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VIOLETS AND OTHER TALES





ALICE·RUTH·MOORE





 

Copyright 1895
BY THE MONTHLY REVIEW
All rights reserved

Copyright 1895
BY THE MONTHLY REVIEW
All rights reserved






To my friend of November 5th, 1892






INTRODUCTION.

In this day when the world is fairly teeming with books,—good books, books written with a motive, books inculcating morals, books teaching lessons,—it seems almost a piece of presumption too great for endurance to foist another upon the market. There is scarcely room in the literary world for amateurs and maiden efforts; the very worthiest are sometimes poorly repaid for their best efforts. Yet, another one is offered the public, a maiden effort,—a little thing with absolutely nothing to commend it, that seeks to do nothing more than amuse.

In a time when the world is overflowing with books—good books, books with a purpose, books teaching morals, books sharing lessons—it feels a bit arrogant to add yet another to the mix. There’s hardly space in the literary world for newcomers and first-time efforts; even the most deserving are often underappreciated for their hard work. Still, here's another one for the public, a first attempt—a simple piece that has nothing special about it, aiming to do nothing more than entertain.

Many of these sketches and verses have appeared in print before, in newspapers and a magazine or two; many are seeing the light of day for the first time. If perchance this collection of idle thoughts may serve to while away an hour or two, or lift for a brief space the load of care from someone's mind, their purpose has been served—the author is satisfied.

Many of these sketches and poems have been published before, in newspapers and a couple of magazines; many are being shared for the first time. If by chance this collection of casual thoughts helps pass an hour or two, or briefly eases someone’s worries, then it has done its job—the author is happy.

A. R. M.

A.R.M.

CONTENTS.


PREFACE.

These fugitive pieces are launched upon the tide of public opinion to sink or swim upon their merit. They will float for a while, but whether they will reach the haven of popularity depends upon their enduring qualities. Some will surely perish, many will reach some port, but time alone will tell if any shall successfully breast the ocean of thought and plant its standard upon the summit of fame.

These fleeting creations are set adrift on the waves of public opinion to either succeed or fail based on their value. They might stay afloat for a bit, but whether they achieve popularity hinges on their lasting qualities. Some will definitely fail, many will find some recognition, but only time will reveal if any can navigate the sea of ideas and establish themselves at the pinnacle of fame.

When one enters the domain of authorship, she places herself at the mercy of critics. Were she as sure of being commended by the best and most intelligent of her readers, as she is sure of being condemned by the worst and most ignorant, there would still be a thrill of pleasure in all criticism, for the satisfaction of having received the praise of the first would compensate for the harshness of the latter. Just criticism is wholesome and never wounds the sensibilities of the true author, for it saves her from the danger of an excess of pride which is the greatest foe to individual progress, while it spurs her on to[Pg 10] loftier flights and nobler deeds. A poor writer is bad, but a poor critic is worse, therefore, unjust criticism should never ruffle the temper of its victim. The author of these pages belongs to that type of the "brave new woman who scorns to sigh," but feels that she has something to say, and says it to the best of her ability, and leaves the verdict in the hands of the public. She gives to the reader her best thoughts and leaves him to accept or reject as merit may manifest itself. No author is under contract to please her readers at all times, nor can she hope to control the sentiments of all of them at any time, therefore, the obligation is reciprocal, for the fame she receives is due to the pleasure she affords.

When someone steps into the world of writing, she puts herself at the mercy of critics. Even if she felt confident about being praised by her best and brightest readers, she would still expect criticism from the least informed. Still, there would be some enjoyment in receiving feedback, as the praise from the first group would make up for the negativity from the latter. Fair criticism is healthy and never hurts the feelings of a true author, as it protects her from becoming overly proud, which is the biggest enemy of personal growth, while also motivating her to aim for higher achievements and greater actions. A mediocre writer is disappointing, but a mediocre critic is even worse, so unfair criticism shouldn't upset its target. The writer of these pages sees herself as part of the "brave new woman who refuses to dwell on despair," but believes she has something important to express, and does so to the best of her ability, leaving the judgment to the public. She shares her best ideas with readers and allows them to accept or reject them based on their own standards. No author is obligated to please every reader all the time, nor can she expect to control everyone's opinions, so the relationship is mutual; the recognition she gains is a result of the enjoyment she provides.

The author of these fugitive pieces is young, just on the threshold of life, and with the daring audacity of youth makes assertions and gives decisions which she may reverse as time mellows her opinions, and the realities of life force aside the theories of youth, and prosy facts obscure the memory of that happy time when the heart overflowing with——

The author of these fleeting pieces is young, just starting out in life, and with the boldness of youth makes claims and decisions that she might change as time softens her views, and the realities of life push aside youthful theories, while practical facts overshadow the memory of that joyful time when the heart was overflowing with——

"The joy
Of young ideas painted on the mind,
In the warm glowing colors Fancy spreads
On objects, not yet known, when all is new,
And all is lovely."

"The joy"
Of new ideas that occupy the mind,
In the warm, vibrant colors that imagination provides
To things that are still to be discovered, when everything is fresh,
"And everything is beautiful."

There is much in this book that is good; much[Pg 11] that is crude; some that is poor: but all give that assurance of something great and noble when the bud of promise, now unfolding its petals in the morning glow of light, will have matured into that fuller growth of blossoming flower ere the noonday sun passes its zenith. May the hope thus engendered by this first attempt reach its fruition, and may the energy displayed by one so young meet the reward it merits from an approving public.

There’s a lot in this book that’s good; a lot[Pg 11] that’s rough; some that’s lacking: but all of it gives a sense of something great and noble when the promise, now opening its petals in the morning light, will have fully blossomed before the midday sun hits its peak. May the hope sparked by this initial effort come to fruition, and may the energy shown by someone so young receive the recognition it deserves from an appreciative audience.

Sylvanie F. Williams.

Sylvanie F. Williams.


VIOLETS.

I.

"And she tied a bunch of violets with a tress of her pretty brown hair."

"And she tied a bunch of violets with a strand of her beautiful brown hair."

She sat in the yellow glow of the lamplight softly humming these words. It was Easter evening, and the newly risen spring world was slowly sinking to a gentle, rosy, opalescent slumber, sweetly tired of the joy which had pervaded it all day. For in the dawn of the perfect morn, it had arisen, stretched out its arms in glorious happiness to greet the Saviour and said its hallelujahs, merrily trilling out carols of bird, and organ and flower-song. But the evening had come, and rest.

She sat in the warm yellow light of the lamp, softly humming these words. It was Easter evening, and the newly awakened spring world was gradually settling into a gentle, rosy, opalescent sleep, blissfully exhausted from the joy it had experienced all day. For in the dawn of that perfect morning, it had risen, stretched out its arms in glorious happiness to welcome the Savior, and sang its hallelujahs, cheerfully combining the songs of birds, the organ, and the blooming flowers. But now the evening had arrived, bringing rest.

There was a letter lying on the table, it read:

There was a letter on the table; it said:

"Dear, I send you this little bunch of flowers as my Easter token. Perhaps you may not be able to read their meaning, so I'll tell you. Violets, you know,[Pg 14] are my favorite flowers. Dear, little, human-faced things! They seem always as if about to whisper a love-word; and then they signify that thought which passes always between you and me. The orange blossoms—you know their meaning; the little pinks are the flowers you love; the evergreen leaf is the symbol of the endurance of our affection; the tube-roses I put in, because once when you kissed and pressed me close in your arms, I had a bunch of tube-roses on my bosom, and the heavy fragrance of their crushed loveliness has always lived in my memory. The violets and pinks are from a bunch I wore to-day, and when kneeling at the altar, during communion, did I sin, dear, when I thought of you? The tube-roses and orange-blossoms I wore Friday night; you always wished for a lock of my hair, so I'll tie these flowers with them—but there, it is not stable enough; let me wrap them with a bit of ribbon, pale blue, from that little dress I wore last[Pg 15] winter to the dance, when we had such a long, sweet talk in that forgotten nook. You always loved that dress, it fell in such soft ruffles away from the throat and bosom,—you called me your little forget-me-not, that night. I laid the flowers away for awhile in our favorite book,—Byron—just at the poem we loved best, and now I send them to you. Keep them always in remembrance of me, and if aught should occur to separate us, press these flowers to your lips, and I will be with you in spirit, permeating your heart with unutterable love and happiness."

"Dear, I'm sending you this little bouquet of flowers as my Easter gift. Maybe you can't read their meaning, so let me explain. Violets, as you know,[Pg 14] are my favorite flowers. Little, sweet things with human-like faces! They always seem like they’re about to whisper a word of love, and they represent the connection we share. The orange blossoms—you know what they mean; the little pinks are the flowers you love; the evergreen leaf symbolizes the lasting nature of our affection; and I included tube-roses because once when you kissed and held me tight, I had a bunch of tube-roses on my chest, and the strong scent of their crushed beauty has stuck with me ever since. The violets and pinks are from the bunch I wore today, and while kneeling at the altar during communion, did I sin, dear, when I thought of you? The tube-roses and orange blossoms I wore Friday night; you always wanted a lock of my hair, so I'll tie these flowers with it—but wait, it's not stable enough; let me wrap them with a piece of pale blue ribbon from that little dress I wore last[Pg 15] winter to the dance, when we had such a long, sweet chat in that cozy corner. You always loved that dress; it fell in such soft ruffles from my neck and chest—you called me your little forget-me-not that night. I kept the flowers for a while in our favorite book—Byron—right at the poem we loved the most, and now I'm sending them to you. Keep them always as a reminder of me, and if anything happens to separate us, press these flowers to your lips, and I will be with you in spirit, filling your heart with indescribable love and happiness."

II.

It is Easter again. As of old, the joyous bells clang out the glad news of the resurrection. The giddy, dancing sunbeams laugh riotously in field and street; birds carol their sweet twitterings everywhere, and the heavy perfume of flowers scents the golden atmosphere with inspiring fragrance. One long,[Pg 16] golden sunbeam steals silently into the white-curtained window of a quiet room, and lay athwart a sleeping face. Cold, pale, still, its fair, young face pressed against the satin-lined casket. Slender, white fingers, idle now, they that had never known rest; locked softly over a bunch of violets; violets and tube-roses in her soft, brown hair, violets in the bosom of her long, white gown; violets and tube-roses and orange-blossoms banked everywhere, until the air was filled with the ascending souls of the human flowers. Some whispered that a broken heart had ceased to flutter in that still, young form, and that it was a mercy for the soul to ascend on the slender sunbeam. To-day she kneels at the throne of heaven, where one year ago she had communed at an earthly altar.

It’s Easter again. As always, the cheerful bells ring out the good news of the resurrection. The bright, dancing sunbeams laugh joyfully in the fields and streets; birds sing their sweet melodies everywhere, and the rich scent of flowers fills the golden atmosphere with an uplifting fragrance. One long, [Pg 16] golden sunbeam quietly slips into the white-curtained window of a calm room, resting across a sleeping face. Cold, pale, and still, the beautiful young face is pressed against the satin-lined casket. Slender, white fingers, now idle, once never knew rest; they gently clasp a bunch of violets; violets and tuberoses decorate her soft, brown hair, violets lie in the bosom of her long, white gown; violets, tuberoses, and orange blossoms are everywhere, filling the air with the rising essence of human flowers. Some whispered that a broken heart had finally stopped beating in that peaceful, young form, and that it was merciful for the soul to rise on the slender sunbeam. Today she kneels at the throne of heaven, where one year ago she had prayed at an earthly altar.

III.

Far away in a distant city, a man, carelessly looking among some papers,[Pg 17] turned over a faded bunch of flowers tied with a blue ribbon and a lock of hair. He paused meditatively awhile, then turning to the regal-looking woman lounging before the fire, he asked:

Far away in a distant city, a man, casually searching through some papers,[Pg 17] came across an old bunch of flowers tied with a blue ribbon and a lock of hair. He stopped for a moment to think, then turned to the elegant woman relaxing by the fire and asked:

"Wife, did you ever send me these?"

"Wife, did you ever send me these?"

She raised her great, black eyes to his with a gesture of ineffable disdain, and replied languidly:

She lifted her deep, dark eyes to his with a gesture of indescribable contempt and replied lazily:

"You know very well I can't bear flowers. How could I ever send such sentimental trash to any one? Throw them into the fire."

"You know I can't stand flowers. How could I ever send such sentimental junk to anyone? Just throw them in the fire."

And the Easter bells chimed a solemn requiem as the flames slowly licked up the faded violets. Was it merely fancy on the wife's part, or did the husband really sigh,—a long, quivering breath of remembrance?[Pg 18]

And the Easter bells rang a solemn farewell as the flames gradually consumed the wilted violets. Was it just the wife's imagination, or did the husband actually sigh—a long, trembling breath of nostalgia?[Pg 18]


THREE THOUGHTS.

FIRST

How few of us
In all the world's great, ceaseless struggling strife,
Go to our work with gladsome, buoyant step,
And love it for its sake, whate'er it be.
Because it is a labor, or, mayhap,
Some sweet, peculiar art of God's own gift;
And not the promise of the world's slow smile
of recognition, or of mammon's gilded grasp.
Alas, how few, in inspiration's dazzling flash,
Or spiritual sense of world's beyond the dome
Of circling blue around this weary earth,
Can bask, and know the God-given grace
Of genius' fire that flows and permeates
The virgin mind alone; the soul in which
The love of earth hath tainted not.
The love of art and art alone.


[Pg 19]

FIRST

How few of us are there
In the world's continuous, unending struggle,
Approach our work with a positive, energetic attitude,
And appreciate it for what it is, no matter what.
Since it's a task, or perhaps,
Some special, unique talent gifted by God;
Not because of the world's gradual smile
Or the tempting allure of wealth.
Sadly, how few people, in moments of inspiration,
Or with a spiritual awareness of the world beyond the dome.
Of the blue sky surrounding this weary earth,
Can enjoy and acknowledge the grace given by God.
Of the fire of genius that flows and fills
The pure mind alone; the soul in which
The love for the world remains untainted.
The love of art and nothing but art.


[Pg 19]

SECOND

"Who dares stand forth?" the monarch cried,
"Amid the throng, and dare to give
Their aid, and bid this wretch to live?
I pledge my faith and crown beside,
A woeful plight, a sorry sight,
This outcast from all God-given grace.

What, ho! in all, no friendly face,
No helping hand to stay his plight?
St. Peter's name be pledged for aye,
The man's accursed, that is true;
But ho, he suffers. None of you
Will mercy show, or pity sigh?"

Strong men drew back, and lordly train
Did slowly file from monarch's look,
Whose lips curled scorn. But from a nook
A voice cried out, "Though he has slain
That which I loved the best on earth,
Yet will I tend him till he dies,
I can be brave." A woman's eyes
Gazed fearlessly into his own.

[Pg 20]

2ND

"Who dares to step forward?" the king yelled,
"Among the crowd, and dare to offer"
Can they help, and ask for this unfortunate person to survive?
I promise my word and title here,
A terrible situation, a sad sight,
This person is rejected from all the grace given by God.

What, is there really no friendly face?
No helping hand to relieve his pain?
St. Peter's name will be promised forever,
It's true that the man is cursed;
But he still suffers. None of you
"Will they show mercy or even sigh in pity?"

Strong men stepped back, and the noble group
Gradually pulled away from the king's stare,
Whose lips curled in disdain. But from a corner
A voice said, "Even though he has killed
What I loved the most in this world,
I will take care of him until he passes away,
"I can be brave." A woman's eyes
Looked confidently into his own.

[Pg 20]

THIRD

When all the world has grown full cold to thee,
And man—proud pygmy—shrugs all scornfully,
And bitter, blinding tears flow gushing forth,
Because of thine own sorrows and poor plight,
Then turn ye swift to nature's page,
And read there passions, immeasurably far
Greater than thine own in all their littleness.
For nature has her sorrows and her joys,
As all the piled-up mountains and low vales
Will silently attest—and hang thy head
In dire confusion, for having dared
To moan at thine own miseries
When God and nature suffer silently.
[Pg 21]

3rd

When everyone in the world has become distant from you,
And people—arrogant little beings—look down on you,
And painful, blind tears flow down your face,
Due to your own challenges and difficulties,
Then quickly turn to nature's pages,
And read about passions that are unimaginably bigger
Than your own in all their little things.
For nature has her own pains and pleasures,
As all the tall mountains and low valleys
Will quietly demonstrate—and bow your head
In deep confusion for having dared
To vent about your own struggles
When God and nature endure their pain silently.
[Pg 21]


THE WOMAN.

The literary manager of the club arose, cleared his throat, adjusted his cravat, fixed his eyes sternly upon the young man, and in a sonorous voice, a little marred by his habitual lisp, asked: "Mr. ——, will you please tell us your opinion upon the question, whether woman's chances for matrimony are increased or decreased when she becomes man's equal as a wage earner?"

The literary manager of the club stood up, cleared his throat, adjusted his tie, fixed his eyes sternly on the young man, and in a deep voice, slightly affected by his usual lisp, asked: "Mr. —, can you please share your thoughts on whether a woman's chances of getting married increase or decrease when she becomes a man's equal as a breadwinner?"

The secretary adjusted her eye-glass, and held her pencil alertly poised above her book, ready to note which side Mr. —— took. Mr. —— fidgeted, pulled himself together with a violent jerk, and finally spoke his mind. Someone else did likewise, also someone else, then the women interposed, and jumped on the men, the men retaliated, a wordy war ensued, and the whole matter ended by nothing being decided, pro or con—generally the case in wordy discussions. Moi? Well, I sawed wood and said nothing, but all the while there was form[Pg 22]ing in my mind, no, I won't say forming, it was there already. It was this, Why should well-salaried women marry? Take the average working-woman of to-day. She works from five to ten hours a day, doing extra night work, sometimes, of course. Her work over, she goes home or to her boarding-house, as the case may be. Her meals are prepared for her, she has no household cares upon her shoulders, no troublesome dinners to prepare for a fault-finding husband, no fretful children to try her patience, no petty bread and meat economies to adjust. She has her cares, her money-troubles, her debts, and her scrimpings, it is true, but they only make her independent, instead of reducing her to a dead level of despair. Her day's work ends at the office, school, factory or store; the rest of the time is hers, undisturbed by the restless going to and fro of housewifely cares, and she can employ it in mental or social diversions. She does not incessantly rely upon the[Pg 23] whims of a cross man to take her to such amusements as she desires. In this nineteenth century she is free to go where she pleases—provided it be in a moral atmosphere—without comment. Theatres, concerts, lectures, and the lighter amusements of social affairs among her associates, are open to her, and there she can go, see, and be seen, admire and be admired, enjoy and be enjoyed, without a single harrowing thought of the baby's milk or the husband's coffee.

The secretary adjusted her glasses and held her pencil poised above her notebook, ready to note which side Mr. —— would take. Mr. —— fidgeted, pulled himself together with a sudden jerk, and finally shared his opinion. Someone else did the same, and then another person joined in, leading the women to interrupt and confront the men. The men responded, a verbal battle ensued, and in the end, nothing was resolved—this is typically what happens in such discussions. Me? I just sat quietly and said nothing, but all the while, I had this thought forming in my mind, actually, more like it was already there: Why should well-paid women get married? Take the average working woman today. She works five to ten hours a day, sometimes putting in extra hours at night. Once her work is done, she heads home or to her boarding house, depending on her situation. Her meals are prepared for her, and she has no household responsibilities weighing on her—no troublesome dinners to make for a critical husband, no whiny kids testing her patience, and no little budgeting hassles to manage. Yes, she has her own challenges, like financial issues, debts, and tight budgets, but these make her independent rather than sinking her into despair. Her workday ends at the office, school, factory, or store; the rest of her time is hers, free from the demands of housewifely responsibilities. She can use it for mental or social activities. She doesn’t have to rely on the mood of a grumpy man to take her to the entertainment she wants. In this nineteenth century, she can go wherever she likes—as long as it’s a decent environment—without anyone judging her. Theaters, concerts, lectures, and social events with her friends are all available to her, where she can go, see, and be seen, admire and be admired, enjoy and be enjoyed, all without a single worry about the baby’s milk or the husband’s coffee.

Her earnings are her own, indisputably, unreservedly, undividedly. She knows to a certainty just how much she can spend, how well she can dress, how far her earnings will go. If there is a dress, a book, a bit of music, a bunch of flowers, or a bit of furniture that she wants, she can get it, and there is no need of asking anyone's advice, or gently hinting to John that Mrs. So and So has a lovely new hat, and there is one ever so much prettier and cheaper down at Thus [Pg 24]& Co.'s. To an independent spirit there is a certain sense of humiliation and wounded pride in asking for money, be it five cents or five hundred dollars. The working woman knows no such pang; she has but to question her account and all is over. In the summer she takes her savings of the winter, packs her trunk and takes a trip more or less extensive, and there is none to say her nay,—nothing to bother her save the accumulation of her own baggage. There is an independent, happy, free-and-easy swing about the motion of her life. Her mind is constantly being broadened by contact with the world in its working clothes; in her leisure moments by the better thoughts of dead and living men which she meets in her applications to books and periodicals; in her vacations, by her studies of nature, or it may be other communities than her own. The freedom which she enjoys she does not trespass upon, for if she did not learn at school she has acquired since habits of[Pg 25] strong self-reliance, self-support, earnest thinking, deep discriminations, and firmly believes that the most perfect liberty is that state in which humanity conforms itself to and obeys strictly, without deviation, those laws which are best fitted for their mutual self-advancement.

Her earnings are entirely hers—no question about it. She knows exactly how much she can spend, how nice she can dress, and how far her money will stretch. If she wants a dress, a book, some music, a bouquet, or a piece of furniture, she can get it without needing to ask anyone for advice or subtly suggesting to John that Mrs. So and So has a nice new hat, and there's one even prettier and cheaper over at Thus [Pg 24]& Co.'s. For an independent person, there's a certain embarrassment and hurt pride in asking for money, whether it's five cents or five hundred dollars. The working woman feels none of that; she just checks her account, and that's that. In the summer, she uses her winter savings to pack her bags and go on a trip, with no one to tell her otherwise—only the hassle of carrying her own luggage. There's a joyful and carefree vibe to her life. Her mind keeps expanding by engaging with the world as it is; in her downtime, she finds inspiration in the great thoughts of both historical and contemporary figures in the books and magazines she reads; on her vacations, she studies nature or explores different communities beyond her own. She enjoys her freedom without overstepping, as she may not have learned it in school but has since developed habits of[Pg 25] strong self-reliance, self-support, serious thinking, and keen judgment, firmly believing that true freedom is when people adhere to and follow, without fail, those laws that best promote their collective growth.

And so your independent working woman of to day comes as near being ideal in her equable self poise as can be imagined. So why should she hasten to give this liberty up in exchange for a serfdom, sweet sometimes, it is true, but which too often becomes galling and unendurable.

And so your independent working woman of today is about as close to being ideal in her balanced composure as one can imagine. So why should she rush to give up this freedom in exchange for a kind of servitude that can be enjoyable at times, but often becomes burdensome and intolerable?

It is not marriage that I decry, for I don't think any really sane person would do this, but it is this wholesale marrying of girls in their teens, this rushing into an unknown plane of life to avoid work. Avoid work! What housewife dares call a moment her own?

It’s not marriage that I criticize, because I don’t think any truly sane person would do that, but it’s this mass marrying of girls in their teens, this rushing into an unknown part of life to escape work. Escape work! What housewife dares to claim a moment for herself?

Marriages might be made in Heaven, but too often they are consummated right here on earth, based on a desire to[Pg 26] possess the physical attractions of the woman by the man, pretty much as a child desires a toy, and an innate love of man, a wild desire not to be ridiculed by the foolish as an "old maid," and a certain delicate shrinking from the work of the world—laziness is a good name for it—by the woman. The attraction of mind to mind, the ability of one to compliment the lights and shadows in the other, the capacity of either to fulfil the duties of wife or husband—these do not enter into the contract. That is why we have divorce courts.

Marriages might be made in Heaven, but too often they're finalized right here on earth, driven by a man's desire to possess the woman's physical attractions, much like a child wants a toy, and a woman's innate desire to avoid being mocked as an "old maid," along with a certain reluctance to face the demands of the world—let's just call it laziness. The connection of minds, the ability to appreciate each other's strengths and weaknesses, and the capacity of either partner to fulfill their roles as husband or wife—these factors don't play a part in the contract. That's why we have divorce courts.

And so our independent woman in every year of her full, rich, well-rounded life, gaining fresh knowledge and experience, learning humanity, and particularly that portion of it which is the other gender, so well as to avoid clay-footed idols, and finally when she does consent to bear the yoke upon her shoulders, does so with perhaps less romance and glamor than her younger scoffing sisters, but with an assurance of solid and more last[Pg 27]ing happiness. Why should she have hastened this; was aught lost by the delay?

And so our independent woman, throughout her full, rich, and well-rounded life, gains new knowledge and experiences, learns about humanity—especially the other gender—well enough to avoid false idols. And when she finally chooses to take on responsibilities, she does so with perhaps less romance and glamour than her younger, dismissive sisters, but with a confidence in lasting happiness. Why should she have rushed into this? Was anything lost by waiting?

"They say" that men don't admire this type of woman, that they prefer the soft, dainty, winning, mindless creature who cuddles into men's arms, agrees to everything they say, and looks upon them as a race of gods turned loose upon this earth for the edification of womankind. Well, may be so, but there is one thing positive, they certainly respect the independent one, and admire her, too, even if it is at a distance, and that in itself is something. As to the other part, no matter how sensible a woman is on other questions, when she falls in love she is fool enough to believe her adored one a veritable Solomon. Cuddling? Well, she may preside over conventions, brandish her umbrella at board meetings, tramp the streets soliciting subscriptions, wield the blue pencil in an editorial sanctum, hammer a type-writer, smear her nose with ink from a galley full of[Pg 28] pied type, lead infant ideas through the tortuous mazes of c-a-t and r-a-t, plead at the bar, or wield the scalpel in a dissecting room, yet when the right moment comes, she will sink as gracefully into his manly embrace, throw her arms as lovingly around his neck, and cuddle as warmly and sweetly to his bosom as her little sister who has done nothing else but think, dream, and practice for that hour. It comes natural, you see.[Pg 29]

"They say" that men don't really admire this kind of woman; they prefer the soft, delicate, charming, mindless girl who snuggles into their arms, agrees with everything they say, and sees them as a superior race meant to enlighten women. That might be true, but one thing is for sure: they definitely respect the independent woman and admire her, even from a distance, and that counts for something. As for the other side of things, no matter how sensible a woman is on other matters, when she falls in love, she tends to think her beloved is a true genius. Cuddling? Sure, she might lead meetings, wave her umbrella at corporate gatherings, walk the streets asking for donations, edit in a newsroom, type away on a keyboard, get ink on her nose from a messy printing press, guide young ideas through the tricky paths of c-a-t and r-a-t, argue in court, or perform surgery in a lab, but when the right moment comes, she will collapse effortlessly into his strong arms, wrap her arms lovingly around his neck, and snuggle into his chest just like her little sister who has only thought, dreamed, and practiced for that moment. It comes naturally, you see.[Pg 28][Pg 29]


TEN MINUTES' MUSING.

There was a terrible noise in the school-yard at intermission; peeping out the windows the boys could be seen huddled in an immense bunch, in the middle of the yard. It looked like a fight, a mob, a knock-down,—anything, so we rushed out to the door hastily, fearfully, ready to scold, punish, console, frown, bind up broken heads or drag wounded forms from the melee as the case might be. Nearly every boy in the school was in that seething, swarming mass, and those who weren't were standing around on the edges, screaming and throwing up their hats in hilarious excitement. It was a mob, a fearful mob, but a mob apparently with a vigorous and well-[Pg 30]defined purpose. It was a mob that screamed and howled, and kicked, and yelled, and shouted, and perspired, and squirmed, and wriggled, and pushed, and threatened, and poured itself all seemingly upon some central object. It was a mob that had an aim, that was determined to accomplish that aim, even though the whole azure expanse of sky fell upon them. It was a mob with set muscles, straining like whip-cords, eyes on that central object and with heads inward and sturdy legs outward, like prairie horses reversed in a battle. The cheerers and hat throwers on the outside were mirthful, but the mob was not; it howled, but howled without any cachinnation; it struggled for mastery. Some fell and were trampled over, some weaker ones were even tossed in the air, but the mob never deigned to trouble itself about such trivialities. It was an interesting, nervous whole, with divers parts of separate vitality.[Pg 31]

There was a loud commotion in the schoolyard during recess; peering out the windows, you could see the boys packed together in a huge crowd, right in the middle of the yard. It looked like a fight, a mob, a chaotic scene—whatever it was, we hurried to the door anxiously, ready to scold, punish, comfort, frown, patch up injuries, or pull out anyone hurt from the chaos, depending on what was happening. Almost every boy in the school was part of that swirling, frenzied mass, and those who weren’t were standing around on the fringes, cheering and throwing their hats up in excitement. It was a mob, a wild mob, but it seemed to have a strong and clear purpose. It screamed and howled, kicked and yelled, shouted and sweated, squirmed and wriggled, pushed and threatened, all seemingly focused on a central target. It was a mob with a goal, determined to achieve it, even if the entire sky came crashing down on them. It was a mob with tensed muscles, straining like ropes, eyes locked on that focal point, heads tilted inward and sturdy legs pushed outward, like horses of the prairie standing firm in a battle. The cheerers and hat throwers on the outside were joyful, but the mob itself was not; it howled, but without any laughter; it fought for dominance. Some fell and were trampled, while others were tossed into the air, but the mob never bothered with such minor details. It was a fascinating, charged entity, made up of various parts with their own energy.

