not think of the draught. I do not mean to set you against him, but indeed he is not quite the thing!”
“Oh! no,” he said. “That would be incredibly reckless. I couldn't stand it for Emma!—Emma isn't very strong. She would catch a terrible cold. So would poor little Harriet. So would all of you. Mrs. Weston, you would be completely out of commission; please don’t let them discuss such a crazy idea. Please don’t let them talk about it. That young man (speaking more softly) is very thoughtless. Don’t tell his father, but that young man is not quite right. He has been opening the doors way too often this evening and leaving them open without thinking. He doesn’t consider the draft. I don’t mean to turn you against him, but honestly, he is not quite right!”
Mrs. Weston was sorry for such a charge. She knew the importance of it, and said every thing in her power to do it away. Every door was now closed, the passage plan given up, and the first scheme of dancing only in the room they were in resorted to again; and with such good-will on Frank Churchill’s part, that the space which a quarter of an hour before had been deemed barely sufficient for five couple, was now endeavoured to be made out quite enough for ten.
Mrs. Weston felt bad about such an accusation. She understood its significance and did everything she could to dismiss it. Every door was now shut, the plan for the hallway was abandoned, and they went back to the original idea of dancing only in the room they were in; and with such enthusiasm from Frank Churchill that the area which just a quarter of an hour earlier was considered barely enough for five couples was now being stretched to accommodate ten.
“We were too magnificent,” said he. “We allowed unnecessary room. Ten couple may stand here very well.”
“We were too impressive,” he said. “We left too much space. Ten couples can fit here just fine.”
Emma demurred. “It would be a crowd—a sad crowd; and what could be worse than dancing without space to turn in?”
Emma hesitated. “It would be a crowd—a dismal crowd; and what could be worse than dancing without enough room to move around?”
“Very true,” he gravely replied; “it was very bad.” But still he went on measuring, and still he ended with,
“Very true,” he said seriously; “it was really bad.” But he kept measuring, and he still concluded with,
“I think there will be very tolerable room for ten couple.”
“I think there will be quite enough space for ten couples.”
“No, no,” said she, “you are quite unreasonable. It would be dreadful to be standing so close! Nothing can be farther from pleasure than to be dancing in a crowd—and a crowd in a little room!”
“No, no,” she said, “you’re being totally unreasonable. It would be terrible to be standing so close! There’s nothing less enjoyable than dancing in a crowd—and in a small room!”
“There is no denying it,” he replied. “I agree with you exactly. A crowd in a little room—Miss Woodhouse, you have the art of giving pictures in a few words. Exquisite, quite exquisite!—Still, however, having proceeded so far, one is unwilling to give the matter up. It would be a disappointment to my father—and altogether—I do not know that—I am rather of opinion that ten couple might stand here very well.”
“There’s no denying it,” he replied. “I completely agree with you. A crowd in a small room—Miss Woodhouse, you have a talent for painting pictures with just a few words. It’s truly exquisite! Still, having gone this far, it’s hard to just drop the subject. It would disappoint my dad—and honestly—I think that ten couples could fit here just fine.”
Emma perceived that the nature of his gallantry was a little self-willed, and that he would rather oppose than lose the pleasure of dancing with her; but she took the compliment, and forgave the rest. Had she intended ever to marry him, it might have been worth while to pause and consider, and try to understand the value of his preference, and the character of his temper; but for all the purposes of their acquaintance, he was quite amiable enough.
Emma realized that his chivalry was a bit self-serving, and that he would prefer to argue than miss out on the enjoyment of dancing with her; however, she accepted the compliment and overlooked the rest. If she had ever considered marrying him, it would have been worth stopping to reflect and grasp the significance of his affection and his personality; but for the purposes of their friendship, he was perfectly pleasant enough.
Before the middle of the next day, he was at Hartfield; and he entered the room with such an agreeable smile as certified the continuance of the scheme. It soon appeared that he came to announce an improvement.
Before the middle of the next day, he was at Hartfield; and he entered the room with such a friendly smile that confirmed the plan was still on. It quickly became clear that he had come to share some good news.
“Well, Miss Woodhouse,” he almost immediately began, “your inclination for dancing has not been quite frightened away, I hope, by the terrors of my father’s little rooms. I bring a new proposal on the subject:—a thought of my father’s, which waits only your approbation to be acted upon. May I hope for the honour of your hand for the two first dances of this little projected ball, to be given, not at Randalls, but at the Crown Inn?”
“Well, Miss Woodhouse,” he quickly began, “I hope my father’s small rooms haven’t completely scared you away from dancing. I have a new idea on the subject: it’s something my father thought of, and it just needs your approval to go forward. Can I hope for the honor of your hand for the first two dances of this little ball we’re planning, which won’t be at Randalls, but at the Crown Inn?”
“The Crown!”
"The Crown!"
“Yes; if you and Mr. Woodhouse see no objection, and I trust you cannot, my father hopes his friends will be so kind as to visit him there. Better accommodations, he can promise them, and not a less grateful welcome than at Randalls. It is his own idea. Mrs. Weston sees no objection to it, provided you are satisfied. This is what we all feel. Oh! you were perfectly right! Ten couple, in either of the Randalls rooms, would have been insufferable!—Dreadful!—I felt how right you were the whole time, but was too anxious for securing any thing to like to yield. Is not it a good exchange?—You consent—I hope you consent?”
“Yes; if you and Mr. Woodhouse have no objections, and I trust you don’t, my father hopes his friends will be so kind as to visit him there. He can promise them better accommodations and just as warm a welcome as at Randalls. It’s his own idea. Mrs. Weston has no objections to it, as long as you’re satisfied. This is how we all feel. Oh! You were absolutely right! Ten couples in either of the Randalls rooms would have been unbearable!—Awful!—I realized how right you were the whole time, but I was too worried about getting any thing to want to give in. Isn’t it a good trade?—You agree—I hope you agree?”
“It appears to me a plan that nobody can object to, if Mr. and Mrs. Weston do not. I think it admirable; and, as far as I can answer for myself, shall be most happy—It seems the only improvement that could be. Papa, do you not think it an excellent improvement?”
“It seems to me like a plan that no one could disagree with, unless Mr. and Mrs. Weston do. I think it's great; and, as far as I can speak for myself, I would be very happy about it—It appears to be the only improvement possible. Dad, don’t you think it’s a wonderful improvement?”
She was obliged to repeat and explain it, before it was fully comprehended; and then, being quite new, farther representations were necessary to make it acceptable.
She had to repeat and explain it until it was fully understood; and since it was completely new, more explanations were needed to make it acceptable.
“No; he thought it very far from an improvement—a very bad plan—much worse than the other. A room at an inn was always damp and dangerous; never properly aired, or fit to be inhabited. If they must dance, they had better dance at Randalls. He had never been in the room at the Crown in his life—did not know the people who kept it by sight.—Oh! no—a very bad plan. They would catch worse colds at the Crown than anywhere.”
“No; he thought it was definitely not an improvement—a really bad idea—much worse than the other option. A room at an inn was always damp and risky; it was never properly aired or suitable to stay in. If they had to dance, they might as well do it at Randalls. He had never been in the room at the Crown in his life—didn't even know what the owners looked like. Oh! no—a really bad idea. They would catch worse colds at the Crown than anywhere else.”
“I was going to observe, sir,” said Frank Churchill, “that one of the great recommendations of this change would be the very little danger of any body’s catching cold—so much less danger at the Crown than at Randalls! Mr. Perry might have reason to regret the alteration, but nobody else could.”
“I was going to mention, sir,” said Frank Churchill, “that one of the major benefits of this change would be the minimal risk of anyone catching a cold—much less risk at the Crown than at Randalls! Mr. Perry might have cause to regret the change, but no one else would.”
“Sir,” said Mr. Woodhouse, rather warmly, “you are very much mistaken if you suppose Mr. Perry to be that sort of character. Mr. Perry is extremely concerned when any of us are ill. But I do not understand how the room at the Crown can be safer for you than your father’s house.”
“Sir,” Mr. Woodhouse said quite warmly, “you’re very mistaken if you think Mr. Perry is that kind of person. Mr. Perry cares a lot when any of us are sick. But I don’t see how the room at the Crown can be safer for you than your father’s house.”
“From the very circumstance of its being larger, sir. We shall have no occasion to open the windows at all—not once the whole evening; and it is that dreadful habit of opening the windows, letting in cold air upon heated bodies, which (as you well know, sir) does the mischief.”
“It's simply because it's larger, sir. We won’t need to open the windows at all—not once the whole evening; and it’s that awful habit of opening the windows and letting in cold air on warm bodies that (as you know, sir) causes all the problems.”
“Open the windows!—but surely, Mr. Churchill, nobody would think of opening the windows at Randalls. Nobody could be so imprudent! I never heard of such a thing. Dancing with open windows!—I am sure, neither your father nor Mrs. Weston (poor Miss Taylor that was) would suffer it.”
“Open the windows!—but come on, Mr. Churchill, no one would actually think about opening the windows at Randalls. No one could be that reckless! I've never heard of such a thing. Dancing with open windows!—I’m sure neither your dad nor Mrs. Weston (poor Miss Taylor back then) would allow it.”
“Ah! sir—but a thoughtless young person will sometimes step behind a window-curtain, and throw up a sash, without its being suspected. I have often known it done myself.”
“Ah! sir—but a careless young person will sometimes slip behind a window curtain and push up a sash without anyone noticing. I've seen it happen myself many times.”
“Have you indeed, sir?—Bless me! I never could have supposed it. But I live out of the world, and am often astonished at what I hear. However, this does make a difference; and, perhaps, when we come to talk it over—but these sort of things require a good deal of consideration. One cannot resolve upon them in a hurry. If Mr. and Mrs. Weston will be so obliging as to call here one morning, we may talk it over, and see what can be done.”
“Have you really, sir?—Wow! I would have never guessed it. But I’m out of the loop and often amazed by what I hear. This does change things, and maybe when we sit down to discuss it—still, these matters need a lot of thought. You can’t decide on them quickly. If Mr. and Mrs. Weston could be kind enough to come by one morning, we can talk it over and see what we can do.”
“But, unfortunately, sir, my time is so limited—”
“But, unfortunately, sir, I have very little time—”
“Oh!” interrupted Emma, “there will be plenty of time for talking every thing over. There is no hurry at all. If it can be contrived to be at the Crown, papa, it will be very convenient for the horses. They will be so near their own stable.”
“Oh!” Emma interrupted, “We’ll have plenty of time to discuss everything. There’s no rush at all. If we can arrange for it to be at the Crown, Dad, it will be really convenient for the horses. They'll be so close to their own stable.”
“So they will, my dear. That is a great thing. Not that James ever complains; but it is right to spare our horses when we can. If I could be sure of the rooms being thoroughly aired—but is Mrs. Stokes to be trusted? I doubt it. I do not know her, even by sight.”
“So they will, my dear. That’s a great thing. Not that James ever complains; but it’s right to spare our horses when we can. If I could be sure the rooms are well aired—but can we trust Mrs. Stokes? I have my doubts. I don’t even know her by sight.”
“I can answer for every thing of that nature, sir, because it will be under Mrs. Weston’s care. Mrs. Weston undertakes to direct the whole.”
“I can take care of everything related to that, sir, because it will be in Mrs. Weston’s hands. Mrs. Weston will oversee it all.”
“There, papa!—Now you must be satisfied—Our own dear Mrs. Weston, who is carefulness itself. Do not you remember what Mr. Perry said, so many years ago, when I had the measles? ‘If Miss Taylor undertakes to wrap Miss Emma up, you need not have any fears, sir.’ How often have I heard you speak of it as such a compliment to her!”
“There, Dad! Now you must be satisfied—our beloved Mrs. Weston, who is as careful as can be. Don’t you remember what Mr. Perry said so many years ago when I had the measles? ‘If Miss Taylor takes it upon herself to wrap up Miss Emma, you won’t have to worry, sir.’ How often have I heard you mention it as such a compliment to her!”
“Aye, very true. Mr. Perry did say so. I shall never forget it. Poor little Emma! You were very bad with the measles; that is, you would have been very bad, but for Perry’s great attention. He came four times a day for a week. He said, from the first, it was a very good sort—which was our great comfort; but the measles are a dreadful complaint. I hope whenever poor Isabella’s little ones have the measles, she will send for Perry.”
"Yes, that's true. Mr. Perry did say that. I will never forget it. Poor little Emma! You were really sick with the measles; well, you would have been really sick if not for Perry’s great care. He came four times a day for a week. He said from the start that it was a mild case—which was a relief for us; but measles are still a serious illness. I hope that whenever poor Isabella's kids have the measles, she will call for Perry."
“My father and Mrs. Weston are at the Crown at this moment,” said Frank Churchill, “examining the capabilities of the house. I left them there and came on to Hartfield, impatient for your opinion, and hoping you might be persuaded to join them and give your advice on the spot. I was desired to say so from both. It would be the greatest pleasure to them, if you could allow me to attend you there. They can do nothing satisfactorily without you.”
“My dad and Mrs. Weston are at the Crown right now,” said Frank Churchill. “I left them there and came over to Hartfield, eager for your opinion and hoping you might be convinced to join them and give your advice in person. They asked me to mention that. It would mean so much to them if you could let me take you there. They can’t really move forward without you.”
Emma was most happy to be called to such a council; and her father, engaging to think it all over while she was gone, the two young people set off together without delay for the Crown. There were Mr. and Mrs. Weston; delighted to see her and receive her approbation, very busy and very happy in their different way; she, in some little distress; and he, finding every thing perfect.
Emma was really happy to be invited to such a meeting, and her father promised to think it over while she was gone. The two of them headed off together right away to the Crown. Mr. and Mrs. Weston were thrilled to see her and to get her approval, both buzzing with excitement in their own ways; she was a bit stressed, while he thought everything was perfect.
“Emma,” said she, “this paper is worse than I expected. Look! in places you see it is dreadfully dirty; and the wainscot is more yellow and forlorn than any thing I could have imagined.”
“Emma,” she said, “this paper is worse than I thought. Look! In some spots, it’s shockingly dirty; and the woodwork is yellower and sadder than anything I could have imagined.”
“My dear, you are too particular,” said her husband. “What does all that signify? You will see nothing of it by candlelight. It will be as clean as Randalls by candlelight. We never see any thing of it on our club-nights.”
“My dear, you’re being too picky,” her husband said. “What does all that matter? You won’t see any of it by candlelight. It’ll look just as clean as Randalls in the candlelight. We never notice any of it on our club nights.”
The ladies here probably exchanged looks which meant, “Men never know when things are dirty or not;” and the gentlemen perhaps thought each to himself, “Women will have their little nonsenses and needless cares.”
The women here probably exchanged glances that meant, “Guys never know when things are messy or not;” and the men likely thought to themselves, “Women will have their little quirks and unnecessary worries.”
One perplexity, however, arose, which the gentlemen did not disdain. It regarded a supper-room. At the time of the ballroom’s being built, suppers had not been in question; and a small card-room adjoining, was the only addition. What was to be done? This card-room would be wanted as a card-room now; or, if cards were conveniently voted unnecessary by their four selves, still was it not too small for any comfortable supper? Another room of much better size might be secured for the purpose; but it was at the other end of the house, and a long awkward passage must be gone through to get at it. This made a difficulty. Mrs. Weston was afraid of draughts for the young people in that passage; and neither Emma nor the gentlemen could tolerate the prospect of being miserably crowded at supper.
One problem did come up, and the gentlemen didn't ignore it. It was about the supper room. When the ballroom was built, they hadn't considered having suppers, and a small card room next to it was the only extra space. What should they do? They needed the card room for playing cards now; or, if they all agreed that cards weren’t necessary, didn’t the space feel too small for a comfortable supper? There was another room that was a much better size for this purpose, but it was at the other end of the house, and they would have to go through a long, awkward hallway to reach it. This created a dilemma. Mrs. Weston was worried about drafts for the young people in that passage, and neither Emma nor the gentlemen wanted to deal with being uncomfortably crowded at supper.
Mrs. Weston proposed having no regular supper; merely sandwiches, &c., set out in the little room; but that was scouted as a wretched suggestion. A private dance, without sitting down to supper, was pronounced an infamous fraud upon the rights of men and women; and Mrs. Weston must not speak of it again. She then took another line of expediency, and looking into the doubtful room, observed,
Mrs. Weston suggested not having a regular supper, just some sandwiches, etc., laid out in the small room; but that idea was quickly dismissed as a terrible suggestion. A private dance without a supper was considered a sham that violated the rights of both men and women, and Mrs. Weston was told not to mention it again. She then took a different approach and, glancing into the uncertain room, remarked,
“I do not think it is so very small. We shall not be many, you know.”
“I don’t think it is that small. We won’t be a lot of people, you know.”
And Mr. Weston at the same time, walking briskly with long steps through the passage, was calling out,
And Mr. Weston, meanwhile, was striding quickly down the hallway, calling out,
“You talk a great deal of the length of this passage, my dear. It is a mere nothing after all; and not the least draught from the stairs.”
“You talk a lot about the length of this passage, my dear. It's really nothing at all; not even a slight draft from the stairs.”
“I wish,” said Mrs. Weston, “one could know which arrangement our guests in general would like best. To do what would be most generally pleasing must be our object—if one could but tell what that would be.”
“I wish,” said Mrs. Weston, “there was a way to know which arrangement our guests would prefer the most. Our goal should be to do what will please the majority—if only we could figure out what that is.”
“Yes, very true,” cried Frank, “very true. You want your neighbours’ opinions. I do not wonder at you. If one could ascertain what the chief of them—the Coles, for instance. They are not far off. Shall I call upon them? Or Miss Bates? She is still nearer.—And I do not know whether Miss Bates is not as likely to understand the inclinations of the rest of the people as any body. I think we do want a larger council. Suppose I go and invite Miss Bates to join us?”
“Yes, that’s really true,” exclaimed Frank, “completely true. You care about what your neighbors think. I don’t blame you. If only we could find out what the main ones think—the Coles, for example. They’re not far away. Should I pay them a visit? Or Miss Bates? She’s even closer. And I’m not sure if Miss Bates isn’t as likely to grasp the feelings of everyone else as anyone else. I think we do need a bigger group. How about I go and invite Miss Bates to join us?”
“Well—if you please,” said Mrs. Weston rather hesitating, “if you think she will be of any use.”
“Well—if you don’t mind,” said Mrs. Weston, a bit uncertain, “if you think she’ll be helpful.”
“You will get nothing to the purpose from Miss Bates,” said Emma. “She will be all delight and gratitude, but she will tell you nothing. She will not even listen to your questions. I see no advantage in consulting Miss Bates.”
“You won’t get anything useful from Miss Bates,” said Emma. “She’ll be full of joy and thanks, but she won’t provide any information. She won’t even pay attention to your questions. I don’t see any benefit in talking to Miss Bates.”
“But she is so amusing, so extremely amusing! I am very fond of hearing Miss Bates talk. And I need not bring the whole family, you know.”
"But she's so entertaining, really entertaining! I love listening to Miss Bates talk. And I don’t have to bring the whole family, you know."
Here Mr. Weston joined them, and on hearing what was proposed, gave it his decided approbation.
Here Mr. Weston joined them, and upon hearing what was proposed, expressed his strong approval.
“Aye, do, Frank.—Go and fetch Miss Bates, and let us end the matter at once. She will enjoy the scheme, I am sure; and I do not know a properer person for shewing us how to do away difficulties. Fetch Miss Bates. We are growing a little too nice. She is a standing lesson of how to be happy. But fetch them both. Invite them both.”
“Sure, Frank. Go get Miss Bates so we can settle this right away. I’m sure she’ll love the plan, and I can’t think of anyone better to show us how to overcome our obstacles. Get Miss Bates. We’re being a bit too picky. She’s a constant reminder of how to be happy. But get both of them. Invite both of them.”
“Both sir! Can the old lady?”...
“Both, sir! Can the old lady?”...
“The old lady! No, the young lady, to be sure. I shall think you a great blockhead, Frank, if you bring the aunt without the niece.”
“The old lady! No, the young lady, for sure. I’ll think you’re a total fool, Frank, if you bring the aunt without the niece.”
“Oh! I beg your pardon, sir. I did not immediately recollect. Undoubtedly if you wish it, I will endeavour to persuade them both.” And away he ran.
“Oh! I’m sorry, sir. I didn’t remember right away. If you want, I’ll do my best to convince both of them.” And off he went.
Long before he reappeared, attending the short, neat, brisk-moving aunt, and her elegant niece,—Mrs. Weston, like a sweet-tempered woman and a good wife, had examined the passage again, and found the evils of it much less than she had supposed before—indeed very trifling; and here ended the difficulties of decision. All the rest, in speculation at least, was perfectly smooth. All the minor arrangements of table and chair, lights and music, tea and supper, made themselves; or were left as mere trifles to be settled at any time between Mrs. Weston and Mrs. Stokes.—Every body invited, was certainly to come; Frank had already written to Enscombe to propose staying a few days beyond his fortnight, which could not possibly be refused. And a delightful dance it was to be.
Long before he showed up again, helping the brisk, tidy aunt and her classy niece, Mrs. Weston, being a kind-hearted woman and a good wife, had gone over the situation again and realized the problems were way less serious than she thought—actually very minor; and that settled her uncertainties. Everything else, at least in theory, was completely straightforward. All the little details like the table and chair arrangements, lighting and music, tea and snacks, took care of themselves or were just small things to figure out later between Mrs. Weston and Mrs. Stokes. Everyone invited was definitely going to come; Frank had already written to Enscombe to suggest extending his stay a few days past his original two weeks, which couldn’t possibly be turned down. And it was going to be a wonderful dance.
Most cordially, when Miss Bates arrived, did she agree that it must. As a counsellor she was not wanted; but as an approver, (a much safer character,) she was truly welcome. Her approbation, at once general and minute, warm and incessant, could not but please; and for another half-hour they were all walking to and fro, between the different rooms, some suggesting, some attending, and all in happy enjoyment of the future. The party did not break up without Emma’s being positively secured for the two first dances by the hero of the evening, nor without her overhearing Mr. Weston whisper to his wife, “He has asked her, my dear. That’s right. I knew he would!”
Most cordially, when Miss Bates arrived, she agreed that it had to happen. As a counselor, she wasn't needed; but as a supporter, (a much safer role,) she was genuinely welcome. Her approval, both general and detailed, enthusiastic and nonstop, was sure to please; and for another half hour, they all walked back and forth between the different rooms, some suggesting, some listening, and all happily enjoying the future. The party didn’t break up without Emma being definitely secured for the first two dances by the hero of the evening, nor without her overhearing Mr. Weston whisper to his wife, “He has asked her, my dear. That’s great. I knew he would!”
CHAPTER XII
One thing only was wanting to make the prospect of the ball completely satisfactory to Emma—its being fixed for a day within the granted term of Frank Churchill’s stay in Surry; for, in spite of Mr. Weston’s confidence, she could not think it so very impossible that the Churchills might not allow their nephew to remain a day beyond his fortnight. But this was not judged feasible. The preparations must take their time, nothing could be properly ready till the third week were entered on, and for a few days they must be planning, proceeding and hoping in uncertainty—at the risk—in her opinion, the great risk, of its being all in vain.
The only thing that would make the upcoming ball completely satisfying for Emma was if it was scheduled for a day during Frank Churchill’s stay in Surry. Despite Mr. Weston’s confidence, she couldn’t shake the feeling that it might not be possible for the Churchills to let their nephew stay even one day past his two-week visit. However, this was considered unfeasible. The preparations needed their time; nothing would really be ready until they entered the third week, and for a few days, they would have to plan, proceed, and hope while uncertain—at the risk—in her opinion, a significant risk—of it all being for nothing.
Enscombe however was gracious, gracious in fact, if not in word. His wish of staying longer evidently did not please; but it was not opposed. All was safe and prosperous; and as the removal of one solicitude generally makes way for another, Emma, being now certain of her ball, began to adopt as the next vexation Mr. Knightley’s provoking indifference about it. Either because he did not dance himself, or because the plan had been formed without his being consulted, he seemed resolved that it should not interest him, determined against its exciting any present curiosity, or affording him any future amusement. To her voluntary communications Emma could get no more approving reply, than,
Enscombe, however, was gracious, genuinely kind even if he didn’t quite express it in words. His desire to stay longer was clearly not welcomed, but it was also not rejected. Everything was fine and going well; and since getting rid of one worry usually opens the door for another, Emma, now confident about her ball, began to focus on Mr. Knightley’s annoying indifference toward it as her next annoyance. Whether it was because he didn’t dance or because the plans were made without asking him, he seemed determined not to care, set against feeling any current curiosity or looking forward to any future enjoyment. Emma’s attempts to share her excitement only earned her unenthusiastic responses like,
“Very well. If the Westons think it worth while to be at all this trouble for a few hours of noisy entertainment, I have nothing to say against it, but that they shall not chuse pleasures for me.—Oh! yes, I must be there; I could not refuse; and I will keep as much awake as I can; but I would rather be at home, looking over William Larkins’s week’s account; much rather, I confess.—Pleasure in seeing dancing!—not I, indeed—I never look at it—I do not know who does.—Fine dancing, I believe, like virtue, must be its own reward. Those who are standing by are usually thinking of something very different.”
“Alright then. If the Westons think it’s worth all this trouble for a few hours of loud entertainment, I won’t say anything against it, but they can’t choose my pleasures for me. Oh yes, I have to be there; I can’t refuse; and I’ll try to stay awake as much as I can, but I’d much rather be at home, going over William Larkins’s weekly account; I’d really prefer that, to be honest. Enjoyment in watching dancing? Not for me, I don’t really take an interest—I have no idea who does. Great dancing, like virtue, must find its own reward. Those who are watching usually have something very different in mind.”
This Emma felt was aimed at her; and it made her quite angry. It was not in compliment to Jane Fairfax however that he was so indifferent, or so indignant; he was not guided by her feelings in reprobating the ball, for she enjoyed the thought of it to an extraordinary degree. It made her animated—open hearted—she voluntarily said;—
This Emma felt was directed at her, and it made her really angry. His indifference or anger wasn’t a reflection of Jane Fairfax’s feelings; he wasn’t criticizing the ball because of her, since she was actually quite excited about it. It made her lively—open-hearted—she even said so herself;—
“Oh! Miss Woodhouse, I hope nothing may happen to prevent the ball. What a disappointment it would be! I do look forward to it, I own, with very great pleasure.”
“Oh! Miss Woodhouse, I hope nothing happens to stop the ball. What a disappointment that would be! I really do look forward to it, I have to admit, with very great pleasure.”
It was not to oblige Jane Fairfax therefore that he would have preferred the society of William Larkins. No!—she was more and more convinced that Mrs. Weston was quite mistaken in that surmise. There was a great deal of friendly and of compassionate attachment on his side—but no love.
It wasn’t to please Jane Fairfax that he would have chosen to be with William Larkins. No! She was more and more convinced that Mrs. Weston was totally wrong in that assumption. There was a lot of friendly and caring attachment on his part—but no love.
Alas! there was soon no leisure for quarrelling with Mr. Knightley. Two days of joyful security were immediately followed by the over-throw of every thing. A letter arrived from Mr. Churchill to urge his nephew’s instant return. Mrs. Churchill was unwell—far too unwell to do without him; she had been in a very suffering state (so said her husband) when writing to her nephew two days before, though from her usual unwillingness to give pain, and constant habit of never thinking of herself, she had not mentioned it; but now she was too ill to trifle, and must entreat him to set off for Enscombe without delay.
Unfortunately, there was soon no time for arguing with Mr. Knightley. Two days of happy peace were quickly followed by complete chaos. A letter arrived from Mr. Churchill urging his nephew to return immediately. Mrs. Churchill was unwell—far too unwell to be without him; she had been suffering (so her husband said) when she wrote to her nephew two days earlier, though out of her usual reluctance to cause worry and her constant habit of never thinking of herself, she hadn’t mentioned it; but now she was too sick to mess around and had to insist that he leave for Enscombe without delay.
The substance of this letter was forwarded to Emma, in a note from Mrs. Weston, instantly. As to his going, it was inevitable. He must be gone within a few hours, though without feeling any real alarm for his aunt, to lessen his repugnance. He knew her illnesses; they never occurred but for her own convenience.
The main point of this letter was quickly sent to Emma in a note from Mrs. Weston. As for his departure, it was unavoidable. He had to leave within a few hours, though he didn’t feel any genuine worry for his aunt to lessen his dislike. He knew how she was; her illnesses only happened when it suited her.
Mrs. Weston added, “that he could only allow himself time to hurry to Highbury, after breakfast, and take leave of the few friends there whom he could suppose to feel any interest in him; and that he might be expected at Hartfield very soon.”
Mrs. Weston added, “that he could only give himself time to rush to Highbury after breakfast and say goodbye to the few friends there who he thought might care about him; and that he could be expected at Hartfield very soon.”
This wretched note was the finale of Emma’s breakfast. When once it had been read, there was no doing any thing, but lament and exclaim. The loss of the ball—the loss of the young man—and all that the young man might be feeling!—It was too wretched!—Such a delightful evening as it would have been!—Every body so happy! and she and her partner the happiest!—“I said it would be so,” was the only consolation.
This terrible note ruined Emma’s breakfast. Once she read it, there was nothing to do but mourn and complain. The loss of the party—the loss of the guy—and everything he must be feeling! It was just too awful! What a wonderful evening it could have been! Everyone so happy! And she and her date the happiest of all! “I knew it would turn out this way,” was the only comfort she had.
Her father’s feelings were quite distinct. He thought principally of Mrs. Churchill’s illness, and wanted to know how she was treated; and as for the ball, it was shocking to have dear Emma disappointed; but they would all be safer at home.
Her father's feelings were very clear. He mostly thought about Mrs. Churchill’s illness and wanted to know how she was being treated; as for the ball, it was terrible that dear Emma was disappointed, but they would all be safer at home.
Emma was ready for her visitor some time before he appeared; but if this reflected at all upon his impatience, his sorrowful look and total want of spirits when he did come might redeem him. He felt the going away almost too much to speak of it. His dejection was most evident. He sat really lost in thought for the first few minutes; and when rousing himself, it was only to say,
Emma was prepared for her guest long before he showed up; however, if this showed any impatience on his part, his sad expression and complete lack of energy when he finally arrived could make up for it. He felt the departure deeply, making it almost too difficult to talk about. His sadness was clear. He appeared completely lost in thought for the first few minutes, and when he finally gathered himself, it was just to say,
“Of all horrid things, leave-taking is the worst.”
“Of all terrible things, saying goodbye is the hardest.”
“But you will come again,” said Emma. “This will not be your only visit to Randalls.”
“But you will come back,” Emma said. “This won't be your only visit to Randalls.”
“Ah!—(shaking his head)—the uncertainty of when I may be able to return!—I shall try for it with a zeal!—It will be the object of all my thoughts and cares!—and if my uncle and aunt go to town this spring—but I am afraid—they did not stir last spring—I am afraid it is a custom gone for ever.”
“Ah!—(shaking his head)—the uncertainty of when I can return!—I’ll pursue it with enthusiasm!—It will be the focus of all my thoughts and worries!—and if my uncle and aunt go to town this spring—but I’m afraid—they didn’t go last spring—I’m afraid it’s a tradition that’s gone for good.”
“Our poor ball must be quite given up.”
“Our poor ball must be completely given up.”
“Ah! that ball!—why did we wait for any thing?—why not seize the pleasure at once?—How often is happiness destroyed by preparation, foolish preparation!—You told us it would be so.—Oh! Miss Woodhouse, why are you always so right?”
“Ah! that party!—why did we wait for anything?—why not enjoy the moment right away?—How often does happiness get ruined by overthinking, ridiculous overthinking!—You told us it would be like this.—Oh! Miss Woodhouse, why are you always so spot on?”
“Indeed, I am very sorry to be right in this instance. I would much rather have been merry than wise.”
“Honestly, I really wish I wasn’t right this time. I would have much rather been happy than smart.”
“If I can come again, we are still to have our ball. My father depends on it. Do not forget your engagement.”
“If I can come back, we still have our ball to look forward to. My dad is counting on it. Don’t forget your promise.”
Emma looked graciously.
Emma looked elegant.
“Such a fortnight as it has been!” he continued; “every day more precious and more delightful than the day before!—every day making me less fit to bear any other place. Happy those, who can remain at Highbury!”
“Such a two weeks it has been!” he continued; “every day more valuable and more enjoyable than the one before!—every day making me less able to handle being anywhere else. Lucky are those who can stay in Highbury!”
“As you do us such ample justice now,” said Emma, laughing, “I will venture to ask, whether you did not come a little doubtfully at first? Do not we rather surpass your expectations? I am sure we do. I am sure you did not much expect to like us. You would not have been so long in coming, if you had had a pleasant idea of Highbury.”
“As you think so highly of us now,” Emma said with a laugh, “I’ll take a chance and ask if you didn’t have a few doubts at first? Don’t we exceed your expectations? I’m sure we do. I’m certain you didn’t expect to like us very much. You wouldn’t have taken so long to come if you had a good impression of Highbury.”
He laughed rather consciously; and though denying the sentiment, Emma was convinced that it had been so.
He laughed a bit self-consciously, and even though she denied it, Emma was sure that it was true.
“And you must be off this very morning?”
“And you have to leave this very morning?”
“Yes; my father is to join me here: we shall walk back together, and I must be off immediately. I am almost afraid that every moment will bring him.”
“Yes; my dad is coming to meet me here: we’ll walk back together, and I need to leave right away. I’m almost worried that he’ll arrive any minute.”
“Not five minutes to spare even for your friends Miss Fairfax and Miss Bates? How unlucky! Miss Bates’s powerful, argumentative mind might have strengthened yours.”
“Not even five minutes to spare for your friends Miss Fairfax and Miss Bates? How unfortunate! Miss Bates’s strong, persuasive mind could have helped sharpen yours.”
“Yes—I have called there; passing the door, I thought it better. It was a right thing to do. I went in for three minutes, and was detained by Miss Bates’s being absent. She was out; and I felt it impossible not to wait till she came in. She is a woman that one may, that one must laugh at; but that one would not wish to slight. It was better to pay my visit, then”—
“Yes—I did go by there; as I walked past the door, I thought it was best. It was the right thing to do. I went in for three minutes but got held up because Miss Bates wasn’t there. She was out, and I couldn’t just leave without waiting for her to come back. She’s someone you can, and should laugh at, but you wouldn’t want to disrespect. It was better to stop by, then”—
He hesitated, got up, walked to a window.
He paused, stood up, and walked to a window.
“In short,” said he, “perhaps, Miss Woodhouse—I think you can hardly be quite without suspicion”—
“In short,” he said, “maybe, Miss Woodhouse—I think you can't be completely without suspicion”—
He looked at her, as if wanting to read her thoughts. She hardly knew what to say. It seemed like the forerunner of something absolutely serious, which she did not wish. Forcing herself to speak, therefore, in the hope of putting it by, she calmly said,
He looked at her, as if he wanted to read her mind. She barely knew what to say. It felt like the lead-up to something really serious, which she didn’t want. So, forcing herself to speak in hopes of brushing it off, she calmly said,
“You are quite in the right; it was most natural to pay your visit, then”—
“You're absolutely right; it was totally natural to come visit, then”—
He was silent. She believed he was looking at her; probably reflecting on what she had said, and trying to understand the manner. She heard him sigh. It was natural for him to feel that he had cause to sigh. He could not believe her to be encouraging him. A few awkward moments passed, and he sat down again; and in a more determined manner said,
He was quiet. She thought he was looking at her, probably thinking about what she had said and trying to understand her tone. She heard him sigh. It made sense for him to feel like he had a reason to sigh. He couldn’t believe she was encouraging him. A few uncomfortable moments went by, and he sat down again; then, in a more determined way, he said,
“It was something to feel that all the rest of my time might be given to Hartfield. My regard for Hartfield is most warm”—
“It felt amazing to think that I could spend all my time at Hartfield. My feelings for Hartfield are very strong.”
He stopt again, rose again, and seemed quite embarrassed.—He was more in love with her than Emma had supposed; and who can say how it might have ended, if his father had not made his appearance? Mr. Woodhouse soon followed; and the necessity of exertion made him composed.
He stopped again, got up again, and seemed really awkward. He was more in love with her than Emma had thought; and who knows how it might have turned out if his father hadn't shown up? Mr. Woodhouse arrived soon after, and the need to take action helped him regain his composure.
A very few minutes more, however, completed the present trial. Mr. Weston, always alert when business was to be done, and as incapable of procrastinating any evil that was inevitable, as of foreseeing any that was doubtful, said, “It was time to go;” and the young man, though he might and did sigh, could not but agree, to take leave.
A few more minutes wrapped up the current situation. Mr. Weston, always attentive when there was work to be done and just as unable to delay any unavoidable issues as he was to predict any uncertain ones, stated, “It’s time to leave;” and the young man, even though he sighed, couldn’t help but agree to say goodbye.
“I shall hear about you all,” said he; “that is my chief consolation. I shall hear of every thing that is going on among you. I have engaged Mrs. Weston to correspond with me. She has been so kind as to promise it. Oh! the blessing of a female correspondent, when one is really interested in the absent!—she will tell me every thing. In her letters I shall be at dear Highbury again.”
“I’ll hear all about you,” he said; “that’s my main comfort. I’ll know everything that’s happening with you. I’ve asked Mrs. Weston to write to me. She’s been nice enough to agree to it. Oh! The joy of having a female correspondent when you really care about those who are far away!—she will tell me everything. In her letters, I’ll feel like I’m back in dear Highbury again.”
A very friendly shake of the hand, a very earnest “Good-bye,” closed the speech, and the door had soon shut out Frank Churchill. Short had been the notice—short their meeting; he was gone; and Emma felt so sorry to part, and foresaw so great a loss to their little society from his absence as to begin to be afraid of being too sorry, and feeling it too much.
A warm handshake and a sincere “Goodbye” wrapped up the conversation, and soon the door closed on Frank Churchill. The notice had been brief—so was their meeting; he was gone, and Emma felt sad to say goodbye. She anticipated how much their little group would miss him and started to worry that she might be feeling too sad about it.
It was a sad change. They had been meeting almost every day since his arrival. Certainly his being at Randalls had given great spirit to the last two weeks—indescribable spirit; the idea, the expectation of seeing him which every morning had brought, the assurance of his attentions, his liveliness, his manners! It had been a very happy fortnight, and forlorn must be the sinking from it into the common course of Hartfield days. To complete every other recommendation, he had almost told her that he loved her. What strength, or what constancy of affection he might be subject to, was another point; but at present she could not doubt his having a decidedly warm admiration, a conscious preference of herself; and this persuasion, joined to all the rest, made her think that she must be a little in love with him, in spite of every previous determination against it.
It was a disappointing change. They had been meeting almost every day since he arrived. His time at Randalls had brought so much energy to the last two weeks—an indescribable energy; the anticipation of seeing him every morning, the certainty of his attention, his excitement, his charm! It had been a very happy two weeks, and it felt bleak to go back to the usual routine of Hartfield days. On top of everything else, he had *almost* told her that he loved her. What depth or consistency his feelings might have was another question; but for now, she couldn't doubt that he had a clear, strong admiration for her, a conscious preference for her. This belief, combined with everything else, made her think that she *had* to be a little in love with him, despite all her previous resolutions against it.
“I certainly must,” said she. “This sensation of listlessness, weariness, stupidity, this disinclination to sit down and employ myself, this feeling of every thing’s being dull and insipid about the house!— I must be in love; I should be the oddest creature in the world if I were not—for a few weeks at least. Well! evil to some is always good to others. I shall have many fellow-mourners for the ball, if not for Frank Churchill; but Mr. Knightley will be happy. He may spend the evening with his dear William Larkins now if he likes.”
“I definitely have to,” she said. “This feeling of being restless, tired, and clueless, this lack of motivation to sit down and do something, this sense that everything around the house is boring and bland!—I must be in love; I’d be the strangest person in the world if I weren’t—for at least a little while. Well! What’s bad for some is always good for others. I’ll have plenty of company to grieve for the ball, if not for Frank Churchill; but Mr. Knightley will be happy. He can spend the evening with his dear William Larkins now if he wants.”
Mr. Knightley, however, shewed no triumphant happiness. He could not say that he was sorry on his own account; his very cheerful look would have contradicted him if he had; but he said, and very steadily, that he was sorry for the disappointment of the others, and with considerable kindness added,
Mr. Knightley, however, showed no triumphant happiness. He couldn’t say that he was sorry for himself; his cheerful expression would have contradicted him if he had. But he clearly stated that he was sorry for the disappointment of the others, and with a lot of kindness added,
“You, Emma, who have so few opportunities of dancing, you are really out of luck; you are very much out of luck!”
“You, Emma, who have so few chances to dance, you’re really out of luck; you’re really out of luck!”
It was some days before she saw Jane Fairfax, to judge of her honest regret in this woeful change; but when they did meet, her composure was odious. She had been particularly unwell, however, suffering from headache to a degree, which made her aunt declare, that had the ball taken place, she did not think Jane could have attended it; and it was charity to impute some of her unbecoming indifference to the languor of ill-health.
It was a few days before she saw Jane Fairfax, to gauge her genuine sadness about this unfortunate change; but when they finally met, her calmness was unbearable. She had been feeling particularly unwell, suffering from a headache that made her aunt say that if the ball had happened, she didn't think Jane could have gone. It was kind to attribute some of her inappropriate indifference to the fatigue of being unwell.
CHAPTER XIII
Emma continued to entertain no doubt of her being in love. Her ideas only varied as to the how much. At first, she thought it was a good deal; and afterwards, but little. She had great pleasure in hearing Frank Churchill talked of; and, for his sake, greater pleasure than ever in seeing Mr. and Mrs. Weston; she was very often thinking of him, and quite impatient for a letter, that she might know how he was, how were his spirits, how was his aunt, and what was the chance of his coming to Randalls again this spring. But, on the other hand, she could not admit herself to be unhappy, nor, after the first morning, to be less disposed for employment than usual; she was still busy and cheerful; and, pleasing as he was, she could yet imagine him to have faults; and farther, though thinking of him so much, and, as she sat drawing or working, forming a thousand amusing schemes for the progress and close of their attachment, fancying interesting dialogues, and inventing elegant letters; the conclusion of every imaginary declaration on his side was that she refused him. Their affection was always to subside into friendship. Every thing tender and charming was to mark their parting; but still they were to part. When she became sensible of this, it struck her that she could not be very much in love; for in spite of her previous and fixed determination never to quit her father, never to marry, a strong attachment certainly must produce more of a struggle than she could foresee in her own feelings.
Emma still had no doubt that she was in love. Her thoughts just varied about the extent of it. At first, she believed it was quite strong; then later, she thought it was less so. She enjoyed hearing people talk about Frank Churchill and, for his sake, found even greater joy in seeing Mr. and Mrs. Weston. She often thought about him and eagerly awaited a letter to know how he was doing, how his spirits were, how his aunt was, and whether he would be coming to Randalls again this spring. However, she couldn’t allow herself to feel unhappy, and after the first morning, she remained as busy and cheerful as usual. Despite how charming he was, she could still imagine he had faults. Also, while she was thinking about him, whether she was drawing or working, she envisioned countless entertaining scenarios for the development and conclusion of their relationship, dreaming up interesting conversations and crafting elegant letters. Yet every imagined confession from him ended with her refusing him. Their love was always destined to fade into friendship. Everything tender and lovely was meant to mark their goodbye; but they were still going to part ways. Realizing this made her think that she couldn’t be truly in love, because despite her firm decision never to leave her father and never to marry, a strong attachment would surely cause more of a struggle than she had anticipated in her own feelings.
“I do not find myself making any use of the word sacrifice,” said she.—“In not one of all my clever replies, my delicate negatives, is there any allusion to making a sacrifice. I do suspect that he is not really necessary to my happiness. So much the better. I certainly will not persuade myself to feel more than I do. I am quite enough in love. I should be sorry to be more.”
“I don’t really use the word sacrifice,” she said. “In none of my witty comebacks or subtle denials is there any hint of making a sacrifice. I do think he’s not truly essential to my happiness. That’s even better. I definitely won’t try to feel more than I do. I’m already in love enough. I would hate to feel more.”
Upon the whole, she was equally contented with her view of his feelings.
Overall, she was just as satisfied with how she perceived his feelings.
“He is undoubtedly very much in love—every thing denotes it—very much in love indeed!—and when he comes again, if his affection continue, I must be on my guard not to encourage it.—It would be most inexcusable to do otherwise, as my own mind is quite made up. Not that I imagine he can think I have been encouraging him hitherto. No, if he had believed me at all to share his feelings, he would not have been so wretched. Could he have thought himself encouraged, his looks and language at parting would have been different.—Still, however, I must be on my guard. This is in the supposition of his attachment continuing what it now is; but I do not know that I expect it will; I do not look upon him to be quite the sort of man—I do not altogether build upon his steadiness or constancy.—His feelings are warm, but I can imagine them rather changeable.—Every consideration of the subject, in short, makes me thankful that my happiness is not more deeply involved.—I shall do very well again after a little while—and then, it will be a good thing over; for they say every body is in love once in their lives, and I shall have been let off easily.”
He is definitely very much in love—everything shows it—very much in love indeed!—and when he comes back, if his feelings remain, I need to be careful not to encourage it. It would be totally unforgivable to do otherwise since I’ve made up my mind. Not that I think he could believe I’ve been encouraging him so far. No, if he had thought I shared his feelings, he wouldn’t have been so miserable. If he really thought he was getting encouragement, his expressions and words at parting would have been different. Still, I have to stay cautious. This is assuming his feelings stay the same, but I’m not sure I expect that it will; I don’t see him as the type of guy I can rely on—I’m not counting on his steadiness or commitment. His feelings are intense, but I can picture them being quite fickle. All in all, thinking about this makes me grateful that my happiness isn’t more deeply involved. I’ll be just fine again after a little while—and then it’ll be all over; they say everyone falls in love at least once in their lives, and I’ll have gotten off easy.
When his letter to Mrs. Weston arrived, Emma had the perusal of it; and she read it with a degree of pleasure and admiration which made her at first shake her head over her own sensations, and think she had undervalued their strength. It was a long, well-written letter, giving the particulars of his journey and of his feelings, expressing all the affection, gratitude, and respect which was natural and honourable, and describing every thing exterior and local that could be supposed attractive, with spirit and precision. No suspicious flourishes now of apology or concern; it was the language of real feeling towards Mrs. Weston; and the transition from Highbury to Enscombe, the contrast between the places in some of the first blessings of social life was just enough touched on to shew how keenly it was felt, and how much more might have been said but for the restraints of propriety.—The charm of her own name was not wanting. Miss Woodhouse appeared more than once, and never without a something of pleasing connexion, either a compliment to her taste, or a remembrance of what she had said; and in the very last time of its meeting her eye, unadorned as it was by any such broad wreath of gallantry, she yet could discern the effect of her influence and acknowledge the greatest compliment perhaps of all conveyed. Compressed into the very lowest vacant corner were these words—“I had not a spare moment on Tuesday, as you know, for Miss Woodhouse’s beautiful little friend. Pray make my excuses and adieus to her.” This, Emma could not doubt, was all for herself. Harriet was remembered only from being her friend. His information and prospects as to Enscombe were neither worse nor better than had been anticipated; Mrs. Churchill was recovering, and he dared not yet, even in his own imagination, fix a time for coming to Randalls again.
When his letter to Mrs. Weston arrived, Emma read it and felt a mix of pleasure and admiration that made her question her own feelings and realize she had underestimated their intensity. It was a long, well-written letter that detailed his journey and emotions, expressing all the affection, gratitude, and respect that felt natural and honorable. He described everything about the places that could be seen as appealing, with enthusiasm and clarity. There were no suspicious gestures of apology or concern; it was genuine expression of his feelings toward Mrs. Weston. The shift from Highbury to Enscombe and the difference between the two places, touching on some of the initial joys of social life, was just enough to show how deeply it was felt and how much more he could have shared if it weren't for the constraints of propriety. The charm of her own name was present too. Miss Woodhouse appeared several times, always connected to something pleasing, either a compliment about her taste or a recollection of what she had said. Even in the last instance when her name caught her eye, though it wasn't adorned with overt flattery, she could still see the impact of her influence and acknowledged what might be the greatest compliment of all contained within. Tucked into the lowest corner were these words—“I had no spare moment on Tuesday, as you know, for Miss Woodhouse’s beautiful little friend. Please send my apologies and goodbyes to her.” Emma knew this was meant entirely for her. Harriet was only mentioned because she was her friend. His updates and expectations regarding Enscombe were neither better nor worse than anticipated; Mrs. Churchill was recovering, and he didn’t dare even imagine when he could come back to Randalls.
Gratifying, however, and stimulative as was the letter in the material part, its sentiments, she yet found, when it was folded up and returned to Mrs. Weston, that it had not added any lasting warmth, that she could still do without the writer, and that he must learn to do without her. Her intentions were unchanged. Her resolution of refusal only grew more interesting by the addition of a scheme for his subsequent consolation and happiness. His recollection of Harriet, and the words which clothed it, the “beautiful little friend,” suggested to her the idea of Harriet’s succeeding her in his affections. Was it impossible?—No.—Harriet undoubtedly was greatly his inferior in understanding; but he had been very much struck with the loveliness of her face and the warm simplicity of her manner; and all the probabilities of circumstance and connexion were in her favour.—For Harriet, it would be advantageous and delightful indeed.
Although the letter was satisfying and motivating in some ways, she found, as she folded it up and handed it back to Mrs. Weston, that it hadn't created any lasting warmth. She realized she could still live without the writer, and he would have to learn to live without her. Her intentions remained the same. Her decision to refuse him became more intriguing as she added plans for his future comfort and happiness. His memory of Harriet, along with the words that described it—the “beautiful little friend”—made her think about Harriet taking her place in his heart. Was it impossible? Not at all. Harriet clearly didn’t match her in intelligence, but he had been really taken by her lovely face and the genuine simplicity of her personality. Plus, all the circumstances and connections seemed to favor Harriet. For her, it would indeed be beneficial and wonderful.
“I must not dwell upon it,” said she.—“I must not think of it. I know the danger of indulging such speculations. But stranger things have happened; and when we cease to care for each other as we do now, it will be the means of confirming us in that sort of true disinterested friendship which I can already look forward to with pleasure.”
“I shouldn’t focus on it,” she said. “I shouldn’t think about it. I know the risk of getting lost in such thoughts. But stranger things have happened; and when we stop caring for each other the way we do now, it will lead us to that kind of genuine, selfless friendship that I can already look forward to with happiness.”
It was well to have a comfort in store on Harriet’s behalf, though it might be wise to let the fancy touch it seldom; for evil in that quarter was at hand. As Frank Churchill’s arrival had succeeded Mr. Elton’s engagement in the conversation of Highbury, as the latest interest had entirely borne down the first, so now upon Frank Churchill’s disappearance, Mr. Elton’s concerns were assuming the most irresistible form.—His wedding-day was named. He would soon be among them again; Mr. Elton and his bride. There was hardly time to talk over the first letter from Enscombe before “Mr. Elton and his bride” was in every body’s mouth, and Frank Churchill was forgotten. Emma grew sick at the sound. She had had three weeks of happy exemption from Mr. Elton; and Harriet’s mind, she had been willing to hope, had been lately gaining strength. With Mr. Weston’s ball in view at least, there had been a great deal of insensibility to other things; but it was now too evident that she had not attained such a state of composure as could stand against the actual approach—new carriage, bell-ringing, and all.
It was good to have some comfort for Harriet, even if it was best not to dwell on it too much, because trouble was coming. Just as Frank Churchill's arrival had taken over the conversation in Highbury after Mr. Elton's engagement had captured everyone's attention, now with Frank Churchill gone, Mr. Elton's situation was becoming impossible to ignore. His wedding day was set. He would be back among them soon—Mr. Elton and his bride. There was hardly any time to discuss the first letter from Enscombe before “Mr. Elton and his bride” was on everyone’s lips, and Frank Churchill was forgotten. Emma felt sick at the sound. She had enjoyed three weeks free from Mr. Elton’s presence, and she had hoped Harriet’s spirits were lifting. With Mr. Weston’s ball coming up, they had both been distracted from other concerns, but it was now clear that Harriet hadn’t reached a level of calm that could withstand the reality of what was approaching—new carriage, bells ringing, and everything else.
Poor Harriet was in a flutter of spirits which required all the reasonings and soothings and attentions of every kind that Emma could give. Emma felt that she could not do too much for her, that Harriet had a right to all her ingenuity and all her patience; but it was heavy work to be for ever convincing without producing any effect, for ever agreed to, without being able to make their opinions the same. Harriet listened submissively, and said “it was very true—it was just as Miss Woodhouse described—it was not worth while to think about them—and she would not think about them any longer” but no change of subject could avail, and the next half-hour saw her as anxious and restless about the Eltons as before. At last Emma attacked her on another ground.
Poor Harriet was a bundle of nerves, needing all the reasoning, comforting, and attention that Emma could provide. Emma felt she couldn't do enough for her; Harriet deserved every bit of her creativity and patience. But it was exhausting to keep trying to convince her without seeing any results, to agree without aligning their thoughts. Harriet listened quietly and said, “That’s very true—just as Miss Woodhouse said—it’s not worth worrying about them—and I won’t think about them anymore,” but changing the subject didn’t help, and the next half-hour saw her just as anxious and restless about the Eltons as before. Finally, Emma decided to approach her from a different angle.
“Your allowing yourself to be so occupied and so unhappy about Mr. Elton’s marrying, Harriet, is the strongest reproach you can make me. You could not give me a greater reproof for the mistake I fell into. It was all my doing, I know. I have not forgotten it, I assure you.—Deceived myself, I did very miserably deceive you—and it will be a painful reflection to me for ever. Do not imagine me in danger of forgetting it.”
"Your letting yourself be so consumed and so unhappy about Mr. Elton marrying Harriet is the biggest accusation you can make against me. You couldn’t give me a harsher critique for the mistake I made. I know it was all my fault. I haven't forgotten it, I promise you. I deceived myself, and I ended up deceiving you too—and that will always be a painful thought for me. Don’t think for a second that I might forget it."
Harriet felt this too much to utter more than a few words of eager exclamation. Emma continued,
Harriet felt this so strongly that she could only manage a few excited words. Emma continued,
“I have not said, exert yourself Harriet for my sake; think less, talk less of Mr. Elton for my sake; because for your own sake rather, I would wish it to be done, for the sake of what is more important than my comfort, a habit of self-command in you, a consideration of what is your duty, an attention to propriety, an endeavour to avoid the suspicions of others, to save your health and credit, and restore your tranquillity. These are the motives which I have been pressing on you. They are very important—and sorry I am that you cannot feel them sufficiently to act upon them. My being saved from pain is a very secondary consideration. I want you to save yourself from greater pain. Perhaps I may sometimes have felt that Harriet would not forget what was due—or rather what would be kind by me.”
“I haven’t asked you to push yourself, Harriet, just for my sake; I’d prefer if you thought less and talked less about Mr. Elton, not for me, but for your own good. It's about developing self-control, considering your responsibilities, paying attention to what’s appropriate, trying to avoid others' suspicions, and taking care of your health and reputation so you can find peace again. These are the reasons I’ve been stressing to you. They really matter, and I’m sorry you can’t see them clearly enough to act on them. My own comfort comes second; I want you to protect yourself from even greater pain. I might have sometimes felt that Harriet wouldn’t forget what was right—or rather, what would be considerate of me.”
This appeal to her affections did more than all the rest. The idea of wanting gratitude and consideration for Miss Woodhouse, whom she really loved extremely, made her wretched for a while, and when the violence of grief was comforted away, still remained powerful enough to prompt to what was right and support her in it very tolerably.
This appeal to her feelings did more than anything else. The thought of wanting gratitude and care for Miss Woodhouse, whom she genuinely loved a lot, made her miserable for a while. Even after the intensity of her grief lessened, it still motivated her to do the right thing and helped her manage it reasonably well.
“You, who have been the best friend I ever had in my life—Want gratitude to you!—Nobody is equal to you!—I care for nobody as I do for you!—Oh! Miss Woodhouse, how ungrateful I have been!”
“You, who have been the best friend I've ever had in my life—Thank you!—No one compares to you!—I care for no one the way I do for you!—Oh! Miss Woodhouse, how ungrateful I've been!”
Such expressions, assisted as they were by every thing that look and manner could do, made Emma feel that she had never loved Harriet so well, nor valued her affection so highly before.
Such expressions, aided by everything that appearance and behavior could convey, made Emma realize that she had never loved Harriet as much, nor appreciated her affection as deeply, before.
“There is no charm equal to tenderness of heart,” said she afterwards to herself. “There is nothing to be compared to it. Warmth and tenderness of heart, with an affectionate, open manner, will beat all the clearness of head in the world, for attraction, I am sure it will. It is tenderness of heart which makes my dear father so generally beloved—which gives Isabella all her popularity.—I have it not—but I know how to prize and respect it.—Harriet is my superior in all the charm and all the felicity it gives. Dear Harriet!—I would not change you for the clearest-headed, longest-sighted, best-judging female breathing. Oh! the coldness of a Jane Fairfax!—Harriet is worth a hundred such—And for a wife—a sensible man’s wife—it is invaluable. I mention no names; but happy the man who changes Emma for Harriet!”
“There’s no charm that compares to a tender heart,” she said to herself later. “Nothing else can match it. Warmth and a kind heart, along with an affectionate, open manner, will always be more attractive than any intelligence in the world, I’m sure of it. It’s that tenderness of heart that makes my dear father so loved by everyone—and that gives Isabella all her popularity. I don’t have it, but I know how to appreciate and respect it. Harriet is superior to me in all the charm and happiness it brings. Dear Harriet! I wouldn’t trade you for the smartest, most level-headed, most perceptive woman out there. Oh! The coldness of a Jane Fairfax! Harriet is worth a hundred of her—and for a husband, a sensible man’s wife—it’s priceless. I won’t name names, but happy is the man who chooses Emma over Harriet!”
CHAPTER XIV
Mrs. Elton was first seen at church: but though devotion might be interrupted, curiosity could not be satisfied by a bride in a pew, and it must be left for the visits in form which were then to be paid, to settle whether she were very pretty indeed, or only rather pretty, or not pretty at all.
Mrs. Elton was first spotted at church: but while devotion might be interrupted, curiosity couldn’t be satisfied by a bride sitting in a pew, and it would have to wait for the official visits to determine whether she was stunning, just okay looking, or not attractive at all.
Emma had feelings, less of curiosity than of pride or propriety, to make her resolve on not being the last to pay her respects; and she made a point of Harriet’s going with her, that the worst of the business might be gone through as soon as possible.
Emma felt more a sense of pride and proper behavior than curiosity, which made her decide not to be the last to pay her respects. She insisted that Harriet join her so they could get the worst part of the situation over with as soon as possible.
She could not enter the house again, could not be in the same room to which she had with such vain artifice retreated three months ago, to lace up her boot, without recollecting. A thousand vexatious thoughts would recur. Compliments, charades, and horrible blunders; and it was not to be supposed that poor Harriet should not be recollecting too; but she behaved very well, and was only rather pale and silent. The visit was of course short; and there was so much embarrassment and occupation of mind to shorten it, that Emma would not allow herself entirely to form an opinion of the lady, and on no account to give one, beyond the nothing-meaning terms of being “elegantly dressed, and very pleasing.”
She couldn’t go back into the house, couldn’t be in the same room where she had so foolishly withdrawn three months earlier to tie her boot, without remembering. A thousand annoying thoughts kept coming back. Compliments, games, and terrible mistakes; it was impossible to think that poor Harriet wasn’t remembering too, but she held it together, only looking a bit pale and quiet. The visit was, of course, brief; and there was so much awkwardness and distraction to keep it short that Emma didn’t let herself fully form an opinion of the woman, and she absolutely wouldn’t share one, other than the meaningless remark that she was “elegantly dressed, and very pleasing.”
She did not really like her. She would not be in a hurry to find fault, but she suspected that there was no elegance;—ease, but not elegance.— She was almost sure that for a young woman, a stranger, a bride, there was too much ease. Her person was rather good; her face not unpretty; but neither feature, nor air, nor voice, nor manner, were elegant. Emma thought at least it would turn out so.
She didn’t really like her. She wouldn’t rush to criticize, but she suspected there was no sophistication—just comfort, but not elegance. She was pretty sure that for a young woman, a stranger, and a bride, there was too much casualness. Her looks were decent; her face was somewhat pretty; but none of her features, demeanor, voice, or mannerisms were elegant. Emma thought it would at least end up being that way.
As for Mr. Elton, his manners did not appear—but no, she would not permit a hasty or a witty word from herself about his manners. It was an awkward ceremony at any time to be receiving wedding visits, and a man had need be all grace to acquit himself well through it. The woman was better off; she might have the assistance of fine clothes, and the privilege of bashfulness, but the man had only his own good sense to depend on; and when she considered how peculiarly unlucky poor Mr. Elton was in being in the same room at once with the woman he had just married, the woman he had wanted to marry, and the woman whom he had been expected to marry, she must allow him to have the right to look as little wise, and to be as much affectedly, and as little really easy as could be.
As for Mr. Elton, his behavior didn't really seem—wait, she wouldn’t let herself say anything hasty or clever about his manners. It was always a bit awkward to be receiving wedding visits, and a man really needed to be graceful to handle it well. The woman had it easier; she could rely on nice clothes and the luxury of being a bit shy, but the man had only his own common sense to rely on. And when she thought about how particularly unfortunate poor Mr. Elton was to be in the same room with the woman he had just married, the woman he wanted to marry, and the woman he was expected to marry, she had to admit he had every right to look confused and to be as much put on and as little genuinely relaxed as possible.
“Well, Miss Woodhouse,” said Harriet, when they had quitted the house, and after waiting in vain for her friend to begin; “Well, Miss Woodhouse, (with a gentle sigh,) what do you think of her?—Is not she very charming?”
“Well, Miss Woodhouse,” said Harriet, after they left the house and waited in vain for her friend to start; “Well, Miss Woodhouse,” (with a gentle sigh,) “what do you think of her? Isn’t she very charming?”
There was a little hesitation in Emma’s answer.
There was a slight pause in Emma's response.
“Oh! yes—very—a very pleasing young woman.”
“Oh, yes—definitely—a really charming young woman.”
“I think her beautiful, quite beautiful.”
"I think she's beautiful, really beautiful."
“Very nicely dressed, indeed; a remarkably elegant gown.”
“Very nicely dressed, for sure; a truly elegant dress.”
“I am not at all surprized that he should have fallen in love.”
"I’m not surprised at all that he fell in love."
“Oh! no—there is nothing to surprize one at all.—A pretty fortune; and she came in his way.”
“Oh! no—there’s nothing surprising about it at all. A nice fortune; and she just happened to cross his path.”
“I dare say,” returned Harriet, sighing again, “I dare say she was very much attached to him.”
“I bet,” Harriet replied with another sigh, “I bet she was really attached to him.”
“Perhaps she might; but it is not every man’s fate to marry the woman who loves him best. Miss Hawkins perhaps wanted a home, and thought this the best offer she was likely to have.”
“Maybe she would; but it’s not every guy's destiny to marry the woman who loves him the most. Miss Hawkins might have wanted a home and thought this was the best offer she was going to get.”
“Yes,” said Harriet earnestly, “and well she might, nobody could ever have a better. Well, I wish them happy with all my heart. And now, Miss Woodhouse, I do not think I shall mind seeing them again. He is just as superior as ever;—but being married, you know, it is quite a different thing. No, indeed, Miss Woodhouse, you need not be afraid; I can sit and admire him now without any great misery. To know that he has not thrown himself away, is such a comfort!—She does seem a charming young woman, just what he deserves. Happy creature! He called her ‘Augusta.’ How delightful!”
“Yes,” Harriet said earnestly, “and she absolutely deserves it; nobody could have a better partner. I truly wish them all the happiness in the world. And now, Miss Woodhouse, I don’t think I’ll mind seeing them again. He’s just as impressive as ever; but since he’s married, you know, it feels completely different. No, really, Miss Woodhouse, you don’t need to worry; I can sit and admire him now without feeling miserable. Knowing that he hasn’t made a poor choice is such a relief! She seems like a lovely young woman, just what he deserves. Lucky girl! He called her ‘Augusta.’ How wonderful!”
When the visit was returned, Emma made up her mind. She could then see more and judge better. From Harriet’s happening not to be at Hartfield, and her father’s being present to engage Mr. Elton, she had a quarter of an hour of the lady’s conversation to herself, and could composedly attend to her; and the quarter of an hour quite convinced her that Mrs. Elton was a vain woman, extremely well satisfied with herself, and thinking much of her own importance; that she meant to shine and be very superior, but with manners which had been formed in a bad school, pert and familiar; that all her notions were drawn from one set of people, and one style of living; that if not foolish she was ignorant, and that her society would certainly do Mr. Elton no good.
When the visit was reciprocated, Emma made up her mind. She could now see more clearly and judge better. Since Harriet wasn’t at Hartfield and her father was there to keep Mr. Elton occupied, she had a good fifteen minutes of conversation with Mrs. Elton to herself, allowing her to pay attention calmly; and that fifteen minutes completely convinced her that Mrs. Elton was a vain woman, very pleased with herself, and overly full of her own significance; that she intended to stand out and appear very superior, but had a manner that had been shaped in a poor environment, forward and overly familiar; that all her ideas came from just one group of people and one way of living; that if she wasn't foolish, she was definitely ignorant, and that being with her would surely be of no benefit to Mr. Elton.
Harriet would have been a better match. If not wise or refined herself, she would have connected him with those who were; but Miss Hawkins, it might be fairly supposed from her easy conceit, had been the best of her own set. The rich brother-in-law near Bristol was the pride of the alliance, and his place and his carriages were the pride of him.
Harriet would have been a better match. Even if she wasn’t particularly wise or sophisticated, she would have introduced him to those who were. However, it could be said that Miss Hawkins, with her easy self-importance, was the standout of her own group. The wealthy brother-in-law near Bristol was the pride of the family alliance, and his estate and carriages were a source of pride for him.
The very first subject after being seated was Maple Grove, “My brother Mr. Suckling’s seat;”—a comparison of Hartfield to Maple Grove. The grounds of Hartfield were small, but neat and pretty; and the house was modern and well-built. Mrs. Elton seemed most favourably impressed by the size of the room, the entrance, and all that she could see or imagine. “Very like Maple Grove indeed!—She was quite struck by the likeness!—That room was the very shape and size of the morning-room at Maple Grove; her sister’s favourite room.”—Mr. Elton was appealed to.—“Was not it astonishingly like?—She could really almost fancy herself at Maple Grove.”
The first topic after they sat down was Maple Grove. “That's my brother Mr. Suckling’s place,”—a comparison of Hartfield to Maple Grove. The grounds at Hartfield were small but tidy and charming, and the house was modern and well-built. Mrs. Elton seemed really impressed by the size of the room, the entrance, and everything she could see or picture. “So much like Maple Grove indeed!—She was really taken aback by how similar it was!—That room was exactly the shape and size of the morning room at Maple Grove; her sister’s favorite room.” Mr. Elton was asked for his opinion. “Isn't it astonishingly similar?—She could almost imagine herself at Maple Grove.”
“And the staircase—You know, as I came in, I observed how very like the staircase was; placed exactly in the same part of the house. I really could not help exclaiming! I assure you, Miss Woodhouse, it is very delightful to me, to be reminded of a place I am so extremely partial to as Maple Grove. I have spent so many happy months there! (with a little sigh of sentiment). A charming place, undoubtedly. Every body who sees it is struck by its beauty; but to me, it has been quite a home. Whenever you are transplanted, like me, Miss Woodhouse, you will understand how very delightful it is to meet with any thing at all like what one has left behind. I always say this is quite one of the evils of matrimony.”
“And the staircase—You know, when I walked in, I noticed how much the staircase resembled the one in my old house; it’s located in the exact same spot. I couldn't help but exclaim! I assure you, Miss Woodhouse, it’s truly wonderful for me to be reminded of a place I love so much like Maple Grove. I've spent so many happy months there! (with a little sigh of sentiment). A lovely place, no doubt. Everyone who sees it is impressed by its beauty; but for me, it has felt like home. Whenever you find yourself moved, like I have, Miss Woodhouse, you'll understand how nice it is to come across something that feels familiar, something from what you've left behind. I always say this is one of the downsides of marriage.”
Emma made as slight a reply as she could; but it was fully sufficient for Mrs. Elton, who only wanted to be talking herself.
Emma gave the briefest response she could manage, but it was enough for Mrs. Elton, who just wanted to keep talking.
“So extremely like Maple Grove! And it is not merely the house—the grounds, I assure you, as far as I could observe, are strikingly like. The laurels at Maple Grove are in the same profusion as here, and stand very much in the same way—just across the lawn; and I had a glimpse of a fine large tree, with a bench round it, which put me so exactly in mind! My brother and sister will be enchanted with this place. People who have extensive grounds themselves are always pleased with any thing in the same style.”
“It's so much like Maple Grove! And it's not just the house—the grounds, as far as I could see, are remarkably similar. The laurels at Maple Grove are just as abundant as here and are positioned in almost the same spot—right across the lawn; and I caught sight of a beautiful large tree with a bench around it, which reminded me so much of it! My brother and sister are going to love this place. People who have large grounds themselves always appreciate anything in the same style.”
Emma doubted the truth of this sentiment. She had a great idea that people who had extensive grounds themselves cared very little for the extensive grounds of any body else; but it was not worth while to attack an error so double-dyed, and therefore only said in reply,
Emma doubted the truth of this sentiment. She believed that people who had spacious properties themselves cared very little for the expansive grounds of anyone else; but it wasn't worth it to challenge such a stubborn misconception, so she simply replied,
“When you have seen more of this country, I am afraid you will think you have overrated Hartfield. Surry is full of beauties.”
“When you see more of this country, I’m afraid you’ll realize you’ve overvalued Hartfield. Surrey is full of beauty.”
“Oh! yes, I am quite aware of that. It is the garden of England, you know. Surry is the garden of England.”
“Oh! yes, I know that very well. It’s the garden of England, you see. Surrey is the garden of England.”
“Yes; but we must not rest our claims on that distinction. Many counties, I believe, are called the garden of England, as well as Surry.”
“Yes; but we can't base our claims on that difference. Many counties, I think, are referred to as the garden of England, just like Surrey.”
“No, I fancy not,” replied Mrs. Elton, with a most satisfied smile. “I never heard any county but Surry called so.”
“No, I don't think so,” replied Mrs. Elton, with a very satisfied smile. “I’ve never heard of any county other than Surrey being called that.”
Emma was silenced.
Emma was muted.
“My brother and sister have promised us a visit in the spring, or summer at farthest,” continued Mrs. Elton; “and that will be our time for exploring. While they are with us, we shall explore a great deal, I dare say. They will have their barouche-landau, of course, which holds four perfectly; and therefore, without saying any thing of our carriage, we should be able to explore the different beauties extremely well. They would hardly come in their chaise, I think, at that season of the year. Indeed, when the time draws on, I shall decidedly recommend their bringing the barouche-landau; it will be so very much preferable. When people come into a beautiful country of this sort, you know, Miss Woodhouse, one naturally wishes them to see as much as possible; and Mr. Suckling is extremely fond of exploring. We explored to King’s-Weston twice last summer, in that way, most delightfully, just after their first having the barouche-landau. You have many parties of that kind here, I suppose, Miss Woodhouse, every summer?”
“My brother and sister have promised to visit us in the spring or, at the latest, the summer,” Mrs. Elton continued. “That will be our time for exploring. While they’re here, I’m sure we’ll do a lot of exploring. They’ll have their barouche-landau, of course, which comfortably fits four, so without mentioning our carriage, we should be able to explore the different sights quite well. I doubt they’ll come in their chaise at that time of year. In fact, as the date approaches, I will definitely suggest they bring the barouche-landau; it will be so much better. When people visit a beautiful place like this, you know, Miss Woodhouse, you naturally want them to see as much as possible, and Mr. Suckling really enjoys exploring. Last summer, we explored to King’s-Weston twice that way, most delightfully, right after they got the barouche-landau. You have many outings like that here every summer, I suppose, Miss Woodhouse?”
“No; not immediately here. We are rather out of distance of the very striking beauties which attract the sort of parties you speak of; and we are a very quiet set of people, I believe; more disposed to stay at home than engage in schemes of pleasure.”
“No; not right here. We’re quite far from the impressive attractions that draw the kind of crowds you're talking about; and I think we’re a pretty quiet group of people, more inclined to stay in than to get involved in entertaining plans.”
“Ah! there is nothing like staying at home for real comfort. Nobody can be more devoted to home than I am. I was quite a proverb for it at Maple Grove. Many a time has Selina said, when she has been going to Bristol, ‘I really cannot get this girl to move from the house. I absolutely must go in by myself, though I hate being stuck up in the barouche-landau without a companion; but Augusta, I believe, with her own good-will, would never stir beyond the park paling.’ Many a time has she said so; and yet I am no advocate for entire seclusion. I think, on the contrary, when people shut themselves up entirely from society, it is a very bad thing; and that it is much more advisable to mix in the world in a proper degree, without living in it either too much or too little. I perfectly understand your situation, however, Miss Woodhouse—(looking towards Mr. Woodhouse), Your father’s state of health must be a great drawback. Why does not he try Bath?—Indeed he should. Let me recommend Bath to you. I assure you I have no doubt of its doing Mr. Woodhouse good.”
“Ah! There’s nothing like staying at home for real comfort. No one is more devoted to home than I am. I was quite the talk of the town at Maple Grove. Many times Selina has said, when heading to Bristol, ‘I really can’t get this girl to leave the house. I absolutely have to go by myself, even though I hate being stuck in the barouche-landau without a companion; but Augusta, I believe, wouldn’t willingly step beyond the park fence.’ She has said that many times; and yet, I’m not in favor of complete isolation. On the contrary, I think it’s a serious mistake for people to shut themselves away from society entirely, and it’s much better to engage with the world to a reasonable extent, without being too involved or too detached. I completely understand your situation, though, Miss Woodhouse—(looking toward Mr. Woodhouse), Your father’s health must be a significant concern. Why doesn’t he try Bath?—Indeed, he should. Let me recommend Bath to you. I’m sure it would do Mr. Woodhouse a lot of good.”
“My father tried it more than once, formerly; but without receiving any benefit; and Mr. Perry, whose name, I dare say, is not unknown to you, does not conceive it would be at all more likely to be useful now.”
“My father tried it more than once in the past, but it didn’t help him at all; and Mr. Perry, whose name I’m sure you know, thinks it wouldn't be any more helpful now.”
“Ah! that’s a great pity; for I assure you, Miss Woodhouse, where the waters do agree, it is quite wonderful the relief they give. In my Bath life, I have seen such instances of it! And it is so cheerful a place, that it could not fail of being of use to Mr. Woodhouse’s spirits, which, I understand, are sometimes much depressed. And as to its recommendations to you, I fancy I need not take much pains to dwell on them. The advantages of Bath to the young are pretty generally understood. It would be a charming introduction for you, who have lived so secluded a life; and I could immediately secure you some of the best society in the place. A line from me would bring you a little host of acquaintance; and my particular friend, Mrs. Partridge, the lady I have always resided with when in Bath, would be most happy to shew you any attentions, and would be the very person for you to go into public with.”
"Ah! That’s such a shame; I really believe, Miss Woodhouse, when the waters are right, they provide amazing relief. During my time in Bath, I’ve seen plenty of examples! It’s such a cheerful place, it couldn’t help but lift Mr. Woodhouse’s spirits, which I hear can be quite low sometimes. As for its benefits for you, I don’t think I need to spend much time highlighting them. The perks of Bath for young people are pretty well known. It would be a wonderful introduction for you, since you’ve lived such a sheltered life; and I could easily link you up with some of the best company in town. A quick note from me would bring you a bunch of new acquaintances; and my close friend, Mrs. Partridge, the lady I’ve always stayed with in Bath, would be more than happy to show you some hospitality, and she would be the perfect person for you to go out in public with."
It was as much as Emma could bear, without being impolite. The idea of her being indebted to Mrs. Elton for what was called an introduction—of her going into public under the auspices of a friend of Mrs. Elton’s—probably some vulgar, dashing widow, who, with the help of a boarder, just made a shift to live!—The dignity of Miss Woodhouse, of Hartfield, was sunk indeed!
It was about all Emma could handle without being rude. The thought of owing Mrs. Elton for what was called an introduction—of her stepping out into society under the sponsorship of one of Mrs. Elton's friends—likely some flashy, attention-seeking widow who, with the help of a renter, barely managed to get by!—The dignity of Miss Woodhouse, of Hartfield, was truly compromised!
She restrained herself, however, from any of the reproofs she could have given, and only thanked Mrs. Elton coolly; “but their going to Bath was quite out of the question; and she was not perfectly convinced that the place might suit her better than her father.” And then, to prevent farther outrage and indignation, changed the subject directly.
She held back any of the criticisms she could have made and just thanked Mrs. Elton coolly; “but their going to Bath was definitely not an option; and she wasn’t completely sure that the place would suit her better than her father.” And then, to avoid further anger and frustration, she quickly changed the subject.
“I do not ask whether you are musical, Mrs. Elton. Upon these occasions, a lady’s character generally precedes her; and Highbury has long known that you are a superior performer.”
“I’m not questioning whether you’re musical, Mrs. Elton. On these occasions, a lady’s reputation usually speaks for itself, and Highbury has known for a while that you’re an exceptional performer.”
“Oh! no, indeed; I must protest against any such idea. A superior performer!—very far from it, I assure you. Consider from how partial a quarter your information came. I am doatingly fond of music—passionately fond;—and my friends say I am not entirely devoid of taste; but as to any thing else, upon my honour my performance is mediocre to the last degree. You, Miss Woodhouse, I well know, play delightfully. I assure you it has been the greatest satisfaction, comfort, and delight to me, to hear what a musical society I am got into. I absolutely cannot do without music. It is a necessary of life to me; and having always been used to a very musical society, both at Maple Grove and in Bath, it would have been a most serious sacrifice. I honestly said as much to Mr. E. when he was speaking of my future home, and expressing his fears lest the retirement of it should be disagreeable; and the inferiority of the house too—knowing what I had been accustomed to—of course he was not wholly without apprehension. When he was speaking of it in that way, I honestly said that the world I could give up—parties, balls, plays—for I had no fear of retirement. Blessed with so many resources within myself, the world was not necessary to me. I could do very well without it. To those who had no resources it was a different thing; but my resources made me quite independent. And as to smaller-sized rooms than I had been used to, I really could not give it a thought. I hoped I was perfectly equal to any sacrifice of that description. Certainly I had been accustomed to every luxury at Maple Grove; but I did assure him that two carriages were not necessary to my happiness, nor were spacious apartments. ‘But,’ said I, ‘to be quite honest, I do not think I can live without something of a musical society. I condition for nothing else; but without music, life would be a blank to me.’”
“Oh! No, I absolutely must object to that idea. A superior performer? Not at all, I assure you. Just think about how biased your information is. I am incredibly passionate about music—truly passionate; and my friends say I have some taste—but as for anything else, I honestly think my performance is mediocre at best. You, Miss Woodhouse, I know, play wonderfully. It has been the greatest joy, comfort, and delight to hear about the wonderful musical community I’ve joined. I simply can't live without music. It’s essential for me; and having always been a part of a very musical environment, both at Maple Grove and in Bath, not having that would be a serious loss. I honestly told Mr. E. this when he mentioned my future home and expressed his concerns about how retired it might be, and the lesser quality of the house—knowing what I was used to—he was understandably worried. When he brought it up like that, I honestly said that the world I could give up—parties, balls, plays—I had no fear of solitude. With all the resources I have within myself, I didn't need the outside world. I could manage just fine without it. For those who lack resources, it’s a different story; but my resources made me completely independent. As for smaller rooms than I was used to, I really couldn’t even think about that. I hoped I could handle any sacrifice like that. Certainly, I was used to every luxury at Maple Grove; but I assured him that I didn’t need two carriages to be happy, nor large rooms. ‘But,’ I said, ‘to be completely honest, I don’t think I can live without some kind of musical society. I don’t ask for anything else; but without music, life would feel empty to me.’”
“We cannot suppose,” said Emma, smiling, “that Mr. Elton would hesitate to assure you of there being a very musical society in Highbury; and I hope you will not find he has outstepped the truth more than may be pardoned, in consideration of the motive.”
“We can't assume,” Emma said with a smile, “that Mr. Elton would hesitate to confirm that there’s a very musical community in Highbury; and I hope you won't find that he's stretched the truth more than what can be excused, considering his intentions.”
“No, indeed, I have no doubts at all on that head. I am delighted to find myself in such a circle. I hope we shall have many sweet little concerts together. I think, Miss Woodhouse, you and I must establish a musical club, and have regular weekly meetings at your house, or ours. Will not it be a good plan? If we exert ourselves, I think we shall not be long in want of allies. Something of that nature would be particularly desirable for me, as an inducement to keep me in practice; for married women, you know—there is a sad story against them, in general. They are but too apt to give up music.”
“No, I truly have no doubts about that. I'm really happy to be in this circle. I hope we can have many enjoyable little concerts together. I think, Miss Woodhouse, you and I should start a musical club and hold regular weekly meetings at your place or ours. Wouldn’t that be a great plan? If we put in some effort, I believe we won't have to wait long to find more people to join us. Something like that would be especially beneficial for me, as a motivation to keep practicing; because married women, you know—there’s a common story about them. They're often too likely to stop playing music.”
“But you, who are so extremely fond of it—there can be no danger, surely?”
"But you, who love it so much—there can't be any danger, right?"
“I should hope not; but really when I look around among my acquaintance, I tremble. Selina has entirely given up music—never touches the instrument—though she played sweetly. And the same may be said of Mrs. Jeffereys—Clara Partridge, that was—and of the two Milmans, now Mrs. Bird and Mrs. James Cooper; and of more than I can enumerate. Upon my word it is enough to put one in a fright. I used to be quite angry with Selina; but really I begin now to comprehend that a married woman has many things to call her attention. I believe I was half an hour this morning shut up with my housekeeper.”
"I really hope not; but honestly, when I look around at my friends, I get worried. Selina has completely given up music—she never plays the instrument anymore—even though she used to play beautifully. The same goes for Mrs. Jeffereys—Clara Partridge, that is—and the two Milmans, now Mrs. Bird and Mrs. James Cooper; and there are many more I can’t even count. Honestly, it’s enough to scare someone. I used to be pretty upset with Selina; but now I’m starting to understand that a married woman has a lot of things to focus on. I spent half an hour this morning talking with my housekeeper."
“But every thing of that kind,” said Emma, “will soon be in so regular a train—”
“But everything like that,” Emma said, “will soon be on such a regular path—”
“Well,” said Mrs. Elton, laughing, “we shall see.”
“Well,” Mrs. Elton said, laughing, “we'll see.”
Emma, finding her so determined upon neglecting her music, had nothing more to say; and, after a moment’s pause, Mrs. Elton chose another subject.
Emma, seeing how set she was on ignoring her music, had nothing more to add; and after a brief pause, Mrs. Elton shifted to a different topic.
“We have been calling at Randalls,” said she, “and found them both at home; and very pleasant people they seem to be. I like them extremely. Mr. Weston seems an excellent creature—quite a first-rate favourite with me already, I assure you. And she appears so truly good—there is something so motherly and kind-hearted about her, that it wins upon one directly. She was your governess, I think?”
“We visited the Randalls,” she said, “and found both of them at home; they seem like really nice people. I like them a lot. Mr. Weston seems like an excellent guy—he's already one of my favorites, I promise you. And she seems genuinely good—there’s something so nurturing and warm about her that you can’t help but be drawn to her. I believe she was your governess, right?”
Emma was almost too much astonished to answer; but Mrs. Elton hardly waited for the affirmative before she went on.
Emma was almost too surprised to respond; but Mrs. Elton barely waited for a yes before continuing.
“Having understood as much, I was rather astonished to find her so very lady-like! But she is really quite the gentlewoman.”
“Having realized this, I was quite surprised to see her so very refined! But she truly is quite the lady.”
“Mrs. Weston’s manners,” said Emma, “were always particularly good. Their propriety, simplicity, and elegance, would make them the safest model for any young woman.”
“Mrs. Weston’s manners,” said Emma, “were always especially good. Their appropriateness, simplicity, and elegance make them the best example for any young woman.”
“And who do you think came in while we were there?”
“And who do you think showed up while we were there?”
Emma was quite at a loss. The tone implied some old acquaintance—and how could she possibly guess?
Emma was completely puzzled. The tone suggested an old acquaintance—and how could she possibly figure that out?
“Knightley!” continued Mrs. Elton; “Knightley himself!—Was not it lucky?—for, not being within when he called the other day, I had never seen him before; and of course, as so particular a friend of Mr. E.’s, I had a great curiosity. ‘My friend Knightley’ had been so often mentioned, that I was really impatient to see him; and I must do my caro sposo the justice to say that he need not be ashamed of his friend. Knightley is quite the gentleman. I like him very much. Decidedly, I think, a very gentleman-like man.”
“Knightley!” Mrs. Elton continued. “Knightley himself! Wasn’t it lucky? Since I wasn’t home when he visited the other day, I had never met him before; and naturally, as such a close friend of Mr. E.’s, I was really curious. ‘My friend Knightley’ had come up so often that I was eager to see him. I have to give my dear husband some credit: he shouldn’t be embarrassed by his friend. Knightley is definitely a true gentleman. I like him a lot. I really think he’s a very gentlemanly man.”
Happily, it was now time to be gone. They were off; and Emma could breathe.
Happily, it was finally time to leave. They were on their way; and Emma could finally breathe.
