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Sense and Sensibility

by Jane Austen

(1811)


Contents

CHAPTER I
CHAPTER II
CHAPTER III
CHAPTER IV
CHAPTER V
CHAPTER VI
CHAPTER VII
CHAPTER VIII
CHAPTER IX
CHAPTER X
CHAPTER XI
CHAPTER XII
CHAPTER XIII
CHAPTER XIV
CHAPTER XV
CHAPTER XVI
CHAPTER XVII
CHAPTER XVIII
CHAPTER XIX
CHAPTER XX
CHAPTER XXI
CHAPTER XXII
CHAPTER XXIII
CHAPTER XXIV
CHAPTER XXV
CHAPTER XXVI
CHAPTER XXVII
CHAPTER XXVIII
CHAPTER XXIX
CHAPTER XXX
CHAPTER XXXI
CHAPTER XXXII
CHAPTER XXXIII
CHAPTER XXXIV
CHAPTER XXXV
CHAPTER XXXVI
CHAPTER XXXVII
CHAPTER XXXVIII
CHAPTER XXXIX
CHAPTER XL
CHAPTER XLI
CHAPTER XLII
CHAPTER XLIII
CHAPTER XLIV
CHAPTER XLV
CHAPTER XLVI
CHAPTER XLVII
CHAPTER XLVIII
CHAPTER XLIX
CHAPTER L

CHAPTER I.

The family of Dashwood had long been settled in Sussex. Their estate was large, and their residence was at Norland Park, in the centre of their property, where, for many generations, they had lived in so respectable a manner as to engage the general good opinion of their surrounding acquaintance. The late owner of this estate was a single man, who lived to a very advanced age, and who for many years of his life, had a constant companion and housekeeper in his sister. But her death, which happened ten years before his own, produced a great alteration in his home; for to supply her loss, he invited and received into his house the family of his nephew Mr. Henry Dashwood, the legal inheritor of the Norland estate, and the person to whom he intended to bequeath it. In the society of his nephew and niece, and their children, the old Gentleman’s days were comfortably spent. His attachment to them all increased. The constant attention of Mr. and Mrs. Henry Dashwood to his wishes, which proceeded not merely from interest, but from goodness of heart, gave him every degree of solid comfort which his age could receive; and the cheerfulness of the children added a relish to his existence.

The Dashwood family had been settled in Sussex for a long time. Their estate was large, and they lived at Norland Park, right in the middle of their property, where they had maintained a respectable lifestyle for generations, earning the good opinion of those around them. The last owner of this estate was a bachelor who lived to a very old age and had his sister as a constant companion and housekeeper for many years. However, her death, which occurred ten years before his, greatly changed his home life; to fill the void, he invited his nephew Mr. Henry Dashwood, the legal heir to the Norland estate, and his family to live with him. In the company of his nephew, niece, and their children, the old gentleman spent his days contentedly. His attachment to all of them grew stronger. Mr. and Mrs. Henry Dashwood's constant attention to his needs, which came from genuine kindness rather than self-interest, provided him with as much comfort as someone his age could hope for; and the children’s cheerful presence added joy to his life.

By a former marriage, Mr. Henry Dashwood had one son: by his present lady, three daughters. The son, a steady respectable young man, was amply provided for by the fortune of his mother, which had been large, and half of which devolved on him on his coming of age. By his own marriage, likewise, which happened soon afterwards, he added to his wealth. To him therefore the succession to the Norland estate was not so really important as to his sisters; for their fortune, independent of what might arise to them from their father’s inheriting that property, could be but small. Their mother had nothing, and their father only seven thousand pounds in his own disposal; for the remaining moiety of his first wife’s fortune was also secured to her child, and he had only a life-interest in it.

Mr. Henry Dashwood had one son from his first marriage and three daughters with his current wife. The son, a responsible and respectable young man, was well taken care of by his mother's substantial fortune, half of which he received when he turned eighteen. Shortly after that, he got married and increased his wealth even further. Therefore, inheriting the Norland estate was not as crucial for him as it was for his sisters; their financial situation, aside from any inheritance from their father, was quite limited. Their mother had no money, and their father had only seven thousand pounds at his disposal, as half of his first wife's fortune was also allocated to her child, meaning he only had a life interest in it.

The old gentleman died: his will was read, and like almost every other will, gave as much disappointment as pleasure. He was neither so unjust, nor so ungrateful, as to leave his estate from his nephew;—but he left it to him on such terms as destroyed half the value of the bequest. Mr. Dashwood had wished for it more for the sake of his wife and daughters than for himself or his son;—but to his son, and his son’s son, a child of four years old, it was secured, in such a way, as to leave to himself no power of providing for those who were most dear to him, and who most needed a provision by any charge on the estate, or by any sale of its valuable woods. The whole was tied up for the benefit of this child, who, in occasional visits with his father and mother at Norland, had so far gained on the affections of his uncle, by such attractions as are by no means unusual in children of two or three years old; an imperfect articulation, an earnest desire of having his own way, many cunning tricks, and a great deal of noise, as to outweigh all the value of all the attention which, for years, he had received from his niece and her daughters. He meant not to be unkind, however, and, as a mark of his affection for the three girls, he left them a thousand pounds a-piece.

The old man passed away: his will was read, and like almost every other will, it brought as much disappointment as joy. He wasn't so unfair or ungrateful as to cut his nephew out of his estate—but he left it to him under terms that halved the value of the inheritance. Mr. Dashwood wanted it more for his wife and daughters than for himself or his son; but to his son and his son’s son, a four-year-old child, it was secured in such a way that Mr. Dashwood had no power to provide for those dearest to him, who needed support through any charge on the estate or by selling its valuable woodlands. Everything was tied up for the benefit of this child, who, during occasional visits with his parents at Norland, had captured his uncle's affection with traits that are fairly common in two- or three-year-olds: unclear speech, a strong desire to have his own way, clever tricks, and a lot of noise, which outweighed all the attention his niece and her daughters had given him over the years. He didn't mean to be unkind, though, and as a sign of his affection for the three girls, he left them each a thousand pounds.

Mr. Dashwood’s disappointment was, at first, severe; but his temper was cheerful and sanguine; and he might reasonably hope to live many years, and by living economically, lay by a considerable sum from the produce of an estate already large, and capable of almost immediate improvement. But the fortune, which had been so tardy in coming, was his only one twelvemonth. He survived his uncle no longer; and ten thousand pounds, including the late legacies, was all that remained for his widow and daughters.

Mr. Dashwood was initially very disappointed; but he had a cheerful and optimistic attitude, and he could reasonably expect to live for many more years. By living frugally, he could save a significant amount from an estate that was already substantial and could be improved almost right away. However, the fortune that had taken so long to arrive was the only one he would receive in a year. He didn’t outlive his uncle, and ten thousand pounds, including the recent legacies, was all that was left for his wife and daughters.

His son was sent for as soon as his danger was known, and to him Mr. Dashwood recommended, with all the strength and urgency which illness could command, the interest of his mother-in-law and sisters.

His son was called for as soon as they learned about his danger, and Mr. Dashwood urged him, with all the force and urgency that his illness allowed, to look after the well-being of his mother-in-law and sisters.

Mr. John Dashwood had not the strong feelings of the rest of the family; but he was affected by a recommendation of such a nature at such a time, and he promised to do every thing in his power to make them comfortable. His father was rendered easy by such an assurance, and Mr. John Dashwood had then leisure to consider how much there might prudently be in his power to do for them.

Mr. John Dashwood didn't share the intense feelings of the rest of the family, but he was influenced by such a recommendation at that moment, and he promised to do everything he could to make them comfortable. His father felt reassured by this promise, and Mr. John Dashwood then had the time to think about how much he could reasonably do for them.

He was not an ill-disposed young man, unless to be rather cold hearted and rather selfish is to be ill-disposed: but he was, in general, well respected; for he conducted himself with propriety in the discharge of his ordinary duties. Had he married a more amiable woman, he might have been made still more respectable than he was:—he might even have been made amiable himself; for he was very young when he married, and very fond of his wife. But Mrs. John Dashwood was a strong caricature of himself;—more narrow-minded and selfish.

He wasn't a bad young man, unless being somewhat cold-hearted and selfish counts as being bad. Overall, he was well-respected because he handled his usual responsibilities properly. If he had married a kinder woman, he could have been seen as even more respectable; he might even have become a nicer person himself since he was quite young when he got married and was very fond of his wife. However, Mrs. John Dashwood was a strong exaggerated version of him—more narrow-minded and selfish.

When he gave his promise to his father, he meditated within himself to increase the fortunes of his sisters by the present of a thousand pounds a-piece. He then really thought himself equal to it. The prospect of four thousand a-year, in addition to his present income, besides the remaining half of his own mother’s fortune, warmed his heart, and made him feel capable of generosity. “Yes, he would give them three thousand pounds: it would be liberal and handsome! It would be enough to make them completely easy. Three thousand pounds! he could spare so considerable a sum with little inconvenience.” He thought of it all day long, and for many days successively, and he did not repent.

When he promised his father, he thought to himself that he could boost his sisters' fortunes by giving them a thousand pounds each. He actually believed he could do it. The idea of having an extra four thousand a year, along with the rest of his mother's fortune, filled him with warmth and made him feel generous. “Yes, he would give them three thousand pounds: that would be generous and kind! It would be enough to set them up comfortably. Three thousand pounds! He could easily spare such a significant amount without much hassle.” He thought about it all day and for many days after, and he didn’t regret it.

No sooner was his father’s funeral over, than Mrs. John Dashwood, without sending any notice of her intention to her mother-in-law, arrived with her child and their attendants. No one could dispute her right to come; the house was her husband’s from the moment of his father’s decease; but the indelicacy of her conduct was so much the greater, and to a woman in Mrs. Dashwood’s situation, with only common feelings, must have been highly unpleasing;—but in her mind there was a sense of honor so keen, a generosity so romantic, that any offence of the kind, by whomsoever given or received, was to her a source of immovable disgust. Mrs. John Dashwood had never been a favourite with any of her husband’s family; but she had had no opportunity, till the present, of showing them with how little attention to the comfort of other people she could act when occasion required it.

No sooner had his father's funeral ended than Mrs. John Dashwood, without informing her mother-in-law, showed up with her child and their staff. No one could argue against her right to be there; the house belonged to her husband as soon as his father passed away. However, the rudeness of her actions was even more pronounced and must have been quite upsetting for someone in Mrs. Dashwood's position, who would have just normal feelings. But in her mind, there was a sharp sense of honor, a romantic generosity, that any kind of offense, no matter who gave or received it, struck her as completely disgusting. Mrs. John Dashwood had never been favored by her husband’s family, but she had not previously had the chance to demonstrate how little she cared about the comfort of others when the situation called for it.

So acutely did Mrs. Dashwood feel this ungracious behaviour, and so earnestly did she despise her daughter-in-law for it, that, on the arrival of the latter, she would have quitted the house for ever, had not the entreaty of her eldest girl induced her first to reflect on the propriety of going, and her own tender love for all her three children determined her afterwards to stay, and for their sakes avoid a breach with their brother.

Mrs. Dashwood felt this ungracious behavior so strongly, and she loathed her daughter-in-law for it so much, that when the latter arrived, she almost left the house for good. However, her eldest daughter's pleading made her reconsider the decision to leave, and her deep love for all three of her children ultimately led her to stay and avoid a conflict with their brother for their sake.

Elinor, this eldest daughter, whose advice was so effectual, possessed a strength of understanding, and coolness of judgment, which qualified her, though only nineteen, to be the counsellor of her mother, and enabled her frequently to counteract, to the advantage of them all, that eagerness of mind in Mrs. Dashwood which must generally have led to imprudence. She had an excellent heart;—her disposition was affectionate, and her feelings were strong; but she knew how to govern them: it was a knowledge which her mother had yet to learn; and which one of her sisters had resolved never to be taught.

Elinor, the eldest daughter, whose advice was so effective, had a strong understanding and a calm judgment that allowed her, even at just nineteen, to be her mother's advisor. This often helped balance her mother Mrs. Dashwood’s impulsiveness, which usually led to rash decisions. She had a kind heart; her nature was loving, and her emotions were intense, but she knew how to control them. This was something her mother still needed to learn, and one of her sisters had decided she would never be taught.

Marianne’s abilities were, in many respects, quite equal to Elinor’s. She was sensible and clever; but eager in everything: her sorrows, her joys, could have no moderation. She was generous, amiable, interesting: she was everything but prudent. The resemblance between her and her mother was strikingly great.

Marianne's abilities were, in many ways, just as good as Elinor's. She was smart and clever; but she was passionate about everything: her sorrows and her joys were always intense. She was generous, kind, and engaging: she was anything but cautious. The similarity between her and her mother was remarkably strong.

Elinor saw, with concern, the excess of her sister’s sensibility; but by Mrs. Dashwood it was valued and cherished. They encouraged each other now in the violence of their affliction. The agony of grief which overpowered them at first, was voluntarily renewed, was sought for, was created again and again. They gave themselves up wholly to their sorrow, seeking increase of wretchedness in every reflection that could afford it, and resolved against ever admitting consolation in future. Elinor, too, was deeply afflicted; but still she could struggle, she could exert herself. She could consult with her brother, could receive her sister-in-law on her arrival, and treat her with proper attention; and could strive to rouse her mother to similar exertion, and encourage her to similar forbearance.

Elinor watched with concern as her sister became increasingly sensitive; however, Mrs. Dashwood valued and cherished this trait. They now encouraged each other in their intense grief. The pain of their sorrow, which initially overwhelmed them, was willingly rekindled, sought after, and created repeatedly. They surrendered completely to their sadness, looking for more misery in every thought that could provide it, and vowed never to accept comfort in the future. Elinor was also deeply hurt, but she still managed to fight back, to take action. She could talk with her brother, welcome her sister-in-law upon her arrival, treat her properly, and try to motivate her mother to do the same and to show similar restraint.

Margaret, the other sister, was a good-humored, well-disposed girl; but as she had already imbibed a good deal of Marianne’s romance, without having much of her sense, she did not, at thirteen, bid fair to equal her sisters at a more advanced period of life.

Margaret, the other sister, was a cheerful and kind girl; but since she had taken in quite a bit of Marianne’s romantic ideas, without having much of her practicality, she did not seem likely, at thirteen, to match her sisters as they got older.

CHAPTER II.

Mrs. John Dashwood now installed herself mistress of Norland; and her mother and sisters-in-law were degraded to the condition of visitors. As such, however, they were treated by her with quiet civility; and by her husband with as much kindness as he could feel towards anybody beyond himself, his wife, and their child. He really pressed them, with some earnestness, to consider Norland as their home; and, as no plan appeared so eligible to Mrs. Dashwood as remaining there till she could accommodate herself with a house in the neighbourhood, his invitation was accepted.

Mrs. John Dashwood now took charge of Norland, while her mother and sisters-in-law became mere visitors. Still, she treated them with calm politeness, and her husband was as kind to them as he could be towards anyone outside his immediate family—himself, his wife, and their child. He genuinely encouraged them to think of Norland as their home, and since Mrs. Dashwood saw no better option than to stay there until she could find a place nearby, they accepted his invitation.

A continuance in a place where everything reminded her of former delight, was exactly what suited her mind. In seasons of cheerfulness, no temper could be more cheerful than hers, or possess, in a greater degree, that sanguine expectation of happiness which is happiness itself. But in sorrow she must be equally carried away by her fancy, and as far beyond consolation as in pleasure she was beyond alloy.

Staying in a place where everything reminded her of past joys was exactly what her mind needed. When she was happy, no one could be more cheerful than she was, or have a stronger belief that happiness was just around the corner. But in her sadness, her imagination would completely take over, and she would be as far from consolation as she was in her joy.

Mrs. John Dashwood did not at all approve of what her husband intended to do for his sisters. To take three thousand pounds from the fortune of their dear little boy would be impoverishing him to the most dreadful degree. She begged him to think again on the subject. How could he answer it to himself to rob his child, and his only child too, of so large a sum? And what possible claim could the Miss Dashwoods, who were related to him only by half blood, which she considered as no relationship at all, have on his generosity to so large an amount. It was very well known that no affection was ever supposed to exist between the children of any man by different marriages; and why was he to ruin himself, and their poor little Harry, by giving away all his money to his half sisters?

Mrs. John Dashwood completely disapproved of what her husband planned to do for his sisters. Taking three thousand pounds from their dear little boy's fortune would leave him in a terrible situation. She urged him to reconsider. How could he justify depriving his only child of such a large sum? And what right did the Miss Dashwoods, who were only related to him by half blood—which she didn’t see as a real relationship—have to his generous aid in such an amount? It was well known that there was rarely any affection between children of different marriages; so why should he jeopardize himself and their poor little Harry by giving away all his money to his half-sisters?

“It was my father’s last request to me,” replied her husband, “that I should assist his widow and daughters.”

“It was my father’s last request,” her husband replied, “that I help his widow and daughters.”

“He did not know what he was talking of, I dare say; ten to one but he was light-headed at the time. Had he been in his right senses, he could not have thought of such a thing as begging you to give away half your fortune from your own child.”

“He didn’t know what he was talking about, I bet; he was probably a bit out of his mind at the time. If he had been thinking clearly, he wouldn’t have suggested that you give away half your fortune to your own child.”

“He did not stipulate for any particular sum, my dear Fanny; he only requested me, in general terms, to assist them, and make their situation more comfortable than it was in his power to do. Perhaps it would have been as well if he had left it wholly to myself. He could hardly suppose I should neglect them. But as he required the promise, I could not do less than give it; at least I thought so at the time. The promise, therefore, was given, and must be performed. Something must be done for them whenever they leave Norland and settle in a new home.”

“He didn't specify any particular amount, my dear Fanny; he just asked me to help them out and make their situation more comfortable than he could manage. Maybe it would have been better if he had left it entirely up to me. He could hardly think I would ignore them. But since he asked for a promise, I felt I had to give it; at least, that’s what I thought then. So, the promise was made, and it has to be upheld. Something needs to be done for them when they leave Norland and move into a new home.”

“Well, then, let something be done for them; but that something need not be three thousand pounds. Consider,” she added, “that when the money is once parted with, it never can return. Your sisters will marry, and it will be gone for ever. If, indeed, it could be restored to our poor little boy—”

“Well, then, let something be done for them; but that something doesn’t have to be three thousand pounds. Think about it,” she added, “once the money is given away, it can never come back. Your sisters will get married, and it will be gone forever. If only it could be returned to our poor little boy—”

“Why, to be sure,” said her husband, very gravely, “that would make great difference. The time may come when Harry will regret that so large a sum was parted with. If he should have a numerous family, for instance, it would be a very convenient addition.”

“Of course,” her husband said seriously, “that would make a big difference. There may come a time when Harry will wish he hadn’t given up such a large amount. If he ends up with a big family, for example, it would be a really helpful boost.”

“To be sure it would.”

"Definitely would."

“Perhaps, then, it would be better for all parties, if the sum were diminished one half.—Five hundred pounds would be a prodigious increase to their fortunes!”

“Maybe it would be better for everyone if the amount were cut in half. Five hundred pounds would be an incredible boost to their fortunes!”

“Oh! beyond anything great! What brother on earth would do half so much for his sisters, even if really his sisters! And as it is—only half blood!—But you have such a generous spirit!”

“Oh! beyond anything amazing! What brother on earth would do even half as much for his sisters, even if they were truly his sisters! And as it is—only half siblings!—But you have such a generous spirit!”

“I would not wish to do any thing mean,” he replied. “One had rather, on such occasions, do too much than too little. No one, at least, can think I have not done enough for them: even themselves, they can hardly expect more.”

“I wouldn’t want to do anything petty,” he replied. “It’s better, in these situations, to do too much than too little. No one can think I haven’t done enough for them: even they can hardly expect more.”

“There is no knowing what they may expect,” said the lady, “but we are not to think of their expectations: the question is, what you can afford to do.”

“There’s no telling what they might expect,” said the lady, “but we shouldn’t worry about their expectations: the real question is what you can afford to do.”

“Certainly—and I think I may afford to give them five hundred pounds a-piece. As it is, without any addition of mine, they will each have about three thousand pounds on their mother’s death—a very comfortable fortune for any young woman.”

“Sure—I'm pretty sure I can give them five hundred pounds each. As it stands, without any extra from me, they'll each have about three thousand pounds when their mother passes away—a really nice amount for any young woman.”

“To be sure it is; and, indeed, it strikes me that they can want no addition at all. They will have ten thousand pounds divided amongst them. If they marry, they will be sure of doing well, and if they do not, they may all live very comfortably together on the interest of ten thousand pounds.”

"Of course it is; and honestly, I think they don't need anything more. They'll have ten thousand pounds shared among them. If they marry, they'll definitely be okay, and if they don't, they can all live quite comfortably together on the interest from ten thousand pounds."

“That is very true, and, therefore, I do not know whether, upon the whole, it would not be more advisable to do something for their mother while she lives, rather than for them—something of the annuity kind I mean.—My sisters would feel the good effects of it as well as herself. A hundred a year would make them all perfectly comfortable.”

“That’s very true, and because of that, I’m not sure if it wouldn’t be better to do something for their mother while she’s still alive, rather than for them—something like an annuity, I mean. My sisters would benefit from it just as much as she would. A hundred a year would make them all completely comfortable.”

His wife hesitated a little, however, in giving her consent to this plan.

His wife hesitated for a moment before agreeing to this plan.

“To be sure,” said she, “it is better than parting with fifteen hundred pounds at once. But, then, if Mrs. Dashwood should live fifteen years we shall be completely taken in.”

"Sure," she said, "it's better than giving up fifteen hundred pounds all at once. But if Mrs. Dashwood lives for fifteen more years, we’ll really be fooled."

“Fifteen years! my dear Fanny; her life cannot be worth half that purchase.”

“Fifteen years! My dear Fanny, her life can't be worth even half of that.”

“Certainly not; but if you observe, people always live for ever when there is an annuity to be paid them; and she is very stout and healthy, and hardly forty. An annuity is a very serious business; it comes over and over every year, and there is no getting rid of it. You are not aware of what you are doing. I have known a great deal of the trouble of annuities; for my mother was clogged with the payment of three to old superannuated servants by my father’s will, and it is amazing how disagreeable she found it. Twice every year these annuities were to be paid; and then there was the trouble of getting it to them; and then one of them was said to have died, and afterwards it turned out to be no such thing. My mother was quite sick of it. Her income was not her own, she said, with such perpetual claims on it; and it was the more unkind in my father, because, otherwise, the money would have been entirely at my mother’s disposal, without any restriction whatever. It has given me such an abhorrence of annuities, that I am sure I would not pin myself down to the payment of one for all the world.”

“Of course not; but if you notice, people always seem to live forever when there’s an annuity involved. She’s quite strong and healthy and barely forty. Annuities are a big deal; they come around every year without fail, and you can’t escape them. You don’t realize what you’re getting into. I’ve seen firsthand how troublesome annuities can be; my mother was burdened with paying three to retired servants according to my father’s will, and she found it incredibly frustrating. These annuities had to be paid twice a year, then there was the hassle of getting the money to them, and one of them was claimed to have died, only for it to later be revealed that it wasn't true at all. My mother was completely fed up with it. She used to say that her income wasn’t really hers with all these constant obligations on it; and it was especially cruel of my father, because if not for that, she would have had full control over the money, with no strings attached. It's given me such a strong dislike for annuities that I know I wouldn’t tie myself down to paying one for anything in the world.”

“It is certainly an unpleasant thing,” replied Mr. Dashwood, “to have those kind of yearly drains on one’s income. One’s fortune, as your mother justly says, is not one’s own. To be tied down to the regular payment of such a sum, on every rent day, is by no means desirable: it takes away one’s independence.”

“It’s definitely a frustrating thing,” replied Mr. Dashwood, “to have those kinds of yearly drains on your income. Your mother is right; your fortune is not entirely yours. Being stuck with the regular payment of such an amount every rent day is far from ideal: it strips away your independence.”

“Undoubtedly; and after all you have no thanks for it. They think themselves secure, you do no more than what is expected, and it raises no gratitude at all. If I were you, whatever I did should be done at my own discretion entirely. I would not bind myself to allow them any thing yearly. It may be very inconvenient some years to spare a hundred, or even fifty pounds from our own expenses.”

“Definitely; and you don’t get any appreciation for it. They believe they’re safe, you’re just doing what they expect, and it doesn’t inspire any gratitude at all. If I were in your position, I would make my own choices completely. I wouldn’t commit to giving them anything on a yearly basis. It could be really difficult some years to set aside a hundred, or even fifty pounds from our own expenses.”

“I believe you are right, my love; it will be better that there should be no annuity in the case; whatever I may give them occasionally will be of far greater assistance than a yearly allowance, because they would only enlarge their style of living if they felt sure of a larger income, and would not be sixpence the richer for it at the end of the year. It will certainly be much the best way. A present of fifty pounds, now and then, will prevent their ever being distressed for money, and will, I think, be amply discharging my promise to my father.”

“I think you’re right, my love; it’s better not to set up an annuity in this case. Whatever I give them occasionally will be much more helpful than a yearly allowance because they would just spend more if they felt guaranteed a larger income, and they wouldn't be any richer at the end of the year. This really is the best way. Giving them fifty pounds now and then will keep them from ever struggling for money, and I believe it will fully honor my promise to my father.”

“To be sure it will. Indeed, to say the truth, I am convinced within myself that your father had no idea of your giving them any money at all. The assistance he thought of, I dare say, was only such as might be reasonably expected of you; for instance, such as looking out for a comfortable small house for them, helping them to move their things, and sending them presents of fish and game, and so forth, whenever they are in season. I’ll lay my life that he meant nothing farther; indeed, it would be very strange and unreasonable if he did. Do but consider, my dear Mr. Dashwood, how excessively comfortable your mother-in-law and her daughters may live on the interest of seven thousand pounds, besides the thousand pounds belonging to each of the girls, which brings them in fifty pounds a year a-piece, and, of course, they will pay their mother for their board out of it. Altogether, they will have five hundred a-year amongst them, and what on earth can four women want for more than that?—They will live so cheap! Their housekeeping will be nothing at all. They will have no carriage, no horses, and hardly any servants; they will keep no company, and can have no expenses of any kind! Only conceive how comfortable they will be! Five hundred a year! I am sure I cannot imagine how they will spend half of it; and as to your giving them more, it is quite absurd to think of it. They will be much more able to give you something.”

"Of course it will. Honestly, I believe your father had no idea you would give them any money at all. The help he thought you might provide was likely just what could be reasonably expected from you; for example, finding them a nice small house, helping them to move their belongings, and sending them gifts of fish and game when it's in season. I bet he meant nothing more than that; it would be quite strange and unreasonable if he did. Just think about it, my dear Mr. Dashwood, how comfortably your mother-in-law and her daughters could live on the interest from seven thousand pounds, plus the thousand pounds each of the girls have, which brings them in fifty pounds a year each. Naturally, they'll pay their mother for their board from that. Altogether, they'll have five hundred a year among them, and what more could four women possibly want? They will live very cheaply! Their household expenses will be minimal. They won’t have a carriage or horses, and hardly any servants; they won't entertain guests, so there won't be any costs of that kind! Just imagine how comfortable they'll be! Five hundred a year! I truly can't see how they'll even spend half of it; and the thought of you giving them more is just ridiculous. They'll be much better off giving you something."

“Upon my word,” said Mr. Dashwood, “I believe you are perfectly right. My father certainly could mean nothing more by his request to me than what you say. I clearly understand it now, and I will strictly fulfil my engagement by such acts of assistance and kindness to them as you have described. When my mother removes into another house my services shall be readily given to accommodate her as far as I can. Some little present of furniture too may be acceptable then.”

“Honestly,” said Mr. Dashwood, “I think you’re completely right. My father definitely didn’t intend anything more by his request than what you’ve mentioned. I get it clearly now, and I’ll definitely keep my promise by helping them out with the acts of assistance and kindness you described. When my mother moves into another house, I’ll be more than happy to help her as much as I can. A small gift of furniture might be nice then too.”

“Certainly,” returned Mrs. John Dashwood. “But, however, one thing must be considered. When your father and mother moved to Norland, though the furniture of Stanhill was sold, all the china, plate, and linen was saved, and is now left to your mother. Her house will therefore be almost completely fitted up as soon as she takes it.”

“Of course,” replied Mrs. John Dashwood. “But one thing needs to be considered. When your father and mother moved to Norland, even though the furniture from Stanhill was sold, all the china, silverware, and linens were kept, and they are now left to your mother. Her house will therefore be nearly fully furnished as soon as she takes possession.”

“That is a material consideration undoubtedly. A valuable legacy indeed! And yet some of the plate would have been a very pleasant addition to our own stock here.”

"That’s definitely an important point. A valuable legacy for sure! But some of the silverware would have been a really nice addition to our collection here."

“Yes; and the set of breakfast china is twice as handsome as what belongs to this house. A great deal too handsome, in my opinion, for any place they can ever afford to live in. But, however, so it is. Your father thought only of them. And I must say this: that you owe no particular gratitude to him, nor attention to his wishes; for we very well know that if he could, he would have left almost everything in the world to them.”

“Yes, and the breakfast china set is twice as nice as what belongs to this house. It's way too nice, in my opinion, for any place they could ever afford to live in. But that's how it is. Your dad only thought about them. And I have to say this: you don't owe him any special gratitude or need to pay attention to his wishes; because we all know that if he could, he would have left almost everything in the world to them.”

This argument was irresistible. It gave to his intentions whatever of decision was wanting before; and he finally resolved, that it would be absolutely unnecessary, if not highly indecorous, to do more for the widow and children of his father, than such kind of neighbourly acts as his own wife pointed out.

This argument was hard to resist. It gave his intentions the firmness they lacked before, and he ultimately decided that it would be completely unnecessary, if not very inappropriate, to do anything more for his father's widow and children than the kind of neighborly gestures his wife suggested.

CHAPTER III.

Mrs. Dashwood remained at Norland several months; not from any disinclination to move when the sight of every well known spot ceased to raise the violent emotion which it produced for a while; for when her spirits began to revive, and her mind became capable of some other exertion than that of heightening its affliction by melancholy remembrances, she was impatient to be gone, and indefatigable in her inquiries for a suitable dwelling in the neighbourhood of Norland; for to remove far from that beloved spot was impossible. But she could hear of no situation that at once answered her notions of comfort and ease, and suited the prudence of her eldest daughter, whose steadier judgment rejected several houses as too large for their income, which her mother would have approved.

Mrs. Dashwood stayed at Norland for several months, not out of a lack of desire to leave once the intense emotions tied to familiar places began to fade. As her spirits started to lift and she felt ready to engage in something other than deepening her sadness with melancholic memories, she became eager to move and tirelessly searched for a suitable house near Norland since moving far from that cherished place was not an option. However, she couldn’t find a location that met her ideas of comfort and ease while also aligning with her eldest daughter’s practical judgment, which dismissed several houses as too big for their budget, even though her mother would have liked them.

Mrs. Dashwood had been informed by her husband of the solemn promise on the part of his son in their favour, which gave comfort to his last earthly reflections. She doubted the sincerity of this assurance no more than he had doubted it himself, and she thought of it for her daughters’ sake with satisfaction, though as for herself she was persuaded that a much smaller provision than 7000£ would support her in affluence. For their brother’s sake, too, for the sake of his own heart, she rejoiced; and she reproached herself for being unjust to his merit before, in believing him incapable of generosity. His attentive behaviour to herself and his sisters convinced her that their welfare was dear to him, and, for a long time, she firmly relied on the liberality of his intentions.

Mrs. Dashwood had been informed by her husband of the serious promise made by his son on their behalf, which provided comfort during his last moments. She didn’t doubt the sincerity of this promise any more than he had questioned it himself, and she thought about it with satisfaction for her daughters’ sake. As for herself, she was convinced that even a much smaller amount than £7000 would be enough to keep her comfortable. For her brother’s sake, and for his own happiness, she felt joy; and she scolded herself for doubting his kindness before, believing he was incapable of generosity. His attentive behavior towards her and his sisters assured her that their well-being mattered to him, and for a long time, she trusted in his generous intentions.

The contempt which she had, very early in their acquaintance, felt for her daughter-in-law, was very much increased by the farther knowledge of her character, which half a year’s residence in her family afforded; and perhaps in spite of every consideration of politeness or maternal affection on the side of the former, the two ladies might have found it impossible to have lived together so long, had not a particular circumstance occurred to give still greater eligibility, according to the opinions of Mrs. Dashwood, to her daughters’ continuance at Norland.

The disdain she initially felt for her daughter-in-law early in their acquaintance grew even stronger as she learned more about her character from the six months spent living with her family. And perhaps despite any efforts at politeness or maternal affection from her, the two women might have found it impossible to coexist for so long if it weren't for a specific situation that made Mrs. Dashwood believe her daughters had even more reason to stay at Norland.

This circumstance was a growing attachment between her eldest girl and the brother of Mrs. John Dashwood, a gentleman-like and pleasing young man, who was introduced to their acquaintance soon after his sister’s establishment at Norland, and who had since spent the greatest part of his time there.

This situation was creating a strong bond between her oldest daughter and the brother of Mrs. John Dashwood, a gentlemanly and charming young man, who was introduced to them soon after his sister settled at Norland, and who had since spent most of his time there.

Some mothers might have encouraged the intimacy from motives of interest, for Edward Ferrars was the eldest son of a man who had died very rich; and some might have repressed it from motives of prudence, for, except a trifling sum, the whole of his fortune depended on the will of his mother. But Mrs. Dashwood was alike uninfluenced by either consideration. It was enough for her that he appeared to be amiable, that he loved her daughter, and that Elinor returned the partiality. It was contrary to every doctrine of hers that difference of fortune should keep any couple asunder who were attracted by resemblance of disposition; and that Elinor’s merit should not be acknowledged by every one who knew her, was to her comprehension impossible.

Some mothers might have encouraged the closeness for their own gain since Edward Ferrars was the eldest son of a very wealthy man who had passed away; others might have discouraged it for practical reasons because, aside from a small amount, his entire fortune depended on his mother's will. But Mrs. Dashwood was not influenced by either concern. For her, it was enough that he seemed kind, that he loved her daughter, and that Elinor felt the same way. It went against everything she believed that differences in wealth should keep a couple apart if they were connected by similar personalities; to her, it was unthinkable that Elinor's worth wouldn't be recognized by everyone who knew her.

Edward Ferrars was not recommended to their good opinion by any peculiar graces of person or address. He was not handsome, and his manners required intimacy to make them pleasing. He was too diffident to do justice to himself; but when his natural shyness was overcome, his behaviour gave every indication of an open, affectionate heart. His understanding was good, and his education had given it solid improvement. But he was neither fitted by abilities nor disposition to answer the wishes of his mother and sister, who longed to see him distinguished—as—they hardly knew what. They wanted him to make a fine figure in the world in some manner or other. His mother wished to interest him in political concerns, to get him into parliament, or to see him connected with some of the great men of the day. Mrs. John Dashwood wished it likewise; but in the mean while, till one of these superior blessings could be attained, it would have quieted her ambition to see him driving a barouche. But Edward had no turn for great men or barouches. All his wishes centered in domestic comfort and the quiet of private life. Fortunately he had a younger brother who was more promising.

Edward Ferrars didn’t win people over with any special charm or good looks. He wasn’t handsome, and it took time for his manners to become appealing. He was too shy to show his best self, but once he got past his natural shyness, his behavior revealed a warm and loving heart. He had a good understanding, and his education had furthered his skills. However, he wasn’t suited by either talent or personality to meet the expectations of his mother and sister, who wanted to see him stand out—though they weren’t really sure how. They wished for him to make a name for himself in some way. His mother wanted him to take an interest in politics, get into parliament, or connect with some prominent figures of the time. Mrs. John Dashwood shared this desire; still, until one of these grand goals could be achieved, it would have satisfied her ambition to see him driving a fancy carriage. But Edward had no interest in big personalities or fancy carriages. His dreams revolved around a comfortable home life and the peace of a private existence. Luckily, he had a younger brother who showed more promise.

Edward had been staying several weeks in the house before he engaged much of Mrs. Dashwood’s attention; for she was, at that time, in such affliction as rendered her careless of surrounding objects. She saw only that he was quiet and unobtrusive, and she liked him for it. He did not disturb the wretchedness of her mind by ill-timed conversation. She was first called to observe and approve him farther, by a reflection which Elinor chanced one day to make on the difference between him and his sister. It was a contrast which recommended him most forcibly to her mother.

Edward had been staying at the house for several weeks before he caught much of Mrs. Dashwood’s attention because she was, at that time, dealing with such grief that she was oblivious to her surroundings. She noticed only that he was quiet and unassuming, and she appreciated that about him. He didn’t add to the anguish in her mind with inappropriate conversation. She was first prompted to notice and admire him more by a comment Elinor happened to make one day about the difference between him and his sister. It was a contrast that greatly appealed to her mother.

“It is enough,” said she; “to say that he is unlike Fanny is enough. It implies everything amiable. I love him already.”

“It’s enough,” she said; “just saying he’s not like Fanny is enough. It suggests everything wonderful. I already love him.”

“I think you will like him,” said Elinor, “when you know more of him.”

“I think you’ll like him,” Elinor said, “once you get to know him better.”

“Like him!” replied her mother with a smile. “I feel no sentiment of approbation inferior to love.”

“Like him!” her mother replied with a smile. “I feel no sense of approval that's less than love.”

“You may esteem him.”

"You might admire him."

“I have never yet known what it was to separate esteem and love.”

“I've never really understood how to separate respect and love.”

Mrs. Dashwood now took pains to get acquainted with him. Her manners were attaching, and soon banished his reserve. She speedily comprehended all his merits; the persuasion of his regard for Elinor perhaps assisted her penetration; but she really felt assured of his worth: and even that quietness of manner, which militated against all her established ideas of what a young man’s address ought to be, was no longer uninteresting when she knew his heart to be warm and his temper affectionate.

Mrs. Dashwood made a real effort to get to know him. Her friendly demeanor quickly put him at ease. She quickly understood all his qualities; the belief that he cared for Elinor might have helped her insight, but she was genuinely convinced of his worth. Even his calm demeanor, which clashed with her preconceived notions of how a young man should act, became interesting once she realized he had a warm heart and a loving nature.

No sooner did she perceive any symptom of love in his behaviour to Elinor, than she considered their serious attachment as certain, and looked forward to their marriage as rapidly approaching.

No sooner did she notice any sign of love in his behavior towards Elinor than she believed their serious connection was a done deal and anticipated their marriage as happening soon.

“In a few months, my dear Marianne,” said she, “Elinor will, in all probability be settled for life. We shall miss her; but she will be happy.”

“In a few months, my dear Marianne,” she said, “Elinor will probably be settled for life. We will miss her, but she will be happy.”

“Oh! Mama, how shall we do without her?”

“Oh! Mom, how are we going to get by without her?”

“My love, it will be scarcely a separation. We shall live within a few miles of each other, and shall meet every day of our lives. You will gain a brother, a real, affectionate brother. I have the highest opinion in the world of Edward’s heart. But you look grave, Marianne; do you disapprove your sister’s choice?”

“My love, it won’t be much of a separation. We’ll live just a few miles apart and will see each other every day. You’ll get a brother, a genuine, caring brother. I have the utmost respect for Edward’s heart. But you look serious, Marianne; do you not approve of your sister’s choice?”

“Perhaps,” said Marianne, “I may consider it with some surprise. Edward is very amiable, and I love him tenderly. But yet—he is not the kind of young man—there is something wanting—his figure is not striking; it has none of that grace which I should expect in the man who could seriously attach my sister. His eyes want all that spirit, that fire, which at once announce virtue and intelligence. And besides all this, I am afraid, Mama, he has no real taste. Music seems scarcely to attract him, and though he admires Elinor’s drawings very much, it is not the admiration of a person who can understand their worth. It is evident, in spite of his frequent attention to her while she draws, that in fact he knows nothing of the matter. He admires as a lover, not as a connoisseur. To satisfy me, those characters must be united. I could not be happy with a man whose taste did not in every point coincide with my own. He must enter into all my feelings; the same books, the same music must charm us both. Oh! mama, how spiritless, how tame was Edward’s manner in reading to us last night! I felt for my sister most severely. Yet she bore it with so much composure, she seemed scarcely to notice it. I could hardly keep my seat. To hear those beautiful lines which have frequently almost driven me wild, pronounced with such impenetrable calmness, such dreadful indifference!”

“Maybe,” said Marianne, “I'll think about it with some surprise. Edward is really nice, and I love him deeply. But still—he’s not the kind of guy—there’s something missing—his appearance is not impressive; it lacks the grace I’d expect in someone who could seriously win my sister’s heart. His eyes lack the spirit and fire that signal both virtue and intelligence. And besides all this, I’m worried, Mom, that he has no real taste. Music hardly seems to interest him, and although he really admires Elinor’s drawings, it’s not the admiration of someone who understands their value. It’s clear, despite his frequent attention to her while she draws, that he truly knows nothing about it. He admires as a lover, not as a connoisseur. To satisfy me, those qualities must come together. I couldn’t be happy with a man whose tastes don’t align with mine in every aspect. He has to understand all my feelings; the same books and the same music have to enchant us both. Oh! Mom, how dull and lifeless Edward was while reading to us last night! I felt so sorry for my sister. Yet she handled it with such composure, she barely seemed to notice. I could hardly stay in my seat. To hear those beautiful lines that have often driven me wild spoken with such impenetrable calmness, such awful indifference!”

“He would certainly have done more justice to simple and elegant prose. I thought so at the time; but you would give him Cowper.”

“He definitely would have done a better job with straightforward and classy writing. I believed that back then; but you would give him Cowper.”

“Nay, Mama, if he is not to be animated by Cowper!—but we must allow for difference of taste. Elinor has not my feelings, and therefore she may overlook it, and be happy with him. But it would have broke my heart, had I loved him, to hear him read with so little sensibility. Mama, the more I know of the world, the more am I convinced that I shall never see a man whom I can really love. I require so much! He must have all Edward’s virtues, and his person and manners must ornament his goodness with every possible charm.”

“No, Mom, if he isn’t inspired by Cowper!—but we have to consider that tastes differ. Elinor doesn’t feel the way I do, so she might ignore it and be happy with him. But it would have broken my heart, if I had loved him, to hear him read with so little sensitivity. Mom, the more I learn about the world, the more I'm convinced I’ll never find a man I can truly love. I want so much! He has to have all of Edward’s qualities, and his looks and manners need to enhance his goodness with every possible charm.”

“Remember, my love, that you are not seventeen. It is yet too early in life to despair of such a happiness. Why should you be less fortunate than your mother? In one circumstance only, my Marianne, may your destiny be different from hers!”

“Remember, my love, that you're not seventeen. It's still too early in life to give up on such happiness. Why should you be less lucky than your mother? In only one way, my Marianne, may your fate be different from hers!”

CHAPTER IV.

“What a pity it is, Elinor,” said Marianne, “that Edward should have no taste for drawing.”

“What a shame it is, Elinor,” said Marianne, “that Edward doesn't have any interest in drawing.”

“No taste for drawing!” replied Elinor, “why should you think so? He does not draw himself, indeed, but he has great pleasure in seeing the performances of other people, and I assure you he is by no means deficient in natural taste, though he has not had opportunities of improving it. Had he ever been in the way of learning, I think he would have drawn very well. He distrusts his own judgment in such matters so much, that he is always unwilling to give his opinion on any picture; but he has an innate propriety and simplicity of taste, which in general direct him perfectly right.”

“No interest in drawing!” replied Elinor, “why would you think that? He doesn’t draw himself, true, but he really enjoys watching other people’s work, and I assure you he definitely has a natural sense of taste, even though he hasn’t had the chance to develop it. If he had ever had the opportunity to learn, I believe he would have been quite good at it. He doesn't trust his own judgment in these matters at all, so he’s often reluctant to share his opinion on any artwork; however, he has an innate sense of propriety and simplicity in taste that usually guides him quite well.”

Marianne was afraid of offending, and said no more on the subject; but the kind of approbation which Elinor described as excited in him by the drawings of other people, was very far from that rapturous delight, which, in her opinion, could alone be called taste. Yet, though smiling within herself at the mistake, she honoured her sister for that blind partiality to Edward which produced it.

Marianne was worried about causing offense and didn’t say anything else about it; however, the kind of approval that Elinor said was stirred in him by other people's drawings was nowhere near the ecstatic joy that, in her view, could truly be called taste. Still, while she smiled to herself at the misunderstanding, she respected her sister for her unthinking favoritism towards Edward that led to it.

“I hope, Marianne,” continued Elinor, “you do not consider him as deficient in general taste. Indeed, I think I may say that you cannot, for your behaviour to him is perfectly cordial, and if that were your opinion, I am sure you could never be civil to him.”

“I hope, Marianne,” Elinor continued, “you don’t think he lacks general taste. Honestly, I believe I can say that you don’t, because your behavior towards him is completely friendly, and if that were your opinion, I’m sure you could never be polite to him.”

Marianne hardly knew what to say. She would not wound the feelings of her sister on any account, and yet to say what she did not believe was impossible. At length she replied:

Marianne barely knew what to say. She didn't want to hurt her sister's feelings at all, but it was impossible to say something she didn't believe. Finally, she answered:

“Do not be offended, Elinor, if my praise of him is not in every thing equal to your sense of his merits. I have not had so many opportunities of estimating the minuter propensities of his mind, his inclinations and tastes, as you have; but I have the highest opinion in the world of his goodness and sense. I think him every thing that is worthy and amiable.”

“Don’t take it the wrong way, Elinor, if my praise of him doesn’t completely match your view of his merits. I haven’t had as many chances to understand the finer details of his character, his interests, and preferences, as you have; but I have the utmost respect for his kindness and intelligence. I see him as everything that is admirable and lovable.”

“I am sure,” replied Elinor, with a smile, “that his dearest friends could not be dissatisfied with such commendation as that. I do not perceive how you could express yourself more warmly.”

“I’m sure,” replied Elinor, smiling, “that his closest friends couldn’t be unhappy with such praise as that. I don’t see how you could express yourself more warmly.”

Marianne was rejoiced to find her sister so easily pleased.

Marianne was thrilled to see her sister so easily satisfied.

“Of his sense and his goodness,” continued Elinor, “no one can, I think, be in doubt, who has seen him often enough to engage him in unreserved conversation. The excellence of his understanding and his principles can be concealed only by that shyness which too often keeps him silent. You know enough of him to do justice to his solid worth. But of his minuter propensities, as you call them you have from peculiar circumstances been kept more ignorant than myself. He and I have been at times thrown a good deal together, while you have been wholly engrossed on the most affectionate principle by my mother. I have seen a great deal of him, have studied his sentiments and heard his opinion on subjects of literature and taste; and, upon the whole, I venture to pronounce that his mind is well-informed, enjoyment of books exceedingly great, his imagination lively, his observation just and correct, and his taste delicate and pure. His abilities in every respect improve as much upon acquaintance as his manners and person. At first sight, his address is certainly not striking; and his person can hardly be called handsome, till the expression of his eyes, which are uncommonly good, and the general sweetness of his countenance, is perceived. At present, I know him so well, that I think him really handsome; or at least, almost so. What say you, Marianne?”

“Of his intelligence and kindness,” Elinor continued, “I don’t think anyone can doubt who has spent enough time with him to have an open conversation. His great understanding and strong principles can only be hidden by his shyness, which often keeps him quiet. You know enough about him to appreciate his true worth. But about his more subtle tendencies, as you put it, you’ve been less aware than I due to certain circumstances. He and I have spent quite a bit of time together while you have been completely devoted to my mother. I’ve learned a lot from him, studied his views, and heard his thoughts on literature and art; and overall, I dare say his mind is well-informed, his love for books is immense, his imagination vibrant, his observations sharp and accurate, and his taste refined and genuine. His abilities shine even brighter as you get to know him, just like his manners and appearance. At first glance, his manner isn’t particularly impressive, and it’s hard to say he’s handsome until you notice the expressiveness of his eyes, which are exceptionally nice, and the overall gentleness of his face. At this point, I know him so well that I think he’s actually handsome, or at least nearly so. What do you think, Marianne?”

“I shall very soon think him handsome, Elinor, if I do not now. When you tell me to love him as a brother, I shall no more see imperfection in his face, than I now do in his heart.”

“I'll soon find him handsome, Elinor, if I don’t already. When you tell me to love him like a brother, I won't see any flaws in his face, just like I don’t see any in his heart.”

Elinor started at this declaration, and was sorry for the warmth she had been betrayed into, in speaking of him. She felt that Edward stood very high in her opinion. She believed the regard to be mutual; but she required greater certainty of it to make Marianne’s conviction of their attachment agreeable to her. She knew that what Marianne and her mother conjectured one moment, they believed the next—that with them, to wish was to hope, and to hope was to expect. She tried to explain the real state of the case to her sister.

Elinor was taken aback by this statement and regretted the enthusiasm she had shown while talking about him. She realized that Edward was held in high regard by her. She thought their feelings were likely mutual, but she needed more confirmation for Marianne’s belief in their connection to be comfortable for her. She understood that what Marianne and their mother speculated one moment, they firmly believed the next—that for them, to wish was to hope, and to hope was to expect. She tried to clarify the true situation to her sister.

“I do not attempt to deny,” said she, “that I think very highly of him—that I greatly esteem, that I like him.”

“I’m not trying to deny,” she said, “that I think very highly of him—that I hold him in great esteem, that I like him.”

Marianne here burst forth with indignation—

Marianne suddenly blew up with anger—

“Esteem him! Like him! Cold-hearted Elinor! Oh! worse than cold-hearted! Ashamed of being otherwise. Use those words again, and I will leave the room this moment.”

“Respect him! Like him! Heartless Elinor! Oh! even worse than heartless! Ashamed of being anything else. Say those words again, and I will walk out of this room right now.”

Elinor could not help laughing. “Excuse me,” said she; “and be assured that I meant no offence to you, by speaking, in so quiet a way, of my own feelings. Believe them to be stronger than I have declared; believe them, in short, to be such as his merit, and the suspicion—the hope of his affection for me may warrant, without imprudence or folly. But farther than this you must not believe. I am by no means assured of his regard for me. There are moments when the extent of it seems doubtful; and till his sentiments are fully known, you cannot wonder at my wishing to avoid any encouragement of my own partiality, by believing or calling it more than it is. In my heart I feel little—scarcely any doubt of his preference. But there are other points to be considered besides his inclination. He is very far from being independent. What his mother really is we cannot know; but, from Fanny’s occasional mention of her conduct and opinions, we have never been disposed to think her amiable; and I am very much mistaken if Edward is not himself aware that there would be many difficulties in his way, if he were to wish to marry a woman who had not either a great fortune or high rank.”

Elinor couldn't help but laugh. “Excuse me,” she said; “and please understand that I meant no offense by speaking so calmly about my own feelings. Believe me, they're stronger than I've said; trust me, they are, in short, what his qualities and the suspicion—the hope—that he might care for me suggests, without being reckless or foolish. But apart from that, you must not take it as anything more. I'm not at all sure of his feelings for me. There are moments when I'm uncertain about the extent of it; and until I know what he really thinks, you can't blame me for wanting to avoid encouraging my own feelings by thinking or calling them more than they are. In my heart, I feel very little—hardly any doubt about his preference. But there are other factors to consider beyond his feelings. He's far from being independent. We can’t really know what his mother is like, but from Fanny’s occasional comments about her behavior and views, we’ve never thought of her as likable; and I'm quite sure that Edward himself realizes there would be many obstacles if he wanted to marry a woman who didn't have either a large fortune or high status.”

Marianne was astonished to find how much the imagination of her mother and herself had outstripped the truth.

Marianne was amazed to see how much her and her mother's imagination had exceeded reality.

“And you really are not engaged to him!” said she. “Yet it certainly soon will happen. But two advantages will proceed from this delay. I shall not lose you so soon, and Edward will have greater opportunity of improving that natural taste for your favourite pursuit which must be so indispensably necessary to your future felicity. Oh! if he should be so far stimulated by your genius as to learn to draw himself, how delightful it would be!”

“And you really aren’t engaged to him!” she said. “But it will definitely happen soon. However, this delay will have two benefits. I won’t lose you so quickly, and Edward will have a better chance to develop his natural interest in your favorite hobby, which is so essential for your future happiness. Oh! If he gets inspired by your talent and learns to draw himself, how wonderful that would be!”

Elinor had given her real opinion to her sister. She could not consider her partiality for Edward in so prosperous a state as Marianne had believed it. There was, at times, a want of spirits about him which, if it did not denote indifference, spoke of something almost as unpromising. A doubt of her regard, supposing him to feel it, need not give him more than inquietude. It would not be likely to produce that dejection of mind which frequently attended him. A more reasonable cause might be found in the dependent situation which forbade the indulgence of his affection. She knew that his mother neither behaved to him so as to make his home comfortable at present, nor to give him any assurance that he might form a home for himself, without strictly attending to her views for his aggrandizement. With such a knowledge as this, it was impossible for Elinor to feel easy on the subject. She was far from depending on that result of his preference of her, which her mother and sister still considered as certain. Nay, the longer they were together the more doubtful seemed the nature of his regard; and sometimes, for a few painful minutes, she believed it to be no more than friendship.

Elinor had shared her true feelings with her sister. She couldn't see her fondness for Edward as the strong bond that Marianne believed it to be. At times, he seemed downcast, which, if it didn’t show indifference, hinted at something equally discouraging. If he had any doubts about her feelings, it might only cause him anxiety, but it wouldn’t likely lead to the deep sadness he often experienced. A more logical reason for his state could be his dependent situation, which prevented him from fully expressing his feelings. She understood that his mother didn’t treat him in a way that made home feel comfortable, nor did she give him any assurance that he could establish a home for himself without strictly following her plans for his success. With this understanding, Elinor found it impossible to feel at ease about the situation. She was far from being confident in the outcome of his feelings for her, which her mother and sister still viewed as guaranteed. In fact, the longer they were together, the more uncertain she became about the nature of his feelings; and sometimes, for a few painful moments, she feared it was nothing more than friendship.

But, whatever might really be its limits, it was enough, when perceived by his sister, to make her uneasy, and at the same time, (which was still more common,) to make her uncivil. She took the first opportunity of affronting her mother-in-law on the occasion, talking to her so expressively of her brother’s great expectations, of Mrs. Ferrars’s resolution that both her sons should marry well, and of the danger attending any young woman who attempted to draw him in; that Mrs. Dashwood could neither pretend to be unconscious, nor endeavor to be calm. She gave her an answer which marked her contempt, and instantly left the room, resolving that, whatever might be the inconvenience or expense of so sudden a removal, her beloved Elinor should not be exposed another week to such insinuations.

But whatever its actual limits were, it was enough to make his sister uneasy, and even more commonly, to make her rude. She seized the first chance to insult her mother-in-law, speaking so pointedly about her brother’s high hopes, Mrs. Ferrars’s determination that both her sons should marry well, and the risks for any young woman who tried to draw him in; that Mrs. Dashwood could neither pretend to be unaware nor try to stay calm. She replied in a way that showed her disdain and immediately left the room, deciding that regardless of the inconvenience or cost of such a sudden move, her beloved Elinor wouldn’t be exposed to those insinuations for another week.

In this state of her spirits, a letter was delivered to her from the post, which contained a proposal particularly well timed. It was the offer of a small house, on very easy terms, belonging to a relation of her own, a gentleman of consequence and property in Devonshire. The letter was from this gentleman himself, and written in the true spirit of friendly accommodation. He understood that she was in need of a dwelling; and though the house he now offered her was merely a cottage, he assured her that everything should be done to it which she might think necessary, if the situation pleased her. He earnestly pressed her, after giving the particulars of the house and garden, to come with her daughters to Barton Park, the place of his own residence, from whence she might judge, herself, whether Barton Cottage, for the houses were in the same parish, could, by any alteration, be made comfortable to her. He seemed really anxious to accommodate them and the whole of his letter was written in so friendly a style as could not fail of giving pleasure to his cousin; more especially at a moment when she was suffering under the cold and unfeeling behaviour of her nearer connections. She needed no time for deliberation or inquiry. Her resolution was formed as she read. The situation of Barton, in a county so far distant from Sussex as Devonshire, which, but a few hours before, would have been a sufficient objection to outweigh every possible advantage belonging to the place, was now its first recommendation. To quit the neighbourhood of Norland was no longer an evil; it was an object of desire; it was a blessing, in comparison of the misery of continuing her daughter-in-law’s guest; and to remove for ever from that beloved place would be less painful than to inhabit or visit it while such a woman was its mistress. She instantly wrote Sir John Middleton her acknowledgment of his kindness, and her acceptance of his proposal; and then hastened to show both letters to her daughters, that she might be secure of their approbation before her answer were sent.

Feeling the way she did, a letter arrived for her in the mail, and it contained a proposal that was perfectly timed. It was the offer of a small house, on very easy terms, from a relative of hers, a man of significance and wealth in Devonshire. The letter was from him, written in a truly friendly manner. He understood that she needed a place to live; although the house he was offering was just a cottage, he promised that everything would be done to it that she thought necessary, if she liked the location. He strongly encouraged her, after detailing the specifics of the house and garden, to come with her daughters to Barton Park, where he lived, so she could see for herself if Barton Cottage, which was in the same parish, could be made comfortable for her. He seemed genuinely concerned about accommodating them, and his whole letter had such a friendly tone that it couldn't help but please his cousin, especially at a time when she was going through the cold and unfeeling behavior of her closer relatives. She didn't need any time to think it over or ask questions. Her decision was made as she read. The location of Barton, so far away from Sussex in Devonshire, which just a few hours earlier would have been a major drawback that outweighed any possible benefits, was now its biggest selling point. Leaving the Norland area was no longer bad; it was something she wanted. It was a relief compared to the misery of being a guest in her daughter-in-law's house, and leaving that beloved place forever felt less painful than living in it or visiting it while that woman was in charge. She quickly wrote to Sir John Middleton to thank him for his kindness and accept his offer; then she rushed to show both letters to her daughters so she could be sure they approved before sending her reply.

Elinor had always thought it would be more prudent for them to settle at some distance from Norland, than immediately amongst their present acquaintance. On that head, therefore, it was not for her to oppose her mother’s intention of removing into Devonshire. The house, too, as described by Sir John, was on so simple a scale, and the rent so uncommonly moderate, as to leave her no right of objection on either point; and, therefore, though it was not a plan which brought any charm to her fancy, though it was a removal from the vicinity of Norland beyond her wishes, she made no attempt to dissuade her mother from sending a letter of acquiescence.

Elinor had always thought it would be wiser for them to move a bit further away from Norland, rather than right among their current acquaintances. So, on that front, she felt it wasn’t her place to oppose her mother’s plan to relocate to Devonshire. The house, as described by Sir John, was quite simple, and the rent was unusually reasonable, leaving her with no grounds for objections on either point. Therefore, even though the idea didn’t really appeal to her, and it was a move away from Norland that she didn't want, she made no effort to talk her mother out of sending a letter agreeing to the plan.

CHAPTER V.

No sooner was her answer dispatched, than Mrs. Dashwood indulged herself in the pleasure of announcing to her son-in-law and his wife that she was provided with a house, and should incommode them no longer than till every thing were ready for her inhabiting it. They heard her with surprise. Mrs. John Dashwood said nothing; but her husband civilly hoped that she would not be settled far from Norland. She had great satisfaction in replying that she was going into Devonshire.—Edward turned hastily towards her, on hearing this, and, in a voice of surprise and concern, which required no explanation to her, repeated, “Devonshire! Are you, indeed, going there? So far from hence! And to what part of it?” She explained the situation. It was within four miles northward of Exeter.

No sooner had she sent her response than Mrs. Dashwood took pleasure in telling her son-in-law and his wife that she had found a house and would only be inconveniencing them until everything was ready for her to move in. They were surprised to hear this. Mrs. John Dashwood didn't say anything, but her husband politely hoped she wouldn't be settling too far from Norland. Mrs. Dashwood replied with satisfaction that she was moving to Devonshire. Edward turned to her quickly, and in a voice filled with surprise and concern that needed no explanation, he repeated, “Devonshire! Are you really going there? That’s so far away! Where exactly?” She explained the location. It was about four miles north of Exeter.

“It is but a cottage,” she continued, “but I hope to see many of my friends in it. A room or two can easily be added; and if my friends find no difficulty in travelling so far to see me, I am sure I will find none in accommodating them.”

“It’s just a cottage,” she continued, “but I hope to host many of my friends there. We can easily add a room or two; and if my friends don’t have any trouble traveling that far to visit me, I’m sure I won’t have any trouble making space for them.”

She concluded with a very kind invitation to Mr. and Mrs. John Dashwood to visit her at Barton; and to Edward she gave one with still greater affection. Though her late conversation with her daughter-in-law had made her resolve on remaining at Norland no longer than was unavoidable, it had not produced the smallest effect on her in that point to which it principally tended. To separate Edward and Elinor was as far from being her object as ever; and she wished to show Mrs. John Dashwood, by this pointed invitation to her brother, how totally she disregarded her disapprobation of the match.

She wrapped up with a really nice invitation for Mr. and Mrs. John Dashwood to come visit her at Barton; and she extended one to Edward with even more warmth. Even though her recent talk with her daughter-in-law had made her decide to stay at Norland only as long as necessary, it hadn’t changed her main goal at all. She still absolutely wanted to keep Edward and Elinor together, and she aimed to show Mrs. John Dashwood, through this specific invitation to her brother, how completely she ignored her disapproval of the relationship.

Mr. John Dashwood told his mother again and again how exceedingly sorry he was that she had taken a house at such a distance from Norland as to prevent his being of any service to her in removing her furniture. He really felt conscientiously vexed on the occasion; for the very exertion to which he had limited the performance of his promise to his father was by this arrangement rendered impracticable.—The furniture was all sent around by water. It chiefly consisted of household linen, plate, china, and books, with a handsome pianoforte of Marianne’s. Mrs. John Dashwood saw the packages depart with a sigh: she could not help feeling it hard that as Mrs. Dashwood’s income would be so trifling in comparison with their own, she should have any handsome article of furniture.

Mr. John Dashwood kept telling his mother how truly sorry he was that she had chosen a house so far from Norland that he couldn't help her move her furniture. He actually felt genuinely troubled about it because the effort he had promised his father could not be fulfilled due to this situation. The furniture was all shipped by water. It mainly included household linens, silverware, china, and books, along with a nice piano that belonged to Marianne. Mrs. John Dashwood watched the packages leave with a sigh; she couldn't help but think it was unfair that, since Mrs. Dashwood's income would be so much lower than theirs, she should have any nice piece of furniture.

Mrs. Dashwood took the house for a twelvemonth; it was ready furnished, and she might have immediate possession. No difficulty arose on either side in the agreement; and she waited only for the disposal of her effects at Norland, and to determine her future household, before she set off for the west; and this, as she was exceedingly rapid in the performance of everything that interested her, was soon done.—The horses which were left her by her husband had been sold soon after his death, and an opportunity now offering of disposing of her carriage, she agreed to sell that likewise at the earnest advice of her eldest daughter. For the comfort of her children, had she consulted only her own wishes, she would have kept it; but the discretion of Elinor prevailed. Her wisdom too limited the number of their servants to three; two maids and a man, with whom they were speedily provided from amongst those who had formed their establishment at Norland.

Mrs. Dashwood rented the house for a year; it was fully furnished, and she could move in right away. There were no issues with the agreement, and she just needed to sort out her belongings at Norland and decide on her future household before heading west. Since she was really quick to take care of things that mattered to her, that process was finished in no time. The horses left to her by her husband had been sold shortly after his death, and when the chance came up to sell her carriage, she decided to sell that too at the strong suggestion of her oldest daughter. For the sake of her kids, if she had only thought about her own preferences, she would have kept it; but Elinor's sensible advice won out. Her wisdom also meant they would only have three servants: two maids and a man, who they quickly hired from those who had been part of their staff at Norland.

The man and one of the maids were sent off immediately into Devonshire, to prepare the house for their mistress’s arrival; for as Lady Middleton was entirely unknown to Mrs. Dashwood, she preferred going directly to the cottage to being a visitor at Barton Park; and she relied so undoubtingly on Sir John’s description of the house, as to feel no curiosity to examine it herself till she entered it as her own. Her eagerness to be gone from Norland was preserved from diminution by the evident satisfaction of her daughter-in-law in the prospect of her removal; a satisfaction which was but feebly attempted to be concealed under a cold invitation to her to defer her departure. Now was the time when her son-in-law’s promise to his father might with particular propriety be fulfilled. Since he had neglected to do it on first coming to the estate, their quitting his house might be looked on as the most suitable period for its accomplishment. But Mrs. Dashwood began shortly to give over every hope of the kind, and to be convinced, from the general drift of his discourse, that his assistance extended no farther than their maintenance for six months at Norland. He so frequently talked of the increasing expenses of housekeeping, and of the perpetual demands upon his purse, which a man of any consequence in the world was beyond calculation exposed to, that he seemed rather to stand in need of more money himself than to have any design of giving money away.

The man and one of the maids were immediately sent off to Devonshire to get the house ready for their mistress's arrival. Since Lady Middleton was entirely unknown to Mrs. Dashwood, she preferred to go straight to the cottage rather than visit Barton Park. She felt so confident in Sir John’s description of the house that she didn’t feel the need to check it out for herself until she entered it as her own. Her eagerness to leave Norland was only strengthened by the clear satisfaction of her daughter-in-law at the thought of her moving away, a satisfaction that was only weakly masked by a chilly invitation to delay her departure. Now was the perfect time for her son-in-law to fulfill his promise to his father. Since he had neglected to do it when he first arrived at the estate, their leaving his house seemed like the most appropriate moment for him to act. But Mrs. Dashwood quickly began to lose hope of that happening and realized from the general tone of his conversations that his support only extended to covering their maintenance for six months at Norland. He often talked about the rising costs of running a household and the constant financial demands placed on him, which any man of significance in the world would face, suggesting he needed more money himself rather than intending to give any away.

In a very few weeks from the day which brought Sir John Middleton’s first letter to Norland, every thing was so far settled in their future abode as to enable Mrs. Dashwood and her daughters to begin their journey.

In just a few weeks from the day Sir John Middleton's first letter arrived at Norland, everything was settled enough in their new home for Mrs. Dashwood and her daughters to start their journey.

Many were the tears shed by them in their last adieus to a place so much beloved. “Dear, dear Norland!” said Marianne, as she wandered alone before the house, on the last evening of their being there; “when shall I cease to regret you!—when learn to feel a home elsewhere!—Oh! happy house, could you know what I suffer in now viewing you from this spot, from whence perhaps I may view you no more!—And you, ye well-known trees!—but you will continue the same.—No leaf will decay because we are removed, nor any branch become motionless although we can observe you no longer!—No; you will continue the same; unconscious of the pleasure or the regret you occasion, and insensible of any change in those who walk under your shade!—But who will remain to enjoy you?”

Many tears were shed as they said their goodbyes to a place so dearly loved. “Oh, dear Norland!” Marianne said, wandering alone in front of the house on their last evening there. “When will I stop regretting you? When will I learn to feel at home somewhere else? Oh, happy house, if only you knew the pain I feel as I look at you from this spot, from where I might never see you again! And you, familiar trees!—but you will stay the same. No leaf will wither just because we are gone, and no branch will become still even though we can’t see you anymore! No; you will remain the same, unaware of the joy or sadness you bring, and unaffected by any changes in those who walk in your shade! But who will be here to appreciate you?”

CHAPTER VI.

The first part of their journey was performed in too melancholy a disposition to be otherwise than tedious and unpleasant. But as they drew towards the end of it, their interest in the appearance of a country which they were to inhabit overcame their dejection, and a view of Barton Valley as they entered it gave them cheerfulness. It was a pleasant fertile spot, well wooded, and rich in pasture. After winding along it for more than a mile, they reached their own house. A small green court was the whole of its demesne in front; and a neat wicket gate admitted them into it.

The first part of their journey was filled with too much sadness to be anything but dull and unpleasant. But as they neared the end, their excitement about the new place they would live in lifted their spirits, and seeing Barton Valley as they entered it brought them joy. It was a lovely, fertile area, well-wooded, and full of pasture. After winding through it for over a mile, they arrived at their own house. A small green courtyard was all they had in front, and a tidy little gate welcomed them inside.

As a house, Barton Cottage, though small, was comfortable and compact; but as a cottage it was defective, for the building was regular, the roof was tiled, the window shutters were not painted green, nor were the walls covered with honeysuckles. A narrow passage led directly through the house into the garden behind. On each side of the entrance was a sitting room, about sixteen feet square; and beyond them were the offices and the stairs. Four bed-rooms and two garrets formed the rest of the house. It had not been built many years and was in good repair. In comparison of Norland, it was poor and small indeed!—but the tears which recollection called forth as they entered the house were soon dried away. They were cheered by the joy of the servants on their arrival, and each for the sake of the others resolved to appear happy. It was very early in September; the season was fine, and from first seeing the place under the advantage of good weather, they received an impression in its favour which was of material service in recommending it to their lasting approbation.

As a house, Barton Cottage was cozy and compact, even though it was small; but as a cottage, it had its flaws. The building was neat, the roof had tiles, the window shutters weren't painted green, and the walls weren't covered in honeysuckle. A narrow hallway led straight through the house to the garden out back. On either side of the entrance was a sitting room, about sixteen feet across; beyond those were the utility rooms and the stairs. Four bedrooms and two attics made up the rest of the house. It hadn't been built long and was in good condition. Compared to Norland, it was indeed modest and small!—but the tears that memories brought as they stepped inside were quickly wiped away. They were lifted by the excitement of the staff upon their arrival, and each of them, for the others' sake, decided to look happy. It was very early September; the weather was nice, and seeing the place in good conditions left a positive impression that would help them appreciate it in the long run.

The situation of the house was good. High hills rose immediately behind, and at no great distance on each side; some of which were open downs, the others cultivated and woody. The village of Barton was chiefly on one of these hills, and formed a pleasant view from the cottage windows. The prospect in front was more extensive; it commanded the whole of the valley, and reached into the country beyond. The hills which surrounded the cottage terminated the valley in that direction; under another name, and in another course, it branched out again between two of the steepest of them.

The location of the house was great. High hills rose right behind it, and not too far away on each side; some were open fields, while others were farmed and covered in trees. The village of Barton was mainly on one of these hills, making for a nice view from the cottage windows. The view in front was even broader; it overlooked the entire valley and extended into the countryside beyond. The hills surrounding the cottage marked the end of the valley in that direction; under a different name and along a different path, it split off again between two of the steepest hills.

With the size and furniture of the house Mrs. Dashwood was upon the whole well satisfied; for though her former style of life rendered many additions to the latter indispensable, yet to add and improve was a delight to her; and she had at this time ready money enough to supply all that was wanted of greater elegance to the apartments. “As for the house itself, to be sure,” said she, “it is too small for our family, but we will make ourselves tolerably comfortable for the present, as it is too late in the year for improvements. Perhaps in the spring, if I have plenty of money, as I dare say I shall, we may think about building. These parlors are both too small for such parties of our friends as I hope to see often collected here; and I have some thoughts of throwing the passage into one of them with perhaps a part of the other, and so leave the remainder of that other for an entrance; this, with a new drawing room which may be easily added, and a bed-chamber and garret above, will make it a very snug little cottage. I could wish the stairs were handsome. But one must not expect every thing; though I suppose it would be no difficult matter to widen them. I shall see how much I am before-hand with the world in the spring, and we will plan our improvements accordingly.”

Mrs. Dashwood was generally pleased with the size and furnishings of the house. Although her previous lifestyle required many upgrades, she found joy in adding and improving. At that moment, she had enough cash to enhance the rooms with more elegance. “As for the house itself, it is indeed too small for our family,” she said, “but we'll manage to be fairly comfortable for now since it’s too late in the year for renovations. Maybe in the spring, if I have enough money—which I’m sure I will—we can consider building. These living rooms are both too small for the gatherings of friends I hope to host regularly, and I’m thinking of connecting one of them to the hallway, perhaps combining part of the other one, leaving enough space for an entrance. With this, a new drawing room could be easily added, along with a bedroom and attic above, making it a cozy little cottage. I wish the stairs were nicer, but we can’t expect everything. Still, it wouldn’t be too hard to widen them. I’ll see how ahead of things I am in the spring, and we can plan our upgrades from there.”

In the mean time, till all these alterations could be made from the savings of an income of five hundred a-year by a woman who never saved in her life, they were wise enough to be contented with the house as it was; and each of them was busy in arranging their particular concerns, and endeavoring, by placing around them books and other possessions, to form themselves a home. Marianne’s pianoforte was unpacked and properly disposed of; and Elinor’s drawings were affixed to the walls of their sitting room.

In the meantime, until all these changes could be made with the savings from an income of five hundred a year by a woman who had never saved in her life, they were smart enough to be content with the house as it was; and each of them was busy sorting out their personal belongings and trying to create a home by surrounding themselves with books and other items. Marianne’s piano was unpacked and arranged, and Elinor’s drawings were hung on the walls of their living room.

In such employments as these they were interrupted soon after breakfast the next day by the entrance of their landlord, who called to welcome them to Barton, and to offer them every accommodation from his own house and garden in which theirs might at present be deficient. Sir John Middleton was a good looking man about forty. He had formerly visited at Stanhill, but it was too long for his young cousins to remember him. His countenance was thoroughly good-humoured; and his manners were as friendly as the style of his letter. Their arrival seemed to afford him real satisfaction, and their comfort to be an object of real solicitude to him. He said much of his earnest desire of their living in the most sociable terms with his family, and pressed them so cordially to dine at Barton Park every day till they were better settled at home, that, though his entreaties were carried to a point of perseverance beyond civility, they could not give offence. His kindness was not confined to words; for within an hour after he left them, a large basket full of garden stuff and fruit arrived from the park, which was followed before the end of the day by a present of game. He insisted, moreover, on conveying all their letters to and from the post for them, and would not be denied the satisfaction of sending them his newspaper every day.

After breakfast the next day, they were soon interrupted by their landlord, who came to welcome them to Barton and offer them any help they needed from his house and garden. Sir John Middleton was an attractive man in his forties. He had visited Stanhill before, but it was too long ago for his young cousins to remember him. His face was always cheerful, and his manner was as friendly as his letter. Their arrival seemed to genuinely please him, and he appeared to care about their comfort. He expressed a strong desire for them to get along well with his family and warmly invited them to dinner at Barton Park every day until they settled in better. Although his persistence went beyond what was polite, it didn’t offend them. His kindness extended beyond just words; within an hour of leaving them, a large basket filled with fresh produce and fruit arrived from the park, followed later in the day by a gift of game. He also insisted on taking care of all their letters to and from the post, and wouldn’t take no for an answer when it came to sending them his newspaper every day.

Lady Middleton had sent a very civil message by him, denoting her intention of waiting on Mrs. Dashwood as soon as she could be assured that her visit would be no inconvenience; and as this message was answered by an invitation equally polite, her ladyship was introduced to them the next day.

Lady Middleton had sent a very polite message through him, indicating her desire to visit Mrs. Dashwood as soon as she could be sure that it wouldn’t be a bother; and since this message was met with an equally polite invitation, her ladyship was introduced to them the next day.

They were, of course, very anxious to see a person on whom so much of their comfort at Barton must depend; and the elegance of her appearance was favourable to their wishes. Lady Middleton was not more than six or seven and twenty; her face was handsome, her figure tall and striking, and her address graceful. Her manners had all the elegance which her husband’s wanted. But they would have been improved by some share of his frankness and warmth; and her visit was long enough to detract something from their first admiration, by showing that, though perfectly well-bred, she was reserved, cold, and had nothing to say for herself beyond the most common-place inquiry or remark.

They were, of course, very eager to meet someone on whom so much of their comfort at Barton would depend, and the elegance of her appearance worked in their favor. Lady Middleton was only in her late twenties; she had a beautiful face, a tall and striking figure, and a graceful way of carrying herself. Her manners had all the sophistication that her husband lacked. However, they would have been better if she had some of his openness and warmth; her visit lasted long enough to lessen their initial admiration by revealing that, though she was well-mannered, she was also reserved, cold, and had nothing to say for herself beyond the most ordinary questions or comments.

Conversation however was not wanted, for Sir John was very chatty, and Lady Middleton had taken the wise precaution of bringing with her their eldest child, a fine little boy about six years old, by which means there was one subject always to be recurred to by the ladies in case of extremity, for they had to enquire his name and age, admire his beauty, and ask him questions which his mother answered for him, while he hung about her and held down his head, to the great surprise of her ladyship, who wondered at his being so shy before company, as he could make noise enough at home. On every formal visit a child ought to be of the party, by way of provision for discourse. In the present case it took up ten minutes to determine whether the boy were most like his father or mother, and in what particular he resembled either, for of course every body differed, and every body was astonished at the opinion of the others.

Conversation wasn’t necessary, since Sir John was very talkative, and Lady Middleton had wisely brought along their oldest child, a charming little boy about six years old. This ensured there was always a topic for the ladies to discuss in case of awkwardness. They had to ask about his name and age, admire his looks, and put forth questions that his mother answered for him, while he clung to her and hung his head down. This behavior surprised her ladyship, who couldn’t understand why he was so shy around company since he could be quite loud at home. During every formal visit, having a child in the group was the go-to strategy for conversation. In this instance, it took about ten minutes to figure out whether the boy resembled his father or mother more, and in what ways, as everyone had different opinions, and everyone was amazed at what the others thought.

An opportunity was soon to be given to the Dashwoods of debating on the rest of the children, as Sir John would not leave the house without securing their promise of dining at the park the next day.

An opportunity was soon to be provided for the Dashwoods to discuss the other children, since Sir John wouldn’t leave the house without getting their promise to have dinner at the park the next day.

CHAPTER VII.

Barton Park was about half a mile from the cottage. The ladies had passed near it in their way along the valley, but it was screened from their view at home by the projection of a hill. The house was large and handsome; and the Middletons lived in a style of equal hospitality and elegance. The former was for Sir John’s gratification, the latter for that of his lady. They were scarcely ever without some friends staying with them in the house, and they kept more company of every kind than any other family in the neighbourhood. It was necessary to the happiness of both; for however dissimilar in temper and outward behaviour, they strongly resembled each other in that total want of talent and taste which confined their employments, unconnected with such as society produced, within a very narrow compass. Sir John was a sportsman, Lady Middleton a mother. He hunted and shot, and she humoured her children; and these were their only resources. Lady Middleton had the advantage of being able to spoil her children all the year round, while Sir John’s independent employments were in existence only half the time. Continual engagements at home and abroad, however, supplied all the deficiencies of nature and education; supported the good spirits of Sir John, and gave exercise to the good breeding of his wife.

Barton Park was about half a mile from the cottage. The ladies had passed close to it on their way through the valley, but a hill blocked their view from home. The house was large and beautiful, and the Middletons lived with a blend of hospitality and elegance. Sir John sought enjoyment, while his wife aimed for sophistication. They almost always had friends staying with them and entertained more than any other family in the neighborhood. This was essential for both of their happiness; despite being quite different in temperament and behavior, they were alike in their complete lack of talent and taste, which limited their activities beyond those offered by society to a very narrow range. Sir John was into sports, while Lady Middleton focused on being a mother. He hunted and shot, and she spoiled her children; those were their only ways to pass the time. Lady Middleton had the benefit of being able to pamper her children all year, while Sir John’s independent activities only took place half the time. Ongoing social engagements at home and out provided for all their natural and educational shortcomings; they kept Sir John in good spirits and gave Lady Middleton a chance to showcase her social skills.

Lady Middleton piqued herself upon the elegance of her table, and of all her domestic arrangements; and from this kind of vanity was her greatest enjoyment in any of their parties. But Sir John’s satisfaction in society was much more real; he delighted in collecting about him more young people than his house would hold, and the noisier they were the better was he pleased. He was a blessing to all the juvenile part of the neighbourhood, for in summer he was for ever forming parties to eat cold ham and chicken out of doors, and in winter his private balls were numerous enough for any young lady who was not suffering under the unsatiable appetite of fifteen.

Lady Middleton took pride in the elegance of her table and all her home arrangements; this vanity brought her the greatest joy during their gatherings. However, Sir John’s enjoyment of company was much more genuine; he loved bringing together more young people than his house could accommodate, and the noisier they were, the happier he became. He was a treasure to all the young folks in the neighborhood, as in the summer he was always organizing parties to enjoy cold ham and chicken outside, and in the winter, he held enough private balls for any young lady who wasn't struggling with the boundless energy of being fifteen.

The arrival of a new family in the country was always a matter of joy to him, and in every point of view he was charmed with the inhabitants he had now procured for his cottage at Barton. The Miss Dashwoods were young, pretty, and unaffected. It was enough to secure his good opinion; for to be unaffected was all that a pretty girl could want to make her mind as captivating as her person. The friendliness of his disposition made him happy in accommodating those, whose situation might be considered, in comparison with the past, as unfortunate. In showing kindness to his cousins therefore he had the real satisfaction of a good heart; and in settling a family of females only in his cottage, he had all the satisfaction of a sportsman; for a sportsman, though he esteems only those of his sex who are sportsmen likewise, is not often desirous of encouraging their taste by admitting them to a residence within his own manor.

The arrival of a new family in the countryside was always a source of joy for him, and he was completely taken with the people he had now welcomed to his cottage at Barton. The Miss Dashwoods were young, attractive, and down-to-earth. That was enough to earn his approval; because being genuine was all a pretty girl needed to make her mind as appealing as her looks. His friendly nature made him happy to help those whose circumstances might be seen as unfortunate compared to the past. By being kind to his cousins, he genuinely felt the satisfaction of a good heart; and by settling a household of only women in his cottage, he experienced the happiness of a sportsman. A sportsman may only value those of his gender who are also sportsmen, but he doesn’t usually feel the need to encourage their interests by letting them stay on his property.

Mrs. Dashwood and her daughters were met at the door of the house by Sir John, who welcomed them to Barton Park with unaffected sincerity; and as he attended them to the drawing room repeated to the young ladies the concern which the same subject had drawn from him the day before, at being unable to get any smart young men to meet them. They would see, he said, only one gentleman there besides himself; a particular friend who was staying at the park, but who was neither very young nor very gay. He hoped they would all excuse the smallness of the party, and could assure them it should never happen so again. He had been to several families that morning in hopes of procuring some addition to their number, but it was moonlight and every body was full of engagements. Luckily Lady Middleton’s mother had arrived at Barton within the last hour, and as she was a very cheerful agreeable woman, he hoped the young ladies would not find it so very dull as they might imagine. The young ladies, as well as their mother, were perfectly satisfied with having two entire strangers of the party, and wished for no more.

Mrs. Dashwood and her daughters were greeted at the door by Sir John, who welcomed them to Barton Park with genuine warmth. As he escorted them to the drawing room, he shared with the young ladies his disappointment from the day before about not being able to arrange for more lively young men to join them. He mentioned that they would only see one other gentleman besides himself – a close friend who was staying at the park but was neither very young nor very lively. He hoped they would all forgive the small gathering and assured them it wouldn’t happen like this again. He had visited several families that morning in hopes of bringing more guests, but it was a beautiful moonlit night and everyone was already busy. Fortunately, Lady Middleton’s mother had arrived at Barton just an hour ago, and since she was a cheerful and pleasant woman, he hoped the young ladies wouldn’t find it as dull as they might expect. The young ladies, along with their mother, were perfectly fine with having two complete strangers at the gathering and didn't wish for any more.

Mrs. Jennings, Lady Middleton’s mother, was a good-humoured, merry, fat, elderly woman, who talked a great deal, seemed very happy, and rather vulgar. She was full of jokes and laughter, and before dinner was over had said many witty things on the subject of lovers and husbands; hoped they had not left their hearts behind them in Sussex, and pretended to see them blush whether they did or not. Marianne was vexed at it for her sister’s sake, and turned her eyes towards Elinor to see how she bore these attacks, with an earnestness which gave Elinor far more pain than could arise from such common-place raillery as Mrs. Jennings’s.

Mrs. Jennings, Lady Middleton’s mother, was a cheerful, fun-loving, plump, older woman who talked a lot, seemed very happy, and was somewhat tacky. She was full of jokes and laughter, and before dinner was done, she had made many funny remarks about lovers and husbands; she hoped they hadn’t left their hearts back in Sussex and pretended to see them blush whether they actually did or not. Marianne was annoyed by this for her sister’s sake and looked at Elinor to see how she was handling these jabs, with a worry that caused Elinor more discomfort than the trivial teasing from Mrs. Jennings.

Colonel Brandon, the friend of Sir John, seemed no more adapted by resemblance of manner to be his friend, than Lady Middleton was to be his wife, or Mrs. Jennings to be Lady Middleton’s mother. He was silent and grave. His appearance however was not unpleasing, in spite of his being in the opinion of Marianne and Margaret an absolute old bachelor, for he was on the wrong side of five and thirty; but though his face was not handsome, his countenance was sensible, and his address was particularly gentlemanlike.

Colonel Brandon, Sir John's friend, seemed just as unlikely to be his friend as Lady Middleton was to be his wife, or Mrs. Jennings to be Lady Middleton's mother. He was quiet and serious. However, his appearance was not unappealing, despite Marianne and Margaret considering him a complete old bachelor since he was over thirty-five. While his face wasn’t handsome, he had a sensible expression, and his manner was especially gentlemanly.

There was nothing in any of the party which could recommend them as companions to the Dashwoods; but the cold insipidity of Lady Middleton was so particularly repulsive, that in comparison of it the gravity of Colonel Brandon, and even the boisterous mirth of Sir John and his mother-in-law was interesting. Lady Middleton seemed to be roused to enjoyment only by the entrance of her four noisy children after dinner, who pulled her about, tore her clothes, and put an end to every kind of discourse except what related to themselves.

There was nothing about any of the guests that made them suitable companions for the Dashwoods, but Lady Middleton’s dullness was so off-putting that even Colonel Brandon’s seriousness and the loud fun of Sir John and his mother-in-law seemed appealing in comparison. Lady Middleton only seemed to come alive when her four noisy children entered the room after dinner, where they tugged at her, ruined her clothes, and ended all conversations except those about themselves.

In the evening, as Marianne was discovered to be musical, she was invited to play. The instrument was unlocked, every body prepared to be charmed, and Marianne, who sang very well, at their request went through the chief of the songs which Lady Middleton had brought into the family on her marriage, and which perhaps had lain ever since in the same position on the pianoforte, for her ladyship had celebrated that event by giving up music, although by her mother’s account, she had played extremely well, and by her own was very fond of it.

In the evening, when it was revealed that Marianne was musical, she was invited to play. The instrument was opened, everyone got ready to be enchanted, and Marianne, who sang really well, at their request went through the main songs that Lady Middleton had introduced to the family when she got married. Those songs had likely stayed in the same spot on the piano ever since because Lady Middleton had stopped playing music to celebrate her marriage, even though her mother said she played exceptionally well and she herself claimed to love it.

Marianne’s performance was highly applauded. Sir John was loud in his admiration at the end of every song, and as loud in his conversation with the others while every song lasted. Lady Middleton frequently called him to order, wondered how any one’s attention could be diverted from music for a moment, and asked Marianne to sing a particular song which Marianne had just finished. Colonel Brandon alone, of all the party, heard her without being in raptures. He paid her only the compliment of attention; and she felt a respect for him on the occasion, which the others had reasonably forfeited by their shameless want of taste. His pleasure in music, though it amounted not to that ecstatic delight which alone could sympathize with her own, was estimable when contrasted against the horrible insensibility of the others; and she was reasonable enough to allow that a man of five and thirty might well have outlived all acuteness of feeling and every exquisite power of enjoyment. She was perfectly disposed to make every allowance for the colonel’s advanced state of life which humanity required.

Marianne’s performance received a lot of praise. Sir John was very vocal in his admiration after every song and just as chatty with others while the songs were playing. Lady Middleton often tried to quiet him, wondering how anyone could be distracted from music for even a moment, and asked Marianne to sing a specific song that she had just finished. Colonel Brandon, unlike anyone else in the group, listened without being overly enthusiastic. He gave her the simple compliment of paying attention, and she appreciated him for it, feeling that the others had lost that respect due to their blatant lack of taste. While his enjoyment of music didn’t show the same ecstatic delight that she felt, it was still commendable compared to the shocking insensitivity of the others; she understood that a man of thirty-five might have outgrown the sensitivity and exquisite enjoyment she sought. She was more than willing to consider the colonel’s age and the understanding it required.

CHAPTER VIII.

Mrs. Jennings was a widow with an ample jointure. She had only two daughters, both of whom she had lived to see respectably married, and she had now therefore nothing to do but to marry all the rest of the world. In the promotion of this object she was zealously active, as far as her ability reached; and missed no opportunity of projecting weddings among all the young people of her acquaintance. She was remarkably quick in the discovery of attachments, and had enjoyed the advantage of raising the blushes and the vanity of many a young lady by insinuations of her power over such a young man; and this kind of discernment enabled her soon after her arrival at Barton decisively to pronounce that Colonel Brandon was very much in love with Marianne Dashwood. She rather suspected it to be so, on the very first evening of their being together, from his listening so attentively while she sang to them; and when the visit was returned by the Middletons’ dining at the cottage, the fact was ascertained by his listening to her again. It must be so. She was perfectly convinced of it. It would be an excellent match, for he was rich, and she was handsome. Mrs. Jennings had been anxious to see Colonel Brandon well married, ever since her connection with Sir John first brought him to her knowledge; and she was always anxious to get a good husband for every pretty girl.

Mrs. Jennings was a widow with a decent income. She had two daughters, both of whom she had seen marry well, and now she had nothing left to do but to help everyone else find partners. She threw herself into this mission with enthusiasm and took every chance to arrange weddings among the young people she knew. She was quick to notice romantic feelings and had enjoyed the pleasure of making many young women blush and feel flattered by her hints about influencing a young man's affections. This knack for observation led her to confidently declare soon after arriving in Barton that Colonel Brandon was very much in love with Marianne Dashwood. She suspected it right from their first evening together when he listened so intently while she sang. When the Middletons returned the visit by having dinner at the cottage, it was confirmed by his attentive listening to her again. It had to be true. She was completely convinced of it. It would be a great match since he was wealthy, and she was attractive. Mrs. Jennings had wanted to see Colonel Brandon settle down ever since her connection with Sir John introduced him to her, and she was always eager to find a good husband for any pretty girl.

The immediate advantage to herself was by no means inconsiderable, for it supplied her with endless jokes against them both. At the park she laughed at the colonel, and in the cottage at Marianne. To the former her raillery was probably, as far as it regarded only himself, perfectly indifferent; but to the latter it was at first incomprehensible; and when its object was understood, she hardly knew whether most to laugh at its absurdity, or censure its impertinence, for she considered it as an unfeeling reflection on the colonel’s advanced years, and on his forlorn condition as an old bachelor.

The immediate benefit to her was definitely significant, as it provided her with endless jokes about both of them. At the park, she made fun of the colonel, and at the cottage, she joked about Marianne. To the colonel, her teasing was likely, as far as it concerned him, totally meaningless; but to Marianne, it was initially baffling, and once she understood the joke, she didn’t know whether to laugh at its ridiculousness or to criticize its rudeness, as she saw it as an unkind comment on the colonel’s age and his lonely situation as an old bachelor.

Mrs. Dashwood, who could not think a man five years younger than herself, so exceedingly ancient as he appeared to the youthful fancy of her daughter, ventured to clear Mrs. Jennings from the probability of wishing to throw ridicule on his age.

Mrs. Dashwood, who couldn't see a man five years younger than her as anything but incredibly old, at least in the eyes of her young daughter, tried to dismiss the idea that Mrs. Jennings would want to make fun of his age.

“But at least, Mama, you cannot deny the absurdity of the accusation, though you may not think it intentionally ill-natured. Colonel Brandon is certainly younger than Mrs. Jennings, but he is old enough to be my father; and if he were ever animated enough to be in love, must have long outlived every sensation of the kind. It is too ridiculous! When is a man to be safe from such wit, if age and infirmity will not protect him?”

“But at least, Mom, you can't deny how absurd the accusation is, even if you don’t think it was meant to be mean. Colonel Brandon is definitely younger than Mrs. Jennings, but he’s old enough to be my father; and if he ever felt love, he must have long since gotten over that. It’s just silly! When is a man ever safe from such teasing, if age and weakness can’t protect him?”

“Infirmity!” said Elinor, “do you call Colonel Brandon infirm? I can easily suppose that his age may appear much greater to you than to my mother; but you can hardly deceive yourself as to his having the use of his limbs!”

“Infirmity!” said Elinor, “you think Colonel Brandon is infirm? I can totally see how his age might seem much older to you than to my mom; but it’s hard for you to convince yourself that he doesn't have the use of his limbs!”

“Did not you hear him complain of the rheumatism? and is not that the commonest infirmity of declining life?”

“Didn’t you hear him complain about his arthritis? Isn’t that the most common issue in aging?”

“My dearest child,” said her mother, laughing, “at this rate you must be in continual terror of my decay; and it must seem to you a miracle that my life has been extended to the advanced age of forty.”

“My dearest child,” said her mother, laughing, “at this rate you must be in constant fear of my decline; and it must seem like a miracle to you that I’ve lived to the ripe old age of forty.”

“Mama, you are not doing me justice. I know very well that Colonel Brandon is not old enough to make his friends yet apprehensive of losing him in the course of nature. He may live twenty years longer. But thirty-five has nothing to do with matrimony.”

“Mama, you’re not being fair to me. I know very well that Colonel Brandon isn’t old enough to make his friends worried about losing him due to age. He could live another twenty years. But being thirty-five doesn’t mean he can’t get married.”

“Perhaps,” said Elinor, “thirty-five and seventeen had better not have any thing to do with matrimony together. But if there should by any chance happen to be a woman who is single at seven and twenty, I should not think Colonel Brandon’s being thirty-five any objection to his marrying her.”

“Maybe,” Elinor said, “thirty-five and seventeen shouldn’t mix when it comes to marriage. But if by any chance there is a woman who is single at twenty-seven, I wouldn’t see Colonel Brandon being thirty-five as a problem for him to marry her.”

“A woman of seven and twenty,” said Marianne, after pausing a moment, “can never hope to feel or inspire affection again, and if her home be uncomfortable, or her fortune small, I can suppose that she might bring herself to submit to the offices of a nurse, for the sake of the provision and security of a wife. In his marrying such a woman therefore there would be nothing unsuitable. It would be a compact of convenience, and the world would be satisfied. In my eyes it would be no marriage at all, but that would be nothing. To me it would seem only a commercial exchange, in which each wished to be benefited at the expense of the other.”

“A 27-year-old woman,” said Marianne after pausing for a moment, “can never hope to feel or inspire love again, and if her home is uncomfortable or her finances are tight, I can see how she might agree to take on the role of a caregiver just to have the security of being a wife. So, if he were to marry such a woman, it wouldn’t be inappropriate. It would be a practical arrangement, and society would be fine with it. To me, it wouldn’t be a marriage at all, but that doesn’t really matter. I would see it as just a business deal, where both parties are looking to gain something at the other’s expense.”

“It would be impossible, I know,” replied Elinor, “to convince you that a woman of seven and twenty could feel for a man of thirty-five anything near enough to love, to make him a desirable companion to her. But I must object to your dooming Colonel Brandon and his wife to the constant confinement of a sick chamber, merely because he chanced to complain yesterday (a very cold damp day) of a slight rheumatic feel in one of his shoulders.”

“It would be impossible, I know,” replied Elinor, “to convince you that a 27-year-old woman could feel for a 35-year-old man anything close to love that would make him a desirable companion for her. But I must disagree with you on condemning Colonel Brandon and his wife to the constant confines of a sickroom, just because he happened to mention yesterday (on a very cold, damp day) that he was feeling a slight ache in one of his shoulders.”

“But he talked of flannel waistcoats,” said Marianne; “and with me a flannel waistcoat is invariably connected with aches, cramps, rheumatisms, and every species of ailment that can afflict the old and the feeble.”

“But he talked about flannel vests,” said Marianne; “and for me, a flannel vest is always linked to aches, cramps, rheumatism, and every kind of sickness that can impact the old and the weak.”

“Had he been only in a violent fever, you would not have despised him half so much. Confess, Marianne, is not there something interesting to you in the flushed cheek, hollow eye, and quick pulse of a fever?”

“Had he only been in a bad fever, you wouldn't have looked down on him nearly as much. Admit it, Marianne, isn't there something intriguing to you in the flushed cheek, sunken eye, and rapid pulse of a fever?”

Soon after this, upon Elinor’s leaving the room, “Mama,” said Marianne, “I have an alarm on the subject of illness which I cannot conceal from you. I am sure Edward Ferrars is not well. We have now been here almost a fortnight, and yet he does not come. Nothing but real indisposition could occasion this extraordinary delay. What else can detain him at Norland?”

Soon after this, when Elinor left the room, Marianne said, “Mom, I have a worry about illness that I can't hide from you. I'm sure Edward Ferrars isn't well. We've been here for almost two weeks now, and he still hasn't come. Only a real illness could explain this unusual delay. What else could be keeping him at Norland?”

“Had you any idea of his coming so soon?” said Mrs. Dashwood. “I had none. On the contrary, if I have felt any anxiety at all on the subject, it has been in recollecting that he sometimes showed a want of pleasure and readiness in accepting my invitation, when I talked of his coming to Barton. Does Elinor expect him already?”

“Did you have any idea he was coming so soon?” Mrs. Dashwood asked. “I had no idea. In fact, if I’ve felt any worry about it, it’s been because I remembered that he sometimes seemed a bit unwilling and hesitant to accept my invitation when I mentioned him coming to Barton. Does Elinor expect him already?”

“I have never mentioned it to her, but of course she must.”

“I’ve never talked about it with her, but of course she has to know.”

“I rather think you are mistaken, for when I was talking to her yesterday of getting a new grate for the spare bedchamber, she observed that there was no immediate hurry for it, as it was not likely that the room would be wanted for some time.”

“I think you might be mistaken because when I was talking to her yesterday about getting a new grate for the guest bedroom, she mentioned that there was no rush for it since it probably wouldn't be needed for a while.”

“How strange this is! what can be the meaning of it! But the whole of their behaviour to each other has been unaccountable! How cold, how composed were their last adieus! How languid their conversation the last evening of their being together! In Edward’s farewell there was no distinction between Elinor and me: it was the good wishes of an affectionate brother to both. Twice did I leave them purposely together in the course of the last morning, and each time did he most unaccountably follow me out of the room. And Elinor, in quitting Norland and Edward, cried not as I did. Even now her self-command is invariable. When is she dejected or melancholy? When does she try to avoid society, or appear restless and dissatisfied in it?”

"How strange this is! What could it mean? Their behavior towards each other has been so confusing! How cold and composed were their last goodbyes! How dull their conversation on the last evening they spent together! In Edward's farewell, there was no distinction between Elinor and me; it was simply the kind wishes of a caring brother to both of us. I purposely left them alone twice that morning, and each time he inexplicably followed me out of the room. And Elinor, when leaving Norland and Edward, did not cry like I did. Even now, her self-control is unwavering. When is she ever down or gloomy? When does she try to avoid people or seem restless and unhappy in their company?"

CHAPTER IX.

The Dashwoods were now settled at Barton with tolerable comfort to themselves. The house and the garden, with all the objects surrounding them, were now become familiar, and the ordinary pursuits which had given to Norland half its charms were engaged in again with far greater enjoyment than Norland had been able to afford, since the loss of their father. Sir John Middleton, who called on them every day for the first fortnight, and who was not in the habit of seeing much occupation at home, could not conceal his amazement on finding them always employed.

The Dashwoods were now living in Barton with decent comfort. The house and garden, along with everything around them, had become familiar, and the usual activities that had given Norland half of its appeal were now being enjoyed much more than they had been since the loss of their father. Sir John Middleton, who visited them every day for the first two weeks and usually didn’t keep busy at home, couldn’t hide his surprise at finding them always occupied.

Their visitors, except those from Barton Park, were not many; for, in spite of Sir John’s urgent entreaties that they would mix more in the neighbourhood, and repeated assurances of his carriage being always at their service, the independence of Mrs. Dashwood’s spirit overcame the wish of society for her children; and she was resolute in declining to visit any family beyond the distance of a walk. There were but few who could be so classed; and it was not all of them that were attainable. About a mile and a half from the cottage, along the narrow winding valley of Allenham, which issued from that of Barton, as formerly described, the girls had, in one of their earliest walks, discovered an ancient respectable looking mansion which, by reminding them a little of Norland, interested their imagination and made them wish to be better acquainted with it. But they learnt, on enquiry, that its possessor, an elderly lady of very good character, was unfortunately too infirm to mix with the world, and never stirred from home.

Their visitors, except for those from Barton Park, were few. Despite Sir John’s persistent requests for them to socialize more in the area and his repeated assurances that his carriage would always be available for them, Mrs. Dashwood’s independent spirit overshadowed her desire for her children to engage with society. She was determined to refuse visits to any family that was not within walking distance. There were only a few families that met that criterion, and not all of them were accessible. About a mile and a half from the cottage, along the narrow winding valley of Allenham that branched off from Barton, the girls had discovered an old, respectable-looking mansion during one of their earliest walks. It reminded them a bit of Norland, piquing their interest and making them wish to get to know it better. However, upon inquiry, they found out that its owner, an elderly lady of excellent character, was unfortunately too frail to interact with the world and never left her home.

The whole country about them abounded in beautiful walks. The high downs which invited them from almost every window of the cottage to seek the exquisite enjoyment of air on their summits, were a happy alternative when the dirt of the valleys beneath shut up their superior beauties; and towards one of these hills did Marianne and Margaret one memorable morning direct their steps, attracted by the partial sunshine of a showery sky, and unable longer to bear the confinement which the settled rain of the two preceding days had occasioned. The weather was not tempting enough to draw the two others from their pencil and their book, in spite of Marianne’s declaration that the day would be lastingly fair, and that every threatening cloud would be drawn off from their hills; and the two girls set off together.

The whole country around them was full of beautiful paths. The high hills, which called to them from nearly every window of the cottage, invited them to enjoy the fresh air at their peaks, providing a nice escape when the dirt of the valleys below blocked their superior views. One memorable morning, Marianne and Margaret headed towards one of these hills, drawn in by the bits of sunshine peeking through a showery sky and unable to tolerate the confinement caused by the steady rain of the previous two days any longer. The weather wasn't appealing enough to entice the other two from their drawing and writing, despite Marianne’s claim that the day would turn out nice and that all the threatening clouds would clear from their hills; so, the two girls set off together.

They gaily ascended the downs, rejoicing in their own penetration at every glimpse of blue sky; and when they caught in their faces the animating gales of a high south-westerly wind, they pitied the fears which had prevented their mother and Elinor from sharing such delightful sensations.

They cheerfully climbed the hills, thrilled by every sight of blue sky; and when the invigorating breezes of a strong south-west wind hit their faces, they felt sorry for their mother and Elinor, who missed out on such enjoyable experiences because of their fears.

“Is there a felicity in the world,” said Marianne, “superior to this?—Margaret, we will walk here at least two hours.”

“Is there any happiness in the world,” said Marianne, “better than this?—Margaret, we’re going to walk here for at least two hours.”

Margaret agreed, and they pursued their way against the wind, resisting it with laughing delight for about twenty minutes longer, when suddenly the clouds united over their heads, and a driving rain set full in their face. Chagrined and surprised, they were obliged, though unwillingly, to turn back, for no shelter was nearer than their own house. One consolation however remained for them, to which the exigence of the moment gave more than usual propriety,—it was that of running with all possible speed down the steep side of the hill which led immediately to their garden gate.

Margaret agreed, and they walked against the wind, enjoying it with laughter for about twenty more minutes, when suddenly the clouds came together overhead, and a heavy rain started pouring down on them. Disappointed and caught off guard, they had to turn back reluctantly, since the nearest shelter was their own home. However, one consolation remained for them, made even more fitting by the urgency of the moment—it was the chance to run as fast as they could down the steep hill leading directly to their garden gate.

They set off. Marianne had at first the advantage, but a false step brought her suddenly to the ground; and Margaret, unable to stop herself to assist her, was involuntarily hurried along, and reached the bottom in safety.

They set off. Marianne initially had the upper hand, but one misstep caused her to fall suddenly to the ground, and Margaret, unable to stop to help her, was unintentionally carried along and made it to the bottom safely.

A gentleman carrying a gun, with two pointers playing round him, was passing up the hill and within a few yards of Marianne, when her accident happened. He put down his gun and ran to her assistance. She had raised herself from the ground, but her foot had been twisted in her fall, and she was scarcely able to stand. The gentleman offered his services; and perceiving that her modesty declined what her situation rendered necessary, took her up in his arms without farther delay, and carried her down the hill. Then passing through the garden, the gate of which had been left open by Margaret, he bore her directly into the house, whither Margaret was just arrived, and quitted not his hold till he had seated her in a chair in the parlour.

A man carrying a gun, with two pointing dogs playing around him, was walking up the hill just a few yards from Marianne when her accident happened. He set down his gun and ran to help her. She had gotten up from the ground, but her foot was twisted from the fall, and she could barely stand. The man offered his assistance, and noticing that her modesty kept her from accepting what her condition required, he picked her up in his arms without hesitation and carried her down the hill. Then, as they passed through the garden—where Margaret had left the gate open—he took her straight into the house, just as Margaret arrived, and didn’t let her go until he had seated her in a chair in the parlor.

Elinor and her mother rose up in amazement at their entrance, and while the eyes of both were fixed on him with an evident wonder and a secret admiration which equally sprung from his appearance, he apologized for his intrusion by relating its cause, in a manner so frank and so graceful that his person, which was uncommonly handsome, received additional charms from his voice and expression. Had he been even old, ugly, and vulgar, the gratitude and kindness of Mrs. Dashwood would have been secured by any act of attention to her child; but the influence of youth, beauty, and elegance, gave an interest to the action which came home to her feelings.

Elinor and her mother stood in amazement at his entrance, and while both of their eyes were fixed on him with clear wonder and a hidden admiration stemming from his appearance, he apologized for barging in by explaining why he had come in such an honest and graceful way that his already striking looks were enhanced by his voice and expression. Even if he had been old, unattractive, and rude, Mrs. Dashwood's gratitude and kindness would have been won by any attention he showed to her child; but the combination of youth, beauty, and elegance added a compelling interest to his actions that resonated with her feelings.

She thanked him again and again; and, with a sweetness of address which always attended her, invited him to be seated. But this he declined, as he was dirty and wet. Mrs. Dashwood then begged to know to whom she was obliged. His name, he replied, was Willoughby, and his present home was at Allenham, from whence he hoped she would allow him the honour of calling tomorrow to enquire after Miss Dashwood. The honour was readily granted, and he then departed, to make himself still more interesting, in the midst of a heavy rain.

She thanked him repeatedly and, with her usual charm, invited him to sit down. However, he declined, as he was muddy and soaked. Mrs. Dashwood then asked to whom she owed her gratitude. He replied that his name was Willoughby and that he currently lived in Allenham, from where he hoped she would allow him the pleasure of coming by tomorrow to check on Miss Dashwood. She readily agreed, and he then left, making himself even more intriguing in the pouring rain.

His manly beauty and more than common gracefulness were instantly the theme of general admiration, and the laugh which his gallantry raised against Marianne received particular spirit from his exterior attractions. Marianne herself had seen less of his person than the rest, for the confusion which crimsoned over her face, on his lifting her up, had robbed her of the power of regarding him after their entering the house. But she had seen enough of him to join in all the admiration of the others, and with an energy which always adorned her praise. His person and air were equal to what her fancy had ever drawn for the hero of a favourite story; and in his carrying her into the house with so little previous formality, there was a rapidity of thought which particularly recommended the action to her. Every circumstance belonging to him was interesting. His name was good, his residence was in their favourite village, and she soon found out that of all manly dresses a shooting-jacket was the most becoming. Her imagination was busy, her reflections were pleasant, and the pain of a sprained ankle was disregarded.

His handsome looks and uncommon grace immediately became the talk of everyone around, and the laughter his charm brought out towards Marianne had an extra spark because of his attractive appearance. Marianne herself had noticed less about him than the others, as the blush that spread across her face when he lifted her made it hard for her to look at him once they entered the house. But she had seen enough to join in on everyone else’s praise with a passion that always made her compliments stand out. He looked just as she had pictured the hero of her favorite story; the way he carried her into the house so casually showed a quickness of thought that particularly appealed to her. Everything about him was intriguing. He had a great name, lived in their favorite village, and she quickly realized that of all men’s outfits, a shooting jacket suited him best. Her imagination was active, her thoughts were cheerful, and she forgot about the pain of her sprained ankle.

Sir John called on them as soon as the next interval of fair weather that morning allowed him to get out of doors; and Marianne’s accident being related to him, he was eagerly asked whether he knew any gentleman of the name of Willoughby at Allenham.

Sir John visited them as soon as the next spell of nice weather that morning gave him a chance to go outside; and when he heard about Marianne's accident, he eagerly asked if he knew any man named Willoughby from Allenham.

“Willoughby!” cried Sir John; “what, is he in the country? That is good news however; I will ride over tomorrow, and ask him to dinner on Thursday.”

“Willoughby!” exclaimed Sir John; “what, is he in the countryside? That’s great news; I’ll ride over tomorrow and invite him to dinner on Thursday.”

“You know him then,” said Mrs. Dashwood.

"You know him, then," Mrs. Dashwood said.

“Know him! to be sure I do. Why, he is down here every year.”

“Know him! Of course I do. He comes here every year.”

“And what sort of a young man is he?”

“And what kind of young man is he?”

“As good a kind of fellow as ever lived, I assure you. A very decent shot, and there is not a bolder rider in England.”

“As good a guy as ever lived, I assure you. A really decent shot, and there’s not a braver rider in England.”

“And is that all you can say for him?” cried Marianne, indignantly. “But what are his manners on more intimate acquaintance? What his pursuits, his talents, and genius?”

“And is that all you can say about him?” Marianne exclaimed, indignantly. “But how are his manners when you get to know him better? What are his interests, his skills, and his talents?”

Sir John was rather puzzled.

Sir John was a bit confused.

“Upon my soul,” said he, “I do not know much about him as to all that. But he is a pleasant, good humoured fellow, and has got the nicest little black bitch of a pointer I ever saw. Was she out with him today?”

“Honestly,” he said, “I don’t know much about him regarding all that. But he’s a nice, good-natured guy, and he has the cutest little black female pointer I’ve ever seen. Was she out with him today?”

But Marianne could no more satisfy him as to the colour of Mr. Willoughby’s pointer, than he could describe to her the shades of his mind.

But Marianne couldn’t satisfy him about the color of Mr. Willoughby’s pointer any more than he could describe the shades of his thoughts to her.

“But who is he?” said Elinor. “Where does he come from? Has he a house at Allenham?”

“But who is he?” Elinor asked. “Where does he come from? Does he have a house at Allenham?”

On this point Sir John could give more certain intelligence; and he told them that Mr. Willoughby had no property of his own in the country; that he resided there only while he was visiting the old lady at Allenham Court, to whom he was related, and whose possessions he was to inherit; adding, “Yes, yes, he is very well worth catching I can tell you, Miss Dashwood; he has a pretty little estate of his own in Somersetshire besides; and if I were you, I would not give him up to my younger sister, in spite of all this tumbling down hills. Miss Marianne must not expect to have all the men to herself. Brandon will be jealous, if she does not take care.”

On this point, Sir John could provide more reliable information; he told them that Mr. Willoughby didn't own any property in the area; he was only staying there while he visited the old lady at Allenham Court, to whom he was related and whose possessions he was set to inherit. He added, "Yes, yes, he’s definitely worth pursuing, Miss Dashwood; he has a nice little estate of his own in Somersetshire too. If I were you, I wouldn't let him go to my younger sister, despite all this falling down hills nonsense. Miss Marianne shouldn't expect to have all the guys to herself. Brandon will get jealous if she's not careful."

“I do not believe,” said Mrs. Dashwood, with a good humoured smile, “that Mr. Willoughby will be incommoded by the attempts of either of my daughters towards what you call catching him. It is not an employment to which they have been brought up. Men are very safe with us, let them be ever so rich. I am glad to find, however, from what you say, that he is a respectable young man, and one whose acquaintance will not be ineligible.”

“I don’t think,” Mrs. Dashwood said with a cheerful smile, “that Mr. Willoughby will be bothered by either of my daughters trying what you call ‘catching him.’ It’s not something they’ve been raised to do. Men are always safe around us, no matter how wealthy they are. However, I’m glad to hear from what you’ve said that he is a respectable young man and someone whose company would be acceptable.”

“He is as good a sort of fellow, I believe, as ever lived,” repeated Sir John. “I remember last Christmas at a little hop at the park, he danced from eight o’clock till four, without once sitting down.”

“He's a really great guy, I think, better than most,” Sir John said again. “I remember last Christmas at a small dance at the park, he danced from eight in the evening until four in the morning and didn’t sit down once.”

“Did he indeed?” cried Marianne with sparkling eyes, “and with elegance, with spirit?”

“Did he really?” Marianne exclaimed, her eyes shining, “and with style, with energy?”

“Yes; and he was up again at eight to ride to covert.”

“Yes; and he was up again at eight to ride to the hunting ground.”

“That is what I like; that is what a young man ought to be. Whatever be his pursuits, his eagerness in them should know no moderation, and leave him no sense of fatigue.”

"That’s what I like; that’s how a young man should be. No matter what he’s into, he should dive in wholeheartedly and not feel tired at all."

“Aye, aye, I see how it will be,” said Sir John, “I see how it will be. You will be setting your cap at him now, and never think of poor Brandon.”

"Aye, aye, I see how it will be," said Sir John. "I see how it will be. You'll be trying to win him over now and never think of poor Brandon."

“That is an expression, Sir John,” said Marianne, warmly, “which I particularly dislike. I abhor every common-place phrase by which wit is intended; and ‘setting one’s cap at a man,’ or ‘making a conquest,’ are the most odious of all. Their tendency is gross and illiberal; and if their construction could ever be deemed clever, time has long ago destroyed all its ingenuity.”

"That’s a phrase I really dislike, Sir John," Marianne said passionately. "I can’t stand any cliché meant to be witty; and ‘setting one’s cap at a man’ or ‘making a conquest’ are the worst of all. They're crass and uncultured, and even if they were ever considered clever, time has long since stripped them of any wit."

Sir John did not much understand this reproof; but he laughed as heartily as if he did, and then replied,

Sir John didn’t really get the criticism, but he laughed just as hard as if he did, and then responded,

“Ay, you will make conquests enough, I dare say, one way or other. Poor Brandon! he is quite smitten already, and he is very well worth setting your cap at, I can tell you, in spite of all this tumbling about and spraining of ankles.”

“Yeah, you’re going to have plenty of victories, I’m sure, one way or another. Poor Brandon! He’s completely taken with you already, and he’s definitely worth pursuing, I can tell you, despite all this falling and twisting of ankles.”

CHAPTER X.

Marianne’s preserver, as Margaret, with more elegance than precision, styled Willoughby, called at the cottage early the next morning to make his personal enquiries. He was received by Mrs. Dashwood with more than politeness; with a kindness which Sir John’s account of him and her own gratitude prompted; and every thing that passed during the visit tended to assure him of the sense, elegance, mutual affection, and domestic comfort of the family to whom accident had now introduced him. Of their personal charms he had not required a second interview to be convinced.

Marianne’s protector, as Margaret more gracefully than accurately referred to Willoughby, visited the cottage early the next morning to ask about her. He was welcomed by Mrs. Dashwood with not just politeness but with a warmth inspired by Sir John’s description of him and her own gratitude. Everything that happened during the visit made him feel assured of the family's intelligence, style, mutual love, and homey comfort that fate had now brought him to. He didn't need a second meeting to be convinced of their personal appeal.

Miss Dashwood had a delicate complexion, regular features, and a remarkably pretty figure. Marianne was still handsomer. Her form, though not so correct as her sister’s, in having the advantage of height, was more striking; and her face was so lovely, that when in the common cant of praise, she was called a beautiful girl, truth was less violently outraged than usually happens. Her skin was very brown, but, from its transparency, her complexion was uncommonly brilliant; her features were all good; her smile was sweet and attractive; and in her eyes, which were very dark, there was a life, a spirit, an eagerness, which could hardly be seen without delight. From Willoughby their expression was at first held back, by the embarrassment which the remembrance of his assistance created. But when this passed away, when her spirits became collected, when she saw that to the perfect good-breeding of the gentleman, he united frankness and vivacity, and above all, when she heard him declare, that of music and dancing he was passionately fond, she gave him such a look of approbation as secured the largest share of his discourse to herself for the rest of his stay.

Miss Dashwood had a delicate complexion, nice features, and a remarkably pretty figure. Marianne was even more attractive. Her shape, though not as perfect as her sister’s, was more striking because she was taller; and her face was so beautiful that when people referred to her as a beautiful girl, it was less of an exaggeration than usual. Her skin was quite tan, but its transparency gave her an exceptionally radiant complexion; her features were all appealing; her smile was sweet and captivating; and her dark eyes sparkled with life, energy, and eagerness that was hard not to admire. At first, her expression was held back by the awkwardness of remembering his help. But once that faded, when she composed herself, realized that he combined perfect politeness with openness and liveliness, and especially when she heard him say that he was passionately into music and dancing, she gave him a look of approval that made sure he spent most of the conversation with her for the rest of his visit.

It was only necessary to mention any favourite amusement to engage her to talk. She could not be silent when such points were introduced, and she had neither shyness nor reserve in their discussion. They speedily discovered that their enjoyment of dancing and music was mutual, and that it arose from a general conformity of judgment in all that related to either. Encouraged by this to a further examination of his opinions, she proceeded to question him on the subject of books; her favourite authors were brought forward and dwelt upon with so rapturous a delight, that any young man of five and twenty must have been insensible indeed, not to become an immediate convert to the excellence of such works, however disregarded before. Their taste was strikingly alike. The same books, the same passages were idolized by each—or if any difference appeared, any objection arose, it lasted no longer than till the force of her arguments and the brightness of her eyes could be displayed. He acquiesced in all her decisions, caught all her enthusiasm; and long before his visit concluded, they conversed with the familiarity of a long-established acquaintance.

It just took mentioning any favorite activity to get her talking. She couldn’t stay quiet when such topics came up, and she had no shyness or hesitation in discussing them. They quickly realized that they both enjoyed dancing and music, and that their enjoyment stemmed from a shared perspective on everything related to these interests. Encouraged by this, she began to ask him about books; she passionately shared her favorite authors, and her excitement was so infectious that any young man of twenty-five would have had to be completely indifferent not to become an immediate fan of those works, regardless of how overlooked they might have been before. Their tastes were remarkably similar. They both adored the same books and cherished the same passages—or if any disagreement arose, it didn’t last long enough for her convincing arguments and the sparkle in her eyes to fade. He agreed with all her opinions, embraced her enthusiasm, and long before his visit ended, they were chatting like old friends.

“Well, Marianne,” said Elinor, as soon as he had left them, “for one morning I think you have done pretty well. You have already ascertained Mr. Willoughby’s opinion in almost every matter of importance. You know what he thinks of Cowper and Scott; you are certain of his estimating their beauties as he ought, and you have received every assurance of his admiring Pope no more than is proper. But how is your acquaintance to be long supported, under such extraordinary despatch of every subject for discourse? You will soon have exhausted each favourite topic. Another meeting will suffice to explain his sentiments on picturesque beauty, and second marriages, and then you can have nothing farther to ask.”

“Well, Marianne,” Elinor said as soon as he had left them, “considering it's only one morning, you’ve done pretty well. You’ve already figured out Mr. Willoughby’s opinions on almost every important topic. You know what he thinks of Cowper and Scott; you’re sure he appreciates their merits as he should, and you’ve gotten every assurance that he admires Pope just enough. But how will your friendship last with such quick discussions of every subject? You’ll run out of your favorite topics soon. One more meeting will be enough to cover his views on picturesque beauty and second marriages, and then you won’t have anything else to ask.”

“Elinor,” cried Marianne, “is this fair? is this just? are my ideas so scanty? But I see what you mean. I have been too much at my ease, too happy, too frank. I have erred against every common-place notion of decorum; I have been open and sincere where I ought to have been reserved, spiritless, dull, and deceitful—had I talked only of the weather and the roads, and had I spoken only once in ten minutes, this reproach would have been spared.”

“Elinor,” cried Marianne, “is this fair? Is this right? Are my thoughts really so few? But I understand what you mean. I’ve been too comfortable, too happy, too open. I’ve gone against every standard idea of decorum; I’ve been honest and straightforward when I should have been reserved, lifeless, boring, and misleading—if I had only talked about the weather and the roads, and if I had only spoken once every ten minutes, I wouldn’t be facing this criticism.”

“My love,” said her mother, “you must not be offended with Elinor—she was only in jest. I should scold her myself, if she were capable of wishing to check the delight of your conversation with our new friend.” Marianne was softened in a moment.

“My love,” said her mother, “you shouldn’t be upset with Elinor—she was just joking. I would scold her myself if she ever wanted to interrupt the joy of your conversation with our new friend.” Marianne was instantly appeased.

Willoughby, on his side, gave every proof of his pleasure in their acquaintance, which an evident wish of improving it could offer. He came to them every day. To enquire after Marianne was at first his excuse; but the encouragement of his reception, to which every day gave greater kindness, made such an excuse unnecessary before it had ceased to be possible, by Marianne’s perfect recovery. She was confined for some days to the house; but never had any confinement been less irksome. Willoughby was a young man of good abilities, quick imagination, lively spirits, and open, affectionate manners. He was exactly formed to engage Marianne’s heart, for with all this, he joined not only a captivating person, but a natural ardour of mind which was now roused and increased by the example of her own, and which recommended him to her affection beyond every thing else.

Willoughby clearly showed how happy he was to know them and genuinely wanted to become closer. He visited them every day. At first, he claimed he was just checking on Marianne, but as his welcome became warmer with each visit, that excuse became unnecessary, especially once Marianne fully recovered. She had been stuck at home for a few days, but it was the least bothersome confinement imaginable. Willoughby was a young man with good skills, a quick imagination, a cheerful attitude, and friendly, warm manners. He was perfectly suited to win Marianne’s heart, as he not only had a charming appearance but also an innate passion that was stirred by her own, making him especially appealing to her.

His society became gradually her most exquisite enjoyment. They read, they talked, they sang together; his musical talents were considerable; and he read with all the sensibility and spirit which Edward had unfortunately wanted.

His company gradually became her greatest pleasure. They read, talked, and sang together; his musical skills were impressive, and he read with all the sensitivity and enthusiasm that Edward unfortunately lacked.

In Mrs. Dashwood’s estimation he was as faultless as in Marianne’s; and Elinor saw nothing to censure in him but a propensity, in which he strongly resembled and peculiarly delighted her sister, of saying too much what he thought on every occasion, without attention to persons or circumstances. In hastily forming and giving his opinion of other people, in sacrificing general politeness to the enjoyment of undivided attention where his heart was engaged, and in slighting too easily the forms of worldly propriety, he displayed a want of caution which Elinor could not approve, in spite of all that he and Marianne could say in its support.

In Mrs. Dashwood’s view, he was just as perfect as he was in Marianne’s; and Elinor saw nothing wrong with him except for a tendency, which he shared and that particularly appealed to her sister, to express exactly what he thought in every situation, without considering the people or circumstances involved. By quickly forming and sharing his opinions about others, putting his desire for undivided attention above general politeness when it came to matters of the heart, and carelessly dismissing social niceties, he showed a lack of caution that Elinor couldn’t accept, despite all that he and Marianne could say to justify it.

Marianne began now to perceive that the desperation which had seized her at sixteen and a half, of ever seeing a man who could satisfy her ideas of perfection, had been rash and unjustifiable. Willoughby was all that her fancy had delineated in that unhappy hour and in every brighter period, as capable of attaching her; and his behaviour declared his wishes to be in that respect as earnest, as his abilities were strong.

Marianne started to realize that the desperation she felt at sixteen and a half about finding a man who met her standards of perfection had been hasty and unreasonable. Willoughby was everything she had imagined during that difficult time and in every happier moment since, as someone who could truly connect with her; and his actions showed that he was just as serious about those intentions as he was capable.

Her mother too, in whose mind not one speculative thought of their marriage had been raised, by his prospect of riches, was led before the end of a week to hope and expect it; and secretly to congratulate herself on having gained two such sons-in-law as Edward and Willoughby.

Her mother, who hadn’t given a second thought to their marriage because of his potential wealth, was by the end of the week led to hope for it and secretly congratulate herself on having gained two such sons-in-law as Edward and Willoughby.

Colonel Brandon’s partiality for Marianne, which had so early been discovered by his friends, now first became perceptible to Elinor, when it ceased to be noticed by them. Their attention and wit were drawn off to his more fortunate rival; and the raillery which the other had incurred before any partiality arose, was removed when his feelings began really to call for the ridicule so justly annexed to sensibility. Elinor was obliged, though unwillingly, to believe that the sentiments which Mrs. Jennings had assigned him for her own satisfaction, were now actually excited by her sister; and that however a general resemblance of disposition between the parties might forward the affection of Mr. Willoughby, an equally striking opposition of character was no hindrance to the regard of Colonel Brandon. She saw it with concern; for what could a silent man of five and thirty hope, when opposed to a very lively one of five and twenty? and as she could not even wish him successful, she heartily wished him indifferent. She liked him—in spite of his gravity and reserve, she beheld in him an object of interest. His manners, though serious, were mild; and his reserve appeared rather the result of some oppression of spirits than of any natural gloominess of temper. Sir John had dropped hints of past injuries and disappointments, which justified her belief of his being an unfortunate man, and she regarded him with respect and compassion.

Colonel Brandon’s affection for Marianne, which his friends had noticed early on, only became clear to Elinor when they stopped mentioning it. Their attention shifted to his luckier rival, and the teasing directed at the other man before any feelings developed disappeared once Colonel Brandon’s true emotions began to deserve the ridicule often attached to sensitivity. Though reluctantly, Elinor had to accept that the feelings Mrs. Jennings believed she had assigned to him for her own satisfaction were now genuinely stirred by her sister; and while a general similarity in disposition might help Mr. Willoughby win Marianne’s affection, a striking difference in character didn’t seem to hinder Colonel Brandon’s feelings. She felt troubled by this; what could a quiet man in his thirties hope to achieve against a lively twenty-five-year-old? And since she couldn’t bring herself to wish him success, she sincerely hoped he could remain indifferent. She liked him—in spite of his seriousness and distance, she found him intriguing. His demeanor, while serious, was gentle, and his reserve seemed more like a reaction to past struggles than a sign of natural gloominess. Sir John had hinted at past wounds and disappointments, reinforcing her belief that he was an unfortunate man, and she regarded him with both respect and compassion.

Perhaps she pitied and esteemed him the more because he was slighted by Willoughby and Marianne, who, prejudiced against him for being neither lively nor young, seemed resolved to undervalue his merits.

Maybe she felt more pity and admiration for him because Willoughby and Marianne looked down on him. They were biased against him for not being charming or youthful and seemed determined to overlook his worth.

