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THE WORKS OF ROBERT LOUIS STEVENSON
SWANSTON EDITION
VOLUME I
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THE WORKS OF ROBERT LOUIS STEVENSON
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CONTENTS
- PAGE
- Introduction to the Swanston Edition
- Dedication
- Preface to the First Edition
- Antwerp to Boom7
- On the Willebroek Canal11
- The Royal Sport Nautique16
- At Maubeuge21
- On the Sambre Canalized: To Quartes26
- Pont-sur-Sambre:
- We Are Vendors31
- The Traveling Merchant36
- On the Sambre Canal: To Landrecies41
- At Landrecies46
- Sambre and Oise Canal: Canal Boats50
- The Oise in Flood55
- Origny Sainte-Benoîte:
- A Rest Day62
- The Company at the Table68
- Down the Oise: To Moy74
- La Fère: A Cursed Memory79
- Down the Oise: Through the Golden Valley84
- Noyon Cathedral86
- Down the Oise: To Compiègne91
- At Compiègne94
- Changing Times99
- Down The Oise: Church Interiors105
- Précy and the Puppets111
- Back to the World120
- Epilogue122
- VELAY
- The Donkey, The Load, and the Saddle143
- The Green Taxi Driver149
- I have a stick.158
- UPPER GÉVAUDAN
- A Camp in the Dark167
- Cheylard and Luc177
- OUR LADY OF THE SNOWS
- Father Apollinaris183
- The Monks188
- The Roommates195
- UPPER GÉVAUDAN (continued)
- Across the Goulet203
- A Night in the Pines206
- THE COUNTRY OF THE CAMISARDS
- Across Lozère213
- Pont de Montvert218
- In the Valley of the Tarn224
- Florac234
- In the Valley of the Mimente237
- The Heart of the Nation241
- The Final Day248
- Goodbye, Modestine!253
- CHAPTER
- I. Introduction271
- II. Old Town: The Territories278
- III. Parliament Square285
- IV. Myths291
- V. Greyfriars298
- VI. New Town: City and Country305
- VII. The Villa Apartments311
- VIII. Calton Hill314
- IX. Winter and New Year’s320
- X. To the Pentland Hills327
INTRODUCTION TO THE SWANSTON EDITION
So much has been written on R. L. Stevenson, as a boy, a man, and a man of letters, so much has been written both by himself and others, that I can hope to add nothing essential to the world's knowledge of his character and appreciation of his genius. What is essential has been said, once for all, by Sir Sidney Colvin in "Notes and Introductions" to R. L. S.'s "Letters to His Family and Friends." I can but contribute the personal views of one who knew, loved, and esteemed his junior that is already a classic; but who never was of the inner circle of his intimates. We shared, however, a common appreciation of his genius, for he was not so dull as to suppose, or so absurd as to pretend to suppose, that much of his work was not excellent. His tale "Thrawn Janet" "is good," he says in a letter, with less vigour than but with as much truth as Thackeray exclaiming "that's genius," when he describes Becky's admiration of Rawdon's treatment of Lord Steyne, in the affray in Curzon Street. About the work of other men and novelists, or poets, we were almost invariably of the same mind; we were of one mind about the great Charles Gordon. "He was filled," too, "with enthusiasm for Joan of Arc," says his biographer, "a devotion, and also a cool headed admiration, which he never lost." In a letter he quotes Byron as having said that Jeanne "was a fanatical strumpet," and he cries shame on the noble poet. He projected an essay on the Blessed Maid, which is not in "the veniable part of things lost."
So much has been written about R. L. Stevenson, both as a boy and as an adult, and so much has come from him and others, that I honestly doubt I can add anything essential to what is already known about his character and the appreciation of his talent. What really matters has already been said once and for all by Sir Sidney Colvin in "Notes and Introductions" to R. L. S.'s "Letters to His Family and Friends." All I can offer are my personal thoughts as someone who knew, loved, and respected him, even though I wasn’t part of his close circle. Still, we shared a mutual appreciation for his talent; he wasn't so ignorant to think, or so ridiculous as to pretend, that much of his work wasn’t excellent. In a letter, he described his story "Thrawn Janet" as “good,” with less enthusiasm but just as much truth as Thackeray's exclamation of "that's genius" when he talks about Becky’s admiration for Rawdon’s handling of Lord Steyne during the fight in Curzon Street. When it came to the work of other writers, whether they were novelists or poets, we usually agreed. We were also aligned in our views about the great Charles Gordon. His biographer says, "He was filled with enthusiasm for Joan of Arc," describing a devotion and a clear-headed admiration that he never lost. In a letter, he quotes Byron saying that Jeanne "was a fanatical strumpet," and he expresses shame for the esteemed poet. He intended to write an essay on the Blessed Maid, which hasn’t been lost to history.
Thus we were so much of the same sentiments, in so many ways, that I can hope to speak with sympathy, if not always with complete understanding, of Stevenson. Like a true Scot, he was interested in his ancestry, his heredity; regarding Robert Fergusson, the young Scottish poet, who died so young, in an asylum, as his spiritual forefather, and hoping to attach himself to a branch of the Royal Clan Alpine, the MacGregors, as the root of the Stevensons. Of Fergusson, he had, in early youth, the waywardness, the liking for taverns and tavern talk, the half-rueful appreciation of the old closes and wynds of Old Edinburgh, a touch of the recklessness and more than all the pictorial power which, in Fergusson, Burns so magnanimously admired.
We shared many of the same feelings in various ways, so I can hope to talk about Stevenson with sympathy, even if I don’t always fully understand him. Like any true Scot, he was interested in his roots and heritage. He looked up to Robert Fergusson, the young Scottish poet who died too soon in an asylum, as his spiritual ancestor. He also hoped to connect himself to the MacGregors, a branch of the Royal Clan Alpine, as the origin of the Stevensons. In his youth, he exhibited Fergusson’s waywardness, a fondness for pubs and pub talk, a bittersweet appreciation for the old alleys and streets of Old Edinburgh, a bit of recklessness, and above all, the vivid imagery that Burns so generously admired in Fergusson.
But genealogical research shows that Stevenson drew nothing from the dispossessed MacGregors, a clan greatly wronged, from Robert Bruce's day, and greatly given to wronging others. Alan Breck did not like "the Gregara," apart from their courage, and in Alan's day they were not consistent walkers.
But genealogical research shows that Stevenson took nothing from the dispossessed MacGregors, a clan that was seriously wronged since the time of Robert Bruce and was known for wronging others as well. Alan Breck didn't have a favorable view of "the Gregara," except for their bravery, and during Alan's time, they weren't reliable walkers.
Stevenson, as far as one can learn, had no Celtic blood; none, at least, of traceable infusion: he was more purely Lowland than Sir Walter Scott. His paternal line could be traced back to a West Country Stevenson of 1675; probably a tenant farmer, who was contemporary with the Whig rising at Bothwell Bridge, with the murder of Archbishop Sharp, with Claverhouse, and Sir George Mackenzie, called "the bluidy Advocate." An earnest student of Mr. Wodrow's "History of the Sufferings," Louis did not find "James Stevenson in Nether Carsewell" among the many martyrs who live in the Libre d'Or of the Remnant. But he had "a Covenanting childhood;" his father, Mr. Thomas Stevenson, was loyal to the positions of John Knox (the theological positions); and, brought up in these, Louis had a taste, when the tenets of Calvin ceased to convince his reason, of what non-Covenanters endured at the hands of the godly in their day of power.
Stevenson, as far as anyone can tell, had no Celtic ancestry; none that could be traced, at least: he was more purely Lowland than Sir Walter Scott. His family line could be traced back to a West Country Stevenson from 1675; likely a tenant farmer who lived through the Whig rising at Bothwell Bridge, the murder of Archbishop Sharp, and the events involving Claverhouse and Sir George Mackenzie, known as "the bloody Advocate." An avid reader of Mr. Wodrow's "History of the Sufferings," Louis did not find "James Stevenson in Nether Carsewell" among the many martyrs celebrated in the Libre d'Or of the Remnant. However, he had "a Covenanting childhood;" his father, Mr. Thomas Stevenson, was devoted to the beliefs of John Knox (the theological views); and raised in this environment, Louis experienced, when Calvin's teachings no longer convinced him, what non-Covenanters faced at the hands of the righteous during their time of dominance.
Every little Presbyterian, fifty years ago, was compelled to be familiar with the Genevan creed, as expressed in "The Shorter Catechism," but most little Presbyterians regarded that document as a necessary but unintelligible evil—the sorrow that haunted the Sabbath. I knew it by rote, Effectual Calling and all, but did not perceive that it possessed either meaning or actuality. Nobody was so unkind as to interpret the significance of the questions and answers; but somebody did interpret them for Stevenson, or his early genius enabled him to discover what it is all about, as he told me once, and it seems that the tendency of the theology is terribly depressing. A happier though more or less theological influence on his childhood he found in the adventures and sufferings of the Covenanters. It is curious (and shows how much early education can do) that he never was a little Royalist: always his heart, like Lockhart's, which is no less strange, was with the true blue Remnant. I can remember no proof that he was fascinated by the greatness of Montrose.
Every little Presbyterian, fifty years ago, had to be familiar with the Genevan creed as outlined in "The Shorter Catechism," but most little Presbyterians viewed that document as a necessary but confusing burden—the sadness that shadowed the Sabbath. I knew it by heart, Effectual Calling and all, but I didn’t see that it had any real meaning or relevance. Nobody was unkind enough to explain the significance of the questions and answers; but someone did explain them to Stevenson, or his early talent helped him figure out what it was all about, as he once told me, and it seems that the tendencies of the theology were really disheartening. A more uplifting, though still somewhat theological, influence on his childhood came from the adventures and struggles of the Covenanters. It’s interesting (and shows how much early education can shape a person) that he was never a little Royalist: like Lockhart, which is equally strange, his heart was always with the true blue Remnant. I can’t recall any evidence that he was captivated by the greatness of Montrose.
As is well known, at about the age of sixteen he perverted a romance of his own making, "Hackston of Rathillet" (a fanatic of Fife), into a treatise: "The Pentland Rising, a Page of History," published in 1866. One would rather have possessed the romance.
As is well known, at around the age of sixteen he turned a story he created, "Hackston of Rathillet" (a zealot from Fife), into an essay: "The Pentland Rising, a Page of History," published in 1866. It would have been better to have the original story.
Stevenson came from the Balfours of Pilrig, and was of gentle blood, on the spindle side. An ancestress of his mother was a granddaughter of Sir Gilbert Elliot (as a "law lord," or judge, Lord Minto), and so he could say: "I have shaken a spear in the debatable land, and shouted the slogan of the Elliots": perhaps "And wha dares meddle wi' me!" In "Weir of Hermiston" he returns to "the auld bauld Elliots" with zest. He was not, perhaps, aware that, through some remote ancestress on the spindle side, he "came of Harden's line," so that he and I had a common forebear with Sir Walter Scott, and were hundredth cousins of each other, if we reckon in the primitive manner by female descent. Of these Border ancestors, Louis inherited the courage; he was a fearless person, but one would not trace his genius to "The Bard of Rule," an Elliot named "Sweet Milk" who was slain in a duel by another minstrel, about 1627.
Stevenson came from the Balfours of Pilrig and was of noble descent on his mother’s side. One of his maternal ancestors was a granddaughter of Sir Gilbert Elliot, also known as Lord Minto, a judge. Because of this connection, he could say, "I have wielded a spear in the disputed lands and shouted the Elliots’ battle cry": perhaps "And who dares to challenge me!" In "Weir of Hermiston," he enthusiastically revisits "the old bold Elliots." He may not have realized that, through a distant ancestor on his mother’s side, he also descended from Harden's lineage, making him and me distant cousins of Sir Walter Scott if we trace our roots through female ancestry. From these Border ancestors, Louis inherited courage; he was a fearless individual, though one wouldn't link his talent to "The Bard of Rule," an Elliot called "Sweet Milk," who was killed in a duel by another minstrel around 1627.
Genius is untraceable; the granite intellect of Louis's great engineering forefathers, the Stevensons, was not, like his, tuneful: though his father was imaginative, diverting himself with daydreams; and his uncle, Alan Stevenson, the builder of Skerryvore, yielded to the fascinations of the religious Muse. A volume of verse was the pledge of this dalliance. His mother, who gave him her gay indifference to discomfort and readiness for travel, also read to him, in his childhood, much good literature; for not till he was eight years of age was he an unreluctant reader—which is strange. The whole record of his life, from his eighteenth month, is a chronicle of fever and ill-health, borne always with heroic fortitude. His dear nurse, Alison Cunningham, seems to have been a kind of festive Cameronian. Her recitation of hymns was, though she hated "the playhouse," "grand and dramatic." There is a hymn, "Jehovah Tsidkenu," in which he rejoiced; and no wonder, for the refrain "Jehovah Tsidkenu was nothing to me," moves with the galloping hoof-beats of
Genius is hard to pin down; the solid intellect of Louis's great engineering ancestors, the Stevensons, wasn't, like his, melodious: his father had a vivid imagination and enjoyed daydreaming, while his uncle, Alan Stevenson, the builder of Skerryvore, was drawn to the enchanting influence of religious inspiration. A collection of poems was the result of this fascination. His mother, who passed on to him her carefree attitude toward discomfort and love for travel, also read him a lot of good literature during his childhood; it wasn’t until he turned eight that he became an eager reader—which is unusual. The entire record of his life from his eighteenth month is a story of fever and poor health, faced with constant bravery. His beloved nurse, Alison Cunningham, seems to have been a cheerful version of a Cameronian. Her recitation of hymns was, despite her dislike for “the theater,” “grand and dramatic.” There’s one hymn, “Jehovah Tsidkenu,” that he loved; and it’s no surprise, because the refrain “Jehovah Tsidkenu was nothing to me” moves with the rhythm of galloping hoofbeats of
I have, however, ascertained that this theological piece is not sung to the tune, "The cavalry canter of Bonny Dundee." When the experiment is made, the results are unspeakably strange.
I have, however, discovered that this theological piece isn't sung to the tune "The cavalry canter of Bonny Dundee." When the experiment is carried out, the results are incredibly strange.
It need not be said, Stevenson has told us in verse and prose, that in childhood "his whole vocation was endless imitation." He was the hunter and the pirate and the king—throwing his fancy very seriously into each of his rôles, though visualizing never passed with him, as with some children it does, into actual hallucination. He had none of the invisible playmates that, to some children, are visible and real. He was less successful than Shelley in seeing apparitions: but the dreams which he communicated to Mr. Frederic Myers were curious illustrations of his subconscious activities—his Brownies, as he called them. They told him stories of which he could not foresee the end; one led up to a love affair forbidden even by exogamous law (with male descent and the sub-class system), and thus a fine plot was ruined.
It doesn't need to be stated, as Stevenson expressed in both verse and prose, that in childhood "his whole vocation was endless imitation." He played the hunter, the pirate, and the king—immersing himself seriously in each of his roles, though he never mistook his imagination for reality like some children do. He didn't have any invisible friends that some kids see as real. He was not as good as Shelley at seeing apparitions, but the dreams he shared with Mr. Frederic Myers were interesting examples of his subconscious thoughts—his Brownies, as he called them. They told him stories that he couldn't predict the endings of; one even led to a love story that was forbidden by external marriage rules (with male lineage and the sub-class system), which messed up a perfectly good plot.
Throughout life, he always played his part, as in childhood, with full conscious and picturesque effect, as did the great Montrose and the English Admirals, in whom he notes this dramatic trait. He was not a poseur; he was merely sensitively conscious of himself and of life as an art. As a little boy with curls and a velvet tunic, he read "Ministering Children," and yearned to be a ministering child. An opportunity seemed to present itself; the class of boys called "keelies" by the more comfortable boys in Edinburgh, used to play in the street under the windows of his father's house. One lame boy, a baker's son, could only look on. Here was a chance to minister! Louis, with a beating heart, walked out on his angelic mission.
Throughout his life, he always played his role, just like in his childhood, with full awareness and vivid flair, similar to the great Montrose and the English Admirals, in whom he noticed this theatrical quality. He wasn't a poseur; he was simply very aware of himself and saw life as an art. As a young boy with curls and a velvet outfit, he read "Ministering Children" and dreamed of being a ministering child. An opportunity seemed to arise when the group of boys, called "keelies" by the wealthier kids in Edinburgh, played in the street beneath his father's house. One lame boy, a baker's son, could only watch. Here was a chance to help! Louis, with a racing heart, stepped out on his noble mission.
"Little boy, would you like to play with me?" he asked.
"Hey kid, do you want to play with me?" he asked.
"You go to ——!" was the answer of the independent son of the hardy baker.
"You go to ——!" was the response of the self-reliant son of the tough baker.
It is difficult to pass from the enchanted childhood of this eternal child, with its imaginative playing at everything, broken only by fevers whereof the dreams were the nightmares of unconscious genius. He has told of all this as only he could tell it.
It’s hard to move on from the magical childhood of this eternal child, filled with imaginative play at everything, interrupted only by fevers where the dreams turned into the nightmares of unconscious genius. He has shared all of this in a way that only he could.
As a boy, despite his interrupted education, he laid the foundations of a knowledge of French and German, acquired Latin, and was not like that other boy who, Euclide viso, cohorruit et evasit. He was a mathematician! He never played cricket, I deeply regret to say, and his early love of football deserted him. He was no golfer, and a good day's trout-fishing, during which he neglected to kill each trout as it was taken, caused remorse, and made him abandon the contemplative boy's recreation. Boating, riding, and walking were his exercises. He read the good books that never lose their charm—Scott, Dumas, Shakespeare, "The Arabian Nights"; when very young he was delighted with "The Book of Snobs"; he also read Mayne Reid and "Ballantyne the Brave," and any story that contained Skeltica, cloaks, swords, wigs on the green, pirates and great adventures. He lived in literature, for Romance.
As a boy, even with his education being disrupted, he built a foundation in French and German, learned Latin, and was nothing like that other boy who, Euclide viso, cohorruit et evasit. He was a mathematician! He never played cricket, which I regret to say, and his early passion for football faded away. He wasn’t into golf either, and during a good day of trout fishing, where he forgot to kill each trout he caught, he felt guilty and gave up on that reflective pastime. He preferred boating, riding, and walking for exercise. He read timeless classics—Scott, Dumas, Shakespeare, "The Arabian Nights"; as a child, he loved "The Book of Snobs"; he also enjoyed Mayne Reid and "Ballantyne the Brave," as well as any story featuring Skeltica, cloaks, swords, wigs on the green, pirates, and great adventures. He lived in literature, for Romance.
His doings at Edinburgh University, and as a budding engineer, he has chronicled; he took part in snowball rows, in the debates of the Speculative Society, and in private dramatic performances, organized by his senior and friend, Professor Fleeming Jenkin. To "dress up" in old costumes always pleased him. He happened to praise the acting of a girl of fourteen, who, in her family circle, said, "Perhaps when I am old, like the lady in Ronsard, I will say 'R. L. Stevenson sang of me.'" His gambols "with the wild Prince and Poins" are not unrecorded. These were his Fergussonian years. Perhaps he might have expressed Burns's esteem for the "class of men called black-guards," as far as their unconventionality is concerned. He saw a great deal of life in many varieties; like Scott in Liddesdale, "he was making himsel' a' the time." With his cousin R. A. M. Stevenson, Walter Ferrier, Mr. Charles Baxter, and Sir Walter Simpson (a good golfer and not a bad bat), he performed "acts of Libbelism," and discussed all things in the universe. He was wildly gay, and profoundly serious, he had the earnestness of the Covenanter in forming speculations more or less unorthodox. It is needless to dwell on the strain caused by his theological ideals and those of a loving but sternly Calvinistic sire, to whom his love was ever loyal.
His experiences at Edinburgh University as an aspiring engineer are well documented; he participated in snowball fights, debates at the Speculative Society, and private theater performances organized by his senior and friend, Professor Fleeming Jenkin. He always enjoyed "dressing up" in old costumes. He happened to compliment the acting of a fourteen-year-old girl who, among her family, said, "Maybe when I’m older, like the lady in Ronsard, I’ll say 'R. L. Stevenson sang about me.'" His playful antics "with the wild Prince and Poins" are also noted. These were his Fergussonian years. He might have shared Burns's appreciation for the “class of men called black-guards,” at least in terms of their unconventionality. He experienced a wide range of life; like Scott in Liddesdale, "he was making himself all the time." Together with his cousin R. A. M. Stevenson, Walter Ferrier, Mr. Charles Baxter, and Sir Walter Simpson (a decent golfer and a fair batsman), he engaged in "acts of Libbelism" and debated everything under the sun. He was exuberantly cheerful yet deeply serious, possessing the earnestness of a Covenanter while forming mostly unorthodox speculations. There’s no need to elaborate on the tension caused by his theological beliefs and those of his loving but sternly Calvinistic father, to whom he remained faithfully devoted.
These things bred melancholy, of necessity, and melancholy was purged by an almost unexampled interest, not in literature alone, but in the technique of style, and the construction of sentences and periods. Few of his confessions are better known than those on his apprenticeship in style to the great authors of the past. He gave himself up to the schools of Hazlitt, Lamb, Wordsworth, Sir Thomas Browne, Defoe, Hawthorne, Montaigne, Baudelaire, William Morris, and Obermann (De Senancour).
These things naturally led to a sense of sadness, and that sadness was overcome by an exceptional interest, not just in literature, but in the skill of writing and the crafting of sentences and paragraphs. Few of his reflections are more famous than those about his learning process in style from the great writers of the past. He devoted himself to the teachings of Hazlitt, Lamb, Wordsworth, Sir Thomas Browne, Defoe, Hawthorne, Montaigne, Baudelaire, William Morris, and Obermann (De Senancour).
This he did when he was aged about eighteen, when other lads are trying to write Latin prose like Cicero, or Livy, or Tacitus (Tacitus is the easiest to ape, in a way), and Latin verse like Ovid, or Horace, or Virgil. This they do because it is "part of the curricoolum," as the Scottish baronet said, of school and college. But I do not remember anecdotes of other boys with a genius for English prose who set themselves to acquire style before they deemed that they had anything in particular to say.
This he did when he was about eighteen, while other guys were trying to write Latin prose like Cicero, Livy, or Tacitus (Tacitus is actually the easiest to imitate, in a way), and Latin verse like Ovid, Horace, or Virgil. They do this because it’s "part of the curriculum," as the Scottish baronet put it, of school and college. But I don't recall any stories about other boys with a talent for English prose who aimed to develop their style before they felt they had something specific to express.
In English essays at college a young fellow may be told by his tutor not to imitate Carlyle or Macaulay: the attempt to repeat the tones of Thackeray is most incident to youth. But to aim, like Stevenson while a student of Edinburgh University, at "the choice of the essential note and the right word," in exercises written for his own improvement, is a thing so original that it keeps me wondering. Like most of us, I have always thought, with Mr. Froude, when asked how he acquired his style, that a man sits down and says what he has to say, and there is an end of it. We must not write like Clarendon now, even if we could; our sentences must be brief. It would be affectation to write like Sir Thomas Browne, if we could; or like de Quincey; and nobody can write like Mr. Ruskin, when he is simple, or like the late Master of Balliol, Mr. Jowett.
In college English essays, a young student might be advised by his professor not to mimic Carlyle or Macaulay: trying to replicate Thackeray’s style is pretty common among young writers. However, aiming for “the choice of the essential note and the right word,” like Stevenson did while studying at Edinburgh University, is so unique that it keeps me thinking. Like many of us, I have always believed, along with Mr. Froude, that when asked how he developed his style, a person just sits down and expresses what they want to say, and that’s that. We can't write like Clarendon anymore, even if we wanted to; our sentences need to be short. It would be pretentious to write like Sir Thomas Browne, even if we could; or like de Quincey; and nobody can write like Mr. Ruskin when he’s being straightforward, or like the late Master of Balliol, Mr. Jowett.
How far and how early Stevenson succeeded in the pursuit of style may be seen in his "Juvenilia": for example, in the essay on the Old Gardener. But one is inclined to think that he succeeded because he had a very keen natural perception of all things, was a most minute observer, knew what told in the matter of words, in fact, had a genius of his own; and that these graces came to him, though he says that they did not, by nature. He tells us how often he wrote and rewrote some of his chapters, some of his books. His prima cura we have not seen; perhaps it was as good as his most polished copy. "Prince Otto" has even seemed to me, in places, over-written. He now and then ran near the rock of preciosity, though he very seldom piled up his barque on that reef. His style is, to the right reader, a perpetual feast, "a dreiping roast," and his style cannot be parodied. I never saw a parody that came within a league of the jest it aimed at, save one burlesque of the deliberately stilted manner of his "New Arabian Nights." This triumph was achieved by Mr. Walter Pollock.
How far and how early Stevenson succeeded in developing his style can be seen in his "Juvenilia"; for example, in the essay on the Old Gardener. However, one might think he succeeded because he had a sharp natural perception of everything, was an incredibly detailed observer, understood the impact of words, and truly had his own unique talent. He claims that these qualities did not come naturally, but it seems likely that they did. He tells us how often he wrote and rewrote some of his chapters and books. We haven't seen his prima cura; it might have been just as good as his most polished version. At times, "Prince Otto" even seems a bit over-written. He occasionally came close to being too precious, although he rarely ran aground on that rock. His style is, for the right reader, a constant delight, "a dreiping roast," and it’s impossible to parody effectively. I never saw a parody that came anywhere close to matching the humor it aimed to capture, except for one burlesque of the intentionally stilted style of his "New Arabian Nights." This was accomplished by Mr. Walter Pollock.
Stevenson's manner was too appropriate to his matter for parody: for nobody could reproduce his matter and the vividness of his visualization. When his characters were Scots, Lowlanders or Highlanders, it seems to me that their style has no rival except in the talk of Sir Walter's countrymen. A minute student who knew Stevenson, has told me that he once suggested "chafts," where Louis had written "cheeks" or "jaws," and that the emendation was accepted, but his Scots always use "the right word," and never (in prose) say "tae" for "to," I think. Theirs is the good Scots.
Stevenson's style is too closely tied to his content to be parodied because no one can replicate his substance and the vividness of his imagery. When his characters are Scots, whether Lowlanders or Highlanders, I believe their dialogue has no equal except for the speech of Sir Walter's fellow countrymen. A detail-oriented scholar who knew Stevenson mentioned that he once proposed "chafts" instead of Louis's "cheeks" or "jaws," and that suggestion was accepted. However, his Scots always use "the right word" and never say "tae" for "to" in prose, I think. Their Scots is the proper kind.
Perhaps I am biased in my doubt concerning the usefulness of his persistence in re-writing, by my regret that he destroyed so many of his romances, as not worthy of him. "King's chaff is better than other folk's corn" says our proverb. In his day, I bored him by pressing him to write more, and more rapidly; he never could have been commonplace, he never could have been less than excellent. But his conscience was adamant: no man was less of an improviser, as, fortunately, Scott was; had he not been, there would not be so many Waverley Novels.
Maybe I'm biased in my doubts about the usefulness of his persistence in rewriting, due to my regret that he destroyed so many of his stories, deeming them unworthy. "King's chaff is better than other people's corn," says our proverb. In his time, I annoyed him by urging him to write more and faster; he could never have been ordinary, he could never have been anything less than excellent. But his conscience was firm: no one was less of an improviser than Scott was; if he hadn't been, there wouldn't be so many Waverley Novels.
Stevenson was hard on Scott, who wrote much as he himself did in boyhood. "I forgot to say," remarks the early Stevensonian hero, after describing a day full of adventures with Red Indians, "that I had made love to a beautiful girl." There is a faint resemblance to this over-sight in a long sentence of "Guy Mannering," which Stevenson criticized; but "Guy Mannering" was written in about six weeks, "to refresh the machine." Fastidious himself, conscientious almost to a fault in style, Stevenson's joy was in the romances of Xavier de Montépin and Fortuné du Boisgobey, names which suggest
Stevenson was tough on Scott, who wrote much like he did as a kid. "I forgot to mention," says the early Stevensonian hero, after recounting a day packed with adventures with Native Americans, "that I had a crush on a beautiful girl." There's a slight similarity to this oversight in a long sentence from "Guy Mannering," which Stevenson critiqued; but "Guy Mannering" was written in about six weeks, "to refresh the machine." Being particular himself, almost overly careful about style, Stevenson's pleasure was found in the stories of Xavier de Montépin and Fortuné du Boisgobey, names that suggest
When Dumas and Scott, and perhaps Mrs. Radcliffe, had been read too recently, Louis went to Fortuné and Xavier, and, doubtless, to the father of them, Gaboriau. None of these benefactors of the race was a student of style, but they gave him what Thackeray liked, stories "hot, with," as he says, briefly but adequately.
When Dumas and Scott, and maybe Mrs. Radcliffe, had been read too recently, Louis turned to Fortuné and Xavier, and probably to their father, Gaboriau. None of these influential authors focused on style, but they provided him with what Thackeray appreciated, stories "hot, with," as he puts it, simply but effectively.
All of us are led, like that ancient people Israel, like all humanity, by a way we know not, and a path we do not understand. If some benevolent genie, who understood Stevenson's qualities and genius, could have directed his career, how would that spirit have educated him?
All of us are guided, like the ancient people of Israel, like all of humanity, by a path we don't know and a journey we don't fully understand. If a kind genie, who understood Stevenson's talent and brilliance, could have influenced his career, how would that spirit have shaped his education?
For some reason not intelligible he was put on an allowance of five shillings weekly, for his menus plaisirs, till he was twenty-three years of age. He never was an expensive man (except in giving, wherein he knew no stint); his favourite velvet coats, his yellow shoes, his black shirts, with a necktie of a scrap of carpet, he said (I failed to guess its nature), were not extravagant. (The last occasion on which I saw him in the legendary velvet coat was also the only moment in which I viewed the author of his being. The circumstances were of the wildest comedy, but the tale can never be told; though in all respects it redounds to the credit of everybody concerned. Not one of us let a laugh out of himself.)
For some reason that doesn’t quite make sense, he was put on a weekly budget of five shillings for his pleasures until he turned twenty-three. He was never a costly person (except when it came to giving, where he was limitless); his favorite velvet coats, yellow shoes, and black shirts, paired with a necktie made from a piece of carpet—though I couldn’t figure out the exact material—were not excessive. (The last time I saw him in that famous velvet coat was also the only time I met the person who created him. The situation was completely chaotic, but the story can’t be shared; however, it reflects well on everyone involved. None of us could manage to laugh.)
But a young man in his position likes to do many harmless things which cannot be done on five shillings a week, and so he sought the haunts of "thieves and chimney sweeps!" he says, and wrote sonnets in those shy retreats, which are known, perhaps, in Scotland, as "shebeens." Why "shebeens"? Is the word Gaelic misspelled? Cases of "shebeening" are tried before the Edinburgh magistrates, and as "my circle was being continually changed by the action of the police magistrates" (he says) conceivably his was a shebeening circle.
But a young man in his position likes to do a lot of harmless things that can’t be done on five shillings a week, so he sought out the places frequented by “thieves and chimney sweeps!” he says, and wrote sonnets in those hidden spots, which are perhaps known in Scotland as “shebeens.” Why “shebeens”? Is the word misspelled in Gaelic? Cases of “shebeening” are brought before the Edinburgh magistrates, and since “my circle was being continually changed by the actions of the police magistrates” (he says), his was possibly a shebeening circle.
Another lad of his age, some eighty years earlier, was partial, like him, to taverns and old clothes. "They be good enough for drinking in," said Walter Scott, when Erskine, or some other friend, ventured to remonstrate. Scott, like Stevenson, knew queer people, knew beggars—but had not one of them shaken hands with Prince Charles? Certainly, after Scott met Green Mantle, and sheltered her, as she came from church, under his umbrella (a piece of furniture which Stevenson can never have possessed), he left off his old clothes, and went into the best company. But R. L. S. did not delight in the good company of his native town; nor did he suffer gladly the conventional raiment of the evening hours. Green Mantle there was none, as far as we learn. He was not popular with the young Scots of his age, his biographer says so candidly; candidly have they said as much to me, yet they were good fellows.
Another guy his age, about eighty years earlier, preferred taverns and old clothes, just like him. "They’re good enough for drinking in," Walter Scott said when Erskine or another friend tried to argue otherwise. Scott, like Stevenson, knew some unusual characters, knew beggars—but didn't one of them shake hands with Prince Charles? After Scott met Green Mantle and sheltered her under his umbrella as she was coming from church (a thing Stevenson probably never had), he ditched his old clothes and mingled with high society. But R. L. S. didn’t enjoy the fancy company in his hometown; nor did he take kindly to the formal clothes of evening events. There was no Green Mantle in his life, as far as we know. He wasn’t popular with the young Scots of his age—his biographer says so frankly; they’ve told me the same thing, but they were good guys.
From childhood he had enjoyed all the indulgences of an only son, and an invalid; now he was "brought up short," and there were the religious disputes with a sire to whom he was devoted. The climate of his own romantic town (the worst in the world) was his foe; the wandering spirit in his blood called him to the south and the sun; he tells of months in which he had no mortal to whom he could speak freely, his cousin Bob being absent; he was unhappy; he was out of his milieu.
From childhood, he had enjoyed all the privileges of being an only son and a sickly one; now he was abruptly confronted with the religious arguments with a father he adored. The atmosphere of his own romantic town (the worst in the world) was against him; the restless spirit in his blood urged him towards the south and the sun. He recounts months when he had no one to talk to openly, as his cousin Bob was away; he was unhappy; he felt out of his milieu.
What would the genie have done for him? Neither of the English Universities would have been to his taste; the rebel in him would have kicked at morning chapel, lectures, cap and gown, Proctors, the talk of "oars" and "bats"; manifestly Balliol was not the place for R. L. S., though he might have been happy with his contemporary John Churton Collins. He, I remember—even to the velvet coat—was like Stevenson, and was a rebel. Grant Allen, too, would have been his contemporary—the only man in Oxford who took to Herbert Spencer, whom Stevenson also read with much edification.
What would the genie have done for him? Neither of the English universities would have suited him; the rebel in him would have resisted morning chapel, lectures, cap and gown, Proctors, and the talk of "oars" and "bats." Clearly, Balliol was not the right place for R. L. S., although he might have been content with his contemporary John Churton Collins. I remember—right down to the velvet coat—he was like Stevenson and was a rebel. Grant Allen, too, would have been his contemporary—the only person in Oxford who embraced Herbert Spencer, whom Stevenson also read with great interest.
Yet it is clear that Stevenson should not have been domiciled in the paternal mansion of Heriot Row. The genie might have transported him to a German University, perhaps to Heidelberg.
Yet it's clear that Stevenson shouldn't have been living in the family home on Heriot Row. The genie might have taken him to a German university, maybe Heidelberg.
Dis aliter visum, and the result, for us, is his matchless book on Edinburgh. To see a copy thereof is to take it up, and read through it again; it is better at every reading.
It was seen differently, and the result for us is his unmatched book on Edinburgh. To see a copy of it is to pick it up and read through it again; it gets better with every reading.
In 1871 he broke to his father the news that the profession of engineering was not for him. The Scottish Bar (1874-1875) was not more attractive, and in 1873 his meeting with Mr. (now Sir) Sidney Colvin (then Slade Professor of Fine Art at Cambridge, and already well known as a critic), and with a lady, Mrs. Sitwell, to whom many of his most carefully written early letters are addressed, probably sealed Stevenson into the profession of literature.
In 1871, he told his father that engineering wasn’t the right path for him. The Scottish Bar (1874-1875) wasn’t any more appealing, and in 1873, his meeting with Mr. (now Sir) Sidney Colvin (then the Slade Professor of Fine Art at Cambridge, and already recognized as a critic) and a woman named Mrs. Sitwell, to whom many of his most thoughtfully written early letters are addressed, likely committed Stevenson to a career in literature.
He has left this note on his prospects:
He has left this note about his future plans:
"I think now, on this 5th or 6th of April, 1873, that I can see my future. I believe it will become calmer and calmer each year; a very quiet, somewhat studious life. If God grants me decent health, I believe I will be quite happy; work and science soothe the mind and ease the worries. And since I’m glad to acknowledge that I will never be a great person, I can peacefully embark on a smaller journey, not without hope of reaching my destination before nightfall.
O dear God, friends!
AMEN
He wrote an article, this born wayfarer, on "Roads," which was accepted by P. G. Hamerton for the "Portfolio," but in November, 1873, "nervous exhaustion, with a threatening of phthisis," caused him to be "Ordered South" to Mentone—a lonely exile. Here he was joined by Mr. Colvin, and in Mr. Colvin's rooms, for I also was "ordered South," I first met this surprising figure. Our schooldays had just overlapped; he was a "gyte" (a child in the lowest form; "class" we called it), when I was in the highest, but I had never seen him, nor heard of him.
He wrote an article about "Roads," which P. G. Hamerton accepted for the "Portfolio," but in November 1873, he was diagnosed with "nervous exhaustion, with a risk of tuberculosis," and was "ordered to go south" to Mentone—a lonely exile. There, he was joined by Mr. Colvin, and in Mr. Colvin's rooms, where I was also "ordered south," I first met this remarkable person. Our school years had just barely overlapped; he was a "gyte" (a student in the lowest grade; we called it a "class") when I was in the highest, but I had never seen him or heard of him.
In some rhymes of his later years, when Count Nerli was painting his portrait, Louis wrote:
In some of his later poems, while Count Nerli was painting his portrait, Louis wrote:
Or will he make me an ugly tyke; and be d—— to Mr. Nerli?"
When first we met, he really was "as bonny as a girlie"; with his oval face, his flushed cheeks, his brown eyes, large and radiant, and his hair of a length more romantic than conventional. He wore a wide blue cloak, with a grace which hovered between that of an Italian poet and an early pirate.
When we first met, he truly was "as pretty as a girl"; with his oval face, rosy cheeks, his large, bright brown eyes, and his hair that was more romantic than traditional. He wore a wide blue cloak, with a style that was a mix between an Italian poet and an early pirate.
It was impossible not to discover, in a short conversation, that he was very clever, but, as a girl said once of her first meeting with another girl, "We looked at each other with horny eyes of disapproval." I thought that he was affecting the poet, and in me he found a donnish affectation of the British sportsman. He said later that I complained, concerning Monsieur Paul de St. Victor, that he was "no sportsman," though his style was effulgent.
It was hard not to notice, after a brief conversation, that he was very smart, but, as a girl once said about her first meeting with another girl, "We looked at each other with disapproving eyes." I thought he was trying too hard to be poetic, and he probably saw me as pretentiously embodying the British sportsman. Later, he mentioned that I had complained about Monsieur Paul de St. Victor, saying he was "no sportsman," even though his style was brilliant.
We seldom met again, unhappily, for I was then with a family in whose company he would have been happy: all young, all kind, simple, and beautiful, and all doomed. Stevenson was then seriously ill, certainly a short walk fatigued him.
We rarely met again, unfortunately, because I was living with a family whose company he would have enjoyed: all young, kind, genuine, and beautiful, yet all destined for sorrow. Stevenson was seriously ill at that time, and even a short walk exhausted him.
The next news I had of him was in his essay, "Ordered South," concerning the emotions, apathies, and pleasures, on that then fairy coast, of a young man who thinks that his days are numbered. After reading this paper, I was absolutely convinced that, among the writers of our generation, Stevenson was first, like Eclipse, and the rest nowhere. There was nobody to be spoken of in his company as a writer. It was not his style alone—Pater's style had bewitched me in his first book—but it was the life that underlay the style of Stevenson.
The next update I got about him was from his essay, "Ordered South," which discusses the emotions, indifference, and joys experienced by a young man on that then magical coast, who believes his time is limited. After reading this piece, I was completely convinced that, among the writers of our generation, Stevenson was at the forefront, like the sun during an eclipse, while the others were nowhere in sight. No one could be compared to him as a writer. It wasn't just his writing style—Pater's style had captivated me in his first book—but it was the life that energized Stevenson's style.
He came home, and found peace at home, and a less inadequate allowance, and he put up a brazen plate, "R.L. Stevenson, Advocate," on the door in Heriot Row. But his practice was a jest. Some senior men sought his society, his old friends were with him; his articles were welcomed by Mr. Leslie Stephen in "The Cornhill Magazine," and were eagerly expected by a few. Directed by Mr. Stephen, he found Mr. Henley in the Edinburgh Infirmary, and that friendship began which was of such considerable influence in his life and work.
He came home, found peace, and had a more manageable allowance, so he put a bold sign that read "R.L. Stevenson, Advocate" on his door in Heriot Row. But his law practice was more of a joke. Some older colleagues enjoyed his company, and his old friends spent time with him; his articles were well-received by Mr. Leslie Stephen in "The Cornhill Magazine" and were eagerly awaited by a select few. Guided by Mr. Stephen, he met Mr. Henley at the Edinburgh Infirmary, and that friendship began, which had a significant impact on his life and work.
Mr. Henley's "maimed strength," his impeded vigour, even his blond upstanding hair and "beard all tangled," his uncomplaining fortitude under the most cruel trials, and the candid freshness of his conversation on men and books, won Stevenson's heart.
Mr. Henley's "maimed strength," his limited energy, even his blond upright hair and "beard all tangled," his quiet resilience through the toughest challenges, and the honest freshness of his talks about people and books, captured Stevenson's heart.
In London, Stevenson appeared now and again at the Savile Club, then tenanting a rather gloomy little house in Savile Row. The members were mostly connected with science, literature, journalism, and the stage, and Stevenson became intimate with many of them, especially with the staff and the sub-editor (in those days) of "The Saturday Review," Mr. Walter Pollock; and with Mr. Saintsbury, Mr. Traill, Mr. Charles Brookfield, Sir Walter Besant; a little later with Mr. Edmund Gosse, who was by much his favourite in this little society. In addition to the chaff of the "Saturday" reviewers, he enjoyed the talk of Prof. Robertson Smith, Prof. W. H. Clifford, and Prof. Fleeming Jenkin.
In London, Stevenson would occasionally show up at the Savile Club, where he lived in a somewhat dreary little house on Savile Row. The members were mostly involved in science, literature, journalism, and theater, and Stevenson became close with many of them, particularly with Mr. Walter Pollock, the staff and sub-editor of "The Saturday Review" at the time; as well as Mr. Saintsbury, Mr. Traill, Mr. Charles Brookfield, and Sir Walter Besant; and later with Mr. Edmund Gosse, who was easily his favorite in this small group. Besides the banter of the "Saturday" reviewers, he also enjoyed conversations with Professor Robertson Smith, Professor W. H. Clifford, and Professor Fleeming Jenkin.
Stevenson never wrote, to my knowledge, in "The Saturday Review"; journalism never "set his genius." For one reason among many, his manner was by far too personal in those days of unsigned contributions. He needed money, he wished to be financially independent, but, in the Press, his independence could not be all that he desired. He did not wield the ready, punctual pen of him whom Lockhart most invidiously calls "the bronzed and mother-naked gentleman of the Press."
Stevenson never wrote, as far as I know, in "The Saturday Review"; journalism never captured his talent. One reason among many is that his style was way too personal during a time when contributions were often unsigned. He needed money and wanted to be financially independent, but in the world of publishing, his independence couldn't be as complete as he hoped. He didn't have the quick, reliable writing style of the person Lockhart disparagingly refers to as "the bronzed and mother-naked gentleman of the Press."
His conversation at luncheon, and after luncheon, in the Club was the delight of all, but, for various reasons, I was seldom present. I do remember an afternoon when I had him all to myself, but that was later. He poured out stories of his American wanderings, including a tale of a murderous lonely inn, kept by Scots, whose genius tended to assassination. He knew nothing of their exploits at home, but, then or afterwards, I heard of them from a boatman on Loch Awe. Their mother was a witch!
His conversations during lunch and after in the Club were a hit with everyone, but for various reasons, I was rarely there. I do remember one afternoon when I had him all to myself, but that was later. He shared stories of his travels in America, including a tale about a creepy, remote inn run by Scots, whose talent seemed to lean towards murder. He didn't know about their exploits back home, but I learned about them from a boatman on Loch Awe, who said their mother was a witch!
At this period Stevenson was much in Paris, and alone, or with his cousin Bob dwelt at Barbizon and other forest haunts of painters. The chronicle of these merry days is written in the early chapters of "The Wrecker."
At this time, Stevenson spent a lot of time in Paris, either alone or with his cousin Bob, and stayed in Barbizon and other painter’s retreats in the forest. The story of these fun days is told in the early chapters of "The Wrecker."
In literature he was "finding himself," in his Essays, but the world did not find him easily or early.
In literature, he was "finding himself" in his Essays, but the world didn't discover him easily or quickly.
History much attracted him, as it did Thackeray, who said, "I like history, it is so gentlemanly." But it can only be written by gentlemen of independent means. Stevenson's favourite period was that of the France of the fifteenth century, and he studied later some aspects of that time in essays on Charles d'Orleans, in his admirable picture of Villon as a man and poet, and especially in "A Lodging for the Night," and "The Sieur de Malétroit's Door," shut on a windy night in the month after the Maid failed at Paris (September, 1429).
History really interested him, just like it did Thackeray, who said, "I like history; it's so refined." But it can only be written by people of independent means. Stevenson's favorite period was fifteenth-century France, and he later explored some aspects of that time in his essays on Charles d'Orleans, in his excellent portrayal of Villon as a man and poet, and especially in "A Lodging for the Night" and "The Sieur de Malétroit's Door," which closes on a windy night in the month after the Maid failed at Paris (September, 1429).
These unexcelled short stories really revealed Stevenson as the narrator, his path lay clear before him. But even his friends were then divided in opinion; some preferring his essays, and his two books of sentimental travel, "An Inland Voyage" (1878) and "Travels with a Donkey" (1879). These were, indeed, admirable in style, humour, description, and incident, but the creative imagination in the stories of Villon's night and of the Sieur de Malétroit's door, the painting of character, the romance, the vividness, were worth many such volumes. They were well received by the Press, these sketches of travel, but, as Monsieur Got says in his "Journal" (1857), "Les succès des délicats sont, même quand ils s'établissent, trop lents à s'établir. La foule s'est tellement démocratisée qu'il n'a pas de salut si l'on ne frappe brutalement." The needful brutality was not employed till Stevenson "knocked them" with "Jekyll and Hyde."
These remarkable short stories truly showcased Stevenson as a storyteller, with a clear path ahead of him. However, even his friends had differing opinions; some preferred his essays and his two sentimental travel books, "An Inland Voyage" (1878) and "Travels with a Donkey" (1879). These works were indeed excellent in style, humor, description, and narrative, but the creative imagination found in the stories of Villon's night and the Sieur de Malétroit's door, along with their character exploration, romance, and vividness, were worth many such volumes. The travel sketches were well-received by the press, but as Monsieur Got mentioned in his "Journal" (1857), "The success of the refined is, even when established, too slow to take hold. The crowd has become so democratized that there is no salvation unless one strikes brutally." The necessary brutality wasn't used until Stevenson "hit hard" with "Jekyll and Hyde."
"The world is so full of a number of things," that a few essays, two or three short stories in a magazine, a little book of sketches in prose, may be masterpieces in their three several ways, but they escape the notice of all but a few amateurs. Mr. Kipling's knock was much more insistent; he could not be unheard. It was not by essays on Burns and Knox, however independently done, that Stevenson could make his mark.
"The world is packed with so many things" that a few essays, two or three short stories in a magazine, or a small book of prose sketches can be masterpieces in their own unique ways, yet they go unnoticed by all but a few enthusiasts. Mr. Kipling's presence was much harder to ignore; he demanded attention. However, it wasn't through essays on Burns and Knox, however well-written, that Stevenson could leave his mark.
Concerning these heroes, Scotland has a vision of her own, and no man must undo it; no man must tell, about Knox, facts ignored by Professors of Church History. Indeed, to study Knox afresh demands research for which Stevenson had not the opportunity. The Covenanting side of his nature appeared in his study of the moral aspect of Burns; his feet of clay. It is agreed that we must veil the feet of clay. As Lockhart says, Scott infuriated Mr. Alexander Peterkin by remarking that Burns "was not chivalrous." Stevenson went further, and annoyed the Peterkins of his day. His task required courage: it was not found wanting.
Concerning these heroes, Scotland has her own perspective, and no one should undermine it; no one should share about Knox, the facts overlooked by Church History professors. In fact, studying Knox anew requires research that Stevenson didn’t have the chance to pursue. The Covenanting side of his character emerged in his examination of the moral dimensions of Burns; his flaws. It’s agreed that we should conceal those flaws. As Lockhart pointed out, Scott irritated Mr. Alexander Peterkin by stating that Burns "was not chivalrous." Stevenson went further and upset the Peterkins of his time. His task demanded courage, which he had in abundance.
In 1877, Stevenson had a new, if very narrow, opening. A friend of his at Edinburgh University, a young Mr. Caldwell Brown (so Stevenson named him to me; his real name seems to have been Glasgow Brown), came to the great metropolis to found a Conservative weekly journal. "London" was its name, but Edinburgh was its nature, and base, if a base it had. The editor was "in the air"; he knew nothing of his business and its difficulties; nothing of what the Conservative public, with sixpences to spend, was likely to want. He approached some of Stevenson's friends, and he gave the Conservative party scores of lively ballades, villanelles, and rondeaux. They were brilliant. Stevenson would not tell me the author's name; he proved to be Mr. Henley, who came to town, and, on the death of Mr. Brown, edited this unread periodical. There were "Society" notes, although Mr. Henley's haunts were not those of that kind of society, and one occasional contributor ventured to remonstrate about the chatter on the "professional beauties" of that distant day.
In 1877, Stevenson had a new, albeit very limited, opportunity. A friend of his at Edinburgh University, a young man named Caldwell Brown (as Stevenson referred to him; his real name seems to have been Glasgow Brown), came to the big city to start a Conservative weekly journal. "London" was its title, but it was essentially rooted in Edinburgh, if it even had a proper foundation. The editor was "in over his head"; he didn’t know anything about the business or its challenges; he had no idea what the Conservative audience, with their sixpence coins to spend, would want. He reached out to some of Stevenson's friends, and he provided the Conservative party with numerous lively ballades, villanelles, and rondeaux. They were fantastic. Stevenson wouldn’t tell me the author’s name; it turned out to be Mr. Henley, who arrived in the city and took over editing this little-read publication after Mr. Brown passed away. There were “Society” notes, even though Mr. Henley didn't frequent that kind of society, and one occasional contributor even tried to argue against the gossip about the "professional beauties" of that bygone era.
The "New Arabian Nights," with all their humour, and horror, all their intellectual high spirits, and reckless absurdity, were poured by Stevenson into this outcast flutterer of a Tory paper, to the great joy of some of the very irregular contributors. (It was an honest flutterer—its contributors received their wages.)
The "New Arabian Nights," with all their humor and horror, their spirited intellect and wild absurdity, were crafted by Stevenson into this rejected but lively Tory paper, much to the delight of some of its unconventional contributors. (It was a genuine venture—its contributors actually got paid.)
Then "London" died, and then seriousness enough came into the life of our Arabian author. In August, 1879, he disappeared; he went to America to marry the lady whom he had first met at Fontainebleau, whom he wedded at San Francisco (1880), and loved with all his heart.
Then "London" died, and seriousness truly entered the life of our Arabian author. In August 1879, he vanished; he went to America to marry the woman he had first met at Fontainebleau, whom he married in San Francisco (1880), and loved deeply.
Reconciled to his father, he returned to Scotland. His health had been anew impaired by troubles and privations, and the rest of his life in the Old World was occupied by a series of maladies, vain roamings in search of climate, and hard work constantly interrupted.
Reconciled with his father, he went back to Scotland. His health had once again suffered from troubles and hardships, and the rest of his life in the Old World was filled with a series of illnesses, futile attempts to find a better climate, and hard work that was constantly interrupted.
From his early childhood onwards, an army of maladies surrounded him, invested him, cut him off if, in an hour of health, he ventured on any sally; but they never overcame his invincible resolution. He was, as one of his favourite old authors says about I forget what emperor, "an entertainer of fortune by the day," making the most of every sunny hour, and the best of every hour passed under the shadow of imminent death. I remember that, soon after his marriage, he was staying in London at the house of a friend. Going to see him, I noted in him a somewhat anxious look, and I did not wonder at it! Mr. Henley was seated in a great chair, the whole of his face, from the eyes downwards, muffled in a huge crimson silk pocket handkerchief, of which the point covered his aureate beard.
From his early childhood, a host of illnesses surrounded him, consumed him, and cut him off whenever he dared to venture out during a healthy moment; but they never defeated his unbreakable determination. He was, as one of his favorite old authors describes some emperor I can’t remember, "a daily entertainer of fortune," making the most of every sunny moment and the best of every hour spent under the threat of imminent death. I recall that shortly after his marriage, he was staying in London at a friend's house. When I went to see him, I noticed a somewhat worried look on his face, and I wasn’t surprised! Mr. Henley was sitting in a large chair, with his entire face covered from the eyes down by a huge crimson silk handkerchief, its tip draping over his golden beard.
The room was a large room, and as Louis flitted about it, more suo, he managed to tell me privily that Henley had a very bad cold, and that he himself caught every cold which came within a limited radius. He did catch that cold, I heard, and when once such an invader entered his system, nobody knew what the end of it might be. His lungs usually suffered; hemorrhage was frequent and often alarming. In one of these accesses, unable to speak, he wrote, "Do not be frightened. If this is the end it is an easy one."
The room was big, and as Louis moved around it, more suo, he managed to quietly tell me that Henley had a really bad cold, and that he himself caught every cold that came within a certain distance. I heard he actually caught that cold, and once something like that got into his system, no one knew what might happen next. His lungs typically suffered; bleeding was common and often concerning. During one of these episodes, unable to talk, he wrote, "Don't be scared. If this is the end, it's an easy one."
Many scraps written by him in circumstances like these used to exist; some of them, though brief, were rich in the simple eloquence of indignation.
Many notes he wrote in situations like this used to exist; some of them, even though short, were full of the straightforward power of anger.
Almost no climate did him any good: in 1880-1881, he chiefly suffered at Davos, and in the tempests of September, in Braemar. At Davos he had few consolations except the society of Mr. J. A. Symonds (the Opalstein of his essay on "Talk and Talkers") and his family. He was still attached to the indigent Muse of History: meditating a "History of the Highlands," and another book on that much trampled topic, the Union of 1707. When one thinks of the commercial statistics necessary to the student of the Union—to take that grim aspect of it alone—enfin, "I have been there, and would not go." In the nature of things the History of the Union would have become a romance, with that impudent, entertaining rogue, Ker of Kersland, and his bewildered Cameronians, for the heroes: with Hamilton the waverer, and the dark, sardonic Lockhart of Carnwath, and Daniel Defoe as the English looker-on. The study of Highland history led to the reading of the Trial of James of the Glens, and the vain hunt for Alan Breck, and so to "Kidnapped."
Almost no climate did him any good: in 1880-1881, he mostly suffered in Davos, and in the storms of September, in Braemar. At Davos, he had few comforts except the company of Mr. J. A. Symonds (the Opalstein of his essay on "Talk and Talkers") and his family. He was still interested in the struggling Muse of History: thinking about a "History of the Highlands," and another book on that often-overlooked topic, the Union of 1707. When you consider the commercial statistics needed for the student of the Union—just looking at that grim side of it—enfin, "I have been there, and would not go." Naturally, the History of the Union would have turned into a romance, featuring the cheeky, entertaining rogue, Ker of Kersland, and his confused Cameronians, as the heroes: along with Hamilton the indecisive, and the dark, sardonic Lockhart of Carnwath, and Daniel Defoe as the English observer. The study of Highland history led to the reading of the Trial of James of the Glens, the futile search for Alan Breck, and thus to "Kidnapped."
Stevenson felt and described the exhilaration of Alpine mornings, but his style was as sensitive as his bronchial apparatus, and he declares that when he tried to write, the style suffered from "yeasty inflation," while his nights were haunted by the nightmares of his childhood.
Stevenson experienced and expressed the excitement of Alpine mornings, but his writing style was as delicate as his respiratory system, and he stated that when he attempted to write, his style was plagued by "yeasty inflation," while his nights were troubled by the nightmares of his childhood.
The next change carried him to a cottage near Pitlochry, whence he wrote that he was engaged in the composition of "crawlers." The first and best of these, "Thrawn Janet," was (with his "Tod Lapraik" in "Kidnapped") the only pendant to Scott's "Wandering Willie's Tale," in the northern vernacular. The tale has a limited circle; no Southern can appreciate all its merits, the thing is so absolutely and essentially Scots; especially the atmosphere. He said that it was "true for a hill parish in Scotland in old days, not true for mankind and the world." So it is fortunate to be a native of a hill parish in Scotland!
The next change took him to a cottage near Pitlochry, where he wrote that he was working on "crawlers." The first and best of these, "Thrawn Janet," was (along with his "Tod Lapraik" in "Kidnapped") the only counterpart to Scott's "Wandering Willie's Tale," in the northern dialect. The story has a limited audience; no one from the South can fully appreciate all its qualities, as it is so distinctly and fundamentally Scottish; especially the vibe. He mentioned that it was "true for a hill parish in Scotland in old days, not true for mankind and the world." So it is fortunate to be a native of a hill parish in Scotland!
"The Merry Men," as "a fantasia or vision of the sea," is excellent; the poor negro never was, to myself, "convincing." However, knowing Stevenson's taste in art, I designed for him, in Skeltic taste, an illustration (coloured) of the negro pursuing the wicked uncle (in the philabeg) over the crests of Ben Mor, Mull.
"The Merry Men," described as "a fantasy or vision of the sea," is fantastic; the poor black man never felt "convincing" to me. However, understanding Stevenson's artistic preference, I created an illustration (in color) for him, in a skeletal style, of the black man chasing the wicked uncle (in the kilt) over the peaks of Ben Mor, Mull.
Descending from these heights, Stevenson, like every bookish Scot, "ettled at" a professorial chair—that of "History and Constitutional Law," in the University of Edinburgh.
Descending from these heights, Stevenson, like every scholarly Scot, "settled into" a professorial chair—that of "History and Constitutional Law," at the University of Edinburgh.
The election was in the winter, the legist and historian occupied the autumn in composing the first half of "Treasure Island" (originally "The Sea Cook").
The election took place in the winter, while the legislator and historian spent the autumn writing the first half of "Treasure Island" (originally "The Sea Cook").
Everyone knows the story: how, playing with his stepson, Stevenson drew a map of an island—an island like a dragon seyant; considered the caves and hills and streams, and thought of the place as a haunt of these serviceable pirates, who always dumped down their hard-earned swag on distant and on deadly shores, which they carefully abstained from revisiting. The legends of Captain Kidd's caches have long haunted the imagination; the idea of Hidden Treasure has its eternal charm, and the story thereof was told, once for all, by Poe. Soon after "Treasure Island" appeared there was a real treasure hunt. The deposit, so I was informed, was "put down by a Fin," and Mr. Rider Haggard and I were actually paying (at least Mr. Haggard sent me a cheque) for shares in this alluring enterprise, when I learned that the Fin (or Finn? a native of Finland), had looted the church plate of some Spanish cathedral in America. Knowing this, I returned his cheque to Mr. Haggard; happily, for the isle was the playroom of young earthquakes, which had upset the soil and the landmarks to such a degree that the gentleman adventurer returned—bredouille! I hope Stevenson had nothing on.
Everyone knows the story: how, while playing with his stepson, Stevenson sketched out a map of an island—an island shaped like a dragon seyant; he considered the caves, hills, and streams, and imagined it as a hideout for those crafty pirates, who always stashed their hard-earned loot on far-off and dangerous shores, which they deliberately avoided revisiting. The legends of Captain Kidd's caches have long fascinated people's imaginations; the concept of Hidden Treasure has its timeless appeal, and the tale was famously recounted by Poe. Shortly after "Treasure Island" was published, there was an actual treasure hunt. I was told that the treasure was "put down by a Fin," and Mr. Rider Haggard and I were genuinely investing (at least Mr. Haggard sent me a check) in this tempting venture, when I discovered that the Fin (or Finn? a local from Finland) had stolen the church plate from some Spanish cathedral in America. Knowing this, I returned his check to Mr. Haggard; fortunately, as the island was the playground of young earthquakes, which had disrupted the soil and landmarks so much that the adventurer returned—bredouille! I hope Stevenson didn't lose anything.
In the Highland cottage, during the rain eternal, he amused himself with writing his story, as Shelley, Byron, Polidori, and Mary Godwin had diverted themselves in Swiss wet weather, with their ghost stories, "Frankenstein," and Byron's good opening of a romance of a vampire.
In the Highland cottage, amidst the endless rain, he kept himself entertained by writing his story, just like Shelley, Byron, Polidori, and Mary Godwin once did during the dreary Swiss weather, crafting their ghost stories, "Frankenstein," and Byron’s great start to a vampire romance.
Visitors came—Mr. Colvin, Mr. Gosse, and Dr. Japp—they liked the tale as chapter by chapter was read aloud, and it was offered to a penny periodical for boys. A much better market might easily have been found; indeed, Stevenson "wasted his mercies." He was paid like the humblest of unknown scribblers; not even illustrations were given to the obscure romance running in dim inner pages of the periodical, and it appears that, as Théophile Gautier's editor said about one of his narratives, "the abonné was bored with the style."
Visitors came—Mr. Colvin, Mr. Gosse, and Dr. Japp—they enjoyed the story as it was read aloud chapter by chapter, and it was submitted to a penny magazine for boys. A much better market could have easily been found; in fact, Stevenson "wasted his talents." He was paid like the most obscure and unknown writers; not even illustrations were provided for the little-known story running in the magazine's faded inner pages, and it seems that, as Théophile Gautier's editor remarked about one of his stories, "the subscriber was bored with the style."
It was an audacious thing for a man of Louis's health, and intermittent inspiration, to send in half the "copy," meaning to send the rest later from Davos. He might not be able, physically, to write—the inspiration might vanish—and there was John Addington Symonds, eager for him to write on the "Characters" of Theophrastus! He might as well have written, or better, on the "Characters" of Sir Thomas Overbury, which are rather less remote from the ken of the British public than those of the Greek.
It was quite bold for a man like Louis, who struggled with his health and had bursts of inspiration, to submit half of his "copy," planning to send the rest later from Davos. He might not be able to write again—his inspiration could fade—and there was John Addington Symonds, anxious for him to write about the "Characters" of Theophrastus! He might as well have written, or even better, on the "Characters" of Sir Thomas Overbury, which are much more familiar to the British public than those of the Greek.
If any young man or woman, not in possession of independent means, reads these lines of mine, let him or her take warning, and deserting history, morals, the essay, biography, and shunning anthropology as they would kippered sturgeon or the devil, cleave only to fiction!
If any young man or woman without independent means reads these lines of mine, let them take heed and, avoiding history, morals, essays, biographies, and steering clear of anthropology as they would avoid spoiled fish or the devil, stick only to fiction!
Biography also allured Stevenson—his literary tastes were nearly his ruin; he wanted, at Davos, to write a "Life of Hazlitt," and at Bournemouth a biography of Arthur, Duke of Wellington. But time and strength were lacking; nor have we R. L. S.'s mature opinion of the strategy and tactics of the victor of Assaye. The Muse of piratical enterprise returned, and "Treasure Island" reached its haven, with no applause, in the paper for boys.
Biography also fascinated Stevenson—his literary interests nearly led to his downfall; he wanted to write a "Life of Hazlitt" while in Davos, and a biography of Arthur, Duke of Wellington in Bournemouth. But he lacked both time and energy; we also don’t have R. L. S.'s final thoughts on the strategy and tactics of the victor of Assaye. The inspiration for adventurous tales came back, and "Treasure Island" made its way to the boys' paper, without any fanfare.
In the following May, Messrs. Cassell proposed to publish "Treasure Island" in book form, being spirited up, I suppose, by Mr. Henley, who was editing for them "The Magazine of Art," in which Stevenson wrote two or three articles. (I remember that a letter of my own to "The Editor," as Mr. Henley had proudly signed himself, came automatically into the hands of the General Editor, a clergyman, if I do not err, and that my observations on the Art of Savages, lighting on the wrong sort of ground, sprang up and nearly choked Mr. Henley.) Stevenson was already the victim of the Yankee pirate, whose industry, at least, made his name, though wrongly spelled, known to the community which later paid him so well for his work, and displayed for him an enthusiasm of affectionate admiration.
In the following May, Mr. Cassell suggested publishing "Treasure Island" in book format, probably inspired by Mr. Henley, who was editing "The Magazine of Art" for them, where Stevenson had written two or three articles. (I remember that a letter of mine to "The Editor," as Mr. Henley had proudly called himself, made its way to the General Editor, a clergyman, if I'm not mistaken, and that my comments on the Art of Savages, hitting the wrong note, almost overwhelmed Mr. Henley.) Stevenson was already dealing with the Yankee pirate, whose efforts, at least, made his name, although misspelled, known to the audience that later rewarded him handsomely for his work and showed him a deep affection and admiration.
In 1884 he worked at the often rewritten "Prince Otto," and did a pot-boiler—"The Black Arrow"—which pleased the boy public of the paper much better than "Treasure Island." His time, from January, 1883, to May, 1884, was passed at Hyères. In the end of November, "Treasure Island" was published in book form, and was warmly welcomed by the Press and by such friends of the author as retained, at least in letters, any smack of youth. It was forced, as far as "You must read it, please," even on the friends of the friends, and so on in successive waves, yet it did not reach a wide circle: five or six thousand copies were sold in the first year. That is failure in the eyes of many of our novelists whose style does not bore the unfastidious abonné. Stevenson, in writing an article for a magazine on his "First Book," chose "Treasure Island," for books other than novels do not count as books. He spoke of terror as the motive and interest of the tale; the dread for each and all of a mutiny headed by his ruthless favourite, John Silver. Indeed, terror, whether caused by the eccentric furies of Mr. William Bones, mariner, or of the awful blind Pew with his tapping staff, runs through the volume as the dominant motive. But there is so much else: the many landscapes, so various and so vivid; the humour of the Doctor and the Squire, the variety of the seamen's characters; the Man of the Island, with his craving for a piece of cheese; above all, John Silver. He is terrible, this coldly cruel, crafty, and masterful Odysseus of the Pacific. His creator liked him, but I could have seen Silver withering on the wuddie at Execution Dock, or suspended from a yardarm, without shedding the tears of sensibility. "A pirate is rather a beast than otherwise," says a young critic in "The Human Boy," and I cannot get over Silver gloating on the prospect of torturing Trelawny. At all events, he is an original creation, and a miraculous portent in a boy's book.
In 1884, he worked on the frequently revised "Prince Otto," and also wrote a straightforward story—"The Black Arrow"—which was much more popular with the young readers of the newspaper than "Treasure Island." He spent his time from January 1883 to May 1884 in Hyères. At the end of November, "Treasure Island" was published in book form and received a warm reception from the press and from some of the author's friends who still had a youthful spirit in their correspondence. It was pushed, with a "You have to read this" attitude, onto the friends of friends, creating a ripple effect, but it didn’t reach a large audience: only five or six thousand copies were sold in the first year. Many contemporary novelists would view this as a failure, especially those whose writing doesn't bore the average reader. In an article for a magazine about his "First Book," Stevenson chose "Treasure Island" since other types of books don’t really count. He described terror as the driving force and interest of the story, stemming from the fear of a mutiny led by his ruthless favorite, John Silver. Indeed, terror, whether from the wild antics of Mr. William Bones, the mariner, or the frightening blind Pew with his tapping cane, dominates the narrative. But there’s so much more: the diverse and vivid landscapes, the humor of the Doctor and the Squire, the variety among the sailors; the Man of the Island, with his obsession for a piece of cheese; and above all, John Silver. He is terrifying—this coldly cruel, cunning, and commanding figure of the Pacific. His creator had an affection for him, but I could have watched Silver meet his end at Execution Dock or hanging from a yardarm without feeling any emotional pull. "A pirate is more of a beast than anything else," says a young critic in "The Human Boy," and I can’t shake the image of Silver relishing the thought of torturing Trelawny. In any case, he is a unique creation and an extraordinary figure in a children’s book.
Fiercer attacks of illness in various forms drove Stevenson to Bournemouth; he was engaged, when he had the strength, on those plays (in collaboration with Mr. Henley) which prove that he had not the mysterious gift of writing for the stage. "I hope Mr. Henley wrote most of it," said a lady, as she left the theatre where she had seen "Deacon Brodie" played. Had Deacon Brodie been Archdeacon Brodie, there would have been more piquancy in the contrast of his "double life."
Fiercer bouts of illness in different forms pushed Stevenson to Bournemouth; when he had the energy, he was working on those plays (in collaboration with Mr. Henley) that showed he didn't have the special talent for writing for the stage. "I hope Mr. Henley wrote most of it," said a woman as she left the theater where she had watched "Deacon Brodie" performed. If Deacon Brodie had been Archdeacon Brodie, there would have been more interesting contrast in his "double life."
This idea of the double life of each man had long haunted Stevenson. He told me once that he meant to write a story "about a fellow who was two fellows," which did not, when thus stated, seem a fortunate idea. However, happily, he continued to think of Hyde and Jekyll, yet knew not how to manage them. One night, after eating bread and jam freely, he had a nightmare; he saw Hyde, pursued, take refuge in a closet, swallow "the mixture as before"—the mysterious powder or potion—and change horribly into Jekyll.
This concept of each person living a double life had long troubled Stevenson. He once told me that he wanted to write a story "about a guy who was two guys," which didn’t sound like a great idea when put that way. However, fortunately, he kept thinking about Hyde and Jekyll, even though he didn’t know how to handle them. One night, after indulging in bread and jam, he had a nightmare; he saw Hyde, being chased, hide in a closet, drink "the mixture as before"—the mysterious powder or potion—and transform grotesquely into Jekyll.
He set to work at once, and in three feverish days completed the first draft of his parable. In this the Hyde aspect was only Jekyll's unassuming disguise, adopted at hours when he wished to be a little gay. Stevenson burned his first draft, and rewrote the whole in three days.
He got to work right away, and in three intense days finished the first draft of his story. In this, the Hyde persona was just Jekyll's modest disguise, used during moments when he wanted to have a bit of fun. Stevenson burned his first draft and rewrote everything in three days.
He knew, it seems, that the magical powder was an error. One sees how the thing could be managed otherwise, with a slight strain on the resources of psychical research. But in no way could the story have attained "the probable impossible," which Aristotle preferred to "the improbable possible."
He seemed to understand that the magical powder was a mistake. It's clear how things could have been handled differently, with a bit of a stretch on the resources of psychic research. But there was no way the story could have reached "the probable impossible," which Aristotle preferred over "the improbable possible."
Stevenson sent the manuscript to my friend Mr. Charles Longman, who, in turn, sent it to me. I began to read it one night, in the security of a modest London drawing-room, and, naturally, it fascinated me from the first page. Then I came to a certain page, which produced such an emotion that I threw the manuscript on a chair, and scuttled apprehensively to the safety of bed. Later, a kinsman, who seldom read a book, told me that, living alone in a great Highland house, he had thrown down the printed book at the same passage, and made the same inglorious retreat. Anyone who knows the book, knows what the passage is.
Stevenson sent the manuscript to my friend Mr. Charles Longman, who then sent it to me. One night, I started reading it in the cozy surroundings of a modest London living room, and naturally, I was captivated from the first page. Then I reached a particular page that stirred such a strong emotion in me that I threw the manuscript onto a chair and hurriedly ran to the safety of my bed. Later, a relative who rarely read books told me that while living alone in a large Highland house, he had also tossed down the printed book at the same part and made the same shameful retreat. Anyone who knows the book knows exactly what that passage is.
The story was produced in a paper-covered volume costing a shilling, and was little heeded till a reviewer in The Times "caught this great stupid public by the ear," as Thackeray said.
The story was released in a paperback edition priced at a shilling and was mostly overlooked until a reviewer in The Times "caught this great stupid public by the ear," as Thackeray put it.
The clergy of all denominations did the rest. As they had preached on "Pamela," a hundred and forty years earlier, so they called the attention of their flocks to Hyde and to Jekyll. "Who are Hyde and Jekyll, my brethren? You are Hyde and Jekyll. I am Jekyll and Hyde; each of us is Jekyll, and, alas, each of us is Hyde!"
The clergy from all backgrounds took it from there. Just like they had done with "Pamela" a hundred and forty years before, they directed their congregations' attention to Hyde and Jekyll. "Who are Hyde and Jekyll, my friends? You are Hyde and Jekyll. I am Jekyll and Hyde; each of us is Jekyll, and, sadly, each of us is Hyde!"
Stevenson had long ago "found himself"; now he was found by the public. The names of his two rascally heroes (Dr. Jekyll is even less of a gentleman than Hyde) became proverbial.
Stevenson had long ago "found himself"; now he was discovered by the public. The names of his two mischievous heroes (Dr. Jekyll is even less of a gentleman than Hyde) became well-known.
The gruesome parable occupied an interval in the making of what I suppose is his masterpiece—"Kidnapped." The story centres on the Appin Murder of 1751, about which he had made inquiries in the neighbourhood of Rannoch, where Alan Breck skulked after the shooting of Campbell of Glenure in the hanging wood south of Ballachulish. Stevenson could not learn who "the other man" was—the real murderer in the romance. I know, but respect the Celtic secret. The fatal gun was found, very many years after the deed, by an old woman, in a hollow tree, and it was not the gun of James Stewart.
The gruesome story took a break during the creation of what I think is his masterpiece—"Kidnapped." The narrative focuses on the Appin Murder of 1751, about which he had made inquiries in the Rannoch area, where Alan Breck hid out after shooting Campbell of Glenure in the woods south of Ballachulish. Stevenson couldn't find out who "the other man" was—the actual murderer in the tale. I know, but I respect the Celtic secret. The deadly gun was discovered, many years later, by an old woman, inside a hollow tree, and it was not the gun of James Stewart.
(I have a friend whose great-great-grandfather was standing beside James of the Glens, watching the digging of potatoes. A horse was heard approaching at such a pace that James said, "Whoever the rider is, the horse is not his own." As he galloped past, the rider shouted: "Glenure is shot!" "Who did it I don't know, but I am the man that will hang for it," said James, too truly.)
(I have a friend whose great-great-grandfather was next to James of the Glens, watching potatoes being dug. They heard a horse approaching quickly, and James said, "Whoever the rider is, that horse isn’t his." As he raced by, the rider yelled, "Glenure is shot!" "I don’t know who did it, but I’m the one who will get hanged for it," James replied, quite accurately.)
Of "Kidnapped," Stevenson said (as Thackeray said of Henry Esmond and Lady Castlewood, as Scott says of Dugald Dalgetty) that, in this book alone of his, "the characters took the bit in their teeth," at a certain point. "It was they who spoke, it was they who wrote the remainder of the story."
Of "Kidnapped," Stevenson said (like Thackeray said of Henry Esmond and Lady Castlewood, as Scott says of Dugald Dalgetty) that, in this book only, "the characters took control," at a certain point. "It was them who spoke, it was them who wrote the rest of the story."
They are spontaneous, they are living. Balfour, in the scenario of the tale, was to have been kidnapped and carried to the American plantations. But he and Alan "went their ain gait." At the end, you can see the pen drop from the weary fingers; they left half-told the story of Alan, to be continued in "Catriona."
They are spontaneous; they are alive. Balfour, in the scenario of the story, was supposed to be kidnapped and taken to the American plantations. But he and Alan "went their own way." In the end, you can see the pen drop from the tired fingers; they left Alan's story half-told, to be continued in "Catriona."
A love of Jacobite times, and of Alan Breck's country, Lochaber, Glencoe, Mamore, may bias me; but in "Kidnapped" Stevenson appears to me to reach the height of his genius in designing character and landscape; in humour, dialogue, and creative power. As in his preceding stories, there is hardly the flutter of a petticoat, but the tale, like Prince Charles at Holyrood, can point to a Highland man of the sword, and say, "These are my beauties." I remember that Mr. Matthew Arnold admired the story greatly, and he had no Jacobite or local bias.
A love for the Jacobite era, and for Alan Breck's homeland, Lochaber, Glencoe, Mamore, might influence my views; but in "Kidnapped," Stevenson really showcases his brilliance in creating characters and landscapes, along with humor, dialogue, and imaginative power. Like in his earlier stories, there's hardly a hint of a woman's presence, yet the story, much like Prince Charles at Holyrood, can highlight a Highland warrior and proudly declare, "These are my strengths." I recall Mr. Matthew Arnold greatly appreciating the tale, and he didn't have any Jacobite or local biases.
In May, 1887, Stevenson lost his father, and paid his last visit to his native country.
In May 1887, Stevenson lost his father and made his final trip to his home country.
It was during this period, in 1886 probably, that I, for the first time, saw Stevenson confined to bed in one of his frequent illnesses, and then, also, I saw him for the last time. So emaciated was he (we need not dwell on what seemed that "last face of Hippocrates"), that we could not believe there remained for him some crowded years of life and comparatively healthy and joy-bestowing energy. If the ocean was henceforth to roll between us, at least he said that we were always best friends when furthest apart; though, indeed, we were never so intimate as to be otherwise than friendly. It was never the man that I knew best; but the genius that I delighted in, "on this side idolatry." Always, in verse or in prose, in Scots or in English, he made one reader happy; by a kind of pre-established harmony of taste which might not have prevailed in the intercourse of every day's life.
It was during this time, probably in 1886, that I first saw Stevenson stuck in bed due to one of his frequent illnesses, and then, I also saw him for the last time. He was so thin (we don’t need to focus on what looked like that "last face of Hippocrates") that we couldn't believe he had a few more busy years left in him, along with some relatively healthy and joyful energy. If the ocean was going to roll between us from then on, at least he said we were always best friends when we were far apart; though, we were never close enough to be anything more than friendly. I never really knew the man well; it was the genius I admired, "on this side of idolatry." Always, in verse or prose, in Scots or English, he made one reader happy, thanks to a kind of pre-established harmony of taste that might not have existed in our everyday interactions.
In August, 1887, Stevenson left England for ever, arriving at New York as a lion, hunted by reporters, whom, no doubt, he received with the majestic courtesy of his own Prince of Bohemia. Two versions of Jekyll and Hyde were being acted; all this was very unlike the calm indifference of his native land. It seems that in Jekyll, as "Terryfled" (in Scott's phrase), there is a "love interest"; love is alien to Dr. Jekyll, as to the shepherd before he found that Love was a dweller on the rocks. The Terryfication was, at least, an advertisement. To advertise himself, in the modern way, Stevenson was not competent. He never was interviewed as a Celebrity at Home, as far as I am aware. Indeed, he loved not society papers, and lit a bonfire and danced a dance around it in his garden, when some editor of a journal of that sort was committed to prison. His name is not mentioned, but Stevenson and I had against him a grudge of very old standing.
In August 1887, Stevenson left England for good, arriving in New York like a celebrity, chased by reporters, whom he undoubtedly greeted with the grand courtesy of his own Prince of Bohemia. Two versions of Jekyll and Hyde were being performed; this was very different from the calm indifference of his homeland. It appears that in Jekyll, as "Terryfled" (in Scott's words), there is a "love interest"; love is foreign to Dr. Jekyll, just like it was to the shepherd before he discovered that Love lived in the rocks. The Terryfication was at least a way to promote himself. In terms of modern self-promotion, Stevenson was not skilled. To my knowledge, he was never interviewed as a Celebrity at Home. In fact, he had little interest in society newspapers, even lighting a bonfire and dancing around it in his garden when an editor from one of those publications was thrown in jail. His name isn’t mentioned, but Stevenson and I held a long-standing grudge against him.
Dollars in sufficient profusion were offered for his works, and in the Adirondack Hills, beside a frozen river in the starlit night, he dreamed of "a story of many years and countries, of the sea and the land, savagery and civilization." He thought of that old Indian marvel, the suspended life of the buried fakir, over whose grave the corn is sown and grown. He thought of an evil genius on whom this method should be tried in frozen Canadian earth. Thus, what seems like the far-fetched idea of a wearied fancy in "The Master of Ballantrae" was, from the first, of the essence of that bitter romance. The new conception fitted in with a tale, already dreamed of on the Perthshire moors, about the dark adventurous years of the Jacobite eclipse. The Prince was hidden in a convent of Paris, or flashing for a moment in the Mall, or cruising, a dingy bearded wanderer, in Germany or the Netherlands; while his followers were serving under French colours, under Montcalm or Lally-Tolendal. Men who had charged side by side at Gledsmuir and Culloden, might meet as foes in Canada or Hindostan. There is matter enough, in 1750-1765, for scores of romances, but who now can write them? But the Master did not now begin his deeds of bale. Stevenson's stepson, Mr. Osbourne, then very young, himself wrote "The Finsbury Tontine; or The Game of Bluff," and I was informed at the time by Stevenson's devoted admirer, Mr. McClure, that the book was completed by Mr. Osbourne for the Press. Then Stevenson took up the manuscript, and, as Mr. Osbourne says, "forced the thing to live as it had never lived before." Indeed, the style of "The Wrong Box" throughout, is Louis's style in such romantic farces as "The New Arabian Nights," a manner of his own creation.
Dollars were offered in abundance for his works, and in the Adirondack Hills, next to a frozen river on a starlit night, he dreamed of "a story spanning many years and countries, of the sea and the land, savagery and civilization." He thought about that old Indian marvel, the suspended life of the buried fakir, where corn is sown and grown over his grave. He imagined an evil genius on whom this method could be tried in the frozen Canadian earth. Thus, what might seem like a far-fetched idea from a tired imagination in "The Master of Ballantrae" was, from the very beginning, at the heart of that bitter romance. The new concept aligned perfectly with a story he had already envisioned on the Perthshire moors, about the dark, adventurous years of the Jacobite eclipse. The Prince was hidden in a convent in Paris, or appearing for a moment in the Mall, or traveling as a grim, bearded wanderer in Germany or the Netherlands; while his followers served under French colors, under Montcalm or Lally-Tolendal. Men who had fought together at Gledsmuir and Culloden could meet as enemies in Canada or Hindustan. There’s enough material from 1750-1765 for numerous romances, but who can write them now? However, the Master didn’t begin his tragic deeds at that point. Stevenson’s stepson, Mr. Osbourne, who was very young at the time, wrote "The Finsbury Tontine; or The Game of Bluff," and I learned from Stevenson’s devoted admirer, Mr. McClure, that the book was completed by Mr. Osbourne for publication. Then Stevenson took up the manuscript, and as Mr. Osbourne describes, "forced it to live like it never had before." Indeed, the style of "The Wrong Box" throughout reflects Louis's style in such romantic farces as "The New Arabian Nights," which is a style of his own creation.
I seem to remember that I saw the finished manuscript, or perhaps an early copy of the book, and I did not care for it. Mr. Kipling rather surprised me by finding it so very amusing. Mr. Osbourne says that the story "still retains (it seems to me) a sense of failure," and that the public does not relish it. For my own part, on later re-readings, the little farce has made me laugh hysterically at the sorrows of Mr. William Pitman, that mild drawing-master, caught up and whirled away into adventures worthy of the great Fortuné du Boisgobey. The scene in which he is described as the American Broadwood, a person inured to a simple patriarchal life, a being of violent passions; with the immortal John in the character of the Great Vance; and that joy for ever, Uncle Joseph, with his deathless thirst for popular information and instruction—these personages, this "educated insolence," never cease to amuse. Uncle Joseph is no caricature. But the world likes its sensational novels to be written with becoming seriousness; in short, "The Wrong Box" is aimed at a small but devoted circle of admirers.
I seem to remember seeing the finished manuscript, or maybe an early copy of the book, and I didn’t like it. Mr. Kipling surprised me by finding it really funny. Mr. Osbourne says that the story "still retains (it seems to me) a sense of failure," and that the public doesn’t enjoy it. Personally, upon re-reading it later, the little farce made me laugh hysterically at the troubles of Mr. William Pitman, that mild drawing teacher, swept up into adventures worthy of the great Fortuné du Boisgobey. The scene where he’s described as the American Broadwood, someone used to a simple, patriarchal life, a person of intense passions; with the unforgettable John playing the role of the Great Vance; and that ever-entertaining Uncle Joseph, with his unquenchable thirst for popular knowledge and instruction—these characters, this "educated insolence," always entertain me. Uncle Joseph isn’t a caricature. But the world prefers its sensational novels to be written with an appropriate seriousness; in short, "The Wrong Box" is targeted at a small but dedicated group of fans.
People constantly ask men who have collaborated how they do the business? As a rule, so some French collaborator says, "some one is the dupe, and he is the man of genius." This was not true, too notably, in the case of Alexandre Dumas, nor was it true in Stevenson's case. As a rule, one man does the work, and the other looks on, but, again, this was not the way in which Stevenson and Mr. Osbourne worked. They first talked over the book together, and ideas were struck out in the encounter of minds. This practice may, very probably, prove unfruitful, or even injurious, to many writers; they are confused rather than assisted. After or during the course of the conversations (when he had an ally), after reflection, when he had not, Stevenson used to write out a series of chapter headings. One, I remember, was "The Master of Ballantrae to the Rescue," an incident in a tale which he began about the obscure adventures of Prince Charles in 1749-1750. "Ballantrae to the Rescue"—the sound was promising, but I do not know who was to be obliged by the Master.
People always ask men who have collaborated how they get the business done. Generally, as one French collaborator put it, "one person is the fool, and that person is the genius." This wasn't particularly true for Alexandre Dumas, nor was it for Stevenson. Usually, one person does the work while the other just watches, but that’s not how Stevenson and Mr. Osbourne operated. They first discussed the book together, and ideas emerged through their conversation. This method might end up being unproductive or even harmful for many writers; they often feel more confused than helped. After or during their discussions (when he had a partner), and after thinking it over when he didn’t, Stevenson would write a list of chapter titles. One title I remember was "The Master of Ballantrae to the Rescue," part of a story he started about the lesser-known adventures of Prince Charles in 1749-1750. "Ballantrae to the Rescue"—the title sounded promising, but I have no idea who the Master was supposed to help.
After the list of chapters was completed, Mr. Osbourne used to write the first draft, "to break the ground," and then each wrote and rewrote, an indefinite number of times. The style, the general effect produced, are the style and the effect of Stevenson. "He liked the comradeship." More care was taken than on a novel of which I and another were greatly guilty. My partner represented Mr. Nicholas Wogan as rubbing his hands after a bullet at Fontenoy (as history and I made quite clear) had deprived Mr. Wogan of one of his arms. There is no such error in the "Iliad," despite the unnumbered multitude of collaborators detected by the Higher Criticism.
After the chapter list was done, Mr. Osbourne would write the first draft to get things started, and then each of us would write and rewrite it an endless number of times. The style and overall effect are both from Stevenson. "He appreciated the teamwork." More attention was given than on a novel where I and another person were seriously at fault. My partner portrayed Mr. Nicholas Wogan as rubbing his hands after a bullet at Fontenoy had taken one of his arms, which history and I clarified thoroughly. There's no such mistake in the "Iliad," even with the countless collaborators identified by Higher Criticism.
In June, 1888, Stevenson sailed out on the Pacific in search of health, and followed the shining shadow through the isles and seas till he made his last home at Samoa. It was a three years' cruise among "summer isles of Eden." Perhaps no book of Stevenson's is less popular than his narrative of storm and calm, of beachcombers and brown Polynesian princes. The scenery is too exotic for the general taste. The joy and sorrow of Stevenson was to find a society "in much the same convulsionary and transitional state" as the Highlands and Islands after 1745. He was always haunted, and in popularity retarded, by History. He wanted to know about details of savage custom and of superstitious belief, a taste very far from being universal even in the most highly cultivated circles, where Folklore is a name of fear. He found among the natives such fatal Polynesian fairy ladies as they of Glenfinlas, on whom Scott wrote the ballad. He found a medicine-man who hypnotized him from behind his back, which nobody at home had been able to do before his face. He exchanged stories with the clansmen—Scots for Polynesian; they were much the same in character and incident. He had found, in Polynesia, the way out of our own present. He met a Polynesian Queen—a Mary Stuart or a Helen of Troy grown old. "She had been passed from chief to chief; she had been fought for and taken in war"; a "Queen of Cannibals, tattooed from head to foot." Now she had reached the Elysian plain and a windless age, living in religion, as it were: "she passes all her days with the sisters."
In June 1888, Stevenson set sail on the Pacific in search of better health, traveling through the beautiful islands and seas until he made his final home in Samoa. It was a three-year journey among the "summer isles of Eden." Perhaps no book by Stevenson is less popular than his account of storms and calm, of beachcombers and Polynesian princes. The scenery is too exotic for most people's tastes. Stevenson's joy and sorrow came from discovering a society "in much the same convulsionary and transitional state" as the Highlands and Islands after 1745. He was always haunted, and his popularity was hindered, by History. He wanted to learn about the specifics of primitive customs and superstitions, a curiosity that’s far from universal, even among the most educated circles, where Folklore is often feared. He encountered fatal Polynesian fairy figures reminiscent of those in Glenfinlas, about whom Scott wrote the ballad. He met a medicine man who hypnotized him from behind, something no one back home had managed to do in his presence. He swapped stories with the clansmen—Scots for Polynesians; the tales were similar in character and events. In Polynesia, he found a way out of our own current reality. He met a Polynesian Queen—a Mary Stuart or a Helen of Troy in her old age. "She had been passed from chief to chief; she had been fought for and captured in war"; a "Queen of Cannibals, tattooed from head to toe." Now she had reached the Elysian fields and a peaceful age, living a life of spirituality, as it were: "she spends all her days with the sisters."
She was not a white woman: none of these people, so courteous and kind, were white, were up-to-date. In London and New York amateurs did not want to be told about them in Stevenson's "Letters from the South Seas." Stevenson "collected songs and legends": fortunately he also worked at "The Master of Ballantrae," in spite of frequent illnesses, and many perils of the sea. "The Master of Ballantrae" was finished at Honolulu; the closing chapters are the work of a weary pen.
She was not a white woman: none of these people, so polite and friendly, were white or modern. In London and New York, amateurs didn’t want to hear about them in Stevenson’s "Letters from the South Seas." Stevenson "collected songs and legends": fortunately, he also worked on "The Master of Ballantrae," despite frequent illnesses and many dangers at sea. "The Master of Ballantrae" was completed in Honolulu; the last chapters are written by a tired hand.
He had made tryst with an evil genius that was essential to the conception of the book, and with a hideous tale of fraternal hatred, told by a constitutional coward. Everything is under the shadow of thunder and lit by lightning. A glimpse of Allan Breck, and the babblings of the Chevalier Bourke, are the only relief. But the life is as clearly seen as life in Stevenson's books always is, for example when the guinea is thrown through the stained window pane, or the old serving-man holds the candle to light the duel of brothers who are born foes; or as in the final scenes of desperate wanderings in the company of murderers through Canadian snows. But the book, as Sir Henry Yule said, is "as grim as the road to Lucknow"—as it was intended to be.
He had made a deal with an evil force that was crucial to the creation of the book, along with a gruesome story of brotherly hatred, told by a coward. Everything is overshadowed by thunder and illuminated by lightning. A glimpse of Allan Breck and the ramblings of Chevalier Bourke are the only moments of relief. Yet, life is portrayed as clearly as it always is in Stevenson's works, like when a gold coin is thrown through the stained glass window, or when the old servant holds a candle to light the duel between the brothers who are natural enemies; or during the final scenes of desperate wandering with murderers through the snowy Canadian landscape. But the book, as Sir Henry Yule remarked, is "as grim as the road to Lucknow"—just as it was meant to be.
A fresh cruise, in the following year, bettered his health, and brought him the anecdote of a mystery of the sea which was the germ of "The Wrecker." He saw Samoa, and bought land there—Vailima—the last and best of his resting-places; and here he was joined, in 1891, by his intrepid mother. He was now a lord of land, a householder in his unpretentious Abbotsford, and "a great chief" among the natives, distracted as they were by a king de facto, and a king over the water, with the sonorous names of Malietoa and Mataafa. Samoan politics, the strifes of Germany, England, and the States, were labyrinthine: their chronicle is written in his "Footnote to History." My conjectures as to the romantic side of his dealings with the rightful king are vague and need not be recorded. "You can be in a new conspiracy every day," said an Irishman with zest, but conspiracies are better things in fiction than in real life; and Stevenson had no personal ambitions, and, withal, as much common sense as Shelley displayed in certain late events of his life. He turned to the half-finished "Wrecker" and completed it.
A fresh cruise the following year improved his health and brought him the story of a sea mystery that inspired "The Wrecker." He visited Samoa and bought land there—Vailima—the last and best of his places to rest; and in 1891, his brave mother joined him. He was now a landowner, a homeowner in his unpretentious Abbotsford, and "a great chief" among the locals, who were caught up with a king de facto and a king overseas, with the impressive names of Malietoa and Mataafa. Samoan politics, along with the conflicts involving Germany, England, and the U.S., were complex: their history is detailed in his "Footnote to History." My thoughts about the romantic aspects of his interactions with the rightful king are unclear and don’t need to be noted. "You can be in a new conspiracy every day," said an enthusiastic Irishman, but conspiracies are more exciting in stories than in real life; and Stevenson had no personal ambitions, along with as much common sense as Shelley showed in some late events of his life. He turned to the half-finished "Wrecker" and completed it.
When the story began to appear in "Scribner's Magazine" it seemed full of vivacity and promise. The opening scenes in the Pacific were like Paradise, as the author said, to dwellers in Brixton, or other purlieus of London. The financial school at which Loudon Dodd was educated in Stock Exchange flutters was rather less convincing than any dream of Paradise, but none the less amusing. At home in Edinburgh, with the old Scottish master of jerry-building and of "plinths," the atmosphere was truly Scots, tea-coseys and all, while the reminiscences of Paris and Fontainebleau, and the grandeurs et misères of "the young Americo-Parisienne sculptor" were perfectly fresh to the world, though some of the anecdotes were known to Stevenson's intimates. Mr. James Pinkerton is a laudable creation, with his loyalty, his innocence, his total ignorance and complete lack of taste, and his scampers too near the wind of commercial probity. The spirit of hustle incarnate in a man otherwise so innocent, the ideals caught from heaven knows what American works for the young, and the inspired patriotism, the blundering enthusiastic affection, make the early Pinkerton a study as original as it is entertaining.
When the story started appearing in "Scribner's Magazine," it felt lively and full of potential. The opening scenes in the Pacific were like Paradise, as the author described it, to folks living in Brixton or other neighborhoods in London. The financial school where Loudon Dodd was educated in Stock Exchange antics was a lot less convincing than any dream of Paradise, but still quite entertaining. Back home in Edinburgh, with the old Scottish master of dubious construction and "plinths," the atmosphere was authentically Scottish, complete with tea cozies, while the memories of Paris and Fontainebleau, along with the grandeurs et misères of "the young Americo-Parisienne sculptor," felt completely new to the world, even though some of the stories were familiar to Stevenson's friends. Mr. James Pinkerton is a commendable character, with his loyalty, naivety, total ignorance, lack of taste, and his close calls with commercial ethics. The embodiment of hustle in a man who is otherwise so innocent, his ideals influenced by who-knows-what American literature for the youth, along with his passionate patriotism and clumsy, enthusiastic affection, make early Pinkerton a character as unique as he is entertaining.
The sale by auction of the wreck, which, by arrangement, is to be Pinkerton's prey, the mysterious opposition of the other bidder, so determined to win an object apparently so worthless, is no less thrilling than the sale of the fur coat in Boisgobey's "Crime de l'Opéra." But the reader knows why the fur coat is so much desired, whereas I remember being driven so wild by curiosity about the value of the wreck that I wrote to Louis, desiring to learn the secret. He would not divulge it, and when, after the voyage to the island and the excitement of knocking the wreck to pieces were over—when the secret came out, it was neither pleasant nor probable. That a mild British amateur of water-colour drawing should have taken part in a massacre of men, shot painfully with cheap revolvers, was an example of "the possible improbable," and much more of a tax on belief than the transformation of Dr. Jekyll. When I mildly urged this criticism, I learned, by return of post, from a correspondent usually as dilatory as Wordsworth, that I was a stay-at-home person ignorant of the world, and of life as it is lived by full-blooded men on the high seas. That was very true, but the amateur in water-colour was also a mild kind of good being. "What would I have done with the crew who were such compromising witnesses, and were butchered?" I would have marooned them.
The auction of the wreck, which is supposed to be Pinkerton's prize, is just as exciting as the sale of the fur coat in Boisgobey's "Crime de l'Opéra," especially considering the mysterious rival bidder who is so intent on securing something that seems completely worthless. But while the reader understands why the fur coat is so sought after, I remember being so curious about the wreck's value that I wrote to Louis to find out. He wouldn’t share the details, and after the trip to the island and the thrill of smashing the wreck, the truth that came out was neither enjoyable nor believable. The fact that a gentle British amateur watercolorist participated in a violent act where men were shot with cheap revolvers is an example of "the possible improbable," and it stretches credulity far more than Dr. Jekyll's transformation. When I gently mentioned this criticism, I received a response from a correspondent who is usually as slow as Wordsworth, saying that I was just a homebody who didn’t understand the world and life lived by passionate men at sea. That was true, but the watercolor amateur was also just a mild-mannered good person. "What would I have done with the crew who were such compromising witnesses, and were murdered?" I would have marooned them.
"The Beach of Falesá" is a revelation of unfamiliar life and character, and one is attached to the little brown heroine. There was to have been "a supernatural element," better, probably, than the device of the Æolian harps hung in the thicket. "I have got the smell and the look of the thing a good deal," he said, and he had got the style of his rough English narrator, who was, as he told the missionary, "what you call a sinner, what I call a sweep," but repented in time.
"The Beach of Falesá" reveals a world full of new experiences and interesting characters, and you really connect with the little brown heroine. There was supposed to be "a supernatural element," which might have been better than using the idea of the Æolian harps hidden in the trees. "I have captured the smell and feel of the situation really well," he said, and he had also picked up the style of his rough English narrator, who told the missionary, "what you call a sinner, what I call a sweep," but found redemption in the end.
A period of many projects followed; one, "The Young Chevalier," had a germ in "The Letter of Henry Goring" (1749-1750), with which I brought him acquainted, not knowing then that it was merely a romance by the prolific Eliza Heywood. It was in this tale that the Master of Ballantrae was to come to the rescue, and I think that a Scottish assassin (who lurks obscure in real history) and Mandrin, the famed French robber, were to appear, but only a chapter is published among other fragments. As it stands, Prince Charles's eyes are alternately blue and brown; brown was their actual colour—they were like Stevenson's own.
A period filled with many projects followed; one, "The Young Chevalier," was inspired by "The Letter of Henry Goring" (1749-1750), which I introduced to him, not realizing at the time that it was just a story written by the prolific Eliza Heywood. In this tale, the Master of Ballantrae was meant to come to the rescue, and I had plans for a Scottish assassin (who remains obscure in real history) and Mandrin, the famous French robber, to make an appearance, but only one chapter has been published among other fragments. As it is now, Prince Charles's eyes are described as alternating between blue and brown; brown was their actual color—they were like Stevenson's own.
Fortunately, the "Chevalier" was deserted for the continuation of "Kidnapped," a sequel which is as good as, or, thanks to the two heroines, Catriona and Barbara Grant, is even better than, the original. To think of it is to wish to take it from the shelf and read it again. It is all excellent, from the scenes where Alan is hiding under a haystack (suggested by an adventure of the Chevalier Johnstone after Culloden), and the first meeting with that good daughter of Clan Alpine and of James Mor, onwards.
Fortunately, the "Chevalier" was empty for the next part of "Kidnapped," a sequel that's just as good as, or possibly even better than, the original thanks to the two main characters, Catriona and Barbara Grant. Just thinking about it makes me want to grab it off the shelf and read it again. Everything about it is great, from the scenes where Alan is hiding under a haystack (inspired by an adventure of Chevalier Johnstone after Culloden) to the first encounter with that strong daughter of Clan Alpine and James Mor, and beyond.
Stevenson excited a good deal of odium among fiery Celts by his scoundrel Master of Lovat. There is no reason, as far as I am aware, to suppose that Simon was a scoundrel, but, as a figure in fiction, he is very firmly drawn. The abortive duel of Balfour with the Highland Ensign, who conceives high esteem of "Palfour," is in the author's best manner, as are the days of prison in that "unco place, the Bass," and he was justly proud of the wizard tale of Tod Lapraik. The bristling demeanour of Alan Breck and James Mor (a very gallant but distinctly unfortunate son of Rob Roy), seems a correct picture. Indeed, James Mor was correctly divined, probably from letters of his published in Scott's "Rob Roy." It does not appear that Stevenson ever saw a number of James's letters in the character of a spy (a spy who appears to be carefully bamboozling his employers), which exist in the Newcastle MSS. in the British Museum. But the James of these letters is the James of "Catriona." The scenes with the advocates of James of the Glens, at Inveraray, read as if they had been recorded in shorthand, at the moment. David himself is, of course, the Lowland prig he is meant to be, but Catriona, at last, was a moving heroine, though Stevenson, justly, preferred to her the beautiful Miss Grant, and entirely overcame the difficulty of making us realise her beauty. The Princess, in "Prince Otto," is a fair shadow, compared to Miss Grant, and Stevenson at last convinced most readers that if he had omitted the interest of womanhood, it was not from incompetence—though it may have been from diffidence.
Stevenson stirred a lot of hostility among passionate Celts with his rogue Master of Lovat. I don’t have any reason to think Simon was actually a scoundrel, but as a character in fiction, he’s very well drawn. The failed duel between Balfour and the Highland Ensign, who holds "Palfour" in high regard, showcases the author’s best style, as do the days spent in prison at that "strange place, the Bass," and he was rightly proud of the magical story of Tod Lapraik. The fierce demeanor of Alan Breck and James Mor (a very brave but notably unfortunate son of Rob Roy) seems like an accurate portrayal. In fact, James Mor was accurately interpreted, likely from letters published in Scott's "Rob Roy." It’s unclear if Stevenson ever saw a number of James’s letters as a spy (a spy who seems to be carefully tricking his employers), which exist in the Newcastle Manuscripts at the British Museum. But the James in these letters is the James of "Catriona." The scenes involving the advocates of James of the Glens, in Inveraray, feel like they were recorded in shorthand at that very moment. David himself is, of course, the uptight Lowlander he’s meant to be, but Catriona ultimately emerged as a captivating heroine, although Stevenson rightly preferred the beautiful Miss Grant and fully managed to convey her beauty. The Princess in "Prince Otto" is a pale shadow next to Miss Grant, and Stevenson ultimately convinced most readers that if he had downplayed the interest of women, it wasn't due to a lack of ability—even if it might have been from shyness.
At this time we used to receive letters from him not infrequently; he sent me the "Luck of Apemama," which he sacrilegiously purchased from its holder. This fetish, the palladium of the island, was in one point remarkable—a very ordinary shell in a perfectly new box of native make. Why it was thought "great medicine" and ignorantly worshipped, the pale-face student of magic and religion could not understand. However, it was the Luck of the island, and when it crossed the sea to Europe a pestilence of measles fell on the native population. There was no manifest connection of cause and effect.
At that time, we received letters from him fairly often; he sent me the "Luck of Apemama," which he irreverently bought from its owner. This fetish, the protective charm of the island, had one notable feature—a completely ordinary shell in a brand new box made by locals. I couldn’t understand why it was considered "great medicine" and was worshipped so blindly. Still, it represented the Luck of the island, and when it made its way to Europe, an outbreak of measles struck the native population. There was no clear link between cause and effect.
Stevenson's letters to me were merely such notes as he might have written had we both been living within the four-mile radius; usually notes about books which he needed, always brightened with a quip and some original application of slang. Occasionally there were rhymes. One was about a lady:
Stevenson's letters to me were basically the kind of notes he would have written if we had both been living within four miles of each other; mostly notes about books he needed, always lightened up with a joke and some creative use of slang. Sometimes there were rhymes. One was about a lady:
Another had the refrain:
Another had the chorus:
Peruvian dollars.
One long and lively piece was on the Achaean hero of a fantastic romance by Mr. Rider Haggard and myself: the Ithacan, the Stormer of the City. Stevenson exclaimed:
One long and vibrant story was about the Achaean hero in an amazing romance written by Mr. Rider Haggard and me: the Ithacan, the Stormer of the City. Stevenson exclaimed:
How far have you staggered,
From Homer to Haggard And Lang.
How variously excellent he was as a letter-writer the readers of his correspondence know, and how vast, considering his labours and his health, that correspondence is! Often it is freakish, often it is serious, but except in some epistles of the period of his apprenticeship, it is never written as if he anticipated the publisher and the editor. Good examples are his letters to a reviewer, who, criticizing him without knowing him, wrote as if he were either an insensible athletic optimist, or a sufferer who was a poseur. "The fact is, consciously or not, you doubt my honesty.... Any brave man may make out a life which shall be happy for himself, and, by so being, beneficent to those about him. And if he fail, why should I hear him weeping?" Why, indeed? Think of Mr. Carlyle! "Did I groan loud, or did I groan low, Wackford?" said Mr. Squeers. Mr. Carlyle groaned loud, sometimes with fair reason. Stevenson did not groan at all. If he posed, if his silence was a pose, it was heroic. But his intellectual high spirits were almost invincible. If he had a pen in his hand, the follet of Molière rode it. Mr. Thomas Emmett, that famous Yorkshire cricketer, has spoken words of gold: "I was always happy as long as I was bowling." Stevenson, I think, was almost always happy when he was writing, when the instrument of his art was in his fingers.
How incredibly skilled he was as a letter writer is something readers of his correspondence can tell, and just how extensive that correspondence is given his efforts and his health! Sometimes it's quirky, sometimes it's serious, but aside from a few letters from his early years, it's never written as if he was anticipating a publisher or an editor. A good example is his letters to a reviewer who, criticizing him without knowing him, wrote as if he were either an unfeeling overly positive person or a phony sufferer. "The fact is, whether you realize it or not, you doubt my honesty.... Any brave person can create a life that is happy for themselves and, in doing so, benefits those around them. And if they fail, why should I listen to their mourning?" Why, indeed? Think of Mr. Carlyle! "Did I groan loud, or did I groan low, Wackford?" said Mr. Squeers. Mr. Carlyle groaned loudly, sometimes with good reason. Stevenson didn’t groan at all. If he posed, if his silence was an act, it was heroic. But his intellectual enthusiasm was nearly unbeatable. If he had a pen in his hand, the spirit of Molière soared with it. Mr. Thomas Emmett, that famous Yorkshire cricketer, shared these wise words: "I was always happy as long as I was bowling." Stevenson, I believe, was nearly always happy when he was writing, when the tool of his craft was in his hands.
Consider the deliberate and self-conscious glumness; the willful making the worst of things (in themselves pretty bad, I admit), that mark the novels of eminent moderns who thrive on their inexpensive pessimism, and have a name as Psychologues! Ohé, les Psychologues! Does anyone suppose that Stevenson could not have dipped his pencil in squalor and gloom, and psychology, and "oppositions of science falsely so-called," as St. Paul, in the spirit of prophecy, remarks? "Ugliness is only the prose of horror," he said. "It is when you are not able to write 'Macbeth' that you write 'Thérèse Raquin' ... In any case, and under any fashion, the great man produces beauty, terror, and mirth, and the little man produces——" We know what he produces, and though his books may be praised as if the little man were a Sophocles up to date, he and his works are a weariness to think upon. In them is neither beauty, mirth, nor terror, except the terror of illimitable ennui.
Consider the careful and self-aware gloom; the intentional focusing on the worst aspects of life (which are pretty bad, I admit) that characterize the novels of well-known modern authors who thrive on their cheap pessimism, earning the title Psychologues! Ohé, les Psychologues! Does anyone really think that Stevenson couldn’t have explored squalor, gloom, and psychology, and the "oppositions of science falsely so-called," as St. Paul, in a prophetic spirit, puts it? "Ugliness is just the prose of horror," he said. "When you can't write 'Macbeth,' you end up writing 'Thérèse Raquin' ... Regardless of the approach, the great artist produces beauty, terror, and humor, while the lesser artist produces——" We know what he produces, and even if his books are praised as if this lesser artist were a contemporary Sophocles, he and his works become tiresome to consider. In them, there is neither beauty, humor, nor terror, except for the dread of endless boredom.
None the less, I believe that the little men of woe are happy; are enjoying themselves, while they are writing, while they are doing their best to make the public comfortably miserable. If these authors were as candid as Stevenson they would admit that they enjoy their "merry days of desolation," and that the world is not such a bad place for them, after all. But perhaps before this truth can be accepted and confessed by these eminent practitioners in pessimism, a gleam of humour must arise on their darkness—and that is past praying for. There is a burden of a Scots song which, perhaps, may have sung itself in the ear of Louis, when life was at its darkest:
Nonetheless, I believe that the sad little men are happy; they're enjoying themselves while they write, doing their best to make the public comfortably miserable. If these writers were as honest as Stevenson, they'd admit that they appreciate their "cheerful days of despair" and that the world isn't such a bad place for them, after all. But maybe before these prominent pessimists can accept and confess this truth, a spark of humor must break through their darkness—and that's unlikely to happen. There’s a line from a Scottish song that may have played in Louis's ear when life was at its darkest:
Having finished "Catriona," at about the age that Scott had when he wrote his first novel, "Waverley," Stevenson thought of "Weir of Hermiston," ("I thought of Mr. Pickwick," says Dickens with admirable simplicity), and fell to that work furiously, as was his wont when a great theme dawned on him. But soon, as usual, came the cold fit; his inspirations being intermittent for some untraced reason, physical or psychological. Possibly he foresaw the practical difficulty of his initial idea: that the Roman Father should sit on the bench of Scottish Themis and try his own son on a capital charge. This would not have been permitted to occur in Scotland, even when "the Fifteen" were first constituted into a Court. If humane emotions did not forbid, it must have been clear that no Scottish judge (they were not "kinless loons") would have permitted his son to be found guilty. Conceivably this damping circumstance occurred to Stevenson. He dropped, for a while, the hanging judge, and began "St. Ives" as a short story. It was now that, early in 1893, under an attack of hemorrhage, Stevenson dictated his tale to his stepdaughter, on his fingers, in the gesture alphabet of the dumb. Perhaps this feat is as marvelous as Scott's dictating "The Bride of Lammermoor," in tormentis, to Will Laidlaw.
Having finished "Catriona," around the same age that Scott was when he wrote his first novel, "Waverley," Stevenson began thinking about "Weir of Hermiston" ("I thought of Mr. Pickwick," says Dickens with admirable simplicity) and dove into that project with his usual passion whenever a great idea struck him. But soon, as it's often the case, he hit a creative block; his bursts of inspiration were sporadic for reasons that were hard to pin down, whether physical or psychological. He probably anticipated the practical challenges of his initial concept: that a Roman father would sit on the Scottish bench of justice and judge his own son for a serious crime. This scenario wouldn’t have been allowed in Scotland, even when "the Fifteen" were first established as a court. If compassionate feelings didn’t prevent it, it would have been clear that no Scottish judge (they weren’t "kinless loons") would let his own son be convicted. Perhaps this discouraging thought crossed Stevenson’s mind. He set aside the idea of the hanging judge for a time and started "St. Ives" as a short story. It was during this period, in early 1893, while dealing with a bleeding episode, that Stevenson dictated his story to his stepdaughter, using sign language with his fingers. This accomplishment may be as impressive as Scott dictating "The Bride of Lammermoor," in tormentis, to Will Laidlaw.
We see how his maladies hung on Stevenson's flank, even in Samoa, where his health had so remarkably improved, and permitted to him unwonted activities. After a visit to Sydney, he took up "The Ebb-Tide" in collaboration with Mr. Osbourne, whose draft of the first chapters he warmly applauded. It is not one of his central successes. His pencil was dipped in moral gloom, but even to the odious Cockney scoundrel, Huish, his Shakespearian tolerance accorded the virtue of indomitable courage. He could not help filling the book full with his abundant vitality and his keen observation of the islands and the beachcombers. The thing, to use an obsolete piece of slang, is vécu. There were other projects, many of them, which dawned rosily, and faded into the grey; and there was the rich and copious correspondence dated from Vailima. His friends, no doubt, hearing of his good health, now and then, hoped to see his face again; the grouse on the hills of home were calling their eternal Come back! come back!
We can see how his illnesses lingered on Stevenson's side, even in Samoa, where his health had improved so much and allowed him unexpected activities. After a trip to Sydney, he started working on "The Ebb-Tide" with Mr. Osbourne, whose draft of the first chapters he praised warmly. It's not one of his main successes. His writings were tinged with moral gloom, but even for the despicable Cockney scoundrel, Huish, his Shakespearian tolerance recognized the quality of unyielding courage. He couldn’t help but fill the book with his vibrant energy and sharp observations of the islands and the beachcombers. The thing, to use an outdated bit of slang, is vécu. There were other projects, many of them, which began brightly but faded into dullness; and there was the rich and extensive correspondence from Vailima. His friends, undoubtedly, hearing about his good health from time to time, hoped to see him again; the grouse on the hills of home were calling their eternal Come back! come back!
Stevenson, who himself could live contentedly on so little, was the most open-handed of men, the most liberal and cheerful of givers; and whether to Samoans in distressful times, or to others who sought his aid, his purse was never closed; while his hospitality was like Sir Walter's. Probably, in his hour of greatest success, he never was among "the best sellers." But any financial anxieties which may have beset him were assuaged, and his heart was greatly held up, by the success of the beautiful "Edinburgh Edition" of his works, conceived and carried out by the energy of his friend of old Edinburgh days, Mr. Charles Baxter.
Stevenson, who could live happily on very little, was one of the most generous men, always cheerful and willing to give. Whether it was to Samoans in tough times or others in need, he never kept his wallet closed; his hospitality was similar to that of Sir Walter. Even at the height of his success, he probably never made it onto the "best sellers" list. However, any financial worries he might have had were eased, and he felt uplifted by the success of the beautiful "Edinburgh Edition" of his works, which was created and driven by the enthusiasm of his old friend from Edinburgh, Mr. Charles Baxter.
His latest work was "Weir of Hermiston"; the plenitude of his genius shines in every page. He himself thought that this was his best work; so far as we can judge by the considerable fragment that exists, he was in the right. There is nothing immature, nothing here of the boy; he is approaching, in his tale, a fateful point of passion and disaster; his characters, especially the elder woman, the nurse, are entirely human, with no touch of caprice; they all live their separate lives in our memories. Then the end came. One moment of bewildered consciousness—then unconsciousness and death. He had written to me, some months before, a letter full of apprehensions of the fate of Scott and Swift; whether warned by some monitory experience, or whether he had merely chanced to be thinking of the two great men who outlived themselves. To him death had come almost as a friend in the fullness of his powers; there was no touch of weakness or decay, and he was mourned like a king by his Samoans, by his family, by all who had known him, and by many thousands who had never seen his face. There was mourning at home in Scotland (where we hoped against hope that the news was untrue), in England, in Europe, in America, in Australia and the Isles. He who had been such "a friendly writer," who had created for us so many friends in his characters, had made more friends for himself, friends more and more various in age, race, tastes, character, and temper, than any British writer, perhaps, since Dickens. He was taken from us untimely; broken was our strong hope in the future gifts of his genius, and there was a pain that does not attend the peaceful passing, in the fullness of years and wisdom and honour, of an immortal like Tennyson.
His latest work was "Weir of Hermiston"; the brilliance of his talent stands out on every page. He believed it was his best work; judging by the substantial fragment that remains, he was correct. There’s nothing immature here, nothing childish; he is approaching a pivotal moment of emotion and tragedy in his story. His characters, especially the older woman, the nurse, are completely relatable, without any whimsy; they all live on in our memories. Then the end came. One moment of confusion—then unconsciousness and death. Months earlier, he had written to me in a letter expressing his worries about the fates of Scott and Swift; whether he was reflecting on some personal experience or simply thinking of the two great men who lived beyond their prime. For him, death arrived almost as a companion at the peak of his abilities; there was no sign of weakness or decline, and he was mourned like royalty by his Samoans, his family, all who knew him, and thousands who had never met him. There was grief at home in Scotland (where we desperately hoped the news wasn’t true), in England, across Europe, in America, in Australia, and in the Islands. He who had been such "a friendly writer," who created so many friends in his characters, had gained even more diverse friends himself, differing in age, race, interests, personality, and mood, than perhaps any British writer since Dickens. He was taken from us too soon; our strong hopes for the future gifts of his talent were shattered, and there was a pain that does not come with the peaceful passing, in the fullness of years, wisdom, and honor, of an immortal like Tennyson.
Any attempt by a contemporary to "place" Stevenson, to give him his "class" in English literature, would be a folly. The future must judge for itself, and, if we may estimate the taste of the future by that of the present, the reading public will not often look behind the most recent publications of its own day. But les délicats will look back on Stevenson as they now look back on Fielding, who, to my simple thinking, remains unsurpassed as a novelist; and as they turn to Lamb and Hazlitt as essayists. The poet is, of course, at his best immortal—time cannot stale Beowulf, or the nameless lyrists of the fourteenth century, or Chaucer, or Spenser, and so with the rest, la mort n'y mord. But it is as a writer of prose that Stevenson must be remembered. If he is not the master British essayist of the later nineteenth century, I really cannot imagine who is to be preferred to him. His vivacity, vitality, his original reflections on life, his personal and fascinating style, claim for him the crown. Nobody, perhaps, places him beside Lamb, and he would not have dreamed of being equaled in renown with Hazlitt, while he is, I conceive, more generally sympathetic than Mr. Pater, whose place is apart, whose province is entirely his own. When we think of Stevenson as a novelist, there is this conspicuous drawback, that he never did write a novel on characters and conditions in the mid-stream of the life that was contemporary with himself. He does not compete, therefore, with Thackeray and Dickens, Mr. Hardy and Mr. Meredith, but Scott is also no competitor.
Any attempt by someone today to "categorize" Stevenson, to assign him his "class" in English literature, would be pointless. The future will judge for itself, and judging by current tastes, the reading public rarely looks back at the latest publications from their own time. However, the discerning will reflect on Stevenson much like they do on Fielding, who, in my view, remains unparalleled as a novelist; and like they turn to Lamb and Hazlitt for essays. A poet, of course, stands the test of time—works like Beowulf, the anonymous writers of the fourteenth century, Chaucer, and Spenser remain timeless, la mort n'y mord. But Stevenson should be remembered primarily as a prose writer. If he isn't the leading British essayist of the late nineteenth century, I honestly can't think of anyone who rivals him. His liveliness, energy, original insights on life, and unique, engaging style earn him that recognition. While few might place him alongside Lamb, and he likely wouldn’t have imagined being compared in fame to Hazlitt, I believe he connects more broadly with readers than Mr. Pater, who occupies his own distinct space. When we consider Stevenson as a novelist, a notable limitation is that he never wrote a novel focusing on characters and situations that typify the life of his own time. Thus, he doesn't compete with Thackeray and Dickens, Mr. Hardy and Mr. Meredith, and Scott also doesn't stand as a competitor.
"St. Ronan's Well" is Scott's only novel that deals with precisely contemporary life, and "St. Ronan's Well" is a kind of backwater; the story of a remote contemporary watering-place, of local squireens, and of a tragedy, mangled in deference to James Ballantyne. Scott did not often care to trust himself out of the last echoes of "the pipes that played for Charlie," and though his knowledge of contemporary life was infinitely wider than Stevenson's, we see many good reasons for his abstention from use of his knowledge. For example, it is obvious that he could not attempt a romance of the War in the Peninsula, and of life in London, let us say, while Wellington was holding Torres Vedras. Even among Stevenson's abandoned projects, there is not, I think, one which deals with English society in the 'eighties. His health and his fugitive life imposed on him those limitations against which his taste did not rebel, for his taste led him to the past, and to adventure in a present not English, but exotic. He is not in the same field, so to speak, as Richardson and Fielding, Dickens and Thackeray, Mr. Hardy and Mr. Meredith; and their field, the great living world of their time, is what the general reader wants the novelist to deal with as he best may.
"St. Ronan's Well" is Scott's only novel that focuses on contemporary life, and it represents a sort of backwater; the story of a remote modern spa, local gentry, and a tragedy that was altered out of respect for James Ballantyne. Scott often preferred to remain in the last echoes of "the pipes that played for Charlie," and while his understanding of contemporary life was much broader than Stevenson's, there are plenty of reasons for his hesitance to use that knowledge. For instance, it's clear that he couldn't write a romance set during the Peninsula War or about life in London while Wellington was at Torres Vedras. Even among Stevenson's unfinished works, I don't think there's one that focuses on English society in the 1880s. His health issues and transient lifestyle imposed constraints on him that his taste didn’t resist, as his preferences drew him towards the past and adventures in a present that was not English, but exotic. He operates in a different realm than Richardson and Fielding, Dickens and Thackeray, Hardy and Meredith; and their world, the vibrant living landscape of their time, is what readers expect the novelist to explore as best as possible.
Shakespeare, to be sure, wrote no drama on Elizabethan times in England; we must go to Heywood and Ben Jonson for the drama of his contemporary world. Many circumstances caused Stevenson, when at his best, to be a historical novelist, and he is, since Scott and Thackeray, the best historical novelist whom we have.
Shakespeare definitely didn’t write any plays about the Elizabethan era in England; we need to look to Heywood and Ben Jonson for the drama of his time. There were many factors that led Stevenson, at his best, to be a historical novelist, and he is, after Scott and Thackeray, the best historical novelist we have.
Add to all this his notable eminence in tales of shorter scope; in essays, whether on life or on literature, so various and original, so graceful and so strong; add the fantasies of his fables, and remember that almost all he did is good—and we must, I think, give to Stevenson a very high place in the literature of his century.
Add to all this his remarkable skill in shorter stories; in essays, whether about life or literature, so diverse and original, so elegant and powerful; consider the imaginative nature of his fables, and remember that nearly everything he created is worthwhile—and I believe we should place Stevenson very high in the literature of his century.
Of his verse I have hitherto said nothing, and I do not think that if he had written verse alone, his place would have been highly distinguished. His "Child's Garden of Verse" is a little masterpiece in a genre of his own invention. His verses in Scots are full of humour, and he had a complete mastery of the old Northern English of the Lowlands. His more serious poems often contain ideas and the expression of moods which he handled better, I think, in his prose. Even the story of "Ticonderoga" I would rather have received from him in prose than in his ballad measure. Possibly I am prejudiced a little by his willfulness in giving to a Cameron the part of the generous hero; true to his word, in spite of the desire to avenge a brother, and of the thrice-repeated monition of the dead. It is not that I grudge any glory to the children of Lochiel, a clan, in General Wolfe's opinion, the bravest where all were brave, a clan of constant and boundless loyalty. But in Stevenson's own note to his poem, the Cameron "swears by his sword and Ben Cruachan," and "Cruachan" is a slogan of the Campbells. The hero, as a matter of fact, was a Campbell of Inverawe. "Between the name of Cameron and that of Campbell the Muse will never hesitate," says Stevenson. One name means "Wry mouth," the other "Crooked nose"; so far, the Muse has a poor choice! But the tale is a tale of the Campbells, of Clan Diarmaid, and the Muse must adhere to the historic truth.