“Insufferable woman!” was her immediate exclamation. “Worse than I had supposed. Absolutely insufferable! Knightley!—I could not have believed it. Knightley!—never seen him in her life before, and call him Knightley!—and discover that he is a gentleman! A little upstart, vulgar being, with her Mr. E., and her caro sposo, and her resources, and all her airs of pert pretension and underbred finery. Actually to discover that Mr. Knightley is a gentleman! I doubt whether he will return the compliment, and discover her to be a lady. I could not have believed it! And to propose that she and I should unite to form a musical club! One would fancy we were bosom friends! And Mrs. Weston!—Astonished that the person who had brought me up should be a gentlewoman! Worse and worse. I never met with her equal. Much beyond my hopes. Harriet is disgraced by any comparison. Oh! what would Frank Churchill say to her, if he were here? How angry and how diverted he would be! Ah! there I am—thinking of him directly. Always the first person to be thought of! How I catch myself out! Frank Churchill comes as regularly into my mind!”—
“Insufferable woman!” was her immediate response. “Worse than I thought. Absolutely insufferable! Knightley!—I couldn’t have believed it. Knightley!—she’s never seen him before, and calls him Knightley!—and finds out he’s a gentleman! A little upstart, vulgar person, with her Mr. E., and her caro sposо, and her resources, and all her airs of annoying pretension and unrefined fancy. To actually discover that Mr. Knightley is a gentleman! I doubt he’ll return the favor and see her as a lady. I couldn’t have believed it! And she suggests that we should team up to create a musical club! One would think we were close friends! And Mrs. Weston!—shocked that the person who raised me is a gentlewoman! It just keeps getting worse. I’ve never met anyone like her. So much worse than I expected. Harriet is embarrassed by any comparison. Oh! what would Frank Churchill say about her, if he were here? How annoyed and entertained he would be! Ah! there I go—thinking of him right away. Always the first person on my mind! How I catch myself doing that! Frank Churchill pops into my thoughts so regularly!”
All this ran so glibly through her thoughts, that by the time her father had arranged himself, after the bustle of the Eltons’ departure, and was ready to speak, she was very tolerably capable of attending.
All of this flowed so smoothly through her mind that by the time her father settled himself after the hustle of the Eltons' departure and was ready to talk, she was quite able to pay attention.
“Well, my dear,” he deliberately began, “considering we never saw her before, she seems a very pretty sort of young lady; and I dare say she was very much pleased with you. She speaks a little too quick. A little quickness of voice there is which rather hurts the ear. But I believe I am nice; I do not like strange voices; and nobody speaks like you and poor Miss Taylor. However, she seems a very obliging, pretty-behaved young lady, and no doubt will make him a very good wife. Though I think he had better not have married. I made the best excuses I could for not having been able to wait on him and Mrs. Elton on this happy occasion; I said that I hoped I should in the course of the summer. But I ought to have gone before. Not to wait upon a bride is very remiss. Ah! it shews what a sad invalid I am! But I do not like the corner into Vicarage Lane.”
“Well, my dear,” he started deliberately, “considering we’ve never seen her before, she seems like a pretty young lady; and I’m sure she was very pleased with you. She talks a bit too quickly. There’s a slight fastness in her voice that’s a bit uncomfortable to listen to. But I think I’m particular; I don’t like unfamiliar voices, and nobody speaks like you and poor Miss Taylor. Nevertheless, she does seem like a kind and well-mannered young lady, and I have no doubt she’ll make him a great wife. Although I think he probably shouldn’t have gotten married. I made the best excuses I could for not being able to visit him and Mrs. Elton on this happy occasion; I said I hoped I would be able to during the summer. But I should have gone earlier. Not visiting a bride is quite careless. Ah! it shows how much of an invalid I am! But I really don’t like the corner into Vicarage Lane.”
“I dare say your apologies were accepted, sir. Mr. Elton knows you.”
“I’m pretty sure your apologies were accepted, sir. Mr. Elton knows you.”
“Yes: but a young lady—a bride—I ought to have paid my respects to her if possible. It was being very deficient.”
“Yes, but a young woman—a bride—I should have paid my respects to her if I could. It was a serious oversight.”
“But, my dear papa, you are no friend to matrimony; and therefore why should you be so anxious to pay your respects to a bride? It ought to be no recommendation to you. It is encouraging people to marry if you make so much of them.”
“But, dear dad, you’re not a supporter of marriage; so why are you so eager to honor a bride? That shouldn’t be appealing to you. It’s promoting marriage if you make such a big deal out of it.”
“No, my dear, I never encouraged any body to marry, but I would always wish to pay every proper attention to a lady—and a bride, especially, is never to be neglected. More is avowedly due to her. A bride, you know, my dear, is always the first in company, let the others be who they may.”
“No, my dear, I never encouraged anyone to marry, but I always want to show proper attention to a lady—and a bride, in particular, should never be overlooked. She deserves more, without a doubt. A bride, you see, my dear, is always the center of attention in any gathering, no matter who else is there.”
“Well, papa, if this is not encouragement to marry, I do not know what is. And I should never have expected you to be lending your sanction to such vanity-baits for poor young ladies.”
“Well, Dad, if this isn’t an encouragement to get married, I don’t know what is. And I should never have expected you to support such vanity traps for poor young women.”
“My dear, you do not understand me. This is a matter of mere common politeness and good-breeding, and has nothing to do with any encouragement to people to marry.”
“My dear, you don’t understand me. This is simply a matter of basic politeness and good manners, and has nothing to do with encouraging people to get married.”
Emma had done. Her father was growing nervous, and could not understand her. Her mind returned to Mrs. Elton’s offences, and long, very long, did they occupy her.
Emma was finished. Her father was getting anxious and couldn’t understand her. She kept thinking about Mrs. Elton's wrongdoings, and for a long time, they occupied her thoughts.
CHAPTER XV
Emma was not required, by any subsequent discovery, to retract her ill opinion of Mrs. Elton. Her observation had been pretty correct. Such as Mrs. Elton appeared to her on this second interview, such she appeared whenever they met again,—self-important, presuming, familiar, ignorant, and ill-bred. She had a little beauty and a little accomplishment, but so little judgment that she thought herself coming with superior knowledge of the world, to enliven and improve a country neighbourhood; and conceived Miss Hawkins to have held such a place in society as Mrs. Elton’s consequence only could surpass.
Emma didn't need to change her negative opinion of Mrs. Elton based on any new information. Her first impression had been pretty accurate. Mrs. Elton was just as self-important, presumptuous, familiar, ignorant, and rude during their second meeting as she was in all their subsequent encounters. She had a bit of beauty and a few accomplishments, but her lack of judgment led her to believe she was bringing her superior worldly knowledge to liven up and improve a country neighborhood. She thought Miss Hawkins held a position in society that only someone of Mrs. Elton's status could top.
There was no reason to suppose Mr. Elton thought at all differently from his wife. He seemed not merely happy with her, but proud. He had the air of congratulating himself on having brought such a woman to Highbury, as not even Miss Woodhouse could equal; and the greater part of her new acquaintance, disposed to commend, or not in the habit of judging, following the lead of Miss Bates’s good-will, or taking it for granted that the bride must be as clever and as agreeable as she professed herself, were very well satisfied; so that Mrs. Elton’s praise passed from one mouth to another as it ought to do, unimpeded by Miss Woodhouse, who readily continued her first contribution and talked with a good grace of her being “very pleasant and very elegantly dressed.”
There was no reason to think Mr. Elton felt any differently than his wife. He seemed not just happy with her but also proud. He had the look of someone congratulating himself for having brought such a woman to Highbury, someone even Miss Woodhouse couldn't match; and most of her new acquaintances, either eager to praise her or not usually in the habit of judging, influenced by Miss Bates’s goodwill, or assuming the bride must be as clever and charming as she claimed, were very pleased; so Mrs. Elton’s praise spread from one person to another as it should have, unhindered by Miss Woodhouse, who gladly continued her initial compliment and talked graciously about her being “very pleasant and very elegantly dressed.”
In one respect Mrs. Elton grew even worse than she had appeared at first. Her feelings altered towards Emma.—Offended, probably, by the little encouragement which her proposals of intimacy met with, she drew back in her turn and gradually became much more cold and distant; and though the effect was agreeable, the ill-will which produced it was necessarily increasing Emma’s dislike. Her manners, too—and Mr. Elton’s, were unpleasant towards Harriet. They were sneering and negligent. Emma hoped it must rapidly work Harriet’s cure; but the sensations which could prompt such behaviour sunk them both very much.—It was not to be doubted that poor Harriet’s attachment had been an offering to conjugal unreserve, and her own share in the story, under a colouring the least favourable to her and the most soothing to him, had in all likelihood been given also. She was, of course, the object of their joint dislike.—When they had nothing else to say, it must be always easy to begin abusing Miss Woodhouse; and the enmity which they dared not shew in open disrespect to her, found a broader vent in contemptuous treatment of Harriet.
In one way, Mrs. Elton became even worse than she had seemed at first. Her feelings toward Emma changed. Offended, probably, by the little encouragement her attempts at friendship received, she pulled back and gradually became much colder and more distant; although the effect was somewhat pleasant, the ill-will behind it only increased Emma’s dislike. Her manners, along with Mr. Elton’s, were unpleasant toward Harriet. They were sneering and dismissive. Emma hoped it would quickly help Harriet move on; however, the feelings that prompted such behavior weighed heavily on both of them. There was no doubt that poor Harriet’s feelings had been an offering to their lack of marital openness, and her own involvement in the situation, cast in the least favorable light for her and most comforting for him, had likely been shared as well. She was, of course, the target of their mutual dislike. When they had nothing else to talk about, it was always easy to start criticizing Miss Woodhouse; the animosity they dared not show openly toward her found a more blatant outlet in their contempt for Harriet.
Mrs. Elton took a great fancy to Jane Fairfax; and from the first. Not merely when a state of warfare with one young lady might be supposed to recommend the other, but from the very first; and she was not satisfied with expressing a natural and reasonable admiration—but without solicitation, or plea, or privilege, she must be wanting to assist and befriend her.—Before Emma had forfeited her confidence, and about the third time of their meeting, she heard all Mrs. Elton’s knight-errantry on the subject.—
Mrs. Elton really took to Jane Fairfax right from the start. It wasn't just because she thought the rivalry with one young lady might make the other more appealing; she genuinely liked her from the very beginning. And she wasn’t content with simply expressing a natural and reasonable admiration—she felt compelled to help and befriend Jane without any request, reason, or entitlement. Before Emma lost her trust, and during their third meeting, she heard all about Mrs. Elton's chivalrous intentions regarding Jane.
“Jane Fairfax is absolutely charming, Miss Woodhouse.—I quite rave about Jane Fairfax.—A sweet, interesting creature. So mild and ladylike—and with such talents!—I assure you I think she has very extraordinary talents. I do not scruple to say that she plays extremely well. I know enough of music to speak decidedly on that point. Oh! she is absolutely charming! You will laugh at my warmth—but, upon my word, I talk of nothing but Jane Fairfax.—And her situation is so calculated to affect one!—Miss Woodhouse, we must exert ourselves and endeavour to do something for her. We must bring her forward. Such talent as hers must not be suffered to remain unknown.—I dare say you have heard those charming lines of the poet,
“Jane Fairfax is absolutely delightful, Miss Woodhouse.—I can’t stop raving about Jane Fairfax.—She’s such a sweet, interesting person. So gentle and ladylike—and with such talent!—I promise you I believe she has exceptional skills. I don’t hesitate to say that she plays exceptionally well. I know enough about music to confidently say that. Oh! she is absolutely delightful! You might laugh at my enthusiasm—but honestly, all I talk about is Jane Fairfax.—And her situation is so likely to move anyone!—Miss Woodhouse, we need to step up and try to do something for her. We must give her some recognition. Such talent as hers should not be allowed to go unnoticed.—I’m sure you’ve heard those lovely lines from the poet,
‘Full many a flower is born to blush unseen,
‘And waste its fragrance on the desert air.’
‘So many flowers are born to bloom unnoticed,
‘And waste their fragrance in the empty air.’
We must not allow them to be verified in sweet Jane Fairfax.”
We can't let them be confirmed in sweet Jane Fairfax.
“I cannot think there is any danger of it,” was Emma’s calm answer—“and when you are better acquainted with Miss Fairfax’s situation and understand what her home has been, with Colonel and Mrs. Campbell, I have no idea that you will suppose her talents can be unknown.”
“I can’t imagine there’s any danger,” Emma replied calmly. “Once you get to know Miss Fairfax’s situation and see what her life has been like with Colonel and Mrs. Campbell, I doubt you’ll think her talents could go unnoticed.”
“Oh! but dear Miss Woodhouse, she is now in such retirement, such obscurity, so thrown away.—Whatever advantages she may have enjoyed with the Campbells are so palpably at an end! And I think she feels it. I am sure she does. She is very timid and silent. One can see that she feels the want of encouragement. I like her the better for it. I must confess it is a recommendation to me. I am a great advocate for timidity—and I am sure one does not often meet with it.—But in those who are at all inferior, it is extremely prepossessing. Oh! I assure you, Jane Fairfax is a very delightful character, and interests me more than I can express.”
“Oh! But dear Miss Woodhouse, she’s now in such isolation, such obscurity, so wasted. Whatever advantages she had with the Campbells are clearly over! And I think she feels it. I’m sure she does. She’s very shy and quiet. You can tell she lacks encouragement. I actually like her more for it. I must admit it’s a plus for me. I’m a big fan of shyness—and you don’t see it often. But in those who are at all less accomplished, it’s really appealing. Oh! I assure you, Jane Fairfax is a truly wonderful person, and she interests me more than I can say.”
“You appear to feel a great deal—but I am not aware how you or any of Miss Fairfax’s acquaintance here, any of those who have known her longer than yourself, can shew her any other attention than”—
“You seem to feel a lot—but I don’t see how you or anyone in Miss Fairfax’s circle here, anyone who has known her longer than you, can show her any other kind of attention than”—
“My dear Miss Woodhouse, a vast deal may be done by those who dare to act. You and I need not be afraid. If we set the example, many will follow it as far as they can; though all have not our situations. We have carriages to fetch and convey her home, and we live in a style which could not make the addition of Jane Fairfax, at any time, the least inconvenient.—I should be extremely displeased if Wright were to send us up such a dinner, as could make me regret having asked more than Jane Fairfax to partake of it. I have no idea of that sort of thing. It is not likely that I should, considering what I have been used to. My greatest danger, perhaps, in housekeeping, may be quite the other way, in doing too much, and being too careless of expense. Maple Grove will probably be my model more than it ought to be—for we do not at all affect to equal my brother, Mr. Suckling, in income.—However, my resolution is taken as to noticing Jane Fairfax.—I shall certainly have her very often at my house, shall introduce her wherever I can, shall have musical parties to draw out her talents, and shall be constantly on the watch for an eligible situation. My acquaintance is so very extensive, that I have little doubt of hearing of something to suit her shortly.—I shall introduce her, of course, very particularly to my brother and sister when they come to us. I am sure they will like her extremely; and when she gets a little acquainted with them, her fears will completely wear off, for there really is nothing in the manners of either but what is highly conciliating.—I shall have her very often indeed while they are with me, and I dare say we shall sometimes find a seat for her in the barouche-landau in some of our exploring parties.”
“My dear Miss Woodhouse, a lot can be accomplished by those who are willing to take action. You and I shouldn’t be afraid. If we set the example, many will follow it as much as they can, even though not everyone has our advantages. We have carriages to bring her home, and we live in a way that wouldn’t make adding Jane Fairfax any trouble at all. I would be very upset if Wright prepared a dinner that made me regret inviting more than just Jane Fairfax to join us. I really have no idea about that kind of thing. It’s unlikely that I would, considering what I’ve been used to. My biggest challenge, perhaps, in managing a household could be the opposite—doing too much and not caring enough about expenses. Maple Grove will probably be my model more than it should be, since we certainly don’t aim to match my brother, Mr. Suckling, in income. Still, I’ve made up my mind about involving Jane Fairfax in our lives. I will definitely have her over at my house frequently, introduce her wherever I can, host musical gatherings to showcase her talents, and always be on the lookout for a good opportunity for her. My social circle is so broad that I have no doubt I’ll hear of something suitable for her soon. Of course, I'll introduce her especially to my brother and sister when they visit us. I know they’ll like her a lot, and once she gets to know them a bit, her worries will completely fade away, because there's nothing about either of them that isn't very inviting. I’ll have her over quite often while they’re with me, and I’m sure we’ll sometimes manage to find a spot for her in the barouche-landau during our outings.”
“Poor Jane Fairfax!”—thought Emma.—“You have not deserved this. You may have done wrong with regard to Mr. Dixon, but this is a punishment beyond what you can have merited!—The kindness and protection of Mrs. Elton!—‘Jane Fairfax and Jane Fairfax.’ Heavens! Let me not suppose that she dares go about, Emma Woodhouse-ing me!—But upon my honour, there seems no limits to the licentiousness of that woman’s tongue!”
“Poor Jane Fairfax!” Emma thought. “You don't deserve this. You might have made mistakes with Mr. Dixon, but this is a punishment you definitely didn't earn! The kindness and protection of Mrs. Elton! ‘Jane Fairfax and Jane Fairfax.’ Goodness! Please don't let me think she has the nerve to go around acting like she knows everything about me! But honestly, it seems there are no limits to that woman's outrageous chatter!”
Emma had not to listen to such paradings again—to any so exclusively addressed to herself—so disgustingly decorated with a “dear Miss Woodhouse.” The change on Mrs. Elton’s side soon afterwards appeared, and she was left in peace—neither forced to be the very particular friend of Mrs. Elton, nor, under Mrs. Elton’s guidance, the very active patroness of Jane Fairfax, and only sharing with others in a general way, in knowing what was felt, what was meditated, what was done.
Emma didn’t have to listen to any more of those showy displays directed solely at her, so sickeningly wrapped in a “dear Miss Woodhouse.” Soon after, Mrs. Elton’s tone changed, and Emma was left in peace—neither pressured to become Mrs. Elton’s close friend nor, with Mrs. Elton’s influence, to take a leading role in supporting Jane Fairfax. Instead, she only shared in a general sense what was felt, what was planned, and what was happening.
She looked on with some amusement.—Miss Bates’s gratitude for Mrs. Elton’s attentions to Jane was in the first style of guileless simplicity and warmth. She was quite one of her worthies—the most amiable, affable, delightful woman—just as accomplished and condescending as Mrs. Elton meant to be considered. Emma’s only surprize was that Jane Fairfax should accept those attentions and tolerate Mrs. Elton as she seemed to do. She heard of her walking with the Eltons, sitting with the Eltons, spending a day with the Eltons! This was astonishing!—She could not have believed it possible that the taste or the pride of Miss Fairfax could endure such society and friendship as the Vicarage had to offer.
She watched with some amusement. Miss Bates’s gratitude for Mrs. Elton’s attention towards Jane was expressed in the purest and warmest way. She was truly one of her treasured friends—a kind, friendly, delightful woman—just as refined and gracious as Mrs. Elton intended to be seen. Emma’s only surprise was that Jane Fairfax would accept that attention and put up with Mrs. Elton as it seemed she did. She heard about her walking with the Eltons, sitting with the Eltons, spending a day with the Eltons! This was shocking! She could hardly believe that Miss Fairfax’s taste or pride could stand such company and friendship as the Vicarage had to offer.
“She is a riddle, quite a riddle!” said she.—“To chuse to remain here month after month, under privations of every sort! And now to chuse the mortification of Mrs. Elton’s notice and the penury of her conversation, rather than return to the superior companions who have always loved her with such real, generous affection.”
“She’s a puzzle, really a puzzle!” she said. “To choose to stay here month after month, facing all kinds of hardships! And now to choose the embarrassment of Mrs. Elton’s attention and the blandness of her conversation, instead of going back to the better friends who have always cared for her with such genuine, generous love.”
Jane had come to Highbury professedly for three months; the Campbells were gone to Ireland for three months; but now the Campbells had promised their daughter to stay at least till Midsummer, and fresh invitations had arrived for her to join them there. According to Miss Bates—it all came from her—Mrs. Dixon had written most pressingly. Would Jane but go, means were to be found, servants sent, friends contrived—no travelling difficulty allowed to exist; but still she had declined it!
Jane had come to Highbury supposedly for three months; the Campbells were off to Ireland for the same duration. However, the Campbells had now promised their daughter that they would stay at least until Midsummer, and new invitations had arrived for her to join them there. According to Miss Bates—it all came from her—Mrs. Dixon had written very insistently. If Jane would just go, arrangements could be made, servants could be sent, friends could be organized—no travel issues were meant to get in the way; yet she still had turned it down!
“She must have some motive, more powerful than appears, for refusing this invitation,” was Emma’s conclusion. “She must be under some sort of penance, inflicted either by the Campbells or herself. There is great fear, great caution, great resolution somewhere.—She is not to be with the Dixons. The decree is issued by somebody. But why must she consent to be with the Eltons?—Here is quite a separate puzzle.”
“She must have a deeper motive for turning down this invitation,” was Emma’s conclusion. “She must be facing some kind of punishment, either from the Campbells or from herself. There’s a lot of fear, caution, and determination at play somewhere. —She is not supposed to be with the Dixons. Someone has made that decision. But why does she have to agree to be with the Eltons? —That’s a completely different puzzle.”
Upon her speaking her wonder aloud on that part of the subject, before the few who knew her opinion of Mrs. Elton, Mrs. Weston ventured this apology for Jane.
Upon her expressing her surprise about that part of the topic, in front of the few who knew how she felt about Mrs. Elton, Mrs. Weston made this excuse for Jane.
“We cannot suppose that she has any great enjoyment at the Vicarage, my dear Emma—but it is better than being always at home. Her aunt is a good creature, but, as a constant companion, must be very tiresome. We must consider what Miss Fairfax quits, before we condemn her taste for what she goes to.”
“We can't assume that she's having a great time at the Vicarage, my dear Emma—but it's definitely better than being stuck at home all the time. Her aunt is a lovely person, but having her as a constant companion must be pretty boring. We need to think about what Miss Fairfax is leaving behind before we criticize her choice for what she's heading towards.”
“You are right, Mrs. Weston,” said Mr. Knightley warmly, “Miss Fairfax is as capable as any of us of forming a just opinion of Mrs. Elton. Could she have chosen with whom to associate, she would not have chosen her. But (with a reproachful smile at Emma) she receives attentions from Mrs. Elton, which nobody else pays her.”
“You're right, Mrs. Weston,” Mr. Knightley said warmly, “Miss Fairfax is just as capable as any of us of forming a fair opinion of Mrs. Elton. If she could choose who to associate with, she wouldn't have picked her. But,” he added, giving Emma a reproachful smile, “she’s getting attention from Mrs. Elton that no one else offers her.”
Emma felt that Mrs. Weston was giving her a momentary glance; and she was herself struck by his warmth. With a faint blush, she presently replied,
Emma sensed that Mrs. Weston briefly looked at her; and she was herself touched by his warmth. With a slight blush, she soon replied,
“Such attentions as Mrs. Elton’s, I should have imagined, would rather disgust than gratify Miss Fairfax. Mrs. Elton’s invitations I should have imagined any thing but inviting.”
“Mrs. Elton’s attentions would have seemed more off-putting than enjoyable to Miss Fairfax. I would have thought that her invitations were anything but welcoming.”
“I should not wonder,” said Mrs. Weston, “if Miss Fairfax were to have been drawn on beyond her own inclination, by her aunt’s eagerness in accepting Mrs. Elton’s civilities for her. Poor Miss Bates may very likely have committed her niece and hurried her into a greater appearance of intimacy than her own good sense would have dictated, in spite of the very natural wish of a little change.”
“I wouldn’t be surprised,” said Mrs. Weston, “if Miss Fairfax was pushed beyond her own desires by her aunt’s excitement in accepting Mrs. Elton’s kindness on her behalf. Poor Miss Bates probably encouraged her niece and rushed her into appearing more familiar than her own good judgment would have suggested, despite the perfectly understandable desire for a little variety.”
Both felt rather anxious to hear him speak again; and after a few minutes silence, he said,
Both were quite anxious to hear him speak again; and after a few minutes of silence, he said,
“Another thing must be taken into consideration too—Mrs. Elton does not talk to Miss Fairfax as she speaks of her. We all know the difference between the pronouns he or she and thou, the plainest spoken amongst us; we all feel the influence of a something beyond common civility in our personal intercourse with each other—a something more early implanted. We cannot give any body the disagreeable hints that we may have been very full of the hour before. We feel things differently. And besides the operation of this, as a general principle, you may be sure that Miss Fairfax awes Mrs. Elton by her superiority both of mind and manner; and that, face to face, Mrs. Elton treats her with all the respect which she has a claim to. Such a woman as Jane Fairfax probably never fell in Mrs. Elton’s way before—and no degree of vanity can prevent her acknowledging her own comparative littleness in action, if not in consciousness.”
“Another thing to consider is that Mrs. Elton doesn’t talk to Miss Fairfax the same way she talks about her. We all know the difference between the pronouns he or she and thou, even the most straightforward of us; we all feel the influence of something deeper than ordinary politeness in our interactions with one another—something that’s been instilled in us from a young age. We can’t dismiss the unpleasant hints we may have been full of just an hour before. We perceive things differently. Furthermore, in general, you can be sure that Miss Fairfax intimidates Mrs. Elton with her superior intellect and demeanor; and that, in person, Mrs. Elton treats her with all the respect she deserves. A woman like Jane Fairfax probably hasn’t crossed paths with someone like Mrs. Elton before—and no amount of vanity can stop her from recognizing her own relative smallness in action, if not in awareness.”
“I know how highly you think of Jane Fairfax,” said Emma. Little Henry was in her thoughts, and a mixture of alarm and delicacy made her irresolute what else to say.
“I know how much you think of Jane Fairfax,” said Emma. Little Henry was on her mind, and a mix of concern and sensitivity left her unsure of what else to say.
“Yes,” he replied, “any body may know how highly I think of her.”
“Yes,” he replied, “anyone can see how much I think of her.”
“And yet,” said Emma, beginning hastily and with an arch look, but soon stopping—it was better, however, to know the worst at once—she hurried on—“And yet, perhaps, you may hardly be aware yourself how highly it is. The extent of your admiration may take you by surprize some day or other.”
“And yet,” Emma said quickly with a playful look, but then paused—it was better to face the truth right away—she continued, “And yet, maybe you don’t even realize how much it is. The depth of your admiration might surprise you someday.”
Mr. Knightley was hard at work upon the lower buttons of his thick leather gaiters, and either the exertion of getting them together, or some other cause, brought the colour into his face, as he answered,
Mr. Knightley was focused on fastening the lower buttons of his thick leather gaiters, and whether it was the effort of getting them done or some other reason, it caused his face to flush as he replied,
“Oh! are you there?—But you are miserably behindhand. Mr. Cole gave me a hint of it six weeks ago.”
“Oh! Are you here?—But you're really late. Mr. Cole hinted about it to me six weeks ago.”
He stopped.—Emma felt her foot pressed by Mrs. Weston, and did not herself know what to think. In a moment he went on—
He stopped. —Emma felt Mrs. Weston pressing her foot and didn’t know what to think. After a moment, he continued—
“That will never be, however, I can assure you. Miss Fairfax, I dare say, would not have me if I were to ask her—and I am very sure I shall never ask her.”
"That will never happen, I promise you. Miss Fairfax, I'm sure, would not accept me if I asked her—and I'm definitely not going to ask her."
Emma returned her friend’s pressure with interest; and was pleased enough to exclaim,
Emma returned her friend's pressure with interest and was happy enough to exclaim,
“You are not vain, Mr. Knightley. I will say that for you.”
"You’re not vain, Mr. Knightley. I’ll give you that."
He seemed hardly to hear her; he was thoughtful—and in a manner which shewed him not pleased, soon afterwards said,
He barely seemed to hear her; he was deep in thought—and in a way that made it clear he wasn't happy, he soon said,
“So you have been settling that I should marry Jane Fairfax?”
“So you’ve been deciding that I should marry Jane Fairfax?”
“No indeed I have not. You have scolded me too much for match-making, for me to presume to take such a liberty with you. What I said just now, meant nothing. One says those sort of things, of course, without any idea of a serious meaning. Oh! no, upon my word I have not the smallest wish for your marrying Jane Fairfax or Jane any body. You would not come in and sit with us in this comfortable way, if you were married.”
“No, I definitely haven't. You've criticized me too much for trying to set people up for me to think I could take such a liberty with you. What I just said meant nothing. People say those kinds of things without really intending anything serious. Oh! No, I honestly have no desire for you to marry Jane Fairfax or anyone else named Jane. You wouldn't come in and sit with us like this so comfortably if you were married.”
Mr. Knightley was thoughtful again. The result of his reverie was, “No, Emma, I do not think the extent of my admiration for her will ever take me by surprize.—I never had a thought of her in that way, I assure you.” And soon afterwards, “Jane Fairfax is a very charming young woman—but not even Jane Fairfax is perfect. She has a fault. She has not the open temper which a man would wish for in a wife.”
Mr. Knightley was deep in thought again. He concluded, “No, Emma, I really don’t think I’ll ever be surprised by how much I admire her. I’ve never thought of her that way, I promise you.” Soon after, he added, “Jane Fairfax is a lovely young woman—but not even Jane Fairfax is perfect. She has a flaw. She doesn’t have the open personality that a man would want in a wife.”
Emma could not but rejoice to hear that she had a fault. “Well,” said she, “and you soon silenced Mr. Cole, I suppose?”
Emma couldn't help but feel happy to hear that she had a flaw. “Well,” she said, “I guess you quickly put Mr. Cole in his place, right?”
“Yes, very soon. He gave me a quiet hint; I told him he was mistaken; he asked my pardon and said no more. Cole does not want to be wiser or wittier than his neighbours.”
“Yes, very soon. He quietly hinted to me; I told him he was wrong; he apologized and didn’t say anything else. Cole doesn’t want to be smarter or funnier than his neighbors.”
“In that respect how unlike dear Mrs. Elton, who wants to be wiser and wittier than all the world! I wonder how she speaks of the Coles—what she calls them! How can she find any appellation for them, deep enough in familiar vulgarity? She calls you, Knightley—what can she do for Mr. Cole? And so I am not to be surprized that Jane Fairfax accepts her civilities and consents to be with her. Mrs. Weston, your argument weighs most with me. I can much more readily enter into the temptation of getting away from Miss Bates, than I can believe in the triumph of Miss Fairfax’s mind over Mrs. Elton. I have no faith in Mrs. Elton’s acknowledging herself the inferior in thought, word, or deed; or in her being under any restraint beyond her own scanty rule of good-breeding. I cannot imagine that she will not be continually insulting her visitor with praise, encouragement, and offers of service; that she will not be continually detailing her magnificent intentions, from the procuring her a permanent situation to the including her in those delightful exploring parties which are to take place in the barouche-landau.”
“In that way, she’s so different from dear Mrs. Elton, who wants to be smarter and funnier than everyone! I wonder how she talks about the Coles—what she calls them! How can she come up with any name for them that’s low enough in commonness? She calls you, Knightley—what can she do for Mr. Cole? So, I shouldn’t be surprised that Jane Fairfax accepts her kindness and agrees to be with her. Mrs. Weston, you’ve made a strong point. I can much more easily understand the temptation to escape Miss Bates than I can believe that Miss Fairfax is any match for Mrs. Elton in wit. I have no faith in Mrs. Elton admitting she’s lesser in thought, word, or action; or that she’s under any restraint beyond her limited sense of good manners. I can’t imagine she won’t constantly insult her guest with compliments, encouragement, and offers to help; that she won’t keep sharing her grand plans, from finding her a steady job to including her in those delightful outings that are supposed to happen in the barouche-landau.”
“Jane Fairfax has feeling,” said Mr. Knightley—“I do not accuse her of want of feeling. Her sensibilities, I suspect, are strong—and her temper excellent in its power of forbearance, patience, self-control; but it wants openness. She is reserved, more reserved, I think, than she used to be—And I love an open temper. No—till Cole alluded to my supposed attachment, it had never entered my head. I saw Jane Fairfax and conversed with her, with admiration and pleasure always—but with no thought beyond.”
“Jane Fairfax has feelings,” said Mr. Knightley. “I’m not saying she lacks them. I suspect her sensitivities are strong, and her temperament is excellent in terms of restraint, patience, and self-control; however, she lacks openness. She’s more reserved now, I think, than she used to be—and I prefer an open temperament. No—until Cole mentioned my supposed feelings for her, it had never crossed my mind. I saw Jane Fairfax and talked to her, admiring her and enjoying her company, but with no thoughts beyond that.”
“Well, Mrs. Weston,” said Emma triumphantly when he left them, “what do you say now to Mr. Knightley’s marrying Jane Fairfax?”
“Well, Mrs. Weston,” Emma said triumphantly when he left them, “what do you think now about Mr. Knightley marrying Jane Fairfax?”
“Why, really, dear Emma, I say that he is so very much occupied by the idea of not being in love with her, that I should not wonder if it were to end in his being so at last. Do not beat me.”
“Honestly, dear Emma, I think he’s so focused on the idea of not being in love with her that I wouldn’t be surprised if he ends up falling for her in the end. Please don't hit me.”
CHAPTER XVI
Every body in and about Highbury who had ever visited Mr. Elton, was disposed to pay him attention on his marriage. Dinner-parties and evening-parties were made for him and his lady; and invitations flowed in so fast that she had soon the pleasure of apprehending they were never to have a disengaged day.
Everyone in and around Highbury who had ever visited Mr. Elton was eager to pay him attention on his marriage. Dinner parties and evening gatherings were organized for him and his wife; invitations came pouring in so quickly that she soon realized they would never have a free day.
“I see how it is,” said she. “I see what a life I am to lead among you. Upon my word we shall be absolutely dissipated. We really seem quite the fashion. If this is living in the country, it is nothing very formidable. From Monday next to Saturday, I assure you we have not a disengaged day!—A woman with fewer resources than I have, need not have been at a loss.”
“I get it,” she said. “I see what kind of life I'm going to have with all of you. Honestly, we’re going to be completely spoiled. We really seem to be quite the trend. If this is what country living is like, it’s not that intimidating. From Monday to Saturday, I promise we don’t have a single free day!—A woman with less to work with than I have wouldn’t have any problem.”
No invitation came amiss to her. Her Bath habits made evening-parties perfectly natural to her, and Maple Grove had given her a taste for dinners. She was a little shocked at the want of two drawing rooms, at the poor attempt at rout-cakes, and there being no ice in the Highbury card-parties. Mrs. Bates, Mrs. Perry, Mrs. Goddard and others, were a good deal behind-hand in knowledge of the world, but she would soon shew them how every thing ought to be arranged. In the course of the spring she must return their civilities by one very superior party—in which her card-tables should be set out with their separate candles and unbroken packs in the true style—and more waiters engaged for the evening than their own establishment could furnish, to carry round the refreshments at exactly the proper hour, and in the proper order.
No invitation was too much for her. Her time in Bath made evening parties completely normal for her, and Maple Grove had given her a taste for dinner gatherings. She was a bit shocked by the lack of two drawing rooms, the poor attempt at rout cakes, and the absence of ice at the Highbury card parties. Mrs. Bates, Mrs. Perry, Mrs. Goddard, and others were quite behind in their understanding of the world, but she would quickly show them how everything should be organized. Over the spring, she intended to return their kindness with one very impressive party—where her card tables would be set up with individual candles and intact decks in the proper style—and more waiters arranged for the evening than their own staff could provide, to serve the refreshments at exactly the right time and in the right order.
Emma, in the meanwhile, could not be satisfied without a dinner at Hartfield for the Eltons. They must not do less than others, or she should be exposed to odious suspicions, and imagined capable of pitiful resentment. A dinner there must be. After Emma had talked about it for ten minutes, Mr. Woodhouse felt no unwillingness, and only made the usual stipulation of not sitting at the bottom of the table himself, with the usual regular difficulty of deciding who should do it for him.
Emma, meanwhile, couldn't be happy without inviting the Eltons for dinner at Hartfield. They couldn't do less than others, or she'd risk being seen as someone who harbors petty grudges. A dinner was a must. After Emma talked about it for ten minutes, Mr. Woodhouse was fine with the idea, only insisting, as usual, that he wouldn't sit at the bottom of the table himself, which always led to the familiar challenge of figuring out who would take that spot for him.
The persons to be invited, required little thought. Besides the Eltons, it must be the Westons and Mr. Knightley; so far it was all of course—and it was hardly less inevitable that poor little Harriet must be asked to make the eighth:—but this invitation was not given with equal satisfaction, and on many accounts Emma was particularly pleased by Harriet’s begging to be allowed to decline it. “She would rather not be in his company more than she could help. She was not yet quite able to see him and his charming happy wife together, without feeling uncomfortable. If Miss Woodhouse would not be displeased, she would rather stay at home.” It was precisely what Emma would have wished, had she deemed it possible enough for wishing. She was delighted with the fortitude of her little friend—for fortitude she knew it was in her to give up being in company and stay at home; and she could now invite the very person whom she really wanted to make the eighth, Jane Fairfax.— Since her last conversation with Mrs. Weston and Mr. Knightley, she was more conscience-stricken about Jane Fairfax than she had often been.—Mr. Knightley’s words dwelt with her. He had said that Jane Fairfax received attentions from Mrs. Elton which nobody else paid her.
The people to invite required little thought. Besides the Eltons, it had to be the Westons and Mr. Knightley; that was obvious—and it was just as certain that poor little Harriet had to be asked to complete the group. However, this invitation didn’t come with the same enthusiasm, and for many reasons, Emma was particularly pleased when Harriet asked to decline. “She would rather not be around him more than necessary. She still couldn’t quite handle seeing him with his charming, happy wife without feeling uncomfortable. If Miss Woodhouse wouldn’t mind, she’d rather stay home.” This was exactly what Emma would have hoped for, had she thought it was possible to wish for it. She was thrilled by her little friend’s courage—because she knew it took real courage for Harriet to stay home instead of being social; and now she could invite the very person she truly wanted to join them as the eighth, Jane Fairfax. Since her last conversation with Mrs. Weston and Mr. Knightley, she felt more guilty about Jane Fairfax than she had before. Mr. Knightley’s words kept coming back to her. He had said that Jane Fairfax received attention from Mrs. Elton that nobody else offered her.
“This is very true,” said she, “at least as far as relates to me, which was all that was meant—and it is very shameful.—Of the same age—and always knowing her—I ought to have been more her friend.—She will never like me now. I have neglected her too long. But I will shew her greater attention than I have done.”
“This is definitely true,” she said, “at least as far as I'm concerned, which was all that was meant—and it’s really shameful. We’re the same age—and I've always known her—I should have been more of a friend to her. She’ll never like me now. I’ve neglected her for too long. But I’ll show her more attention than I have before.”
Every invitation was successful. They were all disengaged and all happy.—The preparatory interest of this dinner, however, was not yet over. A circumstance rather unlucky occurred. The two eldest little Knightleys were engaged to pay their grandpapa and aunt a visit of some weeks in the spring, and their papa now proposed bringing them, and staying one whole day at Hartfield—which one day would be the very day of this party.—His professional engagements did not allow of his being put off, but both father and daughter were disturbed by its happening so. Mr. Woodhouse considered eight persons at dinner together as the utmost that his nerves could bear—and here would be a ninth—and Emma apprehended that it would be a ninth very much out of humour at not being able to come even to Hartfield for forty-eight hours without falling in with a dinner-party.
Every invitation was a hit. They were all disconnected and all happy. However, the excitement for this dinner wasn't over yet. An unfortunate situation arose. The two oldest little Knightleys were set to visit their grandpa and aunt for a few weeks in the spring, and their dad now suggested bringing them and staying for a whole day at Hartfield—this day would be the same day as the party. His work commitments didn’t allow for rescheduling, but both he and his daughter were upset about it. Mr. Woodhouse thought having eight people at dinner was the maximum his nerves could handle—and now there would be a ninth—and Emma worried that this ninth guest would be in a bad mood for not being able to come to Hartfield for even forty-eight hours without running into a dinner party.
She comforted her father better than she could comfort herself, by representing that though he certainly would make them nine, yet he always said so little, that the increase of noise would be very immaterial. She thought it in reality a sad exchange for herself, to have him with his grave looks and reluctant conversation opposed to her instead of his brother.
She was better at comforting her dad than herself, by saying that even though he would definitely make them nine, he always spoke so little that the added noise wouldn’t matter much. Deep down, she felt it was a sad trade for her, to have him with his serious expressions and unwilling conversation facing her instead of his brother.
The event was more favourable to Mr. Woodhouse than to Emma. John Knightley came; but Mr. Weston was unexpectedly summoned to town and must be absent on the very day. He might be able to join them in the evening, but certainly not to dinner. Mr. Woodhouse was quite at ease; and the seeing him so, with the arrival of the little boys and the philosophic composure of her brother on hearing his fate, removed the chief of even Emma’s vexation.
The event turned out to be better for Mr. Woodhouse than for Emma. John Knightley came, but Mr. Weston was unexpectedly called to town and had to miss the event that day. He might be able to join them in the evening, but definitely not for dinner. Mr. Woodhouse was completely relaxed, and seeing him that way, along with the arrival of the little boys and the calm attitude of her brother about the situation, eased most of Emma's frustration.
The day came, the party were punctually assembled, and Mr. John Knightley seemed early to devote himself to the business of being agreeable. Instead of drawing his brother off to a window while they waited for dinner, he was talking to Miss Fairfax. Mrs. Elton, as elegant as lace and pearls could make her, he looked at in silence—wanting only to observe enough for Isabella’s information—but Miss Fairfax was an old acquaintance and a quiet girl, and he could talk to her. He had met her before breakfast as he was returning from a walk with his little boys, when it had been just beginning to rain. It was natural to have some civil hopes on the subject, and he said,
The day arrived, the group gathered right on time, and Mr. John Knightley seemed eager to be pleasant. Instead of pulling his brother aside to chat near a window while they waited for dinner, he engaged Miss Fairfax in conversation. He glanced at Mrs. Elton, dressed as elegantly as lace and pearls could allow, but only to take in enough for Isabella’s sake—Miss Fairfax was an old friend and a reserved girl, so he could hold a conversation with her. He had bumped into her earlier that morning while coming back from a walk with his little boys, just as it was starting to rain. It was only natural to hope for some pleasant exchange, and he said,
“I hope you did not venture far, Miss Fairfax, this morning, or I am sure you must have been wet.—We scarcely got home in time. I hope you turned directly.”
“I hope you didn’t go too far, Miss Fairfax, this morning, or I’m sure you must have gotten wet.—We barely made it home in time. I hope you went straight back.”
“I went only to the post-office,” said she, “and reached home before the rain was much. It is my daily errand. I always fetch the letters when I am here. It saves trouble, and is a something to get me out. A walk before breakfast does me good.”
“I just went to the post office,” she said, “and got home before the rain got heavy. It’s my daily routine. I always pick up the letters when I’m here. It saves me some hassle and gives me a reason to get out. A walk before breakfast is good for me.”
“Not a walk in the rain, I should imagine.”
“Definitely not a stroll in the rain, I would think.”
“No, but it did not absolutely rain when I set out.”
“No, but it definitely wasn’t raining when I left.”
Mr. John Knightley smiled, and replied,
Mr. John Knightley smiled and responded,
“That is to say, you chose to have your walk, for you were not six yards from your own door when I had the pleasure of meeting you; and Henry and John had seen more drops than they could count long before. The post-office has a great charm at one period of our lives. When you have lived to my age, you will begin to think letters are never worth going through the rain for.”
“That means you decided to take a walk, since you were just six yards from your own door when I had the pleasure of meeting you; and Henry and John had already seen more drops of rain than they could count long before. The post office has a certain charm at one stage of our lives. When you’ve lived to my age, you’ll start to think letters aren’t worth getting wet for.”
There was a little blush, and then this answer,
There was a slight blush, and then this response,
“I must not hope to be ever situated as you are, in the midst of every dearest connexion, and therefore I cannot expect that simply growing older should make me indifferent about letters.”
"I shouldn't expect to ever be in your position, surrounded by all your closest connections, so I can't assume that just getting older will make me indifferent to letters."
“Indifferent! Oh! no—I never conceived you could become indifferent. Letters are no matter of indifference; they are generally a very positive curse.”
“Indifferent! Oh, no—I never thought you could become indifferent. Letters are definitely not something to be indifferent about; they’re usually quite a significant burden.”
“You are speaking of letters of business; mine are letters of friendship.”
“You're talking about business letters; mine are letters of friendship.”
“I have often thought them the worst of the two,” replied he coolly. “Business, you know, may bring money, but friendship hardly ever does.”
“I’ve often thought they’re the worse of the two,” he replied casually. “You see, business can bring in money, but friendship rarely does.”
“Ah! you are not serious now. I know Mr. John Knightley too well—I am very sure he understands the value of friendship as well as any body. I can easily believe that letters are very little to you, much less than to me, but it is not your being ten years older than myself which makes the difference, it is not age, but situation. You have every body dearest to you always at hand, I, probably, never shall again; and therefore till I have outlived all my affections, a post-office, I think, must always have power to draw me out, in worse weather than to-day.”
“Ah! you’re not serious right now. I know Mr. John Knightley too well—I’m sure he understands the value of friendship just as much as anyone. I can totally believe that letters mean very little to you, even less than to me, but it’s not just because you’re ten years older than me that there’s a difference; it’s not age, but situation. You have everyone dear to you always close by, while I probably will never have that again; and so, until I’ve outlived all my feelings, I think a post-office will always have the power to pull me in, even in worse weather than today.”
“When I talked of your being altered by time, by the progress of years,” said John Knightley, “I meant to imply the change of situation which time usually brings. I consider one as including the other. Time will generally lessen the interest of every attachment not within the daily circle—but that is not the change I had in view for you. As an old friend, you will allow me to hope, Miss Fairfax, that ten years hence you may have as many concentrated objects as I have.”
“When I mentioned how time changes you, how the years change things,” said John Knightley, “I meant to hint at the shifts in your circumstances that time usually brings. I see one as carrying the other. Time usually reduces the significance of any connection that isn't part of your daily life—but that's not the kind of change I was thinking of for you. As an old friend, I hope, Miss Fairfax, that ten years from now you have as many focused interests as I do.”
It was kindly said, and very far from giving offence. A pleasant “thank you” seemed meant to laugh it off, but a blush, a quivering lip, a tear in the eye, shewed that it was felt beyond a laugh. Her attention was now claimed by Mr. Woodhouse, who being, according to his custom on such occasions, making the circle of his guests, and paying his particular compliments to the ladies, was ending with her—and with all his mildest urbanity, said,
It was said kindly and didn’t offend at all. A cheerful “thank you” seemed intended to brush it off, but a blush, a trembling lip, and a tear in her eye showed that it impacted her more than just a laugh. Mr. Woodhouse then directed his attention to her, as he often did in these situations, going around to his guests and giving special compliments to the women, and he concluded with her—saying with all his gentlest politeness,
“I am very sorry to hear, Miss Fairfax, of your being out this morning in the rain. Young ladies should take care of themselves.—Young ladies are delicate plants. They should take care of their health and their complexion. My dear, did you change your stockings?”
“I’m really sorry to hear, Miss Fairfax, that you were out this morning in the rain. Young women should look after themselves. Young women are delicate flowers. They need to take care of their health and their skin. My dear, did you change your stockings?”
“Yes, sir, I did indeed; and I am very much obliged by your kind solicitude about me.”
“Yes, I did; and I really appreciate your concern for me.”
“My dear Miss Fairfax, young ladies are very sure to be cared for.—I hope your good grand-mama and aunt are well. They are some of my very old friends. I wish my health allowed me to be a better neighbour. You do us a great deal of honour to-day, I am sure. My daughter and I are both highly sensible of your goodness, and have the greatest satisfaction in seeing you at Hartfield.”
“My dear Miss Fairfax, young ladies are always well taken care of. I hope your lovely grandmother and aunt are doing well. They are some of my long-time friends. I wish I could be a better neighbor if my health permitted. You are truly honoring us today, I’m sure. My daughter and I both appreciate your kindness and are very pleased to see you at Hartfield.”
The kind-hearted, polite old man might then sit down and feel that he had done his duty, and made every fair lady welcome and easy.
The kind-hearted, polite old man would then sit down, feeling like he had done his duty and made every lovely lady feel welcome and comfortable.
By this time, the walk in the rain had reached Mrs. Elton, and her remonstrances now opened upon Jane.
By this point, the walk in the rain had caught up to Mrs. Elton, and her complaints were now directed at Jane.
“My dear Jane, what is this I hear?—Going to the post-office in the rain!—This must not be, I assure you.—You sad girl, how could you do such a thing?—It is a sign I was not there to take care of you.”
“My dear Jane, what’s this I hear?—You went to the post office in the rain!—You can’t do that, I promise you.—You sad girl, how could you do such a thing?—It shows I wasn’t there to look after you.”
Jane very patiently assured her that she had not caught any cold.
Jane patiently assured her that she hadn't caught a cold.
“Oh! do not tell me. You really are a very sad girl, and do not know how to take care of yourself.—To the post-office indeed! Mrs. Weston, did you ever hear the like? You and I must positively exert our authority.”
“Oh! don’t tell me. You really are a very sad girl and don’t know how to take care of yourself.—To the post office, really! Mrs. Weston, have you ever heard anything like it? You and I definitely need to assert our authority.”
“My advice,” said Mrs. Weston kindly and persuasively, “I certainly do feel tempted to give. Miss Fairfax, you must not run such risks.—Liable as you have been to severe colds, indeed you ought to be particularly careful, especially at this time of year. The spring I always think requires more than common care. Better wait an hour or two, or even half a day for your letters, than run the risk of bringing on your cough again. Now do not you feel that you had? Yes, I am sure you are much too reasonable. You look as if you would not do such a thing again.”
“My advice,” Mrs. Weston said kindly and persuasively, “I really feel compelled to give. Miss Fairfax, you shouldn’t take such risks. Considering how prone you've been to bad colds, you really need to be especially careful, particularly at this time of year. I always think spring requires extra caution. It’s better to wait an hour or two, or even half a day for your letters, than to risk triggering your cough again. Don’t you agree? Yes, I’m sure you’re too sensible for that. You look like someone who wouldn’t make that mistake again.”
“Oh! she shall not do such a thing again,” eagerly rejoined Mrs. Elton. “We will not allow her to do such a thing again:”—and nodding significantly—“there must be some arrangement made, there must indeed. I shall speak to Mr. E. The man who fetches our letters every morning (one of our men, I forget his name) shall inquire for yours too and bring them to you. That will obviate all difficulties you know; and from us I really think, my dear Jane, you can have no scruple to accept such an accommodation.”
“Oh! she won’t do that again,” Mrs. Elton quickly responded. “We’re not going to let her do that again:”—and nodding meaningfully—“we need to make some arrangements, definitely. I’ll talk to Mr. E. The guy who picks up our letters every morning (one of our staff, I can’t remember his name) will ask for yours too and bring them to you. That will solve all the issues, you know; and from us, I really think, my dear Jane, you shouldn’t feel hesitant to accept such a favor.”
“You are extremely kind,” said Jane; “but I cannot give up my early walk. I am advised to be out of doors as much as I can, I must walk somewhere, and the post-office is an object; and upon my word, I have scarcely ever had a bad morning before.”
“You’re really kind,” Jane said, “but I can’t give up my morning walk. I’ve been advised to spend as much time outdoors as possible, I have to walk somewhere, and the post office is a good destination; honestly, I can hardly remember ever having a bad morning before.”
“My dear Jane, say no more about it. The thing is determined, that is (laughing affectedly) as far as I can presume to determine any thing without the concurrence of my lord and master. You know, Mrs. Weston, you and I must be cautious how we express ourselves. But I do flatter myself, my dear Jane, that my influence is not entirely worn out. If I meet with no insuperable difficulties therefore, consider that point as settled.”
"My dear Jane, let's not discuss it any further. It's decided, that is (laughing in a playful way) as far as I can assume to decide anything without the agreement of my lord and master. You know, Mrs. Weston, we need to be careful about how we speak. But I do believe, my dear Jane, that my influence isn't completely gone. So if I encounter no overwhelming challenges, consider that matter settled."
“Excuse me,” said Jane earnestly, “I cannot by any means consent to such an arrangement, so needlessly troublesome to your servant. If the errand were not a pleasure to me, it could be done, as it always is when I am not here, by my grandmama’s.”
“Excuse me,” Jane said seriously, “I really can’t agree to such an arrangement, which is such an unnecessary hassle for your servant. If this errand weren’t enjoyable for me, it could be handled, as it always is when I’m not around, by my grandma.”
“Oh! my dear; but so much as Patty has to do!—And it is a kindness to employ our men.”
“Oh! my dear; but Patty has so much to do!—And it's a good thing to give our men some work.”
Jane looked as if she did not mean to be conquered; but instead of answering, she began speaking again to Mr. John Knightley.
Jane appeared determined not to be defeated; however, rather than responding, she started talking to Mr. John Knightley again.
“The post-office is a wonderful establishment!” said she.—“The regularity and despatch of it! If one thinks of all that it has to do, and all that it does so well, it is really astonishing!”
“The post office is an amazing place!” she said. “The regularity and speed of it! If you think about everything it has to handle and how well it does it, it’s truly impressive!”
“It is certainly very well regulated.”
“It’s really well organized.”
“So seldom that any negligence or blunder appears! So seldom that a letter, among the thousands that are constantly passing about the kingdom, is even carried wrong—and not one in a million, I suppose, actually lost! And when one considers the variety of hands, and of bad hands too, that are to be deciphered, it increases the wonder.”
“So rarely does any carelessness or mistake happen! So rarely does a letter, among the thousands that are always being sent around the country, even get delivered incorrectly—and I guess not even one in a million is actually lost! And when you think about the different handwriting, including the messy ones, that needs to be read, it just makes the whole thing more amazing.”
“The clerks grow expert from habit.—They must begin with some quickness of sight and hand, and exercise improves them. If you want any farther explanation,” continued he, smiling, “they are paid for it. That is the key to a great deal of capacity. The public pays and must be served well.”
“The clerks become skilled through practice. They need to start with some speed in both seeing and doing, and experience makes them better. If you need any more explanation,” he added with a smile, “they’re paid for it. That’s the secret to a lot of their ability. The public pays and deserves to be served well.”
The varieties of handwriting were farther talked of, and the usual observations made.
The different types of handwriting were discussed further, and the usual comments were made.
“I have heard it asserted,” said John Knightley, “that the same sort of handwriting often prevails in a family; and where the same master teaches, it is natural enough. But for that reason, I should imagine the likeness must be chiefly confined to the females, for boys have very little teaching after an early age, and scramble into any hand they can get. Isabella and Emma, I think, do write very much alike. I have not always known their writing apart.”
“I’ve heard people say,” John Knightley said, “that families often have similar handwriting, and when the same teacher is involved, that makes sense. But because of that, I would guess the resemblance is mostly found among the girls, since boys don’t get much instruction after a young age and tend to adopt whatever style they can manage. I think Isabella and Emma write in a very similar way. I haven’t always been able to tell their writing apart.”
“Yes,” said his brother hesitatingly, “there is a likeness. I know what you mean—but Emma’s hand is the strongest.”
"Yeah," his brother said slowly, "there is a resemblance. I get what you're saying—but Emma's hand is the most powerful."
“Isabella and Emma both write beautifully,” said Mr. Woodhouse; “and always did. And so does poor Mrs. Weston”—with half a sigh and half a smile at her.
“Isabella and Emma both write beautifully,” said Mr. Woodhouse; “and they always have. And so does poor Mrs. Weston”—with half a sigh and half a smile at her.
“I never saw any gentleman’s handwriting”—Emma began, looking also at Mrs. Weston; but stopped, on perceiving that Mrs. Weston was attending to some one else—and the pause gave her time to reflect, “Now, how am I going to introduce him?—Am I unequal to speaking his name at once before all these people? Is it necessary for me to use any roundabout phrase?—Your Yorkshire friend—your correspondent in Yorkshire;—that would be the way, I suppose, if I were very bad.—No, I can pronounce his name without the smallest distress. I certainly get better and better.—Now for it.”
“I’ve never seen a gentleman's handwriting,” Emma started, glancing at Mrs. Weston. She paused when she noticed Mrs. Weston was focused on someone else, giving her a moment to think. “How am I going to introduce him? Am I really too nervous to say his name in front of all these people? Do I need to use some roundabout way? ‘Your friend from Yorkshire’—‘your correspondent in Yorkshire’—that’d work if I were really nervous. No, I can say his name easily. I’m definitely improving. Here goes.”
Mrs. Weston was disengaged and Emma began again—“Mr. Frank Churchill writes one of the best gentleman’s hands I ever saw.”
Mrs. Weston was free, and Emma started again—“Mr. Frank Churchill has one of the nicest handwriting styles I’ve ever seen.”
“I do not admire it,” said Mr. Knightley. “It is too small—wants strength. It is like a woman’s writing.”
“I don’t admire it,” Mr. Knightley said. “It’s too small—lacks strength. It’s like a woman’s handwriting.”
This was not submitted to by either lady. They vindicated him against the base aspersion. “No, it by no means wanted strength—it was not a large hand, but very clear and certainly strong. Had not Mrs. Weston any letter about her to produce?” No, she had heard from him very lately, but having answered the letter, had put it away.
This was not accepted by either lady. They defended him against the unfair rumor. “No, it definitely didn’t lack strength—it wasn’t a big hand, but it was very clear and definitely strong. Didn’t Mrs. Weston have any letter from him to show?” No, she had heard from him very recently, but after replying to the letter, she had set it aside.
“If we were in the other room,” said Emma, “if I had my writing-desk, I am sure I could produce a specimen. I have a note of his.—Do not you remember, Mrs. Weston, employing him to write for you one day?”
“If we were in the other room,” Emma said, “if I had my writing desk, I’m sure I could create a sample. I have a note of his. Don’t you remember, Mrs. Weston, having him write for you one day?”
“He chose to say he was employed”—
“He decided to say he had a job”—
“Well, well, I have that note; and can shew it after dinner to convince Mr. Knightley.”
"Well, well, I have that note, and I can show it after dinner to convince Mr. Knightley."
“Oh! when a gallant young man, like Mr. Frank Churchill,” said Mr. Knightley dryly, “writes to a fair lady like Miss Woodhouse, he will, of course, put forth his best.”
“Oh! when a brave young man, like Mr. Frank Churchill,” Mr. Knightley said dryly, “writes to a lovely lady like Miss Woodhouse, he will, of course, put his best foot forward.”
Dinner was on table.—Mrs. Elton, before she could be spoken to, was ready; and before Mr. Woodhouse had reached her with his request to be allowed to hand her into the dining-parlour, was saying—
Dinner was on the table.—Mrs. Elton, before anyone could speak to her, was ready; and before Mr. Woodhouse got to her with his request to let him escort her into the dining room, she was saying—
“Must I go first? I really am ashamed of always leading the way.”
“Do I have to go first? I'm honestly embarrassed to always take the lead.”
Jane’s solicitude about fetching her own letters had not escaped Emma. She had heard and seen it all; and felt some curiosity to know whether the wet walk of this morning had produced any. She suspected that it had; that it would not have been so resolutely encountered but in full expectation of hearing from some one very dear, and that it had not been in vain. She thought there was an air of greater happiness than usual—a glow both of complexion and spirits.
Jane’s concern about getting her own letters didn’t go unnoticed by Emma. She had seen and heard everything and felt curious to find out if the rainy walk this morning had resulted in any letters. She suspected it had; after all, it wouldn’t have been faced so determinedly without expecting to hear from someone very dear, and it probably hadn’t been in vain. Emma thought Jane seemed to radiate greater happiness than usual—a brightness in both her skin and her mood.
She could have made an inquiry or two, as to the expedition and the expense of the Irish mails;—it was at her tongue’s end—but she abstained. She was quite determined not to utter a word that should hurt Jane Fairfax’s feelings; and they followed the other ladies out of the room, arm in arm, with an appearance of good-will highly becoming to the beauty and grace of each.
She could have asked a question or two about the trip and the cost of the Irish mail; it was right on the tip of her tongue—but she held back. She was absolutely committed to not saying anything that would hurt Jane Fairfax’s feelings, and they went out of the room with the other ladies, arm in arm, looking friendly in a way that was flattering to both their beauty and grace.
CHAPTER XVII
When the ladies returned to the drawing-room after dinner, Emma found it hardly possible to prevent their making two distinct parties;—with so much perseverance in judging and behaving ill did Mrs. Elton engross Jane Fairfax and slight herself. She and Mrs. Weston were obliged to be almost always either talking together or silent together. Mrs. Elton left them no choice. If Jane repressed her for a little time, she soon began again; and though much that passed between them was in a half-whisper, especially on Mrs. Elton’s side, there was no avoiding a knowledge of their principal subjects: The post-office—catching cold—fetching letters—and friendship, were long under discussion; and to them succeeded one, which must be at least equally unpleasant to Jane—inquiries whether she had yet heard of any situation likely to suit her, and professions of Mrs. Elton’s meditated activity.
When the women returned to the living room after dinner, Emma found it almost impossible to stop them from forming two separate groups; with Mrs. Elton so determined to judge and behave poorly, she completely monopolized Jane Fairfax and ignored herself. She and Mrs. Weston had to either talk together or be quiet together almost all the time. Mrs. Elton left them no other option. If Jane held back for a little while, she would soon start up again; and although much of their conversation was shared in a half-whisper, especially on Mrs. Elton’s part, it was impossible not to know their main topics: the post office, catching colds, getting letters, and friendship were all discussed at length; and then came a subject that was at least equally uncomfortable for Jane—questions about whether she had heard of any job openings that might work for her, along with Mrs. Elton's claims of her planned efforts.
“Here is April come!” said she, “I get quite anxious about you. June will soon be here.”
“Here comes April!” she said. “I start to get pretty anxious about you. June will be here before we know it.”
“But I have never fixed on June or any other month—merely looked forward to the summer in general.”
“But I've never settled on June or any other month—I've just looked forward to the summer overall.”
“But have you really heard of nothing?”
“But have you truly heard nothing at all?”
“I have not even made any inquiry; I do not wish to make any yet.”
“I haven't even asked about it; I don't want to ask about it yet.”
“Oh! my dear, we cannot begin too early; you are not aware of the difficulty of procuring exactly the desirable thing.”
“Oh! my dear, we can't start too early; you don't realize how hard it is to find exactly what we want.”
“I not aware!” said Jane, shaking her head; “dear Mrs. Elton, who can have thought of it as I have done?”
“I’m not aware!” said Jane, shaking her head. “Dear Mrs. Elton, who could have thought of it the way I have?”
“But you have not seen so much of the world as I have. You do not know how many candidates there always are for the first situations. I saw a vast deal of that in the neighbourhood round Maple Grove. A cousin of Mr. Suckling, Mrs. Bragge, had such an infinity of applications; every body was anxious to be in her family, for she moves in the first circle. Wax-candles in the schoolroom! You may imagine how desirable! Of all houses in the kingdom Mrs. Bragge’s is the one I would most wish to see you in.”
“But you haven't seen as much of the world as I have. You don't realize how many candidates there are for the top positions. I witnessed a lot of that in the neighborhood around Maple Grove. A cousin of Mr. Suckling, Mrs. Bragge, received an overwhelming number of applications; everyone wanted to be part of her family because she socializes with the elite. Wax candles in the schoolroom! You can imagine how appealing that is! Of all the houses in the kingdom, Mrs. Bragge’s is the one where I would most want to see you.”
“Colonel and Mrs. Campbell are to be in town again by midsummer,” said Jane. “I must spend some time with them; I am sure they will want it;—afterwards I may probably be glad to dispose of myself. But I would not wish you to take the trouble of making any inquiries at present.”
“Colonel and Mrs. Campbell will be back in town by midsummer,” said Jane. “I need to spend some time with them; I’m sure they’ll appreciate it. After that, I might be glad to be on my own. But I don’t want you to bother making any inquiries right now.”
“Trouble! aye, I know your scruples. You are afraid of giving me trouble; but I assure you, my dear Jane, the Campbells can hardly be more interested about you than I am. I shall write to Mrs. Partridge in a day or two, and shall give her a strict charge to be on the look-out for any thing eligible.”
“Trouble! Yeah, I know your doubts. You're worried about causing me trouble; but I promise you, my dear Jane, the Campbells can hardly care about you more than I do. I’ll write to Mrs. Partridge in a day or two and tell her to keep an eye out for anything good.”
“Thank you, but I would rather you did not mention the subject to her; till the time draws nearer, I do not wish to be giving any body trouble.”
“Thanks, but I’d prefer if you didn’t bring it up with her; until the time gets closer, I don’t want to cause anyone any trouble.”
“But, my dear child, the time is drawing near; here is April, and June, or say even July, is very near, with such business to accomplish before us. Your inexperience really amuses me! A situation such as you deserve, and your friends would require for you, is no everyday occurrence, is not obtained at a moment’s notice; indeed, indeed, we must begin inquiring directly.”
“But, my dear child, the time is coming soon; it's April now, and June, or even July, isn't far off, with so much to do ahead of us. Your lack of experience really makes me smile! A situation that you deserve and your friends would want for you doesn’t come around often; it can't be gotten in the blink of an eye; truly, we must start looking into this right away.”
“Excuse me, ma’am, but this is by no means my intention; I make no inquiry myself, and should be sorry to have any made by my friends. When I am quite determined as to the time, I am not at all afraid of being long unemployed. There are places in town, offices, where inquiry would soon produce something—Offices for the sale—not quite of human flesh—but of human intellect.”
“Excuse me, ma’am, but that’s not at all what I meant; I’m not asking anything myself, and I would feel bad if my friends do. Once I decide on the right time, I’m not worried about being out of work for too long. There are places in town, offices, where asking around would quickly lead to something—offices for the sale—not exactly of human flesh—but of human talent.”
“Oh! my dear, human flesh! You quite shock me; if you mean a fling at the slave-trade, I assure you Mr. Suckling was always rather a friend to the abolition.”
“Oh! my dear, human flesh! You really shock me; if you’re making a jab at the slave trade, I assure you Mr. Suckling was always somewhat supportive of abolition.”
“I did not mean, I was not thinking of the slave-trade,” replied Jane; “governess-trade, I assure you, was all that I had in view; widely different certainly as to the guilt of those who carry it on; but as to the greater misery of the victims, I do not know where it lies. But I only mean to say that there are advertising offices, and that by applying to them I should have no doubt of very soon meeting with something that would do.”
“I didn’t mean that; I wasn’t thinking about the slave trade,” replied Jane. “I was only focused on the governess trade, which is definitely different in terms of the guilt of those involved, but as for the greater suffering of the victims, I’m not sure where the difference lies. I just wanted to say that there are advertising agencies, and if I reach out to them, I’m sure I would quickly find something that would work.”
“Something that would do!” repeated Mrs. Elton. “Aye, that may suit your humble ideas of yourself;—I know what a modest creature you are; but it will not satisfy your friends to have you taking up with any thing that may offer, any inferior, commonplace situation, in a family not moving in a certain circle, or able to command the elegancies of life.”
“Something that would work!” Mrs. Elton repeated. “Yeah, that might fit your humble view of yourself; I know what a modest person you are; but your friends won’t be happy to see you settling for anything that comes your way, any low-level, ordinary position, in a family that doesn’t belong to a certain social circle, or isn’t able to provide the finer things in life.”
“You are very obliging; but as to all that, I am very indifferent; it would be no object to me to be with the rich; my mortifications, I think, would only be the greater; I should suffer more from comparison. A gentleman’s family is all that I should condition for.”
“You're very accommodating; but honestly, I don’t care much about that. I wouldn’t find it worthwhile to be with the wealthy; I think it would only make my discomfort worse. I would suffer more from comparing myself to them. The only thing I would require is a gentleman’s family.”
“I know you, I know you; you would take up with any thing; but I shall be a little more nice, and I am sure the good Campbells will be quite on my side; with your superior talents, you have a right to move in the first circle. Your musical knowledge alone would entitle you to name your own terms, have as many rooms as you like, and mix in the family as much as you chose;—that is—I do not know—if you knew the harp, you might do all that, I am very sure; but you sing as well as play;—yes, I really believe you might, even without the harp, stipulate for what you chose;—and you must and shall be delightfully, honourably and comfortably settled before the Campbells or I have any rest.”
“I know you, I know you; you’d get involved with anything; but I’ll be a bit more selective, and I’m sure the good Campbells will totally back me up; with your great talents, you deserve to be in the top social circles. Your musical skills alone should let you set your own terms, have as many rooms as you want, and spend as much time with the family as you like;—that is—I’m not sure—if you played the harp, you could do all that, I’m pretty sure; but you sing as well as play;—yes, I honestly believe you could, even without the harp, negotiate what you want;—and you must and will be happily, respectfully, and comfortably settled before the Campbells or I won’t have any peace.”
“You may well class the delight, the honour, and the comfort of such a situation together,” said Jane, “they are pretty sure to be equal; however, I am very serious in not wishing any thing to be attempted at present for me. I am exceedingly obliged to you, Mrs. Elton, I am obliged to any body who feels for me, but I am quite serious in wishing nothing to be done till the summer. For two or three months longer I shall remain where I am, and as I am.”
“You can definitely group the joy, the honor, and the comfort of such a situation together,” said Jane, “they’re likely to be pretty much the same; however, I’m really serious about not wanting anything to be done for me right now. I truly appreciate you, Mrs. Elton, and I’m thankful to anyone who cares for me, but I really mean it when I say I want nothing to happen until summer. For two or three more months, I’ll stay just where I am, and as I am.”
“And I am quite serious too, I assure you,” replied Mrs. Elton gaily, “in resolving to be always on the watch, and employing my friends to watch also, that nothing really unexceptionable may pass us.”
“And I’m serious about this, I promise you,” replied Mrs. Elton cheerfully, “in my decision to always be on the lookout and to have my friends keep an eye out too, so that nothing truly objectionable slips by us.”
In this style she ran on; never thoroughly stopped by any thing till Mr. Woodhouse came into the room; her vanity had then a change of object, and Emma heard her saying in the same half-whisper to Jane,
In this style, she kept going; never fully stopped by anything until Mr. Woodhouse entered the room. At that point, her focus shifted, and Emma heard her saying in the same half-whisper to Jane,
“Here comes this dear old beau of mine, I protest!—Only think of his gallantry in coming away before the other men!—what a dear creature he is;—I assure you I like him excessively. I admire all that quaint, old-fashioned politeness; it is much more to my taste than modern ease; modern ease often disgusts me. But this good old Mr. Woodhouse, I wish you had heard his gallant speeches to me at dinner. Oh! I assure you I began to think my caro sposo would be absolutely jealous. I fancy I am rather a favourite; he took notice of my gown. How do you like it?—Selina’s choice—handsome, I think, but I do not know whether it is not over-trimmed; I have the greatest dislike to the idea of being over-trimmed—quite a horror of finery. I must put on a few ornaments now, because it is expected of me. A bride, you know, must appear like a bride, but my natural taste is all for simplicity; a simple style of dress is so infinitely preferable to finery. But I am quite in the minority, I believe; few people seem to value simplicity of dress,—show and finery are every thing. I have some notion of putting such a trimming as this to my white and silver poplin. Do you think it will look well?”
“Here comes my dear old beau! Can you believe his gallantry in leaving before the other guys? What a sweet guy he is; I really like him a lot. I appreciate all that charming, old-fashioned politeness; it suits me more than modern casualness, which often annoys me. But this good old Mr. Woodhouse, I wish you could have heard his charming remarks to me at dinner. Seriously, I really thought my dear fiancé might get jealous. I think I’m somewhat of a favorite; he noticed my dress. How do you like it? It was Selina’s choice—I think it’s pretty, but I’m not sure if it’s too much. I really dislike the idea of being overdone—I'm quite averse to extravagance. I will have to wear a few accessories now since it’s expected of me. A bride has to look like a bride, you know, but my natural taste leans toward simplicity; a simple style of dress is so much better than being flashy. But I think I’m in the minority; not many people seem to appreciate simple clothing—everything is about show and extravagance. I’m thinking about adding some trimming like this to my white and silver poplin. Do you think it will look good?”
The whole party were but just reassembled in the drawing-room when Mr. Weston made his appearance among them. He had returned to a late dinner, and walked to Hartfield as soon as it was over. He had been too much expected by the best judges, for surprize—but there was great joy. Mr. Woodhouse was almost as glad to see him now, as he would have been sorry to see him before. John Knightley only was in mute astonishment.—That a man who might have spent his evening quietly at home after a day of business in London, should set off again, and walk half a mile to another man’s house, for the sake of being in mixed company till bed-time, of finishing his day in the efforts of civility and the noise of numbers, was a circumstance to strike him deeply. A man who had been in motion since eight o’clock in the morning, and might now have been still, who had been long talking, and might have been silent, who had been in more than one crowd, and might have been alone!—Such a man, to quit the tranquillity and independence of his own fireside, and on the evening of a cold sleety April day rush out again into the world!—Could he by a touch of his finger have instantly taken back his wife, there would have been a motive; but his coming would probably prolong rather than break up the party. John Knightley looked at him with amazement, then shrugged his shoulders, and said, “I could not have believed it even of him.”
The whole party had just reunited in the living room when Mr. Weston joined them. He had come back from a late dinner and walked to Hartfield right after. The best judges had anticipated his arrival, so it was more of a pleasant surprise than shocking news—and there was great joy. Mr. Woodhouse was almost as happy to see him now as he would have been upset to see him before. John Knightley, however, was simply astonished. He couldn’t understand how a man could have spent his evening comfortably at home after a long day of work in London, yet choose to head out and walk half a mile to someone else's house just to enjoy socializing until bedtime, ending his day surrounded by chatter and people. It was something that truly struck him. A man who had been on the move since eight in the morning, who could now be resting, had been talking and could have opted for silence, had been with crowds but could have enjoyed solitude!—For such a person to leave the peace and independence of his own home on a chilly, sleety April night to venture out into the world!—If he could have simply brought his wife back with a touch, that would have made sense; but his presence would likely just extend the party rather than wrap it up. John Knightley looked at him in disbelief, then shrugged and said, “I couldn’t have believed it even of him.”
Mr. Weston meanwhile, perfectly unsuspicious of the indignation he was exciting, happy and cheerful as usual, and with all the right of being principal talker, which a day spent anywhere from home confers, was making himself agreeable among the rest; and having satisfied the inquiries of his wife as to his dinner, convincing her that none of all her careful directions to the servants had been forgotten, and spread abroad what public news he had heard, was proceeding to a family communication, which, though principally addressed to Mrs. Weston, he had not the smallest doubt of being highly interesting to every body in the room. He gave her a letter, it was from Frank, and to herself; he had met with it in his way, and had taken the liberty of opening it.
Mr. Weston, completely unaware of the anger he was causing, was happy and cheerful as usual. With all the privilege of being the main speaker, which a day spent away from home brings, he was enjoying himself among the others. After reassuring his wife about dinner, convincing her that all her careful instructions to the servants were followed, and sharing the latest news he had heard, he was about to share some family news. This was mainly directed at Mrs. Weston, but he was sure it would be interesting to everyone in the room. He handed her a letter, which was from Frank and meant for her. He had found it on his way and had taken the liberty of opening it.
“Read it, read it,” said he, “it will give you pleasure; only a few lines—will not take you long; read it to Emma.”
“Read it, read it,” he said, “it will make you happy; just a few lines—it won't take long; read it to Emma.”
The two ladies looked over it together; and he sat smiling and talking to them the whole time, in a voice a little subdued, but very audible to every body.
The two women looked it over together, while he sat there smiling and chatting with them the entire time, using a slightly quieter voice, but loud enough for everyone to hear.
“Well, he is coming, you see; good news, I think. Well, what do you say to it?—I always told you he would be here again soon, did not I?—Anne, my dear, did not I always tell you so, and you would not believe me?—In town next week, you see—at the latest, I dare say; for she is as impatient as the black gentleman when any thing is to be done; most likely they will be there to-morrow or Saturday. As to her illness, all nothing of course. But it is an excellent thing to have Frank among us again, so near as town. They will stay a good while when they do come, and he will be half his time with us. This is precisely what I wanted. Well, pretty good news, is not it? Have you finished it? Has Emma read it all? Put it up, put it up; we will have a good talk about it some other time, but it will not do now. I shall only just mention the circumstance to the others in a common way.”
“Well, he’s coming, you see; I think that’s good news. So, what do you think about it?—I always told you he’d be back soon, didn’t I?—Anne, my dear, didn’t I always say that, and you wouldn’t believe me?—In town next week, at the latest, I bet; because she’s as impatient as anyone when there’s something to be done; they’ll probably be here tomorrow or Saturday. As for her illness, it’s all nothing, of course. But it’s fantastic to have Frank back with us, so close to town. They’ll stay a while when they do come, and he’ll spend half his time with us. This is exactly what I wanted. Well, pretty good news, isn’t it? Have you finished it? Has Emma read it all? Put it away, put it away; we’ll have a good talk about it another time, but not now. I’ll just casually mention it to the others.”
Mrs. Weston was most comfortably pleased on the occasion. Her looks and words had nothing to restrain them. She was happy, she knew she was happy, and knew she ought to be happy. Her congratulations were warm and open; but Emma could not speak so fluently. She was a little occupied in weighing her own feelings, and trying to understand the degree of her agitation, which she rather thought was considerable.
Mrs. Weston was feeling very pleased at that moment. Her appearance and words reflected her joy without any reservations. She was happy, she recognized her happiness, and she knew she had every reason to be happy. Her congratulations were heartfelt and genuine; however, Emma couldn’t express herself as easily. She was somewhat preoccupied with sorting out her own feelings and trying to figure out how much her agitation affected her, which she suspected was quite a bit.
Mr. Weston, however, too eager to be very observant, too communicative to want others to talk, was very well satisfied with what she did say, and soon moved away to make the rest of his friends happy by a partial communication of what the whole room must have overheard already.
Mr. Weston, however, was too eager to notice everything and too chatty to let others speak, so he was quite pleased with what she said. He soon moved on to share part of the conversation with the rest of his friends, making them happy with what everyone in the room must have already heard.
It was well that he took every body’s joy for granted, or he might not have thought either Mr. Woodhouse or Mr. Knightley particularly delighted. They were the first entitled, after Mrs. Weston and Emma, to be made happy;—from them he would have proceeded to Miss Fairfax, but she was so deep in conversation with John Knightley, that it would have been too positive an interruption; and finding himself close to Mrs. Elton, and her attention disengaged, he necessarily began on the subject with her.
It was good that he assumed everyone else's happiness was a given, or he might not have thought either Mr. Woodhouse or Mr. Knightley seemed very happy. They were the first, after Mrs. Weston and Emma, who were meant to be made happy;—from them, he would have moved on to Miss Fairfax, but she was so wrapped up in conversation with John Knightley that interrupting them would have felt too intrusive. Since he was close to Mrs. Elton and her attention was free, he naturally started the conversation with her.
CHAPTER XVIII
“I hope I shall soon have the pleasure of introducing my son to you,” said Mr. Weston.
“I hope to introduce my son to you soon,” said Mr. Weston.
Mrs. Elton, very willing to suppose a particular compliment intended her by such a hope, smiled most graciously.
Mrs. Elton, eager to think that such a hope was meant as a special compliment to her, smiled very graciously.
“You have heard of a certain Frank Churchill, I presume,” he continued—“and know him to be my son, though he does not bear my name.”
“You’ve heard of someone named Frank Churchill, I assume,” he continued, “and you know he’s my son, even though he doesn’t have my last name.”
“Oh! yes, and I shall be very happy in his acquaintance. I am sure Mr. Elton will lose no time in calling on him; and we shall both have great pleasure in seeing him at the Vicarage.”
“Oh! yes, and I will be really happy to get to know him. I’m sure Mr. Elton won’t hesitate to visit him; and we will both be very pleased to see him at the Vicarage.”
“You are very obliging.—Frank will be extremely happy, I am sure.— He is to be in town next week, if not sooner. We have notice of it in a letter to-day. I met the letters in my way this morning, and seeing my son’s hand, presumed to open it—though it was not directed to me—it was to Mrs. Weston. She is his principal correspondent, I assure you. I hardly ever get a letter.”
“You're very accommodating. Frank will be really happy, I'm sure. He’s supposed to be in town next week, if not sooner. We just got a notice about it in a letter today. I came across the letters this morning, and seeing my son’s handwriting, I went ahead and opened it—even though it wasn’t addressed to me; it was for Mrs. Weston. She’s his main correspondent, I promise you. I hardly ever get a letter.”
“And so you absolutely opened what was directed to her! Oh! Mr. Weston—(laughing affectedly) I must protest against that.—A most dangerous precedent indeed!—I beg you will not let your neighbours follow your example.—Upon my word, if this is what I am to expect, we married women must begin to exert ourselves!—Oh! Mr. Weston, I could not have believed it of you!”
“And so you really opened what was meant for her! Oh! Mr. Weston—(laughing in a pretend way) I have to protest against that.—A very risky precedent indeed!—I hope you won't let your neighbors do the same thing.—Honestly, if this is what I have to look forward to, we married women will have to step up our game!—Oh! Mr. Weston, I could never have believed this of you!”
“Aye, we men are sad fellows. You must take care of yourself, Mrs. Elton.—This letter tells us—it is a short letter—written in a hurry, merely to give us notice—it tells us that they are all coming up to town directly, on Mrs. Churchill’s account—she has not been well the whole winter, and thinks Enscombe too cold for her—so they are all to move southward without loss of time.”
"Yeah, we men are a pretty sad bunch. You need to take care of yourself, Mrs. Elton. This letter tells us—it's a short letter—written in a rush, just to give us a heads-up—it says they’re all coming to town right away, for Mrs. Churchill’s sake. She hasn’t been feeling well all winter and thinks Enscombe is too cold for her—so they’re all moving south without wasting any time."
“Indeed!—from Yorkshire, I think. Enscombe is in Yorkshire?”
“Definitely! I believe it’s from Yorkshire. Enscombe is in Yorkshire, right?”
“Yes, they are about one hundred and ninety miles from London, a considerable journey.”
“Yes, they are about one hundred and ninety miles from London, which is quite a trip.”
“Yes, upon my word, very considerable. Sixty-five miles farther than from Maple Grove to London. But what is distance, Mr. Weston, to people of large fortune?—You would be amazed to hear how my brother, Mr. Suckling, sometimes flies about. You will hardly believe me—but twice in one week he and Mr. Bragge went to London and back again with four horses.”
“Yes, I swear, that’s quite a bit. Sixty-five miles further than from Maple Grove to London. But what does distance mean, Mr. Weston, to people with significant wealth?—You’d be surprised to hear how my brother, Mr. Suckling, sometimes travels. You probably won’t believe me—but twice in one week he and Mr. Bragge went to London and back again with four horses.”
“The evil of the distance from Enscombe,” said Mr. Weston, “is, that Mrs. Churchill, as we understand, has not been able to leave the sofa for a week together. In Frank’s last letter she complained, he said, of being too weak to get into her conservatory without having both his arm and his uncle’s! This, you know, speaks a great degree of weakness—but now she is so impatient to be in town, that she means to sleep only two nights on the road.—So Frank writes word. Certainly, delicate ladies have very extraordinary constitutions, Mrs. Elton. You must grant me that.”
“The problem with being so far from Enscombe,” Mr. Weston said, “is that Mrs. Churchill, as we understand it, hasn’t been able to leave the sofa for an entire week. In Frank’s last letter, he mentioned that she complained of being too weak to even get into her conservatory without needing both his arm and his uncle’s! This, as you can see, indicates a significant degree of weakness—but now she’s so eager to get to town that she plans to spend only two nights on the road. That’s what Frank wrote. Truly, delicate ladies seem to have very unusual constitutions, Mrs. Elton. You have to agree with me on that.”
“No, indeed, I shall grant you nothing. I always take the part of my own sex. I do indeed. I give you notice—You will find me a formidable antagonist on that point. I always stand up for women—and I assure you, if you knew how Selina feels with respect to sleeping at an inn, you would not wonder at Mrs. Churchill’s making incredible exertions to avoid it. Selina says it is quite horror to her—and I believe I have caught a little of her nicety. She always travels with her own sheets; an excellent precaution. Does Mrs. Churchill do the same?”
“No, I won’t give you anything. I always support my own gender. I really do. Just so you know—you’ll find me a tough opponent on that issue. I always stand up for women—and trust me, if you knew how Selina feels about staying at an inn, you wouldn’t be surprised by the lengths Mrs. Churchill goes to avoid it. Selina says it’s absolutely horrifying to her—and I think I've picked up some of her sensitivity. She always travels with her own sheets; that's a smart move. Does Mrs. Churchill do the same?”
“Depend upon it, Mrs. Churchill does every thing that any other fine lady ever did. Mrs. Churchill will not be second to any lady in the land for”—
“Trust me, Mrs. Churchill does everything that any other classy lady does. Mrs. Churchill will not be outdone by any lady in the country for—”
Mrs. Elton eagerly interposed with,
Mrs. Elton eagerly interrupted with,
“Oh! Mr. Weston, do not mistake me. Selina is no fine lady, I assure you. Do not run away with such an idea.”
“Oh! Mr. Weston, please don’t get me wrong. Selina is not a high-class lady, I promise you. Don’t assume that.”
“Is not she? Then she is no rule for Mrs. Churchill, who is as thorough a fine lady as any body ever beheld.”
"Isn’t she? Then she doesn’t set the standard for Mrs. Churchill, who is as much of a fine lady as anyone has ever seen."
Mrs. Elton began to think she had been wrong in disclaiming so warmly. It was by no means her object to have it believed that her sister was not a fine lady; perhaps there was want of spirit in the pretence of it;—and she was considering in what way she had best retract, when Mr. Weston went on.
Mrs. Elton started to feel she might have been mistaken in being so dismissive. It definitely wasn't her intention to make it seem like her sister was not a fine lady; maybe there was a lack of grace in pretending otherwise;—and she was thinking about how to take back her words when Mr. Weston continued speaking.
“Mrs. Churchill is not much in my good graces, as you may suspect—but this is quite between ourselves. She is very fond of Frank, and therefore I would not speak ill of her. Besides, she is out of health now; but that indeed, by her own account, she has always been. I would not say so to every body, Mrs. Elton, but I have not much faith in Mrs. Churchill’s illness.”
“Mrs. Churchill doesn’t have a great reputation with me, as you might guess—but let’s keep that between us. She really cares for Frank, and that’s why I wouldn’t speak badly about her. Plus, she’s not well right now; though, according to her, she’s always been this way. I wouldn’t share this with just anyone, Mrs. Elton, but I don’t have much faith in Mrs. Churchill’s illness.”
“If she is really ill, why not go to Bath, Mr. Weston?—To Bath, or to Clifton?” “She has taken it into her head that Enscombe is too cold for her. The fact is, I suppose, that she is tired of Enscombe. She has now been a longer time stationary there, than she ever was before, and she begins to want change. It is a retired place. A fine place, but very retired.”
