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THE PRIVATE MEMOIRS
AND CONFESSIONS
OF A JUSTIFIED SINNER

WRITTEN BY HIMSELF

WITH A DETAIL OF CURIOUS TRADITIONARY FACTS, AND
OTHER EVIDENCE, BY THE EDITOR


By

James Hogg




THE EDITOR'S NARRATIVE

It appears from tradition, as well as some parish registers still extant, that the lands of Dalcastle (or Dalchastel, as it is often spelled) were possessed by a family of the name of Colwan, about one hundred and fifty years ago, and for at least a century previous to that period. That family was supposed to have been a branch of the ancient family of Colquhoun, and it is certain that from it spring the Cowans that spread towards the Border. I find that, in the year 1687, George Colwan succeeded his uncle of the same name, in the lands of Dalchastel and Balgrennan; and, this being all I can gather of the family from history, to tradition I must appeal for the remainder of the motley adventures of that house. But, of the matter furnished by the latter of these powerful monitors, I have no reason to complain: It has been handed down to the world in unlimited abundance; and I am certain that, in recording the hideous events which follow, I am only relating to the greater part of the inhabitants of at least four counties of Scotland matters of which they were before perfectly well informed.

It seems from tradition, as well as some parish records that still exist, that the lands of Dalcastle (or Dalchastel, as it is often spelled) were owned by a family named Colwan about one hundred and fifty years ago, and for at least a century before that. That family was thought to be a branch of the ancient Colquhoun family, and it's certain that they are the ancestors of the Cowans that moved towards the Border. I found that in the year 1687, George Colwan inherited the lands of Dalchastel and Balgrennan from his uncle of the same name; and since this is all I can find about the family from history, I have to turn to tradition for the rest of the various adventures of that family. But, regarding the information provided by tradition, I have no complaints: It has been passed down to the world in great abundance; and I'm sure that as I document the troubling events that follow, I am only recounting for the majority of the residents of at least four Scottish counties things they already knew well.

This George was a rich man, or supposed to be so, and was married, when considerably advanced in life, to the sole heiress and reputed daughter of a Baillie Orde, of Glasgow. This proved a conjunction anything but agreeable to the parties contracting. It is well known that the Reformation principles had long before that time taken a powerful hold of the hearts and affections of the people of Scotland, although the feeling was by no means general, or in equal degrees; and it so happened that this married couple felt completely at variance on the subject. Granting it to have been so, one would have thought that the laird, owing to his retiring situation, would have been the one that inclined to the stern doctrines of the reformers; and that the young and gay dame from the city would have adhered to the free principles cherished by the court party, and indulged in rather to extremity, in opposition to their severe and carping contemporaries.

This George was a wealthy man, or at least he was thought to be, and he got married, when he was quite a bit older, to the only heiress and rumored daughter of a Baillie Orde from Glasgow. This turned out to be a mismatch for both of them. It's well known that the principles of the Reformation had already taken a strong hold on the hearts of the people in Scotland, even though that sentiment wasn’t uniform or equally felt. As it happened, this couple had completely opposing views on the matter. One might have assumed that the laird, due to his reserved nature, would align with the strict teachings of the reformers, while the young and lively woman from the city would embrace the liberal beliefs favored by the court party, which she seemed to take to the extreme in contrast to their harsh and critical contemporaries.

The contrary, however, happened to be the case. The laird was what his country neighbours called "a droll, careless chap", with a very limited proportion of the fear of God in his heart, and very nearly as little of the fear of man. The laird had not intentionally wronged or offended either of the parties, and perceived not the necessity of deprecating their vengeance. He had hitherto believed that he was living in most cordial terms with the greater part of the inhabitants of the earth, and with the powers above in particular: but woe be unto him if he was not soon convinced of the fallacy of such damning security! for his lady was the most severe and gloomy of all bigots to the principles of the Reformation. Hers were not the tenets of the great reformers, but theirs mightily overstrained and deformed. Theirs was an unguent hard to be swallowed; but hers was that unguent embittered and overheated until nature could not longer bear it. She had imbibed her ideas from the doctrines of one flaming predestinarian divine alone; and these were so rigid that they became a stumbling block to many of his brethren, and a mighty handle for the enemies of his party to turn the machine of the state against them.

The opposite, however, was true. The laird was what his neighbors called "a funny, easy-going guy," with very little fear of God in his heart and almost none of fear of man. He hadn't deliberately wronged or offended anyone and didn't see the need to worry about their wrath. He had always thought he got along just fine with most of the people around him and with the higher powers, in particular. But woe betide him if he didn't soon realize how misguided that sense of security was! His wife was the most strict and gloomy of all zealots when it came to the principles of the Reformation. Her beliefs weren't those of the great reformers but rather a distorted and exaggerated version of them. Their beliefs were hard enough to accept, but hers were so harsh and extreme that they were unbearable. She had gotten her ideas from the teachings of one fiery predestinarian preacher alone, and his views were so strict that they became a stumbling block for many of his peers and a powerful tool for his enemies to use against them.

The wedding festivities at Dalcastle partook of all the gaiety, not of that stern age, but of one previous to it. There was feasting, dancing, piping, and singing: the liquors were handed, around in great fulness, the ale in large wooden bickers, and the brandy in capacious horns of oxen. The laird gave full scope to his homely glee. He danced—he snapped his fingers to the music—clapped his hands and shouted at the turn of the tune. He saluted every girl in the hall whose appearance was anything tolerable, and requested of their sweethearts to take the same freedom with his bride, by way of retaliation. But there she sat at the head of the hall in still and blooming beauty, absolutely refusing to tread a single measure with any gentleman there. The only enjoyment in which she appeared to partake was in now and then stealing a word of sweet conversation with her favourite pastor about divine things; for he had accompanied her home after marrying her to her husband, to see her fairly settled in her new dwelling. He addressed her several times by her new name, Mrs. Colwan; but she turned away her head disgusted, and looked with pity and contempt towards the old inadvertent sinner, capering away in the height of his unregenerated mirth. The minister perceived the workings of her pious mind, and thenceforward addressed her by the courteous title of Lady Dalcastle, which sounded somewhat better, as not coupling her name with one of the wicked: and there is too great reason to believe that, for all the solemn vows she had come under, and these were of no ordinary binding, particularly on the laird's part, she at that time despised, if not abhorred him, in her heart.

The wedding celebrations at Dalcastle were filled with all the joy not of that strict age, but of an earlier time. There was feasting, dancing, music, and singing: drinks were served abundantly, with ale in large wooden bowls and brandy in big horns made from oxen. The laird was in high spirits. He danced—snapped his fingers to the music—clapped his hands, and shouted as the tunes changed. He greeted every girl in the hall who looked decent and encouraged their partners to do the same with his bride, for fun. But there she sat at the head of the hall, still and beautiful, completely refusing to dance with anyone there. The only enjoyment she seemed to have was now and then sharing a few sweet words with her favorite pastor about spiritual matters; he had come home with her after marrying her to her husband, to help her settle into her new home. He called her several times by her new name, Mrs. Colwan; but she turned her head away in disgust and looked with pity and disdain at the old, careless sinner, who was happily dancing away in his unrepentant joy. The minister noticed her troubled thoughts and from then on referred to her as Lady Dalcastle, which sounded a bit better, as it didn’t associate her name with one of the wicked. There is good reason to believe that, despite all the serious vows she had taken, which were particularly binding on the laird’s part, she at that moment despised, if not loathed him, in her heart.

The good parson again blessed her, and went away. She took leave of him with tears in her eyes, entreating him often to visit her in that heathen land of the Amorite, the Hittite, and the Girgashite: to which he assented, on many solemn and qualifying conditions—and then the comely bride retired to her chamber to pray.

The kind pastor blessed her once more and left. She said goodbye to him with tears in her eyes, begging him to come and see her often in that foreign land of the Amorite, the Hittite, and the Girgashite. He agreed, but with many serious and specific conditions—and then the beautiful bride went to her room to pray.

It was customary, in those days, for the bride's-man and maiden, and a few select friends, to visit the new-married couple after they had retired to rest, and drink a cup to their healths, their happiness, and a numerous posterity. But the laird delighted not in this: he wished to have his jewel to himself; and, slipping away quietly from his jovial party, he retired to his chamber to his beloved, and bolted the door. He found her engaged with the writings of the Evangelists, and terribly demure. The laird went up to caress her; but she turned away her head, and spoke of the follies of aged men, and something of the broad way that leadeth to destruction. The laird did not thoroughly comprehend this allusion; but being considerably flustered by drinking, and disposed to take all in good part, he only remarked, as he took off his shoes and stockings, that, "whether the way was broad or narrow, it was time that they were in their bed."

It was common back then for the best man and maid of honor, along with a few close friends, to visit the newlyweds after they had gone to bed, and raise a toast to their health, happiness, and a big family. But the laird wasn’t interested in that; he wanted his bride all to himself. Quietly slipping away from his cheerful group, he went to his room, locked the door, and joined his beloved. He found her reading the Gospels, looking very serious. The laird approached to embrace her, but she turned her head away and talked about the foolishness of older men and hinted at the path that leads to destruction. The laird didn’t fully understand what she meant, but since he was a bit tipsy and in a good mood, he simply commented while taking off his shoes and socks that, “whether the path is broad or narrow, it’s time for us to be in bed.”

"Sure, Mr. Colwan, you won't go to bed to-night, at such an important period of your life, without first saying prayers for yourself and me."

"Of course, Mr. Colwan, you’re not going to bed tonight, at such an important time in your life, without first saying a prayer for yourself and for me."

When she said this, the laird had his head down almost to the ground, loosing his shoe-buckle; but when he heard of prayers, on such a night, he raised his face suddenly up, which was all over as flushed and red as a rose, and answered:

When she said this, the laird had his head almost down to the ground, trying to fix his shoe-buckle; but when he heard about prayers on such a night, he suddenly lifted his face, which was bright red like a rose, and replied:

"Prayers, Mistress! Lord help your crazed head, is this a night for prayers?"

"Prayers, Mistress! God help your wild mind, is this a night for prayers?"

He had better have held his peace. There was such a torrent of profound divinity poured out upon him that the laird became ashamed, both of himself and his new-made spouse, and wist not what to say: but the brandy helped him out.

He should have kept quiet. There was such an overwhelming sense of divinity surrounding him that the lord felt embarrassed, both for himself and his newly married wife, and didn't know what to say: but the brandy helped him out.

"It strikes me, my dear, that religious devotion would be somewhat out of place to-night," said he. "Allowing that it is ever so beautiful, and ever so beneficial, were we to ride on the rigging of it at all times, would we not be constantly making a farce of it: It would be like reading the Bible and the jestbook, verse about, and would render the life of man a medley of absurdity and confusion."

"It occurs to me, my dear, that religious devotion might be a bit out of place tonight," he said. "Even though it's beautiful and beneficial, if we relied on it all the time, wouldn't we just be turning it into a joke? It would be like reading the Bible and a joke book back and forth, making life a mix of absurdity and confusion."

But, against the cant of the bigot or the hypocrite, no reasoning can aught avail. If you would argue until the end of life, the infallible creature must alone be right. So it proved with the laird. One Scripture text followed another, not in the least connected, and one sentence of the profound Mr. Wringhim's sermons after another, proving the duty of family worship, till the laird lost patience, and tossing himself into bed, said carelessly that he would leave that duty upon her shoulders for one night.

But, against the chatter of the bigot or the hypocrite, no reasoning can work. Even if you argued until the end of your days, the infallible creature would always be right. It turned out that way with the laird. One Bible verse came after another, completely unrelated, and one statement from the profound Mr. Wringhim's sermons followed another, proving the importance of family worship, until the laird lost his patience and, throwing himself into bed, carelessly said he would leave that responsibility on her for one night.

The meek mind of Lady Dalcastle was somewhat disarranged by this sudden evolution. She felt that she was left rather in an awkward situation. However, to show her unconscionable spouse that she was resolved to hold fast her integrity, she kneeled down and prayed in terms so potent that she deemed she was sure of making an impression on him. She did so; for in a short time the laird began to utter a response so fervent that she was utterly astounded, and fairly driven from the chain of her orisons. He began, in truth, to sound a nasal bugle of no ordinary calibre—the notes being little inferior to those of a military trumpet. The lady tried to proceed, but every returning note from the bed burst on her ear with a louder twang, and a longer peal, till the concord of sweet sounds became so truly pathetic that the meek spirit of the dame was quite overcome; and, after shedding a flood of tears, she arose from her knees, and retired to the chimney-corner with her Bible in her lap, there to spend the hours in holy meditation till such time as the inebriated trumpeter should awaken to a sense of propriety.

The gentle mind of Lady Dalcastle was a bit unsettled by this sudden change. She felt like she was put in a really awkward position. However, to show her unreasonable husband that she was determined to maintain her integrity, she knelt down and prayed with such intensity that she believed she would definitely make an impression on him. She did; soon enough, the laird began to respond with such fervor that she was completely taken aback and lost her train of thought. He started, in fact, to produce a nasal sound like no other—the notes resembling those of a military trumpet. The lady tried to continue her prayer, but every note from the bed hit her ears with a louder twang and longer ring, until the harmony of sweet sounds became so deeply touching that her gentle spirit was completely overwhelmed; after shedding a flood of tears, she got up from her knees and retreated to the corner by the fireplace with her Bible in her lap, intending to spend the hours in quiet meditation until the drunken trumpeter regained his sense of propriety.

The laird did not awake in any reasonable time; for, he being overcome with fatigue and wassail, his sleep became sounder, and his Morphean measures more intense. These varied a little in their structure; but the general run of the bars sounded something in this way: "Hic-hoc-wheew!" It was most profoundly ludicrous; and could not have missed exciting risibility in anyone save a pious, a disappointed, and humbled bride.

The laird didn't wake up for a long time because he was exhausted and had been drinking, making his sleep deeper and his dreams more vivid. They varied a bit in how they sounded, but generally, they went something like this: "Hic-hoc-wheew!" It was incredibly funny and would have made anyone laugh except for a devout, disappointed, and humbled bride.

The good dame wept bitterly. She could not for her life go and awaken the monster, and request him to make room for her: but she retired somewhere, for the laird, on awaking next morning, found that he was still lying alone. His sleep had been of the deepest and most genuine sort; and, all the time that it lasted, he had never once thought of either wives, children, or sweethearts, save in the way of dreaming about them; but, as his spirit began again by slow degrees to verge towards the boundaries of reason, it became lighter and more buoyant from the effects of deep repose, and his dreams partook of that buoyancy, yea, to a degree hardly expressible. He dreamed of the reel, the jig, the strathspey, and the corant; and the elasticity of his frame was such that he was bounding over the heads of maidens, and making his feet skimmer against the ceiling, enjoying, the while, the most ecstatic emotions. These grew too fervent for the shackles of the drowsy god to restrain. The nasal bugle ceased its prolonged sounds in one moment, and a sort of hectic laugh took its place. "Keep it going—play up, you devils!" cried the laird, without changing his position on the pillow. But this exertion to hold the fiddlers at their work fairly awakened the delighted dreamer, and, though he could not refrain from continuing, his laugh, beat length, by tracing out a regular chain of facts, came to be sensible of his real situation. "Rabina, where are you? What's become of you, my dear?" cried the laird. But there was no voice nor anyone that answered or regarded. He flung open the curtains, thinking to find her still on her knees, as he had seen her, but she was not there, either sleeping or waking. "Rabina! Mrs. Colwan!" shouted he, as loud as he could call, and then added in the same breath, "God save the king—I have lost my wife!"

The good lady cried hard. She simply couldn't bring herself to wake the monster and ask him to make space for her, so she went away somewhere. When the lord woke up the next morning, he found he was still alone. His sleep had been deep and genuine, and during it, he hadn’t thought about his wives, children, or sweethearts, except in his dreams. But as he slowly started to come back to reality, he felt lighter and more uplifted thanks to the restful sleep, and his dreams reflected that lightness in a way that was hard to describe. He dreamed of dancing reels, jigs, strathspeys, and corants; his body felt so alive that he was leaping over the heads of maidens and making his feet skim the ceiling, all while feeling ecstatic emotions. These feelings became too intense for even the sleepy god to contain. The nasal bugle suddenly stopped its long notes, replaced by a kind of wild laughter. "Keep it up—play, you devils!" shouted the lord, still lying on his pillow. But his attempt to keep the musicians playing jolted the joyful dreamer awake, and although he couldn’t help but keep laughing, he slowly began to piece together the reality of his situation. "Rabina, where are you? What happened to you, my dear?" yelled the lord. But there was no response or anyone there. He pulled open the curtains, expecting to see her still on her knees as he had before, but she wasn’t there, neither sleeping nor awake. "Rabina! Mrs. Colwan!" he called out as loudly as he could, then added in the same breath, "God save the king—I’ve lost my wife!"

He sprung up and opened the casement: the day-light was beginning to streak the east, for it was spring, and the nights were short, and the mornings very long. The laird half dressed himself in an instant, and strode through every room in the house, opening the windows as he went, and scrutinizing every bed and every corner. He came into the hall where the wedding festival had been held; and as he opened the various windowboards, loving couples flew off like hares surprised too late in the morning among the early braird. "Hoo-boo! Fie, be frightened!" cried the laird. "Fie, rin like fools, as if ye were caught in an ill-turn!" His bride was not among them; so he was obliged to betake himself to further search. "She will be praying in some corner, poor woman," said he to himself. "It is an unlucky thing this praying. But, for my part, I fear I have behaved very ill; and I must endeavour to make amends."

He jumped up and opened the window: the daylight was starting to light up the east, since it was spring, and the nights were short while the mornings were long. The laird quickly got half-dressed and walked through every room in the house, opening the windows as he went and checking every bed and corner. He entered the hall where the wedding celebration had taken place; and as he opened the various window shutters, loving couples darted off like hares startled too late in the morning among the early grass. "Hey! Don’t be scared!" shouted the laird. "Run like fools, as if you’ve been caught in something bad!" His bride wasn’t among them, so he had to search further. "She must be praying in some corner, poor woman," he thought to himself. "This praying is such a bad omen. But, honestly, I think I've behaved very poorly; I need to make things right."

The laird continued his search, and at length found his beloved in the same bed with her Glasgow cousin who had acted as bridesmaid. "You sly and malevolent imp," said the laird; "you have played me such a trick when I was fast asleep! I have not known a frolic so clever, and, at the same time, so severe. Come along, you baggage you!"

The lord kept looking and finally found his beloved in bed with her cousin from Glasgow, who had been the bridesmaid. "You sneaky and wicked little one," said the lord; "you pulled this trick on me while I was sound asleep! I've never seen such a clever prank that was also so harsh. Come on, you troublemaker!"

"Sir, I will let you know that I detest your principles and your person alike," said she. "It shall never be said, Sir, that my person was at the control of a heathenish man of Belial—a dangler among the daughters of women—a promiscuous dancer—and a player of unlawful games. Forgo your rudeness, Sir, I say, and depart away from my presence and that of my kinswoman."

"Sir, I want you to know that I detest both your principles and you as a person," she said. "It will never be said, Sir, that my dignity was under the control of a wicked man—a lecher among women—a shameless dancer—and a participant in immoral games. Stop your rudeness, Sir, I insist, and leave my presence and that of my relative."

"Come along, I say, my charming Rab. If you were the pink of all puritans, and the saint of all saints, you are my wife, and must do as I command you."

"Come on, my lovely Rab. Even if you were the epitome of purity and the holiest of saints, you're still my wife, and you have to do what I say."

"Sir, I will sooner lay down my life than be subjected to your godless will; therefore I say, desist, and begone with you."

"Sir, I would rather die than be forced to follow your unholy desires; so I say, step back and leave me alone."

But the laird regarded none of these testy sayings: he rolled her in a blanket, and bore her triumphantly away to his chamber, taking care to keep a fold or two of the blanket always rather near to her mouth, in case of any outrageous forthcoming of noise.

But the laird ignored all these angry comments: he wrapped her in a blanket and carried her confidently to his room, making sure to keep a fold or two of the blanket close to her mouth, just in case she made any loud noises.

The next day at breakfast the bride was long in making her appearance. Her maid asked to see her; but George did not choose that anybody should see her but himself. He paid her several visits, and always turned the key as he came out. At length breakfast was served; and during the time of refreshment the laird tried to break several jokes; but it was remarked that they wanted their accustomed brilliancy, and that his nose was particularly red at the top.

The next day at breakfast, the bride took a long time to show up. Her maid asked to see her, but George didn’t want anyone to see her except him. He visited her several times and always locked the door as he left. Finally, breakfast was served, and during the meal, the laird tried to tell a few jokes; however, it was noticed that they lacked their usual flair and that the tip of his nose was especially red.

Matters, without all doubt, had been very bad between the new-married couple; for in the course of the day the lady deserted her quarters, and returned to her father's house in Glasgow, after having been a night on the road; stage-coaches and steam-boats having then no existence in that quarter.

Matters, without a doubt, had been very poor between the newly married couple; for during the day the woman left her home and went back to her father's house in Glasgow, after having spent a night traveling; stagecoaches and steamboats did not exist in that area at the time.

Though Baillie Orde had acquiesced in his wife's asseveration regarding the likeness of their only daughter to her father, he never loved or admired her greatly; therefore this behaviour nothing astounded him. He questioned her strictly as to the grievous offence committed against her, and could discover nothing that warranted a procedure so fraught with disagreeable consequences. So, after mature deliberation, the baillie addressed her as follows:

Though Baillie Orde had agreed with his wife’s claim about their only daughter looking like her father, he never loved or admired her much; so this behavior didn’t surprise him at all. He questioned her closely about the serious offense she had committed, and he couldn’t find anything that justified such a harsh response. After careful thought, the baillie spoke to her in this way:

"Aye, aye, Raby! An' sae I find that Dalcastle has actually refused to say prayers with you when you ordered him; an' has guidit you in a rude indelicate manner, outstepping the respect due to my daughter—as my daughter. But, wi' regard to what is due to his own wife, of that he's a better judge nor me. However, since he has behaved in that manner to MY DAUGHTER, I shall be revenged on him for aince; for I shall return the obligation to ane nearer to him: that is, I shall take pennyworths of his wife—an' let him lick at that."

"Yes, yes, Raby! And so I find that Dalcastle has actually refused to say prayers with you when you asked him to; and has treated you rudely, showing a lack of respect for my daughter—as my daughter. But, as for what he owes to his own wife, he’s a better judge of that than I am. However, since he has acted this way towards MY DAUGHTER, I will get back at him this once; I’ll return the favor to someone closer to him: that is, I will take advantage of his wife—and let him deal with that."

"What do you mean, Sir?" said the astonished damsel.

"What do you mean, Sir?" asked the surprised young woman.

"I mean to be revenged on that villain Dalcastle," said he, "for what he has done to my daughter. Come hither, Mrs. Colwan, you shall pay for this."

"I plan to get revenge on that villain Dalcastle," he said, "for what he did to my daughter. Come here, Mrs. Colwan, you will pay for this."

So saying, the baillie began to inflict corporal punishment on the runaway wife. His strokes were not indeed very deadly, but he made a mighty flourish in the infliction, pretending to be in a great rage only at the Laird of Dalcastle. "Villain that he is!" exclaimed he, "I shall teach him to behave in such a manner to a child of mine, be she as she may; since I cannot get at himself, I shall lounder her that is nearest to him in life. Take you that, and that, Mrs. Colwan, for your husband's impertinence!"

So saying, the bailiff started to punish the runaway wife. His blows weren’t truly severe, but he made a big show of it, pretending to be really angry with the Laird of Dalcastle. "What a villain he is!" he exclaimed, "I’ll teach him how to treat a child of mine, no matter what she is! Since I can’t get to him directly, I’ll take it out on the one who’s closest to him in life. Here’s that, and that, Mrs. Colwan, for your husband’s rudeness!"

The poor afflicted woman wept and prayed, but the baillie would not abate aught of his severity. After fuming and beating her with many stripes, far drawn, and lightly laid down, he took her up to her chamber, five stories high, locked her in, and there he fed her on bread and water, all to be revenged on the presumptuous Laird of Dalcastle; but ever and anon, as the baillie came down the stair from carrying his daughter's meal, he said to himself: "I shall make the sight of the laird the blithest she ever saw in her life."

The poor suffering woman cried and prayed, but the bailiff wouldn’t ease up on his harshness. After getting angry and punishing her with multiple blows, he eventually took her up to her room, five stories up, locked her in, and there fed her only bread and water, all to get back at the arrogant Laird of Dalcastle. Yet every time the bailiff came down the stairs after bringing his daughter her meal, he thought to himself: “I’ll make seeing the laird the happiest moment she’s ever had in her life.”

Lady Dalcastle got plenty of time to read, and pray, and meditate; but she was at a great loss for one to dispute with about religious tenets; for she found that, without this advantage, about which there was a perfect rage at that time, the reading and learning of Scripture texts, and sentences of intricate doctrine, availed her naught; so she was often driven to sit at her casement and look out for the approach of the heathenish Laird of Dalcastle.

Lady Dalcastle had plenty of time to read, pray, and reflect; but she struggled to find someone to debate religious beliefs with. She realized that, without this opportunity—something that was very popular at the time—studying Scripture and complex doctrines didn’t help her at all. So, she often found herself sitting at her window, waiting for the arrival of the uncivilized Laird of Dalcastle.