“Brandon is just the kind of man,” said Willoughby one day, when they were talking of him together, “whom every body speaks well of, and nobody cares about; whom all are delighted to see, and nobody remembers to talk to.”

“Brandon is exactly the kind of guy,” Willoughby said one day while they were discussing him, “that everyone praises, but nobody really cares about; whom everyone loves to see, yet nobody thinks to actually talk to.”

“That is exactly what I think of him,” cried Marianne.

"That's exactly how I feel about him," Marianne exclaimed.

“Do not boast of it, however,” said Elinor, “for it is injustice in both of you. He is highly esteemed by all the family at the park, and I never see him myself without taking pains to converse with him.”

“Don’t brag about it, though,” said Elinor, “because that’s unfair to both of you. He is highly regarded by everyone in the family at the park, and I always make an effort to talk to him whenever I see him.”

“That he is patronised by you,” replied Willoughby, “is certainly in his favour; but as for the esteem of the others, it is a reproach in itself. Who would submit to the indignity of being approved by such a woman as Lady Middleton and Mrs. Jennings, that could command the indifference of any body else?”

“That he is supported by you,” replied Willoughby, “definitely works in his favor; but as for the admiration of the others, it’s actually a point against him. Who would want the humiliation of being endorsed by someone like Lady Middleton and Mrs. Jennings, who couldn’t impress anyone else?”

“But perhaps the abuse of such people as yourself and Marianne will make amends for the regard of Lady Middleton and her mother. If their praise is censure, your censure may be praise, for they are not more undiscerning, than you are prejudiced and unjust.”

“But maybe the way people like you and Marianne are treated will balance out the admiration of Lady Middleton and her mother. If their compliments are actually criticism, then your criticism could be seen as praise, because they are just as lacking in perception as you are biased and unfair.”

“In defence of your protégé you can even be saucy.”

"In defense of your protégé, you can even be a little bold."

“My protégé, as you call him, is a sensible man; and sense will always have attractions for me. Yes, Marianne, even in a man between thirty and forty. He has seen a great deal of the world; has been abroad, has read, and has a thinking mind. I have found him capable of giving me much information on various subjects; and he has always answered my inquiries with readiness of good-breeding and good nature.”

“My protégé, as you call him, is a sensible guy; and common sense will always appeal to me. Yes, Marianne, even in a man between thirty and forty. He has experienced a lot of the world; has traveled abroad, has read widely, and has a thoughtful mind. I’ve found him to be very informative on various topics; and he always responds to my questions with politeness and kindness.”

“That is to say,” cried Marianne contemptuously, “he has told you, that in the East Indies the climate is hot, and the mosquitoes are troublesome.”

“Just to be clear,” Marianne said disdainfully, “he has told you that in the East Indies the weather is hot and the mosquitoes are annoying.”

“He would have told me so, I doubt not, had I made any such inquiries, but they happened to be points on which I had been previously informed.”

“He would have told me that, I have no doubt, if I had asked any questions like that, but those were things I had already been told about.”

“Perhaps,” said Willoughby, “his observations may have extended to the existence of nabobs, gold mohrs, and palanquins.”

“Maybe,” said Willoughby, “his observations might have included the existence of nabobs, gold mohrs, and palanquins.”

“I may venture to say that his observations have stretched much further than your candour. But why should you dislike him?”

“I can safely say that his observations have gone much further than your honesty. But why do you dislike him?”

“I do not dislike him. I consider him, on the contrary, as a very respectable man, who has every body’s good word, and nobody’s notice; who has more money than he can spend, more time than he knows how to employ, and two new coats every year.”

“I don’t dislike him. On the contrary, I think he’s a very respectable guy, someone everyone has good things to say about, yet nobody really pays attention to; he has more money than he can spend, more time than he knows what to do with, and two new coats every year.”

“Add to which,” cried Marianne, “that he has neither genius, taste, nor spirit. That his understanding has no brilliancy, his feelings no ardour, and his voice no expression.”

“On top of that,” exclaimed Marianne, “he has no genius, no taste, and no spirit. His mind has no brilliance, his feelings have no passion, and his voice has no expression.”

“You decide on his imperfections so much in the mass,” replied Elinor, “and so much on the strength of your own imagination, that the commendation I am able to give of him is comparatively cold and insipid. I can only pronounce him to be a sensible man, well-bred, well-informed, of gentle address, and, I believe, possessing an amiable heart.”

“You focus so much on his flaws based on what you think,” Elinor replied, “that the praise I can give him feels pretty lukewarm and bland. All I can say is that he’s a smart guy, well-mannered, knowledgeable, easy to talk to, and I believe he has a kind heart.”

“Miss Dashwood,” cried Willoughby, “you are now using me unkindly. You are endeavouring to disarm me by reason, and to convince me against my will. But it will not do. You shall find me as stubborn as you can be artful. I have three unanswerable reasons for disliking Colonel Brandon; he threatened me with rain when I wanted it to be fine; he has found fault with the hanging of my curricle, and I cannot persuade him to buy my brown mare. If it will be any satisfaction to you, however, to be told, that I believe his character to be in other respects irreproachable, I am ready to confess it. And in return for an acknowledgment, which must give me some pain, you cannot deny me the privilege of disliking him as much as ever.”

“Miss Dashwood,” exclaimed Willoughby, “you're being unfair to me. You're trying to disarm me with reason and convince me against my better judgment. But it's not going to work. You’ll find I'm just as stubborn as you are clever. I have three solid reasons for disliking Colonel Brandon; he threatened me with rain when I wanted nice weather, he criticized the way my curricle is hung, and I can’t get him to buy my brown mare. However, if it makes you happy to know that I believe his character is otherwise impeccable, I’m willing to admit it. And for acknowledging something that pains me, you can’t deny me the right to dislike him just as much as always.”

CHAPTER XI.

Little had Mrs. Dashwood or her daughters imagined when they first came into Devonshire, that so many engagements would arise to occupy their time as shortly presented themselves, or that they should have such frequent invitations and such constant visitors as to leave them little leisure for serious employment. Yet such was the case. When Marianne was recovered, the schemes of amusement at home and abroad, which Sir John had been previously forming, were put into execution. The private balls at the park then began; and parties on the water were made and accomplished as often as a showery October would allow. In every meeting of the kind Willoughby was included; and the ease and familiarity which naturally attended these parties were exactly calculated to give increasing intimacy to his acquaintance with the Dashwoods, to afford him opportunity of witnessing the excellencies of Marianne, of marking his animated admiration of her, and of receiving, in her behaviour to himself, the most pointed assurance of her affection.

Little did Mrs. Dashwood or her daughters imagine when they first arrived in Devonshire that so many events would come up to fill their time as soon as they did, or that they would receive so many invitations and have so many visitors that they would have little time left for serious activities. Yet, that was the case. Once Marianne had recovered, the plans for entertainment at home and elsewhere, which Sir John had been making, were set in motion. The private balls at the park then began, and parties on the water were organized and held as often as the rainy October weather would allow. Willoughby was included in every one of these gatherings, and the relaxed atmosphere that naturally accompanied these events was perfectly suited to deepen his connection with the Dashwoods, giving him the chance to appreciate Marianne's qualities, to express his enthusiastic admiration for her, and to receive the clearest signs of her affection in the way she acted towards him.

Elinor could not be surprised at their attachment. She only wished that it were less openly shown; and once or twice did venture to suggest the propriety of some self-command to Marianne. But Marianne abhorred all concealment where no real disgrace could attend unreserve; and to aim at the restraint of sentiments which were not in themselves illaudable, appeared to her not merely an unnecessary effort, but a disgraceful subjection of reason to common-place and mistaken notions. Willoughby thought the same; and their behaviour at all times, was an illustration of their opinions.

Elinor couldn't be surprised by their connection. She just wished it was less obvious; and once or twice she suggested to Marianne that it would be proper to exercise some self-control. But Marianne hated any kind of concealment when there was no real shame in being open, and trying to hold back feelings that weren't actually wrong seemed to her not only unnecessary but also a shameful surrender of reason to ordinary and misguided ideas. Willoughby felt the same way, and their behavior at all times reflected their beliefs.

When he was present she had no eyes for any one else. Every thing he did, was right. Every thing he said, was clever. If their evenings at the park were concluded with cards, he cheated himself and all the rest of the party to get her a good hand. If dancing formed the amusement of the night, they were partners for half the time; and when obliged to separate for a couple of dances, were careful to stand together and scarcely spoke a word to any body else. Such conduct made them of course most exceedingly laughed at; but ridicule could not shame, and seemed hardly to provoke them.

When he was around, she noticed no one else. Everything he did was right. Everything he said was clever. If their evenings at the park ended with cards, he cheated himself and everyone else just to get her a good hand. If they spent the night dancing, they partnered up for half the time, and when they had to separate for a couple of dances, they made sure to stand close together and hardly spoke to anyone else. This behavior obviously made them the target of a lot of laughter, but mockery couldn't shame them and barely seemed to bother them.

Mrs. Dashwood entered into all their feelings with a warmth which left her no inclination for checking this excessive display of them. To her it was but the natural consequence of a strong affection in a young and ardent mind.

Mrs. Dashwood shared in all their emotions with a warmth that made her have no desire to hold back this excessive display of feelings. To her, it was simply the natural result of strong affection in a young and passionate mind.

This was the season of happiness to Marianne. Her heart was devoted to Willoughby, and the fond attachment to Norland, which she brought with her from Sussex, was more likely to be softened than she had thought it possible before, by the charms which his society bestowed on her present home.

This was the happiest time for Marianne. Her heart was set on Willoughby, and the deep affection she had for Norland, which she brought with her from Sussex, was more likely to be softened than she had ever imagined by the joys that his company brought to her current home.

Elinor’s happiness was not so great. Her heart was not so much at ease, nor her satisfaction in their amusements so pure. They afforded her no companion that could make amends for what she had left behind, nor that could teach her to think of Norland with less regret than ever. Neither Lady Middleton nor Mrs. Jennings could supply to her the conversation she missed; although the latter was an everlasting talker, and from the first had regarded her with a kindness which ensured her a large share of her discourse. She had already repeated her own history to Elinor three or four times; and had Elinor’s memory been equal to her means of improvement, she might have known very early in their acquaintance all the particulars of Mr. Jennings’s last illness, and what he said to his wife a few minutes before he died. Lady Middleton was more agreeable than her mother only in being more silent. Elinor needed little observation to perceive that her reserve was a mere calmness of manner with which sense had nothing to do. Towards her husband and mother she was the same as to them; and intimacy was therefore neither to be looked for nor desired. She had nothing to say one day that she had not said the day before. Her insipidity was invariable, for even her spirits were always the same; and though she did not oppose the parties arranged by her husband, provided every thing were conducted in style and her two eldest children attended her, she never appeared to receive more enjoyment from them than she might have experienced in sitting at home;—and so little did her presence add to the pleasure of the others, by any share in their conversation, that they were sometimes only reminded of her being amongst them by her solicitude about her troublesome boys.

Elinor's happiness wasn't as strong. Her heart was not at ease, nor was her enjoyment of their activities genuine. They offered her no companionship that could make up for what she had left behind, nor could they help her think of Norland with any less regret. Neither Lady Middleton nor Mrs. Jennings could provide the conversation she longed for; even though the latter was a constant chatterbox and had always treated her with a kindness that guaranteed she had plenty to say. She had already shared her own story with Elinor three or four times, and if Elinor's memory had matched her capacity for learning, she could have known all the details of Mr. Jennings's last illness and what he said to his wife just minutes before he passed away early in their acquaintance. Lady Middleton was only more pleasant than her mother because she talked less. Elinor quickly realized that her quietness was merely a calm demeanor that had nothing to do with intelligence. She was the same with her husband and mother as they were with her, so close relationships were neither expected nor wanted. She had nothing new to say one day that she hadn't already said the day before. Her dullness was constant, for even her mood was always the same; and although she didn't mind the parties arranged by her husband, as long as everything was done properly and her two oldest children were with her, she never seemed to enjoy them more than if she had stayed home. In fact, her presence did so little to enhance the enjoyment of others during these gatherings that they sometimes only remembered she was there when she worried about her unruly boys.

In Colonel Brandon alone, of all her new acquaintance, did Elinor find a person who could in any degree claim the respect of abilities, excite the interest of friendship, or give pleasure as a companion. Willoughby was out of the question. Her admiration and regard, even her sisterly regard, was all his own; but he was a lover; his attentions were wholly Marianne’s, and a far less agreeable man might have been more generally pleasing. Colonel Brandon, unfortunately for himself, had no such encouragement to think only of Marianne, and in conversing with Elinor he found the greatest consolation for the indifference of her sister.

In Colonel Brandon, out of all her new acquaintances, Elinor found someone who could, in some way, earn her respect with his abilities, spark her interest in friendship, and provide enjoyment as a companion. Willoughby was not an option. Her admiration and affection, even her sisterly love, were all directed at him; but he was a lover, and his attention was entirely focused on Marianne, while a far less charming man might have been more widely appreciated. Unfortunately for himself, Colonel Brandon had no such encouragement to focus solely on Marianne, and in talking with Elinor, he found the greatest comfort in her sister’s indifference.

Elinor’s compassion for him increased, as she had reason to suspect that the misery of disappointed love had already been known to him. This suspicion was given by some words which accidentally dropped from him one evening at the park, when they were sitting down together by mutual consent, while the others were dancing. His eyes were fixed on Marianne, and, after a silence of some minutes, he said, with a faint smile, “Your sister, I understand, does not approve of second attachments.”

Elinor’s sympathy for him grew as she suspected he had experienced the pain of unrequited love before. This suspicion arose from a few words he accidentally let slip one evening in the park while they were sitting together by mutual agreement, watching others dance. His gaze was focused on Marianne, and after a few moments of silence, he said with a slight smile, “I understand your sister isn’t a fan of second chances in love.”

“No,” replied Elinor, “her opinions are all romantic.”

“No,” replied Elinor, “her views are all unrealistic.”

“Or rather, as I believe, she considers them impossible to exist.”

“Or rather, as I believe, she thinks they can't possibly exist.”

“I believe she does. But how she contrives it without reflecting on the character of her own father, who had himself two wives, I know not. A few years however will settle her opinions on the reasonable basis of common sense and observation; and then they may be more easy to define and to justify than they now are, by any body but herself.”

“I think she does. But I don't understand how she manages to do that without considering the character of her own father, who had two wives himself. A few years will, however, shape her views on a more sensible basis of common sense and observation; and then her opinions may be easier to define and justify than they are now, by anyone except herself.”

“This will probably be the case,” he replied; “and yet there is something so amiable in the prejudices of a young mind, that one is sorry to see them give way to the reception of more general opinions.”

“This will probably be true,” he replied; “and yet there’s something so charming about the biases of a young mind that it’s a pity to see them replaced by broader views.”

“I cannot agree with you there,” said Elinor. “There are inconveniences attending such feelings as Marianne’s, which all the charms of enthusiasm and ignorance of the world cannot atone for. Her systems have all the unfortunate tendency of setting propriety at nought; and a better acquaintance with the world is what I look forward to as her greatest possible advantage.”

“I can’t agree with you on that,” Elinor said. “There are drawbacks to feelings like Marianne’s that all the excitement and lack of worldly knowledge can’t make up for. Her ideas have the unfortunate tendency to completely disregard propriety; and I see a better understanding of the world as her greatest potential benefit.”

After a short pause he resumed the conversation by saying,—

After a brief pause, he continued the conversation by saying, —

“Does your sister make no distinction in her objections against a second attachment? or is it equally criminal in every body? Are those who have been disappointed in their first choice, whether from the inconstancy of its object, or the perverseness of circumstances, to be equally indifferent during the rest of their lives?”

“Does your sister not differentiate in her objections to a second relationship? Or is it equally wrong for everyone? Should those who were let down by their first choice, whether because of someone's unfaithfulness or unfortunate circumstances, remain indifferent for the rest of their lives?”

“Upon my word, I am not acquainted with the minutiae of her principles. I only know that I never yet heard her admit any instance of a second attachment’s being pardonable.”

"Honestly, I'm not familiar with the details of her beliefs. I only know that I've never heard her say that a second attachment is excusable."

“This,” said he, “cannot hold; but a change, a total change of sentiments—No, no, do not desire it; for when the romantic refinements of a young mind are obliged to give way, how frequently are they succeeded by such opinions as are but too common, and too dangerous! I speak from experience. I once knew a lady who in temper and mind greatly resembled your sister, who thought and judged like her, but who from an enforced change—from a series of unfortunate circumstances—” Here he stopt suddenly; appeared to think that he had said too much, and by his countenance gave rise to conjectures, which might not otherwise have entered Elinor’s head. The lady would probably have passed without suspicion, had he not convinced Miss Dashwood that what concerned her ought not to escape his lips. As it was, it required but a slight effort of fancy to connect his emotion with the tender recollection of past regard. Elinor attempted no more. But Marianne, in her place, would not have done so little. The whole story would have been speedily formed under her active imagination; and every thing established in the most melancholy order of disastrous love.

“This,” he said, “can’t go on; but a change, a complete change of feelings—No, no, don’t wish for that; because when the romantic ideals of a young mind have to give way, they’re often replaced by pretty common and dangerous views! I’m speaking from experience. I once knew a woman who in temperament and mindset was very much like your sister, who thought and judged like her, but who through an enforced change—from a series of unfortunate events—” He suddenly stopped, seeming to realize he had said too much, and his expression hinted at thoughts that Elinor might not have considered otherwise. The woman would likely have gone unnoticed if he hadn’t made Miss Dashwood believe that what was relevant to her shouldn’t remain unspoken. As it was, it took only a small leap of imagination to link his feelings to a bittersweet memory of past affection. Elinor didn’t pursue it further. But if Marianne had been there, she wouldn’t have let it go like that. She would have quickly pieced together the entire story in her vivid imagination, turning everything into the most tragic tale of doomed love.

CHAPTER XII.

As Elinor and Marianne were walking together the next morning the latter communicated a piece of news to her sister, which in spite of all that she knew before of Marianne’s imprudence and want of thought, surprised her by its extravagant testimony of both. Marianne told her, with the greatest delight, that Willoughby had given her a horse, one that he had bred himself on his estate in Somersetshire, and which was exactly calculated to carry a woman. Without considering that it was not in her mother’s plan to keep any horse, that if she were to alter her resolution in favour of this gift, she must buy another for the servant, and keep a servant to ride it, and after all, build a stable to receive them, she had accepted the present without hesitation, and told her sister of it in raptures.

As Elinor and Marianne were walking together the next morning, Marianne shared some news with her sister that, despite what she already knew about Marianne’s recklessness and lack of thought, still surprised her with its outrageousness. Marianne happily told her that Willoughby had given her a horse — one that he had bred himself on his estate in Somersetshire, and it was perfect for a woman to ride. Without considering that it wasn't in their mother’s plans to keep a horse, that accepting this gift would mean needing to buy another horse for the servant, hire a servant to ride it, and eventually build a stable for them, she had accepted the gift without a second thought and excitedly told her sister about it.

“He intends to send his groom into Somersetshire immediately for it,” she added, “and when it arrives we will ride every day. You shall share its use with me. Imagine to yourself, my dear Elinor, the delight of a gallop on some of these downs.”

“He plans to send his groom to Somersetshire right away for it,” she added, “and when it arrives, we’ll ride every day. You can join me in using it. Just imagine, my dear Elinor, the joy of a gallop on some of these hills.”

Most unwilling was she to awaken from such a dream of felicity to comprehend all the unhappy truths which attended the affair; and for some time she refused to submit to them. As to an additional servant, the expense would be a trifle; Mama she was sure would never object to it; and any horse would do for him; he might always get one at the park; as to a stable, the merest shed would be sufficient. Elinor then ventured to doubt the propriety of her receiving such a present from a man so little, or at least so lately known to her. This was too much.

She was very reluctant to wake up from such a dream of happiness and face all the unhappy truths surrounding the situation; for a while, she refused to accept them. As for an extra servant, the cost would be minimal; she was sure Mama would never mind it, and any horse would work for him; he could always find one at the park; even a simple shed would be enough for a stable. Elinor then cautiously questioned whether it was appropriate for her to accept such a gift from a man she barely knew, or had only recently met. That was too much.

“You are mistaken, Elinor,” said she warmly, “in supposing I know very little of Willoughby. I have not known him long indeed, but I am much better acquainted with him, than I am with any other creature in the world, except yourself and mama. It is not time or opportunity that is to determine intimacy;—it is disposition alone. Seven years would be insufficient to make some people acquainted with each other, and seven days are more than enough for others. I should hold myself guilty of greater impropriety in accepting a horse from my brother, than from Willoughby. Of John I know very little, though we have lived together for years; but of Willoughby my judgment has long been formed.”

“You’re mistaken, Elinor,” she said warmly, “if you think I don’t know much about Willoughby. I haven’t known him for long, but I know him much better than I know anyone else in the world, except for you and Mom. It’s not the time or chances that create closeness; it’s just a matter of personality. Seven years wouldn’t be enough for some people to get to know each other, while seven days would be more than enough for others. I would feel more uncomfortable accepting a horse from my brother than from Willoughby. I don’t know much about John, even though we’ve lived together for years, but I’ve formed my opinion about Willoughby a long time ago.”

Elinor thought it wisest to touch that point no more. She knew her sister’s temper. Opposition on so tender a subject would only attach her the more to her own opinion. But by an appeal to her affection for her mother, by representing the inconveniences which that indulgent mother must draw on herself, if (as would probably be the case) she consented to this increase of establishment, Marianne was shortly subdued; and she promised not to tempt her mother to such imprudent kindness by mentioning the offer, and to tell Willoughby when she saw him next, that it must be declined.

Elinor thought it was best not to bring up that topic again. She understood her sister’s temperament. Arguing about such a sensitive issue would only make Marianne more attached to her own opinion. However, by appealing to Marianne's love for their mother and highlighting the difficulties their caring mother would face if she agreed to this added expense, Elinor soon managed to convince her sister. Marianne promised not to urge their mother into making such a reckless decision by mentioning the offer, and to tell Willoughby the next time she saw him that they would have to turn it down.

She was faithful to her word; and when Willoughby called at the cottage, the same day, Elinor heard her express her disappointment to him in a low voice, on being obliged to forego the acceptance of his present. The reasons for this alteration were at the same time related, and they were such as to make further entreaty on his side impossible. His concern however was very apparent; and after expressing it with earnestness, he added, in the same low voice,—“But, Marianne, the horse is still yours, though you cannot use it now. I shall keep it only till you can claim it. When you leave Barton to form your own establishment in a more lasting home, Queen Mab shall receive you.”

She kept her promise; and when Willoughby visited the cottage that same day, Elinor heard her quietly express her disappointment to him about having to turn down his gift. She explained the reasons for this change, which made it impossible for him to insist further. However, his concern was very clear; after expressing it sincerely, he added, in the same low voice, “But, Marianne, the horse is still yours, even if you can't use it right now. I'll keep it safe until you can claim it. When you leave Barton to set up your own place in a more permanent home, Queen Mab will be waiting for you.”

This was all overheard by Miss Dashwood; and in the whole of the sentence, in his manner of pronouncing it, and in his addressing her sister by her Christian name alone, she instantly saw an intimacy so decided, a meaning so direct, as marked a perfect agreement between them. From that moment she doubted not of their being engaged to each other; and the belief of it created no other surprise than that she, or any of their friends, should be left by tempers so frank, to discover it by accident.

This was all heard by Miss Dashwood; and in the way the whole sentence was said, in the way he pronounced it, and in how he addressed her sister by her first name only, she immediately noticed a closeness that was clear, a meaning that was straightforward, indicating a perfect understanding between them. From that moment, she had no doubt that they were engaged to each other; and the only surprise it brought was that she, or any of their friends, should be left by such open personalities to find out by chance.

Margaret related something to her the next day, which placed this matter in a still clearer light. Willoughby had spent the preceding evening with them, and Margaret, by being left some time in the parlour with only him and Marianne, had had opportunity for observations, which, with a most important face, she communicated to her eldest sister, when they were next by themselves.

Margaret shared something with her the next day that made this situation even clearer. Willoughby had spent the previous evening with them, and Margaret, having been left alone in the living room with just him and Marianne for a while, had the chance to make some observations. With a very serious expression, she told her oldest sister about it when they were next alone together.

“Oh, Elinor!” she cried, “I have such a secret to tell you about Marianne. I am sure she will be married to Mr. Willoughby very soon.”

“Oh, Elinor!” she exclaimed, “I have such a secret to share with you about Marianne. I’m sure she will marry Mr. Willoughby very soon.”

“You have said so,” replied Elinor, “almost every day since they first met on High-church Down; and they had not known each other a week, I believe, before you were certain that Marianne wore his picture round her neck; but it turned out to be only the miniature of our great uncle.”

“You've said that,” Elinor replied, “almost every day since they first met on High-church Down; and I think it wasn't even a week before you were sure that Marianne was wearing his picture around her neck; but it turned out to just be the miniature of our great uncle.”

“But indeed this is quite another thing. I am sure they will be married very soon, for he has got a lock of her hair.”

“But really, this is a whole different matter. I'm sure they'll get married very soon because he has a lock of her hair.”

“Take care, Margaret. It may be only the hair of some great uncle of his.”

“Take care, Margaret. It might just be the hair of some distant uncle of his.”

“But, indeed, Elinor, it is Marianne’s. I am almost sure it is, for I saw him cut it off. Last night after tea, when you and mama went out of the room, they were whispering and talking together as fast as could be, and he seemed to be begging something of her, and presently he took up her scissors and cut off a long lock of her hair, for it was all tumbled down her back; and he kissed it, and folded it up in a piece of white paper; and put it into his pocket-book.”

“But really, Elinor, it's Marianne's. I'm almost certain it is because I saw him cut it off. Last night after tea, when you and Mom left the room, they were whispering and talking really quickly, and he looked like he was asking her for something. Then he picked up her scissors and cut off a long lock of her hair since it was all messed up down her back; he kissed it, folded it in a piece of white paper, and put it in his wallet.”

For such particulars, stated on such authority, Elinor could not withhold her credit; nor was she disposed to it, for the circumstance was in perfect unison with what she had heard and seen herself.

For details like these, given such reliable authority, Elinor couldn't deny their truth; nor was she inclined to, since the situation completely matched what she had heard and seen herself.

Margaret’s sagacity was not always displayed in a way so satisfactory to her sister. When Mrs. Jennings attacked her one evening at the park, to give the name of the young man who was Elinor’s particular favourite, which had been long a matter of great curiosity to her, Margaret answered by looking at her sister, and saying, “I must not tell, may I, Elinor?”

Margaret’s wisdom wasn’t always shown in a way that pleased her sister. One evening at the park, when Mrs. Jennings pressed her to reveal the name of Elinor’s special favorite, which had intrigued her for a long time, Margaret looked at her sister and said, “I can’t tell, can I, Elinor?”

This of course made every body laugh; and Elinor tried to laugh too. But the effort was painful. She was convinced that Margaret had fixed on a person whose name she could not bear with composure to become a standing joke with Mrs. Jennings.

This, of course, made everyone laugh; and Elinor tried to laugh too. But the effort was painful. She was sure that Margaret had chosen someone whose name she couldn't stand being a running joke with Mrs. Jennings.

Marianne felt for her most sincerely; but she did more harm than good to the cause, by turning very red and saying in an angry manner to Margaret,

Marianne genuinely empathized with her; however, she ended up doing more harm than good to the situation by turning bright red and saying in an annoyed tone to Margaret,

“Remember that whatever your conjectures may be, you have no right to repeat them.”

“Remember that no matter what your guesses might be, you have no right to share them.”

“I never had any conjectures about it,” replied Margaret; “it was you who told me of it yourself.”

“I never thought about it,” Margaret replied. “You were the one who mentioned it to me.”

This increased the mirth of the company, and Margaret was eagerly pressed to say something more.

This made everyone in the group even happier, and Margaret was excitedly encouraged to say more.

“Oh! pray, Miss Margaret, let us know all about it,” said Mrs. Jennings. “What is the gentleman’s name?”

“Oh! Please, Miss Margaret, tell us everything,” said Mrs. Jennings. “What’s the gentleman’s name?”

“I must not tell, ma’am. But I know very well what it is; and I know where he is too.”

“I can’t say, ma’am. But I know exactly what it is, and I know where he is, too.”

“Yes, yes, we can guess where he is; at his own house at Norland to be sure. He is the curate of the parish I dare say.”

“Yes, yes, we can guess where he is; at his own house in Norland, of course. He’s probably the curate of the parish.”

“No, that he is not. He is of no profession at all.”

“No, he's not. He doesn't have any profession at all.”

“Margaret,” said Marianne with great warmth, “you know that all this is an invention of your own, and that there is no such person in existence.”

“Margaret,” Marianne said warmly, “you know this is all your own imagination, and that no one like that actually exists.”

“Well, then, he is lately dead, Marianne, for I am sure there was such a man once, and his name begins with an F.”

“Well, then, he has recently passed away, Marianne, because I’m certain there was a man like that, and his name starts with an F.”

Most grateful did Elinor feel to Lady Middleton for observing, at this moment, “that it rained very hard,” though she believed the interruption to proceed less from any attention to her, than from her ladyship’s great dislike of all such inelegant subjects of raillery as delighted her husband and mother. The idea however started by her, was immediately pursued by Colonel Brandon, who was on every occasion mindful of the feelings of others; and much was said on the subject of rain by both of them. Willoughby opened the piano-forte, and asked Marianne to sit down to it; and thus amidst the various endeavours of different people to quit the topic, it fell to the ground. But not so easily did Elinor recover from the alarm into which it had thrown her.

Elinor was very grateful to Lady Middleton for pointing out, at that moment, “that it was raining very hard,” although she believed the interruption stemmed less from any concern for her and more from Lady Middleton's strong dislike for unrefined subjects of teasing that her husband and mother enjoyed. However, the comment sparked a conversation that Colonel Brandon quickly joined, always sensitive to others' feelings; they talked a lot about the rain. Willoughby opened the piano and asked Marianne to play, and so, despite everyone's efforts to change the subject, the discussion faded away. But Elinor didn't easily shake off the anxiety it caused her.

A party was formed this evening for going on the following day to see a very fine place about twelve miles from Barton, belonging to a brother-in-law of Colonel Brandon, without whose interest it could not be seen, as the proprietor, who was then abroad, had left strict orders on that head. The grounds were declared to be highly beautiful, and Sir John, who was particularly warm in their praise, might be allowed to be a tolerable judge, for he had formed parties to visit them, at least, twice every summer for the last ten years. They contained a noble piece of water; a sail on which was to form a great part of the morning’s amusement; cold provisions were to be taken, open carriages only to be employed, and every thing conducted in the usual style of a complete party of pleasure.

A group was put together this evening to visit a beautiful estate about twelve miles from Barton, which belonged to Colonel Brandon's brother-in-law. Without Brandon’s connection, they wouldn’t be able to see it, as the owner, who was currently abroad, had given strict instructions about that. The grounds were said to be stunning, and Sir John, who praised them enthusiastically, could be considered a decent judge since he had organized trips to see them at least twice every summer for the past ten years. The estate featured a lovely body of water, which was planned to be a significant part of the morning's fun; they were to bring picnic food, use only open carriages, and everything would be arranged in the typical style of a perfect outing.

To some few of the company it appeared rather a bold undertaking, considering the time of year, and that it had rained every day for the last fortnight;—and Mrs. Dashwood, who had already a cold, was persuaded by Elinor to stay at home.

To a few in the group, it seemed like a daring thing to do, given the time of year and the fact that it had rained every day for the last two weeks;—and Mrs. Dashwood, who already had a cold, was convinced by Elinor to stay home.

CHAPTER XIII.

Their intended excursion to Whitwell turned out very different from what Elinor had expected. She was prepared to be wet through, fatigued, and frightened; but the event was still more unfortunate, for they did not go at all.

Their planned trip to Whitwell ended up being completely different from what Elinor had anticipated. She was ready to be soaked, tired, and scared; but the situation was even worse, as they didn't go at all.

By ten o’clock the whole party was assembled at the park, where they were to breakfast. The morning was rather favourable, though it had rained all night, as the clouds were then dispersing across the sky, and the sun frequently appeared. They were all in high spirits and good humour, eager to be happy, and determined to submit to the greatest inconveniences and hardships rather than be otherwise.

By ten o’clock, the entire group had gathered at the park for breakfast. The morning was pretty nice, even though it had rained all night, since the clouds were breaking up across the sky and the sun was often shining through. Everyone was in great spirits and cheerful, ready to have fun, and willing to endure any inconveniences or difficulties to maintain that happiness.

While they were at breakfast the letters were brought in. Among the rest there was one for Colonel Brandon;—he took it, looked at the direction, changed colour, and immediately left the room.

While they were having breakfast, the letters were delivered. Among them was one for Colonel Brandon; he took it, glanced at the address, changed color, and immediately left the room.

“What is the matter with Brandon?” said Sir John.

"What’s wrong with Brandon?" said Sir John.

Nobody could tell.

No one could tell.

“I hope he has had no bad news,” said Lady Middleton. “It must be something extraordinary that could make Colonel Brandon leave my breakfast table so suddenly.”

“I hope he hasn’t received any bad news,” said Lady Middleton. “It must be something really unusual to make Colonel Brandon leave my breakfast table so abruptly.”

In about five minutes he returned.

In about five minutes, he came back.

“No bad news, Colonel, I hope;” said Mrs. Jennings, as soon as he entered the room.

“No bad news, Colonel, I hope?” Mrs. Jennings said as soon as he walked into the room.

“None at all, ma’am, I thank you.”

“Not at all, ma’am, thank you.”

“Was it from Avignon? I hope it is not to say that your sister is worse.”

“Was it from Avignon? I hope that doesn’t mean your sister is doing worse.”

“No, ma’am. It came from town, and is merely a letter of business.”

“No, ma’am. It came from town and is just a business letter.”

“But how came the hand to discompose you so much, if it was only a letter of business? Come, come, this won’t do, Colonel; so let us hear the truth of it.”

“But how did the hand bother you so much if it was just a business letter? Come on, Colonel; let’s hear the truth.”

“My dear madam,” said Lady Middleton, “recollect what you are saying.”

“My dear madam,” said Lady Middleton, “remember what you are saying.”

“Perhaps it is to tell you that your cousin Fanny is married?” said Mrs. Jennings, without attending to her daughter’s reproof.

“Maybe it's to tell you that your cousin Fanny is married?” said Mrs. Jennings, ignoring her daughter's criticism.

“No, indeed, it is not.”

“No, it’s not.”

“Well, then, I know who it is from, Colonel. And I hope she is well.”

“Well, I know who it’s from, Colonel. I hope she’s doing well.”

“Whom do you mean, ma’am?” said he, colouring a little.

“Who do you mean, ma’am?” he asked, blushing a bit.

“Oh! you know who I mean.”

“Oh! You know who I'm talking about.”

“I am particularly sorry, ma’am,” said he, addressing Lady Middleton, “that I should receive this letter today, for it is on business which requires my immediate attendance in town.”

“I’m really sorry, ma’am,” he said, talking to Lady Middleton, “that I got this letter today because it’s about something that needs my urgent attention in town.”

“In town!” cried Mrs. Jennings. “What can you have to do in town at this time of year?”

“In town!” exclaimed Mrs. Jennings. “What could you possibly have to do in town at this time of year?”

“My own loss is great,” he continued, “in being obliged to leave so agreeable a party; but I am the more concerned, as I fear my presence is necessary to gain your admittance at Whitwell.”

“My loss is significant,” he continued, “having to leave such a pleasant gathering; but I’m even more worried because I fear my presence is needed to help you get into Whitwell.”

What a blow upon them all was this!

What a shock this was for all of them!

“But if you write a note to the housekeeper, Mr. Brandon,” said Marianne, eagerly, “will it not be sufficient?”

“But if you write a note to the housekeeper, Mr. Brandon,” Marianne said eagerly, “won't that be enough?”

He shook his head.

He shook his head.

“We must go,” said Sir John.—“It shall not be put off when we are so near it. You cannot go to town till tomorrow, Brandon, that is all.”

“We have to go,” Sir John said. “We can’t put it off now that we’re so close. You can’t head to town until tomorrow, Brandon, that’s all.”

“I wish it could be so easily settled. But it is not in my power to delay my journey for one day!”

“I wish it could be settled so easily. But I can’t delay my trip for even one day!”

“If you would but let us know what your business is,” said Mrs. Jennings, “we might see whether it could be put off or not.”

“If you could just let us know what your business is,” said Mrs. Jennings, “we might see if it can be postponed or not.”

“You would not be six hours later,” said Willoughby, “if you were to defer your journey till our return.”

“You wouldn’t be six hours late,” Willoughby said, “if you waited to start your journey until we get back.”

“I cannot afford to lose one hour.”

“I can't afford to lose one hour.”

Elinor then heard Willoughby say, in a low voice to Marianne, “There are some people who cannot bear a party of pleasure. Brandon is one of them. He was afraid of catching cold I dare say, and invented this trick for getting out of it. I would lay fifty guineas the letter was of his own writing.”

Elinor then heard Willoughby say, in a low voice to Marianne, “Some people just can’t handle a fun gathering. Brandon is one of those people. He was probably worried about catching a cold and came up with this excuse to avoid it. I bet fifty guineas that the letter was written by him.”

“I have no doubt of it,” replied Marianne.

“I have no doubt about it,” replied Marianne.

“There is no persuading you to change your mind, Brandon, I know of old,” said Sir John, “when once you are determined on anything. But, however, I hope you will think better of it. Consider, here are the two Miss Careys come over from Newton, the three Miss Dashwoods walked up from the cottage, and Mr. Willoughby got up two hours before his usual time, on purpose to go to Whitwell.”

“There’s no convincing you to change your mind, Brandon, I know that from experience,” Sir John said, “once you’ve made up your mind about something. But still, I hope you’ll reconsider. Think about it—Miss Careys came over from Newton, the three Miss Dashwoods walked up from the cottage, and Mr. Willoughby got up two hours earlier than usual just to go to Whitwell.”

Colonel Brandon again repeated his sorrow at being the cause of disappointing the party; but at the same time declared it to be unavoidable.

Colonel Brandon expressed his regret once more for disappointing the group, but he also stated that it was unavoidable.

“Well, then, when will you come back again?”

“Well, when will you come back?”

“I hope we shall see you at Barton,” added her ladyship, “as soon as you can conveniently leave town; and we must put off the party to Whitwell till you return.”

“I hope we will see you at Barton,” added her ladyship, “as soon as you can conveniently leave town; and we need to postpone the party at Whitwell until you return.”

“You are very obliging. But it is so uncertain, when I may have it in my power to return, that I dare not engage for it at all.”

“You're very accommodating. But it's so uncertain when I might be able to come back that I can't promise anything.”

“Oh! he must and shall come back,” cried Sir John. “If he is not here by the end of the week, I shall go after him.”

“Oh! he must and will come back,” shouted Sir John. “If he's not here by the end of the week, I will go after him.”

“Ay, so do, Sir John,” cried Mrs. Jennings, “and then perhaps you may find out what his business is.”

“Ay, go ahead, Sir John,” Mrs. Jennings exclaimed, “and then maybe you’ll discover what his business is.”

“I do not want to pry into other men’s concerns. I suppose it is something he is ashamed of.”

“I don’t want to invade other people’s privacy. I guess it’s something he’s embarrassed about.”

Colonel Brandon’s horses were announced.

Colonel Brandon’s horses arrived.

“You do not go to town on horseback, do you?” added Sir John.

“You don’t ride into town on horseback, do you?” added Sir John.

“No. Only to Honiton. I shall then go post.”

“No. Just to Honiton. After that, I’ll catch the post.”

“Well, as you are resolved to go, I wish you a good journey. But you had better change your mind.”

“Well, since you’ve made up your mind to go, I wish you a good trip. But it’s probably better if you reconsider.”

“I assure you it is not in my power.”

“I promise you, I can’t do it.”

He then took leave of the whole party.

He then said goodbye to everyone in the group.

“Is there no chance of my seeing you and your sisters in town this winter, Miss Dashwood?”

“Will I have any chance to see you and your sisters in town this winter, Miss Dashwood?”

“I am afraid, none at all.”

“Sorry, but not at all.”

“Then I must bid you farewell for a longer time than I should wish to do.”

“Then I have to say goodbye for longer than I would like.”

To Marianne, he merely bowed and said nothing.

To Marianne, he just bowed and said nothing.

“Come Colonel,” said Mrs. Jennings, “before you go, do let us know what you are going about.”

“Come on, Colonel,” said Mrs. Jennings, “before you leave, please tell us what you’re up to.”

He wished her a good morning, and, attended by Sir John, left the room.

He wished her a good morning and, accompanied by Sir John, left the room.

The complaints and lamentations which politeness had hitherto restrained, now burst forth universally; and they all agreed again and again how provoking it was to be so disappointed.

The complaints and lamentations that politeness had previously kept in check now erupted everywhere; and they all repeatedly expressed how frustrating it was to feel so let down.

“I can guess what his business is, however,” said Mrs. Jennings exultingly.

"I can guess what his business is, though," Mrs. Jennings said excitedly.

“Can you, ma’am?” said almost every body.

"Can you, ma'am?" everyone asked.

“Yes; it is about Miss Williams, I am sure.”

“Yes, it’s definitely about Miss Williams, I’m sure.”

“And who is Miss Williams?” asked Marianne.

“And who is Miss Williams?” Marianne asked.

“What! do not you know who Miss Williams is? I am sure you must have heard of her before. She is a relation of the Colonel’s, my dear; a very near relation. We will not say how near, for fear of shocking the young ladies.” Then, lowering her voice a little, she said to Elinor, “She is his natural daughter.”

“What! Don’t you know who Miss Williams is? I’m sure you must have heard of her before. She’s a relative of the Colonel’s, my dear; a very close relative. We won’t say how close, for fear of shocking the young ladies.” Then, lowering her voice a little, she said to Elinor, “She’s his illegitimate daughter.”

“Indeed!”

"Absolutely!"

“Oh, yes; and as like him as she can stare. I dare say the Colonel will leave her all his fortune.”

“Oh, yes; and she looks just like him. I bet the Colonel will leave her all his money.”

When Sir John returned, he joined most heartily in the general regret on so unfortunate an event; concluding however by observing, that as they were all got together, they must do something by way of being happy; and after some consultation it was agreed, that although happiness could only be enjoyed at Whitwell, they might procure a tolerable composure of mind by driving about the country. The carriages were then ordered; Willoughby’s was first, and Marianne never looked happier than when she got into it. He drove through the park very fast, and they were soon out of sight; and nothing more of them was seen till their return, which did not happen till after the return of all the rest. They both seemed delighted with their drive; but said only in general terms that they had kept in the lanes, while the others went on the downs.

When Sir John came back, he joined in the general sadness about such an unfortunate event. However, he suggested that since they were all together, they should do something to be happy. After discussing it, they agreed that even though true happiness could only be found at Whitwell, they could still achieve a decent peace of mind by driving around the countryside. They ordered the carriages, starting with Willoughby’s, and Marianne looked happier than ever as she got into it. He drove really fast through the park, and they quickly disappeared from view. They weren’t seen again until they returned, which wasn’t until after everyone else had come back. They both seemed thrilled with their drive but only mentioned in general terms that they had stayed in the lanes while the others were on the downs.

It was settled that there should be a dance in the evening, and that every body should be extremely merry all day long. Some more of the Careys came to dinner, and they had the pleasure of sitting down nearly twenty to table, which Sir John observed with great contentment. Willoughby took his usual place between the two elder Miss Dashwoods. Mrs. Jennings sat on Elinor’s right hand; and they had not been long seated, before she leant behind her and Willoughby, and said to Marianne, loud enough for them both to hear, “I have found you out in spite of all your tricks. I know where you spent the morning.”

It was decided that there would be a dance in the evening and that everyone should be very cheerful all day long. A few more of the Careys joined them for dinner, and they enjoyed the company of almost twenty at the table, which Sir John found very satisfying. Willoughby took his usual spot between the two older Miss Dashwoods. Mrs. Jennings sat to Elinor’s right; and they hadn’t been seated long before she leaned over behind her and Willoughby and said to Marianne, loud enough for both of them to hear, “I’ve figured you out despite all your tricks. I know where you spent the morning.”

Marianne coloured, and replied very hastily, “Where, pray?”

Marianne blushed and quickly replied, “Where, pray tell?”

“Did not you know,” said Willoughby, “that we had been out in my curricle?”

“Didn't you know,” said Willoughby, “that we had been out in my curricle?”

“Yes, yes, Mr. Impudence, I know that very well, and I was determined to find out where you had been to. I hope you like your house, Miss Marianne. It is a very large one, I know; and when I come to see you, I hope you will have new-furnished it, for it wanted it very much when I was there six years ago.”

“Yes, yes, Mr. Impudence, I know that very well, and I was determined to find out where you had been. I hope you like your house, Miss Marianne. It is a very large one, I know; and when I come to see you, I hope you will have redecorated it, because it really needed it when I was there six years ago.”

Marianne turned away in great confusion. Mrs. Jennings laughed heartily; and Elinor found that in her resolution to know where they had been, she had actually made her own woman enquire of Mr. Willoughby’s groom; and that she had by that method been informed that they had gone to Allenham, and spent a considerable time there in walking about the garden and going all over the house.

Marianne turned away, feeling very confused. Mrs. Jennings laughed heartily, and Elinor realized that in her determination to find out where they had been, she had actually made her own woman ask Mr. Willoughby’s groom. Through that means, she learned that they had gone to Allenham and spent a good amount of time walking around the garden and exploring the house.

Elinor could hardly believe this to be true, as it seemed very unlikely that Willoughby should propose, or Marianne consent, to enter the house while Mrs. Smith was in it, with whom Marianne had not the smallest acquaintance.

Elinor could hardly believe this to be true, as it seemed very unlikely that Willoughby would propose, or Marianne agree, to enter the house while Mrs. Smith was in it, with whom Marianne had not the slightest acquaintance.

As soon as they left the dining-room, Elinor enquired of her about it; and great was her surprise when she found that every circumstance related by Mrs. Jennings was perfectly true. Marianne was quite angry with her for doubting it.

As soon as they left the dining room, Elinor asked her about it; and she was very surprised to find that everything Mrs. Jennings had said was completely true. Marianne was really upset with her for doubting it.

“Why should you imagine, Elinor, that we did not go there, or that we did not see the house? Is not it what you have often wished to do yourself?”

“Why do you think, Elinor, that we didn’t go there or that we didn’t see the house? Isn’t it something you’ve often wanted to do yourself?”

“Yes, Marianne, but I would not go while Mrs. Smith was there, and with no other companion than Mr. Willoughby.”

“Yes, Marianne, but I wouldn’t go while Mrs. Smith was there, and with no one else but Mr. Willoughby.”

“Mr. Willoughby however is the only person who can have a right to show that house; and as he went in an open carriage, it was impossible to have any other companion. I never spent a pleasanter morning in my life.”

“Mr. Willoughby is the only one who has the right to show that house, and since he arrived in an open carriage, it was impossible for anyone else to join him. I've never had a more enjoyable morning in my life.”

“I am afraid,” replied Elinor, “that the pleasantness of an employment does not always evince its propriety.”

“I’m afraid,” Elinor replied, “that just because a job is enjoyable doesn’t mean it’s the right thing to do.”

“On the contrary, nothing can be a stronger proof of it, Elinor; for if there had been any real impropriety in what I did, I should have been sensible of it at the time, for we always know when we are acting wrong, and with such a conviction I could have had no pleasure.”

“On the contrary, nothing could prove it more, Elinor; because if there had been any real wrongdoing in what I did, I would have felt it at the time, since we always know when we're doing something wrong, and with that awareness, I couldn't have felt any pleasure.”

“But, my dear Marianne, as it has already exposed you to some very impertinent remarks, do you not now begin to doubt the discretion of your own conduct?”

“But, my dear Marianne, since it has already subjected you to some quite rude comments, don't you now start to question the wisdom of your own actions?”

“If the impertinent remarks of Mrs. Jennings are to be the proof of impropriety in conduct, we are all offending every moment of our lives. I value not her censure any more than I should do her commendation. I am not sensible of having done anything wrong in walking over Mrs. Smith’s grounds, or in seeing her house. They will one day be Mr. Willoughby’s, and—”

“If the rude comments from Mrs. Jennings are supposed to prove any kind of misconduct, then we’re all doing something wrong every second of our lives. I don’t care about her criticism any more than I would care about her praise. I don’t feel like I’ve done anything wrong by walking across Mrs. Smith’s land or by seeing her house. They will one day belong to Mr. Willoughby, and—”

“If they were one day to be your own, Marianne, you would not be justified in what you have done.”

“If they ever become yours, Marianne, you wouldn’t be justified in what you’ve done.”

She blushed at this hint; but it was even visibly gratifying to her; and after a ten minutes’ interval of earnest thought, she came to her sister again, and said with great good humour, “Perhaps, Elinor, it was rather ill-judged in me to go to Allenham; but Mr. Willoughby wanted particularly to show me the place; and it is a charming house, I assure you.—There is one remarkably pretty sitting room up stairs; of a nice comfortable size for constant use, and with modern furniture it would be delightful. It is a corner room, and has windows on two sides. On one side you look across the bowling-green, behind the house, to a beautiful hanging wood, and on the other you have a view of the church and village, and, beyond them, of those fine bold hills that we have so often admired. I did not see it to advantage, for nothing could be more forlorn than the furniture,—but if it were newly fitted up—a couple of hundred pounds, Willoughby says, would make it one of the pleasantest summer-rooms in England.”

She blushed at this suggestion; but it was also clearly satisfying to her; and after ten minutes of serious thought, she returned to her sister and said with a cheerful tone, “Maybe, Elinor, it was a bit unwise of me to go to Allenham; but Mr. Willoughby really wanted to show me the place, and it's a lovely house, I promise you. There’s one especially pretty living room upstairs; it's a nice, cozy size for everyday use, and with modern furniture, it would be wonderful. It's a corner room with windows on two sides. On one side, you can see across the bowling green behind the house to a beautiful sloping wood, and on the other side, you have a view of the church and village, and beyond them, those striking hills we’ve admired so often. I didn’t see it at its best, because the furniture was utterly dreary — but if it were newly furnished, Mr. Willoughby says a couple of hundred pounds would make it one of the nicest summer rooms in England.”

Could Elinor have listened to her without interruption from the others, she would have described every room in the house with equal delight.

If Elinor could have listened to her without interruptions from the others, she would have joyfully described every room in the house.

CHAPTER XIV.

The sudden termination of Colonel Brandon’s visit at the park, with his steadiness in concealing its cause, filled the mind, and raised the wonder of Mrs. Jennings for two or three days; she was a great wonderer, as every one must be who takes a very lively interest in all the comings and goings of all their acquaintance. She wondered, with little intermission what could be the reason of it; was sure there must be some bad news, and thought over every kind of distress that could have befallen him, with a fixed determination that he should not escape them all.

The sudden end of Colonel Brandon’s visit to the park, along with his calmness in hiding the reason, intrigued Mrs. Jennings for a couple of days; she was quite the curious person, as anyone would be who is very invested in the comings and goings of their friends. She kept wondering, almost nonstop, what the reason could be; she was convinced there had to be some bad news and considered every possible misfortune that could have happened to him, firmly believing he wouldn’t get away from them all.

“Something very melancholy must be the matter, I am sure,” said she. “I could see it in his face. Poor man! I am afraid his circumstances may be bad. The estate at Delaford was never reckoned more than two thousand a year, and his brother left everything sadly involved. I do think he must have been sent for about money matters, for what else can it be? I wonder whether it is so. I would give anything to know the truth of it. Perhaps it is about Miss Williams and, by the bye, I dare say it is, because he looked so conscious when I mentioned her. May be she is ill in town; nothing in the world more likely, for I have a notion she is always rather sickly. I would lay any wager it is about Miss Williams. It is not so very likely he should be distressed in his circumstances now, for he is a very prudent man, and to be sure must have cleared the estate by this time. I wonder what it can be! May be his sister is worse at Avignon, and has sent for him over. His setting off in such a hurry seems very like it. Well, I wish him out of all his trouble with all my heart, and a good wife into the bargain.”

“Something must be really upsetting, I’m sure,” she said. “I could see it in his expression. Poor guy! I’m worried his situation might be tough. The estate at Delaford was never worth more than two thousand a year, and his brother left everything in a mess. I really think he must have been called about money issues; what else could it be? I wonder if that’s the case. I’d do anything to find out the truth. Maybe it has to do with Miss Williams, and by the way, I bet it does, because he looked so awkward when I mentioned her. She might be sick in town; it’s very possible, since I have a feeling she’s often unwell. I would bet anything it’s about Miss Williams. It’s not very likely he should be in a tough spot right now, since he’s a careful man and must have sorted out the estate by this point. I wonder what it could be! Maybe his sister is worse off in Avignon and has called for him. His rushing out seems to suggest that. Well, I truly wish him all the best in resolving his troubles and hope he finds a good wife too.”

So wondered, so talked Mrs. Jennings. Her opinion varying with every fresh conjecture, and all seeming equally probable as they arose. Elinor, though she felt really interested in the welfare of Colonel Brandon, could not bestow all the wonder on his going so suddenly away, which Mrs. Jennings was desirous of her feeling; for besides that the circumstance did not in her opinion justify such lasting amazement or variety of speculation, her wonder was otherwise disposed of. It was engrossed by the extraordinary silence of her sister and Willoughby on the subject, which they must know to be peculiarly interesting to them all. As this silence continued, every day made it appear more strange and more incompatible with the disposition of both. Why they should not openly acknowledge to her mother and herself, what their constant behaviour to each other declared to have taken place, Elinor could not imagine.

Mrs. Jennings kept wondering and talking. Her opinions changed with each new theory, and all of them seemed equally possible. Elinor, although genuinely concerned about Colonel Brandon's well-being, couldn’t share in Mrs. Jennings's intense curiosity about his sudden departure. She didn’t think the situation warranted such lasting surprise or endless speculation, and her attention was focused elsewhere. What really captivated her was the unusual silence between her sister and Willoughby on this topic, which they must know was particularly significant for all of them. As this silence continued, it began to seem stranger and more out of character for both of them. Elinor couldn’t understand why they wouldn’t just openly acknowledge to her mother and herself what their consistent behavior hinted had happened.

She could easily conceive that marriage might not be immediately in their power; for though Willoughby was independent, there was no reason to believe him rich. His estate had been rated by Sir John at about six or seven hundred a year; but he lived at an expense to which that income could hardly be equal, and he had himself often complained of his poverty. But for this strange kind of secrecy maintained by them relative to their engagement, which in fact concealed nothing at all, she could not account; and it was so wholly contradictory to their general opinions and practice, that a doubt sometimes entered her mind of their being really engaged, and this doubt was enough to prevent her making any inquiry of Marianne.

She could easily understand that getting married might not be possible for them right away; even though Willoughby was independent, there was no reason to think he was wealthy. Sir John had estimated his estate to be around six or seven hundred a year, but he lived at a level of expense that that income could barely support, and he had frequently complained about his lack of money. However, she couldn't explain the strange kind of secrecy they maintained about their engagement, which didn't really hide anything at all; it was so completely contrary to their usual beliefs and behavior that she sometimes began to doubt whether they were truly engaged, and that doubt was enough to stop her from asking Marianne any questions.

Nothing could be more expressive of attachment to them all, than Willoughby’s behaviour. To Marianne it had all the distinguishing tenderness which a lover’s heart could give, and to the rest of the family it was the affectionate attention of a son and a brother. The cottage seemed to be considered and loved by him as his home; many more of his hours were spent there than at Allenham; and if no general engagement collected them at the park, the exercise which called him out in the morning was almost certain of ending there, where the rest of the day was spent by himself at the side of Marianne, and by his favourite pointer at her feet.

Nothing expressed his attachment to all of them more than Willoughby’s behavior. To Marianne, it had all the tender affection that a lover's heart could offer, and to the rest of the family, it was the warm attention of a son and a brother. He seemed to consider the cottage as his home and loved it; he spent many more hours there than at Allenham. If there wasn’t a big gathering at the park, his morning outings almost always ended there, where he would spend the rest of the day by Marianne’s side, while his favorite pointer rested at her feet.

One evening in particular, about a week after Colonel Brandon left the country, his heart seemed more than usually open to every feeling of attachment to the objects around him; and on Mrs. Dashwood’s happening to mention her design of improving the cottage in the spring, he warmly opposed every alteration of a place which affection had established as perfect with him.

One evening, about a week after Colonel Brandon left the area, he felt especially connected to everything around him. When Mrs. Dashwood brought up her plans to improve the cottage in the spring, he strongly opposed any changes to a place that his affection had made perfect in his eyes.

“What!” he exclaimed—“Improve this dear cottage! No. That I will never consent to. Not a stone must be added to its walls, not an inch to its size, if my feelings are regarded.”

“What!” he exclaimed—“Improve this lovely cottage! No. That I'll never agree to. Not a single stone should be added to its walls, not an inch to its size, if my feelings are taken into account.”

“Do not be alarmed,” said Miss Dashwood, “nothing of the kind will be done; for my mother will never have money enough to attempt it.”

“Don’t worry,” said Miss Dashwood, “nothing like that will happen; my mother will never have enough money to try it.”

“I am heartily glad of it,” he cried. “May she always be poor, if she can employ her riches no better.”

“I’m really glad about that,” he exclaimed. “May she always be poor if she can use her wealth no better.”

“Thank you, Willoughby. But you may be assured that I would not sacrifice one sentiment of local attachment of yours, or of any one whom I loved, for all the improvements in the world. Depend upon it that whatever unemployed sum may remain, when I make up my accounts in the spring, I would even rather lay it uselessly by than dispose of it in a manner so painful to you. But are you really so attached to this place as to see no defect in it?”

“Thank you, Willoughby. But you can be sure that I wouldn’t give up one bit of your local ties or those of anyone I care about for all the progress in the world. Trust me, whatever leftover money I have when I settle my accounts in the spring, I would rather let it sit unused than spend it in a way that hurts you. But are you really so attached to this place that you don’t see any flaws in it?”

“I am,” said he. “To me it is faultless. Nay, more, I consider it as the only form of building in which happiness is attainable, and were I rich enough I would instantly pull Combe down, and build it up again in the exact plan of this cottage.”

“I am,” he said. “To me, it’s perfect. In fact, I believe it’s the only type of building where happiness can be found, and if I were rich enough, I would immediately tear down Combe and rebuild it exactly like this cottage.”

“With dark narrow stairs and a kitchen that smokes, I suppose,” said Elinor.

“With dark, narrow stairs and a kitchen that smokes, I guess,” said Elinor.

“Yes,” cried he in the same eager tone, “with all and every thing belonging to it;—in no one convenience or inconvenience about it, should the least variation be perceptible. Then, and then only, under such a roof, I might perhaps be as happy at Combe as I have been at Barton.”

“Yes,” he exclaimed in the same eager tone, “with everything that comes with it;—there should be no noticeable change in any convenience or inconvenience. Only then, under such a roof, might I be as happy at Combe as I have been at Barton.”

“I flatter myself,” replied Elinor, “that even under the disadvantage of better rooms and a broader staircase, you will hereafter find your own house as faultless as you now do this.”

“I take pride in thinking,” replied Elinor, “that even with the advantage of better rooms and a wider staircase, you will in the future find your own house just as perfect as you see this one now.”

“There certainly are circumstances,” said Willoughby, “which might greatly endear it to me; but this place will always have one claim of my affection, which no other can possibly share.”

“There definitely are situations,” said Willoughby, “that could really make me love it; but this place will always have one reason for my affection that no other can ever match.”

Mrs. Dashwood looked with pleasure at Marianne, whose fine eyes were fixed so expressively on Willoughby, as plainly denoted how well she understood him.

Mrs. Dashwood looked with pleasure at Marianne, whose beautiful eyes were fixed so expressively on Willoughby, clearly showing how well she understood him.

“How often did I wish,” added he, “when I was at Allenham this time twelvemonth, that Barton cottage were inhabited! I never passed within view of it without admiring its situation, and grieving that no one should live in it. How little did I then think that the very first news I should hear from Mrs. Smith, when I next came into the country, would be that Barton cottage was taken: and I felt an immediate satisfaction and interest in the event, which nothing but a kind of prescience of what happiness I should experience from it, can account for. Must it not have been so, Marianne?” speaking to her in a lowered voice. Then continuing his former tone, he said, “And yet this house you would spoil, Mrs. Dashwood? You would rob it of its simplicity by imaginary improvement! and this dear parlour in which our acquaintance first began, and in which so many happy hours have been since spent by us together, you would degrade to the condition of a common entrance, and every body would be eager to pass through the room which has hitherto contained within itself more real accommodation and comfort than any other apartment of the handsomest dimensions in the world could possibly afford.”

“How often did I wish,” he added, “when I was at Allenham this time last year, that Barton cottage was occupied! I never passed by it without admiring its location and feeling sad that no one lived there. How little did I realize that the very first news I’d hear from Mrs. Smith when I returned to the area would be that Barton cottage had been taken: and I felt an immediate satisfaction and interest in that news, which can only be explained by a sort of foreknowledge of the happiness I would find in it. Must it not have been so, Marianne?” he asked her in a softer voice. Then, continuing in his previous tone, he said, “And yet you would ruin this house, Mrs. Dashwood? You would strip it of its simplicity with imaginary improvements! And this dear parlor where our friendship first began, and where we’ve spent so many joyful hours together, you would degrade to the level of a common entrance, and everyone would be eager to pass through the room that has contained more real comfort and warmth than any grand space could ever offer.”

Mrs. Dashwood again assured him that no alteration of the kind should be attempted.

Mrs. Dashwood reassured him once more that they wouldn't try to make any changes like that.

“You are a good woman,” he warmly replied. “Your promise makes me easy. Extend it a little farther, and it will make me happy. Tell me that not only your house will remain the same, but that I shall ever find you and yours as unchanged as your dwelling; and that you will always consider me with the kindness which has made everything belonging to you so dear to me.”

“You're a wonderful person,” he said with warmth. “Your promise reassures me. If you could extend it a bit more, it would make me happy. Just tell me that not only will your home stay the same, but that I will always find you and your loved ones unchanged, just like your home; and that you will continue to regard me with the kindness that has made everything connected to you so precious to me.”

The promise was readily given, and Willoughby’s behaviour during the whole of the evening declared at once his affection and happiness.

The promise was quickly made, and Willoughby’s behavior throughout the whole evening showed both his love and happiness.

“Shall we see you tomorrow to dinner?” said Mrs. Dashwood, when he was leaving them. “I do not ask you to come in the morning, for we must walk to the park, to call on Lady Middleton.”

“Will we see you for dinner tomorrow?” Mrs. Dashwood asked as he was leaving. “I’m not inviting you in the morning because we need to walk to the park to visit Lady Middleton.”

He engaged to be with them by four o’clock.

He planned to meet them by four o’clock.

CHAPTER XV.

Mrs. Dashwood’s visit to Lady Middleton took place the next day, and two of her daughters went with her; but Marianne excused herself from being of the party, under some trifling pretext of employment; and her mother, who concluded that a promise had been made by Willoughby the night before of calling on her while they were absent, was perfectly satisfied with her remaining at home.

Mrs. Dashwood visited Lady Middleton the next day, and two of her daughters accompanied her; however, Marianne opted out of joining them, giving a minor excuse about being busy. Her mother, who assumed that Willoughby had promised to visit her while they were out, was completely fine with Marianne staying home.

On their return from the park they found Willoughby’s curricle and servant in waiting at the cottage, and Mrs. Dashwood was convinced that her conjecture had been just. So far it was all as she had foreseen; but on entering the house she beheld what no foresight had taught her to expect. They were no sooner in the passage than Marianne came hastily out of the parlour apparently in violent affliction, with her handkerchief at her eyes; and without noticing them ran up stairs. Surprised and alarmed they proceeded directly into the room she had just quitted, where they found only Willoughby, who was leaning against the mantel-piece with his back towards them. He turned round on their coming in, and his countenance showed that he strongly partook of the emotion which over-powered Marianne.

On their way back from the park, they found Willoughby's carriage and servant waiting at the cottage, and Mrs. Dashwood was sure her guess had been right. Up to that point, everything had gone as she expected; but when they walked into the house, she saw something no one could have predicted. No sooner had they entered the hallway than Marianne rushed out of the parlor, clearly in distress, with her handkerchief to her eyes; without acknowledging them, she ran upstairs. Shocked and worried, they went straight into the room she had just left, where they found only Willoughby, who was leaning against the mantelpiece with his back to them. He turned around when they came in, and his expression revealed that he was deeply affected by the same feelings that overwhelmed Marianne.

“Is anything the matter with her?” cried Mrs. Dashwood as she entered—“is she ill?”

“Is something wrong with her?” Mrs. Dashwood exclaimed as she walked in—“is she sick?”

“I hope not,” he replied, trying to look cheerful; and with a forced smile presently added, “It is I who may rather expect to be ill—for I am now suffering under a very heavy disappointment!”

“I hope not,” he replied, trying to look cheerful; and with a forced smile, he added, “I’m the one who might actually end up feeling unwell—because I’m currently dealing with a really heavy disappointment!”

“Disappointment?”

"Let down?"

“Yes, for I am unable to keep my engagement with you. Mrs. Smith has this morning exercised the privilege of riches upon a poor dependent cousin, by sending me on business to London. I have just received my dispatches, and taken my farewell of Allenham; and by way of exhilaration I am now come to take my farewell of you.”

"Yes, I can't keep our appointment. Mrs. Smith has used her wealth to send me on an errand to London this morning instead of letting me be with you. I've just received my instructions and said goodbye to Allenham, and now I’m here to say goodbye to you too."

“To London!—and are you going this morning?”

“To London! Are you going this morning?”

“Almost this moment.”

"Right this moment."

“This is very unfortunate. But Mrs. Smith must be obliged;—and her business will not detain you from us long I hope.”

“This is really unfortunate. But Mrs. Smith has to take care of it;—and I hope her business won’t keep you away from us for too long.”

He coloured as he replied, “You are very kind, but I have no idea of returning into Devonshire immediately. My visits to Mrs. Smith are never repeated within the twelvemonth.”

He blushed as he responded, “You’re very kind, but I have no plans to go back to Devonshire just yet. I never visit Mrs. Smith more than once a year.”

“And is Mrs. Smith your only friend? Is Allenham the only house in the neighbourhood to which you will be welcome? For shame, Willoughby, can you wait for an invitation here?”

“And is Mrs. Smith your only friend? Is Allenham the only house in the neighborhood where you're welcome? For shame, Willoughby, can you really wait for an invitation here?”

His colour increased; and with his eyes fixed on the ground he only replied, “You are too good.”

His face reddened, and with his eyes focused on the ground, he simply replied, “You’re too kind.”

Mrs. Dashwood looked at Elinor with surprise. Elinor felt equal amazement. For a few moments every one was silent. Mrs. Dashwood first spoke.

Mrs. Dashwood looked at Elinor in surprise. Elinor felt just as amazed. For a few moments, everyone was silent. Mrs. Dashwood was the first to speak.

“I have only to add, my dear Willoughby, that at Barton cottage you will always be welcome; for I will not press you to return here immediately, because you only can judge how far that might be pleasing to Mrs. Smith; and on this head I shall be no more disposed to question your judgment than to doubt your inclination.”

“I just want to add, my dear Willoughby, that you'll always be welcome at Barton cottage; I won't insist that you come back here right away, since only you can decide how much that would please Mrs. Smith. On this matter, I'm as unlikely to question your judgment as I am to doubt your willingness.”

“My engagements at present,” replied Willoughby, confusedly, “are of such a nature—that—I dare not flatter myself—”

"My current commitments," replied Willoughby, awkwardly, "are such that I can’t allow myself to feel too hopeful—"

He stopped. Mrs. Dashwood was too much astonished to speak, and another pause succeeded. This was broken by Willoughby, who said with a faint smile, “It is folly to linger in this manner. I will not torment myself any longer by remaining among friends whose society it is impossible for me now to enjoy.”

He stopped. Mrs. Dashwood was too shocked to speak, and another silence followed. Willoughby broke it with a faint smile and said, “It's pointless to hang around like this. I won't keep torturing myself by staying with friends whose company I can't enjoy anymore.”

He then hastily took leave of them all and left the room. They saw him step into his carriage, and in a minute it was out of sight.

He quickly said goodbye to everyone and left the room. They watched him get into his carriage, and in a minute, it was gone.

Mrs. Dashwood felt too much for speech, and instantly quitted the parlour to give way in solitude to the concern and alarm which this sudden departure occasioned.

Mrs. Dashwood was overwhelmed and quickly left the living room to process her worry and fear about this sudden departure in private.

Elinor’s uneasiness was at least equal to her mother’s. She thought of what had just passed with anxiety and distrust. Willoughby’s behaviour in taking leave of them, his embarrassment, and affectation of cheerfulness, and, above all, his unwillingness to accept her mother’s invitation, a backwardness so unlike a lover, so unlike himself, greatly disturbed her. One moment she feared that no serious design had ever been formed on his side; and the next that some unfortunate quarrel had taken place between him and her sister;—the distress in which Marianne had quitted the room was such as a serious quarrel could most reasonably account for, though when she considered what Marianne’s love for him was, a quarrel seemed almost impossible.

Elinor felt just as uneasy as her mother. She reflected on what had just happened with anxiety and doubt. Willoughby’s behavior when he said goodbye, his awkwardness, his forced cheerfulness, and especially his reluctance to accept her mother’s invitation—such an unusual response for a lover—deeply troubled her. One moment, she worried that he had never had any serious intentions; the next, she feared there had been some serious argument between him and her sister. The distress with which Marianne left the room could easily explain a serious quarrel, yet when Elinor thought about Marianne’s love for him, a falling out seemed almost impossible.

But whatever might be the particulars of their separation, her sister’s affliction was indubitable; and she thought with the tenderest compassion of that violent sorrow which Marianne was in all probability not merely giving way to as a relief, but feeding and encouraging as a duty.

But no matter the specifics of their separation, her sister's pain was undeniable; and she felt the deepest compassion for that intense grief which Marianne was likely not just surrendering to as a release, but actively nurturing and fostering as an obligation.

In about half an hour her mother returned, and though her eyes were red, her countenance was not uncheerful.

In about half an hour, her mom came back, and even though her eyes were red, her face didn’t look too gloomy.

“Our dear Willoughby is now some miles from Barton, Elinor,” said she, as she sat down to work, “and with how heavy a heart does he travel?”

“Our dear Willoughby is now several miles from Barton, Elinor,” she said as she sat down to work, “and with how heavy a heart is he traveling?”

“It is all very strange. So suddenly to be gone! It seems but the work of a moment. And last night he was with us so happy, so cheerful, so affectionate? And now, after only ten minutes notice—Gone too without intending to return!—Something more than what he owned to us must have happened. He did not speak, he did not behave like himself. You must have seen the difference as well as I. What can it be? Can they have quarrelled? Why else should he have shown such unwillingness to accept your invitation here?”

“It’s all very strange. Just like that, he’s gone! It feels like it happened in the blink of an eye. Last night, he was with us—so happy, so cheerful, so loving. And now, after just ten minutes’ notice—gone without even planning to come back! Something must have happened beyond what he told us. He didn’t speak; he didn’t act like himself. You must have noticed the difference too. What could it be? Could they have had a fight? Why else would he have been so hesitant to accept your invitation here?”

“It was not inclination that he wanted, Elinor; I could plainly see that. He had not the power of accepting it. I have thought it all over I assure you, and I can perfectly account for every thing that at first seemed strange to me as well as to you.”

“It wasn't desire that he wanted, Elinor; I could clearly see that. He didn’t have the ability to accept it. I’ve thought it all through, I promise you, and I can completely explain everything that initially seemed strange to me as well as to you.”

“Can you, indeed!”

"Really, can you?!"

“Yes. I have explained it to myself in the most satisfactory way;—but you, Elinor, who love to doubt where you can—it will not satisfy you, I know; but you shall not talk me out of my trust in it. I am persuaded that Mrs. Smith suspects his regard for Marianne, disapproves of it, (perhaps because she has other views for him,) and on that account is eager to get him away;—and that the business which she sends him off to transact is invented as an excuse to dismiss him. This is what I believe to have happened. He is, moreover, aware that she does disapprove the connection, he dares not therefore at present confess to her his engagement with Marianne, and he feels himself obliged, from his dependent situation, to give into her schemes, and absent himself from Devonshire for a while. You will tell me, I know, that this may or may not have happened; but I will listen to no cavil, unless you can point out any other method of understanding the affair as satisfactory at this. And now, Elinor, what have you to say?”

“Yes. I've explained this to myself in the most satisfying way;—but you, Elinor, who love to doubt whenever you can—it won't satisfy you, I know; but you won’t talk me out of my trust in it. I'm convinced that Mrs. Smith suspects his feelings for Marianne, disapproves of them, (maybe because she has other plans for him,) and because of that is eager to get him away;—and that the task she sends him to do is just an excuse to dismiss him. This is what I believe has happened. He is also aware that she does disapprove of the relationship, so he can’t currently admit to her his engagement with Marianne, and he feels obligated, due to his dependent situation, to go along with her plans and leave Devonshire for a while. You’ll tell me, I know, that this may or may not have happened; but I won’t listen to any argument unless you can suggest another explanation of the situation that makes more sense. And now, Elinor, what do you have to say?”

“Nothing, for you have anticipated my answer.”

"Nothing, because you've already guessed my answer."

“Then you would have told me, that it might or might not have happened. Oh, Elinor, how incomprehensible are your feelings! You had rather take evil upon credit than good. You had rather look out for misery for Marianne, and guilt for poor Willoughby, than an apology for the latter. You are resolved to think him blameable, because he took leave of us with less affection than his usual behaviour has shown. And is no allowance to be made for inadvertence, or for spirits depressed by recent disappointment? Are no probabilities to be accepted, merely because they are not certainties? Is nothing due to the man whom we have all such reason to love, and no reason in the world to think ill of? To the possibility of motives unanswerable in themselves, though unavoidably secret for a while? And, after all, what is it you suspect him of?”

“Then you would have told me that it might or might not have happened. Oh, Elinor, how incomprehensible your feelings are! You’d rather believe the worst than the best. You’d rather look out for misery for Marianne and blame for poor Willoughby than accept an apology from him. You’re determined to think he’s at fault because he said goodbye to us with less affection than usual. And can’t we make allowances for mistakes or for someone feeling down after a recent disappointment? Can we not accept possibilities just because they aren’t certainties? Isn’t something owed to the man we all have such reason to love and no reason to think badly of? What about the possibility of motives that can’t be explained right now, even if they’re secret for a while? And after all, what exactly do you suspect him of?”

“I can hardly tell myself. But suspicion of something unpleasant is the inevitable consequence of such an alteration as we just witnessed in him. There is great truth, however, in what you have now urged of the allowances which ought to be made for him, and it is my wish to be candid in my judgment of every body. Willoughby may undoubtedly have very sufficient reasons for his conduct, and I will hope that he has. But it would have been more like Willoughby to acknowledge them at once. Secrecy may be advisable; but still I cannot help wondering at its being practiced by him.”

“I can hardly say for sure. But feeling suspicious about something unpleasant is the inevitable result of the change we just witnessed in him. However, there’s a lot of truth in what you’ve now said about the allowances we should make for him, and I want to be honest in my judgment of everyone. Willoughby might indeed have very good reasons for his behavior, and I hope he does. But it would be more like Willoughby to admit those reasons right away. Keeping things secret might be necessary, but I still can’t help but be curious about why he’s doing it.”

“Do not blame him, however, for departing from his character, where the deviation is necessary. But you really do admit the justice of what I have said in his defence?—I am happy—and he is acquitted.”

“Don’t blame him for straying from his character when it’s needed. But do you honestly agree with what I’ve said in his defense?—I’m glad—and he’s cleared.”

“Not entirely. It may be proper to conceal their engagement (if they are engaged) from Mrs. Smith—and if that is the case, it must be highly expedient for Willoughby to be but little in Devonshire at present. But this is no excuse for their concealing it from us.”

“Not completely. It might be appropriate to keep their engagement (if they are engaged) a secret from Mrs. Smith—and if that’s the case, it’s probably a good idea for Willoughby to spend less time in Devonshire right now. But that doesn’t justify them keeping it from us.”

“Concealing it from us! my dear child, do you accuse Willoughby and Marianne of concealment? This is strange indeed, when your eyes have been reproaching them every day for incautiousness.”

“Keeping it from us! my dear child, are you blaming Willoughby and Marianne for hiding it? This is truly odd, considering your eyes have been criticizing them every day for being reckless.”

“I want no proof of their affection,” said Elinor; “but of their engagement I do.”

“I don't need any proof of their affection,” Elinor said, “but I do want proof of their engagement.”

“I am perfectly satisfied of both.”

“I am completely satisfied with both.”

“Yet not a syllable has been said to you on the subject, by either of them.”

“Yet neither of them has said a word to you about it.”

“I have not wanted syllables where actions have spoken so plainly. Has not his behaviour to Marianne and to all of us, for at least the last fortnight, declared that he loved and considered her as his future wife, and that he felt for us the attachment of the nearest relation? Have we not perfectly understood each other? Has not my consent been daily asked by his looks, his manner, his attentive and affectionate respect? My Elinor, is it possible to doubt their engagement? How could such a thought occur to you? How is it to be supposed that Willoughby, persuaded as he must be of your sister’s love, should leave her, and leave her perhaps for months, without telling her of his affection;—that they should part without a mutual exchange of confidence?”

“I haven't needed words where actions have spoken so clearly. Hasn't his behavior toward Marianne and all of us for at least the last two weeks shown that he loves her and thinks of her as his future wife, and that he feels a bond with us like that of the closest relatives? Haven't we completely understood each other? Hasn’t my approval been asked for every day through his looks, his manner, his attentive and loving respect? My Elinor, is it possible to doubt their engagement? How could you even think that? How can we assume that Willoughby, knowing how much your sister loves him, would leave her—perhaps for months—without telling her how he feels; that they would part without openly sharing their feelings?”

“I confess,” replied Elinor, “that every circumstance except one is in favour of their engagement; but that one is the total silence of both on the subject, and with me it almost outweighs every other.”

“I confess,” replied Elinor, “that every circumstance except one is in favor of their engagement; but that one is the complete silence of both on the subject, and for me, it nearly outweighs everything else.”

“How strange this is! You must think wretchedly indeed of Willoughby, if, after all that has openly passed between them, you can doubt the nature of the terms on which they are together. Has he been acting a part in his behaviour to your sister all this time? Do you suppose him really indifferent to her?”

“How strange is this! You must have a terrible opinion of Willoughby if, with everything that’s happened between them, you can still doubt the nature of their relationship. Has he been pretending in his behavior towards your sister this whole time? Do you really think he’s indifferent to her?”

“No, I cannot think that. He must and does love her I am sure.”

“No, I can’t believe that. He must love her, and I’m sure he does.”

“But with a strange kind of tenderness, if he can leave her with such indifference, such carelessness of the future, as you attribute to him.”

“But with a strange sort of tenderness, if he can walk away from her with such indifference, such disregard for the future, as you say he does.”

“You must remember, my dear mother, that I have never considered this matter as certain. I have had my doubts, I confess; but they are fainter than they were, and they may soon be entirely done away. If we find they correspond, every fear of mine will be removed.”

“You have to remember, my dear mother, that I’ve never thought of this as a done deal. I’ve had my doubts, I admit; but they’re fading compared to how they were, and they might soon disappear completely. If we find they match up, all my fears will be gone.”

“A mighty concession indeed! If you were to see them at the altar, you would suppose they were going to be married. Ungracious girl! But I require no such proof. Nothing in my opinion has ever passed to justify doubt; no secrecy has been attempted; all has been uniformly open and unreserved. You cannot doubt your sister’s wishes. It must be Willoughby therefore whom you suspect. But why? Is he not a man of honour and feeling? Has there been any inconsistency on his side to create alarm? can he be deceitful?”

“A huge concession indeed! If you saw them at the altar, you’d think they were getting married. Ungrateful girl! But I don’t need any proof like that. In my opinion, nothing has happened to justify any doubt; there’s been no secrecy at all; everything has been completely open and straightforward. You can’t doubt your sister’s wishes. Therefore, it must be Willoughby that you suspect. But why? Isn’t he a man of honor and feeling? Has he done anything inconsistent to raise concern? Can he really be deceitful?”

“I hope not, I believe not,” cried Elinor. “I love Willoughby, sincerely love him; and suspicion of his integrity cannot be more painful to yourself than to me. It has been involuntary, and I will not encourage it. I was startled, I confess, by the alteration in his manners this morning;—he did not speak like himself, and did not return your kindness with any cordiality. But all this may be explained by such a situation of his affairs as you have supposed. He had just parted from my sister, had seen her leave him in the greatest affliction; and if he felt obliged, from a fear of offending Mrs. Smith, to resist the temptation of returning here soon, and yet aware that by declining your invitation, by saying that he was going away for some time, he should seem to act an ungenerous, a suspicious part by our family, he might well be embarrassed and disturbed. In such a case, a plain and open avowal of his difficulties would have been more to his honour I think, as well as more consistent with his general character;—but I will not raise objections against any one’s conduct on so illiberal a foundation, as a difference in judgment from myself, or a deviation from what I may think right and consistent.”

“I hope not, I don’t believe so,” exclaimed Elinor. “I truly love Willoughby; I sincerely love him, and questioning his integrity can’t be more upsetting for you than it is for me. It’s been unintentional, and I won’t encourage it. I was surprised, I admit, by how he acted this morning; he didn’t speak like himself and didn’t respond to your kindness with any warmth. But all this can be explained by the situation you’ve mentioned. He had just said goodbye to my sister and saw her leave him in deep distress; if he felt he needed to avoid offending Mrs. Smith by not coming back here too soon, yet also knew that declining your invitation and saying he was leaving for a while might make him seem unkind or suspicious to our family, it’s understandable he might have felt confused and uneasy. In such a case, being straightforward and honest about his troubles would have been more honorable, I think, as well as more in line with his usual character; but I won’t criticize anyone's actions based on a narrow perspective that differs from mine or on what I believe to be right and consistent.”

“You speak very properly. Willoughby certainly does not deserve to be suspected. Though we have not known him long, he is no stranger in this part of the world; and who has ever spoken to his disadvantage? Had he been in a situation to act independently and marry immediately, it might have been odd that he should leave us without acknowledging everything to me at once: but this is not the case. It is an engagement in some respects not prosperously begun, for their marriage must be at a very uncertain distance; and even secrecy, as far as it can be observed, may now be very advisable.”

“You speak very well. Willoughby definitely doesn't deserve to be suspected. Even though we haven’t known him long, he’s not unfamiliar around here; and who has ever said anything bad about him? If he had been in a position to act freely and marry right away, it would have been strange for him to leave us without telling me everything immediately: but that’s not the case. It’s an engagement that hasn’t gotten off to a great start, since their marriage is quite uncertain; and keeping things private, as much as possible, might be wise right now.”

They were interrupted by the entrance of Margaret; and Elinor was then at liberty to think over the representations of her mother, to acknowledge the probability of many, and hope for the justice of all.

They were interrupted when Margaret walked in; and Elinor was then free to reflect on her mother's comments, recognize the likelihood of many, and hope for the fairness of all.

They saw nothing of Marianne till dinner time, when she entered the room and took her place at the table without saying a word. Her eyes were red and swollen; and it seemed as if her tears were even then restrained with difficulty. She avoided the looks of them all, could neither eat nor speak, and after some time, on her mother’s silently pressing her hand with tender compassion, her small degree of fortitude was quite overcome, she burst into tears and left the room.

They didn’t see Marianne at all until dinner, when she came into the room and sat down at the table without saying anything. Her eyes were red and puffy, and it looked like she was having a hard time holding back tears. She avoided everyone’s gaze, couldn’t eat or talk, and after a while, when her mom gently squeezed her hand out of compassion, her little bit of strength completely broke down; she started crying and left the room.

This violent oppression of spirits continued the whole evening. She was without any power, because she was without any desire of command over herself. The slightest mention of anything relative to Willoughby overpowered her in an instant; and though her family were most anxiously attentive to her comfort, it was impossible for them, if they spoke at all, to keep clear of every subject which her feelings connected with him.

This intense emotional struggle went on all evening. She felt completely powerless because she had no desire to take control of her own emotions. Even the slightest reference to Willoughby would overwhelm her in an instant; and although her family was very concerned about her well-being, it was impossible for them, if they spoke at all, to avoid topics that her feelings linked to him.

CHAPTER XVI.

Marianne would have thought herself very inexcusable had she been able to sleep at all the first night after parting from Willoughby. She would have been ashamed to look her family in the face the next morning, had she not risen from her bed in more need of repose than when she lay down in it. But the feelings which made such composure a disgrace, left her in no danger of incurring it. She was awake the whole night, and she wept the greatest part of it. She got up with a headache, was unable to talk, and unwilling to take any nourishment; giving pain every moment to her mother and sisters, and forbidding all attempt at consolation from either. Her sensibility was potent enough!

Marianne would have thought she was completely in the wrong if she had been able to sleep at all the first night after saying goodbye to Willoughby. She would have felt embarrassed to face her family the next morning if she hadn’t gotten out of bed needing more rest than when she lay down. But the emotions that made such calm unacceptable left her in no risk of achieving it. She was awake the entire night, and she spent most of it crying. She got up with a headache, couldn’t speak, and didn't want to eat; causing pain to her mother and sisters every moment and shutting down any attempts at comfort from either. Her sensitivity was more than enough!

When breakfast was over she walked out by herself, and wandered about the village of Allenham, indulging the recollection of past enjoyment and crying over the present reverse for the chief of the morning.

When breakfast was done, she walked out alone and strolled around the village of Allenham, reminiscing about past pleasures and crying over the current disappointment that marked the start of her day.

The evening passed off in the equal indulgence of feeling. She played over every favourite song that she had been used to play to Willoughby, every air in which their voices had been oftenest joined, and sat at the instrument gazing on every line of music that he had written out for her, till her heart was so heavy that no farther sadness could be gained; and this nourishment of grief was every day applied. She spent whole hours at the pianoforte alternately singing and crying; her voice often totally suspended by her tears. In books too, as well as in music, she courted the misery which a contrast between the past and present was certain of giving. She read nothing but what they had been used to read together.

The evening went by in a mix of feelings. She played all her favorite songs that she used to perform for Willoughby, every tune where their voices had often blended, and sat at the piano looking at each line of music he had transcribed for her, until her heart felt so heavy that she couldn't feel any more sadness; this feeding of grief happened daily. She spent hours at the piano, switching between singing and crying, her voice often completely halted by her tears. In books as well as in music, she sought out the sadness that the contrast between the past and present would inevitably bring. She read only what they used to read together.

Such violence of affliction indeed could not be supported for ever; it sunk within a few days into a calmer melancholy; but these employments, to which she daily recurred, her solitary walks and silent meditations, still produced occasional effusions of sorrow as lively as ever.

Such intense suffering couldn't last forever; within a few days, it settled into a quieter sadness. However, the activities she turned to each day, her lonely walks, and quiet reflections still brought out bursts of sorrow just as strong as before.

No letter from Willoughby came; and none seemed expected by Marianne. Her mother was surprised, and Elinor again became uneasy. But Mrs. Dashwood could find explanations whenever she wanted them, which at least satisfied herself.

No letter from Willoughby arrived, and Marianne didn’t seem to expect one. Her mother was taken aback, and Elinor felt anxious again. But Mrs. Dashwood could always come up with explanations whenever she needed them, which at least made her feel better.

“Remember, Elinor,” said she, “how very often Sir John fetches our letters himself from the post, and carries them to it. We have already agreed that secrecy may be necessary, and we must acknowledge that it could not be maintained if their correspondence were to pass through Sir John’s hands.”

“Remember, Elinor,” she said, “how often Sir John personally gets our letters from the post and brings them to us. We've already agreed that keeping things secret might be necessary, and we have to admit that it wouldn't be possible if their correspondence goes through Sir John.”

Elinor could not deny the truth of this, and she tried to find in it a motive sufficient for their silence. But there was one method so direct, so simple, and in her opinion so eligible of knowing the real state of the affair, and of instantly removing all mystery, that she could not help suggesting it to her mother.

Elinor couldn't deny the truth in this, and she tried to see if it could explain their silence. But there was one method that was so straightforward, so simple, and in her view so practical for understanding the real situation and quickly clearing up all the mystery that she couldn’t help but suggest it to her mother.

“Why do you not ask Marianne at once,” said she, “whether she is or she is not engaged to Willoughby? From you, her mother, and so kind, so indulgent a mother, the question could not give offence. It would be the natural result of your affection for her. She used to be all unreserve, and to you more especially.”

“Why don’t you just ask Marianne right away,” she said, “if she’s engaged to Willoughby or not? Coming from you, her mother, who is so kind and understanding, the question wouldn’t be offensive. It would be a natural expression of your love for her. She used to be completely open with you, especially.”

“I would not ask such a question for the world. Supposing it possible that they are not engaged, what distress would not such an enquiry inflict! At any rate it would be most ungenerous. I should never deserve her confidence again, after forcing from her a confession of what is meant at present to be unacknowledged to any one. I know Marianne’s heart: I know that she dearly loves me, and that I shall not be the last to whom the affair is made known, when circumstances make the revealment of it eligible. I would not attempt to force the confidence of any one; of a child much less; because a sense of duty would prevent the denial which her wishes might direct.”

“I would never ask such a question, no way. Even if it were possible that they’re not together, what pain would that kind of inquiry cause! Anyway, it would be really selfish. I could never earn her trust again after pushing her to admit something that’s meant to be kept secret right now. I know Marianne’s heart; I know she loves me deeply, and I won’t be the last to find out about it when the time is right. I wouldn’t try to force anyone to confide in me, and definitely not a child, because a sense of responsibility would stop me from denying what her wishes might lead her to say.”

Elinor thought this generosity overstrained, considering her sister’s youth, and urged the matter farther, but in vain; common sense, common care, common prudence, were all sunk in Mrs. Dashwood’s romantic delicacy.

Elinor thought this generosity was excessive, given her sister’s youth, and pressed the issue further, but it was useless; common sense, care, and prudence were all lost on Mrs. Dashwood’s romantic sensibilities.

It was several days before Willoughby’s name was mentioned before Marianne by any of her family; Sir John and Mrs. Jennings, indeed, were not so nice; their witticisms added pain to many a painful hour;—but one evening, Mrs. Dashwood, accidentally taking up a volume of Shakespeare, exclaimed,

It was several days before anyone in Marianne's family brought up Willoughby’s name. Sir John and Mrs. Jennings weren't exactly subtle; their jokes added to Marianne’s distress during many tough hours. But one evening, Mrs. Dashwood, incidentally picking up a volume of Shakespeare, exclaimed,

“We have never finished Hamlet, Marianne; our dear Willoughby went away before we could get through it. We will put it by, that when he comes again...But it may be months, perhaps, before that happens.”

“We never finished Hamlet, Marianne; our dear Willoughby left before we could complete it. We’ll set it aside for when he comes back... But it might be months, maybe, before that happens.”

“Months!” cried Marianne, with strong surprise. “No—nor many weeks.”

“Months!” exclaimed Marianne, completely shocked. “No—definitely not even many weeks.”

Mrs. Dashwood was sorry for what she had said; but it gave Elinor pleasure, as it produced a reply from Marianne so expressive of confidence in Willoughby and knowledge of his intentions.

Mrs. Dashwood regretted what she had said; however, it made Elinor happy, as it prompted a response from Marianne that showed so much trust in Willoughby and awareness of his plans.

One morning, about a week after his leaving the country, Marianne was prevailed on to join her sisters in their usual walk, instead of wandering away by herself. Hitherto she had carefully avoided every companion in her rambles. If her sisters intended to walk on the downs, she directly stole away towards the lanes; if they talked of the valley, she was as speedy in climbing the hills, and could never be found when the others set off. But at length she was secured by the exertions of Elinor, who greatly disapproved such continual seclusion. They walked along the road through the valley, and chiefly in silence, for Marianne’s mind could not be controlled, and Elinor, satisfied with gaining one point, would not then attempt more. Beyond the entrance of the valley, where the country, though still rich, was less wild and more open, a long stretch of the road which they had travelled on first coming to Barton, lay before them; and on reaching that point, they stopped to look around them, and examine a prospect which formed the distance of their view from the cottage, from a spot which they had never happened to reach in any of their walks before.

One morning, about a week after he left the country, Marianne was convinced to join her sisters on their usual walk instead of wandering off by herself. Until now, she had carefully avoided any company during her strolls. If her sisters planned to walk on the downs, she would sneak away toward the lanes; if they talked about the valley, she quickly climbed the hills and was never found when they set out. But eventually, Elinor managed to keep her company, as she strongly disapproved of such constant isolation. They walked along the road through the valley, mostly in silence, because Marianne’s mind was elsewhere, and Elinor, pleased with making one small compromise, didn’t push for anything more. Beyond the entrance of the valley, where the landscape, though still lush, was less wild and more open, a long stretch of the road they had traveled when they first came to Barton lay before them. Upon reaching that point, they stopped to look around and take in a view that formed the distance of their perspective from the cottage, from a spot they had never reached in any of their previous walks.

Amongst the objects in the scene, they soon discovered an animated one; it was a man on horseback riding towards them. In a few minutes they could distinguish him to be a gentleman; and in a moment afterwards Marianne rapturously exclaimed,

Among the objects in the scene, they soon spotted a lively one; it was a man on horseback riding toward them. In a few minutes, they could tell he was a gentleman; and just moments later, Marianne excitedly exclaimed,

“It is he; it is indeed;—I know it is!”—and was hastening to meet him, when Elinor cried out,

“It’s him; it really is;—I know it’s him!”—and was rushing to meet him, when Elinor shouted,

“Indeed, Marianne, I think you are mistaken. It is not Willoughby. The person is not tall enough for him, and has not his air.”

“Honestly, Marianne, I think you’re wrong. It’s not Willoughby. The person isn’t tall enough for him and doesn’t have his vibe.”

“He has, he has,” cried Marianne, “I am sure he has. His air, his coat, his horse. I knew how soon he would come.”

“He has, he has,” exclaimed Marianne, “I’m sure he has. The way he carries himself, his coat, his horse. I knew he would arrive soon.”

She walked eagerly on as she spoke; and Elinor, to screen Marianne from particularity, as she felt almost certain of its not being Willoughby, quickened her pace and kept up with her. They were soon within thirty yards of the gentleman. Marianne looked again; her heart sunk within her; and abruptly turning round, she was hurrying back, when the voices of both her sisters were raised to detain her; a third, almost as well known as Willoughby’s, joined them in begging her to stop, and she turned round with surprise to see and welcome Edward Ferrars.

She walked eagerly as she talked, and Elinor, wanting to protect Marianne from getting too attached, since she was almost sure it wasn’t Willoughby, picked up her pace to keep up with her. They were soon about thirty yards away from the guy. Marianne looked again; her heart sank; and just as she was about to hurry back, both her sisters called out to stop her. A third voice, almost as familiar as Willoughby’s, joined them in asking her to wait, and she turned around in surprise to see and welcome Edward Ferrars.

He was the only person in the world who could at that moment be forgiven for not being Willoughby; the only one who could have gained a smile from her; but she dispersed her tears to smile on him, and in her sister’s happiness forgot for a time her own disappointment.

He was the only person in the world who could be forgiven at that moment for not being Willoughby; the only one who could have made her smile; but she wiped away her tears to smile at him, and in her sister’s happiness, she temporarily forgot her own disappointment.

He dismounted, and giving his horse to his servant, walked back with them to Barton, whither he was purposely coming to visit them.

He got off his horse, handed it over to his servant, and walked back to Barton with them, where he intended to visit them.

He was welcomed by them all with great cordiality, but especially by Marianne, who showed more warmth of regard in her reception of him than even Elinor herself. To Marianne, indeed, the meeting between Edward and her sister was but a continuation of that unaccountable coldness which she had often observed at Norland in their mutual behaviour. On Edward’s side, more particularly, there was a deficiency of all that a lover ought to look and say on such an occasion. He was confused, seemed scarcely sensible of pleasure in seeing them, looked neither rapturous nor gay, said little but what was forced from him by questions, and distinguished Elinor by no mark of affection. Marianne saw and listened with increasing surprise. She began almost to feel a dislike of Edward; and it ended, as every feeling must end with her, by carrying back her thoughts to Willoughby, whose manners formed a contrast sufficiently striking to those of his brother elect.

He was warmly welcomed by everyone, especially Marianne, who showed more affection in her greeting than even Elinor did. To Marianne, the meeting between Edward and her sister was just a continuation of that strange coldness she had often noticed at Norland in their interactions. On Edward’s part, there was a clear lack of everything a lover should express on such an occasion. He seemed confused, barely showing any joy in seeing them, didn't appear ecstatic or cheerful, said very little unless prompted by questions, and did not show Elinor any signs of affection. Marianne observed this with growing surprise. She started to feel a sense of dislike for Edward, and like every feeling she experienced, it ultimately led her thoughts back to Willoughby, whose manner stood in stark contrast to Edward's.

After a short silence which succeeded the first surprise and enquiries of meeting, Marianne asked Edward if he came directly from London. No, he had been in Devonshire a fortnight.

After a brief pause following their initial surprise and questions from the meeting, Marianne asked Edward if he had come straight from London. No, he had been in Devonshire for two weeks.

“A fortnight!” she repeated, surprised at his being so long in the same county with Elinor without seeing her before.

“A fortnight!” she said, surprised that he had been in the same county as Elinor for so long without seeing her before.

He looked rather distressed as he added, that he had been staying with some friends near Plymouth.

He looked pretty upset as he added that he had been staying with some friends near Plymouth.

“Have you been lately in Sussex?” said Elinor.

“Have you been to Sussex lately?” Elinor asked.

“I was at Norland about a month ago.”

“I was at Norland about a month ago.”

“And how does dear, dear Norland look?” cried Marianne.

“And how does sweet, sweet Norland look?” exclaimed Marianne.

“Dear, dear Norland,” said Elinor, “probably looks much as it always does at this time of the year. The woods and walks thickly covered with dead leaves.”

“Dear, dear Norland,” Elinor said, “probably looks much the same as it always does at this time of year. The woods and paths are thickly covered with dead leaves.”

“Oh,” cried Marianne, “with what transporting sensation have I formerly seen them fall! How have I delighted, as I walked, to see them driven in showers about me by the wind! What feelings have they, the season, the air altogether inspired! Now there is no one to regard them. They are seen only as a nuisance, swept hastily off, and driven as much as possible from the sight.”

“Oh,” cried Marianne, “what an amazing feeling I used to have watching them fall! I loved seeing them swirl around me in the wind as I walked! The season and the air inspired such strong emotions! Now, no one pays attention to them. They’re treated like an annoyance, quickly brushed away and kept out of sight as much as possible.”

“It is not every one,” said Elinor, “who has your passion for dead leaves.”

“It’s not everyone,” Elinor said, “who shares your passion for dead leaves.”

“No; my feelings are not often shared, not often understood. But sometimes they are.”—As she said this, she sunk into a reverie for a few moments;—but rousing herself again, “Now, Edward,” said she, calling his attention to the prospect, “here is Barton valley. Look up to it, and be tranquil if you can. Look at those hills! Did you ever see their equals? To the left is Barton park, amongst those woods and plantations. You may see the end of the house. And there, beneath that farthest hill, which rises with such grandeur, is our cottage.”

“No; my feelings aren't often shared or understood. But sometimes they are.” As she said this, she drifted into a daydream for a moment; but bringing herself back, she said, “Now, Edward,” drawing his attention to the view, “here is Barton Valley. Look at it, and try to be calm if you can. Look at those hills! Have you ever seen anything like them? To the left is Barton Park, nestled among those woods and gardens. You can see the edge of the house. And there, beneath that farthest hill, which rises so majestically, is our cottage.”

“It is a beautiful country,” he replied; “but these bottoms must be dirty in winter.”

“It’s a beautiful country,” he replied; “but these low areas must get muddy in winter.”

“How can you think of dirt, with such objects before you?”

“How can you think about dirt when you have such things in front of you?”

“Because,” replied he, smiling, “among the rest of the objects before me, I see a very dirty lane.”

“Because,” he replied with a smile, “among all the things in front of me, I see a really dirty alley.”

“How strange!” said Marianne to herself as she walked on.

“How weird!” said Marianne to herself as she walked on.

“Have you an agreeable neighbourhood here? Are the Middletons pleasant people?”

“Do you have a nice neighborhood here? Are the Middletons friendly?”

“No, not all,” answered Marianne; “we could not be more unfortunately situated.”

“No, not at all,” replied Marianne; “we couldn't be in a worse situation.”

“Marianne,” cried her sister, “how can you say so? How can you be so unjust? They are a very respectable family, Mr. Ferrars; and towards us have behaved in the friendliest manner. Have you forgot, Marianne, how many pleasant days we have owed to them?”

“Marianne,” exclaimed her sister, “how can you say that? How can you be so unfair? They are a very respectable family, Mr. Ferrars, and they have treated us very kindly. Have you forgotten, Marianne, how many enjoyable days we have had because of them?”

“No,” said Marianne, in a low voice, “nor how many painful moments.”

“No,” said Marianne, in a quiet voice, “nor how many painful moments.”

Elinor took no notice of this; and directing her attention to their visitor, endeavoured to support something like discourse with him, by talking of their present residence, its conveniences, &c. extorting from him occasional questions and remarks. His coldness and reserve mortified her severely; she was vexed and half angry; but resolving to regulate her behaviour to him by the past rather than the present, she avoided every appearance of resentment or displeasure, and treated him as she thought he ought to be treated from the family connection.

Elinor ignored this and turned her attention to their visitor, trying to keep a conversation going by discussing their current home, its conveniences, etc., drawing out occasional questions and comments from him. His coldness and detachment frustrated her deeply; she was annoyed and somewhat angry. However, deciding to base her behavior toward him on the past rather than the present, she avoided showing any signs of resentment or dissatisfaction and treated him as she believed he should be treated given their family connection.

CHAPTER XVII.

Mrs. Dashwood was surprised only for a moment at seeing him; for his coming to Barton was, in her opinion, of all things the most natural. Her joy and expression of regard long outlived her wonder. He received the kindest welcome from her; and shyness, coldness, reserve could not stand against such a reception. They had begun to fail him before he entered the house, and they were quite overcome by the captivating manners of Mrs. Dashwood. Indeed a man could not very well be in love with either of her daughters, without extending the passion to her; and Elinor had the satisfaction of seeing him soon become more like himself. His affections seemed to reanimate towards them all, and his interest in their welfare again became perceptible. He was not in spirits, however; he praised their house, admired its prospect, was attentive, and kind; but still he was not in spirits. The whole family perceived it, and Mrs. Dashwood, attributing it to some want of liberality in his mother, sat down to table indignant against all selfish parents.

Mrs. Dashwood was only momentarily surprised to see him; in her eyes, his visit to Barton was completely natural. Her joy and warmth lasted far longer than her astonishment. She welcomed him warmly, and his shyness, coldness, and reserve couldn’t withstand such a reception. They started to fade before he even entered the house, completely taken in by Mrs. Dashwood's charming demeanor. In fact, any man who could be in love with either of her daughters couldn’t help but extend that affection to her as well; and Elinor felt pleased to see him soon return to his usual self. His feelings seemed to revive for all of them, and his concern for their well-being became noticeable again. However, he wasn’t exactly cheerful; he complimented their house, admired the view, and was attentive and kind, yet he still seemed down. The whole family noticed this, and Mrs. Dashwood, thinking it was due to some lack of generosity from his mother, sat down at the table feeling indignant toward all selfish parents.

“What are Mrs. Ferrars’s views for you at present, Edward?” said she, when dinner was over and they had drawn round the fire; “are you still to be a great orator in spite of yourself?”

“What does Mrs. Ferrars think about your future right now, Edward?” she asked, after dinner was done and they had gathered around the fire. “Are you still planning to be a great speaker, even if you don’t want to?”

“No. I hope my mother is now convinced that I have no more talents than inclination for a public life!”

“No. I hope my mom is now convinced that I have no more talents than a desire for a public life!”

“But how is your fame to be established? for famous you must be to satisfy all your family; and with no inclination for expense, no affection for strangers, no profession, and no assurance, you may find it a difficult matter.”

“But how are you going to make a name for yourself? You have to be famous to please your family, and without a willingness to spend money, care for others, have a job, or any confidence, you might find it pretty challenging.”

“I shall not attempt it. I have no wish to be distinguished; and have every reason to hope I never shall. Thank Heaven! I cannot be forced into genius and eloquence.”

“I won’t try. I don’t want to stand out; and I have every reason to believe I never will. Thank goodness! I can’t be pushed into brilliance and speaking well.”

“You have no ambition, I well know. Your wishes are all moderate.”

"You have no ambition, I know that well. Your desires are all quite modest."

“As moderate as those of the rest of the world, I believe. I wish as well as every body else to be perfectly happy; but, like every body else it must be in my own way. Greatness will not make me so.”

“As moderate as those of the rest of the world, I believe. I want to be perfectly happy just like everyone else; but, like everyone else, it has to be in my own way. Being great won't make me happy.”

“Strange that it would!” cried Marianne. “What have wealth or grandeur to do with happiness?”

“That's strange!” exclaimed Marianne. “What do wealth and status have to do with happiness?”

“Grandeur has but little,” said Elinor, “but wealth has much to do with it.”

“Grandeur has very little,” Elinor said, “but wealth has a lot to do with it.”

“Elinor, for shame!” said Marianne, “money can only give happiness where there is nothing else to give it. Beyond a competence, it can afford no real satisfaction, as far as mere self is concerned.”

“Elinor, how shameful!” said Marianne, “money can only bring happiness where there’s nothing else to provide it. Beyond just enough to get by, it can’t offer any real satisfaction, at least as far as oneself is concerned.”

“Perhaps,” said Elinor, smiling, “we may come to the same point. Your competence and my wealth are very much alike, I dare say; and without them, as the world goes now, we shall both agree that every kind of external comfort must be wanting. Your ideas are only more noble than mine. Come, what is your competence?”

“Maybe,” said Elinor, smiling, “we might end up at the same conclusion. Your ability and my wealth are quite similar, I’d say; and without them, in today’s world, we can both agree that all sorts of external comforts will be lacking. Your thoughts are simply more admirable than mine. So, what is your ability?”

“About eighteen hundred or two thousand a year; not more than that.”

“About eighteen hundred or two thousand a year; not more than that.”

Elinor laughed. “two thousand a year! one is my wealth! I guessed how it would end.”

Elinor laughed. “two thousand a year! one is my wealth! I guessed how it would end.”

“And yet two thousand a-year is a very moderate income,” said Marianne. “A family cannot well be maintained on a smaller. I am sure I am not extravagant in my demands. A proper establishment of servants, a carriage, perhaps two, and hunters, cannot be supported on less.”

“And yet two thousand a year is a pretty modest income,” Marianne said. “You really can’t support a family on less. I'm sure I'm not asking for too much. A proper household of servants, a carriage, maybe two, and some hunters can’t be managed on anything less.”

Elinor smiled again, to hear her sister describing so accurately their future expenses at Combe Magna.

Elinor smiled again at hearing her sister describe their future expenses at Combe Magna so accurately.

“Hunters!” repeated Edward—“but why must you have hunters? Every body does not hunt.”

“Hunters!” Edward said again. “But why do you need hunters? Not everyone hunts.”

Marianne coloured as she replied, “But most people do.”

Marianne blushed as she replied, “But most people do.”

“I wish,” said Margaret, striking out a novel thought, “that somebody would give us all a large fortune apiece!”

“I wish,” said Margaret, coming up with a bold idea, “that someone would give each of us a huge fortune!”

“Oh that they would!” cried Marianne, her eyes sparkling with animation, and her cheeks glowing with the delight of such imaginary happiness.

“Oh, that they would!” cried Marianne, her eyes shining with excitement and her cheeks flushed with the joy of such imaginary happiness.

“We are all unanimous in that wish, I suppose,” said Elinor, “in spite of the insufficiency of wealth.”

“We all agree on that wish, I suppose,” said Elinor, “even though money isn't everything.”

“Oh dear!” cried Margaret, “how happy I should be! I wonder what I should do with it!”

“Oh no!” cried Margaret, “how happy I would be! I wonder what I would do with it!”

Marianne looked as if she had no doubt on that point.

Marianne looked like she was completely sure about that.

“I should be puzzled to spend so large a fortune myself,” said Mrs. Dashwood, “if my children were all to be rich without my help.”

“I would be confused to spend such a large fortune myself,” said Mrs. Dashwood, “if my children were all going to be rich without my support.”

“You must begin your improvements on this house,” observed Elinor, “and your difficulties will soon vanish.”

“You need to start making improvements on this house,” Elinor noted, “and your problems will soon disappear.”

“What magnificent orders would travel from this family to London,” said Edward, “in such an event! What a happy day for booksellers, music-sellers, and print-shops! You, Miss Dashwood, would give a general commission for every new print of merit to be sent you—and as for Marianne, I know her greatness of soul, there would not be music enough in London to content her. And books!—Thomson, Cowper, Scott—she would buy them all over and over again: she would buy up every copy, I believe, to prevent their falling into unworthy hands; and she would have every book that tells her how to admire an old twisted tree. Should not you, Marianne? Forgive me, if I am very saucy. But I was willing to show you that I had not forgot our old disputes.”

“What amazing orders would come from this family to London,” said Edward, “if that happens! What a great day for bookstores, music shops, and print stores! You, Miss Dashwood, would place a general order for every worthwhile new print to be sent to you—and as for Marianne, I know her big heart, there wouldn’t be enough music in London to satisfy her. And books!—Thomson, Cowper, Scott—she would buy them all again and again: I believe she would purchase every copy to keep them out of unworthy hands; and she would want every book that teaches her how to appreciate an old twisted tree. Wouldn’t you, Marianne? Forgive me if I’m being a bit cheeky. But I just wanted to show you that I haven’t forgotten our old debates.”

“I love to be reminded of the past, Edward—whether it be melancholy or gay, I love to recall it—and you will never offend me by talking of former times. You are very right in supposing how my money would be spent—some of it, at least—my loose cash would certainly be employed in improving my collection of music and books.”

“I love reminiscing about the past, Edward—whether it's sad or joyful, I enjoy recalling it—and you'll never upset me by bringing up old times. You're absolutely right to think about how I would spend my money—at least some of it—my extra cash would definitely go toward enhancing my collection of music and books.”

“And the bulk of your fortune would be laid out in annuities on the authors or their heirs.”

“And most of your money would be put into annuities for the authors or their heirs.”

“No, Edward, I should have something else to do with it.”

“No, Edward, I should find a different use for it.”

“Perhaps, then, you would bestow it as a reward on that person who wrote the ablest defence of your favourite maxim, that no one can ever be in love more than once in their life—your opinion on that point is unchanged, I presume?”

“Maybe, then, you should give it as a reward to the person who wrote the best defense of your favorite saying, that no one can ever be in love more than once in their life—your opinion on that is still the same, I assume?”

“Undoubtedly. At my time of life opinions are tolerably fixed. It is not likely that I should now see or hear any thing to change them.”

"Definitely. At my age, my opinions are fairly set. It's unlikely that I'll see or hear anything now that would change them."

“Marianne is as steadfast as ever, you see,” said Elinor, “she is not at all altered.”

“Marianne is as unwavering as ever, you see,” said Elinor, “she hasn’t changed at all.”

“She is only grown a little more grave than she was.”

“She has just become a bit more serious than she was.”

“Nay, Edward,” said Marianne, “you need not reproach me. You are not very gay yourself.”

“Nah, Edward,” said Marianne, “you don’t have to blame me. You’re not exactly cheerful yourself.”

“Why should you think so!” replied he, with a sigh. “But gaiety never was a part of my character.”

“Why would you think that!” he replied, with a sigh. “But happiness was never a part of my character.”

“Nor do I think it a part of Marianne’s,” said Elinor; “I should hardly call her a lively girl—she is very earnest, very eager in all she does—sometimes talks a great deal and always with animation—but she is not often really merry.”

“Neither do I think that’s part of Marianne’s character,” said Elinor; “I wouldn’t really describe her as a lively girl—she's very sincere, very enthusiastic in everything she does—sometimes she talks a lot and always with energy—but she isn’t often truly happy.”

“I believe you are right,” he replied, “and yet I have always set her down as a lively girl.”

"I think you're right," he said, "but I've always thought of her as a lively girl."

“I have frequently detected myself in such kind of mistakes,” said Elinor, “in a total misapprehension of character in some point or other: fancying people so much more gay or grave, or ingenious or stupid than they really are, and I can hardly tell why or in what the deception originated. Sometimes one is guided by what they say of themselves, and very frequently by what other people say of them, without giving oneself time to deliberate and judge.”

“I often catch myself making these kinds of mistakes,” Elinor said, “totally misunderstanding someone's character in one way or another: thinking people are much more cheerful or serious, clever or dull than they really are, and I can hardly figure out why or how I got deceived. Sometimes you rely on what they say about themselves, and often on what others say about them, without taking the time to think it through and make your own judgment.”

“But I thought it was right, Elinor,” said Marianne, “to be guided wholly by the opinion of other people. I thought our judgments were given us merely to be subservient to those of neighbours. This has always been your doctrine, I am sure.”

“But I thought it was right, Elinor,” said Marianne, “to be completely guided by what other people think. I believed our judgments were meant to serve those of others. I’m sure this has always been your belief.”

“No, Marianne, never. My doctrine has never aimed at the subjection of the understanding. All I have ever attempted to influence has been the behaviour. You must not confound my meaning. I am guilty, I confess, of having often wished you to treat our acquaintance in general with greater attention; but when have I advised you to adopt their sentiments or to conform to their judgment in serious matters?”

“No, Marianne, never. My belief has never been about controlling your thoughts. All I’ve ever tried to change is your behavior. You must not misunderstand me. I admit, I have often wished you would take our friendship more seriously; but when have I told you to adopt their views or to follow their opinions in important matters?”

“You have not been able to bring your sister over to your plan of general civility,” said Edward to Elinor, “Do you gain no ground?”

“You haven't been able to convince your sister to go along with your idea of being generally polite,” Edward said to Elinor. “Are you making any progress?”

“Quite the contrary,” replied Elinor, looking expressively at Marianne.

"Not at all," replied Elinor, giving Marianne a meaningful look.

“My judgment,” he returned, “is all on your side of the question; but I am afraid my practice is much more on your sister’s. I never wish to offend, but I am so foolishly shy, that I often seem negligent, when I am only kept back by my natural awkwardness. I have frequently thought that I must have been intended by nature to be fond of low company, I am so little at my ease among strangers of gentility!”

“My opinion,” he replied, “is definitely on your side of the argument; but I’m afraid my actions lean much more toward your sister’s. I never want to upset anyone, but I’m so incredibly shy that I often come off as indifferent, when I’m really just held back by my natural awkwardness. I’ve often thought that maybe I’m just meant to be comfortable with less refined company, since I feel so out of place around sophisticated strangers!”

“Marianne has not shyness to excuse any inattention of hers,” said Elinor.

“Marianne doesn’t have any shyness to justify her lack of attention,” Elinor said.

“She knows her own worth too well for false shame,” replied Edward. “Shyness is only the effect of a sense of inferiority in some way or other. If I could persuade myself that my manners were perfectly easy and graceful, I should not be shy.”

“She knows her worth too well to feel false shame,” replied Edward. “Shyness is just a result of feeling inferior in some way. If I could convince myself that my manners were completely easy and graceful, I wouldn’t be shy.”

“But you would still be reserved,” said Marianne, “and that is worse.”

“But you would still be distant,” Marianne said, “and that’s worse.”

Edward started—“Reserved! Am I reserved, Marianne?”

Edward started, “Reserved! Am I reserved, Marianne?”

“Yes, very.”

"Yes, absolutely."

“I do not understand you,” replied he, colouring. “Reserved!—how, in what manner? What am I to tell you? What can you suppose?”

“I don’t understand you,” he replied, blushing. “Reserved!—how, in what way? What should I tell you? What do you think?”

Elinor looked surprised at his emotion; but trying to laugh off the subject, she said to him, “Do not you know my sister well enough to understand what she means? Do not you know she calls every one reserved who does not talk as fast, and admire what she admires as rapturously as herself?”

Elinor looked surprised by his emotions, but trying to lighten the mood, she said to him, “Don’t you know my sister well enough to get what she means? Don’t you realize she thinks everyone is reserved if they don’t talk as quickly or admire things as enthusiastically as she does?”

Edward made no answer. His gravity and thoughtfulness returned on him in their fullest extent—and he sat for some time silent and dull.

Edward said nothing. His seriousness and contemplation came back to him fully, and he sat quietly for a while, feeling blank.

CHAPTER XVIII.

Elinor saw, with great uneasiness the low spirits of her friend. His visit afforded her but a very partial satisfaction, while his own enjoyment in it appeared so imperfect. It was evident that he was unhappy; she wished it were equally evident that he still distinguished her by the same affection which once she had felt no doubt of inspiring; but hitherto the continuance of his preference seemed very uncertain; and the reservedness of his manner towards her contradicted one moment what a more animated look had intimated the preceding one.

Elinor felt very uneasy seeing her friend in such low spirits. His visit gave her only a little satisfaction, while he seemed to enjoy it so little. It was clear that he was unhappy; she wished it were just as clear that he still felt the same affection for her that she had once been sure he had. But so far, his continued preference seemed uncertain, and the way he held back with her contradicted the more animated looks he had shown just moments before.

He joined her and Marianne in the breakfast-room the next morning before the others were down; and Marianne, who was always eager to promote their happiness as far as she could, soon left them to themselves. But before she was half way upstairs she heard the parlour door open, and, turning round, was astonished to see Edward himself come out.

He joined her and Marianne in the breakfast room the next morning before the others were up; and Marianne, who was always eager to support their happiness as much as she could, soon left them alone. But before she was halfway up the stairs, she heard the parlor door open, and, turning around, was surprised to see Edward himself come out.

“I am going into the village to see my horses,” said he, “as you are not yet ready for breakfast; I shall be back again presently.”

“I’m going to the village to check on my horses,” he said, “since you’re not ready for breakfast yet; I’ll be back shortly.”


Edward returned to them with fresh admiration of the surrounding country; in his walk to the village, he had seen many parts of the valley to advantage; and the village itself, in a much higher situation than the cottage, afforded a general view of the whole, which had exceedingly pleased him. This was a subject which ensured Marianne’s attention, and she was beginning to describe her own admiration of these scenes, and to question him more minutely on the objects that had particularly struck him, when Edward interrupted her by saying, “You must not enquire too far, Marianne—remember I have no knowledge in the picturesque, and I shall offend you by my ignorance and want of taste if we come to particulars. I shall call hills steep, which ought to be bold; surfaces strange and uncouth, which ought to be irregular and rugged; and distant objects out of sight, which ought only to be indistinct through the soft medium of a hazy atmosphere. You must be satisfied with such admiration as I can honestly give. I call it a very fine country—the hills are steep, the woods seem full of fine timber, and the valley looks comfortable and snug—with rich meadows and several neat farm houses scattered here and there. It exactly answers my idea of a fine country, because it unites beauty with utility—and I dare say it is a picturesque one too, because you admire it; I can easily believe it to be full of rocks and promontories, grey moss and brush wood, but these are all lost on me. I know nothing of the picturesque.”

Edward returned to them with a newfound appreciation for the surrounding countryside; during his walk to the village, he had seen many parts of the valley in a favorable light, and the village itself, being at a higher elevation than the cottage, offered a stunning overall view that greatly pleased him. This was a topic that captured Marianne’s attention, and she began to share her own admiration for the scenery and to ask him more specific questions about the aspects that had particularly impressed him. However, Edward interrupted her, saying, “You shouldn’t ask too much, Marianne—remember, I’m not knowledgeable about what makes something picturesque, and I might offend you with my ignorance and lack of taste if we get into details. I might call hills steep when they should be described as bold, surfaces strange and awkward when they should be irregular and rugged, and distant objects hidden from view when they should only be faintly seen through the soft haze of the atmosphere. You have to be content with the level of admiration I can honestly express. I think it’s a very beautiful country—the hills are steep, the woods appear to have great timber, and the valley looks cozy and inviting—with lush meadows and several tidy farmhouses scattered about. It perfectly matches my idea of a beautiful countryside because it combines beauty with practicality—and I’m sure it’s picturesque too, since you find it admirable. I can easily imagine it being filled with rocks and cliffs, gray moss, and underbrush, but those details are all lost on me. I know nothing about what makes something picturesque.”

“I am afraid it is but too true,” said Marianne; “but why should you boast of it?”

“I’m afraid it’s unfortunately true,” said Marianne; “but why would you brag about it?”

“I suspect,” said Elinor, “that to avoid one kind of affectation, Edward here falls into another. Because he believes many people pretend to more admiration of the beauties of nature than they really feel, and is disgusted with such pretensions, he affects greater indifference and less discrimination in viewing them himself than he possesses. He is fastidious and will have an affectation of his own.”

“I suspect,” said Elinor, “that to avoid one type of pretension, Edward ends up falling into another. Since he thinks a lot of people pretend to admire the beauty of nature more than they actually do, and he finds that kind of fakeness annoying, he pretends to care less and not notice as much when he looks at it himself. He’s particular and has his own kind of affectation.”

“It is very true,” said Marianne, “that admiration of landscape scenery is become a mere jargon. Every body pretends to feel and tries to describe with the taste and elegance of him who first defined what picturesque beauty was. I detest jargon of every kind, and sometimes I have kept my feelings to myself, because I could find no language to describe them in but what was worn and hackneyed out of all sense and meaning.”

“It’s very true,” said Marianne, “that appreciation for landscape scenery has turned into just empty talk. Everyone pretends to feel something and attempts to explain it with the taste and sophistication of the person who first defined what picturesque beauty is. I can’t stand empty talk of any kind, and sometimes I’ve kept my feelings to myself because I couldn’t find any words to express them other than those that are overused and drained of all real meaning.”

“I am convinced,” said Edward, “that you really feel all the delight in a fine prospect which you profess to feel. But, in return, your sister must allow me to feel no more than I profess. I like a fine prospect, but not on picturesque principles. I do not like crooked, twisted, blasted trees. I admire them much more if they are tall, straight, and flourishing. I do not like ruined, tattered cottages. I am not fond of nettles or thistles, or heath blossoms. I have more pleasure in a snug farm-house than a watch-tower—and a troop of tidy, happy villagers please me better than the finest banditti in the world.”

“I’m convinced,” Edward said, “that you genuinely feel all the joy in a beautiful view that you claim to feel. But in return, your sister must let me feel no more than I express. I appreciate a beautiful view, but not for artistic reasons. I don’t like crooked, twisted, or damaged trees. I admire them much more when they’re tall, straight, and thriving. I don’t like ruined, shabby cottages. I’m not a fan of nettles or thistles or heath flowers. I find more joy in a cozy farmhouse than in a watchtower—and a group of tidy, happy villagers delights me more than the finest bandits in the world.”

Marianne looked with amazement at Edward, with compassion at her sister. Elinor only laughed.

Marianne stared at Edward in astonishment and felt sympathy for her sister. Elinor just laughed.

The subject was continued no farther; and Marianne remained thoughtfully silent, till a new object suddenly engaged her attention. She was sitting by Edward, and in taking his tea from Mrs. Dashwood, his hand passed so directly before her, as to make a ring, with a plait of hair in the centre, very conspicuous on one of his fingers.

The topic wasn't discussed any further, and Marianne sat quietly lost in thought until something else caught her attention. She was sitting next to Edward, and as he took his tea from Mrs. Dashwood, his hand moved right in front of her, making a ring with a braid of hair in the center very noticeable on one of his fingers.

“I never saw you wear a ring before, Edward,” she cried. “Is that Fanny’s hair? I remember her promising to give you some. But I should have thought her hair had been darker.”

“I’ve never seen you wear a ring before, Edward,” she exclaimed. “Is that Fanny’s hair? I remember her saying she would give you some. But I would have thought her hair was darker.”

Marianne spoke inconsiderately what she really felt—but when she saw how much she had pained Edward, her own vexation at her want of thought could not be surpassed by his. He coloured very deeply, and giving a momentary glance at Elinor, replied, “Yes; it is my sister’s hair. The setting always casts a different shade on it, you know.”

Marianne spoke thoughtlessly about her true feelings—but when she realized how much she had hurt Edward, her own frustration at her lack of consideration couldn't match his. He blushed deeply and, casting a quick glance at Elinor, replied, “Yes; it's my sister's hair. The lighting always makes it look different, you know.”

Elinor had met his eye, and looked conscious likewise. That the hair was her own, she instantaneously felt as well satisfied as Marianne; the only difference in their conclusions was, that what Marianne considered as a free gift from her sister, Elinor was conscious must have been procured by some theft or contrivance unknown to herself. She was not in a humour, however, to regard it as an affront, and affecting to take no notice of what passed, by instantly talking of something else, she internally resolved henceforward to catch every opportunity of eyeing the hair and of satisfying herself, beyond all doubt, that it was exactly the shade of her own.

Elinor had made eye contact with him and felt aware of it too. She quickly realized that the hair was her own, just like Marianne. The only difference in their thoughts was that while Marianne saw it as a generous gift from her sister, Elinor understood that it must have been obtained through some sort of theft or scheme that she wasn’t aware of. However, she wasn't in the mood to take it as an insult, so pretending not to notice what was going on, she immediately shifted the conversation to something else. Internally, she resolved from that moment on to seize every chance to closely examine the hair and confirm for herself, without a doubt, that it was exactly the same shade as her own.

Edward’s embarrassment lasted some time, and it ended in an absence of mind still more settled. He was particularly grave the whole morning. Marianne severely censured herself for what she had said; but her own forgiveness might have been more speedy, had she known how little offence it had given her sister.

Edward's embarrassment lingered for a while, leading to an even deeper distraction. He was especially serious all morning. Marianne harshly criticized herself for what she had said; however, she might have forgiven herself more quickly if she had known how little it had upset her sister.

Before the middle of the day, they were visited by Sir John and Mrs. Jennings, who, having heard of the arrival of a gentleman at the cottage, came to take a survey of the guest. With the assistance of his mother-in-law, Sir John was not long in discovering that the name of Ferrars began with an F. and this prepared a future mine of raillery against the devoted Elinor, which nothing but the newness of their acquaintance with Edward could have prevented from being immediately sprung. But, as it was, she only learned, from some very significant looks, how far their penetration, founded on Margaret’s instructions, extended.

Before noon, they were visited by Sir John and Mrs. Jennings, who, having heard about a gentleman staying at the cottage, came to check him out. With his mother-in-law’s help, Sir John quickly figured out that the last name Ferrars started with an F. This set up a future source of teasing directed at the devoted Elinor, which would have been unleashed right away if not for their fresh acquaintance with Edward. As it turned out, she only learned from some very knowing glances how much they had pieced together based on Margaret’s hints.