“If she’s really sick, why not go to Bath, Mr. Weston?—To Bath or to Clifton?” “She’s convinced that Enscombe is too cold for her. The truth is, I think she’s just tired of Enscombe. She’s been there longer than she ever has before, and now she’s craving a change. It’s a quiet place. A nice place, but very secluded.”
“Aye—like Maple Grove, I dare say. Nothing can stand more retired from the road than Maple Grove. Such an immense plantation all round it! You seem shut out from every thing—in the most complete retirement.—And Mrs. Churchill probably has not health or spirits like Selina to enjoy that sort of seclusion. Or, perhaps she may not have resources enough in herself to be qualified for a country life. I always say a woman cannot have too many resources—and I feel very thankful that I have so many myself as to be quite independent of society.”
“Yeah—like Maple Grove, I would say. Nothing is more secluded from the road than Maple Grove. There's such a huge plantation all around it! You really feel cut off from everything—in total isolation. And Mrs. Churchill probably doesn’t have the health or energy like Selina to appreciate that kind of seclusion. Or maybe she just doesn’t have enough within herself to thrive in a country life. I always say a woman can never have too many personal resources—and I’m very thankful that I have enough to be completely independent of society.”
“Frank was here in February for a fortnight.”
“Frank was here in February for two weeks.”
“So I remember to have heard. He will find an addition to the society of Highbury when he comes again; that is, if I may presume to call myself an addition. But perhaps he may never have heard of there being such a creature in the world.”
“So I remember hearing. He will find a new addition to the society of Highbury when he comes back; that is, if I can call myself an addition. But maybe he has never heard of such a person existing in the world.”
This was too loud a call for a compliment to be passed by, and Mr. Weston, with a very good grace, immediately exclaimed,
This was too noisy a request for a compliment to be ignored, and Mr. Weston, with a very good attitude, immediately exclaimed,
“My dear madam! Nobody but yourself could imagine such a thing possible. Not heard of you!—I believe Mrs. Weston’s letters lately have been full of very little else than Mrs. Elton.”
“My dear madam! No one but you could think such a thing was possible. Not heard of you!—I believe Mrs. Weston’s recent letters have been filled with almost nothing but Mrs. Elton.”
He had done his duty and could return to his son.
He had fulfilled his responsibility and could go back to his son.
“When Frank left us,” continued he, “it was quite uncertain when we might see him again, which makes this day’s news doubly welcome. It has been completely unexpected. That is, I always had a strong persuasion he would be here again soon, I was sure something favourable would turn up—but nobody believed me. He and Mrs. Weston were both dreadfully desponding. ‘How could he contrive to come? And how could it be supposed that his uncle and aunt would spare him again?’ and so forth—I always felt that something would happen in our favour; and so it has, you see. I have observed, Mrs. Elton, in the course of my life, that if things are going untowardly one month, they are sure to mend the next.”
“When Frank left us,” he continued, “it was pretty uncertain when we might see him again, which makes today’s news even more welcome. It’s completely unexpected. Well, I always felt strongly that he would be back soon; I was sure something good would come up—but no one believed me. He and Mrs. Weston were both really down about it. ‘How could he possibly come? And how could we think his uncle and aunt would let him go again?’ and so on—I always thought something would happen in our favor; and here we are. I’ve noticed, Mrs. Elton, throughout my life, that if things are going badly one month, they’re sure to get better the next.”
“Very true, Mr. Weston, perfectly true. It is just what I used to say to a certain gentleman in company in the days of courtship, when, because things did not go quite right, did not proceed with all the rapidity which suited his feelings, he was apt to be in despair, and exclaim that he was sure at this rate it would be May before Hymen’s saffron robe would be put on for us. Oh! the pains I have been at to dispel those gloomy ideas and give him cheerfuller views! The carriage—we had disappointments about the carriage;—one morning, I remember, he came to me quite in despair.”
“Absolutely, Mr. Weston, totally true. It’s exactly what I used to tell a certain guy during our courtship. When things didn’t go perfectly or moved as quickly as he wanted, he would get really down and say he was sure it would be May before we could tie the knot. Oh, the effort I put in to lift his spirits and give him a more positive perspective! We had some setbacks with the carriage; I remember one morning, he came to me completely despondent.”
She was stopped by a slight fit of coughing, and Mr. Weston instantly seized the opportunity of going on.
She was interrupted by a small cough, and Mr. Weston quickly took the chance to continue.
“You were mentioning May. May is the very month which Mrs. Churchill is ordered, or has ordered herself, to spend in some warmer place than Enscombe—in short, to spend in London; so that we have the agreeable prospect of frequent visits from Frank the whole spring—precisely the season of the year which one should have chosen for it: days almost at the longest; weather genial and pleasant, always inviting one out, and never too hot for exercise. When he was here before, we made the best of it; but there was a good deal of wet, damp, cheerless weather; there always is in February, you know, and we could not do half that we intended. Now will be the time. This will be complete enjoyment; and I do not know, Mrs. Elton, whether the uncertainty of our meetings, the sort of constant expectation there will be of his coming in to-day or to-morrow, and at any hour, may not be more friendly to happiness than having him actually in the house. I think it is so. I think it is the state of mind which gives most spirit and delight. I hope you will be pleased with my son; but you must not expect a prodigy. He is generally thought a fine young man, but do not expect a prodigy. Mrs. Weston’s partiality for him is very great, and, as you may suppose, most gratifying to me. She thinks nobody equal to him.”
“You were talking about May. May is the exact month when Mrs. Churchill is supposed to spend some time in a warmer place than Enscombe—in other words, in London; so we can look forward to frequent visits from Frank all spring long—the perfect time of year for it: days almost at their longest; weather mild and pleasant, always inviting us outside, and never too hot for some activity. When he was here before, we made the most of it; but we had quite a bit of wet, gloomy, dreary weather; there’s always a lot of that in February, you know, and we couldn’t do half of what we had planned. Now will be the time. This will be pure enjoyment; and I don’t know, Mrs. Elton, whether the uncertainty of when we’ll see him—the constant anticipation of him dropping by today or tomorrow, at any hour—might actually be more conducive to happiness than having him right here in the house. I think it is. I believe it’s that state of mind that brings the most energy and joy. I hope you’ll like my son; but you shouldn’t expect a miracle. He’s generally regarded as a fine young man, but please don’t expect a miracle. Mrs. Weston is very fond of him, and, as you can imagine, that’s extremely flattering to me. She believes no one compares to him.”
“And I assure you, Mr. Weston, I have very little doubt that my opinion will be decidedly in his favour. I have heard so much in praise of Mr. Frank Churchill.—At the same time it is fair to observe, that I am one of those who always judge for themselves, and are by no means implicitly guided by others. I give you notice that as I find your son, so I shall judge of him.—I am no flatterer.”
“And I assure you, Mr. Weston, I have no doubt that my opinion will definitely be in his favor. I’ve heard so much good about Mr. Frank Churchill. At the same time, it’s fair to say that I’m someone who always makes my own judgments and isn’t just influenced by others. I want you to know that I will judge your son based on my own impressions. I’m not someone who flatters.”
Mr. Weston was musing.
Mr. Weston was thinking.
“I hope,” said he presently, “I have not been severe upon poor Mrs. Churchill. If she is ill I should be sorry to do her injustice; but there are some traits in her character which make it difficult for me to speak of her with the forbearance I could wish. You cannot be ignorant, Mrs. Elton, of my connexion with the family, nor of the treatment I have met with; and, between ourselves, the whole blame of it is to be laid to her. She was the instigator. Frank’s mother would never have been slighted as she was but for her. Mr. Churchill has pride; but his pride is nothing to his wife’s: his is a quiet, indolent, gentlemanlike sort of pride that would harm nobody, and only make himself a little helpless and tiresome; but her pride is arrogance and insolence! And what inclines one less to bear, she has no fair pretence of family or blood. She was nobody when he married her, barely the daughter of a gentleman; but ever since her being turned into a Churchill she has out-Churchill’d them all in high and mighty claims: but in herself, I assure you, she is an upstart.”
“I hope,” he said after a moment, “I haven’t been too harsh on poor Mrs. Churchill. If she’s unwell, I’d feel bad for being unjust to her; but there are aspects of her character that make it hard for me to speak about her with the patience I’d like to have. You can’t be unaware, Mrs. Elton, of my connection to the family, or of how I’ve been treated; and, between us, all the blame falls on her. She was the one who instigated it. Frank’s mother would never have been slighted as she was if it weren't for her. Mr. Churchill has a sense of pride, but his pride is nothing compared to his wife’s: his is a quiet, lazy, gentlemanly pride that doesn’t hurt anyone and only makes him a bit helpless and annoying; but her pride is sheer arrogance and insolence! And what makes it harder to tolerate is that she has no legitimate claim to family or lineage. She was nobody when he married her, barely the daughter of a gentleman; but ever since becoming a Churchill, she has outdone them all with her lofty claims: but in reality, I assure you, she is just an upstart.”
“Only think! well, that must be infinitely provoking! I have quite a horror of upstarts. Maple Grove has given me a thorough disgust to people of that sort; for there is a family in that neighbourhood who are such an annoyance to my brother and sister from the airs they give themselves! Your description of Mrs. Churchill made me think of them directly. People of the name of Tupman, very lately settled there, and encumbered with many low connexions, but giving themselves immense airs, and expecting to be on a footing with the old established families. A year and a half is the very utmost that they can have lived at West Hall; and how they got their fortune nobody knows. They came from Birmingham, which is not a place to promise much, you know, Mr. Weston. One has not great hopes from Birmingham. I always say there is something direful in the sound: but nothing more is positively known of the Tupmans, though a good many things I assure you are suspected; and yet by their manners they evidently think themselves equal even to my brother, Mr. Suckling, who happens to be one of their nearest neighbours. It is infinitely too bad. Mr. Suckling, who has been eleven years a resident at Maple Grove, and whose father had it before him—I believe, at least—I am almost sure that old Mr. Suckling had completed the purchase before his death.”
“Just think about it! That must be incredibly frustrating! I have a total aversion to people who think they’re better than everyone else. Maple Grove has really turned me off to people like that; there’s a family in that neighborhood who are such a bother to my brother and sister with their pretentious attitude! Your description of Mrs. Churchill instantly reminded me of them. It’s a family called Tupman, who recently moved there and are associated with a lot of lower-class connections, yet they act like they’re superior and expect to be on the same level as the long-established families. They’ve been at West Hall for at most a year and a half, and nobody knows how they came into their fortune. They moved from Birmingham, which doesn’t exactly have a great reputation, you know, Mr. Weston. You don't expect much from Birmingham. I always say there’s something dreadful in the name: but other than that, not much is known about the Tupmans, though I assure you a lot is suspected; and yet their behavior suggests they believe they are equal even to my brother, Mr. Suckling, who happens to be one of their closest neighbors. It’s absolutely ridiculous. Mr. Suckling has lived at Maple Grove for eleven years, and I believe his father owned it before him—I’m pretty sure that old Mr. Suckling had finalized the purchase before he passed away.”
They were interrupted. Tea was carrying round, and Mr. Weston, having said all that he wanted, soon took the opportunity of walking away.
They were interrupted. Tea was being served, and Mr. Weston, having said everything he wanted to, quickly took the chance to walk away.
After tea, Mr. and Mrs. Weston, and Mr. Elton sat down with Mr. Woodhouse to cards. The remaining five were left to their own powers, and Emma doubted their getting on very well; for Mr. Knightley seemed little disposed for conversation; Mrs. Elton was wanting notice, which nobody had inclination to pay, and she was herself in a worry of spirits which would have made her prefer being silent.
After tea, Mr. and Mrs. Weston and Mr. Elton joined Mr. Woodhouse for a game of cards. The other five were left to their own devices, and Emma was unsure how well they would manage; Mr. Knightley didn’t seem interested in chatting, Mrs. Elton craved attention that no one was inclined to give, and she was in a moody state that made her prefer to stay quiet.
Mr. John Knightley proved more talkative than his brother. He was to leave them early the next day; and he soon began with—
Mr. John Knightley was more chatty than his brother. He was going to leave them early the next day, and he soon started with—
“Well, Emma, I do not believe I have any thing more to say about the boys; but you have your sister’s letter, and every thing is down at full length there we may be sure. My charge would be much more concise than her’s, and probably not much in the same spirit; all that I have to recommend being comprised in, do not spoil them, and do not physic them.”
“Well, Emma, I don't think I have anything more to say about the boys; but you have your sister's letter, and everything is written out in detail there, I'm sure. My advice would be much shorter than hers, and probably not in the same tone; all I have to say is, don’t spoil them and don’t medicate them.”
“I rather hope to satisfy you both,” said Emma, “for I shall do all in my power to make them happy, which will be enough for Isabella; and happiness must preclude false indulgence and physic.”
“I really hope to please you both,” said Emma, “because I’ll do everything I can to make them happy, which will be enough for Isabella; and happiness has to mean no false indulgence and no medicine.”
“And if you find them troublesome, you must send them home again.”
“And if you find them annoying, you have to send them back home.”
“That is very likely. You think so, do not you?”
"That’s very likely. You think so, right?"
“I hope I am aware that they may be too noisy for your father—or even may be some encumbrance to you, if your visiting engagements continue to increase as much as they have done lately.”
“I hope I realize that they might be too loud for your dad—or could even be a burden for you, if your social commitments keep growing as much as they have been lately.”
“Increase!”
“Boost!”
“Certainly; you must be sensible that the last half-year has made a great difference in your way of life.”
“Of course; you must realize that the last six months have changed a lot about your life.”
“Difference! No indeed I am not.”
"Difference! No, I'm sure not."
“There can be no doubt of your being much more engaged with company than you used to be. Witness this very time. Here am I come down for only one day, and you are engaged with a dinner-party!—When did it happen before, or any thing like it? Your neighbourhood is increasing, and you mix more with it. A little while ago, every letter to Isabella brought an account of fresh gaieties; dinners at Mr. Cole’s, or balls at the Crown. The difference which Randalls, Randalls alone makes in your goings-on, is very great.”
“There’s no doubt that you’re much more involved with social gatherings than you used to be. Look at this very moment. Here I am, visiting for just one day, and you have a dinner party planned! When did that ever happen before? Your social circle is growing, and you’re more connected to it. Not long ago, every letter to Isabella included news of new events; dinners at Mr. Cole’s or dances at the Crown. The change that Randalls—just Randalls—has made in your activities is significant.”
“Yes,” said his brother quickly, “it is Randalls that does it all.”
"Yes," his brother said quickly, "it's Randalls who takes care of everything."
“Very well—and as Randalls, I suppose, is not likely to have less influence than heretofore, it strikes me as a possible thing, Emma, that Henry and John may be sometimes in the way. And if they are, I only beg you to send them home.”
“Alright—since Randalls likely won't have any less influence than before, it seems to me, Emma, that Henry and John might occasionally be a distraction. And if they are, I just ask that you send them home.”
“No,” cried Mr. Knightley, “that need not be the consequence. Let them be sent to Donwell. I shall certainly be at leisure.”
“No,” shouted Mr. Knightley, “that doesn’t have to be the outcome. Just send them to Donwell. I’ll definitely be free.”
“Upon my word,” exclaimed Emma, “you amuse me! I should like to know how many of all my numerous engagements take place without your being of the party; and why I am to be supposed in danger of wanting leisure to attend to the little boys. These amazing engagements of mine—what have they been? Dining once with the Coles—and having a ball talked of, which never took place. I can understand you—(nodding at Mr. John Knightley)—your good fortune in meeting with so many of your friends at once here, delights you too much to pass unnoticed. But you, (turning to Mr. Knightley,) who know how very, very seldom I am ever two hours from Hartfield, why you should foresee such a series of dissipation for me, I cannot imagine. And as to my dear little boys, I must say, that if Aunt Emma has not time for them, I do not think they would fare much better with Uncle Knightley, who is absent from home about five hours where she is absent one—and who, when he is at home, is either reading to himself or settling his accounts.”
“Honestly,” Emma exclaimed, “you crack me up! I’d love to know how many of my countless plans happen without you being part of them, and why it’s assumed that I might not have time to take care of the little boys. These incredible plans of mine—what have they been? Dining once with the Coles—and a ball that was discussed but never happened. I can see your point—(nodding at Mr. John Knightley)—you’re so thrilled to see so many friends at once here that you can’t help but mention it. But you, (turning to Mr. Knightley) who knows how rarely I’m away from Hartfield for more than two hours, why you would expect me to have such a busy social calendar is beyond me. And as for my dear little boys, I have to say, if Aunt Emma doesn’t have time for them, I don’t think they’d do much better with Uncle Knightley, who is gone for about five hours for every one she is away—and when he is home, he’s either reading to himself or going over his accounts.”
Mr. Knightley seemed to be trying not to smile; and succeeded without difficulty, upon Mrs. Elton’s beginning to talk to him.
Mr. Knightley looked like he was trying not to smile, and he managed it easily when Mrs. Elton started talking to him.
CHAPTER I
A very little quiet reflection was enough to satisfy Emma as to the nature of her agitation on hearing this news of Frank Churchill. She was soon convinced that it was not for herself she was feeling at all apprehensive or embarrassed; it was for him. Her own attachment had really subsided into a mere nothing; it was not worth thinking of;—but if he, who had undoubtedly been always so much the most in love of the two, were to be returning with the same warmth of sentiment which he had taken away, it would be very distressing. If a separation of two months should not have cooled him, there were dangers and evils before her:—caution for him and for herself would be necessary. She did not mean to have her own affections entangled again, and it would be incumbent on her to avoid any encouragement of his.
A little quiet reflection was all it took for Emma to understand why she felt uneasy upon hearing the news about Frank Churchill. She quickly realized that her feelings of apprehension and embarrassment were not about herself at all; they were for him. Her own feelings had faded into nothingness; they weren't worth worrying about. But if he, who had always seemed more in love than she was, came back with the same intensity of feelings he had before, it would be very upsetting. If a two-month separation hadn’t cooled his feelings, she faced real threats and challenges. She needed to be cautious for both him and herself. She had no intention of getting her own feelings tangled up again, and it was crucial for her to avoid giving him any reason to think otherwise.
She wished she might be able to keep him from an absolute declaration. That would be so very painful a conclusion of their present acquaintance! and yet, she could not help rather anticipating something decisive. She felt as if the spring would not pass without bringing a crisis, an event, a something to alter her present composed and tranquil state.
She hoped she could avoid him making a definite declaration. That would be such a painful end to their current relationship! And yet, she couldn’t help but expect something decisive. She felt like the spring wouldn't go by without bringing a crisis, an event, something to change her currently calm and peaceful state.
It was not very long, though rather longer than Mr. Weston had foreseen, before she had the power of forming some opinion of Frank Churchill’s feelings. The Enscombe family were not in town quite so soon as had been imagined, but he was at Highbury very soon afterwards. He rode down for a couple of hours; he could not yet do more; but as he came from Randalls immediately to Hartfield, she could then exercise all her quick observation, and speedily determine how he was influenced, and how she must act. They met with the utmost friendliness. There could be no doubt of his great pleasure in seeing her. But she had an almost instant doubt of his caring for her as he had done, of his feeling the same tenderness in the same degree. She watched him well. It was a clear thing he was less in love than he had been. Absence, with the conviction probably of her indifference, had produced this very natural and very desirable effect.
It wasn't too long, but a bit longer than Mr. Weston had expected, before she was able to form an opinion about Frank Churchill's feelings. The Enscombe family didn’t arrive in town as soon as everyone thought, but he showed up in Highbury shortly after. He rode over for a couple of hours; he couldn’t stay longer yet, but since he came from Randalls straight to Hartfield, she could observe him closely and quickly figure out how he felt and how she needed to respond. They greeted each other warmly. There was no doubt he was genuinely happy to see her. But she almost immediately questioned whether he cared for her like he once did, whether he felt the same level of affection. She watched him closely. It was clear that he was less in love than he had been. The time apart, likely combined with his belief in her indifference, had created this very natural and very welcome effect.
He was in high spirits; as ready to talk and laugh as ever, and seemed delighted to speak of his former visit, and recur to old stories: and he was not without agitation. It was not in his calmness that she read his comparative indifference. He was not calm; his spirits were evidently fluttered; there was restlessness about him. Lively as he was, it seemed a liveliness that did not satisfy himself; but what decided her belief on the subject, was his staying only a quarter of an hour, and hurrying away to make other calls in Highbury. “He had seen a group of old acquaintance in the street as he passed—he had not stopped, he would not stop for more than a word—but he had the vanity to think they would be disappointed if he did not call, and much as he wished to stay longer at Hartfield, he must hurry off.” She had no doubt as to his being less in love—but neither his agitated spirits, nor his hurrying away, seemed like a perfect cure; and she was rather inclined to think it implied a dread of her returning power, and a discreet resolution of not trusting himself with her long.
He was in great spirits; as ready to talk and laugh as ever, and seemed pleased to discuss his previous visit and revisit old stories; yet he wasn't without some agitation. It wasn't his calmness that made her notice his indifference. He wasn't calm; his spirits were clearly unsettled; there was a restlessness about him. As lively as he was, it felt like a liveliness that didn’t satisfy him; but what convinced her of this was his staying for only a short fifteen minutes before rushing off to make other calls in Highbury. “He had spotted a group of old acquaintances in the street as he passed—he hadn't stopped, he wouldn’t stop for more than a word—but he was vain enough to think they'd be disappointed if he didn’t drop by, and even though he wanted to stay longer at Hartfield, he had to hurry away.” She had no doubt that he was less in love—but neither his restless demeanor nor his quick departure seemed like a complete remedy; and she was inclined to think it suggested a fear of her regained influence, and a wise decision not to let himself spend too much time with her.
This was the only visit from Frank Churchill in the course of ten days. He was often hoping, intending to come—but was always prevented. His aunt could not bear to have him leave her. Such was his own account at Randall’s. If he were quite sincere, if he really tried to come, it was to be inferred that Mrs. Churchill’s removal to London had been of no service to the wilful or nervous part of her disorder. That she was really ill was very certain; he had declared himself convinced of it, at Randalls. Though much might be fancy, he could not doubt, when he looked back, that she was in a weaker state of health than she had been half a year ago. He did not believe it to proceed from any thing that care and medicine might not remove, or at least that she might not have many years of existence before her; but he could not be prevailed on, by all his father’s doubts, to say that her complaints were merely imaginary, or that she was as strong as ever.
This was the only visit from Frank Churchill in ten days. He often hoped and planned to come, but something always got in the way. His aunt couldn’t stand the thought of him leaving her. That was his story at Randall’s. If he was being completely honest and genuinely tried to visit, it suggested that Mrs. Churchill’s move to London hadn’t improved the stubborn or anxious aspect of her illness. It was clear that she was really unwell; he admitted he was convinced of it at Randalls. Even though some of it might be in her head, he couldn’t help but feel that she was in worse health than she had been six months ago. He didn’t think her condition was due to anything that care and medicine couldn’t fix, or that she wouldn’t have many more years ahead of her. But despite all his father’s skepticism, he wouldn’t agree that her issues were just imaginary or that she was as strong as she used to be.
It soon appeared that London was not the place for her. She could not endure its noise. Her nerves were under continual irritation and suffering; and by the ten days’ end, her nephew’s letter to Randalls communicated a change of plan. They were going to remove immediately to Richmond. Mrs. Churchill had been recommended to the medical skill of an eminent person there, and had otherwise a fancy for the place. A ready-furnished house in a favourite spot was engaged, and much benefit expected from the change.
It quickly became clear that London wasn't the right fit for her. She couldn't handle the noise. Her nerves were constantly on edge and suffering; by the end of ten days, her nephew's letter to Randalls shared a change of plans. They were going to move immediately to Richmond. Mrs. Churchill had been referred to a top doctor there and also had a preference for the area. A fully furnished house in a popular location was secured, and they anticipated a lot of benefits from the move.
Emma heard that Frank wrote in the highest spirits of this arrangement, and seemed most fully to appreciate the blessing of having two months before him of such near neighbourhood to many dear friends—for the house was taken for May and June. She was told that now he wrote with the greatest confidence of being often with them, almost as often as he could even wish.
Emma heard that Frank was really excited about this arrangement and seemed to truly appreciate the blessing of having two months ahead of him in such close proximity to many dear friends—since the house was rented for May and June. She was told that he now wrote with great confidence about being with them often, nearly as much as he could possibly wish.
Emma saw how Mr. Weston understood these joyous prospects. He was considering her as the source of all the happiness they offered. She hoped it was not so. Two months must bring it to the proof.
Emma saw how Mr. Weston understood these happy possibilities. He was thinking of her as the reason for all the joy they promised. She hoped it wasn't true. In two months, they would find out for sure.
Mr. Weston’s own happiness was indisputable. He was quite delighted. It was the very circumstance he could have wished for. Now, it would be really having Frank in their neighbourhood. What were nine miles to a young man?—An hour’s ride. He would be always coming over. The difference in that respect of Richmond and London was enough to make the whole difference of seeing him always and seeing him never. Sixteen miles—nay, eighteen—it must be full eighteen to Manchester-street—was a serious obstacle. Were he ever able to get away, the day would be spent in coming and returning. There was no comfort in having him in London; he might as well be at Enscombe; but Richmond was the very distance for easy intercourse. Better than nearer!
Mr. Weston’s happiness was clear. He was really pleased. It was exactly what he could have hoped for. Now, they would actually have Frank in their neighborhood. What were nine miles to a young man?—Just a short ride. He would always be coming over. The difference between Richmond and London was enough to change everything about seeing him all the time versus not at all. Sixteen miles—actually, eighteen—it had to be a full eighteen to Manchester Street—was a significant barrier. If he ever managed to get away, the whole day would be spent traveling back and forth. There was no comfort in having him in London; he might as well be at Enscombe; but Richmond was the perfect distance for easy visits. Even better than being closer!
One good thing was immediately brought to a certainty by this removal,—the ball at the Crown. It had not been forgotten before, but it had been soon acknowledged vain to attempt to fix a day. Now, however, it was absolutely to be; every preparation was resumed, and very soon after the Churchills had removed to Richmond, a few lines from Frank, to say that his aunt felt already much better for the change, and that he had no doubt of being able to join them for twenty-four hours at any given time, induced them to name as early a day as possible.
One positive outcome of this change was the certainty of the ball at the Crown. While it hadn't been forgotten, any attempts to set a date had seemed pointless. Now, though, it was definitely on; all preparations were back in motion, and shortly after the Churchills moved to Richmond, they received a brief note from Frank saying that his aunt was already feeling much better thanks to the change. He expressed confidence that he could join them for twenty-four hours on any chosen date, which encouraged them to pick the earliest possible day.
Mr. Weston’s ball was to be a real thing. A very few to-morrows stood between the young people of Highbury and happiness.
Mr. Weston’s ball was going to be a big event. Just a few days separated the young people of Highbury from happiness.
Mr. Woodhouse was resigned. The time of year lightened the evil to him. May was better for every thing than February. Mrs. Bates was engaged to spend the evening at Hartfield, James had due notice, and he sanguinely hoped that neither dear little Henry nor dear little John would have any thing the matter with them, while dear Emma were gone.
Mr. Woodhouse had accepted things as they were. The season made it easier for him to cope. May was an improvement over February for everything. Mrs. Bates was set to spend the evening at Hartfield, James was informed in advance, and he optimistically believed that neither little Henry nor little John would have any issues while dear Emma was away.
CHAPTER II
No misfortune occurred, again to prevent the ball. The day approached, the day arrived; and after a morning of some anxious watching, Frank Churchill, in all the certainty of his own self, reached Randalls before dinner, and every thing was safe.
No problems came up this time to stop the ball. The day drew near, and then it finally arrived; after a morning of worrying and watching, Frank Churchill, confidently in himself, arrived at Randalls before dinner, and everything was fine.
No second meeting had there yet been between him and Emma. The room at the Crown was to witness it;—but it would be better than a common meeting in a crowd. Mr. Weston had been so very earnest in his entreaties for her arriving there as soon as possible after themselves, for the purpose of taking her opinion as to the propriety and comfort of the rooms before any other persons came, that she could not refuse him, and must therefore spend some quiet interval in the young man’s company. She was to convey Harriet, and they drove to the Crown in good time, the Randalls party just sufficiently before them.
He and Emma hadn't had a second meeting yet. The room at the Crown would host it;—but it would be better than just a casual meetup in a crowd. Mr. Weston had been very serious in his requests for her to get there as soon as possible after him and his party, so she could give her opinion on how suitable and comfortable the rooms were before anyone else arrived. She couldn't say no to him and had to spend some quiet time with the young man. She was supposed to take Harriet, and they drove to the Crown with plenty of time to spare, just ahead of the Randalls party.
Frank Churchill seemed to have been on the watch; and though he did not say much, his eyes declared that he meant to have a delightful evening. They all walked about together, to see that every thing was as it should be; and within a few minutes were joined by the contents of another carriage, which Emma could not hear the sound of at first, without great surprize. “So unreasonably early!” she was going to exclaim; but she presently found that it was a family of old friends, who were coming, like herself, by particular desire, to help Mr. Weston’s judgment; and they were so very closely followed by another carriage of cousins, who had been entreated to come early with the same distinguishing earnestness, on the same errand, that it seemed as if half the company might soon be collected together for the purpose of preparatory inspection.
Frank Churchill seemed to be keeping an eye out, and even though he didn't say much, his expression showed he was ready for a great evening. They all walked around together, making sure everything was how it should be; and within a few minutes, they were joined by another carriage that Emma didn't initially hear, which surprised her. “So unreasonably early!” she almost exclaimed; but then she realized it was a family of old friends who were, like her, coming by special request to support Mr. Weston’s judgment. They were closely followed by another carriage of cousins who had also been asked to arrive early with the same emphasis and for the same reason, making it seem like half the guests would soon be gathered for a preliminary check.
Emma perceived that her taste was not the only taste on which Mr. Weston depended, and felt, that to be the favourite and intimate of a man who had so many intimates and confidantes, was not the very first distinction in the scale of vanity. She liked his open manners, but a little less of open-heartedness would have made him a higher character.—General benevolence, but not general friendship, made a man what he ought to be.—She could fancy such a man. The whole party walked about, and looked, and praised again; and then, having nothing else to do, formed a sort of half-circle round the fire, to observe in their various modes, till other subjects were started, that, though May, a fire in the evening was still very pleasant.
Emma realized that her taste wasn't the only one Mr. Weston valued, and she thought that being the favorite and close friend of a man who had so many close connections wasn’t exactly the top spot on the vanity scale. She appreciated his open demeanor, but if he had just a bit less openness, he could have been a stronger character. General kindness, rather than widespread friendship, was what made a man truly admirable. She could imagine such a person. The whole group walked around, looked, and complimented each other again; then, with nothing else to do, they formed a sort of half-circle around the fire to enjoy the warmth, reminding themselves that even in May, a fire in the evening was still quite nice.
Emma found that it was not Mr. Weston’s fault that the number of privy councillors was not yet larger. They had stopped at Mrs. Bates’s door to offer the use of their carriage, but the aunt and niece were to be brought by the Eltons.
Emma realized it wasn't Mr. Weston's fault that the number of privy councillors wasn't bigger yet. They had paused at Mrs. Bates's door to offer their carriage, but the aunt and niece would be brought by the Eltons.
Frank was standing by her, but not steadily; there was a restlessness, which shewed a mind not at ease. He was looking about, he was going to the door, he was watching for the sound of other carriages,—impatient to begin, or afraid of being always near her.
Frank was standing next to her, but not steadily; there was a restlessness that showed he wasn't at ease. He was looking around, heading toward the door, and listening for the sound of other carriages—impatient to start or worried about being too close to her.
Mrs. Elton was spoken of. “I think she must be here soon,” said he. “I have a great curiosity to see Mrs. Elton, I have heard so much of her. It cannot be long, I think, before she comes.”
Mrs. Elton was mentioned. “I think she must be arriving soon,” he said. “I'm really curious to see Mrs. Elton; I've heard so much about her. I don’t think it’ll be long before she gets here.”
A carriage was heard. He was on the move immediately; but coming back, said,
A carriage was heard. He moved right away, but when he came back, he said,
“I am forgetting that I am not acquainted with her. I have never seen either Mr. or Mrs. Elton. I have no business to put myself forward.”
“I keep forgetting that I don’t know her. I’ve never met either Mr. or Mrs. Elton. It’s really not my place to step in.”
Mr. and Mrs. Elton appeared; and all the smiles and the proprieties passed.
Mr. and Mrs. Elton arrived, and all the smiles and formalities exchanged.
“But Miss Bates and Miss Fairfax!” said Mr. Weston, looking about. “We thought you were to bring them.”
“But Miss Bates and Miss Fairfax!” Mr. Weston said, looking around. “We thought you were going to bring them.”
The mistake had been slight. The carriage was sent for them now. Emma longed to know what Frank’s first opinion of Mrs. Elton might be; how he was affected by the studied elegance of her dress, and her smiles of graciousness. He was immediately qualifying himself to form an opinion, by giving her very proper attention, after the introduction had passed.
The mistake had been slight. The carriage was sent for them now. Emma was eager to find out what Frank thought of Mrs. Elton; how he felt about her carefully chosen outfit and her gracious smiles. He was already preparing to form an opinion by giving her the appropriate attention after the introduction was done.
In a few minutes the carriage returned.—Somebody talked of rain.—“I will see that there are umbrellas, sir,” said Frank to his father: “Miss Bates must not be forgotten:” and away he went. Mr. Weston was following; but Mrs. Elton detained him, to gratify him by her opinion of his son; and so briskly did she begin, that the young man himself, though by no means moving slowly, could hardly be out of hearing.
In a few minutes, the carriage came back. Someone mentioned the rain. “I’ll make sure there are umbrellas, sir,” Frank said to his father. “We can’t forget Miss Bates,” and he headed off. Mr. Weston was on his way too, but Mrs. Elton stopped him to share her thoughts about his son. She started so energetically that Frank, even though he wasn’t walking slowly, could barely escape hearing her.
“A very fine young man indeed, Mr. Weston. You know I candidly told you I should form my own opinion; and I am happy to say that I am extremely pleased with him.—You may believe me. I never compliment. I think him a very handsome young man, and his manners are precisely what I like and approve—so truly the gentleman, without the least conceit or puppyism. You must know I have a vast dislike to puppies—quite a horror of them. They were never tolerated at Maple Grove. Neither Mr. Suckling nor me had ever any patience with them; and we used sometimes to say very cutting things! Selina, who is mild almost to a fault, bore with them much better.”
“A really great young man, Mr. Weston. As I honestly told you, I wanted to form my own opinion; and I'm happy to say that I'm very pleased with him. You can trust me on this. I don't give compliments easily. I think he’s a very handsome young man, and his manners are exactly what I appreciate and support—truly a gentleman, without any arrogance or foolishness. You must know I really dislike arrogance—it's quite a nightmare for me. They were never accepted at Maple Grove. Neither Mr. Suckling nor I had any patience for them; we would sometimes say very harsh things! Selina, who is almost too gentle, tolerated them much better.”
While she talked of his son, Mr. Weston’s attention was chained; but when she got to Maple Grove, he could recollect that there were ladies just arriving to be attended to, and with happy smiles must hurry away.
While she talked about his son, Mr. Weston was completely focused; but when she mentioned Maple Grove, he remembered that there were ladies arriving who needed his attention, and with cheerful smiles, he had to quickly leave.
Mrs. Elton turned to Mrs. Weston. “I have no doubt of its being our carriage with Miss Bates and Jane. Our coachman and horses are so extremely expeditious!—I believe we drive faster than any body.—What a pleasure it is to send one’s carriage for a friend!—I understand you were so kind as to offer, but another time it will be quite unnecessary. You may be very sure I shall always take care of them.”
Mrs. Elton turned to Mrs. Weston. “I have no doubt it’s our carriage with Miss Bates and Jane. Our driver and horses are incredibly quick!—I really think we ride faster than anyone else.—What a joy it is to send your carriage for a friend!—I understand you were kind enough to offer, but next time it won’t be necessary at all. You can be sure I’ll always take care of them.”
Miss Bates and Miss Fairfax, escorted by the two gentlemen, walked into the room; and Mrs. Elton seemed to think it as much her duty as Mrs. Weston’s to receive them. Her gestures and movements might be understood by any one who looked on like Emma; but her words, every body’s words, were soon lost under the incessant flow of Miss Bates, who came in talking, and had not finished her speech under many minutes after her being admitted into the circle at the fire. As the door opened she was heard,
Miss Bates and Miss Fairfax, accompanied by the two gentlemen, walked into the room; and Mrs. Elton seemed to believe it was as much her responsibility as Mrs. Weston’s to welcome them. Her gestures and movements could be understood by anyone watching, like Emma; but her words, along with everyone else's, quickly got drowned out by the nonstop chatter of Miss Bates, who entered talking and didn’t wrap up her speech for several minutes after joining the group by the fire. As the door opened, she was heard,
“So very obliging of you!—No rain at all. Nothing to signify. I do not care for myself. Quite thick shoes. And Jane declares—Well!—(as soon as she was within the door) Well! This is brilliant indeed!—This is admirable!—Excellently contrived, upon my word. Nothing wanting. Could not have imagined it.—So well lighted up!—Jane, Jane, look!—did you ever see any thing? Oh! Mr. Weston, you must really have had Aladdin’s lamp. Good Mrs. Stokes would not know her own room again. I saw her as I came in; she was standing in the entrance. ‘Oh! Mrs. Stokes,’ said I—but I had not time for more.” She was now met by Mrs. Weston.—“Very well, I thank you, ma’am. I hope you are quite well. Very happy to hear it. So afraid you might have a headache!—seeing you pass by so often, and knowing how much trouble you must have. Delighted to hear it indeed. Ah! dear Mrs. Elton, so obliged to you for the carriage!—excellent time. Jane and I quite ready. Did not keep the horses a moment. Most comfortable carriage.—Oh! and I am sure our thanks are due to you, Mrs. Weston, on that score. Mrs. Elton had most kindly sent Jane a note, or we should have been.—But two such offers in one day!—Never were such neighbours. I said to my mother, ‘Upon my word, ma’am—.’ Thank you, my mother is remarkably well. Gone to Mr. Woodhouse’s. I made her take her shawl—for the evenings are not warm—her large new shawl— Mrs. Dixon’s wedding-present.—So kind of her to think of my mother! Bought at Weymouth, you know—Mr. Dixon’s choice. There were three others, Jane says, which they hesitated about some time. Colonel Campbell rather preferred an olive. My dear Jane, are you sure you did not wet your feet?—It was but a drop or two, but I am so afraid:—but Mr. Frank Churchill was so extremely—and there was a mat to step upon—I shall never forget his extreme politeness.—Oh! Mr. Frank Churchill, I must tell you my mother’s spectacles have never been in fault since; the rivet never came out again. My mother often talks of your good-nature. Does not she, Jane?—Do not we often talk of Mr. Frank Churchill?—Ah! here’s Miss Woodhouse.—Dear Miss Woodhouse, how do you do?—Very well I thank you, quite well. This is meeting quite in fairy-land!—Such a transformation!—Must not compliment, I know (eyeing Emma most complacently)—that would be rude—but upon my word, Miss Woodhouse, you do look—how do you like Jane’s hair?—You are a judge.—She did it all herself. Quite wonderful how she does her hair!—No hairdresser from London I think could.—Ah! Dr. Hughes I declare—and Mrs. Hughes. Must go and speak to Dr. and Mrs. Hughes for a moment.—How do you do? How do you do?—Very well, I thank you. This is delightful, is not it?—Where’s dear Mr. Richard?—Oh! there he is. Don’t disturb him. Much better employed talking to the young ladies. How do you do, Mr. Richard?—I saw you the other day as you rode through the town—Mrs. Otway, I protest!—and good Mr. Otway, and Miss Otway and Miss Caroline.—Such a host of friends!—and Mr. George and Mr. Arthur!—How do you do? How do you all do?—Quite well, I am much obliged to you. Never better.—Don’t I hear another carriage?—Who can this be?—very likely the worthy Coles.—Upon my word, this is charming to be standing about among such friends! And such a noble fire!—I am quite roasted. No coffee, I thank you, for me—never take coffee.—A little tea if you please, sir, by and bye,—no hurry—Oh! here it comes. Every thing so good!”
“So generous of you!—No rain at all. Nothing to worry about. I'm fine myself. Got on some sturdy shoes. And Jane says—Well!—(as soon as she walked in) Well! This is fantastic!—This is amazing!—Perfectly done, I must say. Nothing missing. I couldn’t have imagined it.—So well lit!—Jane, Jane, look!—Have you ever seen anything like this? Oh! Mr. Weston, you must have really found Aladdin’s lamp. Good Mrs. Stokes wouldn’t recognize her own room now. I saw her when I came in; she was standing at the entrance. ‘Oh! Mrs. Stokes,’ I said—but I didn’t have time for anything more.” She was then greeted by Mrs. Weston.—“I’m very well, thank you, ma’am. I hope you are too. So glad to hear that. I was worried you might have a headache!—seeing you pass by so often and knowing how much you must deal with. Truly happy to know you’re well. Ah! dear Mrs. Elton, thank you so much for the carriage!—we had an excellent time. Jane and I were ready right on time. Didn’t keep the horses waiting for a moment. Most comfortable carriage.—Oh! and I’m sure we owe you our thanks, Mrs. Weston, for that too. Mrs. Elton kindly sent Jane a note, or we would have—But two such offers in one day!—We’ve never had neighbors like this. I told my mother, ‘I swear, ma’am—.’ Thank you, my mother is doing remarkably well. She went to Mr. Woodhouse’s. I made her take her shawl—because the evenings are chilly—her large new shawl—Mrs. Dixon’s wedding gift.—So thoughtful of her to think of my mother! Bought at Weymouth, you know—Mr. Dixon’s choice. There were three others, Jane says, that they thought about for a while. Colonel Campbell preferred an olive. My dear Jane, are you sure you didn’t get your feet wet?—It was just a drop or two, but I’m so worried:—but Mr. Frank Churchill was so very polite—and there was a mat to step on—I will never forget his kindness.—Oh! Mr. Frank Churchill, I must tell you, my mother’s spectacles have been fine since; the rivet hasn’t come out again. My mother often talks about your good nature. Doesn’t she, Jane?—Don’t we talk about Mr. Frank Churchill a lot?—Ah! here’s Miss Woodhouse.—Dear Miss Woodhouse, how are you?—Very well, thank you, quite well. This feels like a fairy-tale meeting!—What a transformation!—I shouldn’t compliment, I know (looking at Emma with approval)—that would be rude—but honestly, Miss Woodhouse, you look—what do you think of Jane’s hair?—You're an expert.—She did it all by herself. It's amazing how she styles her hair!—I don’t think any London hairdresser could do better.—Ah! Dr. Hughes, I see—and Mrs. Hughes. I must go and say hello to Dr. and Mrs. Hughes for a moment.—How do you do? How do you do?—Very well, thank you. Isn’t this delightful?—Where’s dear Mr. Richard?—Oh! there he is. Don’t interrupt him. He’s much better off talking to the young ladies. How do you do, Mr. Richard?—I saw you the other day riding through town—Mrs. Otway, I do declare!—and good Mr. Otway, and Miss Otway and Miss Caroline.—What a crowd of friends!—and Mr. George and Mr. Arthur!—How do you do? How is everyone?—Quite well, I’m very grateful to you. Never better.—Don’t I hear another carriage?—Who could it be?—very likely the Coles.—Honestly, this is delightful standing here among such friends! And such a lovely fire!—I’m getting quite warm. No coffee for me, thank you—I never drink coffee.—A little tea, please, sir, whenever you can—no rush—Oh! here it is. Everything is so wonderful!”
Frank Churchill returned to his station by Emma; and as soon as Miss Bates was quiet, she found herself necessarily overhearing the discourse of Mrs. Elton and Miss Fairfax, who were standing a little way behind her.—He was thoughtful. Whether he were overhearing too, she could not determine. After a good many compliments to Jane on her dress and look, compliments very quietly and properly taken, Mrs. Elton was evidently wanting to be complimented herself—and it was, “How do you like my gown?—How do you like my trimming?—How has Wright done my hair?”—with many other relative questions, all answered with patient politeness. Mrs. Elton then said, “Nobody can think less of dress in general than I do—but upon such an occasion as this, when every body’s eyes are so much upon me, and in compliment to the Westons—who I have no doubt are giving this ball chiefly to do me honour—I would not wish to be inferior to others. And I see very few pearls in the room except mine.—So Frank Churchill is a capital dancer, I understand.—We shall see if our styles suit.—A fine young man certainly is Frank Churchill. I like him very well.”
Frank Churchill returned to his place next to Emma, and as soon as Miss Bates was quiet, she found herself unintentionally overhearing the conversation between Mrs. Elton and Miss Fairfax, who were standing a little way behind her. He seemed deep in thought. Whether he was listening in, she couldn't tell. After several compliments to Jane about her dress and appearance, which were received with quiet grace, Mrs. Elton clearly wanted some acknowledgment for herself—asking, “How do you like my gown?—How do you like my trimming?—How has Wright styled my hair?”—along with many other related questions, all answered with polite patience. Mrs. Elton then proclaimed, “Nobody thinks less of fashion than I do in general—but on an occasion like this, when everyone’s eyes are on me, and in honor of the Westons—who I’m sure are throwing this ball mainly to celebrate me—I wouldn’t want to be outshone by others. And I see very few pearls in the room except for mine. So, I hear Frank Churchill is a great dancer. We’ll see if our styles match. Frank Churchill is certainly a fine young man. I like him quite a bit.”
At this moment Frank began talking so vigorously, that Emma could not but imagine he had overheard his own praises, and did not want to hear more;—and the voices of the ladies were drowned for a while, till another suspension brought Mrs. Elton’s tones again distinctly forward.—Mr. Elton had just joined them, and his wife was exclaiming,
At that moment, Frank started talking so energetically that Emma couldn’t help but think he had overheard people complimenting him and didn’t want to hear any more. The ladies' voices were drowned out for a while until another pause brought Mrs. Elton’s voice back into focus. Mr. Elton had just joined them, and his wife was exclaiming,
“Oh! you have found us out at last, have you, in our seclusion?—I was this moment telling Jane, I thought you would begin to be impatient for tidings of us.”
“Oh! you’ve finally discovered us, have you, in our little hideaway?—I was just telling Jane that I thought you’d start to get impatient for news about us.”
“Jane!”—repeated Frank Churchill, with a look of surprize and displeasure.—“That is easy—but Miss Fairfax does not disapprove it, I suppose.”
“Jane!” Frank Churchill repeated, looking surprised and annoyed. “That’s simple enough—but I assume Miss Fairfax doesn’t mind it?”
“How do you like Mrs. Elton?” said Emma in a whisper.
“How do you feel about Mrs. Elton?” Emma asked quietly.
“Not at all.”
“Not at all.”
“You are ungrateful.”
"You're ungrateful."
“Ungrateful!—What do you mean?” Then changing from a frown to a smile—“No, do not tell me—I do not want to know what you mean.—Where is my father?—When are we to begin dancing?”
“Ungrateful! What do you mean?” Then switching from a frown to a smile—“No, don’t tell me—I don’t want to know what you mean.—Where’s my dad? When are we going to start dancing?”
Emma could hardly understand him; he seemed in an odd humour. He walked off to find his father, but was quickly back again with both Mr. and Mrs. Weston. He had met with them in a little perplexity, which must be laid before Emma. It had just occurred to Mrs. Weston that Mrs. Elton must be asked to begin the ball; that she would expect it; which interfered with all their wishes of giving Emma that distinction.—Emma heard the sad truth with fortitude.
Emma could barely understand him; he seemed to be in a strange mood. He walked away to find his father, but quickly returned with Mr. and Mrs. Weston. He had encountered them in a bit of confusion that needed to be shared with Emma. Mrs. Weston had just realized that Mrs. Elton should be asked to open the ball; that she would expect it, which clashed with their plans to give Emma that honor. Emma took the disappointing news in stride.
“And what are we to do for a proper partner for her?” said Mr. Weston. “She will think Frank ought to ask her.”
“And what are we going to do to find a suitable partner for her?” said Mr. Weston. “She’ll probably think Frank should ask her.”
Frank turned instantly to Emma, to claim her former promise; and boasted himself an engaged man, which his father looked his most perfect approbation of—and it then appeared that Mrs. Weston was wanting him to dance with Mrs. Elton himself, and that their business was to help to persuade him into it, which was done pretty soon.—Mr. Weston and Mrs. Elton led the way, Mr. Frank Churchill and Miss Woodhouse followed. Emma must submit to stand second to Mrs. Elton, though she had always considered the ball as peculiarly for her. It was almost enough to make her think of marrying. Mrs. Elton had undoubtedly the advantage, at this time, in vanity completely gratified; for though she had intended to begin with Frank Churchill, she could not lose by the change. Mr. Weston might be his son’s superior.—In spite of this little rub, however, Emma was smiling with enjoyment, delighted to see the respectable length of the set as it was forming, and to feel that she had so many hours of unusual festivity before her.—She was more disturbed by Mr. Knightley’s not dancing than by any thing else.—There he was, among the standers-by, where he ought not to be; he ought to be dancing,—not classing himself with the husbands, and fathers, and whist-players, who were pretending to feel an interest in the dance till their rubbers were made up,—so young as he looked!—He could not have appeared to greater advantage perhaps anywhere, than where he had placed himself. His tall, firm, upright figure, among the bulky forms and stooping shoulders of the elderly men, was such as Emma felt must draw every body’s eyes; and, excepting her own partner, there was not one among the whole row of young men who could be compared with him.—He moved a few steps nearer, and those few steps were enough to prove in how gentlemanlike a manner, with what natural grace, he must have danced, would he but take the trouble.—Whenever she caught his eye, she forced him to smile; but in general he was looking grave. She wished he could love a ballroom better, and could like Frank Churchill better.—He seemed often observing her. She must not flatter herself that he thought of her dancing, but if he were criticising her behaviour, she did not feel afraid. There was nothing like flirtation between her and her partner. They seemed more like cheerful, easy friends, than lovers. That Frank Churchill thought less of her than he had done, was indubitable.
Frank immediately turned to Emma to remind her of her earlier promise, proudly declaring himself engaged, which his father seemed to wholeheartedly approve of. It soon became clear that Mrs. Weston wanted him to dance with Mrs. Elton, and they were working to persuade him to do so, which happened fairly quickly. Mr. Weston and Mrs. Elton took the lead, with Mr. Frank Churchill and Miss Woodhouse following behind. Emma had to accept being second to Mrs. Elton, even though she had always seen the ball as something special for her. It was almost enough to make her consider marriage. Mrs. Elton definitely had the upper hand at that moment, feeling fully satisfied with her vanity; even though she had planned to start with Frank Churchill, she had nothing to lose by the switch. While Mr. Weston might outrank his son, despite this slight annoyance, Emma was smiling with enjoyment, pleased to see the respectable size of the set forming, and excited that she had so many hours of fun ahead of her. She was more unsettled by Mr. Knightley not dancing than anything else. There he was, among the onlookers, where he shouldn't be; he should be dancing—not standing with the husbands, fathers, and whist players, pretending to care about the dance until their games were finished—especially looking as young as he did! He couldn’t have looked better anywhere than where he stood. His tall, strong, upright figure stood out among the bulkier, slouching forms of the older men, and Emma felt he must draw everyone's attention; aside from her own partner, none of the other young men could compare to him. He took a few steps closer, and those few steps showed how gentlemanly and naturally graceful he must have danced if he could be bothered. Whenever she caught his eye, she made him smile, but generally, he looked serious. She wished he could enjoy ballrooms more and like Frank Churchill better. He seemed to be observing her often. She shouldn’t flatter herself that he was thinking about her dancing, but if he was judging her behavior, she didn’t feel worried. There was nothing flirtatious between her and her partner; they seemed more like cheerful, easy friends than lovers. It was clear that Frank Churchill thought less of her than he once had.
The ball proceeded pleasantly. The anxious cares, the incessant attentions of Mrs. Weston, were not thrown away. Every body seemed happy; and the praise of being a delightful ball, which is seldom bestowed till after a ball has ceased to be, was repeatedly given in the very beginning of the existence of this. Of very important, very recordable events, it was not more productive than such meetings usually are. There was one, however, which Emma thought something of.—The two last dances before supper were begun, and Harriet had no partner;—the only young lady sitting down;—and so equal had been hitherto the number of dancers, that how there could be any one disengaged was the wonder!—But Emma’s wonder lessened soon afterwards, on seeing Mr. Elton sauntering about. He would not ask Harriet to dance if it were possible to be avoided: she was sure he would not—and she was expecting him every moment to escape into the card-room.
The ball was going well. Mrs. Weston’s anxious care and constant attention paid off. Everyone seemed happy, and people were already saying it was a delightful ball, something rarely said until after the event is over. It didn’t yield any major, noteworthy happenings, like most gatherings don’t. However, there was one thing Emma noticed. The last two dances before supper started, and Harriet had no partner—she was the only young lady sitting out. Given that the number of dancers had been so balanced, it was surprising that anyone was left without a partner. But Emma’s surprise faded when she saw Mr. Elton wandering around. She knew he would do everything he could to avoid asking Harriet to dance—she was sure of it—and she expected him to slip away to the card room any moment.
Escape, however, was not his plan. He came to the part of the room where the sitters-by were collected, spoke to some, and walked about in front of them, as if to shew his liberty, and his resolution of maintaining it. He did not omit being sometimes directly before Miss Smith, or speaking to those who were close to her.—Emma saw it. She was not yet dancing; she was working her way up from the bottom, and had therefore leisure to look around, and by only turning her head a little she saw it all. When she was half-way up the set, the whole group were exactly behind her, and she would no longer allow her eyes to watch; but Mr. Elton was so near, that she heard every syllable of a dialogue which just then took place between him and Mrs. Weston; and she perceived that his wife, who was standing immediately above her, was not only listening also, but even encouraging him by significant glances.—The kind-hearted, gentle Mrs. Weston had left her seat to join him and say, “Do not you dance, Mr. Elton?” to which his prompt reply was, “Most readily, Mrs. Weston, if you will dance with me.”
Escape, however, wasn't his plan. He moved to the part of the room where the onlookers were gathered, chatted with a few of them, and strolled back and forth in front of them, as if to show off his freedom and his determination to keep it. He made sure to position himself directly in front of Miss Smith sometimes, or to talk to those who were near her. Emma noticed all of this. She wasn't dancing yet; she was working her way up from the bottom, so she had the time to look around. By simply turning her head a little, she could see everything. When she was halfway up the set, the whole group was right behind her, and she decided not to keep watching; but Mr. Elton was so close that she could hear every word of a conversation happening between him and Mrs. Weston. She noticed that his wife, who was standing directly above her, was not only listening but also encouraging him with knowing looks. The kind-hearted, gentle Mrs. Weston had left her seat to join him and said, “Aren't you dancing, Mr. Elton?” to which his quick response was, “Absolutely, Mrs. Weston, if you'll dance with me.”
“Me!—oh! no—I would get you a better partner than myself. I am no dancer.”
“Me!—oh! no—I’d find you a better partner than me. I’m not a dancer.”
“If Mrs. Gilbert wishes to dance,” said he, “I shall have great pleasure, I am sure—for, though beginning to feel myself rather an old married man, and that my dancing days are over, it would give me very great pleasure at any time to stand up with an old friend like Mrs. Gilbert.”
“If Mrs. Gilbert wants to dance,” he said, “I would be very happy to do so, I’m sure—because even though I’m starting to feel like an old married man and that my dancing days are behind me, it would still make me very happy to dance with an old friend like Mrs. Gilbert.”
“Mrs. Gilbert does not mean to dance, but there is a young lady disengaged whom I should be very glad to see dancing—Miss Smith.” “Miss Smith!—oh!—I had not observed.—You are extremely obliging—and if I were not an old married man.—But my dancing days are over, Mrs. Weston. You will excuse me. Any thing else I should be most happy to do, at your command—but my dancing days are over.”
“Mrs. Gilbert doesn’t plan to dance, but there’s a young lady available whom I would love to see dancing—Miss Smith.” “Miss Smith!—oh!—I hadn’t noticed.—You’re very kind—and if I weren’t an old married man.—But my dancing days are behind me, Mrs. Weston. Please forgive me. I would be more than happy to do anything else you ask, but my dancing days are over.”
Mrs. Weston said no more; and Emma could imagine with what surprize and mortification she must be returning to her seat. This was Mr. Elton! the amiable, obliging, gentle Mr. Elton.—She looked round for a moment; he had joined Mr. Knightley at a little distance, and was arranging himself for settled conversation, while smiles of high glee passed between him and his wife.
Mrs. Weston said nothing more; and Emma could picture the surprise and embarrassment she must be feeling as she returned to her seat. This was Mr. Elton! The kind, helpful, gentle Mr. Elton. She glanced around for a moment; he had joined Mr. Knightley a short distance away, getting ready for a longer conversation, while smiles of delight exchanged between him and his wife.
She would not look again. Her heart was in a glow, and she feared her face might be as hot.
She wouldn't look again. Her heart was racing, and she was worried her face might be as red.
In another moment a happier sight caught her;—Mr. Knightley leading Harriet to the set!—Never had she been more surprized, seldom more delighted, than at that instant. She was all pleasure and gratitude, both for Harriet and herself, and longed to be thanking him; and though too distant for speech, her countenance said much, as soon as she could catch his eye again.
In a moment, she spotted a happier scene—Mr. Knightley guiding Harriet to the set! She had never been more surprised and rarely more delighted than at that moment. She was filled with joy and gratitude, both for Harriet and for herself, and she wanted to thank him; although she was too far away to speak, her expression conveyed a lot as soon as she managed to catch his eye again.
His dancing proved to be just what she had believed it, extremely good; and Harriet would have seemed almost too lucky, if it had not been for the cruel state of things before, and for the very complete enjoyment and very high sense of the distinction which her happy features announced. It was not thrown away on her, she bounded higher than ever, flew farther down the middle, and was in a continual course of smiles.
His dancing was exactly as she had thought—really impressive; and Harriet would have seemed almost too fortunate if it weren’t for the difficult times that had come before, and for the sheer joy and strong sense of pride that her happy expression revealed. She fully appreciated it; she jumped higher than ever, leaped further down the floor, and was constantly smiling.
Mr. Elton had retreated into the card-room, looking (Emma trusted) very foolish. She did not think he was quite so hardened as his wife, though growing very like her;—she spoke some of her feelings, by observing audibly to her partner,
Mr. Elton had gone back to the card room, looking (Emma hoped) very foolish. She didn’t believe he was as callous as his wife, though he was becoming quite similar to her;—she expressed some of her feelings by making comments to her partner,
“Knightley has taken pity on poor little Miss Smith!—Very good-natured, I declare.”
“Knightley has felt sorry for poor little Miss Smith!—Very kind of him, I must say.”
Supper was announced. The move began; and Miss Bates might be heard from that moment, without interruption, till her being seated at table and taking up her spoon.
Supper was called. Everyone started moving, and Miss Bates could be heard nonstop from that moment until she was seated at the table and picked up her spoon.
“Jane, Jane, my dear Jane, where are you?—Here is your tippet. Mrs. Weston begs you to put on your tippet. She says she is afraid there will be draughts in the passage, though every thing has been done—One door nailed up—Quantities of matting—My dear Jane, indeed you must. Mr. Churchill, oh! you are too obliging! How well you put it on!—so gratified! Excellent dancing indeed!—Yes, my dear, I ran home, as I said I should, to help grandmama to bed, and got back again, and nobody missed me.—I set off without saying a word, just as I told you. Grandmama was quite well, had a charming evening with Mr. Woodhouse, a vast deal of chat, and backgammon.—Tea was made downstairs, biscuits and baked apples and wine before she came away: amazing luck in some of her throws: and she inquired a great deal about you, how you were amused, and who were your partners. ‘Oh!’ said I, ‘I shall not forestall Jane; I left her dancing with Mr. George Otway; she will love to tell you all about it herself to-morrow: her first partner was Mr. Elton, I do not know who will ask her next, perhaps Mr. William Cox.’ My dear sir, you are too obliging.—Is there nobody you would not rather?—I am not helpless. Sir, you are most kind. Upon my word, Jane on one arm, and me on the other!—Stop, stop, let us stand a little back, Mrs. Elton is going; dear Mrs. Elton, how elegant she looks!—Beautiful lace!—Now we all follow in her train. Quite the queen of the evening!—Well, here we are at the passage. Two steps, Jane, take care of the two steps. Oh! no, there is but one. Well, I was persuaded there were two. How very odd! I was convinced there were two, and there is but one. I never saw any thing equal to the comfort and style—Candles everywhere.—I was telling you of your grandmama, Jane,—There was a little disappointment.—The baked apples and biscuits, excellent in their way, you know; but there was a delicate fricassee of sweetbread and some asparagus brought in at first, and good Mr. Woodhouse, not thinking the asparagus quite boiled enough, sent it all out again. Now there is nothing grandmama loves better than sweetbread and asparagus—so she was rather disappointed, but we agreed we would not speak of it to any body, for fear of its getting round to dear Miss Woodhouse, who would be so very much concerned!—Well, this is brilliant! I am all amazement! could not have supposed any thing!—Such elegance and profusion!—I have seen nothing like it since—Well, where shall we sit? where shall we sit? Anywhere, so that Jane is not in a draught. Where I sit is of no consequence. Oh! do you recommend this side?—Well, I am sure, Mr. Churchill—only it seems too good—but just as you please. What you direct in this house cannot be wrong. Dear Jane, how shall we ever recollect half the dishes for grandmama? Soup too! Bless me! I should not be helped so soon, but it smells most excellent, and I cannot help beginning.”
“Jane, Jane, my dear Jane, where are you?—Here is your scarf. Mrs. Weston asks you to put on your scarf. She says she’s worried there will be drafts in the hallway, even though everything has been done—One door nailed shut—Lots of matting—My dear Jane, you really must. Mr. Churchill, oh! you are too kind! You put it on so well!—So pleased! Excellent dancing indeed!—Yes, my dear, I ran home, as I said I would, to help grandma to bed, and came back, and nobody noticed I was gone.—I left without saying a word, just like I told you. Grandma was quite well, had a lovely evening with Mr. Woodhouse, tons of chatting, and backgammon.—Tea was made downstairs, biscuits and baked apples and wine before she left: amazing luck in some of her throws: and she asked a lot about you, how you were enjoying yourself, and who your partners were. ‘Oh!’ I said, ‘I won’t spoil Jane’s fun; I left her dancing with Mr. George Otway; she’ll love to tell you all about it herself tomorrow: her first partner was Mr. Elton, I don’t know who will ask her next, maybe Mr. William Cox.’ My dear sir, you are too kind.—Is there anyone you wouldn’t rather?—I’m not helpless. Sir, you are so thoughtful. Honestly, Jane on one arm, and me on the other!—Wait, wait, let’s step back a little, Mrs. Elton is leaving; dear Mrs. Elton, how beautiful she looks!—Such lovely lace!—Now we all follow behind her. Quite the queen of the evening!—Well, here we are at the hallway. Two steps, Jane, be careful of the two steps. Oh! no, there’s only one. Well, I thought there were two. How strange! I was sure there were two, and there’s only one. I’ve never seen anything as comfortable and stylish—Candles everywhere.—I was telling you about your grandma, Jane,—There was a little disappointment.—The baked apples and biscuits were great in their way, you know; but there was a delicate fricassee of sweetbread and some asparagus brought in at first, and good Mr. Woodhouse, thinking the asparagus wasn’t quite cooked enough, sent it all back again. Now there’s nothing grandma loves more than sweetbread and asparagus—so she was a bit disappointed, but we agreed not to mention it to anyone, for fear it would get back to dear Miss Woodhouse, who would be very concerned!—Well, this is stunning! I’m completely amazed! I couldn’t have imagined anything like it!—Such elegance and abundance!—I haven’t seen anything like it since—Well, where shall we sit? Where shall we sit? Anywhere, as long as Jane isn’t in a draft. Where I sit doesn’t matter. Oh! do you suggest this side?—Well, I’m sure, Mr. Churchill—only it seems too good—but just as you like. What you decide in this house can’t be wrong. Dear Jane, how will we ever remember half the dishes for grandma? Soup too! Goodness! I shouldn’t be served so quickly, but it smells so good, and I can’t help starting.”
Emma had no opportunity of speaking to Mr. Knightley till after supper; but, when they were all in the ballroom again, her eyes invited him irresistibly to come to her and be thanked. He was warm in his reprobation of Mr. Elton’s conduct; it had been unpardonable rudeness; and Mrs. Elton’s looks also received the due share of censure.
Emma didn't get the chance to talk to Mr. Knightley until after supper; however, when they were back in the ballroom, her eyes drew him in, urging him to come over and receive her gratitude. He strongly condemned Mr. Elton's behavior; it had been completely unacceptable rudeness, and Mrs. Elton's demeanor also got her fair share of criticism.
“They aimed at wounding more than Harriet,” said he. “Emma, why is it that they are your enemies?”
“They wanted to hurt more than just Harriet,” he said. “Emma, why are they your enemies?”
He looked with smiling penetration; and, on receiving no answer, added, “She ought not to be angry with you, I suspect, whatever he may be.—To that surmise, you say nothing, of course; but confess, Emma, that you did want him to marry Harriet.”
He looked at her with a knowing smile, and when she didn’t respond, he added, “She shouldn’t be upset with you, I think, no matter what he might be like.—You’re not going to say anything about that, of course; but admit it, Emma, you did want him to marry Harriet.”
“I did,” replied Emma, “and they cannot forgive me.”
“I did,” Emma replied, “and they can't forgive me.”
He shook his head; but there was a smile of indulgence with it, and he only said,
He shook his head, but he smiled warmly as he did, and he just said,
“I shall not scold you. I leave you to your own reflections.”
“I won't scold you. I'll let you think for yourself.”
“Can you trust me with such flatterers?—Does my vain spirit ever tell me I am wrong?”
“Can you really trust me with those kinds of flatterers?—Does my pride ever tell me I’m wrong?”
“Not your vain spirit, but your serious spirit.—If one leads you wrong, I am sure the other tells you of it.”
“Not your arrogant side, but your thoughtful side.—If one misguides you, I’m sure the other will let you know.”
“I do own myself to have been completely mistaken in Mr. Elton. There is a littleness about him which you discovered, and which I did not: and I was fully convinced of his being in love with Harriet. It was through a series of strange blunders!”
“I honestly admit I was totally wrong about Mr. Elton. There’s a certain smallness to him that you noticed but I didn’t: and I was entirely sure he was in love with Harriet. It all happened because of a bunch of odd mistakes!”
“And, in return for your acknowledging so much, I will do you the justice to say, that you would have chosen for him better than he has chosen for himself.—Harriet Smith has some first-rate qualities, which Mrs. Elton is totally without. An unpretending, single-minded, artless girl—infinitely to be preferred by any man of sense and taste to such a woman as Mrs. Elton. I found Harriet more conversable than I expected.”
“And, since you recognize this much, I’ll give you credit for saying that you would have chosen better for him than he has chosen for himself. Harriet Smith has some top-notch qualities that Mrs. Elton completely lacks. She’s a down-to-earth, straightforward, genuine girl—far more appealing to any man of sense and taste than someone like Mrs. Elton. I found Harriet more engaging than I expected.”
Emma was extremely gratified.—They were interrupted by the bustle of Mr. Weston calling on every body to begin dancing again.
Emma was really pleased. They were interrupted by the noise of Mr. Weston urging everyone to start dancing again.
“Come Miss Woodhouse, Miss Otway, Miss Fairfax, what are you all doing?—Come Emma, set your companions the example. Every body is lazy! Every body is asleep!”
“Come on, Miss Woodhouse, Miss Otway, Miss Fairfax, what are you all doing?—Come on, Emma, show your friends how it’s done. Everyone is so lazy! Everyone is asleep!”
“I am ready,” said Emma, “whenever I am wanted.”
“I’m ready,” said Emma, “whenever you need me.”
“Whom are you going to dance with?” asked Mr. Knightley.
“Who are you going to dance with?” asked Mr. Knightley.
She hesitated a moment, and then replied, “With you, if you will ask me.”
She paused for a moment and then said, “With you, if you’ll ask me.”
“Will you?” said he, offering his hand.
“Will you?” he said, extending his hand.
“Indeed I will. You have shewn that you can dance, and you know we are not really so much brother and sister as to make it at all improper.”
“Sure thing. You've shown that you can dance, and you know we're not really so much brother and sister that it makes it inappropriate at all.”
“Brother and sister! no, indeed.”
"Brother and sister? No way."
CHAPTER III
This little explanation with Mr. Knightley gave Emma considerable pleasure. It was one of the agreeable recollections of the ball, which she walked about the lawn the next morning to enjoy.—She was extremely glad that they had come to so good an understanding respecting the Eltons, and that their opinions of both husband and wife were so much alike; and his praise of Harriet, his concession in her favour, was peculiarly gratifying. The impertinence of the Eltons, which for a few minutes had threatened to ruin the rest of her evening, had been the occasion of some of its highest satisfactions; and she looked forward to another happy result—the cure of Harriet’s infatuation.—From Harriet’s manner of speaking of the circumstance before they quitted the ballroom, she had strong hopes. It seemed as if her eyes were suddenly opened, and she were enabled to see that Mr. Elton was not the superior creature she had believed him. The fever was over, and Emma could harbour little fear of the pulse being quickened again by injurious courtesy. She depended on the evil feelings of the Eltons for supplying all the discipline of pointed neglect that could be farther requisite.—Harriet rational, Frank Churchill not too much in love, and Mr. Knightley not wanting to quarrel with her, how very happy a summer must be before her!
This little chat with Mr. Knightley made Emma really happy. It was one of the nice memories from the ball, which she strolled around the lawn the next morning to relive. She was very pleased that they had come to such a good understanding about the Eltons, and that they both viewed the husband and wife similarly; his praise of Harriet and his support for her were especially satisfying. The rudeness of the Eltons, which had threatened to ruin her evening for a moment, ended up being a source of some of her greatest joys; and she looked forward to another positive outcome—the end of Harriet’s infatuation. From Harriet's way of talking about it before they left the ballroom, she had strong hopes. It seemed like her eyes had finally opened, and she could see that Mr. Elton wasn’t the amazing person she thought he was. The obsession was gone, and Emma felt little worry that it would flare up again from harmful flattery. She relied on the Eltons' bad behavior to provide all the necessary discipline of pointed neglect. With Harriet being rational, Frank Churchill not too much in love, and Mr. Knightley not wanting to argue with her, what a wonderful summer she had ahead!
She was not to see Frank Churchill this morning. He had told her that he could not allow himself the pleasure of stopping at Hartfield, as he was to be at home by the middle of the day. She did not regret it.
She wasn't going to see Frank Churchill this morning. He had told her that he couldn't allow himself the pleasure of stopping by Hartfield, since he had to be home by midday. She didn't regret it.
Having arranged all these matters, looked them through, and put them all to rights, she was just turning to the house with spirits freshened up for the demands of the two little boys, as well as of their grandpapa, when the great iron sweep-gate opened, and two persons entered whom she had never less expected to see together—Frank Churchill, with Harriet leaning on his arm—actually Harriet!—A moment sufficed to convince her that something extraordinary had happened. Harriet looked white and frightened, and he was trying to cheer her.—The iron gates and the front-door were not twenty yards asunder;—they were all three soon in the hall, and Harriet immediately sinking into a chair fainted away.
Having sorted everything out, gone through it all, and set things right, she was just about to head back inside, feeling refreshed and ready for the demands of the two little boys and their grandpa, when the large iron gate swung open, and two people entered together—Frank Churchill, with Harriet leaning on his arm—actually Harriet!—It took just a moment for her to realize that something unusual had happened. Harriet looked pale and scared, and he was trying to comfort her. The iron gates and the front door were only twenty yards apart; they were all three soon in the hall, and Harriet immediately collapsed into a chair and fainted.
A young lady who faints, must be recovered; questions must be answered, and surprizes be explained. Such events are very interesting, but the suspense of them cannot last long. A few minutes made Emma acquainted with the whole.
A young woman who faints must be revived; questions need to be answered, and surprises explained. Such events are very engaging, but the suspense can't last for too long. A few minutes made Emma aware of everything.
Miss Smith, and Miss Bickerton, another parlour boarder at Mrs. Goddard’s, who had been also at the ball, had walked out together, and taken a road, the Richmond road, which, though apparently public enough for safety, had led them into alarm.—About half a mile beyond Highbury, making a sudden turn, and deeply shaded by elms on each side, it became for a considerable stretch very retired; and when the young ladies had advanced some way into it, they had suddenly perceived at a small distance before them, on a broader patch of greensward by the side, a party of gipsies. A child on the watch, came towards them to beg; and Miss Bickerton, excessively frightened, gave a great scream, and calling on Harriet to follow her, ran up a steep bank, cleared a slight hedge at the top, and made the best of her way by a short cut back to Highbury. But poor Harriet could not follow. She had suffered very much from cramp after dancing, and her first attempt to mount the bank brought on such a return of it as made her absolutely powerless—and in this state, and exceedingly terrified, she had been obliged to remain.
Miss Smith and Miss Bickerton, another boarder at Mrs. Goddard’s who had also attended the ball, walked out together and chose the Richmond road. Although it seemed safe enough, it soon filled them with alarm. About half a mile beyond Highbury, the road made a sudden turn and became very secluded, shaded by elms on either side. As the young women ventured further, they spotted a group of gypsies a short distance ahead on a larger patch of grass. A child from the group approached to beg, and Miss Bickerton, extremely frightened, let out a loud scream. Calling for Harriet to follow her, she ran up a steep bank, jumped over a small hedge at the top, and took a shortcut back to Highbury. But poor Harriet couldn’t keep up. She had been suffering from cramps after dancing, and when she tried to climb the bank, the pain struck again, leaving her completely powerless. In that state, and feeling terribly scared, she had no choice but to stay behind.
How the trampers might have behaved, had the young ladies been more courageous, must be doubtful; but such an invitation for attack could not be resisted; and Harriet was soon assailed by half a dozen children, headed by a stout woman and a great boy, all clamorous, and impertinent in look, though not absolutely in word.—More and more frightened, she immediately promised them money, and taking out her purse, gave them a shilling, and begged them not to want more, or to use her ill.—She was then able to walk, though but slowly, and was moving away—but her terror and her purse were too tempting, and she was followed, or rather surrounded, by the whole gang, demanding more.
How the travelers might have acted if the young ladies had been bolder is uncertain; however, such an invitation to attack couldn't be ignored. Soon, Harriet was confronted by a group of six children, led by a heavyset woman and a tall boy, all loud and rude in appearance, though not outrightly in their words. Growing more frightened, she quickly promised them money and took out her purse, giving them a shilling while pleading with them not to ask for more or treat her badly. After that, she was able to walk, albeit slowly, and started to move away. However, her fear and the contents of her purse were too inviting, and she was pursued—no, more like surrounded—by the entire group, demanding more cash.
In this state Frank Churchill had found her, she trembling and conditioning, they loud and insolent. By a most fortunate chance his leaving Highbury had been delayed so as to bring him to her assistance at this critical moment. The pleasantness of the morning had induced him to walk forward, and leave his horses to meet him by another road, a mile or two beyond Highbury—and happening to have borrowed a pair of scissors the night before of Miss Bates, and to have forgotten to restore them, he had been obliged to stop at her door, and go in for a few minutes: he was therefore later than he had intended; and being on foot, was unseen by the whole party till almost close to them. The terror which the woman and boy had been creating in Harriet was then their own portion. He had left them completely frightened; and Harriet eagerly clinging to him, and hardly able to speak, had just strength enough to reach Hartfield, before her spirits were quite overcome. It was his idea to bring her to Hartfield: he had thought of no other place.
In this state, Frank Churchill found her—trembling and distressed, while they were loud and rude. Luckily, his departure from Highbury had been postponed, allowing him to assist her at this critical moment. The nice weather that morning had prompted him to walk ahead and send his horses to meet him by another route a mile or two past Highbury. Since he had borrowed a pair of scissors from Miss Bates the night before and forgot to return them, he had to stop at her house and go in for a few minutes. Because of this, he ended up being later than he had planned, and since he was on foot, no one noticed him until he was almost right next to them. The fear that the woman and boy had been causing Harriet was now their own. He had left them completely scared, and Harriet, clinging to him and barely able to speak, only had enough strength to make it to Hartfield before her spirits were completely crushed. It was his idea to take her to Hartfield; he hadn’t thought of anywhere else.
This was the amount of the whole story,—of his communication and of Harriet’s as soon as she had recovered her senses and speech.—He dared not stay longer than to see her well; these several delays left him not another minute to lose; and Emma engaging to give assurance of her safety to Mrs. Goddard, and notice of there being such a set of people in the neighbourhood to Mr. Knightley, he set off, with all the grateful blessings that she could utter for her friend and herself.
This was the gist of the whole story—his message and Harriet’s as soon as she had regained her senses and could speak. He didn’t dare stay any longer than to make sure she was okay; these delays left him with no more time to waste. With Emma promising to inform Mrs. Goddard that Harriet was safe and to let Mr. Knightley know about the group of people in the area, he took off, with all the thankful blessings she could express for both her friend and herself.
Such an adventure as this,—a fine young man and a lovely young woman thrown together in such a way, could hardly fail of suggesting certain ideas to the coldest heart and the steadiest brain. So Emma thought, at least. Could a linguist, could a grammarian, could even a mathematician have seen what she did, have witnessed their appearance together, and heard their history of it, without feeling that circumstances had been at work to make them peculiarly interesting to each other?—How much more must an imaginist, like herself, be on fire with speculation and foresight!—especially with such a groundwork of anticipation as her mind had already made.
Such an adventure as this—a handsome young man and a beautiful young woman thrown together like this—could hardly fail to spark some thoughts in even the coldest heart and the steadiest mind. At least, that’s what Emma thought. Could a linguist, a grammarian, or even a mathematician have seen what she saw, witnessed their presence together, and heard their story without feeling that circumstances were at play to make them particularly interesting to one another?—How much more would someone with an imagination, like her own, be fired up with curiosity and foresight!—especially with the strong foundation of anticipation her mind had already built.
It was a very extraordinary thing! Nothing of the sort had ever occurred before to any young ladies in the place, within her memory; no rencontre, no alarm of the kind;—and now it had happened to the very person, and at the very hour, when the other very person was chancing to pass by to rescue her!—It certainly was very extraordinary!—And knowing, as she did, the favourable state of mind of each at this period, it struck her the more. He was wishing to get the better of his attachment to herself, she just recovering from her mania for Mr. Elton. It seemed as if every thing united to promise the most interesting consequences. It was not possible that the occurrence should not be strongly recommending each to the other.
It was such an extraordinary thing! Nothing like this had ever happened before to any young ladies in the area, in her memory; no encounters, no surprises of this kind;—and now it had happened to the very person, at the very moment, when the other person happened to be passing by to save her!—It really was very extraordinary!—And knowing, as she did, the favorable state of mind of each at that time, it struck her even more. He wanted to move on from his feelings for her, and she was just getting over her obsession with Mr. Elton. It felt like everything was coming together to promise the most interesting outcomes. There was no way this event wouldn’t strongly encourage each of them to consider the other.
In the few minutes’ conversation which she had yet had with him, while Harriet had been partially insensible, he had spoken of her terror, her naïveté, her fervour as she seized and clung to his arm, with a sensibility amused and delighted; and just at last, after Harriet’s own account had been given, he had expressed his indignation at the abominable folly of Miss Bickerton in the warmest terms. Every thing was to take its natural course, however, neither impelled nor assisted. She would not stir a step, nor drop a hint. No, she had had enough of interference. There could be no harm in a scheme, a mere passive scheme. It was no more than a wish. Beyond it she would on no account proceed.
In the few minutes she had spoken with him, while Harriet was somewhat out of it, he had talked about her fear, her innocence, her passion as she grasped his arm tightly, with a mix of amusement and delight; and just after Harriet had finished sharing her side of things, he had expressed his outrage at Miss Bickerton’s ridiculous behavior in the strongest terms. Everything would unfold as it should, without any pressure or help. She wouldn’t make a move or drop a hint. No, she was done with interference. There was no harm in having a plan, just a simple one. It was nothing more than a desire. Beyond that, she would not take any further action.
Emma’s first resolution was to keep her father from the knowledge of what had passed,—aware of the anxiety and alarm it would occasion: but she soon felt that concealment must be impossible. Within half an hour it was known all over Highbury. It was the very event to engage those who talk most, the young and the low; and all the youth and servants in the place were soon in the happiness of frightful news. The last night’s ball seemed lost in the gipsies. Poor Mr. Woodhouse trembled as he sat, and, as Emma had foreseen, would scarcely be satisfied without their promising never to go beyond the shrubbery again. It was some comfort to him that many inquiries after himself and Miss Woodhouse (for his neighbours knew that he loved to be inquired after), as well as Miss Smith, were coming in during the rest of the day; and he had the pleasure of returning for answer, that they were all very indifferent—which, though not exactly true, for she was perfectly well, and Harriet not much otherwise, Emma would not interfere with. She had an unhappy state of health in general for the child of such a man, for she hardly knew what indisposition was; and if he did not invent illnesses for her, she could make no figure in a message.
Emma's first decision was to keep her father from finding out what had happened, knowing how anxious and alarmed it would make him. But she soon realized that it would be impossible to hide it. Within half an hour, everyone in Highbury knew. It was the kind of news that grabbed the attention of those who gossip the most—especially the young and the lower classes; soon, all the young people and servants were caught up in the excitement of the shocking news. Last night’s ball seemed overshadowed by the gipsies. Poor Mr. Woodhouse trembled as he sat, and, as Emma had predicted, he would hardly be satisfied without their promise to never go beyond the shrubbery again. It was some comfort to him that many inquiries about him and Miss Woodhouse (since his neighbors knew he liked to be asked about) as well as Miss Smith were coming in throughout the day; and he enjoyed replying that they were all quite indifferent—which, although not exactly true, since she was perfectly well and Harriet wasn’t feeling much worse, Emma chose not to correct. She had an unfortunate state of health for the child of such a man, as she hardly knew what being unwell was; and if he didn’t make up illnesses for her, she wouldn’t have much of a presence in messages.
The gipsies did not wait for the operations of justice; they took themselves off in a hurry. The young ladies of Highbury might have walked again in safety before their panic began, and the whole history dwindled soon into a matter of little importance but to Emma and her nephews:—in her imagination it maintained its ground, and Henry and John were still asking every day for the story of Harriet and the gipsies, and still tenaciously setting her right if she varied in the slightest particular from the original recital.
The gypsies didn’t wait for justice to take its course; they left quickly. The young ladies of Highbury might have felt safe walking around again before their panic kicked in, and the whole incident soon turned into something unimportant to everyone except Emma and her nephews. In her mind, it still held significance, and Henry and John kept asking every day for the story about Harriet and the gypsies, still determined to correct her if she changed even the smallest detail from the original tale.
CHAPTER IV
A very few days had passed after this adventure, when Harriet came one morning to Emma with a small parcel in her hand, and after sitting down and hesitating, thus began:
A few days had gone by after this adventure when Harriet came to Emma one morning with a small package in her hand. After sitting down and hesitating, she started:
“Miss Woodhouse—if you are at leisure—I have something that I should like to tell you—a sort of confession to make—and then, you know, it will be over.”
“Miss Woodhouse—if you have a moment—I have something I’d like to share with you—a kind of confession—and then, you know, it will be done.”
Emma was a good deal surprized; but begged her to speak. There was a seriousness in Harriet’s manner which prepared her, quite as much as her words, for something more than ordinary.
Emma was quite surprised, but she asked her to continue. There was a seriousness in Harriet’s behavior that, just as much as her words, hinted at something beyond the ordinary.
“It is my duty, and I am sure it is my wish,” she continued, “to have no reserves with you on this subject. As I am happily quite an altered creature in one respect, it is very fit that you should have the satisfaction of knowing it. I do not want to say more than is necessary—I am too much ashamed of having given way as I have done, and I dare say you understand me.”
“It’s my responsibility, and I believe it’s my desire,” she continued, “to be completely open with you about this. Since I’m happily a changed person in one respect, I think it’s only fair that you should know. I don’t want to say more than necessary—I feel too embarrassed about having given in like I did, and I’m sure you understand me.”
“Yes,” said Emma, “I hope I do.”
“Yes,” Emma said, “I hope I do.”
“How I could so long a time be fancying myself!...” cried Harriet, warmly. “It seems like madness! I can see nothing at all extraordinary in him now.—I do not care whether I meet him or not—except that of the two I had rather not see him—and indeed I would go any distance round to avoid him—but I do not envy his wife in the least; I neither admire her nor envy her, as I have done: she is very charming, I dare say, and all that, but I think her very ill-tempered and disagreeable—I shall never forget her look the other night!—However, I assure you, Miss Woodhouse, I wish her no evil.—No, let them be ever so happy together, it will not give me another moment’s pang: and to convince you that I have been speaking truth, I am now going to destroy—what I ought to have destroyed long ago—what I ought never to have kept—I know that very well (blushing as she spoke).—However, now I will destroy it all—and it is my particular wish to do it in your presence, that you may see how rational I am grown. Cannot you guess what this parcel holds?” said she, with a conscious look.
“How could I have spent so long imagining myself like this?!” cried Harriet, passionately. “It seems crazy! I don’t see anything special about him now. I don’t care if I run into him or not—except that I’d prefer not to see him at all—and I would go out of my way to avoid him—but I don’t envy his wife at all; I don’t admire her or envy her like I used to. She’s probably very charming and all that, but I think she’s really unpleasant and hard to deal with—I’ll never forget the way she looked the other night!—However, I promise you, Miss Woodhouse, I wish her no harm. No, even if they are happy together, it won’t make me feel any worse: and to prove I’m being honest, I’m about to get rid of—what I should have thrown away a long time ago—what I never should have kept—I know that very well,” she said, blushing as she spoke. “Anyway, now I’m going to destroy it all—and I really want to do it in front of you, so you can see how rational I’ve become. Can’t you guess what this package contains?” she asked, with a knowing look.
“Not the least in the world.—Did he ever give you any thing?”
“Not at all in the world.—Did he ever give you anything?”
“No—I cannot call them gifts; but they are things that I have valued very much.”
“No—I can’t call them gifts; but they are things that I’ve valued a lot.”