That hero, after a considerable lapse of time, at length made his appearance. Matters were not hard to adjust; for his lady found that there was no refuge for her in her father's house; and so, after some sighs and tears, she accompanied her husband home. For all that had passed, things went on no better. She WOULD convert the laird in spite of his teeth: the laird would not be converted. She WOULD have the laird to say family prayers, both morning and evening: the laird would neither pray morning nor evening. He would not even sing psalms, and kneel beside her while she performed the exercise; neither would he converse at all times, and in all places, about the sacred mysteries of religion, although his lady took occasion to contradict flatly every assertion that he made, in order that she might spiritualize him by drawing him into argument.

That hero finally showed up after quite a while. It was easy to settle things; his wife realized that there was no escape for her in her father's house, so after a few sighs and tears, she went home with him. Despite everything that had happened, things didn’t improve. She was determined to change her husband’s ways, but he wouldn’t budge. She wanted him to join her for family prayers every morning and evening, but he refused to pray at all. He wouldn’t even sing hymns or kneel beside her while she prayed; nor would he discuss anything related to religion, even though she took every chance to contradict him just to spark a debate and try to inspire him spiritually.

The laird kept his temper a long while, but at length his patience wore out; he cut her short in all her futile attempts at spiritualization, and mocked at her wire-drawn degrees of faith, hope, and repentance. He also dared to doubt of the great standard doctrine of absolute predestination, which put the crown on the lady's Christian resentment. She declared her helpmate to be a limb of Antichrist, and one with whom no regenerated person could associate. She therefore bespoke a separate establishment, and, before the expiry of the first six months, the arrangements of the separation were amicably adjusted. The upper, or third, story of the old mansion-house was awarded to the lady for her residence. She had a separate door, a separate stair, a separate garden, and walks that in no instance intersected the laird's; so that one would have thought the separation complete. They had each their own parties, selected from their own sort of people; and, though the laird never once chafed himself about the lady's companies, it was not long before she began to intermeddle about some of his.

The laird kept his cool for a long time, but eventually his patience ran out. He cut her off in all her pointless attempts at spiritualizing matters and mocked her exaggerated ideas of faith, hope, and repentance. He even questioned the core belief in absolute predestination, which infuriated the lady even more. She claimed her husband was a servant of Antichrist and that no true believer should associate with him. As a result, she arranged for a separate living situation, and by the end of the first six months, the terms of their separation were settled amicably. The upper, or third, floor of the old mansion was given to her as her home. She had her own entrance, her own staircase, a completely separate garden, and pathways that never crossed the laird's, making it seem like the separation was thorough. They each had their own social circles, chosen from their own kinds of people; although the laird never worried about the lady's friends, it wasn't long before she started to interfere with some of his.

"Who is that fat bouncing dame that visits the laird so often, and always by herself?" said she to her maid Martha one day.

"Who is that hefty woman who visits the laird so frequently, and always alone?" she asked her maid Martha one day.

"Oh dear, mem, how can I ken? We're banished frae our acquaintances here, as weel as frae the sweet gospel ordinances."

"Oh no, mom, how can I understand? We're cut off from our friends here, as well as from the beautiful gospel practices."

"Find me out who that jolly dame is, Martha. You, who hold communion with the household of this ungodly man, can be at no loss to attain this information. I observe that she always casts her eye up toward our windows, both in coming and going; and I suspect that she seldom departs from the house emptyhanded."

"Find out who that cheerful woman is, Martha. You, who interact with the family of this wicked man, should easily be able to get this information. I notice that she always looks up toward our windows, both when she comes and goes; and I suspect she rarely leaves the house without something."

That same evening Martha came with the information that this august visitor was a Miss Logan, an old and intimate acquaintance of the laird's, and a very worthy respectable lady, of good connections, whose parents had lost their patrimony in the civil wars.

That same evening, Martha came with the news that this important guest was Miss Logan, a long-time friend of the laird, and a very respectable lady with good connections, whose parents had lost their inheritance during the civil wars.

"Ha! very well!" said the lady; "very well, Martha! But, nevertheless, go thou and watch this respectable lady's motions and behaviour the next time she comes to visit the laird—and the next after that. You will not, I see, lack opportunities."

"Ha! very well!" said the lady; "very well, Martha! But still, go and keep an eye on this respectable lady's actions and behavior the next time she visits the laird—and the next time after that. I can see you won’t be short on chances."

Martha's information turned out of that nature that prayers were said in the uppermost story of Dalcastle house against the Canaanitish woman, every night and every morning; and great discontent prevailed there, even to anathemas and tears. Letter after letter was dispatched to Glasgow; and at length, to the lady's great consolation, the Rev. Mr. Wringhim arrived safely and devoutly in her elevated sanctuary. Marvellous was the conversation between these gifted people. Wringhim had held in his doctrines that there were eight different kinds of FAITH, all perfectly distinct in their operations and effects. But the lady, in her secluded state, had discovered another five, making twelve [sic] in all: the adjusting of the existence or fallacy of these five faiths served for a most enlightened discussion of nearly seventeen hours; in the course of which the two got warm in their arguments, always in proportion as they receded from nature, utility, and common sense. Wringhim at length got into unwonted fervour about some disputed point between one of these faiths and TRUST: when the lady, fearing that zeal was getting beyond its wonted barrier, broke in on his vehement asseverations with the following abrupt discomfiture: "But, Sir, as long as I remember, what is to be done with this case of open and avowed iniquity?"

Martha's information ended up being such that prayers were said in the top floor of Dalcastle house against the Canaanite woman, every night and every morning; and great discontent filled the space, leading to curses and tears. Letter after letter was sent to Glasgow; and finally, to the lady's great relief, Rev. Mr. Wringhim arrived safely and devoutly in her elevated sanctuary. The conversation between these two remarkable individuals was extraordinary. Wringhim believed there were eight different types of FAITH, each distinct in its operations and effects. However, the lady, in her secluded state, had discovered another five, making twelve in total; the examination of the reality or fallacy of these five faiths sparked a very enlightening discussion that lasted nearly seventeen hours. During this time, both became passionate in their arguments, especially as they moved away from nature, practicality, and common sense. Wringhim eventually became unusually fervent about a disputed point between one of these faiths and TRUST, when the lady, concerned that his zeal was exceeding usual limits, interrupted his intense declarations with the following blunt rebuttal: "But, Sir, as far as I remember, what should we do about this case of open and acknowledged wrongdoing?"

The minister was struck dumb. He leaned him back on his chair, stroked his beard, hemmed—considered, and hemmed again, and then said, in an altered and softened tone: "Why, that is a secondary consideration; you mean the case between your husband and Miss Logan?"

The minister was at a loss for words. He leaned back in his chair, stroked his beard, cleared his throat—thought it over, and cleared his throat again, then said, in a changed and gentler tone: "Well, that's a minor issue; you're talking about the situation between your husband and Miss Logan?"

"The same, Sir. I am scandalized at such intimacies going on under my nose. The sufferance of it is a great and crying evil."

"The same, Sir. I am shocked by such closeness happening right in front of me. It's absolutely unacceptable."

"Evil, madam, may be either operative, or passive. To them it is an evil, but to us none. We have no more to do with the sins of the wicked and unconverted here than with those of an infidel Turk; for all earthly bonds and fellowships are absorbed and swallowed up in the holy community of the Reformed Church. However, if it is your wish, I shall take him to task, and reprimand and humble him in such a manner that he shall be ashamed of his doings, and renounce such deeds for ever, out of mere self-respect, though all unsanctified the heart, as well as the deed, may be. To the wicked, all things are wicked; but to the just, all things are just and right."

"Evil, madam, can be either active or passive. For them, it’s a problem, but for us, it isn’t. We have no more connection to the sins of the wicked and unconverted here than we do to those of a non-believer; because all earthly ties and relationships are overshadowed by the sacred community of the Reformed Church. However, if you’d like, I can confront him, scold him, and bring him down in such a way that he’ll feel ashamed of his actions and give up such behavior for good, simply out of self-respect, even if his heart remains unchanged along with his actions. To the wicked, everything looks bad; but to the righteous, everything appears just and good."

"Ah, that is a sweet and comfortable saying, Mr. Wringhim! How delightful to think that a justified person can do no wrong! Who would not envy the liberty wherewith we are made free? Go to my husband, that poor unfortunate, blindfolded person, and open his eyes to his degenerate and sinful state; for well are you fitted to the task."

"Ah, that’s such a nice and comforting thing to say, Mr. Wringhim! How wonderful it is to think that a justified person can do no wrong! Who wouldn’t envy the freedom we have? Go to my husband, that poor unfortunate, blindfolded person, and help him see his degenerate and sinful state; you’re just the right person for the job."

"Yea, I will go in unto him, and confound him. I will lay the strong holds of sin and Satan as flat before my face as the dung that is spread out to fatten the land."

"Yes, I will go to him and confront him. I will bring down the strongholds of sin and Satan as easily as the manure spread out to enrich the land."

"Master, there's a gentleman at the fore-door wants a private word o' ye."

"Master, there's a man at the front door who wants to speak with you privately."

"Tell him I'm engaged: I can't see any gentleman to-night. But I shall attend on him to-morrow as soon as he pleases."

"Tell him I'm busy: I can't meet with any gentlemen tonight. But I'll see him tomorrow whenever he wants."

"'He's coming straight in, Sir. Stop a wee bit, Sir, my master is engaged. He cannot see you at present, Sir."

"'He's coming right in, sir. Hold on a second, sir, my boss is busy. He can’t see you right now, sir."

"Stand aside, thou Moabite! My mission admits of no delay. I come to save him from the jaws of destruction!"

"Step aside, Moabite! I have no time to waste. I'm here to save him from certain doom!"

"An that be the case, Sir, it maks a wide difference; an', as the danger may threaten us a', I fancy I may as weel let ye gang by as fight wi' ye, sin' ye seem sae intent on 't.—The man says he's comin' to save ye, an' canna stop, Sir. Here he is."

"Well, if that's the case, Sir, it makes a big difference; and since the danger could threaten all of us, I think I might as well let you pass as fight with you, since you seem so determined about it.—The man says he's coming to save you and can't stop, Sir. Here he is."

The laird was going to break out into a volley of wrath against Waters, his servant; but, before he got a word pronounced, the Rev. Mr. Wringhim had stepped inside the room, and Waters had retired, shutting the door behind him.

The laird was about to unleash a storm of anger at Waters, his servant; but before he could say a word, the Rev. Mr. Wringhim had entered the room, and Waters had left, closing the door behind him.

No introduction could be more mal-a-propos: it was impossible; for at that very moment the laird and Arabella Logan were both sitting on one seat, and both looking on one book, when the door opened. "What is it, Sir?" said the laird fiercely.

No introduction could be more out of place: it was impossible; for at that very moment, the laird and Arabella Logan were both sitting on one seat, both looking at one book when the door opened. "What is it, Sir?" the laird said fiercely.

"A message of the greatest importance, Sir," said the divine, striding unceremoniously up to the chimney, turning his back to the fire, and his face to the culprits. "I think you should know me, Sir?" continued he, looking displeasedly at the laird, with his face half turned round.

"A message of utmost importance, Sir," said the divine, walking up to the chimney without any formality, turning his back to the fire and facing the culprits. "I assume you know who I am, Sir?" he continued, looking displeased at the laird with his face partially turned.

"I think I should," returned the laird. "You are a Mr. How's—tey—ca'—him, of Glasgow, who did me the worst turn ever I got done to me in my life. You gentry are always ready to do a man such a turn. Pray, Sir, did you ever do a good job for anyone to counterbalance that? For, if you have not, you ought to be—"

"I think I should," replied the laird. "You're a Mr. How's—tey—ca'—him, from Glasgow, who did me the worst favor anyone's ever done me in my life. You folks are always quick to do a man such a favor. Tell me, Sir, have you ever done a good deed for anyone to make up for that? Because if you haven't, you really should be—"

"Hold, Sir, I say! None of your profanity before me. If I do evil to anyone on such occasions, it is because he will have it so; therefore, the evil is not of my doing. I ask you, Sir, before God and this witness, I ask you, have you kept solemnly and inviolate the vows which I laid upon you that day? Answer me!"

"Wait, Sir, I say! No foul language in front of me. If I do wrong to anyone in these situations, it's because they bring it upon themselves; so the wrongdoing isn't my fault. I ask you, Sir, before God and this witness, have you honored the vows I placed upon you that day? Answer me!"

"Has the partner whom you bound me to kept hers inviolate? Answer me that, Sir! None can better do so than you, Mr. How's—tey—ca'—you."

"Has the partner you connected me with stayed loyal? Answer me that, Sir! No one can do it better than you, Mr. How's—tey—ca'—you."

"So, then, you confess your backslidings, and avow the profligacy of your life. And this person here is, I suppose, the partner of your iniquity—she whose beauty hath caused you to err! Stand up, both of you, till I rebuke you, and show you what you are in the eyes of God and man."

"So, you admit your mistakes and acknowledge how reckless you’ve been in your life. And I assume this person here is the one who shares in your wrongdoing—she whose beauty has led you astray! Stand up, both of you, so I can confront you and reveal what you truly are in the eyes of God and others."

"In the first place, stand you still there, till I tell you what you are in the eyes of God and man. You are, Sir, a presumptuous, self-conceited pedagogue, a stirrer up of strife and commotion in church, in state, in families, and communities. You are one, Sir, whose righteousness consists in splitting the doctrines of Calvin into thousands of undistinguishable films, and in setting up a system of justifying-grace against all breaches of all laws, moral or divine. In short, Sir, you are a mildew—a canker-worm in the bosom of the Reformed Church, generating a disease of which she will never be purged, but by the shedding of blood. Go thou in peace, and do these abominations no more; but humble thyself, lest a worse reproof come upon thee."

"First of all, stay right there until I tell you what you are in the eyes of God and humanity. You are, Sir, a presumptuous, arrogant teacher, a troublemaker in the church, in the state, and within families and communities. You are someone, Sir, whose righteousness comes from splitting Calvin's doctrines into countless indistinguishable fragments and creating a system of justifying grace that excuses all violations of every law, whether moral or divine. In short, Sir, you are a blight—a destructive force within the Reformed Church, spreading a disease from which it will never recover without bloodshed. Go in peace and do these terrible things no more; humble yourself, lest you receive an even harsher rebuke."

Wringhim heard all this without flinching. He now and then twisted his mouth in disdain, treasuring up, meantime, his vengeance against the two aggressors; for he felt that he had them on the hip, and resolved to pour out his vengeance and indignation upon them. Sorry am I that the shackles of modern decorum restrain me from penning that famous rebuke; fragments of which have been attributed to every divine of old notoriety throughout Scotland. But I have it by heart; and a glorious morsel it is to put into the hands of certain incendiaries. The metaphors are so strong and so appalling that Miss Logan could only stand them a very short time; she was obliged to withdraw in confusion. The laird stood his ground with much ado, though his face was often crimsoned over with the hues of shame and anger. Several times he was on the point of turning the officious sycophant to the door; but good manners, and an inherent respect that he entertained for the clergy, as the immediate servants of the Supreme Being, restrained him.

Wringhim listened to all of this without showing any emotion. Every now and then, he twisted his mouth in disdain, all the while planning his revenge against the two attackers, knowing he had the upper hand and determined to unleash his anger and frustration on them. I regret that the constraints of modern etiquette prevent me from writing that famous rebuke; bits of it have been credited to every well-known cleric throughout Scotland. But I know it by heart, and it's a brilliant piece to share with certain troublemakers. The metaphors are so intense and shocking that Miss Logan could only tolerate them for a very brief time; she had to leave in embarrassment. The laird maintained his composure with great effort, though his face often flushed with shame and anger. Several times, he almost kicked the intrusive sycophant out the door, but good manners and a deep respect for the clergy, as the direct representatives of the Supreme Being, held him back.

Wringhim, perceiving these symptoms of resentment, took them for marks of shame and contrition, and pushed his reproaches farther than ever divine ventured to do in a similar case. When he had finished, to prevent further discussion, he walked slowly and majestically out of the apartment, making his robes to swing behind him in a most magisterial manner; he being, without doubt, elated with his high conquest. He went to the upper story, and related to his metaphysical associate his wonderful success; how he had driven the dame from the house in tears and deep confusion, and left the backsliding laird in such a quandary of shame and repentance that he could neither articulate a word nor lift up his countenance. The dame thanked him most cordially, lauding his friendly zeal and powerful eloquence; and then the two again set keenly to the splitting of hairs, and making distinctions in religion where none existed.

Wringhim, noticing these signs of anger, interpreted them as shame and regret, and pushed his accusations further than anyone divine would have in a similar situation. Once he finished, to avoid any more discussion, he walked slowly and grandly out of the room, making his robes sway behind him in a very authoritative way; he was clearly pleased with his significant victory. He went to the upper floor and shared with his philosophical partner about his amazing success; how he had sent the woman away from the house in tears and deep embarrassment, and left the wayward lord in such a state of shame and remorse that he couldn't speak a word or lift his gaze. The woman thanked him warmly, praising his friendly enthusiasm and impressive speaking skills; then the two of them quickly went back to overanalyzing details and making distinctions in religion where there were none.

They being both children of adoption, and secured from falling into snares, or anyway under the power of the wicked one, it was their custom, on each visit, to sit up a night in the same apartment, for the sake of sweet spiritual converse; but that time, in the course of the night, they differed so materially on a small point somewhere between justification and final election that the minister, in the heat of his zeal, sprung from his seat, paced the floor, and maintained his point with such ardour that Martha was alarmed, and, thinking they were going to fight, and that the minister would be a hard match for her mistress, she put on some clothes, and twice left her bed and stood listening at the back of the door, ready to burst in should need require it. Should anyone think this picture over-strained, I can assure him that it is taken from nature and from truth; but I will not likewise aver that the theologist was neither crazed nor inebriated. If the listener's words were to be relied on, there was no love, no accommodating principle manifested between the two, but a fiery burning zeal, relating to points of such minor importance that a true Christian would blush to hear them mentioned, and the infidel and profane make a handle of them to turn our religion to scorn.

They were both adopted kids, protected from falling into traps or coming under the influence of the wicked. Every time they visited, they would stay up late in the same room, enjoying deep spiritual conversations. But this time, during the night, they disagreed strongly on a minor issue related to justification and final election. The minister, caught up in his passion, jumped from his seat, paced the floor, and argued his point with such intensity that Martha got worried. Thinking they might end up fighting and that the minister would be too much for her mistress, she threw on some clothes, and twice got out of bed to listen by the door, ready to burst in if it became necessary. If anyone thinks this depiction is exaggerated, I assure you it’s drawn from real life and truth; though I won't claim the theologian was neither crazy nor drunk. According to the listeners, there was no love or willingness to compromise between the two, just a fierce fiery zeal over issues so trivial that a true Christian would feel embarrassed to hear them discussed, while non-believers and the irreverent would use them to mock our religion.

Great was the dame's exultation at the triumph of her beloved pastor over her sinful neighbours in the lower parts of the house; and she boasted of it to Martha in high-sounding terms. But it was of short duration; for, in five weeks after that, Arabella Logan came to reside with the laird as his housekeeper, sitting at his table and carrying the keys as mistress-substitute of the mansion. The lady's grief and indignation were now raised to a higher pitch than ever; and she set every agent to work, with whom she had any power, to effect a separation between these two suspected ones. Remonstrance was of no avail: George laughed at them who tried such a course, and retained his housekeeper, while the lady gave herself up to utter despair; for, though she would not consort with her husband herself, she could not endure that any other should do so.

The lady was thrilled about her beloved pastor's victory over her sinful neighbors downstairs and bragged about it to Martha with grand words. But her happiness was short-lived; just five weeks later, Arabella Logan moved in as the laird’s housekeeper, dining at his table and holding the keys as the mistress of the house. The lady’s grief and anger reached new heights, and she mobilized every resource she had to separate the two suspects. But her protests had no effect: George laughed at those who tried to intervene and kept his housekeeper, while the lady fell into deep despair; even though she wouldn’t associate with her husband, she couldn’t stand the thought of anyone else doing so.

But, to countervail this grievous offence, our saintly and afflicted dame, in due time, was safely delivered of a fine boy whom the laird acknowledged as his son and heir, and had him christened by his own name, and nursed in his own premises. He gave the nurse permission to take the boy to his mother's presence if ever she should desire to see him; but, strange as it may appear, she never once desired to see him from the day that he was born. The boy grew up, and was a healthful and happy child; and, in the course of another year, the lady presented him with a brother. A brother he certainly was, in the eye of the law, and it is more than probable that he was his brother in reality. But the laird thought otherwise; and, though he knew and acknowledged that he was obliged to support and provide for him, he refused to acknowledge him in other respects. He neither would countenance the banquet nor take the baptismal vows on him in the child's name; of course, the poor boy had to live and remain an alien from the visible church for a year and a day; at which time, Mr. Wringhim out of pity and kindness, took the lady herself as sponsor for the boy, and baptized him by the name of Robert Wringhim—that being the noted divine's own name.

But to make up for this serious offense, our saintly and troubled lady eventually gave birth to a fine boy whom the laird recognized as his son and heir. He had him baptized with his own name and raised him in his own home. He allowed the nurse to bring the boy to his mother if she ever wanted to see him; however, strangely enough, she never once wanted to see him since the day he was born. The boy grew up healthy and happy, and after another year, the lady had another son. He was certainly a brother in the eyes of the law, and it’s quite possible he was his brother in reality. But the laird thought differently; although he knew he had to support and provide for him, he refused to acknowledge him in other ways. He wouldn’t host the feast or take baptismal vows for him; as a result, the poor boy had to live as an outsider from the visible church for a year and a day. After that time, Mr. Wringhim, out of pity and kindness, took the lady herself as the sponsor for the boy and baptized him with the name Robert Wringhim—that being the famous divine’s own name.

George was brought up with his father, and educated partly at the parish school, and partly at home, by a tutor hired for the purpose. He was a generous and kind-hearted youth; always ready to oblige, and hardly ever dissatisfied with anybody. Robert was brought up with Mr. Wringhim, the laird paying a certain allowance for him yearly; and there the boy was early inured to all the sternness and severity of his pastor's arbitrary and unyielding creed. He was taught to pray twice every day, and seven times on Sabbath days; but he was only to pray for the elect, and, like Devil of old, doom all that were aliens from God to destruction. He had never, in that family into which he had been as it were adopted, heard aught but evil spoken of his reputed father and brother; consequently he held them in utter abhorrence, and prayed against them every day, often "that the old hoary sinner might be cut off in the full flush of his iniquity, and be carried quick into hell; and that the young stem of the corrupt trunk might also be taken from a world that he disgraced, but that his sins might be pardoned, because he knew no better."

George was raised by his father and educated partly at the local school and partly at home by a tutor hired for that purpose. He was a generous and kind-hearted young man, always willing to help others, and rarely dissatisfied with anyone. Robert was raised by Mr. Wringhim, who paid a yearly allowance for him; there, the boy was quickly exposed to all the harshness and rigidity of his pastor's strict and unyielding beliefs. He was made to pray twice a day and seven times on Sundays, but he was only to pray for the chosen ones and, like the Devil of old, condemn all those who were not part of God's flock to destruction. In the household where he had been effectively adopted, he had never heard anything but negative comments about his so-called father and brother; as a result, he held them in complete contempt and prayed against them every day, often asking “that the old sinner might be cut off in the prime of his wickedness and be sent straight to hell; and that the young shoot of the corrupt tree might also be removed from a world that he disgraced, but that his sins might be forgiven, because he didn’t know any better.”

Such were the tenets in which it would appear young Robert was bred. He was an acute boy, an excellent learner, had ardent and ungovernable passions, and, withal, a sternness of demeanour from which other boys shrunk. He was the best grammarian, the best reader, writer, and accountant in the various classes that he attended, and was fond of writing essays on controverted points of theology, for which he got prizes, and great praise from his guardian and mother. George was much behind him in scholastic acquirements, but greatly his superior in personal prowess, form, feature, and all that constitutes gentility in the deportment and appearance. The laird had often manifested to Miss Logan an earnest wish that the two young men should never meet, or at all events that they should be as little conversant as possible; and Miss Logan, who was as much attached to George as if he had been her own son, took every precaution, while he was a boy, that he should never meet with his brother; but, as they advanced towards manhood, this became impracticable. The lady was removed from her apartments in her husband's house to Glasgow, to her great content; and all to prevent the young laird being tainted with the company of her and her second son; for the laird had felt the effects of the principles they professed, and dreaded them more than persecution, fire, and sword. During all the dreadful times that had overpast, though the laird had been a moderate man, he had still leaned to the side of kingly prerogative, and had escaped confiscation and fines, without ever taking any active hand in suppressing the Covenanters. But, after experiencing a specimen of their tenets and manner in his wife, from a secret favourer of them and their doctrines, he grew alarmed at the prevalence of such stern and factious principles, now that there was no check or restraint upon them; and from that time he began to set himself against them, joining with the Cavalier party of that day in all their proceedings.

Such were the beliefs in which young Robert was raised. He was a sharp kid, a great learner, had strong and uncontainable emotions, and a serious demeanor that other boys avoided. He was the best grammarian, reader, writer, and mathematician in all his classes, and enjoyed writing essays on debated theological issues, for which he won prizes and received a lot of praise from his guardian and mother. George lagged behind him academically but outshone him in physical abilities, looks, and everything that makes a person seem refined in behavior and appearance. The laird often expressed to Miss Logan a strong desire for the two young men to never meet, or at least to have minimal interaction; and Miss Logan, who cared for George as if he were her own son, took every precaution during his childhood to keep him from meeting his brother. However, as they grew into young men, this became impossible. The lady moved from her rooms in her husband’s house to Glasgow, which pleased her, all to prevent the young laird from being influenced by her and her second son; for the laird had felt the impact of the beliefs they held and feared them more than persecution, fire, and sword. Throughout all the terrible events that had happened, although the laird had been moderate, he still leaned towards royal authority and managed to avoid confiscation and fines without ever actively trying to suppress the Covenanters. But after experiencing a taste of their beliefs and behavior through his wife, coming from a secret supporter of them and their ideas, he became alarmed at the rise of such strict and divisive principles, now that there was no check on them; from that point on, he began to oppose them, joining with the Cavalier party of his time in all their activities.