In alarm I looked about for the principal. He was standing at a safe distance with his hands in his pockets watching the seething mass with a broad smile. At sight of my perplexed expression some one was about to venture an explanation, when there was a wild yell, a sudden vehement disintegration of the mass, a mighty rush and clutch at a dark object bobbing in the air—and the mist cleared from my intellect—as I realized it all—football.

In panic, I looked around for the principal. He was standing a safe distance away, hands in his pockets, watching the chaotic crowd with a big grin. Just as someone was about to explain my confusion, there was a loud shout, a sudden split in the crowd, and a frantic rush to grab a dark object floating in the air—and then it all clicked for me—I realized it was football.

Did you ever stop to see the analogy between a game of football and the interesting little game called life which we play every day? There is one, far-fetched as it may seem, though, for that matter, life's game, being one of desperate chances and strategic moves, is analogous to anything.

Did you ever take a moment to notice the comparison between a game of football and the intriguing little game called life that we play every day? There is one, as far-fetched as it might sound, because, in reality, life's game, filled with risky chances and strategic moves, can be compared to anything.

But, if we could get out of ourselves and soar above the world, far enough to view the mass beneath in its daily struggles, and near enough the hearts of the people to feel the throbs beneath[Pg 32] their boldly carried exteriors, the whole would seem naught but such a maddening rush and senseless-looking crushing. "We are but children of a larger growth" after all, and our ceaseless pursuing after the baubles of this earth are but the struggles for precedence in the business play-ground.

But if we could rise above ourselves and get a view of the world below, far enough to see the daily struggles of the masses and close enough to feel the emotions beneath[Pg 32] their confidently presented exteriors, everything would appear as nothing more than a chaotic rush and senseless crush. "We are just kids in a bigger game," after all, and our endless chase for the shiny things in life is just our struggle for status in the playground of business.

The football is money. See how the mass rushes after it! Everyone so intent upon his pursuit until all else dwindles into a ridiculous nonentity. The weaker ones go down in the mad pursuit, and are unmercifully trampled upon, but no matter, what is the difference if the foremost win the coveted prize and carry it off. See the big boy in front, he with iron grip, and determined, compressed lips? That boy is a type of the big, merciless man, the Gradgrind of the latter century. His face is set towards the ball, and even though he may crush a dozen small boys, he'll make his way through the mob and come out triumphant. And he'll be the victor[Pg 33] longer than anyone else, in spite of the envy and fighting and pushing about him.

The football is money. Look how the crowd rushes after it! Everyone is so focused on their goal that everything else fades into insignificance. The weaker ones fall in the chaotic chase and get trampled mercilessly, but it doesn't matter; what difference does it make if the ones in front win the prized possession and take it away? Check out the big kid leading the pack, with his iron grip and tightly pressed lips. That kid represents the ruthless adult, the Gradgrind of our time. His eyes are locked on the ball, and even if he crushes a dozen smaller kids, he'll push through the crowd and emerge victorious. And he'll enjoy his win[Pg 33] longer than anyone else, despite all the jealousy and shoving around him.

To an observer, alike unintelligent about the rules of a football game, and the conditions which govern the barter and exchange and fluctuations of the world's money market, there is as much difference between the sight of a mass of boys on a play-ground losing their equilibrium over a spheroid of rubber and a mass of men losing their coolness and temper and mental and nervous balance on change as there is between a pine sapling and a mighty forest king—merely a difference of age. The mighty, seething, intensely concentrated mass in its emphatic tendency to one point is the same, in the utter disregard of mental and physical welfare. The momentary triumphs of transitory possessions impress a casual looker-on with the same fearful idea—that the human race, after all, is savage to the core, and cultivates its savagery in an inflated happiness at[Pg 34] own nearness to perfection.

To someone who doesn't understand the rules of football or how the world's money market works, there isn't much difference between a bunch of boys on a playground losing their balance over a rubber ball and a group of men losing their cool, temper, and mental stability in a trading environment. It’s just a matter of age, like comparing a young pine sapling to a tall, mighty tree. Both groups, despite their different settings, focus intently on one goal while completely ignoring their own well-being. The fleeting victories tied to temporary possessions make a casual observer think that the human race is fundamentally savage and nurtures this savagery under the guise of inflated happiness at its own progress towards perfection.

But the bell clangs sharply, the overheated, nervous, tingling boys fall into line, and the sudden transition from massing disorder to military precision cuts short the ten minutes' musing.[Pg 35]

But the bell rings loudly, the anxious, restless boys fall into line, and the quick shift from chaotic disorder to strict military order interrupts the ten minutes of reflection.[Pg 35]


A PLAINT.

Dear God, 'tis hard, so awful hard to lose
The one we love, and see him go afar,
With scarce one thought of aching hearts behind,
Nor wistful eyes, nor outstretched yearning hands.
Chide not, dear God, if surging thoughts arise.
And bitter questionings of love and fate,
But rather give my weary heart thy rest,
And turn the sad, dark memories into sweet.
Dear God, I fain my loved one were anear,
But since thou will'st that happy thence he'll be,
I send him forth, and back I'll choke the grief
Rebellious rises in my lonely heart.
I pray thee, God, my loved one joy to bring;
I dare not hope that joy will be with me,
But ah, dear God, one boon I crave of thee,
That he shall ne'er forget his hours with me.
[Pg 36]

Dear God, it's so tough, really tough to lose
The one we love has gone far away.
Without much consideration for the broken hearts that were left behind,
No longing eyes or outstretched hands reaching out.
Please don’t blame me, dear God, if too many thoughts overwhelm me.
And difficult questions about love and destiny,
But instead, grant my weary heart your peace,
And transform the sad, dark memories into something positive.
Dear God, I wish my loved one were here,
But since you've decided that they'll be better off away,
I'll let them go and keep my grief in check.
That stubbornly rises in my lonely heart.
I ask you, God, to bring happiness to my loved one;
I can’t expect joy to be by my side,
But oh, dear God, there's one thing I ask of you,
That they'll always remember the times they had with me.
[Pg 36]


IN UNCONSCIOUSNESS.

There was a big booming in my ears, great heavy iron bells that swung to-and-fro on either side, and sent out deafening reverberations that steeped the senses in a musical melody of sonorous sound; to-and-fro, backward and forward, yet ever receding in a gradually widening circle, monotonous, mournful, weird, suffusing the soul with an unutterable sadness, as images of wailing processions, of weeping, empty-armed women, and widowed maidens flashed through the mind, and settled on the soul with a crushing, o'er-pressing weight of sorrow.

There was a loud ringing in my ears, heavy iron bells swinging back and forth on either side, sending out deafening echoes that wrapped around my senses in a haunting melody of sound; back and forth, still moving farther away in a widening circle, monotonous, mournful, strange, filling my soul with an indescribable sadness, as images of grieving processions, sorrowful, empty-armed women, and heartbroken maidens flashed through my mind, weighing down my spirit with a heavy burden of grief.


Now I lay floating, arms outstretched, on an illimitable waste of calm tranquil waters. Far away as eye could reach, there was naught but the pale, white-flecked, green waters of this ocean of eternity, and above the tender blue sky arched down in perfect love of its mis[Pg 37]tress, the ocean. Sky and sea, sea and sky, blue, calm, infinite, perfect sea, heaving its womanly bosom to the passionate kisses of its ardent sun-lover. Away into infinity stretched this perfectibility of love; into eternity, I was drifting, alone, silent, yet burdened still with the remembrance of the sadness of the bells.

Now I lay floating, arms outstretched, on an endless expanse of calm, tranquil waters. As far as the eye could see, there was nothing but the pale, white-flecked, green waters of this ocean of eternity, and above, the gentle blue sky arched down in perfect affection for its mistress, the ocean. Sky and sea, sea and sky, blue, calm, infinite, perfect sea, rising and falling with its feminine curves in response to the passionate kisses of its ardent sun-lover. This perfection of love stretched away into infinity; into eternity, I was drifting, alone, silent, yet still weighed down by the memory of the sorrow of the bells.

Far away, they tolled out the incessant dirge, grown resignedly sweet now; so intense in its infinite peace, that a calm of love, beyond all human understanding and above all earthly passions, sank deep into my soul, and so permeated my whole being with rest and peace, that my lips smiled and my eyes drooped in access of fulsome joy. Into the illimitable space of infinity we drifted, my soul and I, borne along only by the network of auburn hair that floated about me in the green waters.

Far away, they rang out the endless lament, now acceptingly sweet; so powerful in its endless tranquility, that a sense of love, beyond all human comprehension and above all earthly desires, sank deep into my soul, filling my whole being with rest and peace, making my lips smile and my eyes close in overwhelming joy. Into the limitless expanse of infinity we floated, my soul and I, carried along only by the strands of auburn hair that surrounded me in the green waters.


But now, a rude grasp from somewhere is laid upon me, pressing upon[Pg 38] my face. Instantly the air grows gloomy, gray, and the ocean rocks menacingly, while the great bells grow harsh and strident, as they hint of a dark fate. I clasp my hands appealingly to the heavens; I moan and struggle with the unknown grasp; then there is peace and the sweet content of the infinite Nirvana.

But now, a harsh grip from somewhere holds me down, pressing against[Pg 38] my face. Suddenly, the air becomes gloomy and gray, and the ocean rocks dangerously, while the loud bells clang sharply, hinting at a dark fate. I raise my hands in a plea to the heavens; I groan and fight against the unknown grip; then there's peace and the sweet comfort of infinite Nirvana.

Then slowly, softly, the net of auburn hair begins to drag me down below the surface of the sea. Oh! the skies are so sweet, and now that the tender stars are looking upon us, how fair to stay and sway upon the breast of eternity! But the net is inexorable, and gently, slowly pulls me down. Now we sink straight, now we whirl in slow, eddying circles, spiral-like; while at each turn those bells ring out clanging now in wild crescendo, then whispering dread secrets of the ocean's depths. Oh, ye mighty bells, tell me from your learned lore of the hopes of mankind! Tell me what fruit he beareth from his strivings and yearnings; know not ye? Why ring ye now[Pg 39] so joyful, so hopeful; then toll your dismal prophecies of o'er-cast skies?

Then slowly, softly, the net of red hair starts to pull me down beneath the surface of the sea. Oh! the sky is so beautiful, and now that the gentle stars are watching over us, how lovely it is to stay and sway on the edge of eternity! But the net is relentless and slowly pulls me down. Now we sink straight down, now we whirl in slow, swirling circles, spiraling; and at each turn those bells ring out, clanging in wild crescendo, then whispering terrifying secrets of the ocean’s depths. Oh, mighty bells, tell me from your vast knowledge about the hopes of humanity! Tell me what fruits they bear from their struggles and desires; do you not know? Why do you ring so joyfully, so hopefully; then toll your gloomy predictions of overcast skies?

Years have passed, and now centuries, too, are swallowed in the gulf of eternity, yet the auburn net still whirls me in eddying circles, down, down to the very womb of time; to the innermost recesses of the mighty ocean.

Years have gone by, and now centuries have also been consumed by the endless expanse of time, yet the reddish-brown net still spins me in swirling circles, down, down to the very core of time; to the deepest parts of the vast ocean.


And now, peace, perfect, unconditioned, sublime peace, and rest, and silence. For to the great depths of the mighty ocean the solemn bells cannot penetrate, and no sound, not even the beatings of one's own heart, is heard. In the heart of eternity there can be nothing to break the calm of frozen æons. In the great white hall I lay, silent, unexpectant, calm, and smiled in perfect content at the web of auburn hair which trailed across my couch. No passionate longing for life or love, no doubting question of heaven or hell, no strife for carnal needs,—only rest, content, peace—happiness, perfect, whole, complete, sublime.[Pg 40]

And now, peace, perfect, unconditioned, sublime peace, rest, and silence. The solemn bells can't reach the deep depths of the mighty ocean, and no sound, not even the beat of one's own heart, can be heard. In the heart of eternity, nothing can disturb the calm of frozen aeons. I lay in the great white hall, silent, unexpectant, calm, and smiled in perfect content at the web of auburn hair that trailed across my couch. There was no passionate longing for life or love, no doubts about heaven or hell, no struggle for physical needs—just rest, contentment, peace—happiness, perfect, whole, complete, sublime.[Pg 40]

And thus passed ages and ages, æons and æons. The great earth there in the dim distance above the ocean has toiled wearily about the sun, until its mechanism was failing, and the warm ardor of the lover's eye was becoming pale and cold from age, while the air all about the fast dwindling sphere was heavy and thick with the sorrows and heartaches and woes of the humans upon its face. Heavy with the screams and roar of war; with the curses of the deceived of traitors; with the passionate sighs of unlawful love; with the crushing unrest of blighted hopes. Knowledge and contempt of all these things permeated even to the inmost depths of time, as I lay in the halls of rest and smiled at the web floating through my white fingers.

And so, ages and ages passed, eons and eons. The great Earth, there in the dim distance above the ocean, has been tiredly revolving around the sun until its mechanics started to falter, and the warm glow in the lover's eye began to fade and chill from age, while the air surrounding the shrinking sphere was thick and heavy with the sorrows, heartbreaks, and struggles of the humans on its surface. Heavy with the screams and roars of war; with the curses of the betrayed by traitors; with the passionate sighs of forbidden love; with the crushing unrest of shattered dreams. Knowledge and disdain for all these things penetrated even to the deepest depths of time, as I lay in the resting halls and smiled at the thread floating through my white fingers.


But hark! discord begins. There is a vague fear which springs from an unknown source and drifts into the depths of rest; fear, indefinable, unaccountable,[Pg 41] unknowable, shuddering. Pain begins, for the heart springs into life, and fills the silence with the terror of its beatings, thick, knifing, frightful in its intense longing. Power of mind over soul, power of calm over fear avail nothing; suspense and misery, locked arm in arm, pervade æonic stillness, till all things else become subordinate, unnoticed.

But listen! Discord starts. There's an uneasy fear that comes from an unknown place and sinks deep into the silence; fear, vague, unexplainable, unknowable, trembling. Pain begins, as the heart awakens and fills the quiet with the terror of its pounding, heavy, cutting, terrifying in its deep longing. The power of the mind over the soul, the power of calm over fear, mean nothing; tension and misery, intertwined, fill the endless stillness, until everything else becomes secondary and overlooked.

Centuries drift away, and the giddy, old reprobate—earth, dying a hideous, ghastly death, with but one solitary human to shudder in unison with its last throes, to bask in the last pale rays of a cold sun, to inhale the last breath of a metallic atmosphere; totters, reels, falls into space, and is no more. Peal out, ye brazen bells, peal out the requiem of the sinner! Roll your mournful tones into the ears of the saddened angels, weeping with wing-covered eyes! Toll the requiem of the sinner, sinking swiftly, sobbingly into the depths of time's ocean. Down, down, until the great groans which arose from the domes and Ionic roofs[Pg 42] about me told that the sad old earth sought rest in eternity, while the universe shrugged its shoulders over the loss of another star.

Centuries slip away, and the old troublemaker — Earth, dying a horrific, ghastly death, with only one lonely human to tremble in sync with its final moments, to soak in the last weak rays of a cold sun, to breathe in the last remnants of a metallic atmosphere; stumbles, sways, falls into space, and disappears. Ring out, you loud bells, ring out the farewell for the sinner! Send your sorrowful sounds into the ears of the grieving angels, with their eyes covered by wings! Toll the farewell for the sinner, quickly sinking, weeping into the depths of time's ocean. Down, down, until the great groans that echoed from the domes and Ionic roofs[Pg 42] around me signaled that the sad old Earth sought peace in eternity, while the universe shrugged off the loss of another star.

And now, the great invisible fear became apparent, tangible, for all the sins, the woes, the miseries, the dreads, the dismal achings and throbbings, the dreariness and gloom of the lost star came together and like a huge geni took form and hideous shape—octopus-like—which slowly approached me, erstwhile happy—and hovered about my couch in fearful menace.

And now, the huge invisible fear became real and obvious, as all the sins, the troubles, the pain, the fears, the awful aches and thumping, the sadness and darkness of the lost star merged together and took on the form of a massive, hideous shape—like an octopus—that slowly approached me, once happy, and loomed around my couch in a terrifying way.


Oh, shining web of hair, burst loose your bonds and bid me move! Oh, time, cease not your calculations, but speed me on to deliverance! Oh, silence, vast, immense, infuse into your soul some sound other than the heavy throbbing of this fast disintegrating heart! Oh, pitiless stone arches, let fall your crushing weight upon this Stygian monster![Pg 43]

Oh, shining web of hair, break free from your ties and let me move! Oh, time, don’t stop your counting, but hurry me toward freedom! Oh, silence, vast and immense, fill yourself with a sound other than the heavy pounding of this rapidly failing heart! Oh, relentless stone arches, let your crushing weight fall upon this dark monster![Pg 43]

I pray to time, to eternity, to the frozen æons of the past. Useless. I am seized, forced to open my cold lips; there is agony,—supreme, mortal agony of nerve tension, and wrenching of vitality. I struggle, scream, and clutching the monster with superhuman strength, fling him aside, and rise, bleeding, screaming—but triumphant, and keenly mortal in every vein, alive and throbbing with consciousness and pain.

I pray to time, to eternity, to the frozen ages of the past. It’s useless. I’m seized, forced to open my cold lips; there’s agony—supreme, mortal agony of nerve tension, and wrenching of vitality. I struggle, scream, and with superhuman strength, I throw the monster aside and rise, bleeding, screaming—but triumphant, and fully alive in every vein, pulsating with consciousness and pain.


No, it was not opium, nor night-mare, but chloroform, a dentist, three obstinate molars, a pair of forceps, and a lively set of nerves.[Pg 44]

No, it wasn’t opium or a nightmare, but chloroform, a dentist, three stubborn molars, a pair of forceps, and a bundle of nerves.[Pg 44]


TITEE.

It was cold that day; the great sharp north wind swept out Elysian Fields Street in blasts that made men shiver, and bent everything in its track. The skies hung lowering and gloomy; the usually quiet street was more than deserted, it was dismal.

It was cold that day; the harsh north wind swept through Elysian Fields Street in gusts that made people shiver and bent everything in its path. The skies looked dark and gloomy; the usually quiet street was more than deserted, it was dreary.

Titee leaned against one of the brown freight cars for protection against the shrill norther, and warmed his little chapped hands at a blaze of chips and dry grass. "May be it'll snow," he muttered, casting a glance at the sky that would have done credit to a practised seaman. "Then won't I have fun! Ugh, but the wind blows!"

Titee leaned against one of the brown freight cars for shelter from the biting northern wind and warmed his little chapped hands over a fire made of chips and dry grass. "Maybe it’ll snow," he muttered, glancing at the sky like an experienced sailor. "Then won’t I have fun! Ugh, but the wind is freezing!"

It was Saturday, or Titee would have been in school—the big yellow school on Marigny Street, where he went every day when its bell boomed nine o'clock. Went with a run and a joyous whoop,[Pg 45]—presumably to imbibe knowledge, ostensibly to make his teacher's life a burden.

It was Saturday, or Titee would have been in school—the big yellow school on Marigny Street, where he went every day when its bell rang at nine o'clock. He would run there with a joyful shout, [Pg 45]—presumably to absorb knowledge, and apparently to make his teacher's life a challenge.

Idle, lazy, dirty, troublesome boy, she called him, to herself, as day by day wore on, and Titee improved not, but let his whole class pass him on its way to a higher grade. A practical joke he relished infinitely more than a practical problem, and a good game at pinsticking was far more entertaining than a language lesson. Moreover, he was always hungry, and would eat in school before the half-past ten intermission, thereby losing much good play-time for his voracious appetite.

Idle, lazy, dirty, troublesome boy, she thought to herself as the days went by and Titee showed no improvement, allowing his entire class to move on to a higher grade without him. He enjoyed a practical joke far more than a practical problem, and a good game of pinsticking was way more entertaining than a language lesson. Plus, he was always hungry and would eat at school before the half-past ten break, wasting a lot of good playtime because of his huge appetite.

But there was nothing in natural history that Titee didn't know. He could dissect a butterfly or a mosquito-hawk and describe their parts as accurately as a spectacled student with a scalpel and microscope could talk about a cadaver. The entire Third District, with its swamps and canals and commons and railroad sections, and its wondrous,[Pg 46] crooked, tortuous streets was as an open book to Titee. There was not a nook or corner that he did not know or could tell of. There was not a bit of gossip among the gamins, little Creole and Spanish fellows, with dark skins and lovely eyes like Spaniels, that Titee could not tell of. He knew just exactly when it was time for crawfish to be plentiful down in the Claiborne and Marigny canals; just when a poor, breadless fellow might get a job in the big bone-yard and fertilizing factory out on the railroad track; and as for the levee, with its ships and schooners and sailors—Oh, how he could revel among them! The wondrous ships, the pretty little schooners, where the foreign-looking sailors lay on long moon-lit nights, singing gay bar carols to the tinkle of a guitar and mandolin. All these things, and more, could Titee tell of. He had been down to the Gulf, and out on its treacherous waters through Eads Jetties on a fishing smack, with some jolly,[Pg 47] brown sailors, and could interest the whole school-room in the "talk lessons," if he chose.

But there was nothing in natural history that Titee didn’t know. He could dissect a butterfly or a mosquito hawk and describe their parts just as accurately as a student with glasses could discuss a cadaver with a scalpel and microscope. The entire Third District, with its swamps, canals, open spaces, and train sections, along with its amazing, crooked, winding streets was like an open book to Titee. There wasn’t a nook or cranny that he didn’t know or couldn’t talk about. There wasn’t a bit of gossip among the kids, little Creole and Spanish boys, with dark skin and beautiful eyes like Spaniels, that Titee couldn’t share. He knew exactly when crawfish would be plentiful in the Claiborne and Marigny canals; exactly when a hungry guy might get a job at the big bone yard and fertilizing factory out by the railroad track; and as for the levee, with its ships, schooners, and sailors—oh, how he loved being among them! The amazing ships, the cute little schooners, where the foreign-looking sailors would lay on long moonlit nights, singing cheerful songs to the sound of a guitar and mandolin. All these things, and more, Titee could talk about. He had been down to the Gulf and out on its tricky waters through Eads Jetties on a fishing boat with some cheerful, brown sailors, and he could grab the whole classroom's attention with the "talk lessons," if he wanted to.

Titee shivered as the wind swept round the freight cars. There isn't much warmth in a bit of a jersey coat.

Titee shivered as the wind whipped around the freight cars. There isn't much warmth in a light jersey coat.

"Wish 'twas summer," he murmured, casting another sailor's glance at the sky. "Don't believe I like snow, it's too wet and cold." And, with a last parting caress at the little fire he had builded for a minute's warmth, he plunged his hands in his pockets, shut his teeth, and started manfully on his mission out the railroad track towards the swamps.

"Wish it was summer," he murmured, glancing at the sky like a sailor. "I really don’t like snow; it’s too wet and cold." With one last touch on the small fire he had built for a moment's warmth, he shoved his hands in his pockets, clenched his teeth, and bravely set off on his journey down the railroad track toward the swamps.

It was late when Titee came home, to such a home as it was, and he had but illy performed his errand, so his mother beat him, and sent him to bed supperless. A sharp strap stings in cold weather, and long walks in the teeth of a biting wind creates a keen appetite. But if Titee cried himself to sleep that night, he was up bright and early next morning, and had been to early mass,[Pg 48] devoutly kneeling on the cold floor, blowing his fingers to keep them warm, and was home almost before the rest of the family was awake.

It was late when Titee got home, to the home that it was, and he had only done a poor job with his task, so his mother punished him and sent him to bed without dinner. A sharp strap stings in the cold, and long walks against a biting wind create a strong hunger. But if Titee cried himself to sleep that night, he was up bright and early the next morning, having gone to early mass,[Pg 48] kneeling devoutly on the cold floor, blowing on his fingers to keep them warm, and was back home almost before the rest of the family was awake.

There was evidently some great matter of business in this young man's mind, for he scarcely ate his breakfast, and had left the table, eagerly cramming the remainder of his meal in his pockets.

There was clearly something important on this young man's mind, as he barely touched his breakfast and hurried away from the table, shoving the rest of his meal into his pockets.

"I wonder what he's up to now?" mused his mother as she watched his little form sturdily trudging the track in the face of the wind, his head, with the rimless cap thrust close on the shock of black hair, bent low, his hands thrust deep in the bulging pockets.

"I wonder what he's doing now?" thought his mother as she watched his small figure steadily making his way down the track against the wind, his head, with the rimless cap pulled tight over his messy black hair, lowered, and his hands shoved deep into his bulging pockets.

"A new snake, perhaps," ventured the father; "he's a queer child."

"A new snake, maybe," the father suggested; "he's an odd kid."

But the next day Titee was late for school. It was something unusual, for he was always the first on hand to fix some plan of mechanism to make the teacher miserable. She looked reprovingly at him this morning, when he came in during the arithmetic class, his hair[Pg 49] all wind-blown, cheeks rosy from a hard fight with the sharp blasts. But he made up for his tardiness by his extreme goodness all day; just think, Titee didn't even eat in school. A something unparalleled in the entire history of his school-life.

But the next day Titee was late for school. This was unusual since he was always the first to come up with some scheme to annoy the teacher. She gave him a disapproving look that morning when he walked in during math class, his hair [Pg 49] all messy, cheeks flushed from a rough battle with the cold wind. But he made up for his lateness by being exceptionally good all day; believe it or not, Titee didn't even eat at school. That was something unprecedented in the whole history of his school life.

When the lunch-hour came, and all the yard was a scene of feast and fun, one of the boys found him standing by one of the posts, disconsolately watching a ham sandwich as it rapidly disappeared down the throat of a sturdy, square-headed little fellow.

When lunch hour arrived, and the yard became a lively scene of food and fun, one of the boys spotted him standing by one of the posts, sadly watching a ham sandwich as it quickly vanished down the throat of a solid, square-headed little guy.

"Hello, Edgar," he said, "What yer got fer lunch?"

"Hello, Edgar," he said, "What do you have for lunch?"

"Nothin'," was the mournful reply.

"Nothing," was the mournful reply.

"Ah, why don't yer stop eatin' in school fer a change? Yer don't ever have nothin' to eat."

"Hey, why don't you stop eating in school for once? You never have anything to eat."

"I didn't eat to-day," said Titee, blazing up.

"I didn't eat today," said Titee, getting really upset.

"Yer did!"

"You did!"

"I tell you I didn't!" and Titee's hard little fist planted a punctuation mark on his comrade's eye.[Pg 50]

"I swear I didn't!" and Titee's tough little fist landed a punctuation mark on his friend's eye.[Pg 50]

A fight in the school-yard! Poor Titee in disgrace again. But in spite of his battered appearance, a severe scolding from the principal, lines to write, and a further punishment from his mother, Titee scarcely remained for his dinner, but was off, down the railroad track, with his pockets partly stuffed with the remnants of his scanty meal.

A fight in the schoolyard! Poor Titee in trouble again. But despite his bruised state, a harsh lecture from the principal, lines to write, and extra punishment from his mom, Titee barely stayed for dinner before heading down the railroad tracks, with his pockets half-filled with the leftovers of his meager meal.

And the next day Titee was tardy again, and lunchless, too, and the next, and the next, until the teacher in despair sent a nicely printed note to his mother about him, which might have done some good, had not Titee taken great pains to tear it up on his way home.

And the next day, Titee was late again and didn’t have lunch, and then the next day, and the one after that, until the teacher, feeling hopeless, sent a nicely printed note to his mom about him. It might have helped, but Titee made sure to rip it up on his way home.

But one day it rained, whole bucketfuls of water, that poured in torrents from a miserable angry sky. Too wet a day for bits of boys to be trudging to school, so Titee's mother thought, so kept him home to watch the weather through the window, fretting and fuming, like a regular storm-cloud in miniature. As the day wore on, and the storm did[Pg 51] not abate, his mother had to keep a strong watch upon him, or he would have slipped away.

But one day it poured, bucketfuls of rain streaming down from a gloomy, angry sky. It was way too wet for little boys to be trudging off to school, or so Titee's mom thought, so she kept him home to stare out the window at the weather, grumbling and sulking, like a mini storm cloud. As the day dragged on and the storm didn’t let up, his mom had to keep a close eye on him, or he would have snuck out.

At last dinner came and went, and the gray soddenness of the skies deepened into the blackness of coming night. Someone called Titee to go to bed—and Titee was nowhere to be found.

At last, dinner came and went, and the gray gloom of the skies darkened into the blackness of the approaching night. Someone called for Titee to go to bed—and Titee was nowhere to be found.

Under the beds, in corners and closets, through the yard, and in such impossible places as the soap-dish and the water-pitcher even; but he had gone as completely as if he had been spirited away. It was of no use to call up the neighbors; he had never been near their houses, they affirmed, so there was nothing to do but to go to the railroad track, where little Titee had been seen so often trudging in the shrill north wind.