She held the parcel towards her, and Emma read the words Most precious treasures on the top. Her curiosity was greatly excited. Harriet unfolded the parcel, and she looked on with impatience. Within abundance of silver paper was a pretty little Tunbridge-ware box, which Harriet opened: it was well lined with the softest cotton; but, excepting the cotton, Emma saw only a small piece of court-plaister.
She held the package up to her, and Emma read the words Most precious treasures on top. Her curiosity was piqued. Harriet unwrapped the package, and she watched with impatience. Inside layers of silver paper was a cute little Tunbridge-ware box, which Harriet opened: it was lined with the softest cotton; but aside from the cotton, Emma saw only a small piece of adhesive bandage.
“Now,” said Harriet, “you must recollect.”
“Now,” said Harriet, “you have to remember.”
“No, indeed I do not.”
“No, I really don’t.”
“Dear me! I should not have thought it possible you could forget what passed in this very room about court-plaister, one of the very last times we ever met in it!—It was but a very few days before I had my sore throat—just before Mr. and Mrs. John Knightley came—I think the very evening.—Do not you remember his cutting his finger with your new penknife, and your recommending court-plaister?—But, as you had none about you, and knew I had, you desired me to supply him; and so I took mine out and cut him a piece; but it was a great deal too large, and he cut it smaller, and kept playing some time with what was left, before he gave it back to me. And so then, in my nonsense, I could not help making a treasure of it—so I put it by never to be used, and looked at it now and then as a great treat.”
“Dear me! I can't believe you could forget what happened in this room about court-plaister the last few times we were here together! It was only a few days before I got my sore throat—right before Mr. and Mrs. John Knightley came over—I think it was that very evening. Don't you remember him cutting his finger with your new penknife and you suggesting court-plaister? But since you didn't have any with you and knew I did, you asked me to help him out; so I took mine out and cut him a piece. But it was way too big, so he made it smaller and played with what was left for a while before giving it back to me. And then, in my silliness, I couldn't help but treasure it—so I kept it aside never to be used and looked at it now and then as a special treat.”
“My dearest Harriet!” cried Emma, putting her hand before her face, and jumping up, “you make me more ashamed of myself than I can bear. Remember it? Aye, I remember it all now; all, except your saving this relic—I knew nothing of that till this moment—but the cutting the finger, and my recommending court-plaister, and saying I had none about me!—Oh! my sins, my sins!—And I had plenty all the while in my pocket!—One of my senseless tricks!—I deserve to be under a continual blush all the rest of my life.—Well—(sitting down again)—go on—what else?”
“My dearest Harriet!” Emma exclaimed, covering her face with her hand and jumping up. “You make me more ashamed of myself than I can handle. Do I remember it? Yes, I remember everything now—everything, except for you saving this memento. I didn't know about that until this moment—but I recall cutting my finger, and suggesting court-plaster, and saying I didn't have any with me! Oh! my mistakes, my mistakes!—And I had plenty in my pocket all along!—Just one of my foolish tricks!—I deserve to blush continuously for the rest of my life. Well—(sitting back down)—go on—what else?”
“And had you really some at hand yourself? I am sure I never suspected it, you did it so naturally.”
“And did you actually have some on you? I honestly never suspected it; you did it so effortlessly.”
“And so you actually put this piece of court-plaister by for his sake!” said Emma, recovering from her state of shame and feeling divided between wonder and amusement. And secretly she added to herself, “Lord bless me! when should I ever have thought of putting by in cotton a piece of court-plaister that Frank Churchill had been pulling about! I never was equal to this.”
“And so you really saved this piece of court plaster for him!” said Emma, coming out of her embarrassment and feeling a mix of surprise and amusement. And secretly she thought to herself, “Wow! When would I have ever thought to keep a piece of court plaster that Frank Churchill had been handling? I could never have done that.”
“Here,” resumed Harriet, turning to her box again, “here is something still more valuable, I mean that has been more valuable, because this is what did really once belong to him, which the court-plaister never did.”
“Here,” resumed Harriet, turning back to her box, “here’s something even more valuable, I mean that has been more valuable, because this is what truly once belonged to him, which the court-plaister never did.”
Emma was quite eager to see this superior treasure. It was the end of an old pencil,—the part without any lead.
Emma was really excited to see this great treasure. It was the end of an old pencil—the part without any lead.
“This was really his,” said Harriet.—“Do not you remember one morning?—no, I dare say you do not. But one morning—I forget exactly the day—but perhaps it was the Tuesday or Wednesday before that evening, he wanted to make a memorandum in his pocket-book; it was about spruce-beer. Mr. Knightley had been telling him something about brewing spruce-beer, and he wanted to put it down; but when he took out his pencil, there was so little lead that he soon cut it all away, and it would not do, so you lent him another, and this was left upon the table as good for nothing. But I kept my eye on it; and, as soon as I dared, caught it up, and never parted with it again from that moment.”
“This was definitely his,” said Harriet. “Don’t you remember one morning?—no, I guess you don’t. But one morning—I can’t remember the exact day—but maybe it was the Tuesday or Wednesday before that evening, he wanted to jot something down in his pocketbook; it was about spruce beer. Mr. Knightley had told him something about brewing spruce beer, and he wanted to note it down; but when he took out his pencil, there was so little lead left that he quickly used it all up, and it was useless, so you lent him another one, and this one was left on the table as if it were junk. But I kept an eye on it; and as soon as I could, I grabbed it and never let it go from that moment.”
“I do remember it,” cried Emma; “I perfectly remember it.—Talking about spruce-beer.—Oh! yes—Mr. Knightley and I both saying we liked it, and Mr. Elton’s seeming resolved to learn to like it too. I perfectly remember it.—Stop; Mr. Knightley was standing just here, was not he? I have an idea he was standing just here.”
“I remember it,” Emma exclaimed. “I remember it perfectly. —We were talking about spruce beer. —Oh! yes—Mr. Knightley and I both said we liked it, and Mr. Elton seemed determined to learn to like it too. I remember it perfectly. —Wait; Mr. Knightley was standing right here, wasn’t he? I have a feeling he was standing right here.”
“Ah! I do not know. I cannot recollect.—It is very odd, but I cannot recollect.—Mr. Elton was sitting here, I remember, much about where I am now.”—
“Ah! I don’t know. I can’t remember. —It’s very strange, but I can’t remember. —Mr. Elton was sitting here, I remember, pretty much where I am now.”
“Well, go on.”
"Well, go ahead."
“Oh! that’s all. I have nothing more to shew you, or to say—except that I am now going to throw them both behind the fire, and I wish you to see me do it.”
“Oh! that’s everything. I have nothing else to show you or to say—except that I’m about to throw them both into the fire, and I want you to watch me do it.”
“My poor dear Harriet! and have you actually found happiness in treasuring up these things?”
“My poor dear Harriet! Have you really found happiness in holding onto these things?”
“Yes, simpleton as I was!—but I am quite ashamed of it now, and wish I could forget as easily as I can burn them. It was very wrong of me, you know, to keep any remembrances, after he was married. I knew it was—but had not resolution enough to part with them.”
“Yes, how naïve I was!—but I’m really embarrassed about it now and wish I could forget as easily as I can destroy those things. It was very wrong of me, you know, to hold onto any memories after he got married. I knew it was wrong—but I didn’t have the strength to let them go.”
“But, Harriet, is it necessary to burn the court-plaister?—I have not a word to say for the bit of old pencil, but the court-plaister might be useful.”
“But, Harriet, do we really need to burn the court-plaster?—I have nothing to say for that old pencil, but the court-plaster could still be useful.”
“I shall be happier to burn it,” replied Harriet. “It has a disagreeable look to me. I must get rid of every thing.—There it goes, and there is an end, thank Heaven! of Mr. Elton.”
“I'd be happier to burn it,” replied Harriet. “It looks unpleasant to me. I need to get rid of everything.—There it goes, and thank Heaven! That’s the end of Mr. Elton.”
“And when,” thought Emma, “will there be a beginning of Mr. Churchill?”
“And when,” thought Emma, “will Mr. Churchill finally show up?”
She had soon afterwards reason to believe that the beginning was already made, and could not but hope that the gipsy, though she had told no fortune, might be proved to have made Harriet’s.—About a fortnight after the alarm, they came to a sufficient explanation, and quite undesignedly. Emma was not thinking of it at the moment, which made the information she received more valuable. She merely said, in the course of some trivial chat, “Well, Harriet, whenever you marry I would advise you to do so and so”—and thought no more of it, till after a minute’s silence she heard Harriet say in a very serious tone, “I shall never marry.”
She soon had a reason to believe that the first step had already been taken, and she couldn’t help but hope that the gypsy, even though she had not given a fortune, might have predicted Harriet’s. About two weeks after the initial concern, they got a clear explanation, and it happened quite unintentionally. Emma wasn't thinking about it at the time, which made the information she received even more meaningful. She simply said, during some light conversation, “Well, Harriet, whenever you decide to get married, I would suggest you do this and that”—and she thought no more about it until, after a minute of silence, she heard Harriet say in a very serious tone, “I will never marry.”
Emma then looked up, and immediately saw how it was; and after a moment’s debate, as to whether it should pass unnoticed or not, replied,
Emma then looked up and instantly understood what was going on; after a brief deliberation about whether to ignore it or acknowledge it, she replied,
“Never marry!—This is a new resolution.”
“Never get married!—This is a new decision.”
“It is one that I shall never change, however.”
“It’s one I will never change, though.”
After another short hesitation, “I hope it does not proceed from—I hope it is not in compliment to Mr. Elton?”
After a brief pause, “I hope this isn’t coming from—I hope it’s not a compliment to Mr. Elton?”
“Mr. Elton indeed!” cried Harriet indignantly.—“Oh! no”—and Emma could just catch the words, “so superior to Mr. Elton!”
“Mr. Elton, really!” Harriet exclaimed in frustration. —“Oh! no”—and Emma barely heard her say, “so much better than Mr. Elton!”
She then took a longer time for consideration. Should she proceed no farther?—should she let it pass, and seem to suspect nothing?—Perhaps Harriet might think her cold or angry if she did; or perhaps if she were totally silent, it might only drive Harriet into asking her to hear too much; and against any thing like such an unreserve as had been, such an open and frequent discussion of hopes and chances, she was perfectly resolved.—She believed it would be wiser for her to say and know at once, all that she meant to say and know. Plain dealing was always best. She had previously determined how far she would proceed, on any application of the sort; and it would be safer for both, to have the judicious law of her own brain laid down with speed.—She was decided, and thus spoke—
She then took a longer moment to think. Should she go any further?—should she just let it go and pretend to suspect nothing?—Maybe Harriet would think she was cold or upset if she did; or if she stayed completely quiet, it might only push Harriet to ask her too much; and she was dead set against anything like the openness they had before, such a frequent discussion of hopes and possibilities. She believed it would be smarter for her to say and know everything she intended to say and know right away. Being straightforward was always best. She had already decided how far she would go regarding any inquiry of this kind; and it would be better for both of them to quickly establish the reasonable limits in her own mind. She was determined, and she spoke—
“Harriet, I will not affect to be in doubt of your meaning. Your resolution, or rather your expectation of never marrying, results from an idea that the person whom you might prefer, would be too greatly your superior in situation to think of you. Is not it so?”
“Harriet, I'm not going to pretend I'm unsure of what you mean. Your decision, or more accurately your belief that you’ll never marry, comes from the thought that the person you might choose would be too much your superior in status to consider you. Am I right?”
“Oh! Miss Woodhouse, believe me I have not the presumption to suppose— Indeed I am not so mad.—But it is a pleasure to me to admire him at a distance—and to think of his infinite superiority to all the rest of the world, with the gratitude, wonder, and veneration, which are so proper, in me especially.”
“Oh! Miss Woodhouse, please believe me, I don't have the arrogance to think—I’m really not that crazy. But it brings me joy to admire him from afar and to reflect on his unmatched greatness compared to everyone else, with the gratitude, wonder, and respect that are so suitable, especially for me.”
“I am not at all surprized at you, Harriet. The service he rendered you was enough to warm your heart.”
“I’m not surprised at all, Harriet. What he did for you was enough to touch your heart.”
“Service! oh! it was such an inexpressible obligation!—The very recollection of it, and all that I felt at the time—when I saw him coming—his noble look—and my wretchedness before. Such a change! In one moment such a change! From perfect misery to perfect happiness!”
“Service! Oh! it was such an overwhelming obligation!—Just thinking about it, and everything I felt back then—when I saw him approaching—his noble appearance—and my own misery before. What a transformation! In an instant, such a transformation! From complete misery to total happiness!”
“It is very natural. It is natural, and it is honourable.—Yes, honourable, I think, to chuse so well and so gratefully.—But that it will be a fortunate preference is more than I can promise. I do not advise you to give way to it, Harriet. I do not by any means engage for its being returned. Consider what you are about. Perhaps it will be wisest in you to check your feelings while you can: at any rate do not let them carry you far, unless you are persuaded of his liking you. Be observant of him. Let his behaviour be the guide of your sensations. I give you this caution now, because I shall never speak to you again on the subject. I am determined against all interference. Henceforward I know nothing of the matter. Let no name ever pass our lips. We were very wrong before; we will be cautious now.—He is your superior, no doubt, and there do seem objections and obstacles of a very serious nature; but yet, Harriet, more wonderful things have taken place, there have been matches of greater disparity. But take care of yourself. I would not have you too sanguine; though, however it may end, be assured your raising your thoughts to him, is a mark of good taste which I shall always know how to value.”
“It’s completely natural. It’s natural, and it’s honorable.—Yes, honorable, I think, to choose so well and so gratefully.—But I can’t promise that it will be a fortunate choice. I don’t advise you to give in to it, Harriet. I certainly can’t guarantee that he feels the same way. Think carefully about what you’re doing. It might be wise for you to hold back your feelings while you can: at any rate, don’t let them lead you too far unless you’re sure about his feelings for you. Pay attention to him. Let his behavior guide your feelings. I'm giving you this advice now, because I won’t bring it up again. I’m resolved to avoid any interference. From now on, I know nothing about this. Let’s not mention any names. We were very wrong before; we’ll be careful now.—He is certainly your superior, and there do seem to be serious objections and obstacles; but still, Harriet, more incredible things have happened, and there have been matches with greater differences. But take care of yourself. I wouldn’t want you to be too optimistic; though, however it turns out, know that your thoughts about him show good taste, which I will always appreciate.”
Harriet kissed her hand in silent and submissive gratitude. Emma was very decided in thinking such an attachment no bad thing for her friend. Its tendency would be to raise and refine her mind—and it must be saving her from the danger of degradation.
Harriet kissed her hand in silent and grateful submission. Emma firmly believed that such a connection was good for her friend. It would help elevate and refine her thinking—and it had to be protecting her from the risk of decline.
CHAPTER V
In this state of schemes, and hopes, and connivance, June opened upon Hartfield. To Highbury in general it brought no material change. The Eltons were still talking of a visit from the Sucklings, and of the use to be made of their barouche-landau; and Jane Fairfax was still at her grandmother’s; and as the return of the Campbells from Ireland was again delayed, and August, instead of Midsummer, fixed for it, she was likely to remain there full two months longer, provided at least she were able to defeat Mrs. Elton’s activity in her service, and save herself from being hurried into a delightful situation against her will.
In this mix of plans, hopes, and secret alliances, June arrived at Hartfield. It didn't really change much for Highbury. The Eltons were still discussing a visit from the Sucklings and how they would use their barouche-landau; Jane Fairfax was still with her grandmother; and since the Campbells' return from Ireland was once again postponed, now set for August instead of midsummer, it looked like she would be there for at least two more months, provided she could manage to outsmart Mrs. Elton's efforts on her behalf and avoid being pushed into a situation she didn't want.
Mr. Knightley, who, for some reason best known to himself, had certainly taken an early dislike to Frank Churchill, was only growing to dislike him more. He began to suspect him of some double dealing in his pursuit of Emma. That Emma was his object appeared indisputable. Every thing declared it; his own attentions, his father’s hints, his mother-in-law’s guarded silence; it was all in unison; words, conduct, discretion, and indiscretion, told the same story. But while so many were devoting him to Emma, and Emma herself making him over to Harriet, Mr. Knightley began to suspect him of some inclination to trifle with Jane Fairfax. He could not understand it; but there were symptoms of intelligence between them—he thought so at least—symptoms of admiration on his side, which, having once observed, he could not persuade himself to think entirely void of meaning, however he might wish to escape any of Emma’s errors of imagination. She was not present when the suspicion first arose. He was dining with the Randalls family, and Jane, at the Eltons’; and he had seen a look, more than a single look, at Miss Fairfax, which, from the admirer of Miss Woodhouse, seemed somewhat out of place. When he was again in their company, he could not help remembering what he had seen; nor could he avoid observations which, unless it were like Cowper and his fire at twilight,
Mr. Knightley, who, for reasons only he understood, had definitely taken an early dislike to Frank Churchill, was only starting to dislike him even more. He began to suspect some sort of deceit in Frank's pursuit of Emma. It was clear that Emma was his goal. Everything pointed to it: his own attention, his father’s hints, his mother-in-law’s careful silence; it all synchronized. Words, actions, caution, and indiscretion all told the same story. But while so many were linking him to Emma, and Emma herself was trying to set him up with Harriet, Mr. Knightley started to worry that he might be toying with Jane Fairfax. He couldn't figure it out; there were signs of connection between them—at least he thought so—indications of admiration on Frank's part that, once noticed, he couldn't convince himself were meaningless, no matter how much he wanted to avoid any of Emma’s misconceptions. She wasn’t present when the suspicion first came up. He was having dinner with the Randalls family, and Jane was with the Eltons; and he noticed a look, more than one look, at Miss Fairfax, which, coming from someone who admired Miss Woodhouse, seemed somewhat inappropriate. When he was with them again, he couldn’t help but recall what he had noticed; nor could he ignore observations that, unless it was like Cowper and his fire at twilight,
“Myself creating what I saw,”
“Creating what I saw,”
brought him yet stronger suspicion of there being a something of private liking, of private understanding even, between Frank Churchill and Jane.
brought him even stronger suspicion that there was something of a private attraction, or even a private understanding, between Frank Churchill and Jane.
He had walked up one day after dinner, as he very often did, to spend his evening at Hartfield. Emma and Harriet were going to walk; he joined them; and, on returning, they fell in with a larger party, who, like themselves, judged it wisest to take their exercise early, as the weather threatened rain; Mr. and Mrs. Weston and their son, Miss Bates and her niece, who had accidentally met. They all united; and, on reaching Hartfield gates, Emma, who knew it was exactly the sort of visiting that would be welcome to her father, pressed them all to go in and drink tea with him. The Randalls party agreed to it immediately; and after a pretty long speech from Miss Bates, which few persons listened to, she also found it possible to accept dear Miss Woodhouse’s most obliging invitation.
He had walked over one evening after dinner, as he often did, to spend time at Hartfield. Emma and Harriet were planning to go for a walk; he joined them, and on their way back, they ran into a larger group, who, like them, thought it best to get some exercise early since the weather looked like it might rain. This group included Mr. and Mrs. Weston and their son, as well as Miss Bates and her niece, who had bumped into each other by chance. They all decided to join up, and when they reached Hartfield gates, Emma, knowing her father would appreciate their visit, urged them all to come in and have tea with him. The Randalls group quickly agreed, and after a lengthy speech from Miss Bates, which few people really paid attention to, she also found a way to accept dear Miss Woodhouse’s very kind invitation.
As they were turning into the grounds, Mr. Perry passed by on horseback. The gentlemen spoke of his horse.
As they were entering the grounds, Mr. Perry rode by on horseback. The men talked about his horse.
“By the bye,” said Frank Churchill to Mrs. Weston presently, “what became of Mr. Perry’s plan of setting up his carriage?”
“By the way,” said Frank Churchill to Mrs. Weston shortly, “what happened to Mr. Perry’s plan of getting a carriage?”
Mrs. Weston looked surprized, and said, “I did not know that he ever had any such plan.”
Mrs. Weston looked surprised and said, “I didn’t know he ever had any plan like that.”
“Nay, I had it from you. You wrote me word of it three months ago.”
"Nah, I heard it from you. You told me about it three months ago."
“Me! impossible!”
"Me! No way!"
“Indeed you did. I remember it perfectly. You mentioned it as what was certainly to be very soon. Mrs. Perry had told somebody, and was extremely happy about it. It was owing to her persuasion, as she thought his being out in bad weather did him a great deal of harm. You must remember it now?”
“Yeah, you did. I remember it clearly. You said it was definitely going to happen very soon. Mrs. Perry told someone and was really happy about it. It was because of her encouragement, since she believed that him being out in bad weather was really bad for him. Do you remember it now?”
“Upon my word I never heard of it till this moment.”
"I swear I had never heard of it until now."
“Never! really, never!—Bless me! how could it be?—Then I must have dreamt it—but I was completely persuaded—Miss Smith, you walk as if you were tired. You will not be sorry to find yourself at home.”
“Never! Really, never!—Oh my! How could that be?—Then I must have dreamt it—but I was totally convinced—Miss Smith, you walk as if you’re tired. You won’t be sad to be back home.”
“What is this?—What is this?” cried Mr. Weston, “about Perry and a carriage? Is Perry going to set up his carriage, Frank? I am glad he can afford it. You had it from himself, had you?”
“What’s going on?—What’s going on?” shouted Mr. Weston. “What about Perry and a carriage? Is Perry going to get a carriage, Frank? I'm glad he can afford it. Did you hear it directly from him?”
“No, sir,” replied his son, laughing, “I seem to have had it from nobody.—Very odd!—I really was persuaded of Mrs. Weston’s having mentioned it in one of her letters to Enscombe, many weeks ago, with all these particulars—but as she declares she never heard a syllable of it before, of course it must have been a dream. I am a great dreamer. I dream of every body at Highbury when I am away—and when I have gone through my particular friends, then I begin dreaming of Mr. and Mrs. Perry.”
“No, sir,” replied his son, laughing, “I don’t seem to have gotten it from anyone. How strange! I really thought Mrs. Weston had mentioned it in one of her letters to Enscombe weeks ago, with all these details—but since she says she never heard a word about it, I guess it must have been a dream. I’m quite the dreamer. I dream about everyone in Highbury when I’m away—and once I’ve gone through my close friends, I start dreaming about Mr. and Mrs. Perry.”
“It is odd though,” observed his father, “that you should have had such a regular connected dream about people whom it was not very likely you should be thinking of at Enscombe. Perry’s setting up his carriage! and his wife’s persuading him to it, out of care for his health—just what will happen, I have no doubt, some time or other; only a little premature. What an air of probability sometimes runs through a dream! And at others, what a heap of absurdities it is! Well, Frank, your dream certainly shews that Highbury is in your thoughts when you are absent. Emma, you are a great dreamer, I think?”
“It’s strange, though,” his father remarked, “that you had such a clear and connected dream about people you probably weren’t thinking about at Enscombe. Perry’s setting up his carriage! and his wife’s convincing him to do it for his health—just what will eventually happen, no doubt, just a bit early. Sometimes, a dream has such a sense of reality! And other times, it’s just full of nonsense! Well, Frank, your dream definitely shows that Highbury is on your mind when you’re away. Emma, I think you’re quite the dreamer?”
Emma was out of hearing. She had hurried on before her guests to prepare her father for their appearance, and was beyond the reach of Mr. Weston’s hint.
Emma was out of earshot. She had rushed ahead of her guests to get her father ready for their arrival and was beyond Mr. Weston’s suggestion.
“Why, to own the truth,” cried Miss Bates, who had been trying in vain to be heard the last two minutes, “if I must speak on this subject, there is no denying that Mr. Frank Churchill might have—I do not mean to say that he did not dream it—I am sure I have sometimes the oddest dreams in the world—but if I am questioned about it, I must acknowledge that there was such an idea last spring; for Mrs. Perry herself mentioned it to my mother, and the Coles knew of it as well as ourselves—but it was quite a secret, known to nobody else, and only thought of about three days. Mrs. Perry was very anxious that he should have a carriage, and came to my mother in great spirits one morning because she thought she had prevailed. Jane, don’t you remember grandmama’s telling us of it when we got home? I forget where we had been walking to—very likely to Randalls; yes, I think it was to Randalls. Mrs. Perry was always particularly fond of my mother—indeed I do not know who is not—and she had mentioned it to her in confidence; she had no objection to her telling us, of course, but it was not to go beyond: and, from that day to this, I never mentioned it to a soul that I know of. At the same time, I will not positively answer for my having never dropt a hint, because I know I do sometimes pop out a thing before I am aware. I am a talker, you know; I am rather a talker; and now and then I have let a thing escape me which I should not. I am not like Jane; I wish I were. I will answer for it she never betrayed the least thing in the world. Where is she?—Oh! just behind. Perfectly remember Mrs. Perry’s coming.—Extraordinary dream, indeed!”
“Honestly, to tell the truth,” exclaimed Miss Bates, who had been trying unsuccessfully to get a word in for the last couple of minutes, “if I have to talk about this, I can’t deny that Mr. Frank Churchill might have—I’m not saying he didn’t dream it—I know I sometimes have the strangest dreams—but if I’m asked about it, I must admit that there was such an idea last spring; Mrs. Perry herself mentioned it to my mother, and the Coles knew about it just like we did—but it was really a secret, known to no one else, and only thought of for about three days. Mrs. Perry was very eager for him to have a carriage and came to my mother one morning all cheerful because she thought she had convinced her. Jane, don’t you remember grandma telling us about this when we got home? I can’t recall where we had walked from—probably to Randalls; yes, I think it was to Randalls. Mrs. Perry always really liked my mother—honestly, I don’t know anyone who doesn’t—and she had mentioned it to her in confidence; she didn’t mind if my mother told us, of course, but it wasn’t supposed to go any further: and from that day until now, I never mentioned it to anyone that I know of. At the same time, I can’t completely guarantee that I never let something slip, because I know I do sometimes blurt things out without realizing it. I’m a talker, you know; I do tend to talk a lot; and now and then I’ve let something slip that I shouldn’t have. I’m not like Jane; I wish I were. I can assure you she has never revealed the slightest thing at all. Where is she?—Oh! just behind. I completely remember Mrs. Perry coming.—Truly an extraordinary dream!”
They were entering the hall. Mr. Knightley’s eyes had preceded Miss Bates’s in a glance at Jane. From Frank Churchill’s face, where he thought he saw confusion suppressed or laughed away, he had involuntarily turned to hers; but she was indeed behind, and too busy with her shawl. Mr. Weston had walked in. The two other gentlemen waited at the door to let her pass. Mr. Knightley suspected in Frank Churchill the determination of catching her eye—he seemed watching her intently—in vain, however, if it were so—Jane passed between them into the hall, and looked at neither.
They were entering the hall. Mr. Knightley’s gaze had already moved past Miss Bates to take a look at Jane. From Frank Churchill’s expression, which seemed to show a mix of confusion that he tried to hide or laugh off, Mr. Knightley found himself looking at her as well; but she was actually farther back, too busy with her shawl. Mr. Weston had walked in. The other two gentlemen waited at the door to let her go ahead. Mr. Knightley suspected that Frank Churchill was trying hard to catch her attention—he was watching her closely—but it was in vain if that was the case—Jane walked past them into the hall without looking at either of them.
There was no time for farther remark or explanation. The dream must be borne with, and Mr. Knightley must take his seat with the rest round the large modern circular table which Emma had introduced at Hartfield, and which none but Emma could have had power to place there and persuade her father to use, instead of the small-sized Pembroke, on which two of his daily meals had, for forty years been crowded. Tea passed pleasantly, and nobody seemed in a hurry to move.
There was no time for further comments or explanations. The dream had to be accepted, and Mr. Knightley had to take his place with everyone else around the large modern circular table that Emma had brought to Hartfield, a table that only Emma could have positioned there and convinced her father to use instead of the small Pembroke table, which had been used for two of his daily meals for the past forty years. Tea was enjoyable, and nobody seemed eager to leave.
“Miss Woodhouse,” said Frank Churchill, after examining a table behind him, which he could reach as he sat, “have your nephews taken away their alphabets—their box of letters? It used to stand here. Where is it? This is a sort of dull-looking evening, that ought to be treated rather as winter than summer. We had great amusement with those letters one morning. I want to puzzle you again.”
“Miss Woodhouse,” said Frank Churchill, after looking at a table behind him that he could reach while seated, “have your nephews taken their alphabets—their box of letters? It used to be here. Where is it? This evening feels more dull than summery. We had a lot of fun with those letters one morning. I want to challenge you again.”
Emma was pleased with the thought; and producing the box, the table was quickly scattered over with alphabets, which no one seemed so much disposed to employ as their two selves. They were rapidly forming words for each other, or for any body else who would be puzzled. The quietness of the game made it particularly eligible for Mr. Woodhouse, who had often been distressed by the more animated sort, which Mr. Weston had occasionally introduced, and who now sat happily occupied in lamenting, with tender melancholy, over the departure of the “poor little boys,” or in fondly pointing out, as he took up any stray letter near him, how beautifully Emma had written it.
Emma was happy with the idea, and as she took out the box, the table quickly filled with letters, which no one seemed more interested in using than the two of them. They were quickly putting together words for each other or for anyone else who might be confused. The calm nature of the game made it especially suitable for Mr. Woodhouse, who had often been upset by the more energetic games that Mr. Weston sometimes brought up. He now sat contentedly, either sadly reminiscing about the "poor little boys" or lovingly pointing out, as he picked up any stray letter near him, how beautifully Emma had written it.
Frank Churchill placed a word before Miss Fairfax. She gave a slight glance round the table, and applied herself to it. Frank was next to Emma, Jane opposite to them—and Mr. Knightley so placed as to see them all; and it was his object to see as much as he could, with as little apparent observation. The word was discovered, and with a faint smile pushed away. If meant to be immediately mixed with the others, and buried from sight, she should have looked on the table instead of looking just across, for it was not mixed; and Harriet, eager after every fresh word, and finding out none, directly took it up, and fell to work. She was sitting by Mr. Knightley, and turned to him for help. The word was blunder; and as Harriet exultingly proclaimed it, there was a blush on Jane’s cheek which gave it a meaning not otherwise ostensible. Mr. Knightley connected it with the dream; but how it could all be, was beyond his comprehension. How the delicacy, the discretion of his favourite could have been so lain asleep! He feared there must be some decided involvement. Disingenuousness and double dealing seemed to meet him at every turn. These letters were but the vehicle for gallantry and trick. It was a child’s play, chosen to conceal a deeper game on Frank Churchill’s part.
Frank Churchill whispered a word to Miss Fairfax. She glanced around the table briefly and focused on it. Frank sat next to Emma, with Jane directly across from them—and Mr. Knightley positioned himself so he could see everyone; his aim was to observe as much as he could without drawing attention. The word was found, and she pushed it away with a faint smile. If it was meant to be mixed in with the others and hidden from view, she would have looked at the table instead of just across, because it wasn't mixed in. Harriet, always eager for the next word and not finding any, picked it up immediately and got to work. She was sitting next to Mr. Knightley and turned to him for assistance. The word was blunder; when Harriet declared it with delight, Jane's cheeks flushed, giving it a significance that wasn't otherwise obvious. Mr. Knightley connected it to the dream, but he couldn't grasp how it all fit together. How could the sensitivity and discretion of his favorite be so naïve? He worried there had to be some serious involvement. Dishonesty and deceit seemed to confront him at every turn. These letters were just a way for flattery and tricks. It was a child's game, chosen to mask a deeper strategy on Frank Churchill's part.
With great indignation did he continue to observe him; with great alarm and distrust, to observe also his two blinded companions. He saw a short word prepared for Emma, and given to her with a look sly and demure. He saw that Emma had soon made it out, and found it highly entertaining, though it was something which she judged it proper to appear to censure; for she said, “Nonsense! for shame!” He heard Frank Churchill next say, with a glance towards Jane, “I will give it to her—shall I?”—and as clearly heard Emma opposing it with eager laughing warmth. “No, no, you must not; you shall not, indeed.”
He watched him with great anger, and with a lot of worry and suspicion, he also watched his two blind friends. He noticed a short word intended for Emma, given to her with a sly and modest look. He saw that Emma quickly figured it out and found it very amusing, even though she thought it was appropriate to pretend to disapprove, saying, “Nonsense! How shameful!” He then heard Frank Churchill say, looking towards Jane, “Should I give it to her?”—and he clearly heard Emma eagerly laughing and opposing it. “No, no, you definitely must not; you absolutely shall not.”
It was done however. This gallant young man, who seemed to love without feeling, and to recommend himself without complaisance, directly handed over the word to Miss Fairfax, and with a particular degree of sedate civility entreated her to study it. Mr. Knightley’s excessive curiosity to know what this word might be, made him seize every possible moment for darting his eye towards it, and it was not long before he saw it to be Dixon. Jane Fairfax’s perception seemed to accompany his; her comprehension was certainly more equal to the covert meaning, the superior intelligence, of those five letters so arranged. She was evidently displeased; looked up, and seeing herself watched, blushed more deeply than he had ever perceived her, and saying only, “I did not know that proper names were allowed,” pushed away the letters with even an angry spirit, and looked resolved to be engaged by no other word that could be offered. Her face was averted from those who had made the attack, and turned towards her aunt.
It was done, however. This brave young man, who seemed to love without truly feeling and to present himself without any self-importance, directly handed the word over to Miss Fairfax and, with a certain calm politeness, asked her to study it. Mr. Knightley’s overwhelming curiosity about what this word could be made him seize every opportunity to glance at it, and it wasn’t long before he realized it was Dixon. Jane Fairfax’s perception seemed to match his; her understanding was definitely more aligned with the hidden meaning and deeper intelligence behind those five letters put together. She was clearly upset; she looked up, and seeing that she was being watched, blushed more than he had ever seen before, and only said, “I didn’t know proper names were allowed,” as she pushed the letters away with an even angry spirit, looking determined not to engage with any other word that might be offered. Her face was turned away from those who had made the move and toward her aunt.
“Aye, very true, my dear,” cried the latter, though Jane had not spoken a word—“I was just going to say the same thing. It is time for us to be going indeed. The evening is closing in, and grandmama will be looking for us. My dear sir, you are too obliging. We really must wish you good night.”
"Yes, that's so true, my dear," the other person exclaimed, even though Jane hadn’t said anything—"I was just about to say the same thing. It's really time for us to go. The evening is coming to an end, and grandma will be looking for us. Sir, you are so kind. We really should say goodnight."
Jane’s alertness in moving, proved her as ready as her aunt had preconceived. She was immediately up, and wanting to quit the table; but so many were also moving, that she could not get away; and Mr. Knightley thought he saw another collection of letters anxiously pushed towards her, and resolutely swept away by her unexamined. She was afterwards looking for her shawl—Frank Churchill was looking also—it was growing dusk, and the room was in confusion; and how they parted, Mr. Knightley could not tell.
Jane’s quickness to move showed she was just as ready as her aunt had expected. She got up right away and wanted to leave the table, but so many people were also moving that she couldn’t get away. Mr. Knightley thought he saw another bunch of letters being anxiously pushed toward her, but she brushed them aside without even looking. Later, she was searching for her shawl—Frank Churchill was searching too—it was getting dark, and the room was in disarray, and Mr. Knightley couldn’t tell how they ended up parting.
He remained at Hartfield after all the rest, his thoughts full of what he had seen; so full, that when the candles came to assist his observations, he must—yes, he certainly must, as a friend—an anxious friend—give Emma some hint, ask her some question. He could not see her in a situation of such danger, without trying to preserve her. It was his duty.
He stayed at Hartfield after everyone else left, his mind racing with what he had seen; so consumed by it that when the candles were lit to help him see better, he felt he had to—yes, he definitely had to, as a concerned friend—drop a hint to Emma, ask her something. He couldn't watch her in such a risky situation without trying to protect her. It was his responsibility.
“Pray, Emma,” said he, “may I ask in what lay the great amusement, the poignant sting of the last word given to you and Miss Fairfax? I saw the word, and am curious to know how it could be so very entertaining to the one, and so very distressing to the other.”
“Please, Emma,” he said, “can I ask what was so amusing and what the sharp impact was of the last word given to you and Miss Fairfax? I saw the word, and I’m curious to understand how it could be so entertaining for one and so distressing for the other.”
Emma was extremely confused. She could not endure to give him the true explanation; for though her suspicions were by no means removed, she was really ashamed of having ever imparted them.
Emma was really confused. She couldn’t stand to give him the real explanation; even though her suspicions weren’t gone, she felt genuinely ashamed for having ever shared them.
“Oh!” she cried in evident embarrassment, “it all meant nothing; a mere joke among ourselves.”
“Oh!” she exclaimed, clearly embarrassed, “it didn’t mean anything; just a joke between us.”
“The joke,” he replied gravely, “seemed confined to you and Mr. Churchill.”
“The joke,” he said solemnly, “appeared to be just between you and Mr. Churchill.”
He had hoped she would speak again, but she did not. She would rather busy herself about any thing than speak. He sat a little while in doubt. A variety of evils crossed his mind. Interference—fruitless interference. Emma’s confusion, and the acknowledged intimacy, seemed to declare her affection engaged. Yet he would speak. He owed it to her, to risk any thing that might be involved in an unwelcome interference, rather than her welfare; to encounter any thing, rather than the remembrance of neglect in such a cause.
He had hoped she would say something again, but she didn't. She preferred to keep herself busy with anything rather than talk. He sat there for a while, unsure. A range of worries flooded his mind. Interference—pointless interference. Emma's confusion and their recognized closeness seemed to show that her feelings were involved. Still, he felt he had to say something. He owed it to her to risk whatever might come from an unwanted intervention, rather than jeopardize her well-being; to face anything, rather than live with the regret of doing nothing in such an important matter.
“My dear Emma,” said he at last, with earnest kindness, “do you think you perfectly understand the degree of acquaintance between the gentleman and lady we have been speaking of?”
“My dear Emma,” he finally said, with sincere kindness, “do you think you fully understand the level of familiarity between the gentleman and lady we’ve been discussing?”
“Between Mr. Frank Churchill and Miss Fairfax? Oh! yes, perfectly.—Why do you make a doubt of it?”
“Between Mr. Frank Churchill and Miss Fairfax? Oh! yes, definitely.—Why are you questioning it?”
“Have you never at any time had reason to think that he admired her, or that she admired him?”
“Have you never thought that he admired her, or that she admired him?”
“Never, never!” she cried with a most open eagerness—“Never, for the twentieth part of a moment, did such an idea occur to me. And how could it possibly come into your head?”
“Never, never!” she exclaimed with great enthusiasm—“Never, even for a fraction of a moment, did such an idea cross my mind. And how could it possibly enter yours?”
“I have lately imagined that I saw symptoms of attachment between them—certain expressive looks, which I did not believe meant to be public.”
“I’ve recently thought I noticed signs of a connection between them—some meaningful glances that I didn’t think were meant for everyone to see.”
“Oh! you amuse me excessively. I am delighted to find that you can vouchsafe to let your imagination wander—but it will not do—very sorry to check you in your first essay—but indeed it will not do. There is no admiration between them, I do assure you; and the appearances which have caught you, have arisen from some peculiar circumstances—feelings rather of a totally different nature—it is impossible exactly to explain:—there is a good deal of nonsense in it—but the part which is capable of being communicated, which is sense, is, that they are as far from any attachment or admiration for one another, as any two beings in the world can be. That is, I presume it to be so on her side, and I can answer for its being so on his. I will answer for the gentleman’s indifference.”
“Oh! you really make me laugh. I'm so happy to see that you can let your imagination roam—but it just won't work—I'm sorry to cut you off in your first attempt—but really, it can't happen. There’s no admiration between them, I assure you; and the impressions you've gotten are due to some unusual circumstances—feelings that are actually quite different—it’s hard to explain exactly:—there's a lot of nonsense in this—but the part that can be communicated, which makes sense, is that they are as far from having any attachment or admiration for each other as any two people in the world can be. That is, I believe it to be so on her side, and I can guarantee that it’s the case for him too. I can vouch for the gentleman’s indifference.”
She spoke with a confidence which staggered, with a satisfaction which silenced, Mr. Knightley. She was in gay spirits, and would have prolonged the conversation, wanting to hear the particulars of his suspicions, every look described, and all the wheres and hows of a circumstance which highly entertained her: but his gaiety did not meet hers. He found he could not be useful, and his feelings were too much irritated for talking. That he might not be irritated into an absolute fever, by the fire which Mr. Woodhouse’s tender habits required almost every evening throughout the year, he soon afterwards took a hasty leave, and walked home to the coolness and solitude of Donwell Abbey.
She spoke with a confidence that amazed Mr. Knightley and a satisfaction that left him speechless. She was in a cheerful mood and wanted to keep the conversation going, eager to hear about his suspicions, every detail described, and all the wheres and hows of a situation that greatly entertained her. However, his joy didn’t match hers. He realized he couldn’t be helpful, and his feelings were too irritated for a pleasant chat. To avoid being worked up into a complete frenzy by the heat that Mr. Woodhouse’s delicate habits required almost every evening of the year, he quickly said goodbye and walked home to the coolness and solitude of Donwell Abbey.
CHAPTER VI
After being long fed with hopes of a speedy visit from Mr. and Mrs. Suckling, the Highbury world were obliged to endure the mortification of hearing that they could not possibly come till the autumn. No such importation of novelties could enrich their intellectual stores at present. In the daily interchange of news, they must be again restricted to the other topics with which for a while the Sucklings’ coming had been united, such as the last accounts of Mrs. Churchill, whose health seemed every day to supply a different report, and the situation of Mrs. Weston, whose happiness it was to be hoped might eventually be as much increased by the arrival of a child, as that of all her neighbours was by the approach of it.
After being long filled with hopes for a quick visit from Mr. and Mrs. Suckling, the people of Highbury had to deal with the disappointment of hearing that they wouldn’t be able to come until autumn. There was no influx of new experiences to enhance their intellectual lives at the moment. In their daily exchange of news, they would have to return to the other topics that had been linked to the Sucklings’ visit, such as the latest updates on Mrs. Churchill, whose health seemed to change with every report, and the situation of Mrs. Weston, whose happiness they hoped would eventually increase as much from the arrival of a child as that of all her neighbors would from the same.
Mrs. Elton was very much disappointed. It was the delay of a great deal of pleasure and parade. Her introductions and recommendations must all wait, and every projected party be still only talked of. So she thought at first;—but a little consideration convinced her that every thing need not be put off. Why should not they explore to Box Hill though the Sucklings did not come? They could go there again with them in the autumn. It was settled that they should go to Box Hill. That there was to be such a party had been long generally known: it had even given the idea of another. Emma had never been to Box Hill; she wished to see what every body found so well worth seeing, and she and Mr. Weston had agreed to chuse some fine morning and drive thither. Two or three more of the chosen only were to be admitted to join them, and it was to be done in a quiet, unpretending, elegant way, infinitely superior to the bustle and preparation, the regular eating and drinking, and picnic parade of the Eltons and the Sucklings.
Mrs. Elton was really disappointed. It was a delay of a lot of fun and excitement. Her introductions and recommendations would all have to wait, and every planned gathering remained just talk. That was her first thought; but after a bit of consideration, she realized that everything didn’t have to be postponed. Why shouldn’t they go to Box Hill even though the Sucklings weren’t coming? They could go back with them in the fall. It was decided that they would go to Box Hill. The idea of such a gathering had been known for a while; it had even sparked the idea for another one. Emma had never been to Box Hill; she wanted to see what everyone found so worth seeing, and she and Mr. Weston had agreed to pick a nice morning to drive there. Only a few more of their chosen friends would be invited to join them, and it was to be done in a simple, understated, elegant way, far better than the noise and preparation, the routine eating and drinking, and the picnic fuss of the Eltons and the Sucklings.
This was so very well understood between them, that Emma could not but feel some surprise, and a little displeasure, on hearing from Mr. Weston that he had been proposing to Mrs. Elton, as her brother and sister had failed her, that the two parties should unite, and go together; and that as Mrs. Elton had very readily acceded to it, so it was to be, if she had no objection. Now, as her objection was nothing but her very great dislike of Mrs. Elton, of which Mr. Weston must already be perfectly aware, it was not worth bringing forward again:—it could not be done without a reproof to him, which would be giving pain to his wife; and she found herself therefore obliged to consent to an arrangement which she would have done a great deal to avoid; an arrangement which would probably expose her even to the degradation of being said to be of Mrs. Elton’s party! Every feeling was offended; and the forbearance of her outward submission left a heavy arrear due of secret severity in her reflections on the unmanageable goodwill of Mr. Weston’s temper.
This was so clearly understood between them that Emma couldn’t help but feel some surprise and a little annoyance when she heard from Mr. Weston that he had suggested to Mrs. Elton, since her brother and sister weren’t available, that the two groups should join forces and go together; and that since Mrs. Elton had agreed to it so readily, it was set to happen unless she had any objections. Now, since her objection was simply her strong dislike for Mrs. Elton, which Mr. Weston surely already knew, it seemed pointless to bring it up again: it would only result in a rebuke to him, which would upset his wife; so she felt obligated to accept an arrangement she would have done a lot to avoid; an arrangement that would likely lead to her being labeled as part of Mrs. Elton’s group! Every sentiment was offended, and her outward compliance masked a heavy burden of unexpressed criticism towards the inconvenient goodwill of Mr. Weston’s temperament.
“I am glad you approve of what I have done,” said he very comfortably. “But I thought you would. Such schemes as these are nothing without numbers. One cannot have too large a party. A large party secures its own amusement. And she is a good-natured woman after all. One could not leave her out.”
“I’m glad you like what I’ve done,” he said comfortably. “But I thought you would. Plans like this are nothing without a crowd. You can never have too many people. A big group creates its own fun. And she’s a good-natured woman, after all. You couldn’t leave her out.”
Emma denied none of it aloud, and agreed to none of it in private.
Emma didn't openly deny any of it, and she didn't agree to any of it in private either.
It was now the middle of June, and the weather fine; and Mrs. Elton was growing impatient to name the day, and settle with Mr. Weston as to pigeon-pies and cold lamb, when a lame carriage-horse threw every thing into sad uncertainty. It might be weeks, it might be only a few days, before the horse were useable; but no preparations could be ventured on, and it was all melancholy stagnation. Mrs. Elton’s resources were inadequate to such an attack.
It was now mid-June, and the weather was nice; Mrs. Elton was getting anxious to set the date and finalize the details with Mr. Weston regarding the pigeon pies and cold lamb, when a lame carriage horse threw everything into chaos. It could be weeks, or just a few days, before the horse would be usable again; so no preparations could be made, and everything was stuck in a sad standstill. Mrs. Elton didn’t have the resources to deal with such a setback.
“Is not this most vexatious, Knightley?” she cried.—“And such weather for exploring!—These delays and disappointments are quite odious. What are we to do?—The year will wear away at this rate, and nothing done. Before this time last year I assure you we had had a delightful exploring party from Maple Grove to Kings Weston.”
"Isn't this just so frustrating, Knightley?" she exclaimed. "And this weather is terrible for exploring! These delays and disappointments are so annoying. What are we supposed to do? At this rate, the year will pass us by and we'll have accomplished nothing. I promise you, by this time last year we had a wonderful exploring trip from Maple Grove to Kings Weston."
“You had better explore to Donwell,” replied Mr. Knightley. “That may be done without horses. Come, and eat my strawberries. They are ripening fast.”
“You should really check out Donwell,” Mr. Knightley said. “That can be done without horses. Come on, and eat my strawberries. They’re ripening quickly.”
If Mr. Knightley did not begin seriously, he was obliged to proceed so, for his proposal was caught at with delight; and the “Oh! I should like it of all things,” was not plainer in words than manner. Donwell was famous for its strawberry-beds, which seemed a plea for the invitation: but no plea was necessary; cabbage-beds would have been enough to tempt the lady, who only wanted to be going somewhere. She promised him again and again to come—much oftener than he doubted—and was extremely gratified by such a proof of intimacy, such a distinguishing compliment as she chose to consider it.
If Mr. Knightley didn’t start off serious, he had to be, because his proposal was met with enthusiasm; and the “Oh! I would love that more than anything” was just as clear in her expression as in her words. Donwell was well-known for its strawberry fields, which seemed like a good reason for the invitation: but no reason was needed; even a patch of cabbages would have been enough to entice her, since she was eager to go somewhere. She promised him repeatedly that she would come—much more often than he believed—and felt really pleased by such a sign of closeness, a special compliment that she chose to interpret it as.
“You may depend upon me,” said she. “I certainly will come. Name your day, and I will come. You will allow me to bring Jane Fairfax?”
“You can count on me,” she said. “I definitely will be there. Just tell me the day, and I’ll come. Will you let me bring Jane Fairfax?”
“I cannot name a day,” said he, “till I have spoken to some others whom I would wish to meet you.”
“I can’t pick a day,” he said, “until I’ve talked to a few other people I want you to meet.”
“Oh! leave all that to me. Only give me a carte-blanche.—I am Lady Patroness, you know. It is my party. I will bring friends with me.”
“Oh! Leave all that to me. Just give me a blank check—I'm the Lady Patroness, you know. It’s my party. I’ll bring my friends along.”
“I hope you will bring Elton,” said he: “but I will not trouble you to give any other invitations.”
“I hope you’ll bring Elton,” he said, “but I won’t ask you to send any other invitations.”
“Oh! now you are looking very sly. But consider—you need not be afraid of delegating power to me. I am no young lady on her preferment. Married women, you know, may be safely authorised. It is my party. Leave it all to me. I will invite your guests.”
“Oh! Now you're looking quite sneaky. But think about it—you don’t have to worry about giving power to me. I’m not some young woman trying to climb the social ladder. Married women, as you know, can be trusted to take charge. It’s my event. Just leave everything to me. I’ll handle the guest list.”
“No,”—he calmly replied,—“there is but one married woman in the world whom I can ever allow to invite what guests she pleases to Donwell, and that one is—”
“No,” he replied calmly, “there’s only one married woman in the world I would ever let invite whoever she wants to Donwell, and that woman is—”
“—Mrs. Weston, I suppose,” interrupted Mrs. Elton, rather mortified.
“—Mrs. Weston, I guess,” interrupted Mrs. Elton, a bit embarrassed.
“No—Mrs. Knightley;—and till she is in being, I will manage such matters myself.”
“No—Mrs. Knightley;—and until she is around, I will handle those things myself.”
“Ah! you are an odd creature!” she cried, satisfied to have no one preferred to herself.—“You are a humourist, and may say what you like. Quite a humourist. Well, I shall bring Jane with me—Jane and her aunt.—The rest I leave to you. I have no objections at all to meeting the Hartfield family. Don’t scruple. I know you are attached to them.”
“Ah! you’re such a strange person!” she exclaimed, pleased that no one was prioritized over her. “You’re a jokester, and you can say whatever you want. Definitely a jokester. Well, I’ll bring Jane with me—Jane and her aunt. The rest is up to you. I have no problem at all meeting the Hartfield family. Don’t hesitate. I know you care about them.”
“You certainly will meet them if I can prevail; and I shall call on Miss Bates in my way home.”
“You definitely will run into them if I have my way; and I’ll stop by Miss Bates’ on my way home.”
“That’s quite unnecessary; I see Jane every day:—but as you like. It is to be a morning scheme, you know, Knightley; quite a simple thing. I shall wear a large bonnet, and bring one of my little baskets hanging on my arm. Here,—probably this basket with pink ribbon. Nothing can be more simple, you see. And Jane will have such another. There is to be no form or parade—a sort of gipsy party. We are to walk about your gardens, and gather the strawberries ourselves, and sit under trees;—and whatever else you may like to provide, it is to be all out of doors—a table spread in the shade, you know. Every thing as natural and simple as possible. Is not that your idea?”
"That’s really unnecessary; I see Jane every day, but if that’s what you want. It’s going to be a morning plan, you know, Knightley; just something simple. I’ll wear a big bonnet and bring one of my little baskets hanging on my arm. Here—probably this basket with pink ribbon. It can’t be more straightforward, you see. And Jane will have one just like it. There will be no formalities or fuss—a kind of picnic. We’ll walk around your gardens, pick the strawberries ourselves, and sit under the trees; and whatever else you want to add, it will all be outside—a table set in the shade, you know. Everything as natural and simple as possible. Isn’t that your idea?"
“Not quite. My idea of the simple and the natural will be to have the table spread in the dining-room. The nature and the simplicity of gentlemen and ladies, with their servants and furniture, I think is best observed by meals within doors. When you are tired of eating strawberries in the garden, there shall be cold meat in the house.”
“Not really. My vision of simplicity and nature involves having the table set in the dining room. I believe the true essence of gentlemen and ladies, along with their servants and furnishings, is best seen during meals inside. When you're done eating strawberries in the garden, there will be cold meat available inside.”
“Well—as you please; only don’t have a great set out. And, by the bye, can I or my housekeeper be of any use to you with our opinion?—Pray be sincere, Knightley. If you wish me to talk to Mrs. Hodges, or to inspect anything—”
“Well—do what you want; just don’t make a big fuss. And by the way, can I or my housekeeper help you with our thoughts?—Please be honest, Knightley. If you want me to talk to Mrs. Hodges, or check anything—”
“I have not the least wish for it, I thank you.”
"I really don’t want it, thank you."
“Well—but if any difficulties should arise, my housekeeper is extremely clever.”
“Well—but if any difficulties come up, my housekeeper is really smart.”
“I will answer for it, that mine thinks herself full as clever, and would spurn any body’s assistance.”
"I can assure you that she believes she’s just as clever and would reject anyone’s help."
“I wish we had a donkey. The thing would be for us all to come on donkeys, Jane, Miss Bates, and me—and my caro sposo walking by. I really must talk to him about purchasing a donkey. In a country life I conceive it to be a sort of necessary; for, let a woman have ever so many resources, it is not possible for her to be always shut up at home;—and very long walks, you know—in summer there is dust, and in winter there is dirt.”
“I wish we had a donkey. The idea is for all of us to ride donkeys—Jane, Miss Bates, and me—while my dear husband walks alongside. I really need to talk to him about buying a donkey. In country living, I think it’s essential; because, no matter how many resources a woman has, she can’t always stay at home; and long walks can be tough, you know—there’s dust in summer and mud in winter.”
“You will not find either, between Donwell and Highbury. Donwell Lane is never dusty, and now it is perfectly dry. Come on a donkey, however, if you prefer it. You can borrow Mrs. Cole’s. I would wish every thing to be as much to your taste as possible.”
"You won't find either one between Donwell and Highbury. Donwell Lane is never dusty, and right now it’s completely dry. However, if you’d rather, you can come on a donkey. You can borrow Mrs. Cole’s. I want everything to be as much to your liking as possible."
“That I am sure you would. Indeed I do you justice, my good friend. Under that peculiar sort of dry, blunt manner, I know you have the warmest heart. As I tell Mr. E., you are a thorough humourist.—Yes, believe me, Knightley, I am fully sensible of your attention to me in the whole of this scheme. You have hit upon the very thing to please me.”
"Of course you would. I really do appreciate you, my good friend. Beneath that unique dry, straightforward style, I know you have a kind heart. As I mentioned to Mr. E., you truly have a sense of humor. Yes, trust me, Knightley, I really appreciate everything you've done for me in this whole plan. You've figured out exactly what would make me happy."
Mr. Knightley had another reason for avoiding a table in the shade. He wished to persuade Mr. Woodhouse, as well as Emma, to join the party; and he knew that to have any of them sitting down out of doors to eat would inevitably make him ill. Mr. Woodhouse must not, under the specious pretence of a morning drive, and an hour or two spent at Donwell, be tempted away to his misery.
Mr. Knightley had another reason for steering clear of a table in the shade. He wanted to convince Mr. Woodhouse, as well as Emma, to join the gathering; and he knew that having any of them sitting outside to eat would surely make him sick. Mr. Woodhouse must not, under the false pretense of a morning drive and a couple of hours spent at Donwell, be lured away to his unhappiness.
He was invited on good faith. No lurking horrors were to upbraid him for his easy credulity. He did consent. He had not been at Donwell for two years. “Some very fine morning, he, and Emma, and Harriet, could go very well; and he could sit still with Mrs. Weston, while the dear girls walked about the gardens. He did not suppose they could be damp now, in the middle of the day. He should like to see the old house again exceedingly, and should be very happy to meet Mr. and Mrs. Elton, and any other of his neighbours.—He could not see any objection at all to his, and Emma’s, and Harriet’s going there some very fine morning. He thought it very well done of Mr. Knightley to invite them—very kind and sensible—much cleverer than dining out.—He was not fond of dining out.”
He was invited in good faith. There were no hidden dangers to criticize him for being so trusting. He agreed. He hadn’t been to Donwell in two years. “On a nice morning, he, Emma, and Harriet could go together, and he could relax with Mrs. Weston while the girls explored the gardens. He didn’t think they could be damp now, in the middle of the day. He really wanted to see the old house again and would be very happy to meet Mr. and Mrs. Elton, along with any other neighbors. He couldn’t see any reason why he, Emma, and Harriet couldn’t go there on a nice morning. He thought it was very nice of Mr. Knightley to invite them—very kind and sensible—much better than going out to eat. He wasn’t a fan of dining out.”
Mr. Knightley was fortunate in every body’s most ready concurrence. The invitation was everywhere so well received, that it seemed as if, like Mrs. Elton, they were all taking the scheme as a particular compliment to themselves.—Emma and Harriet professed very high expectations of pleasure from it; and Mr. Weston, unasked, promised to get Frank over to join them, if possible; a proof of approbation and gratitude which could have been dispensed with.—Mr. Knightley was then obliged to say that he should be glad to see him; and Mr. Weston engaged to lose no time in writing, and spare no arguments to induce him to come.
Mr. Knightley was lucky that everyone was on board with the idea. The invitation was received so positively by everyone that it felt like, much like Mrs. Elton, they saw the plan as a personal compliment. Emma and Harriet expressed very high hopes for enjoyment from it, and Mr. Weston, without being asked, promised to try and get Frank to join them, which was a show of approval and gratitude that wasn't really necessary. Mr. Knightley then had to say that he would be happy to see him, and Mr. Weston committed to writing right away and using all his persuasion to get him to come.
In the meanwhile the lame horse recovered so fast, that the party to Box Hill was again under happy consideration; and at last Donwell was settled for one day, and Box Hill for the next,—the weather appearing exactly right.
In the meantime, the lame horse recovered so quickly that the trip to Box Hill was once again happily considered; and finally, Donwell was decided on for one day, and Box Hill for the next, as the weather seemed just perfect.
Under a bright mid-day sun, at almost Midsummer, Mr. Woodhouse was safely conveyed in his carriage, with one window down, to partake of this al-fresco party; and in one of the most comfortable rooms in the Abbey, especially prepared for him by a fire all the morning, he was happily placed, quite at his ease, ready to talk with pleasure of what had been achieved, and advise every body to come and sit down, and not to heat themselves.—Mrs. Weston, who seemed to have walked there on purpose to be tired, and sit all the time with him, remained, when all the others were invited or persuaded out, his patient listener and sympathiser.
Under a bright midday sun, just before Midsummer, Mr. Woodhouse was comfortably driven in his carriage, with one window open, to join the outdoor gathering. In one of the coziest rooms in the Abbey, which had been warmed up for him all morning, he was happily settled in, completely at ease, ready to enjoy discussing what had been accomplished and encouraging everyone to come in and sit down without getting too hot. Mrs. Weston, who seemed to have walked there just to feel tired and be with him, stayed as his patient listener and supporter when everyone else had been invited or convinced to go outside.
It was so long since Emma had been at the Abbey, that as soon as she was satisfied of her father’s comfort, she was glad to leave him, and look around her; eager to refresh and correct her memory with more particular observation, more exact understanding of a house and grounds which must ever be so interesting to her and all her family.
It had been a long time since Emma had been at the Abbey, so once she was sure her father was comfortable, she was happy to leave him and explore. She was eager to refresh and clarify her memory with more careful observation and a better understanding of a house and grounds that would always be so meaningful to her and her entire family.
She felt all the honest pride and complacency which her alliance with the present and future proprietor could fairly warrant, as she viewed the respectable size and style of the building, its suitable, becoming, characteristic situation, low and sheltered—its ample gardens stretching down to meadows washed by a stream, of which the Abbey, with all the old neglect of prospect, had scarcely a sight—and its abundance of timber in rows and avenues, which neither fashion nor extravagance had rooted up.—The house was larger than Hartfield, and totally unlike it, covering a good deal of ground, rambling and irregular, with many comfortable, and one or two handsome rooms.—It was just what it ought to be, and it looked what it was—and Emma felt an increasing respect for it, as the residence of a family of such true gentility, untainted in blood and understanding.—Some faults of temper John Knightley had; but Isabella had connected herself unexceptionably. She had given them neither men, nor names, nor places, that could raise a blush. These were pleasant feelings, and she walked about and indulged them till it was necessary to do as the others did, and collect round the strawberry-beds.—The whole party were assembled, excepting Frank Churchill, who was expected every moment from Richmond; and Mrs. Elton, in all her apparatus of happiness, her large bonnet and her basket, was very ready to lead the way in gathering, accepting, or talking—strawberries, and only strawberries, could now be thought or spoken of.—“The best fruit in England—every body’s favourite—always wholesome.—These the finest beds and finest sorts.—Delightful to gather for one’s self—the only way of really enjoying them.—Morning decidedly the best time—never tired—every sort good—hautboy infinitely superior—no comparison—the others hardly eatable—hautboys very scarce—Chili preferred—white wood finest flavour of all—price of strawberries in London—abundance about Bristol—Maple Grove—cultivation—beds when to be renewed—gardeners thinking exactly different—no general rule—gardeners never to be put out of their way—delicious fruit—only too rich to be eaten much of—inferior to cherries—currants more refreshing—only objection to gathering strawberries the stooping—glaring sun—tired to death—could bear it no longer—must go and sit in the shade.”
She felt all the genuine pride and satisfaction that her connection with the current and future owner could justifiably bring, as she admired the respectable size and style of the building, its fitting, appealing location—low and sheltered—with ample gardens leading down to meadows bordering a stream, which the Abbey, with all its old neglect of views, barely acknowledged—and its plentiful rows and avenues of trees, which neither trends nor extravagance had uprooted. The house was larger than Hartfield and completely different, covering a lot of ground, sprawling and irregular, with many cozy, and a few elegant rooms. It was exactly what it should be, and it looked like what it was—and Emma felt an increasing respect for it, as the home of a family of such genuine gentility, unblemished in lineage and understanding. John Knightley had some temper issues, but Isabella had connected herself flawlessly. She had brought neither men, nor names, nor places that could cause embarrassment. These were pleasant feelings, and she wandered around, enjoying them until it was time to join the others and gather around the strawberry beds. The whole group was there, except for Frank Churchill, who was expected any moment from Richmond; and Mrs. Elton, in all her cheerful gear, her large hat and basket, was more than ready to lead the way in collecting, discussing, or talking about strawberries—only strawberries could now be thought of or mentioned. “The best fruit in England—everyone’s favorite—always healthy. These are the finest beds and the best varieties. It's delightful to pick them yourself—the only way to truly enjoy them. Morning is definitely the best time—never gets tiring—every type is good—the hautboy is infinitely superior—no comparison—the others are hardly edible—hautboys are very rare—Chili is preferred—the white wood has the best flavor of all—the price of strawberries in London—plenty available around Bristol—Maple Grove—cultivation—when to renew the beds—gardener opinions vary completely—no universal rule—can't disrupt gardeners—the fruit is delicious—only too rich to eat much of—lesser than cherries—currants are more refreshing—the only downside to picking strawberries is the bending over—the glaring sun—tired to death—I can't take it any longer—I need to go sit in the shade.”
Such, for half an hour, was the conversation—interrupted only once by Mrs. Weston, who came out, in her solicitude after her son-in-law, to inquire if he were come—and she was a little uneasy.—She had some fears of his horse.
Such was the conversation for half an hour—interrupted only once by Mrs. Weston, who came out, concerned about her son-in-law, to ask if he had arrived—and she was a bit worried. She had some concerns about his horse.
Seats tolerably in the shade were found; and now Emma was obliged to overhear what Mrs. Elton and Jane Fairfax were talking of.—A situation, a most desirable situation, was in question. Mrs. Elton had received notice of it that morning, and was in raptures. It was not with Mrs. Suckling, it was not with Mrs. Bragge, but in felicity and splendour it fell short only of them: it was with a cousin of Mrs. Bragge, an acquaintance of Mrs. Suckling, a lady known at Maple Grove. Delightful, charming, superior, first circles, spheres, lines, ranks, every thing—and Mrs. Elton was wild to have the offer closed with immediately.—On her side, all was warmth, energy, and triumph—and she positively refused to take her friend’s negative, though Miss Fairfax continued to assure her that she would not at present engage in any thing, repeating the same motives which she had been heard to urge before.—Still Mrs. Elton insisted on being authorised to write an acquiescence by the morrow’s post.—How Jane could bear it at all, was astonishing to Emma.—She did look vexed, she did speak pointedly—and at last, with a decision of action unusual to her, proposed a removal.—“Should not they walk? Would not Mr. Knightley shew them the gardens—all the gardens?—She wished to see the whole extent.”—The pertinacity of her friend seemed more than she could bear.
Seats moderately in the shade were found, and now Emma had no choice but to overhear what Mrs. Elton and Jane Fairfax were discussing. A job, a very desirable job, was being talked about. Mrs. Elton had received news of it that morning and was overjoyed. It wasn’t with Mrs. Suckling, it wasn’t with Mrs. Bragge, but it was almost as good as them: it was with a cousin of Mrs. Bragge, someone Mrs. Suckling knew, a lady familiar at Maple Grove. Delightful, charming, exceptional, first-class—everything—and Mrs. Elton was eager to get the offer finalized right away. On her part, everything was warmth, energy, and triumph—and she absolutely refused to accept her friend’s no, even though Miss Fairfax continued to insist that she wouldn’t commit to anything at the moment, repeating the same reasons she had mentioned before. Still, Mrs. Elton insisted on being allowed to write a confirmation by tomorrow’s post. How Jane could stand it at all was astonishing to Emma. She did seem annoyed, she did speak pointedly—and finally, with a determination unusual for her, suggested they move. “Shouldn’t we walk? Wouldn’t Mr. Knightley show them the gardens—all the gardens?—I want to see everything.” The insistence of her friend seemed like more than she could take.
It was hot; and after walking some time over the gardens in a scattered, dispersed way, scarcely any three together, they insensibly followed one another to the delicious shade of a broad short avenue of limes, which stretching beyond the garden at an equal distance from the river, seemed the finish of the pleasure grounds.—It led to nothing; nothing but a view at the end over a low stone wall with high pillars, which seemed intended, in their erection, to give the appearance of an approach to the house, which never had been there. Disputable, however, as might be the taste of such a termination, it was in itself a charming walk, and the view which closed it extremely pretty.—The considerable slope, at nearly the foot of which the Abbey stood, gradually acquired a steeper form beyond its grounds; and at half a mile distant was a bank of considerable abruptness and grandeur, well clothed with wood;—and at the bottom of this bank, favourably placed and sheltered, rose the Abbey Mill Farm, with meadows in front, and the river making a close and handsome curve around it.
It was hot, and after wandering around the gardens in a scattered way, with hardly any three people together, they naturally followed each other to the lovely shade of a broad short avenue lined with lime trees. This path stretched beyond the garden at an equal distance from the river, appearing to mark the end of the pleasure grounds. It led to nothing—just a view at the end over a low stone wall with tall pillars that seemed meant to create the illusion of an approach to a house that was never there. While the taste of such an ending might be debatable, it was still a delightful walk, and the view at the end was very pretty. The significant slope where the Abbey stood gradually became steeper beyond its grounds, and half a mile away was a bank that rose sharply and majestically, well-covered in trees. At the bottom of this bank, conveniently placed and sheltered, stood the Abbey Mill Farm, with meadows in front and the river making a close and attractive curve around it.
It was a sweet view—sweet to the eye and the mind. English verdure, English culture, English comfort, seen under a sun bright, without being oppressive.
It was a beautiful view—lovely to see and think about. British greenery, British culture, British comfort, all enjoyed under a bright sun that wasn’t too harsh.
In this walk Emma and Mr. Weston found all the others assembled; and towards this view she immediately perceived Mr. Knightley and Harriet distinct from the rest, quietly leading the way. Mr. Knightley and Harriet!—It was an odd tête-à-tête; but she was glad to see it.—There had been a time when he would have scorned her as a companion, and turned from her with little ceremony. Now they seemed in pleasant conversation. There had been a time also when Emma would have been sorry to see Harriet in a spot so favourable for the Abbey Mill Farm; but now she feared it not. It might be safely viewed with all its appendages of prosperity and beauty, its rich pastures, spreading flocks, orchard in blossom, and light column of smoke ascending.—She joined them at the wall, and found them more engaged in talking than in looking around. He was giving Harriet information as to modes of agriculture, etc. and Emma received a smile which seemed to say, “These are my own concerns. I have a right to talk on such subjects, without being suspected of introducing Robert Martin.”—She did not suspect him. It was too old a story.—Robert Martin had probably ceased to think of Harriet.—They took a few turns together along the walk.—The shade was most refreshing, and Emma found it the pleasantest part of the day.
On this walk, Emma and Mr. Weston found everyone else gathered together; and right away she noticed Mr. Knightley and Harriet, separated from the rest, quietly leading the way. Mr. Knightley and Harriet!—It was a strange pairing, but she was happy to see it. Once, he would have looked down on her as a companion and turned away without a second thought. Now they seemed to be enjoying a nice conversation. There was also a time when Emma would have felt uncomfortable seeing Harriet in such a prime spot for the Abbey Mill Farm; but now she felt no worry. It could be admired without hesitation, with all its signs of prosperity and beauty: lush pastures, herds of sheep, an orchard in bloom, and a thin column of smoke rising into the sky. She joined them by the wall and found them more focused on their conversation than on their surroundings. He was sharing information with Harriet about farming methods, and Emma received a smile that seemed to say, “These are my interests. I have every right to discuss these topics without anyone thinking I'm bringing up Robert Martin.” She didn’t suspect him. It felt like an old story. Robert Martin had probably stopped thinking about Harriet. They walked a little while together along the path. The shade was very refreshing, and Emma found it to be the best part of the day.
The next remove was to the house; they must all go in and eat;—and they were all seated and busy, and still Frank Churchill did not come. Mrs. Weston looked, and looked in vain. His father would not own himself uneasy, and laughed at her fears; but she could not be cured of wishing that he would part with his black mare. He had expressed himself as to coming, with more than common certainty. “His aunt was so much better, that he had not a doubt of getting over to them.”—Mrs. Churchill’s state, however, as many were ready to remind her, was liable to such sudden variation as might disappoint her nephew in the most reasonable dependence—and Mrs. Weston was at last persuaded to believe, or to say, that it must be by some attack of Mrs. Churchill that he was prevented coming.—Emma looked at Harriet while the point was under consideration; she behaved very well, and betrayed no emotion.
The next move was to the house; they all needed to go in and eat;—and they were all seated and busy, and still Frank Churchill hadn’t arrived. Mrs. Weston kept looking but it was in vain. His father wouldn’t admit he was worried and laughed off her concerns; but she couldn’t shake the feeling that he should get rid of his black mare. He had mentioned coming with more than the usual confidence. “His aunt was feeling much better, so he had no doubt he could get over to see them.” —However, Mrs. Churchill’s condition, as many were quick to remind her, was subject to sudden changes that could disappoint her nephew’s reasonable expectations—and eventually, Mrs. Weston was convinced, or at least said, that it must be some issue with Mrs. Churchill that was keeping him from coming. —Emma glanced at Harriet while they debated this point; she acted very well and showed no signs of emotion.
The cold repast was over, and the party were to go out once more to see what had not yet been seen, the old Abbey fish-ponds; perhaps get as far as the clover, which was to be begun cutting on the morrow, or, at any rate, have the pleasure of being hot, and growing cool again.—Mr. Woodhouse, who had already taken his little round in the highest part of the gardens, where no damps from the river were imagined even by him, stirred no more; and his daughter resolved to remain with him, that Mrs. Weston might be persuaded away by her husband to the exercise and variety which her spirits seemed to need.
The cold meal was finished, and the group was set to head out again to explore what they hadn't seen yet, the old Abbey fish-ponds; maybe they would even make it as far as the clover, which was going to be cut the next day, or at least enjoy getting hot and then cooling off again. Mr. Woodhouse, who had already taken his short walk in the highest part of the gardens, where he thought no dampness from the river could reach him, didn't move anymore; and his daughter decided to stay with him so that Mrs. Weston could be convinced by her husband to join in the exercise and variety that seemed to lift her spirits.
Mr. Knightley had done all in his power for Mr. Woodhouse’s entertainment. Books of engravings, drawers of medals, cameos, corals, shells, and every other family collection within his cabinets, had been prepared for his old friend, to while away the morning; and the kindness had perfectly answered. Mr. Woodhouse had been exceedingly well amused. Mrs. Weston had been shewing them all to him, and now he would shew them all to Emma;—fortunate in having no other resemblance to a child, than in a total want of taste for what he saw, for he was slow, constant, and methodical.—Before this second looking over was begun, however, Emma walked into the hall for the sake of a few moments’ free observation of the entrance and ground-plot of the house—and was hardly there, when Jane Fairfax appeared, coming quickly in from the garden, and with a look of escape.—Little expecting to meet Miss Woodhouse so soon, there was a start at first; but Miss Woodhouse was the very person she was in quest of.
Mr. Knightley had done everything he could to entertain Mr. Woodhouse. He had set up books of engravings, drawers of medals, cameos, corals, shells, and every other family collection in his cabinets for his old friend to enjoy during the morning; and the effort had worked perfectly. Mr. Woodhouse had been extremely amused. Mrs. Weston had been showing everything to him, and now he was going to show it all to Emma;—happy that he had no other childlike traits besides completely lacking an appreciation for what he was seeing, as he was slow, steady, and methodical.—Before starting this second look, however, Emma went into the hall for a few moments of unobstructed observation of the entrance and layout of the house—and she had hardly arrived when Jane Fairfax appeared, quickly coming in from the garden with a look of having just escaped.—Little expecting to see Miss Woodhouse so soon, she was startled at first; but Miss Woodhouse was exactly the person she was looking for.
“Will you be so kind,” said she, “when I am missed, as to say that I am gone home?—I am going this moment.—My aunt is not aware how late it is, nor how long we have been absent—but I am sure we shall be wanted, and I am determined to go directly.—I have said nothing about it to any body. It would only be giving trouble and distress. Some are gone to the ponds, and some to the lime walk. Till they all come in I shall not be missed; and when they do, will you have the goodness to say that I am gone?”
“Could you do me a favor,” she said, “when I’m noticed missing, and just say that I’ve gone home?—I’m leaving right now.—My aunt doesn't realize how late it is or how long we've been gone—but I’m sure we’ll be needed, and I’m determined to head back immediately.—I haven’t mentioned it to anyone. It would just cause unnecessary worry and stress. Some people have gone to the ponds, and some to the lime walk. Until they all come back, I won’t be missed; and when they do, could you please let them know that I’ve left?”
“Certainly, if you wish it;—but you are not going to walk to Highbury alone?”
"Of course, if that's what you want; but you’re not planning to walk to Highbury by yourself, are you?"
“Yes—what should hurt me?—I walk fast. I shall be at home in twenty minutes.”
“Yes—what could hurt me?—I walk quickly. I’ll be home in twenty minutes.”
“But it is too far, indeed it is, to be walking quite alone. Let my father’s servant go with you.—Let me order the carriage. It can be round in five minutes.”
“But it’s just too far to walk by yourself. Let my dad’s servant go with you.—I’ll call for the carriage. It can be here in five minutes.”
“Thank you, thank you—but on no account.—I would rather walk.—And for me to be afraid of walking alone!—I, who may so soon have to guard others!”
“Thanks, thanks—but absolutely not. I’d prefer to walk. And for *me* to be scared of walking alone!—I, who might soon have to protect others!”
She spoke with great agitation; and Emma very feelingly replied, “That can be no reason for your being exposed to danger now. I must order the carriage. The heat even would be danger.—You are fatigued already.”
She spoke with a lot of anxiety, and Emma responded with sincere concern, “That’s no reason for you to be in danger now. I have to call for the carriage. The heat itself is dangerous. You’re already tired.”
“I am,”—she answered—“I am fatigued; but it is not the sort of fatigue—quick walking will refresh me.—Miss Woodhouse, we all know at times what it is to be wearied in spirits. Mine, I confess, are exhausted. The greatest kindness you can shew me, will be to let me have my own way, and only say that I am gone when it is necessary.”
“I am,” she replied, “I am tired; but it’s not the kind of tired that quick walking won’t fix. Miss Woodhouse, we all know what it’s like to feel worn out emotionally. I admit, I’m drained. The greatest kindness you can show me is to let me do things my way and only mention that I’ve left when it’s necessary.”
Emma had not another word to oppose. She saw it all; and entering into her feelings, promoted her quitting the house immediately, and watched her safely off with the zeal of a friend. Her parting look was grateful—and her parting words, “Oh! Miss Woodhouse, the comfort of being sometimes alone!”—seemed to burst from an overcharged heart, and to describe somewhat of the continual endurance to be practised by her, even towards some of those who loved her best.
Emma had no more words to argue. She understood everything; and empathizing with her feelings, encouraged her to leave the house right away, watching her depart with the enthusiasm of a friend. Her farewell glance was filled with gratitude—and her last words, “Oh! Miss Woodhouse, the comfort of being alone sometimes!”—seemed to come from a heart that was overflowing, capturing some of the ongoing endurance she had to maintain, even toward those who cared for her the most.
“Such a home, indeed! such an aunt!” said Emma, as she turned back into the hall again. “I do pity you. And the more sensibility you betray of their just horrors, the more I shall like you.”
“Such a home, really! Such an aunt!” said Emma as she walked back into the hall again. “I truly feel for you. And the more you show how awful they are, the more I’m going to like you.”
Jane had not been gone a quarter of an hour, and they had only accomplished some views of St. Mark’s Place, Venice, when Frank Churchill entered the room. Emma had not been thinking of him, she had forgotten to think of him—but she was very glad to see him. Mrs. Weston would be at ease. The black mare was blameless; they were right who had named Mrs. Churchill as the cause. He had been detained by a temporary increase of illness in her; a nervous seizure, which had lasted some hours—and he had quite given up every thought of coming, till very late;—and had he known how hot a ride he should have, and how late, with all his hurry, he must be, he believed he should not have come at all. The heat was excessive; he had never suffered any thing like it—almost wished he had staid at home—nothing killed him like heat—he could bear any degree of cold, etc., but heat was intolerable—and he sat down, at the greatest possible distance from the slight remains of Mr. Woodhouse’s fire, looking very deplorable.
Jane had been gone for only about fifteen minutes, and they had only managed to see a few views of St. Mark’s Place in Venice when Frank Churchill walked into the room. Emma hadn’t been thinking about him; she had completely forgotten about him—but she was really happy to see him. Mrs. Weston would feel relieved. The black mare was innocent; those who had blamed Mrs. Churchill for the delay were right. He had been held up by a temporary worsening of her illness; a nervous episode that lasted several hours—and he had completely given up on the idea of coming until very late;—and if he had known how hot the ride would be and how late he’d arrive despite his rush, he believed he wouldn’t have come at all. The heat was unbearable; he hadn’t experienced anything like it—he almost wished he had stayed home—nothing affected him like the heat—he could handle any amount of cold, but heat was unbearable—and he sat down at the farthest possible distance from the dwindling remnants of Mr. Woodhouse’s fire, looking very miserable.
“You will soon be cooler, if you sit still,” said Emma.
"You'll be cooler soon if you just stay still," Emma said.
“As soon as I am cooler I shall go back again. I could very ill be spared—but such a point had been made of my coming! You will all be going soon I suppose; the whole party breaking up. I met one as I came—Madness in such weather!—absolute madness!”
“As soon as I cool down, I’ll head back again. It would be really hard for me to be missed—but it was emphasized that I should come! I guess you all will be leaving soon; the whole group is breaking up. I ran into one on my way here—madness in this weather!—complete madness!”
Emma listened, and looked, and soon perceived that Frank Churchill’s state might be best defined by the expressive phrase of being out of humour. Some people were always cross when they were hot. Such might be his constitution; and as she knew that eating and drinking were often the cure of such incidental complaints, she recommended his taking some refreshment; he would find abundance of every thing in the dining-room—and she humanely pointed out the door.
Emma listened and observed, soon realizing that Frank Churchill was best described as being in a bad mood. Some people were just irritable when it was warm out. That could be his case, and since she knew that eating and drinking often helped with such temporary issues, she suggested he grab a snack; he would find plenty of everything in the dining room—and she kindly indicated the door.
“No—he should not eat. He was not hungry; it would only make him hotter.” In two minutes, however, he relented in his own favour; and muttering something about spruce-beer, walked off. Emma returned all her attention to her father, saying in secret—
“No—he shouldn’t eat. He wasn’t hungry; it would only make him hotter.” In two minutes, though, he gave in to himself; and mumbling something about spruce beer, he walked away. Emma turned all her focus back to her father, saying silently—
“I am glad I have done being in love with him. I should not like a man who is so soon discomposed by a hot morning. Harriet’s sweet easy temper will not mind it.”
“I’m glad I'm done being in love with him. I wouldn’t want a man who gets so unsettled by a hot morning. Harriet’s sweet, easygoing nature won’t be bothered by it.”
He was gone long enough to have had a very comfortable meal, and came back all the better—grown quite cool—and, with good manners, like himself—able to draw a chair close to them, take an interest in their employment; and regret, in a reasonable way, that he should be so late. He was not in his best spirits, but seemed trying to improve them; and, at last, made himself talk nonsense very agreeably. They were looking over views in Swisserland.
He was gone long enough to have had a really nice meal and came back feeling refreshed—looking pretty relaxed and, with his usual good manners—able to pull up a chair next to them, show interest in what they were doing, and reasonably express regret for being late. He wasn’t in the best mood, but was clearly trying to lift his spirits; eventually, he made himself chat about silly things in a charming way. They were looking at pictures of Switzerland.
“As soon as my aunt gets well, I shall go abroad,” said he. “I shall never be easy till I have seen some of these places. You will have my sketches, some time or other, to look at—or my tour to read—or my poem. I shall do something to expose myself.”
“As soon as my aunt gets better, I’ll go abroad,” he said. “I won’t be at ease until I’ve seen some of these places. You’ll get to see my sketches, eventually—or read about my travels—or my poem. I’ll do something to put myself out there.”
“That may be—but not by sketches in Swisserland. You will never go to Swisserland. Your uncle and aunt will never allow you to leave England.”
“That may be true—but not through drawings in Switzerland. You’re never going to Switzerland. Your uncle and aunt will never let you leave England.”
“They may be induced to go too. A warm climate may be prescribed for her. I have more than half an expectation of our all going abroad. I assure you I have. I feel a strong persuasion, this morning, that I shall soon be abroad. I ought to travel. I am tired of doing nothing. I want a change. I am serious, Miss Woodhouse, whatever your penetrating eyes may fancy—I am sick of England—and would leave it to-morrow, if I could.”
“They might be persuaded to go too. A warm climate could be recommended for her. I honestly expect that we might all go abroad. I really do. This morning, I have a strong feeling that I'll be traveling soon. I need to go somewhere. I'm tired of just sitting around. I want a change. I'm serious, Miss Woodhouse, no matter what your keen eyes might think—I’m fed up with England—and I'd leave tomorrow if I could.”
“You are sick of prosperity and indulgence. Cannot you invent a few hardships for yourself, and be contented to stay?”
“You're tired of comfort and luxury. Can't you come up with some challenges for yourself and be okay with staying?”
“I sick of prosperity and indulgence! You are quite mistaken. I do not look upon myself as either prosperous or indulged. I am thwarted in every thing material. I do not consider myself at all a fortunate person.”
I am tired of wealth and self-indulgence! You’re mistaken. I don’t see myself as either wealthy or indulged. I feel blocked in everything material. I definitely don’t consider myself a lucky person.
“You are not quite so miserable, though, as when you first came. Go and eat and drink a little more, and you will do very well. Another slice of cold meat, another draught of Madeira and water, will make you nearly on a par with the rest of us.”
“You're not as miserable now as you were when you first arrived. Go ahead and eat and drink a bit more, and you'll be just fine. Another slice of cold meat and another glass of Madeira and water will nearly bring you up to the same level as the rest of us.”
“No—I shall not stir. I shall sit by you. You are my best cure.”
“No—I’m not going anywhere. I’m going to sit right here with you. You’re my greatest comfort.”
“We are going to Box Hill to-morrow;—you will join us. It is not Swisserland, but it will be something for a young man so much in want of a change. You will stay, and go with us?”
“We're going to Box Hill tomorrow; you should come with us. It’s not Switzerland, but it’ll be a nice change for a young man who really needs one. You’ll stay and go with us, right?”
“No, certainly not; I shall go home in the cool of the evening.”
“No, definitely not; I’ll head home in the cool of the evening.”
“But you may come again in the cool of to-morrow morning.”
“But you can come back tomorrow morning when it's cooler.”
“No—It will not be worth while. If I come, I shall be cross.”
“No—It won't be worth it. If I come, I'll just be upset.”
“Then pray stay at Richmond.”
"Then please stay at Richmond."
“But if I do, I shall be crosser still. I can never bear to think of you all there without me.”
“But if I do, I'll be even grumpier. I just can't stand the thought of you all being there without me.”
“These are difficulties which you must settle for yourself. Chuse your own degree of crossness. I shall press you no more.”
“These are challenges you need to resolve on your own. Choose your own level of annoyance. I won't pressure you any further.”
The rest of the party were now returning, and all were soon collected. With some there was great joy at the sight of Frank Churchill; others took it very composedly; but there was a very general distress and disturbance on Miss Fairfax’s disappearance being explained. That it was time for every body to go, concluded the subject; and with a short final arrangement for the next day’s scheme, they parted. Frank Churchill’s little inclination to exclude himself increased so much, that his last words to Emma were,
The rest of the group was now heading back, and they all gathered quickly. Some were really happy to see Frank Churchill; others were pretty calm about it. However, there was a lot of concern and unrest when they discussed Miss Fairfax’s disappearance. Once it was clear that it was time for everyone to leave, that wrapped up the conversation. After making a quick plan for the next day, they said their goodbyes. Frank Churchill’s slight tendency to distance himself grew so much that his last words to Emma were,
“Well;—if you wish me to stay and join the party, I will.”