It so happened that, under the influence of the Earls of Seafield and Tullibardine, he was returned for a Member of Parliament in the famous session that sat at Edinburgh when the Duke of Queensberry was commissioner, and in which party spirit ran to such an extremity. The young laird went with his father to the court, and remained in town all the time that the session lasted; and, as all interested people of both factions flocked to the town at that period, so the important Mr. Wringhim was there among the rest, during the greater part of the time, blowing the coal of revolutionary principles with all his might, in every society to which he could obtain admission. He was a great favourite with some of the west country gentlemen of that faction, by reason of his unbending impudence. No opposition could for a moment cause him either to blush, or retract one item that he had advanced. Therefore the Duke of Argyle and his friends made such use of him as sportsmen often do of terriers, to start the game, and make a great yelping noise to let them know whither the chase is proceeding. They often did this out of sport, in order to tease their opponent; for of all pesterers that ever fastened on man he was the most insufferable: knowing that his coat protected him from manual chastisement, he spared no acrimony, and delighted in the chagrin and anger of those with whom he contended. But he was sometimes likewise of real use to the heads of the Presbyterian faction, and therefore was admitted to their tables, and of course conceived himself a very great man.

It just so happened that, influenced by the Earls of Seafield and Tullibardine, he was elected as a Member of Parliament during the notable session that took place in Edinburgh when the Duke of Queensberry was the commissioner, and where party spirit ran high. The young laird accompanied his father to court and stayed in the city for the entire duration of the session. Since many people from both factions flocked to town at that time, the significant Mr. Wringhim was present among them for most of the period, vigorously promoting revolutionary ideas in every circle he could gain entry to. He was quite popular with some of the gentlemen from the west country in that faction, thanks to his unwavering boldness. No amount of opposition could make him blush or retract a single claim he made. As a result, the Duke of Argyle and his allies used him much like hunters use terriers, to flush out the game and create a lot of noise to indicate where the chase was headed. They often did this for fun, to annoy their opponent; out of all the pests ever attached to a person, he was the most unbearable. Knowing that his status protected him from physical consequences, he spared no harshness and took pleasure in the frustration and anger of those he faced. However, he was also occasionally of genuine use to the leaders of the Presbyterian faction, which is why he was welcomed at their gatherings and came to see himself as a very important person.

His ward accompanied him; and, very shortly after their arrival in Edinburgh, Robert, for the first time, met with the young laird his brother, in a match at tennis. The prowess and agility of the young squire drew forth the loudest plaudits of approval from his associates, and his own exertion alone carried the game every time on the one side, and that so far as all I along to count three for their one. The hero's name soon ran round the circle, and when his brother Robert, who was an onlooker, learned who it was that was gaining so much applause, he came and stood close beside him all the time that the game lasted, always now and then putting in a cutting remark by way of mockery.

His ward went with him, and shortly after they arrived in Edinburgh, Robert met his younger brother for the first time during a tennis match. The skill and speed of the young squire earned him enthusiastic cheers from his friends, and his efforts alone won the game every time, scoring three points for their side for every one the opponent got. The hero's name quickly spread through the group, and when Robert, who was watching, found out who was getting all the applause, he moved close to him for the duration of the game, occasionally throwing in a sarcastic comment as a tease.

George could not help perceiving him, not only on account of his impertinent remarks, but he, moreover, stood so near him that he several times impeded him in his rapid evolutions, and of course got himself shoved aside in no very ceremonious way. Instead of making him keep his distance, these rude shocks and pushes, accompanied sometimes with hasty curses, only made him cling the closer to this king of the game. He seemed determined to maintain his right to his place as an onlooker, as well as any of those engaged in the game, and, if they had tried him at an argument, he would have carried his point; or perhaps he wished to quarrel with this spark of his jealousy and aversion, and draw the attention of the gay crowd to himself by these means; for, like his guardian, he knew no other pleasure but what consisted in opposition. George took him for some impertinent student of divinity, rather set upon a joke than anything else. He perceived a lad with black clothes, and a methodistical face, whose countenance and eye he disliked exceedingly, several times in his way, and that was all the notice he took of him the first time they two met. But the next day, and every succeeding one, the same devilish-looking youth attended him as constantly as his shadow; was always in his way as with intention to impede him and ever and anon his deep and malignant eye met those of his elder brother with a glance so fierce that it sometimes startled him.

George couldn't help noticing him, not just because of his rude comments, but also because he stood so close that he kept getting in the way of George's quick movements, resulting in him getting pushed aside without much courtesy. Instead of keeping a distance, these jarring bumps and hurried curses only made him cling tighter to this king of the game. He seemed determined to claim his right to be a bystander just like anyone else involved in the game, and if they had challenged him in a debate, he would have won; or maybe he wanted to provoke this spark of jealousy and dislike and attract the attention of the lively crowd in the process, because, like his guardian, he derived pleasure only from causing a stir. George thought he was just some arrogant divinity student, more interested in a laugh than anything serious. He noticed a guy in black clothes with a stiff, methodical face, whose look and glare he really didn't like, but that was all the attention he paid him the first time they met. But the next day, and every day after that, this devilish-looking kid followed him around like a shadow; he was always in his way as if on purpose to trip him up, and now and then, his piercing and malevolent gaze would lock onto George's with an intensity that sometimes caught him off guard.

The very next time that George was engaged at tennis, he had not struck the ball above twice till the same intrusive being was again in his way. The party played for considerable stakes that day, namely, a dinner and wine at the Black Bull tavern; and George, as the hero and head of his party, was much interested in its honour; consequently the sight of this moody and hellish-looking student affected him in no very pleasant manner. "Pray Sir, be so good as keep without the range of the ball," said he.

The next time George was playing tennis, he had barely hit the ball twice when that same annoying person was in his way again. They were playing for pretty high stakes that day—dinner and drinks at the Black Bull tavern—and George, being the main guy in his group, was really invested in their pride. So, seeing this grumpy and dark-looking student didn’t sit well with him. "Could you please stay out of the way of the ball?" he said.

"Is there any law or enactment that can compel me to do so?" said the other, biting his lip with scorn.

"Is there any law or rule that can force me to do that?" said the other, biting his lip in disdain.

"If there is not, they are here that shall compel you," returned George. "So, friend, I rede you to be on your guard."

"If there isn't, it's those people here who will force you," replied George. "So, my friend, I advise you to be careful."

As he said this, a flush of anger glowed in his handsome face and flashed from his sparkling blue eye; but it was a stranger to both, and momently took its departure. The black-coated youth set up his cap before, brought his heavy brows over his deep dark eyes, put his hands in the pockets of his black plush breeches, and stepped a little farther into the semicircle, immediately on his brother's right hand, than he had ever ventured to do before. There he set himself firm on his legs, and, with a face as demure as death, seemed determined to keep his ground. He pretended to be following the ball with his eyes; but every moment they were glancing aside at George. One of the competitors chanced to say rashly, in the moment of exultation, "That's a d—d fine blow, George!" On which the intruder took up the word, as characteristic of the competitors, and repeated it every stroke that was given, making such a ludicrous use of it that several of the onlookers were compelled to laugh immoderately; but the players were terribly nettled at it, as he really contrived, by dint of sliding in some canonical terms, to render the competitors and their game ridiculous.

As he said this, a rush of anger lit up his handsome face and shone from his sparkling blue eye; but it was a stranger to both, and quickly faded away. The young man in the black coat adjusted his cap, furrowed his heavy brows over his deep dark eyes, shoved his hands into the pockets of his black plush pants, and stepped a bit further into the semicircle, right next to his brother, than he had ever dared to before. There, he planted himself firmly, and with a face as serious as death, seemed determined to hold his ground. He pretended to follow the ball with his eyes; however, every moment they were darting sideways at George. One of the competitors blurted out, in a moment of excitement, “That’s a damn fine hit, George!” The intruder seized on the phrase, typical of the competitors, and repeated it with every stroke, using it in such a ridiculous way that several onlookers couldn’t help but laugh uncontrollably; but the players were extremely annoyed, as he cleverly inserted some technical terms to make the competitors and their game seem absurd.

But matters at length came to a crisis that put them beyond sport. George, in flying backward to gain the point at which the ball was going to light, came inadvertently so rudely in contact with this obstreperous interloper that he not only overthrew him, but also got a grievous fall over his legs; and, as he arose, the other made a spurn at him with his foot, which, if it had hit to its aim, would undoubtedly have finished the course of the young laird of Dalcastle and Balgrennan. George, being irritated beyond measure, as may well be conceived, especially at the deadly stroke aimed at him, struck the assailant with his racket, rather slightly, but so that his mouth and nose gushed out blood; and, at the same time, he said, turning to his cronies: "Does any of you know who the infernal puppy is?"

But things eventually escalated to a point that turned serious. George, in a rush to get to the spot where the ball was about to land, accidentally collided harshly with this disruptive intruder, sending him tumbling and causing George to take a painful fall over his legs. As he got up, the other guy kicked out at him, and if it had connected, it surely would have ended the young laird of Dalcastle and Balgrennan. George, extremely frustrated, especially after the dangerous kick aimed at him, hit the attacker with his racket—not hard, but enough for blood to pour from his mouth and nose. At the same time, he turned to his friends and said, "Does anyone know who this damn fool is?"

"Do you know, Sir?" said one of the onlookers, a stranger, "the gentleman is your own brother, Sir—Mr. Robert Wringhim Colwan!"

"Do you know, sir?" said one of the bystanders, a stranger, "that gentleman is your own brother, sir—Mr. Robert Wringhim Colwan!"

"No, not Colwan, Sir," said Robert, putting his hands in his pockets, and setting himself still farther forward than before, "not a Colwan, Sir; henceforth I disclaim the name."

"No, not Colwan, Sir," Robert said, putting his hands in his pockets and leaning in even more than before. "Not a Colwan, Sir; from now on, I reject that name."

"No, certainly not," repeated George. "My mother's son you may be—but not a Colwan! There you are right." Then, turning around to his informer, he said: "Mercy be about us, Sir! Is this the crazy minister's son from Glasgow?"

"No, definitely not," George said again. "You may be my mother's son—but not a Colwan! You're right there." Then, turning to his informer, he added, "Goodness, Sir! Is this the crazy minister's son from Glasgow?"

This question was put in the irritation of the moment, but it was too rude, and far too out of place, and no one deigned any answer to it. He felt the reproof, and felt it deeply; seeming anxious for some opportunity to make an acknowledgment, or some reparation.

This question was asked out of irritation, but it was too rude and completely out of place, so no one bothered to respond. He felt the sting of the reprimand, and it affected him deeply; he appeared eager for a chance to acknowledge it or offer some kind of apology.

In the meantime, young Wringhim was an object to all of the uttermost disgust. The blood flowing from his mouth and nose he took no pains to stem, neither did he so much as wipe it away; so that it spread over all his cheeks, and breast, even off at his toes. In that state did he take up his station in the middle of the competitors; and he did not now keep his place, but ran about, impeding everyone who attempted to make at the ball. They loaded him with execrations, but it availed nothing; he seemed courting persecution and buffetings, keeping steadfastly to his old joke of damnation, and marring the game so completely that, in spite of every effort on the part of the players, he forced them to stop their game and give it up. He was such a rueful-looking object, covered with blood, that none of them had the heart to kick him, although it appeared the only thing he wanted; and, as for George, he said not another word to him, either in anger or reproof.

In the meantime, young Wringhim was the worst kind of disgusting. He didn’t bother to stop the blood that was dripping from his mouth and nose, nor did he even wipe it away; it spread all over his cheeks and chest, even down to his toes. In that state, he positioned himself in the middle of the competitors, and he didn’t stay still but ran around, getting in the way of anyone trying to go for the ball. They yelled insults at him, but it didn’t do any good; he seemed to welcome the abuse and punches, stubbornly sticking to his old joke about damnation, ruining the game so completely that, despite the players' best efforts, he forced them to quit. He looked so pitiful, covered in blood, that none of them had the heart to kick him, even though it seemed like the only thing he wanted; and as for George, he didn’t say another word to him, either in anger or criticism.

When the game was fairly given up, and the party were washing their hands in the stone fount, some of them besought Robert Wringhim to wash himself; but he mocked at them, and said he was much better as he was. George, at length, came forward abashedly towards him, and said: "I have been greatly to blame, Robert, and am very sorry for what I have done. But, in the first instance, I erred through ignorance, not knowing you were my brother, which you certainly are; and, in the second, through a momentary irritation, for which I am ashamed. I pray you, therefore, to pardon me, and give me your hand."

When the game was pretty much over, and the group was washing their hands in the stone fountain, some of them asked Robert Wringhim to clean himself up; but he mocked them and said he was much better the way he was. Finally, George stepped forward awkwardly and said, "I've really messed up, Robert, and I'm really sorry for what I did. First, I was wrong out of ignorance, not realizing you were my brother, which you definitely are; and second, I lost my temper for a moment, and I’m ashamed of that. So I ask you to forgive me and shake my hand."

As he said this, he held out his hand towards his polluted brother; but the froward predestinarian took not his from his breeches pocket, but lifting his foot, he gave his brother's hand a kick. "I'll give you what will suit such a hand better than mine," said he, with a sneer. And then, turning lightly about, he added: "Are there to be no more of these d—-d fine blows, gentlemen? For shame, to give up such a profitable and edifying game!"

As he said this, he reached out his hand toward his tainted brother, but the stubborn predestinarian didn’t take his hand out of his pants pocket. Instead, he lifted his foot and kicked his brother’s hand. "I'll give you something better suited for a hand like yours than mine," he said, sneering. Then, turning around casually, he added, "Are we really done with these damn fine blows, gentlemen? It’s a shame to give up such a profitable and enlightening game!"

"This is too bad," said George. "But, since it is thus, I have the less to regret." And, having made this general remark, he took no more note of the uncouth aggressor. But the persecution of the latter terminated not on the play-ground: he ranked up among them, bloody and disgusting as he was, and, keeping close by his brother's side, he marched along with the party all the way to the Black Bull. Before they got there, a great number of boys and idle people had surrounded them, hooting and incommoding them exceedingly, so that they were glad to get into the inn; and the unaccountable monster actually tried to get in alongst with them, to make one of the party at dinner. But the innkeeper and his men, getting the hint, by force prevented him from entering, although he attempted it again and again, both by telling lies and offering a bribe. Finding he could not prevail, he set to exciting the mob at the door to acts of violence; in which he had like to have succeeded. The landlord had no other shift, at last, but to send privately for two officers, and have him carried to the guard-house; and the hilarity and joy of the party of young gentlemen, for the evening, was quite spoiled by the inauspicious termination of their game.

"This is too bad," George said. "But since that's the case, I have less to regret." After making this general comment, he paid no more attention to the rude attacker. However, the harassment from the latter didn't stop on the playground: he joined them, bloody and disgusting as he was, and, sticking close to his brother, he walked along with the group all the way to the Black Bull. By the time they arrived, a large crowd of boys and onlookers had surrounded them, hooting and bothering them so much that they were relieved to get inside the inn; and the strange monster even tried to come in with them to join them for dinner. But the innkeeper and his staff, picking up on the situation, forcibly stopped him from entering, even though he kept trying, both by lying and offering a bribe. Realizing he couldn't succeed, he then tried to incite the mob at the door to violence; he almost managed to do it. In the end, the landlord had no choice but to discreetly send for two officers to take him to the guardhouse; and the fun and excitement of the group of young men for the evening were completely ruined by the unfortunate ending of their game.

The Rev. Robert Wringhim was now to send for, to release his beloved ward. The messenger found him at table, with a number of the leaders of the Whig faction, the Marquis of Annandale being in the chair; and, the prisoner's note being produced, Wringhim read it aloud, accompanying it with some explanatory remarks. The circumstances of the case being thus magnified and distorted, it excited the utmost abhorrence, both of the deed and the perpetrators, among the assembled faction. They declaimed against the act as an unnatural attempt on the character, and even the life, of an unfortunate brother, who had been expelled from his father's house. And, as party spirit was the order of the day, an attempt was made to lay the burden of it to that account. In short, the young culprit got some of the best blood of the land to enter as his securities, and was set at liberty. But, when Wringhim perceived the plight that he was in, he took him, as he was, and presented him to his honourable patrons. This raised the indignation against the young laird and his associates a thousand-fold, which actually roused the party to temporary madness. They were, perhaps, a little excited by the wine and spirits they had swallowed; else a casual quarrel between two young men, at tennis, could not have driven them to such extremes. But certain it is that, from one at first arising to address the party on the atrocity of the offence, both in a moral and political point of view, on a sudden there were six on their feet, at the same time, expatiating on it; and, in a very short time thereafter, everyone in the room was up talking with the utmost vociferation, all on the same subject, and all taking the same side in the debate.

The Rev. Robert Wringhim was now to send for his beloved ward's release. The messenger found him dining with several leaders of the Whig faction, with the Marquis of Annandale presiding. When the prisoner's note was presented, Wringhim read it aloud, adding some comments. The case details were exaggerated and twisted, stirring intense outrage among those gathered. They condemned the act as a disgraceful attack on the character, and even the life, of an unfortunate brother who had been kicked out of his father's home. And, since party spirit ruled the day, an effort was made to shift the blame onto that account. In short, the young offender had some of the best connections in the land vouch for him and was released. However, when Wringhim saw the situation he was in, he took him as he was and presented him to his esteemed patrons. This raised the anger towards the young laird and his group a thousand-fold, actually pushing the party to a state of frenzied madness. They were possibly a bit intoxicated from the wine and spirits they had consumed; otherwise, a minor squabble between two young men playing tennis could not have provoked such extreme reactions. But it’s certain that as one person stood up to address the gathering about the atrocity of the offense from both moral and political angles, suddenly six others were on their feet as well, elaborating on it; and very soon after, everyone in the room was up talking at the top of their lungs, all on the same topic, and all taking the same stance in the discussion.

In the midst of this confusion, someone or other issued from the house, which was at the back of the Canongate, calling out: "A plot, a plot! Treason, treason! Down with the bloody incendiaries at the Black Bull!"

In the middle of all this chaos, someone came out of the house at the back of the Canongate, shouting: "There's a plot! There's treason! Down with the damn arsonists at the Black Bull!"

The concourse of people that were assembled in Edinburgh at that time was prodigious; and, as they were all actuated by political motives, they wanted only a ready-blown coal to set the mountain on fire. The evening being fine, and the streets thronged, the cry ran from mouth to mouth through the whole city. More than that, the mob that had of late been gathered to the door of the Black Bull had, by degrees, dispersed; but, they being young men, and idle vagrants, they had only spread themselves over the rest of the street to lounge in search of further amusement: consequently, a word was sufficient to send them back to their late rendezvous, where they had previously witnessed something they did not much approve of.

The crowd that had gathered in Edinburgh at that time was huge; and since they were all driven by political motives, they were just looking for a spark to light the fire. The evening was nice, and the streets were packed, so the shout quickly spread from person to person throughout the city. Moreover, the group that had recently been hanging out at the Black Bull had gradually dispersed; however, being young and idle, they simply spread out to other parts of the street, still looking for more fun. As a result, it only took a word to send them back to their previous spot, where they had seen something they didn’t really like.

The master of the tavern was astonished at seeing the mob again assembling; and that with such hurry and noise. But, his inmates being all of the highest respectability, he judged himself sure of protection, or at least of indemnity. He had two large parties in his house at the time; the largest of which was of the Revolutionist faction. The other consisted of our young Tennis-players, and their associates, who were all of the Jacobite order; or, at all events, leaned to the Episcopal side. The largest party were in a front room; and the attack of the mob fell first on their windows, though rather with fear and caution. Jingle went one pane; then a loud hurrah; and that again was followed by a number of voices, endeavouring to restrain the indignation from venting itself in destroying the windows, and to turn it on the inmates. The Whigs, calling the landlord, inquired what the assault meant: he cunningly answered that he suspected it was some of the youths of the Cavalier, or High-Church party, exciting the mob against them. The party consisted mostly of young gentlemen, by that time in a key to engage in any row; and, at all events, to suffer nothing from the other party, against whom their passions were mightily inflamed.

The tavern owner was shocked to see the crowd gathering again, and they were doing so in such a rush and with so much noise. However, since all of his guests were highly respectable, he felt confident he would be safe, or at least would not have to face any consequences. At that moment, he had two large groups in his establishment; the larger one was made up of revolutionaries. The other group consisted of our young tennis players and their friends, who were all Jacobites or, at the very least, leaned towards the Episcopal side. The larger group was in a front room, and the mob's first attack was on their windows, though they approached it with some trepidation. One pane shattered, followed by a loud cheer, and then several voices tried to hold back their anger from breaking more windows and instead directed it toward the guests inside. The Whigs called the landlord to ask what the commotion was about, and he cleverly replied that he suspected it was some of the young men from the Cavalier or High-Church group stirring the mob against them. Most of the men in that group were young gentlemen, ready to get involved in any fight, and, in any case, were determined not to let the other side push them around, as their anger was running high.

The landlord, therefore, had no sooner given them the spirit-rousing intelligence than everyone, as by instinct, swore his own natural oath, and grasped his own natural weapon. A few of those of the highest rank were armed with swords, which they boldly drew; those of the subordinate orders immediately flew to such weapons as the room, kitchen, and scullery afforded—such as tongs, pokers, spits, racks, and shovels; and breathing vengeance on the prelatic party, the children of Antichrist and the heirs of d—n—t—n! the barterers of the liberties of their country, and betrayers of the most sacred trust—thus elevated, and thus armed, in the cause of right, justice, and liberty, our heroes rushed to the street, and attacked the mob with such violence that they broke the mass in a moment, and dispersed their thousands like chaff before the wind. The other party of young Jacobites, who sat in a room farther from the front, and were those against whom the fury of the mob was meant to have been directed, knew nothing of this second uproar, till the noise of the sally made by the Whigs assailed their ears; being then informed that the mob had attacked the house on account of the treatment they themselves had given to a young gentleman of the adverse faction, and that another jovial party had issued from the house in their defence, and was now engaged in an unequal combat, the sparks likewise flew, to the field to back their defenders with all their prowess, without troubling their heads about who they were.

The landlord had barely shared the exciting news when everyone instinctively swore their own personal oath and grabbed whatever weapon they could find. A few of the higher-ranking individuals pulled out swords, drawing them confidently; those lower down quickly grabbed whatever tools were available from the room, kitchen, and scullery—like tongs, pokers, spits, racks, and shovels. Fueled by a desire for revenge against the clerical group, the children of Antichrist and the heirs of damnation! The ones who traded away their country’s liberties and betrayed the most sacred trust—now emboldened and armed in the name of right, justice, and freedom, our heroes rushed to the street and attacked the mob with such ferocity that they broke through their ranks instantly, scattering them like chaff in the wind. Meanwhile, the other group of young Jacobites, who were in a room further from the front and against whom the mob's anger was aimed, were unaware of this second uproar until the commotion caused by the Whigs reached their ears. Learning that the mob had attacked their house due to the way they had treated a young man from the opposing party, and that another lively group had emerged from the house to defend them and was now engaged in an unfair fight, they too rushed out to support their defenders with all their strength, without worrying about who they really were.

A mob is like a spring tide in an eastern storm, that retires only to return with more overwhelming fury. The crowd was taken by surprise when such a strong and well-armed party issued from the house with so great fury, laying all prostrate that came in their way. Those who were next to the door, and were, of course, the first whom the imminent danger assailed, rushed backwards among the crowd with their whole force. The Black Bull standing in a small square half-way between the High Street and the Cowgate, and the entrance to it being by two closes, into these the pressure outwards was simultaneous, and thousands were moved to an involuntary flight, they knew not why.

A mob is like a tidal wave in an eastern storm, pulling back only to surge forward with even more intense fury. The crowd was caught off guard when such a strong and well-armed group burst out of the house with such rage, knocking down everyone in their path. Those closest to the door, being the first to face the looming danger, shoved their way back into the crowd with all their might. The Black Bull stood in a small square halfway between High Street and Cowgate, with access through two alleyways. As a result, the pressure to push outward was simultaneous, and thousands fled in a panic, not really knowing why.

But the High Street of Edinburgh, which they soon reached, is a dangerous place in which to make an open attack upon a mob. And it appears that the entrances to the tavern had been somewhere near to the Cross, on the south side of the street; for the crowd fled with great expedition, both to the east and west, and the conquerors, separating themselves as chance directed, pursued impetuously, wounding and maiming as they flew. But it so chanced that, before either of the wings had followed the flying squadrons of their enemies for the space of a hundred yards each way, the devil an enemy they had to pursue! the multitude had vanished like so many thousands of phantoms! What could our heroes do? Why, they faced about to return towards their citadel, the Black Bull. But that feat was not so easily, nor so readily accomplished as they divined. The unnumbered alleys on each side of the street had swallowed up the multitude in a few seconds; but from these they were busy reconnoitring; and perceiving the deficiency in the number of their assailants, the rush from both sides of the street was as rapid, and as wonderful, as the disappearance of the crowd had been a few minutes before. Each close vomited out its levies, and these better armed with missiles than when they sought it for a temporary retreat. Woe then to our two columns of victorious Whigs! The mob actually closed around them as they would have swallowed them up; and, in the meanwhile, shower after shower of the most abominable weapons of offence were rained in upon them. If the gentlemen were irritated before, this inflamed them still further; but their danger was now so apparent they could not shut their eyes on it; therefore, both parties, as if actuated by the same spirit, made a desperate effort to join, and the greater part effected it; but some were knocked down, and others were separated from their friends, and blithe to become silent members of the mob.