Of his poetry, I haven't said anything so far, and I don't think his place would be highly regarded if he had only written poetry. His "Child's Garden of Verse" is a little masterpiece in a genre he created himself. His verses in Scots are full of humor, and he completely mastered the old Northern English of the Lowlands. His more serious poems often express ideas and moods that he conveyed better, I think, in his prose. I would have preferred the story of "Ticonderoga" in prose rather than in his ballad form. I might be a bit biased because he chose to give the role of the noble hero to a Cameron; he's true to his word despite wanting to avenge a brother and the three warnings from the dead. It's not that I begrudge any honor to the children of Lochiel, a clan that General Wolfe considered the bravest among many brave, a clan of unwavering loyalty. But in Stevenson's own note about his poem, the Cameron "swears by his sword and Ben Cruachan," and "Cruachan" is a slogan of the Campbells. In fact, the hero was a Campbell of Inverawe. "Between the name of Cameron and that of Campbell, the Muse will never hesitate," says Stevenson. One name means "Wry mouth," and the other means "Crooked nose"; so far, the Muse doesn’t have a great choice! But the story is about the Campbells, from Clan Diarmaid, and the Muse must stick to the historical truth.
This essay must not close on a difference of opinion concerning historical events—a jarring note.
This essay shouldn't end with a disagreement about historical events—it's a jarring note.
There are points enough in Stevenson's character and opinions which I have not touched; such as his religious views. He never mentioned the topic of religion in my hearing; it is to his printed words that the reader must turn, and he cannot but perceive that Stevenson's was a deeply religious nature. With his faith, whatever its tenets may have been, was implicated his uneasily active conscience; his sense of duty. This appears to have directed his life; and was practically the same thing as his sense of honour. Honour, I conceive, is, in a phrase of Aristotle's, duty "with a bloom on it."
There are many aspects of Stevenson's character and beliefs that I haven't addressed, like his religious views. He never brought up religion in my presence; readers must look to his written works, where it's clear that Stevenson had a deeply religious nature. His faith, whatever specific beliefs he held, was tied to his restless conscience and sense of duty. This seems to have guided his life and was essentially the same as his sense of honor. Honor, I believe, is like duty "with a bloom on it," as Aristotle put it.
Readers of his Letters, and of his Biography by his cousin, Mr. Balfour; readers of his essays, and of his novels, must see that he was keenly interested in cases of conscience; in the right course to steer in an apparent conflict of duties. To say that his theory of the right course, in a hypothetical instance, was always the same as my own would be to abuse the confidence of the reader. As Preston-grange observes: "I would never charge myself with Mr. David's conscience; and if you could cast some part of it (as you went by) in a moss bog, you would find yourself to ride much easier without it"; and not, perhaps, always in the wrong direction. There is a case of conscience in "The Wrecker," something about opium-smuggling, and the conscience of Mr. Loudon Dodd (a truly Balfourian character), which I have studied, aided by other casuists, for a summer's day. We never could agree as to what the case really was, as to what was the moral issue.
Readers of his Letters and his Biography by his cousin, Mr. Balfour; readers of his essays and his novels must see that he was deeply interested in moral dilemmas; in finding the right path through an apparent conflict of duties. To say that his theory on the right course, in a hypothetical situation, was always the same as mine would be misleading to the reader. As Preston-grange puts it: "I would never take on Mr. David's moral burden; and if you could leave some part of it (as you passed by) in a moss bog, you would find it much easier to move on without it"; and not, perhaps, always in the wrong direction. There’s a moral dilemma in "The Wrecker," something about opium smuggling and the conscience of Mr. Loudon Dodd (a truly Balfourian character), which I have analyzed, with help from other moralists, over a summer's day. We could never agree on what the dilemma really was or what the moral issue entailed.
Casuistry may not be my strong point. I have found myself between no less authorities than a Chancellor of England and a learned Jesuit, both of whom, I thought, would certainly accept my view of a very unusual case of conduct. A certain cleric, in his ecclesiastical duties, happened to overhear an automatically uttered remark by another person; who never meant to speak or to be overheard. The cleric acted on this information, with results distressing to a pair of true lovers. I maintained that he did wrong. "There was no appeal," I said, "to the umpire. Nobody in the field asked 'How's that?'" But the Chancellor and the learned Jesuit backed the clergyman.
Casuistry might not be my strong suit. I've found myself between no less authority than a Chancellor of England and a knowledgeable Jesuit, both of whom I thought would definitely agree with my perspective on a very unusual case of conduct. A certain cleric, while doing his church duties, happened to overhear an automatically spoken remark from another person, who never intended to speak or be heard. The cleric acted on this information, causing distress for a pair of true lovers. I argued that he was wrong. "There was no appeal," I said, "to the referee. Nobody in the field asked 'How's that?'" But the Chancellor and the knowledgeable Jesuit supported the clergyman.
Now, I never knew for certain how "Mr. David's conscience" would decide, but I think he would have been with me on this occasion, and with the Rules of the Game.
Now, I never really knew for sure how "Mr. David's conscience" would think, but I believe he would have agreed with me this time, and with the Rules of the Game.
There was a very pleasant trait in Stevenson's character which, perhaps, does not display itself in most of his writings; his great affection for children. In "A Child's Garden of Verse," delightful as it is, and not to be read without "a great inclination to cry," the child is himself, the child "that is gone." But, in an early letter, he writes: "Kids is what is the matter with me ... Children are too good to be true." He had a natural infatuation, so to say, for children as children, which many men of the pen overcome with no apparent difficulty. He could not overcome it; little boys and girls were his delight, and he was theirs. At Molokai, the Leper Island, he played croquet with the little girls; refusing to wear gloves, lest he should remind them of their condition. Sensitive and weak in body as he was, Nelson was not more fearless. It was equally characteristic of another quality of his, the open hand, that he gave a grand piano to these leper children.
There was a really nice quality in Stevenson's character that doesn't show up much in his writing: his deep love for children. In "A Child's Garden of Verse," as delightful as it is and likely to bring you to tears, the child in it is himself, the child "that is gone." But in an early letter, he says, "Kids are what’s wrong with me... Children are too good to be true." He had a natural fascination for kids just as kids, something that many writers manage to ignore with ease. He couldn’t do that; little boys and girls brought him joy, and he returned that joy to them. On Molokai, the Leper Island, he played croquet with the little girls, refusing to wear gloves so as not to remind them of their situation. Sensitive and frail as he was, Nelson wasn’t more brave. It also showed another part of him, his generosity, when he gave a grand piano to these leper children.
He says:
He says:
"And the grave is where to find them."
Among the nearest and the oldest friends of his I never was, but to few friends, nearer and older, does my desiderium go back so frequently; simply because almost every day brings something newly learned or known, which would have appealed most to his unequaled breadth of knowledge and interest and sympathy.
Among his closest and oldest friends, I never was, but I often think about a few dear friends who are closer and older; mainly because almost every day brings something new that I’ve learned or discovered, which would have fascinated him given his unmatched depth of knowledge, interest, and empathy.
AN INLAND VOYAGE
DEDICATION
TOSIR WALTER GRINDLAY SIMPSON, BART.My dear "Cigarette,"
My dear "Cigarette,"
It was enough that you should have shared so liberally in the rains and portages of our voyage; that you should have had so hard a paddle to recover the derelict "Arethusa" on the flooded Oise: and that you should thenceforth have piloted a mere wreck of mankind to Origny Sainte-Benoîte and a supper so eagerly desired. It was perhaps more than enough, as you once somewhat piteously complained, that I should have set down all the strong language to you, and kept the appropriate reflections for myself. I could not in decency expose you to share the disgrace of another and more public shipwreck. But now that this voyage of ours is going into a cheap edition, that peril, we shall hope, is at an end, and I may put your name on the burgee.
It was more than enough that you generously shared in the rain and hardships of our journey; that you had such a hard time retrieving the abandoned "Arethusa" from the flooded Oise; and that from then on, you guided a shattered group of people to Origny Sainte-Benoîte and a meal we all longed for. Perhaps it was even more than fair, as you once sadly pointed out, that I recorded all the harsh words aimed at you while keeping my true thoughts to myself. I couldn't in good conscience let you bear the shame of another, more public shipwreck. But now that our voyage is about to be published in a cheap edition, let’s hope that danger is behind us, and I can finally put your name on the flag.
But I cannot pause till I have lamented the fate of our two ships. That, sir, was not a fortunate day when we projected the possession of a canal barge; it was not a fortunate day when we shared our daydream with the most hopeful of daydreamers. For a while, indeed, the world looked smilingly. The barge was procured and christened, and as the "Eleven Thousand Virgins of Cologne," lay for some months, the admired of all admirers, in a pleasant river and under the walls of an ancient town. M. Mattras, the accomplished carpenter of Moret, had made her a centre of emulous labour; and you will not have forgotten the amount of sweet champagne consumed in the inn at the bridge end, to give zeal to the workmen and speed to the work. On the financial aspect I would[Pg 4] not willingly dwell. The "Eleven Thousand Virgins of Cologne" rotted in the stream where she was beautified. She felt not the impulse of the breeze; she was never harnessed to the patent track-horse. And when at length she was sold, by the indignant carpenter of Moret, there were sold along with her the "Arethusa" and the "Cigarette", she of cedar, she, as we knew so keenly on a portage, of solid-hearted English oak. Now these historic vessels fly the tricolour and are known by new and alien names.
But I can't move on until I've mourned the fate of our two ships. That, sir, was not a lucky day when we dreamed of owning a canal barge; it was not a lucky day when we shared our dream with the most optimistic dreamers. For a while, the world did seem bright. The barge was purchased and named, and as the "Eleven Thousand Virgins of Cologne," she rested for several months, the envy of all admirers, in a beautiful river beneath the walls of an old town. M. Mattras, the skilled carpenter from Moret, made her a hub of eager activity; and you won’t forget how much sweet champagne was consumed in the inn at the bridge to motivate the workers and speed up the project. I would[Pg 4] rather not focus on the financial side. The "Eleven Thousand Virgins of Cologne" decayed in the stream where she was once lovely. She felt no rush of breeze; she was never hitched to the innovative track-horse. And when she was finally sold, by the frustrated carpenter of Moret, the "Arethusa" and the "Cigarette" were sold along with her, one made of cedar and the other, as we painfully knew during a portage, of solid English oak. Now these historic vessels fly the tricolor and go by new, unfamiliar names.
R. L. S.
R. L. S.
PREFACE TO THE FIRST EDITION
To equip so small a book with a preface is, I am half afraid, to sin against proportion. But a preface is more than an author can resist, for it is the reward of his labours. When the foundation-stone is laid, the architect appears with his plans, and struts for an hour before the public eye. So with the writer in his preface: he may have never a word to say, but he must show himself for a moment in the portico, hat in hand, and with an urbane demeanour.
To give such a small book a preface is, I fear, to go against good balance. But a preface is something no author can resist because it’s the payoff for their hard work. Once the foundation is set, the architect comes out with his designs and shows off for a bit in front of the public. Similarly, in his preface, the writer might not have much to say, but he has to present himself briefly in the spotlight, with hat in hand and a polite attitude.
It is best, in such circumstances, to represent a delicate shade of manner between humility and superiority: as if the book had been written by someone else, and you had merely run over it and inserted what was good. But for my part I have not yet learned the trick to that perfection; I am not yet able to dissemble the warmth of my sentiments towards a reader; and if I meet him on the threshold, it is to invite him in with country cordiality.
It’s best, in situations like this, to strike a balance between humility and confidence: as if the book were written by someone else, and you just skimmed through it and added the good parts. But for me, I haven’t figured out how to achieve that level of perfection yet; I can’t hide my feelings for the reader. When I see him at the door, it’s to warmly invite him in, like a good host.
To say truth, I had no sooner finished reading this little book in proof, than I was seized upon by a distressing apprehension. It occurred to me that I might not only be the first to read these pages, but the last as well; that I might have pioneered this very smiling tract of country all in vain, and find not a soul to follow in my steps. The more I thought, the more I disliked the notion; until the distaste grew into a sort of panic terror, and I rushed into this Preface, which is no more than an advertisement for readers.
To be honest, I finished reading this little book in proof, and I was suddenly hit by a troubling fear. It struck me that I might not only be the first to read these pages, but also the last; that I could have explored this cheerful stretch of land for nothing, with no one to follow in my footsteps. The more I thought about it, the more I hated the idea; until my dislike turned into a kind of panic, and I jumped into this Preface, which is just an announcement for readers.
What am I to say for my book? Caleb and Joshua[Pg 6] brought back from Palestine a formidable bunch of grapes; alas! my book produces naught so nourishing; and for the matter of that, we live in an age when people prefer a definition to any quantity of fruit.
What should I say about my book? Caleb and Joshua[Pg 6] brought back an impressive bunch of grapes from Palestine; unfortunately, my book doesn’t offer anything nearly as satisfying; and truth be told, we live in a time when people would rather have a clear definition than any amount of fruit.
I wonder, would a negative be found enticing? for, from the negative point of view, I flatter myself this volume has a certain stamp. Although it runs to considerably upwards of two hundred pages, it contains not a single reference to the imbecility of God's universe, nor so much as a single hint that I could have made a better one myself.—I really do not know where my head can have been. I seem to have forgotten all that makes it glorious to be man.—'Tis an omission that renders the book philosophically unimportant; but I am in hopes the eccentricity may please in frivolous circles.
I wonder, would anyone find a negative appealing? From that perspective, I like to think this book has a certain uniqueness. Even though it’s over two hundred pages long, it doesn’t contain a single mention of the foolishness of the universe God created, nor any suggestion that I could have done a better job myself. I honestly don’t know what I was thinking. I seem to have forgotten everything that makes being human amazing. It’s a gap that makes the book somewhat unimportant philosophically, but I hope its eccentricity might entertain in lighter circles.
To the friend who accompanied me I owe many thanks already, indeed I wish I owed him nothing else; but at this moment I feel towards him an almost exaggerated tenderness. He, at least, will become my reader:—if it were only to follow his own travels alongside of mine.
To the friend who came with me, I am really grateful and honestly wish I could thank him for nothing else; but right now, I feel a deep affection for him. At least he will be my reader—if only to follow his own journey alongside mine.
R. L. S.
R. L. S.
AN INLAND VOYAGE
ANTWERP TO BOOM
We made a great stir in Antwerp Docks. A stevedore and a lot of dock porters took up the two canoes, and ran with them for the slip. A crowd of children followed cheering. The Cigarette went off in a splash and a bubble of small breaking water. Next moment the Arethusa was after her. A steamer was coming down, men on the paddle-box shouted hoarse warnings, the stevedore and his porters were bawling from the quay. But in a stroke or two the canoes were away out in the middle of the Scheldt, and all steamers, and stevedores, and other long-shore vanities were left behind.
We caused a big commotion at Antwerp Docks. A dockworker and several porters picked up the two canoes and raced with them to the slip. A group of kids followed, cheering us on. The Cigarette launched with a splash and a bubble of small waves. In the next moment, the Arethusa was chasing after her. A steamer was coming down the river, and people on the paddle-box were shouting loud warnings, while the dockworker and his porters yelled from the quay. But in just a stroke or two, the canoes were out in the middle of the Scheldt, leaving all the steamers, dockworkers, and other waterfront distractions behind.
The sun shone brightly; the tide was making—four jolly miles an hour; the wind blew steadily, with occasional squalls. For my part, I had never been in a canoe under sail in my life; and my first experiment out in the middle of this big river was not made without some trepidation. What would happen when the wind first caught my little canvas? I suppose it was almost as trying a venture into the regions of the unknown as to publish a first book, or to marry. But my doubts were not of long duration; and in five minutes you will not be surprised to learn that I had tied my sheet.
The sun was shining brightly, the tide was moving at a cheerful four miles per hour, and the wind was blowing steadily with some occasional gusts. Personally, I had never sailed in a canoe before, and my first attempt out in the middle of this big river was a bit nerve-wracking. What would happen when the wind caught my little sail? I guess it was almost as daunting as publishing my first book or getting married. But my doubts didn’t last long; in five minutes, you won’t be surprised to hear that I had secured my sail.
I own I was a little struck by this circumstance myself; of course, in company with the rest of my fellow-men, I had always tied the sheet in a sailing-boat; but[Pg 8] in so little and crank a concern as a canoe, and with these charging squalls, I was not prepared to find myself follow the same principle; and it inspired me with some contemptuous views of our regard for life. It is certainly easier to smoke with the sheet fastened; but I had never before weighed a comfortable pipe of tobacco against an obvious risk, and gravely elected for the comfortable pipe. It is a commonplace, that we cannot answer for ourselves before we have been tried. But it is not so common a reflection, and surely more consoling, that we usually find ourselves a great deal braver and better than we thought. I believe this is every one's experience: but an apprehension that they may belie themselves in the future prevents mankind from trumpeting this cheerful sentiment abroad. I wish sincerely, for it would have saved me much trouble, there had been some one to put me in a good heart about life when I was younger; to tell me how dangers are most portentous on a distant sight; and how the good in a man's spirit will not suffer itself to be overlaid, and rarely or never deserts him in the hour of need. But we are all for tootling on the sentimental flute in literature; and not a man among us will go to the head of the march to sound the heady drums.
I admit I was a bit taken aback by this situation myself; of course, like everyone else, I had always tied the sheet in a sailing boat. But in such a small and unstable vessel as a canoe, especially with these sudden squalls, I wasn’t prepared to find myself following the same approach, and it made me look down on our views about life. It’s definitely easier to smoke with the sheet secured, but I had never really thought about choosing a comfortable pipe of tobacco over an obvious risk until now, and I chose the comfy pipe. It’s well-known that we can’t predict how we'll act until we’re put to the test. But it’s less often reflected upon, and surely more comforting, that we usually find ourselves much braver and stronger than we imagined. I believe this is a common experience: however, the worry about possibly letting ourselves down in the future keeps people from sharing this uplifting thought openly. I truly wish there had been someone to encourage me about life when I was younger; someone to explain how dangers often seem worse from a distance, and how the goodness in a person’s spirit won’t allow itself to be buried, and rarely, if ever, abandons them in times of need. But we all prefer to play the sentimental tune in literature, and not one of us will step forward to beat the drums with enthusiasm.
It was agreeable upon the river. A barge or two went past laden with hay. Reeds and willows bordered the stream; and cattle and grey venerable horses came and hung their mild heads over the embankment. Here and there was a pleasant village among trees, with a noisy shipping-yard; here and there a villa in a lawn. The wind served us well up the Scheldt and thereafter up the Rupel, and we were running pretty free when we began to sight the brickyards of Boom, lying for a long way on the right bank of the river. The left bank was still green and pastoral, with alleys of trees along the embankment, and here and there a flight of steps to serve a ferry, where perhaps there sat a woman with her elbows on her knees, or an old gentleman with a staff and silver spectacles.[Pg 9] But Boom and its brickyards grew smokier and shabbier with every minute; until a great church with a clock, and a wooden bridge over the river, indicated the central quarters of the town.
It was nice by the river. A couple of barges loaded with hay went by. Reeds and willows lined the stream, while cattle and old grey horses leaned their gentle heads over the embankment. Here and there, a charming village nestled among the trees, complete with a busy shipping yard; scattered villas could be seen on green lawns. The wind was on our side as we traveled up the Scheldt and then up the Rupel, and we were making good progress when we started to see the brickyards of Boom, stretching for quite a distance along the right bank of the river. The left bank remained green and pastoral, with tree-lined alleys along the embankment, and every now and then, a set of steps leading to a ferry, where maybe a woman rested with her elbows on her knees, or an old man sat with a cane and silver glasses.[Pg 9] But Boom and its brickyards became more polluted and rundown with every passing minute, until a large church with a clock and a wooden bridge over the river signaled the town's central area.
Boom is not a nice place, and is only remarkable for one thing: that the majority of the inhabitants have a private opinion that they can speak English, which is not justified by fact. This gave a kind of haziness to our intercourse. As for the Hôtel de la Navigation, I think it is the worst feature of the place. It boasts of a sanded parlour, with a bar at one end, looking on the street; and another sanded parlour, darker and colder, with an empty bird-cage and a tricolor subscription box by way of sole adornment, where we made shift to dine in the company of three uncommunicative engineer apprentices and a silent bagman. The food, as usual in Belgium, was of a nondescript occasional character; indeed, I have never been able to detect anything in the nature of a meal among this pleasing people; they seem to peck and trifle with viands all day long in an amateur spirit: tentatively French, truly German, and somehow falling between the two.
Boom is not a nice place, and it stands out for only one thing: most of the locals think they can speak English, which isn't true. This created a sort of confusion in our conversations. As for the Hôtel de la Navigation, I believe it’s the worst part of the town. It features a sanded lounge with a bar at one end, facing the street, and another sanded lounge that’s darker and colder, with just an empty birdcage and a tricolor subscription box as decoration, where we managed to have dinner with three quiet engineering apprentices and a silent traveler. The food, as usual in Belgium, was pretty forgettable; in fact, I’ve never been able to spot anything resembling a real meal among these charming folks; they seem to just pick at snacks all day in a carefree way: a bit French, somewhat German, and somehow stuck in between the two.
The empty bird-cage, swept and garnished, and with no trace of the old piping favourite, save where two wires had been pushed apart to hold its lump of sugar, carried with it a sort of graveyard cheer. The engineer apprentices would have nothing to say to us, nor indeed to the bagman; but talked low and sparingly to one another, or raked us in the gaslight with a gleam of spectacles. For though handsome lads, they were all (in the Scots phrase) barnacled.
The empty birdcage, cleaned up and decorated, with no sign of the former beloved pet except for where two wires had been bent to hold its sugar cube, had a kind of solemn cheerfulness to it. The engineering apprentices didn’t want to talk to us or even to the salesman; instead, they spoke quietly to each other or gave us a quick look through their glasses in the gaslight. Even though they were good-looking guys, they were all, in the Scottish way of saying it, barnacled.
There was an English maid in the hotel, who had been long enough out of England to pick up all sorts of funny foreign idioms, and all sorts of curious foreign ways, which need not here be specified. She spoke to us very fluently in her jargon, asked us information as to the manners of the present day in England, and obligingly corrected us[Pg 10] when we attempted to answer. But as we were dealing with a woman, perhaps our information was not so much thrown away as it appeared. The sex likes to pick up knowledge and yet preserve its superiority. It is good policy, and almost necessary in the circumstances. If a man finds a woman admire him, were it only for his acquaintance with geography, he will begin at once to build upon the admiration. It is only by unintermittent snubbing that the pretty ones can keep us in our place. Men, as Miss Howe or Miss Harlowe would have said, "are such encroachers." For my part, I am body and soul with the women; and after a well-married couple, there is nothing so beautiful in the world as the myth of the divine huntress. It is no use for a man to take to the woods; we know him; St. Anthony tried the same thing long ago, and had a pitiful time of it by all accounts. But there is this about some women, which overtops the best gymnosophist among men, that they suffice to themselves, and can walk in a high and cold zone without the countenance of any trousered being. I declare, although the reverse of a professed ascetic, I am more obliged to women for this ideal than I should be to the majority of them, or indeed to any but one, for a spontaneous kiss. There is nothing so encouraging as the spectacle of self-sufficiency. And when I think of the slim and lovely maidens, running the woods all night to the note of Diana's horn; moving among the old oaks, as fancy-free as they; things of the forest and the starlight, not touched by the commotion of man's hot and turbid life—although there are plenty other ideals that I should prefer—I find my heart beat at the thought of this one. 'Tis to fail in life, but to fail with what a grace! That is not lost which is not regretted. And where—here slips out the male—where would be much of the glory of inspiring love, if there were no contempt to overcome?
There was a British maid at the hotel who had been away from England long enough to pick up all kinds of funny foreign phrases and strange customs that don’t need to be detailed here. She spoke to us fluently in her mix of languages, asked us about modern English manners, and kindly corrected us[Pg 10] when we tried to respond. But since we were talking to a woman, maybe our insights weren’t entirely wasted as they seemed. Women like to gain knowledge while maintaining their sense of superiority. It’s a smart strategy, and almost necessary in that context. If a man realizes a woman admires him, even if it’s just for his knowledge of geography, he will quickly start to build on that admiration. It’s only through constant rebuffing that attractive women can keep us in check. Men, as Miss Howe or Miss Harlowe might have said, "are such encroachers." For my part, I completely align with women; and after a well-matched couple, nothing in the world is as beautiful as the idea of the divine huntress. A man going off into the woods doesn’t help; we know him too well; St. Anthony tried that long ago and had a pretty rough time of it, by all accounts. However, some women possess a quality that surpasses even the best philosophers among men; they are self-sufficient and can walk confidently in a high and aloof realm without needing the approval of any man. I’ll admit, even though I’m not an ascetic, I owe more to women for this ideal than I would to most of them, or indeed to anyone but one, for a spontaneous kiss. Nothing is as uplifting as seeing someone who is self-sufficient. And when I think of the slender, beautiful maidens running through the woods all night to the sound of Diana's horn; moving among the ancient oaks, as carefree as they are; beings of the forest and starlight, untouched by the chaos of man's heated and troubled life—although there are many other ideals I might prefer—I feel my heart race at the thought of this one. To fail in life, but oh, what grace in that failure! What is not regretted is not truly lost. And where—this is the male perspective that slips out—where would the glory of inspiring love be if there were no obstacles to overcome?
ON THE WILLEBROEK CANAL
Next morning, when we set forth on the Willebroek Canal, the rain began heavy and chill. The water of the canal stood at about the drinking temperature of tea; and under this cold aspersion the surface was covered with steam. The exhilaration of departure, and the easy motion of the boats under each stroke of the paddles, supported us through this misfortune while it lasted; and when the cloud passed and the sun came out again, our spirits went up above the range of stay-at-home humours. A good breeze rustled and shivered in the rows of trees that bordered the canal. The leaves flickered in and out of the light in tumultuous masses. It seemed sailing weather to eye and ear; but down between the banks, the wind reached us only in faint and desultory puffs. There was hardly enough to steer by. Progress was intermittent and unsatisfactory. A jocular person, of marine antecedents, hailed us from the tow-path with a "C'est vite, mais c'est long."
The next morning, as we set out on the Willebroek Canal, the rain started pouring down, cold and heavy. The water in the canal was about the same temperature as tea, and with the chill rain, a layer of steam covered the surface. The excitement of leaving and the smooth movement of the boats with each paddle stroke kept us going through this unpleasantness. When the clouds cleared and the sun reappeared, our spirits soared above the usual stay-at-home moods. A nice breeze rustled through the rows of trees lining the canal. The leaves danced in and out of the light in wild clusters. It looked and sounded like perfect sailing weather; however, down between the banks, the wind reached us only in weak and random gusts. There was barely enough to steer by. Our progress was slow and frustrating. A humorous guy with a nautical background called out to us from the tow-path with a "C'est vite, mais c'est long."
The canal was busy enough. Every now and then we met or overtook a long string of boats, with great green tillers; high sterns with a window on either side of the rudder, and perhaps a jug or a flower-pot in one of the windows; a dinghy following behind; a woman busied about the day's dinner, and a handful of children. These barges were all tied one behind the other with tow ropes, to the number of twenty-five or thirty; and the line was headed and kept in motion by a steamer of strange construction. It had neither paddle-wheel nor screw; but by some gear not rightly comprehensible to the unmechanical mind, it fetched up over its bow a small bright[Pg 12] chain which lay along the bottom of the canal, and paying it out again over the stern, dragged itself forward, link by link, with its whole retinue of loaded skows. Until one had found out the key to the enigma, there was something solemn and uncomfortable in the progress of one of these trains, as it moved gently along the water with nothing to mark its advance but an eddy alongside dying away into the wake.
The canal was quite busy. Every now and then, we encountered or passed a long line of boats, with bright green tillers; high sterns featuring a window on each side of the rudder, and maybe a jug or a flower pot in one of the windows; a small dinghy following behind; a woman preparing dinner, and a few children. These barges were all tied together with tow ropes, around twenty-five or thirty of them; and the line was led and kept moving by a steamer of odd design. It had no paddle wheel or screw; instead, through some mechanism not easily understood by those unfamiliar with machinery, it pulled up a small bright[Pg 12] chain lying along the bottom of the canal, and paid it out again over the stern, dragging itself forward, link by link, along with its entire fleet of loaded boats. Until you figured out the mystery behind it, there was something solemn and unsettling about how one of these trains moved, gliding silently along the water with nothing to indicate its progress except an eddy beside it fading into the wake.
Of all the creatures of commercial enterprise, a canal barge is by far the most delightful to consider. It may spread its sails, and then you see it sailing high above the tree-tops and the windmill, sailing on the aqueduct, sailing through the green corn-lands: the most picturesque of things amphibious. Or the horse plods along at a foot-pace, as if there were no such thing as business in the world; and the man dreaming at the tiller sees the same spire on the horizon all day long. It is a mystery how things ever get to their destination at this rate; and to see the barges waiting their turn at a lock affords a fine lesson of how easily the world may be taken. There should be many contented spirits on board, for such a life is both to travel and to stay at home.
Of all the commercial vehicles, a canal barge is definitely the most enjoyable to think about. It can unfurl its sails, and then you see it gliding high above the treetops and the windmill, moving smoothly along the aqueduct, cruising through the green cornfields: the most picturesque of all things that float. Meanwhile, the horse trudges along at a slow pace, as if there’s no such thing as business at all; and the man steering at the tiller sees the same church spire on the horizon all day. It's a mystery how anything ever arrives at its destination at this pace; and watching the barges waiting their turn at a lock provides a great lesson in how easily life can be taken. There must be many happy souls on board, as this lifestyle allows you to travel while still feeling at home.
The chimney smokes for dinner as you go along; the banks of the canal slowly unroll their scenery to contemplative eyes; the barge floats by great forests and through great cities with their public buildings and their lamps at night; and for the barge, in his floating home, "travelling abed," it is merely as if he were listening to another man's story or turning the leaves of a picture-book in which he had no concern. He may take his afternoon walk in some foreign country on the banks of the canal, and then come home to dinner at his own fireside.
The chimney smokes as dinner cooks; the canal banks gradually reveal their sights to thoughtful onlookers; the barge glides past vast forests and through big cities with their public buildings and lamps lighting up the night. For the barge traveler, in his floating home, "traveling in bed," it's just like listening to someone else's story or flipping through a picture book that doesn't involve him. He can take an afternoon stroll in some distant land along the canal and then return home for dinner by his own fireplace.
There is not enough exercise in such a life for any high measure of health; but a high measure of health is only necessary for unhealthy people. The slug of a fellow, who is never ill nor well, has a quiet time of it in life, and dies all the easier.[Pg 13]
There isn’t enough exercise in this kind of life for anyone to be really healthy; but being really healthy is only important for those who aren’t well. The lazy person, who is never sick or truly well, has an easy time in life and dies more comfortably.[Pg 13]
I am sure I would rather be a barge than occupy any position under heaven that required attendance at an office. There are few callings, I should say, where a man gives up less of his liberty in return for regular meals. The barge is on shipboard—he is master in his own ship—he can land whenever he will—he can never be kept beating off a lee-shore a whole frosty night when the sheets are as hard as iron; and, so far as I can make out, time stands as nearly still with him as is compatible with the return of bed-time or the dinner-hour. It is not easy to see why a barge should ever die.
I’d definitely prefer being a barge over having any job under the sun that requires sitting in an office. Honestly, there are few jobs where a person sacrifices less freedom in exchange for regular meals. The barge is on the water—he’s in charge of his own vessel—he can dock whenever he wants—he doesn’t have to spend a freezing night drifting off a rough shore when the sails are as stiff as metal; and, as far as I can tell, time feels pretty much frozen for him until it's time for bed or dinner. It's hard to understand why a barge would ever come to an end.
Half-way between Willebroek and Villevorde, in a beautiful reach of canal like a squire's avenue, we went ashore to lunch. There were two eggs, a junk of bread, and a bottle of wine on board the Arethusa; and two eggs and an Etna cooking apparatus on board the Cigarette. The master of the latter boat smashed one of the eggs in the course of disembarkation; but observing pleasantly that it might still be cooked à la papier, he dropped it into the Etna, in its covering of Flemish newspaper. We landed in a blink of fine weather; but we had not been two minutes ashore before the wind freshened into half a gale, and the rain began to patter on our shoulders. We sat as close about the Etna as we could. The spirits burned with great ostentation; the grass caught flame every minute or two, and had to be trodden out; and before long, there were several burnt fingers of the party. But the solid quantity of cookery accomplished was out of proportion with so much display; and when we desisted, after two applications of the fire, the sound egg was little more than loo-warm; and as for à la papier, it was a cold and sordid fricassée of printer's ink and broken egg-shell. We made shift to roast the other two, by putting them close to the burning spirits; and that with better success. And then we uncorked the bottle of wine, and sat down in a ditch with our canoe aprons over our knees. It rained smartly. Discomfort,[Pg 14] when it is honestly uncomfortable and makes no nauseous pretensions to the contrary, is a vastly humorous business; and people well steeped and stupefied in the open air are in a good vein for laughter. From this point of view, even egg à la papier offered by way of food may pass muster as a sort of accessory to the fun. But this manner of jest, although it may be taken in good part, does not invite repetition; and from that time forward, the Etna voyaged like a gentleman in the locker of the Cigarette.
Halfway between Willebroek and Villevorde, in a lovely stretch of canal that looked like a squire's avenue, we got off to have lunch. On board the Arethusa, there were two eggs, a chunk of bread, and a bottle of wine; on the Cigarette, there were two eggs and an Etna cooking device. The captain of the latter boat accidentally smashed one of the eggs while disembarking, but cheerfully noted that it could still be cooked à la papier, so he dropped it into the Etna, wrapped in Flemish newspaper. We landed just as the weather turned nice, but within two minutes, the wind picked up to about half a gale, and rain started to pelt down on us. We huddled around the Etna as closely as possible. The flames burned rather dramatically, the grass caught fire every minute or so and had to be stomped out, leading to several burnt fingers among the group. However, the amount of cooking we managed was not worth all that effort, and when we finally stopped after two rounds of fire, the one good egg was barely warm, and the à la papier came out as a cold and grimy mix of printer's ink and broken eggshell. We managed to roast the other two eggs by placing them near the flames, which turned out better. Then we opened the bottle of wine and sat down in a ditch with our canoe aprons over our laps. It rained heavily. Discomfort, when it's genuinely uncomfortable and doesn't pretend to be anything else, is really quite funny; and people who are soaked and exhausted outdoors tend to be in a good mood for laughter. From that perspective, even egg à la papier could pass as a sort of side dish to the fun. However, this type of humor, although easy to take lightly, isn’t something you want to do again; and from then on, the Etna traveled like a gentleman in the locker of the Cigarette.
It is almost unnecessary to mention that when lunch was over and we got aboard again and made sail, the wind promptly died away. The rest of the journey to Villevorde, we still spread our canvas to the unfavouring air; and with now and then a puff, and now and then a spell of paddling, drifted along from lock to lock, between the orderly trees.
It’s almost pointless to say that once lunch was over and we got back on board and set sail, the wind died down. For the rest of the trip to Villevorde, we still set our sails to the unfavorable breeze; with an occasional gust and some moments of paddling, we drifted along from lock to lock, surrounded by neat rows of trees.
It was a fine, green, fat landscape; or rather a mere green water-lane, going on from village to village. Things had a settled look, as in places long lived in. Crop-headed children spat upon us from the bridges as we went below, with a true conservative feeling. But even more conservative were the fishermen, intent upon their floats, who let us go by without one glance. They perched upon sterlings and buttresses and along the slope of the embankment, gently occupied. They were indifferent, like pieces of dead nature. They did not move any more than if they had been fishing in an old Dutch print. The leaves fluttered, the water lapped, but they continued in one stay like so many churches established by law. You might have trepanned every one of their innocent heads, and found no more than so much coiled fishing-line below their skulls. I do not care for your stalwart fellows in india-rubber stockings breasting up mountain torrents with a salmon rod; but I do dearly love the class of man who plies his unfruitful art, for ever and a day, by still and depopulated waters.
It was a lush, vibrant landscape, or more like a green corridor stretching from village to village. Everything had a settled vibe, typical of places that have been lived in for a long time. Kids with short hair spat at us from the bridges as we passed beneath them, showing their true conservative spirit. But the fishermen were even more traditional, focused on their floats, ignoring us completely. They sat on stone walls and embankments, casually occupied. They were as indifferent as if they were just parts of the scenery. They didn’t move any more than if they were fishing in an old Dutch painting. The leaves rustled, the water lapped, but they remained still like so many churches established by law. You could have knocked on their innocent heads and found nothing more than coiled fishing line inside. I’m not interested in the rugged guys in rubber boots battling mountain streams with a salmon rod; I truly admire the kind of person who quietly practices their unproductive craft by peaceful, deserted waters day in and day out.
At the last lock, just beyond Villevorde, there was[Pg 15] a lock-mistress who spoke French comprehensibly, and told us we were still a couple of leagues from Brussels. At the same place the rain began again. It fell in straight, parallel lines; and the surface of the canal was thrown up into an infinity of little crystal fountains. There were no beds to be had in the neighbourhood. Nothing for it but to lay the sails aside and address ourselves to steady paddling in the rain.
At the last lock, just past Villevorde, there was[Pg 15] a lock-mistress who spoke French fluently and informed us that we were still a couple of leagues away from Brussels. At that moment, the rain started again. It fell in straight, parallel lines, and the surface of the canal erupted into countless little crystal fountains. There were no places to stay nearby. So, we had no choice but to set the sails aside and focus on paddling steadily in the rain.
Beautiful country houses, with clocks and long lines of shuttered windows, and fine old trees standing in groves and avenues, gave a rich and sombre aspect in the rain and the deepening dusk to the shores of the canal. I seem to have seen something of the same effect in engravings: opulent landscapes, deserted and overhung with the passage of storm. And throughout we had the escort of a hooded cart, which trotted shabbily along the tow-path, and kept at an almost uniform distance in our wake.
Beautiful country houses, with clocks and rows of closed windows, and impressive old trees standing in groves and along avenues, created a rich and moody look in the rain and the deepening dusk along the canal's shores. I feel like I've seen a similar effect in engravings: luxurious landscapes, empty and overshadowed by the storm's passing. And throughout, we were followed by a hooded cart that trotted along the towpath, maintaining a nearly consistent distance behind us.
THE ROYAL SPORT NAUTIQUE
The rain took off near Laeken. But the sun was already down; the air was chill; and we had scarcely a dry stitch between the pair of us. Nay, now we found ourselves near the end of the Allée Verte, and on the very threshold of Brussels, we were confronted by a serious difficulty. The shores were closely lined by canal boats waiting their turn at the lock. Nowhere was there any convenient landing-place; nowhere so much as a stable-yard to leave the canoes in for the night. We scrambled ashore and entered an estaminet where some sorry fellows were drinking with the landlord. The landlord was pretty round with us; he knew of no coach-house or stable-yard, nothing of the sort; and seeing we had come with no mind to drink, he did not conceal his impatience to be rid of us. One of the sorry fellows came to the rescue. Somewhere in the corner of the basin there was a slip, he informed us, and something else besides, not very clearly defined by him, but hopefully construed by his hearers.
The rain let up near Laeken. But the sun had already set; the air was cold; and we barely had a dry thread between the two of us. Now we found ourselves near the end of the Allée Verte, and right at the edge of Brussels, we faced a serious problem. The banks were lined with canal boats waiting to go through the lock. There was no convenient spot to land; not even a stable yard to leave the canoes for the night. We scrambled ashore and entered a small bar where some unfortunate guys were drinking with the landlord. The landlord was pretty blunt with us; he didn't know of any coach house or stable yard, nothing of the sort; and since we weren’t there to drink, he didn’t hide his impatience to get rid of us. One of the unfortunate guys came to our aid. He mentioned that somewhere in the corner of the basin there was a slip, and something else too, though it wasn’t very clearly explained by him, but hopefully interpreted by his listeners.
Sure enough there was the slip in the corner of the basin, and at the top of it two nice-looking lads in boating clothes. The Arethusa addressed himself to these. One of them said there would be no difficulty about a night's lodging for our boats; and the other, taking a cigarette from his lips, inquired if they were made by Searle and Son. The name was quite an introduction. Half a dozen other young men came out of a boat-house bearing the superscription ROYAL SPORT NAUTIQUE, and joined in the talk. They were all very polite, voluble, and enthusiastic; and their discourse was interlarded with English boating[Pg 17] terms, and the names of English boat-builders and English clubs. I do not know, to my shame, any spot in my native land where I should have been so warmly received by the same number of people. We were English boating-men, and the Belgian boating-men fell upon our necks. I wonder if French Huguenots were as cordially greeted by English Protestants when they came across the Channel out of great tribulation. But, after all, what religion knits people so closely as a common sport?
Sure enough, there was the slip in the corner of the marina, and at the top of it were two good-looking guys in sailing gear. The Arethusa approached them. One of them mentioned there wouldn’t be any problem finding a place for our boats to stay overnight; the other, pulling a cigarette from his lips, asked if they were from Searle and Son. That name was quite the icebreaker. Half a dozen other young men appeared from a boathouse labeled ROYAL SPORT NAUTIQUE and joined the conversation. They were all very polite, chatty, and excited; their conversation was peppered with English boating terms and references to English boat builders and clubs. I have to admit, I don’t know of any place in my own country where I would have been as warmly welcomed by so many people. We were English boaters, and the Belgian boaters embraced us. I wonder if French Huguenots received a similar warm welcome from English Protestants when they crossed the Channel seeking refuge. But then again, is there any bond that brings people together more than a shared sport?
The canoes were carried into the boat-house; they were washed down for us by the Club servants, the sails were hung out to dry, and everything made as snug and tidy as a picture. And in the meanwhile we were led upstairs by our new-found brethren, for so more than one of them stated the relationship, and made free of their lavatory. This one lent us soap, that one a towel, a third and fourth helped us to undo our bags. And all the time such questions, such assurances of respect and sympathy! I declare I never knew what glory was before.
The canoes were taken into the boathouse; the club staff cleaned them for us, the sails were hung out to dry, and everything was made as neat and tidy as can be. Meanwhile, our new friends led us upstairs, as more than one of them called it a family connection, and let us use their bathroom. One guy lent us soap, another offered a towel, and a third and fourth helped us unpack our bags. And all the while, there were so many questions, and so many expressions of respect and support! I swear I’ve never known what glory truly felt like before.
"Yes, yes; the Royal Sport Nautique is the oldest club in Belgium."
"Yeah, yeah; the Royal Sport Nautique is the oldest club in Belgium."
"We number two hundred."
"We're two hundred."
"We"—this is not a substantive speech, but an abstract of many speeches, the impression left upon my mind after a great deal of talk; and very youthful, pleasant, natural, and patriotic it seems to me to be—"We have gained all races, except those where we were cheated by the French."
"We"—this isn't a detailed speech, but a summary of many talks, the impression that remains in my mind after a lot of discussion; and it feels very youthful, pleasant, natural, and patriotic to me—"We have gained all races, except for those where we were cheated by the French."
"You must leave all your wet things to be dried."
"You need to leave all your wet stuff to dry."
"O! entre frères! In any boat-house in England we should find the same." (I cordially hope they might.)
"O! between brothers! In any boathouse in England we would find the same." (I sincerely hope they may.)
"En Angleterre, vous employez des sliding-seats, n'est-ce pas?"
"In England, you use sliding seats, right?"
"We are all employed in commerce during the day; but in the evening, voyez-vous, nous sommes sèrieux."
"We all work in business during the day; but in the evening, you see, we are serious."
These were the words. They were all employed over[Pg 18] the frivolous mercantile concerns of Belgium during the day; but in the evening they found some hours for the serious concerns of life. I may have a wrong idea of wisdom, but I think that was a very wise remark. People connected with literature and philosophy are busy all their days in getting rid of second-hand notions and false standards. It is their profession, in the sweat of their brows, by dogged thinking, to recover their old fresh view of life, and distinguish what they really and originally like, from what they have only learned to tolerate perforce. And these Royal Nautical Sportsmen had the distinction still quite legible in their hearts. They had still those clean perceptions of what is nice and nasty, what is interesting and what is dull, which envious old gentlemen refer to as illusions. The nightmare illusion of middle age, the bear's hug of custom gradually squeezing the life out of a man's soul, had not yet begun for these happy-starred young Belgians. They still knew that the interest they took in their business was a trifling affair compared to their spontaneous, long-suffering affection for nautical sports. To know what you prefer, instead of humbly saying Amen to what the world tells you you ought to prefer, is to have kept your soul alive. Such a man may be generous; he may be honest in something more than the commercial sense; he may love his friends with an elective, personal sympathy, and not accept them as an adjunct of the station to which he has been called. He may be a man, in short, acting on his own instincts, keeping in his own shape that God made him in; and not a mere crank in the social engine-house, welded on principles that he does not understand, and for purposes that he does not care for.
These were the words. They were all busy during the day with the trivial commercial issues of Belgium; but in the evening they found time for the more serious matters of life. I might have a misguided view of wisdom, but I think that was a very insightful comment. People involved in literature and philosophy spend their days trying to shed outdated ideas and false standards. It’s their job, through hard work and persistent thinking, to reclaim their original fresh perspective on life and to differentiate between what they genuinely love and what they have learned to accept out of necessity. And these Royal Nautical Sportsmen still had that clarity within their hearts. They maintained those clear perceptions of what is enjoyable and unpleasant, what is captivating and what is boring, which envious older gentlemen dismiss as illusions. The draining illusion of middle age, the suffocating grip of convention slowly strangling the spirit, had not yet begun for these fortunate young Belgians. They understood that their interest in their work was a minor concern compared to their natural, enduring passion for nautical sports. To know what you truly prefer, instead of simply agreeing with what society tells you to prefer, is to keep your soul alive. Such a person may be generous; they may be honest in ways beyond just business; they may love their friends with a personal, chosen sympathy, not just as an extension of their social status. In short, they may be a person acting on their own instincts, maintaining the form that God intended for them; and not just a cog in the social machine, attached to principles they don’t understand and for reasons they don’t care about.
For will any one dare to tell me that business is more entertaining than fooling among boats? He must have never seen a boat, or never seen an office, who says so. And for certain the one is a great deal better for the health. There should be nothing so much a man's business as his[Pg 19] amusements. Nothing but money-grubbing can be put forward to the contrary; no one but
For who would actually say that working is more fun than messing around with boats? They must have never seen a boat or never been in an office to think that. Plus, being on a boat is definitely better for your health. A man should prioritize his hobbies just as much as his work. The only argument against this would be one focused solely on making money; no one but
durst risk a word in answer. It is but a lying cant that would represent the merchant and the banker as people disinterestedly toiling for mankind, and then most useful when they are most absorbed in their transactions; for the man is more important than his services. And when my Royal Nautical Sportsman shall have so far fallen from his hopeful youth that he cannot pluck up an enthusiasm over anything but his ledger, I venture to doubt whether he will be near so nice a fellow, and whether he would welcome, with so good a grace, a couple of drenched Englishmen paddling into Brussels in the dusk.
durst risk a word in response. It's just a false narrative to portray merchants and bankers as selflessly working for the good of society, claiming they’re most beneficial when they’re deeply engaged in their transactions; the individual is more important than their contributions. And when my Royal Nautical Sportsman has fallen so far from his once-promising youth that he can only muster enthusiasm for his account books, I seriously doubt he’ll be as likable, and I question whether he would warmly greet a couple of soaked Englishmen arriving in Brussels at dusk.
When we had changed our wet clothes and drunk a glass of pale ale to the Club's prosperity, one of their number escorted us to an hotel. He would not join us at our dinner, but he had no objection to a glass of wine. Enthusiasm is very wearing; and I begin to understand why prophets were unpopular in Judea, where they were best known. For three stricken hours did this excellent young man sit beside us to dilate on boats and boat-races; and before he left, he was kind enough to order our bedroom candles.
When we had changed out of our wet clothes and had a glass of pale ale to toast the Club's success, one of the members took us to a hotel. He didn’t join us for dinner, but he was fine with having a glass of wine. Enthusiasm can be exhausting, and I’m starting to see why prophets weren't well-liked in Judea, where they were most recognized. This wonderful young man spent three long hours with us going on about boats and boat races; and before he left, he kindly arranged for our bedroom candles.
We endeavoured now and again to change the subject; but the diversion did not last a moment: the Royal Nautical Sportsman bridled, shied, answered the question, and then breasted once more into the swelling tide of his subject. I call it his subject; but I think it was he who was subjected. The Arethusa, who holds all racing as a creature of the devil, found himself in a pitiful dilemma. He durst not own his ignorance, for the honour of Old England, and spoke away about English clubs and English oarsmen whose fame had never before come to his ears. Several times, and, once above all, on the question of[Pg 20] sliding-seats, he was within an ace of exposure. As for the Cigarette, who has rowed races in the heat of his blood, but now disowns these slips of his wanton youth, his case was still more desperate; for the Royal Nautical proposed that he should take an oar in one of their eights on the morrow, to compare the English with the Belgian stroke. I could see my friend perspiring in his chair whenever that particular topic came up. And there was yet another proposal which had the same effect on both of us. It appeared that the champion canoeist of Europe (as well as most other champions) was a Royal Nautical Sportsman. And if we would only wait until the Sunday, this infernal paddler would be so condescending as to accompany us on our next stage. Neither of us had the least desire to drive the coursers of the sun against Apollo.
We tried time and again to change the subject, but the distraction didn’t last long: the Royal Nautical Sportsman became defensive, hesitated, answered the question, and then dove back into his topic. I call it his topic, but I think he was the one being put on the spot. The Arethusa, who believes all racing is a sin, found himself in a tough spot. He couldn’t admit he didn’t know anything, for the sake of Old England, and started rambling about English clubs and oarsmen whose names he had never heard before. Several times, especially when the topic of[Pg 20] sliding-seats came up, he was close to being exposed. As for the Cigarette, who had raced in his youthful passion but now rejected those youthful follies, his situation was even worse; the Royal Nautical suggested he take an oar in one of their eights the next day to compare the English technique with the Belgian one. I could see my friend sweating in his chair every time that topic was mentioned. There was also another proposal that had the same effect on both of us. It turned out that the top canoeist in Europe (as well as many other champions) was a Royal Nautical Sportsman. And if we would just wait until Sunday, this annoying paddler would graciously agree to join us for our next leg. Neither of us wanted to challenge the sun on behalf of Apollo.
When the young man was gone, we countermanded our candles, and ordered some brandy and water. The great billows had gone over our head. The Royal Nautical Sportsmen were as nice young fellows as a man would wish to see, but they were a trifle too young and a thought too nautical for us. We began to see that we were old and cynical; we liked ease and the agreeable rambling of the human mind about this and the other subject; we did not want to disgrace our native land by messing an eight, or toiling pitifully in the wake of the champion canoeist. In short, we had recourse to flight. It seemed ungrateful, but we tried to make that good on a card loaded with sincere compliments. And indeed it was no time for scruples; we seemed to feel the hot breath of the champion on our necks.
When the young man left, we canceled our candles and ordered some brandy and water. The big waves had crashed over us. The Royal Nautical Sportsmen were really nice guys, just the kind you'd want to hang out with, but they were a bit too young and a little too into sailing for us. We started to realize that we were old and cynical; we preferred comfort and the casual back-and-forth of conversation about various topics; we didn’t want to embarrass our homeland by struggling with an eight-man crew or laboring sadly in the shadow of the champion canoeist. In short, we decided to make our escape. It felt ungrateful, but we tried to make up for it with a card full of genuine compliments. And honestly, it wasn’t the time for second thoughts; we could practically feel the champion's hot breath on our necks.
AT MAUBEUGE
Partly from the terror we had of our good friends the Royal Nauticals, partly from the fact that there were no fewer than fifty-five locks between Brussels and Charleroi, we concluded that we should travel by train across the frontier, boats and all. Fifty-five locks in a day's journey was pretty well tantamount to trudging the whole distance on foot, with the canoes upon our shoulders, an object of astonishment to the trees on the canal side, and of honest derision to all right-thinking children.
Partly because we were scared of our good friends the Royal Nauticals, and partly because there were fifty-five locks between Brussels and Charleroi, we decided to take the train across the border, canoes and all. Fifty-five locks in one day was pretty much like walking the entire distance with the canoes on our backs, making us a source of amazement for the trees by the canal and honest laughter for any sensible kids.
To pass the frontier even in a train is a difficult matter for the Arethusa. He is somehow or other a marked man for the official eye. Wherever he journeys there are the officers gathered together. Treaties are solemnly signed, foreign ministers, ambassadors, and consuls sit throned in state from China to Peru, and the Union Jack flutters on all the winds of heaven. Under these safeguards, portly clergymen, schoolmistresses, gentlemen in grey tweed suits, and all the ruck and rabble of British touristry pour unhindered, "Murray" in hand, over the railways of the Continent, and yet the slim person of the Arethusa is taken in the meshes, while these great fish go on their way rejoicing. If he travels without a passport, he is cast, without any figure about the matter, into noisome dungeons: if his papers are in order, he is suffered to go his way indeed, but not until he has been humiliated by a general incredulity. He is a born British subject, yet he has never succeeded in persuading a single official of his nationality. He flatters himself he is indifferent honest; yet he is rarely taken for anything better than a spy, and[Pg 22] there is no absurd and disreputable means of livelihood but has been attributed to him in some heat of official or popular distrust....
To cross the border even by train is a tough challenge for the Arethusa. He's somehow marked for the attention of officials. Wherever he goes, the officers are gathered around. Treaties are formally signed, foreign ministers, ambassadors, and consuls sit in state from China to Peru, and the Union Jack flutters in every corner of the world. Under these protections, hefty clergymen, schoolmistresses, men in grey tweed suits, and all the crowds of British tourists move freely, guidebook in hand, across the railways of the Continent, yet the slender figure of the Arethusa gets caught in the net while these notable travelers continue happily on their way. If he travels without a passport, he is thrown, without any ceremony, into filthy dungeons: if his documents are in order, he's allowed to go on his way, but only after being subjected to widespread disbelief. He is a natural British citizen, yet he has never managed to convince a single official of his nationality. He entertains the notion that he is fairly honest; yet he is seldom seen as anything better than a spy, and[Pg 22] every ridiculous and disreputable means of making a living has been attributed to him in some moment of official or public suspicion....
For the life of me I cannot understand it. I, too, have been knolled to church, and sat at good men's feasts; but I bear no mark of it. I am as strange as a Jack Indian to their official spectacles. I might come from any part of the globe, it seems, except from where I do. My ancestors have laboured in vain, and the glorious Constitution cannot protect me in my walks abroad. It is a great thing, believe me, to present a good normal type of the nation you belong to.
For the life of me, I just can’t make sense of it. I've also been taken to church and sat at nice gatherings, but I don’t show any signs of it. I’m as out of place as a stranger at their official events. I could come from anywhere in the world, it seems, except from where I actually do. My ancestors have worked hard for nothing, and the proud Constitution can’t keep me safe when I go out. It's really important, believe me, to represent a good, typical example of the nation you belong to.
Nobody else was asked for his papers on the way to Maubeuge; but I was, and although I clung to my rights, I had to choose at last between accepting the humiliation and being left behind by the train. I was sorry to give way; but I wanted to get to Maubeuge.
Nobody else was asked for their papers on the way to Maubeuge, but I was. Even though I insisted on my rights, in the end, I had to choose between accepting the humiliation and being left behind by the train. I didn't want to give in, but I wanted to get to Maubeuge.
Maubeuge is a fortified town, with a very good inn, the Grand Cerf. It seemed to be inhabited principally by soldiers and bagmen; at least, these were all that we saw, except the hotel servants. We had to stay there some time, for the canoes were in no hurry to follow us, and at last stuck hopelessly in the custom-house until we went back to liberate them. There was nothing to do, nothing to see. We had good meals, which was a great matter; but that was all.
Maubeuge is a fortified town with a great inn, the Grand Cerf. It looked like it was mainly populated by soldiers and traders; at least, those were the only people we saw, aside from the hotel staff. We had to stay there for a while since the canoes weren’t in a rush to catch up with us and eventually got stuck in customs until we returned to free them. There was nothing to do and nothing to see. We had good meals, which was a big deal, but that was it.
The Cigarette was nearly taken up upon a charge of drawing the fortifications: a feat of which he was hopelessly incapable. And besides, as I suppose each belligerent nation has a plan of the other's fortified places already, these precautions are of the nature of shutting the stable door after the steed is away. But I have no doubt they help to keep up a good spirit at home. It is a great thing if you can persuade people that they are somehow or other partakers in a mystery. It makes them feel bigger. Even the Freemasons, who have been shown up to satiety, preserve a kind of pride; and not a grocer among them,[Pg 23] however honest, harmless, and empty-headed he may feel himself to be at bottom, but comes home from one of their cœnacula with a portentous significance for himself.
The Cigarette was almost brought up on a charge for trying to map out the fortifications, something he was completely incapable of doing. Plus, since every warring nation probably already has a plan of the other’s fortified locations, these precautions feel like locking the stable door after the horse has bolted. But I’m sure they help boost morale at home. It's a big deal if you can convince people that they’re somehow part of a greater mystery. It makes them feel important. Even the Freemasons, who have been exposed enough times, still hold on to a certain pride; and not a single grocer among them, [Pg 23] no matter how honest, harmless, or simple-minded he may think he is at heart, comes back from one of their cœnacula without feeling a sense of significant importance.
It is an odd thing, how happily two people, if there are two, can live in a place where they have no acquaintance. I think the spectacle of a whole life in which you have no part paralysis personal desire. You are content to become a mere spectator. The baker stands in his door; the colonel with his three medals goes by to the café at night; the troops drum and trumpet and man the ramparts, as bold as so many lions. It would task language to say how placidly you behold all this. In a place where you have taken some root, you are provoked out of your indifference; you have a hand in the game; your friends are fighting with the army. But in a strange town, not small enough to grow too soon familiar, nor so large as to have laid itself out for travellers, you stand so far apart from the business that you positively forget it would be possible to go nearer; you have so little human interest around you, that you do not remember yourself to be a man. Perhaps, in a very short time, you would be one no longer. Gymnosophists go into a wood, with all nature seething around them, with romance on every side; it would be much more to the purpose if they took up their abode in a dull country town, where they should see just so much of humanity as to keep them from desiring more, and only the stale externals of man's life. These externals are as dead to us as so many formalities, and speak a dead language in our eyes and ears. They have no more meaning than an oath or a salutation. We are so much accustomed to see married couples going to church of a Sunday that we have clean forgotten what they represent; and novelists are driven to rehabilitate adultery, no less, when they wish to show us what a beautiful thing it is for a man and a woman to live for each other.[Pg 24]
It’s strange how happily two people, if there are two, can live in a place where they don’t know anyone. I think seeing an entire life in which you have no involvement numbs personal desire. You’re fine just being a bystander. The baker stands in his doorway; the colonel with his three medals walks by to the café at night; the troops are marching and playing their drums, as fearless as lions. It’s hard to describe how calmly you watch all this. In a place where you’ve settled down, you’re stirred from your indifference; you’re part of the action; your friends are fighting alongside the troops. But in a strange town, not small enough to feel familiar quickly, nor large enough to cater to travelers, you stand so far removed from everything that you totally forget you could get closer; there’s so little human connection around you that you don’t even remember you’re a person. Maybe, in no time, you wouldn’t be one anymore. Ascetics go into a forest, surrounded by nature’s chaos, with romance everywhere; it would be much more relevant if they settled in a dull small town, where they see just enough humanity to keep them from wanting more, and only the boring aspects of human life. These aspects are as lifeless to us as formalities and convey a meaningless language to our eyes and ears. They hold no more significance than an oath or a greeting. We’re so used to seeing married couples going to church on Sundays that we’ve completely forgotten what they symbolize; and writers are pushed to glorify infidelity when they want to show us the beauty of a man and a woman living for each other.[Pg 24]
One person in Maubeuge, however, showed me something more than his outside. That was the driver of the hotel omnibus: a mean enough looking little man, as well as I can remember; but with a spark of something human in his soul. He had heard of our little journey, and came to me at once in envious sympathy. How he longed to travel! he told me. How he longed to be somewhere else, and see the round world before he went into the grave! "Here I am," said he. "I drive to the station. Well. And then I drive back again to the hotel. And so on every day, and all the week round. My God, is that life?" I could not say I thought it was—for him. He pressed me to tell him where I had been, and where I hoped to go; and as he listened, I declare the fellow sighed. Might not this have been a brave African traveller, or gone to the Indies after Drake? But it is an evil age for the gypsily inclined among men. He who can sit squarest on a three-legged stool, he it is who has the wealth and glory.
One person in Maubeuge, however, showed me something more than just his appearance. That was the driver of the hotel shuttle: a rather miserable-looking little man, as I recall; but with a spark of something human in his soul. He had heard about our little journey and came to me right away with envious sympathy. How badly he wanted to travel! he told me. How he wished he could be somewhere else and see the whole world before he passed away! "Here I am," he said. "I drive to the station. Okay. Then I drive back to the hotel. And that’s how it goes every day, all week long. My God, is that living?" I couldn't honestly say that it was—for him. He urged me to tell him where I had been and where I hoped to go; and as he listened, I swear the guy sighed. He could have been a brave African explorer or someone who went to the Indies after Drake! But it's a tough time for those with a wandering spirit. The one who can sit most firmly on a three-legged stool is the one who gets the riches and glory.
I wonder if my friend is still driving the omnibus for the Grand Cerf? Not very likely, I believe; for I think he was on the eve of mutiny when we passed through, and perhaps our passage determined him for good. Better a thousand times that he should be a tramp, and mend pots and pans by the wayside, and sleep under trees, and see the dawn and the sunset every day above a new horizon. I think I hear you say that it is a respectable position to drive an omnibus? Very well. What right has he, who likes it not, to keep those who would like it dearly out of this respectable position? Suppose a dish were not to my taste, and you told me that it was a favourite amongst the rest of the company, what should I conclude from that? Not to finish the dish against my stomach, I suppose.
I wonder if my friend is still driving the bus for the Grand Cerf? Not very likely, I think; he was about to rebel when we passed through, and maybe our visit pushed him to make that decision for good. A thousand times better for him to be a drifter, fixing pots and pans by the roadside, sleeping under trees, and witnessing the dawn and sunset every day over a new horizon. I can almost hear you saying that driving a bus is a respectable job? Fine. But what right does he have, who doesn’t enjoy it, to keep those who would love it dearly from this respectable position? If I didn’t like a dish, and you told me it was a favorite among everyone else, what would I conclude? That I shouldn’t force myself to finish something that doesn’t sit well with me, I suppose.
Respectability is a very good thing in its way, but it does not rise superior to all considerations. I would not for a moment venture to hint that it was a matter of taste;[Pg 25] but I think I will go as far as this: that if a position is admittedly unkind, uncomfortable, unnecessary, and superfluously useless, although it were as respectable as the Church of England, the sooner a man is out of it, the better for himself, and all concerned.
Respectability is definitely valuable in its own right, but it doesn't outweigh all other factors. I wouldn't ever suggest it's just a matter of personal preference;[Pg 25] but I will say this: if a situation is clearly unkind, uncomfortable, unnecessary, and completely pointless, even if it's as respectable as the Church of England, the sooner someone gets out of it, the better it is for him and everyone involved.
ON THE SAMBRE CANALISED
TO QUARTES
About three in the afternoon the whole establishment of the Grand Cerf accompanied us to the water's edge. The man of the omnibus was there with haggard eyes. Poor cage-bird! Do I not remember the time when I myself haunted the station, to watch train after train carry its complement of freemen into the night, and read the names of distant places on the time-bills with indescribable longings?
About three in the afternoon, everyone from the Grand Cerf came with us to the edge of the water. The bus driver was there, looking worn out. Poor trapped soul! I can still remember when I used to hang around the station, watching train after train take its passengers into the night, reading the names of faraway places on the schedule with an indescribable yearning.
We were not clear of the fortifications before the rain began. The wind was contrary, and blew in furious gusts; nor were the aspects of nature any more clement than the doings of the sky. For we passed through a stretch of blighted country, sparsely covered with brush, but handsomely enough diversified with factory chimneys. We landed in a soiled meadow among some pollards, and there smoked a pipe in a flaw of fair weather. But the wind blew so hard, we could get little else to smoke. There were no natural objects in the neighbourhood, but some sordid workshops. A group of children headed by a tall girl stood and watched us from a little distance all the time we stayed. I heartily wonder what they thought of us.
We hadn't made it past the fortifications before the rain started. The wind was against us, blowing in violent gusts, and the weather was just as unkind as the sky's mood. We traveled through a stretch of barren land, barely covered with brush but dotted with factory chimneys. We landed in a dirty meadow among some pollard trees and managed to smoke a pipe during a brief moment of decent weather. However, the wind was so strong that smoking was a challenge. There were no natural landmarks nearby, only a few rundown workshops. A group of kids, led by a tall girl, stood at a distance and watched us the entire time we were there. I really wonder what they thought of us.
At Hautmont, the lock was almost impassable; the landing-place being steep and high, and the launch at a long distance. Near a dozen grimy workmen lent us a hand. They refused any reward; and, what is much better, refused it handsomely, without conveying any sense of insult. "It is a way we have in our country[Pg 27]side," said they. And a very becoming way it is. In Scotland, where also you will get services for nothing, the good people reject your money as if you had been trying to corrupt a voter. When people take the trouble to do dignified acts, it is worth while to take a little more, and allow the dignity to be common to all concerned. But in our brave Saxon countries, where we plod threescore years and ten in the mud, and the wind keeps singing in our ears from birth to burial, we do our good and bad with a high hand, and almost offensively; and make even our alms a witness-bearing and an act of war against the wrong.
At Hautmont, the lock was nearly impossible to navigate; the landing area was steep and high, and the launch was quite far away. Around a dozen dirty workers came to help us. They turned down any payment; and, even better, they did so graciously, without making it feel insulting. "It's just how we do things in our countryside," they said. And it's a nice way to go about it. In Scotland, where you can also receive help for free, the kind people refuse your money as if you were trying to bribe a voter. When people take the time to do honorable things, it’s worth it to also put in the effort to ensure that respect is mutual among everyone involved. But in our proud Saxon countries, where we slog through life for seventy years in the muck and the wind hounds us from birth to death, we perform our good and bad deeds with a sense of superiority, almost rudely; even our charity becomes a statement and a confrontation against what’s wrong.
After Hautmont, the sun came forth again and the wind went down; and a little paddling took us beyond the ironworks and through a delectable land. The river wound among low hills, so that sometimes the sun was at our backs, and sometimes it stood right ahead, and the river before us was one sheet of intolerable glory. On either hand, meadows and orchards bordered, with a margin of sedge and water flowers, upon the river. The hedges were of great height, woven about the trunks of hedgerow elms; and the fields, as they were often very small, looked like a series of bowers along the stream. There was never any prospect; sometimes a hill-top with its trees would look over the nearest hedgerow, just to make a middle distance for the sky; but that was all. The heaven was bare of clouds. The atmosphere, after the rain, was of enchanting purity. The river doubled among the hillocks, a shining strip of mirror glass; and the dip of the paddles set the flowers shaking along the brink.
After Hautmont, the sun came out again and the wind calmed down; a little paddling took us past the ironworks and through a beautiful landscape. The river wound through low hills, so sometimes the sun was behind us, and other times it was right in front, making the river ahead a dazzling sight. On both sides, meadows and orchards lined the banks, with a strip of reeds and water flowers hugging the river. The hedges were tall, wrapped around the trunks of hedgerow elms; and since the fields were often quite small, they looked like a series of cozy spots along the stream. There were no real views; occasionally, a tree-topped hill would peek over the nearest hedge, just to give a backdrop for the sky, but that was it. The sky was clear of clouds. After the rain, the atmosphere was enchanting in its purity. The river twisted around the hillocks, a gleaming strip of mirror glass; and the dip of the paddles made the flowers tremble along the edge.
In the meadows wandered black and white cattle fantastically marked. One beast, with a white head and the rest of the body glossy black, came to the edge to drink, and stood gravely twitching his ears at me as I went by, like some sort of preposterous clergyman in a play. A moment after I heard a loud plunge, and, turning[Pg 28] my head, saw the clergyman struggling to shore. The bank had given way under his feet.
In the meadows roamed beautifully marked black and white cattle. One cow, with a white head and a glossy black body, came to the edge to drink and stood there seriously twitching its ears at me as I walked by, like a ridiculous clergyman in a play. A moment later, I heard a loud splash, and, turning[Pg 28] my head, saw the clergyman trying to get back to shore. The bank had collapsed under his feet.
Besides the cattle, we saw no living things except a few birds and a great many fishermen. These sat along the edges of the meadows, sometimes with one rod, sometimes with as many as half a score. They seemed stupefied with contentment; and when we induced them to exchange a few words with us about the weather, their voices sounded quiet and far away. There was a strange diversity of opinion among them as to the kind of fish for which they set their lures; although they were all agreed in this, that the river was abundantly supplied. Where it was plain that no two of them had ever caught the same kind of fish, we could not help suspecting that perhaps not any one of them had ever caught a fish at all. I hope, since the afternoon was so lovely, that they were one and all rewarded; and that a silver booty went home in every basket for the pot. Some of my friends would cry shame on me for this; but I prefer a man, were he only an angler, to the bravest pair of gills in all God's waters. I do not affect fishes unless when cooked in sauce; whereas an angler is an important piece of river scenery, and hence deserves some recognition among canoeists. He can always tell you where you are after a mild fashion; and his quiet presence serves to accentuate the solitude and stillness, and remind you of the glittering citizens below your boat.
Aside from the cattle, we saw no living creatures except a few birds and a lot of fishermen. They sat along the edges of the meadows, sometimes with one fishing rod, sometimes with as many as a dozen. They looked blissfully content, and when we managed to chat with them about the weather, their voices sounded soft and distant. There was a surprising range of opinions among them about what type of fish they were trying to catch, although they all agreed that the river was full of fish. It was clear that no two had ever caught the same kind of fish, leading us to suspect that perhaps none of them had actually caught any fish at all. I hope, since the afternoon was so beautiful, that they all had some success and that every basket brought home a shiny catch for dinner. Some of my friends would scold me for this, but I prefer a fisherman, even if he's just an angler, over the strongest fish in all of God's waters. I don’t care for fish unless it's cooked in sauce; meanwhile, an angler is a vital part of the river scenery, deserving recognition from canoeists. He can always give you an idea of where you are in a casual way, and his calm presence adds to the sense of solitude and stillness, reminding you of the shimmering fish below your boat.
The Sambre turned so industriously to and fro among his little hills, that it was past six before we drew near the lock at Quartes. There were some children on the tow-path, with whom the Cigarette fell into a chaffing talk as they ran along beside us. It was in vain that I warned him. In vain I told him, in English, that boys were the most dangerous creatures; and if once you began with them, it was safe to end in a shower of stones. For my own part, whenever anything was addressed to me, I smiled gently and shook my head as though I were an inoffensive[Pg 29] person inadequately acquainted with French. For indeed I have had such experience at home, that I would sooner meet many wild animals than a troop of healthy urchins.
The Sambre twisted and turned tirelessly among its little hills, and by the time we got close to the lock at Quartes, it was past six. Some kids were on the tow-path, and Cigarette started chatting with them as they ran alongside us. I warned him, but it was pointless. I told him in English that boys were the most dangerous creatures, and once you started messing around with them, it was guaranteed to end with a barrage of stones. As for me, whenever someone spoke to me, I just smiled softly and shook my head, acting like I was an harmless person who didn't really know French. Because honestly, I've had enough experience back home that I would rather face a pack of wild animals than a bunch of healthy kids.
But I was doing injustice to these peaceable young Hainaulters. When the Cigarette went off to make inquiries, I got out upon the bank to smoke a pipe and superintend the boats, and became at once the centre of much amiable curiosity. The children had been joined by this time by a young woman and a mild lad who had lost an arm; and this gave me more security. When I let slip my first word or so in French, a little girl nodded her head with a comical grown-up air. "Ah, you see," she said, "he understands well enough now; he was just making believe." And the little group laughed together very good-naturedly.
But I was being unfair to these friendly young Hainaulters. When the Cigarette went off to ask questions, I stepped out onto the bank to smoke a pipe and watch over the boats, and I quickly became the focus of a lot of friendly curiosity. By this time, the children had been joined by a young woman and a gentle boy who had lost an arm; this made me feel more at ease. When I stumbled over my first few words in French, a little girl nodded her head with a funny adult-like expression. "Ah, you see," she said, "he understands perfectly now; he was just pretending." And the little group laughed together in a very friendly way.
They were much impressed when they heard we came from England; and the little girl proffered the information that England was an island "and a far way from here—bien loin d'ici."
They were really impressed when they learned we came from England; and the little girl offered the information that England was an island "and a long way from here—bien loin d'ici."
"Ay, you may say that,—a far way from here," said the lad with one arm.
"Ay, you could say that—a long way from here," said the boy with one arm.
I was as nearly home-sick as ever I was in my life; they seemed to make it such an incalculable distance to the place where I first saw the day.
I was about as homesick as I've ever been in my life; it felt like it was an impossible distance to the place where I first saw the light of day.
They admired the canoes very much. And I observed one piece of delicacy in these children, which is worthy of record. They had been deafening us for the last hundred yards with petitions for a sail; ay, and they deafened us to the same tune next morning when we came to start; but then, when the canoes were lying empty, there was no word of any such petition. Delicacy? or perhaps a bit of fear for the water in so crank a vessel? I hate cynicism a great deal worse than I do the devil; unless perhaps the two were the same thing! And yet 'tis a good tonic; the cold tub and bath-towel of the sentiments; and positively necessary to life in cases of advanced sensibility.[Pg 30]
They really admired the canoes. I noticed something interesting about the children that’s worth mentioning. They had been begging us for a sail for the last hundred yards, and they were still pleading for one the next morning when we were about to leave. But when the canoes were empty, they didn’t say a word about wanting to sail. Was it delicacy? Or maybe a little fear of the water in such an unstable boat? I dislike cynicism much more than I dislike the devil; unless, of course, the two are actually the same! Still, it's a good wake-up call; the cold splash of reality and a drying towel for our emotions; and it’s definitely needed in life when dealing with heightened sensitivity.[Pg 30]
From the boats they turned to my costume. They could not make enough of my red sash; and my knife filled them with awe.
From the boats, they focused on my outfit. They couldn’t get enough of my red sash, and my knife left them in awe.
"They make them like that in England," said the boy with one arm. I was glad he did not know how badly we make them in England nowadays. "They are for people who go away to sea," he added, "and to defend one's life against great fish."
"They make them like that in England," said the boy with one arm. I was glad he didn’t know how poorly we make them in England these days. "They are for people who go out to sea," he added, "and to protect oneself from big fish."
I felt I was becoming a more and more romantic figure to the little group at every word. And so I suppose I was. Even my pipe, although it was an ordinary French clay, pretty well "trousered," as they call it, would have a rarity in their eyes, as a thing coming from so far away. And if my feathers were not very fine in themselves, they were all from over seas. One thing in my outfit, however, tickled them out of all politeness; and that was the bemired condition of my canvas shoes. I suppose they were sure the mud at any rate was a home product. The little girl (who was the genius of the party) displayed her own sabots in competition; and I wish you could have seen how gracefully and merrily she did it.
I felt like I was becoming more of a romantic figure to the small group with every word I spoke. And I guess I was. Even my pipe, although it was just a basic French clay one, pretty much “trousered,” as they say, would seem special to them because it came from so far away. And although my feathers weren’t particularly fancy, they were all from overseas. However, one part of my outfit really amused them beyond all politeness: the muddy state of my canvas shoes. I’m sure they thought the mud was definitely from around here. The little girl (who was the creative spirit of the group) showed off her own sabots in comparison, and I wish you could have seen how gracefully and joyfully she did it.
The young woman's milk-can, a great amphora of hammered brass, stood some way off upon the sward. I was glad of an opportunity to divert public attention from myself, and return some of the compliments I had received. So I admired it cordially both for form and colour, telling them, and very truly, that it was as beautiful as gold. They were not surprised. The things were plainly the boast of the countryside. And the children expatiated on the costliness of these amphorae, which sell sometimes as high as thirty francs apiece; told me how they were carried on donkeys, one on either side of the saddle, a brave caparison in themselves; and how they were to be seen all over the district, and at the larger farms in great number and of great size.
The young woman's milk can, a large hammered brass vase, stood a little way off on the grass. I was happy for a chance to shift the focus away from myself and return some of the compliments I had received. So I sincerely admired it for its shape and color, telling them, and very truthfully, that it was as beautiful as gold. They weren’t surprised. Those items were clearly the pride of the area. The children went on about how expensive these vases were, sometimes selling for as much as thirty francs each; they explained how they were carried on donkeys, one on each side of the saddle, splendid decorations themselves; and how they could be seen all over the region, especially at the larger farms in great quantities and sizes.
PONT-SUR-SAMBRE
WE ARE PEDLARS
The Cigarette returned with good news. There were beds to be had some ten minutes' walk from where we were, at a place called Pont. We stowed the canoes in a granary, and asked among the children for a guide. The circle at once widened round us, and our offers of reward were received in dispiriting silence. We were plainly a pair of Bluebeards to the children; they might speak to us in public places, and where they had the advantage of numbers; but it was another thing to venture off alone with two uncouth and legendary characters, who had dropped from the clouds upon their hamlet this quiet afternoon, sashed and be-knived, and with a flavour of great voyages. The owner of the granary came to our assistance, singled out one little fellow and threatened him with corporalities; or I suspect we should have had to find the way for ourselves. As it was, he was more frightened at the granary man than the strangers, having perhaps had some experience of the former. But I fancy his little heart must have been going at a fine rate; for he kept trotting at a respectful distance in front, and looking back at us with scared eyes. Not otherwise may the children of the young world have guided Jove or one of his Olympian compeers on an adventure.
The Cigarette came back with good news. There were beds available about a ten-minute walk from where we were, at a place called Pont. We stored the canoes in a granary and asked the local kids for a guide. Suddenly, a crowd formed around us, but our offers of rewards were met with disappointing silence. To the children, we must have looked like a couple of legends; they might talk to us in public where they felt safe in numbers, but the idea of wandering off alone with two awkward and mysterious strangers who seemed to have dropped down from the sky this quiet afternoon, dressed oddly and armed, was too much to ask. The granary owner came to our aid, picked out one small kid, and threatened him with some punishment; otherwise, I think we would have had to find our own way. As it turned out, he was more scared of the granary owner than of us, probably because he had some past experience with the man. But I bet his little heart was racing, as he kept walking ahead of us at a respectful distance, glancing back with wide, frightened eyes. It must have felt a bit like how the children of old might have guided Jove or one of his fellow gods on an adventure.
A miry lane led us up from Quartes with its church and bickering windmill. The hinds were trudging homewards from the fields. A brisk little woman passed us by. She was seated across a donkey between a pair of glitter[Pg 32]ing milk-cans; and, as she went, she kicked jauntily with her heels upon the donkey's side, and scattered shrill remarks among the wayfarers. It was notable that none of the tired men took the trouble to reply. Our conductor soon led us out of the lane and across country. The sun had gone down, but the west in front of us was one lake of level gold. The path wandered a while in the open, and then passed under a trellis like a bower indefinitely prolonged. On either hand were shadowy orchards; cottages lay low among the leaves, and sent their smoke to heaven; every here and there, in an opening, appeared the great gold face of the west.
A muddy lane took us up from Quartes, with its church and arguing windmill. The laborers were trudging home from the fields. A lively little woman passed us by, sitting on a donkey between two shiny milk cans. As she rode along, she playfully kicked her heels against the donkey's side and shouted lively comments to the passersby. It was noticeable that none of the weary men bothered to respond. Our guide soon led us out of the lane and across the countryside. The sun had set, but the western sky in front of us was a vast expanse of golden light. The path meandered for a while in the open before going under a trellis that stretched on indefinitely like an archway. On either side were shadowy orchards; cottages nestled low among the trees, sending their smoke upwards; and every now and then, through an opening, the large golden face of the west shone through.
I never saw the Cigarette in such an idyllic frame of mind. He waxed positively lyrical in praise of country scenes. I was little less exhilarated myself; the mild air of the evening, the shadows, the rich lights and the silence, made a symphonious accompaniment about our walk; and we both determined to avoid towns for the future and sleep in hamlets.
I never saw the Cigarette in such a relaxed state of mind. He was genuinely enthusiastic in his admiration of countryside views. I was just as uplifted; the soft evening air, the shadows, the warm lights, and the quiet created a harmonious backdrop for our walk. We both decided to steer clear of cities from now on and stick to sleeping in small villages.
At last the path went between two houses, and turned the party out into a wide muddy high-road, bordered, as far as the eye could reach on either hand, by an unsightly village. The houses stood well back, leaving a ribbon of waste land on either side of the road, where there were stacks of firewood, carts, barrows, rubbish-heaps, and a little doubtful grass. Away on the left, a gaunt tower stood in the middle of the street. What it had been in past ages I know not: probably a hold in time of war; but nowadays it bore an illegible dial-plate in its upper parts, and near the bottom an iron letter-box.
Finally, the path went between two houses and led the group onto a wide, muddy road lined with an unattractive village as far as the eye could see. The houses were set back from the street, leaving a strip of wasteland on both sides of the road where there were piles of firewood, carts, wheelbarrows, trash heaps, and some questionable grass. To the left, a stark tower stood in the middle of the street. I don’t know what it was in past times—probably a fortress during a war—but these days it had an unreadable clock face near the top and an iron letterbox near the bottom.
The inn to which we had been recommended at Quartes was full, or else the landlady did not like our looks. I ought to say, that with our long, damp india-rubber bags, we presented rather a doubtful type of civilization: like rag-and-bone men, the Cigarette imagined. "These gentlemen are pedlars?—Ces messieurs sont des marchands?"—asked the landlady. And then, without wait[Pg 33]ing for an answer, which I suppose she thought superfluous in so plain a case, recommended us to a butcher who lived hard by the tower, and took in travellers to lodge.
The inn we were recommended to in Quartes was full, or maybe the landlady just didn't like the way we looked. I should mention that with our long, damp rubber bags, we definitely looked a bit suspect: like rag-and-bone men, as the Cigarette imagined. "Are these guys peddlers?—Ces messieurs sont des marchands?" asked the landlady. Then, without waiting for an answer, which she probably thought was unnecessary in such a clear-cut situation, she directed us to a butcher who lived near the tower and took in travelers for lodging.
Thither went we. But the butcher was flitting, and all his beds were taken down. Or else he didn't like our look. As a parting shot, we had "These gentlemen are pedlars?"
We went there. But the butcher was moving out, and all his beds were taken apart. Or maybe he just didn't like the way we looked. As a final remark, we heard, "Are these guys peddlers?"
It began to grow dark in earnest. We could no longer distinguish the faces of the people who passed us by with an inarticulate good-evening. And the householders of Pont seemed very economical with their oil; for we saw not a single window lighted in all that long village. I believe it is the longest village in the world; but I daresay in our predicament every pace counted three times over. We were much cast down when we came to the last auberge; and looking in at the dark door, asked timidly if we could sleep there for the night. A female voice assented in no very friendly tones. We clapped the bags down and found our way to chairs.
It started to get really dark. We could no longer make out the faces of people walking by who offered a vague good evening. The residents of Pont seemed to be very stingy with their oil; we didn’t see a single window lit in the entire long village. I think it's the longest village in the world; but I bet that in our situation, every step felt like three. We were feeling pretty down by the time we reached the last inn, and peering through the dark doorway, we hesitantly asked if we could stay there for the night. A woman's voice replied in a tone that wasn’t very welcoming. We dropped our bags and found our way to some chairs.
The place was in total darkness, save a red glow in the chinks and ventilators of the stove. But now the landlady lit a lamp to see her new guests; I suppose the darkness was what saved us another expulsion; for I cannot say she looked gratified at our appearance. We were in a large bare apartment, adorned with two allegorical prints of Music and Painting, and a copy of the law against public drunkenness. On one side, there was a bit of a bar, with some half-a-dozen bottles. Two labourers sat waiting supper, in attitudes of extreme weariness; a plain-looking lass bustled about with a sleepy child of two; and the landlady began to derange the pots upon the stove and set some beefsteak to grill.
The room was completely dark except for a red glow coming from the cracks and vents of the stove. But then the landlady turned on a lamp to see her new guests; I guess the darkness is what kept us from being kicked out again because I can’t say she looked happy to see us. We were in a large, empty room decorated with two prints representing Music and Painting, and a copy of the law against public drunkenness. On one side, there was a small bar with about six bottles. Two laborers sat waiting for dinner, looking extremely tired; a plain-looking girl was bustling around with a drowsy two-year-old; and the landlady started moving pots around on the stove and set some beef steak to grill.
"These gentlemen are pedlars?" she asked sharply. And that was all the conversation forthcoming. We began to think we might be pedlars after all. I never knew a population with so narrow a range of conjecture as the innkeepers of Pont-sur-Sambre. But manners and[Pg 34] bearing have not a wider currency than bank-notes. You have only to get far enough out of your beat, and all your accomplished airs will go for nothing. These Hainaulters could see no difference between us and the average pedlar. Indeed, we had some grounds for reflection while the steak was getting ready, to see how perfectly they accepted us at their own valuation, and how our best politeness and best efforts at entertainment seemed to fit quite suitably with the character of packmen. At least it seemed a good account of the profession in France, that even before such judges we could not beat them at our own weapons.
"Are these guys pedlars?" she asked sharply. That ended the conversation. We started to wonder if we might actually be pedlars after all. I've never met a group of people with such limited imagination as the innkeepers of Pont-sur-Sambre. But manners and[Pg 34] behavior don't have a wider value than cash. You just have to get far enough from your usual scene, and all your polished skills won't mean a thing. These Hainaulters couldn't see any difference between us and the typical pedlar. Honestly, we had plenty to think about while the steak was cooking, realizing how completely they judged us based on their own standards, and how our best politeness and attempts to entertain seemed to fit right in with the persona of packmen. At least it says something about the profession in France that even in front of such judges, we couldn't outshine them at our own game.
At last we were called to table. The two hinds (and one of them looked sadly worn and white in the face, as though sick with over-work and under-feeding) supped off a single plate of some sort of bread-berry, some potatoes in their jackets, a small cup of coffee sweetened with sugar-candy, and one tumbler of swipes. The landlady, her son, and the lass aforesaid, took the same. Our meal was quite a banquet by comparison. We had some beefsteak, not so tender as it might have been, some of the potatoes, some cheese, an extra glass of the swipes, and white sugar in our coffee.
At last, we were called to the table. The two women (one of them looked tired and pale, as if she was sick from overworking and not eating enough) had to share a single plate of some kind of bread and berries, some potatoes with their skins on, a small cup of coffee with sugar, and one glass of swipes. The landlady, her son, and the mentioned girl had the same meal. Our meal felt like a feast in comparison. We had some beefsteak, which could have been more tender, some potatoes, some cheese, an extra glass of swipes, and white sugar in our coffee.
You see what it is to be a gentleman—I beg your pardon, what it is to be a pedlar. It had not before occurred to me that a pedlar was a great man in a labourer's alehouse; but now that I had to enact the part for an evening I found that so it was. He has in his hedge quarters somewhat the same pre-eminency as the man who takes a private parlour in a hotel. The more you look into it, the more infinite are the class distinctions among men; and possibly, by a happy dispensation, there is no one at all at the bottom of the scale; no one but can find some superiority over somebody else, to keep up his pride withal.
You see what it means to be a gentleman—I mean, what it means to be a peddler. It hadn’t occurred to me before that a peddler could be considered a great man in a laborer’s tavern; but now that I had to play that role for an evening, I realized it was true. He has a kind of prestige in his corner of the world, similar to someone who rents a private room in a hotel. The deeper you look into it, the more endless the class distinctions among people become; and maybe, by some fortunate twist of fate, there's no one at the very bottom; everyone can always find some way to feel superior to someone else, to maintain their own sense of pride.
We were displeased enough with our fare. Particularly the Cigarette, for I tried to make believe that I was amused with the adventure, tough beefsteak and all. According to the Lucretian maxim, our steak should have[Pg 35] been flavoured by the look of the other people's bread-berry. But we did not find it so in practice. You may have a head-knowledge that other people live more poorly than yourself, but it is not agreeable—I was going to say, it is against the etiquette of the universe—to sit at the same table and pick your own superior diet from among their crusts. I had not seen such a thing done since the greedy boy at school with his birthday cake. It was odious enough to witness, I could remember; and I had never thought to play the part myself. But there again you see what it is to be a pedlar.
We were pretty dissatisfied with our meal. Especially the Cigarette, since I tried to convince myself that I was enjoying the experience, tough steak and all. According to the Lucretian saying, our steak should have[Pg 35] been enhanced by seeing what the other people had. But that wasn't the case for us. You might intellectually understand that others live in worse conditions than you, but it’s just not pleasant—I would say, it goes against the rules of the universe—to sit at the same table and choose from their scraps while you enjoy your superior meal. I hadn't seen such a spectacle since the greedy kid at school with his birthday cake. It was unpleasant enough to witness; I never thought I’d find myself in that position. But there you see what it’s like to be a peddler.
There is no doubt that the poorer classes in our country are much more charitably disposed than their superiors in wealth. And I fancy it must arise a great deal from the comparative indistinction of the easy and the not so easy in these ranks. A workman or a pedlar cannot shutter himself off from his less comfortable neighbours. If he treats himself to a luxury he must do it in the face of a dozen who cannot. And what should more directly lead to charitable thoughts?... Thus the poor man, camping out in life, sees it as it is, and knows that every mouthful he puts in his belly has been wrenched out of the fingers of the hungry.
There’s no doubt that the less fortunate people in our country are much more generous than those who are wealthy. I think this largely comes from the blurry lines between the comfortable and the less comfortable in these social classes. A laborer or a peddler can’t isolate themselves from their less fortunate neighbors. If they indulge in a luxury, they have to do it in front of a dozen others who can’t. And what could lead to more charitable thoughts than that?... So, the poor person, navigating through life, sees it as it is, and knows that every bite they take has been taken from the hands of the hungry.
But at a certain stage of prosperity, as in a balloon ascent, the fortunate person passes through a zone of clouds, and sublunary matters are thenceforward hidden from his view. He sees nothing but the heavenly bodies, all in admirable order, and positively as good as new. He finds himself surrounded in the most touching manner by the attentions of Providence, and compares himself involuntarily with the lilies and the skylarks. He does not precisely sing, of course; but then he looks so unassuming in his open landau! If all the world dined at one table, this philosophy would meet with some rude knocks.
But at a certain point of success, like when a balloon rises, the lucky person moves through a layer of clouds, and everything earthly is now out of sight. All they see are the stars, perfectly arranged and practically brand new. They feel genuinely surrounded by the care of Providence and can’t help but compare themselves to the lilies and larks. They aren't exactly singing, of course, but they look so humble in their open carriage! If everyone were to sit down for a meal together, this way of thinking would face some harsh realities.
PONT-SUR-SAMBRE
THE TRAVELLING MERCHANT
Like the lackeys in Molière's farce, when the true nobleman broke in on their high life below stairs, we were destined to be confronted with a real pedlar. To make the lesson still more poignant for fallen gentlemen like us, he was a pedlar of infinitely more consideration than the sort of scurvy fellows we were taken for: like a lion among mice, or a ship of war bearing down upon two cock-boats. Indeed, he did not deserve the name of pedlar at all: he was a travelling merchant.
Like the servants in Molière's comedy, when the real nobleman interrupted their lavish lifestyle below stairs, we were bound to meet a genuine peddler. To make the lesson even more impactful for fallen gentlemen like us, he was a peddler of far greater importance than the kind of lowlifes we were seen as: like a lion among mice, or a warship approaching two small boats. In fact, he didn’t really deserve the title of peddler at all: he was a traveling merchant.
I suppose it was about half-past eight when this worthy, Monsieur Hector Gilliard of Maubeuge, turned up at the alehouse door in a tilt cart drawn by a donkey, and cried cheerily on the inhabitants. He was a lean, nervous flibbertigibbet of a man, with something the look of an actor, and something the look of a horse-jockey. He had evidently prospered without any of the favours of education; for he adhered with stern simplicity to the masculine gender, and in the course of the evening passed off some fancy futures in a very florid style of architecture. With him came his wife, a comely young woman with her hair tied in a yellow kerchief, and their son, a little fellow of four, in a blouse and military képi. It was notable that the child was many degrees better dressed than either of the parents. We were informed he was already at a boarding-school; but the holidays having just commenced, he was off to spend them with his parents on a cruise. An enchanting holiday occupation, was it not, to travel all day with father and mother in the tilt[Pg 37] cart full of countless treasures; the green country rattling by on either side, and the children in all the villages contemplating him with envy and wonder? It is better fun, during the holidays, to be the son of a travelling merchant than son and heir to the greatest cotton-spinner in creation. And as for being a reigning prince—indeed I never saw one if it was not Master Gilliard!
I guess it was around 8:30 when this guy, Monsieur Hector Gilliard from Maubeuge, showed up at the tavern in a tilt cart pulled by a donkey and cheerfully called out to the locals. He was a lean, nervous chatterbox with the look of an actor and a horse jockey. Clearly, he had managed to succeed without the benefits of education; he strictly used male pronouns and impressively shared some extravagant ideas in a very flashy style throughout the evening. Along with him was his wife, an attractive young woman with her hair tied up in a yellow scarf, and their son, a little kid of four, dressed in a blouse and military cap. It was striking that the child was dressed far better than either of his parents. We learned he was already at boarding school, but with the holidays just starting, he was off to spend them with his parents on a trip. An exciting holiday activity, right? Traveling all day with Mom and Dad in the tilt cart filled with all sorts of treasures; the green countryside whizzing by on both sides, and kids in every village watching him with jealousy and awe? It’s way more fun during the holidays to be the son of a traveling merchant than the heir to the biggest cotton manufacturer in the world. And as for being a reigning prince—I’ve honestly never seen one unless it was little Master Gilliard!
While M. Hector and the son of the house were putting up the donkey, and getting all the valuables under lock and key, the landlady warmed up the remains of our beefsteak, and fried the cold potatoes in slices, and Madame Gilliard set herself to waken the boy, who had come far that day, and was peevish and dazzled by the light. He was no sooner awake than he began to prepare himself for supper by eating galette, unripe pears, and cold potatoes—with, so far as I could judge, positive benefit to his appetite.
While M. Hector and the son of the house were putting away the donkey and securing all the valuables, the landlady warmed up the leftover beefsteak and fried the cold potatoes in slices. Madame Gilliard started to wake the boy, who had traveled a long way that day and was cranky and blinded by the light. As soon as he woke up, he began getting ready for dinner by munching on galette, unripe pears, and cold potatoes, which, from what I could tell, positively benefited his appetite.
The landlady, fired with motherly emulation, awoke her own little girl; and the two children were confronted. Master Gilliard looked at her for a moment, very much as a dog looks at his own reflection in a mirror before he turns away. He was at that time absorbed in the galette. His mother seemed crestfallen that he should display so little inclination towards the other sex; and expressed her disappointment with some candour and a very proper reference to the influence of years.
The landlady, filled with motherly competition, woke up her little girl; and the two kids faced each other. Master Gilliard glanced at her for a moment, much like a dog stares at its own reflection in a mirror before turning away. He was focused on the galette at that moment. His mother appeared disheartened that he showed so little interest in the opposite sex; she voiced her disappointment with some honesty and a very appropriate mention of the impact of time.
Sure enough a time will come when he will pay more attention to the girls, and think a great deal less of his mother: let us hope she will like it as well as she seemed to fancy. But it is odd enough: the very women who profess most contempt for mankind as a sex, seem to find even its ugliest particulars rather lively and high-minded in their own sons.
Sure enough, there will come a time when he pays more attention to girls and thinks a lot less of his mother. Let's hope she enjoys it as much as she seemed to think she would. But it's pretty strange: the very women who claim to have the most disdain for men as a group seem to find even their most unappealing traits quite charming and noble in their own sons.
The little girl looked longer and with more interest, probably because she was in her own house, while he was a traveller and accustomed to strange sights. And besides there was no galette in the case with her.[Pg 38]
The little girl stared longer and with more curiosity, likely because she was in her own home, while he was a traveler used to unusual sights. Plus, there was no galette in the display case with her.[Pg 38]
All the time of supper, there was nothing spoken of but my young lord. The two parents were both absurdly fond of their child. Monsieur kept insisting on his sagacity: how he knew all the children at school by name; and when this utterly failed on trial, how he was cautious and exact to a strange degree, and, if asked anything, he would sit and think—and think, and if he did not know it, "my faith, he wouldn't tell you at all—ma foi, il ne vous le dira pas": which is certainly a very high degree of caution. At intervals, M. Hector would appeal to his wife, with his mouth full of beefsteak, as to the little fellow's age at such or such a time when he had said or done something memorable; and I noticed that Madame usually pooh-poohed these inquiries. She herself was not boastful in her vein, but she never had her fill of caressing the child; and she seemed to take a gentle pleasure in recalling all that was fortunate in his little existence. No schoolboy could have talked more of the holidays which were just beginning and less of the black school-time which must inevitably follow after. She showed, with a pride perhaps partly mercantile in origin, his pockets preposterously swollen with tops and whistles and string. When she called at a house in the way of business, it appeared he kept her company; and whenever a sale was made, received a sou out of the profit. Indeed they spoiled him vastly, these two good people. But they had an eye to his manners for all that, and reproved him for some little faults in breeding, which occurred from time to time during supper.
All through dinner, the only topic of conversation was my young lord. Both parents were ridiculously fond of their child. Monsieur kept bragging about his cleverness: how he knew all the kids at school by name; and when it turned out he didn’t, how he was careful and precise to an odd degree, and if asked anything, he would sit and think—and think, and if he didn’t know it, “my goodness, he wouldn’t tell you at all—ma foi, il ne vous le dira pas”: which is certainly quite a high level of caution. Occasionally, M. Hector would turn to his wife, his mouth full of steak, asking about their little one’s age at a certain time when he had said or done something memorable; I noticed that Madame usually dismissed these questions. She was not boastful, but she could never get enough of doting on the child; and she took a gentle pleasure in reminiscing about all the good things in his little life. No schoolboy could have talked more about the holidays that were just starting and less about the dread school days that would inevitably follow. She proudly displayed his ridiculously stuffed pockets filled with tops, whistles, and string. Whenever she made business calls, he seemed to tag along; and whenever a sale was closed, he got a sou out of the profit. Indeed, they spoiled him a lot, these two kind people. But they also kept an eye on his manners and would correct him for little lapses in etiquette that would happen now and then during dinner.
On the whole, I was not much hurt at being taken for a pedlar. I might think that I ate with greater delicacy, or that my mistakes in French belonged to a different order; but it was plain that these distinctions would be thrown away upon the landlady and the two labourers. In all essential things we and the Gilliards cut very much the same figure in the alehouse kitchen. M. Hector was more at home, indeed, and took a higher tone with the[Pg 39] world; but that was explicable on the ground of his driving a donkey-cart, while we poor bodies tramped afoot. I daresay the rest of the company thought us dying with envy, though in no ill sense, to be as far up in the profession as the new arrival.
Overall, I wasn’t too bothered by being mistaken for a peddler. I might consider that I ate with more finesse or that my mistakes in French were of a different kind; but it was clear these distinctions would go over the landlady and the two laborers' heads. In all the important ways, we and the Gilliards looked pretty much the same in the alehouse kitchen. M. Hector was definitely more at ease and took a higher stance with the [Pg 39] world; but that made sense because he was driving a donkey cart, while we poor souls were on foot. I’m sure the rest of the group thought we were green with envy, though not in a bad way, to be as advanced in the profession as the newcomer.
And of one thing I am sure: that every one thawed and became more humanized and conversible as soon as these innocent people appeared upon the scene. I would not very readily trust the travelling merchant with any extravagant sum of money; but I am sure his heart was in the right place. In this mixed world, if you can find one or two sensible places in a man—above all, if you should find a whole family living together on such pleasant terms,—you may surely be satisfied, and take the rest for granted; or, what is a great deal better, boldly make up your mind that you can do perfectly well without the rest, and that ten thousand bad traits cannot make a single good one any the less good.
And one thing I know for sure: everyone became more warm and friendly as soon as these innocent people showed up. I wouldn’t easily trust the traveling merchant with a large sum of money, but I believe he had good intentions. In this complicated world, if you can find one or two reasonable qualities in a person—especially if you see a whole family getting along so well—you can definitely feel reassured and assume the best about the rest; or, even better, confidently decide that you can get along just fine without the negatives, and that no amount of bad traits can diminish the value of a single good one.
It was getting late. M. Hector lit a stable lantern and went off to his cart for some arrangements; and my young gentleman proceeded to divest himself of the better part of his raiment, and play gymnastics on his mother's lap, and thence on to the floor, with accompaniment of laughter.
It was getting late. M. Hector lit a stable lantern and went to his cart to make some adjustments; meanwhile, my young gentleman started to take off most of his clothes, doing gymnastics on his mother’s lap, and then onto the floor, with laughter all around.
"Are you going to sleep alone?" asked the servant lass.
"Are you going to sleep by yourself?" asked the maid.
"There's little fear of that," says Master Gilliard.
"There's not much to worry about," says Master Gilliard.
"You sleep alone at school," objected his mother. "Come, come, you must be a man."
"You sleep alone at school," his mother said. "Come on, you need to be strong."
But he protested that school was a different matter from the holidays; that there were dormitories at school; and silenced the discussion with kisses: his mother smiling, no one better pleased than she.
But he argued that school was different from the holidays; that there were dorms at school; and ended the conversation with kisses: his mother smiling, no one more pleased than she.
There certainly was, as he phrased it, very little fear that he should sleep alone; for there was but one bed for the trio. We, on our part, had firmly protested against one man's accommodation for two; and we had a double-[Pg 40]bedded pen in the loft of the house, furnished, beside the beds, with exactly three hat-pegs and one table. There was not so much as a glass of water. But the window would open, by good fortune.
There definitely was, as he put it, hardly any fear that he would have to sleep alone; since there was only one bed for the three of us. We had strongly objected to one person sharing a bed with another; and we had a double-[Pg 40]bedded space in the loft of the house, equipped, besides the beds, with exactly three hat pegs and one table. There wasn't even a glass of water. But, luckily, the window would open.
Some time before I fell asleep the loft was full of the sound of mighty snoring: the Gilliards, and the labourers, and the people of the inn, all at it, I suppose, with one consent. The young moon outside shone very clearly over Pont-sur-Sambre, and down upon the alehouse where all we pedlars were abed.
Some time before I went to sleep, the loft was filled with the sound of loud snoring: the Gilliards, the workers, and the inn guests, all in agreement, I guess. The young moon outside shone brightly over Pont-sur-Sambre and down on the pub where all us peddlers were in bed.
ON THE SAMBRE CANALISED
TO LANDRECIES
In the morning, when we came downstairs, the landlady pointed out to us two pails of water behind the street-door. "Voilà de l'eau pour vous débarbouiller," says she. And so there we made a shift to wash ourselves, while Madame Gilliard brushed the family boots on the outer doorstep, and M. Hector, whistling cheerily, arranged some small goods for the day's campaign in a portable chest of drawers, which formed a part of his baggage. Meanwhile the child was letting off Waterloo crackers all over the floor.
In the morning, when we came downstairs, the landlady pointed out two buckets of water behind the street door. "Here's some water for you to wash up," she said. So we did our best to clean ourselves while Madame Gilliard polished the family boots on the outer doorstep, and M. Hector, whistling happily, organized some small items for the day's work in a portable chest of drawers, which was part of his luggage. Meanwhile, the child was setting off Waterloo crackers all over the floor.
I wonder, by-the-bye, what they call Waterloo crackers in France; perhaps Austerlitz crackers. There is a great deal in the point of view. Do you remember the Frenchman who, travelling by way of Southampton, was put down in Waterloo Station, and had to drive across Waterloo Bridge? He had a mind to go home again, it seems.
I wonder what they call Waterloo crackers in France; maybe Austerlitz crackers. It really depends on your perspective. Do you remember that French guy who, while traveling through Southampton, ended up at Waterloo Station and had to drive across Waterloo Bridge? It sounds like he wanted to go back home.
Pont itself is on the river, but whereas it is ten minutes' walk from Quartes by dry land, it is six weary kilomètres by water. We left our bags at the inn, and walked to our canoes through the wet orchards unencumbered. Some of the children were there to see us off, but we were no longer the mysterious beings of the night before. A departure is much less romantic than an unexplained arrival in the golden evening. Although we might be greatly taken at a ghost's first appearance, we should behold him vanish with comparative equanimity.
Pont is located by the river, but while it's just a ten-minute walk from Quartes on dry land, it's a tiring six kilometers by water. We left our bags at the inn and made our way to the canoes through the wet orchards, unburdened. Some of the kids were there to see us off, but we were no longer the mysterious figures we had been the night before. A departure is far less romantic than an enigmatic arrival in the golden evening. Even if we were startled by a ghost's first appearance, we would watch him disappear with relative calm.
The good folk of the inn at Pont, when we called there[Pg 42] for the bags, were overcome with marveling. At sight of these two dainty little boats, with a fluttering Union Jack on each, and all the varnish shining from the sponge, they began to perceive that they had entertained angels unawares. The landlady stood upon the bridge, probably lamenting she had charged so little; the son ran to and fro, and called out the neighbours to enjoy the sight; and we paddled away from quite a crowd of rapt observers. These gentlemen pedlars, indeed! Now you see their quality too late.
The good folks at the inn in Pont, when we stopped by[Pg 42] for the bags, were filled with wonder. When they saw these two tiny boats, each with a fluttering Union Jack and a shiny coat of varnish, they started to realize they had unexpectedly welcomed something special. The landlady stood on the bridge, likely regretting she had charged so little; the son dashed around, calling the neighbors to come enjoy the view; and we paddled away from quite a crowd of captivated onlookers. These traveling salesmen, indeed! Now you see their true nature, but it's too late.
The whole day was showery, with occasional drenching plumps. We were soaked to the skin, then partially dried in the sun, then soaked once more. But there were some calm intervals, and one notably, when we were skirting the forest of Mormal, a sinister name to the ear, but a place most gratifying to sight and smell. It looked solemn along the riverside, drooping its boughs into the water, and piling them up aloft into a wall of leaves. What is a forest but a city of nature's own, full of hardy and innocuous living things, where there is nothing dead and nothing made with the hands, but the citizens themselves are the houses and public monuments? There is nothing so much alive, and yet so quiet, as a woodland; and a pair of people, swinging past in canoes, feel very small and bustling by comparison.
The whole day was rainy, with occasional heavy downpours. We were drenched to the bone, then partially dried in the sun, and then soaked again. But there were some calm moments, especially one when we passed the forest of Mormal, a name that sounds eerie but is actually a lovely place to see and smell. It looked solemn by the riverside, with its branches drooping into the water and forming a wall of leaves overhead. What is a forest but a city of nature, full of hardy and harmless living things, where nothing is dead and nothing is made by human hands, and the inhabitants themselves are the buildings and public monuments? There’s nothing quite as alive, yet so peaceful, as a woodland; and when a couple of people glide by in canoes, they feel very small and busy in comparison.
And surely of all smells in the world, the smell of many trees is the sweetest and most fortifying. The sea has a rude, pistolling sort of odour, that takes you in the nostrils like snuff, and carries with it a fine sentiment of open water and tall ships; but the smell of a forest, which comes nearest to this in tonic quality, surpasses it by many degrees in the quality of softness. Again, the smell of the sea has little variety, but the smell of a forest is infinitely changeful; it varies with the hour of the day, not in strength merely, but in character; and the different sorts of trees, as you go from one zone of the wood to another, seem to live among different kinds of atmo[Pg 43]sphere. Usually the resin of the fir predominates. But some woods are more coquettish in their habits; and the breath of the forest of Mormal, as it came aboard upon us that showery afternoon, was perfumed with nothing less delicate than sweetbrier.
And of all the smells in the world, the scent of many trees is the sweetest and most uplifting. The sea has a harsh, sharp kind of odor that hits you in the nostrils like snuff, bringing with it a strong feeling of open water and tall ships; however, the scent of a forest, which is closest to this in refreshing quality, surpasses it in softness by a long shot. While the smell of the sea has little variety, the scent of a forest can change infinitely; it shifts with the time of day, not just in strength but in character as well. The different types of trees, as you move from one area of the woods to another, seem to exist in different kinds of atmosphere. Usually, the resin of the fir stands out. But some woods have more playful scents; and the aroma of the Mormal forest, as it wafted over to us that rainy afternoon, was filled with nothing less exquisite than sweetbrier.
I wish our way had always lain among woods. Trees are the most civil society. An old oak that has been growing where he stands since before the Reformation, taller than many spires, more stately than the greater part of mountains, and yet a living thing, liable to sicknesses and death, like you and me: is not that in itself a speaking lesson in history? But acres on acres full of such patriarchs contiguously rooted, their green tops billowing in the wind, their stalwart younglings pushing up about their knees: a whole forest, healthy and beautiful, giving colour to the light, giving perfume to the air: what is this but the most imposing piece in nature's repertory? Heine wished to lie like Merlin under the oaks of Broceliande. I should not be satisfied with one tree; but if the wood grew together like a banyan grove, I would be buried under the tap-root of the whole; my parts should circulate from oak to oak; and my consciousness should be diffused abroad in all the forest, and give a common heart to that assembly of green spires, so that it also might rejoice in its own loveliness and dignity. I think I feel a thousand squirrels leaping from bough to bough in my vast mausoleum; and the birds and the winds merrily coursing over its uneven, leafy surface.
I wish our path had always been through the woods. Trees create the most civilized society. An old oak that has stood in one place since before the Reformation, taller than many church spires, more majestic than most mountains, and yet still alive, vulnerable to diseases and death, just like you and me: isn’t that a lesson in history all by itself? But acres and acres filled with such ancient trees side by side, their green tops swaying in the wind, their sturdy young ones pushing up around their trunks: a whole forest, healthy and beautiful, adding color to the light, scent to the air: what could be more impressive in nature’s collection? Heine wished to lie like Merlin beneath the oaks of Broceliande. I wouldn’t be satisfied with just one tree; if the woods grew together like a banyan grove, I would want to be buried under the main roots of the entire grove; my essence would circulate from oak to oak; and my awareness would spread throughout the forest, giving a shared heart to that gathering of green spires, so that it too could take joy in its own beauty and dignity. I can almost feel a thousand squirrels leaping from branch to branch in my vast resting place; and the birds and winds happily drifting over its uneven, leafy surface.
Alas! the forest of Mormal is only a little bit of a wood, and it was but for a little way that we skirted by its boundaries. And the rest of the time the rain kept coming in squirts and the wind in squalls, until one's heart grew weary of such fitful, scolding weather. It was odd how the showers began when we had to carry the boats over a lock, and must expose our legs. They always did. This is a sort of thing that readily begets a personal feeling against nature. There seems no reason why the shower[Pg 44] should not come five minutes before or five minutes after, unless you suppose an intention to affront you. The Cigarette had a mackintosh which put him more or less above these contrarieties. But I had to bear the brunt uncovered. I began to remember that nature was a woman. My companion, in a rosier temper, listened with great satisfaction to my Jeremiads, and ironically concurred. He instanced, as a cognate matter, the action of the tides, "which," said he, "was altogether designed for the confusion of canoeists, except in so far as it was calculated to minister to a barren vanity on the part of the moon."
Unfortunately, the Mormal forest is just a small patch of woods, and we only skirted its edges for a short while. Most of the time, the rain was coming down in bursts, and the wind was blowing in strong gusts, making it hard not to feel exhausted by the unpredictable, harsh weather. It was strange how the rain always seemed to start right when we had to carry the boats over a lock, forcing us to expose our legs. It always happened that way. This kind of situation easily creates a personal grudge against nature. There’s really no reason why the rain[Pg 44] couldn’t arrive five minutes before or five minutes after, unless it’s meant to be a deliberate annoyance. The Cigarette had a raincoat that kept him somewhat protected from these inconveniences. But I had to face it all without cover. I started to recall that nature is like a woman. My companion, feeling more upbeat, listened with great enjoyment to my complaints and sarcastically agreed. He pointed out, as a related point, the action of the tides, which, he said, was completely designed to confuse canoeists, except for the part that fed into the moon’s empty vanity.
At the last lock, some little way out of Landrecies, I refused to go any farther; and sat in a drift of rain by the side of the bank to have a reviving pipe. A vivacious old man, whom I take to have been the devil, drew near and questioned me about our journey. In the fullness of my heart I laid bare our plans before him. He said it was the silliest enterprise that ever he heard of. Why, did I not know, he asked me, that it was nothing but locks, locks, locks, the whole way? not to mention that, at this season of the year, we should find the Oise quite dry? "Get into a train, my little young man," said he, "and go you away home to your parents." I was so astounded at the man's malice that I could only stare at him in silence. A tree would never have spoken to me like this. At last I got out with some words. We had come from Antwerp already, I told him, which was a good long way; and we should do the rest in spite of him. Yes, I said, if there were no other reason, I would do it now, just because he had dared to say we could not. The pleasant old gentleman looked at me sneeringly, made an allusion to my canoe, and marched off, waggling his head.
At the last lock, just outside Landrecies, I decided I wouldn't go any further; I sat in the pouring rain by the bank to enjoy a refreshing pipe. An energetic old man, whom I took to be the devil, approached and asked about our journey. Feeling open-hearted, I shared our plans with him. He laughed and said it was the dumbest idea he'd ever heard. "Don't you know," he asked, "that it's just locks, locks, locks all the way? Not to mention that at this time of year, the Oise is totally dry?" "Get on a train, kid," he said, "and head back home to your parents." I was so shocked by his rudeness that I could only stare at him in silence. A tree would have treated me better. Eventually, I managed to respond. I told him we had already come from Antwerp, which was quite a distance, and we would continue no matter what he said. Yes, I said, if for no other reason, I would do it just because he dared to say we couldn't. The cheeky old man looked at me with a smirk, made a comment about my canoe, and walked away, shaking his head.
I was still inwardly fuming, when up came a pair of young fellows, who imagined I was the Cigarette's servant, on a comparison, I suppose, of my bare jersey with the other's mackintosh, and asked me many questions about[Pg 45] my place and my master's character. I said he was a good enough fellow, but had this absurd voyage on the head. "O no, no," said one, "you must not say that; it is not absurd; it is very courageous of him." I believe these were a couple of angels sent to give me heart again. It was truly fortifying to reproduce all the old man's insinuations, as if they were original to me in my character of a malcontent footman, and have them brushed away like so many flies by these admirable young men.
I was still fuming inside when a couple of young guys approached, thinking I was the Cigarette's servant, probably because my plain jersey contrasted with the other guy's raincoat. They asked me a lot of questions about[Pg 45] my background and my boss's character. I told them he was a decent guy but had this ridiculous trip planned. "Oh no, no," one of them said, "you can't say that; it's not ridiculous; it's really brave of him." I think these were a couple of angels sent to lift my spirits. It was genuinely uplifting to repeat all the old man's criticisms, as if they were my own, in my role as a disgruntled servant, and have them brushed aside like so many flies by these awesome young men.
When I recounted this affair to the Cigarette, "They must have a curious idea of how English servants behave," says he, dryly, "for you treated me like a brute beast at the lock."
When I told this story to the Cigarette, "They must have a strange idea of how English servants are," he says dryly, "because you treated me like a brute at the lock."
I was a good deal mortified; but my temper had suffered, it is a fact.
I was pretty embarrassed, but my mood had taken a hit, that’s true.
AT LANDRECIES
At Landrecies the rain still fell and the wind still blew; but we found a double-bedded room with plenty of furniture, real water-jugs with real water in them, and dinner: a real dinner, not innocent of real wine. After having been a pedlar for one night, and a butt for the elements during the whole of the next day, these comfortable circumstances fell on my heart like sunshine. There was an English fruiterer at dinner, travelling with a Belgian fruiterer; in the evening at the café we watched our compatriot drop a good deal of money at corks, and I don't know why, but this pleased us.
At Landrecies, it was still raining and the wind was still howling; but we found a room with two beds, plenty of furniture, real water pitchers filled with actual water, and dinner: a proper dinner, complete with real wine. After spending one night as a peddler and facing the elements all the next day, these cozy conditions felt like sunshine to my heart. There was an English fruit seller at dinner, traveling with a Belgian fruit seller; in the evening at the café, we watched our fellow countryman spend a good amount of money on corks, and for some reason, this made us happy.
It turned out we were to see more of Landrecies than we expected; for the weather next day was simply bedlamite. It is not the place one would have chosen for a day's rest; for it consists almost entirely of fortifications. Within the ramparts a few blocks of houses, a long row of barracks, and a church, figure, with what countenance they may, as the town. There seems to be no trade; and a shopkeeper from whom I bought a sixpenny flint-and-steel was so much affected that he filled my pockets with spare flints into the bargain. The only public buildings that had any interest for us were the hotel and the café. But we visited the church. There lies Marshal Clarke. But as neither of us had ever heard of that military hero, we bore the associations of the spot with fortitude.
It turned out we were going to spend more time in Landrecies than we expected because the weather the next day was total chaos. It’s not the kind of place you would pick for a relaxing day; it’s almost entirely made up of fortifications. Inside the walls, there are a few blocks of houses, a long row of barracks, and a church that make up the town, however they manage to. There doesn’t seem to be any trade, and the shopkeeper from whom I bought a sixpenny flint-and-steel was so touched that he filled my pockets with spare flints as a bonus. The only public buildings that interested us were the hotel and the café. We did visit the church, though. That’s where Marshal Clarke is buried. But since neither of us had ever heard of that military hero, we accepted the significance of the place with patience.
In all garrison towns, guard-calls and réveilles, and such like, make a fine romantic interlude in civic business. Bugles, and drums, and fifes are of themselves most excellent things in nature; and when they carry the mind to[Pg 47] marching armies, and the picturesque vicissitudes of war, they stir up something proud in the heart. But in a shadow of a town like Landrecies, with little else moving, these points of war made a proportionate commotion. Indeed, they were the only things to remember. It was just the place to hear the round going by at night in the darkness, with the solid tramp of men marching, and the startling reverberations of the drum. It reminded you that even this place was a point in the great warfaring system of Europe, and might on some future day be ringed about with cannon smoke and thunder, and make itself a name among strong towns.
In all military towns, guard calls and reveille, and similar activities create an interesting break from everyday life. Bugles, drums, and fifes are truly amazing by themselves; and when they evoke images of marching armies and the dramatic ups and downs of war, they inspire a sense of pride in the heart. However, in a quiet town like Landrecies, where not much else happens, these military sounds made a noticeable impact. In fact, they were the only memorable features. It was the perfect place to hear the night patrol walking by in the dark, accompanied by the heavy footsteps of soldiers and the surprising echo of the drum. It reminded you that even this town was part of the larger conflict in Europe, and one day might be surrounded by the smoke and noise of cannons, earning itself a reputation among powerful towns.
The drum, at any rate, from its martial voice and notable physiological effect—nay, even from its cumbrous and comical shape,—stands alone among the instruments of noise. And if it be true, as I have heard it said, that drums are covered with asses' skin, what a picturesque irony is there in that! As if this long-suffering animal's hide had not been sufficiently belaboured during life, now by Lyonnese costermongers, now by presumptuous Hebrew prophets, it must be stripped from his poor hinder quarters after death, stretched on a drum, and beaten night after night round the streets of every garrison town in Europe. And up the heights of Alma and Spicheren, and wherever death has his red flag a-flying, and sounds his own potent tuck upon the cannons, there also must the drummer-boy, hurrying with white face over fallen comrades, batter and bemaul this slip of skin from the loins of peaceable donkeys.
The drum, thanks to its powerful sound and noticeable physical impact—plus its bulky and quirky shape—stands out among all noisy instruments. And if it's true, as I've heard, that drums are made with donkey skin, what a vivid irony that is! As if this long-suffering animal's hide hasn't been sufficiently beaten while alive, first by street vendors in Lyon, then by arrogant Hebrew prophets, now it must be taken from its poor backside after death, stretched over a drum, and struck night after night in every garrison town across Europe. And on the battlefields of Alma and Spicheren, and wherever death raises his bloody flag and beats his loud drum over cannons, you’ll also see the drummer-boy, rushing with a pale face over fallen friends, thumping this piece of skin taken from peaceful donkeys.
Generally a man is never more uselessly employed than when he is at this trick of bastinadoing asses' hide. We know what effect it has in life, and how your dull ass will not mend his pace with beating. But in this state of mummy and melancholy survival of itself, when the hollow skin reverberates to the drummer's wrist, and each dub-a-dub goes direct to a man's heart, and puts madness there, and that disposition of the pulses which we, in our[Pg 48] big way of talking nickname Heroism:—is there not something in the nature of a revenge upon the donkey's persecutors? Of old, he might say, you drubbed me up hill and down dale, and I must endure; but now that I am dead, those dull thwacks that were scarcely audible in country lanes have become stirring music in front of the brigade; and for every blow that you lay on my old great-coat you will see a comrade stumble and fall.
Generally, a man is never more uselessly occupied than when he resorts to this practice of beating a donkey’s back. We know what impact it has in real life, and how your slow donkey won’t speed up with hitting. But in this state of decay and sad survival, when the empty skin resonates with the drummer’s stick, and each thud strikes straight to a man’s heart, driving him to madness, and that change in heartbeat which we casually refer to as Heroism:—isn’t there something of revenge against the donkey’s tormentors? In the past, he might say, you whipped me up hills and down valleys, and I had to put up with it; but now that I’m gone, those dull hits that were barely heard in country lanes have turned into inspiring music for the brigade; and for every hit you lay on my old coat, you’ll see a comrade stumble and fall.
Not long after the drums had passed the café the Cigarette and the Arethusa began to grow sleepy, and set out for the hotel, which was only a door or two away. But although we had been somewhat indifferent to Landrecies, Landrecies had not been indifferent to us. All day, we learned, people had been running out between the squalls to visit our two boats. Hundreds of persons, so said report, although it fitted ill with our idea of the town—hundreds of persons had inspected them where they lay in a coal-shed. We were becoming lions in Landrecies, who had been only pedlars the night before in Pont.
Not long after the drums passed the café, the Cigarette and the Arethusa started to feel sleepy and headed for the hotel, which was just a door or two away. But even though we had been somewhat indifferent to Landrecies, Landrecies hadn’t been indifferent to us. All day, we found out, people had been rushing out between the rain showers to check out our two boats. Hundreds of people, according to reports, though that didn't quite match our image of the town—hundreds of people had looked at them where they were docked in a coal shed. We were becoming celebrities in Landrecies, who had only been peddlers the night before in Pont.
And now, when we left the café, we were pursued and overtaken at the hotel door by no less a person than the Juge de Paix: a functionary, as far as I can make out, of the character of a Scots Sheriff-Substitute. He gave us his card and invited us to sup with him on the spot, very neatly, very gracefully, as Frenchmen can do these things. It was for the credit of Landrecies, said he; and although we knew very well how little credit we could do the place, we must have been churlish fellows to refuse an invitation so politely introduced.
And now, when we left the café, we were followed and caught up with at the hotel entrance by none other than the Juge de Paix: a government official, as far as I can tell, similar to a Scottish Sheriff-Substitute. He handed us his card and kindly invited us to dinner with him right then and there, very smoothly and elegantly, as Frenchmen can do these things. It was for the good reputation of Landrecies, he said; and even though we knew how little we could do for the town, we would have seemed rude to turn down such a gracious invitation.
The house of the Judge was close by; it was a well-appointed bachelor's establishment, with a curious collection of old brass warming-pans upon the walls. Some of these were most elaborately carved. It seemed a picturesque idea for a collector. You could not help thinking how many nightcaps had wagged over these warming-pans in past generations; what jests may have been made and kisses taken, while they were in service; and how[Pg 49] often they had been uselessly paraded in the bed of death. If they could only speak, at what absurd, indecorous, and tragical scenes had they not been present!