“Well;—if you want me to stay and join the group, I will.”
She smiled her acceptance; and nothing less than a summons from Richmond was to take him back before the following evening.
She smiled in agreement; and nothing short of a call from Richmond would get him to leave before the next evening.
CHAPTER VII
They had a very fine day for Box Hill; and all the other outward circumstances of arrangement, accommodation, and punctuality, were in favour of a pleasant party. Mr. Weston directed the whole, officiating safely between Hartfield and the Vicarage, and every body was in good time. Emma and Harriet went together; Miss Bates and her niece, with the Eltons; the gentlemen on horseback. Mrs. Weston remained with Mr. Woodhouse. Nothing was wanting but to be happy when they got there. Seven miles were travelled in expectation of enjoyment, and every body had a burst of admiration on first arriving; but in the general amount of the day there was deficiency. There was a languor, a want of spirits, a want of union, which could not be got over. They separated too much into parties. The Eltons walked together; Mr. Knightley took charge of Miss Bates and Jane; and Emma and Harriet belonged to Frank Churchill. And Mr. Weston tried, in vain, to make them harmonise better. It seemed at first an accidental division, but it never materially varied. Mr. and Mrs. Elton, indeed, shewed no unwillingness to mix, and be as agreeable as they could; but during the two whole hours that were spent on the hill, there seemed a principle of separation, between the other parties, too strong for any fine prospects, or any cold collation, or any cheerful Mr. Weston, to remove.
They had a great day planned for Box Hill, and all the logistics—arrangements, accommodations, and timing—were set for a fun outing. Mr. Weston oversaw everything, managing the route between Hartfield and the Vicarage, and everyone arrived on time. Emma and Harriet went together; Miss Bates and her niece were with the Eltons; the gentlemen rode on horseback. Mrs. Weston stayed with Mr. Woodhouse. They only needed to enjoy themselves once they arrived. They traveled seven miles with high hopes for fun, and everyone was impressed when they first got there; but overall, the day fell short. There was a dullness, a lack of energy, a lack of togetherness that couldn’t be overcome. They split off into different groups too much. The Eltons walked together; Mr. Knightley took care of Miss Bates and Jane; and Emma and Harriet were with Frank Churchill. Mr. Weston tried, but couldn’t get them to blend together better. It seemed like an accidental division at first, but it didn’t really change. Mr. and Mrs. Elton showed no hesitation to mingle and be as pleasant as possible; yet during the two hours spent on the hill, there was a strong principle of separation among the other groups that no beautiful scenery, cold snacks, or cheerful Mr. Weston could break.
At first it was downright dulness to Emma. She had never seen Frank Churchill so silent and stupid. He said nothing worth hearing—looked without seeing—admired without intelligence—listened without knowing what she said. While he was so dull, it was no wonder that Harriet should be dull likewise; and they were both insufferable.
At first, Emma found it completely boring. She had never seen Frank Churchill so quiet and clueless. He didn't say anything worth listening to—looked around without actually seeing—admired things without understanding—and listened without grasping what she was saying. Since he was so dull, it was no surprise that Harriet was dull too, and they were both unbearable.
When they all sat down it was better; to her taste a great deal better, for Frank Churchill grew talkative and gay, making her his first object. Every distinguishing attention that could be paid, was paid to her. To amuse her, and be agreeable in her eyes, seemed all that he cared for—and Emma, glad to be enlivened, not sorry to be flattered, was gay and easy too, and gave him all the friendly encouragement, the admission to be gallant, which she had ever given in the first and most animating period of their acquaintance; but which now, in her own estimation, meant nothing, though in the judgment of most people looking on it must have had such an appearance as no English word but flirtation could very well describe. “Mr. Frank Churchill and Miss Woodhouse flirted together excessively.” They were laying themselves open to that very phrase—and to having it sent off in a letter to Maple Grove by one lady, to Ireland by another. Not that Emma was gay and thoughtless from any real felicity; it was rather because she felt less happy than she had expected. She laughed because she was disappointed; and though she liked him for his attentions, and thought them all, whether in friendship, admiration, or playfulness, extremely judicious, they were not winning back her heart. She still intended him for her friend.
When they all sat down, it felt much better to her; in fact, it was a lot better, because Frank Churchill became chatty and cheerful, making her his main focus. He paid her every kind of special attention he could. It seemed like all he cared about was entertaining her and being likable in her eyes—and Emma, happy to be energized and flattered, also felt cheerful and relaxed. She gave him all the friendly encouragement and opportunity for gallantry that she had ever shown during the most exciting phase of their friendship; but now, in her own mind, it didn’t mean anything, although to most onlookers, it must have seemed like something that no English word could describe better than flirtation. “Mr. Frank Churchill and Miss Woodhouse were flirting excessively.” They were exposing themselves to that very label—and it could easily end up in a letter sent to Maple Grove by one lady, or to Ireland by another. Not that Emma was cheerful and carefree out of genuine happiness; it was more that she felt less happy than she had hoped. She laughed because she was disappointed; and while she appreciated his attentions and thought they were always very smart, whether in friendship, admiration, or teasing, they weren’t restoring her affections. She still meant to keep him as her friend.
“How much I am obliged to you,” said he, “for telling me to come to-day!—If it had not been for you, I should certainly have lost all the happiness of this party. I had quite determined to go away again.”
“How grateful I am to you,” he said, “for insisting that I come today! If it weren’t for you, I definitely would have missed all the joy of this gathering. I had seriously planned to leave again.”
“Yes, you were very cross; and I do not know what about, except that you were too late for the best strawberries. I was a kinder friend than you deserved. But you were humble. You begged hard to be commanded to come.”
“Yes, you were really upset; and I’m not sure why, except that you missed out on the best strawberries. I was a better friend than you deserved. But you were humble. You pleaded a lot to be asked to come.”
“Don’t say I was cross. I was fatigued. The heat overcame me.”
“Don’t say I was angry. I was worn out. The heat got to me.”
“It is hotter to-day.”
“It’s hotter today.”
“Not to my feelings. I am perfectly comfortable to-day.”
“Not at all. I’m completely comfortable today.”
“You are comfortable because you are under command.”
"You feel at ease because you're following orders."
“Your command?—Yes.”
"Your command?—Yes."
“Perhaps I intended you to say so, but I meant self-command. You had, somehow or other, broken bounds yesterday, and run away from your own management; but to-day you are got back again—and as I cannot be always with you, it is best to believe your temper under your own command rather than mine.”
“Maybe I wanted you to say that, but I meant self-control. You had somehow broken free yesterday and taken off from managing yourself; but today you’re back—and since I can’t always be with you, it’s better to trust that you can manage your temper on your own rather than rely on me.”
“It comes to the same thing. I can have no self-command without a motive. You order me, whether you speak or not. And you can be always with me. You are always with me.”
“It’s all the same. I can’t keep control without a reason. You command me, whether you say anything or not. And you can always be with me. You are always with me.”
“Dating from three o’clock yesterday. My perpetual influence could not begin earlier, or you would not have been so much out of humour before.”
“Starting from three o’clock yesterday. My constant influence couldn't have begun any earlier, or you wouldn't have been in such a bad mood before.”
“Three o’clock yesterday! That is your date. I thought I had seen you first in February.”
“Three o’clock yesterday! That’s your date. I thought I had seen you for the first time in February.”
“Your gallantry is really unanswerable. But (lowering her voice)—nobody speaks except ourselves, and it is rather too much to be talking nonsense for the entertainment of seven silent people.”
“Your bravery is truly undeniable. But (lowering her voice)—nobody speaks except us, and it’s a bit too much to be chatting nonsense for the amusement of seven quiet people.”
“I say nothing of which I am ashamed,” replied he, with lively impudence. “I saw you first in February. Let every body on the Hill hear me if they can. Let my accents swell to Mickleham on one side, and Dorking on the other. I saw you first in February.” And then whispering—“Our companions are excessively stupid. What shall we do to rouse them? Any nonsense will serve. They shall talk. Ladies and gentlemen, I am ordered by Miss Woodhouse (who, wherever she is, presides) to say, that she desires to know what you are all thinking of?”
“I have nothing to be ashamed of,” he replied cheekily. “I saw you first in February. Let everyone on the Hill hear me if they can. Let my voice carry to Mickleham on one side and Dorking on the other. I saw you first in February.” Then, whispering, “Our friends are being really boring. What can we do to wake them up? Any nonsense will do. Ladies and gentlemen, I’ve been instructed by Miss Woodhouse (who, no matter where she is, is in charge) to ask what you’re all thinking about?”
Some laughed, and answered good-humouredly. Miss Bates said a great deal; Mrs. Elton swelled at the idea of Miss Woodhouse’s presiding; Mr. Knightley’s answer was the most distinct.
Some laughed and responded in a friendly way. Miss Bates talked a lot; Mrs. Elton puffed up at the thought of Miss Woodhouse being in charge; Mr. Knightley’s response was the clearest.
“Is Miss Woodhouse sure that she would like to hear what we are all thinking of?”
“Is Miss Woodhouse sure she wants to hear what we all think?”
“Oh! no, no”—cried Emma, laughing as carelessly as she could—“Upon no account in the world. It is the very last thing I would stand the brunt of just now. Let me hear any thing rather than what you are all thinking of. I will not say quite all. There are one or two, perhaps, (glancing at Mr. Weston and Harriet,) whose thoughts I might not be afraid of knowing.”
“Oh! no, no,” Emma exclaimed, laughing as casually as she could. “There’s no way in the world I would deal with that right now. Let me hear anything other than what you’re all thinking. I won’t say it’s everyone. There are maybe one or two, perhaps,” she said, glancing at Mr. Weston and Harriet, “whose thoughts I wouldn’t mind knowing.”
“It is a sort of thing,” cried Mrs. Elton emphatically, “which I should not have thought myself privileged to inquire into. Though, perhaps, as the Chaperon of the party—I never was in any circle—exploring parties—young ladies—married women—”
“It’s just not something,” Mrs. Elton exclaimed emphatically, “that I would have felt entitled to ask about. Although, maybe, as the chaperone of the group—I've never been in any social circle—exploring parties—young ladies—married women—”
Her mutterings were chiefly to her husband; and he murmured, in reply,
Her mumblings were mostly directed at her husband, and he responded with a soft murmur.
“Very true, my love, very true. Exactly so, indeed—quite unheard of—but some ladies say any thing. Better pass it off as a joke. Every body knows what is due to you.”
“Very true, my love, very true. Exactly—it's quite unbelievable, but some women will say anything. It's better to just treat it as a joke. Everyone knows what you deserve.”
“It will not do,” whispered Frank to Emma; “they are most of them affronted. I will attack them with more address. Ladies and gentlemen—I am ordered by Miss Woodhouse to say, that she waives her right of knowing exactly what you may all be thinking of, and only requires something very entertaining from each of you, in a general way. Here are seven of you, besides myself, (who, she is pleased to say, am very entertaining already,) and she only demands from each of you either one thing very clever, be it prose or verse, original or repeated—or two things moderately clever—or three things very dull indeed, and she engages to laugh heartily at them all.”
“It won’t work,” Frank whispered to Emma; “most of them are offended. I’ll approach this differently. Ladies and gentlemen—I’ve been asked by Miss Woodhouse to say that she’s letting go of her right to know exactly what you all might be thinking and just wants something entertaining from each of you, in a general sense. There are seven of you here, not counting myself, (who, she kindly says, is already quite entertaining,) and she only requires from each of you either one very clever thing, be it prose or poetry, original or repeated—or two moderately clever things—or three things that are really dull, and she promises to laugh heartily at all of them.”
“Oh! very well,” exclaimed Miss Bates, “then I need not be uneasy. ‘Three things very dull indeed.’ That will just do for me, you know. I shall be sure to say three dull things as soon as ever I open my mouth, shan’t I? (looking round with the most good-humoured dependence on every body’s assent)—Do not you all think I shall?”
“Oh! very well,” said Miss Bates, “then I don’t need to worry. ‘Three things very dull indeed.’ That will work perfectly for me, you know. I’ll definitely say three dull things as soon as I open my mouth, right? (looking around with the most cheerful expectation of everyone agreeing)—Don’t you all think I will?”
Emma could not resist.
Emma couldn't resist.
“Ah! ma’am, but there may be a difficulty. Pardon me—but you will be limited as to number—only three at once.”
“Ah! Ma’am, there might be a problem. Excuse me—but you’ll be limited to three at a time.”
Miss Bates, deceived by the mock ceremony of her manner, did not immediately catch her meaning; but, when it burst on her, it could not anger, though a slight blush shewed that it could pain her.
Miss Bates, misled by the fake formality of her behavior, didn’t immediately understand what she meant; but when it hit her, it couldn’t make her angry, though a slight blush showed that it did hurt her.
“Ah!—well—to be sure. Yes, I see what she means, (turning to Mr. Knightley,) and I will try to hold my tongue. I must make myself very disagreeable, or she would not have said such a thing to an old friend.”
“Ah!—well—to be sure. Yes, I see what she means, (turning to Mr. Knightley,) and I’ll try to keep quiet. I must be really unpleasant, or she wouldn’t have said something like that to an old friend.”
“I like your plan,” cried Mr. Weston. “Agreed, agreed. I will do my best. I am making a conundrum. How will a conundrum reckon?”
“I like your plan,” shouted Mr. Weston. “Agreed, agreed. I will do my best. I’m creating a riddle. How will a riddle add up?”
“Low, I am afraid, sir, very low,” answered his son;—“but we shall be indulgent—especially to any one who leads the way.”
“I'm afraid I'm feeling pretty low, sir,” his son replied; “but we should be understanding—especially toward anyone who shows us the way.”
“No, no,” said Emma, “it will not reckon low. A conundrum of Mr. Weston’s shall clear him and his next neighbour. Come, sir, pray let me hear it.”
“No, no,” said Emma, “it won’t be a low score. A riddle from Mr. Weston will clear him and his neighbor. Come on, sir, please let me hear it.”
“I doubt its being very clever myself,” said Mr. Weston. “It is too much a matter of fact, but here it is.—What two letters of the alphabet are there, that express perfection?”
“I doubt it's very clever myself,” said Mr. Weston. “It's too much a matter of fact, but here it is.—What two letters of the alphabet represent perfection?”
“What two letters!—express perfection! I am sure I do not know.”
“What two letters!—express perfection! I really have no idea.”
“Ah! you will never guess. You, (to Emma), I am certain, will never guess.—I will tell you.—M. and A.—Em-ma.—Do you understand?”
“Ah! you'll never guess. You, (to Emma), I'm sure you won't guess.—I'll tell you.—M. and A.—Em-ma.—Do you get it?”
Understanding and gratification came together. It might be a very indifferent piece of wit, but Emma found a great deal to laugh at and enjoy in it—and so did Frank and Harriet.—It did not seem to touch the rest of the party equally; some looked very stupid about it, and Mr. Knightley gravely said,
Understanding and pleasure merged. It might have been a pretty indifferent joke, but Emma found a lot to laugh at and enjoy in it—and so did Frank and Harriet. It didn’t seem to resonate with the rest of the group equally; some looked quite baffled by it, and Mr. Knightley seriously said,
“This explains the sort of clever thing that is wanted, and Mr. Weston has done very well for himself; but he must have knocked up every body else. Perfection should not have come quite so soon.”
“This explains the kind of clever thing that's needed, and Mr. Weston has really succeeded; but he must have exhausted everyone else. Perfection shouldn't have arrived quite so quickly.”
“Oh! for myself, I protest I must be excused,” said Mrs. Elton; “I really cannot attempt—I am not at all fond of the sort of thing. I had an acrostic once sent to me upon my own name, which I was not at all pleased with. I knew who it came from. An abominable puppy!—You know who I mean (nodding to her husband). These kind of things are very well at Christmas, when one is sitting round the fire; but quite out of place, in my opinion, when one is exploring about the country in summer. Miss Woodhouse must excuse me. I am not one of those who have witty things at every body’s service. I do not pretend to be a wit. I have a great deal of vivacity in my own way, but I really must be allowed to judge when to speak and when to hold my tongue. Pass us, if you please, Mr. Churchill. Pass Mr. E., Knightley, Jane, and myself. We have nothing clever to say—not one of us.
“Oh! As for me, I really must be excused,” said Mrs. Elton; “I really can’t attempt it—I’m not at all fond of that sort of thing. I once got an acrostic made with my name, and I wasn’t happy about it at all. I knew who sent it. An awful jerk!—You know who I mean,” she nodded to her husband. “These types of things are nice at Christmas, when you’re sitting around the fire; but I think they’re totally out of place when you’re out exploring the countryside in summer. Miss Woodhouse must excuse me. I’m not one of those people who have witty remarks ready for everyone. I don’t pretend to be clever. I have a lot of liveliness in my own way, but I really must be allowed to decide when to speak and when to stay silent. Please pass us, Mr. Churchill. Pass Mr. E., Knightley, Jane, and me. We have nothing clever to say—not a single one of us.
“Yes, yes, pray pass me,” added her husband, with a sort of sneering consciousness; “I have nothing to say that can entertain Miss Woodhouse, or any other young lady. An old married man—quite good for nothing. Shall we walk, Augusta?”
“Yes, yes, please go ahead me,” her husband added with a somewhat mocking awareness; “I don’t have anything interesting to say that would entertain Miss Woodhouse or any other young lady. Just an old married man—totally useless. Shall we go for a walk, Augusta?”
“With all my heart. I am really tired of exploring so long on one spot. Come, Jane, take my other arm.”
“With all my heart. I'm really tired of staying in one place for so long. Come on, Jane, take my other arm.”
Jane declined it, however, and the husband and wife walked off. “Happy couple!” said Frank Churchill, as soon as they were out of hearing:—“How well they suit one another!—Very lucky—marrying as they did, upon an acquaintance formed only in a public place!—They only knew each other, I think, a few weeks in Bath! Peculiarly lucky!—for as to any real knowledge of a person’s disposition that Bath, or any public place, can give—it is all nothing; there can be no knowledge. It is only by seeing women in their own homes, among their own set, just as they always are, that you can form any just judgment. Short of that, it is all guess and luck—and will generally be ill-luck. How many a man has committed himself on a short acquaintance, and rued it all the rest of his life!”
Jane turned it down, though, and the husband and wife walked away. “Happy couple!” Frank Churchill said as soon as they were out of earshot. “They really complement each other! So lucky—getting married after only getting to know each other in a public place! I think they only knew each other for a few weeks in Bath! It’s especially lucky! Because any real understanding of someone’s character that Bath, or any public setting, can provide is basically nothing; you can’t truly know someone. You only get a real judgment by seeing women in their own homes, with their own group, just as they usually are. Without that, it’s all just guessing and chance—and it usually ends up being bad luck. How many men have jumped in after just a short acquaintance and regretted it for the rest of their lives!”
Miss Fairfax, who had seldom spoken before, except among her own confederates, spoke now.
Miss Fairfax, who had rarely spoken before, except among her own group, spoke now.
“Such things do occur, undoubtedly.”—She was stopped by a cough. Frank Churchill turned towards her to listen.
“Such things do happen, for sure.” —She was interrupted by a cough. Frank Churchill turned to her to listen.
“You were speaking,” said he, gravely. She recovered her voice.
“You were talking,” he said seriously. She regained her voice.
“I was only going to observe, that though such unfortunate circumstances do sometimes occur both to men and women, I cannot imagine them to be very frequent. A hasty and imprudent attachment may arise—but there is generally time to recover from it afterwards. I would be understood to mean, that it can be only weak, irresolute characters, (whose happiness must be always at the mercy of chance,) who will suffer an unfortunate acquaintance to be an inconvenience, an oppression for ever.”
“I was only going to point out that while such unfortunate situations can happen to both men and women, I can't imagine they happen very often. A quick and reckless attachment can form, but there’s usually time to get over it later. I mean to say that only weak, indecisive people—whose happiness is always at the mercy of chance—will let a bad relationship be a constant source of trouble and stress.”
He made no answer; merely looked, and bowed in submission; and soon afterwards said, in a lively tone,
He didn't answer; he just looked and bowed in submission. Then, shortly after, he said in a lively tone,
“Well, I have so little confidence in my own judgment, that whenever I marry, I hope some body will chuse my wife for me. Will you? (turning to Emma.) Will you chuse a wife for me?—I am sure I should like any body fixed on by you. You provide for the family, you know, (with a smile at his father). Find some body for me. I am in no hurry. Adopt her, educate her.”
“Well, I have so little confidence in my own judgment that whenever I get married, I hope someone will choose my wife for me. Will you? (turning to Emma.) Will you pick a wife for me?—I'm sure I'd like anyone you choose. You know, you take care of the family, (smiling at his father). Find someone for me. I'm not in a rush. Adopt her, educate her.”
“And make her like myself.”
“And make her like me.”
“By all means, if you can.”
"Of course, if you can."
“Very well. I undertake the commission. You shall have a charming wife.”
“Alright. I accept the assignment. You will have a lovely wife.”
“She must be very lively, and have hazle eyes. I care for nothing else. I shall go abroad for a couple of years—and when I return, I shall come to you for my wife. Remember.”
“She must be really energetic and have hazel eyes. I don’t care about anything else. I’ll go overseas for a couple of years—and when I get back, I’ll come to you for my wife. Remember.”
Emma was in no danger of forgetting. It was a commission to touch every favourite feeling. Would not Harriet be the very creature described? Hazle eyes excepted, two years more might make her all that he wished. He might even have Harriet in his thoughts at the moment; who could say? Referring the education to her seemed to imply it.
Emma had no chance of forgetting. It was a task that would evoke every favorite emotion. Wouldn't Harriet be the exact person described? Excluding her hazel eyes, in two more years she could become everything he wanted. He might even be thinking about Harriet right now; who could tell? Leaving her education up to her seemed to suggest it.
“Now, ma’am,” said Jane to her aunt, “shall we join Mrs. Elton?”
“Now, Aunt,” Jane said, “should we join Mrs. Elton?”
“If you please, my dear. With all my heart. I am quite ready. I was ready to have gone with her, but this will do just as well. We shall soon overtake her. There she is—no, that’s somebody else. That’s one of the ladies in the Irish car party, not at all like her.—Well, I declare—”
“If you don’t mind, my dear. Absolutely. I’m completely ready. I was all set to go with her, but this works just as well. We'll catch up with her soon. There she is—no, that’s someone else. That’s one of the ladies from the Irish car party, not at all like her.—Well, I can't believe it—”
They walked off, followed in half a minute by Mr. Knightley. Mr. Weston, his son, Emma, and Harriet, only remained; and the young man’s spirits now rose to a pitch almost unpleasant. Even Emma grew tired at last of flattery and merriment, and wished herself rather walking quietly about with any of the others, or sitting almost alone, and quite unattended to, in tranquil observation of the beautiful views beneath her. The appearance of the servants looking out for them to give notice of the carriages was a joyful sight; and even the bustle of collecting and preparing to depart, and the solicitude of Mrs. Elton to have her carriage first, were gladly endured, in the prospect of the quiet drive home which was to close the very questionable enjoyments of this day of pleasure. Such another scheme, composed of so many ill-assorted people, she hoped never to be betrayed into again.
They walked away, followed half a minute later by Mr. Knightley. Mr. Weston, his son, Emma, and Harriet were the only ones left; and the young man's excitement had now reached an almost uncomfortable level. Even Emma eventually grew tired of the flattery and laughter, wishing instead to be quietly walking with any of the others, or sitting almost alone, completely unnoticed, while peacefully taking in the beautiful views around her. The sight of the servants looking for them to announce the carriages was a welcome one; and even the hustle of gathering and getting ready to leave, along with Mrs. Elton's eagerness to have her carriage first, was endured with pleasure at the thought of a calm drive home that would end the rather dubious enjoyment of this day. She hoped to never again be caught in such a scheme that involved so many mismatched people.
While waiting for the carriage, she found Mr. Knightley by her side. He looked around, as if to see that no one were near, and then said,
While waiting for the carriage, she found Mr. Knightley next to her. He looked around, as if to make sure no one was nearby, and then said,
“Emma, I must once more speak to you as I have been used to do: a privilege rather endured than allowed, perhaps, but I must still use it. I cannot see you acting wrong, without a remonstrance. How could you be so unfeeling to Miss Bates? How could you be so insolent in your wit to a woman of her character, age, and situation?—Emma, I had not thought it possible.”
“Emma, I need to talk to you again like I usually do: it’s a privilege I probably have to put up with rather than being granted, but I have to speak up. I can’t watch you do something wrong without saying something. How could you be so insensitive to Miss Bates? How could you be so rude with your jokes to a woman of her character, age, and situation?—Emma, I honestly didn’t think you were capable of this.”
Emma recollected, blushed, was sorry, but tried to laugh it off.
Emma remembered, felt embarrassed, was regretful, but attempted to laugh it off.
“Nay, how could I help saying what I did?—Nobody could have helped it. It was not so very bad. I dare say she did not understand me.”
“Nah, how could I not say what I did?—No one could have helped it. It wasn't that bad. I bet she didn't get me.”
“I assure you she did. She felt your full meaning. She has talked of it since. I wish you could have heard how she talked of it—with what candour and generosity. I wish you could have heard her honouring your forbearance, in being able to pay her such attentions, as she was for ever receiving from yourself and your father, when her society must be so irksome.”
“I assure you she did. She understood your full meaning. She has talked about it since then. I wish you could have heard how she spoke of it—with such honesty and generosity. I wish you could have heard her appreciating your patience in being able to give her the attention that she was constantly receiving from you and your father, even when her company must have been so bothersome.”
“Oh!” cried Emma, “I know there is not a better creature in the world: but you must allow, that what is good and what is ridiculous are most unfortunately blended in her.”
“Oh!” cried Emma, “I know there isn’t a better person in the world: but you have to admit, what is good and what is ridiculous are quite unfortunately mixed in her.”
“They are blended,” said he, “I acknowledge; and, were she prosperous, I could allow much for the occasional prevalence of the ridiculous over the good. Were she a woman of fortune, I would leave every harmless absurdity to take its chance, I would not quarrel with you for any liberties of manner. Were she your equal in situation—but, Emma, consider how far this is from being the case. She is poor; she has sunk from the comforts she was born to; and, if she live to old age, must probably sink more. Her situation should secure your compassion. It was badly done, indeed! You, whom she had known from an infant, whom she had seen grow up from a period when her notice was an honour, to have you now, in thoughtless spirits, and the pride of the moment, laugh at her, humble her—and before her niece, too—and before others, many of whom (certainly some,) would be entirely guided by your treatment of her.—This is not pleasant to you, Emma—and it is very far from pleasant to me; but I must, I will,—I will tell you truths while I can; satisfied with proving myself your friend by very faithful counsel, and trusting that you will some time or other do me greater justice than you can do now.”
“They are mixed,” he said. “I admit that. If she were doing well, I could overlook how often the ridiculous overshadows the good. If she had money, I’d let every harmless absurdity take its course, and I wouldn’t argue with you over any of her quirks. If she were your equal in status—but, Emma, think about how far that is from the truth. She’s poor; she’s fallen from the comforts she was born into; and if she lives to be old, she’ll probably fall even further. Her situation should earn your compassion. It was wrong, really! You, who’ve known her since childhood, who’ve watched her grow up and seen your attention as an honor, now laugh at her in thoughtless spirits and momentary pride—humbling her, and in front of her niece too, and in front of others, many of whom (certainly some) will completely follow your lead on how to treat her. This isn’t good for you, Emma—and it’s certainly not pleasant for me; but I must, I will—I will tell you the truth while I can; satisfied to prove myself your friend through very honest advice, and hoping that one day you’ll do me greater justice than you can now.”
While they talked, they were advancing towards the carriage; it was ready; and, before she could speak again, he had handed her in. He had misinterpreted the feelings which had kept her face averted, and her tongue motionless. They were combined only of anger against herself, mortification, and deep concern. She had not been able to speak; and, on entering the carriage, sunk back for a moment overcome—then reproaching herself for having taken no leave, making no acknowledgment, parting in apparent sullenness, she looked out with voice and hand eager to shew a difference; but it was just too late. He had turned away, and the horses were in motion. She continued to look back, but in vain; and soon, with what appeared unusual speed, they were half way down the hill, and every thing left far behind. She was vexed beyond what could have been expressed—almost beyond what she could conceal. Never had she felt so agitated, mortified, grieved, at any circumstance in her life. She was most forcibly struck. The truth of this representation there was no denying. She felt it at her heart. How could she have been so brutal, so cruel to Miss Bates! How could she have exposed herself to such ill opinion in any one she valued! And how suffer him to leave her without saying one word of gratitude, of concurrence, of common kindness!
As they talked, they were walking toward the carriage; it was ready, and before she could say anything else, he helped her in. He had misjudged the feelings that had kept her face turned away and her mouth shut. They were just a mix of anger at herself, embarrassment, and deep worry. She hadn’t been able to speak, and as she got into the carriage, she sank back for a moment, overwhelmed—then chided herself for not saying goodbye, for not showing any appreciation, for parting in what seemed like sulkiness. She looked out, eager to show she felt differently, but it was just too late. He had turned away, and the horses were moving. She kept looking back, but it was no use; soon, at what seemed like an unusual speed, they were halfway down the hill, leaving everything far behind. She was more upset than she could express—almost more than she could hide. Never had she felt so distressed, embarrassed, or hurt by any situation in her life. The reality of this was undeniable. She felt it in her heart. How could she have been so harsh, so unkind to Miss Bates? How could she have put herself in such a bad light with someone she valued? And how could she let him leave without saying even a word of thanks, agreement, or basic kindness?
Time did not compose her. As she reflected more, she seemed but to feel it more. She never had been so depressed. Happily it was not necessary to speak. There was only Harriet, who seemed not in spirits herself, fagged, and very willing to be silent; and Emma felt the tears running down her cheeks almost all the way home, without being at any trouble to check them, extraordinary as they were.
Time didn’t define her. As she thought more about it, she just felt it more. She had never been this down. Luckily, there was no need to talk. There was only Harriet, who also didn’t seem in great spirits, tired, and very willing to be quiet; and Emma felt tears streaming down her cheeks almost the entire way home, without bothering to stop them, which was unusual for her.
CHAPTER VIII
The wretchedness of a scheme to Box Hill was in Emma’s thoughts all the evening. How it might be considered by the rest of the party, she could not tell. They, in their different homes, and their different ways, might be looking back on it with pleasure; but in her view it was a morning more completely misspent, more totally bare of rational satisfaction at the time, and more to be abhorred in recollection, than any she had ever passed. A whole evening of back-gammon with her father, was felicity to it. There, indeed, lay real pleasure, for there she was giving up the sweetest hours of the twenty-four to his comfort; and feeling that, unmerited as might be the degree of his fond affection and confiding esteem, she could not, in her general conduct, be open to any severe reproach. As a daughter, she hoped she was not without a heart. She hoped no one could have said to her, “How could you be so unfeeling to your father?—I must, I will tell you truths while I can.” Miss Bates should never again—no, never! If attention, in future, could do away the past, she might hope to be forgiven. She had been often remiss, her conscience told her so; remiss, perhaps, more in thought than fact; scornful, ungracious. But it should be so no more. In the warmth of true contrition, she would call upon her the very next morning, and it should be the beginning, on her side, of a regular, equal, kindly intercourse.
Emma spent the whole evening thinking about the terrible outing to Box Hill. She couldn’t figure out how the rest of the group might view it. They could be reflecting on it fondly in their own homes, but for her, it was the most wasted morning ever—completely devoid of any real enjoyment and something she'd rather forget. An entire evening of playing backgammon with her father was pure bliss compared to that. There, she was truly happy because she was sacrificing the best hours of the day for his comfort, and even if his affection and trust were unearned, she believed she wasn’t doing anything terribly wrong in her overall behavior. As a daughter, she hoped she hadn’t been lacking in feeling. She wished nobody would ever say to her, “How could you be so cold to your father?—I have to, I must tell you the truth while I can.” Miss Bates would never again—no, never! If she could be more attentive in the future, maybe she could hope for forgiveness. She had often fallen short, and her conscience reminded her of that; perhaps more in thought than in action, she had been disdainful and unkind. But that would not happen again. In genuine remorse, she would visit her the very next morning, marking the start of a regular, friendly relationship from her side.
She was just as determined when the morrow came, and went early, that nothing might prevent her. It was not unlikely, she thought, that she might see Mr. Knightley in her way; or, perhaps, he might come in while she were paying her visit. She had no objection. She would not be ashamed of the appearance of the penitence, so justly and truly hers. Her eyes were towards Donwell as she walked, but she saw him not.
She was just as determined when the next day arrived, and she left early, so nothing could stop her. She thought it was likely she might run into Mr. Knightley on her way, or maybe he would come by while she was visiting. She didn’t mind. She wouldn’t be embarrassed by her sincere remorse. As she walked, her eyes were on Donwell, but she didn’t see him.
“The ladies were all at home.” She had never rejoiced at the sound before, nor ever before entered the passage, nor walked up the stairs, with any wish of giving pleasure, but in conferring obligation, or of deriving it, except in subsequent ridicule.
“The ladies were all at home.” She had never been happy to hear that before, nor had she ever entered the hallway, or walked up the stairs, with the desire to bring joy, but only to create a debt, or to benefit from one, except in later mockery.
There was a bustle on her approach; a good deal of moving and talking. She heard Miss Bates’s voice, something was to be done in a hurry; the maid looked frightened and awkward; hoped she would be pleased to wait a moment, and then ushered her in too soon. The aunt and niece seemed both escaping into the adjoining room. Jane she had a distinct glimpse of, looking extremely ill; and, before the door had shut them out, she heard Miss Bates saying, “Well, my dear, I shall say you are laid down upon the bed, and I am sure you are ill enough.”
There was a lot of commotion as she arrived; lots of people moving around and chatting. She heard Miss Bates’s voice, and it seemed like something needed to be done quickly; the maid looked nervous and clumsy; she hoped she could wait a moment before suddenly bringing her in. The aunt and niece both appeared to be rushing into the next room. Jane caught her eye for a brief moment, looking really unwell; and just before the door closed behind them, she heard Miss Bates say, “Well, my dear, I’ll just say you’re lying down on the bed, and I’m sure you’re sick enough.”
Poor old Mrs. Bates, civil and humble as usual, looked as if she did not quite understand what was going on.
Poor old Mrs. Bates, polite and humble as always, seemed like she didn't quite get what was happening.
“I am afraid Jane is not very well,” said she, “but I do not know; they tell me she is well. I dare say my daughter will be here presently, Miss Woodhouse. I hope you find a chair. I wish Hetty had not gone. I am very little able—Have you a chair, ma’am? Do you sit where you like? I am sure she will be here presently.”
“I’m afraid Jane isn’t feeling well,” she said, “but I’m not sure; they tell me she’s fine. I’m sure my daughter will be here soon, Miss Woodhouse. I hope you find a chair. I wish Hetty hadn’t left. I’m not really able—Do you have a chair, ma’am? Do you sit wherever you want? I’m sure she’ll be here soon.”
Emma seriously hoped she would. She had a moment’s fear of Miss Bates keeping away from her. But Miss Bates soon came—“Very happy and obliged”—but Emma’s conscience told her that there was not the same cheerful volubility as before—less ease of look and manner. A very friendly inquiry after Miss Fairfax, she hoped, might lead the way to a return of old feelings. The touch seemed immediate.
Emma really hoped she would. For a moment, she was afraid that Miss Bates might avoid her. But Miss Bates soon arrived—“Very happy and obliged”—yet Emma’s conscience told her that there wasn't the same cheerful eagerness as before—less ease in her expression and behavior. A very friendly question about Miss Fairfax, she hoped, might pave the way for a return of those old feelings. The connection seemed instant.
“Ah! Miss Woodhouse, how kind you are!—I suppose you have heard—and are come to give us joy. This does not seem much like joy, indeed, in me—(twinkling away a tear or two)—but it will be very trying for us to part with her, after having had her so long, and she has a dreadful headache just now, writing all the morning:—such long letters, you know, to be written to Colonel Campbell, and Mrs. Dixon. ‘My dear,’ said I, ‘you will blind yourself’—for tears were in her eyes perpetually. One cannot wonder, one cannot wonder. It is a great change; and though she is amazingly fortunate—such a situation, I suppose, as no young woman before ever met with on first going out—do not think us ungrateful, Miss Woodhouse, for such surprising good fortune—(again dispersing her tears)—but, poor dear soul! if you were to see what a headache she has. When one is in great pain, you know one cannot feel any blessing quite as it may deserve. She is as low as possible. To look at her, nobody would think how delighted and happy she is to have secured such a situation. You will excuse her not coming to you—she is not able—she is gone into her own room—I want her to lie down upon the bed. ‘My dear,’ said I, ‘I shall say you are laid down upon the bed:’ but, however, she is not; she is walking about the room. But, now that she has written her letters, she says she shall soon be well. She will be extremely sorry to miss seeing you, Miss Woodhouse, but your kindness will excuse her. You were kept waiting at the door—I was quite ashamed—but somehow there was a little bustle—for it so happened that we had not heard the knock, and till you were on the stairs, we did not know any body was coming. ‘It is only Mrs. Cole,’ said I, ‘depend upon it. Nobody else would come so early.’ ‘Well,’ said she, ‘it must be borne some time or other, and it may as well be now.’ But then Patty came in, and said it was you. ‘Oh!’ said I, ‘it is Miss Woodhouse: I am sure you will like to see her.’—‘I can see nobody,’ said she; and up she got, and would go away; and that was what made us keep you waiting—and extremely sorry and ashamed we were. ‘If you must go, my dear,’ said I, ‘you must, and I will say you are laid down upon the bed.’”
“Ah! Miss Woodhouse, how kind you are! I assume you’ve heard—and you’ve come to share our joy. It doesn’t seem much like joy in me—(wiping away a tear or two)—but it’ll be really tough for us to say goodbye to her after having her for so long, and she has a terrible headache right now from writing all morning: such long letters, you know, to Colonel Campbell and Mrs. Dixon. ‘My dear,’ I said, ‘you’re going to strain your eyes’—because tears were always in her eyes. One can’t blame her; it’s a huge change. And although she’s incredibly fortunate— such an opportunity, I think no other young woman has experienced right when they first start out—please don’t think us ungrateful, Miss Woodhouse, for this surprising good fortune—(wiping her tears again)—but, poor thing! if you could see how bad her headache is. When someone is in so much pain, it’s hard to appreciate any blessing as much as it should be. She’s feeling very low. From looking at her, no one would guess how thrilled and happy she is to have landed such a position. Please excuse her for not coming to you—she just can’t—she’s gone to her own room—I want her to lie down on the bed. ‘My dear,’ I said, ‘I’ll say you’re lying down on the bed:’ but actually, she’s not; she’s pacing around the room. But now that she’s written her letters, she says she’ll be feeling better soon. She’ll be really sorry to miss seeing you, Miss Woodhouse, but your kindness will understand her situation. You had to wait at the door—I was quite embarrassed—but there was a little bit of chaos—because we hadn’t heard the knock, and until you were on the stairs, we didn’t know anyone was coming. ‘It’s just Mrs. Cole,’ I said, ‘you can count on it. No one else would come so early.’ ‘Well,’ she said, ‘it has to happen sometime, and it might as well be now.’ But then Patty came in and said it was you. ‘Oh!’ I said, ‘it’s Miss Woodhouse: I’m sure you’ll want to see her.’—‘I can’t see anybody,’ she said; and she got up and wanted to leave; and that’s why we made you wait—and we were extremely sorry and embarrassed. ‘If you must go, my dear,’ I said, ‘then you must, and I’ll say you’re lying down on the bed.’”
Emma was most sincerely interested. Her heart had been long growing kinder towards Jane; and this picture of her present sufferings acted as a cure of every former ungenerous suspicion, and left her nothing but pity; and the remembrance of the less just and less gentle sensations of the past, obliged her to admit that Jane might very naturally resolve on seeing Mrs. Cole or any other steady friend, when she might not bear to see herself. She spoke as she felt, with earnest regret and solicitude—sincerely wishing that the circumstances which she collected from Miss Bates to be now actually determined on, might be as much for Miss Fairfax’s advantage and comfort as possible. “It must be a severe trial to them all. She had understood it was to be delayed till Colonel Campbell’s return.”
Emma was truly interested. Her feelings toward Jane had been softening for a while, and seeing her current struggles wiped away any previous unjust doubts, leaving her with nothing but compassion. Remembering her earlier, less understanding feelings made her realize that Jane could understandably want to seek comfort from Mrs. Cole or another close friend rather than face herself. She spoke honestly, full of regret and concern—genuinely hoping that the situation she gathered from Miss Bates would turn out to be as beneficial and comforting for Miss Fairfax as possible. “It must be a tough challenge for them all. I heard it was supposed to be postponed until Colonel Campbell gets back.”
“So very kind!” replied Miss Bates. “But you are always kind.”
“So very kind!” replied Miss Bates. “But you’re always kind.”
There was no bearing such an “always;” and to break through her dreadful gratitude, Emma made the direct inquiry of—
There was no way to handle such an "always;" and to overcome her overwhelming gratitude, Emma asked directly—
“Where—may I ask?—is Miss Fairfax going?”
“Where—if you don’t mind me asking—is Miss Fairfax headed?”
“To a Mrs. Smallridge—charming woman—most superior—to have the charge of her three little girls—delightful children. Impossible that any situation could be more replete with comfort; if we except, perhaps, Mrs. Suckling’s own family, and Mrs. Bragge’s; but Mrs. Smallridge is intimate with both, and in the very same neighbourhood:—lives only four miles from Maple Grove. Jane will be only four miles from Maple Grove.”
“To Mrs. Smallridge—charming woman—most exceptional—to take care of her three little girls—delightful children. It's hard to imagine a situation that could be more comfortable; maybe Mrs. Suckling’s own family and Mrs. Bragge’s could compare; but Mrs. Smallridge is close friends with both and lives in the same neighborhood: just four miles from Maple Grove. Jane will be just four miles from Maple Grove.”
“Mrs. Elton, I suppose, has been the person to whom Miss Fairfax owes—”
“Mrs. Elton, I guess, has been the person Miss Fairfax owes—”
“Yes, our good Mrs. Elton. The most indefatigable, true friend. She would not take a denial. She would not let Jane say, ‘No;’ for when Jane first heard of it, (it was the day before yesterday, the very morning we were at Donwell,) when Jane first heard of it, she was quite decided against accepting the offer, and for the reasons you mention; exactly as you say, she had made up her mind to close with nothing till Colonel Campbell’s return, and nothing should induce her to enter into any engagement at present—and so she told Mrs. Elton over and over again—and I am sure I had no more idea that she would change her mind!—but that good Mrs. Elton, whose judgment never fails her, saw farther than I did. It is not every body that would have stood out in such a kind way as she did, and refuse to take Jane’s answer; but she positively declared she would not write any such denial yesterday, as Jane wished her; she would wait—and, sure enough, yesterday evening it was all settled that Jane should go. Quite a surprize to me! I had not the least idea!—Jane took Mrs. Elton aside, and told her at once, that upon thinking over the advantages of Mrs. Smallridge’s situation, she had come to the resolution of accepting it.—I did not know a word of it till it was all settled.”
“Yes, our good Mrs. Elton. The most tireless, true friend. She wouldn’t take no for an answer. She wouldn’t let Jane say, ‘No;’ because when Jane first heard about it (it was the day before yesterday, the very morning we were at Donwell), she was completely against accepting the offer, and for the reasons you mentioned; just as you said, she had decided not to commit to anything until Colonel Campbell returned, and nothing would make her engage in anything at the moment—and she told Mrs. Elton that repeatedly—and I truly had no idea she would change her mind!—but that good Mrs. Elton, whose judgment never fails her, saw further than I did. Not everyone would have been so persistent and kindly refused to accept Jane’s answer; but she firmly declared she would not write any denial yesterday, as Jane wanted; she would wait—and sure enough, yesterday evening it was all settled that Jane would go. Quite a surprise to me! I had no clue!—Jane took Mrs. Elton aside and told her right away that after considering the benefits of Mrs. Smallridge’s situation, she had decided to accept it.—I didn’t know a thing about it until it was all settled.”
“You spent the evening with Mrs. Elton?”
“You hung out with Mrs. Elton for the evening?”
“Yes, all of us; Mrs. Elton would have us come. It was settled so, upon the hill, while we were walking about with Mr. Knightley. ‘You must all spend your evening with us,’ said she—‘I positively must have you all come.’”
"Yeah, all of us; Mrs. Elton wants us to come over. It was decided on the hill while we were walking with Mr. Knightley. ‘You all have to spend your evening with us,’ she insisted—‘I absolutely need you all to come.’"
“Mr. Knightley was there too, was he?”
“Mr. Knightley was there too, right?”
“No, not Mr. Knightley; he declined it from the first; and though I thought he would come, because Mrs. Elton declared she would not let him off, he did not;—but my mother, and Jane, and I, were all there, and a very agreeable evening we had. Such kind friends, you know, Miss Woodhouse, one must always find agreeable, though every body seemed rather fagged after the morning’s party. Even pleasure, you know, is fatiguing—and I cannot say that any of them seemed very much to have enjoyed it. However, I shall always think it a very pleasant party, and feel extremely obliged to the kind friends who included me in it.”
“No, not Mr. Knightley; he turned it down from the start, and even though I thought he would come because Mrs. Elton insisted she wouldn't let him skip it, he didn't show up. But my mom, Jane, and I were all there, and we had a really nice evening. You know, Miss Woodhouse, one must always appreciate kind friends, even though everyone seemed a bit worn out after the morning’s party. Even enjoyable events can be tiring, and I can’t say any of them really seemed to have enjoyed it much. Still, I will always remember it as a lovely party and feel very grateful to the kind friends who included me.”
“Miss Fairfax, I suppose, though you were not aware of it, had been making up her mind the whole day?”
“Miss Fairfax, I guess, although you didn’t realize it, had been deciding all day?”
“I dare say she had.”
"I think she did."
“Whenever the time may come, it must be unwelcome to her and all her friends—but I hope her engagement will have every alleviation that is possible—I mean, as to the character and manners of the family.”
“Whenever that time comes, it’s bound to be unwelcome for her and all her friends—but I hope her engagement will come with as many comforts as possible—I mean, in terms of the character and behavior of the family.”
“Thank you, dear Miss Woodhouse. Yes, indeed, there is every thing in the world that can make her happy in it. Except the Sucklings and Bragges, there is not such another nursery establishment, so liberal and elegant, in all Mrs. Elton’s acquaintance. Mrs. Smallridge, a most delightful woman!—A style of living almost equal to Maple Grove—and as to the children, except the little Sucklings and little Bragges, there are not such elegant sweet children anywhere. Jane will be treated with such regard and kindness!—It will be nothing but pleasure, a life of pleasure.—And her salary!—I really cannot venture to name her salary to you, Miss Woodhouse. Even you, used as you are to great sums, would hardly believe that so much could be given to a young person like Jane.”
“Thank you, dear Miss Woodhouse. Yes, indeed, everything in the world that can make her happy is here. Other than the Sucklings and Bragges, there isn’t another nursery setup as generous and refined as Mrs. Elton’s. Mrs. Smallridge is such a wonderful woman!—Her lifestyle is almost on par with Maple Grove—and as for the kids, apart from the little Sucklings and little Bragges, there aren’t any more charming and sweet children anywhere. Jane will be treated with so much respect and kindness!—It will be nothing but pure enjoyment, a life of joy.—And her salary!—I really can’t bring myself to tell you what her salary is, Miss Woodhouse. Even you, as used as you are to large amounts, would probably find it hard to believe that such a sum could be offered to someone as young as Jane.”
“Ah! madam,” cried Emma, “if other children are at all like what I remember to have been myself, I should think five times the amount of what I have ever yet heard named as a salary on such occasions, dearly earned.”
“Ah! ma'am,” Emma exclaimed, “if other kids are at all like what I remember myself to be, I would think five times the amount of any salary I’ve ever heard mentioned for these occasions is well-deserved.”
“You are so noble in your ideas!”
"You have such great ideas!"
“And when is Miss Fairfax to leave you?”
“And when is Miss Fairfax leaving you?”
“Very soon, very soon, indeed; that’s the worst of it. Within a fortnight. Mrs. Smallridge is in a great hurry. My poor mother does not know how to bear it. So then, I try to put it out of her thoughts, and say, Come ma’am, do not let us think about it any more.”
“Very soon, very soon, indeed; that’s the worst part. In just two weeks. Mrs. Smallridge is in a big rush. My poor mom doesn’t know how to handle it. So, I try to distract her and say, ‘Come on, ma’am, let’s not think about it anymore.’”
“Her friends must all be sorry to lose her; and will not Colonel and Mrs. Campbell be sorry to find that she has engaged herself before their return?”
"Her friends must all be sad to lose her; and won't Colonel and Mrs. Campbell be upset to discover that she has gotten engaged before they come back?"
“Yes; Jane says she is sure they will; but yet, this is such a situation as she cannot feel herself justified in declining. I was so astonished when she first told me what she had been saying to Mrs. Elton, and when Mrs. Elton at the same moment came congratulating me upon it! It was before tea—stay—no, it could not be before tea, because we were just going to cards—and yet it was before tea, because I remember thinking—Oh! no, now I recollect, now I have it; something happened before tea, but not that. Mr. Elton was called out of the room before tea, old John Abdy’s son wanted to speak with him. Poor old John, I have a great regard for him; he was clerk to my poor father twenty-seven years; and now, poor old man, he is bed-ridden, and very poorly with the rheumatic gout in his joints—I must go and see him to-day; and so will Jane, I am sure, if she gets out at all. And poor John’s son came to talk to Mr. Elton about relief from the parish; he is very well to do himself, you know, being head man at the Crown, ostler, and every thing of that sort, but still he cannot keep his father without some help; and so, when Mr. Elton came back, he told us what John ostler had been telling him, and then it came out about the chaise having been sent to Randalls to take Mr. Frank Churchill to Richmond. That was what happened before tea. It was after tea that Jane spoke to Mrs. Elton.”
“Yes; Jane is confident they will, but she feels she can’t really refuse this situation. I was shocked when she first shared what she had told Mrs. Elton, especially when Mrs. Elton came in right after to congratulate me about it! It was before tea—wait—no, it couldn’t have been before tea, since we were just about to play cards—and yet it felt like it was before tea because I remember thinking—Oh! No, I remember now; something did happen before tea, but not that. Mr. Elton was called out of the room before tea because old John Abdy’s son wanted to speak with him. Poor old John, I have a lot of respect for him; he served as my late father’s clerk for twenty-seven years; and now, that poor man is bedridden and suffering badly from rheumatic gout in his joints—I need to visit him today, and I’m sure Jane will too if she manages to get out. John’s son came to talk to Mr. Elton about getting some help from the parish; he’s doing well himself, being the head man at the Crown, an ostler, and all that, but he still can’t support his father without some assistance. So, when Mr. Elton returned, he shared what John’s son had discussed with him, and that’s when we learned about the chaise being sent to Randalls to take Mr. Frank Churchill to Richmond. That was what happened before tea. It was after tea that Jane had her conversation with Mrs. Elton.”
Miss Bates would hardly give Emma time to say how perfectly new this circumstance was to her; but as without supposing it possible that she could be ignorant of any of the particulars of Mr. Frank Churchill’s going, she proceeded to give them all, it was of no consequence.
Miss Bates barely gave Emma a chance to express how completely new this situation was for her; however, since she assumed Emma already knew all the details about Mr. Frank Churchill’s departure, she continued to share them all, so it didn’t really matter.
What Mr. Elton had learned from the ostler on the subject, being the accumulation of the ostler’s own knowledge, and the knowledge of the servants at Randalls, was, that a messenger had come over from Richmond soon after the return of the party from Box Hill—which messenger, however, had been no more than was expected; and that Mr. Churchill had sent his nephew a few lines, containing, upon the whole, a tolerable account of Mrs. Churchill, and only wishing him not to delay coming back beyond the next morning early; but that Mr. Frank Churchill having resolved to go home directly, without waiting at all, and his horse seeming to have got a cold, Tom had been sent off immediately for the Crown chaise, and the ostler had stood out and seen it pass by, the boy going a good pace, and driving very steady.
What Mr. Elton learned from the stable worker about the situation, which was based on both the stable worker's own knowledge and what the staff at Randalls knew, was that a messenger had come over from Richmond shortly after the group returned from Box Hill. This messenger wasn't unexpected and had delivered a brief note from Mr. Churchill to his nephew. Overall, the note provided a decent update on Mrs. Churchill and simply advised him not to delay his return beyond the following morning. However, Mr. Frank Churchill decided to go home immediately, without waiting at all, and since his horse seemed to have caught a cold, Tom was sent off right away to get the Crown chaise. The stable worker saw it pass by, with the boy driving at a good pace and maintaining a steady hand.
There was nothing in all this either to astonish or interest, and it caught Emma’s attention only as it united with the subject which already engaged her mind. The contrast between Mrs. Churchill’s importance in the world, and Jane Fairfax’s, struck her; one was every thing, the other nothing—and she sat musing on the difference of woman’s destiny, and quite unconscious on what her eyes were fixed, till roused by Miss Bates’s saying,
There was nothing in all this to surprise or pique interest, and it only grabbed Emma’s attention because it connected with what she was already thinking about. The difference between Mrs. Churchill’s status in the world and Jane Fairfax’s caught her attention; one was everything, the other was nothing—and she sat reflecting on the disparity in women’s destinies, completely unaware of what she was looking at, until Miss Bates’s voice brought her back.
“Aye, I see what you are thinking of, the pianoforte. What is to become of that?—Very true. Poor dear Jane was talking of it just now.—‘You must go,’ said she. ‘You and I must part. You will have no business here.—Let it stay, however,’ said she; ‘give it houseroom till Colonel Campbell comes back. I shall talk about it to him; he will settle for me; he will help me out of all my difficulties.’—And to this day, I do believe, she knows not whether it was his present or his daughter’s.”
“Yeah, I see what you’re thinking about, the piano. What’s going to happen to that?—Very true. Poor dear Jane was just mentioning it.—‘You have to go,’ she said. ‘You and I must part ways. You won’t have any reason to stay here.—But let it stay for now,’ she said; ‘give it some space until Colonel Campbell comes back. I’ll talk to him about it; he’ll sort it out for me; he’ll help me with all my issues.’—And to this day, I truly believe she doesn’t know whether it was his gift or his daughter’s.”
Now Emma was obliged to think of the pianoforte; and the remembrance of all her former fanciful and unfair conjectures was so little pleasing, that she soon allowed herself to believe her visit had been long enough; and, with a repetition of every thing that she could venture to say of the good wishes which she really felt, took leave.
Now Emma had to think about the piano; and the memory of all her previous fanciful and unfair guesses was so unpleasing that she quickly convinced herself that her visit had lasted long enough. With a reiteration of everything she could say about the good wishes she genuinely felt, she said goodbye.
CHAPTER IX
Emma’s pensive meditations, as she walked home, were not interrupted; but on entering the parlour, she found those who must rouse her. Mr. Knightley and Harriet had arrived during her absence, and were sitting with her father.—Mr. Knightley immediately got up, and in a manner decidedly graver than usual, said,
Emma's thoughtful reflections as she walked home went uninterrupted; however, upon entering the living room, she found people who needed her attention. Mr. Knightley and Harriet had come over while she was away and were sitting with her dad. Mr. Knightley stood up right away and, in a noticeably more serious way than usual, said,
“I would not go away without seeing you, but I have no time to spare, and therefore must now be gone directly. I am going to London, to spend a few days with John and Isabella. Have you any thing to send or say, besides the ‘love,’ which nobody carries?”
"I can't leave without seeing you, but I have no time to waste, so I have to go right now. I'm heading to London to spend a few days with John and Isabella. Do you have anything to send or say, other than the 'love' that no one actually delivers?"
“Nothing at all. But is not this a sudden scheme?”
“Nothing at all. But isn’t this a sudden plan?”
“Yes—rather—I have been thinking of it some little time.”
"Yeah—actually—I’ve been thinking about it for a little while."
Emma was sure he had not forgiven her; he looked unlike himself. Time, however, she thought, would tell him that they ought to be friends again. While he stood, as if meaning to go, but not going—her father began his inquiries.
Emma was sure he hadn't forgiven her; he looked different than usual. However, she thought time would prove that they should be friends again. While he stood there, as if he meant to leave but wasn't moving, her father started asking questions.
“Well, my dear, and did you get there safely?—And how did you find my worthy old friend and her daughter?—I dare say they must have been very much obliged to you for coming. Dear Emma has been to call on Mrs. and Miss Bates, Mr. Knightley, as I told you before. She is always so attentive to them!”
“Well, my dear, did you make it there safely?—And how did you find my dear old friend and her daughter?—I’m sure they were very grateful to you for visiting. Dear Emma has already gone to see Mrs. and Miss Bates, Mr. Knightley, as I mentioned earlier. She’s always so considerate of them!”
Emma’s colour was heightened by this unjust praise; and with a smile, and shake of the head, which spoke much, she looked at Mr. Knightley.—It seemed as if there were an instantaneous impression in her favour, as if his eyes received the truth from hers, and all that had passed of good in her feelings were at once caught and honoured.— He looked at her with a glow of regard. She was warmly gratified—and in another moment still more so, by a little movement of more than common friendliness on his part.—He took her hand;—whether she had not herself made the first motion, she could not say—she might, perhaps, have rather offered it—but he took her hand, pressed it, and certainly was on the point of carrying it to his lips—when, from some fancy or other, he suddenly let it go.—Why he should feel such a scruple, why he should change his mind when it was all but done, she could not perceive.—He would have judged better, she thought, if he had not stopped.—The intention, however, was indubitable; and whether it was that his manners had in general so little gallantry, or however else it happened, but she thought nothing became him more.—It was with him, of so simple, yet so dignified a nature.—She could not but recall the attempt with great satisfaction. It spoke such perfect amity.—He left them immediately afterwards—gone in a moment. He always moved with the alertness of a mind which could neither be undecided nor dilatory, but now he seemed more sudden than usual in his disappearance.
Emma's blush deepened from the unwarranted praise, and with a smile and a shake of her head that said a lot, she looked at Mr. Knightley. It felt like there was an instant connection in her favor, as if he understood the truth in her eyes, and everything good in her feelings was suddenly acknowledged and appreciated. He looked at her with warmth and admiration. She felt truly pleased—and even more so a moment later by an unusually friendly gesture from him. He took her hand; she couldn't quite tell if she had made the first move—maybe she had more or less offered it—but he took her hand, squeezed it, and was definitely about to bring it to his lips when he suddenly let it go for some reason. She couldn't understand why he felt that hesitation, why he changed his mind right at the last moment. She thought he would have been better off if he hadn’t stopped. However, his intentions were clear, and whether it was because he usually had so little gallantry in his manners or for some other reason, she thought nothing suited him better. It was simple yet dignified with him. She couldn't help but remember the moment with great satisfaction. It showed such genuine friendship. He left them right afterward—gone in an instant. He always moved with the agility of someone who could never be indecisive or slow, but now he seemed to vanish more abruptly than usual.
Emma could not regret her having gone to Miss Bates, but she wished she had left her ten minutes earlier;—it would have been a great pleasure to talk over Jane Fairfax’s situation with Mr. Knightley.—Neither would she regret that he should be going to Brunswick Square, for she knew how much his visit would be enjoyed—but it might have happened at a better time—and to have had longer notice of it, would have been pleasanter.—They parted thorough friends, however; she could not be deceived as to the meaning of his countenance, and his unfinished gallantry;—it was all done to assure her that she had fully recovered his good opinion.—He had been sitting with them half an hour, she found. It was a pity that she had not come back earlier!
Emma didn’t regret visiting Miss Bates, but she wished she had left ten minutes sooner; it would have been great to discuss Jane Fairfax’s situation with Mr. Knightley. She also didn’t mind that he was going to Brunswick Square because she knew he would enjoy the visit—still, it could have happened at a better time, and getting a heads-up would have been nicer. They parted as good friends, though; she couldn’t be fooled by his expression and his unfinished flirting—it was all meant to reassure her that she had completely regained his good opinion. She realized he had been sitting with them for half an hour. It was too bad she hadn’t come back sooner!
In the hope of diverting her father’s thoughts from the disagreeableness of Mr. Knightley’s going to London; and going so suddenly; and going on horseback, which she knew would be all very bad; Emma communicated her news of Jane Fairfax, and her dependence on the effect was justified; it supplied a very useful check,—interested, without disturbing him. He had long made up his mind to Jane Fairfax’s going out as governess, and could talk of it cheerfully, but Mr. Knightley’s going to London had been an unexpected blow.
In the hope of distracting her father from the unpleasantness of Mr. Knightley going to London—especially in such a sudden and horse-riding manner, which she knew would upset him—Emma shared her news about Jane Fairfax. This approach worked well; it provided a helpful distraction that kept him engaged without disturbing him. He had long accepted that Jane Fairfax would become a governess and could discuss it cheerfully, but Mr. Knightley’s trip to London had come as a surprise blow.
“I am very glad, indeed, my dear, to hear she is to be so comfortably settled. Mrs. Elton is very good-natured and agreeable, and I dare say her acquaintance are just what they ought to be. I hope it is a dry situation, and that her health will be taken good care of. It ought to be a first object, as I am sure poor Miss Taylor’s always was with me. You know, my dear, she is going to be to this new lady what Miss Taylor was to us. And I hope she will be better off in one respect, and not be induced to go away after it has been her home so long.”
“I’m really glad to hear she’s going to be so comfortably settled, my dear. Mrs. Elton is very kind and pleasant, and I’m sure her connections are just what they should be. I hope it’s a stable situation, and that her health will be well looked after. That should be a top priority, just like it always was with poor Miss Taylor for me. You know, my dear, she’s going to be to this new lady what Miss Taylor was to us. And I hope she’ll have it better in one way and won’t feel pressured to leave after it’s been her home for so long.”
The following day brought news from Richmond to throw every thing else into the background. An express arrived at Randalls to announce the death of Mrs. Churchill! Though her nephew had had no particular reason to hasten back on her account, she had not lived above six-and-thirty hours after his return. A sudden seizure of a different nature from any thing foreboded by her general state, had carried her off after a short struggle. The great Mrs. Churchill was no more.
The next day brought shocking news from Richmond that overshadowed everything else. A messenger arrived at Randalls to announce the death of Mrs. Churchill! Even though her nephew hadn't felt an urgent need to rush back for her, she had only lived about thirty-six hours after his return. A sudden health crisis, unlike anything predicted by her overall condition, took her quickly after a brief struggle. The esteemed Mrs. Churchill was gone.
It was felt as such things must be felt. Every body had a degree of gravity and sorrow; tenderness towards the departed, solicitude for the surviving friends; and, in a reasonable time, curiosity to know where she would be buried. Goldsmith tells us, that when lovely woman stoops to folly, she has nothing to do but to die; and when she stoops to be disagreeable, it is equally to be recommended as a clearer of ill-fame. Mrs. Churchill, after being disliked at least twenty-five years, was now spoken of with compassionate allowances. In one point she was fully justified. She had never been admitted before to be seriously ill. The event acquitted her of all the fancifulness, and all the selfishness of imaginary complaints.
It was felt the way such things need to be felt. Everyone had a sense of gravity and sadness; compassion for the deceased, concern for the friends left behind; and, after a while, curiosity about where she would be buried. Goldsmith tells us that when a beautiful woman makes a mistake, she only has one option: to die; and when she becomes unpleasant, that too is seen as a way to clear her name. Mrs. Churchill, after being disliked for at least twenty-five years, was now talked about with some understanding. In one way, she was completely justified. She had never been acknowledged as seriously ill before. The situation cleared her of any whimsicality or selfishness over imagined ailments.
“Poor Mrs. Churchill! no doubt she had been suffering a great deal: more than any body had ever supposed—and continual pain would try the temper. It was a sad event—a great shock—with all her faults, what would Mr. Churchill do without her? Mr. Churchill’s loss would be dreadful indeed. Mr. Churchill would never get over it.”—Even Mr. Weston shook his head, and looked solemn, and said, “Ah! poor woman, who would have thought it!” and resolved, that his mourning should be as handsome as possible; and his wife sat sighing and moralising over her broad hems with a commiseration and good sense, true and steady. How it would affect Frank was among the earliest thoughts of both. It was also a very early speculation with Emma. The character of Mrs. Churchill, the grief of her husband—her mind glanced over them both with awe and compassion—and then rested with lightened feelings on how Frank might be affected by the event, how benefited, how freed. She saw in a moment all the possible good. Now, an attachment to Harriet Smith would have nothing to encounter. Mr. Churchill, independent of his wife, was feared by nobody; an easy, guidable man, to be persuaded into any thing by his nephew. All that remained to be wished was, that the nephew should form the attachment, as, with all her goodwill in the cause, Emma could feel no certainty of its being already formed.
“Poor Mrs. Churchill! No doubt she had been suffering a lot: more than anyone had ever realized—and constant pain would test anyone's patience. It was a sad situation—a huge shock—with all her flaws, what would Mr. Churchill do without her? Mr. Churchill’s loss would be truly devastating. He would never recover from it.” Even Mr. Weston shook his head and looked serious, saying, “Ah! Poor woman, who would have thought it!” He decided that his mourning should be as respectable as possible, while his wife sighed and reflected on her wide hems with genuine understanding and common sense. How it would affect Frank was one of the first thoughts for both of them. It was also an early concern for Emma. She considered the character of Mrs. Churchill and the grief of her husband—with a mix of respect and sympathy—and then felt relieved as she thought about how Frank might react to the situation, how it might benefit him, how it might free him. She quickly saw all the possible positives. Now, a relationship with Harriet Smith would face no obstacles. Mr. Churchill, apart from his wife, was not feared by anyone; he was an easygoing man, easily influenced by his nephew. The only thing left to hope for was that the nephew would make the connection, as, despite all her good intentions, Emma couldn’t be sure it had already happened.
Harriet behaved extremely well on the occasion, with great self-command. What ever she might feel of brighter hope, she betrayed nothing. Emma was gratified, to observe such a proof in her of strengthened character, and refrained from any allusion that might endanger its maintenance. They spoke, therefore, of Mrs. Churchill’s death with mutual forbearance.
Harriet acted very well on the occasion, with great self-control. Whatever brighter hopes she might have felt, she showed none of it. Emma was pleased to see such a sign of Harriet's strengthened character and avoided any comments that might jeopardize it. So, they talked about Mrs. Churchill's death with mutual consideration.
Short letters from Frank were received at Randalls, communicating all that was immediately important of their state and plans. Mr. Churchill was better than could be expected; and their first removal, on the departure of the funeral for Yorkshire, was to be to the house of a very old friend in Windsor, to whom Mr. Churchill had been promising a visit the last ten years. At present, there was nothing to be done for Harriet; good wishes for the future were all that could yet be possible on Emma’s side.
Short letters from Frank arrived at Randalls, sharing everything important about their situation and plans. Mr. Churchill was doing better than expected, and their first move, after the funeral headed to Yorkshire, would be to stay with a very old friend in Windsor, whom Mr. Churchill had promised to visit for the last ten years. Right now, there wasn’t anything to be done for Harriet; all Emma could offer were good wishes for the future.
It was a more pressing concern to shew attention to Jane Fairfax, whose prospects were closing, while Harriet’s opened, and whose engagements now allowed of no delay in any one at Highbury, who wished to shew her kindness—and with Emma it was grown into a first wish. She had scarcely a stronger regret than for her past coldness; and the person, whom she had been so many months neglecting, was now the very one on whom she would have lavished every distinction of regard or sympathy. She wanted to be of use to her; wanted to shew a value for her society, and testify respect and consideration. She resolved to prevail on her to spend a day at Hartfield. A note was written to urge it. The invitation was refused, and by a verbal message. “Miss Fairfax was not well enough to write;” and when Mr. Perry called at Hartfield, the same morning, it appeared that she was so much indisposed as to have been visited, though against her own consent, by himself, and that she was suffering under severe headaches, and a nervous fever to a degree, which made him doubt the possibility of her going to Mrs. Smallridge’s at the time proposed. Her health seemed for the moment completely deranged—appetite quite gone—and though there were no absolutely alarming symptoms, nothing touching the pulmonary complaint, which was the standing apprehension of the family, Mr. Perry was uneasy about her. He thought she had undertaken more than she was equal to, and that she felt it so herself, though she would not own it. Her spirits seemed overcome. Her present home, he could not but observe, was unfavourable to a nervous disorder:—confined always to one room;—he could have wished it otherwise—and her good aunt, though his very old friend, he must acknowledge to be not the best companion for an invalid of that description. Her care and attention could not be questioned; they were, in fact, only too great. He very much feared that Miss Fairfax derived more evil than good from them. Emma listened with the warmest concern; grieved for her more and more, and looked around eager to discover some way of being useful. To take her—be it only an hour or two—from her aunt, to give her change of air and scene, and quiet rational conversation, even for an hour or two, might do her good; and the following morning she wrote again to say, in the most feeling language she could command, that she would call for her in the carriage at any hour that Jane would name—mentioning that she had Mr. Perry’s decided opinion, in favour of such exercise for his patient. The answer was only in this short note:
It was more important to focus on Jane Fairfax, whose opportunities were dwindling, while Harriet’s were expanding, and whose commitments now allowed for no delay from anyone in Highbury who wanted to show her kindness—and for Emma, this had become a top priority. She barely felt a stronger regret than for her past indifference; the person she had neglected for so many months was now the very one she would have showered with every kind of attention and sympathy. She wanted to be helpful, to show how much she valued her company, and to express her respect and consideration. She decided to convince her to spend a day at Hartfield. A note was written to invite her. The invitation was declined, conveyed through a verbal message. “Miss Fairfax was not well enough to write;” and when Mr. Perry visited Hartfield that same morning, it turned out she was so unwell that he had visited her, against her wishes, and that she was suffering from severe headaches and a nervous fever to such an extent that he doubted she could go to Mrs. Smallridge’s at the proposed time. Her health seemed completely unsettled—her appetite was completely gone—and although there were no strictly alarming symptoms, nothing related to the respiratory issue that the family always worried about, Mr. Perry was concerned for her. He thought she had taken on more than she could handle, and that she felt it herself, even if she wouldn’t admit it. Her spirits appeared to be down. He couldn’t help but notice that her current home was not conducive to someone with a nervous disorder: always confined to one room—he wished it could be different—and though her good aunt was an old friend of his, he had to admit she wasn’t the best companion for someone in that condition. Her care and attention were beyond question; they were, in fact, a bit excessive. He was very concerned that Miss Fairfax was suffering more due to them than benefiting from them. Emma listened with deep concern, felt increasingly sad for her, and looked around for ways to be helpful. Taking her—even if just for an hour or two—from her aunt, to give her a change of air and scenery, along with some calm, rational conversation, even for a short time, might help; and the next morning she wrote again to express, in the most heartfelt way she could, that she would come for her in the carriage at whatever time Jane named—mentioning that she had Mr. Perry’s strong opinion supporting such a trip for his patient. The response was just a short note:
“Miss Fairfax’s compliments and thanks, but is quite unequal to any exercise.”
“Miss Fairfax sends her compliments and thanks, but isn’t really up for any activity.”
Emma felt that her own note had deserved something better; but it was impossible to quarrel with words, whose tremulous inequality shewed indisposition so plainly, and she thought only of how she might best counteract this unwillingness to be seen or assisted. In spite of the answer, therefore, she ordered the carriage, and drove to Mrs. Bates’s, in the hope that Jane would be induced to join her—but it would not do;—Miss Bates came to the carriage door, all gratitude, and agreeing with her most earnestly in thinking an airing might be of the greatest service—and every thing that message could do was tried—but all in vain. Miss Bates was obliged to return without success; Jane was quite unpersuadable; the mere proposal of going out seemed to make her worse.—Emma wished she could have seen her, and tried her own powers; but, almost before she could hint the wish, Miss Bates made it appear that she had promised her niece on no account to let Miss Woodhouse in. “Indeed, the truth was, that poor dear Jane could not bear to see any body—any body at all—Mrs. Elton, indeed, could not be denied—and Mrs. Cole had made such a point—and Mrs. Perry had said so much—but, except them, Jane would really see nobody.”
Emma felt that her note deserved a better response, but it was impossible to argue with words that clearly showed reluctance. She focused on how to help counteract this unwillingness to be seen or assisted. Despite the answer, she called for the carriage and drove to Mrs. Bates’s, hoping Jane would be persuaded to join her—but it didn’t work. Miss Bates came to the carriage door, full of gratitude and agreeing wholeheartedly that a drive would be very beneficial, and they tried everything the message could suggest—but it was all in vain. Miss Bates had to return unsuccessful; Jane was completely unyielding; the mere suggestion of going out seemed to make her feel worse. Emma wished she could have seen her and tested her own influence, but almost before she could express that wish, Miss Bates made it clear that she had promised her niece not to let Miss Woodhouse in. “The truth is, poor dear Jane couldn’t bear to see anyone—anyone at all—Mrs. Elton couldn’t be refused, and Mrs. Cole had insisted, and Mrs. Perry had said so much—but other than them, Jane really would see no one.”
Emma did not want to be classed with the Mrs. Eltons, the Mrs. Perrys, and the Mrs. Coles, who would force themselves anywhere; neither could she feel any right of preference herself—she submitted, therefore, and only questioned Miss Bates farther as to her niece’s appetite and diet, which she longed to be able to assist. On that subject poor Miss Bates was very unhappy, and very communicative; Jane would hardly eat any thing:—Mr. Perry recommended nourishing food; but every thing they could command (and never had any body such good neighbours) was distasteful.
Emma didn't want to be grouped with the Mrs. Eltons, the Mrs. Perrys, and the Mrs. Coles, who would push themselves into any situation; she also didn't feel she had the right to choose who to associate with—so she went along with it and only asked Miss Bates more about her niece's appetite and diet, which she truly wanted to help with. On that topic, poor Miss Bates was quite unhappy and very talkative; Jane hardly ate anything:—Mr. Perry suggested nourishing food; but everything they could get (and no one had better neighbors) was unappealing.
Emma, on reaching home, called the housekeeper directly, to an examination of her stores; and some arrowroot of very superior quality was speedily despatched to Miss Bates with a most friendly note. In half an hour the arrowroot was returned, with a thousand thanks from Miss Bates, but “dear Jane would not be satisfied without its being sent back; it was a thing she could not take—and, moreover, she insisted on her saying, that she was not at all in want of any thing.”
Emma, when she got home, called the housekeeper right away to check her supplies; and some high-quality arrowroot was quickly sent to Miss Bates with a very friendly note. Within half an hour, the arrowroot was returned, along with countless thanks from Miss Bates, but “dear Jane wouldn’t be satisfied unless it was sent back; it was something she couldn’t take—and, on top of that, she insisted that she wasn’t needing anything at all.”
When Emma afterwards heard that Jane Fairfax had been seen wandering about the meadows, at some distance from Highbury, on the afternoon of the very day on which she had, under the plea of being unequal to any exercise, so peremptorily refused to go out with her in the carriage, she could have no doubt—putting every thing together—that Jane was resolved to receive no kindness from her. She was sorry, very sorry. Her heart was grieved for a state which seemed but the more pitiable from this sort of irritation of spirits, inconsistency of action, and inequality of powers; and it mortified her that she was given so little credit for proper feeling, or esteemed so little worthy as a friend: but she had the consolation of knowing that her intentions were good, and of being able to say to herself, that could Mr. Knightley have been privy to all her attempts of assisting Jane Fairfax, could he even have seen into her heart, he would not, on this occasion, have found any thing to reprove.
When Emma later heard that Jane Fairfax had been seen wandering in the meadows, not far from Highbury, on the same afternoon when Jane had claimed to be too unwell to go out with her in the carriage, she had no doubt—putting everything together—that Jane was determined to reject any kindness from her. She felt sorry, very sorry. Her heart ached for a situation that seemed even more pitiful because of this kind of irritation, inconsistency, and imbalance; it frustrated her that she received so little credit for her feelings or was considered so unworthy as a friend. But she found comfort in knowing her intentions were good, and she could tell herself that if Mr. Knightley had known about all her efforts to help Jane Fairfax, and could have seen into her heart, he would not have found anything to criticize in this situation.
CHAPTER X
One morning, about ten days after Mrs. Churchill’s decease, Emma was called downstairs to Mr. Weston, who “could not stay five minutes, and wanted particularly to speak with her.”—He met her at the parlour-door, and hardly asking her how she did, in the natural key of his voice, sunk it immediately, to say, unheard by her father,
One morning, around ten days after Mrs. Churchill passed away, Emma was called downstairs by Mr. Weston, who “couldn’t stay for more than five minutes and specifically wanted to talk to her.” He met her at the parlor door and barely asked how she was doing in his usual tone, quickly lowering his voice to say something her father couldn’t hear.
“Can you come to Randalls at any time this morning?—Do, if it be possible. Mrs. Weston wants to see you. She must see you.”
“Can you come to Randalls at any time this morning? Please do, if you can. Mrs. Weston wants to see you. She really needs to see you.”
“Is she unwell?”
"Is she sick?"
“No, no, not at all—only a little agitated. She would have ordered the carriage, and come to you, but she must see you alone, and that you know—(nodding towards her father)—Humph!—Can you come?”
“No, no, not at all—just a bit unsettled. She would have called for the carriage and come to see you, but she needs to talk to you alone, and you know—” (nodding towards her father) “Humph!—Can you come?”
“Certainly. This moment, if you please. It is impossible to refuse what you ask in such a way. But what can be the matter?—Is she really not ill?”
“Of course. At this moment, if you don’t mind. It’s hard to say no to such a request. But what’s going on?—Is she really not sick?”
“Depend upon me—but ask no more questions. You will know it all in time. The most unaccountable business! But hush, hush!”
“Rely on me—but don’t ask any more questions. You’ll find out everything eventually. It’s the weirdest thing! But shh, shh!”
To guess what all this meant, was impossible even for Emma. Something really important seemed announced by his looks; but, as her friend was well, she endeavoured not to be uneasy, and settling it with her father, that she would take her walk now, she and Mr. Weston were soon out of the house together and on their way at a quick pace for Randalls.
To figure out what all this meant was impossible, even for Emma. His looks suggested that something really important was being communicated, but since her friend was okay, she tried not to feel anxious. After discussing it with her father, she decided to take her walk now, and soon she and Mr. Weston were out of the house together, heading quickly toward Randalls.
“Now,”—said Emma, when they were fairly beyond the sweep gates,—“now Mr. Weston, do let me know what has happened.”
“Now,” said Emma, when they were finally past the entrance gates, “now Mr. Weston, please tell me what’s happened.”
“No, no,”—he gravely replied.—“Don’t ask me. I promised my wife to leave it all to her. She will break it to you better than I can. Do not be impatient, Emma; it will all come out too soon.”
“No, no,” he replied seriously. “Don’t ask me. I promised my wife I would leave it all to her. She will tell you in a better way than I can. Please be patient, Emma; it will all come out soon enough.”
“Break it to me,” cried Emma, standing still with terror.—“Good God!—Mr. Weston, tell me at once.—Something has happened in Brunswick Square. I know it has. Tell me, I charge you tell me this moment what it is.”
“Just tell me,” Emma exclaimed, frozen with fear. “Oh my God!—Mr. Weston, please tell me right now.—Something’s happened in Brunswick Square. I can feel it. Please, I insist you tell me what it is this instant.”
“No, indeed you are mistaken.”—
“No, you’re mistaken.”
“Mr. Weston do not trifle with me.—Consider how many of my dearest friends are now in Brunswick Square. Which of them is it?—I charge you by all that is sacred, not to attempt concealment.”
“Mr. Weston, don’t mess with me.—Think about how many of my closest friends are currently in Brunswick Square. Which one is it?—I urge you by everything that is sacred, don’t try to hide it.”
“Upon my word, Emma.”—
"Honestly, Emma."
“Your word!—why not your honour!—why not say upon your honour, that it has nothing to do with any of them? Good Heavens!—What can be to be broke to me, that does not relate to one of that family?”
“Your word!—why not your honor!—why not say upon your honor that it has nothing to do with any of them? Good heavens!—What could possibly be broke to me that doesn’t relate to one of that family?”
“Upon my honour,” said he very seriously, “it does not. It is not in the smallest degree connected with any human being of the name of Knightley.”
“Honestly,” he said very seriously, “it doesn’t. It’s not connected in any way to anyone named Knightley.”
Emma’s courage returned, and she walked on.
Emma's courage came back, and she continued walking.
“I was wrong,” he continued, “in talking of its being broke to you. I should not have used the expression. In fact, it does not concern you—it concerns only myself,—that is, we hope.—Humph!—In short, my dear Emma, there is no occasion to be so uneasy about it. I don’t say that it is not a disagreeable business—but things might be much worse.—If we walk fast, we shall soon be at Randalls.”
“I was wrong,” he continued, “to say it was broke to you. I shouldn’t have used that term. Honestly, it doesn’t involve you—it only concerns me, or at least, that’s our hope. Humph! In short, my dear Emma, there’s really no need to be so worried about it. I’m not saying it’s not an unpleasant situation, but it could be much worse. If we walk quickly, we’ll be at Randalls in no time.”
Emma found that she must wait; and now it required little effort. She asked no more questions therefore, merely employed her own fancy, and that soon pointed out to her the probability of its being some money concern—something just come to light, of a disagreeable nature in the circumstances of the family,—something which the late event at Richmond had brought forward. Her fancy was very active. Half a dozen natural children, perhaps—and poor Frank cut off!—This, though very undesirable, would be no matter of agony to her. It inspired little more than an animating curiosity.
Emma realized she had to wait, and it didn't take much effort. So she stopped asking questions and let her imagination run wild, which quickly suggested that it was probably something related to money—something unpleasant about the family's situation that the recent event in Richmond had uncovered. Her imagination was very active. Maybe there were half a dozen illegitimate children, and poor Frank was out of the picture! While that would be unfortunate, it didn't cause her much distress. It sparked a sense of curiosity instead.
“Who is that gentleman on horseback?” said she, as they proceeded—speaking more to assist Mr. Weston in keeping his secret, than with any other view.
“Who is that guy on the horse?” she said as they went on—talking more to help Mr. Weston keep his secret than for any other reason.
“I do not know.—One of the Otways.—Not Frank;—it is not Frank, I assure you. You will not see him. He is half way to Windsor by this time.”
“I don’t know.—One of the Otways.—Not Frank;—it’s not Frank, I promise you. You won’t see him. He’s already halfway to Windsor by now.”
“Has your son been with you, then?”
“Has your son been with you?”
“Oh! yes—did not you know?—Well, well, never mind.”
“Oh! yeah—didn’t you know?—Well, it’s fine, don’t worry about it.”
For a moment he was silent; and then added, in a tone much more guarded and demure,
For a moment he was quiet; then he added, in a tone much more cautious and reserved,
“Yes, Frank came over this morning, just to ask us how we did.”
“Yes, Frank came over this morning, just to check on how we did.”
They hurried on, and were speedily at Randalls.—“Well, my dear,” said he, as they entered the room—“I have brought her, and now I hope you will soon be better. I shall leave you together. There is no use in delay. I shall not be far off, if you want me.”—And Emma distinctly heard him add, in a lower tone, before he quitted the room,—“I have been as good as my word. She has not the least idea.”
They rushed ahead and quickly arrived at Randalls. —“Well, my dear,” he said as they entered the room—“I’ve brought her, and I hope you’ll be feeling better soon. I’ll leave you two alone. There’s no point in delaying. I won’t be far away if you need me.” —And Emma clearly heard him add, in a softer voice, before he left the room, —“I’ve kept my promise. She has no idea.”
Mrs. Weston was looking so ill, and had an air of so much perturbation, that Emma’s uneasiness increased; and the moment they were alone, she eagerly said,
Mrs. Weston looked really unwell and seemed so troubled that Emma's worry grew. As soon as they were alone, she eagerly said,
“What is it my dear friend? Something of a very unpleasant nature, I find, has occurred;—do let me know directly what it is. I have been walking all this way in complete suspense. We both abhor suspense. Do not let mine continue longer. It will do you good to speak of your distress, whatever it may be.”
“What is it, my dear friend? I sense that something very unpleasant has happened; please tell me right away what it is. I've been walking all this way in complete uncertainty. We both hate uncertainty. Don’t let mine go on any longer. It will help you to talk about your troubles, whatever they may be.”
“Have you indeed no idea?” said Mrs. Weston in a trembling voice. “Cannot you, my dear Emma—cannot you form a guess as to what you are to hear?”
“Do you really have no idea?” Mrs. Weston asked, her voice shaking. “Can't you, my dear Emma—can't you take a guess at what you're about to hear?”
“So far as that it relates to Mr. Frank Churchill, I do guess.”
"So far as it relates to Mr. Frank Churchill, I think."
“You are right. It does relate to him, and I will tell you directly;” (resuming her work, and seeming resolved against looking up.) “He has been here this very morning, on a most extraordinary errand. It is impossible to express our surprize. He came to speak to his father on a subject,—to announce an attachment—”
“You're right. It does connect to him, and I’ll tell you straight up;” (going back to her work and appearing determined not to look up.) “He was here this very morning for a really unusual reason. It's hard to say how surprised we were. He came to talk to his dad about something—to share that he’s in love—”
She stopped to breathe. Emma thought first of herself, and then of Harriet.
She paused to catch her breath. Emma considered herself first, and then thought about Harriet.
“More than an attachment, indeed,” resumed Mrs. Weston; “an engagement—a positive engagement.—What will you say, Emma—what will any body say, when it is known that Frank Churchill and Miss Fairfax are engaged;—nay, that they have been long engaged!”
“More than just an attachment, really,” Mrs. Weston continued; “an engagement—a definite engagement. What will you say, Emma—what will anyone say when it becomes known that Frank Churchill and Miss Fairfax are engaged;—actually, that they have been engaged for a while!”
Emma even jumped with surprize;—and, horror-struck, exclaimed,
Emma even jumped with surprise;—and, horrified, exclaimed,
“Jane Fairfax!—Good God! You are not serious? You do not mean it?”
“Jane Fairfax!—Oh my God! You can’t be serious? You don’t mean it?”