But the High Street of Edinburgh, which they soon reached, is a dangerous place for making an open attack on a crowd. It seems that the entrances to the tavern were somewhere near the Cross, on the south side of the street; for the crowd quickly fled in both east and west directions, and the victors, splitting off as chance would have it, pursued them frantically, injuring and maiming as they went. However, it turned out that, before either group had chased their fleeing enemies for more than a hundred yards in either direction, there were no enemies left to chase! The crowd had disappeared like thousands of phantoms! What could our heroes do? Well, they turned back towards their base, the Black Bull. But this was not as easy or straightforward as they thought. The countless alleys on either side of the street had swallowed up the crowd in seconds; but from those alleys, they were busy scouting, and noticing the drop in the number of their attackers, they rushed out from both sides of the street as quickly and astonishingly as the crowd had vanished only minutes before. Each lane sent out its forces, now better armed with projectiles than when they sought temporary refuge. Woe to our two columns of victorious Whigs! The mob actually closed in around them as if intending to engulf them; meanwhile, a relentless barrage of the most disgusting weapons rained down on them. If the gentlemen were irritated before, this ignited their anger even more; but their danger was now so obvious they couldn't ignore it; thus, both sides, as if driven by the same force, made a desperate attempt to regroup, and most of them succeeded; but some were knocked down, and others got separated from their friends, gladly becoming silent members of the mob.

The battle now raged immediately in front of the closes leading to the Black Bull; the small body of Whig gentlemen was hardly bested, and it is likely would have been overcome and trampled down every man, had they not been then and there joined by the young Cavaliers; who, fresh to arms, broke from the wynd, opened the head of the passage, laid about them manfully, and thus kept up the spirits of the exasperated Whigs, who were the men in fact that wrought the most deray among the populace.

The battle was now fiercely happening right in front of the alleys leading to the Black Bull. The small group of Whig gentlemen was struggling and likely would have been overwhelmed and trampled if they hadn’t been joined at that moment by the young Cavaliers. Fresh to battle, they charged from the side street, burst through the entrance, fought bravely, and helped lift the spirits of the frustrated Whigs, who were actually causing the most chaos among the crowd.

The town-guard was now on the alert; and two companies of the Cameronian Regiment, with the Hon. Captain Douglas, rushed down from the Castle to the scene of action; but, for all the noise and hubbub that these caused in the street, the combat had become so close and inveterate that numbers of both sides were taken prisoners fighting hand to hand, and could scarcely be separated when the guardsmen and soldiers had them by the necks.

The town guard was now on high alert, and two companies of the Cameronian Regiment, led by the Hon. Captain Douglas, rushed down from the Castle to the scene. However, despite the noise and chaos they brought to the street, the fighting had become so intense and relentless that many from both sides were captured while fighting hand to hand and could barely be separated when the guardsmen and soldiers grabbed them by the necks.

Great was the alarm and confusion that night in Edinburgh; for everyone concluded that it was a party scuffle, and, the two parties being so equal in power, the most serious consequences were anticipated. The agitation was so prevailing that every party in town, great and small, was broken up; and the lord-commissioner thought proper to go to the Council Chamber himself, even at that late hour, accompanied by the sheriffs of Edinburgh and Linlithgow, with sundry noblemen besides, in order to learn something of the origin of the affray.

There was a lot of alarm and confusion that night in Edinburgh; everyone assumed it was a party fight, and since both sides were evenly matched, the worst was expected. The unrest was so widespread that every group in town, big and small, was disrupted. The lord-commissioner decided it was necessary to go to the Council Chamber himself, even at that late hour, along with the sheriffs of Edinburgh and Linlithgow, as well as several noblemen, to find out what had caused the disturbance.

For a long time the court was completely puzzled. Every gentleman brought in exclaimed against the treatment he had received, in most bitter terms, blaming a mob set on him and his friends by the adverse party, and matters looked extremely ill until at length they began to perceive that they were examining gentlemen of both parties, and that they had been doing so from the beginning, almost alternately, so equally had the prisoners been taken from both parties. Finally, it turned out that a few gentlemen, two-thirds of whom were strenuous Whigs themselves, had joined in mauling the whole Whig population of Edinburgh. The investigation disclosed nothing the effect of which was not ludicrous; and the Duke of Queensberry, whose aim was at that time to conciliate the two factions, tried all that he could to turn the whole fracas into a joke—an unlucky frolic, where no ill was meant on either side, and which yet had been productive of a great deal.

For a long time, the court was completely confused. Every gentleman who was brought in complained about the treatment he had received, using very harsh words, blaming a crowd sent against him and his friends by the opposing side. Things looked very grim until they started to realize that they were questioning gentlemen from both sides, and they had been doing so almost alternately from the beginning, as the prisoners had been taken equally from both factions. Ultimately, it turned out that a few gentlemen, two-thirds of whom were strong Whigs themselves, had participated in attacking the entire Whig population of Edinburgh. The investigation revealed nothing but ridiculousness; and the Duke of Queensberry, who at that time aimed to bring the two factions together, did everything he could to make the whole situation seem like a joke—an unfortunate prank, where neither side meant any harm, but which nonetheless resulted in a lot of trouble.

The greater part of the people went home satisfied; but not so the Rev. Robert Wringhim. He did all that he could to inflame both judges and populace against the young Cavaliers, especially against the young Laird of Dalcastle, whom he represented as an incendiary, set on by an unnatural parent to slander his mother, and make away with a hapless and only brother; and, in truth, that declaimer against all human merit had that sort of powerful, homely, and bitter eloquence which seldom missed affecting his hearers: the consequence at that time was that he made the unfortunate affair between the two brothers appear in extremely bad colours, and the populace retired to their homes impressed with no very favourable opinion of either the Laird of Dalcastle or his son George, neither of whom were there present to speak for themselves.

The majority of the crowd left feeling satisfied; however, the Rev. Robert Wringhim was not among them. He did everything he could to stir up both the judges and the public against the young Cavaliers, particularly targeting the young Laird of Dalcastle. He painted him as a troublemaker, pushed by a callous parent to tarnish his mother’s reputation and harm his defenseless only brother. In reality, Wringhim had a kind of powerful, straightforward, and biting eloquence that rarely failed to move his audience. As a result, he made the unfortunate situation between the two brothers look extremely negative, and the crowd returned home with a rather unfavorable view of both the Laird of Dalcastle and his son George, neither of whom were there to defend themselves.

As for Wringhim himself, he went home to his lodgings, filled with gall and with spite against the young laird, whom he was made to believe the aggressor, and that intentionally. But most of all he was filled with indignation against the father, whom he held in abhorrence at all times, and blamed solely for this unmannerly attack made on his favourite ward, namesake, and adopted son; and for the public imputation of a crime to his own reverence in calling the lad his son, and thus charging him with a sin against which he was well known to have levelled all the arrows of church censure with unsparing might.

As for Wringhim himself, he went back to his place, filled with bitterness and resentment towards the young laird, whom he believed to be the one who attacked him, and that it was intentional. But most of all, he was filled with anger towards the father, whom he always despised, and blamed entirely for this rude attack on his favorite ward, namesake, and adopted son; and for the public accusation of a crime against his own reputation by calling the boy his son, thus implicating him in a sin against which he had consistently directed all the harsh criticism of the church without holding back.

But, filled as his heart was with some portion of these bad feelings, to which all flesh is subject, he kept, nevertheless, the fear of the Lord always before his eyes so far as never to omit any of the external duties of religion, and farther than that man hath no power to pry. He lodged with the family of a Mr. Miller, whose lady was originally from Glasgow, and had been a hearer and, of course, a great admirer of Mr. Wringhim. In that family he made public worship every evening; and that night, in his petitions at a throne of grace, he prayed for so many vials of wrath to be poured on the head of some particular sinner that the hearers trembled, and stopped their ears. But that he might not proceed with so violent a measure, amounting to excommunication, without due scripture warrant, he began the exercise of the evening by singing the following verses, which it is a pity should ever have been admitted into a Christian psalmody, being so adverse to all its mild and benevolent principles:

But, even though his heart was filled with some of these negative feelings that everyone experiences, he still kept the fear of the Lord in mind, ensuring he never neglected any of the outward practices of faith, and beyond that, no one can truly see. He stayed with the family of a Mr. Miller, whose wife was originally from Glasgow and had been a listener and, naturally, a big fan of Mr. Wringhim. In that household, he held public worship every evening; and that night, during his prayers at the throne of grace, he asked for so many punishments to be heaped on a specific sinner that the listeners trembled and covered their ears. But not wanting to take such an extreme step, which would be like excommunication, without proper scriptural backing, he started the evening service by singing the following verses, which really shouldn't have been included in Christian hymns as they go against the gentle and kind principles of faith:


Set thou the wicked over him,
And upon his right hand
Give thou his greatest enemy,
Even Satan, leave to stand.

Set the wicked over him,
And on his right hand
Give him his greatest enemy,
Even Satan, let him stand.

And, when by thee he shall be judged,
Let him remembered be;
And let his prayer be turned to sin
When he shall call on thee.

And, when he is judged by you,
Let him be remembered;
And let his prayer be counted as sin
When he calls on you.

Few be his days; and in his room
His charge another take;
His children let be fatherless;
His wife a widow make:

Few are his days; and in his place
Let someone else take charge;
Leave his children fatherless;
Make his wife a widow:

Let God his father's wickedness
Still to remembrance call;
And never let his mother's sin
Be blotted out at all.

Let God keep reminding him of his father's evil
And never let his mother's sin
Be forgotten at all.

As he in cursing pleasure took
So let it to him fall;
As he delighted not to bless,
So bless him not at all.

As he took pleasure in cursing
So let it come back to him;
As he didn’t find joy in blessing,
So don’t bless him at all.

As cursing he like clothes put on,
Into his bowels so,
Like water, and into his bones
Like oil, down let it go.

As he curses, he puts on clothes,
It seeps into his insides like water,
And into his bones
Like oil, let it flow down.


Young Wringhim only knew the full purport of this spiritual song; and went to his bed better satisfied than ever that his father and brother were castaways, reprobates, aliens from the Church and the true faith, and cursed in time and eternity.

Young Wringhim fully understood the meaning of this spiritual song and went to bed more convinced than ever that his father and brother were outcasts, sinners, outsiders from the Church and true faith, and cursed both in this life and the next.

The next day George and his companions met as usual—all who were not seriously wounded of them. But, as they strolled about the city, the rancorous eye and the finger of scorn was pointed against them. None of them was at first aware of the reason; but it threw a damp over their spirits and enjoyments, which they could not master. They went to take a forenoon game at their old play of tennis, not on a match, but by way of improving themselves; but they had not well taken their places till young Wringhim appeared in his old station, at his brother's right hand, with looks more demure and determined than ever. His lips were primmed so close that his mouth was hardly discernible, and his dark deep eye flashed gleams of holy indignation on the godless set, but particularly on his brother. His presence acted as a mildew on all social intercourse or enjoyment; the game was marred, and ended ere ever it was well begun. There were whisperings apart—the party separated, and, in order to shake off the blighting influence of this dogged persecutor, they entered sundry houses of their acquaintances, with an understanding that they were to meet on the Links for a game at cricket.

The next day, George and his friends gathered as usual—all of them except those who were seriously injured. However, as they walked around the city, they felt the hateful stares and scornful gestures directed at them. At first, they didn’t understand why, but it cast a shadow over their spirits and enjoyment that they couldn’t shake off. They decided to play a morning game of tennis, not to compete but to improve their skills, but as soon as they took their positions, young Wringhim showed up again, standing to his brother's right, looking more composed and determined than ever. His lips were pressed shut, making his mouth barely visible, and his dark, deep eyes flashed with righteous anger towards the irreverent group, especially at his brother. His presence stifled any social interaction or enjoyment; the game fell apart before it even really began. They whispered among themselves, split up, and to escape the oppressive influence of this stubborn adversary, they went into several friends' homes, agreeing to meet at the Links for a game of cricket.

They did so; and, stripping off part of their clothes, they began that violent and spirited game. They had not played five minutes till Wringhim was stalking in the midst of them, and totally impeding the play. A cry arose from all corners of: "Oh, this will never do. Kick him out of the play-ground! Knock down the scoundrel; or bind him, and let him lie in peace."

They did just that; and, taking off some of their clothes, they started that intense and lively game. They hadn’t played for five minutes when Wringhim appeared among them, completely disrupting the game. A shout went up from all sides: "Oh, this can’t go on. Get him out of the playground! Knock that jerk down; or tie him up and let him lie quietly."

"By no means," cried George. "It is evident he wants nothing else. Pray do not humour him so much as to touch him with either foot or finger." Then, turning to a friend, he said in a whisper: "Speak to him, Gordon; he surely will not refuse to let us have the ground to ourselves, if you request it of him."

"Absolutely not," shouted George. "It's clear he doesn't want anything else. Please don’t encourage him by touching him with either your foot or hand." Then, turning to a friend, he whispered, "Talk to him, Gordon; he definitely won’t deny us the space if you ask him."

Gordon went up to him, and requested of him, civilly, but ardently, "to retire to a certain distance, else none of them could or would be answerable, however sore he might be hurt."

Gordon approached him and politely yet passionately asked him "to step back a bit, or else none of them could or would be responsible, no matter how badly he might be injured."

He turned disdainfully on his heel, uttered a kind of pulpit hem! and then added, "I will take my chance of that; hurt me, any of you, at your peril."

He turned away with contempt, made a dismissive sound, and then added, "I’ll take my chances with that; if you hurt me, it'll be at your own risk."

The young gentlemen smiled, through spite and disdain of the dogged animal. Gordon followed him up, and tried to remonstrate with him; but he let him know that "it was his pleasure to be there at that time; and, unless he could demonstrate to him what superior right he and his party had to that ground, in preference to him, and to the exclusion of all others, he was determined to assert his right, and the rights of his fellow-citizens, by keeping possession of whatsoever part of that common field he chose."

The young men smirked, showing their contempt for the stubborn animal. Gordon followed and tried to reason with him, but he made it clear that "he was happy to be there at that moment; and unless he could prove what greater right he and his group had to that spot, over him and excluding everyone else, he was set on claiming his right and the rights of his fellow citizens by holding onto whatever part of that common field he wanted."

"You are no gentleman, Sir," said Gordon.

"You’re no gentleman, sir," Gordon said.

"Are you one, Sir?" said the other.

"Are you one, sir?" said the other.

"Yes, Sir. I will let you know that I am, by G—!"

"Yes, Sir. I’ll let you know that I am, by God!"

"Then, thanks be to Him whose name you have profaned, I am none. If one of the party be a gentleman, I do hope in God am not!"

"Then, thanks to Him whose name you’ve disrespected, I am no one. If one of the group is a gentleman, I hope to God I’m not!"

It was now apparent to them all that he was courting obloquy and manual chastisement from their hands, if by any means he could provoke them to the deed; and, apprehensive that he had some sinister and deep-laid design in hunting after such a singular favour, they wisely restrained one another from inflicting the punishment that each of them yearned to bestow, personally, and which he so well deserved.

It was now clear to all of them that he was seeking their disapproval and a beating from their hands if he could provoke them into doing it; and, worried that he had some hidden and malicious plan in chasing after such a strange favor, they wisely held each other back from delivering the punishment that each of them wanted to give him personally, and which he truly deserved.

But the unpopularity of the younger George Colwan could no longer be concealed from his associates. It was manifested wherever the populace were assembled; and his young and intimate friend, Adam Gordon, was obliged to warn him of the circumstance that he might not be surprised at the gentlemen of their acquaintance withdrawing themselves from his society, as they could not be seen with him without being insulted. George thanked him; and it was agreed between them that the former should keep himself retired during the daytime while he remained in Edinburgh, and that at night they should meet together, along with such of their companions as were disengaged.

But the unpopularity of the younger George Colwan could no longer be hidden from his friends. It was obvious whenever people gathered; and his close friend, Adam Gordon, had to tell him about it so he wouldn’t be caught off guard when their acquaintances started avoiding him, as they couldn't be seen with him without getting insulted. George thanked him, and they agreed that he would keep to himself during the day while he was in Edinburgh, and at night they would meet up with whoever among their friends was available.

George found it every day more and more necessary to adhere to this system of seclusion; for it was not alone the hisses of the boys and populace that pursued him—a fiend of more malignant aspect was ever at his elbow, in the form of his brother. To whatever place of amusement he betook himself, and however well he concealed his intentions of going there from all flesh living, there was his brother Wringhim also, and always within a few yards of him, generally about the same distance, and ever and anon darting looks at him that chilled his very soul. They were looks that cannot be described; but they were felt piercing to the bosom's deepest core. They affected even the onlookers in a very particular manner, for all whose eyes caught a glimpse of these hideous glances followed them to the object towards which they were darted: the gentlemanly and mild demeanour of that object generally calmed their startled apprehensions; for no one ever yet noted the glances of the young man's eye, in the black coat, at the face of his brother, who did not at first manifest strong symptoms of alarm.

George found it more and more necessary to stick to this isolation every day; it wasn’t just the jeers from the boys and townspeople that haunted him—a more sinister fiend was always at his side, in the form of his brother. No matter where he went for fun, and no matter how well he hid his plans from everyone, there was his brother Wringhim, always just a few yards away, typically at the same distance, shooting icy glances at him that cut to his very core. These looks were indescribable but felt like daggers to the heart. They affected onlookers in a significant way; anyone who caught sight of those dreadful glances followed their aim to the target, which was George. The gentlemanly and gentle demeanor of George usually eased their startled fears, because anyone who noticed the young man in the black coat glaring at his brother's face showed clear signs of alarm at first.

George became utterly confounded; not only at the import of this persecution, but how in the world it came to pass that this unaccountable being knew all his motions, and every intention of his heart, as it were intuitively. On consulting his own previous feelings and resolutions, he found that the circumstances of his going to such and such a place were often the most casual incidents in nature—the caprice of a moment had carried him there, and yet he had never sat or stood many minutes till there was the selfsame being, always in the same position with regard to himself, as regularly as the shadow is cast from the substance, or the ray of light from the opposing denser medium.

George was completely baffled, not just by the meaning of this harassment, but by how this mysterious person seemed to know all his actions and every intention in his heart, almost instinctively. Reflecting on his past feelings and decisions, he realized that his visits to certain places were often just random occurrences—he had been drawn there on a whim, yet every time he stayed for just a few minutes, that same person would show up, always in the same spot relative to him, as consistently as a shadow follows its source or light emerges from a dense medium.

For instance, he remembered one day of setting out with the intention of going to attend divine worship in the High Church, and when, within a short space of its door, he was overtaken by young Kilpatrick of Closeburn, who was bound to the Grey-Friars to see his sweetheart, as he said: "and if you will go with me, Colwan," said he, "I will let you see her too, and then you will be just as far forward as I am."

For example, he recalled a day when he set out to attend service at the High Church, and just outside the door, he ran into young Kilpatrick from Closeburn, who was on his way to the Grey-Friars to see his girlfriend, as he put it: "And if you come with me, Colwan," he said, "I’ll let you see her too, and then you’ll be just as far along as I am."

George assented at once, and went; and, after taking his seat, he leaned his head forwards on the pew to repeat over to himself a short ejaculatory prayer, as had always been his custom on entering the house of God. When he had done, he lifted his eye naturally towards that point on his right hand where the fierce apparition of his brother had been wont to meet his view: there he was, in the same habit, form, demeanour, and precise point of distance, as usual! George again laid down his head, and his mind was so astounded that he had nearly fallen into a swoon. He tried shortly after to muster up courage to look at the speaker, at the congregation, and at Captain Kilpatrick's sweetheart in particular; but the fiendish glances of the young man in the black clothes were too appalling to be withstood—his eye caught them whether he was looking that way or not: at length his courage was fairly mastered, and he was obliged to look down during the remainder of the service.

George agreed immediately and went inside. After finding his seat, he leaned forward on the pew to quietly say a short prayer, as he always did when entering the house of God. Once finished, he instinctively looked to his right, where he would usually see the intense figure of his brother. There he was, in the same clothes, posture, demeanor, and exact spot, as usual! George lowered his head again, and he was so shocked that he nearly fainted. He soon tried to summon the courage to look at the speaker, the congregation, and especially Captain Kilpatrick's girlfriend; but the eerie glances from the young man in black were too terrifying to ignore—his eyes caught them whether he was looking that way or not. Eventually, his courage gave out, and he had to keep his gaze down for the rest of the service.

By night or by day it was the same. In the gallery of the Parliament House, in the boxes of the play-house, in the church, in the assembly, in the streets, suburbs, and the fields; and every day, and every hour, from the first rencounter of the two, the attendance became more and more constant, more inexplicable, and altogether more alarming and insufferable, until at last George was fairly driven from society, and forced to spend his days in his and his father's lodgings with closed doors. Even there, he was constantly harassed with the idea that, the next time he lifted his eyes, he would to a certainty see that face, the most repulsive to all his feelings of aught the earth contained. The attendance of that brother was now become like the attendance of a demon on some devoted being that had sold himself to destruction; his approaches as undiscerned, and his looks as fraught with hideous malignity. It was seldom that he saw him either following him in the streets, or entering any house or church after him; he only appeared in his place, George wist not how, or whence; and, having sped so ill in his first friendly approaches, he had never spoken to his equivocal attendant a second time.

By night or by day, it was always the same. In the gallery of the Parliament House, in the boxes at the theater, in church, at gatherings, in the streets, suburbs, and fields; and every day and every hour since their first encounter, the presence grew more constant, more puzzling, and increasingly alarming and unbearable, until George was completely driven away from society and forced to spend his days in his and his father's apartment with the doors shut. Even there, he was constantly tormented by the thought that the next time he looked up, he would definitely see that face, the most repulsive to all his feelings of anything this world had to offer. The presence of that brother had become like the presence of a demon haunting someone who had sold themselves to ruin; his appearances were undetected, and his expressions were filled with dreadful malice. He rarely saw him following in the streets or entering any building or church after him; he only showed up in his vicinity; George didn’t know how or where he came from, and after his first failed attempts at friendliness, he had never spoken to his ambiguous follower again.

It came at length into George's head, as he was pondering, by himself, on the circumstances of this extraordinary attendance, that perhaps his brother had relented, and, though of so sullen and unaccommodating a temper that he would not acknowledge it, or beg a reconciliation, it might be for that very purpose that he followed his steps night and day in that extraordinary manner. "I cannot for my life see for what other purpose it can be," thought he. "He never offers to attempt my life; nor dares he, if he had the inclination; therefore, although his manner is peculiarly repulsive to me, I shall not have my mind burdened with the reflection that my own mother's son yearned for a reconciliation with me and was repulsed by my haughty and insolent behaviour. The next time he comes to my hand, I am resolved that I will accost him as one brother ought to address another, whatever it may cost me; and, if I am still flouted with disdain, then shall the blame rest with him."

Eventually, it hit George, as he was thinking alone about the strange presence of his brother, that maybe his brother had softened. Despite having such a gloomy and unyielding nature that he wouldn't admit it or ask for peace, perhaps that was exactly why he followed him around day and night in such an unusual way. "I can't see any other reason for it," he thought. "He never tries to harm me; nor would he, even if he wanted to. So, even though his attitude is particularly off-putting to me, I won’t carry the weight of knowing that my own brother longs for a reconciliation with me but is pushed away by my arrogant and disrespectful behavior. The next time he comes near, I’ve decided that I will speak to him as one brother should to another, no matter the cost; and if he still treats me with scorn, then the blame will fall on him."

After this generous resolution, it was a good while before his gratuitous attendant appeared at his side again; and George began to think that his visits were discontinued. The hope was a relief that could not be calculated; but still George had a feeling that it was too supreme to last. His enemy had been too pertinacious to abandon his design, whatever it was. He, however, began to indulge in a little more liberty, and for several days he enjoyed it with impunity.

After this generous decision, it was quite a while before his free attendant showed up next to him again, and George started to believe that his visits had stopped altogether. The hope brought a relief that was hard to measure, but George couldn’t shake the feeling that it was too good to last. His enemy had been too determined to give up on whatever plan he had. However, George began to enjoy a bit more freedom, and for several days, he reveled in it without consequences.

George was, from infancy, of a stirring active disposition and could not endure confinement; and, having been of late much restrained in his youthful exercises by this singular persecutor, he grew uneasy under such restraint, and, one morning, chancing to awaken very early, he arose to make an excursion to the top of Arthur's Seat, to breathe the breeze of the dawning, and see the sun arise out of the eastern ocean. The morning was calm and serene; and as he walked down the south back of the Canongate, towards the Palace, the haze was so close around him that he could not see the houses on the opposite side of the way. As he passed the Lord-Commissioner's house, the guards were in attendance, who cautioned him not to go by the Palace, as all the gates would be shut and guarded for an hour to come, on which he went by the back of St. Anthony's gardens, and found his way into that little romantic glade adjoining to the saint's chapel and well. He was still involved in a blue haze, like a dense smoke, but yet in the midst of it the respiration was the most refreshing and delicious. The grass and the flowers were loaden with dew; and, on taking off his hat to wipe his forehead, he perceived that the black glossy fur of which his chaperon was wrought was all covered with a tissue of the most delicate silver—a fairy web, composed of little spheres, so minute that no eye could discern any of them; yet there they were shining in lovely millions. Afraid of defacing so beautiful and so delicate a garnish, he replaced his hat with the greatest caution, and went on his way light of heart.