The Judge's house was nearby; it was a nicely decorated bachelor's pad, featuring a unique collection of old brass warming pans on the walls. Some of these were intricately carved. It seemed like a charming idea for a collector. You couldn't help but wonder how many nightcaps had been placed over these warming pans in previous generations; what jokes might have been shared and kisses exchanged while they were in use; and how[Pg 49] often they had been unnecessarily displayed in the deathbed. If only they could talk, what ridiculous, inappropriate, and tragic scenes they must have witnessed!
The wine was excellent. When we made the Judge our compliments upon a bottle, "I do not give it you as my worst," said he. I wonder when Englishmen will learn these hospitable graces. They are worth learning; they set off life, and make ordinary moments ornamental.
The wine was excellent. When we expressed our compliments to the Judge about a bottle, he said, "I don't give it to you as my worst." I wonder when English people will learn these gracious acts of hospitality. They are worth learning; they enhance life and make ordinary moments special.
There were two other Landrecienses present. One was the collector of something or other, I forget what; the other, we were told, was the principal notary of the place. So it happened that we all five more or less followed the law. At this rate, the talk was pretty certain to become technical. The Cigarette expounded the Poor Laws very magisterially. And a little later I found myself laying down the Scots Law of Illegitimacy, of which I am glad to say I know nothing. The collector and the notary, who were both married men, accused the Judge, who was a bachelor, of having started the subject. He deprecated the charge, with a conscious, pleased air, just like all the men I have ever seen, be they French or English. How strange that we should all, in our unguarded moments, rather like to be thought a bit of a rogue with the women!
There were two other Landrecienses there. One was a collector of something—I can’t remember what; the other, we were told, was the main notary of the area. So it turned out that all five of us somewhat followed the rules. At this rate, the conversation was likely to get pretty technical. The Cigarette explained the Poor Laws in a very authoritative way. And a little later, I found myself discussing the Scots Law of Illegitimacy, about which I’m happy to say I know nothing. The collector and the notary, both married, blamed the Judge, who was single, for bringing up the topic. He denied the accusation with a self-satisfied expression, just like every man I’ve ever seen, whether French or English. How strange that we all, in our unguarded moments, seem to enjoy being seen as a bit of a rogue with women!
As the evening went on, the wine grew more to my taste; the spirits proved better than the wine; the company was genial. This was the highest water mark of popular favour on the whole cruise. After all, being in a Judge's house, was there not something semi-official in the tribute? And so, remembering what a great country France is, we did full justice to our entertainment. Landrecies had been a long while asleep before we returned to the hotel; and the sentries on the ramparts were already looking for daybreak.[Pg 50]
As the evening went on, I found the wine more enjoyable; the spirits were even better than the wine; and the company was great. This was the peak of popularity for the whole cruise. After all, being at a Judge's house felt somewhat official, didn’t it? So, keeping in mind what a wonderful country France is, we fully appreciated our time there. Landrecies had been asleep for a while by the time we returned to the hotel, and the sentries on the ramparts were already waiting for dawn.[Pg 50]
SAMBRE AND OISE CANAL
CANAL BOATS
Next day we made a late start in the rain. The Judge politely escorted us to the end of the lock under an umbrella. We had now brought ourselves to a pitch of humility in the matter of weather not often attained except in the Scottish Highlands. A rag of blue sky or a glimpse of sunshine set our hearts singing; and when the rain was not heavy, we counted the day almost fair.
Next day, we got a late start in the rain. The Judge kindly walked us to the end of the lock while holding an umbrella. We had reached a level of humility about the weather that’s rarely achieved outside the Scottish Highlands. A patch of blue sky or a hint of sunshine made us feel joyful; and when the rain wasn’t too heavy, we considered the day almost pleasant.
Long lines of barges lay one after another along the canal, many of them looking mighty spruce and ship-shape in their jerkin of Archangel tar picked out with white and green. Some carried gay iron railings, and quite a parterre of flower-pots. Children played on the decks, as heedless of the rain as if they had been brought up on Loch Carron side; men fished over the gunwale, some of them under umbrellas; women did their washing; and every barge boasted its mongrel cur by way of watch-dog. Each one barked furiously at the canoes, running alongside until he had got to the end of his own ship, and so passing on the word to the dog aboard the next. We must have seen something like a hundred of these embarkations in the course of that day's paddle, ranged one after another like the houses in a street; and from not one of them were we disappointed of this accompaniment. It was like visiting a menagerie, the Cigarette remarked.
Long lines of barges stretched out along the canal, many of them looking sharp and tidy with their coats of Archangel tar highlighted in white and green. Some had colorful iron railings and a nice display of flower pots. Kids played on the decks, completely unfazed by the rain as if they grew up by Loch Carron; men fished off the side, some even under umbrellas; women did their laundry; and each barge had its scrappy dog acting as a watchdog. Every dog barked wildly at the canoes passing by until they reached the end of their barge, then passed the alert to the dog on the next one. We must have seen around a hundred of these boats during that day's paddle, lined up like houses on a street; and from every single one, we weren't let down by this lively backdrop. It was like visiting a zoo, the Cigarette remarked.
These little cities by the canal side had a very odd effect upon the mind. They seemed, with their flower-[Pg 51]pots and smoking chimneys, their washings and dinners, a rooted piece of nature in the scene; and yet if only the canal below were to open, one junk after another would hoist sail or harness horses and swim away into all parts of France; and the impromptu hamlet would separate, house by house, to the four winds. The children who played together to-day by the Sambre and Oise Canal, each at his own father's threshold, when and where might they next meet?
These little towns by the canal had a really strange effect on the mind. They felt, with their flower pots and smoking chimneys, their laundry and meals, like a solid piece of nature in the scene; yet if the canal below were to open up, one boat after another would raise its sails or harness horses and float away to every corner of France; and the makeshift village would break apart, house by house, scattered to the wind. The kids who played together today by the Sambre and Oise Canal, each at their own father's doorstep, when and where would they meet again?
For some time past the subject of barges had occupied a great deal of our talk, and we had projected an old age on the canals of Europe. It was to be the most leisurely of progresses, now on a swift river at the tail of a steam-boat, now waiting horses for days together on some inconsiderable junction. We should be seen pottering on deck in all the dignity of years, our white beards falling into our laps. We were ever to be busied among paint-pots; so that there should be no white fresher, and no green more emerald than ours, in all the navy of the canals. There should be books in the cabin, and tobacco-jars, and some old Burgundy as red as a November sunset and as odorous as a violet in April. There should be a flageolet, whence the Cigarette, with cunning touch, should draw melting music under the stars; or perhaps, laying that aside, upraise his voice—somewhat thinner than of yore, and with here and there a quaver, or call it a natural grace-note—in rich and solemn psalmody.
For a while now, we’ve been talking a lot about barges, and we’ve imagined spending our old age on the canals of Europe. It was going to be the most laid-back journey, sometimes being pulled along swiftly by a steamboat, other times waiting days for horses at some random junction. We’d be seen leisurely moving around on deck, all the dignity of our years showing, our white beards resting in our laps. We would always be busy with paint, making sure that no white was whiter and no green was more vibrant than ours in all the canal fleet. There would be books in the cabin, jars of tobacco, and some old Burgundy as red as a November sunset and as fragrant as a violet in April. There would be a flageolet, from which the Cigarette would skillfully produce beautiful music under the stars; or perhaps, setting that aside, he’d raise his voice—maybe a bit thinner than before and with a quaver here and there, or call it a natural grace note—in rich and solemn singing.
All this, simmering in my mind, set me wishing to go aboard one of these ideal houses of lounging, I had plenty to choose from, as I coasted one after another, and the dogs bayed at me for a vagrant. At last I saw a nice old man and his wife looking at me with some interest, so I gave them good-day and pulled up alongside. I began with a remark upon their dog, which had somewhat the look of a pointer; thence I slid into a compliment on Madame's flowers, and thence into a word in praise of their way of life.[Pg 52]
All this was bubbling in my mind, making me want to step aboard one of these perfect lounging houses. I had plenty to choose from as I passed one after another, while the dogs barked at me, calling me a drifter. Finally, I noticed a nice old man and his wife watching me with some curiosity, so I greeted them and pulled up next to them. I started with a comment about their dog, which looked a bit like a pointer; then I smoothly shifted to compliment Madame's flowers, and finally praised their way of life.[Pg 52]
If you ventured on such an experiment in England you would get a slap in the face at once. The life would be shown to be a vile one, not without a side shot at your better fortune. Now, what I like so much in France is the clear unflinching recognition by everybody of his own luck. They all know on which side their bread is buttered, and take a pleasure in showing it to others, which is surely the better part of religion. And they scorn to make a poor mouth over their poverty, which I take to be the better part of manliness. I have heard a woman, in quite a better position at home, with a good bit of money in hand, refer to her own child with a horrid whine as "a poor man's child." I would not say such a thing to the Duke of Westminster. And the French are full of this spirit of independence. Perhaps it is the result of republican institutions, as they call them. Much more likely it is because there are so few people really poor that the whiners are not enough to keep each other in countenance.
If you tried something like that in England, you'd get slapped in the face right away. Life would be shown to be miserable, with a dig at your better luck. What I really appreciate about France is that everyone openly acknowledges their own fortune. They all know where their advantages lie and take pride in showing it off, which is undoubtedly a positive aspect of their culture. They refuse to complain about their poverty, which I see as a sign of true strength. I've heard a woman who is in a much better position at home, with a decent amount of money, refer to her own child in a whiny tone as "a poor man's child." I would never say something like that to the Duke of Westminster. The French embody this spirit of independence. Maybe it comes from their republican institutions, as they term it. More likely, it's because there are so few genuinely poor people that the ones who complain can't find enough others to support their whining.
The people on the barge were delighted to hear that I admired their state. They understood perfectly well, they told me, how Monsieur envied them. Without doubt Monsieur was rich; and in that case he might make a canal boat as pretty as a villa—joli comme un château. And with that they invited me on board their own water villa. They apologized for their cabin; they had not been rich enough to make it as it ought to be.
The people on the barge were thrilled to hear that I admired their place. They told me they understood exactly how much Monsieur envied them. There’s no doubt Monsieur was wealthy; if that’s the case, he could make a canal boat as nice as a villa—joli comme un château. With that, they invited me on board their own floating home. They apologized for their cabin, saying they hadn’t been able to make it as nice as it could be.
"The fire should have been here, at this side," explained the husband. "Then one might have a writing-table in the middle—books—and" (comprehensively) "all. It would be quite coquettish—ça serait tout-à-fait coquet." And he looked about him as though the improvements were already made. It was plainly not the first time that he had thus beautified his cabin in imagination; and when next he makes a hit, I should expect to see the writing-table in the middle.
"The fire should have been here, on this side," the husband explained. "Then we could have a writing desk in the middle—books—and" (gesturing broadly) "everything. It would be quite charming—ça serait tout-à-fait coquet." He looked around as if the changes were already in place. It was clear that he had imagined enhancing his cabin like this before; and when he takes another shot at it, I fully expect to see the writing desk right in the center.
Madame had three birds in a cage. They were no[Pg 53] great thing, she explained. Fine birds were so dear. They had sought to get a Hollandais last winter in Rouen (Rouen? thought I; and is this whole mansion, with its dogs and birds and smoking chimneys, so far a traveller as that? and as homely an object among the cliffs and orchards of the Seine as on the green plains of Sambre?)—they had sought to get a Hollandais last winter in Rouen; but these cost fifteen francs apiece—picture it—fifteen francs!
Madame had three birds in a cage. They weren't anything special, she explained. Nice birds were really expensive. They had tried to get a Hollandais last winter in Rouen (Rouen? I thought; is this whole house, with its dogs and birds and smoking chimneys, that far of a trip? And is it as familiar a sight among the cliffs and orchards of the Seine as on the green plains of Sambre?)—they had tried to get a Hollandais last winter in Rouen; but those cost fifteen francs each—can you believe it—fifteen francs!
"Pour un tout petit oiseau—For quite a little bird," added the husband.
"For a very small bird—For quite a little bird," added the husband.
As I continued to admire, the apologetics died away, and the good people began to brag of their barge, and their happy condition in life, as if they had been Emperor and Empress of the Indies. It was, in the Scots phrase, a good hearing, and put me in good humour with the world. If people knew what an inspiriting thing it is to hear a man boasting, so long as he boasts of what he really has, I believe they would do it more freely and with a better grace.
As I kept admiring, the excuses disappeared, and the nice folks started bragging about their barge and their happy lives, as if they were the Emperor and Empress of the Indies. It was, in Scottish terms, a great experience, and it put me in a good mood about the world. If people understood how uplifting it is to hear someone boast, as long as they’re proud of what they actually have, I think they would do it more openly and gracefully.
They began to ask about our voyage. You should have seen how they sympathized. They seemed half ready to give up their barge and follow us. But these canaletti are only gypsies semi-domesticated. The semi-domestication came out in rather a pretty form. Suddenly Madame's brow darkened. "Cependant," she began, and then stopped; and then began again by asking me if I were single.
They started asking about our trip. You should have seen how much they cared. They looked like they were almost ready to leave their boat and join us. But these canaletti are just semi-nomadic people. Their semi-nomadic lifestyle showed itself in a rather charming way. Suddenly, Madame's expression changed. "Cependant," she started, then paused; and after that, she began again by asking if I was single.
"Yes," said I.
"Yes," I said.
"And your friend who went by just now?"
"And your friend who just passed by?"
He also was unmarried.
He was also single.
O then—all was well. She could not have wives left alone at home; but since there were no wives in the question, we were doing the best we could.
O then—all was good. She couldn’t leave wives home alone; but since there were no wives involved, we were doing the best we could.
"To see about one in the world," said the husband, "il n'y a que ça—there is nothing else worth while. A man, look you, who sticks in his own village like a bear," he[Pg 54] went on, "—very well, he sees nothing. And then death is the end of all. And he has seen nothing."
"To see what’s out there in the world," said the husband, "il n'y a que ça—there's nothing else that really matters. A man, you know, who stays in his own village like a bear," he[Pg 54] continued, "—sure, he sees nothing. And then death comes, and that’s it. He hasn’t seen anything."
Madame reminded her husband of an Englishman who had come up this canal in a steamer.
Madame reminded her husband of an Englishman who had traveled up this canal on a steamboat.
"Perhaps Mr. Moens in the Ytene," I suggested.
"Maybe Mr. Moens in the Ytene," I suggested.
"That's it," assented the husband. "He had his wife and family with him, and servants. He came ashore at all the locks and asked the name of the villages, whether from boatmen or lock-keepers; and then he wrote, wrote them down. Oh, he wrote enormously! I suppose it was a wager."
"That's it," agreed the husband. "He had his wife and kids with him, along with some servants. Whenever they reached a lock, he would get off the boat and ask the names of the villages, whether from the boatmen or the lock-keepers; and then he wrote them down. Oh, he wrote a ton! I guess it was a bet."
A wager was a common enough explanation for our own exploits, but it seemed an original reason for taking notes.
A bet was a pretty typical explanation for our own adventures, but it felt like a unique reason for jotting down notes.
THE OISE IN FLOOD
Before nine next morning the two canoes were installed on a light country cart at Étreux: and we were soon following them along the side of a pleasant valley full of hop-gardens and poplars. Agreeable villages lay here and there on the slope of the hill; notably, Tupigny, with the hop-poles hanging their garlands in the very street, and the houses clustered with grapes. There was a faint enthusiasm on our passage; weavers put their heads to the windows; children cried out in ecstasy at sight of the two "boaties"—barquettes; and bloused pedestrians, who were acquainted with our charioteer, jested with him on the nature of his freight.
Before nine the next morning, the two canoes were loaded onto a light country cart at Étreux, and we were soon following them along a nice valley filled with hop gardens and poplar trees. Charming villages dotted the hillside; especially Tupigny, where the hop poles hung their garlands right in the street and the houses were draped with grapes. There was a sense of excitement as we passed through; weavers leaned out of their windows, children shouted in delight at the sight of the two "boaties"—barquettes; and pedestrians in blouses, who knew our driver, joked with him about his unusual cargo.
We had a shower or two, but light and flying. The air was clean and sweet among all these green fields and green things growing. There was not a touch of autumn in the weather. And when, at Vadencourt, we launched from a little lawn opposite a mill, the sun broke forth and set all the leaves shining in the valley of the Oise.
We had a few light showers, nothing serious. The air was fresh and sweet among all the green fields and plants growing. There was no hint of autumn in the weather. And when, at Vadencourt, we set off from a small lawn across from a mill, the sun came out and made all the leaves shine in the valley of the Oise.
The river was swollen with the long rains. From Vadencourt all the way to Origny, it ran with ever-quickening speed, taking fresh heart at each mile, and racing as though it already smelt the sea. The water was yellow and turbulent, swung with an angry eddy among half-submerged willows, and made an angry clatter along stony shores. The course kept turning and turning in a narrow and well-timbered valley. Now the river would approach the side, and run griding along the chalky base of the hill, and show us a few open colza-fields among the trees. Now it would skirt the garden-walls of houses, where we might catch a glimpse through a doorway, and[Pg 56] see a priest pacing in the chequered sunlight. Again, the foliage closed so thickly in front that there seemed to be no issue; only a thicket of willows, overtopped by elms and poplars, under which the river ran flush and fleet, and where a kingfisher flew past like a piece of the blue sky. On these different manifestations the sun poured its clear and catholic looks. The shadows lay as solid on the swift surface of the stream as on the stable meadows. The light sparkled golden in the dancing poplar leaves, and brought the hills in communion with our eyes. And all the while the river never stopped running or took breath; and the reeds along the whole valley stood shivering from top to toe.
The river was swollen from the long rains. From Vadencourt all the way to Origny, it flowed faster and faster, gaining strength with every mile, racing as if it could already smell the sea. The water was muddy and choppy, swirling angrily among half-submerged willows and crashing along rocky shores. The path kept twisting and turning through a narrow, well-timbered valley. Sometimes the river would come close to the edge and run alongside the chalky base of the hill, revealing a few open canola fields among the trees. Other times, it would skirt the garden walls of houses, where we might catch a glimpse through a doorway and see a priest walking in the dappled sunlight. Again, the foliage would close in so tightly that it seemed like there was no escape—just a thicket of willows topped by elms and poplars, under which the river flowed swiftly and smoothly, where a kingfisher darted by like a piece of the blue sky. In all these different scenes, the sun cast its clear and all-encompassing light. The shadows fell as solidly on the swift surface of the stream as they did on the stable meadows. The light sparkled gold in the dancing leaves of the poplars, connecting the hills with our view. And throughout it all, the river never stopped running or paused for breath; the reeds along the entire valley stood shivering from top to bottom.
There should be some myth (but if there is, I know it not) founded on the shivering of the reeds. There are not many things in nature more striking to man's eye. It is such an eloquent pantomime of terror; and to see such a number of terrified creatures taking sanctuary in every nook along the shore is enough to infect a silly human with alarm. Perhaps they are only a-cold, and no wonder, standing waist-deep in the stream. Or perhaps they have never got accustomed to the speed and fury of the river's flux, or the miracle of its continuous body. Pan once played upon their forefathers; and so, by the hands of his river, he still plays upon these later generations down all the valley of the Oise; and plays the same air, both sweet and shrill, to tell us of the beauty and the terror of the world.
There might be some myth (but if there is, I'm not aware of it) based on the shivering of the reeds. There aren't many things in nature that catch a person's eye more than this. It’s such a powerful display of fear; watching so many scared creatures seeking refuge in every nook along the shore is enough to worry even the most carefree human. Maybe they’re just cold, and who can blame them, standing waist-deep in the stream? Or maybe they’ve never gotten used to the speed and intensity of the river's flow, or the wonder of its endless presence. Pan once played for their ancestors; and so, through his river, he still plays for these later generations all along the Oise valley, playing the same tune, both sweet and sharp, to remind us of the beauty and the fear in the world.
The canoe was like a leaf in the current. It took it up and shook it, and carried it masterfully away, like a Centaur carrying off a nymph. To keep some command on our direction required hard and diligent plying of the paddle. The river was in such a hurry for the sea! Every drop of water ran in a panic, like as many people in a frightened crowd. But what crowd was ever so numerous, or so single-minded? All the objects of sight went by at a dance measure; the eyesight raced with the racing[Pg 57] river; the exigencies of every moment kept the pegs screwed so tight that our being quivered like a well-tuned instrument, and the blood shook oft its lethargy, and trotted through all the highways and byways of the veins and arteries, and in and out of the heart, as if circulation were but a holiday journey, and not the daily moil of threescore years and ten. The reeds might nod their heads in warning, and with tremulous gestures tell how the river was as cruel as it was strong and cold, and how death lurked in the eddy underneath the willows. But the reeds had to stand where they were, and those who stand still are always timid advisers. As for us, we could have shouted aloud. If this lively and beautiful river were, indeed, a thing of death's contrivance, the old ashen rogue had famously outwitted himself with us. I was living three to the minute. I was scoring points against him every stroke of my paddle, every turn of the stream, I have rarely had better profit of my life.
The canoe was like a leaf in the current. It picked it up and shook it, carrying it effortlessly away, like a Centaur taking off a nymph. To maintain some control over our direction required hard and diligent paddling. The river was in such a rush for the sea! Every drop of water raced in a frenzy, like many people in a scared crowd. But what crowd has ever been so numerous or so focused? All the sights flew by in a rhythmic dance; my eyes raced along with the rushing river; the demands of every moment kept our bodies tense, vibrating like a well-tuned instrument, and my blood shook off its sluggishness, flowing through all the pathways of my veins and arteries, in and out of my heart, as if circulation were just a holiday adventure, and not the daily grind of sixty or seventy years. The reeds might sway their heads in warning, trembling to show how the river was as harsh as it was strong and cold, and how death hid in the eddies beneath the willows. But the reeds had to stay where they were, and those who stay still are always timid advisors. As for us, we could have shouted out loud. If this lively and beautiful river were truly a creation of death, then the old gray trickster had cleverly outsmarted himself with us. I felt alive three times each minute. I was scoring points against him with every stroke of my paddle, every bend of the stream; I could hardly have enjoyed life more.
For I think we may look upon our little private war with death somewhat in this light. If a man knows he will sooner or later be robbed upon a journey, he will have a bottle of the best in every inn, and look upon all his extravagances as so much gained upon the thieves. And, above all, where instead of simply spending, he makes a profitable investment for some of his money, when it will be out of risk of loss. So every bit of brisk living, and, above all, when it is healthful, is just so much gained upon the wholesale filcher, death. We shall have the less in our pockets, the more in our stomach, when he cries stand and deliver. A swift stream is a favourite artifice of his, and one that brings him in a comfortable thing per annum; but when he and I come to settle our accounts, I shall whistle in his face for these hours upon the upper Oise.
For I think we can view our little personal battle with death somewhat like this. If a person knows they will eventually be robbed on a journey, they will enjoy a bottle of the best at every inn, seeing all their indulgences as a win against the thieves. Moreover, when instead of just spending, they make a smart investment with some of their money, keeping it safe from loss. So, every moment of vibrant living, especially when it's healthy, is just a gain against the ultimate thief, death. We may have less in our wallets, but more in our stomachs when he demands payment. A swift stream is one of his favorite tricks, bringing him a nice annual return; but when he and I wrap up our accounts, I'll just whistle in his face for those hours by the upper Oise.
Towards afternoon we got fairly drunken with the sunshine and the exhilaration of the pace. We could no longer contain ourselves and our content. The canoes[Pg 58] were too small for us; we must be out and stretch ourselves on shore. And so in a green meadow we bestowed our limbs on the grass, and smoked deifying tobacco and proclaimed the world excellent. It was the last good hour of the day, and I dwell upon it with extreme complacency.
Towards the afternoon, we became quite tipsy from the sunshine and the thrill of our speed. We could no longer hold back our joy. The canoes[Pg 58] were too small for us; we needed to get out and stretch on the shore. So, in a green meadow, we laid our bodies on the grass, smoked some uplifting tobacco, and declared the world to be amazing. It was the last great hour of the day, and I remember it with great satisfaction.
On one side of the valley, high up on the chalky summit of the hill, a ploughman with his team appeared and disappeared at regular intervals. At each revelation he stood still for a few seconds against the sky: for all the world (as the Cigarette declared) like a toy Burns who should have just ploughed up the Mountain Daisy. He was the only living thing within view, unless we are to count the river.
On one side of the valley, up on the chalky top of the hill, a ploughman with his team popped in and out of sight at regular intervals. Each time he appeared, he stood still for a few seconds against the sky: just like a toy Burns who had just ploughed up the Mountain Daisy, as the Cigarette said. He was the only living thing in sight, unless we count the river.
On the other side of the valley a group of red roofs and a belfry showed among the foliage. Thence some inspired bell-ringer made the afternoon musical on a chime of bells. There was something very sweet and taking in the air he played; and we thought we had never heard bells speak so intelligibly or sing so melodiously as these. It must have been to some such measure that the spinners and the young maids sang "Come away, Death," in the Shakespearian Illyria. There is so often a threatening note, something blatant and metallic, in the voice of bells, that I believe we have fully more pain than pleasure from hearing them; but these, as they sounded abroad, now high, now low, now with a plaintive cadence that caught the ear like the burthen of a popular song, were always moderate and tunable, and seemed to fall in with the spirit of still, rustic places, like the noise of a waterfall or the babble of a rookery in spring. I could have asked the bell-ringer for his blessing, good, sedate old man, who swung the rope so gently to the time of his meditations. I could have blessed the priest or the heritors, or whoever may be concerned with such affairs in France, who had left these sweet old bells to gladden the afternoon, and not held meetings, and made collections, and had their[Pg 59] names repeatedly printed in the local paper, to rig up a peal of brand-new, brazen, Birmingham-hearted substitutes, who should bombard their sides to the provocation of a brand-new bell-ringer, and fill the echoes of the valley with terror and riot.
On the other side of the valley, a cluster of red roofs and a bell tower peered out from the trees. There, an inspired bell-ringer filled the afternoon with beautiful music from a set of bells. There was something really sweet and charming in the tune he played; we thought we had never heard bells sound so clearly or sing so melodiously as these. It must have been to a similar melody that the spinners and young maids sang "Come away, Death," in the Shakespearian Illyria. Often, bells have a harsh, metallic sound that brings us more pain than pleasure, but these, as they rang out—sometimes high, sometimes low, with a mournful tone that caught the ear like a popular song—were always gentle and tuneful, blending perfectly with the serene, rural surroundings, like the sound of a waterfall or the chatter of birds in spring. I could have asked the bell-ringer for his blessing, that good, calm old man who pulled the rope so gently in time with his thoughts. I could have blessed the priest or the landowners, or whoever is in charge of such matters in France, for leaving these lovely old bells to brighten the afternoon, rather than holding meetings, collecting funds, and having their[Pg 59] names repeatedly printed in the local paper to set up a new set of brassy, noisy substitutes from Birmingham, who would disrupt the peace with their loud sounds and fill the valley with chaos.
At last the bells ceased, and with their note the sun withdrew. The piece was at an end; shadow and silence possessed the valley of the Oise. We took to the paddle with glad hearts, like people who have sat out a noble performance and returned to work. The river was more dangerous here; it ran swifter, the eddies were more sudden and violent. All the way down we had had our fill of difficulties. Sometimes it was a weir which could be shot, sometimes one so shallow and full of stakes that we must withdraw the boats from the water and carry them round. But the chief sort of obstacle was a consequence of the late high winds. Every two or three hundred yards a tree had fallen across the river, and usually involved more than another in its fall. Often there was free water at the end, and we could steer round the leafy promontory and hear the water sucking and bubbling among the twigs. Often, again, when the tree reached from bank to bank, there was room by lying close to shoot through underneath, canoe and all. Sometimes it was necessary to get out upon the trunk itself and pull the boats across; and sometimes, when the stream was too impetuous for this, there was nothing for it but to land and "carry over." This made a fine series of accidents in the day's career, and kept us aware of ourselves.
Finally, the bells stopped ringing, and with that sound, the sun faded away. The performance was over; shadow and silence filled the valley of the Oise. We picked up our paddles with happy hearts, like people who have enjoyed a great show and are returning to their tasks. The river became more treacherous here; it flowed faster, and the eddies were more sudden and fierce. All the way down, we faced our share of challenges. Sometimes there was a weir we could navigate, other times it was so shallow and cluttered with stakes that we had to take the boats out of the water and carry them around. But the main obstacles were the result of the recent high winds. Every two or three hundred yards, a tree had fallen across the river, often dragging more down with it. Sometimes there was clear water at the end, and we could steer around the leafy outcrop, listening to the water gurgling among the branches. Other times, when the tree spanned from bank to bank, there was just enough space to duck underneath with the canoe. Occasionally, we had to climb onto the trunk itself to pull the boats across; and sometimes, when the current was too strong, we had no choice but to get out and "carry over." This created a series of exciting incidents throughout the day and kept us alert.
Shortly after our re-embarkation, while I was leading by a long way, and still full of a noble, exulting spirit in honour of the sun, the swift pace, and the church bells, the river made one of its leonine pounces round a corner, and I was aware of another fallen tree within a stone-cast. I had my back-board down in a trice, and aimed for a place where the trunk seemed high enough above[Pg 60] the water, and the branches not too thick to let me slip below. When a man has just vowed eternal brotherhood with the universe, he is not in a temper to take great determinations coolly, and this, which might have been a very important determination for me, had not been taken under a happy star. The tree caught me about the chest, and while I was yet struggling to make less of myself and get through, the river took the matter out of my hands, and bereaved me of my boat. The Arethusa swung round broadside on, leaned over, ejected so much of me as still remained on board, and, thus disencumbered, whipped under the tree, righted, and went merrily away down stream.
Shortly after we got back on board, while I was way ahead and still brimming with a proud, joyful spirit in celebration of the sun, the fast pace, and the church bells, the river made one of its powerful turns around a corner, and I noticed another fallen tree just within reach. I quickly dropped my backboard and aimed for a spot where the trunk looked high enough over[Pg 60] the water, and the branches weren’t too thick to let me slide underneath. When a person has just pledged lifelong camaraderie with the universe, they aren't in the right frame of mind to make big decisions calmly, and this, which could have been a very significant choice for me, wasn’t made under favorable circumstances. The tree hit me in the chest, and while I was still trying to make myself smaller and get through, the river took control, and I lost my boat. The Arethusa swung around sideways, tipped over, tossed out whatever part of me was still on board, and, free of my weight, slipped under the tree, righted itself, and happily floated away downstream.
I do not know how long it was before I scrambled on to the tree to which I was left clinging, but it was longer than I cared about. My thoughts were of a grave and almost sombre character, but I still clung to my paddle. The stream ran away with my heels as fast as I could pull up my shoulders, and I seemed, by the weight, to have all the water of the Oise in my trousers-pockets. You can never know, till you try it, what a dead pull a river makes against a man. Death himself had me by the heels, for this was his last ambuscado, and he must now join personally in the fray. And still I held to my paddle. At last I dragged myself on to my stomach on the trunk, and lay there a breathless sop, with a mingled sense of humour and injustice. A poor figure I must have presented to Burns upon the hill-top with his team. But there was the paddle in my hand. On my tomb, if ever I have one, I mean to get these words inscribed: "He clung to his paddle."
I don't know how long it took before I managed to get onto the tree I was hanging onto, but it felt longer than I wanted. My thoughts were heavy and serious, but I still held onto my paddle. The current was dragging me backward as fast as I could lift my shoulders, and it felt like I had all the water of the Oise in my pockets. You can’t really know how hard a river pulls on you until you experience it. Death had me by the heels; this was his last ambush, and he was now fully involved in the struggle. Yet, I still clung to my paddle. Eventually, I dragged myself onto my stomach on the trunk and lay there, out of breath, feeling a mix of humor and unfairness. I must have looked like a sorry sight to Burns up on the hill with his team. But I still had the paddle in my hand. If I ever have a tombstone, I’d like these words etched: "He clung to his paddle."
The Cigarette had gone past a while before; for, as I might have observed, if I had been a little less pleased with the universe at the moment, there was a clear way round the tree-top at the farther side. He had offered his services to haul me out, but as I was then already on my elbows I had declined and sent him down stream after[Pg 61] the truant Arethusa. The stream was too rapid for a man to mount with one canoe, let alone two, upon his hands. So I crawled along the trunk to shore, and proceeded down the meadows by the riverside. I was so cold that my heart was sore. I had now an idea of my own why the reeds so bitterly shivered. I could have given any of them a lesson. The Cigarette remarked facetiously that he thought I was "taking exercise" as I drew near, until he made out for certain that I was only twittering with cold. I had a rub down with a towel, and donned a dry suit from the india-rubber bag. But I was not my own man again for the rest of the voyage. I had a queasy sense that I wore my last dry clothes upon my body. The struggle had tired me; and perhaps, whether I knew it or not, I was a little dashed in spirit. The devouring element in the universe had leaped out against me, in this green valley quickened by a running stream. The bells were all very pretty in their way, but I had heard some of the hollow notes of Pan's music. Would the wicked river drag me down by the heels, indeed? and look so beautiful all the time? Nature's good-humour was only skin-deep after all.
The Cigarette had passed by a little while ago; because, as I might have noticed if I wasn’t feeling so content with the world at that moment, there was a clear way around the treetop on the other side. He had offered to pull me out, but since I was already on my elbows, I turned him down and sent him downstream after[Pg 61] the wandering Arethusa. The current was too fast for one person to hold onto two canoes at once. So I crawled along the trunk to the shore and made my way down the meadows by the river. I was so cold that my heart ached. I now had an idea of why the reeds were shivering so violently. I could have taught any of them a thing or two. The Cigarette jokingly said he thought I was "getting some exercise" as I approached, until he realized for sure that I was just trembling from the cold. I dried off with a towel and put on a dry suit from the rubber bag. But I didn’t feel like myself for the rest of the trip. I had a nagging sense that I was wearing my last dry clothes. The struggle had worn me out; and maybe, whether I knew it or not, I felt a bit deflated. The consuming force of the universe had turned against me in this green valley brought to life by a flowing stream. The bells were all very nice in their own way, but I had heard some of the hollow notes of Pan's music. Would the wicked river really pull me under while looking so beautiful all the while? Nature's good humor was only skin-deep after all.
There was still a long way to go by the winding course of the stream, and darkness had fallen, and a late bell was ringing in Origny Sainte-Benoîte, when we arrived.
There was still a long way to go along the twisting path of the stream, and night had set in, and a late bell was ringing in Origny Sainte-Benoîte when we arrived.
ORIGNY SAINTE-BENOÎTE
A BY-DAY
The next day was Sunday, and the church bells had little rest; indeed, I do not think I remember anywhere else so great a choice of services as were here offered to the devout. And while the bells made merry in the sunshine, all the world with his dog was out shooting among the beets and colza.
The next day was Sunday, and the church bells hardly got a break; honestly, I can't recall anywhere else that offered such a wide variety of services for the faithful. And while the bells rang cheerfully in the sunshine, everyone and their dog was out hunting among the beets and colza.
In the morning a hawker and his wife went down the street at a foot-pace, singing to a very slow, lamentable music, "O France, mes amours." It brought everybody to the door; and when our landlady called in the man to buy the words, he had not a copy of them left. She was not the first nor the second who had been taken with the song. There is something very pathetic in the love of the French people, since the war, for dismal patriotic music-making. I have watched a forester from Alsace while someone was singing "Les malheurs de la France," at a baptismal party in the neighbourhood of Fontainebleau. He arose from the table and took his son aside, close by where I was standing. "Listen, listen," he said, bearing on the boy's shoulder, "and remember this, my son." A little after he went out into the garden suddenly, and I could hear him sobbing in the darkness.
In the morning, a street vendor and his wife walked slowly down the road, singing to a very slow, mournful melody, "O France, mes amours." It drew everyone to their doors, and when our landlady called him in to buy the lyrics, he didn’t have any copies left. She wasn't the first or the second to be captivated by the song. There’s something very touching in the way the French people have embraced somber patriotic songs since the war. I watched a forester from Alsace while someone was singing "Les malheurs de la France" at a baptism party near Fontainebleau. He stood up from the table and took his son aside, close to where I was standing. "Listen, listen," he said, resting his hand on the boy's shoulder, "and remember this, my son." A little later, he suddenly went out into the garden, and I could hear him sobbing in the darkness.
The humiliation of their arms and the loss of Alsace and Lorraine made a sore pull on the endurance of this sensitive people; and their hearts are still hot, not so much against Germany as against the Empire. In what other country will you find a patriotic ditty bring all the world into the street? But affliction heightens love; and[Pg 63] we shall never know we are Englishmen until we have lost India. Independent America is still the cross of my existence; I cannot think of Farmer George without abhorrence; and I never feel more warmly to my own land than when I see the Stars and Stripes, and remember what our empire might have been.
The humiliation of their military losses and the loss of Alsace and Lorraine really tested the patience of this sensitive nation; and their hearts are still burning, not just against Germany but against the Empire. In what other country do you see a patriotic song bring everyone out into the streets? But pain only deepens love; and [Pg 63] we will never fully realize we are English until we have lost India. Independent America is still a burden on my life; I can’t think of Farmer George without disgust; and I never feel prouder of my own country than when I see the Stars and Stripes, remembering what our empire could have been.
The hawker's little book, which I purchased, was a curious mixture. Side by side with the flippant, rowdy nonsense of the Paris music-halls, there were many pastoral pieces, not without a touch of poetry, I thought, and instinct with the brave independence of the poorer class in France. There you might read how the wood-cutter gloried in his axe, and the gardener scorned to be ashamed of his spade. It was not very well written, this poetry of labour, but the pluck of the sentiment redeemed what was weak or wordy in the expression. The martial and the patriotic pieces, on the other hand, were tearful, womanish productions one and all. The poet had passed under the Caudine Forks; he sang for an army visiting the tomb of its old renown, with arms reversed; and sang not of victory, but of death. There was a number in the hawker's collection called "Conscrits Français," which may rank among the most dissuasive war-lyrics on record. It would not be possible to fight at all in such a spirit. The bravest conscript would turn pale if such a ditty were struck up beside him on the morning of battle; and whole regiments would pile their arms to its tune.
The hawker's little book that I bought was an interesting mix. Next to the silly, loud nonsense from the Paris music halls, there were many pastoral pieces that had a hint of poetry, I thought, and really conveyed the brave independence of the poorer class in France. You could read about how the woodcutter took pride in his axe, and the gardener wasn’t ashamed of his spade. The poetry of labor wasn’t very well written, but the courage behind the sentiment made up for the weak or wordy expressions. On the other hand, the martial and patriotic pieces were all tearful and overly sentimental. The poet seemed to have given in; he sang for an army visiting the tomb of its past glory, with their weapons lowered, and sang not of victory, but of death. There was a piece in the hawker's collection called "Conscrits Français," which could rank among the most discouraging war lyrics ever. It would be impossible to fight at all with such a spirit. The bravest conscript would go pale if that song played next to him on the morning of battle, and whole regiments would drop their weapons to its tune.
If Fletcher of Saltoun is in the right about the influence of national songs, you would say France was come to a poor pass. But the thing will work its own cure, and a sound-hearted and courageous people weary at length of sniveling over their disasters. Already Paul Déroulède has written some manly military verses. There is not much of the trumpet-note in them, perhaps, to stir a man's heart in his bosom; they lack the lyrical elation, and move slowly; but they are written in a grave, honourable, stoical spirit, which should carry soldiers far in a[Pg 64] good cause. One feels as if one would like to trust Déroulède with something. It will be happy if he can so far inoculate his fellow-countrymen that they may be trusted with their own future. And in the meantime, here is an antidote to "French Conscripts" and much other doleful versification.
If Fletcher of Saltoun is correct about the impact of national songs, you’d think France is in a tough spot. But things will eventually sort themselves out, and a strong, brave people will tire of wallowing in their hardships. Already, Paul Déroulède has written some strong military verses. They might not have the stirring trumpet-call to ignite a man’s spirit; they don’t have the lyrical high that makes you soar and move at a slow pace. However, they’re written with a serious, honorable, stoic attitude that should inspire soldiers in a[Pg 64] good cause. You get the sense that you’d like to trust Déroulède with something important. It would be great if he could inspire his fellow countrymen enough that they can take charge of their own future. In the meantime, here’s an antidote to "French Conscripts" and plenty of other gloomy poetry.
We had left the boats over-night in the custody of one whom we shall call Carnival. I did not properly catch his name, and perhaps that was not unfortunate for him, as I am not in a position to hand him down with honour to posterity. To this person's premises we strolled in the course of the day, and found quite a little deputation inspecting the canoes. There was a stout gentleman with a knowledge of the river, which he seemed eager to impart. There was a very elegant young gentleman in a black coat, with a smattering of English, who led the talk at once to the Oxford and Cambridge Boat Race. And then there were three handsome girls from fifteen to twenty; and an old gentleman in a blouse, with no teeth to speak of, and a strong country accent. Quite the pick of Origny, I should suppose.
We had left the boats overnight with someone we’ll refer to as Carnival. I didn’t quite catch his name, and maybe that was for the best for him, since I can’t really pass him down with any honor. We strolled to his place during the day and found a small group checking out the canoes. There was a stout man who knew a lot about the river and seemed eager to share. There was a very stylish young man in a black coat, who spoke a bit of English and immediately steered the conversation to the Oxford and Cambridge Boat Race. Then there were three attractive girls aged fifteen to twenty, and an older man in a blouse, who had no teeth to speak of and a strong country accent. I suppose they were the best of Origny.
The Cigarette had some mysteries to perform with his rigging in the coach-house, so I was left to do the parade single-handed. I found myself very much of a hero whether I would or not. The girls were full of little shudderings over the dangers of our journey. And I thought it would be ungallant not to take my cue from the ladies. My mishap of yesterday, told in an off-hand way, produced a deep sensation. It was Othello over again, with no less than three Desdemonas and a sprinkling of sympathetic senators in the background. Never were the canoes more flattered, or flattered more adroitly.
The Cigarette had some tricks to pull off with his setup in the garage, so I was left to handle the parade on my own. I ended up feeling like a hero whether I wanted to or not. The girls were all a bit anxious about the dangers of our trip. I thought it would be unchivalrous not to take my cues from them. My little accident from yesterday, shared casually, created a big reaction. It was like Othello all over again, with three Desdemonas and a few sympathetic senators watching in the background. Never had the canoes been more complimented, or complemented more skillfully.
"It is like a violin!" cried one of the girls in an ecstasy.
"It’s like a violin!" shouted one of the girls in excitement.
"I thank you for the word, mademoiselle," said I. "All the more since there are people who call out to me that it is like a coffin."[Pg 65]
"I appreciate your words, miss," I said. "Especially since some people shout at me that it's like a coffin."[Pg 65]
"Oh I but it is really like a violin. It is finished like a violin," she went on.
"Oh, but it's really like a violin. It's polished like a violin," she continued.
"And polished like a violin," added a senator.
"And polished like a violin," added a senator.
"One has only to stretch the cords," concluded another, "and then tum-tumty-tum"—he imitated the result with spirit.
"All you have to do is pull the strings," another person said, "and then tum-tumty-tum"—he enthusiastically mimicked the outcome.
Was not this a graceful little ovation? Where this people finds the secret of its pretty speeches, I cannot imagine; unless the secret should be no other than a sincere desire to please! But then no disgrace is attached in France to saying a thing neatly; whereas in England to talk like a book is to give in one's resignation to society.
Wasn't this a charming little applause? I can't imagine where this people discovers the secret of its lovely speeches; unless the secret is simply a genuine desire to please! But in France, there's no shame in expressing oneself elegantly; while in England, speaking like a book feels like resigning from society.
The old gentleman in the blouse stole into the coach-house, and somewhat irrelevantly informed the Cigarette that he was the father of the three girls and four more: quite an exploit for a Frenchman.
The old man in the blouse quietly entered the coach house and somewhat off-topic told the Cigarette that he was the father of three girls and four more: quite an achievement for a Frenchman.
"You are very fortunate," answered the Cigarette politely.
"You're really lucky," replied the Cigarette politely.
And the old gentleman, having apparently gained his point, stole away again.
And the old man, having seemingly achieved what he wanted, quietly slipped away again.
We all got very friendly together. The girls proposed to start with us on the morrow, if you please! And, jesting apart, every one was anxious to know the hour of our departure. Now, when you are going to crawl into your canoe from a bad launch, a crowd, however friendly, is undesirable; and so we told them not before twelve, and mentally determined to be off by ten at latest.
We all became really friendly with each other. The girls suggested we start with them tomorrow, if that’s okay! Joking aside, everyone was eager to find out what time we would leave. However, when you're trying to get into your canoe from a tricky launch, having a crowd, no matter how friendly, isn't ideal; so we told them not before noon, while secretly deciding to leave by ten at the latest.
Towards evening we went abroad again to post some letters. It was cool and pleasant; the long village was quite empty, except for one or two urchins who followed us as they might have followed a menagerie; the hills and the tree-tops looked in from all sides through the clear air; and the bells were chiming for yet another service.
Towards evening we went out again to mail some letters. It was cool and nice; the long village was pretty much empty, except for one or two kids who trailed behind us like they would follow a circus; the hills and the tree-tops were visible from all sides through the clear air; and the bells were ringing for another service.
Suddenly we sighted the three girls standing, with a fourth sister, in front of a shop on the wide selvage of the roadway. We had been very merry with them a little[Pg 66] while ago, to be sure. But what was the etiquette of Origny? Had it been a country road, of course we should have spoken to them; but here, under the eyes of all the gossips, ought we to do even as much as bow? I consulted the Cigarette.
Suddenly, we spotted the three girls standing with their fourth sister in front of a shop on the wide edge of the road. We had been having a great time with them not long ago, that's for sure. But what was the social norm in Origny? If it had been a country road, we definitely would have spoken to them; but here, in front of all the gossips, should we even just bow? I checked with the Cigarette.
"Look," said he.
"Look," he said.
I looked. There were the four girls on the same spot; but now four backs were turned to us, very upright and conscious. Corporal Modesty had given the word of command, and the well-disciplined picket had gone right-about-face like a single person. They maintained this formation all the while we were in sight; but we heard them tittering among themselves, and the girl whom we had not met laughed with open mouth, and even looked over her shoulder at the enemy. I wonder was it altogether modesty after all? or in part a sort of country provocation?
I looked. The four girls were in the same spot, but now they all had their backs to us, standing very straight and aware. Corporal Modesty had given the command, and the well-trained group had turned around like one person. They kept this formation the whole time we could see them, but we could hear them giggling to each other, and the girl we hadn’t met laughed out loud and even glanced back at us. I wonder if it was really just modesty, or was it partly a bit of rural teasing?
As we were returning to the inn, we beheld something floating in the ample field of golden evening sky, above the chalk cliffs and the trees that grow along their summit. It was too high up, too large, and too steady for a kite; and as it was dark, it could not be a star. For although a star were as black as ink and as rugged as a walnut, so amply does the sun bathe heaven with radiance, that it would sparkle like a point of light for us. The village was dotted with people with their heads in air; and the children were in a bustle all along the street and far up the straight road that climbs the hill, where we could still see them running in loose knots. It was a balloon, we learned, which had left St. Quentin at half-past five that evening. Mighty composedly the majority of the grown people took it. But we were English, and were soon running up the hill with the best. Being travellers ourselves in a small way, we would fain have seen these other travellers alight.
As we were heading back to the inn, we noticed something floating in the vast expanse of the golden evening sky, above the chalk cliffs and the trees that grew along their edge. It was too high, too big, and too steady to be a kite; and since it was dark, it couldn't be a star. Even if a star were as black as ink and as rough as a walnut, the sun shines so brightly on the heavens that it would still twinkle like a point of light for us. The village was filled with people looking up; children were bustling all along the street and far up the straight road that leads up the hill, where we could still see them running around in loose groups. We found out it was a balloon that had left St. Quentin at half-past five that evening. Most of the adults remained quite calm about it. But we were English, and soon we were running up the hill with the best of them. As fellow travelers, we were eager to see these other travelers land.
The spectacle was over by the time we gained the top of the hill. All the gold had withered out of the sky,[Pg 67] and the balloon had disappeared. Whither? I ask myself; caught up into the seventh heaven? or come safely to land somewhere in that blue uneven distance, into which the roadway dipped and melted before our eyes? Probably the aeronauts were already warming themselves at a farm chimney, for they say it is cold in these unhomely regions of the air. The night fell swiftly. Roadside trees and disappointed sightseers, returning though the meadows, stood out in black against a margin of low red sunset. It was cheerfuller to face the other way, and so down the hill we went, with a full moon, the colour of a melon, swinging high above the wooded valley, and the white cliffs behind us faintly reddened by the fire of the chalk kilns.
The show was over by the time we reached the top of the hill. All the gold had faded from the sky,[Pg 67] and the balloon was gone. Where did it go? I wonder; did it ascend to the seventh heaven? Or did it land safely somewhere in that blue, uneven distance where the road faded from view? The balloonists were probably already warming themselves by a chimney on a farm, since they say it's chilly in these lonely stretches of the sky. Night fell quickly. The roadside trees and the disappointed spectators, heading back through the fields, stood out in black against the low, red sunset. It was nicer to look the other way, so we descended the hill, with a full moon the color of a melon hanging high above the wooded valley, and the white cliffs behind us faintly glowing red from the fire of the chalk kilns.
The lamps were lighted, and the salads were being made in Origny Sainte-Benoîte by the river.
The lamps were lit, and the salads were being prepared in Origny Sainte-Benoîte by the river.
ORIGNY SAINTE-BENOÎTE
THE COMPANY AT TABLE
Although we came late for dinner, the company at table treated us to sparkling wine. "That is how we are in France," said one. "Those who sit down with us are our friends." And the rest applauded.
Although we arrived late for dinner, the people at the table welcomed us with sparkling wine. "That's how we do it in France," one person said. "Anyone who joins us is our friend." And everyone else cheered.
They were three altogether, and an odd trio to pass the Sunday with.
They were three in total, and a strange group to spend Sunday with.
Two of them were guests like ourselves, both men of the north. One ruddy, and of a full habit of body, with copious black hair and beard, the intrepid hunter of France, who thought nothing so small, not even a lark or a minnow, but he might vindicate his prowess by its capture. For such a great, healthy man, his hair flourishing like Samson's, his arteries running buckets of red blood, to boast of these infinitesimal exploits, produced a feeling of disproportion in the world, as when a steam-hammer is set to cracking nuts. The other was a quiet, subdued person, blond and lymphatic and sad, with something the look of a Dane: "Tristes têtes de Danois!" as Gaston Lafenestre used to say.
Two of them were guests like us, both men from the north. One was ruddy and solidly built, with thick black hair and a beard, the fearless hunter from France, who considered nothing too small—not even a lark or a minnow—if it meant he could show off his skills by catching it. For such a big, healthy guy, with hair like Samson’s and veins pumping with energy, it felt disproportionate to brag about such tiny feats, like using a steam-hammer to crack nuts. The other was a quiet, subdued individual, blond, lethargic, and somewhat sad, resembling a Dane: "Tristes têtes de Danois!" as Gaston Lafenestre used to say.
I must not let that name go by without a word for the best of all good fellows now gone down into the dust. We shall never again see Gaston in his forest costume—he was Gaston with all the world, in affection, not in disrespect—nor hear him wake the echoes of Fontainebleau with the woodland horn. Never again shall his kind smile put peace among all races of artistic men, and make the Englishman at home in France. Never more shall the sheep, who were not more innocent at heart than he,[Pg 69] sit all unconsciously for his industrious pencil. He died too early, at the very moment when he was beginning to put forth fresh sprouts, and blossom into something worthy of himself; and yet none who knew him will think he lived in vain. I never knew a man so little, for whom yet I had so much affection; and I find it a good test of others, how much they had learned to understand and value him. His was indeed a good influence in life while he was still among us; he had a fresh laugh, it did you good to see him; and however sad he may have been at heart, he always bore a bold and cheerful countenance, and took fortune's worst as it were the showers of spring. But now his mother sits alone by the side of Fontainebleau woods, where he gathered mushrooms in his hardy and penurious youth.
I can't let that name pass without acknowledging the best of all friends who has now gone into the dust. We will never see Gaston again in his forest outfit—he was Gaston everywhere, with affection, not disrespect—nor will we hear him wake the echoes of Fontainebleau with the woodland horn. His kind smile will never again bring peace among all kinds of artistic people, making the Englishman feel at home in France. The sheep, who were no more innocent at heart than he, will never again sit unknowingly for his dedicated pencil. He died too soon, just as he was starting to grow and blossom into something worthy of himself; yet none who knew him will think he lived in vain. I never knew a man so small, yet I had so much affection for him; and I find it a true test of others how much they learned to understand and appreciate him. He truly had a positive influence in life while he was still with us; he had a fresh laugh that uplifted you, and no matter how sad he might have been inside, he always wore a bold and cheerful face, facing misfortune as if it were just spring showers. But now his mother sits alone by the side of the Fontainebleau woods, where he used to gather mushrooms in his tough and frugal youth.[Pg 69]
Many of his pictures found their way across the Channel: besides those which were stolen, when a dastardly Yankee left him alone in London with two English pence, and perhaps twice as many words of English. If any one who reads these lines should have a scene of sheep, in the manner of Jacques, with this fine creature's signature, let him tell himself that one of the kindest and bravest of men has lent a hand to decorate his lodging. There may be better pictures in the National Gallery; but not a painter among the generations had a better heart. Precious in the sight of the Lord of humanity, the Psalms tell us, is the death of his saints. It had need to be precious; for it is very costly, when by the stroke, a mother is left desolate, and the peace-maker, and peace-looker, of a whole society is laid in the ground with Caesar and the Twelve Apostles.
Many of his paintings made their way across the Channel: besides those that were stolen, when a cowardly American left him alone in London with just two English pence and maybe twice as many English words. If anyone reading this has a scene of sheep, like Jacques would have done, with this great artist's signature, they should remind themselves that one of the kindest and bravest men has contributed to decorating their home. There may be better paintings in the National Gallery; but no artist in history had a better heart. Precious in the eyes of the Lord of humanity, as the Psalms tell us, is the death of His saints. It needs to be precious; because it comes at a high cost when, with a single blow, a mother is left grieving, and the peacekeeper and peace seeker of an entire community is laid to rest along with Caesar and the Twelve Apostles.
There is something lacking among the oaks of Fontainebleau; and when the dessert comes in at Barbizon, people look to the door for a figure that is gone.
There’s something missing among the oaks of Fontainebleau; and when dessert is served in Barbizon, people glance at the door expecting a figure that is no longer there.
The third of our companions at Origny was no less a person than the landlady's husband: not properly the landlord, since he worked himself in a factory during the[Pg 70] day, and came to his own house at evening as a guest: a man worn to skin and bone by perpetual excitement, with baldish head, sharp features, and swift, shining eyes. On Saturday, describing some paltry adventure at a duck-hunt, he broke a plate into a score of fragments. Whenever he made a remark, he would look all round the table with his chin raised, and a spark of green light in either eye, seeking approval. His wife appeared now and again in the doorway of the room, where she was superintending dinner, with a "Henri, you forget yourself," or a "Henri, you can surely talk without making such a noise." Indeed, that was what the honest fellow could not do. On the most trifling matter his eyes kindled, his fist visited the table, and his voice rolled abroad in changeful thunder. I never saw such a petard of a man; I think the devil was in him. He had two favourite expressions—"it is logical," or illogical, as the case might be; and this other, thrown out with a certain bravado, as a man might unfurl a banner, at the beginning of many a long and sonorous story: "I am a proletarian, you see." Indeed, we saw it very well. God forbid that ever I should find him handling a gun in Paris streets! That will not be a good moment for the general public.
The third of our companions at Origny was none other than the landlady's husband. He wasn’t technically the landlord since he worked at a factory during the[Pg 70] day and came home in the evening as a guest. He was a man worn down to skin and bone from constant excitement, with a balding head, sharp features, and quick, bright eyes. On Saturday, while recounting a minor adventure from a duck hunt, he broke a plate into a dozen pieces. Whenever he made a comment, he would scan the table with his chin lifted and a glint of green in his eyes, searching for approval. His wife would occasionally pop her head into the room, supervising dinner, saying things like, "Henri, you’re losing your composure," or "Henri, you can talk without being so loud." Indeed, that was something the honest guy just couldn’t manage. On even the smallest topic, his eyes would light up, his fist would hit the table, and his voice would boom like rolling thunder. I had never seen such an explosive man; I think he might’ve had the devil inside him. He had two favorite phrases—“it’s logical,” or “it’s illogical,” depending on what fit; and another, delivered with a kind of bravado as though he were unfurling a banner, at the start of many long, grand stories: “I am a proletarian, you see.” And indeed, we recognized that quite well. God forbid I ever see him with a gun in the streets of Paris! That would not be a good situation for the general public.
I thought his two phrases very much represented the good and evil of his class, and to some extent of his country. It is a strong thing to say what one is, and not be ashamed of it; even although it be in doubtful taste to repeat the statement too often in one evening. I should not admire it in a duke, of course; but as times go, the trait is honourable in a workman. On the other hand, it is not at all a strong thing to put one's reliance upon logic; and our own logic particularly, for it is generally wrong. We never know where we are to end, if once we begin following words or doctors. There is an upright stock in a man's own heart, that is trustier than any syllogism; and the eyes, and the sympathies and appetites, know a thing or two that have never yet been stated in contro[Pg 71]versy. Reasons are as plentiful as blackberries; and, like fisticuffs, they serve impartially with all sides. Doctrines do not stand or fall by their proofs, and are only logical in so far as they are cleverly put. An able controversialist no more than an able general demonstrates the justice of his cause. But France is all gone wandering after one or two big words; it will take some time before they can be satisfied that they are no more than words, however big; and when once that is done, they will perhaps find logic less diverting.
I thought his two phrases really represented the good and bad of his class and, to some degree, his country. It's a bold thing to say who you are and not be ashamed of it, even if it gets a bit annoying to repeat it too often in one night. I wouldn’t admire it in a duke, of course, but given the times, that trait is commendable in a worker. On the flip side, relying on logic isn’t strong at all, especially our own logic, since it’s usually wrong. Once we start following words or experts, we never know where we’ll end up. There’s a solid instinct in a person’s own heart that’s more reliable than any logical argument; and our eyes, feelings, and desires know things that haven’t yet been proven in debate. Reasons are as abundant as blackberries and, like fistfights, they can serve both sides equally. Doctrines don’t rise or fall based on their evidence and are only logical to the extent that they’re cleverly presented. A skilled debater, just like a skilled general, doesn’t prove the righteousness of their cause. But France is off chasing one or two big words; it will take a while for them to realize they’re just words, no matter how grand; and once that realization hits, they might find logic less entertaining.
The conversation opened with details of the day's shooting. When all the sportsmen of a village shoot over the village territory pro indiviso, it is plain that many questions of etiquette and priority must arise.
The conversation started with details about the day's shooting. When all the sportsmen in a village shoot over the village grounds pro indiviso, it’s clear that many questions about etiquette and priority will come up.
"Here now," cried the landlord, brandishing a plate, "here is a field of beet-root. Well. Here am I then. I advance, do I not? Eh bien! sacristi," and the statement, waxing louder, rolls off into a reverberation of oaths, the speaker glaring about for sympathy, and everybody nodding his head to him in the name of peace.
"Here we go," shouted the landlord, waving a plate, "here’s a field of beetroot. Alright. Here I am. I’m moving forward, right? Eh bien! sacristi," and as he spoke louder, the words turned into a mix of curses, with him looking around for support, while everyone nodded in agreement for the sake of peace.
The ruddy Northman told some tales of his own prowess in keeping order: notably one of a Marquis.
The red-faced Northman shared some stories of his own skill in maintaining order: especially one about a Marquis.
"Marquis," I said, "if you take another step I fire upon you. You have committed a dirtiness, Marquis."
"Marquis," I said, "if you take another step, I’ll shoot. You’ve done something really dirty, Marquis."
Whereupon, it appeared, the Marquis touched his cap and withdrew.
Whereupon, it seemed, the Marquis tipped his hat and left.
The landlord applauded noisily. "It was well done," he said. "He did all that he could. He admitted he was wrong." And then oath upon oath. He was no marquis-lover either, but he had a sense of justice in him, this proletarian host of ours.
The landlord clapped loudly. "That was great," he said. "He did everything he could. He admitted he was wrong." And then he swore again and again. He wasn't a fan of the aristocracy either, but he had a sense of fairness in him, this working-class host of ours.
From the matter of hunting, the talk veered into a general comparison of Paris and the country. The proletarian beat the table like a drum in praise of Paris. "What is Paris? Paris is the cream of France. There are no Parisians: it is you and I and everybody who are Parisians. A man has eighty chances per cent to get on[Pg 72] in the world in Paris." And he drew a vivid sketch of the workman in a den no bigger than a dog-hutch, making articles that were to go all over the world. "Eh bien, quoi, c'est magnifique, ça!" cried he.
From the topic of hunting, the conversation shifted to comparing Paris and the countryside. The worker pounded the table enthusiastically in praise of Paris. "What is Paris? Paris is the best of France. There are no real Parisians: it's you, me, and everyone else who are Parisians. A person has an eighty percent chance of succeeding[Pg 72] in the world in Paris." He painted a vivid picture of a worker in a space no bigger than a doghouse, creating products that would be sold worldwide. "Well, what can I say, it's magnificent!" he exclaimed.
The sad Northman interfered in praise of a peasant's life; he thought Paris bad for men and women; "centralization," said he——
The unhappy Northman spoke out in favor of a peasant's life; he believed Paris was bad for both men and women; "centralization," he said——
But the landlord was at his throat in a moment. It was all logical, he showed him, and all magnificent. "What a spectacle! What a glance for an eye!" And the dishes reeled upon the table under a cannonade of blows.
But the landlord was on him in an instant. It all made sense, he explained, and it was all incredible. "What a show! What a sight!" And the dishes shook on the table under a barrage of blows.
Seeking to make peace, I threw in a word in praise of the liberty of opinion in France. I could hardly have shot more amiss. There was an instant silence, and a great wagging of significant heads. They did not fancy the subject, it was plain; but they gave me to understand that the sad Northman was a martyr on account of his views. "Ask him a bit," said they. "Just ask him."
Trying to make peace, I mentioned how great it is to have freedom of opinion in France. I couldn't have missed the mark more. An immediate silence fell, and everyone started shaking their heads meaningfully. It was clear they weren't interested in the topic, but they made it clear that the poor Northman was a martyr because of his beliefs. “Just ask him a bit,” they said. “Go ahead and ask him.”
"Yes, sir," said he, in his quiet way, answering me, although I had not spoken, "I am afraid there is less liberty of opinion in France than you may imagine." And with that he dropped his eyes, and seemed to consider the subject at an end.
"Yes, sir," he said quietly, responding to me even though I hadn't spoken, "I'm afraid there's less freedom of opinion in France than you might think." With that, he looked down and seemed to consider the topic closed.
Our curiosity was mightily excited at this. How, or why, or when, was this lymphatic bagman martyred? We concluded at once it was on some religious question, and brushed up our memories of the Inquisition, which were principally drawn from Poe's horrid story, and the sermon in "Tristram Shandy," I believe.
Our curiosity was really sparked by this. How, or why, or when was this lymphatic bagman martyred? We immediately concluded it was over some religious issue and recalled what we knew about the Inquisition, which mainly came from Poe's terrifying story and the sermon in "Tristram Shandy," I think.
On the morrow we had an opportunity of going further into the question; for when we rose very early to avoid a sympathizing deputation at our departure, we found the hero up before us. He was breaking his fast on white wine and raw onions, in order to keep up the character of martyr, I conclude. We had a long conversation, and made out what we wanted in spite of his reserve. But here was a truly curious circumstance. It seems possible[Pg 73] for two Scotsmen and a Frenchman to discuss during a long half-hour, and each nationality have a different idea in view throughout. It was not till the very end that we discovered his heresy had been political, or that he suspected our mistake. The terms and spirit in which he spoke of his political beliefs were, in our eyes, suited to religious beliefs. And vice versa.
The next day, we had a chance to dig deeper into the issue; when we woke up very early to avoid running into a sympathetic group as we left, we found the hero already awake. He was having white wine and raw onions for breakfast, probably to maintain his martyr image, I guess. We had a long chat and managed to figure out what we needed despite his reluctance. But here's something truly interesting. It turns out that two Scotsmen and a Frenchman can discuss for a long half-hour, and each nationality can have a completely different perspective the entire time. It wasn’t until the very end that we realized his heresy was political or that he suspected our misunderstanding. The way he talked about his political beliefs seemed to us to fit more with religious beliefs. And vice versa.
Nothing could be more characteristic of the two countries. Politics are the religion of France; as Nanty Ewart would have said, "A d—— d bad religion"; while we, at home, keep most of our bitterness for little differences about a hymn-book, or a Hebrew word which perhaps neither of the parties can translate. And perhaps the misconception is typical of many others that may never be cleared up: not only between people of different race, but between those of different sex.
Nothing could be more typical of the two countries. Politics are the religion of France; as Nanty Ewart would have put it, "A damn bad religion"; while we, back home, reserve most of our anger for minor disagreements over a hymn book or a Hebrew word that neither side might even be able to translate. This misunderstanding may also represent many others that may never be resolved: not just between people of different races, but also between those of different genders.
As for our friend's martyrdom, he was a Communist, or perhaps only a Communard, which is a very different thing; and had lost one or more situations in consequence. I think he had also been rejected in marriage; but perhaps he had a sentimental way of considering business which deceived me. He was a mild, gentle creature, anyway; and I hope he has got a better situation, and married a more suitable wife since then.
As for our friend's martyrdom, he was a Communist, or maybe just a Communard, which is a totally different thing; and he had lost one or more jobs because of it. I think he had also been turned down for marriage; but maybe he had a sentimental view of business that misled me. He was a mild, gentle person, anyway; and I hope he's landed a better job and found a more suitable wife since then.
DOWN THE OISE
TO MOY
Carnival notoriously cheated us at first. Finding us easy in our ways, he regretted having let us oil so cheaply; and taking me aside, told me a cock-and-bull story with the moral of another five francs for the narrator. The thing was palpably absurd; but I paid up, and at once dropped all friendliness of manner, and kept him in his place as an inferior with freezing British dignity. He saw in a moment that he had gone too far, and killed a willing horse; his face fell; I am sure he would have refunded if he could only have thought of a decent pretext. He wished me to drink with him, but I would none of his drinks. He grew pathetically tender in his professions; but I walked beside him in silence or answered him in stately courtesies; and when we got to the landing-place, passed the word in English slang to the Cigarette.
Carnival totally took advantage of us at first. Thinking we were easy to manipulate, he regretted letting us take the oil for so cheap. He pulled me aside and spun a ridiculous tale, hoping to get another five francs for telling it. The whole thing was obviously nonsense, but I paid him and immediately dropped any friendliness, treating him like an inferior with a cold British demeanor. He realized right away that he'd gone too far and had ruined a good opportunity; his expression fell, and I’m sure he would have given me a refund if he could have come up with a reasonable excuse. He wanted me to drink with him, but I refused his offers. He grew increasingly sentimental in his attempts to reconnect, but I just walked beside him in silence or responded with formal pleasantries. When we reached the landing area, I signaled to the Cigarette.
In spite of the false scent we had thrown out the day before, there must have been fifty people about the bridge. We were as pleasant as we could be with all but Carnival. We said good-bye, shaking hands with the old gentleman who knew the river and the young gentleman who had a smattering of English; but never a word for Carnival. Poor Carnival! here was a humiliation. He who had been so much identified with the canoes, who had given orders in our name, who had shown off the boats and even the boatmen like a private exhibition of his own, to be now so publicly shamed by the lions of his caravan! I never saw anybody look more crestfallen than he. He hung in the background, coming timidly forward ever[Pg 75] and again as he thought he saw some symptom of a relenting humour, and falling hurriedly back when he encountered a cold stare. Let us hope it will be a lesson to him.
Despite the false scent we laid out the day before, there had to be at least fifty people around the bridge. We were as friendly as we could be with everyone except Carnival. We said our goodbyes, shaking hands with the older gentleman who knew the river and the younger guy who had a bit of English; but we didn’t say a word to Carnival. Poor Carnival! What a humiliation this was. He had been so closely tied to the canoes, had given orders in our name, and had showcased the boats and even the boatmen like it was his own private show, only to be publicly shamed by the stars of his caravan! I’ve never seen anyone look more dejected than he did. He lingered in the background, coming forward hesitantly time and again as he thought he might see some sign of forgiveness, then quickly retreating when met with a cold stare. Let’s hope this teaches him a lesson.
I would not have mentioned Carnival's peccadillo had not the thing been so uncommon in France. This, for instance, was the only case of dishonesty or even sharp practice in our whole voyage. We talk very much about our honesty in England. It is a good rule to be on your guard wherever you hear great professions about a very little piece of virtue. If the English could only hear how they are spoken of abroad they might confine themselves for a while to remedying the fact; and perhaps even when that was done, give us fewer of their airs.
I wouldn't have brought up Carnival's little mistake if it hadn't been so unusual in France. This was, for example, the only instance of dishonesty or even questionable behavior on our entire trip. We talk a lot about our honesty in England. It's a good idea to be cautious whenever you hear people boasting about a small act of virtue. If the English could only hear how they're discussed abroad, they might spend some time fixing the problem; and maybe even once that was done, they would show us fewer of their pretensions.
The young ladies, the graces of Origny, were not present at our start, but when we got round to the second bridge, behold, it was black with sightseers! We were loudly cheered, and for a good way below young lads and lasses ran along the bank, still cheering. What with current and paddling, we were flashing along like swallows. It was no joke to keep up with us upon the woody shore. But the girls picked up their skirts as if they were sure they had good ankles, and followed until their breath was out. The last to weary were the three graces and a couple of companions; and just as they too had had enough, the foremost of the three leaped upon a tree-stump and kissed her hand to the canoeists. Not Diana herself, although this was more of a Venus after all, could have done a graceful thing more gracefully. "Come back again!" she cried; and all the others echoed her; and the hills about Origny repeated the words, "Come back." But the river had us round an angle in a twinkling, and we were alone with the green trees and running water.
The young ladies, the beauties of Origny, weren't there when we set off, but by the time we reached the second bridge, the place was packed with spectators! We were cheered loudly, and for quite a distance, young boys and girls ran along the riverbank, still cheering us on. With the current and our paddling, we zipped along like swallows. It was no easy feat to keep up with us on the wooded shore. But the girls lifted their skirts as if they were confident they had lovely ankles and followed us until they were out of breath. The last ones to tire were the three beauties and a couple of friends; just as they had reached their limit, the first of the three jumped onto a tree stump and waved her hand to us canoeists. Not even Diana herself, though this was more like Venus, could have done anything more elegantly. “Come back again!” she called out, and everyone else echoed her, while the hills around Origny repeated, “Come back.” But in no time, the river took us around a bend, and we were left alone with the green trees and flowing water.
Come back? There is no coming back, young ladies, on the impetuous stream of life.
Come back? There's no going back, young ladies, on the swift river of life.
And we must all set our pocket-watches by the clock of fate. There is a headlong, forthright tide, that bears away man with his fancies like a straw, and runs fast in time and space. It is full of curves like this, your winding river of the Oise; and lingers and returns in pleasant pastorals; and yet, rightly thought upon, never returns at all. For though it should revisit the same acre of meadow in the same hour, it will have made an ample sweep between-whiles; many little streams will have fallen in; many exhalations risen towards the sun; and even although it were the same acre, it will no more be the same river of Oise. And thus, O graces of Origny, although the wandering fortune of my life should carry me back again to where you await death's whistle by the river, that will not be the old I who walks the street; and those wives and mothers, say, will those be you?
And we all have to set our watches by the clock of fate. There’s a fast-moving current that sweeps people along with their dreams like a piece of straw and rushes through time and space. It’s filled with twists like your winding river of the Oise; it lingers and loops back in beautiful scenes; yet, when you really think about it, it never goes back at all. Because even if it revisits the same meadow at the same hour, it will have taken a wide path in between; many little streams will have joined in; many mists will have risen towards the sun; and even if it were the same meadow, it won't be the same river of Oise anymore. So, O graces of Origny, even if the changing fortune of my life brings me back to where you wait for death’s call by the river, it won’t be the old me walking those streets; and those wives and mothers, will they still be you?
There was never any mistake about the Oise, as a matter of fact. In these upper reaches it was still in a prodigious hurry for the sea. It ran so fast and merrily, through all the windings of its channel, that I strained my thumb, fighting with the rapids, and had to paddle all the rest of the way with one hand turned up. Sometimes it had to serve mills; and being still a little river, ran very dry and shallow in the meanwhile. We had to put our legs out of the boat, and shove ourselves off the sand of the bottom with our feet. And still it went on its way singing among the poplars, and making a green valley in the world. After a good woman, and a good book, and tobacco, there is nothing so agreeable on earth as a river. I forgave it its attempt on my life; which was after all one part owing to the unruly winds of heaven that had blown down the tree, one part to my own mismanagement, and only a third part to the river itself, and that not out of malice, but from its great preoccupation over its business of getting to the sea. A difficult business, too; for the detours it had to make are not to be counted. The geographers seem to have given up the attempt; for[Pg 77] I found no map represent the infinite contortion of its course. A fact will say more than any of them. After we had been some hours, three if I mistake not, flitting by the trees at this smooth, break-neck gallop, when we came upon a hamlet and asked where we were, we had got no farther than four kilometres (say two miles and a half) from Origny. If it were not for the honour of the thing (in the Scots saying), we might almost as well have been standing still.
There was never any doubt about the Oise, really. In these upper parts, it was still rushing madly toward the sea. It flowed so quickly and joyfully through all the twists of its channel that I strained my thumb, battling with the rapids, and had to paddle the rest of the way with one hand up. Sometimes, it powered mills, and being still a small river, it ran quite dry and shallow in the meantime. We had to stick our legs out of the boat and push ourselves off the sandy bottom with our feet. Yet, it continued on its path, singing among the poplars and creating a green valley in the world. After a good woman, a good book, and tobacco, there’s nothing more enjoyable on Earth than a river. I forgave it for nearly costing me my life; which, after all, was partly due to the unruly winds of heaven that had knocked down the tree, partly to my own mismanagement, and only a third to the river itself, which wasn’t being malicious but was just focused on its mission of getting to the sea. A tough mission, too; the detours it had to take are endless. Geographers seem to have given up on trying to depict it; for [Pg 77] I found no map that could illustrate the infinite twists of its path. A fact speaks louder than any of them. After we had been drifting for a few hours—three, if I’m not mistaken—gliding past the trees at this smooth, break-neck speed, when we finally came upon a hamlet and asked where we were, we had gone barely four kilometers (about two and a half miles) from Origny. If it weren't for the honor of the thing (as the Scots say), we might as well have been standing still.
We lunched on a meadow inside a parallelogram of poplars. The leaves danced and prattled in the wind all round about us. The river hurried on meanwhile, and seemed to chide at our delay. Little we cared. The river knew where it was going; not so we: the less our hurry, where we found good quarters and a pleasant theatre for a pipe. At that hour, stockbrokers were shouting in Paris Bourse for two or three per cent.; but we minded them as little as the sliding stream, and sacrificed a hecatomb of minutes to the gods of tobacco and digestion. Hurry is the resource of the faithless. Where a man can trust his own heart, and those of his friends, to-morrow is as good as to-day. And if he die in the meanwhile, why then, there he dies, and the question is solved.
We had lunch in a meadow surrounded by a rectangle of poplar trees. The leaves danced and chatted in the wind all around us. Meanwhile, the river rushed by, as if scolding us for taking our time. We didn’t mind. The river knew where it was headed; we didn’t. The less we rushed, the more we enjoyed our nice spot and the perfect setting for a smoke. At that moment, stockbrokers were shouting in the Paris Bourse for two or three percent, but we paid them as much attention as we did to the flowing water, choosing to let minutes slip away for the sake of tobacco and a leisurely digestion. Rushing is what the untrusting do. When a man can rely on his own heart and those of his friends, tomorrow is just as good as today. And if he happens to die in the meantime, well, that’s just how it is, and the question is settled.
We had to take to the canal in the course of the afternoon; because, where it crossed the river, there was, not a bridge, but a siphon. If it had not been for an excited fellow on the bank, we should have paddled right into the siphon, and thenceforward not paddled any more. We met a man, a gentleman, on the tow-path, who was much interested in our cruise. And I was witness to a strange seizure of lying suffered by the Cigarette: who, because his knife came from Norway, narrated all sorts of adventures in that country, where he has never been. He was quite feverish at the end, and pleaded demoniacal possession.
We had to go to the canal in the afternoon because where it crossed the river, there wasn’t a bridge but a siphon. If it hadn’t been for an excited guy on the bank, we would have paddled straight into the siphon and wouldn’t have paddled anymore after that. We met a man, a gentleman, on the towpath who was very interested in our trip. I witnessed a weird moment of lying from the Cigarette, who, because his knife was from Norway, started telling all sorts of stories about adventures in that country, even though he had never been there. He was pretty worked up by the end and claimed he was possessed.
Moy (pronounce Moÿ) was a pleasant little village, gathered round a château in a moat. The air was[Pg 78] perfumed with hemp from neighbouring fields. At the Golden Sheep we found excellent entertainment. German shells from the siege of La Fère, Nürnberg figures, gold-fish in a bowl, and all manner of knick-knacks, embellished the public room. The landlady was a stout, plain, short-sighted, motherly body, with something not far short of a genius for cookery. She had a guess of her excellence herself. After every dish was sent in, she would come and look on at the dinner for a while, with puckered, blinking eyes. "C'est bon, n'est-ce pas?" she would say; and when she had received a proper answer, she disappeared into the kitchen. That common French dish, partridge and cabbages, became a new thing in my eyes at the Golden Sheep; and many subsequent dinners have bitterly disappointed me in consequence. Sweet was our rest in the Golden Sheep at Moy.
Moy (pronounced Moÿ) was a charming little village centered around a château in a moat. The air was[Pg 78] filled with the scent of hemp from nearby fields. At the Golden Sheep, we found great entertainment. German shells from the siege of La Fère, Nürnberg figurines, goldfish in a bowl, and all sorts of knick-knacks decorated the common room. The landlady was a hearty, plain, short-sighted, motherly figure, with a talent for cooking that was nothing short of genius. She was aware of her own excellence. After every dish was served, she would come over and watch our dinner for a bit, with her squinty, blinking eyes. "C'est bon, n'est-ce pas?" she would ask, and once she got the right answer, she would head back to the kitchen. That typical French dish, partridge and cabbage, became something entirely new to me at the Golden Sheep; and many dinners after that have left me feeling disappointed. Our stay at the Golden Sheep in Moy was truly sweet.
LA FÈRE OF CURSED MEMORY
We lingered in Moy a good part of the day, for we were fond of being philosophical, and scorned long journeys and early starts on principle. The place, moreover, invited to repose. People in elaborate shooting costumes sallied from the château with guns and game-bags; and this was a pleasure in itself, to remain behind while these elegant pleasure-seekers took the first of the morning. In this way, all the world may be an aristocrat, and play the duke among marquises, and the reigning monarch among dukes, if he will only outvie them in tranquility. An imperturbable demeanour comes from perfect patience. Quiet minds cannot be perplexed or frightened, but go on in fortune or misfortune at their own private pace, like a clock during a thunderstorm.
We stayed in Moy for most of the day because we enjoyed being philosophical and rejected long trips and early mornings on principle. Moreover, the place encouraged relaxation. People dressed in fancy shooting outfits left the château with guns and game bags; and it was a pleasure in itself to stay behind while these stylish adventurers started their day. In this way, anyone can be an aristocrat, acting like a duke among marquises and the king among dukes, as long as they can outshine them in calmness. A composed demeanor comes from perfect patience. Peaceful minds aren’t confused or scared, but move through good times and bad at their own steady pace, like a clock during a thunderstorm.
We made a very short day of it to La Fère; but the dusk was falling, and a small rain had begun before we stowed the boats. La Fère is a fortified town in a plain, and has two belts of rampart. Between the first and the second extends a region of waste land and cultivated patches. Here and there along the wayside were posters forbidding trespass in the name of military engineering. At last, a second gateway admitted us to the town itself. Lighted windows looked gladsome, whiffs of comfortable cookery came abroad upon the air. The town was full of the military reserve, out for the French Autumn Manoeuvres, and the reservists walked speedily and wore their formidable great-coats. It was a fine night to be within doors over dinner, and hear the rain upon the windows.
We had a really short day getting to La Fère; but dusk was setting in, and a light rain had started before we packed up the boats. La Fère is a fortified town situated in a plain and is surrounded by two walls. Between the first and second walls lies an area of wasteland and cultivated plots. Here and there along the roadside were signs banning trespassing in the name of military engineering. Finally, we passed through a second gateway into the town itself. The lit windows looked inviting, and the smell of delicious cooking wafted through the air. The town was bustling with military reserves participating in the French Autumn Maneuvers, and the reservists moved quickly, wearing their imposing great-coats. It was a nice evening to be indoors having dinner, listening to the rain against the windows.
The Cigarette and I could not sufficiently congratulate[Pg 80] each other on the prospect, for we had been told there was a capital inn at La Fère. Such a dinner as we were going to eat! such beds as we were to sleep in!—and all the while the rain raining on houseless folk over all the poplared countryside! It made our mouths water. The inn bore the name of some woodland animal, stag, or hart, or hind, I forget which. But I shall never forget how spacious and how eminently habitable it looked as we drew near. The carriage entry was lighted up, not by intention, but from the mere superfluity of fire and candle in the house. A rattle of many dishes came to our ears; we sighted a great field of tablecloth; the kitchen glowed like a forge and smelt like a garden of things to eat.
The Cigarette and I could not congratulate each other enough on the exciting prospect, since we had heard there was a great inn in La Fère. Just think of the dinner we were about to have! The beds we'd be sleeping in!—all while the rain poured down on the homeless all over the poplar-filled countryside! It made our mouths water. The inn was named after some woodland animal—a stag, or a hart, or a hind; I can't remember which. But I'll never forget how spacious and inviting it looked as we approached. The carriage entrance was lit up, not on purpose, but just because of the excess of fire and candles in the house. We heard the clatter of many dishes; we caught sight of a large expanse of tablecloth; the kitchen glowed like a forge and smelled like a garden of delicious food.
Into this, the inmost shrine and physiological heart of a hostelry, with all its furnaces in action, and all its dressers charged with viands, you are now to suppose us making our triumphal entry, a pair of damp rag-and-bone men, each with a limp india-rubber bag upon his arm. I do not believe I have a sound view of that kitchen; I saw it through a sort of glory: but it seemed to me crowded with the snowy caps of cookmen, who all turned round from their saucepans and looked at us with surprise. There was no doubt about the landlady, however: there she was, heading her army, a flushed, angry woman, full of affairs. Her I asked politely—too politely, thinks the Cigarette—if we could have beds: she surveying us coldly from head to foot.
Into this, the innermost sanctuary and heart of a hotel, with all its furnaces running and all its surfaces piled with food, you can imagine us making our grand entrance, a pair of soggy junk collectors, each with a limp rubber bag on our arm. I don't think I have a clear picture of that kitchen; I saw it through a kind of haze: but it appeared to be filled with the white hats of cooks, who all turned away from their pots and stared at us in surprise. There was no mistaking the landlady, though: there she was, leading her team, a flushed, angry woman, busy with her tasks. I asked her politely—too politely, thinks the Cigarette—if we could get some beds, while she scanned us coldly from head to toe.
"You will find beds in the suburb," she remarked. "We are too busy for the like of you."
"You'll find beds in the suburbs," she said. "We're too busy for people like you."
If we could make an entrance, change our clothes, and order a bottle of wine, I felt sure we could put things right; so said I: "If we cannot sleep, we may at least dine,"—and was for depositing my bag.
If we could make an entrance, change our clothes, and order a bottle of wine, I was sure we could fix things; so I said, "If we can't sleep, we can at least have dinner,"—and I was about to set down my bag.
What a terrible convulsion of nature was that which followed in the landlady's face! She made a run at us, and stamped her foot.[Pg 81]
What a shocking reaction from the landlady's face! She ran at us and stomped her foot.[Pg 81]
"Out with you—out of the door!" she screeched. "Sortez! sortez! sortez par la porte!"
"Get out—out the door!" she yelled. "Get out! Get out! Get out through the door!"
I do not know how it happened, but next moment we were out in the rain and darkness, and I was cursing before the carriage entry like a disappointed mendicant. Where were the boating men of Belgium? where the Judge and his good wines? and where the graces of Origny? Black, black was the night after the firelit kitchen; but what was that to the blackness in our heart? This was not the first time that I have been refused a lodging. Often and often have I planned what I should do if such a misadventure happened to me again. And nothing is easier to plan. But to put in execution, with the heart boiling at the indignity? Try it; try it only once; and tell me what you did.
I don’t know how it happened, but in the next moment we were out in the rain and darkness, and I was cursing by the carriage entrance like a disappointed beggar. Where were the boatmen of Belgium? Where was the Judge with his fine wines? And where were the charms of Origny? The night was pitch black after the fire-lit kitchen, but what did that matter compared to the darkness in our hearts? This wasn’t the first time I had been turned away without a place to stay. I’ve often planned what I would do if something like this happened again. Planning is easy. But putting it into action, with anger boiling at the humiliation? Try it; just try it once and let me know what you did.
It is all very fine to talk about tramps and morality. Six hours of police surveillance (such as I have had), or one brutal rejection from an inn-door, change your views upon the subject like a course of lectures. As long as you keep in the upper regions, with all the world bowing to you as you go, social arrangements have a very handsome air; but once get under the wheels, and you wish society were at the devil. I will give most respectable men a fortnight of such a life, and then I will offer them twopence for what remains of their morality.
It’s easy to talk about homeless people and morality. After six hours of police watching me (like I experienced), or facing one harsh rejection at an inn door, your perspective shifts dramatically—kind of like attending a series of lectures. As long as you’re in a comfortable position, with everyone treating you with respect, social structures seem appealing; but once you hit rock bottom, you might start wishing society would just disappear. I’d bet that if you put most respectable people through two weeks of that kind of life, I could offer them two cents for whatever’s left of their morals.
For my part, when I was turned out of the Stag, or the Hind, or whatever it was, I would have set the temple of Diana on fire if it had been handy. There was no crime complete enough to express my disapproval of human institutions. As for the Cigarette, I never knew a man so altered. "We have been taken for pedlars again," said he. "Good God, what it must be to be a pedlar in reality!" He particularized a complaint for every joint in the landlady's body. Timon was a philanthropist alongside of him. And then, when he was at the top of his maledictory bent, he would suddenly break away and begin whimperingly to commiserate the poor. "I hope to God,"[Pg 82] he said,—and I trust the prayer was answered,—"that I shall never be uncivil to a pedlar." Was this the imperturbable Cigarette? This, this was he. O change beyond report, thought, or belief!
For my part, when I was kicked out of the Stag, or the Hind, or whatever it was, I would have set the temple of Diana on fire if it had been nearby. There was no crime severe enough to show how much I disapproved of human institutions. As for the Cigarette, I had never seen a man change so much. "We’ve been mistaken for peddlers again," he said. "Good God, what must it be like to actually be a peddler?" He had a complaint for every part of the landlady's body. Timon seemed like a philanthropist compared to him. And then, just when he was at the height of his anger, he would suddenly shift gears and start tearfully sympathizing with the poor. "I hope to God,"[Pg 82] he said,—and I hope that prayer was answered,—"that I’ll never be rude to a peddler." Was this the unshakeable Cigarette? Yes, this was him. Oh, what a change beyond description, thought, or belief!
Meantime the heaven wept upon our heads; and the windows grew brighter as the night increased in darkness. We trudged in and out of La Fère streets; we saw shops, and private houses where people were copiously dining; we saw stables where carters' nags had plenty of fodder and clean straw; we saw no end of reservists, who were very sorry for themselves this wet night, I doubt not, and yearned for their country homes; but had they not each man his place in La Fère barracks? And we, what had we?
In the meantime, the heavens poured rain on us, and the windows grew brighter as the night got darker. We trudged in and out of the streets of La Fère; we passed shops and private homes where people were enjoying big meals; we saw stables where the cart horses had plenty of feed and clean straw; we encountered countless reservists, who I’m sure felt sorry for themselves on this wet night and longed for their homes; but didn't each man have his place in the La Fère barracks? And what did we have?
There seemed to be no other inn in the whole town. People gave us directions, which we followed as best we could, generally with the effect of bringing us out again upon the scene of our disgrace. We were very sad people indeed by the time we had gone all over La Fère; and the Cigarette had already made up his mind to lie under a poplar and sup off a loaf of bread. But right at the other end, the house next the town-gate was full of light and bustle. "Bazin, aubergiste, loge à pied," was the sign. "À la Croix de Malte." There were we received.
There didn't seem to be any other inn in the entire town. People gave us directions, which we followed as best as we could, usually ending up back at the scene of our embarrassment. By the time we finished exploring La Fère, we were feeling pretty down. The Cigarette had already decided to lie under a poplar tree and munch on a loaf of bread. But all the way at the other end, the building next to the town gate was full of light and activity. "Bazin, aubergiste, loge à pied," read the sign. "À la Croix de Malte." That’s where we were welcomed.
The room was full of noisy reservists drinking and smoking; and we were very glad indeed when the drums and bugles began to go about the streets, and one and all had to snatch shakoes and be off for the barracks.
The room was packed with loud reservists drinking and smoking, and we were really relieved when the drums and bugles started playing in the streets, making everyone grab their hats and head off to the barracks.
Bazin was a tall man, running to fat: soft-spoken, with a delicate, gentle face. We asked him to share our wine; but he excused himself, having pledged reservists all day long. This was a very different type of the workman-innkeeper from the bawling disputatious fellow at Origny. He also loved Paris, where he had worked as a decorative painter in his youth. There were such opportunities for self-instruction there, he said. And if any one has read Zola's description of the workman's marriage-party visiting the Louvre, they would do[Pg 83] well to have heard Bazin by way of antidote. He had delighted in the museums in his youth. "One sees there little miracles of work," he said; "that is what makes a good workman; it kindles a spark." We asked him how he managed in La Fère. "I am married," he said, "and I have my pretty children. But frankly, it is no life at all. From morning to night I pledge a pack of good enough fellows who know nothing."
Bazin was a tall man, getting a bit heavyset: soft-spoken, with a gentle, kind face. We invited him to join us for some wine, but he politely declined, saying he had been working with reservists all day. He was a very different kind of innkeeper from the loud, argumentative guy in Origny. He had a deep love for Paris, where he had worked as a decorative painter when he was younger. There were so many chances for self-improvement there, he mentioned. And if anyone has read Zola's description of the workman's wedding party visiting the Louvre, they would do[Pg 83] well to listen to Bazin as a counterpoint. He had enjoyed the museums in his youth. "You see little miracles of craftsmanship there," he said; "that’s what makes a great craftsman; it ignites a spark." We asked him how things were for him in La Fère. "I'm married," he said, "and I have my lovely children. But honestly, it's no real life at all. From morning to night, I deal with a bunch of decent guys who know nothing."
It faired as the night went on, and the moon came out of the clouds. We sat in front of the door, talking softly with Bazin. At the guardhouse opposite, the guard was being for ever turned out, as trains of field artillery kept clanking in out of the night, or patrols of horsemen trotted by in their cloaks. Madame Bazin came out after a while; she was tired with her day's work, I suppose; and she nestled up to her husband and laid her head upon his breast. He had his arm about her, and kept gently patting her on the shoulder. I think Bazin was right, and he was really married. Of how few people can the same be said!
It got better as the night went on, and the moon came out from behind the clouds. We sat in front of the door, talking softly with Bazin. In the guardhouse across the way, the guard was constantly being called out as trains of field artillery kept rolling in out of the night, or patrols of horsemen rode by in their cloaks. After a while, Madame Bazin came out; she looked tired from her day’s work, I guess, and she snuggled up to her husband, laying her head on his chest. He had his arm around her and kept gently patting her shoulder. I think Bazin was right—he really was married. How many people can truly say the same?
Little did the Bazins know how much they served us. We were charged for candles, for food and drink, and for the beds we slept in. But there was nothing in the bill for the husband's pleasant talk; nor for the pretty spectacle of their married life. And there was yet another item uncharged. For these people's politeness really set us up again in our own esteem. We had a thirst for consideration; the sense of insult was still hot in our spirits; and civil usage seemed to restore us to our position in the world.
Little did the Bazins know how much they helped us. We had to pay for candles, food and drinks, and the beds we slept in. But there was nothing on the bill for the husband's charming conversation, nor for the lovely display of their married life. And there was one more thing that wasn’t charged. Their politeness truly lifted our spirits. We craved respect; the feeling of being insulted still stung in our hearts; and their courteous treatment seemed to bring us back to our rightful place in the world.
How little we pay our way in life! Although we have our purses continually in our hand, the better part of service goes still unrewarded. But I like to fancy that a grateful spirit gives as good as it gets. Perhaps the Bazins knew how much I liked them? perhaps they also were healed of some slights by the thanks that I gave them in my manner?
How little we contribute to life! Even though we always have money in our hands, most of our efforts go unnoticed. But I like to think that a grateful attitude returns kindness. Maybe the Bazins sensed how much I appreciated them? Maybe they also felt better about past grievances because of the gratitude I expressed in my own way?
DOWN THE OISE
THROUGH THE GOLDEN VALLEY
Below La Fère the river runs through a piece of open pastoral country; green, opulent, loved by breeders; called the Golden Valley. In wide sweeps, and with a swift and equable gallop, the ceaseless stream of water visits and makes green the fields. Kine, and horses, and little humorous donkeys, browse together in the meadows, and come down in troops to the riverside to drink. They make a strange feature in the landscape; above all when they are startled, and you see them galloping to and fro with their incongruous forms and faces. It gives a feeling as of great, unfenced pampas, and the herds of wandering nations. There were hills in the distance upon either hand; and on one side, the river sometimes bordered on the wooded spurs of Coucy and St. Gobain.
Below La Fère, the river flows through a piece of open pastoral land; lush, abundant, and cherished by farmers; it's known as the Golden Valley. With its broad curves and steady, quick pace, the continuous stream of water nourishes and greens the fields. Cows, horses, and small, amusing donkeys graze together in the meadows and come down in groups to the riverbank to drink. They create a unique aspect of the landscape, especially when they get startled and dash around with their awkward shapes and expressions. It evokes a sense of vast, unbounded plains, reminiscent of herds from nomadic cultures. There were hills in the distance on both sides, and on one side, the river occasionally ran alongside the wooded foothills of Coucy and St. Gobain.
The artillery were practicing at La Fère, and soon the cannon of heaven joined in that loud play. Two continents of cloud met and exchanged salvos overhead; while all round the horizon we could see sunshine and clear air upon the hills. What with the guns and the thunder, the herds were all frightened in the Golden Valley. We could see them tossing their heads, and running to and fro in timorous indecision; and when they had made up their minds, and the donkey followed the horse, and the cow was after the donkey, we could hear their hooves thundering abroad over the meadows. It had a martial sound, like cavalry charges. And altogether, as far as the ears are concerned, we had a very rousing battle-piece performed for our amusement.[Pg 85]
The artillery was practicing at La Fère, and soon the cannons of heaven joined in that loud display. Two massive clouds met and exchanged blasts overhead, while all around the horizon, we could see sunshine and clear skies over the hills. Between the guns and the thunder, the herds were all spooked in the Golden Valley. We watched them tossing their heads and running back and forth in nervous uncertainty; and when they finally decided, with the donkey following the horse and the cow trailing behind the donkey, we could hear their hooves pounding across the meadows. It had a battle-like sound, similar to cavalry charges. Overall, as far as our ears were concerned, we were treated to an exhilarating show of chaos for our entertainment.[Pg 85]
At last the guns and the thunder dropped off; the sun shone on the wet meadows; the air was scented with the breath of rejoicing trees and grass; and the river kept unweariedly carrying us on at its best pace. There was a manufacturing district about Chauny, and after that the banks grew so high that they hid the adjacent country, and we could see nothing but clay sides, and one willow after another. Only, here and there, we passed by a village or a ferry, and some wondering child upon the bank would stare after us until we turned the corner. I daresay we continued to paddle in that child's dreams for many a night after.
At last, the sounds of gunfire and thunder faded away; the sun shone on the wet meadows; the air was filled with the fresh scent of happy trees and grass; and the river kept flowing steadily, carrying us along at its best speed. There was an industrial area near Chauny, and after that, the banks rose so high that they blocked our view of the surrounding countryside, showing us only clay banks and one willow after another. Only occasionally did we pass a village or a ferry, and some curious child on the bank would watch us until we rounded the bend. I bet we continued to drift through that child's dreams for many nights afterward.
Sun and shower alternated like day and night, making the hours longer by their variety. When the showers were heavy, I could feel each drop striking through my jersey to my warm skin; and the accumulation of small shocks put me nearly beside myself. I decided I should buy a mackintosh at Noyon. It is nothing to get wet; but the misery of these individual pricks of cold all over my body at the same instant of time made me flail the water with my paddle like a madman. The Cigarette was greatly amused by these ebullitions. It gave him something else to look at besides clay banks and willows.
Sun and rain alternated like day and night, stretching the hours with their variety. When the rain was heavy, I could feel each drop hitting my jersey and soaking into my warm skin; the combination of those small shocks nearly drove me crazy. I decided to buy a raincoat in Noyon. Getting wet isn’t a big deal, but the misery of those cold pinpricks all over my body at the same time made me paddle like a madman. The Cigarette found my outbursts really entertaining. It gave him something to focus on besides the clay banks and willows.
All the time, the river stole away like a thief in straight places, or swung round corners with an eddy; the willows nodded, and were undermined all day long; the clay banks tumbled in; the Oise, which had been so many centuries making the Golden Valley, seemed to have changed its fancy, and to be bent upon undoing its performance. What a number of things a river does, by simply following Gravity in the innocence of its heart!
All the time, the river slipped away like a thief in open areas or twisted around corners in a swirl; the willows swayed and were eroded all day long; the clay banks crumbled in; the Oise, which had spent centuries shaping the Golden Valley, seemed to have changed its mind and was focused on reversing its work. It’s amazing how many things a river accomplishes just by following Gravity with pure intent!
NOYON CATHEDRAL
Noyon stands about a mile from the river, in a little plain surrounded by wooded hills, and entirely covers an eminence with its tile roofs, surmounted by a long, straight-backed cathedral with two stiff towers. As we got into the town, the tile roofs seemed to tumble uphill one upon another, in the oddest disorder; but for all their scrambling, they did not attain above the knees of the cathedral, which stood, upright and solemn, over all. As the streets drew near to this presiding genius, through the market-place under the Hôtel de Ville, they grew emptier and more composed. Blank walls and shuttered windows were turned to the great edifice, and grass grew on the white causeway. "Put off thy shoes from off thy feet, for the place whereon thou standest is holy ground." The Hôtel du Nord, nevertheless, lights its secular tapers within a stone-cast of the church; and we had the superb east-end before our eyes all morning from the window of our bedroom. I have seldom looked on the east-end of a church with more complete sympathy. As it flanges out in three wide terraces and settles down broadly on the earth, it looks like the poop of some great old battle-ship. Hollow-backed buttresses carry vases, which figure for the stern lanterns. There is a roll in the ground, and the towers just appear above the pitch of the roof, as though the good ship were bowing lazily over an Atlantic swell. At any moment it might be a hundred feet away from you, climbing the next billow. At any moment a window might open, and some old admiral thrust forth a cocked hat, and proceed to take an observation. The old admirals[Pg 87] sail the sea no longer; the old ships of battle are all broken up, and live only in pictures; but this, that was a church before ever they were thought upon, is still a church, and makes as brave an appearance by the Oise. The cathedral and the river are probably the two oldest things for miles around; and certainly they have both a grand old age.
Noyon is about a mile from the river, nestled in a small plain surrounded by wooded hills, and it completely covers a rise with its tile roofs, topped by a long, straight cathedral with two rigid towers. As we entered the town, the tile roofs seemed to tumble uphill in the strangest disarray; but despite their chaotic arrangement, they didn’t reach higher than the knees of the cathedral, which stood tall and solemn above everything. As the streets approached this dominant structure, particularly through the marketplace under the Hôtel de Ville, they became emptier and more peaceful. Blank walls and shuttered windows faced the grand building, and grass grew on the pale path. "Take off your shoes, for the ground you are on is holy." The Hôtel du Nord, however, still lights its worldly candles just a stone's throw from the church, and we had the magnificent east end in view all morning from our bedroom window. I’ve rarely seen the east end of a church with such deep appreciation. As it flares out in three wide terraces and settles broadly on the ground, it resembles the stern of an enormous old battleship. Hollow-backed buttresses support vases that act as the stern lanterns. There’s a dip in the land, with the towers just peeking above the roof line, as if the impressive ship were gently bowing over a swell in the Atlantic. At any moment, it could seem just a hundred feet away from you, climbing the next wave. At any instant, a window might open, and some old admiral could poke his cocked hat out and start taking measurements. The old admirals[Pg 87] no longer sail the seas; the old warships have all been dismantled and live only in images; but this one, which was a church long before they were even imagined, remains a church, still standing proud by the Oise. The cathedral and the river are likely the two oldest things for miles around, and both certainly carry a grand history.
The Sacristan took us to the top of one of the towers, and showed us the five bells hanging in their loft. From above, the town was a tessellated pavement of roofs and gardens; the old line of rampart was plainly traceable; and the Sacristan pointed out to us, far across the plain, in a bit of gleaming sky between two clouds, the towers of Château Coucy.
The Sacristan took us to the top of one of the towers and showed us the five bells hanging in their loft. From up there, the town looked like a patchwork of roofs and gardens; you could clearly see the old rampart line; and the Sacristan pointed out, far across the plain, a piece of bright sky between two clouds where the towers of Château Coucy were visible.
I find I never weary of great churches. It is my favourite kind of mountain scenery. Mankind was never so happily inspired as when it made a cathedral: a thing as single and specious as a statue to the first glance, and yet, on examination, as lively and interesting as a forest in detail. The height of spires cannot be taken by trigonometry; they measure absurdly short, but how tall they are to the admiring eye! And where we have so many elegant proportions, growing one out of the other, and all together into one, it seems as if proportion transcended itself, and became something different and more imposing. I could never fathom how a man dares to lift up his voice to preach in a cathedral. What is he to say that will not be an anti-climax? For though I have heard a considerable variety of sermons, I never yet heard one that was so expressive as a cathedral. 'Tis the best preacher itself, and preaches day and night; not only telling you of man's art and aspirations in the past, but convicting your own soul of ardent sympathies; or rather, like all good preachers, it sets you preaching to yourself;—and every man is his own doctor of divinity in the last resort.
I find that I never get tired of great churches. They're my favorite type of mountain scenery. Humanity has never been so inspired as when it created a cathedral: a thing that looks straightforward and impressive at first glance, but on closer inspection, is as vibrant and fascinating as a forest. The height of spires can’t be measured by trigonometry; they appear frustratingly short, yet how tall they seem to the admiring eye! With so many elegant proportions that grow out of one another and come together as one, it feels like proportion surpasses itself and becomes something more impressive. I could never understand how a person has the courage to preach in a cathedral. What could they possibly say that wouldn’t feel anticlimactic? For even though I've listened to a wide variety of sermons, I've never heard one that was as powerful as a cathedral itself. It’s the best preacher, delivering its message day and night; not only showcasing human artistry and aspirations from the past but also stirring your own soul with deep sympathies; or rather, like all great preachers, it encourages you to reflect on yourself;—and in the end, everyone is their own theologian.
As I sat outside of the hotel in the course of the afternoon, the sweet groaning thunder of the organ floated out[Pg 88] of the church like a summons. I was not averse, liking the theatre so well, to sit out an act or two of the play, but I could never rightly make out the nature of the service I beheld. Four or five priests and as many choristers were singing Miserere before the high altar when I went in. There was no congregation but a few old women on chairs and old men kneeling on the pavement. After a while a long train of young girls, walking two and two, each with a lighted taper in her hand, and all dressed in black with a white veil, came from behind the altar, and began to descend the nave; the four first carrying a Virgin and child upon a table. The priests and choristers arose from their knees and followed after, singing "Ave Mary" as they went. In this order they made the circuit of the cathedral, passing twice before me where I leaned against a pillar. The priest who seemed of most consequence was a strange, down-looking old man. He kept mumbling prayers with his lips; but as he looked upon me darkling, it did not seem as if prayer were uppermost in his heart. Two others, who bore the burthen of the chant, were stout, brutal, military-looking men of forty, with bold, over-fed eyes; they sang with some lustiness, and trolled forth "Ave Mary" like a garrison catch. The little girls were timid and grave. As they footed slowly up the aisle, each one took a moment's glance at the Englishman; and the big nun who played marshal fairly stared him out of countenance. As for the choristers, from first to last they misbehaved as only boys can misbehave; and cruelly marred the performance with their antics.
As I sat outside the hotel in the afternoon, the sweet, groaning sound of the organ floated out[Pg 88] of the church like a call to attention. I didn’t mind sitting through a scene or two of the play, as I enjoyed the theater, but I could never quite figure out what the service was about. When I entered, four or five priests and just as many choir members were singing Miserere in front of the high altar. There wasn’t a congregation, just a few old women sitting in chairs and old men kneeling on the floor. After a while, a long line of young girls walked in pairs, each holding a lit taper and all dressed in black with a white veil, coming from behind the altar and starting to walk down the nave; the first four were carrying a Virgin and child on a table. The priests and choir members got up from their knees and followed behind, singing "Ave Mary" as they moved. In this procession, they made their way around the cathedral, passing me twice as I leaned against a pillar. The priest who seemed most important was a strange-looking, downcast old man. He kept mumbling prayers under his breath, but when he glanced at me, it didn’t seem like prayer was the main focus in his mind. Two others, who led the chant, were stout, rugged-looking men around forty, with bold, overfed eyes; they sang heartily and belted out "Ave Mary" like a military ditty. The little girls were shy and serious. As they walked slowly up the aisle, each one stole a quick look at the Englishman; the large nun acting as the leader stared him down. As for the choir members, they misbehaved in a way only boys can, disrupting the performance with their antics.
I understood a great deal of the spirit of what went on. Indeed it would be difficult not to understand the Miserere, which I take to be the composition of an atheist. If it ever be a good thing to take such despondency to heart, the Miserere is the right music, and a cathedral a fit scene. So far I am at one with the Catholics:—an odd name for them, after all? But why, in God's name,[Pg 89] these holiday choristers? why these priests who steal wandering looks about the congregation while they feign to be at prayer? why this fat nun, who rudely arranges her procession and shakes delinquent virgins by the elbow? why this spitting, and snuffing, and forgetting of keys, and the thousand and one little misadventures that disturb a frame of mind laboriously edified with chants and organings? In any playhouse reverend fathers may see what can be done with a little art, and how, to move high sentiments, it is necessary to drill the supernumeraries and have every stool in its proper place.
I got a pretty good sense of the overall vibe of what happened. Honestly, it would be hard not to grasp the Miserere, which I believe is written by an atheist. If there’s ever a good reason to let such sadness sink in, the Miserere is perfect for it, and a cathedral is just the right setting. So far, I agree with the Catholics:—an odd name for them, after all? But why, for God’s sake, [Pg 89] these holiday singers? Why these priests who keep glancing at the congregation while pretending to pray? Why this plump nun, who harshly organizes her procession and jabs at misbehaving virgins? Why all this spitting, sniffling, and losing track of keys, along with the countless little mishaps that break the mood meticulously crafted with chants and organ music? In any theater, reverend fathers can see what can be achieved with a bit of skill, and how to evoke deep feelings, it’s crucial to train the extras and ensure every chair is in its right spot.
One other circumstance distressed me. I could bear a Miserere myself, having had a good deal of open-air exercise of late; but I wished the old people somewhere else. It was neither the right sort of music nor the right sort of divinity for men and women who have come through most accidents by this time, and probably have an opinion of their own upon the tragic element in life. A person up in years can generally do his own Miserere for himself; although I notice that such an one often prefers Jubilate Deo for his ordinary singing. On the whole, the most religious exercise for the aged is probably to recall their own experience; so many friends dead, so many hopes disappointed, so many slips and stumbles, and withal so many bright days and smiling providences; there is surely the matter of a very eloquent sermon in all this.
One other thing troubled me. I could handle a Miserere myself, since I’ve been getting a lot of fresh air lately; but I wanted the elderly to be somewhere else. It wasn’t the right kind of music or the right kind of spirituality for people who have been through so much and likely have their own views on the tragic side of life. Older individuals usually can reflect on their own Miserere; however, I notice they often prefer Jubilate Deo for their everyday singing. Overall, the most meaningful activity for the elderly might be to remember their own experiences: so many friends lost, so many disappointments, so many missteps, yet also so many joyful moments and happy blessings; there is definitely the substance of a very powerful sermon in all this.
On the whole, I was greatly solemnized. In the little pictorial map of our whole Inland Voyage, which my fancy still preserves, and sometimes unrolls for the amusement of odd moments, Noyon cathedral figures on a most preposterous scale, and must be nearly as large as a department. I can still see the faces of the priests as if they were at my elbow, and hear Ave Maria, ora pro nobis, sounding through the church. All Noyon is blotted out for me by these superior memories; and I do not care to say more about the place. It was but a stack of brown[Pg 90] roofs at the best, where I believe people live very reputably in a quiet way; but the shadow of the church falls upon it when the sun is low, and the five bells are heard in all quarters, telling that the organ has begun. If ever I join the Church of Rome, I shall stipulate to be Bishop of Noyon on the Oise.
Overall, I felt very serious. In the little pictorial map of our entire Inland Voyage, which my imagination still keeps and sometimes rolls out for fun during odd moments, Noyon cathedral appears on a totally exaggerated scale, almost as big as a department store. I can still picture the priests’ faces as if they were right next to me, and hear Ave Maria, ora pro nobis echoing through the church. All of Noyon is overshadowed for me by these stronger memories, and I don’t want to say much more about the place. It was just a collection of brown[Pg 90] roofs at best, where I think people live quite respectably in a peaceful way; but the shadow of the church falls over it when the sun is low, and the five bells can be heard from everywhere, announcing that the organ has started. If I ever join the Roman Catholic Church, I’ll demand to be the Bishop of Noyon on the Oise.
DOWN THE OISE
TO COMPIÈGNE
The most patient people grow weary at last with being continually wetted with rain; except of course in the Scottish Highlands, where there are not enough fine intervals to point the difference. That was like to be our case, the day we left Noyon. I remember nothing of the voyage; it was nothing but clay banks and willows, and rain; incessant, pitiless, beating rain; until we stopped to lunch at a little inn at Pimprez, where the canal ran very near the river. We were so sadly drenched that the landlady lit a few sticks in the chimney for our comfort; there we sat in a steam of vapour, lamenting our concerns. The husband donned a game-bag and strode out to shoot; the wife sat in a far corner watching us. I think we were worth looking at. We grumbled over the misfortune of La Fère; we forecast other La Fères in the future;—although things went better with the Cigarette for spokesman; he had more aplomb altogether than I; and a dull, positive way of approaching a landlady that carried off the india-rubber bags. Talking of La Fère put us talking of the reservists.
The most patient people eventually get tired of being constantly soaked by rain; unless, of course, you're in the Scottish Highlands, where there aren’t enough nice breaks to notice the difference. That was how it felt the day we left Noyon. I don’t remember much about the journey; it was just muddy banks, willows, and rain—endless, relentless, pounding rain—until we stopped for lunch at a little inn in Pimprez, where the canal ran very close to the river. We were so completely soaked that the landlady lit a few sticks in the fireplace for our comfort; we sat there in a cloud of steam, lamenting our troubles. The husband grabbed a game-bag and headed out to hunt; the wife sat in a corner watching us. I think we were an interesting sight. We grumbled about the misfortune of La Fère and speculated about more La Fères to come—though things went better with the Cigarette as the spokesperson; he had a lot more confidence than I did and a straightforward way of dealing with the landlady that managed to ease the tension. Talking about La Fère led us to discuss the reservists.
"Reservery," said he, "seems a pretty mean way to spend one's autumn holiday."
"Reservery," he said, "seems like a pretty lame way to spend your autumn break."
"About as mean," returned I dejectedly, "as canoeing."
"About as tough," I replied sadly, "as canoeing."
"These gentlemen travel for their pleasure?" asked the landlady, with unconscious irony.
"Are these gentlemen traveling for pleasure?" asked the landlady, with an unconscious sense of irony.
It was too much. The scales fell from our eyes. Another wet day, it was determined, and we put the boats into the train.[Pg 92]
It was overwhelming. The truth became clear to us. It was another rainy day, and we loaded the boats onto the train.[Pg 92]
The weather took the hint. That was our last wetting. The afternoon faired up: grand clouds still voyaged in the sky, but now singly, and with a depth of blue around their path; and a sunset in the daintiest rose and gold inaugurated a thick night of stars and a month of unbroken weather. At the same time, the river began to give us a better outlook into the country. The banks were not so high, the willows disappeared from along the margin, and pleasant hills stood all along its course and marked their profile on the sky.
The weather got the message. That was our last rain. The afternoon cleared up: big clouds drifted across the sky, but now they were solitary and surrounded by a bright blue backdrop; a sunset in the softest pink and gold marked the beginning of a dark night filled with stars and a month of clear weather. At the same time, the river started to provide us with a clearer view of the countryside. The banks weren’t as high, the willows were gone from the edges, and lovely hills lined its banks, making their shapes stand out against the sky.
In a little while the canal, coming to its last lock, began to discharge its water-houses on the Oise; so that we had no lack of company to fear. Here were all our old friends; the Deo Gratias of Condé and the Four Sons of Aymon journeyed cheerily down stream along with us; we exchanged waterside pleasantries with the steersman perched among the lumber, or the driver hoarse with bawling to his horses; and the children came and looked over the side as we paddled by. We had never known all this while how much we missed them; but it gave us a fillip to see the smoke from their chimneys.
In a little while, the canal, reaching its last lock, started to let its water flow into the Oise; so we didn't have to worry about being lonely. Here were all our old friends; the Deo Gratias from Condé and the Four Sons of Aymon happily traveled downstream with us; we exchanged casual remarks with the steersman sitting among the cargo, or the driver yelling at his horses; and the kids came over to look as we paddled by. We hadn’t realized how much we missed them until we saw the smoke rising from their chimneys.
A little below this junction we made another meeting of yet more account. For there we were joined by the Aìsne, already a far-travelled river and fresh out of Champagne. Here ended the adolescence of the Oise; this was his marriage-day; thenceforward he had a stately, brimming march, conscious of his own dignity and sundry dams. He became a tranquil feature in the scene. The trees and towns saw themselves in him, as in a mirror. He carried the canoes lightly on his broad breast; there was no need to work hard against an eddy: but idleness became the order of the day, and mere straightforward dipping of the paddle, now on this side, now on that, without intelligence or effort. Truly we were coming into halcyon weather upon all accounts, and were floated towards the sea like gentlemen.
A little down from this junction, we had another significant meeting. There, we were joined by the Aïsne, which was already a well-traveled river and freshly out of Champagne. Here, the Oise entered its adulthood; this was the day it became fully formed. From then on, it had a dignified, flowing journey, aware of its own importance and various dams. It became a calm part of the landscape. The trees and towns saw their reflections in it, like in a mirror. It carried the canoes effortlessly on its wide surface; there was no need to struggle against any currents: instead, laziness became the norm, with simple, straightforward paddling—now on this side, now on that—without much thought or effort. Indeed, we were entering peaceful times in every sense, being carried toward the sea like gentlemen.
We made Compiègne as the sun was going down: a[Pg 93] fine profile of a town above the river. Over the bridge, a regiment was parading to the drum. People loitered on the quay, some fishing, some looking idly at the stream. And as the two boats shot in along the water, we could see them pointing them out and speaking one to another. We landed at a floating lavatory, where the washerwomen were still beating the clothes.
We arrived in Compiègne as the sun was setting: a[Pg 93] beautiful view of a town above the river. Over the bridge, a regiment was marching to the beat of a drum. People were hanging out on the quay, some fishing, others just watching the water. As the two boats came in along the river, we noticed them pointing and chatting with each other. We docked at a floating restroom, where the washerwomen were still scrubbing the clothes.
AT COMPIÈGNE
We put up at a big, bustling hotel in Compiègne, where nobody observed our presence.
We stayed at a large, busy hotel in Compiègne, where no one noticed we were there.
Reservery and general militarismus (as the Germans call it) were rampant. A camp of conical white tents without the town looked like a leaf out of a picture Bible; sword-belts decorated the walls of the cafés, and the streets kept sounding all day long with military music. It was not possible to be an Englishman and avoid a feeling of elation; for the men who followed the drums were small, and walked shabbily. Each man inclined at his own angle, and jolted to his own convenience, as he went. There was nothing of the superb gait with which a regiment of tall Highlanders moves behind its music, solemn and inevitable, like a natural phenomenon. Who that has seen it can forget the drum-major pacing in front, the drummers' tiger-skins, the pipers' swinging plaids, the strange elastic rhythm of the whole regiment footing it in time—and the bang of the drum, when the brasses cease, and the shrill pipes take up the martial story in their place?
Reserves and general militarismus (as the Germans call it) were everywhere. A camp of conical white tents outside the town looked like a scene from a picture Bible; sword-belts decorated the walls of the cafés, and the streets echoed all day with military music. It was impossible to be an Englishman and not feel a sense of pride; the men marching to the drums were small and looked shabby. Each man walked at his own angle, moving to his own rhythm as he went. There was none of the impressive stride of a regiment of tall Highlanders moving behind their music, solemn and inevitable, like a natural phenomenon. Who can forget the drum-major strutting in front, the drummers in tiger-skins, the pipers in swinging plaids, the unique elastic rhythm of the whole regiment marching in time—and the bang of the drum when the brass instruments stop, and the shrill pipes pick up the martial tale in their place?
A girl, at school in France, began to describe one of our regiments on parade to her French schoolmates, and as she went on, she told me, the recollection grew so vivid, she became so proud to be the countrywoman of such soldiers, and so sorry to be in another country, that her voice failed her and she burst into tears. I have never forgotten that girl; and I think she very nearly deserves a statue. To call her a young lady, with all its niminy associations, would be to offer her an insult. She may rest assured of one thing: although she never should[Pg 95] marry a heroic general, never see any great or immediate result of her life, she will not have lived in vain for her native land.
A girl, studying in France, started to tell her French classmates about one of our regiments during a parade. As she talked, she told me that the memory became so vivid, she felt so proud to be from a country with such soldiers, and so sad to be in another country, that her voice broke and she started to cry. I've never forgotten that girl, and I believe she almost deserves a statue. Calling her a young lady, with all its trivial associations, would be an insult. She can be sure of one thing: even if she never marries a heroic general or sees any great or immediate outcome from her life, she won't have lived in vain for her homeland.
But though French soldiers show to ill advantage on parade, on the march they are gay, alert, and willing like a troop of fox-hunters. I remember once seeing a company pass through the forest of Fontainebleau, on the Chailly road, between the Bas Bréau and the Reine Blanche. One fellow walked a little before the rest, and sang a loud, audacious marching song. The rest bestirred their feet, and even swung their muskets in time. A young officer on horseback had hard ado to keep his countenance at the words. You never saw anything so cheerful and spontaneous as their gait; schoolboys do not look more eagerly at hare and hounds; and you would have thought it impossible to tire such willing marchers.
But even though French soldiers don't look great on parade, they are cheerful, alert, and eager on the march, like a group of fox hunters. I remember seeing a company pass through the forest of Fontainebleau, along the Chailly road, between the Bas Bréau and the Reine Blanche. One guy walked a little ahead of the others and sang a loud, bold marching song. The rest picked up their pace and even swung their muskets in time. A young officer on horseback had a hard time keeping a straight face at the lyrics. You’ve never seen anything as cheerful and spontaneous as their walk; schoolboys don’t look more eagerly at a hunt; and you would have thought it was impossible to tire out such eager marchers.
My great delight in Compiègne was the town-hall. I doted upon the town-hall. It is a monument of Gothic insecurity, all turreted, and gargoyled, and slashed, and bedizened with half a score of architectural fancies. Some of the niches are gilt and painted; and in a great square panel in the centre, in black relief on a gilt ground, Louis XII. rides upon a pacing horse, with hand on hip and head thrown back. There is royal arrogance in every line of him; the stirruped foot projects insolently from the frame; the eye is hard and proud; the very horse seems to be treading with gratification over prostrate serfs, and to have the breath of the trumpet in his nostrils. So rides for ever, on the front of the town-hall, the good king Louis XII., the father of his people.
My great delight in Compiègne was the town hall. I loved the town hall. It’s a monument of Gothic uncertainty, all turreted, and gargoyle-adorned, and filled with a mix of architectural styles. Some of the niches are gilded and painted; in a large square panel in the center, in black relief on a gold background, Louis XII rides on a steady horse, with his hand on his hip and his head thrown back. There’s royal arrogance in every line of him; his foot in the stirrup sticks out defiantly from the frame; his eye is hard and proud; even the horse seems to stride with satisfaction over fallen serfs, as if it can smell the trumpet in its nostrils. So rides forever, on the front of the town hall, the good king Louis XII, the father of his people.
Over the king's head, in the tall centre turret, appears the dial of a clock; and high above that, three little mechanical figures, each one with a hammer in his hand, whose business it is to chime out the hours and halves and quarters for the burgesses of Compiègne. The centre figure has a gilt breast-plate; the two others wear gilt[Pg 96] trunk-hose; and they all three have elegant, flapping hats like cavaliers. As the quarter approaches, they turn their heads and look knowingly one to the other; and then, kling go the three hammers on three little bells below. The hour follows, deep and sonorous, from the interior of the tower; and the gilded gentlemen rest from their labours with contentment.
Over the king's head, in the tall center turret, there's a clock face; and high above that, three little mechanical figures, each holding a hammer, chime out the hours, halves, and quarters for the folks of Compiègne. The center figure has a golden breastplate; the other two wear gold trunk-hose; and all three sport elegant, floppy hats like gentlemen. As the quarter approaches, they look at each other knowingly; then, kling, the three hammers strike three little bells below. The hour rings out, loud and resonant, from inside the tower; and the gilded figures take a break from their work, satisfied.
I had a great deal of healthy pleasure from their manoeuvres, and took good care to miss as few performances as possible; and I found that even the Cigarette, while he pretended to despise my enthusiasm, was more or less a devotee himself. There is something highly absurd in the exposition of such toys to the outrages of winter on a housetop. They would be more in keeping in a glass case before a Nürnberg clock. Above all, at night, when the children are abed, and even grown people are snoring under quilts, does it not seem impertinent to leave these ginger-bread figures winking and tinkling to the stars and the rolling moon? The gargoyles may fitly enough twist their ape-like heads; fitly enough may the potentate bestride his charger, like a centurion in an old German print of the Via Dolorosa; but the toys should be put away in a box among some cotton, until the sun rises, and the children are abroad again to be amused.
I got a lot of joy out of their performances and made sure to catch as many as I could. I noticed that even the Cigarette, who acted like he looked down on my enthusiasm, was somewhat of a fan himself. There's something really ridiculous about putting such toys out in the harsh winter on a rooftop. They would fit better in a glass case in front of a Nürnberg clock. Especially at night, when the kids are asleep and even adults are snoring under blankets, doesn’t it seem rude to leave these gingerbread figures blinking and chiming at the stars and the moon? The gargoyles might rightfully twist their ape-like heads; the ruler might properly sit on his horse like a centurion in an old German print of the Via Dolorosa; but the toys should be stored away in a box with some cotton until the sun comes up and the kids are awake again to play.