Under the beds, in corners and closets, through the yard, and in unexpected places like the soap dish and the water pitcher even; but he had disappeared completely as if he had been taken away. It was pointless to ask the neighbors; they claimed he had never been near their houses, so there was nothing to do but head to the railroad track, where little Titee had often been seen walking in the cold north wind.

So with lantern and sticks, and his little yellow dog, the rescuing party started out the track. The rain had ceased falling, but the wind blew a tremendous gale, scurrying great, gray clouds over a fierce sky. It was not ex[Pg 52]actly dark, though in this part of the city, there was neither gas nor electricity, and surely on such a night as this, neither moon nor stars dared show their faces in such a grayness of sky; but a sort of all-diffused luminosity was in the air, as though the sea of atmosphere was charged with an ethereal phosphorescence.

So, with a lantern and some sticks, and his little yellow dog, the rescue team set out on the trail. The rain had stopped, but the wind was blowing hard, pushing dark gray clouds across a stormy sky. It wasn’t exactly dark, even though this part of the city had no gas or electricity, and on a night like this, neither the moon nor the stars dared to show themselves in the grayness of the sky. But there was a kind of soft glow in the air, as if the atmosphere was filled with a ghostly light.

Search as they would, there were no signs of poor little Titee. The soft earth between the railroad ties crumbled beneath their feet without showing any small tracks or foot-prints.

Search as they might, there were no signs of poor little Titee. The soft ground between the railroad ties crumbled beneath their feet without revealing any small tracks or footprints.

"Let us return," said the big brother, "he can't be here anyway."

"Let's go back," said the older brother, "he's definitely not here."

"No, no," urged the mother, "I feel that he is; let's go on."

"No, no," the mother insisted, "I can tell that he is; let’s keep going."

So on they went, slipping on the wet earth, stumbling over the loose rocks, until a sudden wild yelp from Tiger brought them to a standstill. He had rushed ahead of them, and his voice could be heard in the distance, howling piteously.[Pg 53]

So they kept moving, sliding on the muddy ground and tripping over the loose stones, until a sudden loud yelp from Tiger made them stop. He had darted ahead of them, and they could hear his voice in the distance, howling sadly.[Pg 53]

With a fresh impetus the little muddy party hurried forward. Tiger's yelps could be heard plainer and plainer, mingled now with a muffled wail, as of some one in pain.

With renewed energy, the small muddy group rushed ahead. Tiger's yelps became clearer and clearer, now mixed with a muffled cry, as if someone was in pain.

And then, after awhile they found a pitiful little heap of wet and sodden rags, lying at the foot of a mound of earth and stones thrown upon the side of the track. It was little Titee with a broken leg, all wet and miserable, and moaning.

And then, after a while, they found a sad little pile of wet and dirty rags, lying at the base of a mound of dirt and stones pushed to the side of the track. It was little Titee with a broken leg, all wet and miserable, and moaning.

They picked him up tenderly, and started to carry him home. But he cried and clung to his mother, and begged not to go.

They gently picked him up and began to carry him home. But he cried and clung to his mother, pleading not to go.

"He's got fever," wailed his mother.

"He's got a fever," his mother cried.

"No, no, it's my old man. He's hungry, sobbed Titee, holding out a little package. It was the remnants of his dinner, wet and rain washed.

"No, no, it's my dad. He's hungry," Titee sobbed, holding out a small package. It was the leftovers of his dinner, soggy and rain-soaked.

"What old man?" asked the big brother.

"What old man?" asked the older brother.

"My old man, oh, please, please don't go home until I see him, I'm not hurting much, I can go."[Pg 54]

"My dad, oh, please, please don't go home until I see him. I'm not in too much pain, I can manage."[Pg 54]

So yielding to his whim, they carried him further away, down the sides of the track up to an embankment or levee by the sides of the Marigny canal. Then Titee's brother, suddenly stopping, exclaimed:

So giving in to his request, they took him farther away, down the edges of the path to an embankment by the Marigny canal. Then Titee's brother, suddenly stopping, exclaimed:

"Why, here's a cave, a regular Robinson Cruso affair."

"Look, here's a cave, just like something out of Robinson Crusoe."

"It's my old man's cave," cried Titee; "oh, please go in, maybe he's dead."

"It's my dad's cave," yelled Titee; "oh, please go in, he might be dead."

There can't be much ceremony in entering a cave, there is but one thing to do, walk in. This they did, and holding high the lantern, beheld a strange sight. On a bed of straw and paper in one corner lay a withered, wizened, white-bearded old man, with wide eyes staring at the unaccustomed sight. In the corner lay a cow.

There isn't much ceremony in entering a cave; there's only one thing to do: walk in. That's what they did, and holding the lantern high, they saw something strange. In one corner, on a bed of straw and paper, lay a withered, old man with a white beard, his wide eyes staring at this unusual sight. In the other corner lay a cow.

"It's my old man!" cried Titee, joyfully. "Oh, please, grandpa, I couldn't get here to-day, it rained all morning, and when I ran away this evening, I slipped down and broke something, and oh, grandpa, I'm so tired and hurty, and[Pg 55] I'm so afraid you're hungry."

"It's my dad!" Titee exclaimed happily. "Oh, please, grandpa, I couldn't make it here today; it rained all morning, and when I ran away this evening, I slipped and broke something. Oh, grandpa, I'm so tired and in pain, and[Pg 55] I'm really worried you're hungry."

So the secret of Titee's jaunts out the railroad was out. In one of his trips around the swamp-land, he had discovered the old man dying from cold and hunger in the fields. Together they had found this cave, and Titee had gathered the straw and brush that scattered itself over the ground and made the bed. A poor old cow turned adrift by an ungrateful master, had crept in and shared the damp dwelling. And thither Titee had trudged twice a day, carrying his luncheon in the morning, and his dinner in the evening, the sole support of a half-dead cripple.

So the secret of Titee's trips out to the railroad was out. During one of his journeys through the swamp, he had found the old man dying from cold and hunger in the fields. Together they discovered this cave, and Titee collected the straw and brush scattered on the ground to make a bed. A poor old cow, abandoned by an ungrateful owner, had wandered in and shared the damp shelter. And Titee had walked there twice a day, bringing his lunch in the morning and his dinner in the evening, the only support for a nearly lifeless cripple.

"There's a crown in Heaven for that child," said the officer to whom the case was referred.

"There's a crown in Heaven for that child," said the officer assigned to the case.

And so there was, for we scattered winter roses on his little grave down in old St. Rocque's cemetery. The cold and rain, and the broken leg had told their tale.[Pg 56]

And so we scattered winter roses on his little grave in the old St. Rocque's cemetery. The cold, the rain, and the broken leg had told their story.[Pg 56]


ANARCHY ALLEY.

To the casual observer, the quaint, narrow, little alley that lies in the heart of the city is no more than any other of the numerous divisions of streets in which New Orleans delights. But to the idle wanderer, or he whose mission down its four squares of much trodden stones, is an aimless one,—whose eyes unforced to bend to the ground in thought of sordid ways and means, can peer at will into its quaint corners. Exchange Alley presents all the phases of a Latinized portion of America, a bit of Europe, perhaps, the restless, chafing, anarchistic Europe of to-day, in the midst of the quieter democratic institution of our republic.

To a casual observer, the charming, narrow little alley in the heart of the city seems just like any other of the many street passages that New Orleans is known for. But for the aimless wanderer, or someone wandering down its four squares of well-trodden stones without a purpose—whose eyes aren’t forced to look down in concern for everyday struggles—they can easily take in its unique corners. Exchange Alley showcases all the aspects of a Latin-influenced part of America, a bit of Europe perhaps, reflecting the restless, rebellious spirit of today’s Europe, set against the backdrop of the calmer democratic institutions of our republic.

It is Bohemia, pure and simple, Bohemia, in all its stages, from the beer saloon and the cheap book-store, to the cheaper cook shop and uncertain lodging house. There the great American in[Pg 57]stitution, the wondrous monarch whom the country supports—the tramp—basks in superior comfort and contented, unmolested indolence. Idleness and labor, poverty and opulence, the honest, law-abiding workingman, and the reckless, restless anarchist, jostle side by side, and brush each other's elbows in terms of equality as they do nowhere else.

It’s Bohemia, plain and simple, Bohemia in all its forms, from the beer bar and the discount bookstore to the even cheaper diner and unreliable boarding house. There, the great American institution, the remarkable figure that the country supports—the tramp—enjoys a level of comfort and relaxed, uninterrupted laziness. Idleness and work, poverty and wealth, the honest, law-abiding worker, and the reckless, restless anarchist, rub shoulders and share equal ground like nowhere else.

On the busiest thoroughfares in the city, just in the busiest part, between two of the most crowded and conservative of cross-streets, lies this alley of Latinism. One might almost pass it hurriedly, avoiding the crowds that cluster at this section of the streets, but upon turning into a narrow section, stone-paved, the place is entered, appearing to end one square distant, seeming to bar itself from the larger buildings by an aimless sort of iron affair, part railing, part posts. There is a conservative book-store at the entrance on one side, and an even more harmless clothing[Pg 58] store on the other; then comes a saloon with many blind doors, behind which are vistas of tables, crowded and crowded with men drinking beer out of "globes," large, round, moony, common affairs. There is a dingy, pension-claim office, with cripples and sorrowful-looking women in black, sitting about on rickety chairs. Somehow, there is always an impression with me that the mourning dress and mournful looks are put on to impress the dispenser and adjuster. It is wicked, but what can one do if impressions come?

On the busiest streets in the city, right in the heart of it all, between two of the most crowded and traditional cross streets, is this alley of Latin culture. You could easily rush past it, avoiding the crowds that gather here, but if you turn into a narrow, stone-paved path, you enter a space that seems to end just one square away, almost blocking itself off from the larger buildings with a random iron barrier, part railing and part posts. There's a conservative bookstore at the entrance on one side, and on the other, a pretty innocuous clothing store; then there’s a bar with many closed doors, behind which you can see tables filled with men drinking beer from "globes," those large, round, moonlike mugs. There’s also a dingy pension office, with disabled people and sad-looking women in black sitting around on rickety chairs. For some reason, I always feel like the mourning outfits and sorrowful expressions are just for show to make an impression on the clerk and adjuster. It might be wrong, but what can you do if feelings just happen?

There are more little cuddies of places, dye-shops, tailors, and nondescript corners that seem to have no possible mission on earth and are sadly conscious of their aimlessness. Then the railing is reached, and the alley instead of ending has merely given itself an angular twist to the right, and extends three squares further, to a great, pale green dome, and stately entrance.

There are more small, cozy spots, dye shops, tailors, and random corners that seem to have no real purpose and are sadly aware of their aimlessness. Then you reach the railing, and the alley, instead of ending, takes a sharp turn to the right and goes another three blocks to a large, pale green dome and a grand entrance.

The calmly-thinking, quietly-laboring, cool and conservative world is for the nonce left behind. With the first step[Pg 59]ping across Customhouse street, the place widens architecturally, and the atmosphere, too, seems impregnated with a sort of mental freedom, conducive to dangerous theorizing and broody reflections on the inequality of the classes. The sun shines in a strip in the centre, yellow and elusive, like gold; someone is rattling a gay galop on a piano somewhere; there is a sound of mens' voices in a heated discussion, a long whiff of pipe-smoke trails through the sunlight from the bar-room; the clink of glasses, the chink of silver, and the high treble of a woman's voice scolding a refractory child, mingle in incongruous melody.

The calm, hardworking, cool, and traditional world is momentarily left behind. With the first step[Pg 59] across Customhouse street, the area opens up architecturally, and the atmosphere seems filled with a kind of mental freedom that encourages risky ideas and deep thoughts on social inequality. The sun shines in a bright strip in the center, yellow and fleeting, like gold; someone is playing an upbeat galop on a piano somewhere; there are men’s voices in a heated argument, a long whiff of pipe smoke drifts through the sunlight from the bar room; the clinking of glasses, the jingle of coins, and the sharp sound of a woman’s voice scolding a disobedient child blend into a strange melody.

Two-story houses all along; the first floor divided into cuddies, here a paper store, displaying ten-cent novels of detective stories with impossible cuts, illustrating impossible situations of the plot; dye-shops, jewelers, tailors, tin-smiths, cook-shops, intelligence offices—many of these, and some newspaper offices. On the second floor, balconies, dingy, iron-railed, with sickly box-plants, and decrepit garments airing and being turned and tended by dishevelled, slip-shod women. Lodging-houses these,[Pg 60] some of them, but one is forced to wonder why do the tenants sun their clothes so often? The lines stretched from posts to posts seem always filled with airing garments. Is it economy? And do the owners of the faded vests and patched coats hide in dusky corners while their only garments are receiving the benefit of Old Sol's cleansing rays? And are the women with the indiscriminate tresses, near relatives, or only the landladies? It would be something worth knowing if one could.

Two-story houses lined the street; the first floor was filled with small shops, including a paper store showcasing ten-cent detective novels with unbelievable plots and situations. There were dye shops, jewelers, tailors, tin smiths, diners, and several intelligence offices, along with some newspaper offices. On the second floor, there were grimy balconies with rusty iron railings, sickly box plants, and worn-out clothes being aired out and tended to by messy, slipper-clad women. Some of these were lodging houses,[Pg 60] but it makes you wonder why the tenants hang their clothes out to dry so often. The lines stretched between posts always seemed to be filled with drying garments. Is it for saving money? And do the owners of the faded vests and patched coats hide in dark corners while their only clothes soak up the sun? And are those disheveled women relatives or just the landladies? It would definitely be interesting to know if anyone could figure it out.

Plenty of saloons—great, gorgeous, gaudy places, with pianos and swift-footed waiters, tables and cards, and men, men, men. The famous Three Brothers' Saloon occupies a position about midway the alley, and at its doors, the acme, the culminating point, the superlative degree of unquietude and discontent is reached. It is the headquarters of nearly all the great labor organizations in the city. Behind its doors, swinging as easily between the street and the liquor-fumed halls as the soul swings between right and wrong, the disturbed minds of the working-men become clouded, heated, and wrothily[Pg 61] ready for deeds of violence.

Plenty of bars—big, flashy, over-the-top places, with pianos and quick waiters, tables and cards, and lots of men. The well-known Three Brothers' Saloon is located about halfway down the alley, and at its entrance, the peak, the high point, the absolute essence of restlessness and discontent is reached. It’s the main hub for nearly all the major labor organizations in the city. Behind its doors, swinging as freely between the street and the alcohol-soaked halls as the mind sways between right and wrong, the troubled thoughts of the workingmen become confused, heated, and angrily[Pg 61] ready for acts of violence.

Outside on the pavements with hundreds of like-excited men, with angry discussions and bitter recitals of complaints, the seeds of discord sown some time since, perhaps, sprout afresh, blossom and bear fruits. Is there a strike? Then special minions of the law are detailed to this place, for violence and hatred of employers, insurrection and socialism find here ready followers. Impromptu mass meetings are common, and law-breaking schemes find their cradle beneath its glittering lights. It is always thronged within and without, a veritable nursery of riot and disorder.

Outside on the sidewalks, hundreds of excited men gather, engaged in heated discussions and sharing their grievances. The seeds of conflict sown long ago have taken root once more, blossoming and bearing fruit. Is there a strike? Then special law enforcement officers are assigned to this area, as resentment towards employers, as well as insurrection and socialism, find eager supporters. Spontaneous mass gatherings are frequent, and plans for breaking the law are born beneath its bright lights. It is constantly bustling, both inside and out, a true breeding ground for chaos and disorder.

And oh, Bohemia, pipes, indolence and beer! The atmosphere is impregnated with it, the dust sifts it into your clothes and hair, the sunlight filters it through your brain, the stray snatches of music now and then beat it rhythmically into your mind. There are some who work, yes, and a few places outside of the saloons that seem to be animated with a business motive. There are even some who push their way briskly through the aimless bodies of men,—but then there must be an occa[Pg 62]sional anomaly to break the monotony, if nothing more.

And oh, Bohemia, pipes, laziness, and beer! The air is filled with it, the dust settles into your clothes and hair, the sunlight filters it through your mind, and the random bits of music every now and then beat it rhythmically into your consciousness. Some people do work, sure, and a few places outside of the bars seem to have a business vibe. There are even some who push their way smoothly through the aimless crowds of people—but there has to be an occasional oddity to break the monotony, if nothing else.

It is so unlike the ordinary world, this bit of Bohemia, that one feels a personal grievance when the marble entrance and great, green dome become positive, solid, architectural facts, standing in all the grim solemnity of the main entrance of the Hotel Royal on St. Louis Street, ending, with a sudden return to aristocracy, this stamping ground for anarchy.[Pg 63]

It’s so different from the regular world, this little piece of Bohemia, that it feels like a personal insult when the marble entrance and the huge green dome turn into indisputable, real architectural features, standing with all the serious weight of the main entrance of the Hotel Royal on St. Louis Street, abruptly bringing an end to this playground of chaos.[Pg 63]


IMPRESSIONS.

THOUGHT.

A swift, successive chain of things,
That flash, kaleidoscope-like, now in, now out,
Now straight, now eddying in wild rings,
No order, neither law, compels their moves,
But endless, constant, always swiftly roves.


HOPE.

Wild seas of tossing, writhing waves,
A wreck half-sinking in the tortuous gloom;
One man clings desperately, while Boreas raves,
And helps to blot the rays of moon and star,
Then comes a sudden flash of light, which gleams on shores afar.


LOVE.

[Pg 64]A bed of roses, pleasing to the eye,
Flowers of heaven, passionate and pure,
Upon this bed the youthful often lie,
And pressing hard upon its sweet delight,
The cruel thorns pierce soul and heart, and cause a woeful blight.


DEATH.

A traveller who has always heard
That on this journey he some day must go,
Yet shudders now, when at the fatal word
He starts upon the lonesome, dreary way.
The past, a page of joy and woe,—the future, none can say.


FAITH.

Blind clinging to a stern, stone cross,
Or it may be of frailer make;
Eyes shut, ears closed to earth's drear dross,
Immovable, serene, the world away
From thoughts—the mind uncaring for another day.
[Pg 65]

IDEA.

A quick, ongoing flow of ideas,
Flashing like a kaleidoscope, in and out,
Sometimes straight, sometimes swirling in chaotic circles,
No order or rule directs their movement,
But endless, constant, and always moving fast.


Hope.

Rough seas with crashing, rolling waves,
A ship that's sinking halfway in the twisting darkness;
A man holds on tightly as the wind screams,
Hiding the light of the moon and stars,
Suddenly, a bright flash of light appears on the distant shores.


LOVE.

[Pg 64]A beautiful bed of roses to look at,
Heavenly flowers, vibrant and pure,
On this bed, young people often lie,
And as they delve into its sweet pleasure,
The sharp thorns pierce their soul and heart, bringing deep sadness.


DEATH.

A traveler who has always known
That one day he has to take this journey,
But now he trembles at the deadly word.
As he walks onto the empty, dreary path.
The past is a blend of happiness and sadness—the future is uncertain.


FAITH.

Holding tightly to a solid stone cross,
Or maybe something more delicate;
Eyes closed, ears shut to the world's dull noise,
Unshakeable, serene, detached from the world.
With thoughts—my mind unaffected by another day.
[Pg 65]


SALAMMBO.

BY GUSTAVE FLANBERT.

Like unto the barbaric splendor, the clashing of arms, the flashing of jewels, so is this book, full of brightness that dazzles, yet does not weary, of rich mosaic beauty of sensuous softness. Yet, with it all, there is a singular lack of elevation of thought and expression; everything tends to degrade, to drag the mind to a worse than earthly level. The crudity of the warriors, the minute description of the battles, the leper, Hann; even the sensual love-scene of Salammbo and Matho, and the rites of Taint and Moloch. Possibly this is due to the peculiar shortness and crispness of the sentences, and the painstaking attention to details. Nothing is left for the imagination to complete. The slightest turn of the hand, the smallest bit of tapestry and armor,—all, all is described until[Pg 66] one's brain becomes weary with the scintillating flash of minutia. Such careful attention wearies and disappoints, and sometimes, instead of photographing the scenes indelibly upon the mental vision, there ensues only a confused mass of armor and soldiers, plains and horses.

Like the barbaric splendor, the clash of weapons, the sparkle of jewels, this book is full of dazzling brightness that doesn’t tire you out, with a rich, beautiful mosaic of soft sensuality. Yet, despite all this, there’s a noticeable lack of depth in thought and expression; everything seems to drag the mind down to a level worse than earthly. The crudeness of the warriors, the detailed descriptions of battles, the leper, Hann; even the sensual love scene between Salammbo and Matho, and the rituals of Taint and Moloch. This might be because of the short, concise sentences and the meticulous attention to detail. Nothing is left for the imagination to fill in. The slightest movement of the hand, the tiniest bits of tapestry and armor—all is described until[Pg 66] your brain becomes fatigued from the dazzling details. Such careful attention can be exhausting and disappointing; sometimes, instead of solidifying the scenes in your mind, it results in just a confusing jumble of armor and soldiers, plains and horses.

But the description of action and movement are incomparable, resembling somewhat, in the rush and flow of words, the style of Victor Hugo; the breathless rush and fire, the restrained passion and fury of a master-hand.

But the description of action and movement is unmatched, somewhat resembling, in the rush and flow of words, the style of Victor Hugo; the breathless pace and intensity, the controlled passion and fury of a master.

Throughout the whole book this peculiarity is noticeable—there are no dissertations, no pauses for the author to express his opinions, no stoppages to reflect,—we are rushed onward with almost breathless haste, and many times are fain to pause and re-read a sentence, a paragraph, sometimes a whole page. Like the unceasing motion of a column of artillery in battle, like the roar and fury of the Carthaginian's elephant, so[Pg 67] is the torrent of Flanbert's eloquence—majestic, grand, intense, with nobility, sensuous, but never sublime, never elevating, never delicate.

Throughout the entire book, this uniqueness stands out—there are no lengthy discussions, no moments for the author to share his thoughts, no breaks for reflection—we are swiftly propelled forward with almost breathless urgency, and often we feel compelled to pause and re-read a sentence, a paragraph, sometimes an entire page. Like the relentless movement of a line of artillery in battle, like the roar and fury of the Carthaginian's elephant, so[Pg 67] is the torrent of Flanbert's eloquence—majestic, grand, intense, noble, sensuous, but never sublime, never uplifting, never delicate.

As an historian, Flanbert would have ranked high—at least in impartiality. Not once in the whole volume does he allow his prejudices, his opinions, his sentiments to crop out. We lose complete sight of the author in his work. With marvellous fidelity he explains the movements, the vices and the virtues of each party, and with Shakespearean tact, he conceals his identity, so that we are troubled with none of that Byronic vice of 'dipping one's pen into one's self.'

As a historian, Flanbert would have ranked high—at least in neutrality. Not once in the entire volume does he let his biases, opinions, or feelings show. We completely lose sight of the author in his work. With remarkable accuracy, he describes the actions, flaws, and strengths of each side, and with Shakespearean skill, he hides his identity, so we’re not burdened by that Byronic habit of "dipping one's pen into one's self."

Still, for all the historian's impartiality, he is just a trifle incorrect, here and there—the ancients mention no aqueduct in or near Carthage. Hann was not crucified outside of Tunis. The incident of the Carthaginian women cutting off their tresses to furnish strings for bows and catapults is generally conceded to have occurred during the latter[Pg 68] portion of the third Punic War. And still another difficulty presents itself—Salammbo was supposed to have been the only daughter of Hamilcar; according to Flanbert she dies unmarried, or rather on her wedding day, and yet historians tell us that after the death of the elder Barca, Hannibal was brought up and watched over by Hamilcar's son-in-law, Hasdrubal. Can it be possible that the crafty Numidian King, Nari Havas, is the intrepid, fearless and whole-souled Hasdrubal? Or is it only another deviation from the beaten track of history? In a historical novel, however, and one so evidently arranged for dramatic effects, such lapses from the truth only heighten the interest and kindle the imagination to a brighter flame.

Still, despite the historian's impartiality, he is just a bit incorrect here and there—the ancients mention no aqueduct in or near Carthage. Hann was not crucified outside of Tunis. The incident of the Carthaginian women cutting off their hair to provide strings for bows and catapults is generally agreed to have happened during the latter[Pg 68] part of the third Punic War. And another issue arises—Salammbo was supposed to be the only daughter of Hamilcar; according to Flanbert, she dies unmarried, or rather on her wedding day, yet historians tell us that after the death of the elder Barca, Hannibal was raised and looked after by Hamilcar's son-in-law, Hasdrubal. Could it be that the cunning Numidian King, Nari Havas, is actually the brave, fearless, and devoted Hasdrubal? Or is it just another departure from the established narrative of history? In a historical novel, though, especially one so clearly designed for dramatic effect, such deviations from the truth only increase the interest and ignite the imagination even more.

The school of realism of which Zola, Tolstoi, De Maupassant, and others of that ilk are followers, claims its descent from the author of Salammbo. Perhaps their claim is well-founded, perhaps not; we are inclined to believe that it is, for[Pg 69] every page in this novel is crowded with details, often disgusting, which are generally left out in ordinary works. The hideous deformity, the rottenness and repulsiveness of the leper Hann is brought out in such vivid detail that we sicken and fain would turn aside in disgust. But go where one will, the ghastly, quivering, wretched picture is always before us in all its filth and splendid misery. The reeking horrors of the battle-fields, the disgusting details of the army imprisoned in the defile of the battle-axe, the grimness of the sacrifices to the blood-thirsty god, Moloch, the wretchedness of Hamilcar's slaves are presented with every ghastly detail, with every degrading trick of expression. Picture after picture of misery and foulness arises and pursues us as the grim witches pursued the hapless Tam O'Shanter, clutching us in ghastly arms, clinging to us with grim and ghoulish tenacity.

The realism movement that Zola, Tolstoy, De Maupassant, and others follow claims its roots from the author of Salammbo. Maybe that claim is valid, maybe it isn’t; we tend to think it is because[Pg 69] every page in this novel is filled with details, often repulsive, that are usually omitted in typical works. The horrifying deformity, the decay and disgusting nature of the leper Hann are described so vividly that we feel sick and want to look away in revulsion. But wherever you go, the horrible, trembling, miserable image is always in front of us in all its filth and shocking misery. The stench of the battlefields, the revolting details of the army trapped in the narrow path of destruction, the grim sacrifices to the bloodthirsty god, Moloch, and the misery of Hamilcar's slaves are all shown with every horrifying detail and every demeaning expression. One distressing image after another of suffering and filth materializes and follows us like the grim witches pursued the unfortunate Tam O'Shanter, grabbing us with terrifying arms and clinging to us with macabre persistence.

Viewing the character through the[Pg 70] genteel crystal of nineteenth century civilization, they are all barbarous, unnatural, intensified; but considering the age in which they lived—the tendencies of that age, the gods they worshipped, the practices in which they indulged,—they are all true to life, perfect in the depiction of their natures. Spendius is a true Greek, crafty, lying, deceitful, ungrateful. Hamilcar needs no novelist to crystallize his character in words, he always remains the same Hamilcar of history, so it is with Hann; but to Flanbert alone are we indebted for the hideous realism of his external aspect. Matho is a dusky son of Libya,—fierce, passionate, resentful, unbridled in his speech and action, swept by the hot breath of furious love as his native sands are swept by the burning simoon. Salammbo, cold and strange delving deep in the mysticism of the Carthaginian gods, living apart from human passions in her intense love for the goddess, Tanit; Salammbo, in the earnest excess of her[Pg 71] religious fervor, eagerly accepting the mission given her by the puzzled Saracharabim; Salammbo, twining the gloomy folds of the python about her perfumed limbs; Salammbo, resisting, then yielding to the fierce love of Matho; Salammbo, dying when her erstwhile lover expires; Salammbo, in all her many phases reminds us of some early Christian martyr or saint, though the sweet spirit of the Great Teacher is hidden in the punctual devotion to the mysterious rites of Tanit. She is an inexplicable mixture of the tropical exotic and the frigid snow-flower,—a rich and rare growth that attracts and repulses, that interests and absorbs, that we admire—without loving, detest—without hating.[Pg 72]

Viewing the character through the[Pg 70] refined lens of nineteenth-century civilization, they all seem barbaric, unnatural, exaggerated; but considering the era in which they lived—the trends of that time, the deities they worshipped, the practices they engaged in—they are all authentic, perfectly capturing their true natures. Spendius is a genuine Greek—cunning, deceitful, dishonest, ungrateful. Hamilcar needs no novelist to define his character in words; he remains the same Hamilcar of history, and the same goes for Hann. But we owe it to Flanbert for the brutal realism of his physical appearance. Matho is a dark son of Libya—fierce, passionate, resentful, unchecked in his words and actions, driven by wild love like his home sands swept by the scorching simoon. Salammbo, cold and enigmatic, dives deep into the mysticism of the Carthaginian gods, detached from human emotions in her intense love for the goddess, Tanit; Salammbo, in the earnest fervor of her[Pg 71] religious devotion, eagerly takes on the mission given to her by the bewildered Saracharabim; Salammbo, wrapping the dark coils of the python around her scented limbs; Salammbo, resisting and then succumbing to Matho's fierce love; Salammbo, dying when her former lover passes away; Salammbo, in all her various forms, reminds us of some early Christian martyr or saint, even though the gentle spirit of the Great Teacher is concealed within her strict devotion to the mysterious rites of Tanit. She is an inexplicable blend of tropical exoticism and cold elegance—a rich and rare being that attracts yet repels, that captivates and engrosses, that we admire—without love, detest—without hatred.[Pg 72]


LEGEND OF THE NEWSPAPER.