“You may well be amazed,” returned Mrs. Weston, still averting her eyes, and talking on with eagerness, that Emma might have time to recover— “You may well be amazed. But it is even so. There has been a solemn engagement between them ever since October—formed at Weymouth, and kept a secret from every body. Not a creature knowing it but themselves—neither the Campbells, nor her family, nor his.—It is so wonderful, that though perfectly convinced of the fact, it is yet almost incredible to myself. I can hardly believe it.—I thought I knew him.”
“You might be surprised,” Mrs. Weston said, still looking away and speaking eagerly, hoping Emma would have a moment to gather herself. “You might really be surprised. But it’s true. They’ve been in a serious engagement since October—set up at Weymouth, and kept a secret from everyone. No one knows but them—not the Campbells, not her family, not his. It’s so unbelievable that even though I’m completely convinced it’s true, it still feels almost incredible to me. I can barely believe it. I thought I knew him.”
Emma scarcely heard what was said.—Her mind was divided between two ideas—her own former conversations with him about Miss Fairfax; and poor Harriet;—and for some time she could only exclaim, and require confirmation, repeated confirmation.
Emma barely heard what was being said. Her thoughts were split between two ideas—her earlier conversations with him about Miss Fairfax and poor Harriet. For a while, she could only exclaim and ask for confirmation, over and over again.
“Well,” said she at last, trying to recover herself; “this is a circumstance which I must think of at least half a day, before I can at all comprehend it. What!—engaged to her all the winter—before either of them came to Highbury?”
“Well,” she finally said, trying to gather her thoughts, “this is something I need to think about for at least half a day before I can even begin to understand it. What!—engaged to her all winter—before either of them even arrived in Highbury?”
“Engaged since October,—secretly engaged.—It has hurt me, Emma, very much. It has hurt his father equally. Some part of his conduct we cannot excuse.”
“Engaged since October—secretly engaged. It has hurt me, Emma, a lot. It has hurt his father just as much. Some part of his behavior we cannot justify.”
Emma pondered a moment, and then replied, “I will not pretend not to understand you; and to give you all the relief in my power, be assured that no such effect has followed his attentions to me, as you are apprehensive of.”
Emma thought for a moment, then said, “I won’t pretend not to understand you; and to offer you all the reassurance I can, you can be sure that nothing you’re worried about has happened because of his attentions toward me.”
Mrs. Weston looked up, afraid to believe; but Emma’s countenance was as steady as her words.
Mrs. Weston looked up, hesitant to believe; but Emma's expression was as firm as her words.
“That you may have less difficulty in believing this boast, of my present perfect indifference,” she continued, “I will farther tell you, that there was a period in the early part of our acquaintance, when I did like him, when I was very much disposed to be attached to him—nay, was attached—and how it came to cease, is perhaps the wonder. Fortunately, however, it did cease. I have really for some time past, for at least these three months, cared nothing about him. You may believe me, Mrs. Weston. This is the simple truth.”
“Just so you don't find it hard to believe my current indifference,” she continued, “I'll share that there was a time early in our acquaintance when I did like him, when I was very much inclined to be attached to him—actually, I was attached—and how that changed is perhaps the puzzling part. Fortunately, though, it did change. For some time now, at least for the past three months, I haven't cared about him at all. You can trust me, Mrs. Weston. This is the plain truth.”
Mrs. Weston kissed her with tears of joy; and when she could find utterance, assured her, that this protestation had done her more good than any thing else in the world could do.
Mrs. Weston kissed her with tears of joy, and when she could speak, assured her that this declaration had done more for her than anything else in the world could.
“Mr. Weston will be almost as much relieved as myself,” said she. “On this point we have been wretched. It was our darling wish that you might be attached to each other—and we were persuaded that it was so.— Imagine what we have been feeling on your account.”
"Mr. Weston will be as relieved as I am," she said. "We've been miserable about this. It was our biggest hope that you two would be together—and we were sure that you were. Just think about how we've felt because of this."
“I have escaped; and that I should escape, may be a matter of grateful wonder to you and myself. But this does not acquit him, Mrs. Weston; and I must say, that I think him greatly to blame. What right had he to come among us with affection and faith engaged, and with manners so very disengaged? What right had he to endeavour to please, as he certainly did—to distinguish any one young woman with persevering attention, as he certainly did—while he really belonged to another?—How could he tell what mischief he might be doing?—How could he tell that he might not be making me in love with him?—very wrong, very wrong indeed.”
“I’ve escaped; and that I did escape should be a cause for gratitude for both of us. But that doesn’t excuse him, Mrs. Weston; and I must say, I believe he’s greatly at fault. What right did he have to come among us with his feelings and commitment already settled, yet with such totally detached manners? What right did he have to try to please, as he definitely did—to focus on one young woman with such persistent attention, as he definitely did—while he was truly committed to another?—How could he know what trouble he might be causing?—How could he know he might not be making me fall in love with him?—very wrong, very wrong indeed.”
“From something that he said, my dear Emma, I rather imagine—”
“From something he said, my dear Emma, I kind of think—”
“And how could she bear such behaviour! Composure with a witness! to look on, while repeated attentions were offering to another woman, before her face, and not resent it.—That is a degree of placidity, which I can neither comprehend nor respect.”
“And how could she put up with such behavior! Staying calm with a witness! To watch while repeated flirtations were directed at another woman, right in front of her, and not feel angry about it. —That’s a level of calmness that I can neither understand nor respect.”
“There were misunderstandings between them, Emma; he said so expressly. He had not time to enter into much explanation. He was here only a quarter of an hour, and in a state of agitation which did not allow the full use even of the time he could stay—but that there had been misunderstandings he decidedly said. The present crisis, indeed, seemed to be brought on by them; and those misunderstandings might very possibly arise from the impropriety of his conduct.”
“There were misunderstandings between them, Emma; he said so clearly. He didn’t have time for a detailed explanation. He was here for only fifteen minutes and was so agitated that he couldn't fully use even that time—but he definitely mentioned that there had been misunderstandings. The current situation seemed to have been caused by them; and those misunderstandings could very well have come from the inappropriateness of his behavior.”
“Impropriety! Oh! Mrs. Weston—it is too calm a censure. Much, much beyond impropriety!—It has sunk him, I cannot say how it has sunk him in my opinion. So unlike what a man should be!—None of that upright integrity, that strict adherence to truth and principle, that disdain of trick and littleness, which a man should display in every transaction of his life.”
“Impropriety! Oh! Mrs. Weston—it’s too mild a criticism. Much more than impropriety!—It has really damaged him, I can’t even express how much it has affected my view of him. He’s so unlike what a man should be!—None of that honesty, that commitment to truth and principles, that rejection of deceit and pettiness, which a man should show in every aspect of his life.”
“Nay, dear Emma, now I must take his part; for though he has been wrong in this instance, I have known him long enough to answer for his having many, very many, good qualities; and—”
“Nah, dear Emma, I have to defend him now; because even though he's been wrong in this case, I've known him long enough to vouch for the fact that he has a lot, really a lot, of good qualities; and—”
“Good God!” cried Emma, not attending to her.—“Mrs. Smallridge, too! Jane actually on the point of going as governess! What could he mean by such horrible indelicacy? To suffer her to engage herself—to suffer her even to think of such a measure!”
“Good God!” exclaimed Emma, not paying attention to her.—“Mrs. Smallridge, too! Jane was actually about to become a governess! What could he possibly mean by such terrible thoughtlessness? To let her engage herself—to let her even consider such an idea!”
“He knew nothing about it, Emma. On this article I can fully acquit him. It was a private resolution of hers, not communicated to him—or at least not communicated in a way to carry conviction.—Till yesterday, I know he said he was in the dark as to her plans. They burst on him, I do not know how, but by some letter or message—and it was the discovery of what she was doing, of this very project of hers, which determined him to come forward at once, own it all to his uncle, throw himself on his kindness, and, in short, put an end to the miserable state of concealment that had been carrying on so long.”
“He didn’t know anything about it, Emma. I can completely clear him on this. It was a private decision she made, not shared with him—or at least not shared in a convincing way. Until yesterday, I know he said he had no idea about her plans. They surprised him, I’m not sure how, but through some letter or message—and it was finding out what she was doing, this very project of hers, that made him decide to step forward immediately, own up to everything with his uncle, rely on his kindness, and, in short, put an end to the awful secrecy that had been going on for so long.”
Emma began to listen better.
Emma started to listen better.
“I am to hear from him soon,” continued Mrs. Weston. “He told me at parting, that he should soon write; and he spoke in a manner which seemed to promise me many particulars that could not be given now. Let us wait, therefore, for this letter. It may bring many extenuations. It may make many things intelligible and excusable which now are not to be understood. Don’t let us be severe, don’t let us be in a hurry to condemn him. Let us have patience. I must love him; and now that I am satisfied on one point, the one material point, I am sincerely anxious for its all turning out well, and ready to hope that it may. They must both have suffered a great deal under such a system of secresy and concealment.”
“I’ll be hearing from him soon,” Mrs. Weston continued. “He told me when we parted that he would write to me soon, and he seemed to suggest there would be a lot of details that he couldn’t share right now. So let’s wait for this letter. It might provide many explanations. It could clarify and justify a lot of things that are confusing right now. Let’s not be harsh or rush to judge him. We need to be patient. I have to love him; and now that I’m reassured on one important issue, I genuinely hope everything turns out well and I’m ready to believe it can. They both must have gone through a lot because of all this secrecy and hiding.”
“His sufferings,” replied Emma dryly, “do not appear to have done him much harm. Well, and how did Mr. Churchill take it?”
“His suffering,” Emma replied flatly, “doesn’t seem to have affected him much. So, how did Mr. Churchill handle it?”
“Most favourably for his nephew—gave his consent with scarcely a difficulty. Conceive what the events of a week have done in that family! While poor Mrs. Churchill lived, I suppose there could not have been a hope, a chance, a possibility;—but scarcely are her remains at rest in the family vault, than her husband is persuaded to act exactly opposite to what she would have required. What a blessing it is, when undue influence does not survive the grave!—He gave his consent with very little persuasion.”
“Most favorably for his nephew, he gave his consent with hardly any difficulty. Just think about what happened in that family over the course of a week! While poor Mrs. Churchill was alive, I suppose there was no hope, no chance, no possibility; but hardly are her remains in the family vault than her husband is convinced to do exactly the opposite of what she would have wanted. What a blessing it is when unwanted influence doesn’t last beyond the grave! He gave his consent with very little persuasion.”
“Ah!” thought Emma, “he would have done as much for Harriet.”
“Ah!” thought Emma, “he would have done just as much for Harriet.”
“This was settled last night, and Frank was off with the light this morning. He stopped at Highbury, at the Bates’s, I fancy, some time—and then came on hither; but was in such a hurry to get back to his uncle, to whom he is just now more necessary than ever, that, as I tell you, he could stay with us but a quarter of an hour.—He was very much agitated—very much, indeed—to a degree that made him appear quite a different creature from any thing I had ever seen him before.—In addition to all the rest, there had been the shock of finding her so very unwell, which he had had no previous suspicion of—and there was every appearance of his having been feeling a great deal.”
“This was decided last night, and Frank left early this morning. He stopped at Highbury, probably at the Bates’s, for a while—and then came here; but he was in such a rush to get back to his uncle, who needs him now more than ever, that, as I mentioned, he could only stay with us for about fifteen minutes. He was really shaken—very much, in fact—to the point where he seemed like a completely different person than I had ever seen before. On top of everything else, he had the shock of discovering that she was so very unwell, which he hadn’t suspected at all—and it was clear he had been feeling a lot.”
“And do you really believe the affair to have been carrying on with such perfect secresy?—The Campbells, the Dixons, did none of them know of the engagement?”
“And do you really think the affair was kept completely secret? Did none of the Campbells or the Dixons know about the engagement?”
Emma could not speak the name of Dixon without a little blush.
Emma couldn't say Dixon's name without slightly blushing.
“None; not one. He positively said that it had been known to no being in the world but their two selves.”
“None, not a single one. He clearly stated that it had been known to no one in the world except for the two of them.”
“Well,” said Emma, “I suppose we shall gradually grow reconciled to the idea, and I wish them very happy. But I shall always think it a very abominable sort of proceeding. What has it been but a system of hypocrisy and deceit,—espionage, and treachery?—To come among us with professions of openness and simplicity; and such a league in secret to judge us all!—Here have we been, the whole winter and spring, completely duped, fancying ourselves all on an equal footing of truth and honour, with two people in the midst of us who may have been carrying round, comparing and sitting in judgment on sentiments and words that were never meant for both to hear.—They must take the consequence, if they have heard each other spoken of in a way not perfectly agreeable!”
“Well,” Emma said, “I guess we'll slowly get used to the idea, and I wish them all the happiness. But I will always find it a really horrible way to behave. What has this been but a system of hypocrisy and deceit—spying and betrayal?—To come to us claiming to be open and honest while secretly plotting to judge us all!—We’ve spent the whole winter and spring completely fooled, thinking we were all on the same level of truth and integrity, with two people among us who might have been discussing, comparing, and judging our thoughts and words that were never meant for both of them to hear.—They’ll have to deal with the fallout if they’ve heard each other talked about in a way that’s not exactly agreeable!”
“I am quite easy on that head,” replied Mrs. Weston. “I am very sure that I never said any thing of either to the other, which both might not have heard.”
“I’m pretty relaxed about that,” replied Mrs. Weston. “I’m quite sure that I never said anything to either of them that both of them wouldn’t have been able to hear.”
“You are in luck.—Your only blunder was confined to my ear, when you imagined a certain friend of ours in love with the lady.”
“You're in luck. Your only mistake was in my ear when you thought a certain friend of ours was in love with the lady.”
“True. But as I have always had a thoroughly good opinion of Miss Fairfax, I never could, under any blunder, have spoken ill of her; and as to speaking ill of him, there I must have been safe.”
“True. But since I have always had a really good opinion of Miss Fairfax, I could never, by any mistake, have spoken badly about her; and as for speaking poorly of him, I would have been in the clear there.”
At this moment Mr. Weston appeared at a little distance from the window, evidently on the watch. His wife gave him a look which invited him in; and, while he was coming round, added, “Now, dearest Emma, let me intreat you to say and look every thing that may set his heart at ease, and incline him to be satisfied with the match. Let us make the best of it—and, indeed, almost every thing may be fairly said in her favour. It is not a connexion to gratify; but if Mr. Churchill does not feel that, why should we? and it may be a very fortunate circumstance for him, for Frank, I mean, that he should have attached himself to a girl of such steadiness of character and good judgment as I have always given her credit for—and still am disposed to give her credit for, in spite of this one great deviation from the strict rule of right. And how much may be said in her situation for even that error!”
At that moment, Mr. Weston showed up a little way from the window, clearly watching. His wife gave him a look that invited him in; and while he was making his way around, she added, “Now, dear Emma, please let me urge you to say and do everything that might ease his mind and make him feel good about the match. Let’s make the best of it—and really, almost everything can be said in her favor. It’s not the ideal connection, but if Mr. Churchill isn’t upset about it, why should we be? It could actually be a lucky break for him—Frank, I mean—to have gotten involved with a girl who has such steadiness of character and good judgment as I’ve always believed she has—and I still believe it, despite this one major mistake she’s made. And there’s a lot to consider in her situation regarding that mistake!”
“Much, indeed!” cried Emma feelingly. “If a woman can ever be excused for thinking only of herself, it is in a situation like Jane Fairfax’s.—Of such, one may almost say, that ‘the world is not their’s, nor the world’s law.’”
“Absolutely!” Emma exclaimed with emotion. “If a woman can ever be justified in thinking only of herself, it’s in a situation like Jane Fairfax’s.—You could almost say that ‘the world doesn’t belong to them, nor do the world’s rules.’”
She met Mr. Weston on his entrance, with a smiling countenance, exclaiming,
She ran into Mr. Weston as he arrived, wearing a cheerful smile, exclaiming,
“A very pretty trick you have been playing me, upon my word! This was a device, I suppose, to sport with my curiosity, and exercise my talent of guessing. But you really frightened me. I thought you had lost half your property, at least. And here, instead of its being a matter of condolence, it turns out to be one of congratulation.—I congratulate you, Mr. Weston, with all my heart, on the prospect of having one of the most lovely and accomplished young women in England for your daughter.”
“A very clever trick you’ve pulled on me, I must say! I suppose this was a way to tease my curiosity and test my guessing skills. But you genuinely scared me. I thought you had lost at least half of your assets. And now, instead of offering condolences, it turns out I should be congratulating you. —I congratulate you, Mr. Weston, with all my heart, on the prospect of having one of the most beautiful and talented young women in England as your daughter.”
A glance or two between him and his wife, convinced him that all was as right as this speech proclaimed; and its happy effect on his spirits was immediate. His air and voice recovered their usual briskness: he shook her heartily and gratefully by the hand, and entered on the subject in a manner to prove, that he now only wanted time and persuasion to think the engagement no very bad thing. His companions suggested only what could palliate imprudence, or smooth objections; and by the time they had talked it all over together, and he had talked it all over again with Emma, in their walk back to Hartfield, he was become perfectly reconciled, and not far from thinking it the very best thing that Frank could possibly have done.
A couple of looks exchanged between him and his wife made him feel that everything was as right as the speech suggested; and it immediately lifted his spirits. His demeanor and voice regained their usual energy: he shook her hand warmly and gratefully, and approached the topic in a way that showed he now just needed a little time and convincing to see the engagement as a good thing. His friends offered only suggestions to soften any reckless feelings or ease concerns; and by the time they had discussed it all together, and he had talked it over again with Emma on the way back to Hartfield, he was completely at ease and almost ready to think it was the best decision Frank could have made.
CHAPTER XI
“Harriet, poor Harriet!”—Those were the words; in them lay the tormenting ideas which Emma could not get rid of, and which constituted the real misery of the business to her. Frank Churchill had behaved very ill by herself—very ill in many ways,—but it was not so much his behaviour as her own, which made her so angry with him. It was the scrape which he had drawn her into on Harriet’s account, that gave the deepest hue to his offence.—Poor Harriet! to be a second time the dupe of her misconceptions and flattery. Mr. Knightley had spoken prophetically, when he once said, “Emma, you have been no friend to Harriet Smith.”—She was afraid she had done her nothing but disservice.—It was true that she had not to charge herself, in this instance as in the former, with being the sole and original author of the mischief; with having suggested such feelings as might otherwise never have entered Harriet’s imagination; for Harriet had acknowledged her admiration and preference of Frank Churchill before she had ever given her a hint on the subject; but she felt completely guilty of having encouraged what she might have repressed. She might have prevented the indulgence and increase of such sentiments. Her influence would have been enough. And now she was very conscious that she ought to have prevented them.—She felt that she had been risking her friend’s happiness on most insufficient grounds. Common sense would have directed her to tell Harriet, that she must not allow herself to think of him, and that there were five hundred chances to one against his ever caring for her.—“But, with common sense,” she added, “I am afraid I have had little to do.”
“Harriet, poor Harriet!”—Those were the words; in them lay the nagging thoughts that Emma couldn't shake off, and which formed the real anguish of the situation for her. Frank Churchill had treated her poorly—very poorly in many ways—but it wasn't so much his actions as her own that made her so angry with him. It was the mess he had drawn her into on Harriet’s behalf that intensified his wrongdoing. —Poor Harriet! to be tricked again by her own misunderstandings and flattery. Mr. Knightley had been spot on when he once said, “Emma, you have not been a good friend to Harriet Smith.” She feared she had done nothing but harm to her friend. —It was true that she couldn't blame herself, in this case as in the previous one, for being the sole cause of the trouble; for having stirred up feelings that might have never crossed Harriet’s mind otherwise; since Harriet had admitted her admiration and preference for Frank Churchill before Emma ever hinted at it. But she felt completely guilty for encouraging what she should have discouraged. She could have stopped the growth of those feelings. Her influence would have been enough. And now she was acutely aware that she should have prevented them. —She felt that she had been gambling with her friend’s happiness on very flimsy grounds. Common sense would have told her to advise Harriet not to think about him, and that the odds were five hundred to one against him ever caring for her. —“But, with common sense,” she added, “I’m afraid I haven’t had much to do.”
She was extremely angry with herself. If she could not have been angry with Frank Churchill too, it would have been dreadful.—As for Jane Fairfax, she might at least relieve her feelings from any present solicitude on her account. Harriet would be anxiety enough; she need no longer be unhappy about Jane, whose troubles and whose ill-health having, of course, the same origin, must be equally under cure.—Her days of insignificance and evil were over.—She would soon be well, and happy, and prosperous.—Emma could now imagine why her own attentions had been slighted. This discovery laid many smaller matters open. No doubt it had been from jealousy.—In Jane’s eyes she had been a rival; and well might any thing she could offer of assistance or regard be repulsed. An airing in the Hartfield carriage would have been the rack, and arrowroot from the Hartfield storeroom must have been poison. She understood it all; and as far as her mind could disengage itself from the injustice and selfishness of angry feelings, she acknowledged that Jane Fairfax would have neither elevation nor happiness beyond her desert. But poor Harriet was such an engrossing charge! There was little sympathy to be spared for any body else. Emma was sadly fearful that this second disappointment would be more severe than the first. Considering the very superior claims of the object, it ought; and judging by its apparently stronger effect on Harriet’s mind, producing reserve and self-command, it would.—She must communicate the painful truth, however, and as soon as possible. An injunction of secresy had been among Mr. Weston’s parting words. “For the present, the whole affair was to be completely a secret. Mr. Churchill had made a point of it, as a token of respect to the wife he had so very recently lost; and every body admitted it to be no more than due decorum.”—Emma had promised; but still Harriet must be excepted. It was her superior duty.
She was really angry with herself. If she couldn't have been angry with Frank Churchill too, it would have been awful. As for Jane Fairfax, at least she could stop worrying about her for now. Harriet was enough to be anxious about; she didn't need to feel unhappy about Jane, whose troubles and poor health, of course, came from the same place and would be treated in time. Her days of feeling insignificant and miserable were over. She would soon be well, happy, and successful. Emma could now understand why her own attention had been ignored. This realization shed light on many smaller issues. It was definitely out of jealousy. In Jane’s eyes, Emma had been a rival; anything she might offer in terms of help or kindness would understandably be rejected. A ride in the Hartfield carriage would have felt like torture, and arrowroot from the Hartfield pantry would have seemed like poison. She got it all; and as much as she could pull her mind away from the injustice and selfishness of her anger, she recognized that Jane Fairfax wouldn’t have any status or happiness beyond what she deserved. But poor Harriet was such a consuming responsibility! There was hardly any sympathy left for anyone else. Emma was seriously worried that this second disappointment would hit harder than the first. Given the much more significant implications of the situation, it should have; and judging by how it seemed to affect Harriet’s mindset, making her more reserved and composed, it would. She needed to share the painful truth, though, and as soon as possible. Mr. Weston’s parting words included a request for secrecy. “For now, the whole thing was to be kept completely under wraps. Mr. Churchill insisted on it, out of respect for his wife, whom he had just lost; and everyone agreed it was only proper decorum.” Emma had promised, but Harriet had to be an exception. It was her greater responsibility.
In spite of her vexation, she could not help feeling it almost ridiculous, that she should have the very same distressing and delicate office to perform by Harriet, which Mrs. Weston had just gone through by herself. The intelligence, which had been so anxiously announced to her, she was now to be anxiously announcing to another. Her heart beat quick on hearing Harriet’s footstep and voice; so, she supposed, had poor Mrs. Weston felt when she was approaching Randalls. Could the event of the disclosure bear an equal resemblance!—But of that, unfortunately, there could be no chance.
In spite of her frustration, she couldn't help but think it was almost ridiculous that she had to deliver the same distressing and sensitive message to Harriet that Mrs. Weston had just handled herself. The news, which had been announced to her with such anxiety, was now something she needed to share with someone else. Her heart raced when she heard Harriet’s footsteps and voice; Mrs. Weston must have felt just as nervous when she was on her way to Randalls. But, unfortunately, there was no chance the outcome of this situation would be the same!
“Well, Miss Woodhouse!” cried Harriet, coming eagerly into the room—“is not this the oddest news that ever was?”
“Well, Miss Woodhouse!” Harriet exclaimed, rushing eagerly into the room—“isn’t this the craziest news ever?”
“What news do you mean?” replied Emma, unable to guess, by look or voice, whether Harriet could indeed have received any hint.
“What news are you talking about?” Emma replied, unable to tell from Harriet’s expression or tone whether she might have actually gotten any hint.
“About Jane Fairfax. Did you ever hear any thing so strange? Oh!—you need not be afraid of owning it to me, for Mr. Weston has told me himself. I met him just now. He told me it was to be a great secret; and, therefore, I should not think of mentioning it to any body but you, but he said you knew it.”
“About Jane Fairfax. Have you ever heard anything so strange? Oh! You don’t need to be worried about admitting it to me, because Mr. Weston has told me himself. I just saw him a moment ago. He mentioned it was supposed to be a big secret; so I wouldn’t think of telling anyone else but you, but he said you already knew.”
“What did Mr. Weston tell you?”—said Emma, still perplexed.
“What did Mr. Weston say to you?” Emma asked, still confused.
“Oh! he told me all about it; that Jane Fairfax and Mr. Frank Churchill are to be married, and that they have been privately engaged to one another this long while. How very odd!”
“Oh! He filled me in on everything; that Jane Fairfax and Mr. Frank Churchill are getting married, and that they’ve been secretly engaged for quite some time. How strange!”
It was, indeed, so odd; Harriet’s behaviour was so extremely odd, that Emma did not know how to understand it. Her character appeared absolutely changed. She seemed to propose shewing no agitation, or disappointment, or peculiar concern in the discovery. Emma looked at her, quite unable to speak.
It was really strange; Harriet's behavior was so unusual that Emma didn't know how to make sense of it. She seemed completely different. It looked like she was trying to hide any agitation, disappointment, or special concern about what had happened. Emma stared at her, totally at a loss for words.
“Had you any idea,” cried Harriet, “of his being in love with her?—You, perhaps, might.—You (blushing as she spoke) who can see into every body’s heart; but nobody else—”
“Did you have any idea,” cried Harriet, “that he was in love with her?—You might have. You (blushing as she spoke) who can see into everyone’s heart; but nobody else—”
“Upon my word,” said Emma, “I begin to doubt my having any such talent. Can you seriously ask me, Harriet, whether I imagined him attached to another woman at the very time that I was—tacitly, if not openly—encouraging you to give way to your own feelings?—I never had the slightest suspicion, till within the last hour, of Mr. Frank Churchill’s having the least regard for Jane Fairfax. You may be very sure that if I had, I should have cautioned you accordingly.”
“Honestly,” said Emma, “I’m starting to question whether I have any talent for this at all. Can you really ask me, Harriet, if I thought he was interested in another woman while I was—subtly, if not openly—encouraging you to express your own feelings? I had no inkling, until just the last hour, that Mr. Frank Churchill felt anything for Jane Fairfax. You can be sure that if I had, I would have warned you.”
“Me!” cried Harriet, colouring, and astonished. “Why should you caution me?—You do not think I care about Mr. Frank Churchill.”
“Me!” cried Harriet, blushing and surprised. “Why are you warning me?—You don’t think I care about Mr. Frank Churchill.”
“I am delighted to hear you speak so stoutly on the subject,” replied Emma, smiling; “but you do not mean to deny that there was a time—and not very distant either—when you gave me reason to understand that you did care about him?”
“I’m so glad to hear you talk so confidently about this,” replied Emma with a smile; “but you can’t honestly deny that there was a time—and it wasn’t too long ago—when you made me believe that you actually cared about him?”
“Him!—never, never. Dear Miss Woodhouse, how could you so mistake me?” turning away distressed.
“Him!—never, never. Dear Miss Woodhouse, how could you get me so wrong?” he said, turning away clearly upset.
“Harriet!” cried Emma, after a moment’s pause—“What do you mean?—Good Heaven! what do you mean?—Mistake you!—Am I to suppose then?—”
“Harriet!” cried Emma, after a brief pause—“What are you talking about?—Oh my God! What do you mean?—Mistake you!—Should I take that to mean?—”
She could not speak another word.—Her voice was lost; and she sat down, waiting in great terror till Harriet should answer.
She couldn't say another word.—Her voice was gone; and she sat down, waiting in fear until Harriet would respond.
Harriet, who was standing at some distance, and with face turned from her, did not immediately say any thing; and when she did speak, it was in a voice nearly as agitated as Emma’s.
Harriet, standing a little way off with her back to her, didn't say anything right away; and when she finally did speak, her voice was almost as shaken as Emma's.
“I should not have thought it possible,” she began, “that you could have misunderstood me! I know we agreed never to name him—but considering how infinitely superior he is to every body else, I should not have thought it possible that I could be supposed to mean any other person. Mr. Frank Churchill, indeed! I do not know who would ever look at him in the company of the other. I hope I have a better taste than to think of Mr. Frank Churchill, who is like nobody by his side. And that you should have been so mistaken, is amazing!—I am sure, but for believing that you entirely approved and meant to encourage me in my attachment, I should have considered it at first too great a presumption almost, to dare to think of him. At first, if you had not told me that more wonderful things had happened; that there had been matches of greater disparity (those were your very words);—I should not have dared to give way to—I should not have thought it possible—But if you, who had been always acquainted with him—”
“I never thought it was possible,” she started, “that you could have misunderstood me! I know we agreed never to mention him—but considering how infinitely better he is than everyone else, I wouldn’t have thought anyone could assume I meant another person. Mr. Frank Churchill, really! I don’t know who would ever compare him to anyone else. I hope I have better taste than to think of Mr. Frank Churchill, who stands out on his own. And that you could have been so mistaken is amazing!—I’m sure if I hadn’t believed that you fully approved and intended to support my feelings for him, I would have thought it too presumptuous to even imagine him at first. Initially, if you hadn’t told me that more remarkable things have happened; that there have been matches of greater difference (those were your exact words);—I wouldn’t have dared to allow myself to—I wouldn’t have thought it possible—But if you, who have always known him—”
“Harriet!” cried Emma, collecting herself resolutely—“Let us understand each other now, without the possibility of farther mistake. Are you speaking of—Mr. Knightley?”
“Harriet!” Emma exclaimed, gathering her thoughts firmly. “Let's clarify things right now, so there's no chance for more misunderstanding. Are you talking about—Mr. Knightley?”
“To be sure I am. I never could have an idea of any body else—and so I thought you knew. When we talked about him, it was as clear as possible.”
"Of course I am. I could never think of anyone else—and that's why I thought you knew. When we talked about him, it was completely clear."
“Not quite,” returned Emma, with forced calmness, “for all that you then said, appeared to me to relate to a different person. I could almost assert that you had named Mr. Frank Churchill. I am sure the service Mr. Frank Churchill had rendered you, in protecting you from the gipsies, was spoken of.”
“Not really,” Emma replied, trying to sound calm, “because everything you said seemed to refer to someone else. I could almost swear you mentioned Mr. Frank Churchill. I'm sure you talked about how Mr. Frank Churchill helped you by protecting you from the gypsies.”
“Oh! Miss Woodhouse, how you do forget!”
“Oh! Miss Woodhouse, how you keep forgetting!”
“My dear Harriet, I perfectly remember the substance of what I said on the occasion. I told you that I did not wonder at your attachment; that considering the service he had rendered you, it was extremely natural:—and you agreed to it, expressing yourself very warmly as to your sense of that service, and mentioning even what your sensations had been in seeing him come forward to your rescue.—The impression of it is strong on my memory.”
“My dear Harriet, I clearly remember what I said that day. I told you that I wasn’t surprised by your feelings; given the help he had given you, it was completely understandable. You agreed, expressing very passionately how grateful you were for that help and even sharing how you felt when he came to your rescue. That moment is vividly etched in my memory.”
“Oh, dear,” cried Harriet, “now I recollect what you mean; but I was thinking of something very different at the time. It was not the gipsies—it was not Mr. Frank Churchill that I meant. No! (with some elevation) I was thinking of a much more precious circumstance—of Mr. Knightley’s coming and asking me to dance, when Mr. Elton would not stand up with me; and when there was no other partner in the room. That was the kind action; that was the noble benevolence and generosity; that was the service which made me begin to feel how superior he was to every other being upon earth.”
“Oh, dear,” Harriet exclaimed, “now I remember what you meant; but I was thinking of something completely different at the time. It wasn’t the gipsies—it wasn’t Mr. Frank Churchill that I was referring to. No! (with some emphasis) I was thinking of a much more valuable moment—when Mr. Knightley came over and asked me to dance, when Mr. Elton wouldn’t stand up with me; and when there was no other partner in the room. That was the kind gesture; that was the true generosity and thoughtfulness; that was the act that made me realize how much he stood out above everyone else on earth.”
“Good God!” cried Emma, “this has been a most unfortunate—most deplorable mistake!—What is to be done?”
“Good God!” exclaimed Emma, “this has been a truly unfortunate—very regrettable mistake!—What should we do?”
“You would not have encouraged me, then, if you had understood me? At least, however, I cannot be worse off than I should have been, if the other had been the person; and now—it is possible—”
“You wouldn’t have encouraged me if you had really understood me, right? At least I can’t be worse off than I would have been if the other person had been involved; and now—it is possible—”
She paused a few moments. Emma could not speak.
She paused for a moment. Emma was silent.
“I do not wonder, Miss Woodhouse,” she resumed, “that you should feel a great difference between the two, as to me or as to any body. You must think one five hundred million times more above me than the other. But I hope, Miss Woodhouse, that supposing—that if—strange as it may appear—. But you know they were your own words, that more wonderful things had happened, matches of greater disparity had taken place than between Mr. Frank Churchill and me; and, therefore, it seems as if such a thing even as this, may have occurred before—and if I should be so fortunate, beyond expression, as to—if Mr. Knightley should really—if he does not mind the disparity, I hope, dear Miss Woodhouse, you will not set yourself against it, and try to put difficulties in the way. But you are too good for that, I am sure.”
“I’m not surprised, Miss Woodhouse,” she continued, “that you feel such a huge difference between the two of us, whether it’s about me or anyone else. You must view one as being five hundred million times better than the other. But I hope, Miss Woodhouse, that if—strange as it may seem—you remember your own words that more amazing things have happened and matches of greater disparity have occurred than what is between Mr. Frank Churchill and me; so it seems like something like this could have happened before—and if I were incredibly lucky enough—if Mr. Knightley truly—if he doesn’t mind the differences, I hope, dear Miss Woodhouse, you won’t oppose it or create obstacles. But I’m sure you’re too kind for that.”
Harriet was standing at one of the windows. Emma turned round to look at her in consternation, and hastily said,
Harriet was standing by one of the windows. Emma turned to look at her in shock and quickly said,
“Have you any idea of Mr. Knightley’s returning your affection?”
“Do you have any idea if Mr. Knightley feels the same way about you?”
“Yes,” replied Harriet modestly, but not fearfully—“I must say that I have.”
“Yes,” replied Harriet modestly, but not fearfully—“I have to say that I have.”
Emma’s eyes were instantly withdrawn; and she sat silently meditating, in a fixed attitude, for a few minutes. A few minutes were sufficient for making her acquainted with her own heart. A mind like hers, once opening to suspicion, made rapid progress. She touched—she admitted—she acknowledged the whole truth. Why was it so much worse that Harriet should be in love with Mr. Knightley, than with Frank Churchill? Why was the evil so dreadfully increased by Harriet’s having some hope of a return? It darted through her, with the speed of an arrow, that Mr. Knightley must marry no one but herself!
Emma’s gaze quickly shifted downward, and she sat quietly thinking, in the same position, for a few minutes. Those few minutes were enough for her to understand her own feelings. A mind like hers, once open to doubt, moved quickly. She touched on the truth—she accepted it—she recognized the whole reality. Why was it so much worse for Harriet to be in love with Mr. Knightley than with Frank Churchill? Why did the situation feel so much worse because Harriet had some hope of it being mutual? It hit her, like a bolt of lightning, that Mr. Knightley must marry no one but her!
Her own conduct, as well as her own heart, was before her in the same few minutes. She saw it all with a clearness which had never blessed her before. How improperly had she been acting by Harriet! How inconsiderate, how indelicate, how irrational, how unfeeling had been her conduct! What blindness, what madness, had led her on! It struck her with dreadful force, and she was ready to give it every bad name in the world. Some portion of respect for herself, however, in spite of all these demerits—some concern for her own appearance, and a strong sense of justice by Harriet—(there would be no need of compassion to the girl who believed herself loved by Mr. Knightley—but justice required that she should not be made unhappy by any coldness now,) gave Emma the resolution to sit and endure farther with calmness, with even apparent kindness.—For her own advantage indeed, it was fit that the utmost extent of Harriet’s hopes should be enquired into; and Harriet had done nothing to forfeit the regard and interest which had been so voluntarily formed and maintained—or to deserve to be slighted by the person, whose counsels had never led her right.—Rousing from reflection, therefore, and subduing her emotion, she turned to Harriet again, and, in a more inviting accent, renewed the conversation; for as to the subject which had first introduced it, the wonderful story of Jane Fairfax, that was quite sunk and lost.—Neither of them thought but of Mr. Knightley and themselves.
In just a few minutes, she reflected on her own behavior and feelings. For the first time, everything became clear to her. She realized how wrongly she had treated Harriet. How thoughtless, inappropriate, irrational, and insensitive her actions had been! What a foolish and reckless path she had chosen! The weight of this realization hit her hard, and she was ready to label it in the worst ways possible. Yet, despite all her faults, a bit of self-respect remained—some concern for how she looked, and a strong sense of fairness towards Harriet. (Harriet didn’t need compassion from someone who believed she was loved by Mr. Knightley, but fairness meant she shouldn’t be made unhappy by any coldness now.) This gave Emma the courage to sit still and endure it with calmness, even seeming kind. For her own sake, it was important to fully understand the depth of Harriet's hopes. Harriet had done nothing to lose the affection and interest that had been so willingly given or to deserve to be overlooked by someone whose advice had never guided her rightly. So, shaking off her thoughts and calming her emotions, she turned back to Harriet with a more welcoming tone and restarted their conversation; as for the subject that had initially brought them together, the incredible story of Jane Fairfax, that had completely faded. Neither of them thought about anything but Mr. Knightley and themselves.
Harriet, who had been standing in no unhappy reverie, was yet very glad to be called from it, by the now encouraging manner of such a judge, and such a friend as Miss Woodhouse, and only wanted invitation, to give the history of her hopes with great, though trembling delight.—Emma’s tremblings as she asked, and as she listened, were better concealed than Harriet’s, but they were not less. Her voice was not unsteady; but her mind was in all the perturbation that such a development of self, such a burst of threatening evil, such a confusion of sudden and perplexing emotions, must create.—She listened with much inward suffering, but with great outward patience, to Harriet’s detail.—Methodical, or well arranged, or very well delivered, it could not be expected to be; but it contained, when separated from all the feebleness and tautology of the narration, a substance to sink her spirit—especially with the corroborating circumstances, which her own memory brought in favour of Mr. Knightley’s most improved opinion of Harriet.
Harriet, who had been lost in a pleasant daydream, was really happy to be pulled out of it by the encouraging way Miss Woodhouse, a judge and a friend, spoke to her. All she needed was an invitation to share her hopes with a mix of excitement and nerves. Emma’s anxiousness as she asked questions and listened was better hidden than Harriet’s, but just as real. Her voice didn’t waver, but her thoughts were filled with the turmoil that comes from revealing oneself, facing looming problems, and dealing with a rush of confusing feelings. She listened to Harriet’s story with a lot of inner struggle but maintained great outward calm. It was not expected to be organized or well-structured, but once you stripped away the weak parts and repetition, it held enough weight to dampen her spirit—especially with the supporting details from her memories that backed up Mr. Knightley's improved view of Harriet.
Harriet had been conscious of a difference in his behaviour ever since those two decisive dances.—Emma knew that he had, on that occasion, found her much superior to his expectation. From that evening, or at least from the time of Miss Woodhouse’s encouraging her to think of him, Harriet had begun to be sensible of his talking to her much more than he had been used to do, and of his having indeed quite a different manner towards her; a manner of kindness and sweetness!—Latterly she had been more and more aware of it. When they had been all walking together, he had so often come and walked by her, and talked so very delightfully!—He seemed to want to be acquainted with her. Emma knew it to have been very much the case. She had often observed the change, to almost the same extent.—Harriet repeated expressions of approbation and praise from him—and Emma felt them to be in the closest agreement with what she had known of his opinion of Harriet. He praised her for being without art or affectation, for having simple, honest, generous, feelings.—She knew that he saw such recommendations in Harriet; he had dwelt on them to her more than once.—Much that lived in Harriet’s memory, many little particulars of the notice she had received from him, a look, a speech, a removal from one chair to another, a compliment implied, a preference inferred, had been unnoticed, because unsuspected, by Emma. Circumstances that might swell to half an hour’s relation, and contained multiplied proofs to her who had seen them, had passed undiscerned by her who now heard them; but the two latest occurrences to be mentioned, the two of strongest promise to Harriet, were not without some degree of witness from Emma herself.—The first, was his walking with her apart from the others, in the lime-walk at Donwell, where they had been walking some time before Emma came, and he had taken pains (as she was convinced) to draw her from the rest to himself—and at first, he had talked to her in a more particular way than he had ever done before, in a very particular way indeed!—(Harriet could not recall it without a blush.) He seemed to be almost asking her, whether her affections were engaged.—But as soon as she (Miss Woodhouse) appeared likely to join them, he changed the subject, and began talking about farming:—The second, was his having sat talking with her nearly half an hour before Emma came back from her visit, the very last morning of his being at Hartfield—though, when he first came in, he had said that he could not stay five minutes—and his having told her, during their conversation, that though he must go to London, it was very much against his inclination that he left home at all, which was much more (as Emma felt) than he had acknowledged to her. The superior degree of confidence towards Harriet, which this one article marked, gave her severe pain.
Harriet had noticed a change in his behavior ever since those two significant dances. Emma was aware that he had found her to be much more impressive than he expected. From that evening, or at least from the time Miss Woodhouse encouraged her to think about him, Harriet started to realize that he was talking to her much more than he used to and that he was showing a completely different, kinder, and sweeter demeanor towards her! Recently, she had been more aware of this shift. When they all walked together, he often came over to walk beside her and talked in such a delightful way! He seemed eager to get to know her. Emma recognized this change as well; she had noticed it almost to the same degree. Harriet repeated some nice things he had said about her, and Emma felt they closely matched what she knew of his feelings for Harriet. He praised her for being genuine, straightforward, and generous. She knew he saw those qualities in Harriet since he had mentioned them to her more than once. Many memories lingered for Harriet—small details of attention she received from him: a look, a comment, moving from one chair to another, an implied compliment, an inferred preference—had gone unnoticed by Emma because she didn't suspect anything. Situations that could fill a half-hour of discussion, loaded with multiple signs for her who had seen them, had passed unnoticed by Emma, who now heard about them. However, the two most recent events that held strong promise for Harriet didn’t escape Emma’s notice entirely. The first was when he walked with her away from the others in the lime-walk at Donwell, where they had been walking for some time before Emma arrived, and he had clearly gone out of his way to draw her attention away from the group—and at first, he spoke to her in a way he never had before, very specifically! (Harriet couldn't think about it without blushing.) He seemed almost to be asking her if she liked someone else. But as soon as Miss Woodhouse looked like she might join them, he switched topics and began discussing farming. The second event happened when he sat and chatted with her for almost half an hour before Emma returned from her visit on his last morning at Hartfield—despite saying when he first arrived that he couldn’t stay for more than five minutes—and during their conversation, he told her that although he had to go to London, it was very much against his will to leave home at all, which felt like much more (as Emma sensed) than he had admitted to her. The degree of confidence he showed towards Harriet in that moment caused Emma significant distress.
On the subject of the first of the two circumstances, she did, after a little reflection, venture the following question. “Might he not?—Is not it possible, that when enquiring, as you thought, into the state of your affections, he might be alluding to Mr. Martin—he might have Mr. Martin’s interest in view? But Harriet rejected the suspicion with spirit.
Regarding the first of the two situations, she, after a moment of thought, asked this question: “Could it be?—Is it possible that when he was asking about your feelings, he could be referring to Mr. Martin—maybe he has Mr. Martin’s interests in mind?” But Harriet dismissed the idea firmly.
“Mr. Martin! No indeed!—There was not a hint of Mr. Martin. I hope I know better now, than to care for Mr. Martin, or to be suspected of it.”
“Mr. Martin! No way!—There wasn’t any sign of Mr. Martin. I hope I know better now than to care about Mr. Martin, or to be thought to.”
When Harriet had closed her evidence, she appealed to her dear Miss Woodhouse, to say whether she had not good ground for hope.
When Harriet finished presenting her evidence, she turned to her dear Miss Woodhouse and asked if she didn't have good reason to feel hopeful.
“I never should have presumed to think of it at first,” said she, “but for you. You told me to observe him carefully, and let his behaviour be the rule of mine—and so I have. But now I seem to feel that I may deserve him; and that if he does chuse me, it will not be any thing so very wonderful.”
“I never should have thought of it at first,” she said, “but because of you. You told me to watch him closely and let his behavior guide mine—and that’s what I’ve done. But now I feel like I might deserve him; and if he chooses me, it won’t be all that amazing.”
The bitter feelings occasioned by this speech, the many bitter feelings, made the utmost exertion necessary on Emma’s side, to enable her to say on reply,
The harsh emotions caused by this speech, so many harsh emotions, required Emma to put in a lot of effort just to be able to respond.
“Harriet, I will only venture to declare, that Mr. Knightley is the last man in the world, who would intentionally give any woman the idea of his feeling for her more than he really does.”
“Harriet, I can only say that Mr. Knightley is the last man on earth who would purposely make any woman think he feels more for her than he actually does.”
Harriet seemed ready to worship her friend for a sentence so satisfactory; and Emma was only saved from raptures and fondness, which at that moment would have been dreadful penance, by the sound of her father’s footsteps. He was coming through the hall. Harriet was too much agitated to encounter him. “She could not compose herself— Mr. Woodhouse would be alarmed—she had better go;”—with most ready encouragement from her friend, therefore, she passed off through another door—and the moment she was gone, this was the spontaneous burst of Emma’s feelings: “Oh God! that I had never seen her!”
Harriet looked like she was about to idolize her friend for such a perfect comment; and Emma was only spared from overwhelming emotions and affection, which would have felt like a terrible burden at that moment, by the sound of her father’s footsteps. He was coming through the hall. Harriet was too shaken to face him. “She couldn’t pull herself together—Mr. Woodhouse would be worried—she should leave;”—with plenty of support from her friend, she slipped out through another door—and as soon as she was gone, Emma couldn’t help but express her feelings: “Oh God! I wish I had never met her!”
The rest of the day, the following night, were hardly enough for her thoughts.—She was bewildered amidst the confusion of all that had rushed on her within the last few hours. Every moment had brought a fresh surprize; and every surprize must be matter of humiliation to her.—How to understand it all! How to understand the deceptions she had been thus practising on herself, and living under!—The blunders, the blindness of her own head and heart!—she sat still, she walked about, she tried her own room, she tried the shrubbery—in every place, every posture, she perceived that she had acted most weakly; that she had been imposed on by others in a most mortifying degree; that she had been imposing on herself in a degree yet more mortifying; that she was wretched, and should probably find this day but the beginning of wretchedness.
The rest of the day and the following night barely gave her enough time to process her thoughts. She felt completely lost in the chaos of everything that had happened in the last few hours. Each moment brought a new shock, and each shock only added to her embarrassment. How was she supposed to make sense of it all? How could she comprehend the lies she had been telling herself and living under? The mistakes and the ignorance of her own mind and heart! She sat still, walked around, tried to stay in her room, wandered through the garden—no matter where she was or what she did, it became clear that she had acted very weakly; she had let others take advantage of her in a deeply humiliating way; she had been deceiving herself to an even more humiliating extent. She felt miserable and realized that this day would likely be just the start of her misery.
To understand, thoroughly understand her own heart, was the first endeavour. To that point went every leisure moment which her father’s claims on her allowed, and every moment of involuntary absence of mind.
To truly understand her own heart was her first goal. Every free moment that her father's demands allowed, and every moment when her mind wandered, was spent on that.
How long had Mr. Knightley been so dear to her, as every feeling declared him now to be? When had his influence, such influence begun?— When had he succeeded to that place in her affection, which Frank Churchill had once, for a short period, occupied?—She looked back; she compared the two—compared them, as they had always stood in her estimation, from the time of the latter’s becoming known to her—and as they must at any time have been compared by her, had it—oh! had it, by any blessed felicity, occurred to her, to institute the comparison.—She saw that there never had been a time when she did not consider Mr. Knightley as infinitely the superior, or when his regard for her had not been infinitely the most dear. She saw, that in persuading herself, in fancying, in acting to the contrary, she had been entirely under a delusion, totally ignorant of her own heart—and, in short, that she had never really cared for Frank Churchill at all!
How long had Mr. Knightley meant so much to her, as every feeling now showed? When did his influence begin?—When did he take that spot in her heart that Frank Churchill had briefly filled?—She looked back; she compared the two—examined them as she always had since she got to know Frank—and how she would have compared them if it had—oh! if it had ever occurred to her, in any fortunate moment, to make that comparison. She realized there had never been a time when she didn’t see Mr. Knightley as far superior, or when his feelings for her weren’t far more precious. She recognized that in convincing herself otherwise, in imagining and acting against it, she had completely deceived herself, completely unaware of her own feelings—and, ultimately, that she had never truly cared for Frank Churchill at all!
This was the conclusion of the first series of reflection. This was the knowledge of herself, on the first question of inquiry, which she reached; and without being long in reaching it.—She was most sorrowfully indignant; ashamed of every sensation but the one revealed to her—her affection for Mr. Knightley.—Every other part of her mind was disgusting.
This was the end of her first round of reflection. She came to understand herself regarding the first question she explored, and she didn't take long to get there. She felt a deep, sorrowful indignation; ashamed of every feeling except the one that was clear to her—her feelings for Mr. Knightley. Everything else in her mind felt repulsive.
With insufferable vanity had she believed herself in the secret of every body’s feelings; with unpardonable arrogance proposed to arrange every body’s destiny. She was proved to have been universally mistaken; and she had not quite done nothing—for she had done mischief. She had brought evil on Harriet, on herself, and she too much feared, on Mr. Knightley.—Were this most unequal of all connexions to take place, on her must rest all the reproach of having given it a beginning; for his attachment, she must believe to be produced only by a consciousness of Harriet’s;—and even were this not the case, he would never have known Harriet at all but for her folly.
With unbearable vanity, she had thought she understood everyone’s feelings; with outrageous arrogance, she tried to dictate everyone’s fate. It turned out she was completely wrong, and she hadn't done nothing—she had caused trouble. She had brought harm to Harriet, to herself, and she feared, to Mr. Knightley as well. If this most unequal connection were to happen, all the blame for starting it would fall on her; for she could only believe that his feelings were sparked by an awareness of Harriet’s. Even if that weren't true, he never would have met Harriet at all if it weren’t for her foolishness.
Mr. Knightley and Harriet Smith!—It was a union to distance every wonder of the kind.—The attachment of Frank Churchill and Jane Fairfax became commonplace, threadbare, stale in the comparison, exciting no surprize, presenting no disparity, affording nothing to be said or thought.—Mr. Knightley and Harriet Smith!—Such an elevation on her side! Such a debasement on his! It was horrible to Emma to think how it must sink him in the general opinion, to foresee the smiles, the sneers, the merriment it would prompt at his expense; the mortification and disdain of his brother, the thousand inconveniences to himself.—Could it be?—No; it was impossible. And yet it was far, very far, from impossible.—Was it a new circumstance for a man of first-rate abilities to be captivated by very inferior powers? Was it new for one, perhaps too busy to seek, to be the prize of a girl who would seek him?—Was it new for any thing in this world to be unequal, inconsistent, incongruous—or for chance and circumstance (as second causes) to direct the human fate?
Mr. Knightley and Harriet Smith!—It was a combination that overshadowed any other. The relationship between Frank Churchill and Jane Fairfax seemed ordinary, worn out, and dull by comparison, sparking no surprise, showing no contrast, and leaving nothing to discuss or think about. Mr. Knightley and Harriet Smith!—What a rise for her! What a fall for him! It was distressing for Emma to consider how this could lower his reputation, to anticipate the smiles, the sneers, the mockery it would bring at his expense; the embarrassment and contempt from his brother, the countless troubles it would cause him. Could it really happen?—No; that was not possible. And yet, it was far from impossible. Was it really so unusual for a man of exceptional talent to be drawn to someone less capable? Was it unheard of for someone perhaps too preoccupied to pursue a relationship to be won over by a girl who would actively seek him?—Was it new for anything in this world to be unequal, inconsistent, or mismatched—or for luck and circumstances (as secondary causes) to shape human destinies?
Oh! had she never brought Harriet forward! Had she left her where she ought, and where he had told her she ought!—Had she not, with a folly which no tongue could express, prevented her marrying the unexceptionable young man who would have made her happy and respectable in the line of life to which she ought to belong—all would have been safe; none of this dreadful sequel would have been.
Oh! If only she had never introduced Harriet! If only she had left her where she should have been, and where he had said she should be!—If only she hadn't, in a way that words can't describe, stopped her from marrying the perfect young man who would have made her happy and respectable in the life she was meant for—all would have been well; none of this terrible outcome would have happened.
How Harriet could ever have had the presumption to raise her thoughts to Mr. Knightley!—How she could dare to fancy herself the chosen of such a man till actually assured of it!—But Harriet was less humble, had fewer scruples than formerly.—Her inferiority, whether of mind or situation, seemed little felt.—She had seemed more sensible of Mr. Elton’s being to stoop in marrying her, than she now seemed of Mr. Knightley’s.—Alas! was not that her own doing too? Who had been at pains to give Harriet notions of self-consequence but herself?—Who but herself had taught her, that she was to elevate herself if possible, and that her claims were great to a high worldly establishment?—If Harriet, from being humble, were grown vain, it was her doing too.
How could Harriet have ever had the nerve to think about Mr. Knightley!—How could she dare to imagine she was the one chosen by such a man until she was actually sure of it!—But Harriet was less modest, had fewer reservations than before.—Her inferiority, whether in mind or status, seemed hardly felt.—She had seemed more aware that Mr. Elton was lowering himself by marrying her than she now seemed about Mr. Knightley.—Alas! Wasn’t that her own fault too? Who had worked to give Harriet ideas of self-importance but herself?—Who but herself had taught her that she should elevate herself if she could and that she had a strong claim to a high social position?—If Harriet had gone from being humble to being vain, that was her doing too.
CHAPTER XII
Till now that she was threatened with its loss, Emma had never known how much of her happiness depended on being first with Mr. Knightley, first in interest and affection.—Satisfied that it was so, and feeling it her due, she had enjoyed it without reflection; and only in the dread of being supplanted, found how inexpressibly important it had been.—Long, very long, she felt she had been first; for, having no female connexions of his own, there had been only Isabella whose claims could be compared with hers, and she had always known exactly how far he loved and esteemed Isabella. She had herself been first with him for many years past. She had not deserved it; she had often been negligent or perverse, slighting his advice, or even wilfully opposing him, insensible of half his merits, and quarrelling with him because he would not acknowledge her false and insolent estimate of her own—but still, from family attachment and habit, and thorough excellence of mind, he had loved her, and watched over her from a girl, with an endeavour to improve her, and an anxiety for her doing right, which no other creature had at all shared. In spite of all her faults, she knew she was dear to him; might she not say, very dear?—When the suggestions of hope, however, which must follow here, presented themselves, she could not presume to indulge them. Harriet Smith might think herself not unworthy of being peculiarly, exclusively, passionately loved by Mr. Knightley. She could not. She could not flatter herself with any idea of blindness in his attachment to her. She had received a very recent proof of its impartiality.—How shocked had he been by her behaviour to Miss Bates! How directly, how strongly had he expressed himself to her on the subject!—Not too strongly for the offence—but far, far too strongly to issue from any feeling softer than upright justice and clear-sighted goodwill.—She had no hope, nothing to deserve the name of hope, that he could have that sort of affection for herself which was now in question; but there was a hope (at times a slight one, at times much stronger,) that Harriet might have deceived herself, and be overrating his regard for her.—Wish it she must, for his sake—be the consequence nothing to herself, but his remaining single all his life. Could she be secure of that, indeed, of his never marrying at all, she believed she should be perfectly satisfied.—Let him but continue the same Mr. Knightley to her and her father, the same Mr. Knightley to all the world; let Donwell and Hartfield lose none of their precious intercourse of friendship and confidence, and her peace would be fully secured.—Marriage, in fact, would not do for her. It would be incompatible with what she owed to her father, and with what she felt for him. Nothing should separate her from her father. She would not marry, even if she were asked by Mr. Knightley.
Until now, Emma hadn’t realized how much her happiness depended on being first in Mr. Knightley’s life, first in his attention and affection. Accepting that it was true, she had enjoyed it without thinking too much about it, and only when she faced the possibility of losing it did she understand how incredibly important it had been. She felt she had been first for a long time; since he had no female relatives of his own, only Isabella's claims could be compared to hers, and she had always been aware of how much he loved and valued Isabella. For many years, she had held the first place in his affections. She knew she hadn’t earned it; she had often been careless or stubborn, ignoring his advice or even deliberately opposing him, unaware of many of his qualities, and arguing with him because he wouldn't endorse her inflated and arrogant view of herself. Yet, because of family ties, familiarity, and his exceptional character, he had loved her and looked out for her since childhood, wanting to improve her and concerned about her doing the right thing—something no one else had shared. Despite all her flaws, she understood that she was important to him; could she say, very important? However, when thoughts of hope emerged, she felt she couldn't allow herself to indulge them. Harriet Smith might believe she deserved to be uniquely, exclusively, passionately loved by Mr. Knightley, but she couldn't. She couldn't fool herself into thinking he was blind to her faults. She had recently received a clear demonstration of his impartial feelings. How shocked he had been by her treatment of Miss Bates! How directly and strongly he had addressed the issue with her!—Not too strongly for the offense, but far too strongly for any feeling softer than honest justice and clear goodwill. She had no realistic hope that he could have the kind of affection for her that was now in question, but there was a hope (sometimes slight, sometimes stronger) that Harriet might be misinterpreting his feelings and overestimating his regard for her.—For his sake, she had to wish it, regardless of the consequences for herself, even if it meant his staying single for life. If she could be sure of that—that he would never marry at all—she believed she would be completely satisfied. As long as he remained the same Mr. Knightley to her and her father, the same Mr. Knightley to everyone, and as long as Donwell and Hartfield maintained their precious friendship and trust, her peace would be assured. The truth was, marriage wouldn't work for her. It would conflict with what she owed to her father and what she felt for him. Nothing should separate her from her father. She wouldn't marry, even if Mr. Knightley asked her.
It must be her ardent wish that Harriet might be disappointed; and she hoped, that when able to see them together again, she might at least be able to ascertain what the chances for it were.—She should see them henceforward with the closest observance; and wretchedly as she had hitherto misunderstood even those she was watching, she did not know how to admit that she could be blinded here.—He was expected back every day. The power of observation would be soon given—frightfully soon it appeared when her thoughts were in one course. In the meanwhile, she resolved against seeing Harriet.—It would do neither of them good, it would do the subject no good, to be talking of it farther.—She was resolved not to be convinced, as long as she could doubt, and yet had no authority for opposing Harriet’s confidence. To talk would be only to irritate.—She wrote to her, therefore, kindly, but decisively, to beg that she would not, at present, come to Hartfield; acknowledging it to be her conviction, that all farther confidential discussion of one topic had better be avoided; and hoping, that if a few days were allowed to pass before they met again, except in the company of others—she objected only to a tête-à-tête—they might be able to act as if they had forgotten the conversation of yesterday.—Harriet submitted, and approved, and was grateful.
It must be her strong desire for Harriet to be disappointed; and she hoped that when she could see them together again, she would at least be able to figure out what the chances were. From now on, she would observe them very closely; even though she had misunderstood even those she was watching so far, she didn’t want to admit that she could be blinded here. He was expected back any day now. The power of observation would soon be available—frighteningly soon, it seemed when her thoughts were focused on one thing. In the meantime, she decided against seeing Harriet. It wouldn’t do either of them any good, and it wouldn’t help the situation to talk about it more. She was determined not to be convinced as long as she had any doubts, but she had no authority to challenge Harriet’s confidence. Talking would only upset things. So, she wrote to her kindly but firmly, asking her not to come to Hartfield for now; she expressed her belief that any further confidential discussion of one subject should be avoided, and hoped that if a few days passed before they met again, except in a group—she only objected to a one-on-one—they could act as if they had forgotten yesterday's conversation. Harriet agreed, understood, and was grateful.
This point was just arranged, when a visitor arrived to tear Emma’s thoughts a little from the one subject which had engrossed them, sleeping or waking, the last twenty-four hours—Mrs. Weston, who had been calling on her daughter-in-law elect, and took Hartfield in her way home, almost as much in duty to Emma as in pleasure to herself, to relate all the particulars of so interesting an interview.
This point was just settled when a visitor showed up to divert Emma’s thoughts a bit from the one thing that had occupied her, day and night, for the last twenty-four hours—Mrs. Weston. She had been visiting her soon-to-be daughter-in-law and stopped by Hartfield on her way home, out of both duty to Emma and her own enjoyment, to share all the details of such an interesting meeting.
Mr. Weston had accompanied her to Mrs. Bates’s, and gone through his share of this essential attention most handsomely; but she having then induced Miss Fairfax to join her in an airing, was now returned with much more to say, and much more to say with satisfaction, than a quarter of an hour spent in Mrs. Bates’s parlour, with all the encumbrance of awkward feelings, could have afforded.
Mr. Weston had gone with her to Mrs. Bates’s and had done his part in this important task very well; but since she had then encouraged Miss Fairfax to join her for a walk, she now returned with a lot more to say, and a lot more to say with satisfaction, than what a quarter of an hour spent in Mrs. Bates’s sitting room, filled with awkward emotions, could have provided.
A little curiosity Emma had; and she made the most of it while her friend related. Mrs. Weston had set off to pay the visit in a good deal of agitation herself; and in the first place had wished not to go at all at present, to be allowed merely to write to Miss Fairfax instead, and to defer this ceremonious call till a little time had passed, and Mr. Churchill could be reconciled to the engagement’s becoming known; as, considering every thing, she thought such a visit could not be paid without leading to reports:—but Mr. Weston had thought differently; he was extremely anxious to shew his approbation to Miss Fairfax and her family, and did not conceive that any suspicion could be excited by it; or if it were, that it would be of any consequence; for “such things,” he observed, “always got about.” Emma smiled, and felt that Mr. Weston had very good reason for saying so. They had gone, in short—and very great had been the evident distress and confusion of the lady. She had hardly been able to speak a word, and every look and action had shewn how deeply she was suffering from consciousness. The quiet, heart-felt satisfaction of the old lady, and the rapturous delight of her daughter—who proved even too joyous to talk as usual, had been a gratifying, yet almost an affecting, scene. They were both so truly respectable in their happiness, so disinterested in every sensation; thought so much of Jane; so much of every body, and so little of themselves, that every kindly feeling was at work for them. Miss Fairfax’s recent illness had offered a fair plea for Mrs. Weston to invite her to an airing; she had drawn back and declined at first, but, on being pressed had yielded; and, in the course of their drive, Mrs. Weston had, by gentle encouragement, overcome so much of her embarrassment, as to bring her to converse on the important subject. Apologies for her seemingly ungracious silence in their first reception, and the warmest expressions of the gratitude she was always feeling towards herself and Mr. Weston, must necessarily open the cause; but when these effusions were put by, they had talked a good deal of the present and of the future state of the engagement. Mrs. Weston was convinced that such conversation must be the greatest relief to her companion, pent up within her own mind as every thing had so long been, and was very much pleased with all that she had said on the subject.
Emma was a bit curious, and she made the most of it while her friend talked. Mrs. Weston was quite anxious about her visit. Initially, she wanted to skip it completely and just write to Miss Fairfax instead, postponing the formal call until some time had passed, hoping Mr. Churchill would be okay with the engagement being public. She felt that such a visit could lead to rumors, but Mr. Weston had a different perspective. He was very eager to show his support to Miss Fairfax and her family and didn’t think it would raise any suspicions; even if it did, it wouldn’t matter much because “these things,” he noted, “always get around.” Emma smiled, feeling that Mr. Weston was right to say that. So they went, and the evident distress and confusion of Mrs. Weston were clear. She could hardly say anything, and every look and action showed how deeply she was suffering internally. The quiet, heartfelt satisfaction of the older lady and the sheer joy of her daughter—who was even too happy to talk as usual—created a scene that was both gratifying and almost touching. Both of them were truly admirable in their happiness, selfless in their feelings; they were so focused on Jane and others and so little on themselves that every kind feeling was directed their way. Miss Fairfax’s recent illness provided a good excuse for Mrs. Weston to invite her for a drive. Initially, she hesitated, but after some persuasion, she agreed. During their drive, Mrs. Weston gently encouraged her enough to discuss the important topic. Apologies for her seemingly cold silence during their first meeting and heartfelt expressions of gratitude towards Mrs. Weston and Mr. Weston were bound to come up, but once those sentiments were set aside, they discussed quite a bit about the present and future of the engagement. Mrs. Weston was certain that this conversation must be a huge relief for her companion, who had been keeping everything bottled up for so long, and she was very pleased with what they talked about.
“On the misery of what she had suffered, during the concealment of so many months,” continued Mrs. Weston, “she was energetic. This was one of her expressions. ‘I will not say, that since I entered into the engagement I have not had some happy moments; but I can say, that I have never known the blessing of one tranquil hour:’—and the quivering lip, Emma, which uttered it, was an attestation that I felt at my heart.”
“About the misery she endured during those months of hiding,” Mrs. Weston went on, “she was passionate. This was one of her sayings. ‘I won’t claim that since I entered this engagement I haven’t had some happy moments; but I can honestly say that I’ve never experienced the blessing of a single peaceful hour:’—and the trembling lip, Emma, that spoke those words was proof of how I felt in my heart.”
“Poor girl!” said Emma. “She thinks herself wrong, then, for having consented to a private engagement?”
“Poor girl!” said Emma. “She thinks she’s wrong for agreeing to a private engagement, then?”
“Wrong! No one, I believe, can blame her more than she is disposed to blame herself. ‘The consequence,’ said she, ‘has been a state of perpetual suffering to me; and so it ought. But after all the punishment that misconduct can bring, it is still not less misconduct. Pain is no expiation. I never can be blameless. I have been acting contrary to all my sense of right; and the fortunate turn that every thing has taken, and the kindness I am now receiving, is what my conscience tells me ought not to be.’ ‘Do not imagine, madam,’ she continued, ‘that I was taught wrong. Do not let any reflection fall on the principles or the care of the friends who brought me up. The error has been all my own; and I do assure you that, with all the excuse that present circumstances may appear to give, I shall yet dread making the story known to Colonel Campbell.’”
"Wrong! I don’t think anyone can blame her more than she blames herself. ‘The result,’ she said, ‘has been a constant state of suffering for me; and it should be. But no matter how much punishment comes from my actions, it doesn’t change the fact that it was still wrongdoing. Pain doesn’t make it right. I can never be free of blame. I’ve acted against everything I know is right; and the fortunate outcome of everything and the kindness I'm receiving now is something my conscience tells me I don’t deserve.’ ‘Don’t think, ma'am,’ she continued, ‘that I was raised wrong. Don’t let any doubts reflect on the principles or the guidance of the friends who raised me. The mistake has been entirely mine; and I assure you that, despite any excuses current circumstances might give, I will still fear telling Colonel Campbell the whole story.’”
“Poor girl!” said Emma again. “She loves him then excessively, I suppose. It must have been from attachment only, that she could be led to form the engagement. Her affection must have overpowered her judgment.”
“Poor girl!” Emma said again. “So she really loves him a lot, I guess. It must have just been her attachment that led her to get engaged. Her feelings must have taken over her judgment.”
“Yes, I have no doubt of her being extremely attached to him.”
“Yes, I have no doubt that she is very attached to him.”
“I am afraid,” returned Emma, sighing, “that I must often have contributed to make her unhappy.”
“I’m afraid,” Emma replied with a sigh, “that I must have often contributed to her unhappiness.”
“On your side, my love, it was very innocently done. But she probably had something of that in her thoughts, when alluding to the misunderstandings which he had given us hints of before. One natural consequence of the evil she had involved herself in,” she said, “was that of making her unreasonable. The consciousness of having done amiss, had exposed her to a thousand inquietudes, and made her captious and irritable to a degree that must have been—that had been—hard for him to bear. ‘I did not make the allowances,’ said she, ‘which I ought to have done, for his temper and spirits—his delightful spirits, and that gaiety, that playfulness of disposition, which, under any other circumstances, would, I am sure, have been as constantly bewitching to me, as they were at first.’ She then began to speak of you, and of the great kindness you had shewn her during her illness; and with a blush which shewed me how it was all connected, desired me, whenever I had an opportunity, to thank you—I could not thank you too much—for every wish and every endeavour to do her good. She was sensible that you had never received any proper acknowledgment from herself.”
“On your side, my love, it was all very innocently done. But she probably had some awareness of that when she mentioned the misunderstandings he had hinted at before. One natural result of the trouble she got herself into,” she said, “was that it made her unreasonable. The awareness of having acted wrongly exposed her to countless anxieties and made her difficult and irritable to an extent that must have been—that had been—hard for him to handle. ‘I didn’t make the allowances,’ she said, ‘that I should have made for his temper and mood—his wonderful spirit, and that joy, that playfulness, which, under normal circumstances, would have been just as charming to me as they were at first.’ She then started to talk about you and the great kindness you showed her during her illness; and with a blush that indicated how everything was connected, she asked me, whenever I had the chance, to thank you—I could never thank you enough—for every wish and every effort to help her. She was aware that you had never received any proper acknowledgment from her.”
“If I did not know her to be happy now,” said Emma, seriously, “which, in spite of every little drawback from her scrupulous conscience, she must be, I could not bear these thanks;—for, oh! Mrs. Weston, if there were an account drawn up of the evil and the good I have done Miss Fairfax!—Well (checking herself, and trying to be more lively), this is all to be forgotten. You are very kind to bring me these interesting particulars. They shew her to the greatest advantage. I am sure she is very good—I hope she will be very happy. It is fit that the fortune should be on his side, for I think the merit will be all on hers.”
“If I didn’t know she’s happy now,” Emma said seriously, “which, despite her conscientious worries, she must be, I couldn’t handle all this gratitude;—because, oh! Mrs. Weston, if there was a list of all the good and bad I’ve done for Miss Fairfax!—Well (pausing and trying to sound more cheerful), let’s forget about that. You’re so kind to share these interesting details. They show her in the best light. I’m sure she’s a wonderful person—I hope she finds true happiness. It’s only right that the fortune favors him, because I believe all the merit is with her.”
Such a conclusion could not pass unanswered by Mrs. Weston. She thought well of Frank in almost every respect; and, what was more, she loved him very much, and her defence was, therefore, earnest. She talked with a great deal of reason, and at least equal affection—but she had too much to urge for Emma’s attention; it was soon gone to Brunswick Square or to Donwell; she forgot to attempt to listen; and when Mrs. Weston ended with, “We have not yet had the letter we are so anxious for, you know, but I hope it will soon come,” she was obliged to pause before she answered, and at last obliged to answer at random, before she could at all recollect what letter it was which they were so anxious for.
Mrs. Weston couldn't let that comment go unanswered. She thought highly of Frank in almost every way, and more than that, she loved him deeply, so her defense was sincere. She spoke with a lot of logic and at least as much warmth—but she had too much to say for Emma to really focus; her thoughts quickly wandered to Brunswick Square or Donwell. She completely forgot to try to listen, and when Mrs. Weston concluded with, “We still haven’t received the letter we’re so anxious about, you know, but I hope it will arrive soon,” Emma had to pause before she replied, and ultimately had to give an offhand response before she could even remember what letter they were so concerned about.
“Are you well, my Emma?” was Mrs. Weston’s parting question.
“Are you doing okay, my Emma?” was Mrs. Weston’s last question.
“Oh! perfectly. I am always well, you know. Be sure to give me intelligence of the letter as soon as possible.”
“Oh! That’s great. I’m always good, you know. Just make sure to let me know about the letter as soon as you can.”
Mrs. Weston’s communications furnished Emma with more food for unpleasant reflection, by increasing her esteem and compassion, and her sense of past injustice towards Miss Fairfax. She bitterly regretted not having sought a closer acquaintance with her, and blushed for the envious feelings which had certainly been, in some measure, the cause. Had she followed Mr. Knightley’s known wishes, in paying that attention to Miss Fairfax, which was every way her due; had she tried to know her better; had she done her part towards intimacy; had she endeavoured to find a friend there instead of in Harriet Smith; she must, in all probability, have been spared from every pain which pressed on her now.—Birth, abilities, and education, had been equally marking one as an associate for her, to be received with gratitude; and the other—what was she?—Supposing even that they had never become intimate friends; that she had never been admitted into Miss Fairfax’s confidence on this important matter—which was most probable—still, in knowing her as she ought, and as she might, she must have been preserved from the abominable suspicions of an improper attachment to Mr. Dixon, which she had not only so foolishly fashioned and harboured herself, but had so unpardonably imparted; an idea which she greatly feared had been made a subject of material distress to the delicacy of Jane’s feelings, by the levity or carelessness of Frank Churchill’s. Of all the sources of evil surrounding the former, since her coming to Highbury, she was persuaded that she must herself have been the worst. She must have been a perpetual enemy. They never could have been all three together, without her having stabbed Jane Fairfax’s peace in a thousand instances; and on Box Hill, perhaps, it had been the agony of a mind that would bear no more.
Mrs. Weston’s messages gave Emma more reasons for unpleasant thoughts by deepening her admiration and sympathy, as well as reinforcing her feelings of past injustice toward Miss Fairfax. She regretted not having made an effort to get to know her better and felt ashamed of the envious feelings that, to some extent, had caused it. If she had followed Mr. Knightley’s wishes by giving Miss Fairfax the attention she deserved; if she had tried to understand her better; if she had done her part to build a friendship; if she had sought a connection there instead of with Harriet Smith, she likely would have avoided all the pain she was experiencing now. Birth, talent, and education had equally marked one as a suitable companion, someone to be welcomed with gratitude; and the other—who was she?—Even if they had never become close friends; even if she had never been let into Miss Fairfax’s confidence regarding this important issue—which was very likely—still, by knowing her as she should have, and could have, she would have remained free from the horrible suspicions of an inappropriate attachment to Mr. Dixon, which she had not only foolishly created and harbored herself but had also thoughtlessly shared; an idea that she greatly feared had caused real distress to Jane’s sensitive feelings because of Frank Churchill’s carelessness or lack of thought. Of all the sources of trouble surrounding Jane since her arrival in Highbury, she was convinced that she must have been the worst. She must have been a constant enemy. They could never have all three been together without her having disturbed Jane Fairfax’s peace in countless ways; and at Box Hill, perhaps, it had reached the breaking point for a mind that could take no more.
The evening of this day was very long, and melancholy, at Hartfield. The weather added what it could of gloom. A cold stormy rain set in, and nothing of July appeared but in the trees and shrubs, which the wind was despoiling, and the length of the day, which only made such cruel sights the longer visible.
The evening of this day felt very long and gloomy at Hartfield. The weather added to the sadness. A cold, stormy rain started pouring, and nothing about July was visible except for the trees and shrubs, which the wind was stripping bare, and the length of the day, which just made those harsh sights visible for longer.
The weather affected Mr. Woodhouse, and he could only be kept tolerably comfortable by almost ceaseless attention on his daughter’s side, and by exertions which had never cost her half so much before. It reminded her of their first forlorn tête-à-tête, on the evening of Mrs. Weston’s wedding-day; but Mr. Knightley had walked in then, soon after tea, and dissipated every melancholy fancy. Alas! such delightful proofs of Hartfield’s attraction, as those sort of visits conveyed, might shortly be over. The picture which she had then drawn of the privations of the approaching winter, had proved erroneous; no friends had deserted them, no pleasures had been lost.—But her present forebodings she feared would experience no similar contradiction. The prospect before her now, was threatening to a degree that could not be entirely dispelled—that might not be even partially brightened. If all took place that might take place among the circle of her friends, Hartfield must be comparatively deserted; and she left to cheer her father with the spirits only of ruined happiness.
The weather was getting to Mr. Woodhouse, and he could only feel somewhat comfortable thanks to almost constant attention from his daughter, which required more effort from her than it ever had before. It reminded her of their first bleak face-to-face conversation on Mrs. Weston’s wedding day; but Mr. Knightley had come by soon after tea then and cleared away all her gloomy thoughts. Unfortunately, the wonderful evidence of Hartfield’s appeal that those kinds of visits brought might soon be over. The picture she had painted of the challenges the upcoming winter would bring had turned out to be wrong; no friends had abandoned them, and no joys had been lost. But she worried that her current fears wouldn’t be proven wrong in the same way. The future looked so grim now that it couldn’t be fully shaken off—and it might not even be partially brightened. If everything that could happen among her circle of friends did, Hartfield would be relatively deserted, leaving her to lift her father’s spirits with only the remnants of lost happiness.
The child to be born at Randalls must be a tie there even dearer than herself; and Mrs. Weston’s heart and time would be occupied by it. They should lose her; and, probably, in great measure, her husband also.—Frank Churchill would return among them no more; and Miss Fairfax, it was reasonable to suppose, would soon cease to belong to Highbury. They would be married, and settled either at or near Enscombe. All that were good would be withdrawn; and if to these losses, the loss of Donwell were to be added, what would remain of cheerful or of rational society within their reach? Mr. Knightley to be no longer coming there for his evening comfort!—No longer walking in at all hours, as if ever willing to change his own home for their’s!—How was it to be endured? And if he were to be lost to them for Harriet’s sake; if he were to be thought of hereafter, as finding in Harriet’s society all that he wanted; if Harriet were to be the chosen, the first, the dearest, the friend, the wife to whom he looked for all the best blessings of existence; what could be increasing Emma’s wretchedness but the reflection never far distant from her mind, that it had been all her own work?
The child who will be born at Randalls will have a bond there even stronger than herself; Mrs. Weston will be fully occupied with it. They would lose her, and likely, mostly her husband too. Frank Churchill wouldn’t come around anymore, and it’s reasonable to think that Miss Fairfax would soon no longer belong to Highbury. They would get married and settle either at or near Enscombe. All the good people would be gone, and if they also lost Donwell, what would be left of a cheerful or meaningful social circle for them? Mr. Knightley wouldn’t be coming over for his evening comfort anymore!—No more dropping by at all hours, as if he were always ready to swap his own home for theirs!—How could they bear it? And if he were to be taken from them for Harriet’s sake; if he would come to think of Harriet’s company as everything he desired; if Harriet were to be the chosen one, the first, the dearest friend, the wife who would bring him all the best things in life; what could be making Emma’s misery worse than the thought, always lingering in her mind, that it was all her own doing?
When it came to such a pitch as this, she was not able to refrain from a start, or a heavy sigh, or even from walking about the room for a few seconds—and the only source whence any thing like consolation or composure could be drawn, was in the resolution of her own better conduct, and the hope that, however inferior in spirit and gaiety might be the following and every future winter of her life to the past, it would yet find her more rational, more acquainted with herself, and leave her less to regret when it were gone.
When faced with a situation like this, she couldn't help but flinch, let out a heavy sigh, or even pace around the room for a moment. The only source of comfort or calm she could find was in her determination to act better and the hope that, even if the winters ahead of her were less joyful and spirited than the past, they would allow her to understand herself more, be more rational, and have fewer regrets when they were over.
CHAPTER XIII
The weather continued much the same all the following morning; and the same loneliness, and the same melancholy, seemed to reign at Hartfield—but in the afternoon it cleared; the wind changed into a softer quarter; the clouds were carried off; the sun appeared; it was summer again. With all the eagerness which such a transition gives, Emma resolved to be out of doors as soon as possible. Never had the exquisite sight, smell, sensation of nature, tranquil, warm, and brilliant after a storm, been more attractive to her. She longed for the serenity they might gradually introduce; and on Mr. Perry’s coming in soon after dinner, with a disengaged hour to give her father, she lost no time in hurrying into the shrubbery.—There, with spirits freshened, and thoughts a little relieved, she had taken a few turns, when she saw Mr. Knightley passing through the garden door, and coming towards her.—It was the first intimation of his being returned from London. She had been thinking of him the moment before, as unquestionably sixteen miles distant.—There was time only for the quickest arrangement of mind. She must be collected and calm. In half a minute they were together. The “How d’ye do’s” were quiet and constrained on each side. She asked after their mutual friends; they were all well.—When had he left them?—Only that morning. He must have had a wet ride.—Yes.—He meant to walk with her, she found. “He had just looked into the dining-room, and as he was not wanted there, preferred being out of doors.”—She thought he neither looked nor spoke cheerfully; and the first possible cause for it, suggested by her fears, was, that he had perhaps been communicating his plans to his brother, and was pained by the manner in which they had been received.
The weather stayed pretty much the same all morning, and the same loneliness and sadness seemed to hang over Hartfield—but in the afternoon, it cleared up; the wind shifted to a gentler direction; the clouds disappeared; the sun came out; it felt like summer again. With all the excitement that such a change brings, Emma decided she wanted to be outside as soon as possible. The beautiful sights, smells, and feelings of nature—calm, warm, and bright after a storm—had never been more appealing to her. She craved the peace that they might slowly bring. Soon after dinner, when Mr. Perry came in and had some free time to give her father, she quickly rushed into the shrubbery. There, with her spirits lifted and her mind a bit clearer, she had taken a few strolls when she spotted Mr. Knightley coming through the garden door toward her. It was the first sign that he had returned from London. Just a moment before, she had been thinking of him, convinced he was still sixteen miles away. She had just enough time for a quick mental preparation. She needed to stay composed and calm. In half a minute, they were together. Their “How do you do’s” were quiet and awkward. She asked about their mutual friends; they were all well. When had he seen them last?—Only that morning. He must have had a wet ride.—Yes. He meant to walk with her, she realized. “He had just checked in on the dining room, and since he wasn't needed there, he preferred being outside.” She thought he neither looked nor spoke cheerfully, and the first reason that popped into her mind, driven by her worries, was that he might have been sharing his plans with his brother and was upset by how they had been received.
They walked together. He was silent. She thought he was often looking at her, and trying for a fuller view of her face than it suited her to give. And this belief produced another dread. Perhaps he wanted to speak to her, of his attachment to Harriet; he might be watching for encouragement to begin.—She did not, could not, feel equal to lead the way to any such subject. He must do it all himself. Yet she could not bear this silence. With him it was most unnatural. She considered—resolved—and, trying to smile, began—
They walked together. He was quiet. She thought he was often looking at her, trying to get a better view of her face than she was comfortable giving. This thought stirred up another fear. Maybe he wanted to talk to her about his feelings for Harriet; he might be waiting for a sign to start the conversation. She didn’t want to, and couldn’t, bring up such a topic. He had to do it all on his own. Still, she couldn’t stand the silence. It felt very unnatural with him. She thought about it—made up her mind—and, trying to smile, started—
“You have some news to hear, now you are come back, that will rather surprize you.”
“You have some news to hear now that you’re back, and it will probably surprise you.”
“Have I?” said he quietly, and looking at her; “of what nature?”
“Have I?” he said softly, looking at her. “What do you mean?”
“Oh! the best nature in the world—a wedding.”
“Oh! The best thing in the world—a wedding.”
After waiting a moment, as if to be sure she intended to say no more, he replied,
After pausing for a moment, as if to confirm she wasn’t going to say anything else, he replied,
“If you mean Miss Fairfax and Frank Churchill, I have heard that already.”
“If you’re talking about Miss Fairfax and Frank Churchill, I’ve already heard about that.”
“How is it possible?” cried Emma, turning her glowing cheeks towards him; for, while she spoke, it occurred to her that he might have called at Mrs. Goddard’s in his way.
“How is this possible?” Emma exclaimed, turning her flushed cheeks toward him; as she spoke, it struck her that he might have stopped by Mrs. Goddard’s on his way.
“I had a few lines on parish business from Mr. Weston this morning, and at the end of them he gave me a brief account of what had happened.”
“I got a few messages about parish business from Mr. Weston this morning, and at the end, he gave me a quick rundown of what had happened.”
Emma was quite relieved, and could presently say, with a little more composure,
Emma felt a sense of relief and could now state, with a bit more calm,
“You probably have been less surprized than any of us, for you have had your suspicions.—I have not forgotten that you once tried to give me a caution.—I wish I had attended to it—but—(with a sinking voice and a heavy sigh) I seem to have been doomed to blindness.”
You probably have been less surprised than the rest of us, since you had your suspicions. I haven't forgotten that you once tried to warn me. I wish I had paid attention to it—but—(with a sinking voice and a heavy sigh) I seem to have been destined to be blind to it.
For a moment or two nothing was said, and she was unsuspicious of having excited any particular interest, till she found her arm drawn within his, and pressed against his heart, and heard him thus saying, in a tone of great sensibility, speaking low,
For a moment or two, no one spoke, and she didn’t realize she had sparked any special interest until she felt her arm pulled into his and pressed against his heart, and heard him say, in a very heartfelt tone, speaking softly,
“Time, my dearest Emma, time will heal the wound.—Your own excellent sense—your exertions for your father’s sake—I know you will not allow yourself—.” Her arm was pressed again, as he added, in a more broken and subdued accent, “The feelings of the warmest friendship—Indignation—Abominable scoundrel!”—And in a louder, steadier tone, he concluded with, “He will soon be gone. They will soon be in Yorkshire. I am sorry for her. She deserves a better fate.”
“Time, my dear Emma, time will heal the wound. Your incredible sense and your efforts for your father’s sake—I know you won’t let yourself—.” He pressed her arm again and added, more broken and subdued, “The feelings of the deepest friendship—Indignation—Despicable jerk!”—Then, in a louder, steadier tone, he finished with, “He will be gone soon. They will be in Yorkshire before long. I feel sorry for her. She deserves a better fate.”
Emma understood him; and as soon as she could recover from the flutter of pleasure, excited by such tender consideration, replied,
Emma understood him, and as soon as she could shake off the flutter of happiness sparked by his kind thoughtfulness, she replied,
“You are very kind—but you are mistaken—and I must set you right.— I am not in want of that sort of compassion. My blindness to what was going on, led me to act by them in a way that I must always be ashamed of, and I was very foolishly tempted to say and do many things which may well lay me open to unpleasant conjectures, but I have no other reason to regret that I was not in the secret earlier.”