Sir John never came to the Dashwoods without either inviting them to dine at the park the next day, or to drink tea with them that evening. On the present occasion, for the better entertainment of their visitor, towards whose amusement he felt himself bound to contribute, he wished to engage them for both.

Sir John never visited the Dashwoods without either inviting them to dinner at the park the next day or asking them to join him for tea that evening. On this occasion, to entertain their guest, whom he felt duty-bound to amuse, he wanted to invite them for both.

“You must drink tea with us to night,” said he, “for we shall be quite alone—and tomorrow you must absolutely dine with us, for we shall be a large party.”

“You have to drink tea with us tonight,” he said, “because we’ll be all alone—and tomorrow you really have to join us for dinner, since we’ll have a big group.”

Mrs. Jennings enforced the necessity. “And who knows but you may raise a dance,” said she. “And that will tempt you, Miss Marianne.”

Mrs. Jennings emphasized the point. “And who knows, you might start a dance,” she said. “And that will entice you, Miss Marianne.”

“A dance!” cried Marianne. “Impossible! Who is to dance?”

“A dance!” shouted Marianne. “No way! Who’s going to dance?”

“Who! why yourselves, and the Careys, and Whitakers to be sure.—What! you thought nobody could dance because a certain person that shall be nameless is gone!”

“Who! Why, it's you all, the Careys, and the Whitakers for sure. What! You thought nobody could dance just because someone who shall remain nameless is gone!”

“I wish with all my soul,” cried Sir John, “that Willoughby were among us again.”

“I wish with all my heart,” cried Sir John, “that Willoughby were here with us again.”

This, and Marianne’s blushing, gave new suspicions to Edward. “And who is Willoughby?” said he, in a low voice, to Miss Dashwood, by whom he was sitting.

This, along with Marianne’s blushing, raised new suspicions for Edward. “And who is Willoughby?” he asked quietly to Miss Dashwood, who was sitting next to him.

She gave him a brief reply. Marianne’s countenance was more communicative. Edward saw enough to comprehend, not only the meaning of others, but such of Marianne’s expressions as had puzzled him before; and when their visitors left them, he went immediately round her, and said, in a whisper, “I have been guessing. Shall I tell you my guess?”

She responded quickly. Marianne’s expression was more open. Edward noticed enough to understand not just what others meant, but also some of Marianne’s expressions that had confused him earlier; and when their guests left, he moved close to her and whispered, “I’ve been trying to guess. Should I share my guess?”

“What do you mean?”

"What are you talking about?"

“Shall I tell you?”

“Should I tell you?”

“Certainly.”

"Of course."

“Well then; I guess that Mr. Willoughby hunts.”

“Well then; I guess Mr. Willoughby goes hunting.”

Marianne was surprised and confused, yet she could not help smiling at the quiet archness of his manner, and after a moment’s silence, said,

Marianne felt surprised and confused, but she couldn’t help smiling at the subtle playfulness in his manner, and after a brief pause, she said,

“Oh, Edward! How can you?—But the time will come I hope...I am sure you will like him.”

"Oh, Edward! How can you?—But I hope the time will come...I'm sure you'll like him."

“I do not doubt it,” replied he, rather astonished at her earnestness and warmth; for had he not imagined it to be a joke for the good of her acquaintance in general, founded only on a something or a nothing between Mr. Willoughby and herself, he would not have ventured to mention it.

“I don’t doubt it,” he replied, somewhat surprised by her sincerity and passion; if he hadn’t thought it was just a joke for the benefit of her friends, based on something or nothing between Mr. Willoughby and her, he wouldn’t have dared to bring it up.

CHAPTER XIX.

Edward remained a week at the cottage; he was earnestly pressed by Mrs. Dashwood to stay longer; but, as if he were bent only on self-mortification, he seemed resolved to be gone when his enjoyment among his friends was at the height. His spirits, during the last two or three days, though still very unequal, were greatly improved—he grew more and more partial to the house and environs—never spoke of going away without a sigh—declared his time to be wholly disengaged—even doubted to what place he should go when he left them—but still, go he must. Never had any week passed so quickly—he could hardly believe it to be gone. He said so repeatedly; other things he said too, which marked the turn of his feelings and gave the lie to his actions. He had no pleasure at Norland; he detested being in town; but either to Norland or London, he must go. He valued their kindness beyond any thing, and his greatest happiness was in being with them. Yet, he must leave them at the end of a week, in spite of their wishes and his own, and without any restraint on his time.

Edward stayed at the cottage for a week; Mrs. Dashwood urged him to stay longer, but it seemed like he was determined to leave just when he was enjoying himself the most with his friends. His mood during the last few days, though still a bit up and down, had significantly improved—he grew fonder of the house and the area—never mentioned leaving without a sigh—claimed his schedule was completely open—even questioned where he would go after he left them—but still, he felt he had to go. No week had ever flown by so quickly—he could hardly believe it was over. He said this repeatedly; he also said other things that revealed how he really felt, despite what his actions suggested. He found no joy at Norland; he hated being in the city; yet he had to choose between Norland or London. He valued their kindness above everything, and his greatest happiness was being with them. Still, he had to leave them at the end of the week, regardless of their wishes and his own, with no constraints on his time.

Elinor placed all that was astonishing in this way of acting to his mother’s account; and it was happy for her that he had a mother whose character was so imperfectly known to her, as to be the general excuse for every thing strange on the part of her son. Disappointed, however, and vexed as she was, and sometimes displeased with his uncertain behaviour to herself, she was very well disposed on the whole to regard his actions with all the candid allowances and generous qualifications, which had been rather more painfully extorted from her, for Willoughby’s service, by her mother. His want of spirits, of openness, and of consistency, were most usually attributed to his want of independence, and his better knowledge of Mrs. Ferrars’s disposition and designs. The shortness of his visit, the steadiness of his purpose in leaving them, originated in the same fettered inclination, the same inevitable necessity of temporizing with his mother. The old well-established grievance of duty against will, parent against child, was the cause of all. She would have been glad to know when these difficulties were to cease, this opposition was to yield,—when Mrs. Ferrars would be reformed, and her son be at liberty to be happy. But from such vain wishes she was forced to turn for comfort to the renewal of her confidence in Edward’s affection, to the remembrance of every mark of regard in look or word which fell from him while at Barton, and above all to that flattering proof of it which he constantly wore round his finger.

Elinor attributed all the surprising behavior to his mother, and it was lucky for her that he had a mother whose character was so vaguely understood by her, serving as a general excuse for everything odd about her son. Even though she was disappointed and frustrated, and sometimes annoyed by his unpredictable behavior toward her, she generally tried to view his actions with the generous understanding that her mother had helped her develop, especially for Willoughby. His lack of enthusiasm, openness, and consistency were usually explained by his dependence and his better awareness of Mrs. Ferrars’s character and intentions. The brief nature of his visit and his firm decision to leave were driven by the same constrained inclination, the unavoidable need to deal with his mother. The longstanding issue of duty versus desire, parent versus child, was the root of it all. She wished she could know when these difficulties would end, when this opposition would ease—when Mrs. Ferrars would change, and her son could finally be happy. But from such futile hopes, she had to find solace in her renewed confidence in Edward’s love, remembering every sign of affection in his look or words while at Barton, and above all, that flattering proof of it he always wore on his finger.

“I think, Edward,” said Mrs. Dashwood, as they were at breakfast the last morning, “you would be a happier man if you had any profession to engage your time and give an interest to your plans and actions. Some inconvenience to your friends, indeed, might result from it—you would not be able to give them so much of your time. But (with a smile) you would be materially benefited in one particular at least—you would know where to go when you left them.”

“I think, Edward,” said Mrs. Dashwood, as they were having breakfast on their last morning together, “you would be a happier man if you had a job to occupy your time and add some interest to your plans and actions. It might inconvenience your friends a bit—you wouldn’t be able to spend as much time with them. But (with a smile) you would definitely gain in one way at least—you would know where to go when you left them.”

“I do assure you,” he replied, “that I have long thought on this point, as you think now. It has been, and is, and probably will always be a heavy misfortune to me, that I have had no necessary business to engage me, no profession to give me employment, or afford me any thing like independence. But unfortunately my own nicety, and the nicety of my friends, have made me what I am, an idle, helpless being. We never could agree in our choice of a profession. I always preferred the church, as I still do. But that was not smart enough for my family. They recommended the army. That was a great deal too smart for me. The law was allowed to be genteel enough; many young men, who had chambers in the Temple, made a very good appearance in the first circles, and drove about town in very knowing gigs. But I had no inclination for the law, even in this less abstruse study of it, which my family approved. As for the navy, it had fashion on its side, but I was too old when the subject was first started to enter it—and, at length, as there was no necessity for my having any profession at all, as I might be as dashing and expensive without a red coat on my back as with one, idleness was pronounced on the whole to be most advantageous and honourable, and a young man of eighteen is not in general so earnestly bent on being busy as to resist the solicitations of his friends to do nothing. I was therefore entered at Oxford and have been properly idle ever since.”

“I assure you,” he replied, “that I’ve thought about this for a long time, just like you are now. It has been, and still is, and probably always will be a huge misfortune for me that I haven’t had any pressing work to keep me busy, no profession to give me purpose or any sense of independence. But unfortunately, my own fussiness, along with the fussiness of my friends, has made me who I am—an idle, helpless person. We could never agree on what profession to choose. I always preferred the church, and I still do. But that wasn’t flashy enough for my family. They suggested the army, which was way too flashy for me. The law was deemed respectable enough; many young men who had chambers in the Temple looked quite impressive in high society and drove around town in stylish carriages. But I had no interest in law, even in this less complex version of it that my family liked. As for the navy, it had a fashionable appeal, but I was too old when that option was first brought up. Eventually, since there was no real need for me to have a profession at all—since I could be just as flashy and extravagant without a uniform as I could be with one—being idle was deemed to be the most advantageous and honorable choice. Typically, an eighteen-year-old isn’t very determined to keep busy enough to ignore his friends’ encouragement to do nothing. So, I ended up at Oxford and have been properly idle ever since.”

“The consequence of which, I suppose, will be,” said Mrs. Dashwood, “since leisure has not promoted your own happiness, that your sons will be brought up to as many pursuits, employments, professions, and trades as Columella’s.”

“The result of this, I guess, will be,” said Mrs. Dashwood, “since having free time hasn’t made you happy, that your sons will be raised to have as many activities, jobs, careers, and trades as Columella’s.”

“They will be brought up,” said he, in a serious accent, “to be as unlike myself as is possible. In feeling, in action, in condition, in every thing.”

“They will be raised,” he said in a serious tone, “to be as different from me as possible. In feelings, actions, circumstances, in every way.”

“Come, come; this is all an effusion of immediate want of spirits, Edward. You are in a melancholy humour, and fancy that any one unlike yourself must be happy. But remember that the pain of parting from friends will be felt by every body at times, whatever be their education or state. Know your own happiness. You want nothing but patience—or give it a more fascinating name, call it hope. Your mother will secure to you, in time, that independence you are so anxious for; it is her duty, and it will, it must ere long become her happiness to prevent your whole youth from being wasted in discontent. How much may not a few months do?”

“Come on; this is just a burst of immediate feelings, Edward. You're feeling down and think that anyone different from you must be happy. But remember, everyone experiences the pain of saying goodbye to friends from time to time, no matter their background or situation. Recognize your own happiness. You only need patience—or you can give it a more appealing name, like hope. Your mother will eventually secure the independence you're so eager for; it's her responsibility, and it will soon bring her happiness to keep your youth from being wasted in unhappiness. Just think of what a few months can change.”

“I think,” replied Edward, “that I may defy many months to produce any good to me.”

“I think,” Edward replied, “that it might take many months to do anything good for me.”

This desponding turn of mind, though it could not be communicated to Mrs. Dashwood, gave additional pain to them all in the parting, which shortly took place, and left an uncomfortable impression on Elinor’s feelings especially, which required some trouble and time to subdue. But as it was her determination to subdue it, and to prevent herself from appearing to suffer more than what all her family suffered on his going away, she did not adopt the method so judiciously employed by Marianne, on a similar occasion, to augment and fix her sorrow, by seeking silence, solitude and idleness. Their means were as different as their objects, and equally suited to the advancement of each.

This gloomy state of mind, although it couldn’t be shared with Mrs. Dashwood, added more pain for everyone during the farewell that soon followed, leaving an uncomfortable impression on Elinor’s feelings, which took her some effort and time to overcome. But because she was determined to move past it and not show that she was hurting more than the rest of her family during his departure, she didn’t follow the method that Marianne wisely used in a similar situation to amplify her sorrow by seeking silence, solitude, and inactivity. Their approaches were as different as their intentions, and equally effective for each of them.

Elinor sat down to her drawing-table as soon as he was out of the house, busily employed herself the whole day, neither sought nor avoided the mention of his name, appeared to interest herself almost as much as ever in the general concerns of the family, and if, by this conduct, she did not lessen her own grief, it was at least prevented from unnecessary increase, and her mother and sisters were spared much solicitude on her account.

Elinor sat down at her drawing table as soon as he left the house and kept herself busy all day. She neither sought out nor avoided saying his name, seemed to care about the family's general affairs just as much as ever, and even if this behavior didn't lessen her own sadness, it at least kept it from getting worse. This way, her mother and sisters didn’t have to worry about her as much.

Such behaviour as this, so exactly the reverse of her own, appeared no more meritorious to Marianne, than her own had seemed faulty to her. The business of self-command she settled very easily;—with strong affections it was impossible, with calm ones it could have no merit. That her sister’s affections were calm, she dared not deny, though she blushed to acknowledge it; and of the strength of her own, she gave a very striking proof, by still loving and respecting that sister, in spite of this mortifying conviction.

Such behavior, completely opposite to her own, didn’t seem any more admirable to Marianne than her own had seemed wrong to her. She figured out self-control pretty easily; with strong feelings, it was impossible, and with calm ones, it had no value. She couldn’t deny that her sister’s feelings were calm, even though she blushed at the thought; and she provided a clear example of the strength of her own feelings by continuing to love and respect that sister, despite this embarrassing realization.

Without shutting herself up from her family, or leaving the house in determined solitude to avoid them, or lying awake the whole night to indulge meditation, Elinor found every day afforded her leisure enough to think of Edward, and of Edward’s behaviour, in every possible variety which the different state of her spirits at different times could produce,—with tenderness, pity, approbation, censure, and doubt. There were moments in abundance, when, if not by the absence of her mother and sisters, at least by the nature of their employments, conversation was forbidden among them, and every effect of solitude was produced. Her mind was inevitably at liberty; her thoughts could not be chained elsewhere; and the past and the future, on a subject so interesting, must be before her, must force her attention, and engross her memory, her reflection, and her fancy.

Without isolating herself from her family, avoiding the house to be alone, or lying awake all night to reflect, Elinor found that each day gave her enough time to think about Edward and his actions in every possible way that her changing emotions could create—feeling tenderness, pity, approval, criticism, and uncertainty. There were plenty of moments when, if not because her mother and sisters were absent, then at least due to their activities, conversation among them became impossible, creating a sense of solitude. Her mind was inevitably free; her thoughts couldn't be directed elsewhere, and the past and future regarding such a fascinating topic had to be at the forefront of her mind, capturing her attention and consuming her memory, reflections, and imagination.

From a reverie of this kind, as she sat at her drawing-table, she was roused one morning, soon after Edward’s leaving them, by the arrival of company. She happened to be quite alone. The closing of the little gate, at the entrance of the green court in front of the house, drew her eyes to the window, and she saw a large party walking up to the door. Amongst them were Sir John and Lady Middleton and Mrs. Jennings, but there were two others, a gentleman and lady, who were quite unknown to her. She was sitting near the window, and as soon as Sir John perceived her, he left the rest of the party to the ceremony of knocking at the door, and stepping across the turf, obliged her to open the casement to speak to him, though the space was so short between the door and the window, as to make it hardly possible to speak at one without being heard at the other.

While she was daydreaming at her drawing table one morning, shortly after Edward had left them, she was startled by the arrival of visitors. She was completely alone. The sound of the little gate closing at the entrance of the green courtyard in front of the house caught her attention, and she looked out the window to see a large group approaching the door. Among them were Sir John, Lady Middleton, and Mrs. Jennings, but there were two others, a man and a woman, whom she didn’t recognize. Sitting by the window, as soon as Sir John saw her, he left the rest of the group to knock at the door and walked across the grass, insisting that she open the window to speak with him, even though the distance between the door and the window was so short that they could hardly talk without being overheard by the other.

“Well,” said he, “we have brought you some strangers. How do you like them?”

“Well,” he said, “we've brought you some newcomers. What do you think of them?”

“Hush! they will hear you.”

“Shh! They’ll hear you.”

“Never mind if they do. It is only the Palmers. Charlotte is very pretty, I can tell you. You may see her if you look this way.”

“Don’t worry if they do. It's just the Palmers. Charlotte is really pretty, I can tell you. You can see her if you look over here.”

As Elinor was certain of seeing her in a couple of minutes, without taking that liberty, she begged to be excused.

As Elinor was sure she'd see her in a couple of minutes, without taking that liberty, she asked to be excused.

“Where is Marianne? Has she run away because we are come? I see her instrument is open.”

“Where's Marianne? Has she run away because we've arrived? I see her instrument is open.”

“She is walking, I believe.”

"She’s walking, I think."

They were now joined by Mrs. Jennings, who had not patience enough to wait till the door was opened before she told her story. She came hallooing to the window, “How do you do, my dear? How does Mrs. Dashwood do? And where are your sisters? What! all alone! you will be glad of a little company to sit with you. I have brought my other son and daughter to see you. Only think of their coming so suddenly! I thought I heard a carriage last night, while we were drinking our tea, but it never entered my head that it could be them. I thought of nothing but whether it might not be Colonel Brandon come back again; so I said to Sir John, I do think I hear a carriage; perhaps it is Colonel Brandon come back again—”

They were soon joined by Mrs. Jennings, who didn’t have the patience to wait until the door was opened before she jumped in with her story. She called out from the window, “How are you, my dear? How is Mrs. Dashwood? And where are your sisters? What! All alone! You must be happy to have some company. I’ve brought my other son and daughter to see you. Can you believe they came so unexpectedly? I thought I heard a carriage last night while we were having tea, but it never crossed my mind that it could be them. I was only thinking about whether it might be Colonel Brandon returning again; so I said to Sir John, I really think I hear a carriage; maybe it’s Colonel Brandon back again—”

Elinor was obliged to turn from her, in the middle of her story, to receive the rest of the party; Lady Middleton introduced the two strangers; Mrs. Dashwood and Margaret came down stairs at the same time, and they all sat down to look at one another, while Mrs. Jennings continued her story as she walked through the passage into the parlour, attended by Sir John.

Elinor had to turn away from her in the middle of her story to greet the rest of the group; Lady Middleton introduced the two newcomers. Mrs. Dashwood and Margaret came downstairs at the same time, and they all sat down looking at each other, while Mrs. Jennings kept telling her story as she walked through the hall into the parlor with Sir John.

Mrs. Palmer was several years younger than Lady Middleton, and totally unlike her in every respect. She was short and plump, had a very pretty face, and the finest expression of good humour in it that could possibly be. Her manners were by no means so elegant as her sister’s, but they were much more prepossessing. She came in with a smile, smiled all the time of her visit, except when she laughed, and smiled when she went away. Her husband was a grave looking young man of five or six and twenty, with an air of more fashion and sense than his wife, but of less willingness to please or be pleased. He entered the room with a look of self-consequence, slightly bowed to the ladies, without speaking a word, and, after briefly surveying them and their apartments, took up a newspaper from the table, and continued to read it as long as he staid.

Mrs. Palmer was several years younger than Lady Middleton and completely different from her in every way. She was short and plump, had a really pretty face, and the best expression of good humor that you could imagine. Her manners weren't as refined as her sister’s, but they were much more endearing. She entered with a smile, kept smiling throughout her visit except when she was laughing, and smiled again when she left. Her husband was a serious-looking young man in his mid-twenties, with a more fashionable and sensible air than his wife, but he was less willing to please or to be pleased. He walked into the room with an air of self-importance, slightly bowed to the ladies without saying a word, and after quickly surveying them and their surroundings, picked up a newspaper from the table and read it for the duration of his stay.

Mrs. Palmer, on the contrary, who was strongly endowed by nature with a turn for being uniformly civil and happy, was hardly seated before her admiration of the parlour and every thing in it burst forth.

Mrs. Palmer, on the other hand, who was naturally gifted with a knack for being consistently polite and cheerful, barely settled in before her admiration for the living room and everything in it overflowed.

“Well! what a delightful room this is! I never saw anything so charming! Only think, Mama, how it is improved since I was here last! I always thought it such a sweet place, ma’am! (turning to Mrs. Dashwood) but you have made it so charming! Only look, sister, how delightful every thing is! How I should like such a house for myself! Should not you, Mr. Palmer?”

“Well! What a lovely room this is! I've never seen anything so charming! Just think, Mom, how much it's improved since I was last here! I always thought it was such a nice place, ma’am! (turning to Mrs. Dashwood) but you've made it so delightful! Just look, sister, how wonderful everything is! I would love to have a house like this for myself! Wouldn’t you, Mr. Palmer?”

Mr. Palmer made her no answer, and did not even raise his eyes from the newspaper.

Mr. Palmer didn’t answer her at all and didn’t even look up from the newspaper.

“Mr. Palmer does not hear me,” said she, laughing; “he never does sometimes. It is so ridiculous!”

“Mr. Palmer doesn’t hear me,” she said, laughing; “he never does sometimes. It’s so silly!”

This was quite a new idea to Mrs. Dashwood; she had never been used to find wit in the inattention of any one, and could not help looking with surprise at them both.

This was a completely new idea for Mrs. Dashwood; she had never thought of finding humor in someone's lack of attention and couldn’t help but look at both of them in surprise.

Mrs. Jennings, in the meantime, talked on as loud as she could, and continued her account of their surprise, the evening before, on seeing their friends, without ceasing till every thing was told. Mrs. Palmer laughed heartily at the recollection of their astonishment, and every body agreed, two or three times over, that it had been quite an agreeable surprise.

Mrs. Jennings, in the meantime, talked as loudly as she could and went on with her story about their surprise the night before when they saw their friends, not stopping until everything was said. Mrs. Palmer laughed heartily at the memory of their shock, and everyone agreed, two or three times, that it had been a really nice surprise.

“You may believe how glad we all were to see them,” added Mrs. Jennings, leaning forward towards Elinor, and speaking in a low voice as if she meant to be heard by no one else, though they were seated on different sides of the room; “but, however, I can’t help wishing they had not travelled quite so fast, nor made such a long journey of it, for they came all round by London upon account of some business, for you know (nodding significantly and pointing to her daughter) it was wrong in her situation. I wanted her to stay at home and rest this morning, but she would come with us; she longed so much to see you all!”

“You can imagine how happy we all were to see them,” Mrs. Jennings said, leaning toward Elinor and speaking quietly as if she didn’t want anyone else to hear, even though they were on opposite sides of the room. “But, honestly, I wish they hadn’t traveled so fast or taken such a long route. They went all the way around through London because of some business, and you know,” she said, nodding meaningfully and pointing to her daughter, “it wasn’t the best choice for her considering her situation. I wanted her to stay home and rest this morning, but she was determined to come with us; she was so eager to see you all!”

Mrs. Palmer laughed, and said it would not do her any harm.

Mrs. Palmer laughed and said it wouldn't hurt her at all.

“She expects to be confined in February,” continued Mrs. Jennings.

“She expects to be due in February,” continued Mrs. Jennings.

Lady Middleton could no longer endure such a conversation, and therefore exerted herself to ask Mr. Palmer if there was any news in the paper.

Lady Middleton could no longer stand such a conversation, so she made an effort to ask Mr. Palmer if there was any news in the paper.

“No, none at all,” he replied, and read on.

“No, not at all,” he replied, and continued reading.

“Here comes Marianne,” cried Sir John. “Now, Palmer, you shall see a monstrous pretty girl.”

"Here comes Marianne," exclaimed Sir John. "Now, Palmer, you'll see an incredibly pretty girl."

He immediately went into the passage, opened the front door, and ushered her in himself. Mrs. Jennings asked her, as soon as she appeared, if she had not been to Allenham; and Mrs. Palmer laughed so heartily at the question, as to show she understood it. Mr. Palmer looked up on her entering the room, stared at her some minutes, and then returned to his newspaper. Mrs. Palmer’s eye was now caught by the drawings which hung round the room. She got up to examine them.

He quickly walked into the hallway, opened the front door, and let her in himself. Mrs. Jennings asked her as soon as she arrived if she had been to Allenham, and Mrs. Palmer laughed so hard at the question that it was clear she got the joke. Mr. Palmer looked up when she entered the room, stared at her for a few minutes, and then went back to his newspaper. Mrs. Palmer's attention was now drawn to the drawings that hung around the room. She stood up to take a closer look at them.

“Oh! dear, how beautiful these are! Well! how delightful! Do but look, mama, how sweet! I declare they are quite charming; I could look at them for ever.” And then sitting down again, she very soon forgot that there were any such things in the room.

“Oh! wow, these are so beautiful! Just look, Mom, how lovely! I swear they are absolutely charming; I could stare at them forever.” And then, sitting down again, she quickly forgot that they were even in the room.

When Lady Middleton rose to go away, Mr. Palmer rose also, laid down the newspaper, stretched himself and looked at them all around.

When Lady Middleton stood up to leave, Mr. Palmer stood up as well, put down the newspaper, stretched, and glanced at everyone in the room.

“My love, have you been asleep?” said his wife, laughing.

“Hey babe, were you sleeping?” his wife asked, laughing.

He made her no answer; and only observed, after again examining the room, that it was very low pitched, and that the ceiling was crooked. He then made his bow, and departed with the rest.

He didn’t answer her and just noted, after looking around the room again, that it had a very low ceiling and that the ceiling was uneven. He then gave his bow and left with the others.

Sir John had been very urgent with them all to spend the next day at the park. Mrs. Dashwood, who did not chuse to dine with them oftener than they dined at the cottage, absolutely refused on her own account; her daughters might do as they pleased. But they had no curiosity to see how Mr. and Mrs. Palmer ate their dinner, and no expectation of pleasure from them in any other way. They attempted, therefore, likewise, to excuse themselves; the weather was uncertain, and not likely to be good. But Sir John would not be satisfied—the carriage should be sent for them and they must come. Lady Middleton too, though she did not press their mother, pressed them. Mrs. Jennings and Mrs. Palmer joined their entreaties, all seemed equally anxious to avoid a family party; and the young ladies were obliged to yield.

Sir John had been very eager for everyone to spend the next day at the park. Mrs. Dashwood, who didn’t want to dine with them more often than they did at the cottage, firmly declined for herself; her daughters could do whatever they liked. However, they weren’t interested in seeing how Mr. and Mrs. Palmer had their dinner and didn’t expect to enjoy their company in any other way. So, they also tried to excuse themselves; the weather was unpredictable and probably wouldn’t be good. But Sir John wouldn’t take no for an answer—the carriage would be sent for them, and they had to come. Lady Middleton, although she didn’t pressure their mother, encouraged them to join. Mrs. Jennings and Mrs. Palmer joined in the pleas as well, all seeming equally eager to avoid a family gathering; and the young ladies had no choice but to give in.

“Why should they ask us?” said Marianne, as soon as they were gone. “The rent of this cottage is said to be low; but we have it on very hard terms, if we are to dine at the park whenever any one is staying either with them, or with us.”

“Why should they ask us?” Marianne said as soon as they left. “The rent for this cottage is supposed to be low, but we have it on really tough terms if we’re expected to dine at the park whenever anyone is visiting either them or us.”

“They mean no less to be civil and kind to us now,” said Elinor, “by these frequent invitations, than by those which we received from them a few weeks ago. The alteration is not in them, if their parties are grown tedious and dull. We must look for the change elsewhere.”

“They don’t mean any less to be polite and friendly to us now,” said Elinor, “with these frequent invitations, than with the ones we got from them a few weeks ago. The change isn’t in them, even if their gatherings have become tedious and dull. We need to look for the change somewhere else.”

CHAPTER XX.

As the Miss Dashwoods entered the drawing-room of the park the next day, at one door, Mrs. Palmer came running in at the other, looking as good humoured and merry as before. She took them all most affectionately by the hand, and expressed great delight in seeing them again.

As the Miss Dashwoods walked into the drawing-room at the park the next day, Mrs. Palmer came rushing in from the opposite door, looking just as cheerful and lively as before. She warmly greeted each of them, taking their hands affectionately, and expressed her happiness at seeing them again.

“I am so glad to see you!” said she, seating herself between Elinor and Marianne, “for it is so bad a day I was afraid you might not come, which would be a shocking thing, as we go away again tomorrow. We must go, for the Westons come to us next week you know. It was quite a sudden thing our coming at all, and I knew nothing of it till the carriage was coming to the door, and then Mr. Palmer asked me if I would go with him to Barton. He is so droll! He never tells me any thing! I am so sorry we cannot stay longer; however we shall meet again in town very soon, I hope.”

“I’m so glad to see you!” she said, sitting down between Elinor and Marianne. “It’s such a terrible day, I was worried you might not come, which would be just awful since we’re leaving again tomorrow. We have to go because the Westons are visiting us next week, you know. Our trip here was quite sudden, and I didn’t know anything about it until the carriage was pulling up to the door. Then Mr. Palmer asked me if I wanted to go with him to Barton. He’s so funny! He never tells me anything! I’m really sorry we can’t stay longer; however, I hope we’ll meet again in town very soon.”

They were obliged to put an end to such an expectation.

They had to put an end to that expectation.

“Not go to town!” cried Mrs. Palmer, with a laugh, “I shall be quite disappointed if you do not. I could get the nicest house in the world for you, next door to ours, in Hanover-square. You must come, indeed. I am sure I shall be very happy to chaperon you at any time till I am confined, if Mrs. Dashwood should not like to go into public.”

“Don’t go to town!” Mrs. Palmer exclaimed with a laugh. “I’ll be really disappointed if you don’t. I could find you the nicest house in the world, right next to ours in Hanover Square. You absolutely have to come. I’m sure I’d be very happy to accompany you anytime until I have to stay home, if Mrs. Dashwood doesn’t want to go out in public.”

They thanked her; but were obliged to resist all her entreaties.

They thanked her, but had to turn down all her pleas.

“Oh, my love,” cried Mrs. Palmer to her husband, who just then entered the room—“you must help me to persuade the Miss Dashwoods to go to town this winter.”

“Oh, my love,” Mrs. Palmer exclaimed to her husband, who had just walked into the room, “you have to help me convince the Miss Dashwoods to go to the city this winter.”

Her love made no answer; and after slightly bowing to the ladies, began complaining of the weather.

Her love didn’t respond; and after giving a slight nod to the ladies, started complaining about the weather.

“How horrid all this is!” said he. “Such weather makes every thing and every body disgusting. Dullness is as much produced within doors as without, by rain. It makes one detest all one’s acquaintance. What the devil does Sir John mean by not having a billiard room in his house? How few people know what comfort is! Sir John is as stupid as the weather.”

“How awful all this is!” he said. “This weather makes everything and everyone annoying. Dullness is created indoors just as much as outdoors by the rain. It makes you hate all your acquaintances. What on earth is Sir John thinking by not having a billiard room in his house? So few people know what real comfort is! Sir John is as foolish as the weather.”

The rest of the company soon dropt in.

The rest of the group soon showed up.

“I am afraid, Miss Marianne,” said Sir John, “you have not been able to take your usual walk to Allenham today.”

“I’m afraid, Miss Marianne,” said Sir John, “you weren’t able to go for your usual walk to Allenham today.”

Marianne looked very grave and said nothing.

Marianne looked very serious and said nothing.

“Oh, don’t be so sly before us,” said Mrs. Palmer; “for we know all about it, I assure you; and I admire your taste very much, for I think he is extremely handsome. We do not live a great way from him in the country, you know. Not above ten miles, I dare say.”

“Oh, don’t be so sneaky around us,” Mrs. Palmer said; “because we know all about it, I promise you; and I really admire your taste, because I think he’s very attractive. We don’t live too far from him in the countryside, you know. Probably not more than ten miles, I’d guess.”

“Much nearer thirty,” said her husband.

“Much closer to thirty,” said her husband.

“Ah, well! there is not much difference. I never was at his house; but they say it is a sweet pretty place.”

“Ah, well! there's not much difference. I’ve never been to his house, but they say it's a really nice place.”

“As vile a spot as I ever saw in my life,” said Mr. Palmer.

“As disgusting a place as I’ve ever seen in my life,” said Mr. Palmer.

Marianne remained perfectly silent, though her countenance betrayed her interest in what was said.

Marianne stayed completely quiet, but her expression revealed her interest in what was being said.

“Is it very ugly?” continued Mrs. Palmer—“then it must be some other place that is so pretty I suppose.”

“Is it really ugly?” continued Mrs. Palmer. “Then it must be somewhere else that’s really pretty, I guess.”

When they were seated in the dining room, Sir John observed with regret that they were only eight all together.

When they sat down in the dining room, Sir John noticed with sympathy that there were only eight of them in total.

“My dear,” said he to his lady, “it is very provoking that we should be so few. Why did not you ask the Gilberts to come to us today?”

“My dear,” he said to his lady, “it's really frustrating that we are so few. Why didn’t you invite the Gilberts to join us today?”

“Did not I tell you, Sir John, when you spoke to me about it before, that it could not be done? They dined with us last.”

“Didn’t I tell you, Sir John, when you talked to me about it before, that it couldn’t be done? They had dinner with us last night.”

“You and I, Sir John,” said Mrs. Jennings, “should not stand upon such ceremony.”

"You and I, Sir John," said Mrs. Jennings, "shouldn't be so formal."

“Then you would be very ill-bred,” cried Mr. Palmer.

“Then you would be really rude,” shouted Mr. Palmer.

“My love you contradict every body,” said his wife with her usual laugh. “Do you know that you are quite rude?”

“My love, you always contradict everyone,” his wife said with her usual laughter. “Do you realize that you're being quite rude?”

“I did not know I contradicted any body in calling your mother ill-bred.”

“I didn’t realize I was contradicting anyone by saying your mother is rude.”

“Ay, you may abuse me as you please,” said the good-natured old lady, “you have taken Charlotte off my hands, and cannot give her back again. So there I have the whip hand of you.”

“Yeah, you can treat me however you want,” said the kind-hearted old lady, “you’ve taken Charlotte off my hands, and you can’t give her back. So now I have the upper hand.”

Charlotte laughed heartily to think that her husband could not get rid of her; and exultingly said, she did not care how cross he was to her, as they must live together. It was impossible for any one to be more thoroughly good-natured, or more determined to be happy than Mrs. Palmer. The studied indifference, insolence, and discontent of her husband gave her no pain; and when he scolded or abused her, she was highly diverted.

Charlotte laughed joyfully at the thought that her husband couldn't get rid of her and confidently declared that she didn't mind how grumpy he was with her since they had to live together. No one could be more genuinely easygoing or more committed to being happy than Mrs. Palmer. Her husband’s calculated indifference, rudeness, and frustration caused her no distress; in fact, when he scolded or insulted her, she found it quite entertaining.

“Mr. Palmer is so droll!” said she, in a whisper, to Elinor. “He is always out of humour.”

“Mr. Palmer is so funny!” she whispered to Elinor. “He's always in a bad mood.”

Elinor was not inclined, after a little observation, to give him credit for being so genuinely and unaffectedly ill-natured or ill-bred as he wished to appear. His temper might perhaps be a little soured by finding, like many others of his sex, that through some unaccountable bias in favour of beauty, he was the husband of a very silly woman—but she knew that this kind of blunder was too common for any sensible man to be lastingly hurt by it. It was rather a wish of distinction, she believed, which produced his contemptuous treatment of every body, and his general abuse of every thing before him. It was the desire of appearing superior to other people. The motive was too common to be wondered at; but the means, however they might succeed by establishing his superiority in ill-breeding, were not likely to attach any one to him except his wife.

Elinor wasn't inclined, after some observation, to believe that he was truly and genuinely rude or poorly raised as he wanted to seem. His temper might have been a bit soured by realizing, like many other men, that due to some strange preference for beauty, he was married to a very foolish woman—but she knew that this kind of mistake was too common for any sensible man to be permanently hurt by it. She believed it was more a desire for distinction that led to his contemptuous treatment of everyone and his general criticism of everything around him. It was the desire to seem superior to others. The motivation was too ordinary to be surprised by; however, the method, even if it succeeded in showcasing his superiority in rudeness, was unlikely to endear him to anyone except his wife.

“Oh, my dear Miss Dashwood,” said Mrs. Palmer soon afterwards, “I have got such a favour to ask of you and your sister. Will you come and spend some time at Cleveland this Christmas? Now, pray do,—and come while the Westons are with us. You cannot think how happy I shall be! It will be quite delightful!—My love,” applying to her husband, “don’t you long to have the Miss Dashwoods come to Cleveland?”

“Oh, my dear Miss Dashwood,” said Mrs. Palmer soon afterwards, “I have a favor to ask of you and your sister. Will you come and spend some time at Cleveland this Christmas? Please do,—and come while the Westons are with us. You can’t imagine how happy I’ll be! It will be so wonderful!—My love,” turning to her husband, “don’t you wish the Miss Dashwoods would come to Cleveland?”

“Certainly,” he replied, with a sneer—“I came into Devonshire with no other view.”

“Of course,” he said with a sneer—“I came to Devonshire for no other reason.”

“There now,”—said his lady, “you see Mr. Palmer expects you; so you cannot refuse to come.”

“There now,” said his lady, “you see Mr. Palmer is expecting you; so you can’t refuse to come.”

They both eagerly and resolutely declined her invitation.

They both happily and firmly said no to her invitation.

“But indeed you must and shall come. I am sure you will like it of all things. The Westons will be with us, and it will be quite delightful. You cannot think what a sweet place Cleveland is; and we are so gay now, for Mr. Palmer is always going about the country canvassing against the election; and so many people came to dine with us that I never saw before, it is quite charming! But, poor fellow! it is very fatiguing to him! for he is forced to make every body like him.”

“But you really must come. I’m sure you’ll love it more than anything. The Westons will be joining us, and it will be so enjoyable. You can’t imagine what a lovely place Cleveland is; and we’re all so lively right now, since Mr. Palmer is always out in the countryside campaigning against the election. So many people who I’ve never met before have come to dinner with us; it’s really wonderful! But, poor guy! It’s very tiring for him, because he has to make everyone like him.”

Elinor could hardly keep her countenance as she assented to the hardship of such an obligation.

Elinor could barely maintain her composure as she agreed to the difficulty of such a responsibility.

“How charming it will be,” said Charlotte, “when he is in Parliament!—won’t it? How I shall laugh! It will be so ridiculous to see all his letters directed to him with an M.P.—But do you know, he says, he will never frank for me? He declares he won’t. Don’t you, Mr. Palmer?”

“How charming it will be,” said Charlotte, “when he’s in Parliament!—won’t it? I’ll have such a laugh! It’ll be so silly to see all his letters addressed to him with an M.P.—But you know, he says he will never frank for me? He insists he won’t. Don’t you, Mr. Palmer?”

Mr. Palmer took no notice of her.

Mr. Palmer brushed her off.

“He cannot bear writing, you know,” she continued—“he says it is quite shocking.”

“He can’t stand writing, you know,” she continued—“he says it’s really terrible.”

“No,” said he, “I never said any thing so irrational. Don’t palm all your abuses of language upon me.”

“No,” he said, “I never said anything so unreasonable. Don’t blame me for all your misuse of language.”

“There now; you see how droll he is. This is always the way with him! Sometimes he won’t speak to me for half a day together, and then he comes out with something so droll—all about any thing in the world.”

“There now; you see how funny he is. This is always how he is! Sometimes he won’t talk to me for half a day, and then he says something so funny—about anything at all.”

She surprised Elinor very much as they returned into the drawing-room, by asking her whether she did not like Mr. Palmer excessively.

She really surprised Elinor as they went back into the living room by asking her if she didn't like Mr. Palmer a lot.

“Certainly,” said Elinor; “he seems very agreeable.”

“Of course,” Elinor said; “he seems really nice.”

“Well—I am so glad you do. I thought you would, he is so pleasant; and Mr. Palmer is excessively pleased with you and your sisters I can tell you, and you can’t think how disappointed he will be if you don’t come to Cleveland.—I can’t imagine why you should object to it.”

“Well—I’m so glad you do. I thought you would; he’s so nice. Mr. Palmer is really happy with you and your sisters, I can tell you, and you can’t imagine how disappointed he’ll be if you don’t come to Cleveland. I can’t understand why you would be against it.”

Elinor was again obliged to decline her invitation; and by changing the subject, put a stop to her entreaties. She thought it probable that as they lived in the same county, Mrs. Palmer might be able to give some more particular account of Willoughby’s general character, than could be gathered from the Middletons’ partial acquaintance with him; and she was eager to gain from any one, such a confirmation of his merits as might remove the possibility of fear from Marianne. She began by inquiring if they saw much of Mr. Willoughby at Cleveland, and whether they were intimately acquainted with him.

Elinor had to decline her invitation again, and by changing the topic, she ended her friend’s pleas. She figured that since they lived in the same county, Mrs. Palmer might be able to provide a more detailed account of Willoughby’s character than what could be understood from the Middletons' limited knowledge of him. She was eager to get confirmation of his good qualities from anyone that might ease Marianne's worries. She started by asking if they spent much time with Mr. Willoughby at Cleveland and whether they knew him well.

“Oh dear, yes; I know him extremely well,” replied Mrs. Palmer;—“Not that I ever spoke to him, indeed; but I have seen him for ever in town. Somehow or other I never happened to be staying at Barton while he was at Allenham. Mama saw him here once before;—but I was with my uncle at Weymouth. However, I dare say we should have seen a great deal of him in Somersetshire, if it had not happened very unluckily that we should never have been in the country together. He is very little at Combe, I believe; but if he were ever so much there, I do not think Mr. Palmer would visit him, for he is in the opposition, you know, and besides it is such a way off. I know why you inquire about him, very well; your sister is to marry him. I am monstrous glad of it, for then I shall have her for a neighbour you know.”

“Oh dear, yes; I know him really well,” replied Mrs. Palmer;—“Not that I've ever talked to him, actually; but I've seen him around town all the time. Somehow, I never happened to be in Barton while he was at Allenham. Mom saw him here once before;—but I was with my uncle in Weymouth. Still, I’m sure we would have seen a lot of him in Somersetshire if it hadn’t been for the unfortunate fact that we were never in the country at the same time. I believe he doesn’t spend much time at Combe; but even if he did, I don’t think Mr. Palmer would visit him since he’s in the opposition, you know, and besides, it’s such a long way off. I know why you’re asking about him; your sister is going to marry him. I’m really glad about it because then I’ll have her as a neighbor, you know.”

“Upon my word,” replied Elinor, “you know much more of the matter than I do, if you have any reason to expect such a match.”

“Honestly,” replied Elinor, “you know a lot more about this than I do if you have any reason to expect a match like that.”

“Don’t pretend to deny it, because you know it is what every body talks of. I assure you I heard of it in my way through town.”

“Don’t pretend it’s not true, because you know it’s what everyone is talking about. I promise you I heard about it on my way through town.”

“My dear Mrs. Palmer!”

“Dear Mrs. Palmer!”

“Upon my honour I did.—I met Colonel Brandon Monday morning in Bond-street, just before we left town, and he told me of it directly.”

“Honestly, I really did. I ran into Colonel Brandon on Monday morning on Bond Street, just before we left town, and he told me about it right away.”

“You surprise me very much. Colonel Brandon tell you of it! Surely you must be mistaken. To give such intelligence to a person who could not be interested in it, even if it were true, is not what I should expect Colonel Brandon to do.”

“You really surprise me. Colonel Brandon told you about this? You must be mistaken. I wouldn't expect Colonel Brandon to share such information with someone who wouldn’t even care about it, even if it were true.”

“But I do assure you it was so, for all that, and I will tell you how it happened. When we met him, he turned back and walked with us; and so we began talking of my brother and sister, and one thing and another, and I said to him, ‘So, Colonel, there is a new family come to Barton cottage, I hear, and mama sends me word they are very pretty, and that one of them is going to be married to Mr. Willoughby of Combe Magna. Is it true, pray? for of course you must know, as you have been in Devonshire so lately.’”

“But I assure you it really was the case, and I’ll tell you how it happened. When we ran into him, he turned around and walked with us; so we started talking about my brother and sister, and various other things, and I said to him, ‘So, Colonel, I hear a new family has moved into Barton Cottage, and my mom told me they’re very attractive, and one of them is set to marry Mr. Willoughby of Combe Magna. Is that true? You must know since you were in Devonshire not long ago.’”

“And what did the Colonel say?”

“And what did the Colonel say?”

“Oh—he did not say much; but he looked as if he knew it to be true, so from that moment I set it down as certain. It will be quite delightful, I declare! When is it to take place?”

“Oh—he didn’t say much; but he looked like he knew it was true, so from that moment I took it as certain. It’ll be really delightful, I declare! When is it going to happen?”

“Mr. Brandon was very well I hope?”

“Mr. Brandon is doing well, I hope?”

“Oh! yes, quite well; and so full of your praises, he did nothing but say fine things of you.”

“Oh! yes, definitely; and he was so full of compliments for you that he couldn't stop saying nice things about you.”

“I am flattered by his commendation. He seems an excellent man; and I think him uncommonly pleasing.”

“I appreciate his compliment. He seems like a great guy, and I find him quite charming.”

“So do I. He is such a charming man, that it is quite a pity he should be so grave and so dull. Mama says he was in love with your sister too. I assure you it was a great compliment if he was, for he hardly ever falls in love with any body.”

“So do I. He is such a charming guy, it’s really a shame he’s so serious and boring. Mom says he was in love with your sister too. I promise you it would be quite a compliment if he was, because he rarely falls in love with anyone.”

“Is Mr. Willoughby much known in your part of Somersetshire?” said Elinor.

“Is Mr. Willoughby well-known in your area of Somersetshire?” Elinor asked.

“Oh! yes, extremely well; that is, I do not believe many people are acquainted with him, because Combe Magna is so far off; but they all think him extremely agreeable I assure you. Nobody is more liked than Mr. Willoughby wherever he goes, and so you may tell your sister. She is a monstrous lucky girl to get him, upon my honour; not but that he is much more lucky in getting her, because she is so very handsome and agreeable, that nothing can be good enough for her. However, I don’t think her hardly at all handsomer than you, I assure you; for I think you both excessively pretty, and so does Mr. Palmer too I am sure, though we could not get him to own it last night.”

“Oh! yes, very much; I mean, I doubt many people know him since Combe Magna is quite far away; but everyone finds him really pleasant, I promise you. Nobody is more liked than Mr. Willoughby wherever he goes, so you can tell your sister that. She’s such a lucky girl to have him, honestly; but actually, he’s much luckier to have her because she’s so beautiful and charming that nothing could be good enough for her. However, I don’t think she’s any more attractive than you, I assure you; I think you’re both really pretty, and I’m sure Mr. Palmer thinks so too, even though we couldn’t get him to admit it last night.”

Mrs. Palmer’s information respecting Willoughby was not very material; but any testimony in his favour, however small, was pleasing to her.

Mrs. Palmer’s information about Willoughby wasn’t very significant; but any support for him, no matter how minor, made her happy.

“I am so glad we are got acquainted at last,” continued Charlotte.—“And now I hope we shall always be great friends. You can’t think how much I longed to see you! It is so delightful that you should live at the cottage! Nothing can be like it, to be sure! And I am so glad your sister is going to be well married! I hope you will be a great deal at Combe Magna. It is a sweet place, by all accounts.”

“I’m so glad we finally met,” Charlotte continued. “And now I hope we’ll always be good friends. You can’t imagine how much I wanted to see you! It’s wonderful that you live in the cottage! Nothing could be better! And I’m really happy that your sister is going to have a great marriage! I hope you spend a lot of time at Combe Magna. Everyone says it’s a lovely place.”

“You have been long acquainted with Colonel Brandon, have not you?”

"You've known Colonel Brandon for a while, haven't you?"

“Yes, a great while; ever since my sister married. He was a particular friend of Sir John’s. I believe,” she added in a low voice, “he would have been very glad to have had me, if he could. Sir John and Lady Middleton wished it very much. But mama did not think the match good enough for me, otherwise Sir John would have mentioned it to the Colonel, and we should have been married immediately.”

“Yes, a long time now; ever since my sister got married. He was a close friend of Sir John’s. I think,” she said quietly, “he would have been very happy to have me, if he could. Sir John and Lady Middleton wanted it a lot. But mom didn’t think he was good enough for me; otherwise, Sir John would have brought it up with the Colonel, and we would have been married right away.”

“Did not Colonel Brandon know of Sir John’s proposal to your mother before it was made? Had he never owned his affection to yourself?”

“Did Colonel Brandon not know about Sir John’s proposal to your mom before it happened? Had he never admitted his feelings for you?”

“Oh, no; but if mama had not objected to it, I dare say he would have liked it of all things. He had not seen me then above twice, for it was before I left school. However, I am much happier as I am. Mr. Palmer is the kind of man I like.”

“Oh, no; but if Mom hadn't objected to it, I bet he would have loved it above all else. He had only seen me a couple of times back then, as it was before I left school. Still, I'm much happier the way things are. Mr. Palmer is exactly the kind of guy I like.”

CHAPTER XXI.

The Palmers returned to Cleveland the next day, and the two families at Barton were again left to entertain each other. But this did not last long; Elinor had hardly got their last visitors out of her head, had hardly done wondering at Charlotte’s being so happy without a cause, at Mr. Palmer’s acting so simply, with good abilities, and at the strange unsuitableness which often existed between husband and wife, before Sir John’s and Mrs. Jennings’s active zeal in the cause of society, procured her some other new acquaintance to see and observe.

The Palmers returned to Cleveland the next day, leaving the two families at Barton to entertain each other again. But this didn’t last long; Elinor had barely finished thinking about their last guests, hardly dismissed her thoughts about Charlotte being so happy for no reason, about Mr. Palmer acting so naively despite his good abilities, and the odd mismatches that often existed between husbands and wives, before Sir John’s and Mrs. Jennings’s enthusiastic efforts to socialize introduced her to some new acquaintances to meet and observe.

In a morning’s excursion to Exeter, they had met with two young ladies, whom Mrs. Jennings had the satisfaction of discovering to be her relations, and this was enough for Sir John to invite them directly to the park, as soon as their present engagements at Exeter were over. Their engagements at Exeter instantly gave way before such an invitation, and Lady Middleton was thrown into no little alarm on the return of Sir John, by hearing that she was very soon to receive a visit from two girls whom she had never seen in her life, and of whose elegance,—whose tolerable gentility even, she could have no proof; for the assurances of her husband and mother on that subject went for nothing at all. Their being her relations too made it so much the worse; and Mrs. Jennings’s attempts at consolation were therefore unfortunately founded, when she advised her daughter not to care about their being so fashionable; because they were all cousins and must put up with one another. As it was impossible, however, now to prevent their coming, Lady Middleton resigned herself to the idea of it, with all the philosophy of a well-bred woman, contenting herself with merely giving her husband a gentle reprimand on the subject five or six times every day.

On a morning trip to Exeter, they encountered two young women, who Mrs. Jennings was pleased to find out were her relatives, and this was enough for Sir John to invite them straight to the park as soon as their current plans in Exeter were done. Their commitments in Exeter quickly fell through in light of such an invitation, and Lady Middleton was quite alarmed when Sir John returned, informing her that she would soon be hosting two girls she had never met before, with no clue about their elegance or even their acceptable level of gentility; her husband and mother's reassurances on the matter meant nothing to her. The fact that they were her relatives only made it worse, and Mrs. Jennings’s attempts to comfort her were unfortunately misguided when she suggested her daughter shouldn’t worry about them being fashionable, as they were all cousins and would have to tolerate each other. Since it was impossible to stop their visit now, Lady Middleton accepted the situation with all the composure of a well-mannered woman, settling for gently reprimanding her husband about it five or six times a day.

The young ladies arrived: their appearance was by no means ungenteel or unfashionable. Their dress was very smart, their manners very civil, they were delighted with the house, and in raptures with the furniture, and they happened to be so doatingly fond of children that Lady Middleton’s good opinion was engaged in their favour before they had been an hour at the Park. She declared them to be very agreeable girls indeed, which for her ladyship was enthusiastic admiration. Sir John’s confidence in his own judgment rose with this animated praise, and he set off directly for the cottage to tell the Miss Dashwoods of the Miss Steeles’ arrival, and to assure them of their being the sweetest girls in the world. From such commendation as this, however, there was not much to be learned; Elinor well knew that the sweetest girls in the world were to be met with in every part of England, under every possible variation of form, face, temper and understanding. Sir John wanted the whole family to walk to the Park directly and look at his guests. Benevolent, philanthropic man! It was painful to him even to keep a third cousin to himself.

The young ladies arrived: they looked neither unrefined nor unfashionable. Their outfits were very stylish, and their manners were polite. They loved the house and were absolutely thrilled with the furniture, and they just happened to be so fond of children that Lady Middleton quickly formed a favorable opinion of them before they had even been at the Park for an hour. She declared them to be very agreeable girls, which was quite a compliment from her. Sir John’s confidence in his own judgment grew with this enthusiastic praise, and he immediately went to the cottage to tell the Miss Dashwoods about the Miss Steeles’ arrival and to assure them that they were the sweetest girls in the world. However, there wasn’t much to be gathered from such praise; Elinor knew well that the sweetest girls in the world could be found all over England, each with their own unique look, personality, and intelligence. Sir John wanted the whole family to walk to the Park right away to meet his guests. What a kind, generous man! It pained him even to keep a third cousin to himself.

“Do come now,” said he—“pray come—you must come—I declare you shall come—You can’t think how you will like them. Lucy is monstrous pretty, and so good humoured and agreeable! The children are all hanging about her already, as if she was an old acquaintance. And they both long to see you of all things, for they have heard at Exeter that you are the most beautiful creatures in the world; and I have told them it is all very true, and a great deal more. You will be delighted with them I am sure. They have brought the whole coach full of playthings for the children. How can you be so cross as not to come? Why they are your cousins, you know, after a fashion. You are my cousins, and they are my wife’s, so you must be related.”

“Come on now,” he said, “please come—you have to come—I insist you will come—You can’t imagine how much you’ll enjoy them. Lucy is incredibly pretty, and she’s so cheerful and easy to get along with! The kids are already crowding around her, as if they’ve known her forever. And both of them really want to see you because they’ve heard in Exeter that you are the most beautiful people in the world; and I’ve told them it’s all true, and then some. I’m sure you’ll love them. They’ve brought an entire coach filled with toys for the children. How can you be so unreasonable as not to come? They are your cousins, you know, in a way. You are my cousins, and they’re my wife’s, so you must be related.”

But Sir John could not prevail. He could only obtain a promise of their calling at the Park within a day or two, and then left them in amazement at their indifference, to walk home and boast anew of their attractions to the Miss Steeles, as he had been already boasting of the Miss Steeles to them.

But Sir John couldn’t persuade them. He only managed to get a promise that they would visit the Park in a day or two, and then he walked home, amazed at their indifference, to brag once again about their charms to the Miss Steeles, just as he had already been bragging about the Miss Steeles to them.

When their promised visit to the Park and consequent introduction to these young ladies took place, they found in the appearance of the eldest, who was nearly thirty, with a very plain and not a sensible face, nothing to admire; but in the other, who was not more than two or three and twenty, they acknowledged considerable beauty; her features were pretty, and she had a sharp quick eye, and a smartness of air, which though it did not give actual elegance or grace, gave distinction to her person. Their manners were particularly civil, and Elinor soon allowed them credit for some kind of sense, when she saw with what constant and judicious attention they were making themselves agreeable to Lady Middleton. With her children they were in continual raptures, extolling their beauty, courting their notice, and humouring their whims; and such of their time as could be spared from the importunate demands which this politeness made on it, was spent in admiration of whatever her ladyship was doing, if she happened to be doing any thing, or in taking patterns of some elegant new dress, in which her appearance the day before had thrown them into unceasing delight. Fortunately for those who pay their court through such foibles, a fond mother, though, in pursuit of praise for her children, the most rapacious of human beings, is likewise the most credulous; her demands are exorbitant; but she will swallow any thing; and the excessive affection and endurance of the Miss Steeles towards her offspring were viewed therefore by Lady Middleton without the smallest surprise or distrust. She saw with maternal complacency all the impertinent encroachments and mischievous tricks to which her cousins submitted. She saw their sashes untied, their hair pulled about their ears, their work-bags searched, and their knives and scissors stolen away, and felt no doubt of its being a reciprocal enjoyment. It suggested no other surprise than that Elinor and Marianne should sit so composedly by, without claiming a share in what was passing.

When their promised visit to the park and introduction to these young ladies finally happened, they found nothing to admire in the appearance of the eldest, who was nearly thirty, with a very plain and not particularly intelligent face. However, in the other lady, who was no more than twenty-two or twenty-three, they recognized significant beauty; her features were attractive, she had a sharp, quick eye, and a lively demeanor that, while it didn’t bring actual elegance or grace, did give her a certain distinction. Their manners were very polite, and Elinor soon started to think they had some sense when she noticed how attentively they were trying to please Lady Middleton. They were constantly raving about Lady Middleton's children, praising their beauty, vying for their attention, and indulging their whims. The time they could spare from the demands of this politeness was spent admiring whatever Lady Middleton was doing, if she was doing anything, or taking notes on some elegant new dress that had thrilled them the day before. Luckily for those who seek favor through such little quirks, a doting mother, though the most greedy person when it comes to praise for her children, is also the most gullible; her demands are excessive, but she will accept anything. Therefore, Lady Middleton viewed the Miss Steeles' excessive affection and tolerance toward her children without the slightest surprise or doubt. She watched with maternal satisfaction all the annoying intrusions and mischievous antics that her cousins endured. She saw their sashes untied, their hair being tousled, their work bags being searched, and their knives and scissors taken away, and she felt certain it was all part of a shared enjoyment. The only surprising thing was that Elinor and Marianne sat there so calmly without trying to join in on the fun.

“John is in such spirits today!” said she, on his taking Miss Steeles’s pocket handkerchief, and throwing it out of window—“He is full of monkey tricks.”

“John is in such a good mood today!” she said, as he took Miss Steele’s pocket handkerchief and threw it out the window—“He’s full of antics.”

And soon afterwards, on the second boy’s violently pinching one of the same lady’s fingers, she fondly observed, “How playful William is!”

And soon after, when the second boy violently pinched one of the same lady's fingers, she affectionately remarked, "How playful William is!"

“And here is my sweet little Annamaria,” she added, tenderly caressing a little girl of three years old, who had not made a noise for the last two minutes; “And she is always so gentle and quiet—Never was there such a quiet little thing!”

“And here is my sweet little Annamaria,” she said, gently stroking a three-year-old girl who hadn’t made a sound for the last two minutes; “And she is always so gentle and quiet—There’s never been such a quiet little one!”

But unfortunately in bestowing these embraces, a pin in her ladyship’s head dress slightly scratching the child’s neck, produced from this pattern of gentleness such violent screams, as could hardly be outdone by any creature professedly noisy. The mother’s consternation was excessive; but it could not surpass the alarm of the Miss Steeles, and every thing was done by all three, in so critical an emergency, which affection could suggest as likely to assuage the agonies of the little sufferer. She was seated in her mother’s lap, covered with kisses, her wound bathed with lavender-water, by one of the Miss Steeles, who was on her knees to attend her, and her mouth stuffed with sugar plums by the other. With such a reward for her tears, the child was too wise to cease crying. She still screamed and sobbed lustily, kicked her two brothers for offering to touch her, and all their united soothings were ineffectual till Lady Middleton luckily remembering that in a scene of similar distress last week, some apricot marmalade had been successfully applied for a bruised temple, the same remedy was eagerly proposed for this unfortunate scratch, and a slight intermission of screams in the young lady on hearing it, gave them reason to hope that it would not be rejected. She was carried out of the room therefore in her mother’s arms, in quest of this medicine, and as the two boys chose to follow, though earnestly entreated by their mother to stay behind, the four young ladies were left in a quietness which the room had not known for many hours.

But unfortunately, while giving these hugs, a pin in her ladyship’s headdress accidentally scratched the child's neck, causing such loud screams that it was hard to imagine anything could be louder. The mother was extremely distressed; however, her concern didn't compare to the Miss Steeles’ panic. In this critical moment, all three did everything they could think of to soothe the little one’s pain. She was sitting in her mother’s lap, showered with kisses, her neck treated with lavender water by one of the Miss Steeles, who knelt beside her, while the other stuffed her mouth with sugarplums. With such a reward for her tears, the child was too clever to stop crying. She continued to scream and sob loudly, kicked her two brothers for trying to touch her, and none of their collective comforting worked until Lady Middleton, recalling that during a similar incident last week, some apricot marmalade had been effectively used for a bruised temple, proposed this remedy for the unfortunate scratch. A slight pause in the young lady’s screams upon hearing this gave them hope that she might accept it. So, she was carried out of the room in her mother’s arms to get this medicine, and since the two boys decided to follow despite their mother earnestly asking them to stay behind, the four young ladies were left in a peace the room hadn't experienced for many hours.

“Poor little creatures!” said Miss Steele, as soon as they were gone. “It might have been a very sad accident.”

"Poor little things!" said Miss Steele as soon as they had left. "That could have ended up being a really tragic accident."

“Yet I hardly know how,” cried Marianne, “unless it had been under totally different circumstances. But this is the usual way of heightening alarm, where there is nothing to be alarmed at in reality.”

“Yet I barely know how,” cried Marianne, “unless it had been in completely different circumstances. But this is the typical way of making things seem more serious when there's really nothing to worry about.”

“What a sweet woman Lady Middleton is!” said Lucy Steele.

"What a lovely woman Lady Middleton is!" said Lucy Steele.

Marianne was silent; it was impossible for her to say what she did not feel, however trivial the occasion; and upon Elinor therefore the whole task of telling lies when politeness required it, always fell. She did her best when thus called on, by speaking of Lady Middleton with more warmth than she felt, though with far less than Miss Lucy.

Marianne was quiet; she couldn't express what she didn't genuinely feel, no matter how minor the situation; so the entire responsibility of bending the truth when politeness demanded it always fell on Elinor. She tried her best in those moments by talking about Lady Middleton more warmly than she truly felt, though still much less than Miss Lucy did.

“And Sir John too,” cried the elder sister, “what a charming man he is!”

“And Sir John too,” exclaimed the older sister, “what a wonderful guy he is!”

Here too, Miss Dashwood’s commendation, being only simple and just, came in without any eclat. She merely observed that he was perfectly good humoured and friendly.

Here too, Miss Dashwood’s praise, being straightforward and fair, came without any fanfare. She simply noted that he was genuinely good-natured and friendly.

“And what a charming little family they have! I never saw such fine children in my life.—I declare I quite doat upon them already, and indeed I am always distractedly fond of children.”

“And what a lovely little family they have! I’ve never seen such wonderful kids in my life.—I swear I’m already quite fond of them, and honestly, I’ve always been completely crazy about children.”

“I should guess so,” said Elinor, with a smile, “from what I have witnessed this morning.”

“I would guess so,” Elinor said with a smile, “based on what I’ve seen this morning.”

“I have a notion,” said Lucy, “you think the little Middletons rather too much indulged; perhaps they may be the outside of enough; but it is so natural in Lady Middleton; and for my part, I love to see children full of life and spirits; I cannot bear them if they are tame and quiet.”

“I have an idea,” said Lucy, “you think the little Middletons are a bit too spoiled; maybe they are just on the edge of it; but it’s so natural for Lady Middleton. Personally, I love to see children full of energy and personality; I can't stand them if they’re tame and quiet.”

“I confess,” replied Elinor, “that while I am at Barton Park, I never think of tame and quiet children with any abhorrence.”

“I admit,” Elinor replied, “that while I’m at Barton Park, I never see calm and quiet kids with any disgust.”

A short pause succeeded this speech, which was first broken by Miss Steele, who seemed very much disposed for conversation, and who now said rather abruptly, “And how do you like Devonshire, Miss Dashwood? I suppose you were very sorry to leave Sussex.”

A brief pause followed this speech, and it was Miss Steele who broke the silence. She appeared eager to chat and abruptly said, “So, how do you like Devonshire, Miss Dashwood? I imagine you were quite upset to leave Sussex.”

In some surprise at the familiarity of this question, or at least of the manner in which it was spoken, Elinor replied that she was.

In some surprise at how familiar this question was, or at least the way it was asked, Elinor replied that she was.

“Norland is a prodigious beautiful place, is not it?” added Miss Steele.

“Norland is an incredibly beautiful place, isn’t it?” added Miss Steele.

“We have heard Sir John admire it excessively,” said Lucy, who seemed to think some apology necessary for the freedom of her sister.

“We’ve heard Sir John praise it a lot,” said Lucy, who seemed to feel some apology was needed for her sister's boldness.

“I think every one must admire it,” replied Elinor, “who ever saw the place; though it is not to be supposed that any one can estimate its beauties as we do.”

“I think everyone must admire it,” replied Elinor, “whoever has seen the place; though it’s not likely that anyone can appreciate its beauty as we do.”

“And had you a great many smart beaux there? I suppose you have not so many in this part of the world; for my part, I think they are a vast addition always.”

"And did you have a lot of charming guys there? I guess you don't have as many in this part of the world; for my part, I think they are always a huge plus."

“But why should you think,” said Lucy, looking ashamed of her sister, “that there are not as many genteel young men in Devonshire as Sussex?”

“But why do you think,” Lucy said, feeling embarrassed for her sister, “that there aren’t as many well-bred young men in Devonshire as in Sussex?”

“Nay, my dear, I’m sure I don’t pretend to say that there an’t. I’m sure there’s a vast many smart beaux in Exeter; but you know, how could I tell what smart beaux there might be about Norland; and I was only afraid the Miss Dashwoods might find it dull at Barton, if they had not so many as they used to have. But perhaps you young ladies may not care about the beaux, and had as lief be without them as with them. For my part, I think they are vastly agreeable, provided they dress smart and behave civil. But I can’t bear to see them dirty and nasty. Now there’s Mr. Rose at Exeter, a prodigious smart young man, quite a beau, clerk to Mr. Simpson, you know, and yet if you do but meet him of a morning, he is not fit to be seen. I suppose your brother was quite a beau, Miss Dashwood, before he married, as he was so rich?”

"No, my dear, I’m not saying there aren’t any. I’m sure there are plenty of charming young men in Exeter; but you know, how could I know what charming young men might be around Norland? I just worried that the Miss Dashwoods might find it boring at Barton if they didn’t have as many as they were used to. But maybe you young ladies don’t care about the young men and would just as soon be without them as with them. Personally, I think they’re quite delightful, as long as they dress well and behave politely. But I cannot stand to see them looking dirty and unkempt. Take Mr. Rose in Exeter, a remarkably sharp young man, quite the charmer, clerk to Mr. Simpson, you know, and yet if you see him in the morning, he’s truly not presentable. I suppose your brother was quite the charmer, Miss Dashwood, before he got married, since he was so wealthy?"

“Upon my word,” replied Elinor, “I cannot tell you, for I do not perfectly comprehend the meaning of the word. But this I can say, that if he ever was a beau before he married, he is one still for there is not the smallest alteration in him.”

“Honestly,” Elinor replied, “I can’t say, because I don’t fully understand the meaning of the word. But what I can say is that if he was a ladies' man before he got married, he still is, because there’s not the slightest change in him.”

“Oh! dear! one never thinks of married men’s being beaux—they have something else to do.”

“Oh! dear! one never thinks of married men being charming—they have other things to focus on.”

“Lord! Anne,” cried her sister, “you can talk of nothing but beaux;—you will make Miss Dashwood believe you think of nothing else.” And then to turn the discourse, she began admiring the house and the furniture.

“Wow! Anne,” her sister exclaimed, “you only talk about guys; you’re going to make Miss Dashwood think that’s all you care about.” Then, to change the subject, she started praising the house and the furniture.

This specimen of the Miss Steeles was enough. The vulgar freedom and folly of the eldest left her no recommendation, and as Elinor was not blinded by the beauty, or the shrewd look of the youngest, to her want of real elegance and artlessness, she left the house without any wish of knowing them better.

This example of the Miss Steeles was sufficient. The crass behavior and foolishness of the oldest offered her no appeal, and since Elinor wasn't misled by the beauty or the sharp look of the youngest, which masked her lack of true grace and sincerity, she left the house without any desire to get to know them better.

Not so the Miss Steeles. They came from Exeter, well provided with admiration for the use of Sir John Middleton, his family, and all his relations, and no niggardly proportion was now dealt out to his fair cousins, whom they declared to be the most beautiful, elegant, accomplished, and agreeable girls they had ever beheld, and with whom they were particularly anxious to be better acquainted. And to be better acquainted therefore, Elinor soon found was their inevitable lot, for as Sir John was entirely on the side of the Miss Steeles, their party would be too strong for opposition, and that kind of intimacy must be submitted to, which consists of sitting an hour or two together in the same room almost every day. Sir John could do no more; but he did not know that any more was required: to be together was, in his opinion, to be intimate, and while his continual schemes for their meeting were effectual, he had not a doubt of their being established friends.

Not so with the Miss Steeles. They came from Exeter, fully equipped with admiration for Sir John Middleton, his family, and all his relatives, and they generously showered compliments on his lovely cousins, whom they claimed were the most beautiful, elegant, accomplished, and charming girls they had ever seen, and they were particularly eager to get to know them better. Elinor quickly realized that getting to know them better was inevitable, as Sir John was completely on the side of the Miss Steeles, making their group too powerful to oppose, and that kind of closeness meant spending an hour or two together in the same room almost every day. Sir John couldn’t do more; he didn’t realize that anything more was needed. To him, being together was being close, and while his constant plans for their meetings worked, he had no doubt that they would become established friends.

To do him justice, he did every thing in his power to promote their unreserve, by making the Miss Steeles acquainted with whatever he knew or supposed of his cousins’ situations in the most delicate particulars; and Elinor had not seen them more than twice, before the eldest of them wished her joy on her sister’s having been so lucky as to make a conquest of a very smart beau since she came to Barton.

To give him credit, he did everything he could to encourage their openness by sharing all he knew or thought about his cousins' situations and details. Elinor had only met them a couple of times before the oldest sister congratulated her on her sister's good fortune in capturing the attention of a very charming guy since arriving in Barton.

“’Twill be a fine thing to have her married so young to be sure,” said she, “and I hear he is quite a beau, and prodigious handsome. And I hope you may have as good luck yourself soon,—but perhaps you may have a friend in the corner already.”

“It's a fine thing to see her married so young, for sure,” she said, “and I hear he's quite a catch, really handsome. I hope you find some good luck yourself soon—but maybe you already have a friend in the corner.”

Elinor could not suppose that Sir John would be more nice in proclaiming his suspicions of her regard for Edward, than he had been with respect to Marianne; indeed it was rather his favourite joke of the two, as being somewhat newer and more conjectural; and since Edward’s visit, they had never dined together without his drinking to her best affections with so much significancy and so many nods and winks, as to excite general attention. The letter F—had been likewise invariably brought forward, and found productive of such countless jokes, that its character as the wittiest letter in the alphabet had been long established with Elinor.

Elinor couldn’t imagine that Sir John would be any more subtle in expressing his suspicions about her feelings for Edward than he had been regarding Marianne. In fact, it was more of his favorite joke of the two, since it was a bit newer and more speculative. Ever since Edward’s visit, they hadn’t had dinner together without him raising a toast to her best affections, accompanied by so many meaningful nods and winks that it drew general attention. The letter F had also consistently come up and sparked so many jokes that it had long been established as the wittiest letter in the alphabet for Elinor.

The Miss Steeles, as she expected, had now all the benefit of these jokes, and in the eldest of them they raised a curiosity to know the name of the gentleman alluded to, which, though often impertinently expressed, was perfectly of a piece with her general inquisitiveness into the concerns of their family. But Sir John did not sport long with the curiosity which he delighted to raise, for he had at least as much pleasure in telling the name, as Miss Steele had in hearing it.

The Miss Steeles, as she anticipated, were now fully enjoying these jokes, and in the eldest of the two, they sparked a curiosity to find out the name of the gentleman mentioned. This curiosity, though often expressed in a cheeky way, was perfectly in line with her usual nosiness about their family's affairs. But Sir John didn't keep them in suspense for long over the curiosity he loved to stir up, as he got just as much enjoyment from revealing the name as Miss Steele did from hearing it.

“His name is Ferrars,” said he, in a very audible whisper; “but pray do not tell it, for it’s a great secret.”

“His name is Ferrars,” he said in a loud whisper; “but please don’t share it, as it’s a big secret.”

“Ferrars!” repeated Miss Steele; “Mr. Ferrars is the happy man, is he? What! your sister-in-law’s brother, Miss Dashwood? a very agreeable young man to be sure; I know him very well.”

“Ferrars!” Miss Steele repeated. “So Mr. Ferrars is the lucky guy, huh? Wait, he's your sister-in-law’s brother, Miss Dashwood? He's a really nice young man, for sure; I know him pretty well.”

“How can you say so, Anne?” cried Lucy, who generally made an amendment to all her sister’s assertions. “Though we have seen him once or twice at my uncle’s, it is rather too much to pretend to know him very well.”

“How can you say that, Anne?” exclaimed Lucy, who usually corrected all her sister’s statements. “Even though we’ve seen him a couple of times at my uncle’s, it’s a bit much to act like we know him really well.”

Elinor heard all this with attention and surprise. “And who was this uncle? Where did he live? How came they acquainted?” She wished very much to have the subject continued, though she did not chuse to join in it herself; but nothing more of it was said, and for the first time in her life, she thought Mrs. Jennings deficient either in curiosity after petty information, or in a disposition to communicate it. The manner in which Miss Steele had spoken of Edward, increased her curiosity; for it struck her as being rather ill-natured, and suggested the suspicion of that lady’s knowing, or fancying herself to know something to his disadvantage.—But her curiosity was unavailing, for no farther notice was taken of Mr. Ferrars’s name by Miss Steele when alluded to, or even openly mentioned by Sir John.

Elinor listened to all this with attention and surprise. “And who was this uncle? Where did he live? How did they know each other?” She really wanted the conversation to continue, even though she didn't want to participate herself; but nothing more was said about it, and for the first time, she considered Mrs. Jennings to be lacking either in curiosity for trivial information or in the desire to share it. The way Miss Steele talked about Edward piqued her interest more; it seemed rather unkind and made her suspicious that the woman knew, or thought she knew, something that reflected badly on him. But her curiosity was in vain, as Miss Steele gave no further attention to Mr. Ferrars’s name when it was alluded to, nor did Sir John mention it openly.

CHAPTER XXII.

Marianne, who had never much toleration for any thing like impertinence, vulgarity, inferiority of parts, or even difference of taste from herself, was at this time particularly ill-disposed, from the state of her spirits, to be pleased with the Miss Steeles, or to encourage their advances; and to the invariable coldness of her behaviour towards them, which checked every endeavour at intimacy on their side, Elinor principally attributed that preference of herself which soon became evident in the manners of both, but especially of Lucy, who missed no opportunity of engaging her in conversation, or of striving to improve their acquaintance by an easy and frank communication of her sentiments.

Marianne, who had never been very tolerant of things like rudeness, crudeness, lack of intelligence, or even differing tastes from her own, was especially unwilling at this time, due to her mood, to be friendly with the Miss Steeles or to support their attempts to get closer. Elinor mainly attributed the clear preference for herself, which soon showed in both their behaviors but especially in Lucy's, to Marianne's constant coldness towards them, which shut down any efforts at friendship on their part. Lucy made sure to seize every chance to talk to her and tried hard to deepen their connection through honest and open sharing of her thoughts.

Lucy was naturally clever; her remarks were often just and amusing; and as a companion for half an hour Elinor frequently found her agreeable; but her powers had received no aid from education: she was ignorant and illiterate; and her deficiency of all mental improvement, her want of information in the most common particulars, could not be concealed from Miss Dashwood, in spite of her constant endeavour to appear to advantage. Elinor saw, and pitied her for, the neglect of abilities which education might have rendered so respectable; but she saw, with less tenderness of feeling, the thorough want of delicacy, of rectitude, and integrity of mind, which her attentions, her assiduities, her flatteries at the Park betrayed; and she could have no lasting satisfaction in the company of a person who joined insincerity with ignorance; whose want of instruction prevented their meeting in conversation on terms of equality, and whose conduct toward others made every show of attention and deference towards herself perfectly valueless.

Lucy was naturally clever; her comments were often fair and funny; and as a companion for half an hour, Elinor often found her pleasant. But she had received no help from education: she was ignorant and uneducated, and her lack of mental improvement and basic knowledge couldn't be hidden from Miss Dashwood, despite her constant efforts to seem impressive. Elinor noticed and felt sorry for her wasted potential that education could have enhanced, but she felt less compassion for the complete lack of delicacy, honesty, and integrity that her efforts, her attention, and her flattery at the Park revealed. Elinor couldn’t find lasting enjoyment in the company of someone who combined insincerity with ignorance; whose lack of education made it impossible to engage in equal conversation, and whose behavior toward others made any show of attention and respect towards herself completely worthless.

“You will think my question an odd one, I dare say,” said Lucy to her one day, as they were walking together from the park to the cottage—“but pray, are you personally acquainted with your sister-in-law’s mother, Mrs. Ferrars?”

“You're probably going to find my question a bit strange,” Lucy said to her one day as they walked from the park to the cottage. “But could you please tell me if you know your sister-in-law’s mother, Mrs. Ferrars?”

Elinor did think the question a very odd one, and her countenance expressed it, as she answered that she had never seen Mrs. Ferrars.

Elinor did find the question very strange, and her face showed it as she replied that she had never met Mrs. Ferrars.

“Indeed!” replied Lucy; “I wonder at that, for I thought you must have seen her at Norland sometimes. Then, perhaps, you cannot tell me what sort of a woman she is?”

“Really!” replied Lucy; “I find that surprising, since I thought you must have seen her at Norland at times. So, maybe you can’t tell me what kind of woman she is?”

“No,” returned Elinor, cautious of giving her real opinion of Edward’s mother, and not very desirous of satisfying what seemed impertinent curiosity; “I know nothing of her.”

“No,” Elinor replied, careful not to reveal her true feelings about Edward's mother and not really wanting to indulge what seemed like rude curiosity; “I know nothing about her.”

“I am sure you think me very strange, for enquiring about her in such a way,” said Lucy, eyeing Elinor attentively as she spoke; “but perhaps there may be reasons—I wish I might venture; but however I hope you will do me the justice of believing that I do not mean to be impertinent.”

“I’m sure you think I'm really strange for asking about her like this,” said Lucy, watching Elinor closely as she spoke. “But there might be reasons—I wish I could say more; still, I hope you’ll believe that I don’t mean to be rude.”

Elinor made her a civil reply, and they walked on for a few minutes in silence. It was broken by Lucy, who renewed the subject again by saying, with some hesitation,

Elinor responded politely, and they continued walking in silence for a few minutes. Lucy eventually broke the silence, hesitating before bringing the topic up again by saying,

“I cannot bear to have you think me impertinently curious. I am sure I would rather do any thing in the world than be thought so by a person whose good opinion is so well worth having as yours. And I am sure I should not have the smallest fear of trusting you; indeed, I should be very glad of your advice how to manage in such an uncomfortable situation as I am; but, however, there is no occasion to trouble you. I am sorry you do not happen to know Mrs. Ferrars.”

“I can't stand the thought of you thinking I'm being nosy. I would honestly do anything in the world to avoid that, especially with someone whose opinion I value as much as yours. And I wouldn’t hesitate to trust you; in fact, I would really appreciate your advice on handling this uncomfortable situation I'm in; but, there's no need to bother you about it. I'm sorry you don’t know Mrs. Ferrars.”

“I am sorry I do not,” said Elinor, in great astonishment, “if it could be of any use to YOU to know my opinion of her. But really I never understood that you were at all connected with that family, and therefore I am a little surprised, I confess, at so serious an inquiry into her character.”

“I’m sorry I don’t,” said Elinor, clearly astonished, “if it would be helpful for YOU to know what I think of her. But honestly, I never realized that you were connected to that family at all, and so I’m a bit surprised, I admit, at such a serious question about her character.”

“I dare say you are, and I am sure I do not at all wonder at it. But if I dared tell you all, you would not be so much surprised. Mrs. Ferrars is certainly nothing to me at present—but the time may come—how soon it will come must depend upon herself—when we may be very intimately connected.”

“I dare say you are, and I’m sure it doesn’t surprise me at all. But if I were to share everything, you wouldn’t be as shocked. Mrs. Ferrars doesn’t mean anything to me right now—but the time may come—how soon that will be depends on her—when we might be very close.”

She looked down as she said this, amiably bashful, with only one side glance at her companion to observe its effect on her.

She looked down as she said this, shyly playful, stealing only a quick glance at her companion to see how it affected them.

“Good heavens!” cried Elinor, “what do you mean? Are you acquainted with Mr. Robert Ferrars? Can you be?” And she did not feel much delighted with the idea of such a sister-in-law.

“Good heavens!” exclaimed Elinor, “what do you mean? Do you know Mr. Robert Ferrars? Is that possible?” And she wasn’t too thrilled about the thought of having such a sister-in-law.

“No,” replied Lucy, “not to Mr. Robert Ferrars—I never saw him in my life; but,” fixing her eyes upon Elinor, “to his eldest brother.”

“No,” replied Lucy, “not to Mr. Robert Ferrars—I’ve never seen him in my life; but,” fixing her eyes on Elinor, “to his oldest brother.”

What felt Elinor at that moment? Astonishment, that would have been as painful as it was strong, had not an immediate disbelief of the assertion attended it. She turned towards Lucy in silent amazement, unable to divine the reason or object of such a declaration; and though her complexion varied, she stood firm in incredulity, and felt in no danger of an hysterical fit, or a swoon.

What did Elinor feel at that moment? Astonishment, which would have been as painful as it was intense, was tempered by her immediate disbelief in what was being said. She looked at Lucy in silent shock, unable to understand the reason or purpose behind such a statement; and although her face changed color, she remained steady in her disbelief and felt no risk of having a hysterical episode or fainting.

“You may well be surprised,” continued Lucy; “for to be sure you could have had no idea of it before; for I dare say he never dropped the smallest hint of it to you or any of your family; because it was always meant to be a great secret, and I am sure has been faithfully kept so by me to this hour. Not a soul of all my relations know of it but Anne, and I never should have mentioned it to you, if I had not felt the greatest dependence in the world upon your secrecy; and I really thought my behaviour in asking so many questions about Mrs. Ferrars must seem so odd, that it ought to be explained. And I do not think Mr. Ferrars can be displeased, when he knows I have trusted you, because I know he has the highest opinion in the world of all your family, and looks upon yourself and the other Miss Dashwoods quite as his own sisters.”—She paused.

"You might be surprised," Lucy continued, "because you probably had no idea about it before. I'm sure he never hinted at it to you or anyone in your family, since it was always meant to be a big secret, and I've kept it that way until now. No one in my family knows about it except Anne, and I wouldn’t have mentioned it to you if I didn’t rely so much on your discretion. I thought my constant questions about Mrs. Ferrars must seem strange and needed an explanation. I don’t think Mr. Ferrars will be upset when he finds out I confided in you, since I know he thinks very highly of your family and sees you and the other Miss Dashwoods almost like his own sisters." — She paused.

Elinor for a few moments remained silent. Her astonishment at what she heard was at first too great for words; but at length forcing herself to speak, and to speak cautiously, she said, with calmness of manner, which tolerably well concealed her surprise and solicitude—“May I ask if your engagement is of long standing?”

Elinor stayed quiet for a moment. Her surprise at what she heard was initially too overwhelming to express; but eventually, she pushed herself to speak, doing so carefully. With a calm demeanor that hid her surprise and concern pretty well, she asked, “Can I ask if your engagement has been going on for a while?”

“We have been engaged these four years.”

“We’ve been engaged for four years.”

“Four years!”

"4 years!"

“Yes.”

"Yes."

Elinor, though greatly shocked, still felt unable to believe it.

Elinor, although deeply shocked, still found it hard to believe.

“I did not know,” said she, “that you were even acquainted till the other day.”

“I didn’t know,” she said, “that you even knew each other until the other day.”

“Our acquaintance, however, is of many years date. He was under my uncle’s care, you know, a considerable while.”

“Our acquaintance, however, goes back many years. He was under my uncle’s care for quite some time, you know.”

“Your uncle!”

"Your uncle!"

“Yes; Mr. Pratt. Did you never hear him talk of Mr. Pratt?”

“Yes; Mr. Pratt. Have you ever heard him talk about Mr. Pratt?”

“I think I have,” replied Elinor, with an exertion of spirits, which increased with her increase of emotion.

“I think I have,” replied Elinor, with a burst of energy that grew as her emotions intensified.

“He was four years with my uncle, who lives at Longstaple, near Plymouth. It was there our acquaintance begun, for my sister and me was often staying with my uncle, and it was there our engagement was formed, though not till a year after he had quitted as a pupil; but he was almost always with us afterwards. I was very unwilling to enter into it, as you may imagine, without the knowledge and approbation of his mother; but I was too young, and loved him too well, to be so prudent as I ought to have been. Though you do not know him so well as me, Miss Dashwood, you must have seen enough of him to be sensible he is very capable of making a woman sincerely attached to him.”

“He spent four years with my uncle, who lives in Longstaple, near Plymouth. That’s where we first met because my sister and I often stayed with my uncle, and that’s where our engagement was formed, although it wasn’t until a year after he had left as a pupil. He was almost always with us afterward. I was very reluctant to get into it, as you can imagine, without his mother’s knowledge and approval; but I was too young and loved him too much to be as cautious as I should have been. Although you don’t know him as well as I do, Miss Dashwood, you must have seen enough of him to realize he is very capable of making a woman truly attached to him.”

“Certainly,” answered Elinor, without knowing what she said; but after a moment’s reflection, she added, with revived security of Edward’s honour and love, and her companion’s falsehood—“Engaged to Mr. Edward Ferrars!—I confess myself so totally surprised at what you tell me, that really—I beg your pardon; but surely there must be some mistake of person or name. We cannot mean the same Mr. Ferrars.”

“Of course,” Elinor replied, not fully aware of what she was saying; but after thinking for a moment, she added, feeling reassured about Edward’s honor and love, and aware of her companion’s deception—“Engaged to Mr. Edward Ferrars?—I’m so completely taken aback by what you’re saying that I really—I’m sorry; but there must be some mix-up with the person or name. We can't be talking about the same Mr. Ferrars.”

“We can mean no other,” cried Lucy, smiling. “Mr. Edward Ferrars, the eldest son of Mrs. Ferrars, of Park Street, and brother of your sister-in-law, Mrs. John Dashwood, is the person I mean; you must allow that I am not likely to be deceived as to the name of the man on who all my happiness depends.”

“We can’t mean anyone else,” Lucy exclaimed, smiling. “Mr. Edward Ferrars, the oldest son of Mrs. Ferrars from Park Street, and the brother of your sister-in-law, Mrs. John Dashwood, is the person I’m talking about; you have to agree that I’m not likely to mistake the name of the man on whom all my happiness relies.”

“It is strange,” replied Elinor, in a most painful perplexity, “that I should never have heard him even mention your name.”

“It’s strange,” Elinor replied, feeling very confused, “that I’ve never heard him even mention your name.”

“No; considering our situation, it was not strange. Our first care has been to keep the matter secret. You knew nothing of me, or my family, and, therefore, there could be no occasion for ever mentioning my name to you; and, as he was always particularly afraid of his sister’s suspecting any thing, that was reason enough for his not mentioning it.”

“No; given our situation, it wasn’t unusual. Our main concern has been to keep this a secret. You didn’t know anything about me or my family, so there was no reason to ever bring up my name to you; and since he was always especially worried about his sister suspecting anything, that was reason enough for him not to mention it.”

She was silent.—Elinor’s security sunk; but her self-command did not sink with it.

She was quiet. — Elinor's sense of security faded, but her composure did not waver.

“Four years you have been engaged,” said she with a firm voice.

“You've been engaged for four years,” she said in a steady voice.

“Yes; and heaven knows how much longer we may have to wait. Poor Edward! It puts him quite out of heart.” Then taking a small miniature from her pocket, she added, “To prevent the possibility of mistake, be so good as to look at this face. It does not do him justice, to be sure, but yet I think you cannot be deceived as to the person it was drew for.—I have had it above these three years.”

“Yes; and God knows how much longer we might have to wait. Poor Edward! It really takes a toll on him.” Then, pulling out a small photograph from her pocket, she added, “Just to avoid any confusion, please take a look at this face. It doesn't really capture him well, but I believe you won't be misled about who it was made for. I've had it for over three years.”

She put it into her hands as she spoke; and when Elinor saw the painting, whatever other doubts her fear of a too hasty decision, or her wish of detecting falsehood might suffer to linger in her mind, she could have none of its being Edward’s face. She returned it almost instantly, acknowledging the likeness.

She placed it in her hands as she spoke; and when Elinor saw the painting, any lingering doubts she might have had from her fear of making a quick decision or her desire to uncover any lies vanished. She had no doubt that it was Edward’s face. She quickly returned it, acknowledging the resemblance.

“I have never been able,” continued Lucy, “to give him my picture in return, which I am very much vexed at, for he has been always so anxious to get it! But I am determined to set for it the very first opportunity.”

“I have never been able,” Lucy continued, “to give him my picture in return, which really bothers me, because he has always been so eager to get it! But I’m determined to sit for it at the very first opportunity.”

“You are quite in the right,” replied Elinor calmly. They then proceeded a few paces in silence. Lucy spoke first.

“You're absolutely right,” Elinor replied calmly. They then walked a few steps in silence. Lucy was the first to speak.

“I am sure,” said she, “I have no doubt in the world of your faithfully keeping this secret, because you must know of what importance it is to us, not to have it reach his mother; for she would never approve of it, I dare say. I shall have no fortune, and I fancy she is an exceeding proud woman.”

“I’m sure,” she said, “I have no doubt that you’ll keep this secret because you understand how important it is for us that it doesn't reach his mother. She would never approve of it, I’m certain. I won’t have any fortune, and I think she’s a really proud woman.”

“I certainly did not seek your confidence,” said Elinor; “but you do me no more than justice in imagining that I may be depended on. Your secret is safe with me; but pardon me if I express some surprise at so unnecessary a communication. You must at least have felt that my being acquainted with it could not add to its safety.”

“I definitely didn’t ask for your trust,” Elinor said, “but you’re fair to think that I can be relied on. Your secret is safe with me; however, forgive me for being a bit surprised by such an unnecessary disclosure. You should know that my knowing it doesn’t make it any safer.”

As she said this, she looked earnestly at Lucy, hoping to discover something in her countenance; perhaps the falsehood of the greatest part of what she had been saying; but Lucy’s countenance suffered no change.

As she said this, she looked intently at Lucy, hoping to find something in her expression; maybe the deception in most of what she had been saying; but Lucy’s expression didn't change at all.

“I was afraid you would think I was taking a great liberty with you,” said she, “in telling you all this. I have not known you long to be sure, personally at least, but I have known you and all your family by description a great while; and as soon as I saw you, I felt almost as if you was an old acquaintance. Besides in the present case, I really thought some explanation was due to you after my making such particular inquiries about Edward’s mother; and I am so unfortunate, that I have not a creature whose advice I can ask. Anne is the only person that knows of it, and she has no judgment at all; indeed, she does me a great deal more harm than good, for I am in constant fear of her betraying me. She does not know how to hold her tongue, as you must perceive, and I am sure I was in the greatest fright in the world t’other day, when Edward’s name was mentioned by Sir John, lest she should out with it all. You can’t think how much I go through in my mind from it altogether. I only wonder that I am alive after what I have suffered for Edward’s sake these last four years. Every thing in such suspense and uncertainty; and seeing him so seldom—we can hardly meet above twice a-year. I am sure I wonder my heart is not quite broke.”

“I was worried you might think I was overstepping by sharing all this with you,” she said. “I haven’t known you long, not personally at least, but I’ve known about you and your family for quite a while; and as soon as I saw you, I felt like you were an old friend. Plus, in this situation, I thought it was only right to explain myself after asking so many questions about Edward’s mother. Unfortunately, I don’t have anyone to turn to for advice. Anne is the only one who knows about it, and she doesn’t have any good judgment; in fact, she causes me more trouble than help because I’m always worried she’ll spill my secrets. She just can’t keep her mouth shut, as you can probably tell, and I was really scared the other day when Sir John mentioned Edward’s name, hoping she wouldn’t blurt it all out. You can’t imagine how much this weighs on my mind. I honestly wonder how I’m still standing after everything I’ve been through for Edward over the last four years. Everything is in such suspense and uncertainty; we can barely meet more than twice a year. I truly wonder why my heart isn’t completely broken.”

Here she took out her handkerchief; but Elinor did not feel very compassionate.

Here she took out her tissue, but Elinor didn't feel very sympathetic.

“Sometimes.” continued Lucy, after wiping her eyes, “I think whether it would not be better for us both to break off the matter entirely.” As she said this, she looked directly at her companion. “But then at other times I have not resolution enough for it. I cannot bear the thoughts of making him so miserable, as I know the very mention of such a thing would do. And on my own account too—so dear as he is to me—I don’t think I could be equal to it. What would you advise me to do in such a case, Miss Dashwood? What would you do yourself?”

“Sometimes,” Lucy said, wiping her eyes, “I wonder if it would be better for both of us to just end this completely.” She looked directly at her companion as she spoke. “But then there are other times when I just can’t bring myself to do it. I can’t stand the thought of making him so unhappy, as I know even mentioning it would. And for my own sake too—since he means so much to me—I don’t think I could handle it. What would you suggest I do in this situation, Miss Dashwood? What would you do?”

“Pardon me,” replied Elinor, startled by the question; “but I can give you no advice under such circumstances. Your own judgment must direct you.”

“Excuse me,” replied Elinor, taken aback by the question; “but I can’t offer you any advice in this situation. You’ll have to rely on your own judgment.”

“To be sure,” continued Lucy, after a few minutes silence on both sides, “his mother must provide for him sometime or other; but poor Edward is so cast down by it! Did you not think him dreadful low-spirited when he was at Barton? He was so miserable when he left us at Longstaple, to go to you, that I was afraid you would think him quite ill.”

“To be sure,” continued Lucy, after a few minutes of silence on both sides, “his mother has to take care of him sooner or later; but poor Edward is so down about it! Didn’t you think he was really low-spirited when he was at Barton? He was so miserable when he left us at Longstaple to go to you that I was afraid you would think he was actually ill.”

“Did he come from your uncle’s, then, when he visited us?”

“Did he come from your uncle’s place when he visited us?”

“Oh, yes; he had been staying a fortnight with us. Did you think he came directly from town?”

“Oh, yes; he had been staying with us for two weeks. Did you think he came straight from the city?”

“No,” replied Elinor, most feelingly sensible of every fresh circumstance in favour of Lucy’s veracity; “I remember he told us, that he had been staying a fortnight with some friends near Plymouth.” She remembered too, her own surprise at the time, at his mentioning nothing farther of those friends, at his total silence with respect even to their names.

“No,” replied Elinor, very aware of every new detail that supported Lucy’s honesty; “I remember he told us that he had been staying for two weeks with some friends near Plymouth.” She also recalled her own surprise at the time that he didn’t mention anything more about those friends, including even their names.

“Did not you think him sadly out of spirits?” repeated Lucy.

“Didn’t you think he seemed really down?” repeated Lucy.

“We did, indeed, particularly so when he first arrived.”

“We definitely did, especially when he first showed up.”

“I begged him to exert himself for fear you should suspect what was the matter; but it made him so melancholy, not being able to stay more than a fortnight with us, and seeing me so much affected. Poor fellow! I am afraid it is just the same with him now; for he writes in wretched spirits. I heard from him just before I left Exeter;” taking a letter from her pocket and carelessly showing the direction to Elinor. “You know his hand, I dare say,—a charming one it is; but that is not written so well as usual. He was tired, I dare say, for he had just filled the sheet to me as full as possible.”

“I begged him to try harder because I was worried you might guess what was going on; but it made him so sad that he couldn’t stay more than two weeks with us, especially seeing how much it affected me. Poor guy! I'm afraid it’s the same for him now because he writes in such a bad mood. I got a letter from him right before I left Exeter,” she said, pulling a letter from her pocket and casually showing the address to Elinor. “You know his handwriting, I suppose—it’s lovely; but this isn’t written as neatly as usual. He was probably tired since he filled the sheet as much as he could.”

Elinor saw that it was his hand, and she could doubt no longer. This picture, she had allowed herself to believe, might have been accidentally obtained; it might not have been Edward’s gift; but a correspondence between them by letter, could subsist only under a positive engagement, could be authorised by nothing else; for a few moments, she was almost overcome—her heart sunk within her, and she could hardly stand; but exertion was indispensably necessary; and she struggled so resolutely against the oppression of her feelings, that her success was speedy, and for the time complete.

Elinor realized it was definitely his hand, and she couldn't doubt anymore. She had let herself think that this picture might have been obtained by chance; it might not have been Edward’s gift; but a correspondence between them through letters could only exist under a definite commitment, sanctioned by nothing else. For a few moments, she felt almost overwhelmed—her heart sank, and she could barely stand; but she knew she had to keep it together. She fought so hard against the weight of her emotions that she achieved quick and total success for the moment.

“Writing to each other,” said Lucy, returning the letter into her pocket, “is the only comfort we have in such long separations. Yes, I have one other comfort in his picture, but poor Edward has not even that. If he had but my picture, he says he should be easy. I gave him a lock of my hair set in a ring when he was at Longstaple last, and that was some comfort to him, he said, but not equal to a picture. Perhaps you might notice the ring when you saw him?”

“Writing to each other,” Lucy said, putting the letter back in her pocket, “is the only comfort we have during these long separations. Yes, I have one other comfort in his picture, but poor Edward doesn’t even have that. He says if he just had my picture, he’d feel better. I gave him a lock of my hair set in a ring when he was at Longstaple last, and that brought him some comfort, he said, but it’s not the same as having a picture. Maybe you could notice the ring when you see him?”

“I did,” said Elinor, with a composure of voice, under which was concealed an emotion and distress beyond any thing she had ever felt before. She was mortified, shocked, confounded.

“I did,” Elinor replied, her voice steady, though it masked an emotion and distress greater than anything she had ever experienced before. She felt embarrassed, shocked, and bewildered.

Fortunately for her, they had now reached the cottage, and the conversation could be continued no farther. After sitting with them a few minutes, the Miss Steeles returned to the Park, and Elinor was then at liberty to think and be wretched.

Fortunately for her, they had now arrived at the cottage, and the conversation could go no further. After sitting with them for a few minutes, the Miss Steeles went back to the Park, leaving Elinor free to think and feel miserable.

END OF THE FIRST VOLUME

END OF VOLUME ONE

CHAPTER XXIII.

However small Elinor’s general dependence on Lucy’s veracity might be, it was impossible for her on serious reflection to suspect it in the present case, where no temptation could be answerable to the folly of inventing a falsehood of such a description. What Lucy had asserted to be true, therefore, Elinor could not, dared not longer doubt; supported as it was too on every side by such probabilities and proofs, and contradicted by nothing but her own wishes. Their opportunity of acquaintance in the house of Mr. Pratt was a foundation for the rest, at once indisputable and alarming; and Edward’s visit near Plymouth, his melancholy state of mind, his dissatisfaction at his own prospects, his uncertain behaviour towards herself, the intimate knowledge of the Miss Steeles as to Norland and their family connections, which had often surprised her, the picture, the letter, the ring, formed altogether such a body of evidence, as overcame every fear of condemning him unfairly, and established as a fact, which no partiality could set aside, his ill-treatment of herself.—Her resentment of such behaviour, her indignation at having been its dupe, for a short time made her feel only for herself; but other ideas, other considerations, soon arose. Had Edward been intentionally deceiving her? Had he feigned a regard for her which he did not feel? Was his engagement to Lucy an engagement of the heart? No; whatever it might once have been, she could not believe it such at present. His affection was all her own. She could not be deceived in that. Her mother, sisters, Fanny, all had been conscious of his regard for her at Norland; it was not an illusion of her own vanity. He certainly loved her. What a softener of the heart was this persuasion! How much could it not tempt her to forgive! He had been blamable, highly blamable, in remaining at Norland after he first felt her influence over him to be more than it ought to be. In that, he could not be defended; but if he had injured her, how much more had he injured himself; if her case were pitiable, his was hopeless. His imprudence had made her miserable for a while; but it seemed to have deprived himself of all chance of ever being otherwise. She might in time regain tranquillity; but he, what had he to look forward to? Could he ever be tolerably happy with Lucy Steele; could he, were his affection for herself out of the question, with his integrity, his delicacy, and well-informed mind, be satisfied with a wife like her—illiterate, artful, and selfish?

However small Elinor’s overall reliance on Lucy’s honesty might be, she simply couldn’t suspect it in this situation, as there was no temptation that could justify the foolishness of creating a lie like that. What Lucy claimed to be true, Elinor could not, and dared not, doubt any longer; especially since it was backed by so many probabilities and proofs, contradicted only by her own desires. Their chance to get to know each other at Mr. Pratt’s house was an undeniable and alarming foundation; and Edward’s visit near Plymouth, his gloomy state of mind, his dissatisfaction with his own future, his uncertain behavior towards her, the Miss Steeles’ intimate knowledge of Norland and their family ties, which often surprised her, plus the picture, the letter, and the ring—all of this combined was such strong evidence that it silenced every fear she had about unfairly condemning him and confirmed as fact, which no bias could overlook, his mistreatment of her. Her anger towards such behavior, her indignation at being deceived, briefly made her think only of herself; but other thoughts and considerations soon emerged. Had Edward been intentionally misleading her? Had he pretended to care for her when he didn’t? Was his engagement to Lucy a true emotional commitment? No; whatever it might have been before, she could no longer believe it was the case now. His love was all hers. She couldn’t be fooled about that. Her mother, sisters, Fanny—all were aware of his feelings for her at Norland; it wasn't just a figment of her own vanity. He certainly loved her. How comforting this belief was! It made it so much easier to forgive! He had acted poorly, very poorly, by staying at Norland after realizing her influence over him was more than it should have been. In that, he couldn’t be justified; but if he had hurt her, he had hurt himself even more. If her situation was pitiful, his was hopeless. His recklessness had made her miserable for a time; but it seemed to have stripped him of any chance of ever being happy. She might eventually find peace again; but what could he look forward to? Could he ever be reasonably happy with Lucy Steele? Could he—assuming his love for her was set aside—with his integrity, sensitivity, and well-informed mind, really be satisfied with a wife like her—uneducated, scheming, and selfish?

The youthful infatuation of nineteen would naturally blind him to every thing but her beauty and good nature; but the four succeeding years—years, which if rationally spent, give such improvement to the understanding, must have opened his eyes to her defects of education, while the same period of time, spent on her side in inferior society and more frivolous pursuits, had perhaps robbed her of that simplicity which might once have given an interesting character to her beauty.

The youthful crush at nineteen would naturally make him blind to everything except her beauty and kind personality; however, the four years that followed—years that, if spent wisely, could greatly enhance one's understanding—must have opened his eyes to her shortcomings in education. Meanwhile, the same time spent by her among less sophisticated company and in more trivial activities might have taken away the simplicity that once added an intriguing quality to her beauty.

If in the supposition of his seeking to marry herself, his difficulties from his mother had seemed great, how much greater were they now likely to be, when the object of his engagement was undoubtedly inferior in connections, and probably inferior in fortune to herself. These difficulties, indeed, with a heart so alienated from Lucy, might not press very hard upon his patience; but melancholy was the state of the person by whom the expectation of family opposition and unkindness, could be felt as a relief!

If it seemed like a big challenge for him to marry her because of his mother, how much bigger would those challenges be now that the person he was engaged to was definitely lower in social connections and probably had less money than her? These difficulties might not weigh heavily on him since his heart was so distant from Lucy, but it was sad that someone could find relief in the thought of having to face family opposition and unkindness!

As these considerations occurred to her in painful succession, she wept for him, more than for herself. Supported by the conviction of having done nothing to merit her present unhappiness, and consoled by the belief that Edward had done nothing to forfeit her esteem, she thought she could even now, under the first smart of the heavy blow, command herself enough to guard every suspicion of the truth from her mother and sisters. And so well was she able to answer her own expectations, that when she joined them at dinner only two hours after she had first suffered the extinction of all her dearest hopes, no one would have supposed from the appearance of the sisters, that Elinor was mourning in secret over obstacles which must divide her for ever from the object of her love, and that Marianne was internally dwelling on the perfections of a man, of whose whole heart she felt thoroughly possessed, and whom she expected to see in every carriage which drove near their house.

As these thoughts hit her one after another, she cried more for him than for herself. Comforted by the belief that she hadn’t done anything to deserve this unhappiness, and reassured that Edward hadn’t done anything to lose her respect, she thought she could still manage to keep any doubts about the truth from her mother and sisters, even in the immediate aftermath of such a painful blow. She met her own expectations so well that when she joined them for dinner just two hours after her hopes had been crushed, no one would have guessed from the sisters’ appearances that Elinor was mourning in silence over the obstacles that would separate her forever from the man she loved, and that Marianne was lost in thoughts about the qualities of a man whose heart she believed she fully had, and whom she expected to see in every carriage that passed by their house.

The necessity of concealing from her mother and Marianne, what had been entrusted in confidence to herself, though it obliged her to unceasing exertion, was no aggravation of Elinor’s distress. On the contrary it was a relief to her, to be spared the communication of what would give such affliction to them, and to be saved likewise from hearing that condemnation of Edward, which would probably flow from the excess of their partial affection for herself, and which was more than she felt equal to support.

The need to keep what had been shared with her in confidence from her mother and Marianne, while it required constant effort, didn't add to Elinor's distress. Instead, it relieved her to avoid telling them something that would upset them so much, and to escape the inevitable criticism of Edward that would likely come from their strong affection for her—something she wasn't sure she could handle.

From their counsel, or their conversation, she knew she could receive no assistance, their tenderness and sorrow must add to her distress, while her self-command would neither receive encouragement from their example nor from their praise. She was stronger alone, and her own good sense so well supported her, that her firmness was as unshaken, her appearance of cheerfulness as invariable, as with regrets so poignant and so fresh, it was possible for them to be.

From their advice or their talks, she realized she wouldn’t get any help; their kindness and sadness would only increase her pain, and her self-control wouldn’t get any motivation from their behavior or their compliments. She felt stronger on her own, and her common sense backed her up so well that her determination was just as steady, and her cheerful demeanor just as constant, as could be, despite the deep and recent regrets she felt.

Much as she had suffered from her first conversation with Lucy on the subject, she soon felt an earnest wish of renewing it; and this for more reasons than one. She wanted to hear many particulars of their engagement repeated again, she wanted more clearly to understand what Lucy really felt for Edward, whether there were any sincerity in her declaration of tender regard for him, and she particularly wanted to convince Lucy, by her readiness to enter on the matter again, and her calmness in conversing on it, that she was no otherwise interested in it than as a friend, which she very much feared her involuntary agitation, in their morning discourse, must have left at least doubtful. That Lucy was disposed to be jealous of her appeared very probable: it was plain that Edward had always spoken highly in her praise, not merely from Lucy’s assertion, but from her venturing to trust her on so short a personal acquaintance, with a secret so confessedly and evidently important. And even Sir John’s joking intelligence must have had some weight. But indeed, while Elinor remained so well assured within herself of being really beloved by Edward, it required no other consideration of probabilities to make it natural that Lucy should be jealous; and that she was so, her very confidence was a proof. What other reason for the disclosure of the affair could there be, but that Elinor might be informed by it of Lucy’s superior claims on Edward, and be taught to avoid him in future? She had little difficulty in understanding thus much of her rival’s intentions, and while she was firmly resolved to act by her as every principle of honour and honesty directed, to combat her own affection for Edward and to see him as little as possible; she could not deny herself the comfort of endeavouring to convince Lucy that her heart was unwounded. And as she could now have nothing more painful to hear on the subject than had already been told, she did not mistrust her own ability of going through a repetition of particulars with composure.

Much as she had suffered from her first conversation with Lucy about it, she soon felt a strong desire to bring it up again, and for more than one reason. She wanted to hear all the details of their engagement repeated, she wanted to better understand what Lucy truly felt for Edward, whether there was any sincerity in her claims of affection for him, and she especially wanted to show Lucy, by her willingness to discuss it again and her calmness while doing so, that she was only interested as a friend, which she feared her involuntary agitation during their morning talk must have left at least somewhat unclear. It seemed very likely that Lucy was jealous of her: it was clear that Edward had always spoken highly of her, not just from Lucy’s claims, but from Lucy trusting her with such an important secret after a short acquaintance. Even Sir John’s joking remark must have weighed in on it. However, while Elinor was so certain within herself that she was truly loved by Edward, it was natural for Lucy to feel jealous; her very confidence was proof of that. What other reason could there be for revealing the situation except to inform Elinor of Lucy’s stronger claims on Edward and to encourage her to avoid him in the future? She had little trouble figuring out her rival’s intentions, and while she was determined to treat Lucy with all the honor and honesty she could muster, to fight her own feelings for Edward, and to see him as little as possible, she couldn’t help but find comfort in trying to convince Lucy that her heart was untouched. And since she couldn’t hear anything more painful on the subject than what she had already heard, she felt confident in her ability to get through a retelling of the details calmly.

But it was not immediately that an opportunity of doing so could be commanded, though Lucy was as well disposed as herself to take advantage of any that occurred; for the weather was not often fine enough to allow of their joining in a walk, where they might most easily separate themselves from the others; and though they met at least every other evening either at the park or cottage, and chiefly at the former, they could not be supposed to meet for the sake of conversation. Such a thought would never enter either Sir John or Lady Middleton’s head; and therefore very little leisure was ever given for a general chat, and none at all for particular discourse. They met for the sake of eating, drinking, and laughing together, playing at cards, or consequences, or any other game that was sufficiently noisy.

But it wasn't easy to find a chance to do so right away, even though Lucy was just as eager as she was to take advantage of any opportunity. The weather rarely cooperated enough for them to go on a walk where they could easily slip away from the others. Although they got together at least every other evening, either at the park or at the cottage, with the park being the main spot, it couldn't be assumed they met just to chat. That idea would never cross Sir John or Lady Middleton’s minds, so there wasn’t much time for casual conversation, and definitely none for private discussions. They gathered to eat, drink, and laugh together, playing cards, or engaging in games that were loud enough to mask their chatter.

One or two meetings of this kind had taken place, without affording Elinor any chance of engaging Lucy in private, when Sir John called at the cottage one morning, to beg, in the name of charity, that they would all dine with Lady Middleton that day, as he was obliged to attend the club at Exeter, and she would otherwise be quite alone, except her mother and the two Miss Steeles. Elinor, who foresaw a fairer opening for the point she had in view, in such a party as this was likely to be, more at liberty among themselves under the tranquil and well-bred direction of Lady Middleton than when her husband united them together in one noisy purpose, immediately accepted the invitation; Margaret, with her mother’s permission, was equally compliant, and Marianne, though always unwilling to join any of their parties, was persuaded by her mother, who could not bear to have her seclude herself from any chance of amusement, to go likewise.

One or two meetings like this had happened, without giving Elinor a chance to talk to Lucy privately, when Sir John stopped by the cottage one morning to ask, out of kindness, if they would all have dinner with Lady Middleton that day. He had to go to the club in Exeter, and she would otherwise be completely alone, except for her mother and the two Miss Steeles. Elinor, who saw a better opportunity to address her goal in a gathering like this, where they would have more freedom to talk among themselves under the calm and polite guidance of Lady Middleton than when her husband brought them together for one loud purpose, immediately accepted the invitation. Margaret, with her mom's permission, agreed as well, and Marianne, while always reluctant to join any of their outings, was persuaded by her mother, who couldn’t stand the thought of her missing out on any chance for fun, to go too.

The young ladies went, and Lady Middleton was happily preserved from the frightful solitude which had threatened her. The insipidity of the meeting was exactly such as Elinor had expected; it produced not one novelty of thought or expression, and nothing could be less interesting than the whole of their discourse both in the dining parlour and drawing room: to the latter, the children accompanied them, and while they remained there, she was too well convinced of the impossibility of engaging Lucy’s attention to attempt it. They quitted it only with the removal of the tea-things. The card-table was then placed, and Elinor began to wonder at herself for having ever entertained a hope of finding time for conversation at the park. They all rose up in preparation for a round game.

The young women left, and Lady Middleton was thankfully spared from the terrible loneliness that had been looming over her. The dullness of the gathering was exactly what Elinor had anticipated; it offered no new ideas or expressions, and nothing was less engaging than the entirety of their conversation in the dining room and living room: in the latter, the children joined them, and while they were there, Elinor knew it was impossible to capture Lucy’s attention, so she didn’t even try. They only left when the tea things were taken away. The card table was then set up, and Elinor started to wonder why she had ever thought she would have a chance for conversation at the park. Everyone got up to prepare for a round of cards.

“I am glad,” said Lady Middleton to Lucy, “you are not going to finish poor little Annamaria’s basket this evening; for I am sure it must hurt your eyes to work filigree by candlelight. And we will make the dear little love some amends for her disappointment to-morrow, and then I hope she will not much mind it.”

“I’m glad,” said Lady Middleton to Lucy, “that you’re not going to finish poor little Annamaria’s basket this evening; I’m sure it must strain your eyes to do filigree by candlelight. We’ll make it up to the dear little thing for her disappointment tomorrow, and I hope she won’t mind it too much.”

This hint was enough, Lucy recollected herself instantly and replied, “Indeed you are very much mistaken, Lady Middleton; I am only waiting to know whether you can make your party without me, or I should have been at my filigree already. I would not disappoint the little angel for all the world: and if you want me at the card-table now, I am resolved to finish the basket after supper.”

This hint was enough, and Lucy quickly gathered herself and replied, “You’re very mistaken, Lady Middleton; I’m just waiting to see if you can have your party without me, or I would already be at my filigree. I wouldn’t disappoint the little angel for anything in the world: and if you need me at the card table now, I’ve decided to finish the basket after supper.”

“You are very good, I hope it won’t hurt your eyes—will you ring the bell for some working candles? My poor little girl would be sadly disappointed, I know, if the basket was not finished tomorrow, for though I told her it certainly would not, I am sure she depends upon having it done.”

“You're really kind, I hope this doesn’t hurt your eyes—could you ring the bell for some working candles? My poor little girl would be so disappointed, I know, if the basket isn’t finished by tomorrow, because even though I told her it definitely wouldn’t be, I’m sure she’s counting on having it done.”

Lucy directly drew her work table near her and reseated herself with an alacrity and cheerfulness which seemed to infer that she could taste no greater delight than in making a filigree basket for a spoilt child.

Lucy pulled her work table closer and sat down again with a quickness and happiness that suggested she couldn’t imagine anything more enjoyable than crafting a delicate basket for a pampered child.

Lady Middleton proposed a rubber of Casino to the others. No one made any objection but Marianne, who with her usual inattention to the forms of general civility, exclaimed, “Your Ladyship will have the goodness to excuse me—you know I detest cards. I shall go to the piano-forte; I have not touched it since it was tuned.” And without farther ceremony, she turned away and walked to the instrument.

Lady Middleton suggested a game of Casino to everyone. No one objected except Marianne, who, without paying attention to the usual social niceties, exclaimed, “Please excuse me, Your Ladyship—you know I can’t stand cards. I’m going to the piano; I haven’t played it since it was tuned.” And without any further ado, she turned away and walked to the piano.

Lady Middleton looked as if she thanked heaven that she had never made so rude a speech.

Lady Middleton seemed to thank heaven that she had never made such a rude remark.

“Marianne can never keep long from that instrument you know, ma’am,” said Elinor, endeavouring to smooth away the offence; “and I do not much wonder at it; for it is the very best toned piano-forte I ever heard.”

“Marianne can never stay away from that instrument for long, you know, ma’am,” said Elinor, trying to ease the tension; “and I can’t say I’m surprised, because it’s the best-sounding piano I’ve ever heard.”

The remaining five were now to draw their cards.

The other five were now going to draw their cards.

“Perhaps,” continued Elinor, “if I should happen to cut out, I may be of some use to Miss Lucy Steele, in rolling her papers for her; and there is so much still to be done to the basket, that it must be impossible I think for her labour singly, to finish it this evening. I should like the work exceedingly, if she would allow me a share in it.”

“Maybe,” Elinor continued, “if I end up not being busy, I could help Miss Lucy Steele by rolling her papers for her; and since there’s still so much left to do on the basket, I think it’s impossible for her to finish it all by herself tonight. I would really enjoy the work if she would let me join in.”

“Indeed I shall be very much obliged to you for your help,” cried Lucy, “for I find there is more to be done to it than I thought there was; and it would be a shocking thing to disappoint dear Annamaria after all.”

“Honestly, I’d really appreciate your help,” Lucy said, “because I realize there’s more to it than I thought; and it would be terrible to let dear Annamaria down after everything.”

“Oh! that would be terrible, indeed,” said Miss Steele. “Dear little soul, how I do love her!”

“Oh! that would be awful, for sure,” said Miss Steele. “Sweet little thing, how much I adore her!”

“You are very kind,” said Lady Middleton to Elinor; “and as you really like the work, perhaps you will be as well pleased not to cut in till another rubber, or will you take your chance now?”

“You're really kind,” said Lady Middleton to Elinor. “And since you actually like the game, maybe you'd be just as happy to wait until the next round, or do you want to take your chance now?”

Elinor joyfully profited by the first of these proposals, and thus by a little of that address which Marianne could never condescend to practise, gained her own end, and pleased Lady Middleton at the same time. Lucy made room for her with ready attention, and the two fair rivals were thus seated side by side at the same table, and, with the utmost harmony, engaged in forwarding the same work. The pianoforte at which Marianne, wrapped up in her own music and her own thoughts, had by this time forgotten that any body was in the room besides herself, was luckily so near them that Miss Dashwood now judged she might safely, under the shelter of its noise, introduce the interesting subject, without any risk of being heard at the card-table.

Elinor happily took advantage of the first of these suggestions, and with a bit of that charm which Marianne could never bring herself to use, achieved her goal while also making Lady Middleton happy. Lucy made space for her with eager help, and the two beautiful rivals were seated next to each other at the same table, working together in complete harmony. The piano, where Marianne was so absorbed in her music and her thoughts that she had completely forgotten anyone else was in the room, was fortunately close enough that Miss Dashwood felt she could safely bring up the interesting topic, without any danger of being overheard at the card table.

CHAPTER XXIV.

In a firm, though cautious tone, Elinor thus began.

In a steady but careful tone, Elinor began.

“I should be undeserving of the confidence you have honoured me with, if I felt no desire for its continuance, or no farther curiosity on its subject. I will not apologize therefore for bringing it forward again.”

“I would be unworthy of the trust you’ve given me if I had no desire for it to continue or no further interest in the matter. So, I won’t apologize for bringing it up again.”

“Thank you,” cried Lucy warmly, “for breaking the ice; you have set my heart at ease by it; for I was somehow or other afraid I had offended you by what I told you that Monday.”

“Thank you,” Lucy said enthusiastically, “for breaking the ice; you’ve really put my heart at ease because I was a bit worried that I had upset you with what I told you that Monday.”

“Offended me! How could you suppose so? Believe me,” and Elinor spoke it with the truest sincerity, “nothing could be farther from my intention than to give you such an idea. Could you have a motive for the trust, that was not honourable and flattering to me?”

“Offended me! How could you think that? Trust me,” Elinor said with complete sincerity, “nothing could be further from my intention than to give you that impression. Could you have a reason for the trust that wasn’t honorable and flattering to me?”

“And yet I do assure you,” replied Lucy, her little sharp eyes full of meaning, “there seemed to me to be a coldness and displeasure in your manner that made me quite uncomfortable. I felt sure that you was angry with me; and have been quarrelling with myself ever since, for having took such a liberty as to trouble you with my affairs. But I am very glad to find it was only my own fancy, and that you really do not blame me. If you knew what a consolation it was to me to relieve my heart speaking to you of what I am always thinking of every moment of my life, your compassion would make you overlook every thing else I am sure.”

“And yet I assure you,” replied Lucy, her sharp little eyes filled with meaning, “I felt there was a coldness and displeasure in your manner that made me quite uncomfortable. I was sure you were angry with me, and I’ve been upset with myself ever since for taking the liberty of bothering you with my problems. But I’m really glad to find out it was just my imagination, and that you don’t actually blame me. If you knew how much it helped me to share my thoughts with you about what’s always on my mind, your compassion would make you overlook everything else, I’m sure.”

“Indeed, I can easily believe that it was a very great relief to you, to acknowledge your situation to me, and be assured that you shall never have reason to repent it. Your case is a very unfortunate one; you seem to me to be surrounded with difficulties, and you will have need of all your mutual affection to support you under them. Mr. Ferrars, I believe, is entirely dependent on his mother.”

“Honestly, I can totally understand that it must have been such a huge relief for you to admit your situation to me, and I want you to know that you’ll never regret it. Your situation is really unfortunate; it looks to me like you’re facing a lot of challenges, and you’ll need all the love you have for each other to get through them. I believe Mr. Ferrars is fully reliant on his mother.”

“He has only two thousand pounds of his own; it would be madness to marry upon that, though for my own part, I could give up every prospect of more without a sigh. I have been always used to a very small income, and could struggle with any poverty for him; but I love him too well to be the selfish means of robbing him, perhaps, of all that his mother might give him if he married to please her. We must wait, it may be for many years. With almost every other man in the world, it would be an alarming prospect; but Edward’s affection and constancy nothing can deprive me of I know.”

“He only has two thousand pounds of his own; it would be crazy to marry on that. Personally, I could give up every chance of having more without a second thought. I've always been used to a very small income and could handle any poverty for him; but I love him too much to selfishly take away what his mother might give him if he married someone to make her happy. We have to wait, maybe for many years. For almost any other man, that would be a worrying situation; but I know that nothing can take away Edward’s love and loyalty from me.”

“That conviction must be every thing to you; and he is undoubtedly supported by the same trust in your’s. If the strength of your reciprocal attachment had failed, as between many people, and under many circumstances it naturally would during a four years’ engagement, your situation would have been pitiable, indeed.”

“That conviction must mean everything to you; and he is definitely backed by the same trust in you. If the strength of your mutual attachment had weakened, as it often does between many people in various circumstances during a four-year engagement, your situation would have been truly pitiful.”

Lucy here looked up; but Elinor was careful in guarding her countenance from every expression that could give her words a suspicious tendency.

Lucy looked up; but Elinor was careful to keep her face from showing any expression that could make her words seem suspicious.

“Edward’s love for me,” said Lucy, “has been pretty well put to the test, by our long, very long absence since we were first engaged, and it has stood the trial so well, that I should be unpardonable to doubt it now. I can safely say that he has never gave me one moment’s alarm on that account from the first.”

“Edward’s love for me,” said Lucy, “has really been tested by our long, very long separation since we got engaged, and it has shown to be so strong that I would be unforgivable to doubt it now. I can confidently say that he has never given me a moment’s worry about that from the start.”

Elinor hardly knew whether to smile or sigh at this assertion.

Elinor barely knew whether to smile or sigh at this comment.

Lucy went on. “I am rather of a jealous temper too by nature, and from our different situations in life, from his being so much more in the world than me, and our continual separation, I was enough inclined for suspicion, to have found out the truth in an instant, if there had been the slightest alteration in his behaviour to me when we met, or any lowness of spirits that I could not account for, or if he had talked more of one lady than another, or seemed in any respect less happy at Longstaple than he used to be. I do not mean to say that I am particularly observant or quick-sighted in general, but in such a case I am sure I could not be deceived.”

Lucy continued. “I tend to be a bit jealous by nature, and because of our different circumstances—him being so much more involved in the world than I am, and our constant separation—I was already inclined to be suspicious. I would have figured out the truth in an instant if there had been even the slightest change in his behavior towards me when we met, or if he seemed down for reasons I couldn't explain, or if he talked about one woman more than another, or appeared any less happy at Longstaple than he used to. I’m not saying I’m particularly observant or quick to notice things in general, but in a situation like this, I know I wouldn’t be fooled.”

“All this,” thought Elinor, “is very pretty; but it can impose upon neither of us.”

“All this,” thought Elinor, “is really nice; but it can’t fool either of us.”

“But what,” said she after a short silence, “are your views? or have you none but that of waiting for Mrs. Ferrars’s death, which is a melancholy and shocking extremity?—Is her son determined to submit to this, and to all the tediousness of the many years of suspense in which it may involve you, rather than run the risk of her displeasure for a while by owning the truth?”

“But what,” she said after a brief pause, “are your thoughts? Or do you only plan on waiting for Mrs. Ferrars’s death, which is a sad and shocking situation? Is her son really willing to endure all the tedious years of uncertainty this might bring you, rather than face her displeasure for a bit by telling the truth?”

“If we could be certain that it would be only for a while! But Mrs. Ferrars is a very headstrong proud woman, and in her first fit of anger upon hearing it, would very likely secure every thing to Robert, and the idea of that, for Edward’s sake, frightens away all my inclination for hasty measures.”

“If we could be sure it would only be temporary! But Mrs. Ferrars is a very stubborn and proud woman, and in her first fit of anger when she hears this, she would likely give everything to Robert, and the thought of that, for Edward’s sake, completely discourages me from any rash actions.”

“And for your own sake too, or you are carrying your disinterestedness beyond reason.”

“And for your own sake too, or you’re taking your selflessness too far.”

Lucy looked at Elinor again, and was silent.

Lucy looked at Elinor again and stayed quiet.

“Do you know Mr. Robert Ferrars?” asked Elinor.

“Do you know Mr. Robert Ferrars?” Elinor asked.

“Not at all—I never saw him; but I fancy he is very unlike his brother—silly and a great coxcomb.”

“Not at all—I never saw him; but I imagine he is very different from his brother—foolish and quite the show-off.”

“A great coxcomb!” repeated Miss Steele, whose ear had caught those words by a sudden pause in Marianne’s music. “Oh, they are talking of their favourite beaux, I dare say.”

“A real show-off!” repeated Miss Steele, whose ear had picked up those words during a sudden pause in Marianne’s music. “Oh, they must be talking about their favorite guys, I bet.”

“No sister,” cried Lucy, “you are mistaken there, our favourite beaux are not great coxcombs.”

“No sister,” cried Lucy, “you’re wrong there; our favorite guys are not great show-offs.”

“I can answer for it that Miss Dashwood’s is not,” said Mrs. Jennings, laughing heartily; “for he is one of the modestest, prettiest behaved young men I ever saw; but as for Lucy, she is such a sly little creature, there is no finding out who she likes.”

“I can assure you that Miss Dashwood isn’t,” Mrs. Jennings said with a hearty laugh; “because he’s one of the most modest and well-mannered young men I’ve ever seen. But as for Lucy, she’s such a sneaky little thing that it’s impossible to tell who she likes.”