In Compiègne post-office a great packet of letters awaited us; and the authorities were, for this occasion only, so polite as to hand them over upon application.
In the Compiègne post office, a large bundle of letters was waiting for us; and the authorities were, just for this occasion, very polite and handed them over when we asked.
In some ways, our journey may be said to end with this letter-bag at Compiègne. The spell was broken. We had partly come home from that moment.
In some ways, our journey could be said to end with this letter-bag at Compiègne. The enchantment was broken. We had somewhat returned home from that moment.
No one should have any correspondence on a journey; it is bad enough to have to write, but the receipt of letters is the death of all holiday feeling.
No one should have any communication while traveling; it's bad enough to have to write, but getting letters totally kills the holiday vibe.
"Out of my country and myself I go." I wish to take a dive among new conditions for a while, as into another element. I have nothing to do with my friends[Pg 97] or my affections for the time; when I came away, I left my heart at home in a desk, or sent it forward with my portmanteau to await me at my destination. After my journey is over, I shall not fail to read your admirable letters with the attention they deserve. But I have paid all this money, look you, and paddled all these strokes, for no other purpose than to be abroad; and yet you keep me at home with your perpetual communications. You tug the string, and I feel that I am a tethered bird. You pursue me all over Europe with the little vexations that I came away to avoid. There is no discharge in the war of life, I am well aware; but shall there not be so much as a week's furlough?
"Leaving behind my country and myself." I want to immerse myself in new experiences for a while, almost like entering a different world. I don't want anything to do with my friends[Pg 97] or my emotions right now; when I left, I left my heart at home in a drawer, or I sent it ahead with my suitcase to wait for me at my destination. Once my trip is over, I’ll definitely read your wonderful letters with the attention they deserve. But I've spent all this money and put in all this effort just to be away, and yet you keep pulling me back home with your constant messages. You pull the string, and I feel like a bird on a leash. You chase me all over Europe with the little annoyances I wanted to escape from. I know there’s no way out in the battle of life, but can’t I at least have a week off?
We were up by six, the day we were to leave. They had taken so little note of us that I hardly thought they would have condescended on a bill. But they did, with some smart particulars too, and we paid in a civilized manner to an uninterested clerk, and went out of that hotel, with the india-rubber bags, unremarked. No one cared to know about us. It is not possible to rise before a village; but Compiègne was so grown a town, that it took its ease in the morning, and we were up and away while it was still in dressing-gown and slippers. The streets were left to people washing doorsteps; nobody was in full dress but the cavaliers upon the town-hall; they were all washed with dew, spruce in their gilding, and full of intelligence and a sense of professional responsibility. Kling went they on the bells for the half-past six as we went by. I took it kindly of them to make me this parting compliment; they never were in better form, not even at noon upon a Sunday.
We were up by six on the day we were leaving. They had paid so little attention to us that I didn't think they would even bother with a bill. But they did, with some fancy details too, and we paid politely to an uninterested clerk, then walked out of that hotel with our rubber bags, unnoticed. No one cared to know about us. It's impossible to wake up a village; but Compiègne was such a big town that it took its time in the morning, and we were up and gone while it was still lounging in its pajamas. The streets were left to people washing doorsteps; nobody was dressed up except for the figures on the town hall; they were all fresh with dew, sharp in their gold, and full of awareness and a sense of duty. Kling sounded on the bells for the half-past six as we walked by. I appreciated their thoughtfulness in giving me this farewell gesture; they had never looked better, not even at noon on a Sunday.
There was no one to see us off but the early washerwomen—early and late—who were already beating the linen in their floating lavatory on the river. They were very merry and matutinal in their ways; plunged their arms boldly in, and seemed not to feel the shock. It would be dispiriting to me, this early beginning and first[Pg 98] cold dabble of a most dispiriting day's work. But I believe they would have been as unwilling to change days with us as we could be to change with them. They crowded to the door to watch us paddle away into the thin sunny mists upon the river; and shouted heartily alter us till we were through the bridge.
There was no one to see us off except the early washerwomen—early and late—who were already scrubbing the linen in their floating wash station on the river. They were cheerful and early risers; they plunged their arms in boldly and didn’t seem to feel the cold. This early start and the first chill of a very discouraging day of work would have been disheartening for me. But I believe they would have been just as unwilling to switch places with us as we would be to switch with them. They gathered at the door to watch us paddle away into the thin, sunny mists on the river and cheered us on until we passed through the bridge.
CHANGED TIMES
There is a sense in which those mists never rose from off our journey; and from that time forth they lie very densely in my note-book. As long as the Oise was a small rural river, it took us near by people's doors, and we could hold a conversation with natives in the riparian fields. But now that it had grown so wide, the life along shore passed us by at a distance. It was the same difference as between a great public highway and a country by-path that wanders in and out of cottage gardens. We now lay in towns, where nobody troubled us with questions; we had floated into civilized life, where people pass without salutation. In sparsely inhabited places, we make all we can of each encounter; but when it comes to a city, we keep to ourselves, and never speak unless we have trodden on a man's toes. In these waters we were no longer strange birds, and nobody supposed we had travelled farther than from the last town. I remember, when we came into L'Isle Adam, for instance, how we met dozens of pleasure-boats outing it for the afternoon, and there was nothing to distinguish the true voyager from the amateur, except, perhaps, the filthy condition of my sail. The company in one boat actually thought they recognized me for a neighbour. Was there ever anything more wounding? All the romance had come down to that. Now, on the upper Oise, where nothing sailed as a general thing but fish, a pair of canoeists could not be thus vulgarly explained away; we were strange and picturesque intruders; and out of people's wonder sprang a sort of light and passing intimacy all along our route. There is nothing but tit-for-tat in this[Pg 100] world, though sometimes it be a little difficult to trace: for the scores are older than we ourselves, and there has never yet been a settling-day since things were. You get entertainment pretty much in proportion as you give. As long as we were a sort of odd wanderers, to be stared at and followed like a quack doctor or a caravan, we had no want of amusement in return; but as soon as we sank into commonplace ourselves, all whom we met were similarly disenchanted. And here is one reason of a dozen, why the world is dull to dull persons.
There’s a way in which the mists never cleared from our journey; and from that time on, they sit heavily in my notebook. When the Oise was just a small rural river, it took us close to people’s homes, and we could chat with locals in the riverside fields. But now that it had widened so much, the life along the shore was passing us by at a distance. It was like the difference between a major highway and a country path that meanders through cottage gardens. Now we found ourselves in towns, where no one bothered us with questions; we had drifted into civilized life, where people walk by without greeting. In less populated areas, we made the most of each encounter; but in a city, we kept to ourselves and only spoke if we accidentally stepped on someone’s toes. In these waters, we were no longer unusual travelers, and no one thought we had come from farther than the last town. I remember when we arrived in L'Isle Adam, for example, how we encountered dozens of pleasure boats out for the afternoon, and there was nothing to set the true traveler apart from the amateur, except maybe the messy state of my sail. The people in one boat even thought they recognized me as a neighbor. Could anything be more hurtful? All the romance boiled down to that. Now, on the upper Oise, where generally only fish moved through the waters, a pair of canoeists couldn’t be so easily dismissed; we were curious and picturesque intruders, and people’s wonder created a kind of light and fleeting connection along our journey. There’s only tit-for-tat in this[Pg 100] world, even if it’s sometimes hard to trace: the debts are older than we are, and there’s never been a settling day since things began. You get enjoyment pretty much in proportion to what you give. As long as we were a sort of odd wanderers, being stared at and followed like a quack doctor or a caravan, we had plenty of amusement in return; but the moment we blended into the ordinary, everyone we met became equally disenchanted. And that’s one reason among many why the world is dull to dull people.
In our earlier adventures there was generally something to do, and that quickened us. Even the showers of rain had a revivifying effect, and shook up the brain from torpor. But now, when the river no longer ran in a proper sense, only glided seaward with an even, out-right, but imperceptible speed, and when the sky smiled upon us day after day without variety, we began to slip into that golden doze of the mind which follows upon much exercise in the open air. I have stupefied myself in this way more than once; indeed, I dearly love the feeling; but I never had it to the same degree as when paddling down the Oise. It was the apotheosis of stupidity.
In our earlier adventures, there was usually something to keep us engaged, and that energized us. Even the rain showers had a refreshing effect, shaking us out of dullness. But now, with the river no longer flowing properly, just gliding toward the sea at a smooth, unnoticeable pace, and with the sky smiling at us day after day without any change, we started to drift into that golden stupor of the mind that comes after spending a lot of time outdoors. I’ve experienced this kind of daze more than once; honestly, I really enjoy it; but I’ve never felt it as intensely as when paddling down the Oise. It was the ultimate in dullness.
We ceased reading entirely. Sometimes when I found a new paper, I took a particular pleasure in reading a single number of the current novel; but I never could bear more than three installments; and even the second was a disappointment. As soon as the tale became in any way perspicuous, it lost all merit in my eyes; only a single scene, or, as is the way with these feuilletons, half a scene, without antecedent or consequence, like a piece of a dream, had the knack of fixing my interest. The less I saw of the novel, the better I liked it: a pregnant reflection. But for the most part, as I said, we neither of us read anything in the world, and employed the very little while we were awake between bed and dinner in poring upon maps. I have always been fond of maps, and can voyage in an atlas with the greatest[Pg 101] enjoyment. The names of places are singularly inviting; the contour of coasts and rivers is enthralling to the eye; and to hit, in a map, upon some place you have heard of before makes history a new possession. But we thumbed our charts on these evenings with the blankest unconcern. We cared not a fraction for this place or that. We stared at the sheet as children listen to their rattle; and read the names of towns or villages to forget them again at once. We had no romance in the matter; there was nobody so fancy-free. If you had taken the maps away while we were studying them most intently, it is a fair bet whether we might not have continued to study the table with the same delight.
We stopped reading entirely. Sometimes when I found a new magazine, I enjoyed reading a single issue of the current novel; but I could never handle more than three parts, and even the second was a letdown. As soon as the story became clear, it lost all appeal for me; only a single scene, or, as is typical with these feuilletons, half a scene, without any background or follow-up, like a piece of a dream, managed to hold my interest. The less I saw of the novel, the more I liked it: a thought-provoking reflection. But for the most part, as I mentioned, we didn’t read anything at all, and spent the little time we were awake between bed and dinner poring over maps. I have always loved maps and can explore an atlas with the greatest[Pg 101] enjoyment. The names of places are particularly enticing; the shapes of coastlines and rivers are captivating to the eye; and discovering a location on a map that you’ve heard of before makes history feel fresh. But on those evenings, we flipped through our maps with the utmost indifference. We didn’t care at all about this place or that. We stared at the page like kids listening to their rattle, reading the names of towns or villages only to forget them immediately. There was no romance in it; no one was feeling adventurous. If you had taken the maps away while we were most focused on them, it’s a good bet we would have kept studying the table with the same enjoyment.
About one thing we were mightily taken up, and that was eating. I think I made a god of my belly. I remember dwelling in imagination upon this or that dish till my mouth watered; and long before we got in for the night my appetite was a clamant, instant annoyance. Sometimes we paddled alongside for a while, and whetted each other with gastronomical fancies as we went. Cake and sherry, a homely refection, but not within reach upon the Oise, trotted through my head for many a mile; and once, as we were approaching Verberie, the Cigarette brought my heart into my mouth by the suggestion of oyster patties and Sauterne.
About one thing we were really focused on, and that was eating. I think I made a god of my stomach. I remember imagining this or that dish until my mouth watered; and long before we settled in for the night, my hunger was a loud, constant annoyance. Sometimes we paddled alongside each other for a while and excited each other with food fantasies as we went. Cake and sherry, a simple treat, but not available on the Oise, crossed my mind for many miles; and once, as we were getting close to Verberie, the Cigarette made my heart race with thoughts of oyster patties and Sauterne.
I suppose none of us recognise the great part that is played in life by eating and drinking. The appetite is so imperious that we can stomach the least interesting viands, and pass off a dinner-hour thankfully enough on bread and water; just as there are men who must read something, if it were only "Bradshaw's Guide." But there is a romance about the matter after all. Probably the table has more devotees than love; and I am sure that food is much more generally entertaining than scenery. Do you give in, as Walt Whitman would say, that you are any the less immortal for that? The true materialism is to be ashamed of what we are. To detect the flavour of[Pg 102] aean olive is no less a piece of human perfection than to find beauty in the colours of the sunset.
I guess none of us really notice how important eating and drinking are in life. Our appetite is so powerful that we can enjoy even the dullest meals and get through a dinner hour just fine with bread and water; just like some people need to read something, even if it's just "Bradshaw's Guide." But there’s a certain romance to it all. It’s likely that food has more fans than love does, and I'm pretty sure that eating is way more entertaining than just looking at pretty views. Do you accept, as Walt Whitman would put it, that you’re not any less immortal because of it? The real materialism is being embarrassed about who we are. Savoring the taste of an olive is just as much a mark of human perfection as appreciating the colors of a sunset.
Canoeing was easy work. To dip the paddle at the proper inclination, now right, now left; to keep the head down stream; to empty the little pool that gathered in the lap of the apron; to screw up the eyes against the glittering sparkles of sun upon the water; or now and again to pass below the whistling tow-rope of the Deo Gratias of Condé, or the Four Sons of Aymon—there was not much art in that; certain silly muscles managed it between sleep and waking; and meanwhile the brain had a whole holiday, and went to sleep. We took in, at a glance, the larger features of the scene; and beheld, with half an eye, bloused fishers and dabbling washerwomen on the bank. Now and again we might be half-wakened by some church spire, by a leaping fish, or by a trail of river grass that clung about the paddle and had to be plucked off and thrown away. But these luminous intervals were only partially luminous. A little more of us was called into action, but never the whole. The central bureau of nerves, what in some moods we call Ourselves, enjoyed its holiday without disturbance, like a Government office. The great wheels of intelligence turned idly in the head, like fly-wheels, grinding no grist. I have gone on for half an hour at a time, counting my strokes and forgetting the hundreds. I flatter myself the beasts that perish could not underbid that, as a low form of consciousness. And what a pleasure it was! What a hearty, tolerant temper did it bring about! There is nothing captious about a man who has attained to this, the one possible apotheosis in life, the Apotheosis of Stupidity; and he begins to feel dignified and longaevous like a tree.
Canoeing was easy. Just dipping the paddle at the right angle, sometimes right, sometimes left; keeping my head downstream; clearing the small pool that formed in my lap; squinting against the dazzling sun on the water; or occasionally passing below the whistling tow-rope of the Deo Gratias of Condé, or the Four Sons of Aymon—there wasn’t much skill involved; certain muscles took care of it while I drifted between sleep and wakefulness; meanwhile, my mind was on a complete break, falling asleep. We casually took in the bigger aspects of the scenery, noticing some fishermen in their clothes and washerwomen by the riverbank. Every now and then, we might be half-woken by a church steeple, a fish jumping, or a clump of river grass that clung to the paddle and needed to be removed and tossed aside. But these shining moments were only slightly bright. A bit more of us was engaged, but never fully. The main part of our nerves, what we sometimes call Ourselves, enjoyed its break without interruption, like a government office. The big wheels of thought turned lazily in our heads, like flywheels, grinding nothing at all. I could paddle for half an hour at a time, counting my strokes while forgetting the hundreds. I like to think that even the least aware of creatures couldn’t do worse than that. And how enjoyable it was! It created such a wholesome, accepting attitude! There’s nothing critical about someone who has reached this, the one possible high point in life, the Apotheosis of Stupidity; and he starts to feel dignified and enduring like a tree.
There was one odd piece of practical metaphysics which accompanied what I may call the depth, if I must not call it the intensity, of my abstraction. What philosophers call me and not-me, ego and non ego, preoccupied me[Pg 103] whether I would or no. There was less me and more not-me than I was accustomed to expect. I looked on upon somebody else, who managed the paddling; I was aware of somebody else's feet against the stretcher; my own body seemed to have no more intimate relation to me than the canoe, or the river, or the river banks. Nor this alone: something inside my mind, a part of my brain, a province of my proper being, had thrown off allegiance and set up for itself, or perhaps for the somebody else who did the paddling. I had dwindled into quite a little thing in a corner of myself. I was isolated in my own skull. Thoughts presented themselves unbidden; they were not my thoughts, they were plainly some one else's; and I considered them like a part of the landscape. I take it, in short, that I was about as near Nirvana as would be convenient in practical life; and if this be so, I make the Buddhists my sincere compliments; 'tis an agreeable state, not very consistent with mental brilliancy, not exactly profitable in a money point of view, but very calm, golden, and incurious, and one that sets a man superior to alarms. It may be best figured by supposing yourself to get dead drunk, and yet keep sober to enjoy it. I have a notion that open-air labourers must spend a large portion of their days in this ecstatic stupor, which explains their high composure and endurance. A pity to go to the expense of laudanum, when here is a better paradise for nothing!
There was one strange aspect of practical metaphysics that went along with what I might call the depth, if I can’t call it the intensity, of my daydreaming. What philosophers refer to as me and not-me, ego and non-ego, occupied my mind[Pg 103] whether I wanted it to or not. There was less me and more not-me than I usually expected. I felt like I was observing someone else who controlled the paddling; I was aware of someone else's feet against the stretcher; my own body seemed to have no closer connection to me than the canoe, the river, or the riverbanks. And not only that: something in my mind, a part of my brain, a section of my existence, had stepped away from loyalty and set up its own autonomy, or maybe for the someone else who was doing the paddling. I had shrunk down to a tiny thing in a corner of myself. I felt isolated in my own head. Thoughts popped up uninvited; they weren’t my thoughts; they were clearly someone else's; and I regarded them like part of the scenery. In short, I felt like I was as close to Nirvana as could be practical in daily life; and if that’s the case, I sincerely commend the Buddhists; it’s a pleasant state that isn’t very compatible with mental sharpness, not exactly useful for making money, but very calm, golden, and indifferent, putting a person above stress. You could best imagine it as being dead drunk and yet able to enjoy it soberly. I suspect that manual laborers spend much of their day in this blissful stupor, which explains their remarkable calm and endurance. It’s a shame to spend money on laudanum when here’s a better paradise for free!
This frame of mind was the great exploit of our voyage, take it all in all. It was the farthest piece of travel accomplished. Indeed, it lies so far from beaten paths of language, that I despair of getting the reader into sympathy with the smiling, complacent idiocy of my condition; when ideas came and went like motes in a sunbeam; when trees and church spires along the bank surged up, from time to time into my notice, like solid objects through a rolling cloudland; when the rhythmical swish of boat and paddle in the water became a cradle-song to lull my[Pg 104] thoughts asleep; when a piece of mud on the deck was sometimes an intolerable eyesore, and sometimes quite a companion for me, and the object of pleased consideration;—and all the time, with the river running and the shores changing upon either hand, I kept counting my strokes and forgetting the hundreds, the happiest animal in France.
This mindset was the highlight of our journey, when you consider everything. It was the farthest we traveled. In fact, it strays so far from normal language that I worry about getting the reader to understand the cheerful, oblivious foolishness of my state; when ideas floated in and out like dust particles in sunlight; when trees and church spires along the riverbank occasionally caught my attention, like solid shapes through a moving dreamscape; when the soothing sound of the boat and paddle in the water became a lullaby to send my[Pg 104] thoughts to sleep; when a clump of mud on the deck was sometimes an annoying eyesore, and other times felt like a familiar companion that I appreciated;—and all the while, with the river flowing and the landscape changing on both sides, I continued counting my strokes and forgetting the hundreds, the happiest creature in France.
DOWN THE OISE
CHURCH INTERIORS
We made our first stage below Compiègne to Pont Sainte Maxence. I was abroad a little after six the next morning. The air was biting, and smelt of frost. In an open place a score of women wrangled together over the day's market; and the noise of their negotiation sounded thin and querulous like that of sparrows on a winter's morning. The rare passengers blew into their hands, and shuffled in their wooden shoes to set the blood agog. The streets were full of icy shadow, although the chimneys were smoking overhead in golden sunshine. If you wake early enough at this season of the year, you may get up in December to break your fast in June.
We made our first stop below Compiègne at Pont Sainte Maxence. I was up a little after six the next morning. The air was chilly and smelled like frost. In an open area, a group of women were arguing over that day's market; their voices sounded high-pitched and whiny like sparrows on a winter morning. The few passersby blew into their hands and shuffled in their wooden shoes to get the blood flowing. The streets were filled with icy shadows, even though the chimneys were puffing smoke in the bright sunshine. If you wake up early enough at this time of year, you might feel like you've gotten up in December to have breakfast in June.
I found my way to the church; for there is always something to see about a church, whether living worshipers or dead men's tombs; you find there the deadliest earnest, and the hollowest deceit; and even where it is not a piece of history, it will be certain to leak out some contemporary gossip. It was scarcely so cold in the church as it was without, but it looked colder. The white nave was positively arctic to the eye; and the tawdriness of a continental altar looked more forlorn than usual in the solitude and the bleak air. Two priests sat in the chancel, reading and waiting penitents; and out in the nave, one very old woman was engaged in her devotions. It was a wonder how she was able to pass her beads when healthy young people were breathing in their palms and slapping their chest; but though this concerned me, I was yet more dispirited by the nature of her exercises. She[Pg 106] went from chair to chair, from altar to altar, circumnavigating the church. To each shrine she dedicated an equal number of beads and an equal length of time. Like a prudent capitalist with a somewhat cynical view of the commercial prospect, she desired to place her supplications in a great variety of heavenly securities. She would risk nothing on the credit of any single intercessor. Out of the whole company of saints and angels, not one but was to suppose himself her champion-elect against the Great Assize! I could only think of it as a dull, transparent jugglery, based upon unconscious unbelief.
I made my way to the church because there's always something to see at a church, whether it's people worshiping or tombs of the dead; you find the deepest sincerity and the emptiest deceit there. Even when it's not a piece of history, it’s sure to reveal some contemporary gossip. It was hardly warmer inside the church than outside, but it seemed colder. The white nave looked almost frigid, and the cheapness of a continental altar appeared more desolate than usual in the solitude and chill. Two priests sat in the chancel, reading and waiting for penitents, while out in the nave, one very old woman was lost in prayer. It was amazing how she could manage her beads when healthy young people were breathing into their palms and slapping their chests; yet, I was even more disheartened by the nature of her rituals. She moved from chair to chair, from altar to altar, going around the church. To each shrine, she dedicated the same number of beads and the same amount of time. Like a savvy capitalist with a somewhat cynical view of the market, she wanted to spread her prayers across a wide range of heavenly securities. She wouldn’t risk anything on the reputation of a single intercessor. Out of all the saints and angels, each one was to consider themselves her chosen advocate against the Great Judgment! I could only see it as a dull, transparent trick, rooted in unconscious doubt.
She was as dead an old woman as ever I saw; no more than bone and parchment, curiously put together. Her eyes, with which she interrogated mine, were vacant of sense. It depends on what you call seeing, whether you might not call her blind. Perhaps she had known love: perhaps borne children, suckled them and given them pet names. But now that was all gone by, and had left her neither happier nor wiser; and the best she could do with her mornings was to come up here into the cold church and juggle for a slice of heaven. It was not without a gulp that I escaped into the streets and the keen morning air. Morning? why, how tired of it she would be before night! and if she did not sleep, how then? It is fortunate that not many of us are brought up publicly to justify our lives at the bar of threescore years and ten; fortunate that such a number are knocked opportunely on the head in what they call the flower of their years, and go away to suffer for their follies in private somewhere else. Otherwise, between sick children and discontented old folk, we might be put out of all conceit of life.
She was as dead an old woman as I had ever seen; nothing more than bones and skinny skin, oddly put together. Her eyes, with which she stared into mine, were devoid of understanding. Depending on how you define seeing, you might say she was blind. Maybe she had experienced love; maybe she had given birth, nursed her kids, and given them sweet nicknames. But now all of that was in the past, leaving her neither happier nor wiser; and the best she could manage with her mornings was to come up here into the chilly church and try for a taste of heaven. It was with a gulp that I finally made my way out into the streets and the brisk morning air. Morning? Just think how exhausted she would be by nighttime! And if she didn’t sleep, then what? It’s a good thing not many of us have to publicly defend our lives at the age of seventy; good that so many are conveniently taken out of the game while they are still in their prime and go off to deal with their mistakes somewhere else. Otherwise, with sick kids and unhappy old folks, we might lose all faith in life.
I had need of all my cerebral hygiene during that day's paddle: the old devotee stuck in my throat sorely. But I was soon in the seventh heaven of stupidity; and knew nothing but that somebody was paddling a canoe, while I was counting his strokes, and forgetting the hundreds. I used sometimes to be afraid I should remember the[Pg 107] hundreds; which would have made a toil of a pleasure; but the terror was chimerical, they went out of my mind by enchantment, and I knew no more than the man in the moon about my only occupation.
I needed all my brainpower during that day's canoe trip: the old devotee was really getting to me. But I soon found myself blissfully ignorant; all I knew was that someone was paddling a canoe while I counted his strokes and forgot about the hundreds. Sometimes I worried that I might remember the[Pg 107] hundreds, which would have turned a fun time into a chore, but that fear was just in my head—it vanished like magic, and I was as clueless as someone who has never been to the moon about my one task.
At Creil, where we stopped to lunch, we left the canoes in another floating lavatory, which, as it was high noon, was packed with washerwomen, red-handed and loud-voiced; and they and their broad jokes are about all I remember of the place. I could look up my history-books, if you were very anxious, and tell you a date or two; for it figured rather largely in the English wars. But I prefer to mention a girls' boarding-school, which had an interest for us because it was a girls' boarding-school, and because we imagined we had rather an interest for it. At least—there were the girls about the garden; and here were we on the river; and there was more than one handkerchief waved as we went by. It caused quite a stir in my heart; and yet how we should have wearied and despised each other, these girls and I, if we had been introduced at a croquet party! But this is a fashion I love: to kiss the hand or wave a handkerchief to people I shall never see again, to play with possibility, and knock in a peg for fancy to hang upon. It gives the traveller a jog, reminds him that he is not a traveller everywhere, and that his journey is no more than a siesta by the way on the real march of life.
At Creil, where we stopped for lunch, we left the canoes in another floating restroom, which, since it was high noon, was crowded with washerwomen, all bustling and loud; and their broad jokes are about all I remember from the place. I could look up my history books, if you really wanted, and tell you a date or two; it played a significant role in the English wars. But I'd rather mention a girls' boarding school, which intrigued us because it was a girls' boarding school, and we thought we had a certain interest in it. At least—there were the girls in the garden; and here we were on the river; and more than one handkerchief was waved as we passed by. It stirred something in my heart; and yet how bored and unimpressed we would have been with each other, those girls and I, if we had met at a croquet party! But this is a custom I cherish: to kiss a hand or wave a handkerchief to people I will never see again, to play with possibility, and set the stage for imagination. It gives the traveler a little jolt, reminding them that they are not a traveler everywhere, and that their journey is just a brief pause along the true march of life.
The church at Creil was a nondescript place in the inside, splashed with gaudy lights from the windows, and picked out with medallions of the Dolorous Way. But there was one oddity, in the way of an ex voto, which pleased me hugely: a faithful model of a canal boat, swung from the vault, with a written aspiration that God should conduct the Saint Nicolas of Creil to a good haven. The thing was neatly executed, and would have made the delight of a party of boys on the waterside. But what tickled me was the gravity of the peril to be conjured. You might hang up the model of a sea-going[Pg 108] ship, and welcome: one that is to plough a furrow round the world, and visit the tropic or the frosty poles, runs dangers that are well worth a candle and a mass. But the Saint Nicolas of Creil, which was to be tugged for some ten years by patient draught-horses, in a weedy canal, with the poplars chattering overhead, and the skipper whistling at the tiller; which was to do all its errands in green inland places, and never get out of sight of a village belfry in all its cruising; why, you would have thought if anything could be done without the intervention of Providence, it would be that! But perhaps the skipper was a humorist: or perhaps a prophet, reminding people of the seriousness of life by this preposterous token.
The church in Creil was pretty plain inside, lit up with bright colors from the windows and decorated with medallions of the Dolorous Way. But there was one unusual thing that I really liked: a faithful model of a canal boat hung from the ceiling, with a note asking God to guide the Saint Nicolas of Creil to a safe harbor. It was well-made and would have delighted a group of boys by the water. What amused me was the seriousness of the danger it was meant to ward off. You could hang up a model of a sea-going ship, and that would be fine; a ship that travels the globe and visits tropical or icy places faces risks that definitely warrant a candle and a mass. But the Saint Nicolas of Creil, which was going to be pulled for about ten years by patient draft horses in a weedy canal, with the poplars rustling overhead, and the captain whistling at the helm; which would run all its errands in green countryside and never get out of sight of a village bell tower on its journeys—well, you’d think that if anything could be managed without divine help, it would be that! But maybe the captain was just being funny; or perhaps a prophet, reminding people of the seriousness of life with this ridiculous offering.
At Creil, as at Noyon, Saint Joseph seemed a favourite saint on the score of punctuality. Day and hour can be specified; and grateful people do not fail to specify them on a votive tablet, when prayers have been punctually and neatly answered. Whenever time is a consideration, Saint Joseph is the proper intermediary. I took a sort of pleasure in observing the vogue he had in France, for the good man plays a very small part in my religion at home. Yet I could not help fearing that, where the Saint is so much commended for exactitude, he will be expected to be very grateful for his tablet.
At Creil, just like in Noyon, Saint Joseph seemed to be a popular saint known for his punctuality. Specific days and times can be mentioned, and thankful people make sure to note them on a votive tablet when their prayers have been answered promptly and neatly. Whenever timing matters, Saint Joseph is the go-to mediator. I found it somewhat enjoyable to see how popular he is in France, considering he has a very minor role in my faith back home. However, I couldn’t shake the feeling that, with how much the Saint is praised for his precision, he might feel obligated to thank for his tablet.
This is foolishness to us Protestants; and not of great importance anyway. Whether people's gratitude for the good gifts that come to them be wisely conceived or dutifully expressed is a secondary matter after all, so long as they feel gratitude. The true ignorance is when a man does not know that he has received a good gift, or begins to imagine that he has got it for himself. The self-made man is the funniest wind-bag after all! There is a marked difference between decreeing light in chaos, and lighting the gas in a metropolitan back-parlour with a box of patent matches; and do what we will, there is always something made to our hand, if it were only our fingers.[Pg 109]
This seems silly to us Protestants, and honestly, it’s not that important. Whether people’s gratitude for the good things they receive is well thought out or just a matter of duty really doesn’t matter much, as long as they do feel grateful. True ignorance is when someone doesn’t realize they’ve received a good gift or starts thinking they earned it all themselves. The self-made person is really the biggest blowhard of all! There’s a big difference between creating light within chaos and simply lighting a gas stove in a city apartment with a box of matches. No matter what we do, there’s always something available to us, even if it’s just our hands.[Pg 109]
But there was something worse than foolishness placarded in Creil Church. The Association of the Living Rosary (of which I had never previously heard) is responsible for that. This Association was founded, according to the printed advertisement, by a brief of Pope Gregory Sixteenth, on the 17th of January, 1832: according to a coloured bas-relief, it seems to have been founded, sometime or other, by the Virgin giving one rosary to Saint Dominic, and the Infant Saviour giving another to Saint Catharine of Siena. Pope Gregory is not so imposing, but he is nearer hand. I could not distinctly make out whether the Association was entirely devotional, or had an eye to good works; at least it is highly organized: the names of fourteen matrons and misses were filled in for each week of the month as associates, with one other, generally a married woman, at the top for zélatrice: the leader of the band. Indulgences, plenary and partial, follow on the performance of the duties of the Association. "The partial indulgences are attached to the recitation of the rosary." On "the recitation of the required dizaine," a partial indulgence promptly follows. When people serve the kingdom of heaven with a pass-book in their hands, I should always be afraid lest they should carry the same commercial spirit into their dealings with their fellow-men, which would make a sad and sordid business of this life.
But there was something worse than foolishness displayed in Creil Church. The Association of the Living Rosary (which I had never heard of before) is responsible for that. According to the printed advertisement, this Association was founded by a papal document from Pope Gregory XVI on January 17, 1832. A colorful bas-relief suggests it was established when the Virgin Mary gave one rosary to Saint Dominic and the Infant Jesus gave another to Saint Catherine of Siena. Pope Gregory may not seem as impressive, but he is more relevant. I couldn't clearly tell whether the Association was purely devotional or also focused on good works; at least, it's very organized: the names of fourteen women were listed as associates for each week of the month, with one other, usually a married woman, at the top as the zélatrice: the leader of the group. Indulgences, both plenary and partial, are granted for fulfilling the duties of the Association. "Partial indulgences are associated with reciting the rosary." For "the recitation of the required dizaine," a partial indulgence is promptly granted. When people serve the kingdom of heaven with a passbook in hand, I always worry they might bring that same commercial mindset into their interactions with others, which would turn this life into a sad and sordid affair.
There is one more article, however, of happier import. "All these indulgences," it appeared, "are applicable to souls in purgatory." For God's sake, ye ladies of Creil, apply them all to the souls in purgatory without delay! Burns would take no hire for his last songs, preferring to serve his country out of unmixed love. Suppose you were to imitate the exciseman, mesdames, and even if the souls in purgatory were not greatly bettered, some souls in Creil upon the Oise would find themselves none the worse either here or hereafter.
There is one more article, though, that has a more positive note. "All these indulgences," it turns out, "can be applied to souls in purgatory." For goodness' sake, ladies of Creil, use them all for the souls in purgatory without hesitation! Burns wouldn't accept any payment for his final songs, choosing to serve his country purely out of love. What if you took a page from the exciseman’s book, ladies, and even if the souls in purgatory didn’t benefit greatly, some souls in Creil along the Oise would be better off both now and in the afterlife.
I cannot help wondering, as I transcribe these notes,[Pg 110] whether a Protestant born and bred is in a fit state to understand these signs, and do them what justice they deserve; and I cannot help answering that he is not. They cannot look so merely ugly and mean to the faithful as they do to me. I see that as clearly as a proposition in Euclid. For these believers are neither weak nor wicked. They can put up their tablet commending Saint Joseph for his despatch, as if he were still a village carpenter; they can "recite the required dizaine," and metaphorically pocket the indulgence, as if they had done a job for Heaven; and then they can go out and look down unabashed upon this wonderful river flowing by, and up without confusion at the pin-point stars, which are themselves great worlds full of flowing rivers greater than the Oise. I see it as plainly, I say, as a proposition in Euclid, that my Protestant mind has missed the point, and that there goes with these deformities some higher and more religious spirit than I dream.
I can't help but wonder, as I write down these notes,[Pg 110] whether a Protestant who’s grown up in that faith is really able to understand these symbols and give them the respect they deserve; and I can't help but conclude that they aren’t. To the faithful, these symbols can't seem as ugly and insignificant as they do to me. I see that as clearly as a math proof. These believers are neither weak nor evil. They can put up their plaque praising Saint Joseph for his efficiency, as if he were still just a local carpenter; they can "recite the required dizaine," and metaphorically claim the indulgence, as if they had actually done something for Heaven; and then they can go outside and confidently admire the beautiful river flowing by, and gaze up without embarrassment at the tiny stars, which are actually huge worlds filled with flowing rivers even bigger than the Oise. I see it as plainly, I say, as a math proof, that my Protestant perspective has missed something important, and that these so-called deformities carry a deeper and more spiritual meaning than I can imagine.
I wonder if other people would make the same allowances for me! Like the ladies of Creil, having recited my rosary of toleration, I look for my indulgence on the spot.
I wonder if other people would cut me the same slack! Like the women from Creil, after saying my piece about tolerance, I expect my pass right away.
PRÉCY AND THE MARIONNETTES
We made Précy about sundown. The plain is rich with tufts of poplar. In a wide, luminous curve, the Oise lay under the hillside. A faint mist began to rise and confound the different distances together. There was not a sound audible but that of the sheep-bells in some meadows by the river, and the creaking of a cart down the long road that descends the hill. The villas in their gardens, the shops along the street, all seemed to have been deserted the day before, and I felt inclined to walk discreetly as one feels in a silent forest. All of a sudden we came round a corner, and there, in a little green round the church, was a bevy of girls in Parisian costumes playing croquet. Their laughter, and the hollow sound of ball and mallet, made a cheery stir in the neighbourhood; and the look of these slim figures, all corseted and ribboned, produced an answerable disturbance in our hearts. We were within sniff of Paris, it seemed. And here were females of our own species playing croquet, just as if Précy had been a place in real life, instead of a stage in the fairyland of travel. For, to be frank, the peasant woman is scarcely to be counted as a woman at all, and after having passed by such a succession of people in petticoats digging and hoeing and making dinner, this company of coquettes under arms made quite a surprising feature in the landscape, and convinced us at once of being fallible males.
We reached Précy around sunset. The landscape was dotted with clusters of poplar trees. In a wide, glowing curve, the Oise River flowed beneath the hillside. A light mist began to rise, blurring the different distances. The only sounds were the bells of sheep in some fields by the river and the creaking of a cart on the long road that wound down the hill. The villas in their gardens and the shops along the street all seemed to have been abandoned the day before, making me feel like I should walk quietly, just as one would in a peaceful forest. Suddenly, we turned a corner and came upon a small green area by the church, where a group of girls in fashionable outfits were playing croquet. Their laughter and the rhythmic sound of the ball hitting the mallet brought a lively energy to the area, and the sight of these slender figures, all corseted and adorned with ribbons, stirred something in our hearts. It felt like we were so close to Paris. Here were women of our kind playing croquet, as if Précy were a real place and not just a scene in the fairy tale of travel. Honestly, the peasant woman hardly seemed like a woman at all, and after passing so many people in skirts digging, hoeing, and preparing dinner, this gathering of stylish girls stood out in the landscape and reminded us that we were indeed flawed men.
The inn at Précy is the worst inn in France. Not even in Scotland have I found worse fare. It was kept by a brother and sister, neither of whom was out of their teens. The sister, so to speak, prepared a meal for us, and the brother, who had been tippling, came in and brought[Pg 112] with him a tipsy butcher, to entertain us as we ate. We found pieces of loo-warm pork among the salad, and pieces of unknown yielding substance in the ragoût. The butcher entertained us with pictures of Parisian life, with which he professed himself well acquainted; the brother sitting the while on the edge of the billiard table, toppling precariously, and sucking the stump of a cigar. In the midst of these diversions, bang went a drum past the house, and a hoarse voice began issuing a proclamation. It was a man with marionnettes announcing a performance for that evening.
The inn at Précy is the worst inn in France. I haven't even found worse food in Scotland. It was run by a brother and sister, neither of whom was older than their teens. The sister, so to speak, made us a meal, and the brother, who had been drinking, came in with a tipsy butcher to entertain us while we ate. We found pieces of lukewarm pork in the salad and some unknown soft substance in the ragoût. The butcher entertained us with stories of Parisian life, which he claimed to know well; the brother sat on the edge of the billiard table, swaying dangerously, while sucking the end of a cigar. In the middle of all this, a drumbeat sounded outside, and a hoarse voice began announcing something. It was a man with marionettes promoting a show for that evening.
He had set up his caravan and lighted his candles on another part of the girls' croquet-green, under one of those open sheds which are so common in France to shelter markets; and he and his wife, by the time we strolled up there, were trying to keep order with the audience.
He had set up his caravan and lit his candles in another area of the girls' croquet green, under one of those open sheds that are so common in France for markets; and he and his wife, by the time we walked up there, were trying to manage the crowd.
It was the most absurd contention. The show-people had set out a certain number of benches, and all who sat upon them were to pay a couple of sous for the accommodation. They were always quite full—a bumper house—as long as nothing was going forward; but let the show-woman appear with an eye to a collection, and at the first rattle of her tambourine the audience slipped off the seats, and stood round on the outside with their hands in their pockets. It certainly would have tried an angel's temper. The showman roared from the proscenium; he had been all over France, and nowhere, nowhere, "not even on the borders of Germany," had he met with such misconduct. Such thieves and rogues and rascals, as he called them! And every now and again the wife issued on another round, and added her shrill quota to the tirade. I remarked here, as elsewhere, how far more copious is the female mind in the material of insult. The audience laughed in high good-humour over the man's declamations, but they bridled and cried aloud under the woman's pungent sallies. She picked out the sore points. She[Pg 113] had the honour of the village at her mercy. Voices answered her angrily out of the crowd, and received a smarting retort for their trouble. A couple of old ladies beside me, who had duly paid for their seats, waxed very red and indignant, and discoursed to each other audibly about the impudence of these mountebanks; but as soon as the show-woman caught a whisper of this, she was down upon them with a swoop: if mesdames could persuade their neighbours to act with common honesty, the mountebanks, she assured them, would be polite enough: mesdames had probably had their bowl of soup, and perhaps a glass of wine that evening; the mountebanks also had a taste for soup, and did not choose to have their little earnings stolen from them before their eyes. Once, things came as far as a brief personal encounter between the showman and some lads, in which the former went down as readily as one of his own marionnettes to a peal of jeering laughter.
It was the most ridiculous situation. The performers had set up a number of benches, and everyone who sat on them was supposed to pay a couple of cents for the seating. The benches were always full—a packed house—as long as nothing was happening; but as soon as the performer showed up to ask for donations, and at the first shake of her tambourine, the audience jumped off the seats and gathered around outside with their hands in their pockets. It would have tested anyone's patience. The showman yelled from the front; he had traveled all over France, and nowhere, nowhere, "not even near the German border," had he encountered such bad behavior. He called them thieves, rogues, and scoundrels! And now and then, the wife would join in and add her sharp remarks to the rant. I noticed, like in other situations, how much more creative women can be with insults. The audience laughed good-naturedly at the man’s speeches but bristled and shouted back at the woman’s pointed jabs. She knew exactly where to hit. She had the reputation of the village in her hands. Voices from the crowd replied angrily, only to receive a stinging comeback. A couple of old ladies next to me, who had paid for their seats, became very flushed and indignant, discussing loudly the audacity of these performers; but as soon as the show-woman caught wind of this, she swooped down on them: if the ladies could convince their neighbors to act with honesty, she assured them, the performers would be polite enough; the ladies had probably had their soup and maybe a glass of wine that evening; the performers also enjoyed some soup and didn’t want to have their hard-earned money taken from them right in front of them. At one point, things escalated to a brief confrontation between the showman and some boys, where the former went down just as easily as one of his own puppets to a chorus of mocking laughter.
I was a good deal astonished at this scene, because I am pretty well acquainted with the ways of French strollers, more or less artistic; and have always found them singularly pleasing. Any stroller must be dear to the right-thinking heart; if it were only as a living protest against offices and the mercantile spirit, and as something to remind us that life is not by necessity the kind of thing we generally make it. Even a German band, if you see it leaving town in the early morning for a campaign in country places, among trees and meadows, has a romantic flavour for the imagination. There is nobody, under thirty, so dead but his heart will stir a little at sight of a gypsies' camp. "We are not cotton-spinners all"—or, at least, not all through. There is some life in humanity yet: and youth will now and again find a brave word to say in dispraise of riches, and throw up a situation to go strolling with a knapsack.
I was pretty shocked by this scene because I’m familiar with the ways of French street performers, who are more or less artistic, and I've always found them strangely enjoyable. Any street performer should be cherished by the right-minded person; even just as a living reminder against conventional jobs and the money-driven mindset, and as a sign that life doesn’t have to be the way we usually make it. Even a German band, when you see it leaving town early in the morning for gigs in the countryside, among trees and fields, has a romantic vibe for the imagination. There’s no one under thirty who wouldn’t feel a little tug at their heart when they see a gypsy camp. "We’re not all just factory workers"—or at least, not all the time. There’s still some life left in humanity: and young people will occasionally find the courage to speak out against wealth and choose to wander with a backpack instead.
An Englishman has always special facilities for intercourse with French gymnasts; for England is the natural[Pg 114] home of gymnasts. This or that fellow, in his tights and spangles, is sure to know a word or two of English, to have drunk English aff-'n'-aff, and perhaps performed in an English music-hall. He is a countryman of mine by profession. He leaps, like the Belgian boating men, to the notion that I must be an athlete myself.
An Englishman has always had special opportunities to interact with French gymnasts; after all, England is the natural[Pg 114] home of gymnasts. This guy, in his tights and sparkles, is sure to know a word or two of English, have enjoyed English aff-'n'-aff, and maybe even performed in an English music hall. He’s a fellow professional of mine. He jumps to the conclusion, like the Belgian rowers, that I must be an athlete too.
But the gymnast is not my favourite; he has little or no tincture of the artist in his composition; his soul is small and pedestrian, for the most part, since his profession makes no call upon it, and does not accustom him to high ideas. But if a man is only so much of an actor that he can stumble through a farce, he is made free of a new order of thoughts. He has something else to think about beside the money-box. He has a pride of his own, and, what is of far more importance, he has an aim before him that he can never quite attain. He has gone upon a pilgrimage that will last him his life long, because there is no end to it short of perfection. He will better upon himself a little day by day; or even if he has given up the attempt, he will always remember that once upon a time he had conceived this high ideal, that once upon a time he had fallen in love with a star. "'Tis better to have loved and lost." Although the moon should have nothing to say to Endymion, although he should settle down with Audrey and feed pigs, do you not think he would move with a better grace, and cherish higher thoughts to the end? The lout he meets at church never had a fancy above Audrey's snood; but there is a reminiscence in Endymion's heart that, like a spice, keeps it fresh and haughty.
But the gymnast isn’t my favorite; he has little to no sense of artistry in him. His soul is mostly small and ordinary since his profession doesn’t challenge it and doesn’t expose him to elevated ideas. But if a man is only enough of a performer to get through a comedy, he unlocks a new level of thinking. He has more to focus on than just the money. He has his own pride, and, even more importantly, he has a goal in front of him that he can never quite reach. He’s embarked on a journey that will last his whole life because there’s no end to it except perfection. He will improve a bit every day; or even if he has given up on trying, he will always remember that there was a time he had this lofty ideal, that there was a time he fell in love with a star. "It’s better to have loved and lost." Even if the moon has nothing to do with Endymion, even if he settles down with Audrey and raises pigs, don’t you think he would carry himself with more grace and hold onto higher thoughts until the end? The clod he meets at church never had aspirations beyond Audrey’s hairpiece; but in Endymion's heart, there’s a memory that, like a spice, keeps it fresh and proud.
To be even one of the outskirters of art leaves a fine stamp on a man's countenance. I remember once dining with a party in the inn at Château Landon. Most of them were unmistakable bagmen; others well-to-do peasantry; but there was one young fellow in a blouse, whose face stood out from among the rest surprisingly. It looked more finished; more of the spirit looked out[Pg 115] through it; it had a living, expressive air, and you could see that his eyes took things in. My companion and I wondered greatly who and what he could be. It was fair-time in Château Landon, and when we went along to the booths we had our question answered; for there was our friend busily fiddling for the peasants to caper to. He was a wandering violinist.
To be even one of the outskirts of art leaves a lasting mark on a person’s face. I remember dining with a group at the inn in Château Landon. Most of them were clearly salesmen, while others were well-off peasants; but there was one young guy in a blouse whose face really stood out. It looked more refined; you could see more of his spirit shining through; it had a lively, expressive quality, and you could tell his eyes were taking everything in. My companion and I were really curious about who he was. It was fair-time in Château Landon, and when we strolled over to the booths, we got our answer; there was our friend enthusiastically playing the violin for the peasants to dance to. He was a wandering violinist.
A troop of strollers once came to the inn where I was staying, in the Department of Seine et Marne. There was a father and mother; two daughters, brazen, blowsy hussies, who sang and acted, without an idea of how to set about either; and a dark young man, like a tutor, a recalcitrant house-painter, who sang and acted not amiss. The mother was the genius of the party, so far as genius can be spoken of with regard to such a pack of incompetent humbugs; and her husband could not find words to express his admiration for her comic countryman. "You should see my old woman," said he, and nodded his beery countenance. One night they performed in the stable-yard, with flaring lamps—a wretched exhibition, coldly looked upon by a village audience. Next night, as soon as the lamps were lighted, there came a plump of rain, and they had to sweep away their baggage as fast as possible, and make off to the barn where they harboured, cold, wet, and supperless. In the morning, a dear friend of mine, who has as warm a heart for strollers as I have myself, made a little collection, and sent it by my hands to comfort them for their disappointment. I gave it to the father; he thanked me cordially, and we drank a cup together in the kitchen, talking of roads, and audiences, and hard times.
A group of performers once arrived at the inn where I was staying in the Seine et Marne region. There was a mother and father, two daughters—loud, flashy girls who sang and acted without knowing how to do either properly—and a dark-haired young man, kind of like a tutor, a stubborn house painter who actually sang and acted pretty well. The mother was the star of the group, at least as much as you can call anyone in such a bunch of clueless fakers a star; and her husband struggled to find the right words to express his admiration for her goofy countryman. "You should see my wife," he said, nodding his drunken face. One night, they performed in the stable yard with bright lamps—a terrible show that the village audience watched with indifference. The next night, as soon as the lamps were lit, a heavy rain fell, forcing them to quickly pack up and move to the barn where they stayed, cold, wet, and without dinner. The next morning, a good friend of mine, who shares my fondness for performers, collected a little money and sent it through me to cheer them up after their disappointment. I gave it to the father; he thanked me warmly, and we shared a drink in the kitchen, chatting about roads, audiences, and tough times.
When I was going, up got my old stroller, and off with his hat. "I am afraid," said he, "that Monsieur will think me altogether a beggar; but I have another demand to make upon him." I began to hate him on the spot. "We play again to-night," he went on. "Of course, I shall refuse to accept any more money from Monsieur[Pg 116] and his friends, who have been already so liberal. But our programme of to-night is something truly creditable; and I cling to the idea that Monsieur will honour us with his presence." And then, with a shrug and a smile: "Monsieur understands—the vanity of an artist!" Save the mark! The vanity of an artist! That is the kind of thing that reconciles me to life: a ragged, tippling, incompetent old rogue, with the manners of a gentleman, and the vanity of an artist, to keep up his self-respect!
When I was leaving, my old stroller stood up, and he took off his hat. "I'm afraid," he said, "that you’ll think I’m just a beggar; but I have another request to make of you." I started to dislike him right then. "We're performing again tonight," he continued. "Of course, I won’t take any more money from you and your friends, who have already been so generous. But tonight’s program is something really special, and I hold on to the hope that you’ll bless us with your presence." And then, with a shrug and a smile: "You understand—the vanity of an artist!" Good grief! The vanity of an artist! That’s the kind of thing that makes me feel good about life: a scruffy, drinking, incompetent old con artist, with the manners of a gentleman, and the vanity of an artist, to maintain his self-respect!
But the man after my own heart is M. de Vauversin. It is nearly two years since I saw him first, and indeed I hope I may see him often again. Here is his first programme, as I found it on the breakfast-table, and have kept it ever since as a relic of bright days:—
But the guy I really connect with is M. de Vauversin. It’s been almost two years since I first saw him, and honestly, I hope to see him often again. Here’s his first program, which I found on the breakfast table and have kept ever since as a memento of good times:—
"Mesdames et Messieurs,
Ladies and gentlemen,
Mademoiselle Ferrario et M. de Vauversin auront l'honneur de chanter ce soir les morceaux suivants.
Mademoiselle Ferrario and Mr. de Vauversin will have the honor of performing the following pieces this evening.
Mademoiselle Ferrario chantera—Mignon—Oiseaux légers—France—Des Français dorment là—Le château bleu—Où voulez-vous aller?
Mademoiselle Ferrario will sing—Mignon—Light Birds—France—Some French people are sleeping there—The blue castle—Where do you want to go?
M. de Vauversin—Madame Fountaine et M. Robinet—Les plongeurs à cheval—Le mari mécontent—Tais-toi, gamin—Mon voisin l'original—Heureux comme ça—Comme on est trompé."
M. de Vauversin—Madame Fountaine and M. Robinet—The divers on horseback—The unhappy husband—Shut up, kid—My quirky neighbor—Happy this way—How we're deceived.
They made a stage at one end of the salle-à-manger. And what a sight it was to see M. de Vauversin, with a cigarette in his mouth, twanging a guitar, and following Mademoiselle Ferrario's eyes with the obedient, kindly look of a dog! The entertainment wound up with a tombola, or auction of lottery tickets: an admirable amusement, with all the excitement of gambling, and no hope of gain to make you ashamed of your eagerness; for there all is loss; you make haste to be out of pocket; it is a competition who shall lose most money for the benefit of M. de Vauversin and Mademoiselle Ferrario.[Pg 117]
They set up a stage at one end of the salle-à-manger. And what a sight it was to see M. de Vauversin, with a cigarette in his mouth, strumming a guitar and following Mademoiselle Ferrario's eyes with the eager, affectionate gaze of a dog! The entertainment wrapped up with a tombola, or auction of lottery tickets: a fantastic way to have fun, full of the thrill of gambling, with no chance of winning to make you feel guilty about your excitement; because in this game, you always lose; it's a race to see who can lose the most money for the benefit of M. de Vauversin and Mademoiselle Ferrario.[Pg 117]
M. de Vauversin is a small man, with a great head of black hair, a vivacious and engaging air, and a smile that would be delightful if he had better teeth. He was once an actor in the Châtelet; but he contracted a nervous affection from the heat and glare of the footlights, which unfitted him for the stage. At this crisis Mademoiselle Ferrario, otherwise Mademoiselle Rita of the Alcazar, agreed to share his wandering fortunes. "I could never forget the generosity of that lady," said he. He wears trousers so tight that it has long been a problem to all who knew him how he manages to get in and out of them. He sketches a little in water-colours; he writes verses; he is the most patient of fishermen, and spent long days at the bottom of the inn-garden fruitlessly dabbling a line in the clear river.
M. de Vauversin is a short guy with a big head of black hair, an energetic and charming vibe, and a smile that would be fantastic if he had better teeth. He used to be an actor at the Châtelet, but he developed a nervous condition from the heat and brightness of the stage lights, which made him unfit for performing. During this tough time, Mademoiselle Ferrario, also known as Mademoiselle Rita from the Alcazar, decided to join him on his adventures. "I could never forget the kindness of that lady," he said. He wears pants so tight that everyone who knows him has long wondered how he manages to put them on and take them off. He does a bit of watercolor painting, writes poetry, and is the most patient fisherman, spending long days at the bottom of the inn's garden, trying without luck to catch something in the clear river.
You should hear him recounting his experiences over a bottle of wine; such a pleasant vein of talk as he has, with a ready smile at his own mishaps, and every now and then a sudden gravity, like a man who should hear the surf roar while he was telling the perils of the deep. For it was no longer ago than last night, perhaps, that the receipts only amounted to a franc and a half, to cover three francs of railway fare and two of board and lodging. The Maire, a man worth a million of money, sat in the front seat, repeatedly applauding Mlle. Ferrario, and yet gave no more than three sous the whole evening. Local authorities look with such an evil eye upon the strolling artist. Alas! I know it well, who have been myself taken for one, and pitilessly incarcerated on the strength of the misapprehension. Once M. de Vauversin visited a commissary of police for permission to sing. The commissary, who was smoking at his ease, politely doffed his hat upon the singer's entrance. "Mr. Commissary," he began, "I am an artist." And on went the commissary's hat again. No courtesy for the companions of Apollo! "They are as degraded as that," said M. de Vauversin, with a sweep of his cigarette.[Pg 118]
You should hear him share his stories over a bottle of wine; he has such a delightful way of speaking, with a ready smile at his own mishaps, and every now and then a sudden seriousness, like a man who hears the surf crashing while telling tales of danger at sea. Just last night, for instance, the earnings only totaled a franc and a half, barely enough to cover three francs for train fare and two for food and lodging. The mayor, a wealthy man with a net worth of a million, sat in the front row, repeatedly applauding Mlle. Ferrario, yet only contributed three sous the entire evening. Local officials have such a disdainful view of street performers. Alas! I know it well, having been mistaken for one myself and harshly imprisoned because of that misunderstanding. Once, M. de Vauversin went to see a police commissioner to ask for permission to perform. The commissioner, comfortably smoking, politely took off his hat when the singer entered. "Mr. Commissioner," he started, "I am an artist." And the commissioner put his hat back on. No respect for the followers of Apollo! "They are looked down upon that much," said M. de Vauversin, gesturing with his cigarette.[Pg 118]
But what pleased me most was one outbreak of his, when we had been talking all the evening of the rubs, indignities, and pinchings of his wandering life. Someone said, it would be better to have a million of money down, and Mlle. Ferrario admitted that she would prefer that mightily. "Eh bien, moi non;—not I," cried De Vauversin, striking the table with his hand. "If anyone is a failure in the world, is it not I? I had an art, in which I have done things well—as well as some—better perhaps than others; and now it is closed against me. I must go about the country gathering coppers and singing nonsense. Do you think I regret my life? Do you think I would rather be a fat burgess, like a calf? Not I! I have had moments when I have been applauded on the boards: I think nothing of that; but I have known in my own mind sometimes, when I had not a clap from the whole house, that I had found a true intonation, or an exact and speaking gesture; and then, messieurs, I have known what pleasure was, what it was to do a thing well, what it was to be an artist. And to know what art is, is to have an interest for ever, such as no burgess can find in his petty concerns. Tenez, messieurs, je vais vous le dire—it is like a religion."
But what pleased me the most was one outburst of his, when we had been talking all evening about the struggles, indignities, and hardships of his wandering life. Someone said it would be better to have a million dollars in cash, and Mlle. Ferrario admitted she would definitely prefer that. "Eh bien, moi non;—not me," shouted De Vauversin, slapping the table with his hand. "If anyone is a failure in this world, it’s me, right? I had a craft, and I did it well—as well as some—maybe even better than others; and now it's off limits to me. I have to travel around the country collecting coins and singing silly songs. Do you think I regret my life? Do you think I’d rather be a fat townsman, like a calf? Absolutely not! I’ve had moments when I’ve been applauded on stage: that doesn’t mean much to me; but I’ve known within myself, sometimes when the whole audience was silent, that I had found the right tone or a precise and expressive gesture; and then, gentlemen, I understood what pleasure was, what it meant to do something well, what it meant to be an artist. And to know what art is, is to have an endless interest that no townsman can find in his trivial matters. Tenez, messieurs, je vais vous le dire—it’s like a religion."
Such, making some allowance for the tricks of memory and the inaccuracies of translation, was the profession of faith of M. de Vauversin. I have given him his own name, lest any other wanderer should come across him, with his guitar and cigarette, and Mademoiselle Ferrario; for should not all the world delight to honour this unfortunate and loyal follower of the Muses? May Apollo send him rhymes hitherto undreamed of; may the river be no longer scanty of her silver fishes to his lure; may the cold not pinch him on long winter rides, nor the village jack-in-office affront him with unseemly manners; and may he never miss Mademoiselle Ferrario from his side, to follow with his dutiful eyes and accompany on the guitar![Pg 119]
Such, taking into account the quirks of memory and the flaws in translation, was M. de Vauversin’s expression of faith. I’ve kept his name to avoid confusion for any other traveler who might encounter him with his guitar and cigarette, alongside Mademoiselle Ferrario; for shouldn’t everyone take joy in honoring this unfortunate and devoted follower of the Muses? May Apollo grant him lyrics yet to be imagined; may the river always provide plenty of silver fish for his bait; may the cold not bite him during long winter rides, nor the local busybody treat him with disrespect; and may he never be without Mademoiselle Ferrario by his side, to follow with his attentive gaze and accompany on the guitar![Pg 119]
The marionnettes made a very dismal entertainment. They performed a piece, called Pyramus and Thisbe, in five mortal acts, and all written in Alexandrines fully as long as the performers. One marionnette was the king; another the wicked counselor; a third, credited with exceptional beauty, represented Thisbe; and then there were guards, and obdurate fathers, and walking gentlemen. Nothing particular took place during the two or three acts that I sat out; but you will be pleased to learn that the unities were properly respected, and the whole piece, with one exception, moved in harmony with classical rules. That exception was the comic countryman, a lean marionnette in wooden shoes, who spoke in prose and in a broad patois much appreciated by the audience. He took unconstitutional liberties with the person of his sovereign; kicked his fellow-marionnettes in the mouth with his wooden shoes, and whenever none of the versifying suitors were about, made love to Thisbe on his own account in comic prose.
The puppets put on a pretty dull show. They performed a piece called Pyramus and Thisbe, in five acts, all written in long lines that stretched out as much as the puppets themselves. One puppet was the king; another was the evil advisor; a third, known for her exceptional beauty, played Thisbe; and then there were guards, stubborn fathers, and some genteel characters. Nothing much happened during the two or three acts I watched, but you’ll be glad to know that the rules of drama were followed, and the whole performance, except for one part, adhered to classical standards. That exception was the comic peasant, a skinny puppet in wooden shoes who spoke in prose and a rough dialect that the audience loved. He crossed the line with his king, kicked his fellow puppets in the face with his wooden shoes, and whenever the poetical suitors weren’t around, he flirted with Thisbe in a funny way.
This fellow's evolutions, and the little prologue, in which the showman made a humorous eulogium of his troop, praising their indifference to applause and hisses, and their single devotion to their art, were the only circumstances in the whole affair that you could fancy would so much as raise a smile. But the villagers of Précy seemed delighted. Indeed, so long as a thing is an exhibition, and you pay to see it, it is nearly certain to amuse. If we were charged so much a head for sunsets, or if God sent round a drum before the hawthorns came in flower, what a work should we not make about their beauty! But these things, like good companions, stupid people early cease to observe; and the Abstract Bagman tittups past in his spring gig, and is positively not aware of the flowers along the lane, or the scenery of the weather overhead.
This guy's performance, along with the short introduction where the showman humorously praised his team for being unfazed by applause and boos, and their total dedication to their craft, were the only moments in the whole event that might have made anyone smile. But the people of Précy were clearly enjoying themselves. Honestly, as long as something is a show and you pay to see it, it’s pretty much guaranteed to be entertaining. If we had to pay for sunsets, or if God sent out a drum before the hawthorns bloomed, we’d make such a fuss over their beauty! But like good friends, foolish people often fail to notice these things; the Abstract Bagman drives by in his spring cart, not even realizing the flowers along the road or the beautiful sky above.
BACK TO THE WORLD
Of the next two days' sail little remains in my mind, and nothing whatever in my note-book. The river streamed on steadily through pleasant riverside landscapes. Washerwomen in blue dresses, fishers in blue blouses, diversified the green banks; and the relation of the two colours was like that of the flower and the leaf in the forget-me-not. A symphony in forget-me-not; I think Théophile Gautier might thus have characterized that two days' panorama. The sky was blue and cloudless, and the sliding surface of the river held up, in smooth places, a mirror to the heaven and the shores. The washerwomen hailed us laughingly, and the noise of trees and water made an accompaniment to our dozing thoughts, as we fleeted down the stream.
Of the next two days of sailing, not much sticks in my mind, and there’s nothing in my notebook. The river flowed steadily through beautiful riverside landscapes. Washerwomen in blue dresses and fishermen in blue shirts added color to the green banks, and the combination of the two colors reminded me of the flower and the leaf in a forget-me-not. It was a symphony in forget-me-not; I think Théophile Gautier would have described that two-day view that way. The sky was blue and clear, and in the calm areas of the river, the surface mirrored the sky and the shores. The washerwomen greeted us with laughter, and the sounds of trees and water provided a backdrop to our sleepy thoughts as we drifted down the stream.
The great volume, the indefatigable purpose of the river, held the mind in chain. It seemed now so sure of its end, so strong and easy in its gait, like a grown man full of determination. The surf was roaring for it on the sands of Havre.
The massive flow and relentless drive of the river captivated the mind. It now appeared so certain of its destination, so powerful and effortless in its movement, like a determined adult. The waves were crashing for it on the shores of Havre.
For my own part, slipping along this moving thoroughfare in my fiddle-case of a canoe, I also was beginning to grow aweary for my ocean. To the civilized man, there must come, sooner or later, a desire for civilization. I was weary of dipping the paddle; I was weary of living on the skirts of life; I wished to be in the thick of it once more; I wished to get to work; I wished to meet people who understood my own speech, and could meet with me on equal terms, as a man and no longer as a curiosity.
For my part, drifting along this busy waterway in my canoe, I was starting to feel tired of the ocean. For someone from civilization, there comes a time when the desire for society sets in. I was tired of paddling; I was tired of just existing on the outskirts of life; I wanted to be in the middle of it again; I wanted to get involved; I wanted to meet people who spoke my language and could connect with me as an equal, no longer as a curiosity.
And so a letter at Pontoise decided us, and we drew up our keels for the last time out of that river of Oise that[Pg 121] had faithfully piloted them, through rain and sunshine, for so long. For so many miles had this fleet and footless beast of burthen charioted our fortunes, that we turned our back upon it with a sense of separation. We had made a long détour out of the world, but now we were back in the familiar places, where life itself makes all the running, and we are carried to meet adventure without a stroke of the paddle. Now we were to return, like the voyager in the play, and see what rearrangements fortune had perfected the while in our surroundings; what surprises stood ready made for us at home; and whither and how far the world had voyaged in our absence. You may paddle all day long; but it is when you come back at nightfall, and look in at the familiar room, that you find Love or Death awaiting you beside the stove; and the most beautiful adventures are not those we go to seek.
And so a letter in Pontoise made our decision, and we pulled our boats out of the Oise River for the last time. It had guided us, through rain and sunshine, for so long. This fleet, heavy and unsteady, had borne our fortunes for countless miles, making us feel a sense of loss as we left it behind. We had taken a long detour from the world, but now we returned to familiar places, where life itself takes charge, leading us to adventure without us having to paddle at all. We were set to return, like the traveler in the play, to see what changes fortune had made in our lives, what surprises awaited us at home, and how far the world had traveled in our absence. You can paddle all day, but it's when you come back at night and look into your familiar room that you discover Love or Death waiting by the stove, and the most beautiful adventures aren’t the ones we go out to find.
EPILOGUE
The country where they journeyed, that green, breezy valley of the Loing, is one very attractive to cheerful and solitary people. The weather was superb; all night it thundered and lightened, and the rain fell in sheets; by day, the heavens were cloudless, the sun fervent, the air vigorous and pure. They walked separate; the Cigarette plodding behind with some philosophy, the lean Arethusa posting on ahead. Thus each enjoyed his own reflections by the way; each had perhaps time to tire of them before he met his comrade at the designated inn; and the pleasures of society and solitude combined to fill the day. The Arethusa carried in his knapsack the works of Charles of Orleans, and employed some of the hours of travel in the concoction of English roundels. In this path he must thus have preceded Mr. Lang, Mr. Dobson, Mr. Henley, and all contemporary roundeleers; but, for good reasons, he will be the last to publish the result. The Cigarette walked burthened with a volume of Michelet. And both these books, it will be seen, played a part in the subsequent adventure.
The country they traveled through, that lush, breezy valley of the Loing, is very appealing to both cheerful and solitary people. The weather was fantastic; it thundered and lightning flashed all night, and rain poured down. By day, the sky was clear, the sun was blazing, and the air was fresh and clean. They walked separately; the Cigarette trudged behind with some thoughts, while the lean Arethusa moved on ahead. This way, each could enjoy their own reflections along the path; each probably had time to grow tired of them before meeting up with their friend at the planned inn; and the enjoyment of both company and solitude filled the day. The Arethusa carried in his backpack the works of Charles of Orleans and spent some of his travel time writing English roundels. In this way, he must have preceded Mr. Lang, Mr. Dobson, Mr. Henley, and all the contemporary roundel writers; but, for good reasons, he would be the last to share his work. The Cigarette walked with a volume of Michelet. And both of these books, as will be seen, played a part in the adventure that followed.
The Arethusa was unwisely dressed. He is no precisian in attire; but by all accounts he was never so ill-inspired as on that tramp; having set forth, indeed, upon a moment's notice, from the most unfashionable spot in Europe, Barbizon. On his head he wore a smoking-cap of Indian work, the gold lace pitifully frayed and tarnished. A flannel shirt of an agreeable dark hue, which the satirical called black; a light tweed coat made by a good English tailor; ready-made cheap linen trousers and leathern gaiters completed his array. In person, he[Pg 123] is exceptionally lean; and his face is not, like those of happier mortals, a certificate. For years he could not pass a frontier, or visit a bank, without suspicion; the police everywhere, but in his native city, looked askance upon him; and (although I am sure it will not be credited) he is actually denied admittance to the casino of Monte Carlo. If you will imagine him dressed as above, stooping under his knapsack, walking nearly five miles an hour with the folds of the ready-made trousers fluttering about his spindle shanks, and still looking eagerly round him as if in terror of pursuit—the figure, when realized, is far from reassuring. When Villon journeyed (perhaps by the same pleasant valley) to his exile at Roussillon, I wonder if he had not something of the same appearance. Something of the same preoccupation he had beyond a doubt, for he too must have tinkered verses as he walked, with more success than his successor. And if he had anything like the same inspiring weather, the same nights of uproar, men in armour rolling and resounding down the stairs of heaven, the rain hissing on the village streets, the wild bull's-eye of the storm flashing all night long into the bare inn-chamber—the same sweet return of day, the same unfathomable blue of noon, the same high-coloured, halcyon eves—and above all, if he had anything like as good a comrade, anything like as keen a relish for what he saw, and what he ate, and the rivers that he bathed in, and the rubbish that he wrote, I would exchange estates to-day with the poor exile, and count myself a gainer.
The Arethusa was poorly dressed. He isn’t one to fuss over clothes, but by all accounts, he looked particularly mismatched on that journey; he had set off, in fact, on a moment’s notice, from the most unfashionable place in Europe, Barbizon. On his head, he wore a smoking cap that was made in India, with the gold lace sadly frayed and tarnished. He had on a dark flannel shirt, which the sarcastic called black; a light tweed coat made by a skilled English tailor; cheap, off-the-rack linen trousers; and leather gaiters rounded off his outfit. In person, he[Pg 123] is remarkably lean, and his face is not like those of happier souls, a certificate of good health. For years, he couldn’t cross a border or visit a bank without raising suspicion; the police everywhere, except in his hometown, eyed him suspiciously; and (though I know it’s hard to believe) he’s actually banned from the Monte Carlo casino. If you picture him as described, stooping under his backpack, walking nearly five miles an hour with the folds of the cheap trousers flapping around his thin legs, and still glancing around nervously as if fearing pursuit—the image, once visualized, is far from comforting. When Villon traveled (maybe through the same lovely valley) to his exile in Roussillon, I wonder if he didn’t share a similar look. He undoubtedly had a similar worry, for he too must have been composing verses as he walked, and he probably did it with more success than his successor. If he enjoyed similar weather, the same chaotic nights, men in armor clattering down the stairs of heaven, rain hissing on the village streets, the storm flashing all night into the bare inn room—the same sweet dawn, the same deep blue noon, the same colorful, peaceful evenings—and above all, if he had a companion as good as his and a keen appreciation for what he saw, what he ate, the rivers he swam in, and the nonsense he wrote, I would trade places with the poor exile today and see it as a win.
But there was another point of similarity between the two journeys, for which the Arethusa was to pay dear: both were gone upon in days of incomplete security. It was not long after the Franco-Prussian war. Swiftly as men forget, that countryside was still alive with tales of uhlans and outlying sentries, and hairbreadth 'scapes from the ignominious cord, and pleasant momentary friendships between invader and invaded. A year, at the most[Pg 124] two years, later you might have tramped all that country over and not heard one anecdote. And a year or two later, you would—if you were a rather ill-looking young man in nondescript array—have gone your rounds in greater safety; for along with more interesting matter, the Prussian spy would have somewhat faded from men's imaginations.
But there was another similarity between the two journeys, which the Arethusa would pay for dearly: both took place during times of uncertainty. It was not long after the Franco-Prussian War. As quickly as people forget, that area was still buzzing with stories of uhlans and watchful sentries, close calls from capture, and brief but enjoyable friendships between the invaders and the locals. A year, at most [Pg 124] two years later, you could have walked all over that region and not heard a single story. And a year or two down the line, if you happened to be a somewhat unremarkable young man dressed in plain clothes, you would have gone about more safely; since, along with more interesting news, the image of the Prussian spy would have faded from people's minds.
For all that, our voyager had got beyond Château Renard before he was conscious of arousing wonder. On the road between that place and Châtillon-sur-Loing, however, he encountered a rural postman; they fell together in talk, and spoke of a variety of subjects; but through one and all, the postman was still visibly preoccupied, and his eyes were faithful to the Arethusa's knapsack. At last, with mysterious roguishness, he inquired what it contained, and on being answered, shook his head with kindly incredulity. "Non," said he, "non, vous avez des portraits." And then with a languishing appeal, "Voyons, show me the portraits!" It was some little time before the Arethusa, with a shout of laughter, recognized his drift. By portraits he meant indecent photographs; and in the Arethusa, an austere and rising author, he thought to have identified a pornographic colporteur. When country-folk in France have made up their minds as to a person's calling, argument is fruitless. Along all the rest of the way, the postman piped and fluted meltingly to get a sight of the collection; now he would upbraid, now he would reason—"Voyons, I will tell nobody"; then he tried corruption, and insisted on paying for a glass of wine; and at last, when their ways separated—"Non," said he, "ce n'est pas bien de votre part. O non, ce n'est pas bien." And shaking his head with quite a sentimental sense of injury, he departed unrefreshed.
For all that, our traveler had gone past Château Renard before he realized he was sparking curiosity. On the road between that place and Châtillon-sur-Loing, though, he ran into a rural postman; they struck up a conversation and talked about various topics, but throughout it all, the postman seemed noticeably distracted, and his eyes were fixed on the Arethusa's knapsack. Finally, with a playful twinkle in his eye, he asked what was inside, and when he got an answer, he shook his head in kind disbelief. "Non," he said, "non, vous avez des portraits." Then, with a longing look, he added, "Voyons, show me the portraits!" It took a little while for the Arethusa, laughing out loud, to realize what he meant. By portraits, he was referring to indecent photographs; and in the Arethusa, a serious and aspiring author, he thought he had found a pornographic colporteur. Once the country folk in France have decided on someone's profession, arguing is pointless. For the rest of the journey, the postman playfully begged to see the collection; sometimes he'd scold, other times he'd reason—"Voyons, I won't tell anyone"; then he tried to bribe and even offered to pay for a glass of wine; and finally, when they parted ways—"Non," he said, "ce n'est pas bien de votre part. O non, ce n'est pas bien." And shaking his head with a touch of mock injury, he left disappointed.
On certain little difficulties encountered by the Arethusa at Châtillon-sur-Loing, I have not space to dwell; another Châtillon, of grislier memory, looms too near at hand. But the next day, in a certain hamlet called La[Pg 125] Jussière, he stopped to drink a glass of syrup in a very poor, bare drinking-shop. The hostess, a comely woman, suckling a child, examined the traveller with kindly and pitying eyes. "You are not of this Department?" she asked. The Arethusa told her he was English. "Ah!" she said, surprised. "We have no English. We have many Italians, however, and they do very well; they do not complain of the people of hereabouts. An Englishman may do very well also; it will be something new." Here was a dark saying, over which the Arethusa pondered as he drank his grenadine; but when he rose and asked what was to pay, the light came upon him in a flash. "O, pour vous," replied the landlady, "a halfpenny!" Pour vous? By heaven, she took him for a beggar! He paid his halfpenny, feeling that it were ungracious to correct her. But when he was forth again upon the road, he became vexed in spirit. The conscience is no gentleman, he is a rabbinical fellow; and his conscience told him he had stolen the syrup.
On some minor troubles faced by the Arethusa at Châtillon-sur-Loing, I don’t have enough space to elaborate; another Châtillon, with a darker history, looms too close. But the next day, in a small village called La[Pg 125] Jussière, he paused to have a glass of syrup in a very simple, bare tavern. The hostess, a pretty woman nursing a child, looked at the traveler with kind and sympathetic eyes. "You’re not from this area, are you?" she asked. The Arethusa told her he was English. "Oh!" she said, surprised. "We don’t have English people. We have many Italians, though, and they do very well; they don’t complain about the locals. An Englishman could do well too; it’d be something new." This was a cryptic remark that the Arethusa reflected on while sipping his grenadine; but when he stood up to ask how much he owed, the realization hit him suddenly. "O, pour vous," replied the landlady, "a halfpenny!" Pour vous? By heaven, she thought he was a beggar! He paid his halfpenny, feeling it would be rude to correct her. But as he continued on his journey, annoyance built up inside him. Conscience is no gentleman; it's more like a scolding rabbi, and his conscience told him he had stolen the syrup.
That night the travellers slept in Gien; the next day they passed the river and set forth (severally, as their custom was) on a short stage through the green plain upon the Berry side, to Châtillon-sur-Loire. It was the first day of the shooting; and the air rang with the report of fire-arms and the admiring cries of sportsmen. Overhead the birds were in consternation, wheeling in clouds, settling and re-arising. And yet with all this bustle on either hand, the road itself lay solitary. The Arethusa smoked a pipe beside a milestone, and I remember he laid down very exactly all he was to do at Châtillon: how he was to enjoy a cold plunge, to change his shirt, and to await the Cigarette's arrival, in sublime inaction, by the margin of the Loire. Fired by these ideas, he pushed the more rapidly forward, and came, early in the afternoon, and in a breathing heat, to the entering-in of that ill-fated town. Childe Roland to the dark tower came.[Pg 126]
That night the travelers slept in Gien; the next day they crossed the river and set off (individually, as was their habit) on a short journey through the green plain on the Berry side, heading to Châtillon-sur-Loire. It was the first day of the hunting season, and the air was filled with the sounds of gunfire and the excited shouts of hunters. Above them, the birds were in a panic, swirling in clouds, landing, and taking off again. Yet, despite all this commotion around them, the road itself was quiet. The Arethusa relaxed next to a milestone, and I remember he carefully outlined everything he planned to do in Châtillon: how he was going to take a cold dip, change his shirt, and wait for the Cigarette to arrive, blissfully inactive, by the banks of the Loire. Inspired by these thoughts, he hurried on, and by early afternoon, in the sweltering heat, he reached the entrance of that ill-fated town. Childe Roland to the dark tower came.[Pg 126]
A polite gendarme threw his shadow on the path.
A courteous police officer cast his shadow on the path.
"Monsieur est voyageur?" he asked.
"Are you a traveler?" he asked.
And the Arethusa, strong in his innocence, forgetful of his vile attire, replied—I had almost said with gaiety: "So it would appear."
And the Arethusa, confident in his innocence and oblivious to his terrible outfit, replied—I nearly said with cheerfulness: "So it seems."
"His papers are in order?" said the gendarme. And when the Arethusa, with a slight change of voice, admitted he had none, he was informed (politely enough) that he must appear before the Commissary.
"Are his papers all in order?" asked the police officer. And when the Arethusa, with a slight change in tone, admitted he had none, he was politely informed that he needed to appear before the Commissioner.
The Commissary sat at a table in his bedroom, stripped to the shirt and trousers, but still copiously perspiring; and when he turned upon the prisoner a large meaningless countenance, that was (like Bardolph's) "all whelks and bubuckles," the dullest might have been prepared for grief. Here was a stupid man, sleepy with the heat and fretful at the interruption, whom neither appeal nor argument could reach.
The Commissary sat at a table in his bedroom, wearing just his shirt and pants, but still sweating heavily; and when he looked at the prisoner with a large, blank expression, resembling Bardolph's "all whelks and bubuckles," even the dullest person would have anticipated sadness. Here was a clueless man, drowsy from the heat and irritated by the interruption, whom neither appeal nor argument could influence.
The Commissary: "You have no papers?"
The Commissary: "You don't have any documents?"
The Arethusa: "Not here."
The Arethusa: "Not here."
The Commissary: "Why?"
The Commissary: "Why?"
The Arethusa: "I have left them behind in my valise."
The Arethusa: "I've left them in my suitcase."
The Commissary: "You know, however, that it is forbidden to circulate without papers?"
The Commissary: "You know, though, that it's against the rules to be out without paperwork?"
The Arethusa: "Pardon me: I am convinced of the contrary. I am here on my rights as an English subject by international treaty."
The Arethusa: "Excuse me: I strongly disagree. I'm here based on my rights as a British citizen, according to international treaty."
The Commissary (with scorn): "You call yourself an Englishman?"
The Commissary (with scorn): "You think you're an Englishman?"
The Arethusa: "I do."
The Arethusa: "I do."
The Commissary: "Humph.—What is your trade?"
The Commissary: "Hmm. What's your job?"
The Arethusa: "I am a Scottish Advocate."
The Arethusa: "I'm a Scottish lawyer."
The Commissary (with singular annoyance): "A Scottish Advocate! Do you then pretend to support yourself by that in this Department?"
The Commissary (with singular annoyance): "A Scottish Advocate! Are you really claiming to make a living off that in this Department?"
The Arethusa modestly disclaimed the pretension. The Commissary had scored a point.[Pg 127]
The Arethusa humbly denied the claim. The Commissary had made a point.[Pg 127]
The Commissary: "Why, then, do you travel?"
The Commissary: "So, why do you travel?"
The Arethusa: "I travel for pleasure."
The Arethusa: "I travel for fun."
The Commissary (pointing to the knapsack, and with sublime incredulity): "Avec ça? Voyez-vous, je suis un homme intelligent!" (With that? Look here, I am a person of intelligence!)
The Commissary (pointing to the knapsack, and with sublime incredulity): "With that? Look, I’m a smart person!"
The culprit remaining silent under this home-thrust, the Commissary relished his triumph for a while, and then demanded (like the postman, but with what different expectations!) to see the contents of the knapsack. And here the Arethusa, not yet sufficiently awake to his position, fell into a grave mistake. There was little or no furniture in the room except the Commissary's chair and table; and to facilitate matters, the Arethusa (with all the innocence on earth) leant the knapsack on a corner of the bed. The Commissary fairly bounded from his seat; his face and neck flushed past purple, almost into blue; and he screamed to lay the desecrating object on the floor.
The culprit stayed quiet under this home truth, and the Commissary enjoyed his victory for a moment before asking (like the postman, but with very different expectations!) to see what was inside the knapsack. At this point, the Arethusa, still not fully aware of his situation, made a serious mistake. There was hardly any furniture in the room except for the Commissary's chair and table; to make things easier, the Arethusa (completely innocently) set the knapsack on a corner of the bed. The Commissary jumped out of his seat; his face and neck turned a deep shade, almost blue; and he shouted to put the offending object on the floor.
The knapsack proved to contain a change of shirts, of shoes, of socks, and of linen trousers, a small dressing-case, a piece of soap in one of the shoes, two volumes of the Collection Jannet lettered "Poésies de Charles d'Orleans," a map, and a version-book containing divers notes in prose and the remarkable English roundels of the voyager, still to this day unpublished: the Commissary of Châtillon is the only living man who has clapped an eye on these artistic trifles. He turned the assortment over with a contumelious finger; it was plain from his daintiness that he regarded the Arethusa and all his belongings as the very temple of infection. Still there was nothing suspicious about the map, nothing really criminal except the roundels; as for Charles of Orleans, to the ignorant mind of the prisoner, he seemed as good as a certificate; and it was supposed the farce was nearly over.
The backpack turned out to have a change of shirts, shoes, socks, and linen pants, a small toiletry bag, a bar of soap in one of the shoes, two volumes of the Collection Jannet labeled "Poésies de Charles d'Orleans," a map, and a notebook with various prose notes and the remarkable English roundels from the traveler, which have still not been published: the Commissary of Châtillon is the only living person who has seen these artistic treasures. He picked through the items with a disrespectful finger; it was clear from his delicateness that he saw the Arethusa and all its contents as a breeding ground for germs. However, the map looked harmless, and there was nothing seriously incriminating aside from the roundels; as for Charles of Orleans, to the uninformed mind of the prisoner, he seemed like a sort of guarantee; and it was assumed the farce was almost over.
The inquisitor resumed his seat.
The inquisitor took his seat.
The Commissary (after a pause): "Eh bien, je vais[Pg 128] vous dire ce que vous êtes. Vous êtes allemand el vous venez chanter à la foire." (Well, then, I will tell you what you are. You are a German, and have come to sing at the fair.)
The Commissary (after a pause): "Well, I’m going to tell you what you are. You’re German, and you’ve come to sing at the fair." [Pg 128]
The Arethusa: "Would you like to hear me sing? I believe I could convince you of the contrary."
The Arethusa: "Do you want to hear me sing? I think I could change your mind."
The Commissary: "Pas de plaisanterie, monsieur!"
The Commissary: "No jokes, dude!"
The Arethusa: "Well, sir, oblige me at least by looking at this book. Here, I open it with my eyes shut. Read one of these songs—read this one—and tell me, you who are a man of intelligence, if it would be possible to sing it at a fair?"
The Arethusa: "Well, sir, at least do me a favor and look at this book. Here, I'm opening it with my eyes closed. Read one of these songs—read this one—and tell me, you who are an intelligent person, if it would be possible to sing it at a fair?"
The Commissary (critically): "Mais oui. Tres bien."
The Commissary (critically): "But yes. Very good."
The Arethusa: "Comment, monsieur! What! But do you not observe it is antique? It is difficult to understand, even for you and me; but for the audience at a fair, it would be meaningless."
The Arethusa: "What?! Seriously, don’t you see it’s old-fashioned? It’s tough to grasp, even for us; but for people at a fair, it would just be pointless."
The Commissary (taking a pen): "Enfin, il faut en finir. What is your name?"
The Commissary (taking a pen): "Finally, it has to end. What's your name?"
The Arethusa (speaking with the swallowing vivacity of the English): "Robert-Louis-Stev'ns'n."
The Arethusa (speaking with the lively energy typical of the English): "Robert-Louis-Stevenson."
The Commissary (aghast): "Hé! Quoi?"
The Commissary (shocked): "Hey! What?"
The Arethusa (perceiving and improving his advantage): "Rob'rt-Lou's-Stev'ns'n."
The Arethusa (recognizing and taking advantage of his opportunity): "Robert Louis Stevenson."
The Commissary (after several conflicts with his pen): "Eh bien, il faut se passer du nom. Ça ne s'écrit pas." (Well, we must do without the name: it is unspellable.)
The Commissary (after several conflicts with his pen): "Well, we have to do without the name. It's unspellable."
The above is a rough summary of this momentous conversation, in which I have been chiefly careful to preserve the plums of the Commissary; but the remainder of the scene, perhaps because of his rising anger, has left but little definite in the memory of the Arethusa. The Commissary was not, I think, a practiced literary man; no sooner, at least, had he taken pen in hand and embarked on the composition of the procès-verbal, than he became distinctly more uncivil, and began to show a predilection for that simplest of all forms of repartee: "You lie." Several times the Arethusa let it pass, and then suddenly[Pg 129] flared up, refused to accept more insults or to answer further questions, defied the Commissary to do his worst, and promised him, if he did, that he should bitterly repent it. Perhaps if he had worn this proud front from the first, instead of beginning with a sense of entertainment and then going on to argue, the thing might have turned otherwise; for even at this eleventh hour the Commissary was visibly staggered. But it was too late; he had been challenged; the procès-verbal was begun; and he again squared his elbows over his writing, and the Arethusa was led forth a prisoner.
The above is a rough summary of this significant conversation, where I've made sure to highlight the key points from the Commissary; however, the rest of the scene, perhaps due to his growing anger, has left little clear in the memory of the Arethusa. I don't think the Commissary was a seasoned writer; as soon as he picked up the pen and started drafting the procès-verbal, he became noticeably rude and began to favor the simplest form of comeback: "You lie." The Arethusa ignored this several times, but then suddenly[Pg 129] snapped back, refusing to take any more insults or answer further questions, challenging the Commissary to do his worst, and promising that he would deeply regret it if he did. Maybe if he had taken a strong stance from the beginning instead of starting off with amusement and then resorting to arguments, things might have turned out differently; even at this late point, the Commissary was clearly taken aback. But it was too late; he had been challenged; the procès-verbal was in progress, and he braced himself over his writing, while the Arethusa was taken away as a prisoner.
A step or two down the hot road stood the gendarmerie. Thither was our unfortunate conducted, and there he was bidden to empty forth the contents of his pockets. A handkerchief, a pen, a pencil, a pipe and tobacco, matches, and some ten francs of change: that was all. Not a file, not a cipher, not a scrap of writing whether to identify or to condemn. The very gendarme was appalled before such destitution.
A step or two down the hot road stood the police station. There, our unfortunate friend was taken, and he was told to empty his pockets. A handkerchief, a pen, a pencil, a pipe and tobacco, matches, and about ten francs in change: that was all. No tools, no codes, no bits of writing to identify or incriminate him. Even the officer was shocked by such emptiness.
"I regret," he said, "that I arrested you, for I see that you are no voyou." And he promised him every indulgence.
"I regret," he said, "that I arrested you, because I see that you are no voyou." And he promised him every indulgence.
The Arethusa, thus encouraged, asked for his pipe. That he was told was impossible, but if he chewed, he might have some tobacco. He did not chew, however, and asked instead to have his handkerchief.
The Arethusa, feeling motivated, asked for his pipe. He was informed that it was impossible, but if he chewed, he could have some tobacco. He didn’t chew, though, and instead asked for his handkerchief.
"Non," said the gendarme. "Nous avons eu des histoires de gens qui se sont pendus." (No, we have had histories of people who hanged themselves.)
"No," said the officer. "We've had stories of people who hanged themselves."
"What!" cried the Arethusa. "And is it for that you refuse me my handkerchief? But see how much more easily I could hang myself in my trousers!"
"What!" exclaimed the Arethusa. "And is that why you won’t give me my handkerchief? But look how much easier it would be for me to hang myself with my pants!"
The man was struck by the novelty of the idea, but he stuck to his colours, and only continued to repeat vague offers of service.
The man was intrigued by the new idea, but he remained loyal to his principles and just kept making vague offers to help.
"At least," said the Arethusa, "be sure that you arrest my comrade; he will follow me ere long on the same road, and you can tell him by the sack upon his shoulders."[Pg 130]
"At least," said the Arethusa, "make sure you catch my friend; he’ll be following me down the same path soon, and you can recognize him by the sack on his back."[Pg 130]
This promised, the prisoner was led round into the back court of the building, a cellar door was opened, he was motioned down the stair, and bolts grated and chains clanged behind his descending person.
This promised, the prisoner was taken to the back courtyard of the building, a cellar door was opened, he was signaled to go down the stairs, and bolts grated and chains clattered behind him as he descended.
The philosophic and still more the imaginative mind is apt to suppose itself prepared for any mortal accident. Prison, among other ills, was one that had been often faced by the undaunted Arethusa. Even as he went down the stairs, he was telling himself that here was a famous occasion for a roundel, and that like the committed linnets of the tuneful cavalier, he too would make his prison musical. I will tell the truth at once: the roundel was never written, or it should be printed in this place, to raise a smile. Two reasons interfered: the first moral, the second physical.
The philosophical and even more the creative mind tends to think it's ready for any kind of trouble. Prison, among other misfortunes, was one that the fearless Arethusa had often encountered. As he went down the stairs, he reminded himself that this was a perfect opportunity for a poem, and that like the dedicated songbirds of the musical cavalier, he too would make his time in prison enjoyable. I'll be honest right away: the poem was never written, or it would be included here to bring a smile. Two reasons got in the way: the first was moral, the second was physical.
It is one of the curiosities of human nature, that although all men are liars, they can none of them bear to be told so of themselves. To get and take the lie with equanimity is a stretch beyond the stoic; and the Arethusa, who had been surfeited upon that insult, was blazing inwardly with a white heat of smothered wrath. But the physical had also its part. The cellar in which he was confined was some feet underground, and it was only lighted by an unglazed, narrow aperture high up in the wall, and smothered in the leaves of a green vine. The walls were of naked masonry, the floor of bare earth; by way of furniture there was an earthenware basin, a water-jug, and a wooden bedstead with a blue-grey cloak for bedding. To be taken from the hot air of a summer's afternoon, the reverberation of the road and the stir of rapid exercise, and plunged into the gloom and damp of this receptacle for vagabonds, struck an instant chill upon the Arethusa's blood. Now see in how small a matter a hardship may consist: the floor was exceedingly uneven under foot, with the very spade-marks, I suppose, of the labourers who dug the foundations of the barrack; and what with the poor twilight and the irregular surface,[Pg 131] walking was impossible. The caged author resisted for a good while, but the chill of the place struck deeper and deeper; and at length, with such reluctance as you may fancy, he was driven to climb upon the bed and wrap himself in the public covering. There, then, he lay upon the verge of shivering, plunged in semi-darkness, wound in a garment whose touch he dreaded like the plague, and (in a spirit far removed from resignation) telling the roll of the insults he had just received. These are not circumstances favourable to the muse.
It’s one of the oddities of human nature that even though everyone lies, none can tolerate being called a liar. Taking a lie calmly is a challenge even for the most stoic; and the Arethusa, who had been overwhelmed by that insult, was seething with suppressed anger. But the physical aspect played a role too. The cellar he was trapped in was several feet underground, lit only by a small, unglazed opening high in the wall, covered by a tangle of green vines. The walls were bare masonry, and the floor was just dirt; the only furniture was a clay basin, a pitcher for water, and a wooden bedframe with a blue-grey cloak for bedding. Being pulled from the hot air of a summer afternoon, the sounds of the road, and the rush of activity, and thrown into the chill and dampness of this pit for outcasts brought an immediate coldness to the Arethusa's blood. Notice how a hardship can come in small ways: the floor was extremely uneven underfoot, with the very spade marks, I suppose, of the workers who dug the barrack's foundation; and with the weak light and the bumpy surface, [Pg 131] walking was impossible. The imprisoned author resisted for a long time, but the coldness of the space seeped deeper and deeper; eventually, with a reluctance you can imagine, he had to climb onto the bed and wrap himself in the shared cloak. There he lay, on the edge of shivering, engulfed in semi-darkness, wrapped in a garment he dreaded like a disease, and (with a mindset far from acceptance) recounting the series of insults he had just endured. These aren’t conditions conducive to inspiration.
Meantime (to look at the upper surface where the sun was still shining and the guns of sportsmen were still noisy through the tufted plain) the Cigarette was drawing near at his more philosophic pace. In those days of liberty and health he was the constant partner of the Arethusa, and had ample opportunity to share in that gentleman's disfavour with the police. Many a bitter bowl had he partaken of with that disastrous comrade. He was himself a man born to float easily through life, his face and manner artfully recommending him to all. There was but one suspicious circumstance he could not carry off, and that was his companion. He will not readily forget the Commissary in what is ironically called the free town of Frankfort-on-the-Main; nor the Franco-Belgian frontier; nor the inn at La Fère; last, but not least, he is pretty certain to remember Châtillon-sur-Loire.
Meanwhile (to look at the upper surface where the sun was still shining and the sound of hunters was still noisy through the grassy plain), the Cigarette was approaching at his more relaxed pace. Back in those days of freedom and good health, he was the constant companion of the Arethusa, and had plenty of chances to share in that gentleman's trouble with the police. He had shared many a bitter moment with that unfortunate friend. He was someone who was born to glide smoothly through life, his looks and demeanor charming everyone around him. There was just one suspicious aspect he couldn’t quite pull off, and that was his companion. He won’t easily forget the Commissary in what is ironically called the free town of Frankfort-on-the-Main; nor the Franco-Belgian border; nor the inn at La Fère; and last, but not least, he is likely to remember Châtillon-sur-Loire.
At the town entry, the gendarme culled him like a wayside flower; and a moment later two persons in a high state of surprise were confronted in the Commissary's office. For if the Cigarette was surprised to be arrested, the Commissary was no less taken aback by the appearance and appointments of his captive. Here was a man about whom there could be no mistake: a man of an unquestionable and unassailable manner, in apple-pie order, dressed not with neatness merely but elegance, ready with his passport at a word, and well supplied with money: a man the Commissary would have doffed his hat to on chance[Pg 132] upon the highway; and this beau cavalier unblushingly claimed the Arethusa for his comrade! The conclusion of the interview was foregone; of its humours I remember only one. "Baronet?" demanded the magistrate, glancing up from the passport. "Alors, monsieur, vous êtes le fils d'un baron?" And when the Cigarette (his one mistake throughout the interview) denied the soft impeachment, "Alors," from the Commissary, "ce n'est pas voire passeport!" But these were ineffectual thunders; he never dreamed of laying hands upon the Cigarette; presently he fell into a mood of unrestrained admiration, gloating over the contents of the knapsack, commending our friend's tailor. Ah! what an honoured guest was the Commissary entertaining! What suitable clothes he wore for the warm weather! What beautiful maps, what an attractive work of history he carried in his knapsack! You are to understand there was now but one point of difference between them: what was to be done with the Arethusa? the Cigarette demanding his release, the Commissary still claiming him as the dungeon's own. Now it chanced that the Cigarette had passed some years of his life in Egypt, where he had made acquaintance with two very bad things, cholera morbus and pashas; and in the eye of the Commissary, as he fingered the volume of Michelet, it seemed to our traveller there was something Turkish. I pass over this lightly; it is highly possible there was some misunderstanding, highly possible that the Commissary (charmed with his visitor) supposed the attraction to be mutual, and took for an act of growing friendship what the Cigarette himself regarded as a bribe. And at any rate, was there ever a bribe more singular than an odd volume of Michelet's history! The work was promised him for the morrow, before our departure; and presently after, either because he had his price, or to show that he was not the man to be behind in friendly offices, "Eh bien," he said, "je suppose qu'il faut lâcher votre camarade." And he tore up that feast of humour, the unfinished procès-verbal.[Pg 133] Ah, if he had only torn up instead the Arethusa's roundels! There are many works burnt at Alexandria, there are many treasured in the British Museum, that I could better spare than the procès-verbal of Châtillon. Poor bubuckled Commissary! I begin to be sorry that he never had his Michelet: perceiving in him fine human traits, a broad-based stupidity, a gusto in his magisterial functions, a taste for letters, a ready admiration for the admirable. And if he did not admire the Arethusa, he was not alone in that.
At the town entrance, the police officer picked him up like a wildflower; moments later, two surprised individuals faced each other in the Commissioner's office. If the Cigarette was shocked by his arrest, the Commissioner was equally surprised by how his captive looked and presented himself. Here was a man beyond question: a man with an undeniable and confident demeanor, impeccably dressed, not just neatly but elegantly, ready with his passport at a moment's notice, and well-stocked with money. The Commissioner would have tipped his hat to him had they crossed paths on the road; and this handsome gentleman boldly claimed the Arethusa as his friend! The outcome of the meeting was predictable; I only recall one humorous moment. "Baronet?" the magistrate asked, glancing up from the passport. "Alors, monsieur, vous êtes le fils d'un baron?" And when the Cigarette (his one mistake during the whole meeting) denied the accusation, "Alors," replied the Commissioner, "ce n'est pas voire passeport!" But these were empty threats; he never dreamed of arresting the Cigarette; soon he fell into a mood of unrestrained admiration, marveling at the contents of the knapsack, praising our friend's tailor. Ah! what a distinguished guest the Commissioner was hosting! What appropriate clothes he wore for the warm weather! What beautiful maps, what an intriguing history book he had in his bag! You should understand that there was only one point of contention between them: what to do with the Arethusa? The Cigarette insisting on his release, while the Commissioner still claimed him as belonging to the dungeon. It happened that the Cigarette had spent some years in Egypt, where he had encountered two very unpleasant things, cholera and pashas; and in the Commissioner's eyes, as he flipped through Michelet's volume, there seemed to be something Turkish to our traveler. I mention this lightly; it's very possible there was some misunderstanding, likely that the Commissioner (enamored with his guest) thought the interest was mutual and interpreted what the Cigarette saw as a bribe as an act of growing friendship. And in any case, was there ever a bribe more unusual than a single volume of Michelet's history? The work was promised to him for the next day, before their departure; and soon after, either because he had his price or to show that he wasn't one to fall behind in friendly gestures, "Eh bien," he said, "je suppose qu'il faut lâcher votre camarade." And he tore up that amusing document, the unfinished procès-verbal.[Pg 133] Ah, if only he had torn up the Arethusa's roundels instead! There are many works burned at Alexandria, many protected in the British Museum, that I could better part with than the procès-verbal of Châtillon. Poor hapless Commissioner! I start to feel sorry that he never got his Michelet: seeing in him fine human qualities, a deep-seated foolishness, a joy in his official duties, an appreciation for literature, and a quick admiration for what was admirable. And if he didn't admire the Arethusa, he wasn't alone in that.
To the imprisoned one, shivering under the public covering, there came suddenly a noise of bolts and chains. He sprang to his feet, ready to welcome a companion in calamity; and instead of that, the door was flung wide, the friendly gendarme appeared above in the strong daylight, and with a magnificent gesture (being probably a student of the drama)—"Vous êtes libre!" he said. None too soon for the Arethusa. I doubt if he had been half an hour imprisoned; but by the watch in a man's brain (which was the only watch he carried) he should have been eight times longer; and he passed forth with ecstasy up the cellar stairs into the healing warmth of the afternoon sun; and the breath of the earth came as sweet as a cow's into his nostril; and he heard again (and could have laughed for pleasure) the concord of delicate noises that we call the hum of life.
To the one in prison, shivering under the public cover, there suddenly came the sound of bolts and chains. He jumped to his feet, ready to greet a fellow sufferer; but instead, the door swung open, and the friendly officer appeared above in the bright daylight, making a grand gesture (probably a drama student)—"You are free!" he said. Just in time for the Arethusa. I doubt he had been locked up for even half an hour; but by the stopwatch of a man's mind (which was the only timepiece he had), he felt like it had been eight times longer. He stepped out with joy up the cellar stairs into the soothing warmth of the afternoon sun; and the scent of the earth came as sweet as a cow's breath into his nostrils; and he heard again (and could have laughed with happiness) the harmony of gentle sounds that we call the hum of life.
And here it might be thought that my history ended; but not so, this was an act-drop and not the curtain. Upon what followed in front of the barrack, since there was a lady in the case, I scruple to expatiate. The wife of the Maréchal-des-logis was a handsome woman, and yet the Arethusa was not sorry to be gone from her society. Something of her image, cool as a peach on that hot afternoon, still lingers in his memory: yet more of her conversation. "You have there a very fine parlour," said the poor gentleman. "Ah!" said Madame la Maréchale (des-logis), "you are very well acquainted with such parlours!" And you should have seen with what a hard and scornful[Pg 134] eye she measured the vagabond before her! I do not think he ever hated the Commissary; but before that interview was at an end, he hated Madame la Maréchale. His passion (as I am led to understand by one who was present) stood confessed in a burning eye, a pale cheek, and a trembling utterance; Madame, meanwhile tasting the joys of the matador, goading him with barbed words and staring him coldly down.
And here it might seem that my story comes to an end; but that's not the case, this was just an act-drop and not the final curtain. Regarding what happened in front of the barrack, since a woman was involved, I hesitate to elaborate. The wife of the Maréchal-des-logis was an attractive woman, and yet the Arethusa was not unhappy to leave her company. A bit of her image, as cool as a peach on that hot afternoon, still lingers in his memory; even more so, her conversation. "You have a very nice living room," said the poor gentleman. "Ah!" replied Madame la Maréchale (des-logis), "you seem quite familiar with such living rooms!" You should have seen the hard and disdainful [Pg 134] look she gave the vagabond before her! I don’t think he ever really hated the Commissary; but by the end of that encounter, he definitely hated Madame la Maréchale. His emotions (as I’ve been told by someone who witnessed it) were clear in his burning eyes, pale cheeks, and trembling voice; meanwhile, Madame, enjoying her role as the matador, poked at him with sharp words and stared him down coldly.
It was certainly good to be away from this lady, and better still to sit down to an excellent dinner in the inn. Here, too, the despised travellers scraped acquaintance with their next neighbour, a gentleman of these parts, returned from the day's sport, who had the good taste to find pleasure in their society. The dinner at an end, the gentleman proposed the acquaintance should be ripened in the café.
It was definitely nice to be away from this woman, and even better to enjoy a delicious dinner at the inn. Here, too, the travelers, who were often looked down upon, struck up a conversation with their neighbor, a local gentleman returning from a day of hunting, who had the good sense to enjoy their company. Once dinner was over, the gentleman suggested that they continue getting to know each other at the café.
The café was crowded with sportsmen conclamantly explaining to each other and the world the smallness of their bags. About the centre of the room the Cigarette and the Arethusa sat with their new acquaintance; a trio very well pleased, for the travellers (after their late experience) were greedy of consideration, and their sportsman rejoiced in a pair of patient listeners. Suddenly the glass door flew open with a crash; the Maréchal-des-logis appeared in the interval, gorgeously belted and befrogged, entered with salutation, strode up the room with a clang of spurs and weapons, and disappeared through a door at the far end. Close at his heels followed the Arethusa's gendarme of the afternoon, imitating, with a nice shade of difference, the imperial bearing of his chief; only, as he passed, he struck lightly with his open hand on the shoulder of his late captive, and with that ringing, dramatic utterance of which he had the secret—"Suivez!" said he.
The café was packed with athletes loudly discussing the smallness of their bags to each other and anyone who would listen. In the middle of the room, the Cigarette and the Arethusa were sitting with their new friend, looking very pleased. After their recent experience, the travelers were eager for attention, and their companion enjoyed having two attentive listeners. Suddenly, the glass door burst open with a crash; the Maréchal-des-logis appeared, decked out with a fancy belt and buttons, greeted everyone as he strode up the room with the sound of clanking spurs and weapons, and then vanished through a door at the far end. Right behind him was the Arethusa's gendarme from earlier in the day, trying to mimic his leader’s commanding presence, but as he passed by, he lightly tapped his former captive on the shoulder and said, in a dramatic tone he had mastered, "Suivez!"
The arrest of the members, the oath of the Tennis Court, the signing of the Declaration of Independence, Mark Antony's oration, all the brave scenes of history, I conceive as having been not unlike that evening in the[Pg 135] café at Châtillon. Terror breathed upon the assembly. A moment later, when the Arethusa had followed his recaptors into the farther part of the house, the Cigarette found himself alone with his coffee in a ring of empty chairs and tables, all the lusty sportsmen huddled into corners, all their clamorous voices hushed in whispering, all their eyes shooting at him furtively as at a leper.
The arrest of the members, the Tennis Court oath, the signing of the Declaration of Independence, Mark Antony's speech—these brave moments in history remind me of that evening in the [Pg 135] café at Châtillon. There was a sense of fear in the air. Moments later, after the Arethusa had followed its captors into another part of the house, the Cigarette found himself alone with his coffee, surrounded by empty chairs and tables. All the boisterous sportsmen had gathered in corners, their loud voices now reduced to whispers, their eyes darting towards him cautiously, as if he were a leper.
And the Arethusa? Well, he had a long, sometimes a trying, interview in the back kitchen. The Maréchal-des-logis, who was a very handsome man, and I believe both intelligent and honest, had no clear opinion on the case. He thought the Commissary had done wrong, but he did not wish to get his subordinates into trouble; and he proposed this, that, and the other, to all of which the Arethusa (with a growing sense of his position) demurred.
And the Arethusa? Well, he had a lengthy and sometimes difficult interview in the back kitchen. The Maréchal-des-logis, who was a very good-looking man and, I believe, both smart and honest, didn’t have a definite opinion on the matter. He thought the Commissary had made a mistake but didn’t want to get his subordinates in trouble; so he suggested this, that, and the other, to which the Arethusa (with an increasing awareness of his status) objected.
"In short," suggested the Arethusa, "you want to wash your hands of further responsibility? Well, then, let me go to Paris."
"In short," suggested the Arethusa, "you want to be done with any further responsibility? Well, then, let me go to Paris."
The Maréchal-des-logis looked at his watch.
The sergeant looked at his watch.
"You may leave," said he, "by the ten o'clock train for Paris."
"You can leave," he said, "on the ten o'clock train to Paris."
And at noon the next day the travellers were telling their misadventure in the dining-room at Siron's.
And at noon the next day, the travelers were sharing their misadventure in the dining room at Siron's.
TRAVELS WITH A DONKEY
IN THE CEVENNES
[Pg 140]My dear Sidney Colvin,
My dear Sidney Colvin,
The journey which this little book is to describe was very agreeable and fortunate for me. After an uncouth beginning, I had the best of luck to the end. But we are all travellers in what John Bunyan calls the wilderness of this world—all, too, travellers with a donkey; and the best that we find in our travels is an honest friend. He is a fortunate voyager who finds many. We travel, indeed, to find them. They are the end and the reward of life. They keep us worthy of ourselves; and when we are alone, we are only nearer to the absent.
The journey this little book describes was truly enjoyable and fortunate for me. After a rough start, I ended up having great luck all along the way. But we are all travelers in what John Bunyan refers to as the wilderness of this world—we're all travelers with a donkey; and the best we can find on our journeys is a true friend. Those who find many friends are indeed lucky travelers. In fact, we travel to discover them. They are the ultimate goal and reward of life. They keep us true to ourselves; and when we’re alone, we feel even more connected to those who are absent.
Every book is, in an intimate sense, a circular letter to the friends of him who writes it. They alone take his meaning; they find private messages, assurances of love, and expressions of gratitude, dropped for them in every corner. The public is but a generous patron who defrays the postage. Yet though the letter is directed to all, we have an old and kindly custom of addressing it on the outside to one. Of what shall a man be proud, if he is not proud of his friends? And so, my dear Sidney Colvin, it is with pride that I sign myself
Every book is, in a personal way, a letter to the friends of the author. They are the ones who truly understand his message; they find private notes, expressions of love, and gratitude woven throughout. The public is just a generous supporter who pays for the delivery. Although the letter is intended for everyone, we have a nice tradition of addressing it to one specific person. What can a man take pride in if not his friends? So, my dear Sidney Colvin, it is with pride that I sign myself
Affectionately yours,
Affectionately yours,
R. L. S.
R. L. S.
VELAY
is stronger than a person.... He
controls the tenant of the
fields.
SOPHOCLES.
JOB.
TRAVELS WITH A DONKEY
THE DONKEY, THE PACK, AND THE PACK-SADDLE
In a little place called Le Monastier, in a pleasant highland valley fifteen miles from Le Puy, I spent about a month of fine days. Monastier is notable for the making of lace, for drunkenness, for freedom of language, and for unparalleled political dissension. There are adherents of each of the four French parties—Legitimists, Orleanists, Imperialists, and Republicans—in this little mountain-town; and they all hate, loathe, decry, and calumniate each other. Except for business purposes, or to give each other the lie in a tavern brawl, they have laid aside even the civility of speech. 'Tis a mere mountain Poland. In the midst of this Babylon I found myself a rallying-point; every one was anxious to be kind and helpful to the stranger. This was not merely from the natural hospitality of mountain people, nor even from the surprise with which I was regarded as a man living of his own free will in Le Monastier, when he might just as well have lived anywhere else in this big world; it arose a good deal from my projected excursion southward through the Cevennes. A traveller of my sort was a thing hitherto unheard-of in that district. I was looked upon with contempt, like a man who should project a journey to the moon, but yet with a respectful interest, like one setting forth for the inclement Pole. All were ready to help in my preparations; a crowd of sympathizers supported me at the critical moment of a bargain; not a step was taken but was[Pg 144] heralded by glasses round and celebrated by a dinner or a breakfast.
In a small place called Le Monastier, in a lovely highland valley fifteen miles from Le Puy, I spent about a month enjoying nice weather. Monastier is known for its lace making, heavy drinking, colorful language, and intense political disagreements. This little mountain town has supporters of all four French political parties—Legitimists, Orleanists, Imperialists, and Republicans—and they all despise, criticize, and slander one another. Aside from business dealings or to argue in a bar fight, they've even set aside basic politeness. It's like a mountain version of Poland. In the midst of this chaos, I found myself as a point of gathering; everyone wanted to be kind and helpful to the outsider. This wasn’t just due to the natural hospitality of mountain folks, or even because they were surprised that someone would choose to live in Le Monastier when they could live anywhere else in the world; it had a lot to do with my plans to travel south through the Cevennes. A traveler like me was an unheard-of sight in that area. They looked at me with disdain, like someone planning a trip to the moon, but also with a respectful curiosity, like a person setting off for the harsh North Pole. Everyone was eager to assist with my preparations; a group of supporters backed me during the crucial moments of negotiations; every step I took was[Pg 144] marked by rounds of drinks and celebrated with a dinner or breakfast.
It was already hard upon October before I was ready to set forth, and at the high altitudes over which my road lay there was no Indian summer to be looked for. I was determined, if not to camp out, at least to have the means of camping out in my possession; for there is nothing more harassing to an easy mind than the necessity of reaching shelter by dusk, and the hospitality of a village inn is not always to be reckoned sure by those who trudge on foot. A tent, above all, for a solitary traveller, is troublesome to pitch and troublesome to strike again; and even on the march it forms a conspicuous feature in your baggage. A sleeping-sack, on the other hand, is always ready—you have only to get into it; it serves a double purpose—a bed by night, a portmanteau by day; and it does not advertise your intention of camping out to every curious passer-by. This is a huge point. If a camp is not secret, it is but a troubled resting-place; you become a public character; the convivial rustic visits your bedside after an early supper; and you must sleep with one eye open, and be up before the day. I decided on a sleeping-sack; and after repeated visits to Le Puy, and a deal of high living for myself and my advisers, a sleeping-sack was designed, constructed, and triumphantly brought home.
It was already late October by the time I was ready to head out, and at the high altitudes along my route, there was no Indian summer to expect. I was determined, if not to camp out, at least to have the option to camp with me; nothing is more stressful for a relaxed mind than having to make it to shelter by dusk, and the hospitality of a village inn can't always be counted on by those who walk. A tent, especially for a solo traveler, is a hassle to set up and take down again; even while traveling, it stands out in your luggage. A sleeping bag, on the other hand, is always ready—you just have to get into it; it serves a dual purpose—a bed at night and a suitcase during the day; and it doesn’t reveal your camping intentions to every curious passerby. This is a big deal. If a camp isn’t discreet, it becomes a troubling resting spot; you turn into a public figure; the friendly local drops by to chat after an early dinner; and you have to sleep with one eye open and be on your feet before dawn. I chose a sleeping bag; and after multiple trips to Le Puy, and quite a bit of indulgence for myself and my advisors, a sleeping bag was designed, made, and proudly brought home.
This child of my invention was nearly six feet square, exclusive of two triangular flaps to serve as a pillow by night and as the top and bottom of the sack by day. I call it "the sack," but it was never a sack by more than courtesy: only a sort of long roll or sausage, green waterproof cart-cloth without and blue sheep's fur within. It was commodious as a valise, warm and dry for a bed. There was luxurious turning room for one; and at a pinch the thing might serve for two. I could bury myself in it up to the neck; for my head I trusted to a fur cap, with a hood to fold down over my ears, and a band to pass under[Pg 145] my nose like a respirator; and in case of heavy rain I proposed to make myself a little tent, or tentlet, with my waterproof coat, three stones, and a bent branch.
This creation of mine was almost six feet square, not counting two triangular flaps that worked as a pillow at night and as the top and bottom of the sack during the day. I call it "the sack," but it was really only a long roll or sausage, made of green waterproof fabric on the outside and blue sheep’s fur on the inside. It was as spacious as a suitcase, warm and dry for sleeping. There was plenty of room for one person, and if necessary, it could fit two. I could snuggle into it up to my neck; for my head, I relied on a fur cap with a hood that I could pull down over my ears, and a strap that went under[Pg 145] my nose like a respirator; and if it rained heavily, I planned to make a small tent with my waterproof coat, three stones, and a bent branch.
It will readily be conceived that I could not carry this huge package on my own, merely human, shoulders. It remained to choose a beast of burden. Now, a horse is a fine lady among animals—flighty, timid, delicate in eating, of tender health; he is too valuable and too restive to be left alone, so that you are chained to your brute as to a fellow galley-slave; a dangerous road puts him out of his wits; in short, he's an uncertain and exacting ally, and adds thirty-fold to the troubles of the voyager. What I required was something cheap and small and hardy, and of a stolid and peaceful temper; and all these requisites pointed to a donkey.
It’s easy to see that I couldn’t carry this huge package on my own, human shoulders. I needed to pick a pack animal. A horse is like a fancy lady among animals—nervous, sensitive, and picky about food; too valuable and too high-strung to be left unattended, so you’re stuck with your horse like a fellow prisoner; a tough journey drives him crazy; in short, he’s an unreliable and demanding companion, and adds a ton of stress for the traveler. What I really needed was something cheap, small, tough, and calm; all of these qualities pointed to a donkey.
There dwelt an old man in Monastier, of rather unsound intellect according to some, much followed by street-boys, and known to fame as Father Adam. Father Adam had a cart, and to draw the cart a diminutive she-ass, not much bigger than a dog, the colour of a mouse, with a kindly eye and a determined under-jaw. There was something neat and high-bred, a quakerish elegance, about the rogue that hit my fancy on the spot. Our first interview was in Monastier market-place. To prove her good temper, one child after another was set upon her back to ride, and one after another went head over heels into the air; until a want of confidence began to reign in youthful bosoms, and the experiment was discontinued from a dearth of subjects. I was already backed by a deputation of my friends; but as if this were not enough, all the buyers and sellers came round and helped me in the bargain; and the ass and I and Father Adam were the centre of a hubbub for near half an hour. At length she passed into my service for the consideration of sixty-five francs and a glass of brandy. The sack had already cost eighty francs and two glasses of beer; so that Modestine, as I instantly baptized her, was upon all accounts the[Pg 146] cheaper article. Indeed, that was as it should be; for she was only an appurtenance of my mattress, or self-acting bedstead on four castors.
There lived an old man in Monastier, who some said wasn’t all there mentally, often followed by street kids, and known as Father Adam. Father Adam had a cart, and to pull it, he had a tiny she-ass, not much bigger than a dog, mouse-colored, with a kind eye and a stubborn jaw. There was something neat and classy, almost Quaker-like, about the little creature that caught my attention immediately. Our first meeting was in the Monastier marketplace. To show her good nature, one kid after another was put on her back to ride, and one by one, they went flying off into the air; eventually, they started losing confidence, and we had to stop because there were no more kids willing. I was already backed by a group of friends; but as if that weren’t enough, all the buyers and sellers gathered around and helped me with the deal; the ass, Father Adam, and I were the center of a commotion for nearly half an hour. Finally, she became mine for sixty-five francs and a glass of brandy. The sack had already cost eighty francs and two glasses of beer; so, Modestine, as I immediately named her, was on the whole a[Pg 146] better deal. Indeed, that made sense since she was just an attachment to my mattress, or a self-moving bed on four wheels.
I had a last interview with Father Adam in a billiard-room at the witching hour of dawn, when I administered the brandy. He professed himself greatly touched by the separation, and declared he had often bought white bread for the donkey when he had been content with black bread for himself; but this, according to the best authorities, must have been a flight of fancy. He had a name in the village for brutally misusing the ass; yet it is certain that he shed a tear, and the tear made a clean mark down one cheek.
I had one final talk with Father Adam in the billiard room at the crack of dawn, when I served him some brandy. He said he was really emotional about our parting and claimed that he often bought white bread for the donkey while he settled for black bread himself; however, this seems to be a bit of an exaggeration. He was known in the village for being harsh with the donkey, yet it's clear that he shed a tear, which left a clean line down his cheek.
By the advice of a fallacious local saddler, a leather pad was made for me with rings to fasten on my bundle; and I thoughtfully completed my kit and arranged my toilette. By way of armoury and utensils, I took a revolver, a little spirit-lamp and pan, a lantern and some halfpenny candles, a jack-knife and a large leather flask. The main cargo consisted of two entire changes of warm clothing—besides my travelling wear of country velveteen, pilot-coat, and knitted spencer—some books, and my railway-rug, which, being also in the form of a bag, made me a double castle for cold nights. The permanent larder was represented by cakes of chocolate and tins of Bologna sausage. All this, except what I carried about my person, was easily stowed into the sheepskin bag; and by good fortune I threw in my empty knapsack, rather for convenience of carriage than from any thought that I should want it on my journey. For more immediate needs I took a leg of cold mutton, a bottle of Beaujolais, an empty bottle to carry milk, an egg-beater, and a considerable quantity of black bread and white, like Father Adam, for myself and donkey, only in my scheme of things the destinations were reversed.
By the advice of a misleading local saddler, I had a leather pad made for me with rings to attach to my bundle; then I thoughtfully finished my gear and got myself ready. For my supplies and tools, I packed a revolver, a small spirit lamp and pan, a lantern with some cheap candles, a jackknife, and a large leather flask. The main part of my cargo included two complete changes of warm clothing—besides my travel outfit of country velveteen, a pilot coat, and a knitted vest—some books, and my railway rug, which also functioned as a bag, making it a double shelter for chilly nights. My permanent food supply consisted of chocolate bars and tins of Bologna sausage. Everything, except what I carried on me, fit easily into the sheepskin bag; and by lucky chance, I stuffed in my empty knapsack, more for convenience than because I thought I would need it during my trip. For more immediate needs, I took a leg of cold mutton, a bottle of Beaujolais, an empty bottle for milk, an egg beater, and a good amount of both dark and white bread, like Father Adam, but in my plan, the destinations were reversed.
Monastrians, of all shades of thought in politics, had agreed in threatening me with many ludicrous misadventures, and with sudden death in many surprising[Pg 147] forms. Cold, wolves, robbers, above all the nocturnal practical joker, were daily and eloquently forced on my attention. Yet in these vaticinations, the true, patent danger was left out. Like Christian, it was from my pack I suffered by the way. Before telling my own mishaps, let me, in two words, relate the lesson of my experience. If the pack is well strapped at the ends, and hung at full length—not doubled, for your life—across the pack-saddle, the traveller is safe. The saddle will certainly not fit, such is the imperfection of our transitory life; it will assuredly topple and tend to overset; but there are stones on every roadside, and a man soon learns the art of correcting any tendency to overbalance with a well-adjusted stone.
Monastrians, no matter their political beliefs, all seemed to unite in threatening me with a variety of ridiculous misfortunes and unexpected deaths in countless surprising[Pg 147] ways. Cold weather, wolves, robbers, and especially the nighttime prankster, were constantly and vividly brought to my attention. Yet in these predictions, the real and obvious danger was ignored. Just like Christian, I suffered the most from my own group. Before I share my own misadventures, let me sum up the lesson I've learned in two words. If the pack is properly secured at the ends and hung straight—definitely not doubled, for your life—across the pack-saddle, the traveler is safe. The saddle will never fit perfectly, reflecting the flaws of our temporary existence; it will definitely wobble and risk tipping over; but there are stones along every road, and you quickly learn how to balance any tilting with a well-placed stone.
On the day of my departure I was up a little after five; by six, we began to load the donkey; and ten minutes after my hopes were in the dust. The pad would not stay on Modestine's back for half a moment. I returned it to its maker, with whom I had so contumelious a passage that the street outside was crowded from wall to wall with gossips looking on and listening. The pad changed hands with much vivacity; perhaps it would be more descriptive to say that we threw it at each other's heads; and, at any rate, we were very warm and unfriendly, and spoke with a deal of freedom.
On the day I was leaving, I got up a little after five. By six, we started loading the donkey, and ten minutes later, my hopes were shattered. The pad wouldn’t stay on Modestine’s back for even a moment. I took it back to its maker, and our exchange was so heated that the street outside was packed with onlookers eavesdropping. The pad changed hands with a lot of energy; it might be better to say we were throwing it at each other’s heads. Either way, we were quite heated and unfriendly, and spoke very freely.