Poets sing and fables tell us,
Or old folk lore whispers low,
Of the origin of all things,
Of the spring from whence they came,
Kalevala, old and hoary,
Æneid, Iliad, Æsop, too,
All are filled with strange quaint legends,
All replete with ancient tales,—

How love came, and how old earth,
Freed from chaos, grew for us,
To a green and wondrous spheroid,
To a home for things alive;
How fierce fire and iron cold,
How the snow and how the frost,—
All these things the old rhymes ring,
All these things the old tales tell.

Yet they ne'er sang of the beginning,
Of that great unbreathing angel,
Of that soul without a haven,
Of that gracious Lady Bountiful,
Yet they ne'er told how it came here;
[Pg 73]Ne'er said why we read it daily,
Nor did they even let us guess why
We were left to tell the tale.

Came one day into the wood-land,
Muckintosh, the great and mighty,
Muckintosh, the famous thinker,
He whose brain was all his weapons,
As against his rival's soarings,
High unto the vaulted heavens,
Low adown the swarded earth,
Rolled he round his gaze all steely,
And his voice like music prayed:
"Oh, Creator, wondrous Spirit,
Thou who hast for us descended
In the guise of knowledge mighty,
And our brains with truth o'er-flooded;
In the greatness of thy wisdom,
Knowest not our limitations?
Wondrous thoughts have we, thy servants,
Wondrous things we see each day,
Yet we cannot tell our brethren,
Yet we cannot let them know,
Of our doings and our happenings,
Should they parted be from us?
[Pg 74]Help us, oh, Thou Wise Creator,
From the fulness of thy wisdom,
Show us how to spread our knowledge,
And disseminate our actions,
Such as we find worthy, truly."

Quick the answer came from heaven;
Muckintosh, the famous thinker,
Muckintosh, the great and mighty,
Felt a trembling, felt a quaking,
Saw the earth about him open,
Saw the iron from the mountains
Form a quaint and queer machine,
Saw the lead from out the lead mines
Roll into small lettered forms,
Saw the fibres from the flax-plant,
Spread into great sheets of paper,
Saw the ink galls from the green trees
Crushed upon the leaden forms;
Muckintosh, the famous thinker,
Muckintosh, the great and mighty,
Felt a trembling, felt a quaking,
Saw the earth about him open,
Saw the flame and sulphur smoking,
Came the printer's little devil,
Far from distant lands the printer,
[Pg 75]Man of unions, man of cuss-words,
From the depths of sooty blackness;
Came the towel of the printer;
Many things that Muckintosh saw,—
Galleys, type, and leads and rules,
Presses, press-men, quoins and spaces,
Quads and caps and lower cases.

But to Muckintosh bewildered,
All this passed as in a dream,
Till within his nervous hand,
Hand with joy and fear a-quaking,
Muckintosh, the great and mighty,
Muckintosh, the famous thinker,
Held the first of our newspapers.
[Pg 76]

Poets write, and stories tell us,
Old folk tales whisper softly,
About the origin of everything,
Regarding the spring they came from,
Kalevala, old and respected,
Aeneid, Iliad, Aesop, too,
All filled with unusual and captivating stories,
All rich with ancient tales,—

How love arrived, and how ancient earth,
Freed from chaos, we grew stronger.
Into a vibrant and amazing sphere,
A home for living beings;
How fierce fire and cold iron,
How the snow and how the frost,—
All these things are echoed in the old rhymes,
All these things are told in the old stories.

Yet they never sang about the beginning,
Of that great silent angel,
Of that soul without a place to call home,
Of that generous Lady Bountiful,
But they never explained how it came to be;
[Pg 73]Never explained why we come across it every day,
They didn't even give us a hint as to why.
We were left to tell the story.

One day, I entered the woods,
Muckintosh, the great and powerful,
Muckintosh, the renowned thinker,
The person whose mind was his only weapon,
Against his rival's high ambitions,
Up to the vaulted heavens,
Low on the grassy ground,
He directed his intense gaze all around,
And his voice, like music, prayed:
"Oh, Creator, marvelous Spirit,
You who have come down for us
In the form of powerful knowledge,
And filled our minds with truth;
In your immense wisdom,
Don't you know our limits?
We, your servants, have amazing thoughts,
We see amazing things every day,
But we can't tell our brothers,
But we can't let them find out,
Regarding our actions and what has happened,
Should they be kept apart from us?
[Pg 74]Help us, oh, Wise Creator,
From the depth of your knowledge,
Show us how to share what we know,
And share our actions,
"Such as we find truly deserving."

The answer came swiftly from heaven;
Muckintosh, the renowned thinker,
Muckintosh, the great and powerful,
I felt a tremor, I felt a shiver,
Watched the ground around him split open,
Saw the iron from the mountains.
Create a weird and unusual machine,
Saw the lead coming out of the mines.
Shape into small letter forms.
Saw the fibers from the flax plant,
Spread out onto large sheets of paper,
Saw the ink from the green trees.
Crushed into the lead forms;
Muckintosh, the renowned thinker,
Muckintosh, the great and powerful,
Felt a shaking, felt a chill,
Saw the ground around him split open,
Saw the fire and smoke of sulfur,
Came the printer's little imp,
The printer arrived from faraway places,
[Pg 75]Man of unions, man of curses,
From the depths of dark soot;
The printer's towel arrived;
Many things that Muckintosh saw—
Galleys, fonts, and leads and rules,
Presses, printers, quoins, and typesetting,
Quads, caps, and lowercase letters.

But for Muckintosh, confused,
Everything that happened felt like a dream,
Until in his shaking hand,
Hands shaking with excitement and anxiety,
Muckintosh, the great and powerful,
Muckintosh, the renowned thinker,
Held the first edition of our newspaper.
[Pg 76]


A CARNIVAL JANGLE.

There is a merry jangle of bells in the air, an all-pervading sense of jester's noise, and the flaunting vividness of royal colors; the streets swarm with humanity,—humanity in all shapes, manners, forms,—laughing, pushing, jostling, crowding, a mass of men and women and children, as varied and as assorted in their several individual peculiarities as ever a crowd that gathered in one locality since the days of Babel.

There’s a cheerful jangle of bells in the air, a constant sense of festive noise, and the bright display of royal colors; the streets are packed with people—people of all shapes, sizes, and styles—laughing, pushing, jostling, and crowding together, a mix of men, women, and children, as diverse and unique in their individual quirks as any crowd that has ever gathered in one place since the days of Babel.

It is Carnival in New Orleans; a brilliant Tuesday in February, when the very air effervesces an ozone intensely exhilarating—of a nature half spring, half winter—to make one long to cut capers. The buildings are a blazing mass of royal purple and golden yellow, and national flags, bunting and decorations that laugh in the glint of the Midas sun. The streets a crush of jesters and maskers, Jim Crows and clowns, ballet[Pg 77] girls and Mephistos, Indians and monkeys; of wild and sudden flashes of music, of glittering pageants and comic ones, of befeathered and belled horses. A madding dream of color and melody and fantasy gone wild in an effervescent bubble of beauty that shifts and changes and passes kaleidoscope-like before the bewildered eye.

It’s Carnival in New Orleans; a vibrant Tuesday in February when the air feels electric—like a mix of spring and winter—making you want to dance. The buildings are a dazzling display of royal purple and golden yellow, with national flags, bunting, and decorations that shine in the bright sun. The streets are packed with jesters, people in masks, Jim Crows, clowns, ballet girls, Mephistos, Indians, and monkeys; filled with sudden bursts of music, sparkling parades, and comedic performances, all featuring feathered and bell-adorned horses. It’s a wild dream of color, sound, and fantasy bursting in an effervescent bubble of beauty that shifts and changes like a kaleidoscope before the amazed eye.

A bevy of bright-eyed girls and boys of that uncertainty of age that hovers between childhood and maturity, were moving down Canal Street when there was a sudden jostle with another crowd meeting them. For a minute there was a deafening clamor of laughter, cracking of whips, which all maskers carry, jingle and clatter of carnival bells, and the masked and unmasked extricated themselves and moved from each other's paths. But in the confusion a tall Prince of Darkness had whispered to one of the girls in the unmasked crowd: "You'd better come with us, Flo, you're wasting time in that tame gang. Slip off, they'll[Pg 78] never miss you; we'll get you a rig, and show you what life is."

A group of bright-eyed kids, caught between childhood and adulthood, were walking down Canal Street when they suddenly bumped into another crowd coming their way. For a moment, there was a loud burst of laughter, the crack of the whips that everyone was carrying, the jingling and clattering of carnival bells, as both the masked and unmasked people pulled away from each other. In the chaos, a tall figure dressed as the Prince of Darkness leaned in and whispered to one of the girls in the unmasked crowd, "You should come with us, Flo, you're wasting your time with that boring crew. Slip away, they’ll never notice you’re gone; we’ll get you set up and show you what real life is."

And so it happened that when a half hour passed, and the bright-eyed bevy missed Flo and couldn't find her, wisely giving up the search at last, that she, the quietest and most bashful of the lot, was being initiated into the mysteries of "what life is."

And so it happened that after half an hour had passed, and the bright-eyed group missed Flo and couldn’t find her, they wisely decided to stop searching. Meanwhile, she, the quietest and shyest of the bunch, was being introduced to the secrets of "what life is."

Down Bourbon Street and on Toulouse and St. Peter Streets there are quaint little old-world places, where one may be disguised effectually for a tiny consideration. Thither guided by the shapely Mephisto, and guarded by the team of jockeys and ballet girls, tripped Flo. Into one of the lowest-ceiled, dingiest and most ancient-looking of these disguise shops they stopped.

Down Bourbon Street and on Toulouse and St. Peter Streets, there are charming little old-world spots where you can be disguised effectively for a small fee. Led by the stylish Mephisto and accompanied by a group of jockeys and ballet dancers, Flo arrived. They stopped at one of the lowest-ceilinged, dimmest, and most ancient-looking of these disguise shops.

"A disguise for this demoiselle," announced Mephisto to the woman who met them. She was small and wizened and old, with yellow, flabby jaws and neck like the throat of an alligator, and straight, white hair that stood from her head uncannily stiff.[Pg 79]

"A disguise for this young lady," Mephisto declared to the woman who greeted them. She was tiny and frail, with yellow, sagging cheeks and a neck like an alligator's throat, and straight, white hair that stuck out from her head in a strangely stiff manner.[Pg 79]

"But the demoiselle wishes to appear a boy, un petit garcon?" she inquired, gazing eagerly at Flo's long, slender frame. Her voice was old and thin, like the high quavering of an imperfect tuning fork, and her eyes were sharp as talons in their grasping glance.

"But the young lady wants to look like a boy, un petit garcon?" she asked, looking intently at Flo's tall, lean figure. Her voice was aged and feeble, like the high, shaky sound of a poorly tuned fork, and her eyes were as keen as talons in their piercing gaze.

"Mademoiselle does not wish such a costume," gruffly responded Mephisto.

"Mademoiselle doesn't want that costume," Mephisto replied gruffly.

"Ma foi, there is no other," said the ancient, shrugging her shoulders. "But one is left now, mademoiselle would make a fine troubadour."

"My faith, there is no other," said the ancient, shrugging her shoulders. "But one is left now, mademoiselle would make a fine troubadour."

"Flo," said Mephisto, "it's a dare-devil scheme, try it; no one will ever know it but us, and we'll die before we tell. Besides, we must; it's late, and you couldn't find your crowd."

"Flo," Mephisto said, "it's a bold plan, give it a shot; no one will ever find out but us, and we'll take it to our graves. Plus, we have to; it's late, and you won't be able to find your friends."

And that was why you might have seen a Mephisto and a slender troubadour of lovely form, with mandolin flung across his shoulder, followed by a bevy of jockeys and ballet girls, laughing and singing as they swept down Rampart Street.[Pg 80]

And that’s why you might have spotted a Mephisto and a slim troubadour with a beautiful figure, carrying a mandolin over his shoulder, followed by a group of jockeys and ballet dancers, laughing and singing as they strolled down Rampart Street.[Pg 80]

When the flash and glare and brilliancy of Canal Street have palled upon the tired eye, and it is yet too soon to go home, and to such a prosaic thing as dinner, and one still wishes for novelty, then it is wise to go in the lower districts. Fantasy and fancy and grotesqueness in the costuming and behavior of the maskers run wild. Such dances and whoops and leaps as these hideous Indians and devils do indulge in; such wild curvetings and great walks. And in the open squares, where whole groups do congregate, it is wonderfully amusing. Then, too, there is a ball in every available hall, a delirious ball, where one may dance all day for ten cents; dance and grow mad for joy, and never know who were your companions, and be yourself unknown. And in the exhilaration of the day, one walks miles and miles, and dances and curvets, and the fatigue is never felt.

When the excitement and brightness of Canal Street start to wear on your tired eyes, and it's still too early to head home for something as dull as dinner, if you're craving something new, it's a good idea to explore the lower districts. The creativity and wildness in the costumes and behavior of the performers are out of control. The crazy dances, yells, and jumps from these wild characters are something to see; the energy is infectious. In the open squares, where crowds gather, it's incredibly entertaining. Plus, there’s a party in every available hall—a crazy celebration—where you can dance all day for just ten cents. You can dance and be overwhelmed with joy, completely unaware of who your fellow dancers are, and remain anonymous yourself. In the thrill of the day, you can walk for miles and dance until you drop, feeling no fatigue at all.

In Washington Square, away down where Royal Street empties its stream[Pg 81] of children and men into the broad channel of Elysian Fields Avenue, there was a perfect Indian dance. With a little imagination one might have willed away the vision of the surrounding houses and fancied one's self again in the forest, where the natives were holding a sacred riot. The square was filled with spectators, masked and unmasked. It was amusing to watch these mimic Red-men, they seemed so fierce and earnest.

In Washington Square, way down where Royal Street flows into the wide stretch of Elysian Fields Avenue, there was an incredible Indian dance. With a bit of imagination, one could almost picture the surrounding houses disappearing and envision being back in the forest, where the natives were celebrating a sacred frenzy. The square was packed with onlookers, both masked and unmasked. It was entertaining to see these imitation Red-men; they looked so intense and serious.

Suddenly one chief touched another on the elbow. "See that Mephisto and troubadour over there?" he whispered huskily.

Suddenly one chief nudged another on the elbow. "See that Mephisto and troubadour over there?" he whispered softly.

"Yes, who are they?"

"Yeah, who are they?"

"I don't know the devil," responded the other quietly, "but I'd know that other form anywhere. It's Leon, see? I know those white hands like a woman's and that restless head. Ha!

"I don't know the devil," the other replied softly, "but I would recognize that other figure anywhere. It's Leon, you see? I know those delicate white hands and that restless head." Ha!

"But there may be a mistake."

"But there might be a mistake."

"No. I'd know that one anywhere; I feel it's him. I'll pay him now. Ah, sweetheart, you've waited long, but you[Pg 82] shall feast now!" He was caressing something long, and lithe, and glittering beneath his blanket.

"No. I’d recognize that one anywhere; I feel it's him. I’ll pay him now. Ah, babe, you’ve waited long, but you[Pg 82] will feast now!" He was caressing something long, slender, and shiny beneath his blanket.

In a masked dance it is easy to give a death-blow between the shoulders. Two crowds meet and laugh and shout and mingle almost inextricably, and if a shriek of pain should arise, it is not noticed in the din, and when they part, if one should stagger and fall bleeding to the ground, who can tell who has given the blow? There is naught but an unknown stiletto on the ground, the crowd has dispersed, and masks tell no tales anyway. There is murder, but by whom? for what? Quien sabe?

In a masked dance, it’s easy to deal a fatal blow between the shoulders. Two crowds come together, laughing, shouting, and mixing almost beyond recognition. If a scream of pain were to rise, no one would notice in the chaos, and when they separate, if someone staggers and collapses, bleeding on the ground, who can say who delivered the blow? All that’s left is an unknown dagger on the ground, the crowd has scattered, and masks don’t reveal anything. There’s murder, but by whom? For what? Quien sabe?

And that is how it happened on Carnival night, in the last mad moments of Rex's reign, a broken-hearted woman sat gazing wide-eyed and mute at a horrible something that lay across the bed. Outside the long sweet march music of many bands floated in in mockery, and the flash of rockets and Bengal lights illumined the dead, white face of the girl troubadour.[Pg 83]

And that's how it went down on Carnival night, in the final crazy moments of Rex's rule, a heartbroken woman sat staring wide-eyed and speechless at a terrible sight sprawled across the bed. Outside, the joyful music from numerous bands drifted in mockingly, and the bursts of fireworks and colored lights lit up the dead, pale face of the girl troubadour.[Pg 83]


PAUL TO VIRGINIA.

FIN DE SIECLE.

I really must confess, my dear,
I cannot help but love you,
For of all girls I ever knew,
There's none I place above you;
But then you know it's rather hard,
To dangle aimless at your skirt,
And watch your every movement so,
For I am jealous, and you're a flirt.

There's half a score of fellows round,
You smile at every one,
And as I think to pride myself for basking in the sun
Of your sweet smiles, you laugh at me,
And treat me like a lump of dirt,
Until I wish that I were dead,
For I am jealous, and you're a flirt.

I'm sorry that I've ever known
Your loveliness entrancing,
Or ever saw your laughing eyes,
With girlish mischief dancing;
[Pg 84]'Tis agony supreme and rare
To see your slender waist a-girt
With other fellows' arms, you see,
For I am jealous, and you're a flirt.

Now, girlie, if you'll promise me,
To never, never treat me mean,
I'll show you in a little while,
The best sweetheart you've ever seen;
You do not seem to know or care,
How often you've my feelings hurt,
While flying round with other boys,
For I am jealous, and you're a flirt.
[Pg 85]

I really have to admit, my dear,
I can't help but love you,
Of all the girls I've ever met,
There's no one I value more than you;
But you know it's really hard,
To spend time by your side,
Pay attention to everything you do,
Because I'm jealous, and you're always flirting.

There are a lot of guys around,
You smile at everyone.
And while I believe I should feel proud to enjoy
In your sweet smiles, you laugh at me,
And treat me like I'm worthless,
Until I feel like I want to die,
Because I'm jealous and you flirt.

I'm sorry for ever knowing
Your stunning beauty,
Or saw your happy eyes,
With playful mischief gleaming;
[Pg 84]It's really painful to see
Your slim waist wrapped up
In the embrace of other guys, you see,
Because I'm jealous, and you're a flirt.

Now, girl, if you promise me,
To never, ever treat me poorly,
I'll show you soon.
The best boyfriend you've ever had;
You don't appear to know or care.
You've hurt my feelings so many times,
While spending time with other guys,
Because I’m jealous, and you’re a flirt.
[Pg 85]


THE MAIDEN'S DREAM.

The maid had been reading love-poetry, where the world lay bathed in moon-light, fragrant with dew-wet roses and jasmine, harmonious with the clear tinkle of mandolin and guitar. Then a lethargy, like unto that which steeps the senses, and benumbs the faculties of the lotus-eaters, enveloped her brain, and she lay as one in a trance,—awake, yet sleeping; conscious, yet unburdened with care.

The maid had been reading love poetry, where the world was drenched in moonlight, filled with the scent of dewy roses and jasmine, and accompanied by the sweet sound of mandolin and guitar. Then a heaviness, similar to that experienced by those lost in daydreams, washed over her mind, and she lay in a trance—aware, yet asleep; present, yet free of worry.

And there stole into her consciousness, words, thoughts, not of her own, yet she read them not, nor heard them spoken; they fell deep into her heart and soul, softer and more caressing than the over-shadowing wing of a mother-dove, sweeter and more thrilling than the last high notes of a violin, and they were these:—

And then, words and thoughts that weren’t her own entered her mind, yet she didn’t read them or hear them spoken; they sank deep into her heart and soul, softer and more comforting than the gentle wing of a mother dove, sweeter and more exciting than the final high notes of a violin, and they were these:—

Love, most potent, most tyrannical, and most gentle of the passions which[Pg 86] sway the human mind, thou art the invisible agency which rules mens' souls, which governs mens' kingdoms, which controls the universe. By thy mighty will do the silent, eternal hosts of Heaven sweep in sublime procession across the unmeasured blue. The perfect harmony of the spheres is attuned for thee, and by thee; the perfect coloring of the clouds, than which no mortal pigment can dare equal, are thy handiwork. Most ancient of the heathen deities, Eros; powerful God of the Christians, Jehovah, all hail! For a brief possession of thy divine fire have kingdoms waxed and waned; men in all the bitterness of hatred fought, bled, died by millions, their grosser selves to be swept into the bosom of their ancient mother, an immense holocaust to thee. For thee and thee alone does the world prosper, for thee do men strive to become better than their fellow-men; for thee, and through thee have they sunk to such depths of degradation as causes a blush[Pg 87] to be painted upon the faces of those that see. All things are subservient to thee. All the delicate intricate workings of that marvellous machine, the human brain; all the passions and desires of the human heart,—ambition, desire, greed, hatred, envy, jealousy, all others. Thou breedst them all, O love, thou art all-potent, all-wise, infinite, eternal! Thy power is felt by mortals in all ages, all climes, all conditions. Behold!

Love, the most powerful, controlling, and gentle of the feelings that sway the human mind, you are the unseen force that rules people's souls, governs their kingdoms, and drives the universe. By your mighty will, the silent, eternal hosts of Heaven move in a grand procession across the vast blue sky. The perfect harmony of the spheres is tuned for you and through you; the perfect colors of the clouds, which no earthly paint can match, are your creation. Ancient deity of the pagans, Eros; powerful God of the Christians, Jehovah, all hail! For a brief moment of your divine fire, kingdoms have risen and fallen; people, filled with deep hatred, have fought, bled, and died by the millions, their baser selves consumed by their ancient mother, an enormous offering to you. The world thrives for you alone; for you, people strive to be better than their fellow humans; for you, and through you, they have fallen to depths of shame that cause a blush to spread across the faces of those who witness it. Everything bows to you. All the delicate, complex workings of that amazing machine, the human brain; all the passions and desires of the human heart—ambition, longing, greed, hatred, envy, jealousy, and more. You create them all, O love; you are all-powerful, all-knowing, infinite, eternal! Your influence is felt by mortals in every age, every place, and under all circumstances. Behold!

A picture came into the maiden's eye: a broad and fertile plain, tender verdure, soft blue sky overhead, with white billowy clouds nearing the horizon like great airy, snow-capped mountains. The soft warm breeze from the south whispered faintly through the tall, slender palms and sent a thrill of joy through the frisky lambkins, who capered by the sides of their graver dams. And there among the riches of the flock stood Laban, haughty, stern, yet withal a kindly gleam in the glance which rested upon the group about him. Hoary the beard[Pg 88] that rested upon his breast, but steady the hand that stretched in blessing. Leah, the tender-eyed, the slighted, is there; and Rachel, young and beautiful and blushing beneath the ardent gaze of her handsome lover. "And Jacob loved Rachel, and said, I will serve thee seven years for Rachel, thy younger daughter."

A vision appeared in the young woman's mind: a wide and lush plain, gentle greenery, a soft blue sky overhead with white, fluffy clouds on the horizon like huge, airy, snow-capped mountains. The warm breeze from the south whispered quietly through the tall, slender palm trees, sending a rush of joy through the playful lambs, who frolicked alongside their more serious mothers. And there among the abundance of the flock stood Laban, proud and stern, yet with a kind look in his eyes as he observed the group around him. His beard was grey and rested on his chest, but his hand was steady as he offered a blessing. Leah, with kind eyes and overlooked, was there; and Rachel, young and beautiful, blushed under the intense gaze of her handsome lover. "And Jacob loved Rachel, and said, I will serve you seven years for Rachel, your younger daughter."

How different the next scene! Heaven's wrath burst loose upon a single community. Fire, the red-winged demon with brazen throat wide opened, hangs his brooding wings upon an erstwhile happy city. Hades has climbed through the crater of Vesuvius, and leaps in fiendish waves along the land. Few the souls escaping, and God have mercy upon those who stumble through the blinding darkness, made more torturingly hideous by the intermittent flashes of lurid light. And yet there come three, whom the darkness seems not to deter, nor obstacles impede. Only a blind person, accustomed to con[Pg 89]stant darkness, and familiarized with these streets could walk that way. Nearer they come, a burst of flames thrown into the inky firmament by impish hands, reveals Glaucus, supporting the half-fainting Ione, following Nydia, frail, blind, flower-loving Nydia, sacrificing life for her unloving beloved.

How different the next scene! Heaven's wrath is unleashed on a single community. Fire, the red-winged demon with a wide-open, metallic throat, hangs its ominous wings over a once-happy city. Hades has emerged from the crater of Vesuvius, crashing through the land like a monster. Few souls manage to escape, and God have mercy on those who stumble through the blinding darkness, made even more torturous by the flashing bursts of sickly light. Yet, three people come forward, undeterred by the darkness or any obstacles in their way. Only a blind person, used to constant darkness and familiar with these streets, could walk this path. They draw nearer, as a burst of flames thrown into the pitch-black sky by mischievous hands reveals Glaucus, supporting the half-fainting Ione, as they follow Nydia—fragile, blind, flower-loving Nydia, sacrificing everything for her unloving beloved.

And then the burning southern sun shone bright and golden o'er the silken sails of the Nile serpent's ships; glinted on the armor and weapons of the famous galley; shone with a warm caressing touch upon her beauty, as though it loved this queen, as powerful in her sphere as he in his. It is at Actium, and the fate of nations and generations yet unborn hang, as the sword of Damocles hung, upon the tiny thread of destiny. Egypt herself, her splendid barbaric beauty acting like an inspiration upon the craven followers, leads on, foremost in this fierce struggle. Then, the tide turns, and overpowered, they fly before disgrace and defeat. Antony is[Pg 90] there, the traitor, dishonored, false to his country, yet true to his love; Antony, whom ambition could not lure from her passionate caresses; Antony, murmuring softly,—

And then the blazing southern sun shone bright and golden over the silken sails of the Nile serpent's ships; reflected off the armor and weapons of the renowned galley; and cast a warm, gentle light on her beauty, as if it cherished this queen, as powerful in her realm as he was in his. It's at Actium, where the fate of nations and generations yet to come hangs, just like the sword of Damocles, on the slender thread of destiny. Egypt herself, with her stunning, wild beauty inspiring her cowardly followers, leads the charge in this fierce battle. Then, the tide turns, and overwhelmed, they flee from shame and defeat. Antony is[Pg 90] there, the traitor, dishonored, betraying his country, yet true to his love; Antony, whom ambition could not pull away from her passionate embraces; Antony, murmuring softly,—

Egypt, thou knowest too well
My heart was to thy rudder tied by the strings,
And thou should'st tow me after.
Over my spirit
Thy full supremacy thou knewest,
And that thy beck might from the bidding of the gods
Command me.

Egypt, you know it well
My heart was bound by your control,
And you should take me with you.
Over my vibe
You realized your full power,
And that your authority might come from the desires of the gods.
To guide me.

Picture after picture flashed through the maiden's mind. Agnes, the gentle, sacrificing, burrowing like some frantic animal through the ruins of Lisbon, saving her lover, Franklin, by teeth and bleeding hands. Dora, the patient, serving a loveless existence, saving her rival from starvation and destitution. The stern, dark, exiled Florentine poet, with that one silver ray in his clouded life—Beatrice.[Pg 91]

Picture after picture flashed through the young woman's mind. Agnes, the kind, selfless one, digging like a frantic animal through the ruins of Lisbon, saving her love, Franklin, with her teeth and bleeding hands. Dora, the patient one, living a loveless life, saving her rival from starvation and despair. The stern, dark, exiled Florentine poet, with that one silver ray in his cloudy life—Beatrice.[Pg 91]

She heard the piping of an elfish voice, "Mother, why does the minister keep his hands over his heart?" and the white drawn face of Hester Prynne, with her scarlet elf-child, passed slowly across her vision. The wretched misery of deluded Lucius and his mysterious Lamia she saw, and watched with breathless interest the formation of that "Brotherhood of the Rose." There was radiant Armorel, from sea-blown, wave-washed Lyonesse, her perfect head poised in loving caress over the magic violin. Dark-eyed Corinne, head drooped gently as she improvised those Rome-famed world symphonies passed, almost ere Edna and St. Elmo had crossed the threshold of the church happy in the love now consecrated through her to God. Oh, the pictures, the forms, the love-words which crowded her mind! They thrilled her heart, crushed out all else save a crushing, over-powering sense of perfect, complete joy. A joy that sought to express[Pg 92] itself in wondrous melodies and silences, filled with thoughts too deep and sacred for words. Overpowered with the magnificence of his reign, overwhelmed with the complete subjugation of all things unto him, do you wonder that she awoke and placing both hands into those of the lover at her side, whispered:—

She heard the sound of a whimsical voice, "Mom, why does the minister keep his hands over his heart?" and the pale, drawn face of Hester Prynne, along with her scarlet elf-child, slowly passed through her view. She saw the wretched misery of misled Lucius and his mysterious Lamia, and watched with eager interest the creation of that "Brotherhood of the Rose." There was radiant Armorel, from the sea-blown, wave-washed Lyonesse, her perfect head lovingly bent over the magical violin. Dark-eyed Corinne, with her head gently lowered as she improvised those world-famous symphonies from Rome, passed by, almost before Edna and St. Elmo had stepped through the church doorway, happy in the love now devoted through her to God. Oh, the images, the shapes, the words of love that flooded her mind! They thrilled her heart, pushing aside everything else except an overwhelming, powerful sense of pure, complete joy. A joy that wanted to express[Pg 92] itself in beautiful melodies and silences, filled with thoughts too profound and sacred for words. Overwhelmed by the magnificence of his reign and the total domination of all things by him, can you blame her for waking up, placing both her hands in those of her lover beside her, and whispering:—

Take all of me—I am thine own, heart, soul,
Brain, body, all; all that I am or dream
Is thine forever; yea, though space should teem
With thy conditions, I'd fulfil the whole,
Were to fulfil them to be loved by thee.
[Pg 93]

Take all of me—I’m yours, heart and soul,
Mind, body, everything; all that I am or want to be.
Is yours forever; yes, even if the universe were to spill over.
I would fulfill all your requests.
Just to be loved by you.
[Pg 93]


IN MEMORIAM.