“Oh,” cried Miss Steele, looking significantly round at them, “I dare say Lucy’s beau is quite as modest and pretty behaved as Miss Dashwood’s.”

“Oh,” exclaimed Miss Steele, glancing meaningfully at them, “I’m sure Lucy’s guy is just as modest and well-mannered as Miss Dashwood’s.”

Elinor blushed in spite of herself. Lucy bit her lip, and looked angrily at her sister. A mutual silence took place for some time. Lucy first put an end to it by saying in a lower tone, though Marianne was then giving them the powerful protection of a very magnificent concerto,—

Elinor blushed despite herself. Lucy bit her lip and shot an angry glance at her sister. They were silent for a while. Lucy finally broke the quiet by speaking in a softer voice, even though Marianne was currently entertaining them with a stunning concerto—

“I will honestly tell you of one scheme which has lately come into my head, for bringing matters to bear; indeed I am bound to let you into the secret, for you are a party concerned. I dare say you have seen enough of Edward to know that he would prefer the church to every other profession; now my plan is that he should take orders as soon as he can, and then through your interest, which I am sure you would be kind enough to use out of friendship for him, and I hope out of some regard to me, your brother might be persuaded to give him Norland living; which I understand is a very good one, and the present incumbent not likely to live a great while. That would be enough for us to marry upon, and we might trust to time and chance for the rest.”

“I want to share an idea that I’ve recently come up with to help us out; it’s important for me to let you in on this because you’re involved too. You’ve seen enough of Edward to know that he’d prefer being a clergyman over any other career. My plan is for him to take holy orders as soon as possible, and then with your help, which I know you’d offer as a favor to him and hopefully out of some regard for me, your brother could be convinced to give him the Norland living, which I hear is quite a good position and the current holder probably won’t be around much longer. That would provide enough for us to get married, and we could rely on time and luck for everything else.”

“I should always be happy,” replied Elinor, “to show any mark of my esteem and friendship for Mr. Ferrars; but do you not perceive that my interest on such an occasion would be perfectly unnecessary? He is brother to Mrs. John Dashwood—that must be recommendation enough to her husband.”

“I should always be happy,” replied Elinor, “to show any sign of my esteem and friendship for Mr. Ferrars; but don’t you see that my interest in this situation would be completely unnecessary? He is the brother of Mrs. John Dashwood—that should be recommendation enough to her husband.”

“But Mrs. John Dashwood would not much approve of Edward’s going into orders.”

“But Mrs. John Dashwood wouldn’t really approve of Edward becoming a clergyman.”

“Then I rather suspect that my interest would do very little.”

“Then I think my interest wouldn’t matter much.”

They were again silent for many minutes. At length Lucy exclaimed with a deep sigh,

They remained quiet for several minutes. Finally, Lucy exclaimed with a deep sigh,

“I believe it would be the wisest way to put an end to the business at once by dissolving the engagement. We seem so beset with difficulties on every side, that though it would make us miserable for a time, we should be happier perhaps in the end. But you will not give me your advice, Miss Dashwood?”

“I think the smartest move would be to end this right now by breaking off the engagement. We’re facing so many difficulties from all directions that even though it would make us unhappy for a while, we might be happier in the long run. But you won’t share your thoughts with me, Miss Dashwood?”

“No,” answered Elinor, with a smile, which concealed very agitated feelings, “on such a subject I certainly will not. You know very well that my opinion would have no weight with you, unless it were on the side of your wishes.”

“No,” Elinor replied with a smile that hid her very troubled feelings, “I definitely won't on that topic. You know that my opinion wouldn’t matter to you unless it aligned with what you want.”

“Indeed you wrong me,” replied Lucy, with great solemnity; “I know nobody of whose judgment I think so highly as I do of yours; and I do really believe, that if you was to say to me, ‘I advise you by all means to put an end to your engagement with Edward Ferrars, it will be more for the happiness of both of you,’ I should resolve upon doing it immediately.”

“Honestly, you're mistaken,” Lucy replied, very seriously. “I don’t know anyone whose opinion I respect as much as yours; and I truly believe that if you told me, ‘I strongly advise you to end your engagement with Edward Ferrars, it will be better for both of you,’ I would decide to do it right away.”

Elinor blushed for the insincerity of Edward’s future wife, and replied, “This compliment would effectually frighten me from giving any opinion on the subject had I formed one. It raises my influence much too high; the power of dividing two people so tenderly attached is too much for an indifferent person.”

Elinor blushed at the insincerity of Edward’s future wife and replied, “This compliment would definitely scare me away from sharing any opinion on the subject if I had one. It elevates my influence far too much; the ability to split apart two people who are so deeply attached is too much for someone who doesn’t care.”

“’Tis because you are an indifferent person,” said Lucy, with some pique, and laying a particular stress on those words, “that your judgment might justly have such weight with me. If you could be supposed to be biased in any respect by your own feelings, your opinion would not be worth having.”

“It's because you're such an indifferent person,” Lucy said, somewhat annoyed, and emphasizing those words, “that your judgment could justifiably carry weight with me. If there was any chance that your own feelings could bias you, your opinion wouldn't be valuable at all.”

Elinor thought it wisest to make no answer to this, lest they might provoke each other to an unsuitable increase of ease and unreserve; and was even partly determined never to mention the subject again. Another pause therefore of many minutes’ duration, succeeded this speech, and Lucy was still the first to end it.

Elinor thought it was best not to respond to this, so they wouldn't provoke each other into becoming too relaxed and open; she was even partly resolved never to bring up the topic again. Therefore, there was another pause lasting several minutes after this statement, and Lucy was still the first to break it.

“Shall you be in town this winter, Miss Dashwood?” said she with all her accustomary complacency.

“Will you be in town this winter, Miss Dashwood?” she asked with her usual self-satisfaction.

“Certainly not.”

“Definitely not.”

“I am sorry for that,” returned the other, while her eyes brightened at the information, “it would have gave me such pleasure to meet you there! But I dare say you will go for all that. To be sure, your brother and sister will ask you to come to them.”

“I’m sorry to hear that,” the other replied, her eyes lighting up at the news, “it would have given me so much pleasure to meet you there! But I bet you'll go anyway. Surely, your brother and sister will invite you to visit them.”

“It will not be in my power to accept their invitation if they do.”

“It won’t be possible for me to accept their invitation if they do.”

“How unlucky that is! I had quite depended upon meeting you there. Anne and me are to go the latter end of January to some relations who have been wanting us to visit them these several years! But I only go for the sake of seeing Edward. He will be there in February, otherwise London would have no charms for me; I have not spirits for it.”

"How unfortunate! I was really counting on meeting you there. Anne and I are going to visit some relatives at the end of January; they've wanted us to come for several years! But I'm only going to see Edward. He’ll be there in February; otherwise, London wouldn’t interest me at all; I just don’t have the energy for it."

Elinor was soon called to the card-table by the conclusion of the first rubber, and the confidential discourse of the two ladies was therefore at an end, to which both of them submitted without any reluctance, for nothing had been said on either side to make them dislike each other less than they had done before; and Elinor sat down to the card table with the melancholy persuasion that Edward was not only without affection for the person who was to be his wife; but that he had not even the chance of being tolerably happy in marriage, which sincere affection on her side would have given, for self-interest alone could induce a woman to keep a man to an engagement, of which she seemed so thoroughly aware that he was weary.

Elinor was soon called to the card table as the first game ended, and the private conversation between the two ladies came to a close. Both of them accepted this without any hesitation, as nothing had been said that made them feel better about each other than before. Elinor took her seat at the card table with a heavy heart, convinced that Edward not only lacked affection for the woman who was set to be his wife, but also had no real chance of being happy in their marriage. True affection from her side could have brought him some happiness, but she realized that only self-interest could keep a woman tied to a man in an engagement he seemed so completely tired of.

From this time the subject was never revived by Elinor, and when entered on by Lucy, who seldom missed an opportunity of introducing it, and was particularly careful to inform her confidante, of her happiness whenever she received a letter from Edward, it was treated by the former with calmness and caution, and dismissed as soon as civility would allow; for she felt such conversations to be an indulgence which Lucy did not deserve, and which were dangerous to herself.

From then on, Elinor never brought up the topic again, and whenever Lucy mentioned it—she rarely missed a chance to do so, especially when she wanted to share her excitement about receiving a letter from Edward—Elinor responded with restraint and carefulness, changing the subject as soon as it was polite to do so. She regarded these chats as a luxury Lucy didn’t merit and recognized they could be harmful to her own well-being.

The visit of the Miss Steeles at Barton Park was lengthened far beyond what the first invitation implied. Their favour increased; they could not be spared; Sir John would not hear of their going; and in spite of their numerous and long arranged engagements in Exeter, in spite of the absolute necessity of returning to fulfill them immediately, which was in full force at the end of every week, they were prevailed on to stay nearly two months at the park, and to assist in the due celebration of that festival which requires a more than ordinary share of private balls and large dinners to proclaim its importance.

The Miss Steeles' visit to Barton Park lasted much longer than the original invitation suggested. They became more popular; they couldn't be let go; Sir John insisted they stay; and despite their many prior commitments in Exeter, and the urgent need to return to meet them, which was clear at the end of each week, they were convinced to stay for almost two months at the park, participating in the proper celebration of a festival that demands an extra amount of private parties and big dinners to highlight its significance.

CHAPTER XXV.

Though Mrs. Jennings was in the habit of spending a large portion of the year at the houses of her children and friends, she was not without a settled habitation of her own. Since the death of her husband, who had traded with success in a less elegant part of the town, she had resided every winter in a house in one of the streets near Portman Square. Towards this home, she began on the approach of January to turn her thoughts, and thither she one day abruptly, and very unexpectedly by them, asked the elder Misses Dashwood to accompany her. Elinor, without observing the varying complexion of her sister, and the animated look which spoke no indifference to the plan, immediately gave a grateful but absolute denial for both, in which she believed herself to be speaking their united inclinations. The reason alleged was their determined resolution of not leaving their mother at that time of the year. Mrs. Jennings received the refusal with some surprise, and repeated her invitation immediately.

Though Mrs. Jennings often spent a lot of the year at the homes of her children and friends, she did have a permanent place of her own. Since her husband passed away, who had successfully run a business in a less fashionable area of town, she had been living every winter in a house on one of the streets close to Portman Square. As January approached, she started thinking about this home, and one day she unexpectedly asked the older Miss Dashwoods to join her. Elinor, not noticing her sister’s changing expression and the eager look that showed she was interested in the plan, immediately graciously but firmly declined for both of them, believing she was reflecting their shared feelings. The reason given was their firm decision not to leave their mother at that time of year. Mrs. Jennings was a bit surprised by the refusal and quickly repeated her invitation.

“Oh, Lord! I am sure your mother can spare you very well, and I do beg you will favour me with your company, for I’ve quite set my heart upon it. Don’t fancy that you will be any inconvenience to me, for I shan’t put myself at all out of my way for you. It will only be sending Betty by the coach, and I hope I can afford that. We three shall be able to go very well in my chaise; and when we are in town, if you do not like to go wherever I do, well and good, you may always go with one of my daughters. I am sure your mother will not object to it; for I have had such good luck in getting my own children off my hands that she will think me a very fit person to have the charge of you; and if I don’t get one of you at least well married before I have done with you, it shall not be my fault. I shall speak a good word for you to all the young men, you may depend upon it.”

“Oh, Lord! I’m sure your mom can manage just fine without you, and I really hope you’ll join me, because I’m really looking forward to it. Don’t worry about being a hassle for me; I won’t go out of my way at all. I’ll just send Betty by the coach, and I think I can manage that. The three of us will fit nicely in my carriage, and when we’re in town, if you don’t want to go wherever I go, that’s fine—you can always hang out with one of my daughters. I’m sure your mom won’t mind; I've had such good luck getting my own kids settled that she’ll think I’m a great person to look after you. And if I don’t see at least one of you well married before we’re done, it won’t be my fault. I’ll definitely put in a good word for you with all the young men, you can count on it.”

“I have a notion,” said Sir John, “that Miss Marianne would not object to such a scheme, if her elder sister would come into it. It is very hard indeed that she should not have a little pleasure, because Miss Dashwood does not wish it. So I would advise you two, to set off for town, when you are tired of Barton, without saying a word to Miss Dashwood about it.”

“I have an idea,” said Sir John, “that Miss Marianne wouldn’t mind such a plan, as long as her older sister is on board. It’s really unfair that she can’t have a bit of fun just because Miss Dashwood doesn’t want it. So I suggest you two head to town when you’re tired of Barton, without mentioning anything to Miss Dashwood.”

“Nay,” cried Mrs. Jennings, “I am sure I shall be monstrous glad of Miss Marianne’s company, whether Miss Dashwood will go or not, only the more the merrier say I, and I thought it would be more comfortable for them to be together; because, if they got tired of me, they might talk to one another, and laugh at my odd ways behind my back. But one or the other, if not both of them, I must have. Lord bless me! how do you think I can live poking by myself, I who have been always used till this winter to have Charlotte with me. Come, Miss Marianne, let us strike hands upon the bargain, and if Miss Dashwood will change her mind by and bye, why so much the better.”

“Nah,” exclaimed Mrs. Jennings, “I’m sure I’ll be really happy to have Miss Marianne’s company, whether Miss Dashwood wants to come or not. The more, the merrier, I say! I thought it would be more comfortable for them to be together because if they get tired of me, they can talk to each other and laugh at my quirky ways behind my back. But I need to have at least one of them, if not both! Goodness! How do you think I can stand being alone? I’ve always had Charlotte with me until this winter. Come on, Miss Marianne, let’s shake on it, and if Miss Dashwood changes her mind later, that would be even better.”

“I thank you, ma’am, sincerely thank you,” said Marianne, with warmth: “your invitation has insured my gratitude for ever, and it would give me such happiness, yes, almost the greatest happiness I am capable of, to be able to accept it. But my mother, my dearest, kindest mother,—I feel the justice of what Elinor has urged, and if she were to be made less happy, less comfortable by our absence—Oh! no, nothing should tempt me to leave her. It should not, must not be a struggle.”

“I really appreciate it, ma’am, truly,” said Marianne warmly. “Your invitation has earned my gratitude forever, and it would bring me so much joy, yes, almost the greatest joy I can imagine, to accept it. But my mother, my sweetest, kindest mother—I understand what Elinor has said is fair, and if our absence would make her less happy or comfortable—Oh! no, nothing could ever convince me to leave her. It should not, must not be a struggle.”

Mrs. Jennings repeated her assurance that Mrs. Dashwood could spare them perfectly well; and Elinor, who now understood her sister, and saw to what indifference to almost every thing else she was carried by her eagerness to be with Willoughby again, made no farther direct opposition to the plan, and merely referred it to her mother’s decision, from whom however she scarcely expected to receive any support in her endeavour to prevent a visit, which she could not approve of for Marianne, and which on her own account she had particular reasons to avoid. Whatever Marianne was desirous of, her mother would be eager to promote—she could not expect to influence the latter to cautiousness of conduct in an affair respecting which she had never been able to inspire her with distrust; and she dared not explain the motive of her own disinclination for going to London. That Marianne, fastidious as she was, thoroughly acquainted with Mrs. Jennings’ manners, and invariably disgusted by them, should overlook every inconvenience of that kind, should disregard whatever must be most wounding to her irritable feelings, in her pursuit of one object, was such a proof, so strong, so full, of the importance of that object to her, as Elinor, in spite of all that had passed, was not prepared to witness.

Mrs. Jennings reiterated that Mrs. Dashwood could manage just fine without them; and Elinor, who now understood her sister and recognized how much her eagerness to be with Willoughby was pushing her to ignore almost everything else, didn't resist the plan any further. She simply left it up to her mother to decide, although she didn’t expect to get any support in her efforts to stop a visit that she disapproved of for Marianne and that she personally had strong reasons to avoid. Whatever Marianne desired, their mother would be quick to support—Elinor couldn’t hope to influence her to be cautious in a matter for which she had never been able to instill any doubt. She also didn’t dare explain her own reasons for not wanting to go to London. It was remarkable that Marianne, as picky as she was and fully aware of Mrs. Jennings’ ways, and always finding them off-putting, could overlook all those discomforts and ignore anything that would typically hurt her sensitive feelings just to pursue one goal. This was such a strong indicator of how important that goal was to her that Elinor, despite everything that had happened, was not ready to witness it.

On being informed of the invitation, Mrs. Dashwood, persuaded that such an excursion would be productive of much amusement to both her daughters, and perceiving through all her affectionate attention to herself, how much the heart of Marianne was in it, would not hear of their declining the offer upon her account; insisted on their both accepting it directly; and then began to foresee, with her usual cheerfulness, a variety of advantages that would accrue to them all, from this separation.

When Mrs. Dashwood heard about the invitation, she was convinced that this trip would be a lot of fun for both her daughters. Noticing how much Marianne cared about it despite all her loving attention to her, she wouldn’t allow them to turn it down for her sake. She insisted they both accept it immediately and then, with her usual optimism, started to see many benefits that would come from this time apart for all of them.

“I am delighted with the plan,” she cried, “it is exactly what I could wish. Margaret and I shall be as much benefited by it as yourselves. When you and the Middletons are gone, we shall go on so quietly and happily together with our books and our music! You will find Margaret so improved when you come back again! I have a little plan of alteration for your bedrooms too, which may now be performed without any inconvenience to any one. It is very right that you should go to town; I would have every young woman of your condition in life acquainted with the manners and amusements of London. You will be under the care of a motherly good sort of woman, of whose kindness to you I can have no doubt. And in all probability you will see your brother, and whatever may be his faults, or the faults of his wife, when I consider whose son he is, I cannot bear to have you so wholly estranged from each other.”

“I’m so glad about the plan,” she exclaimed, “it’s exactly what I hoped for. Margaret and I will benefit just as much from it as you will. Once you and the Middletons leave, we’ll continue happily and peacefully together with our books and music! You’ll see how much Margaret has improved when you come back! I also have a small plan to rearrange your bedrooms, which can be done without bothering anyone. It’s absolutely right for you to go to town; I want every young woman in your position to experience the customs and entertainment of London. You’ll be taken care of by a really nice woman, and I have no doubt about her kindness towards you. Plus, you’ll probably get to see your brother; no matter his flaws or those of his wife, I can’t stand the thought of you being completely distant from each other, considering who he is.”

“Though with your usual anxiety for our happiness,” said Elinor, “you have been obviating every impediment to the present scheme which occurred to you, there is still one objection which, in my opinion, cannot be so easily removed.”

“Even though you’re your usual self, worrying about our happiness,” Elinor said, “you’ve been addressing every obstacle to our current plan that you could think of. Still, I believe there’s one issue that can’t be easily resolved.”

Marianne’s countenance sunk.

Marianne's expression dropped.

“And what,” said Mrs. Dashwood, “is my dear prudent Elinor going to suggest? What formidable obstacle is she now to bring forward? Do not let me hear a word about the expense of it.”

“And what,” said Mrs. Dashwood, “is my dear sensible Elinor going to suggest? What major issue is she going to bring up now? Don’t let me hear a word about the cost of it.”

“My objection is this; though I think very well of Mrs. Jennings’s heart, she is not a woman whose society can afford us pleasure, or whose protection will give us consequence.”

“My objection is this: even though I think highly of Mrs. Jennings's character, she's not someone whose company brings us joy or whose support gives us status.”

“That is very true,” replied her mother, “but of her society, separately from that of other people, you will scarcely have any thing at all, and you will almost always appear in public with Lady Middleton.”

"That's very true," her mother replied, "but on your own, you won't have much of a social life. You'll almost always be in public with Lady Middleton."

“If Elinor is frightened away by her dislike of Mrs. Jennings,” said Marianne, “at least it need not prevent MY accepting her invitation. I have no such scruples, and I am sure I could put up with every unpleasantness of that kind with very little effort.”

“If Elinor is scared off by her dislike of Mrs. Jennings,” said Marianne, “at least it won't stop ME from accepting her invitation. I have no such reservations, and I'm sure I could handle any awkwardness like that with minimal effort.”

Elinor could not help smiling at this display of indifference towards the manners of a person, to whom she had often had difficulty in persuading Marianne to behave with tolerable politeness; and resolved within herself, that if her sister persisted in going, she would go likewise, as she did not think it proper that Marianne should be left to the sole guidance of her own judgment, or that Mrs. Jennings should be abandoned to the mercy of Marianne for all the comfort of her domestic hours. To this determination she was the more easily reconciled, by recollecting that Edward Ferrars, by Lucy’s account, was not to be in town before February; and that their visit, without any unreasonable abridgement, might be previously finished.

Elinor couldn't help but smile at this display of indifference towards someone whose manners she had often struggled to get Marianne to treat with basic politeness. She decided that if her sister insisted on going, she would go too, as she felt it wasn't right for Marianne to be left to make her own choices completely, nor for Mrs. Jennings to be left at the mercy of Marianne during her domestic hours. She found it easier to accept this decision knowing that, according to Lucy, Edward Ferrars wouldn't be in town until February, and that their visit could realistically be completed before then.

“I will have you both go,” said Mrs. Dashwood; “these objections are nonsensical. You will have much pleasure in being in London, and especially in being together; and if Elinor would ever condescend to anticipate enjoyment, she would foresee it there from a variety of sources; she would, perhaps, expect some from improving her acquaintance with her sister-in-law’s family.”

“I want both of you to go,” said Mrs. Dashwood; “these objections are ridiculous. You’ll really enjoy being in London, especially being together; and if Elinor would just allow herself to look forward to having fun, she would see that there are many reasons to enjoy it there; she might even expect to improve her relationship with her sister-in-law’s family.”

Elinor had often wished for an opportunity of attempting to weaken her mother’s dependence on the attachment of Edward and herself, that the shock might be less when the whole truth were revealed, and now on this attack, though almost hopeless of success, she forced herself to begin her design by saying, as calmly as she could, “I like Edward Ferrars very much, and shall always be glad to see him; but as to the rest of the family, it is a matter of perfect indifference to me, whether I am ever known to them or not.”

Elinor had often hoped for a chance to lessen her mother’s reliance on the bond between Edward and herself, so the impact would be softer when the full truth came out. Now, during this difficult moment, though she felt it was unlikely to succeed, she pushed herself to start her plan by saying, as calmly as possible, “I really like Edward Ferrars and will always be happy to see him; but regarding the rest of the family, it doesn’t really matter to me whether they ever know me or not.”

Mrs. Dashwood smiled, and said nothing. Marianne lifted up her eyes in astonishment, and Elinor conjectured that she might as well have held her tongue.

Mrs. Dashwood smiled and said nothing. Marianne lifted her eyes in surprise, and Elinor thought that she might as well have kept quiet.

After very little farther discourse, it was finally settled that the invitation should be fully accepted. Mrs. Jennings received the information with a great deal of joy, and many assurances of kindness and care; nor was it a matter of pleasure merely to her. Sir John was delighted; for to a man, whose prevailing anxiety was the dread of being alone, the acquisition of two, to the number of inhabitants in London, was something. Even Lady Middleton took the trouble of being delighted, which was putting herself rather out of her way; and as for the Miss Steeles, especially Lucy, they had never been so happy in their lives as this intelligence made them.

After a little more discussion, it was finally decided that the invitation would be fully accepted. Mrs. Jennings received the news with a lot of joy and many promises of kindness and care. It was not just a matter of pleasure for her. Sir John was thrilled; for a man whose main worry was the fear of being alone, having two more people to join the population of London meant a lot. Even Lady Middleton made an effort to be happy about it, which was a bit out of her way; and as for the Miss Steeles, especially Lucy, they had never been so happy in their lives as they were with this news.

Elinor submitted to the arrangement which counteracted her wishes with less reluctance than she had expected to feel. With regard to herself, it was now a matter of unconcern whether she went to town or not, and when she saw her mother so thoroughly pleased with the plan, and her sister exhilarated by it in look, voice, and manner, restored to all her usual animation, and elevated to more than her usual gaiety, she could not be dissatisfied with the cause, and would hardly allow herself to distrust the consequence.

Elinor accepted the arrangement that went against her wishes with less hesitation than she had anticipated. For her, it was now unimportant whether she went to town or not, and when she saw her mother so happy with the plan and her sister brightened in appearance, voice, and demeanor, returning to her usual energy and even more cheerful than usual, she couldn’t bring herself to feel upset about the situation and was reluctant to doubt the outcome.

Marianne’s joy was almost a degree beyond happiness, so great was the perturbation of her spirits and her impatience to be gone. Her unwillingness to quit her mother was her only restorative to calmness; and at the moment of parting her grief on that score was excessive. Her mother’s affliction was hardly less, and Elinor was the only one of the three, who seemed to consider the separation as any thing short of eternal.

Marianne's joy was almost beyond happiness, such was the turmoil of her emotions and her eagerness to leave. Her reluctance to leave her mother was her only source of calm; and at the moment of parting, her sadness about it was overwhelming. Her mother's distress was hardly less, and Elinor was the only one of the three who seemed to view the separation as anything less than permanent.

Their departure took place in the first week in January. The Middletons were to follow in about a week. The Miss Steeles kept their station at the park, and were to quit it only with the rest of the family.

Their departure happened in the first week of January. The Middletons were set to leave about a week later. The Miss Steeles stayed at the park and would only leave with the rest of the family.

CHAPTER XXVI.

Elinor could not find herself in the carriage with Mrs. Jennings, and beginning a journey to London under her protection, and as her guest, without wondering at her own situation, so short had their acquaintance with that lady been, so wholly unsuited were they in age and disposition, and so many had been her objections against such a measure only a few days before! But these objections had all, with that happy ardour of youth which Marianne and her mother equally shared, been overcome or overlooked; and Elinor, in spite of every occasional doubt of Willoughby’s constancy, could not witness the rapture of delightful expectation which filled the whole soul and beamed in the eyes of Marianne, without feeling how blank was her own prospect, how cheerless her own state of mind in the comparison, and how gladly she would engage in the solicitude of Marianne’s situation to have the same animating object in view, the same possibility of hope. A short, a very short time however must now decide what Willoughby’s intentions were; in all probability he was already in town. Marianne’s eagerness to be gone declared her dependence on finding him there; and Elinor was resolved not only upon gaining every new light as to his character which her own observation or the intelligence of others could give her, but likewise upon watching his behaviour to her sister with such zealous attention, as to ascertain what he was and what he meant, before many meetings had taken place. Should the result of her observations be unfavourable, she was determined at all events to open the eyes of her sister; should it be otherwise, her exertions would be of a different nature—she must then learn to avoid every selfish comparison, and banish every regret which might lessen her satisfaction in the happiness of Marianne.

Elinor couldn’t believe she was in the carriage with Mrs. Jennings, starting a journey to London under her care and as her guest, without reflecting on her own situation. Their acquaintance had been so brief, they were so different in age and personality, and she had expressed so many objections to this very idea just a few days ago! Yet all those objections had been swept aside, thanks to the youthful enthusiasm that both Marianne and her mother shared. Despite her occasional doubts about Willoughby’s loyalty, Elinor couldn’t help but notice the pure joy and excitement radiating from Marianne. It made her acutely aware of her own bleak outlook and somber state of mind in comparison, and she wished she could share in the worries of Marianne’s situation, just to have the same inspiring goal in mind and the same hope. A very short time would soon reveal Willoughby’s intentions; he was likely already in town. Marianne’s eager desire to leave showed how much she relied on finding him there. Elinor was determined not only to gather any new insights about his character from her observations or what others might tell her, but also to closely watch how he treated her sister to figure out who he really was and what his intentions were, before they had too many encounters. If her observations turned out to be negative, she vowed to open her sister’s eyes to the truth; if not, her efforts would need to shift—she would then have to avoid any selfish comparisons and let go of any regrets that could dampen her happiness for Marianne.

They were three days on their journey, and Marianne’s behaviour as they travelled was a happy specimen of what future complaisance and companionableness to Mrs. Jennings might be expected to be. She sat in silence almost all the way, wrapt in her own meditations, and scarcely ever voluntarily speaking, except when any object of picturesque beauty within their view drew from her an exclamation of delight exclusively addressed to her sister. To atone for this conduct therefore, Elinor took immediate possession of the post of civility which she had assigned herself, behaved with the greatest attention to Mrs. Jennings, talked with her, laughed with her, and listened to her whenever she could; and Mrs. Jennings on her side treated them both with all possible kindness, was solicitous on every occasion for their ease and enjoyment, and only disturbed that she could not make them choose their own dinners at the inn, nor extort a confession of their preferring salmon to cod, or boiled fowls to veal cutlets. They reached town by three o’clock the third day, glad to be released, after such a journey, from the confinement of a carriage, and ready to enjoy all the luxury of a good fire.

They spent three days on their journey, and Marianne’s behavior during the trip was a perfect example of the future friendliness and companionship she would be expected to show to Mrs. Jennings. She sat in silence for almost the entire trip, lost in her own thoughts, and hardly ever spoke unless something beautiful caught her eye, prompting an exclamation of delight directed solely at her sister. To make up for this, Elinor took on the role of being polite, providing the attention she promised to Mrs. Jennings. She engaged her in conversation, laughed with her, and listened whenever she could; in return, Mrs. Jennings treated both of them with utmost kindness, caring about their comfort and enjoyment at every opportunity. The only thing that bothered her was that she could not let them choose their own meals at the inn or get them to admit whether they preferred salmon over cod, or boiled chicken over veal cutlets. They arrived in town by three o’clock on the third day, relieved to be free from the cramped carriage and eager to enjoy the comfort of a warm fire.

The house was handsome, and handsomely fitted up, and the young ladies were immediately put in possession of a very comfortable apartment. It had formerly been Charlotte’s, and over the mantelpiece still hung a landscape in coloured silks of her performance, in proof of her having spent seven years at a great school in town to some effect.

The house looked impressive and was nicely decorated, and the young women were quickly given a very comfortable room. It had previously belonged to Charlotte, and above the mantelpiece still hung a colorful silk landscape that she had created, proving that she had spent seven years in a prestigious school in the city to good effect.

As dinner was not to be ready in less than two hours from their arrival, Elinor determined to employ the interval in writing to her mother, and sat down for that purpose. In a few moments Marianne did the same. “I am writing home, Marianne,” said Elinor; “had not you better defer your letter for a day or two?”

As dinner wouldn't be ready for at least two hours after they arrived, Elinor decided to use the time to write to her mother and sat down to do that. After a few moments, Marianne did the same. “I’m writing home, Marianne,” Elinor said. “Wouldn't it be better to wait a day or two to write your letter?”

“I am not going to write to my mother,” replied Marianne, hastily, and as if wishing to avoid any farther inquiry. Elinor said no more; it immediately struck her that she must then be writing to Willoughby; and the conclusion which as instantly followed was, that, however mysteriously they might wish to conduct the affair, they must be engaged. This conviction, though not entirely satisfactory, gave her pleasure, and she continued her letter with greater alacrity. Marianne’s was finished in a very few minutes; in length it could be no more than a note; it was then folded up, sealed, and directed with eager rapidity. Elinor thought she could distinguish a large W in the direction; and no sooner was it complete than Marianne, ringing the bell, requested the footman who answered it to get that letter conveyed for her to the two-penny post. This decided the matter at once.

“I am not going to write to my mother,” Marianne replied quickly, as if trying to dodge any further questions. Elinor didn't say anything more; it immediately hit her that Marianne must be writing to Willoughby. The conclusion that followed was that, no matter how mysteriously they wanted to handle things, they must be engaged. This realization, though not entirely satisfying, brought her joy, and she continued her letter with more enthusiasm. Marianne finished hers in just a few minutes; it was only a note in length. She folded it up, sealed it, and addressed it with eager speed. Elinor thought she could see a large W in the address, and as soon as it was done, Marianne rang the bell and asked the footman who answered to send the letter to the two-penny post. This settled the matter right away.

Her spirits still continued very high; but there was a flutter in them which prevented their giving much pleasure to her sister, and this agitation increased as the evening drew on. She could scarcely eat any dinner, and when they afterwards returned to the drawing room, seemed anxiously listening to the sound of every carriage.

Her spirits were still very high, but there was a flutter that kept her from bringing much joy to her sister, and this nervousness grew as the evening went on. She could hardly eat any dinner, and when they later went back to the living room, she seemed to be anxiously listening for the sound of every carriage.

It was a great satisfaction to Elinor that Mrs. Jennings, by being much engaged in her own room, could see little of what was passing. The tea things were brought in, and already had Marianne been disappointed more than once by a rap at a neighbouring door, when a loud one was suddenly heard which could not be mistaken for one at any other house, Elinor felt secure of its announcing Willoughby’s approach, and Marianne, starting up, moved towards the door. Every thing was silent; this could not be borne many seconds; she opened the door, advanced a few steps towards the stairs, and after listening half a minute, returned into the room in all the agitation which a conviction of having heard him would naturally produce; in the ecstasy of her feelings at that instant she could not help exclaiming, “Oh, Elinor, it is Willoughby, indeed it is!” and seemed almost ready to throw herself into his arms, when Colonel Brandon appeared.

Elinor was really pleased that Mrs. Jennings, being busy in her own room, couldn’t see much of what was happening. The tea was served, and Marianne had already been let down more than once by a knock from a nearby door, when a loud one suddenly sounded that couldn’t be mistaken for anything from another house. Elinor felt sure it was a sign of Willoughby’s arrival, and Marianne, jumping up, headed for the door. Everything was quiet; she couldn’t stand it for long. She opened the door, took a few steps toward the stairs, and after listening for half a minute, she came back into the room all flustered, convinced she had heard him. Caught up in her excitement, she couldn’t help but exclaim, “Oh, Elinor, it is Willoughby, indeed it is!” and she looked almost ready to throw herself into his arms when Colonel Brandon appeared.

It was too great a shock to be borne with calmness, and she immediately left the room. Elinor was disappointed too; but at the same time her regard for Colonel Brandon ensured his welcome with her; and she felt particularly hurt that a man so partial to her sister should perceive that she experienced nothing but grief and disappointment in seeing him. She instantly saw that it was not unnoticed by him, that he even observed Marianne as she quitted the room, with such astonishment and concern, as hardly left him the recollection of what civility demanded towards herself.

It was too much of a shock to handle calmly, so she immediately left the room. Elinor was disappointed as well; however, her feelings for Colonel Brandon ensured he would be welcomed by her. She felt especially hurt that a man so fond of her sister would see only her grief and disappointment upon seeing him. She quickly realized that this did not go unnoticed by him—he even watched Marianne leave the room with such shock and concern that he barely remembered what politeness required of him toward her.

“Is your sister ill?” said he.

“Is your sister sick?” he asked.

Elinor answered in some distress that she was, and then talked of head-aches, low spirits, and over fatigues; and of every thing to which she could decently attribute her sister’s behaviour.

Elinor replied somewhat distressed that she was, and then mentioned headaches, low spirits, and exhaustion; and everything else she could reasonably attribute to her sister’s behavior.

He heard her with the most earnest attention, but seeming to recollect himself, said no more on the subject, and began directly to speak of his pleasure at seeing them in London, making the usual inquiries about their journey, and the friends they had left behind.

He listened to her with great focus, but apparently remembering himself, said no more on the topic and instead started talking about how happy he was to see them in London, asking the usual questions about their trip and the friends they had left behind.

In this calm kind of way, with very little interest on either side, they continued to talk, both of them out of spirits, and the thoughts of both engaged elsewhere. Elinor wished very much to ask whether Willoughby were then in town, but she was afraid of giving him pain by any enquiry after his rival; and at length, by way of saying something, she asked if he had been in London ever since she had seen him last. “Yes,” he replied, with some embarrassment, “almost ever since; I have been once or twice at Delaford for a few days, but it has never been in my power to return to Barton.”

In a calm and indifferent manner, they continued their conversation, both feeling down and distracted by their own thoughts. Elinor really wanted to ask if Willoughby was in town, but she worried that asking about his rival would upset him. Finally, trying to say something, she asked if he had been in London since she last saw him. “Yes,” he answered, a bit awkwardly, “almost the whole time; I’ve been to Delaford a couple of times for just a few days, but I haven’t been able to go back to Barton.”

This, and the manner in which it was said, immediately brought back to her remembrance all the circumstances of his quitting that place, with the uneasiness and suspicions they had caused to Mrs. Jennings, and she was fearful that her question had implied much more curiosity on the subject than she had ever felt.

This, along with how it was said, instantly reminded her of all the details surrounding his departure from that place, along with the worry and doubts it had caused for Mrs. Jennings, and she was concerned that her question had suggested far more curiosity about the matter than she had ever actually felt.

Mrs. Jennings soon came in. “Oh! Colonel,” said she, with her usual noisy cheerfulness, “I am monstrous glad to see you—sorry I could not come before—beg your pardon, but I have been forced to look about me a little, and settle my matters; for it is a long while since I have been at home, and you know one has always a world of little odd things to do after one has been away for any time; and then I have had Cartwright to settle with. Lord, I have been as busy as a bee ever since dinner! But pray, Colonel, how came you to conjure out that I should be in town today?”

Mrs. Jennings soon walked in. “Oh! Colonel,” she said with her typical lively cheerfulness, “I’m so glad to see you! Sorry I couldn’t come by earlier—I hope you don’t mind, but I had to take care of a few things and sort out my affairs. It’s been a while since I’ve been home, and you know there’s always a ton of little tasks to handle after being away for so long; plus, I had to deal with Cartwright. Honestly, I’ve been as busy as a bee ever since dinner! But tell me, Colonel, how did you know I would be in town today?”

“I had the pleasure of hearing it at Mr. Palmer’s, where I have been dining.”

“I had the pleasure of hearing it at Mr. Palmer’s, where I was having dinner.”

“Oh, you did; well, and how do they all do at their house? How does Charlotte do? I warrant you she is a fine size by this time.”

“Oh, you did; well, how is everyone at their place? How’s Charlotte doing? I bet she’s grown a lot by now.”

“Mrs. Palmer appeared quite well, and I am commissioned to tell you, that you will certainly see her to-morrow.”

“Mrs. Palmer looked great, and I’ve been asked to let you know that you will definitely see her tomorrow.”

“Ay, to be sure, I thought as much. Well, Colonel, I have brought two young ladies with me, you see—that is, you see but one of them now, but there is another somewhere. Your friend, Miss Marianne, too—which you will not be sorry to hear. I do not know what you and Mr. Willoughby will do between you about her. Ay, it is a fine thing to be young and handsome. Well! I was young once, but I never was very handsome—worse luck for me. However, I got a very good husband, and I don’t know what the greatest beauty can do more. Ah! poor man! he has been dead these eight years and better. But Colonel, where have you been to since we parted? And how does your business go on? Come, come, let’s have no secrets among friends.”

"Yes, I thought so. Well, Colonel, I've brought two young ladies with me, you see—well, you only see one right now, but there's another around somewhere. Your friend, Miss Marianne, too—which you won’t be sorry to hear. I don’t know what you and Mr. Willoughby will figure out about her. Yes, it's great to be young and good-looking. Well! I was young once, but I was never really good-looking—bad luck for me. Still, I married a really good man, and I don’t know what the most beautiful person could do that's better than that. Ah! poor man! he’s been gone for over eight years now. But Colonel, where have you been since we last saw each other? And how's your business going? Come on, let’s have no secrets among friends."

He replied with his accustomary mildness to all her inquiries, but without satisfying her in any. Elinor now began to make the tea, and Marianne was obliged to appear again.

He answered all her questions with his usual calmness, but did not satisfy her in any way. Elinor started making the tea, and Marianne had to show up again.

After her entrance, Colonel Brandon became more thoughtful and silent than he had been before, and Mrs. Jennings could not prevail on him to stay long. No other visitor appeared that evening, and the ladies were unanimous in agreeing to go early to bed.

After she arrived, Colonel Brandon became more deep in thought and quiet than he had been before, and Mrs. Jennings couldn't convince him to stay for long. No other guests showed up that evening, and the ladies all agreed to head to bed early.

Marianne rose the next morning with recovered spirits and happy looks. The disappointment of the evening before seemed forgotten in the expectation of what was to happen that day. They had not long finished their breakfast before Mrs. Palmer’s barouche stopped at the door, and in a few minutes she came laughing into the room: so delighted to see them all, that it was hard to say whether she received most pleasure from meeting her mother or the Miss Dashwoods again. So surprised at their coming to town, though it was what she had rather expected all along; so angry at their accepting her mother’s invitation after having declined her own, though at the same time she would never have forgiven them if they had not come!

Marianne got up the next morning feeling cheerful and looking happy. The disappointment from the night before seemed to fade away with the excitement of what was to come that day. They had barely finished their breakfast when Mrs. Palmer’s carriage pulled up to the door, and a few minutes later, she came laughing into the room. She was so thrilled to see everyone that it was hard to tell if she was more pleased to see her mother or the Miss Dashwoods again. She was surprised that they had come to town, even though she had kind of expected it all along; she was annoyed that they accepted her mother’s invitation after turning down hers, but at the same time, she would have been really upset if they hadn't come!

“Mr. Palmer will be so happy to see you,” said she; “What do you think he said when he heard of your coming with Mama? I forget what it was now, but it was something so droll!”

“Mr. Palmer is going to be so happy to see you,” she said. “Do you remember what he said when he found out you were coming with Mom? I can’t remember exactly, but it was something really funny!”

After an hour or two spent in what her mother called comfortable chat, or in other words, in every variety of inquiry concerning all their acquaintance on Mrs. Jennings’s side, and in laughter without cause on Mrs. Palmer’s, it was proposed by the latter that they should all accompany her to some shops where she had business that morning, to which Mrs. Jennings and Elinor readily consented, as having likewise some purchases to make themselves; and Marianne, though declining it at first was induced to go likewise.

After an hour or two of what her mother referred to as comfortable chatting, or in simpler terms, a variety of questions about all their acquaintances from Mrs. Jennings’s end, along with aimless laughter from Mrs. Palmer, Mrs. Palmer suggested that they all join her at some shops where she needed to run errands that morning. Mrs. Jennings and Elinor quickly agreed since they also had some shopping to do, and although Marianne hesitated at first, she was eventually convinced to go as well.

Wherever they went, she was evidently always on the watch. In Bond Street especially, where much of their business lay, her eyes were in constant inquiry; and in whatever shop the party were engaged, her mind was equally abstracted from every thing actually before them, from all that interested and occupied the others. Restless and dissatisfied every where, her sister could never obtain her opinion of any article of purchase, however it might equally concern them both: she received no pleasure from anything; was only impatient to be at home again, and could with difficulty govern her vexation at the tediousness of Mrs. Palmer, whose eye was caught by every thing pretty, expensive, or new; who was wild to buy all, could determine on none, and dawdled away her time in rapture and indecision.

Wherever they went, she was clearly always on alert. In Bond Street, especially, where much of their shopping took place, her eyes were constantly searching; and in whatever store the group was busy in, her mind was equally detached from everything in front of them, from all that interested and engaged the others. Restless and unhappy everywhere, her sister could never get her opinion on any item they considered buying, no matter how much it concerned them both: she found no enjoyment in anything; she just wanted to be home again and struggled to hide her annoyance at the slow pace of Mrs. Palmer, whose attention was caught by everything pretty, expensive, or new; who was eager to buy it all, could decide on nothing, and wasted her time in excitement and uncertainty.

It was late in the morning before they returned home; and no sooner had they entered the house than Marianne flew eagerly up stairs, and when Elinor followed, she found her turning from the table with a sorrowful countenance, which declared that no Willoughby had been there.

It was late in the morning when they got back home, and as soon as they walked in, Marianne rushed upstairs. When Elinor followed, she found her looking upset as she turned away from the table, which made it clear that Willoughby hadn't come by.

“Has no letter been left here for me since we went out?” said she to the footman who then entered with the parcels. She was answered in the negative. “Are you quite sure of it?” she replied. “Are you certain that no servant, no porter has left any letter or note?”

“Has no letter been left here for me since we went out?” she asked the footman who then came in with the parcels. He replied no. “Are you absolutely sure?” she said. “Are you certain that no servant or porter has dropped off any letter or note?”

The man replied that none had.

The man replied that no one had.

“How very odd!” said she, in a low and disappointed voice, as she turned away to the window.

“How strange!” she said in a low, disappointed voice as she turned away to the window.

“How odd, indeed!” repeated Elinor within herself, regarding her sister with uneasiness. “If she had not known him to be in town she would not have written to him, as she did; she would have written to Combe Magna; and if he is in town, how odd that he should neither come nor write! Oh! my dear mother, you must be wrong in permitting an engagement between a daughter so young, a man so little known, to be carried on in so doubtful, so mysterious a manner! I long to inquire; and how will my interference be borne.”

“How strange, really!” Elinor thought to herself, looking at her sister with concern. “If she hadn’t known he was in town, she wouldn’t have reached out to him like that; she would have sent a letter to Combe Magna. And if he is in town, how strange that he hasn’t come by or even written! Oh! dear mother, you must be mistaken to allow an engagement between such a young daughter and such a little-known man to proceed in such a questionable, mysterious way! I really want to ask; I wonder how my interference will be received.”

She determined, after some consideration, that if appearances continued many days longer as unpleasant as they now were, she would represent in the strongest manner to her mother the necessity of some serious enquiry into the affair.

She decided, after some thought, that if things stayed as unpleasant as they were right now for much longer, she would strongly suggest to her mother the need for a serious investigation into the matter.

Mrs. Palmer and two elderly ladies of Mrs. Jennings’s intimate acquaintance, whom she had met and invited in the morning, dined with them. The former left them soon after tea to fulfill her evening engagements; and Elinor was obliged to assist in making a whist table for the others. Marianne was of no use on these occasions, as she would never learn the game; but though her time was therefore at her own disposal, the evening was by no means more productive of pleasure to her than to Elinor, for it was spent in all the anxiety of expectation and the pain of disappointment. She sometimes endeavoured for a few minutes to read; but the book was soon thrown aside, and she returned to the more interesting employment of walking backwards and forwards across the room, pausing for a moment whenever she came to the window, in hopes of distinguishing the long-expected rap.

Mrs. Palmer and two elderly ladies, who were close friends of Mrs. Jennings and whom she had invited that morning, joined them for dinner. Mrs. Palmer left soon after tea to attend to her evening plans, and Elinor had to help set up a whist table for the others. Marianne was of no help during these times since she would never learn the game; however, even though she had free time, her evening was just as unenjoyable as Elinor's because it was filled with the anxiety of waiting and the pain of disappointment. Sometimes she tried to read for a few minutes, but she quickly tossed the book aside and returned to pacing back and forth across the room, stopping briefly at the window each time in hopes of hearing the long-awaited knock.

CHAPTER XXVII.

“If this open weather holds much longer,” said Mrs. Jennings, when they met at breakfast the following morning, “Sir John will not like leaving Barton next week; ’tis a sad thing for sportsmen to lose a day’s pleasure. Poor souls! I always pity them when they do; they seem to take it so much to heart.”

“If this nice weather sticks around much longer,” said Mrs. Jennings when they met for breakfast the next morning, “Sir John won’t like leaving Barton next week; it’s a shame for sports enthusiasts to miss out on a day of fun. Poor things! I always feel for them when that happens; they really seem to take it to heart.”

“That is true,” cried Marianne, in a cheerful voice, and walking to the window as she spoke, to examine the day. “I had not thought of that. This weather will keep many sportsmen in the country.”

“That’s true,” Marianne exclaimed cheerfully, walking to the window as she spoke to check out the day. “I hadn’t thought about that. This weather will keep a lot of sports enthusiasts in the country.”

It was a lucky recollection, all her good spirits were restored by it. “It is charming weather for them indeed,” she continued, as she sat down to the breakfast table with a happy countenance. “How much they must enjoy it! But” (with a little return of anxiety) “it cannot be expected to last long. At this time of the year, and after such a series of rain, we shall certainly have very little more of it. Frosts will soon set in, and in all probability with severity. In another day or two perhaps; this extreme mildness can hardly last longer—nay, perhaps it may freeze tonight!”

It was a fortunate memory, and it lifted her spirits completely. “The weather is lovely for them,” she said, sitting down at the breakfast table with a bright smile. “They must be enjoying it so much! But” (with a hint of worry) “it can’t be expected to last long. At this time of year, especially after so much rain, we probably won't get much more of it. The frost will arrive soon, and likely it will be harsh. Maybe in a day or two; this unusually mild weather can’t stick around much longer—actually, it might even freeze tonight!”

“At any rate,” said Elinor, wishing to prevent Mrs. Jennings from seeing her sister’s thoughts as clearly as she did, “I dare say we shall have Sir John and Lady Middleton in town by the end of next week.”

“At any rate,” said Elinor, hoping to keep Mrs. Jennings from understanding her sister’s thoughts as clearly as she did, “I’m sure we’ll have Sir John and Lady Middleton in town by the end of next week.”

“Ay, my dear, I’ll warrant you we do. Mary always has her own way.”

"Ay, my dear, I bet we do. Mary always has her own way."

“And now,” silently conjectured Elinor, “she will write to Combe by this day’s post.”

“And now,” Elinor silently thought, “she will write to Combe in today’s mail.”

But if she did, the letter was written and sent away with a privacy which eluded all her watchfulness to ascertain the fact. Whatever the truth of it might be, and far as Elinor was from feeling thorough contentment about it, yet while she saw Marianne in spirits, she could not be very uncomfortable herself. And Marianne was in spirits; happy in the mildness of the weather, and still happier in her expectation of a frost.

But if she did, the letter was written and sent away without her noticing, despite all her efforts to find out. Whatever the truth was, and even though Elinor wasn’t completely at ease about it, she couldn’t feel too uneasy as long as she saw Marianne in good spirits. And Marianne was in good spirits; enjoying the mild weather, and even more excited about the prospect of frost.

The morning was chiefly spent in leaving cards at the houses of Mrs. Jennings’s acquaintance to inform them of her being in town; and Marianne was all the time busy in observing the direction of the wind, watching the variations of the sky and imagining an alteration in the air.

The morning was mostly spent dropping off cards at the homes of Mrs. Jennings's friends to let them know she was in town; meanwhile, Marianne was continually focused on the direction of the wind, monitoring the changes in the sky, and envisioning a shift in the atmosphere.

“Don’t you find it colder than it was in the morning, Elinor? There seems to me a very decided difference. I can hardly keep my hands warm even in my muff. It was not so yesterday, I think. The clouds seem parting too, the sun will be out in a moment, and we shall have a clear afternoon.”

“Don’t you think it feels colder than it did this morning, Elinor? I definitely notice a big difference. I can barely keep my hands warm, even in my muff. I don’t remember it being like this yesterday. The clouds seem to be breaking apart too; the sun will be out any minute, and we’ll have a clear afternoon.”

Elinor was alternately diverted and pained; but Marianne persevered, and saw every night in the brightness of the fire, and every morning in the appearance of the atmosphere, the certain symptoms of approaching frost.

Elinor was both amused and hurt; but Marianne kept insisting, seeing every night in the glow of the fire, and every morning in the look of the sky, clear signs that cold weather was coming.

The Miss Dashwoods had no greater reason to be dissatisfied with Mrs. Jennings’s style of living, and set of acquaintance, than with her behaviour to themselves, which was invariably kind. Every thing in her household arrangements was conducted on the most liberal plan, and excepting a few old city friends, whom, to Lady Middleton’s regret, she had never dropped, she visited no one to whom an introduction could at all discompose the feelings of her young companions. Pleased to find herself more comfortably situated in that particular than she had expected, Elinor was very willing to compound for the want of much real enjoyment from any of their evening parties, which, whether at home or abroad, formed only for cards, could have little to amuse her.

The Dashwood sisters had no real reason to be unhappy with Mrs. Jennings’s way of life or her circle of friends, other than her always kind behavior towards them. Everything in her household was run very liberally, and apart from a few longtime city friends—whom Lady Middleton regrettably had never let go—she didn’t visit anyone whose introduction might upset her young companions. Elinor was glad to find herself in a better situation than she had anticipated and was willing to overlook the lack of real enjoyment from their evening gatherings, which, whether at home or elsewhere, mainly revolved around card games and offered little entertainment for her.

Colonel Brandon, who had a general invitation to the house, was with them almost every day; he came to look at Marianne and talk to Elinor, who often derived more satisfaction from conversing with him than from any other daily occurrence, but who saw at the same time with much concern his continued regard for her sister. She feared it was a strengthening regard. It grieved her to see the earnestness with which he often watched Marianne, and his spirits were certainly worse than when at Barton.

Colonel Brandon, who was always welcome at their house, visited them nearly every day; he came to see Marianne and talk to Elinor, who often found more joy in their conversations than in anything else happening in her life. However, she couldn’t help but feel worried about his growing affection for her sister. She feared it was becoming stronger. It saddened her to watch how intently he often observed Marianne, and his mood was definitely worse than when he was at Barton.

About a week after their arrival, it became certain that Willoughby was also arrived. His card was on the table when they came in from the morning’s drive.

About a week after they arrived, it was clear that Willoughby had also arrived. His card was on the table when they walked in from the morning drive.

“Good God!” cried Marianne, “he has been here while we were out.” Elinor, rejoiced to be assured of his being in London, now ventured to say, “Depend upon it, he will call again tomorrow.” But Marianne seemed hardly to hear her, and on Mrs. Jennings’s entrance, escaped with the precious card.

“Good God!” exclaimed Marianne, “he has been here while we were out.” Elinor, pleased to know he was in London, now dared to say, “You can count on it, he will call again tomorrow.” But Marianne seemed barely to listen, and when Mrs. Jennings entered, she quickly took the precious card and left.

This event, while it raised the spirits of Elinor, restored to those of her sister all, and more than all, their former agitation. From this moment her mind was never quiet; the expectation of seeing him every hour of the day, made her unfit for any thing. She insisted on being left behind, the next morning, when the others went out.

This event, while it lifted Elinor's spirits, brought back all and even more of her sister's previous agitation. From that moment on, her mind was never at ease; the thought of seeing him every hour of the day made her unable to focus on anything else. She insisted on staying behind the next morning when the others went out.

Elinor’s thoughts were full of what might be passing in Berkeley Street during their absence; but a moment’s glance at her sister when they returned was enough to inform her, that Willoughby had paid no second visit there. A note was just then brought in, and laid on the table.

Elinor was preoccupied with thoughts about what might have been happening on Berkeley Street while they were away; however, just one quick look at her sister when they got back was enough to let her know that Willoughby hadn’t made a second visit there. At that moment, a note was brought in and placed on the table.

“For me!” cried Marianne, stepping hastily forward.

“For me!” exclaimed Marianne, stepping quickly forward.

“No, ma’am, for my mistress.”

“No, ma’am, for my boss.”

But Marianne, not convinced, took it instantly up.

But Marianne, unconvinced, picked it up right away.

“It is indeed for Mrs. Jennings; how provoking!”

"It really is for Mrs. Jennings; how annoying!"

“You are expecting a letter, then?” said Elinor, unable to be longer silent.

“You're expecting a letter, right?” Elinor said, unable to stay quiet any longer.

“Yes, a little—not much.”

“Yes, a bit—not a lot.”

After a short pause. “You have no confidence in me, Marianne.”

After a brief pause, he said, “You don’t have any confidence in me, Marianne.”

“Nay, Elinor, this reproach from you—you who have confidence in no one!”

“Nah, Elinor, this accusation from you—you who trust no one!”

“Me!” returned Elinor in some confusion; “indeed, Marianne, I have nothing to tell.”

“Me!” Elinor replied, a bit confused. “Honestly, Marianne, I have nothing to share.”

“Nor I,” answered Marianne with energy, “our situations then are alike. We have neither of us any thing to tell; you, because you do not communicate, and I, because I conceal nothing.”

“Me neither,” replied Marianne passionately, “our situations are the same. Neither of us has anything to share; you, because you don’t open up, and I, because I’m not hiding anything.”

Elinor, distressed by this charge of reserve in herself, which she was not at liberty to do away, knew not how, under such circumstances, to press for greater openness in Marianne.

Elinor, upset by this accusation of being reserved, which she couldn't change, didn't know how to encourage Marianne to be more open in such a situation.

Mrs. Jennings soon appeared, and the note being given her, she read it aloud. It was from Lady Middleton, announcing their arrival in Conduit Street the night before, and requesting the company of her mother and cousins the following evening. Business on Sir John’s part, and a violent cold on her own, prevented their calling in Berkeley Street. The invitation was accepted; but when the hour of appointment drew near, necessary as it was in common civility to Mrs. Jennings, that they should both attend her on such a visit, Elinor had some difficulty in persuading her sister to go, for still she had seen nothing of Willoughby; and therefore was not more indisposed for amusement abroad, than unwilling to run the risk of his calling again in her absence.

Mrs. Jennings soon showed up, and after receiving the note, she read it aloud. It was from Lady Middleton, informing them that they had arrived in Conduit Street the night before and inviting her mother and cousins to join them the following evening. Due to Sir John’s business and her own bad cold, they couldn’t visit Berkeley Street. They accepted the invitation; however, as the time approached, it was essential for both of them to accompany Mrs. Jennings on such a visit out of common courtesy, Elinor had a hard time convincing her sister to go. Her sister still hadn’t seen Willoughby, making her not only totally disinterested in going out but also hesitant to risk him visiting again while she was away.

Elinor found, when the evening was over, that disposition is not materially altered by a change of abode, for although scarcely settled in town, Sir John had contrived to collect around him, nearly twenty young people, and to amuse them with a ball. This was an affair, however, of which Lady Middleton did not approve. In the country, an unpremeditated dance was very allowable; but in London, where the reputation of elegance was more important and less easily attained, it was risking too much for the gratification of a few girls, to have it known that Lady Middleton had given a small dance of eight or nine couple, with two violins, and a mere side-board collation.

Elinor realized by the end of the evening that a change of scenery doesn't really change people's feelings. Even though they had just moved to town, Sir John had managed to gather nearly twenty young people and entertain them with a dance. However, Lady Middleton did not approve of this event. In the countryside, an impromptu dance was perfectly fine; but in London, where the standards of elegance were more significant and harder to achieve, it was too risky to let it be known that Lady Middleton hosted a small gathering with eight or nine couples, two violins, and just a simple snack.

Mr. and Mrs. Palmer were of the party; from the former, whom they had not seen before since their arrival in town, as he was careful to avoid the appearance of any attention to his mother-in-law, and therefore never came near her, they received no mark of recognition on their entrance. He looked at them slightly, without seeming to know who they were, and merely nodded to Mrs. Jennings from the other side of the room. Marianne gave one glance round the apartment as she entered: it was enough—he was not there—and she sat down, equally ill-disposed to receive or communicate pleasure. After they had been assembled about an hour, Mr. Palmer sauntered towards the Miss Dashwoods to express his surprise on seeing them in town, though Colonel Brandon had been first informed of their arrival at his house, and he had himself said something very droll on hearing that they were to come.

Mr. and Mrs. Palmer were part of the group; from Mr. Palmer, whom they hadn't seen since arriving in town because he was careful to avoid drawing attention to his mother-in-law and therefore never approached her, they received no greeting upon entering. He glanced at them briefly, not appearing to recognize them, and simply nodded to Mrs. Jennings from across the room. Marianne took one quick look around the room as she walked in: that was enough—he wasn't there—and she sat down, equally disinterested in receiving or sharing any happiness. After they had been gathered for about an hour, Mr. Palmer strolled over to the Miss Dashwoods to express his surprise at seeing them in town, even though Colonel Brandon had been the first to hear about their arrival at his house, and he had made a very funny comment upon learning they were coming.

“I thought you were both in Devonshire,” said he.

“I thought you both were in Devon.”

“Did you?” replied Elinor.

"Did you?" Elinor replied.

“When do you go back again?”

“When are you going back again?”

“I do not know.” And thus ended their discourse.

“I don’t know.” And that concluded their conversation.

Never had Marianne been so unwilling to dance in her life, as she was that evening, and never so much fatigued by the exercise. She complained of it as they returned to Berkeley Street.

Never had Marianne been so unwilling to dance in her life as she was that evening, and never had she felt so tired from it. She complained about it as they walked back to Berkeley Street.

“Aye, aye,” said Mrs. Jennings, “we know the reason of all that very well; if a certain person who shall be nameless, had been there, you would not have been a bit tired: and to say the truth it was not very pretty of him not to give you the meeting when he was invited.”

“Yeah, yeah,” said Mrs. Jennings, “we know exactly why that happened; if a certain someone who shall remain unnamed had been there, you wouldn’t have been at all tired: and honestly, it wasn’t very nice of him not to show up when he was invited.”

“Invited!” cried Marianne.

"Invited!" shouted Marianne.

“So my daughter Middleton told me, for it seems Sir John met him somewhere in the street this morning.” Marianne said no more, but looked exceedingly hurt. Impatient in this situation to be doing something that might lead to her sister’s relief, Elinor resolved to write the next morning to her mother, and hoped by awakening her fears for the health of Marianne, to procure those inquiries which had been so long delayed; and she was still more eagerly bent on this measure by perceiving after breakfast on the morrow, that Marianne was again writing to Willoughby, for she could not suppose it to be to any other person.

“So my daughter Middleton told me that Sir John ran into him somewhere in the street this morning.” Marianne said nothing more but looked really hurt. Feeling impatient and wanting to do something that might help her sister, Elinor decided to write to her mother the next morning. She hoped to spark her mother’s concerns about Marianne’s health, which would lead to the inquiries that had been postponed for so long. She was even more determined to take this step when she noticed the next morning after breakfast that Marianne was once again writing to Willoughby, as she couldn’t imagine it was for anyone else.

About the middle of the day, Mrs. Jennings went out by herself on business, and Elinor began her letter directly, while Marianne, too restless for employment, too anxious for conversation, walked from one window to the other, or sat down by the fire in melancholy meditation. Elinor was very earnest in her application to her mother, relating all that had passed, her suspicions of Willoughby’s inconstancy, urging her by every plea of duty and affection to demand from Marianne an account of her real situation with respect to him.

About midday, Mrs. Jennings went out alone to take care of some business, and Elinor started her letter right away, while Marianne, too restless to focus on anything and too eager for conversation, walked from one window to the other or sat by the fire lost in thought. Elinor was deeply focused on her letter to her mother, sharing everything that had happened, her doubts about Willoughby’s loyalty, and urging her with all the reasons of duty and love to ask Marianne for the truth about her relationship with him.

Her letter was scarcely finished, when a rap foretold a visitor, and Colonel Brandon was announced. Marianne, who had seen him from the window, and who hated company of any kind, left the room before he entered it. He looked more than usually grave, and though expressing satisfaction at finding Miss Dashwood alone, as if he had somewhat in particular to tell her, sat for some time without saying a word. Elinor, persuaded that he had some communication to make in which her sister was concerned, impatiently expected its opening. It was not the first time of her feeling the same kind of conviction; for, more than once before, beginning with the observation of “your sister looks unwell to-day,” or “your sister seems out of spirits,” he had appeared on the point, either of disclosing, or of inquiring, something particular about her. After a pause of several minutes, their silence was broken, by his asking her in a voice of some agitation, when he was to congratulate her on the acquisition of a brother? Elinor was not prepared for such a question, and having no answer ready, was obliged to adopt the simple and common expedient, of asking what he meant? He tried to smile as he replied, “your sister’s engagement to Mr. Willoughby is very generally known.”

Her letter was barely finished when a knock announced a visitor, and Colonel Brandon was announced. Marianne, who had seen him from the window and who disliked any kind of company, left the room before he entered. He looked more serious than usual, and although he seemed pleased to find Miss Dashwood alone, as if he had something specific to tell her, he sat in silence for a while. Elinor, convinced he had some news regarding her sister, anxiously waited for him to speak. This wasn’t the first time she felt this way; he had previously started with comments like, “your sister looks unwell today” or “your sister seems down,” indicating he was about to reveal something important about her. After several minutes of silence, he broke it by asking her, somewhat nervously, when he could congratulate her on gaining a brother. Elinor was caught off guard by such a question and, without a ready answer, resorted to the straightforward approach of asking what he meant. He attempted to smile as he responded, “your sister’s engagement to Mr. Willoughby is quite widely known.”

“It cannot be generally known,” returned Elinor, “for her own family do not know it.”

“It can't be widely known,” Elinor replied, “since her own family doesn’t know about it.”

He looked surprised and said, “I beg your pardon, I am afraid my inquiry has been impertinent; but I had not supposed any secrecy intended, as they openly correspond, and their marriage is universally talked of.”

He looked surprised and said, “I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to be rude; I just didn’t think there was any secrecy intended since they correspond openly, and everyone is talking about their marriage.”

“How can that be? By whom can you have heard it mentioned?”

"How is that possible? Who could have told you about it?"

“By many—by some of whom you know nothing, by others with whom you are most intimate, Mrs. Jennings, Mrs. Palmer, and the Middletons. But still I might not have believed it, for where the mind is perhaps rather unwilling to be convinced, it will always find something to support its doubts, if I had not, when the servant let me in today, accidentally seen a letter in his hand, directed to Mr. Willoughby in your sister’s writing. I came to inquire, but I was convinced before I could ask the question. Is every thing finally settled? Is it impossible to—? But I have no right, and I could have no chance of succeeding. Excuse me, Miss Dashwood. I believe I have been wrong in saying so much, but I hardly know what to do, and on your prudence I have the strongest dependence. Tell me that it is all absolutely resolved on, that any attempt, that in short concealment, if concealment be possible, is all that remains.”

"By many people—some you don't know at all, and others you are very close to, like Mrs. Jennings, Mrs. Palmer, and the Middletons. But honestly, I might not have believed it, because when the mind is hesitant to accept something, it can always find reasons to doubt. I only became convinced when the servant let me in today and I happened to see a letter in his hand, addressed to Mr. Willoughby and written in your sister's handwriting. I came to ask about it, but I was already convinced before I could even speak. Is everything finally settled? Is it impossible to—? But I really have no right to ask, and I wouldn't have any chance of succeeding. I'm sorry, Miss Dashwood. I realize I've said too much, but I hardly know what to do, and I really rely on your judgment. Please tell me it’s all completely decided, that any attempt—if hiding it is possible—would be the only thing left to do."

These words, which conveyed to Elinor a direct avowal of his love for her sister, affected her very much. She was not immediately able to say anything, and even when her spirits were recovered, she debated for a short time, on the answer it would be most proper to give. The real state of things between Willoughby and her sister was so little known to herself, that in endeavouring to explain it, she might be as liable to say too much as too little. Yet as she was convinced that Marianne’s affection for Willoughby, could leave no hope of Colonel Brandon’s success, whatever the event of that affection might be, and at the same time wished to shield her conduct from censure, she thought it most prudent and kind, after some consideration, to say more than she really knew or believed. She acknowledged, therefore, that though she had never been informed by themselves of the terms on which they stood with each other, of their mutual affection she had no doubt, and of their correspondence she was not astonished to hear.

These words made it clear to Elinor that he was openly declaring his love for her sister, and they had a significant impact on her. She couldn't respond right away, and even once she regained her composure, she took a moment to consider what the most appropriate answer would be. She was so unclear about the true situation between Willoughby and her sister that trying to explain it might lead her to say too much or too little. However, knowing that Marianne’s feelings for Willoughby would undoubtedly eliminate any chance of Colonel Brandon succeeding, regardless of what happened with those feelings, and wanting to protect her sister from criticism, she decided it was best and kindest, after some thought, to say more than she truly knew or believed. So, she admitted that even though she hadn’t heard directly from them about their relationship, she had no doubt about their mutual affection and wasn’t surprised to learn about their correspondence.

He listened to her with silent attention, and on her ceasing to speak, rose directly from his seat, and after saying in a voice of emotion, “to your sister I wish all imaginable happiness; to Willoughby that he may endeavour to deserve her,”—took leave, and went away.

He listened to her quietly, and when she stopped speaking, he got up from his seat and, with an emotional voice, said, “I wish your sister all the happiness in the world; to Willoughby, I hope he tries to be worthy of her,”—then took his leave and left.

Elinor derived no comfortable feelings from this conversation, to lessen the uneasiness of her mind on other points; she was left, on the contrary, with a melancholy impression of Colonel Brandon’s unhappiness, and was prevented even from wishing it removed, by her anxiety for the very event that must confirm it.

Elinor didn’t feel any comfort from this conversation to ease her mind about other issues; instead, she was left with a sad impression of Colonel Brandon’s unhappiness and couldn’t even wish for it to change because of her worry over the very event that would confirm it.

CHAPTER XXVIII.

Nothing occurred during the next three or four days, to make Elinor regret what she had done, in applying to her mother; for Willoughby neither came nor wrote. They were engaged about the end of that time to attend Lady Middleton to a party, from which Mrs. Jennings was kept away by the indisposition of her youngest daughter; and for this party, Marianne, wholly dispirited, careless of her appearance, and seeming equally indifferent whether she went or staid, prepared, without one look of hope or one expression of pleasure. She sat by the drawing-room fire after tea, till the moment of Lady Middleton’s arrival, without once stirring from her seat, or altering her attitude, lost in her own thoughts, and insensible of her sister’s presence; and when at last they were told that Lady Middleton waited for them at the door, she started as if she had forgotten that any one was expected.

Nothing happened over the next three or four days to make Elinor regret reaching out to her mother; Willoughby neither came nor wrote. They were scheduled to go with Lady Middleton to a party around that time, from which Mrs. Jennings was absent due to her youngest daughter's illness. For this party, Marianne, completely downcast, indifferent to her appearance, and seemingly unconcerned whether she went or stayed, got ready without a hint of hope or joy. She sat by the drawing-room fire after tea until the moment of Lady Middleton’s arrival, not moving from her seat or changing her position, lost in her thoughts and unaware of her sister’s presence. When they finally heard that Lady Middleton was waiting for them at the door, she jumped as if she had forgotten that anyone was coming.

They arrived in due time at the place of destination, and as soon as the string of carriages before them would allow, alighted, ascended the stairs, heard their names announced from one landing-place to another in an audible voice, and entered a room splendidly lit up, quite full of company, and insufferably hot. When they had paid their tribute of politeness by curtsying to the lady of the house, they were permitted to mingle in the crowd, and take their share of the heat and inconvenience, to which their arrival must necessarily add. After some time spent in saying little or doing less, Lady Middleton sat down to Cassino, and as Marianne was not in spirits for moving about, she and Elinor luckily succeeding to chairs, placed themselves at no great distance from the table.

They arrived on time at their destination, and as soon as the line of carriages in front of them allowed, they got out, climbed the stairs, heard their names announced from one landing to another in a clear voice, and entered a brightly lit room that was full of guests and unbearably hot. After they had politely curtsied to the lady of the house, they were allowed to mingle in the crowd and share in the heat and discomfort that their arrival would inevitably increase. After spending some time saying little and doing even less, Lady Middleton sat down to play Cassino, and since Marianne wasn't in the mood to move around, she and Elinor managed to find chairs and settled not too far from the table.

They had not remained in this manner long, before Elinor perceived Willoughby, standing within a few yards of them, in earnest conversation with a very fashionable looking young woman. She soon caught his eye, and he immediately bowed, but without attempting to speak to her, or to approach Marianne, though he could not but see her; and then continued his discourse with the same lady. Elinor turned involuntarily to Marianne, to see whether it could be unobserved by her. At that moment she first perceived him, and her whole countenance glowing with sudden delight, she would have moved towards him instantly, had not her sister caught hold of her.

They hadn't been like this for long before Elinor noticed Willoughby, standing just a few yards away, deep in conversation with a very fashionable young woman. She quickly caught his eye, and he immediately bowed, but he didn’t try to speak to her or approach Marianne, even though he must have seen her; he then went back to talking with the same lady. Elinor turned instinctively to Marianne to see if she had noticed. At that moment, she finally saw him, and her whole face lit up with sudden joy. She would have rushed over to him right away if her sister hadn't grabbed her.

“Good heavens!” she exclaimed, “he is there—he is there—Oh! why does he not look at me? why cannot I speak to him?”

“Good heavens!” she exclaimed, “he’s there—he’s there—Oh! why doesn’t he look at me? why can’t I speak to him?”

“Pray, pray be composed,” cried Elinor, “and do not betray what you feel to every body present. Perhaps he has not observed you yet.”

“Please, please stay calm,” exclaimed Elinor, “and don’t reveal what you’re feeling to everyone here. Maybe he hasn’t noticed you yet.”

This however was more than she could believe herself; and to be composed at such a moment was not only beyond the reach of Marianne, it was beyond her wish. She sat in an agony of impatience which affected every feature.

This, however, was more than she could believe; and staying calm at that moment was not only beyond Marianne's ability, it was beyond what she even wanted. She sat in agonizing impatience that affected every part of her face.

At last he turned round again, and regarded them both; she started up, and pronouncing his name in a tone of affection, held out her hand to him. He approached, and addressing himself rather to Elinor than Marianne, as if wishing to avoid her eye, and determined not to observe her attitude, inquired in a hurried manner after Mrs. Dashwood, and asked how long they had been in town. Elinor was robbed of all presence of mind by such an address, and was unable to say a word. But the feelings of her sister were instantly expressed. Her face was crimsoned over, and she exclaimed, in a voice of the greatest emotion, “Good God! Willoughby, what is the meaning of this? Have you not received my letters? Will you not shake hands with me?”

At last, he turned around again and looked at both of them; she jumped up and, saying his name with affection, reached out her hand to him. He stepped closer, addressing Elinor more than Marianne, as if trying to avoid her gaze and determined not to acknowledge her reaction. He quickly asked about Mrs. Dashwood and how long they had been in town. Elinor completely lost her composure at such a question and couldn’t say a word. But her sister's feelings showed immediately. Her face turned bright red, and she exclaimed with intense emotion, “Good God! Willoughby, what’s going on? Haven’t you received my letters? Won’t you shake my hand?”

He could not then avoid it, but her touch seemed painful to him, and he held her hand only for a moment. During all this time he was evidently struggling for composure. Elinor watched his countenance and saw its expression becoming more tranquil. After a moment’s pause, he spoke with calmness.

He couldn't avoid it at that moment, but her touch felt painful to him, and he only held her hand for a brief second. Throughout all of this, he was clearly trying to keep his composure. Elinor observed his face and noticed it becoming more relaxed. After a short pause, he spoke calmly.

“I did myself the honour of calling in Berkeley Street last Tuesday, and very much regretted that I was not fortunate enough to find yourselves and Mrs. Jennings at home. My card was not lost, I hope.”

"I had the pleasure of stopping by Berkeley Street last Tuesday, and I really regretted that I wasn't lucky enough to find you and Mrs. Jennings home. I hope my card wasn't misplaced."

“But have you not received my notes?” cried Marianne in the wildest anxiety. “Here is some mistake I am sure—some dreadful mistake. What can be the meaning of it? Tell me, Willoughby; for heaven’s sake tell me, what is the matter?”

“But haven’t you received my messages?” Marianne exclaimed, her anxiety reaching a peak. “There must be some mistake—some terrible mistake. What could it mean? Please, Willoughby; for heaven’s sake, tell me what’s going on?”

He made no reply; his complexion changed and all his embarrassment returned; but as if, on catching the eye of the young lady with whom he had been previously talking, he felt the necessity of instant exertion, he recovered himself again, and after saying, “Yes, I had the pleasure of receiving the information of your arrival in town, which you were so good as to send me,” turned hastily away with a slight bow and joined his friend.

He didn't respond; his face changed, and all his awkwardness came back. But as if he felt the need to act quickly upon seeing the young lady he had been talking to earlier, he composed himself again and said, “Yes, I was pleased to receive the message about your arrival in town that you kindly sent me,” then turned away quickly with a slight bow and rejoined his friend.

Marianne, now looking dreadfully white, and unable to stand, sunk into her chair, and Elinor, expecting every moment to see her faint, tried to screen her from the observation of others, while reviving her with lavender water.

Marianne, pale and unable to stand, slumped into her chair, and Elinor, anticipating that she would faint at any moment, tried to shield her from others' gaze while reviving her with lavender water.

“Go to him, Elinor,” she cried, as soon as she could speak, “and force him to come to me. Tell him I must see him again—must speak to him instantly.—I cannot rest—I shall not have a moment’s peace till this is explained—some dreadful misapprehension or other. Oh, go to him this moment.”

“Go to him, Elinor,” she exclaimed as soon as she could talk, “and make him come to me. Tell him I need to see him again—need to talk to him right now. I can’t relax—I won’t have a single moment of peace until this is cleared up—some awful misunderstanding or something. Oh, go to him right now.”

“How can that be done? No, my dearest Marianne, you must wait. This is not the place for explanations. Wait only till tomorrow.”

“How can that be done? No, my dearest Marianne, you need to wait. This isn’t the time for explanations. Just wait until tomorrow.”

With difficulty however could she prevent her from following him herself; and to persuade her to check her agitation, to wait, at least, with the appearance of composure, till she might speak to him with more privacy and more effect, was impossible; for Marianne continued incessantly to give way in a low voice to the misery of her feelings, by exclamations of wretchedness. In a short time Elinor saw Willoughby quit the room by the door towards the staircase, and telling Marianne that he was gone, urged the impossibility of speaking to him again that evening, as a fresh argument for her to be calm. She instantly begged her sister would entreat Lady Middleton to take them home, as she was too miserable to stay a minute longer.

With difficulty, she could prevent Marianne from following him herself; and persuading her to calm down, to at least wait with some semblance of composure until she could speak to him more privately and effectively, was impossible. Marianne kept expressing her distress in a low voice, with exclamations of despair. Soon, Elinor saw Willoughby leave the room through the door leading to the staircase, and telling Marianne that he had gone, she emphasized the impossibility of speaking to him again that evening as a reason for her to remain calm. Marianne immediately requested that her sister ask Lady Middleton to take them home, as she felt too miserable to stay any longer.

Lady Middleton, though in the middle of a rubber, on being informed that Marianne was unwell, was too polite to object for a moment to her wish of going away, and making over her cards to a friend, they departed as soon as the carriage could be found. Scarcely a word was spoken during their return to Berkeley Street. Marianne was in a silent agony, too much oppressed even for tears; but as Mrs. Jennings was luckily not come home, they could go directly to their own room, where hartshorn restored her a little to herself. She was soon undressed and in bed, and as she seemed desirous of being alone, her sister then left her, and while she waited the return of Mrs. Jennings, had leisure enough for thinking over the past.

Lady Middleton, although in the middle of a game, was too polite to object when she heard that Marianne was unwell and expressed her wish to leave. She handed her cards over to a friend, and they left as soon as they could find the carriage. Hardly a word was spoken on their way back to Berkeley Street. Marianne was in silent distress, too overwhelmed even to cry; fortunately, since Mrs. Jennings wasn't home yet, they were able to go straight to their own room, where hartshorn helped bring her back to herself a bit. She was soon undressed and in bed, and since she seemed to want to be alone, her sister left her. While waiting for Mrs. Jennings to return, she had plenty of time to reflect on the past.

That some kind of engagement had subsisted between Willoughby and Marianne she could not doubt, and that Willoughby was weary of it, seemed equally clear; for however Marianne might still feed her own wishes, she could not attribute such behaviour to mistake or misapprehension of any kind. Nothing but a thorough change of sentiment could account for it. Her indignation would have been still stronger than it was, had she not witnessed that embarrassment which seemed to speak a consciousness of his own misconduct, and prevented her from believing him so unprincipled as to have been sporting with the affections of her sister from the first, without any design that would bear investigation. Absence might have weakened his regard, and convenience might have determined him to overcome it, but that such a regard had formerly existed she could not bring herself to doubt.

That some sort of relationship had existed between Willoughby and Marianne was clear to her, and it also seemed obvious that Willoughby had grown tired of it; because no matter how much Marianne might still cling to her own hopes, she couldn't see his behavior as a misunderstanding or mistake. Only a complete change of heart could explain it. Her anger would have been even stronger if she hadn't noticed the embarrassment that seemed to indicate he was aware of his own wrongdoing, which made it hard for her to believe he had been playing with her sister's feelings from the beginning without any genuine intention. Time apart might have diminished his feelings, and practicality might have pushed him to move on, but she couldn't convince herself that he hadn't once truly cared.

As for Marianne, on the pangs which so unhappy a meeting must already have given her, and on those still more severe which might await her in its probable consequence, she could not reflect without the deepest concern. Her own situation gained in the comparison; for while she could esteem Edward as much as ever, however they might be divided in future, her mind might be always supported. But every circumstance that could embitter such an evil seemed uniting to heighten the misery of Marianne in a final separation from Willoughby—in an immediate and irreconcilable rupture with him.

As for Marianne, she couldn't help but feel deeply troubled by the pain that such an unhappy meeting must have already caused her, along with the even greater pain that might be waiting for her as a result. In comparison, her own situation felt somewhat better; even though she might be separated from Edward in the future, she could still respect him as much as ever, which gave her some mental support. But everything that could make this situation worse seemed to come together to increase Marianne's misery at the thought of a final separation from Willoughby—an immediate and irreparable break with him.

CHAPTER XXIX.

Before the housemaid had lit their fire the next day, or the sun gained any power over a cold, gloomy morning in January, Marianne, only half dressed, was kneeling against one of the window-seats for the sake of all the little light she could command from it, and writing as fast as a continual flow of tears would permit her. In this situation, Elinor, roused from sleep by her agitation and sobs, first perceived her; and after observing her for a few moments with silent anxiety, said, in a tone of the most considerate gentleness,

Before the housemaid had started the fire the next day, or the sun had taken control of the cold, gloomy January morning, Marianne, only partially dressed, was kneeling against one of the window seats, trying to get whatever little light she could reach, and writing as quickly as her steady stream of tears allowed. In this moment, Elinor, awakened from sleep by Marianne’s distress and sobs, was the first to notice her. After watching her for a few moments with silent concern, she spoke in the gentlest tone imaginable,

“Marianne, may I ask—?”

“Marianne, can I ask—?”

“No, Elinor,” she replied, “ask nothing; you will soon know all.”

“No, Elinor,” she said, “don’t ask anything; you’ll find out everything soon.”

The sort of desperate calmness with which this was said, lasted no longer than while she spoke, and was immediately followed by a return of the same excessive affliction. It was some minutes before she could go on with her letter, and the frequent bursts of grief which still obliged her, at intervals, to withhold her pen, were proofs enough of her feeling how more than probable it was that she was writing for the last time to Willoughby.

The kind of desperate calmness with which she said this didn’t last longer than her words, and was quickly followed by the same overwhelming sadness. It took her several minutes to continue with her letter, and the frequent outbursts of grief that forced her to pause and put down her pen were clear signs that she realized it was likely the last time she would be writing to Willoughby.

Elinor paid her every quiet and unobtrusive attention in her power; and she would have tried to sooth and tranquilize her still more, had not Marianne entreated her, with all the eagerness of the most nervous irritability, not to speak to her for the world. In such circumstances, it was better for both that they should not be long together; and the restless state of Marianne’s mind not only prevented her from remaining in the room a moment after she was dressed, but requiring at once solitude and continual change of place, made her wander about the house till breakfast time, avoiding the sight of every body.

Elinor gave her quiet and subtle support as best as she could; she would have tried to calm and comfort her even more if Marianne hadn’t urgently asked her, with all the anxious frustration she could muster, not to talk to her at all. Given the situation, it was better for both of them if they didn’t spend too much time together; Marianne’s restless mind not only kept her from staying in the room for even a moment after getting dressed, but her need for both solitude and constant movement caused her to roam around the house until breakfast, avoiding everyone.

At breakfast she neither ate, nor attempted to eat any thing; and Elinor’s attention was then all employed, not in urging her, not in pitying her, nor in appearing to regard her, but in endeavouring to engage Mrs. Jennings’s notice entirely to herself.

At breakfast, she didn’t eat or even try to eat anything, and Elinor was focused not on pushing her to eat, feeling sorry for her, or making it obvious that she was concerned. Instead, she was trying to get Mrs. Jennings’s full attention on herself.

As this was a favourite meal with Mrs. Jennings, it lasted a considerable time, and they were just setting themselves, after it, round the common working table, when a letter was delivered to Marianne, which she eagerly caught from the servant, and, turning of a death-like paleness, instantly ran out of the room. Elinor, who saw as plainly by this, as if she had seen the direction, that it must come from Willoughby, felt immediately such a sickness at heart as made her hardly able to hold up her head, and sat in such a general tremour as made her fear it impossible to escape Mrs. Jennings’s notice. That good lady, however, saw only that Marianne had received a letter from Willoughby, which appeared to her a very good joke, and which she treated accordingly, by hoping, with a laugh, that she would find it to her liking. Of Elinor’s distress, she was too busily employed in measuring lengths of worsted for her rug, to see any thing at all; and calmly continuing her talk, as soon as Marianne disappeared, she said,

Since this was Mrs. Jennings' favorite meal, it took quite a while, and they were just settling around the common working table afterward when a letter was delivered to Marianne. She eagerly grabbed it from the servant, turned pale as a ghost, and immediately ran out of the room. Elinor, who immediately recognized that it must be from Willoughby, felt a wave of sickness wash over her that made it hard to hold her head up. She sat trembling all over, worried that Mrs. Jennings would notice. However, the kind lady just saw that Marianne had received a letter from Willoughby, which she found amusing, and she joked about it, hoping with a laugh that Marianne would like it. Elinor's distress went unnoticed as Mrs. Jennings was too busy measuring lengths of yarn for her rug to pay attention, and she calmly continued her conversation, saying as soon as Marianne disappeared,

“Upon my word, I never saw a young woman so desperately in love in my life! My girls were nothing to her, and yet they used to be foolish enough; but as for Miss Marianne, she is quite an altered creature. I hope, from the bottom of my heart, he won’t keep her waiting much longer, for it is quite grievous to see her look so ill and forlorn. Pray, when are they to be married?”

“Honestly, I’ve never seen a young woman so hopelessly in love in my life! My girls were nothing compared to her, and they used to be a bit silly; but Miss Marianne is a completely changed person. I truly hope he won't make her wait much longer, because it’s really sad to see her looking so unwell and miserable. Please, when are they getting married?”

Elinor, though never less disposed to speak than at that moment, obliged herself to answer such an attack as this, and, therefore, trying to smile, replied, “And have you really, Ma’am, talked yourself into a persuasion of my sister’s being engaged to Mr. Willoughby? I thought it had been only a joke, but so serious a question seems to imply more; and I must beg, therefore, that you will not deceive yourself any longer. I do assure you that nothing would surprise me more than to hear of their being going to be married.”

Elinor, while not usually inclined to speak, felt compelled to respond to such an attack. Attempting to smile, she replied, “Have you really convinced yourself, Ma’am, that my sister is engaged to Mr. Willoughby? I thought it was just a joke, but such a serious question suggests otherwise; so I must ask that you stop deceiving yourself. I assure you, nothing would surprise me more than to hear they are getting married.”

“For shame, for shame, Miss Dashwood! how can you talk so? Don’t we all know that it must be a match, that they were over head and ears in love with each other from the first moment they met? Did not I see them together in Devonshire every day, and all day long; and did not I know that your sister came to town with me on purpose to buy wedding clothes? Come, come, this won’t do. Because you are so sly about it yourself, you think nobody else has any senses; but it is no such thing, I can tell you, for it has been known all over town this ever so long. I tell every body of it and so does Charlotte.”

“For shame, for shame, Miss Dashwood! How can you say that? Don’t we all know it’s a done deal? They were completely in love with each other from the moment they met! Didn’t I see them together in Devonshire every day, all day long? And didn’t I know that your sister came to town with me specifically to buy wedding outfits? Come on, this won’t work. Just because you’re being sneaky about it, you think no one else has any sense, but that’s not true, I assure you. Everyone in town has known about it for ages. I tell everyone, and so does Charlotte.”

“Indeed, Ma’am,” said Elinor, very seriously, “you are mistaken. Indeed, you are doing a very unkind thing in spreading the report, and you will find that you have though you will not believe me now.”

“Honestly, Ma’am,” said Elinor, very seriously, “you’re mistaken. You’re really being unkind by spreading the rumor, and you’ll see that you have been, even if you don’t believe me now.”

Mrs. Jennings laughed again, but Elinor had not spirits to say more, and eager at all events to know what Willoughby had written, hurried away to their room, where, on opening the door, she saw Marianne stretched on the bed, almost choked by grief, one letter in her hand, and two or three others lying by her. Elinor drew near, but without saying a word; and seating herself on the bed, took her hand, kissed her affectionately several times, and then gave way to a burst of tears, which at first was scarcely less violent than Marianne’s. The latter, though unable to speak, seemed to feel all the tenderness of this behaviour, and after some time thus spent in joint affliction, she put all the letters into Elinor’s hands; and then covering her face with her handkerchief, almost screamed with agony. Elinor, who knew that such grief, shocking as it was to witness it, must have its course, watched by her till this excess of suffering had somewhat spent itself, and then turning eagerly to Willoughby’s letter, read as follows:

Mrs. Jennings laughed again, but Elinor didn't have the energy to say more, and eager to find out what Willoughby had written, rushed to their room. When she opened the door, she saw Marianne stretched out on the bed, almost choking on her grief, one letter in her hand, and two or three others lying beside her. Elinor approached quietly, without saying a word; she sat on the bed, took Marianne's hand, kissed her affectionately several times, and then let out a burst of tears, which at first was almost as intense as Marianne’s. Marianne, though unable to speak, seemed to feel the warmth of this gesture, and after spending some time in shared sorrow, she placed all the letters into Elinor’s hands; then, covering her face with her handkerchief, she almost screamed with pain. Elinor, who knew that such intense grief, as shocking as it was to witness, needed to take its course, stayed by her side until this overwhelming sorrow had somewhat subsided, and then eagerly turned to Willoughby’s letter, which read as follows:

“Bond Street, January.

Bond Street, January.

MY DEAR MADAM,
    “I have just had the honour of receiving your letter, for which I beg to return my sincere acknowledgments. I am much concerned to find there was anything in my behaviour last night that did not meet your approbation; and though I am quite at a loss to discover in what point I could be so unfortunate as to offend you, I entreat your forgiveness of what I can assure you to have been perfectly unintentional. I shall never reflect on my former acquaintance with your family in Devonshire without the most grateful pleasure, and flatter myself it will not be broken by any mistake or misapprehension of my actions. My esteem for your whole family is very sincere; but if I have been so unfortunate as to give rise to a belief of more than I felt, or meant to express, I shall reproach myself for not having been more guarded in my professions of that esteem. That I should ever have meant more you will allow to be impossible, when you understand that my affections have been long engaged elsewhere, and it will not be many weeks, I believe, before this engagement is fulfilled. It is with great regret that I obey your commands in returning the letters with which I have been honoured from you, and the lock of hair, which you so obligingly bestowed on me.

MY DEAR MADAM,
    “I just received your letter, and I want to sincerely thank you for it. I'm really sorry to hear that something I did last night upset you. I honestly have no idea what I did to offend you, and I ask for your forgiveness as I can assure you it was completely unintentional. I will always cherish the time I spent with your family in Devonshire, and I hope that this misunderstanding won’t change our relationship. I truly respect your entire family; however, if I’ve given the impression that I felt more than I actually do, I will regret not being more careful with my words. You must understand that I could never have meant more when my feelings have long been placed elsewhere, and I don’t think it will be long before this commitment is fulfilled. It pains me to follow your request in returning your letters and the lock of hair you kindly gave me.”

“I am, dear Madam,                        
“Your most obedient                
“humble servant,        
“JOHN WILLOUGHBY.”

“I am, dear Madam,                        
“Your most obedient                
“humble servant,        
“JOHN WILLOUGHBY.”

With what indignation such a letter as this must be read by Miss Dashwood, may be imagined. Though aware, before she began it, that it must bring a confession of his inconstancy, and confirm their separation for ever, she was not aware that such language could be suffered to announce it; nor could she have supposed Willoughby capable of departing so far from the appearance of every honourable and delicate feeling—so far from the common decorum of a gentleman, as to send a letter so impudently cruel: a letter which, instead of bringing with his desire of a release any professions of regret, acknowledged no breach of faith, denied all peculiar affection whatever—a letter of which every line was an insult, and which proclaimed its writer to be deep in hardened villainy.

With what anger Miss Dashwood must read a letter like this is easy to imagine. Although she knew from the start that it would confess his unfaithfulness and confirm their permanent separation, she didn’t expect such harsh words to convey it. She wouldn’t have thought Willoughby capable of such a total lack of honorable and sensitive feeling—so far from the basic decency of a gentleman—as to send a letter that was so blatantly cruel: a letter that, instead of expressing any regret about wanting to break up, didn’t acknowledge any betrayal at all and denied any special feelings entirely—a letter in which every line was an insult, revealing its writer to be deeply wicked.

She paused over it for some time with indignant astonishment; then read it again and again; but every perusal only served to increase her abhorrence of the man, and so bitter were her feelings against him, that she dared not trust herself to speak, lest she might wound Marianne still deeper by treating their disengagement, not as a loss to her of any possible good but as an escape from the worst and most irremediable of all evils, a connection, for life, with an unprincipled man, as a deliverance the most real, a blessing the most important.

She stared at it for a while in shocked anger; then read it over and over again. But each time she read it, her hatred for the man only grew. Her feelings were so intense that she didn’t trust herself to speak, worried that she might hurt Marianne even more by viewing their breakup not as a loss of something good, but as a relief from the worst and most hopeless situation—a lifelong connection with a dishonest man—as a true escape, a significant blessing.

In her earnest meditations on the contents of the letter, on the depravity of that mind which could dictate it, and probably, on the very different mind of a very different person, who had no other connection whatever with the affair than what her heart gave him with every thing that passed, Elinor forgot the immediate distress of her sister, forgot that she had three letters on her lap yet unread, and so entirely forgot how long she had been in the room, that when on hearing a carriage drive up to the door, she went to the window to see who could be coming so unreasonably early, she was all astonishment to perceive Mrs. Jennings’s chariot, which she knew had not been ordered till one. Determined not to quit Marianne, though hopeless of contributing, at present, to her ease, she hurried away to excuse herself from attending Mrs. Jennings, on account of her sister being indisposed. Mrs. Jennings, with a thoroughly good-humoured concern for its cause, admitted the excuse most readily, and Elinor, after seeing her safe off, returned to Marianne, whom she found attempting to rise from the bed, and whom she reached just in time to prevent her from falling on the floor, faint and giddy from a long want of proper rest and food; for it was many days since she had any appetite, and many nights since she had really slept; and now, when her mind was no longer supported by the fever of suspense, the consequence of all this was felt in an aching head, a weakened stomach, and a general nervous faintness. A glass of wine, which Elinor procured for her directly, made her more comfortable, and she was at last able to express some sense of her kindness, by saying,

As Elinor earnestly reflected on the letter's content, on the twisted mind behind it, and likely on the very different mindset of a completely unrelated person who her heart connected to everything that happened, she lost sight of her sister's immediate distress. She forgot she had three unread letters in her lap and was so absorbed in her thoughts that when she heard a carriage drive up to the door and went to the window to see who might be arriving so early, she was shocked to see Mrs. Jennings’s chariot, which she knew wasn’t supposed to arrive until one. Determined to stay with Marianne, even though she felt powerless to help her at the moment, she quickly went to excuse herself from seeing Mrs. Jennings because her sister was unwell. Mrs. Jennings, with genuine concern for the reason, accepted the excuse without hesitation, and after ensuring her departure, Elinor returned to Marianne. She found her trying to get out of bed and managed to catch her just before she fell to the floor, weak and dizzy from a lack of proper rest and food. It had been several days since she had any appetite and many nights since she had truly slept. Now, with her mind no longer fueled by the anxiety of uncertainty, the effects of all this manifested in a throbbing headache, an upset stomach, and a general feeling of faintness. A glass of wine that Elinor quickly brought her made her feel better, and she finally managed to show her appreciation by saying,

“Poor Elinor! how unhappy I make you!”

“Poor Elinor! How unhappy I make you!”

“I only wish,” replied her sister, “there were any thing I could do, which might be of comfort to you.”

“I only wish,” replied her sister, “that there was anything I could do to comfort you.”

This, as every thing else would have been, was too much for Marianne, who could only exclaim, in the anguish of her heart, “Oh! Elinor, I am miserable, indeed,” before her voice was entirely lost in sobs.

This, like everything else would have been, was too much for Marianne, who could only cry out, in the pain of her heart, “Oh! Elinor, I am so miserable,” before her voice was completely drowned in tears.

Elinor could no longer witness this torrent of unresisted grief in silence.

Elinor could no longer watch this flood of unrestrained sorrow in silence.

“Exert yourself, dear Marianne,” she cried, “if you would not kill yourself and all who love you. Think of your mother; think of her misery while you suffer: for her sake you must exert yourself.”

“Do your best, dear Marianne,” she exclaimed, “if you don’t want to hurt yourself and everyone who cares about you. Think of your mom; think about how upset she is while you are in pain: for her sake, you have to try.”

“I cannot, I cannot,” cried Marianne; “leave me, leave me, if I distress you; leave me, hate me, forget me! but do not torture me so. Oh! how easy for those, who have no sorrow of their own to talk of exertion! Happy, happy Elinor, you cannot have an idea of what I suffer.”

“I can’t, I can’t,” cried Marianne; “just go, go away if I’m stressing you out; leave me, hate me, forget me! But don’t torture me like this. Oh! It’s so easy for those who have no pain of their own to talk about trying hard! Happy, happy Elinor, you have no idea what I’m going through.”

“Do you call me happy, Marianne? Ah! if you knew!—And can you believe me to be so, while I see you so wretched!”

“Do you really think I’m happy, Marianne? Ah! If you only knew!—And how can you believe that, when I see you so miserable?”

“Forgive me, forgive me,” throwing her arms round her sister’s neck; “I know you feel for me; I know what a heart you have; but yet you are—you must be happy; Edward loves you—what, oh what, can do away such happiness as that?”

“Forgive me, forgive me,” she said, wrapping her arms around her sister’s neck. “I know you care about me; I know you have such a kind heart; but still, you are—you must be happy; Edward loves you—what, oh what, could possibly take away that kind of happiness?”

“Many, many circumstances,” said Elinor, solemnly.

“Many, many situations,” said Elinor, seriously.

“No, no, no,” cried Marianne wildly, “he loves you, and only you. You can have no grief.”

“No, no, no,” cried Marianne frantically, “he loves you, and only you. You can’t be sad.”

“I can have no pleasure while I see you in this state.”

“I can’t enjoy anything while I see you like this.”

“And you will never see me otherwise. Mine is a misery which nothing can do away.”

“And you will never see me any other way. My misery is something that nothing can erase.”

“You must not talk so, Marianne. Have you no comforts? no friends? Is your loss such as leaves no opening for consolation? Much as you suffer now, think of what you would have suffered if the discovery of his character had been delayed to a later period—if your engagement had been carried on for months and months, as it might have been, before he chose to put an end to it. Every additional day of unhappy confidence, on your side, would have made the blow more dreadful.”

“You shouldn’t speak like that, Marianne. Don’t you have any comforts or friends? Is your loss so deep that there’s no chance for consolation? As much as you hurt now, imagine how much worse it would have been if you had found out about his true character later on—if your engagement had gone on for months, which it could have, before he decided to end it. Every extra day of false hope on your part would have made the blow even more devastating.”

“Engagement!” cried Marianne, “there has been no engagement.”

“Engagement!” cried Marianne, “there hasn't been any engagement.”

“No engagement!”

"No engagement!"

“No, he is not so unworthy as you believe him. He has broken no faith with me.”

“No, he’s not as unworthy as you think. He hasn’t betrayed my trust.”

“But he told you that he loved you.”

“But he told you that he loved you.”

“Yes—no—never absolutely. It was every day implied, but never professedly declared. Sometimes I thought it had been, but it never was.”

“Yes—no—never completely. It was implied every day, but never openly stated. Sometimes I thought it had been said, but it never was.”

“Yet you wrote to him?”

"Did you really write to him?"

“Yes: could that be wrong after all that had passed? But I cannot talk.”

“Yes: could that be wrong after everything that happened? But I can’t talk.”

Elinor said no more, and turning again to the three letters which now raised a much stronger curiosity than before, directly ran over the contents of all. The first, which was what her sister had sent him on their arrival in town, was to this effect.

Elinor didn't say anything else, and turning back to the three letters that now sparked even greater curiosity than before, she quickly read through all their contents. The first one, which her sister had sent him upon their arrival in town, was to this effect.

Berkeley Street, January.

Berkeley Street, January.

“How surprised you will be, Willoughby, on receiving this; and I think you will feel something more than surprise, when you know that I am in town. An opportunity of coming hither, though with Mrs. Jennings, was a temptation we could not resist. I wish you may receive this in time to come here to-night, but I will not depend on it. At any rate I shall expect you to-morrow. For the present, adieu.

“How surprised you will be, Willoughby, when you receive this; and I think you will feel more than just surprise when you find out that I’m in town. The chance to come here, even with Mrs. Jennings, was too tempting to pass up. I hope you get this in time to come here tonight, but I won’t count on it. Anyway, I’ll expect you tomorrow. For now, goodbye.

“M.D.”

"Doctor of Medicine"

Her second note, which had been written on the morning after the dance at the Middletons’, was in these words:—

Her second note, which was written the morning after the dance at the Middletons', said this:—

“I cannot express my disappointment in having missed you the day before yesterday, nor my astonishment at not having received any answer to a note which I sent you above a week ago. I have been expecting to hear from you, and still more to see you, every hour of the day. Pray call again as soon as possible, and explain the reason of my having expected this in vain. You had better come earlier another time, because we are generally out by one. We were last night at Lady Middleton’s, where there was a dance. I have been told that you were asked to be of the party. But could it be so? You must be very much altered indeed since we parted, if that could be the case, and you not there. But I will not suppose this possible, and I hope very soon to receive your personal assurance of its being otherwise.

“I can't tell you how disappointed I am that I missed you the day before yesterday, or how shocked I am that I haven’t received any reply to a note I sent over a week ago. I've been waiting to hear from you, and even more to see you, every hour of the day. Please come by as soon as you can and explain why I’ve been waiting in vain. You should probably come earlier next time, since we're usually out by one. Last night we were at Lady Middleton’s, where there was a dance. I heard you were invited to join us. But could that really be true? You must have changed a lot since we last saw each other if that was the case, and you didn’t come. But I won’t believe that’s possible, and I really hope to get your personal reassurance soon that it’s not true.”

“M.D.”

“Doctor of Medicine”

The contents of her last note to him were these:—

The contents of her last note to him were these:—

“What am I to imagine, Willoughby, by your behaviour last night? Again I demand an explanation of it. I was prepared to meet you with the pleasure which our separation naturally produced, with the familiarity which our intimacy at Barton appeared to me to justify. I was repulsed indeed! I have passed a wretched night in endeavouring to excuse a conduct which can scarcely be called less than insulting; but though I have not yet been able to form any reasonable apology for your behaviour, I am perfectly ready to hear your justification of it. You have perhaps been misinformed, or purposely deceived, in something concerning me, which may have lowered me in your opinion. Tell me what it is, explain the grounds on which you acted, and I shall be satisfied, in being able to satisfy you. It would grieve me indeed to be obliged to think ill of you; but if I am to do it, if I am to learn that you are not what we have hitherto believed you, that your regard for us all was insincere, that your behaviour to me was intended only to deceive, let it be told as soon as possible. My feelings are at present in a state of dreadful indecision; I wish to acquit you, but certainty on either side will be ease to what I now suffer. If your sentiments are no longer what they were, you will return my notes, and the lock of my hair which is in your possession.

“What am I supposed to think, Willoughby, about how you acted last night? I’m demanding an explanation. I expected to meet you with the joy that our time apart naturally brought, with the familiarity that our closeness at Barton justified. Instead, I felt rejected! I had a miserable night trying to justify your behavior, which can hardly be seen as anything but insulting. While I haven't figured out a reasonable explanation for your actions, I'm more than willing to hear you out. Perhaps you’ve been misinformed or deliberately misled about something related to me, which may have changed how you see me. Please tell me what it is and explain why you acted this way; I’d like to understand so I can find a way to clear things up. It would truly upset me to think poorly of you, but if that’s the case—if I find out that you’re not who we thought you were, that your feelings for us were insincere, especially towards me—then I want to know right away. My emotions are in such a terrible state of uncertainty; I want to give you the benefit of the doubt, but having a clear answer on either side would ease the pain I’m feeling. If your feelings aren’t what they used to be, then you’ll need to return my letters and the lock of my hair that you have.”

“M.D.”

"MD"

That such letters, so full of affection and confidence, could have been so answered, Elinor, for Willoughby’s sake, would have been unwilling to believe. But her condemnation of him did not blind her to the impropriety of their having been written at all; and she was silently grieving over the imprudence which had hazarded such unsolicited proofs of tenderness, not warranted by anything preceding, and most severely condemned by the event, when Marianne, perceiving that she had finished the letters, observed to her that they contained nothing but what any one would have written in the same situation.

That letters filled with so much love and trust could have received such a response was something Elinor, for Willoughby’s sake, would have been unwilling to accept. However, her judgment of him didn’t blind her to the inappropriateness of them being written at all; she was silently mourning the recklessness that had risked such unsolicited expressions of affection, which weren’t supported by anything that had happened before and were most harshly criticized by the outcome. Just then, Marianne noticed that Elinor had finished the letters and remarked that they included nothing that anyone wouldn’t have written in the same circumstances.

“I felt myself,” she added, “to be as solemnly engaged to him, as if the strictest legal covenant had bound us to each other.”

“I felt that I was as seriously committed to him as if we had been bound by the strictest legal contract.”

“I can believe it,” said Elinor; “but unfortunately he did not feel the same.”

“I can believe it,” Elinor said, “but unfortunately, he didn't feel the same way.”

“He did feel the same, Elinor—for weeks and weeks he felt it. I know he did. Whatever may have changed him now, (and nothing but the blackest art employed against me can have done it), I was once as dear to him as my own soul could wish. This lock of hair, which now he can so readily give up, was begged of me with the most earnest supplication. Had you seen his look, his manner, had you heard his voice at that moment! Have you forgot the last evening of our being together at Barton? The morning that we parted too! When he told me that it might be many weeks before we met again—his distress—can I ever forget his distress?”

“He did feel the same way, Elinor—for weeks and weeks, he felt it. I know he did. Whatever has changed him now (and nothing but the most malicious actions against me could have done it), I was once as precious to him as my own soul could wish. This lock of hair, which he can now so easily give up, was begged from me with the most earnest pleading. If you had seen his expression, his manner, and heard his voice at that moment! Have you forgotten our last evening together at Barton? The morning we parted too! When he told me it might be many weeks before we saw each other again—his distress—can I ever forget his distress?”

For a moment or two she could say no more; but when this emotion had passed away, she added, in a firmer tone,

For a minute or two, she couldn't say anything else; but once that feeling passed, she spoke up again, this time with more confidence,

“Elinor, I have been cruelly used; but not by Willoughby.”

“Elinor, I have been treated badly, but not by Willoughby.”

“Dearest Marianne, who but himself? By whom can he have been instigated?”

“Dear Marianne, who else could it be? Who else could have pushed him?”

“By all the world, rather than by his own heart. I could rather believe every creature of my acquaintance leagued together to ruin me in his opinion, than believe his nature capable of such cruelty. This woman of whom he writes—whoever she be—or any one, in short, but your own dear self, mama, and Edward, may have been so barbarous to bely me. Beyond you three, is there a creature in the world whom I would not rather suspect of evil than Willoughby, whose heart I know so well?”

“By everyone in the world, rather than by his own heart. I would believe that every person I know had teamed up to ruin my reputation with him before I would think he could be that cruel. This woman he writes about—whoever she is—or anyone, really, except for you, mom, and Edward, might have been awful enough to lie about me. Aside from the three of you, is there anyone else I would suspect of wrongdoing before I’d suspect Willoughby, whose heart I understand so well?”

Elinor would not contend, and only replied, “Whoever may have been so detestably your enemy, let them be cheated of their malignant triumph, my dear sister, by seeing how nobly the consciousness of your own innocence and good intentions supports your spirits. It is a reasonable and laudable pride which resists such malevolence.”

Elinor wouldn't argue and simply replied, “Whoever your terrible enemy may be, let them be denied their wicked victory, my dear sister, by witnessing how valiantly your awareness of your own innocence and good intentions lifts your spirits. It’s a sensible and commendable pride that stands against such malice.”

“No, no,” cried Marianne, “misery such as mine has no pride. I care not who knows that I am wretched. The triumph of seeing me so may be open to all the world. Elinor, Elinor, they who suffer little may be proud and independent as they like—may resist insult, or return mortification—but I cannot. I must feel—I must be wretched—and they are welcome to enjoy the consciousness of it that can.”

“No, no,” Marianne exclaimed, “misery like mine has no pride. I don't care who knows I’m miserable. Everyone is free to see me like this. Elinor, Elinor, those who suffer less can be proud and independent as they want—they can stand up to insults or brush off humiliation—but I can’t. I have to feel—I have to be miserable—and they are welcome to enjoy knowing it as much as they can.”

“But for my mother’s sake and mine—”

“But for my mother’s sake and mine—”

“I would do more than for my own. But to appear happy when I am so miserable—Oh! who can require it?”

“I would do more than for my own. But to seem happy when I’m so miserable—Oh! who can expect that?”

Again they were both silent. Elinor was employed in walking thoughtfully from the fire to the window, from the window to the fire, without knowing that she received warmth from one, or discerning objects through the other; and Marianne, seated at the foot of the bed, with her head leaning against one of its posts, again took up Willoughby’s letter, and, after shuddering over every sentence, exclaimed,—

Again they both fell silent. Elinor was lost in thought as she walked back and forth between the fire and the window, unaware that she was drawing warmth from one or seeing objects through the other; meanwhile, Marianne sat at the foot of the bed, her head resting against one of its posts, and picked up Willoughby’s letter again, shuddering at each line before exclaiming,—

“It is too much! Oh, Willoughby, Willoughby, could this be yours! Cruel, cruel—nothing can acquit you. Elinor, nothing can. Whatever he might have heard against me—ought he not to have suspended his belief? ought he not to have told me of it, to have given me the power of clearing myself? ‘The lock of hair, (repeating it from the letter,) which you so obligingly bestowed on me’—That is unpardonable. Willoughby, where was your heart when you wrote those words? Oh, barbarously insolent!—Elinor, can he be justified?”

“It’s too much! Oh, Willoughby, Willoughby, could this really be yours! Cruel, so cruel—nothing can excuse you. Elinor, nothing can. Whatever he might have heard about me—shouldn’t he have held off on believing it? Shouldn’t he have told me about it, given me the chance to clear my name? ‘The lock of hair, (repeating it from the letter,) which you so generously gave me’—That’s unforgivable. Willoughby, where was your heart when you wrote those words? Oh, shockingly rude!—Elinor, can he really justify this?”

“No, Marianne, in no possible way.”

"No, Marianne, definitely not."

“And yet this woman—who knows what her art may have been?—how long it may have been premeditated, and how deeply contrived by her!—Who is she?—Who can she be?—Whom did I ever hear him talk of as young and attractive among his female acquaintance?—Oh! no one, no one—he talked to me only of myself.”

“And yet this woman—who knows what her talent might have been?—how long it might have been planned out, and how carefully crafted by her!—Who is she?—Who could she be?—Who did I ever hear him mention as young and attractive among his female friends?—Oh! no one, no one—he talked to me only about myself.”

Another pause ensued; Marianne was greatly agitated, and it ended thus.

Another pause followed; Marianne was very upset, and it ended like this.

“Elinor, I must go home. I must go and comfort mama. Can not we be gone to-morrow?”

“Elinor, I have to go home. I need to comfort Mom. Can’t we leave tomorrow?”

“To-morrow, Marianne!”

"Tomorrow, Marianne!"

“Yes, why should I stay here? I came only for Willoughby’s sake—and now who cares for me? Who regards me?”

“Yes, why should I stay here? I came only for Willoughby’s sake—and now who cares about me? Who thinks about me?”

“It would be impossible to go to-morrow. We owe Mrs. Jennings much more than civility; and civility of the commonest kind must prevent such a hasty removal as that.”

“It would be impossible to go tomorrow. We owe Mrs. Jennings much more than just politeness; and basic courtesy should stop us from such a hasty departure as that.”

“Well then, another day or two, perhaps; but I cannot stay here long, I cannot stay to endure the questions and remarks of all these people. The Middletons and Palmers—how am I to bear their pity? The pity of such a woman as Lady Middleton! Oh, what would he say to that!”

“Well then, maybe another day or two; but I can’t stay here long. I can’t put up with the questions and comments from all these people. The Middletons and Palmers—how am I supposed to handle their pity? The pity from someone like Lady Middleton! Oh, what would he say to that!”

Elinor advised her to lie down again, and for a moment she did so; but no attitude could give her ease; and in restless pain of mind and body she moved from one posture to another, till growing more and more hysterical, her sister could with difficulty keep her on the bed at all, and for some time was fearful of being constrained to call for assistance. Some lavender drops, however, which she was at length persuaded to take, were of use; and from that time till Mrs. Jennings returned, she continued on the bed quiet and motionless.

Elinor suggested she lie down again, and for a moment she did; but no position brought her comfort. In her restless pain, both mentally and physically, she moved from one position to another until she became increasingly hysterical, making it hard for her sister to keep her on the bed at all, and for a while, she was worried she would have to call for help. However, some lavender drops that she was finally convinced to take helped, and from that point until Mrs. Jennings returned, she remained quiet and still on the bed.

CHAPTER XXX.

Mrs. Jennings came immediately to their room on her return, and without waiting to have her request of admittance answered, opened the door and walked in with a look of real concern.

Mrs. Jennings quickly came to their room when she got back, and without waiting for someone to let her in, she opened the door and walked in with a genuinely worried expression.

“How do you do my dear?”—said she in a voice of great compassion to Marianne, who turned away her face without attempting to answer.

“How are you, my dear?” she said in a voice full of compassion to Marianne, who turned away her face without trying to respond.

“How is she, Miss Dashwood? Poor thing! she looks very bad. No wonder. Ay, it is but too true. He is to be married very soon—a good-for-nothing fellow! I have no patience with him. Mrs. Taylor told me of it half an hour ago, and she was told it by a particular friend of Miss Grey herself, else I am sure I should not have believed it; and I was almost ready to sink as it was. Well, said I, all I can say is, that if this be true, he has used a young lady of my acquaintance abominably ill, and I wish with all my soul his wife may plague his heart out. And so I shall always say, my dear, you may depend on it. I have no notion of men’s going on in this way; and if ever I meet him again, I will give him such a dressing as he has not had this many a day. But there is one comfort, my dear Miss Marianne; he is not the only young man in the world worth having; and with your pretty face you will never want admirers. Well, poor thing! I won’t disturb her any longer, for she had better have her cry out at once and have done with. The Parrys and Sandersons luckily are coming tonight you know, and that will amuse her.”

"How is she, Miss Dashwood? Poor thing! She looks terrible. No wonder. Yeah, it's sadly true. He’s getting married very soon—such a worthless guy! I just can’t stand him. Mrs. Taylor told me about it half an hour ago, and she heard it from a close friend of Miss Grey herself; otherwise, I wouldn’t have believed it, and I was almost ready to fall apart as it was. Well, I said, all I can say is that if this is true, he has treated a young lady I know horribly, and I truly wish his future wife makes his life miserable. And that’s what I’ll always say, my dear, you can count on it. I can’t stand men acting this way; and if I ever see him again, I’ll give him a piece of my mind like he hasn’t had in a long time. But there is one comfort, my dear Miss Marianne; he’s not the only young man out there worth having; with your beautiful face, you’ll always have admirers. Well, poor thing! I won’t bother her any longer, it’s better for her to cry it out now and get it over with. Luckily, the Parrys and Sandersons are coming tonight, and that will keep her entertained."

She then went away, walking on tiptoe out of the room, as if she supposed her young friend’s affliction could be increased by noise.

She then left, walking on her toes out of the room, as if she thought her young friend’s pain could be made worse by any noise.

Marianne, to the surprise of her sister, determined on dining with them. Elinor even advised her against it. But “no, she would go down; she could bear it very well, and the bustle about her would be less.” Elinor, pleased to have her governed for a moment by such a motive, though believing it hardly possible that she could sit out the dinner, said no more; and adjusting her dress for her as well as she could, while Marianne still remained on the bed, was ready to assist her into the dining room as soon as they were summoned to it.

Marianne, to her sister's surprise, decided to join them for dinner. Elinor even advised her against it. But "no, I'm going down; I can handle it just fine, and the chaos around me will be less." Elinor, happy to see her motivated by such a reason, though doubting that she could last through the dinner, said nothing more; and while adjusting her dress as best as she could while Marianne still lay on the bed, she was ready to help her into the dining room as soon as they were called.

When there, though looking most wretchedly, she ate more and was calmer than her sister had expected. Had she tried to speak, or had she been conscious of half Mrs. Jennings’s well-meant but ill-judged attentions to her, this calmness could not have been maintained; but not a syllable escaped her lips; and the abstraction of her thoughts preserved her in ignorance of every thing that was passing before her.

When she got there, looking really miserable, she ate more and seemed calmer than her sister expected. If she had tried to speak, or if she had noticed Mrs. Jennings’s well-meaning but misguided efforts to pay attention to her, she wouldn't have been able to stay so calm; but she didn't say a word, and her distracted thoughts kept her oblivious to everything happening around her.

Elinor, who did justice to Mrs. Jennings’s kindness, though its effusions were often distressing, and sometimes almost ridiculous, made her those acknowledgments, and returned her those civilities, which her sister could not make or return for herself. Their good friend saw that Marianne was unhappy, and felt that every thing was due to her which might make her at all less so. She treated her therefore, with all the indulgent fondness of a parent towards a favourite child on the last day of its holidays. Marianne was to have the best place by the fire, was to be tempted to eat by every delicacy in the house, and to be amused by the relation of all the news of the day. Had not Elinor, in the sad countenance of her sister, seen a check to all mirth, she could have been entertained by Mrs. Jennings’s endeavours to cure a disappointment in love, by a variety of sweetmeats and olives, and a good fire. As soon, however, as the consciousness of all this was forced by continual repetition on Marianne, she could stay no longer. With a hasty exclamation of Misery, and a sign to her sister not to follow her, she directly got up and hurried out of the room.

Elinor, who appreciated Mrs. Jennings’s kindness, even though it was often overwhelming and sometimes almost silly, expressed her gratitude and returned the courtesies that her sister couldn’t manage for herself. Their kind friend noticed that Marianne was unhappy and felt that she should do everything she could to help her feel better. So, she treated her with all the gentle affection of a parent towards a favorite child on the last day of its vacation. Marianne got the best spot by the fire, was encouraged to eat every treat in the house, and was entertained with all the news of the day. Had Elinor not noticed the sadness in her sister’s face that dampened all joy, she might have enjoyed Mrs. Jennings’s attempts to cheer up a heartbroken girl with a variety of sweets and a cozy fire. But as soon as Marianne was reminded of this with each passing moment, she couldn’t take it anymore. With a quick exclamation of "Misery" and a signal for her sister not to follow, she jumped up and rushed out of the room.

“Poor soul!” cried Mrs. Jennings, as soon as she was gone, “how it grieves me to see her! And I declare if she is not gone away without finishing her wine! And the dried cherries too! Lord! nothing seems to do her any good. I am sure if I knew of any thing she would like, I would send all over the town for it. Well, it is the oddest thing to me, that a man should use such a pretty girl so ill! But when there is plenty of money on one side, and next to none on the other, Lord bless you! they care no more about such things!—”

“Poor thing!” exclaimed Mrs. Jennings as soon as she left. “It really hurts me to see her! And I can't believe she left without finishing her wine! And the dried cherries too! Goodness! Nothing seems to help her. I’m sure if I knew of anything she’d enjoy, I would send someone all over town for it. Well, it’s the strangest thing to me that a man would treat such a beautiful girl so badly! But when there’s plenty of money on one side and almost none on the other, goodness! They don’t care about stuff like that!”

“The lady then—Miss Grey I think you called her—is very rich?”

"The lady then—Miss Grey, I think you called her—is very wealthy?"

“Fifty thousand pounds, my dear. Did you ever see her? a smart, stylish girl they say, but not handsome. I remember her aunt very well, Biddy Henshawe; she married a very wealthy man. But the family are all rich together. Fifty thousand pounds! and by all accounts, it won’t come before it’s wanted; for they say he is all to pieces. No wonder! dashing about with his curricle and hunters! Well, it don’t signify talking; but when a young man, be who he will, comes and makes love to a pretty girl, and promises marriage, he has no business to fly off from his word only because he grows poor, and a richer girl is ready to have him. Why don’t he, in such a case, sell his horses, let his house, turn off his servants, and make a thorough reform at once? I warrant you, Miss Marianne would have been ready to wait till matters came round. But that won’t do now-a-days; nothing in the way of pleasure can ever be given up by the young men of this age.”

“Fifty thousand pounds, my dear. Have you ever seen her? They say she’s a smart, stylish girl, but not exactly beautiful. I remember her aunt very well, Biddy Henshawe; she married a very wealthy man. But the whole family is rich. Fifty thousand pounds! And by all accounts, it won’t come until it’s needed; they say he’s completely falling apart. No surprise there! Racing around with his carriage and horses! Well, it doesn’t help to talk; but when a young man, regardless of who he is, comes and flirts with a pretty girl and promises her marriage, he shouldn’t back out of his word just because he’s running low on money and a wealthier girl is interested. Why doesn’t he, in that case, sell his horses, rent out his place, let go of his servants, and make a total change right away? I bet Miss Marianne would have been willing to wait until things got better. But that doesn’t happen nowadays; young men of this generation can’t give up anything that’s pleasurable.”

“Do you know what kind of a girl Miss Grey is? Is she said to be amiable?”

“Do you know what kind of person Miss Grey is? Is she considered friendly?”

“I never heard any harm of her; indeed I hardly ever heard her mentioned; except that Mrs. Taylor did say this morning, that one day Miss Walker hinted to her, that she believed Mr. and Mrs. Ellison would not be sorry to have Miss Grey married, for she and Mrs. Ellison could never agree.”

“I never heard anything bad about her; in fact, I hardly ever heard her bring up at all; except that Mrs. Taylor mentioned this morning that one time Miss Walker suggested to her that she thought Mr. and Mrs. Ellison wouldn’t mind if Miss Grey got married, because she and Mrs. Ellison could never see eye to eye.”

“And who are the Ellisons?”

"And who are the Ellisons?"

“Her guardians, my dear. But now she is of age and may choose for herself; and a pretty choice she has made!—What now,” after pausing a moment—“your poor sister is gone to her own room, I suppose, to moan by herself. Is there nothing one can get to comfort her? Poor dear, it seems quite cruel to let her be alone. Well, by-and-by we shall have a few friends, and that will amuse her a little. What shall we play at? She hates whist I know; but is there no round game she cares for?”

“Her guardians, my dear. But now she's of age and can decide for herself; and what a choice she has made!—What now,” after pausing for a moment—“your poor sister has gone to her room, I suppose, to sulk alone. Is there anything we can get to comfort her? Poor thing, it seems so unkind to leave her by herself. Well, soon we’ll have some friends over, and that should cheer her up a bit. What should we play? I know she hates whist; but is there any other game she enjoys?”

“Dear ma’am, this kindness is quite unnecessary. Marianne, I dare say, will not leave her room again this evening. I shall persuade her if I can to go early to bed, for I am sure she wants rest.”

“Dear ma’am, your kindness is really not needed. Marianne, I believe, won’t be leaving her room again tonight. I’ll try to convince her to go to bed early because I’m sure she needs some rest.”

“Aye, I believe that will be best for her. Let her name her own supper, and go to bed. Lord! no wonder she has been looking so bad and so cast down this last week or two, for this matter I suppose has been hanging over her head as long as that. And so the letter that came today finished it! Poor soul! I am sure if I had had a notion of it, I would not have joked her about it for all my money. But then you know, how should I guess such a thing? I made sure of its being nothing but a common love letter, and you know young people like to be laughed at about them. Lord! how concerned Sir John and my daughters will be when they hear it! If I had my senses about me I might have called in Conduit Street in my way home, and told them of it. But I shall see them tomorrow.”

"Yeah, I think that will be best for her. Let her choose her own dinner and then go to bed. Wow! It’s no surprise she’s been looking so bad and down lately; I guess this has been weighing on her mind for that long. And I suppose the letter that came today was the final straw! Poor thing! I’m sure if I had known, I wouldn’t have joked with her about it for anything. But how could I have guessed? I thought it was just a regular love letter, and you know how young people like to be teased about those. Wow! Sir John and my daughters are going to be so worried when they hear this! If I had my wits about me, I might have stopped by Conduit Street on my way home and told them about it. But I’ll see them tomorrow."

“It would be unnecessary I am sure, for you to caution Mrs. Palmer and Sir John against ever naming Mr. Willoughby, or making the slightest allusion to what has passed, before my sister. Their own good-nature must point out to them the real cruelty of appearing to know any thing about it when she is present; and the less that may ever be said to myself on the subject, the more my feelings will be spared, as you my dear madam will easily believe.”

“It would definitely be unnecessary, I’m sure, for you to warn Mrs. Palmer and Sir John against ever mentioning Mr. Willoughby or hinting at what happened in front of my sister. Their own kindness should make it clear to them how cruel it would be to act like they know anything about it when she’s around; and the less that’s said to me about it, the more my feelings will be protected, as you, my dear madam, can easily believe.”

“Oh! Lord! yes, that I do indeed. It must be terrible for you to hear it talked of; and as for your sister, I am sure I would not mention a word about it to her for the world. You saw I did not all dinner time. No more would Sir John, nor my daughters, for they are all very thoughtful and considerate; especially if I give them a hint, as I certainly will. For my part, I think the less that is said about such things, the better, the sooner ’tis blown over and forgot. And what good does talking ever do you know?”

“Oh! Lord! yes, I really do. It must be awful for you to hear people talking about it; and as for your sister, there's no way I would say a word to her about it. You saw that I didn’t all during dinner. Neither would Sir John, or my daughters, because they’re all very thoughtful and considerate; especially if I give them a hint, which I definitely will. Personally, I believe the less said about such matters, the better—let’s get this over with and forgotten as quickly as possible. And what good does talking about it do, anyway?”

“In this affair it can only do harm; more so perhaps than in many cases of a similar kind, for it has been attended by circumstances which, for the sake of every one concerned in it, make it unfit to become the public conversation. I must do this justice to Mr. Willoughby—he has broken no positive engagement with my sister.”

“In this situation, it can only cause trouble; maybe even more than in many similar cases, because it’s been accompanied by circumstances that, for the sake of everyone involved, make it unsuitable for public discussion. I must give this credit to Mr. Willoughby—he hasn’t violated any formal commitment to my sister.”

“Law, my dear! Don’t pretend to defend him. No positive engagement indeed! after taking her all over Allenham House, and fixing on the very rooms they were to live in hereafter!”

“Law, my dear! Don’t act like you’re defending him. No way! After showing her around Allenham House and picking out the exact rooms they would live in later!”

Elinor, for her sister’s sake, could not press the subject farther, and she hoped it was not required of her for Willoughby’s; since, though Marianne might lose much, he could gain very little by the enforcement of the real truth. After a short silence on both sides, Mrs. Jennings, with all her natural hilarity, burst forth again.