George was, from a young age, a restless and active person who couldn't stand being cooped up. Recently, he had been restricted in his youthful activities by a unique tormentor, which made him feel anxious about the confinement. One morning, waking up very early, he decided to take a trip to the top of Arthur's Seat to enjoy the morning breeze and watch the sun rise from the eastern ocean. The morning was calm and peaceful; as he walked down the south side of the Canongate toward the Palace, the mist was so thick around him that he couldn't see the houses across the street. When he passed the Lord-Commissioner's house, the guards were on duty and advised him not to go by the Palace since all the gates would be closed and guarded for another hour. So, he took the path by the back of St. Anthony's gardens and found his way into a small, picturesque glade next to the saint's chapel and well. He was still surrounded by a blue mist, like a dense smoke, but even so, the air was incredibly refreshing and pleasant. The grass and flowers were heavy with dew, and when he took off his hat to wipe his forehead, he noticed that the black glossy fur of his cap was covered in a delicate silver web—a fairy-like tapestry made of tiny spheres, so small that no eye could distinguish any of them; yet they were shining beautifully in the millions. Afraid of ruining such a stunning and fragile adornment, he carefully put his hat back on and continued on his way, feeling light-hearted.

As he approached the swire at the head of the dell—that little delightful verge from which in one moment the eastern limits and shores of Lothian arise on the view—as he approached it, I say, and a little space from the height, he beheld, to his astonishment, a bright halo in the cloud of haze, that rose in a semicircle over his head like a pale rainbow. He was struck motionless at the view of the lovely vision; for it so chanced that he had never seen the same appearance before, though common at early morn. But he soon perceived the cause of the phenomenon, and that it proceeded from the rays of the sun from a pure unclouded morning sky striking upon this dense vapour which refracted them. But, the better all the works of nature are understood, the more they will be ever admired. That was a scene that would have entranced the man of science with delight, but which the uninitiated and sordid man would have regarded less than the mole rearing up his hill in silence and in darkness.

As he got closer to the point at the head of the valley—that charming edge from which the eastern borders and shores of Lothian come into view—he saw, to his surprise, a bright halo in the mist, rising in a semicircle above his head like a faint rainbow. He was momentarily stunned by the beautiful sight because, surprisingly, he had never witnessed anything like it before, even though it’s common in the early morning. But he quickly figured out that the cause of the phenomenon was the sun's rays from a clear, cloudless morning sky hitting this dense vapor, which refracted them. The more we understand the wonders of nature, the more we appreciate them. That was a scene that would have thrilled a scientist, but a clueless and greedy person would have thought little of it, like a mole quietly building its hill in the dark.

George did admire this halo of glory, which still grew wider, and less defined, as he approached the surface, of the cloud. But, to his utter amazement and supreme delight, he found, on reaching the top of Arthur's Seat, that this sublunary rainbow, this terrestrial glory, was spread in its most vivid hues beneath his feet. Still he could not perceive the body of the sun, although the light behind him was dazzling; but the cloud of haze lying dense in that deep dell that separates the hill from the rocks of Salisbury, and the dull shadow of the hill mingling with that cloud made the dell a pit of darkness. On that shadowy cloud was the lovely rainbow formed, spreading itself on a horizontal plain, and having a slight and brilliant shade of all the colours of the heavenly bow, but all of them paler and less defined. But this terrestrial phenomenon of the early morn cannot be better delineated than by the name given of it by the shepherd boys, "The little wee ghost of the rainbow."

George admired this halo of glory, which kept growing wider and less defined as he got closer to the cloud's surface. But, to his utter amazement and great delight, when he reached the top of Arthur's Seat, he discovered that this earthly rainbow, this terrestrial glory, was spreading in its most vivid colors beneath his feet. Still, he couldn’t see the sun itself, even though the light behind him was blinding; the thick haze in the deep valley between the hill and the Salisbury rocks, along with the dull shadow of the hill mixing with that haze, created a pit of darkness. On that shadowy cloud, a beautiful rainbow formed, spread out horizontally, with a bright shade of all the colors of the real rainbow, though all of them were paler and less defined. But this earthly phenomenon of the early morning can best be described by the name given to it by the shepherd boys: "The little wee ghost of the rainbow."

Such was the description of the morning, and the wild shades of the hill, that George gave to his father and Mr. Adam Gordon that same day on which he had witnessed them; and it is necessary that the reader should comprehend something of their nature to understand what follows.

Such was the description of the morning and the wild colors of the hill that George shared with his father and Mr. Adam Gordon on the same day he saw them; and it's important for the reader to grasp some of their nature to understand what comes next.

He seated himself on the pinnacle of the rocky precipice, a little within the top of the hill to the westward, and, with a light and buoyant heart, viewed the beauties of the morning, and inhaled its salubrious breeze. "Here," thought he, "I can converse with nature without disturbance, and without being intruded on by any appalling or obnoxious visitor." The idea of his brother's dark and malevolent looks coming at that moment across his mind, he turned his eyes instinctively to the right, to the point where that unwelcome guest was wont to make his appearance. Gracious Heaven! What an apparition was there presented to his view! He saw, delineated in the cloud, the shoulders, arms, and features of a human being of the most dreadful aspect. The face was the face of his brother, but dilated to twenty times the natural size. Its dark eyes gleamed on him through the mist, while every furrow of its hideous brow frowned deep as the ravines on the brow of the hill. George started, and his hair stood up in bristles as he gazed on this horrible monster. He saw every feature and every line of the face distinctly as it gazed on him with an intensity that was hardly brookable. Its eyes were fixed on him, in the same manner as those of some carnivorous animal fixed on its prey; and yet there was fear and trembling in these unearthly features, as plainly depicted as murderous malice. The giant apparition seemed sometimes to be cowering down as in terror, so that nothing but his brow and eyes were seen; still these never turned one moment from their object—again it rose imperceptively up, and began to approach with great caution; and, as it neared, the dimensions of its form lessened, still continuing, however, far above the natural size.

He sat at the top of the rocky cliff, a little further back from the peak of the hill to the west, and, feeling light and carefree, took in the beauty of the morning and breathed in the fresh breeze. “Here,” he thought, “I can talk to nature without any interruptions or being bothered by any creepy or unwanted visitors.” The thought of his brother’s dark and menacing expression crossed his mind, prompting him to instinctively glance to the right, where that unwelcome figure usually appeared. Good heavens! What a sight was before him! He saw, outlined in the clouds, the shoulders, arms, and features of a person looking utterly terrifying. The face resembled his brother’s but was exaggerated to twenty times its normal size. Its dark eyes glared at him through the mist, and every wrinkle of its grotesque brow looked as deep as the gorges on the hill. George jolted, and his hair stood on end as he stared at this hideous monster. He could see every feature and line of that face clearly as it locked eyes with him with an intensity that was almost unbearable. Its gaze was fixed on him like a predatory animal watching its prey; and yet, fear and trembling were unmistakably portrayed on those otherworldly features, alongside the murderous malice. The giant figure sometimes seemed to shrink back in fear, so that only its brow and eyes were visible; yet they never strayed from him for a second—then it slowly rose again and began to approach cautiously; as it got closer, its form shrank but still remained much larger than normal.

George conceived it to be a spirit. He could conceive it to be nothing else; and he took it for some horrid demon by which he was haunted, that had assumed the features of his brother in every lineament, but, in taking on itself the human form, had miscalculated dreadfully on the size, and presented itself thus to him in a blown-up, dilated frame of embodied air, exhaled from the caverns of death or the regions of devouring fire. He was further confirmed in the belief that it was a malignant spirit on perceiving that it approached him across the front of a precipice, where there was not footing for thing of mortal frame. Still, what with terror and astonishment, he continued riveted to the spot, till it approached, as he deemed, to within two yards of him; and then, perceiving that it was setting itself to make a violent spring on him, he started to his feet and fled distractedly in the opposite direction, keeping his eye cast behind him lest he had been seized in that dangerous place. But the very first bolt that he made in his flight he came in contact with a real body of flesh and blood, and that with such violence that both went down among some scragged rocks, and George rolled over the other. The being called out "Murder"; and, rising, fled precipitately. George then perceived that it was his brother; and being confounded between the shadow and the substance, he knew not what he was doing or what he had done; and, there being only one natural way of retreat from the brink of the rock, he likewise arose and pursued the affrighted culprit with all his speed towards the top of the hill. Wringhim was braying out, "Murder! murder!" at which George, being disgusted, and his spirits all in a ferment from some hurried idea of intended harm, the moment he came up with the craven he seized him rudely by the shoulder, and clapped his hand on his mouth. "Murder, you beast!" said he; "what do you mean by roaring out murder in that way? Who the devil is murdering you, or offering to murder you?"

George thought it was a spirit. He couldn’t think of it as anything else; he believed it was some terrifying demon haunting him, taking on the appearance of his brother in every detail, but in its human form, it had greatly misjudged its size and appeared to him as a distorted, inflated shape made of air, exhaled from the depths of death or the realms of raging fire. He was even more convinced it was an evil spirit when he saw it coming toward him across the edge of a cliff, where there was no solid ground for a living being. Yet, caught up in both fear and shock, he remained frozen until it seemed to get within two yards of him; then, noticing it was about to leap at him, he jumped to his feet and ran in the opposite direction, glancing back in case he was caught in that treacherous spot. But as soon as he took off, he collided with a real body made of flesh and blood, with such force that they both fell among some jagged rocks, and George rolled over the other person. The figure shouted “Murder!” and, getting up, ran away in a panic. George then realized it was his brother; confused between the shadow and the reality, he didn’t know what he was doing or what had just happened. Since there was only one natural escape from the edge of the cliff, he also got up and chased after the frightened culprit towards the top of the hill. Wringhim was yelling “Murder! murder!” At which point, George, feeling disgusted and his emotions all stirred up from a wild thought of danger, grabbed the coward roughly by the shoulder and covered his mouth. “Murder, you fool!” he said. “What’s with the screaming about murder? Who the hell is trying to murder you, or even thinking about it?”

Wringhim forced his mouth from under his brother's hand, and roared with redoubled energy: "Eh! Egh! Murder! murder!" etc. George had felt resolute to put down this shocking alarm, lest someone might hear it and fly to the spot, or draw inferences widely different from the truth; and, perceiving the terror of this elect youth to be so great that expostulation was vain, he seized him by the mouth and nose with his left hand so strenuously that he sank his fingers into his cheeks. But, the poltroon still attempting to bray out, George gave him such a stunning blow with his fist on the left temple that he crumbled, as it were, to the ground, but more from the effects of terror than those of the blow. His nose, however, again gushed out blood, a system of defence which seemed as natural to him as that resorted to by the race of stinkards. He then raised himself on his knees and hams, and raising up his ghastly face, while the blood streamed over both ears, he besought his life of his brother, in the most abject whining manner, gaping and blubbering most piteously.

Wringhim pushed his mouth away from his brother's hand and shouted even louder, "Hey! Oh! Help! Help!" George felt determined to stop this shocking outcry, worried that someone might hear it and come running, or come to the wrong conclusion about what was happening; noticing that this terrified young man was too scared to reason with, he grabbed his mouth and nose with his left hand, pressing hard enough to dig his fingers into his cheeks. But the coward still tried to scream, so George hit him with a powerful punch to the left side of his head, causing him to collapse to the ground, more from fear than the impact of the hit. However, his nose started bleeding again, a response that seemed as instinctive for him as it does for skunks. He then got onto his knees and legs, raised his pale face with blood streaming down both sides, and begged his brother for mercy in the most pathetic, whiny way, gasping and sobbing pitifully.

"Tell me then, Sir," said George, resolved to make the most of the wretch's terror—"tell me for what purpose it is that you haunt my steps? Tell me plainly, and instantly, else I will throw you from the verge of that precipice."

"Then tell me, Sir," George said, determined to take advantage of the wretch's fear—"tell me clearly, and right now, why you are following me? If you don't, I'll throw you off that cliff."

"Oh, I will never do it again! I will never do it again! Spare my life, dear, good brother! Spare my life! Sure I never did you any hurt."

"Oh, I'll never do it again! I'll never do it again! Please spare my life, dear, kind brother! Spare my life! I swear I never hurt you."

"Swear to me, then, by the God that made you, that you will never henceforth follow after me to torment me with your hellish threatening looks; swear that you will never again come into my presence without being invited. Will you take an oath to this effect?"

"Promise me, then, by the God who created you, that you will never again follow me to torment me with your intimidating glares; promise that you will never show up in my presence without an invitation. Will you swear this?"

"Oh yes! I will, I will!"

"Oh yes! I will, I will!"

"But this is not all: you must tell me for what purpose you sought me out here this morning?"

"But that's not all: you need to tell me why you came to find me here this morning?"

"Oh, brother! For nothing but your good. I had nothing at heart but your unspeakable profit, and great and endless good."

"Oh, brother! It was only for your benefit. I had nothing in mind but your incredible gain and lasting good."

"So, then, you indeed knew that I was here?"

"So, you really knew I was here?"

"I was told so by a friend, but I did not believe him; a—a—at least I did not know that it was true till I saw you."

"I heard that from a friend, but I didn’t believe him; at least I didn’t realize it was true until I saw you."

"Tell me this one thing, then, Robert, and all shall be forgotten and forgiven. Who was that friend?"

"Just tell me one thing, then, Robert, and everything will be forgotten and forgiven. Who was that friend?"

"You do not know him."

"You don't know him."

"How then does he know me?"

"How does he know me then?"

"I cannot tell."

"I can't say."

"Was he here present with you to-day?"

"Was he here with you today?"

"Yes; he was not far distant. He came to this hill with me."

"Yeah; he wasn't far away. He came to this hill with me."

"Where then is he now?"

"Where is he now?"

"I cannot tell."

"I can't say."

"Then, wretch, confess that the devil was that friend who told you I was here, and who came here with you. None else could possibly know of my being here."

"Then, you miserable person, admit that the devil was the friend who told you I was here and who came here with you. No one else could possibly know I was here."

"Ah! how little you know of him! Would you argue that there is neither man nor spirit endowed with so much foresight as to deduce natural conclusions from previous actions and incidents but the devil? Alas, brother! But why should I wonder at such abandoned notions and principles? It was fore-ordained that you should cherish them, and that they should be the ruin of your soul and body, before the world was framed. Be assured of this, however, that I had no aim of seeking you but your good!"

"Ah! How little you know about him! Do you really think that there is no one, neither a person nor a spirit, with the foresight to draw natural conclusions from past actions and events except for the devil? Sadly, brother! But why should I be surprised by such reckless beliefs and principles? It was destined that you would hold onto them, and that they would lead to your downfall, long before the world was created. Just know this, though—I had no intention of approaching you except for your own good!"

"Well, Robert, I will believe it. I am disposed to be hasty and passionate: it is a fault in my nature; but I never meant, or wished you evil; and God is my witness that I would as soon stretch out my hand to my own life, or my father's, as to yours." At these words, Wringhim uttered a hollow exulting laugh, put his hands in his pockets, and withdrew a space to his accustomed distance. George continued: "And now, once for all, I request that we may exchange forgiveness, and that we may part and remain friends."

"Well, Robert, I will believe it. I tend to be impulsive and emotional; it's a flaw in my character. But I never meant or wished any harm to you; and God is my witness that I would extend my hand to save my own life or my father's as readily as I would to save yours." At these words, Wringhim let out a hollow, mocking laugh, stuck his hands in his pockets, and stepped back to his usual distance. George continued: "And now, once and for all, I ask that we forgive each other, so we can part ways and stay friends."

"Would such a thing be expedient, think you? Or consistent with the glory of God? I doubt it."

"Do you think that would be a good idea? Or in line with God’s glory? I’m not so sure."

"I can think of nothing that would be more so. Is it not consistent with every precept of the Gospel? Come, brother, say that our reconciliation is complete."

"I can't think of anything more so. Isn't it in line with every teaching of the Gospel? Come on, brother, say that our reconciliation is complete."

"Oh yes, certainly! I tell you, brother, according to the flesh: it is just as complete as the lark's is with the adder, no more so, nor ever can. Reconciled, forsooth! To what would I be reconciled?"

"Oh yes, absolutely! I tell you, brother, in the flesh: it is just as complete as the lark's is with the adder, no more, and never will be. Reconciled, really! To what would I be reconciled?"

As he said this, he strode indignantly away. From the moment that he heard his life was safe, he assumed his former insolence and revengeful looks—and never were they more dreadful than on parting with his brother that morning on the top of the hill. "Well, go thy way," said George; "some would despise, but I pity thee. If thou art not a limb of Satan, I never saw one."

As he said this, he walked away angrily. The moment he found out his life was safe, he returned to his old arrogant and vengeful expressions—and they were never more terrifying than when he parted from his brother that morning at the top of the hill. "Well, go your way," said George; "some would look down on you, but I feel sorry for you. If you’re not a part of Satan, I've never seen one."

The sun had now dispelled the vapours; and, the morning being lovely beyond description, George sat himself down on the top of the hill, and pondered deeply on the unaccountable incident that had befallen to him that morning. He could in no-wise comprehend it; but, taking it with other previous circumstances, he could not get quit of a conviction that he was haunted by some evil genius in the shape of his brother, as well as by that dark and mysterious wretch himself. In no other way could he account for the apparition he saw that morning on the face of the rock, nor for several sudden appearances of the same being, in places where there was no possibility of any foreknowledge that he himself was to be there, and as little that the same being, if he were flesh and blood like other men, could always start up in the same position with regard to him. He determined, therefore, on reaching home, to relate all that had happened, from beginning to end, to his father, asking his counsel and his assistance, although he knew full well that his father was not the fittest man in the world to solve such a problem. He was now involved in party politics, over head and ears; and, moreover, he could never hear the names of either of the Wringhims mentioned without getting into a quandary of disgust and anger; and all that he would deign to say of them was, to call them by all the opprobrious names he could invent.

The sun had now cleared away the mist, and with the morning being incredibly beautiful, George sat down on top of the hill and thought deeply about the strange incident that had happened to him that morning. He couldn't understand it at all; but considering it alongside other recent events, he couldn't shake the feeling that he was being haunted by some evil force in the form of his brother, as well as by that dark and mysterious figure himself. He couldn't explain the appearance he saw that morning on the rock, nor the several sudden sightings of the same person in places where there was no way he could have known he would be, and even less reason to think that this person, if he were alive like anyone else, could always show up in the same way in relation to him. So, he decided that when he got home, he would tell his father everything that had happened, from start to finish, asking for his advice and help, even though he knew very well that his father wasn't exactly the best person to solve such a mystery. He was completely caught up in party politics; plus, he could never hear either of the Wringhims' names mentioned without feeling a surge of disgust and anger, and all he'd be willing to say about them was to use every insulting name he could think of.

It turned out as the young man from the first suggested: old Dalcastle would listen to nothing concerning them with any patience. George complained that his brother harassed him with his presence at all times, and in all places. Old Dal asked why he did not kick the dog out of his presence whenever he felt him disagreeable? George said he seemed to have some demon for a familiar. Dal answered that he did not wonder a bit at that, for the young spark was the third in a direct line who had all been children of adultery; and it was well known that all such were born half-deils themselves, and nothing was more likely than that they should hold intercourse with their fellows. In the same style did he sympathize with all his son's late sufferings and perplexities.

It turned out just like the young man from the beginning suggested: old Dalcastle wouldn't tolerate anything about them with any patience. George complained that his brother was always nagging him with his presence, no matter where he went. Old Dal asked why he didn’t just kick the guy out whenever he found him annoying. George replied that it felt like he had some kind of demon as a companion. Dal said he wasn’t surprised at all, since the young guy was the third in a straight line of kids born out of wedlock; and it was well-known that all such children were often half-devils themselves, making it likely they'd associate with their kind. He sympathized with all his son's recent troubles and confusion in the same way.

In Mr. Adam Gordon, however, George found a friend who entered into all his feelings, and had seen and known everything about the matter. He tried to convince him that at all events there could be nothing supernatural in the circumstances; and that the vision he had seen on the rock, among the thick mist, was the shadow of his brother approaching behind him. George could not swallow this, for he had seen his own shadow on the cloud, and, instead of approaching to aught like his own figure, he perceived nothing but a halo of glory round a point of the cloud that was whiter and purer than the rest. Gordon said, if he would go with him to a mountain of his father's, which he named, in Aberdeenshire, he would show him a giant spirit of the same dimensions, any morning at the rising of the sun, provided he shone on that spot. This statement excited George's curiosity exceedingly; and, being disgusted with some things about Edinburgh, and glad to get out of the way, he consented to go with Gordon to the Highlands for a space. The day was accordingly set for their departure, the old laird's assent obtained, and the two young sparks parted in a state of great impatience for their excursion.

In Mr. Adam Gordon, George found a friend who understood all his feelings and was aware of everything related to the situation. He tried to convince George that there couldn’t be anything supernatural about it, and that the vision he saw on the rock in the thick mist was just his brother's shadow coming up behind him. George couldn’t accept this, since he had seen his own shadow on the cloud, and instead of resembling his own figure, all he noticed was a halo of light around a part of the cloud that was brighter and purer than the rest. Gordon said that if George would join him at a mountain owned by his father, which he named in Aberdeenshire, he would show him a giant spirit of the same size any morning at sunrise, as long as the sun shone on that spot. This piqued George's curiosity a lot; feeling frustrated with some things in Edinburgh and eager to escape for a while, he agreed to go with Gordon to the Highlands. The day for their departure was set, the old laird gave his approval, and the two young men parted, eagerly anticipating their adventure.

One of them found out another engagement, however, the instant after this last was determined on. Young Wringhim went off the hill that morning, and home to his upright guardian again without washing the blood from his face and neck; and there he told a most woeful story indeed: how he had gone out to take a morning's walk on the hill, where he had encountered with his reprobate brother among the mist, who had knocked him down and very near murdered him; threatening dreadfully, and with horrid oaths, to throw him from the top of the cliff.

One of them found out about another engagement right after the last one was settled. Young Wringhim left the hill that morning and went back to his strict guardian without washing the blood off his face and neck. There, he told a truly sad story: how he had gone out for a morning walk on the hill, where he ran into his wayward brother in the mist, who had knocked him down and nearly killed him, making terrible threats and using horrifying swears to say he would throw him off the edge of the cliff.

The wrath of the great divine was kindled beyond measure. He cursed the aggressor in the name of the Most High; and bound himself, by an oath, to cause that wicked one's transgressions return upon his own head sevenfold. But, before he engaged further in the business of vengeance, he kneeled with his adopted son, and committed the whole cause unto the Lord, whom he addressed as one coming breathing burning coals of juniper, and casting his lightnings before him, to destroy and root out all who had moved hand or tongue against the children of the promise. Thus did he arise confirmed, and go forth to certain conquest.

The anger of the highest power was stirred to the extreme. He condemned the aggressor in the name of the Almighty and swore an oath to ensure that the wrongdoer's sins would come back on him sevenfold. But before he proceeded with his plan for revenge, he kneeled with his adopted son and entrusted the entire matter to the Lord, whom he envisioned as one who brings fiery coals of juniper and sends forth lightning to wipe out anyone who had spoken or acted against the children of the promise. With that, he stood up reassured and went out to guaranteed victory.

We cannot enter into the detail of the events that now occurred without forestalling a part of the narrative of one who knew all the circumstances—was deeply interested in them, and whose relation is of higher value than anything that can be retailed out of the stores of tradition and old registers; but, his narrative being different from these, it was judged expedient to give the account as thus publicly handed down to us. Suffice it that, before evening, George was apprehended, and lodged in jail, on a criminal charge of an assault and battery, to the shedding of blood, with the intent of committing fratricide. Then was the old laird in great consternation, and blamed himself for treating the thing so lightly, which seemed to have been gone about, from the beginning, so systematically, and with an intent which the villains were now going to realize, namely, to get the young laird disposed of; and then his brother, in spite of the old gentleman's teeth, would be laird himself.

We can't go into the details of the events that happened next without getting ahead of the story told by someone who knew all the circumstances—who was deeply invested in them and whose account is more valuable than anything that could be found in traditional stories and old records. Since his version is different from those, it was decided to present this publicly passed-down account. It’s enough to say that, by evening, George was arrested and held in jail on a criminal charge of assault and battery, resulting in bloodshed, with the intent to commit fratricide. The old laird was extremely worried and blamed himself for not taking the situation seriously, which appeared to be orchestrated from the start. The villains were now ready to follow through with their plan, which was to get rid of the young laird; then, his brother would become the laird, despite the old gentleman’s objections.

Old Dal now set his whole interest to work among the noblemen and lawyers of his party. His son's case looked exceedingly ill, owing to the former assault before witnesses, and the unbecoming expressions made use of by him on that occasion, as well as from the present assault, which George did not deny, and for which no moving cause or motive could be made to appear.

Old Dal now focused all his efforts on gaining the support of the noblemen and lawyers in his party. His son's situation looked really bad due to the earlier assault that had witnesses and the inappropriate comments he made at that time, in addition to the current assault, which George didn’t deny, and there seemed to be no valid reason or motive for it.