The light streams through the windows arched high,
And o'er the stern, stone carvings breaks
In warm rich gold and crimson waves,
Then steals away in corners dark to die.

And all the grand cathedral silence falls
Into the hearts of those that worship low,
Like tender waves of hushed nothingness,
Confined nor kept by human earthly walls.

Deep music in its thundering organ sounds,
Grows diffuse through the echoing space,
Till hearts grow still in sadness' mighty joy,
[Pg 94]Or leap aloft in swift ecstatic bounds.

Mayhap 'twas but a dream that came to me,
Or but a vision of the soul's desire,
To see the nation in one mighty whole,
Do homage on its bended, worshipping knee.

Through time's heroic actions, the soul of man,
Alone proves what that soul without earth's dross
Could be, and this, through time's far-searching fire,
Hath proved thine white beneath the deepest scan.

A woman's tribute, 'tis a tiny dot,
A merest flower from a frail, small hand,
To lay among the many petaled wreaths
About thy form,—a tribute soon forgot.

But if in all the incense to arise
[Pg 95]In fragrance to the blue empyrean
The blended sweetness of the womens' love
Goes pouring too, in all their heartfelt sighs.

And if one woman's sorrow be among them too,
One woman's joy for labor past
Be reckoned in the mighty teeming whole,
It is enough, there is not more to do.

Within the hearts of heroes small and great
There 'bides a tenderness for weakling things
Within thy heart, the sorrowing country knows
These passions, bravest and the tenderest mate.

When man is dust, before the gazing eyes
Of all the gaping throng, his life lies wide
[Pg 96]For all to see and whisper low about
Or let their thoughts in discord's clatter rise.

But thine was pure and undefiled,
A record of long brilliant, teeming days,
Each thought did tend to further things,
But pure as the proverbial child.

Oh, people, that thy grief might find express
To gather in some vast cathedral's hall,
That then in unity we might kneel and hear
Sublimity in sounds, voice our distress.

Peace, peace, the men of God cry, ye be bold,
The world hath known, 'tis Heaven who claims him now,
And in our railings we but cast aside
The noble traits he bid us hold.

So though divided through the land, in dreams
[Pg 97]We see a people kneeling low,
Bowed down in heart and soul to see
This fearful sorrow, crushing as it seems.

And all the grand cathedral silence falls
Into the hearts of these that worship low,
Like tender waves of hushed nothingness,
Confined, nor kept by human earthly walls.
[Pg 98]

Light pours through the tall arched windows,
And breaks across the back, stone carvings
In warm waves of deep gold and red,
Then fades into dark corners to die.

And all around, the vast quiet of the cathedral
Finds a place in the hearts of those who kneel in worship,
Like soft waves of quiet nothingness,
Unrestricted by human, earthly boundaries.

The deep sounds from the powerful organ echo,
Filling the echoing space,
Until hearts are calm in a powerful mix of joy and sadness,
[Pg 94]Or jump up in joyful, quick leaps.

Maybe it was just a dream that came to me,
Or a vision of what the soul longs for,
To view the country as a powerful unified entity,
Paying respect on its bent, worshipful knee.

Through the heroic actions of time, the human soul,
Alone reveals what that soul could be without the impurities of the world,
And this, through the extensive trials of time,
Has demonstrated your purity under the closest scrutiny.

A woman's tribute, it's a small point,
A simple flower from a delicate, tiny hand,
To lie among the numerous petal wreaths
Around your form—a tribute that will soon be forgotten.

But if all the incense that’s rising
[Pg 95]In the scent of the blue skies above,
The complex sweetness of women's love
Flows out with all their heartfelt sighs.

And if one woman's sadness is included as well,
One woman's joy in her past work
Counts within the vast, bustling entirety,
It's enough; there's nothing else to do.

In the hearts of heroes, both big and small
There is a compassion for the vulnerable,
In your heart, the mourning nation understands
These emotions, the most courageous and gentle companion.

When a man is dust, before the staring eyes
Of all the spectators, his life is exposed.
[Pg 96]For everyone to observe and gossip about.
Or let their thoughts rise in the chaos of disagreement.

But yours was pure and untainted,
A record of long days filled with brilliance,
Every thought directed toward doing good,
But pure like the classic saying about a child.

Oh, people, may you be able to express your grief.
In a large cathedral hall,
So that together we can kneel and listen
The beauty in sounds expresses our distress.

Peace, peace, the men of God shout; be courageous,
The world has realized that it's Heaven that has embraced him now.
And in our anger, we just push aside
The noble qualities he encouraged us to maintain.

Even though we're spread out across the country, in dreams
[Pg 97]We see a group of people kneeling down.
Humbled in heart and spirit to see
This intense sadness, as heavy as it feels.

And all around, the majestic quiet of the cathedral
Falls into the hearts of those who worship humbly,
Like soft waves of quiet emptiness,
Free from human, earthly walls.
[Pg 98]


A STORY OF VENGEANCE.

Yes, Eleanor, I have grown grayer. I am younger than you, you know, but then, what have you to age you? A kind husband, lovely children, while I—I am nothing but a lonely woman. Time goes slowly, slowly for me now.

Yes, Eleanor, I've turned grayer. I'm younger than you, you know, but what do you have to make you age? A caring husband, beautiful children, while I—I'm nothing but a lonely woman. Time passes slowly, slowly for me now.

Why did I never marry? Move that screen a little to one side, please; my eyes can scarcely bear a strong light. Bernard? Oh, that's a long story. I'll tell you if you wish; it might pass an hour.

Why did I never get married? Could you move that screen a bit to the side, please? My eyes can hardly handle bright light. Bernard? Oh, that's a long story. I can tell you if you want; it might help pass the time.

Do you ever think to go over the old school-days? We thought such foolish things then, didn't we? There wasn't one of us but imagined we would have only to knock ever so faintly on the portals of fame and they would fly wide for our entrance into the magic realms. On Commencement night we whispered merrily among ourselves on the stage to see our favorite planet, Venus, of course,[Pg 99] smiling at us through a high, open window, "bidding adieu to her astronomy class," we said.

Do you ever reflect on our school days? We had some silly thoughts back then, didn’t we? None of us doubted that we just had to tap lightly on the doors of fame, and they would swing wide open for us to enter those enchanting realms. On graduation night, we chatted happily among ourselves on stage as we looked at our favorite planet, Venus, of course,[Pg 99], smiling at us through a high, open window, "saying goodbye to her astronomy class," we said.

Then you went away to plunge into the most brilliant whirl of society, and I stayed in the beautiful old city to work.

Then you left to dive into the most vibrant social scene, while I remained in the lovely old city to work.

Bernard was very much en evidence those days. He liked you a great deal, because in school-girl parlance you were my "chum." You say,—thanks, no tea, it reminds me that I'm an old maid; you say you know what happiness means—maybe, but I don't think any living soul could experience the joy I felt in those days; it was absolutely painful at times.

Bernard was really prominent back then. He liked you a lot, because in schoolgirl terms, you were my "best friend." You say, "No thanks to tea; it reminds me I'm single." You say you know what happiness is—maybe, but I don't think anyone could feel the joy I felt during those days; it was sometimes almost overwhelming.

Byron and his counterparts are ever dear to the womanly heart, whether young or old. Such a man was he, gloomy, misanthropical, tired of the world, with a few dozen broken love-affairs among his varied experiences. Of course, I worshipped him secretly, what romantic, silly girl of my age, would not, being thrown in such con[Pg 100]stant contact with him.

Byron and his peers are always beloved by women, no matter their age. He was just that kind of guy—moody, cynical, fed up with the world, and carrying the scars of many broken relationships among his different experiences. Naturally, I admired him in secret; what romantic, silly girl my age wouldn’t, being in such constant contact with him?

One day he folded me tightly in his arms, and said:

One day, he wrapped his arms around me and said:

"Little girl, I have nothing to give you in exchange for that priceless love of yours but a heart that has already been at another's feet, and a wrecked life, but may I ask for it?"

"Little girl, I have nothing to offer you in return for that priceless love of yours except a heart that's already been given to someone else and a broken life, but can I ask for it?"

"It is already yours," I answered. I'll draw the veil over the scene which followed; you know, you've "been there."

"It’s already yours," I said. I'll skip over what happened next; you know how it is, you've "been there."

Then began some of the happiest hours that ever the jolly old sun beamed upon, or the love-sick moon clothed in her rays of silver. Deceived me? No, no. He admitted that the old love for Blanche was still in his heart, but that he had lost all faith and respect for her, and could nevermore be other than a friend. Well, I was fool enough to be content with such crumbs.

Then began some of the happiest hours that the cheerful old sun ever shone upon, or the love-struck moon wrapped in her beams of silver. Deceived me? No, no. He admitted that the old love for Blanche was still in his heart, but that he had lost all faith and respect for her, and could never be anything more than a friend. Well, I was foolish enough to be satisfied with such little scraps.

We had five months of happiness. I tamed down beautifully in that time,—even consented to adopt the peerless[Pg 101] Blanche as a model. I gave up all my most ambitious plans and cherished schemes, because he disliked women whose names were constantly in the mouth of the public. In fact, I became quiet, sedate, dignified, renounced too some of my best and dearest friends. I lived, breathed, thought, acted only for him; for me there was but one soul in the universe—Bernard's. Still, for all the suffering I've experienced, I'd be willing to go through it all again just to go over those five months. Every day together, at nights on the lake-shore listening to the soft lap of the waters as the silver sheen of the moon spread over the dainty curled waves; sometimes in a hammock swinging among the trees talking of love and reading poetry. Talk about Heaven! I just think there can't he a better time among the angels.

We had five months of happiness. I transformed beautifully during that time—I even agreed to adopt the exceptional[Pg 101] Blanche as a role model. I gave up all my most ambitious plans and cherished dreams because he disliked women whose names were constantly in the public eye. In fact, I became calm, composed, and dignified, and I also let go of some of my best and closest friends. I lived, breathed, thought, and acted only for him; to me, there was only one soul in the universe—Bernard's. Still, despite all the suffering I've endured, I'd be willing to go through it all again just to relive those five months. Every day together, evenings on the lake shore listening to the gentle lapping of the water as the moon cast a silver glow over the delicate waves; sometimes in a hammock swinging among the trees, talking about love and reading poetry. Talk about Heaven! I really believe there can't be a better time among the angels.

But there is an end to all things. A violent illness, and his father relenting, sent for the wayward son. I will always believe he loved me, but he was eager to[Pg 102] get home to his mother, and anxious to view Blanche in the light of their new relationship. We had a whole series of parting scenes,—tears and vows and kisses exchanged. We clung to each other after the regulation fashion, and swore never to forget, and to write every day. Then there was a final wrench. I went back to my old life—he, away home.

But everything has to end at some point. After a severe illness, his father gave in and called for his rebellious son. I will always believe he loved me, but he was eager to[Pg 102] return to his mother, and excited to see Blanche in light of their new relationship. We had a whole series of goodbyes—tears, promises, and kisses exchanged. We held on to each other the usual way, swearing to never forget and to write every day. Then came the final goodbye. I went back to my old life—he went home.

For a while I was content, there were daily letters from him to read; his constant admonitions to practice; his many little tokens to adore—until there came a change,—letters less frequent, more mention of Blanche and her love for him, less of his love for me, until the truth was forced upon me. Then I grew cold and proud, and with an iron will crushed and stamped all love for him out of my tortured heart and cried for vengeance.

For a while, I was happy. There were daily letters from him to read, his constant reminders to practice, and all his little gifts to cherish—until everything changed. The letters became less frequent, there were more mentions of Blanche and her love for him, and less talk about his love for me, until the truth hit me hard. Then I became distant and proud, and with a strong will, I buried all love for him out of my aching heart and sought revenge.

Yes, quite melo-dramatic, wasn't it? It is a dramatic tale, though.

Yes, it was pretty melodramatic, wasn't it? It is a dramatic story, though.

So I threw off my habits of seclusion and mingled again with men and women,[Pg 103] and took up all my long-forgotten plans. It's no use telling you how I succeeded. It was really wonderful, wasn't it? It seems as though that fickle goddess, Fortune, showered every blessing, save one, on my path. Success followed success, triumph succeeded triumph. I was lionized, feted, petted, caressed by the social and literary world. You often used to wonder how I stood it in all those years. God knows; with the heart-sick weariness and the fierce loathing that possessed me, I don't know myself.

So I dropped my habit of isolation and started socializing again with people,[Pg 103] and picked up all my long-forgotten plans. It's pointless to tell you how it all turned out. It was truly amazing, wasn’t it? It felt like that unpredictable goddess, Fortune, showered every blessing on me except one. One success led to another, and one triumph followed the next. I was celebrated, honored, pampered, and adored by the social and literary circles. You often used to wonder how I managed to endure it all those years. God knows; with the deep fatigue and intense disgust I felt, I really don’t know myself.

But, mind you, Eleanor, I schemed well. I had everything seemingly that humanity craved for, but I suffered, and by all the gods, I swore that he should suffer too. Blanche turned against him and married his brother. An unfortunate chain of circumstances drove him from his father's home branded as a forger. Strange, wasn't it? But money is a strong weapon, and its long arm reaches over leagues and leagues of land and water.[Pg 104]

But, listen, Eleanor, I planned it out perfectly. I had everything that people desired, but I was suffering, and I vowed by all the gods that he would suffer too. Blanche betrayed him and married his brother. An unfortunate series of events forced him out of his father's house, labeled as a forger. Odd, right? But money is a powerful weapon, and its reach extends over vast distances of land and water.[Pg 104]

One day he found me in a distant city, and begged for my love again, and for mercy and pity. Blanche was only a mistake, he said, and he loved me alone, and so on. I remembered all his thrilling tones and tender glances, but they might have moved granite now sooner than me. He knelt at my feet and pleaded like a criminal suing for life. I laughed at him and sneered at his misery, and told him what he had done for my happiness, and what I in turn had done for his.

One day he found me in a faraway city and begged for my love again, asking for mercy and compassion. He said Blanche was just a mistake and that he loved only me, and so on. I recalled all his passionate words and sweet looks, but they could have melted stone more easily than they could reach me now. He knelt at my feet and pleaded like a criminal asking for forgiveness. I laughed at him and mocked his suffering, reminding him of what he had done for my happiness and what I had done for his in return.

Eleanor, to my dying day, I shall never forget his face as he rose from his knees, and with one awful, indescribable look of hate, anguish and scorn, walked from the room. As he neared the door, all the old love rose in me like a flood, drowning the sorrows of past years, and overwhelming me in a deluge of pity. Strive as I did, I could not repress it; a woman's love is too mighty to be put down with little reasonings. I called to him in terror, "Bernard, Bernard!" He[Pg 105] did not turn; gave no sign of having heard.

Eleanor, for the rest of my life, I'll never forget his face as he got up from his knees, and with one horrible, indescribable look of hate, pain, and disdain, walked out of the room. As he approached the door, all my old love washed over me like a wave, drowning the sorrows of the past years and overwhelming me with a flood of pity. No matter how hard I tried, I couldn't hold it back; a woman's love is too strong to be suppressed by trivial reasoning. I called out to him in fear, "Bernard, Bernard!" He[Pg 105] didn’t turn; gave no sign that he heard me.

"Bernard, come back; I didn't mean it!"

"Bernard, come back; I didn't mean it!"

He passed slowly away with bent head, out of the house and out of my life. I've never seen him since, never heard of him. Somewhere, perhaps on God's earth he wanders outcast, forsaken, loveless. I have my vengeance, but it is like Dead Sea fruit, all bitter ashes to the taste. I am a miserable, heart-weary wreck,—a woman with fame, without love.

He slowly walked away with his head down, out of the house and out of my life. I’ve never seen him again, never heard of him. Somewhere, maybe on this earth, he roams alone, abandoned, and unloved. I have my revenge, but it’s like Dead Sea fruit, leaving only a bitter taste. I am a miserable, heartbroken wreck—a woman with fame, but without love.

"Vengeance is an arrow that often falleth and smiteth the hand of him that sent it."[Pg 106]

"Vengeance is an arrow that often falls and strikes the hand of the one who sent it."[Pg 106]


AT BAY ST. LOUIS.

Soft breezes blow and swiftly show
Through fragrant orange branches parted,
A maiden fair, with sun-flecked hair,
Caressed by arrows, golden darted.
The vine-clad tree holds forth to me
A promise sweet of purple blooms,
And chirping bird, scarce seen but heard
Sings dreamily, and sweetly croons
At Bay St. Louis.

The hammock swinging, idly singing,
Lissome nut-brown maid
Swings gaily, freely, to-and-fro;
The curling, green-white waters casting cool, clear shade,
Rock small, shell boats that go
In circles wide, or tug at anchor's chain,
As though to skim the sea with cargo vain,
[Pg 107]At Bay St. Louis.

The maid swings slower, slower to-and-fro,
And sunbeams kiss gray, dreamy half-closed eyes;
Fond lover creeping on with foot steps slow,
Gives gentle kiss, and smiles at sweet surprise.

Gentle breezes blow and quickly uncover
Through fragrant orange branches swaying,
A beautiful girl with hair that shines in the sunlight,
Hit by arrows, shining and dancing.
The tree covered in vines presents itself to me.
A lovely promise of purple flowers,
And chirping birds, hardly visible but easily heard
Sing softly, and sweetly hum along.
At Bay St. Louis.

The hammock swaying, softly singing,
Vibrant, brown-skinned girl
Swings joyfully, freely, back and forth;
The curling, greenish-white waters create a cool, clear shade,
Rock small, shell boats that float
In large groups, or pull at the anchor's chain,
Like skimming the ocean with worthless cargo,
[Pg 107]At Bay St. Louis.

The girl swings back and forth more slowly.
And sunbeams touch her gray, dreamy half-closed eyes;
A dedicated lover sneaking in quietly,
Gives her a soft kiss and smiles at her delightful surprise.


The lengthening shadows tell that eve is nigh,
And fragrant zephyrs cool and calmer grow,
Yet still the lover lingers, and scarce breathed sigh,
Bids the swift hours to pause, nor go,
At Bay St. Louis.
[Pg 108]

The long shadows show that evening is approaching,
And gentle breezes soothe and refresh.
Yet the lover still holds on, hardly letting out a sigh,
Asks the quick hours to pause, even if just for a moment,
At Bay St. Louis.
[Pg 108]


NEW YEAR'S DAY.

The poor old year died hard; for all the earth lay cold
And bare beneath the wintry sky;
While grey clouds scurried madly to the west,
And hid the chill young moon from mortal sight.
Deep, dying groans the aged year breathed forth,
In soughing winds that wailed a requiem sad
In dull crescendo through the mournful air.

The new year now is welcomed noisily
With din and song and shout and clanging bell,
And all the glare and blare of fiery fun.
Sing high the welcome to the New Year's morn!
Le roi est mort. Vive, vive le roi! cry out,
And hail the new-born king of coming days.

[Pg 109]Alas! the day is spent and eve draws nigh;
The king's first subject dies—for naught,
And wasted moments by the hundred score
Of past years rise like spectres grim
To warn, that these days may not idly glide away.
Oh, New Year, youth of promise fair!
What dost thou hold for me? An aching heart?
Or eyes burnt blind by unshed tears? Or stabs,
More keen because unseen?
Nay, nay, dear youth, I've had surfeit
Of sorrow's feast. The monarch dead
Did rule me with an iron hand. Be thou a friend,
A tender, loving king—and let me know
The ripe, full sweetness of a happy year.
[Pg 110]

The poor old year struggled to move on; the earth
It was cold and empty under the winter sky;
As gray clouds hurried quickly to the west,
Concealing the cold young moon from our sight.
The old year let out deep, dying groans,
In the sighing winds that mourned a sorrowful farewell
In a monotonous buildup through the heavy atmosphere of sadness.

The new year is now welcomed with excitement.
With noise, music, yelling, and ringing bells,
And all the lively chaos of a fiery celebration.
Sing happily to welcome the New Year’s morning!
The king is dead. Long live the king! they shout,
And welcome the newly crowned king of the future.

[Pg 109]Unfortunately, the day is ending and evening is coming.
The king's first subject has died—for no reason,
And wasted moments by the hundreds
Of past years rise like haunting ghosts.
To remind me that these days shouldn't pass by without notice.
Oh, New Year, young person full of potential!
What do you have planned for me? A broken heart?
Or eyes blinded by uncried tears? Or wounds,
More painful because they're invisible?
No, no, dear young person, I’ve had plenty.
At the feast of sorrow. The deceased king.
Controlled me strictly. Be my friend,
A kind and caring king—and let me experience
The deep, complete joy of a happy year.
[Pg 110]


THE UNKNOWN LIFE OF JESUS CHRIST.

A new gem has been added to sacred literature, and this is the accidental discovery by Nicolas Notovich of a Buddhist history of a phase of Christ's life left blank in the Scriptures.

A new gem has been added to sacred literature, and this is the accidental discovery by Nicolas Notovich of a Buddhist account of a part of Christ's life that's missing from the Scriptures.

Notovich, an adventurer, searching amid the ruins of India, delving deep in all the ancient Buddhistic lore, accidentally stumbles upon the name of Saint Issa, a renowned preacher, ante-dating some 2,000 years. The name becomes a wondrous attraction to Notovich, particularly as he learns through many Buddhist priests, Issa's name in juxtaposition with the Christian faith, and later, has reason to believe that the Jesus Christ of our religion and the Saint Issa of their tradition are identical.

Notovich, an adventurer, exploring the ruins of India and diving into ancient Buddhist teachings, accidentally comes across the name of Saint Issa, a famous preacher from about 2,000 years ago. The name captivates Notovich, especially as he hears from various Buddhist priests that Issa is often compared to the Christian faith. Later, he comes to believe that the Jesus Christ of our religion and the Saint Issa of their tradition are the same person.

Through a seemingly unfortunate accident, Notovich sustains an injury to[Pg 111] his leg, and is cared for most tenderly by the monks of the convent of Himis. Despite his severe agonies, he retains consciousness and curiosity enough to plead for a glimpse of the wonderful documents contained in the archives of the convent, treating of the life of Saint Issa and the genealogy of the House of David. This he has translated and gives to the public.

Through what seems like an unfortunate accident, Notovich injures his leg and is looked after very kindly by the monks at the Himis convent. Even in great pain, he stays conscious and curious enough to ask for a look at the amazing documents held in the convent archives about the life of Saint Issa and the genealogy of the House of David. He has translated these documents and shares them with the public.

Just whether to take the history seriously or not is a subject that requires much thought; but whether it be truth or fiction, whether the result of patient investigation and careful study of an interested scholar, or the wild imaginings of a feeble brain, it opens a wild field of speculation to the thoughtful mind.

Just deciding whether to take the history seriously or not is a topic that needs a lot of consideration; but whether it's truth or fiction, whether it's the result of thorough research and careful study by an invested scholar, or the wild fantasies of an unstable mind, it creates a vast area of speculation for those who think deeply.

The first three chapters of this history, contain a brief epitome of the Pentatouch of Moses. Though contrary to the teachings of tradition, Moses is said not to have written these books himself, but that they were transcribed generations after his time. According to this theory,[Pg 112] then, the seeming imperfections and inconsistencies and tautological errors of the Old Testament as compared with the brief, clear, concise, logical statement of the Buddhists may readily be explained by the frailty of human memory, and the vividness of Oriental imagination.

The first three chapters of this history provide a short summary of the Pentateuch of Moses. Despite traditional beliefs, it's claimed that Moses didn’t actually write these books himself; they were recorded generations after he lived. According to this theory,[Pg 112] the apparent imperfections, inconsistencies, and repetitive errors in the Old Testament can be easily explained by the fallibility of human memory and the vividness of Eastern imagination.

Prince Mossa of the Buddhists, otherwise Moses of the Jews, was not, as is popularly supposed, a foundling of the Jews, or a protege of the Egyptian princess, but a full fledged prince, son of Pharaoh the mighty. This abrupt over-throw of the tradition of ages is like all disillusions, distasteful, but even the most superficial study of Egyptian customs and laws of that time will serve to impress us with the verity of this opinion. The law of caste was most rigidly and cruelly adhered to, and though all the pleadings and threatenings and weepings of the starry-eyed favorite of the harem may have been brought to bear upon this descendant of Rameses, yet is it probable that a descendant of an out[Pg 113]cast race should receive the care and learning and advantages of a legally born prince? Hardly.

Prince Mossa of the Buddhists, also known as Moses of the Jews, was not, as commonly believed, an abandoned baby among the Jews or a ward of the Egyptian princess, but a legitimate prince, the son of the powerful Pharaoh. This sudden challenge to long-held beliefs is, like all disillusionments, unpleasant, but even a basic understanding of the customs and laws of ancient Egypt will make us realize this truth. The caste system was strictly and harshly enforced, and although the pleas, threats, and tears of the beloved favorite of the harem may have been directed at this descendant of Rameses, it is unlikely that a descendant of a marginalized race would receive the same care, education, and privileges as a legally born prince. Hardly.

The condition of the ancient Israelites in the Christian Scriptures and in the Buddhist parchment are the same, yet there is reason to believe that the former was transcribed many centuries after the hieroglyphics of the latter became faded with age, hence, perhaps, the difference in the parentage of Moses.

The situation of the ancient Israelites in the Christian Scriptures and in the Buddhist texts is similar, but it seems likely that the former was written down many centuries after the hieroglyphics of the latter had faded with time, which might explain the difference in the origins of Moses.

"And Mossa was beloved throughout the land of Egypt for the goodness and compassion he displayed for them that suffered, pleaded with his father to soften the lot of these unhappy people, but Pharaoh became angry with him, and only imposed more hardships upon his slaves."

"And Mossa was loved all over Egypt for the kindness and compassion he showed to those who suffered. He begged his father to ease the burden of these unfortunate people, but Pharaoh grew angry with him and only imposed more hardships on his slaves."

At this period in our Scriptures, the Lord communicates with Moses, and inflicts the plagues upon the nation, while in the manuscript of the Himis monks, the annual plague brought on by natural causes falls upon Egypt, and decimates[Pg 114] the community. Here is a strange reversal of the order of things. In India, for ages the home of superstition and idol worship, that which has always been regarded by the Christians, the sworn enemies of the supernatural, as an inexplicable mystery, is accounted for by perfectly natural causes.

At this time in our scriptures, the Lord speaks to Moses and sends plagues upon the nation, while in the manuscript of the Himis monks, a yearly plague caused by natural events strikes Egypt and devastates[Pg 114] the community. This presents a strange reversal of what we expect. In India, for centuries known for superstition and idol worship, what Christians—who are deeply skeptical of the supernatural—view as an unsolvable mystery is explained through entirely natural reasons.

From that time, the fourth chapter of the chronicle of St. Issa corresponds exactly in its condensed form to the most prominent chronology of the Old Testament. With the beginning of the next chapter, the Divine Infant, through whom the salvation of the world was to come, appears upon the scene, as the first born of a poor but highly connected family, referring, presumably, to the ancestry of Joseph and Mary.

From that time, the fourth chapter of the chronicle of St. Issa matches perfectly in its shortened version to the main timeline of the Old Testament. As we start the next chapter, the Divine Infant, through whom the world's salvation was to come, enters the scene as the firstborn of a poor yet well-connected family, likely referring to the lineage of Joseph and Mary.

The remarkable wisdom of the child in earlier years is chronicled in our ancient parchment with as much care as in the vellum-bound volume of our church scriptures. At the age of twelve, the last glimpse we have of Jesus in the[Pg 115] New Testament, is as a precocious boy, seated in the Temple, expounding the Scriptures to the learned members of the Sanhedrin. After that, we have no further sight of him, until sixteen years later, he re-appears at the marriage in Cana, a grown and serious man, already with well-formulated plans for the furtherance of his father's kingdom. This broad lapse in the Scriptures is filled by one simple sentence in the gospel of St. Luke. "And he was in the desert till the day of his showing into Israel." Where he was, why he had gone, and what he was doing are left to the imagination of the scholar and commentator.