I had a common donkey pack-saddle—a barde, as they call it—fitted upon Modestine; and once more loaded her with my effects. The doubled sack, my pilot-coat (for it was warm, and I was to walk in my waistcoat), a great bar of black bread, and an open basket containing the white bread, the mutton, and the bottles, were all corded together in a very elaborate system of knots, and I looked on the result with fatuous content. In such a monstrous deck-cargo, all poised above the donkey's shoulders, with nothing below to balance, on a brand-new pack-saddle that had not yet been worn to fit the animal, and fastened with brand-new girths that[Pg 148] might be expected to stretch and slacken by the way, even a very careless traveller should have seen disaster brewing. That elaborate system of knots, again, was the work of too many sympathizers to be very artfully designed. It is true they tightened the cords with a will; as many as three at a time would have a foot against Modestine's quarters, and be hauling with clenched teeth; but I learned afterwards that one thoughtful person, without any exercise of force, can make a more solid job than half a dozen heated and enthusiastic grooms. I was then but a novice; even after the misadventure of the pad nothing could disturb my security, and I went forth from the stable-door as an ox goeth to the slaughter.
I had a standard donkey pack-saddle—a barde, as they call it—attached to Modestine, and I once again loaded her with my stuff. The doubled sack, my pilot coat (since it was warm and I intended to walk in my waistcoat), a large piece of black bread, and an open basket filled with white bread, mutton, and bottles were all tied together in a complicated system of knots, and I looked at the outcome with foolish satisfaction. With such a massive load sitting on the donkey's back, with nothing underneath to balance it, on a brand-new pack-saddle that hadn't yet conformed to the animal, and secured with brand-new girths that[Pg 148] would likely stretch and loosen along the way, even a somewhat careless traveler should have sensed disaster looming. That complicated knot system was the result of too many well-meaning people to be very skillfully designed. It’s true they pulled the cords tightly; as many as three at a time would have a foot against Modestine's side, straining with gritted teeth; but I later realized that one careful person, without any force, can create a more secure setup than half a dozen eager and excited hands. I was still inexperienced; even after the earlier trouble with the pad, nothing could shake my confidence, and I stepped out from the stable way too boldly, like an ox heading to its slaughter.
THE GREEN DONKEY-DRIVER
The bell of Monastier was just striking nine as I got quit of these preliminary troubles and descended the hill through the common. As long as I was within sight of the windows, a secret shame and the fear of some laughable defeat withheld me from tampering with Modestine. She tripped along upon her four small hoofs with a sober daintiness of gait; from time to time she shook her ears or her tail; and she looked so small under the bundle that my mind misgave me. We got across the ford without difficulty—there was no doubt about the matter, she was docility itself—and once on the other bank, where the road begins to mount through pine woods, I took in my right hand the unhallowed staff, and with a quaking spirit applied it to the donkey. Modestine brisked up her pace for perhaps three steps, and then relapsed into her former minuet. Another application had the same effect, and so with the third. I am worthy the name of an Englishman, and it goes against my conscience to lay my hand rudely on a female. I desisted, and looked her all over from head to foot; the poor brute's knees were trembling and her breathing was distressed; it was plain that she could go no faster on a hill. God forbid, thought I, that I should brutalize this innocent creature; let her go at her own pace, and let me patiently follow.
The bell of Monastier was just ringing nine as I finished up these initial issues and headed down the hill through the common. As long as I could see the windows, a secret shame and the fear of some embarrassing failure kept me from pushing Modestine. She trotted along on her four small hooves with a delicate and precise gait; occasionally, she shook her ears or tail; and she looked so small under the load that I started to doubt. We crossed the ford easily—there was no question about it; she was incredibly well-behaved—and once we reached the other side, where the road begins to climb through the pine woods, I took the unholy staff in my right hand and, feeling nervous, applied it to the donkey. Modestine picked up her pace for maybe three steps before slipping back into her slow rhythm. A second tap had the same result, as did the third. I am proud to be called an Englishman, and it goes against my principles to treat a female roughly. I stopped and examined her from head to toe; the poor creature's knees were shaking and she was breathing heavily; it was clear she couldn't go any faster uphill. God forbid, I thought, that I should mistreat this innocent animal; let her go at her own speed, and I will patiently follow.
What that pace was there is no word mean enough to describe; it was something as much slower than a walk as a walk is slower than a run; it kept me hanging on each foot for an incredible length of time; in five minutes it exhausted the spirit and set up a fever in all the muscles of the leg. And yet I had to keep close at hand and[Pg 150] measure my advance exactly upon hers; for if I dropped a few yards into the rear, or went on a few yards ahead, Modestine came instantly to a halt and began to browse. The thought that this was to last from here to Alais nearly broke my heart. Of all conceivable journeys this promised to be the most tedious. I tried to tell myself it was a lovely day; I tried to charm my foreboding spirit with tobacco; but I had a vision ever present to me of the long, long roads, up hill and down dale, and a pair of figures ever infinitesimally moving, foot by foot, a yard to the minute, and, like things enchanted in a nightmare, approaching no nearer to the goal.
What that pace was, there aren’t enough harsh words to describe; it was as much slower than a walk as a walk is slower than a run. It kept me hanging on each foot for an unbelievable amount of time; in five minutes, it drained my energy and caused a fever in all the muscles of my legs. And yet, I had to stay close and[Pg 150] measure my movement exactly in sync with hers; if I fell a few yards behind or went a few yards ahead, Modestine would instantly stop and start grazing. The thought that this would go on from here to Alais nearly broke my heart. Of all possible journeys, this was shaping up to be the most tedious. I tried to tell myself it was a beautiful day; I tried to soothe my anxious spirit with tobacco; but I constantly envisioned the long, winding roads, up hills and down valleys, with a pair of figures inching forward, foot by foot, a yard per minute, and like beings trapped in a nightmare, getting no closer to the destination.
In the meantime there came up behind us a tall peasant, perhaps forty years of age, of an ironical snuffy countenance, and arrayed in the green tail-coat of the country. He overtook us hand over hand, and stopped to consider our pitiful advance.
In the meantime, a tall peasant came up behind us, probably around forty years old, with a sarcastic, snotty face, wearing the green tailcoat typical of the countryside. He caught up to us easily and paused to observe our struggling progress.
"Your donkey," says he, "is very old?"
"Is your donkey very old?" he asks.
I told him, I believed not.
I told him, I didn’t believe it.
Then, he supposed, we had come far.
Then, he thought, we had come a long way.
I told him, we had but newly left Monastier.
I told him we had just left Monastier.
"Et vous marchez comme ça!" cried he; and, throwing back his head, he laughed long and heartily. I watched him, half prepared to feel offended, until he had satisfied his mirth; and then, "You must have no pity on these animals," said he; and, plucking a switch out of a thicket, he began to lace Modestine about the stern-works, uttering a cry. The rogue pricked up her ears and broke into a good round pace, which she kept up without flagging, and without exhibiting the least symptom of distress, as long as the peasant kept beside us. Her former panting and shaking had been, I regret to say, a piece of comedy.
"And you walk like that!" he exclaimed, throwing back his head and laughing for a long time. I watched him, half expecting to feel offended, until he finally stopped laughing. Then he said, "You must have no mercy on these animals," and grabbing a switch from a bush, he started to whip Modestine around the rear, making a noise. The little rascal perked up her ears and picked up a brisk pace, maintaining it without slowing down or showing any signs of distress as long as the peasant kept next to us. I’m sorry to say that her earlier panting and shaking had been just an act.
My deus ex machinâ, before he left me, supplied some excellent, if inhumane, advice; presented me with the switch, which he declared she would feel more tenderly than my cane; and finally taught me the true cry or[Pg 151] masonic word of donkey-drivers, "Proot!" All the time, he regarded me with a comical, incredulous air, which was embarrassing to confront; and smiled over my donkey-driving, as I might have smiled over his orthography, or his green tail-coat. But it was not my turn for the moment.
My deus ex machinâ, before he left me, gave me some great, though harsh, advice; handed me the switch, which he said she would respond to more gently than my cane; and finally taught me the real shout or[Pg 151] secret word of donkey-drivers, "Proot!" The whole time, he looked at me with a funny, disbelieving expression that was awkward to deal with; and chuckled at my donkey-driving, just as I might have laughed at his spelling, or his green tailcoat. But it wasn't my moment to respond.
I was proud of my new lore, and thought I had learned the art to perfection. And certainly Modestine did wonders for the rest of the forenoon, and I had a breathing space to look about me. It was Sabbath; the mountain-fields were all vacant in the sunshine; and as we came down through St. Martin de Frugères, the church was crowded to the door, there were people kneeling without upon the steps, and the sound of the priest's chanting came forth out of the dim interior. It gave me a home feeling on the spot; for I am a countryman of the Sabbath, so to speak, and all Sabbath observances, like a Scottish accent, strike in me mixed feelings, grateful and the reverse. It is only a traveller, hurrying by like a person from another planet, who can rightly enjoy the peace and beauty of the great ascetic feast. The sight of the resting country does his spirit good. There is something better than music in the wide, unusual silence; and it disposes him to amiable thoughts, like the sound of a little river or the warmth of sunlight.
I felt proud of my new skills and thought I had mastered the art. Modestine certainly did a great job for the rest of the morning, giving me a chance to take in my surroundings. It was Sunday; the mountain fields were empty under the sunshine, and as we passed through St. Martin de Frugères, the church was packed at the door, with people kneeling on the steps outside, and the sound of the priest's chanting echoed from the dim interior. It gave me a sense of belonging, as I’m essentially a country person on Sundays, and all Sunday traditions, like a Scottish accent, bring up mixed feelings in me, both grateful and otherwise. Only a traveler, rushing by like someone from another planet, can truly appreciate the peace and beauty of this grand, reflective day. Seeing the resting countryside uplifts his spirit. There’s something more profound than music in the vast, unusual quiet; it opens his mind to kind thoughts, much like the sound of a gentle stream or the warmth of sunlight.
In this pleasant humour I came down the hill to where Goudet stands in a green end of a valley, with Château Beaufort opposite upon a rocky steep, and the stream, as clear as crystal, lying in a deep pool between them. Above and below, you may hear it wimpling over the stones, an amiable stripling of a river, which it seems absurd to call the Loire. On all sides, Goudet is shut in by mountains; rocky footpaths, practicable at best for donkeys, join it to the outer world of France; and the men and women drink and swear, in their green corner, or look up at the snow-clad peaks in winter from the threshold of their homes, in an isolation, you would think,[Pg 152] like that of Homer's Cyclops. But it is not so; the postman reaches Goudet with the letter-bag; the aspiring youth of Goudet are within a day's walk of the railway at Le Puy; and here in the inn you may find an engraved portrait of the host's nephew, Régis Senac, "Professor of Fencing and Champion of the two Americas," a distinction gained by him, along with the sum of five hundred dollars, at Tammany Hall, New York, on the 10th April 1876.
In this cheerful mood, I made my way down the hill to where Goudet sits in a green part of the valley, with Château Beaufort across from it on a rocky slope, and a stream, as clear as crystal, flowing into a deep pool between them. Above and below, you can hear it babbling over the stones, a friendly little river that seems ridiculous to call the Loire. Goudet is surrounded by mountains; rocky paths, barely suitable for donkeys, connect it to the outside world of France; and the men and women drink and curse in their green nook, or gaze up at the snow-capped peaks in winter from their doorsteps, in a solitude that would remind you of Homer's Cyclops. But that's not the case; the postman arrives in Goudet with the mail bag; the young people of Goudet are just a day’s walk from the train station at Le Puy; and here at the inn, you can see an engraved portrait of the host's nephew, Régis Senac, "Professor of Fencing and Champion of the two Americas," a title he earned, along with five hundred dollars, at Tammany Hall, New York, on April 10, 1876.
I hurried over my midday meal, and was early forth again. But, alas, as we climbed the interminable hill upon the other side, "Proot!" seemed to have lost its virtue. I prooted like a lion, I prooted mellifluously like a sucking-dove; but Modestine would be neither softened nor intimidated. She held doggedly to her pace; nothing but a blow would move her, and that only for a second. I must follow at her heels, incessantly belabouring. A moment's pause in this ignoble toil, and she relapsed into her own private gait. I think I never heard of any one in as mean a situation. I must reach the lake of Bouchet, where I meant to camp, before sundown, and, to have even a hope of this, I must instantly maltreat this uncomplaining animal. The sound of my own blows sickened me. Once, when I looked at her, she had a faint resemblance to a lady of my acquaintance who formerly loaded me with kindness; and this increased my horror of my cruelty.
I rushed through my lunch and headed out early again. But, unfortunately, as we climbed the never-ending hill on the other side, "Proot!" seemed to have lost its magic. I prooted like a lion, I prooted sweetly like a baby dove; but Modestine wouldn't be swayed or scared. She stubbornly kept her pace; nothing but a hit would move her, and even that would only last a moment. I had to trail behind her, constantly hitting her. A brief break in this humiliating task, and she would slip back into her own pace. I don’t think I’ve ever heard of anyone in such a lowly position. I needed to reach the lake of Bouchet, where I planned to set up camp, before sundown, and to have any chance of that, I had to mistreat this patient animal. The sound of my own hits made me feel sick. Once, when I looked at her, she vaguely reminded me of a woman I knew who used to shower me with kindness; that only deepened my feelings of guilt about my cruelty.
To make matters worse, we encountered another donkey, ranging at will upon the roadside; and this other donkey chanced to be a gentleman. He and Modestine met nickering for joy, and I had to separate the pair and beat down their young romance with a renewed and feverish bastinado. If the other donkey had had the heart of a male under his hide, he would have fallen upon me tooth and hoof; and this was a kind of consolation—he was plainly unworthy of Modestine's affection. But the incident saddened me, as did everything that spoke of my donkey's sex.[Pg 153]
To make things worse, we ran into another donkey just hanging out by the roadside, and this donkey turned out to be quite the gentleman. He and Modestine were so happy to see each other, nuzzling each other, and I had to step in and put an end to their little romance with a renewed and fierce beating. If that other donkey had had any real male instincts, he would have attacked me, and that was a bit comforting—he clearly wasn’t worthy of Modestine's affection. But the whole situation made me feel down, just like everything else related to my donkey's gender. [Pg 153]
It was blazing hot up the valley, windless, with vehement sun upon my shoulders; and I had to labour so consistently with my stick that the sweat ran into my eyes. Every five minutes, too, the pack, the basket, and the pilot-coat would take an ugly slew to one side or the other; and I had to stop Modestine, just when I had got her to a tolerable pace of about two miles an hour, to tug, push, shoulder, and readjust the load. And at last, in the village of Ussel, saddle and all, the whole hypothec, turned round and grovelled in the dust below the donkey's belly. She, none better pleased, incontinently drew up and seemed to smile, and a party of one man, two women, and two children came up, and, standing round me in a half circle, encouraged her by their example.
It was scorching hot up the valley, still, with the blazing sun beating down on my shoulders; I had to work so hard with my stick that sweat dripped into my eyes. Every five minutes, the pack, the basket, and the pilot coat would tilt awkwardly to one side or the other; I'd have to stop Modestine, just when I had her moving at a decent pace of about two miles an hour, to tug, push, shoulder, and readjust the load. Finally, in the village of Ussel, everything—saddle included—flipped over and got stuck in the dust under the donkey's belly. She, obviously pleased, immediately stopped and seemed to smile, while a group of one man, two women, and two children gathered around me in a half circle, encouraging her by their example.
I had the devil's own trouble to get the thing righted; and the instant I had done so, without hesitation, it toppled and fell down upon the other side. Judge if I was hot! And yet not a hand was offered to assist me. The man, indeed, told me I ought to have a package of a different shape. I suggested, if he knew nothing better to the point in my predicament, he might hold his tongue. And the good-natured dog agreed with me smilingly. It was the most despicable fix. I must plainly content myself with the pack for Modestine, and take the following items for my own share of the portage: a cane, a quart flask, a pilot-jacket heavily weighted in the pockets, two pounds of black bread, and an open basket full of meats and bottles. I believe I may say I am not devoid of greatness of soul; for I did not recoil from this infamous burden. I disposed it, Heaven knows how, so as to be mildly portable, and then proceeded to steer Modestine through the village. She tried, as was indeed her invariable habit, to enter every house and every courtyard in the whole length; and, encumbered as I was, without a hand to help myself, no words can render an idea of my difficulties. A priest,[Pg 154] with six or seven others, was examining a church in process of repair, and he and his acolytes laughed loudly as they saw my plight. I remembered having laughed myself when I had seen good men struggling with adversity in the person of a jackass, and the recollection filled me with penitence. That was in my old light days, before this trouble came upon me. God knows at least that I shall never laugh again, thought I. But oh, what a cruel thing is a farce to those engaged in it!
I had a really tough time getting everything balanced; and just when I thought I had it, it tipped over and fell on the other side. You can imagine how frustrated I was! And not a single person offered to help me. The guy even suggested that I should have a package with a different design. I told him that if he couldn’t offer any real help in my situation, he should keep quiet. The good-natured dog agreed with me while smiling. It was the most ridiculous situation. I had to settle for the pack for Modestine and carry the following items myself: a cane, a quart flask, a heavy pilot jacket loaded with stuff, two pounds of black bread, and a wide basket filled with meats and bottles. I think I can say I have a strong spirit; I didn’t shy away from this awful load. I arranged it, Heaven knows how, to make it somewhat manageable, and then tried to guide Modestine through the village. She, as was her usual habit, attempted to enter every house and courtyard along the way; and being weighed down as I was, without anyone to lend me a hand, words can’t describe the difficulties I faced. A priest, [Pg 154] along with six or seven others, was inspecting a church that was being repaired, and they all laughed loudly when they saw my predicament. I remembered laughing myself when I had witnessed good people struggling with their troubles alongside a donkey, and that thought made me feel guilty. That was back in my carefree days, before this trouble hit me. God knows I’ll never laugh again, I thought. But oh, how cruel a farce can be for those caught up in it!
A little out of the village, Modestine, filled with the demon, set her heart upon a by-road, and positively refused to leave it. I dropped all my bundles, and, I am ashamed to say, struck the poor sinner twice across the face. It was pitiful to see her lift her head with shut eyes, as if waiting for another blow. I came very near crying, but I did a wiser thing than that, and sat squarely down by the roadside to consider my situation under the cheerful influence of tobacco and a nip of brandy. Modestine, in the meanwhile, munched some black bread with a contrite hypocritical air. It was plain that I must make a sacrifice to the gods of shipwreck. I threw away the empty bottle destined to carry milk; I threw away my own white bread, and, disdaining to act by general average, kept the black bread for Modestine; lastly, I threw away the cold leg of mutton and the egg-whisk, although this last was dear to my heart. Thus I found room for everything in the basket, and even stowed the boating-coat on the top. By means of an end of cord I slung it under one arm, and although the cord cut my shoulder, and the jacket hung almost to the ground, it was with a heart greatly lightened that I set forth again.
A little outside the village, Modestine, filled with stubbornness, insisted on taking a side road and absolutely refused to leave it. I dropped all my bags and, I'm embarrassed to admit, hit the poor animal twice across the face. It was sad to see her lift her head with closed eyes, as if expecting another hit. I almost cried, but instead, I made a smarter choice and sat down by the roadside to think about my situation while enjoying some tobacco and a little brandy. Meanwhile, Modestine munched on some black bread with a guilty, fake air of remorse. It was clear that I needed to make a sacrifice to the gods of misfortune. I threw away the empty bottle meant for milk; I tossed away my white bread, and, refusing to stick to the norm, I kept the black bread for Modestine; finally, I discarded the cold leg of mutton and the egg-whisk, even though that last one was dear to me. This allowed me to make room for everything in the basket, and I even packed the boating coat on top. I tied it under one arm with a piece of cord, and even though the cord dug into my shoulder and the jacket nearly touched the ground, I set off again with a much lighter heart.
I I had now an arm free to thrash Modestine, and cruelly I chastised her. If I were to reach the lake-side before dark she must bestir her little shanks to some tune. Already the sun had gone down into a windy-looking mist; and although there were still a few streaks[Pg 155] of gold far off to the east on the hills and the black fir-woods, all was cold and grey about our onward path. An infinity of little country by-roads led hither and thither among the fields. It was the most pointless labyrinth. I could see my destination overhead, or rather the peak that dominates it, but choose as I pleased, the roads always ended by turning away from it, and sneaking back towards the valley, or northward along the margin of the hills. The failing light, the waning colour, the naked, unhomely, stony country through which I was travelling, threw me into some despondency. I promise you, the stick was not idle; I think every decent step that Modestine took must have cost me at least two emphatic blows. There was not another sound in the neighbourhood but that of my unwearying bastinado.
I now had an arm free to hit Modestine, and I punished her harshly. If I wanted to reach the lake before dark, she needed to pick up the pace. The sun had already dipped into a misty wind, and although there were still some streaks of gold far off to the east on the hills and in the black fir forests, everything around our path felt cold and gray. Countless little country roads twisted and turned among the fields. It was the most confusing maze. I could see my destination above, or rather the peak that overlooks it, but no matter which way I went, the roads always seemed to divert away from it, sneaking back toward the valley or heading north along the hills. The dimming light, fading colors, and the stark, unwelcoming, rocky landscape I was traveling through filled me with despair. I assure you, the stick was busy; I think every decent step Modestine took must have cost me at least two firm strikes. There was no other sound in the area but my relentless beating.
Suddenly, in the midst of my toils, the load once more bit the dust, and, as by enchantment, all the cords were simultaneously loosened, and the road scattered with my dear possessions. The packing was to begin again from the beginning; and as I had to invent a new and better system, I do not doubt but I lost half an hour. It began to be dusk in earnest as I reached a wilderness of turf and stones. It had the air of being a road which should lead everywhere at the same time; and I was falling into something not unlike despair when I saw two figures stalking towards me over the stones. They walked one behind the other like tramps, but their pace was remarkable. The son led the way, a tall, ill-made, sombre, Scottish-looking man; the mother followed, all in her Sunday's best, with an elegantly embroidered ribbon to her cap, and a new felt hat atop, and proffering, as she strode along with kilted petticoats, a string of obscene and blasphemous oaths.
Suddenly, in the middle of my struggles, the load fell apart again, and, as if by magic, all the cords came loose at the same time, scattering my dear belongings along the road. I had to start packing all over again, and since I needed to come up with a new and better system, I’m sure I wasted half an hour. It was getting seriously dark as I reached a mess of turf and stones. It felt like a road that should lead everywhere all at once, and I was starting to feel pretty desperate when I saw two figures making their way over the stones toward me. They walked one behind the other like travelers, but their pace was unusual. The son was in front, a tall, awkward, gloomy-looking man, and the mother followed, all dressed in her Sunday best, with a nicely embroidered ribbon on her cap and a new felt hat on top, while she marched along with her skirts lifted, shouting a string of crude and blasphemous curses.
I hailed the son, and asked him my direction. He pointed loosely west and north-west, muttered an inaudible comment, and, without slackening his pace for an instant,[Pg 156] stalked on, as he was going, right athwart my path. The mother followed without so much as raising her head. I shouted and shouted after them, but they continued to scale the hillside, and turned a deaf ear to my outcries. At last, leaving Modestine by herself, I was constrained to run after them, hailing the while. They stopped as I drew near, the mother still cursing; and I could see she was a handsome, motherly, respectable-looking woman. The son once more answered me roughly and inaudibly, and was for setting out again. But this time I simply collared the mother, who was nearest me, and, apologizing for my violence, declared that I could not let them go until they had put me on my road. They were neither of them offended—rather mollified than otherwise; told me I had only to follow them; and then the mother asked me what I wanted by the lake at such an hour. I replied, in the Scottish manner, by inquiring if she had far to go herself. She told me, with another oath, that she had an hour and a half's road before her. And then, without salutation, the pair strode forward again up the hillside in the gathering dusk.
I called out to the son and asked him for directions. He vaguely pointed west and northwest, mumbled something I couldn't hear, and kept walking quickly, blocking my way. The mother trailed behind him without even looking up. I yelled after them, but they kept climbing the hill and ignored me. Finally, leaving Modestine behind, I had to rush after them, still shouting. They stopped as I got closer, with the mother still cursing, and I noticed she was a striking, motherly, respectable-looking woman. The son responded to me again in a rough, quiet voice and seemed ready to walk off again. This time, I took hold of the mother, who was closest to me, and apologized for my aggression, saying I couldn't let them leave until they helped me find my way. They didn't seem offended—if anything, they seemed more sympathetic—and told me to just follow them. Then the mother asked what I needed at the lake at this hour. I responded, in a Scottish manner, by asking if she had far to go herself. She told me, with another curse, that she had an hour and a half left to travel. Then, without saying goodbye, the two of them continued up the hillside as it got darker.
I returned for Modestine, pushed her briskly forward, and, after a sharp ascent of twenty minutes, reached the edge of a plateau. The view, looking back on my day's journey, was both wild and sad. Mount Mézenc and the peaks beyond St. Julien stood out in trenchant gloom against a cold glitter in the east; and the intervening field of hills had fallen together into one broad wash of shadow, except here and there the outline of a wooded sugar-loaf in black, here and there a white, irregular patch to represent a cultivated farm, and here and there a blot where the Loire, the Gazeille, or the Laussonne wandered in a gorge.
I went back for Modestine, urged her on quickly, and after a steep climb of twenty minutes, I reached the edge of a plateau. The view, looking back on my day's journey, was both wild and melancholic. Mount Mézenc and the peaks beyond St. Julien loomed ominously against the cold shine in the east; and the fields of hills blended into a wide expanse of shadow, with the occasional silhouette of a wooded hill shaped like a sugar-loaf in black, patches of white showing where there were cultivated farms, and splotches where the Loire, the Gazeille, or the Laussonne meandered through a gorge.
Soon we were on a high-road, and surprise seized on my mind as I beheld a village of some magnitude close at hand; for I had been told that the neighbourhood of the lake was uninhabited except by trout. The road smoked[Pg 157] in the twilight with children driving home cattle from the fields; and a pair of mounted stride-legged women, hat and cap and all, dashed past me at a hammering trot from the canton where they had been to church and market. I asked one of the children where I was. At Bouchet St. Nicholas, he told me. Thither, about a mile south of my destination, and on the other side of a respectable summit, had these confused roads and treacherous peasantry conducted me. My shoulder was cut, so that it hurt sharply; my arm ached like tooth-ache from perpetual beating; I gave up the lake and my design to camp, and asked for the auberge.
Soon we found ourselves on a main road, and I was surprised to see a fairly large village nearby because I had been told that the area around the lake was only populated by trout. The road was bustling[Pg 157] in the twilight with kids herding cattle home from the fields; and a couple of women on horseback, dressed in hats and caps, galloped past me at a rapid pace, coming back from church and the market. I asked one of the kids where I was. He told me I was at Bouchet St. Nicholas. It turned out I had been led here, about a mile south of my destination, and over a decent hill, by these confusing roads and tricky locals. My shoulder was cut and hurt a lot; my arm ached like a toothache from constant jarring; I gave up on reaching the lake and my plan to camp, and I asked for the auberge.
I HAVE A GOAD
The auberge of Bouchet St. Nicholas was among the least pretentious I have ever visited; but I saw many more of the like upon my journey. Indeed, it was typical of these French highlands. Imagine a cottage of two stories, with a bench before the door; the stable and kitchen in a suite, so that Modestine and I could hear each other dining; furniture of the plainest, earthen floors, a single bed-chamber for travellers, and that without any convenience but beds. In the kitchen cooking and eating go forward side by side, and the family sleep at night. Any one who has a fancy to wash must do so in public at the common table. The food is sometimes spare; hard fish and omelette have been my portion more than once; the wine is of the smallest, the brandy abominable to man; and the visit of a fat sow, grouting under the table and rubbing against your legs, is no impossible accompaniment to dinner.
The auberge of Bouchet St. Nicholas was one of the least fancy places I've ever been; but I encountered many more like it during my journey. In fact, it was typical of these French highlands. Picture a two-story cottage with a bench out front; the stable and kitchen are connected, so Modestine and I could hear each other while eating; the furniture is very simple, with earthen floors, a single bedroom for travelers, and that only has beds, no other comforts. In the kitchen, cooking and eating happen at the same time, and the family sleeps there at night. Anyone who wants to wash up has to do it publicly at the common table. The food is sometimes meager; I've had hard fish and omelette more than once; the wine is very cheap, the brandy is terrible, and the occasional visit from a fat pig nosing around under the table and bumping against your legs isn’t unusual during dinner.
But the people of the inn, in nine cases out of ten, show themselves friendly and considerate. As soon as you cross the doors you cease to be a stranger; and although these peasantry are rude and forbidding on the highway, they show a tincture of kind breeding when you share their hearth. At Bouchet, for instance, I uncorked my bottle of Beaujolais, and asked the host to join me. He would take but little.
But most of the people at the inn are friendly and considerate. As soon as you walk through the doors, you stop being a stranger; and even though these locals can seem rough and unwelcoming on the road, they show a bit of good manners when you sit by their fire. At Bouchet, for example, I opened my bottle of Beaujolais and asked the host to join me. He would only have a little.
"I am an amateur of such wine, do you see?" he said, "and I am capable of leaving you not enough."
"I’m a fan of that kind of wine, you see?" he said, "and I might end up leaving you with too little."
In these hedge-inns the traveller is expected to eat with his own knife; unless he ask, no other will be[Pg 159] supplied: with a glass, a whang of bread, and an iron fork, the table is completely laid. My knife was cordially admired by the landlord of Bouchet, and the spring filled him with wonder.
In these roadside inns, travelers are expected to eat with their own knife; unless they ask, no other will be[Pg 159] provided: with a glass, a piece of bread, and a metal fork, the table is fully set. The landlord of Bouchet was genuinely impressed by my knife, and the spring amazed him.
"I should never have guessed that," he said. "I would bet," he added, weighing it in his hand, "that this cost you not less than five francs."
"I would have never guessed that," he said. "I bet," he added, weighing it in his hand, "that this cost you at least five francs."
When I told him it had cost me twenty, his jaw dropped.
When I told him it cost me twenty, his jaw dropped.
He was a mild, handsome, sensible, friendly old man, astonishingly ignorant. His wife, who was not so pleasant in her manners, knew how to read, although I do not suppose she ever did so. She had a share of brains, and spoke with a cutting emphasis, like one who ruled the roast.
He was a gentle, good-looking, sensible, friendly old man, surprisingly clueless. His wife, who wasn't as nice in her demeanor, knew how to read, although I doubt she ever actually did. She had some brains and spoke with a sharp emphasis, like someone who was in charge.
"My man knows nothing," she said, with an angry nod; "he is like the beasts."
"My man knows nothing," she said, with an angry nod; "he is like the animals."
And the old gentleman signified acquiescence with his head. There was no contempt on her part, and no shame on his; the facts were accepted loyally, and no more about the matter.
And the old man nodded in agreement. She felt no contempt, and he wasn’t ashamed; they accepted the facts openly and left it at that.
I was tightly cross-examined about my journey; and the lady understood in a moment, and sketched out what I should put into my book when I got home. "Whether people harvest or not in such or such a place; if there were forests; studies of manners; what, for example, I and the master of the house say to you; the beauties of Nature, and all that." And she interrogated me with a look.
I was grilled about my trip, and the woman got it right away, outlining what I should include in my book when I got home. "Whether people are farming or not in specific places; if there were forests; observations on customs; what, for instance, the homeowner and I say to you; the beauty of nature, and all that." And she questioned me with a look.
"It is just that," said I.
"That's exactly it," I said.
"You see," she added to her husband, "I understood that."
"You see," she said to her husband, "I got that."
They were both much interested by the story of my misadventures.
They were both very interested in the story of my misadventures.
"In the morning," said the husband, "I will make you something better than your cane. Such a beast as that feels nothing; it is in the proverb—dur comme un âne[Pg 160]; you might beat her insensible with a cudgel, and yet you would arrive nowhere."
"In the morning," said the husband, "I'll make you something better than your cane. That thing feels nothing; it's in the saying—hard as a mule[Pg 160]; you could beat it unconscious with a club, and it still wouldn't change anything."
Something better! I little knew what he was offering.
Something better! I had no idea what he was offering.
The sleeping-room was furnished with two beds. I had one; and I will own I was a little abashed to find a young man and his wife and child in the act of mounting into the other. This was my first experience of the sort; and if I am always to feel equally silly and extraneous, I pray God it be my last as well. I kept my eyes to myself, and know nothing of the woman except that she had beautiful arms, and seemed no whit embarrassed by my appearance. As a matter of fact, the situation was more trying to me than to the pair. A pair keep each other in countenance; it is the single gentleman who has to blush. But I could not help attributing my sentiments to the husband, and sought to conciliate his tolerance with a cup of brandy from my flask. He told me that he was a cooper of Alais travelling to St. Etienne in search of work, and that in his spare moments he followed the fatal calling of a maker of matches. Me he readily enough divined to be a brandy merchant.
The sleeping room had two beds. I had one, and I felt a bit embarrassed to see a young man, his wife, and their child getting into the other bed. This was my first experience like this, and if I’m always going to feel just as silly and out of place, I hope it’s my last. I kept to myself and didn't really notice much about the woman except that she had lovely arms and didn’t seem at all bothered by my presence. Honestly, the situation was more awkward for me than for the couple. They had each other for support; it’s the single guy who ends up feeling awkward. Still, I couldn’t help but feel what the husband might be thinking, so I offered him a drink of brandy from my flask to ease the tension. He told me he was a cooper from Alais traveling to St. Etienne to look for work and that in his free time he made matches. He quickly figured out that I was a brandy merchant.
I was up first in the morning (Monday, September 23rd), and hastened my toilette guiltily, so as to leave a clear field for madam, the cooper's wife. I drank a bowl of milk, and set off to explore the neighbourhood of Bouchet. It was perishing cold, a grey, windy, wintry morning; misty clouds flew fast and low; the wind piped over the naked platform; and the only speck of colour was away behind Mount Mézenc and the eastern hills, where the sky still wore the orange of the dawn.
I was the first one up in the morning (Monday, September 23rd), and I quickly got ready, feeling a bit guilty, so I wouldn't be in the way of Madam, the cooper's wife. I had a bowl of milk and headed out to explore the neighborhood of Bouchet. It was freezing cold, a grey, windy, winter morning; misty clouds rushed by overhead; the wind howled over the bare platform; and the only splash of color was behind Mount Mézenc and the eastern hills, where the sky still had the orange glow of dawn.
It was five in the morning, and four thousand feet above the sea; and I had to bury my hands in my pockets and trot. People were trooping out to the labours of the field by twos and threes, and all turned round to stare upon the stranger. I had seen them coming back last night, I saw them going afield again; and there was the life of Bouchet in a nutshell.[Pg 161]
It was five in the morning, and four thousand feet above sea level; I had to bury my hands in my pockets and walk briskly. People were heading out to work in the fields in pairs and small groups, and everyone turned to stare at the outsider. I had seen them coming back last night, and now I was watching them set off again; this was the essence of Bouchet in a nutshell.[Pg 161]
When I came back to the inn for a bit of breakfast, the landlady was in the kitchen combing out her daughter's hair; and I made her my compliments upon its beauty.
When I returned to the inn for some breakfast, the landlady was in the kitchen brushing her daughter's hair; I complimented her on how beautiful it looked.
"Oh, no," said the mother; "it is not so beautiful as it ought to be. Look, it is too fine."
"Oh, no," the mother said; "it's not as beautiful as it should be. Look, it's too fancy."
Thus does a wise peasantry console itself under adverse physical circumstances, and, by a startling democratic process, the defects of the majority decide the type of beauty.
Thus does a wise farming community comfort itself during tough physical conditions, and, through a surprising democratic process, the flaws of the majority determine the kind of beauty.
"And where," said I, "is monsieur?"
"And where," I said, "is the gentleman?"
"The master of the house is upstairs," she answered, "making you a goad."
"The master of the house is upstairs," she replied, "making you a tool."
Blessed be the man who invented goads! Blessed the innkeeper of Bouchet St. Nicholas, who introduced me to their use! This plain wand, with an eighth of an inch of pin, was indeed a sceptre when he put it in my hands. Thenceforward Modestine was my slave. A prick, and she passed the most inviting stable-door. A prick, and she broke forth into a gallant little trotlet that devoured the miles. It was not a remarkable speed, when all was said; and we took four hours to cover ten miles at the best of it. But what a heavenly change since yesterday! No more wielding of the ugly cudgel; no more flailing with an aching arm; no more broadsword exercise, but a discreet and gentlemanly fence. And what although now and then a drop of blood should appear on Modestine's mouse-coloured wedge-like rump? I should have preferred it otherwise, indeed; but yesterday's exploits had purged my heart of all humanity. The perverse little devil, since she would not be taken with kindness, must even go with pricking.
Blessed be the person who invented goads! Blessed be the innkeeper of Bouchet St. Nicholas, who introduced me to their use! This simple stick, with a tiny pin on the end, became a tool of power when he handed it to me. From that moment, Modestine was at my command. A little poke, and she would eagerly pass through the most tempting stable door. A little poke, and she’d break into a cheerful little trot that covered the distance quickly. It wasn't remarkable speed by any means; we took four hours to cover ten miles at best. But what a wonderful change from yesterday! No more swinging that heavy club; no more exhausting my arm; no more clumsy swordplay, but a refined and gentlemanly approach. And even if now and then a drop of blood appeared on Modestine's light-colored, wedge-shaped rear? I would have preferred it differently, of course; but the events of yesterday had stripped away all my compassion. The stubborn little devil, since she wouldn't respond to kindness, had to be prodded.
It was bleak and bitter cold, and, except a cavalcade of stride-legged ladies and a pair of post-runners, the road was dead solitary all the way to Pradelles. I scarce remember an incident but one. A handsome foal with a bell about his neck came charging up to us upon a stretch[Pg 162] of common, sniffed the air martially as one about to do great deeds, and, suddenly thinking otherwise in his green young heart, put about and galloped off as he had come, the bell tinkling in the wind. For a long while afterwards I saw his noble attitude as he drew up, and heard the note of his bell; and when I struck the high-road, the song of the telegraph-wires seemed to continue the same music.
It was cold and bleak, and apart from a group of tall ladies and a couple of postal runners, the road to Pradelles was completely empty. I barely remember any events except for one. A handsome foal with a bell around his neck came charging toward us across a stretch[Pg 162] of common land, sniffed the air proudly as if he was about to do something great, and then, suddenly changing his mind, turned around and galloped back the way he came, the bell jingling in the wind. For a long time after that, I could picture his proud posture as he stopped, and I could hear the sound of his bell; and when I hit the main road, the hum of the telegraph wires seemed to carry on that same tune.
Pradelles stands on a hillside, high above the Allier, surrounded by rich meadows. They were cutting aftermath on all sides, which gave the neighbourhood, this gusty autumn morning, an untimely smell of hay. On the opposite bank of the Allier the land kept mounting for miles to the horizon: a tanned and sallow autumn landscape, with black blots of fir-wood and white roads wandering through the hills. Over all this the clouds shed a uniform and purplish shadow, sad and somewhat menacing, exaggerating height and distance, and throwing into still higher relief the twisted ribbons of the highway. It was a cheerless prospect, but one stimulating to a traveller. For I was now upon the limit of Velay, and all that I beheld lay in another county—wild Gévaudan, mountainous, uncultivated, and but recently disforested from terror of the wolves.
Pradelles is situated on a hillside, high above the Allier, surrounded by lush meadows. They were cutting the leftover hay all around, giving the area, on this breezy autumn morning, an unexpected scent of hay. On the opposite bank of the Allier, the land rose for miles to the horizon: a sunburnt and pale autumn landscape, with dark patches of pine forest and winding white roads cutting through the hills. Over everything, the clouds cast a consistent purplish shadow, gloomy and somewhat threatening, accentuating height and distance and making the twisted ribbons of the highway stand out even more. It was a bleak view, but one that energized a traveler. For I had now reached the edge of Velay, and everything I saw lay in another region—wild Gévaudan, rugged, uncultivated, and recently cleared of forest due to fears of wolves.
Wolves, alas! like bandits, seem to flee the traveler's advance, and you may trudge through all our comfortable Europe and not meet with an adventure worth the name. But here, if anywhere, a man was on the frontiers of hope. For this was the land of the ever-memorable beast, the Napoléon Bonaparte of wolves. What a career was his! He lived ten months at free quarters in Gévaudan and Vivarais; he ate women and children and "shepherdesses celebrated for their beauty"; he pursued armed horsemen; he has been seen at broad noonday chasing a post-chaise and outrider along the king's high-road, and chaise and outrider fleeing before him at the gallop. He was placarded like a political offender, and ten thousand francs[Pg 163] were offered for his head. And yet, when he was shot and sent to Versailles, behold! a common wolf, and even small for that. "Though I could reach from pole to pole," sang Alexander Pope; the Little Corporal shook Europe; and if all wolves had been as this wolf they would have changed the history of man. M. Élie Berthet has made him the hero of a novel, which I have read, and do not wish to read again.
Wolves, unfortunately, like robbers, seem to run away from the traveler's approach, and you could wander through all of our cozy Europe and not encounter an adventure deserving of the name. But here, if anywhere, a person was on the brink of hope. For this was the land of the unforgettable beast, the Napoléon Bonaparte of wolves. What a story he had! He lived for ten months freely in Gévaudan and Vivarais; he attacked women and children and "shepherdesses known for their beauty"; he chased armed horsemen; he was seen at midday pursuing a coach and outrider along the king's highway, with the coach and outrider fleeing at full speed. He was posted like a wanted criminal, and ten thousand francs[Pg 163] were offered for his capture. Yet, when he was shot and taken to Versailles, surprise! he turned out to be just an ordinary wolf, even on the small side. "Though I could reach from pole to pole," sang Alexander Pope; the Little Corporal shook Europe; and if all wolves had been like this one, they would have changed the course of human history. M. Élie Berthet made him the main character in a novel that I read, and I have no desire to read it again.
I hurried over my lunch, and was proof against the landlady's desire that I should visit our Lady of Pradelles, "who performed many miracles, although she was of wood," and before three-quarters of an hour I was goading Modestine down the deep descent that leads to Langogne on the Allier. On both sides of the road, in big dusty fields, farmers were preparing for next spring. Every fifty yards a yoke of great-necked stolid oxen were patiently haling at the plough. I saw one of these mild formidable servants of the glebe, who took a sudden interest in Modestine and me. The furrow down which he was journeying lay at an angle to the road, and his head was solidly fixed to the yoke like those of caryatides below a ponderous cornice; but he screwed round his big honest eyes and followed us with a ruminating look, until his master bade him turn the plough and proceed to reascend the field. From all these furrowing ploughshares, from the feet of oxen, from a labourer here and there who was breaking the dry clods with a hoe, the wind carried away a thin dust like so much smoke. It was a fine, busy, breathing, rustic landscape; and as I continued to descend, the highlands of Gévaudan kept mounting in front of me against the sky.
I rushed through my lunch, ignoring the landlady's wish for me to visit Our Lady of Pradelles, "who performed many miracles, even though she was made of wood," and within about forty-five minutes, I was urging Modestine down the steep path that leads to Langogne on the Allier. On both sides of the road, in large dusty fields, farmers were getting ready for next spring. Every fifty yards, a pair of big-necked, stolid oxen were patiently pulling the plow. I noticed one of these gentle, impressive workers took a sudden interest in Modestine and me. The furrow he was moving through was at an angle to the road, and his head was firmly stuck in the yoke like those caryatids supporting a heavy cornice; but he turned his big, honest eyes and watched us with a thoughtful look until his master told him to turn the plow and head back up the field. From all the plowing, from the hooves of the oxen, and from a laborer here and there breaking the dry clods with a hoe, the wind carried away a fine dust like smoke. It was a beautiful, lively, rustic landscape; and as I kept going down, the highlands of Gévaudan loomed up in front of me against the sky.
I had crossed the Loire the day before; now I was to cross the Allier; so near are these two confluents in their youth. Just at the bridge of Langogne, as the long-promised rain was beginning to fall, a lassie of some seven or eight addressed me in the sacramental phrase, "D'où 'st-ce-que vous venez?" She did it with so high an air that she set me laughing, and this cut her to the quick. She was evidently one who reckoned on respect, and stood looking after me in silent dudgeon, as I crossed the bridge and entered the county of Gévaudan.
I had crossed the Loire the day before; now I was about to cross the Allier; these two rivers are so close together in their early stages. Right at the bridge of Langogne, just as the long-awaited rain was starting to fall, a girl of about seven or eight approached me with the familiar question, "D'où 'st-ce-que vous venez?" She said it with such a haughty attitude that it made me laugh, which clearly upset her. She clearly expected respect and stood there watching me in silence, irritated, as I crossed the bridge and entered the county of Gévaudan.
UPPER GÉVAUDAN
through dirt and mud; nor was
there on all this ground not even one
inn or eatery to
refresh the weaker ones.
PILGRIM'S PROGRESS.
A CAMP IN THE DARK
The next day (Tuesday, September 24th) it was two o'clock in the afternoon before I got my journal written up and my knapsack repaired, for I was determined to carry my knapsack in the future, and have no more ado with baskets; and half an hour afterwards I set out for Le Cheylard l'Évéque, a place on the borders of the forest of Mercoire. A man, I was told, should walk there in an hour and a half; and I thought it scarce too ambitious to suppose that a man encumbered with a donkey might cover the same distance in four hours.
The next day (Tuesday, September 24th), it was two o'clock in the afternoon by the time I finished writing in my journal and fixing my backpack. I was determined to carry my backpack from then on and avoid using baskets. Half an hour later, I set out for Le Cheylard l'Évéque, a spot on the edge of the Mercoire forest. I was told a person could walk there in an hour and a half, and I didn’t think it was too unrealistic to assume that someone weighed down with a donkey might take four hours to cover the same distance.
All the way up the long hill from Langogne it rained and hailed alternately; the wind kept freshening steadily, although slowly; plentiful hurrying clouds—some, dragging veils of straight rain-shower, others massed and luminous as though promising snow—careered out of the north and followed me along my way. I was soon out of the cultivated basin of the Allier, and away from the ploughing oxen and such-like sights of the country. Moor, heathery marsh, tracts of rock and pines, woods of birch all jewelled with the autumn yellow, here and there a few naked cottages and bleak fields,—these were the characters of the country. Hill and valley followed valley and hill; the little green and stony cattle-tracks wandered in and out of one another, split into three or four, died away in marshy hollows, and began again sporadically on hillsides or at the borders of a wood.
All the way up the long hill from Langogne, it alternated between raining and hailing; the wind kept picking up steadily, though slowly. Plenty of rushing clouds—some dragging sheets of rain, others thick and bright as if promising snow—flew in from the north and followed me along my path. I soon left the cultivated area of the Allier, moving away from the plowing oxen and other rural sights. Moorland, heath-covered marshes, stretches of rock and pines, birch woods all sparkling with autumn yellow, and scattered naked cottages amid bleak fields—these defined the landscape. Hills and valleys followed each other in a continuous rhythm; the little green and rocky cattle trails tangled together, split into three or four paths, faded away into marshy dips, and reappeared sporadically on hillsides or at the edges of a wood.
There was no direct road to Cheylard, and it was no easy affair to make a passage in this uneven country and through this intermittent labyrinth of tracks. It must have been about four when I struck Sagnerousse,[Pg 168] and went on my way rejoicing in a sure point of departure. Two hours afterwards, the dusk rapidly falling, in a lull of the wind, I issued from a fir-wood where I had long been wandering, and found, not the looked-for village, but another marish bottom among rough-and-tumble hills. For some time past I had heard the ringing of cattle-bells ahead; and now, as I came out of the skirts of the wood, I saw near upon a dozen cows, and perhaps as many more black figures, which I conjectured to be children, although the mist had almost unrecognisably exaggerated their forms. These were all silently following each other round and round in a circle, now taking hands, now breaking up with chains and reverences. A dance of children appeals to very innocent and lively thoughts; but, at nightfall on the marshes, the thing was eerie and fantastic to behold. Even I, who am well enough read in Herbert Spencer, felt a sort of silence fall for an instant on my mind. The next, I was pricking Modestine forward, and guiding her like an unruly ship through the open. In a path, she went doggedly ahead of her own accord, as before a fair wind; but once on the turf or among heather, and the brute became demented. The tendency of lost travellers to go round in a circle was developed in her to the degree of passion, and it took all the steering I had in me to keep even a decently straight course through a single field.
There wasn't a direct road to Cheylard, and navigating this uneven terrain and confusing maze of paths was no easy task. It must have been around four when I reached Sagnerousse,[Pg 168] and felt relieved to have a solid starting point. Two hours later, as dusk quickly approached and the wind calmed, I emerged from a fir forest where I had been wandering for quite a while, only to find not the expected village, but another marshy area surrounded by rough hills. For some time, I had heard the sound of cattle bells ahead; and now, as I stepped out from the edge of the forest, I spotted nearly a dozen cows and maybe just as many more dark figures, which I assumed were children, though the mist distorted their shapes almost beyond recognition. They were all silently moving in a circle, sometimes holding hands, sometimes breaking apart with bows and gestures. A children's dance evokes very innocent and lively thoughts; but at nightfall in the marshes, it was eerie and surreal to witness. Even I, who am fairly well-read in Herbert Spencer, felt a moment of silence settle over my mind. The next instant, I was urging Modestine forward, steering her like a stubborn ship through the open. On a path, she moved determinedly on her own, as if propelled by a favorable wind; but once on the grass or among heather, she became frantic. The instinct of lost travelers to go in circles was heightened in her to the point of obsession, and it took all my effort to maintain even a reasonably straight course through a single field.
While I was thus desperately tacking through the bog, children and cattle began to disperse, until only a pair of girls remained behind. From these I sought direction on my path. The peasantry in general were but little disposed to counsel a wayfarer. One old devil simply retired into his house, and barricaded the door on my approach; and I might beat and shout myself hoarse, he turned a deaf ear. Another, having given me a direction which, as I found afterwards, I had misunderstood, complacently watched me going wrong without adding a sign. He did not care a stalk of parsley if I wandered all night upon the[Pg 169] hills! As for these two girls, they were a pair of impudent sly sluts, with not a thought but mischief. One put out her tongue at me, the other bade me follow the cows, and they both giggled and joggled each other's elbows. The Beast of Gévaudan ate about a hundred children of this district; I began to think of him with sympathy.
While I was desperately trying to navigate through the swamp, children and livestock started to scatter until only a couple of girls were left behind. I asked them for directions on my route. Generally, the locals weren’t very willing to help a traveler. One old man simply retreated into his house and locked the door as I approached; no matter how much I yelled or knocked, he ignored me. Another man gave me directions that I later realized I had misunderstood and just watched me go the wrong way without offering any clarification. He couldn't care less if I wandered around all night on the[Pg 169] hills! As for those two girls, they were a couple of cheeky troublemakers, only interested in causing mischief. One stuck out her tongue at me, while the other told me to follow the cows, and they both laughed and nudged each other. The Beast of Gévaudan had eaten about a hundred children from this area; I started to feel some sympathy for him.
Leaving the girls, I pushed on through the bog, and got into another wood and upon a well-marked road. It grew darker and darker. Modestine, suddenly beginning to smell mischief, bettered the pace of her own accord, and from that time forward gave me no trouble. It was the first sign of intelligence I had occasion to remark in her. At the same time, the wind freshened into half a gale, and another heavy discharge of rain came flying up out of the north. At the other side of the wood I sighted some red windows in the dusk. This was the hamlet of Fouzilhic; three houses on a hillside, near a wood of birches. Here I found a delightful old man, who came a little way with me in the rain to put me safely on the road for Cheylard. He would hear of no reward, but shook his hands above his head almost as if in menace, and refused volubly and shrilly in unmitigated patois.
Leaving the girls behind, I pressed on through the swamp and entered another forest on a clearly marked road. It got darker and darker. Modestine, sensing trouble, picked up her pace on her own and after that, didn’t give me any more trouble. It was the first sign of intelligence I noticed in her. At the same time, the wind picked up into a strong gale, and another heavy rainstorm came rushing in from the north. On the other side of the woods, I spotted some red lights in the gloom. This was the hamlet of Fouzilhic; three houses on a hillside, close to a birch forest. Here, I met a charming old man, who walked with me part of the way in the rain to make sure I was on the right path to Cheylard. He wouldn’t accept any reward, instead shaking his hands over his head almost as if threatening me, and refused loudly and sharply in thick patois.
All seemed right at last. My thoughts began to turn upon dinner and a fireside, and my heart was agreeably softened in my bosom. Alas, and I was on the brink of new and greater miseries! Suddenly, at a single swoop, the night fell. I have been abroad in many a black night, but never in a blacker. A glimmer of rocks, a glimmer of the track where it was well beaten, a certain fleecy density, or night within night, for a tree—this was all that I could discriminate. The sky was simply darkness overhead; even the flying clouds pursued their way invisibly to human eyesight. I could not distinguish my hand at arm's-length from the track, nor my goad, at the same distance, from the meadows or the sky.
All seemed right at last. My thoughts turned to dinner and a cozy fire, and I felt a warm happiness in my chest. But, alas, I was on the edge of new and greater troubles! Suddenly, night fell all at once. I've been out in many dark nights, but never one darker than this. I could barely make out the rocks, the well-worn path, or a certain dense darkness—like layers of night—around a tree; that was all I could see. The sky above was just a void; even the clouds moved without being visible to the human eye. I couldn't tell if my hand was an arm's length away from the path, nor could I distinguish my goad at the same distance from the meadows or the sky.
Soon the road that I was following split, after the fashion of the country, into three or four in a piece of[Pg 170] rocky meadow. Since Modestine had shown such a fancy for beaten roads, I tried her instinct in this predicament. But the instinct of an ass is what might be expected from the name; in half a minute she was clambering round and round among some boulders, as lost a donkey as you would wish to see. I should have camped long before had I been properly provided; but as this was to be so short a stage, I had brought no wine, no bread for myself, and little over a pound for my lady friend. Add to this, that I and Modestine were both handsomely wetted by the showers. But now, if I could have found some water, I should have camped at once in spite of all. Water, however, being entirely absent, except in the form of rain, I determined to return to Fouzilhic, and ask a guide a little farther on my way—"a little farther lend thy guiding hand."
Soon, the road I was on branched off, like in that region, into three or four paths in a piece of[Pg 170] rocky meadow. Since Modestine preferred well-trodden paths, I decided to trust her instincts in this situation. But an ass's instincts are exactly what you’d expect; in no time, she was wandering aimlessly among some boulders, as lost as a donkey can get. I should have set up camp much earlier if I had been properly prepared; but since this was supposed to be a short leg of the journey, I hadn’t brought any wine, no bread for myself, and just a little over a pound for my lady friend. On top of that, both Modestine and I were soaked from the rain. However, if I could have found some water, I would have camped right there despite everything. Unfortunately, water was completely absent, other than the rain, so I decided to head back to Fouzilhic and ask a guide to help me a bit further on my way—“a little farther lend thy guiding hand.”
The thing was easy to decide, hard to accomplish. In this sensible roaring blackness I was sure of nothing but the direction of the wind. To this I set my face; the road had disappeared, and I went across country, now in marshy opens, now baffled by walls unscalable to Modestine, until I came once more in sight of some red windows. This time they were differently disposed. It was not Fouzilhic, but Fouzilhac, a hamlet little distant from the other in space, but worlds away in the spirit of its inhabitants. I tied Modestine to a gate, and groped forward, stumbling among rocks, plunging mid-leg in bog, until I gained the entrance of the village. In the first lighted house there was a woman who would not open to me. She could do nothing, she cried to me through the door, being alone and lame; but if I would apply at the next house there was a man who could help me if he had a mind.
The decision was easy, but carrying it out was tough. In this intense, dark silence, I was only sure of one thing: the direction of the wind. I faced that direction; the path had vanished, and I went cross-country, sometimes in muddy fields, sometimes blocked by walls too high for Modestine to climb, until I again saw some red windows. This time they were arranged differently. It wasn't Fouzilhic, but Fouzilhac, a hamlet not far from the other one in distance, but completely different in the attitudes of its people. I tied Modestine to a gate and felt my way forward, stumbling over rocks and getting stuck halfway in a bog, until I reached the entrance of the village. In the first lit house, a woman refused to open the door for me. She shouted through the door that she couldn’t help me because she was alone and disabled, but if I went to the next house, there was a man who might help me if he felt like it.
They came to the next door in force, a man, two women, and a girl, and brought a pair of lanterns to examine the wayfarer. The man was not ill-looking, but had a shifty smile. He leaned against the doorpost, and[Pg 171] heard me state my case. All I asked was a guide as far as Cheylard.
They arrived at the next door in a group: a man, two women, and a girl, carrying a couple of lanterns to check on the traveler. The man wasn't bad-looking, but he had a sneaky smile. He leaned against the doorframe, and[Pg 171] heard me explain my situation. All I wanted was a guide to Cheylard.
"C'est que, voyez-vous, il fait noir," said he.
"It's just that, you see, it's dark," he said.
I told him that was just my reason for requiring help.
I told him that was my reason for needing help.
"I understand that," said he, looking uncomfortable; "mais—c'est—de la peine."
"I get that," he said, looking uncomfortable; "but—it's—hard."
I was willing to pay, I said. He shook his head. I rose as high as ten francs; but he continued to shake his head. "Name your own price then," said I.
I was ready to pay, I said. He shook his head. I offered up to ten francs, but he kept shaking his head. "Just name your price then," I said.
"Ce n'est pas ça," he said at length, and with evident difficulty; "but I am not going to cross the door—mais je ne sortirai pas de la porte."
"That's not it," he said after a long pause, clearly struggling; "but I'm not going to go through the door—but I'm not leaving the doorway."
I grew a little warm, and asked him what he proposed that I should do.
I started to feel a bit warm and asked him what he suggested I should do.
"Where are you going beyond Cheylard?" he asked by way of answer.
"Where are you heading past Cheylard?" he asked in response.
"That is no affair of yours," I returned, for I was not going to indulge his bestial curiosity; "it changes nothing in my present predicament."
"That's none of your business," I replied, since I wasn't going to satisfy his crude curiosity; "it doesn't change anything about my current situation."
"C'est vrai, ça," he acknowledged, with a laugh; "oui, c'est vrai. Et d'où venez-vous?"
"That's true," he admitted with a laugh; "yes, that's true. And where are you from?"
A better man than I might have felt nettled.
A better man than I might have felt annoyed.
"Oh," said I, "I am not going to answer any of your questions, so you may spare yourself the trouble of putting them. I am late enough already; I want help. If you will not guide me yourself, at least help me to find some one else who will."
"Oh," I said, "I'm not going to answer any of your questions, so you can save yourself the trouble of asking them. I'm already late; I need help. If you're not going to guide me yourself, at least help me find someone else who will."
"Hold on," he cried suddenly. "Was it not you who passed in the meadow while it was still day?"
"Wait," he called out suddenly. "Wasn't it you who walked through the meadow while it was still light out?"
"Yes, yes," said the girl, whom I had not hitherto recognized; "it was monsieur; I told him to follow the cow."
"Yeah, yeah," said the girl, whom I hadn’t recognized before; "it was him; I told him to follow the cow."
"As for you, mademoiselle," said I, "you are a farceuse."
"As for you, miss," I said, "you're a jokester."
"And," added the man, "what the devil have you done to be still here?"
"And," the man said, "what on earth have you done to still be here?"
What the devil, indeed! But there I was. "The[Pg 172] great thing," said I, "is to make an end of it," and once more proposed that he should help me to find a guide.
What the heck, right? But there I was. "The[Pg 172] important thing," I said, "is to wrap it up," and I suggested again that he help me find a guide.
"C'est que," he said again, "c'est que—il fait noir."
"It's just that," he said again, "it's just that—it's dark."
"Very well," said I; "take one of your lanterns."
"Alright," I said; "grab one of your lanterns."
"No," he cried, drawing a thought backward, and again entrenching himself behind one of his former phrases; "I will not cross the door."
"No," he said, pulling a thought back and once again hiding behind one of his previous phrases; "I won't cross the threshold."
I looked at him. I saw unaffected terror struggling on his face with unaffected shame; he was smiling pitifully and wetting his lip with his tongue, like a detected schoolboy. I drew a brief picture of my state, and asked him what I was to do.
I looked at him. I saw genuine fear battling with genuine shame on his face; he was smiling awkwardly and licking his lips like a caught schoolboy. I quickly assessed my situation and asked him what I should do.
"I don't know," he said; "I will not cross the door."
"I don't know," he said. "I won't go through the door."
Here was the Beast of Gévaudan, and no mistake.
Here was the Beast of Gévaudan, no doubt about it.
"Sir," said I, with my most commanding manners, "you are a coward."
"Sir," I said, with my most authoritative tone, "you are a coward."
And with that I turned my back upon the family party, who hastened to retire within their fortifications; and the famous door was closed again, but not till I had overheard the sound of laughter. Filia barbara pater barbarior. Let me say it in the plural: the Beasts of Gévaudan.
And with that, I turned my back on the family gathering, who quickly retreated behind their defenses; the famous door was closed again, but not before I heard the sound of laughter. Filia barbara pater barbarior. Let me say it in the plural: the Beasts of Gévaudan.
The lanterns had somewhat dazzled me, and I ploughed distressfully among stones and rubbish-heaps. All the other houses in the village were both dark and silent; and though I knocked at here and there a door, my knocking was unanswered. It was a bad business; I gave up Fouzilhac with my curses. The rain had stopped, and the wind, which still kept rising, began to dry my coat and trousers. "Very well," thought I, "water or no water, I must camp." But the first thing was to return to Modestine. I am pretty sure I was twenty minutes groping for my lady in the dark; and if it had not been for the unkindly services of the bog, into which I once more stumbled, I might have still been groping for her at the dawn. My next business was to gain the shelter of a wood, for the wind was cold as well as[Pg 173] boisterous. How, in this well-wooded district, I should have been so long in finding one, is another of the insoluble mysteries of this day's adventures; but I will take my oath that I put near an hour to the discovery.
The lanterns had kind of dazzled me, and I struggled distressingly through stones and trash. All the other houses in the village were dark and quiet; and although I knocked on a few doors, no one answered. It was a frustrating situation; I gave up on Fouzilhac with my curses. The rain had stopped, and the wind, which was still picking up, started to dry my coat and pants. "Alright," I thought, "rain or no rain, I need to set up camp." But first, I had to find Modestine. I'm pretty sure I spent twenty minutes feeling around for her in the dark; and if it hadn't been for the unkindly swamp, which I stumbled into again, I might still have been looking for her at dawn. My next goal was to find the shelter of a forest, because the wind was cold as well as [Pg 173] strong. How, in this well-treed area, I took so long to find one is another one of the unexplainable mysteries of today's adventures; but I swear it took me nearly an hour to discover it.
At last black trees began to show upon my left, and, suddenly crossing the road, made a cave of unmitigated blackness right in front. I call it a cave without exaggeration; to pass below that arch of leaves was like entering a dungeon. I felt about until my hand encountered a stout branch, and to this I tied Modestine, a haggard, drenched, desponding donkey. Then I lowered my pack, laid it along the wall on the margin of the road, and unbuckled the straps. I knew well enough where the lantern was, but where were the candles? I groped and groped among the tumbled articles, and, while I was thus groping, suddenly I touched the spirit-lamp. Salvation! This would serve my turn as well. The wind roared unwearyingly among the trees; I could hear the boughs tossing and the leaves churning through half a mile of forest; yet the scene of my encampment was not only as black as the pit, but admirably sheltered. At the second match the wick caught flame. The light was both livid and shifting; but it cut me off from the universe, and doubled the darkness of the surrounding night.
Finally, black trees began to appear on my left, and suddenly crossing the road, created a cave of pure darkness right in front of me. I really mean cave; passing beneath that arch of leaves felt like entering a dungeon. I reached around until my hand found a sturdy branch, and I tied Modestine, a worn-out, soaked, miserable donkey, to it. Then I set down my pack, laid it along the wall by the edge of the road, and undid the straps. I knew exactly where the lantern was, but where were the candles? I fumbled around through the scattered items, and while I was searching, I suddenly touched the spirit lamp. Thank goodness! This would work just as well. The wind roared tirelessly among the trees; I could hear the branches thrashing and the leaves swirling through half a mile of forest; yet the place where I was camping was not only as dark as a pit but also perfectly sheltered. On the second match, the wick caught fire. The light was both pale and flickering; however, it cut me off from the outside world and intensified the darkness of the night around me.
I tied Modestine more conveniently for herself, and broke up half the black bread for her supper, reserving the other half against the morning. Then I gathered what I should want within reach, took off my wet boots and gaiters, which I wrapped in my waterproof, arranged my knapsack for a pillow under the flap of my sleeping-bag, insinuated my limbs into the interior, and buckled myself in like a bambino. I opened a tin of Bologna sausage, and broke a cake of chocolate, and that was all I had to eat. It may sound offensive, but I ate them together, bite by bite, by way of bread and meat. All I had to wash down this revolting mixture was neat[Pg 174] brandy: a revolting beverage in itself. But I was rare and hungry; ate well, and smoked one of the best cigarettes in my experience. Then I put a stone in my straw hat, pulled the flap of my fur cap over my neck and eyes, put my revolver ready to my hand, and snuggled well down among the sheepskins.
I tied Modestine up in a way that was more comfortable for her and broke half the black bread for her dinner, saving the other half for the morning. Then I grabbed what I needed within reach, took off my wet boots and gaiters (which I wrapped in my waterproof), arranged my knapsack for a pillow under the flap of my sleeping bag, slipped my limbs inside, and buckled myself in like a bambino. I opened a can of Bologna sausage and broke off a piece of chocolate, and that was all I had to eat. It might sound weird, but I ate them together, bite by bite, as if it were bread and meat. All I had to wash down this disgusting mix was some neat[Pg 174] brandy, which wasn’t great either. But I was really hungry; I ate well and smoked one of the best cigarettes I’ve ever had. Then I put a stone in my straw hat, pulled the flap of my fur cap over my neck and eyes, kept my revolver within reach, and snuggled down among the sheepskins.
I questioned at first if I were sleepy, for I felt my heart beating faster than usual, as if with an agreeable excitement to which my mind remained a stranger. But as soon as my eyelids touched, that subtle glue leaped between them, and they would no more come separate. The wind among the trees was my lullaby. Sometimes it sounded for minutes together with a steady, even rush, not rising nor abating; and again it would swell and burst like a great crashing breaker, and the trees would patter me all over with big drops from the rain of the afternoon. Night after night, in my own bedroom in the country, I have given ear to this perturbing concert of the wind among the woods, but whether it was a difference in the trees, or the lie of the ground, or because I was myself outside and in the midst of it, the fact remains that the wind sang to a different tune among these woods of Gévaudan. I hearkened and hearkened; and meanwhile sleep took gradual possession of my body and subdued my thoughts and senses; but still my last waking effort was to listen and distinguish, and my last conscious state was one of wonder at the foreign clamour in my ears.
I wondered at first if I was just tired, because I felt my heart racing more than usual, almost with a pleasant excitement that my mind didn't grasp. But as soon as my eyelids closed, that thin glue pulled them together, and they wouldn't separate again. The wind in the trees was my lullaby. Sometimes it would flow for minutes with a steady, even rush, neither getting louder nor softer; and other times it would swell and crash like a huge wave, sending down big drops from the afternoon rain. Night after night, in my own bedroom in the countryside, I’ve listened to this unsettling concert of wind among the woods, but whether it was the type of trees, the shape of the land, or the fact that I was out in the middle of it, the truth is that the wind sang a different tune in these woods of Gévaudan. I listened and listened; meanwhile, sleep gradually took over my body, calming my thoughts and senses; but my last waking effort was to listen and make sense of it, and my final conscious moment was filled with wonder at the strange noise in my ears.
Twice in the course of the dark hours—once when a stone galled me underneath the sack, and again when the poor patient Modestine, growing angry, pawed and stamped upon the road—I was recalled for a brief while to consciousness, and saw a star or two overhead, and the lace-like edge of the foliage against the sky. When I awoke for the third time (Wednesday, September 25th), the world was flooded with a blue light, the mother of the dawn. I saw the leaves labouring in the wind and the ribbon of the road; and, on turning my head, there[Pg 175] was Modestine tied to a beech, and standing half across the path in an attitude of inimitable patience. I closed my eyes again, and set to thinking over the experience of the night. I was surprised to find how easy and pleasant it had been, even in this tempestuous weather. The stone which annoyed me would not have been there had I not been forced to camp blindfold in the opaque night; and I had felt no other inconvenience except when my feet encountered the lantern or the second volume of Peyrat's "Pastors of the Desert" among the mixed contents of my sleeping-bag; nay, more, I had felt not a touch of cold, and awakened with unusually lightsome and clear sensations.
Twice during the dark hours—once when a stone poked me under the sack, and again when poor Modestine, getting annoyed, pawed and stomped on the road—I briefly came to my senses and noticed a star or two above, along with the lacy outline of the leaves against the sky. When I woke up for the third time (Wednesday, September 25th), the world was bathed in a blue light, the dawn’s first glow. I saw the leaves swaying in the wind and the winding road; when I turned my head, there[Pg 175] was Modestine tied to a beech tree, standing halfway across the path in a remarkable display of patience. I closed my eyes again and reflected on the night’s experience. I was surprised to realize how easy and pleasant it had been, even in such wild weather. The stone that bothered me wouldn’t have been there if I hadn’t been forced to pitch my camp blindly in the thick of the night; and I hadn’t experienced any other discomfort except when my feet hit the lantern or the second volume of Peyrat's "Pastors of the Desert" among the clutter in my sleeping bag; in fact, I hadn’t felt cold at all and woke up with an unusually light and clear feeling.
With that I shook myself, got once more into my boots and gaiters, and, breaking up the rest of the bread for Modestine, strolled about to see in what part of the world I had awakened. Ulysses, left on Ithaca, and with a mind unsettled by the goddess, was not more pleasantly astray. I have been after an adventure all my life, a pure dispassionate adventure, such as befell early and heroic voyagers; and thus to be found by morning in a random woodside nook in Gévaudan—not knowing north from south, as strange to my surroundings as the first man upon the earth, an inland castaway—was to find a fraction of my daydreams realized. I was on the skirts of a little wood of birch, sprinkled with a few beeches; behind, it adjoined another wood of fir; and in front, it broke up and went down in open order into a shallow and meadowy dale. All around there were bare hill-tops, some near, some far away, as the perspective closed or opened, but none apparently much higher than the rest. The wind huddled the trees. The golden specks of autumn in the birches tossed shiveringly. Overhead the sky was full of strings and shreds of vapour, flying, vanishing, reappearing, and turning about an axis like tumblers, as the wind hounded them through heaven. It was wild weather and famishing cold. I ate some chocolate, swallowed a[Pg 176] mouthful of brandy, and smoked a cigarette before the cold should have time to disable my fingers. And by the time I had got all this done, and had made my pack and bound it on the pack-saddle, the day was tiptoe on the threshold of the east. We had not gone many steps along the lane, before the sun, still invisible to me, sent a glow of gold over some cloud mountains that lay ranged along the eastern sky.
With that, I shook myself awake, put my boots and gaiters back on, and after breaking up the rest of the bread for Modestine, I wandered around to see where I had ended up. Ulysses, left on Ithaca and troubled by the goddess, was not more lost than I was. I've been chasing an adventure all my life, a pure, dispassionate adventure like those experienced by early heroic voyagers; so to find myself in a random spot in a wood in Gévaudan, unsure of north or south and as unfamiliar with my surroundings as the first man on earth, felt like I was getting a piece of my daydreams fulfilled. I was on the edge of a small birch wood, mixed with a few beeches; it bordered another fir wood behind me, and in front, it spread out into a shallow, meadows-filled valley. All around were bare hilltops, some close, some further away, depending on the perspective, but none appeared significantly higher than the others. The wind rustled through the trees. The golden autumn leaves in the birches fluttered in the breeze. Above, the sky was filled with strands and wisps of vapor, flying, disappearing, reappearing, and twisting like tumblers as the wind pushed them across the sky. It was wild weather and bitterly cold. I had some chocolate, took a sip of brandy, and smoked a cigarette before the cold could numb my fingers. By the time I got all that done and packed my gear onto the pack-saddle, the day was just beginning to dawn in the east. We hadn’t walked very far down the lane before the sun, still hidden from me, cast a golden glow over some cloud-covered mountains lined up along the eastern sky.
The wind had us on the stern, and hurried us bitingly forward. I buttoned myself into my coat, and walked on in a pleasant frame of mind with all men, when suddenly, at a corner, there was Fouzilhic once more in front of me. Nor only that, but there was the old gentleman who had escorted me so far the night before, running out of his house at sight of me, with hands upraised in horror.
The wind was hitting us from behind and pushing us forward sharply. I zipped up my coat and walked on feeling good about everyone around me when suddenly, around the corner, there was Fouzilhic right in front of me again. Not only that, but the old gentleman who had walked with me the night before was rushing out of his house as soon as he saw me, hands raised in shock.
"My poor boy!" he cried, "what does this mean?"
"My poor boy!" he exclaimed, "what does this mean?"
I told him what had happened. He beat his old hands like clappers in a mill, to think how lightly he had let me go; but when he heard of the man of Fouzilhac, anger and depression seized upon his mind.
I told him what had happened. He pounded his old hands together like drums in a mill, realizing how easily he had let me go; but when he heard about the man from Fouzilhac, anger and sadness took over his thoughts.
"This time, at least," said he, "there shall be no mistake."
"This time, at least," he said, "there won't be any mistakes."
And he limped along, for he was very rheumatic, for about half a mile, and until I was almost within sight of Cheylard, the destination I had hunted for so long.
And he limped along, because he had a bad case of arthritis, for about half a mile, and until I was almost within sight of Cheylard, the place I had been searching for so long.
CHEYLARD AND LUC
Candidly, it seemed little worthy of all this searching. A few broken ends of village, with no particular street, but a succession of open places heaped with logs and fagots; a couple of tilted crosses, a shrine to Our Lady of all Graces on the summit of a little hill; and all this, upon a rattling highland river, in the corner of a naked valley. What went ye out for to see? thought I to myself. But the place had a life of its own. I found a board commemorating the liberalities of Cheylard for the past year, hung up, like a banner, in the diminutive and tottering church. In 1877, it appeared, the inhabitants subscribed forty-eight francs ten centimes for the "Work of the Propagation of the Faith." Some of this, I could not help hoping, would be applied to my native land. Cheylard scrapes together halfpence for the darkened souls in Edinburgh, while Balquhidder and Dunrossness bemoan the ignorance of Rome. Thus, to the high entertainment of the angels, do we pelt each other with evangelists, like schoolboys bickering in the snow.
Honestly, it didn't seem worth all the searching. Just a few broken bits of a village, with no real streets, only a series of open areas piled with logs and sticks; a couple of slanted crosses, a shrine to Our Lady of All Graces on top of a small hill; and all of this next to a rough highland river in the corner of a bare valley. What were you expecting to find? I thought to myself. But the place had its own vibe. I found a sign celebrating the generosity of Cheylard for the past year, hanging like a banner in the tiny, shaky church. In 1877, it said, the locals donated forty-eight francs and ten centimes for the "Work of the Propagation of the Faith." I couldn't help but hope some of this would go to my home country. Cheylard collects spare change for the lost souls in Edinburgh, while Balquhidder and Dunrossness lament the ignorance of Rome. So, to the great amusement of the angels, we throw evangelists at each other like schoolkids arguing in the snow.
The inn was again singularly unpretentious. The whole furniture of a not ill-to-do family was in the kitchen: the beds, the cradle, the clothes, the plate-rack, the meal-chest, and the photograph of the parish priest. There were five children, one of whom was set to its morning prayers at the stair-foot soon after my arrival, and a sixth would ere long be forthcoming. I was kindly received by these good folk. They were much interested in my misadventure. The wood in which I had slept belonged to them; the man of Fouzilhac they thought a monster of iniquity, and counseled me warmly to summon him at[Pg 178] law—"because I might have died." The good wife was horror-stricken to see me drink over a pint of uncreamed milk.
The inn was once again refreshingly simple. The entire furniture set up of a fairly comfortable family was in the kitchen: the beds, the crib, the clothes, the plate rack, the food chest, and the photo of the parish priest. There were five kids, one of whom was saying her morning prayers at the bottom of the stairs soon after I arrived, and a sixth would soon be on the way. I was warmly welcomed by these kind people. They were very interested in my unfortunate situation. The forest where I had slept belonged to them; they thought the man from Fouzilhac was a terrible person and strongly advised me to take him to court—"because I could have died." The good wife was horrified to see me drink over a pint of uncreamed milk.
"You will do yourself an evil," she said. "Permit me to boil it for you."
"You'll regret that," she said. "Let me cook it for you."
After I had begun the morning on this delightful liquor, she having an infinity of things to arrange, I was permitted, nay requested, to make a bowl of chocolate for myself. My boots and gaiters were hung up to dry, and, seeing me trying to write my journal on my knee, the eldest daughter let down a hinged table in the chimney-corner for my convenience. Here I wrote, drank my chocolate, and finally ate an omelette before I left. The table was thick with dust; for, as they explained, it was not used except in winter weather. I had a clear look up the vent, through brown agglomerations of soot and blue vapour, to the sky; and whenever a handful of twigs was thrown on to the fire, my legs were scorched by the blaze.
After I started the morning with this lovely drink, and she had a lot of things to organize, I was allowed, even encouraged, to make a bowl of chocolate for myself. My boots and gaiters were set aside to dry, and when she saw me trying to write my journal on my knee, the eldest daughter pulled down a folding table in the corner by the fireplace for my convenience. Here, I wrote, drank my chocolate, and eventually had an omelette before I left. The table was covered in dust because, as they said, it was only used during the winter. I had a clear view up the chimney, through clumps of soot and blue smoke, to the sky; and whenever a handful of twigs was tossed onto the fire, my legs got scorched by the heat.
The husband had begun life as a muleteer, and when I came to charge Modestine showed himself full of the prudence of his art. "You will have to change this package," said he; "it ought to be in two parts, and then you might have double the weight."
The husband started out as a mule driver, and when I took over Modestine, he demonstrated all the wisdom of his trade. "You need to switch this package," he said; "it should be in two parts, and then you could have twice the weight."
I explained that I wanted no more weight; and for no donkey hitherto created would I cut my sleeping-bag in two.
I said that I didn't want any more weight; and for no donkey ever made would I cut my sleeping bag in half.
"It fatigues her, however," said the innkeeper; "it fatigues her greatly on the march. Look."
"It tires her out, though," said the innkeeper; "it really drains her during the march. Look."
Alas, there were her two forelegs no better than raw beef on the inside, and blood was running from under her tail. They told me when I started, and I was ready to believe it, that before a few days I should come to love Modestine like a dog. Three days had passed, we had shared some misadventures, and my heart was still as cold as a potato towards my beast of burden. She was pretty enough to look at; but then she had given proof of dead[Pg 179] stupidity, redeemed indeed by patience, but aggravated by flashes of sorry and ill-judged light-heartedness. And I own this new discovery seemed another point against her. What the devil was the good of a she-ass if she could not carry a sleeping-bag and a few necessaries? I saw the end of the fable rapidly approaching, when I should have to carry Modestine. Æsop was the man to know the world! I assure you I set out with heavy thoughts upon my short day's march.
Unfortunately, her two front legs were no better than raw meat inside, and blood was oozing from under her tail. They told me when I began, and I was ready to believe it, that in a few days I would come to love Modestine like a dog. Three days had passed, we had shared some misadventures, and my heart was still as cold as a potato towards my pack animal. She looked cute, but she had shown an annoying level of stupidity, which was somewhat softened by her patience but made worse by moments of poor and thoughtless cheerfulness. Honestly, this new realization felt like another strike against her. What good was a donkey if she couldn't carry a sleeping bag and a few essentials? I could see the end of the story coming quickly, when I would have to carry Modestine myself. Æsop really understood the world! I assure you I set out with heavy thoughts on my short day's journey.
It was not only heavy thoughts about Modestine that weighted me upon the way; it was a leaden business altogether. For first, the wind blew so rudely that I had to hold on the pack with one hand from Cheylard to Luc; and second, my road lay through one of the most beggarly countries in the world. It was like the worst of the Scottish Highlands, only worse; cold, naked, and ignoble, scant of wood, scant of heather, scant of life. A road and some fences broke the unvarying waste, and the line of the road was marked by upright pillars, to serve in time of snow.
It wasn't just my heavy thoughts about Modestine that weighed me down on the journey; everything felt so burdensome. First, the wind blew so fiercely that I had to hold onto the pack with one hand from Cheylard to Luc. Second, my route passed through one of the most impoverished regions in the world. It resembled the worst parts of the Scottish Highlands, but even worse: cold, bare, and unremarkable, lacking trees, heather, and life. A road and some fences broke the endless emptiness, and the path was marked by upright pillars to guide the way during snow.
Why any one should desire to visit either Luc or Cheylard is more than my much-inventing spirit can suppose. For my part, I travel not to go anywhere, but to go. I travel for travel's sake. The great affair is to move; to feel the needs and hitches of our life more nearly; to come down off this feather-bed of civilization, and find the globe granite underfoot and strewn with cutting flints. Alas, as we get up in life, and are more preoccupied with our affairs, even a holiday is a thing that must be worked for. To hold a pack upon a pack-saddle against a gale out of the freezing north is no high industry, but it is one that serves to occupy and compose the mind. And when the present is so exacting, who can annoy himself about the future?
Why anyone would want to visit either Luc or Cheylard is beyond what my imaginative mind can understand. Personally, I travel not to reach a destination, but simply to travel. I travel for the experience itself. The main goal is to move; to feel the challenges and struggles of life more acutely; to step off this cushy bed of civilization and find the solid ground beneath my feet, littered with sharp stones. Unfortunately, as we progress in life and become more focused on our responsibilities, even a vacation becomes something that requires effort. Holding a pack on a pack-saddle against a cold northern wind isn’t a grand task, but it keeps my mind engaged and at ease. And when the present demands so much, who has time to worry about the future?
I came out at length above the Allier. A more unsightly prospect at this season of the year it would be hard to fancy. Shelving hills rose round it on all sides, here[Pg 180] dabbled with wood and fields, there rising to peaks alternately naked and hairy with pines. The colour throughout was black or ashen, and came to a point in the ruins of the castle of Luc, which pricked up impudently from below my feet, carrying on a pinnacle a tall white statue of Our Lady, which, I heard with interest, weighed fifty quintals, and was to be dedicated on the 6th of October. Through this sorry landscape trickled the Allier and a tributary of nearly equal size, which came down to join it through a broad nude valley in Vivarais. The weather had somewhat lightened, and the clouds massed in squadron; but the fierce wind still hunted them through heaven, and cast great ungainly splashes of shadow and sunlight over the scene.
I finally reached a viewpoint above the Allier. It would be hard to imagine a more unappealing sight at this time of year. The surrounding hills sloped up on all sides, some areas sprinkled with trees and fields, while others rose to peaks that alternated between bare and covered in pine trees. The overall tone was dark or gray, and it all converged at the ruins of the castle of Luc, which jutted up sharply beneath my feet, featuring a tall white statue of Our Lady on a pinnacle. I found it intriguing that the statue weighed fifty quintals and was set to be dedicated on October 6th. The Allier meandered through this dismal landscape, accompanied by a nearly equal-sized tributary that flowed in from a wide, bare valley in Vivarais. The weather had improved slightly, with clouds gathering in groups, but the strong wind continued to chase them across the sky, casting large, awkward patches of shadow and sunlight over the scene.
Luc itself was a straggling double file of houses wedged between hill and river. It had no beauty, nor was there any notable feature, save the old castle overhead with its fifty quintals of brand-new Madonna. But the inn was clean and large. The kitchen, with its two box-beds hung with clean check curtains, with its wide stone chimney, its chimney-shelf four yards long and garnished with lanterns and religious statuettes, its array of chests and pair of ticking clocks, was the very model of what a kitchen ought to be; a melodrama kitchen, suitable for bandits or noblemen in disguise. Nor was the scene disgraced by the landlady, a handsome, silent, dark old woman, clothed and hooded in black like a nun. Even the public bedroom had a character of its own, with the long deal tables and benches, where fifty might have dined, set out as for a harvest-home, and the three box-beds along the wall. In one of these, lying on straw and covered with a pair of table-napkins, did I do penance all night long in goose-flesh and chattering teeth, and sigh, from time to time as I awakened, for my sheepskin sack and the lee of some great wood.
Luc was a scattered row of houses squeezed between a hill and a river. It wasn’t beautiful, nor did it have any notable features, except for the old castle above it with its brand-new Madonna statue. However, the inn was clean and spacious. The kitchen, with its two box-beds draped in fresh checkered curtains, a wide stone chimney, a chimney shelf four yards long decorated with lanterns and religious figurines, a collection of chests, and a pair of ticking clocks, was the perfect example of what a kitchen should be; a dramatic kitchen, fit for bandits or noblemen in disguise. The scene was also enhanced by the landlady, a striking, quiet, dark-skinned older woman, dressed in black like a nun. Even the public bedroom had its own character, with long wooden tables and benches that could seat fifty, set up for a harvest feast, and three box-beds along the wall. In one of these, lying on straw and covered with a couple of table napkins, I spent all night suffering from goosebumps and chattering teeth, sighing occasionally as I woke up, longing for my sheepskin sack and the shelter of some large woods.
OUR LADY OF THE SNOWS
The House, the strict Brotherhood— So, what am I doing here?
Matthew Arnold.
FATHER APOLLONARIS
Next morning (Thursday, 26th September) I took the road in a new order. The sack was no longer doubled, but hung at full length across the saddle, a green sausage six feet long with a tuft of blue wool hanging out of either end. It was more picturesque, it spared the donkey, and, as I began to see, it would ensure stability, blow high, blow low. But it was not without a pang that I had so decided. For although I had purchased a new cord, and made all as fast as I was able, I was yet jealously uneasy lest the flaps should tumble out and scatter my effects along the line of march.
Next morning (Thursday, September 26th), I hit the road in a new way. The sack was no longer folded over, but was hanging full-length across the saddle, looking like a six-foot green sausage with bits of blue wool sticking out from both ends. It looked better, it was easier on the donkey, and, as I started to realize, it would keep things stable, no matter the weather. But I felt a bit anxious about this decision. Even though I had bought a new cord and secured everything as best I could, I still worried that the flaps might come loose and spill my stuff all along the route.
My way lay up the bald valley of the river, along the march of Vivarais and Gévaudan. The hills of Gévaudan on the right were a little more naked, if anything, than those of Vivarais upon the left, and the former had a monopoly of a low dotty underwood that grew thickly in the gorges and died out in solitary burrs upon the shoulders and the summits. Black bricks of fir-wood were plastered here and there upon both sides, and here and there were cultivated fields. A railway ran beside the river; the only bit of railway in Gévaudan, although there are many proposals afoot and surveys being made, and even, as they tell me, a station standing ready built in Mende. A year or two hence and this may be another world. The desert is beleaguered. Now may some Languedocian Wordsworth turn the sonnet into patois: "Mountains and vales and floods, heard YE that whistle?"
My path led up the barren valley of the river, alongside the border of Vivarais and Gévaudan. The hills of Gévaudan on the right were somewhat more bare than those of Vivarais on the left, and the former had a lot of low, scattered underbrush that grew densely in the gorges and faded into isolated patches on the slopes and peaks. Dark patches of fir wood were scattered on both sides, and there were cultivated fields here and there. A railway ran next to the river; it was the only stretch of railway in Gévaudan, although there are many plans and surveys in progress, and even, as I've heard, a station already built in Mende. In a year or two, this could be a whole new world. The wilderness is under siege. Now may some Languedocian Wordsworth turn the sonnet into patois: "Mountains and valleys and rivers, did you hear that whistle?"
At a place called La Bastide I was directed to leave the river, and follow a road that mounted on the left[Pg 184] among the hills of Vivarais, the modern Ardèche; for I was now come within a little way of my strange destination, the Trappist monastery of Our Lady of the Snows. The sun came out as I left the shelter of a pine-wood, and I beheld suddenly a fine wild landscape to the south. High rocky hills, as blue as sapphire, closed the view, and between these lay ridge upon ridge, heathery, craggy, the sun glittering on veins of rock, the underwood clambering in the hollows, as rude as God made them at the first. There was not a sign of man's hand in all the prospect; and indeed not a trace of his passage, save where generation after generation had walked in twisted footpaths, in and out among the beeches, and up and down upon the channeled slopes. The mists, which had hitherto beset me, were now broken into clouds, and fled swiftly and shone brightly in the sun. I drew a long breath. It was grateful to come, after so long, upon a scene of some attraction for the human heart. I own I like definite form in what my eyes are to rest upon; and if landscapes were sold, like the sheets of characters of my boyhood, one penny plain and twopence coloured, I should go the length of twopence every day of my life.
At a place called La Bastide, I was told to leave the river and take a road that climbed to the left[Pg 184] through the hills of Vivarais, now known as Ardèche; I was getting close to my unusual destination, the Trappist monastery of Our Lady of the Snows. As I stepped out of the shelter of a pine forest, the sun broke through, revealing a beautiful wild landscape to the south. Towering rocky hills, as blue as sapphire, framed the view, with ridge after ridge of heather and craggy terrain; sunlight sparkled on the rocky veins, and the underbrush climbed in the hollows, as raw as the day it was created. There was no sign of human presence in the entire landscape; in fact, the only evidence of humanity was the twisted footpaths carved by countless generations, winding in and out among the beeches and up and down the rough slopes. The mists that had surrounded me were now broken into clouds, racing away and shining brightly in the sunlight. I took a deep breath. It felt good to finally come upon a scene that stirred my heart after so long. I admit I enjoy having a clear shape for my eyes to rest upon; if landscapes were sold like the character sheets from my childhood—one penny plain and two pence colored—I would gladly spend two pence every day of my life.
But if things had grown better to the south, it was still desolate and inclement near at hand. A spidery cross on every hill-top marked the neighbourhood of a religious house; and a quarter of a mile beyond, the outlook southward opening out and growing bolder with every step, a white statue of the Virgin at the corner of a young plantation directed the traveller to Our Lady of the Snows. Here, then, I struck leftward, and pursued my way, driving my secular donkey before me, and creaking in my secular boots and gaiters, towards the asylum of silence.
But even if things had improved down south, it was still barren and harsh nearby. A spindly cross on every hilltop indicated the presence of a religious house, and a quarter mile further on, the view to the south expanded and grew more impressive with each step. A white statue of the Virgin at the edge of a young grove pointed the way to Our Lady of the Snows. So, I turned left and continued my journey, guiding my everyday donkey ahead of me, and creaking in my normal boots and gaiters, towards the refuge of silence.
I had not gone very far ere the wind brought to me the clanging of a bell, and somehow, I can scarce tell why, my heart sank within me at the sound. I have rarely[Pg 185] approached anything with more unaffected terror than the monastery of Our Lady of the Snows. This it is to have had a Protestant education. And suddenly, on turning a corner, fear took hold on me from head to foot—slavish, superstitious fear; and though I did not stop in my advance, yet I went on slowly, like a man who should have passed a bourne unnoticed, and strayed into the country of the dead. For there, upon the narrow new-made road, between the stripling pines, was a mediæval friar, fighting with a barrowful of turfs. Every Sunday of my childhood I used to study the Hermits of Marco Sadeler—enchanting prints, full of wood and field and mediæval landscapes, as large as a county, for the imagination to go a-travelling in; and here, sure enough, was one of Marco Sadeler's heroes. He was robed in white like any spectre, and the hood falling back, in the instancy of his contention with the barrow, disclosed a pate as bald and yellow as a skull. He might have been buried any time these thousand years, and all the lively parts of him resolved into earth and broken up with the farmer's harrow.
I hadn't gotten very far when the wind carried the sound of a bell to me, and for some reason I can't quite explain, my heart sank at the noise. I've rarely approached anything with such genuine fear as the monastery of Our Lady of the Snows. This is what a Protestant education does to you. Suddenly, as I turned a corner, fear gripped me completely—subservient, superstitious fear; and even though I didn't stop, I moved forward slowly, like someone who has unknowingly crossed a boundary and wandered into the land of the dead. There, on the narrow newly made road, between the young pines, was a medieval friar, struggling with a wheelbarrow full of sod. Every Sunday in my childhood, I would look at the Hermits of Marco Sadeler—beautiful prints rich with woods, fields, and medieval landscapes, vast as a county, allowing the imagination to roam; and here, sure enough, was one of Marco Sadeler's figures. He was dressed in white, like a ghost, and as his hood fell back in the heat of his labor with the barrow, it revealed a head as bald and yellow as a skull. He could have been buried for the last thousand years, with all his lively parts turned to earth and broken apart by the farmer's plow.
I was troubled besides in my mind as to etiquette. Durst I address a person who was under a vow of silence? Clearly not. But drawing near, I doffed my cap to him with a far-away superstitious reverence. He nodded back, and cheerfully addressed me. Was I going to the monastery? Who was I? An Englishman? Ah, an Irishman, then?
I was also feeling uneasy about what to say. Should I talk to someone who had taken a vow of silence? Definitely not. But as I got closer, I took off my hat in a distant, almost superstitious respect. He nodded in return and happily spoke to me. Was I headed to the monastery? Who was I? An Englishman? Ah, so an Irishman, then?
"No," I said, "a Scotsman."
"No," I said, "a Scottish person."
A Scotsman? Ah, he had never seen a Scotsman before. And he looked me all over, his good, honest, brawny countenance shining with interest, as a boy might look upon a lion or an alligator. From him I learned with disgust that I could not be received at Our Lady of the Snows; I might get a meal, perhaps, but that was all. And then, as our talk ran on, and it turned out that I was not a pedlar, but a literary man, who drew[Pg 186] landscapes and was going to write a book, he changed his manner of thinking as to my reception (for I fear they respect persons even in a Trappist monastery), and told me I must be sure to ask for the Father Prior, and state my case to him in full. On second thoughts he determined to go down with me himself; he thought he could manage for me better. Might he say that I was a geographer?
A Scotsman? Oh, he had never seen one before. He looked me up and down, his honest, strong face bright with curiosity, like a boy looking at a lion or an alligator. From him, I learned with disappointment that I wouldn’t be able to stay at Our Lady of the Snows; I might get a meal, but that was it. Then, as we talked more, and it came out that I wasn't a peddler but a writer who drew landscapes and planned to write a book, he changed how he felt about my reception (since I guess they do show favoritism even in a Trappist monastery) and told me I should definitely ask for the Father Prior and explain my situation to him fully. After thinking it over, he decided to go down with me himself; he thought he could help me better. Could he say I was a geographer?
No; I thought, in the interests of truth, he positively might not.
No; I thought, for the sake of honesty, he really might not.
"Very well, then" (with disappointment), "an author."
"Alright, then" (with disappointment), "an author."
It appeared he had been in a seminary with six young Irishmen, all priests, long since, who had received newspapers and kept him informed of the state of ecclesiastical affairs in England. And he asked me eagerly after Dr. Pusey, for whose conversion the good man had continued ever since to pray night and morning.
It seemed he had been in a seminary with six young Irishmen, all priests, a long time ago, who had sent him newspapers and kept him updated on the state of church affairs in England. And he eagerly asked me about Dr. Pusey, for whose conversion the good man had continued to pray day and night ever since.
"I thought he was very near the truth," he said; "and he will reach it yet; there is so much virtue in prayer."
"I thought he was really close to the truth," he said; "and he will find it yet; there's so much power in prayer."
He must be a stiff, ungodly Protestant who can take anything but pleasure in this kind and hopeful story. While he was thus near the subject, the good father asked me if I were a Christian; and when he found I was not, or not after his way, he glossed it over with great good-will.
He must be a rigid, unholy Protestant who can find no joy in this kind and uplifting story. While he was close to the topic, the good father asked me if I was a Christian; and when he realized I wasn’t, or at least not in the way he believed, he brushed it off with a lot of goodwill.
The road which we were following, and which this stalwart father had made with his own two hands within the space of a year, came to a corner, and showed us some white buildings a little farther on beyond the wood. At the same time, the bell once more sounded abroad. We were hard upon the monastery. Father Apollinaris (for that was my companion's name) stopped me.
The road we were on, built by this strong father with his own hands in just a year, turned a corner and revealed some white buildings a bit further ahead beyond the woods. At the same time, the bell rang out again. We were close to the monastery. Father Apollinaris (that was my companion's name) stopped me.
"I must not speak to you down there," he said. "Ask for the Brother Porter, and all will be well. But try to see me as you go out again through the wood, where I may speak to you. I am charmed to have made your acquaintance."[Pg 187]
"I can't talk to you down there," he said. "Just ask for the Brother Porter, and everything will be fine. But try to catch me as you leave again through the woods, where I can speak to you. I'm really glad to have met you."[Pg 187]
And then suddenly raising his arms, flapping his fingers, and crying out twice, "I must not speak! I must not speak!" he ran away in front of me, and disappeared into the monastery door.
And then suddenly he raised his arms, flapped his fingers, and shouted twice, "I mustn't speak! I mustn't speak!" before running ahead of me and disappearing through the monastery door.
I own this somewhat ghastly eccentricity went a good way to revive my terrors. But where one was so good and simple, why should not all be alike? I took heart of grace, and went forward to the gate as fast as Modestine, who seemed to have a disaffection for monasteries, would permit. It was the first door, in my acquaintance of her, which she had not shown an indecent haste to enter. I summoned the place in form, though with a quaking heart. Father Michael, the Father Hospitaller, and a pair of brown-robed brothers came to the gate and spoke with me a while. I think my sack was the great attraction; it had already beguiled the heart of poor Apollinaris, who had charged me on my life to show it to the Father Prior. But whether it was my address, or the sack, or the idea speedily published among that part of the brotherhood who attend on strangers that I was not a pedlar after all, I found no difficulty as to my reception. Modestine was led away by a layman to the stables, and I and my pack were received into Our Lady of the Snows.
I owned this somewhat bizarre quirk that brought back my fears. But if one was so kind and straightforward, why not everyone? I steeled myself and went to the gate as quickly as Modestine, who seemed to dislike monasteries, would allow. It was the first door in my time with her where she didn’t rush to enter. I approached the place formally, though my heart was racing. Father Michael, the Father Hospitaller, and a couple of brothers in brown robes came to the gate and chatted with me for a while. I think my sack was a big draw; it had already captured the interest of poor Apollinaris, who had insisted I show it to the Father Prior. However, whether it was my demeanor, the sack, or the word that spread among the brothers attending to visitors that I wasn't a peddler after all, I had no trouble being welcomed. Modestine was taken away by a layman to the stables, and I and my pack were welcomed into Our Lady of the Snows.
THE MONKS
Father Michael, a pleasant, fresh-faced, smiling man, perhaps of thirty-five, took me to the pantry, and gave me a glass of liqueur to stay me until dinner. We had some talk, or rather I should say he listened to my prattle indulgently enough, but with an abstracted air, like a spirit with a thing of clay. And truly, when I remember that I descanted principally on my appetite, and that it must have been by that time more than eighteen hours since Father Michael had so much as broken bread, I can well understand that he would find an earthly savour in my conversation. But his manner, though superior, was exquisitely gracious; and I find I have a lurking curiosity as to Father Michael's past.
Father Michael, a kind, fresh-faced, smiling man, probably about thirty-five, took me to the pantry and offered me a glass of liqueur to hold me over until dinner. We chatted, or rather, I rambled on while he listened patiently, but with a distant look, like someone lost in thought. And honestly, when I think back to how I mostly talked about my hunger, and considering it had been more than eighteen hours since Father Michael had eaten anything, I totally get why he might find some interest in what I was saying. Still, his demeanor, though superior, was incredibly gracious; and I can't help but feel a curious desire to know more about Father Michael's past.
The whet administered, I was left alone for a little in the monastery garden. This is no more than the main court, laid out in sandy paths and beds of parti-coloured dahlias, and with a fountain and a black statue of the Virgin in the centre. The buildings stand around it four-square, bleak, as yet unseasoned by the years and weather, and with no other features than a belfry and a pair of slated gables. Brothers in white, brothers in brown, passed silently along the sanded alleys; and when I first came out, three hooded monks were kneeling on the terrace at their prayers. A naked hill commands the monastery upon one side, and the wood commands it on the other. It lies exposed to wind; the snow falls off and on from October to May, and sometimes lies six weeks on end; but if they stood in Eden with a climate like heaven's, the buildings themselves would offer the[Pg 189] same wintry and cheerless aspect; and for my part, on this wild September day, before I was called to dinner, I felt chilly in and out.
The whet given, I was left alone for a bit in the monastery garden. It's just the main courtyard, featuring sandy paths and colorful dahlia beds, with a fountain and a black statue of the Virgin at the center. The buildings surround it in a square, looking stark, still untouched by time and weather, with no features other than a belfry and a pair of slanted roofs. Brothers in white and brown walked quietly along the sandy paths; when I first came out, three hooded monks were kneeling on the terrace, deep in prayer. A bare hill overlooks the monastery on one side, while a forest does on the other. It’s exposed to the wind; snow falls on and off from October to May, sometimes sticking around for six weeks straight; yet, even if they were in Eden with a heavenly climate, the buildings would still have the[Pg 189] same wintry and dreary look; and for me, on this wild September day, before I was called to dinner, I felt cold both inside and out.
When I had eaten well and heartily, Brother Ambrose, a hearty conversible Frenchman (for all those who wait on strangers have the liberty to speak), led me to a little room in that part of the building which is set apart for MM. les retraitants. It was clean and whitewashed, and furnished with strict necessaries, a crucifix, a bust of the late Pope, the "Imitation" in French, a book of religious meditations, and the "Life of Elizabeth Seton"—evangelist, it would appear, of North America and of New England in particular. As far as my experience goes, there is a fair field for some more evangelisation in these quarters; but think of Cotton Mather! I should like to give him a reading of this little work in heaven, where I hope he dwells; but perhaps he knows all that already, and much more; and perhaps he and Mrs. Seton are the dearest friends, and gladly unite their voices in the everlasting psalm. Over the table, to conclude the inventory of the room, hung a set of regulations for MM. les retraitants: what services they should attend, when they were to tell their beads or meditate, and when they were to rise and go to rest. At the foot was a notable N.B.: "Le temps libre est employé a l'examen de conscience, à la confession, à faire de bonnes résolutions," etc. To make good resolutions, indeed! You might talk as fruitfully of making the hair grow on your head.
After I'd had a good meal, Brother Ambrose, a friendly Frenchman (since all who serve strangers have the freedom to chat), took me to a small room in the part of the building reserved for MM. les retraitants. It was clean and painted white, furnished with just the essentials: a crucifix, a bust of the late Pope, the "Imitation" in French, a book of religious meditations, and the "Life of Elizabeth Seton"—the evangelist of North America and particularly New England, it seems. From what I've seen, there's plenty of opportunity for more evangelization in these areas; but think of Cotton Mather! I'd love to share this little book with him in heaven, where I hope he resides; but maybe he already knows all of this and much more; perhaps he and Mrs. Seton are close friends, happily joining their voices in an eternal hymn. Over the table, to complete the inventory of the room, hung a set of regulations for MM. les retraitants: which services to attend, when to say their prayers or meditate, and when to get up and go to sleep. At the bottom was a noteworthy N.B.: "Le temps libre est employé a l'examen de conscience, à la confession, à faire de bonnes résolutions," etc. Make good resolutions, indeed! You might as well talk about making hair grow on your head.
I had scarce explored my niche when Brother Ambrose returned. An English boarder, it appeared, would like to speak with me. I professed my willingness, and the friar ushered in a fresh, young, little Irishman of fifty, a deacon of the Church, arrayed in strict canonicals, and wearing on his head what, in default of knowledge, I can only call the ecclesiastical shako. He had lived seven years in retreat at a convent of nuns in Belgium, and now five at Our Lady of the Snows; he never saw[Pg 190] an English newspaper; he spoke French imperfectly, and had he spoken it like a native, there was not much chance of conversation where he dwelt. With this, he was a man eminently sociable, greedy of news, and simple-minded like a child. If I was pleased to have a guide about the monastery, he was no less delighted to see an English face and hear an English tongue.
I had barely explored my space when Brother Ambrose came back. An English boarder, it seemed, wanted to talk to me. I said I was willing, and the friar brought in a fresh, young Irishman who looked about fifty, a deacon of the Church, dressed in formal religious attire, and wearing what I can only describe as an ecclesiastical shako. He had spent seven years in seclusion at a convent of nuns in Belgium, and then five years at Our Lady of the Snows; he had never seen an English newspaper, spoke French poorly, and even if he had spoken it fluently, there wouldn’t have been much chance for conversation where he lived. Still, he was very sociable, eager for news, and innocent like a child. I was happy to have a guide around the monastery, and he was just as thrilled to see an English face and hear English being spoken.
He showed me his own room, where he passed his time among breviaries, Hebrew Bibles, and the Waverley Novels. Thence he led me to the cloisters, into the chapter-house, through the vestry, where the brothers' gowns and broad straw hats were hanging up, each with his religious name upon a board—names full of legendary suavity and interest, such as Basil, Hilarion, Raphael, or Pacifique; into the library, where were all the works of Veuillot and Chateaubriand, and the "Odes et Ballades," if you please, and even Molière, to say nothing of innumerable fathers and a great variety of local and general historians. Thence my good Irishman took me round the workshops, where brothers bake bread, and make cart-wheels, and take photographs; where one superintends a collection of curiosities, and another a gallery of rabbits. For in a Trappist monastery each monk has an occupation of his own choice, apart from his religious duties and the general labours of the house. Each must sing in the choir, if he has a voice and ear, and join in the haymaking if he has a hand to stir; but in his private hours, although he must be occupied, he may be occupied on what he likes. Thus I was told that one brother was engaged with literature; while Father Apollinaris busies himself in making roads, and the Abbot employs himself in binding books. It is not so long since this Abbot was consecrated, by the way; and on that occasion, by a special grace, his mother was permitted to enter the chapel and witness the ceremony of consecration. A proud day for her to have a son a mitred abbot; it makes you glad to think they let her in.
He showed me his room, where he spent his time surrounded by prayer books, Hebrew Bibles, and the Waverley Novels. Then he took me to the cloisters, into the chapter house, and through the vestry, where the brothers' gowns and wide straw hats hung, each labeled with their religious name on a board—names rich with legendary charm and interest, like Basil, Hilarion, Raphael, or Pacifique; into the library, stocked with the works of Veuillot and Chateaubriand, and the "Odes et Ballades," not to mention Molière, along with countless church fathers and a wide range of local and general historians. Then my good Irish friend led me around the workshops, where brothers bake bread, make cart wheels, and take photographs; where one oversees a collection of curiosities, and another runs a rabbit gallery. In a Trappist monastery, each monk has a job of his choice, aside from his religious duties and the general work of the house. Every monk must sing in the choir if he has a suitable voice and ear, and join in the haymaking if he has a hand to contribute; but in his free time, while he must be busy, he can work on whatever he enjoys. I was told that one brother is involved in literature, while Father Apollinaris focuses on road construction, and the Abbot occupies himself with bookbinding. By the way, it hasn't been long since this Abbot was consecrated; and during that ceremony, his mother was granted special permission to enter the chapel and witness the consecration. It must have been a proud day for her to have a son as a mitred abbot; it makes you happy to know they let her in.
In all these journeyings to and fro, many silent fathers[Pg 191] and brethren fell in our way. Usually they paid no more regard to our passage than if we had been a cloud; but sometimes the good deacon had a permission to ask of them, and it was granted by a peculiar movement of the hands, almost like that of a dog's paws in swimming, or refused by the usual negative signs, and in either case with lowered eyelids and a certain air of contrition, as of a man who was steering very close to evil.
In all these trips back and forth, we encountered many quiet fathers[Pg 191] and brothers. They usually treated our presence as if we were just a passing cloud; however, sometimes the good deacon was allowed to inquire, and the response was given with a unique movement of the hands, almost like a dog paddling in water, or it was denied with the usual negative gestures, in either case accompanied by lowered eyelids and a certain sense of guilt, as if a person was dangerously close to wrongdoing.
The monks, by special grace of their Abbot, were still taking two meals a day; but it was already time for their grand fast, which begins somewhere in September and lasts till Easter, and during which they eat but once in the twenty-four hours, and that at two in the afternoon, twelve hours after they have begun the toil and vigil of the day. Their meals are scanty, but even of these they eat sparingly; and though each is allowed a small carafe of wine, many refrain from this indulgence. Without doubt, the most of mankind grossly over-eat themselves; our meals serve not only for support, but as a hearty and natural diversion from the labour of life. Yet, though excess may be hurtful, I should have thought this Trappist regimen defective. And I am astonished, as I look back, at the freshness of face and cheerfulness of manner of all whom I beheld. A happier nor a healthier company I should scarce suppose that I have ever seen. As a matter of fact, on this bleak upland, and with the incessant occupation of the monks, life is of an uncertain tenure, and death no infrequent visitor, at Our Lady of the Snows. This, at least, was what was told me. But if they die easily, they must live healthily in the meantime, for they seemed all firm of flesh and high in colour; and the only morbid sign that I could observe, an unusual brilliancy of eye, was one that served rather to increase the general impression of vivacity and strength.
The monks, thanks to the special grace of their Abbot, were still having two meals a day; but it was already time for their major fast, which starts around September and lasts until Easter. During this period, they only eat once every twenty-four hours, and that’s at two in the afternoon, twelve hours after they begin their day of work and prayer. Their meals are minimal, and even then they eat sparingly; while each monk is allowed a small carafe of wine, many choose to skip this indulgence. It’s clear that most people overeat; we use meals not just for sustenance but as a hearty and natural break from the hard work of life. However, while excess can be harmful, I would think that this Trappist lifestyle is lacking. Yet, I’m amazed, as I reflect, at the freshness of the faces and the cheerfulness of everyone I observed. I can hardly believe I’ve ever seen a happier or healthier group. In fact, in this bleak highland, with the monks' constant activity, life is uncertain and death is a frequent visitor at Our Lady of the Snows. At least, that’s what I was told. But if they die easily, they must be living healthily in the meantime, as they all appeared strong and vibrant; the only somewhat morbid sign I noticed, an unusual brightness in their eyes, actually added to the overall impression of vitality and strength.
Those with whom I spoke were singularly sweet-tempered, with what I can only call a holy cheerfulness in air and conversation. There is a note, in the direction[Pg 192] to visitors, telling them not to be offended at the curt speech of those who wait upon them, since it is proper to monks to speak little. The note might have been spared; to a man the hospitallers were all brimming with innocent talk, and, in my experience of the monastery, it was easier to begin than to break off a conversation. With the exception of Father Michael, who was a man of the world, they showed themselves full of kind and healthy interest in all sorts of subjects—in politics, in voyages, in my sleeping-sack—and not without a certain pleasure in the sound of their own voices.
The people I talked to were remarkably good-natured, with what I can only describe as a joyful and uplifting spirit in their presence and conversations. There’s a note, in the direction[Pg 192] to visitors, advising them not to take offense at the short responses from those who serve them, as it's customary for monks to speak less. That note probably wasn’t necessary; everyone I encountered was full of delightful conversation, and in my experience at the monastery, it was easier to start a chat than to wrap one up. Except for Father Michael, who was more worldly, they all expressed genuine and healthy interest in a variety of topics—like politics, travel, and even my sleeping bag—while also enjoying the sound of their own voices.
As for those who are restricted to silence, I can only wonder how they bear their solemn and cheerless isolation. And yet, apart from any view of mortification, I can see a certain policy, not only in the exclusion of women, but in this vow of silence. I have had some experience of lay phalansteries, of an artistic, not to say a bacchanalian, character; and seen more than one association easily formed and yet more easily dispersed. With a Cistercian rule, perhaps they might have lasted longer. In the neighbourhood of women it is but a touch-and-go association that can be formed among defenceless men; the stronger electricity is sure to triumph; the dreams of boyhood, the schemes of youth, are abandoned after an interview of ten minutes, and the arts and sciences, and professional male jollity, deserted at once for two sweet eyes and a caressing accent. And next after this, the tongue is the great divider.
For those who are forced to stay silent, I can only imagine how they handle their serious and joyless isolation. Yet, apart from any thoughts of suffering, I can see a certain strategy, not just in keeping women out, but also in this vow of silence. I've had some experience with lay communities that are more about art and revelry; I've seen quite a few groups form easily but break apart even faster. If they had a Cistercian rule, maybe they would have lasted longer. When it comes to being around women, it’s a very fleeting connection that can happen among vulnerable men; stronger attraction always wins out. The dreams of childhood, the plans of youth, fade away after just ten minutes of conversation, and the fields of arts and sciences, as well as carefree male bonding, are instantly set aside for two lovely eyes and a sweet voice. After that, the tongue becomes the main divider.
I am almost ashamed to pursue this worldly criticism of a religious rule; but there is yet another point in which the Trappist order appeals to me as a model of wisdom. By two in the morning the clapper goes upon the bell, and so on, hour by hour, and sometimes quarter by quarter, till eight, the hour of rest; so infinitesimally is the day divided among different occupations. The man who keeps rabbits, for example, hurries from his hutches to the chapel, the chapter-room, or the refectory, all day long: every hour he has an office to sing, a duty to per[Pg 193]form; from two, when he rises in the dark, till eight, when he returns to receive the comfortable gift of sleep, he is upon his feet and occupied with manifold and changing business. I know many persons, worth several thousands in the year, who are not so fortunate in the disposal of their lives. Into how many houses would not the note of the monastery bell, dividing the day into manageable portions, bring peace of mind and healthful activity of body! We speak of hardships, but the true hardship is to be a dull fool, and permitted to mismanage life in our own dull and foolish manner.
I almost feel embarrassed to critique this religious rule with a worldly perspective, but there’s another aspect in which the Trappist order strikes me as a wise model. At two in the morning, the bell starts ringing, and it continues, hour by hour, sometimes even quarter by quarter, until eight, the time for rest; the day is divided so meticulously among various tasks. For example, the man who cares for the rabbits rushes from his hutches to the chapel, the chapter room, or the dining hall all day long: every hour, he has a service to lead, a duty to perform. From the time he rises in the dark at two until eight, when he finally gets the comforting gift of sleep, he’s on his feet, engaged in a variety of tasks. I know plenty of people who make several thousand a year but aren’t as fortunate in managing their lives. Just imagine how many homes would find peace of mind and healthy activity if the monastery bell’s chimes divided the day into manageable chunks! We talk about hardships, but the real hardship is being a dull fool, allowed to mess up life in our own uninspired and foolish ways.
From this point of view, we may perhaps better understand the monk's existence. A long novitiate and every proof of constancy of mind and strength of body is required before admission to the order; but I could not find that many were discouraged. In the photographer's studio, which figures so strangely among the outbuildings, my eye was attracted by the portrait of a young fellow in the uniform of a private of foot. This was one of the novices, who came of the age for service, and marched and drilled and mounted guard for the proper time among the garrison of Algiers. Here was a man who had surely seen both sides of life before deciding; yet as soon as he was set free from service he returned to finish his novitiate.
From this perspective, we can perhaps better understand the monk's life. A long period of training and every test of mental endurance and physical strength is required before joining the order; however, I found that few were discouraged. In the photographer's studio, which stands out oddly among the outbuildings, my attention was drawn to the portrait of a young man in the uniform of an infantry private. This was one of the novices, who had reached the age for service and spent the appropriate amount of time marching, drilling, and standing guard with the garrison in Algiers. Here was someone who had clearly experienced both sides of life before making his choice; yet as soon as he was released from service, he returned to complete his training.
This austere rule entitles a man to heaven as by right. When the Trappist sickens, he quits not his habit; he lies in the bed of death as he has prayed and laboured in his frugal and silent existence; and when the Liberator comes, at the very moment, even before they have carried him in his robe to lie his little last in the chapel among continual chantings, joy-bells break forth, as if for a marriage, from the slated belfry, and proclaim throughout the neighbourhood that another soul has gone to God.
This strict rule gives a man a rightful passage to heaven. When a Trappist falls ill, he doesn't give up his habit; he lies on his deathbed just as he has prayed and worked throughout his simple and quiet life. And when the Liberator arrives, at that very moment, even before they carry him in his robe to his final resting place in the chapel amidst constant chanting, joy-bells ring out like it’s a wedding from the bell tower, announcing to the neighborhood that another soul has gone to God.
At night, under the conduct of my kind Irishman, I took my place in the gallery to hear compline and Salve Regina, with which the Cistercians bring every day to a conclusion. There were none of those circumstances[Pg 194] which strike the Protestant as childish or as tawdry in the public offices of Rome. A stern simplicity, heightened by the romance of the surroundings, spoke directly to the heart. I recall the whitewashed chapel, the hooded figures in the choir, the lights alternately occluded and revealed, the strong manly singing, the silence that ensued, the sight of cowled heads bowed in prayer, and then the clear trenchant beating of the bell breaking in to show that the last office was over and the hour of sleep had come; and when I remember, I am not surprised that I made my escape into the court with somewhat whirling fancies, and stood like a man bewildered in the windy, starry night.
At night, guided by my kind Irishman, I took my seat in the gallery to hear compline and Salve Regina, which the Cistercians use to end each day. There were none of those elements[Pg 194] that Protestants might find childish or tacky in the public rituals of Rome. A stark simplicity, enhanced by the romantic setting, spoke directly to the heart. I remember the whitewashed chapel, the hooded figures in the choir, the lights that alternated between hidden and revealed, the strong, masculine singing, the silence that followed, the sight of heads bowed in prayer, and then the clear, sharp ringing of the bell announcing that the last service was over and it was time for sleep; and when I think back, I'm not surprised that I rushed into the courtyard with my mind spinning, standing like a confused man in the windy, starry night.
But I was weary; and when I had quieted my spirits with Elizabeth Seton's memoirs—a dull work—the cold and the raving of the wind among the pines (for my room was on that side of the monastery which adjoins the woods) disposed me readily to slumber. I was awakened at black midnight, as it seemed, though it was really two in the morning, by the first stroke upon the bell. All the brothers were then hurrying to the chapel; the dead in life, at this untimely hour, were already beginning the uncomforted labours of their day. The dead in life—there was a chill reflection. And the words of a French song came back into my memory, telling of the best of our mixed existence:
But I was exhausted; and after I calmed my thoughts with Elizabeth Seton's memoirs—a pretty dull read—the cold and the howling wind through the pines (since my room faced the woods) quickly lulled me to sleep. I was jolted awake at what felt like the dead of night, although it was actually two in the morning, by the first chime of the bell. All the brothers were rushing to the chapel; the living dead, at this early hour, were already starting the unsettling tasks of their day. The living dead—what a chilling thought. And the lyrics of a French song popped back into my mind, speaking of the best part of our mixed existence:
And I blessed God that I was free to wander, free to hope, and free to love.
And I thanked God that I was free to explore, free to dream, and free to love.
THE BOARDERS
But there was another side to my residence at Our Lady of the Snows. At this late season there were not many boarders; and yet I was not alone in the public part of the monastery. This itself is hard by the gate, with a small dining-room on the ground floor and a whole corridor of cells similar to mine upstairs. I have stupidly forgotten the board for a regular retraitant; but it was somewhere between three and five francs a day, and I think most probably the first. Chance visitors like myself might give what they chose as a free-will offering, but nothing was demanded. I may mention that when I was going away Father Michael refused twenty francs as excessive. I explained the reasoning which led me to offer him so much; but even then, from a curious point of honour, he would not accept it with his own hand. "I have no right to refuse for the monastery," he explained, "but I should prefer if you would give it to one of the brothers."
But there was another side to my stay at Our Lady of the Snows. At this late time of year, there weren't many boarders; yet I was not alone in the common area of the monastery. This part is right by the gate, with a small dining room on the ground floor and a whole hallway of cells like mine upstairs. I stupidly forgot the rate for a regular retraitant; but it was somewhere between three and five francs a day, and I think it was probably three. Random visitors like me could give whatever they wanted as a donation, but nothing was required. I should mention that when I was leaving, Father Michael refused twenty francs, saying it was too much. I explained why I wanted to offer him that much; but even then, out of some odd sense of honor, he wouldn't take it directly from me. "I have no right to refuse for the monastery," he said, "but I would prefer if you gave it to one of the brothers."
I had dined alone, because I arrived late; but at supper I found two other guests. One was a country parish priest, who had walked over that morning from the seat of his cure near Mende to enjoy four days of solitude and prayer. He was a grenadier in person, with the hale colour and circular wrinkles of a peasant; and as he complained much of how he had been impeded by his skirts upon the march, I have a vivid fancy portrait of him, striding along, upright, big-boned, with kilted cassock, through the bleak hills of Gévaudan. The other was a short, grizzling, thick-set man, from forty-five to fifty, dressed in tweed with a knitted spencer, and the red[Pg 196] ribbon of a decoration in his button-hole. This last was a hard person to classify. He was an old soldier, who had seen service and risen to the rank of commandant; and he retained some of the brisk decisive manners of the camp. On the other hand, as soon as his resignation was accepted, he had come to Our Lady of the Snows as a boarder, and, after a brief experience of its ways, had decided to remain as a novice. Already the new life was beginning to modify his appearance; already he had acquired somewhat of the quiet and smiling air of the brethren; and he was as yet neither an officer nor a Trappist, but partook of the character of each. And certainly here was a man in an interesting nick of life. Out of the noise of cannon and trumpets, he was in the act of passing into this still country bordering on the grave, where men sleep nightly in their grave-clothes, and, like phantoms, communicate by signs.
I had eaten dinner alone because I arrived late; but at supper, I met two other guests. One was a country parish priest who had walked over that morning from his parish near Mende to enjoy four days of solitude and prayer. He was stout and robust, with the healthy color and round wrinkles of a farmer. As he grumbled about how his long robes had slowed him down on the hike, I picture him vividly, striding upright and big-boned, in his kilted cassock, through the barren hills of Gévaudan. The other guest was a short, graying, stocky man, around forty-five to fifty years old, dressed in tweed with a knitted vest and the red[Pg 196] ribbon of an award in his buttonhole. This man was hard to categorize. He was an old soldier who had served and risen to the rank of commandant, and he still had some of the brisk, decisive manner of the military. On the other hand, once his resignation was accepted, he had come to Our Lady of the Snows as a boarder, and after a brief time there, he decided to stay as a novice. Already, the new lifestyle was starting to change his appearance; he had gained some of the calm and smiling demeanor of the brothers, and he was neither fully an officer nor completely a Trappist but had a bit of the character of both. He was certainly a man at an interesting point in his life. Leaving behind the noise of cannons and trumpets, he was transitioning into this quiet life near the grave, where men rest nightly in their shrouds and communicate like shadows through signs.
At supper we talked politics. I make it my business, when I am in France, to preach political good-will and moderation, and to dwell on the example of Poland, much as some alarmists in England dwell on the example of Carthage. The priest and the commandant assured me of their sympathy with all I said, and made a heavy sighing over the bitterness of contemporary feeling.
At dinner, we talked about politics. When I'm in France, I always try to promote political goodwill and moderation, often referring to Poland as a model, just like some alarmists in England obsess over the example of Carthage. The priest and the commandant expressed their support for everything I said and sighed heavily about the bitterness of current sentiments.
"Why, you cannot say anything to a man with which he does not absolutely agree," said I, "but he flies up at you in a temper."
"Well, you can't say anything to a guy that he doesn't completely agree with," I said, "or he'll explode at you in anger."
They both declared that such a state of things was antichristian.
They both declared that this situation was unchristian.
While we were thus agreeing, what should my tongue stumble upon but a word in praise of Gambetta's moderation? The old soldier's countenance was instantly suffused with blood; with the palms of his hands he beat the table like a naughty child.
While we were agreeing, what did my tongue accidentally say but a word praising Gambetta's moderation? The old soldier's face instantly turned red; he pounded the table with his palms like a naughty child.