“You're really nice, but you're wrong, and I need to correct you. I don't need that kind of sympathy. My inability to see what was happening made me behave in a way I'll always regret, and I was foolishly tempted to say and do things that could easily lead to nasty assumptions about me. However, I don't have any other reason to regret that I wasn't in the loop sooner.”
“Emma!” cried he, looking eagerly at her, “are you, indeed?”—but checking himself—“No, no, I understand you—forgive me—I am pleased that you can say even so much.—He is no object of regret, indeed! and it will not be very long, I hope, before that becomes the acknowledgment of more than your reason.—Fortunate that your affections were not farther entangled!—I could never, I confess, from your manners, assure myself as to the degree of what you felt—I could only be certain that there was a preference—and a preference which I never believed him to deserve.—He is a disgrace to the name of man.—And is he to be rewarded with that sweet young woman?—Jane, Jane, you will be a miserable creature.”
“Emma!” he exclaimed, looking at her eagerly, “are you really?”—but then stopping himself—“No, no, I get it—sorry, I’m just glad you can say even that much.—He’s definitely not worth regretting! And I hope it won’t be too long before that’s something you recognize beyond just logic.—Thank goodness your feelings weren’t even more complicated!—I could never, honestly, tell from your behavior how deep your feelings went—I could only be sure that you had a preference—and a preference I never thought he deserved.—He’s a disgrace to the name of man.—And is he really going to be rewarded with that sweet young woman?—Jane, Jane, you’re going to be so unhappy.”
“Mr. Knightley,” said Emma, trying to be lively, but really confused—“I am in a very extraordinary situation. I cannot let you continue in your error; and yet, perhaps, since my manners gave such an impression, I have as much reason to be ashamed of confessing that I never have been at all attached to the person we are speaking of, as it might be natural for a woman to feel in confessing exactly the reverse.—But I never have.”
“Mr. Knightley,” Emma said, trying to sound cheerful but actually feeling quite confused, “I’m in a really strange situation. I can't let you stay mistaken; and yet, maybe because of my behavior, I have just as much reason to feel ashamed for admitting that I’ve never been attached to the person we’re discussing, as it would be normal for a woman to feel when confessing the exact opposite. But I haven’t.”
He listened in perfect silence. She wished him to speak, but he would not. She supposed she must say more before she were entitled to his clemency; but it was a hard case to be obliged still to lower herself in his opinion. She went on, however.
He listened in complete silence. She wanted him to speak, but he wouldn’t. She figured she had to say more before she deserved his mercy; but it was tough to have to keep lowering herself in his eyes. Still, she continued.
“I have very little to say for my own conduct.—I was tempted by his attentions, and allowed myself to appear pleased.—An old story, probably—a common case—and no more than has happened to hundreds of my sex before; and yet it may not be the more excusable in one who sets up as I do for Understanding. Many circumstances assisted the temptation. He was the son of Mr. Weston—he was continually here—I always found him very pleasant—and, in short, for (with a sigh) let me swell out the causes ever so ingeniously, they all centre in this at last—my vanity was flattered, and I allowed his attentions. Latterly, however—for some time, indeed—I have had no idea of their meaning any thing.—I thought them a habit, a trick, nothing that called for seriousness on my side. He has imposed on me, but he has not injured me. I have never been attached to him. And now I can tolerably comprehend his behaviour. He never wished to attach me. It was merely a blind to conceal his real situation with another.—It was his object to blind all about him; and no one, I am sure, could be more effectually blinded than myself—except that I was not blinded—that it was my good fortune—that, in short, I was somehow or other safe from him.”
“I don’t have much to say about my own behavior. I was tempted by his attentions and let myself seem pleased. It’s an old story, probably—a common situation—and no different from what has happened to many women before me; yet it may not be more excusable for someone like me who prides herself on understanding. Several things contributed to the temptation. He was Mr. Weston’s son—he was here all the time—I always found him very charming—and, honestly, no matter how much I tried to complicate it, it ultimately comes down to this: my vanity was flattered, and I accepted his attentions. Recently, however—for some time now—I haven’t thought they meant anything significant. I considered them a habit, a trick, nothing that deserved my serious attention. He played with my perception, but he didn’t hurt me. I’ve never been attached to him. And now I can understand his behavior pretty well. He never intended to get attached to me. It was just a cover to hide his real situation with someone else. His goal was to mislead everyone around him; and no one, I’m sure, could have been more thoroughly misled than I was—except for the fact that I was not misled—that it was my good luck—that, in short, I was somehow safe from him.”
She had hoped for an answer here—for a few words to say that her conduct was at least intelligible; but he was silent; and, as far as she could judge, deep in thought. At last, and tolerably in his usual tone, he said,
She had hoped for a response here—just a few words to confirm that her actions were at least understandable; but he was quiet, and from what she could see, lost in thought. Finally, and somewhat in his usual tone, he said,
“I have never had a high opinion of Frank Churchill.—I can suppose, however, that I may have underrated him. My acquaintance with him has been but trifling.—And even if I have not underrated him hitherto, he may yet turn out well.—With such a woman he has a chance.—I have no motive for wishing him ill—and for her sake, whose happiness will be involved in his good character and conduct, I shall certainly wish him well.”
“I’ve never thought much of Frank Churchill. However, I can imagine that I might have underestimated him. My experience with him has been minimal. Even if I haven’t underestimated him so far, he could still prove to be a good person. With someone like her, he has the opportunity. I have no reason to want him to fail—and for her sake, since her happiness will depend on his character and behavior, I will definitely wish him well.”
“I have no doubt of their being happy together,” said Emma; “I believe them to be very mutually and very sincerely attached.”
“I have no doubt they'll be happy together,” said Emma; “I believe they are truly and sincerely devoted to each other.”
“He is a most fortunate man!” returned Mr. Knightley, with energy. “So early in life—at three-and-twenty—a period when, if a man chuses a wife, he generally chuses ill. At three-and-twenty to have drawn such a prize! What years of felicity that man, in all human calculation, has before him!—Assured of the love of such a woman—the disinterested love, for Jane Fairfax’s character vouches for her disinterestedness; every thing in his favour,—equality of situation—I mean, as far as regards society, and all the habits and manners that are important; equality in every point but one—and that one, since the purity of her heart is not to be doubted, such as must increase his felicity, for it will be his to bestow the only advantages she wants.—A man would always wish to give a woman a better home than the one he takes her from; and he who can do it, where there is no doubt of her regard, must, I think, be the happiest of mortals.—Frank Churchill is, indeed, the favourite of fortune. Every thing turns out for his good.—He meets with a young woman at a watering-place, gains her affection, cannot even weary her by negligent treatment—and had he and all his family sought round the world for a perfect wife for him, they could not have found her superior.—His aunt is in the way.—His aunt dies.—He has only to speak.—His friends are eager to promote his happiness.—He had used every body ill—and they are all delighted to forgive him.—He is a fortunate man indeed!”
“He's such a lucky guy!” replied Mr. Knightley, with enthusiasm. “To be so young—at twenty-three—a time when, if a guy chooses a wife, he usually chooses poorly. At twenty-three to have landed such a catch! Just think of all the happiness that man, in all likelihood, has ahead of him!—To be assured of the love of such a woman—the selfless love, since Jane Fairfax’s character proves her selflessness; everything is in his favor—equal standing in society, as far as that goes, and all the important habits and manners; equality in every way but one—and that one, since her heart is undeniably pure, will only increase his happiness, because it’ll be his to provide the only advantages she lacks.—A man always wants to give a woman a better home than the one she comes from; and he who can do that, without a doubt of her feelings, must be the happiest person alive.—Frank Churchill is truly favored by fate. Everything works out for him.—He meets a young woman at a spa, wins her affection, and can’t even annoy her with careless behavior—and if he and his family searched the world for the perfect wife for him, they couldn’t find anyone better.—His aunt is an obstacle.—His aunt dies.—He just has to speak up.—His friends are eager to contribute to his happiness.—He’d treated everyone poorly—and they’re all happy to forgive him.—He really is one fortunate man!”
“You speak as if you envied him.”
"You talk like you're jealous of him."
“And I do envy him, Emma. In one respect he is the object of my envy.”
“And I do envy him, Emma. In one way, he is the reason for my envy.”
Emma could say no more. They seemed to be within half a sentence of Harriet, and her immediate feeling was to avert the subject, if possible. She made her plan; she would speak of something totally different—the children in Brunswick Square; and she only waited for breath to begin, when Mr. Knightley startled her, by saying,
Emma could say no more. They seemed to be just a few words away from Harriet, and her immediate instinct was to change the topic, if she could. She made her plan; she would talk about something completely different—the kids in Brunswick Square; and she was just waiting to catch her breath to start when Mr. Knightley surprised her by saying,
“You will not ask me what is the point of envy.—You are determined, I see, to have no curiosity.—You are wise—but I cannot be wise. Emma, I must tell you what you will not ask, though I may wish it unsaid the next moment.”
“You won’t ask me what’s the point of envy. You seem determined to have no curiosity. You’re wise—but I can’t be wise. Emma, I need to tell you what you won’t ask, even though I might wish I hadn’t said it the next moment.”
“Oh! then, don’t speak it, don’t speak it,” she eagerly cried. “Take a little time, consider, do not commit yourself.”
“Oh! Then don't say it, don't say it,” she urged. “Take some time, think about it, don’t rush into a decision.”
“Thank you,” said he, in an accent of deep mortification, and not another syllable followed.
“Thank you,” he said, sounding deeply embarrassed, and not another word was spoken.
Emma could not bear to give him pain. He was wishing to confide in her—perhaps to consult her;—cost her what it would, she would listen. She might assist his resolution, or reconcile him to it; she might give just praise to Harriet, or, by representing to him his own independence, relieve him from that state of indecision, which must be more intolerable than any alternative to such a mind as his.—They had reached the house.
Emma couldn’t stand the thought of hurting him. He wanted to open up to her—maybe to ask for her advice; no matter the cost, she would listen. She could help him come to a decision or make peace with it; she could compliment Harriet, or by reminding him of his own independence, free him from that state of uncertainty, which must be harder to bear than any other option for someone like him. —They had arrived at the house.
“You are going in, I suppose?” said he.
“You're going in, I guess?” he said.
“No,”—replied Emma—quite confirmed by the depressed manner in which he still spoke—“I should like to take another turn. Mr. Perry is not gone.” And, after proceeding a few steps, she added—“I stopped you ungraciously, just now, Mr. Knightley, and, I am afraid, gave you pain.—But if you have any wish to speak openly to me as a friend, or to ask my opinion of any thing that you may have in contemplation—as a friend, indeed, you may command me.—I will hear whatever you like. I will tell you exactly what I think.”
“No,” Emma replied, feeling reassured by the serious way he still spoke. “I’d like to take another walk. Mr. Perry isn’t gone yet.” After taking a few steps, she added, “I interrupted you a bit rudely just now, Mr. Knightley, and I’m sorry if I upset you. But if you want to talk openly to me as a friend or ask for my opinion on anything you’re considering—as a friend, you can count on me. I’m here to listen to whatever you want. I’ll tell you exactly what I think.”
“As a friend!”—repeated Mr. Knightley.—“Emma, that I fear is a word—No, I have no wish—Stay, yes, why should I hesitate?—I have gone too far already for concealment.—Emma, I accept your offer—Extraordinary as it may seem, I accept it, and refer myself to you as a friend.—Tell me, then, have I no chance of ever succeeding?”
“As a friend!”—repeated Mr. Knightley.—“Emma, I’m afraid that’s a word—No, I don’t want to—Wait, yes, why should I hold back?—I’ve already gone too far to hide it.—Emma, I accept your offer—As strange as it may seem, I accept it, and I’m looking to you as a friend.—So, tell me, do I have any chance of ever succeeding?”
He stopped in his earnestness to look the question, and the expression of his eyes overpowered her.
He paused in his seriousness to consider the question, and the look in his eyes overwhelmed her.
“My dearest Emma,” said he, “for dearest you will always be, whatever the event of this hour’s conversation, my dearest, most beloved Emma—tell me at once. Say ‘No,’ if it is to be said.”—She could really say nothing.—“You are silent,” he cried, with great animation; “absolutely silent! at present I ask no more.”
“My dearest Emma,” he said, “for you will always be my dearest, no matter how this conversation turns out—my most beloved Emma—just tell me right away. Say ‘No’ if that’s what it’s going to be.” She honestly couldn’t say anything. “You’re silent,” he exclaimed, full of energy; “completely silent! For now, I won’t ask for anything more.”
Emma was almost ready to sink under the agitation of this moment. The dread of being awakened from the happiest dream, was perhaps the most prominent feeling.
Emma was nearly overwhelmed by the tension of this moment. The fear of being pulled out of the happiest dream was probably the strongest emotion she felt.
“I cannot make speeches, Emma:” he soon resumed; and in a tone of such sincere, decided, intelligible tenderness as was tolerably convincing.—“If I loved you less, I might be able to talk about it more. But you know what I am.—You hear nothing but truth from me.—I have blamed you, and lectured you, and you have borne it as no other woman in England would have borne it.—Bear with the truths I would tell you now, dearest Emma, as well as you have borne with them. The manner, perhaps, may have as little to recommend them. God knows, I have been a very indifferent lover.—But you understand me.—Yes, you see, you understand my feelings—and will return them if you can. At present, I ask only to hear, once to hear your voice.”
“I can’t give speeches, Emma,” he said again, in a voice filled with genuine, strong, clear warmth that was quite convincing. “If I loved you less, I might be able to talk about it more. But you know who I am. You only hear the truth from me. I’ve criticized you and lectured you, and you’ve taken it better than any other woman in England would have. Please bear with the truths I want to share with you now, dear Emma, just as you have before. The delivery might not be any better. God knows, I’ve been a pretty lousy lover. But you get me. Yes, you see that you understand my feelings—and you will return them if you can. Right now, all I want is to hear your voice, just once.”
While he spoke, Emma’s mind was most busy, and, with all the wonderful velocity of thought, had been able—and yet without losing a word—to catch and comprehend the exact truth of the whole; to see that Harriet’s hopes had been entirely groundless, a mistake, a delusion, as complete a delusion as any of her own—that Harriet was nothing; that she was every thing herself; that what she had been saying relative to Harriet had been all taken as the language of her own feelings; and that her agitation, her doubts, her reluctance, her discouragement, had been all received as discouragement from herself.—And not only was there time for these convictions, with all their glow of attendant happiness; there was time also to rejoice that Harriet’s secret had not escaped her, and to resolve that it need not, and should not.—It was all the service she could now render her poor friend; for as to any of that heroism of sentiment which might have prompted her to entreat him to transfer his affection from herself to Harriet, as infinitely the most worthy of the two—or even the more simple sublimity of resolving to refuse him at once and for ever, without vouchsafing any motive, because he could not marry them both, Emma had it not. She felt for Harriet, with pain and with contrition; but no flight of generosity run mad, opposing all that could be probable or reasonable, entered her brain. She had led her friend astray, and it would be a reproach to her for ever; but her judgment was as strong as her feelings, and as strong as it had ever been before, in reprobating any such alliance for him, as most unequal and degrading. Her way was clear, though not quite smooth.—She spoke then, on being so entreated.—What did she say?—Just what she ought, of course. A lady always does.—She said enough to shew there need not be despair—and to invite him to say more himself. He had despaired at one period; he had received such an injunction to caution and silence, as for the time crushed every hope;—she had begun by refusing to hear him.—The change had perhaps been somewhat sudden;—her proposal of taking another turn, her renewing the conversation which she had just put an end to, might be a little extraordinary!—She felt its inconsistency; but Mr. Knightley was so obliging as to put up with it, and seek no farther explanation.
While he spoke, Emma's mind was racing, and with the incredible speed of thought, she was able—and without missing a word—to grasp the exact truth of everything; to see that Harriet's hopes were completely unfounded, a mistake, a total delusion, just as much a delusion as her own—that Harriet was nothing; that she was everything herself; that what she had been saying about Harriet was just an expression of her own feelings; and that her agitation, her doubts, her reluctance, her discouragement had all been interpreted as discouragement from herself. And there was not only time for these realizations, along with all the happiness that came with them; there was also time to be glad that Harriet's secret hadn’t slipped out, and to decide that it didn’t have to and shouldn’t. It was all she could now do for her poor friend; because any kind of heroic sentiment that might have encouraged her to ask him to shift his affections from her to Harriet, as infinitely more deserving of his love—or even the simpler act of just refusing him completely and forever, without giving a reason, since he couldn't marry them both—Emma didn’t possess. She felt for Harriet, with pain and regret; but no reckless act of misplaced generosity, defying what was probable or reasonable, crossed her mind. She had led her friend astray, and that would always weigh on her; but her judgment was as strong as her feelings, and as strong as it had ever been, in condemning any such connection for him as totally unequal and degrading. Her path was clear, though not entirely smooth. She then spoke, when asked. What did she say? Just what she should, of course. A lady always does. She said enough to show there didn’t need to be despair—and to encourage him to say more himself. He had despaired at one point; he had received such an order to be cautious and silent that it crushed every hope for a time;—she had started by refusing to listen to him. The change may have seemed a bit sudden;—her suggestion to take a different route, her reopening the conversation she had just ended, might come off as a little strange! She recognized its inconsistency; but Mr. Knightley was kind enough to tolerate it and seek no further explanation.
Seldom, very seldom, does complete truth belong to any human disclosure; seldom can it happen that something is not a little disguised, or a little mistaken; but where, as in this case, though the conduct is mistaken, the feelings are not, it may not be very material.—Mr. Knightley could not impute to Emma a more relenting heart than she possessed, or a heart more disposed to accept of his.
Seldom, very seldom, does complete truth belong to any human disclosure; seldom can it happen that something is not a little disguised, or a little mistaken; but where, as in this case, though the conduct is mistaken, the feelings are not, it may not be very material.—Mr. Knightley could not impute to Emma a more relenting heart than she possessed, or a heart more disposed to accept of his.
He had, in fact, been wholly unsuspicious of his own influence. He had followed her into the shrubbery with no idea of trying it. He had come, in his anxiety to see how she bore Frank Churchill’s engagement, with no selfish view, no view at all, but of endeavouring, if she allowed him an opening, to soothe or to counsel her.—The rest had been the work of the moment, the immediate effect of what he heard, on his feelings. The delightful assurance of her total indifference towards Frank Churchill, of her having a heart completely disengaged from him, had given birth to the hope, that, in time, he might gain her affection himself;—but it had been no present hope—he had only, in the momentary conquest of eagerness over judgment, aspired to be told that she did not forbid his attempt to attach her.—The superior hopes which gradually opened were so much the more enchanting.—The affection, which he had been asking to be allowed to create, if he could, was already his!—Within half an hour, he had passed from a thoroughly distressed state of mind, to something so like perfect happiness, that it could bear no other name.
He had, in fact, been completely unaware of his own impact. He had followed her into the bushes without any intention of testing that. He had come, out of worry about how she was coping with Frank Churchill’s engagement, with no selfish motives, no motives at all, just trying to see if she would let him help or advise her. The rest was just the result of the moment, the immediate effect of what he heard on his feelings. The wonderful reassurance of her total indifference towards Frank Churchill, of her having a heart completely free from him, sparked the hope that, with time, he might win her affection himself;—but that hadn’t been a current hope—he had only, in the temporary victory of eagerness over judgment, hoped to be told that she didn’t dismiss his attempt to pursue her. The better hopes that gradually opened up were even more enchanting.—The affection that he had been wishing he could create, if possible, was already his!—In less than half an hour, he had gone from being thoroughly distressed to something so close to perfect happiness that it could only be described as such.
Her change was equal.—This one half-hour had given to each the same precious certainty of being beloved, had cleared from each the same degree of ignorance, jealousy, or distrust.—On his side, there had been a long-standing jealousy, old as the arrival, or even the expectation, of Frank Churchill.—He had been in love with Emma, and jealous of Frank Churchill, from about the same period, one sentiment having probably enlightened him as to the other. It was his jealousy of Frank Churchill that had taken him from the country.—The Box Hill party had decided him on going away. He would save himself from witnessing again such permitted, encouraged attentions.—He had gone to learn to be indifferent.—But he had gone to a wrong place. There was too much domestic happiness in his brother’s house; woman wore too amiable a form in it; Isabella was too much like Emma—differing only in those striking inferiorities, which always brought the other in brilliancy before him, for much to have been done, even had his time been longer.—He had stayed on, however, vigorously, day after day—till this very morning’s post had conveyed the history of Jane Fairfax.—Then, with the gladness which must be felt, nay, which he did not scruple to feel, having never believed Frank Churchill to be at all deserving Emma, was there so much fond solicitude, so much keen anxiety for her, that he could stay no longer. He had ridden home through the rain; and had walked up directly after dinner, to see how this sweetest and best of all creatures, faultless in spite of all her faults, bore the discovery.
Her transformation was the same.—This half-hour had given both of them the same precious assurance of being loved, and had removed from each of them a similar level of ignorance, jealousy, or distrust.—On his part, he had long harbored jealousy, dating back to the arrival, or even the anticipation, of Frank Churchill.—He had been in love with Emma and jealous of Frank Churchill around the same time, with one feeling probably illuminating the other. It was his jealousy of Frank Churchill that had driven him away from the countryside.—The Box Hill gathering had pushed him to leave. He wanted to avoid seeing such allowed, supported affections again.—He had gone to learn to be indifferent.—But he had chosen the wrong place. There was too much domestic happiness in his brother’s home; women appeared too kind there; Isabella was too much like Emma—differing only in those notable shortcomings that always made Emma shine brighter in his eyes, for a lot could have been achieved, even if he had stayed longer.—However, he had lingered on steadfastly, day after day—until this very morning’s mail had shared the story of Jane Fairfax.—Then, filled with joy that he couldn’t hide, knowing he had never thought Frank Churchill was worthy of Emma at all, he felt such deep care and sharp anxiety for her that he could no longer stay. He had ridden home through the rain and walked straight there after dinner to see how this sweetest and best of all beings, flawless despite all her flaws, was handling the news.
He had found her agitated and low.—Frank Churchill was a villain.— He heard her declare that she had never loved him. Frank Churchill’s character was not desperate.—She was his own Emma, by hand and word, when they returned into the house; and if he could have thought of Frank Churchill then, he might have deemed him a very good sort of fellow.
He found her upset and down. Frank Churchill was a jerk. He heard her say that she had never loved him. Frank Churchill's character wasn't hopeless. She was his own Emma, in actions and words, when they went back into the house; and if he had thought about Frank Churchill at that moment, he might have considered him a decent guy.
CHAPTER XIV
What totally different feelings did Emma take back into the house from what she had brought out!—she had then been only daring to hope for a little respite of suffering;—she was now in an exquisite flutter of happiness, and such happiness moreover as she believed must still be greater when the flutter should have passed away.
What completely different feelings did Emma bring back into the house compared to what she had taken out!—she had only dared to hope for a small break from her suffering;—now she was in a wonderful state of happiness, and she believed that this happiness would be even greater once the excitement faded.
They sat down to tea—the same party round the same table—how often it had been collected!—and how often had her eyes fallen on the same shrubs in the lawn, and observed the same beautiful effect of the western sun!—But never in such a state of spirits, never in any thing like it; and it was with difficulty that she could summon enough of her usual self to be the attentive lady of the house, or even the attentive daughter.
They sat down for tea—the same group around the same table—how many times had they gathered there!—and how many times had her eyes fallen on the same shrubs in the yard, noticing the same beautiful glow of the setting sun!—But never with such a good mood, never anything like it; and it was hard for her to muster enough of her usual self to be the thoughtful host or even a caring daughter.
Poor Mr. Woodhouse little suspected what was plotting against him in the breast of that man whom he was so cordially welcoming, and so anxiously hoping might not have taken cold from his ride.—Could he have seen the heart, he would have cared very little for the lungs; but without the most distant imagination of the impending evil, without the slightest perception of any thing extraordinary in the looks or ways of either, he repeated to them very comfortably all the articles of news he had received from Mr. Perry, and talked on with much self-contentment, totally unsuspicious of what they could have told him in return.
Poor Mr. Woodhouse had no idea what was being planned against him by the man he was warmly welcoming and hoping hadn’t caught a chill from his ride. If he could have seen into that man’s heart, he wouldn’t have cared much about appearances; but without any inkling of the impending trouble, completely unaware of anything unusual in their expressions or behavior, he comfortably relayed all the news he had received from Mr. Perry and chatted away with great satisfaction, utterly unsuspecting of what they might have said back to him.
As long as Mr. Knightley remained with them, Emma’s fever continued; but when he was gone, she began to be a little tranquillised and subdued—and in the course of the sleepless night, which was the tax for such an evening, she found one or two such very serious points to consider, as made her feel, that even her happiness must have some alloy. Her father—and Harriet. She could not be alone without feeling the full weight of their separate claims; and how to guard the comfort of both to the utmost, was the question. With respect to her father, it was a question soon answered. She hardly knew yet what Mr. Knightley would ask; but a very short parley with her own heart produced the most solemn resolution of never quitting her father.—She even wept over the idea of it, as a sin of thought. While he lived, it must be only an engagement; but she flattered herself, that if divested of the danger of drawing her away, it might become an increase of comfort to him.—How to do her best by Harriet, was of more difficult decision;—how to spare her from any unnecessary pain; how to make her any possible atonement; how to appear least her enemy?—On these subjects, her perplexity and distress were very great—and her mind had to pass again and again through every bitter reproach and sorrowful regret that had ever surrounded it.—She could only resolve at last, that she would still avoid a meeting with her, and communicate all that need be told by letter; that it would be inexpressibly desirable to have her removed just now for a time from Highbury, and—indulging in one scheme more—nearly resolve, that it might be practicable to get an invitation for her to Brunswick Square.—Isabella had been pleased with Harriet; and a few weeks spent in London must give her some amusement.—She did not think it in Harriet’s nature to escape being benefited by novelty and variety, by the streets, the shops, and the children.—At any rate, it would be a proof of attention and kindness in herself, from whom every thing was due; a separation for the present; an averting of the evil day, when they must all be together again.
As long as Mr. Knightley was around, Emma was restless; but once he left, she started to calm down a bit—during the sleepless night that followed such an eventful evening, she realized there were a couple of serious issues to think about that made her understand that even her happiness had its drawbacks. Her father—and Harriet. She couldn’t be on her own without feeling the full impact of their individual needs; the challenge was how to ensure the comfort of both to the fullest. Regarding her father, it was a question that didn't take long to answer. She wasn't quite sure what Mr. Knightley would expect; but after a brief reflection, she made a firm decision to never leave her father. The thought of it upset her to the point of tears; it felt sinful to even consider. While he was alive, it could only be a promise, but she hoped that if it didn’t pose a risk of pulling her away, it might actually provide him with more comfort. Figuring out how to support Harriet was much more complicated; how to shield her from any unnecessary hurt; how to make any possible amends; how to appear less like an adversary? On these matters, her confusion and distress were overwhelming—her thoughts kept cycling through every harsh accusation and painful regret that she'd ever experienced. Ultimately, she resolved to avoid meeting Harriet and to communicate everything necessary through letters; she found it incredibly appealing to arrange for Harriet to be away from Highbury for a while, and—with one more plan in mind—almost decided that it could be possible to get an invitation for her to Brunswick Square. Isabella had liked Harriet, and a few weeks in London would surely give her some cheer. She didn’t think Harriet was the type to miss out on the benefits of new experiences—like the streets, the shops, and the playful children. Regardless, it would show her own thoughtfulness and kindness, which she owed to her; it would mean a temporary separation; a way to delay the inevitable day when they would all have to be together again.
She rose early, and wrote her letter to Harriet; an employment which left her so very serious, so nearly sad, that Mr. Knightley, in walking up to Hartfield to breakfast, did not arrive at all too soon; and half an hour stolen afterwards to go over the same ground again with him, literally and figuratively, was quite necessary to reinstate her in a proper share of the happiness of the evening before.
She got up early and wrote her letter to Harriet; a task that made her feel very serious, almost sad, so much so that Mr. Knightley, walking over to Hartfield for breakfast, arrived just in time. And spending half an hour later to revisit the same topics with him, both literally and figuratively, was essential to bring her back to a proper level of happiness from the night before.
He had not left her long, by no means long enough for her to have the slightest inclination for thinking of any body else, when a letter was brought her from Randalls—a very thick letter;—she guessed what it must contain, and deprecated the necessity of reading it.—She was now in perfect charity with Frank Churchill; she wanted no explanations, she wanted only to have her thoughts to herself—and as for understanding any thing he wrote, she was sure she was incapable of it.—It must be waded through, however. She opened the packet; it was too surely so;—a note from Mrs. Weston to herself, ushered in the letter from Frank to Mrs. Weston.
He hadn't been gone from her long, definitely not long enough for her to think about anyone else, when she received a letter from Randalls—a very thick one. She guessed what it would contain and didn’t feel the need to read it. She was now perfectly fine with Frank Churchill; she didn’t want any explanations, just wanted to keep her thoughts to herself—and as for understanding anything he wrote, she was sure she couldn't. Still, it had to be read. She opened the package; it was exactly what she suspected—a note from Mrs. Weston to her, followed by the letter from Frank to Mrs. Weston.
“I have the greatest pleasure, my dear Emma, in forwarding to you the enclosed. I know what thorough justice you will do it, and have scarcely a doubt of its happy effect.—I think we shall never materially disagree about the writer again; but I will not delay you by a long preface.—We are quite well.—This letter has been the cure of all the little nervousness I have been feeling lately.—I did not quite like your looks on Tuesday, but it was an ungenial morning; and though you will never own being affected by weather, I think every body feels a north-east wind.—I felt for your dear father very much in the storm of Tuesday afternoon and yesterday morning, but had the comfort of hearing last night, by Mr. Perry, that it had not made him ill.
“I’m really happy, my dear Emma, to send you the enclosed. I know you’ll appreciate it fully, and I have no doubt it will have a positive effect. I think we won’t have any major disagreements about the writer anymore, but I won’t keep you with a long introduction. We’re doing quite well. This letter has helped me overcome all the little nervousness I’ve been feeling lately. I wasn’t too fond of how you looked on Tuesday, but it was a gloomy morning; and even though you’ll never admit that the weather affects you, I think everyone feels a north-east wind. I felt for your dear father during the storm on Tuesday afternoon and yesterday morning, but I was relieved to hear last night, through Mr. Perry, that it didn’t make him ill.”
“Yours ever,
“A. W.”
“Always yours,
“A. W.”
[To Mrs. Weston.]
To Mrs. Weston
Windsor—July.
Windsor—July.
MY DEAR MADAM,
Dear Adam,
“If I made myself intelligible yesterday, this letter will be expected; but expected or not, I know it will be read with candour and indulgence.—You are all goodness, and I believe there will be need of even all your goodness to allow for some parts of my past conduct.—But I have been forgiven by one who had still more to resent. My courage rises while I write. It is very difficult for the prosperous to be humble. I have already met with such success in two applications for pardon, that I may be in danger of thinking myself too sure of yours, and of those among your friends who have had any ground of offence.—You must all endeavour to comprehend the exact nature of my situation when I first arrived at Randalls; you must consider me as having a secret which was to be kept at all hazards. This was the fact. My right to place myself in a situation requiring such concealment, is another question. I shall not discuss it here. For my temptation to think it a right, I refer every caviller to a brick house, sashed windows below, and casements above, in Highbury. I dared not address her openly; my difficulties in the then state of Enscombe must be too well known to require definition; and I was fortunate enough to prevail, before we parted at Weymouth, and to induce the most upright female mind in the creation to stoop in charity to a secret engagement.—Had she refused, I should have gone mad.—But you will be ready to say, what was your hope in doing this?—What did you look forward to?—To any thing, every thing—to time, chance, circumstance, slow effects, sudden bursts, perseverance and weariness, health and sickness. Every possibility of good was before me, and the first of blessings secured, in obtaining her promises of faith and correspondence. If you need farther explanation, I have the honour, my dear madam, of being your husband’s son, and the advantage of inheriting a disposition to hope for good, which no inheritance of houses or lands can ever equal the value of.—See me, then, under these circumstances, arriving on my first visit to Randalls;—and here I am conscious of wrong, for that visit might have been sooner paid. You will look back and see that I did not come till Miss Fairfax was in Highbury; and as you were the person slighted, you will forgive me instantly; but I must work on my father’s compassion, by reminding him, that so long as I absented myself from his house, so long I lost the blessing of knowing you. My behaviour, during the very happy fortnight which I spent with you, did not, I hope, lay me open to reprehension, excepting on one point. And now I come to the principal, the only important part of my conduct while belonging to you, which excites my own anxiety, or requires very solicitous explanation. With the greatest respect, and the warmest friendship, do I mention Miss Woodhouse; my father perhaps will think I ought to add, with the deepest humiliation.—A few words which dropped from him yesterday spoke his opinion, and some censure I acknowledge myself liable to.—My behaviour to Miss Woodhouse indicated, I believe, more than it ought.—In order to assist a concealment so essential to me, I was led on to make more than an allowable use of the sort of intimacy into which we were immediately thrown.—I cannot deny that Miss Woodhouse was my ostensible object—but I am sure you will believe the declaration, that had I not been convinced of her indifference, I would not have been induced by any selfish views to go on.—Amiable and delightful as Miss Woodhouse is, she never gave me the idea of a young woman likely to be attached; and that she was perfectly free from any tendency to being attached to me, was as much my conviction as my wish.—She received my attentions with an easy, friendly, goodhumoured playfulness, which exactly suited me. We seemed to understand each other. From our relative situation, those attentions were her due, and were felt to be so.—Whether Miss Woodhouse began really to understand me before the expiration of that fortnight, I cannot say;—when I called to take leave of her, I remember that I was within a moment of confessing the truth, and I then fancied she was not without suspicion; but I have no doubt of her having since detected me, at least in some degree.—She may not have surmised the whole, but her quickness must have penetrated a part. I cannot doubt it. You will find, whenever the subject becomes freed from its present restraints, that it did not take her wholly by surprize. She frequently gave me hints of it. I remember her telling me at the ball, that I owed Mrs. Elton gratitude for her attentions to Miss Fairfax.—I hope this history of my conduct towards her will be admitted by you and my father as great extenuation of what you saw amiss. While you considered me as having sinned against Emma Woodhouse, I could deserve nothing from either. Acquit me here, and procure for me, when it is allowable, the acquittal and good wishes of that said Emma Woodhouse, whom I regard with so much brotherly affection, as to long to have her as deeply and as happily in love as myself.—Whatever strange things I said or did during that fortnight, you have now a key to. My heart was in Highbury, and my business was to get my body thither as often as might be, and with the least suspicion. If you remember any queernesses, set them all to the right account.—Of the pianoforte so much talked of, I feel it only necessary to say, that its being ordered was absolutely unknown to Miss F—, who would never have allowed me to send it, had any choice been given her.—The delicacy of her mind throughout the whole engagement, my dear madam, is much beyond my power of doing justice to. You will soon, I earnestly hope, know her thoroughly yourself.—No description can describe her. She must tell you herself what she is—yet not by word, for never was there a human creature who would so designedly suppress her own merit.—Since I began this letter, which will be longer than I foresaw, I have heard from her.—She gives a good account of her own health; but as she never complains, I dare not depend. I want to have your opinion of her looks. I know you will soon call on her; she is living in dread of the visit. Perhaps it is paid already. Let me hear from you without delay; I am impatient for a thousand particulars. Remember how few minutes I was at Randalls, and in how bewildered, how mad a state: and I am not much better yet; still insane either from happiness or misery. When I think of the kindness and favour I have met with, of her excellence and patience, and my uncle’s generosity, I am mad with joy: but when I recollect all the uneasiness I occasioned her, and how little I deserve to be forgiven, I am mad with anger. If I could but see her again!—But I must not propose it yet. My uncle has been too good for me to encroach.—I must still add to this long letter. You have not heard all that you ought to hear. I could not give any connected detail yesterday; but the suddenness, and, in one light, the unseasonableness with which the affair burst out, needs explanation; for though the event of the 26th ult., as you will conclude, immediately opened to me the happiest prospects, I should not have presumed on such early measures, but from the very particular circumstances, which left me not an hour to lose. I should myself have shrunk from any thing so hasty, and she would have felt every scruple of mine with multiplied strength and refinement.—But I had no choice. The hasty engagement she had entered into with that woman—Here, my dear madam, I was obliged to leave off abruptly, to recollect and compose myself.—I have been walking over the country, and am now, I hope, rational enough to make the rest of my letter what it ought to be.—It is, in fact, a most mortifying retrospect for me. I behaved shamefully. And here I can admit, that my manners to Miss W., in being unpleasant to Miss F., were highly blameable. She disapproved them, which ought to have been enough.—My plea of concealing the truth she did not think sufficient.—She was displeased; I thought unreasonably so: I thought her, on a thousand occasions, unnecessarily scrupulous and cautious: I thought her even cold. But she was always right. If I had followed her judgment, and subdued my spirits to the level of what she deemed proper, I should have escaped the greatest unhappiness I have ever known.—We quarrelled.— Do you remember the morning spent at Donwell?—There every little dissatisfaction that had occurred before came to a crisis. I was late; I met her walking home by herself, and wanted to walk with her, but she would not suffer it. She absolutely refused to allow me, which I then thought most unreasonable. Now, however, I see nothing in it but a very natural and consistent degree of discretion. While I, to blind the world to our engagement, was behaving one hour with objectionable particularity to another woman, was she to be consenting the next to a proposal which might have made every previous caution useless?—Had we been met walking together between Donwell and Highbury, the truth must have been suspected.—I was mad enough, however, to resent.—I doubted her affection. I doubted it more the next day on Box Hill; when, provoked by such conduct on my side, such shameful, insolent neglect of her, and such apparent devotion to Miss W., as it would have been impossible for any woman of sense to endure, she spoke her resentment in a form of words perfectly intelligible to me.—In short, my dear madam, it was a quarrel blameless on her side, abominable on mine; and I returned the same evening to Richmond, though I might have staid with you till the next morning, merely because I would be as angry with her as possible. Even then, I was not such a fool as not to mean to be reconciled in time; but I was the injured person, injured by her coldness, and I went away determined that she should make the first advances.—I shall always congratulate myself that you were not of the Box Hill party. Had you witnessed my behaviour there, I can hardly suppose you would ever have thought well of me again. Its effect upon her appears in the immediate resolution it produced: as soon as she found I was really gone from Randalls, she closed with the offer of that officious Mrs. Elton; the whole system of whose treatment of her, by the bye, has ever filled me with indignation and hatred. I must not quarrel with a spirit of forbearance which has been so richly extended towards myself; but, otherwise, I should loudly protest against the share of it which that woman has known.—‘Jane,’ indeed!—You will observe that I have not yet indulged myself in calling her by that name, even to you. Think, then, what I must have endured in hearing it bandied between the Eltons with all the vulgarity of needless repetition, and all the insolence of imaginary superiority. Have patience with me, I shall soon have done.—She closed with this offer, resolving to break with me entirely, and wrote the next day to tell me that we never were to meet again.—She felt the engagement to be a source of repentance and misery to each: she dissolved it.—This letter reached me on the very morning of my poor aunt’s death. I answered it within an hour; but from the confusion of my mind, and the multiplicity of business falling on me at once, my answer, instead of being sent with all the many other letters of that day, was locked up in my writing-desk; and I, trusting that I had written enough, though but a few lines, to satisfy her, remained without any uneasiness.—I was rather disappointed that I did not hear from her again speedily; but I made excuses for her, and was too busy, and—may I add?—too cheerful in my views to be captious.—We removed to Windsor; and two days afterwards I received a parcel from her, my own letters all returned!—and a few lines at the same time by the post, stating her extreme surprize at not having had the smallest reply to her last; and adding, that as silence on such a point could not be misconstrued, and as it must be equally desirable to both to have every subordinate arrangement concluded as soon as possible, she now sent me, by a safe conveyance, all my letters, and requested, that if I could not directly command hers, so as to send them to Highbury within a week, I would forward them after that period to her at—: in short, the full direction to Mr. Smallridge’s, near Bristol, stared me in the face. I knew the name, the place, I knew all about it, and instantly saw what she had been doing. It was perfectly accordant with that resolution of character which I knew her to possess; and the secrecy she had maintained, as to any such design in her former letter, was equally descriptive of its anxious delicacy. For the world would not she have seemed to threaten me.—Imagine the shock; imagine how, till I had actually detected my own blunder, I raved at the blunders of the post.—What was to be done?—One thing only.—I must speak to my uncle. Without his sanction I could not hope to be listened to again.—I spoke; circumstances were in my favour; the late event had softened away his pride, and he was, earlier than I could have anticipated, wholly reconciled and complying; and could say at last, poor man! with a deep sigh, that he wished I might find as much happiness in the marriage state as he had done.—I felt that it would be of a different sort.—Are you disposed to pity me for what I must have suffered in opening the cause to him, for my suspense while all was at stake?—No; do not pity me till I reached Highbury, and saw how ill I had made her. Do not pity me till I saw her wan, sick looks.—I reached Highbury at the time of day when, from my knowledge of their late breakfast hour, I was certain of a good chance of finding her alone.—I was not disappointed; and at last I was not disappointed either in the object of my journey. A great deal of very reasonable, very just displeasure I had to persuade away. But it is done; we are reconciled, dearer, much dearer, than ever, and no moment’s uneasiness can ever occur between us again. Now, my dear madam, I will release you; but I could not conclude before. A thousand and a thousand thanks for all the kindness you have ever shewn me, and ten thousand for the attentions your heart will dictate towards her.—If you think me in a way to be happier than I deserve, I am quite of your opinion.—Miss W. calls me the child of good fortune. I hope she is right.—In one respect, my good fortune is undoubted, that of being able to subscribe myself,
“If I made myself clear yesterday, you’ll probably be expecting this letter; but whether you expect it or not, I know you’ll read it with understanding and kindness. You are all so gracious, and I believe I’ll need every bit of your grace to overlook some of my past actions. But I’ve been forgiven by someone who had even more to be upset about. My courage grows as I write this. It's really hard for those who are doing well to stay humble. I’ve had such luck in two requests for forgiveness that I might be in danger of thinking I’m too certain of yours, as well as from your friends who might have had reasons to be offended. You all need to try to understand the exact nature of my situation when I first got to Randalls; you must see me as someone who had a secret that had to be kept at all costs. That’s the reality. My right to put myself in a situation that required such secrecy is another issue. I won’t discuss it here. For my temptation to think it was a right, I refer anyone who argues with me to a brick house, with sash windows below and casements above, in Highbury. I was too afraid to speak to her openly; my troubles back then at Enscombe must be clear enough not to need explaining; and I was lucky to convince her, before we parted at Weymouth, to agree to a secret engagement out of sheer kindness. If she had said no, I would have gone mad. But you might be wondering what I hoped to gain from this? What was I looking forward to? To anything and everything—to time, chance, circumstances, slow changes, sudden opportunities, perseverance, fatigue, health, and illness. Every possibility for good was in front of me, and the greatest blessing was securing her promises of fidelity and communication. If you need more clarity, I have the honor, my dear madam, of being your husband’s son, and I inherit a disposition to hope for good that no inheritance of houses or lands could ever match. So picture me, then, in these circumstances, making my first visit to Randalls; and I acknowledge I was wrong, as that visit could have happened sooner. You’ll remember that I didn’t show up until Miss Fairfax was in Highbury; and since you’re the one who felt slighted, you’ll forgive me right away; but I must appeal to my father’s compassion by reminding him that as long as I kept away from his house, I deprived myself of the joy of knowing you. I hope my behavior during that incredibly happy fortnight I spent with you didn’t expose me to any serious reproof, except on one matter. And now I come to the main, the only significant part of my conduct while involved with you, which causes my own anxiety, or requires careful explanation. With the utmost respect and warm friendship, I mention Miss Woodhouse; my father might think I should add, with deep humility. A few words that slipped from him yesterday reflected his opinion, and I acknowledge I’m liable to some criticism. My behavior toward Miss Woodhouse suggested, I believe, more than it should have. In order to maintain a concealment so crucial to me, I was led to make more than a permissible use of the kind of closeness we were thrown into right away. I can’t deny that Miss Woodhouse was my visible focus—but I’m sure you’ll believe me when I say that if I hadn’t been convinced of her indifference, no selfish interests would have made me continue. As pleasant and lovely as Miss Woodhouse is, she never gave me the impression of being the type of young woman likely to form a connection; and my belief that she was completely free from any inclination towards me was as much my conviction as my desire. She accepted my attentions with an easy, friendly, and good-humored playfulness that suited me perfectly. We seemed to understand each other. Given our situation, those attentions were her due, and we both felt it that way. Whether Miss Woodhouse really began to understand me before that fortnight was up, I can’t say;—when I went to say goodbye to her, I remember being on the verge of confessing the truth, and I then thought she might have had some suspicion; but I have no doubt she sensed at least a part of it. I can't be sure she caught the whole truth, but her quickness must have picked up a bit. You will find that whenever the topic is freed from its current constraints, it didn’t catch her completely off guard. She often hinted at it. I remember her telling me at the ball that I owed Mrs. Elton my gratitude for her attentions to Miss Fairfax. I hope this account of my actions towards her will be seen by you and my father as significant justification for what you observed as wrong. While you viewed me as having wronged Emma Woodhouse, I could deserve nothing from either. Clear my name here and secure for me, when possible, the forgiveness and good wishes of that same Emma Woodhouse, whom I feel such brotherly affection for that I long to see her as deeply and happily in love as I am. Whatever odd things I said or did during that fortnight, you now have a key to understand them. My heart was in Highbury, while my aim was to be there as often as I could, with the least suspicion. If you recall any oddities, attribute them to the right cause. Regarding the much-discussed pianoforte, I feel it's only fair to say that its ordering was completely unknown to Miss F—, who would never have allowed me to send it had she been given the choice. The sensitivity of her mind throughout the entire engagement, my dear madam, is far beyond my ability to describe justly. I truly hope you will soon come to know her thoroughly yourself. No description could do her justice. She must tell you herself what she is—though not in words, for there has never been a human being who would more deliberately downplay her own worth. Since I started this letter, which will be longer than I expected, I’ve heard from her. She’s given a good report of her health; but since she never complains, I can’t depend on it. I’m eager to hear your thoughts on her appearance. I know you will visit her soon; she’s incredibly anxious about the visit. Perhaps it has already happened. Please write to me soon; I’m impatient for a thousand details. Remember how few minutes I was at Randalls and in how confused, how crazed a state: and I’m not much better now; still either ecstatic or miserable. When I think of the kindness and favor I’ve received, of her excellence and patience, and my uncle’s generosity, I’m ecstatic with joy: but when I recall all the distress I caused her and how little I deserve to be forgiven, I’m furious. If only I could see her again! But I won’t suggest that yet. My uncle has been too generous to me for me to impose. I need to add more to this long letter. You haven’t heard everything you should know. I couldn’t give any connected account yesterday; but the abruptness, and in some ways the untimeliness, with which the situation unfolded needs to be explained; for though the events of the 26th ult., as you will guess, instantly opened up to me the happiest possibilities, I wouldn’t have presumed early action without very particular circumstances that left me no time to waste. I myself would have hesitated from anything so hasty, and she would have felt every doubt of mine with multiplied sensitivity. But I had no choice. The rushed engagement she had entered into with that woman—Here, my dear madam, I had to stop abruptly, to collect my thoughts. I have been walking around the countryside and I hope I’m composed enough now to make the rest of my letter what it should be. It is, in fact, a very humiliating look back for me. I behaved disgracefully. And here I must admit, that my manners toward Miss W., in being unpleasant to Miss F., were highly blameworthy. She disapproved of them, which should have been enough. My excuse of concealing the truth didn’t satisfy her. She was displeased; I thought unreasonably so: I thought she was unnecessarily scrupulous and cautious on a thousand occasions: I even thought her cold. But she was always right. If I had followed her judgment and brought my spirits down to what she deemed appropriate, I would have avoided the greatest unhappiness I’ve ever experienced. We quarreled. Do you remember the morning spent at Donwell?—There every little dissatisfaction that had occurred before came to a head. I was running late; I met her walking home alone, and wanted to walk with her, but she wouldn’t let me. She absolutely refused to allow it, which I then thought was completely unreasonable. Now, however, I see it as just a very natural and consistent level of discretion. While I, to blind everyone to our engagement, was behaving one hour with objectionable particularity toward another woman, was she supposed to consent the next moment to a proposal that could have made all prior caution unnecessary? Had we been seen walking together between Donwell and Highbury, the truth would have been suspected. I was foolish enough, however, to take offense. I doubted her affection. I doubted it even more the next day at Box Hill; when, provoked by such behavior on my part—such shameful, arrogant neglect of her, and such obvious devotion to Miss W.—it would have been impossible for any sensible woman to endure, she expressed her displeasure in words that were perfectly clear to me. In short, my dear madam, it was a quarrel that was blameless on her side and abominable on mine; and I returned that same evening to Richmond, although I could have stayed with you until the next morning, merely to be as angry with her as possible. Even then, I wasn't such a fool as not to intend to reconcile in time; but I was the injured party, harmed by her coldness, and I left determined that she should be the one to reach out first. I will always be grateful that you were not part of the Box Hill group. Had you seen my behavior there, I can hardly imagine you would ever think well of me again. Its effect on her is clear in the immediate decision it led to: as soon as she found out I had actually left Randalls, she accepted the offer from that meddlesome Mrs. Elton; whose whole treatment of her, by the way, has always filled me with outrage and hatred. I shouldn’t quarrel with a spirit of forbearance that has been so generously extended towards me; but otherwise, I would loudly protest against the extent of it that that woman has known. ‘Jane,’ indeed! You will notice I haven’t yet allowed myself to call her by that name, even to you. Think of what I must have suffered hearing it tossed around between the Eltons with all the vulgarity of needless repetition, and all the arrogance of imagined superiority. Please be patient with me, I’ll be done soon. She accepted this offer, determined to cut ties with me completely, and wrote the next day to tell me we were never to meet again. She felt the engagement to be a source of regret and misery for both of us; she ended it. This letter reached me on the very morning of my poor aunt’s death. I responded within an hour; but with the chaos in my mind and all the tasks piling up, my answer, instead of being sent along with the many other letters of that day, was locked up in my writing desk; and I, trusting that I had written enough, even though it was just a few lines, to satisfy her, remained without any worry. I was a bit disappointed that I didn’t hear from her again quickly; but I made excuses for her, and was too busy, and—may I add?—too optimistic in my views to be critical. We moved to Windsor; and two days later I received a package from her, my own letters all returned!—and a few lines at the same time by the post, stating her extreme surprise at not having received the slightest reply to her last; and added that since silence on such a matter couldn't be misinterpreted, and since it must be equally desirable for both parties to have every minor arrangement concluded as soon as possible, she now sent me, by a safe means, all my letters, and requested that if I couldn't directly command hers, so as to send them to Highbury within a week, I would send them after that period to her at—: in short, the full address to Mr. Smallridge’s, near Bristol, was right there before me. I knew the name, the place, I knew all the details, and immediately realized what she had been doing. It was perfectly in line with that resolution of character which I knew her to possess; and the secrecy she had maintained regarding any such plan in her previous letter equally described its anxious delicacy. For the world didn’t know she seemed to threaten me. Imagine the shock; imagine how, until I actually recognized my own mistake, I blasted the post for its errors. What was to be done? One thing only. I had to speak to my uncle. Without his approval, I couldn’t hope to be heard again. I spoke; circumstances were in my favor; the recent event had softened his pride, and he was, earlier than I could have imagined, completely reconciled and agreeable; and could finally say, poor man! with a deep sigh, that he wished I might find as much happiness in marriage as he had. I felt it would be of a different kind. Are you inclined to feel sorry for me for what I must have experienced in opening up the situation to him, for my anxiety while everything was at stake? No; don’t pity me until I reached Highbury and saw how poorly I had treated her. Don’t pity me until I saw her pale, sickly face. I arrived in Highbury at a time when, based on my knowledge of their late breakfast hour, I was certain I could find her alone. I wasn’t disappointed; and ultimately, I wasn’t disappointed in the purpose of my visit either. I had a great deal of very reasonable, very just displeasure I had to ease. But it’s done; we are reconciled, dearer, much dearer than ever, and no moment’s uneasiness can ever occur between us again. Now, my dear madam, I’ll let you go; but I couldn’t finish before. A thousand thanks for all the kindness you have ever shown me, and ten thousand for the attentions your heart will guide you to give her. If you think I’m on a path to greater happiness than I deserve, I completely agree with you. Miss W. calls me the child of good fortune. I hope she is right. In one way, my good fortune is undeniable; I can finally sign myself,
Your obliged and affectionate Son,
F. C. WESTON CHURCHILL.
Your grateful and loving son,
F. C. WESTON CHURCHILL.
CHAPTER XV
This letter must make its way to Emma’s feelings. She was obliged, in spite of her previous determination to the contrary, to do it all the justice that Mrs. Weston foretold. As soon as she came to her own name, it was irresistible; every line relating to herself was interesting, and almost every line agreeable; and when this charm ceased, the subject could still maintain itself, by the natural return of her former regard for the writer, and the very strong attraction which any picture of love must have for her at that moment. She never stopt till she had gone through the whole; and though it was impossible not to feel that he had been wrong, yet he had been less wrong than she had supposed—and he had suffered, and was very sorry—and he was so grateful to Mrs. Weston, and so much in love with Miss Fairfax, and she was so happy herself, that there was no being severe; and could he have entered the room, she must have shaken hands with him as heartily as ever.
This letter had to reach Emma’s feelings. Despite her earlier decision not to, she couldn’t help but give it the attention that Mrs. Weston predicted. As soon as she saw her own name, it was irresistible; every line about herself was engaging, and nearly every line was pleasant. When that charm faded, the topic still held her interest due to her lingering feelings for the writer and the powerful pull that any depiction of love had for her at that moment. She didn’t stop until she read the entire letter, and even though she couldn’t ignore that he had made mistakes, he had been less wrong than she thought—and he had suffered and was truly sorry—and he was so thankful to Mrs. Weston, and so in love with Miss Fairfax, and she was so happy herself, that being harsh was impossible; and if he had walked into the room, she would have shaken his hand just as warmly as ever.
She thought so well of the letter, that when Mr. Knightley came again, she desired him to read it. She was sure of Mrs. Weston’s wishing it to be communicated; especially to one, who, like Mr. Knightley, had seen so much to blame in his conduct.
She thought so highly of the letter that when Mr. Knightley came by again, she asked him to read it. She was certain that Mrs. Weston would want it shared, especially with someone like Mr. Knightley, who had seen so much to criticize in his actions.
“I shall be very glad to look it over,” said he; “but it seems long. I will take it home with me at night.”
“I'll be happy to take a look at it,” he said; “but it looks lengthy. I'll take it home with me tonight.”
But that would not do. Mr. Weston was to call in the evening, and she must return it by him.
But that wouldn’t work. Mr. Weston was coming by in the evening, and she had to give it back to him then.
“I would rather be talking to you,” he replied; “but as it seems a matter of justice, it shall be done.”
“I'd rather be talking to you,” he said; “but since this seems to be a matter of justice, it will be done.”
He began—stopping, however, almost directly to say, “Had I been offered the sight of one of this gentleman’s letters to his mother-in-law a few months ago, Emma, it would not have been taken with such indifference.”
He started—pausing, though, almost immediately to say, “If I had been shown one of this guy's letters to his mother-in-law a few months ago, Emma, I wouldn't have reacted so casually.”
He proceeded a little farther, reading to himself; and then, with a smile, observed, “Humph! a fine complimentary opening: But it is his way. One man’s style must not be the rule of another’s. We will not be severe.”
He went a little further, reading to himself; and then, with a smile, commented, “Hmm! What a nice complimentary beginning: But that’s just his style. One person’s way shouldn’t dictate another’s. Let’s not be too harsh.”
“It will be natural for me,” he added shortly afterwards, “to speak my opinion aloud as I read. By doing it, I shall feel that I am near you. It will not be so great a loss of time: but if you dislike it—”
“It will feel natural for me,” he added a moment later, “to voice my thoughts as I read. By doing this, I’ll feel closer to you. It won’t take too much time: but if you don’t like it—”
“Not at all. I should wish it.”
“Not at all. I would want that.”
Mr. Knightley returned to his reading with greater alacrity.
Mr. Knightley went back to his reading with more enthusiasm.
“He trifles here,” said he, “as to the temptation. He knows he is wrong, and has nothing rational to urge.—Bad.—He ought not to have formed the engagement.—‘His father’s disposition:’—he is unjust, however, to his father. Mr. Weston’s sanguine temper was a blessing on all his upright and honourable exertions; but Mr. Weston earned every present comfort before he endeavoured to gain it.—Very true; he did not come till Miss Fairfax was here.”
“He's just playing around with the idea of temptation,” he said, “because he knows he's wrong and can't come up with a good reason. That's bad. He shouldn’t have made that commitment. ‘His father's character:’ he’s being unfair to his father. Mr. Weston’s optimistic nature helped all his good and honorable efforts, but Mr. Weston worked hard for every comfort he enjoyed before trying to achieve more. That's very true; he didn’t arrive until Miss Fairfax was here.”
“And I have not forgotten,” said Emma, “how sure you were that he might have come sooner if he would. You pass it over very handsomely—but you were perfectly right.”
“And I haven’t forgotten,” Emma said, “how confident you were that he could have arrived sooner if he wanted to. You brush it off easily—but you were absolutely right.”
“I was not quite impartial in my judgment, Emma:—but yet, I think—had you not been in the case—I should still have distrusted him.”
“I wasn’t completely unbiased in my judgment, Emma:—but still, I think—had you not been involved—I would have still doubted him.”
When he came to Miss Woodhouse, he was obliged to read the whole of it aloud—all that related to her, with a smile; a look; a shake of the head; a word or two of assent, or disapprobation; or merely of love, as the subject required; concluding, however, seriously, and, after steady reflection, thus—
When he got to Miss Woodhouse, he had to read the entire thing out loud—all that was about her, along with a smile; a glance; a shake of the head; a word or two of agreement or disagreement; or simply affection, as the topic needed; ultimately finishing, however, seriously, and after careful thought, in this way—
“Very bad—though it might have been worse.—Playing a most dangerous game. Too much indebted to the event for his acquittal.—No judge of his own manners by you.—Always deceived in fact by his own wishes, and regardless of little besides his own convenience.—Fancying you to have fathomed his secret. Natural enough!—his own mind full of intrigue, that he should suspect it in others.—Mystery; Finesse—how they pervert the understanding! My Emma, does not every thing serve to prove more and more the beauty of truth and sincerity in all our dealings with each other?”
“Really bad—though it could have been worse.—Playing a very risky game. Too reliant on the event for his freedom.—Not a good judge of his own behavior by you.—Always misled by his own desires, only caring about his own convenience.—Thinking you’ve figured out his secret. Quite natural!—with his mind full of schemes, it makes sense he would suspect others too.—Mystery; subtlety—how they distort understanding! My Emma, doesn’t everything show more and more how beautiful honesty and sincerity are in all our interactions?”
Emma agreed to it, and with a blush of sensibility on Harriet’s account, which she could not give any sincere explanation of.
Emma agreed to it, and with a blush of empathy for Harriet, which she couldn't genuinely explain.
“You had better go on,” said she.
“You should keep going,” she said.
He did so, but very soon stopt again to say, “the pianoforte! Ah! That was the act of a very, very young man, one too young to consider whether the inconvenience of it might not very much exceed the pleasure. A boyish scheme, indeed!—I cannot comprehend a man’s wishing to give a woman any proof of affection which he knows she would rather dispense with; and he did know that she would have prevented the instrument’s coming if she could.”
He did that, but soon stopped again to say, “the piano! Ah! That was the move of a very, very young man, one too young to think about whether the trouble it caused might far outweigh the enjoyment. A childish idea, for sure!—I can’t understand why a man would want to give a woman any sign of affection that he knows she would prefer to avoid; and he did know that she would have stopped the piano from coming if she could.”
After this, he made some progress without any pause. Frank Churchill’s confession of having behaved shamefully was the first thing to call for more than a word in passing.
After this, he continued to make progress without stopping. Frank Churchill’s admission that he had acted badly was the first thing that required more than just a casual mention.
“I perfectly agree with you, sir,”—was then his remark. “You did behave very shamefully. You never wrote a truer line.” And having gone through what immediately followed of the basis of their disagreement, and his persisting to act in direct opposition to Jane Fairfax’s sense of right, he made a fuller pause to say, “This is very bad.—He had induced her to place herself, for his sake, in a situation of extreme difficulty and uneasiness, and it should have been his first object to prevent her from suffering unnecessarily.—She must have had much more to contend with, in carrying on the correspondence, than he could. He should have respected even unreasonable scruples, had there been such; but hers were all reasonable. We must look to her one fault, and remember that she had done a wrong thing in consenting to the engagement, to bear that she should have been in such a state of punishment.”
“I completely agree with you, sir,” was his remark. “You acted very shamefully. You’ve never spoken a truer word.” After going over the details of their disagreement and his continued actions directly against Jane Fairfax’s sense of right, he took a moment to say, “This is really bad. He had convinced her to put herself in a situation of extreme difficulty and discomfort for his sake, and he should have made it his priority to prevent her from suffering unnecessarily. She must have faced much more while managing the correspondence than he could. He should have respected even unreasonable scruples, if there had been any; but hers were completely reasonable. We must acknowledge her one fault and remember that she erred by agreeing to the engagement, so she should not have to endure such punishment.”
Emma knew that he was now getting to the Box Hill party, and grew uncomfortable. Her own behaviour had been so very improper! She was deeply ashamed, and a little afraid of his next look. It was all read, however, steadily, attentively, and without the smallest remark; and, excepting one momentary glance at her, instantly withdrawn, in the fear of giving pain—no remembrance of Box Hill seemed to exist.
Emma realized he was now arriving at the Box Hill party, and she felt uneasy. Her own behavior had been really inappropriate! She was very ashamed and a bit worried about how he would look at her next. Still, he read everything calmly and carefully, without a single word spoken; and aside from a brief glance at her, which he quickly averted to avoid causing any hurt, it was like he had completely forgotten about Box Hill.
“There is no saying much for the delicacy of our good friends, the Eltons,” was his next observation.—“His feelings are natural.—What! actually resolve to break with him entirely!—She felt the engagement to be a source of repentance and misery to each—she dissolved it.—What a view this gives of her sense of his behaviour!—Well, he must be a most extraordinary—”
“There’s not much to say about the sensitivity of our good friends, the Eltons,” was his next comment. “His feelings are understandable. What! To actually decide to cut ties with him completely! She saw the engagement as a source of regret and unhappiness for both of them—she ended it. What does this say about her opinion of his behavior? Well, he must be something really special—”
“Nay, nay, read on.—You will find how very much he suffers.”
“Nah, nah, keep reading.—You’ll see how much he really suffers.”
“I hope he does,” replied Mr. Knightley coolly, and resuming the letter. “‘Smallridge!’—What does this mean? What is all this?”
“I hope he does,” replied Mr. Knightley coolly, picking up the letter again. “‘Smallridge!’—What does this mean? What is all this?”
“She had engaged to go as governess to Mrs. Smallridge’s children—a dear friend of Mrs. Elton’s—a neighbour of Maple Grove; and, by the bye, I wonder how Mrs. Elton bears the disappointment?”
“She had agreed to take a job as a governess for Mrs. Smallridge’s children—who is a close friend of Mrs. Elton’s and a neighbor of Maple Grove; and, by the way, I wonder how Mrs. Elton is handling the disappointment?”
“Say nothing, my dear Emma, while you oblige me to read—not even of Mrs. Elton. Only one page more. I shall soon have done. What a letter the man writes!”
“Don’t say anything, my dear Emma, while you make me read—not even about Mrs. Elton. Just one more page. I’ll be done soon. What a letter this guy writes!”
“I wish you would read it with a kinder spirit towards him.”
“I wish you would read it with a more compassionate attitude toward him.”
“Well, there is feeling here.—He does seem to have suffered in finding her ill.—Certainly, I can have no doubt of his being fond of her. ‘Dearer, much dearer than ever.’ I hope he may long continue to feel all the value of such a reconciliation.—He is a very liberal thanker, with his thousands and tens of thousands.—‘Happier than I deserve.’ Come, he knows himself there. ‘Miss Woodhouse calls me the child of good fortune.’—Those were Miss Woodhouse’s words, were they?— And a fine ending—and there is the letter. The child of good fortune! That was your name for him, was it?”
“Well, there is feeling here.—He really seems to have struggled with her being unwell.—I have no doubt that he cares for her a lot. ‘Dearer, much dearer than ever.’ I hope he continues to appreciate the importance of such a reconciliation for a long time.—He’s very generous in expressing his gratitude, with all his thousands and tens of thousands.—‘Happier than I deserve.’ Well, he’s honest about that. ‘Miss Woodhouse calls me the child of good fortune.’—Those were Miss Woodhouse’s words, right?—And what a great conclusion—and there’s the letter. The child of good fortune! That was your name for him, wasn’t it?”
“You do not appear so well satisfied with his letter as I am; but still you must, at least I hope you must, think the better of him for it. I hope it does him some service with you.”
“You don't seem as pleased with his letter as I am; but still, I hope you think more highly of him because of it. I hope it does him some good in your eyes.”
“Yes, certainly it does. He has had great faults, faults of inconsideration and thoughtlessness; and I am very much of his opinion in thinking him likely to be happier than he deserves: but still as he is, beyond a doubt, really attached to Miss Fairfax, and will soon, it may be hoped, have the advantage of being constantly with her, I am very ready to believe his character will improve, and acquire from hers the steadiness and delicacy of principle that it wants. And now, let me talk to you of something else. I have another person’s interest at present so much at heart, that I cannot think any longer about Frank Churchill. Ever since I left you this morning, Emma, my mind has been hard at work on one subject.”
“Yes, it definitely does. He has some major faults, like being inconsiderate and thoughtless; and I mostly agree with him in believing he’s likely to be happier than he deserves. But as he is genuinely attached to Miss Fairfax and, hopefully, will soon have the opportunity to be with her regularly, I truly believe his character will improve and gain the steadiness and sensitivity of principle that it lacks from her influence. Now, let me shift the conversation to something else. I’m currently focused on another person's interests so much that I can't think about Frank Churchill any longer. Ever since I left you this morning, Emma, my mind has been occupied with one particular topic.”
The subject followed; it was in plain, unaffected, gentlemanlike English, such as Mr. Knightley used even to the woman he was in love with, how to be able to ask her to marry him, without attacking the happiness of her father. Emma’s answer was ready at the first word. “While her dear father lived, any change of condition must be impossible for her. She could never quit him.” Part only of this answer, however, was admitted. The impossibility of her quitting her father, Mr. Knightley felt as strongly as herself; but the inadmissibility of any other change, he could not agree to. He had been thinking it over most deeply, most intently; he had at first hoped to induce Mr. Woodhouse to remove with her to Donwell; he had wanted to believe it feasible, but his knowledge of Mr. Woodhouse would not suffer him to deceive himself long; and now he confessed his persuasion, that such a transplantation would be a risk of her father’s comfort, perhaps even of his life, which must not be hazarded. Mr. Woodhouse taken from Hartfield!—No, he felt that it ought not to be attempted. But the plan which had arisen on the sacrifice of this, he trusted his dearest Emma would not find in any respect objectionable; it was, that he should be received at Hartfield; that so long as her father’s happiness—in other words, his life—required Hartfield to continue her home, it should be his likewise.
The topic was straightforward; it was in plain, genuine, gentlemanly English, just like how Mr. Knightley spoke even to the woman he loved, about how to ask her to marry him without interfering with her father's happiness. Emma's response was immediate. “As long as her dear father is alive, any change in her life would be impossible. She could never leave him.” However, only part of this response was acknowledged. Mr. Knightley felt as strongly about her not leaving her father as she did; but he couldn't agree that any other changes were unacceptable. He had been thinking about it deeply and intensely; at first, he had hoped to convince Mr. Woodhouse to move with her to Donwell; he wanted to believe it was possible, but his understanding of Mr. Woodhouse quickly brought him back to reality. Now he admitted that such a move would risk her father's comfort, maybe even his life, which couldn't be put in danger. Mr. Woodhouse leaving Hartfield?—No, he felt that should not be attempted. But he trusted that the plan he developed after giving up on that idea would not be objectionable to his dearest Emma; it was that he would be welcomed at Hartfield; as long as her father's happiness—in other words, his life—required Hartfield to be her home, it should be his too.
Of their all removing to Donwell, Emma had already had her own passing thoughts. Like him, she had tried the scheme and rejected it; but such an alternative as this had not occurred to her. She was sensible of all the affection it evinced. She felt that, in quitting Donwell, he must be sacrificing a great deal of independence of hours and habits; that in living constantly with her father, and in no house of his own, there would be much, very much, to be borne with. She promised to think of it, and advised him to think of it more; but he was fully convinced, that no reflection could alter his wishes or his opinion on the subject. He had given it, he could assure her, very long and calm consideration; he had been walking away from William Larkins the whole morning, to have his thoughts to himself.
Emma had already thought about the idea of moving to Donwell. Like him, she had considered the plan and decided against it; however, she hadn’t considered this particular alternative. She recognized all the affection it showed. She realized that by leaving Donwell, he would be giving up a lot of independence in terms of his schedule and lifestyle; living constantly with her father, and without a place of his own, would involve a lot to deal with. She promised to think it over and suggested he think about it more too, but he was completely convinced that no amount of reflection would change his desires or his opinion on the matter. He assured her that he had given it a lot of calm, long thought; he had been walking away from William Larkins all morning just to sort through his thoughts.
“Ah! there is one difficulty unprovided for,” cried Emma. “I am sure William Larkins will not like it. You must get his consent before you ask mine.”
“Ah! there's one issue we haven't addressed,” Emma exclaimed. “I'm certain William Larkins won’t be happy about it. You need to get his approval before you ask for mine.”
She promised, however, to think of it; and pretty nearly promised, moreover, to think of it, with the intention of finding it a very good scheme.
She promised to think about it; and she almost promised to consider it a really good plan.
It is remarkable, that Emma, in the many, very many, points of view in which she was now beginning to consider Donwell Abbey, was never struck with any sense of injury to her nephew Henry, whose rights as heir-expectant had formerly been so tenaciously regarded. Think she must of the possible difference to the poor little boy; and yet she only gave herself a saucy conscious smile about it, and found amusement in detecting the real cause of that violent dislike of Mr. Knightley’s marrying Jane Fairfax, or any body else, which at the time she had wholly imputed to the amiable solicitude of the sister and the aunt.
It’s interesting that Emma, in the many, really many ways she was starting to think about Donwell Abbey, never felt any sense of injustice for her nephew Henry, whose rights as the expected heir had once been so fiercely protected. She should have considered the possible impact on the poor little boy; yet she only gave herself a cheeky smile about it and found amusement in figuring out the real reason behind that intense dislike for Mr. Knightley marrying Jane Fairfax, or anyone else, which at the time she had completely attributed to the well-intentioned worries of the sister and the aunt.
This proposal of his, this plan of marrying and continuing at Hartfield—the more she contemplated it, the more pleasing it became. His evils seemed to lessen, her own advantages to increase, their mutual good to outweigh every drawback. Such a companion for herself in the periods of anxiety and cheerlessness before her!—Such a partner in all those duties and cares to which time must be giving increase of melancholy!
This proposal of his, this plan of marrying and staying at Hartfield—the more she thought about it, the more appealing it became. His flaws seemed to fade, her own benefits grew, and their shared happiness outweighed any downsides. What a companion for her during times of stress and sadness!—What a partner for all those responsibilities and worries that would only grow heavier over time!
She would have been too happy but for poor Harriet; but every blessing of her own seemed to involve and advance the sufferings of her friend, who must now be even excluded from Hartfield. The delightful family party which Emma was securing for herself, poor Harriet must, in mere charitable caution, be kept at a distance from. She would be a loser in every way. Emma could not deplore her future absence as any deduction from her own enjoyment. In such a party, Harriet would be rather a dead weight than otherwise; but for the poor girl herself, it seemed a peculiarly cruel necessity that was to be placing her in such a state of unmerited punishment.
She would have been really happy except for poor Harriet; every good thing in her life seemed to increase her friend's suffering, who now had to be kept away from Hartfield. The lovely family gathering Emma was planning for herself meant that, out of simple kindness, she had to keep Harriet at a distance. Harriet would lose out in every way. Emma couldn't see her upcoming absence as anything that would lessen her own enjoyment. In that gathering, Harriet would be more of a burden than anything else; but for the poor girl, it felt especially cruel to put her in such a situation of undeserved punishment.
In time, of course, Mr. Knightley would be forgotten, that is, supplanted; but this could not be expected to happen very early. Mr. Knightley himself would be doing nothing to assist the cure;—not like Mr. Elton. Mr. Knightley, always so kind, so feeling, so truly considerate for every body, would never deserve to be less worshipped than now; and it really was too much to hope even of Harriet, that she could be in love with more than three men in one year.
Eventually, of course, Mr. Knightley would be forgotten, or rather replaced; but it was unlikely that this would happen anytime soon. Mr. Knightley himself wouldn't be doing anything to help the situation—unlike Mr. Elton. Mr. Knightley, always so kind, so sensitive, and so genuinely considerate of everyone, would never deserve to be admired any less than he was now; and honestly, it was too much to expect even from Harriet that she could fall in love with more than three men in a single year.
CHAPTER XVI
It was a very great relief to Emma to find Harriet as desirous as herself to avoid a meeting. Their intercourse was painful enough by letter. How much worse, had they been obliged to meet!
It was a huge relief for Emma to see that Harriet wanted to avoid a meeting just as much as she did. Their communication was already uncomfortable enough through letters. How much worse would it have been if they had to meet in person!
Harriet expressed herself very much as might be supposed, without reproaches, or apparent sense of ill-usage; and yet Emma fancied there was a something of resentment, a something bordering on it in her style, which increased the desirableness of their being separate.—It might be only her own consciousness; but it seemed as if an angel only could have been quite without resentment under such a stroke.
Harriet spoke exactly as one would expect, without any accusations or obvious feelings of mistreatment; however, Emma sensed a hint of resentment, something close to it in her manner, which made the idea of them being apart even more appealing. It could just be her own awareness, but it felt like only an angel could remain completely without resentment after such a blow.
She had no difficulty in procuring Isabella’s invitation; and she was fortunate in having a sufficient reason for asking it, without resorting to invention.—There was a tooth amiss. Harriet really wished, and had wished some time, to consult a dentist. Mrs. John Knightley was delighted to be of use; any thing of ill health was a recommendation to her—and though not so fond of a dentist as of a Mr. Wingfield, she was quite eager to have Harriet under her care.—When it was thus settled on her sister’s side, Emma proposed it to her friend, and found her very persuadable.—Harriet was to go; she was invited for at least a fortnight; she was to be conveyed in Mr. Woodhouse’s carriage.—It was all arranged, it was all completed, and Harriet was safe in Brunswick Square.
She had no trouble getting Isabella’s invitation, and she was lucky to have a good reason for asking without having to make something up. There was a tooth issue. Harriet genuinely wanted, and had wanted for a while, to see a dentist. Mrs. John Knightley was thrilled to help; any kind of health issue was a plus for her—and even though she preferred a Mr. Wingfield over a dentist, she was very eager to take care of Harriet. Once it was decided on her sister’s part, Emma suggested it to her friend, and found her very open to the idea. Harriet was going; she was invited for at least two weeks; she would be taken in Mr. Woodhouse’s carriage. Everything was arranged and finalized, and Harriet was all set in Brunswick Square.
Now Emma could, indeed, enjoy Mr. Knightley’s visits; now she could talk, and she could listen with true happiness, unchecked by that sense of injustice, of guilt, of something most painful, which had haunted her when remembering how disappointed a heart was near her, how much might at that moment, and at a little distance, be enduring by the feelings which she had led astray herself.
Now Emma could truly enjoy Mr. Knightley's visits; now she could talk and listen with genuine happiness, free from that feeling of injustice, of guilt, of something deeply painful that had troubled her when she remembered how disappointed someone close to her was, and how much they might be suffering at that moment and not far away, because of the feelings she had misled.
The difference of Harriet at Mrs. Goddard’s, or in London, made perhaps an unreasonable difference in Emma’s sensations; but she could not think of her in London without objects of curiosity and employment, which must be averting the past, and carrying her out of herself.
The change in Harriet at Mrs. Goddard’s, or in London, perhaps made an unreasonable impact on Emma’s feelings; but she couldn’t picture her in London without thinking of curiosity and activities that must be distracting her from the past and helping her move forward.
She would not allow any other anxiety to succeed directly to the place in her mind which Harriet had occupied. There was a communication before her, one which she only could be competent to make—the confession of her engagement to her father; but she would have nothing to do with it at present.—She had resolved to defer the disclosure till Mrs. Weston were safe and well. No additional agitation should be thrown at this period among those she loved—and the evil should not act on herself by anticipation before the appointed time.—A fortnight, at least, of leisure and peace of mind, to crown every warmer, but more agitating, delight, should be hers.
She wouldn't let any other worries take the spot in her mind that Harriet had filled. There was something she needed to share, something only she could discuss—the confession of her engagement to her father; but she wasn't ready to deal with it right now. She had decided to wait until Mrs. Weston was safe and sound. No extra stress should be added during this time among those she cared about—and she wouldn't let the looming issue weigh on her before the right moment. At least two weeks of peace and calm, to enjoy every warmer, but more intense, pleasure, should be hers.
She soon resolved, equally as a duty and a pleasure, to employ half an hour of this holiday of spirits in calling on Miss Fairfax.—She ought to go—and she was longing to see her; the resemblance of their present situations increasing every other motive of goodwill. It would be a secret satisfaction; but the consciousness of a similarity of prospect would certainly add to the interest with which she should attend to any thing Jane might communicate.
She quickly decided, as both a responsibility and a joy, to spend half an hour of this holiday in visiting Miss Fairfax. She felt she should go—and was eager to see her; the similarity of their current situations heightened every other reason for goodwill. It would be a secret pleasure; but knowing they shared a similar outlook would definitely make her more interested in anything Jane might share.
She went—she had driven once unsuccessfully to the door, but had not been into the house since the morning after Box Hill, when poor Jane had been in such distress as had filled her with compassion, though all the worst of her sufferings had been unsuspected.—The fear of being still unwelcome, determined her, though assured of their being at home, to wait in the passage, and send up her name.—She heard Patty announcing it; but no such bustle succeeded as poor Miss Bates had before made so happily intelligible.—No; she heard nothing but the instant reply of, “Beg her to walk up;”—and a moment afterwards she was met on the stairs by Jane herself, coming eagerly forward, as if no other reception of her were felt sufficient.—Emma had never seen her look so well, so lovely, so engaging. There was consciousness, animation, and warmth; there was every thing which her countenance or manner could ever have wanted.— She came forward with an offered hand; and said, in a low, but very feeling tone,
She went—she had once tried to drive to the door but had not entered the house since the morning after Box Hill, when poor Jane had been in such distress that it filled her with compassion, even though all of Jane's worst suffering had gone unnoticed. The fear of still being unwelcome made her decide to wait in the hallway and send up her name, even though she knew they were home. She heard Patty announcing her arrival, but there was no commotion like the one poor Miss Bates had previously made so easily understood. No; she only heard the immediate reply of, “Please have her come up,” and a moment later, she was met on the stairs by Jane herself, coming eagerly forward as if no other greeting would suffice. Emma had never seen her look so well, so beautiful, so charming. There was self-awareness, excitement, and warmth; everything that her face or demeanor could have ever lacked. She stepped forward with an outstretched hand and said in a low but very heartfelt tone,
“This is most kind, indeed!—Miss Woodhouse, it is impossible for me to express—I hope you will believe—Excuse me for being so entirely without words.”
“This is really kind of you!—Miss Woodhouse, I can’t express how I feel—I hope you understand—Sorry for being so at a loss for words.”
Emma was gratified, and would soon have shewn no want of words, if the sound of Mrs. Elton’s voice from the sitting-room had not checked her, and made it expedient to compress all her friendly and all her congratulatory sensations into a very, very earnest shake of the hand.
Emma was pleased and would have gladly expressed herself if not for the sound of Mrs. Elton’s voice from the sitting room, which prompted her to convey all her friendly and congratulatory feelings in a very sincere handshake.
Mrs. Bates and Mrs. Elton were together. Miss Bates was out, which accounted for the previous tranquillity. Emma could have wished Mrs. Elton elsewhere; but she was in a humour to have patience with every body; and as Mrs. Elton met her with unusual graciousness, she hoped the rencontre would do them no harm.
Mrs. Bates and Mrs. Elton were together. Miss Bates was out, which explained the earlier calm. Emma would have preferred Mrs. Elton somewhere else; but she was in the mood to be patient with everyone; and since Mrs. Elton greeted her with unexpected friendliness, she hoped the meeting wouldn't cause any problems.
She soon believed herself to penetrate Mrs. Elton’s thoughts, and understand why she was, like herself, in happy spirits; it was being in Miss Fairfax’s confidence, and fancying herself acquainted with what was still a secret to other people. Emma saw symptoms of it immediately in the expression of her face; and while paying her own compliments to Mrs. Bates, and appearing to attend to the good old lady’s replies, she saw her with a sort of anxious parade of mystery fold up a letter which she had apparently been reading aloud to Miss Fairfax, and return it into the purple and gold reticule by her side, saying, with significant nods,
She quickly thought she could read Mrs. Elton’s mind and figured out why she was, like herself, in such a good mood; it was being in Miss Fairfax’s confidence and thinking she knew something that was still a secret to everyone else. Emma noticed signs of it right away in Mrs. Elton’s expression; and while she was giving her own compliments to Mrs. Bates and pretending to listen to the kind old lady’s responses, she watched Mrs. Elton anxiously fold up a letter that she had apparently been reading aloud to Miss Fairfax and put it back into her purple and gold purse, saying, with knowing nods,
“We can finish this some other time, you know. You and I shall not want opportunities. And, in fact, you have heard all the essential already. I only wanted to prove to you that Mrs. S. admits our apology, and is not offended. You see how delightfully she writes. Oh! she is a sweet creature! You would have doated on her, had you gone.—But not a word more. Let us be discreet—quite on our good behaviour.—Hush!—You remember those lines—I forget the poem at this moment:
“We can wrap this up another time, you know. You and I will have plenty of chances. And, honestly, you’ve already heard all the important stuff. I just wanted to show you that Mrs. S. accepts our apology and isn’t upset. Look how wonderfully she writes. Oh! she’s such a lovely person! You would have adored her if you had met her.—But let’s not say any more. Let’s be discreet—on our best behavior.—Shh!—You remember those lines—I can’t recall the poem right now:
“For when a lady’s in the case,
“You know all other things give place.”
“For when a lady’s involved,
“You know everything else takes a back seat.”
Now I say, my dear, in our case, for lady, read——mum! a word to the wise.—I am in a fine flow of spirits, an’t I? But I want to set your heart at ease as to Mrs. S.—My representation, you see, has quite appeased her.”
Now I say, my dear, in our case, for lady, read——mum! A word to the wise.—I’m in a great mood, aren’t I? But I want to put your mind at ease about Mrs. S.—My description, you see, has really calmed her down.
And again, on Emma’s merely turning her head to look at Mrs. Bates’s knitting, she added, in a half whisper,
And again, when Emma just turned her head to look at Mrs. Bates’s knitting, she added, in a soft whisper,
“I mentioned no names, you will observe.—Oh! no; cautious as a minister of state. I managed it extremely well.”
“I didn’t mention any names, you’ll notice.—Oh! no; careful like a politician. I handled it really well.”
Emma could not doubt. It was a palpable display, repeated on every possible occasion. When they had all talked a little while in harmony of the weather and Mrs. Weston, she found herself abruptly addressed with,
Emma could not doubt it. It was a clear display, repeated at every opportunity. After they had casually discussed the weather and Mrs. Weston for a bit, she found herself suddenly addressed with,
“Do not you think, Miss Woodhouse, our saucy little friend here is charmingly recovered?—Do not you think her cure does Perry the highest credit?—(here was a side-glance of great meaning at Jane.) Upon my word, Perry has restored her in a wonderful short time!—Oh! if you had seen her, as I did, when she was at the worst!”—And when Mrs. Bates was saying something to Emma, whispered farther, “We do not say a word of any assistance that Perry might have; not a word of a certain young physician from Windsor.—Oh! no; Perry shall have all the credit.”
“Don't you think, Miss Woodhouse, our cheeky little friend here has made a lovely recovery?—Don't you think her healing reflects very well on Perry?—(this was a significant glance at Jane.) Honestly, Perry has brought her back in an impressively short time!—Oh! if you had seen her, as I did, when she was at her worst!”—And when Mrs. Bates was talking to Emma, she whispered further, “We won’t mention any help that Perry might have; not a word about a certain young doctor from Windsor.—Oh! no; Perry will get all the credit.”
“I have scarce had the pleasure of seeing you, Miss Woodhouse,” she shortly afterwards began, “since the party to Box Hill. Very pleasant party. But yet I think there was something wanting. Things did not seem—that is, there seemed a little cloud upon the spirits of some.—So it appeared to me at least, but I might be mistaken. However, I think it answered so far as to tempt one to go again. What say you both to our collecting the same party, and exploring to Box Hill again, while the fine weather lasts?—It must be the same party, you know, quite the same party, not one exception.”
“I’ve hardly had the pleasure of seeing you, Miss Woodhouse,” she soon began, “since the gathering at Box Hill. It was a lovely get-together. But still, I feel like something was missing. Things didn’t seem quite right—that is, there seemed to be a bit of a cloud over the spirits of some people. At least, that’s how it appeared to me, though I could be wrong. Still, I think it was successful enough to encourage us to try again. What do you both think about getting the same group together and heading back to Box Hill while the nice weather lasts? It has to be the same group, you know, exactly the same group, not one exception.”
Soon after this Miss Bates came in, and Emma could not help being diverted by the perplexity of her first answer to herself, resulting, she supposed, from doubt of what might be said, and impatience to say every thing.