On his first declaration before the sheriff, matters looked no better: but then the sheriff was a Whig. It is well known how differently the people of the present day, in Scotland, view the cases of their own party-men and those of opposite political principles. But this day is nothing to that in such matters, although, God knows, they are still sometimes barefaced enough. It appeared, from all the witnesses in the first case, that the complainant was the first aggressor—that he refused to stand out of the way, though apprised of his danger; and, when his brother came against him inadvertently, he had aimed a blow at him with his foot, which, if it had taken effect, would have killed him. But as to the story of the apparition in fair day-light—the flying from the face of it—the running foul of his brother pursuing him, and knocking him down, why the judge smiled at the relation, and saying: "It was a very extraordinary story," he remanded George to prison, leaving the matter to the High Court of Justiciary.

On his first statement before the sheriff, things weren’t any better: but then the sheriff was a Whig. It’s well known how differently people today in Scotland view the cases of their own party members versus those of opposing political beliefs. But this day is nothing compared to how it used to be in such matters, although, God knows, they are still sometimes pretty blatant about it. From all the witnesses in the first case, it was clear that the complainant was the first to attack—he refused to get out of the way, even when warned of his danger; and when his brother accidentally came at him, he aimed a kick at him, which, if it had landed, could have killed him. But as for the story about the ghost in broad daylight—the fleeing from it—the collision with his brother who was chasing him, and knocking him down, the judge just smiled at the tale, and said, "It’s quite an extraordinary story," and sent George back to jail, leaving the matter for the High Court of Justiciary.

When the case came before that court, matters took a different turn. The constant and sullen attendance of the one brother upon the other excited suspicions; and these were in some manner confirmed when the guards at Queensberry House deported that the prisoner went by them on his way to the hill that morning, about twenty minutes before the complainant, and, when the latter passed, he asked if such a young man had passed before him, describing the prisoner's appearance to them; and that, on being answered in the affirmative, he mended his pace and fell a-running.

When the case came before that court, things changed. The constant and gloomy presence of one brother around the other raised suspicions, which were somewhat confirmed when the guards at Queensberry House reported that the prisoner had walked by them on his way to the hill that morning, about twenty minutes before the complainant. When the complainant passed, he inquired if a young man matching the prisoner’s description had gone by them, and upon receiving a yes, he quickened his pace and started running.

The Lord Justice, on hearing this, asked the prisoner if he had any suspicions that his brother had a design on his life.

The Lord Justice, upon hearing this, asked the prisoner if he suspected that his brother was planning to harm him.

He answered that all along, from the time of their first unfortunate meeting, his brother had dogged his steps so constantly, and so unaccountably, that he was convinced it was with some intent out of the ordinary course of events; and that if, as his lordship supposed, it was indeed his shadow that he had seen approaching him through the mist, then, from the cowering and cautious manner that it advanced, there was no little doubt that his brother's design had been to push him headlong from the cliff that morning.

He replied that ever since their first unfortunate encounter, his brother had been following him so persistently and inexplicably that he was sure he had some unusual motive. If, as his lordship thought, it was indeed his brother's shadow he had seen coming toward him through the mist, then judging by the way it approached with hesitation and fear, there was a good chance his brother's plan was to shove him over the cliff that morning.

A conversation then took place between the judge and the Lord Advocate; and, in the meantime, a bustle was seen in the hall; on which the doors were ordered to be guarded, and, behold, the precious Mr. R. Wringhim was taken into custody, trying to make his escape out of court. Finally it turned out that George was honourably acquitted, and young Wringhim bound over to keep the peace, with heavy penalties and securities.

A conversation happened between the judge and the Lord Advocate; meanwhile, there was a commotion in the hall, prompting the doors to be secured. Suddenly, the valuable Mr. R. Wringhim was apprehended while trying to flee the courtroom. In the end, George was found not guilty, and young Wringhim was ordered to keep the peace, facing severe penalties and bail requirements.

That was a day of high exultation to George and his youthful associates, all of whom abhorred Wringhim; and, the evening being spent in great glee, it was agreed between Mr. Adam Gordon and George that their visit to the Highlands, though thus long delayed, was not to be abandoned; and though they had, through the machinations of an incendiary, lost the season of delight, they would still find plenty of sport in deer-shooting. Accordingly, the day was set a second time for their departure; and, on the day preceding that, all the party were invited by George to dine with him once more at the sign of the Black Bull of Norway. Everyone promised to attend, anticipating nothing but festivity and joy. Alas, what short-sighted improvident creatures we are, all of us; and how often does the evening cup of joy lead to sorrow in the morning!

That was a day of great excitement for George and his young friends, all of whom hated Wringhim. They spent the evening having a blast and agreed between Mr. Adam Gordon and George that their trip to the Highlands, despite being delayed for so long, would not be canceled. Even though they had lost the season of enjoyment due to someone's malicious actions, they would still have plenty of fun deer hunting. So, they set a new date for their departure, and the day before that, George invited everyone to have dinner with him again at the Black Bull of Norway. Everyone promised to come, looking forward to nothing but celebration and happiness. Alas, how short-sighted and reckless we all are, and how often does an evening of joy lead to morning sorrow!

The day arrived—the party of young noblemen and gentlemen met, and were as happy and jovial as men could be. George was never seen so brilliant, or so full of spirits; and exulting to see so many gallant young chiefs and gentlemen about him, who all gloried in the same principles of loyalty (perhaps this word should have been written disloyalty), he made speeches, gave toasts, and sung songs, all leaning slyly to the same side, until a very late hour. By that time he had pushed the bottle so long and so freely that its fumes had taken possession of every brain to such a degree that they held Dame Reason rather at the staff's end, overbearing all her counsels and expostulations; and it was imprudently proposed by a wild inebriated spark, and carried by a majority of voices, that the whole party should adjourn to a bagnio for the remainder of the night.

The day came—the gathering of young noblemen and gentlemen took place, and they were as happy and cheerful as anyone could be. George had never seemed so lively or so filled with energy; and thrilled to see so many brave young leaders and gentlemen around him, who all took pride in the same beliefs of loyalty (maybe this word should've been loyalty with a twist), he made speeches, raised toasts, and sang songs, all subtly leaning towards the same side, until late into the night. By that point, he had indulged in drinking for so long and so freely that its effects had taken over everyone’s mind to such an extent that they were pretty much ignoring good sense, disregarding all advice and warnings; and it was recklessly suggested by a wild, drunk guy, and agreed upon by a majority, that the whole group should head to a brothel for the rest of the night.

They did so; and it appears from what follows that the house, to which they retired must have been somewhere on the opposite side of the street to the Black Bull Inn, a little farther to the eastward. They had not been an hour in that house till some altercation chanced to arise between George Colwan and a Mr. Drummond, the younger son of a nobleman of distinction. It was perfectly casual, and no one thenceforward, to this day, could ever tell what it was about, if it was not about the misunderstanding of some word or term that the one had uttered. However it was, some high words passed between them; these were followed by threats, and, in less than two minutes from the commencement of the quarrel, Drummond left the house in apparent displeasure, hinting to the other that they two should settle that in a more convenient place.

They did that, and it seems from what happened next that the house they went to must have been on the opposite side of the street from the Black Bull Inn, a bit further east. They hadn’t been in that house for an hour before a conflict broke out between George Colwan and a Mr. Drummond, the younger son of a distinguished nobleman. It was completely random, and no one to this day can really explain what it was about, except that it likely stemmed from a misunderstanding of something one of them said. Regardless, some harsh words were exchanged; this escalated to threats, and within less than two minutes of the fight starting, Drummond left the house looking upset, suggesting to the other that they should sort it out somewhere more private.

The company looked at one another, for all was over before any of them knew such a thing was begun. "What the devil is the matter?" cried one. "What ails Drummond?" cried another. "Who has he quarrelled with?" asked a third.

The company glanced at each other, as everything had ended before any of them realized it had actually started. "What the hell is going on?" shouted one. "What's wrong with Drummond?" yelled another. "Who did he fight with?" asked a third.

"Don't know."—"Can't tell, on my life."—"He has quarrelled with his wine, I suppose, and is going to send it a challenge."

"Don't know."—"Can't say, honestly."—"I guess he's had a fight with his wine and is planning to challenge it."

Such were the questions, and such the answers that passed in the jovial party, and the matter was no more thought of.

Such were the questions, and such were the answers that were exchanged in the lively gathering, and the topic was no longer considered.

But in the course of a very short space, about the length which the ideas of the company were the next day at great variance, a sharp rap came to the door. It was opened by a female; but, there being a chain inside, she only saw one side of the person at the door. He appeared to be a young gentleman, in appearance like him who had lately left the house, and asked, in a low whispering voice, "if young Dalcastle was still in the house?" The woman did not know. "If he is," added he, "pray tell him to speak with me for a few minutes." The woman delivered the message before all the party, among whom there were then sundry courteous ladies of notable distinction, and George, on receiving it, instantly rose from the side of one of them, and said, in the hearing of them all, "I will bet a hundred merks that is Drummond."—"Don't go to quarrel with him, George," said one.—"Bring him in with you," said another. George stepped out; the door was again bolted, the chain drawn across, and the inadvertent party, left within, thought no more of the circumstance till the morning, that the report had spread over the city that a young gentleman had been slain, on a little washing-green at the side of the North Loch, and at the very bottom of the close where this thoughtless party had been assembled.

But in a very short time, when the group's opinions had changed drastically the next day, there was a sharp knock at the door. It was opened by a woman; however, since there was a chain locked inside, she could only see part of the person at the door. He looked like a young gentleman, similar to the one who had just left the house, and he asked in a low whisper, "Is young Dalcastle still here?" The woman didn't know. "If he is," he added, "please tell him to speak with me for a few minutes." The woman relayed the message in front of everyone, which included several distinguished ladies, and upon hearing it, George immediately got up from next to one of them and said, loudly enough for all to hear, "I bet a hundred merks that’s Drummond."—"Don’t go and start a fight with him, George," said one.—"Bring him in with you," suggested another. George stepped out; the door was bolted again, the chain secured, and the unsuspecting group inside didn’t think any more about it until the morning, when news had spread throughout the city that a young gentleman had been killed on a small washing green by the North Loch, right at the bottom of the close where this careless group had gathered.

Several of them, on first hearing the report, basted to the dead-room in the Guard-house, where the corpse had been deposited, and soon discovered the body to be that of their friend and late entertainer, George Colwan. Great were the consternation and grief of all concerned, and, in particular, of his old father and Miss Logan; for George had always been the sole hope and darling of both, and the news of the event paralysed them so as to render them incapable of all thought or exertion. The spirit of the old laird was broken by the blow, and he descended at once from a jolly, good-natured and active man to a mere driveller, weeping over the body of his son, kissing his wound, his lips, and his cold brow alternately; denouncing vengeance on his murderers, and lamenting that he himself had not met the cruel doom, so that the hope of his race might have been preserved. In short, finding that all further motive of action and object of concern or of love, here below, were for ever removed from him, he abandoned himself to despair, and threatened to go down to the grave with his son.

Several of them, upon first hearing the news, rushed to the dead-room in the Guard-house, where the body had been placed, and soon realized it was their friend and former host, George Colwan. The shock and sorrow were immense for everyone involved, especially for his father and Miss Logan; George had always been their only hope and beloved. The news left them so devastated that they couldn't think or act. The old laird’s spirit was shattered by the tragedy, and he quickly went from being a cheerful, friendly, and active man to a mere shell of himself, weeping over his son’s body, kissing his wounds, his lips, and his cold forehead alternately; cursing his son’s murderers and mourning that he hadn’t met the same cruel fate, so the legacy of his family could have been saved. In short, realizing that all further motivation for action and any concerns or love in this life were forever gone, he gave in to despair and threatened to follow his son to the grave.

But, although he made no attempt to discover the murderers, the arm of justice was not idle; and, it being evident to all that the crime must infallibly be brought home to young Drummond, some of his friends sought him out, and compelled him, sorely against his will, to retire into concealment till the issue of the proof that should be led was made known. At the same time, he denied all knowledge of the incident with a resolution that astonished his intimate friends and relations, who to a man suspected him guilty. His father was not in Scotland, for I think it was said to me that this young man was second son to a John, Duke of Melfort, who lived abroad with the royal family of the Stuarts; but this young gentleman lived with the relations of his mother, one of whom, an uncle, was a Lord of Session: these, having thoroughly effected his concealment, went away, and listened to the evidence; and the examination of every new witness convinced them that their noble young relative was the slayer of his friend.

But even though he didn’t try to find the murderers, justice wasn’t idle; and since it was clear to everyone that the crime would inevitably point to young Drummond, some of his friends searched for him and forced him, very much against his will, to go into hiding until the outcome of the evidence was revealed. At the same time, he claimed to know nothing about the incident with a determination that surprised his close friends and family, all of whom suspected his guilt. His father wasn’t in Scotland, as I believe I was told that this young man was the second son of a John, Duke of Melfort, who lived abroad with the royal family of the Stuarts; but this young man resided with his mother’s relatives, one of whom, an uncle, was a Lord of Session: these relatives successfully helped him hide, then left to hear the evidence; and the questioning of each new witness convinced them that their noble young relative had killed his friend.

All the young gentlemen of the party were examined, save Drummond, who, when sent for, could not be found, which circumstance sorely confirmed the suspicions against him in the minds of judges and jurors, friends and enemies; and there is little doubt that the care of his relations in concealing him injured his character and his cause. The young gentlemen of whom the party was composed varied considerably with respect to the quarrel between him and the deceased. Some of them had neither heard nor noted it; others had, but not one of them could tell how it began. Some of them had heard the threat uttered by Drummond on leaving the house, and one only had noted him lay his hand on his sword. Not one of them could swear that it was Drummond who came to the door and desired to speak with the deceased, but the general impression on the minds of them all was to that effect; and one of the women swore that she heard the voice distinctly at the door, and every word that voice pronounced, and at the same time heard the deceased say that it was Drummond's.

All the young men in the group were questioned, except for Drummond, who, when called for, could not be found. This fact strongly reinforced the suspicions against him in the minds of the judges, jurors, friends, and foes. It’s clear that the attempts by his family to hide him only harmed his reputation and his case. The young men in the party had different views regarding the conflict between him and the deceased. Some had neither heard nor noticed it; others had, but none could explain how it started. A few had heard Drummond's threat when he left the house, and only one of them remembered him resting his hand on his sword. None could confirm that it was Drummond who came to the door asking to speak with the deceased, but everyone generally felt that was the case; one of the women even claimed she clearly heard his voice at the door, along with every word he said, and at the same time heard the deceased confirm it was Drummond.

On the other hand, there were some evidences on Drummond's part, which Lord Craigie, his uncle, had taken care to collect. He produced the sword which his nephew had worn that night, on which there was neither blood nor blemish; and, above all, he insisted on the evidence of a number of surgeons, who declared that both the wounds which the deceased had received had been given behind. One of these was below the left arm, and a slight one; the other was quite through the body, and both evidently inflicted with the same weapon, a two-edged sword, of the same dimensions as that worn by Drummond.

On the other hand, there was some evidence from Drummond that Lord Craigie, his uncle, had made sure to gather. He presented the sword that his nephew had used that night, which had no blood or marks on it; and, most importantly, he emphasized the testimony of several surgeons, who stated that both wounds on the deceased had been inflicted from behind. One was a minor wound below the left arm, while the other went straight through the body, and both were clearly made by the same weapon, a double-edged sword of the same size as the one Drummond had.

Upon the whole, there was a division in the court, but a majority decided it. Drummond was pronounced guilty of the murder; outlawed for not appearing, and a high reward offered for his apprehension. It was with the greatest difficulty that he escaped on board of a small trading vessel, which landed him in Holland, and from thence, flying into Germany, he entered into the service of the Emperor Charles VI. Many regretted that he was not taken, and made to suffer the penalty due for such a crime, and the melancholy incident became a pulpit theme over a great part of Scotland, being held up as a proper warning to youth to beware of such haunts of vice and depravity, the nurses of all that is precipitate, immoral, and base, among mankind.

Overall, there was a split in the court, but the majority made the decision. Drummond was found guilty of murder; he was declared an outlaw for not appearing, and a large reward was offered for his capture. He barely managed to escape on a small trading ship, which took him to Holland, and from there, he fled to Germany, where he joined the service of Emperor Charles VI. Many wished he had been caught and faced the consequences for his crime, and this tragic event became a popular sermon topic throughout much of Scotland, serving as a cautionary tale for young people to avoid places of vice and corruption, which are the breeding grounds for all that is reckless, immoral, and low among humanity.

After the funeral of this promising and excellent young man, his father never more held up his head. Miss Logan, with all her art, could not get him to attend to any worldly thing, or to make any settlement whatsoever of his affairs, save making her over a present of what disposable funds he had about him. As to his estates, when they were mentioned to him, he wished them all in the bottom of the sea, and himself along with them. But, whenever she mentioned the circumstance of Thomas Drummond having been the murderer of his son, he shook his head, and once made the remark that "It was all a mistake, a gross and fatal error; but that God, who had permitted such a flagrant deed, would bring it to light in his own time and way." In a few weeks he followed his son to the grave, and the notorious Robert Wringhim took possession of his estates as the lawful son of the late laird, born in wedlock, and under his father's roof. The investiture was celebrated by prayer, singing of psalms, and religious disputation. The late guardian and adopted father, and the mother of the new laird, presided on the grand occasion, making a conspicuous figure in all the work of the day; and, though the youth himself indulged rather more freely in the bottle than he had ever been seen to do before, it was agreed by all present that there had never been a festivity so sanctified within the great hall of Dalcastle. Then, after due thanks returned, they parted rejoicing in spirit; which thanks, by the by, consisted wholly in telling the Almighty what he was; and informing, with very particular precision, what they were who addressed him; for Wringhim's whole system of popular declamation consisted, it seems, in this—to denounce all men and women to destruction, and then hold out hopes to his adherents that they were the chosen few, included in the promises, and who could never fall away. It would appear that this pharisaical doctrine is a very delicious one, and the most grateful of all others to the worst characters.

After the funeral of this bright and exceptional young man, his father never held his head up again. Miss Logan, despite all her efforts, couldn't get him to pay attention to anything in the world or settle his affairs, except to give her a gift of the leftover money he had. When his estates were mentioned, he wished they were all at the bottom of the sea, along with himself. However, whenever she brought up the fact that Thomas Drummond had killed his son, he shook his head and once remarked that "It was all a mistake, a gross and fatal error; but God, who allowed such a terrible act, would reveal the truth in His own time and way." A few weeks later, he followed his son to the grave, and the infamous Robert Wringhim took over his estates as the legitimate son of the late laird, born in wedlock and under his father's roof. The ceremony was marked by prayers, singing psalms, and religious debates. The late guardian and adoptive father, along with the mother of the new laird, took the lead on this grand occasion, playing a notable role in all the event's activities; and although the young man indulged a bit more in drinking than he ever had before, everyone present agreed that there had never been a celebration so blessed in the great hall of Dalcastle. After giving thanks, they parted in high spirits, which thankfully consisted only of telling the Almighty who He was and specifically stating who they were that addressed Him; for Wringhim's entire approach to public speaking seemed to revolve around condemning all people to destruction and then assuring his followers that they were the chosen few, included in the promises, and who could never fall away. It appears that this pharisaical doctrine is quite appealing and especially gratifying to the worst of characters.

But the ways of heaven are altogether inscrutable, and soar as far above and beyond the works and the comprehensions of man as the sun, flaming in majesty, is above the tiny boy's evening rocket. It is the controller of Nature alone that can bring light out of darkness, and order out of confusion. Who is he that causeth the mole, from his secret path of darkness, to throw up the gem, the gold, and the precious ore? The same that from the mouths of babes and sucklings can extract the perfection of praise, and who can make the most abject of his creatures instrumental in bringing the most hidden truths to light.

But the ways of heaven are completely mysterious, soaring far above and beyond human actions and understanding, just like the sun, shining majestically, is above a little boy's evening rocket. Only the one who controls Nature can bring light from darkness and create order out of chaos. Who is it that causes the mole, from its hidden path in the dark, to bring forth gems, gold, and precious minerals? It’s the same one who can draw perfect praise from the mouths of babies and can use even the most humble of his creations to uncover the most concealed truths.

Miss Logan had never lost the thought of her late master's prediction that Heaven would bring to light the truth concerning the untimely death of his son. She perceived that some strange conviction, too horrible for expression, preyed on his mind from the moment that the fatal news reached him to the last of his existence; and, in his last ravings, he uttered some incoherent words about justification by faith alone and absolute and eternal predestination having been the ruin of his house. These, to be sure, were the words of superannuation, and of the last and severest kind of it; but, for all that, they sunk deep into Miss Logan's soul, and at last she began to think with herself: "Is it possible the Wringhims, and the sophisticating wretch who is in conjunction with them, the mother of my late beautiful and amiable young master, can have effected his destruction? If so, I will spend my days, and my little patrimony, in endeavours to rake up and expose the unnatural deed."

Miss Logan had never stopped thinking about her late master's prediction that Heaven would reveal the truth about his son's untimely death. She sensed that some strange, horrible belief weighed on his mind from the moment he received the heartbreaking news until the end of his life; in his final moments, he mumbled some disjointed thoughts about being saved by faith alone and how absolute and eternal predestination had ruined his family. These were clearly the ramblings of a deeply troubled mind at its worst; nevertheless, they haunted Miss Logan, and eventually, she began to ponder: "Is it possible that the Wringhims, along with the deceitful person who is now linked to them—the mother of my late, beautiful, and kind young master—could have caused his downfall? If so, I will dedicate my life and my small inheritance to uncovering and exposing this unnatural act."

In all her outgoings and incomings Mrs. Logan (as she was now styled) never lost sight of this one object. Every new disappointment only whetted her desire to fish up some particulars, concerning it; for she thought so long and so ardently upon it that by degrees it became settled in her mind as a sealed truth. And, as woman is always most jealous of her own sex in such matters, her suspicions were fixed on her greatest enemy, Mrs. Colwan, now the Lady Dowager of Dalcastle. All was wrapt in a chaos of confusion and darkness; but at last, by dint of a thousand sly and secret inquiries, Mrs. Logan found out where Lady Dalcastle had been on the night that the murder happened, and likewise what company she had kept, as well as some of the comers and goers; and she had hopes of having discovered a clue, which, if she could keep hold of the thread, would lead her through darkness to the light of truth.

In all her comings and goings, Mrs. Logan (as she was now called) never lost sight of this one goal. Every new disappointment only fueled her desire to dig up some information about it; she thought about it so much and so passionately that it gradually became a settled truth in her mind. And, since women are often most suspicious of their own gender in these matters, her focus turned to her biggest rival, Mrs. Colwan, now the Lady Dowager of Dalcastle. Everything was wrapped in confusion and darkness; but finally, through countless discreet and secret inquiries, Mrs. Logan discovered where Lady Dalcastle had been on the night of the murder, as well as who she had been with, and some of the other people coming and going. She hoped she had found a lead that, if she could hold on to it, would guide her from the darkness to the light of truth.

Returning very late one evening from a convocation of family servants, which she had drawn together in order to fish something out of them, her maid having been in attendance on her all the evening, they found, on going home, that the house had been broken and a number of valuable articles stolen therefrom. Mrs. Logan had grown quite heartless before this stroke, having been altogether unsuccessful in her inquiries, and now she began to entertain some resolutions of giving up the fruitless search.

Returning very late one evening from a gathering of family servants, which she had organized to get some information out of them, her maid, who had been with her all evening, discovered that when they got home, the house had been broken into and several valuable items were missing. Mrs. Logan had become quite callous before this incident, having had no success in her inquiries, and now she started to consider giving up the pointless search.

In a few days thereafter, she received intelligence that her clothes and plate were mostly recovered, and that she for one was bound over to prosecute the depredator, provided the articles turned out to be hers, as libelled in the indictment, and as a king's evidence had given out. She was likewise summoned, or requested, I know not which, being ignorant of these matters, to go as far as the town of Peebles in Tweedside, in order to survey these articles on such a day, and make affidavit to their identity before the Sheriff. She went accordingly; but, on entering the town by the North Gate, she was accosted by a poor girl in tattered apparel, who with great earnestness inquired if her name was not Mrs. Logan? On being answered in the affirmative, she said that the unfortunate prisoner in the Tolbooth requested her, as she valued all that was dear to her in life, to go and see her before she appeared in court at the hour of cause, as she (the prisoner) had something of the greatest moment to impart to her. Mrs. Logan's curiosity was excited, and she followed the girl straight to the Tolbooth, who by the way said to her that she would find in the prisoner a woman of superior mind, who had gone through all the vicissitudes of life. "She has been very unfortunate, and I fear very wicked," added the poor thing, "but she is my mother, and God knows, with all her faults and failings, she has never been unkind to me. You, madam, have it in your power to save her; but she has wronged you, and therefore, if you will not do it for her sake, do it for mine, and the God of the fatherless will reward you."

In a few days, she got word that most of her clothes and dishes had been recovered, and that she was required to take legal action against the thief, provided the items were indeed hers, as stated in the indictment, and as a key witness had testified. She was also summoned, or maybe just asked, as I’m not sure about these things, to travel to the town of Peebles in Tweedside to inspect these items on a certain day and affirm their identity before the Sheriff. She went as directed; however, upon entering the town through the North Gate, she was approached by a destitute girl in ragged clothing, who earnestly asked if her name was Mrs. Logan. When Mrs. Logan confirmed this, the girl said that the unfortunate prisoner in the Tolbooth wanted her, as she valued everything dear in life, to visit her before she appeared in court at the scheduled time, as the prisoner had something extremely important to tell her. Mrs. Logan's curiosity was piqued, and she followed the girl directly to the Tolbooth. The girl mentioned along the way that the prisoner was an intelligent woman who had endured all kinds of hardships in life. “She has been very unfortunate, and I fear very wicked,” the girl added, “but she is my mother, and God knows, despite all her faults, she has never been unkind to me. You, ma’am, have the ability to save her; but she has wronged you, so if you won’t do it for her, do it for me, and the God of the fatherless will reward you.”