"Comment, monsieur?" he shouted. "Comment? Gambetta moderate? Will you dare to justify these words?"[Pg 197]
"What did you say, sir?" he shouted. "What? Gambetta moderate? Are you really going to try to justify those words?"[Pg 197]
But the priest had not forgotten the tenor of our talk. And suddenly, in the height of his fury, the old soldier found a warning look directed on his face; the absurdity of his behaviour was brought home to him in a flash; and the storm came to an abrupt end, without another word.
But the priest hadn’t forgotten the tone of our conversation. And suddenly, in the peak of his anger, the old soldier felt a warning look aimed at him; the ridiculousness of his actions hit him all at once; and the storm abruptly ended, without another word.
It was only in the morning, over our coffee (Friday, September 27th), that this couple found out I was a heretic. I suppose I had misled them by some admiring expressions as to the monastic life around us; and it was only by a point-blank question that the truth came out. I had been tolerantly used both by simple Father Apollinaris and astute Father Michael; and the good Irish deacon, when he heard of my religious weakness, had only patted me upon the shoulder and said, "You must be a Catholic and come to heaven." But I was now among a different sect of orthodox. These two men were bitter and upright and narrow, like the worst of Scotsmen, and indeed, upon my heart, I fancy they were worse. The priest snorted aloud like a battle-horse.
It was only in the morning, over our coffee (Friday, September 27th), that this couple discovered I was a heretic. I guess I had misled them with some admiring comments about the monastic life surrounding us; and it was only through a direct question that the truth came out. I had been tolerated both by the simple Father Apollinaris and the shrewd Father Michael; and the kind Irish deacon, when he learned of my religious doubts, simply patted me on the shoulder and said, "You must be a Catholic and go to heaven." But I was now among a different group of orthodox people. These two men were bitter, rigid, and narrow-minded, like the worst of Scotsmen, and honestly, I think they were even worse. The priest snorted loudly like a battle-horse.
"Et vous prétendez mourir dans cette espèce de croyance?" he demanded; and there is no type used by mortal printers large enough to qualify his accent.
"And you claim you’re going to die for this kind of belief?" he demanded; and there is no font used by human printers that's big enough to capture his tone.
I humbly indicated that I had no design of changing.
I honestly said that I had no intention of changing.
But he could not away with such a monstrous attitude. "No, no," he cried; "you must change. You have come here, God has led you here, and you must embrace the opportunity."
But he couldn't tolerate such a monstrous attitude. "No, no," he exclaimed; "you need to change. You’ve come here; God has brought you here, and you have to seize the opportunity."
I made a slip in policy; I appealed to the family affections, though I was speaking to a priest and a soldier, two classes of men circumstantially divorced from the kind and homely ties of life.
I made a mistake in my approach; I appealed to family feelings, even though I was talking to a priest and a soldier, two types of men who are typically separated from the close and familiar bonds of everyday life.
"Your father and mother?" cried the priest. "Very well; you will convert them in their turn when you go home."
"Your dad and mom?" exclaimed the priest. "Alright; you'll bring them around when you get back home."
I think I see my father's face! I would rather tackle[Pg 198] the Gætulian lion in his den than embark on such an enterprise against the family theologian.
I think I see my dad's face! I would rather face[Pg 198] the Gætulian lion in its den than take on such a task against the family theologian.
But now the hunt was up; priest and soldier were in full cry for my conversion; and the Work of the Propagation of the Faith, for which the people of Cheylard subscribed forty-eight francs ten centimes during 1877, was being gallantly pursued against myself. It was an odd but most effective proselytizing. They never sought to convince me in argument, where I might have attempted some defence; but took it for granted that I was both ashamed and terrified at my position, and urged me solely on the point of time. Now, they said, when God had led me to Our Lady of the Snows, now was the appointed hour.
But now the chase was on; the priest and soldier were fully committed to converting me, and the Work of the Propagation of the Faith, which the people of Cheylard had contributed forty-eight francs and ten centimes to in 1877, was being boldly carried out against me. It was a strange yet highly effective way of trying to win me over. They never tried to convince me with arguments, where I might have defended myself; instead, they assumed that I was both ashamed and scared about my situation, and they urged me only about the timing. They said that now, with God having brought me to Our Lady of the Snows, the time was right.
"Do not be withheld by false shame," observed the priest, for my encouragement.
"Don't let false shame hold you back," the priest said to encourage me.
For one who feels very similarly to all sects of religion, and who has never been able, even for a moment, to weigh seriously the merit of this or that creed on the eternal side of things, however much he may see to praise or blame upon the secular and temporal side, the situation thus created was both unfair and painful. I committed my second fault in tact, and tried to plead that it was all the same thing in the end, and we were all drawing near by different sides to the same kind and undiscriminating Friend and Father. That, as it seems to lay spirits, would be the only gospel worthy of the name. But different men think differently; and this revolutionary aspiration brought down the priest with all the terrors of the law. He launched into harrowing details of hell. The damned, he said—on the authority of a little book which he had read not a week before, and which, to add conviction to conviction, he had fully intended to bring along with him in his pocket—were to occupy the same attitude through all eternity in the midst of dismal tortures. And as he thus expatiated, he grew in nobility of aspect with his enthusiasm.[Pg 199]
For someone who feels pretty much the same about all religions and hasn’t been able to seriously consider the value of any particular belief system in the grand scheme of things—although they can recognize both positives and negatives on a worldly level—the resulting situation was both unfair and painful. I made my second mistake in tact by suggesting it ultimately didn’t matter, and that we were all approaching the same kind and impartial Friend and Father from different directions. That, I thought, would be the only true gospel worthy of the name. But people have different opinions; this revolutionary idea provoked the priest, who responded with all the seriousness of the law. He went on to describe in grim detail the torments of hell. According to him—the information coming from a little book he had read just a week prior, which he fully intended to bring with him for added credibility—the damned would remain in the same dreadful condition for all eternity amidst their torment. As he elaborated, he became more dignified and passionate in his delivery.[Pg 199]
As a result the pair concluded that I should seek out the Prior, since the Abbot was from home, and lay my case immediately before him.
As a result, the two agreed that I should go to the Prior, since the Abbot was away, and present my situation to him right away.
"C'est mon conseil comme ancien militaire," observed the commandant; "et celui de monsieur comme prêtre."
"This is my advice as a former soldier," noted the commander; "and that of the gentleman as a priest."
"Oui," added the curé, sententiously nodding; "comme ancien militaire—et comme prêtre."
"Yeah," added the priest, nodding meaningfully; "as a former soldier—and as a priest."
At this moment, whilst I was somewhat embarrassed how to answer, in came one of the monks, a little brown fellow, as lively as a grig, and with an Italian accent, who threw himself at once into the contention, but in a milder and more persuasive vein, as befitted one of these pleasant brethren. Look at him, he said. The rule was very hard; he would have dearly liked to stay in his own country, Italy—it was well known how beautiful it was, the beautiful Italy; but then there were no Trappists in Italy; and he had a soul to save; and here he was.
At that moment, while I was a bit embarrassed about how to respond, one of the monks came in, a little brown guy, as lively as could be, speaking with an Italian accent. He immediately jumped into the discussion, but in a gentler and more convincing way, just like a friendly brother should. "Look at him," he said. The rules were really strict; he would have loved to stay in his home country, Italy—it was famous for its beauty, beautiful Italy; but there were no Trappists in Italy; and he had a soul to save; and here he was.
I am afraid I must be at bottom, what a cheerful Indian critic has dubbed me, "a faddling hedonist," for this description of the brother's motives gave me somewhat of a shock. I should have preferred to think he had chosen the life for its own sake, and not for ulterior purposes; and this shows how profoundly I was out of sympathy with these good Trappists, even when I was doing my best to sympathize. But to the curé the argument seemed decisive.
I’m sorry to say that at heart, what a cheerful Indian critic called me, "a faddling hedonist," is somewhat accurate, because this description of the brother’s motives really shocked me. I would have preferred to believe he chose that life for its own sake, not for hidden reasons, and this reveals just how out of touch I was with those good Trappists, even while I was trying my best to understand them. But for the curé, the argument felt conclusive.
"Hear that!" he cried. "And I have seen a marquis here, a marquis, a marquis"—he repeated the holy word three times over—"and other persons high in society; and generals. And here, at your side, is this gentleman, who has been so many years in armies—decorated, an old warrior. And here he is, ready to dedicate himself to God."
"Hear that!" he shouted. "And I’ve seen a marquis here, a marquis, a marquis"—he repeated the important word three times—"and other people high in society; and generals. And right here next to you is this gentleman, who has spent so many years in the military—decorated, an old warrior. And here he is, ready to dedicate himself to God."
I was by this time so thoroughly embarrassed that I pled cold feet, and made my escape from the apartment. It was a furious windy morning, with a sky much cleared, and long and potent intervals of sunshine; and I wandered[Pg 200] until dinner in the wild country towards the east, sorely staggered and beaten upon by the gale, but rewarded with some striking views.
I was so embarrassed by this point that I said I wasn't feeling well and left the apartment. It was a really windy morning, with a mostly clear sky and long stretches of strong sunshine; I wandered[Pg 200] until dinner in the rural areas to the east, getting knocked around by the wind, but I was rewarded with some amazing views.
At dinner the Work of the Propagation of the Faith was recommenced, and on this occasion still more distastefully to me. The priest asked me many questions as to the contemptible faith of my fathers, and received my replies with a kind of ecclesiastical titter.
At dinner, the Work of the Propagation of the Faith started up again, and this time it bothered me even more. The priest asked me a lot of questions about the pathetic beliefs of my ancestors and responded to my answers with a sort of churchy chuckle.
"Your sect," he said once; "for I think you will admit it would be doing it too much honour to call it a religion."
"Your group," he said once; "because I think you'll agree it would be giving it too much credit to call it a religion."
"As you please, monsieur," said I. " La parole est à vous."
"As you wish, sir," I said. " The floor is yours."
At length I grew annoyed beyond endurance; and although he was on his own ground, and, what is more to the purpose, an old man, and so holding a claim upon my toleration, I could not avoid a protest against this uncivil usage. He was sadly discountenanced.
At last, I became unreasonably annoyed; and even though he was in his own territory, and, more importantly, an old man who deserved my patience, I couldn't help but speak out against this rude behavior. He looked quite dismayed.
"I assure you," he said, "I have no inclination to laugh in my heart. I have no other feeling but interest in your soul."
"I promise you," he said, "I have no desire to laugh inside. All I feel is concern for your soul."
And there ended my conversion. Honest man! he was no dangerous deceiver; but a country parson, full of zeal and faith. Long may he tread Gévaudan with his kilted skirts—a man strong to walk and strong to comfort his parishioners in death! I daresay he would beat bravely through a snowstorm where his duty called him; and it is not always the most faithful believer who makes the cunningest apostle.
And that's where my conversion ended. He was an honest man, not a dangerous deceiver; just a country pastor, full of passion and faith. May he long walk through Gévaudan in his kilted skirts—a strong man who can walk far and provide comfort to his parishioners in death! I bet he would bravely push through a snowstorm when duty called; and it's not always the most devoted believer who becomes the most clever apostle.
UPPER GÉVAUDAN
There was no need for a maid or a man,
When we set up, my butt and I,
At God's green rest stop.
Classic Play.
ACROSS THE GOULET
The wind fell during dinner, and the sky remained clear; so it was under better auspices that I loaded Modestine before the monastery gate. My Irish friend accompanied me so far on the way. As we came through the wood, there was Père Apollinaire hauling his barrow; and he too quitted his labours to go with me for perhaps a hundred yards, holding my hand between both of his in front of him. I parted first from one and then from the other with unfeigned regret, but yet with the glee of the traveller who shakes off the dust of one stage before hurrying forth upon another. Then Modestine and I mounted the course of the Allier, which here led us back into Gévaudan towards its sources in the forest of Mercoire. It was but an inconsiderable burn before we left its guidance. Thence, over a hill, our way lay through a naked plateau, until we reached Chasseradès at sundown.
The wind died down during dinner, and the sky stayed clear; so, with better luck, I loaded Modestine in front of the monastery gate. My Irish friend walked with me for a bit. As we passed through the woods, there was Père Apollinaire pushing his cart; he also stopped his work to walk with me for about a hundred yards, holding my hand between both of his. I said goodbye to each of them with genuine sadness, but also with the excitement of a traveler leaving one stage behind and moving on to the next. Then Modestine and I made our way up the Allier River, which guided us back into Gévaudan toward its sources in the Mercoire forest. It wasn't long before we left its path. From there, over a hill, we traveled through a bare plateau until we arrived in Chasseradès at sunset.
The company in the inn kitchen that night were all men employed in survey for one of the projected railways. They were intelligent and conversible, and we decided the future of France over hot wine, until the state of the clock frightened us to rest. There were four beds in the little upstairs room; and we slept six. But I had a bed to myself, and persuaded them to leave the window open.
The men in the inn kitchen that night were all working on the survey for one of the planned railways. They were smart and good at conversation, and we talked about the future of France over hot wine until the time made us realize we needed to sleep. There were four beds in the small upstairs room, but we managed to fit in six people. However, I had a bed to myself and convinced them to leave the window open.
"Hé, bourgeois; il est cinq heures!" was the cry that wakened me in the morning (Saturday, September 28th). The room was full of a transparent darkness, which dimly showed me the other three beds and the five different nightcaps on the pillows. But out of the window the dawn was growing ruddy in a long belt over the hill-tops, and day was about to flood the plateau. The hour was inspiriting; and there seemed a promise of calm weather,[Pg 204] which was perfectly fulfilled. I was soon under way with Modestine. The road lay for a while over the plateau, and then descended through a precipitous village into the valley of the Chassezac. This stream ran among green meadows, well hidden from the world by its steep banks; the broom was in flower, and here and there was a hamlet sending up its smoke.
"Hey, you rich guy; it's five o'clock!" was the shout that woke me up in the morning (Saturday, September 28th). The room was filled with a clear darkness, which faintly revealed the other three beds and the five different nightcaps on the pillows. But outside the window, the dawn was turning red in a long band over the hilltops, and day was about to break over the plateau. The hour was uplifting, and there seemed to be a promise of good weather,[Pg 204] which was fully realized. I was soon on my way with Modestine. The road followed the plateau for a while and then descended through a steep village into the valley of the Chassezac. This stream flowed through green meadows, well-hidden from the world by its steep banks; the broom was in bloom, and here and there a hamlet was sending up its smoke.
At last the path crossed the Chassezac upon a bridge, and, forsaking this deep hollow, set itself to cross the mountain of La Goulet. It wound up through Lestampes by upland fields and woods of beech and birch, and with every corner brought me into an acquaintance with some new interest. Even in the gully of the Chassezac my ear had been struck by a noise like that of a great bass bell ringing at the distance of many miles; but this, as I continued to mount and draw nearer to it, seemed to change in character, and I found at length that it came from some one leading flocks afield to the note of a rural horn. The narrow street of Lestampes stood full of sheep, from wall to wall—black sheep and white, bleating with one accord like the birds in spring, and each one accompanying himself upon the sheep-bell round his neck. It made a pathetic concert, all in treble. A little higher, and I passed a pair of men in a tree with pruning-hooks, and one of them was singing the music of a bourrée. Still further, and when I was already threading the birches, the crowing of cocks came cheerfully up to my ears, and along with that the voice of a flute discoursing a deliberate and plaintive air from one of the upland villages. I pictured to myself some grizzled, apple-cheeked, country schoolmaster fluting in his bit of a garden in the clear autumn sunshine. All these beautiful and interesting sounds filled my heart with an unwonted expectation; and it appeared to me that, once past this range which I was mounting, I should descend into the garden of the world. Nor was I deceived, for I was now done with rains and winds and a bleak country. The first part of my journey ended[Pg 205] here; and this was like an induction of sweet sounds into the other and more beautiful.
At last, the path crossed the Chassezac on a bridge, leaving behind the deep hollow and heading towards the mountain of La Goulet. It climbed through Lestampes, moving through open fields and woods of beech and birch, and at every turn, I discovered something new. Even in the valley of the Chassezac, I had heard a sound like a great bass bell ringing from far away; but as I climbed and got closer, it changed character, and I realized it was someone guiding flocks to the tune of a rural horn. The narrow street of Lestampes was filled with sheep, from wall to wall—black and white, bleating in unison like spring birds, each accompanied by the sound of the sheep-bell around its neck. It created a heartfelt concert, all in high notes. A little higher up, I passed two men in a tree with pruning hooks, one of them singing the tune of a bourrée. Further along, as I was weaving through the birches, the cheerful crowing of roosters reached my ears, along with the sound of a flute playing a slow and melancholy melody from one of the nearby villages. I imagined some gray-haired, rosy-cheeked country schoolmaster fluting in his little garden in the bright autumn sunshine. All these lovely and interesting sounds filled me with an unusual sense of anticipation; it seemed to me that once I passed this mountain range I was climbing, I would descend into a paradise. And I wasn’t wrong, for I was now finished with rains, winds, and a bleak landscape. The first part of my journey ended[Pg 205] here; it felt like an introduction to sweeter sounds leading into something more beautiful.
There are other degrees of feyness, as of punishment, besides the capital; and I was now led by my good spirits into an adventure which I relate in the interest of future donkey-drivers. The road zigzagged so widely on the hillside, that I chose a short cut by map and compass, and struck through the dwarf woods to catch the road again upon a higher level. It was my one serious conflict with Modestine. She would none of my short cut; she turned in my face; she backed, she reared; she, whom I had hitherto imagined to be dumb, actually brayed with a loud hoarse flourish, like a cock crowing for the dawn. I plied the goad with one hand; with the other, so steep was the ascent, I had to hold on the pack-saddle. Half a dozen times she was nearly over backwards on the top of me; half a dozen times, from sheer weariness of spirit, I was nearly giving it up, and leading her down again to follow the road. But I took the thing as a wager, and fought it through. I was surprised, as I went on my way again, by what appeared to be chill rain-drops falling on my hand, and more than once looked up in wonder at the cloudless sky. But it was only sweat which came dropping from my brow.
There are different levels of feyness, like degrees of punishment, besides the death penalty; and I was now swept up by my good mood into an adventure that I share for the benefit of future donkey drivers. The road twisted back and forth on the hillside, so I decided to take a shortcut using my map and compass, cutting through the small woods to rejoin the road at a higher point. This was my first real struggle with Modestine. She refused to take my shortcut; she turned against me; she backed up, she reared; she, who I had thought was silent, actually let out a loud, hoarse bray, like a rooster crowing at dawn. I pushed the goad with one hand; with the other, because the incline was so steep, I had to hold onto the pack saddle. Half a dozen times, she almost fell backward on top of me; half a dozen times, out of sheer weariness, I nearly gave up and led her back to the road. But I treated it like a challenge and pushed through. I was surprised, as I continued on my way, by what felt like cool raindrops hitting my hand, and more than once I looked up in confusion at the clear sky. But it was just sweat dripping from my forehead.
Over the summit of the Goulet there was no marked road—only upright stones posted from space to space to guide the drovers. The turf underfoot was springy and well scented. I had no company but a lark or two, and met but one bullock-cart between Lestampes and Bleymard. In front of me I saw a shallow valley, and beyond that the range of the Lozère, sparsely wooded and well enough modeled in the flanks, but straight and dull in outline. There was scarce a sign of culture; only about Bleymard, the white high-road from Villefort to Mende traversed a range of meadows, set with spiry poplars, and sounding from side to side with the bells of flocks and herds.
Over the summit of the Goulet, there was no clear path—just upright stones placed here and there to guide the herders. The ground beneath my feet was soft and fragrant. I had no company except for a lark or two, and I passed only one bullock-cart between Lestampes and Bleymard. In front of me, I saw a shallow valley, and beyond it, the Lozère range, with sparse trees and rolling slopes, but flat and uninteresting in shape. There was hardly any sign of cultivation; only around Bleymard, the main road from Villefort to Mende cut through a series of meadows, lined with tall poplars and filled with the sounds of bells from flocks and herds.
A NIGHT AMONG THE PINES
From Bleymard after dinner, although it was already late, I set out to scale a portion of the Lozère. An ill-marked stony drove-road guided me forward; and I met nearly half a dozen bullock-carts descending from the woods, each laden with a whole pine-tree for the winter's firing. At the top of the woods, which do not climb very high upon this cold ridge, I struck leftward by a path among the pines, until I hit on a dell of green turf, where a streamlet made a little spout over some stones to serve me for a water-tap. "In a more sacred or sequestered bower ... nor nymph nor faunus haunted." The trees were not old, but they grew thickly round the glade: there was no outlook, except north-eastward upon distant hill-tops, or straight upward to the sky; and the encampment felt secure and private like a room. By the time I had made my arrangements and fed Modestine, the day was already beginning to decline. I buckled myself to the knees into my sack and made a hearty meal; and as soon as the sun went down I pulled my cap over my eyes and fell asleep.
From Bleymard after dinner, even though it was already late, I set out to climb a part of the Lozère. A poorly marked stony path guided me onward, and I encountered nearly half a dozen bullock carts coming down from the woods, each loaded with a whole pine tree for winter firewood. At the top of the woods, which don’t climb very high on this cold ridge, I turned left by a path among the pines until I found a dell of green grass, where a small streamlet cascaded over some stones serving as my water source. "In a more sacred or sequestered bower ... nor nymph nor faunus haunted." The trees weren’t old, but they grew thickly around the glade: there was no view except to the north-east toward distant hilltops or straight up to the sky; the camp felt secure and private like a room. By the time I had set everything up and fed Modestine, the day was already starting to fade. I secured myself to the knees in my sack and enjoyed a hearty meal; as soon as the sun went down, I pulled my cap over my eyes and fell asleep.
Night is a dead monotonous period under a roof: but in the open world it passes lightly, with its stars and dews and perfumes, and the hours are marked by changes in the face of Nature. What seems a kind of temporal death to people choked between walls and curtains, is only a light and living slumber to the man who sleeps afield. All night long he can hear Nature breathing deeply and freely; even as she takes her rest, she turns and smiles; and there is one stirring hour unknown to those who dwell in houses, when a wakeful influence goes abroad[Pg 207] over the sleeping hemisphere, and all the outdoor world are on their feet. It is then that the cock first crows, not this time to announce the dawn, but like a cheerful watchman speeding the course of night. Cattle awake on the meadows; sheep break their fast on dewy hillsides, and change to a new lair among the ferns; and houseless men, who have lain down with the fowls, open their dim eyes and behold the beauty of the night.
Night feels like a dull and lifeless time indoors, but outside, it feels light and alive, filled with stars, dew, and fragrances, each hour marked by the changes in nature. What feels like a kind of temporal death for those trapped between walls and curtains is just a gentle, living slumber for someone sleeping outdoors. All night long, he can hear nature breathing deeply and freely; even while resting, she turns and smiles. There’s a magical hour that those who live in houses don’t know about, when a wakeful energy spreads across the sleeping world, and all of nature is awake. That's when the rooster crows for the first time, not to announce the dawn, but like a cheerful watchman cheering on the night. Cattle wake up in the meadows; sheep have breakfast on the dewy hillsides and find a new spot among the ferns; and the homeless men who have slept with the birds open their tired eyes and see the beauty of the night.
At what inaudible summons, at what gentle touch of Nature, are all these sleepers thus recalled in the same hour to life? Do the stars rain down an influence, or do we share some thrill of mother earth below our resting bodies? Even shepherds and old country-folk, who are the deepest read in these arcana, have not a guess as to the means or purpose of this nightly resurrection. Towards two in the morning they declare the thing takes place, and neither know nor inquire further. And at least it is a pleasant incident. We are disturbed in our slumber, only, like the luxurious Montaigne, "that we may the better and more sensibly relish it." We have a moment to look up on the stars. And there is a special pleasure for some minds in the reflection that we share the impulse with all outdoor creatures in our neighbourhood, that we have escaped out of the Bastille of civilization, and are become, for the time being, a mere kindly animal and a sheep of Nature's flock.
At what silent call, at what gentle nudge from Nature, are all these sleepers awakened to life at the same hour? Do the stars create some kind of influence, or do we feel a connection to the earth beneath our sleeping bodies? Even shepherds and old-timers, who know a lot about these mysteries, have no clue about the way or reason for this nightly awakening. They say it happens around two in the morning, and they neither know nor ask more. At least it’s a nice occurrence. We’re stirred from our sleep just like the opulent Montaigne, "so that we can enjoy it better and more fully." We get a moment to gaze at the stars. There’s a unique joy for some in realizing that we share this impulse with all the creatures outside around us, that we’ve broken free from the confinement of civilization, and for a while, we’re just a simple animal and part of Nature's flock.
When that hour came to me among the pines, I wakened thirsty. My tin was standing by me half full of water. I emptied it at a draught; and feeling broad awake after this internal cold aspersion, sat upright to make a cigarette. The stars were clear, coloured, and jewel-like, but not frosty. A faint silvery vapour stood for the Milky Way. All around me the black fir-points stood upright and stock-still. By the whiteness of the pack-saddle, I could see Modestine walking round and round at the length of her tether; I could hear her steadily munching at the sward; but there was not[Pg 208] another sound, save the indescribable quiet talk of the runnel over the stones. I lay lazily smoking and studying the colour of the sky, as we call the void of space, from where it showed a reddish grey behind the pines to where it showed a glossy blue-black between the stars. As if to be more like a pedlar, I wear a silver ring. This I could see faintly shining as I raised or lowered the cigarette; and at each whiff the inside of my hand was illuminated, and became for a second the highest light in the landscape.
When that hour arrived for me among the pines, I woke up feeling thirsty. My tin was next to me, half full of water. I downed it in one go, and after that refreshing splash on the inside, I sat up to roll a cigarette. The stars were bright, colorful, and gem-like, but not icy. A thin silvery mist represented the Milky Way. All around me, the black fir treetops stood upright and still. By the whiteness of the pack-saddle, I could see Modestine walking in circles at the end of her tether; I could hear her steadily munching on the grass, but there wasn’t[Pg 208] another sound, except for the indescribable subtle murmur of the stream over the stones. I lay there lazily smoking and taking in the color of the sky, which we call the void of space, transitioning from a reddish-grey behind the pines to a glossy blue-black between the stars. To feel more like a traveler, I wore a silver ring. I could see it faintly glinting as I raised or lowered the cigarette; and with each puff, the inside of my hand glowed and became, for a moment, the brightest spot in the landscape.
A faint wind, more like a moving coolness than a stream of air, passed down the glade from time to time; so that even in my great chamber the air was being renewed all night long. I thought with horror of the inn at Chasseradès and the congregated nightcaps; with horror of the nocturnal prowesses of clerks and students, of hot theatres and pass-keys and close rooms. I have not often enjoyed a more serene possession of myself, nor felt more independent of material aids. The outer world, from which we cower into our houses, seemed after all a gentle habitable place; and night after night a man's bed, it seemed, was laid and waiting for him in the fields, where God keeps an open house. I thought I had rediscovered one of those truths which are revealed to savages and hid from political economists; at the least, I had discovered a new pleasure for myself. And yet even while I was exulting in my solitude I became aware of a strange lack. I wished a companion to lie near me in the starlight, silent and not moving, but ever within touch. For there is a fellowship more quiet even than solitude, and which rightly understood, is solitude made perfect. And to live out of doors with the woman a man loves is of all lives the most complete and free.
A gentle breeze, more like a cool touch than a stream of air, occasionally flowed through the glade, so even in my large room the air was refreshed all night. I shuddered at the thought of the inn at Chasseradès and the gathered nightcaps; I dreaded the late-night escapades of clerks and students, the crowded theaters, the keys to dorms, and cramped rooms. I hadn't often felt such a calm sense of self nor felt more independent of material comforts. The outside world, which we often retreat from into our homes, seemed to be a welcoming and livable place; night after night, it felt like a man’s bed was ready and waiting for him in the fields, where God keeps an open invitation. I thought I had rediscovered one of those truths revealed to primitive people and hidden from economists; at the very least, I had found a new source of joy for myself. Yet, while I was reveling in my solitude, I started to notice a strange emptiness. I longed for a companion to lie beside me under the stars, silent and still, but always within reach. Because there’s a bond that’s even quieter than solitude, which, when understood correctly, perfects solitude. And living outdoors with the woman a man loves is the most complete and free life of all.
As I thus lay, between content and longing, a faint noise stole towards me through the pines. I thought, at first, it was the crowing of cocks or the barking of dogs at some very distant farm; but steadily and gradually[Pg 209] it took articulate shape in my ears, until I became aware that a passenger was going by upon the high-road in the valley, and singing loudly as he went. There was more of good-will than grace in his performance; but he trolled with ample lungs; and the sound of his voice took hold upon the hillside and set the air shaking in the leafy glens. I have heard people passing by night in sleeping cities; some of them sang; one, I remember, played loudly on the bagpipes. I have heard the rattle of a cart or carriage spring up suddenly after hours of stillness, and pass, for some minutes, within the range of my hearing as I lay abed. There is a romance about all who are abroad in the black hours, and with something of a thrill we try to guess their business. But here the romance was double: first, this glad passenger, lit internally with wine, who sent up his voice in music through the night; and then I, on the other hand, buckled into my sack, and smoking alone in the pine-woods between four and five thousand feet towards the stars.
As I lay there, caught between contentment and desire, I heard a faint noise drifting toward me through the pines. At first, I thought it was either roosters crowing or dogs barking from some distant farm; but gradually, it took on a clearer form in my ears, and I realized a traveler was passing by on the road in the valley, singing loudly as he went. His performance had more enthusiasm than skill, but he sang with a full voice, and the sound echoed off the hillside, making the air tremble in the leafy valleys. I've heard people pass through sleeping cities at night; some sang, and I remember one person played the bagpipes loudly. I've heard the sudden rattle of a cart or carriage break the silence after hours of stillness, passing within earshot as I lay in bed. There’s something romantic about everyone out during the dark hours, and we feel a thrill trying to guess what they’re up to. But here, the romance was twofold: first, there was the joyful traveler, lit up from within by wine, raising his voice in song through the night; and then there was me, tucked into my bag and smoking alone in the pine woods, among the stars at four to five thousand feet.
When I awoke again (Sunday, 29th September), many of the stars had disappeared; only the stronger companions of the night still burned visibly overhead; and away towards the east I saw a faint haze of light upon the horizon, such as had been the Milky Way when I was last awake. Day was at hand. I lit my lantern, and by its glow-worm light put on my boots and gaiters; then I broke up some bread for Modestine, filled my can at the water-tap, and lit my spirit-lamp to boil myself some chocolate. The blue darkness lay long in the glade where I had so sweetly slumbered; but soon there was a broad streak of orange melting into gold along the mountain-tops of Vivarais. A solemn glee possessed my mind at this gradual and lovely coming in of day. I heard the runnel with delight; I looked round me for something beautiful and unexpected; but the still black pine-trees, the hollow glade, the munching ass, remained unchanged in figure. Nothing had altered but the light,[Pg 210] and that, indeed, shed over all a spirit of life and of breathing peace, and moved me to a strange exhilaration.
When I woke up again (Sunday, September 29th), many of the stars had vanished; only the brighter ones still shone brightly overhead. In the east, I noticed a faint glow on the horizon, similar to how the Milky Way looked when I was last awake. Daylight was approaching. I turned on my lantern and, using its dim light, put on my boots and gaiters. Then I broke some bread for Modestine, filled my water bottle at the tap, and lit my spirit lamp to boil some chocolate. The deep blue darkness lingered in the glade where I had slept so peacefully, but soon, a broad orange streak began to melt into gold along the mountain-tops of Vivarais. A joyful sense of anticipation filled my mind at this gradual and beautiful arrival of day. I delighted in the sound of the stream; I looked around for something beautiful and unexpected, but the still black pine trees, the quiet glade, and the munching donkey remained unchanged in appearance. The only thing that had changed was the light,[Pg 210] and that, in fact, brought a sense of life and peacefulness to everything, filling me with a strange exhilaration.
I drank my water-chocolate, which was hot if it was not rich, and strolled here and there, and up and down about the glade. While I was thus delaying, a gush of steady wind, as long as a heavy sigh, poured direct out of the quarter of the morning. It was cold, and set me sneezing. The trees near at hand tossed their black plumes in its passage; and I could see the thin distant spires of pine along the edge of the hill rock slightly to and fro against the golden east. Ten minutes later, the sunlight spread at a gallop along the hillside, scattering shadows and sparkles, and the day had come completely.
I drank my hot chocolate, which wasn't too rich, and walked around the glade. While I was killing time, a steady gust of wind, like a heavy sigh, blew in from the morning. It was cold and made me sneeze. The nearby trees swayed their dark branches in its path, and I could see the thin, distant pine spires rocking slightly against the golden east. Ten minutes later, sunlight rushed down the hillside, scattering shadows and sparkles, and the day fully arrived.
I hastened to prepare my pack, and tackle the steep ascent that lay before me; but I had something on my mind. It was only a fancy; yet a fancy will sometimes be importunate. I had been most hospitably received and punctually served in my green caravanserai. The room was airy, the water excellent, and the dawn had called me to a moment. I say nothing of the tapestries or the inimitable ceiling, nor yet of the view which I commanded from the windows; but I felt I was in some one's debt for all this liberal entertainment. And so it pleased me, in a half-laughing way, to leave pieces of money on the turf as I went along, until I had left enough for my night's lodging. I trust they did not fall to some rich and churlish drover.
I hurried to get my gear ready and tackle the steep climb ahead; but I had something weighing on my mind. It was just a notion; yet sometimes a notion can be quite persistent. I had been warmly welcomed and well taken care of at my cozy inn. The room was spacious, the water was great, and the dawn had inspired a reflective moment in me. I won't mention the tapestries or the unique ceiling, nor the view I had from the windows; but I felt like I owed someone for all this generous hospitality. So, in a half-joking way, I started leaving coins on the ground as I walked, until I had left enough for my night's stay. I hope those coins didn’t end up with some wealthy and greedy herder.
THE COUNTRY OF THE CAMISARDS
We traveled through the remnants of ancient wars;
Yet the land was all green;
And we discovered love and peace,
Where fire and conflict once were.
The children of the sword pass by and smile—
They no longer wield the sword;
And oh, how lush the corn
Grows along the battlefield!
W. P. BANNATYNE.
ACROSS THE LOZÈRE
The track that I had followed in the evening soon died out, and I continued to follow over a bald turf ascent a row of stone pillars, such as had conducted me across the Goulet. It was already warm. I tied my jacket on the pack, and walked in my knitted waistcoat. Modestine herself was in high spirits, and broke of her own accord, for the first time in my experience, into a jolting trot that sent the oats swashing in the pocket of my coat. The view, back upon the northern Gévaudan, extended with every step; scarce a tree, scarce a house, appeared upon the fields of wild hill that ran north, east, and west, all blue and gold in the haze and sunlight of the morning. A multitude of little birds kept sweeping and twittering about my path; they perched on the stone pillars, they pecked and strutted on the turf, and I saw them circle in volleys in the blue air, and show, from time to time, translucent flickering wings between the sun and me.
The path I'd been following in the evening quickly faded, so I kept going up a bare grassy slope lined with stone pillars, just like the ones that had guided me across the Goulet. It was already warm. I tied my jacket onto my backpack and walked in my knit vest. Modestine was in great spirits and, for the first time ever, spontaneously broke into a bouncing trot that made the oats in my coat pocket swish around. The view back towards northern Gévaudan opened up with each step; hardly a tree or a house was visible in the fields of wild hills spreading north, east, and west, all shimmering blue and gold in the morning's haze and sunlight. A swarm of little birds kept flitting and chirping around my path; they settled on the stone pillars, pecked and strutted on the grass, and I watched them soar in loops in the blue sky, occasionally revealing their translucent, flickering wings between the sun and me.
Almost from the first moment of my march, a faint large noise, like a distant surf, had filled my ears. Sometimes I was tempted to think it the voice of a neighbouring waterfall, and sometimes a subjective result of the utter stillness of the hill. But as I continued to advance, the noise increased, and became like the hissing of an enormous tea urn, and at the same time breaths of cool air began to reach me from the direction of the summit. At length I understood. It was blowing stiffly from the south upon the other slope of the Lozère, and every step that I took I was drawing nearer to the wind.
Almost from the very start of my hike, a soft but large sound, similar to distant waves, filled my ears. Sometimes I wondered if it was the sound of a nearby waterfall, and other times I thought it might be a result of the complete stillness of the hill. But as I kept moving forward, the noise grew louder, resembling the hissing of a giant kettle, and at the same time, cool breezes began to reach me from the direction of the peak. Eventually, I understood. The wind was blowing strongly from the south across the other side of the Lozère, and with every step I took, I was getting closer to it.
Although it had been long desired, it was quite unexpectedly at last that my eyes rose above the summit.[Pg 214] A step that seemed no way more decisive than many other steps that had preceded it—and, "like stout Cortez when, with eagle eyes, he stared at the Pacific," I took possession, in my own name, of a new quarter of the world. For behold, instead of the gross turf rampart I had been mounting for so long, a view into the hazy air of heaven, and a land of intricate blue hills below my feet.
Although it had been desired for a long time, it was quite unexpectedly that my eyes finally rose above the summit.[Pg 214] A step that felt no more significant than many others I had taken before—and, "like stout Cortez when, with keen eyes, he gazed at the Pacific," I claimed, for myself, a new part of the world. For look, instead of the rough turf rampart I had been climbing for so long, I saw a glimpse into the hazy sky above and a land of intricate blue hills beneath my feet.
The Lozère lies nearly east and west, cutting Gévaudan into two unequal parts; its highest point, this Pic de Finiels, on which I was then standing, rises upwards of five thousand six hundred feet above the sea, and in clear weather commands a view over all lower Languedoc to the Mediterranean Sea. I have spoken with people who either pretended or believed that they had seen, from the Pic de Finiels, white ships sailing by Montpellier and Cette. Behind was the upland northern country through which my way had lain, peopled by a dull race, without wood, without much grandeur of hill-form, and famous in the past for little besides wolves. But in front of me, half veiled in sunny haze, lay a new Gévaudan, rich, picturesque, illustrious for stirring events. Speaking largely, I was in the Cevennes at Monastier, and during all my journey; but there is a strict and local sense in which only this confused and shaggy country at my feet has any title to the name, and in this sense the peasantry employ the word. These are the Cevennes with an emphasis: the Cevennes of the Cevennes. In that undecipherable labyrinth of hills, a war of bandits, a war of wild beasts, raged for two years between the Grand Monarch with all his troops and marshals on the one hand, and a few thousand Protestant mountaineers upon the other. A hundred and eighty years ago, the Camisards held a station even on the Lozère, where I stood; they had an organization, arsenals, a military and religious hierarchy; their affairs were "the discourse of every coffee-house" in London; England sent fleets in their support; their leaders prophesied and murdered;[Pg 215] with colours and drums, and the singing of old French Psalms, their bands sometimes affronted daylight, marched before walled cities, and dispersed the generals of the king; and sometimes at night, or in masquerade, possessed themselves of strong castles, and avenged treachery upon their allies and cruelty upon their foes. There, a hundred and eighty years ago, was the chivalrous Roland, "Count and Lord Roland, generalissimo of the Protestants in France," grave, silent, imperious, pock-marked ex-dragoon, whom a lady followed in his wanderings out of love. There was Cavalier, a baker's apprentice with a genius for war, elected brigadier of Camisards at seventeen, to die at fifty-five the English Governor of Jersey. There again was Castanet, a partisan leader in a voluminous peruke and with a taste for controversial divinity. Strange generals, who moved apart to take counsel with the God of Hosts, and fled or offered battle, set sentinels or slept in an unguarded camp, as the Spirit whispered to their hearts! And there, to follow these and other leaders, was the rank and file of prophets and disciples, bold, patient, indefatigable, hardy to run upon the mountains, cheering their rough life with psalms, eager to fight, eager to pray, listening devoutly to the oracles of brain-sick children, and mystically putting a grain of wheat among the pewter balls with which they charged their muskets.
The Lozère trends almost east and west, splitting Gévaudan into two unequal sections; its highest point, the Pic de Finiels, where I was standing, rises over five thousand six hundred feet above sea level and, on clear days, offers a view over all of lower Languedoc to the Mediterranean Sea. I've talked to people who either claimed or truly believed they had seen white ships sailing by Montpellier and Cette from the Pic de Finiels. Behind me was the northern upland region through which I had traveled, populated by a dull folk, without much wood or impressive hills, and historically known for little apart from wolves. But in front of me lay a new Gévaudan, half hidden by a sunny haze, rich, picturesque, and famous for exciting events. Broadly speaking, I was in the Cevennes at Monastier throughout my journey; however, there’s a specific and local meaning in which only this tangled, rugged land at my feet deserves the name, and in this sense, the local people use the term. These are the Cevennes with emphasis: the Cevennes of the Cevennes. In that confusing maze of hills, a war of bandits and wild beasts raged for two years between the Grand Monarch, with all his troops and marshals on one side, and a few thousand Protestant mountain dwellers on the other. One hundred eighty years ago, the Camisards even held a position on the Lozère where I stood; they had an organization, arsenals, and a military and religious hierarchy; their affairs were “the topic of every coffee house” in London; England sent fleets to support them; their leaders prophesied and killed; with colors, drums, and the singing of old French Psalms, their groups occasionally showed their faces during the day, marched in front of walled cities, and scattered the king’s generals; and sometimes at night, or in disguise, they took strong castles, avenging betrayal on their allies and cruelty on their enemies. There, one hundred eighty years ago, was the gallant Roland, "Count and Lord Roland, generalissimo of the Protestants in France," serious, silent, commanding, a pockmarked ex-dragoon, followed in his wanderings by a lady out of love. There was Cavalier, a baker's apprentice with a talent for war, elected brigadier of the Camisards at seventeen, who would die at fifty-five as the English Governor of Jersey. There again was Castanet, a partisan leader in a big wig with a flair for controversial theology. Strange generals, who would separate to consult with the God of Hosts, fled or chose to fight, set sentries or slept in an unguarded camp, as the Spirit guided their hearts! And there, to follow these and other leaders, was the rank and file of prophets and disciples, brave, patient, tireless, tough enough to run through the mountains, lifting their spirits with psalms, eager to fight, eager to pray, listening intently to the oracles of delusional children, and mystically putting a grain of wheat among the lead balls they loaded into their muskets.
I had travelled hitherto through a dull district, and in the track of nothing more notable than the child-eating Beast of Gévaudan, the Napoléon Bonaparte of wolves. But now I was to go down into the scene of a romantic chapter—or, better, a romantic footnote—in the history of the world. What was left of all this bygone dust and heroism? I was told that Protestantism still survived in this head seat of Protestant resistance; so much the priest himself had told me in the monastery parlour. But I had yet to learn if it were a bare survival, or a lively and generous tradition. Again, if in the northern[Pg 216] Cevennes the people are narrow in religious judgments, and more filled with zeal than charity, what was I to look for in this land of persecution and reprisal—in a land where the tyranny of the Church produced the Camisard rebellion, and the terror of the Camisards threw the Catholic peasantry into legalized revolt upon the other side, so that Camisard and Florentin skulked for each other's lives among the mountains?
I had traveled through a boring area, with nothing notable to see except for the child-eating Beast of Gévaudan, the Napoleon Bonaparte of wolves. But now I was about to dive into a scene from a romantic chapter—or, more accurately, a romantic footnote—in world history. What remained of all this old dust and heroism? I was told that Protestantism still existed in this main hub of Protestant resistance; the priest himself had mentioned this to me in the monastery parlor. But I still needed to find out if it was just a bare survival or a vibrant and generous tradition. Also, if in the northern[Pg 216] Cevennes the people are strict in their religious judgments, with more zeal than compassion, what should I expect in this land of persecution and retaliation—in a place where the Church's tyranny led to the Camisard rebellion, and the fear of the Camisards forced the Catholic peasants into a legalized revolt against them, resulting in Camisard and Florentin hiding from each other among the mountains?
Just on the brow of the hill, where I paused to look before me, the series of stone pillars came abruptly to an end; and only a little below, a sort of track appeared and began to go down a break-neck slope, turning like a corkscrew as it went. It led into a valley between falling hills, stubbly with rocks like a reaped field of corn, and floored farther down with green meadows. I followed the track with precipitation; the steepness of the slope, the continual agile turning of the line of the descent, and the old unwearied hope of finding something new in a new country, all conspired to lend me wings. Yet a little lower and a stream began, collecting itself together out of many fountains, and soon making a glad noise among the hills. Sometimes it would cross the track in a bit of waterfall, with a pool, in which Modestine refreshed her feet.
Just at the top of the hill, where I paused to look ahead, the line of stone pillars ended abruptly; and just below, a sort of path emerged, starting down a steep slope that twisted like a corkscrew. It led into a valley between sloping hills, rugged with rocks like a harvested cornfield, and further down, it opened up to green meadows. I followed the path eagerly; the steepness of the slope, the constant sharp turns, and the old, unyielding hope of discovering something new in a new place all made me feel light and free. A little further down, a stream began to form, gathering from several springs, soon bubbling joyfully among the hills. Occasionally, it would cross the path in a small waterfall, creating a pool where Modestine could cool her feet.
The whole descent is like a dream to me, so rapidly was it accomplished. I had scarcely left the summit ere the valley had closed round my path, and the sun beat upon me, walking in a stagnant lowland atmosphere. The track became a road, and went up and down in easy undulations. I passed cabin after cabin, but all seemed deserted; and I saw not a human creature, nor heard any sound except that of the stream. I was, however, in a different country from the day before. The stony skeleton of the world was here vigorously displayed to sun and air. The slopes were steep and changeful. Oak-trees clung along the hills, well grown, wealthy in leaf, and touched by the autumn with strong and[Pg 217] luminous colours. Here and there another stream would fall in from the right or the left, down a gorge of snow-white and tumultuary boulders. The river in the bottom (for it was rapidly growing a river, collecting on all hands as it trotted on its way) here foamed a while in desperate rapids, and there lay in pools of the most enchanting sea-green shot with watery browns. As far as I have gone, I have never seen a river of so changeful and delicate a hue; crystal was not more clear, the meadows were not by half so green; and at every pool I saw I felt a thrill of longing to be out of these hot, dusty, and material garments, and bathe my naked body in the mountain air and water. All the time as I went on I never forgot it was the Sabbath; the stillness was a perpetual reminder; and I heard in spirit the church-bells clamouring all over Europe, and the psalms of a thousand churches.
The whole descent felt like a dream to me, it happened so quickly. I had barely left the summit when the valley surrounded me, and the sun beat down on me as I walked through a stagnant lowland atmosphere. The track turned into a road, gently rising and falling. I passed cabin after cabin, but they all seemed abandoned; I didn't see a soul or hear anything except for the sound of the stream. I was, however, in a different place than the day before. The rocky structure of the world was prominently displayed to the sun and air. The slopes were steep and variable. Oak trees clung to the hills, well-grown, lush with leaves, and touched by autumn with vibrant and luminous colors. Occasionally, another stream would join from the right or the left, cascading down a gorge filled with snow-white and chaotic boulders. The river at the bottom (for it was quickly becoming a river, gathering water from all sides as it flowed) foamed in furious rapids for a while, then rested in pools of enchanting sea-green mixed with watery browns. Throughout my journey, I've never seen a river with such changing and delicate hues; it was clearer than crystal, and the meadows seemed nowhere near as green. With each pool I passed, I felt a thrill of longing to escape these hot, dusty, and heavy clothes, and to bathe my bare body in the mountain air and water. All the while, I never forgot it was Sunday; the stillness was a constant reminder, and in my mind, I heard the church bells ringing across Europe and the psalms from a thousand churches.
At length a human sound struck upon my ear—a cry strangely modulated between pathos and derision; and looking across the valley, I saw a little urchin sitting in a meadow, with his hands about his knees, and dwarfed to almost comical smallness by the distance. But the rogue had picked me out as I went down the road, from oak wood on to oak wood, driving Modestine; and he made me the compliments of the new country in this tremulous high-pitched salutation. And as all noises are lovely and natural at a sufficient distance, this also, coming through so much clean hill air and crossing all the green valley, sounded pleasant to my ear, and seemed a thing rustic, like the oaks or the river.
At last, I heard a human voice—a shout that mixed pity and mockery; and looking across the valley, I saw a little kid sitting in a meadow, with his hands around his knees, made to look almost comically small by the distance. But the little rascal had spotted me as I walked down the road, from one oak grove to another, driving Modestine; and he greeted me with the welcoming sounds of this new place in his shaky, high-pitched tone. Since all sounds are lovely and natural at a distance, this one, traveling through the clean hill air and across the green valley, sounded nice to me, and felt rural, like the oaks or the river.
A little after, the stream that I was following fell into the Tarn at Pont de Montvert of bloody memory.
A little while later, the stream I was following flowed into the Tarn at Pont de Montvert, known for its bloody history.
PONT DE MONTVERT
One of the first things I encountered in Pont de Montvert was, if I remember rightly, the Protestant temple; but this was but the type of other novelties. A subtle atmosphere distinguishes a town in England from a town in France, or even in Scotland. At Carlisle you can see you are in the one country; at Dumfries, thirty miles away, you are as sure that you are in the other. I should find it difficult to tell in what particulars Pont de Montvert differed from Monastier or Langogne, or even Bleymard; but the difference existed, and spoke eloquently to the eyes. The place, with its houses, its lanes, its glaring riverbed, wore an indescribable air of the South.
One of the first things I came across in Pont de Montvert was, if I remember correctly, the Protestant church; but this was just one of many new experiences. There's a unique vibe that sets a town in England apart from one in France, or even in Scotland. In Carlisle, it's clear you're in one country; thirty miles away in Dumfries, you can easily tell you're in another. I’d find it hard to pinpoint how exactly Pont de Montvert was different from Monastier or Langogne, or even Bleymard; yet, the difference was there and spoke volumes to the eyes. The place, with its houses, its streets, its bright riverbed, had an indescribable Southern charm.
All was Sunday bustle in the streets and in the public-houses, as all had been Sabbath peace among the mountains. There must have been near a score of us at dinner by eleven before noon; and after I had eaten and drunken, and sat writing up my journal, I suppose as many more came dropping in one after another, or by twos and threes. In crossing the Lozère I had not only come among new natural features, but moved into the territory of a different race. These people, as they hurriedly despatched their viands in an intricate sword-play of knives, questioned and answered me with a degree of intelligence which excelled all that I had met, except among the railway folk at Chasseradès. They had open telling faces, and were lively both in speech and manner. They not only entered thoroughly into the spirit of my little trip, but more than one declared, if he were rich enough, he would like to set forth on such another.
Everything was lively on Sunday in the streets and pubs, while the mountains enjoyed their usual calm. By eleven in the morning, there must have been almost twenty of us at dinner. After I had eaten and drunk and started writing in my journal, I noticed just as many more people arriving, either alone or in small groups. While crossing the Lozère, I didn't just encounter new landscapes; I also entered a region inhabited by a different culture. These people, as they quickly finished their meals with a complex dance of knives, engaged with me in a way that surpassed anyone I had met, except for the railway workers in Chasseradès. They had friendly, expressive faces and were animated in their speech and behavior. They not only connected with the spirit of my little adventure but more than one of them said that if they were wealthy enough, they would love to embark on such a journey themselves.
Even physically there was a pleasant change. I had[Pg 219] not seen a pretty woman since I left Monastier, and there but one. Now of the three who sat down with me to dinner, one was certainly not beautiful—a poor timid thing of forty, quite troubled at this roaring table d'hôte, whom I squired and helped to wine, and pledged and tried generally to encourage, with quite a contrary effect; but the other two, both married, were both more handsome than the average of women. And Clarisse? What shall I say of Clarisse? She waited the table with a heavy placable nonchalance, like a performing cow; her great grey eyes were steeped in amorous languor; her features, although fleshy, were of an original and accurate design; her mouth had a curl; her nostril spoke of dainty pride; her cheek fell into strange and interesting lines. It was a face capable of strong emotion, and, with training, it offered the promise of delicate sentiment. It seemed pitiful to see so good a model left to country admirers and a country way of thought. Beauty should at least have touched society; then, in a moment, it throws off a weight that lay upon it, it becomes conscious of itself, it puts on an elegance, learns a gait and a carriage of the head, and, in a moment, patet dea. Before I left I assured Clarisse of my hearty admiration. She took it like milk, without embarrassment or wonder, merely looking at me steadily with her great eyes; and I own the result upon myself was some confusion. If Clarisse could read English, I should not dare to add that her figure was unworthy of her face. Hers was a case for stays; but that may perhaps grow better as she gets up in years.
Even physically, there was a nice change. I hadn’t seen a pretty woman since I left Monastier, and there was only one. Now, of the three who sat down with me for dinner, one was definitely not beautiful—a poor, shy woman of forty, quite overwhelmed by this loud table d'hôte, whom I tried to support and comfort with wine and encouragement, but it had quite the opposite effect. The other two, both married, were definitely more attractive than the average woman. And Clarisse? What can I say about Clarisse? She served the table with a heavy, calm indifference, like a performing cow; her large grey eyes were filled with a dreamy longing; her features, though full, had an original and appealing design; her mouth had a curl; her nostril showed a hint of delicate pride; her cheek fell into intriguing and unique lines. It was a face capable of deep emotions, and with some refinement, it had the potential for subtle feelings. It seemed a shame to see such a good model left to rural admirers and country thinking. Beauty should at least have touched society; then, in an instant, it sheds the weight that holds it back, it becomes self-aware, adopts an elegance, learns a graceful walk and posture, and suddenly, patet dea. Before I left, I assured Clarisse of my sincere admiration. She took it in stride, without embarrassment or surprise, just looking at me steadily with her big eyes; and I admit the effect on me was a bit confusing. If Clarisse could read English, I wouldn’t dare to say that her figure didn’t match her face. She needed a corset, but perhaps that will improve as she gets older.
Pont de Montvert, or Greenhill Bridge, as we might say at home, is a place memorable in the story of the Camisards. It was here that the war broke out; here that those southern Covenanters slew their Archbishop Sharpe. The persecution on the one hand, the febrile enthusiasm on the other, are almost equally difficult to understand in these quiet modern days, and with our easy modern beliefs and disbeliefs. The Protestants were one[Pg 220] and all beside their right minds with zeal and sorrow. They were all prophets and prophetesses. Children at the breast would exhort their parents to good works. "A child of fifteen months at Quissac spoke from its mother's arms, agitated and sobbing, distinctly and with a loud voice." Marshal Villars has seen a town where all the women "seemed possessed by the devil," and had trembling fits, and uttered prophecies publicly upon the streets. A prophetess of Vivarais was hanged at Montpellier because blood flowed from her eyes and nose, and she declared that she was weeping tears of blood for the misfortunes of the Protestants. And it was not only women and children. Stalwart dangerous fellows, used to swing the sickle or to wield the forest axe, were likewise shaken with strange paroxysms, and spoke oracles with sobs and streaming tears. A persecution unsurpassed in violence had lasted near a score of years, and this was the result upon the persecuted; hanging, burning, breaking on the wheel, had been in vain; the dragoons had left their hoofmarks over all the countryside; there were men rowing in the galleys, and women pining in the prisons of the Church; and not a thought was changed in the heart of any upright Protestant.
Pont de Montvert, or Greenhill Bridge, as we'd call it back home, is a significant place in the history of the Camisards. This is where the war started; this is where those Southern Covenanters killed their Archbishop Sharpe. The persecution on one side and the intense enthusiasm on the other are both hard to grasp in these calm modern times, with our comfortable beliefs and skepticism. The Protestants were all one[Pg 220] and completely consumed with zeal and sorrow. They were all prophets and prophetesses. Babies at the breast would inspire their parents to do good deeds. "A child of fifteen months in Quissac spoke from its mother’s arms, agitated and crying, clearly and loudly." Marshal Villars witnessed a town where all the women "appeared to be possessed by the devil," trembling and publicly prophesying on the streets. A prophetess from Vivarais was hanged in Montpellier because blood flowed from her eyes and nose, claiming she was weeping tears of blood for the suffering of the Protestants. And it wasn’t just women and children. Strong, dangerous men, used to wielding sickles or axes, were also affected by strange fits, speaking oracles with sobs and tears streaming down their faces. A persecution unmatched in brutality had lasted nearly twenty years, and this was the outcome for the persecuted; hanging, burning, breaking on the wheel had all been futile; the dragoons had left their marks across the countryside; there were men rowing in galleys, and women languishing in the Church’s prisons; and not a single upright Protestant changed their beliefs.
Now the head and forefront of the persecution—after Lamoignon de Bâvile—François de Langlade du Chayla (pronounce Chéïla), Archpriest of the Cevennes and Inspector of Missions in the same country, had a house in which he sometimes dwelt in the town of Pont de Montvert. He was a conscientious person, who seems to have been intended by nature for a pirate, and now fifty-five, an age by which a man has learned all the moderation of which he is capable. A missionary in his youth in China, he there suffered martyrdom, was left for dead, and only succoured and brought back to life by the charity of a pariah. We must suppose the pariah devoid of second-sight, and not purposely malicious in this act. Such an experience, it might be thought, would have cured a man[Pg 221] of the desire to persecute; but the human spirit is a thing strangely put together; and, having been a Christian martyr, Du Chayla became a Christian persecutor. The Work of the Propagation of the Faith went roundly forward in his hands. His house in Pont de Montvert served him as a prison. There he closed the hands of his prisoners upon live coal, and plucked out the hairs of their beards, to convince them that they were deceived in their opinions. And yet had not he himself tried and proved the inefficacy of these carnal arguments among the Buddhists in China?
Now the main instigator of the persecution—after Lamoignon de Bâvile—François de Langlade du Chayla (pronounced Chéïla), Archpriest of the Cevennes and Inspector of Missions in the same area, owned a house where he sometimes lived in the town of Pont de Montvert. He was a dedicated individual who seemed naturally suited to be a pirate, and at fifty-five, an age where one typically has learned all the moderation they are capable of. He had been a missionary in his youth in China, where he suffered martyrdom, was left for dead, and was only rescued and brought back to life by the kindness of a pariah. We should assume the pariah didn’t have foresight and wasn’t intentionally malicious in this act. One might think that such an experience would have cured a man of the urge to persecute; however, the human spirit is oddly constructed, and after being a Christian martyr, Du Chayla became a Christian persecutor. The Work of the Propagation of the Faith progressed vigorously under his direction. His home in Pont de Montvert served as a prison. There, he would force his prisoners to hold hot coals and pulled out the hairs of their beards to convince them they were wrong in their beliefs. And yet, hadn't he himself tested and proven the uselessness of these physical methods among the Buddhists in China?
Not only was life made intolerable in Languedoc, but flight was rigidly forbidden. One Massip, a muleteer, and well acquainted with the mountain-paths, had already guided several troops of fugitives in safety to Geneva; and on him, with another convoy, consisting mostly of women dressed as men, Du Chayla, in an evil hour for himself, laid his hands. The Sunday following, there was a conventicle of Protestants in the woods of Altefage upon Mount Bouges; where there stood up one Séguier—Spirit Séguier, as his companions called him—a wool-carder, tall, black-faced, and toothless, but a man full of prophecy. He declared, in the name of God, that the time for submission had gone by, and they must betake themselves to arms for the deliverance of their brethren and the destruction of the priests.
Not only was life made unbearable in Languedoc, but escape was strictly forbidden. A man named Massip, who was a muleteer and familiar with the mountain paths, had already helped several groups of refugees safely reach Geneva. Du Chayla, in a moment of poor judgment, took him into custody along with another group, mostly women disguised as men. The following Sunday, there was a gathering of Protestants in the woods of Altefage on Mount Bouges, where a man named Séguier—known to his friends as Spirit Séguier—a tall, dark-faced, toothless wool-carder, stood up. He proclaimed in the name of God that the time for submission was over, and they must take up arms to free their fellow believers and destroy the priests.
The next night, 24th July 1702, a sound disturbed the Inspector of Missions as he sat in his prison-house at Pont de Montvert: the voices of many men upraised in psalmody drew nearer and nearer through the town. It was ten at night; he had his court about him, priests, soldiers, and servants, to the number of twelve or fifteen; and now dreading the insolence of a conventicle below his very windows, he ordered forth his soldiers to report. But the psalm-singers were already at his door, fifty strong, led by the inspired Séguier, and breathing death. To their summons, the archpriest made answer like a stout old[Pg 222] persecutor, and bade his garrison fire upon the mob. One Camisard (for, according to some, it was in this night's work that they came by the name) fell at this discharge: his comrades burst in the door with hatchets and a beam of wood, overran the lower story of the house, set free the prisoners, and finding one of them in the vine, a sort of Scavenger's Daughter of the place and period, redoubled in fury against Du Chayla, and sought by repeated assaults to carry the upper floors. But he, on his side, had given absolution to his men, and they bravely held the staircase.
The next night, July 24, 1702, a noise caught the attention of the Inspector of Missions as he sat in his prison at Pont de Montvert: the sounds of many men singing psalms grew closer and closer through the town. It was ten at night; he had about twelve or fifteen people around him—priests, soldiers, and servants—and fearing the disrespect of a gathering right outside his windows, he ordered his soldiers to check it out. But the psalm singers were already at his door, fifty strong, led by the inspired Séguier, and ready to fight. In response to their call, the archpriest answered like a determined old persecutor and ordered his men to fire on the crowd. One Camisard fell during the gunfire (according to some, it was during this event that they earned their name). His comrades broke down the door with hatchets and a wooden beam, took over the ground floor of the house, freed the prisoners, and finding one of them in the vine, a type of Scavenger's Daughter from that time, they became even more furious against Du Chayla and repeatedly tried to storm the upper floors. But he, having granted absolution to his men, bravely held the staircase.
"Children of God," cried the prophet, "hold your hands. Let us burn the house, with the priest and the satellites of Baal."
"Children of God," shouted the prophet, "raise your hands. Let’s set the house on fire, along with the priest and the followers of Baal."
The fire caught readily. Out of an upper window Du Chayla and his men lowered themselves into the garden by means of knotted sheets; some escaped across the river under the bullets of the insurgents; but the archpriest himself fell, broke his thigh, and could only crawl into the hedge. What were his reflections as this second martyrdom drew near? A poor, brave, besotted, hateful man, who had done his duty resolutely according to his light both in the Cevennes and China. He found at least one telling word to say in his defence; for when the roof fell in and the upbursting flames discovered his retreat, and they came and dragged him to the public place of the town, raging and calling him damned—"If I be damned," said he, "why should you also damn yourselves?"
The fire spread quickly. From an upper window, Du Chayla and his men lowered themselves into the garden using knotted sheets; some managed to escape across the river while dodging the insurgents' bullets. But the archpriest himself fell, broke his thigh, and could only crawl into the hedge. What was he thinking as this second martyrdom approached? A poor, brave, troubled, and despised man, who had done his duty resolutely according to his understanding in both the Cevennes and China. He found at least one strong statement to make in his defense; when the roof collapsed and the rising flames revealed his hiding spot, they came and dragged him to the town square, furious and calling him damned—"If I'm damned," he said, "why should you also damn yourselves?"
Here was a good reason for the last; but in the course of his inspectorship he had given many stronger which all told in a contrary direction; and these he was now to hear. One by one, Séguier first, the Camisards drew near and stabbed him. "This," they said, "is for my father broken on the wheel. This for my brother in the galleys. That for my mother or my sister imprisoned in your cursed convents." Each gave his blow and his reason; and then all kneeled and sang psalms around the body till the dawn. With the dawn, still singing, they defiled away towards Fru[Pg 223]gères, farther up the Tarn, to pursue the work of vengeance, leaving Du Chayla's prison-house in ruins, and his body pierced with two-and-fifty wounds upon the public place.
Here was a good reason for the last; but during his time as inspector, he had provided many stronger reasons that all pointed in the opposite direction; and these were the ones he would now hear. One by one, starting with Séguier, the Camisards approached him and struck him. "This," they said, "is for my father who was broken on the wheel. This for my brother in the galleys. That for my mother or my sister locked up in your cursed convents." Each person delivered their blow and their reason; and then all knelt and sang psalms around the body until dawn. With the dawn, still singing, they moved away toward Fru[Pg 223]gères, further up the Tarn, to continue their quest for vengeance, leaving Du Chayla's prison in ruins and his body pierced with fifty-two wounds in the public square.
'Tis a wild night's work, with its accompaniment of psalms; and it seems as if a psalm must always have a sound of threatening in that town upon the Tarn. But the story does not end, even so far as concerns Pont de Montvert, with the departure of the Camisards. The career of Séguier was brief and bloody. Two more priests and a whole family at Ladevèze, from the father to the servants, fell by his hand or by his orders; and yet he was but a day or two at large, and restrained all the time by the presence of the soldiery. Taken at length by a famous soldier of fortune, Captain Poul, he appeared unmoved before his judges.
It's a wild night filled with psalms, and it feels like there's always a sense of threat in that town by the Tarn. But the story doesn’t end, even in terms of Pont de Montvert, with the Camisards' departure. Séguier’s time was short and violent. Two more priests and an entire family in Ladevèze, from the father to the servants, lost their lives at his hand or by his orders; and he was only free for a day or two, constantly held back by the presence of soldiers. Eventually captured by a well-known mercenary, Captain Poul, he remained unshaken in front of his judges.
"Your name?" they asked.
"What's your name?" they asked.
"Pierre Séguier."
"Pierre Séguier."
"Why are you called Spirit?"
"Why do they call you Spirit?"
"Because the Spirit of the Lord is with me."
"Because the Spirit of the Lord is with me."
"Your domicile?"
"Your home?"
"Lately in the desert, and soon in heaven."
"Lately in the desert, and soon in heaven."
"Have you no remorse for your crimes?"
"Don’t you feel any regret for what you’ve done?"
"I have committed none. My soul is like a garden full of shelter and of fountains"."
"I have committed none. My soul is like a garden full of shelter and fountains."
At Pont de Montvert, on the 12th of August, he had his right hand stricken from his body, and was burned alive. And his soul was like a garden? So perhaps was the soul of Du Chayla, the Christian martyr. And perhaps if you could read in my soul, or I could read in yours, our own composure might seem little less surprising.
At Pont de Montvert, on August 12th, he had his right hand severed and was burned alive. And his soul was like a garden? Maybe Du Chayla, the Christian martyr, had a similar soul. And perhaps if you could see into my soul, or I could see into yours, our own calm might not seem so unexpected.
Du Chayla's house still stands, with a new roof, beside one of the bridges of the town; and if you are curious you may see the terrace-garden into which he dropped.
Du Chayla's house is still there, with a new roof, next to one of the town's bridges; and if you're curious, you can see the terrace garden where he fell.
IN THE VALLEY OF THE TARN
A new road leads from Pont de Montvert to Florac by the valley of the Tarn; a smooth sandy ledge, it runs about half-way between the summit of the cliffs and the river in the bottom of the valley; and I went in and out, as I followed it, from bays of shadow into promontories of afternoon sun. This was a pass like that of Killiecrankie; a deep turning gully in the hills, with the Tarn making a wonderful hoarse uproar far below, and craggy summits standing in the sunshine high above. A thin fringe of ash trees ran about the hill-tops, like ivy on a ruin; but, on the lower slopes, and far up every glen, the Spanish chestnut trees stood each four-square to heaven under its tented foliage. Some were planted, each on its own terrace no larger than a bed; some, trusting in their roots, found strength to grow and prosper and be straight and large upon the rapid slopes of the valley; others, where there was a margin to the river, stood marshaled in a line and mighty like cedars of Lebanon. Yet even where they grew most thickly they were not to be thought of as a wood, but as a herd of stalwart individuals; and the dome of each tree stood forth separate and large, and as it were a little bill, from among the domes of its companions. They gave forth a faint sweet perfume which pervaded the air of the afternoon; autumn had put tints of gold and tarnish in the green; and the sun so shone through and kindled the broad foliage, that each chestnut was relieved against another, not in shadow, but in light. A humble sketcher here laid down his pencil in despair.
A new road runs from Pont de Montvert to Florac through the valley of the Tarn; it's a smooth sandy path that’s about halfway between the top of the cliffs and the river at the valley bottom. As I followed it, I moved between shaded areas and spots filled with afternoon sunshine. This was a pass similar to Killiecrankie; a deep winding gully in the hills, with the Tarn roaring loudly far below, and rugged peaks bright in the sunshine overhead. A thin line of ash trees crowned the hilltops, resembling ivy clinging to a ruin; but on the lower slopes and throughout each glen, the Spanish chestnut trees stood proudly with their large, leafy canopies. Some were planted, each on its own small terrace like a bed; some, relying on their roots, grew strong and tall on the steep valley slopes; others, where the river bordered, stood lined up like mighty cedars of Lebanon. Yet even where they grew densely, they felt more like a group of strong individuals rather than a forest; each tree’s dome stood out tall and distinct, like a little hill among its peers. They emitted a faint sweet fragrance that filled the afternoon air; autumn had brushed gold and aged hues onto the green; and the sunlight shining through illuminated the broad leaves, making each chestnut stand out not in shadow but in light. A humble sketch artist here put down his pencil in frustration.
I wish I could convey a notion of the growth of these[Pg 225] noble trees; of how they strike out boughs like the oak, and trail sprays of drooping foliage like the willow; of how they stand on upright fluted columns like the pillars of a church; or like the olive, from the most shattered hole can put out smooth and youthful shoots, and begin a new life upon the ruins of the old. Thus they partake of the nature of many different trees; and even their prickly top-knots, seen near at hand against the sky, have a certain palm-like air that impresses the imagination. But their individuality, although compounded of so many elements, is but the richer and the more original. And to look down upon a level filled with these knolls of foliage, or to see a clan of old unconquerable chestnuts cluster "like herded elephants" upon the spur of a mountain, is to rise to higher thoughts of the powers that are in Nature.
I wish I could express how these [Pg 225] majestic trees grow; how they extend branches like an oak and hang down leaves like a willow; how they stand tall on fluted trunks like church pillars; or like the olive, can sprout smooth, young shoots even from the most battered spots, starting a new life amidst the ruins of the old. They embody qualities of many different trees, and even their spiky tops, seen up close against the sky, have a certain palm-like vibe that sparks the imagination. Yet, their uniqueness, made up of so many elements, becomes even richer and more original. To look down on a landscape filled with these mounds of foliage, or to see a group of resilient chestnuts gathered "like herded elephants" on a mountain ridge, elevates one's thoughts about the powers present in Nature.
Between Modestine's laggard humour and the beauty of the scene, we made little progress all that afternoon; and at last finding the sun, although still far from setting, was already beginning to desert the narrow valley of the Tarn, I began to cast about for a place to camp in. This was not easy to find; the terraces were too narrow, and the ground, where it was unterraced, was usually too steep for a man to lie upon. I should have slipped all night, and awakened towards morning with my feet or my head in the river.
Between Modestine's slow wit and the beauty of the scene, we didn’t make much progress that afternoon. Finally, noticing that the sun, while still far from setting, was beginning to leave the narrow valley of the Tarn, I started looking for a place to camp. This was hard to find; the terraces were too narrow, and the ground, where it wasn’t terraced, was usually too steep for a person to lie on. I would have slipped all night and woken up in the morning with my feet or my head in the river.
After perhaps a mile, I saw, some sixty feet above the road, a little plateau large enough to hold my sack, and securely parapeted by the trunk of an aged and enormous chestnut. Thither, with infinite trouble, I goaded and kicked the reluctant Modestine, and there I hastened to unload her. There was only room for myself upon the plateau, and I had to go nearly as high again before I found so much as standing-room for the ass. It was on a heap of rolling stones, on an artificial terrace, certainly not five feet square in all. Here I tied her to a chestnut, and having given her corn and bread and made a pile of[Pg 226] chestnut-leaves, of which I found her greedy, I descended once more to my own encampment.
After maybe a mile, I spotted a small plateau about sixty feet above the road, big enough for my bag, and securely protected by the trunk of a large, old chestnut tree. With a lot of effort, I urged and pushed the unwilling Modestine, and there I quickly unloaded her. There was only space for me on the plateau, and I had to climb nearly as high again before I found any standing room for the donkey. It was on a pile of loose stones, on a makeshift terrace, definitely not more than five feet square in total. Here, I tied her to a chestnut tree and gave her some corn and bread, along with a heap of [Pg 226] chestnut leaves that she seemed to love, before heading back down to my own campsite.
The position was unpleasantly exposed. One or two carts went by upon the road; and as long as daylight lasted I concealed myself, for all the world like a hunted Camisard, behind my fortification of vast chestnut trunk; for I was passionately afraid of discovery and the visit of jocular persons in the night. Moreover, I saw that I must be early awake; for these chestnut gardens had been the scene of industry no further gone than on the day before. The slope was strewn with lopped branches, and here and there a great package of leaves was propped against a trunk; for even the leaves are serviceable, and the peasants use them in winter by way of fodder for their animals. I picked a meal in fear and trembling, half lying down to hide myself from the road; and I daresay I was as much concerned as if I had been a scout from Joani's band above upon the Lozère, or from Salomon's across the Tarn, in the old times of psalm-singing and blood. Or indeed, perhaps more; for the Camisards had a remarkable confidence in God; and a tale comes back into my memory of how the Count of Gévaudan, riding with a party of dragoons and a notary at his saddlebow to enforce the oath of fidelity in all the country hamlets, entered a valley in the woods, and found Cavalier and his men at dinner, gaily seated on the grass, and their hats crowned with box-tree garlands, while fifteen women washed their linen in the stream. Such was a field festival in 1703; at that date Antony Watteau would be painting similar subjects.
The situation was uncomfortably exposed. A couple of carts passed by on the road, and as long as it was light, I hid myself behind a big chestnut tree, much like a hunted Camisard, because I was really scared of being discovered and encountering any jokesters at night. Also, I realized I needed to wake up early since these chestnut gardens hadn’t seen any work done since the day before. The slope was littered with cut branches, and now and then, a large bundle of leaves was leaning against a trunk; even the leaves were useful, as the locals used them as fodder for their animals in winter. I picked a meal in fear and trembling, lying down a bit to hide from the road; I was just as anxious as if I were a scout from Joani's group up on the Lozère, or from Salomon's across the Tarn, back in the days of psalm-singing and blood. Or maybe even more so, because the Camisards had a remarkable faith in God. A story comes to mind about the Count of Gévaudan, who, riding with a group of dragoons and a notary to enforce an oath of loyalty in all the country villages, entered a valley in the woods and found Cavalier and his men having dinner, happily sitting on the grass, their hats decorated with boxwood garlands, while fifteen women washed their laundry in the stream. That was a field festival in 1703; at that time, Antony Watteau would be painting similar scenes.
This was a very different camp from that of the night before in the cool and silent pine-woods. It was warm and even stifling in the valley. The shrill song of frogs, like the tremolo note of a whistle with a pea in it, rang up from the riverside before the sun was down. In the growing dusk, faint rustlings began to run to and fro among the fallen leaves; from time to time a faint chirping or cheeping noise would fall upon my ear; and from time[Pg 227] to time I thought I could see the movement of something swift and indistinct between the chestnuts. A profusion of large ants swarmed upon the ground; bats whisked by, and mosquitoes droned overhead. The long boughs with their bunches of leaves hung against the sky like garlands; and those immediately above and around me had somewhat the air of a trellis which should have been wrecked and half overthrown in a gale of wind.
This camp was really different from the one the night before in the cool, quiet pine woods. It was warm and even stuffy in the valley. The loud croaking of frogs, like a whistle with a pea in it, echoed from the riverside before sunset. As dusk settled in, I started to hear faint rustlings moving back and forth among the fallen leaves; now and then, a slight chirping or cheeping noise caught my attention; and occasionally, I thought I saw something fast and blurry darting between the chestnut trees. A swarm of large ants crawled on the ground; bats flew by, and mosquitoes buzzed overhead. The long branches with their clusters of leaves dangled against the sky like garlands; and those directly above and around me looked like a trellis that had been wrecked and half-blown away in a storm.
Sleep for a long time fled my eyelids; and just as I was beginning to feel quiet stealing over my limbs, and settling densely on my mind, a noise at my head startled me broad awake again, and, I will frankly confess it, brought my heart into my mouth. It was such a noise as a person would make scratching loudly with a finger-nail; it came from under the knapsack which served me for a pillow, and it was thrice repeated before I had time to sit up and turn about. Nothing was to be seen, nothing more was to be heard, but a few of these mysterious rustlings far and near, and the ceaseless accompaniment of the river and the frogs. I learned next day that the chestnut gardens are infested by rats; rustling, chirping, and scraping were probably all due to these; but the puzzle, for the moment, was insoluble, and I had to compose myself for sleep as best I could, in wondering uncertainty about my neighbours.
Sleep had long evaded me, and just as I was starting to feel a calm settle over my body and weigh down my mind, a noise near my head jolted me wide awake again and, I'll admit, made my heart race. It sounded like someone scratching loudly with a fingernail; it came from under the knapsack that I used as a pillow, and it happened three times before I could sit up and look around. There was nothing to see, nothing more to hear, except for a few of those mysterious rustlings nearby and the constant sounds of the river and frogs. I learned the next day that the chestnut gardens are overrun with rats; the rustling, chirping, and scratching were probably all caused by them. But at that moment, the mystery was unsolvable, and I had to try to settle back to sleep as best I could, filled with uncertain worries about what was around me.
I was wakened in the grey of the morning (Monday, 30th September) by the sound of footsteps not far off upon the stones, and, opening my eyes, I beheld a peasant going by among the chestnuts by a footpath that I had not hitherto observed. He turned his head neither to the right nor to the left, and disappeared in a few strides among the foliage. Here was an escape! But it was plainly more than time to be moving. The peasantry were abroad; scarce less terrible to me in my nondescript position than the soldiers of Captain Poul to an undaunted Camisard. I fed Modestine with what haste I could; but as I was returning to my sack, I saw a man and a boy[Pg 228] come down the hillside in a direction crossing mine. They unintelligibly hailed me, and I replied with inarticulate but cheerful sounds, and hurried forward to get into my gaiters.
I was jolted awake in the gray morning (Monday, September 30th) by the sound of footsteps nearby on the stones. As I opened my eyes, I noticed a peasant walking along a footpath by the chestnut trees that I hadn't seen before. He didn't look to the right or left and quickly disappeared into the foliage. What an opportunity! But it was clearly time to get moving. The local farmers were out and about, just as intimidating to me in my uncertain situation as Captain Poul's soldiers would be to a fearless Camisard. I quickly fed Modestine, but as I was heading back to my sack, I spotted a man and a boy[Pg 228] coming down the hillside toward my path. They called out to me in a jumbled way, and I replied with some cheerful noises as I rushed to put on my gaiters.
The pair, who seemed to be father and son, came slowly up to the plateau, and stood close beside me for some time in silence. The bed was open, and I saw with regret my revolver lying patently disclosed on the blue wool. At last, after they had looked me all over, and the silence had grown laughably embarrassing, the man demanded in what seemed unfriendly tones:—
The pair, who looked like father and son, approached the plateau slowly and stood next to me in silence for a while. The bed was unmade, and I regretted seeing my revolver clearly displayed on the blue wool. Finally, after they had taken me in with their stares and the silence had become awkwardly funny, the man asked in what sounded like unfriendly tones:—
"You have slept here?"
"Did you sleep here?"
"Yes," said I. "As you see."
"Yeah," I said. "As you can see."
"Why?" he asked.
"Why?" he asked.
"My faith," I answered lightly, "I was tired."
"My faith," I replied casually, "I was tired."
He next inquired where I was going, and what I had had for dinner; and then, without the least transition, "C'est bien," he added, "come along." And he and his son, without another word, turned oil to the next chestnut-tree but one, which they set to pruning. The thing had passed off more simply than I hoped. He was a grave, respectable man; and his unfriendly voice did not imply that he thought he was speaking to a criminal, but merely to an inferior.
He then asked where I was headed and what I had for dinner; and then, without any change in tone, "C'est bien," he said, "let's go." He and his son, without saying anything else, moved on to the next chestnut tree and began pruning it. It had gone more smoothly than I had expected. He was a serious, respectable man, and his unfriendly tone didn't suggest that he saw me as a criminal, just as someone beneath him.
I was soon on the road, nibbling a cake of chocolate and seriously occupied with a case of conscience. Was I to pay for my night's lodging? I had slept ill, the bed was full of fleas in the shape of ants, there was no water in the room, the very dawn had neglected to call me in the morning. I might have missed a train, had there been any in the neighbourhood to catch. Clearly, I was dissatisfied with my entertainment; and I decided I should not pay unless I met a beggar.
I soon hit the road, munching on a chocolate bar and seriously thinking about my moral dilemma. Should I pay for my night's stay? I had a terrible sleep; the bed was infested with fleas that looked like ants, there was no water in the room, and the morning light didn’t even wake me up. I might have missed a train, if there had been one nearby to catch. Clearly, I was unhappy with my accommodation, and I decided I wouldn’t pay unless I came across a beggar.
The valley looked even lovelier by morning; and soon the road descended to the level of the river. Here, in a place where many straight and prosperous chestnuts stood together, making an aisle upon a swarded terrace, I[Pg 229] made my morning toilette in the water of the Tarn. It was marvelously clear, thrillingly cool; the soap-suds disappeared as if by magic in the swift current, and the white boulders gave one a model for cleanliness. To wash in one of God's rivers in the open air seems to me a sort of cheerful solemnity or semi-pagan act of worship. To dabble among dishes in a bedroom may perhaps make clean the body; but the imagination takes no share in such a cleansing. I went on with a light and peaceful heart, and sang psalms to the spiritual ear as I advanced.
The valley looked even more beautiful in the morning, and soon the road sloped down to the river level. Here, in a spot where many tall and healthy chestnut trees stood together, creating an aisle on a grassy terrace, I[Pg 229] washed up in the water of the Tarn. It was incredibly clear and refreshingly cool; the soap bubbles vanished as if by magic in the swift current, and the white boulders gave a perfect example of cleanliness. Washing in one of God's rivers outdoors feels like a joyful solemn act of worship. Dabbing around in a sink in a bedroom might clean the body, but it doesn't engage the imagination in that cleansing process. I continued on with a light and peaceful heart, singing psalms to my spirit as I moved forward.
Suddenly up came an old woman, who point-blank demanded alms.
Suddenly, an old woman appeared and directly asked for money.
"Good," thought I; "here comes the waiter with the bill."
"Great," I thought; "here comes the waiter with the check."
And I paid for my night's lodging on the spot. Take it how you please, but this was the first and the last beggar that I met with during all my tour.
And I paid for my night's stay right then and there. You can see it however you want, but this was the only beggar I encountered during my entire trip.
A step or two farther I was overtaken by an old man in a brown nightcap, clear-eyed, weather-beaten, with a faint excited smile. A little girl followed him, driving two sheep and a goat; but she kept in our wake, while the old man walked beside me and talked about the morning and the valley. It was not much past six; and for healthy people who have slept enough that is an hour of expansion and of open and trustful talk.
A step or two further, I was approached by an old man wearing a brown nightcap, with bright eyes and a weathered face, sporting a faint, excited smile. A little girl trailed behind him, herding two sheep and a goat; she stuck close to us while the old man walked beside me, chatting about the morning and the valley. It was just past six, and for healthy people who had slept well, that’s a time for conversation to flow freely and openly.
"Connaissez-vous le Seigneur?" he said at length.
"Do you know the Lord?" he said after a while.
I asked him what Seigneur he meant; but he only repeated the question with more emphasis and a look in his eyes denoting hope and interest.
I asked him which Seigneur he was talking about; but he just repeated the question with more emphasis and a look in his eyes that showed hope and interest.
"Ah," said I, pointing upwards, "I understand you now. Yes, I know Him; He is the best of acquaintances."
"Ah," I said, pointing up, "I get it now. Yes, I know Him; He is the best of friends."
The old man said he was delighted. "Hold," he added, striking his bosom; "it makes me happy here." There were a few who knew the Lord in these valleys, he went on to tell me; not many, but a few. "Many are called," he quoted, "and few chosen."
The old man said he was thrilled. "Wait," he added, tapping his chest; "it brings me joy here." There were a few who knew the Lord in these valleys, he continued to tell me; not many, but a few. "Many are called," he quoted, "and few are chosen."
"My father," said I, "it is not easy to say who know[Pg 230] the Lord; and it is none of our business. Protestants and Catholics, and even those who worship stones, may know Him and be known by Him; for He has made all."
"My father," I said, "it's not easy to tell who knows the Lord; and it's not really our concern. Protestants and Catholics, and even those who worship stones, might know Him and be known by Him, because He created everything."
I did not know I was so good a preacher.
I had no idea I was such a good preacher.
The old man assured me he thought as I did, and repeated his expressions of pleasure at meeting me. "We are so few," he said. "They call us Moravians here; but down in the Department of Gard, where there are also a good number, they are called Derbists, after an English pastor."
The old man assured me that he shared my thoughts and expressed his happiness at meeting me again. "We are so few," he said. "Here, they call us Moravians; but down in the Department of Gard, where there are also quite a few of us, they're referred to as Derbists, named after an English pastor."
I began to understand that I was figuring, in questionable taste, as a member of some sect to me unknown; but I was more pleased with the pleasure of my companion than embarrassed by my own equivocal position. Indeed, I can see no dishonesty in not avowing a difference; and especially in these high matters, where we have all a sufficient assurance that, whoever may be in the wrong, we ourselves are not completely in the right. The truth is much talked about; but this old man in a brown nightcap showed himself so simple, sweet and friendly, that I am not unwilling to profess myself his convert. He was, as a matter of fact, a Plymouth Brother. Of what that involves in the way of doctrine I have no idea nor the time to inform myself; but I know right well that we are all embarked upon a troublesome world, the children of one Father, striving in many essential points to do and to become the same. And although it was somewhat in a mistake that he shook hands with me so often and showed himself so ready to receive my words, that was a mistake of the truth-finding sort. For charity begins blindfold; and only through a series of similar misapprehensions rises at length into a settled principle of love and patience, and a firm belief in all our fellow-men. If I deceived this good old man, in the like manner I would willingly go on to deceive others. And if ever at length, out of our separate and sad ways, we should all come[Pg 231] together into one common house, I have a hope, to which I cling dearly, that my mountain Plymouth Brother will hasten to shake hands with me again.
I started to realize that I was awkwardly fitting in as a member of some unknown group; however, I was more delighted with my companion's joy than upset about my own uncertain position. Honestly, I don't see anything wrong in not admitting a difference, especially on these important matters, where we all feel confident that, no matter who is wrong, none of us are completely right. People often talk a lot about truth; but this old man in a brown nightcap was so genuine, kind, and friendly that I'm not hesitant to call myself his convert. He was, in fact, a Plymouth Brother. I have no idea what that means in terms of beliefs, nor the time to find out; but I know very well that we're all navigating a challenging world, children of one Father, trying to do and be the same on many important issues. Even though it was somewhat misguided that he shook hands with me so often and was so open to my words, that mistake was in the spirit of seeking truth. Charity begins with a lack of clarity; and through a series of similar misunderstandings, it gradually evolves into a solid principle of love and patience, along with a strong belief in all our fellow humans. If I misled this good old man, I would willingly continue to mislead others in the same way. And if we ever find ourselves coming together from our separate and sorrowful paths into one shared space, I hold on tightly to the hope that my mountain Plymouth Brother will be eager to shake hands with me again.
Thus, talking like Christian and Faithful by the way, he and I came down upon a hamlet by the Tarn. It was but a humble place, called La Vernède, with less than a dozen houses, and a Protestant chapel on a knoll. Here he dwelt; and here, at the inn, I ordered my breakfast. The inn was kept by an agreeable young man, a stone-breaker on the road, and his sister, a pretty and engaging girl. The village schoolmaster dropped in to speak with the stranger. And these were all Protestants—a fact which pleased me more than I should have expected; and, what pleased me still more, they seemed all upright and simple people. The Plymouth Brother hung round me with a sort of yearning interest, and returned at least thrice to make sure I was enjoying my meal. His behaviour touched me deeply at the time, and even now moves me in recollection. He feared to intrude, but he would not willingly forego one moment of my society; and he seemed never weary of shaking me by the hand.
So, chatting like Christian and Faithful, he and I arrived at a small village by the Tarn. It was a modest place called La Vernède, with fewer than twelve houses and a Protestant chapel on a hill. This is where he lived, and it’s where I ordered my breakfast at the inn. The inn was run by a friendly young man, a stonebreaker on the road, and his sister, a lovely and charming girl. The village schoolmaster came by to chat with the stranger. And they were all Protestants—a fact that pleasantly surprised me; even more gratifying was that they all seemed to be honest and simple folks. The Plymouth Brother lingered around me with a kind of eager interest, returning at least three times to check if I was enjoying my meal. His attentiveness deeply moved me then, and it still touches me when I think back on it. He was hesitant to intrude, but he didn’t want to miss a moment of my company, and he never seemed tired of shaking my hand.
When all the rest had drifted off to their day's work, I sat for near half an hour with the young mistress of the house, who talked pleasantly over her seam of the chestnut harvest, and the beauties of the Tarn, and old family affections, broken up when young folk go from home, yet still subsisting. Hers, I am sure, was a sweet nature, with a country plainness and much delicacy underneath; and he who takes her to his heart will doubtless be a fortunate young man.
When everyone else had gone off to work, I spent almost half an hour with the young lady of the house, who chatted cheerfully about her sewing, the beauty of the Tarn, and the family bonds that get strained when young people leave home but still linger on. I’m sure she has a lovely personality, with a simple country charm and a lot of depth. The man who wins her heart will definitely be a lucky guy.
The valley below La Vernède pleased me more and more as I went forward. Now the hills approached from either hand, naked and crumbling, and walled in the river between cliffs; and now the valley widened and became green. The road led me past the old castle of Miral on a steep; past a battlemented monastery, long since broken up and turned into a church and[Pg 232] parsonage; and past a cluster of black roofs, the village of Cocurès, sitting among vineyards and meadows and orchards thick with red apples, and where, along the highway, they were knocking down walnuts from the roadside trees, and gathering them in sacks and baskets. The hills, however much the vale might open, were still tall and bare, with cliffy battlements and here and there a pointed summit; and the Tarn still rattled through the stones with a mountain noise. I had been led, by bagmen of a picturesque turn of mind, to expect a horrific country after the heart of Byron; but to my Scottish eyes it seemed smiling and plentiful, as the weather still gave an impression of high summer to my Scottish body; although the chestnuts were already picked out by the autumn, and the poplars, that here began to mingle with them, had turned into pale gold against the approach of winter.
The valley below La Vernède made me happier as I continued on. The hills closed in from both sides, bare and crumbling, enclosing the river between cliffs; then the valley opened up and turned green. The road took me past the old castle of Miral on a steep hill; past a fortified monastery that had long been converted into a church and[Pg 232] parsonage; and past a cluster of black roofs, the village of Cocurès, nestled among vineyards, meadows, and orchards full of red apples, where people were along the highway knocking down walnuts from the roadside trees and collecting them in sacks and baskets. The hills, no matter how wide the valley opened up, remained tall and bare, with rocky cliffs and sometimes a pointed peak; and the Tarn still rushed through the stones with a mountain roar. I had been led, by some imaginative travelers, to expect a frightening landscape like something out of Byron; but to my Scottish eyes, it appeared cheerful and abundant, as the weather still felt like late summer to my Scottish body; even though the chestnuts had already fallen for autumn, and the poplars, which began to mix in with them here, had turned pale gold as winter approached.
There was something in this landscape, smiling although wild, that explained to me the spirit of the Southern Covenanters. Those who took to the hills for conscience' sake in Scotland had all gloomy and bedevilled thoughts; for once that they received God's comfort they would be twice engaged with Satan; but the Camisards had only bright and supporting visions. They dealt much more in blood, both given and taken; yet I find no obsession of the Evil One in their records. With a light conscience, they pursued their life in these rough times and circumstances. The soul of Séguier, let us not forget, was like a garden. They knew they were on God's side, with a knowledge that has no parallel among the Scots; for the Scots, although they might be certain of the cause, could never rest confident of the person.
There was something about this landscape, smiling yet wild, that helped me understand the spirit of the Southern Covenanters. Those who took to the hills for the sake of their conscience in Scotland were filled with dark and tormented thoughts; once they found comfort in God, they became twice as entangled with Satan. In contrast, the Camisards only experienced bright and uplifting visions. They were involved in a lot of violence, both inflicted and received, yet I see no sign of the Evil One in their history. With a clear conscience, they lived their lives during these tough times. Let’s not forget that the soul of Séguier was like a garden. They knew they were on God's side, with a certainty that the Scots could not match; for the Scots, while they might be confident in their cause, could never be sure of the person.
"We flew," says one old Camisard, "when we heard the sound of psalm-singing, we flew as if with wings. We felt within us an animating ardour, a transporting desire. The feeling cannot be expressed in words. It is a thing that must have been experienced to be under[Pg 233]stood. However weary we might be, we thought no more of our weariness, and grew light so soon as the psalms fell upon our ears."
"We took off," says an older Camisard, "when we heard the sound of psalm-singing, we flew as if we had wings. We felt an energizing passion, an overwhelming desire. It’s a feeling that can't really be put into words. It's something you have to experience to fully understand. No matter how tired we were, we forgot all about our fatigue and felt uplifted the moment the psalms reached our ears."
The valley of the Tarn and the people whom I met at La Vernède not only explain to me this passage, but the twenty years of suffering which those, who were so stiff and so bloody when once they betook themselves to war, endured with the meekness of children and the constancy of saints and peasants.
The valley of the Tarn and the people I met at La Vernède not only clarify this passage for me, but also the twenty years of suffering that those who were so stubborn and violent when they went to war endured with the patience of children and the steadfastness of saints and farmers.
FLORAC
On a branch of the Tarn stands Florac, the seat of a sub-prefecture with an old castle, an alley of planes, many quaint street-corners, and a live fountain welling from the hill. It is notable, besides, for handsome women, and as one of the two capitals, Alais being the other, of the country of the Camisards.
On a branch of the Tarn stands Florac, the seat of a sub-prefecture with an old castle, a plane tree avenue, many charming street corners, and a lively fountain springing from the hill. It's also known for its beautiful women and as one of the two capitals, Alais being the other, of the land of the Camisards.
The landlord of the inn took me, after I had eaten, to an adjoining café, where I, or rather my journey, became the topic of the afternoon. Every one had some suggestion for my guidance; and the sub-prefectorial map was fetched from the sub-prefecture itself, and much thumbed among coffee-cups and glasses of liqueur. Most of these kind advisers were Protestant, though I observed that Protestant and Catholic intermingled in a very easy manner; and it surprised me to see what a lively memory still subsisted of the religious war. Among the hills of the south-west, by Mauchline, Cumnock, or Carsphairn, in isolated farms or in the manse, serious Presbyterian people still recall the days of the great persecution, and the graves of local martyrs are still piously regarded. But in towns and among the so-called better classes, I fear that these old doings have become an idle tale. If you met a mixed company in the King's Arms at Wigtown, it is not likely that the talk would run on Covenanters. Nay, at Muirkirk of Glenluce, I found the beadle's wife had not so much as heard of Prophet Peden. But these Cévenols were proud of their ancestors in quite another sense; the war was their chosen topic; its exploits were their own patent of nobility; and where a man or a race has had but one adventure, and that[Pg 235] heroic, we must expect and pardon some prolixity of reference. They told me the country was still full of legends hitherto uncollected; I heard from them about Cavalier's descendants—not direct descendants, be it understood, but only cousins or nephews—who were still prosperous people in the scene of the boy-general's exploits; and one farmer had seen the bones of old combatants dug up into the air of an afternoon in the nineteenth century, in a field where the ancestors had fought, and the great-grandchildren were peaceably ditching.
The innkeeper took me, after I had eaten, to a nearby café, where my journey became the topic of conversation for the afternoon. Everyone had suggestions for my travels, and the local map was retrieved from the sub-prefecture and passed around among coffee cups and glasses of liqueur. Most of these kind advisers were Protestant, though I noticed that Protestants and Catholics mingled easily; I was surprised by the strong memories that still lingered from the religious conflict. In the hills of the south-west, around Mauchline, Cumnock, or Carsphairn, serious Presbyterian folks still remember the days of the great persecution, and the graves of local martyrs are still held in reverence. But in towns and among the so-called upper classes, I fear these old events have become mere stories. If you found yourself in mixed company at the King's Arms in Wigtown, it's unlikely the conversation would turn to the Covenanters. In fact, when I was at Muirkirk of Glenluce, I discovered that the beadle's wife hadn't even heard of Prophet Peden. However, the Cévenols took pride in their ancestors in a different way; the war was their favorite topic, its battles their badge of honour; and when a person or a group has only one major adventure, especially one that’s heroic, it’s only natural to expect and forgive some lengthy discussions about it. They told me the country was still full of uncollected legends; I learned from them about the descendants of Cavalier—not direct descendants, mind you, just cousins or nephews—who were still well-off in the area where the boy-general had his adventures; and one farmer mentioned having seen the remains of old fighters uncovered in a field one afternoon in the nineteenth century, right where their ancestors had fought, while the great-grandchildren were peacefully digging ditches.
Later in the day one of the Protestant pastors was so good as to visit me: a young man, intelligent and polite, with whom I passed an hour or two in talk. Florac, he told me, is part Protestant, part Catholic; and the difference in religion is usually doubled by a difference in politics. You may judge of my surprise, coming as I did from such a babbling purgatorial Poland of a place as Monastier, when I learned that the population lived together on very quiet terms; and there was even an exchange of hospitalities between households thus doubly separated. Black Camisard and White Camisard, militiaman and Miquelet and dragoon, Protestant prophet and Catholic cadet of the White Cross, they had all been sabring and shooting, burning, pillaging, and murdering, their hearts hot with indignant passion; and here, after a hundred and seventy years, Protestant is still Protestant, Catholic still Catholic, in mutual toleration and mild amity of life. But the race of man, like that indomitable nature whence it sprang, has medicating virtues of its own; the years and seasons bring various harvests; the sun returns after the rain; and mankind outlives secular animosities, as a single man awakens from the passions of a day. We judge our ancestors from a more divine position; and the dust being a little laid with several centuries, we can see both sides adorned with human virtues and fighting with a show of right.
Later in the day, a Protestant pastor came by to visit me. He was a young man, smart and polite, and we spent an hour or two talking. He told me that Florac is both Protestant and Catholic, and the difference in religion usually comes with a difference in politics. You can imagine my surprise, coming as I did from the chaotic and turbulent place of Monastier, when I learned that the people lived together peacefully. There was even a sharing of hospitality between families that were so divided. Black Camisards and White Camisards, militiamen, Miquelets, dragoons, Protestant prophets, and Catholic cadets of the White Cross had all been fighting, burning, looting, and killing, driven by intense emotion. Yet here, after a hundred and seventy years, Protestants remain Protestant, Catholics remain Catholic, living together in mutual tolerance and gentle friendship. But humanity, like the resilient nature from which it comes, has its own healing powers; time and seasons bring different outcomes; the sun shines again after the rain; and people outlast long-held grudges, just like an individual recovers from the emotions of a day. We assess our ancestors from a higher perspective, and as the dust settles after centuries, we can see both sides filled with human qualities while they fought for their respective causes.
I have never thought it easy to be just, and find it daily even harder than I thought. I own I met these Protestants with delight and a sense of coming home. I was accustomed to speak their language, in another and deeper sense of the word than that which distinguishes between French and English; for the true Babel is a divergence upon morals. And hence I could hold more free communication with the Protestants, and judge them more justly, than the Catholics. Father Apollinaris may pair off with my mountain Plymouth Brother as two guileless and devout old men; yet I ask myself if I had as ready a feeling for the virtues of the Trappist; or, had I been a Catholic, if I should have felt so warmly to the dissenter of La Vernède. With the first I was on terms of mere forbearance; but with the other, although only on a misunderstanding and by keeping on selected points, it was still possible to hold converse and exchange some honest thoughts. In this world of imperfection we gladly welcome even partial intimacies. And if we find but one to whom we can speak out of our heart freely, with whom we can walk in love and simplicity without dissimulation, we have no ground of quarrel with the world or God.
I’ve never thought being fair was easy, and I find it harder every day than I expected. I admit I experienced joy and a sense of belonging when I met these Protestants. I was used to their way of thinking, in a deeper sense than just the difference between French and English; the real confusion comes from differing morals. Because of this, I could communicate more openly with the Protestants and judge them more fairly than the Catholics. Father Apollinaris and my mountain Plymouth Brother might appear as two innocent and devoted old men, but I wonder if I would appreciate the virtues of the Trappist as easily; or if I had been Catholic, would I have felt as warmly towards the dissenter from La Vernède? With the first, I maintained a basic patience; but with the latter, even though it was only through misunderstandings while focusing on certain points, it was still possible to engage and share some genuine thoughts. In this imperfect world, we happily embrace even partial connections. If we find just one person with whom we can truly open our hearts, someone we can walk with in love and simplicity without pretense, we have no reason to argue with the world or God.
IN THE VALLEY OF THE MIMENTE
On Tuesday, 1st October, we left Florac late in the afternoon, a tired donkey and tired donkey-driver. A little way up the Tarnon, a covered bridge of wood introduced us into the valley of the Mimente. Steep rocky red mountains overhung the stream; great oaks and chestnuts grew upon the slopes or in stony terraces; here and there was a red field of millet or a few apple trees studded with red apples; and the road passed hard by two black hamlets, one with an old castle atop to please the heart of the tourist.
On Tuesday, October 1st, we left Florac in the late afternoon, with a tired donkey and an equally tired driver. A short distance up the Tarnon, a wooden covered bridge led us into the valley of the Mimente. Steep, rocky red mountains loomed over the stream; large oaks and chestnuts grew on the slopes or in stony terraces; here and there was a red field of millet or a few apple trees laden with red apples; and the road ran right by two black hamlets, one featuring an old castle on top to delight the heart of any tourist.
It was difficult here again to find a spot fit for my encampment. Even under the oaks and chestnuts the ground had not only a very rapid slope, but was heaped with loose stones; and where there was no timber the hills descended to the stream in a red precipice tufted with heather. The sun had left the highest peak in front of me, and the valley was full of the lowing sound of herdsmen's horns as they recalled the flocks into the stable, when I spied a bight of meadow some way below the roadway in an angle of the river. Thither I descended, and, tying Modestine provisionally to a tree, proceeded to investigate the neighbourhood. A grey pearly evening shadow filled the glen; objects at a little distance grew indistinct and melted bafflingly into each other; and the darkness was rising steadily like an exhalation. I approached a great oak which grew in the meadow, hard by the river's brink; when to my disgust the voices of children fell upon my ear, and I beheld a house round the angle on the other bank. I had half a mind to pack and be gone again, but the growing darkness moved me[Pg 238] to remain. I had only to make no noise until the night was fairly come, and trust to the dawn to call me early in the morning. But it was hard to be annoyed by neighbours in such a great hotel.
It was tough again to find a suitable spot for my camp. Even under the oaks and chestnuts, the ground was not only steep but also covered with loose stones; and where there were no trees, the hills dropped to the stream in a red cliff covered with heather. The sun had set on the highest peak in front of me, and the valley was filled with the lowing sound of herdsmen's horns as they called the flocks back to the stable, when I noticed a bend of meadow a little way below the road in a bend of the river. I headed down there, tied Modestine temporarily to a tree, and went to explore the area. A grey, pearly evening shadow filled the valley; objects in the distance became unclear and melted confusingly into one another; and the darkness was steadily rising like a mist. I moved closer to a large oak that grew in the meadow near the riverbank; when, to my dismay, I heard children’s voices and saw a house around the bend on the other side. I almost decided to pack up and leave, but the increasing darkness made me stay. I just needed to be quiet until it was fully night and trust the dawn to wake me early in the morning. But it was frustrating to have neighbors in such a large hotel.
A hollow underneath the oak was my bed. Before I had fed Modestine and arranged my sack, three stars were already brightly shining, and the others were beginning dimly to appear. I slipped down to the river, which looked very black among its rocks, to fill my can; and dined with a good appetite in the dark, for I scrupled to light a lantern while so near a house. The moon, which I had seen a pallid crescent all afternoon, faintly illuminated the summit of the hills, but not a ray fell into the bottom of the glen where I was lying. The oak rose before me like a pillar of darkness; and overhead the heartsome stars were set in the face of the night. No one knows the stars who has not slept, as the French happily put it, à la belle étoile. He may know all their names and distances and magnitudes, and yet be ignorant of what alone concerns mankind,—their serene and gladsome influence on the mind. The greater part of poetry is about the stars; and very justly, for they are themselves the most classical of poets. These same far-away worlds, sprinkled like tapers or shaken together like a diamond dust upon the sky, had looked not otherwise to Roland or Cavalier, when, in the words of the latter, they had "no other tent but the sky, and no other bed than my mother earth."
A hollow under the oak was my bed. Before I had fed Modestine and set up my pack, three stars were already shining brightly, and others were starting to appear faintly. I slipped down to the river, which looked very dark among the rocks, to fill my can; I had dinner with a good appetite in the dark, since I hesitated to light a lantern so close to a house. The moon, which I had seen as a pale crescent all afternoon, faintly lit up the tops of the hills, but no light reached the bottom of the glen where I was lying. The oak stood before me like a pillar of darkness; above, the cheerful stars were scattered across the night. No one truly knows the stars who hasn’t slept, as the French aptly say, à la belle étoile. You might know all their names, distances, and sizes, but still be unaware of what truly matters to humanity—their calm and uplifting effect on the mind. A lot of poetry is about the stars, and rightly so, because they are the most classic of poets themselves. These distant worlds, sprinkled like candles or mingled like diamond dust in the sky, looked no different to Roland or Cavalier when, as the latter put it, they had "no other tent but the sky, and no other bed than my mother earth."
All night a strong wind blew up the valley, and the acorns fell pattering over me from the oak. Yet on this first night of October, the air was as mild as May, and I slept with the fur thrown back.
All night, a strong wind blew up the valley, and acorns fell, pattering down on me from the oak. Yet, on this first night of October, the air was as mild as May, and I slept with the fur thrown back.
I was much disturbed by the barking of a dog, an animal that I fear more than any wolf. A dog is vastly braver, and is besides supported by the sense of duty. If you kill a wolf, you meet with encouragement and praise; but if you kill a dog, the sacred rights of property and the domestic affections come clamouring round you[Pg 239] for redress. At the end of a fagging day, the sharp, cruel note of a dog's bark is in itself a keen annoyance; and to a tramp like myself, he represents the sedentary and respectable world in its most hostile form. There is something of the clergyman or the lawyer about this engaging animal; and it he were not amenable to stones, the boldest man would shrink from travelling afoot. I respect dogs much in the domestic circle; but on the highway, or sleeping afield, I both detest and fear them.
I was really bothered by the barking of a dog, an animal I fear more than any wolf. A dog is much braver and is also driven by a sense of duty. If you kill a wolf, you get encouragement and praise; but if you kill a dog, you'll face demands for justice from the sacred rights of property and domestic affections[Pg 239]. After a long day, the sharp, harsh sound of a dog's bark is incredibly annoying; and for a wanderer like me, it symbolizes the settled and respectable world in its most unfriendly form. There's something about this creature that reminds me of a clergyman or a lawyer; and if it weren't for stones, even the bravest person would hesitate to travel on foot. I respect dogs within the home, but on the road or when camping, I both dread and dislike them.
I was wakened next morning (Wednesday, October 2nd) by the same dog—for I knew his bark—making a charge down the bank, and then, seeing me sit up, retreating again with great alacrity. The stars were not yet quite extinguished. The heaven was of that enchanting mild grey-blue of the early morn. A still clear light began to fall, and the trees on the hillside were outlined sharply against the sky. The wind had veered more to the north, and no longer reached me in the glen; but as I was going on with my preparations, it drove a white cloud very swiftly over the hill-top; and looking up, I was surprised to see the cloud dyed with gold. In these high regions of the air the sun was already shining as at noon. If only the clouds travelled high enough, we should see the same thing all night long. For it is always daylight in the fields of space.
I was woken up the next morning (Wednesday, October 2nd) by the same dog— I recognized his bark—running down the bank and then, seeing me sit up, quickly retreating again. The stars weren’t completely gone yet. The sky had that beautiful soft grey-blue of early morning. A clear light started to shine, and the trees on the hillside stood out sharply against the sky. The wind had shifted more to the north and no longer reached me in the valley; but as I continued my preparations, it pushed a white cloud swiftly over the hilltop; and when I looked up, I was surprised to see the cloud glowing with gold. In these high altitudes of the air, the sun was already shining like it was noon. If only the clouds traveled high enough, we’d see the same thing all night long. Because it’s always daytime in the fields of space.
As I began to go up the valley, a draught of wind came down it out of the seat of the sunrise, although the clouds continued to run overhead in an almost contrary direction. A few steps farther, and I saw a whole hillside gilded with the sun; and still a little beyond, between two peaks, a centre of dazzling brilliancy appeared floating in the sky, and I was once more face to face with the big bonfire that occupies the kernel of our system.
As I started to walk up the valley, a breeze blew down from where the sun was rising, even though the clouds rushed by overhead in the opposite direction. A few more steps, and I saw an entire hillside lit up by the sun; and just a bit further, between two peaks, a bright spot appeared shimmering in the sky, and I was once again staring at the massive fire that sits at the core of our solar system.
I met but one human being that forenoon, a dark military-looking wayfarer, who carried a game-bag on a baldric; but he made a remark that seems worthy[Pg 240] of record. For when I asked him if he were Protestant or Catholic—
I met just one person that morning, a dark, military-looking traveler carrying a game bag slung over his shoulder; but he made a comment that feels worth[Pg 240] remembering. When I asked him if he was Protestant or Catholic—
"Oh," said he, "I make no shame of my religion. I am a Catholic."
"Oh," he said, "I'm not ashamed of my religion. I'm a Catholic."
He made no shame of it! The phrase is a piece of natural statistics; for it is the language of one in a minority. I thought with a smile of Bâvile and his dragoons, and how you may ride rough-shod over a religion for a century, and leave it only the more lively for the friction. Ireland is still Catholic; the Cevennes still Protestant. It is not a basketful of law-papers, nor the hoofs and pistol-butts of a regiment of horse, that can change one tittle of a ploughman's thoughts. Outdoor rustic people have not many ideas, but such as they have are hardy plants, and thrive flourishingly in persecution. One who has grown a long while in the sweat of laborious noons, and under the stars at night, a frequenter of hills and forests, an old honest countryman, has, in the end, a sense of communion with the powers of the universe, and amicable relations towards his God. Like my mountain Plymouth Brother, he knows the Lord. His religion does not repose upon a choice of logic; it is the poetry of the man's experience, the philosophy of the history of his life. God, like a great power, like a great shining sun, has appeared to this simple fellow in the course of years, and become the ground and essence of his least reflections; and you may change creeds and dogma by authority, or proclaim a new religion with the sound of trumpets, if you will; but here is a man who has his own thoughts, and will stubbornly adhere to them in good and evil. He is a Catholic, a Protestant, or a Plymouth Brother, in the same indefeasible sense that a man is not a woman, or a woman not a man. For he could not vary from his faith, unless he could eradicate all memory of the past, and, in a strict and not a conventional meaning, change his mind.
He wasn't ashamed of it at all! This phrase reflects a natural statistic; it’s what someone from a minority would say. I smiled at the thought of Bâvile and his soldiers, and how you can trample over a religion for a hundred years and it still ends up more vibrant for the struggle. Ireland remains Catholic; the Cevennes are still Protestant. It's not a stack of legal documents, nor the boots and gun barrels of a cavalry regiment, that can alter a single thought of a farmer. Simple rural folks may not have many ideas, but the ones they do are tough and flourish even in adversity. Someone who has worked through long, hot days and under the stars at night, someone who spends time in the hills and forests, an honest old countryman, eventually feels a connection with the universe and has a friendly relationship with God. Like my mountain Plymouth Brother, he knows the Lord. His religion isn't based on logical reasoning; it’s the poetry of his life experiences and the philosophy rooted in his history. Over time, God has revealed Himself to this simple man, becoming the foundation of his every thought; and you might try to change beliefs and doctrines through authority or declare a new religion with fanfare, but here’s a man who has his own beliefs and will stubbornly stick to them, through good and bad. He is a Catholic, a Protestant, or a Plymouth Brother, in the same undeniable way that a man is not a woman or a woman is not a man. He couldn't change his faith unless he could erase all memory of the past and, in a strict sense, truly change his mind.
THE HEART OF THE COUNTRY
I was now drawing near to Cassagnas, a cluster of black roofs upon the hillside, in this wild valley, among chestnut gardens, and looked upon in the clear air by many rocky peaks. The road along the Mimente is yet new, nor have the mountaineers recovered their surprise when the first cart arrived at Cassagnas. But although it lay thus apart from the current of men's business, this hamlet had already made a figure in the history of France. Hard by, in caverns of the mountain, was one of the five arsenals of the Camisards; where they laid up clothes and corn and arms against necessity, forged bayonets and sabres, and made themselves gunpowder with willow charcoal and saltpetre boiled in kettles. To the same caves, amid this multifarious industry, the sick and wounded were brought up to heal; and there they were visited by the two surgeons, Chabrier and Tavan, and secretly nursed by women of the neighbourhood.
I was now getting close to Cassagnas, a collection of dark roofs on the hillside, in this wild valley surrounded by chestnut orchards and watched over by many rocky peaks in the clear air. The road along the Mimente is still new, and the mountain people haven't yet gotten over their surprise when the first cart arrived in Cassagnas. But even though it was somewhat isolated from everyday life, this small village had already carved out a spot in the history of France. Nearby, in cave systems in the mountain, was one of the five arsenals of the Camisards; they stored clothes, grain, and weapons for emergencies, forged bayonets and sabers, and made gunpowder using willow charcoal and saltpeter boiled in pots. In those same caves, amidst this diverse activity, the sick and wounded were brought to recover; they were visited by the two surgeons, Chabrier and Tavan, and secretly cared for by local women.
Of the five legions into which the Camisards were divided, it was the oldest and the most obscure that had its magazines by Cassagnas. This was the band of Spirit Séguier; men who had joined their voices with his in the 68th Psalm as they marched down by night on the archpriest of the Cevennes. Séguier, promoted to heaven, was succeeded by Salomon Couderc, whom Cavalier treats in his memoirs as chaplain-general to the whole army of the Camisards. He was a prophet; a great reader of the heart, who admitted people to the sacrament, or refused them, by "intentively viewing every man" between the eyes; and had the most of the Scriptures off by rote. And this was surely happy; since in[Pg 242] a surprise in August 1703, he lost his mule, his portfolios, and his Bible. It is only strange that they were not surprised more often and more effectually; for this legion of Cassagnas was truly patriarchal in its theory of war, and camped without sentries, leaving that duty to the angels of the God for whom they fought. This is a token, not only of their faith, but of the trackless country where they harboured. M. de Caladon, taking a stroll one fine day, walked without warning into their midst, as he might have walked into "a flock of sheep in a plain," and found some asleep and some awake and psalm-singing. A traitor had need of no recommendation to insinuate himself among their ranks, beyond "his faculty of singing psalms"; and even the prophet Salomon "took him into a particular friendship." Thus, among their intricate hills, the rustic troop subsisted; and history can attribute few exploits to them but sacraments and ecstasies.
Of the five legions that the Camisards were organized into, it was the oldest and least known that had its supplies at Cassagnas. This was the group led by Spirit Séguier; men who had raised their voices with him in the 68th Psalm as they marched down at night against the archpriest of the Cevennes. Séguier, now in heaven, was followed by Salomon Couderc, whom Cavalier describes in his memoirs as the chaplain-general for the entire army of the Camisards. He was a prophet; an insightful reader of people’s hearts, who granted or denied access to the sacrament by "intently observing every man" through his eyes, and had most of the Scriptures memorized. This was surely fortunate, as during a surprise in August 1703, he lost his mule, his portfolios, and his Bible. It’s surprising that they weren’t caught off guard more often and effectively; for this legion at Cassagnas followed a patriarchal approach to war, setting up camp without sentries and leaving that responsibility to the angels of the God for whom they fought. This reflects not just their faith, but also the remote region where they stayed. M. de Caladon, taking a stroll one fine day, unexpectedly walked into their midst, as one might walk into "a flock of sheep in a field," and found some asleep and others awake, singing psalms. A traitor needed no special introduction to blend in among them, beyond "his ability to sing psalms"; and even the prophet Salomon "took him into a particular friendship." Thus, in their winding hills, the rustic troop survived; and history can link them to few deeds beyond sacraments and ecstatic moments.
People of this tough and simple stock will not, as I have just been saying, prove variable in religion; nor will they get nearer to apostasy than a mere external conformity like that of Naaman in the house of Rimmon. When Louis XVI., in the words of the edict, "convinced by the uselessness of a century of persecutions, and rather from necessity than sympathy," granted at last a royal grace of toleration, Cassagnas was still Protestant; and to a man, it is so to this day. There is, indeed, one family that is not Protestant, but neither is it Catholic. It is that of a Catholic curé in revolt, who has taken to his bosom a schoolmistress. And his conduct, it is worth noting, is disapproved by the Protestant villagers.
People from this tough and straightforward background, as I've just mentioned, won’t change their beliefs easily; they won't get closer to abandoning their faith than just going through the motions like Naaman did in the house of Rimmon. When Louis XVI, in the wording of the edict, “realized the futility of a century of persecution, and more out of necessity than sympathy,” finally offered a royal act of tolerance, Cassagnas remained Protestant; and to this day, everyone there is still Protestant. There is, however, one family that isn't Protestant, but they aren’t Catholic either. It belongs to a Catholic priest who has rebelled and taken in a schoolmistress. Notably, the Protestant villagers disapprove of his actions.
"It is a bad idea for a man," said one, "to go back from his engagements."
"It’s a bad idea for a guy," said one, "to go back on his commitments."
The villagers whom I saw seemed intelligent after a countrified fashion, and were all plain and dignified in manner. As a Protestant myself, I was well looked upon, and my acquaintance with history gained me further[Pg 243] respect. For we had something not unlike a religious controversy at table, a gendarme and a merchant with whom I dined being both strangers to the place, and Catholics. The young men of the house stood round and supported me; and the whole discussion was tolerantly conducted, and surprised a man brought up among the infinitesimal and contentious differences of Scotland. The merchant, indeed, grew a little warm, and was far less pleased than some others with my historical acquirements. But the gendarme was mighty easy over it all.
The villagers I encountered seemed smart in a rural way and all had a simple yet dignified demeanor. As a Protestant, I was well-regarded, and my knowledge of history earned me even more[Pg 243] respect. During dinner, we had something like a religious debate, as a cop and a merchant, both strangers to the area and Catholics, joined in. The young men of the house rallied around me, and the whole discussion was carried out with tolerance, which surprised me, coming from a place like Scotland where there are countless divisive differences. The merchant, however, got a bit heated and wasn't as impressed with my historical knowledge as some others were. But the cop remained pretty relaxed about the whole thing.
"It's a bad idea for a man to change," said he; and the remark was generally applauded.
"It's a bad idea for a man to change," he said; and the remark was widely praised.
That was not the opinion of the priest and soldier at Our Lady of the Snows. But this is a different race; and perhaps the same great-heartedness that upheld them to resist, now enables them to differ in a kind spirit. For courage respects courage; but where a faith has been trodden out, we may look for a mean and narrow population. The true work of Bruce and Wallace was the union of the nations; not that they should stand apart a while longer, skirmishing upon their borders; but that, when the time came, they might unite with self-respect.
That wasn't the view of the priest and soldier at Our Lady of the Snows. But this is a different group of people, and maybe the same noble spirit that helped them resist now allows them to disagree in a kind way. Courage recognizes courage; but where faith has been crushed, we can expect a small-minded and narrow-minded community. The true legacy of Bruce and Wallace was the unity of the nations; not that they should stay separate a little longer, fighting at their borders; but that, when the moment arrived, they could come together with dignity.
The merchant was much interested in my journey, and thought it dangerous to sleep afield.
The merchant was very interested in my journey and thought it was risky to sleep outside.
"There are the wolves," said he; "and then it is known you are an Englishman. The English have always long purses, and it might very well enter into some one's head to deal you an ill blow some night."
"There are the wolves," he said; "and then it's clear you're an Englishman. The English always have deep pockets, and someone might just decide to give you a rough time one night."
I told him I was not much afraid of such accidents; and at any rate judged it unwise to dwell upon alarms or consider small perils in the arrangement of life. Life itself, I submitted, was a far too risky business as a whole to make each additional particular of danger worth regard. "Something," said I, "might burst in your inside any day of the week, and there would be an end of you, if you were locked in your room with three turns of the key."
I told him I wasn't really scared of those kinds of accidents; and anyway, I thought it was unwise to focus on fears or worry about minor dangers when it came to living life. Life itself, I argued, was already too risky overall to give too much attention to every little threat. "Something," I said, "could happen to you any day of the week, and that could be the end of you, even if you were locked in your room with three locks on the door."
"God," said I, "is everywhere."
"God," I said, "is everywhere."
"Cependant, coucher dehors!" he repeated, and his voice was eloquent of terror.
"But sleep outside!" he repeated, and his voice was full of fear.
He was the only person, in all my voyage, who saw anything hardy in so simple a proceeding; although many considered it superfluous. Only one, on the other hand, professed much delight in the idea; and that was my Plymouth Brother, who cried out, when I told him I sometimes preferred sleeping under the stars to a close and noisy alehouse, "Now I see that you know the Lord!"
He was the only person, during my entire journey, who found anything bold in such a simple act; even though many thought it unnecessary. On the other hand, only one person expressed real joy at the idea, and that was my Plymouth Brother, who exclaimed, when I told him I sometimes preferred sleeping under the stars to a crowded and noisy pub, "Now I see that you know the Lord!"
The merchant asked me for one of my cards as I was leaving, for he said I should be something to talk of in the future, and desired me to make a note of his request and reason; a desire with which I have thus complied.
The merchant asked me for one of my cards as I was leaving, saying that I would be someone worth discussing in the future. He asked me to remember his request and reasoning, which I've now done.
A little after two I struck across the Mimente, and took a rugged path southward up a hillside covered with loose stones and tufts of heather. At the top, as is the habit of the country, the path disappeared; and I left my she-ass munching heather, and went forward alone to seek a road.
A little after two, I crossed the Mimente and took a rough path southward up a hillside filled with loose stones and patches of heather. At the top, as is usual in this area, the path vanished; so I left my donkey grazing on the heather and continued on my own to find a way.
I was now on the separation of two vast watersheds; behind me all the streams were bound for the Garonne and the Western Ocean; before me was the basin of the Rhone. Hence, as from the Lozère, you can see in clear weather the shining of the Gulf of Lyons; and perhaps from here the soldiers of Salomon may have watched for the topsails of Sir Cloudesley Shovel, and the long-promised aid from England. You may take this ridge as lying in the heart of the country of the Camisards; four of the five legions camped all round it and almost within view—Salomon and Joani to the north, Castanet and Roland to the south; and when Julien had finished his famous work, the devastation of the High Cevennes, which lasted all through October and November, 1703, and during which four hundred and sixty villages and hamlets were, with fire and pickaxe, utterly subverted, a man standing on this eminence would have looked[Pg 245] forth upon a silent, smokeless, and dispeopled land. Time and man's activity have now repaired these ruins; Cassagnas is once more roofed and sending up domestic smoke; and in the chestnut gardens, in low and leafy corners, many a prosperous farmer returns, when the day's work is done, to his children and bright hearth. And still it was perhaps the wildest view of all my journey. Peak upon peak, chain upon chain of hills ran surging southward, channeled and sculptured by the winter streams, feathered from head to foot with chestnuts, and here and there breaking out into a coronal of cliffs. The sun, which was still far from setting, sent a drift of misty gold across the hill-tops, but the valleys were already plunged in a profound and quiet shadow.