Elinor, for her sister’s sake, couldn’t push the topic any further, and she hoped it wasn’t expected of her for Willoughby’s sake; since, even though Marianne might lose a lot, he wouldn’t gain much by forcing the real truth. After a brief silence on both sides, Mrs. Jennings, with all her natural cheerfulness, spoke up again.

“Well, my dear, ’tis a true saying about an ill-wind, for it will be all the better for Colonel Brandon. He will have her at last; aye, that he will. Mind me, now, if they an’t married by Mid-summer. Lord! how he’ll chuckle over this news! I hope he will come tonight. It will be all to one a better match for your sister. Two thousand a year without debt or drawback—except the little love-child, indeed; aye, I had forgot her; but she may be ’prenticed out at a small cost, and then what does it signify? Delaford is a nice place, I can tell you; exactly what I call a nice old fashioned place, full of comforts and conveniences; quite shut in with great garden walls that are covered with the best fruit-trees in the country; and such a mulberry tree in one corner! Lord! how Charlotte and I did stuff the only time we were there! Then, there is a dove-cote, some delightful stew-ponds, and a very pretty canal; and every thing, in short, that one could wish for; and, moreover, it is close to the church, and only a quarter of a mile from the turnpike-road, so ’tis never dull, for if you only go and sit up in an old yew arbour behind the house, you may see all the carriages that pass along. Oh! ’tis a nice place! A butcher hard by in the village, and the parsonage-house within a stone’s throw. To my fancy, a thousand times prettier than Barton Park, where they are forced to send three miles for their meat, and have not a neighbour nearer than your mother. Well, I shall spirit up the Colonel as soon as I can. One shoulder of mutton, you know, drives another down. If we can but put Willoughby out of her head!”

“Well, my dear, it’s a true saying about an ill wind, because it’s going to work out better for Colonel Brandon. He will finally have her; yes, he will. Just watch, if they aren’t married by Midsummer. Oh! how he’ll laugh when he hears this! I really hope he comes tonight. It will definitely be a better match for your sister. Two thousand a year without any debt or drawbacks—except for that little love child, of course; yes, I had forgotten about her; but she can be apprenticed out for a small fee, so what does it matter? Delaford is a lovely place, I can tell you; exactly what I consider a nice old-fashioned place, full of comforts and conveniences; all enclosed by high garden walls covered in the best fruit trees in the country; and there’s such a mulberry tree in one corner! Oh! how Charlotte and I gorged ourselves the only time we were there! Then, there’s a dove cot, some delightful fish ponds, and a really pretty canal; and everything, in short, that anyone could wish for; plus, it’s close to the church and only a quarter of a mile from the turnpike road, so it’s never boring, because if you just sit up in an old yew arbor behind the house, you can see all the carriages that pass by. Oh! it’s a lovely place! There’s a butcher nearby in the village, and the parsonage is just a stone’s throw away. In my opinion, it's a thousand times prettier than Barton Park, where they have to send three miles for their meat, and have no neighbor closer than your mother. Well, I’ll get Colonel Brandon to visit as soon as I can. One shoulder of mutton always leads to another. If we can just get Willoughby out of her mind!”

“Ay, if we can do that, Ma’am,” said Elinor, “we shall do very well with or without Colonel Brandon.” And then rising, she went away to join Marianne, whom she found, as she expected, in her own room, leaning, in silent misery, over the small remains of a fire, which, till Elinor’s entrance, had been her only light.

“Yeah, if we can do that, Ma’am,” said Elinor, “we'll be just fine with or without Colonel Brandon.” Then she got up and went to join Marianne, who she found, as expected, in her own room, leaning in silent misery over the small remnants of a fire, which had been her only light until Elinor came in.

“You had better leave me,” was all the notice that her sister received from her.

“You should just go,” was all the notice that her sister got from her.

“I will leave you,” said Elinor, “if you will go to bed.” But this, from the momentary perverseness of impatient suffering, she at first refused to do. Her sister’s earnest, though gentle persuasion, however, soon softened her to compliance, and Elinor saw her lay her aching head on the pillow, and as she hoped, in a way to get some quiet rest before she left her.

“I'll leave you,” Elinor said, “if you go to bed.” But out of a momentary stubbornness from her discomfort, she initially refused. However, her sister's sincere, gentle encouragement soon convinced her to agree, and Elinor watched her lay her aching head on the pillow, hoping she would get some quiet rest before she left her.

In the drawing-room, whither she then repaired, she was soon joined by Mrs. Jennings, with a wine-glass, full of something, in her hand.

In the living room, where she went next, she was soon joined by Mrs. Jennings, holding a wine glass filled with something.

“My dear,” said she, entering, “I have just recollected that I have some of the finest old Constantia wine in the house that ever was tasted, so I have brought a glass of it for your sister. My poor husband! how fond he was of it! Whenever he had a touch of his old colicky gout, he said it did him more good than any thing else in the world. Do take it to your sister.”

“My dear,” she said as she walked in, “I just remembered that I have some of the finest old Constantia wine in the house that’s ever been tasted, so I’ve brought a glass of it for your sister. My poor husband! He loved it so much! Whenever he had a flare-up of his old colicky gout, he said it did him more good than anything else in the world. Please take it to your sister.”

“Dear Ma’am,” replied Elinor, smiling at the difference of the complaints for which it was recommended, “how good you are! But I have just left Marianne in bed, and, I hope, almost asleep; and as I think nothing will be of so much service to her as rest, if you will give me leave, I will drink the wine myself.”

“Dear Ma’am,” Elinor replied, smiling at the variety of complaints it was suggested for, “you’re so kind! But I just left Marianne in bed, and I hope she’s almost asleep; and since I believe that rest will benefit her the most, if you don't mind, I’ll have the wine myself.”

Mrs. Jennings, though regretting that she had not been five minutes earlier, was satisfied with the compromise; and Elinor, as she swallowed the chief of it, reflected, that though its effects on a colicky gout were, at present, of little importance to her, its healing powers, on a disappointed heart might be as reasonably tried on herself as on her sister.

Mrs. Jennings, although she wished she had arrived five minutes earlier, was okay with the compromise; and Elinor, as she accepted most of it, thought that while its effects on a bad case of gout weren't very important to her right now, its healing powers for a broken heart could be just as valid for herself as they were for her sister.

Colonel Brandon came in while the party were at tea, and by his manner of looking round the room for Marianne, Elinor immediately fancied that he neither expected nor wished to see her there, and, in short, that he was already aware of what occasioned her absence. Mrs. Jennings was not struck by the same thought; for soon after his entrance, she walked across the room to the tea-table where Elinor presided, and whispered, “The Colonel looks as grave as ever you see. He knows nothing of it; do tell him, my dear.”

Colonel Brandon walked in while everyone was having tea, and the way he scanned the room for Marianne made Elinor think that he neither expected nor wanted to see her there, and basically, that he already knew why she was missing. Mrs. Jennings didn’t have the same idea; shortly after he arrived, she crossed the room to the tea table where Elinor was, and whispered, “The Colonel looks as serious as usual. He doesn’t know anything about it; please tell him, my dear.”

He shortly afterwards drew a chair close to hers, and, with a look which perfectly assured her of his good information, inquired after her sister.

He shortly after pulled a chair closer to hers and, with a look that completely reassured her of his solid knowledge, asked about her sister.

“Marianne is not well,” said she. “She has been indisposed all day, and we have persuaded her to go to bed.”

“Marianne isn’t feeling well,” she said. “She’s been unwell all day, and we convinced her to go to bed.”

“Perhaps, then,” he hesitatingly replied, “what I heard this morning may be—there may be more truth in it than I could believe possible at first.”

“Maybe, then,” he said hesitantly, “what I heard this morning might actually—there could be more truth in it than I initially believed possible.”

“What did you hear?”

"What did you hear?"

“That a gentleman, whom I had reason to think—in short, that a man, whom I knew to be engaged—but how shall I tell you? If you know it already, as surely you must, I may be spared.”

"That a gentleman, whom I had reason to think—in short, that a man, whom I knew to be involved—but how should I put this? If you already know, as you surely must, I can skip it."

“You mean,” answered Elinor, with forced calmness, “Mr. Willoughby’s marriage with Miss Grey. Yes, we do know it all. This seems to have been a day of general elucidation, for this very morning first unfolded it to us. Mr. Willoughby is unfathomable! Where did you hear it?”

“You mean,” replied Elinor, trying to stay calm, “Mr. Willoughby’s marriage to Miss Grey. Yes, we do know all about it. It seems like today has been a day of revelations, as we just found out this morning. Mr. Willoughby is so hard to figure out! Where did you hear that?”

“In a stationer’s shop in Pall Mall, where I had business. Two ladies were waiting for their carriage, and one of them was giving the other an account of the intended match, in a voice so little attempting concealment, that it was impossible for me not to hear all. The name of Willoughby, John Willoughby, frequently repeated, first caught my attention; and what followed was a positive assertion that every thing was now finally settled respecting his marriage with Miss Grey—it was no longer to be a secret—it would take place even within a few weeks, with many particulars of preparations and other matters. One thing, especially, I remember, because it served to identify the man still more:—as soon as the ceremony was over, they were to go to Combe Magna, his seat in Somersetshire. My astonishment!—but it would be impossible to describe what I felt. The communicative lady I learnt, on inquiry, for I stayed in the shop till they were gone, was a Mrs. Ellison, and that, as I have been since informed, is the name of Miss Grey’s guardian.”

“In a stationery shop on Pall Mall, where I had some business, two ladies were waiting for their carriage. One of them was telling the other about an upcoming marriage in a tone that was so open it was impossible for me not to overhear everything. The name Willoughby, John Willoughby, came up frequently and caught my attention. They were stating definitively that everything was now settled regarding his marriage to Miss Grey—it wouldn’t be a secret anymore—it was set to happen in just a few weeks, along with many details about the preparations and other matters. One detail I especially remember because it helped identify the man even more: as soon as the ceremony was over, they were going to Combe Magna, his estate in Somersetshire. I was shocked!—but it's impossible to describe what I felt. I found out that the talkative lady, who I stayed in the shop to learn about after they'd left, was Mrs. Ellison, which, as I later learned, is the name of Miss Grey's guardian.”

“It is. But have you likewise heard that Miss Grey has fifty thousand pounds? In that, if in any thing, we may find an explanation.”

“It is. But have you also heard that Miss Grey has fifty thousand pounds? In that, if in anything, we might find an explanation.”

“It may be so; but Willoughby is capable—at least I think”—he stopped a moment; then added in a voice which seemed to distrust itself, “And your sister—how did she—”

“It might be true; but Willoughby is capable—at least I think so”—he paused for a moment; then added in a voice that seemed to doubt itself, “And your sister—how did she—”

“Her sufferings have been very severe. I have only to hope that they may be proportionately short. It has been, it is a most cruel affliction. Till yesterday, I believe, she never doubted his regard; and even now, perhaps—but I am almost convinced that he never was really attached to her. He has been very deceitful! and, in some points, there seems a hardness of heart about him.”

“Her suffering has been really intense. I can only hope that it’s relatively brief. It has been, and still is, a very harsh ordeal. Until yesterday, I think she never questioned his feelings for her; and even now, maybe—but I am almost sure that he was never truly in love with her. He has been very deceitful! And, in some ways, he seems to have a hard heart.”

“Ah!” said Colonel Brandon, “there is, indeed! But your sister does not—I think you said so—she does not consider quite as you do?”

“Ah!” said Colonel Brandon, “there is, really! But your sister doesn't—I think you mentioned this—she doesn’t see it quite the same way you do?”

“You know her disposition, and may believe how eagerly she would still justify him if she could.”

“You know her personality, and you can probably tell how much she would still defend him if she had the chance.”

He made no answer; and soon afterwards, by the removal of the tea-things, and the arrangement of the card parties, the subject was necessarily dropped. Mrs. Jennings, who had watched them with pleasure while they were talking, and who expected to see the effect of Miss Dashwood’s communication, in such an instantaneous gaiety on Colonel Brandon’s side, as might have become a man in the bloom of youth, of hope and happiness, saw him, with amazement, remain the whole evening more serious and thoughtful than usual.

He didn't respond; and soon after, as the tea things were cleared away and the card games were set up, the topic had to be dropped. Mrs. Jennings, who had enjoyed watching them while they talked and had expected to see Miss Dashwood's news instantly lift Colonel Brandon's mood like it would for a young man full of life, hope, and happiness, was amazed to see him remain more serious and thoughtful than usual the whole evening.

CHAPTER XXXI.

From a night of more sleep than she had expected, Marianne awoke the next morning to the same consciousness of misery in which she had closed her eyes.

From a night of more sleep than she had expected, Marianne woke up the next morning to the same awareness of misery that she had felt when she closed her eyes.

Elinor encouraged her as much as possible to talk of what she felt; and before breakfast was ready, they had gone through the subject again and again; and with the same steady conviction and affectionate counsel on Elinor’s side, the same impetuous feelings and varying opinions on Marianne’s, as before. Sometimes she could believe Willoughby to be as unfortunate and as innocent as herself, and at others, lost every consolation in the impossibility of acquitting him. At one moment she was absolutely indifferent to the observation of all the world, at another she would seclude herself from it for ever, and at a third could resist it with energy. In one thing, however, she was uniform, when it came to the point, in avoiding, where it was possible, the presence of Mrs. Jennings, and in a determined silence when obliged to endure it. Her heart was hardened against the belief of Mrs. Jennings’s entering into her sorrows with any compassion.

Elinor encouraged her as much as she could to talk about her feelings; and before breakfast was ready, they had gone over the topic again and again. With the same steady belief and caring advice from Elinor, and the same intense emotions and mixed opinions from Marianne as before. Sometimes she could believe that Willoughby was as unfortunate and innocent as she was, while at other times, she found no comfort in the thought that he might be innocent. One moment she felt completely indifferent to what others thought, while the next, she wanted to shut herself away from everyone forever, and in another moment, she could resist it with determination. However, one thing remained constant: when it came down to it, she avoided Mrs. Jennings whenever she could and maintained a resolute silence when she had to be around her. Her heart was closed off to the idea that Mrs. Jennings could empathize with her sorrows.

“No, no, no, it cannot be,” she cried; “she cannot feel. Her kindness is not sympathy; her good-nature is not tenderness. All that she wants is gossip, and she only likes me now because I supply it.”

“No, no, no, it can't be,” she exclaimed; “she can't really feel. Her kindness isn't genuine sympathy; her good nature isn't true tenderness. All she wants is gossip, and she only cares about me now because I'm the one providing it.”

Elinor had not needed this to be assured of the injustice to which her sister was often led in her opinion of others, by the irritable refinement of her own mind, and the too great importance placed by her on the delicacies of a strong sensibility, and the graces of a polished manner. Like half the rest of the world, if more than half there be that are clever and good, Marianne, with excellent abilities and an excellent disposition, was neither reasonable nor candid. She expected from other people the same opinions and feelings as her own, and she judged of their motives by the immediate effect of their actions on herself. Thus a circumstance occurred, while the sisters were together in their own room after breakfast, which sunk the heart of Mrs. Jennings still lower in her estimation; because, through her own weakness, it chanced to prove a source of fresh pain to herself, though Mrs. Jennings was governed in it by an impulse of the utmost goodwill.

Elinor didn't need this to be aware of the unfairness that often influenced her sister's views of others, driven by the sensitive nature of her own mind and the excessive importance she placed on the nuances of strong feelings and the charm of a refined demeanor. Like a lot of the world, if not more than half of those who are smart and kind, Marianne, despite her great abilities and wonderful personality, was neither reasonable nor straightforward. She expected others to share her opinions and feelings, and she judged their motives based on how their actions affected her directly. So, a situation arose while the sisters were in their room after breakfast that lowered Mrs. Jennings's opinion of herself even further because, due to her own vulnerability, it ended up causing her more pain, even though Mrs. Jennings acted out of the best intentions.

With a letter in her outstretched hand, and countenance gaily smiling, from the persuasion of bringing comfort, she entered their room, saying,

With a letter in her outstretched hand and a cheerful smile, eager to bring comfort, she entered their room, saying,

“Now, my dear, I bring you something that I am sure will do you good.”

“Now, my dear, I have something for you that I’m sure will help you.”

Marianne heard enough. In one moment her imagination placed before her a letter from Willoughby, full of tenderness and contrition, explanatory of all that had passed, satisfactory, convincing; and instantly followed by Willoughby himself, rushing eagerly into the room to inforce, at her feet, by the eloquence of his eyes, the assurances of his letter. The work of one moment was destroyed by the next. The hand writing of her mother, never till then unwelcome, was before her; and, in the acuteness of the disappointment which followed such an ecstasy of more than hope, she felt as if, till that instant, she had never suffered.

Marianne had heard enough. In an instant, her imagination presented her with a letter from Willoughby, filled with warmth and remorse, explaining everything that had happened, and it felt satisfying and convincing. Then, almost immediately, Willoughby himself rushed eagerly into the room, ready to reinforce the promises of his letter with the expression in his eyes, right at her feet. The joy she felt for that fleeting moment was shattered by the next. Her mother’s handwriting, which had never bothered her before, was now in front of her; and in the sharp disappointment that came after such overwhelming hope, she realized that, until that moment, she had never truly felt pain.

The cruelty of Mrs. Jennings no language, within her reach in her moments of happiest eloquence, could have expressed; and now she could reproach her only by the tears which streamed from her eyes with passionate violence—a reproach, however, so entirely lost on its object, that after many expressions of pity, she withdrew, still referring her to the letter of comfort. But the letter, when she was calm enough to read it, brought little comfort. Willoughby filled every page. Her mother, still confident of their engagement, and relying as warmly as ever on his constancy, had only been roused by Elinor’s application, to intreat from Marianne greater openness towards them both; and this, with such tenderness towards her, such affection for Willoughby, and such a conviction of their future happiness in each other, that she wept with agony through the whole of it.

The cruelty of Mrs. Jennings was beyond what any words could express, even at her most eloquent moments; and now, the only way she could confront her was through the tears that flowed from her eyes with intense emotion—a confrontation that was completely lost on Mrs. Jennings. After offering several expressions of pity, she left, still directing her to the comforting letter. But when Marianne was calm enough to read it, it provided little solace. Willoughby dominated every page. Her mother, still believing in their engagement and as confident as ever in his loyalty, had only been prompted by Elinor’s request to urge Marianne to be more open with both of them. This letter contained such tenderness towards her, such affection for Willoughby, and such strong belief in their future happiness together that she wept in agony the whole time.

All her impatience to be at home again now returned; her mother was dearer to her than ever; dearer through the very excess of her mistaken confidence in Willoughby, and she was wildly urgent to be gone. Elinor, unable herself to determine whether it were better for Marianne to be in London or at Barton, offered no counsel of her own except of patience till their mother’s wishes could be known; and at length she obtained her sister’s consent to wait for that knowledge.

All her impatience to be home again came back; her mother meant more to her than ever, especially because of her misguided trust in Willoughby, and she was desperate to leave. Elinor, uncertain whether it was better for Marianne to be in London or at Barton, offered no advice of her own except to be patient until they could find out what their mother wanted; eventually, she got her sister to agree to wait for that information.

Mrs. Jennings left them earlier than usual; for she could not be easy till the Middletons and Palmers were able to grieve as much as herself; and positively refusing Elinor’s offered attendance, went out alone for the rest of the morning. Elinor, with a very heavy heart, aware of the pain she was going to communicate, and perceiving, by Marianne’s letter, how ill she had succeeded in laying any foundation for it, then sat down to write her mother an account of what had passed, and entreat her directions for the future; while Marianne, who came into the drawing-room on Mrs. Jennings’s going away, remained fixed at the table where Elinor wrote, watching the advancement of her pen, grieving over her for the hardship of such a task, and grieving still more fondly over its effect on her mother.

Mrs. Jennings left them earlier than usual because she couldn’t relax until the Middletons and Palmers were able to grieve just like her. She firmly refused Elinor’s offer to join her and went out alone for the rest of the morning. Elinor, with a very heavy heart, knowing the painful message she was about to deliver, and realizing from Marianne’s letter how poorly she had prepared for it, sat down to write her mother an update on what had happened and to ask for her guidance moving forward. Meanwhile, Marianne, who entered the drawing-room after Mrs. Jennings left, stayed by the table where Elinor was writing, watching her pen move, feeling sorrow for her sister for having to do such a difficult task, and grieving even more for the impact it would have on their mother.

In this manner they had continued about a quarter of an hour, when Marianne, whose nerves could not then bear any sudden noise, was startled by a rap at the door.

In this way, they carried on for about fifteen minutes when Marianne, whose nerves couldn’t handle any sudden noise at that moment, was startled by a knock at the door.

“Who can this be?” cried Elinor. “So early too! I thought we had been safe.”

“Who could this be?” exclaimed Elinor. “So early! I thought we were safe.”

Marianne moved to the window.

Marianne went to the window.

“It is Colonel Brandon!” said she, with vexation. “We are never safe from him.”

“It’s Colonel Brandon!” she said, annoyed. “We’re never safe from him.”

“He will not come in, as Mrs. Jennings is from home.”

“He won’t come in since Mrs. Jennings is out.”

“I will not trust to that,” retreating to her own room. “A man who has nothing to do with his own time has no conscience in his intrusion on that of others.”

“I won't rely on that,” she said, retreating to her own room. “A man who doesn't value his own time has no regard for infringing on the time of others.”

The event proved her conjecture right, though it was founded on injustice and error; for Colonel Brandon did come in; and Elinor, who was convinced that solicitude for Marianne brought him thither, and who saw that solicitude in his disturbed and melancholy look, and in his anxious though brief inquiry after her, could not forgive her sister for esteeming him so lightly.

The event confirmed her guess, even though it was based on unfairness and mistakes; because Colonel Brandon did arrive; and Elinor, who believed that his concern for Marianne was what brought him there, and who noticed that concern in his troubled and sad expression, as well as in his worried but short questions about her, couldn’t forgive her sister for thinking so little of him.

“I met Mrs. Jennings in Bond Street,” said he, after the first salutation, “and she encouraged me to come on; and I was the more easily encouraged, because I thought it probable that I might find you alone, which I was very desirous of doing. My object—my wish—my sole wish in desiring it—I hope, I believe it is—is to be a means of giving comfort;—no, I must not say comfort—not present comfort—but conviction, lasting conviction to your sister’s mind. My regard for her, for yourself, for your mother—will you allow me to prove it, by relating some circumstances which nothing but a very sincere regard—nothing but an earnest desire of being useful—I think I am justified—though where so many hours have been spent in convincing myself that I am right, is there not some reason to fear I may be wrong?” He stopped.

“I ran into Mrs. Jennings on Bond Street,” he said after the initial greeting, “and she encouraged me to come over. I was more easily persuaded because I thought there was a good chance I’d find you alone, which I really wanted. My goal—my only goal in wanting this—I hope, I believe it is—is to help provide reassurance; no, I shouldn’t say reassurance—not immediate reassurance—but a lasting conviction for your sister. My feelings for her, for you, for your mother—will you let me show it by sharing some details that can only come from a genuine regard—nothing but a sincere desire to be helpful—I think I’m justified in doing so—though after spending so many hours convincing myself I’m right, isn’t there some reason to worry I might be wrong?” He paused.

“I understand you,” said Elinor. “You have something to tell me of Mr. Willoughby, that will open his character farther. Your telling it will be the greatest act of friendship that can be shown Marianne. My gratitude will be insured immediately by any information tending to that end, and hers must be gained by it in time. Pray, pray let me hear it.”

“I get it,” Elinor said. “You have something to share about Mr. Willoughby that will give me a better understanding of him. Sharing this will be the biggest act of kindness you can show Marianne. I will be grateful right away for any details that help with that, and in time, she will be too. Please, please tell me.”

“You shall; and, to be brief, when I quitted Barton last October,—but this will give you no idea—I must go farther back. You will find me a very awkward narrator, Miss Dashwood; I hardly know where to begin. A short account of myself, I believe, will be necessary, and it shall be a short one. On such a subject,” sighing heavily, “can I have little temptation to be diffuse.”

“You will; and to keep it short, when I left Barton last October—but that won't give you the full picture—I need to go back a bit further. You'll find me to be a pretty awkward storyteller, Miss Dashwood; I hardly know where to start. I think a brief summary of myself is needed, and it will be brief. On such a topic,” sighing heavily, “I have little desire to go into detail.”

He stopt a moment for recollection, and then, with another sigh, went on.

He stopped for a moment to remember, and then, with another sigh, continued.

“You have probably entirely forgotten a conversation—(it is not to be supposed that it could make any impression on you)—a conversation between us one evening at Barton Park—it was the evening of a dance—in which I alluded to a lady I had once known, as resembling, in some measure, your sister Marianne.”

“You probably don’t even remember a conversation we had one evening at Barton Park—it was

“Indeed,” answered Elinor, “I have not forgotten it.” He looked pleased by this remembrance, and added,

“Of course,” Elinor replied, “I have not forgotten it.” He seemed happy about this memory and added,

“If I am not deceived by the uncertainty, the partiality of tender recollection, there is a very strong resemblance between them, as well in mind as person. The same warmth of heart, the same eagerness of fancy and spirits. This lady was one of my nearest relations, an orphan from her infancy, and under the guardianship of my father. Our ages were nearly the same, and from our earliest years we were playfellows and friends. I cannot remember the time when I did not love Eliza; and my affection for her, as we grew up, was such, as perhaps, judging from my present forlorn and cheerless gravity, you might think me incapable of having ever felt. Hers, for me, was, I believe, fervent as the attachment of your sister to Mr. Willoughby and it was, though from a different cause, no less unfortunate. At seventeen she was lost to me for ever. She was married—married against her inclination to my brother. Her fortune was large, and our family estate much encumbered. And this, I fear, is all that can be said for the conduct of one, who was at once her uncle and guardian. My brother did not deserve her; he did not even love her. I had hoped that her regard for me would support her under any difficulty, and for some time it did; but at last the misery of her situation, for she experienced great unkindness, overcame all her resolution, and though she had promised me that nothing—but how blindly I relate! I have never told you how this was brought on. We were within a few hours of eloping together for Scotland. The treachery, or the folly, of my cousin’s maid betrayed us. I was banished to the house of a relation far distant, and she was allowed no liberty, no society, no amusement, till my father’s point was gained. I had depended on her fortitude too far, and the blow was a severe one—but had her marriage been happy, so young as I then was, a few months must have reconciled me to it, or at least I should not have now to lament it. This however was not the case. My brother had no regard for her; his pleasures were not what they ought to have been, and from the first he treated her unkindly. The consequence of this, upon a mind so young, so lively, so inexperienced as Mrs. Brandon’s, was but too natural. She resigned herself at first to all the misery of her situation; and happy had it been if she had not lived to overcome those regrets which the remembrance of me occasioned. But can we wonder that, with such a husband to provoke inconstancy, and without a friend to advise or restrain her (for my father lived only a few months after their marriage, and I was with my regiment in the East Indies) she should fall? Had I remained in England, perhaps—but I meant to promote the happiness of both by removing from her for years, and for that purpose had procured my exchange. The shock which her marriage had given me,” he continued, in a voice of great agitation, “was of trifling weight—was nothing to what I felt when I heard, about two years afterwards, of her divorce. It was that which threw this gloom,—even now the recollection of what I suffered—”

“If I’m not mistaken, and despite the haziness of memory, there's a strong resemblance between them, both in personality and looks. They share the same warmth of heart and the same eagerness of imagination and spirit. This lady was one of my closest relatives, an orphan since childhood, and under my father's guardianship. We were almost the same age, and we were playmates and friends from a young age. I can’t remember a time when I didn’t love Eliza, and as we grew up, my affection for her was such that, judging by my current despondent demeanor, you might think I was incapable of feeling that way. Hers for me was, I believe, as intense as your sister’s affection for Mr. Willoughby, and though the circumstances were different, it was just as unfortunate. At seventeen, she was lost to me forever. She got married—against her will—to my brother. Her fortune was large, while our family estate was heavily burdened. Unfortunately, that’s all that can be said for the actions of one who was both her uncle and guardian. My brother didn’t deserve her; he didn’t even love her. I had hoped that her feelings for me would help her get through any hardship, and for a while it did, but eventually the misery of her situation, as she faced significant unkindness, overcame her resolve. Though she had promised me that nothing—oh, how blindly I narrate! I haven’t told you how this all unfolded. We were just hours away from eloping to Scotland. The treachery, or carelessness, of my cousin’s maid betrayed us. I was sent away to a relative’s house far away, and she was given no freedom, no companionship, no enjoyment, until my father’s goals were met. I had relied too much on her strength, and the blow was harsh—had her marriage been happy, at that young age, a few months would have reconciled me to it, or at least I wouldn’t have to mourn it now. Unfortunately, that wasn’t the case. My brother had no feelings for her; his pleasures weren’t what they should have been, and from the beginning he treated her poorly. The effect of this on a young, vibrant, and inexperienced mind like Mrs. Brandon’s was all too predictable. She initially resigned herself to the misery of her situation; it would have been better if she hadn’t lived to overcome the regrets that remembering me brought her. But can we blame her? With such a husband to provoke her disloyalty, and without a friend to guide or restrain her (my father passed away only a few months after their marriage, and I was serving with my regiment in the East Indies), it’s no surprise she fell. If I had stayed in England, perhaps—however, I intended to ensure both our happiness by staying away from her for years, which is why I arranged my transfer. The shock her marriage caused me,” he continued, voice filled with emotion, “was minor—nothing compared to what I felt when I heard, about two years later, of her divorce. That was what cast this shadow over me; even now, the memory of what I endured—”

He could say no more, and rising hastily walked for a few minutes about the room. Elinor, affected by his relation, and still more by his distress, could not speak. He saw her concern, and coming to her, took her hand, pressed it, and kissed it with grateful respect. A few minutes more of silent exertion enabled him to proceed with composure.

He couldn't say anything else and, getting up quickly, walked around the room for a few minutes. Elinor, moved by what he shared and even more by his pain, couldn’t find her voice. He noticed her worry, walked over to her, took her hand, squeezed it, and kissed it with appreciation. After a few more minutes of quiet effort, he was able to continue with calm.

“It was nearly three years after this unhappy period before I returned to England. My first care, when I did arrive, was of course to seek for her; but the search was as fruitless as it was melancholy. I could not trace her beyond her first seducer, and there was every reason to fear that she had removed from him only to sink deeper in a life of sin. Her legal allowance was not adequate to her fortune, nor sufficient for her comfortable maintenance, and I learnt from my brother that the power of receiving it had been made over some months before to another person. He imagined, and calmly could he imagine it, that her extravagance, and consequent distress, had obliged her to dispose of it for some immediate relief. At last, however, and after I had been six months in England, I did find her. Regard for a former servant of my own, who had since fallen into misfortune, carried me to visit him in a spunging-house, where he was confined for debt; and there, in the same house, under a similar confinement, was my unfortunate sister. So altered—so faded—worn down by acute suffering of every kind! hardly could I believe the melancholy and sickly figure before me, to be the remains of the lovely, blooming, healthful girl, on whom I had once doted. What I endured in so beholding her—but I have no right to wound your feelings by attempting to describe it—I have pained you too much already. That she was, to all appearance, in the last stage of a consumption, was—yes, in such a situation it was my greatest comfort. Life could do nothing for her, beyond giving time for a better preparation for death; and that was given. I saw her placed in comfortable lodgings, and under proper attendants; I visited her every day during the rest of her short life: I was with her in her last moments.”

“It was nearly three years after this unfortunate time that I returned to England. My first concern upon arrival was, of course, to look for her; but my search was as pointless as it was sorrowful. I couldn’t track her down beyond her first seducer, and there was every reason to fear that she had left him only to fall deeper into a life of vice. Her legal allowance wasn’t enough for her fortune, nor sufficient for her comfortable living, and I learned from my brother that the authority to receive it had been transferred to someone else several months earlier. He thought, and could calmly think, that her spending and resulting troubles had forced her to sell it for some immediate help. Finally, however, after I had been in England for six months, I did find her. A sense of duty towards a former servant of mine, who had since fallen on hard times, led me to visit him in a debtors' prison; and there, in the same place, under a similar situation, was my unfortunate sister. So changed—so faded—worn down by intense suffering of every kind! I could hardly believe the sad and sickly figure before me was the same lovely, vibrant girl I had once adored. What I felt seeing her like that—but I have no right to hurt your feelings by trying to describe it—I have already caused you enough pain. That she appeared to be in the final stages of consumption was—yes, in such a situation it was my only comfort. Life could do nothing for her, except give her time for a better preparation for death; and that time was given. I made sure she was placed in comfortable lodgings, with proper caretakers; I visited her every day for the rest of her short life: I was with her in her final moments.”

Again he stopped to recover himself; and Elinor spoke her feelings in an exclamation of tender concern, at the fate of his unfortunate friend.

Again he paused to gather himself, and Elinor expressed her feelings with an exclamation of heartfelt concern for the fate of his unfortunate friend.

“Your sister, I hope, cannot be offended,” said he, “by the resemblance I have fancied between her and my poor disgraced relation. Their fates, their fortunes, cannot be the same; and had the natural sweet disposition of the one been guarded by a firmer mind, or a happier marriage, she might have been all that you will live to see the other be. But to what does all this lead? I seem to have been distressing you for nothing. Ah! Miss Dashwood—a subject such as this—untouched for fourteen years—it is dangerous to handle it at all! I will be more collected—more concise. She left to my care her only child, a little girl, the offspring of her first guilty connection, who was then about three years old. She loved the child, and had always kept it with her. It was a valued, a precious trust to me; and gladly would I have discharged it in the strictest sense, by watching over her education myself, had the nature of our situations allowed it; but I had no family, no home; and my little Eliza was therefore placed at school. I saw her there whenever I could, and after the death of my brother, (which happened about five years ago, and which left to me the possession of the family property,) she visited me at Delaford. I called her a distant relation; but I am well aware that I have in general been suspected of a much nearer connection with her. It is now three years ago (she had just reached her fourteenth year,) that I removed her from school, to place her under the care of a very respectable woman, residing in Dorsetshire, who had the charge of four or five other girls of about the same time of life; and for two years I had every reason to be pleased with her situation. But last February, almost a twelvemonth back, she suddenly disappeared. I had allowed her, (imprudently, as it has since turned out,) at her earnest desire, to go to Bath with one of her young friends, who was attending her father there for his health. I knew him to be a very good sort of man, and I thought well of his daughter—better than she deserved, for, with a most obstinate and ill-judged secrecy, she would tell nothing, would give no clue, though she certainly knew all. He, her father, a well-meaning, but not a quick-sighted man, could really, I believe, give no information; for he had been generally confined to the house, while the girls were ranging over the town and making what acquaintance they chose; and he tried to convince me, as thoroughly as he was convinced himself, of his daughter’s being entirely unconcerned in the business. In short, I could learn nothing but that she was gone; all the rest, for eight long months, was left to conjecture. What I thought, what I feared, may be imagined; and what I suffered too.”

"Your sister, I hope, won't be offended," he said, "by the similarity I've imagined between her and my poor disgraced relative. Their outcomes and circumstances aren’t the same; and if the naturally sweet character of one had been protected by a stronger mindset or a better marriage, she could have become everything you will eventually see the other become. But where is this leading us? I feel like I've been troubling you for no reason. Ah! Miss Dashwood—discussing a topic like this—untouched for fourteen years—it's risky to address it at all! I will be more composed—more to the point. She entrusted me with her only child, a little girl from her first unfortunate relationship, who was about three years old at the time. She loved the child and always kept her close. It was a valued and precious responsibility for me; I would have gladly taken it on completely by overseeing her education myself if our circumstances allowed it, but I had no family, no home; so my little Eliza was placed in school. I visited her there whenever I could, and after my brother passed away about five years ago, which left me the family property, she came to stay with me at Delaford. I called her a distant relative; however, I know I have generally been suspected of being much closer to her. Three years ago (she had just turned fourteen), I moved her from school to place her in the care of a very respectable woman living in Dorsetshire, who looked after four or five other girls around the same age; for two years I had every reason to be pleased with her situation. But last February, almost a year ago now, she suddenly vanished. I had allowed her, (foolishly, as it turns out,) at her sincere request, to go to Bath with one of her young friends, who was there with her father for his health. I knew him to be a decent man, and I thought well of his daughter—better than she deserved, as she was secretive and stubbornly refused to share anything, even though she clearly knew all the details. He, her father, a well-intentioned but not particularly insightful man, couldn’t really provide any information; he had mostly been stuck at home while the girls were out exploring the town and making their own acquaintances; and he tried to convince me, as thoroughly as he believed himself, that his daughter was completely uninvolved in the situation. In short, I couldn’t find out anything other than that she was gone; everything else for eight long months was left up to speculation. You can imagine what I thought, what I feared, and what I suffered."

“Good heavens!” cried Elinor, “could it be—could Willoughby!”—

“Good heavens!” exclaimed Elinor, “could it be—could Willoughby?”—

“The first news that reached me of her,” he continued, “came in a letter from herself, last October. It was forwarded to me from Delaford, and I received it on the very morning of our intended party to Whitwell; and this was the reason of my leaving Barton so suddenly, which I am sure must at the time have appeared strange to every body, and which I believe gave offence to some. Little did Mr. Willoughby imagine, I suppose, when his looks censured me for incivility in breaking up the party, that I was called away to the relief of one whom he had made poor and miserable; but had he known it, what would it have availed? Would he have been less gay or less happy in the smiles of your sister? No, he had already done that, which no man who can feel for another would do. He had left the girl whose youth and innocence he had seduced, in a situation of the utmost distress, with no creditable home, no help, no friends, ignorant of his address! He had left her, promising to return; he neither returned, nor wrote, nor relieved her.”

"The first news I got about her," he continued, "was in a letter from her last October. It was forwarded to me from Delaford, and I received it on the very morning we planned to go to Whitwell; and that’s why I left Barton so suddenly. I’m sure it must have seemed strange to everyone at the time, and I believe it offended some people. Mr. Willoughby probably didn’t realize, when he shot me those disapproving looks for cutting short the party, that I was needed to help someone he had made poor and miserable. But even if he had known, what good would it have done? Would he have been any less cheerful or happy in your sister’s company? No, he had already done something that no decent person would do. He had left the girl whose youth and innocence he had exploited in the most distressing situation, with no decent home, no support, no friends, and no clue where he was! He had left her promising to come back; he neither returned, nor wrote, nor helped her."

“This is beyond every thing!” exclaimed Elinor.

“This is beyond everything!” exclaimed Elinor.

“His character is now before you; expensive, dissipated, and worse than both. Knowing all this, as I have now known it many weeks, guess what I must have felt on seeing your sister as fond of him as ever, and on being assured that she was to marry him: guess what I must have felt for all your sakes. When I came to you last week and found you alone, I came determined to know the truth; though irresolute what to do when it was known. My behaviour must have seemed strange to you then; but now you will comprehend it. To suffer you all to be so deceived; to see your sister—but what could I do? I had no hope of interfering with success; and sometimes I thought your sister’s influence might yet reclaim him. But now, after such dishonorable usage, who can tell what were his designs on her. Whatever they may have been, however, she may now, and hereafter doubtless will turn with gratitude towards her own condition, when she compares it with that of my poor Eliza, when she considers the wretched and hopeless situation of this poor girl, and pictures her to herself, with an affection for him so strong, still as strong as her own, and with a mind tormented by self-reproach, which must attend her through life. Surely this comparison must have its use with her. She will feel her own sufferings to be nothing. They proceed from no misconduct, and can bring no disgrace. On the contrary, every friend must be made still more her friend by them. Concern for her unhappiness, and respect for her fortitude under it, must strengthen every attachment. Use your own discretion, however, in communicating to her what I have told you. You must know best what will be its effect; but had I not seriously, and from my heart believed it might be of service, might lessen her regrets, I would not have suffered myself to trouble you with this account of my family afflictions, with a recital which may seem to have been intended to raise myself at the expense of others.”

“His character is now in front of you; expensive, reckless, and worse than both. Knowing all this, as I have for many weeks now, imagine how I felt seeing your sister still so fond of him and being told she was going to marry him: think of what I felt for all of you. When I visited you last week and found you alone, I was eager to find out the truth; even though I wasn’t sure what to do once I knew it. My behavior must have seemed odd to you then; but now you’ll understand. Allowing all of you to be so misled; seeing your sister—but what could I do? I had no hope of successfully intervening; and sometimes I thought your sister’s influence might still bring him back to his senses. But now, after such dishonorable treatment, who can guess what his intentions were with her? Whatever they were, she might now, and surely will in the future, feel grateful for her own situation when she compares it to that of my poor Eliza. When she thinks of the miserable and hopeless condition of that poor girl, and imagines her having feelings for him as strong as her own, and with a mind plagued by self-blame that she will carry with her throughout her life. Surely this comparison must serve some purpose for her. She will see her own suffering as insignificant. They come from no wrongdoing and bring no shame. On the contrary, every friend must bond with her even more because of it. Concern for her unhappiness and respect for her strength in facing it must deepen every relationship. Use your discretion, however, when telling her what I’ve shared with you. You know best how it will affect her; but had I not truly believed it might help and ease her regrets, I wouldn’t have troubled you with this account of my family troubles, with a story that may seem aimed at elevating myself at the expense of others.”

Elinor’s thanks followed this speech with grateful earnestness; attended too with the assurance of her expecting material advantage to Marianne, from the communication of what had passed.

Elinor thanked him sincerely right after his speech, feeling grateful and confident that sharing what had happened would benefit Marianne in a significant way.

“I have been more pained,” said she, “by her endeavors to acquit him than by all the rest; for it irritates her mind more than the most perfect conviction of his unworthiness can do. Now, though at first she will suffer much, I am sure she will soon become easier. Have you,” she continued, after a short silence, “ever seen Mr. Willoughby since you left him at Barton?”

“I have been more hurt,” she said, “by her trying to defend him than by everything else; it frustrates her more than being completely convinced of his unworthiness ever could. Now, even though she will suffer a lot at first, I’m sure she’ll start to feel better soon. Have you,” she continued after a brief silence, “seen Mr. Willoughby at all since you left him at Barton?”

“Yes,” he replied gravely, “once I have. One meeting was unavoidable.”

“Yes,” he replied seriously, “I have once. One meeting couldn’t be avoided.”

Elinor, startled by his manner, looked at him anxiously, saying,

Elinor, surprised by how he was acting, looked at him with concern, saying,

“What? have you met him to—”

“What? Have you met him to—”

“I could meet him no other way. Eliza had confessed to me, though most reluctantly, the name of her lover; and when he returned to town, which was within a fortnight after myself, we met by appointment, he to defend, I to punish his conduct. We returned unwounded, and the meeting, therefore, never got abroad.”

“I could meet him no other way. Eliza had reluctantly confessed to me the name of her lover; and when he came back to town, just two weeks after I did, we met as planned—he to defend himself, and I to confront him about his actions. We walked away unharmed, so the meeting never got out.”

Elinor sighed over the fancied necessity of this; but to a man and a soldier she presumed not to censure it.

Elinor sighed at what she thought was the need for this; but she didn’t feel it was her place to criticize a man and a soldier.

“Such,” said Colonel Brandon, after a pause, “has been the unhappy resemblance between the fate of mother and daughter! and so imperfectly have I discharged my trust!”

“Such,” said Colonel Brandon, after a pause, “has been the unfortunate similarity between the fates of mother and daughter! And I’ve done such a poor job of fulfilling my duty!”

“Is she still in town?”

“Is she still around?”

“No; as soon as she recovered from her lying-in, for I found her near her delivery, I removed her and her child into the country, and there she remains.”

“No; as soon as she recovered from giving birth, since I found her close to her delivery, I took her and her child out to the country, and that's where she stays.”

Recollecting, soon afterwards, that he was probably dividing Elinor from her sister, he put an end to his visit, receiving from her again the same grateful acknowledgments, and leaving her full of compassion and esteem for him.

Remembering that he was likely keeping Elinor away from her sister, he wrapped up his visit, once again receiving her heartfelt thanks and leaving her with a sense of compassion and respect for him.

CHAPTER XXXII.

When the particulars of this conversation were repeated by Miss Dashwood to her sister, as they very soon were, the effect on her was not entirely such as the former had hoped to see. Not that Marianne appeared to distrust the truth of any part of it, for she listened to it all with the most steady and submissive attention, made neither objection nor remark, attempted no vindication of Willoughby, and seemed to show by her tears that she felt it to be impossible. But though this behaviour assured Elinor that the conviction of this guilt was carried home to her mind, though she saw with satisfaction the effect of it, in her no longer avoiding Colonel Brandon when he called, in her speaking to him, even voluntarily speaking, with a kind of compassionate respect, and though she saw her spirits less violently irritated than before, she did not see her less wretched. Her mind did become settled, but it was settled in a gloomy dejection. She felt the loss of Willoughby’s character yet more heavily than she had felt the loss of his heart; his seduction and desertion of Miss Williams, the misery of that poor girl, and the doubt of what his designs might once have been on herself, preyed altogether so much on her spirits, that she could not bring herself to speak of what she felt even to Elinor; and, brooding over her sorrows in silence, gave more pain to her sister than could have been communicated by the most open and most frequent confession of them.

When Miss Dashwood shared the details of this conversation with her sister, as she soon did, the impact on her wasn't exactly what Elinor had hoped for. Not that Marianne seemed to doubt the truth of any part of it; she listened attentively without objection or comment, didn't try to defend Willoughby, and her tears showed that she felt it was impossible. But while this behavior confirmed to Elinor that Marianne truly grasped the reality of his guilt, and although she was relieved to see that Marianne no longer avoided Colonel Brandon when he visited and even spoke to him with a certain compassionate respect, she didn't see her sister appearing any less miserable. Marianne's mind might have found some sort of resolution, but it was settled in a deep sadness. She felt the blow of Willoughby’s character loss even more than the pain of losing his love; his betrayal and abandonment of Miss Williams, the suffering of that poor girl, and the uncertainty of what his intentions might have been with her weighed so heavily on her that she couldn't bring herself to share her feelings with Elinor. Instead, she kept her sorrows to herself, which caused her sister more heartache than if she had been open and honest about them.

To give the feelings or the language of Mrs. Dashwood on receiving and answering Elinor’s letter would be only to give a repetition of what her daughters had already felt and said; of a disappointment hardly less painful than Marianne’s, and an indignation even greater than Elinor’s. Long letters from her, quickly succeeding each other, arrived to tell all that she suffered and thought; to express her anxious solicitude for Marianne, and entreat she would bear up with fortitude under this misfortune. Bad indeed must the nature of Marianne’s affliction be, when her mother could talk of fortitude! mortifying and humiliating must be the origin of those regrets, which she could wish her not to indulge!

To express how Mrs. Dashwood felt about receiving and responding to Elinor’s letter would be to repeat what her daughters had already experienced and expressed; a disappointment that was almost as painful as Marianne’s, and an anger even greater than Elinor’s. Long letters from her arrived quickly, sharing everything she felt and thought; expressing her deep concern for Marianne, and pleading with her to stay strong during this tough time. It must be really serious for Marianne if her mother felt the need to mention strength! The source of those regrets must be truly mortifying and humiliating if she wished for her not to dwell on them!

Against the interest of her own individual comfort, Mrs. Dashwood had determined that it would be better for Marianne to be any where, at that time, than at Barton, where every thing within her view would be bringing back the past in the strongest and most afflicting manner, by constantly placing Willoughby before her, such as she had always seen him there. She recommended it to her daughters, therefore, by all means not to shorten their visit to Mrs. Jennings; the length of which, though never exactly fixed, had been expected by all to comprise at least five or six weeks. A variety of occupations, of objects, and of company, which could not be procured at Barton, would be inevitable there, and might yet, she hoped, cheat Marianne, at times, into some interest beyond herself, and even into some amusement, much as the ideas of both might now be spurned by her.

Despite her own comfort, Mrs. Dashwood had decided that it would be better for Marianne to be anywhere else at that time rather than at Barton, where everything she could see would remind her of the past in the most painful way by constantly bringing Willoughby to mind, just as she had always seen him there. Therefore, she strongly advised her daughters not to cut their visit to Mrs. Jennings short; though the exact duration had never been confirmed, everyone expected it to last at least five or six weeks. The variety of activities, sights, and company that couldn’t be found at Barton would be unavoidable there and might, she hoped, distract Marianne at times with interests beyond herself and even offer her some amusement, even if those ideas now seemed unappealing to her.

From all danger of seeing Willoughby again, her mother considered her to be at least equally safe in town as in the country, since his acquaintance must now be dropped by all who called themselves her friends. Design could never bring them in each other’s way: negligence could never leave them exposed to a surprise; and chance had less in its favour in the crowd of London than even in the retirement of Barton, where it might force him before her while paying that visit at Allenham on his marriage, which Mrs. Dashwood, from foreseeing at first as a probable event, had brought herself to expect as a certain one.

From the risk of running into Willoughby again, her mother believed she was at least as safe in the city as in the countryside, since anyone who considered themselves her friend would now no longer associate with him. Intentionality could never bring them together; carelessness could never leave them exposed to an unexpected encounter; and luck was less in its favor in the busy streets of London than even in the quiet of Barton, where he might chance upon her while visiting Allenham for his wedding, which Mrs. Dashwood had come to see not just as a possible event, but as something inevitable.

She had yet another reason for wishing her children to remain where they were; a letter from her son-in-law had told her that he and his wife were to be in town before the middle of February, and she judged it right that they should sometimes see their brother.

She had one more reason for wanting her kids to stay where they were; a letter from her son-in-law said that he and his wife would be in town before mid-February, and she thought it was important for them to see their brother from time to time.

Marianne had promised to be guided by her mother’s opinion, and she submitted to it therefore without opposition, though it proved perfectly different from what she wished and expected, though she felt it to be entirely wrong, formed on mistaken grounds, and that by requiring her longer continuance in London it deprived her of the only possible alleviation of her wretchedness, the personal sympathy of her mother, and doomed her to such society and such scenes as must prevent her ever knowing a moment’s rest.

Marianne had promised to follow her mother’s opinion, so she went along with it without arguing, even though it was completely different from what she wanted and expected. She felt it was totally wrong, based on misunderstandings, and that by insisting she stay in London longer, it took away the only relief from her misery—the personal support of her mother—and sentenced her to the kind of company and situations that would keep her from ever finding a moment of peace.

But it was a matter of great consolation to her, that what brought evil to herself would bring good to her sister; and Elinor, on the other hand, suspecting that it would not be in her power to avoid Edward entirely, comforted herself by thinking, that though their longer stay would therefore militate against her own happiness, it would be better for Marianne than an immediate return into Devonshire.

But it was a big comfort to her that whatever caused her trouble would bring her sister good; and Elinor, on her part, realizing that she couldn't completely avoid Edward, found solace in thinking that although their longer stay might hurt her own happiness, it would be better for Marianne than going back to Devonshire right away.

Her carefulness in guarding her sister from ever hearing Willoughby’s name mentioned, was not thrown away. Marianne, though without knowing it herself, reaped all its advantage; for neither Mrs. Jennings, nor Sir John, nor even Mrs. Palmer herself, ever spoke of him before her. Elinor wished that the same forbearance could have extended towards herself, but that was impossible, and she was obliged to listen day after day to the indignation of them all.

Her caution in keeping her sister from ever hearing Willoughby’s name wasn't wasted. Marianne, even without realizing it, benefited from it; because neither Mrs. Jennings, nor Sir John, nor even Mrs. Palmer ever mentioned him in front of her. Elinor wished the same restraint could have applied to her, but that was impossible, and she had to hear the anger from all of them day after day.

Sir John, could not have thought it possible. “A man of whom he had always had such reason to think well! Such a good-natured fellow! He did not believe there was a bolder rider in England! It was an unaccountable business. He wished him at the devil with all his heart. He would not speak another word to him, meet him where he might, for all the world! No, not if it were to be by the side of Barton covert, and they were kept watching for two hours together. Such a scoundrel of a fellow! such a deceitful dog! It was only the last time they met that he had offered him one of Folly’s puppies! and this was the end of it!”

Sir John couldn't believe it. “A guy he’d always thought so highly of! Such a nice guy! He really didn’t think there was a braver rider in England! It was completely ridiculous. He wished him the worst with all his heart. He wouldn't say another word to him, no matter where they were, not for anything! Not even if they were stuck together by the Barton covert for two hours. What a scoundrel! What a deceitful jerk! Just the last time they met, he had offered him one of Folly’s puppies! And this is how it ends!”

Mrs. Palmer, in her way, was equally angry. “She was determined to drop his acquaintance immediately, and she was very thankful that she had never been acquainted with him at all. She wished with all her heart Combe Magna was not so near Cleveland; but it did not signify, for it was a great deal too far off to visit; she hated him so much that she was resolved never to mention his name again, and she should tell everybody she saw, how good-for-nothing he was.”

Mrs. Palmer was just as angry in her own way. "She was set on ending his acquaintance right away, and she was really glad she had never even known him at all. She wished with all her heart that Combe Magna wasn’t so close to Cleveland; but it didn’t matter because it was way too far to visit. She hated him so much that she was determined never to say his name again, and she would tell everyone she met how useless he was."

The rest of Mrs. Palmer’s sympathy was shown in procuring all the particulars in her power of the approaching marriage, and communicating them to Elinor. She could soon tell at what coachmaker’s the new carriage was building, by what painter Mr. Willoughby’s portrait was drawn, and at what warehouse Miss Grey’s clothes might be seen.

The rest of Mrs. Palmer’s sympathy was shown by gathering all the details she could about the upcoming wedding and passing them on to Elinor. She quickly found out which coachmaker was making the new carriage, who painted Mr. Willoughby’s portrait, and where Miss Grey’s clothes could be found.

The calm and polite unconcern of Lady Middleton on the occasion was a happy relief to Elinor’s spirits, oppressed as they often were by the clamorous kindness of the others. It was a great comfort to her to be sure of exciting no interest in one person at least among their circle of friends: a great comfort to know that there was one who would meet her without feeling any curiosity after particulars, or any anxiety for her sister’s health.

The calm and polite indifference of Lady Middleton at the time was a welcome relief for Elinor, who often felt overwhelmed by the loud concern of the others. It was a huge comfort to her to know that at least one person in their group wouldn’t show any interest in her situation: a major comfort to realize that there was one person who would interact with her without any curiosity about details or worry about her sister’s health.

Every qualification is raised at times, by the circumstances of the moment, to more than its real value; and she was sometimes worried down by officious condolence to rate good-breeding as more indispensable to comfort than good-nature.

Every qualification is sometimes elevated by current circumstances to more than its true worth; and she was occasionally weighed down by overzealous sympathy to value good manners as more essential to comfort than kindness.

Lady Middleton expressed her sense of the affair about once every day, or twice, if the subject occurred very often, by saying, “It is very shocking, indeed!” and by the means of this continual though gentle vent, was able not only to see the Miss Dashwoods from the first without the smallest emotion, but very soon to see them without recollecting a word of the matter; and having thus supported the dignity of her own sex, and spoken her decided censure of what was wrong in the other, she thought herself at liberty to attend to the interest of her own assemblies, and therefore determined (though rather against the opinion of Sir John) that as Mrs. Willoughby would at once be a woman of elegance and fortune, to leave her card with her as soon as she married.

Lady Middleton mentioned her feelings about the situation once or twice a day, especially if the topic came up often, by saying, “It’s really shocking!” Through this ongoing, gentle expression, she managed not only to see the Miss Dashwoods from the beginning without any emotional response but also to eventually see them without even thinking about it. By maintaining the dignity of her own gender and clearly condemning what was wrong with the other, she felt free to focus on her own social events. Therefore, she decided (even though it went against Sir John's opinion) that since Mrs. Willoughby would soon be a woman of elegance and wealth, she would leave her card with her as soon as she got married.

Colonel Brandon’s delicate, unobtrusive enquiries were never unwelcome to Miss Dashwood. He had abundantly earned the privilege of intimate discussion of her sister’s disappointment, by the friendly zeal with which he had endeavoured to soften it, and they always conversed with confidence. His chief reward for the painful exertion of disclosing past sorrows and present humiliations, was given in the pitying eye with which Marianne sometimes observed him, and the gentleness of her voice whenever (though it did not often happen) she was obliged, or could oblige herself to speak to him. These assured him that his exertion had produced an increase of good-will towards himself, and these gave Elinor hopes of its being farther augmented hereafter; but Mrs. Jennings, who knew nothing of all this, who knew only that the Colonel continued as grave as ever, and that she could neither prevail on him to make the offer himself, nor commission her to make it for him, began, at the end of two days, to think that, instead of Midsummer, they would not be married till Michaelmas, and by the end of a week that it would not be a match at all. The good understanding between the Colonel and Miss Dashwood seemed rather to declare that the honours of the mulberry-tree, the canal, and the yew arbour, would all be made over to her; and Mrs. Jennings had, for some time ceased to think at all of Mrs. Ferrars.

Colonel Brandon’s gentle, unobtrusive questions were always welcome to Miss Dashwood. He had fully earned the right to discuss her sister’s disappointment through the friendly dedication he had shown in trying to ease it, and they spoke to each other with trust. His main reward for the difficult task of revealing past pains and current humiliations came from the sympathetic look Marianne sometimes gave him and the softness of her voice whenever (though it didn’t happen often) she had to, or could bring herself to, talk to him. These assured him that his efforts had led to an increase in goodwill towards him, and these gave Elinor hope that it would grow even more in the future; however, Mrs. Jennings, who knew nothing of this, only saw that the Colonel remained as serious as ever, and that she couldn’t convince him to propose himself or get him to ask her to do it for him. After two days, she started to think that instead of getting married by Midsummer, they wouldn’t tie the knot until Michaelmas, and by the end of a week, she feared it wouldn’t happen at all. The good rapport between the Colonel and Miss Dashwood seemed to suggest that the benefits of the mulberry tree, the canal, and the yew arbor would all go to her; and Mrs. Jennings had, for some time, stopped thinking about Mrs. Ferrars.

Early in February, within a fortnight from the receipt of Willoughby’s letter, Elinor had the painful office of informing her sister that he was married. She had taken care to have the intelligence conveyed to herself, as soon as it was known that the ceremony was over, as she was desirous that Marianne should not receive the first notice of it from the public papers, which she saw her eagerly examining every morning.

Early in February, about two weeks after receiving Willoughby’s letter, Elinor had the difficult task of telling her sister that he had gotten married. She made sure to hear the news herself as soon as it was confirmed that the ceremony had taken place because she wanted to ensure that Marianne didn’t find out about it first from the newspapers, which she was eagerly looking at every morning.

She received the news with resolute composure; made no observation on it, and at first shed no tears; but after a short time they would burst out, and for the rest of the day, she was in a state hardly less pitiable than when she first learnt to expect the event.

She took the news stoically; didn't comment on it, and initially shed no tears; but after a little while, they would come flowing out, and for the rest of the day, she was in a state just as heartbreaking as when she first started to anticipate the situation.

The Willoughbys left town as soon as they were married; and Elinor now hoped, as there could be no danger of her seeing either of them, to prevail on her sister, who had never yet left the house since the blow first fell, to go out again by degrees as she had done before.

The Willoughbys left town right after their wedding, and now Elinor hoped, since there was no chance of running into either of them, to persuade her sister, who hadn't stepped out of the house since the incident happened, to gradually start going out again like she used to.

About this time the two Miss Steeles, lately arrived at their cousin’s house in Bartlett’s Buildings, Holburn, presented themselves again before their more grand relations in Conduit and Berkeley Streets; and were welcomed by them all with great cordiality.

Around this time, the two Miss Steeles, who had recently arrived at their cousin’s house in Bartlett’s Buildings, Holburn, made another appearance before their more affluent relatives on Conduit and Berkeley Streets; and they were greeted by everyone with warm friendliness.

Elinor only was sorry to see them. Their presence always gave her pain, and she hardly knew how to make a very gracious return to the overpowering delight of Lucy in finding her still in town.

Elinor was just sorry to see them. Their presence always caused her discomfort, and she hardly knew how to respond graciously to Lucy's overwhelming joy at finding her still in town.

“I should have been quite disappointed if I had not found you here still,” said she repeatedly, with a strong emphasis on the word. “But I always thought I should. I was almost sure you would not leave London yet awhile; though you told me, you know, at Barton, that you should not stay above a month. But I thought, at the time, that you would most likely change your mind when it came to the point. It would have been such a great pity to have went away before your brother and sister came. And now to be sure you will be in no hurry to be gone. I am amazingly glad you did not keep to your word.”

“I would have been really disappointed if I hadn’t found you here still,” she said repeatedly, putting strong emphasis on the word. “But I always thought I would. I was almost sure you wouldn’t leave London just yet; even though you told me, at Barton, that you wouldn’t stay more than a month. But I figured, at the time, that you would most likely change your mind when it came down to it. It would have been such a shame to leave before your brother and sister arrived. And now, of course, you won’t be in any hurry to go. I’m really glad you didn’t stick to your word.”

Elinor perfectly understood her, and was forced to use all her self-command to make it appear that she did not.

Elinor completely understood her, and had to use all her self-control to make it seem like she didn’t.

“Well, my dear,” said Mrs. Jennings, “and how did you travel?”

“Well, my dear,” said Mrs. Jennings, “how was your trip?”

“Not in the stage, I assure you,” replied Miss Steele, with quick exultation; “we came post all the way, and had a very smart beau to attend us. Dr. Davies was coming to town, and so we thought we’d join him in a post-chaise; and he behaved very genteelly, and paid ten or twelve shillings more than we did.”

“Not in the stage, I promise you,” replied Miss Steele, excitedly. “We traveled the whole way by post, and we had a very dashing guy with us. Dr. Davies was heading to town, so we thought we’d go with him in a post-chaise; and he was very polite and paid ten or twelve shillings more than we did.”

“Oh, oh!” cried Mrs. Jennings; “very pretty, indeed! and the Doctor is a single man, I warrant you.”

“Oh, oh!” exclaimed Mrs. Jennings; “very pretty, indeed! And the Doctor is single, I bet.”

“There now,” said Miss Steele, affectedly simpering, “everybody laughs at me so about the Doctor, and I cannot think why. My cousins say they are sure I have made a conquest; but for my part I declare I never think about him from one hour’s end to another. ‘Lord! here comes your beau, Nancy,’ my cousin said t’other day, when she saw him crossing the street to the house. My beau, indeed! said I—I cannot think who you mean. The Doctor is no beau of mine.”

“There now,” said Miss Steele, trying to sound charming, “everyone laughs at me about the Doctor, and I can’t figure out why. My cousins are convinced that I’ve won him over; but honestly, I never think about him at all. ‘Oh look! Here comes your admirer, Nancy,’ my cousin said the other day when she saw him walking across the street to our house. My admirer, really! I said—I have no idea who you’re talking about. The Doctor is definitely not my admirer.”

“Aye, aye, that is very pretty talking—but it won’t do—the Doctor is the man, I see.”

“Yeah, that sounds nice, but it won't work—the Doctor is the one, I get it.”

“No, indeed!” replied her cousin, with affected earnestness, “and I beg you will contradict it, if you ever hear it talked of.”

“No, really!” her cousin responded, pretending to be serious. “And I hope you'll set the record straight if you ever hear it mentioned.”

Mrs. Jennings directly gave her the gratifying assurance that she certainly would not, and Miss Steele was made completely happy.

Mrs. Jennings directly assured her that she definitely would not, and Miss Steele was completely happy.

“I suppose you will go and stay with your brother and sister, Miss Dashwood, when they come to town,” said Lucy, returning, after a cessation of hostile hints, to the charge.

“I guess you’ll be going to stay with your brother and sister, Miss Dashwood, when they come to town,” said Lucy, coming back to the topic after a pause in the pointed comments.

“No, I do not think we shall.”

“No, I don’t think we will.”

“Oh, yes, I dare say you will.”

“Oh, yes, I definitely think you will.”

Elinor would not humour her by farther opposition.

Elinor wouldn't entertain her with any further disagreement.

“What a charming thing it is that Mrs. Dashwood can spare you both for so long a time together!”

“What a lovely thing that Mrs. Dashwood can let you both spend so much time together!”

“Long a time, indeed!” interposed Mrs. Jennings. “Why, their visit is but just begun!”

“It's been quite some time!” Mrs. Jennings interrupted. “Their visit has only just started!”

Lucy was silenced.

Lucy was muted.

“I am sorry we cannot see your sister, Miss Dashwood,” said Miss Steele. “I am sorry she is not well—” for Marianne had left the room on their arrival.

“I’m sorry we can’t see your sister, Miss Dashwood,” said Miss Steele. “I’m sorry she’s not feeling well—” because Marianne had left the room when they arrived.

“You are very good. My sister will be equally sorry to miss the pleasure of seeing you; but she has been very much plagued lately with nervous head-aches, which make her unfit for company or conversation.”

“You're really great. My sister will also be disappointed to miss the chance to see you; but she's been dealing with some bad nerve headaches lately, which make her unfit for socializing or talking.”

“Oh, dear, that is a great pity! but such old friends as Lucy and me!—I think she might see us; and I am sure we would not speak a word.”

“Oh, dear, that's a real shame! But with old friends like Lucy and me!—I think she might see us; and I'm sure we wouldn't say a word.”

Elinor, with great civility, declined the proposal. Her sister was perhaps laid down upon the bed, or in her dressing gown, and therefore not able to come to them.

Elinor politely declined the offer. Her sister was likely lying on the bed or in her dressing gown, and so she couldn't join them.

“Oh, if that’s all,” cried Miss Steele, “we can just as well go and see her.”

“Oh, if that’s all,” exclaimed Miss Steele, “we might as well go and see her.”

Elinor began to find this impertinence too much for her temper; but she was saved the trouble of checking it, by Lucy’s sharp reprimand, which now, as on many occasions, though it did not give much sweetness to the manners of one sister, was of advantage in governing those of the other.

Elinor started to feel that this impudence was too much for her patience; but she was spared the effort of addressing it by Lucy’s quick reprimand, which, as on many occasions, while it didn’t add much charm to one sister’s behavior, was helpful in managing the other’s.

CHAPTER XXXIII.

After some opposition, Marianne yielded to her sister’s entreaties, and consented to go out with her and Mrs. Jennings one morning for half an hour. She expressly conditioned, however, for paying no visits, and would do no more than accompany them to Gray’s in Sackville Street, where Elinor was carrying on a negotiation for the exchange of a few old-fashioned jewels of her mother.

After some resistance, Marianne gave in to her sister’s pleas and agreed to go out with her and Mrs. Jennings one morning for half an hour. She made it clear, though, that she wouldn’t visit anyone else and would only join them at Gray’s in Sackville Street, where Elinor was working on the trade of a few old-fashioned jewels that belonged to their mother.

When they stopped at the door, Mrs. Jennings recollected that there was a lady at the other end of the street on whom she ought to call; and as she had no business at Gray’s, it was resolved, that while her young friends transacted their’s, she should pay her visit and return for them.

When they reached the door, Mrs. Jennings remembered that there was a woman at the other end of the street she needed to visit; and since she had no business at Gray’s, they decided that while her young friends took care of theirs, she would go visit her and then come back for them.

On ascending the stairs, the Miss Dashwoods found so many people before them in the room, that there was not a person at liberty to tend to their orders; and they were obliged to wait. All that could be done was, to sit down at that end of the counter which seemed to promise the quickest succession; one gentleman only was standing there, and it is probable that Elinor was not without hope of exciting his politeness to a quicker despatch. But the correctness of his eye, and the delicacy of his taste, proved to be beyond his politeness. He was giving orders for a toothpick-case for himself, and till its size, shape, and ornaments were determined, all of which, after examining and debating for a quarter of an hour over every toothpick-case in the shop, were finally arranged by his own inventive fancy, he had no leisure to bestow any other attention on the two ladies, than what was comprised in three or four very broad stares; a kind of notice which served to imprint on Elinor the remembrance of a person and face, of strong, natural, sterling insignificance, though adorned in the first style of fashion.

As the Miss Dashwoods climbed the stairs, they found so many people in the room that no one was available to take their orders, so they had to wait. The only option was to sit down at the end of the counter that seemed to offer the quickest service; there was only one gentleman standing there, and Elinor likely hoped to inspire his politeness for faster service. However, his keen eye and refined taste proved to be more important than his politeness. He was placing an order for a toothpick case for himself, and until the size, shape, and design were finalized—after inspecting and discussing every toothpick case in the store for a good fifteen minutes, ultimately coming up with his own creative ideas—he had no time to spare for the two ladies, aside from a few very obvious stares. This kind of attention left Elinor with a clear impression of a person and face that was strikingly ordinary, despite being dressed in the latest fashion.

Marianne was spared from the troublesome feelings of contempt and resentment, on this impertinent examination of their features, and on the puppyism of his manner in deciding on all the different horrors of the different toothpick-cases presented to his inspection, by remaining unconscious of it all; for she was as well able to collect her thoughts within herself, and be as ignorant of what was passing around her, in Mr. Gray’s shop, as in her own bedroom.

Marianne was free from the annoying feelings of contempt and resentment during this rude assessment of their looks, and from the childishness of his behavior while judging the various horrors of the toothpick cases he was shown, because she remained completely unaware of it all; she was just as capable of gathering her thoughts internally and ignoring what was happening around her, in Mr. Gray’s shop, as she was in her own bedroom.

At last the affair was decided. The ivory, the gold, and the pearls, all received their appointment, and the gentleman having named the last day on which his existence could be continued without the possession of the toothpick-case, drew on his gloves with leisurely care, and bestowing another glance on the Miss Dashwoods, but such a one as seemed rather to demand than express admiration, walked off with a happy air of real conceit and affected indifference.

At last, the situation was settled. The ivory, the gold, and the pearls all got their assignments, and the gentleman, having indicated the final day he could keep going without the toothpick case, carefully put on his gloves. He took another look at the Miss Dashwoods, a look that seemed more like a demand for admiration than an expression of it, and walked away with an air of genuine self-satisfaction and feigned indifference.

Elinor lost no time in bringing her business forward, was on the point of concluding it, when another gentleman presented himself at her side. She turned her eyes towards his face, and found him with some surprise to be her brother.

Elinor quickly moved her business along and was about to wrap it up when another man appeared next to her. She glanced over at his face and was surprised to find that it was her brother.

Their affection and pleasure in meeting was just enough to make a very creditable appearance in Mr. Gray’s shop. John Dashwood was really far from being sorry to see his sisters again; it rather gave them satisfaction; and his inquiries after their mother were respectful and attentive.

Their warmth and happiness in meeting was just enough to create a decent impression in Mr. Gray’s shop. John Dashwood was genuinely quite glad to see his sisters again; it actually pleased them, and his questions about their mother were respectful and considerate.

Elinor found that he and Fanny had been in town two days.

Elinor discovered that he and Fanny had been in town for two days.

“I wished very much to call upon you yesterday,” said he, “but it was impossible, for we were obliged to take Harry to see the wild beasts at Exeter Exchange; and we spent the rest of the day with Mrs. Ferrars. Harry was vastly pleased. This morning I had fully intended to call on you, if I could possibly find a spare half hour, but one has always so much to do on first coming to town. I am come here to bespeak Fanny a seal. But tomorrow I think I shall certainly be able to call in Berkeley Street, and be introduced to your friend Mrs. Jennings. I understand she is a woman of very good fortune. And the Middletons too, you must introduce me to them. As my mother-in-law’s relations, I shall be happy to show them every respect. They are excellent neighbours to you in the country, I understand.”

“I really wanted to visit you yesterday,” he said, “but it wasn’t possible since we had to take Harry to see the wild animals at Exeter Exchange; and we spent the rest of the day with Mrs. Ferrars. Harry was really happy. This morning, I planned to come see you if I could find half an hour to spare, but there’s always so much to do when first arriving in town. I’m here to get Fanny a seal. But tomorrow, I should definitely be able to stop by Berkeley Street and meet your friend Mrs. Jennings. I hear she’s quite wealthy. And you must introduce me to the Middletons too. As my mother-in-law’s relatives, I’d be glad to show them all due respect. I understand they’re excellent neighbors of yours in the countryside.”

“Excellent indeed. Their attention to our comfort, their friendliness in every particular, is more than I can express.”

“Truly excellent. Their focus on our comfort and their friendliness in every way is more than I can say.”

“I am extremely glad to hear it, upon my word; extremely glad indeed. But so it ought to be; they are people of large fortune, they are related to you, and every civility and accommodation that can serve to make your situation pleasant might be reasonably expected. And so you are most comfortably settled in your little cottage and want for nothing! Edward brought us a most charming account of the place: the most complete thing of its kind, he said, that ever was, and you all seemed to enjoy it beyond any thing. It was a great satisfaction to us to hear it, I assure you.”

“I’m really happy to hear that, truly; very happy indeed. But it makes sense; they have a lot of money, they’re related to you, and you can reasonably expect all the kindness and help that would make your situation enjoyable. So, you’re very comfortably settled in your little cottage and have everything you need! Edward gave us a wonderful description of the place: he said it was the best of its kind ever, and it sounds like you all enjoyed it more than anything. It was truly satisfying for us to hear that, I assure you.”

Elinor did feel a little ashamed of her brother; and was not sorry to be spared the necessity of answering him, by the arrival of Mrs. Jennings’s servant, who came to tell her that his mistress waited for them at the door.

Elinor felt a bit embarrassed by her brother and was relieved not to have to respond to him when Mrs. Jennings’s servant arrived to let her know that his mistress was waiting for them at the door.

Mr. Dashwood attended them down stairs, was introduced to Mrs. Jennings at the door of her carriage, and repeating his hope of being able to call on them the next day, took leave.

Mr. Dashwood walked them downstairs, was introduced to Mrs. Jennings at the door of her carriage, and, reiterating his hope of being able to visit them the next day, said goodbye.

His visit was duly paid. He came with a pretence at an apology from their sister-in-law, for not coming too; “but she was so much engaged with her mother, that really she had no leisure for going any where.” Mrs. Jennings, however, assured him directly, that she should not stand upon ceremony, for they were all cousins, or something like it, and she should certainly wait on Mrs. John Dashwood very soon, and bring her sisters to see her. His manners to them, though calm, were perfectly kind; to Mrs. Jennings, most attentively civil; and on Colonel Brandon’s coming in soon after himself, he eyed him with a curiosity which seemed to say, that he only wanted to know him to be rich, to be equally civil to him.

His visit was properly acknowledged. He showed up with a fake apology from their sister-in-law for not being there too; “but she was so busy with her mom that she really didn’t have time to go anywhere.” Mrs. Jennings, however, immediately told him that she wouldn’t stand on ceremony since they were all cousins or something like that, and she would definitely visit Mrs. John Dashwood very soon and bring her sisters along to see her. His manners toward them, while calm, were completely kind; toward Mrs. Jennings, he was very attentively polite; and when Colonel Brandon came in shortly after, he looked at him with a curiosity that seemed to suggest he just wanted to know him as rich in order to be just as polite to him.

After staying with them half an hour, he asked Elinor to walk with him to Conduit Street, and introduce him to Sir John and Lady Middleton. The weather was remarkably fine, and she readily consented. As soon as they were out of the house, his enquiries began.

After spending half an hour with them, he asked Elinor to walk with him to Conduit Street and introduce him to Sir John and Lady Middleton. The weather was really nice, and she happily agreed. As soon as they left the house, he started asking questions.

“Who is Colonel Brandon? Is he a man of fortune?”

“Who is Colonel Brandon? Is he wealthy?”

“Yes; he has very good property in Dorsetshire.”

“Yeah; he has some really nice property in Dorsetshire.”

“I am glad of it. He seems a most gentlemanlike man; and I think, Elinor, I may congratulate you on the prospect of a very respectable establishment in life.”

“I’m glad to hear that. He seems like a really gentlemanly guy; and I think, Elinor, I can congratulate you on the chance of a very respectable life ahead.”

“Me, brother! what do you mean?”

“Hey, brother! What do you mean?”

“He likes you. I observed him narrowly, and am convinced of it. What is the amount of his fortune?”

“He likes you. I watched him closely and I'm convinced of it. How much money does he have?”

“I believe about two thousand a year.”

“I think about two thousand a year.”

“Two thousand a-year;” and then working himself up to a pitch of enthusiastic generosity, he added, “Elinor, I wish with all my heart it were twice as much, for your sake.”

“Two thousand a year;” and then getting himself worked up with a burst of enthusiastic generosity, he added, “Elinor, I wish with all my heart it were twice that amount, for your sake.”

“Indeed I believe you,” replied Elinor; “but I am very sure that Colonel Brandon has not the smallest wish of marrying me.”

“Honestly, I believe you,” replied Elinor; “but I’m quite sure that Colonel Brandon has no desire to marry me.”

“You are mistaken, Elinor; you are very much mistaken. A very little trouble on your side secures him. Perhaps just at present he may be undecided; the smallness of your fortune may make him hang back; his friends may all advise him against it. But some of those little attentions and encouragements which ladies can so easily give will fix him, in spite of himself. And there can be no reason why you should not try for him. It is not to be supposed that any prior attachment on your side—in short, you know as to an attachment of that kind, it is quite out of the question, the objections are insurmountable—you have too much sense not to see all that. Colonel Brandon must be the man; and no civility shall be wanting on my part to make him pleased with you and your family. It is a match that must give universal satisfaction. In short, it is a kind of thing that”—lowering his voice to an important whisper—“will be exceedingly welcome to all parties.” Recollecting himself, however, he added, “That is, I mean to say—your friends are all truly anxious to see you well settled; Fanny particularly, for she has your interest very much at heart, I assure you. And her mother too, Mrs. Ferrars, a very good-natured woman, I am sure it would give her great pleasure; she said as much the other day.”

“You're wrong, Elinor; you're really mistaken. A little effort on your part can win him over. Right now, he might be uncertain; your small fortune might hold him back; his friends might be advising him against it. But a few small gestures and encouragements from you can win him over, whether he likes it or not. And there's no reason you shouldn't go for him. It's not like you have any prior attachment—let's be honest, any feelings like that are out of the question; the obstacles are too great—you’re too sensible not to recognize that. Colonel Brandon is the right choice; I’ll make sure to do everything I can to make him appreciate you and your family. This is a match that will please everyone. In short, it’s the kind of thing that”—lowering his voice to a serious whisper—“will be very welcome to all parties.” Getting back on track, he added, “What I mean is—your friends are all genuinely eager to see you settled down; particularly Fanny, who truly cares about your happiness, I promise you. And her mother, Mrs. Ferrars, a really nice woman, would be thrilled; she mentioned it just the other day.”

Elinor would not vouchsafe any answer.

Elinor wouldn't respond.

“It would be something remarkable, now,” he continued, “something droll, if Fanny should have a brother and I a sister settling at the same time. And yet it is not very unlikely.”

“It would be something amazing right now,” he went on, “something funny, if Fanny had a brother and I had a sister both settling down at the same time. And yet, it’s not very unlikely.”

“Is Mr. Edward Ferrars,” said Elinor, with resolution, “going to be married?”

“Is Mr. Edward Ferrars,” Elinor said firmly, “going to get married?”

“It is not actually settled, but there is such a thing in agitation. He has a most excellent mother. Mrs. Ferrars, with the utmost liberality, will come forward, and settle on him a thousand a year, if the match takes place. The lady is the Hon. Miss Morton, only daughter of the late Lord Morton, with thirty thousand pounds. A very desirable connection on both sides, and I have not a doubt of its taking place in time. A thousand a-year is a great deal for a mother to give away, to make over for ever; but Mrs. Ferrars has a noble spirit. To give you another instance of her liberality:—The other day, as soon as we came to town, aware that money could not be very plenty with us just now, she put bank-notes into Fanny’s hands to the amount of two hundred pounds. And extremely acceptable it is, for we must live at a great expense while we are here.”

“It’s not officially settled yet, but there’s definitely something brewing. He has an amazing mother. Mrs. Ferrars, being incredibly generous, is willing to provide him with a thousand a year if the engagement happens. The woman in question is the Hon. Miss Morton, the only daughter of the late Lord Morton, who has thirty thousand pounds. It’s a very desirable connection for both parties, and I have no doubt it will happen eventually. A thousand a year is a significant amount for a mother to give up permanently, but Mrs. Ferrars has a big heart. To give you another example of her generosity: the other day, as soon as we arrived in town, knowing that money might be tight for us right now, she gave Fanny banknotes totaling two hundred pounds. It’s extremely helpful because we need to cover a lot of expenses while we’re here.”

He paused for her assent and compassion; and she forced herself to say,

He paused, waiting for her agreement and sympathy; and she made herself say,

“Your expenses both in town and country must certainly be considerable; but your income is a large one.”

“Your expenses in both the city and the countryside must be quite high; but your income is substantial.”

“Not so large, I dare say, as many people suppose. I do not mean to complain, however; it is undoubtedly a comfortable one, and I hope will in time be better. The enclosure of Norland Common, now carrying on, is a most serious drain. And then I have made a little purchase within this half year; East Kingham Farm, you must remember the place, where old Gibson used to live. The land was so very desirable for me in every respect, so immediately adjoining my own property, that I felt it my duty to buy it. I could not have answered it to my conscience to let it fall into any other hands. A man must pay for his convenience; and it has cost me a vast deal of money.”

“It's not as large as many people think. I'm not trying to complain, though; it's definitely comfortable, and I hope it will get even better over time. The enclosure of Norland Common, which is currently underway, is a major expense. And I've made a little purchase in the past six months: East Kingham Farm—you remember the place where old Gibson used to live. The land was very appealing to me in every way, being right next to my own property, so I felt it was my responsibility to buy it. I couldn't in good conscience let it go to someone else. A person has to pay for their convenience, and it has cost me a lot of money.”

“More than you think it really and intrinsically worth.”

“More than you think it's really and truly worth.”

“Why, I hope not that. I might have sold it again, the next day, for more than I gave: but, with regard to the purchase-money, I might have been very unfortunate indeed; for the stocks were at that time so low, that if I had not happened to have the necessary sum in my banker’s hands, I must have sold out to very great loss.”

“Why, I hope not. I could have sold it again the next day for more than I paid for it. But regarding the purchase price, I could have been really unlucky; the stocks were so low at that time that if I hadn’t happened to have the necessary amount with my banker, I would have had to sell out at a significant loss.”

Elinor could only smile.

Elinor could only smile.

“Other great and inevitable expenses too we have had on first coming to Norland. Our respected father, as you well know, bequeathed all the Stanhill effects that remained at Norland (and very valuable they were) to your mother. Far be it from me to repine at his doing so; he had an undoubted right to dispose of his own property as he chose, but, in consequence of it, we have been obliged to make large purchases of linen, china, &c. to supply the place of what was taken away. You may guess, after all these expenses, how very far we must be from being rich, and how acceptable Mrs. Ferrars’s kindness is.”

"Other significant and unavoidable expenses have also come up since we first arrived at Norland. As you know, our respected father left all the Stanhill belongings that remained at Norland (and they were quite valuable) to your mother. I certainly have no right to complain about this; he had every right to distribute his property as he saw fit. However, because of this, we've had to make large purchases of linen, china, etc., to replace what was taken. You can imagine, given all these expenses, how far from wealthy we are and how appreciated Mrs. Ferrars's kindness is."

“Certainly,” said Elinor; “and assisted by her liberality, I hope you may yet live to be in easy circumstances.”

“Of course,” said Elinor; “and with her generosity, I hope you can still live comfortably.”

“Another year or two may do much towards it,” he gravely replied; “but however there is still a great deal to be done. There is not a stone laid of Fanny’s green-house, and nothing but the plan of the flower-garden marked out.”

“Another year or two might help a lot,” he said seriously; “but there’s still a lot to be done. Not a single stone has been laid for Fanny’s greenhouse, and only the outline of the flower garden has been marked out.”

“Where is the green-house to be?”

“Where is the greenhouse going to be?”

“Upon the knoll behind the house. The old walnut trees are all come down to make room for it. It will be a very fine object from many parts of the park, and the flower-garden will slope down just before it, and be exceedingly pretty. We have cleared away all the old thorns that grew in patches over the brow.”

“On the hill behind the house, the old walnut trees have all been cut down to make space for it. It will look really nice from many areas of the park, and the flower garden will slope down right in front of it, making it very beautiful. We’ve cleared away all the old thorn bushes that grew in patches across the top.”

Elinor kept her concern and her censure to herself; and was very thankful that Marianne was not present, to share the provocation.

Elinor kept her worries and her criticism to herself and was really grateful that Marianne wasn't there to experience the annoyance.

Having now said enough to make his poverty clear, and to do away the necessity of buying a pair of ear-rings for each of his sisters, in his next visit at Gray’s, his thoughts took a cheerfuller turn, and he began to congratulate Elinor on having such a friend as Mrs. Jennings.

Having now pointed out his poverty clearly enough to skip buying a pair of earrings for each of his sisters, during his next visit to Gray’s, his mood brightened, and he started to congratulate Elinor on having such a good friend in Mrs. Jennings.

“She seems a most valuable woman indeed. Her house, her style of living, all bespeak an exceeding good income; and it is an acquaintance that has not only been of great use to you hitherto, but in the end may prove materially advantageous. Her inviting you to town is certainly a vast thing in your favour; and indeed, it speaks altogether so great a regard for you, that in all probability when she dies you will not be forgotten. She must have a great deal to leave.”

“She seems like a really valuable woman. Her home and lifestyle definitely suggest she has a good income, and knowing her has not only been helpful to you so far, but it might turn out to be beneficial in the long run. Her inviting you to the city is definitely a big plus for you; it shows she cares a lot about you, so it's likely that when she passes away, you won't be forgotten. She must have a lot to leave behind.”

“Nothing at all, I should rather suppose; for she has only her jointure, which will descend to her children.”

“Nothing at all, I would guess; because she only has her inheritance, which will go to her kids.”

“But it is not to be imagined that she lives up to her income. Few people of common prudence will do that and whatever she saves, she will be able to dispose of.”

“But it shouldn't be assumed that she lives within her means. Very few financially sensible people do that, and whatever she saves, she will be able to manage.”

“And do you not think it more likely that she should leave it to her daughters, than to us?”

“And don't you think it’s more likely that she would leave it to her daughters rather than to us?”

“Her daughters are both exceedingly well married, and therefore I cannot perceive the necessity of her remembering them farther. Whereas, in my opinion, by her taking so much notice of you, and treating you in this kind of way, she has given you a sort of claim on her future consideration, which a conscientious woman would not disregard. Nothing can be kinder than her behaviour; and she can hardly do all this, without being aware of the expectation it raises.”

“Her daughters are both very well married, so I don’t see why she needs to think about them anymore. In my opinion, by paying so much attention to you and treating you this way, she has created a sort of obligation for her to consider you in the future, which a conscientious woman wouldn’t overlook. Nothing is kinder than her behavior; she can hardly do all this without realizing the expectations it creates.”

“But she raises none in those most concerned. Indeed, brother, your anxiety for our welfare and prosperity carries you too far.”

“But she doesn’t bring up any issues with those who matter most. Honestly, brother, your concern for our well-being and success is a bit excessive.”

“Why, to be sure,” said he, seeming to recollect himself, “people have little, have very little in their power. But, my dear Elinor, what is the matter with Marianne?—she looks very unwell, has lost her colour, and is grown quite thin. Is she ill?”

“Of course,” he replied, as if remembering something, “people have very little control over their lives. But, my dear Elinor, what’s wrong with Marianne? She looks really unwell, has lost her color, and has gotten quite thin. Is she sick?”

“She is not well, she has had a nervous complaint on her for several weeks.”

"She's not doing well; she's been dealing with a nervous issue for several weeks."

“I am sorry for that. At her time of life, any thing of an illness destroys the bloom for ever! Hers has been a very short one! She was as handsome a girl last September, as I ever saw; and as likely to attract the man. There was something in her style of beauty, to please them particularly. I remember Fanny used to say that she would marry sooner and better than you did; not but what she is exceedingly fond of you, but so it happened to strike her. She will be mistaken, however. I question whether Marianne now, will marry a man worth more than five or six hundred a-year, at the utmost, and I am very much deceived if you do not do better. Dorsetshire! I know very little of Dorsetshire; but, my dear Elinor, I shall be exceedingly glad to know more of it; and I think I can answer for your having Fanny and myself among the earliest and best pleased of your visitors.”

"I'm really sorry about that. At her age, any illness can ruin a person's beauty forever! She had such a short time of being beautiful! Last September, she was one of the prettiest girls I had ever seen and was sure to catch a man's eye. There was something unique about her beauty that really stood out to them. I remember Fanny used to say that she would marry sooner and better than you did; not that she doesn't care about you, but that's just how she felt. However, she will be mistaken. I doubt that Marianne now will marry a man making more than five or six hundred a year at most, and I would be very surprised if you don't do better than that. Dorsetshire! I don’t know much about Dorsetshire, but, my dear Elinor, I would be really happy to learn more about it; and I can assure you that Fanny and I will be among the first and most pleased of your visitors."

Elinor tried very seriously to convince him that there was no likelihood of her marrying Colonel Brandon; but it was an expectation of too much pleasure to himself to be relinquished, and he was really resolved on seeking an intimacy with that gentleman, and promoting the marriage by every possible attention. He had just compunction enough for having done nothing for his sisters himself, to be exceedingly anxious that everybody else should do a great deal; and an offer from Colonel Brandon, or a legacy from Mrs. Jennings, was the easiest means of atoning for his own neglect.

Elinor seriously tried to convince him that there was no chance of her marrying Colonel Brandon; however, it was a hope that brought him too much joy to give up, and he was genuinely set on fostering a friendship with that man and encouraging the marriage with as much attention as possible. He felt just guilty enough for not having done anything for his sisters himself to be incredibly eager for everyone else to do a lot; so an offer from Colonel Brandon, or an inheritance from Mrs. Jennings, seemed like the simplest way to make up for his own neglect.

They were lucky enough to find Lady Middleton at home, and Sir John came in before their visit ended. Abundance of civilities passed on all sides. Sir John was ready to like anybody, and though Mr. Dashwood did not seem to know much about horses, he soon set him down as a very good-natured fellow: while Lady Middleton saw enough of fashion in his appearance to think his acquaintance worth having; and Mr. Dashwood went away delighted with both.

They were fortunate to find Lady Middleton at home, and Sir John came in before their visit wrapped up. A lot of polite conversation flowed between everyone. Sir John was eager to like anyone, and even though Mr. Dashwood didn't seem to know much about horses, he quickly regarded him as a very good-natured guy. Meanwhile, Lady Middleton saw enough style in his looks to consider his friendship valuable; Mr. Dashwood left feeling thrilled with both of them.

“I shall have a charming account to carry to Fanny,” said he, as he walked back with his sister. “Lady Middleton is really a most elegant woman! Such a woman as I am sure Fanny will be glad to know. And Mrs. Jennings too, an exceedingly well-behaved woman, though not so elegant as her daughter. Your sister need not have any scruple even of visiting her, which, to say the truth, has been a little the case, and very naturally; for we only knew that Mrs. Jennings was the widow of a man who had got all his money in a low way; and Fanny and Mrs. Ferrars were both strongly prepossessed, that neither she nor her daughters were such kind of women as Fanny would like to associate with. But now I can carry her a most satisfactory account of both.”

“I have a delightful story to share with Fanny,” he said as he walked back with his sister. “Lady Middleton is truly an elegant woman! The kind of woman I’m sure Fanny will be happy to know. And Mrs. Jennings is also very well-mannered, although not as elegant as her daughter. Your sister shouldn't feel any hesitation about visiting her, which, to be honest, has been somewhat the case, and understandably so; we only knew that Mrs. Jennings was the widow of a man who made his money in a questionable way, and Fanny and Mrs. Ferrars were both quite convinced that neither she nor her daughters were the type of women Fanny would want to associate with. But now I can bring her a very satisfactory report about both of them.”

CHAPTER XXXIV.

Mrs. John Dashwood had so much confidence in her husband’s judgment, that she waited the very next day both on Mrs. Jennings and her daughter; and her confidence was rewarded by finding even the former, even the woman with whom her sisters were staying, by no means unworthy her notice; and as for Lady Middleton, she found her one of the most charming women in the world!

Mrs. John Dashwood had so much trust in her husband’s judgment that she visited both Mrs. Jennings and her daughter the very next day. Her trust paid off as she discovered that even Mrs. Jennings, the woman with whom her sisters were staying, was definitely worth her attention; and as for Lady Middleton, she thought she was one of the most delightful women in the world!

Lady Middleton was equally pleased with Mrs. Dashwood. There was a kind of cold hearted selfishness on both sides, which mutually attracted them; and they sympathised with each other in an insipid propriety of demeanor, and a general want of understanding.

Lady Middleton was just as pleased with Mrs. Dashwood. There was a kind of cold-hearted selfishness on both sides that attracted them to each other; they connected over their blandly proper behavior and a general lack of understanding.

The same manners, however, which recommended Mrs. John Dashwood to the good opinion of Lady Middleton did not suit the fancy of Mrs. Jennings, and to her she appeared nothing more than a little proud-looking woman of uncordial address, who met her husband’s sisters without any affection, and almost without having anything to say to them; for of the quarter of an hour bestowed on Berkeley Street, she sat at least seven minutes and a half in silence.

The same manners that won Mrs. John Dashwood the approval of Lady Middleton did not appeal to Mrs. Jennings, who saw her as just a somewhat proud-looking woman with a cold demeanor. She interacted with her husband’s sisters without showing any warmth and barely said anything to them; during the fifteen minutes spent at Berkeley Street, she sat in silence for at least seven and a half minutes.

Elinor wanted very much to know, though she did not chuse to ask, whether Edward was then in town; but nothing would have induced Fanny voluntarily to mention his name before her, till able to tell her that his marriage with Miss Morton was resolved on, or till her husband’s expectations on Colonel Brandon were answered; because she believed them still so very much attached to each other, that they could not be too sedulously divided in word and deed on every occasion. The intelligence however, which she would not give, soon flowed from another quarter. Lucy came very shortly to claim Elinor’s compassion on being unable to see Edward, though he had arrived in town with Mr. and Mrs. Dashwood. He dared not come to Bartlett’s Buildings for fear of detection, and though their mutual impatience to meet, was not to be told, they could do nothing at present but write.

Elinor really wanted to know, although she didn't want to ask, whether Edward was in town; but nothing would have made Fanny willingly mention his name in front of her until she could tell her that his marriage to Miss Morton was settled, or until her husband’s expectations related to Colonel Brandon were fulfilled; because she still believed they were very much attached to each other, so they needed to be carefully separated in every way. However, the news that she wouldn’t share soon came from another source. Lucy quickly came to seek Elinor’s sympathy about not being able to see Edward, even though he had arrived in town with Mr. and Mrs. Dashwood. He was too afraid to go to Bartlett’s Buildings for fear of being discovered, and although they were both eager to meet, they could only communicate by writing for now.

Edward assured them himself of his being in town, within a very short time, by twice calling in Berkeley Street. Twice was his card found on the table, when they returned from their morning’s engagements. Elinor was pleased that he had called; and still more pleased that she had missed him.

Edward made sure to confirm that he was in town shortly by stopping by Berkeley Street twice. Both times, his card was left on the table when they returned from their morning activities. Elinor was glad that he had come by, and even happier that she hadn’t seen him.

The Dashwoods were so prodigiously delighted with the Middletons, that, though not much in the habit of giving anything, they determined to give them—a dinner; and soon after their acquaintance began, invited them to dine in Harley Street, where they had taken a very good house for three months. Their sisters and Mrs. Jennings were invited likewise, and John Dashwood was careful to secure Colonel Brandon, who, always glad to be where the Miss Dashwoods were, received his eager civilities with some surprise, but much more pleasure. They were to meet Mrs. Ferrars; but Elinor could not learn whether her sons were to be of the party. The expectation of seeing her, however, was enough to make her interested in the engagement; for though she could now meet Edward’s mother without that strong anxiety which had once promised to attend such an introduction, though she could now see her with perfect indifference as to her opinion of herself, her desire of being in company with Mrs. Ferrars, her curiosity to know what she was like, was as lively as ever.

The Dashwoods were so incredibly happy with the Middletons that, even though they didn't usually give much, they decided to host them for dinner. Shortly after they got to know each other, they invited them to dine at their nice new home on Harley Street, where they were renting for three months. Their sisters and Mrs. Jennings were also invited, and John Dashwood made sure to include Colonel Brandon, who always enjoyed being around the Miss Dashwoods. He was surprised but very pleased by their enthusiastic invitation. They were going to meet Mrs. Ferrars, but Elinor couldn't find out if her sons would be joining. Still, the thought of seeing her was enough to engage her interest; even though she could now meet Edward’s mother without the intense anxiety that had accompanied such an introduction before, and she could see her without worrying about how Mrs. Ferrars would judge her, her desire to be around Mrs. Ferrars and her curiosity about what she was like remained as strong as ever.

The interest with which she thus anticipated the party, was soon afterwards increased, more powerfully than pleasantly, by her hearing that the Miss Steeles were also to be at it.

The excitement she felt about the party quickly grew, though not in an entirely enjoyable way, when she learned that the Miss Steeles would also be attending.

So well had they recommended themselves to Lady Middleton, so agreeable had their assiduities made them to her, that though Lucy was certainly not so elegant, and her sister not even genteel, she was as ready as Sir John to ask them to spend a week or two in Conduit Street; and it happened to be particularly convenient to the Miss Steeles, as soon as the Dashwoods’ invitation was known, that their visit should begin a few days before the party took place.

They had impressed Lady Middleton so much and their constant efforts had made them so likable to her, that even though Lucy wasn't particularly elegant and her sister wasn't even classy, she was just as eager as Sir John to invite them to spend a week or two in Conduit Street. It just so happened to be especially convenient for the Miss Steeles, once the Dashwoods' invitation was known, that their visit would start a few days before the party.

Their claims to the notice of Mrs. John Dashwood, as the nieces of the gentleman who for many years had had the care of her brother, might not have done much, however, towards procuring them seats at her table; but as Lady Middleton’s guests they must be welcome; and Lucy, who had long wanted to be personally known to the family, to have a nearer view of their characters and her own difficulties, and to have an opportunity of endeavouring to please them, had seldom been happier in her life, than she was on receiving Mrs. John Dashwood’s card.

Their connection to Mrs. John Dashwood, as the nieces of the man who had taken care of her brother for many years, might not have done much to secure them a spot at her table; however, as guests of Lady Middleton, they were sure to be welcome. Lucy, who had long wanted to get to know the family better, to understand their personalities and her own challenges, and to have a chance to impress them, was rarely as happy in her life as she was when she received Mrs. John Dashwood's invitation.

On Elinor its effect was very different. She began immediately to determine, that Edward who lived with his mother, must be asked as his mother was, to a party given by his sister; and to see him for the first time, after all that passed, in the company of Lucy!—she hardly knew how she could bear it!

On Elinor, it had a completely different effect. She immediately decided that Edward, who lived with his mother, needed to be invited to a party hosted by his sister, just like his mother was. The thought of seeing him for the first time, after everything that happened, in the company of Lucy!—she could hardly imagine how she would handle it!

These apprehensions, perhaps, were not founded entirely on reason, and certainly not at all on truth. They were relieved however, not by her own recollection, but by the good will of Lucy, who believed herself to be inflicting a severe disappointment when she told her that Edward certainly would not be in Harley Street on Tuesday, and even hoped to be carrying the pain still farther by persuading her that he was kept away by the extreme affection for herself, which he could not conceal when they were together.

These worries, maybe, weren't completely based on logic, and definitely not on truth. However, they were eased not by her own memories, but by Lucy’s goodwill, who thought she was delivering a major letdown when she told her that Edward definitely wouldn’t be in Harley Street on Tuesday, and even hoped to amplify the disappointment by convincing her that he was kept away by his intense feelings for her, which he couldn't hide when they were together.

The important Tuesday came that was to introduce the two young ladies to this formidable mother-in-law.

The crucial Tuesday arrived that would introduce the two young women to this intimidating mother-in-law.

“Pity me, dear Miss Dashwood!” said Lucy, as they walked up the stairs together—for the Middletons arrived so directly after Mrs. Jennings, that they all followed the servant at the same time:—“there is nobody here but you, that can feel for me. I declare I can hardly stand. Good gracious! In a moment I shall see the person that all my happiness depends on—that is to be my mother!”

“Feel sorry for me, dear Miss Dashwood!” said Lucy as they walked up the stairs together—because the Middletons arrived right after Mrs. Jennings, and they all followed the servant at the same time. “There’s no one here but you who can understand what I’m going through. I can barely hold myself together. Goodness! In a moment, I’ll see the person my entire happiness depends on—who is going to be my mother!”

Elinor could have given her immediate relief by suggesting the possibility of its being Miss Morton’s mother, rather than her own, whom they were about to behold; but instead of doing that, she assured her, and with great sincerity, that she did pity her—to the utter amazement of Lucy, who, though really uncomfortable herself, hoped at least to be an object of irrepressible envy to Elinor.

Elinor could have quickly eased her concerns by suggesting that it might be Miss Morton’s mother they were about to see instead of her own. But instead of doing that, she sincerely assured her that she felt for her—much to Lucy's astonishment, who, although feeling quite uncomfortable herself, still hoped to be someone Elinor couldn't help but envy.

Mrs. Ferrars was a little, thin woman, upright, even to formality, in her figure, and serious, even to sourness, in her aspect. Her complexion was sallow; and her features small, without beauty, and naturally without expression; but a lucky contraction of the brow had rescued her countenance from the disgrace of insipidity, by giving it the strong characters of pride and ill nature. She was not a woman of many words; for, unlike people in general, she proportioned them to the number of her ideas; and of the few syllables that did escape her, not one fell to the share of Miss Dashwood, whom she eyed with the spirited determination of disliking her at all events.

Mrs. Ferrars was a small, thin woman, straight-backed, almost to the point of being formal, and serious, bordering on sour, in her demeanor. Her skin was pale, and her features were small, lacking beauty and naturally expressionless; however, a fortunate furrowing of her brow had saved her face from the fate of being dull by giving it a strong expression of pride and unkindness. She wasn’t a woman of many words; unlike most people, she matched her words to her thoughts, and of the few words that did come out, none were directed at Miss Dashwood, whom she regarded with a determined air of dislike at all costs.

Elinor could not now be made unhappy by this behaviour. A few months ago it would have hurt her exceedingly; but it was not in Mrs. Ferrars’ power to distress her by it now; and the difference of her manners to the Miss Steeles, a difference which seemed purposely made to humble her more, only amused her. She could not but smile to see the graciousness of both mother and daughter towards the very person—for Lucy was particularly distinguished—whom of all others, had they known as much as she did, they would have been most anxious to mortify; while she herself, who had comparatively no power to wound them, sat pointedly slighted by both. But while she smiled at a graciousness so misapplied, she could not reflect on the mean-spirited folly from which it sprung, nor observe the studied attentions with which the Miss Steeles courted its continuance, without thoroughly despising them all four.

Elinor could not now be made unhappy by this behavior. A few months ago, it would have hurt her a lot; but Mrs. Ferrars no longer had the power to upset her with it, and the change in her manners towards the Miss Steeles, which seemed deliberately intended to humiliate her further, only amused her. She couldn’t help but smile at how gracious both the mother and daughter were to the very person—since Lucy was particularly singled out—who, if they had known as much as she did, they would have wanted to embarrass the most; while she herself, who had comparatively no ability to hurt them, sat there feeling overlooked by both. But while she smiled at such misplaced graciousness, she couldn’t help but reflect on the petty foolishness from which it came, nor could she overlook the deliberate attention the Miss Steeles paid to keep it going, without thoroughly despising all four of them.

Lucy was all exultation on being so honorably distinguished; and Miss Steele wanted only to be teazed about Dr. Davies to be perfectly happy.

Lucy was thrilled to be so honorably recognized, and Miss Steele just needed to be teased about Dr. Davies to be completely happy.

The dinner was a grand one, the servants were numerous, and every thing bespoke the Mistress’s inclination for show, and the Master’s ability to support it. In spite of the improvements and additions which were making to the Norland estate, and in spite of its owner having once been within some thousand pounds of being obliged to sell out at a loss, nothing gave any symptom of that indigence which he had tried to infer from it;—no poverty of any kind, except of conversation, appeared—but there, the deficiency was considerable. John Dashwood had not much to say for himself that was worth hearing, and his wife had still less. But there was no peculiar disgrace in this; for it was very much the case with the chief of their visitors, who almost all laboured under one or other of these disqualifications for being agreeable—Want of sense, either natural or improved—want of elegance—want of spirits—or want of temper.

The dinner was extravagant, the staff was plentiful, and everything reflected the Mistress’s love for show and the Master’s ability to provide it. Despite the ongoing improvements and upgrades to the Norland estate, and even though its owner had once been just a few thousand pounds away from having to sell at a loss, there was no sign of the financial struggles he had tried to communicate; no poverty of any kind appeared—except in conversation, which was significantly lacking. John Dashwood didn’t have much to say that was worth listening to, and his wife had even less to offer. However, this wasn't particularly shameful, as this was pretty much the case with most of their guests, who all seemed to suffer from one or another of these shortcomings that made them less enjoyable—lack of common sense, whether natural or cultivated—lack of sophistication—lack of enthusiasm—or lack of good temper.

When the ladies withdrew to the drawing-room after dinner, this poverty was particularly evident, for the gentlemen had supplied the discourse with some variety—the variety of politics, inclosing land, and breaking horses—but then it was all over; and one subject only engaged the ladies till coffee came in, which was the comparative heights of Harry Dashwood, and Lady Middleton’s second son William, who were nearly of the same age.

When the women moved to the drawing-room after dinner, the poverty of conversation was especially clear, since the men had brought some variety to the discussion—topics like politics, land enclosure, and horse training—but that was all done now; and the ladies were left with just one topic to chat about until coffee was served, which was the relative heights of Harry Dashwood and Lady Middleton’s second son, William, who were nearly the same age.

Had both the children been there, the affair might have been determined too easily by measuring them at once; but as Harry only was present, it was all conjectural assertion on both sides; and every body had a right to be equally positive in their opinion, and to repeat it over and over again as often as they liked.

Had both children been there, the situation might have been resolved too easily by measuring them right away; but since only Harry was present, it became all speculation from both sides; and everyone was entitled to be just as sure of their views and to repeat them as often as they wanted.

The parties stood thus:

The parties stood like this:

The two mothers, though each really convinced that her own son was the tallest, politely decided in favour of the other.

The two mothers, both fully convinced that their own son was the tallest, politely agreed to support the other.

The two grandmothers, with not less partiality, but more sincerity, were equally earnest in support of their own descendant.

The two grandmothers, while just as biased, were more genuine and equally passionate in supporting their own grandchild.

Lucy, who was hardly less anxious to please one parent than the other, thought the boys were both remarkably tall for their age, and could not conceive that there could be the smallest difference in the world between them; and Miss Steele, with yet greater address gave it, as fast as she could, in favour of each.

Lucy, who was just as eager to please one parent as the other, thought the boys were both really tall for their age and couldn’t imagine that there was any difference between them at all. Miss Steele, with even more skill, praised them both as quickly as she could.

Elinor, having once delivered her opinion on William’s side, by which she offended Mrs. Ferrars and Fanny still more, did not see the necessity of enforcing it by any farther assertion; and Marianne, when called on for hers, offended them all, by declaring that she had no opinion to give, as she had never thought about it.

Elinor, after sharing her thoughts on William’s situation, which upset Mrs. Ferrars and Fanny even more, felt no need to repeat herself. When Marianne was asked for her opinion, she annoyed them all by saying that she had none to offer since she had never given it any thought.

Before her removing from Norland, Elinor had painted a very pretty pair of screens for her sister-in-law, which being now just mounted and brought home, ornamented her present drawing room; and these screens, catching the eye of John Dashwood on his following the other gentlemen into the room, were officiously handed by him to Colonel Brandon for his admiration.

Before her move from Norland, Elinor had created a lovely pair of screens for her sister-in-law. Now that they were mounted and back home, they decorated her new drawing room. As John Dashwood entered the room with the other gentlemen, he eagerly handed the screens to Colonel Brandon for his admiration.

“These are done by my eldest sister,” said he; “and you, as a man of taste, will, I dare say, be pleased with them. I do not know whether you have ever happened to see any of her performances before, but she is in general reckoned to draw extremely well.”

“These are done by my older sister,” he said; “and you, as someone with good taste, will probably like them. I don’t know if you’ve ever seen any of her work before, but she’s generally considered to be an excellent artist.”

The Colonel, though disclaiming all pretensions to connoisseurship, warmly admired the screens, as he would have done any thing painted by Miss Dashwood; and on the curiosity of the others being of course excited, they were handed round for general inspection. Mrs. Ferrars, not aware of their being Elinor’s work, particularly requested to look at them; and after they had received gratifying testimony of Lady Middletons’s approbation, Fanny presented them to her mother, considerately informing her, at the same time, that they were done by Miss Dashwood.

The Colonel, while claiming no expertise in art, genuinely admired the screens, just as he would anything painted by Miss Dashwood. Naturally, everyone else’s curiosity was piqued, so they were passed around for everyone to see. Mrs. Ferrars, unaware that Elinor had created them, specifically asked to take a look. After Lady Middleton expressed her approval, Fanny showed them to her mother, thoughtfully mentioning that they were made by Miss Dashwood.

“Hum”—said Mrs. Ferrars—“very pretty,”—and without regarding them at all, returned them to her daughter.

“Hum”—said Mrs. Ferrars—“very pretty,”—and without looking at them at all, handed them back to her daughter.

Perhaps Fanny thought for a moment that her mother had been quite rude enough,—for, colouring a little, she immediately said,

Perhaps Fanny thought for a moment that her mom had been pretty rude—because, blushing a bit, she quickly said,

“They are very pretty, ma’am—an’t they?” But then again, the dread of having been too civil, too encouraging herself, probably came over her, for she presently added,

“They're really pretty, ma’am—aren’t they?” But then again, the fear of having been too nice, too encouraging herself, probably hit her, so she quickly added,

“Do you not think they are something in Miss Morton’s style of painting, Ma’am?—She does paint most delightfully!—How beautifully her last landscape is done!”

“Don't you think there's something about Miss Morton’s painting style, Ma’am?—She really paints wonderfully!—Her latest landscape is so beautifully done!”

“Beautifully indeed! But she does every thing well.”

“Beautifully indeed! But she does everything well.”

Marianne could not bear this.—She was already greatly displeased with Mrs. Ferrars; and such ill-timed praise of another, at Elinor’s expense, though she had not any notion of what was principally meant by it, provoked her immediately to say with warmth,

Marianne couldn't stand this. She was already really annoyed with Mrs. Ferrars, and such poorly timed praise of someone else, especially at Elinor's expense, even though she didn't fully understand what it was about, instantly made her respond with frustration,

“This is admiration of a very particular kind!—what is Miss Morton to us?—who knows, or who cares, for her?—it is Elinor of whom we think and speak.”

“This is admiration of a very specific kind!—what does Miss Morton mean to us?—who knows or cares about her?—it is Elinor that we think and talk about.”

And so saying, she took the screens out of her sister-in-law’s hands, to admire them herself as they ought to be admired.

And with that, she took the screens from her sister-in-law's hands to admire them herself, just as they deserved to be admired.

Mrs. Ferrars looked exceedingly angry, and drawing herself up more stiffly than ever, pronounced in retort this bitter philippic, “Miss Morton is Lord Morton’s daughter.”

Mrs. Ferrars looked really angry, and straightening herself up even more, replied with this harsh statement, “Miss Morton is Lord Morton’s daughter.”

Fanny looked very angry too, and her husband was all in a fright at his sister’s audacity. Elinor was much more hurt by Marianne’s warmth than she had been by what produced it; but Colonel Brandon’s eyes, as they were fixed on Marianne, declared that he noticed only what was amiable in it, the affectionate heart which could not bear to see a sister slighted in the smallest point.

Fanny looked really angry too, and her husband was totally freaked out by his sister’s nerve. Elinor was more upset by Marianne’s passion than by what caused it; but Colonel Brandon’s gaze, as it was locked on Marianne, showed that he only saw the kind side of it, the loving heart that couldn’t stand to see a sister disregarded in any way.

Marianne’s feelings did not stop here. The cold insolence of Mrs. Ferrars’s general behaviour to her sister, seemed, to her, to foretell such difficulties and distresses to Elinor, as her own wounded heart taught her to think of with horror; and urged by a strong impulse of affectionate sensibility, she moved after a moment, to her sister’s chair, and putting one arm round her neck, and one cheek close to hers, said in a low, but eager, voice,

Marianne’s feelings didn’t end there. The cold indifference of Mrs. Ferrars’s overall attitude toward her sister made her anticipate challenges and hardships for Elinor that her own hurting heart made her envision with dread. Driven by a powerful urge of loving empathy, she approached her sister’s chair and, wrapping one arm around her neck and pressing one cheek against hers, said in a soft but intense voice,

“Dear, dear Elinor, don’t mind them. Don’t let them make you unhappy.”

“Dear, dear Elinor, don’t let them bother you. Don’t let them make you unhappy.”

She could say no more; her spirits were quite overcome, and hiding her face on Elinor’s shoulder, she burst into tears. Every body’s attention was called, and almost every body was concerned.—Colonel Brandon rose up and went to them without knowing what he did.—Mrs. Jennings, with a very intelligent “Ah! poor dear,” immediately gave her her salts; and Sir John felt so desperately enraged against the author of this nervous distress, that he instantly changed his seat to one close by Lucy Steele, and gave her, in a whisper, a brief account of the whole shocking affair.

She couldn’t say anything more; she was completely overwhelmed, and burying her face in Elinor’s shoulder, she began to cry. Everyone noticed, and almost everyone was concerned. Colonel Brandon stood up and went over to them without really thinking about it. Mrs. Jennings, with a knowing “Oh! poor dear,” immediately handed her some salts. Sir John felt so furious at the person responsible for this distress that he quickly moved to a seat right next to Lucy Steele and whispered a brief explanation of the whole upsetting situation to her.

In a few minutes, however, Marianne was recovered enough to put an end to the bustle, and sit down among the rest; though her spirits retained the impression of what had passed, the whole evening.

In a few minutes, though, Marianne was feeling better enough to stop the commotion and sit down with everyone else; even so, her mood still carried the weight of what had happened throughout the evening.

“Poor Marianne!” said her brother to Colonel Brandon, in a low voice, as soon as he could secure his attention: “She has not such good health as her sister,—she is very nervous,—she has not Elinor’s constitution;—and one must allow that there is something very trying to a young woman who has been a beauty in the loss of her personal attractions. You would not think it perhaps, but Marianne was remarkably handsome a few months ago; quite as handsome as Elinor. Now you see it is all gone.”

“Poor Marianne!” her brother said to Colonel Brandon in a low voice, as soon as he could get his attention. “She doesn’t have as good health as her sister—she’s very nervous—she doesn’t have Elinor’s constitution. And you have to admit, it’s really tough for a young woman who has been beautiful to lose her looks. You might not believe it, but Marianne was incredibly attractive just a few months ago; just as beautiful as Elinor. Now, you can see it’s all gone.”

CHAPTER XXXV.

Elinor’s curiosity to see Mrs. Ferrars was satisfied. She had found in her every thing that could tend to make a farther connection between the families undesirable. She had seen enough of her pride, her meanness, and her determined prejudice against herself, to comprehend all the difficulties that must have perplexed the engagement, and retarded the marriage, of Edward and herself, had he been otherwise free; and she had seen almost enough to be thankful for her own sake, that one greater obstacle preserved her from suffering under any other of Mrs. Ferrars’s creation, preserved her from all dependence upon her caprice, or any solicitude for her good opinion. Or at least, if she did not bring herself quite to rejoice in Edward’s being fettered to Lucy, she determined, that had Lucy been more amiable, she ought to have rejoiced.

Elinor’s curiosity about Mrs. Ferrars was satisfied. She found everything about her that made any further connection between their families undesirable. She observed enough of her pride, her selfishness, and her stubborn bias against herself to understand all the challenges that must have complicated the engagement and delayed the marriage between Edward and herself, had he been otherwise free; and she had seen more than enough to be grateful for her own sake that one major obstacle kept her from enduring any other burdens created by Mrs. Ferrars, shielding her from all dependence on Mrs. Ferrars’ whims, or any anxiety over her approval. Or at least, even if she didn’t fully take joy in Edward being tied to Lucy, she decided that if Lucy had been more likable, she ought to have rejoiced.

She wondered that Lucy’s spirits could be so very much elevated by the civility of Mrs. Ferrars;—that her interest and her vanity should so very much blind her as to make the attention which seemed only paid her because she was not Elinor, appear a compliment to herself—or to allow her to derive encouragement from a preference only given her, because her real situation was unknown. But that it was so, had not only been declared by Lucy’s eyes at the time, but was declared over again the next morning more openly, for at her particular desire, Lady Middleton set her down in Berkeley Street on the chance of seeing Elinor alone, to tell her how happy she was.

She wondered how Lucy could be so uplifted by Mrs. Ferrars' politeness; how her interest and vanity could blind her so much as to think that the attention, seemingly given to her just because she was not Elinor, was actually a compliment to herself—or to let her feel encouraged by a preference that was only given to her because her true situation was unknown. But it was true, as Lucy’s eyes had shown at the time, and it was confirmed again the next morning more openly, because at her specific request, Lady Middleton dropped her off on Berkeley Street in hopes of seeing Elinor alone, so she could tell her how happy she was.

The chance proved a lucky one, for a message from Mrs. Palmer soon after she arrived, carried Mrs. Jennings away.

The opportunity turned out to be a fortunate one, because shortly after Mrs. Palmer arrived, she sent a message that took Mrs. Jennings away.

“My dear friend,” cried Lucy, as soon as they were by themselves, “I come to talk to you of my happiness. Could anything be so flattering as Mrs. Ferrars’s way of treating me yesterday? So exceeding affable as she was! You know how I dreaded the thoughts of seeing her; but the very moment I was introduced, there was such an affability in her behaviour as really should seem to say, she had quite took a fancy to me. Now was not it so? You saw it all; and was not you quite struck with it?”

“My dear friend,” exclaimed Lucy as soon as they were alone, “I want to share my happiness with you. Could anything be more flattering than the way Mrs. Ferrars treated me yesterday? She was incredibly friendly! You know how anxious I was about seeing her, but the moment I was introduced, her warm attitude made it seem like she really took a liking to me. Wasn't that the case? You saw it too, and weren’t you just as surprised?”

“She was certainly very civil to you.”

“She was definitely very polite to you.”

“Civil!—Did you see nothing but only civility?—I saw a vast deal more. Such kindness as fell to the share of nobody but me!—No pride, no hauteur, and your sister just the same—all sweetness and affability!”

“Civility?—Did you see nothing but just politeness?—I saw a whole lot more. Such kindness that no one else received but me!—No pride, no arrogance, and your sister was the same—all sweetness and friendliness!”

Elinor wished to talk of something else, but Lucy still pressed her to own that she had reason for her happiness; and Elinor was obliged to go on.

Elinor wanted to change the subject, but Lucy kept insisting that she acknowledge her reasons for being happy; so Elinor had to continue.

“Undoubtedly, if they had known your engagement,” said she, “nothing could be more flattering than their treatment of you;—but as that was not the case—”

“Without a doubt, if they had known about your engagement,” she said, “nothing could have been more flattering than how they treated you;—but since that wasn’t the case—”

“I guessed you would say so,”—replied Lucy quickly—“but there was no reason in the world why Mrs. Ferrars should seem to like me, if she did not, and her liking me is every thing. You shan’t talk me out of my satisfaction. I am sure it will all end well, and there will be no difficulties at all, to what I used to think. Mrs. Ferrars is a charming woman, and so is your sister. They are both delightful women, indeed!—I wonder I should never hear you say how agreeable Mrs. Dashwood was!”

“I figured you’d say that,” Lucy replied quickly, “but there’s no reason for Mrs. Ferrars to act like she likes me if she doesn’t, and her liking me is everything. You won’t talk me out of my happiness. I’m sure it will all work out in the end, and there won’t be any difficulties compared to what I used to think. Mrs. Ferrars is a wonderful woman, and so is your sister. They’re both truly delightful! I’m surprised I’ve never heard you mention how lovely Mrs. Dashwood is!”

To this Elinor had no answer to make, and did not attempt any.

Elinor had no response to this and didn't try to provide one.

“Are you ill, Miss Dashwood?—you seem low—you don’t speak;—sure you an’t well.”

“Are you feeling sick, Miss Dashwood? You seem down—you’re not talking; surely you’re not well.”

“I never was in better health.”

"I've never felt healthier."

“I am glad of it with all my heart; but really you did not look it. I should be sorry to have you ill; you, that have been the greatest comfort to me in the world!—Heaven knows what I should have done without your friendship.”

“I’m really glad to hear that with all my heart; but to be honest, you didn’t seem like it. I would be so sorry to see you unwell; you have been the greatest comfort to me in the world!—Heaven knows what I would have done without your friendship.”

Elinor tried to make a civil answer, though doubting her own success. But it seemed to satisfy Lucy, for she directly replied,

Elinor tried to give a polite answer, even though she was unsure if she succeeded. But it seemed to please Lucy, because she immediately replied,

“Indeed I am perfectly convinced of your regard for me, and next to Edward’s love, it is the greatest comfort I have. Poor Edward! But now there is one good thing, we shall be able to meet, and meet pretty often, for Lady Middleton’s delighted with Mrs. Dashwood, so we shall be a good deal in Harley Street, I dare say, and Edward spends half his time with his sister—besides, Lady Middleton and Mrs. Ferrars will visit now;—and Mrs. Ferrars and your sister were both so good to say more than once, they should always be glad to see me. They are such charming women!—I am sure if ever you tell your sister what I think of her, you cannot speak too high.”

“I’m really convinced of how much you care for me, and next to Edward’s love, it’s the greatest comfort I have. Poor Edward! But one good thing is that we’ll be able to meet, and meet pretty often, because Lady Middleton is thrilled with Mrs. Dashwood, so I’m sure we’ll spend a lot of time in Harley Street, and Edward spends half his time with his sister—plus, Lady Middleton and Mrs. Ferrars will visit now;—and Mrs. Ferrars and your sister were both so kind to say more than once that they’d always be happy to see me. They are such wonderful women!—I’m sure if you ever tell your sister what I think of her, you can’t say enough good things.”

But Elinor would not give her any encouragement to hope that she should tell her sister. Lucy continued.

But Elinor wouldn't give her any reason to think that she would tell her sister. Lucy went on.

“I am sure I should have seen it in a moment, if Mrs. Ferrars had took a dislike to me. If she had only made me a formal courtesy, for instance, without saying a word, and never after had took any notice of me, and never looked at me in a pleasant way—you know what I mean—if I had been treated in that forbidding sort of way, I should have gave it all up in despair. I could not have stood it. For where she does dislike, I know it is most violent.”

“I’m sure I would have noticed right away if Mrs. Ferrars had taken a dislike to me. If she had just given me a formal nod, for example, without saying anything, and then never acknowledged me again or looked at me in a friendly way—you know what I mean—if I had been treated in that cold way, I would have given up in despair. I couldn’t have handled it. Because when she really dislikes someone, I know it’s very intense.”

Elinor was prevented from making any reply to this civil triumph, by the door’s being thrown open, the servant’s announcing Mr. Ferrars, and Edward’s immediately walking in.

Elinor couldn't respond to this polite victory because the door swung open, the servant announced Mr. Ferrars, and Edward walked in right away.

It was a very awkward moment; and the countenance of each showed that it was so. They all looked exceedingly foolish; and Edward seemed to have as great an inclination to walk out of the room again, as to advance farther into it. The very circumstance, in its unpleasantest form, which they would each have been most anxious to avoid, had fallen on them.—They were not only all three together, but were together without the relief of any other person. The ladies recovered themselves first. It was not Lucy’s business to put herself forward, and the appearance of secrecy must still be kept up. She could therefore only look her tenderness, and after slightly addressing him, said no more.

It was a really awkward moment, and you could see it on their faces. They all looked pretty foolish, and Edward seemed just as eager to leave the room as he was to move further into it. The very situation they all wanted to avoid had happened to them in the worst way possible. They weren't just together; they were together without anyone else around. The ladies were the first to gather themselves. It wasn't Lucy's place to take the lead, and they still had to keep up the appearance of secrecy. So, she could only show her feelings, and after giving him a brief acknowledgment, she didn't say anything else.

But Elinor had more to do; and so anxious was she, for his sake and her own, to do it well, that she forced herself, after a moment’s recollection, to welcome him, with a look and manner that were almost easy, and almost open; and another struggle, another effort still improved them. She would not allow the presence of Lucy, nor the consciousness of some injustice towards herself, to deter her from saying that she was happy to see him, and that she had very much regretted being from home, when he called before in Berkeley Street. She would not be frightened from paying him those attentions which, as a friend and almost a relation, were his due, by the observant eyes of Lucy, though she soon perceived them to be narrowly watching her.

But Elinor had more to do; and she was so determined, for both his sake and her own, to handle it well, that she pushed herself, after a moment of thought, to greet him with a look and demeanor that were almost relaxed and nearly friendly; and with another effort, she improved them further. She refused to let Lucy’s presence or her awareness of some unfairness toward herself stop her from saying she was happy to see him and that she had really regretted missing him when he stopped by earlier in Berkeley Street. She wouldn’t let the watchful gaze of Lucy scare her away from giving him the attention that was rightfully his as a friend and almost a family member, even though she quickly noticed that Lucy was closely observing her.

Her manners gave some re-assurance to Edward, and he had courage enough to sit down; but his embarrassment still exceeded that of the ladies in a proportion, which the case rendered reasonable, though his sex might make it rare; for his heart had not the indifference of Lucy’s, nor could his conscience have quite the ease of Elinor’s.

Her manners reassured Edward a bit, and he found the courage to sit down; however, his embarrassment was still greater than that of the ladies in a way that made sense given the situation, even if it was uncommon for a man. His heart lacked the indifference of Lucy's, and his conscience couldn't be as at ease as Elinor's.

Lucy, with a demure and settled air, seemed determined to make no contribution to the comfort of the others, and would not say a word; and almost every thing that was said, proceeded from Elinor, who was obliged to volunteer all the information about her mother’s health, their coming to town, &c. which Edward ought to have inquired about, but never did.

Lucy, looking quiet and composed, seemed set on not helping anyone else feel comfortable, and she didn’t say a thing; almost everything that was said came from Elinor, who had to share all the details about her mother’s health, their trip to the city, etc., which Edward should have asked about but never did.

Her exertions did not stop here; for she soon afterwards felt herself so heroically disposed as to determine, under pretence of fetching Marianne, to leave the others by themselves; and she really did it, and that in the handsomest manner, for she loitered away several minutes on the landing-place, with the most high-minded fortitude, before she went to her sister. When that was once done, however, it was time for the raptures of Edward to cease; for Marianne’s joy hurried her into the drawing-room immediately. Her pleasure in seeing him was like every other of her feelings, strong in itself, and strongly spoken. She met him with a hand that would be taken, and a voice that expressed the affection of a sister.