Soon after this, Miss Bates came in, and Emma couldn't help but be amused by the confusion of her initial response to herself, which she thought stemmed from uncertainty about what might be said and the eagerness to say everything.
“Thank you, dear Miss Woodhouse, you are all kindness.—It is impossible to say—Yes, indeed, I quite understand—dearest Jane’s prospects—that is, I do not mean.—But she is charmingly recovered.—How is Mr. Woodhouse?—I am so glad.—Quite out of my power.—Such a happy little circle as you find us here.—Yes, indeed.—Charming young man!—that is—so very friendly; I mean good Mr. Perry!—such attention to Jane!”—And from her great, her more than commonly thankful delight towards Mrs. Elton for being there, Emma guessed that there had been a little show of resentment towards Jane, from the vicarage quarter, which was now graciously overcome.—After a few whispers, indeed, which placed it beyond a guess, Mrs. Elton, speaking louder, said,
“Thank you so much, dear Miss Woodhouse, you’re so kind. It's hard to say—Yes, I totally understand—about dear Jane's future—that is, I didn't mean to imply anything negative. But she's doing wonderfully. How is Mr. Woodhouse? I'm so happy to hear that. It's really out of my control. What a lovely little group you have here. Yes, indeed. What a charming young man! I meant—so very friendly; I’m referring to good Mr. Perry!—he pays such attention to Jane!”—And from her genuine, more than usually grateful delight toward Mrs. Elton for being there, Emma figured there had been a bit of resentment toward Jane from the vicarage, which was now graciously resolved. After a few quiet exchanges that made it clear, Mrs. Elton, speaking more loudly, said,
“Yes, here I am, my good friend; and here I have been so long, that anywhere else I should think it necessary to apologise; but, the truth is, that I am waiting for my lord and master. He promised to join me here, and pay his respects to you.”
“Yes, here I am, my good friend; and I’ve been here for so long that anywhere else I’d feel the need to apologize; but the truth is, I’m waiting for my lord and master. He promised to meet me here and pay his respects to you.”
“What! are we to have the pleasure of a call from Mr. Elton?—That will be a favour indeed! for I know gentlemen do not like morning visits, and Mr. Elton’s time is so engaged.”
“What! Are we really going to have the pleasure of a visit from Mr. Elton? That would be quite a treat! I know that gentlemen usually don’t enjoy morning visits, and Mr. Elton is always so busy.”
“Upon my word it is, Miss Bates.—He really is engaged from morning to night.—There is no end of people’s coming to him, on some pretence or other.—The magistrates, and overseers, and churchwardens, are always wanting his opinion. They seem not able to do any thing without him.—‘Upon my word, Mr. E.,’ I often say, ‘rather you than I.—I do not know what would become of my crayons and my instrument, if I had half so many applicants.’—Bad enough as it is, for I absolutely neglect them both to an unpardonable degree.—I believe I have not played a bar this fortnight.—However, he is coming, I assure you: yes, indeed, on purpose to wait on you all.” And putting up her hand to screen her words from Emma—“A congratulatory visit, you know.—Oh! yes, quite indispensable.”
“Honestly, it really is, Miss Bates. He’s busy from morning till night. There’s always a stream of people coming to see him for one reason or another. The magistrates, overseers, and churchwardens constantly want his opinion. They seem unable to do anything without him. ‘Honestly, Mr. E.,’ I often say, ‘I’d rather be in your shoes than mine. I can’t imagine what would happen to my art supplies and my music if I had half as many visitors.’ It’s bad enough as it is, since I completely neglect both to an unacceptable degree. I don’t think I’ve played a single note in two weeks. But he’s coming, I promise you: yes, indeed, just to visit you all.” And putting her hand up to shield her words from Emma—“A congratulatory visit, you know. Oh yes, absolutely necessary.”
Miss Bates looked about her, so happily—!
Miss Bates looked around her, so happily—!
“He promised to come to me as soon as he could disengage himself from Knightley; but he and Knightley are shut up together in deep consultation.—Mr. E. is Knightley’s right hand.”
“He promised to come see me as soon as he could get away from Knightley; but he and Knightley are locked in a serious discussion together. —Mr. E. is Knightley’s right-hand man.”
Emma would not have smiled for the world, and only said, “Is Mr. Elton gone on foot to Donwell?—He will have a hot walk.”
Emma wouldn’t have smiled for anything and simply said, “Did Mr. Elton walk to Donwell? —He’s going to have a long, hot walk.”
“Oh! no, it is a meeting at the Crown, a regular meeting. Weston and Cole will be there too; but one is apt to speak only of those who lead.—I fancy Mr. E. and Knightley have every thing their own way.”
“Oh! no, it's a meeting at the Crown, a regular meeting. Weston and Cole will be there too; but people usually tend to mention only those in charge.—I suspect Mr. E. and Knightley have everything going their way.”
“Have not you mistaken the day?” said Emma. “I am almost certain that the meeting at the Crown is not till to-morrow.—Mr. Knightley was at Hartfield yesterday, and spoke of it as for Saturday.”
“Have you got the day wrong?” said Emma. “I’m pretty sure the meeting at the Crown isn’t until tomorrow. Mr. Knightley was at Hartfield yesterday and mentioned it’s for Saturday.”
“Oh! no, the meeting is certainly to-day,” was the abrupt answer, which denoted the impossibility of any blunder on Mrs. Elton’s side.—“I do believe,” she continued, “this is the most troublesome parish that ever was. We never heard of such things at Maple Grove.”
“Oh! no, the meeting is definitely today,” was the quick response, indicating that there was no way Mrs. Elton could be mistaken. “I really believe,” she went on, “this is the most annoying parish ever. We never encountered such things at Maple Grove.”
“Your parish there was small,” said Jane.
"Your parish over there was small," Jane said.
“Upon my word, my dear, I do not know, for I never heard the subject talked of.”
“Honestly, my dear, I really don’t know because I’ve never heard anyone discuss that topic.”
“But it is proved by the smallness of the school, which I have heard you speak of, as under the patronage of your sister and Mrs. Bragge; the only school, and not more than five-and-twenty children.”
"But it's clear from the size of the school you mentioned, supported by your sister and Mrs. Bragge; it's the only school, with no more than twenty-five kids."
“Ah! you clever creature, that’s very true. What a thinking brain you have! I say, Jane, what a perfect character you and I should make, if we could be shaken together. My liveliness and your solidity would produce perfection.—Not that I presume to insinuate, however, that some people may not think you perfection already.—But hush!—not a word, if you please.”
“Ah! you clever girl, that’s so true. You have such a sharp mind! I mean, Jane, we would make a perfect pair if we could come together. My energy and your steadfastness would create perfection.—Not that I’m suggesting, of course, that some people might not already view you as perfect.—But shh!—not a word, if you don’t mind.”
It seemed an unnecessary caution; Jane was wanting to give her words, not to Mrs. Elton, but to Miss Woodhouse, as the latter plainly saw. The wish of distinguishing her, as far as civility permitted, was very evident, though it could not often proceed beyond a look.
It felt like an unnecessary precaution; Jane wanted to direct her words, not to Mrs. Elton, but to Miss Woodhouse, which the latter clearly noticed. The desire to acknowledge her, as much as politeness allowed, was quite obvious, even though it usually only came through a glance.
Mr. Elton made his appearance. His lady greeted him with some of her sparkling vivacity.
Mr. Elton arrived. His lady welcomed him with some of her lively energy.
“Very pretty, sir, upon my word; to send me on here, to be an encumbrance to my friends, so long before you vouchsafe to come!—But you knew what a dutiful creature you had to deal with. You knew I should not stir till my lord and master appeared.—Here have I been sitting this hour, giving these young ladies a sample of true conjugal obedience—for who can say, you know, how soon it may be wanted?”
“Really beautiful, sir, I swear; sending me here to be a burden to my friends while I wait so long for you to show up!—But you knew you were dealing with someone so dutiful. You knew I wouldn’t move until my lord and master arrived.—I’ve been sitting here for an hour, showing these young ladies what true marital obedience looks like—because who knows when it might be needed?”
Mr. Elton was so hot and tired, that all this wit seemed thrown away. His civilities to the other ladies must be paid; but his subsequent object was to lament over himself for the heat he was suffering, and the walk he had had for nothing.
Mr. Elton was so overheated and exhausted that all this humor felt pointless. He still had to be polite to the other ladies; however, his main focus was to complain about the heat he was enduring and the pointless walk he had taken.
“When I got to Donwell,” said he, “Knightley could not be found. Very odd! very unaccountable! after the note I sent him this morning, and the message he returned, that he should certainly be at home till one.”
“When I got to Donwell,” he said, “Knightley wasn’t around. Very strange! Really puzzling! After the note I sent him this morning, and the message he sent back saying he would definitely be home until one.”
“Donwell!” cried his wife.—“My dear Mr. E., you have not been to Donwell!—You mean the Crown; you come from the meeting at the Crown.”
“Donwell!” his wife exclaimed. “My dear Mr. E., you haven’t been to Donwell! You mean the Crown; you’re coming from the meeting at the Crown.”
“No, no, that’s to-morrow; and I particularly wanted to see Knightley to-day on that very account.—Such a dreadful broiling morning!—I went over the fields too—(speaking in a tone of great ill-usage,) which made it so much the worse. And then not to find him at home! I assure you I am not at all pleased. And no apology left, no message for me. The housekeeper declared she knew nothing of my being expected.—Very extraordinary!—And nobody knew at all which way he was gone. Perhaps to Hartfield, perhaps to the Abbey Mill, perhaps into his woods.—Miss Woodhouse, this is not like our friend Knightley!—Can you explain it?”
“No, no, that's tomorrow; and I really wanted to see Knightley today for that reason. It’s such a horribly hot morning! I even walked over the fields—(saying this with a tone of great frustration,) which made it even worse. And then to not find him at home! I can’t tell you how upset I am. And there was no apology left, no message for me. The housekeeper said she had no idea I was expected. Very strange! And nobody knew where he went. Maybe to Hartfield, maybe to the Abbey Mill, maybe into his woods. —Miss Woodhouse, this isn't like our friend Knightley! Can you explain it?”
Emma amused herself by protesting that it was very extraordinary, indeed, and that she had not a syllable to say for him.
Emma entertained herself by insisting that it was quite extraordinary, really, and that she had nothing to say in his favor.
“I cannot imagine,” said Mrs. Elton, (feeling the indignity as a wife ought to do,) “I cannot imagine how he could do such a thing by you, of all people in the world! The very last person whom one should expect to be forgotten!—My dear Mr. E., he must have left a message for you, I am sure he must.—Not even Knightley could be so very eccentric;—and his servants forgot it. Depend upon it, that was the case: and very likely to happen with the Donwell servants, who are all, I have often observed, extremely awkward and remiss.—I am sure I would not have such a creature as his Harry stand at our sideboard for any consideration. And as for Mrs. Hodges, Wright holds her very cheap indeed.—She promised Wright a receipt, and never sent it.”
“I can’t believe it,” said Mrs. Elton, (feeling the disappointment as a wife should,) “I can’t believe he could do something like this to you, of all people! The last person you’d expect to be forgotten!—My dear Mr. E., he must have left a message for you, I’m sure he did.—Not even Knightley could be that eccentric;—and his servants forgot it. I assure you, that’s what happened: and it’s likely to happen with the Donwell servants, who are all, as I’ve noticed, extremely clumsy and careless.—I wouldn’t want someone like his Harry standing at our sideboard for anything. And as for Mrs. Hodges, Wright thinks very little of her.—She promised Wright a receipt and never sent it.”
“I met William Larkins,” continued Mr. Elton, “as I got near the house, and he told me I should not find his master at home, but I did not believe him.—William seemed rather out of humour. He did not know what was come to his master lately, he said, but he could hardly ever get the speech of him. I have nothing to do with William’s wants, but it really is of very great importance that I should see Knightley to-day; and it becomes a matter, therefore, of very serious inconvenience that I should have had this hot walk to no purpose.”
“I ran into William Larkins,” Mr. Elton continued, “as I was getting close to the house, and he told me I wouldn’t find his master at home, but I didn’t believe him. William seemed a bit grumpy. He said he didn’t know what was going on with his master lately, but he could hardly ever get a word with him. I don't have anything to do with William’s issues, but it’s really important that I see Knightley today; and it’s a serious inconvenience that I’ve had this hot walk for nothing.”
Emma felt that she could not do better than go home directly. In all probability she was at this very time waited for there; and Mr. Knightley might be preserved from sinking deeper in aggression towards Mr. Elton, if not towards William Larkins.
Emma felt that it was best to head home right away. Most likely, someone was waiting for her there at that very moment; and Mr. Knightley might be spared from becoming more hostile towards Mr. Elton, if not towards William Larkins.
She was pleased, on taking leave, to find Miss Fairfax determined to attend her out of the room, to go with her even downstairs; it gave her an opportunity which she immediately made use of, to say,
She was glad, as she was leaving, to see Miss Fairfax set on walking her out of the room, even going downstairs with her; it gave her the chance she quickly took to say,
“It is as well, perhaps, that I have not had the possibility. Had you not been surrounded by other friends, I might have been tempted to introduce a subject, to ask questions, to speak more openly than might have been strictly correct.—I feel that I should certainly have been impertinent.”
“It’s probably just as well that I haven’t had the chance. If you hadn’t been with other friends, I might have been tempted to bring up a topic, to ask questions, to speak more freely than would have been entirely appropriate.—I definitely feel that I would have been rude.”
“Oh!” cried Jane, with a blush and an hesitation which Emma thought infinitely more becoming to her than all the elegance of all her usual composure—“there would have been no danger. The danger would have been of my wearying you. You could not have gratified me more than by expressing an interest—. Indeed, Miss Woodhouse, (speaking more collectedly,) with the consciousness which I have of misconduct, very great misconduct, it is particularly consoling to me to know that those of my friends, whose good opinion is most worth preserving, are not disgusted to such a degree as to—I have not time for half that I could wish to say. I long to make apologies, excuses, to urge something for myself. I feel it so very due. But, unfortunately—in short, if your compassion does not stand my friend—”
“Oh!” Jane exclaimed, blushing and hesitating, which Emma thought was much more charming than her usual composure. “There wouldn’t have been any real danger. The only risk would have been that I might have bored you. You couldn’t have made me happier than by showing interest—. Honestly, Miss Woodhouse, (speaking more calmly,) with the awareness I have of my mistakes, very serious mistakes, it’s especially comforting to know that those friends of mine whose opinions matter the most aren’t so disgusted that— I don’t have time to say half of what I want. I really want to apologize, to make excuses, to plead my case. I feel it’s very necessary. But, unfortunately—in short, if your kindness doesn’t come to my aid—”
“Oh! you are too scrupulous, indeed you are,” cried Emma warmly, and taking her hand. “You owe me no apologies; and every body to whom you might be supposed to owe them, is so perfectly satisfied, so delighted even—”
“Oh! you are way too concerned about this, really you are,” Emma said warmly, taking her hand. “You don’t owe me any apologies; and everyone you might think you owe them to is so completely satisfied, even delighted—”
“You are very kind, but I know what my manners were to you.—So cold and artificial!—I had always a part to act.—It was a life of deceit!—I know that I must have disgusted you.”
“You're very kind, but I know how I treated you.—So cold and fake!—I always had a role to play.—It was a life of lies!—I know I must have disgusted you.”
“Pray say no more. I feel that all the apologies should be on my side. Let us forgive each other at once. We must do whatever is to be done quickest, and I think our feelings will lose no time there. I hope you have pleasant accounts from Windsor?”
“Please don’t say any more. I feel like all the apologies should come from me. Let’s forgive each other right away. We need to do whatever needs to be done quickly, and I believe our feelings won’t waste any time on that. I hope you have good news from Windsor?”
“Very.”
“Super.”
“And the next news, I suppose, will be, that we are to lose you—just as I begin to know you.”
“And I guess the next news will be that we’re going to lose you—right when I’m just starting to get to know you.”
“Oh! as to all that, of course nothing can be thought of yet. I am here till claimed by Colonel and Mrs. Campbell.”
“Oh! regarding all that, of course nothing can be decided yet. I’ll be here until Colonel and Mrs. Campbell come to claim me.”
“Nothing can be actually settled yet, perhaps,” replied Emma, smiling—“but, excuse me, it must be thought of.”
“Nothing can really be settled just yet, maybe,” Emma replied, smiling—“but, excuse me, it needs to be considered.”
The smile was returned as Jane answered,
The smile was returned as Jane replied,
“You are very right; it has been thought of. And I will own to you, (I am sure it will be safe), that so far as our living with Mr. Churchill at Enscombe, it is settled. There must be three months, at least, of deep mourning; but when they are over, I imagine there will be nothing more to wait for.”
“You’re absolutely right; it has been considered. And I’ll admit to you, (I’m sure it’s safe), that regarding our staying with Mr. Churchill at Enscombe, that’s settled. We have to observe at least three months of deep mourning, but once that’s over, I don’t think there will be anything else to wait for.”
“Thank you, thank you.—This is just what I wanted to be assured of.—Oh! if you knew how much I love every thing that is decided and open!—Good-bye, good-bye.”
“Thank you, thank you.—This is exactly what I needed to hear.—Oh! if you only knew how much I love everything that is clear and settled!—Goodbye, goodbye.”
CHAPTER XVII
Mrs. Weston’s friends were all made happy by her safety; and if the satisfaction of her well-doing could be increased to Emma, it was by knowing her to be the mother of a little girl. She had been decided in wishing for a Miss Weston. She would not acknowledge that it was with any view of making a match for her, hereafter, with either of Isabella’s sons; but she was convinced that a daughter would suit both father and mother best. It would be a great comfort to Mr. Weston, as he grew older—and even Mr. Weston might be growing older ten years hence—to have his fireside enlivened by the sports and the nonsense, the freaks and the fancies of a child never banished from home; and Mrs. Weston—no one could doubt that a daughter would be most to her; and it would be quite a pity that any one who so well knew how to teach, should not have their powers in exercise again.
Mrs. Weston’s friends were all thrilled that she was safe, and if Emma’s happiness about her well-doing could get any better, it was knowing that she was the mother of a little girl. Emma had definitely hoped for a Miss Weston. She wouldn’t admit that it was with any intention of matching her up with one of Isabella’s sons in the future, but she believed that a daughter would be best for both parents. It would be a great comfort for Mr. Weston as he got older—and even Mr. Weston might feel older ten years from now—to have his home brightened by the playfulness and silliness, the quirks and imaginations of a child who would never be away from home. And as for Mrs. Weston—no one could deny that a daughter would mean the most to her; it would be quite a shame for someone who so well understood teaching not to have the opportunity to exercise those skills again.
“She has had the advantage, you know, of practising on me,” she continued—“like La Baronne d’Almane on La Comtesse d’Ostalis, in Madame de Genlis’ Adelaide and Theodore, and we shall now see her own little Adelaide educated on a more perfect plan.”
“She has had the advantage, you know, of practicing on me,” she continued—“like La Baronne d’Almane on La Comtesse d’Ostalis, in Madame de Genlis’ Adelaide and Theodore, and we shall now see her own little Adelaide educated on a more perfect plan.”
“That is,” replied Mr. Knightley, “she will indulge her even more than she did you, and believe that she does not indulge her at all. It will be the only difference.”
“That is,” replied Mr. Knightley, “she will spoil her even more than she did you, and think that she isn't spoiling her at all. That will be the only difference.”
“Poor child!” cried Emma; “at that rate, what will become of her?”
“Poor kid!” cried Emma; “at that rate, what will happen to her?”
“Nothing very bad.—The fate of thousands. She will be disagreeable in infancy, and correct herself as she grows older. I am losing all my bitterness against spoilt children, my dearest Emma. I, who am owing all my happiness to you, would not it be horrible ingratitude in me to be severe on them?”
“Nothing too serious. The fate of thousands. She will be unpleasant as a child, but she'll improve as she gets older. I'm letting go of all my resentment toward spoiled kids, my dearest Emma. I, who owe all my happiness to you, would it be terrible ingratitude for me to be harsh on them?”
Emma laughed, and replied: “But I had the assistance of all your endeavours to counteract the indulgence of other people. I doubt whether my own sense would have corrected me without it.”
Emma laughed and said, “But I had the support of all your efforts to balance out other people’s indulgence. I doubt my own judgment would have corrected me without it.”
“Do you?—I have no doubt. Nature gave you understanding:—Miss Taylor gave you principles. You must have done well. My interference was quite as likely to do harm as good. It was very natural for you to say, what right has he to lecture me?—and I am afraid very natural for you to feel that it was done in a disagreeable manner. I do not believe I did you any good. The good was all to myself, by making you an object of the tenderest affection to me. I could not think about you so much without doating on you, faults and all; and by dint of fancying so many errors, have been in love with you ever since you were thirteen at least.”
“Do you?—I have no doubt. Nature gave you insight; Miss Taylor gave you values. You must have done well. My interference was just as likely to do harm as good. It was totally natural for you to wonder what right I had to lecture you—and I’m afraid it was just as natural for you to feel that it was done in an unpleasant way. I don’t believe I helped you at all. The only benefit was for me, by making you the object of my deepest affection. I couldn’t think about you so much without falling in love with you, flaws and all; and by imagining all those little mistakes, I’ve been in love with you ever since you were at least thirteen.”
“I am sure you were of use to me,” cried Emma. “I was very often influenced rightly by you—oftener than I would own at the time. I am very sure you did me good. And if poor little Anna Weston is to be spoiled, it will be the greatest humanity in you to do as much for her as you have done for me, except falling in love with her when she is thirteen.”
“I’m sure you were helpful to me,” Emma exclaimed. “You influenced me in the right way more often than I’d admit back then. I really believe you did me good. And if poor little Anna Weston is going to be spoiled, it would be the kindest thing for you to do as much for her as you did for me—except for falling in love with her when she turns thirteen.”
“How often, when you were a girl, have you said to me, with one of your saucy looks—‘Mr. Knightley, I am going to do so-and-so; papa says I may, or I have Miss Taylor’s leave’—something which, you knew, I did not approve. In such cases my interference was giving you two bad feelings instead of one.”
“How often, when you were a girl, did you say to me, with one of your cheeky looks—‘Mr. Knightley, I’m going to do this or that; Dad says I can, or I have Miss Taylor’s permission’—something that you knew I didn’t approve of? In those moments, my interference only added two bad feelings instead of just one.”
“What an amiable creature I was!—No wonder you should hold my speeches in such affectionate remembrance.”
“What a friendly person I was!—No wonder you remember my talks so fondly.”
“‘Mr. Knightley.’—You always called me, ‘Mr. Knightley;’ and, from habit, it has not so very formal a sound.—And yet it is formal. I want you to call me something else, but I do not know what.”
“‘Mr. Knightley.’—You always call me ‘Mr. Knightley,’ and since it’s become a habit, it doesn’t sound as formal anymore.—But it is formal. I’d like you to call me something different, but I’m not sure what.”
“I remember once calling you ‘George,’ in one of my amiable fits, about ten years ago. I did it because I thought it would offend you; but, as you made no objection, I never did it again.”
“I remember once calling you ‘George’ during one of my friendly moments, about ten years ago. I did it because I thought it would bother you; but since you didn’t mind, I never did it again.”
“And cannot you call me ‘George’ now?”
“And can’t you call me ‘George’ now?”
“Impossible!—I never can call you any thing but ‘Mr. Knightley.’ I will not promise even to equal the elegant terseness of Mrs. Elton, by calling you Mr. K.—But I will promise,” she added presently, laughing and blushing—“I will promise to call you once by your Christian name. I do not say when, but perhaps you may guess where;—in the building in which N. takes M. for better, for worse.”
“Impossible! I can never call you anything but ‘Mr. Knightley.’ I won’t even promise to match Mrs. Elton's stylish way of calling you Mr. K. But I will promise,” she added soon after, laughing and blushing, “to call you by your first name at least once. I won’t say when, but maybe you can guess where—in the place where N. takes M. for better, for worse.”
Emma grieved that she could not be more openly just to one important service which his better sense would have rendered her, to the advice which would have saved her from the worst of all her womanly follies—her wilful intimacy with Harriet Smith; but it was too tender a subject.—She could not enter on it.—Harriet was very seldom mentioned between them. This, on his side, might merely proceed from her not being thought of; but Emma was rather inclined to attribute it to delicacy, and a suspicion, from some appearances, that their friendship were declining. She was aware herself, that, parting under any other circumstances, they certainly should have corresponded more, and that her intelligence would not have rested, as it now almost wholly did, on Isabella’s letters. He might observe that it was so. The pain of being obliged to practise concealment towards him, was very little inferior to the pain of having made Harriet unhappy.
Emma mourned that she couldn't be more openly just about one important service that his better judgment would have provided, the advice that could have spared her from the worst of all her womanly mistakes—her stubborn closeness with Harriet Smith; but it was too sensitive a topic. She couldn’t bring it up. Harriet was rarely mentioned between them. This could simply be because she wasn’t on his mind; however, Emma was inclined to think it was due to sensitivity, and a sense, based on certain signs, that their friendship was fading. She knew that if they were parting under different circumstances, they definitely would have stayed in touch more, and that her knowledge wouldn’t have relied almost entirely on Isabella’s letters. He might notice this. The pain of having to hide things from him was hardly less than the pain of making Harriet unhappy.
Isabella sent quite as good an account of her visitor as could be expected; on her first arrival she had thought her out of spirits, which appeared perfectly natural, as there was a dentist to be consulted; but, since that business had been over, she did not appear to find Harriet different from what she had known her before.—Isabella, to be sure, was no very quick observer; yet if Harriet had not been equal to playing with the children, it would not have escaped her. Emma’s comforts and hopes were most agreeably carried on, by Harriet’s being to stay longer; her fortnight was likely to be a month at least. Mr. and Mrs. John Knightley were to come down in August, and she was invited to remain till they could bring her back.
Isabella provided a pretty good account of her visitor, considering the circumstances. When Harriet first arrived, Isabella thought she seemed a bit down, which made sense since she had to see a dentist. However, once that was taken care of, Harriet didn’t seem any different from how Isabella remembered her. Of course, Isabella wasn’t the most observant person, but if Harriet hadn’t been able to play with the kids, she would have noticed. Emma was pleasantly surprised and hopeful that Harriet would be staying longer; her two-week visit was likely to turn into at least a month. Mr. and Mrs. John Knightley were coming down in August, and Emma was invited to stay until they could take her back.
“John does not even mention your friend,” said Mr. Knightley. “Here is his answer, if you like to see it.”
“John doesn’t even mention your friend,” Mr. Knightley said. “Here’s his response if you want to take a look.”
It was the answer to the communication of his intended marriage. Emma accepted it with a very eager hand, with an impatience all alive to know what he would say about it, and not at all checked by hearing that her friend was unmentioned.
It was the response to the news of his planned marriage. Emma took it eagerly, her excitement palpable as she was desperate to find out what he would say about it, not at all deterred by the fact that her friend wasn’t mentioned.
“John enters like a brother into my happiness,” continued Mr. Knightley, “but he is no complimenter; and though I well know him to have, likewise, a most brotherly affection for you, he is so far from making flourishes, that any other young woman might think him rather cool in her praise. But I am not afraid of your seeing what he writes.”
“John steps into my happiness like a brother,” Mr. Knightley continued, “but he doesn't give compliments; and even though I know he has a truly brotherly affection for you, he is so far from being flashy that any other young woman might find him a bit reserved in her praise. But I’m not worried about you seeing what he writes.”
“He writes like a sensible man,” replied Emma, when she had read the letter. “I honour his sincerity. It is very plain that he considers the good fortune of the engagement as all on my side, but that he is not without hope of my growing, in time, as worthy of your affection, as you think me already. Had he said any thing to bear a different construction, I should not have believed him.”
“He writes like a sensible person,” Emma replied after reading the letter. “I appreciate his honesty. It’s clear that he sees the engagement as a stroke of luck for me, but he also hopes that, in time, I’ll become as deserving of your affection as you already believe I am. If he had said anything that could be interpreted differently, I wouldn’t have trusted him.”
“My Emma, he means no such thing. He only means—”
“My Emma, he doesn’t mean that at all. What he really means—”
“He and I should differ very little in our estimation of the two,” interrupted she, with a sort of serious smile—“much less, perhaps, than he is aware of, if we could enter without ceremony or reserve on the subject.”
“He and I probably see the two quite similarly,” she interrupted with a serious smile—“maybe even more so than he realizes, if we could discuss it openly and honestly.”
“Emma, my dear Emma—”
"Emma, my dear Emma—"
“Oh!” she cried with more thorough gaiety, “if you fancy your brother does not do me justice, only wait till my dear father is in the secret, and hear his opinion. Depend upon it, he will be much farther from doing you justice. He will think all the happiness, all the advantage, on your side of the question; all the merit on mine. I wish I may not sink into ‘poor Emma’ with him at once.—His tender compassion towards oppressed worth can go no farther.”
“Oh!” she exclaimed with even more excitement, “if you think your brother doesn’t appreciate me, just wait until my dear father knows the truth, and listen to what he has to say. Believe me, he’ll be even less fair to you. He’ll see all the happiness and benefits on your side of things and all the credit on mine. I just hope I don’t suddenly become ‘poor Emma’ in his eyes—his sympathy for the wrongly treated can only go so far.”
“Ah!” he cried, “I wish your father might be half as easily convinced as John will be, of our having every right that equal worth can give, to be happy together. I am amused by one part of John’s letter—did you notice it?—where he says, that my information did not take him wholly by surprize, that he was rather in expectation of hearing something of the kind.”
“Ah!” he exclaimed, “I wish your dad could be as easily convinced as John will be about our right to be happy together. One part of John’s letter amused me—did you catch it?—where he mentions that my news didn’t completely surprise him, and he was actually expecting to hear something like that.”
“If I understand your brother, he only means so far as your having some thoughts of marrying. He had no idea of me. He seems perfectly unprepared for that.”
“If I get what your brother is saying, he only means that you’re considering marriage. He had no idea about me. He seems totally unprepared for that.”
“Yes, yes—but I am amused that he should have seen so far into my feelings. What has he been judging by?—I am not conscious of any difference in my spirits or conversation that could prepare him at this time for my marrying any more than at another.—But it was so, I suppose. I dare say there was a difference when I was staying with them the other day. I believe I did not play with the children quite so much as usual. I remember one evening the poor boys saying, ‘Uncle seems always tired now.’”
“Yes, yes—but I find it funny that he saw so much into my feelings. What was he judging by? I’m not aware of any change in my mood or conversation that would hint to him right now that I’m thinking about marrying more than at any other time. But I guess that’s how it was. I suppose there was a difference when I was with them the other day. I think I didn’t play with the kids as much as usual. I remember one evening the poor boys said, ‘Uncle seems to be tired all the time now.’”
The time was coming when the news must spread farther, and other persons’ reception of it tried. As soon as Mrs. Weston was sufficiently recovered to admit Mr. Woodhouse’s visits, Emma having it in view that her gentle reasonings should be employed in the cause, resolved first to announce it at home, and then at Randalls.—But how to break it to her father at last!—She had bound herself to do it, in such an hour of Mr. Knightley’s absence, or when it came to the point her heart would have failed her, and she must have put it off; but Mr. Knightley was to come at such a time, and follow up the beginning she was to make.—She was forced to speak, and to speak cheerfully too. She must not make it a more decided subject of misery to him, by a melancholy tone herself. She must not appear to think it a misfortune.—With all the spirits she could command, she prepared him first for something strange, and then, in a few words, said, that if his consent and approbation could be obtained—which, she trusted, would be attended with no difficulty, since it was a plan to promote the happiness of all—she and Mr. Knightley meant to marry; by which means Hartfield would receive the constant addition of that person’s company whom she knew he loved, next to his daughters and Mrs. Weston, best in the world.
The time was coming when the news needed to spread further, and other people's reactions had to be tested. Once Mrs. Weston was well enough to allow Mr. Woodhouse to visit, Emma planned to use her gentle reasoning to help the situation. She decided to share the news at home first and then at Randalls. But how to finally break it to her father! She had promised to do it during one of Mr. Knightley’s absences, or else her heart would have failed her, and she would have postponed it. Mr. Knightley was supposed to come at that time to support her as she kicked things off. She had to speak, and she needed to sound cheerful too. She couldn’t make it a bigger source of misery for him by sounding sad herself. She had to avoid acting like it was a misfortune. With all the confidence she could muster, she prepared him for something unexpected and then, in just a few words, said that if she could secure his blessing—which she hoped wouldn’t be difficult since it was a plan to increase everyone’s happiness—she and Mr. Knightley intended to get married. This way, Hartfield would regularly enjoy the company of the person she knew he loved the most, after his daughters and Mrs. Weston.
Poor man!—it was at first a considerable shock to him, and he tried earnestly to dissuade her from it. She was reminded, more than once, of having always said she would never marry, and assured that it would be a great deal better for her to remain single; and told of poor Isabella, and poor Miss Taylor.—But it would not do. Emma hung about him affectionately, and smiled, and said it must be so; and that he must not class her with Isabella and Mrs. Weston, whose marriages taking them from Hartfield, had, indeed, made a melancholy change: but she was not going from Hartfield; she should be always there; she was introducing no change in their numbers or their comforts but for the better; and she was very sure that he would be a great deal the happier for having Mr. Knightley always at hand, when he were once got used to the idea.—Did he not love Mr. Knightley very much?—He would not deny that he did, she was sure.—Whom did he ever want to consult on business but Mr. Knightley?—Who was so useful to him, who so ready to write his letters, who so glad to assist him?—Who so cheerful, so attentive, so attached to him?—Would not he like to have him always on the spot?—Yes. That was all very true. Mr. Knightley could not be there too often; he should be glad to see him every day;—but they did see him every day as it was.—Why could not they go on as they had done?
Poor man!—it was initially quite a shock for him, and he sincerely tried to talk her out of it. She reminded him multiple times that she had always said she would never marry and insisted it would be much better for her to stay single; he brought up poor Isabella and poor Miss Taylor. But it didn't matter. Emma stayed close to him affectionately, smiled, and said it had to be this way; he couldn’t group her with Isabella and Mrs. Weston, whose marriages had indeed created a sad change by taking them away from Hartfield. But she wasn’t leaving Hartfield; she would always be there. She wasn’t introducing any change to their numbers or their comforts except for the better, and she was very confident he would be a lot happier with Mr. Knightley always nearby once he got used to the idea. Didn’t he love Mr. Knightley a lot?—She was sure he wouldn’t deny that. Who did he ever want to ask for advice on business besides Mr. Knightley?—Who was more helpful to him, more willing to write his letters, more eager to lend a hand?—Who was so cheerful, so attentive, so devoted to him?—Wouldn't he like to have him around all the time?—Yes. That was absolutely true. Mr. Knightley couldn’t visit often enough; he would love to see him every day;—but they did see him every day as it was.—Why couldn’t they keep going as they had been?
Mr. Woodhouse could not be soon reconciled; but the worst was overcome, the idea was given; time and continual repetition must do the rest.—To Emma’s entreaties and assurances succeeded Mr. Knightley’s, whose fond praise of her gave the subject even a kind of welcome; and he was soon used to be talked to by each, on every fair occasion.—They had all the assistance which Isabella could give, by letters of the strongest approbation; and Mrs. Weston was ready, on the first meeting, to consider the subject in the most serviceable light—first, as a settled, and, secondly, as a good one—well aware of the nearly equal importance of the two recommendations to Mr. Woodhouse’s mind.—It was agreed upon, as what was to be; and every body by whom he was used to be guided assuring him that it would be for his happiness; and having some feelings himself which almost admitted it, he began to think that some time or other—in another year or two, perhaps—it might not be so very bad if the marriage did take place.
Mr. Woodhouse wasn’t convinced right away, but the worst was over; the idea had been introduced, and time along with repeated conversations would do the rest. Emma’s pleas and reassurances were followed by Mr. Knightley’s praise, which actually made the topic feel somewhat welcome, and he soon got used to being talked to by both of them on every appropriate occasion. They had all the support Isabella could provide through strong letters of approval, and Mrs. Weston was ready, at their first meeting, to consider the situation in the most helpful way—first, as something decided, and second, as a good thing—fully aware that both aspects were equally important to Mr. Woodhouse. It was settled that it was meant to happen, and everyone he usually listened to assured him it would be for his happiness. Having some feelings that almost supported this idea, he started to think that maybe, after a year or two, it wouldn’t be so bad if the marriage actually happened.
Mrs. Weston was acting no part, feigning no feelings in all that she said to him in favour of the event.—She had been extremely surprized, never more so, than when Emma first opened the affair to her; but she saw in it only increase of happiness to all, and had no scruple in urging him to the utmost.—She had such a regard for Mr. Knightley, as to think he deserved even her dearest Emma; and it was in every respect so proper, suitable, and unexceptionable a connexion, and in one respect, one point of the highest importance, so peculiarly eligible, so singularly fortunate, that now it seemed as if Emma could not safely have attached herself to any other creature, and that she had herself been the stupidest of beings in not having thought of it, and wished it long ago.—How very few of those men in a rank of life to address Emma would have renounced their own home for Hartfield! And who but Mr. Knightley could know and bear with Mr. Woodhouse, so as to make such an arrangement desirable!—The difficulty of disposing of poor Mr. Woodhouse had been always felt in her husband’s plans and her own, for a marriage between Frank and Emma. How to settle the claims of Enscombe and Hartfield had been a continual impediment—less acknowledged by Mr. Weston than by herself—but even he had never been able to finish the subject better than by saying—“Those matters will take care of themselves; the young people will find a way.” But here there was nothing to be shifted off in a wild speculation on the future. It was all right, all open, all equal. No sacrifice on any side worth the name. It was a union of the highest promise of felicity in itself, and without one real, rational difficulty to oppose or delay it.
Mrs. Weston wasn't pretending or feigning any feelings when she spoke to him about the event. She was genuinely surprised, more so than when Emma first brought it up; but she only saw it as a way to bring happiness to everyone involved and had no hesitation in pushing him to pursue it fully. She held Mr. Knightley in such high regard that she thought he deserved even her beloved Emma. The connection was appropriate, suitable, and beyond reproach in every way, and in one crucial aspect, it was especially desirable and lucky. It now seemed that Emma couldn’t safely have fallen for anyone else, and it struck her that she had been foolish not to have thought of it or wished for it a long time ago. How few men in Emma's social circle would have given up their own home for Hartfield! And who but Mr. Knightley could know and tolerate Mr. Woodhouse enough to make such an arrangement appealing? The challenge of dealing with poor Mr. Woodhouse had always been a concern in her husband’s plans and her own regarding a marriage between Frank and Emma. Figuring out how to balance the claims of Enscombe and Hartfield had been a constant obstacle—less acknowledged by Mr. Weston than by her—but even he could never conclude the discussion better than by saying, “Those matters will take care of themselves; the young people will find a way.” But in this situation, there was nothing to speculate about wildly concerning the future. Everything was right, open, and balanced. There was no real sacrifice on either side. It was a union with the highest promise of happiness, facing no genuine obstacles that could delay it.
Mrs. Weston, with her baby on her knee, indulging in such reflections as these, was one of the happiest women in the world. If any thing could increase her delight, it was perceiving that the baby would soon have outgrown its first set of caps.
Mrs. Weston, with her baby on her lap, lost in thoughts like these, was one of the happiest women in the world. If anything could boost her joy, it was realizing that the baby would soon have outgrown its first set of hats.
The news was universally a surprize wherever it spread; and Mr. Weston had his five minutes share of it; but five minutes were enough to familiarise the idea to his quickness of mind.—He saw the advantages of the match, and rejoiced in them with all the constancy of his wife; but the wonder of it was very soon nothing; and by the end of an hour he was not far from believing that he had always foreseen it.
The news was a total surprise wherever it spread, and Mr. Weston got his five minutes of shock, but that was enough for his quick mind to get used to the idea. He saw the benefits of the match and celebrated them just as enthusiastically as his wife did; however, the astonishment wore off pretty quickly, and within an hour, he was almost convinced that he had always expected it.
“It is to be a secret, I conclude,” said he. “These matters are always a secret, till it is found out that every body knows them. Only let me be told when I may speak out.—I wonder whether Jane has any suspicion.”
“It should be a secret, I guess,” he said. “These things are always a secret until everyone finds out they’re known. Just let me know when I can speak up. I wonder if Jane has any idea.”
He went to Highbury the next morning, and satisfied himself on that point. He told her the news. Was not she like a daughter, his eldest daughter?—he must tell her; and Miss Bates being present, it passed, of course, to Mrs. Cole, Mrs. Perry, and Mrs. Elton, immediately afterwards. It was no more than the principals were prepared for; they had calculated from the time of its being known at Randalls, how soon it would be over Highbury; and were thinking of themselves, as the evening wonder in many a family circle, with great sagacity.
He went to Highbury the next morning and confirmed that point. He shared the news with her. Wasn’t she like a daughter, his eldest daughter?—he had to tell her; and with Miss Bates present, it naturally went on to Mrs. Cole, Mrs. Perry, and Mrs. Elton right after that. It was exactly what the main people involved were expecting; they had figured out how soon it would spread through Highbury since it was first mentioned at Randalls, and they were considering themselves as the evening topic of conversation in many family gatherings, feeling quite clever about it.
In general, it was a very well approved match. Some might think him, and others might think her, the most in luck. One set might recommend their all removing to Donwell, and leaving Hartfield for the John Knightleys; and another might predict disagreements among their servants; but yet, upon the whole, there was no serious objection raised, except in one habitation, the Vicarage.—There, the surprize was not softened by any satisfaction. Mr. Elton cared little about it, compared with his wife; he only hoped “the young lady’s pride would now be contented;” and supposed “she had always meant to catch Knightley if she could;” and, on the point of living at Hartfield, could daringly exclaim, “Rather he than I!”—But Mrs. Elton was very much discomposed indeed.—“Poor Knightley! poor fellow!—sad business for him.”—She was extremely concerned; for, though very eccentric, he had a thousand good qualities.—How could he be so taken in?—Did not think him at all in love—not in the least.—Poor Knightley!—There would be an end of all pleasant intercourse with him.—How happy he had been to come and dine with them whenever they asked him! But that would be all over now.—Poor fellow!—No more exploring parties to Donwell made for her. Oh! no; there would be a Mrs. Knightley to throw cold water on every thing.—Extremely disagreeable! But she was not at all sorry that she had abused the housekeeper the other day.—Shocking plan, living together. It would never do. She knew a family near Maple Grove who had tried it, and been obliged to separate before the end of the first quarter.
Overall, it was a match that everyone seemed to approve of. Some people thought he was the lucky one, while others believed she was. Some suggested they should all move to Donwell and leave Hartfield for the John Knightleys, while others predicted there would be arguments among their staff. Still, there was no serious objection raised except in one place, the Vicarage. There, the surprise wasn’t eased by any happiness. Mr. Elton didn’t care much about it compared to his wife; he only hoped “the young lady's pride would now be satisfied” and assumed “she had always intended to snag Knightley if she could.” When it came to living at Hartfield, he boldly exclaimed, “Rather him than me!” But Mrs. Elton was indeed very upset. “Poor Knightley! poor guy!—what a sad situation for him.” She was extremely worried because, despite being quite eccentric, he had so many good qualities. How could he be so deceived? She truly didn’t think he was in love—not at all. Poor Knightley! This would mean an end to all the enjoyable interactions with him. How happy he had been to come and dine with them whenever they invited him! But that would all be over now. Poor guy! No more excursions to Donwell made for her. Oh no; there would be a Mrs. Knightley to dampen everything. Extremely unpleasant! But she wasn’t at all sorry that she had criticized the housekeeper the other day. What a terrible idea, living together. It would never work. She knew a family near Maple Grove who had tried it and had to split up before the end of the first quarter.
CHAPTER XVIII
Time passed on. A few more to-morrows, and the party from London would be arriving. It was an alarming change; and Emma was thinking of it one morning, as what must bring a great deal to agitate and grieve her, when Mr. Knightley came in, and distressing thoughts were put by. After the first chat of pleasure he was silent; and then, in a graver tone, began with,
Time went by. In a few days, the group from London would be arriving. It was a concerning change, and Emma was thinking about it one morning, knowing it would bring a lot to upset and trouble her, when Mr. Knightley walked in, and her anxious thoughts faded away. After some light conversation, he fell silent; then, in a more serious tone, he started with,
“I have something to tell you, Emma; some news.”
“I have something to tell you, Emma; some news.”
“Good or bad?” said she, quickly, looking up in his face.
“Good or bad?” she said quickly, looking up at his face.
“I do not know which it ought to be called.”
“I don’t know what it should be called.”
“Oh! good I am sure.—I see it in your countenance. You are trying not to smile.”
“Oh! That's good, I’m sure. I can see it on your face. You’re trying not to smile.”
“I am afraid,” said he, composing his features, “I am very much afraid, my dear Emma, that you will not smile when you hear it.”
“I’m afraid,” he said, getting his expression under control, “I’m really afraid, my dear Emma, that you won’t smile when you hear this.”
“Indeed! but why so?—I can hardly imagine that any thing which pleases or amuses you, should not please and amuse me too.”
"Definitely! But why is that? I can hardly believe that anything that makes you happy or entertains you wouldn't make me happy or entertain me too."
“There is one subject,” he replied, “I hope but one, on which we do not think alike.” He paused a moment, again smiling, with his eyes fixed on her face. “Does nothing occur to you?—Do not you recollect?—Harriet Smith.”
“There’s one topic,” he said, “I hope just one, that we don’t see eye to eye on.” He paused for a moment, still smiling, his gaze focused on her face. “Doesn’t anything come to mind?—Don’t you remember?—Harriet Smith.”
Her cheeks flushed at the name, and she felt afraid of something, though she knew not what.
Her cheeks flushed at the name, and she felt scared about something, though she didn't know what.
“Have you heard from her yourself this morning?” cried he. “You have, I believe, and know the whole.”
“Did you hear from her yourself this morning?” he asked eagerly. “I think you have and know everything.”
“No, I have not; I know nothing; pray tell me.”
“No, I haven’t; I don’t know anything; please tell me.”
“You are prepared for the worst, I see—and very bad it is. Harriet Smith marries Robert Martin.”
“You're ready for the worst, I can tell—and it really is bad. Harriet Smith is marrying Robert Martin.”
Emma gave a start, which did not seem like being prepared—and her eyes, in eager gaze, said, “No, this is impossible!” but her lips were closed.
Emma jumped, as if taken by surprise—and her eyes, wide with eagerness, said, “No, this can't be real!” but her lips stayed shut.
“It is so, indeed,” continued Mr. Knightley; “I have it from Robert Martin himself. He left me not half an hour ago.”
“It’s true, actually,” Mr. Knightley went on; “I heard it directly from Robert Martin himself. He just left me a little less than half an hour ago.”
She was still looking at him with the most speaking amazement.
She was still looking at him with the most expressive amazement.
“You like it, my Emma, as little as I feared.—I wish our opinions were the same. But in time they will. Time, you may be sure, will make one or the other of us think differently; and, in the meanwhile, we need not talk much on the subject.”
“You like it, my Emma, even less than I expected. I wish we felt the same way. But I believe that over time we will. Just give it time, and one of us will start to see it differently; in the meantime, we don’t need to discuss it too much.”
“You mistake me, you quite mistake me,” she replied, exerting herself. “It is not that such a circumstance would now make me unhappy, but I cannot believe it. It seems an impossibility!—You cannot mean to say, that Harriet Smith has accepted Robert Martin. You cannot mean that he has even proposed to her again—yet. You only mean, that he intends it.”
“You're misunderstanding me, you really are,” she answered, putting in some effort. “It's not that I would be upset about that kind of situation now, but I just can’t accept it. It feels impossible!—You can’t be saying that Harriet Smith has accepted Robert Martin. You can’t mean that he has even proposed to her again—yet. You only mean that he plans to.”
“I mean that he has done it,” answered Mr. Knightley, with smiling but determined decision, “and been accepted.”
“I mean that he has done it,” Mr. Knightley replied, smiling but with firm certainty, “and been accepted.”
“Good God!” she cried.—“Well!”—Then having recourse to her workbasket, in excuse for leaning down her face, and concealing all the exquisite feelings of delight and entertainment which she knew she must be expressing, she added, “Well, now tell me every thing; make this intelligible to me. How, where, when?—Let me know it all. I never was more surprized—but it does not make me unhappy, I assure you.—How—how has it been possible?”
“Good God!” she exclaimed. “Well!” Then, grabbing her workbasket to cover her face and hide the overwhelming joy and excitement she knew she was showing, she added, “Now tell me everything; make it clear to me. How, where, when?—I want to know it all. I’ve never been more surprised—but I assure you, it doesn’t make me unhappy. How—how has this been possible?”
“It is a very simple story. He went to town on business three days ago, and I got him to take charge of some papers which I was wanting to send to John.—He delivered these papers to John, at his chambers, and was asked by him to join their party the same evening to Astley’s. They were going to take the two eldest boys to Astley’s. The party was to be our brother and sister, Henry, John—and Miss Smith. My friend Robert could not resist. They called for him in their way; were all extremely amused; and my brother asked him to dine with them the next day—which he did—and in the course of that visit (as I understand) he found an opportunity of speaking to Harriet; and certainly did not speak in vain.—She made him, by her acceptance, as happy even as he is deserving. He came down by yesterday’s coach, and was with me this morning immediately after breakfast, to report his proceedings, first on my affairs, and then on his own. This is all that I can relate of the how, where, and when. Your friend Harriet will make a much longer history when you see her.—She will give you all the minute particulars, which only woman’s language can make interesting.—In our communications we deal only in the great.—However, I must say, that Robert Martin’s heart seemed for him, and to me, very overflowing; and that he did mention, without its being much to the purpose, that on quitting their box at Astley’s, my brother took charge of Mrs. John Knightley and little John, and he followed with Miss Smith and Henry; and that at one time they were in such a crowd, as to make Miss Smith rather uneasy.”
“It’s a very simple story. He went to town on business three days ago, and I got him to take charge of some papers I wanted to send to John. He delivered these papers to John at his office, and John invited him to join their group that same evening at Astley’s. They were going to take the two oldest boys to Astley’s. The group included our brother and sister, Henry, John, and Miss Smith. My friend Robert couldn’t resist. They picked him up on the way; everyone had a great time, and my brother asked him to join them for dinner the next day—which he did. During that visit (as I understand it), he found a chance to talk to Harriet, and he definitely didn’t miss his chance. She made him, by accepting him, as happy as he deserves. He came back on yesterday’s coach and was with me this morning right after breakfast to report on what happened, first about my matters and then about his own. That’s all I can share about the how, where, and when. Your friend Harriet will have a much longer story when you see her. She’ll give you all the little details that only a woman can make interesting. In our conversations, we stick to the big picture. However, I must say that Robert Martin’s heart seemed quite full, and he mentioned, though it wasn't really relevant, that after leaving their box at Astley’s, my brother took care of Mrs. John Knightley and little John, while he stayed back with Miss Smith and Henry; at one point, they were in such a crowd that it made Miss Smith a little uneasy.”
He stopped.—Emma dared not attempt any immediate reply. To speak, she was sure would be to betray a most unreasonable degree of happiness. She must wait a moment, or he would think her mad. Her silence disturbed him; and after observing her a little while, he added,
He paused. —Emma didn’t dare respond right away. She felt that speaking would reveal an unreasonable level of happiness. She needed to wait a moment, or he might think she was crazy. Her silence made him uneasy; and after watching her for a bit, he added,
“Emma, my love, you said that this circumstance would not now make you unhappy; but I am afraid it gives you more pain than you expected. His situation is an evil—but you must consider it as what satisfies your friend; and I will answer for your thinking better and better of him as you know him more. His good sense and good principles would delight you.—As far as the man is concerned, you could not wish your friend in better hands. His rank in society I would alter if I could, which is saying a great deal I assure you, Emma.—You laugh at me about William Larkins; but I could quite as ill spare Robert Martin.”
“Emma, my love, you said that this situation wouldn’t make you unhappy, but I’m worried it’s causing you more pain than you expected. His circumstances are unfortunate, but you need to see it as something that satisfies your friend; I’m sure you’ll start to think better of him as you get to know him. His good sense and strong principles would impress you. As far as the man goes, you couldn’t ask for a better person for your friend. I would change his social status if I could, and that says a lot, I promise you, Emma. You joke about William Larkins, but I could just as easily do without Robert Martin.”
He wanted her to look up and smile; and having now brought herself not to smile too broadly—she did—cheerfully answering,
He wanted her to look up and smile; and now that she had managed not to smile too broadly—she did—cheerfully replying,
“You need not be at any pains to reconcile me to the match. I think Harriet is doing extremely well. Her connexions may be worse than his. In respectability of character, there can be no doubt that they are. I have been silent from surprize merely, excessive surprize. You cannot imagine how suddenly it has come on me! how peculiarly unprepared I was!—for I had reason to believe her very lately more determined against him, much more, than she was before.”
“You don’t need to worry about convincing me about the match. I think Harriet is doing really well. Her connections might be worse than his. In terms of respectability, there’s no doubt they are. I’ve been quiet because I’m just so surprised, overly surprised. You can’t imagine how suddenly this hit me! I was so unprepared!—because just recently, I had reason to believe she was more determined against him than she had been before.”
“You ought to know your friend best,” replied Mr. Knightley; “but I should say she was a good-tempered, soft-hearted girl, not likely to be very, very determined against any young man who told her he loved her.”
“You should know your friend best,” replied Mr. Knightley; “but I would say she was a kind, soft-hearted girl, not likely to be strongly against any young man who told her he loved her.”
Emma could not help laughing as she answered, “Upon my word, I believe you know her quite as well as I do.—But, Mr. Knightley, are you perfectly sure that she has absolutely and downright accepted him. I could suppose she might in time—but can she already?—Did not you misunderstand him?—You were both talking of other things; of business, shows of cattle, or new drills—and might not you, in the confusion of so many subjects, mistake him?—It was not Harriet’s hand that he was certain of—it was the dimensions of some famous ox.”
Emma couldn't help laughing as she replied, "Honestly, I think you know her as well as I do. But, Mr. Knightley, are you completely sure that she has truly and definitely accepted him? I could imagine she might in time—but can she already? Did you misunderstand him? You were both talking about other things; like business, livestock shows, or new drills—and might you, in the mix of so many topics, have gotten it wrong? It wasn't Harriet's hand that he was certain about—it was the measurements of some famous ox."
The contrast between the countenance and air of Mr. Knightley and Robert Martin was, at this moment, so strong to Emma’s feelings, and so strong was the recollection of all that had so recently passed on Harriet’s side, so fresh the sound of those words, spoken with such emphasis, “No, I hope I know better than to think of Robert Martin,” that she was really expecting the intelligence to prove, in some measure, premature. It could not be otherwise.
The difference in demeanor between Mr. Knightley and Robert Martin was, at this moment, so stark to Emma, and the memory of everything that had recently happened on Harriet’s side was so vivid, especially the words that had been spoken with such emphasis, “No, I hope I know better than to think of Robert Martin,” that she genuinely expected the news to turn out to be, in some way, premature. It couldn't be any other way.
“Do you dare say this?” cried Mr. Knightley. “Do you dare to suppose me so great a blockhead, as not to know what a man is talking of?—What do you deserve?”
“Do you really say this?” shouted Mr. Knightley. “Do you really think I’m such a fool that I don’t know what someone is talking about?—What do you think you deserve?”
“Oh! I always deserve the best treatment, because I never put up with any other; and, therefore, you must give me a plain, direct answer. Are you quite sure that you understand the terms on which Mr. Martin and Harriet now are?”
“Oh! I always deserve the best treatment because I never settle for anything less; so you have to give me a straight answer. Are you completely sure that you understand the terms on which Mr. Martin and Harriet currently stand?”
“I am quite sure,” he replied, speaking very distinctly, “that he told me she had accepted him; and that there was no obscurity, nothing doubtful, in the words he used; and I think I can give you a proof that it must be so. He asked my opinion as to what he was now to do. He knew of no one but Mrs. Goddard to whom he could apply for information of her relations or friends. Could I mention any thing more fit to be done, than to go to Mrs. Goddard? I assured him that I could not. Then, he said, he would endeavour to see her in the course of this day.”
“I’m pretty sure,” he said clearly, “that he told me she accepted him; and that there was no confusion, nothing uncertain, in the words he used; and I think I can prove it to you. He asked me what he should do next. He only knew Mrs. Goddard as someone he could reach out to for information about her family or friends. Could I suggest anything better than to visit Mrs. Goddard? I assured him I couldn’t. Then he said he would try to see her later today.”
“I am perfectly satisfied,” replied Emma, with the brightest smiles, “and most sincerely wish them happy.”
“I’m totally happy,” replied Emma, with the biggest smile, “and I truly wish them the best.”
“You are materially changed since we talked on this subject before.”
"You've changed a lot since we last talked about this."
“I hope so—for at that time I was a fool.”
“I hope so—because back then I was an idiot.”
“And I am changed also; for I am now very willing to grant you all Harriet’s good qualities. I have taken some pains for your sake, and for Robert Martin’s sake, (whom I have always had reason to believe as much in love with her as ever,) to get acquainted with her. I have often talked to her a good deal. You must have seen that I did. Sometimes, indeed, I have thought you were half suspecting me of pleading poor Martin’s cause, which was never the case; but, from all my observations, I am convinced of her being an artless, amiable girl, with very good notions, very seriously good principles, and placing her happiness in the affections and utility of domestic life.—Much of this, I have no doubt, she may thank you for.”
“And I’ve changed too; I’m now more than willing to acknowledge all of Harriet’s good qualities. I’ve put in some effort for your sake, and for Robert Martin’s sake, (who I’ve always believed is just as much in love with her as ever,) to get to know her. I’ve talked to her quite a bit. You must have noticed that. Sometimes, I even thought you might be half-suspecting that I was advocating for poor Martin’s interests, which was never true; but based on all my observations, I’m convinced she’s a genuine, kind girl with good values, very solid principles, and she finds her happiness in the love and usefulness of home life.—I’m sure a lot of this is thanks to you.”
“Me!” cried Emma, shaking her head.—“Ah! poor Harriet!”
“Me!” exclaimed Emma, shaking her head. “Ah! poor Harriet!”
She checked herself, however, and submitted quietly to a little more praise than she deserved.
She held back, though, and quietly accepted a bit more praise than she really deserved.
Their conversation was soon afterwards closed by the entrance of her father. She was not sorry. She wanted to be alone. Her mind was in a state of flutter and wonder, which made it impossible for her to be collected. She was in dancing, singing, exclaiming spirits; and till she had moved about, and talked to herself, and laughed and reflected, she could be fit for nothing rational.
Their conversation was soon interrupted by the arrival of her father. She didn't mind. She wanted to be alone. Her mind was racing with excitement and curiosity, making it impossible for her to focus. She was filled with the energy of dancing, singing, and exclaiming; and until she could move around, talk to herself, laugh, and think things through, she wasn't ready for anything sensible.
Her father’s business was to announce James’s being gone out to put the horses to, preparatory to their now daily drive to Randalls; and she had, therefore, an immediate excuse for disappearing.
Her dad's job was to let everyone know that James had stepped out to put the horses out, getting ready for their daily drive to Randalls; so she had a quick reason to slip away.
The joy, the gratitude, the exquisite delight of her sensations may be imagined. The sole grievance and alloy thus removed in the prospect of Harriet’s welfare, she was really in danger of becoming too happy for security.—What had she to wish for? Nothing, but to grow more worthy of him, whose intentions and judgment had been ever so superior to her own. Nothing, but that the lessons of her past folly might teach her humility and circumspection in future.
The joy, the gratitude, the amazing delight of her feelings can be imagined. With the only complaint and flaw gone in light of Harriet’s well-being, she was truly at risk of being too happy for her own good. What did she have to wish for? Nothing, except to become more deserving of him, whose intentions and judgment had always been far better than her own. Nothing, except for the lessons from her past mistakes to teach her humility and caution in the future.
Serious she was, very serious in her thankfulness, and in her resolutions; and yet there was no preventing a laugh, sometimes in the very midst of them. She must laugh at such a close! Such an end of the doleful disappointment of five weeks back! Such a heart—such a Harriet!
She was really serious, genuinely thankful, and committed to her resolutions; yet, it was impossible not to laugh, sometimes right in the middle of them. She just had to laugh at such a close! Such an ending to the gloomy disappointment from five weeks ago! Such a heart—such a Harriet!
Now there would be pleasure in her returning—Every thing would be a pleasure. It would be a great pleasure to know Robert Martin.
Now there would be joy in her coming back—Everything would be enjoyable. It would be a great joy to know Robert Martin.
High in the rank of her most serious and heartfelt felicities, was the reflection that all necessity of concealment from Mr. Knightley would soon be over. The disguise, equivocation, mystery, so hateful to her to practise, might soon be over. She could now look forward to giving him that full and perfect confidence which her disposition was most ready to welcome as a duty.
High on the list of her most genuine and heartfelt joys was the thought that she would soon no longer need to hide anything from Mr. Knightley. The pretense, the lies, the mystery that she found so unpleasant to maintain would soon end. She could now look forward to offering him her complete trust, which her nature was eager to embrace as a responsibility.
In the gayest and happiest spirits she set forward with her father; not always listening, but always agreeing to what he said; and, whether in speech or silence, conniving at the comfortable persuasion of his being obliged to go to Randalls every day, or poor Mrs. Weston would be disappointed.
In the happiest of moods, she set off with her father; not always paying attention, but always on board with what he said; and whether talking or quiet, supporting the comforting idea that they had to visit Randalls every day, or else Mrs. Weston would be let down.
They arrived.—Mrs. Weston was alone in the drawing-room:—but hardly had they been told of the baby, and Mr. Woodhouse received the thanks for coming, which he asked for, when a glimpse was caught through the blind, of two figures passing near the window.
They arrived. Mrs. Weston was alone in the living room; but hardly had they been informed about the baby, and Mr. Woodhouse received the thanks for coming that he had requested, when a glimpse was seen through the blind of two figures walking past the window.
“It is Frank and Miss Fairfax,” said Mrs. Weston. “I was just going to tell you of our agreeable surprize in seeing him arrive this morning. He stays till to-morrow, and Miss Fairfax has been persuaded to spend the day with us.—They are coming in, I hope.”
“It’s Frank and Miss Fairfax,” Mrs. Weston said. “I was just about to tell you how pleasantly surprised we were to see him arrive this morning. He’s staying until tomorrow, and Miss Fairfax has agreed to spend the day with us. I hope they’re coming in.”
In half a minute they were in the room. Emma was extremely glad to see him—but there was a degree of confusion—a number of embarrassing recollections on each side. They met readily and smiling, but with a consciousness which at first allowed little to be said; and having all sat down again, there was for some time such a blank in the circle, that Emma began to doubt whether the wish now indulged, which she had long felt, of seeing Frank Churchill once more, and of seeing him with Jane, would yield its proportion of pleasure. When Mr. Weston joined the party, however, and when the baby was fetched, there was no longer a want of subject or animation—or of courage and opportunity for Frank Churchill to draw near her and say,
In half a minute, they were in the room. Emma was really happy to see him, but there was a bit of confusion—both of them had some awkward memories. They greeted each other eagerly and with smiles, but the awareness of their past made it tough to find words at first. Once they all sat down again, there was such a lull in the conversation that Emma started to wonder if seeing Frank Churchill again, especially with Jane, would actually bring her the joy she had long hoped for. However, when Mr. Weston came into the room and the baby was brought in, there was no longer a lack of topics to talk about or energy in the group—or the chance for Frank Churchill to get closer to her and say,
“I have to thank you, Miss Woodhouse, for a very kind forgiving message in one of Mrs. Weston’s letters. I hope time has not made you less willing to pardon. I hope you do not retract what you then said.”
“I want to thank you, Miss Woodhouse, for the very kind and forgiving message in one of Mrs. Weston’s letters. I hope time hasn’t made you less willing to forgive. I hope you still stand by what you said back then.”
“No, indeed,” cried Emma, most happy to begin, “not in the least. I am particularly glad to see and shake hands with you—and to give you joy in person.”
“No way,” Emma exclaimed, genuinely excited to start, “not at all. I’m especially happy to see you and shake your hand—and to congratulate you in person.”
He thanked her with all his heart, and continued some time to speak with serious feeling of his gratitude and happiness.
He thanked her sincerely and spent some time expressing his deep gratitude and happiness.
“Is not she looking well?” said he, turning his eyes towards Jane. “Better than she ever used to do?—You see how my father and Mrs. Weston doat upon her.”
“Isn’t she looking great?” he said, turning his gaze towards Jane. “Better than she ever did?—You can see how my father and Mrs. Weston adore her.”
But his spirits were soon rising again, and with laughing eyes, after mentioning the expected return of the Campbells, he named the name of Dixon.—Emma blushed, and forbade its being pronounced in her hearing.
But he quickly started to feel better, and with a laugh in his eyes, after bringing up the Campbells' expected return, he mentioned the name Dixon. Emma blushed and told him not to say it in her presence.
“I can never think of it,” she cried, “without extreme shame.”
“I can never think about it,” she cried, “without feeling extremely ashamed.”
“The shame,” he answered, “is all mine, or ought to be. But is it possible that you had no suspicion?—I mean of late. Early, I know, you had none.”
“The shame,” he replied, “is all mine, or it should be. But is it possible that you had no idea?—I mean recently. I know you didn’t early on.”
“I never had the smallest, I assure you.”
“I never had the slightest, I promise you.”
“That appears quite wonderful. I was once very near—and I wish I had—it would have been better. But though I was always doing wrong things, they were very bad wrong things, and such as did me no service.—It would have been a much better transgression had I broken the bond of secrecy and told you every thing.”
"That seems really amazing. I was once really close—and I wish I had—it would have been better. But even though I was always making mistakes, they were really serious ones, and they didn't help me at all. It would have been a much better choice if I had broken the trust and told you everything."
“It is not now worth a regret,” said Emma.
“It’s not worth regretting now,” Emma said.
“I have some hope,” resumed he, “of my uncle’s being persuaded to pay a visit at Randalls; he wants to be introduced to her. When the Campbells are returned, we shall meet them in London, and continue there, I trust, till we may carry her northward.—But now, I am at such a distance from her—is not it hard, Miss Woodhouse?—Till this morning, we have not once met since the day of reconciliation. Do not you pity me?”
“I have some hope,” he continued, “that my uncle will be persuaded to visit Randalls; he wants to be introduced to her. When the Campbells return, we’ll meet them in London, and I hope we can stay there until we can take her north. —But now, I’m so far away from her—isn’t it tough, Miss Woodhouse? —Until this morning, we haven’t met once since the day we reconciled. Don’t you feel sorry for me?”
Emma spoke her pity so very kindly, that with a sudden accession of gay thought, he cried,
Emma expressed her sympathy so warmly that, all of a sudden, he burst out with a cheerful thought,
“Ah! by the bye,” then sinking his voice, and looking demure for the moment—“I hope Mr. Knightley is well?” He paused.—She coloured and laughed.—“I know you saw my letter, and think you may remember my wish in your favour. Let me return your congratulations.—I assure you that I have heard the news with the warmest interest and satisfaction.—He is a man whom I cannot presume to praise.”
“Ah! by the way,” he said, lowering his voice and pretending to be modest for a moment—“I hope Mr. Knightley is doing well?” He paused. She blushed and laughed. “I know you saw my letter, and I believe you remember my wishes for you. Let me congratulate you. I truly heard the news with great interest and happiness. He is someone I can’t really praise enough.”
Emma was delighted, and only wanted him to go on in the same style; but his mind was the next moment in his own concerns and with his own Jane, and his next words were,
Emma was thrilled and just wanted him to keep talking like that; but in the next moment, his thoughts shifted back to his own issues and his own Jane, and his next words were,
“Did you ever see such a skin?—such smoothness! such delicacy!—and yet without being actually fair.—One cannot call her fair. It is a most uncommon complexion, with her dark eye-lashes and hair—a most distinguishing complexion! So peculiarly the lady in it.—Just colour enough for beauty.”
“Have you ever seen such skin?—so smooth! so delicate!—and yet not really fair. You can't call her fair. It's a very unusual complexion, with her dark eyelashes and hair—a truly distinctive complexion! So uniquely suited to her as a lady.—Just the right amount of color for beauty.”
“I have always admired her complexion,” replied Emma, archly; “but do not I remember the time when you found fault with her for being so pale?—When we first began to talk of her.—Have you quite forgotten?”
“I've always admired her complexion,” Emma replied playfully; “but don’t I remember when you criticized her for being so pale?—When we first started talking about her.—Have you completely forgotten?”
“Oh! no—what an impudent dog I was!—How could I dare—”
“Oh! no—what a bold dog I was!—How could I have dared—”
But he laughed so heartily at the recollection, that Emma could not help saying,
But he laughed so loudly at the memory that Emma couldn't help saying,
“I do suspect that in the midst of your perplexities at that time, you had very great amusement in tricking us all.—I am sure you had.—I am sure it was a consolation to you.”
“I suspect that during your confusion back then, you found a lot of amusement in fooling all of us. I’m sure you did. I’m sure it was a comfort to you.”
“Oh! no, no, no—how can you suspect me of such a thing? I was the most miserable wretch!”
“Oh! no, no, no—how can you think I would do something like that? I was the most miserable person!”
“Not quite so miserable as to be insensible to mirth. I am sure it was a source of high entertainment to you, to feel that you were taking us all in.—Perhaps I am the readier to suspect, because, to tell you the truth, I think it might have been some amusement to myself in the same situation. I think there is a little likeness between us.”
“Not quite miserable enough to be immune to laughter. I’m sure it was pretty entertaining for you to realize that you were fooling us all. —Maybe I’m quicker to suspect that because, honestly, I think I would have found it somewhat amusing in the same situation. I feel there’s a bit of similarity between us.”
He bowed.
He knelt.
“If not in our dispositions,” she presently added, with a look of true sensibility, “there is a likeness in our destiny; the destiny which bids fair to connect us with two characters so much superior to our own.”
“If it’s not in our personalities,” she quickly added, with a look of genuine feeling, “there's a similarity in our fate; the fate that promises to link us to two characters far greater than ourselves.”
“True, true,” he answered, warmly. “No, not true on your side. You can have no superior, but most true on mine.—She is a complete angel. Look at her. Is not she an angel in every gesture? Observe the turn of her throat. Observe her eyes, as she is looking up at my father.—You will be glad to hear (inclining his head, and whispering seriously) that my uncle means to give her all my aunt’s jewels. They are to be new set. I am resolved to have some in an ornament for the head. Will not it be beautiful in her dark hair?”
“That's true,” he replied warmly. “Not true on your end. You can’t have anyone better than you, but it's definitely true on my end. She’s a total angel. Just look at her. Isn’t she an angel in every move? Check out how her neck looks. Look into her eyes as she’s gazing up at my dad. You’ll be happy to hear (leaning in and whispering seriously) that my uncle plans to give her all my aunt’s jewels. They’re going to be set in new designs. I’m determined to get some for a hairpiece. Wouldn’t that look stunning in her dark hair?”
“Very beautiful, indeed,” replied Emma; and she spoke so kindly, that he gratefully burst out,
“Really beautiful,” Emma said, and she spoke so kindly that he gratefully exclaimed,
“How delighted I am to see you again! and to see you in such excellent looks!—I would not have missed this meeting for the world. I should certainly have called at Hartfield, had you failed to come.”
“How happy I am to see you again! And to see you looking so good!—I wouldn't have missed this meeting for anything. I definitely would have dropped by Hartfield if you hadn’t come.”
The others had been talking of the child, Mrs. Weston giving an account of a little alarm she had been under, the evening before, from the infant’s appearing not quite well. She believed she had been foolish, but it had alarmed her, and she had been within half a minute of sending for Mr. Perry. Perhaps she ought to be ashamed, but Mr. Weston had been almost as uneasy as herself.—In ten minutes, however, the child had been perfectly well again. This was her history; and particularly interesting it was to Mr. Woodhouse, who commended her very much for thinking of sending for Perry, and only regretted that she had not done it. “She should always send for Perry, if the child appeared in the slightest degree disordered, were it only for a moment. She could not be too soon alarmed, nor send for Perry too often. It was a pity, perhaps, that he had not come last night; for, though the child seemed well now, very well considering, it would probably have been better if Perry had seen it.”
The others had been talking about the child, with Mrs. Weston sharing a little scare she had the night before because the infant didn’t seem quite well. She thought she might have been overreacting, but it had worried her, and she was just about to call Mr. Perry. She felt she should be embarrassed, but Mr. Weston was almost as anxious as she was. However, in ten minutes, the child was completely fine again. This was her story; and it was especially interesting to Mr. Woodhouse, who praised her for considering calling Perry and only wished she had actually done it. “She should always call for Perry if the child looks even slightly off, even if just for a moment. She can’t be too quick to worry or too frequent in calling for Perry. Maybe it was a shame he didn’t come last night; because even though the child seems fine now, it probably would have been better if Perry had checked on it.”
Frank Churchill caught the name.
Frank Churchill heard the name.
“Perry!” said he to Emma, and trying, as he spoke, to catch Miss Fairfax’s eye. “My friend Mr. Perry! What are they saying about Mr. Perry?—Has he been here this morning?—And how does he travel now?—Has he set up his carriage?”
“Perry!” he said to Emma, trying to catch Miss Fairfax’s eye as he spoke. “My friend Mr. Perry! What are people saying about Mr. Perry?—Has he been here this morning?—And how does he get around now?—Has he gotten a carriage?”
Emma soon recollected, and understood him; and while she joined in the laugh, it was evident from Jane’s countenance that she too was really hearing him, though trying to seem deaf.
Emma quickly remembered and understood him; and while she joined in the laughter, it was clear from Jane's expression that she was really listening to him, even though she tried to act like she wasn't.
“Such an extraordinary dream of mine!” he cried. “I can never think of it without laughing.—She hears us, she hears us, Miss Woodhouse. I see it in her cheek, her smile, her vain attempt to frown. Look at her. Do not you see that, at this instant, the very passage of her own letter, which sent me the report, is passing under her eye—that the whole blunder is spread before her—that she can attend to nothing else, though pretending to listen to the others?”
“Such an amazing dream of mine!” he exclaimed. “I can never think about it without laughing. —She hears us, she hears us, Miss Woodhouse. I can see it in her cheek, her smile, her silly attempt to frown. Look at her. Don’t you see that right now, the very letter she sent me with the report is in front of her—that the whole mistake is laid out before her—that she can’t pay attention to anything else, even though she’s pretending to listen to the others?”
Jane was forced to smile completely, for a moment; and the smile partly remained as she turned towards him, and said in a conscious, low, yet steady voice,
Jane had to smile fully for a moment, and the smile lingered a bit as she turned to him and said in a aware, quiet, yet firm voice,
“How you can bear such recollections, is astonishing to me!—They will sometimes obtrude—but how you can court them!”
“How you can stand such memories is amazing to me!—They do sometimes intrude—but how can you invite them?”
He had a great deal to say in return, and very entertainingly; but Emma’s feelings were chiefly with Jane, in the argument; and on leaving Randalls, and falling naturally into a comparison of the two men, she felt, that pleased as she had been to see Frank Churchill, and really regarding him as she did with friendship, she had never been more sensible of Mr. Knightley’s high superiority of character. The happiness of this most happy day, received its completion, in the animated contemplation of his worth which this comparison produced.
He had a lot to say back, and it was quite entertaining; however, Emma was mostly focused on Jane during their conversation. After leaving Randalls and naturally comparing the two men, she realized that, while she was glad to see Frank Churchill and genuinely regarded him as a friend, she had never felt more aware of Mr. Knightley’s strong superiority of character. The joy of this wonderful day was completed by the lively reflection on his worth that this comparison brought about.
CHAPTER XIX
If Emma had still, at intervals, an anxious feeling for Harriet, a momentary doubt of its being possible for her to be really cured of her attachment to Mr. Knightley, and really able to accept another man from unbiased inclination, it was not long that she had to suffer from the recurrence of any such uncertainty. A very few days brought the party from London, and she had no sooner an opportunity of being one hour alone with Harriet, than she became perfectly satisfied—unaccountable as it was!—that Robert Martin had thoroughly supplanted Mr. Knightley, and was now forming all her views of happiness.
If Emma occasionally felt anxious about Harriet and briefly doubted whether she could truly get over her feelings for Mr. Knightley and genuinely accept another man without bias, it didn't take long for those doubts to fade away. Just a few days later, the group from London arrived, and as soon as she had a chance to be alone with Harriet for just one hour, she became completely convinced—mysterious as it was!—that Robert Martin had completely taken Mr. Knightley’s place and was now shaping all of her ideas about happiness.
Harriet was a little distressed—did look a little foolish at first: but having once owned that she had been presumptuous and silly, and self-deceived, before, her pain and confusion seemed to die away with the words, and leave her without a care for the past, and with the fullest exultation in the present and future; for, as to her friend’s approbation, Emma had instantly removed every fear of that nature, by meeting her with the most unqualified congratulations.—Harriet was most happy to give every particular of the evening at Astley’s, and the dinner the next day; she could dwell on it all with the utmost delight. But what did such particulars explain?—The fact was, as Emma could now acknowledge, that Harriet had always liked Robert Martin; and that his continuing to love her had been irresistible.—Beyond this, it must ever be unintelligible to Emma.
Harriet felt a bit upset and looked a little foolish at first, but after admitting that she had been careless, silly, and self-deceived before, her pain and confusion seemed to fade away with those words. She was left without any worries about the past and filled with excitement about the present and future. Emma instantly eased any fears regarding her friend’s approval by offering her the most enthusiastic congratulations. Harriet was thrilled to share all the details of the evening at Astley’s and the dinner the following day; she could relive it all with immense joy. But what did those details really clarify? The truth was, as Emma could now recognize, that Harriet had always liked Robert Martin, and his ongoing love for her had been impossible to resist. Beyond that, it would always be a mystery to Emma.
The event, however, was most joyful; and every day was giving her fresh reason for thinking so.—Harriet’s parentage became known. She proved to be the daughter of a tradesman, rich enough to afford her the comfortable maintenance which had ever been hers, and decent enough to have always wished for concealment.—Such was the blood of gentility which Emma had formerly been so ready to vouch for!—It was likely to be as untainted, perhaps, as the blood of many a gentleman: but what a connexion had she been preparing for Mr. Knightley—or for the Churchills—or even for Mr. Elton!—The stain of illegitimacy, unbleached by nobility or wealth, would have been a stain indeed.
The event, however, was incredibly joyful; and each day brought her new reasons to feel that way. Harriet's background was revealed. She turned out to be the daughter of a tradesman, wealthy enough to provide for her comfortable lifestyle, and respectable enough to have always preferred to keep it hidden. —That was the sort of genteel lineage Emma had once confidently endorsed! —It might be as pure as many a gentleman's lineage, but what kind of match had she been planning for Mr. Knightley—or for the Churchills—or even for Mr. Elton! —The stain of illegitimacy, untouched by nobility or wealth, would have been a true stain.
No objection was raised on the father’s side; the young man was treated liberally; it was all as it should be: and as Emma became acquainted with Robert Martin, who was now introduced at Hartfield, she fully acknowledged in him all the appearance of sense and worth which could bid fairest for her little friend. She had no doubt of Harriet’s happiness with any good-tempered man; but with him, and in the home he offered, there would be the hope of more, of security, stability, and improvement. She would be placed in the midst of those who loved her, and who had better sense than herself; retired enough for safety, and occupied enough for cheerfulness. She would be never led into temptation, nor left for it to find her out. She would be respectable and happy; and Emma admitted her to be the luckiest creature in the world, to have created so steady and persevering an affection in such a man;—or, if not quite the luckiest, to yield only to herself.
No one on the father’s side objected; the young man was treated well; everything was as it should be. As Emma got to know Robert Martin, who was now introduced at Hartfield, she recognized in him all the sense and worth that could make her little friend truly happy. She was sure that Harriet would be content with any good-natured man; but with him, and in the home he offered, there was the promise of more—security, stability, and growth. She would be surrounded by those who cared for her and who were wiser than she was; having enough quiet for safety but also enough activity for happiness. She would never be tempted or left alone to face it. She would be respected and joyful; and Emma thought of her as the luckiest person in the world for having inspired such a steady and persistent affection in a man like him—or, if not the absolute luckiest, at least luckier than herself.
Harriet, necessarily drawn away by her engagements with the Martins, was less and less at Hartfield; which was not to be regretted.—The intimacy between her and Emma must sink; their friendship must change into a calmer sort of goodwill; and, fortunately, what ought to be, and must be, seemed already beginning, and in the most gradual, natural manner.
Harriet, pulled away by her commitments with the Martins, spent less and less time at Hartfield; and that wasn’t a bad thing. The closeness between her and Emma was bound to fade; their friendship would turn into a more peaceful kind of goodwill; and, luckily, what needed to happen seemed to be starting naturally and gradually.
Before the end of September, Emma attended Harriet to church, and saw her hand bestowed on Robert Martin with so complete a satisfaction, as no remembrances, even connected with Mr. Elton as he stood before them, could impair.—Perhaps, indeed, at that time she scarcely saw Mr. Elton, but as the clergyman whose blessing at the altar might next fall on herself.—Robert Martin and Harriet Smith, the latest couple engaged of the three, were the first to be married.
Before the end of September, Emma went to church with Harriet and watched as her hand was given to Robert Martin with such complete satisfaction that no memories, even those related to Mr. Elton standing before them, could affect it. Perhaps, at that moment, she barely noticed Mr. Elton, only seeing him as the clergyman whose blessing at the altar might soon be on her own. Robert Martin and Harriet Smith, the latest couple to get engaged of the three, were the first to get married.
Jane Fairfax had already quitted Highbury, and was restored to the comforts of her beloved home with the Campbells.—The Mr. Churchills were also in town; and they were only waiting for November.
Jane Fairfax had already left Highbury and returned to the comforts of her beloved home with the Campbells. The Mr. Churchills were also in town; they were just waiting for November.
The intermediate month was the one fixed on, as far as they dared, by Emma and Mr. Knightley.—They had determined that their marriage ought to be concluded while John and Isabella were still at Hartfield, to allow them the fortnight’s absence in a tour to the seaside, which was the plan.—John and Isabella, and every other friend, were agreed in approving it. But Mr. Woodhouse—how was Mr. Woodhouse to be induced to consent?—he, who had never yet alluded to their marriage but as a distant event.
The middle of the month was the time they decided on, as much as they could, by Emma and Mr. Knightley. They had agreed that they should get married while John and Isabella were still at Hartfield, which would give them the benefit of a two-week getaway to the seaside, as was the plan. John, Isabella, and all their other friends were on board with it. But how could they get Mr. Woodhouse to agree? He had always talked about their wedding as something far off.
When first sounded on the subject, he was so miserable, that they were almost hopeless.—A second allusion, indeed, gave less pain.—He began to think it was to be, and that he could not prevent it—a very promising step of the mind on its way to resignation. Still, however, he was not happy. Nay, he appeared so much otherwise, that his daughter’s courage failed. She could not bear to see him suffering, to know him fancying himself neglected; and though her understanding almost acquiesced in the assurance of both the Mr. Knightleys, that when once the event were over, his distress would be soon over too, she hesitated—she could not proceed.
When he first heard about the situation, he felt so miserable that it seemed almost hopeless. A second mention of it, however, caused him less pain. He started to think it was inevitable and that he couldn't stop it—a significant step toward accepting reality. Still, he wasn't happy. In fact, he looked so unhappy that his daughter's courage wavered. She couldn't bear to watch him suffer or know that he felt neglected; and even though she almost believed the reassurances from both Mr. Knightleys that once it was over, his distress would soon fade, she hesitated—she couldn't move forward.
In this state of suspense they were befriended, not by any sudden illumination of Mr. Woodhouse’s mind, or any wonderful change of his nervous system, but by the operation of the same system in another way.—Mrs. Weston’s poultry-house was robbed one night of all her turkeys—evidently by the ingenuity of man. Other poultry-yards in the neighbourhood also suffered.—Pilfering was housebreaking to Mr. Woodhouse’s fears.—He was very uneasy; and but for the sense of his son-in-law’s protection, would have been under wretched alarm every night of his life. The strength, resolution, and presence of mind of the Mr. Knightleys, commanded his fullest dependence. While either of them protected him and his, Hartfield was safe.—But Mr. John Knightley must be in London again by the end of the first week in November.
In this tense situation, they found support, not from a sudden realization in Mr. Woodhouse’s mind or any remarkable change in his nerves, but from the same nervous system acting in a different way. One night, Mrs. Weston’s poultry house was raided and all her turkeys were stolen—clearly the work of someone clever. Other poultry yards in the area were also hit. Theft felt like breaking and entering to Mr. Woodhouse's anxiety. He was very worried; and if it weren’t for the safety he felt with his son-in-law around, he would have been terrified every night of his life. The strength, determination, and quick thinking of the Mr. Knightleys gave him complete confidence. As long as either of them was there to protect him and his family, Hartfield felt secure. But Mr. John Knightley had to be back in London by the end of the first week in November.
The result of this distress was, that, with a much more voluntary, cheerful consent than his daughter had ever presumed to hope for at the moment, she was able to fix her wedding-day—and Mr. Elton was called on, within a month from the marriage of Mr. and Mrs. Robert Martin, to join the hands of Mr. Knightley and Miss Woodhouse.
The outcome of this distress was that, with a much more willing and cheerful agreement than his daughter had ever dared to hope for at that moment, she was able to set her wedding date—and Mr. Elton was asked, within a month of Mr. and Mrs. Robert Martin's marriage, to unite the hands of Mr. Knightley and Miss Woodhouse.
The wedding was very much like other weddings, where the parties have no taste for finery or parade; and Mrs. Elton, from the particulars detailed by her husband, thought it all extremely shabby, and very inferior to her own.—“Very little white satin, very few lace veils; a most pitiful business!—Selina would stare when she heard of it.”—But, in spite of these deficiencies, the wishes, the hopes, the confidence, the predictions of the small band of true friends who witnessed the ceremony, were fully answered in the perfect happiness of the union.
The wedding was just like many others, where the couples weren't into fancy things or showy displays; and Mrs. Elton, based on the details her husband shared, thought it all looked extremely cheap and far worse than her own wedding. “Not much white satin, hardly any lace veils; such a sad affair!—Selina would be shocked to hear about it.” But despite these shortcomings, the wishes, hopes, confidence, and predictions of the small group of true friends who attended the ceremony were completely fulfilled in the couple's perfect happiness.
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