Mrs. Logan answered her with a cast of the head, and a hem! and only remarked, that "the guilty must not always be suffered to escape, or what a world must we be doomed to live in!"

Mrs. Logan responded with a tilt of her head and a "hem!" and simply said, "the guilty shouldn’t always be allowed to get away with it, or what kind of world would we be stuck living in?"

She was admitted to the prison, and found a tall emaciated figure, who appeared to have once possessed a sort of masculine beauty in no ordinary degree, but was now considerably advanced in years. She viewed Mrs. Logan with a stern, steady gaze, as if reading her features as a margin to her intellect; and when she addressed her it was not with that humility, and agonized fervour, which are natural for one in such circumstances to address to another who has the power of her life and death in her hands.

She was brought into the prison and saw a tall, thin person who seemed to have had a notable masculine beauty at one time, but who was now quite old. She looked at Mrs. Logan with a stern, steady gaze, as if scrutinizing her features to understand her mind better; and when she spoke, it was not with the humility and desperate intensity that someone typically shows to another person who holds their fate in their hands.

"I am deeply indebted to you for this timely visit, Mrs. Logan," said she. "It is not that I value life, or because I fear death, that I have sent for you so expressly. But the manner of the death that awaits me has something peculiarly revolting in it to a female mind. Good God! when I think of being hung up, a spectacle to a gazing, gaping multitude, with numbers of which I have had intimacies and connections, that would render the moment of parting so hideous, that, believe me, it rends to flinders a soul born for another sphere than that in which it has moved, had not the vile selfishness of a lordly fiend ruined all my prospects and all my hopes. Hear me then; for I do not ask your pity: I only ask of you to look to yourself, and behave with womanly prudence; if you deny this day that these goods are yours, there is no other evidence whatever against my life, and it is safe for the present. For, as for the word of the wretch who has betrayed me, it is of no avail; he has prevaricated so notoriously to save himself. If you deny them, you shall have them all again to the value of a mite, and more to the bargain. If you swear to the identity of them, the process will, one way and another, cost you the half of what they are worth."

"I really appreciate your visit today, Mrs. Logan," she said. "It's not that I value life or fear death that made me call for you so urgently. But the way I'm going to die is particularly disgusting to a woman’s sensibility. Good God! When I think about being hanged, put on display for a crowd of people—many of whom I know and have connections with—that makes the idea of parting so horrid. It truly tears apart a soul destined for something better, especially since the wicked selfishness of a powerful fiend has ruined all my hopes and dreams. So hear me out; I’m not asking for your sympathy. I just need you to think of yourself and act wisely as a woman. If you deny today that these possessions are yours, there's no other proof against my life, and I’ll be safe for now. As for the word of the scoundrel who betrayed me, it's worthless; he has lied so blatantly to save his own skin. If you deny ownership, you can reclaim everything for next to nothing, and even get more out of it. But if you swear they belong to you, the legal process will end up costing you half of their value."

"And what security have I for that?" said Mrs. Logan.

"And what guarantee do I have for that?" asked Mrs. Logan.

"You have none but my word," said the other proudly, "and that never yet was violated. If you cannot take that, I know the worst you can do. But I had forgot—I have a poor helpless child without, waiting and starving about the prison door. Surely it was of her that I wished to speak. This shameful death of mine will leave her in a deplorable state."

"You only have my word," the other said proudly, "and I've never broken it. If you can’t accept that, I know what you're capable of. But I almost forgot—I have a poor, helpless child outside, waiting and starving by the prison door. I meant to talk about her. This disgraceful death of mine will leave her in a terrible situation."

"The girl seems to have candour and strong affections," said Mrs. Logan. "I grievously mistake if such a child would not be a thousand times better without such a guardian and director."

"The girl appears to be honest and has deep feelings," said Mrs. Logan. "I would be gravely mistaken if I thought that such a child wouldn’t be much better off without a guardian and leader like that."

"Then will you be so kind as to come to the Grass Market and see me put down?" said the prisoner. "I thought a woman would estimate a woman's and a mother's feelings, when such a dreadful throw was at stake, at least in part. But you are callous, and have never known any feelings but those of subordination to your old unnatural master. Alas, I have no cause of offence! I have wronged you; and justice must take its course. Will you forgive me before we part?"

"Will you please come to the Grass Market to see me get executed?" said the prisoner. "I thought a woman would understand another woman's and a mother's feelings, especially when such a terrible fate is on the line, at least a little. But you seem indifferent, only feeling subservience to your old unnatural master. I have no intention to offend! I have wronged you, and justice must be served. Will you forgive me before we say goodbye?"

Mrs. Logan hesitated, for her mind ran on something else. On which the other subjoined: "No, you will not forgive me, I see. But you will pray to God to forgive me? I know you will do that."

Mrs. Logan hesitated, as her mind was focused on something else. To which the other added: "No, you won’t forgive me, I can tell. But will you pray to God to forgive me? I know you’ll do that."

Mrs. Logan heard not this jeer, but, looking at the prisoner with an absent and stupid stare, she said: "Did you know my late master?"

Mrs. Logan didn't hear the jeer, but as she looked at the prisoner with a blank and clueless expression, she asked, "Did you know my late master?"

"Ay, that I did, and never for any good," said she. "I knew the old and the young spark both, and was by when the latter was slain."

"Ay, I did, and never for any good," she said. "I knew both the old and the young guy, and I was there when the latter was killed."

This careless sentence affected Mrs. Logan in a most peculiar manner. A shower of tears burst from her eyes ere it was done, and, when it was, she appeared like one bereaved of her mind. She first turned one way and then another, as if looking for something she had dropped. She seemed to think she had lost her eyes, instead of her tears, and at length, as by instinct, she tottered close up to the prisoner's face, and, looking wistfully and joyfully in it, said, with breathless earnestness: "Pray, mistress, what is your name?"

This careless sentence hit Mrs. Logan in a really strange way. A flood of tears burst from her eyes before it was even over, and when it was, she looked as if she had lost her mind. She turned one way and then the other, as if searching for something she had dropped. It seemed like she thought she had lost her eyes instead of her tears, and eventually, almost instinctively, she stumbled right up to the prisoner's face, looking at it with both longing and joy, and said, with intense seriousness: "Please, ma'am, what’s your name?"

"My name is Arabella Calvert," said the other. "Miss, mistress, or widow, as you choose, for I have been all the three, and that not once nor twice only. Ay, and something beyond all these. But, as for you, you have never been anything!"

"My name is Arabella Calvert," said the other. "Miss, mistress, or widow, it's up to you, since I've been all three, and not just once or twice. Yes, and a bit more than all these. But as for you, you've never been anything!"

"Ay, ay! and so you are Bell Calvert? Well, I thought so—I thought so," said Mrs. Logan; and, helping herself to a seat, she came and sat down close by the prisoner's knee. "So you are indeed Bell Calvert, so called once. Well, of all the world you are the woman whom I have longed and travailed the most to see. But you were invisible; a being to be heard of, not seen."

"Ay, ay! So you're Bell Calvert? I figured as much—I really did," Mrs. Logan said. Taking a seat, she moved in close to the prisoner's knee. "So you really are Bell Calvert, the one once known by that name. Out of everyone, you are the person I've wanted to see the most. But you were always out of reach; someone to hear about, not to actually see."

"There have been days, madam," returned she, "when I was to be seen, and when there were few to be seen like me. But since that time there have indeed been days on which I was not to be seen. My crimes have been great, but my sufferings have been greater. So great that neither you nor the world can ever either know or conceive them. I hope they will be taken into account by the Most High. Mine have been crimes of utter desperation. But whom am I speaking to? You had better leave me to myself, mistress."

"There have been days, ma'am," she replied, "when I stood out, and there were few like me. But since then, there have indeed been days when I was invisible. My sins have been severe, but my pain has been worse. So intense that neither you nor the world can ever truly understand or imagine them. I hope they will be considered by the Almighty. My actions have come from total desperation. But who am I talking to? You might as well just leave me alone, miss."

"Leave you to yourself? That I will be loth to do till you tell me where you were that night my young master was murdered."

"Leave you alone? I really don’t want to do that until you tell me where you were the night my young master was murdered."

"Where the devil would, I was! Will that suffice you? Ah, it was a vile action! A night to be remembered that was! Won't you be going? I want to trust my daughter with a commission."

"Where the hell was I! Is that good enough for you? Ah, it was a terrible thing to do! That was a night to remember! Aren't you leaving? I want to give my daughter a task."

"No, Mrs. Calvert, you and I part not till you have divulged that mystery to me."

"No, Mrs. Calvert, you and I won't part until you share that mystery with me."

"You must accompany me to the other world, then, for you shall not have it in this."

"You have to come with me to the other world, then, because you won't get it in this one."

"If you refuse to answer me, I can have you before a tribunal, where you shall be sifted to the soul."

"If you refuse to answer me, I can bring you before a tribunal, where you will be thoroughly examined."

"Such miserable inanity! What care I for your threatenings of a tribunal? I who must soon stand before my last earthly one? What could the word of such a culprit avail? Or, if it could, where is the judge that could enforce it?"

"Such miserable nonsense! What do I care about your threats of a tribunal? I who will soon stand before my final one on Earth? What good would the word of such a criminal do? Or, if it could, where is the judge who could enforce it?"

"Did you not say that there was some mode of accommodating matters on that score?"

"Did you not say that there was a way to deal with that issue?"

"Yes, I prayed you to grant me my life, which is in your power. The saving of it would not have cost you a plack, yet you refused to do it. The taking of it will cost you a great deal, and yet to that purpose you adhere. I can have no parley with such a spirit. I would not have my life in a present from its motions, nor would I exchange courtesies with its possessor."

"Yes, I begged you to spare my life, which you have the power to do. Saving it wouldn't have cost you anything, yet you refused. Taking it will cost you a lot, and still, you insist on doing it. I can't reason with someone like that. I wouldn't want to receive my life as a favor from its owner, nor would I want to exchange pleasantries with them."

"Indeed, Mrs. Calvert, since ever we met, I have been so busy thinking about who you might be that I know not what you have been proposing. I believe I meant to do what I could to save you. But, once for all, tell me everything that you know concerning that amiable young gentleman's death, and here is my hand there shall be nothing wanting that I can effect for you."

"Honestly, Mrs. Calvert, ever since we met, I've been so caught up in wondering who you are that I haven’t really paid attention to what you’ve been suggesting. I think I intended to do whatever I could to help you. But now, please tell me everything you know about that charming young man's death, and I promise to do everything in my power for you."

"No I despise all barter with such mean and selfish curiosity; and, as I believe that passion is stronger with you, than fear with me, we part on equal terms. Do your worst; and my secret shall go to the gallows and the grave with me."

"No, I hate all exchanges driven by such low and selfish curiosity; and since I believe that your passion is stronger than my fear, we leave on equal ground. Do your worst; my secret will go to the gallows and grave with me."

Mrs. Logan was now greatly confounded, and after proffering in vain to concede everything she could ask in exchange, for the particulars relating to the murder, she became the suppliant in her turn. But the unaccountable culprit, exulting in her advantage, laughed her to scorn; and finally, in a paroxysm of pride and impatience, called in the jailor and had her expelled, ordering him in her hearing not to grant her admittance a second time, on any pretence.

Mrs. Logan was now extremely confused, and after desperately trying to give anything she could in exchange for details about the murder, she ended up begging. But the mysterious culprit, reveling in her vulnerability, mocked her; and finally, in a fit of arrogance and frustration, she called in the jailer and had her thrown out, instructing him in front of her not to let her back in, no matter the reason.

Mrs. Logan was now hard put to it, and again driven almost to despair. She might have succeeded in the attainment of that she thirsted for most in life so easily had she known the character with which she had to deal. Had she known to have soothed her high and afflicted spirit: but that opportunity was past, and the hour of examination at hand. She once thought of going and claiming her articles, as she at first intended; but then, when she thought again of the Wringhims swaying it at Dalcastle, where she had been wont to hear them held in such contempt, if not abhorrence, and perhaps of holding it by the most diabolical means, she was withheld from marring the only chance that remained of having a glimpse into that mysterious affair.

Mrs. Logan was really struggling now, and once again felt close to despair. She could have easily achieved what she wanted most in life if she had understood the situation better. If only she had known how to calm her troubled and wounded spirit; but that chance was gone, and the moment of truth was approaching. At one point, she considered going to claim her possessions, just as she originally planned; but then, thinking about the Wringhims manipulating things at Dalcastle, where she had always heard them looked down on, if not hated, and possibly resorting to the worst tactics, she held back from ruining her only chance to get a glimpse into that mysterious situation.

Finally, she resolved not to answer to her name in the court, rather than to appear and assert a falsehood, which she might be called on to certify by oath. She did so; and heard the Sheriff give orders to the officers to make inquiry for Miss Logan from Edinburgh, at the various places of entertainment in town, and to expedite her arrival in court, as things of great value were in dependence. She also heard the man who had turned king's evidence against the prisoner examined for the second time, and sifted most cunningly. His answers gave anything but satisfaction to the Sheriff, though Mrs. Logan believed them to be mainly truth. But there were a few questions and answers that struck her above all others.

Finally, she decided not to respond to her name in court, rather than show up and verify a lie, which she might have to confirm under oath. She did this and listened as the Sheriff instructed the officers to look for Miss Logan from Edinburgh at various places in town and to hurry her arrival in court, as important matters were at stake. She also heard the man who had testified against the prisoner being questioned for the second time and examined very carefully. His answers did not seem to satisfy the Sheriff, although Mrs. Logan believed they were mostly truthful. However, there were a few questions and answers that impacted her more than the others.

"How long is it since Mrs. Calvert and you became acquainted?"

"How long has it been since you and Mrs. Calvert met?"

"About a year and a half."

"About a year and a half."

"State the precise time, if you please; the day, or night, according to your remembrance."

"Please tell me the exact time, whether it's day or night, as you remember it."

"It was on the morning of the 28th of February, 1705."

"It was the morning of February 28, 1705."

"What time of the morning?"

"What time in the morning?"

"Perhaps about one."

"Maybe about one."

"So early as that? At what place did you meet then?"

"So early? Where did you meet then?"

"It was at the foot of one of the north wynds of Edinburgh."

"It was at the base of one of the northern slopes of Edinburgh."

"Was it by appointment that you met?"

"Did you meet as planned?"

"No, it was not."

"No, it wasn't."

"For what purpose was it then?"

"For what purpose was it then?"

"For no purpose."

"For no reason."

"How is it that you chance to remember the day and hour so minutely, if you met that woman, whom you have accused, merely by chance, and for no manner of purpose, as you must have met others that night, perhaps to the amount of hundreds, in the same way?"

"How is it that you remember the day and time so precisely, if you just happened to meet that woman you’ve accused, without any particular reason, just like you might have met hundreds of others that night in the same way?"

"I have good cause to remember it, my lord."

"I have a good reason to remember it, my lord."

"What was that cause?—No answer?—You don't choose to say what that cause was?"

"What was that reason?—No answer?—You don't want to say what that reason was?"

"I am not at liberty to tell."

"I can't share that."

The Sheriff then descended to other particulars, all of which tended to prove that the fellow was an accomplished villain, and that the principal share of the atrocities had been committed by him. Indeed the Sheriff hinted that he suspected the only share Mrs. Calvert had in them was in being too much in his company, and too true to him. The case was remitted to the Court of Justiciary; but Mrs. Logan had heard enough to convince her that the culprits first met at the very spot, and the very hour, on which George Colwan was slain; and she had no doubt that they were incendiaries set on by his mother, to forward her own and her darling son's way to opulence. Mrs. Logan was wrong, as will appear in the sequel; but her antipathy to Mrs. Colwan made her watch the event with all care. She never quitted Peebles as long as Bell Calvert remained there, and, when she was removed to Edinburgh, the other followed. When the trial came on, Mrs. Logan and her maid were again summoned as witnesses before the jury, and compelled by the prosecutor for the Crown to appear.

The Sheriff then moved on to other details, all of which showed that the guy was a skilled criminal and that he was primarily responsible for the crimes. In fact, the Sheriff suggested that he thought the only role Mrs. Calvert played in them was being too much in his presence and too loyal to him. The case was sent to the Court of Justiciary; however, Mrs. Logan had heard enough to be convinced that the suspects first met at the exact spot and at the exact time when George Colwan was killed; and she believed without a doubt that they were arsonists hired by his mother to further her and her beloved son’s path to wealth. Mrs. Logan was mistaken, as will be revealed later; but her dislike for Mrs. Colwan made her monitor the situation very closely. She never left Peebles as long as Bell Calvert was there, and when she moved to Edinburgh, the other followed her. When the trial began, Mrs. Logan and her maid were once again called as witnesses before the jury and were required by the prosecutor for the Crown to appear.

The maid was first called; and, when she came into the witness box, the anxious and hopeless looks of the prisoner were manifest to all. But the girl, whose name, she said, was Bessy Gillies, answered in so flippant and fearless a way that the auditors were much amused. After a number of routine questions, the depute-advocate asked her if she was at home on the morning of the fifth of September last, when her mistress's house was robbed.

The maid was called in first, and when she stepped into the witness stand, everyone could see the anxious and hopeless expression on the prisoner’s face. However, the girl, who said her name was Bessy Gillies, responded in such a cheeky and confident manner that it entertained the audience. After a series of standard questions, the prosecuting attorney asked her if she was at home on the morning of September 5th last year when her mistress’s house was robbed.

"Was I at hame, say ye? Na, faith-ye, lad! An' I had been at hame, there had been mair to dee. I wad hae raised sic a yelloch!"

"Was I at home, you say? No, honestly, kid! If I had been at home, there would have been more to do. I would have raised such a ruckus!"

"Where were you that morning?"

"Where were you that morning?"

"Where was I, say you? I was in the house where my mistress was, sitting dozing an' half sleeping in the kitchen. I thought aye she would be setting out every minute, for twa hours."

"Where was I, you ask? I was in the house where my lady was, dozing and half asleep in the kitchen. I thought she would be leaving any minute for the past two hours."

"And, when you went home, what did you find?"

"And when you got home, what did you find?"

"What found we? Be my sooth, we found a broken lock, an' toom kists."

"What did we find? Honestly, we found a broken lock and empty chests."

"Relate some of the particulars, if you please."

"Please share some of the details."

"Sir, the thieves didna stand upon particulars: they were halesale dealers in a' our best wares."

"Sir, the thieves didn’t bother with the details: they took everything from our best goods."

"I mean, what passed between your mistress and you on the occasion?"

"I mean, what happened between you and your mistress on that occasion?"

"What passed, say ye? O, there wasna muckle: I was in a great passion, but she was dung doitrified a wee. When she gaed to put the key i' the door, up it flew to the fer wa'. 'Bless ye, jaud, what's the meaning o' this?' quo she. 'Ye hae left the door open, ye tawpie!' quo she. 'The ne'er o' that I did,' quo I, 'or may my shakel bane never turn another key.' When we got the candle lightit, a' the house was in a hoad-road. 'Bessy, my woman,' quo she, 'we are baith ruined and undone creatures.' 'The deil a bit,' quo I; 'that I deny positively.' H'mh! to speak o' a lass o' my age being ruined and undone! I never had muckle except what was within a good jerkin, an' let the thief ruin me there wha can."

"What happened, you ask? Oh, it wasn't much: I was really upset, but she was a bit dazed. When she went to put the key in the door, it flew up to the far wall. 'Bless you, girl, what's going on?' she said. 'You left the door open, you fool!' she said. 'I certainly did not,' I replied, 'or may my shaking hand never turn another key.' When we finally got the candle lit, the whole house was a mess. 'Bessy, my dear,' she said, 'we're both ruined and done for.' 'Not at all,' I said; 'I refuse to accept that.' Hmph! to think of a girl my age being ruined and done for! I never had much other than what I kept in a good coat, and let the thief try to ruin me there."

"Do you remember aught else that your mistress said on the occasion? Did you hear her blame any person?"

"Do you remember anything else your mistress said at the time? Did you hear her blame anyone?"

"O, she made a gread deal o' grumphing an' groaning about the misfortune, as she ca'd it, an' I think she said it was a part o' the ruin, wrought by the Ringans, or some sic name. 'They'll hae't a'! They'll hae't a'!' cried she, wringing her hands; 'a'! they'll hae' a', an' hell wi't, an' they'll get them baith.' 'Aweel, that's aye some satisfaction,' quo I."

"O, she did a lot of complaining and moaning about the misfortune, as she called it, and I think she said it was part of the destruction caused by the Ringans, or some name like that. 'They'll have it all! They'll have it all!' she shouted, wringing her hands; 'all! they'll have it, and hell with it, and they'll get both of them.' 'Well, that's some satisfaction,' I said."

"Whom did she mean by the Ringans, do you know?"

"Do you know who she was referring to when she mentioned the Ringans?"

"I fancy they are some creatures that she has dreamed about, for I think there canna be as ill folks living as she ca's them."

"I think they are some creatures she has imagined because I don't believe there are people as bad as she says they are."

"Did you never hear say that the prisoner at the bar there, Mrs. Calvert, or Bell Calvert, was the robber of her house; or that she was one of the Ringans?"

"Did you ever hear that the prisoner at the bar there, Mrs. Calvert, or Bell Calvert, was the robber of her own house; or that she was one of the Ringans?"

"Never. Somebody tauld her lately that ane Bell Calvert robbed her house, but she disna believe it. Neither do I."

"Never. Someone told her recently that a guy named Bell Calvert robbed her house, but she doesn't believe it. Neither do I."

"What reasons have you for doubting it?"

"What reasons do you have for doubting it?"

"Because it was nae woman's fingers that broke up the bolts an' the locks that were torn open that night."

"Because it wasn't a woman's fingers that broke the bolts and locks that were torn open that night."

"Very pertinent, Bessy. Come then within the bar, and look, at these articles on the table. Did you ever see these silver spoons before?"

"Very relevant, Bessy. Come inside the bar and take a look at these items on the table. Have you ever seen these silver spoons before?"

"I hae seen some very like them, and whaever has seen siller spoons has done the same."

"I have seen some very much like them, and whoever has seen silver spoons has done the same."

"Can you swear you never saw them before?"

"Can you promise you’ve never seen them before?"

"Na, na, I wadna swear to ony siller spoons that ever war made, unless I had put a private mark on them wi' my ain hand, an' that's what I never did to ane."

"Well, I wouldn't swear to any silver spoons that have ever been made, unless I had marked them myself, and that's something I've never done to any."

"See, they are all marked with a C."

"Look, they're all labeled with a C."

"Sae are a' the spoons in Argyle, an' the half o' them in Edinburgh I think. A C is a very common letter, an' so are a' the names that begin wi't. Lay them by, lay them by, an' gie the poor woman her spoons again. They are marked wi' her ain name, an' I hae little doubt they are hers, an' that she has seen better days."

"Sae are all the spoons in Argyle, and half of them in Edinburgh, I think. A C is a very common letter, and so are all the names that start with it. Put them away, put them away, and give the poor woman her spoons back. They're marked with her own name, and I have no doubt they belong to her, and that she has seen better days."

"Ah, God bless her heart!" sighed the prisoner; and that blessing was echoed in the breathings of many a feeling breast.

"Ah, God bless her heart!" sighed the prisoner; and that blessing was echoed in the breaths of many a compassionate soul.

"Did you ever see this gown before, think you?"

"Have you ever seen this gown before, do you think?"

"I hae seen ane very like it."

"I have seen one very similar to it."

"Could you not swear that gown was your mistress's once?"

"Could you not swear that dress used to belong to your girlfriend?"

"No, unless I saw her hae't on, an' kend that she had paid for't. I am very scrupulous about an oath. Like is an ill mark. Sae ill indeed that I wad hardly swear to anything."

"No, unless I saw her wearing it and knew that she had paid for it. I'm very careful about taking an oath. Like is a bad sign. So bad, in fact, that I would hardly swear to anything."

"But you say that gown is very like one your mistress used to wear."

"But you say that dress is very similar to one your lady used to wear."

"I never said sic a thing. It is like one I hae seen her hae out airing on the hay raip i' the back green. It is very like ane I hae seen Mrs. Butler in the Grass Market wearing too: I rather think it is the same. Bless you, sir, I wadna swear to my ain forefinger, if it had been as lang out o' my sight an', brought in an' laid on that table."

"I never said such a thing. It's just like one I’ve seen her have out hanging on the hayline in the backyard. It looks a lot like one I saw Mrs. Butler wearing in the Grass Market too; I actually think it’s the same. Bless you, sir, I wouldn’t swear to my own forefinger if it had been out of my sight for as long and then brought in and laid on that table."

"Perhaps you are not aware, girl, that this scrupulousness of yours is likely to thwart the purposes of justice, and bereave your mistress of property to the amount of a thousand merks." (From the Judge.)

"Maybe you don’t realize, girl, that your carefulness could actually get in the way of justice and rob your mistress of property worth a thousand merks." (From the Judge.)