Her efforts didn’t stop there; soon after, she felt so inspired that she decided to leave the others alone under the pretext of fetching Marianne. And she actually did it, in the most impressive way, as she lingered on the landing for several minutes with the utmost determination before going to see her sister. Once that was done, though, it was time for Edward’s excitement to fade, because Marianne’s joy rushed her into the drawing room immediately. Her happiness at seeing him was intense and openly expressed, just like her other feelings. She greeted him with an inviting hand and a voice that conveyed the affection of a sister.

“Dear Edward!” she cried, “this is a moment of great happiness!—This would almost make amends for every thing!”

“Dear Edward!” she exclaimed, “this is a moment of huge happiness!—This could almost make up for everything!”

Edward tried to return her kindness as it deserved, but before such witnesses he dared not say half what he really felt. Again they all sat down, and for a moment or two all were silent; while Marianne was looking with the most speaking tenderness, sometimes at Edward and sometimes at Elinor, regretting only that their delight in each other should be checked by Lucy’s unwelcome presence. Edward was the first to speak, and it was to notice Marianne’s altered looks, and express his fear of her not finding London agree with her.

Edward tried to reciprocate her kindness as it deserved, but with witnesses present, he didn’t feel comfortable saying half of what he really felt. They all sat down again, and for a moment, everyone was quiet; meanwhile, Marianne was looking at Edward and then at Elinor with deep affection, wishing only that their happiness with each other wasn't interrupted by Lucy’s unwelcome presence. Edward was the first to break the silence, mentioning Marianne’s changed appearance and expressing his concern that she might not adjust well to life in London.

“Oh, don’t think of me!” she replied with spirited earnestness, though her eyes were filled with tears as she spoke, “don’t think of my health. Elinor is well, you see. That must be enough for us both.”

“Oh, don’t worry about me!” she said with passionate sincerity, although her eyes were glistening with tears as she spoke, “don’t think about my health. Elinor is okay, you see. That should be enough for both of us.”

This remark was not calculated to make Edward or Elinor more easy, nor to conciliate the good will of Lucy, who looked up at Marianne with no very benignant expression.

This comment didn’t help Edward or Elinor feel any better, nor did it win over Lucy, who looked at Marianne with a rather unfriendly expression.

“Do you like London?” said Edward, willing to say any thing that might introduce another subject.

“Do you like London?” Edward asked, eager to bring up a different topic.

“Not at all. I expected much pleasure in it, but I have found none. The sight of you, Edward, is the only comfort it has afforded; and thank Heaven! you are what you always were!”

"Not at all. I expected to enjoy it a lot, but I haven't at all. Seeing you, Edward, is the only comfort it has brought me; and thank goodness! you are just like you always were!"

She paused—no one spoke.

She paused—no one said anything.

“I think, Elinor,” she presently added, “we must employ Edward to take care of us in our return to Barton. In a week or two, I suppose, we shall be going; and, I trust, Edward will not be very unwilling to accept the charge.”

“I think, Elinor,” she then added, “we should get Edward to help us when we head back to Barton. In a week or two, I guess, we’ll be going; and I hope Edward won’t be too reluctant to take on the responsibility.”

Poor Edward muttered something, but what it was, nobody knew, not even himself. But Marianne, who saw his agitation, and could easily trace it to whatever cause best pleased herself, was perfectly satisfied, and soon talked of something else.

Poor Edward mumbled something, but nobody knew what it was, not even he. But Marianne, noticing his distress and easily attributing it to whatever reason pleased her, was completely satisfied and quickly changed the subject.

“We spent such a day, Edward, in Harley Street yesterday! So dull, so wretchedly dull!—But I have much to say to you on that head, which cannot be said now.”

“We spent such a day, Edward, in Harley Street yesterday! So boring, so painfully boring!—But I have a lot to tell you about that, which can't be said right now.”

And with this admirable discretion did she defer the assurance of her finding their mutual relatives more disagreeable than ever, and of her being particularly disgusted with his mother, till they were more in private.

And with this impressive restraint, she held off on confirming that she found their shared relatives more unpleasant than ever and that she was especially put off by his mother until they were in a more private setting.

“But why were you not there, Edward?—Why did you not come?”

“But why weren’t you there, Edward?—Why didn’t you come?”

“I was engaged elsewhere.”

“I was busy with something else.”

“Engaged! But what was that, when such friends were to be met?”

“Engaged! But what does that mean when there are friends to be found?”

“Perhaps, Miss Marianne,” cried Lucy, eager to take some revenge on her, “you think young men never stand upon engagements, if they have no mind to keep them, little as well as great.”

“Maybe, Miss Marianne,” Lucy exclaimed, eager to get back at her, “you think young men never stick to their commitments, whether they're big or small, if they don't feel like keeping them.”

Elinor was very angry, but Marianne seemed entirely insensible of the sting; for she calmly replied,

Elinor was really angry, but Marianne appeared completely unaware of the hurt; she casually responded,

“Not so, indeed; for, seriously speaking, I am very sure that conscience only kept Edward from Harley Street. And I really believe he has the most delicate conscience in the world; the most scrupulous in performing every engagement, however minute, and however it may make against his interest or pleasure. He is the most fearful of giving pain, of wounding expectation, and the most incapable of being selfish, of any body I ever saw. Edward, it is so, and I will say it. What! are you never to hear yourself praised!—Then you must be no friend of mine; for those who will accept of my love and esteem, must submit to my open commendation.”

“Not at all; honestly, I’m sure it’s only his conscience that kept Edward away from Harley Street. I really believe he has the most delicate conscience in the world—so meticulous about keeping every commitment, no matter how small, and no matter how much it might go against his own interests or happiness. He’s the most afraid of causing pain, of disappointing others, and completely incapable of being selfish, of anyone I've ever known. Edward, it’s true, and I’m going to say it. What! Are you never going to hear good things said about you? Then you can’t be my friend; because anyone who accepts my love and respect must be willing to hear me praise them openly.”

The nature of her commendation, in the present case, however, happened to be particularly ill-suited to the feelings of two thirds of her auditors, and was so very unexhilarating to Edward, that he very soon got up to go away.

The nature of her praise, in this case, turned out to be particularly out of touch with how two-thirds of her audience felt, and it was so draining for Edward that he quickly stood up to leave.

“Going so soon!” said Marianne; “my dear Edward, this must not be.”

“Leaving so soon!” said Marianne; “my dear Edward, this can’t happen.”

And drawing him a little aside, she whispered her persuasion that Lucy could not stay much longer. But even this encouragement failed, for he would go; and Lucy, who would have outstaid him, had his visit lasted two hours, soon afterwards went away.

And pulling him a bit aside, she softly insisted that Lucy couldn't stay much longer. But even this encouragement didn't work, because he insisted on leaving; and Lucy, who would have stayed longer if his visit had lasted two hours, soon left as well.

“What can bring her here so often?” said Marianne, on her leaving them. “Could not she see that we wanted her gone!—how teazing to Edward!”

“What could be bringing her here so often?” said Marianne as she left them. “Couldn't she see that we wanted her to leave!—how annoying for Edward!”

“Why so?—we were all his friends, and Lucy has been the longest known to him of any. It is but natural that he should like to see her as well as ourselves.”

“Why not?—we were all his friends, and Lucy has known him the longest of any of us. It's only natural that he would want to see her just like he wants to see us.”

Marianne looked at her steadily, and said, “You know, Elinor, that this is a kind of talking which I cannot bear. If you only hope to have your assertion contradicted, as I must suppose to be the case, you ought to recollect that I am the last person in the world to do it. I cannot descend to be tricked out of assurances, that are not really wanted.”

Marianne looked at her intently and said, “You know, Elinor, that this kind of conversation really gets on my nerves. If you’re just hoping to have your claim challenged, which I have to assume is the case, you should remember that I’m the last person who would do that. I can’t stoop to being manipulated into giving reassurances that aren’t genuinely needed.”

She then left the room; and Elinor dared not follow her to say more, for bound as she was by her promise of secrecy to Lucy, she could give no information that would convince Marianne; and painful as the consequences of her still continuing in an error might be, she was obliged to submit to it. All that she could hope, was that Edward would not often expose her or himself to the distress of hearing Marianne’s mistaken warmth, nor to the repetition of any other part of the pain that had attended their recent meeting—and this she had every reason to expect.

She then left the room, and Elinor didn't dare to follow her to say more. Bound by her promise of secrecy to Lucy, she couldn't provide any information that would convince Marianne. As painful as it was to watch her continue in her misunderstanding, Elinor had to accept it. All she could hope for was that Edward wouldn't have to deal with the discomfort of hearing Marianne's misguided passion too often, nor face the recurrence of the pain from their recent meeting—and she had every reason to believe that would be the case.

CHAPTER XXXVI.

Within a few days after this meeting, the newspapers announced to the world, that the lady of Thomas Palmer, Esq. was safely delivered of a son and heir; a very interesting and satisfactory paragraph, at least to all those intimate connections who knew it before.

Within a few days after this meeting, the newspapers announced to the world that the wife of Thomas Palmer, Esq. had safely given birth to a son and heir; a very interesting and satisfying update, at least to all those close connections who already knew.

This event, highly important to Mrs. Jennings’s happiness, produced a temporary alteration in the disposal of her time, and influenced, in a like degree, the engagements of her young friends; for as she wished to be as much as possible with Charlotte, she went thither every morning as soon as she was dressed, and did not return till late in the evening; and the Miss Dashwoods, at the particular request of the Middletons, spent the whole of every day in Conduit Street. For their own comfort they would much rather have remained, at least all the morning, in Mrs. Jennings’s house; but it was not a thing to be urged against the wishes of everybody. Their hours were therefore made over to Lady Middleton and the two Miss Steeles, by whom their company, in fact was as little valued, as it was professedly sought.

This event, crucial for Mrs. Jennings's happiness, caused a temporary change in how she spent her time and similarly affected her young friends' plans. Since she wanted to be with Charlotte as much as possible, she went over every morning right after getting dressed and didn't come back until late in the evening. The Dashwood sisters, at the specific request of the Middletons, spent the entire day in Conduit Street. For their own comfort, they would have preferred to stay, at least for the morning, at Mrs. Jennings's house, but they couldn't really go against everyone else's wishes. So, they ended up dedicating their time to Lady Middleton and the two Miss Steeles, who were, in reality, as uninterested in their company as they pretended to want it.

They had too much sense to be desirable companions to the former; and by the latter they were considered with a jealous eye, as intruding on their ground, and sharing the kindness which they wanted to monopolize. Though nothing could be more polite than Lady Middleton’s behaviour to Elinor and Marianne, she did not really like them at all. Because they neither flattered herself nor her children, she could not believe them good-natured; and because they were fond of reading, she fancied them satirical: perhaps without exactly knowing what it was to be satirical; but that did not signify. It was censure in common use, and easily given.

They were too sensible to be desirable companions for the former; and the latter viewed them with jealousy, seeing them as intruders on their territory, sharing the attention that they wanted to keep to themselves. Although Lady Middleton was exceptionally polite to Elinor and Marianne, she didn’t actually like them at all. Because they didn’t flatter her or her children, she couldn’t see them as kind-hearted. And since they enjoyed reading, she imagined they must be critical—perhaps not fully understanding what it really meant to be critical; but that didn’t matter. It was a common criticism, easily leveled.

Their presence was a restraint both on her and on Lucy. It checked the idleness of one, and the business of the other. Lady Middleton was ashamed of doing nothing before them, and the flattery which Lucy was proud to think of and administer at other times, she feared they would despise her for offering. Miss Steele was the least discomposed of the three, by their presence; and it was in their power to reconcile her to it entirely. Would either of them only have given her a full and minute account of the whole affair between Marianne and Mr. Willoughby, she would have thought herself amply rewarded for the sacrifice of the best place by the fire after dinner, which their arrival occasioned. But this conciliation was not granted; for though she often threw out expressions of pity for her sister to Elinor, and more than once dropt a reflection on the inconstancy of beaux before Marianne, no effect was produced, but a look of indifference from the former, or of disgust in the latter. An effort even yet lighter might have made her their friend. Would they only have laughed at her about the Doctor! But so little were they, any more than the others, inclined to oblige her, that if Sir John dined from home, she might spend a whole day without hearing any other raillery on the subject, than what she was kind enough to bestow on herself.

Their presence was a restraint on both her and Lucy. It kept one from being lazy and the other from being busy. Lady Middleton felt embarrassed about doing nothing in front of them, and the compliments that Lucy was usually proud to think of and give, she worried they would look down on her for offering. Miss Steele was the least bothered by their presence; they could have completely made her comfortable with it. If either of them had just given her a detailed account of the whole situation between Marianne and Mr. Willoughby, she would have felt more than compensated for giving up the best spot by the fire after dinner, which their arrival caused. But this was not offered; even though she often expressed sympathy for her sister to Elinor and more than once made comments about how fickle guys are in front of Marianne, it only resulted in a look of indifference from Elinor or disgust from Marianne. An even lighter effort might have won her over as a friend. If only they had laughed with her about the Doctor! But they were no more inclined to indulge her than anyone else, so if Sir John dined out, she might go an entire day without hearing any teasing on the subject other than what she kindly directed at herself.

All these jealousies and discontents, however, were so totally unsuspected by Mrs. Jennings, that she thought it a delightful thing for the girls to be together; and generally congratulated her young friends every night, on having escaped the company of a stupid old woman so long. She joined them sometimes at Sir John’s, sometimes at her own house; but wherever it was, she always came in excellent spirits, full of delight and importance, attributing Charlotte’s well doing to her own care, and ready to give so exact, so minute a detail of her situation, as only Miss Steele had curiosity enough to desire. One thing did disturb her; and of that she made her daily complaint. Mr. Palmer maintained the common, but unfatherly opinion among his sex, of all infants being alike; and though she could plainly perceive, at different times, the most striking resemblance between this baby and every one of his relations on both sides, there was no convincing his father of it; no persuading him to believe that it was not exactly like every other baby of the same age; nor could he even be brought to acknowledge the simple proposition of its being the finest child in the world.

All these jealousies and discontent, however, were completely unnoticed by Mrs. Jennings, who thought it was wonderful for the girls to be together. She usually congratulated her young friends every night for avoiding the company of a boring old woman for so long. She joined them sometimes at Sir John's and sometimes at her own house; but no matter where it was, she always arrived in great spirits, full of happiness and importance, claiming that Charlotte's success was due to her own care, and was ready to provide such an exact and detailed account of their situation that only Miss Steele was curious enough to want it. One thing did bother her, and she complained about it daily. Mr. Palmer held the common but unkind view among his peers that all babies look alike; and even though she could clearly see, at different times, the most striking resemblance between this baby and each of its relatives from both sides, there was no convincing the father of it. He wouldn’t believe that it was not just like every other baby of the same age, nor could he even accept the simple idea that it was the most beautiful child in the world.

I come now to the relation of a misfortune, which about this time befell Mrs. John Dashwood. It so happened that while her two sisters with Mrs. Jennings were first calling on her in Harley Street, another of her acquaintance had dropt in—a circumstance in itself not apparently likely to produce evil to her. But while the imaginations of other people will carry them away to form wrong judgments of our conduct, and to decide on it by slight appearances, one’s happiness must in some measure be always at the mercy of chance. In the present instance, this last-arrived lady allowed her fancy to so far outrun truth and probability, that on merely hearing the name of the Miss Dashwoods, and understanding them to be Mr. Dashwood’s sisters, she immediately concluded them to be staying in Harley Street; and this misconstruction produced within a day or two afterwards, cards of invitation for them as well as for their brother and sister, to a small musical party at her house. The consequence of which was, that Mrs. John Dashwood was obliged to submit not only to the exceedingly great inconvenience of sending her carriage for the Miss Dashwoods, but, what was still worse, must be subject to all the unpleasantness of appearing to treat them with attention: and who could tell that they might not expect to go out with her a second time? The power of disappointing them, it was true, must always be hers. But that was not enough; for when people are determined on a mode of conduct which they know to be wrong, they feel injured by the expectation of any thing better from them.

I now come to the story of a misfortune that happened to Mrs. John Dashwood around this time. While her two sisters were visiting her with Mrs. Jennings in Harley Street, another acquaintance unexpectedly dropped by—a situation that shouldn't have caused her any trouble. However, when people let their imaginations run wild, they often make incorrect judgments about our actions based on superficial details, and our happiness can sometimes be at the mercy of chance. In this case, the newly arrived lady allowed her imagination to get ahead of reality and logic. Upon simply hearing the names of the Miss Dashwoods and realizing they were Mr. Dashwood’s sisters, she immediately assumed they were staying in Harley Street. This misunderstanding resulted, a day or two later, in invitations being sent out for them as well as their brother and sister to a small musical gathering at her home. As a result, Mrs. John Dashwood was forced to deal with the considerable inconvenience of sending her carriage for the Miss Dashwoods, and even worse, she had to endure the awkwardness of appearing to give them special attention. And who could say they wouldn’t expect to go out with her again? True, she would always have the power to disappoint them, but that wasn't enough; when people choose to act in a way they know is wrong, they feel wronged by any expectation of better treatment from them.

Marianne had now been brought by degrees, so much into the habit of going out every day, that it was become a matter of indifference to her, whether she went or not: and she prepared quietly and mechanically for every evening’s engagement, though without expecting the smallest amusement from any, and very often without knowing, till the last moment, where it was to take her.

Marianne had gradually gotten into the routine of going out every day, to the point that it didn't matter to her whether she went or not. She got ready quietly and automatically for every evening's plans, though she didn’t expect to enjoy herself at all, and often didn’t even know where she was headed until the very last moment.

To her dress and appearance she was grown so perfectly indifferent, as not to bestow half the consideration on it, during the whole of her toilet, which it received from Miss Steele in the first five minutes of their being together, when it was finished. Nothing escaped her minute observation and general curiosity; she saw every thing, and asked every thing; was never easy till she knew the price of every part of Marianne’s dress; could have guessed the number of her gowns altogether with better judgment than Marianne herself, and was not without hopes of finding out before they parted, how much her washing cost per week, and how much she had every year to spend upon herself. The impertinence of these kind of scrutinies, moreover, was generally concluded with a compliment, which though meant as its douceur, was considered by Marianne as the greatest impertinence of all; for after undergoing an examination into the value and make of her gown, the colour of her shoes, and the arrangement of her hair, she was almost sure of being told that upon “her word she looked vastly smart, and she dared to say she would make a great many conquests.”

To her dress and appearance, she had become so completely indifferent that she didn’t give it half the thought during her whole getting-ready process that Miss Steele did in the first five minutes of being together when it was done. Nothing escaped her keen observation and general curiosity; she noticed everything and asked everything. She was never satisfied until she knew the price of every piece of Marianne’s outfit; she could guess the total number of her gowns better than Marianne herself, and she hoped to find out before they parted how much her laundry cost each week and how much she had to spend on herself every year. The rudeness of these kinds of inquiries was usually wrapped up with a compliment, which, though intended to be flattering, was seen by Marianne as the biggest rudeness of all. After being subjected to questions about the value and style of her dress, the color of her shoes, and the arrangement of her hair, she was almost certain to be told that “upon her word she looked very smart, and she would surely make a lot of conquests.”

With such encouragement as this, was she dismissed on the present occasion, to her brother’s carriage; which they were ready to enter five minutes after it stopped at the door, a punctuality not very agreeable to their sister-in-law, who had preceded them to the house of her acquaintance, and was there hoping for some delay on their part that might inconvenience either herself or her coachman.

With encouragement like that, she was dismissed this time to her brother's carriage, which they were ready to get into five minutes after it pulled up to the door. This punctuality was not very pleasing to their sister-in-law, who had arrived before them at a friend's house and was hoping for some delay on their part that would inconvenience either herself or her driver.

The events of this evening were not very remarkable. The party, like other musical parties, comprehended a great many people who had real taste for the performance, and a great many more who had none at all; and the performers themselves were, as usual, in their own estimation, and that of their immediate friends, the first private performers in England.

The events of this evening weren't particularly memorable. The party, like other musical gatherings, included many people who genuinely appreciated the performance, and many more who didn't care at all; and the performers themselves, as usual, considered themselves, along with their close friends, to be the top private performers in England.

As Elinor was neither musical, nor affecting to be so, she made no scruple of turning her eyes from the grand pianoforte, whenever it suited her, and unrestrained even by the presence of a harp, and violoncello, would fix them at pleasure on any other object in the room. In one of these excursive glances she perceived among a group of young men, the very he, who had given them a lecture on toothpick-cases at Gray’s. She perceived him soon afterwards looking at herself, and speaking familiarly to her brother; and had just determined to find out his name from the latter, when they both came towards her, and Mr. Dashwood introduced him to her as Mr. Robert Ferrars.

As Elinor wasn’t musical and didn’t pretend to be, she had no problem looking away from the grand piano whenever she wanted. Even with a harp and a cello nearby, she felt free to direct her gaze to anything else in the room. During one of these wandering glances, she noticed among a group of young men the very one who had given them a talk about toothpick cases at Gray’s. She soon saw him looking at her and chatting casually with her brother. Just as she decided to ask her brother for his name, they both approached her, and Mr. Dashwood introduced him as Mr. Robert Ferrars.

He addressed her with easy civility, and twisted his head into a bow which assured her as plainly as words could have done, that he was exactly the coxcomb she had heard him described to be by Lucy. Happy had it been for her, if her regard for Edward had depended less on his own merit, than on the merit of his nearest relations! For then his brother’s bow must have given the finishing stroke to what the ill-humour of his mother and sister would have begun. But while she wondered at the difference of the two young men, she did not find that the emptiness and conceit of the one, put her out of all charity with the modesty and worth of the other. Why they were different, Robert explained to her himself in the course of a quarter of an hour’s conversation; for, talking of his brother, and lamenting the extreme gaucherie which he really believed kept him from mixing in proper society, he candidly and generously attributed it much less to any natural deficiency, than to the misfortune of a private education; while he himself, though probably without any particular, any material superiority by nature, merely from the advantage of a public school, was as well fitted to mix in the world as any other man.

He spoke to her with casual politeness and tilted his head in a bow that clearly indicated, just as words would have, that he was exactly the vain person Lucy had described. It would have been better for her if her feelings for Edward had relied less on his own qualities and more on those of his closest relatives! If that were the case, his brother’s bow would have perfectly capped off what his mother’s and sister’s bad moods had started. But while she noted the differences between the two young men, she didn’t find that the arrogance and shallowness of one made her lose all appreciation for the humility and value of the other. Why they were different, Robert explained himself during a conversation that lasted about fifteen minutes; while discussing his brother and lamenting the awkwardness he truly believed prevented him from fitting into proper society, he honestly and generously attributed it more to the unfortunate effects of a private education than to any natural shortcomings. Meanwhile, he himself, though probably without any specific, significant advantage by nature, was well-prepared to engage in the world simply because of the benefits of attending a public school.

“Upon my soul,” he added, “I believe it is nothing more; and so I often tell my mother, when she is grieving about it. ‘My dear Madam,’ I always say to her, ‘you must make yourself easy. The evil is now irremediable, and it has been entirely your own doing. Why would you be persuaded by my uncle, Sir Robert, against your own judgment, to place Edward under private tuition, at the most critical time of his life? If you had only sent him to Westminster as well as myself, instead of sending him to Mr. Pratt’s, all this would have been prevented.’ This is the way in which I always consider the matter, and my mother is perfectly convinced of her error.”

"Honestly," he added, "I think that's all there is to it; and I often tell my mom that when she's upset about it. 'Dear Mom,' I always say to her, 'you need to relax. The damage is done, and it's all your fault. Why did you let my uncle, Sir Robert, talk you out of your own judgment and put Edward in private tutoring at such a crucial time in his life? If only you had sent him to Westminster like I went, instead of to Mr. Pratt's, none of this would have happened.' That's how I see it, and my mom totally agrees that she made a mistake."

Elinor would not oppose his opinion, because, whatever might be her general estimation of the advantage of a public school, she could not think of Edward’s abode in Mr. Pratt’s family, with any satisfaction.

Elinor wouldn’t challenge his opinion because, no matter how she generally felt about the benefits of a public school, she couldn't think of Edward living with Mr. Pratt's family with any sense of satisfaction.

“You reside in Devonshire, I think,”—was his next observation, “in a cottage near Dawlish.”

"You live in Devonshire, right?" was his next comment, "in a cottage near Dawlish."

Elinor set him right as to its situation; and it seemed rather surprising to him that anybody could live in Devonshire, without living near Dawlish. He bestowed his hearty approbation however on their species of house.

Elinor corrected him about its location; and he found it quite surprising that anyone could live in Devonshire without being close to Dawlish. However, he gave his enthusiastic approval of their type of house.

“For my own part,” said he, “I am excessively fond of a cottage; there is always so much comfort, so much elegance about them. And I protest, if I had any money to spare, I should buy a little land and build one myself, within a short distance of London, where I might drive myself down at any time, and collect a few friends about me, and be happy. I advise every body who is going to build, to build a cottage. My friend Lord Courtland came to me the other day on purpose to ask my advice, and laid before me three different plans of Bonomi’s. I was to decide on the best of them. ‘My dear Courtland,’ said I, immediately throwing them all into the fire, ‘do not adopt either of them, but by all means build a cottage.’ And that I fancy, will be the end of it.

“For my part,” he said, “I’m really fond of a cottage; there's always so much coziness and charm about them. And honestly, if I had any extra money, I’d buy a little land and build one myself, not far from London, where I could drive down anytime and gather a few friends around me and be happy. I recommend everyone who’s planning to build to go for a cottage. My friend Lord Courtland came to me the other day specifically to ask my advice and presented three different plans from Bonomi. I was supposed to choose the best one. ‘My dear Courtland,’ I said, immediately throwing them all into the fire, ‘don’t go with any of those, but definitely build a cottage instead.’ And I think that will be the end of it.

“Some people imagine that there can be no accommodations, no space in a cottage; but this is all a mistake. I was last month at my friend Elliott’s, near Dartford. Lady Elliott wished to give a dance. ‘But how can it be done?’ said she; ‘my dear Ferrars, do tell me how it is to be managed. There is not a room in this cottage that will hold ten couple, and where can the supper be?’ I immediately saw that there could be no difficulty in it, so I said, ‘My dear Lady Elliott, do not be uneasy. The dining parlour will admit eighteen couple with ease; card-tables may be placed in the drawing-room; the library may be open for tea and other refreshments; and let the supper be set out in the saloon.’ Lady Elliott was delighted with the thought. We measured the dining-room, and found it would hold exactly eighteen couple, and the affair was arranged precisely after my plan. So that, in fact, you see, if people do but know how to set about it, every comfort may be as well enjoyed in a cottage as in the most spacious dwelling.”

“Some people think there’s no way to make space in a cottage, but that's a misconception. Last month, I visited my friend Elliott's place near Dartford. Lady Elliott wanted to throw a dance. ‘But how can we do that?’ she asked; ‘my dear Ferrars, please tell me how it’s possible. There’s not a room in this cottage that can fit ten couples, and where would the supper go?’ I quickly realized there wouldn’t be any problem, so I said, ‘My dear Lady Elliott, don’t worry. The dining room can easily fit eighteen couples; we can set up card tables in the drawing room; the library can be used for tea and snacks; and we can serve supper in the saloon.’ Lady Elliott loved the idea. We measured the dining room and found it could comfortably hold eighteen couples, and we organized everything exactly as I planned. So, as you can see, if people just know how to approach it, all the comforts can be enjoyed in a cottage just as well as in the largest homes.”

Elinor agreed to it all, for she did not think he deserved the compliment of rational opposition.

Elinor went along with everything, because she didn't believe he deserved the courtesy of a logical disagreement.

As John Dashwood had no more pleasure in music than his eldest sister, his mind was equally at liberty to fix on any thing else; and a thought struck him during the evening, which he communicated to his wife, for her approbation, when they got home. The consideration of Mrs. Dennison’s mistake, in supposing his sisters their guests, had suggested the propriety of their being really invited to become such, while Mrs. Jennings’s engagements kept her from home. The expense would be nothing, the inconvenience not more; and it was altogether an attention which the delicacy of his conscience pointed out to be requisite to its complete enfranchisement from his promise to his father. Fanny was startled at the proposal.

As John Dashwood didn't enjoy music any more than his oldest sister did, his mind was just as free to focus on something else. An idea came to him during the evening, which he shared with his wife for her approval when they got home. The fact that Mrs. Dennison mistakenly thought his sisters were already their guests made him realize it would be proper to actually invite them now that Mrs. Jennings was away. The cost wouldn’t be much, and the hassle wouldn’t be too great; it was simply a gesture his conscience suggested was necessary to fully release him from the promise he made to his father. Fanny was taken aback by the suggestion.

“I do not see how it can be done,” said she, “without affronting Lady Middleton, for they spend every day with her; otherwise I should be exceedingly glad to do it. You know I am always ready to pay them any attention in my power, as my taking them out this evening shows. But they are Lady Middleton’s visitors. How can I ask them away from her?”

“I don’t see how it can be done,” she said, “without disrespecting Lady Middleton, since they spend every day with her; otherwise, I would be really happy to do it. You know I’m always ready to give them any attention I can, as my taking them out this evening shows. But they are Lady Middleton’s guests. How can I ask them to leave her?”

Her husband, but with great humility, did not see the force of her objection. “They had already spent a week in this manner in Conduit Street, and Lady Middleton could not be displeased at their giving the same number of days to such near relations.”

Her husband, though very humble, didn’t think her objection was valid. “They had already spent a week like this on Conduit Street, and Lady Middleton couldn’t be upset about them giving the same amount of time to such close relatives.”

Fanny paused a moment, and then, with fresh vigor, said,

Fanny took a moment to pause, and then, with renewed energy, said,

“My love, I would ask them with all my heart, if it was in my power. But I had just settled within myself to ask the Miss Steeles to spend a few days with us. They are very well behaved, good kind of girls; and I think the attention is due to them, as their uncle did so very well by Edward. We can ask your sisters some other year, you know; but the Miss Steeles may not be in town any more. I am sure you will like them; indeed, you do like them, you know, very much already, and so does my mother; and they are such favourites with Harry!”

“My love, I would ask them with all my heart if I could. But I had just decided to invite the Miss Steeles to spend a few days with us. They are very well-mannered, nice girls; and I think it’s only fair to include them since their uncle treated Edward so well. We can invite your sisters another year, of course; but the Miss Steeles might not be in town much longer. I’m sure you’ll like them; in fact, you already do, and so does my mother; they’re really favorites of Harry’s!”

Mr. Dashwood was convinced. He saw the necessity of inviting the Miss Steeles immediately, and his conscience was pacified by the resolution of inviting his sisters another year; at the same time, however, slyly suspecting that another year would make the invitation needless, by bringing Elinor to town as Colonel Brandon’s wife, and Marianne as their visitor.

Mr. Dashwood was sure about it. He recognized the need to invite the Miss Steeles right away, and he felt better about the decision to invite his sisters next year; at the same time, though, he secretly suspected that by then, the invitation would be unnecessary, as Elinor would be in town as Colonel Brandon’s wife, and Marianne would be visiting them.

Fanny, rejoicing in her escape, and proud of the ready wit that had procured it, wrote the next morning to Lucy, to request her company and her sister’s, for some days, in Harley Street, as soon as Lady Middleton could spare them. This was enough to make Lucy really and reasonably happy. Mrs. Dashwood seemed actually working for her, herself; cherishing all her hopes, and promoting all her views! Such an opportunity of being with Edward and his family was, above all things, the most material to her interest, and such an invitation the most gratifying to her feelings! It was an advantage that could not be too gratefully acknowledged, nor too speedily made use of; and the visit to Lady Middleton, which had not before had any precise limits, was instantly discovered to have been always meant to end in two days’ time.

Fanny, thrilled about her escape and proud of the quick thinking that made it happen, wrote the next morning to Lucy, inviting her and her sister to stay with her for a few days in Harley Street, as soon as Lady Middleton could let them go. This was enough to make Lucy genuinely and fairly happy. Mrs. Dashwood seemed to be working in her favor, nurturing all her hopes and supporting all her plans! The chance to be with Edward and his family was, above all, the most important thing for her, and such an invitation brought her great joy! It was an opportunity that couldn't be appreciated enough, or seized quickly enough; and the visit to Lady Middleton, which had previously lacked specific end dates, was immediately realized to have always been intended to wrap up in two days.

When the note was shown to Elinor, as it was within ten minutes after its arrival, it gave her, for the first time, some share in the expectations of Lucy; for such a mark of uncommon kindness, vouchsafed on so short an acquaintance, seemed to declare that the good-will towards her arose from something more than merely malice against herself; and might be brought, by time and address, to do every thing that Lucy wished. Her flattery had already subdued the pride of Lady Middleton, and made an entry into the close heart of Mrs. John Dashwood; and these were effects that laid open the probability of greater.

When Elinor saw the note, just ten minutes after it arrived, it for the first time gave her a glimpse into Lucy's expectations. That gesture of unusual kindness, given after such a short time of knowing each other, seemed to indicate that the goodwill toward her came from something deeper than just spite against herself. With a bit of time and effort, it could be turned into everything Lucy wanted. Her flattery had already softened Lady Middleton's pride and allowed her into the guarded heart of Mrs. John Dashwood. These outcomes suggested the likelihood of even greater ones.

The Miss Steeles removed to Harley Street, and all that reached Elinor of their influence there, strengthened her expectation of the event. Sir John, who called on them more than once, brought home such accounts of the favour they were in, as must be universally striking. Mrs. Dashwood had never been so much pleased with any young women in her life, as she was with them; had given each of them a needle book made by some emigrant; called Lucy by her Christian name; and did not know whether she should ever be able to part with them.

The Miss Steeles moved to Harley Street, and everything Elinor heard about their influence there only increased her anticipation of the event. Sir John, who visited them several times, brought back such reports of their popularity that it was hard for anyone not to notice. Mrs. Dashwood had never been so fond of any young women in her life as she was of them; she had given each of them a needle book made by some emigrant; called Lucy by her first name; and couldn’t tell if she would ever be able to say goodbye to them.

END OF THE SECOND VOLUME

END OF VOLUME TWO

CHAPTER XXXVII.

Mrs. Palmer was so well at the end of a fortnight, that her mother felt it no longer necessary to give up the whole of her time to her; and, contenting herself with visiting her once or twice a day, returned from that period to her own home, and her own habits, in which she found the Miss Dashwoods very ready to resume their former share.

Mrs. Palmer was doing so well after two weeks that her mother felt it was no longer necessary to dedicate all her time to her. Satisfied with visiting her once or twice a day, she returned to her own home and routine, where she found the Miss Dashwoods eager to jump back into their usual roles.

About the third or fourth morning after their being thus resettled in Berkeley Street, Mrs. Jennings, on returning from her ordinary visit to Mrs. Palmer, entered the drawing-room, where Elinor was sitting by herself, with an air of such hurrying importance as prepared her to hear something wonderful; and giving her time only to form that idea, began directly to justify it, by saying,

About the third or fourth morning after moving to Berkeley Street, Mrs. Jennings, coming back from her usual visit to Mrs. Palmer, walked into the drawing room, where Elinor was sitting alone, looking so hurried and important that it made Elinor expect something extraordinary; and before Elinor could fully wrap her mind around that thought, Mrs. Jennings immediately started to prove her right by saying,

“Lord! my dear Miss Dashwood! have you heard the news?”

“Wow! My dear Miss Dashwood! Have you heard the news?”

“No, ma’am. What is it?”

“No, ma'am. What's up?”

“Something so strange! But you shall hear it all. When I got to Mr. Palmer’s, I found Charlotte quite in a fuss about the child. She was sure it was very ill—it cried, and fretted, and was all over pimples. So I looked at it directly, and, ‘Lord! my dear,’ says I, ‘it is nothing in the world, but the red gum;’ and nurse said just the same. But Charlotte, she would not be satisfied, so Mr. Donavan was sent for; and luckily he happened to just come in from Harley Street, so he stepped over directly, and as soon as ever he saw the child, he said just as we did, that it was nothing in the world but the red gum, and then Charlotte was easy. And so, just as he was going away again, it came into my head, I am sure I do not know how I happened to think of it, but it came into my head to ask him if there was any news. So upon that, he smirked, and simpered, and looked grave, and seemed to know something or other, and at last he said in a whisper, ‘For fear any unpleasant report should reach the young ladies under your care as to their sister’s indisposition, I think it advisable to say, that I believe there is no great reason for alarm; I hope Mrs. Dashwood will do very well.’”

“Something so strange! But you’ll hear all about it. When I got to Mr. Palmer’s, I found Charlotte quite upset about the child. She was convinced it was very sick—it cried, was fussy, and was covered in pimples. So I looked at it right away, and I said, ‘Oh my dear,’ I says, ‘it’s nothing at all but the red gum;’ and the nurse agreed. But Charlotte wouldn’t be satisfied, so they called Mr. Donavan; luckily, he had just come in from Harley Street, so he came over immediately, and as soon as he saw the child, he said exactly what we did: that it was nothing but the red gum, and then Charlotte felt better. Just as he was leaving, it popped into my head—I don’t know how I thought of it—but I asked him if there was any news. At that, he smirked, simpered, looked serious, and seemed to know something, and finally he whispered, ‘To prevent any unpleasant news reaching the young ladies in your care about their sister’s condition, I think it’s best to say that I believe there’s no real cause for alarm; I hope Mrs. Dashwood will be just fine.’”

“What! is Fanny ill?”

“What! Is Fanny sick?”

“That is exactly what I said, my dear. ‘Lord!’ says I, ‘is Mrs. Dashwood ill?’ So then it all came out; and the long and the short of the matter, by all I can learn, seems to be this. Mr. Edward Ferrars, the very young man I used to joke with you about (but however, as it turns out, I am monstrous glad there was never any thing in it), Mr. Edward Ferrars, it seems, has been engaged above this twelvemonth to my cousin Lucy!—There’s for you, my dear! And not a creature knowing a syllable of the matter, except Nancy! Could you have believed such a thing possible? There is no great wonder in their liking one another; but that matters should be brought so forward between them, and nobody suspect it! That is strange! I never happened to see them together, or I am sure I should have found it out directly. Well, and so this was kept a great secret, for fear of Mrs. Ferrars, and neither she nor your brother or sister suspected a word of the matter: till this very morning, poor Nancy, who, you know, is a well-meaning creature, but no conjurer, popt it all out. ‘Lord!’ thinks she to herself, ‘they are all so fond of Lucy, to be sure they will make no difficulty about it;’ and so, away she went to your sister, who was sitting all alone at her carpet-work, little suspecting what was to come—for she had just been saying to your brother, only five minutes before, that she thought to make a match between Edward and some Lord’s daughter or other, I forget who. So you may think what a blow it was to all her vanity and pride. She fell into violent hysterics immediately, with such screams as reached your brother’s ears, as he was sitting in his own dressing-room down stairs, thinking about writing a letter to his steward in the country. So up he flew directly, and a terrible scene took place, for Lucy was come to them by that time, little dreaming what was going on. Poor soul! I pity her. And I must say, I think she was used very hardly; for your sister scolded like any fury, and soon drove her into a fainting fit. Nancy, she fell upon her knees, and cried bitterly; and your brother, he walked about the room, and said he did not know what to do. Mrs. Dashwood declared they should not stay a minute longer in the house, and your brother was forced to go down upon his knees too, to persuade her to let them stay till they had packed up their clothes. Then she fell into hysterics again, and he was so frightened that he would send for Mr. Donavan, and Mr. Donavan found the house in all this uproar. The carriage was at the door ready to take my poor cousins away, and they were just stepping in as he came off; poor Lucy in such a condition, he says, she could hardly walk; and Nancy, she was almost as bad. I declare, I have no patience with your sister; and I hope, with all my heart, it will be a match in spite of her. Lord! what a taking poor Mr. Edward will be in when he hears of it! To have his love used so scornfully! for they say he is monstrous fond of her, as well he may. I should not wonder, if he was to be in the greatest passion!—and Mr. Donavan thinks just the same. He and I had a great deal of talk about it; and the best of all is, that he is gone back again to Harley Street, that he may be within call when Mrs. Ferrars is told of it, for she was sent for as soon as ever my cousins left the house, for your sister was sure she would be in hysterics too; and so she may, for what I care. I have no pity for either of them. I have no notion of people’s making such a to-do about money and greatness. There is no reason on earth why Mr. Edward and Lucy should not marry; for I am sure Mrs. Ferrars may afford to do very well by her son, and though Lucy has next to nothing herself, she knows better than any body how to make the most of every thing; I dare say, if Mrs. Ferrars would only allow him five hundred a-year, she would make as good an appearance with it as any body else would with eight. Lord! how snug they might live in such another cottage as yours—or a little bigger—with two maids, and two men; and I believe I could help them to a housemaid, for my Betty has a sister out of place, that would fit them exactly.”

"That’s exactly what I said, my dear. ‘Lord!’ I said, ‘Is Mrs. Dashwood sick?’ So then it all came out; and the long and short of it, from what I can gather, seems to be this: Mr. Edward Ferrars, the very young man I used to tease you about (but as it turns out, I’m really glad there was never anything between us), Mr. Edward Ferrars has been engaged for over a year to my cousin Lucy!—There’s your news, my dear! And not a single soul knew a thing about it, except Nancy! Could you believe such a thing was possible? There's no real surprise in their liking each other, but that things should go so far between them without anyone suspecting it! That is strange! I never happened to see them together, or I’m sure I would have figured it out right away. Well, this was kept a big secret, afraid of Mrs. Ferrars, and neither she nor your brother or sister suspected a word of it—until this very morning, poor Nancy, who, as you know, is a well-meaning soul but not a clairvoyant, blurted it all out. ‘Lord!’ she thinks to herself, ‘they're all so fond of Lucy; they surely won’t have any objections,’ and off she went to your sister, who was sitting all alone at her needlework, completely unaware of what was about to happen—for she had just been telling your brother, only five minutes earlier, that she thought to set up a match between Edward and some Lord’s daughter or another, I forget which. So you can imagine how much of a blow this was to all her pride and vanity. She fell into a fit of violent hysterics immediately, with screams that reached your brother’s ears while he was sitting in his dressing room downstairs, thinking about writing a letter to his steward in the country. So he rushed up directly, and a terrible scene unfolded, as Lucy had arrived by that time, completely oblivious to what was going on. Poor thing! I feel for her. And I must say, I think she was treated very unfairly; your sister scolded so fiercely that it soon drove her into a faint. Nancy dropped to her knees and cried bitterly, while your brother walked around the room, saying he didn’t know what to do. Mrs. Dashwood insisted they shouldn’t stay a minute longer in the house, and your brother was forced to kneel down too, to persuade her to let them stay long enough to pack their things. Then she fell into hysterics again, and he was so frightened that he sent for Mr. Donavan, who found the house in complete chaos. The carriage was at the door, ready to take my poor cousins away, and they were just about to get in when he came. Poor Lucy was in such a state, he said she could hardly walk, and Nancy was almost as bad. I honestly have no patience for your sister; and I truly hope it turns into a match despite her. Lord! What a state poor Mr. Edward will be in when he hears about it! To have his love treated with such disdain! They say he’s incredibly fond of her, as he should be. I wouldn’t be surprised if he got really angry!—and Mr. Donavan thinks the same way. He and I had a long talk about it; and the best of all is, he has gone back to Harley Street so he can be on call when Mrs. Ferrars is told, as she was summoned as soon as my cousins left the house; your sister was sure she would be hysterical too; and she might be, for all I care. I have no sympathy for either of them. I don’t understand why people make such a fuss about money and status. There’s no reason in the world why Mr. Edward and Lucy shouldn’t marry; I’m sure Mrs. Ferrars can manage just fine for her son, and even though Lucy has almost nothing herself, she knows better than anyone how to make the most of things; I’m sure if Mrs. Ferrars would just allow him five hundred a year, she would make it go as far as anyone else would with eight. Lord! How cozy they could live in a cottage like yours—or maybe a bit larger— with two maids, and two men; and I think I could help them find a housemaid, since my Betty has a sister who’s out of work, and would fit them perfectly."

Here Mrs. Jennings ceased, and as Elinor had had time enough to collect her thoughts, she was able to give such an answer, and make such observations, as the subject might naturally be supposed to produce. Happy to find that she was not suspected of any extraordinary interest in it; that Mrs. Jennings (as she had of late often hoped might be the case) had ceased to imagine her at all attached to Edward; and happy above all the rest, in the absence of Marianne, she felt very well able to speak of the affair without embarrassment, and to give her judgment, as she believed, with impartiality on the conduct of every one concerned in it.

Here Mrs. Jennings stopped talking, and since Elinor had enough time to gather her thoughts, she was able to respond and make observations that were naturally prompted by the discussion. She was relieved to find that no one suspected her of having any unusual interest in the matter; Mrs. Jennings (as she had often hoped recently) had stopped thinking she was emotionally attached to Edward. Most importantly, in Marianne’s absence, she felt completely comfortable discussing the situation without any awkwardness, and she believed she could offer an unbiased opinion on everyone involved.

She could hardly determine what her own expectation of its event really was; though she earnestly tried to drive away the notion of its being possible to end otherwise at last, than in the marriage of Edward and Lucy. What Mrs. Ferrars would say and do, though there could not be a doubt of its nature, she was anxious to hear; and still more anxious to know how Edward would conduct himself. For him she felt much compassion;—for Lucy very little—and it cost her some pains to procure that little;—for the rest of the party none at all.

She could barely figure out what she really expected from the situation; even though she desperately tried to dismiss the idea that it could end any way other than with Edward and Lucy getting married. She was eager to know what Mrs. Ferrars would say and do, even though she had no doubt about it, and she was even more curious about how Edward would behave. She felt a lot of sympathy for him, very little for Lucy—and it took her a bit of effort to feel that much for Lucy—and none at all for the rest of the group.

As Mrs. Jennings could talk on no other subject, Elinor soon saw the necessity of preparing Marianne for its discussion. No time was to be lost in undeceiving her, in making her acquainted with the real truth, and in endeavouring to bring her to hear it talked of by others, without betraying that she felt any uneasiness for her sister, or any resentment against Edward.

As Mrs. Jennings could talk about nothing else, Elinor quickly realized she needed to prepare Marianne for the conversation. There was no time to waste in clearing up any misconceptions, making her aware of the real situation, and trying to help her listen to others discuss it without showing any worry for her sister or any anger toward Edward.

Elinor’s office was a painful one.—She was going to remove what she really believed to be her sister’s chief consolation,—to give such particulars of Edward as she feared would ruin him for ever in her good opinion,-and to make Marianne, by a resemblance in their situations, which to her fancy would seem strong, feel all her own disappointment over again. But unwelcome as such a task must be, it was necessary to be done, and Elinor therefore hastened to perform it.

Elinor’s office was a tough one.—She was about to take away what she truly believed to be her sister’s main comfort—to share details about Edward that she feared would ruin his reputation in her eyes forever—and to make Marianne, through a similarity in their situations that would seem strong to her, relive all her own disappointment. But as unpleasant as this task was, it had to be done, so Elinor hurried to get it over with.

She was very far from wishing to dwell on her own feelings, or to represent herself as suffering much, any otherwise than as the self-command she had practised since her first knowledge of Edward’s engagement, might suggest a hint of what was practicable to Marianne. Her narration was clear and simple; and though it could not be given without emotion, it was not accompanied by violent agitation, nor impetuous grief. That belonged rather to the hearer, for Marianne listened with horror, and cried excessively. Elinor was to be the comforter of others in her own distresses, no less than in theirs; and all the comfort that could be given by assurances of her own composure of mind, and a very earnest vindication of Edward from every charge but of imprudence, was readily offered.

She wasn’t at all inclined to focus on her own feelings or to portray herself as suffering too much, except for what her self-control, developed since she first learned about Edward’s engagement, might suggest to Marianne. Her story was straightforward and easy to understand; and although it couldn’t be shared without some emotion, it wasn’t filled with wild agitation or overwhelming grief. That was more for the listener, as Marianne reacted with shock and cried excessively. Elinor was meant to comfort others in her own troubles just as much as in theirs; and all the reassurance she could provide, demonstrating her own calmness and a sincere defense of Edward against any accusation except for being reckless, was eagerly offered.

But Marianne for some time would give credit to neither. Edward seemed a second Willoughby; and acknowledging as Elinor did, that she had loved him most sincerely, could she feel less than herself! As for Lucy Steele, she considered her so totally unamiable, so absolutely incapable of attaching a sensible man, that she could not be persuaded at first to believe, and afterwards to pardon, any former affection of Edward for her. She would not even admit it to have been natural; and Elinor left her to be convinced that it was so, by that which only could convince her, a better knowledge of mankind.

But Marianne would not believe either of them for a while. Edward seemed like a second Willoughby; and, just like Elinor did, she acknowledged that she had loved him very sincerely, so how could she feel anything but hurt? As for Lucy Steele, she thought Lucy was completely unpleasant and entirely incapable of attracting a sensible man, so she couldn't be persuaded at first to believe, and later to forgive, any past feelings Edward had for her. She wouldn't even admit it was natural; and Elinor let her come to terms with it through what could only convince her—a better understanding of people.

Her first communication had reached no farther than to state the fact of the engagement, and the length of time it had existed.—Marianne’s feelings had then broken in, and put an end to all regularity of detail; and for some time all that could be done was to soothe her distress, lessen her alarms, and combat her resentment. The first question on her side, which led to farther particulars, was,—

Her first message only confirmed the engagement and how long it had been going on. Then Marianne's emotions took over, disrupting any proper recounting of events; for a while, all we could do was calm her down, ease her worries, and counter her anger. The first question she asked, which opened the door to more details, was,—

“How long has this been known to you, Elinor? has he written to you?”

“How long have you known about this, Elinor? Has he written to you?”

“I have known it these four months. When Lucy first came to Barton Park last November, she told me in confidence of her engagement.”

“I’ve known it for four months. When Lucy first arrived at Barton Park last November, she confided in me about her engagement.”

At these words, Marianne’s eyes expressed the astonishment which her lips could not utter. After a pause of wonder, she exclaimed—

At these words, Marianne's eyes showed the surprise that her lips couldn't express. After a moment of amazement, she exclaimed—

“Four months!—Have you known of this four months?”

“Four months! Have you been aware of this for four months?”

Elinor confirmed it.

Elinor confirmed it.

“What! while attending me in all my misery, has this been on your heart? And I have reproached you for being happy!”

“What! While being there for me in all my misery, has this been on your mind? And I accused you of being happy!”

“It was not fit that you should then know how much I was the reverse!”

“It wasn’t right for you to know how much I was the opposite!”

“Four months!” cried Marianne again. “So calm! so cheerful! How have you been supported?”

“Four months!” Marianne exclaimed again. “So calm! So cheerful! How have you managed?”

“By feeling that I was doing my duty.—My promise to Lucy, obliged me to be secret. I owed it to her, therefore, to avoid giving any hint of the truth; and I owed it to my family and friends, not to create in them a solicitude about me, which it could not be in my power to satisfy.”

“By feeling that I was doing my duty. My promise to Lucy required me to keep it a secret. I owed it to her, so I had to avoid giving any hint of the truth; and I owed it to my family and friends not to cause them concern about me, which I couldn't possibly ease.”

Marianne seemed much struck.

Marianne seemed very surprised.

“I have very often wished to undeceive yourself and my mother,” added Elinor; “and once or twice I have attempted it;—but without betraying my trust, I never could have convinced you.”

“I have often wanted to clear things up for you and my mom,” Elinor added. “And I’ve tried a couple of times; but without breaking my promise, I could never have convinced you.”

“Four months! and yet you loved him!”

“Four months! And yet you loved him!”

“Yes. But I did not love only him; and while the comfort of others was dear to me, I was glad to spare them from knowing how much I felt. Now, I can think and speak of it with little emotion. I would not have you suffer on my account; for I assure you I no longer suffer materially myself. I have many things to support me. I am not conscious of having provoked the disappointment by any imprudence of my own, I have borne it as much as possible without spreading it farther. I acquit Edward of essential misconduct. I wish him very happy; and I am so sure of his always doing his duty, that though now he may harbour some regret, in the end he must become so. Lucy does not want sense, and that is the foundation on which every thing good may be built. And after all, Marianne, after all that is bewitching in the idea of a single and constant attachment, and all that can be said of one’s happiness depending entirely on any particular person, it is not meant—it is not fit—it is not possible that it should be so. Edward will marry Lucy; he will marry a woman superior in person and understanding to half her sex; and time and habit will teach him to forget that he ever thought another superior to her.”

"Yes. But I didn’t only love him; and while the comfort of others mattered to me, I was glad to keep them from knowing how much I felt. Now, I can think and talk about it with little emotion. I wouldn’t want you to suffer because of me; I assure you I no longer suffer greatly myself. I have many things to support me. I’m not aware of having caused the disappointment through any carelessness of my own; I have dealt with it as much as possible without spreading it further. I hold Edward blameless for any serious wrongdoing. I wish him every happiness; and I am so certain he will always do what’s right that, even if he has some regrets now, eventually he will come to terms with it. Lucy isn’t lacking in sense, and that’s the foundation on which all good things can be built. And after everything, Marianne, after all the enchanting ideas about a single, constant attachment, and everything that can be said about one’s happiness depending entirely on a specific person, it’s just not meant to be—it isn’t right—it’s impossible for it to be that way. Edward will marry Lucy; he will marry a woman who is superior in looks and understanding to many in her gender; and with time and familiarity, he will learn to forget that he ever considered anyone else better than her."

“If such is your way of thinking,” said Marianne, “if the loss of what is most valued is so easily to be made up by something else, your resolution, your self-command, are, perhaps, a little less to be wondered at.—They are brought more within my comprehension.”

“If that’s how you think,” said Marianne, “if losing what’s most important can be easily replaced by something else, then your determination and self-control are, maybe, a bit less surprising. I can understand them better now.”

“I understand you. You do not suppose that I have ever felt much. For four months, Marianne, I have had all this hanging on my mind, without being at liberty to speak of it to a single creature; knowing that it would make you and my mother most unhappy whenever it were explained to you, yet unable to prepare you for it in the least. It was told me,—it was in a manner forced on me by the very person herself, whose prior engagement ruined all my prospects; and told me, as I thought, with triumph. This person’s suspicions, therefore, I have had to oppose, by endeavouring to appear indifferent where I have been most deeply interested; and it has not been only once; I have had her hopes and exultation to listen to again and again. I have known myself to be divided from Edward for ever, without hearing one circumstance that could make me less desire the connection. Nothing has proved him unworthy; nor has anything declared him indifferent to me. I have had to contend against the unkindness of his sister, and the insolence of his mother; and have suffered the punishment of an attachment, without enjoying its advantages. And all this has been going on at a time, when, as you know too well, it has not been my only unhappiness. If you can think me capable of ever feeling, surely you may suppose that I have suffered now. The composure of mind with which I have brought myself at present to consider the matter, the consolation that I have been willing to admit, have been the effect of constant and painful exertion; they did not spring up of themselves; they did not occur to relieve my spirits at first. No, Marianne. Then, if I had not been bound to silence, perhaps nothing could have kept me entirely—not even what I owed to my dearest friends—from openly showing that I was very unhappy.”

“I get you. You probably think I haven't felt much. For four months, Marianne, I've had all this on my mind, unable to talk to anyone about it; knowing it would make you and my mom really unhappy if I explained it to you, yet I couldn't prepare you at all. I was told about it—it was more or less forced on me by the very person whose prior commitment messed up all my plans; and she told me, as I thought, with a sense of triumph. So I've had to push back against her suspicions by trying to act indifferent when I've cared the most; and it hasn't just happened once; I've had to listen to her hopes and excitement over and over. I've known I'm separated from Edward forever, without hearing anything that would make me want the connection less. Nothing has shown him to be unworthy; nor has anything made him seem indifferent to me. I've had to deal with his sister's unkindness and his mother's arrogance; and I've been paying the price of an attachment without enjoying any of its benefits. And all this has been happening at a time when, as you know too well, it hasn't been my only sorrow. If you can believe I'm capable of feeling at all, you should know that I've suffered now. The calmness with which I've managed to think about all this, the comfort I've been willing to accept, are the results of constant and painful effort; they didn't just appear on their own; they didn't come to lift my spirits at first. No, Marianne. Then, if I hadn't been forced to stay quiet, perhaps nothing could have stopped me—not even what I owed to my dearest friends—from openly showing that I was very unhappy.”

Marianne was quite subdued.

Marianne was very quiet.

“Oh! Elinor,” she cried, “you have made me hate myself for ever.—How barbarous have I been to you!—you, who have been my only comfort, who have borne with me in all my misery, who have seemed to be only suffering for me!—Is this my gratitude?—Is this the only return I can make you?—Because your merit cries out upon myself, I have been trying to do it away.”

“Oh! Elinor,” she exclaimed, “you’ve made me hate myself forever. How cruel have I been to you! You, who have been my only comfort, who have put up with me in all my misery, who have only seemed to suffer for me! Is this my gratitude? Is this the only way I can repay you? Because your kindness reminds me of my own faults, I’ve been trying to erase it.”

The tenderest caresses followed this confession. In such a frame of mind as she was now in, Elinor had no difficulty in obtaining from her whatever promise she required; and at her request, Marianne engaged never to speak of the affair to any one with the least appearance of bitterness; to meet Lucy without betraying the smallest increase of dislike to her; and even to see Edward himself, if chance should bring them together, without any diminution of her usual cordiality. These were great concessions; but where Marianne felt that she had injured, no reparation could be too much for her to make.

The gentlest touches followed this confession. With the emotional state she was in now, Elinor easily got Marianne to promise her whatever she needed; at her request, Marianne agreed to never talk about the situation to anyone with even a hint of bitterness; to face Lucy without showing any extra dislike; and even to interact with Edward himself, if they happened to meet, without any loss of her usual warmth. These were significant concessions; but where Marianne felt she had caused harm, no amount of atonement was too much for her to offer.

She performed her promise of being discreet, to admiration.—She attended to all that Mrs. Jennings had to say upon the subject, with an unchanging complexion, dissented from her in nothing, and was heard three times to say, “Yes, ma’am.”—She listened to her praise of Lucy with only moving from one chair to another, and when Mrs. Jennings talked of Edward’s affection, it cost her only a spasm in her throat.—Such advances towards heroism in her sister, made Elinor feel equal to any thing herself.

She kept her promise to be discreet, which was impressive. She listened attentively to everything Mrs. Jennings said on the topic, maintaining a calm demeanor, didn’t disagree with her at all, and was heard saying, “Yes, ma’am,” three times. She only shifted from one chair to another while Mrs. Jennings praised Lucy, and when Mrs. Jennings discussed Edward’s feelings, it only caused her a momentary tightness in her throat. These signs of bravery from her sister made Elinor feel capable of anything herself.

The next morning brought a farther trial of it, in a visit from their brother, who came with a most serious aspect to talk over the dreadful affair, and bring them news of his wife.

The next morning brought another challenge, with a visit from their brother, who arrived looking very serious to discuss the terrible situation and update them on his wife.

“You have heard, I suppose,” said he with great solemnity, as soon as he was seated, “of the very shocking discovery that took place under our roof yesterday.”

“You’ve heard, I guess,” he said seriously, as soon as he sat down, “about the really shocking discovery that happened in our house yesterday.”

They all looked their assent; it seemed too awful a moment for speech.

They all nodded in agreement; it felt like too terrible a moment for words.

“Your sister,” he continued, “has suffered dreadfully. Mrs. Ferrars too—in short it has been a scene of such complicated distress—but I will hope that the storm may be weathered without our being any of us quite overcome. Poor Fanny! she was in hysterics all yesterday. But I would not alarm you too much. Donavan says there is nothing materially to be apprehended; her constitution is a good one, and her resolution equal to any thing. She has borne it all, with the fortitude of an angel! She says she never shall think well of anybody again; and one cannot wonder at it, after being so deceived!—meeting with such ingratitude, where so much kindness had been shown, so much confidence had been placed! It was quite out of the benevolence of her heart, that she had asked these young women to her house; merely because she thought they deserved some attention, were harmless, well-behaved girls, and would be pleasant companions; for otherwise we both wished very much to have invited you and Marianne to be with us, while your kind friend there, was attending her daughter. And now to be so rewarded! ‘I wish, with all my heart,’ says poor Fanny in her affectionate way, ‘that we had asked your sisters instead of them.’”

“Your sister,” he continued, “has gone through a lot. Mrs. Ferrars too—in short, it has been a situation filled with so much distress—but I hope that we can get through this without any of us being completely overwhelmed. Poor Fanny! She was in tears all yesterday. But I don’t want to alarm you too much. Donavan says there’s nothing seriously to worry about; her health is good, and her determination is strong. She has handled everything with incredible courage! She says she will never trust anyone again; and who can blame her after such a betrayal!—being met with such ingratitude after showing so much kindness and trust! It was entirely out of her generosity that she invited those young women to her house; she simply thought they deserved a little attention, were nice, well-behaved girls, and would be good company; because otherwise, we would have both preferred to invite you and Marianne to join us while your kind friend here was with her daughter. And now to be treated this way! ‘I wish, with all my heart,’ says poor Fanny in her loving manner, ‘that we had invited your sisters instead of them.’”

Here he stopped to be thanked; which being done, he went on.

Here he paused to receive thanks; once that was done, he continued on.

“What poor Mrs. Ferrars suffered, when first Fanny broke it to her, is not to be described. While she with the truest affection had been planning a most eligible connection for him, was it to be supposed that he could be all the time secretly engaged to another person!—such a suspicion could never have entered her head! If she suspected any prepossession elsewhere, it could not be in that quarter. ‘There, to be sure,’ said she, ‘I might have thought myself safe.’ She was quite in an agony. We consulted together, however, as to what should be done, and at last she determined to send for Edward. He came. But I am sorry to relate what ensued. All that Mrs. Ferrars could say to make him put an end to the engagement, assisted too as you may well suppose by my arguments, and Fanny’s entreaties, was of no avail. Duty, affection, every thing was disregarded. I never thought Edward so stubborn, so unfeeling before. His mother explained to him her liberal designs, in case of his marrying Miss Morton; told him she would settle on him the Norfolk estate, which, clear of land-tax, brings in a good thousand a-year; offered even, when matters grew desperate, to make it twelve hundred; and in opposition to this, if he still persisted in this low connection, represented to him the certain penury that must attend the match. His own two thousand pounds she protested should be his all; she would never see him again; and so far would she be from affording him the smallest assistance, that if he were to enter into any profession with a view of better support, she would do all in her power to prevent him advancing in it.”

“What poor Mrs. Ferrars went through when Fanny first told her is indescribable. While she had been planning a great match for him with the truest affection, could she have imagined he was secretly engaged to someone else? That thought never crossed her mind! If she suspected any affection elsewhere, it couldn't be in that direction. ‘There, for sure,’ she said, ‘I might have thought I was safe.’ She was in absolute agony. We discussed what to do, and in the end, she decided to call Edward. He came. But I regret to say what happened next. Despite all Mrs. Ferrars could say to persuade him to end the engagement, along with my arguments and Fanny’s pleas, it was all useless. Duty, affection—everything was ignored. I never thought Edward could be so stubborn and unfeeling before. His mother outlined her generous plans if he married Miss Morton, telling him she would give him the Norfolk estate, which, after land tax, brings in a good thousand a year; she even offered to raise it to twelve hundred if things got desperate. In contrast, she warned him that if he continued with this low connection, he would face certain poverty. She insisted that his own two thousand pounds would be all he could rely on; she would never see him again, and she wouldn’t even give him the slightest support. In fact, if he tried to pursue any career for better financial stability, she would do everything in her power to stop him from succeeding.”

Here Marianne, in an ecstasy of indignation, clapped her hands together, and cried, “Gracious God! can this be possible!”

Here Marianne, overwhelmed with anger, clapped her hands together and shouted, “Oh my God! Is this really happening!”

“Well may you wonder, Marianne,” replied her brother, “at the obstinacy which could resist such arguments as these. Your exclamation is very natural.”

“Well, you might be surprised, Marianne,” her brother replied, “at the stubbornness that can ignore arguments like these. Your reaction is totally understandable.”

Marianne was going to retort, but she remembered her promises, and forbore.

Marianne was about to respond, but she recalled her promises and held back.

“All this, however,” he continued, “was urged in vain. Edward said very little; but what he did say, was in the most determined manner. Nothing should prevail on him to give up his engagement. He would stand to it, cost him what it might.”

“All this, however,” he continued, “was said in vain. Edward didn’t say much; but the little he did say was with strong determination. Nothing would make him back out of his commitment. He would stick to it, no matter what it cost him.”

“Then,” cried Mrs. Jennings with blunt sincerity, no longer able to be silent, “he has acted like an honest man! I beg your pardon, Mr. Dashwood, but if he had done otherwise, I should have thought him a rascal. I have some little concern in the business, as well as yourself, for Lucy Steele is my cousin, and I believe there is not a better kind of girl in the world, nor one who more deserves a good husband.”

“Then,” shouted Mrs. Jennings with frank honesty, unable to stay quiet any longer, “he has acted like an honest man! I apologize, Mr. Dashwood, but if he had done otherwise, I would have thought he was a scoundrel. I have a bit of a stake in this matter, just like you, since Lucy Steele is my cousin, and I truly believe there isn’t a better girl out there, nor one who deserves a good husband more than she does.”

John Dashwood was greatly astonished; but his nature was calm, not open to provocation, and he never wished to offend anybody, especially anybody of good fortune. He therefore replied, without any resentment,

John Dashwood was really surprised; but he was calm by nature, not easily provoked, and he never wanted to upset anyone, especially someone who was well off. So he responded, without any anger,

“I would by no means speak disrespectfully of any relation of yours, madam. Miss Lucy Steele is, I dare say, a very deserving young woman, but in the present case you know, the connection must be impossible. And to have entered into a secret engagement with a young man under her uncle’s care, the son of a woman especially of such very large fortune as Mrs. Ferrars, is perhaps, altogether a little extraordinary. In short, I do not mean to reflect upon the behaviour of any person whom you have a regard for, Mrs. Jennings. We all wish her extremely happy; and Mrs. Ferrars’s conduct throughout the whole, has been such as every conscientious, good mother, in like circumstances, would adopt. It has been dignified and liberal. Edward has drawn his own lot, and I fear it will be a bad one.”

“I would never speak disrespectfully about any of your relations, madam. Miss Lucy Steele is, I'm sure, a very deserving young woman, but in this situation, you know that the connection must be impossible. And to have entered into a secret engagement with a young man under her uncle’s care, the son of a woman as wealthy as Mrs. Ferrars, is perhaps a bit extraordinary. In short, I don’t mean to criticize the behavior of anyone you care for, Mrs. Jennings. We all sincerely wish her happiness; and Mrs. Ferrars’s actions throughout this have been what any conscientious, good mother would do in her position. They’ve been dignified and generous. Edward has made his own choices, and I’m afraid it will lead to trouble.”

Marianne sighed out her similar apprehension; and Elinor’s heart wrung for the feelings of Edward, while braving his mother’s threats, for a woman who could not reward him.

Marianne sighed, sharing the same worries, and Elinor felt for Edward, facing his mother's threats for a woman who couldn't give him anything in return.

“Well, sir,” said Mrs. Jennings, “and how did it end?”

“Well, sir,” said Mrs. Jennings, “so what happened in the end?”

“I am sorry to say, ma’am, in a most unhappy rupture:—Edward is dismissed for ever from his mother’s notice. He left her house yesterday, but where he is gone, or whether he is still in town, I do not know; for we of course can make no inquiry.”

“I’m sorry to say, ma’am, it’s a very sad situation:—Edward is cut off from his mother’s notice forever. He left her house yesterday, but I don’t know where he has gone or if he’s still in town; because we obviously can’t ask.”

“Poor young man!—and what is to become of him?”

“Poor young man!—what’s going to happen to him?”

“What, indeed, ma’am! It is a melancholy consideration. Born to the prospect of such affluence! I cannot conceive a situation more deplorable. The interest of two thousand pounds—how can a man live on it?—and when to that is added the recollection, that he might, but for his own folly, within three months have been in the receipt of two thousand, five hundred a-year (for Miss Morton has thirty thousand pounds,) I cannot picture to myself a more wretched condition. We must all feel for him; and the more so, because it is totally out of our power to assist him.”

"What, indeed, ma'am! It's a sad situation. Born with such wealth in sight! I can't imagine a more unfortunate position. The interest from two thousand pounds—how can someone live on that?—and when you add the fact that he could have been making two thousand five hundred a year in just three months (since Miss Morton has thirty thousand pounds), I can't imagine a more miserable state. We all have to sympathize with him; especially because there’s nothing we can do to help."

“Poor young man!” cried Mrs. Jennings, “I am sure he should be very welcome to bed and board at my house; and so I would tell him if I could see him. It is not fit that he should be living about at his own charge now, at lodgings and taverns.”

“Poor young man!” exclaimed Mrs. Jennings, “I’m sure he would be very welcome to food and shelter at my house; I would tell him so if I could see him. It’s not right for him to be living on his own, staying at lodgings and taverns.”

Elinor’s heart thanked her for such kindness towards Edward, though she could not forbear smiling at the form of it.

Elinor felt grateful for the kindness shown to Edward, even though she couldn't help but smile at how it was expressed.

“If he would only have done as well by himself,” said John Dashwood, “as all his friends were disposed to do by him, he might now have been in his proper situation, and would have wanted for nothing. But as it is, it must be out of anybody’s power to assist him. And there is one thing more preparing against him, which must be worse than all—his mother has determined, with a very natural kind of spirit, to settle that estate upon Robert immediately, which might have been Edward’s, on proper conditions. I left her this morning with her lawyer, talking over the business.”

“If he had only taken better care of himself,” said John Dashwood, “as all his friends wanted to do for him, he could have been in a good position by now and would have lacked for nothing. But as it stands, nobody can really help him. And there’s one more thing working against him, which is even worse—his mother has decided, quite understandably, to settle that estate on Robert right away, which could have been Edward’s under the right conditions. I left her this morning with her lawyer, discussing the matter.”

“Well!” said Mrs. Jennings, “that is her revenge. Everybody has a way of their own. But I don’t think mine would be, to make one son independent, because another had plagued me.”

“Well!” said Mrs. Jennings, “that is her revenge. Everyone has their own way. But I don’t think mine would be to make one son independent just because another has bothered me.”

Marianne got up and walked about the room.

Marianne got up and walked around the room.

“Can anything be more galling to the spirit of a man,” continued John, “than to see his younger brother in possession of an estate which might have been his own? Poor Edward! I feel for him sincerely.”

“Is there anything more frustrating for a man,” John continued, “than to watch his younger brother take ownership of an estate that could have been his? Poor Edward! I truly empathize with him.”

A few minutes more spent in the same kind of effusion, concluded his visit; and with repeated assurances to his sisters that he really believed there was no material danger in Fanny’s indisposition, and that they need not therefore be very uneasy about it, he went away; leaving the three ladies unanimous in their sentiments on the present occasion, as far at least as it regarded Mrs. Ferrars’s conduct, the Dashwoods’, and Edward’s.

A few more minutes spent in the same kind of emotional exchange wrapped up his visit; and with repeated reassurances to his sisters that he genuinely believed there was no serious risk in Fanny’s illness, and that they shouldn't be overly worried about it, he left; leaving the three ladies in agreement about the situation, at least regarding Mrs. Ferrars’s actions, the Dashwoods’, and Edward’s.

Marianne’s indignation burst forth as soon as he quitted the room; and as her vehemence made reserve impossible in Elinor, and unnecessary in Mrs. Jennings, they all joined in a very spirited critique upon the party.

Marianne's anger erupted as soon as he left the room; and since her intensity made it impossible for Elinor to hold back and unnecessary for Mrs. Jennings to do so, they all engaged in a lively discussion about the party.

CHAPTER XXXVIII.

Mrs. Jennings was very warm in her praise of Edward’s conduct, but only Elinor and Marianne understood its true merit. They only knew how little he had had to tempt him to be disobedient, and how small was the consolation, beyond the consciousness of doing right, that could remain to him in the loss of friends and fortune. Elinor gloried in his integrity; and Marianne forgave all his offences in compassion for his punishment. But though confidence between them was, by this public discovery, restored to its proper state, it was not a subject on which either of them were fond of dwelling when alone. Elinor avoided it upon principle, as tending to fix still more upon her thoughts, by the too warm, too positive assurances of Marianne, that belief of Edward’s continued affection for herself which she rather wished to do away; and Marianne’s courage soon failed her, in trying to converse upon a topic which always left her more dissatisfied with herself than ever, by the comparison it necessarily produced between Elinor’s conduct and her own.

Mrs. Jennings was very complimentary about Edward’s behavior, but only Elinor and Marianne truly understood its significance. They were aware of how little there was to tempt him into disobedience, and how slight the comfort—aside from the knowledge of doing the right thing—was for him in losing friends and wealth. Elinor took pride in his honesty, while Marianne overlooked all his faults out of sympathy for his suffering. However, even though their trust in each other was restored by this public revelation, it wasn’t a topic either of them enjoyed discussing when alone. Elinor kept away from it on principle, as she didn’t want Marianne’s overly enthusiastic and affirming statements to further fix in her mind the belief in Edward’s ongoing affection for her, which she preferred to forget. Marianne soon found it difficult to keep talking about a subject that consistently made her feel worse about herself due to the inevitable comparison it created between Elinor’s behavior and her own.

She felt all the force of that comparison; but not as her sister had hoped, to urge her to exertion now; she felt it with all the pain of continual self-reproach, regretted most bitterly that she had never exerted herself before; but it brought only the torture of penitence, without the hope of amendment. Her mind was so much weakened that she still fancied present exertion impossible, and therefore it only dispirited her more.

She felt the weight of that comparison; but not in the way her sister had hoped to motivate her to take action now. Instead, she felt it as a painful reminder of her constant self-blame, regretting deeply that she had never put in effort before. But it only brought her the torment of guilt, without any hope of making things better. Her mind was so weakened that she still believed taking action now was impossible, which only made her feel more discouraged.

Nothing new was heard by them, for a day or two afterwards, of affairs in Harley Street, or Bartlett’s Buildings. But though so much of the matter was known to them already, that Mrs. Jennings might have had enough to do in spreading that knowledge farther, without seeking after more, she had resolved from the first to pay a visit of comfort and inquiry to her cousins as soon as she could; and nothing but the hindrance of more visitors than usual, had prevented her going to them within that time.

Nothing new was heard from them for a day or two afterward about what was happening in Harley Street or Bartlett’s Buildings. But even though they already knew a lot, so much so that Mrs. Jennings could have focused on sharing what she knew rather than seeking more information, she had decided from the start to visit her cousins to offer comfort and ask questions as soon as she could. Only the extra visitors had kept her from going to see them during that time.

The third day succeeding their knowledge of the particulars, was so fine, so beautiful a Sunday as to draw many to Kensington Gardens, though it was only the second week in March. Mrs. Jennings and Elinor were of the number; but Marianne, who knew that the Willoughbys were again in town, and had a constant dread of meeting them, chose rather to stay at home, than venture into so public a place.

The third day after they learned all the details was such a nice, beautiful Sunday that it drew many people to Kensington Gardens, even though it was only the second week of March. Mrs. Jennings and Elinor were among them; however, Marianne, who was aware that the Willoughbys were back in town and constantly feared running into them, preferred to stay home rather than risk going to such a crowded place.

An intimate acquaintance of Mrs. Jennings joined them soon after they entered the Gardens, and Elinor was not sorry that by her continuing with them, and engaging all Mrs. Jennings’s conversation, she was herself left to quiet reflection. She saw nothing of the Willoughbys, nothing of Edward, and for some time nothing of anybody who could by any chance whether grave or gay, be interesting to her. But at last she found herself with some surprise, accosted by Miss Steele, who, though looking rather shy, expressed great satisfaction in meeting them, and on receiving encouragement from the particular kindness of Mrs. Jennings, left her own party for a short time, to join their’s. Mrs. Jennings immediately whispered to Elinor,

An acquaintance of Mrs. Jennings joined them shortly after they entered the Gardens, and Elinor was glad that by her staying with them and engaging all of Mrs. Jennings's conversation, she was left to her own thoughts. She didn’t see anything of the Willoughbys, didn’t see Edward, and for a while didn’t notice anyone else who could be interesting to her, whether serious or light-hearted. But eventually, she was a bit surprised when Miss Steele approached her. Although she seemed a bit shy, she expressed great pleasure in meeting them, and after some encouragement from Mrs. Jennings, she left her own group for a little while to join theirs. Mrs. Jennings immediately leaned in to whisper to Elinor,

“Get it all out of her, my dear. She will tell you any thing if you ask. You see I cannot leave Mrs. Clarke.”

"Get everything out of her, my dear. She will tell you anything if you ask. You see, I can't leave Mrs. Clarke."

It was lucky, however, for Mrs. Jennings’s curiosity and Elinor’s too, that she would tell any thing without being asked; for nothing would otherwise have been learnt.

It was fortunate, though, for Mrs. Jennings's curiosity and Elinor's as well, that she would share anything without being asked; otherwise, nothing would have been discovered.

“I am so glad to meet you;” said Miss Steele, taking her familiarly by the arm—“for I wanted to see you of all things in the world.” And then lowering her voice, “I suppose Mrs. Jennings has heard all about it. Is she angry?”

“I’m so glad to meet you,” said Miss Steele, taking her by the arm in a friendly way. “I really wanted to see you more than anything in the world.” Then, lowering her voice, she asked, “I guess Mrs. Jennings has heard all about it. Is she upset?”

“Not at all, I believe, with you.”

“Not at all, I don't agree with you.”

“That is a good thing. And Lady Middleton, is she angry?”

"That's a good thing. And Lady Middleton, is she upset?"

“I cannot suppose it possible that she should be.”

“I can't imagine that she would be.”

“I am monstrous glad of it. Good gracious! I have had such a time of it! I never saw Lucy in such a rage in my life. She vowed at first she would never trim me up a new bonnet, nor do any thing else for me again, so long as she lived; but now she is quite come to, and we are as good friends as ever. Look, she made me this bow to my hat, and put in the feather last night. There now, you are going to laugh at me too. But why should not I wear pink ribbons? I do not care if it is the Doctor’s favourite colour. I am sure, for my part, I should never have known he did like it better than any other colour, if he had not happened to say so. My cousins have been so plaguing me! I declare sometimes I do not know which way to look before them.”

“I’m so glad about it. Goodness! I’ve had such a time! I’ve never seen Lucy so angry in my life. She swore at first that she would never make me a new hat or do anything else for me again as long as she lived, but now she’s totally fine, and we’re as good friends as ever. Look, she made me this bow for my hat and added the feather last night. There you go, you’re about to laugh at me too. But why shouldn’t I wear pink ribbons? I don’t care if it’s the Doctor’s favorite color. Honestly, I wouldn’t have known he liked it better than any other color if he hadn’t mentioned it. My cousins have been such a pain! I swear sometimes I don’t know which way to look when I’m around them.”

She had wandered away to a subject on which Elinor had nothing to say, and therefore soon judged it expedient to find her way back again to the first.

She had drifted off to a topic that Elinor couldn’t comment on, so she quickly decided it was best to return to the original subject.

“Well, but Miss Dashwood,” speaking triumphantly, “people may say what they chuse about Mr. Ferrars’s declaring he would not have Lucy, for it is no such thing I can tell you; and it is quite a shame for such ill-natured reports to be spread abroad. Whatever Lucy might think about it herself, you know, it was no business of other people to set it down for certain.”

“Well, Miss Dashwood,” she said confidently, “people can say whatever they want about Mr. Ferrars claiming he wouldn’t be with Lucy, but that’s not true, I can assure you; and it’s really wrong for such nasty rumors to circulate. No matter what Lucy thinks about it, it’s not anyone else’s place to declare it as fact.”

“I never heard any thing of the kind hinted at before, I assure you,” said Elinor.

“I’ve never heard anything like that suggested before, I promise you,” said Elinor.

“Oh, did not you? But it was said, I know, very well, and by more than one; for Miss Godby told Miss Sparks, that nobody in their senses could expect Mr. Ferrars to give up a woman like Miss Morton, with thirty thousand pounds to her fortune, for Lucy Steele that had nothing at all; and I had it from Miss Sparks myself. And besides that, my cousin Richard said himself, that when it came to the point he was afraid Mr. Ferrars would be off; and when Edward did not come near us for three days, I could not tell what to think myself; and I believe in my heart Lucy gave it up all for lost; for we came away from your brother’s Wednesday, and we saw nothing of him not all Thursday, Friday, and Saturday, and did not know what was become of him. Once Lucy thought to write to him, but then her spirits rose against that. However this morning he came just as we came home from church; and then it all came out, how he had been sent for Wednesday to Harley Street, and been talked to by his mother and all of them, and how he had declared before them all that he loved nobody but Lucy, and nobody but Lucy would he have. And how he had been so worried by what passed, that as soon as he had went away from his mother’s house, he had got upon his horse, and rid into the country, some where or other; and how he had stayed about at an inn all Thursday and Friday, on purpose to get the better of it. And after thinking it all over and over again, he said, it seemed to him as if, now he had no fortune, and no nothing at all, it would be quite unkind to keep her on to the engagement, because it must be for her loss, for he had nothing but two thousand pounds, and no hope of any thing else; and if he was to go into orders, as he had some thoughts, he could get nothing but a curacy, and how was they to live upon that?—He could not bear to think of her doing no better, and so he begged, if she had the least mind for it, to put an end to the matter directly, and leave him shift for himself. I heard him say all this as plain as could possibly be. And it was entirely for her sake, and upon her account, that he said a word about being off, and not upon his own. I will take my oath he never dropt a syllable of being tired of her, or of wishing to marry Miss Morton, or any thing like it. But, to be sure, Lucy would not give ear to such kind of talking; so she told him directly (with a great deal about sweet and love, you know, and all that—Oh, la! one can’t repeat such kind of things you know)—she told him directly, she had not the least mind in the world to be off, for she could live with him upon a trifle, and how little so ever he might have, she should be very glad to have it all, you know, or something of the kind. So then he was monstrous happy, and talked on some time about what they should do, and they agreed he should take orders directly, and they must wait to be married till he got a living. And just then I could not hear any more, for my cousin called from below to tell me Mrs. Richardson was come in her coach, and would take one of us to Kensington Gardens; so I was forced to go into the room and interrupt them, to ask Lucy if she would like to go, but she did not care to leave Edward; so I just run up stairs and put on a pair of silk stockings and came off with the Richardsons.”

“Oh, didn't you? But it was definitely said, I know very well, and by more than one person; because Miss Godby told Miss Sparks that no one in their right mind could expect Mr. Ferrars to give up a woman like Miss Morton, with thirty thousand pounds to her fortune, for Lucy Steele who had nothing at all; and I heard it from Miss Sparks myself. Plus, my cousin Richard said that when it came down to it, he was afraid Mr. Ferrars would back out; and when Edward didn’t come near us for three days, I couldn’t think what to make of it myself; and I honestly believe Lucy thought it was all lost; because we left your brother’s place on Wednesday, and we didn’t see him at all on Thursday, Friday, or Saturday, and had no idea what had happened to him. At one point, Lucy considered writing to him, but then she talked herself out of it. However, this morning he showed up just as we got home from church; and then it all came out that he had been sent for on Wednesday to Harley Street, and been talked to by his mother and everyone, and how he declared in front of them all that he loved nobody but Lucy, and nobody but Lucy he would have. And how he had been so stressed by what happened, that soon after he left his mother’s house, he got on his horse and rode off into the countryside, somewhere; and how he stayed at an inn all Thursday and Friday, just trying to sort it out. After thinking it over and over, he said it seemed to him that now, with no fortune and nothing at all, he would be really unkind to keep her in the engagement, because it would only hurt her, since he had only two thousand pounds, and no hope for anything else; and if he decided to go into the church, as he was thinking about, he would only get a curacy, and how were they supposed to live on that?—He couldn’t stand to think of her having no better life, so he begged, if she had the least inclination, to end things right away and let him figure it out on his own. I heard him say all this as clearly as possible. And it was entirely for her sake, and on her account, that he mentioned being off, and not for his own reasons. I swear he never dropped a hint about being tired of her, or wanting to marry Miss Morton, or anything like that. But of course, Lucy wouldn’t listen to such talk; so she told him directly (with a lot of sweet words and love stuff, you know, and all that—Oh, la! one can’t repeat such things, you know)—she told him straight up that she had no desire at all to end things, because she could live with him on very little, and no matter how little he had, she would be very happy to have it all, you know, or something like that. So then he was really happy, and they talked for a while about what they should do, and they agreed he should go into the church right away, and they would have to wait to get married until he had a living. And just then I couldn’t hear anymore, because my cousin called from below to tell me Mrs. Richardson had arrived in her coach and would take one of us to Kensington Gardens; so I had to go into the room and interrupt them to ask Lucy if she wanted to go, but she didn’t want to leave Edward; so I quickly ran upstairs, put on a pair of silk stockings, and went off with the Richardsons.”

“I do not understand what you mean by interrupting them,” said Elinor; “you were all in the same room together, were not you?”

“I don’t understand what you mean by interrupting them,” said Elinor; “you were all in the same room together, right?”

“No, indeed, not us. La! Miss Dashwood, do you think people make love when any body else is by? Oh, for shame!—To be sure you must know better than that. (Laughing affectedly.)—No, no; they were shut up in the drawing-room together, and all I heard was only by listening at the door.”

“No, definitely not us. Oh, Miss Dashwood, do you really think people act all romantic with someone else around? How embarrassing! You must know better than that. (Laughing theatrically.) No, no; they were alone in the living room, and all I heard was by eavesdropping at the door.”

“How!” cried Elinor; “have you been repeating to me what you only learnt yourself by listening at the door? I am sorry I did not know it before; for I certainly would not have suffered you to give me particulars of a conversation which you ought not to have known yourself. How could you behave so unfairly by your sister?”

“How!” exclaimed Elinor. “Have you been telling me what you just found out by eavesdropping? I wish I had known earlier; I definitely wouldn’t have let you give me details of a conversation you shouldn’t have overheard. How could you treat your sister so unfairly?”

“Oh, la! there is nothing in that. I only stood at the door, and heard what I could. And I am sure Lucy would have done just the same by me; for a year or two back, when Martha Sharpe and I had so many secrets together, she never made any bones of hiding in a closet, or behind a chimney-board, on purpose to hear what we said.”

“Oh, please! There’s nothing in that. I just stood at the door and listened. I’m sure Lucy would have done the same for me; a year or two ago, when Martha Sharpe and I had a ton of secrets together, she didn’t hesitate to hide in a closet or behind a chimney to hear what we were saying.”

Elinor tried to talk of something else; but Miss Steele could not be kept beyond a couple of minutes, from what was uppermost in her mind.

Elinor tried to change the subject, but Miss Steele couldn't stay away from what was on her mind for more than a couple of minutes.

“Edward talks of going to Oxford soon,” said she; “but now he is lodging at No.—, Pall Mall. What an ill-natured woman his mother is, an’t she? And your brother and sister were not very kind! However, I shan’t say anything against them to you; and to be sure they did send us home in their own chariot, which was more than I looked for. And for my part, I was all in a fright for fear your sister should ask us for the huswifes she had gave us a day or two before; but, however, nothing was said about them, and I took care to keep mine out of sight. Edward have got some business at Oxford, he says; so he must go there for a time; and after that, as soon as he can light upon a Bishop, he will be ordained. I wonder what curacy he will get! Good gracious! (giggling as she spoke) I’d lay my life I know what my cousins will say, when they hear of it. They will tell me I should write to the Doctor, to get Edward the curacy of his new living. I know they will; but I am sure I would not do such a thing for all the world. ‘La!’ I shall say directly, ‘I wonder how you could think of such a thing? I write to the Doctor, indeed!’”

“Edward says he’s going to Oxford soon,” she said; “but right now he’s staying at No.—, Pall Mall. Isn’t his mother such an unpleasant woman? And your brother and sister weren't very nice either! But I won’t say anything bad about them to you; and they did send us home in their own carriage, which was more than I expected. Honestly, I was so worried your sister would ask us for the household items she gave us a day or two ago; thankfully, nothing was mentioned about them, and I made sure to keep mine hidden. Edward says he has some business in Oxford, so he has to be there for a while; and after that, as soon as he finds a Bishop, he will be ordained. I’m curious about what curacy he’ll get! Goodness! (giggling as she spoke) I’d bet anything I know what my cousins will say when they hear about it. They’ll tell me I should write to the Doctor to help Edward get the curacy of his new parish. I know they will; but I’m sure I wouldn’t do that for anything in the world. ‘Oh!’ I’ll say right away, ‘I can’t believe you would think of such a thing! I write to the Doctor, really!’”

“Well,” said Elinor, “it is a comfort to be prepared against the worst. You have got your answer ready.”

“Well,” Elinor said, “it's a relief to be ready for the worst. You have your answer all set.”

Miss Steele was going to reply on the same subject, but the approach of her own party made another more necessary.

Miss Steele was about to respond on the same topic, but the arrival of her own group made another response more urgent.

“Oh, la! here come the Richardsons. I had a vast deal more to say to you, but I must not stay away from them not any longer. I assure you they are very genteel people. He makes a monstrous deal of money, and they keep their own coach. I have not time to speak to Mrs. Jennings about it myself, but pray tell her I am quite happy to hear she is not in anger against us, and Lady Middleton the same; and if anything should happen to take you and your sister away, and Mrs. Jennings should want company, I am sure we should be very glad to come and stay with her for as long a time as she likes. I suppose Lady Middleton won’t ask us any more this bout. Good-by; I am sorry Miss Marianne was not here. Remember me kindly to her. La! if you have not got your spotted muslin on!—I wonder you was not afraid of its being torn.”

“Oh, look! Here come the Richardsons. I had so much more to say to you, but I can’t stay away from them any longer. I assure you, they are very fancy people. He makes a ton of money, and they have their own carriage. I don’t have time to talk to Mrs. Jennings about it myself, but please tell her I’m really happy to hear she’s not upset with us, and the same goes for Lady Middleton; and if anything happens that takes you and your sister away, and Mrs. Jennings wants company, I’m sure we’d be glad to come and stay with her for as long as she wants. I suppose Lady Middleton won’t invite us again this time. Goodbye; I’m sorry Miss Marianne wasn’t here. Please send her my regards. Oh! If you’re not wearing your spotted muslin! I wonder you weren't afraid of it getting torn.”

Such was her parting concern; for after this, she had time only to pay her farewell compliments to Mrs. Jennings, before her company was claimed by Mrs. Richardson; and Elinor was left in possession of knowledge which might feed her powers of reflection some time, though she had learnt very little more than what had been already foreseen and foreplanned in her own mind. Edward’s marriage with Lucy was as firmly determined on, and the time of its taking place remained as absolutely uncertain, as she had concluded it would be;—every thing depended, exactly after her expectation, on his getting that preferment, of which, at present, there seemed not the smallest chance.

That was her main worry; after this, she only had time to say her goodbyes to Mrs. Jennings before Mrs. Richardson took her attention. Elinor was left with knowledge that might keep her thinking for a while, even though she hadn’t learned much more than what she had already suspected. Edward’s marriage to Lucy was as firmly decided as she thought it would be, and the timing was still completely uncertain. Everything hinged on him getting that promotion, which at the moment seemed highly unlikely.

As soon as they returned to the carriage, Mrs. Jennings was eager for information; but as Elinor wished to spread as little as possible intelligence that had in the first place been so unfairly obtained, she confined herself to the brief repetition of such simple particulars, as she felt assured that Lucy, for the sake of her own consequence, would choose to have known. The continuance of their engagement, and the means that were able to be taken for promoting its end, was all her communication; and this produced from Mrs. Jennings the following natural remark.

As soon as they got back to the carriage, Mrs. Jennings was eager for information; but since Elinor wanted to share as little as possible about what had been unfairly obtained, she stuck to briefly repeating only the simple details that she knew Lucy would want to hear to maintain her own importance. The continuation of their engagement and the ways to support it were all she shared, which led Mrs. Jennings to make the following natural remark.

“Wait for his having a living!—ay, we all know how that will end:—they will wait a twelvemonth, and finding no good comes of it, will set down upon a curacy of fifty pounds a-year, with the interest of his two thousand pounds, and what little matter Mr. Steele and Mr. Pratt can give her. Then they will have a child every year! and Lord help ’em! how poor they will be! I must see what I can give them towards furnishing their house. Two maids and two men, indeed! as I talked of t’ other day. No, no, they must get a stout girl of all works. Betty’s sister would never do for them now.”

“Wait for him to get a job!—yeah, we all know how that will turn out:—they’ll wait a year, and when nothing good happens, they’ll settle for a position that pays fifty pounds a year, along with the interest from his two thousand pounds, and whatever little Mr. Steele and Mr. Pratt can give her. Then they’ll have a kid every year! and God help them! how poor they’ll be! I need to see what I can give them to help furnish their house. Two maids and two men, really! like I mentioned the other day. No, no, they need to hire a strong girl for all the chores. Betty’s sister wouldn’t be right for them now.”

The next morning brought Elinor a letter by the two-penny post from Lucy herself. It was as follows:

The next morning, Elinor received a letter from Lucy herself through the two-penny post. It said:

“Bartlett’s Building, March.

“Bartlett’s Building, March.”

“I hope my dear Miss Dashwood will excuse the liberty I take of writing to her; but I know your friendship for me will make you pleased to hear such a good account of myself and my dear Edward, after all the troubles we have went through lately, therefore will make no more apologies, but proceed to say that, thank God! though we have suffered dreadfully, we are both quite well now, and as happy as we must always be in one another’s love. We have had great trials, and great persecutions, but however, at the same time, gratefully acknowledge many friends, yourself not the least among them, whose great kindness I shall always thankfully remember, as will Edward too, who I have told of it. I am sure you will be glad to hear, as likewise dear Mrs. Jennings, I spent two happy hours with him yesterday afternoon, he would not hear of our parting, though earnestly did I, as I thought my duty required, urge him to it for prudence sake, and would have parted for ever on the spot, would he consent to it; but he said it should never be, he did not regard his mother’s anger, while he could have my affections; our prospects are not very bright, to be sure, but we must wait, and hope for the best; he will be ordained shortly; and should it ever be in your power to recommend him to any body that has a living to bestow, am very sure you will not forget us, and dear Mrs. Jennings too, trust she will speak a good word for us to Sir John, or Mr. Palmer, or any friend that may be able to assist us.—Poor Anne was much to blame for what she did, but she did it for the best, so I say nothing; hope Mrs. Jennings won’t think it too much trouble to give us a call, should she come this way any morning, ’twould be a great kindness, and my cousins would be proud to know her.—My paper reminds me to conclude; and begging to be most gratefully and respectfully remembered to her, and to Sir John, and Lady Middleton, and the dear children, when you chance to see them, and love to Miss Marianne,

“I hope my dear Miss Dashwood will forgive me for writing to her, but I know your friendship for me will make you happy to hear such a positive update about myself and my dear Edward, especially after all the troubles we've been through lately. So, without further apologies, let me say that, thank God! although we have suffered greatly, we are both doing quite well now and as happy as we can be in each other's love. We have faced significant challenges and hardships, but at the same time, we are incredibly grateful for many friends, including you, whose kindness I will always remember, as will Edward, whom I’ve told about it. I’m sure you will be glad to hear, as will dear Mrs. Jennings, that I spent two wonderful hours with him yesterday afternoon. He wouldn’t hear of us parting, even though I earnestly urged him to do so for the sake of prudence, believing it was my duty. I would have ended things right then and there if he agreed, but he insisted that it wouldn’t happen. He doesn’t care about his mother’s anger as long as he has my affection. Our future may not look very bright, but we must wait and hope for the best. He will be ordained soon, and if it ever becomes possible for you to recommend him to someone who has a position to offer, I’m sure you won’t forget us. I also hope dear Mrs. Jennings will say a good word for us to Sir John, or Mr. Palmer, or any friends who may be able to help us. Poor Anne was quite at fault for what she did, but she meant well, so I won't say anything further. I hope Mrs. Jennings finds it convenient to give us a call if she happens to be in the area one morning; it would be a great kindness, and my cousins would be delighted to meet her. My paper reminds me to wrap this up, so I’ll ask you to kindly remember me to her, as well as to Sir John, Lady Middleton, and the dear children, when you see them, and please send my love to Miss Marianne.”

“I am, &c.”

"I'm here, etc."

As soon as Elinor had finished it, she performed what she concluded to be its writer’s real design, by placing it in the hands of Mrs. Jennings, who read it aloud with many comments of satisfaction and praise.

As soon as Elinor finished it, she did what she thought was the writer’s true intention by giving it to Mrs. Jennings, who read it aloud with lots of comments of approval and praise.

“Very well indeed!—how prettily she writes!—aye, that was quite proper to let him be off if he would. That was just like Lucy. Poor soul! I wish I could get him a living, with all my heart. She calls me dear Mrs. Jennings, you see. She is a good-hearted girl as ever lived. Very well upon my word. That sentence is very prettily turned. Yes, yes, I will go and see her, sure enough. How attentive she is, to think of every body!—Thank you, my dear, for showing it me. It is as pretty a letter as ever I saw, and does Lucy’s head and heart great credit.”

“Very well indeed!—how beautifully she writes!—yes, it was only right to let him go if he wanted to. That was just like Lucy. Poor thing! I wish I could help him find a job, with all my heart. She calls me dear Mrs. Jennings, you know. She is the kindest girl you'll ever meet. Really, that sentence is very nicely phrased. Yes, yes, I will definitely go see her. How thoughtful she is, considering everyone!—Thank you, my dear, for showing it to me. It’s the prettiest letter I've ever seen and reflects greatly on Lucy's mind and heart.”

CHAPTER XXXIX.

The Miss Dashwoods had now been rather more than two months in town, and Marianne’s impatience to be gone increased every day. She sighed for the air, the liberty, the quiet of the country; and fancied that if any place could give her ease, Barton must do it. Elinor was hardly less anxious than herself for their removal, and only so much less bent on its being effected immediately, as that she was conscious of the difficulties of so long a journey, which Marianne could not be brought to acknowledge. She began, however, seriously to turn her thoughts towards its accomplishment, and had already mentioned their wishes to their kind hostess, who resisted them with all the eloquence of her good-will, when a plan was suggested, which, though detaining them from home yet a few weeks longer, appeared to Elinor altogether much more eligible than any other. The Palmers were to remove to Cleveland about the end of March, for the Easter holidays; and Mrs. Jennings, with both her friends, received a very warm invitation from Charlotte to go with them. This would not, in itself, have been sufficient for the delicacy of Miss Dashwood;—but it was inforced with so much real politeness by Mr. Palmer himself, as, joined to the very great amendment of his manners towards them since her sister had been known to be unhappy, induced her to accept it with pleasure.

The Miss Dashwoods had now been in town for over two months, and Marianne’s impatience to leave grew every day. She longed for the fresh air, freedom, and peace of the countryside, believing that if anywhere could give her comfort, it would be Barton. Elinor was almost as eager as Marianne to get away, but she was a bit less focused on leaving right away because she understood the challenges of such a long journey, which Marianne refused to acknowledge. However, Elinor began to seriously consider how to make it happen and had already discussed their hopes with their kind hostess, who resisted their plans with all the warmth of her goodwill. Then a new plan was proposed that, while keeping them away from home for a few more weeks, seemed much more appealing to Elinor than any other option. The Palmers were planning to move to Cleveland around the end of March for the Easter holidays, and Mrs. Jennings, along with both her friends, received a very warm invitation from Charlotte to go with them. This alone wouldn’t usually have been enough for Miss Dashwood's sensitivities, but Mr. Palmer himself offered it with such genuine politeness—and given how much he had improved his demeanor toward them since her sister’s unhappiness—this encouraged her to accept the invitation gladly.

When she told Marianne what she had done, however, her first reply was not very auspicious.

When she told Marianne what she had done, her first response wasn’t very promising.

“Cleveland!”—she cried, with great agitation. “No, I cannot go to Cleveland.”

“Cleveland!” she exclaimed, feeling very upset. “No, I can’t go to Cleveland.”

“You forget,” said Elinor gently, “that its situation is not—that it is not in the neighbourhood of—”

"You forget," Elinor said softly, "that its location isn't—that it's not close to—"

“But it is in Somersetshire.—I cannot go into Somersetshire.—There, where I looked forward to going...No, Elinor, you cannot expect me to go there.”

“But it's in Somersetshire.—I can't go to Somersetshire.—There, where I was looking forward to going...No, Elinor, you can't expect me to go there.”

Elinor would not argue upon the propriety of overcoming such feelings;—she only endeavoured to counteract them by working on others;—represented it, therefore, as a measure which would fix the time of her returning to that dear mother, whom she so much wished to see, in a more eligible, more comfortable manner, than any other plan could do, and perhaps without any greater delay. From Cleveland, which was within a few miles of Bristol, the distance to Barton was not beyond one day, though a long day’s journey; and their mother’s servant might easily come there to attend them down; and as there could be no occasion of their staying above a week at Cleveland, they might now be at home in little more than three weeks’ time. As Marianne’s affection for her mother was sincere, it must triumph with little difficulty, over the imaginary evils she had started.

Elinor wouldn’t debate the appropriateness of overcoming such feelings; she simply tried to counteract them by influencing others. She presented it as a plan that would ensure a definite time for her to return to their beloved mother, whom she longed to see, in a more suitable and comfortable way than any other option could provide, and perhaps without any more delay. From Cleveland, which was only a few miles from Bristol, the trip back to Barton would take no more than a day, even though it would be a long day’s journey; their mother’s servant could easily come to help them back. Since they wouldn't need to stay in Cleveland for more than a week, they could be home in just over three weeks. Given Marianne’s genuine love for her mother, it would easily overcome the imagined problems she had raised.

Mrs. Jennings was so far from being weary of her guests, that she pressed them very earnestly to return with her again from Cleveland. Elinor was grateful for the attention, but it could not alter her design; and their mother’s concurrence being readily gained, every thing relative to their return was arranged as far as it could be;—and Marianne found some relief in drawing up a statement of the hours that were yet to divide her from Barton.

Mrs. Jennings was far from tired of her guests; she urged them very sincerely to come back with her from Cleveland. Elinor appreciated the kindness, but it didn’t change her plans; and their mother quickly agreed, so everything related to their return was set up as much as possible—and Marianne felt some relief in making a list of the hours left before she would be back at Barton.

“Ah! Colonel, I do not know what you and I shall do without the Miss Dashwoods;”—was Mrs. Jennings’s address to him when he first called on her, after their leaving her was settled—“for they are quite resolved upon going home from the Palmers;—and how forlorn we shall be, when I come back!—Lord! we shall sit and gape at one another as dull as two cats.”

“Ah! Colonel, I don’t know what we’re going to do without the Miss Dashwoods,” Mrs. Jennings said to him when he first visited her after their departure was confirmed. “They’re completely set on going home from the Palmers, and we will feel so lonely when I return! Goodness! We’ll just sit and stare at each other like two bored cats.”

Perhaps Mrs. Jennings was in hopes, by this vigorous sketch of their future ennui, to provoke him to make that offer, which might give himself an escape from it; and if so, she had soon afterwards good reason to think her object gained; for, on Elinor’s moving to the window to take more expeditiously the dimensions of a print, which she was going to copy for her friend, he followed her to it with a look of particular meaning, and conversed with her there for several minutes. The effect of his discourse on the lady too, could not escape her observation, for though she was too honorable to listen, and had even changed her seat, on purpose that she might not hear, to one close by the piano forte on which Marianne was playing, she could not keep herself from seeing that Elinor changed colour, attended with agitation, and was too intent on what he said to pursue her employment. Still farther in confirmation of her hopes, in the interval of Marianne’s turning from one lesson to another, some words of the Colonel’s inevitably reached her ear, in which he seemed to be apologising for the badness of his house. This set the matter beyond a doubt. She wondered, indeed, at his thinking it necessary to do so; but supposed it to be the proper etiquette. What Elinor said in reply she could not distinguish, but judged from the motion of her lips, that she did not think that any material objection; and Mrs. Jennings commended her in her heart for being so honest. They then talked on for a few minutes longer without her catching a syllable, when another lucky stop in Marianne’s performance brought her these words in the Colonel’s calm voice,—

Perhaps Mrs. Jennings was hoping that by painting such a vivid picture of their future boredom, she'd encourage him to make an offer that would give him a way out of it; and if that was the case, she soon had good reason to believe she succeeded. When Elinor moved to the window to quickly measure the dimensions of a print she was going to copy for her friend, he followed her there with a meaningful look and chatted with her for several minutes. She couldn’t help but notice the effect his conversation had on Elinor, as she was too honorable to eavesdrop and had even changed her seat to one close to the piano where Marianne was playing, so she wouldn’t hear. Yet, she couldn’t help but see that Elinor’s color changed, showing signs of agitation, and she was too focused on their conversation to continue her work. Further confirming her hopes, during a break between Marianne’s lessons, some of the Colonel’s words slipped into her ear, where he seemed to be apologizing for the poor condition of his home. This made things clear. She was surprised he felt it necessary to say that, but assumed it was proper etiquette. She couldn’t make out Elinor’s reply but inferred from her lips that she didn’t think it was a significant objection, and Mrs. Jennings silently praised her for being so fair. They continued talking for a few more minutes without her catching a word, when another fortunate pause in Marianne’s playing brought her these words in the Colonel’s calm voice,—

“I am afraid it cannot take place very soon.”

“I’m afraid it can’t happen very soon.”

Astonished and shocked at so unlover-like a speech, she was almost ready to cry out, “Lord! what should hinder it?”—but checking her desire, confined herself to this silent ejaculation.

Astonished and shocked by such an unloving speech, she was almost ready to cry out, “Lord! What’s stopping it?”—but holding back her urge, she kept to this silent exclamation.

“This is very strange!—sure he need not wait to be older.”

“This is really weird!—he definitely doesn’t have to wait to get older.”

This delay on the Colonel’s side, however, did not seem to offend or mortify his fair companion in the least, for on their breaking up the conference soon afterwards, and moving different ways, Mrs. Jennings very plainly heard Elinor say, and with a voice which showed her to feel what she said,

This delay on the Colonel’s part, however, didn’t seem to bother or embarrass his lovely companion at all, because when they ended the meeting shortly after and went their separate ways, Mrs. Jennings clearly heard Elinor say, and her voice revealed she really felt what she was saying,

“I shall always think myself very much obliged to you.”

"I will always feel very grateful to you."

Mrs. Jennings was delighted with her gratitude, and only wondered that after hearing such a sentence, the Colonel should be able to take leave of them, as he immediately did, with the utmost sang-froid, and go away without making her any reply! She had not thought her old friend could have made so indifferent a suitor.

Mrs. Jennings was thrilled with her gratitude and could only wonder how the Colonel could leave after hearing such a statement, which he did immediately, with total confidence, and walk away without replying to her! She never thought her old friend would be such an unconcerned suitor.

What had really passed between them was to this effect.

What really happened between them was something like this.

“I have heard,” said he, with great compassion, “of the injustice your friend Mr. Ferrars has suffered from his family; for if I understand the matter right, he has been entirely cast off by them for persevering in his engagement with a very deserving young woman. Have I been rightly informed? Is it so?;”

“I’ve heard,” he said with genuine sympathy, “about the unfair treatment your friend Mr. Ferrars has received from his family; if I understand correctly, they have completely disowned him for staying committed to a very deserving young woman. Am I correct? Is that true?”

Elinor told him that it was.

Elinor told him that it was.

“The cruelty, the impolitic cruelty,” he replied, with great feeling, “of dividing, or attempting to divide, two young people long attached to each other, is terrible. Mrs. Ferrars does not know what she may be doing—what she may drive her son to. I have seen Mr. Ferrars two or three times in Harley Street, and am much pleased with him. He is not a young man with whom one can be intimately acquainted in a short time, but I have seen enough of him to wish him well for his own sake, and as a friend of yours, I wish it still more. I understand that he intends to take orders. Will you be so good as to tell him that the living of Delaford, now just vacant, as I am informed by this day’s post, is his, if he think it worth his acceptance; but that, perhaps, so unfortunately circumstanced as he is now, it may be nonsense to appear to doubt; I only wish it were more valuable. It is a rectory, but a small one; the late incumbent, I believe, did not make more than 200£ per annum, and though it is certainly capable of improvement, I fear, not to such an amount as to afford him a very comfortable income. Such as it is, however, my pleasure in presenting it to him, will be very great. Pray assure him of it.”

“The cruelty, the thoughtless cruelty,” he replied, with deep feeling, “of separating, or trying to separate, two young people who have been close to each other for a long time, is awful. Mrs. Ferrars doesn’t realize what she might be doing—what she might push her son to do. I have seen Mr. Ferrars a couple of times on Harley Street, and I like him a lot. He’s not someone you can get to know well in a short time, but I’ve seen enough of him to want the best for him, and as your friend, I want it even more. I understand that he plans to enter the clergy. Would you be so kind as to let him know that the living of Delaford, which just became available according to today’s mail, is his if he thinks it’s worth taking; but that, given his current unfortunate situation, it may seem silly to question; I just wish it were more valuable. It’s a rectory, though a small one; I believe the last incumbent made no more than £200 a year, and while it could definitely be improved, I worry it won’t be enough to provide him with a very comfortable living. Nevertheless, my pleasure in offering it to him will be immense. Please assure him of that.”

Elinor’s astonishment at this commission could hardly have been greater, had the Colonel been really making her an offer of his hand. The preferment, which only two days before she had considered as hopeless for Edward, was already provided to enable him to marry; and she, of all people in the world, was fixed on to bestow it! Her emotion was such as Mrs. Jennings had attributed to a very different cause; but whatever minor feelings less pure, less pleasing, might have a share in that emotion, her esteem for the general benevolence, and her gratitude for the particular friendship, which together prompted Colonel Brandon to this act, were strongly felt, and warmly expressed. She thanked him for it with all her heart, spoke of Edward’s principles and disposition with that praise which she knew them to deserve; and promised to undertake the commission with pleasure, if it were really his wish to put off so agreeable an office to another. But at the same time, she could not help thinking that no one could so well perform it as himself. It was an office in short, from which, unwilling to give Edward the pain of receiving an obligation from her, she would have been very glad to be spared herself; but Colonel Brandon, on motives of equal delicacy, declining it likewise, still seemed so desirous of its being given through her means, that she would not on any account make farther opposition. Edward, she believed, was still in town, and fortunately she had heard his address from Miss Steele. She could undertake therefore to inform him of it, in the course of the day. After this had been settled, Colonel Brandon began to talk of his own advantage in securing so respectable and agreeable a neighbour, and then it was that he mentioned with regret, that the house was small and indifferent; an evil which Elinor, as Mrs. Jennings had supposed her to do, made very light of, at least as far as regarded its size.

Elinor’s shock at this commission was almost as great as if the Colonel had actually proposed to her. The opportunity, which just two days earlier she had thought was impossible for Edward, was now made available for him to marry; and she, of all people, was chosen to facilitate it! Her feelings were similar to what Mrs. Jennings had attributed to a very different situation; however, no matter what less noble feelings might also play a part, her appreciation for Colonel Brandon's overall kindness and her gratitude for his specific friendship that inspired him to take this action were deeply felt and warmly expressed. She thanked him wholeheartedly, spoke highly of Edward’s principles and character, and promised to take on the task gladly if it was truly his wish to pass such a pleasant responsibility to someone else. Yet, she couldn’t help but think that no one could do it as well as he could. This was a task that, wanting to spare Edward the discomfort of receiving a favor from her, she would have preferred to avoid herself; but Colonel Brandon, driven by similar considerations, also rejected it, while still seeming eager for it to be handled through her. Therefore, she decided not to oppose it any further. Elinor believed Edward was still in town, and luckily, she had gotten his address from Miss Steele. So, she could definitely inform him of it during the day. After this was settled, Colonel Brandon began discussing the benefits of having such a respectable and pleasant neighbor, and that’s when he expressed regret that the house was small and unimpressive; an issue that Elinor, as Mrs. Jennings had assumed she would, brushed off as trivial, at least regarding its size.

“The smallness of the house,” said she, “I cannot imagine any inconvenience to them, for it will be in proportion to their family and income.”

“The size of the house,” she said, “I can’t see how it would be a problem for them, since it will match their family size and income.”

By which the Colonel was surprised to find that she was considering Mr. Ferrars’s marriage as the certain consequence of the presentation; for he did not suppose it possible that Delaford living could supply such an income, as anybody in his style of life would venture to settle on, and he said so.

The Colonel was surprised to find that she thought Mr. Ferrars's marriage was a guaranteed result of the presentation; he didn't believe it was possible for Delaford to provide an income that anyone in his position would be willing to settle for, and he said so.

“This little rectory can do no more than make Mr. Ferrars comfortable as a bachelor; it cannot enable him to marry. I am sorry to say that my patronage ends with this; and my interest is hardly more extensive. If, however, by an unforeseen chance it should be in my power to serve him farther, I must think very differently of him from what I now do, if I am not as ready to be useful to him then as I sincerely wish I could be at present. What I am now doing indeed, seems nothing at all, since it can advance him so little towards what must be his principal, his only object of happiness. His marriage must still be a distant good; at least, I am afraid it cannot take place very soon.”

“This little rectory can do nothing more than make Mr. Ferrars comfortable as a bachelor; it can’t help him get married. I’m sorry to say my support ends here, and my influence isn't much greater. However, if by some unexpected chance I could assist him further, I would have to rethink my feelings about him compared to how I feel now. I wouldn’t be as willing to help him then as I genuinely wish I could be right now. What I’m doing now honestly seems insignificant since it barely moves him closer to what should be his main and only source of happiness. His marriage still seems like a distant hope; at least, I’m afraid it can’t happen anytime soon.”

Such was the sentence which, when misunderstood, so justly offended the delicate feelings of Mrs. Jennings; but after this narration of what really passed between Colonel Brandon and Elinor, while they stood at the window, the gratitude expressed by the latter on their parting, may perhaps appear in general, not less reasonably excited, nor less properly worded than if it had arisen from an offer of marriage.

Such was the statement that, when misunderstood, really upset Mrs. Jennings' sensitive feelings; but after hearing the true interaction between Colonel Brandon and Elinor while they stood by the window, the gratitude expressed by Elinor at their parting may seem, in general, just as reasonably triggered and phrased as if it had come from a marriage proposal.

CHAPTER XL.

“Well, Miss Dashwood,” said Mrs. Jennings, sagaciously smiling, as soon as the gentleman had withdrawn, “I do not ask you what the Colonel has been saying to you; for though, upon my honour, I tried to keep out of hearing, I could not help catching enough to understand his business. And I assure you I never was better pleased in my life, and I wish you joy of it with all my heart.”

“Well, Miss Dashwood,” Mrs. Jennings said with a knowing smile, as soon as the gentleman left, “I won’t ask what the Colonel talked to you about; because, honestly, I tried to not listen, but I couldn’t help overhearing enough to get the gist of his visit. I can honestly say I’ve never been happier, and I wish you all the best with it.”

“Thank you, ma’am,” said Elinor. “It is a matter of great joy to me; and I feel the goodness of Colonel Brandon most sensibly. There are not many men who would act as he has done. Few people who have so compassionate a heart! I never was more astonished in my life.”

“Thank you, ma’am,” said Elinor. “It is a matter of great joy for me; and I truly appreciate Colonel Brandon’s kindness. Not many men would act as he has. There are very few who have such a compassionate heart! I’ve never been more surprised in my life.”

“Lord! my dear, you are very modest. I an’t the least astonished at it in the world, for I have often thought of late, there was nothing more likely to happen.”

“Wow! my dear, you’re really modest. I’m not surprised at all, because I’ve often thought lately that there was nothing more likely to happen.”

“You judged from your knowledge of the Colonel’s general benevolence; but at least you could not foresee that the opportunity would so very soon occur.”

“You thought based on what you knew about the Colonel’s general kindness; but at least you couldn’t have predicted that the opportunity would come up so quickly.”

“Opportunity!” repeated Mrs. Jennings—“Oh! as to that, when a man has once made up his mind to such a thing, somehow or other he will soon find an opportunity. Well, my dear, I wish you joy of it again and again; and if ever there was a happy couple in the world, I think I shall soon know where to look for them.”

“Opportunity!” repeated Mrs. Jennings. “Oh, when a man has made up his mind about something like that, somehow he’ll find an opportunity pretty quickly. Well, my dear, I wish you joy of it over and over again; and if there’s ever been a happy couple in the world, I think I’ll soon know where to find them.”

“You mean to go to Delaford after them I suppose,” said Elinor, with a faint smile.

"You plan to go to Delaford after them, I assume," said Elinor, with a slight smile.

“Aye, my dear, that I do, indeed. And as to the house being a bad one, I do not know what the Colonel would be at, for it is as good a one as ever I saw.”

“Yes, my dear, I really do. And about the house being a bad one, I don’t understand what the Colonel is thinking because it’s one of the best I’ve ever seen.”

“He spoke of its being out of repair.”

“He mentioned that it was in disrepair.”

“Well, and whose fault is that? why don’t he repair it?—who should do it but himself?”

“Well, whose fault is that? Why doesn’t he fix it? Who else should do it but him?”

They were interrupted by the servant’s coming in to announce the carriage being at the door; and Mrs. Jennings immediately preparing to go, said,—

They were interrupted when the servant entered to announce that the carriage was at the door; and Mrs. Jennings, getting ready to leave, said,—

“Well, my dear, I must be gone before I have had half my talk out. But, however, we may have it all over in the evening; for we shall be quite alone. I do not ask you to go with me, for I dare say your mind is too full of the matter to care for company; and besides, you must long to tell your sister all about it.”

“Well, my dear, I have to leave before I’ve said half of what I wanted to. But we can discuss everything in the evening; we’ll be all alone then. I’m not asking you to come with me, since I’m sure your mind is too occupied with this to enjoy company; plus, you must be eager to tell your sister all about it.”

Marianne had left the room before the conversation began.

Marianne had left the room before the chat started.

“Certainly, ma’am, I shall tell Marianne of it; but I shall not mention it at present to any body else.”

“Of course, ma’am, I’ll let Marianne know about it; but I won’t mention it to anyone else right now.”

“Oh! very well,” said Mrs. Jennings rather disappointed. “Then you would not have me tell it to Lucy, for I think of going as far as Holborn to-day.”

“Oh! fine,” said Mrs. Jennings, sounding a bit let down. “So, you don’t want me to tell Lucy, since I plan to go as far as Holborn today.”

“No, ma’am, not even Lucy if you please. One day’s delay will not be very material; and till I have written to Mr. Ferrars, I think it ought not to be mentioned to any body else. I shall do that directly. It is of importance that no time should be lost with him, for he will of course have much to do relative to his ordination.”

“No, ma’am, not even Lucy, if you don’t mind. A one-day delay isn’t a big deal; and until I’ve written to Mr. Ferrars, I think we shouldn’t mention it to anyone else. I’ll take care of that right away. It’s important that we don’t waste any time with him since he’ll have a lot to handle regarding his ordination.”

This speech at first puzzled Mrs. Jennings exceedingly. Why Mr. Ferrars was to have been written to about it in such a hurry, she could not immediately comprehend. A few moments’ reflection, however, produced a very happy idea, and she exclaimed;—

This speech initially confused Mrs. Jennings a lot. She couldn't understand why Mr. Ferrars needed to be contacted about it so urgently. However, after a few moments of thinking, she came up with a great idea and exclaimed;—

“Oh, ho!—I understand you. Mr. Ferrars is to be the man. Well, so much the better for him. Ay, to be sure, he must be ordained in readiness; and I am very glad to find things are so forward between you. But, my dear, is not this rather out of character? Should not the Colonel write himself?—sure, he is the proper person.”

“Oh, I get it! Mr. Ferrars is the guy, then. Well, that’s good for him. Yes, he definitely needs to be prepared; I’m really glad to see things are progressing so well between you two. But, my dear, doesn’t this seem a bit off? Shouldn’t the Colonel be the one to write it himself? He’s the right person for it.”

Elinor did not quite understand the beginning of Mrs. Jennings’s speech, neither did she think it worth inquiring into; and therefore only replied to its conclusion.

Elinor didn’t quite get the start of Mrs. Jennings’s speech, and she didn’t think it was worth asking about, so she just responded to the end of it.

“Colonel Brandon is so delicate a man, that he rather wished any one to announce his intentions to Mr. Ferrars than himself.”

“Colonel Brandon is such a sensitive man that he would prefer someone else to tell Mr. Ferrars about his intentions rather than doing it himself.”

“And so you are forced to do it. Well that is an odd kind of delicacy! However, I will not disturb you (seeing her preparing to write.) You know your own concerns best. So goodby, my dear. I have not heard of any thing to please me so well since Charlotte was brought to bed.”

“And so you have to do it. Well that is a strange kind of delicacy! However, I won’t interrupt you (seeing her getting ready to write.) You know your own matters best. So, goodbye, my dear. I haven’t heard anything that pleases me this much since Charlotte had her baby.”

And away she went; but returning again in a moment,

And off she went; but she came back again in a moment,

“I have just been thinking of Betty’s sister, my dear. I should be very glad to get her so good a mistress. But whether she would do for a lady’s maid, I am sure I can’t tell. She is an excellent housemaid, and works very well at her needle. However, you will think of all that at your leisure.”

“I’ve just been thinking about Betty’s sister, my dear. I would be very happy to have her as such a good maid. But whether she would be suitable as a lady’s maid, I really can’t say. She’s an excellent housemaid and is great with her sewing. Anyway, you can think about all that when you have time.”

“Certainly, ma’am,” replied Elinor, not hearing much of what she said, and more anxious to be alone, than to be mistress of the subject.

“Of course, ma’am,” replied Elinor, barely hearing what she said and more eager to be alone than to take charge of the conversation.

How she should begin—how she should express herself in her note to Edward, was now all her concern. The particular circumstances between them made a difficulty of that which to any other person would have been the easiest thing in the world; but she equally feared to say too much or too little, and sat deliberating over her paper, with the pen in her hand, till broken in on by the entrance of Edward himself.

How she should start—how she should write her note to Edward—was now all she worried about. The situation between them made what would have been the simplest thing for anyone else really complicated; but she was equally scared of saying too much or not enough, and she sat there thinking over her paper, pen in hand, until Edward himself walked in.

He had met Mrs. Jennings at the door in her way to the carriage, as he came to leave his farewell card; and she, after apologising for not returning herself, had obliged him to enter, by saying that Miss Dashwood was above, and wanted to speak with him on very particular business.

He ran into Mrs. Jennings at the door as she was heading to the carriage while he was on his way to leave his farewell card. She, after apologizing for not coming out herself, insisted that he come in, saying that Miss Dashwood was upstairs and wanted to talk to him about something important.

Elinor had just been congratulating herself, in the midst of her perplexity, that however difficult it might be to express herself properly by letter, it was at least preferable to giving the information by word of mouth, when her visitor entered, to force her upon this greatest exertion of all. Her astonishment and confusion were very great on his so sudden appearance. She had not seen him before since his engagement became public, and therefore not since his knowing her to be acquainted with it; which, with the consciousness of what she had been thinking of, and what she had to tell him, made her feel particularly uncomfortable for some minutes. He too was much distressed; and they sat down together in a most promising state of embarrassment.—Whether he had asked her pardon for his intrusion on first coming into the room, he could not recollect; but determining to be on the safe side, he made his apology in form as soon as he could say any thing, after taking a chair.

Elinor had just been congratulating herself, amid her confusion, that even though it was tough to express herself properly in a letter, it was still better than having to share the information face-to-face when her visitor arrived, pushing her to make the biggest effort of all. She was extremely surprised and flustered by his sudden appearance. She hadn't seen him since his engagement became public, and therefore not since he knew she was aware of it; this, combined with the realization of what she had been thinking and what she needed to tell him, left her feeling especially uncomfortable for a few minutes. He was clearly distressed as well; they sat down together in a very awkward state of embarrassment. Whether he had asked her forgiveness for interrupting when he first entered the room, he couldn't remember; but wanting to play it safe, he formally apologized as soon as he could speak after sitting down.

“Mrs. Jennings told me,” said he, “that you wished to speak with me, at least I understood her so—or I certainly should not have intruded on you in such a manner; though at the same time, I should have been extremely sorry to leave London without seeing you and your sister; especially as it will most likely be some time—it is not probable that I should soon have the pleasure of meeting you again. I go to Oxford tomorrow.”

“Mrs. Jennings told me,” he said, “that you wanted to talk to me, at least that’s how I understood it—or I definitely wouldn’t have come to see you like this; but at the same time, I would have been really upset to leave London without seeing you and your sister; especially since it’s probably going to be a while—I doubt I’ll have the chance to see you again anytime soon. I’m heading to Oxford tomorrow.”

“You would not have gone, however,” said Elinor, recovering herself, and determined to get over what she so much dreaded as soon as possible, “without receiving our good wishes, even if we had not been able to give them in person. Mrs. Jennings was quite right in what she said. I have something of consequence to inform you of, which I was on the point of communicating by paper. I am charged with a most agreeable office (breathing rather faster than usual as she spoke.) Colonel Brandon, who was here only ten minutes ago, has desired me to say, that understanding you mean to take orders, he has great pleasure in offering you the living of Delaford now just vacant, and only wishes it were more valuable. Allow me to congratulate you on having so respectable and well-judging a friend, and to join in his wish that the living—it is about two hundred a-year—were much more considerable, and such as might better enable you to—as might be more than a temporary accommodation to yourself—such, in short, as might establish all your views of happiness.”

"You wouldn't have left, though," Elinor said, collecting herself and determined to get through what she dreaded as quickly as possible, "without our best wishes, even if we couldn’t express them in person. Mrs. Jennings was completely right in what she said. I have something important to tell you that I was just about to write down. I’ve been given a very pleasant task" (breathing a bit faster than usual as she spoke). "Colonel Brandon, who was here just ten minutes ago, asked me to let you know that he understands you're planning to take orders. He is very pleased to offer you the living of Delaford, which is currently vacant, and he only wishes it were worth more. Let me congratulate you on having such a respectable and wise friend, and to join him in wishing that the living—it’s about two hundred a year—were much more substantial and could better support you—something that could be more than just a temporary solution for you—something that could truly help fulfill all your dreams of happiness."

What Edward felt, as he could not say it himself, it cannot be expected that any one else should say for him. He looked all the astonishment which such unexpected, such unthought-of information could not fail of exciting; but he said only these two words,—

What Edward felt, since he couldn't express it himself, shouldn't be expected for anyone else to say it for him. He looked all the astonishment that such unexpected, unanticipated news could cause; but he only said these two words,—

“Colonel Brandon!”

"Colonel Brandon!"

“Yes,” continued Elinor, gathering more resolution, as some of the worst was over, “Colonel Brandon means it as a testimony of his concern for what has lately passed—for the cruel situation in which the unjustifiable conduct of your family has placed you—a concern which I am sure Marianne, myself, and all your friends, must share; and likewise as a proof of his high esteem for your general character, and his particular approbation of your behaviour on the present occasion.”

“Yes,” Elinor continued, gaining more confidence as some of the hardest moments were behind them, “Colonel Brandon sees this as a sign of his concern for what has happened recently—for the awful situation that your family's unfair actions have put you in—a concern that I know Marianne, I, and all your friends must feel; and also as a mark of his great respect for your character overall, and his specific approval of how you’ve handled things this time.”