I was now at the divide between two huge watersheds; behind me, all the rivers were heading towards the Garonne and the Western Ocean; in front of me was the basin of the Rhone. From the Lozère, you can see on clear days the glimmering of the Gulf of Lyons; and perhaps from here, Salomon's soldiers watched for the sails of Sir Cloudesley Shovel and the long-awaited help from England. You can think of this ridge as being in the heart of Camisard territory; four of the five legions camped all around it and almost within sight—Salomon and Joani to the north, Castanet and Roland to the south. When Julien finished his infamous campaign, the destruction of the High Cevennes, which lasted through October and November 1703, during which four hundred sixty villages and hamlets were completely destroyed with fire and tools, a person standing on this peak would have looked out over a silent, smoke-free, and empty land. Time and human effort have since restored these ruins; Cassagnas once again has rooftops and is producing household smoke; and in the chestnut orchards, in small, shaded corners, many a successful farmer returns to his children and warm fire after a day's work. Still, it was perhaps the wildest view of my entire journey. Peaks upon peaks, chains of hills surged southward, carved and shaped by winter streams, covered from top to bottom with chestnuts, and occasionally bursting into cliffs. The sun, which was still high in the sky, cast a misty golden light over the hilltops, but the valleys were already deep in a serene shadow.
A very old shepherd, hobbling on a pair of sticks, and wearing a black cap of liberty, as if in honour of his nearness to the grave, directed me to the road for St. Germain de Calberte. There was something solemn in the isolation of this infirm and ancient creature. Where he dwelt, how he got upon this high ridge, or how he proposed to get down again, were more than I could fancy. Not far off upon my right was the famous Plan de Font Morte, where Poul with his Armenian sabre slashed down the Camisards of Séguier. This, methought, might be some Rip van Winkle of the war, who had lost his comrades, fleeing before Poul, and wandered ever since upon the mountains. It might be news to him that Cavalier had surrendered, or Roland had fallen fighting with his back against an olive. And while I was thus working on my fancy, I heard him hailing in broken tones, and saw him waving me to come back with one of his two sticks. I had already got some way past him; but, leaving Modestine once more, retraced my steps.
An old shepherd, leaning on two sticks and wearing a black liberty cap, as if to acknowledge his closeness to death, pointed me towards the road for St. Germain de Calberte. There was something solemn about this frail and ancient man. I couldn’t figure out where he lived, how he managed to climb this high ridge, or how he planned to get down again. Not far to my right was the famous Plan de Font Morte, where Poul, with his Armenian saber, cut down the Camisards of Séguier. I thought he might be some kind of Rip van Winkle from the war, who had lost his friends while fleeing from Poul and had been wandering the mountains ever since. It might be news to him that Cavalier had surrendered or that Roland had fallen fighting with his back against an olive tree. While I was lost in these thoughts, I heard him calling in a shaky voice, waving for me to come back with one of his two sticks. I had already walked past him, but after leaving Modestine once again, I turned back.
Alas, it was a very commonplace affair. The old gentleman had forgot to ask the pedlar what he sold, and wished to remedy this neglect.
Alas, it was a very ordinary situation. The old man had forgotten to ask the peddler what he was selling and wanted to fix this oversight.
"Nothing?" cried he.
"Nothing?" he cried.
I repeated "Nothing," and made off.
I said "Nothing," and walked away.
It's odd to think of, but perhaps I thus became as inexplicable to the old man as he had been to me.
It's strange to consider, but maybe I became just as mysterious to the old man as he had been to me.
The road lay under chestnuts, and though I saw a hamlet or two below me in the vale, and many lone houses of the chestnut farmers, it was a very solitary march all afternoon; and the evening began early underneath the trees. But I heard the voice of a woman singing some sad, old, endless ballad not far off. It seemed to be about love and a bel amoureux, her handsome sweetheart; and I wished I could have taken up the strain and answered her, as I went on upon my invisible woodland way, weaving, like Pippa in the poem, my own thoughts with hers. What could I have told her? Little enough; and yet all the heart requires. How the world gives and takes away, and brings sweethearts near only to separate them again into distant and strange lands; but to love is the great amulet which makes the world a garden; and "hope, which comes to all," outwears the accidents of life, and reaches with tremulous hand beyond the grave and death. Easy to say: yea, but also, by God's mercy, both easy and grateful to believe!
The road was lined with chestnut trees, and even though I could see a couple of small villages down in the valley and many solitary houses belonging to the chestnut farmers, it felt like a very solitary walk all afternoon; the evening started early under the trees. But I heard a woman’s voice singing a sad, old, never-ending ballad nearby. It seemed to be about love and a bel amoureux, her handsome sweetheart; and I wished I could have joined in and responded to her as I continued on my hidden path through the woods, weaving my own thoughts with hers, like Pippa in the poem. What could I have told her? Not much; yet it would have been everything the heart needs. How the world gives and takes away, bringing lovers close only to separate them into distant and foreign lands; but to love is the great charm that makes the world a garden; and "hope, which comes to all," outlasts life’s ups and downs and reaches with trembling hands beyond the grave and death. Easy to say: yes, but also, thanks to God's mercy, both easy and wonderful to believe!
We struck at last into a wide white high-road carpeted with noiseless dust. The night had come; the moon had been shining for a long while upon the opposite mountain; when on turning a corner my donkey and I issued ourselves into her light. I had emptied out my brandy at Florac, for I could bear the stuff no longer, and replaced it with some generous and scented Volnay; and now I drank to the moon's sacred majesty upon the road. It was but a couple of mouthfuls; yet I became thenceforth unconscious of my limbs, and my blood flowed with luxury. Even Modestine was inspired by this purified nocturnal sunshine, and bestirred her little hoofs as to a livelier measure. The road wound and descended swiftly among masses of chestnuts. Hot dust rose from our feet[Pg 247] and flowed away. Our two shadows—mine deformed with the knapsack, hers comically bestridden by the pack—now lay before us clearly outlined on the road, and now, as we turned a corner, went off into the ghostly distance, and sailed along the mountain like clouds. From time to time a warm wind rustled down the valley, and set all the chestnuts dangling their bunches of foliage and fruit; the ear was filled with whispering music, and the shadows danced in tune. And next moment the breeze had gone by, and in all the valley nothing moved except our travelling feet. On the opposite slope, the monstrous ribs and gullies of the mountain were faintly designed in the moonshine; and high overhead, in some lone house, there burned one lighted window, one square spark of red in the huge field of sad nocturnal colouring.
We finally hit a wide, dusty road that was quiet underfoot. Night had fallen; the moon had been lighting up the opposite mountain for a while, and as we turned a corner, my donkey and I stepped into her glow. I had poured out my brandy back at Florac because I couldn’t stand it anymore, and replaced it with some fine, aromatic Volnay; now I raised a glass to the moon’s sacred majesty on the road. It was just a couple of sips, but from that moment on, I was blissfully unaware of my limbs, and my blood felt luxurious. Even Modestine seemed to catch the spirit of the moonlit night, picking up her little hooves to a livelier rhythm. The road wound down quickly through clusters of chestnuts. Warm dust kicked up from our feet and drifted away. Our two shadows—mine distorted by the knapsack, hers humorously shaped by the pack—were spread out in front of us, then, as we rounded a corner, they disappeared into the ghostly distance, floating along the mountain like clouds. Every now and then, a warm breeze rustled down the valley, making the chestnuts sway with their bunches of leaves and fruit; the air was filled with gentle music, and the shadows danced along. Then just as quickly, the breeze passed, and in the entire valley, nothing stirred except our traveling feet. On the opposite slope, the mountain’s massive ribs and grooves were softly illuminated by the moonlight; high above, in a lonely house, one window glowed with a single light, a small spark of red in the vast expanse of sad, nighttime hues.
At a certain point, as I went downward, turning many acute angles, the moon disappeared behind the hill; and I pursued my way in great darkness, until another turning shot me without preparation into St. Germain de Calberte. The place was asleep and silent, and buried in opaque night. Only from a single open door, some lamplight escaped upon the road to show me that I was come among men's habitations. The two last gossips of the evening, still talking by a garden wall, directed me to the inn. The landlady was getting her chicks to bed; the fire was already out, and had, not without grumbling, to be rekindled; half an hour later, and I must have gone supperless to roost.
At one point, as I was going down and taking several sharp turns, the moon slipped behind the hill, leaving me in total darkness. I continued on until another turn unexpectedly brought me to St. Germain de Calberte. The place was quiet and still, shrouded in thick night. The only light came from one open door, casting a glow on the road and indicating that I was near people’s homes. Two last-night chatterers by a garden wall pointed me toward the inn. The landlady was putting her chicks to bed; the fire was out, and had to be reluctantly lit again; half an hour later, and I would have gone to bed without dinner.
THE LAST DAY
When I awoke (Thursday, 2nd October), and, hearing a great flourishing of cocks and chuckling of contented hens, betook me to the window of the clean and comfortable room where I had slept the night, I looked forth on a sunshiny morning in a deep vale of chestnut gardens. It was still early, and the cockcrows, and the slanting lights, and the long shadows, encouraged me to be out and look round me.
When I woke up (Thursday, October 2nd), and heard the loud crowing of roosters and the happy clucking of hens, I went to the window of the tidy and cozy room where I had spent the night. I looked out at a sunny morning in a deep valley of chestnut trees. It was still early, and the rooster calls, the angled sunlight, and the long shadows made me want to go outside and explore.
St. Germain de Calberte is a great parish nine leagues round about. At the period of the wars, and immediately before the devastation, it was inhabited by two hundred and seventy-five families, of which only nine were Catholic; and it took the curé seventeen September days to go from house to house on horseback for a census. But the place itself, although capital of a canton, is scarce larger than a hamlet. It lies terraced across a steep slope in the midst of mighty chestnuts. The Protestant chapel stands below upon a shoulder; in the midst of the town is the quaint old Catholic church.
St. Germain de Calberte is a large parish spanning about nine leagues. During the wars, just before the destruction, it had two hundred and seventy-five families, only nine of which were Catholic; it took the priest seventeen days in September to visit each household on horseback for a census. However, the place itself, despite being the capital of a canton, is hardly bigger than a small village. It is built on a steep slope amid towering chestnut trees. The Protestant chapel is located below on a small rise, while the charming old Catholic church is situated in the center of town.
It was here that poor Du Chayla, the Christian martyr, kept his library and held a court of missionaries; here he had built his tomb, thinking to lie among a grateful population whom he had redeemed from error; and hither on the morrow of his death they brought the body, pierced with two-and-fifty wounds, to be interred. Clad in his priestly robes, he was laid out in state in the church. The curé, taking his text from Second Samuel, twentieth chapter and twelfth verse, "And Amasa wallowed in his blood in the highway," preached a rousing sermon, and exhorted his brethren to die each at his post, like their unhappy and illustrious superior. In the midst of this eloquence there[Pg 249] came a breeze that Spirit Séguier was near at hand; and behold! all the assembly took to their horses' heels, some east, some west, and the curé himself as far as Alais.
It was here that poor Du Chayla, the Christian martyr, kept his library and held gatherings for missionaries; here he built his tomb, thinking he would rest among a grateful community he had saved from error; and the day after his death, they brought his body, marked with fifty-two wounds, to be buried. Dressed in his priestly robes, he was laid out in the church. The curé, using his sermon from Second Samuel, chapter twenty, verse twelve, "And Amasa lay in his blood on the highway," delivered a passionate sermon, urging his fellow ministers to die at their posts like their unfortunate and noble leader. In the midst of this stirring speech, a breeze blew in, suggesting that Spirit Séguier was nearby; and suddenly, everyone in the assembly fled on horseback, some heading east, others west, and the curé himself as far as Alais.
Strange was the position of this little Catholic metropolis, a thimbleful of Rome, in such a wild and contrary neighbourhood. On the one hand, the legion of Salomon overlooked it from Cassagnas; on the other, it was cut off from assistance by the legion of Roland at Mialet. The curé, Louvrelenil, although he took a panic at the arch-priest's funeral, and so hurriedly decamped to Alais, stood well by his isolated pulpit, and thence uttered fulminations against the crimes of the Protestants. Salomon besieged the village for an hour and a half, but was beaten back. The militiamen, on guard before the curé's door, could be heard, in the black hours, singing Protestant psalms and holding friendly talk with the insurgents. And in the morning, although not a shot had been fired, there would not be a round of powder in their flasks. Where was it gone? All handed over to the Camisards for a consideration. Untrusty guardians for an isolated priest!
Strange was the situation of this little Catholic town, a tiny bit of Rome, surrounded by such a wild and conflicting area. On one side, the legion of Salomon looked down on it from Cassagnas; on the other, it was cut off from help by the legion of Roland at Mialet. The curé, Louvrelenil, despite panicking at the arch-priest's funeral and hastily fleeing to Alais, remained firm at his lone pulpit and from there called down curses on the sins of the Protestants. Salomon besieged the village for an hour and a half but was driven back. The militiamen, stationed outside the curé's door, could be heard, during the darkest hours, singing Protestant hymns and chatting amicably with the insurgents. And in the morning, even though no shots had been fired, not a round of powder was left in their flasks. Where had it gone? All handed over to the Camisards for a price. Unreliable protectors for a solitary priest!
That these continual stirs were once busy in St. Germain de Calberte, the imagination with difficulty receives; all is now so quiet, the pulse of human life now beats so low and still in this hamlet of the mountains. Boys followed me a great way off, like a timid sort of lion-hunters; and people turned round to have a second look, or came out of their houses, as I went by. My passage was the first event, you would have fancied, since the Camisards. There was nothing rude or forward in this observation; it was but a pleased and wondering scrutiny, like that of oxen or the human infant; yet it wearied my spirits, and soon drove me from the street.
That these constant stirrings once thrived in St. Germain de Calberte is hard to imagine; everything is now so calm, the pulse of life here beats so softly and quietly in this mountain village. Boys followed me from quite a distance, like shy lion hunters; and people turned to take a second look or stepped out of their homes as I passed by. You would think my presence was the first significant event here since the Camisards. There was nothing rude or forward about this attention; it was just a curious and fascinated observation, similar to how oxen or a human infant might gaze; yet it tired my spirit and soon drove me from the street.
I took refuge on the terraces, which are here greenly carpeted with sward, and tried to imitate with a pencil the inimitable attitudes of the chestnuts as they bear up their canopy of leaves. Ever and again a little wind went by, and the nuts dropped all around me, with a light and dull[Pg 250] sound, upon the sward. The noise was as of a thin fall of great hailstones; but there went with it a cheerful human sentiment of an approaching harvest and farmers rejoicing in their gains. Looking up, I could see the brown nut peering through the husk, which was already gaping; and between the stems the eye embraced an amphitheatre of hill, sunlit and green with leaves.
I found shelter on the terraces, which are lushly covered in grass, and tried to sketch the unique shapes of the chestnut trees as they supported their leafy canopy. Every now and then, a gentle breeze would pass by, and the nuts would drop all around me, making a soft thud on the grass. The sound was reminiscent of light hailstones falling, but it brought with it a joyful sense of an upcoming harvest and farmers celebrating their bounty. Looking up, I could see the brown nuts peeking through their already gaping husks, and between the tree trunks, my eyes took in a sunlit, green amphitheater of hills.
I have not often enjoyed a place more deeply. I moved in an atmosphere of pleasure, and felt light and quiet and content. But perhaps it was not the place alone that so disposed my spirit. Perhaps some one was thinking of me in another country; or perhaps some thought of my own had come and gone unnoticed, and yet done me good. For some thoughts, which sure would be the most beautiful, vanish before we can rightly scan their features; as though a god, travelling by our green highways, should but ope the door, give one smiling look into the house, and go again for ever. Was it Apollo, or Mercury, or Love with folded wings? Who shall say? But we go the lighter about our business, and feel peace and pleasure in our hearts.
I haven't often really enjoyed a place as much as this one. I felt surrounded by a vibe of happiness and felt light, calm, and satisfied. But maybe it wasn't just the place that lifted my spirits. Maybe someone was thinking of me from far away, or perhaps I had a thought that came and went without me noticing, but still did me good. Some thoughts, which might be the most beautiful, fade away before we can truly appreciate them; like a god passing along our green roads, just opening the door, giving a quick, warm glance inside the house, and then disappearing forever. Was it Apollo, Mercury, or Love with its wings folded? Who knows? But we move through our days with a lighter heart, feeling peace and joy within us.
I dined with a pair of Catholics. They agreed in the condemnation of a young man, a Catholic, who had married a Protestant girl and gone over to the religion of his wife. A Protestant born they could understand and respect: indeed, they seemed to be of the mind of an old Catholic woman, who told me that same day there was no difference between the two sects, save that "wrong was more wrong for the Catholic," who had more light and guidance; but this of a man's desertion filled them with contempt.
I had dinner with a couple of Catholics. They both condemned a young man, also a Catholic, who married a Protestant girl and converted to her religion. They could understand and respect someone who was born Protestant; in fact, they seemed to share the opinion of an elderly Catholic woman who told me that same day that there was no real difference between the two faiths, except that "wrong is worse for the Catholic," who has more understanding and direction. But this man's decision to abandon his faith made them feel nothing but contempt.
"It's a bad idea for a man to change," said one.
"It's a bad idea for a guy to change," said one.
It may have been accidental, but you see how this phrase pursued me; and for myself, I believe it is the current philosophy in these parts. I have some difficulty in imagining a better. It's not only a great flight of confidence for a man to change his creed and go out of his family for heaven's sake; but the odds are—nay, and the[Pg 251] hope is—that, with all this great transition in the eyes of man, he has not changed himself a hairbreadth to the eyes of God. Honour to those who do so, for the wrench is sore. But it argues something narrow, whether of strength or weakness, whether of the prophet or the fool, in those who can take a sufficient interest in such infinitesimal and human operations, or who can quit a friendship for a doubtful process of the mind. And I think I should not leave my old creed for another, changing only words for other words; but by some brave reading, embrace it in spirit and truth, and find wrong as wrong for me as for the best of other communions.
It might have been by chance, but you can see how this phrase stuck with me. Personally, I think it's the current philosophy around here. I find it hard to imagine a better one. It's not just a huge leap of confidence for someone to change their beliefs and step away from their family for the sake of a higher cause; but the odds are—indeed, there is hope—that despite all this significant change in the eyes of people, he hasn't changed at all in the eyes of God. Kudos to those who do it; the struggle is real. But it suggests something limited, whether it's strong or weak, whether it's the mark of a prophet or a fool, in those who can take enough interest in such tiny, human matters, or who can abandon a friendship for an uncertain way of thinking. I believe I shouldn't swap my old beliefs for new ones that only change the words; instead, I should embrace it in spirit and truth through some courageous insight, recognizing wrong as wrong for me just as much as for the best of other beliefs.
The phylloxera was in the neighbourhood; and instead of wine we drank at dinner a more economical juice of the grape—La Parisienne, they call it. It is made by putting the fruit whole into a cask with water; one by one the berries ferment and burst; what is drunk during the day is supplied at night in water; so, with ever another pitcher from the well, and ever another grape exploding and giving out its strength, one cask of Parisienne may last a family till spring. It is, as the reader will anticipate, a feeble beverage, but very pleasant to the taste.
The phylloxera was nearby, so instead of wine, we drank a cheaper grape juice at dinner—it's called La Parisienne. They make it by putting whole grapes into a barrel with water; one by one, the berries ferment and burst. What we drink during the day is topped off at night with more water, so with another pitcher from the well and another grape bursting to release its flavor, one cask of Parisienne can last a family until spring. As you might guess, it’s a weak drink, but it’s very pleasant to taste.
What with dinner and coffee, it was long past three before I left St. Germain de Calberte. I went down beside the Gardon of Mialet, a great glaring watercourse devoid of water, and through St. Etienne de Vallée Française, or Val Francesque, as they used to call it; and towards evening began to ascend the hill of St. Pierre. It was a long and steep ascent. Behind me an empty carriage returning to St. Jean du Gard kept hard upon my tracks, and near the summit overtook me. The driver, like the rest of the world, was sure I was a pedlar; but, unlike others, he was sure of what I had to sell. He had noticed the blue wool which hung out of my pack at either end; and from this he had decided, beyond my power to alter his decision, that I dealt in blue wool collars, such as decorate the neck of the French draught-horse.[Pg 252]
After dinner and coffee, it was well past three by the time I left St. Germain de Calberte. I walked down next to the Gardon of Mialet, a large, glaring waterway that was entirely dry, and through St. Etienne de Vallée Française, or Val Francesque, as it used to be called; and in the evening, I started climbing the hill of St. Pierre. It was a long and steep climb. Behind me, an empty carriage heading back to St. Jean du Gard stayed closely behind, and near the top, it caught up to me. The driver, like everyone else, thought I was a peddler; but unlike most, he was certain of what I was selling. He had seen the blue wool hanging out of my pack at both ends; from that, he had convinced himself, beyond my ability to change his mind, that I was selling blue wool collars like those that adorn the neck of the French draught-horse.[Pg 252]
I had hurried to the topmost powers of Modestine, for I dearly desired to see the view upon the other side before the day had faded. But it was night when I reached the summit; the moon was riding high and clear; and only a few grey streaks of twilight lingered in the west. A yawning valley, gulfed in blackness, lay like a hole in created nature at my feet; but the outline of the hills was sharp against the sky. There was Mount Aigoal, the stronghold of Castanet. And Castanet, not only as an active undertaking leader, deserves some mention among Camisards; for there is a spray of rose among his laurel; and he showed how, even in a public tragedy, love will have its way. In the high tide of war he married, in his mountain citadel, a young and pretty lass called Mariette. There were great rejoicings; and the bridegroom released five-and-twenty prisoners in honour of the glad event. Seven months afterwards, Mariette, the Princess of the Cevennes, as they called her in derision, fell into the hands of the authorities, where it was like to have gone hard with her. But Castanet was a man of execution, and loved his wife. He fell on Valleraugue, and got a lady there for a hostage; and for the first and last time in that war there was an exchange of prisoners. Their daughter, pledge of some starry night upon Mount Aigoal, has left descendants to this day.
I hurried to the highest point of Modestine because I really wanted to see the view on the other side before the day faded away. But it was already night by the time I reached the summit; the moon was shining brightly and clearly, and only a few gray streaks of twilight remained in the west. A deep valley, swallowed in darkness, lay like a hole in nature at my feet; yet the outline of the hills stood sharp against the sky. There was Mount Aigoal, the stronghold of Castanet. And Castanet, not just as a proactive leader, deserves a mention among the Camisards; for there’s a touch of romance amongst his triumphs, showing how love will find a way even in public tragedy. In the height of war, he married a young and pretty girl named Mariette in his mountain fortress. There were great celebrations, and the groom freed twenty-five prisoners to honor the joyful occasion. Seven months later, Mariette, mocked as the Princess of the Cevennes, fell into the hands of the authorities, and things looked grim for her. But Castanet was action-oriented and loved his wife. He attacked Valleraugue and took a lady there as a hostage, and for the first and only time in that war, there was an exchange of prisoners. Their daughter, a symbol of a starry night on Mount Aigoal, has descendants to this day.
Modestine and I—it was our last meal together—had a snack upon the top of St. Pierre, I on a heap of stones, she standing by me in the moonlight and decorously eating bread out of my hand. The poor brute would eat more heartily in this manner; for she had a sort of affection for me, which I was soon to betray.
Modestine and I—it was our last meal together—had a snack on top of St. Pierre, me sitting on a pile of stones and her standing next to me in the moonlight, politely eating bread from my hand. The poor creature would eat more eagerly this way because she felt a kind of affection for me, which I was about to betray.
It was a long descent upon St. Jean du Gard, and we met no one but a carter, visible afar off by the glint of the moon on his extinguished lantern.
It was a long descent into St. Jean du Gard, and we didn't encounter anyone except for a cart driver, visible from a distance by the shine of the moon on his turned-off lantern.
Before ten o'clock we had got in and were at supper; fifteen miles and a stiff hill in little beyond six hours!
Before ten o'clock, we had arrived and were having dinner; fifteen miles and a steep hill in just over six hours!
FAREWELL, MODESTINE!
On examination, on the morning of October 3rd, Modestine was pronounced unfit for travel. She would need at least two days' repose, according to the ostler; but I was now eager to reach Alais for my letters; and, being in a civilized country of stage-coaches, I determined to sell my lady friend and be off by the diligence that afternoon. Our yesterday's march, with the testimony of the driver who had pursued us up the long hill of St. Pierre, spread a favourable notion of my donkey's capabilities. Intending purchasers were aware of an unrivaled opportunity. Before ten I had an offer of twenty-five francs; and before noon, after a desperate engagement, I sold her, saddle and all, for five-and-thirty. The pecuniary gain is not obvious, but I had bought freedom into the bargain.
On inspection, on the morning of October 3rd, Modestine was deemed unfit for travel. According to the stableman, she would need at least two days' rest; however, I was eager to get to Alais for my letters, and since I was in a civilized area with stagecoaches, I decided to sell my lady friend and catch the coach that afternoon. Our journey yesterday, along with the testimony of the driver who had followed us up the long hill of St. Pierre, painted a positive picture of my donkey's abilities. Potential buyers realized it was a unique opportunity. Before 10 AM, I received an offer of twenty-five francs; and by noon, after some intense negotiations, I sold her, saddle and all, for thirty-five francs. The monetary gain isn’t immediately clear, but I gained my freedom in the deal.
St. Jean du Gard is a large place, and largely Protestant. The maire, a Protestant, asked me to help him in a small matter which is itself characteristic of the country. The young women of the Cevennes profit by the common religion and the difference of the language to go largely as governesses into England; and here was one, a native of Mialet, struggling with English circulars from two different agencies in London. I gave what help I could; and volunteered some advice, which struck me as being excellent.
St. Jean du Gard is a big town, and mostly Protestant. The mayor, who is Protestant, asked me for help with a small issue that reflects the local culture. The young women from the Cevennes take advantage of their shared religion and the language barrier to work as governesses in England; and here was one, a local from Mialet, trying to deal with English brochures from two different agencies in London. I offered the help I could and suggested some advice that seemed really good to me.
One thing more I note. The phylloxera has ravaged the vineyards in this neighbourhood; and in the early morning, under some chestnuts by the river, I found a party of men working with a cider-press. I could not at first make out what they were after, and asked one fellow to explain.[Pg 254]
One more thing I noticed. The phylloxera has devastated the vineyards in this area; and in the early morning, under some chestnut trees by the river, I came across a group of men working with a cider press. At first, I couldn't figure out what they were doing, so I asked one guy to explain.[Pg 254]
"Making cider," he said. "Oui, c'est comme ça. Comme dans le nord!"
"Making cider," he said. "Yes, that's how it is. Just like up north!"
There was a ring of sarcasm in his voice: the country was going to the devil.
There was a hint of sarcasm in his voice: the country was falling apart.
It was not until I was fairly seated by the driver, and rattling through a rocky valley with dwarf olives, that I became aware of my bereavement. I had lost Modestine. Up to that moment I had thought I hated her; but now she was gone,
It wasn't until I was comfortably seated by the driver, bumping along a rocky valley filled with tiny olive trees, that I realized what I had lost. I had lost Modestine. Until then, I had thought I hated her; but now that she was gone,
The difference matters to me!
For twelve days we had been fast companions; we had travelled upwards of a hundred and twenty miles, crossed several respectable ridges, and jogged along with our six legs by many a rocky and many a boggy by-road. After the first day, although sometimes I was hurt and distant in manner, I still kept my patience; and as for her, poor soul! she had come to regard me as a god. She loved to eat out of my hand. She was patient, elegant in form, the colour of an ideal mouse, and inimitably small. Her faults were those of her race and sex; her virtues were her own. Farewell, and if for ever—
For twelve days, we had been close companions; we had traveled over a hundred and twenty miles, crossed several respectable ridges, and made our way along many rocky and boggy backroads. After the first day, even though I sometimes felt hurt and distant, I still kept my cool; and as for her, poor thing! she had come to see me as a god. She loved eating out of my hand. She was patient, gracefully shaped, the color of a perfect mouse, and uniquely small. Her flaws were those of her kind and gender; her strengths were all her own. Goodbye, and if it’s forever—
Father Adam wept when he sold her to me; after I had sold her in my turn, I was tempted to follow his example; and being alone with a stage-driver and four or five agreeable young men, I did not hesitate to yield to my emotion.
Father Adam cried when he sold her to me; after I sold her myself, I was tempted to follow his example; and being alone with a stage-driver and four or five pleasant young men, I didn't hesitate to give in to my feelings.
A MOUNTAIN TOWN IN FRANCE
A FRAGMENT
1879
Le Monastier is the chief place of a hilly canton in Haute Loire, the ancient Velay. As the name betokens, the town is of monastic origin; and it still contains a towered bulk of monastery and a church of some architectural pretensions, the seat of an archpriest and several vicars. It stands on the side of a hill above the river Gazeille, about fifteen miles from Le Puy, up a steep road where the wolves sometimes pursue the diligence in winter. The road, which is bound for Vivarais, passes through the town from end to end in a single narrow street; there you may see the fountain where women fill their pitchers; there also some old houses with carved doors and pediments and ornamental work in iron. For Monastier, like Maybole in Ayrshire, was a sort of country capital, where the local aristocracy had their town mansions for the winter; and there is a certain baron still alive and, I am told, extremely penitent, who found means to ruin himself by high living in this village on the hills. He certainly has claims to be considered the most remarkable spendthrift on record. How he set about it, in a place where there are no luxuries for sale, and where the board at the best inn comes to little more than a shilling a day, is a problem for the wise. His son, ruined as the family was, went as far as Paris to sow his wild oats; and so the cases of father and son mark an epoch in the[Pg 258] history of centralization in France. Not until the latter had got into the train was the work of Richelieu complete.
Le Monastier is the main town in a hilly area of Haute Loire, known as the ancient Velay. As the name suggests, the town has monastic roots, and it still features a large monastery and an architecturally significant church, which serves as the seat for an archpriest and several vicars. It’s located on a hillside above the river Gazeille, about fifteen miles from Le Puy, accessible via a steep road where wolves sometimes chase coaches in winter. The road, heading towards Vivarais, runs through the town along a single narrow street; you can see the fountain where women fill their pitchers, as well as some old houses with carved doors, pediments, and decorative iron work. Monastier, like Maybole in Ayrshire, used to be a sort of country capital, where local nobles had their townhouses for winter. There’s still a baron who’s reportedly very remorseful, and who managed to squander his wealth by living extravagantly in this village in the hills. He certainly has earned the title of the most notable spendthrift on record. How he managed this in a place with no luxury goods for sale, where the best inn charges barely more than a shilling a day, is a puzzle for the wise. His son, despite their family's downfall, traveled as far as Paris to indulge his wild side; thus, both father and son represent a significant moment in the[Pg 258] history of centralization in France. Only after the son joined the train was Richelieu's work completed.
It is a people of lace-makers. The women sit in the streets by groups of five or six; and the noise of the bobbins is audible from one group to another. Now and then you will hear one woman clattering off prayers for the edification of the others at their work. They wear gaudy shawls, white caps with a gay ribbon about the head, and sometimes a black felt brigand hat above the cap; and so they give the street colour and brightness and a foreign air. A while ago, when England largely supplied herself from this district with the lace called torchon, it was not unusual to earn five francs a day; and five francs in Monastier is worth a pound in London. Now, from a change in the market, it takes a clever and industrious workwoman to earn from three to four in the week, or less than an eighth of what she made easily a few years ago. The tide of prosperity came and went, as with our northern pitmen, and left nobody the richer. The women bravely squandered their gains, kept the men in idleness, and gave themselves up, as I was told, to sweethearting and a merry life. From week's end to week's end it was one continuous gala in Monastier; people spent the day in the wine-shops, and the drum or the bagpipes led on the bourrées up to ten at night. Now these dancing days are over. "Il n'y a plus de jeunesse," said Victor the garçon. I hear of no great advance in what are thought the essentials of morality; but the bourrée, with its rambling, sweet, interminable music, and alert and rustic figures, has fallen into disuse, and is mostly remembered as a custom of the past. Only on the occasion of the fair shall you hear a drum discreetly rattling in a wine-shop or perhaps one of the company singing the measure while the others dance. I am sorry at the change, and marvel once more at the complicated scheme of things upon this earth, and how a turn of fashion in England can silence so much mountain[Pg 259] merriment in France. The lace-makers themselves have not entirely forgiven our countrywomen; and I think they take a special pleasure in the legend of the northern quarter of the town, called L'Anglade, because there the English free-lances were arrested and driven back by the potency of a little Virgin Mary on the wall.
It’s a community of lace-makers. The women sit in the streets in groups of five or six, and you can hear the sound of the bobbins traveling from one group to another. Occasionally, one woman will loudly recite prayers for the benefit of the others as they work. They wear bright shawls and white caps with colorful ribbons around their heads, and sometimes a black felt hat on top of the cap; this gives the street a vibrant and exotic look. Not long ago, when England heavily relied on this area for a type of lace called torchon, it wasn’t uncommon for workers to earn five francs a day; five francs in Monastier was worth a pound in London. Now, due to changes in the market, it takes a skilled and hardworking woman to earn three to four francs a week, which is less than an eighth of what she could easily make a few years ago. The wave of prosperity came and went, much like for our northern coal miners, and left no one better off. The women bravely spent their earnings, kept the men idle, and reportedly engaged in dating and enjoying life. From week to week, it was one continuous celebration in Monastier; people spent their days in the wine shops, and drums or bagpipes led the bourrées until ten at night. Now those dance-filled days are gone. "Il n'y a plus de jeunesse," said Victor the waiter. I don’t hear of much progress regarding what are considered fundamental morals; however, the bourrée, with its wandering, sweet, endless music, and lively, rustic dancers, has fallen out of fashion and is mainly remembered as a thing of the past. Only during the fair will you hear a drum quietly beating in a wine shop, or perhaps someone from the group singing while the others dance. I feel sad about the change and marvel once again at the complex nature of things on this earth, and how a shift in fashion in England can mute so much joy in the French mountains. The lace-makers themselves haven’t entirely forgiven our women; and I think they take a particular delight in the story of the northern part of the town, called L'Anglade, because it’s where the English mercenaries were stopped and turned away by the power of a small Virgin Mary painted on the wall.
From time to time a market is held, and the town has a season of revival; cattle and pigs are stabled in the streets; and pickpockets have been known to come all the way from Lyons for the occasion. Every Sunday the country folk throng in with daylight to buy apples, to attend mass, and to visit one of the wine-shops, of which there are no fewer than fifty in this little town. Sunday wear for the men is a green tail-coat of some coarse sort of drugget, and usually a complete suit to match. I have never set eyes on such degrading raiment. Here it clings, there bulges; and the human body, with its agreeable and lively lines, is turned into a mockery and laughing-stock. Another piece of Sunday business with the peasants is to take their ailments to the chemist for advice. It is as much a matter for Sunday as church-going. I have seen a woman who had been unable to speak since the Monday before, wheezing, catching her breath, endlessly and painfully coughing; and yet she had waited upwards of a hundred hours before coming to seek help, and had the week been twice as long, she would have waited still. There was a canonical day for consultation; such was the ancestral habit, to which a respectable lady must study to conform.
From time to time, they hold a market, and the town comes alive; cattle and pigs take over the streets, and pickpockets have been known to travel all the way from Lyons for the event. Every Sunday, the locals flock in at daybreak to buy apples, attend mass, and hang out in one of the many wine shops—there are at least fifty in this small town. The men’s Sunday attire typically consists of a green tailcoat made from a coarse fabric, often paired with a matching suit. I’ve never seen such degrading clothing. It clings awkwardly in some places and bulges in others; the human body, with its appealing and lively shape, becomes a joke and a laughingstock. Another Sunday ritual for the peasants is to bring their health issues to the chemist for advice. It’s as important as going to church. I’ve witnessed a woman who hadn’t spoken since the previous Monday, wheezing, struggling to breathe, and coughing endlessly and painfully; yet, she waited over a hundred hours before finally seeking help, and if the week had been twice as long, she would have waited even longer. There was an acceptable day for consultations; that was the traditional practice, which a respectable lady felt she had to follow.
Two conveyances go daily to Le Puy, but they rival each other in polite concessions rather than in speed. Each will wait an hour or two hours cheerfully while an old lady does her marketing or a gentleman finishes the papers in a café. The Courrier(such is the name of one) should leave Le Puy by two in the afternoon on the return voyage, and arrive at Monastier in good time for a six o'clock dinner. But the driver dares not[Pg 260] disoblige his customers. He will postpone his departure again and again, hour after hour; and I have known the sun to go down on his delay. These purely personal favours, this consideration of men's fancies, rather than the hands of a mechanical clock, as marking the advance of the abstraction, time, makes a more humorous business of stage-coaching than we are used to see it.
Two carriages go to Le Puy every day, but they compete with each other in polite gestures instead of speed. Each will happily wait for an hour or two while an old lady does her shopping or a gentleman finishes his papers at a café. The Courrier (that's one of the carriages) is supposed to leave Le Puy around two in the afternoon on the way back and arrive at Monastier in time for a six o'clock dinner. But the driver doesn't want to upset his customers. He will keep delaying his departure, hour after hour; I've even seen the sun set while he was still waiting. These personal favors and the consideration of people's whims, rather than the ticking of a mechanical clock, make stage-coaching a more amusing experience than we're used to seeing.
As far as the eye can reach, one swelling line of hill-top rises and falls behind another; and if you climb an eminence, it is only to see new and farther ranges behind these. Many little rivers run from all sides in cliffy valleys; and one of them, a few miles from Monastier, bears the great name of Loire. The mean level of the country is a little more than three thousand feet above the sea, which makes the atmosphere proportionally brisk and wholesome. There is little timber except pines, and the greater part of the country lies in moorland pasture. The country is wild and tumbled rather than commanding; an upland rather than a mountain district; and the most striking as well as the most agreeable scenery lies low beside the rivers. There, indeed, you will find many corners that take the fancy; such as made the English noble choose his grave by a Swiss streamlet, where Nature is at her freshest, and looks as young as on the seventh morning. Such a place is the course of the Gazeille, where it waters the common of Monastier and thence downward till it joins the Loire; a place to hear birds singing; a place for lovers to frequent. The name of the river was perhaps suggested by the sound of its passage over the stones; for it is a great warbler, and at night, after I was in bed in Monastier, I could hear it go singing down the valley till I fell asleep.
As far as you can see, one rolling line of hills rises and falls behind another; and if you climb to a higher spot, you’ll only discover more distant ranges beyond those. Many small rivers flow from all sides into rocky valleys; one of them, just a few miles from Monastier, is called the Loire. The average elevation of the area is just over three thousand feet above sea level, which makes the air feel fresh and healthy. There’s not much timber except for pines, and most of the land is covered with moorland pasture. The landscape is wild and rugged rather than grand; it’s more of an upland area than a mountainous one, and the most striking and enjoyable scenery is found low alongside the rivers. There, you’ll find many charming spots that appeal to the imagination, similar to what made the English nobleman choose a Swiss streamlet for his resting place, where nature feels its freshest and appears as youthful as it did on the seventh morning. One such place is along the Gazeille, where it flows through the common land of Monastier and then joins the Loire; a spot where you can hear birds singing; a favorite hangout for lovers. The river's name might have been inspired by the sound it makes as it flows over the rocks; it’s quite a melodious waterway, and at night, after I’d settled in bed in Monastier, I could hear it singing down the valley until I drifted off to sleep.
On the whole, this is a Scottish landscape, although not so noble as the best in Scotland; and by an odd coincidence the population is, in its way, as Scottish as the country. They have abrupt, uncouth, Fifeshire manners, and accost you, as if you were trespassing,[Pg 261] with an "Où'st-ce que vous allez?" only translatable into the Lowland "Whau'r ye gaun?" They keep the Scottish Sabbath. There is no labour done on that day but to drive in and out the various pigs and sheep and cattle that make so pleasant a tinkling in the meadows. The lace-makers have disappeared from the street. Not to attend mass would involve social degradation; and you may find people reading Sunday books, in particular a sort of Catholic Monthly Visitor on the doings of Our Lady of Lourdes. I remember one Sunday, when I was walking in the country, that I fell on a hamlet and found all the inhabitants, from the patriarch to the baby, gathered in the shadow of a gable at prayer. One strapping lass stood with her back to the wall and did the solo part, the rest chiming in devoutly. Not far off, a lad lay flat on his face asleep among some straw, to represent the worldly element.
Overall, this is a Scottish landscape, though not as grand as the finest in Scotland; and coincidentally, the people are just as Scottish as the land. They have blunt, rough Fifeshire manners and approach you as if you were intruding, asking "Où'st-ce que vous allez?" which translates to the Lowland "Whau'r ye gaun?" They observe the Scottish Sabbath. No work is done on that day besides herding the various pigs, sheep, and cattle that create a pleasant sound in the meadows. The lace-makers have vanished from the street. Skipping mass would lead to social shame; you might see people reading Sunday books, especially a Catholic Monthly Visitor about the activities of Our Lady of Lourdes. I remember one Sunday when I was walking in the countryside and stumbled upon a village where all the residents, from the eldest to the youngest, were gathered in the shade of a wall in prayer. One strong girl stood with her back against the wall singing the solo part while the others joined in reverently. Not far away, a boy lay face down asleep in some straw, representing the worldly element.[Pg 261]
Again, this people is eager to proselytize; and the postmaster's daughter used to argue with me by the half-hour about my heresy, until she grew quite flushed. I have heard the reverse process going on between a Scots-woman and a French girl; and the arguments in the two cases were identical. Each apostle based her claim on the superior virtue and attainments of her clergy, and clinched the business with a threat of hell-fire. "Pas bong prêtres ici," said the Presbyterian, "bong prêtres en Écosse." And the postmaster's daughter, taking up the same weapon, plied me, so to speak, with the butt of it instead of the bayonet. We are a hopeful race, it seems, and easily persuaded for our good. One cheerful circumstance I note in these guerrilla missions, that each side relies on hell, and Protestant and Catholic alike address themselves to a supposed misgiving in their adversary's heart. And I call it cheerful, for faith is a more supporting quality than imagination.
Once again, these people are eager to spread their beliefs; the postmaster's daughter used to argue with me for nearly half an hour about my heresy, until she got really worked up. I’ve witnessed a similar exchange between a Scottish woman and a French girl, and the arguments were the same in both cases. Each believer claimed that their clergy was superior in virtue and knowledge, and they both wrapped things up with a threat of damnation. "There are no good priests here," said the Presbyterian, "there are good priests in Scotland." The postmaster's daughter used the same tactic, hitting me with it, so to speak, more like a blunt object than a sharp one. We seem to be an optimistic people, easily swayed for our own good. One positive thing I notice in these back-and-forth debates is that both sides rely on the concept of hell, with Protestants and Catholics alike trying to exploit a perceived doubt in their opponent’s heart. I find this encouraging because faith is a stronger force than imagination.
Here, as in Scotland, many peasant families boast a son in holy orders. And here also, the young men have a[Pg 262] tendency to emigrate. It is certainly not poverty that drives them to the great cities or across the seas, for many peasant families, I was told, have a fortune of at least 40,000 francs. The lads go forth pricked with the spirit of adventure and the desire to rise in life, and leave their homespun elders grumbling and wondering over the event. Once, at a village called Laussonne, I met one of these disappointed parents: a drake who had fathered a wild swan and seen it take wing and disappear. The wild swan in question was now an apothecary in Brazil. He had flown by way of Bordeaux, and first landed in America, bare-headed and barefoot, and with a single halfpenny in his pocket. And now he was an apothecary! Such a wonderful thing is an adventurous life! I thought he might as well have stayed at home; but you never can tell wherein a man's life consists, nor in what he sets his pleasure: one to drink, another to marry, a third to write scurrilous articles and be repeatedly caned in public, and now this fourth, perhaps, to be an apothecary in Brazil. As for his old father, he could conceive no reason for the lad's behaviour. "I had always bread for him," he said; "he ran away to annoy me. He loved to annoy me. He had no gratitude." But at heart he was swelling with pride over his travelled offspring, and he produced a letter out of his pocket, where, as he said, it was rotting, a mere lump of paper rags, and waved it gloriously in the air. "This comes from America," he cried, "six thousand leagues away!" And the wine-shop audience looked upon it with a certain thrill.
Here, just like in Scotland, many peasant families have a son in the clergy. And here too, the young men tend to head off to new places. It's definitely not poverty that pushes them to the big cities or overseas since many peasant families, I was told, have at least 40,000 francs in savings. These young men set out driven by a sense of adventure and the desire to improve their lives, leaving their older relatives grumbling in confusion over their departures. Once, in a village called Laussonne, I met one of these disappointed parents: a drake who had raised a wild swan only to see it fly off and vanish. This wild swan had become an apothecary in Brazil. He had made his way via Bordeaux, first landing in America, bare-headed and barefoot, with only a single halfpenny to his name. And now he was an apothecary! What an amazing thing an adventurous life can be! I thought he could have just stayed at home, but you never know what makes a person's life meaningful or what brings them joy: some drink, some marry, others write scandalous articles and get publicly whipped, and then there's this one, perhaps, who became an apothecary in Brazil. As for his father, he couldn’t understand why his son acted this way. "I always had food for him," he said, "he ran away just to annoy me. He loved to annoy me. He had no gratitude." Yet deep down, he was filled with pride about his son’s travels, and he pulled out a letter from his pocket, which, as he put it, was basically just a tattered piece of paper, and waved it triumphantly in the air. "This is from America," he exclaimed, "six thousand leagues away!" And the crowd in the wine shop looked at it with a certain excitement.
I soon became a popular figure, and was known for miles in the country. Où'st-ce que vous allez? was changed for me into Quoi, vous rentrez au Monastier ce soir? and in the town itself every urchin seemed to know my name, although no living creature could pronounce it. There was one particular group of lace-makers who brought out a chair for me whenever I went by, and detained me from my walk to gossip. They were filled with curiosity about[Pg 263] England, its language, its religion, the dress of the women, and were never weary of seeing the Queen's head on English postage-stamps, or seeking for French words in English Journals. The language, in particular, filled them with surprise.
I quickly became a well-known figure and was recognized for miles around. Où'st-ce que vous allez? was transformed for me into Quoi, vous rentrez au Monastier ce soir?, and in town, every kid seemed to know my name, even though no one could actually pronounce it. There was this one group of lace-makers who would pull out a chair for me whenever I passed by and kept me from going on my walk to chat. They were really curious about [Pg 263] England, its language, its religion, the women’s fashion, and they could never get enough of seeing the Queen's face on English postage stamps or looking for French words in English journals. The language, in particular, amazed them.
"Do they speak patois in England?" I was once asked; and when I told them not, "Ah, then, French?" said they.
"Do they speak patois in England?" someone once asked me; and when I said no, they replied, "Oh, then, French?"
"No, no," I said, "not French."
"No, no," I said, "not French."
"Then," they concluded, "they speak patois."
"Then," they concluded, "they speak patois."
You must obviously either speak French or patois. Talk of the force of logic—here it was in all its weakness. I gave up the point, but proceeding to give illustrations of ray native jargon, I was met with a new mortification. Of all patois they declared that mine was the most preposterous and the most jocose in sound. At each new word there was a new explosion of laughter, and some of the younger ones were glad to rise from their chairs and stamp about the street in ecstasy; and I looked on upon their mirth in a faint and slightly disagreeable bewilderment. "Bread," which sounds a commonplace, plain-sailing monosyllable in England, was the word that most delighted these good ladies of Monastier; it seemed to them frolicsome and racy, like a page of Pickwick; and they all got it carefully by heart, as a stand-by, I presume, for winter evenings. I have tried it since then with every sort of accent and inflection, but I seem to lack the sense of humour.
You obviously have to either speak French or patois. Talk about the power of logic—this was its total weakness. I gave up trying to make my point, but when I started giving examples of my local slang, I faced another embarrassment. They all claimed that my patois was the most ridiculous and the funniest-sounding. With each new word I shared, there was another round of laughter, and some of the younger ones happily got up from their chairs and danced around the street in excitement; I watched their joy in a dazed and slightly uncomfortable confusion. "Bread," which sounds like a simple, straightforward word in England, was the one that entertained these lovely ladies of Monastier the most; to them, it felt playful and lively, like a scene from Pickwick. They all memorized it carefully, probably as a go-to for winter nights. I've since tried saying it in every accent and tone I can think of, but I just don’t seem to have the sense of humor.
They were of all ages: children at their first web of lace, a stripling girl with a bashful but encouraging play of eyes, solid married women, and grandmothers, some on the top of their age and some falling towards decrepitude. One and all were pleasant and natural, ready to laugh and ready with a certain quiet solemnity when that was called for by the subject of our talk. Life, since the fall in wages, had begun to appear to them with a more serious air. The stripling girl would sometimes laugh at me in a provo[Pg 264]cative and not unadmiring manner, if I judge aright; and one of the grandmothers, who was my great friend of the party, gave me many a sharp word of judgment on my sketches, my heresy, or even my arguments, and gave them with a wry mouth and a humorous twinkle in her eye that were eminently Scottish. But the rest used me with a certain reverence, as something come from afar and not entirely human. Nothing would put them at their ease but the irresistible gaiety of my native tongue. Between the old lady and myself I think there was a real attachment. She was never weary of sitting to me for her portrait, in her best cap and brigand hat, and with all her wrinkles tidily composed, and though she never failed to repudiate the result, she would always insist upon another trial. It was as good as a play to see her sitting in judgment over the last. "No, no," she would say, "that is not it. I am old, to be sure, but I am better-looking than that. We must try again." When I was about to leave she bade me good-bye for this life in a somewhat touching manner. We should not meet again, she said; it was a long farewell, and she was sorry. But life is so full of crooks, old lady, that who knows? I have said good-bye to people for greater distances and times, and, please God, I mean to see them yet again.
They were of all ages: kids working on their first lace project, a young girl with a shy yet encouraging sparkle in her eyes, settled married women, and grandmothers, some at the height of old age and some starting to show signs of decline. Each one was pleasant and genuine, ready to laugh and also able to maintain a quiet seriousness when the topic called for it. Since wages had dropped, life had started to seem more serious to them. The young girl would sometimes tease me in a playful and somewhat admiring way, if I'm interpreting it right; and one of the grandmothers, who was a close friend in our group, often critiqued my sketches, my unconventional ideas, or even my arguments, always with a slightly sarcastic expression and a playful twinkle in her eye that felt distinctly Scottish. The others treated me with a certain reverence, as if I were something special and not entirely of this world. Only the irresistible cheerfulness of my native language could put them at ease. Between the old lady and me, I believe there was a genuine bond. She never tired of sitting for her portrait, wearing her best cap and brigand hat, with her wrinkles neatly arranged, and even though she always rejected the outcome, she would insist on trying again. It was as entertaining as a play to watch her judge the latest attempt. “No, no,” she would say, “that’s not it. I may be old, but I look better than that. We must try again.” When I was about to leave, she said goodbye in a rather touching way. She mentioned that we wouldn’t meet again; it felt like a long farewell, and she was sorry. But life is so full of twists, old lady, who knows? I’ve said goodbye to people for longer distances and times, and God willing, I plan to see them again.
One thing was notable about these women, from the youngest to the oldest, and with hardly an exception. In spite of their piety, they could twang off an oath with Sir Toby Belch in person. There was nothing so high or so low, in heaven or earth or in the human body, but a woman of this neighbourhood would whip out the name of it, fair and square, by way of conversational adornment. My landlady, who was pretty and young, dressed like a lady and avoided patois like a weakness, commonly addressed her child in the language of a drunken bully. And of all the swearers that I ever heard, commend me to an old lady in Gondet, a village of the Loire. I was making a sketch, and her curse was not yet ended when I had[Pg 265] finished it and took my departure. It is true she had a right to be angry; for here was her son, a hulking fellow, visibly the worse for drink before the day was well begun. But it was strange to hear her unwearying flow of oaths and obscenities, endless like a river, and now and then rising to a passionate shrillness, in the clear and silent air of the morning. In city slums, the thing might have passed unnoticed; but in a country valley, and from a plain and honest countrywoman, this beastliness of speech surprised the ear.
One thing stood out about these women, from the youngest to the oldest, with hardly any exceptions. Despite their devotion, they could swear just like Sir Toby Belch himself. There was nothing too sacred or too mundane, in heaven or on earth or in the human body, that a woman from this area wouldn't mention, straightforwardly, as part of her conversation. My landlady, who was pretty and young, dressed elegantly and steered clear of slang like it was a flaw, would often speak to her child in the language of a drunkard. And of all the swearers I’ve ever heard, I’ll remember an old lady in Gondet, a village by the Loire. I was sketching, and her string of curses was still going strong by the time I had[Pg 265] finished and left. It was true she had a reason to be angry; her son was a big guy, clearly drunk before the day had even started. But it was bizarre to hear her relentless flow of curses and filthy language, endless like a river, sometimes rising to a passionate shriek, in the clear and quiet morning air. In city slums, it might have gone unnoticed; but in a country valley, coming from a plain and honest countrywoman, this nasty language was jarring to hear.
The Conductor, as he is called, of Roads and Bridges was my principal companion. He was generally intelligent, and could have spoken more or less falsetto on any of the trite topics; but it was his specialty to have a generous taste in eating. This was what was most indigenous in the man; it was here he was an artist; and I found in his company what I had long suspected, that enthusiasm and special knowledge are the great social qualities, and what they are about, whether white sauce or Shakespeare's plays, an altogether secondary question.
The Conductor, as he was called, of Roads and Bridges, was my main companion. He was usually pretty smart and could have talked pretty much any topic in an exaggerated way, but his true talent was his refined taste in food. This was the most natural part of him; here, he was a true artist. I discovered in his company what I had long suspected: that enthusiasm and expertise are the key social qualities, and what they focus on, whether it's white sauce or Shakespeare's plays, is a completely secondary issue.
I used to accompany the Conductor on his professional rounds, and grew to believe myself an expert in the business. I thought I could make an entry in a stone-breaker's time-book, or order manure off the wayside with any living engineer in France. Gondet was one of the places we visited together; and Laussonne, where I met the apothecary's father, was another. There, at Laussonne, George Sand spent a day while she was gathering materials for the "Marquis de Villemer"; and I have spoken with an old man, who was then a child running about the inn kitchen, and who still remembers her with a sort of reverence. It appears that he spoke French imperfectly; for this reason George Sand chose him for companion, and whenever he let slip a broad and picturesque phrase in patois, she would make him repeat it again and again till it was graven in her memory. The word for a frog particularly pleased her fancy; and it would be curious to know if she afterwards[Pg 266] employed it in her works. The peasants, who knew nothing of letters and had never so much as heard of local colour, could not explain her chattering with this backward child; and to them she seemed a very homely lady and far from beautiful: the most famous man-killer of the age appealed so little to Velaisian swine-herds!
I used to go with the Conductor on his work rounds, and I started to think I was an expert in the field. I was confident I could make an entry in a stone-breaker's time-book or order manure from the wayside like any engineer in France. Gondet was one of the places we visited together, and Laussonne, where I met the apothecary's father, was another. In Laussonne, George Sand spent a day collecting materials for the "Marquis de Villemer," and I spoke to an old man who, as a child, ran around the inn's kitchen, and who still remembers her with a kind of admiration. It seems he spoke French poorly; for this reason, George Sand chose him as a companion, and whenever he accidentally let slip a colorful phrase in patois, she would make him repeat it over and over until it was engraved in her memory. The word for frog especially caught her interest, and it would be interesting to know if she later[Pg 266] used it in her works. The peasants, who knew nothing about writing and had never heard of local color, couldn’t understand her chatting with this simple child; to them, she seemed like a very ordinary lady and far from beautiful: the most famous femme fatale of the time attracted so little attention from the Velaisian swine-herds!
On my first engineering excursion, which lay up by Crouzials towards Mount Mézenc and the borders of Ardèche, I began an improving acquaintance with the foreman road-mender. He was in great glee at having me with him, passed me off among his subalterns as the supervising engineer, and insisted on what he called "the gallantry " of paying for my breakfast in a roadside wine-shop. On the whole, he was a man of great weather-wisdom, some spirits, and a social temper. But I am afraid he was superstitious. When he was nine years old, he had seen one night a company of bourgeois et dames qui faisaient la manège avec des chaises, and concluded that he was in the presence of a witches' Sabbath. I suppose, but venture with timidity on the suggestion, that this may have been a romantic and nocturnal picnic party. Again, coming from Pradelles with his brother, they saw a great empty cart drawn by six enormous horses before them on the road. The driver cried aloud and filled the mountains with the cracking of his whip. He never seemed to go faster than a walk, yet it was impossible to overtake him; and at length, at the corner of a hill, the whole equipage disappeared bodily into the night. At the time, people said it was the devil qui s'amusait à faire ça.
On my first engineering trip, which was up by Crouzials toward Mount Mézenc and the borders of Ardèche, I started to get to know the foreman road worker. He was really happy to have me with him, introduced me to his team as the supervising engineer, and insisted on what he called "the gallantry" of buying my breakfast at a roadside wine shop. Overall, he was a man with a keen sense of the weather, had a good spirit, and was friendly. But I’m afraid he was superstitious. When he was nine, he once saw a group of bourgeois et dames qui faisaient la manège avec des chaises one night and decided he was witnessing a witches' Sabbath. I think, but I'll suggest this carefully, that it might have just been a romantic nighttime picnic. Another time, while coming back from Pradelles with his brother, they spotted a large empty cart pulled by six huge horses on the road ahead. The driver shouted loudly, filling the mountains with the sound of his whip cracking. He never seemed to go faster than a walk, yet it was impossible to catch up with him; eventually, at the corner of a hill, the whole cart just vanished into the night. At the time, people said it was the devil qui s'amusait à faire ça.
I suggested there was nothing more likely, as he must have some amusement.
I said it was pretty likely that he needed some entertainment.
The foreman said it was odd, but there was less of that sort of thing than formerly. "C'est difficile," he added, "à expliquer."
The foreman said it was strange, but there was less of that kind of thing than before. "It's hard," he added, "to explain."
When we were well up on the moors and the Conductor was trying some road-metal with the gauge—
When we were high up on the moors and the Conductor was testing some road material with the gauge—
"Hark!" said the foreman, "do you hear nothing?"[Pg 267]
"Hey!" said the foreman, "do you hear anything?"[Pg 267]
We listened, and the wind, which was blowing chilly out of the east, brought a faint, tangled jangling to our ears.
We listened as the chilly wind blew in from the east, bringing a faint, jumbled sound to our ears.
"It is the flocks of Vivarais," said he.
"It’s the flocks of Vivarais," he said.
For every summer, the flocks out of all Ardèche are brought up to pasture on these grassy plateaux.
Every summer, the herds from all over Ardèche are taken to graze on these grassy plateaus.
Here and there a little private flock was being tended by a girl, one spinning with a distaff, another seated on a wall and intently making lace. This last, when we addressed her, leaped up in a panic and put out her arms, like a person swimming, to keep us at a distance, and it was some seconds before we could persuade her of the honesty of our intentions.
Here and there, a girl was taking care of a small group of sheep; one was spinning with a distaff, while another sat on a wall, focused on making lace. When we spoke to her, she jumped up in a panic and extended her arms, like someone trying to swim, to keep us at a distance. It took us a few moments to convince her that we meant no harm.
The Conductor told me of another herdswoman from whom he had once asked his road while he was yet new to the country, and who fled from him, driving her beasts before her, until he had given up the information in despair. A tale of old lawlessness may yet be read in these uncouth timidities.
The Conductor shared a story about another herdswoman he once asked for directions when he was still new to the area. She ran away from him, her animals in tow, until he eventually gave up trying to get the information. There’s an old story of lawlessness hidden in these awkward fears.
The winter in these uplands is a dangerous and melancholy time. Houses are snowed up, and wayfarers lost in a flurry within hail of their own fireside. No man ventures abroad without meat and a bottle of wine, which he replenishes at every wine-shop; and even thus equipped he takes the road with terror. All day the family sits about the fire in a foul and airless hovel, and equally without work or diversion. The father may carve a rude piece of furniture, but that is all that will be done until the spring sets in again, and along with it the labours of the field. It is not for nothing that you find a clock in the meanest of these mountain habitations. A clock and an almanack, you would fancy, were indispensable in such a life....
The winter in these highlands is a risky and gloomy time. Houses are buried in snow, and travelers can get lost in a snowstorm right near their own fireplace. No one heads outside without food and a bottle of wine, which they refill at every wine shop; even then, they hit the road feeling anxious. All day, the family huddles around the fire in a dirty, stuffy hut, with nothing to do and no entertainment. The father might make a simple piece of furniture, but that’s all the work that gets done until spring arrives, bringing the farming tasks back. It’s no surprise that you find a clock in even the simplest of these mountain homes. You’d think a clock and a calendar are essential in such a life...
EDINBURGH
PICTURESQUE NOTES
EDINBURGH
CHAPTER I
INTRODUCTORY
The ancient and famous metropolis of the North sits overlooking a windy estuary from the slope and summit of three hills. No situation could be more commanding for the head city of a kingdom; none better chosen for noble prospects. From her tall precipice and terraced gardens she looks far and wide on the sea and broad champaigns. To the east you may catch at sunset the spark of the May lighthouse, where the Firth expands into the German Ocean; and away to the west, over all the carse of Stirling, you can see the first snows upon Ben Ledi.
The ancient and famous northern city overlooks a windy estuary from the slopes and peaks of three hills. There's no better position for the main city of a kingdom, and none better suited for impressive views. From her high cliffs and terraced gardens, she gazes far across the sea and wide plains. To the east, you can spot the flicker of the May lighthouse at sunset, where the Firth opens into the North Sea; and to the west, over all the lowlands of Stirling, you can see the first snow on Ben Ledi.
But Edinburgh pays cruelly for her high seat in one of the vilest climates under heaven. She is liable to be beaten upon by all the winds that blow, to be drenched with rain, to be buried in cold sea fogs out of the east, and powdered with the snow as it comes flying southward from the Highland hills. The weather is raw and boisterous in winter, shifty and ungenial in summer, and a downright meteorological purgatory in the spring. The delicate die early, and I, as a survivor, among bleak winds and plumping rain, have been sometimes tempted to envy them their fate. For all who love shelter and the blessings of the sun, who hate dark weather and perpetual tilting against squalls, there could scarcely be found a more unhomely and harassing place of residence. Many such aspire angrily after that Somewhere else of the imagination, where all troubles are supposed to end. They lean over the great[Pg 272] bridge which joins the New Town with the Old—that windiest spot, or high altar, in this northern temple of the winds—and watch the trains smoking out from under them and vanishing into the tunnel on a voyage to brighter skies. Happy the passengers who shake off the dust of Edinburgh, and have heard for the last time the cry of the east wind among her chimney-tops! And yet the place establishes an interest in people's hearts; go where they will, they find no city of the same distinction; go where they will, they take a pride in their old home.
But Edinburgh pays a steep price for its lofty position in one of the harshest climates around. It's constantly battered by all the winds that blow, soaked with rain, shrouded in cold sea fogs from the east, and covered in snow that drifts down from the Highland hills. The weather is raw and wild in winter, unpredictable and unpleasant in summer, and a true meteorological nightmare in spring. The fragile don't last long, and I, as one who remains, among the biting winds and pouring rain, have sometimes found myself envious of their fate. For anyone who enjoys shelter and the warmth of the sun, who despises gloomy weather and the relentless battle against storms, there’s hardly a more unwelcoming and stressful place to live. Many dream angrily of that Somewhere else in their minds, where all troubles are thought to disappear. They stand over the great[Pg 272] bridge that connects the New Town with the Old— the windiest spot, or high altar, in this northern temple of the winds—and watch the trains puffing out from underneath them and disappearing into the tunnel on their way to brighter skies. Happy are the passengers who leave Edinburgh behind and have heard the east wind's cry among its chimney-tops for the last time! And yet, the city holds a special place in people's hearts; no matter where they go, they find no other city quite like it; wherever they go, they carry a sense of pride in their old home.
Venice, it has been said, differs from all other cities in the sentiment which she inspires. The rest may have admirers; she only, a famous fair one, counts lovers in her train. And indeed, even by her kindest friends, Edinburgh is not considered in a similar sense. These like her for many reasons, not any one of which is satisfactory in itself. They like her whimsically, if you will, and somewhat as a virtuoso dotes upon his cabinet. Her attraction is romantic in the narrowest meaning of the term. Beautiful as she is, she is not so much beautiful as interesting. She is pre-eminently Gothic, and all the more so since she has set herself off with some Greek airs, and erected classic temples on her crags. In a word, and above all, she is a curiosity. The Palace of Holyrood has been left aside in the growth of Edinburgh, and stands grey and silent in a workman's quarter, and among breweries and gas works. It is a house of many memories. Great people of yore, kings and queens, buffoons, and grave ambassadors, played their stately farce for centuries in Holyrood. Wars have been plotted, dancing has lasted deep into the night, murder has been done in its chambers. There Prince Charlie held his phantom levées, and in a very gallant manner represented a fallen dynasty for some hours. Now, all these things of clay are mingled with the dust, the king's crown itself is shown for sixpence to the vulgar; but the stone palace has outlived these changes. For fifty weeks together, it is no more than a show for tourists[Pg 273] and a museum of old furniture; but on the fifty-first, behold the palace reawakened and mimicking its past. The Lord Commissioner, a kind of stage sovereign, sits among stage courtiers; a coach and six and clattering escort come and go before the gate; at night, the windows are lighted up, and its near neighbours, the workmen, may dance in their own houses to the palace music. And in this the palace is typical. There is a spark among the embers; from time to time the old volcano smokes. Edinburgh has but partly abdicated, and still wears, in parody, her metropolitan trappings. Half a capital and half a country town, the whole city leads a double existence; it has long trances of the one and flashes of the other; like the king of the Black Isles, it is half alive and half a monumental marble. There are armed men and cannon in the citadel overhead; you may see the troops Marshalled on the high parade; and at night after the early winter evenfall, and in the morning before the laggard winter dawn, the wind carries abroad over Edinburgh the sound of drums and bugles. Grave judges sit bewigged in what was once the scene of imperial deliberations. Close by in the High Street perhaps the trumpets may sound about the stroke of noon; and you see a troop of citizens in tawdry masquerade; tabard above, heather-mixture trouser below, and the men themselves trudging in the mud among unsympathetic bystanders. The grooms of a well-appointed circus tread the streets with a better presence. And yet these are the Heralds and Pursuivants of Scotland, who are about to proclaim a new law of the United Kingdom before two score boys, and thieves, and hackney-coachmen. Meanwhile every hour the bell of the University rings out over the hum of the streets, and every hour a double tide of students, coming and going, fills the deep archways. And lastly, one night in the spring-time—or say one morning rather, at the peep of day—late folk may hear the voices of many men singing a psalm in unison from a church on one side of the old High Street, and a[Pg 274] little after, or perhaps a little before, the sound of many men singing a psalm in unison from another church on the opposite side of the way. There will be something in the words about the dew of Hermon, and how goodly it is to see brethren dwelling together in unity. And the late folk will tell themselves that all this singing denotes the conclusion of two yearly ecclesiastical parliaments—the parliaments of Churches which are brothers in many admirable virtues, but not specially like brothers in this particular of a tolerant and peaceful life.
Venice is known to be unlike any other city in the feelings she evokes. While other cities have fans, she alone, as a famous beauty, has true admirers. Even her closest friends don’t see Edinburgh in the same light. People appreciate her for various reasons, none of which are particularly compelling on their own. They find her quirky, much like a connoisseur cherishing their collection. Her allure is romantic in the strictest sense. Although she is beautiful, it's more about her being interesting. She is distinctly Gothic, and even more so since she has added some Greek flair and built classic temples on her hills. In short, she is a curiosity. The Palace of Holyrood has been somewhat neglected in Edinburgh's development, standing grey and quiet among factories and breweries. It's a place filled with memories. Notable historical figures, kings and queens, jesters, and serious diplomats, performed their grand roles here for centuries. Plans for wars were made, dances went on late into the night, and murders occurred within its walls. Prince Charlie once held gatherings here, briefly embodying a fallen dynasty. Now, all of this history has faded, and the king's crown is displayed for sixpence to the masses; yet the stone palace endures despite these changes. For fifty weeks, it serves as a tourist attraction and an old furniture museum, but on the fifty-first week, the palace comes alive again, echoing its past. The Lord Commissioner, a sort of ceremonial ruler, sits among pretend courtiers; a coach and six gallop by, and at night, the windows glow, allowing nearby workers to dance to the palace's music in their homes. This reflects the palace’s symbolic nature. There’s still a flicker of life; every now and then, the old spirit stirs. Edinburgh hasn't completely given up; she still wears, in jest, her city regalia. Half capital, half countryside, the city exists in two states; it oscillates between the two—like the king of the Black Isles, it’s half alive and half a monument. There are soldiers and cannons in the citadel above; you can see troops lined up on the parade ground. At night, after the early winter dusk, and in the morning before the sluggish winter dawn, the wind carries the sounds of drums and bugles throughout Edinburgh. Serious judges sit in wigs where once great decisions were made. Nearby in the High Street, the trumpets may sound around noon, and you might see a group of townsfolk in flashy costumes—tabards on top and heather-patterned trousers below, slogging through mud among indifferent onlookers. The attendants of a well-organized circus bring a better presence. Yet these are the Heralds and Pursuivants of Scotland, ready to announce a new UK law before a few dozen boys, thieves, and cab drivers. Meanwhile, every hour, the university bell chimes over the street noise, and a flow of students, coming and going, fills the deep archways. Lastly, one spring night—or rather one morning at daybreak—latecomers might hear many voices singing a psalm in unison from a church on one side of the old High Street, and shortly after, or perhaps a bit earlier, they’ll hear another group singing a psalm in unison from a church across the way. The lyrics will mention the dew of Hermon and the joy of brethren living in harmony. And those latecomers will reflect that all this singing signifies the end of two annual church conventions—gatherings of congregations that share many admirable traits but don’t particularly resemble brothers in their tolerance and peaceful coexistence.
Again, meditative people will find a charm in a certain consonancy between the aspect of the city and its odd and stirring history. Few places, if any, offer a more barbaric display of contrasts to the eye. In the very midst stands one of the most satisfactory crags in nature—a Bass Rock upon dry land, rooted in a garden, shaken by passing trains, carrying a crown of battlements and turrets, and describing its warlike shadow over the liveliest and brightest thoroughfare of the new town. From their smoky beehives, ten stories high, the unwashed look down upon the open squares and gardens of the wealthy; and gay people sunning themselves along Princes Street, with its mile of commercial palaces all beflagged upon some great occasion, see, across a gardened valley set with statues, where the washings of the old town flutter in the breeze at its high windows. And then, upon all sides, what a clashing of architecture! In this one valley, where the life of the town goes most busily forward, there may be seen, shown one above and behind another by the accidents of the ground, buildings in almost every style upon the globe. Egyptian and Greek temples, Venetian palaces and Gothic spires, are huddled one over another in a most admired disorder; while, above all, the brute mass of the Castle and the summit of Arthur's Seat look down upon these imitations with a becoming dignity, as the works of Nature may look down upon the monuments of Art. But Nature is a more indiscriminate patroness than we[Pg 275] imagine, and in no way frightened of a strong effect. The birds roost as willingly among the Corinthian capitals as in the crannies of the crag; the same atmosphere and daylight close the eternal rock and yesterday's imitation portico; and as the soft northern sunshine throws out everything into a glorified distinctness—or easterly mists, coming up with the blue evening, fuse all these incongruous features into one, and the lamps begin to glitter along the street, and faint lights to burn in the high windows across the valley—the feeling grows upon you that this also is a piece of nature in the most intimate sense; that this profusion of eccentricities, this dream in masonry and living rock, is not a drop-scene in a theatre, but a city in the world of every-day reality, connected by railway and telegraph-wire with all the capitals of Europe, and inhabited by citizens of the familiar type, who keep ledgers, and attend church, and have sold their immortal portion to a daily paper. By all the canons of romance, the place demands to be half deserted and leaning towards decay; birds we might admit in profusion, the play of the sun and winds, and a few gypsies encamped in the chief thoroughfare; but these citizens, with their cabs and tramways, their trains and posters, are altogether out of key. Chartered tourists, they make free with historic localities, and rear their young among the most picturesque sites with a grand human indifference. To see them thronging by, in their neat clothes and conscious moral rectitude, and with a little air of possession that verges on the absurd, is not the least striking feature of the place.[1]
Again, reflective people will find a certain charm in how the city’s appearance connects with its strange and fascinating history. Few places, if any, show such a stark contrast to the eye. Right in the center stands one of nature's most impressive crags—a Bass Rock on dry land, rooted in a garden, shaken by passing trains, adorned with battlements and turrets, casting its formidable shadow over the liveliest and brightest street in the new town. From their smoky, ten-story buildings, the less fortunate look down on the open squares and gardens of the rich; and cheerful people sunbathe along Princes Street, which is lined with a mile of commercial buildings all decorated for some grand occasion. Across a gardened valley sprinkled with statues, the laundry from the old town flutters in the breeze at its high windows. And then, all around, there's such a clash of architecture! In this one valley, where the life of the town is most vibrant, you can see buildings of nearly every style from around the world stacked one after another because of the uneven ground. Egyptian and Greek temples, Venetian palaces, and Gothic spires are crammed together in a celebrated chaos; while, towering above all, the impressive mass of the Castle and the peak of Arthur's Seat look down on these imitations with a fitting dignity, much like how nature can overlook man-made monuments. But nature is more indiscriminate than we think, and isn't intimidated by a bold impression. Birds roost just as comfortably among the Corinthian columns as they do in the crevices of the crag; the same atmosphere and daylight touch the eternal rock and yesterday’s fake portico; and as the soft northern sunlight brings everything into crisp definition—or easterly mists roll in with the blue evening, blending these mismatched features into one—and the street lights begin to twinkle, with faint glows in the high windows across the valley—the feeling grows that this is also a piece of nature in the truest sense; that this jumble of oddities, this dream of bricks and living rock, is not merely a backdrop in a theater, but a city in the everyday world, linked by rail and telegraph wire to all the capitals of Europe, and inhabited by ordinary citizens who keep ledgers, attend church, and have sold their immortal souls to a daily paper. By all the rules of romance, the place should be half-abandoned and showing signs of decay; birds might be welcomed in abundance, along with the play of sun and wind, and a few gypsies camped in the main thoroughfare; but these residents, with their cabs and trams, their trains and advertisements, are completely out of sync. As chartered tourists, they freely invade historic spots, raising their families among the most picturesque places with a grand human indifference. Seeing them stream by in their neat clothes and with their conscious moral superiority, and having a little air of ownership that borders on the absurd, is one of the most striking features of the place.[1]
[Pg 276]And the story of the town is as eccentric as its appearance. For centuries it was a capital thatched with heather, and more than once, in the evil days of English invasion, it has gone up in flame to heaven, a beacon to ships at sea. It was the jousting-ground of jealous nobles, not only on Greenside or by the King's Stables, where set tournaments were fought to the sound of trumpets and under the authority of the royal presence, but in every alley where there was room to cross swords, and in the main street, where popular tumult under the Blue Blanket alternated with the brawls of outlandish clansmen and retainers. Down in the Palace John Knox reproved his queen in the accents of modern democracy. In the town, in one of those little shops plastered like so many swallows' nests among the buttresses of the old Cathedral, that familiar autocrat, James VI., would gladly share a bottle of wine with George Heriot the goldsmith. Up on the Pentland Hills, that so quietly look down on the Castle with the city lying in waves around it, those mad and dismal fanatics, the Sweet Singers, haggard from long exposure on the moors, sat day and night with "tearful psalms" to see Edinburgh consumed with fire from heaven, like another Sodom or Gomorrah. There, in the Grassmarket, stiff-necked, covenanting heroes offered up the often unnecessary, but not less honourable, sacrifice of their lives, and bade eloquent farewell to sun, moon, and stars, and earthly friendships, or died silent to the roll of drums. Down by yon outlet rode Grahame of Claverhouse and his thirty dragoons, with the town beating to arms behind their horses' tails—a sorry handful thus riding for their lives, but with a man at the head who was to return in a different temper, make a dash[Pg 277] that staggered Scotland to the heart, and die happily in the thick of fight. There Aikenhead was hanged for a piece of boyish incredulity; there, a few years afterwards, David Hume ruined Philosophy and Faith, an undisturbed and well-reputed citizen; and thither, in yet a few years more, Burns came from the plough-tail, as to an academy of gilt unbelief and artificial letters. There, when the great exodus was made across the valley, and the new town began to spread abroad its draughty parallelograms and rear its long frontage on the opposing hill, there was such a flitting, such a change of domicile and dweller, as was never excelled in the history of cities: the cobbler succeeded the earl; the beggar ensconced himself by the judge's chimney; what had been a palace was used as a pauper refuge; and great mansions were so parceled out among the least and lowest in society, that the hearth-stone of the old proprietor was thought large enough to be partitioned off into a bedroom by the new.
[Pg 276]And the story of the town is as quirky as its looks. For centuries, it was a capital covered in heather, and more than once, during the dark days of English invasion, it went up in flames, a signal to ships at sea. It was the battleground of jealous nobles, not just on Greenside or near the King's Stables, where formal tournaments took place to the sound of trumpets and under royal oversight, but in every alley where there was space to fight, and in the main street, where social unrest under the Blue Blanket alternated with brawls among foreign clansmen and their followers. Down in the Palace, John Knox rebuked his queen with the voice of modern democracy. In the town, in one of those little shops plastered like swallows' nests among the old Cathedral’s supports, that familiar ruler, James VI, would happily share a bottle of wine with George Heriot, the goldsmith. Up on the Pentland Hills, which silently overlook the Castle with the city sprawling around it, those wild and gloomy extremists, the Sweet Singers, worn from long exposure on the moors, sat day and night with "tearful psalms," hoping to see Edinburgh consumed by fire from heaven, like another Sodom or Gomorrah. There, in the Grassmarket, stubborn, covenanting heroes made the often unnecessary, but nonetheless honorable, sacrifice of their lives, bidding a passionate farewell to the sun, moon, and stars, and earthly friendships, or dying silently to the sound of drums. Down by that exit rode Grahame of Claverhouse and his thirty dragoons, with the town readying for a fight behind their horses—an unfortunate few riding for their lives, but with a leader who was to return with a different spirit, launch a surprise [Pg 277] that shook Scotland to its core, and die bravely in battle. There Aikenhead was hanged for his youthful doubts; a few years later, David Hume shattered Philosophy and Faith as a respected citizen; and soon after, Burns came from the plow to what felt like a school of false beliefs and pretentious letters. There, when the great migration occurred across the valley and the new town began to spread its drafty rectangles and raise its long façade on the opposite hill, there was such a moving and such a shift in residents that had never been seen in the history of cities: the cobbler took the place of the earl; the beggar settled next to the judge’s fireplace; what had once been a palace became a refuge for the poor; and grand mansions were divided among the lowest in society, so much so that the original owner's hearth was thought to be large enough to be turned into a bedroom by the new occupier.
[1] These sentences have, I hear, given offence in my native town; and a proportionable pleasure to our rivals of Glasgow. I confess the news caused me both pain and merriment. May I remark, as a balm for wounded fellow-townsmen, that there is nothing deadly in my accusations? Small blame to them if they keep ledgers: 'tis an excellent business habit. Church-going is not, that ever I heard, a subject of reproach; decency of linen is a mark of prosperous affairs, and conscious moral rectitude one of the tokens of good living. It is not their fault if the city calls for something more specious by the way of inhabitants. A man in a frock-coat looks out of place upon an Alp or Pyramid, although he has the virtues of a Peabody and the talents of a Bentham. And let them console themselves—they do as well as anybody else; the population of (let us say) Chicago would cut quite as rueful a figure on the same romantic stage. To the Glasgow people I would say only one word, but that is of gold: I have not yet written a book about Glasgow.
[1] I've heard that these sentences have upset some people in my hometown, and brought joy to our rivals in Glasgow. I admit that hearing this brought me both pain and amusement. As a comfort to my fellow townspeople, I should point out that there's nothing lethal in my accusations. It's not their fault if they keep records: that's a solid business practice. Attending church isn’t, as far as I know, a point of criticism; having clean clothes is a sign of doing well, and being morally upright is a sign of a good life. It's not their problem if the city expects something flashier in its residents. A man in a suit looks out of place on a mountain or a pyramid, even if he embodies the virtues of a Peabody and the intelligence of a Bentham. And as a reassurance to them—they're doing just as well as anyone else; the population of, say, Chicago would create just as awkward a scene on that same picturesque stage. To the people of Glasgow, I would say just one thing, a valuable one: I have not yet written a book about Glasgow.
CHAPTER II
OLD TOWN: THE LANDS
The Old Town, it is pretended, is the chief characteristic, and, from a picturesque point of view, the liver-wing of Edinburgh. It is one of the most common forms of depreciation to throw cold water on the whole by adroit over-commendation of a part, since everything worth judging, whether it be a man, a work of art, or only a fine city, must be judged upon its merits as a whole. The Old Town depends for much of its effect on the new quarters that lie around it, on the sufficiency of its situation, and on the hills that back it up. If you were to set it somewhere else by itself, it would look remarkably like Stirling in a bolder and loftier edition. The point is to see this embellished Stirling planted in the midst of a large, active, and fantastic modern city; for there the two react in a picturesque sense, and the one is the making of the other.
The Old Town is said to be its main feature and, from a scenic perspective, the heart of Edinburgh. It’s a common mistake to undermine the whole by overly praising just one part, as everything worth evaluating—whether it’s a person, a piece of art, or a beautiful city—should be assessed on its overall merits. The Old Town owes a lot of its appeal to the surrounding new areas, its strategic location, and the hills that support it. If it were placed alone in a different setting, it would closely resemble Stirling, just in a more dramatic and elevated way. The key is to see this enhanced Stirling situated within a large, vibrant, and imaginative modern city; there, the two complement each other in a picturesque way, with one enhancing the other.
The Old Town occupies a sloping ridge or tail of diluvial matter, protected, in some subsidence of the waters, by the Castle cliffs which fortify it to the west. On the one side of it and the other the new towns of the south and of the north occupy their lower, broader, and more gentle hill-tops. Thus, the quarter of the Castle overtops the whole city and keeps an open view to sea and land. It dominates for miles on every side; and people on the decks of ships, or ploughing in quiet country places over in Fife, can see the banner on the Castle battlements, and the smoke of the Old Town blowing abroad over the subjacent country. A city that is set upon a hill. It was, I suppose, from this distant aspect that she got her nickname of Auld Reekie. Perhaps it was given her[Pg 279] by people who had never crossed her doors: day after day, from their various rustic Pisgahs, they had seen the pile of building on the hill-top, and the long plume of smoke over the plain; so it appeared to them; so it had appeared to their fathers tilling the same field; and as that was all they knew of the place, it could be all expressed in these two words.
The Old Town sits on a sloping ridge made of river deposits, shielded by the Castle cliffs to the west due to some land sinking beneath the water. On both sides, the new towns to the south and north occupy their lower, wider, and gentler hilltops. As a result, the Castle district rises above the entire city, providing an unobstructed view of both the sea and the land. It dominates the landscape for miles around; people on ships or working in quiet rural areas in Fife can see the flag on the Castle walls and the smoke from the Old Town drifting over the surrounding countryside. A city set on a hill. I guess it was from this distant view that it earned the nickname Auld Reekie. Perhaps it was given to her[Pg 279] by those who had never entered her gates: day after day, from their various rural lookout points, they saw the buildings on the hilltop and the long trail of smoke over the flat land; that’s how it looked to them; that’s how it had looked to their fathers farming the same fields; and since that was all they knew of the place, it could all be summed up in those two words.
Indeed, even on a nearer view, the Old Town is properly smoked; and though it is well washed with rain all the year round, it has a grim and sooty aspect among its younger suburbs. It grew, under the law that regulates the growth of walled cities in precarious situations:, not in extent, but in height and density. Public buildings were forced, wherever there was room for them, into the midst of thoroughfares; thoroughfares were diminished into lanes; houses sprang up story after story, neighbour mounting upon neighbour's shoulder, as in some Black Hole of Calcutta, until the population slept fourteen or fifteen deep in a vertical direction. The tallest of these lands, as they are locally termed, have long since been burnt out; but to this day it is not uncommon to see eight or ten windows at a flight; and the cliff of building which hangs imminent over Waverley Bridge would still put many natural precipices to shame. The cellars are already high above the gazer's head, planted on the steep hillside; as for the garret, all the furniture may be in the pawnshop, but it commands a famous prospect to the Highland hills. The poor man may roost up there in the centre of Edinburgh, and yet have a peep of the green country from his window; he shall see the quarters of the well-to-do fathoms underneath, with their broad squares and gardens; he shall have nothing overhead but a few spires, the stone top-gallants of the city; and perhaps the wind may reach him with a rustic pureness, and bring a smack of the sea, or of flowering lilacs in the spring.
Indeed, even from a closer perspective, the Old Town looks pretty grimy; and although it gets plenty of rain throughout the year, it still has a dark and smoky appearance compared to its younger neighborhoods. It expanded, following the rules for how walled cities grow in precarious situations, not by size but in height and density. Public buildings were squeezed wherever they could fit into the streets; streets got narrowed down to alleys; houses shot up floor by floor, neighbors stacking on top of each other like in some Black Hole of Calcutta, until the population was sleeping fourteen or fifteen layers high. The tallest of these buildings, as they’re called locally, have long been burned out; yet to this day, it’s not unusual to see eight or ten windows in a single vertical climb; and the cliff of buildings looming over Waverley Bridge would still put many natural cliffs to shame. The cellars are already high above the heads of onlookers, built on the steep hillside; as for the attic, all the furniture might be at the pawnshop, but it offers a fantastic view of the Highland hills. A poor person can nest up there in the heart of Edinburgh and still catch a glimpse of the green countryside from their window; they’ll look down at the well-off neighborhoods far below them, with their spacious squares and gardens; and above them, there’ll be nothing but a few spires, the stone tops of the city; perhaps the wind will reach them with a fresh rural quality, bringing a hint of the sea or the scent of blossoming lilacs in the spring.
It is almost the correct literary sentiment to deplore the revolutionary improvements of Mr. Chambers and his[Pg 280] following. It is easy to be a conservator of the discomforts of others; indeed, it is only our good qualities we find it irksome to,conserve. Assuredly, in driving streets through the black labyrinth, a few curious old corners have been swept away, and some associations turned out of house and home. But what slices of sunlight, what breaths of clean air, have been let in! And what a picturesque world remains untouched! You go under dark arches, and down dark stairs and alleys. The way is so narrow that you can lay a hand on either wall; so steep that, in greasy winter weather, the pavement is almost as treacherous as ice. Washing dangles above washing from the windows; the houses bulge outwards upon flimsy brackets; you see a bit of sculpture in a dark corner; at the top of all, a gable and a few crowsteps are printed on the sky. Here, you come into a court where the children are at play and the grown people sit upon their doorsteps, and perhaps a church spire shows itself above the roofs. Here, in the narrowest of the entry, you find a great old mansion still erect, with some insignia of its former state—some scutcheon, some holy or courageous motto, on the lintel. The local antiquary points out where famous and well-born people had their lodging; and as you look up, out pops the head of a slatternly woman from the countess's window. The Bedouins camp within Pharaoh's palace walls, and the old war-ship is given over to the rats. We are already a far way from the days when powdered heads were plentiful in these alleys, with jolly, port-wine faces underneath. Even in the chief thoroughfares Irish washings flutter at the windows, and the pavements are encumbered with loiterers.
It’s almost the right feeling to regret the revolutionary changes brought by Mr. Chambers and his[Pg 280] followers. It’s easy to preserve the discomforts of others; in fact, it's only our good traits that we find hard to preserve. Certainly, while cutting through the dark maze of streets, a few interesting old corners have been removed, and some associations have been displaced. But just think of the sunlight streaming in, the fresh air that has been allowed in! And what a beautiful world still remains untouched! You walk under dark arches, down narrow stairs and alleys. The path is so tight that you can touch both walls; so steep that, in slippery winter weather, the pavement is almost as dangerous as ice. Laundry hangs from windows like a tapestry; the houses lean forward on fragile brackets; you spot a piece of sculpture hidden in a dark corner; above it all, a gable and a few steps rise against the sky. Here, you enter a courtyard where children are playing and adults sit on their doorsteps, and maybe a church spire peeks out over the rooftops. In the narrowest part of the passage, you see a grand old mansion still standing, with some sign of its past glory—a coat of arms, a noble or brave motto on the doorway. The local historian points out where famous and affluent people used to stay; and as you look up, the head of a disheveled woman unexpectedly appears from the countess's window. Bedouins have made camp within the walls of Pharaoh's palace, and old warships have been left to the rats. We’re already far from the days when powdered wigs were common in these alleys, paired with cheerful, port-wine faces underneath. Even in the main streets, Irish laundry flutters at the windows, and the sidewalks are crowded with loiterers.
These loiterers are a true character of the scene. Some shrewd Scotch workmen may have paused on their way to a job, debating Church affairs and politics with their tools upon their arm. But the most part are of a different order—skulking jail-birds; unkempt, barefoot children; big-mouthed, robust women, in a sort of uniform of striped[Pg 281] flannel petticoat and short tartan shawl: among these, a few supervising constables and a dismal sprinkling of mutineers and broken men from higher ranks in society, with some mark of better days upon them, like a brand. In a place no larger than Edinburgh, and where the traffic is mostly centred in five or six chief streets, the same face comes often under the notice of an idle stroller. In fact, from this point of view, Edinburgh is not so much a small city as the largest of small towns. It is scarce possible to avoid observing your neighbours; and I never yet heard of any one who tried. It has been my fortune, in this anonymous accidental way, to watch more than one of these downward travellers for some stages on the road to ruin. One man must have been upwards of sixty before I first observed him, and he made then a decent, personable figure in broadcloth of the best. For three years he kept falling—grease coming and buttons going from the square-skirted coat, the face puffing and pimpling, the shoulders growing bowed, the hair falling scant and grey upon his head; and the last that ever I saw of him, he was standing at the mouth of an entry with several men in moleskin, three parts drunk, and his old black raiment daubed with mud. I fancy that I still can hear him laugh. There was something heart-breaking in this gradual declension at so advanced an age; you would have thought a man of sixty out of the reach of these calamities; you would have thought that he was niched by that time into a safe place in life, whence he could pass quietly and honourably into the grave.
These loiterers are a real part of the scene. Some clever Scottish workers might have stopped on their way to a job, discussing church issues and politics with their tools in hand. But the majority of them are different—skulking ex-convicts; unkempt, barefoot kids; loud, sturdy women wearing a kind of uniform of striped flannel petticoats and short tartan shawls. Among them are a few watchful constables and a sad mix of rebels and defeated men from higher social classes, who bear signs of better days like a scar. In a place no larger than Edinburgh, where most of the activity happens in five or six main streets, the same faces often catch the eye of a casual passerby. From this perspective, Edinburgh feels less like a small city and more like the biggest of small towns. It's almost impossible to avoid noticing your neighbors, and I’ve never heard of anyone trying. I've had the chance, in this kind of anonymous way, to watch more than one of these people on their downward journey toward ruin. One man must have been over sixty when I first saw him, and he looked fine, dressed in high-quality broadcloth. Over three years, he kept declining—his coat losing grease and buttons, his face swelling and breaking out, his shoulders stooping, and his hair turning thin and gray. The last time I saw him, he was standing at the entrance of an alley with several men in moleskin, three-quarters drunk, and his old black clothes covered in mud. I think I can still hear his laugh. There was something heart-wrenching about this slow decline at such an old age; you would think a man of sixty would be safe from such disasters; you would expect that by then he would have found a stable place in life where he could pass quietly and honorably into death.
One of the earliest marks of these dégringolades is, that the victim begins to disappear from the New Town thoroughfares, and takes to the High Street, like a wounded animal to the woods. And such an one is the type of the quarter. It also has fallen socially. A scutcheon over the door somewhat jars in sentiment where there is a washing at every window. The old man, when I saw him last, wore the coat in which he had played the gentleman[Pg 282] three years before; and that was just what gave him so pre-eminent an air of wretchedness.
One of the first signs of these dégringolades is that the victim starts to vanish from the New Town streets and retreats to the High Street, like a hurt animal seeking refuge in the woods. This person becomes representative of the neighborhood. It has also declined socially. A crest over the door feels out of place when there’s laundry hanging from every window. The last time I saw the old man, he was wearing the same coat he had worn to play the gentleman[Pg 282] three years earlier, and that’s exactly what gave him such a striking air of misery.
It is true that the over-population was at least as dense in the epoch of lords and ladies, and that nowadays some customs which made Edinburgh notorious of yore have been fortunately pretermitted. But an aggregation of comfort is not distasteful like an aggregation of the reverse. Nobody cares how many lords and ladies, and divines and lawyers, may have been crowded into these houses in the past—perhaps the more the merrier. The glasses clink around the china punch-bowl, some one touches the virginals, there are peacocks' feathers on the chimney, and the tapers burn clear and pale in the red firelight. That is not an ugly picture in itself, nor will it become ugly upon repetition. All the better if the like were going on in every second room; the land would only look the more inviting. Times are changed. In one house, perhaps, twoscore families herd together; and, perhaps, not one of them is wholly out of the reach of want. The great hotel is given over to discomfort from the foundation to the chimney-tops; everywhere a pinching, narrow habit, scanty meals, and an air of sluttishness and dirt. In the first room there is a birth, in another a death, in a third a sordid drinking-bout, and the detective and the Bible-reader cross upon the stairs. High words are audible from dwelling to dwelling, and children have a strange experience from the first; only a robust soul, you would think, could grow up in such conditions without hurt. And even if God tempers His dispensations to the young, and all the ill does not arise that our apprehensions may forecast, the sight of such a way of living is disquieting to people who are more happily circumstanced. Social inequality is nowhere more ostentatious than at Edinburgh. I have mentioned already how, to the stroller along Princes Street, the High Street callously exhibits its back garrets. It is true, there is a garden between. And although nothing could be more glaring by way of contrast, some[Pg 283]times the opposition is more immediate; sometimes the thing lies in a nutshell, and there is not so much as a blade of grass between the rich and poor. To look over the South Bridge and see the Cowgate below full of crying hawkers, is to view one rank of society from another in the twinkling of an eye.
It’s true that overcrowding was at least as bad back in the days of lords and ladies, and thankfully, some customs that made Edinburgh infamous back then have been left behind. But a gathering of comfort isn’t as unpleasant as a gathering of misery. No one cares how many lords, ladies, clergymen, and lawyers were crammed into these houses in the past—maybe the more, the merrier. Glasses clink around the punch bowl, someone plays the virginals, peacock feathers adorn the mantel, and the candles burn brightly in the red firelight. That’s not an ugly scene by itself, and it won’t become ugly with repetition. It’s even better if something similar is happening in every other room; the place would just look more inviting. Times have changed. In one house, maybe forty families crowd together; perhaps none of them is entirely free from want. The large hotel is uncomfortable from the foundation to the roof; everywhere there’s a tight, cramped atmosphere, meager meals, and a feeling of filth and disorder. In the first room, someone is being born, in another, someone is dying, in a third, there’s a shabby drinking party, and the detective and the Bible reader pass each other on the stairs. Loud arguments can be heard from house to house, and children have a strange upbringing from the start; only a strong person could grow up in such conditions without being affected. And even if God softens His judgments for the young, and not all the troubles our imaginations predict come to pass, the sight of such living conditions is unsettling for those who are better off. Social inequality is nowhere more obvious than in Edinburgh. As I’ve already mentioned, to those strolling down Princes Street, the High Street cruelly shows its back rooms. It’s true there’s a garden in between. And although nothing could contrast more starkly, sometimes the difference is even more immediate; sometimes it can be summed up in a single scene, with not even a blade of grass between the rich and the poor. To look over the South Bridge and see the Cowgate below filled with shouting vendors is to see one class of society from another in an instant.
One night I went along the Cowgate after every one was abed but the policeman, and stopped by hazard before a tall land. The moon touched upon its chimneys, and shone blankly on the upper windows; there was no light anywhere in the great bulk of building; but as I stood there it seemed to me that I could hear quite a body of quiet sounds from the interior; doubtless there were many clocks ticking, and people snoring on their backs. And thus, as I fancied, the dense life within made itself faintly audible in my ears, family after family contributing its quota to the general hum, and the whole pile beating in tune to its time-pieces, like a great disordered heart. Perhaps it was little more than a fancy altogether, but it was strangely impressive at the time, and gave me an imaginative measure of the disproportion between the quantity of living flesh and the trifling walls that separated and contained it.
One night, I walked along the Cowgate after everyone else was asleep except for the policeman and stopped randomly in front of a tall building. The moon lit up its chimneys and shone dimly on the upper windows; there was no light anywhere in the massive structure. But as I stood there, it seemed to me that I could hear a mix of quiet sounds coming from inside; undoubtedly, there were many clocks ticking and people snoring on their backs. And so, as I imagined, the dense life within made itself faintly audible in my ears, family after family adding to the overall hum, and the whole building beating in sync with its clocks, like a huge, chaotic heart. Maybe it was just a figment of my imagination, but it was oddly impressive at the time and gave me a vivid sense of the huge number of living people compared to the small walls that separated and contained them.
There was nothing fanciful, at least, but every circumstance of terror and reality, in the fall of the land in the High Street. The building had grown rotten to the core; the entry underneath had suddenly closed up so that the scavenger's barrow could not pass; cracks and reverberations sounded through the house at night; the inhabitants of the huge old human bee-hive discussed their peril when they encountered on the stair; some had even left their dwellings in a panic of fear, and returned to them again in a fit of economy or self-respect; when, in the black hours of a Sunday morning, the whole structure ran together with a hideous uproar and tumbled story upon story to the ground. The physical shock was felt far and near; and the moral shock travelled with the morning milkmaid into[Pg 284] all the suburbs. The church-bells never sounded more dismally over Edinburgh than that grey forenoon. Death had made a brave harvest; and, like Samson, by pulling down one roof destroyed many a home. None who saw it can have forgotten the aspect of the gable: here it was plastered, there papered, according to the rooms; here the kettle still stood on the hob, high overhead; and there a cheap picture of the Queen was pasted over the chimney, So, by this disaster, you had a glimpse into the life of thirty families, all suddenly cut off from the revolving years. The land had fallen; and with the land how much! Far in the country, people saw a gap in the city ranks, and the sun looked through between the chimneys in an unwonted place. And all over the world, in London, in Canada, in New Zealand, fancy what a multitude of people could exclaim with truth: "The house that I was born in fell last night!"
There was nothing fancy about it; every detail was filled with terror and reality, especially in the collapse of the building on High Street. The structure had rotted from the inside; the entrance below had suddenly closed up, blocking the way for the scavenger's cart; cracks and loud noises echoed through the house at night; the residents of the massive old building discussed their fears when they ran into each other on the stairs; some had even fled their homes in a panic, only to return out of financial necessity or pride; then, in the dark early hours of a Sunday morning, the entire structure creaked with a horrifying noise and crashed down, floor by floor. The physical impact was felt for miles around, and the emotional shock spread with the morning milk delivery into[Pg 284] all the suburbs. The church bells had never sounded more mournful over Edinburgh than that gray morning. Death had claimed a tragic harvest; and, like Samson, just by bringing down one roof, many homes were destroyed. No one who witnessed it could forget the sight of the gable: on one side it was plastered, on the other it was papered, depending on the rooms; here the kettle still sat on the stove, high above; and there was a cheap picture of the Queen taped over the chimney. This disaster offered a glimpse into the lives of thirty families, all abruptly cut off from the passage of time. The building had collapsed; and along with the building, so much more! Far out in the countryside, people noticed a gap in the city skyline, and the sun shone through between the chimneys in an unusual spot. All over the world, in London, Canada, New Zealand, imagine how many people could truthfully exclaim, "The house I was born in collapsed last night!"
CHAPTER III
THE PARLIAMENT CLOSE
Time has wrought its changes most notably around the precinct of St. Giles's Church. The church itself, if it were not for the spire, would be unrecognizable; the Krames are all gone, not a shop is left to shelter in its buttresses; and zealous magistrates and a misguided architect have shorn the design of manhood, and left it poor, naked, and pitifully pretentious. As St. Giles's must have had in former days a rich and quaint appearance now forgotten, so the neighbourhood was bustling, sunless, and romantic. It was here that the town was most overbuilt; but the overbuilding has been all rooted out, and not only a free fairway left along the High Street with an open space on either side of the church, but a great porthole, knocked in the main line of the lands, gives an outlook to the north and the New Town.
Time has changed things a lot, especially around St. Giles's Church. The church itself, if it weren't for the spire, would be unrecognizable; all the Krames are gone, and there's not a single shop left to shelter in its buttresses. Enthusiastic officials and a misguided architect have stripped it of its character, leaving it looking poor, bare, and painfully pretentious. Just as St. Giles's must have looked rich and charming in the past, now the neighborhood is bustling, dull, and oddly nostalgic. It was here that the town was most overcrowded, but that crowdedness has been cleared away, leaving not just a clear path along the High Street with open spaces on either side of the church, but also a large opening in the main line of the lands, providing a view to the north and the New Town.
There is a silly story of a subterranean passage between the Castle and Holyrood, and a bold Highland piper who volunteered to explore its windings. He made his entrance by the upper end, playing a strathspey; the curious footed it after him down the street, following his descent by the sound of the chanter from below; until all of a sudden, about the level of St. Giles's, the music came abruptly to an end, and the people in the street stood at fault with hands uplifted. Whether he was choked with gases, or perished in a quag, or was removed bodily by the Evil One, remains a point of doubt; but the piper has never again been seen or heard of from that day to this. Perhaps he wandered down into the land of Thomas the Rhymer, and some day, when it is least expected, may take a thought[Pg 286] to revisit the sunlit upper world. That will be a strange moment for the cabmen on the stance beside St. Giles's, when they hear the drone of his pipes reascending from the bowels of the earth below their horses' feet.
There’s a silly story about an underground passage between the Castle and Holyrood, and a brave Highland piper who decided to explore its twists and turns. He entered from the top, playing a strathspey; curious onlookers followed him down the street, tracking his descent by the sound of the chanter from below; until suddenly, around the level of St. Giles's, the music stopped abruptly, and the people on the street stood confused, hands raised. Whether he was suffocated by gases, fell into a bog, or was taken away by the Evil One remains uncertain; but the piper has never been seen or heard from since that day. Maybe he wandered into the land of Thomas the Rhymer, and someday, when least expected, might think[Pg 286] about returning to the sunlit world above. That will be a strange moment for the taxi drivers standing by St. Giles's when they hear the sound of his pipes rising up from beneath their horses' feet.
But it is not only pipers who have vanished, many a solid bulk of masonry has been likewise spirited into the air. Here, for example, is the shape of a heart let into the causeway. This was the site of the Tolbooth, the Heart of Midlothian, a place old in story and name-father to a noble book. The walls are now down in the dust; there is no more squalor carceris for merry debtors, no more cage for the old, acknowledged prison-breaker; but the sun and the wind play freely over the foundations of the jail. Nor is this the only memorial that the pavement keeps of former days. The ancient burying-ground of Edinburgh lay behind St. Giles's Church, running downhill to the Cowgate and covering the site of the present Parliament House. It has disappeared as utterly as the prison or the Luckenbooths; and for those ignorant of its history, I know only one token that remains. In the Parliament Close, trodden daily underfoot by advocates, two letters and a date mark the resting-place of the man who made Scotland over again in his own image, the indefatigable, undissuadable John Knox. He sleeps within call of the church that so often echoed to his preaching.
But it’s not just the pipers who have disappeared; many solid structures have also vanished into thin air. For instance, there’s a heart-shaped design set into the cobblestones. This was the location of the Tolbooth, the Heart of Midlothian, a place rich in history and the inspiration for a famous book. The walls are now nothing but dust; there’s no longer any squalor carceris for cheerful debtors, no more cage for the well-known escape artist; instead, the sun and wind freely blow over the jail’s foundations. And this isn’t the only reminder that the pavement holds of days gone by. The old burial ground of Edinburgh was located behind St. Giles's Church, sloping down to the Cowgate and covering the spot where the current Parliament House stands. It has vanished just as completely as the prison or the Luckenbooths; and for those unaware of its history, there’s only one mark that remains. In Parliament Close, where advocates walk every day, two letters and a date indicate the resting place of the man who reshaped Scotland in his own vision, the tireless, unwavering John Knox. He rests within reach of the church that often echoed with his sermons.
Hard by the reformer, a bandy-legged and garlanded Charles Second, made of lead, bestrides a tun-bellied charger. The King has his back turned, and, as you look, seems to be trotting clumsily away from such a dangerous neighbour. Often, for hours together, these two will be alone in the close, for it lies out of the way of all but legal traffic. On one side the south wall of the church, on the other the arcades of the Parliament House, inclose this irregular bight of causeway and describe their shadows on it in the sun. At either end, from round St. Giles's buttresses, you command a look into the High Street with its motley passengers; but the stream goes by east[Pg 287] and west, and leaves the Parliament Close to Charles the Second and the birds. Once in a while, a patient crowd may be seen loitering there all day, some eating fruit, some reading a newspaper; and to judge by their quiet demeanour, you would think they were waiting for a distribution of soup-tickets. The fact is far otherwise; within in the Justiciary Court a man is upon trial for his life, and these are some of the curious for whom the gallery was found too narrow. Towards afternoon, if the prisoner is unpopular, there will be a round of hisses when he is brought forth. Once in a while, too, an advocate in wig and gown, hand upon mouth, full of pregnant nods, sweeps to and fro in the arcade listening to an agent; and at certain regular hours a whole tide of lawyers hurries across the space.
Close to the reformer, a bow-legged Charles II, made of lead, sits on a fat horse. The King has his back turned and, as you look, seems to be awkwardly trotting away from such a dangerous neighbor. Often, these two will be alone in the close for hours, as it’s out of the way of all but legal traffic. On one side stands the south wall of the church, and on the other, the arcades of the Parliament House, enclosing this irregular stretch of roadway and casting their shadows on it in the sunlight. At either end, from around St. Giles's buttresses, you can see into the High Street with its mix of pedestrians, but the flow of people goes by east[Pg 287] and west, leaving the Parliament Close to Charles II and the birds. Occasionally, you might spot a patient crowd hanging around all day, some eating fruit, some reading a newspaper; and judging by their calm demeanor, you might think they were waiting for soup tickets. The reality is quite different; inside the Justiciary Court, a man is on trial for his life, and these are some of the onlookers for whom the gallery was too cramped. Towards the afternoon, if the prisoner is unpopular, there will be a round of hisses when he is brought out. Now and then, an advocate in wig and gown, hand over mouth, full of meaningful nods, sweeps back and forth in the arcade listening to an agent; and at certain times, a whole wave of lawyers rushes across the space.
The Parliament Close has been the scene of marking incidents in Scottish history. Thus, when the Bishops were ejected from the Convention in 1688, "all fourteen of them gathered together with pale faces and stood in a cloud in the Parliament Close": poor episcopal personages who were done with fair weather for life! Some of the west-country Societarians standing by, who would have "rejoiced more than in great sums" to be at their hanging, hustled them so rudely that they knocked their heads together. It was not magnanimous behaviour to dethroned enemies; but one, at least, of the Societarians had groaned in the boots, and they had all seen their dear friends upon the scaffold. Again, at the "woeful Union," it was here that people crowded to escort their favourite from the last of Scottish parliaments: people flushed with nationality, as Boswell would have said, ready for riotous acts, and fresh from throwing stones at the author of "Robinson Crusoe" as he looked out of window.
The Parliament Close has been the site of significant events in Scottish history. So, when the Bishops were kicked out of the Convention in 1688, "all fourteen of them gathered together with pale faces and stood in a crowd in the Parliament Close": unfortunate church leaders who were done with good times for good! Some of the Societarians from the west, who would have "rejoiced more than in great sums" to see them hanged, bumped into them so roughly that they knocked their heads together. It wasn't very noble behavior towards defeated foes; but at least one of the Societarians had suffered in the boots, and they had all witnessed their dear friends on the scaffold. Again, during the "tragic Union," people gathered here to send off their favorite from the last of the Scottish parliaments: people charged with nationalism, as Boswell might have said, ready for violent actions, and just returning from throwing stones at the author of "Robinson Crusoe" as he looked out of the window.
One of the pious in the seventeenth century, going to pass his trials (examinations as we now say) for the Scottish Bar, beheld the Parliament Close open and had a vision of the mouth of Hell. This, and small wonder,[Pg 288] was the means of his conversion. Nor was the vision unsuitable to the locality; for after an hospital, what uglier piece is there in civilization than a court of law? Hither come envy, malice, and all uncharitableness to wrestle it out in public tourney; crimes, broken fortunes, severed households, the knave and his victim, gravitate to this low building with the arcade. To how many has not St. Giles's bell told the first hour after ruin? I think I see them pause to count the strokes, and wander on again into the moving High Street, stunned and sick at heart.
One of the religious individuals in the seventeenth century, heading to take his trials (examinations as we would call them now) for the Scottish Bar, saw the Parliament Close open and had a vision of the mouth of Hell. This, and it's not surprising,[Pg 288] was what led to his conversion. The vision was fitting for the location; after a hospital, what could be uglier in civilization than a court of law? Here come envy, malice, and all kinds of uncharitableness to fight it out in public; crimes, broken fortunes, split families, the crook and his victim, all gravitate to this dingy building with the arcade. How many people hasn't St. Giles's bell announced the first hour after their downfall? I envision them pausing to count the chimes, then wandering back into the bustling High Street, dazed and heartbroken.
A pair of swing doors gives admittance to a hall with a carved roof, hung with legal portraits, adorned with legal statuary, lighted by windows of painted glass, and warmed by three vast fires. This the Salle des pas perdus of the Scottish Bar. Here, by a ferocious custom, idle youths must promenade from ten till two. From end to end, singly or in pairs or trios, the gowns and wigs go back and forward. Through a hum of talk and footfalls, the piping tones of a Macer announce a fresh cause and call upon the names of those concerned. Intelligent men have been walking here daily for ten or twenty years without a rag of business or a shilling of reward. In process of time, they may perhaps be made the Sheriff-Substitute and Fountain of Justice at Lerwick or Tobermory. There is nothing required, you would say, but a little patience and a taste for exercise and bad air. To breathe dust and bombazine, to feed the mind on cackling gossip, to hear three parts of a case and drink a glass of sherry, to long with indescribable longings for the hour when a man may slip out of his travesty and devote himself to golf for the rest of the afternoon, and to do this day by day and year after year, may seem so small a thing to the inexperienced! But those who have made the experiment are of a different way of thinking, and count it the most arduous form of idleness.
A pair of swing doors leads into a hall with a carved ceiling, decorated with legal portraits, adorned with legal statues, lit by stained glass windows, and warmed by three large fireplaces. This is the Salle des pas perdus of the Scottish Bar. Here, by a harsh tradition, idle young men must stroll from ten to two. From one end to the other, alone or in pairs or groups, the gowns and wigs move back and forth. Amidst the hum of conversation and footsteps, the high-pitched voice of a Macer announces a new case and calls out the names of those involved. Smart men have been walking here daily for ten or twenty years without any real work or payment. Over time, they might become the Sheriff-Substitute and Fountain of Justice in Lerwick or Tobermory. You might think that it only takes a little patience and a taste for exercise and stale air. Breathing in dust and fabric, feeding the mind on mindless chatter, hearing parts of a case while sipping sherry, longing in an indescribable way for the moment when one can take off the wig and gown and spend the rest of the afternoon playing golf, and doing this day after day and year after year may seem trivial to those who haven’t experienced it! But those who have are of a very different opinion and consider it the most difficult kind of idleness.
More swing doors open into pigeon-holes where Judges[Pg 289] of the First Appeal sit singly, and halls of audience where the supreme Lords sit by three or four. Here, you may see Scott's place within the bar, where he wrote many a page of Waverley novels to the drone of judicial proceeding. You will hear a good deal of shrewdness, and, as their Lordships do not altogether disdain pleasantry, a fair proportion of dry fun. The broadest of broad Scotch is now banished from the bench; but the courts still retain a certain national flavour. We have a solemn enjoyable way of lingering on a case. We treat law as a fine art, and relish and digest a good distinction. There is no hurry: point after point must be rightly examined and reduced to principle; judge after judge must utter forth his obiter dicta to delighted brethren.
More swing doors open into small rooms where Judges[Pg 289] of the First Appeal sit alone, and into courtrooms where the top Lords sit in groups of three or four. Here, you can see Scott's spot at the bar, where he wrote many pages of Waverley novels while listening to the ongoing judicial proceedings. You’ll hear a lot of clever remarks, and since their Lordships don’t completely shy away from humor, a decent amount of dry wit. The thickest Scottish accents are now gone from the bench, but the courts still carry a bit of national character. We have a serious yet enjoyable way of taking our time on a case. We treat law as a fine art and appreciate and analyze a good distinction. There’s no rush: each point must be carefully examined and established as a principle; judge after judge must share their obiter dicta to the delight of their colleagues.
Besides the courts, there are installed under the same roof no less than three libraries: two of no mean order; confused and semi-subterranean, full of stairs and galleries; where you may see the most studious-looking wigs fishing out novels by lantern light, in the very place where the old Privy Council tortured Covenanters. As the Parliament House is built upon a slope, although it presents only one story to the north, it measures half-a-dozen at least upon the south; and range after range of vaults extend below the libraries. Few places are more characteristic of this hilly capital. You descend one stone stair after another, and wander, by the flicker of a match, in a labyrinth of stone cellars. Now, you pass below the Outer Hall and hear overhead, brisk but ghostly, the interminable pattering of legal feet. Now, you come upon a strong door with a wicket: on the other side are the cells of the police office and the trap-stair that gives admittance to the dock in the Justiciary Court. Many a foot that has gone up there lightly enough, has been dead-heavy in the descent. Many a man's life has been argued away from him during long hours in the court above. But just now that tragic stage is empty and silent like a church on a week-day, with the bench all[Pg 290] sheeted up and nothing moving but the sunbeams on the wall. A little farther and you strike upon a room, not empty like the rest, but crowded with productions from bygone criminal cases: a grim lumber: lethal weapons, poisoned organs in a jar, a door with a shot hole through the panel, behind which a man fell dead. I cannot fancy why they should preserve them, unless it were against the Judgment Day. At length, as you continue to descend, you see a peep of yellow gaslight and hear a jostling, whispering noise ahead; next moment you turn a corner, and there, in a whitewashed passage, is a machinery belt industriously turning on its wheels. You would think the engine had grown there of its own accord, like a cellar fungus, and would soon spin itself out and fill the vaults from end to end with its mysterious labours. In truth, it is only some gear of the steam ventilator; and you will find the engineers at hand, and may step out of their door into the sunlight. For all this while, you have not been descending towards the earth's centre, but only to the bottom of the hill and the foundations of the Parliament House; low down, to be sure, but still under the open heaven and in a field of grass. The daylight shines garishly on the back windows of the Irish quarter; on broken shutters, wry gables, old palsied houses on the brink of ruin, a crumbling human pig-sty fit for human pigs. There are few signs of life, besides a scanty washing or a face at a window: the dwellers are abroad, but they will return at night and stagger to their pallets.
Besides the courts, there are three libraries under the same roof: two of considerable size; messy and partially underground, filled with stairs and galleries; where you might see serious-looking scholars reading novels by lantern light, right where the old Privy Council tortured Covenanters. Although the Parliament House only shows one story to the north, it’s built on a slope and measures at least six stories on the south; and rows of vaults extend below the libraries. Few places are more characteristic of this hilly capital. You go down one stone staircase after another, wandering through a maze of stone cellars by the flicker of a match. Now, you pass under the Outer Hall and hear the brisk but ghostly sound of legal footsteps overhead. Now, you come upon a strong door with a small opening: on the other side are the cells of the police office and a staircase that leads up to the dock in the Justiciary Court. Many a foot that ascended there lightly has come down heavily. Many a man has lost his life after long hours of debate in the court above. But right now, that tragic stage is empty and silent like a church on a weekday, with the bench all[Pg 290] covered and nothing moving but the sunbeams on the wall. A little further and you come upon a room, not empty like the others, but filled with productions from past criminal cases: grim remnants: deadly weapons, poisoned organs in a jar, a door with a bullet hole in the panel, behind which a man fell dead. I can’t imagine why they keep them, unless for some Judgment Day. Finally, as you keep descending, you see a glimmer of yellow gaslight and hear a bustling, whispering noise ahead; the next moment you turn a corner, and there, in a whitewashed hallway, a machinery belt is vigorously turning its wheels. You’d think the engine had grown there of its own accord, like a fungus in a cellar, and would soon spin itself out, filling the vaults with its mysterious tasks. In reality, it’s just part of the steam ventilator; and you will find the engineers nearby, and can step out their door into the sunlight. All this time, you haven’t been descending to the earth's center, but just to the bottom of the hill and the foundations of the Parliament House; low down, yes, but still under the open sky and in a field of grass. The daylight shines harshly on the back windows of the Irish quarter; on broken shutters, crooked gables, old shaky houses on the verge of ruin, a dilapidated human pigsty fit for human pigs. There are few signs of life, besides sparse laundry or a face at a window: the residents are out, but they will return at night and stagger to their beds.
CHAPTER IV
LEGENDS
The character of a place is often most perfectly expressed in its associations. An event strikes root and grows into a legend, when it has happened amongst congenial surroundings. Ugly actions, above all in ugly places, have the true romantic quality, and become an undying property of their scene. To a man like Scott, the different appearances of nature seemed each to contain its own legend ready made, which it was his to call forth: in such or such a place, only such or such events ought with propriety to happen; and in this spirit he made the "Lady of the Lake" for Ben Venue, the "Heart of Midlothian" for Edinburgh, and the "Pirate," so indifferently written but so romantically conceived, for the desolate islands and roaring tideways of the North. The common run of mankind have, from generation to generation, an instinct almost as delicate as that of Scott; but where he created new things, they only forget what is unsuitable among the old; and by survival of the fittest, a body of tradition becomes a work of art. So, in the low dens and high-flying garrets of Edinburgh, people may go back upon dark passages in the town's adventures, and chill their marrow with winter's tales about the fire: tales that are singularly apposite and characteristic, not only of the old life, but of the very constitution of built nature in that part, and singularly well qualified to add horror to horror, when the wind pipes around the tall lands, and hoots adown arched passages, and the far-spread wilderness of city lamps keeps quavering and flaring in the gusts.[Pg 292]
The character of a place is often best expressed through its associations. An event takes root and turns into a legend when it occurs in a fitting environment. Unsightly actions, especially in unpleasant places, carry a true romantic quality and become an everlasting part of their setting. For someone like Scott, the various looks of nature seemed to hold their own ready-made legends, just waiting for him to bring them to life: in certain locations, only specific events should properly take place; with this mindset, he created the "Lady of the Lake" for Ben Venue, the "Heart of Midlothian" for Edinburgh, and the "Pirate," written somewhat poorly but conceived romantically, for the desolate islands and tumultuous tides of the North. The average person has, from generation to generation, an instinct almost as sensitive as Scott's; but while he invented new things, they simply forget what doesn’t fit among the old, and through the survival of the fittest, a body of tradition evolves into a work of art. So, in the low dens and lofty lofts of Edinburgh, people can revisit dark chapters in the city's history and chill themselves with winter tales by the fire: stories that are particularly fitting and characteristic, not only of the old life but also of the very essence of the built environment in that area, and uniquely capable of adding horror to horror when the wind howls around the tall lands, and echoes through arched passages, while the sprawling expanse of city lights flickers and flares in the gusts.[Pg 292]
Here, it is the tale of Begbie the bank-porter, stricken to the heart at a blow and left in his blood within a step or two of the crowded High Street. There, people hush their voices over Burke and Hare; over drugs and violated graves, and the resurrection-men smothering their victims with their knees. Here, again, the fame of Deacon Brodie is kept piously fresh. A great man in his day was the Deacon; well seen in good society, crafty with his hands as a cabinet-maker, and one who could sing a song with taste. Many a citizen was proud to welcome the Deacon to supper, and dismissed him with regret at a timeous hour, who would have been vastly disconcerted had he known how soon, and in what guise, his visitor returned. Many stories are told of this redoubtable Edinburgh burglar, but the one I have in my mind most vividly gives the key of all the rest. A friend of Brodie's, nested some way towards heaven in one of these great lands, had told him of a projected visit to the country, and afterwards, detained by some affairs, put it off and stayed the night in town. The good man had lain some time awake; it was far on in the small hours by the Tron bell; when suddenly there came a creak, a jar, a faint light. Softly he clambered out of bed and up to a false window which looked upon another room, and there, by the glimmer of a thieves' lantern, was his good friend the Deacon in a mask. It is characteristic of the town and the town's manners that this little episode should have been quietly tided over, and quite a good time elapsed before a great robbery, an escape, a Bow Street runner, a cock-fight, an apprehension in a cupboard in Amsterdam, and a last step into the air off his own greatly improved gallows drop, brought the career of Deacon William Brodie to an end. But still, by the mind's eye, he may be seen, a man harassed below a mountain of duplicity, slinking from a magistrate's supper-room to a thieves' ken, and pickeering among the closes by the flicker of a dark lamp.[Pg 293]
Here, we have the story of Begbie, the bank porter, who was struck to the heart by a blow and left bleeding just a couple of steps from the bustling High Street. People hush their voices as they talk about Burke and Hare; about drugs and disturbed graves, and the resurrection men suffocating their victims with their knees. Here, again, the legacy of Deacon Brodie is kept alive. In his day, the Deacon was a prominent figure, well-connected in good society, skilled with his hands as a cabinet maker, and able to sing a song with charm. Many citizens were proud to invite the Deacon to dinner and sad to see him leave at a reasonable hour, who would have been very unsettled had they known how soon and in what form their guest would return. Many stories are told of this formidable Edinburgh burglar, but the one that stands out in my mind provides the key to all the others. A friend of Brodie's, who lived some way up in one of these grand buildings, had mentioned a planned trip to the countryside, but later, caught up with other matters, canceled it and stayed the night in town. The good man lay awake for a while; it was late in the small hours by the Tron bell, when suddenly there was a creak, a jolt, and a faint light. Quietly, he climbed out of bed and went to a false window that overlooked another room, and there, illuminated by a thief's lantern, was his good friend the Deacon wearing a mask. It’s typical of the town and its ways that this little incident was smoothly brushed off, and it took quite some time before a major robbery, an escape, a Bow Street runner, a cockfight, an arrest in a cupboard in Amsterdam, and a final plunge from his own newly improved gallows brought the life of Deacon William Brodie to a close. But still, in the mind's eye, he can be seen, a man weighed down by a mountain of deceit, sneaking from a magistrate's dining room to a thieves' hideout, and scurrying through the alleyways by the light of a dim lamp.[Pg 293]
Or where the Deacon is out of favour, perhaps some memory lingers of the great plagues, and of fatal houses still unsafe to enter within the memory of man. For in time of pestilence the discipline had been sharp and sudden, and what we now call "stamping out contagion" was carried on with deadly rigour. The officials, in their gowns of grey, with a white St. Andrew's cross on back and breast, and white cloth carried before them on a staff, perambulated the city, adding the terror of man's justice to the fear of God's visitation. The dead they buried on the Borough Muir; the living who had concealed the sickness were drowned, if they were women, in the Quarry Holes, and if they were men, were hanged and gibbeted at their own doors; and wherever the evil had passed, furniture was destroyed and houses closed. And the most bogeyish part of the story is about such houses. Two generations back they still stood dark and empty; people avoided them as they passed by; the boldest schoolboy only shouted through the key-hole and made off; for within, it was supposed, the plague lay ambushed like a basilisk, ready to flow forth and spread blain and pustule through the city. What a terrible next-door neighbour for superstitious citizens! A rat scampering within would send a shudder through the stoutest heart. Here, if you like, was a sanitary parable, addressed by our uncleanly forefathers to their own neglect.