The amazing wisdom of the child in earlier years is recorded in our ancient texts with as much care as in the bound volume of our church scriptures. At twelve, the last glimpse we get of Jesus in the[Pg 115] New Testament is of a gifted boy sitting in the Temple, explaining the Scriptures to the knowledgeable members of the Sanhedrin. After that, we don't see him again until sixteen years later, when he shows up at the wedding in Cana, now a grown and serious man, already with clear plans for advancing his father's kingdom. This long gap in the Scriptures is summed up in one simple sentence in the gospel of St. Luke: "And he was in the desert till the day of his showing into Israel." What he was doing, where he was, and why he had gone are left to the imagination of scholars and commentators.

Many theories have been advanced, and the one most accepted, was that he had followed the trade of his terrestrial father, Joseph, and was near Jerusalem among the tools of carpentry, helping his parents to feed the hungry mouths of his brothers and sisters.

Many theories have been proposed, and the most widely accepted one is that he followed in the footsteps of his earthly father, Joseph, and was around Jerusalem working with carpentry tools, helping his parents provide for the hungry mouths of his brothers and sisters.

But there appears another plausible theory advanced by the Buddhist histo[Pg 116]rians, and sustained by the Buddhist traditions, that as Moses had fled into the wilderness to spend forty years in fasting and preparation for his life work, so Jesus had fled, not to the wilderness, but to the ancient culture and learning and the wisdom of centuries to prepare himself, by a knowledge of all religions for the day of the redemption.

But there's another reasonable theory suggested by Buddhist historians, supported by Buddhist traditions, that just as Moses fled into the wilderness to spend forty years fasting and preparing for his life's mission, Jesus went not to the wilderness but to the ancient culture, learning, and wisdom of centuries to prepare himself through an understanding of all religions for the day of redemption.

Among the Jews of that day, and even among the more conservative descendants of Abraham yet, there existed, and exists a law which accustoms the marrying of the sons, especially the oldest son, at the age of thirteen. It is supposed that Issa, resisting the thraldom and carnal temptation of the marital state, fled from the importunities of the wise men, who would fain unite their offspring with such a wise and serious youth.

Among the Jews of that time, and even among the more traditional descendants of Abraham today, there was and still is a law that encourages marrying off sons, particularly the eldest, at the age of thirteen. It is believed that Issa, resisting the constraints and physical temptations of marriage, ran away from the pressures of the wise men who wanted to connect their children with such a wise and serious young man.

"It was then that Issa clandestinely left his father's house, went out of Jerusalem, and in company with some merchants, travelled toward Sinai."

"It was then that Issa secretly left his father's house, exited Jerusalem, and, along with some merchants, traveled toward Sinai."

"That he might perfect himself in the[Pg 117] divine word and study the laws of the Great Buddha."

"That he could improve himself in the[Pg 117] divine word and learn the teachings of the Great Buddha."

For six years he kept all India stirred to its utmost depths as he afterward kept all Palestine stirred by the purity of his doctrines, and the direct simplicity of his teachings. The white priests of Bramah gave him all their law, teaching him the language and religion of the dwellers of the five rivers. In Juggernaut, Rajegrilia, Benares, and other holy cities he was beloved by all. For true, here, as elsewhere, to his theory of the universal brotherhood of man, not only did he move among the upper classes, but also with the wretched Vaisyas and Soudras, the lowest of low castes who even were forbidden to hear the Vedas read, save only on feast days. Just as among the Jews, he was tolerant, merciful and kindly disposed towards the Samaritans, the Magdalens, the Lazaruses as to the haughty rabbis.

For six years, he kept all of India deeply engaged, just as he later kept all of Palestine captivated by the purity of his beliefs and the straightforwardness of his teachings. The white priests of Bramah shared their laws with him, teaching him the language and religion of the people living by the five rivers. In Juggernaut, Rajegrilia, Benares, and other sacred cities, he was loved by everyone. True to his idea of universal brotherhood, he interacted not only with the upper classes but also with the miserable Vaisyas and Soudras, the lowest castes who were even forbidden to hear the Vedas read, except on feast days. Just like among the Jews, he was tolerant, merciful, and kind towards the Samaritans, the Magdalens, and Lazaruses, as well as the proud rabbis.

His impress upon the home of Buddha and Brahma was manifested by the hith[Pg 118]erto unknown theory of monotheism, established by him, but gradually permitted to fall into desuetude, and become confounded with the polytheistic hierarchy of the confusing religion. Just as the grand oneness and simplicity of the Christian religion has been permitted to deteriorate into many petty sects, each with its absurd limitations, and its particular little method of worshipping the Great Father.

His impact on the home of Buddha and Brahma was shown through the previously unknown idea of monotheism that he established, but it was gradually allowed to fade away and became mixed up with the confusing polytheistic structure of the religion. Similarly, the grand unity and simplicity of Christianity has been allowed to degrade into many small sects, each with its ridiculous limitations and its own little way of worshiping the Great Father.

The teachings of Issa in India bear close relation in the general trend of thought to the teachings of Jesus among the multitudes about Jerusalem. There is the same universal simplicity of man's brotherhood; the complete self-abnegation of the flesh to the mind; the charitable impulses of a kind heart, and the utter disregard of caste, whether of birth, or breeding, or riches.

The teachings of Issa in India are closely related in general thought to the teachings of Jesus among the crowds around Jerusalem. There is the same universal simplicity of human brotherhood; the total surrender of the flesh to the mind; the generous impulses of a kind heart, and the complete disregard for caste, whether from birth, upbringing, or wealth.

Of miracles in India, Issa says, "The miracles of our God began when the universe was created, they occur each day, each instant; whosoever does not see[Pg 119] them, is deprived of one of the most beautiful gifts of life."

Of miracles in India, Issa says, "The miracles of our God started when the universe was created, and they happen every day, every moment; anyone who doesn't see[Pg 119] them misses out on one of life's most beautiful gifts."

At last, according to the chronicles of the Buddhists, Issa was recalled from his labors in India to the land of Israel, where the people oppressed as of old by the Pharaohs, and now by the mighty men from the country of the Ramones, otherwise the Romans.

At last, according to the records of the Buddhists, Issa was called back from his work in India to the land of Israel, where the people, once oppressed by the Pharaohs, were now suffering at the hands of the powerful men from the land of the Ramones, otherwise known as the Romans.

Here Pilate appears in a new light. Heretofore he has always been a passive figure in the story of the crucifixion. Indeed he is entirely exonerated from all blame by some of our religious bibliographers and made to appear in a philanthropic light, but the priests of Egypt, undeceived by the treacherous memories and careless chronicling on the disciples of old, place Pilate before us as a thorough Roman, greedy, crafty, cruel, unscrupulous. According to them he places a spy upon the actions of Jesus in the beginning of his three years teachings, who follows him in all his journeys, and in the end betrays him to the Romans. This[Pg 120] person can be no other than Judas, the betrayer. And here we are permitted to view his seemingly inexplicable actions in a new light, and from being Judas, a sorrowing misanthrope, the erstwhile friend of Christ, he becomes merely a common enemy, the tool of the Romans.

Here Pilate is seen in a different way. Until now, he has always been a passive character in the story of the crucifixion. In fact, some of our religious writers completely clear him of any blame and present him as a compassionate figure, but the priests of Egypt, not fooled by the misleading memories and careless accounts from the disciples of old, show Pilate as a true Roman—greedy, sly, cruel, and ruthless. They suggest that he places a spy on Jesus during the start of his three years of teaching, who follows him everywhere and ultimately betrays him to the Romans. This[Pg 120] spy can only be Judas, the betrayer. This allows us to rethink his seemingly inexplicable actions; instead of being a sorrowful misanthrope and once a friend of Christ, Judas becomes just a common enemy, a pawn of the Romans.

Then we have the trial and death of Issa, strongly similar to our accepted version, and the chronicle briefly ends with the statement of the subsequent work of the disciples. The story of the Buddhist was written very shortly after the Passion of the Cross; the New Testament was transcribed years after the chief actors were dust.

Then we have the trial and death of Issa, which closely resembles our accepted version, and the account briefly concludes with a summary of the disciples' later work. The story of the Buddhist was written shortly after the Crucifixion; the New Testament was recorded years after the main figures had passed away.

We are so steeped in tradition, and so conservative on any subject that touches our religious beliefs that it is somewhat difficult to reconcile ourselves to another addition to our Scriptures. But if we should look at the matter earnestly, and give deep thought to the relative positions, lives, and endings of these two noble men, Issa and Christ, we could[Pg 121] scarcely doubt that they are one. Without trying, as does the author, to break down with one fell swoop, the entire structure of the Bible, we cannot but admit the probability of the new theory.

We are so immersed in tradition and so conservative about anything related to our religious beliefs that it's hard to accept any new addition to our Scriptures. However, if we take a serious look at the lives and legacies of these two remarkable figures, Issa and Christ, we can barely doubt that they are one. Without attempting, as the author does, to completely dismantle the entire structure of the Bible in one go, we must acknowledge the likelihood of this new idea.

It may be claimed that the remarkable personality of Christ would have left more of an impress upon India than it did, and that Christianity there and in India would have been synchronous, but we must remember, that there among the idols of Bramah and Vishnu, the way was not prepared, the people unexpectant of a new prophet, unwarned of him and unheeded. There he seems to have had no close personal followers to take up the work just where he left it, and continue. The dwellers of India were more happy in their entirety and more comfortable than the Jews, hence there was no Deliverer to impress them forever with the gigantic sacrifice of human frame and Divine soul.

It could be argued that the extraordinary character of Christ would have made a bigger impact on India than it did, and that Christianity could have developed alongside other faiths there, but we must keep in mind that, in the presence of the idols of Brahma and Vishnu, the environment wasn't ready, and the people weren't expecting a new prophet, nor were they warned about him or paying attention. It appears he had no close personal followers to carry on his work right where he left off. The people of India, as a whole, were happier and more comfortable than the Jews, so there was no Deliverer to leave a lasting impression on them with the immense sacrifice of a human body and Divine spirit.

St. Issa, one of the most revered prophets of the Buddhists, Jesus Christ,[Pg 122] the Man and God of all other men, the divine incarnation of the ideal, are they the same? Why not?

St. Issa, one of the most respected prophets of the Buddhists, Jesus Christ,[Pg 122] the Man and God of all men, the divine embodiment of the ideal, are they the same? Why not?


IN OUR NEIGHBORHOOD.

The Harts were going to give a party. Neither Mrs. Hart, nor the Misses Hart, nor the small and busy Harts who amused themselves and the neighborhood by continually falling in the gutter on special occasions, had mentioned this fact to anyone, but all the interested denizens of that particular square could tell by the unusual air of bustle and activity which pervaded the Hart domicile. Lillian, the æsthetic, who furnished theme for many spirited discussions, leaned airily out of the window; her auburn (red)[Pg 123] tresses carefully done in curl papers. Martha, the practical, flourished the broom and duster with unwonted activity, which the small boys of the neighborhood, peering through the green shutters of the front door, duly reported to their mammas, busily engaged in holding down their respective door-steps by patiently sitting thereon.

The Harts were planning to throw a party. Neither Mrs. Hart, nor the Misses Hart, nor the little and energetic Harts, who entertained themselves and the neighborhood by frequently falling into the gutter on special occasions, had shared this news with anyone. However, all the curious residents of that particular block could sense the unusual flurry of activity that filled the Hart house. Lillian, the artistic one, leaned casually out of the window, her auburn hair styled in curl papers. Martha, the practical one, swept and dusted with surprising energy, which the neighborhood boys, peeking through the green shutters of the front door, eagerly reported to their moms, who were busy holding down their own front steps by sitting on them.

Pretty soon, the junior Harts,—two in number—began to travel to and fro, soliciting the loan of a "few chairs," "some nice dishes," and such like things, indispensable to every decent, self-respecting party. But to all inquiries as to the use to which these articles were to be put, they only vouchsafed one reply, "Ma told us as we wasn't to tell, just ask for the things, that's all."

Pretty soon, the junior Harts—two of them—started going back and forth, asking to borrow "a few chairs," "some nice dishes," and other things essential for any decent, self-respecting party. But when questioned about what these items were for, they simply replied, "Mom told us not to say, just to ask for the stuff, that's all."

Mrs. Tuckley the dress-maker, brought her sewing out on the front-steps, and entered a vigorous protest to her next-door neighbor.

Mrs. Tuckley, the dressmaker, brought her sewing out to the front steps and energetically complained to her next-door neighbor.

"Humph," she sniffed, "mighty funny they can't say what's up. Must be some[Pg 124]thing in it. Couldn't get none o' my things, and not invite me!"

"Humph," she sniffed, "really weird they can't say what's up. Must be something going on. Couldn't get any of my stuff, and not invite me!"

"Did she ask you for any?" absent-mindedly inquired Mrs. Luke, shielding her eyes from the sun.

"Did she ask you for any?" Mrs. Luke asked distractedly, shielding her eyes from the sun.

"No-o—, but she'd better sense, she knows me—she ain't—mercy me, Stella! Just look at that child tumbling in the mud! You, Stella, come here, I say! Look at you now, there—and there—and there?"

"No— but she better pay attention, she knows me—she's not—oh my, Stella! Just look at that kid rolling in the mud! You, Stella, come here, I say! Look at you now, over there—and over there—and over there?"

The luckless Stella having been soundly cuffed, and sent whimpering in the back-yard, Mrs. Tuckley continued,

The unfortunate Stella, having been harshly scolded and sent crying to the backyard, Mrs. Tuckley continued,

"Yes as I was saying, 'course, taint none o' my business, but I always did wonder how them Harts do keep up. Why, them girls dress just as fine as any lady on the Avenue and that there Lillian wears real diamond ear-rings. 'Pears mighty, mighty funny to me, and Lord the airs they do put on! Holdin' up their heads like nobody's good enough to speak to. I don't like to talk about people, you know, yourself, Mrs. Luke I never[Pg 125] speak about anybody, but mark my word, girls that cut up capers like them Hartses' girls never come to any good."

"Yeah, like I was saying, it's really none of my business, but I've always wondered how those Harts keep up. Seriously, those girls dress just as nicely as any lady on the Avenue, and that Lillian wears real diamond earrings. Seems really, really strange to me, and wow, the attitude they have! They walk around like nobody's good enough to talk to them. I don't like gossiping, you know? But let me tell you, Mrs. Luke, I never speak about anyone, but mark my words, girls who act like those Harts girls never end up well."

Mrs. Luke heaved a deep sigh of appreciation at the wisdom of her neighbor, but before she could reply a re-inforcement in the person of little Mrs. Peters, apron over her head, hands shrivelled and soap-sudsy from washing, appeared.

Mrs. Luke let out a deep sigh of appreciation for the wisdom of her neighbor, but before she could respond, little Mrs. Peters showed up, her apron over her head and her hands wrinkled and soapy from doing laundry.

"Did you ever see the like?" she asked in her usual, rapid breathless way. "Why, my Louis says they're putting canvass cloths on the floor, and taking down the bed in the back-room; and putting greenery and such like trash about. Some style about them, eh?"

"Have you ever seen anything like it?" she asked in her typical, hurried breathless manner. "Well, my Louis says they're laying down canvass on the floor, taking the bed out of the back room, and putting up plants and other junk. Quite a style, right?"

Mrs. Tuckley tossed her head and sniffed contemptuously, Mrs. Luke began to rehearse a time worn tale, how once a carriage had driven up to the Hart house at nine o'clock at night, and a distinguished looking man alighted, went in, stayed about ten minutes and finally drove off with a great clatter. Heads[Pg 126] that had shaken ominously over this story before began to shake again, and tongues that had wagged themselves tired with conjectures started now with some brand new ideas and theories. The children of the square, tired of fishing for minnows in the ditches, and making mud-pies in the street, clustered about their mother's skirts receiving occasional slaps, when their attempts at taking part in the conversation became too pronounced.

Mrs. Tuckley tossed her head and sniffed in disdain, while Mrs. Luke started to tell an old story about how, once, a carriage pulled up to the Hart house at nine o'clock at night. A distinguished-looking man got out, went inside, stayed for about ten minutes, and then drove off with a loud clatter. Heads[Pg 126] that had previously shook ominously over this tale began to shake again, and tongues that had wearied from speculating started up with new ideas and theories. The children of the square, bored of catching minnows in the ditches and making mud pies in the street, huddled around their mothers' skirts, receiving occasional slaps when their attempts to join the conversation became too obvious.

Meanwhile, in the Hart household, all was bustle and preparation. To and fro the members of the house flitted, arranging chairs, putting little touches here and there, washing saucers and glasses, chasing the Hart Juniors about, losing things and calling frantically for each other's assistance to find them. Mama Hart, big, plump and perspiring, puffed here and there like a large, rosy engine, giving impossible orders, and receiving sharp answers to foolish questions. Lillian, the æsthetic, practiced her most graceful poses before the[Pg 127] large mirror in the parlor; Martha rushed about, changing the order of the furniture, and Papa Hart, just come in from work, paced the rooms disconsolately, asking for dinner.

Meanwhile, in the Hart household, everything was busy and getting ready. The family members darted around, arranging chairs, adding little touches here and there, washing saucers and glasses, chasing after the Hart kids, misplacing things, and desperately calling for each other to help find them. Mama Hart, big, plump, and sweaty, puffed around like a large, rosy engine, giving out impossible orders and getting snappy replies to silly questions. Lillian, the artistic one, practiced her most graceful poses in front of the[Pg 127] large mirror in the living room; Martha rushed around, rearranging the furniture, while Papa Hart, just in from work, walked the rooms aimlessly, asking about dinner.

"Dinner!" screamed Mama Hart, "Dinner, who's got time to fool with dinner this evening? Look in the sideboard and you'll see some bread and ham; eat that and shut up."

"Dinner!" yelled Mama Hart, "Dinner, who has time to mess around with dinner tonight? Check the sideboard, and you'll find some bread and ham; eat that and be quiet."

Eight o'clock finally arrived, and with it, the music and some straggling guests. When the first faint chee-chee of the violin floated out into the murky atmosphere, the smaller portion of the neighborhood went straightway into ecstasies. Boys and girls in all stages of deshabille clustered about the door-steps and gave vent to audible exclamations of approval or disapprobation concerning the state of affairs behind the green shutters. It was a warm night and the big round moon sailed serenely in a cloudless, blue sky. Mrs. Tuckley had put on a clean calico wrapper, and planted herself with the[Pg 128] indomitable Stella on her steps, "to watch the purceedings."

Eight o'clock finally arrived, bringing with it music and a few late guests. As the first soft notes of the violin drifted out into the hazy night, a small group from the neighborhood erupted into excitement. Boys and girls in various states of casual dress gathered on the steps, expressing their opinions—both positive and negative—about what was happening behind the green shutters. It was a warm night, and the big round moon hung serenely in a cloudless blue sky. Mrs. Tuckley had put on a clean calico robe and settled herself, along with the unyielding Stella, on her steps "to watch the proceedings."

The party was a grand success. Even the intensely critical small fry dancing on the pavement without to the scraping and fiddling of the string band, had to admit that. So far as they were concerned it was all right, but what shall we say of the guests within? They who glided easily over the canvassed floors, bowed, and scraped and simpered, "just like the big folks on the Avenue," who ate the ice-cream and cake, and drank the sweet, weak Catawba wine amid boisterous healths to Mr. and Mrs. Hart and the Misses Hart; who smirked and perspired and cracked ancient jokes and heart-rending puns during the intervals of the dances, who shall say that they did not enjoy themselves as thoroughly and as fully as those who frequented the wealthier entertainments up-town.

The party was a huge success. Even the overly critical kids dancing on the sidewalk to the music of the band had to admit that. As far as they were concerned, it was all good, but what about the guests inside? They glided effortlessly over the covered floors, bowed, curtsied, and smiled, "just like the big shots on the Avenue," enjoying the ice cream and cake, sipping the sweet, light Catawba wine while cheerfully toasting Mr. and Mrs. Hart and the Misses Hart; they smirked, sweated, and cracked old jokes and corny puns during the dance breaks. Who can say they didn’t enjoy themselves just as much as those who went to the fancier parties uptown?

Lillian and Martha in gossamer gowns of pink and blue flitted to and fro attending to the wants of their guests. Mrs.[Pg 129] Hart, gorgeous in a black satin affair, all folds and lace and drapery, made desperate efforts to appear cool and collected—and failed miserably. Papa Hart spent one half his time standing in front of the mantle, spreading out his coat-tails, and benignly smiling upon the young people, while the other half was devoted to initiating the male portion of the guests into the mysteries of "snake killing."

Lillian and Martha, in delicate pink and blue dresses, zipped around taking care of their guests' needs. Mrs.[Pg 129] Hart, stunning in a black satin dress with layers of lace and draping, tried desperately to stay calm and composed—but failed spectacularly. Papa Hart spent half his time in front of the fireplace, smoothing his coat-tails and offering a friendly smile to the young people, while the other half was spent teaching the men guests about the art of "snake killing."

Everybody had said that he or she had had a splendid time, and finally, when the last kisses had been kissed, the last good-byes been said, the whole Hart family sat down in the now deserted and disordered rooms, and sighed with relief that the great event was over at last.

Everybody said they had a great time, and finally, when the last kisses were given, and the last goodbyes were said, the whole Hart family sat down in the now-empty and messy rooms, sighing with relief that the big event was finally over.

"Nice crowd, eh?" remarked Papa Hart. He was brimful of joy and second-class whiskey, so no one paid any attention to him.

"Great crowd, huh?" said Papa Hart. He was filled with happiness and cheap whiskey, so no one paid him any mind.

"But did you see how shamefully Maude flirted with Willie Howard?" said Lillian. Martha tossed her head in dis[Pg 130]dain; Mr. Howard she had always considered her especial property, so Lillian's observation had a rather disturbing effect.

"But did you see how embarrassingly Maude flirted with Willie Howard?" said Lillian. Martha tossed her head in disdain; Mr. Howard had always been someone she considered her special property, so Lillian's comment had a pretty unsettling effect.

"I'm so warm and tired," cried Mama Hart, plaintively, "children how are we going to sleep to-night?"

"I'm so warm and tired," Mama Hart said sadly, "kids, how are we supposed to sleep tonight?"

Thereupon the whole family arose to devise ways and means for wooing the drowsy god. As for the Hart Juniors they had long since solved the problem by falling asleep with sticky hands and faces upon a pile of bed-clothing behind the kitchen door.

Thereupon the whole family got together to figure out how to win over the sleepy god. As for the Hart Juniors, they had already solved the problem by falling asleep with sticky hands and faces on a pile of bedding behind the kitchen door.


It was late in the next day before the house had begun to resume anything like its former appearance. The little Harts were kept busy all morning returning chairs and dishes, and distributing the remnants of the feast to the vicinity. The ice-cream had melted into a warm custard, and the cakes had a rather worse for wear appearance, but they were ap[Pg 131]preciated as much as though just from the confectioner. No one was forgotten, even Mrs. Tuckley, busily stitching on a muslin garment on the steps, and unctuously rolling the latest morsel of scandal under her tongue, was obliged to confess that "them Hartses wasn't such bad people after all, just a bit queer at times."

It wasn't until late the next day that the house started to look somewhat like its old self again. The little Harts spent the entire morning putting chairs and dishes back in place and sharing the leftover goodies with the neighbors. The ice cream had turned into a warm custard, and the cakes looked a bit worse for wear, but they were still enjoyed as if they had just come from the bakery. Nobody was overlooked, not even Mrs. Tuckley, who was busy stitching a muslin outfit on the steps while savoring the latest bit of gossip. She had to admit, "Those Harts aren't such bad people after all, just a little odd sometimes."

About two o'clock, just as Lillian was re-draping the tidies on the stiff, common plush chairs in the parlor, some one pulled the bell violently. The visitor, a rather good-looking young fellow, with a worried expression smiled somewhat sarcastically as he heard a sound of scuffling and running within the house.

About two o'clock, just as Lillian was re-arranging the covers on the stiff, ordinary plush chairs in the living room, someone suddenly pulled the bell hard. The visitor, a rather attractive young guy with a worried look, smiled somewhat sarcastically when he heard the sounds of scuffling and running coming from inside the house.


Presently Mrs. Hart opened the door wiping her hand, red and smoking with dish-water, upon her apron. The worried expression deepened on the visitor's face as he addressed the woman with visible embarrassment.

Right now, Mrs. Hart opened the door, wiping her hand, red and steaming from the dishwater, on her apron. The worried look on the visitor's face grew stronger as he spoke to the woman, obviously feeling embarrassed.

"Er—I—I—suppose you are Mrs. Hart?"[Pg 132] he inquired awkwardly.

"Um—I—I—guess you’re Mrs. Hart?"[Pg 132] he asked awkwardly.

"That's my name, sir," replied she with pretentious dignity.

"That's my name, sir," she replied with an air of false dignity.

"Er—your-er—may I come in madam?

"Um—may I come in, ma'am?"

"Certainly," and she opened the door to admit him, and offered a chair.

"Sure," she said, opening the door to let him in, and offered him a chair.

"Your husband is an employee in the Fisher Oil Mills, is he not?"

"Your husband works at Fisher Oil Mills, right?"

Mrs. Hart straightened herself with pride as she replied in the affirmative. She had always been proud of Mr. Hart's position as foreman of the big oil mills, and was never so happy as when he was expounding to some one in her presence, the difficulties and intricacies of machine-work.

Mrs. Hart straightened up proudly as she answered yes. She had always been proud of Mr. Hart's role as the foreman of the large oil mills and was never happier than when he was explaining the challenges and details of machinery to someone while she was there.

"Well you see my dear Mrs. Hart," continued the visitor. "Now pray don't get excited—there has been an accident, and your husband—has—er—been hurt, you know."

"Well, you see, my dear Mrs. Hart," the visitor continued. "Now please don't get too upset—there has been an accident, and your husband—has—um—been injured, you know."

But for a painful whitening in her usually rosy face, and a quick compression of her lips, the wife made no sign.

But apart from a painful whitening in her usually rosy face and a quick tightening of her lips, the wife showed no other signs.

"What was the accident?" she queried,[Pg 133] leaning her elbows on her knees.

"What was the accident?" she asked,[Pg 133] leaning her elbows on her knees.

"Well, you see, I don't understand machinery and the like, but there was something about a wheel out of gear, and a band bursted, or something, anyhow a big wheel flew to pieces, and as he was standing near, he was hit."

"Well, you see, I don't really get machines and stuff, but there was something about a wheel being out of place, and a belt breaking, or something like that. Anyway, a big wheel shattered, and since he was standing nearby, he got hit."

"Where?"

"Where at?"

"Well—well, I may as well tell you the truth, madam; a large piece of the wheel struck him on the head—and—he was killed instantly."

"Well, I might as well tell you the truth, ma'am; a big part of the wheel hit him on the head—and he was killed instantly."

She did not faint, nor make any outcry, nor tear her hair as he had partly expected, but sat still staring at him, with a sort of helpless, dumb horror shining out her eyes, then with a low moan, bowed her head on her knees and shuddered, just as Lillian came in, curious to know what the handsome stranger had to say to her mother.

She didn't faint, scream, or tear her hair out like he partly expected, but sat silently staring at him, with a kind of helpless, shocked horror in her eyes. Then, with a soft moan, she lowered her head to her knees and shuddered, just as Lillian walked in, eager to find out what the attractive stranger had to say to her mother.


The poor mutilated body came home at last, and was laid in a stiff, silver-decorated, black coffin in the middle of the[Pg 134] sitting-room, which had been made to look as uncomfortable and unnatural as mirrors and furniture shrouded in sheets and mantel and tables divested of ornaments would permit.

The poor, disfigured body finally came home and was placed in a rigid, silver-trimmed black coffin in the middle of the[Pg 134] living room, which had been arranged to feel as uncomfortable and unnatural as possible, with mirrors and furniture covered in sheets and mantels and tables stripped of decorations.

There was a wake that night to the unconfined joy of the neighbors, who would rather a burial than a wedding. The friends of the family sat about the coffin, and through the house with long pulled faces. Mrs. Tuckley officiated in the kitchen, making coffee and dispensing cheese and crackers to those who were hungry. As the night wore on, and the first restraint disappeared, jokes were cracked, and quiet laughter indulged in, while the young folks congregated in the kitchen, were hilariously happy, until some member of the family would appear, when every face would sober down.

There was a wake that night to the unrestrained delight of the neighbors, who would prefer a funeral over a wedding. The family friends gathered around the coffin, their faces long and serious. Mrs. Tuckley managed things in the kitchen, brewing coffee and handing out cheese and crackers to those who needed a snack. As the night progressed and the initial awkwardness faded, jokes started flying, and quiet laughter filled the air, while the younger crowd hung out in the kitchen, having a great time, until a family member would show up, at which point everyone’s expression would turn serious.

The older persons contented themselves with recounting the virtues of the deceased, and telling anecdotes wherein he figured largely. It was astonishing[Pg 135] how many intimate friends of his had suddenly come to light. Every other man present had either attended school with him, or was a close companion until he died. Proverbs and tales and witty sayings were palmed off as having emanated from his lips. In fact, the dead man would have been surprised himself, had he suddenly come to life and discovered what an important, what a modern solomon he had become.