“Colonel Brandon give me a living!—Can it be possible?”

“Colonel Brandon is giving me a place to live!—Is that even possible?”

“The unkindness of your own relations has made you astonished to find friendship any where.”

"The cruelty of your own family has left you shocked at the idea of finding friendship anywhere."

“No,” replied he, with sudden consciousness, “not to find it in you; for I cannot be ignorant that to you, to your goodness, I owe it all.—I feel it—I would express it if I could—but, as you well know, I am no orator.”

“No,” he said, suddenly aware, “not to find it in you; because I can’t ignore that I owe it all to you, to your kindness.—I feel it—I would say it if I could—but, as you know, I’m not a speaker.”

“You are very much mistaken. I do assure you that you owe it entirely, at least almost entirely, to your own merit, and Colonel Brandon’s discernment of it. I have had no hand in it. I did not even know, till I understood his design, that the living was vacant; nor had it ever occurred to me that he might have had such a living in his gift. As a friend of mine, of my family, he may, perhaps—indeed I know he has, still greater pleasure in bestowing it; but, upon my word, you owe nothing to my solicitation.”

“You're very mistaken. I assure you, you owe it all, or at least almost all, to your own worth and Colonel Brandon's ability to recognize it. I had nothing to do with it. I didn’t even know the position was open until I learned of his plan, nor did it ever cross my mind that he might have the authority to offer it. As a friend of mine and of my family, he may have—actually, I know he has—much more satisfaction in giving it to you; but honestly, you don’t owe anything to my request.”

Truth obliged her to acknowledge some small share in the action, but she was at the same time so unwilling to appear as the benefactress of Edward, that she acknowledged it with hesitation; which probably contributed to fix that suspicion in his mind which had recently entered it. For a short time he sat deep in thought, after Elinor had ceased to speak;—at last, and as if it were rather an effort, he said,

Truth forced her to admit her small part in the situation, but she was equally reluctant to seem like Edward's savior, so she admitted it hesitantly. This probably fueled the suspicion that had recently formed in his mind. For a little while, he sat lost in thought after Elinor stopped talking; finally, as if it took effort, he said,

“Colonel Brandon seems a man of great worth and respectability. I have always heard him spoken of as such, and your brother I know esteems him highly. He is undoubtedly a sensible man, and in his manners perfectly the gentleman.”

“Colonel Brandon seems to be a man of great value and respect. I’ve always heard people speak highly of him, and I know your brother holds him in high regard. He is definitely a smart guy, and his behavior is just what you’d expect from a true gentleman.”

“Indeed,” replied Elinor, “I believe that you will find him, on farther acquaintance, all that you have heard him to be, and as you will be such very near neighbours (for I understand the parsonage is almost close to the mansion-house,) it is particularly important that he should be all this.”

“Definitely,” replied Elinor, “I think you'll discover that he is exactly as you've heard, and since you'll be such close neighbors (I understand the parsonage is almost next to the mansion house), it’s especially important that he be all of this.”

Edward made no answer; but when she had turned away her head, gave her a look so serious, so earnest, so uncheerful, as seemed to say, that he might hereafter wish the distance between the parsonage and the mansion-house much greater.

Edward didn’t say anything; but when she turned her head away, he gave her a look that was so serious, so earnest, and so gloomy, it seemed to suggest that he might later wish the distance between the parsonage and the mansion to be much greater.

“Colonel Brandon, I think, lodges in St. James Street,” said he, soon afterwards, rising from his chair.

“Colonel Brandon, I believe, stays on St. James Street,” he said shortly after, getting up from his chair.

Elinor told him the number of the house.

Elinor told him the house number.

“I must hurry away then, to give him those thanks which you will not allow me to give you; to assure him that he has made me a very—an exceedingly happy man.”

"I need to hurry and thank him in a way you won’t let me thank you; to let him know that he has made me a very—an extremely happy man."

Elinor did not offer to detain him; and they parted, with a very earnest assurance on her side of her unceasing good wishes for his happiness in every change of situation that might befall him; on his, with rather an attempt to return the same good will, than the power of expressing it.

Elinor didn't try to keep him there; they said goodbye, with her sincerely wishing him happiness in whatever changes came his way, while he tried to express similar good wishes, though he didn't manage it very well.

“When I see him again,” said Elinor to herself, as the door shut him out, “I shall see him the husband of Lucy.”

“When I see him again,” Elinor said to herself as the door closed behind him, “I’ll see him as Lucy’s husband.”

And with this pleasing anticipation, she sat down to reconsider the past, recall the words and endeavour to comprehend all the feelings of Edward; and, of course, to reflect on her own with discontent.

And with this pleasant anticipation, she sat down to think about the past, remember the words, and try to understand all of Edward's feelings; and, of course, to reflect on her own with dissatisfaction.

When Mrs. Jennings came home, though she returned from seeing people whom she had never seen before, and of whom therefore she must have a great deal to say, her mind was so much more occupied by the important secret in her possession, than by anything else, that she reverted to it again as soon as Elinor appeared.

When Mrs. Jennings got home, even though she had just come back from meeting new people and had a lot to talk about, her thoughts were so focused on the important secret she was holding that she brought it up again as soon as Elinor showed up.

“Well, my dear,” she cried, “I sent you up the young man. Did not I do right?—And I suppose you had no great difficulty—You did not find him very unwilling to accept your proposal?”

“Well, my dear,” she exclaimed, “I sent you the young man. Didn't I do the right thing?—And I assume you had no trouble—He wasn't very reluctant to accept your proposal, was he?”

“No, ma’am; that was not very likely.”

“No, ma’am; that wasn’t likely.”

“Well, and how soon will he be ready?—For it seems all to depend upon that.”

“Well, how soon will he be ready? It seems like everything depends on that.”

“Really,” said Elinor, “I know so little of these kind of forms, that I can hardly even conjecture as to the time, or the preparation necessary; but I suppose two or three months will complete his ordination.”

“Honestly,” said Elinor, “I know so little about these kinds of processes that I can barely guess how long it will take or what preparation is needed; but I assume it will take two or three months to complete his ordination.”

“Two or three months!” cried Mrs. Jennings; “Lord! my dear, how calmly you talk of it; and can the Colonel wait two or three months! Lord bless me!—I am sure it would put me quite out of patience!—And though one would be very glad to do a kindness by poor Mr. Ferrars, I do think it is not worth while to wait two or three months for him. Sure somebody else might be found that would do as well; somebody that is in orders already.”

“Two or three months!” exclaimed Mrs. Jennings. “Oh my goodness, dear, how casually you discuss it! Can the Colonel really wait two or three months? Goodness! I know it would drive me absolutely crazy! And while I’d love to help poor Mr. Ferrars, I honestly don't think it's worth it to wait two or three months for him. Surely someone else could be found who would be just as good; someone who is already in the clergy.”

“My dear ma’am,” said Elinor, “what can you be thinking of? Why, Colonel Brandon’s only object is to be of use to Mr. Ferrars.”

"My dear ma'am," Elinor said, "what are you thinking? Colonel Brandon's only goal is to help Mr. Ferrars."

“Lord bless you, my dear! Sure you do not mean to persuade me that the Colonel only marries you for the sake of giving ten guineas to Mr. Ferrars!”

“God bless you, my dear! You can't seriously be trying to convince me that the Colonel is only marrying you to give ten guineas to Mr. Ferrars!”

The deception could not continue after this; and an explanation immediately took place, by which both gained considerable amusement for the moment, without any material loss of happiness to either, for Mrs. Jennings only exchanged one form of delight for another, and still without forfeiting her expectation of the first.

The deception couldn't go on any longer after this, and an explanation quickly followed, bringing both of them some good laughs in the moment, without really affecting their happiness. Mrs. Jennings just switched from one type of joy to another, without losing her hope for the first.

“Aye, aye, the parsonage is but a small one,” said she, after the first ebullition of surprise and satisfaction was over, “and very likely may be out of repair; but to hear a man apologising, as I thought, for a house that to my knowledge has five sitting rooms on the ground-floor, and I think the housekeeper told me could make up fifteen beds! and to you too, that had been used to live in Barton cottage! It seems quite ridiculous. But, my dear, we must touch up the Colonel to do some thing to the parsonage, and make it comfortable for them, before Lucy goes to it.”

“Yeah, the parsonage is pretty small,” she said, after the initial wave of surprise and happiness passed, “and it might be in need of some repairs; but hearing a man apologizing for a house that I know has five sitting rooms on the ground floor, and I think the housekeeper told me it could fit up to fifteen beds! And to you, who has lived in Barton Cottage! It seems completely absurd. But, my dear, we need to encourage the Colonel to do something about the parsonage and make it comfortable for them before Lucy moves in.”

“But Colonel Brandon does not seem to have any idea of the living’s being enough to allow them to marry.”

“But Colonel Brandon doesn’t seem to think that the income would be enough for them to get married.”

“The Colonel is a ninny, my dear; because he has two thousand a-year himself, he thinks that nobody else can marry on less. Take my word for it, that, if I am alive, I shall be paying a visit at Delaford Parsonage before Michaelmas; and I am sure I shan’t go if Lucy an’t there.”

“The Colonel is such a fool, my dear; just because he makes two thousand a year, he thinks no one else can get married for less. Trust me, if I’m still around, I’ll be visiting Delaford Parsonage before Michaelmas, and I know I won’t go if Lucy isn’t there.”

Elinor was quite of her opinion, as to the probability of their not waiting for any thing more.

Elinor was firmly convinced that they wouldn't wait for anything else.

CHAPTER XLI.

Edward, having carried his thanks to Colonel Brandon, proceeded with his happiness to Lucy; and such was the excess of it by the time he reached Bartlett’s Buildings, that she was able to assure Mrs. Jennings, who called on her again the next day with her congratulations, that she had never seen him in such spirits before in her life.

Edward, after expressing his gratitude to Colonel Brandon, happily made his way to Lucy. By the time he got to Bartlett’s Buildings, he was so overjoyed that she could confidently tell Mrs. Jennings, who visited her again the next day to congratulate her, that she had never seen him this cheerful in her life.

Her own happiness, and her own spirits, were at least very certain; and she joined Mrs. Jennings most heartily in her expectation of their being all comfortably together in Delaford Parsonage before Michaelmas. So far was she, at the same time, from any backwardness to give Elinor that credit which Edward would give her, that she spoke of her friendship for them both with the most grateful warmth, was ready to own all their obligation to her, and openly declared that no exertion for their good on Miss Dashwood’s part, either present or future, would ever surprise her, for she believed her capable of doing any thing in the world for those she really valued. As for Colonel Brandon, she was not only ready to worship him as a saint, but was moreover truly anxious that he should be treated as one in all worldly concerns; anxious that his tithes should be raised to the utmost; and secretly resolved to avail herself, at Delaford, as far as she possibly could, of his servants, his carriage, his cows, and his poultry.

Her own happiness and spirits were definitely secure, and she enthusiastically joined Mrs. Jennings in her hope that they would all be comfortably together at Delaford Parsonage before Michaelmas. At the same time, she was far from hesitating to give Elinor the credit that Edward would give her. She spoke of her friendship for both of them with genuine warmth, was eager to acknowledge all their debt to her, and openly stated that nothing Miss Dashwood did for their benefit, now or in the future, would ever surprise her because she believed Elinor was capable of anything for those she truly cared about. As for Colonel Brandon, she was not only prepared to regard him as a saint but was also genuinely concerned that he be treated as one in all worldly matters; she wanted his tithes to be maximized and secretly planned to make good use of his servants, carriage, cows, and poultry while at Delaford.

It was now above a week since John Dashwood had called in Berkeley Street, and as since that time no notice had been taken by them of his wife’s indisposition, beyond one verbal enquiry, Elinor began to feel it necessary to pay her a visit.—This was an obligation, however, which not only opposed her own inclination, but which had not the assistance of any encouragement from her companions. Marianne, not contented with absolutely refusing to go herself, was very urgent to prevent her sister’s going at all; and Mrs. Jennings, though her carriage was always at Elinor’s service, so very much disliked Mrs. John Dashwood, that not even her curiosity to see how she looked after the late discovery, nor her strong desire to affront her by taking Edward’s part, could overcome her unwillingness to be in her company again. The consequence was, that Elinor set out by herself to pay a visit, for which no one could really have less inclination, and to run the risk of a tête-à-tête with a woman, whom neither of the others had so much reason to dislike.

It had been over a week since John Dashwood had visited Berkeley Street, and since then, they had not acknowledged his wife's illness, aside from one verbal inquiry. Elinor felt she needed to pay her a visit. However, this obligation not only went against her own wishes, but also lacked any support from her companions. Marianne, dissatisfied with simply refusing to go herself, was quite insistent that her sister not go either. Mrs. Jennings, although always offering her carriage to Elinor, disliked Mrs. John Dashwood so much that her curiosity about how she was doing after the recent revelation, along with her strong desire to defend Edward, couldn't overcome her reluctance to be in her presence again. As a result, Elinor set out alone to make a visit she really had no desire to make, risking a one-on-one encounter with a woman whom neither of the others had much reason to dislike.

Mrs. Dashwood was denied; but before the carriage could turn from the house, her husband accidentally came out. He expressed great pleasure in meeting Elinor, told her that he had been just going to call in Berkeley Street, and, assuring her that Fanny would be very glad to see her, invited her to come in.

Mrs. Dashwood was turned away; but before the carriage could leave the house, her husband happened to come out. He was very happy to see Elinor, mentioned that he was about to visit Berkeley Street, and assured her that Fanny would be really happy to see her, inviting her to come inside.

They walked up stairs in to the drawing-room.—Nobody was there.

They walked up the stairs into the living room. —Nobody was there.

“Fanny is in her own room, I suppose,” said he: “I will go to her presently, for I am sure she will not have the least objection in the world to seeing you. Very far from it, indeed. Now especially there cannot be—but however, you and Marianne were always great favourites. Why would not Marianne come?”

“Fanny is in her own room, I guess,” he said. “I’ll go see her soon, because I’m sure she won’t mind at all seeing you. Quite the opposite, actually. Now especially, there shouldn’t be a problem—but anyway, you and Marianne have always been her favorites. Why didn’t Marianne come?”

Elinor made what excuse she could for her.

Elinor came up with any excuse she could for her.

“I am not sorry to see you alone,” he replied, “for I have a good deal to say to you. This living of Colonel Brandon’s—can it be true?—has he really given it to Edward?—I heard it yesterday by chance, and was coming to you on purpose to enquire farther about it.”

“I’m not sorry to find you alone," he said, “because I have a lot to discuss with you. About Colonel Brandon’s estate—can it really be true?—has he actually given it to Edward?—I heard about it by chance yesterday and was on my way to ask you for more details.”

“It is perfectly true.—Colonel Brandon has given the living of Delaford to Edward.”

“It’s absolutely true.—Colonel Brandon has given the position at Delaford to Edward.”

“Really!—Well, this is very astonishing!—no relationship!—no connection between them!—and now that livings fetch such a price!—what was the value of this?”

“Seriously!—Well, this is really surprising!—no relationship!—no connection between them!—and now that livings cost so much!—what was this worth?”

“About two hundred a year.”

"About two hundred per year."

“Very well—and for the next presentation to a living of that value—supposing the late incumbent to have been old and sickly, and likely to vacate it soon—he might have got I dare say—fourteen hundred pounds. And how came he not to have settled that matter before this person’s death? Now, indeed it would be too late to sell it, but a man of Colonel Brandon’s sense! I wonder he should be so improvident in a point of such common, such natural, concern! Well, I am convinced that there is a vast deal of inconsistency in almost every human character. I suppose, however—on recollection—that the case may probably be this. Edward is only to hold the living till the person to whom the Colonel has really sold the presentation, is old enough to take it. Aye, aye, that is the fact, depend upon it.”

“Alright—and for the next opportunity to take on a position worth that much—assuming the previous holder was old and unwell, and likely to leave it soon—he might have gotten, I dare say—fourteen hundred pounds. So why didn’t he settle that before this person’s death? Now, it’s definitely too late to sell it, but a man like Colonel Brandon, with his sense! I’m surprised he would be so careless about something so common and so natural! Well, I’ve come to believe that there’s a lot of inconsistency in almost every human character. I suppose, though—upon thinking about it—that the situation might be this. Edward only needs to hold the position until the person to whom the Colonel has actually sold the presentation is old enough to take it. Yes, that’s definitely the case, trust me.”

Elinor contradicted it, however, very positively; and by relating that she had herself been employed in conveying the offer from Colonel Brandon to Edward, and, therefore, must understand the terms on which it was given, obliged him to submit to her authority.

Elinor strongly disagreed, stating that she had been the one to deliver Colonel Brandon's offer to Edward, so she must know the terms under which it was made, which forced him to accept her authority.

“It is truly astonishing!”—he cried, after hearing what she said—“what could be the Colonel’s motive?”

“It’s really amazing!” he exclaimed after hearing what she said. “What could the Colonel’s motive be?”

“A very simple one—to be of use to Mr. Ferrars.”

“A very simple one—to be helpful to Mr. Ferrars.”

“Well, well; whatever Colonel Brandon may be, Edward is a very lucky man.—You will not mention the matter to Fanny, however, for though I have broke it to her, and she bears it vastly well,—she will not like to hear it much talked of.”

“Well, well; no matter what Colonel Brandon is like, Edward is a very lucky guy.—You won’t bring it up with Fanny, though, because even though I've told her about it and she’s handling it quite well—she won’t want to hear it talked about a lot.”

Elinor had some difficulty here to refrain from observing, that she thought Fanny might have borne with composure, an acquisition of wealth to her brother, by which neither she nor her child could be possibly impoverished.

Elinor had some trouble not pointing out that she thought Fanny could have handled her brother gaining wealth without losing her composure, especially since it wouldn’t make her or her child any poorer.

“Mrs. Ferrars,” added he, lowering his voice to the tone becoming so important a subject, “knows nothing about it at present, and I believe it will be best to keep it entirely concealed from her as long as may be. When the marriage takes place, I fear she must hear of it all.”

“Mrs. Ferrars,” he said, lowering his voice to match the seriousness of the topic, “doesn’t know anything about it right now, and I think it’s best to keep it completely hidden from her for as long as possible. When the marriage happens, I’m afraid she will have to hear about everything.”

“But why should such precaution be used? Though it is not to be supposed that Mrs. Ferrars can have the smallest satisfaction in knowing that her son has money enough to live upon, for that must be quite out of the question; yet why, upon her late behaviour, is she supposed to feel at all? She has done with her son,—she cast him off for ever, and has made all those over whom she had any influence, cast him off likewise. Surely, after doing so, she cannot be imagined liable to any impression of sorrow or of joy on his account: she cannot be interested in any thing that befalls him. She would not be so weak as to throw away the comfort of a child, and yet retain the anxiety of a parent!”

"But why should there be any caution at all? It’s hard to believe that Mrs. Ferrars finds any satisfaction in knowing that her son has enough money to get by, because that’s just not possible. So why, based on her recent behavior, is she thought to feel anything at all? She has completely cut ties with her son—she has disowned him for good and made sure that everyone she had any influence over has done the same. Surely, after all that, she can’t really feel any sadness or happiness about him; she can't care about anything that happens to him. She wouldn’t be so foolish as to give up the comfort of having a child, only to still carry the worries of a parent!"

“Ah! Elinor,” said John, “your reasoning is very good, but it is founded on ignorance of human nature. When Edward’s unhappy match takes place, depend upon it his mother will feel as much as if she had never discarded him; and, therefore every circumstance that may accelerate that dreadful event, must be concealed from her as much as possible. Mrs. Ferrars can never forget that Edward is her son.”

“Ah! Elinor,” John said, “your reasoning is sound, but it’s based on a misunderstanding of human nature. When Edward’s unfortunate marriage happens, you can count on it—his mother will feel just as deeply as if she had never turned her back on him. So, every detail that could speed up that terrible event must be kept from her as much as possible. Mrs. Ferrars can never forget that Edward is her son.”

“You surprise me; I should think it must nearly have escaped her memory by this time.”

“You're surprising me; I would think it must have almost slipped her mind by now.”

“You wrong her exceedingly. Mrs. Ferrars is one of the most affectionate mothers in the world.”

"You are seriously mistaken. Mrs. Ferrars is one of the most loving mothers out there."

Elinor was silent.

Elinor was quiet.

“We think now,”—said Mr. Dashwood, after a short pause, “of Robert’s marrying Miss Morton.”

“We think now,” said Mr. Dashwood, after a brief pause, “about Robert marrying Miss Morton.”

Elinor, smiling at the grave and decisive importance of her brother’s tone, calmly replied,—

Elinor, smiling at the serious and definite weight of her brother’s tone, calmly replied,—

“The lady, I suppose, has no choice in the affair.”

“The lady, I guess, has no say in the matter.”

“Choice!—how do you mean?”

"Choice!—what do you mean?"

“I only mean that I suppose, from your manner of speaking, it must be the same to Miss Morton whether she marry Edward or Robert.”

"I just mean that, based on how you talk, it seems like it doesn't matter to Miss Morton whether she marries Edward or Robert."

“Certainly, there can be no difference; for Robert will now to all intents and purposes be considered as the eldest son;—and as to any thing else, they are both very agreeable young men: I do not know that one is superior to the other.”

“Of course, there can't be any difference; Robert will now be seen as the oldest son in every way that matters. As for anything else, they are both really nice young men: I can't say that one is better than the other.”

Elinor said no more, and John was also for a short time silent.—His reflections ended thus.

Elinor didn't say anything else, and John was quiet for a little while too.—His thoughts concluded like this.

“Of one thing, my dear sister,” kindly taking her hand, and speaking in an awful whisper, “I may assure you;—and I will do it, because I know it must gratify you. I have good reason to think—indeed I have it from the best authority, or I should not repeat it, for otherwise it would be very wrong to say any thing about it,—but I have it from the very best authority,—not that I ever precisely heard Mrs. Ferrars say it herself—but her daughter did, and I have it from her,—that in short, whatever objections there might be against a certain—a certain connection, you understand me,—it would have been far preferable to her,—it would not have given her half the vexation that this does. I was exceedingly pleased to hear that Mrs. Ferrars considered it in that light; a very gratifying circumstance you know to us all. ‘It would have been beyond comparison,’ she said, ‘the least evil of the two, and she would be glad to compound now for nothing worse.’ But however, all that is quite out of the question,—not to be thought of or mentioned—as to any attachment you know, it never could be: all that is gone by. But I thought I would just tell you of this, because I knew how much it must please you. Not that you have any reason to regret, my dear Elinor. There is no doubt of your doing exceedingly well,—quite as well, or better, perhaps, all things considered. Has Colonel Brandon been with you lately?”

“About one thing, my dear sister,” she said kindly, taking her hand and speaking in a low whisper, “I can assure you of this; and I will tell you because I know it will make you happy. I have good reason to believe—actually, I have it from the best source, or I wouldn't repeat it, since otherwise it would be wrong to mention it at all—but I got it from the very best source—not that I ever heard Mrs. Ferrars say it herself, but her daughter did, and I have it from her—that despite any objections there might be to a certain connection, you know what I mean, it would have been much better for her. It wouldn't have caused her half the trouble that this does. I was really pleased to hear that Mrs. Ferrars viewed it that way; it’s a very satisfying piece of information for all of us. ‘It would have been far better,’ she said, ‘the lesser of two evils, and she would be happy to settle for nothing worse now.’ But anyway, all of that is completely irrelevant—not worth considering or mentioning—as for any feelings, you know, that could never be: all of that is in the past. But I just wanted to share this with you because I knew it would make you happy. Not that you have any reason to regret, my dear Elinor. There’s no doubt you’ll do extremely well—just as well, or even better, perhaps, all things considered. Has Colonel Brandon been to see you lately?”

Elinor had heard enough, if not to gratify her vanity, and raise her self-importance, to agitate her nerves and fill her mind;—and she was therefore glad to be spared from the necessity of saying much in reply herself, and from the danger of hearing any thing more from her brother, by the entrance of Mr. Robert Ferrars. After a few moments’ chat, John Dashwood, recollecting that Fanny was yet uninformed of her sister’s being there, quitted the room in quest of her; and Elinor was left to improve her acquaintance with Robert, who, by the gay unconcern, the happy self-complacency of his manner while enjoying so unfair a division of his mother’s love and liberality, to the prejudice of his banished brother, earned only by his own dissipated course of life, and that brother’s integrity, was confirming her most unfavourable opinion of his head and heart.

Elinor had heard enough, not to boost her ego or inflate her sense of importance, but to jangle her nerves and fill her thoughts;—so she was relieved to be spared the need to say much in response herself, and from the risk of hearing anything more from her brother, when Mr. Robert Ferrars walked in. After a quick chat, John Dashwood remembered that Fanny didn’t know her sister was there, so he left the room to find her; and Elinor was then able to get to know Robert better. His cheerful indifference and carefree self-satisfaction, as he enjoyed such an unfair share of their mother’s affection and generosity—at the expense of his exiled brother, who had lived a decent life—only reinforced her negative opinion of his intelligence and character.

They had scarcely been two minutes by themselves, before he began to speak of Edward; for he, too, had heard of the living, and was very inquisitive on the subject. Elinor repeated the particulars of it, as she had given them to John; and their effect on Robert, though very different, was not less striking than it had been on him. He laughed most immoderately. The idea of Edward’s being a clergyman, and living in a small parsonage-house, diverted him beyond measure;—and when to that was added the fanciful imagery of Edward reading prayers in a white surplice, and publishing the banns of marriage between John Smith and Mary Brown, he could conceive nothing more ridiculous.

They had barely been alone for two minutes when he started talking about Edward; he had also heard about him and was very curious. Elinor shared the details just as she had told John, and the impact on Robert, while very different, was just as striking as it had been on him. He laughed uncontrollably. The thought of Edward being a clergyman and living in a small parsonage house amused him immensely; and when he added the humorous image of Edward reading prayers in a white surplice and announcing the banns of marriage between John Smith and Mary Brown, he couldn't imagine anything more ridiculous.

Elinor, while she waited in silence and immovable gravity, the conclusion of such folly, could not restrain her eyes from being fixed on him with a look that spoke all the contempt it excited. It was a look, however, very well bestowed, for it relieved her own feelings, and gave no intelligence to him. He was recalled from wit to wisdom, not by any reproof of hers, but by his own sensibility.

Elinor, as she waited in silence and with unwavering seriousness for the end of such foolishness, couldn't help but fix her gaze on him with a look that communicated all the contempt she felt. However, it was a well-deserved look, as it eased her own feelings and didn't reveal anything to him. He returned from wit to wisdom, not because of any criticism from her, but due to his own sensitivity.

“We may treat it as a joke,” said he, at last, recovering from the affected laugh which had considerably lengthened out the genuine gaiety of the moment; “but, upon my soul, it is a most serious business. Poor Edward! he is ruined for ever. I am extremely sorry for it; for I know him to be a very good-hearted creature; as well-meaning a fellow perhaps, as any in the world. You must not judge of him, Miss Dashwood, from your slight acquaintance. Poor Edward! His manners are certainly not the happiest in nature. But we are not all born, you know, with the same powers,—the same address. Poor fellow! to see him in a circle of strangers! To be sure it was pitiable enough; but upon my soul, I believe he has as good a heart as any in the kingdom; and I declare and protest to you I never was so shocked in my life, as when it all burst forth. I could not believe it. My mother was the first person who told me of it; and I, feeling myself called on to act with resolution, immediately said to her, ‘My dear madam, I do not know what you may intend to do on the occasion, but as for myself, I must say, that if Edward does marry this young woman, I never will see him again.’ That was what I said immediately. I was most uncommonly shocked, indeed! Poor Edward! he has done for himself completely,—shut himself out for ever from all decent society! But, as I directly said to my mother, I am not in the least surprised at it; from his style of education, it was always to be expected. My poor mother was half frantic.”

“We can laugh about it,” he said, finally shaking off the forced laughter that had stretched out the genuine joy of the moment, “but honestly, it’s a serious matter. Poor Edward! He’s ruined for good. I really feel bad for him because I know he’s a good-hearted guy; probably one of the nicest people you'd ever meet. You shouldn’t judge him, Miss Dashwood, based on your limited acquaintance. Poor Edward! He doesn’t have the best manners. But not everyone is born with the same skills or charm, you know. It’s pretty sad to see him among strangers! It was definitely pitiful; but honestly, I believe he has one of the best hearts out there; and I swear I’ve never been so shocked in my life when everything came to light. I couldn’t believe it. My mother was the first to tell me, and feeling the need to respond decisively, I immediately told her, ‘My dear mom, I don’t know what you plan to do about this situation, but as for me, I have to say that if Edward marries this young woman, I will never see him again.’ That’s what I said right then. I was truly shocked! Poor Edward! He’s completely ruined himself—he’s shut himself out from decent society forever! But as I told my mother, I’m not at all surprised by it; given his upbringing, it was always expected. My poor mother was half out of her mind.”

“Have you ever seen the lady?”

“Have you ever seen the woman?”

“Yes; once, while she was staying in this house, I happened to drop in for ten minutes; and I saw quite enough of her. The merest awkward country girl, without style, or elegance, and almost without beauty. I remember her perfectly. Just the kind of girl I should suppose likely to captivate poor Edward. I offered immediately, as soon as my mother related the affair to me, to talk to him myself, and dissuade him from the match; but it was too late then, I found, to do any thing, for unluckily, I was not in the way at first, and knew nothing of it till after the breach had taken place, when it was not for me, you know, to interfere. But had I been informed of it a few hours earlier, I think it is most probable that something might have been hit on. I certainly should have represented it to Edward in a very strong light. ‘My dear fellow,’ I should have said, ‘consider what you are doing. You are making a most disgraceful connection, and such a one as your family are unanimous in disapproving.’ I cannot help thinking, in short, that means might have been found. But now it is all too late. He must be starved, you know, that is certain; absolutely starved.”

“Yes; once, while she was staying in this house, I stopped by for ten minutes, and I saw enough of her. Just an awkward country girl, without any style, elegance, or much beauty. I remember her clearly. Exactly the kind of girl I would think would attract poor Edward. I immediately offered, as soon as my mother told me about it, to talk to him myself and convince him not to pursue the relationship; but it was too late then. I found out too late to do anything because, unfortunately, I wasn't around at first and didn't know anything about it until after the breakup had happened, when it wasn't my place to interfere. But if I'd been informed a few hours earlier, it's very likely that something could have been done. I definitely would have made my argument to Edward very strongly. ‘My dear fellow,’ I would have said, ‘think about what you're doing. You're getting involved in a disgraceful situation, one that your family completely disapproves of.’ I can't help but think that we could have found a way to change things. But now it’s all too late. He’s definitely going to be miserable, there's no doubt about it; absolutely miserable.”

He had just settled this point with great composure, when the entrance of Mrs. John Dashwood put an end to the subject. But though she never spoke of it out of her own family, Elinor could see its influence on her mind, in the something like confusion of countenance with which she entered, and an attempt at cordiality in her behaviour to herself. She even proceeded so far as to be concerned to find that Elinor and her sister were so soon to leave town, as she had hoped to see more of them;—an exertion in which her husband, who attended her into the room, and hung enamoured over her accents, seemed to distinguish every thing that was most affectionate and graceful.

He had just settled this issue with great calm when Mrs. John Dashwood walked in, cutting off the conversation. Although she never discussed it outside of her family, Elinor could see its impact on her thoughts by the almost confused expression on her face as she entered and her awkward attempt at friendliness towards Elinor. She even went so far as to express concern about Elinor and her sister leaving town so soon, as she had hoped to spend more time with them—an effort that her husband, who followed her into the room and hung on her every word, seemed to interpret as the most affectionate and graceful behavior.

CHAPTER XLII.

One other short call in Harley Street, in which Elinor received her brother’s congratulations on their travelling so far towards Barton without any expense, and on Colonel Brandon’s being to follow them to Cleveland in a day or two, completed the intercourse of the brother and sisters in town;—and a faint invitation from Fanny, to come to Norland whenever it should happen to be in their way, which of all things was the most unlikely to occur, with a more warm, though less public, assurance, from John to Elinor, of the promptitude with which he should come to see her at Delaford, was all that foretold any meeting in the country.

One more quick visit on Harley Street, where Elinor got her brother’s congratulations for traveling so far towards Barton without any cost, and on Colonel Brandon planning to join them in Cleveland in a day or two, wrapped up their time together in the city. Fanny faintly invited them to come to Norland whenever it happened to be convenient, which was highly unlikely, while John assured Elinor, more warmly and privately, that he would come see her at Delaford soon. That was all that hinted at any meeting in the countryside.

It amused her to observe that all her friends seemed determined to send her to Delaford;—a place, in which, of all others, she would now least chuse to visit, or wish to reside; for not only was it considered as her future home by her brother and Mrs. Jennings, but even Lucy, when they parted, gave her a pressing invitation to visit her there.

It amused her to see that all her friends were set on sending her to Delaford—a place she would now least choose to visit or live in; not only was it viewed as her future home by her brother and Mrs. Jennings, but even Lucy, when they said goodbye, extended a strong invitation for her to come visit there.

Very early in April, and tolerably early in the day, the two parties from Hanover Square and Berkeley Street set out from their respective homes, to meet, by appointment, on the road. For the convenience of Charlotte and her child, they were to be more than two days on their journey, and Mr. Palmer, travelling more expeditiously with Colonel Brandon, was to join them at Cleveland soon after their arrival.

Very early in April, and fairly early in the day, the two groups from Hanover Square and Berkeley Street left their homes to meet, as planned, on the road. To make it easier for Charlotte and her child, they were going to take more than two days for their journey, and Mr. Palmer, traveling more quickly with Colonel Brandon, was supposed to join them at Cleveland soon after they arrived.

Marianne, few as had been her hours of comfort in London, and eager as she had long been to quit it, could not, when it came to the point, bid adieu to the house in which she had for the last time enjoyed those hopes, and that confidence, in Willoughby, which were now extinguished for ever, without great pain. Nor could she leave the place in which Willoughby remained, busy in new engagements, and new schemes, in which she could have no share, without shedding many tears.

Marianne, despite having spent so little time feeling comfortable in London and being so eager to leave, found it incredibly difficult to say goodbye to the house where she had last experienced those hopes and that confidence in Willoughby, which were now gone forever. She couldn't leave the place where Willoughby was still involved in new commitments and plans that she could not be a part of, without crying a lot.

Elinor’s satisfaction, at the moment of removal, was more positive. She had no such object for her lingering thoughts to fix on, she left no creature behind, from whom it would give her a moment’s regret to be divided for ever, she was pleased to be free herself from the persecution of Lucy’s friendship, she was grateful for bringing her sister away unseen by Willoughby since his marriage, and she looked forward with hope to what a few months of tranquility at Barton might do towards restoring Marianne’s peace of mind, and confirming her own.

Elinor felt more positively satisfied at the moment of leaving. She had nothing to dwell on; there was no one she would miss enough to regret parting from forever. She was happy to be free from the pressure of Lucy’s friendship, grateful to have taken her sister away before Willoughby could see them since his marriage, and she looked forward with hope to what a few months of peace at Barton could do to restore Marianne’s sense of calm and reinforce her own.

Their journey was safely performed. The second day brought them into the cherished, or the prohibited, county of Somerset, for as such was it dwelt on by turns in Marianne’s imagination; and in the forenoon of the third they drove up to Cleveland.

Their journey went smoothly. On the second day, they entered the beloved, or forbidden, county of Somerset, as it was alternately envisioned by Marianne; and by the morning of the third day, they arrived at Cleveland.

Cleveland was a spacious, modern-built house, situated on a sloping lawn. It had no park, but the pleasure-grounds were tolerably extensive; and like every other place of the same degree of importance, it had its open shrubbery, and closer wood walk, a road of smooth gravel winding round a plantation, led to the front, the lawn was dotted over with timber, the house itself was under the guardianship of the fir, the mountain-ash, and the acacia, and a thick screen of them altogether, interspersed with tall Lombardy poplars, shut out the offices.

Cleveland was a spacious, modern house set on a sloping lawn. It didn’t have a park, but the grounds were decent-sized; like every other place of similar importance, it had its open shrubbery and a narrow wooded path. A smooth gravel road wound around a small forest, leading to the front. The lawn was dotted with trees, and the house itself was surrounded by firs, mountain-ash, and acacia trees, forming a thick screen of foliage, mixed with tall Lombardy poplars that blocked off the service areas.

Marianne entered the house with a heart swelling with emotion from the consciousness of being only eighty miles from Barton, and not thirty from Combe Magna; and before she had been five minutes within its walls, while the others were busily helping Charlotte to show her child to the housekeeper, she quitted it again, stealing away through the winding shrubberies, now just beginning to be in beauty, to gain a distant eminence; where, from its Grecian temple, her eye, wandering over a wide tract of country to the south-east, could fondly rest on the farthest ridge of hills in the horizon, and fancy that from their summits Combe Magna might be seen.

Marianne walked into the house, filled with emotion from realizing she was only eighty miles from Barton and not even thirty from Combe Magna. Within five minutes of being inside, while everyone else was busy helping Charlotte show her child to the housekeeper, she quietly slipped away, making her way through the winding shrubs that were just starting to bloom. She headed towards a distant hilltop where she could stand by a Grecian temple and gaze over the vast landscape to the southeast, allowing her eyes to rest on the farthest ridge of hills on the horizon, imagining that she could see Combe Magna from their peaks.

In such moments of precious, invaluable misery, she rejoiced in tears of agony to be at Cleveland; and as she returned by a different circuit to the house, feeling all the happy privilege of country liberty, of wandering from place to place in free and luxurious solitude, she resolved to spend almost every hour of every day while she remained with the Palmers, in the indulgence of such solitary rambles.

In those moments of bittersweet pain, she found joy in her tears for being in Cleveland; and as she took a different path back to the house, feeling the wonderful freedom of country life, wandering from spot to spot in her own untroubled solitude, she decided to spend nearly every hour of every day while with the Palmers enjoying such solitary walks.

She returned just in time to join the others as they quitted the house, on an excursion through its more immediate premises; and the rest of the morning was easily whiled away, in lounging round the kitchen garden, examining the bloom upon its walls, and listening to the gardener’s lamentations upon blights, in dawdling through the green-house, where the loss of her favourite plants, unwarily exposed, and nipped by the lingering frost, raised the laughter of Charlotte,—and in visiting her poultry-yard, where, in the disappointed hopes of her dairy-maid, by hens forsaking their nests, or being stolen by a fox, or in the rapid decrease of a promising young brood, she found fresh sources of merriment.

She got back just in time to join the others as they left the house for a little trip around the nearby grounds; and the rest of the morning was easily spent lounging around the kitchen garden, checking out the flowers on its walls, and listening to the gardener complain about pests, wandering through the greenhouse where the loss of her favorite plants, accidentally left out and damaged by the lingering frost, made Charlotte laugh, and visiting her poultry yard, where, in the disappointed hopes of her dairy maid, hens were abandoning their nests or being snatched by a fox, or the rapid decline of a promising young brood gave her more reasons to laugh.

The morning was fine and dry, and Marianne, in her plan of employment abroad, had not calculated for any change of weather during their stay at Cleveland. With great surprise therefore, did she find herself prevented by a settled rain from going out again after dinner. She had depended on a twilight walk to the Grecian temple, and perhaps all over the grounds, and an evening merely cold or damp would not have deterred her from it; but a heavy and settled rain even she could not fancy dry or pleasant weather for walking.

The morning was nice and dry, and Marianne, in her schedule for staying busy, hadn’t expected any change in the weather during their time at Cleveland. So, she was quite surprised to find that a steady rain kept her from going out again after dinner. She had planned on a twilight walk to the Grecian temple and maybe around the grounds, and even a chilly or damp evening wouldn't have stopped her; but a heavy and constant rain made it hard for her to imagine nice weather for walking.

Their party was small, and the hours passed quietly away. Mrs. Palmer had her child, and Mrs. Jennings her carpet-work; they talked of the friends they had left behind, arranged Lady Middleton’s engagements, and wondered whether Mr. Palmer and Colonel Brandon would get farther than Reading that night. Elinor, however little concerned in it, joined in their discourse; and Marianne, who had the knack of finding her way in every house to the library, however it might be avoided by the family in general, soon procured herself a book.

Their gathering was small, and the hours went by quietly. Mrs. Palmer had her child, and Mrs. Jennings had her sewing; they talked about the friends they had left behind, planned Lady Middleton’s schedule, and speculated whether Mr. Palmer and Colonel Brandon would make it farther than Reading that night. Elinor, although not very invested in the conversation, joined in; and Marianne, who always found her way to the library in every house, no matter how much the family tried to avoid it, soon got herself a book.

Nothing was wanting on Mrs. Palmer’s side that constant and friendly good humour could do, to make them feel themselves welcome. The openness and heartiness of her manner more than atoned for that want of recollection and elegance which made her often deficient in the forms of politeness; her kindness, recommended by so pretty a face, was engaging; her folly, though evident was not disgusting, because it was not conceited; and Elinor could have forgiven every thing but her laugh.

Nothing was missing from Mrs. Palmer’s side that constant and friendly good humor could provide to make them feel welcome. The openness and warmth of her manner more than made up for her lack of awareness and elegance, which often left her short on politeness; her kindness, made even more appealing by her pretty face, was charming; her silliness, although obvious, was not off-putting because it wasn’t pretentious; and Elinor could have forgiven everything except her laugh.

The two gentlemen arrived the next day to a very late dinner, affording a pleasant enlargement of the party, and a very welcome variety to their conversation, which a long morning of the same continued rain had reduced very low.

The two gentlemen showed up the following day for a very late dinner, adding some enjoyable company and a much-appreciated change to their conversation, which a long morning of relentless rain had made rather dull.

Elinor had seen so little of Mr. Palmer, and in that little had seen so much variety in his address to her sister and herself, that she knew not what to expect to find him in his own family. She found him, however, perfectly the gentleman in his behaviour to all his visitors, and only occasionally rude to his wife and her mother; she found him very capable of being a pleasant companion, and only prevented from being so always, by too great an aptitude to fancy himself as much superior to people in general, as he must feel himself to be to Mrs. Jennings and Charlotte. For the rest of his character and habits, they were marked, as far as Elinor could perceive, with no traits at all unusual in his sex and time of life. He was nice in his eating, uncertain in his hours; fond of his child, though affecting to slight it; and idled away the mornings at billiards, which ought to have been devoted to business. She liked him, however, upon the whole, much better than she had expected, and in her heart was not sorry that she could like him no more;—not sorry to be driven by the observation of his Epicurism, his selfishness, and his conceit, to rest with complacency on the remembrance of Edward’s generous temper, simple taste, and diffident feelings.

Elinor had seen very little of Mr. Palmer, and in that limited time, he had shown a lot of different ways of interacting with her sister and herself, so she wasn’t sure what to expect from him at home. However, she found him to be perfectly polite to all his visitors, though he was occasionally rude to his wife and her mother. He was capable of being a pleasant companion, but he often held back because he seemed to think of himself as superior to most people, especially to Mrs. Jennings and Charlotte. As for the rest of his character and habits, they appeared to be typical for a man of his age and status. He was finicky about his food, had unpredictable hours, loved his child while pretending to ignore it, and spent his mornings playing billiards when he should have been working. Overall, she liked him more than she had anticipated and secretly was glad that her feelings didn’t go any deeper;—not sorry to be reminded of Edward’s kind nature, simple tastes, and modest feelings by observing Mr. Palmer's hedonism, selfishness, and arrogance.

Of Edward, or at least of some of his concerns, she now received intelligence from Colonel Brandon, who had been into Dorsetshire lately; and who, treating her at once as the disinterested friend of Mr. Ferrars, and the kind confidante of himself, talked to her a great deal of the parsonage at Delaford, described its deficiencies, and told her what he meant to do himself towards removing them.—His behaviour to her in this, as well as in every other particular, his open pleasure in meeting her after an absence of only ten days, his readiness to converse with her, and his deference for her opinion, might very well justify Mrs. Jennings’s persuasion of his attachment, and would have been enough, perhaps, had not Elinor still, as from the first, believed Marianne his real favourite, to make her suspect it herself. But as it was, such a notion had scarcely ever entered her head, except by Mrs. Jennings’s suggestion; and she could not help believing herself the nicest observer of the two;—she watched his eyes, while Mrs. Jennings thought only of his behaviour;—and while his looks of anxious solicitude on Marianne’s feeling, in her head and throat, the beginning of a heavy cold, because unexpressed by words, entirely escaped the latter lady’s observation;—she could discover in them the quick feelings, and needless alarm of a lover.

Of Edward, or at least some of his worries, she now got news from Colonel Brandon, who had recently been to Dorsetshire. He treated her as a true friend of Mr. Ferrars and a kind confidante of himself, talking to her a lot about the parsonage at Delaford, describing its shortcomings, and explaining what he intended to do to fix them. His behavior towards her in this, as well as in every other aspect, his genuine pleasure in seeing her after just ten days apart, his eagerness to chat with her, and his respect for her opinions could easily validate Mrs. Jennings’s belief in his feelings for her. However, it would have been enough to make Elinor question it herself if she hadn’t, from the beginning, believed that Marianne was his true favorite. As it was, that idea had hardly crossed her mind, except for Mrs. Jennings's suggestion. She couldn’t help but think she was the better observer of the two; she watched his eyes while Mrs. Jennings only noticed his behavior. His look of anxious concern when Marianne mentioned feeling the start of a bad cold went completely unnoticed by the latter lady; she could see in his expression the intense feelings and unnecessary worry of a lover.

Two delightful twilight walks on the third and fourth evenings of her being there, not merely on the dry gravel of the shrubbery, but all over the grounds, and especially in the most distant parts of them, where there was something more of wildness than in the rest, where the trees were the oldest, and the grass was the longest and wettest, had—assisted by the still greater imprudence of sitting in her wet shoes and stockings—given Marianne a cold so violent as, though for a day or two trifled with or denied, would force itself by increasing ailments on the concern of every body, and the notice of herself. Prescriptions poured in from all quarters, and as usual, were all declined. Though heavy and feverish, with a pain in her limbs, and a cough, and a sore throat, a good night’s rest was to cure her entirely; and it was with difficulty that Elinor prevailed on her, when she went to bed, to try one or two of the simplest of the remedies.

Two lovely evening walks on the third and fourth nights of her stay, not just on the dry gravel paths in the garden, but all over the grounds, especially in the wilder parts where the trees were older and the grass was longer and wetter, had—along with the added issue of sitting around in her wet shoes and socks—given Marianne a cold so bad that, even though she tried to brush it off for a day or two, its worsening symptoms soon got everyone worried and caught her attention as well. Remedies came pouring in from all sides, but as usual, she turned them all down. Even though she felt heavy and feverish, with aches in her limbs, a cough, and a sore throat, she believed a good night's sleep would fix her completely; it was tough for Elinor to convince her to try one or two of the simplest remedies when she went to bed.

CHAPTER XLIII.

Marianne got up the next morning at her usual time; to every inquiry replied that she was better, and tried to prove herself so, by engaging in her accustomary employments. But a day spent in sitting shivering over the fire with a book in her hand, which she was unable to read, or in lying, weary and languid, on a sofa, did not speak much in favour of her amendment; and when, at last, she went early to bed, more and more indisposed, Colonel Brandon was only astonished at her sister’s composure, who, though attending and nursing her the whole day, against Marianne’s inclination, and forcing proper medicines on her at night, trusted, like Marianne, to the certainty and efficacy of sleep, and felt no real alarm.

Marianne woke up the next morning at her usual time; to every question, she replied that she was feeling better and tried to show it by engaging in her usual activities. But a day spent sitting and shivering by the fire with a book she couldn't read, or lying wearily and listlessly on the sofa, didn’t really suggest she was getting better. When she finally went to bed early, feeling even worse, Colonel Brandon was just surprised by her sister's calm. Even though she had been attending to and nursing Marianne all day against her wishes, and forcing her to take the right medicine at night, she, like Marianne, was confident that sleep would help and felt no genuine worry.

A very restless and feverish night, however, disappointed the expectation of both; and when Marianne, after persisting in rising, confessed herself unable to sit up, and returned voluntarily to her bed, Elinor was very ready to adopt Mrs. Jennings’s advice, of sending for the Palmers’ apothecary.

A really restless and feverish night, however, let both of them down; and when Marianne, after insisting on getting up, admitted she couldn't stay seated and went back to bed on her own, Elinor was quick to take Mrs. Jennings’s advice and send for the Palmers’ doctor.

He came, examined his patient, and though encouraging Miss Dashwood to expect that a very few days would restore her sister to health, yet, by pronouncing her disorder to have a putrid tendency, and allowing the word “infection” to pass his lips, gave instant alarm to Mrs. Palmer, on her baby’s account. Mrs. Jennings, who had been inclined from the first to think Marianne’s complaint more serious than Elinor, now looked very grave on Mr. Harris’s report, and confirming Charlotte’s fears and caution, urged the necessity of her immediate removal with her infant; and Mr. Palmer, though treating their apprehensions as idle, found the anxiety and importunity of his wife too great to be withstood. Her departure, therefore, was fixed on; and within an hour after Mr. Harris’s arrival, she set off, with her little boy and his nurse, for the house of a near relation of Mr. Palmer’s, who lived a few miles on the other side of Bath; whither her husband promised, at her earnest entreaty, to join her in a day or two; and whither she was almost equally urgent with her mother to accompany her. Mrs. Jennings, however, with a kindness of heart which made Elinor really love her, declared her resolution of not stirring from Cleveland as long as Marianne remained ill, and of endeavouring, by her own attentive care, to supply to her the place of the mother she had taken her from; and Elinor found her on every occasion a most willing and active helpmate, desirous to share in all her fatigues, and often by her better experience in nursing, of material use.

He arrived, examined his patient, and while encouraging Miss Dashwood to expect that her sister would recover in just a few days, he also mentioned that her condition had a putrid tendency and let the word “infection” slip, which immediately alarmed Mrs. Palmer about her baby. Mrs. Jennings, who had thought from the start that Marianne’s illness was more serious than Elinor realized, now looked very serious after Mr. Harris’s report. Confirming Charlotte’s fears and caution, she pressed the urgency of taking Marianne away with her infant. Although Mr. Palmer dismissed their concerns as unnecessary, he found his wife's anxiety and insistence too strong to ignore. So, it was decided that she would leave, and within an hour of Mr. Harris’s arrival, she left with her little boy and his nurse for the home of a close relative of Mr. Palmer’s, who lived a few miles beyond Bath. He promised, at her earnest request, to join her in a day or two, and she also strongly urged her mother to come with her. However, Mrs. Jennings, with a kindness that made Elinor truly appreciate her, declared her intention to stay in Cleveland as long as Marianne was unwell, and to try her best, with her attentive care, to act as the mother she had left behind. Elinor found her to be a very willing and active partner, eager to help with all her burdens, often proving to be really useful due to her greater experience in nursing.

Poor Marianne, languid and low from the nature of her malady, and feeling herself universally ill, could no longer hope that tomorrow would find her recovered; and the idea of what tomorrow would have produced, but for this unlucky illness, made every ailment severe; for on that day they were to have begun their journey home; and, attended the whole way by a servant of Mrs. Jennings, were to have taken their mother by surprise on the following forenoon. The little she said was all in lamentation of this inevitable delay; though Elinor tried to raise her spirits, and make her believe, as she then really believed herself, that it would be a very short one.

Poor Marianne, feeling weak and down because of her illness and thinking she was just generally unwell, could no longer believe that tomorrow would find her better. The thought of what tomorrow could have brought, if it weren't for this unfortunate sickness, made every little discomfort feel worse. They were supposed to start their journey home that day and surprise their mother the next morning, with a servant from Mrs. Jennings accompanying them the whole way. The little she said was all about mourning this unavoidable delay, while Elinor tried to lift her spirits and make her believe, as she truly believed herself at that moment, that it would be a very short one.

The next day produced little or no alteration in the state of the patient; she certainly was not better, and, except that there was no amendment, did not appear worse. Their party was now farther reduced; for Mr. Palmer, though very unwilling to go as well from real humanity and good-nature, as from a dislike of appearing to be frightened away by his wife, was persuaded at last by Colonel Brandon to perform his promise of following her; and while he was preparing to go, Colonel Brandon himself, with a much greater exertion, began to talk of going likewise.—Here, however, the kindness of Mrs. Jennings interposed most acceptably; for to send the Colonel away while his love was in so much uneasiness on her sister’s account, would be to deprive them both, she thought, of every comfort; and therefore telling him at once that his stay at Cleveland was necessary to herself, that she should want him to play at piquet of an evening, while Miss Dashwood was above with her sister, &c. she urged him so strongly to remain, that he, who was gratifying the first wish of his own heart by a compliance, could not long even affect to demur; especially as Mrs. Jennings’s entreaty was warmly seconded by Mr. Palmer, who seemed to feel a relief to himself, in leaving behind him a person so well able to assist or advise Miss Dashwood in any emergence.

The next day showed little to no change in the patient’s condition; she definitely wasn’t better, and aside from not getting worse, she didn’t seem to be in a more dire state. Their group was smaller now; Mr. Palmer, though very reluctant to leave due to genuine concern and a dislike of looking scared off by his wife, was finally convinced by Colonel Brandon to keep his promise to follow her. As he prepared to leave, Colonel Brandon, with much more effort, also started talking about leaving. However, Mrs. Jennings stepped in at just the right moment; sending the Colonel away while his love was so worried about her sister would, she thought, take away comfort from both of them. So she promptly told him that his presence in Cleveland was necessary for her because she wanted him to play piquet in the evenings while Miss Dashwood was upstairs with her sister, etc. She urged him so strongly to stay that he, who was already satisfying his own heart’s desire by agreeing, couldn’t long pretend to hesitate; especially since Mrs. Jennings's request was enthusiastically supported by Mr. Palmer, who seemed relieved to leave someone so capable of helping or advising Miss Dashwood in any situation behind.

Marianne was, of course, kept in ignorance of all these arrangements. She knew not that she had been the means of sending the owners of Cleveland away, in about seven days from the time of their arrival. It gave her no surprise that she saw nothing of Mrs. Palmer; and as it gave her likewise no concern, she never mentioned her name.

Marianne was, of course, kept in the dark about all these plans. She had no idea that she had played a part in sending the owners of Cleveland away just about seven days after they arrived. She wasn’t surprised that she hadn’t seen Mrs. Palmer; and since it didn’t bother her, she never brought her up.

Two days passed away from the time of Mr. Palmer’s departure, and her situation continued, with little variation, the same. Mr. Harris, who attended her every day, still talked boldly of a speedy recovery, and Miss Dashwood was equally sanguine; but the expectation of the others was by no means so cheerful. Mrs. Jennings had determined very early in the seizure that Marianne would never get over it, and Colonel Brandon, who was chiefly of use in listening to Mrs. Jennings’s forebodings, was not in a state of mind to resist their influence. He tried to reason himself out of fears, which the different judgment of the apothecary seemed to render absurd; but the many hours of each day in which he was left entirely alone, were but too favourable for the admission of every melancholy idea, and he could not expel from his mind the persuasion that he should see Marianne no more.

Two days had gone by since Mr. Palmer’s departure, and her situation remained largely unchanged. Mr. Harris, who visited her daily, continued to speak confidently about a quick recovery, and Miss Dashwood was equally optimistic; however, the hopes of others were far less bright. Mrs. Jennings had made up her mind very early on in the illness that Marianne would never recover, and Colonel Brandon, who was mainly there to listen to Mrs. Jennings’s gloomy predictions, was not in the right state of mind to resist their influence. He tried to talk himself out of his fears, which the apothecary’s different opinion made seem unreasonable; but the many hours each day when he was left completely alone were all too conducive to allowing every sad thought to creep in, and he couldn’t shake the conviction that he would never see Marianne again.

On the morning of the third day however, the gloomy anticipations of both were almost done away; for when Mr. Harris arrived, he declared his patient materially better. Her pulse was much stronger, and every symptom more favourable than on the preceding visit. Elinor, confirmed in every pleasant hope, was all cheerfulness; rejoicing that in her letters to her mother, she had pursued her own judgment rather than her friend’s, in making very light of the indisposition which delayed them at Cleveland; and almost fixing on the time when Marianne would be able to travel.

On the morning of the third day, however, the gloomy expectations of both were almost gone; when Mr. Harris arrived, he said his patient was significantly better. Her pulse was much stronger, and every symptom was more favorable than during his last visit. Elinor, encouraged by every positive sign, was in high spirits, celebrating that in her letters to her mother, she had followed her own judgment instead of her friend’s by downplaying the illness that was holding them back in Cleveland; and she was nearly determining when Marianne would be able to travel again.

But the day did not close so auspiciously as it began. Towards the evening Marianne became ill again, growing more heavy, restless, and uncomfortable than before. Her sister, however, still sanguine, was willing to attribute the change to nothing more than the fatigue of having sat up to have her bed made; and carefully administering the cordials prescribed, saw her, with satisfaction, sink at last into a slumber, from which she expected the most beneficial effects. Her sleep, though not so quiet as Elinor wished to see it, lasted a considerable time; and anxious to observe the result of it herself, she resolved to sit with her during the whole of it. Mrs. Jennings, knowing nothing of any change in the patient, went unusually early to bed; her maid, who was one of the principal nurses, was recreating herself in the housekeeper’s room, and Elinor remained alone with Marianne.

But the day didn’t end as positively as it started. In the evening, Marianne got sick again, feeling heavier, more restless, and uncomfortable than before. However, her sister, still optimistic, was willing to think the change was just from the fatigue of having stayed up to have her bed made; and while carefully giving her the prescribed tonics, she was satisfied to see Marianne finally drift off to sleep, expecting it to have the most positive effects. Her sleep, though not as peaceful as Elinor had hoped, lasted quite a while; and eager to see how it would impact her, she decided to stay by her side the whole time. Mrs. Jennings, unaware of any changes in the patient, went to bed unusually early; her maid, who was one of the main nurses, was relaxing in the housekeeper’s room, leaving Elinor alone with Marianne.

The repose of the latter became more and more disturbed; and her sister, who watched, with unremitting attention her continual change of posture, and heard the frequent but inarticulate sounds of complaint which passed her lips, was almost wishing to rouse her from so painful a slumber, when Marianne, suddenly awakened by some accidental noise in the house, started hastily up, and, with feverish wildness, cried out,—

The rest of the latter became increasingly unsettled; and her sister, who closely observed her constant shifts in position and heard the frequent but muffled sounds of distress escaping her lips, almost wished to wake her from such a troubled sleep, when Marianne, suddenly jolted awake by some unexpected noise in the house, sprang up quickly and, with feverish intensity, shouted,—

“Is mama coming?”

"Is mom coming?"

“Not yet,” cried the other, concealing her terror, and assisting Marianne to lie down again, “but she will be here, I hope, before it is long. It is a great way, you know, from hence to Barton.”

“Not yet,” shouted the other, hiding her fear and helping Marianne lie down again, “but I hope she’ll be here soon. It’s quite a distance from here to Barton, you know.”

“But she must not go round by London,” cried Marianne, in the same hurried manner. “I shall never see her, if she goes by London.”

“But she can't go through London,” Marianne exclaimed, just as hurriedly. “I'll never see her if she takes that route.”

Elinor perceived with alarm that she was not quite herself, and, while attempting to soothe her, eagerly felt her pulse. It was lower and quicker than ever! and Marianne, still talking wildly of mama, her alarm increased so rapidly, as to determine her on sending instantly for Mr. Harris, and despatching a messenger to Barton for her mother. To consult with Colonel Brandon on the best means of effecting the latter, was a thought which immediately followed the resolution of its performance; and as soon she had rung up the maid to take her place by her sister, she hastened down to the drawing-room, where she knew he was generally to be found at a much later hour than the present.

Elinor noticed with worry that she wasn't quite herself, and while trying to comfort her, she eagerly felt her pulse. It was slower and faster than ever! Marianne, still talking wildly about their mom, made her anxiety increase so quickly that she decided to send for Mr. Harris right away and dispatch a messenger to Barton for their mother. Consulting with Colonel Brandon on the best way to do the latter was a thought that immediately followed her decision to act; as soon as she called the maid to stay with her sister, she rushed down to the living room, where she knew he usually was at a much later hour than now.

It was no time for hesitation. Her fears and her difficulties were immediately before him. Her fears, he had no courage, no confidence to attempt the removal of:—he listened to them in silent despondence;—but her difficulties were instantly obviated, for with a readiness that seemed to speak the occasion, and the service pre-arranged in his mind, he offered himself as the messenger who should fetch Mrs. Dashwood. Elinor made no resistance that was not easily overcome. She thanked him with brief, though fervent gratitude, and while he went to hurry off his servant with a message to Mr. Harris, and an order for post-horses directly, she wrote a few lines to her mother.

It was not the time to hesitate. Her fears and struggles were right in front of him. He felt no courage or confidence to address her fears—he listened in silent despair—but her challenges were quickly resolved. With a readiness that seemed appropriate for the moment and the plan already in his mind, he offered to be the one to go get Mrs. Dashwood. Elinor didn’t resist in a way that couldn’t be easily overcome. She thanked him with a brief but heartfelt gratitude, and while he hurried to send his servant with a message to Mr. Harris and to arrange for post-horses, she wrote a few lines to her mother.

The comfort of such a friend at that moment as Colonel Brandon—or such a companion for her mother,—how gratefully was it felt!—a companion whose judgment would guide, whose attendance must relieve, and whose friendship might soothe her!—as far as the shock of such a summons could be lessened to her, his presence, his manners, his assistance, would lessen it.

The comfort of having a friend like Colonel Brandon at that moment—or a companion for her mother—was truly appreciated! A companion whose judgment would offer guidance, whose presence would provide relief, and whose friendship could offer comfort! As much as the shock of such a call could be softened for her, his presence, his demeanor, and his help would ease it.

He, meanwhile, whatever he might feel, acted with all the firmness of a collected mind, made every necessary arrangement with the utmost despatch, and calculated with exactness the time in which she might look for his return. Not a moment was lost in delay of any kind. The horses arrived, even before they were expected, and Colonel Brandon only pressing her hand with a look of solemnity, and a few words spoken too low to reach her ear, hurried into the carriage. It was then about twelve o’clock, and she returned to her sister’s apartment to wait for the arrival of the apothecary, and to watch by her the rest of the night. It was a night of almost equal suffering to both. Hour after hour passed away in sleepless pain and delirium on Marianne’s side, and in the most cruel anxiety on Elinor’s, before Mr. Harris appeared. Her apprehensions once raised, paid by their excess for all her former security; and the servant who sat up with her, for she would not allow Mrs. Jennings to be called, only tortured her more, by hints of what her mistress had always thought.

He, no matter how he felt inside, acted with complete composure, made all the necessary arrangements as quickly as possible, and calculated precisely when she could expect him back. Not a single moment was wasted in any kind of delay. The horses arrived even earlier than anticipated, and Colonel Brandon simply pressed her hand with a serious look and said a few words softly enough that she couldn’t hear, then hurried into the carriage. It was around twelve o’clock, and she went back to her sister’s room to wait for the apothecary and to stay by her side for the rest of the night. It was a night of nearly equal suffering for both of them. Hour after hour dragged on with Marianne in sleepless pain and delirium, while Elinor endured the most agonizing anxiety, before Mr. Harris finally showed up. Once her worries were stirred up, they overshadowed any previous sense of relief; and the servant who stayed up with her—since she wouldn’t let Mrs. Jennings be called—only added to her distress with hints of what her mistress had always believed.

Marianne’s ideas were still, at intervals, fixed incoherently on her mother, and whenever she mentioned her name, it gave a pang to the heart of poor Elinor, who, reproaching herself for having trifled with so many days of illness, and wretched for some immediate relief, fancied that all relief might soon be in vain, that every thing had been delayed too long, and pictured to herself her suffering mother arriving too late to see this darling child, or to see her rational.

Marianne's thoughts occasionally turned aimlessly to her mother, and every time she mentioned her name, it hurt poor Elinor's heart. Elinor scolded herself for wasting so many days while her mother was sick, and feeling desperate for some immediate relief, she feared that any help might come too late. She envisioned her suffering mother arriving just in time to see her beloved child, but not in a state to understand her.

She was on the point of sending again for Mr. Harris, or if he could not come, for some other advice, when the former—but not till after five o’clock—arrived. His opinion, however, made some little amends for his delay, for though acknowledging a very unexpected and unpleasant alteration in his patient, he would not allow the danger to be material, and talked of the relief which a fresh mode of treatment must procure, with a confidence which, in a lesser degree, was communicated to Elinor. He promised to call again in the course of three or four hours, and left both the patient and her anxious attendant more composed than he had found them.

She was just about to call Mr. Harris again, or if he couldn't come, seek some other advice, when he finally arrived—but not until after five o’clock. His opinion, however, somewhat made up for the wait, because even though he acknowledged a surprising and unpleasant change in his patient, he didn't think the danger was significant. He spoke with confidence about how a new treatment could provide relief, which somewhat eased Elinor’s worries. He promised to check back in three or four hours and left both the patient and her anxious caregiver feeling more at ease than when he arrived.

With strong concern, and with many reproaches for not being called to their aid, did Mrs. Jennings hear in the morning of what had passed. Her former apprehensions, now with greater reason restored, left her no doubt of the event; and though trying to speak comfort to Elinor, her conviction of her sister’s danger would not allow her to offer the comfort of hope. Her heart was really grieved. The rapid decay, the early death of a girl so young, so lovely as Marianne, must have struck a less interested person with concern. On Mrs. Jennings’s compassion she had other claims. She had been for three months her companion, was still under her care, and she was known to have been greatly injured, and long unhappy. The distress of her sister too, particularly a favourite, was before her;—and as for their mother, when Mrs. Jennings considered that Marianne might probably be to her what Charlotte was to herself, her sympathy in her sufferings was very sincere.

With great concern and a lot of frustration for not being called to help, Mrs. Jennings learned in the morning about what had happened. Her previous worries, now more justified, left her certain about the situation; and even though she tried to comfort Elinor, her belief in her sister’s danger prevented her from offering any hope. She was truly heartbroken. The rapid decline and early death of a girl so young and beautiful as Marianne would have impacted even someone less involved. Mrs. Jennings had other reasons for her compassion. She had been Marianne’s companion for three months, was still looking after her, and everyone knew she had suffered greatly and been unhappy for a long time. The distress of Elinor, especially as a favorite, was also on her mind;—and when Mrs. Jennings thought that Marianne might be to her what Charlotte was to herself, her sympathy for her pain was very genuine.

Mr. Harris was punctual in his second visit;—but he came to be disappointed in his hopes of what the last would produce. His medicines had failed;—the fever was unabated; and Marianne only more quiet—not more herself—remained in a heavy stupor. Elinor, catching all, and more than all, his fears in a moment, proposed to call in further advice. But he judged it unnecessary: he had still something more to try, some more fresh application, of whose success he was as confident as the last, and his visit concluded with encouraging assurances which reached the ear, but could not enter the heart of Miss Dashwood. She was calm, except when she thought of her mother; but she was almost hopeless; and in this state she continued till noon, scarcely stirring from her sister’s bed, her thoughts wandering from one image of grief, one suffering friend to another, and her spirits oppressed to the utmost by the conversation of Mrs. Jennings, who scrupled not to attribute the severity and danger of this attack to the many weeks of previous indisposition which Marianne’s disappointment had brought on. Elinor felt all the reasonableness of the idea, and it gave fresh misery to her reflections.

Mr. Harris was on time for his second visit, but he was disappointed by what the last one had brought. His treatments hadn’t worked; the fever was still there, and Marianne remained quiet—not more like herself—lost in a deep stupor. Elinor, sensing all his fears and more, suggested they get additional advice. However, he thought it unnecessary; he still had something else to try, a new treatment he was confident would work just like the last one. His visit ended with encouraging words that were heard but couldn’t reach Miss Dashwood’s heart. She was calm, except when thoughts of her mother crossed her mind; yet, she felt almost hopeless. She remained in this state until noon, hardly moving from her sister's bed, her thoughts drifting from one scene of sorrow and one suffering friend to another. Her spirits were weighed down by Mrs. Jennings’ conversation, who did not hesitate to blame the severity and danger of Marianne's condition on the weeks of illness that her disappointment had caused. Elinor understood the validity of this idea, and it only added to her misery.

About noon, however, she began—but with a caution—a dread of disappointment which for some time kept her silent, even to her friend—to fancy, to hope she could perceive a slight amendment in her sister’s pulse;—she waited, watched, and examined it again and again;—and at last, with an agitation more difficult to bury under exterior calmness, than all her foregoing distress, ventured to communicate her hopes. Mrs. Jennings, though forced, on examination, to acknowledge a temporary revival, tried to keep her young friend from indulging a thought of its continuance;—and Elinor, conning over every injunction of distrust, told herself likewise not to hope. But it was too late. Hope had already entered; and feeling all its anxious flutter, she bent over her sister to watch—she hardly knew for what. Half an hour passed away, and the favourable symptom yet blessed her. Others even arose to confirm it. Her breath, her skin, her lips, all flattered Elinor with signs of amendment; and Marianne fixed her eyes on her with a rational, though languid, gaze. Anxiety and hope now oppressed her in equal degrees, and left her no moment of tranquillity till the arrival of Mr. Harris at four o’clock;—when his assurances, his felicitations on a recovery in her sister even surpassing his expectation, gave her confidence, comfort, and tears of joy.

About noon, however, she began—but cautiously—feeling a fear of disappointment that kept her quiet for a while, even with her friend. She couldn't help but think and hope that she noticed a small improvement in her sister’s pulse. She waited, watched, and checked it over and over, and finally, with a nervousness that was harder to hide than all her previous distress, she dared to share her hopes. Mrs. Jennings, though forced to admit that there was a temporary improvement upon examination, tried to discourage her young friend from getting her hopes up about it lasting. Elinor, reflecting on every warning of doubt, told herself not to hope either. But it was too late. Hope had already crept in, and feeling all its anxious flutter, she leaned over her sister to watch—she hardly knew why. Half an hour went by, and the positive sign still brought her joy. More signs even appeared to confirm it. Her breathing, her skin, her lips all gave Elinor signs of improvement, and Marianne fixed her eyes on her with a clear, though tired, gaze. Anxiety and hope now weighed on her equally, leaving her no moment of peace until Mr. Harris arrived at four o’clock; when his reassurances and his congratulations on her sister’s recovery, which exceeded his expectations, gave her confidence, comfort, and tears of joy.

Marianne was in every respect materially better, and he declared her entirely out of danger. Mrs. Jennings, perhaps satisfied with the partial justification of her forebodings which had been found in their late alarm, allowed herself to trust in his judgment, and admitted, with unfeigned joy, and soon with unequivocal cheerfulness, the probability of an entire recovery.

Marianne was definitely doing better, and he said she was completely out of danger. Mrs. Jennings, maybe feeling a bit validated by her earlier worries from their recent scare, decided to trust his judgment. She accepted, with genuine happiness and eventually with clear cheerfulness, the likelihood of a full recovery.

Elinor could not be cheerful. Her joy was of a different kind, and led to any thing rather than to gaiety. Marianne restored to life, health, friends, and to her doting mother, was an idea to fill her heart with sensations of exquisite comfort, and expand it in fervent gratitude;—but it led to no outward demonstrations of joy, no words, no smiles. All within Elinor’s breast was satisfaction, silent and strong.

Elinor couldn’t feel cheerfulness. Her happiness was different and didn’t lead to anything lighthearted. The thought of Marianne being back to life, healthy, with friends and their loving mother filled her with deep comfort and overwhelming gratitude—but it didn’t bring any outward signs of joy, no words, no smiles. All that Elinor felt inside was a silent and powerful sense of satisfaction.

She continued by the side of her sister, with little intermission the whole afternoon, calming every fear, satisfying every inquiry of her enfeebled spirits, supplying every succour, and watching almost every look and every breath. The possibility of a relapse would of course, in some moments, occur to remind her of what anxiety was—but when she saw, on her frequent and minute examination, that every symptom of recovery continued, and saw Marianne at six o’clock sink into a quiet, steady, and to all appearance comfortable, sleep, she silenced every doubt.

She stayed by her sister's side for most of the afternoon, easing every fear, answering every question of her weakened spirit, providing support, and paying attention to every look and every breath. The chance of a relapse would occasionally remind her of what anxiety felt like—but when she saw, after her frequent and careful checks, that all signs of recovery were still there, and watched Marianne at six o’clock drift into a peaceful, steady, and seemingly comfortable sleep, she put aside all doubts.

The time was now drawing on, when Colonel Brandon might be expected back. At ten o’clock, she trusted, or at least not much later her mother would be relieved from the dreadful suspense in which she must now be travelling towards them. The Colonel, too!—perhaps scarcely less an object of pity!—Oh!—how slow was the progress of time which yet kept them in ignorance!

The time was now getting closer for Colonel Brandon's return. By ten o’clock, she hoped, or at least not much later, her mother would be free from the terrible anxiety she must be feeling as she made her way to them. The Colonel, too!—maybe not much less deserving of sympathy!—Oh!—how slowly time moved while they remained in the dark!

At seven o’clock, leaving Marianne still sweetly asleep, she joined Mrs. Jennings in the drawing-room to tea. Of breakfast she had been kept by her fears, and of dinner by their sudden reverse, from eating much;—and the present refreshment, therefore, with such feelings of content as she brought to it, was particularly welcome. Mrs. Jennings would have persuaded her, at its conclusion, to take some rest before her mother’s arrival, and allow her to take her place by Marianne; but Elinor had no sense of fatigue, no capability of sleep at that moment about her, and she was not to be kept away from her sister an unnecessary instant. Mrs. Jennings therefore attending her up stairs into the sick chamber, to satisfy herself that all continued right, left her there again to her charge and her thoughts, and retired to her own room to write letters and sleep.

At seven o’clock, leaving Marianne still peacefully asleep, she joined Mrs. Jennings in the living room for tea. She had avoided breakfast because of her worries, and dinner had been cut short by unexpected events, so the current refreshment, along with the feelings of content she brought to it, was especially welcome. Mrs. Jennings tried to convince her, once they were done, to rest before their mother arrived and let her take over with Marianne; but Elinor didn't feel tired, nor did she have any desire to sleep at that moment, and she wasn’t going to stay away from her sister for even a second longer than necessary. So, Mrs. Jennings went upstairs with her to the sick room, to make sure everything was okay, then left her there to take care of her sister and her own thoughts, and went back to her own room to write letters and get some sleep.

The night was cold and stormy. The wind roared round the house, and the rain beat against the windows; but Elinor, all happiness within, regarded it not. Marianne slept through every blast; and the travellers—they had a rich reward in store, for every present inconvenience.

The night was cold and stormy. The wind howled around the house, and the rain pounded against the windows; but Elinor, filled with happiness inside, paid no attention. Marianne slept through every gust; and the travelers—they had a great reward ahead of them for every current discomfort.

The clock struck eight. Had it been ten, Elinor would have been convinced that at that moment she heard a carriage driving up to the house; and so strong was the persuasion that she did, in spite of the almost impossibility of their being already come, that she moved into the adjoining dressing-closet and opened a window shutter, to be satisfied of the truth. She instantly saw that her ears had not deceived her. The flaring lamps of a carriage were immediately in view. By their uncertain light she thought she could discern it to be drawn by four horses; and this, while it told the excess of her poor mother’s alarm, gave some explanation to such unexpected rapidity.

The clock struck eight. If it had been ten, Elinor would have been sure she heard a carriage pulling up to the house; and the feeling was so strong that she really thought she did, even though it seemed almost impossible that they could have arrived already. She stepped into the nearby dressing closet and opened a window shutter to confirm the truth. She quickly realized her ears hadn’t tricked her. The bright lamps of a carriage were right in front of her. In their dim light, she thought she could make out that it was being pulled by four horses; and while that indicated just how worried her poor mother was, it also explained the unexpected speed of their arrival.

Never in her life had Elinor found it so difficult to be calm, as at that moment. The knowledge of what her mother must be feeling as the carriage stopt at the door—of her doubt—her dread—perhaps her despair!—and of what she had to tell!—with such knowledge it was impossible to be calm. All that remained to be done was to be speedy; and, therefore staying only till she could leave Mrs. Jennings’s maid with her sister, she hurried down stairs.

Never in her life had Elinor found it so hard to stay calm as she did at that moment. Knowing what her mother must be feeling as the carriage stopped at the door—her doubt, her fear, maybe even her despair!—and what she had to share! With that knowledge, it was impossible to be calm. All she could do was hurry; so, after briefly staying to leave Mrs. Jennings’s maid with her sister, she rushed downstairs.

The bustle in the vestibule, as she passed along an inner lobby, assured her that they were already in the house. She rushed to the drawing-room,—she entered it,—and saw only Willoughby.

The noise in the entrance area, as she walked through an inner hall, confirmed that they were already inside the house. She hurried to the living room—she stepped inside—and saw only Willoughby.

CHAPTER XLIV.

Elinor, starting back with a look of horror at the sight of him, obeyed the first impulse of her heart in turning instantly to quit the room, and her hand was already on the lock, when its action was suspended by his hastily advancing, and saying, in a voice rather of command than supplication,

Elinor recoiled in shock at the sight of him, instantly following her first instinct to leave the room. Her hand was already on the lock when he quickly stepped forward and said, in a tone more authoritative than pleading,

“Miss Dashwood, for half an hour—for ten minutes—I entreat you to stay.”

“Miss Dashwood, please stay for half an hour—just for ten minutes, I beg you.”

“No, sir,” she replied with firmness, “I shall not stay. Your business cannot be with me. The servants, I suppose, forgot to tell you that Mr. Palmer was not in the house.”

“No, sir,” she replied firmly, “I will not stay. Your business isn’t with me. I guess the servants forgot to mention that Mr. Palmer isn’t in the house.”

“Had they told me,” he cried with vehemence, “that Mr. Palmer and all his relations were at the devil, it would not have turned me from the door. My business is with you, and only you.”

“Had they told me,” he shouted passionately, “that Mr. Palmer and all his relatives were in hell, it wouldn’t have kept me from coming here. My focus is on you, and only you.”

“With me!”—in the utmost amazement—“well, sir,—be quick—and if you can—less violent.”

“With me!”—in complete astonishment—“well, sir,—hurry up—and if you can—less aggression.”

“Sit down, and I will be both.”

“Sit down, and I'll be both.”

She hesitated; she knew not what to do. The possibility of Colonel Brandon’s arriving and finding her there, came across her. But she had promised to hear him, and her curiosity no less than her honor was engaged. After a moment’s recollection, therefore, concluding that prudence required dispatch, and that her acquiescence would best promote it, she walked silently towards the table, and sat down. He took the opposite chair, and for half a minute not a word was said by either.

She hesitated; she didn’t know what to do. The thought of Colonel Brandon arriving and finding her there crossed her mind. But she had promised to listen to him, and her curiosity as much as her honor was on the line. After a moment of reflection, deciding that being wise meant acting quickly, and that her agreeing would help with that, she walked quietly to the table and sat down. He took the chair across from her, and for half a minute, neither of them said a word.

“Pray be quick, sir,”—said Elinor, impatiently;—“I have no time to spare.”

“Please hurry, sir,” Elinor said impatiently. “I don’t have time to waste.”

He was sitting in an attitude of deep meditation, and seemed not to hear her.

He was sitting in a deep state of meditation and didn’t seem to hear her.

“Your sister,” said he, with abruptness, a moment afterwards—“is out of danger. I heard it from the servant. God be praised!—But is it true? is it really true?”

“Your sister,” he said abruptly a moment later, “is out of danger. I heard it from the servant. Thank God!—But is it true? Is it really true?”

Elinor would not speak. He repeated the inquiry with yet greater eagerness.

Elinor wouldn’t say anything. He asked the question again, even more eagerly.

“For God’s sake tell me, is she out of danger, or is she not?”

“For God’s sake, tell me, is she out of danger or not?”

“We hope she is.”

"Hope she is."

He rose up, and walked across the room.

He got up and walked across the room.

“Had I known as much half an hour ago;—but since I am here,” speaking with a forced vivacity as he returned to his seat,—“what does it signify? For once, Miss Dashwood—it will be the last time, perhaps—let us be cheerful together. I am in a fine mood for gaiety. Tell me honestly” a deeper glow overspreading his cheeks, “do you think me most a knave or a fool?”

“Had I known this half an hour ago;—but since I am here,” he said, forcing a cheerful tone as he returned to his seat,—“what does it matter? For once, Miss Dashwood—it might be the last time—let’s enjoy ourselves together. I’m in a great mood for fun. Tell me honestly,” a deeper blush spreading across his cheeks, “do you think I’m more of a knave or a fool?”

Elinor looked at him with greater astonishment than ever. She began to think that he must be in liquor;—the strangeness of such a visit, and of such manners, seemed no otherwise intelligible; and with this impression she immediately rose, saying,

Elinor looked at him with more astonishment than ever. She started to think that he must be drunk;—the oddity of such a visit and those manners seemed to make sense only that way. With this thought in mind, she immediately stood up, saying,

“Mr. Willoughby, I advise you at present to return to Combe. I am not at leisure to remain with you longer. Whatever your business may be with me, it will be better recollected and explained to-morrow.”

“Mr. Willoughby, I recommend that you go back to Combe for now. I can’t stay with you any longer. Whatever you need to discuss with me will be better remembered and explained tomorrow.”

“I understand you,” he replied, with an expressive smile, and a voice perfectly calm; “yes, I am very drunk. A pint of porter with my cold beef at Marlborough was enough to over-set me.”

“I get you,” he said with a knowing smile and a completely calm voice; “yeah, I’m pretty drunk. A pint of porter with my cold beef at Marlborough was enough to tip me over the edge.”

“At Marlborough!”—cried Elinor, more and more at a loss to understand what he would be at.

“At Marlborough!” Elinor exclaimed, increasingly confused about what he meant.

“Yes,—I left London this morning at eight o’clock, and the only ten minutes I have spent out of my chaise since that time procured me a nuncheon at Marlborough.”

"Yeah, I left London this morning at eight o'clock, and the only ten minutes I've spent out of my carriage since then got me a snack in Marlborough."

The steadiness of his manner, and the intelligence of his eye as he spoke, convincing Elinor, that whatever other unpardonable folly might bring him to Cleveland, he was not brought there by intoxication, she said, after a moment’s recollection,

The steadiness of his demeanor and the intelligence in his eyes as he spoke convinced Elinor that, no matter what other unforgivable mistake might have brought him to Cleveland, it wasn't due to drinking, she said after a moment of reflection,

“Mr. Willoughby, you ought to feel, and I certainly do, that after what has passed, your coming here in this manner, and forcing yourself upon my notice, requires a very particular excuse. What is it, that you mean by it?”

“Mr. Willoughby, you should feel, and I definitely do, that after everything that has happened, your coming here like this and pushing yourself into my attention needs a very specific explanation. What do you mean by this?”

“I mean,” said he, with serious energy, “if I can, to make you hate me one degree less than you do now. I mean to offer some kind of explanation, some kind of apology, for the past; to open my whole heart to you, and by convincing you, that though I have been always a blockhead, I have not been always a rascal, to obtain something like forgiveness from Ma— from your sister.”

“I mean,” he said with serious determination, “if I can, to make you hate me just a little less than you do now. I want to give some kind of explanation, some kind of apology for the past; to open my entire heart to you, and by convincing you that even though I’ve always been foolish, I haven’t always been a villain, to earn something like forgiveness from Ma— from your sister.”

“Is this the real reason of your coming?”

“Is this the real reason you came?”

“Upon my soul it is,”—was his answer, with a warmth which brought all the former Willoughby to her remembrance, and in spite of herself made her think him sincere.

"Absolutely, it is," he replied, with a warmth that reminded her of the old Willoughby and, despite herself, made her believe he was sincere.

“If that is all, you may be satisfied already; for Marianne does, she has long forgiven you.”

“If that’s all, you might already be satisfied; because Marianne does, she has long forgiven you.”

“Has she?” he cried, in the same eager tone. “Then she has forgiven me before she ought to have done it. But she shall forgive me again, and on more reasonable grounds. Now will you listen to me?”

“Has she?” he exclaimed, in the same eager tone. “Then she has forgiven me before she should have. But she will forgive me again, and for better reasons. Now will you listen to me?”

Elinor bowed her assent.

Elinor nodded in agreement.

“I do not know,” said he, after a pause of expectation on her side, and thoughtfulness on his own, “how you may have accounted for my behaviour to your sister, or what diabolical motive you may have imputed to me. Perhaps you will hardly think the better of me,—it is worth the trial however, and you shall hear every thing. When I first became intimate in your family, I had no other intention, no other view in the acquaintance than to pass my time pleasantly while I was obliged to remain in Devonshire, more pleasantly than I had ever done before. Your sister’s lovely person and interesting manners could not but please me; and her behaviour to me almost from the first, was of a kind—it is astonishing, when I reflect on what it was, and what she was, that my heart should have been so insensible! But at first I must confess, my vanity only was elevated by it. Careless of her happiness, thinking only of my own amusement, giving way to feelings which I had always been too much in the habit of indulging, I endeavoured, by every means in my power, to make myself pleasing to her, without any design of returning her affection.”

“I don’t know,” he said, after a moment of expectation from her and thoughtfulness from him, “how you might have explained my behavior to your sister or what sinister motive you might have attributed to me. You probably won’t think any better of me—but it’s worth a try, so I’ll tell you everything. When I first got close to your family, I had no other intention or goal in forming this connection than to enjoy my time while I was stuck in Devonshire, more pleasantly than I ever had before. Your sister’s beautiful looks and engaging personality were impossible not to admire, and her behavior toward me from the start was such—it’s astonishing, thinking back on it, how I could be so oblivious! But at first, I must admit, I was only flattered by it. Ignoring her happiness and only focused on my own enjoyment, indulging in feelings that I was used to, I tried in every way I could to win her affection, with no intention of returning her feelings.”

Miss Dashwood, at this point, turning her eyes on him with the most angry contempt, stopped him, by saying,

Miss Dashwood, at this point, turned her eyes on him with the most furious disdain and interrupted him by saying,

“It is hardly worth while, Mr. Willoughby, for you to relate, or for me to listen any longer. Such a beginning as this cannot be followed by any thing. Do not let me be pained by hearing any thing more on the subject.”

“It’s really not worth it, Mr. Willoughby, for you to go on or for me to keep listening. A start like this can’t lead to anything good. Please don’t make me uncomfortable by bringing it up again.”

“I insist on you hearing the whole of it,” he replied, “My fortune was never large, and I had always been expensive, always in the habit of associating with people of better income than myself. Every year since my coming of age, or even before, I believe, had added to my debts; and though the death of my old cousin, Mrs. Smith, was to set me free; yet that event being uncertain, and possibly far distant, it had been for some time my intention to re-establish my circumstances by marrying a woman of fortune. To attach myself to your sister, therefore, was not a thing to be thought of; and with a meanness, selfishness, cruelty, which no indignant, no contemptuous look, even of yours, Miss Dashwood, can ever reprobate too much,—I was acting in this manner, trying to engage her regard, without a thought of returning it. But one thing may be said for me: even in that horrid state of selfish vanity, I did not know the extent of the injury I meditated, because I did not then know what it was to love. But have I ever known it? Well may it be doubted; for, had I really loved, could I have sacrificed my feelings to vanity, to avarice? or, what is more, could I have sacrificed hers? But I have done it. To avoid a comparative poverty, which her affection and her society would have deprived of all its horrors, I have, by raising myself to affluence, lost every thing that could make it a blessing.”

“I insist that you hear the whole story,” he replied. “My fortunes were never great, and I’ve always been expensive, always surrounding myself with people who had more money than I did. Every year since I came of age, or even before, I believe, my debts have only grown; and although the death of my old cousin, Mrs. Smith, was supposed to set me free, that event was uncertain and likely far off. For some time, I had planned to restore my situation by marrying a wealthy woman. Therefore, getting attached to your sister wasn’t a feasible idea; and with a meanness, selfishness, and cruelty that no look of indignation or contempt from you, Miss Dashwood, could ever condemn enough, I acted in this way, trying to win her affection without any intention of returning it. But one thing can be said for me: even in that dreadful state of selfish vanity, I didn’t realize the extent of the harm I was causing because I didn’t understand what love truly was. But have I ever really known it? It’s worth questioning; if I truly loved, could I have sacrificed my feelings to vanity and greed? Or, even more importantly, could I have sacrificed hers? But I have done just that. To avoid a relative poverty that her love and companionship would have made bearable, I’ve pursued wealth and lost everything that could have made it a blessing.”

“You did then,” said Elinor, a little softened, “believe yourself at one time attached to her?”

“You did then,” Elinor said, feeling a bit more understanding, “actually believe you were at one point in love with her?”

“To have resisted such attractions, to have withstood such tenderness! Is there a man on earth who could have done it? Yes, I found myself, by insensible degrees, sincerely fond of her; and the happiest hours of my life were what I spent with her when I felt my intentions were strictly honourable, and my feelings blameless. Even then, however, when fully determined on paying my addresses to her, I allowed myself most improperly to put off, from day to day, the moment of doing it, from an unwillingness to enter into an engagement while my circumstances were so greatly embarrassed. I will not reason here—nor will I stop for you to expatiate on the absurdity, and the worse than absurdity, of scrupling to engage my faith where my honour was already bound. The event has proved, that I was a cunning fool, providing with great circumspection for a possible opportunity of making myself contemptible and wretched for ever. At last, however, my resolution was taken, and I had determined, as soon as I could engage her alone, to justify the attentions I had so invariably paid her, and openly assure her of an affection which I had already taken such pains to display. But in the interim—in the interim of the very few hours that were to pass, before I could have an opportunity of speaking with her in private—a circumstance occurred—an unlucky circumstance, to ruin all my resolution, and with it all my comfort. A discovery took place,”—here he hesitated and looked down. “Mrs. Smith had somehow or other been informed, I imagine by some distant relation, whose interest it was to deprive me of her favour, of an affair, a connection—but I need not explain myself farther,” he added, looking at her with an heightened colour and an enquiring eye,—“your particular intimacy—you have probably heard the whole story long ago.”

"To have resisted such attractions, to have withstood such tenderness! Is there a man on earth who could have done that? Yes, I slowly realized that I genuinely cared for her; and the happiest hours of my life were those I spent with her when I felt my intentions were completely honorable and my feelings innocent. Even then, though, when I was fully set on pursuing her, I allowed myself to procrastinate, day by day, the moment of doing it because I was reluctant to make a commitment while my situation was so complicated. I won't analyze this here—nor will I pause for you to elaborate on the ridiculousness, and the even worse absurdity, of hesitating to commit my word where my honor was already engaged. The outcome has shown that I was a clever fool, carefully setting myself up for a chance to make myself contemptible and miserable forever. Finally, though, I made up my mind, and I planned that as soon as I could get her alone, I would justify the attentions I had consistently shown her and openly confess an affection that I had already worked hard to convey. But in the meantime—in the short hours before I could talk to her privately—a circumstance happened—an unfortunate circumstance that ruined all my resolve, taking away all my comfort. A discovery occurred,"—here he hesitated and looked down. "Mrs. Smith had somehow been informed, I think by some distant relative who wanted to undermine my chances with her, about an affair, a connection—but I don’t need to explain further," he added, looking at her with a flushed face and an inquisitive expression, "your close ties—you’ve probably heard the entire story long ago."

“I have,” returned Elinor, colouring likewise, and hardening her heart anew against any compassion for him, “I have heard it all. And how you will explain away any part of your guilt in that dreadful business, I confess is beyond my comprehension.”

“I have,” Elinor replied, blushing as well, and steeling her heart again against any sympathy for him, “I have heard everything. And how you will justify any part of your guilt in that terrible situation is honestly beyond my understanding.”

“Remember,” cried Willoughby, “from whom you received the account. Could it be an impartial one? I acknowledge that her situation and her character ought to have been respected by me. I do not mean to justify myself, but at the same time cannot leave you to suppose that I have nothing to urge—that because she was injured she was irreproachable, and because I was a libertine, she must be a saint. If the violence of her passions, the weakness of her understanding—I do not mean, however, to defend myself. Her affection for me deserved better treatment, and I often, with great self-reproach, recall the tenderness which, for a very short time, had the power of creating any return. I wish—I heartily wish it had never been. But I have injured more than herself; and I have injured one, whose affection for me (may I say it?) was scarcely less warm than hers; and whose mind—Oh! how infinitely superior!”

“Remember,” shouted Willoughby, “who gave you the account. Could it really be unbiased? I admit that her circumstances and character should have been respected by me. I don’t intend to make excuses, but I can’t let you think that I have nothing to say—that just because she was wronged, she was blameless, and because I was a libertine, she must be a saint. If we consider the intensity of her emotions and the limitations of her understanding—I still don’t mean to defend myself. Her love for me deserved better treatment, and I often, with deep regret, think back to the affection that, for a very brief time, had the power to inspire any response. I wish—I truly wish it had never happened. But I’ve hurt more than just her; I’ve also hurt someone whose love for me (may I say it?) was almost as strong as hers; and whose mind—oh! how vastly superior!”

“Your indifference, however, towards that unfortunate girl—I must say it, unpleasant to me as the discussion of such a subject may well be—your indifference is no apology for your cruel neglect of her. Do not think yourself excused by any weakness, any natural defect of understanding on her side, in the wanton cruelty so evident on yours. You must have known, that while you were enjoying yourself in Devonshire pursuing fresh schemes, always gay, always happy, she was reduced to the extremest indigence.”

“Your indifference towards that unfortunate girl—I have to say it, as uncomfortable as this topic is—your indifference doesn’t excuse your cruel neglect of her. Don’t think you can justify it by any shortcomings or natural flaws on her part when the cruelty in your behavior is so obvious. You must have known that while you were having fun in Devonshire, chasing new plans, always cheerful and happy, she was left in the most desperate poverty.”

“But, upon my soul, I did not know it,” he warmly replied; “I did not recollect that I had omitted to give her my direction; and common sense might have told her how to find it out.”

“But, honestly, I had no idea,” he replied warmly; “I didn’t remember that I forgot to give her my address; and common sense should have suggested to her how to figure it out.”

“Well, sir, and what said Mrs. Smith?”

“Well, sir, what did Mrs. Smith say?”

“She taxed me with the offence at once, and my confusion may be guessed. The purity of her life, the formality of her notions, her ignorance of the world—every thing was against me. The matter itself I could not deny, and vain was every endeavour to soften it. She was previously disposed, I believe, to doubt the morality of my conduct in general, and was moreover discontented with the very little attention, the very little portion of my time that I had bestowed on her, in my present visit. In short, it ended in a total breach. By one measure I might have saved myself. In the height of her morality, good woman! she offered to forgive the past, if I would marry Eliza. That could not be—and I was formally dismissed from her favour and her house. The night following this affair—I was to go the next morning—was spent by me in deliberating on what my future conduct should be. The struggle was great—but it ended too soon. My affection for Marianne, my thorough conviction of her attachment to me—it was all insufficient to outweigh that dread of poverty, or get the better of those false ideas of the necessity of riches, which I was naturally inclined to feel, and expensive society had increased. I had reason to believe myself secure of my present wife, if I chose to address her, and I persuaded myself to think that nothing else in common prudence remained for me to do. A heavy scene however awaited me, before I could leave Devonshire;—I was engaged to dine with you on that very day; some apology was therefore necessary for my breaking this engagement. But whether I should write this apology, or deliver it in person, was a point of long debate. To see Marianne, I felt, would be dreadful, and I even doubted whether I could see her again, and keep to my resolution. In that point, however, I undervalued my own magnanimity, as the event declared; for I went, I saw her, and saw her miserable, and left her miserable—and left her hoping never to see her again.”

“She confronted me about the wrongdoing immediately, and it’s easy to imagine my confusion. The purity of her life, her rigid views, her ignorance of the world—everything was against me. I couldn’t deny the problem itself, and every attempt to downplay it was futile. I think she was already inclined to question the morality of my behavior overall and was also unhappy with the little attention and time I had given her during this visit. In short, it led to a complete fallout. There was one thing that could have saved me. In the height of her morality, poor woman! she offered to forgive everything if I would marry Eliza. That was not an option—and I was formally dismissed from her favor and her home. The night after that incident—I was supposed to leave the next morning—I spent deliberating on what my future actions should be. The struggle was intense—but it ended too quickly. My love for Marianne and my strong belief in her feelings for me were not enough to outweigh my fear of poverty or overcome the misguided notions I had about the need for wealth, which I naturally felt and that expensive society had amplified. I had reason to believe I could secure my current wife, if I chose to pursue her, and I convinced myself that this was the only sensible course of action left. However, a tough scene awaited me before I could leave Devonshire; I was scheduled to have dinner with you that very day; therefore, I needed to come up with some excuse for breaking this commitment. But whether I should write this excuse or deliver it in person took a long time to decide. Seeing Marianne, I felt, would be awful, and I even doubted whether I could face her again and stick to my decision. On that point, though, I underestimated my own courage, as events would show; I went, I saw her, and saw her unhappy, and left her unhappy—and left her hoping never to see her again.”

“Why did you call, Mr. Willoughby?” said Elinor, reproachfully; “a note would have answered every purpose. Why was it necessary to call?”

“Why did you call, Mr. Willoughby?” Elinor asked, disappointed. “A note would have been fine. Why was it necessary to come in person?”

“It was necessary to my own pride. I could not bear to leave the country in a manner that might lead you, or the rest of the neighbourhood, to suspect any part of what had really passed between Mrs. Smith and myself—and I resolved therefore on calling at the cottage, in my way to Honiton. The sight of your dear sister, however, was really dreadful; and, to heighten the matter, I found her alone. You were all gone I do not know where. I had left her only the evening before, so fully, so firmly resolved within my self on doing right! A few hours were to have engaged her to me for ever; and I remember how happy, how gay were my spirits, as I walked from the cottage to Allenham, satisfied with myself, delighted with every body! But in this, our last interview of friendship, I approached her with a sense of guilt that almost took from me the power of dissembling. Her sorrow, her disappointment, her deep regret, when I told her that I was obliged to leave Devonshire so immediately—I never shall forget it—united too with such reliance, such confidence in me!—Oh, God!—what a hard-hearted rascal I was!”

“It was important for my own pride. I couldn’t stand the thought of leaving the country in a way that might make you or the rest of the neighborhood suspect anything about what had really happened between Mrs. Smith and me—and so I decided to stop by the cottage on my way to Honiton. But seeing your dear sister was truly awful; and to make things worse, I found her alone. You had all gone somewhere I didn’t know. I had left her just the evening before, so completely and resolutely committed to doing what was right! A few hours were supposed to have made her mine forever; and I remember how happy and lighthearted I felt as I walked from the cottage to Allenham, pleased with myself and everyone around me! But in this, our final meeting of friendship, I approached her with a sense of guilt that almost took away my ability to pretend. Her sorrow, her disappointment, her deep regret when I told her I had to leave Devonshire so suddenly—I will never forget it—combined with such trust, such faith in me!—Oh, God!—what a heartless jerk I was!”

They were both silent for a few moments. Elinor first spoke.

They were both quiet for a few moments. Elinor spoke first.

“Did you tell her that you should soon return?”

“Did you tell her that you'll be back soon?”

“I do not know what I told her,” he replied, impatiently; “less than was due to the past, beyond a doubt, and in all likelihood much more than was justified by the future. I cannot think of it.—It won’t do.—Then came your dear mother to torture me farther, with all her kindness and confidence. Thank Heaven! it did torture me. I was miserable. Miss Dashwood, you cannot have an idea of the comfort it gives me to look back on my own misery. I owe such a grudge to myself for the stupid, rascally folly of my own heart, that all my past sufferings under it are only triumph and exultation to me now. Well, I went, left all that I loved, and went to those to whom, at best, I was only indifferent. My journey to town—travelling with my own horses, and therefore so tediously—no creature to speak to—my own reflections so cheerful—when I looked forward every thing so inviting!—when I looked back at Barton, the picture so soothing!—oh, it was a blessed journey!”

“I have no idea what I told her,” he replied, impatiently; “definitely less than I owed to the past, and probably much more than was justified by the future. I can’t think about it.—It’s no use.—Then your lovely mother came to torture me even more with her kindness and trust. Thank goodness! it really did torture me. I was miserable. Miss Dashwood, you can’t imagine how comforting it is to reflect on my own misery. I hold such a grudge against myself for the foolishness of my own heart that all my past suffering because of it feels like triumph and joy to me now. Well, I went, leaving everything I loved behind, and headed toward people who, at best, saw me as just okay. My trip to town—traveling with my own horses, making it so tedious—no one to talk to—my own thoughts so cheerful—everything looking so inviting when I looked ahead!—and when I looked back at Barton, the scene was so soothing!—oh, it was a wonderful journey!”

He stopped.

He paused.

“Well, sir,” said Elinor, who, though pitying him, grew impatient for his departure, “and this is all?”

“Well, sir,” Elinor said, feeling sorry for him but also eager for him to leave, “is that all?”

“All!—no:—have you forgot what passed in town? That infamous letter? Did she show it you?”

“All!—no:—have you forgotten what happened in town? That disgraceful letter? Did she show it to you?”

“Yes, I saw every note that passed.”

“Yes, I saw every note that went by.”

“When the first of hers reached me (as it immediately did, for I was in town the whole time,) what I felt is—in the common phrase, not to be expressed; in a more simple one—perhaps too simple to raise any emotion—my feelings were very, very painful.—Every line, every word was—in the hackneyed metaphor which their dear writer, were she here, would forbid—a dagger to my heart. To know that Marianne was in town was—in the same language—a thunderbolt.—Thunderbolts and daggers!—what a reproof would she have given me!—her taste, her opinions—I believe they are better known to me than my own,—and I am sure they are dearer.”

“When the first letter from her reached me (which it did right away since I was in town the whole time), what I felt is—in common terms, impossible to express; in simpler terms—maybe too simple to stir any emotion—my feelings were incredibly painful. Every line, every word was—in the overused metaphor that their beloved writer, if she were here, would have forbidden—a dagger to my heart. Knowing that Marianne was in town was—using the same expression—a thunderbolt. Thunderbolts and daggers!—what a scolding she would have given me!—her taste, her opinions—I believe I know them better than my own, and I am sure they are more precious to me.”

Elinor’s heart, which had undergone many changes in the course of this extraordinary conversation, was now softened again;—yet she felt it her duty to check such ideas in her companion as the last.

Elinor’s heart, which had gone through many shifts during this remarkable conversation, was now softened once more;—yet she felt it was her responsibility to rein in those thoughts in her companion as before.

“This is not right, Mr. Willoughby.—Remember that you are married. Relate only what in your conscience you think necessary for me to hear.”

“This isn't right, Mr. Willoughby. Remember that you’re married. Share only what you believe is necessary for me to hear.”

“Marianne’s note, by assuring me that I was still as dear to her as in former days,—that in spite of the many, many weeks we had been separated, she was as constant in her own feelings, and as full of faith in the constancy of mine as ever,—awakened all my remorse. I say awakened, because time and London, business and dissipation, had in some measure quieted it, and I had been growing a fine hardened villain, fancying myself indifferent to her, and chusing to fancy that she too must have become indifferent to me; talking to myself of our past attachment as a mere idle, trifling business, shrugging up my shoulders in proof of its being so, and silencing every reproach, overcoming every scruple, by secretly saying now and then, ‘I shall be heartily glad to hear she is well married.’ But this note made me know myself better. I felt that she was infinitely dearer to me than any other woman in the world, and that I was using her infamously. But every thing was then just settled between Miss Grey and me. To retreat was impossible. All that I had to do, was to avoid you both. I sent no answer to Marianne, intending by that to preserve myself from her farther notice; and for some time I was even determined not to call in Berkeley Street;—but at last, judging it wiser to affect the air of a cool, common acquaintance than anything else, I watched you all safely out of the house one morning, and left my name.”

“Marianne’s note, assuring me that I was still as dear to her as I had always been—that despite the many weeks we had been apart, she remained just as devoted to her feelings and had as much faith in the loyalty of mine as ever—made all my guilt resurface. I say 'made' because time and London, work and distractions, had somewhat quieted it, and I had started to become a hardened jerk, convincing myself that I didn’t care about her and choosing to believe that she must have become indifferent to me too; I told myself that our past relationship was just a trivial matter, shrugging my shoulders to prove it, silencing all my guilt, convincing myself now and then, 'I’ll be truly happy if she’s well married.' But this note made me realize the truth. I felt that she was far more precious to me than any other woman in the world, and I was treating her terribly. But everything was already settled between Miss Grey and me. Backing out was impossible. All I had to do was avoid you both. I didn’t reply to Marianne, intending to protect myself from her further attention; for a while, I was even set on not visiting Berkeley Street—but eventually, thinking it wiser to pretend to be a casual acquaintance than anything else, I waited until you all left the house one morning and left my name.”

“Watched us out of the house!”

"Watched us outside the house!"

“Even so. You would be surprised to hear how often I watched you, how often I was on the point of falling in with you. I have entered many a shop to avoid your sight, as the carriage drove by. Lodging as I did in Bond Street, there was hardly a day in which I did not catch a glimpse of one or other of you; and nothing but the most constant watchfulness on my side, a most invariably prevailing desire to keep out of your sight, could have separated us so long. I avoided the Middletons as much as possible, as well as everybody else who was likely to prove an acquaintance in common. Not aware of their being in town, however, I blundered on Sir John, I believe, the first day of his coming, and the day after I had called at Mrs. Jennings’s. He asked me to a party, a dance at his house in the evening. Had he not told me as an inducement that you and your sister were to be there, I should have felt it too certain a thing, to trust myself near him. The next morning brought another short note from Marianne—still affectionate, open, artless, confiding—everything that could make my conduct most hateful. I could not answer it. I tried—but could not frame a sentence. But I thought of her, I believe, every moment of the day. If you can pity me, Miss Dashwood, pity my situation as it was then. With my head and heart full of your sister, I was forced to play the happy lover to another woman! Those three or four weeks were worse than all. Well, at last, as I need not tell you, you were forced on me; and what a sweet figure I cut! what an evening of agony it was! Marianne, beautiful as an angel on one side, calling me Willoughby in such a tone! Oh, God! holding out her hand to me, asking me for an explanation, with those bewitching eyes fixed in such speaking solicitude on my face! and Sophia, jealous as the devil on the other hand, looking all that was—Well, it does not signify; it is over now. Such an evening! I ran away from you all as soon as I could; but not before I had seen Marianne’s sweet face as white as death. That was the last, last look I ever had of her; the last manner in which she appeared to me. It was a horrid sight! yet when I thought of her to-day as really dying, it was a kind of comfort to me to imagine that I knew exactly how she would appear to those, who saw her last in this world. She was before me, constantly before me, as I travelled, in the same look and hue.”

“Even so. You would be surprised to hear how often I watched you, how often I almost approached you. I entered many shops to avoid seeing you as the carriage passed by. Since I was staying on Bond Street, there was hardly a day when I didn’t catch a glimpse of either of you; and only my constant effort, my strong desire to stay out of your sight, could have kept us apart for so long. I avoided the Middletons as much as I could, along with everyone else who might be a shared acquaintance. Not knowing they were in town, I accidentally ran into Sir John, I believe, on the first day he arrived, right after I had visited Mrs. Jennings. He invited me to a party, a dance at his house that evening. Had he not mentioned that you and your sister would be there as a reason for me to go, I wouldn’t have dared to trust myself to be around him. The next morning brought another short note from Marianne—still affectionate, open, honest, trusting—everything that made my actions feel so wrong. I couldn't reply. I tried—but couldn’t form a single sentence. Yet I thought of her, I believe, every moment of the day. If you can feel sorry for me, Miss Dashwood, feel for my situation as it was then. With my head and heart consumed by your sister, I had to pretend to be a happy lover to another woman! Those three or four weeks were the worst. Eventually, as I need not tell you, you were forced upon me; and what a terrible scene I made! What an agonizing evening it was! Marianne, beautiful as an angel on one side, calling me Willoughby in such a tone! Oh, God! reaching out her hand to me, asking for an explanation, with those enchanting eyes fixed on my face in such pleading concern! And Sophia, jealous as can be on the other side, looking fierce! Well, it doesn’t matter; it’s over now. What an evening! I ran away from all of you as soon as I could; but not before I saw Marianne’s sweet face as white as a ghost. That was the last, last look I ever had of her; the last way she appeared to me. It was a dreadful sight! Yet when I thought of her today as really dying, it brought me some comfort to imagine that I knew exactly how she would appear to those who saw her last in this world. She was right in front of me, constantly in my mind, in the same look and color.”

A short pause of mutual thoughtfulness succeeded. Willoughby first rousing himself, broke it thus:

A brief moment of shared reflection followed. Willoughby, the first to shake off his thoughts, spoke up:

“Well, let me make haste and be gone. Your sister is certainly better, certainly out of danger?”

“Well, let me hurry and leave. Your sister is definitely better, definitely out of danger?”

“We are assured of it.”

“We’re sure of it.”

“Your poor mother, too!—doting on Marianne.”

"Your poor mom, too!—loving Marianne."

“But the letter, Mr. Willoughby, your own letter; have you any thing to say about that?”

“But the letter, Mr. Willoughby, your own letter; do you have anything to say about that?”

“Yes, yes, that in particular. Your sister wrote to me again, you know, the very next morning. You saw what she said. I was breakfasting at the Ellisons,—and her letter, with some others, was brought to me there from my lodgings. It happened to catch Sophia’s eye before it caught mine—and its size, the elegance of the paper, the hand-writing altogether, immediately gave her a suspicion. Some vague report had reached her before of my attachment to some young lady in Devonshire, and what had passed within her observation the preceding evening had marked who the young lady was, and made her more jealous than ever. Affecting that air of playfulness, therefore, which is delightful in a woman one loves, she opened the letter directly, and read its contents. She was well paid for her impudence. She read what made her wretched. Her wretchedness I could have borne, but her passion—her malice—At all events it must be appeased. And, in short—what do you think of my wife’s style of letter-writing?—delicate—tender—truly feminine—was it not?”

“Yes, yes, that in particular. Your sister wrote to me again, you know, the very next morning. You saw what she said. I was having breakfast at the Ellisons, and her letter, along with some others, was brought to me there from my place. It happened to catch Sophia’s eye before I noticed it—and its size, the quality of the paper, the handwriting overall, immediately made her suspicious. Some vague rumor had reached her before about my feelings for a young lady in Devon, and what she observed the night before made it clear who the young lady was, making her even more jealous. So, trying to act playful, which is so charming in a woman I love, she opened the letter right away and read its contents. She got what she deserved for being so bold. She read something that made her miserable. I could have handled her misery, but her anger—her spite—had to be addressed. And, to sum it up—what do you think of my wife’s style of letter-writing?—delicate—tender—truly feminine—wasn’t it?”

“Your wife!—The letter was in your own hand-writing.”

“Your wife!—The letter was written in your own handwriting.”

“Yes, but I had only the credit of servilely copying such sentences as I was ashamed to put my name to. The original was all her own—her own happy thoughts and gentle diction. But what could I do!—we were engaged, every thing in preparation, the day almost fixed—But I am talking like a fool. Preparation! Day! In honest words, her money was necessary to me, and in a situation like mine, any thing was to be done to prevent a rupture. And after all, what did it signify to my character in the opinion of Marianne and her friends, in what language my answer was couched? It must have been only to one end. My business was to declare myself a scoundrel, and whether I did it with a bow or a bluster was of little importance. ‘I am ruined for ever in their opinion,’ said I to myself: ‘I am shut out for ever from their society, they already think me an unprincipled fellow, this letter will only make them think me a blackguard one.’ Such were my reasonings, as, in a sort of desperate carelessness, I copied my wife’s words, and parted with the last relics of Marianne. Her three notes,—unluckily they were all in my pocketbook, or I should have denied their existence, and hoarded them for ever,—I was forced to put them up, and could not even kiss them. And the lock of hair—that too I had always carried about me in the same pocket-book, which was now searched by Madam with the most ingratiating virulence,—the dear lock,—all, every memento was torn from me.”

“Yes, but I only had the credit of passively copying sentences that I was too ashamed to put my name to. The original was all hers—her own happy thoughts and gentle wording. But what could I do? We were engaged, everything was in preparation, the day was almost set—but I'm talking like an idiot. Preparation! Day! Honestly, I needed her money, and in my situation, I’d do anything to avoid a breakup. And in the end, what did it matter to my reputation in the eyes of Marianne and her friends how I phrased my response? It could only lead to one result. My job was to declare myself a scoundrel, and whether I did it politely or with anger was of little importance. ‘I’m ruined forever in their eyes,’ I told myself: ‘I’m shut out from their society for good; they already think I’m unprincipled, and this letter will just confirm their opinion of me as a jerk.’ That was my reasoning as, in a kind of desperate apathy, I copied my wife’s words and let go of the last remnants of Marianne. Her three notes—unfortunately, they were all in my wallet, or I would have denied they existed and kept them forever—I had to put them away and couldn’t even kiss them. And the lock of hair—that too I had always carried with me in the same wallet, which was now searched by Madam with the most ingratiating hostility—the dear lock—all, every memento was ripped from me.”

“You are very wrong, Mr. Willoughby, very blamable,” said Elinor, while her voice, in spite of herself, betrayed her compassionate emotion; “you ought not to speak in this way, either of Mrs. Willoughby or my sister. You had made your own choice. It was not forced on you. Your wife has a claim to your politeness, to your respect, at least. She must be attached to you, or she would not have married you. To treat her with unkindness, to speak of her slightingly is no atonement to Marianne—nor can I suppose it a relief to your own conscience.”

“You're very wrong, Mr. Willoughby, and that's very blameworthy,” Elinor said, her voice revealing her compassion despite her efforts to stay composed. “You shouldn't speak like this, either about Mrs. Willoughby or my sister. You made your own choice; it wasn't forced on you. Your wife deserves your politeness and respect, at the very least. She must care about you or she wouldn't have married you. Being unkind to her and talking down about her doesn't make things better for Marianne, nor do I think it offers any relief to your conscience.”

“Do not talk to me of my wife,” said he with a heavy sigh; “she does not deserve your compassion. She knew I had no regard for her when we married. Well, married we were, and came down to Combe Magna to be happy, and afterwards returned to town to be gay. And now do you pity me, Miss Dashwood? Or have I said all this to no purpose? Am I,—be it only one degree,—am I less guilty in your opinion than I was before? My intentions were not always wrong. Have I explained away any part of my guilt?”

“Don’t talk to me about my wife,” he said with a heavy sigh. “She doesn’t deserve your sympathy. She knew I didn’t care for her when we got married. Well, we were married and came down to Combe Magna to be happy, then went back to town to have fun. And now do you feel sorry for me, Miss Dashwood? Or have I shared all this for no reason? Am I—if only just a little—am I less guilty in your eyes than I was before? My intentions weren’t always bad. Have I justified any part of my guilt?”

“Yes, you have certainly removed something—a little. You have proved yourself, on the whole, less faulty than I had believed you. You have proved your heart less wicked, much less wicked. But I hardly know—the misery that you have inflicted—I hardly know what could have made it worse.”

“Yes, you have definitely taken away something—a little. You have shown that, overall, you are less flawed than I initially thought. You’ve shown that your heart is less cruel, much less cruel. But I can hardly tell—the pain you have caused—it’s hard to say what could have made it worse.”

“Will you repeat to your sister when she is recovered, what I have been telling you?—Let me be a little lightened too in her opinion as well as in yours. You tell me that she has forgiven me already. Let me be able to fancy that a better knowledge of my heart, and of my present feelings, will draw from her a more spontaneous, more natural, more gentle, less dignified, forgiveness. Tell her of my misery and my penitence—tell her that my heart was never inconstant to her, and if you will, that at this moment she is dearer to me than ever.”

“Can you tell your sister when she’s feeling better what I’ve shared with you?—I’d like to be seen in a better light by her as well as by you. You mentioned that she has already forgiven me. I hope that understanding my true feelings and what I’m going through now will lead her to give me a more genuine, more natural, and kinder forgiveness—one that’s less formal. Share with her my pain and regret—let her know that I’ve always been devoted to her, and if you’d like, that right now she means more to me than ever.”

“I will tell her all that is necessary to what may comparatively be called, your justification. But you have not explained to me the particular reason of your coming now, nor how you heard of her illness.”

“I will tell her everything that’s needed for what could be considered your justification. But you haven’t explained to me why you’re here now or how you found out about her illness.”

“Last night, in Drury Lane lobby, I ran against Sir John Middleton, and when he saw who I was, for the first time these two months, he spoke to me. That he had cut me ever since my marriage, I had seen without surprise or resentment. Now, however, his good-natured, honest, stupid soul, full of indignation against me, and concern for your sister, could not resist the temptation of telling me what he knew ought to, though probably he did not think it would, vex me horridly. As bluntly as he could speak it, therefore, he told me that Marianne Dashwood was dying of a putrid fever at Cleveland—a letter that morning received from Mrs. Jennings declared her danger most imminent—the Palmers are all gone off in a fright, &c. I was too much shocked to be able to pass myself off as insensible even to the undiscerning Sir John. His heart was softened in seeing mine suffer; and so much of his ill-will was done away, that when we parted, he almost shook me by the hand while he reminded me of an old promise about a pointer puppy. What I felt on hearing that your sister was dying, and dying too, believing me the greatest villain upon earth, scorning, hating me in her latest moments—for how could I tell what horrid projects might not have been imputed? One person I was sure would represent me as capable of anything—What I felt was dreadful! My resolution was soon made, and at eight o’clock this morning I was in my carriage. Now you know all.”

“Last night, in the Drury Lane lobby, I ran into Sir John Middleton. For the first time in two months, he actually spoke to me when he realized who I was. I hadn’t been surprised or upset by his silence since my marriage. Now, however, his kind-hearted, straightforward, and clueless soul, filled with anger towards me and concern for your sister, couldn’t resist the urge to tell me something that he knew should, even if he didn’t think it would, hurt me deeply. So, as bluntly as he could, he informed me that Marianne Dashwood was dying from a severe fever in Cleveland—a letter received that morning from Mrs. Jennings warned that her situation was critical—the Palmers have all left in a panic, etc. I was too shocked to pretend to be unaffected, even to the unobservant Sir John. His heart softened when he saw my pain, and his resentment faded so much that when we parted, he nearly shook my hand while reminding me of an old promise about a pointer puppy. Hearing that your sister was dying, and thinking I was the worst villain on earth, scorned and hated by her in her final moments—how could I know what terrible things she might have imagined? I was sure there was at least one person who would paint me as capable of anything. What I felt was terrible! I quickly made up my mind, and by eight o’clock this morning, I was in my carriage. Now you know everything.”

Elinor made no answer. Her thoughts were silently fixed on the irreparable injury which too early an independence and its consequent habits of idleness, dissipation, and luxury, had made in the mind, the character, the happiness, of a man who, to every advantage of person and talents, united a disposition naturally open and honest, and a feeling, affectionate temper. The world had made him extravagant and vain—Extravagance and vanity had made him cold-hearted and selfish. Vanity, while seeking its own guilty triumph at the expense of another, had involved him in a real attachment, which extravagance, or at least its offspring, necessity, had required to be sacrificed. Each faulty propensity in leading him to evil, had led him likewise to punishment. The attachment, from which against honour, against feeling, against every better interest he had outwardly torn himself, now, when no longer allowable, governed every thought; and the connection, for the sake of which he had, with little scruple, left her sister to misery, was likely to prove a source of unhappiness to himself of a far more incurable nature. From a reverie of this kind she was recalled at the end of some minutes by Willoughby, who, rousing himself from a reverie at least equally painful, started up in preparation for going, and said—

Elinor didn't respond. Her thoughts were quietly focused on the irreversible damage that too much independence and its resulting habits of laziness, indulgence, and luxury had caused in the mind, character, and happiness of a man who, despite having great looks and talents, was naturally open, honest, and affectionate. The world had turned him into someone extravagant and vain—extravagance and vanity had made him cold and selfish. Vanity, while chasing its own guilty victories at the expense of others, had led him into a real attachment, which extravagance, or more accurately, its result, necessity, forced him to sacrifice. Each flawed tendency that led him to wrongdoing also brought him punishment. The attachment he had outwardly broken away from—against honor, against feelings, and against all better interests—now governed every thought; and the relationship for which he had, without much hesitation, left her sister in distress, was likely to become a source of unhappiness for him of a far more inescapable kind. After a few minutes lost in this daydream, Willoughby brought her back to reality. He, shaking off a similarly painful reverie, stood up, preparing to leave, and said—

“There is no use in staying here; I must be off.”

“There’s no point in sticking around; I need to get going.”

“Are you going back to town?”

“Are you heading back to town?”

“No—to Combe Magna. I have business there; from thence to town in a day or two. Good bye.”

“No—to Combe Magna. I have some work there; then I'm heading to the city in a day or two. Goodbye.”

He held out his hand. She could not refuse to give him hers;—he pressed it with affection.

He reached out his hand. She couldn't say no to giving him hers; he squeezed it gently.

“And you do think something better of me than you did?” said he, letting it fall, and leaning against the mantel-piece as if forgetting he was to go.

“And you do think better of me than you used to?” he said, dropping it and leaning against the mantelpiece as if he forgot he was supposed to leave.

Elinor assured him that she did;—that she forgave, pitied, wished him well—was even interested in his happiness—and added some gentle counsel as to the behaviour most likely to promote it. His answer was not very encouraging.

Elinor assured him that she did;—that she forgave him, felt sorry for him, wished him well—was even interested in his happiness—and offered some gentle advice on how to encourage it. His response wasn't very encouraging.

“As to that,” said he, “I must rub through the world as well as I can. Domestic happiness is out of the question. If, however, I am allowed to think that you and yours feel an interest in my fate and actions, it may be the means—it may put me on my guard—at least, it may be something to live for. Marianne to be sure is lost to me for ever. Were I even by any blessed chance at liberty again—”

“As for that,” he said, “I have to get by in the world as best as I can. Domestic happiness is totally unrealistic. However, if I can believe that you and your family care about what happens to me, it might give me a reason to be cautious—at the very least, it gives me something to live for. Marianne is definitely lost to me forever. Even if I were to somehow find myself free again—”

Elinor stopped him with a reproof.

Elinor reprimanded him.

“Well,”—he replied—“once more good bye. I shall now go away and live in dread of one event.”

“Well,” he replied, “one last goodbye. I’m leaving now and I’ll be living in fear of one thing.”

“What do you mean?”

“What do you mean?”

“Your sister’s marriage.”

"Your sister's wedding."

“You are very wrong. She can never be more lost to you than she is now.”

“You're very mistaken. She can’t be any more gone to you than she is right now.”

“But she will be gained by some one else. And if that some one should be the very he whom, of all others, I could least bear—but I will not stay to rob myself of all your compassionate goodwill, by showing that where I have most injured I can least forgive. Good bye,—God bless you!”

“But someone else will win her over. And if that someone happens to be the one person I could stand the least—but I won’t linger to take away your kindness by showing that where I’ve hurt the most, I can forgive the least. Goodbye—God bless you!”

And with these words, he almost ran out of the room.

And with those words, he nearly dashed out of the room.

CHAPTER XLV.

Elinor, for some time after he left her, for some time even after the sound of his carriage had died away, remained too much oppressed by a crowd of ideas, widely differing in themselves, but of which sadness was the general result, to think even of her sister.

Elinor, for a while after he left her, and even after the sound of his carriage had faded, was too overwhelmed by a mix of thoughts, all leading to a general sense of sadness, to think about her sister.

Willoughby, he, whom only half an hour ago she had abhorred as the most worthless of men, Willoughby, in spite of all his faults, excited a degree of commiseration for the sufferings produced by them, which made her think of him as now separated for ever from her family, with a tenderness, a regret, rather in proportion, as she soon acknowledged within herself—to his wishes than to his merits. She felt that his influence over her mind was heightened by circumstances which ought not in reason to have weight; by that person of uncommon attraction, that open, affectionate, and lively manner which it was no merit to possess; and by that still ardent love for Marianne, which it was not even innocent to indulge. But she felt that it was so, long, long before she could feel his influence less.

Willoughby, the man she had only thirty minutes ago considered the most despicable of men, somehow stirred feelings of sympathy for the pain caused by his flaws. He now seemed to her like someone permanently apart from her family, evoking tenderness and regret that she soon admitted were more about his desires than his true worth. She realized that his hold over her thoughts was intensified by factors that shouldn’t have mattered—his striking good looks, his warm, affectionate, and lively nature, which were not accomplishments to be prided upon; and his still fervent love for Marianne, which was not even a good thing to entertain. Yet she recognized this for a long time before she could lessen his influence on her.

When at last she returned to the unconscious Marianne, she found her just awaking, refreshed by so long and sweet a sleep to the extent of her hopes. Elinor’s heart was full. The past, the present, the future, Willoughby’s visit, Marianne’s safety, and her mother’s expected arrival, threw her altogether into an agitation of spirits which kept off every indication of fatigue, and made her only fearful of betraying herself to her sister. Short was the time, however, in which that fear could affect her, for within half an hour after Willoughby’s leaving the house, she was again called down stairs by the sound of another carriage.—Eager to save her mother from every unnecessary moment’s horrible suspense, she ran immediately into the hall, and reached the outward door just in time to receive and support her as she entered it.

When she finally returned to the unconscious Marianne, she found her just waking up, refreshed by such a long and sweet sleep, more than she had hoped for. Elinor’s heart was full. The past, the present, the future, Willoughby’s visit, Marianne’s safety, and her mother’s expected arrival all swirled together in a mix of emotions that pushed away any signs of tiredness and made her anxious not to reveal her feelings to her sister. However, that fear lasted only a short time; within half an hour after Willoughby had left the house, she was called downstairs again by the sound of another carriage. Eager to spare her mother from any unnecessary moments of terrible suspense, she rushed into the hall and reached the front door just in time to welcome and support her as she came in.

Mrs. Dashwood, whose terror as they drew near the house had produced almost the conviction of Marianne’s being no more, had no voice to inquire after her, no voice even for Elinor; but she, waiting neither for salutation nor inquiry, instantly gave the joyful relief; and her mother, catching it with all her usual warmth, was in a moment as much overcome by her happiness, as she had been before by her fears. She was supported into the drawing-room between her daughter and her friend; and there, shedding tears of joy, though still unable to speak, embraced Elinor again and again, turning from her at intervals to press Colonel Brandon’s hand, with a look which spoke at once her gratitude, and her conviction of his sharing with herself in the bliss of the moment. He shared it, however, in a silence even greater than her own.

Mrs. Dashwood, whose fear as they approached the house had almost convinced her that Marianne was gone, had no voice to ask about her, not even for Elinor; but she, not waiting for a greeting or question, immediately provided the joyful news. Her mother, receiving it with all her usual warmth, was quickly overwhelmed by her happiness, just as she had been previously by her fears. She was supported into the living room by her daughter and her friend; there, shedding tears of joy yet still unable to speak, she embraced Elinor over and over, turning away at times to grasp Colonel Brandon’s hand, with a look that expressed both her gratitude and her belief that he shared in the joy of the moment. However, he felt that joy in a silence even deeper than hers.