Or where the Deacon has fallen out of favor, maybe some memories of the great plagues linger on, and of houses that are still too dangerous to enter in living memory. During the time of the plague, the measures taken were harsh and immediate, and what we now refer to as "stamping out contagion" was enforced with deadly seriousness. Officials in grey robes, with a white St. Andrew's cross on the front and back, carried a white cloth on a staff as they moved through the city, adding the fear of human justice to the dread of divine punishment. They buried the dead in the Borough Muir; those who hid their illness were drowned in the Quarry Holes if they were women, and hanged and displayed at their own doors if they were men; and wherever the plague had spread, furniture was destroyed and houses left abandoned. The scariest part of the story is about those houses. Even two generations ago, they remained dark and empty; people would steer clear of them as they walked by; the bravest schoolboy would only shout through the keyhole and run away because inside, it was believed, the plague lay in wait like a monster, ready to come out and wreak havoc on the city. What a horrific neighbor for superstitious citizens! Even a rat scurrying around inside would send chills through the bravest hearts. Here, if you will, is a public health lesson from our neglectful ancestors directed at themselves.
And then we have Major Weir; for although even his house is now demolished, old Edinburgh cannot clear herself of his unholy memory. He and his sister lived together in an odour of sour piety. She was a marvelous spinster; he had a rare gift of supplication, and was known among devout admirers by the name of Angelical Thomas. "He was a tall, black man, and ordinarily looked down to the ground; a grim countenance, and a big nose. His garb was still a cloak, and somewhat dark, and he never went without his staff." How it came about that Angelical[Pg 294] Thomas was burned in company with his staff, and his sister in gentler manner hanged, and whether these two were simply religious maniacs of the more furious order, or had real as well as imaginary sins upon their old-world shoulders, are points happily beyond the reach of our intention. At least, it is suitable enough that out of this superstitious city some such example should have been put forth: the outcome and fine flower of dark and vehement religion. And at least the facts struck the public fancy and brought forth a remarkable family of myths. It would appear that the Major's staff went upon his errands, and even ran before him with a lantern on dark nights. Gigantic females, "stentoriously laughing and gaping with tehees of laughter" at unseasonable hours of night and morning, haunted the purlieus of his abode. His house fell under such a load of infamy that no one dared to sleep in it, until municipal improvement leveled the structure with the ground. And my father has often been told in the nursery how the devil's coach, drawn by six coal-black horses with fiery eyes, would drive at night into the West Bow, and belated people might see the dead Major through the glasses.
And then we have Major Weir; even though his house is now torn down, old Edinburgh can’t shake off his dark legacy. He and his sister lived together in a cloud of stern piety. She was an impressive single woman; he had a unique talent for prayer, and his devout followers called him Angelical Thomas. "He was a tall, dark man who usually looked at the ground; he had a grim expression and a large nose. He still wore a dark cloak and was never seen without his staff." How it happened that Angelical[Pg 294] Thomas was burned along with his staff, and his sister was hanged in a gentler manner, and whether they were just extreme religious fanatics or if they had real sins along with imaginary ones on their shoulders, are issues that are thankfully beyond our concern. It's fitting that from this superstitious city, such an example would emerge: the culmination of intense and fervent faith. And at least the story captured the public's imagination and led to a remarkable set of legends. It seems that the Major's staff had a life of its own, even running ahead of him with a lantern on dark nights. Huge women, "loudly laughing and bursting with giggles" at odd hours, haunted the area around his home. His house became so infamous that no one dared to sleep in it until it was finally knocked down for urban renewal. My father has often recounted in the nursery how the devil’s coach, pulled by six coal-black horses with glowing eyes, would drive into the West Bow at night, and late-night passersby might catch a glimpse of the dead Major through the windows.
Another legend is that of the two maiden sisters. A legend I am afraid it may be, in the most discreditable meaning of the term; or perhaps something worse—a mere yesterday's fiction. But it is a story of some vitality, and is worthy of a place in the Edinburgh kalendar. This pair inhabited a single room; from the facts, it must have been double-bedded; and it may have been of some dimensions; but when all is said, it was a single room. Here our two spinsters fell out—on some point of controversial divinity belike: but fell out so bitterly that there was never a word spoken between them, black or white, from that day forward. You would have thought they would separate: but no; whether from lack of means, or the Scottish fear of scandal, they continued to keep house together where they were. A chalk line drawn upon the[Pg 295] floor separated their two domains; it bisected the doorway and the fireplace, so that each could go out and in, and do her cooking, without violating the territory of the other. So, for years, they co-existed in a hateful silence; their meals, their ablutions, their friendly visitors, exposed to an unfriendly scrutiny; and at night, in the dark watches, each could hear the breathing of her enemy. Never did four walls look down upon an uglier spectacle than these sisters rivaling in unsisterliness. Here is a canvas for Hawthorne to have turned into a cabinet picture—he had a Puritanic vein, which would have fitted him to treat this Puritanic horror; he could have shown them to us in their sicknesses and at their hideous twin devotions, thumbing a pair of great Bibles, or praying aloud for each other's penitence with marrowy emphasis; now each, with kilted petticoat, at her own corner of the fire on some tempestuous evening; now sitting each at her window, looking out upon the summer landscape sloping far below them towards the firth, and the field-paths where they had wandered hand in hand; or, as age and infirmity grew upon them and prolonged their toilettes, and their hands began to tremble and their heads to nod involuntarily, growing only the more steeled in enmity with years; until one fine day, at a word, a look, a visit, or the approach of death, their hearts would melt and the chalk boundary be overstepped for ever.
Another legend is about the two maiden sisters. I fear it might be a legend in the least respectable sense; or perhaps something even worse—a mere recent invention. But it's a story with some life to it and deserves a spot in the Edinburgh calendar. This pair lived in a single room; from the details, it must have had two beds; and it might have been somewhat spacious; but when all is said, it was still just one room. Here our two spinsters quarreled—likely over some contentious religious issue: but they argued so bitterly that they never spoke a word to each other, good or bad, from that day on. You would think they would separate: but no; whether due to lack of money, or the Scottish fear of disgrace, they continued living together where they were. A chalk line drawn on the[Pg 295] floor divided their two areas; it split the doorway and the fireplace, so each could come and go and cook without invading the other’s space. So, for years, they lived together in a hostile silence; their meals, their personal care, their visitors all under a critical eye; and at night, during the long hours of darkness, each could hear the other breathing. Never did four walls witness a more unpleasant sight than these sisters competing in their un-sisterly behavior. This is a scene Hawthorne could have turned into a detailed picture—he had a Puritan streak that would have suited him to tackle this Puritan horror; he could have depicted them in their sicknesses and at their ghastly twin devotions, clutching a pair of large Bibles, or praying loudly for each other’s repentance with intense emphasis; now each, in a lifted skirt, at her own side of the fire on some stormy evening; now sitting by their windows, gazing out at the summer landscape sloping far beneath them to the firth, and the field paths where they had once walked hand in hand; or, as age and frailty overtook them and made their grooming slow, and their hands began to shake and their heads to nod involuntarily, becoming only more entrenched in their hostility with the years; until one fine day, with just a word, a look, a visitor, or the looming presence of death, their hearts would soften, and the chalk line would be crossed forever.
Alas! to those who know the ecclesiastical history of the race—the most perverse and melancholy in man's annals—this will seem only a figure of much that is typical of Scotland and her high-seated capital above the Forth—a figure so grimly realistic that it may pass with strangers for a caricature. We are wonderful patient haters for conscience' sake up here in the North. I spoke, in the first of these papers, of the Parliaments of the Established and Free Churches, and how they can hear each other singing psalms across the street. There is but a street between them in space, but a shadow between them in[Pg 296] principle; and yet there they sit, enchanted, and in damnatory accents pray for each other's growth in grace. It would be well if there were no more than two; but the sects in Scotland form a large family of sisters, and the chalk lines are thickly drawn, and run through the midst of many private homes. Edinburgh is a city of churches, as though it were a place of pilgrimage. You will see four within a stone-cast at the head of the West Bow. Some are crowded to the doors; some are empty like monuments; and yet you will ever find new ones in the building. Hence that surprising clamour of church bells that suddenly breaks out upon the Sabbath morning, from Trinity and the sea-skirts to Morningside on the borders of the hills. I have heard the chimes of Oxford playing their symphony in a golden autumn morning, and beautiful it was to hear. But in Edinburgh all manner of loud bells join, or rather disjoin, in one swelling, brutal babblement of noise. Now one overtakes another, and now lags behind it; now five or six all strike on the pained tympanum at the same punctual instant of time, and make together a dismal chord of discord; and now for a second all seem to have conspired to hold their peace. Indeed, there are not many uproars in this world more dismal than that of the Sabbath bells in Edinburgh: a harsh ecclesiastical tocsin; the outcry of incongruous orthodoxies, calling on every separate conventicler to put up a protest, each in his own synagogue, against "right-hand extremes and left-hand defections." And surely there are few worse extremes than this extremity of zeal; and few more deplorable defections than this disloyalty to Christian love. Shakespeare wrote a comedy of "Much Ado about Nothing." The Scottish nation made a fantastic tragedy on the same subject. And it is for the success of this remarkable piece that these bells are sounded every Sabbath morning on the hills above the Forth. How many of them might rest silent in the steeple, how many of these ugly churches might be demolished and turned[Pg 297] once more into useful building material, if people who think almost exactly the same thoughts about religion would condescend to worship God under the same roof! But there are the chalk lines. And which is to pocket pride, and speak the foremost word?
Alas! For those familiar with the ecclesiastical history of this race—the most twisted and sad in human history—this will appear as just a representation of much that is typical of Scotland and its elevated capital above the Forth—a depiction so grimly realistic that it might seem like a caricature to outsiders. We are wonderfully patient haters for the sake of conscience up here in the North. In the first of these papers, I talked about the Parliaments of the Established and Free Churches, and how they can hear each other singing psalms across the street. There’s only a street separating them physically, but a shadow divides them in principle; and yet they sit there, enchanted, praying in harsh tones for each other’s growth in grace. It would be nice if there were only two; however, the sects in Scotland form a large family of sisters, with clear divisions thickly drawn, running through many private homes. Edinburgh is a city of churches, almost like a place of pilgrimage. You can see four within a stone’s throw at the head of the West Bow. Some are crowded to the doors; some stand empty like monuments; and yet you will always find new ones being built. Hence that surprising clamor of church bells that suddenly erupts on Sunday morning, from Trinity and the coastline to Morningside at the edge of the hills. I’ve heard the chimes of Oxford playing a symphony on a golden autumn morning, and it was beautiful to hear. But in Edinburgh, all sorts of loud bells join, or rather clash, in one overwhelming, chaotic noise. Now one overtakes another, and now lags behind; now five or six all ring at the same moment, creating a dismal chord of discord; and for a brief second, it seems they've conspired to hold their peace. Indeed, few disturbances in the world are as depressing as the Sunday bells in Edinburgh: a harsh ecclesiastical alarm; the outcry of conflicting orthodoxies, calling each separate group to protest in their own congregation against “right-hand extremes and left-hand defections.” And surely there are few worse extremes than this fervent zeal; and few more regrettable defections than this betrayal of Christian love. Shakespeare wrote a comedy titled "Much Ado about Nothing." The Scottish nation turned the same theme into a fantastic tragedy. And it is for the success of this remarkable piece that these bells ring out every Sunday morning on the hills above the Forth. How many of them could remain silent in the steeple, how many of these unsightly churches could be torn down and turned once again into useful building materials, if people who think almost exactly the same way about religion could agree to worship God under the same roof? But here are the divisions. And who is to swallow their pride and speak first?
CHAPTER V
GREYFRIARS
It was Queen Mary who threw open the gardens of the Grey Friars: a new and semi-rural cemetery in those days, although it has grown an antiquity in its turn and been superseded by half-a-dozen others. The Friars must have had a pleasant time on summer evenings; for their gardens were situated to a wish, with the tall Castle and the tallest of the Castle crags in front. Even now, it is one of our famous Edinburgh points of view; and strangers are led thither to see, by yet another instance, how strangely the city lies upon her hills. The enclosure is of an irregular shape; the double church of Old and New Greyfriars stands on the level at the top; a few thorns are dotted here and there, and the ground falls by terrace and steep slope towards the north. The open shows many slabs and table tombstones; and all round the margin, the place is girt by an array of aristocratic mausoleums appallingly adorned. Setting aside the tombs of Roubilliac, which belong to the heroic order of graveyard art, we Scotch stand, to my fancy, highest among nations in the matter of grimly illustrating death. We seem to love for their own sake the emblems of time and the great change; and even around country churches you will find a wonderful exhibition of skulls, and crossbones, and noseless angels, and trumpets pealing for the Judgment Day. Every mason was a pedestrian Holbein: he had a deep consciousness of death, and loved to put its terrors pithily before the churchyard loiterer; he was brimful of rough hints upon mortality, and any dead farmer was seized upon to be a text. The classical examples of this art are in Greyfriars. In their[Pg 299] time, these were doubtless costly monuments, and reckoned of a very elegant proportion by contemporaries; and now, when the elegance is not so apparent, the significance remains. You may perhaps look with a smile on the profusion of Latin mottoes—some crawling endwise up the shaft of a pillar, some issuing on a scroll from angels' trumpets—on the emblematic horrors, the figures rising headless from the grave, and all the traditional ingenuities in which it pleased our fathers to set forth their sorrow for the dead and their sense of earthly mutability. But it is not a hearty sort of mirth. Each ornament may have been executed by the merriest apprentice, whistling as he plied the mallet; but the original meaning of each, and the combined effect of so many of them in this quiet enclosure, is serious to the point of melancholy.
It was Queen Mary who opened up the gardens of the Grey Friars, which was a new, semi-rural cemetery back then, although it has since aged and been replaced by several others. The Friars must have enjoyed lovely summer evenings; their gardens were perfectly placed, with the tall Castle and its highest crags right in front. Even today, it's one of the well-known viewpoints in Edinburgh, where visitors can see just how uniquely the city sprawls across its hills. The area has an irregular shape; the double church of Old and New Greyfriars sits flat at the top, with a few thorn bushes scattered around, and the ground slopes down in terraces and steep inclines toward the north. The open space features many slabs and table tombstones, and around the edges, the site is surrounded by an array of grand mausoleums that are quite extravagantly decorated. Excluding the tombs of Roubilliac, which belong to the prestigious realm of graveyard art, we Scots, it seems to me, rank highest among nations in starkly portraying death. We appear to have a strange fondness for symbols of time and the significant change it brings; and even around rural churches, you will discover an impressive display of skulls, crossbones, noseless angels, and trumpets heralding the Judgment Day. Every stone mason was like a walking Holbein; he had a profound awareness of death and enjoyed highlighting its fears in a blunt manner to those lingering in the graveyard; he was full of rough reminders about mortality, and any deceased farmer was taken as a subject. The classic examples of this art are found in Greyfriars. Back in their day, these were undoubtedly expensive monuments, valued for their elegant design by those alive at the time; now, although the elegance may not be as noticeable, the meaning remains. You might smile at the abundance of Latin mottos—some creeping along the side of a pillar, others unfurling from angels' trumpets—at the emblematic grotesqueries, figures rising without heads from their graves, and all the familiar artistic interpretations that our ancestors used to express their sorrow for the dead and their awareness of earthly impermanence. But it’s not a truly joyful kind of laughter. Each ornament may have been crafted by the most cheerful apprentice, whistling as he worked with the mallet; however, the original meaning of each piece, along with the overall impact of so many of them in this quiet space, is serious to the point of sadness.
Round a great part of the circuit, houses of a low class present their backs to the churchyard. Only a few inches separate the living from the dead. Here, a window is partly blocked up by the pediment of a tomb; there, where the street falls far below the level of the graves, a chimney has been trained up the back of a monument, and a red pot looks vulgarly over from behind. A damp smell of the graveyard finds its way into houses where workmen sit at meat. Domestic life on a small scale goes forward visibly at the windows. The very solitude and stillness of the enclosure, which lies apart from the town's traffic, serves to accentuate the contrast. As you walk upon the graves, you see children scattering crumbs to feed the sparrows; you hear people singing or washing dishes, or the sound of tears and castigation; the linen on a clothes-pole flaps against funereal sculpture; or perhaps the cat slips over the lintel and descends on a memorial urn. And as there is nothing else astir, these incongruous sights and noises take hold on the attention and exaggerate the sadness of the place.
Around a large part of the circuit, run-down houses turn their backs to the churchyard. Only a few inches separate the living from the dead. Here, a window is partially blocked by the pediment of a tomb; there, where the street drops far below the level of the graves, a chimney has been built up the back of a monument, with a red pot awkwardly peeking over the top. A damp smell from the graveyard seeps into homes where workers are eating. Everyday life plays out visibly at the windows. The solitude and stillness of the area, separate from the town's hustle and bustle, highlight the contrast even more. As you walk over the graves, you see children throwing crumbs to feed the sparrows; you hear people singing or washing dishes, or the sounds of crying and reprimanding; laundry flaps against somber sculptures; or perhaps a cat slips over the threshold and lands on a memorial urn. And since nothing else is happening, these out-of-place sights and sounds catch your attention and amplify the sadness of the place.
Greyfriars is continually overrun by cats. I have seen one afternoon, as many as thirteen of them seated on the[Pg 300] grass beside old Milne, the Master Builder, all sleek and fat, and complacently blinking, as if they had fed upon strange meats. Old Milne was chanting with the saints, as we may hope, and cared little for the company about his grave; but I confess the spectacle had an ugly side for me; and I was glad to step forward and raise my eyes to where the Castle and the roofs of the Old Town, and the spire of the Assembly Hall, stood deployed against the sky with the colourless precision of engraving. An open outlook is to be desired from a churchyard, and a sight of the sky and some of the world's beauty relieves a mind from morbid thoughts.
Greyfriars is constantly filled with cats. One afternoon, I saw as many as thirteen of them lounging on the[Pg 300] grass next to old Milne, the Master Builder, all sleek and plump, lazily blinking as if they had eaten something unusual. Old Milne was probably singing with the saints, not caring much about the company around his grave; but I have to admit, the scene had a disturbing aspect for me. I was relieved to step forward and lift my gaze to where the Castle, the rooftops of the Old Town, and the spire of the Assembly Hall stood against the sky, looking as precise as an engraving. It's nice to have an open view from a churchyard, and seeing the sky and some of the world's beauty helps clear the mind from dark thoughts.
I shall never forget one visit. It was a grey, dropping day; the grass was strung with rain-drops; and the people in the houses kept hanging out their shirts and petticoats and angrily taking them in again, as the weather turned from wet to fair and back again. A gravedigger, and a friend of his, a gardener from the country, accompanied me into one after another of the cells and little courtyards in which it gratified the wealthy of old days to enclose their old bones from neighbourhood. In one, under a sort of shrine, we found a forlorn human effigy, very realistically executed down to the detail of his ribbed stockings, and holding in his hand a ticket with the date of his demise. He looked most pitiful and ridiculous, shut up by himself in his aristocratic precinct, like a bad old boy or an inferior forgotten deity under a new dispensation; the burdocks grew familiarly about his feet, the rain dripped all round him; and the world maintained the most entire indifference as to who he was or whither he had gone. In another, a vaulted tomb, handsome externally but horrible inside with damp and cobwebs, there were three mounds of black earth and an uncovered thigh-bone. This was the place of interment, it appeared, of a family with whom the gardener had been long in service. He was among old acquaintances. "This'll be Miss Marg'et's," said he, giving the bone a friendly kick. "The auld —— !" I have always an uncomfortable feeling in a graveyard, at sight of so many[Pg 301] tombs to perpetuate memories best forgotten; but I never had the impression so strongly as that day. People had been at some expense in both these cases: to provoke a melancholy feeling of derision in the one, and an insulting epithet in the other. The proper inscription for the most part of mankind, I began to think, is the cynical jeer, cras tibi. That, if anything, will stop the mouth of a carper; since it both admits the worst and carries the war triumphantly into the enemy's camp.
I will never forget one visit. It was a gray, dreary day; the grass was dotted with raindrops, and people in their houses kept hanging out their shirts and skirts only to angrily take them back in as the weather shifted from wet to clear and back again. A gravedigger and his friend, a gardener from the countryside, took me from one cell to another and through the little courtyards where the wealthy of the past had chosen to entomb their remains, away from their neighbors. In one area, under a sort of shrine, we discovered a worn human figure, very realistically designed right down to the detail of his ribbed stockings, holding a ticket with the date of his death. He looked both pitiful and ridiculous, locked away by himself in his posh space, like a naughty old boy or a forgotten minor god under a new order; thistles grew familiarly around his feet, the rain dripped all around him, and the world showed complete indifference to who he was or where he had gone. In another area, a vaulted tomb that was nice on the outside but horrifying on the inside with dampness and cobwebs, there were three mounds of black earth and an exposed thigh bone. This was the burial site, it seemed, of a family with whom the gardener had worked for a long time. He was in the company of old friends. "This'll be Miss Marg'et's," he said, giving the bone a playful kick. "The old ----!" I always feel uneasy in a graveyard, seeing so many [Pg 301] tombs meant to keep memories alive that are best forgotten; but I had never felt it so intensely as I did that day. People had spent some money on both these cases: to evoke a sad feeling of mockery in one, and a scornful remark in the other. I started to think that the appropriate inscription for most people is the cynical sneer, cras tibi. That, if anything, will silence a critic; since it accepts the worst and boldly takes the fight into the enemy's territory.
Greyfriars is a place of many associations. There was one window in a house at the lower end, now demolished, which was pointed out to me by the gravedigger as a spot of legendary interest. Burke, the resurrection-man, infamous for so many murders at five shillings a head, used to sit thereat, with pipe and nightcap, to watch burials going forward on the green. In a tomb higher up, which must then have been but newly finished, John Knox, according to the same informant, had taken refuge in a turmoil of the Reformation. Behind the church is the haunted mausoleum of Sir George Mackenzie: Bloody Mackenzie, Lord Advocate in the Covenanting troubles and author of some pleasing sentiments on toleration. Here, in the last century, an old Heriot's Hospital boy once harboured from the pursuit of the police. The Hospital is next door to Greyfriars—a courtly building among lawns, where, on Founder's Day, you may see a multitude of children playing Kiss-in-the-Ring and Round the Mulberry-bush. Thus, when the fugitive had managed to conceal himself in the tomb, his old schoolmates had a hundred opportunities to bring him food; and there he lay in safety till a ship was found to smuggle him abroad. But his must have been indeed a heart of brass, to lie all day and night alone with the dead persecutor; and other lads were far from emulating him in courage. When a man's soul is certainly in hell, his body will scarce lie quiet in a tomb, however costly; some time or other the door must open, and the reprobate come forth in the abhorred[Pg 302] garments of the grave. It was thought a high piece of prowess to knock at the Lord Advocate's mausoleum and challenge him to appear. "Bluidy Mackenzie, come oot if ye daur!" sang the foolhardy urchins. But Sir George had other affairs on hand; and the author of an essay on toleration continues to sleep peacefully among the many whom he so intolerantly helped to slay.
Greyfriars is a place with a lot of history. There was one window in a house at the lower end, which has now been torn down, that the gravedigger pointed out to me as a legendary spot. Burke, the infamous body snatcher known for committing numerous murders for five shillings each, used to sit there with his pipe and nightcap, watching the burials happening on the green. In a tomb further up, which must have been recently finished back then, John Knox, according to the gravedigger, took refuge during the turmoil of the Reformation. Behind the church is the haunted mausoleum of Sir George Mackenzie: Bloody Mackenzie, who was the Lord Advocate during the Covenanting troubles and known for his rather pleasant views on toleration. Here, in the last century, a former student from Heriot's Hospital once hid from the police. The Hospital is right next to Greyfriars—a grand building surrounded by lawns, where, on Founder's Day, you can see lots of kids playing Kiss-in-the-Ring and Round the Mulberry-bush. So, when the fugitive managed to hide in the tomb, his old classmates had plenty of chances to bring him food, and he stayed safe there until he found a ship to smuggle him abroad. But he must have had a heart of stone to lie all day and night alone with the dead persecutor; other boys certainly didn’t have his courage. When a man’s soul is surely in hell, his body won’t rest quietly in a tomb, no matter how fancy it is; sooner or later, the door will open, and the damned will emerge in the hated garments of the grave. It was considered quite brave to knock on the Lord Advocate's mausoleum and challenge him to appear. "Bluidy Mackenzie, come oot if ye daur!" the reckless kids would sing. But Sir George had other matters to deal with; and the author of an essay on toleration continues to rest peacefully among those he intolerantly helped to kill.
For this infelix campus, as it is dubbed in one of its own inscriptions—an inscription over which Dr. Johnson passed a critical eye—is in many ways sacred to the memory of the men whom Mackenzie persecuted. It was here, on the flat tombstones, that the Covenant was signed by an enthusiastic people. In the long arm of the churchyard that extends to Lauriston, the prisoners from Bothwell Bridge—fed on bread and water, and guarded, life for life, by vigilant marksmen—lay five months looking for the scaffold or the plantations. And while the good work was going forward in the Grassmarket, idlers in Greyfriars might have heard the throb of the military drums that drowned the voices of the martyrs. Nor is this all: for down in the corner farthest from Sir George, there stands a monument, dedicated, in uncouth Covenanting verse, to all who lost their lives in that contention. There is no moorsman shot in a snow shower beside Irongray or Co'monell; there is not one of the two hundred who were drowned off the Orkneys; nor so much as a poor, over-driven, Covenanting slave in the American plantations; but can lay claim to a share in that memorial, and, if such things interest just men among the shades, can boast he has a monument on earth as well as Julius Caesar or the Pharaohs. Where they may all lie, I know not. Far-scattered bones, indeed! But if the reader cares to learn how some of them—or some part of some of them—found their way at length to such honourable sepulture, let him listen to the words of one who was their comrade in life and their apologist when they were dead. Some of the insane controversial matter I omit, as well as[Pg 303] some digressions, but leave the rest in Patrick Walker's language and orthography:—
For this infelix campus, as it’s called in one of its own inscriptions—an inscription that Dr. Johnson scrutinized—is in many ways a sacred place honoring the memory of the men whom Mackenzie persecuted. It was here, on the flat tombstones, that the Covenant was signed by an enthusiastic crowd. In the long section of the churchyard that stretches to Lauriston, the prisoners from Bothwell Bridge—fed only on bread and water and watched over, life for life, by vigilant marksmen—lay for five months waiting for the scaffold or the plantations. And while the good work was being done in the Grassmarket, people lounging in Greyfriars might have heard the thump of military drums that drowned out the voices of the martyrs. But that’s not all: down in the corner farthest from Sir George, there’s a monument dedicated, in awkward Covenanting verse, to everyone who lost their lives in that struggle. There’s no moorsman shot in a snowstorm near Irongray or Co'monell; not a single one of the two hundred who drowned off the Orkneys; nor even a poor, overworked, Covenanting slave in the American plantations; but they can all claim a part in that memorial, and if such things matter to just people among the shadows, they can say they have a monument on earth just like Julius Caesar or the Pharaohs. Where they may all rest, I do not know. Scattered bones, indeed! But if the reader wants to find out how some of them—or some part of some of them—eventually received such honorable burial, let them listen to the words of someone who was their comrade in life and their defender after they were gone. I’ve left out some of the crazy controversial stuff, as well as[Pg 303] some digressions, but I’ll keep the rest in Patrick Walker's language and style:—
"The never to be forgotten Mr. James Renwlck told me, that he was Witness to their Public Murder at the Gallowlee, between Leith and Edinburgh, when he saw the Hangman hash and hagg off all their Five heads, with Patrick Foreman's Right Hand: Their Bodies were all buried at the Gallows Foot: their Heads, with Patrick's Hand, were brought and put upon five Pikes on the Pleasaunce-Port.... Mr. Renwick told me that it was the first public Action that his Hand was at, to conveen Friends, and lift their murthered Bodies, and carried them to the West Churchyard of Edinburgh,"—not Greyfriars, this time,—"and buried them there. Then they came about the City ... and took down these Five Heads and that Hand; and Day being come, they went quickly up the Pleasaunce; and when they came to Lauristoun Yards, upon the South-side of the City, they durst not venture, being so light, to go and bury their Heads with their Bodies, which they designed; it being present death, if any of them had been found. Alexander Tweedie, a Friend, being with them, who at that Time was Gardner in these Yards, concluded to bury them in his Yard, being in a Box (wrapped in Linen), where they lay 45 Years except 3 Days, being executed upon the 10th of October 1681, and found the 7th Day of October 1726. That Piece of Ground lay for some years unlaboured; and trenching it, the Gardner found them, which affrighted him; the Box was consumed. Mr. Schaw, the Owner of these Yards, caused lift them, and lay them upon a Table in his Summer-house: Mr. Schaw's mother was so kind, as to cut out a Linen-cloth and cover them. They lay Twelve Days there, where all had Access to see them. Alexander Tweedie, the foresaid Gardner, said, when dying, There was a Treasure hid in his Yard, but neither Gold nor Silver. Daniel Tweedie, his Son, came along with me to that Yard, and told me that his Father planted a white Rose-bush above them, and farther down the Yard a red Rose-bush, which were more fruitful than any other Bush in the Yard.... Many came"—to see the heads—"out of Curiosity; yet I rejoiced to see so many concerned grave Men and Women favouring the Dust of our Martyrs. There were Six of us concluded to bury them upon the Nineteenth Day of October 1726, and every one of us to acquaint Friends of the Day and Hour, being Wednesday, the Day of the Week on which most of them were executed, and at 4 of the Clock at Night, being the Hour that most of them went to their resting Graves. We caused make a compleat Coffin for them in Black, with four Yards of fine Linen, the way that our Martyrs Corps were managed.... Accordingly we kept the aforesaid Day and Hour, and doubled the Linen, and laid the Half of it below them, their nether Jaws being parted from their Heads; but being young Men, their Teeth remained. All were Witness to the Holes in each of their Heads, which the Hangman broke with his Hammer; and according to the Bigness of their Sculls, we laid the [Pg 304]Jaws to them, and drew the other Half of the Linen above them, and stufft the Coffin with Shavings. Some prest hard to go thorow the chief Parts of the City as was done at the Revolution; but this we refused, considering that it looked airy and frothy, to make such Show of them, and inconsistent with the solid serious Observing of such an affecting, surprizing unheard-of Dispensation: But took the ordinary Way of other Burials from that Place, to wit, we went east the Back of the Wall, and in at Bristo-Port, and down the Way to the Head of the Cowgate, and turned up to the Churchyard, where they were interred closs to the Martyrs Tomb, with the greatest Multitude of People Old and Young, Men and Women, Ministers and others, that ever I saw together."
"The unforgettable Mr. James Renwick told me that he witnessed their public execution at the Gallowlee, between Leith and Edinburgh, when he saw the hangman brutally sever all their five heads using Patrick Foreman’s right hand. Their bodies were buried at the foot of the gallows, while their heads—along with Patrick's hand—were displayed on five pikes at the Pleasaunce-Port.... Mr. Renwick mentioned that this was the first public act where he gathered friends to recover their murdered bodies and took them to the West Churchyard of Edinburgh,"—not Greyfriars this time,—"and buried them there. Then they moved around the city ... and removed these five heads and that hand; as day broke, they hurried up the Pleasaunce; and when they reached the Lauristoun yards on the south side of the city, they were too frightened, as it was still light, to bury the heads with the bodies, which was their intention, knowing they’d face certain death if caught. Alexander Tweedie, a friend who was with them and worked as a gardener there, decided to bury them in his yard, placing them in a box wrapped in linen, where they remained for 45 years except for 3 days, having been executed on the 10th of October 1681 and discovered on the 7th of October 1726. That piece of ground remained untouched for a few years, and while digging it, the gardener found them, which startled him; the box had decayed. Mr. Schaw, the owner of the yards, had them lifted and displayed on a table in his summer house. Mr. Schaw’s mother kindly made a linen cloth to cover them. They were there for twelve days, available for anyone to see. Alexander Tweedie, the aforementioned gardener, said during his last moments that there was a treasure hidden in his yard, but it was neither gold nor silver. Daniel Tweedie, his son, accompanied me to that yard and told me his father had planted a white rose bush above them and a red rose bush further down the yard, which were more fruitful than any other bushes there.... Many came"—to see the heads—"out of curiosity; still, I was glad to see so many concerned, solemn men and women honoring the dust of our martyrs. Six of us decided to bury them on the 19th of October 1726, and we all informed friends about the day and hour, which was Wednesday, the same day of the week on which most of them were executed, at 4 o'clock at night, the hour that most of them entered their final resting place. We arranged a complete black coffin for them, with four yards of fine linen, the same way our martyrs' bodies were treated.... So we observed the mentioned day and hour, and doubled the linen, placing half of it beneath them, their lower jaws detached from their heads; but being young men, their teeth remained. Everyone witnessed the holes in each of their heads, made by the hangman's hammer; and according to the size of their skulls, we placed the [Pg 304]jaws next to them, and pulled the other half of the linen over them, stuffing the coffin with shavings. Some strongly urged that we showcase them through the main parts of the city like they did at the Revolution; but we refused, thinking it would seem superficial and frivolous to make such a display, and inconsistent with the serious observance of such a striking, unprecedented event: Instead, we took the usual route for other burials from that place, going east along the back of the wall, entering at Bristo-Port, down the way to the head of the Cowgate, and turning toward the churchyard, where they were laid to rest close to the Martyrs' Tomb, in front of the largest crowd of people—young and old, men and women, ministers and others—I had ever seen gathered together."
And so there they were at last, in "their resting graves." So long as men do their duty, even if it be greatly in a misapprehension, they will be leading pattern lives; and whether or not they come to lie beside a martyrs' monument, we may be sure they will find a safe haven somewhere in the providence of God. It is not well to think of death, unless we temper the thought with that of heroes who despised it. Upon what ground, is of small account; if it be only the bishop who was burned for his faith in the antipodes, his memory lightens the heart and makes us walk undisturbed among graves. And so the martyrs' monument is a wholesome heartsome spot in the field of the dead; and as we look upon it, a brave influence comes to us from the land of those who have won their discharge and, in another phrase of Patrick Walker's, got "cleanly off the stage."
And so there they were at last, in "their resting graves." As long as people do their duty, even if it's based on a misunderstanding, they'll be leading exemplary lives; and whether or not they end up resting beside a martyr's monument, we can be sure they'll find a safe place somewhere in God's plan. It's not good to dwell on death unless we balance that thought with memories of heroes who faced it fearlessly. The reason matters little; even if it's just the bishop who was burned for his faith in a far-off land, his memory lifts our spirits and helps us walk peacefully among graves. Thus, the martyr's monument is a comforting and uplifting place in the cemetery; and as we gaze upon it, we feel a courageous influence coming from the realm of those who have completed their journey and, to borrow Patrick Walker's words, "cleanly exited the stage."
CHAPTER VI
NEW TOWN: TOWN AND COUNTRY
It is as much a matter of course to decry the New Town as to exalt the Old; and the most celebrated authorities have picked out this quarter as the very emblem of what is condemnable in architecture. Much may be said, much indeed has been said, upon the text; but to the unsophisticated, who call anything pleasing if it only pleases them, the New Town of Edinburgh seems, in itself, not only gay and airy, but highly picturesque. An old skipper, invincibly ignorant of all theories of the sublime and beautiful, once propounded as his most radiant notion for Paradise: "The new town of Edinburgh, with the wind the matter of a point free." He has now gone to that sphere where all good tars are promised pleasant weather in the song, and perhaps his thoughts fly somewhat higher. But there are bright and temperate days—with soft air coming from the inland hills, military music sounding bravely from the hollow of the gardens, the flags all waving on the palaces of Princes Street—when I have seen the town through a sort of glory, and shaken hands in sentiment with the old sailor. And indeed, for a man who has been much tumbled round Orcadian skerries, what scene could be more agreeable to witness? On such a day, the valley wears a surprising air of festival. It seems (I do not know how else to put my meaning) as if it were a trifle too good to be true. It is what Paris ought to be. It has the scenic quality that would best set off a life of unthinking, open-air diversion. It was meant by nature for the realization of the society of comic operas. And you can imagine, if the climate were but towardly, how all the world and his wife would flock into these gardens in the[Pg 306] cool of the evening, to hear cheerful music, to sip pleasant drinks, to see the moon rise from behind Arthur's Seat and shine upon the spires and monuments and the green tree-tops in the valley. Alas! and the next morning the rain is splashing on the window, and the passengers flee along Princes Street before the galloping squalls.
It’s just as common to criticize the New Town as it is to praise the Old Town; even the most famous experts have labeled this area as the perfect example of what’s wrong with architecture. There’s a lot that can be said, and indeed has been said, on this topic; but to those who simply enjoy what they like, the New Town of Edinburgh appears not only bright and breezy but also very picturesque. An old sailor, completely unaware of any theories about beauty and the sublime, once shared his idea of Paradise: “The New Town of Edinburgh, with the wind just right.” He has now moved on to that place where all good sailors are promised nice weather in song, and maybe his thoughts have elevated a bit. Yet there are bright, mild days—with a gentle breeze from the inland hills, lively military music echoing from the gardens, and flags waving on the palaces of Princes Street—when I see the town glow and feel a sense of connection with the old sailor. Honestly, for someone who has been tossed around the Orkney coast, what environment could be more delightful to witness? On such a day, the valley has a surprising festive vibe. It feels (I can't explain it any other way) as if it’s just a bit too good to be true. It’s what Paris should be like. It has a scenic quality that perfectly complements a life of carefree, outdoor fun. Nature intended it for the kind of society found in comic operas. And you can picture how everyone would flock to these gardens in the[Pg 306] cool of the evening if the weather cooperated, to enjoy cheerful music, sip refreshing drinks, and watch the moon rise behind Arthur's Seat, casting its glow on the spires, monuments, and treetops in the valley. But alas! the next morning, rain is splattering against the window, and people are rushing along Princes Street to escape the wild gusts.
It cannot be denied that the original design was faulty and short-sighted, and did not fully profit by the capabilities of the situation. The architect was essentially a town bird, and he laid out the modern city with a view to street scenery, and to street scenery alone. The country did not enter into his plan; he had never lifted his eyes to the hills. If he had so chosen, every street upon the northern slope might have been a noble terrace and commanded an extensive and beautiful view. But the space has been too closely built; many of the houses front the wrong way, intent, like the Man with the Muck-Rake, on what is not worth observation, and standing discourteously back-foremost in the ranks; and in a word, it is too often only from attic windows, or here and there at a crossing, that you can get a look beyond the city upon its diversified surroundings. But perhaps it is all the more surprising, to come suddenly on a corner, and see a perspective of a mile or more of falling street, and beyond that woods and villas, and a blue arm of sea, and the hills upon the farther side.
It’s undeniable that the original design was flawed and shortsighted, missing out on the potential of the situation. The architect was primarily a town person, and he designed the modern city focused solely on street views. The countryside wasn’t part of his vision; he never looked up at the hills. If he had wanted, every street on the northern slope could have been a grand terrace with a wide and stunning view. But the area has been too densely developed; many buildings face the wrong way, fixated, like the Man with the Muck-Rake, on things that aren’t worth noticing, facing awkwardly away in the lineup; and in short, it’s often only from attic windows or occasionally at a intersection that you can see beyond the city to its varied surroundings. Yet it’s perhaps even more surprising to suddenly turn a corner and see a view stretching a mile or more down a sloping street, with woods, villas, a stretch of blue sea, and hills in the distance.
Fergusson, our Edinburgh poet, Burns's model, once saw a butterfly at the Town Cross; and the sight inspired him with a worthless little ode. This painted countryman, the dandy of the rose garden, looked far abroad in such a humming neighbourhood; and you can fancy what moral considerations a youthful poet would supply. But the incident, in a fanciful sort of way, is characteristic of the place. Into no other city does the sight of the country enter so far; if you do not meet a butterfly, you shall certainly catch a glimpse of far-away trees upon your walk; and the place is full of theatre tricks in the way of scenery. You peep under an arch, you descend stairs[Pg 307] that look as if they would land you in a cellar, you turn to the back window of a grimy tenement in a lane:—and behold! you are face-to-face with distant and bright prospects. You turn a corner, and there is the sun going down into the Highland hills. You look down an alley, and see ships tacking for the Baltic.
Fergusson, our poet from Edinburgh and a model for Burns, once spotted a butterfly at the Town Cross, which inspired him to write a rather trivial little poem. This well-dressed countryman, the dandy of the rose garden, gazed broadly in such a vibrant area, and you can imagine the kind of deep thoughts a young poet would come up with. But in a whimsical way, this incident captures the essence of the place. No other city allows the countryside to blend in so much; if you don’t see a butterfly, you’ll definitely catch sight of distant trees on your walk, and the scenery is full of theatrical tricks. You peek under an arch, go down stairs[Pg 307] that seem like they’d lead you to a basement, and turn to the back window of a shabby building in a narrow lane—only to find yourself facing lovely distant views. You turn a corner, and there’s the sun setting over the Highland hills. You glance down an alley and see ships sailing toward the Baltic.
For the country people to see Edinburgh on her hill-tops is one thing; it is another for the citizen, from the thick of his affairs, to overlook the country. It should be a genial and ameliorating influence in life; it should prompt good thoughts and remind him of Nature's unconcern: that he can watch from day to day, as he trots officeward, how the Spring green brightens in the wood or the field grows black under a moving ploughshare. I have been tempted, in this connection, to deplore the slender faculties of the human race, with its penny-whistle of a voice, its dull ears, and its narrow range of sight. If you could see as people are to see in heaven, if you had eyes such as you can fancy for a superior race, if you could take clear note of the objects of vision, not only a few yards, but a few miles from where you stand:—think how agreeably your sight would be entertained, how pleasantly your thoughts would be diversified, as you walked the Edinburgh streets! For you might pause, in some business perplexity, in the midst of the city traffic, and perhaps catch the eye of a shepherd as he sat down to breathe upon a heathery shoulder of the Pentlands; or perhaps some urchin, clambering in a country elm, would put aside the leaves and show you his flushed and rustic visage; or a fisher racing seawards, with the tiller under his elbow, and the sail sounding in the wind, would fling you a salutation from between Anst'er and the May.
For people in the countryside, seeing Edinburgh from its hilltops is one thing; for a city dweller, caught up in daily life, overlooking the countryside is another. It should be a warm and uplifting influence in life; it should inspire good thoughts and remind him of Nature’s indifference: that he can observe, day after day, as he heads to work, how the Spring greens brighten in the woods or how the fields turn dark under a plowing share. I’ve often been tempted, in this context, to lament the limited abilities of humankind, with its faint voice, dull ears, and narrow vision. If you could see as people are said to see in heaven, if you had the kind of eyes imagined for a superior race, if you could clearly note what lies not just a few yards but a few miles away: think how wonderfully your sight would be entertained, how pleasantly your thoughts would be varied, as you walked the streets of Edinburgh! You could pause, caught in a business dilemma, amidst the city bustle, and perhaps catch sight of a shepherd resting on a heather-covered slope of the Pentlands; or maybe a kid, climbing up an elm in the countryside, would push aside the leaves to reveal his flushed, rustic face; or a fisherman racing toward the sea, with the tiller under his elbow and the sails flapping in the wind, would throw you a greeting from between Anst’er and the May.
To be old is not the same thing as to be picturesque; nor because the Old Town bears a strange physiognomy, does it at all follow that the New Town shall look commonplace. Indeed, apart from antique houses, it is curious[Pg 308] how much description would apply commonly to either. The same sudden accidents of ground, a similar dominating site above the plain, and the same superposition of one rank of society over another, are to be observed in both. Thus, the broad and comely approach to Princes Street from the east, lined with hotels and public offices, makes a leap over the gorge of the Low Calton; if you cast a glance over the parapet, you look direct into that sunless and disreputable confluent of Leith Street; and the same tall houses open upon both thoroughfares. This is only the New Town passing overhead above its own cellars; walking, so to speak, over its own children, as is the way of cities and the human race. But at the Dean Bridge, you may behold a spectacle of a more novel order. The river runs at the bottom of a deep valley, among rocks and between gardens; the crest of either bank is occupied by some of the most commodious streets and crescents in the modern city; and a handsome bridge unites the two summits. Over this, every afternoon, private carriages go spinning by, and ladies with card cases pass to and fro about the duties of society. And yet down below, you may still see, with its mills and foaming weir, the little rural village of Dean. Modern improvement has gone overhead on its high-level viaduct; and the extended city has cleanly overleapt, and left unaltered, what was once the summer retreat of its comfortable citizens. Every town embraces hamlets in its growth; Edinburgh herself has embraced a good few; but it is strange to see one still surviving—and to see it some hundreds of feet below your path. Is it Torre del Greco that is built above buried Herculaneum? Herculaneum was dead at least; but the sun still shines upon the roofs of Dean; the smoke still rises thriftily from its chimneys; the dusty miller comes to his door, looks at the gurgling water, hearkens to the turning wheel and the birds about the shed, and perhaps whistles an air of his own to enrich the symphony—for all the world as if Edinburgh were still the old Edinburgh[Pg 309] on the Castle Hill, and Dean were still the quietest of hamlets buried a mile or so in the green country.
To be old isn't the same as being charming; just because the Old Town has a unique look doesn't mean the New Town has to seem ordinary. In fact, besides the historic buildings, it's interesting[Pg 308] how much description could apply to either one. The same unexpected changes in terrain, a similar dominant location above the plain, and the same layering of social classes can be seen in both areas. Thus, the wide and attractive approach to Princes Street from the east, lined with hotels and public offices, stretches across the gorge of the Low Calton; if you peek over the edge, you can see straight into that shadowy and shabby intersection of Leith Street; and the same tall buildings lead to both roads. This is simply the New Town hovering above its own basements; walking, so to speak, over its own foundations, just like cities and humanity do. But at the Dean Bridge, you can witness a scene that's a bit different. The river flows at the bottom of a deep valley, among rocks and gardens; the tops of both banks are lined with some of the most convenient streets and crescents in the modern city; and a beautiful bridge connects the two heights. Every afternoon, private carriages glide by overhead, and ladies with card cases move around attending to social duties. Yet down below, you can still see, with its mills and bubbling weir, the little rural village of Dean. Modern development has gone above it on its high viaduct; and the expanding city has neatly jumped over and left untouched what was once the summer getaway for its comfortable citizens. Every city absorbs small towns as it grows; Edinburgh itself has included quite a few; but it's unusual to see one still thriving—especially when it's hundreds of feet beneath your path. Is it Torre del Greco that stands over buried Herculaneum? Herculaneum was long gone; but sunlight still warms the roofs of Dean; smoke still rises industriously from its chimneys; the dusty miller steps outside, glances at the bubbling water, listens to the turning wheel and the birds near the shed, and perhaps whistles a tune of his own to add to the mix—as if Edinburgh were still the old Edinburgh[Pg 309] on the Castle Hill, and Dean were still the quietest of hamlets nestled a mile or so in the green countryside.
It is not so long ago since magisterial David Hume lent the authority of his example to the exodus from the Old Town, and took up his new abode in a street which is still (so oddly may a jest become perpetuated) known as Saint David Street. Nor is the town so large but a holiday schoolboy may harry a bird's nest within half a mile of his own door. There are places that still smell of the plough in memory's nostrils. Here, one had heard a blackbird on a hawthorn; there, another was taken on summer evenings to eat strawberries and cream; and you have seen a waving wheatfield on the site of your present residence. The memories of an Edinburgh boy are but partly memories of the town. I look back with delight on many an escalade of garden walls; many a ramble among lilacs full of piping birds; many an exploration in obscure quarters that were neither town nor country; and I think that both for my companions and myself, there was a special interest, a point of romance, and a sentiment as of foreign travel, when we hit in our excursions on the butt-end of some former hamlet, and found a few rustic cottages embedded among streets and squares. The tunnel to the Scotland Street Station, the sight of the trains shooting out of its dark maw with the two guards upon the brake, the thought of its length and the many ponderous edifices and open thoroughfares above, were certainly things of paramount impressiveness to a young mind. It was a subterranean passage, although of a larger bore than we were accustomed to in Ainsworth's novels; and these two words, "subterranean passage," were in themselves an irresistible attraction, and seemed to bring us nearer in spirit to the heroes we loved and the black rascals we secretly aspired to imitate. To scale the Castle Rock from West Princes Street Gardens, and lay a triumphal hand against the rampart itself, was to taste a high order of romantic[Pg 310] pleasure. And there are other sights and exploits which crowd back upon my mind under a very strong illumination of remembered pleasure. But the effect of not one of them all will compare with the discoverer's joy, and the sense of old Time and his slow changes on the face of this earth, with which I explored such corners as Cannon-mills or Water Lane, or the nugget of cottages at Broughton Market. They were more rural than the open country, and gave a greater impression of antiquity than the oldest land upon the High Street. They too, like Fergusson's butterfly, had a quaint air of having wandered far from their own place; they looked abashed and homely, with their gables and their creeping plants, their outside stairs and running null-streams; there were corners that smelt like the end of the country garden where I spent my Aprils; and the people stood to gossip at their doors, as they might have done in Colinton or Cramond.
It wasn't that long ago when the great David Hume set an example by leaving the Old Town for a new home on a street that's still, in a strangely lasting joke, called Saint David Street. The town isn’t so big that a schoolboy on holiday can’t find a bird's nest within half a mile from home. There are still places that remind you of farming in your memories. Here, you listened to a blackbird in a hawthorn; there, you were taken on summer evenings to enjoy strawberries and cream; and you’ve seen a waving wheatfield where your home now stands. The memories of a boy from Edinburgh aren't just about the town alone. I fondly remember climbing over garden walls, wandering among lilac bushes filled with singing birds, and exploring hidden corners that felt like neither town nor countryside. There was something special and romantic about stumbling upon the remains of a former village, finding a few rustic cottages tucked among streets and squares. The tunnel to Scotland Street Station, watching trains come out of its dark entrance with two guards on the brake, the thought of how long it was and all the heavy buildings and open streets above, were all incredibly impressive to a young mind. It was an underground passage, larger than what we were used to in Ainsworth's novels; and just the words "underground passage" were irresistibly appealing, making us feel closer in spirit to the heroes we admired and the shady characters we secretly wanted to imitate. Climbing up Castle Rock from West Princes Street Gardens and resting a victorious hand against the rampart itself offered a high thrill of romantic pleasure. There are many other sights and adventures that flood my mind with a bright glow of remembered joy. But nothing compares to the joy of discovery and the sense of old Time and his gradual changes on this earth while exploring corners like Cannon-mills or Water Lane, or the cluster of cottages at Broughton Market. They felt more rural than the open countryside and suggested more history than the oldest land on the High Street. Like Fergusson's butterfly, they had a charming quality of seeming far from home; they looked humble and familiar, with their gables, climbing plants, outside stairs, and trickling streams; there were spots that smelled like the end of the country garden where I spent my Aprils; and the people stood chatting at their doors, just like they might have in Colinton or Cramond.
In a great measure we may, and shall, eradicate this haunting flavour of the country. The last elm is dead in Elm Row; and the villas and the workmen's quarters spread apace on all the borders of the city. We can cut down the trees; we can bury the grass under dead paving-stones; we can drive brisk streets through all our sleepy quarters; and we may forget the stories and the play-grounds of our boyhood. But we have some possessions that not even the infuriate zeal of builders can utterly abolish and destroy. Nothing can abolish the hills, unless it be a cataclysm of nature, which shall subvert Edinburgh Castle itself and lay all her florid structures in the dust. And as long as we have the hills and the Firth, we have a famous heritage to leave our children. Our windows, at no expense to us, are mostly artfully stained to represent a landscape. And when the Spring comes round, and the hawthorn begins to flower, and the meadows to smell of young grass, even in the thickest of our streets, the country hill-tops find out a young man's eyes, and set his heart beating for travel and pure air.
In many ways, we can, and will, get rid of this lingering feel of the countryside. The last elm tree is gone in Elm Row; and the houses and workers' neighborhoods are rapidly spreading at the city's edges. We can chop down the trees; we can cover the grass with dead pavement; we can pave busy streets through all our quiet areas; and we might forget the stories and playgrounds of our childhood. But we have some treasures that even the reckless passion of builders can't completely wipe out. Nothing can remove the hills, unless there's a natural disaster that would topple Edinburgh Castle itself and bury all its ornate buildings. As long as we have the hills and the Firth, we have a wonderful legacy to pass on to our children. Our windows, at no cost to us, are mostly beautifully stained to depict a landscape. And when spring rolls around, and the hawthorn starts to bloom, and the meadows smell like fresh grass, even in the busiest parts of our streets, the country hilltops catch a young man's eye and inspire his heart to yearn for travel and fresh air.
CHAPTER VII
THE VILLA QUARTERS
Mr. Ruskin's denunciation of the New Town of Edinburgh includes, as I have heard it repeated, nearly all the stone and lime we have to show. Many, however, find a grand air and something settled and imposing in the better parts; and upon many, as I have said, the confusion of styles induces an agreeable stimulation of the mind. But upon the subject of our recent villa architecture, I am frankly ready to mingle my tears with Mr. Ruskin's, and it is a subject which makes one envious of his large declamatory and controversial eloquence.
Mr. Ruskin's criticism of the New Town of Edinburgh includes, as I've heard it repeated, almost all the stone and lime we have to show. Many people, however, see a grand style and something established and impressive in the nicer areas; and for many, as I mentioned, the mix of styles creates a pleasing stimulation of the mind. But when it comes to our recent villa architecture, I'm honestly ready to share my tears with Mr. Ruskin, and it's a topic that makes me envious of his extensive, passionate, and argumentative eloquence.
Day by day, one new villa, one new object of offence, is added to another; all around Newington and Morningside, the dismalest structures keep springing up like mushrooms; the pleasant hills are loaded with them, each impudently squatted in its garden, each roofed and carrying chimneys like a house. And yet a glance of an eye discovers their true character. They are not houses; for they were not designed with a view to human habitation, and the internal arrangements are, as they tell me, fantastically unsuited to the needs of man. They are not buildings; for you can scarcely say a thing is built where every measurement is in clamant disproportion with its neighbour. They belong to no style to art, only to a form of business much to be regretted.
Day by day, a new villa, a new eyesore, is added to the rest; all around Newington and Morningside, the ugliest structures keep popping up like mushrooms; the nice hills are cluttered with them, each one boldly planted in its own yard, each with a roof and chimneys like a real house. And yet, a quick glance reveals their true nature. They are not homes; they weren't designed for people to live in, and the inside layouts are, as I've been told, ridiculously unsuitable for human needs. They are not buildings; you can hardly call something a building when every size is glaringly out of proportion with its neighbor. They don't fit any style of art, just a regrettable type of business.
Why should it be cheaper to erect a structure where the size of the windows bears no rational relation to the size of the front? Is there any profit in a misplaced chimney-stalk? Does a hard-working, greedy builder gain more on[Pg 312] a monstrosity than on a decent cottage of equal plainness? Frankly, we should say, No. Bricks may be omitted, and green timber employed, in the construction of even a very elegant design; and there is no reason why a chimney should be made to vent, because it is so situated as to look comely from without. On the other hand, there is a noble way of being ugly: a high-aspiring fiasco like the fall of Lucifer. There are daring and gaudy buildings that manage to be offensive, without being contemptible; and we know that "fools rush in where angels fear to tread." But to aim at making a commonplace villa, and to make it insufferably ugly in each particular; to attempt the homeliest achievement and to attain the bottom of derided failure; not to have any theory but profit, and yet, at an equal expense, to outstrip all competitors in the art of conceiving and rendering permanent deformity; and to do this in what is, by nature, one of the most agreeable neighbourhoods in Britain:—what are we to say, but that this also is a distinction, hard to earn although not greatly worshipful?
Why should it cost less to build a structure where the size of the windows has no logical connection to the size of the front? Is there any benefit to a poorly placed chimney? Does a hardworking, greedy builder make more on[Pg 312] an eyesore than on a simple cottage of the same plainness? Honestly, we would say no. Bricks can be left out, and green timber can be used, even in a very stylish design; and there’s no reason a chimney should be built just to look nice from the outside. On the flip side, there is a grand way of being ugly: a lofty failure like the fall of Lucifer. There are bold and flashy buildings that manage to be offensive without being pathetic; and we know that "fools rush in where angels fear to tread." But to aim at creating a simple villa, only to make it unbearably ugly in every detail; to try for the plainest outcome and achieve utter failure; to have no goal but profit, yet, at the same cost, to surpass all competitors in the art of creating and cementing permanent ugliness; and to do this in what is, by nature, one of the most pleasant neighborhoods in Britain:—what can we say but that this too is a distinction, difficult to earn though not much admired?
Indifferent buildings give pain to the sensitive; but these things offend the plainest taste. It is a danger which threatens the amenity of the town; and as this eruption keeps spreading on our borders, we have ever the farther to walk among unpleasant sights, before we gain the country air. If the population of Edinburgh were a living, autonomous body, it would arise like one man and make night hideous with arson; the builders and their accomplices would be driven to work, like the Jews of yore, with the trowel in one hand and the defensive cutlass in the other; and as soon as one of these masonic wonders had been consummated, right-minded iconoclasts should fall thereon and make an end of it at once.
Indifferent buildings hurt sensitive people, but these things offend even the simplest taste. It's a danger that threatens the charm of the town; and as this spread continues at our borders, we have to walk farther among unpleasant sights before we can reach the fresh country air. If the people of Edinburgh were a living, independent entity, they would rise up together and make the night unbearable with arson; the builders and their accomplices would have to work, like the Jews of old, with a trowel in one hand and a sword in the other; and as soon as one of these construction marvels was completed, right-minded rebels would come down on it and put an end to it immediately.
Possibly these words may meet the eye of a builder or two. It is no use asking them to employ an architect; for that would be to touch them in a delicate quarter, and its[Pg 313] use would largely depend on what architect they were minded to call in. But let them get any architect in the world to point out any reasonably well-proportioned villa not his own design; and let them reproduce that model to satiety.
Possibly these words might catch the attention of a builder or two. There's no point in asking them to hire an architect, because that would hit a sensitive spot, and its[Pg 313] effectiveness would mostly depend on which architect they decided to bring in. But if they could get any architect in the world to identify a reasonably well-proportioned villa that isn’t his own design; and if they could replicate that model as much as they wanted.
CHAPTER VIII
THE CALTON HILL
The east of New Edinburgh is guarded by a craggy hill, of no great elevation, which the town embraces. The old London road runs on one side of it; while the New Approach, leaving it on the other hand, completes the circuit. You mount by stairs in a cutting of the rock to find yourself in a field of monuments. Dugald Stewart has the honours of situation and architecture; Burns is memorialized lower down upon a spur; Lord Nelson, as befits a sailor, gives his name to the top-gallant of the Calton Hill. This latter erection has been differently and yet, in both cases, aptly compared to a telescope and a butterchurn; comparisons apart, it ranks among the vilest of men's handiworks. But the chief feature is an unfinished range of columns, "the Modern Ruin" as it has been called, an imposing object from far and near, and giving Edinburgh, even from the sea, that false air of a modern Athens which has earned for her so many slighting speeches. It was meant to be a National Monument; and its present state is a very suitable monument to certain national characteristics. The old Observatory—a quaint brown building on the edge of the steep—and the New Observatory—a classical edifice with a dome—occupy the central portion of the summit. All these are scattered on a green turf, browsed over by some sheep.
The east side of New Edinburgh is protected by a rugged hill that's not very high, which the town surrounds. The old London road runs along one side, while the New Approach, on the other side, completes the loop. You climb up stairs carved into the rock and find yourself in a field of monuments. Dugald Stewart stands out for his location and design; Burns is commemorated lower down on a ridge; and Lord Nelson, fittingly for a sailor, lends his name to the top of Calton Hill. This latter structure has been compared to both a telescope and a butter churn, and regardless of the comparison, it ranks among the ugliest of human creations. But the main feature is an unfinished row of columns, dubbed "the Modern Ruin," which is striking both from a distance and up close, giving Edinburgh, even from the sea, a misleading vibe of a modern Athens that has led to many dismissive remarks. It was intended to be a National Monument, and its current state is quite fitting as a reflection of certain national traits. The old Observatory—a charming brown building at the edge of the steep drop—and the New Observatory—a classical building with a dome—are located in the central part of the summit. All of these sit on a green lawn, grazed by a few sheep.
The scene suggests reflections on fame and on man's injustice to the dead. You see Dugald Stewart rather more handsomely commemorated than Burns. Immediately below, in the Canongate churchyard, lies Robert[Pg 315] Fergusson, Burns's master in his art, who died insane while yet a stripling; and if Dugald Stewart has been somewhat too boisterously acclaimed, the Edinburgh poet, on the other hand, is most unrighteously forgotten. The votaries of Burns, a crew too common in all ranks in Scotland, and more remarkable for number than discretion, eagerly suppress all mention of the lad who handed to him the poetic impulse, and, up to the time when he grew famous, continued to influence him in his manner and the choice of subjects. Burns himself not only acknowledged his debt in a fragment of autobiography, but erected a tomb over the grave in Canongate churchyard. This was worthy of an artist, but it was done in vain; and although I think I have read nearly all the biographies of Burns, I cannot remember one in which the modesty of nature was not violated, or where Fergusson was not sacrificed to the credit of his follower's originality. There is a kind of gaping admiration that would fain roll Shakespeare and Bacon into one, to have a bigger thing to gape at; and a class of men who cannot edit one author without disparaging all others. They are indeed mistaken if they think to please the great originals; and whoever puts Fergusson right with fame cannot do better than dedicate his labours to the memory of Burns, who will be the best delighted of the dead.
The scene invites thoughts on fame and how unfairly we treat the dead. You see Dugald Stewart getting a more impressive tribute than Burns. Right below, in the Canongate churchyard, lies Robert[Pg 315] Fergusson, Burns's mentor in poetry, who died insane while still young; and while Dugald Stewart might have received a bit too much praise, the Edinburgh poet is unjustly forgotten. The fans of Burns, a group far too common across all social classes in Scotland, are more notable for their numbers than their discernment, and they eagerly overlook the guy who inspired Burns’s poetic drive, who continued to influence him in style and subject choices until he became famous. Burns himself not only recognized this influence in a fragment of autobiography but also set up a tomb over Fergusson’s grave in Canongate churchyard. This was fitting for an artist, but ultimately it was in vain; and although I believe I’ve read nearly all of Burns’s biographies, I don’t recall a single one that didn't ignore the humility of nature, or where Fergusson wasn’t sacrificed for the sake of asserting his follower's originality. There’s a sort of eager admiration that tries to combine Shakespeare and Bacon into a single grand figure to gawk at; and a type of person who can’t highlight one author without undermining all the others. They are indeed mistaken if they think this pleases the great originals; and anyone who seeks to set the record straight for Fergusson in terms of fame would do well to dedicate their efforts to the memory of Burns, who would be the happiest among the dead.
Of all places for a view, this Calton Hill is perhaps the best; since you can see the Castle, which you lose from the Castle, and Arthur's Seat, which you cannot see from Arthur's Seat. It is the place to stroll on one of those days of sunshine and east wind which are so common in our more than temperate summer. The breeze comes off the sea, with a little of the freshness, and that touch of chill, peculiar to the quarter, which is delightful to certain very ruddy organizations and greatly the reverse to the majority of mankind. It brings with it a faint, floating haze, a cunning decolouriser, although not thick enough to obscure outlines near at hand. But the haze[Pg 316] lies more thickly to windward at the far end of Musselburgh Bay; and over the Links of Aberlady and Berwick Law and the hump of the Bass Rock it assumes the aspect of a bank of thin sea fog.
Of all the places to take in a view, Calton Hill might be the best. From here, you can see the Castle, which you miss when you're at the Castle, and Arthur's Seat, which you can’t see from Arthur’s Seat. It's the perfect spot for a stroll on those sunny days with an east wind that are so typical of our somewhat mild summer. The breeze comes off the sea, carrying a bit of freshness and that unique chill specific to this area, which is delightful for some very hearty folks but not so much for most people. It brings a light, floating haze, a sneaky fade effect, although it’s not thick enough to hide nearby features. But the haze[Pg 316] is thicker upwind at the far end of Musselburgh Bay; and over the Links of Aberlady, Berwick Law, and the rise of the Bass Rock, it looks like a thin sea fog.
Immediately underneath upon the south, you command the yards of the High School, and the towers and courts of the new Jail—a large place, castellated to the extent of folly, standing by itself on the edge of a steep cliff, and often joyfully hailed by tourists as the Castle. In the one, you may perhaps see female prisoners taking exercise like a string of nuns; in the other, schoolboys running at play and their shadows keeping step with them. From the bottom of the valley, a gigantic chimney rises almost to the level of the eye, a taller and a shapelier edifice than Nelson's Monument. Look a little farther, and there is Holyrood Palace, with its Gothic frontal and ruined abbey, and the red sentry pacing smartly to and fro before the door like a mechanical figure in a panorama. By way of an outpost, you can single out the little peak-roofed lodge, over which Rizzio's murderers made their escape, and where Queen Mary herself, according to gossip, bathed in white wine to entertain her loveliness. Behind and overhead, lie the Queen's Park, from Muschat's Cairn to Dumbiedykes, St. Margaret's Loch, and the long wall of Salisbury Crags; and thence, by knoll and rocky bulwark and precipitous slope, the eye rises to the top of Arthur's Seat, a hill for magnitude, a mountain in virtue of its bold design. This upon your left. Upon the right, the roofs and spires of the Old Town climb one above another to where the citadel prints its broad bulk and jagged crown of bastions on the western sky.—Perhaps it is now one in the afternoon; and at the same instant of time, a ball rises to the summit of Nelson's flagstaff close at hand, and, far away, a puff of smoke followed by a report bursts from the half-moon battery at the Castle. This is the time-gun by which people set their watches, as far as the sea coast[Pg 317] or in hill farms upon the Pentlands.—To complete the view, the eye enfilades Princes Street, black with traffic, and has a broad look over the valley between the Old Town and the New: here, full of railway trains and stepped over by the high North Bridge upon its many columns, and there, green with trees and gardens.
Immediately below you to the south, you can see the yards of the High School and the towers and courtyards of the new Jail—a massive, castle-like structure standing alone on the edge of a steep cliff, often cheerfully referred to by tourists as the Castle. In one area, you might catch sight of female prisoners exercising like a line of nuns; in the other, schoolboys playing with their shadows keeping pace with them. From the bottom of the valley, a gigantic chimney rises almost to eye level, a taller and more graceful building than Nelson's Monument. Look a bit further, and there you’ll find Holyrood Palace, with its Gothic facade and ruined abbey, and a red guard pacing back and forth in front of the door like a mechanical figure in a panorama. As a distinctive landmark, you can spot the little peaked lodge, from where Rizzio's murderers escaped, and where Queen Mary, according to rumors, bathed in white wine to maintain her beauty. Behind and above are the Queen's Park, stretching from Muschat's Cairn to Dumbiedykes, St. Margaret's Loch, and the long wall of Salisbury Crags; from there, your gaze rises over knolls and rocky outcrops and steep slopes to the top of Arthur's Seat, a hill of great size and a mountain because of its striking shape. This is on your left. On your right, the roofs and spires of the Old Town rise one above the other to where the citadel dominates the western skyline with its broad structure and jagged crown of battlements. —It’s probably around one in the afternoon now; at that same moment, a ball rises to the top of Nelson's flagstaff nearby, and in the distance, a puff of smoke followed by a blast from the half-moon battery at the Castle erupts. This is the time-gun that people use to set their watches, reaching as far as the coast or the farmhouses in the Pentlands. —To complete the view, your eyes travel down Princes Street, bustling with traffic, and have a wide look over the valley between the Old Town and the New: here, filled with railway trains and crossed by the high North Bridge on its many columns, and there, lush with trees and gardens.
On the north, the Calton Hill is neither so abrupt in itself nor has it so exceptional an outlook; and yet even here it commands a striking prospect. A gully separates it from the New Town. This is Greenside, where witches were burned and tournaments held in former days. Down that almost precipitous bank, Bothwell launched his horse, and so first, as they say, attracted the bright eyes of Mary. It is now tessellated with sheets and blankets out to dry, and the sound of people beating carpets is rarely absent. Beyond all this, the suburbs run out to Leith; Leith camps on the seaside with her forest of masts; Leith roads are full of ships at anchor; the sun picks out the white pharos upon Inchkeith Island: the Firth extends on either hand from the Ferry to the May; the towns of Fifeshire sit, each in its bank of blowing smoke, along the opposite coast; and the hills inclose the view, except to the farthest east, where the haze of the horizon rests upon the open sea. There lies the road to Norway: a dear road for Sir Patrick Spens and his Scots Lords; and yonder smoke on the hither side of Largo Law is Aberdour, from whence they sailed to seek a queen for Scotland.
On the north, Calton Hill isn’t as steep or doesn’t have such an outstanding view; yet even here, it offers a striking sight. A gorge separates it from the New Town. This area is Greenside, where witches were executed and tournaments took place in the past. Down that nearly vertical slope, Bothwell rode his horse, and supposedly caught the attention of the beautiful Mary for the first time. It's now covered in sheets and blankets drying in the sun, and the sound of people beating carpets is almost always present. Beyond all this, the suburbs stretch out to Leith; Leith sits by the sea with its forest of masts; the Leith roads are filled with anchored ships; the sun highlights the white lighthouse on Inchkeith Island: the Firth stretches out on either side from the Ferry to the May; the towns of Fifeshire rise, each in a cloud of smoke, along the opposite shore; and the hills frame the view, except to the farthest east, where the haze on the horizon meets the open sea. There lies the road to Norway: a costly route for Sir Patrick Spens and his Scottish Lords; and that smoke on the near side of Largo Law is Aberdour, from where they set sail to find a queen for Scotland.
With their fans in hand,
Before they see Sir Patrick Spens
"Come sail to the land!"
The sight of the sea, even from a city, will bring thoughts of storm and sea disaster. The sailors' wives of Leith and the fisherwomen of Cockenzie, not sitting languorously with fans, but crowding to the tail of the harbour with a shawl about their ears, may still look[Pg 318] vainly for brave Scotsmen who will return no more, or boats that have gone on their last fishing. Since Sir Patrick sailed from Aberdour, what a multitude have gone down in the North Sea! Yonder is Auldhame, where the London smack went ashore and wreckers cut the rings from ladies' fingers; and a few miles round Fife Ness is the fatal Inchcape, now a star of guidance; and the lee shore to the east of the Inchcape is that Forfarshire coast where Mucklebackit sorrowed for his son.
The view of the sea, even from a city, brings to mind thoughts of storms and maritime disasters. The sailors' wives in Leith and the fisherwomen of Cockenzie aren't lounging around with fans; instead, they're gathered at the end of the harbor with shawls wrapped around their ears, still looking[Pg 318] in vain for brave Scotsmen who will never return, or for boats that have gone out for the last time. Since Sir Patrick set sail from Aberdour, countless have perished in the North Sea! Over there is Auldhame, where the London boat ran aground and wreckers stole rings off ladies' fingers; a few miles around Fife Ness is the infamous Inchcape, now a guiding star; and the calm shore to the east of Inchcape is the Forfarshire coast, where Mucklebackit mourned his son.
These are the main features of the scene roughly sketched. How they are all tilted by the inclination of the ground, how each stands out in delicate relief against the rest, what manifold detail, and play of sun and shadow, animate and accentuate the picture, is a matter for a person on the spot, and turning swiftly on his heels, to grasp and bind together in one comprehensive look. It is the character of such a prospect, to be full of change and of things moving. The multiplicity embarrasses the eye; and the mind, among so much, suffers itself to grow absorbed with single points. You remark a tree in a hedgerow, or follow a cart along a country road. You turn to the city, and see children, dwarfed by distance into pygmies, at play about suburban doorsteps; you have a glimpse upon a thoroughfare where people are densely moving; you note ridge after ridge of chimney-stacks running downhill one behind another, and church spires rising bravely from the sea of roofs. At one of the innumerable windows, you watch a figure moving; on one of the multitude of roofs, you watch clambering chimney-sweeps. The wind takes a run and scatters the smoke; bells are heard, far and near, faint and loud, to tell the hour; or perhaps a bird goes dipping evenly over the housetops, like a gull across the waves. And here you are in the meantime, on this pastoral hillside, among nibbling sheep and looked upon by monumental buildings.
These are the main features of the scene that I've roughly outlined. The way they’re all tilted by the slope of the ground, how each element stands out in delicate relief against the others, and the various details along with the interplay of light and shadow that bring the picture to life, requires someone on-site to quickly take in and connect all of this in one comprehensive look. This type of view is full of change and movement. The sheer number of things can overwhelm the eye, and the mind tends to fixate on individual points. You notice a tree in a hedgerow or follow a cart on a country road. You cast your gaze to the city and see children, reduced to tiny figures by distance, playing on suburban doorsteps; you catch a glimpse of a busy street where people are densely packed together; you observe row after row of chimney stacks cascading downhill, with church spires bravely rising from the sea of rooftops. At one of the countless windows, you spot a figure moving, and on one of the many roofs, you see chimney-sweeps climbing. The wind picks up and scatters the smoke; you hear bells ringing from afar and close by, soft and loud, marking the hour; or maybe a bird flies smoothly over the rooftops, like a gull gliding over waves. Meanwhile, here you are on this pastoral hillside, surrounded by grazing sheep and gazed upon by monumental buildings.
Return thither on some clear, dark, moonless night, with a ring of frost in the air, and only a star or two set[Pg 319] sparsely in the vault of heaven; and you will find a sight as stimulating as the hoariest summit of the Alps. The solitude seems perfect; the patient astronomer, flat on his back under the Observatory dome and spying heaven's secrets, is your only neighbour; and yet from all round you there come up the dull hum of the city, the tramp of countless people marching out of time, the rattle of carriages and the continuous jingle of the tramway bells. An hour or so before, the gas was turned on; lamplighters scoured the city; in every house, from kitchen to attic, the windows kindled and gleamed forth into the dusk. And so now, although the town lies blue and darkling on her hills, innumerable spots of the bright element shine far and near along the pavements and upon the high façades. Moving lights of the railway pass and re-pass below the stationary lights upon the bridge. Lights burn in the Jail. Lights burn high up in the tall lands and on the Castle turrets; they burn low down in Greenside or along the Park. They run out one beyond the other into the dark country. They walk in a procession down to Leith, and shine singly far along Leith Pier. Thus, the plan of the city and her suburbs is mapped out upon the ground of blackness, as when a child pricks a drawing full of pinholes and exposes it before a candle; not the darkest night of winter can conceal her high station and fanciful design; every evening in the year she proceeds to illuminate herself in honour of her own beauty; and as if to complete the scheme—or rather as if some prodigal Pharaoh were beginning to extend to the adjacent sea and country—half-way over to Fife, there is an outpost of light upon Inchkeith, and far to seaward, yet another on the May.
Return there on a clear, dark, moonless night, with a frost in the air, and just a star or two scattered[Pg 319] across the sky; and you'll find a view as inspiring as the highest peak of the Alps. The solitude feels complete; the dedicated astronomer, lying on his back under the Observatory dome, searching the heavens, is your only neighbor; yet around you, you can hear the dull hum of the city, the footsteps of countless people moving through time, the clatter of carriages, and the constant ringing of tram bells. Just an hour earlier, the gas was turned on; lamplighters were out across the city; in every house, from kitchen to attic, the windows sparkled and glowed into the twilight. Now, even as the town rests in a blue haze on its hills, countless bright spots shine far and wide along the streets and on the tall buildings. Moving lights from the railway come and go below the steady lights on the bridge. Lights shine in the Jail. Lights glow high up on the castle towers and low down in Greenside or along the Park. They stretch out one after another into the dark countryside. They line up in a procession down to Leith, and shine individually far along Leith Pier. Thus, the outline of the city and its suburbs is mapped out against the darkness, like a child poking holes in a drawing and holding it up to a candle; not even the darkest night of winter can hide its grand position and whimsical design; every evening of the year, it lights itself up to celebrate its own beauty; and as if to complete the scene—or rather as if some extravagant Pharaoh were starting to extend towards the neighboring sea and land—halfway to Fife, there's a beacon of light on Inchkeith, and far out to sea, another on the May.
And while you are looking, across upon the Castle Hill, the drums and bugles begin to recall the scattered garrison; the air thrills with the sound; the bugles sing aloud; and the last rising flourish mounts and melts into the darkness like a star: a martial swan-song, fitly rounding in the labours of the day.
And as you look over at Castle Hill, the drums and bugles start to call the scattered soldiers back. The air vibrates with the sound; the bugles loudly echo; and the final flourish rises and fades into the darkness like a star: a military farewell, perfectly closing out the day’s efforts.
CHAPTER IX
WINTER AND NEW YEAR
The Scots dialect is singularly rich in terms of reproach against the winter wind. Snell, blae, nirly, and scowthering, are four of these significant vocables; they are all words that carry a shiver with them; and for my part as I see them aligned before me on the page, I am persuaded that a big wind comes tearing over the Firth from Burntisland and the northern hills; I think I can hear it howl in the chimney, and as I set my face northwards, feel its smarting kisses on my cheek. Even in the names of places there is often a desolate, inhospitable sound; and I remember two from the near neighbourhood of Edinburgh, Cauldhame and Blaw-weary, that would promise but starving comfort to their inhabitants. The inclemency of heaven, which has thus endowed the language of Scotland with words, has also largely modified the spirit of its poetry. Both poverty and a northern climate teach men the love of the hearth and the sentiment of the family; and the latter, in its own right, inclines a poet to the praise of strong waters. In Scotland, all our singers have a stave or two for blazing fires and stout potations:—to get indoors out of the wind and to swallow something hot to the stomach, are benefits so easily appreciated where they dwelt!
The Scots dialect is uniquely rich when it comes to terms that describe the winter wind. Snell, blae, nirly, and scowthering are four of these important words; they all bring a shiver with them. Looking at them on the page, I’m convinced that a harsh wind is howling across the Firth from Burntisland and the northern hills; I can almost hear it whistling in the chimney, and as I turn my face north, I feel its biting caresses on my cheek. Even the names of places often sound desolate and unwelcoming; I recall two nearby Edinburgh: Cauldhame and Blaw-weary, which offer little comfort to their residents. The harshness of the weather has not only shaped Scotland's language with these words but has also greatly influenced the spirit of its poetry. Both poverty and a northern climate instill in people a love for the hearth and the importance of family, which also inspires poets to celebrate strong drinks. In Scotland, all our singers have a verse or two about roaring fires and hearty drinks: getting indoors out of the wind and enjoying something warm is a comfort easily appreciated by those who live there!
And this is not only so in country districts where the shepherd must wade in the snow all day after his flock, but in Edinburgh itself, and nowhere more apparently stated than in the works of our Edinburgh poet, Fergusson. He was a delicate youth, I take it, and willingly slunk from the robustious winter to an inn fireside. Love[Pg 321] was absent from his life, or only present, if you prefer, in such a form that even the least serious of Burns's amourettes was ennobling by comparison; and so there is nothing to temper the sentiment of indoor revelry which pervades the poor boy's verses. Although it is characteristic of his native town, and the manners of its youth to the present day, this spirit has perhaps done something to restrict his popularity. He recalls a supper-party pleasantry with something akin to tenderness; and sounds the praises of the act of drinking as if it were virtuous, or at least witty, in itself. The kindly jar, the warm atmosphere of tavern parlours, and the revelry of lawyers' clerks, do not offer by themselves the materials of rich existence. It was not choice, so much as an external fate, that kept Fergusson in this round of sordid pleasures. A Scot of poetic temperament, and without religious exaltation, drops as if by nature into the public-house. The picture may not be pleasing; but what else is a man to do in this dog's weather?
And this isn’t just true in rural areas where a shepherd has to trudge through the snow all day after his flock, but also in Edinburgh itself, and nowhere is it more clearly expressed than in the works of our Edinburgh poet, Fergusson. He was a sensitive young man, I suppose, who would rather retreat to the warmth of an inn fireplace during the harsh winter. Love[Pg 321] was missing from his life, or maybe it was only present in a way that made even the simplest romantic encounters of Burns seem elevated by comparison; so there's nothing to lighten the mood of the indoor festivities that fill the poor boy's poetry. While it reflects his hometown and its youth even today, this spirit might have contributed to his limited popularity. He remembers a dinner party's fun with a hint of fondness; he praises drinking as if it were inherently virtuous or at least clever. The friendly buzz, cozy atmosphere of pub lounges, and the antics of clerks don’t provide the ingredients for a rich life on their own. It wasn’t a choice as much as an unavoidable circumstance that kept Fergusson caught up in these grim pleasures. A Scot with a poetic soul, and no religious fervor, naturally finds himself in the pub. The scene may not be appealing, but what else is a man supposed to do in this miserable weather?
To none but those who have themselves suffered the thing in the body, can the gloom and depression of our Edinburgh winters be brought home. For some constitutions there is something almost physically disgusting in the bleak ugliness of easterly weather; the wind wearies, the sickly sky depresses them; and they turn back from their walk to avoid the aspect of the unrefulgent sun going down among perturbed and pallid mists. The days are so short that a man does much of his business, and certainly all his pleasure, by the haggard glare of gas lamps. The roads are as heavy as a fallow. People go by, so drenched and draggle-tailed that I have often wondered how they found the heart to undress. And meantime the wind whistles through the town as if it were an open meadow; and if you lie awake all night, you hear it shrieking and raving overhead with a noise of shipwrecks and of falling houses. In a word, life is so unsightly that there are times when the heart[Pg 322] turns sick in a man's inside; and the look of a tavern, or the thought of the warm, firelit study, is like the touch of land to one who has been long struggling with the seas.
To those who have experienced it in their own bodies, the gloom and depression of our Edinburgh winters can truly be understood. For some people, there’s something almost physically repulsive about the harshness of easterly winds; the relentless wind exhausts them, and the dreary sky brings them down. They turn back from their walk to avoid the sight of the dull sun setting amid troubled, pale mists. The days are so short that a person does most of their work, and definitely all their leisure, under the harsh glare of gas lamps. The streets are as heavy as plowed fields. People pass by, so soaked and disheveled that I often wonder how they gather the courage to get undressed. Meanwhile, the wind blows through the town like it’s an open field; if you stay awake all night, you can hear it howling and raging overhead with the sounds of shipwrecks and collapsing buildings. In short, life is so unpleasant that there are times when a person feels their heart turn sick inside them; the sight of a pub or the thought of a warm, fire-lit study feels like the relief of land to someone who has been struggling at sea for a long time.
As the weather hardens towards frost, the world begins to improve for Edinburgh people. We enjoy superb, sub-arctic sunsets, with the profile of the city stamped in indigo upon a sky of luminous green. The wind may still be cold, but there is a briskness in the air that stirs good blood. People do not all look equally sour and downcast. They fall into two divisions: one, the knight of the blue face and hollow paunch, whom Winter has gotten by the vitals; the other well lined with New-year's fare, conscious of the touch of cold on his periphery, but stepping through it by the glow of his internal fires. Such an one I remember, triply cased in grease, whom no extremity of temperature could vanquish. "Well," would be his jovial salutation, "here's a sneezer!" And the look of these warm fellows is tonic, and upholds their drooping fellow-townsmen. There is yet another class who do not depend on corporal advantages, but support the winter in virtue of a brave and merry heart. One shivering evening, cold enough for frost but with too high a wind, and a little past sundown, when the lamps were beginning to enlarge their circles in the growing dusk, a brace of barefoot lassies were seen coming eastward in the teeth of the wind. If the one was as much as nine, the other was certainly not more than seven. They were miserably clad; and the pavement was so cold, you would have thought no one could lay a naked foot on it unflinching. Yet they came along waltzing, if you please, while the elder sang a tune to give them music. The person who saw this, and whose heart was full of bitterness at the moment, pocketed a reproof which has been of use to him ever since, and which he now hands on, with his good wishes, to the reader.
As the weather turns more frigid, life improves for the people of Edinburgh. We get stunning, arctic sunsets, with the city’s silhouette outlined in deep blue against a bright green sky. The wind might still be cold, but there’s a refreshing energy in the air that lifts spirits. People don’t all appear equally grumpy and downhearted. They fall into two groups: one, the guy with a blue face and hollow stomach, who Winter has taken its toll on; the other, well-fed from New Year's feasting, aware of the chill around them but moving through it with the warmth from within. I remember one such guy, wrapped in layers of grease, who refused to be beaten by the cold. “Well,” he would jovially greet, “here’s a cold one!” And the sight of these warm individuals is uplifting, cheering up their more gloomy neighbors. There’s also another group who don’t rely on physical comforts but tackle winter with a brave and cheerful heart. On one cold evening, just frosty enough but with a strong wind, a little past sunset when the streetlights were starting to glow, a pair of barefoot girls were seen heading east against the wind. If one was about nine, the other was definitely no older than seven. They were poorly dressed, and the pavement was so cold it seemed impossible for anyone to walk on it barefoot without flinching. Yet they danced along, with the older girl singing to provide them music. The person who witnessed this, filled with bitterness at the time, held onto a lesson that has stuck with him ever since, which he now passes on, along with his best wishes, to the reader.
At length, Edinburgh, with her satellite hills and all the sloping country, is sheeted up in white. If it has[Pg 323] happened in the dark hours, nurses pluck their children out of bed and run with them to some commanding window, whence they may see the change that has been worked upon earth's face. "A' the hills are covered wi' snaw," they sing, "and Winter's noo come fairly!" And the children, marveling at the silence and the white landscape, find a spell appropriate to the season in the words. The reverberation of the snow increases the pale daylight, and brings all objects nearer the eye. The Pentlands are smooth and glittering, with here and there the black ribbon of a dry-stone dyke, and here and there, if there be wind, a cloud of blowing snow upon a shoulder. The Firth seems a leaden creek, that a man might almost jump across, between well-powdered Lothian and well-powdered Fife. And the effect is not, as in other cities, a thing of half a day; the streets are soon trodden black, but the country keeps its virgin white; and you have only to lift your eyes and look over miles of country snow. An indescribable cheerfulness breathes about the city; and the well-fed heart sits lightly and beats gaily in the bosom. It is New-year's weather.
At last, Edinburgh, with its surrounding hills and all the sloping landscape, is covered in white. If this happens during the night, nurses pull their children out of bed and rush them to a window with a view, so they can see the transformation that has taken place on the earth. "All the hills are covered in snow," they sing, "and winter has truly arrived!" The children, amazed by the quiet and the white scenery, find a fitting magic in the words. The reflection of the snow brightens the pale daylight and brings everything closer to view. The Pentlands are smooth and sparkling, with the occasional black line of a dry-stone wall, and sometimes, if the wind blows, a swirl of snow on a hillside. The Firth looks like a dull creek, so shallow a person might nearly leap across it, separating well-powdered Lothian from well-powdered Fife. And the effect here isn't, like in other cities, just a temporary thing; the streets soon get trodden black, but the countryside remains untouched in its white blanket; you only need to lift your eyes to see miles of snowy land. An indescribable cheerfulness surrounds the city; and a well-fed heart feels light and beats joyfully in one's chest. It's the weather for New Year's.
New-year's Day, the great national festival, is a time of family expansions and of deep carousal. Sometimes, by a sore stroke of fate for this Calvinistic people, the year's anniversary falls upon a Sunday, when the public-houses are inexorably closed, when singing and even whistling is banished from our homes and highways, and the oldest toper feels called upon to go to church. Thus pulled about, as if between two loyalties, the Scots have to decide many nice cases of conscience, and ride the marches narrowly between the weekly and the annual observance. A party of convivial musicians, next door to a friend of mine, hung suspended in this manner on the brink of their diversions. From ten o'clock on Sunday night, my friend heard them tuning their instruments; and as the hour of liberty drew near, each must have had his music open, his bow in readiness across the fiddle,[Pg 324] his foot already raised to mark the time, and his nerves braced for execution; for hardly had the twelfth stroke sounded from the earliest steeple, before they had launched forth into a secular bravura.
New Year's Day, the big national celebration, is a time for family gatherings and lots of fun. Sometimes, due to unfortunate timing for this Calvinistic culture, the year's anniversary falls on a Sunday, when bars are completely closed, and singing or even whistling is banned from our homes and streets, leaving even the oldest drinkers feeling the urge to go to church. Caught in this dilemma, as if torn between two loyalties, Scots have to navigate tricky moral choices, balancing the weekly and the annual celebrations. A group of festive musicians, next door to a friend of mine, found themselves in this situation, teetering on the edge of their festivities. Starting at ten o'clock on Sunday night, my friend heard them tuning their instruments; and as the hour of freedom approached, each must have had their sheet music ready, bow poised over the fiddle, foot raised to keep the beat, and nerves ready to play; for hardly had the twelfth chime sounded from the nearest steeple before they burst into a lively performance.
Currant-loaf is now popular eating in all households. For weeks before the great morning, confectioners display stacks of Scots bun—a dense, black substance, inimical to life—and full moons of shortbread adorned with mottoes of peel or sugar-plum, in honour of the season and the family affections. "Frae Auld Reekie," "A guid New Year to ye a'," "For the Auld Folk at Hame," are among the most favoured of these devices. Can you not see the carrier, after half-a-day's journey on pinching hill-roads, draw up before a cottage in Teviotdale, or perhaps in Manor Glen among the rowans, and the old people receiving the parcel with moist eyes and a prayer for Jock or Jean in the city? For at this season, on the threshold of another year of calamity and stubborn conflict, men feel a need to draw closer the links that unite them; they reckon the number of their friends, like allies before a war; and the prayers grow longer in the morning as the absent are recommended by name into God's keeping.
Currant loaf is now a popular treat in every home. For weeks leading up to the big day, bakers display piles of Scottish buns—a heavy, black substance not easy on the stomach—and full moons of shortbread decorated with messages made of peel or sugar plums, celebrating the season and family bonds. "From Auld Reekie," "A Happy New Year to you all," "For the Old Folks at Home," are some of the favorites. Can you picture the delivery driver, after a half-day journey on narrow country roads, arriving at a cottage in Teviotdale, or maybe in Manor Glen among the rowan trees, and the older folks receiving the package with teary eyes and a prayer for Jock or Jean in the city? Because during this time, at the start of another year filled with troubles and challenges, people feel a strong need to strengthen the connections that tie them together; they count their friends like allies preparing for battle; and the prayers become longer in the morning as they mention the absent by name in their pleas for God’s protection.
On the day itself, the shops are all shut as on a Sunday; only taverns, toyshops, and other holiday magazines, keep open doors. Everyone looks for his handsel. The postmen and the lamplighters have left, at every house in their districts, a copy of vernacular verses, asking and thanking in a breath; and it is characteristic of Scotland that these verses may have sometimes a touch of reality in detail of sentiment and a measure of strength in the handling. All over the town, you may see comforter'd schoolboys hastening to squander their half-crowns. There are an infinity of visits to be paid; all the world is in the street, except the daintier classes; the sacramental greeting is heard upon all sides; Auld Lang Syne is much in people's mouths; and whisky and short[Pg 325]bread are staple articles of consumption. From an early hour a stranger will be impressed by the number of drunken men; and by afternoon drunkenness has spread to the women. With some classes of society, it is as much a matter of duty to drink hard on New-year's Day as to go to church on Sunday. Some have been saving their wages for perhaps a month to do the season honour. Many carry a whisky-bottle in their pocket, which they will press with embarrassing effusion on a perfect stranger. It is not expedient to risk one's body in a cab, or not, at least, until after a prolonged study of the driver. The streets, which are thronged from end to end, become a place for delicate pilotage. Singly or arm-in-arm, some speechless, others noisy and quarrelsome, the votaries of the New Year go meandering in and out and cannoning one against another; and now and again, one falls, and lies as he has fallen. Before night, so many have gone to bed or the police office, that the streets seem almost clearer. And as guisards and first-footers are now not much seen except in country places, when once the New Year has been rung in and proclaimed at the Tron railings, the festivities begin to find their way indoors and something like quiet returns upon the town. But think, in these piled lands, of all the senseless snorers, all the broken heads and empty pockets!
On the day itself, all the shops are closed like on a Sunday; only taverns, toy stores, and other holiday shops keep their doors open. Everyone is looking for their handsel. The postmen and lamplighters have left a copy of local verses at every house in their areas, asking and thanking in one breath; it’s typical of Scotland that these verses often include a touch of reality in details and a strong sentiment in their expression. All over the town, you can see bundled-up schoolboys rushing to spend their half-crowns. There are countless visits to make; everyone is out on the streets except for the more reserved folks; the traditional greetings can be heard everywhere; "Auld Lang Syne" is on everyone’s lips; and whisky and shortbread are popular snacks. From early in the day, a visitor would notice the number of drunk men; by the afternoon, women have joined in the drunkenness. For some social classes, it’s just as much a duty to drink heavily on New Year’s Day as it is to go to church on Sunday. Some have been saving their wages for a month to celebrate the occasion. Many carry a whisky bottle in their pocket, which they will offer with awkward enthusiasm to complete strangers. It's not a good idea to risk a cab ride, at least not until you've carefully observed the driver. The streets, bustling with people from end to end, become a bit of a tricky navigation. Whether alone or in pairs, some are silent, while others are loud and quarrelsome, the celebrants of the New Year weave in and out, bumping into each other; now and then, one tumbles and lies where they fell. Before night falls, so many have gone to bed or to the police station that the streets seem almost empty. And since revelers and first-footers are not much seen anymore except in the countryside, once the New Year has been welcomed and announced at the Tron railings, the celebrations start moving indoors and a sense of calm begins to settle over the town. But just think about all the senseless snorers, all the headaches, and the empty pockets!
Of old, Edinburgh University was the scene of heroic snowballing; and one riot obtained the epic honours of military intervention. But the great generation, I am afraid, is at an end; and even during my own college days, the spirit appreciably declined. Skating and sliding, on the other hand, are honoured more and more; and curling, being a creature of the national genius, is little likely to be disregarded. The patriotism that leads a man to eat Scots bun will scarcely desert him at the curling pond. Edinburgh, with its long, steep pavements, is the proper home of sliders; many a happy urchin can slide the whole way to school; and the profession of errand-[Pg 326]boy is transformed into a holiday amusement. As for skating, there is scarce any city so handsomely provided. Duddingston Loch lies under the abrupt southern side of Arthur's Seat; in summer, a shield of blue, with swans sailing from the reeds; in winter, a field of ringing ice. The village church sits above it on a green promontory; and the village smoke rises from among goodly trees. At the church gates is the historical jougs, a place of penance for the neck of detected sinners, and the historical louping-on stane, from which Dutch-built lairds and farmers climbed into the saddle. Here Prince Charlie slept before the battle of Prestonpans; and here Deacon Brodie, or one of his gang, stole a plough coulter before the burglary in Chessel's Court. On the opposite side of the loch, the ground rises to Craigmillar Castle, a place friendly to Stuart Mariolaters. It is worth a climb, even in summer, to look down upon the loch from Arthur's Seat; but it is tenfold more so on a day of skating. The surface is thick with people moving easily and swiftly and leaning over at a thousand graceful inclinations; the crowd opens and closes, and keeps moving through itself like water; and the ice rings to half a mile away, with the flying steel. As night draws on, the single figures melt into the dusk, until only an obscure stir and coming and going of black clusters is visible upon the loch. A little longer, and the first torch is kindled and begins to flit rapidly across the ice in a ring of yellow reflection, and this is followed by another and another, until the whole field is full of skimming lights.
Long ago, Edinburgh University was known for epic snowball fights, and one riot even led to military intervention. But I’m afraid that great era has come to an end; even during my own college days, the enthusiasm noticeably faded. Skating and sliding, however, are increasingly celebrated, and curling, which is a true product of national pride, is not likely to be overlooked. The patriotism that drives someone to enjoy Scots buns will hardly leave them at the curling rink. Edinburgh, with its long, steep sidewalks, is the perfect place for sliding; many cheerful kids can slide all the way to school, turning the job of errand runner into a fun activity. As for skating, few cities offer such great opportunities. Duddingston Loch lies under the steep southern slope of Arthur's Seat; in summer, it’s a beautiful blue with swans gliding among the reeds, and in winter, it becomes a ringing expanse of ice. The village church stands on a green hill above it, with smoke rising from among lovely trees. At the church gates are the historical jougs, a place of penance for wrongdoers, and the historical louping-on stane, where lairds and farmers from the Netherlands would mount their horses. Here, Prince Charlie rested before the battle of Prestonpans, and here, Deacon Brodie or one of his gang stole a plow blade before the burglary at Chessel's Court. On the other side of the loch, the land rises to Craigmillar Castle, a place favored by supporters of the Stuart cause. It’s worth the climb, even in summer, to gaze down on the loch from Arthur's Seat, but it’s even more rewarding on a skating day. The ice is packed with people gliding effortlessly and gracefully, bending in all sorts of beautiful ways; the crowd ebbs and flows like water, constantly shifting. The sound of skates echoes for half a mile away. As night falls, individual figures blend into the darkness, leaving only a vague movement of black shapes on the loch. A little longer, and the first torch is lit, quickly darting across the ice in a ring of yellow light, followed by another and another, until the entire area is filled with twinkling lights.
CHAPTER X
TO THE PENTLAND HILLS
On three sides of Edinburgh, the country slopes downward from the city, here to the sea, there to the fat farms of Haddington, there to the mineral fields of Linlithgow. On the south alone, it keeps rising, until it not only out-tops the Castle, but looks down on Arthur's Seat. The character of the neighbourhood is pretty strongly marked by a scarcity of hedges; by many stone walls of varying height; by a fair amount of timber, some of it well grown, but apt to be of a bushy, northern profile and poor in foliage; by here and there a little river, Esk or Leith or Almond, busily journeying in the bottom of its glen; and from almost every point, by a peep of the sea or the hills. There is no lack of variety, and yet most of the elements are common to all parts; and the southern district is alone distinguished by considerable summits and a wide view.
On three sides of Edinburgh, the land slopes down from the city, going towards the sea, towards the fertile farms of Haddington, and towards the mineral fields of Linlithgow. Only to the south does it keep rising, until it not only surpasses the Castle but also overlooks Arthur's Seat. The area's character is clearly defined by the scarcity of hedges; numerous stone walls of different heights; a fair amount of trees, some well-grown but mostly bushy and sparse in leaves; and scattered little rivers like the Esk, Leith, or Almond, actively flowing through their valleys. From nearly every vantage point, you can catch a glimpse of the sea or the hills. There's plenty of variety, yet most of the features are similar throughout; the southern area alone stands out with its significant heights and expansive views.
From Boroughmuirhead, where the Scottish army encamped before Flodden, the road descends a long hill, at the bottom of which, and just as it is preparing to mount up on the other side, it passes a toll-bar and issues at once into the open country. Even as I write these words, they are becoming antiquated in the progress of events, and the chisels are tinkling on a new row of houses. The builders have at length adventured beyond the toll which held them in respect so long, and proceed to career in these fresh pastures like a herd of colts turned loose. As Lord Beaconsfield proposed to hang an architect by way of stimulation, a man, looking on these doomed meads, imagines a similar example to deter the builders;[Pg 328] for it seems as if it must come to an open fight at last to preserve a corner of green country unbedevilled. And here, appropriately enough, there stood in old days a crow-haunted gibbet, with two bodies hanged in chains. I used to be shown, when a child, a flat stone in the roadway to which the gibbet had been fixed. People of a willing fancy were persuaded, and sought to persuade others, that this stone was never dry. And no wonder, they would add, for the two men had only stolen fourpence between them.
From Boroughmuirhead, where the Scottish army camped before Flodden, the road goes down a long hill, and at the bottom, just as it prepares to climb up the other side, it passes a toll booth and immediately opens up into the countryside. Even as I write this, my words are becoming outdated with the changing times, and construction sounds are ringing out as a new row of houses goes up. The builders have finally ventured past the toll that held them back for so long and are now charging ahead into these new lands like a group of colts let loose. Just like Lord Beaconsfield suggested dangling an architect as motivation, anyone watching these doomed fields might imagine a similar example to scare off the builders; it seems like it might eventually come to a real fight to keep a bit of green space unspoiled. Interestingly enough, there used to be a crow-filled gallows here, with two bodies hanging in chains. When I was a child, I was shown a flat stone in the road where the gallows had been fixed. Those with a vivid imagination were convinced—and tried to convince others—that this stone was always wet. And who could blame them, they'd say, since the two men had only stolen fourpence between them.[Pg 328]
For about two miles the road climbs upwards, a long hot walk in summer time. You reach the summit at a place where four ways meet, beside the toll of Fairmilehead. The spot is breezy and agreeable both in name and aspect. The hills are close by across a valley: Kirk Yetton, with its long, upright scars visible as far as Fife, and Allermuir the tallest on this side: with wood and tilled field running high up on their borders, and haunches all moulded into innumerable glens and shelvings and variegated with heather and fern. The air comes briskly and sweetly off the hills, pure from the elevation, and rustically scented by the upland plants; and even at the toll, you may hear the curlew calling on its mate. At certain seasons, when the gulls desert their surfy forelands, the birds of sea and mountain hunt and scream together in the same field by Fairmilehead. The winged, wild things intermix their wheelings, the sea-birds skim the tree-tops and fish among the furrows of the plough. These little craft of air are at home in all the world, so long as they cruise in their own element; and like sailors, ask but food and water from the shores they coast.
For about two miles, the road goes uphill, making for a long, hot walk in the summer. You reach the top at a spot where four roads meet, next to the Fairmilehead toll. This place is breezy and pleasant, both in name and appearance. The hills are nearby across a valley: Kirk Yetton, with its long, upright scars visible as far as Fife, and Allermuir, the tallest on this side, featuring woodlands and cultivated fields climbing high along their edges, with slopes shaped into countless glens and shelves, all mixed with heather and ferns. The air comes briskly and sweetly from the hills, clean from the altitude, and filled with the rustic scents of upland plants; and even at the toll, you can hear the curlew calling for its mate. At certain times of the year, when the gulls leave their surf-washed shores, sea and mountain birds hunt and call together in the same field near Fairmilehead. The wild birds intermingle in their soaring, the sea-birds glide alongside the treetops and fish among the plowed fields. These little flying crafts feel at home anywhere in the world, as long as they’re in their own element; and like sailors, they only ask for food and water from the shores they visit.
Below, over a stream, the road passes Bow Bridge, now a dairy-farm, but once a distillery of whisky. It chanced, some time in the past century, that the distiller was on terms of good-fellowship with the visiting officer of excise. The latter was of an easy, friendly disposition, and a master of convivial arts. Now and again, he had to[Pg 329] walk out of Edinburgh to measure the distiller's stock; and although it was agreeable to find his business lead him in a friend's direction, it was unfortunate that the friend should be a loser by his visits. Accordingly, when he got about the level of Fairmilehead, the gauger would take his flute, without which he never travelled, from his pocket, fit it together, and set manfully to playing, as if for his own delectation and inspired by the beauty of the scene. His favourite air, it seems, was "Over the Hills and Far Away." At the first note, the distiller pricked his ears. A flute at Fairmilehead? and playing, "Over the Hills and Far Away"? This must be his friendly enemy, the gauger. Instantly, horses were harnessed, and sundry barrels of whisky were got upon a cart, driven at a gallop round Hill End, and buried in the mossy glen behind Kirk Yetton. In the same breath, you may be sure, a fat fowl was put to the fire, and the whitest napery prepared for the back parlour. A little after, the gauger, having had his fill of music for the moment, came strolling down with the most innocent air imaginable, and found the good people at Bow Bridge taken entirely unawares by his arrival, but none the less glad to see him. The distiller's liquor and the gauger's flute would combine to speed the moments of digestion; and when both were somewhat mellow, they would wind up the evening with "Over the Hills and Far Away," to an accompaniment of knowing glances. And at least there is a smuggling story, with original and half-idyllic features.
Below, over a stream, the road crosses Bow Bridge, which is now a dairy farm but used to be a whisky distillery. Some time last century, the distiller had a good relationship with the visiting excise officer. The officer was laid-back, friendly, and skilled at enjoying good company. Occasionally, he had to[Pg 329] walk out of Edinburgh to check the distiller's stock; although it was nice to have his work lead him to a friend's place, it was unfortunate that his friend would suffer from these visits. So, when he got near Fairmilehead, the gauger would take his flute, which he never traveled without, from his pocket, put it together, and start playing as if he were enjoying the scenery. His favorite tune seemed to be "Over the Hills and Far Away." At the first note, the distiller perked up. A flute at Fairmilehead? Playing, "Over the Hills and Far Away"? This had to be his friendly rival, the gauger. Immediately, horses were harnessed, and several barrels of whisky were loaded onto a cart, which was raced around Hill End and hidden in the mossy glen behind Kirk Yetton. At the same time, a plump chicken was put to roast, and the finest tablecloth was laid out for the back parlor. A little later, the gauger, having enjoyed enough music for the moment, strolled down with the most innocent look imaginable and found the good people at Bow Bridge completely unprepared for his arrival but nonetheless happy to see him. The distiller's drink and the gauger's flute would blend together to help pass the time after the meal; and when they were both feeling a bit tipsy, they would wrap up the evening with "Over the Hills and Far Away," exchanging knowing looks. And indeed, there's a smuggling story here, complete with original and somewhat idyllic features.
A little farther, the road to the right passes an upright stone in a field. The country people call it General Kay's monument. According to them, an officer of that name had perished there in battle at some indistinct period before the beginning of history. The date is reassuring; for I think cautious writers are silent on the General's exploits. But the stone is connected with one of those remarkable tenures of land which linger on into the modern world from Feudalism. Whenever the reigning[Pg 330] sovereign passes by, a certain landed proprietor is held bound to climb on to the top, trumpet in hand, and sound a flourish according to the measure of his knowledge in that art. Happily for a respectable family, crowned heads have no great business in the Pentland Hills. But the story lends a character of comicality to the stone; and the passer-by will sometimes chuckle to himself.
A little further down, the road to the right goes past an upright stone in a field. The locals call it General Kay's monument. According to them, an officer by that name died there in battle at some unclear time before recorded history. The date is comforting; because I think careful writers keep quiet about the General's adventures. But the stone is linked to one of those unique land tenures that have survived from Feudalism into the modern world. Whenever the current[Pg 330] monarch passes by, a specific landowner is required to climb to the top, trumpet in hand, and play a flourish based on what he knows about that skill. Fortunately for a respectable family, royalty doesn’t often visit the Pentland Hills. But the story gives the stone a humorous aspect, and passersby sometimes chuckle to themselves.
The district is dear to the superstitious. Hard by, at the back-gate of Comiston, a belated carter beheld a lady in white, "with the most beautiful, clear shoes upon her feet," who looked upon him in a very ghastly manner, and then vanished; and just in front is the Hunters' Tryst, once a roadside inn, and not so long ago haunted by the devil in person. Satan led the inhabitants a pitiful existence. He shook the four corners of the building with lamentable outcries, beat at the doors and windows, over-threw crockery in the dead hours of the morning, and danced unholy dances on the roof. Every kind of spiritual disinfectant was put in requisition; chosen ministers were summoned out of Edinburgh and prayed by the hour; pious neighbours sat up all night making a noise of psalmody; but Satan minded them no more than the wind about the hill-tops; and it was only after years of persecution, that he left the Hunters' Tryst in peace to occupy himself with the remainder of mankind. What with General Kay, and the white lady, and this singular visitation, the neighbourhood offers great facilities to the makers of sun-myths; and without exactly casting in one's lot with that disenchanting school of writers, one cannot help hearing a good deal of the winter wind in the last story. "That nicht," says Burns, in one of his happiest moments,—
The area is beloved by the superstitious. Nearby, at the back gate of Comiston, a late-night cart driver saw a woman in white, "with the most beautiful, clear shoes on her feet," who gazed at him in a haunting way and then disappeared. Right in front is the Hunters' Tryst, which used to be a roadside inn and not too long ago was supposedly haunted by the devil himself. Satan made life miserable for the locals. He shook the corners of the building with terrible cries, pounded on the doors and windows, smashed dishes in the early hours, and danced blasphemous dances on the roof. Every kind of spiritual cleansing was attempted; ministers were brought in from Edinburgh and prayed for hours; devout neighbors stayed up all night singing psalms, but Satan paid them no mind, just like the wind on the hilltops. It was only after years of torment that he left the Hunters' Tryst in peace to trouble the rest of humanity. With General Kay, the white lady, and this strange occurrence, the neighborhood provides plenty of inspiration for those who create sun-myths; and without fully embracing that disenchanting group of writers, one can't help but sense the winter wind in the last story. "That night," says Burns in one of his brightest moments,—
The devil had something to handle.
And if people sit up all night in lone places on the hills, with Bibles and tremulous psalms, they will be apt to hear[Pg 331] some of the most fiendish noises in the world: the wind will beat on doors and dance upon roofs for them, and make the hills howl around their cottage with a clamour like the Judgment Day.
And if people stay up all night in lonely spots on the hills, with Bibles and shaky psalms, they're likely to hear[Pg 331] some of the most terrifying sounds in the world: the wind will pound on doors and swirl around on roofs for them, and make the hills scream around their cottage with a racket like Judgment Day.
The road goes down through another valley, and then finally begins to scale the main slope of the Pentlands. A bouquet of old trees stands round a white farmhouse; and from a neighbouring dell, you can see smoke rising and leaves ruffling in the breeze. Straight above, the hills climb a thousand feet into the air. The neighbourhood, about the time of lambs, is clamorous with the bleating of flocks; and you will be awakened, in the grey of early summer mornings, by the barking of a dog or the voice of a shepherd shouting to the echoes. This, with the hamlet lying behind unseen, is Swanston.
The road winds down through another valley and then finally starts to climb the main slope of the Pentlands. A group of old trees surrounds a white farmhouse, and from a nearby hollow, you can see smoke rising and leaves fluttering in the breeze. Directly above, the hills rise a thousand feet into the sky. The area, around lambing season, is noisy with the bleating of sheep; and you'll be woken up in the early summer mornings by a dog barking or a shepherd calling out to the echoes. This, with the village tucked away behind, is Swanston.
The place in the dell is immediately connected with the city. Long ago, this sheltered field was purchased by the Edinburgh magistrates for the sake of the springs that rise or gather there. After they had built their water-house and laid their pipes, it occurred to them that the place was suitable for junketing. Once entertained, with jovial magistrates and public funds, the idea led speedily to accomplishment; and Edinburgh could soon boast of a municipal Pleasure House. The dell was turned into a garden; and on the knoll that shelters it from the plain and the sea winds, they built a cottage looking to the hills. They brought crockets and gargoyles from old St. Giles's, which they were then restoring, and disposed them on the gables and over the door and about the garden; and the quarry which had supplied them with building material, they draped with clematis and carpeted with beds of roses. So much for the pleasure of the eye; for creature comfort, they made a capacious cellar in the hillside and fitted it with bins of the hewn stone. In process of time, the trees grew higher and gave shade to the cottage, and the evergreens sprang up and turned the dell into a thicket. There, purple magistrates relaxed[Pg 332] themselves from the pursuit of municipal ambition; cocked hats paraded soberly about the garden and in and out among the hollies; authoritative canes drew ciphering upon the path; and at night, from high up on the hills, a shepherd saw lighted windows through the foliage and heard the voice of city dignitaries raised in song.
The spot in the valley is directly linked to the city. A long time ago, the Edinburgh officials bought this protected field for the springs that flow or collect here. After they built their water house and installed their pipes, they realized the place was perfect for hosting events. Once entertained, with cheerful officials and public funds, the idea quickly became a reality; and soon Edinburgh could boast a municipal Pleasure House. The valley was transformed into a garden, and on the knoll that shields it from the flatlands and sea breezes, they constructed a cottage that looks toward the hills. They brought in crockets and gargoyles from the old St. Giles, which they were restoring at that time, and placed them on the gables, over the door, and around the garden; and the quarry that provided their building materials was draped in clematis and covered with rose beds. This catered to the eye; for comfort, they created a spacious cellar in the hillside and fitted it with stone bins. Over time, the trees grew taller, providing shade to the cottage, and the evergreens flourished, turning the valley into a thicket. There, purple-clad officials relaxed themselves from their municipal aspirations; cocked hats strolled quietly around the garden and in and out among the hollies; authoritative canes traced patterns on the path; and at night, from high in the hills, a shepherd saw lighted windows through the leaves and heard the voices of city dignitaries lifted in song.[Pg 332]
The farm is older. It was first a grange of Whitekirk Abbey, tilled and inhabited by rosy friars. Thence, after the Reformation, it passed into the hands of a true-blue Protestant family. During the Covenanting troubles, when a night conventicle was held upon the Pentlands, the farm doors stood hospitably open till the morning; the dresser was laden with cheese and bannocks, milk and brandy; and the worshipers kept lipping down from the hill between two exercises, as couples visit the supper-room between two dances of a modern ball. In the Forty-Five, some foraging Highlanders from Prince Charlie's army fell upon Swanston in the dawn. The great-grandfather of the late farmer was then a little child; him they awakened by plucking the blankets from his bed, and he remembered, when he was an old man, their truculent looks and uncouth speech. The churn stood full of cream in the dairy, and with this they made their brose in high delight. "It was braw brose," said one of them. At last they made off, laden like camels with their booty; and Swanston Farm has lain out of the way of history from that time forward. I do not know what may be yet in store for it. On dark days, when the mist runs low upon the hill, the house has a gloomy air as if suitable for private tragedy. But in hot July, you can fancy nothing more perfect than the garden, laid out in alleys and arbours and bright, old-fashioned flower-plots, and ending in a miniature ravine, all trellis-work and moss and tinkling waterfall, and housed from the sun under fathoms of broad foliage.
The farm is older. It was originally a grange of Whitekirk Abbey, worked and lived in by cheerful friars. After the Reformation, it went to a staunch Protestant family. During the Covenanting troubles, when a night gathering was held on the Pentlands, the farm doors were warmly open until morning; the table was filled with cheese and bannocks, milk and brandy; and the worshipers kept coming down from the hill between two services, just like couples visiting the dining room between two dances at a modern ball. In the Forty-Five, some foraging Highlanders from Prince Charlie's army attacked Swanston at dawn. The great-grandfather of the last farmer was just a child then; they woke him by pulling the blankets off his bed, and he remembered, when he was old, their fierce looks and strange speech. The churn was full of cream in the dairy, and they made their porridge with it in great delight. "It was good porridge," one of them said. Finally, they left, loaded like camels with their plunder; and Swanston Farm has been out of the historical spotlight ever since. I don’t know what the future holds for it. On dark days, when the mist hangs low over the hill, the house has a gloomy vibe that seems perfect for a private tragedy. But in hot July, you can't imagine anything more perfect than the garden, designed with paths and arbors and bright, old-fashioned flower beds, leading to a little ravine, all trellis and moss and a tinkling waterfall, sheltered from the sun beneath thick, leafy trees.
The hamlet behind is one of the least considerable of hamlets, and consists of a few cottages on a green[Pg 333] beside a burn. Some of them (a strange thing in Scotland) are models of internal neatness; the beds adorned with patchwork, the shelves arrayed with willow-pattern plates, the floors and tables bright with scrubbing or pipeclay, and the very kettle polished like silver. It is the sign of a contented old age in country places, where there is little matter for gossip and no street sights. Housework becomes an art; and at evening, when the cottage interior shines and twinkles in the glow of the fire, the housewife folds her hands and contemplates her finished picture; the snow and the wind may do their worst, she has made herself a pleasant corner in the world. The city might be a thousand miles away: and yet it was close by that Mr. Bough painted the distant view of Edinburgh which has been engraved for this collection:[2] and you have only to look at the cut, to see how near it is at hand. But hills and hill people are not easily sophisticated; and if you walk out here on a summer Sunday, it is as like as not the shepherd may set his dogs upon you. But keep an unmoved countenance; they look formidable at the charge, but their hearts are in the right place; and they will only bark and sprawl about you on the grass, unmindful of their master's excitations.
The little village behind us is one of the least notable places, consisting of a few cottages on a green[Pg 333] next to a stream. Some of them (which is unusual in Scotland) are truly tidy inside; the beds are decorated with patchwork quilts, the shelves display willow-pattern plates, the floors and tables are shining clean, and even the kettle looks polished like silver. This reflects a happy old age in rural areas, where there’s not much to gossip about and no busy streets. Housework becomes a craft; and in the evening, when the inside of the cottage sparkles in the firelight, the housewife can sit back and admire her work; no matter how fierce the snow and wind outside, she has crafted a cozy spot in the world. The city might be far away, but it’s right there that Mr. Bough painted the distant view of Edinburgh which has been included in this collection:[2] and you only need to look at the artwork to see how close it is. But people from the hills aren’t easily refined; if you take a walk out here on a summer Sunday, the shepherd might very well send his dogs after you. Just keep a calm expression; they may seem intimidating when they charge, but they’re really gentle at heart, and they’ll only bark and roll around on the grass, ignoring their master’s calls.
Kirk Yetton forms the north-eastern angle of the range; thence, the Pentlands trend off to south and west. From the summit you look over a great expanse of champaign sloping to the sea and behold a large variety of distant hills. There are the hills of Fife, the hills of Peebles, the Lammermoors, and the Ochils, more or less mountainous in outline, more or less blue with distance. Of the Pentlands themselves, you see a field of wild heathery peaks with a pond gleaming in the midst; and to that side the view is as desolate as if you were looking into Galloway or Applecross. To turn to the other, is like a piece of travel. Far out in the lowlands Edinburgh shows herself, making a great smoke on clear [Pg 334]days and spreading her suburbs about her for miles; the Castle rises darkly in the midst; and close by, Arthur's Seat makes a bold figure in the landscape. All around, cultivated fields, and woods, and smoking villages, and white country roads, diversify the uneven surface of the land. Trains crawl slowly abroad upon the railway lines; little ships are tacking in the Firth; the shadow of a mountainous cloud, as large as a parish, travels before the wind; the wind itself ruffles the wood and standing corn, and sends pulses of varying colour across the landscape. So you sit, like Jupiter on Olympus, and look down from afar upon men's life. The city is as silent as a city of the dead: from all its humming thoroughfares, not a voice, not a footfall, reaches you upon the hill. The sea surf, the cries of ploughmen, the streams and the mill-wheels, the birds and the wind, keep up an animated concert through the plain; from farm to farm, dogs and crowing cocks contend together in defiance; and yet from this Olympian station, except for the whispering rumour of a train, the world has fallen into a dead silence and the business of town and country grown voiceless in your ears. A crying hill-bird, the bleat of a sheep, a wind singing in the dry grass, seem not so much to interrupt, as to accompany, the stillness; but to the spiritual ear, the whole scene makes a music at once human and rural, and discourses pleasant reflections on the destiny of man. The spiry habitable city, ships, the divided fields, and browsing herds, and the straight highways, tell visibly of man's active and comfortable ways; and you may be never so laggard and never so unimpressionable, but there is something in the view that spirits up your blood and puts you in the vein for cheerful labour.
Kirk Yetton makes up the north-eastern corner of the range; from there, the Pentlands stretch out to the south and west. From the top, you can see a vast area of flat land sloping down to the sea, with a wide variety of distant hills in sight. There are the hills of Fife, the hills of Peebles, the Lammermoors, and the Ochils, all with their rugged outlines and varying shades of blue in the distance. Looking towards the Pentlands, you see a cluster of wild, heather-covered peaks with a pond sparkling in the middle; that side looks as desolate as if you're gazing into Galloway or Applecross. Turning the other way feels like a journey. Far out in the lowlands, Edinburgh reveals itself, sending up a lot of smoke on clear [Pg 334] days and spreading out its suburbs for miles; the Castle stands out darkly in the center, and nearby, Arthur's Seat strikes a bold silhouette in the landscape. All around, cultivated fields, woods, smoking villages, and winding country roads break up the uneven terrain. Trains move slowly along the railway lines; little ships maneuver in the Firth; the shadow of a big, mountainous cloud drifts with the wind; the wind stirs the trees and the standing corn, sending waves of different colors across the landscape. So you sit, like Jupiter on Olympus, observing human life from a distance. The city is as quiet as a ghost town: from all its bustling streets, no voice, no footsteps, reach you on the hill. The sound of the sea, the calls of farmers, the streams and mill-wheels, the birds, and the wind create a lively symphony across the plain; from farm to farm, dogs and roosters compete with each other; yet from this lofty viewpoint, apart from the faint whisper of a train, the world seems to have fallen into a deep silence, and the hustle and bustle of town and country fades away in your ears. A chirping bird, the bleat of a sheep, and the wind rustling through the dry grass don't so much interrupt the stillness as accompany it; yet to the discerning ear, the whole scene forms a melody that's both human and rustic, offering pleasant thoughts on the fate of humanity. The lively city, ships, divided fields, grazing herds, and straight roads visibly reflect humanity's industrious and comfortable life; and no matter how sluggish or unresponsive you might be, there’s something in the view that lifts your spirits and gets you ready for joyful work.
Immediately below is Fairmilehead, a spot of roof and a smoking chimney, where two roads, no thicker than packthread, intersect beside a hanging wood. If you are fanciful, you will be reminded of the gauger in the story. And the thought of this old exciseman, who once lipped[Pg 391] and fingered on his pipe and uttered clear notes from it in the mountain air, and the words of the song he affected, carry your mind "Over the hills and far away" to distant countries; and you have a vision of Edinburgh not, as you see her, in the midst of a little neighbourhood, but as a boss upon the round world with all Europe and the deep sea for her surroundings. For every place is a centre to the earth, whence highways radiate or ships set sail for foreign ports; the limit of a parish is not more imaginary than the frontier of an empire; and as a man sitting at home in his cabinet and swiftly writing books, so a city sends abroad an influence and a portrait of herself. There is no Edinburgh emigrant, far or near, from China to Peru, but he or she carries some lively pictures of the mind, some sunset behind the Castle cliffs, some snow scene, some maze of city lamps, indelible in the memory and delightful to study in the intervals of toil. For any such, if this book fall in their way, here are a few more home pictures. It would be pleasant if they should recognise a house where they had dwelt, or a walk that they had taken.
Immediately below is Fairmilehead, a spot with a roof and a smoking chimney, where two roads, no wider than thread, intersect beside a hanging wood. If you're the imaginative type, you might think of the gauger in the story. The image of this old exciseman, who once sipped[Pg 391], played on his pipe, and produced clear notes in the mountain air, along with the words of the song he liked, takes your mind "Over the hills and far away" to distant lands; and you envision Edinburgh not as a small neighborhood but as a key point on the globe, surrounded by all of Europe and the deep sea. Every place is a center of the earth, from which highways spread out or ships sail to foreign ports; the boundaries of a parish are just as real as the borders of an empire; and just as a person sitting at home in their study writes books quickly, a city sends out an influence and a representation of itself. There’s no Edinburgh emigrant, whether far or near, from China to Peru, who doesn’t carry vivid images in their mind—some sunset behind the Castle cliffs, a snowy scene, a labyrinth of city lights—indelible in memory and delightful to recall during breaks from work. For anyone like that, if this book happens to come their way, here are a few more memories of home. It would be nice if they recognized a house where they once lived or a path they used to walk.
END OF VOL. I.
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