The older folks busied themselves with sharing stories about the virtues of the deceased and reminiscing about times when he played a big role. It was surprising[Pg 135] how many close friends of his suddenly appeared. Every other man there had either gone to school with him or was a close friend until he passed. Proverbs, anecdotes, and clever sayings were passed off as things he had said. In fact, the deceased would have been shocked if he suddenly came back to life and saw what an important, what a modern wise man he had become.

The long night dragged on, and the people departed in groups of twos and threes, until when the gray dawn crept slowly over the blackness of night shrouding the electric lights in mists of cloudy blue, and sending cold chills of dampness through the house, but a few of the great crowd remained.

The long night dragged on, and people left in pairs and small groups until the gray dawn slowly crept over the darkness, wrapping the electric lights in a misty blue haze and sending cold damp chills through the house, but a few of the large crowd stayed behind.

The day seemed so gray in contrast to the softening influence of the night, the grief which could be hidden then, must now come forth and parade itself before all eyes. There was the funeral to prepare for; the dismal black dresses[Pg 136] and bonnets with their long crape veils to don; there were the condolences of sorrowing friends to receive; the floral offerings to be looked at. The little Harts strutted about resplendent in stiff black cravats, and high crape bands about their hats. They were divided between two conflicting emotions—joy at belonging to a family so noteworthy and important, and sorrow at the death. As the time for the funeral approached, and Lillian began to indulge in a series of fainting fits, the latter feeling predominated.

The day felt so dull compared to the calming effect of the night; the grief that could be hidden then had to come forward and show itself to everyone now. There was the funeral to prepare for; the gloomy black dresses[Pg 136] and bonnets with their long mourning veils to put on; the condolences from grieving friends to accept; the floral tributes to be admired. The little Harts strutted around looking sharp in stiff black ties and high mourning bands around their hats. They were caught between two conflicting feelings—pride in being part of such a notable and important family, and sadness over the death. As the time for the funeral drew near and Lillian began to have a series of fainting spells, the sadness took over.


"Well it was all over at last, the family had returned, and as on two nights previous, sat once more in the deserted and dismantled parlor. Mrs. Tuckley and Mrs. Luke, having rendered all assistance possible, had repaired to their respective front steps to keep count of the number of visitors who returned to condole with the family.

"Well, it was finally over. The family had come back, and just like on the previous two nights, they were once again in the empty and stripped parlor. Mrs. Tuckley and Mrs. Luke, having provided all the help they could, had gone back to their own front steps to keep track of how many visitors came to offer their condolences."

"A real nice funeral," remarked the[Pg 137] dress-maker at last, "a nice funeral. Everybody took it so hard, and Lillian fainted real beautiful. She's a good girl that Lillian. Poor things, I wonder what they'll do now."

"A really nice funeral," said the[Pg 137] dress-maker finally, "a nice funeral. Everyone seemed so affected, and Lillian fainted beautifully. She's a good girl, that Lillian. Poor things, I wonder what they'll do now."

Stella, the irrepressible, was busily engaged balancing herself on one toe, a la ballet.

Stella, the unstoppable, was busy balancing herself on one toe, like ballet.

"Mebbe she's goin' to get married," she volunteered eagerly, "'cos I saw that yeller-haired young man what comes there all the time, wif his arms around her waist, and a tellin' her not to grieve as he'd take care of her. I was a peepin' in the dinin'-room."

"Maybe she's going to get married," she offered eagerly, "because I saw that blonde young man who comes around all the time, with his arms around her waist, telling her not to worry because he'd take care of her. I was peeking in the dining room."

"How dare you peep at other folks, and pry into people's affairs? I can't imagine where you get your meddlesome ways from. There aint none in my family. Next time I catch you at it, I'll spank you good." Then, after a pause, "Well what else did he say?"[Pg 138]

"How can you snoop on other people and get into their business? I can't understand where you picked up such nosy behavior. None of us in my family act like that. The next time I catch you doing it, I’ll give you a spanking." Then, after a pause, "So what else did he say?"[Pg 138]


FAREWELL.

Farewell, sweetheart, and again farewell;
To day we part, and who can tell
If we shall e'er again
Meet, and with clasped hands
Renew our vows of love, and forget
The sad, dull pain.

Dear heart, 'tis bitter thus to lose thee
And think mayhap, you will forget me;
And yet, I thrill
As I remember long and happy days
Fraught with sweet love and pleasant memories
That linger still

You go to loved ones who will smile
And clasp you in their arms, and all the while
I stay and moan
For you, my love, my heart and strive
To gather up life's dull, gray thread
And walk alone.

[Pg 139]Aye, with you love the red and gold
Goes from my life, and leaves it cold
And dull and bare,
Why should I strive to live and learn
And smile and jest, and daily try
You from my heart to tare?

Nay, sweetheart, rather would I lie
Me down, and sleep for aye; or fly
To regions far
Where cruel Fate is not and lovers live
Nor feel the grim, cold hand of Destiny
Their way to bar.

I murmur not, dear love, I only say
Again farewell. God bless the day
On which we met,
And bless you too, my love, and be with you
In sorrow or in happiness, nor let you
E'er me forget.
[Pg 140]

Farewell, my love, and once again, farewell;
Today we say goodbye, and who can say
If we'll ever meet again
And, holding hands,
Renew our love and move on
The heavy sadness.

Oh dear, it's hard to lose you.
And worry that you might forget me;
Yet, I feel excited
As I reminisce about our long, joyful days
Filled with sweet love and happy memories
That still hangs around

You're going to those who care about you,
Who will smile at you and welcome you, while
I'm here feeling sorry
For you, my love, my heart, as I make the effort.
To gather the dull, gray threads of life
And walk alone.

[Pg 139]Yes, with you, my love, there's warmth and brightness.
Leave my life, making it feel empty.
And boring and empty;
Why should I make an effort to live and learn?
And smile and joke every day
Are you trying to tear yourself away from my heart?

No, babe, I’d rather lie
Lie down and sleep forever; or soar.
To faraway places
Where cruel fate doesn’t exist and lovers thrive
Without experiencing the cold, harsh grip of fate
Blocking their path.

I’m not complaining, my dear, I'm just saying
Goodbye again. May God bless the day.
We met for the first time,
And bless you too, my love, and may you be well.
In sadness or in happiness, and never allow you
Forget me.
[Pg 140]


LITTLE MISS SOPHIE.

When Miss Sophie knew consciousness again, the long, faint, swelling notes of the organ were dying away in distant echoes through the great arches of the silent church, and she was alone, crouching in a little, forsaken, black heap at the altar of the Virgin. The twinkling tapers seemed to smile pityingly upon her, the beneficent smile of the white-robed Madonna seemed to whisper comfort. A long gust of chill air swept up the aisles, and Miss Sophie shivered, not from cold, but from nervousness.

When Miss Sophie regained consciousness, the long, soft, fading notes of the organ were echoing away through the high arches of the silent church, and she was alone, huddled in a small, forgotten, dark pile at the altar of the Virgin. The flickering candles seemed to look down on her with pity, and the kind smile of the white-robed Madonna seemed to offer her some comfort. A cold draft swept through the aisles, and Miss Sophie shivered, not from the chill, but from anxiety.

But darkness was falling, and soon the lights would be lowered, and the great, massive doors would be closed, so gathering her thin little cape about her frail shoulders, Miss Sophie hurried out, and along the brilliant noisy streets home.

But darkness was falling, and soon the lights would be dimmed, and the huge, heavy doors would be shut, so wrapping her thin little cape around her fragile shoulders, Miss Sophie hurried out and made her way home along the bright, noisy streets.

It was a wretched, lonely little room, where the cracks let the boisterous wind[Pg 141] whistle through, and the smoky, grimy walls looked cheerless and unhomelike. A miserable little room in a miserable little cottage in one of the squalid streets of the Third District that nature and the city fathers seemed to have forgotten.

It was a miserable, lonely little room, where the cracks allowed the loud wind[Pg 141] to whistle through, and the smoky, dirty walls looked bleak and uninviting. A pathetic little room in a pathetic little cottage on one of the rundown streets of the Third District that nature and the city officials seemed to have forgotten.

As bare and comfortless the room, so was Miss Sophie's lonely life. She rented these four walls from an unkempt little Creole woman, whose progeny seemed like the promised offspring of Abraham,—multitudinous. The flickering life in the pale little body she scarcely kept there by the unceasing toil of a pair of bony hands, stitching, stitching, ceaselessly, wearingly on the bands and pockets of pants. It was her bread, this monotonous, unending work, and though while days and nights constant labor brought but the most meagre recompense, it was her only hope of life.

As bare and uncomfortable as the room was, so was Miss Sophie's lonely life. She rented these four walls from a scruffy little Creole woman, whose children seemed like the countless descendants of Abraham. The flickering life in her frail little body was barely sustained by the constant toil of her bony hands, stitching, stitching, endlessly and wearisomely on the seams and pockets of pants. This monotonous, never-ending work was her livelihood, and even though her nonstop labor brought only the slightest reward, it was her only hope for survival.

She sat before the little charcoal brazier and warmed her transparent, needle-pricked fingers, thinking meanwhile of[Pg 142] the strange events of the day. She had been up town to carry the great, black bundle of pants and vests to the factory and receive her small pittance, and on the way home stopped in at the Jesuit Church to say her little prayer at the altar of the calm, white Virgin. There had been a wondrous burst of music from the great organ as she knelt there, an over-powering perfume of many flowers, the glittering dazzle of many lights, and the dainty frou-frou of silken skirts of wedding guests filing and tripping. So Miss Sophie stayed to the wedding, for what feminine heart, be it ever so old and seared, does not delight in one? And why shouldn't a poor little Creole old maid be interested too?

She sat in front of the small charcoal brazier, warming her transparent, needle-pricked fingers while thinking about[Pg 142] the strange events of the day. She had gone downtown to bring the large, black bundle of pants and vests to the factory and collect her small payment. On her way home, she stopped at the Jesuit Church to say a little prayer at the altar of the peaceful, white Virgin. As she knelt there, there was an incredible burst of music from the grand organ, an overwhelming scent of various flowers, the sparkling shine of numerous lights, and the soft rustle of the silk skirts of wedding guests filing in and out. So Miss Sophie decided to stay for the wedding; after all, what woman’s heart, no matter how old and hardened, doesn't enjoy a wedding? And why shouldn't a poor little Creole spinster be interested too?

When the wedding party had filed in solemnly, to the rolling, swelling, pealing tones of the organ. Important-looking groomsmen, dainty, fluffy, white-robed maids, stately, satin-robed, illusion-veiled bride, and happy groom. She leaned forward to catch a better glimpse[Pg 143] of their faces. Ah!—

When the wedding party entered seriously to the deep, resonant sounds of the organ, there were important-looking groomsmen, graceful, fluffy, white-robed maids, a majestic bride in satin with an illusion veil, and a joyful groom. She leaned forward to get a better look at their faces.[Pg 143] Ah!—

Those near the Virgin's altar who heard a faint sigh and rustle on the steps glanced curiously as they saw a slight, black-robed figure clutch the railing and lean her head against it. Miss Sophie had fainted.

Those near the Virgin's altar who heard a soft sigh and rustling on the steps looked over curiously as they saw a slight figure in black clutching the railing and leaning her head against it. Miss Sophie had passed out.

"I must have been hungry," she mused over the charcoal fire in her little room, "I must have been hungry," and she smiled a wan smile, and busied herself getting her evening meal of coffee and bread and ham.

"I must have been hungry," she thought while tending to the charcoal fire in her small room, "I must have been hungry," and she smiled faintly as she prepared her evening meal of coffee, bread, and ham.

If one were given to pity, the first thought that would rush to one's lips at sight of Miss Sophie would have been: Poor little Miss Sophie! She had come among the bareness and sordidness of this neighborhood five years ago, robed in crepe, and crying with great sobs that seemed to fairly shake the vitality out of her. Perfectly silent, too, about her former life, but for all that, Michel, the quarter grocer at the corner, and Mme. Laurent, who kept the rabbe shop oppo[Pg 144]site, had fixed it all up between them, of her sad history and past glories. Not that they knew, but then Michel must invent something when the neighbors came to him, their fountain head of wisdom.

If you felt pity, the first thing that would come to mind upon seeing Miss Sophie would be: Poor little Miss Sophie! She had arrived in this rundown neighborhood five years ago, dressed in black and crying with such deep sobs that it seemed to drain the life out of her. She was completely silent about her past, but still, Michel, the corner grocer, and Mme. Laurent, who ran the rabbi shop across the street, managed to piece together her sad story and lost glories. They didn't actually know the truth, but Michel had to come up with something when the neighbors turned to him for answers, as he was their source of information.

One morning little Miss Sophie opened wide her dingy windows to catch the early freshness of the autumn wind as it whistled through the yellow-leafed trees. It was one of those calm, blue-misted, balmy, November days that New Orleans can have when all the rest of the country is fur-wrapped. Miss Sophie pulled her machine to the window, where the sweet, damp wind could whisk among her black locks.

One morning, Miss Sophie opened her grimy windows wide to let in the fresh autumn breeze as it whistled through the yellow-leaved trees. It was one of those calm, misty, warm November days that New Orleans can experience while the rest of the country is bundled up in fur. Miss Sophie brought her sewing machine to the window, where the sweet, damp wind could play with her dark hair.

Whirr, whirr, went the machine, ticking fast and lightly over the belts of the rough jean pants. Whirr, whirr, yes, and Miss Sophie was actually humming a tune! She felt strangely light to-day.

Whirr, whirr, went the machine, ticking quickly and softly over the belts of the rough jean pants. Whirr, whirr, yes, and Miss Sophie was actually humming a tune! She felt oddly light today.

"Ma foi," muttered Michel, strolling across the street to where Mme. Laurent sat sewing behind the counter on blue[Pg 145] and brown-checked aprons, "but the little ma'amselle sings. Perhaps she recollects."

"My word," muttered Michel, walking across the street to where Mme. Laurent was sewing behind the counter on blue[Pg 145] and brown-checked aprons, "but that little miss sings. Maybe she remembers."

"Perhaps," muttered the rabbe woman.

"Maybe," muttered the rabbe woman.

But little Miss Sophie felt restless. A strange impulse seemed drawing her up town, and the machine seemed to run slow, slow, before it would stitch the endless number of jean belts. Her fingers trembled with nervous haste as she pinned up the unwieldy black bundle of the finished work, and her feet fairly tripped over each other in their eagerness to get to Claiborne Street, where she could board the up-town car. There was a feverish desire to go somewhere, a sense of elation,—foolish happiness that brought a faint echo of color into her pinched cheeks. She wondered why.

But little Miss Sophie felt restless. A strange urge seemed to pull her uptown, and the machine felt like it was running slow, slow, before it could stitch the endless number of jean belts. Her fingers shook with anxious urgency as she pinned up the heavy black bundle of completed work, and her feet practically stumbled over each other in their eagerness to get to Claiborne Street, where she could catch the uptown car. There was a burning desire to go somewhere, a feeling of excitement—silly happiness that brought a faint flush of color to her pale cheeks. She wondered why.

No one noticed her in the car. Passengers on the Claiborne line are too much accustomed to frail, little black-robed women with big, black bundles; it is one of the city's most pitiful sights.[Pg 146] She leaned her head out of the window to catch a glimpse of the oleanders on Bayou Road, when her attention was caught by a conversation in the car.

No one saw her in the car. Passengers on the Claiborne line are used to frail, little women in black robes carrying large, black bundles; it’s one of the city's saddest sights.[Pg 146] She leaned her head out of the window to catch a glimpse of the oleanders on Bayou Road when a conversation in the car caught her attention.

"Yes, it's too bad for Neale, and lately married too," said the elder man, "I can't see what he is to do."

"Yeah, it’s unfortunate for Neale, especially since he just got married," said the older man. "I don’t know what he’s going to do."

Neale! she pricked up her ears. That was the name of the groom in the Jesuit church.

Neale! She perked up her ears. That was the name of the groom at the Jesuit church.

"How did it happen?" languidly inquired the younger. He was a stranger, evidently; a stranger with a high regard for the faultlessness of male attire, too.

"How did it happen?" the younger man asked languidly. He was clearly a stranger, and he had a noticeable appreciation for the impeccable style of men's clothing, as well.

"Well, the firm failed first; he didn't mind that much, he was so sure of his uncle's inheritance repairing his lost fortunes, but suddenly this difficulty of identification springs up, and he is literally on the verge of ruin."

"Well, the company failed first; he wasn't too worried about it because he was confident that his uncle's inheritance would fix his lost wealth. But then suddenly this issue with identification came up, and he was basically on the brink of disaster."

"Won't some of you fellows who've known him all your lives do to identify him?"

"Won't some of you guys who've known him your whole lives step up and identify him?"

"Gracious man, we've tried, but the absurd old will expressly stipulates that[Pg 147] he shall be known only by a certain quaint Roman ring, and unless he has it—no identification, no fortune. He has given the ring away and that settles it."

"Kind sir, we've attempted, but the ridiculous old will clearly states that[Pg 147] he can only be recognized by a specific old-fashioned Roman ring, and without it—no ID, no inheritance. He has given the ring away, and that's that."

"Well, you're all chumps. Why doesn't he get the ring from the owner?"

"Well, you all are fools. Why doesn't he just get the ring from the owner?"

"Easily said—but—It seems that Neale had some little Creole love-affair some years ago and gave this ring to his dusky-eyed fiancee. But you know how Neale is with his love-affairs, went off and forgot the girl in a month. It seems, however, she took it to heart,—so much so until he's ashamed to try to find her or the ring."

"Easier said than done—but it looks like Neale had a brief love affair with a Creole girl a few years back and gave her this ring. But you know how Neale is with his relationships; he just disappeared and forgot about her in a month. However, it seems she really took it to heart—so much so that now he’s too embarrassed to even try to find her or the ring."

Miss Sophie heard no more as she gazed out into the dusty grass. There were tears in her eyes, hot blinding ones that wouldn't drop for pride, but stayed and scalded. She knew the story with all its embellishments of heartaches. The ring, too; she remembered the day she had kissed and wept and fondled it, until it seemed her heart must burst under its load of grief before she took it to[Pg 148] the pawn broker's that another might be eased before the end came,—that other, her father. The "little Creole love affair" of Neale's had not always been poor and old and jaded-looking; but reverses must come, even Neale knew that—so the ring was at the Mont de Piete.

Miss Sophie heard no more as she stared out at the dusty grass. Tears filled her eyes, hot and blinding, that wouldn't fall from pride, but stayed and burned. She knew the story with all its emotional twists. The ring, too; she remembered the day she had kissed it, cried over it, and held it, until it felt like her heart might burst from its weight of sorrow before she took it to[Pg 148] the pawn shop so that another might find some relief before the end came,—that other, her father. Neale's "little Creole love affair" hadn't always been poor and worn-out looking; but hard times have to hit, even Neale understood that—so the ring was at the Mont de Piete.

Still he must have it, it was his; it would save him from disgrace and suffering, and from trailing the proud head of the white-gowned bride into sorrow. He must have it,—but how?

Still, he needed it; it was his. It would spare him from disgrace and pain, and prevent him from dragging the proud head of the bride in her white gown into sadness. He had to have it—but how?

There it was still at the pawn-broker's, no one would have such a jewel, and the ticket was home in the bureau drawer. Well, he must have it; she might starve in the attempt. Such a thing as going to him and telling him that he might redeem it was an impossibility. That good, straight-backed, stiff-necked Creole blood would have risen in all its strength and choked her. No; as a present had the quaint Roman circlet been placed upon her finger,—as a present should it be returned.[Pg 149]

There it was still at the pawn shop; no one would want such a valuable piece, and the ticket was sitting at home in the drawer. Well, he had to get it back; she might starve trying. There was no way she could go to him and tell him that he could bail it out. That good, upright, stubborn Creole blood would have surged with all its strength and suffocated her. No; it had been given to her as a unique gift, and it should be returned as a gift.[Pg 149]

The bumping car rode heavily, and the hot thoughts beat heavily in her poor little head. He must have the ring—but how—the ring—the Roman ring—the white-robed bride starving—she was going mad—ah yes,—the church.

The bumper car jolted as she felt overwhelmed with racing thoughts in her head. He had to have the ring—but how—the ring—the Roman ring—the bride in white suffering—she was losing her mind—ah yes,—the church.

Right in the busiest, most bustling part of the town, its fresco and bronze and iron quaintly suggestive of mediæval times. Within, all cool and dim and restful, with the faintest whiff of lingering incense rising and pervading the gray arches. Yes, the Virgin would know and have pity; the sweet, white-robed Virgin at the pretty flower-decked altar, or the one away up in the niche, far above the golden dome where the Host was. Holy Mary, Mother of God. Poor little Miss Sophie.

Right in the busiest, most vibrant part of the town, its murals and bronze and iron pieces charmingly hint at medieval times. Inside, it's all cool, dim, and peaceful, with the faintest hint of lingering incense wafting through the gray arches. Yes, the Virgin would understand and feel compassion; the sweet, white-robed Virgin at the lovely flower-adorned altar, or the one high up in the niche, far above the golden dome where the Host was. Holy Mary, Mother of God. Poor little Miss Sophie.

Titiche, the busy-body of the house, noticed that Miss Sophie's bundle was larger than usual that afternoon. "Ah, poor woman!" sighed Titiche's mother, "she would be rich for Christmas."

Titiche, the busybody of the house, noticed that Miss Sophie's bundle was bigger than usual that afternoon. "Oh, poor woman!" Titiche's mother sighed, "She'll be rich by Christmas."

The bundle grew larger each day, and[Pg 150] Miss Sophie grew smaller. The damp, cold rain and mist closed the white-curtained window, but always there behind the sewing machine drooped and bobbed the little black-robed figure. Whirr, whirr went the wheels, and the coarse jean pants piled in great heaps at her side. The Claiborne street car saw her oftener than before, and the sweet, white Virgin in the flowered niche above the gold-domed altar smiled at the little penitent almost every day.

The bundle got bigger every day, and [Pg 150] Miss Sophie got smaller. The damp, chilly rain and mist covered the white-curtained window, but there, behind the sewing machine, the little figure in black still bobbed and swayed. Whirr, whirr went the wheels, and stacks of coarse jean pants piled up beside her. The Claiborne streetcar passed by her more than before, and the sweet, white Virgin in the flowered niche above the gold-domed altar smiled at the little penitent almost every day.

"Ma foi," said the slatternly landlady to Madame Laurent and Michel one day, "I no see how she live! Eat? Nothing, nothing, almost, and las' night when it was so cold and foggy, eh? I hav' to mek him build fire. She mos' freeze."

"Goodness," said the messy landlady to Madame Laurent and Michel one day, "I don't see how she survives! Eating? Hardly anything at all, and last night when it was so cold and foggy, right? I had to make him build a fire. She must be freezing."

Whereupon the rumor spread that Miss Sophie was starving herself to death to get some luckless relative out of jail for Christmas,—a rumor which enveloped her scraggy little figure with a kind of halo to the neighbors when she appeared on the streets.[Pg 151]

Soon, word got around that Miss Sophie was starving herself to death to help some unfortunate relative get out of jail for Christmas—a rumor that gave her frail little figure a sort of halo in the eyes of the neighbors when she walked down the street.[Pg 151]

November had verged into December and the little pile of coins were yet far from the sum needed. Dear God! how the money did have to go. The rent, and the groceries and the coal,—though, to be sure, she used a precious bit of that. All the work and saving and skimping,—maybe, yes, maybe by Christmas. What a gift!

November had turned into December, and the small stack of coins was still far from the amount needed. Dear God! how quickly the money went. The rent, the groceries, and the coal—though, to be fair, she used quite a bit less of that. All the work, saving, and cutting back—maybe, just maybe by Christmas. What a gift!

Christmas Eve night on Royal Street is no place for a weakling, for the shouts and carousals of the roisterers will strike fear into the brave. Yet amid the cries and yells, the deafening blow of horns and tin whistles and the really dangerous fusillade of fireworks, the little figure hurried along, one hand clutching tight the battered hat that the rude merry-makers would have torn off, the other grasping under the thin, black cape a worn little pocketbook.

Christmas Eve night on Royal Street is no place for the faint-hearted, as the shouts and celebrations of the revelers can intimidate even the bold. Yet, amidst the noise and chaos, the loud blasts of horns and tin whistles, and the genuinely perilous barrage of fireworks, the small figure hurried along, one hand gripping tightly to the tattered hat that the rowdy party-goers would have snatched away, while the other hand held tightly beneath the thin black cape a worn little wallet.

Into the Mont de Piete, breathless, eager. The ticket? Here, worn, crumpled. The ring? It was not gone? No, thank Heaven! It was really a joy[Pg 152] well worth her toil, she thought, to have it again.

Into the Mont de Piete, breathless and eager. The ticket? Here, worn and crumpled. The ring? It was still there? No, thank goodness! It was truly a joy[Pg 152] well worth her effort to have it back.

Had Titiche not been shooting crackers on the banquette instead of peering into the crack, as was his wont, his big, round, black eyes would have grown saucer-wide to see little Miss Sophie kiss and fondle a ring, an ugly clumsy band of gold.

Had Titiche not been popping firecrackers on the bench instead of looking through the crack, as he usually did, his big, round, dark eyes would have gone wide as saucers at the sight of little Miss Sophie kissing and caressing a ring, a clunky, unattractive gold band.

"Ah, dear ring," she murmured, once you were his, and you shall be his again. You shall be on his finger, and perhaps touch his heart. Dear ring, ma chere petite, de ma coeur, cheri, de ma coeur. Je t'aime, je t'aime, oui, oui. You are his, you were mine once too. To-night, just one night, I'll keep you—then—tomorrow, where you can save him.

"Ah, dear ring," she whispered, once you were his, and you will be his again. You will be on his finger, and maybe touch his heart. Dear ring, my dear little one, from my heart, sweetheart, from my heart. I love you, I love you, yes, yes. You are his, you were mine once too. Tonight, just one night, I'll keep you—then—tomorrow, where you can save him.

"Ah, the Virgin—she smiles at me because I did right, did I not sweet mother? She smiles—and—I grow—faint—"

"Ah, the Virgin—she smiles at me because I did the right thing, right, sweet mother? She smiles—and—I feel—I’m getting—faint—"

The loud whistles and horns of the little ones rose on the balmy air next morning. No one would doubt it was Christmas Day, even if doors and[Pg 153] windows are open wide to let in cool air.

The loud whistles and horns of the kids filled the warm air the next morning. No one could doubt it was Christmas Day, even with doors and[Pg 153] windows wide open to let in the cool breeze.

Why, there was Christmas even in the very look of the mules on the poky cars; there was Christmas noise in the streets, and Christmas toys and Christmas odors, savory ones that made the nose wrinkle approvingly, issuing from the kitchen. Michel and Mme. Laurent smiled greetings across the street at each other, and the salutation from a passer-by recalled the many progenied landlady to herself.

Why, you could feel Christmas even in the way the mules looked on the cramped cars; there was Christmas noise in the streets, along with Christmas toys and delicious smells coming from the kitchen that made your nose crinkle happily. Michel and Mme. Laurent exchanged smiles across the street, and a greeting from a passerby reminded the landlady of her many children.

"Miss Sophie, well, poor soul, not very much Christmas for her. Mais, I'll just call her in to spend the day with me. It'll cheer her a bit."

"Miss Sophie, well, poor thing, not much Christmas for her. But, I'll just invite her to spend the day with me. It'll brighten her mood a bit."

So clean and orderly within the poor little room. Not a speck of dust or a litter of any kind on the quaint little old-time high bureau, unless you might except a sheet of paper lying loose with something written on it. Titiche had evidently inherited his prying propensities for the landlady turned it over and read:

So clean and tidy in the tiny room. Not a speck of dust or any clutter on the charming old-fashioned high dresser, except for a loose sheet of paper with something written on it. Titiche had clearly inherited his curious nature, as the landlady turned it over and read:

"Louis. Here is the ring. I return[Pg 154] it to you. I heard you needed it, I hope it comes not too late. Sophie."

"Louis, here's the ring. I'm returning it to you[Pg 154]. I heard you needed it, and I hope it's not too late. Sophie."

"The ring, where?" muttered the landlady. There it was, clasped between her fingers on her bosom. A bosom, white and cold, under a cold, happy face. Christmas had indeed dawned for Miss Sophie—the eternal Christmas.

"The ring, where?" murmured the landlady. There it was, held between her fingers against her chest. A chest, pale and cold, beneath a cold, cheerful face. Christmas had truly arrived for Miss Sophie—the never-ending Christmas.


IF I HAD KNOWN.

If I had known
Two years ago how drear this life should be,
And crowd upon itself allstrangely sad,
Mayhap another song would burst from out my lips,
Overflowing with the happiness of future hopes;
Mayhap another throb than that of joy.
Have stirred my soul into its inmost depths,
[Pg 155]If I had known.

If I had known,
Two years ago the impotence of love,
The vainness of a kiss, how barren a caress,
Mayhap my soul to higher things have soarn,
Nor clung to earthly loves and tender dreams,
But ever up aloft into the blue empyrean,
And there to master all the world of mind,
If I had known.