As soon as Mrs. Dashwood had recovered herself, to see Marianne was her first desire; and in two minutes she was with her beloved child, rendered dearer to her than ever by absence, unhappiness, and danger. Elinor’s delight, as she saw what each felt in the meeting, was only checked by an apprehension of its robbing Marianne of farther sleep: but Mrs. Dashwood could be calm, could be even prudent, when the life of a child was at stake, and Marianne, satisfied in knowing her mother was near her, and conscious of being too weak for conversation, submitted readily to the silence and quiet prescribed by every nurse around her. Mrs. Dashwood would sit up with her all night; and Elinor, in compliance with her mother’s entreaty, went to bed. But the rest, which one night entirely sleepless, and many hours of the most wearing anxiety seemed to make requisite, was kept off by irritation of spirits. Willoughby, “poor Willoughby,” as she now allowed herself to call him, was constantly in her thoughts; she would not but have heard his vindication for the world, and now blamed, now acquitted herself for having judged him so harshly before. But her promise of relating it to her sister was invariably painful. She dreaded the performance of it, dreaded what its effect on Marianne might be; doubted whether after such an explanation she could ever be happy with another; and for a moment wished Willoughby a widower. Then, remembering Colonel Brandon, reproved herself, felt that to his sufferings and his constancy far more than to his rival’s, the reward of her sister was due, and wished any thing rather than Mrs. Willoughby’s death.

As soon as Mrs. Dashwood collected herself, her first thought was to see Marianne; within two minutes, she was with her beloved child, who felt more precious than ever after being apart, facing unhappiness, and danger. Elinor's joy at witnessing their reunion was only tempered by her worry that it might prevent Marianne from getting more sleep. But Mrs. Dashwood could stay calm and even act sensibly when her child's life was at stake, and Marianne, comforted by her mother’s presence and aware that she was too weak for conversation, willingly accepted the silence and calm that the nurses around her insisted on. Mrs. Dashwood would stay up with her all night, and Elinor, following her mother’s plea, went to bed. However, the rest she desperately needed after one sleepless night and many hours of intense anxiety was pushed away by her restless spirit. Willoughby, “poor Willoughby,” as she now allowed herself to think of him, was constantly on her mind; she wouldn’t have missed hearing his side of the story for anything, and she alternately blamed and forgave herself for having judged him so harshly before. But the promise to share it with her sister was always painful. She dreaded facing it, feared how it might affect Marianne; she doubted whether her sister could ever be happy with anyone else after such an explanation, and for a moment wished that Willoughby were a widower. Then, remembering Colonel Brandon, she scolded herself, realizing that her sister deserved the reward for his suffering and loyalty far more than for her rival’s, and wished for anything rather than Mrs. Willoughby’s death.

The shock of Colonel Brandon’s errand at Barton had been much softened to Mrs. Dashwood by her own previous alarm; for so great was her uneasiness about Marianne, that she had already determined to set out for Cleveland on that very day, without waiting for any further intelligence, and had so far settled her journey before his arrival, that the Careys were then expected every moment to fetch Margaret away, as her mother was unwilling to take her where there might be infection.

The shock of Colonel Brandon’s visit to Barton was softened for Mrs. Dashwood by her own earlier worries; she was so anxious about Marianne that she had already decided to leave for Cleveland that very day, without waiting for any more news. She had almost finalized her plans before he arrived, and the Careys were expected at any moment to pick up Margaret, since her mother didn’t want to take her to a place where there might be an infection.

Marianne continued to mend every day, and the brilliant cheerfulness of Mrs. Dashwood’s looks and spirits proved her to be, as she repeatedly declared herself, one of the happiest women in the world. Elinor could not hear the declaration, nor witness its proofs without sometimes wondering whether her mother ever recollected Edward. But Mrs. Dashwood, trusting to the temperate account of her own disappointment which Elinor had sent her, was led away by the exuberance of her joy to think only of what would increase it. Marianne was restored to her from a danger in which, as she now began to feel, her own mistaken judgment in encouraging the unfortunate attachment to Willoughby, had contributed to place her;—and in her recovery she had yet another source of joy unthought of by Elinor. It was thus imparted to her, as soon as any opportunity of private conference between them occurred.

Marianne kept getting better every day, and the bright happiness on Mrs. Dashwood’s face and in her spirits showed her to be, as she often claimed, one of the happiest women in the world. Elinor couldn’t hear her claim or see the evidence without sometimes wondering if her mother ever thought about Edward. But Mrs. Dashwood, relying on Elinor's moderate account of her own disappointment, got so caught up in her joy that she only focused on what would make her happier. Marianne was saved from a danger that, as she was beginning to realize, her own poor judgment in encouraging the unfortunate attachment to Willoughby had helped create; and in her recovery, she had another source of joy that Elinor hadn’t considered. This was shared with her as soon as there was a chance for a private chat between them.

“At last we are alone. My Elinor, you do not yet know all my happiness. Colonel Brandon loves Marianne. He has told me so himself.”

“At last, we’re alone. My Elinor, you don’t yet know all my happiness. Colonel Brandon loves Marianne. He told me so himself.”

Her daughter, feeling by turns both pleased and pained, surprised and not surprised, was all silent attention.

Her daughter, experiencing a mix of pleasure and pain, surprise and acceptance, was completely focused and silent.

“You are never like me, dear Elinor, or I should wonder at your composure now. Had I sat down to wish for any possible good to my family, I should have fixed on Colonel Brandon’s marrying one of you as the object most desirable. And I believe Marianne will be the most happy with him of the two.”

“You’re nothing like me, dear Elinor, or I’d be surprised at your calmness right now. If I were to sit down and think of anything that could benefit my family, I would choose Colonel Brandon marrying one of you as the most desirable outcome. I truly believe Marianne will be the happier of the two with him.”

Elinor was half inclined to ask her reason for thinking so, because satisfied that none founded on an impartial consideration of their age, characters, or feelings, could be given;—but her mother must always be carried away by her imagination on any interesting subject, and therefore instead of an inquiry, she passed it off with a smile.

Elinor was somewhat tempted to ask her why she thought that, since she knew there couldn’t be any reason based on a fair evaluation of their age, personalities, or feelings. But her mom always got swept up in her imagination whenever something intriguing came up, so instead of asking, she just smiled it off.

“He opened his whole heart to me yesterday as we travelled. It came out quite unawares, quite undesignedly. I, you may well believe, could talk of nothing but my child;—he could not conceal his distress; I saw that it equalled my own, and he perhaps, thinking that mere friendship, as the world now goes, would not justify so warm a sympathy—or rather, not thinking at all, I suppose—giving way to irresistible feelings, made me acquainted with his earnest, tender, constant, affection for Marianne. He has loved her, my Elinor, ever since the first moment of seeing her.”

“He opened up his heart to me yesterday while we were traveling. It came out completely unexpectedly and without any intention. You can imagine that I could only talk about my child; he couldn’t hide his distress; I could see that it matched my own, and he might have thought that mere friendship, as people understand it today, wouldn’t justify such deep sympathy—or rather, he probably wasn’t thinking at all—overcome by his emotions, he revealed to me his deep, genuine, and unwavering love for Marianne. He has loved her, my Elinor, ever since the very first moment he saw her.”

Here, however, Elinor perceived,—not the language, not the professions of Colonel Brandon, but the natural embellishments of her mother’s active fancy, which fashioned every thing delightful to her as it chose.

Here, however, Elinor noticed—not the words, not the claims of Colonel Brandon, but the natural decorations of her mother’s lively imagination, which created everything wonderful to her as it pleased.

“His regard for her, infinitely surpassing anything that Willoughby ever felt or feigned, as much more warm, as more sincere or constant—which ever we are to call it—has subsisted through all the knowledge of dear Marianne’s unhappy prepossession for that worthless young man!—and without selfishness—without encouraging a hope!—could he have seen her happy with another—Such a noble mind!—such openness, such sincerity!—no one can be deceived in him.”

“His feelings for her far exceed anything that Willoughby ever felt or pretended to feel, being so much warmer, more genuine, and more constant—however we want to describe it—despite knowing about dear Marianne’s unfortunate infatuation with that worthless young man! And without being selfish—without fostering any hope!—could he have seen her happy with someone else—What a noble mind! What openness, what sincerity! No one can be fooled by him.”

“Colonel Brandon’s character,” said Elinor, “as an excellent man, is well established.”

“Colonel Brandon’s character,” Elinor said, “as a great man, is well established.”

“I know it is,”—replied her mother seriously, “or after such a warning, I should be the last to encourage such affection, or even to be pleased by it. But his coming for me as he did, with such active, such ready friendship, is enough to prove him one of the worthiest of men.”

“I know it is,” her mother replied seriously, “or after such a warning, I would be the last to support such affection, or even to feel good about it. But the way he came for me, with such genuine and eager friendship, shows he’s one of the most worthy men.”

“His character, however,” answered Elinor, “does not rest on one act of kindness, to which his affection for Marianne, were humanity out of the case, would have prompted him. To Mrs. Jennings, to the Middletons, he has been long and intimately known; they equally love and respect him; and even my own knowledge of him, though lately acquired, is very considerable; and so highly do I value and esteem him, that if Marianne can be happy with him, I shall be as ready as yourself to think our connection the greatest blessing to us in the world. What answer did you give him?—Did you allow him to hope?”

“His character, though,” Elinor replied, “isn't based on one act of kindness, which his feelings for Marianne, if it weren't for humanity, might have led him to do. He has been well-known to Mrs. Jennings and the Middletons for a long time; they both love and respect him. Even my own understanding of him, although new, is quite substantial; I value and respect him so much that if Marianne can be happy with him, I would be just as willing as you to see our connection as the greatest blessing in the world. What did you say to him?—Did you let him hope?”

“Oh! my love, I could not then talk of hope to him or to myself. Marianne might at that moment be dying. But he did not ask for hope or encouragement. His was an involuntary confidence, an irrepressible effusion to a soothing friend, not an application to a parent. Yet after a time I did say, for at first I was quite overcome, that if she lived, as I trusted she might, my greatest happiness would lie in promoting their marriage; and since our arrival, since our delightful security, I have repeated it to him more fully, have given him every encouragement in my power. Time, a very little time, I tell him, will do everything; Marianne’s heart is not to be wasted for ever on such a man as Willoughby. His own merits must soon secure it.”

“Oh! my love, I couldn't talk about hope to him or to myself back then. Marianne might have been dying at that moment. But he didn’t ask for hope or encouragement. It was more of an involuntary trust, a heartfelt expression to a comforting friend, not a plea to a parent. Yet after a while, I did say, though at first I was completely overwhelmed, that if she lived, as I hoped she would, my greatest joy would be in helping them get married; and since our arrival, since our wonderful sense of security, I've told him more clearly, giving him every encouragement I could. I tell him that a little time will change everything; Marianne's heart won't be wasted forever on someone like Willoughby. His own qualities will soon win her over.”

“To judge from the Colonel’s spirits, however, you have not yet made him equally sanguine.”

“To judge by the Colonel’s mood, it seems you haven't made him as optimistic yet.”

“No. He thinks Marianne’s affection too deeply rooted for any change in it under a great length of time, and even supposing her heart again free, is too diffident of himself to believe, that with such a difference of age and disposition he could ever attach her. There, however, he is quite mistaken. His age is only so much beyond hers as to be an advantage, as to make his character and principles fixed; and his disposition, I am well convinced, is exactly the very one to make your sister happy. And his person, his manners too, are all in his favour. My partiality does not blind me; he certainly is not so handsome as Willoughby; but at the same time, there is something much more pleasing in his countenance. There was always a something, if you remember, in Willoughby’s eyes at times, which I did not like.”

“No. He believes Marianne’s feelings are too deeply established to change even over a long period, and even if her heart were free again, he’s too unsure of himself to think he could ever win her over because of their age and personality differences. However, he’s completely wrong about that. His age is just enough beyond hers to be a benefit, giving him a solid character and principles; and I’m convinced his personality is exactly what would make your sister happy. Plus, his looks and manners are all in his favor. I’m not blinded by my bias; he’s definitely not as handsome as Willoughby, but there’s something much more appealing about his face. Remember, there was always something in Willoughby’s eyes that I found off-putting.”

Elinor could not remember it; but her mother, without waiting for her assent, continued,

Elinor couldn't remember it, but her mother, without waiting for her agreement, continued,

“And his manners, the Colonel’s manners are not only more pleasing to me than Willoughby’s ever were, but they are of a kind I well know to be more solidly attaching to Marianne. Their gentleness, their genuine attention to other people, and their manly unstudied simplicity is much more accordant with her real disposition, than the liveliness, often artificial, and often ill-timed of the other. I am very sure myself, that had Willoughby turned out as really amiable, as he has proved himself the contrary, Marianne would yet never have been so happy with him as she will be with Colonel Brandon.”

“And the Colonel's manners are not only more appealing to me than Willoughby’s ever were, but they also seem to be more genuinely connected to Marianne. Their kindness, sincere interest in others, and natural simplicity align much better with her true nature than the often superficial and poorly timed liveliness of the other. I am certain that if Willoughby had turned out to be as genuinely nice as he has shown himself to be the opposite, Marianne would still never have been as happy with him as she will be with Colonel Brandon.”

She paused.—Her daughter could not quite agree with her, but her dissent was not heard, and therefore gave no offence.

She paused. — Her daughter didn’t fully agree with her, but since her disagreement went unnoticed, it didn’t cause any offense.

“At Delaford, she will be within an easy distance of me,” added Mrs. Dashwood, “even if I remain at Barton; and in all probability,—for I hear it is a large village,—indeed there certainly must be some small house or cottage close by, that would suit us quite as well as our present situation.”

“At Delaford, she’ll be within easy reach of me,” added Mrs. Dashwood, “even if I stay at Barton; and most likely—since I hear it’s a big village—there has to be some small house or cottage nearby that would work for us just as well as our current situation.”

Poor Elinor!—here was a new scheme for getting her to Delaford!—but her spirit was stubborn.

Poor Elinor!—here was a new plan to get her to Delaford!—but she was determined.

“His fortune too!—for at my time of life you know, everybody cares about that;—and though I neither know nor desire to know, what it really is, I am sure it must be a good one.”

“His fortune too!—because at my age, you know, everyone cares about that;—and even though I neither know nor want to know what it really is, I'm sure it has to be a good one.”

Here they were interrupted by the entrance of a third person, and Elinor withdrew to think it all over in private, to wish success to her friend, and yet in wishing it, to feel a pang for Willoughby.

Here they were interrupted by the arrival of a third person, and Elinor stepped back to think it all over alone, to wish her friend good luck, and yet in doing so, to feel a twinge of sadness for Willoughby.

CHAPTER XLVI.

Marianne’s illness, though weakening in its kind, had not been long enough to make her recovery slow; and with youth, natural strength, and her mother’s presence in aid, it proceeded so smoothly as to enable her to remove, within four days after the arrival of the latter, into Mrs. Palmer’s dressing-room. When there, at her own particular request, for she was impatient to pour forth her thanks to him for fetching her mother, Colonel Brandon was invited to visit her.

Marianne’s illness, although debilitating, hadn’t lasted long enough to make her recovery slow; and with her youth, natural strength, and her mother’s support, it went so smoothly that she was able to move into Mrs. Palmer’s dressing-room just four days after her mother arrived. Once there, at her own particular request because she was eager to thank him for bringing her mother, Colonel Brandon was invited to see her.

His emotion on entering the room, in seeing her altered looks, and in receiving the pale hand which she immediately held out to him, was such, as, in Elinor’s conjecture, must arise from something more than his affection for Marianne, or the consciousness of its being known to others; and she soon discovered in his melancholy eye and varying complexion as he looked at her sister, the probable recurrence of many past scenes of misery to his mind, brought back by that resemblance between Marianne and Eliza already acknowledged, and now strengthened by the hollow eye, the sickly skin, the posture of reclining weakness, and the warm acknowledgment of peculiar obligation.

His feelings when he walked into the room, seeing her changed appearance, and taking the pale hand she reached out to him were intense. Elinor guessed that his emotions were due to something deeper than just his love for Marianne or the awareness that others knew about it. She quickly noticed in his sad eyes and changing face as he looked at her sister that memories of past pain were likely flooding back to him. This was triggered by the resemblance between Marianne and Eliza, which had already been noted and was now intensified by the sunken eyes, the unhealthy skin, the weakened posture, and the heartfelt recognition of a special obligation.

Mrs. Dashwood, not less watchful of what passed than her daughter, but with a mind very differently influenced, and therefore watching to very different effect, saw nothing in the Colonel’s behaviour but what arose from the most simple and self-evident sensations, while in the actions and words of Marianne she persuaded herself to think that something more than gratitude already dawned.

Mrs. Dashwood, just as observant of what was happening as her daughter, but with a mindset that was quite different, and therefore watching with a different outcome, saw nothing in the Colonel’s behavior except for the most straightforward and obvious feelings. Meanwhile, in Marianne's actions and words, she convinced herself that something beyond gratitude was already emerging.

At the end of another day or two, Marianne growing visibly stronger every twelve hours, Mrs. Dashwood, urged equally by her own and her daughter’s wishes, began to talk of removing to Barton. On her measures depended those of her two friends; Mrs. Jennings could not quit Cleveland during the Dashwoods’ stay; and Colonel Brandon was soon brought, by their united request, to consider his own abode there as equally determinate, if not equally indispensable. At his and Mrs. Jennings’s united request in return, Mrs. Dashwood was prevailed on to accept the use of his carriage on her journey back, for the better accommodation of her sick child; and the Colonel, at the joint invitation of Mrs. Dashwood and Mrs. Jennings, whose active good-nature made her friendly and hospitable for other people as well as herself, engaged with pleasure to redeem it by a visit at the cottage, in the course of a few weeks.

At the end of another day or two, Marianne was visibly getting stronger every twelve hours. Mrs. Dashwood, motivated by both her own wishes and her daughter’s, started talking about moving to Barton. Her plans would influence those of her two friends; Mrs. Jennings couldn’t leave Cleveland while the Dashwoods were there, and Colonel Brandon was soon convinced, by their joint request, to view his stay there as equally necessary, if not just as essential. In return for his and Mrs. Jennings’s united request, Mrs. Dashwood agreed to use his carriage for her journey back to better accommodate her sick child; and the Colonel, at the joint invitation of Mrs. Dashwood and Mrs. Jennings, whose kindness made her friendly and welcoming to others as well as herself, happily agreed to visit the cottage in a few weeks.

The day of separation and departure arrived; and Marianne, after taking so particular and lengthened a leave of Mrs. Jennings, one so earnestly grateful, so full of respect and kind wishes as seemed due to her own heart from a secret acknowledgment of past inattention, and bidding Colonel Brandon farewell with a cordiality of a friend, was carefully assisted by him into the carriage, of which he seemed anxious that she should engross at least half. Mrs. Dashwood and Elinor then followed, and the others were left by themselves, to talk of the travellers, and feel their own dullness, till Mrs. Jennings was summoned to her chaise to take comfort in the gossip of her maid for the loss of her two young companions; and Colonel Brandon immediately afterwards took his solitary way to Delaford.

The day of separation and departure finally came; and Marianne, after saying a long and heartfelt goodbye to Mrs. Jennings—who was earnestly grateful and filled with respect and kind wishes, acknowledging her own previous inattention—bid Colonel Brandon farewell with the warmth of a friend. He carefully helped her into the carriage, seeming eager for her to occupy at least half of it. Mrs. Dashwood and Elinor followed, leaving the others to talk about the travelers and feel their own emptiness, until Mrs. Jennings was called to her carriage to find comfort in her maid's gossip about the loss of her two young companions. Colonel Brandon then made his way to Delaford by himself.

The Dashwoods were two days on the road, and Marianne bore her journey on both, without essential fatigue. Every thing that the most zealous affection, the most solicitous care could do to render her comfortable, was the office of each watchful companion, and each found their reward in her bodily ease, and her calmness of spirits. To Elinor, the observation of the latter was particularly grateful. She, who had seen her week after week so constantly suffering, oppressed by anguish of heart which she had neither courage to speak of, nor fortitude to conceal, now saw with a joy, which no other could equally share, an apparent composure of mind, which, in being the result as she trusted of serious reflection, must eventually lead her to contentment and cheerfulness.

The Dashwoods spent two days traveling, and Marianne handled the journey quite well, without much fatigue. Everything that the most dedicated love and careful attention could do to make her comfortable was the job of each attentive companion, and they all found satisfaction in her physical comfort and calm demeanor. For Elinor, seeing Marianne's calmness was especially rewarding. After witnessing her sister suffer week after week, weighed down by heartache that she neither had the courage to address nor the strength to hide, Elinor felt a unique joy in observing Marianne's apparent peace of mind. She believed this calmness, stemming from serious reflection, would ultimately lead to happiness and contentment.

As they approached Barton, indeed, and entered on scenes of which every field and every tree brought some peculiar, some painful recollection, she grew silent and thoughtful, and turning away her face from their notice, sat earnestly gazing through the window. But here, Elinor could neither wonder nor blame; and when she saw, as she assisted Marianne from the carriage, that she had been crying, she saw only an emotion too natural in itself to raise any thing less tender than pity, and in its unobtrusiveness entitled to praise. In the whole of her subsequent manner, she traced the direction of a mind awakened to reasonable exertion; for no sooner had they entered their common sitting-room, than Marianne turned her eyes around it with a look of resolute firmness, as if determined at once to accustom herself to the sight of every object with which the remembrance of Willoughby could be connected.—She said little, but every sentence aimed at cheerfulness, and though a sigh sometimes escaped her, it never passed away without the atonement of a smile. After dinner she would try her piano-forte. She went to it; but the music on which her eye first rested was an opera, procured for her by Willoughby, containing some of their favourite duets, and bearing on its outward leaf her own name in his hand-writing.—That would not do.—She shook her head, put the music aside, and after running over the keys for a minute, complained of feebleness in her fingers, and closed the instrument again; declaring however with firmness as she did so, that she should in future practice much.

As they got closer to Barton and entered scenes where every field and tree reminded her of something unique and painful, she became quiet and lost in thought, turning her face away from their attention and staring out the window. Elinor couldn't help but feel compassion instead of surprise or blame; when she helped Marianne out of the carriage and noticed that she had been crying, she found her emotions to be so natural that they only deserved pity, and their subtlety deserved recognition. Throughout the rest of her behavior, Elinor recognized that Marianne was trying to pull herself together. As soon as they got to their shared sitting room, Marianne looked around with a determined expression, as if she was set on getting used to seeing everything that reminded her of Willoughby. She spoke little, but every statement was aimed at being cheerful, and even though she sometimes sighed, it was always followed by a smile. After dinner, she decided to give the piano a try. When she sat down, the first sheet of music she saw was an opera that Willoughby had gotten for her, featuring some of their favorite duets, and her name written on the cover in his handwriting. That wouldn't work. She shook her head, set the music aside, and after playing a few notes, complained that her fingers felt weak, closing the instrument again. However, she insisted firmly that she would practice a lot from then on.

The next morning produced no abatement in these happy symptoms. On the contrary, with a mind and body alike strengthened by rest, she looked and spoke with more genuine spirit, anticipating the pleasure of Margaret’s return, and talking of the dear family party which would then be restored, of their mutual pursuits and cheerful society, as the only happiness worth a wish.

The next morning showed no signs of decline in these happy feelings. Instead, with her mind and body refreshed from rest, she appeared and spoke with more genuine energy, looking forward to the joy of Margaret’s return, and talking about the wonderful family gathering that would then be complete, sharing their activities and joyful company, which she considered the only happiness worth wanting.

“When the weather is settled, and I have recovered my strength,” said she, “we will take long walks together every day. We will walk to the farm at the edge of the down, and see how the children go on; we will walk to Sir John’s new plantations at Barton Cross, and the Abbeyland; and we will often go to the old ruins of the Priory, and try to trace its foundations as far as we are told they once reached. I know we shall be happy. I know the summer will pass happily away. I mean never to be later in rising than six, and from that time till dinner I shall divide every moment between music and reading. I have formed my plan, and am determined to enter on a course of serious study. Our own library is too well known to me, to be resorted to for any thing beyond mere amusement. But there are many works well worth reading at the Park; and there are others of more modern production which I know I can borrow of Colonel Brandon. By reading only six hours a-day, I shall gain in the course of a twelve-month a great deal of instruction which I now feel myself to want.”

“When the weather is nice, and I’ve regained my strength,” she said, “we’ll take long walks together every day. We’ll walk to the farm by the edge of the hill to see how the kids are doing; we’ll walk to Sir John’s new plantations at Barton Cross and Abbeyland; and we’ll often visit the old ruins of the Priory and try to trace its foundations as far as we’ve heard they once extended. I know we’ll be happy. I know the summer will pass joyfully. I plan to never get up later than six, and from then until dinner, I’ll split every moment between music and reading. I’ve made my plan and I’m committed to starting a serious study routine. Our own library is too familiar to me to use for anything beyond simple entertainment. But there are many worthwhile books at the Park; and there are others, more modern ones, that I know I can borrow from Colonel Brandon. By reading just six hours a day, I’ll gain a lot of knowledge over the next year that I feel I really need.”

Elinor honoured her for a plan which originated so nobly as this; though smiling to see the same eager fancy which had been leading her to the extreme of languid indolence and selfish repining, now at work in introducing excess into a scheme of such rational employment and virtuous self-control. Her smile however changed to a sigh when she remembered that promise to Willoughby was yet unfulfilled, and feared she had that to communicate which might again unsettle the mind of Marianne, and ruin at least for a time this fair prospect of busy tranquillity. Willing therefore to delay the evil hour, she resolved to wait till her sister’s health were more secure, before she appointed it. But the resolution was made only to be broken.

Elinor admired her for coming up with such a noble plan, even though she smiled knowing that the same eager imagination that had once led her to lazy inaction and selfish complaining was now pushing her towards overdoing things in a project focused on sensible work and virtuous self-discipline. However, her smile turned into a sigh when she remembered that her promise to Willoughby was still unfulfilled, and she worried that she had news that might once again disturb Marianne's mind and spoil this nice chance for peaceful activity. Wanting to put off the bad news, she decided to wait until her sister's health was more stable before sharing it. But that decision was made only to be broken.

Marianne had been two or three days at home, before the weather was fine enough for an invalid like herself to venture out. But at last a soft, genial morning appeared; such as might tempt the daughter’s wishes and the mother’s confidence; and Marianne, leaning on Elinor’s arm, was authorised to walk as long as she could without fatigue, in the lane before the house.

Marianne had been home for two or three days before the weather was nice enough for someone in her condition to go outside. But finally, a soft, pleasant morning came along; one that might please the daughter’s wishes and reassure the mother. Marianne, leaning on Elinor’s arm, was permitted to walk as long as she could without getting tired, in the lane in front of the house.

The sisters set out at a pace, slow as the feebleness of Marianne in an exercise hitherto untried since her illness required; and they had advanced only so far beyond the house as to admit a full view of the hill, the important hill behind, when pausing with her eyes turned towards it, Marianne calmly said,—

The sisters set out at a slow pace, reflecting Marianne's weakness from her illness, which had prevented her from trying this exercise before. They had only moved far enough from the house to get a clear view of the important hill behind it when Marianne paused, looking at it, and calmly said,—

“There, exactly there,”—pointing with one hand, “on that projecting mound,—there I fell; and there I first saw Willoughby.”

“Right there,”—pointing with one hand, “on that raised spot,—that’s where I fell; and that’s where I first saw Willoughby.”

Her voice sunk with the word, but presently reviving she added,

Her voice dropped with the word, but soon recovering, she added,

“I am thankful to find that I can look with so little pain on the spot! shall we ever talk on that subject, Elinor?” hesitatingly it was said. “Or will it be wrong? I can talk of it now, I hope, as I ought to do.”

“I’m glad to see that I can look at that place with so little pain! Will we ever discuss it, Elinor?” it was said hesitantly. “Or would that be inappropriate? I hope I can talk about it now, like I should.”

Elinor tenderly invited her to be open.

Elinor warmly encouraged her to share her thoughts.

“As for regret,” said Marianne, “I have done with that, as far as he is concerned. I do not mean to talk to you of what my feelings have been for him, but what they are now. At present, if I could be satisfied on one point, if I could be allowed to think that he was not always acting a part, not always deceiving me; but above all, if I could be assured that he never was so very wicked as my fears have sometimes fancied him, since the story of that unfortunate girl—”

“As for regret,” said Marianne, “I’m done with that when it comes to him. I don’t want to discuss how I used to feel about him, but rather what I feel now. Right now, if I could just have one thing, if I could believe that he wasn’t always pretending, not always deceiving me; but most importantly, if I could be sure that he was never as very wicked as my fears have sometimes led me to think, since the situation with that unfortunate girl—”

She stopt. Elinor joyfully treasured her words as she answered,

She stopped. Elinor happily cherished her words as she replied,

“If you could be assured of that, you think you should be easy.”

“If you could be sure of that, you'd think you’d feel at ease.”

“Yes. My peace of mind is doubly involved in it; for not only is it horrible to suspect a person, who has been what he has been to me, of such designs, but what must it make me appear to myself? What in a situation like mine, but a most shamefully unguarded affection could expose me to—”

“Yes. My peace of mind is deeply affected by this; not only is it awful to suspect someone who has meant so much to me of such intentions, but what does it say about me? In a situation like mine, what could expose me to this except for a shamefully careless affection—”

“How then,” asked her sister, “would you account for his behaviour?”

“How then,” her sister asked, “would you explain his behavior?”

“I would suppose him,—Oh, how gladly would I suppose him, only fickle, very, very fickle.”

“I would think of him—Oh, how gladly I would think of him, just so unpredictable, really, really unpredictable.”

Elinor said no more. She was debating within herself on the eligibility of beginning her story directly, or postponing it till Marianne were in stronger health;—and they crept on for a few minutes in silence.

Elinor said nothing more. She was weighing whether to start her story right away or wait until Marianne was feeling better; and they continued on in silence for a few minutes.

“I am not wishing him too much good,” said Marianne at last with a sigh, “when I wish his secret reflections may be no more unpleasant than my own. He will suffer enough in them.”

"I don't want him to have too much good," said Marianne finally with a sigh, "when I hope his private thoughts are no more unpleasant than mine. He'll suffer enough in them."

“Do you compare your conduct with his?”

“Do you compare your behavior to his?”

“No. I compare it with what it ought to have been; I compare it with yours.”

“No. I compare it to what it should have been; I compare it to yours.”

“Our situations have borne little resemblance.”

“Our situations have looked very different.”

“They have borne more than our conduct. Do not, my dearest Elinor, let your kindness defend what I know your judgment must censure. My illness has made me think. It has given me leisure and calmness for serious recollection. Long before I was enough recovered to talk, I was perfectly able to reflect. I considered the past: I saw in my own behaviour, since the beginning of our acquaintance with him last autumn, nothing but a series of imprudence towards myself, and want of kindness to others. I saw that my own feelings had prepared my sufferings, and that my want of fortitude under them had almost led me to the grave. My illness, I well knew, had been entirely brought on by myself by such negligence of my own health, as I had felt even at the time to be wrong. Had I died, it would have been self-destruction. I did not know my danger till the danger was removed; but with such feelings as these reflections gave me, I wonder at my recovery,—wonder that the very eagerness of my desire to live, to have time for atonement to my God, and to you all, did not kill me at once. Had I died, in what peculiar misery should I have left you, my nurse, my friend, my sister! You, who had seen all the fretful selfishness of my latter days; who had known all the murmurings of my heart! How should I have lived in your remembrance! My mother too! How could you have consoled her! I cannot express my own abhorrence of myself. Whenever I looked towards the past, I saw some duty neglected, or some failing indulged. Every body seemed injured by me. The kindness, the unceasing kindness of Mrs. Jennings, I had repaid with ungrateful contempt. To the Middletons, to the Palmers, the Steeles, to every common acquaintance even, I had been insolent and unjust; with a heart hardened against their merits, and a temper irritated by their very attention. To John, to Fanny, yes, even to them, little as they deserve, I had given less than their due. But you, you above all, above my mother, had been wronged by me. I, and only I, knew your heart and its sorrows; yet to what did it influence me?—not to any compassion that could benefit you or myself.—Your example was before me; but to what avail? Was I more considerate of you and your comfort? Did I imitate your forbearance, or lessen your restraints, by taking any part in those offices of general complaisance or particular gratitude which you had hitherto been left to discharge alone? No; not less when I knew you to be unhappy, than when I had believed you at ease, did I turn away from every exertion of duty or friendship; scarcely allowing sorrow to exist but with me, regretting only that heart which had deserted and wronged me, and leaving you, for whom I professed an unbounded affection, to be miserable for my sake.”

“They have endured more than our behavior. Do not, my dearest Elinor, let your kindness excuse what I know you must judge harshly. My illness has made me reflect. It has given me the time and peace for serious thought. Long before I was well enough to talk, I was fully able to think. I considered the past: I recognized in my own behavior, since we first met him last autumn, nothing but a series of foolish actions towards myself and a lack of kindness to others. I realized that my own feelings had caused my suffering, and that my inability to handle it had nearly led me to my death. I knew my illness had been entirely caused by my own neglect of my health, which I had felt was wrong even at the time. If I had died, it would have been a form of self-destruction. I didn’t recognize my danger until it was gone; but with the feelings these reflections gave me, I’m amazed at my recovery—amazed that my strong desire to live, to have time to atone to my God, and to all of you didn’t kill me right away. If I had died, what unique misery would I have left you, my nurse, my friend, my sister! You, who had seen all the selfishness of my later days; who had known all the complaints of my heart! How could I have lived on in your memory! My mother too! How could you have comforted her? I can’t express how much I dislike myself. Whenever I look back, I see some duty I neglected, or some flaw I indulged. Everyone seemed harmed by me. The kindness, the constant kindness of Mrs. Jennings, I repaid with ungrateful disdain. To the Middletons, to the Palmers, the Steeles, to every casual acquaintance, I was rude and unfair; with a heart hardened against their merits, and a temper irritated by their very attention. To John, to Fanny, yes, even to them, however little they deserve, I gave less than they deserved. But you, you above all, above my mother, had been wronged by me. I, and only I, knew your heart and its sorrows; yet how did it influence me?—not to any compassion that could help you or me. Your example was before me; but what good was it? Was I more considerate of you and your comfort? Did I follow your patience, or ease your burdens by participating in those acts of general kindness or specific gratitude that you had previously done alone? No; not less when I knew you were unhappy than when I believed you were at ease, did I turn away from every effort of duty or friendship; hardly allowing sorrow to exist except for myself, regretting only that heart which had abandoned and wronged me, and leaving you, for whom I claimed to have endless affection, to be miserable for my sake.”

Here ceased the rapid flow of her self-reproving spirit; and Elinor, impatient to soothe, though too honest to flatter, gave her instantly that praise and support which her frankness and her contrition so well deserved. Marianne pressed her hand and replied,—

Here, the quick stream of her self-blaming thoughts came to a halt; and Elinor, eager to comfort her but too sincere to offer false compliments, immediately gave her the praise and support that her honesty and regret truly deserved. Marianne squeezed her hand and replied,—

“You are very good.—The future must be my proof. I have laid down my plan, and if I am capable of adhering to it—my feelings shall be governed and my temper improved. They shall no longer worry others, nor torture myself. I shall now live solely for my family. You, my mother, and Margaret, must henceforth be all the world to me; you will share my affections entirely between you. From you, from my home, I shall never again have the smallest incitement to move; and if I do mix in other society, it will be only to show that my spirit is humbled, my heart amended, and that I can practise the civilities, the lesser duties of life, with gentleness and forbearance. As for Willoughby—to say that I shall soon or that I shall ever forget him, would be idle. His remembrance can be overcome by no change of circumstances or opinions. But it shall be regulated, it shall be checked by religion, by reason, by constant employment.”

“You're really great.—The future will prove me right. I've made my plan, and if I can stick to it— I'll manage my feelings and improve my temper. They won’t bother others anymore, nor will they torture me. From now on, I’m living only for my family. You, my mom, and Margaret will be my whole world; I’ll share all my love between you. I won’t have any reason to leave you or my home again; and if I do socialize with others, it will just be to show that I’m humbled, my heart is better, and that I can practice kindness and the small duties of life with patience and understanding. As for Willoughby— saying that I’ll forget him soon or ever would be pointless. No change in circumstances or beliefs can erase my memories of him. But I will manage those memories; I will keep them in check with faith, reason, and constant activity.”

She paused—and added in a low voice, “If I could but know his heart, everything would become easy.”

She paused—and said quietly, “If I could just understand his heart, everything would be easier.”

Elinor, who had now been for some time reflecting on the propriety or impropriety of speedily hazarding her narration, without feeling at all nearer decision than at first, heard this; and perceiving that as reflection did nothing, resolution must do all, soon found herself leading to the fact.

Elinor, who had been thinking for a while about whether it was appropriate to quickly share her story, without feeling any closer to a decision than before, heard this; and realizing that thinking wasn't helping, she knew she had to be decisive, soon found herself getting to the point.

She managed the recital, as she hoped, with address; prepared her anxious listener with caution; related simply and honestly the chief points on which Willoughby grounded his apology; did justice to his repentance, and softened only his protestations of present regard. Marianne said not a word.—She trembled, her eyes were fixed on the ground, and her lips became whiter than even sickness had left them. A thousand inquiries sprung up from her heart, but she dared not urge one. She caught every syllable with panting eagerness; her hand, unknowingly to herself, closely pressed her sister’s, and tears covered her cheeks.

She handled the recital, just as she hoped, with skill; prepared her anxious listener carefully; shared simply and honestly the main points on which Willoughby based his apology; acknowledged his remorse, and only softened his declarations of current feelings. Marianne didn’t say a word.—She trembled, her eyes were glued to the ground, and her lips turned even whiter than sickness had left them. A thousand questions swirled in her heart, but she didn’t dare to voice a single one. She absorbed every word with desperate eagerness; her hand, unknowingly, tightly gripped her sister’s, and tears streamed down her cheeks.

Elinor, dreading her being tired, led her towards home; and till they reached the door of the cottage, easily conjecturing what her curiosity must be though no question was suffered to speak it, talked of nothing but Willoughby, and their conversation together; and was carefully minute in every particular of speech and look, where minuteness could be safely indulged. As soon as they entered the house, Marianne with a kiss of gratitude and these two words just articulate through her tears, “Tell mama,” withdrew from her sister and walked slowly up stairs. Elinor would not attempt to disturb a solitude so reasonable as what she now sought; and with a mind anxiously pre-arranging its result, and a resolution of reviving the subject again, should Marianne fail to do it, she turned into the parlour to fulfill her parting injunction.

Elinor, worried about Marianne being tired, guided her home. Until they reached the cottage door, she easily guessed what Marianne's curiosity must be, even though neither of them said anything about it. Elinor talked only about Willoughby and their conversations, giving detailed accounts of every speech and look where it felt safe to be specific. As soon as they entered the house, Marianne kissed her sister in gratitude and, with tears in her eyes, managed to say, “Tell mom,” before slowly walking upstairs. Elinor didn’t want to interrupt such a reasonable need for solitude, so with her mind anxiously planning what would happen next and determined to bring up the topic again if Marianne didn’t, she went into the parlor to carry out her sister's request.

CHAPTER XLVII.

Mrs. Dashwood did not hear unmoved the vindication of her former favourite. She rejoiced in his being cleared from some part of his imputed guilt;—she was sorry for him;—she wished him happy. But the feelings of the past could not be recalled.—Nothing could restore him with a faith unbroken—a character unblemished, to Marianne. Nothing could do away the knowledge of what the latter had suffered through his means, nor remove the guilt of his conduct towards Eliza. Nothing could replace him, therefore, in her former esteem, nor injure the interests of Colonel Brandon.

Mrs. Dashwood wasn't completely unemotional about the vindication of her former favorite. She was glad he was cleared of some of the blame; she felt sorry for him and hoped he would be happy. But the feelings from the past couldn't be brought back. Nothing could restore him to Marianne with an unbroken trust or a flawless character. Nothing could erase the pain she had endured because of him or the guilt of his behavior towards Eliza. So, nothing could return him to her previous regard, nor harm Colonel Brandon's interests.

Had Mrs. Dashwood, like her daughter, heard Willoughby’s story from himself—had she witnessed his distress, and been under the influence of his countenance and his manner, it is probable that her compassion would have been greater. But it was neither in Elinor’s power, nor in her wish, to rouse such feelings in another, by her retailed explanation, as had at first been called forth in herself. Reflection had given calmness to her judgment, and sobered her own opinion of Willoughby’s deserts;—she wished, therefore, to declare only the simple truth, and lay open such facts as were really due to his character, without any embellishment of tenderness to lead the fancy astray.

If Mrs. Dashwood had heard Willoughby’s story directly from him, like her daughter did—if she had seen his distress and been affected by his expression and behavior—it's likely that her compassion would have been stronger. But Elinor couldn’t and didn’t want to stir up such feelings in another person through her retelling as had initially been stirred in herself. Reflection had brought clarity to her judgment and adjusted her views on Willoughby’s worth; therefore, she aimed to present only the simple truth and reveal the facts that genuinely reflected his character, without any sentimental embellishments to mislead anyone’s imagination.

In the evening, when they were all three together, Marianne began voluntarily to speak of him again;—but that it was not without an effort, the restless, unquiet thoughtfulness in which she had been for some time previously sitting—her rising colour, as she spoke,—and her unsteady voice, plainly showed.

In the evening, when the three of them were together, Marianne started to talk about him again on her own; but it was clear that it took effort, as the restless, unsettled look she had been wearing for a while—her flushed face as she spoke—and her shaky voice made it obvious.

“I wish to assure you both,” said she, “that I see every thing—as you can desire me to do.”

“I want to reassure you both,” she said, “that I understand everything—as you could want me to.”

Mrs. Dashwood would have interrupted her instantly with soothing tenderness, had not Elinor, who really wished to hear her sister’s unbiased opinion, by an eager sign, engaged her silence. Marianne slowly continued,—

Mrs. Dashwood would have instantly interrupted her with soothing kindness, but Elinor, who genuinely wanted to hear her sister’s honest opinion, eagerly gestured for her to stay quiet. Marianne slowly went on,—

“It is a great relief to me—what Elinor told me this morning—I have now heard exactly what I wished to hear.”—For some moments her voice was lost; but recovering herself, she added, and with greater calmness than before—“I am now perfectly satisfied, I wish for no change. I never could have been happy with him, after knowing, as sooner or later I must have known, all this.—I should have had no confidence, no esteem. Nothing could have done it away to my feelings.”

“It really takes a load off my mind—what Elinor told me this morning—I’ve finally heard exactly what I wanted to hear.” For a few moments, her voice faded, but after regaining her composure, she added, with more calmness than before, “I’m completely satisfied now; I don’t want anything to change. I would never have been happy with him once I found out, as I inevitably would have, all of this. I wouldn’t have had any trust or respect. Nothing could have changed how I feel.”

“I know it—I know it,” cried her mother. “Happy with a man of libertine practices!—With one who so injured the peace of the dearest of our friends, and the best of men!—No—my Marianne has not a heart to be made happy with such a man!—Her conscience, her sensitive conscience, would have felt all that the conscience of her husband ought to have felt.”

“I know it—I know it,” her mother exclaimed. “Happy with a man who’s so unprincipled! With someone who disturbed the peace of our closest friend, who is one of the best men! No—my Marianne doesn’t have a heart that can be made happy with a man like that! Her conscience, her very sensitive conscience, would have felt everything that her husband's conscience should have felt.”

Marianne sighed, and repeated, “I wish for no change.”

Marianne sighed and said again, “I don’t want anything to change.”

“You consider the matter,” said Elinor, “exactly as a good mind and a sound understanding must consider it; and I dare say you perceive, as well as myself, not only in this, but in many other circumstances, reason enough to be convinced that your marriage must have involved you in many certain troubles and disappointments, in which you would have been poorly supported by an affection, on his side, much less certain. Had you married, you must have been always poor. His expensiveness is acknowledged even by himself, and his whole conduct declares that self-denial is a word hardly understood by him. His demands and your inexperience together, on a small, very small income, must have brought on distresses which would not be the less grievous to you, from having been entirely unknown and unthought of before. Your sense of honour and honesty would have led you, I know, when aware of your situation, to attempt all the economy that would appear to you possible: and, perhaps, as long as your frugality retrenched only on your own comfort, you might have been suffered to practice it, but beyond that—and how little could the utmost of your single management do to stop the ruin which had begun before your marriage? Beyond that, had you endeavoured, however reasonably, to abridge his enjoyments, is it not to be feared, that instead of prevailing on feelings so selfish to consent to it, you would have lessened your own influence on his heart, and made him regret the connection which had involved him in such difficulties?”

“You think about the situation,” Elinor said, “exactly like someone with a good mind and a clear understanding should; and I'm sure you see, just like I do, that in this and many other situations, there’s plenty of reason to believe that marrying him would have brought you a lot of certain troubles and disappointments, and you would have received little support from his affection, which is much less reliable. If you had married, you would have always been poor. He admits he’s expensive, and his actions show that he barely understands the concept of self-denial. His demands and your lack of experience on a very small income would have created hardships that would feel even more painful since you had never imagined them before. Your sense of honor and honesty would have led you, I know, once you realized your situation, to try every way to save money that seemed possible to you: and maybe, as long as your frugality only affected your own comfort, it might have been allowed. But beyond that—and how little could your best efforts as a single person do to stop the ruin that had already started before your marriage? Beyond that, if you had tried, no matter how reasonably, to cut back on his pleasures, wouldn’t it be reasonable to fear that rather than getting him to agree, you would have weakened your influence on his heart and made him regret the relationship that got him into such difficulties?”

Marianne’s lips quivered, and she repeated the word “Selfish?” in a tone that implied—“do you really think him selfish?”

Marianne's lips trembled, and she said the word "Selfish?" in a way that suggested—"do you actually think he's selfish?"

“The whole of his behaviour,” replied Elinor, “from the beginning to the end of the affair, has been grounded on selfishness. It was selfishness which first made him sport with your affections; which afterwards, when his own were engaged, made him delay the confession of it, and which finally carried him from Barton. His own enjoyment, or his own ease, was, in every particular, his ruling principle.”

“The way he acted,” Elinor responded, “from start to finish, has been based on selfishness. It was his selfishness that first made him toy with your feelings; then, when he had feelings of his own, it made him hesitate to admit it, and finally, it pushed him to leave Barton. His own pleasure, or his own comfort, was his main priority in every instance.”

“It is very true. My happiness never was his object.”

“It’s very true. My happiness was never his goal.”

“At present,” continued Elinor, “he regrets what he has done. And why does he regret it?—Because he finds it has not answered towards himself. It has not made him happy. His circumstances are now unembarrassed—he suffers from no evil of that kind; and he thinks only that he has married a woman of a less amiable temper than yourself. But does it follow that had he married you, he would have been happy?—The inconveniences would have been different. He would then have suffered under the pecuniary distresses which, because they are removed, he now reckons as nothing. He would have had a wife of whose temper he could make no complaint, but he would have been always necessitous—always poor; and probably would soon have learned to rank the innumerable comforts of a clear estate and good income as of far more importance, even to domestic happiness, than the mere temper of a wife.”

“At the moment,” Elinor continued, “he regrets what he's done. And why does he regret it? Because he realizes it hasn’t worked out for him. It hasn't made him happy. His situation is now clear—he doesn’t suffer from that kind of trouble; he only thinks that he married a woman with a less pleasant personality than you. But does it mean that if he had married you, he would have been happy? The issues would have been different. He would have faced financial struggles that, since they’re gone now, he doesn’t think about. He would have had a wife with whom he could make no complaints about her temperament, but he would have always been in need—always poor; and he probably would have quickly come to see the countless benefits of having a stable income and good finances as being far more important, even for domestic happiness, than just the temperament of a wife.”

“I have not a doubt of it,” said Marianne; “and I have nothing to regret—nothing but my own folly.”

“I have no doubt about it,” said Marianne; “and I have nothing to regret—nothing except my own foolishness.”

“Rather say your mother’s imprudence, my child,” said Mrs. Dashwood; “she must be answerable.”

“Instead, say it was your mother's carelessness, my child,” said Mrs. Dashwood; “she has to take responsibility.”

Marianne would not let her proceed;—and Elinor, satisfied that each felt their own error, wished to avoid any survey of the past that might weaken her sister’s spirits; she, therefore, pursuing the first subject, immediately continued,

Marianne wouldn't let her go on; and Elinor, confident that they both recognized their mistakes, wanted to avoid any discussion about the past that might upset her sister. So, she quickly got back to the original topic and continued.

One observation may, I think, be fairly drawn from the whole of the story—that all Willoughby’s difficulties have arisen from the first offence against virtue, in his behaviour to Eliza Williams. That crime has been the origin of every lesser one, and of all his present discontents.”

One observation can be fairly made from the entire story—that all of Willoughby’s troubles stem from his initial failure of virtue in his treatment of Eliza Williams. That offense has led to every smaller mistake and all of his current unhappiness.

Marianne assented most feelingly to the remark; and her mother was led by it to an enumeration of Colonel Brandon’s injuries and merits, warm as friendship and design could unitedly dictate. Her daughter did not look, however, as if much of it were heard by her.

Marianne wholeheartedly agreed with the comment, and her mother felt prompted to list Colonel Brandon's faults and virtues, as passionately as true friendship could inspire. However, her daughter seemed not to be paying much attention to what was being said.

Elinor, according to her expectation, saw on the two or three following days, that Marianne did not continue to gain strength as she had done; but while her resolution was unsubdued, and she still tried to appear cheerful and easy, her sister could safely trust to the effect of time upon her health.

Elinor, as she expected, noticed over the next couple of days that Marianne wasn't getting better as she had been; however, while Marianne's determination remained strong, and she still tried to seem happy and relaxed, her sister felt confident that time would help improve her health.

Margaret returned, and the family were again all restored to each other, again quietly settled at the cottage; and if not pursuing their usual studies with quite so much vigour as when they first came to Barton, at least planning a vigorous prosecution of them in future.

Margaret came back, and the family was once again reunited, quietly settled in the cottage. While they might not be studying with the same intensity as when they first arrived in Barton, they were at least making plans to dive back into their studies with more energy in the future.

Elinor grew impatient for some tidings of Edward. She had heard nothing of him since her leaving London, nothing new of his plans, nothing certain even of his present abode. Some letters had passed between her and her brother, in consequence of Marianne’s illness; and in the first of John’s, there had been this sentence:—“We know nothing of our unfortunate Edward, and can make no enquiries on so prohibited a subject, but conclude him to be still at Oxford;” which was all the intelligence of Edward afforded her by the correspondence, for his name was not even mentioned in any of the succeeding letters. She was not doomed, however, to be long in ignorance of his measures.

Elinor became impatient waiting for news about Edward. She hadn’t heard anything about him since leaving London, nothing new about his plans, and nothing even confirmed about where he was staying. Some letters had been exchanged between her and her brother due to Marianne’s illness, and in John’s first letter, there was this line: “We know nothing about our unfortunate Edward, and can't ask about such a forbidden topic, but we assume he’s still at Oxford;” which was all the information she got about Edward from their correspondence, as his name wasn’t even mentioned in any of the following letters. However, she wouldn’t have to remain in the dark about his situation for long.

Their man-servant had been sent one morning to Exeter on business; and when, as he waited at table, he had satisfied the inquiries of his mistress as to the event of his errand, this was his voluntary communication,—

Their male servant had been sent to Exeter one morning for some business; and when, as he stood by the table, he answered his mistress's questions about how his errand went, he shared this information on his own—

“I suppose you know, ma’am, that Mr. Ferrars is married.”

“I guess you know, ma’am, that Mr. Ferrars is married.”

Marianne gave a violent start, fixed her eyes upon Elinor, saw her turning pale, and fell back in her chair in hysterics. Mrs. Dashwood, whose eyes, as she answered the servant’s inquiry, had intuitively taken the same direction, was shocked to perceive by Elinor’s countenance how much she really suffered, and a moment afterwards, alike distressed by Marianne’s situation, knew not on which child to bestow her principal attention.

Marianne jumped up, focused her gaze on Elinor, noticed her turning pale, and slumped back in her chair in tears. Mrs. Dashwood, whose eyes had instinctively followed the same path as she responded to the servant's question, was shocked to see from Elinor's face how much she was truly suffering. A moment later, equally troubled by Marianne's state, she didn’t know which child to focus on more.

The servant, who saw only that Miss Marianne was taken ill, had sense enough to call one of the maids, who, with Mrs. Dashwood’s assistance, supported her into the other room. By that time, Marianne was rather better, and her mother leaving her to the care of Margaret and the maid, returned to Elinor, who, though still much disordered, had so far recovered the use of her reason and voice as to be just beginning an inquiry of Thomas, as to the source of his intelligence. Mrs. Dashwood immediately took all that trouble on herself; and Elinor had the benefit of the information without the exertion of seeking it.

The servant, who saw that Miss Marianne was feeling unwell, had the sense to call one of the maids, who, with Mrs. Dashwood’s help, supported her into the other room. By then, Marianne was feeling a bit better, and her mother, leaving her in the care of Margaret and the maid, went back to Elinor, who, although still quite shaken, had regained enough of her composure and voice to start asking Thomas about where he got his information. Mrs. Dashwood immediately took all that on herself, and Elinor got the information without having to look for it.

“Who told you that Mr. Ferrars was married, Thomas?”

“Who told you that Mr. Ferrars was married, Thomas?”

“I see Mr. Ferrars myself, ma’am, this morning in Exeter, and his lady too, Miss Steele as was. They was stopping in a chaise at the door of the New London Inn, as I went there with a message from Sally at the Park to her brother, who is one of the post-boys. I happened to look up as I went by the chaise, and so I see directly it was the youngest Miss Steele; so I took off my hat, and she knew me and called to me, and inquired after you, ma’am, and the young ladies, especially Miss Marianne, and bid me I should give her compliments and Mr. Ferrars’s, their best compliments and service, and how sorry they was they had not time to come on and see you, but they was in a great hurry to go forwards, for they was going further down for a little while, but howsever, when they come back, they’d make sure to come and see you.”

“I saw Mr. Ferrars this morning in Exeter, ma’am, along with his lady, Miss Steele. They were stopped in a carriage at the door of the New London Inn when I went there with a message from Sally at the Park to her brother, who is one of the post-boys. I happened to look up as I passed the carriage, and I immediately recognized it was the youngest Miss Steele; so I took off my hat, and she recognized me and called out to me. She asked after you, ma’am, and the young ladies, especially Miss Marianne, and told me to give her and Mr. Ferrars their best regards and service. They were really sorry they didn't have time to come and see you, but they were in a rush to head further down for a little while. However, when they come back, they promised they would make sure to come and visit you.”

“But did she tell you she was married, Thomas?”

“But did she tell you she was married, Thomas?”

“Yes, ma’am. She smiled, and said how she had changed her name since she was in these parts. She was always a very affable and free-spoken young lady, and very civil behaved. So, I made free to wish her joy.”

“Yeah, ma’am. She smiled and mentioned how she had changed her name since she was last in this area. She was always a very friendly and outspoken young woman, and she was very polite. So, I took the liberty of wishing her happiness.”

“Was Mr. Ferrars in the carriage with her?”

“Was Mr. Ferrars in the car with her?”

“Yes, ma’am, I just see him leaning back in it, but he did not look up;—he never was a gentleman much for talking.”

“Yes, ma’am, I just see him leaning back in it, but he didn’t look up;—he was never much of a gentleman for talking.”

Elinor’s heart could easily account for his not putting himself forward; and Mrs. Dashwood probably found the same explanation.

Elinor understood why he didn’t step up; Mrs. Dashwood likely thought the same thing.

“Was there no one else in the carriage?”

“Was there no one else in the train car?”

“No, ma’am, only they two.”

“No, ma’am, just those two.”

“Do you know where they came from?”

“Do you know where they came from?”

“They come straight from town, as Miss Lucy—Mrs. Ferrars told me.”

“They come straight from town, as Miss Lucy—Mrs. Ferrars told me.”

“And are they going farther westward?”

“And are they going further west?”

“Yes, ma’am—but not to bide long. They will soon be back again, and then they’d be sure and call here.”

“Yes, ma’am—but not for long. They’ll be back soon, and then they’ll definitely stop by.”

Mrs. Dashwood now looked at her daughter; but Elinor knew better than to expect them. She recognised the whole of Lucy in the message, and was very confident that Edward would never come near them. She observed in a low voice, to her mother, that they were probably going down to Mr. Pratt’s, near Plymouth.

Mrs. Dashwood looked at her daughter, but Elinor knew not to expect anything. She could see Lucy’s influence in the message and was pretty sure that Edward would never come near them. In a low voice, she mentioned to her mother that they were probably heading to Mr. Pratt’s place near Plymouth.

Thomas’s intelligence seemed over. Elinor looked as if she wished to hear more.

Thomas’s intelligence seemed to be fading. Elinor looked like she wanted to hear more.

“Did you see them off, before you came away?”

“Did you say goodbye to them before you left?”

“No, ma’am—the horses were just coming out, but I could not bide any longer; I was afraid of being late.”

“No, ma’am—the horses were just coming out, but I couldn't wait any longer; I was worried about being late.”

“Did Mrs. Ferrars look well?”

“Did Mrs. Ferrars look good?”

“Yes, ma’am, she said how she was very well; and to my mind she was always a very handsome young lady—and she seemed vastly contented.”

“Yes, ma’am, she said she was doing very well; and in my opinion, she was always a very beautiful young woman—and she seemed really happy.”

Mrs. Dashwood could think of no other question, and Thomas and the tablecloth, now alike needless, were soon afterwards dismissed. Marianne had already sent to say, that she should eat nothing more. Mrs. Dashwood’s and Elinor’s appetites were equally lost, and Margaret might think herself very well off, that with so much uneasiness as both her sisters had lately experienced, so much reason as they had often had to be careless of their meals, she had never been obliged to go without her dinner before.

Mrs. Dashwood couldn't think of any other questions, and soon after, both Thomas and the tablecloth, which were now unnecessary, were dismissed. Marianne had already sent word that she wouldn't eat anything else. Mrs. Dashwood and Elinor had both lost their appetites, and Margaret could consider herself quite lucky that despite the recent stress her sisters had experienced and the reasons they often had to skip meals, she had never had to go without her dinner before.

When the dessert and the wine were arranged, and Mrs. Dashwood and Elinor were left by themselves, they remained long together in a similarity of thoughtfulness and silence. Mrs. Dashwood feared to hazard any remark, and ventured not to offer consolation. She now found that she had erred in relying on Elinor’s representation of herself; and justly concluded that every thing had been expressly softened at the time, to spare her from an increase of unhappiness, suffering as she then had suffered for Marianne. She found that she had been misled by the careful, the considerate attention of her daughter, to think the attachment, which once she had so well understood, much slighter in reality, than she had been wont to believe, or than it was now proved to be. She feared that under this persuasion she had been unjust, inattentive, nay, almost unkind, to her Elinor;—that Marianne’s affliction, because more acknowledged, more immediately before her, had too much engrossed her tenderness, and led her away to forget that in Elinor she might have a daughter suffering almost as much, certainly with less self-provocation, and greater fortitude.

When dessert and wine were served, and Mrs. Dashwood and Elinor were alone together, they stayed silent for a long time, both lost in thought. Mrs. Dashwood was hesitant to say anything and didn’t want to offer any comfort. She realized she had made a mistake by believing Elinor’s portrayal of herself; she rightly concluded that everything had been intentionally softened at the time to spare her from feeling more unhappy, as she had already been suffering for Marianne. She understood she had been misled by her daughter’s careful and considerate attention, making her think that the attachment she once clearly recognized was actually much less intense than she had believed or than it now turned out to be. She was concerned that in believing this, she had been unfair, inattentive, and even almost unkind to Elinor; that Marianne’s distress, which was more obvious and acknowledged, had taken up too much of her compassion and caused her to forget that Elinor was suffering almost as much, certainly with less self-inflicted pain, and with greater strength.

CHAPTER XLVIII.

Elinor now found the difference between the expectation of an unpleasant event, however certain the mind may be told to consider it, and certainty itself. She now found, that in spite of herself, she had always admitted a hope, while Edward remained single, that something would occur to prevent his marrying Lucy; that some resolution of his own, some mediation of friends, or some more eligible opportunity of establishment for the lady, would arise to assist the happiness of all. But he was now married; and she condemned her heart for the lurking flattery, which so much heightened the pain of the intelligence.

Elinor now realized the difference between expecting something unpleasant, no matter how certain her mind tried to convince her, and the reality of it happening. She discovered that, despite herself, she had always held onto a hope—while Edward was still single—that something would happen to stop him from marrying Lucy; that he would make a decision, friends would intervene, or a better opportunity would come along for her happiness. But he was now married, and she blamed herself for the subtle flattery that only made the pain of this news worse.

That he should be married soon, before (as she imagined) he could be in orders, and consequently before he could be in possession of the living, surprised her a little at first. But she soon saw how likely it was that Lucy, in her self-provident care, in her haste to secure him, should overlook every thing but the risk of delay. They were married, married in town, and now hastening down to her uncle’s. What had Edward felt on being within four miles from Barton, on seeing her mother’s servant, on hearing Lucy’s message!

That he would get married soon, before (as she thought) he could take holy orders, and therefore before he could inherit the living, surprised her a bit at first. But she quickly realized how probable it was that Lucy, in her overly careful way and eagerness to secure him, would miss everything except the fear of waiting. They were married, married in the city, and now rushing down to her uncle’s. What had Edward felt when he was just four miles from Barton, seeing her mother’s servant, and hearing Lucy’s message!

They would soon, she supposed, be settled at Delaford.—Delaford,—that place in which so much conspired to give her an interest; which she wished to be acquainted with, and yet desired to avoid. She saw them in an instant in their parsonage-house; saw in Lucy, the active, contriving manager, uniting at once a desire of smart appearance with the utmost frugality, and ashamed to be suspected of half her economical practices;—pursuing her own interest in every thought, courting the favour of Colonel Brandon, of Mrs. Jennings, and of every wealthy friend. In Edward—she knew not what she saw, nor what she wished to see;—happy or unhappy,—nothing pleased her; she turned away her head from every sketch of him.

They would soon, she thought, be settled at Delaford. —Delaford— that place where so much came together to spark her interest; she wanted to get to know it but also wished to stay away. She instantly pictured them in their parsonage house; she imagined Lucy, the energetic planner, combining a desire for a stylish appearance with total thriftiness, and feeling embarrassed if anyone caught on to half her money-saving tricks; constantly looking out for her own benefit in every thought, seeking the favor of Colonel Brandon, Mrs. Jennings, and every wealthy friend. As for Edward—she didn't know what she saw or what she wanted to see; whether he was happy or unhappy—nothing made her feel satisfied; she looked away from any image of him.

Elinor flattered herself that some one of their connections in London would write to them to announce the event, and give farther particulars,—but day after day passed off, and brought no letter, no tidings. Though uncertain that any one were to blame, she found fault with every absent friend. They were all thoughtless or indolent.

Elinor convinced herself that someone from their network in London would write to them to announce the news and provide more details—but day after day went by without a letter or any updates. Although she wasn't sure anyone was at fault, she criticized every friend who was absent. They all seemed careless or lazy.

“When do you write to Colonel Brandon, ma’am?” was an inquiry which sprung from the impatience of her mind to have something going on.

“When are you going to write to Colonel Brandon, ma’am?” was a question that came from her eagerness to have something happening.

“I wrote to him, my love, last week, and rather expect to see, than to hear from him again. I earnestly pressed his coming to us, and should not be surprised to see him walk in today or tomorrow, or any day.”

“I wrote to him, my love, last week, and I really expect to see him rather than hear from him again. I strongly urged him to come visit us, and I wouldn’t be surprised to see him walk in today, tomorrow, or any day.”

This was gaining something, something to look forward to. Colonel Brandon must have some information to give.

This was gaining something, something to look forward to. Colonel Brandon must have some information to share.

Scarcely had she so determined it, when the figure of a man on horseback drew her eyes to the window. He stopt at their gate. It was a gentleman, it was Colonel Brandon himself. Now she could hear more; and she trembled in expectation of it. But it was not Colonel Brandon; neither his air, nor his height. Were it possible, she must say it must be Edward. She looked again. He had just dismounted: she could not be mistaken,—it was Edward. She moved away and sat down. “He comes from Mr. Pratt’s purposely to see us. I will be calm; I will be mistress of myself.”

As soon as she made that decision, she noticed a man on horseback outside the window. He stopped at their gate. It was a gentleman; it was Colonel Brandon himself. Now she could hear more, and she trembled in anticipation. But it was not Colonel Brandon; neither his demeanor nor his height matched. If it were possible, she would have to say it was Edward. She looked again. He had just gotten off his horse; she couldn’t be mistaken—it was Edward. She moved away and sat down. “He comes from Mr. Pratt’s just to see us. I will stay calm; I will keep my composure.”

In a moment she perceived that the others were likewise aware of the mistake. She saw her mother and Marianne change colour; saw them look at herself, and whisper a few sentences to each other. She would have given the world to be able to speak—and to make them understand that she hoped no coolness, no slight, would appear in their behaviour to him;—but she had no utterance, and was obliged to leave all to their own discretion.

In an instant, she realized that the others were also aware of the mistake. She saw her mom and Marianne turn pale; she noticed them glance at her and whisper a few words to each other. She would have done anything to be able to speak—and to make them understand that she hoped there would be no awkwardness or disrespect in their behavior towards him;—but she couldn't say a word and had to leave everything to their judgment.

Not a syllable passed aloud. They all waited in silence for the appearance of their visitor. His footsteps were heard along the gravel path; in a moment he was in the passage, and in another he was before them.

Not a word was spoken. They all waited in silence for their visitor to arrive. They heard his footsteps on the gravel path; in a moment, he was in the hallway, and soon after, he stood before them.

His countenance, as he entered the room, was not too happy, even for Elinor. His complexion was white with agitation, and he looked as if fearful of his reception, and conscious that he merited no kind one. Mrs. Dashwood, however, conforming, as she trusted, to the wishes of that daughter, by whom she then meant in the warmth of her heart to be guided in every thing, met him with a look of forced complacency, gave him her hand, and wished him joy.

His expression as he walked into the room was far from cheerful, even for Elinor. His face was pale with anxiety, and he appeared worried about how he would be received, aware that he didn’t deserve a warm welcome. Mrs. Dashwood, however, trying to honor her daughter’s wishes, which she planned to follow in everything from the bottom of her heart, greeted him with a forced smile, shook his hand, and wished him happiness.

He coloured, and stammered out an unintelligible reply. Elinor’s lips had moved with her mother’s, and, when the moment of action was over, she wished that she had shaken hands with him too. But it was then too late, and with a countenance meaning to be open, she sat down again and talked of the weather.

He blushed and stumbled over an unclear response. Elinor’s lips had moved with her mother’s, and once the moment had passed, she regretted not shaking hands with him as well. But it was too late for that, so she forced a friendly expression, sat back down, and started discussing the weather.

Marianne had retreated as much as possible out of sight, to conceal her distress; and Margaret, understanding some part, but not the whole of the case, thought it incumbent on her to be dignified, and therefore took a seat as far from him as she could, and maintained a strict silence.

Marianne had moved as far out of sight as she could to hide her distress; and Margaret, grasping some of the situation but not everything, felt it was her duty to be dignified. So, she chose a seat as far from him as possible and stayed completely silent.

When Elinor had ceased to rejoice in the dryness of the season, a very awful pause took place. It was put an end to by Mrs. Dashwood, who felt obliged to hope that he had left Mrs. Ferrars very well. In a hurried manner, he replied in the affirmative.

When Elinor stopped enjoying the dry weather, an uncomfortable silence fell over them. Mrs. Dashwood broke the silence, feeling she should express hope that he had left Mrs. Ferrars in good health. He quickly responded that he had.

Another pause.

Another break.

Elinor resolving to exert herself, though fearing the sound of her own voice, now said,

Elinor deciding to push herself, even though she was nervous about how her voice would sound, now said,

“Is Mrs. Ferrars at Longstaple?”

“Is Mrs. Ferrars at Longstaple?”

“At Longstaple!” he replied, with an air of surprise. “No, my mother is in town.”

“At Longstaple!” he said, sounding surprised. “No, my mom is in town.”

“I meant,” said Elinor, taking up some work from the table, “to enquire for Mrs. Edward Ferrars.”

“I meant,” said Elinor, picking up some work from the table, “to ask about Mrs. Edward Ferrars.”

She dared not look up;—but her mother and Marianne both turned their eyes on him. He coloured, seemed perplexed, looked doubtingly, and, after some hesitation, said,—

She didn't dare to look up;—but her mother and Marianne both turned their eyes toward him. He flushed, seemed confused, looked uncertain, and, after a moment of hesitation, said,—

“Perhaps you mean—my brother—you mean Mrs.—Mrs. Robert Ferrars.”

“Maybe you mean—my brother—you mean Mrs.—Mrs. Robert Ferrars.”

“Mrs. Robert Ferrars!” was repeated by Marianne and her mother in an accent of the utmost amazement; and though Elinor could not speak, even her eyes were fixed on him with the same impatient wonder. He rose from his seat, and walked to the window, apparently from not knowing what to do; took up a pair of scissors that lay there, and while spoiling both them and their sheath by cutting the latter to pieces as he spoke, said, in a hurried voice,—

“Mrs. Robert Ferrars!” Marianne and her mother exclaimed in complete shock, and even though Elinor couldn't say anything, her eyes were also locked on him with the same eager curiosity. He stood up and walked over to the window, seemingly unsure of what to do; he picked up a pair of scissors that were lying there and, while ruining both them and their case by cutting the latter to shreds as he spoke, said in a rushed tone,—

“Perhaps you do not know: you may not have heard that my brother is lately married to—to the youngest—to Miss Lucy Steele.”

“Maybe you’re not aware: you might not have heard that my brother recently married—the youngest—Miss Lucy Steele.”

His words were echoed with unspeakable astonishment by all but Elinor, who sat with her head leaning over her work, in a state of such agitation as made her hardly know where she was.

His words left everyone except Elinor in complete shock. She sat with her head bent over her work, so agitated that she barely knew where she was.

“Yes,” said he, “they were married last week, and are now at Dawlish.”

“Yes,” he said, “they got married last week and are now in Dawlish.”

Elinor could sit it no longer. She almost ran out of the room, and as soon as the door was closed, burst into tears of joy, which at first she thought would never cease. Edward, who had till then looked any where, rather than at her, saw her hurry away, and perhaps saw—or even heard, her emotion; for immediately afterwards he fell into a reverie, which no remarks, no inquiries, no affectionate address of Mrs. Dashwood could penetrate, and at last, without saying a word, quitted the room, and walked out towards the village—leaving the others in the greatest astonishment and perplexity on a change in his situation, so wonderful and so sudden;—a perplexity which they had no means of lessening but by their own conjectures.

Elinor couldn't take it anymore. She almost ran out of the room, and as soon as the door closed, she burst into tears of joy, which she initially thought would never stop. Edward, who had been avoiding looking at her, saw her rush away and maybe even noticed—or heard—her emotions. Immediately after, he fell into a deep thought that no comments, questions, or affectionate words from Mrs. Dashwood could break through, and finally, without saying anything, he left the room and walked toward the village—leaving everyone else in complete shock and confusion over such a remarkable and sudden change in his situation; a confusion that they could only try to understand through their own guesses.

CHAPTER XLIX.

Unaccountable, however, as the circumstances of his release might appear to the whole family, it was certain that Edward was free; and to what purpose that freedom would be employed was easily pre-determined by all;—for after experiencing the blessings of one imprudent engagement, contracted without his mother’s consent, as he had already done for more than four years, nothing less could be expected of him in the failure of that, than the immediate contraction of another.

Unaccountable as the circumstances of his release might seem to the whole family, it was clear that Edward was free; and everyone could easily guess how he would use that freedom. After experiencing the consequences of one reckless relationship, which he entered into without his mother’s consent, as he had already done for more than four years, it was reasonable to expect that if that relationship failed, he would immediately get involved in another one.

His errand at Barton, in fact, was a simple one. It was only to ask Elinor to marry him;—and considering that he was not altogether inexperienced in such a question, it might be strange that he should feel so uncomfortable in the present case as he really did, so much in need of encouragement and fresh air.

His task at Barton was really straightforward. He just needed to ask Elinor to marry him; and given that he wasn't completely new to this kind of thing, it might seem odd that he felt so uneasy about it this time, needing encouragement and a breath of fresh air.

How soon he had walked himself into the proper resolution, however, how soon an opportunity of exercising it occurred, in what manner he expressed himself, and how he was received, need not be particularly told. This only need be said;—that when they all sat down to table at four o’clock, about three hours after his arrival, he had secured his lady, engaged her mother’s consent, and was not only in the rapturous profession of the lover, but, in the reality of reason and truth, one of the happiest of men. His situation indeed was more than commonly joyful. He had more than the ordinary triumph of accepted love to swell his heart, and raise his spirits. He was released without any reproach to himself, from an entanglement which had long formed his misery, from a woman whom he had long ceased to love;—and elevated at once to that security with another, which he must have thought of almost with despair, as soon as he had learnt to consider it with desire. He was brought, not from doubt or suspense, but from misery to happiness;—and the change was openly spoken in such a genuine, flowing, grateful cheerfulness, as his friends had never witnessed in him before.

How quickly he had come to a firm decision, how soon he had the chance to act on it, how he expressed himself, and how he was received doesn't need much detail. What’s important to mention is that when they all sat down for dinner at four o’clock, about three hours after he arrived, he had won over his lady, gained her mother’s approval, and was not just passionately declaring his love but was, in truth and reason, one of the happiest men alive. His situation was more joyful than usual. He experienced more than the typical triumph of accepted love to fill his heart and lift his spirits. He was freed, without any blame on himself, from a complicated situation that had long caused him misery, with a woman he had long stopped loving;—and he was suddenly in a stable relationship with another woman, something he had almost thought impossible after he started to truly desire it. He moved not from doubt or uncertainty, but from misery to happiness;—and the transformation was evident in a genuine, flowing, grateful cheerfulness that his friends had never seen in him before.

His heart was now open to Elinor, all its weaknesses, all its errors confessed, and his first boyish attachment to Lucy treated with all the philosophic dignity of twenty-four.

His heart was now open to Elinor, revealing all its weaknesses and admitting all its mistakes, and his initial youthful infatuation with Lucy was approached with the mature perspective of twenty-four.

“It was a foolish, idle inclination on my side,” said he, “the consequence of ignorance of the world, and want of employment. Had my mother given me some active profession when I was removed at eighteen from the care of Mr. Pratt, I think, nay, I am sure, it would never have happened; for though I left Longstaple with what I thought, at the time, a most unconquerable preference for his niece, yet had I then had any pursuit, any object to engage my time and keep me at a distance from her for a few months, I should very soon have outgrown the fancied attachment, especially by mixing more with the world, as in such case I must have done. But instead of having any thing to do, instead of having any profession chosen for me, or being allowed to chuse any myself, I returned home to be completely idle; and for the first twelvemonth afterwards I had not even the nominal employment, which belonging to the university would have given me; for I was not entered at Oxford till I was nineteen. I had therefore nothing in the world to do, but to fancy myself in love; and as my mother did not make my home in every respect comfortable, as I had no friend, no companion in my brother, and disliked new acquaintance, it was not unnatural for me to be very often at Longstaple, where I always felt myself at home, and was always sure of a welcome; and accordingly I spent the greatest part of my time there from eighteen to nineteen: Lucy appeared everything that was amiable and obliging. She was pretty too—at least I thought so then; and I had seen so little of other women, that I could make no comparisons, and see no defects. Considering everything, therefore, I hope, foolish as our engagement was, foolish as it has since in every way been proved, it was not at the time an unnatural or an inexcusable piece of folly.”

“It was a foolish, idle impulse on my part,” he said, “a result of being ignorant about the world and having nothing to do. If my mother had given me a job or a career when I left Mr. Pratt's care at eighteen, I believe—and I am sure—it would never have happened. Even though I left Longstaple with what I thought was an unshakeable crush on his niece, if I had had any hobby or goal to keep me busy and away from her for a few months, I would have quickly moved past that imagined attachment, especially since I would have mixed more with the world in that case. But instead of having anything to engage me, instead of having a career chosen for me or being allowed to pick one myself, I returned home to do nothing; and for the first year afterward, I didn't even have the nominal tasks that being at university would have given me because I wasn’t enrolled at Oxford until I turned nineteen. So, I had absolutely nothing to do but to imagine that I was in love; and since my mother didn’t make home comfortable in every way, I had no friend or companion in my brother and didn't like making new acquaintances, it wasn't surprising that I spent a lot of time at Longstaple, where I always felt at home and was guaranteed a warm welcome. As a result, I spent most of my time there between eighteen and nineteen: Lucy seemed everything that was kind and pleasant. She was pretty too—at least I thought so then; and I had seen so little of other women that I could make no comparisons and see no flaws. Considering everything, I hope that despite how foolish our engagement was—and how foolish it has proven to be—it wasn’t entirely unnatural or inexcusable at the time.”

The change which a few hours had wrought in the minds and the happiness of the Dashwoods, was such—so great—as promised them all, the satisfaction of a sleepless night. Mrs. Dashwood, too happy to be comfortable, knew not how to love Edward, nor praise Elinor enough, how to be enough thankful for his release without wounding his delicacy, nor how at once to give them leisure for unrestrained conversation together, and yet enjoy, as she wished, the sight and society of both.

The change that a few hours had made in the thoughts and happiness of the Dashwoods was so significant that it promised them the reward of a sleepless night. Mrs. Dashwood, too happy to feel comfortable, didn’t know how to love Edward enough, or praise Elinor sufficiently, or express her gratitude for his freedom without hurting his feelings. At the same time, she struggled to allow them the space for open conversation together while enjoying, as she wanted, the presence and company of both.

Marianne could speak her happiness only by tears. Comparisons would occur—regrets would arise; and her joy, though sincere as her love for her sister, was of a kind to give her neither spirits nor language.

Marianne could only express her happiness through tears. She would find herself making comparisons and feeling regrets; her joy, although as genuine as her love for her sister, was of a type that left her without energy or words.

But Elinor—how are her feelings to be described? From the moment of learning that Lucy was married to another, that Edward was free, to the moment of his justifying the hopes which had so instantly followed, she was every thing by turns but tranquil. But when the second moment had passed, when she found every doubt, every solicitude removed, compared her situation with what so lately it had been,—saw him honourably released from his former engagement,—saw him instantly profiting by the release, to address herself and declare an affection as tender, as constant as she had ever supposed it to be,—she was oppressed, she was overcome by her own felicity; and happily disposed as is the human mind to be easily familiarized with any change for the better, it required several hours to give sedateness to her spirits, or any degree of tranquillity to her heart.

But Elinor—how can we describe her feelings? From the moment she found out that Lucy had married someone else, and that Edward was free, to the moment he confirmed the hopes that sprang up so quickly, she was anything but calm. But once that moment passed, and she found every doubt and worry gone, comparing her situation to what it had been not long ago—seeing him honorably released from his previous engagement—seeing him quickly make use of that freedom to turn to her and express an affection as deep and constant as she had always believed it to be—she was overwhelmed, completely taken aback by her own happiness. And, as the human mind is naturally inclined to adapt easily to any positive change, it took her several hours to regain her composure or any sense of peace in her heart.

Edward was now fixed at the cottage at least for a week;—for whatever other claims might be made on him, it was impossible that less than a week should be given up to the enjoyment of Elinor’s company, or suffice to say half that was to be said of the past, the present, and the future;—for though a very few hours spent in the hard labor of incessant talking will despatch more subjects than can really be in common between any two rational creatures, yet with lovers it is different. Between them no subject is finished, no communication is even made, till it has been made at least twenty times over.

Edward was now settled at the cottage for at least a week; whatever other commitments he might have, he couldn’t spend less than a week enjoying Elinor’s company, or even enough time to cover half of what needed to be said about the past, the present, and the future. Because while a few hours of intense conversation can cover more topics than two rational people could possibly have in common, it’s different for lovers. For them, no topic is ever completely finished, and no message is truly conveyed until it’s been shared at least twenty times.

Lucy’s marriage, the unceasing and reasonable wonder among them all, formed of course one of the earliest discussions of the lovers;—and Elinor’s particular knowledge of each party made it appear to her in every view, as one of the most extraordinary and unaccountable circumstances she had ever heard. How they could be thrown together, and by what attraction Robert could be drawn on to marry a girl, of whose beauty she had herself heard him speak without any admiration,—a girl too already engaged to his brother, and on whose account that brother had been thrown off by his family—it was beyond her comprehension to make out. To her own heart it was a delightful affair, to her imagination it was even a ridiculous one, but to her reason, her judgment, it was completely a puzzle.

Lucy’s marriage, the never-ending and reasonable surprise among them all, obviously became one of the first topics of discussion for the lovers. Elinor’s specific knowledge of each person made it seem to her, from every angle, one of the most remarkable and baffling things she had ever heard. How they could end up together, and what might compel Robert to marry a girl he had himself mentioned without any admiration—especially since she was already engaged to his brother, which had caused that brother to be disowned by his family—was beyond her ability to understand. To her heart, it was a delightful situation; to her imagination, it even seemed ridiculous, but to her reason and judgment, it was completely puzzling.

Edward could only attempt an explanation by supposing, that, perhaps, at first accidentally meeting, the vanity of the one had been so worked on by the flattery of the other, as to lead by degrees to all the rest. Elinor remembered what Robert had told her in Harley Street, of his opinion of what his own mediation in his brother’s affairs might have done, if applied to in time. She repeated it to Edward.

Edward could only try to explain by suggesting that, maybe, during their initial, accidental meeting, one person's vanity was so influenced by the other's flattery that it gradually led to everything else. Elinor recalled what Robert had told her on Harley Street about his thoughts on how his intervention in his brother’s matters could have made a difference if it had been sought sooner. She shared this with Edward.

That was exactly like Robert,” was his immediate observation. “And that,” he presently added, “might perhaps be in his head when the acquaintance between them first began. And Lucy perhaps at first might think only of procuring his good offices in my favour. Other designs might afterward arise.”

That was just like Robert,” he immediately noted. “And that,” he then added, “might have been in his mind when their friendship first started. And Lucy might have only been thinking about getting his help for me at first. Other plans might come up later.”

How long it had been carrying on between them, however, he was equally at a loss with herself to make out; for at Oxford, where he had remained for choice ever since his quitting London, he had had no means of hearing of her but from herself, and her letters to the very last were neither less frequent, nor less affectionate than usual. Not the smallest suspicion, therefore, had ever occurred to prepare him for what followed;—and when at last it burst on him in a letter from Lucy herself, he had been for some time, he believed, half stupified between the wonder, the horror, and the joy of such a deliverance. He put the letter into Elinor’s hands.

How long things had been going on between them, he couldn’t figure out; ever since he chose to stay in Oxford instead of returning to London, he hadn’t heard anything about her except from her own letters, which remained as frequent and loving as ever right up to the end. So, he hadn’t had the slightest suspicion to prepare him for what came next. When it finally hit him through a letter from Lucy, he felt dazed, caught between the shock, the horror, and the joy of such a revelation. He handed the letter to Elinor.

“DEAR SIR,
    “Being very sure I have long lost your affections, I have thought myself at liberty to bestow my own on another, and have no doubt of being as happy with him as I once used to think I might be with you; but I scorn to accept a hand while the heart was another’s. Sincerely wish you happy in your choice, and it shall not be my fault if we are not always good friends, as our near relationship now makes proper. I can safely say I owe you no ill-will, and am sure you will be too generous to do us any ill offices. Your brother has gained my affections entirely, and as we could not live without one another, we are just returned from the altar, and are now on our way to Dawlish for a few weeks, which place your dear brother has great curiosity to see, but thought I would first trouble you with these few lines, and shall always remain,

“Dear Sir,
    “I’m pretty sure I’ve long lost your feelings for me, so I felt free to share my heart with someone else. I have no doubt I’ll be just as happy with him as I once thought I could be with you. However, I wouldn’t accept a proposal while my heart belonged to another. I genuinely wish you happiness in your choice, and it won’t be my fault if we aren’t always good friends, as our close relationship now calls for. I can honestly say I bear you no resentment, and I’m sure you’ll be too kind to do us any harm. Your brother has completely won my heart, and since we couldn’t bear to be apart, we just returned from getting married. We’re now heading to Dawlish for a few weeks, a place your dear brother is eager to see, but I wanted to send you this quick note first, and I will always remain,

“Your sincere well-wisher, friend, and sister,            
“LUCY FERRARS.

“Your genuine supporter, friend, and sister,            
“LUCY FERRARS.

“I have burnt all your letters, and will return your picture the first opportunity. Please to destroy my scrawls—but the ring with my hair you are very welcome to keep.”

“I’ve burned all your letters, and I’ll give back your picture at the first chance. Please get rid of my notes—but you’re more than welcome to keep the ring with my hair.”

Elinor read and returned it without any comment.

Elinor read it and gave it back without any comments.

“I will not ask your opinion of it as a composition,” said Edward.—“For worlds would not I have had a letter of hers seen by you in former days.—In a sister it is bad enough, but in a wife!—how I have blushed over the pages of her writing!—and I believe I may say that since the first half year of our foolish—business—this is the only letter I ever received from her, of which the substance made me any amends for the defect of the style.”

“I won’t ask for your thoughts on it as a piece of writing,” said Edward. “I would’ve done anything to keep a letter from her out of your sight back then. It’s bad enough in a sister, but in a wife? I can’t tell you how many times I’ve blushed reading her pages! And I think I can say that since the first six months of our silly situation, this is the only letter I’ve received from her that made up for its poor writing.”

“However it may have come about,” said Elinor, after a pause,—“they are certainly married. And your mother has brought on herself a most appropriate punishment. The independence she settled on Robert, through resentment against you, has put it in his power to make his own choice; and she has actually been bribing one son with a thousand a-year, to do the very deed which she disinherited the other for intending to do. She will hardly be less hurt, I suppose, by Robert’s marrying Lucy, than she would have been by your marrying her.”

“However it happened,” Elinor said after a pause, “they're definitely married. And your mother has brought upon herself a fitting punishment. The independence she gave to Robert, out of resentment towards you, has allowed him to make his own choices; and she has actually been paying one son a thousand a year to do the very thing she disinherited the other for planning to do. I suppose she won’t be any less hurt by Robert marrying Lucy than she would have been by you marrying her.”

“She will be more hurt by it, for Robert always was her favourite.—She will be more hurt by it, and on the same principle will forgive him much sooner.”

“She will be more hurt by it because Robert was always her favorite. She will be more hurt by it, and for that reason, she will forgive him much sooner.”

In what state the affair stood at present between them, Edward knew not, for no communication with any of his family had yet been attempted by him. He had quitted Oxford within four and twenty hours after Lucy’s letter arrived, and with only one object before him, the nearest road to Barton, had had no leisure to form any scheme of conduct, with which that road did not hold the most intimate connection. He could do nothing till he were assured of his fate with Miss Dashwood; and by his rapidity in seeking that fate, it is to be supposed, in spite of the jealousy with which he had once thought of Colonel Brandon, in spite of the modesty with which he rated his own deserts, and the politeness with which he talked of his doubts, he did not, upon the whole, expect a very cruel reception. It was his business, however, to say that he did, and he said it very prettily. What he might say on the subject a twelvemonth after, must be referred to the imagination of husbands and wives.

Edward wasn’t sure what the situation was between him and Lucy because he hadn’t tried to communicate with his family yet. He had left Oxford just twenty-four hours after receiving her letter, with only one goal in mind: the quickest route to Barton, leaving him no time to think about any plans that didn’t directly relate to that journey. He couldn’t do anything until he knew his fate with Miss Dashwood; and judging by how quickly he was pursuing that fate, despite the jealousy he once felt toward Colonel Brandon, the humility with which he viewed his own worth, and the politeness with which he expressed his uncertainties, he overall didn’t expect a harsh reception. However, he had to pretend that he did, and he did so quite charmingly. What he might say about this a year later will be left to the imagination of married couples.

That Lucy had certainly meant to deceive, to go off with a flourish of malice against him in her message by Thomas, was perfectly clear to Elinor; and Edward himself, now thoroughly enlightened on her character, had no scruple in believing her capable of the utmost meanness of wanton ill-nature. Though his eyes had been long opened, even before his acquaintance with Elinor began, to her ignorance and a want of liberality in some of her opinions—they had been equally imputed, by him, to her want of education; and till her last letter reached him, he had always believed her to be a well-disposed, good-hearted girl, and thoroughly attached to himself. Nothing but such a persuasion could have prevented his putting an end to an engagement, which, long before the discovery of it laid him open to his mother’s anger, had been a continual source of disquiet and regret to him.

It was clear to Elinor that Lucy had definitely intended to deceive, to make a malicious point against him through her message delivered by Thomas. Edward, now fully aware of her true character, had no doubts that she was capable of the lowest form of mean-spirited behavior. Even though he had realized her ignorance and narrow-mindedness in some of her views well before he met Elinor, he had attributed these traits to her lack of education. Until he received her last letter, he had always thought of her as a kind, good-hearted person who was genuinely devoted to him. This belief had kept him from ending an engagement that, even before he discovered her true nature, had been a constant source of anxiety and regret for him.

“I thought it my duty,” said he, “independent of my feelings, to give her the option of continuing the engagement or not, when I was renounced by my mother, and stood to all appearance without a friend in the world to assist me. In such a situation as that, where there seemed nothing to tempt the avarice or the vanity of any living creature, how could I suppose, when she so earnestly, so warmly insisted on sharing my fate, whatever it might be, that any thing but the most disinterested affection was her inducement? And even now, I cannot comprehend on what motive she acted, or what fancied advantage it could be to her, to be fettered to a man for whom she had not the smallest regard, and who had only two thousand pounds in the world. She could not foresee that Colonel Brandon would give me a living.”

“I thought it was my duty,” he said, “regardless of my feelings, to give her the choice of continuing the engagement or not when my mother cut me off and I appeared to have no one in the world to help me. In a situation like that, where there seemed to be nothing to attract the greed or vanity of anyone, how could I believe, when she insisted so earnestly and passionately on sharing my fate, whatever it might be, that her motivation was anything other than the purest affection? Even now, I can't understand what motivated her or what she thought she would gain by tying herself to a man for whom she cared not at all, and who had only two thousand pounds to his name. She couldn't have known that Colonel Brandon would offer me a living.”

“No; but she might suppose that something would occur in your favour; that your own family might in time relent. And at any rate, she lost nothing by continuing the engagement, for she has proved that it fettered neither her inclination nor her actions. The connection was certainly a respectable one, and probably gained her consideration among her friends; and, if nothing more advantageous occurred, it would be better for her to marry you than be single.”

“No; but she might think that something would happen in your favor; that your family might eventually come around. And anyway, she wasn't losing anything by keeping the engagement, since it hasn't limited her choices or actions. The connection was definitely respectable and likely earned her some respect among her friends; and if nothing better came along, it would be better for her to marry you than to stay single.”

Edward was, of course, immediately convinced that nothing could have been more natural than Lucy’s conduct, nor more self-evident than the motive of it.

Edward was, of course, immediately convinced that nothing could have been more natural than Lucy's behavior, nor more obvious than her reasons for it.

Elinor scolded him, harshly as ladies always scold the imprudence which compliments themselves, for having spent so much time with them at Norland, when he must have felt his own inconstancy.

Elinor harshly scolded him, just like ladies always criticize the carelessness that flatters them, for spending so much time with them at Norland when he must have been aware of his own inconsistency.

“Your behaviour was certainly very wrong,” said she; “because—to say nothing of my own conviction, our relations were all led away by it to fancy and expect what, as you were then situated, could never be.”

“Your behavior was definitely very wrong,” she said; “because—putting aside my own beliefs, our connections were all misled by it to imagine and expect what, given that you were then in a situation that could never happen.”

He could only plead an ignorance of his own heart, and a mistaken confidence in the force of his engagement.

He could only admit that he didn't understand his own feelings and wrongly believed that his commitment was strong enough.

“I was simple enough to think, that because my faith was plighted to another, there could be no danger in my being with you; and that the consciousness of my engagement was to keep my heart as safe and sacred as my honour. I felt that I admired you, but I told myself it was only friendship; and till I began to make comparisons between yourself and Lucy, I did not know how far I was got. After that, I suppose, I was wrong in remaining so much in Sussex, and the arguments with which I reconciled myself to the expediency of it, were no better than these:—The danger is my own; I am doing no injury to anybody but myself.”

“I was naive enough to think that since my faith was pledged to someone else, there would be no risk in being with you; and that just being aware of my commitment would keep my heart as safe and sacred as my honor. I realized I admired you, but I convinced myself it was just friendship; and it wasn't until I started comparing you to Lucy that I understood how deep my feelings went. After that, I guess I was wrong to stay so much in Sussex, and the reasons I told myself to justify it weren't any better than this:—The risk is mine alone; I'm not hurting anyone but myself.”

Elinor smiled, and shook her head.

Elinor smiled and shook her head.

Edward heard with pleasure of Colonel Brandon’s being expected at the Cottage, as he really wished not only to be better acquainted with him, but to have an opportunity of convincing him that he no longer resented his giving him the living of Delaford—“Which, at present,” said he, “after thanks so ungraciously delivered as mine were on the occasion, he must think I have never forgiven him for offering.”

Edward was pleased to hear that Colonel Brandon was expected at the Cottage, as he genuinely wanted to get to know him better and to show him that he no longer held a grudge about being given the living of Delaford. “Which, considering,” he said, “after I expressed my thanks in such an ungrateful way at the time, he must think I’ve never really forgiven him for offering.”

Now he felt astonished himself that he had never yet been to the place. But so little interest had he taken in the matter, that he owed all his knowledge of the house, garden, and glebe, extent of the parish, condition of the land, and rate of the tithes, to Elinor herself, who had heard so much of it from Colonel Brandon, and heard it with so much attention, as to be entirely mistress of the subject.

Now he was surprised that he had never been to the place. However, he had shown so little interest that all his knowledge about the house, garden, and fields, the size of the parish, the state of the land, and the rate of the tithes, came from Elinor herself, who had listened attentively to Colonel Brandon and had become completely knowledgeable about the topic.

One question after this only remained undecided, between them, one difficulty only was to be overcome. They were brought together by mutual affection, with the warmest approbation of their real friends; their intimate knowledge of each other seemed to make their happiness certain—and they only wanted something to live upon. Edward had two thousand pounds, and Elinor one, which, with Delaford living, was all that they could call their own; for it was impossible that Mrs. Dashwood should advance anything; and they were neither of them quite enough in love to think that three hundred and fifty pounds a-year would supply them with the comforts of life.

Only one question was left unanswered between them, and just one obstacle needed to be overcome. They were brought together by mutual affection, with the full support of their true friends; their deep understanding of each other seemed to assure their happiness—and all they needed was a way to support themselves. Edward had two thousand pounds, and Elinor had one, which, along with the income from Delaford, was all they could claim as their own; it was impossible for Mrs. Dashwood to provide any financial assistance; and neither of them was quite in love enough to believe that three hundred and fifty pounds a year would provide them with the comforts of life.

Edward was not entirely without hopes of some favourable change in his mother towards him; and on that he rested for the residue of their income. But Elinor had no such dependence; for since Edward would still be unable to marry Miss Morton, and his chusing herself had been spoken of in Mrs. Ferrars’s flattering language as only a lesser evil than his chusing Lucy Steele, she feared that Robert’s offence would serve no other purpose than to enrich Fanny.

Edward still held onto some hope for a positive change in how his mother viewed him; that was what he relied on for the rest of their income. But Elinor had no such hope because, since Edward still couldn't marry Miss Morton, and Mrs. Ferrars had described his choosing Elinor as just a slightly better option than choosing Lucy Steele, she worried that Robert's mistake would only end up benefiting Fanny.

About four days after Edward’s arrival Colonel Brandon appeared, to complete Mrs. Dashwood’s satisfaction, and to give her the dignity of having, for the first time since her living at Barton, more company with her than her house would hold. Edward was allowed to retain the privilege of first comer, and Colonel Brandon therefore walked every night to his old quarters at the Park; from whence he usually returned in the morning, early enough to interrupt the lovers’ first tête-à-tête before breakfast.

About four days after Edward arrived, Colonel Brandon showed up, much to Mrs. Dashwood's delight, giving her the honor of finally having more guests than her house could actually accommodate since moving to Barton. Edward still got to keep the status of being the first visitor, so Colonel Brandon walked back to his usual spot at the Park every night; he would usually come back in the morning, just in time to break up the couple's first private chat before breakfast.

A three weeks’ residence at Delaford, where, in his evening hours at least, he had little to do but to calculate the disproportion between thirty-six and seventeen, brought him to Barton in a temper of mind which needed all the improvement in Marianne’s looks, all the kindness of her welcome, and all the encouragement of her mother’s language, to make it cheerful. Among such friends, however, and such flattery, he did revive. No rumour of Lucy’s marriage had yet reached him:—he knew nothing of what had passed; and the first hours of his visit were consequently spent in hearing and in wondering. Every thing was explained to him by Mrs. Dashwood, and he found fresh reason to rejoice in what he had done for Mr. Ferrars, since eventually it promoted the interest of Elinor.

A three-week stay at Delaford, where he had little to do in the evenings except think about the gap between thirty-six and seventeen, brought him to Barton in a state of mind that needed all of Marianne’s improved looks, the warmth of her welcome, and her mother’s encouraging words to feel cheerful. However, surrounded by such friends and flattery, he did start to feel better. He hadn’t heard any rumors about Lucy’s marriage yet; he was completely unaware of what had happened, so the first hours of his visit were spent listening and wondering. Mrs. Dashwood explained everything to him, and he found new reasons to feel happy about what he had done for Mr. Ferrars, as it ultimately benefited Elinor.

It would be needless to say, that the gentlemen advanced in the good opinion of each other, as they advanced in each other’s acquaintance, for it could not be otherwise. Their resemblance in good principles and good sense, in disposition and manner of thinking, would probably have been sufficient to unite them in friendship, without any other attraction; but their being in love with two sisters, and two sisters fond of each other, made that mutual regard inevitable and immediate, which might otherwise have waited the effect of time and judgment.

It goes without saying that the men grew in their positive views of each other as they got to know one another better, because it was bound to happen. Their shared good principles and common sense, along with similar personalities and ways of thinking, would likely have been enough to forge a friendship, even without any other reasons. However, their mutual affection for two sisters—who were also fond of each other—made their bond immediate and unavoidable, something that might have otherwise taken time and careful consideration to develop.

The letters from town, which a few days before would have made every nerve in Elinor’s body thrill with transport, now arrived to be read with less emotion than mirth. Mrs. Jennings wrote to tell the wonderful tale, to vent her honest indignation against the jilting girl, and pour forth her compassion towards poor Mr. Edward, who, she was sure, had quite doted upon the worthless hussy, and was now, by all accounts, almost broken-hearted, at Oxford. “I do think,” she continued, “nothing was ever carried on so sly; for it was but two days before Lucy called and sat a couple of hours with me. Not a soul suspected anything of the matter, not even Nancy, who, poor soul! came crying to me the day after, in a great fright for fear of Mrs. Ferrars, as well as not knowing how to get to Plymouth; for Lucy it seems borrowed all her money before she went off to be married, on purpose we suppose to make a show with, and poor Nancy had not seven shillings in the world; so I was very glad to give her five guineas to take her down to Exeter, where she thinks of staying three or four weeks with Mrs. Burgess, in hopes, as I tell her, to fall in with the Doctor again. And I must say that Lucy’s crossness not to take them along with them in the chaise is worse than all. Poor Mr. Edward! I cannot get him out of my head, but you must send for him to Barton, and Miss Marianne must try to comfort him.”

The letters from town, which just a few days earlier would have sent a rush of excitement through Elinor, now arrived to be read with more amusement than emotion. Mrs. Jennings wrote to share the amazing story, express her genuine anger at the girl who had led Mr. Edward on, and offer her sympathy for poor Mr. Edward, who, she believed, had completely fallen for the worthless woman and was now, by all accounts, nearly heartbroken at Oxford. “I really think,” she went on, “nothing was ever done so sneakily; just two days before, Lucy came over and spent a couple of hours with me. No one suspected anything was wrong, not even Nancy, who, poor girl! came crying to me the next day in a panic about Mrs. Ferrars, and also didn’t know how to get to Plymouth; apparently, Lucy borrowed all her money before she left to get married, probably to show off, and poor Nancy didn’t have seven shillings to her name; so I was very happy to give her five guineas to take her down to Exeter, where she plans to stay for three or four weeks with Mrs. Burgess, hoping, as I told her, to run into the Doctor again. And I must say that Lucy’s mean-spiritedness in not taking them along in the carriage is the worst of it all. Poor Mr. Edward! I can’t stop thinking about him, but you must bring him to Barton, and Miss Marianne should try to comfort him.”

Mr. Dashwood’s strains were more solemn. Mrs. Ferrars was the most unfortunate of women—poor Fanny had suffered agonies of sensibility—and he considered the existence of each, under such a blow, with grateful wonder. Robert’s offence was unpardonable, but Lucy’s was infinitely worse. Neither of them were ever again to be mentioned to Mrs. Ferrars; and even, if she might hereafter be induced to forgive her son, his wife should never be acknowledged as her daughter, nor be permitted to appear in her presence. The secrecy with which everything had been carried on between them, was rationally treated as enormously heightening the crime, because, had any suspicion of it occurred to the others, proper measures would have been taken to prevent the marriage; and he called on Elinor to join with him in regretting that Lucy’s engagement with Edward had not rather been fulfilled, than that she should thus be the means of spreading misery farther in the family. He thus continued:—

Mr. Dashwood's concerns were more serious. Mrs. Ferrars was the most unfortunate of women—poor Fanny had gone through immense emotional pain—and he viewed the situation of each person involved, under such a blow, with a sense of grateful wonder. Robert’s actions were unforgivable, but Lucy’s were even worse. Neither of them would ever be mentioned to Mrs. Ferrars again; and even if she could eventually bring herself to forgive her son, she would never accept his wife as her daughter, nor allow her to be in her presence. The secrecy that shrouded everything between them was seen as significantly increasing the severity of the crime, because if anyone had suspected it, appropriate measures would have been taken to stop the marriage. He urged Elinor to join him in lamenting that Lucy’s engagement with Edward had not been fulfilled, rather than having her be the cause of spreading further misery within the family. He continued:—

“Mrs. Ferrars has never yet mentioned Edward’s name, which does not surprise us; but, to our great astonishment, not a line has been received from him on the occasion. Perhaps, however, he is kept silent by his fear of offending, and I shall, therefore, give him a hint, by a line to Oxford, that his sister and I both think a letter of proper submission from him, addressed perhaps to Fanny, and by her shown to her mother, might not be taken amiss; for we all know the tenderness of Mrs. Ferrars’s heart, and that she wishes for nothing so much as to be on good terms with her children.”

“Mrs. Ferrars has never mentioned Edward's name, which doesn't surprise us; however, we are quite shocked that we haven't received a word from him about this. Perhaps he is staying quiet out of fear of upsetting anyone, so I will drop him a hint with a note to Oxford, suggesting that a letter of proper apology from him, maybe addressed to Fanny and shown to her mother, might be well-received. We all know how kind Mrs. Ferrars is and that she wishes nothing more than to get along with her children.”

This paragraph was of some importance to the prospects and conduct of Edward. It determined him to attempt a reconciliation, though not exactly in the manner pointed out by their brother and sister.

This paragraph was important to Edward's prospects and actions. It convinced him to try to make amends, even if it wasn't exactly the way his brother and sister suggested.

“A letter of proper submission!” repeated he; “would they have me beg my mother’s pardon for Robert’s ingratitude to her, and breach of honour to me? I can make no submission. I am grown neither humble nor penitent by what has passed. I am grown very happy; but that would not interest. I know of no submission that is proper for me to make.”

“A letter of proper submission!” he repeated. “Would they have me apologize to my mother for Robert’s disrespect toward her and breach of honor to me? I can’t submit to that. I haven’t become humble or regretful because of what happened. I’ve actually become very happy; but that wouldn’t matter to them. I don’t see any submission that is appropriate for me to make.”

“You may certainly ask to be forgiven,” said Elinor, “because you have offended;—and I should think you might now venture so far as to profess some concern for having ever formed the engagement which drew on you your mother’s anger.”

“You can definitely ask for forgiveness,” Elinor said, “since you’ve done something wrong;—and I think you might now be brave enough to show some regret for ever getting into the engagement that made your mother so angry.”

He agreed that he might.

He agreed that he might.

“And when she has forgiven you, perhaps a little humility may be convenient while acknowledging a second engagement, almost as imprudent in her eyes as the first.”

“And when she has forgiven you, maybe a little humility would be appropriate while recognizing a second engagement, which seems just as unwise in her eyes as the first.”

He had nothing to urge against it, but still resisted the idea of a letter of proper submission; and therefore, to make it easier to him, as he declared a much greater willingness to make mean concessions by word of mouth than on paper, it was resolved that, instead of writing to Fanny, he should go to London, and personally intreat her good offices in his favour. “And if they really do interest themselves,” said Marianne, in her new character of candour, “in bringing about a reconciliation, I shall think that even John and Fanny are not entirely without merit.”

He had no objections to it, but still resisted the idea of writing a proper letter of submission. So, to make it easier for him, since he admitted he was much more willing to make humble concessions in person rather than on paper, it was decided that instead of writing to Fanny, he should go to London and personally ask for her help on his behalf. “And if they really do care,” said Marianne, in her new role of honesty, “about bringing about a reconciliation, I’ll believe that even John and Fanny have some redeeming qualities.”

After a visit on Colonel Brandon’s side of only three or four days, the two gentlemen quitted Barton together. They were to go immediately to Delaford, that Edward might have some personal knowledge of his future home, and assist his patron and friend in deciding on what improvements were needed to it; and from thence, after staying there a couple of nights, he was to proceed on his journey to town.

After staying at Colonel Brandon’s place for just three or four days, the two gentlemen left Barton together. They were heading straight to Delaford so Edward could get to know his future home and help his patron and friend figure out what improvements were needed. After spending a couple of nights there, he was set to continue his journey to town.

CHAPTER L.

After a proper resistance on the part of Mrs. Ferrars, just so violent and so steady as to preserve her from that reproach which she always seemed fearful of incurring, the reproach of being too amiable, Edward was admitted to her presence, and pronounced to be again her son.

After a strong resistance from Mrs. Ferrars, so intense and unwavering that it spared her from the criticism she always seemed worried about facing—the criticism of being too nice—Edward was allowed to see her and was declared to be her son once more.

Her family had of late been exceedingly fluctuating. For many years of her life she had had two sons; but the crime and annihilation of Edward a few weeks ago, had robbed her of one; the similar annihilation of Robert had left her for a fortnight without any; and now, by the resuscitation of Edward, she had one again.

Her family had been incredibly unstable lately. For many years, she had two sons; but the death of Edward a few weeks ago had taken one away from her. Then, the similar loss of Robert had left her without any sons for two weeks, and now, with Edward back, she had one again.

In spite of his being allowed once more to live, however, he did not feel the continuance of his existence secure, till he had revealed his present engagement; for the publication of that circumstance, he feared, might give a sudden turn to his constitution, and carry him off as rapidly as before. With apprehensive caution therefore it was revealed, and he was listened to with unexpected calmness. Mrs. Ferrars at first reasonably endeavoured to dissuade him from marrying Miss Dashwood, by every argument in her power;—told him, that in Miss Morton he would have a woman of higher rank and larger fortune;—and enforced the assertion, by observing that Miss Morton was the daughter of a nobleman with thirty thousand pounds, while Miss Dashwood was only the daughter of a private gentleman with no more than three; but when she found that, though perfectly admitting the truth of her representation, he was by no means inclined to be guided by it, she judged it wisest, from the experience of the past, to submit—and therefore, after such an ungracious delay as she owed to her own dignity, and as served to prevent every suspicion of good-will, she issued her decree of consent to the marriage of Edward and Elinor.

In spite of being allowed to live again, he didn’t feel safe about his existence until he had revealed his current engagement. He worried that sharing this information might suddenly change his situation and take him away just as quickly as before. So, he cautiously disclosed it, and to his surprise, everyone listened with unexpected calmness. Mrs. Ferrars initially tried to convince him not to marry Miss Dashwood using every argument she could muster—she told him that with Miss Morton, he would have a woman of higher status and greater wealth. She emphasized her point by noting that Miss Morton was the daughter of a nobleman with thirty thousand pounds, while Miss Dashwood was just the daughter of a private gentleman with only three; but when she realized that, although he completely accepted her perspective, he had no intention of being swayed by it, she decided it was best, based on past experiences, to concede. After a begrudging pause meant to preserve her dignity and to avoid any suspicion of goodwill, she finally gave her consent to the marriage of Edward and Elinor.

What she would engage to do towards augmenting their income was next to be considered; and here it plainly appeared, that though Edward was now her only son, he was by no means her eldest; for while Robert was inevitably endowed with a thousand pounds a-year, not the smallest objection was made against Edward’s taking orders for the sake of two hundred and fifty at the utmost; nor was anything promised either for the present or in future, beyond the ten thousand pounds, which had been given with Fanny.

What she would commit to do to increase their income was the next thing to think about; and it clearly showed that although Edward was now her only son, he was certainly not her oldest. While Robert was guaranteed to have a thousand pounds a year, no one objected to Edward becoming a clergyman for just two hundred and fifty at most; nor was there anything promised now or in the future, aside from the ten thousand pounds given to Fanny.

It was as much, however, as was desired, and more than was expected, by Edward and Elinor; and Mrs. Ferrars herself, by her shuffling excuses, seemed the only person surprised at her not giving more.

It was as much as Edward and Elinor wanted, and even more than they expected; Mrs. Ferrars herself, with her awkward excuses, seemed to be the only person surprised that she wasn't giving more.

With an income quite sufficient to their wants thus secured to them, they had nothing to wait for after Edward was in possession of the living, but the readiness of the house, to which Colonel Brandon, with an eager desire for the accommodation of Elinor, was making considerable improvements; and after waiting some time for their completion, after experiencing, as usual, a thousand disappointments and delays from the unaccountable dilatoriness of the workmen, Elinor, as usual, broke through the first positive resolution of not marrying till every thing was ready, and the ceremony took place in Barton church early in the autumn.

With enough income to meet their needs secured, there was nothing left to wait for after Edward took the position, except for the house to be ready. Colonel Brandon, eager to accommodate Elinor, was making significant improvements. After waiting for some time for the work to be done and dealing, as usual, with countless disappointments and delays due to the inexplicable slowness of the workers, Elinor eventually broke her initial firm decision not to marry until everything was ready, and the ceremony took place at Barton church early in the autumn.

The first month after their marriage was spent with their friend at the Mansion-house; from whence they could superintend the progress of the Parsonage, and direct every thing as they liked on the spot;—could chuse papers, project shrubberies, and invent a sweep. Mrs. Jennings’s prophecies, though rather jumbled together, were chiefly fulfilled; for she was able to visit Edward and his wife in their Parsonage by Michaelmas, and she found in Elinor and her husband, as she really believed, one of the happiest couples in the world. They had in fact nothing to wish for, but the marriage of Colonel Brandon and Marianne, and rather better pasturage for their cows.

The first month after their marriage was spent with their friend at the Mansion-house, where they could oversee the construction of the Parsonage and manage everything as they liked on the spot—they could choose wallpapers, plan gardens, and design a chimney. Mrs. Jennings’s predictions, though somewhat mixed up, mostly came true; she was able to visit Edward and his wife in their Parsonage by Michaelmas, and she found in Elinor and her husband, as she truly believed, one of the happiest couples in the world. They really had nothing to wish for except for Colonel Brandon and Marianne to get married, and a bit better pasture for their cows.

They were visited on their first settling by almost all their relations and friends. Mrs. Ferrars came to inspect the happiness which she was almost ashamed of having authorised; and even the Dashwoods were at the expense of a journey from Sussex to do them honour.

They were visited during their initial settling by nearly all their relatives and friends. Mrs. Ferrars came to check on the happiness that she felt almost embarrassed about having encouraged; and even the Dashwoods made the effort to travel from Sussex to pay their respects.

“I will not say that I am disappointed, my dear sister,” said John, as they were walking together one morning before the gates of Delaford House, “that would be saying too much, for certainly you have been one of the most fortunate young women in the world, as it is. But, I confess, it would give me great pleasure to call Colonel Brandon brother. His property here, his place, his house, every thing is in such respectable and excellent condition! And his woods,—I have not seen such timber any where in Dorsetshire, as there is now standing in Delaford Hanger! And though, perhaps, Marianne may not seem exactly the person to attract him, yet I think it would altogether be advisable for you to have them now frequently staying with you, for as Colonel Brandon seems a great deal at home, nobody can tell what may happen; for, when people are much thrown together, and see little of anybody else,—and it will always be in your power to set her off to advantage, and so forth. In short, you may as well give her a chance: you understand me.”

“I won’t say that I’m disappointed, my dear sister,” John said as they walked together one morning in front of the gates of Delaford House, “that would be saying too much, since you have been one of the most fortunate young women in the world, as it is. But I have to admit, it would make me very happy to call Colonel Brandon my brother. His property here, his estate, his house—everything is in such great shape! And his woods—I haven’t seen timber anywhere in Dorsetshire that compares to what’s in Delaford Hanger! And although Marianne may not seem like the kind of person to attract him, I really think it would be wise for you to have them visiting you often, because since Colonel Brandon feels quite at home here, you never know what might happen. When people spend a lot of time together and don’t see many others, anything’s possible—and you’ll always have the ability to present her in the best light, and so on. In short, you might as well give her a chance: you know what I mean.”

But though Mrs. Ferrars did come to see them, and always treated them with the make-believe of decent affection, they were never insulted by her real favour and preference. That was due to the folly of Robert, and the cunning of his wife; and it was earned by them before many months had passed away. The selfish sagacity of the latter, which had at first drawn Robert into the scrape, was the principal instrument of his deliverance from it; for her respectful humility, assiduous attentions, and endless flatteries, as soon as the smallest opening was given for their exercise, reconciled Mrs. Ferrars to his choice, and re-established him completely in her favour.

But even though Mrs. Ferrars did come to see them and always pretended to care for them, they were never truly favored by her real affection and preference. That was the result of Robert’s foolishness and his wife’s manipulation, and they earned it within just a few months. The selfish cleverness of the latter, which had initially gotten Robert into the mess, was also what ultimately helped him get out of it; because her respectful humility, constant attentiveness, and endless flattery, as soon as the smallest chance arose for them to be shown, won Mrs. Ferrars over to his decision and completely restored him in her good graces.

The whole of Lucy’s behaviour in the affair, and the prosperity which crowned it, therefore, may be held forth as a most encouraging instance of what an earnest, an unceasing attention to self-interest, however its progress may be apparently obstructed, will do in securing every advantage of fortune, with no other sacrifice than that of time and conscience. When Robert first sought her acquaintance, and privately visited her in Bartlett’s Buildings, it was only with the view imputed to him by his brother. He merely meant to persuade her to give up the engagement; and as there could be nothing to overcome but the affection of both, he naturally expected that one or two interviews would settle the matter. In that point, however, and that only, he erred; for though Lucy soon gave him hopes that his eloquence would convince her in time, another visit, another conversation, was always wanted to produce this conviction. Some doubts always lingered in her mind when they parted, which could only be removed by another half hour’s discourse with himself. His attendance was by this means secured, and the rest followed in course. Instead of talking of Edward, they came gradually to talk only of Robert,—a subject on which he had always more to say than on any other, and in which she soon betrayed an interest even equal to his own; and in short, it became speedily evident to both, that he had entirely supplanted his brother. He was proud of his conquest, proud of tricking Edward, and very proud of marrying privately without his mother’s consent. What immediately followed is known. They passed some months in great happiness at Dawlish; for she had many relations and old acquaintances to cut—and he drew several plans for magnificent cottages;—and from thence returning to town, procured the forgiveness of Mrs. Ferrars, by the simple expedient of asking it, which, at Lucy’s instigation, was adopted. The forgiveness, at first, indeed, as was reasonable, comprehended only Robert; and Lucy, who had owed his mother no duty and therefore could have transgressed none, still remained some weeks longer unpardoned. But perseverance in humility of conduct and messages, in self-condemnation for Robert’s offence, and gratitude for the unkindness she was treated with, procured her in time the haughty notice which overcame her by its graciousness, and led soon afterwards, by rapid degrees, to the highest state of affection and influence. Lucy became as necessary to Mrs. Ferrars, as either Robert or Fanny; and while Edward was never cordially forgiven for having once intended to marry her, and Elinor, though superior to her in fortune and birth, was spoken of as an intruder, she was in every thing considered, and always openly acknowledged, to be a favourite child. They settled in town, received very liberal assistance from Mrs. Ferrars, were on the best terms imaginable with the Dashwoods; and setting aside the jealousies and ill-will continually subsisting between Fanny and Lucy, in which their husbands of course took a part, as well as the frequent domestic disagreements between Robert and Lucy themselves, nothing could exceed the harmony in which they all lived together.

Lucy’s behavior in the whole situation, along with the success that came from it, stands as a really encouraging example of how dedicated and consistent attention to one’s own interests, no matter how much it seems blocked, can secure every chance for good fortune, with no sacrifices except for time and morals. When Robert first went to meet her and visited her privately in Bartlett’s Buildings, he was only trying to do what his brother assumed of him. He just wanted to persuade her to end the engagement; since the only thing to overcome was their mutual affection, he thought a couple of meetings would settle everything. He was mistaken in that one aspect, though, because even though Lucy soon gave him hope that he would eventually convince her, every time they met, it took another visit, another conversation, to solidify that belief. She always had some lingering doubts when they parted, which could only be cleared up by another half-hour discussion with him. This way, he managed to secure his presence, and everything else fell into place. Instead of discussing Edward, their conversations gradually shifted to Robert, which was a topic he had much more to say about, and Lucy soon showed interest that matched his own; it quickly became clear to both of them that Robert had completely replaced his brother. He felt proud of his victory, proud of outsmarting Edward, and very proud of marrying quietly without his mother’s approval. What happened next is well-known. They spent several months in great happiness at Dawlish; she had many relatives and old friends to cut ties with—and he drafted several plans for beautiful cottages; then, after returning to town, he secured Mrs. Ferrars's forgiveness simply by asking for it, a move prompted by Lucy. Initially, the forgiveness, as was reasonable, applied only to Robert; Lucy, having owed nothing to his mother, had committed no offense and remained unpardoned for a few weeks longer. However, her persistence in being humble, sending messages, taking blame for Robert’s mistakes, and expressing gratitude for how unkindly she had been treated eventually won her the haughty recognition that overwhelmed her with its kindness, leading quickly to a deep affection and influence. Lucy became just as important to Mrs. Ferrars as Robert or Fanny; and while Edward was never truly forgiven for once wanting to marry her, and Elinor, despite being superior in wealth and status, was regarded as an interloper, Lucy was consistently seen as a favorite child. They settled in town, received generous support from Mrs. Ferrars, maintained excellent relations with the Dashwoods; and aside from the jealousy and animosity that constantly existed between Fanny and Lucy, which their husbands naturally participated in, as well as the frequent conflicts between Robert and Lucy themselves, nothing could surpass the harmony in which they all lived together.

What Edward had done to forfeit the right of eldest son, might have puzzled many people to find out; and what Robert had done to succeed to it, might have puzzled them still more. It was an arrangement, however, justified in its effects, if not in its cause; for nothing ever appeared in Robert’s style of living or of talking to give a suspicion of his regretting the extent of his income, as either leaving his brother too little, or bringing himself too much;—and if Edward might be judged from the ready discharge of his duties in every particular, from an increasing attachment to his wife and his home, and from the regular cheerfulness of his spirits, he might be supposed no less contented with his lot, no less free from every wish of an exchange.

What Edward had done to lose the title of eldest son might have confused many people trying to figure it out; and what Robert had done to take over that title might have confused them even more. However, it was a situation that worked out well in practice, if not in its reasons; because nothing in Robert’s lifestyle or the way he talked suggested that he regretted the size of his income, either for leaving his brother with too little or giving himself too much. And judging by Edward’s prompt fulfillment of his responsibilities, his growing affection for his wife and home, and his consistent cheerfulness, he could be seen as equally content with his situation, with no desire to change places.

Elinor’s marriage divided her as little from her family as could well be contrived, without rendering the cottage at Barton entirely useless, for her mother and sisters spent much more than half their time with her. Mrs. Dashwood was acting on motives of policy as well as pleasure in the frequency of her visits at Delaford; for her wish of bringing Marianne and Colonel Brandon together was hardly less earnest, though rather more liberal than what John had expressed. It was now her darling object. Precious as was the company of her daughter to her, she desired nothing so much as to give up its constant enjoyment to her valued friend; and to see Marianne settled at the mansion-house was equally the wish of Edward and Elinor. They each felt his sorrows, and their own obligations, and Marianne, by general consent, was to be the reward of all.

Elinor’s marriage kept her connected to her family as much as possible without making the cottage at Barton completely useless, since her mother and sisters spent more than half their time with her. Mrs. Dashwood was motivated by both strategy and joy in how often she visited Delaford; her desire to bring Marianne and Colonel Brandon together was as strong, though more generous, than what John had expressed. This was now her cherished goal. Despite how precious her daughter’s company was to her, she wanted nothing more than to let her valued friend enjoy it constantly; seeing Marianne settled at the mansion was also what Edward and Elinor wanted. They both felt his sadness and their own responsibilities, and Marianne was, by general agreement, to be the reward for all their efforts.

With such a confederacy against her—with a knowledge so intimate of his goodness—with a conviction of his fond attachment to herself, which at last, though long after it was observable to everybody else—burst on her—what could she do?

With such a coalition against her—with such a deep understanding of his kindness—with a belief in his strong affection for her, which eventually, although long after it was clear to everyone else—hit her—what could she do?

Marianne Dashwood was born to an extraordinary fate. She was born to discover the falsehood of her own opinions, and to counteract, by her conduct, her most favourite maxims. She was born to overcome an affection formed so late in life as at seventeen, and with no sentiment superior to strong esteem and lively friendship, voluntarily to give her hand to another!—and that other, a man who had suffered no less than herself under the event of a former attachment, whom, two years before, she had considered too old to be married,—and who still sought the constitutional safeguard of a flannel waistcoat!

Marianne Dashwood was destined for an unusual life. She was meant to realize the flaws in her own beliefs and to challenge, through her actions, her favorite principles. She was meant to move past a love that had developed late in life at seventeen and, without any feelings deeper than strong fondness and lively friendship, to willingly give her heart to someone else!—and that someone was a man who had suffered just as much as she did from a previous relationship, a man she had thought two years earlier was too old to marry—and who still wore a flannel waistcoat for comfort!

But so it was. Instead of falling a sacrifice to an irresistible passion, as once she had fondly flattered herself with expecting,—instead of remaining even for ever with her mother, and finding her only pleasures in retirement and study, as afterwards in her more calm and sober judgment she had determined on,—she found herself at nineteen, submitting to new attachments, entering on new duties, placed in a new home, a wife, the mistress of a family, and the patroness of a village.

But that’s how it turned out. Instead of becoming a victim of an overwhelming passion, as she had once naively hoped, instead of staying forever with her mother and finding joy only in solitude and study, as she later decided in her more rational moments, she found herself at nineteen, forming new connections, taking on new responsibilities, settling into a new home as a wife, the head of a household, and a supporter of a village.

Colonel Brandon was now as happy, as all those who best loved him, believed he deserved to be;—in Marianne he was consoled for every past affliction;—her regard and her society restored his mind to animation, and his spirits to cheerfulness; and that Marianne found her own happiness in forming his, was equally the persuasion and delight of each observing friend. Marianne could never love by halves; and her whole heart became, in time, as much devoted to her husband, as it had once been to Willoughby.

Colonel Brandon was now as happy as all those who cared about him believed he deserved to be. Marianne was his comfort for every past hurt; her affection and companionship brought him back to life and lifted his spirits. The fact that Marianne found her own happiness in making him happy was a shared belief and joy among their friends. Marianne could never love halfway; in time, her whole heart became as committed to her husband as it had once been to Willoughby.

Willoughby could not hear of her marriage without a pang; and his punishment was soon afterwards complete in the voluntary forgiveness of Mrs. Smith, who, by stating his marriage with a woman of character, as the source of her clemency, gave him reason for believing that had he behaved with honour towards Marianne, he might at once have been happy and rich. That his repentance of misconduct, which thus brought its own punishment, was sincere, need not be doubted;—nor that he long thought of Colonel Brandon with envy, and of Marianne with regret. But that he was for ever inconsolable, that he fled from society, or contracted an habitual gloom of temper, or died of a broken heart, must not be depended on—for he did neither. He lived to exert, and frequently to enjoy himself. His wife was not always out of humour, nor his home always uncomfortable; and in his breed of horses and dogs, and in sporting of every kind, he found no inconsiderable degree of domestic felicity.

Willoughby couldn't hear about her marriage without feeling pain, and his punishment was soon complete with Mrs. Smith's voluntary forgiveness. By mentioning his marriage to a woman of good character as the reason for her kindness, she made him believe that if he had acted honorably towards Marianne, he could have been both happy and wealthy. There's no doubt his regret over his misbehavior, which resulted in its own punishment, was genuine; he often thought of Colonel Brandon with jealousy and of Marianne with sorrow. However, it's not true that he was endlessly heartbroken, avoided society, developed a chronic gloom, or died of a broken heart—he did none of those things. He lived to engage in activities and often enjoyed himself. His wife wasn't always in a bad mood, and his home wasn't constantly uncomfortable. He found considerable happiness in breeding horses and dogs and in various sports.

For Marianne, however, in spite of his incivility in surviving her loss, he always retained that decided regard which interested him in every thing that befell her, and made her his secret standard of perfection in woman; and many a rising beauty would be slighted by him in after-days as bearing no comparison with Mrs. Brandon.

For Marianne, even though he was rude about dealing with her loss, he always had a strong interest in everything that happened to her. She became his hidden benchmark of perfection in a woman, and many beautiful women he met later on were overlooked by him because they couldn’t compare to Mrs. Brandon.

Mrs. Dashwood was prudent enough to remain at the cottage, without attempting a removal to Delaford; and fortunately for Sir John and Mrs. Jennings, when Marianne was taken from them, Margaret had reached an age highly suitable for dancing, and not very ineligible for being supposed to have a lover.

Mrs. Dashwood was smart enough to stay at the cottage instead of trying to move to Delaford; and luckily for Sir John and Mrs. Jennings, when Marianne was taken from them, Margaret had reached an age that was just right for dancing and could easily be thought to have a boyfriend.

Between Barton and Delaford, there was that constant communication which strong family affection would naturally dictate; and among the merits and the happiness of Elinor and Marianne, let it not be ranked as the least considerable, that though sisters, and living almost within sight of each other, they could live without disagreement between themselves, or producing coolness between their husbands.

Between Barton and Delaford, there was a constant flow of communication that strong family bonds would naturally create; and among the strengths and joys of Elinor and Marianne, let it not be overlooked that despite being sisters and living almost in view of one another, they managed to live without arguments or any tension between their husbands.

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