If I'd known
Two years ago, this life felt so bleak,
And how it would all become strangely sad,
Maybe another song would have come to my lips,
Filled with the excitement of future possibilities;
Maybe other emotions besides just happiness.
Would have stirred my soul to its core,
[Pg 155]If I had known.

If I had known,
Two years ago, the helplessness of love,
The emptiness of a kiss, how pointless a touch,
Maybe my soul would have risen to greater heights,
And not held on to earthly loves and delicate dreams,
But always up high in the blue sky,
And there to master the entire realm of ideas,
If I had known.


CHALMETLE.

Wreaths of lilies and immortelles,
Scattered upon each silent mound,
Voices in loving remembrance swell,
Chanting to heaven the solemn sound.
Glad skies above, and glad earth beneath;
And grateful hearts who silently
[Pg 156]Gather earth's flowers, and tenderly wreath
Woman's sweet token of fragility.

Ah, the noble forms who fought so well
Lie, some unnamed, 'neath the grassy mound;
Heroes, brave heroes, the stories tell,
Silently too, the unmarked mounds,
Tenderly wreath them about with flowers,
Joyously pour out your praises loud;
For every joy beat in these hearts of ours
Is only a drawing us nearer to God.

Little enough is the song we sing,
Little enough is the tale we tell,
When we think of the voices who erst did ring
Ere their owners in smoke of battle fell.
Little enough are the flowers we cull
To scatter afar on the grass-grown graves,
When we think of bright eyes, now dimmed and dull
For the cause they loyally strove to save.

[Pg 157]And they fought right well, did these brave men,
For their banner still floats unto the breeze,
And the pæans of ages forever shall tell
Their glorious tale beyond the seas.
Ring out your voices in praises loud,
Sing sweet your notes of music gay,
Tell me in all you loyal crowd
Throbs there a heart unmoved to-day?

Meeting together again this year,
As met we in fealty and love before;
Men, maids, and matrons to reverently hear
Praises of brave men who fought of yore.
Tell to the little ones with wondering eyes,
The tale of the flag that floats so free;
Till their tiny voices shall merrily rise
In hymns of rejoicing and praises to Thee.

Many a pure and noble heart
Lies under the sod, all covered with green;
Many a soul that had felt the smart
[Pg 158]Of life's sad torture, or mayhap had seen
The faint hope of love pass afar from the sight,
Like swift flight of bird to a rarer clime
Many a youth whose death caused the blight
Of tender hearts in that long, sad time.

Nay, but this is no hour for sorrow;
They died at their duty, shall we repine?
Let us gaze hopefully on to the morrow
Praying that our lives thus shall shine.
Ring out your bugles, sound out your cheers!
Man has been God-like so may we be.
Give cheering thanks, there dry up those tears,
Widowed and orphaned, the country is free!

Wreathes of lillies and immortelles,
Scattered upon each silent mound,
Voices in loving remembrance swell,
Chanting to heaven the solemn sound,
Glad skies above, and glad earth beneath,
And grateful hearts who silently
Gather earth's flowers, and tenderly wreath
Woman's sweet token of fragility.
[Pg 159]

Wreaths of lilies and dried flowers,
Scattered on every quiet grave,
Voices in loving memory rise,
Chanting a solemn sound to the heavens.
Bright skies overhead and a happy earth below;
And grateful hearts who quietly
[Pg 156]Collect earth's flowers and carefully arrange
A gentle reminder of women's vulnerability.

Ah, the brave souls who fought with such honor.
Lie, some unnamed, beneath the grassy hills;
Heroes, brave heroes, the stories tell,
Silently too, the unmarked graves,
Surround them gently with flowers,
Joyfully shout your praises loud;
For every joy that lives in our hearts
It's just bringing us closer to God.

Our song is so short,
Our story is so short,
When we think about the voices that used to echo
Before their owners were engulfed in the smoke of battle.
Our flowers are limited
To scatter on the grass-covered graves,
When we think of bright eyes, now dull and lifeless,
They fought so loyally to protect the cause.

[Pg 157]And they fought bravely, these courageous men,
For their flag still waves in the wind,
And the songs of the ages will always tell
Their incredible journey across the seas.
Lift your voices in joyful praise,
Sing your joyful songs sweetly,
Tell me, you loyal crowd
Is there anyone whose heart isn't touched today?

Meeting again this year,
As we gathered in loyalty and love before;
Men, women, and children are encouraged to listen respectfully.
Praise for the brave men who fought in the past.
Tell the kids with curious eyes,
The story of the flag that waves so freely;
Until their small voices happily rise
In songs that celebrate and honor You.

Many kind and noble hearts
Lie under the ground, all covered in green;
Many souls that experienced the sting
[Pg 158]Of life's sorrowful pains, or maybe had witnessed
The faint hope of love slipped out of sight,
Like a bird quickly flying to a faraway place;
Many young lives whose deaths led to grief.
Of gentle hearts during that long, sorrowful period.

But this isn't a time for sadness;
They died fulfilling their duty; should we mourn?
Let's look to tomorrow with hope.
I hope our lives will shine like theirs.
Blow your trumpets, cheer loudly!
Humans have been like gods, so we might be as well.
Give thanks, wipe away those tears,
Widowed and orphaned, the nation is free!

Wreaths made of lilies and everlasting flowers,
Scattered on each silent grave,
Voices in loving memory rise,
Chanting a serious sound up to the heavens,
Bright skies above and a joyful earth below,
And thankful hearts that quietly
Collect the earth's flowers and carefully make
A gentle reminder of women's vulnerability.
[Pg 159]


AT EVENTIDE.

All day had she watched and waited for his coming, and still her strained ears caught no sounds of the footsteps she loved and longed to hear. All day while the great sun panted on his way around the brazen skies; all day while the busy world throbbed its mighty engines of labor, nor witted of the breaking hearts in its midst. And now when the eve had come, and the sun sank slowly to rest, casting his red rays over the earth he loved, and bidding tired nature a gentle radiant good-night, she still watched and waited. Waited while the young moon shone silvery in the crimson flush of the eastern sky, while the one bright star trembled as he strove to near his love; waited while the hum of soul-wearing traffic died in the distant streets, and the merry voices of happy children floated to her ears.[Pg 160]

All day she had watched and waited for him to arrive, yet her eager ears picked up no sounds of the footsteps she adored and longed to hear. All day while the fierce sun moved across the bright sky; all day while the bustling world ran its powerful engines of work, unaware of the shattered hearts around it. And now that evening had come, and the sun slowly set, casting its red rays over the earth it cherished and wishing tired nature a gentle, glowing good-night, she still watched and waited. She waited while the young moon shone silver in the pink glow of the eastern sky, while the one bright star flickered as it tried to approach its love; she waited while the noise of draining traffic faded in the distant streets, and the joyful voices of happy children drifted to her ears.[Pg 160]

And still he came not. What kept him from her side? Had he learned the cold lesson of self-control, or found one other thing more potent than love? Had some cruel chain of circumstances forced him to disobey her bidding—or—did he love another? But no, she smiles triumphantly, he could not having known and loved her.

And still he didn't come. What was keeping him away from her? Had he learned the harsh lesson of self-control, or found something stronger than love? Had some cruel twist of fate made it impossible for him to follow her wishes—or—did he love someone else? But no, she smiles in triumph; he couldn't have known and loved her.

Sitting in the deep imbrasure of the window through which the distant wave sounds of city life floated to her, the pages of her life seemed to turn back, and she read the almost forgotten tale of long ago, the story of their love. In those days his wish had been her law; his smile her sun; his frown her wretchedness. Within his arms, earth seemed a far-away dream of empty nothingness, and when his lips touched and clung to hers, sweet with the perfume of the South they floated away into a Paradise of enfolding space, where Time and Death and the woes of this great earth are naught, only these two—and love, the[Pg 161] almighty.

Sitting in the deep recess of the window, where the distant sounds of city life drifted to her, the chapters of her life seemed to rewind, and she read the nearly forgotten story of long ago, the tale of their love. Back then, his wishes were her commands; his smile was her sunshine; his frown brought her misery. In his arms, the world felt like a distant dream of emptiness, and when his lips met and lingered on hers, sweet with the scent of the South, they drifted away into a Paradise of boundless space, where Time and Death and the troubles of this vast earth vanished, leaving just the two of them—and love, the[Pg 161] all-powerful.

And so their happiness drifted slowly across the sea of Time until it struck a cruel rock, whose sharp teeth showed not above the dimpled waves; and where once had been a craft of strength and beauty, now was only a hideous wreck. For the Tempter had come into this Eden, and soon his foul whisper found place in her heart.

And so their happiness slowly floated across the sea of time until it hit a cruel rock, its sharp edges hidden beneath the smooth waves; and where there had once been a strong and beautiful vessel, there was now just a horrible wreck. For the Tempter had entered this paradise, and soon his disgusting whisper took hold in her heart.

And the Tempter's name was Ambition.

And the Tempter's name was Ambition.

Often had the praises and plaudits of men rang in her ears when her sweet voice sang to her chosen friends, often had the tears evoked by her songs of love and hope and trust, thrilled her breast faintly, as the young bird stirs in its nest under the loving mother's wing, but he had clasped his arms around her, and that was enough. But one day the Tempter whispered, "Why waste such talent; bring that beauty of voice before the world and see men bow in homage, and women envy and praise. Come[Pg 162] forth and follow me."

Often, the praises and compliments of people had echoed in her ears when her sweet voice sang to her close friends. The tears her songs of love, hope, and trust brought forth thrilled her heart, much like how a young bird stirs in its nest beneath its mother’s loving wing, but when he wrapped his arms around her, that was enough. Then one day, the Tempter whispered, "Why waste such talent? Share that beautiful voice with the world and watch as men bow down in admiration and women feel envy and praise. Come[Pg 162] forth and follow me."

But she put him fiercely aside, and cried, "I want no homage but his, I want no envy from any one."

But she pushed him away fiercely and shouted, "I want no admiration but his, I don’t want anyone's jealousy."

Still the whisper stayed in her heart, nor would the honeyed words of praise be gone, even when he kissed her, and thanked the gods for this pearl of great price.

Still, the whisper lingered in her heart, and the sweet words of praise wouldn't fade, even when he kissed her and thanked the gods for this precious gem.

Then as time fled on, the tiny whisper grew into a great roar, and all the praise of men, and the sweet words of women, filled her brain, and what had once been her aversion became a great desire, and caused her brow to grow thoughtful, and her eyes moody.

Then, as time went by, the quiet whisper turned into a loud roar, and all the compliments from men and the sweet words from women filled her mind. What she had once disliked became a strong desire, making her brow furrow in thought and her eyes melancholic.

But when she spoke to him of this new love, he smiled and said, "My wife must be mine, and mine alone. I want not a woman whom the world claims, and shouts her name abroad. My wife and my home must be inviolate." And again as of yore, his wish controlled her—but only for a while.

But when she talked to him about this new love, he smiled and said, "My wife must be mine, and mine alone. I don't want a woman who belongs to the world, whose name is shouted out loud. My wife and my home must remain untouched." And once again, like before, his wish influenced her—but only for a little while.

Then the tiny whisper grown into the[Pg 163] great roar urging her on, became a mighty wind which drove her before it, nor could she turn aside from the path of ambition, but swept on, and conquered.

Then the small whisper turned into a[Pg 163] loud roar pushing her forward, becoming a strong wind that propelled her along, and she couldn’t veer off the path of ambition, but continued on and triumphed.

Ah, sweet, sweet the exultation of the victor! Dear the plaudits of the admiring world; wild the joy, when queen of song, admired of men, she stood upon the pinnacle of fame! And he? True to his old convictions, turned sadly from the woman who placed the admiration of the world before his love and the happiness of his home—and went out from her life broken-hearted, disappointed, miserable.

Ah, sweet, sweet is the joy of the winner! The praise from the admiring crowd is precious; the exhilaration is wild when she, the queen of song, celebrated by everyone, stands at the height of her fame! And he? Staying true to his old beliefs, he sadly turned away from the woman who prioritized the world's admiration over his love and the happiness of their home—and left her life, heartbroken, disappointed, and miserable.

All these things, and more, she thought upon in the first flush of eventide, as the bold, young star climbed toward his lady-love, the moon, all these things, and what had come to pass after the victory.

All these things, and more, she thought about in the early evening light, as the bright, young star rose to meet his beloved, the moon, all these things, and what had happened after the victory.

For there came a day when the world wearied of its toy, and turned with shouts of joy, and wreaths of fresh laurels for the new star. Then came disappoint[Pg 164]ments and miseries crowding fast upon her; the sorrows which a loving heart knows when it finds its idols faithless. Then the love for him which she had once repressed arose in all its strength which had gained during the long struggle with the world, arose and overwhelmed her with its might, and filled her soul with an unutterable longing for peace and rest and him.

For there came a day when the world grew tired of its toy and turned with cheers and fresh laurels for the new star. Then came disappointments and hardships rushing in; the sorrows that a loving heart feels when it discovers its idols are unfaithful. Then the love for him that she had once kept hidden surged back in all its strength, strengthened by her long struggle with the world, overwhelming her with its power and filling her soul with an indescribable longing for peace, rest, and him.

She wrote to him and told him all her heart, and begged of him to come back to her, for Fame was but an empty bubble while love was supreme and the only happiness, after all. And now she waited while the crimson and gold of the west grew dark, and gray and lowering.

She wrote to him and poured out her heart, begging him to come back to her because fame was just an empty bubble while love was everything and the only real happiness, anyway. And now she waited as the red and gold of the sunset faded into darkness and gloom.

Hark! She hears his loved step. He comes, ah, joy of heaven he comes! Soon will he clasp her in his arms, and there on his bosom shall she know peace and rest and love.

Listen! She hears his beloved footsteps. He’s coming, oh, joy of joys, he’s coming! Soon he will hold her in his arms, and there on his chest, she will find peace, rest, and love.

As he enters the door she hastens to meet him, the love-light shining in her tired eyes, her soft rounded arms out[Pg 165]stretched to meet him. But he folds her not in his embrace, nor yet does he look with love into her upturned eyes; the voice she loves, ah so well, breaks upon the dusky silence, pitiless, stern.

As he walks in, she rushes to greet him, the light of love sparkling in her tired eyes, her soft, rounded arms outstretched to welcome him. But he doesn’t wrap her in his embrace, nor does he gaze lovingly into her upturned eyes; the voice she adores so much cuts through the quiet darkness, harsh and unforgiving.

"Most faithless of faithless women, think you that like the toy of a fickle child I can be thrown aside, then picked up again? Think you that I can take a soiled lily to my bosom? Think you that I can cherish the gaudy sun-flower that ever turns to the broad, brazen glare of the uncaring sun, rather than the modest shrinking violet? Nay, be not deceived, I loved you once, but that love you killed in its youth and beauty leaving me to stand and weep alone over its grave. I came to-night, not to kiss you, and to forgive you as you entreat, but to tell that you I have wed another."

"Most disloyal of disloyal women, do you think I can be tossed aside like a child’s toy, only to be picked up again? Do you think I can embrace a tarnished lily? Do you think I can cherish the flashy sunflower that always turns to the harsh, bright light of the indifferent sun, instead of the modest, timid violet? No, don’t be fooled. I loved you once, but you killed that love in its youth and beauty, leaving me to stand alone, crying over its grave. I came tonight, not to kiss you or to forgive you as you ask, but to tell you that I have married someone else."

The pitiless voice ceased, and she was alone in the dusky silence; alone in all the shame and agony and grief of unrequited love and worthless fame. Alone to writhe and groan in despair while the[Pg 166] roseate flush of eventide passed into the coldness of midnight.

The harsh voice stopped, and she was left in the dim silence; alone with all the shame and pain and sorrow of unreturned love and meaningless fame. Alone to twist and moan in despair as the[Pg 166] pink glow of evening faded into the chill of midnight.

Oh faithless woman, oh, faithless man! How frail the memory of thy binding vows, thy blissful hours of love! Are they forgotten? Only the record of broken hearts and loveless lives will show.

Oh unfaithful woman, oh, unfaithful man! How weak the memory of your promised vows, your happy moments of love! Have they been forgotten? Only the stories of broken hearts and empty lives will reveal the truth.


THE IDLER.

An idle lingerer on the wayside's road,
He gathers up his work and yawns away;
A little longer, ere the tiresome load
Shall be reduced to ashes or to clay.

No matter if the world has marched along,
And scorned his slowness as it quickly passed;
No matter, if amid the busy throng,
[Pg 167]He greets some face, infantile at the last.

His mission? Well, there is but one,
And if it is a mission he knows it, nay,
To be a happy idler, to lounge and sun,
And dreaming, pass his long-drawn days away.

So dreams he on, his happy life to pass
Content, without ambitions painful sighs,
Until the sands run down into the glass;
He smiles—content—unmoved and dies.

And yet, with all the pity that you feel
For this poor mothling of that flame, the world;
Are you the better for your desperate deal,
When you, like him, into infinitude are hurled?
[Pg 168]

A lazy person chilling by the road,
He collects his thoughts and yawns it off;
Just a bit longer, before the heavy burden
Turns to ashes or clay.

It doesn't matter if the world has changed,
And looked down at his slow pace as it rushed by;
It doesn't matter if you’re in a busy crowd,
[Pg 167]He still greets a familiar face, finally free of innocence.

His purpose? Well, there's only one,
And if there’s a reason, he knows it, for sure,
To be a carefree slacker, relaxing in the sun,
And daydream as he lets the hours slip away.

So he keeps dreaming, enjoying his happy life.
Content, free from the weight of striving sighs,
Until the sand runs out of the hourglass;
He smiles—happy—unchanged, and dies.

And yet, despite all the sympathy you feel
For this unfortunate person trapped in the world's fire;
Are you any better off for your desperate deal,
When you, like him, are thrown into the same situation?
[Pg 168]


LOVE AND THE BUTTERFLY.

I heard a merry voice one day
And glancing at my side,
Fair Love, all breathless, flushed with play,
A butterfly did ride.
"Whither away, oh sportive boy?"
I asked, he tossed his head;
Laughing aloud for purest joy,
And past me swiftly sped.

Next day I heard a plaintive cry
And Love crept in my arms;
Weeping he held the butterfly,
Devoid of all its charms.
Sweet words of comfort, whispered I
Into his dainty ears,
But Love still hugged the butterfly,
And bathed its wounds with tears.
[Pg 169]

One day, I heard a happy voice.
And glanced to my side,
Lovely Love, out of breath and blushing from playing,
A butterfly flew by.
"Where are you going, oh playful boy?"
I asked, and he shrugged.
Laughing out loud with pure happiness,
And quickly zipped past me instead.

The next day I heard a sad cry.
And love slipped into my arms;
Crying, he held the butterfly,
Missing all its charms.
I gently shared comforting words.
In his sensitive ears,
But Love still held the butterfly close,
And washed its wounds with tears.
[Pg 169]


THE BEE-MAN.

We were glancing over the mental photograph album, and commenting on the great lack of dissimilarity in tastes. Nearly every one preferred spring to any other season, with a very few exceptions in favor of autumn. The women loved Mrs. Browning and Longfellow; the men showed decided preferences after Emerson and Macauley. Conceit stuck out when the majority wanted to be themselves and none other, and only two did not want to live in the 19th century. But in one place, in answer to the question, "Whom would you rather be, if not yourself?" the answer was,

We were looking through our mental scrapbook and pointing out how similar everyone's tastes were. Almost everyone preferred spring over any other season, with a few exceptions for autumn. The women loved Mrs. Browning and Longfellow, while the men showed a clear preference for Emerson and Macaulay. There was a bit of ego on display when most wanted to be themselves and no one else, with only two people not wanting to live in the 19th century. But in one instance, when asked, "Who would you rather be, if not yourself?" the answer was,

"A baby!"

"A baby!"

"Why would you rather be a baby than any other personage?" queried someone glancing at the writer, who blushed as she replied.

"Why would you prefer to be a baby instead of anyone else?" asked someone looking at the writer, who blushed as she answered.

"Because then I might be able to live a better life, I might have better oppor[Pg 170]tunities and better chances for improving them, and it would bring me nearer the 20th century."

"Because then I could live a better life, I might have better opportunities and more chances to improve them, and it would bring me closer to the 20th century."

"About eight or nine years ago," said the first speaker, "I remember reading a story in a magazine for young folks. It was merely a fairy story, and perhaps was not intended to point a moral, but only to amuse the little ones. It was something on this order:—"

"About eight or nine years ago," said the first speaker, "I remember reading a story in a magazine for kids. It was just a fairy tale, and maybe it wasn't meant to teach a lesson, but just to entertain the little ones. It was something like this:—"

Once upon a time, there lived in an out of the way spot an ancient decrepit Bee-man. How old he was no one knew; whence he came, no one could tell: to the memory of the oldest inhabitant he had always lived in his dirty hut, surrounded by myriads of hives, attended always by a swarm of bees. He was good to the bits of children, and always ready with a sweet morsel of honeycomb for them. All his ambitions, sympathies and hopes were centered in his hives; until one day a fairy crept into his hut and whispered:

Once upon a time, in a remote location, there lived an old, run-down Bee-man. No one knew how old he was or where he came from; according to the oldest resident, he had always been in his filthy hut, surrounded by countless hives and always accompanied by a swarm of bees. He was kind to the local children and always had a piece of honeycomb to share with them. All his dreams, feelings, and hopes revolved around his hives; until one day, a fairy slipped into his hut and whispered:

"You have not always been a common[Pg 171] bee-man. Once you were something else."

"You haven't always been an ordinary[Pg 171] bee guy. There was a time when you were someone different."

"Tell me what I was," he asked eagerly.

"Tell me what I used to be," he asked eagerly.

"Nay, that I cannot do," replied the fairy, "our queen sent me to tell you this, and if you wished to search for your former self, I am to assist you. You must search the entire valley, and the first thing you meet to which you become violently attached, that is what you formerly were, and I shall give you back your correct form."

"Sorry, but I can’t do that," the fairy replied. "Our queen sent me to tell you this, and if you want to find your old self, I'm here to help. You need to search the whole valley, and the first thing you come across that you feel a strong attachment to—that's who you used to be, and I'll give you your true form back."

So the next morning the Bee-man, strapping his usual hive upon his back, and accompanied by the fairy in the form of a queen bee, set out upon his search throughout the valley. At first he became violently attached to the handsome person and fine castle of the Lord of the Realm, but on being kicked out of the lord's domains, his love turned to dislike.

So the next morning, the Bee-man strapped on his usual hive, with the fairy in the shape of a queen bee by his side, and set out to search the valley. Initially, he became very fond of the Lord of the Realm's handsome appearance and fine castle, but after being thrown out of the lord's territory, his affection turned to dislike.

The Bee-man and the fairy travelled far and wide and carefully inspected every thing they met. The very Imp, the Languid young man, the Hippogriffith,[Pg 172] the Thousand Tailed Hippopotamus, and many other types, until the Bee-man grew weary and was about to give up the search in disgust.

The Bee-man and the fairy traveled far and wide, carefully checking out everything they encountered. The Imp, the lazy young man, the Hippogriff, the Thousand-Tailed Hippopotamus, and many other creatures, until the Bee-man grew tired and was ready to give up the search in frustration.

But suddenly amid all the vast halls of the enchanted domains through which they were wandering, there sounded shrieks and wails, and the inmates were thrown into the greatest confusion by the sight of the hideous hippogriffith dashing through, a million sparks emanating from his great eyes, his barbed tail waving high in the air, and holding in his talons a tiny infant.

But suddenly, in the midst of all the vast halls of the enchanted lands they were exploring, there were screams and cries, and the residents were thrown into total chaos by the sight of the scary hippogriff charging through, a million sparks flying from his huge eyes, his spiked tail held high, and clutching a tiny baby in his claws.

Now, as soon as the Bee-man saw this, a great wave of sorrow and pity filled his breast, and he hastily followed the monster, arriving at his cave just in time to see him preparing to devour his prey. Madly dashing his hive of bees into the hippogriffith's face, and seizing the infant while the disturbed and angry bees stung and swarmed, the Bee-man rushed out followed by the Very Imp, the Languid young man and the fairy, and made[Pg 173] his way to the child's mother. Just as soon as the baby was safely restored, the Bee-man ruminated thoughtfully awhile and finally remarked to the fairy:

Now, as soon as the Bee-man saw this, a wave of sorrow and pity washed over him, and he quickly followed the monster, arriving at its cave just in time to see it getting ready to eat its prey. Frantically throwing his hive of bees at the hippogriff's face and grabbing the baby while the agitated bees stung and swarmed around him, the Bee-man rushed out, followed by the Very Imp, the Languid young man, and the fairy, and made[Pg 173] his way to the child's mother. Once the baby was safely returned, the Bee-man thought for a moment and finally said to the fairy:

"Do you know of all the things I have met so far, I liked the baby best of all, so I think I must have been a baby once!"

"Out of everything I've encountered so far, I liked the baby the most, so I guess I must have been a baby once!"

"Right you are," assented the fairy, "I knew it before, but, of course, I couldn't tell. Now I shall change you into your former shape, but remember, you must try to be something better than a Bee-man."

"You're right," agreed the fairy, "I knew it before, but I couldn’t say anything. Now I’ll change you back to your original form, but remember, you need to strive to be more than just a Bee-man."

The Bee-man promised and was instantly changed into a baby. The fairy inoculated him from harm with a bee-sting, and gave him to the rescued infant's mother.

The Bee-man promised and was immediately transformed into a baby. The fairy protected him from harm with a bee sting and handed him over to the rescued baby's mother.

Nearly a cycle passed by, and one day the fairy having business in the valley, thought she would make inquiries concerning her protege. In her way she happened to pass a little, low, curious hut, with many bee hives about it, and[Pg 174] swarms of bees flying in and out. The fairy, tired as well as curious, peeped in and discovered an ancient man attending to the wants of his pets. Upon a closer inspection, she recognized her infant of years ago. He had become a bee-man again!

Nearly a cycle went by, and one day the fairy, having business in the valley, decided to check in on her protege. As she traveled, she passed a small, low, quirky hut surrounded by many beehives, with swarms of bees buzzing in and out. The fairy, both tired and curious, peeked inside and found an old man tending to the needs of his bees. Upon a closer look, she recognized her little one from years ago. He had become a bee keeper again!


"It points a pretty little moral," said the Fatalist, "for it certainly proves that do what we will, we cannot get away from our natures. It was inherent in that man's nature to tend bees. Bee-ing was the occupation chosen for him by Fate, and had the beneficent Fairy changed him a dozen times, he would ultimately have gone to bee-ing in some form or other."

"It carries a nice little lesson," said the Fatalist, "because it clearly shows that no matter what we do, we can't escape our true nature. It was built into that man's character to keep bees. Beekeeping was the path that Fate chose for him, and even if the kind Fairy had transformed him a dozen times, he would have ended up doing some form of beekeeping anyway."

The Fatalist was doubtless right, for it seems as though the inherent things in our nature must come out. But if we want to dig deep into the child's story for metaphysical morals, does it not also uphold the theory of re-incarnation? the ancient bee-man, perhaps is but a type[Pg 175] of humanity growing old, and settled in its mode of living, while the fairy is but thought, whispering into our souls things half dread half pleasant.

The Fatalist was definitely right, because it seems like the fundamental parts of our nature always come to light. But if we want to explore the child's story for deeper meanings, doesn't it also support the idea of reincarnation? The ancient bee-man might just represent humanity getting older and settling into its way of life, while the fairy is simply a thought, quietly nudging our souls with ideas that are both frightening and sweet. [Pg 175]

There are moments when the consciousness of a former life comes sharply upon us, in swift, lightning flashes, too sudden to be tangible, too dazzling to leave an impress, or mayhap, in troubled dreams that bewilder and confuse with vague remembrances. If only a burst of memory would come upon some mortal, that the tale might be fully told, and these theories established as facts. It would unfold great possibilities of historical lore; of literary life; of religious speculation.[Pg 176]

There are times when we suddenly become aware of a past life, in quick, lightning-like flashes that are too brief to grasp, too bright to leave a mark, or perhaps in restless dreams that perplex us with unclear memories. If only someone could experience a surge of memory so that the story could be completely told and these theories could be confirmed as facts. It would reveal amazing possibilities in history, literature, and religious thought.[Pg 176]


AMID THE ROSES.

There is tropical warmth and languorous life
Where the roses lie
In a tempting drift
Of pink and red and golden light
Untouched as yet by the pruning knife.
And the still, warm life of the roses fair
That whisper "Come,"
With promises
Of sweet caresses, close and pure
Has a thorny whiff in the perfumed air.
There are thorns and love in the roses' bed,
And Satan too
Must linger there;
So Satan's wiles and the conscience stings,
Must now abide—the roses are dead.
[Pg 177]

There's a warm tropical vibe and a laid-back lifestyle.
Where the roses are buried
In an enticing display
Of pink, red, and gold light
Untouched so far by the pruning shears.
And the peaceful, warm life of the beautiful roses
That softly says "Come,"
With commitments
Of sweet, close, and pure hugs
There's a sharp note in the fragrant air.
There are thorns and love in the rose garden,
And the devil too
Must stay there;
So Satan's deceit and the pangs of conscience,
Must now remain—the roses are dead.
[Pg 177]

 

 



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