"I canna help that, my lord: that's her look-out. For my part, I am resolved to keep a clear conscience, till I be married, at any rate."

"I can’t help that, my lord: that’s her problem. As for me, I’m determined to keep a clear conscience until I’m married, at least."

"Look over these things and see if there is any one article among them which you can fix on as the property of your mistress."

"Check these things and see if there’s anything among them that you can identify as belonging to your mistress."

"No ane o' them, sir, no ane o' them. An oath is an awfu' thing, especially when it is for life or death. Gie the poor woman her things again, an' let my mistress pick up the next she finds: that's my advice."

"No one of them, sir, no one of them. An oath is a terrible thing, especially when it’s about life or death. Give the poor woman her things back, and let my mistress pick up the next one she finds: that’s my advice."

When Mrs. Logan came into the box, the prisoner groaned and laid down her head. But how she was astonished when she heard her deliver herself something to the following purport—That, whatever penalties she was doomed to abide, she was determined she would not bear witness against a woman's life, from a certain conviction that it could not be a woman who broke her house. "I have no doubt that I may find some of my own things there," added she, "but, if they were found in her possession, she has been made a tool, or the dupe, of an infernal set, who shall be nameless here. I believe she did not rob me, and for that reason I will have no hand in her condemnation."

When Mrs. Logan walked into the box, the prisoner groaned and laid her head down. But she was shocked when she heard her say something like this—That, no matter what punishments she faced, she was determined not to testify against a woman's life, convinced that it couldn’t have been a woman who broke into her home. "I have no doubt I might find some of my belongings there," she added, "but if they’re found in her possession, she has been used or tricked by a malicious group, who shall remain nameless. I believe she didn't rob me, and for that reason, I won't participate in her condemnation."

The judge: "This is the most singular perversion I have ever witnessed. Mrs. Logan, I entertain strong suspicions that the prisoner, or her agents, have made some agreement with you on this matter to prevent the course of justice."

The judge: "This is the most unusual corruption I've ever seen. Mrs. Logan, I strongly suspect that the prisoner or her representatives have made some deal with you regarding this matter to obstruct justice."

"So far from that, my lord, I went into the jail at Peebles to this woman, whom I had never seen before, and proffered to withdraw my part in the prosecution, as well as my evidence, provided she would tell me a few simple facts; but she spurned at my offer, and had me turned insolently out of the prison, with orders to the jailor never to admit me again on any pretence."

"So, my lord, I went to the jail in Peebles to see this woman, who I had never met before, and I offered to drop my part in the prosecution, along with my testimony, if she would just share a few simple facts with me. But she rejected my offer and had me rudely thrown out of the prison, instructing the jailer never to let me back in for any reason."

The prisoner's counsel, taking hold of this evidence, addressed the jury with great fluency; and, finally, the prosecution was withdrawn, and the prisoner dismissed from the bar, with a severe reprimand for her past conduct, and an exhortation to keep better company.

The prisoner's lawyer, seizing this evidence, spoke to the jury with great eloquence; ultimately, the prosecution was dropped, and the prisoner was released from the stand, receiving a stern warning about her previous behavior and a suggestion to choose better friends.

It was not many days till a caddy came with a large parcel to Mrs. Logan's house, which parcel he delivered into her hands, accompanied with a sealed note, containing an inventory of the articles, and a request to know if the unfortunate Arabella Calvert would be admitted to converse with Mrs. Logan.

It wasn’t long before a caddy arrived at Mrs. Logan’s house with a large package, which he handed directly to her, along with a sealed note that listed the items and asked if the unfortunate Arabella Calvert could come in to speak with Mrs. Logan.

Never was there a woman so much overjoyed as Mrs. Logan was at this message. She returned compliments. Would be most happy to see her; and no article of the parcel should be looked at, or touched, till her arrival. It was not long till she made her appearance, dressed in somewhat better style than she had yet seen her; delivered her over the greater part of the stolen property, besides many things that either never had belonged to Mrs. Logan or that she thought proper to deny in order that the other might retain them.

Never was there a woman as happy as Mrs. Logan was at this message. She sent her compliments and said she would be thrilled to see her. No part of the package should be looked at or touched until she arrived. It wasn't long before she showed up, dressed in a style that was a bit nicer than what Mrs. Logan had seen before. She handed over most of the stolen items, along with many things that either didn’t belong to Mrs. Logan or that she thought it best to deny so the other woman could keep them.

The tale that she told of her misfortunes was of the most distressing nature, and was enough to stir up all the tender, as well as abhorrent feelings in the bosom of humanity. She had suffered every deprivation in fame, fortune, and person. She had been imprisoned; she had been scourged, and branded as an impostor; and all on account of her resolute and unmoving fidelity and truth to several of the very worst of men, every one of whom had abandoned her to utter destitution and shame. But this story we cannot enter on at present, as it would perhaps mar the thread of our story, as much as it did the anxious anticipations of Mrs. Logan, who sat pining and longing for the relation that follows.

The story she shared about her misfortunes was deeply distressing and stirred up all kinds of emotional reactions in people. She had experienced every loss imaginable in terms of fame, fortune, and personal well-being. She had been imprisoned, whipped, and labeled a fraud, all because of her unwavering loyalty and honesty towards some of the most terrible men, each of whom had left her in complete poverty and disgrace. However, we can't go into that right now, as it might disrupt the flow of our narrative, just as it did for Mrs. Logan, who sat there anxiously hoping to hear the continuation of the story that follows.

"Now I know, Mrs. Logan, that you are expecting a detail of the circumstances relating to the death of Mr. George Colwan; and, in gratitude for your unbounded generosity and disinterestedness, I will tell you all that I know, although, for causes that will appear obvious to you, I had determined never in life to divulge one circumstance of it. I can tell you, however, that you will be disappointed, for it was not the gentleman who was accused, found guilty, and would have suffered the utmost penalty of the law had he not made his escape. It was not he, I say, who slew your young master, nor had he any hand in it."

"Now I know, Mrs. Logan, that you’re expecting details about what happened with Mr. George Colwan’s death; and out of gratitude for your incredible generosity and selflessness, I’ll share everything I know, even though, for reasons that will be clear to you, I had decided never to reveal any part of it. I can tell you, though, that you might be let down, because it wasn’t the man who was accused, found guilty, and would have faced the maximum penalty of the law if he hadn’t escaped. It wasn’t him, I assure you, who killed your young master, nor did he have anything to do with it."

"I never thought he had. But, pray, how do you come to know this?"

"I never thought he did. But seriously, how do you know this?"

"You shall hear. I had been abandoned in York by an artful and consummate fiend; and found guilty of being art and part concerned in the most heinous atrocities, and, in his place, suffered what I yet shudder to think of I was banished the county, begged my way with my poor outcast child up to Edinburgh, and was there obliged, for the second time in my life, to betake myself to the most degrading of all means to support two wretched lives. I hired a dress, and betook me, shivering, to the High Street, too well aware that my form and appearance would soon draw me suitors enow at that throng and intemperate time of the Parliament. On my very first stepping out to the street, a party of young gentlemen was passing. I heard by the noise they made, and the tenor of their speech, that they were more then mellow, and so I resolved to keep near them, in order, if possible, to make some of them my prey. But, just as one of them began to eye me, I was rudely thrust into a narrow close by one of the guardsmen. I had heard to what house the party was bound, for the men were talking exceedingly loud, and making no secret of it: so I hasted down the close, and round below to the one where their rendezvous was to be; but I was too late, they were all housed and the door bolted. I resolved to wait, thinking they could not all stay long; but I was perishing with famine, and was like to fall down. The moon shone as bright as day, and I perceived, by a sign at the bottom of the close, that there was a small tavern of a certain description up two stairs there. I went up and called, telling the mistress of the house my plan. She approved of it mainly, and offered me her best apartment, provided I could get one of these noble mates to accompany me. She abused Lucky Sudds, as she called her, at the inn where the party was, envying her huge profits, no doubt, and giving me afterwards something to drink for which I really felt exceedingly grateful in my need. I stepped downstairs in order to be on the alert. The moment that I reached the ground, the door of Lucky Sudds' house opened and shut, and down came the Honourable Thomas Drummond, with hasty and impassioned strides, his sword rattling at his heel. I accosted him in a soft and soothing tone. He was taken with my address; for he instantly stood still and gazed intently at me, then at the place, and then at me again. I beckoned him to follow me, which he did without further ceremony, and we soon found ourselves together in the best room of a house where everything was wretched. He still looked about him, and at me; but all this while he had never spoken a word. At length, I asked if he would take any refreshment? 'If you please,' said he. I asked what he would have, but he only answered, 'Whatever you choose, madam.' If he was taken with my address, I was much more taken with his; for he was a complete gentleman, and a gentleman will ever act as one. At length, he began as follows:

"You’ll hear this. I had been abandoned in York by a cunning and ruthless fiend; found guilty of being involved in the most terrible crimes, and in his place, I endured what still makes me shudder to think about. I was exiled from the county, and with my poor outcast child, I begged my way to Edinburgh, where I was forced, for the second time in my life, to resort to the most demeaning means to support two miserable lives. I rented a dress and, trembling, made my way to the High Street, fully aware that my appearance would soon attract attention among the crowd during the busy Parliament time. As soon as I stepped into the street, a group of young gentlemen passed by. I could tell by their noise and what they were saying that they were more than a little drunk, so I decided to hang around them in hopes of making some of them my targets. But just as one of them started to look at me, I was roughly shoved into a narrow alley by one of the guardsmen. I had heard where the group was headed since they were speaking very loudly and didn’t try to hide it: so I hurried down the alley and around to the one where they were supposed to meet; but I was too late—they were all inside and the door was locked. I decided to wait, thinking they wouldn’t stay long; but I was starving and about to collapse. The moon shone as bright as day, and I noticed a sign at the end of the alley that indicated there was a small tavern just up two flights of stairs. I went up and called out, explaining my plan to the landlady. She mostly approved of it and offered me her best room, as long as I could get one of those noble gentlemen to come with me. She talked poorly of Lucky Sudds, as she called her, at the inn where the group was, likely envying her big profits, and then later gave me something to drink for which I was genuinely grateful in my time of need. I stepped downstairs to stay alert. As soon as I reached the ground, the door of Lucky Sudds' house opened and shut, and down came the Honourable Thomas Drummond, striding quickly and passionately, his sword clanking at his side. I approached him in a soft and soothing tone. He was taken by my manner; he immediately stopped and stared intently at me, then at the place, and then back at me. I gestured for him to follow me, which he did without further ado, and we soon found ourselves together in the best room of a place that was otherwise miserable. He continued to look around and at me; but during all this time, he hadn’t spoken a word. Finally, I asked if he would like something to eat or drink? 'If you please,' he said. I asked what he would like, but he only replied, 'Whatever you choose, madam.' If he was impressed by my demeanor, I was even more impressed by his; for he was a complete gentleman, and a gentleman will always act like one. Eventually, he began with the following:"

"'I am utterly at a loss to account for this adventure, madam. It seems to me like enchantment, and I can hardly believe my senses. An English lady, I judge, and one, who from her manner and address should belong to the first class of society, in such a place as this, is indeed matter of wonder to me. At the foot of a close in Edinburgh! and at this time of the night! Surely it must have been no common reverse of fortune that reduced you to this?' I wept, or pretended to do so; on which he added, 'Pray, madam, take heart. Tell me what has befallen you; and if I can do anything for you, in restoring you to your country or your friends, you shall command my interest.'

"'I’m completely baffled by this situation, ma’am. It feels like magic, and I can barely trust my own eyes. An English lady, I assume, someone who, by her demeanor and way of speaking, should be from the highest social class, in a place like this is truly surprising to me. At the end of a narrow street in Edinburgh! And at this hour! It must have been some extraordinary misfortune that brought you here, right?' I cried, or pretended to cry; at which point he added, 'Please, ma’am, don’t lose hope. Tell me what has happened to you, and if there's anything I can do to help you return to your home or your friends, I would be happy to assist.'

"I had great need of a friend then, and I thought now was the time to secure one. So I began and told him the moving tale I have told you. But I soon perceived that I had kept by the naked truth too unvarnishedly, and thereby quite overshot my mark. When he learned that he was sitting in a wretched corner of an irregular house, with a felon, who had so lately been scourged and banished as a swindler and impostor, his modest nature took the alarm, and he was shocked, instead of being moved with pity. His eye fixed on some of the casual stripes on my arm, and from that moment he became restless and impatient to be gone. I tried some gentle arts to retain him, but in vain; so, after paying both the landlady and me for pleasures he had neither tasted nor asked, he took his leave.

"I really needed a friend at that moment, and I thought it was the right time to make one. So, I started sharing the heartfelt story I've shared with you. But I quickly realized that I had been too blunt with the bare truth, and I completely missed the mark. When he found out he was sitting in a shabby corner of an odd house with a criminal who had just been punished and exiled as a fraud and con artist, his gentle nature got alarmed, and he was shocked instead of feeling sympathy. His gaze landed on some of the random scars on my arm, and from that point on, he became restless and eager to leave. I tried some kind tactics to keep him there, but it was no use; after paying both the landlady and me for services he hadn't experienced or asked for, he said goodbye."

"I showed him downstairs; and, just as he turned the corner of the next land, a man came rushing violently by him; exchanged looks with him, and came running up to me. He appeared in great agitation, and was quite out of breath; and, taking my hand in his, we ran upstairs together without speaking, and were instantly in the apartment I had left, where a stoup of wine still stood untasted. 'Ah, this is fortunate!' said my new spark, and helped himself. In the meanwhile, as our apartment was a corner one, and looked both east and north, I ran to the eastern casement to look after Drummond. Now, note me well: I saw him going eastward in his tartans and bonnet, and the gilded hilt of his claymore glittering in the moon; and, at the very same time, I saw two men, the one in black, and the other likewise in tartans, coming towards the steps from the opposite bank, by the foot of the loch; and I saw Drummond and they eyeing each other as they passed. I kept view of him till he vanished towards Leith Wynd, and by that time the two strangers had come close up under our window. This is what I wish you to pay particular attention to. I had only lost sight of Drummond (who had given me his name and address) for the short space of time that we took in running up one pair of short stairs; and during that space he had halted a moment, for, when I got my eye on him again, he had not crossed the mouth of the next entry, nor proceeded above ten or twelve paces, and, at the same time, I saw the two men coming down the bank on the opposite side of the loch, at about three hundred paces' distance. Both he and they were distinctly in my view, and never within speech of each other, until he vanished into one of the wynds leading towards the bottom of the High Street, at which precise time the two strangers came below my window; so that it was quite clear he neither could be one of them nor have any communication with them.

I showed him downstairs, and just as he turned the corner of the next street, a man rushed past him, made eye contact, and ran up to me. He seemed very agitated and was out of breath; grabbing my hand, we dashed upstairs together without saying a word, and immediately entered the room I had just left, where a jug of wine still sat untouched. "Ah, this is lucky!" my new companion said as he poured himself a glass. Meanwhile, since our room was a corner one with views to the east and north, I rushed to the eastern window to check on Drummond. Now pay close attention: I saw him heading east in his tartan and bonnet, with the shiny hilt of his sword glinting in the moonlight; at the same time, I spotted two men, one in black and the other also in tartan, approaching the steps from the opposite shore at the foot of the lake. I watched Drummond and the two men eyeing each other as they passed. I kept my eyes on him until he disappeared toward Leith Wynd, and by then the two strangers had arrived right below our window. Here's what I want you to particularly note: I had only lost sight of Drummond—who had given me his name and address—for the brief time it took us to run up one flight of stairs; and during that moment, he had paused, because when I caught sight of him again, he hadn't crossed the entrance to the next street and had only moved about ten or twelve steps, while I saw the two men coming down the bank on the opposite side of the lake, approximately three hundred paces away. Both he and they were clearly in my view and never within earshot of each other until he disappeared into one of the side streets leading toward the bottom of the High Street, at which exact moment the two strangers came under my window, making it clear that he couldn't be one of them or have any connection with them.

"Yet, mark me again; for, of all things I have ever seen, this was the most singular. When I looked down at the two strangers, one of them was extremely like Drummond. So like was he that there was not one item in dress, form, feature, nor voice, by which I could distinguish the one from the other. I was certain it was not he, because I had seen the one going and the other approaching at the same time, and my impression at the moment was that I looked upon some spirit, or demon, in his likeness. I felt a chillness creep all round my heart, my knees tottered, and, withdrawing my head from the open casement that lay in the dark shade, I said to the man who was with me, 'Good God, what is this?'

"Yet, listen to me again; of all the things I've ever seen, this was the strangest. When I looked down at the two strangers, one of them looked just like Drummond. He resembled him so closely that there wasn't a single detail in his clothing, build, features, or voice that I could use to tell them apart. I was sure it wasn't him because I had seen one leaving and the other arriving at the same time, and in that moment, I felt like I was looking at some spirit or demon that looked just like him. A chill crept around my heart, my knees buckled, and pulling my head back from the open window that was in the dark shade, I said to the man with me, 'Good God, what is this?'"

"'What is it, my dear?' said he, as much alarmed as I was.

"'What's wrong, my dear?' he asked, just as worried as I was."

"'As I live, there stands an apparition!' said I.

"'As I live, there's a ghost!' I said."

"He was not so much afraid when he heard me say so, and, peeping cautiously out, he looked and listened awhile, and then, drawing back, he said in a whisper, 'They are both living men, and one of them is he I passed at the corner.'

"He wasn't really scared when he heard me say that, and, peeking out carefully, he looked and listened for a bit, and then, pulling back, he said in a whisper, 'They are both alive, and one of them is the guy I saw at the corner.'"

"'That he is not,' said I, emphatically. 'To that I will make oath.'

"'He is not,' I said firmly. 'I swear to that.'"

"He smiled and shook his head, and then added, 'I never then saw a man before, whom I could not know again, particularly if he was the very last I had seen. But what matters it whether it be or not? As it is no concern of ours, let us sit down and enjoy ourselves.'

"He smiled and shook his head, then added, 'I've never met a man before that I couldn't recognize again, especially if he was the last one I saw. But what does it matter if I do or don’t? Since it’s not our problem, let’s sit down and enjoy ourselves.'"

'But it does matter a very great deal with me, sir,' said I. 'Bless me, my head is giddy—my breath quite gone, and I feel as if I were surrounded with fiends. Who are you, sir?'

'But it really matters a lot to me, sir,' I said. 'Wow, my head is spinning—I'm out of breath, and I feel like I’m surrounded by devils. Who are you, sir?'

'You shall know that ere we two part, my love,' said he. 'I cannot conceive why the return of this young gentleman to the spot he so lately left should discompose you. I suppose he got a glance of you as he passed, and has returned to look after you, and that is the whole secret of the matter.'

'You should know that before we part, my love,' he said. 'I can’t understand why the return of this young man to the place he just left should upset you. I assume he caught a glimpse of you as he passed by and has come back to check on you, and that’s all there is to it.'

"'If you will be so civil as to walk out and join him then, it will oblige me hugely,' said I, 'for I never in my life experienced such boding apprehensions of evil company. I cannot conceive how you should come up here without asking my permission. Will it please you to be gone, sir?' I was within an ace of prevailing. He took out his purse—I need not say more—I was bribed to let him remain. Ah, had I kept my frail resolution of dismissing him at that moment, what a world of shame and misery had been evited! But that, though uppermost still in my mind, has nothing ado here.

"'If you could kindly go out and join him, I would really appreciate it,' I said, 'because I’ve never felt such a strong sense of dread about someone's company. I can't understand how you managed to come up here without asking for my permission. Would you mind leaving, sir?' I was really close to getting my way. He pulled out his wallet—I don’t need to say more—I was bribed to let him stay. Ah, if only I had stuck to my weak decision to send him away at that moment, what a world of shame and suffering could have been avoided! But that thought, although still at the forefront of my mind, isn’t relevant here."

"When I peeped over again, the two men were disputing in a whisper, the one of them in violent agitation and terror, and the other upbraiding him, and urging him on to some desperate act. At length I heard the young man in the Highland garb say indignantly, 'Hush, recreant! It is God's work which you are commissioned to execute, and it must be done. But, if you positively decline it, I will do it myself, and do you beware of the consequences.'

"When I looked over again, the two men were arguing quietly, one of them visibly shaken and scared, while the other was scolding him and pushing him toward some reckless action. Finally, I heard the young man in the Highland outfit say angrily, 'Shh, coward! You have a task from God that you must carry out, and it has to be done. But if you refuse it outright, I will handle it myself, and you better watch out for the consequences.'"

"'Oh, I will, I will!' cried the other in black clothes, in a wretched beseeching tone. 'You shall instruct me in this, as in all things else.'

"'Oh, I will, I will!' cried the other in black clothes, in a miserable pleading tone. 'You will teach me this, just like you’ve taught me everything else.'"

"I thought all this while I was closely concealed from them, and wondered not a little when he in tartans gave me a sly nod, as much as to say, 'What do you think of this?' or, 'Take note of what you see,' or something to that effect; from which I perceived that, whatever he was about, he did not wish it to be kept a secret. For all that, I was impressed with a terror and anxiety that I could not overcome, but it only made me mark every event with the more intense curiosity. The Highlander, whom I still could not help regarding as the evil genius of Thomas Drummond, performed every action as with the quickness of thought. He concealed the youth in black in a narrow entry, a little to the westward of my windows, and, as he was leading him across the moonlight green by the shoulder, I perceived, for the first time, that both of them were armed with rapiers. He pushed him without resistance into the dark shaded close, made another signal to me, and hasted up the close to Lucky Sudds' door. The city and the morning were so still that I heard every word that was uttered, on putting my head out a little. He knocked at the door sharply, and, after waiting a considerable space, the bolt was drawn, and the door, as I conceived, edged up as far as the massy chain would let it. 'Is young Dalcastle still in the house?' said he sharply.

"I thought all this while I was hidden from them, and I was quite surprised when the guy in tartans gave me a subtle nod, as if to say, 'What do you think of this?' or 'Pay attention to what you're seeing,' or something like that; from which I realized that whatever he was doing, he didn't want it to be kept a secret. Still, I was filled with a fear and anxiety that I couldn't shake off, but it only made me observe everything with more intense curiosity. The Highlander, whom I still couldn't help but see as the bad omen for Thomas Drummond, moved with the quickness of thought. He hid the young man in black in a narrow alley just west of my windows, and as he led him across the moonlit green by the shoulder, I noticed for the first time that both of them were carrying swords. He pushed him without resistance into the dark, shaded area, signaled to me again, and hurried up the alley to Lucky Sudds' door. The city and the morning were so quiet that I could hear every word spoken when I leaned my head out a little. He knocked sharply on the door, and after waiting quite a while, the bolt was drawn, and the door opened as far as the heavy chain would allow. 'Is young Dalcastle still in the house?' he asked sharply."

"I did not hear the answer, but I heard him say, shortly after, 'If he is, pray tell him to speak with me for a few minutes.' He then withdrew from the door, and came slowly down the close, in a lingering manner, looking oft behind him. Dalcastle came out; advanced a few steps after him, and then stood still, as if hesitating whether or not he should call out a friend to accompany him; and that instant the door behind him was closed, chained, and the iron bolt drawn; on hearing of which, he followed his adversary without further hesitation. As he passed below my window, I heard him say, 'I beseech you, Tom, let us do nothing in this matter rashly'; but I could not hear the answer of the other, who had turned the corner.

"I didn't hear the answer, but I heard him say shortly after, 'If he is, please tell him to talk to me for a few minutes.' He then stepped back from the door and walked slowly down the close, glancing back often. Dalcastle came out, took a few steps after him, and then stopped, as if unsure whether to call out to a friend to join him; just then, the door behind him was closed, locked, and bolted. After hearing that, he followed his adversary without any more hesitation. As he passed below my window, I heard him say, 'I beg you, Tom, let’s not rush into this'; but I couldn't hear the other guy's response, as he had turned the corner."

"I roused up my drowsy companion, who was leaning on the bed, and we both looked together from the north window. We were in the shade, but the moon shone full on the two young gentlemen. Young Dalcastle was visibly the worse of liquor, and, his back being turned towards us, he said something to the other which I could not make out, although he spoke a considerable time, and, from his tones and gestures, appeared to be reasoning.

"I woke up my sleepy friend, who was leaning on the bed, and we both looked out of the north window. We were in the shade, but the moon was shining brightly on the two young men. Young Dalcastle looked noticeably drunk, and with his back to us, he said something to the other guy that I couldn't understand, even though he talked for a while, and from his tone and gestures, he seemed to be arguing."

"When he had done, the tall young man in the tartans drew his sword, and, his face being straight to us, we heard him say distinctly, 'No more words about it, George, if you please; but if you be a man, as I take you to be, draw your sword, and let us settle it here.'

"When he finished, the tall young man in the tartan drew his sword, and with his face turned towards us, we heard him clearly say, 'No more talk about it, George, if you don’t mind; but if you’re a man, as I believe you are, draw your sword and let’s settle this here.'"

"Dalcastle drew his sword, without changing his attitude; but he spoke with more warmth, for we heard his words, 'Think you that I fear you, Tom? Be assured, Sir, I would not fear ten of the best of your name, at each other's backs: all that I want is to have friends with us to see fair play, for, if you close with me, you are a dead man.'

"Dalcastle drew his sword without changing his stance, but he spoke with more intensity, saying, 'Do you think I fear you, Tom? Just so you know, I wouldn’t be afraid of ten of the best from your side working together. All I want is to have some friends here to ensure fair play because if you come at me, you’re a dead man.'"

"The other stormed at these words. 'You are a braggart, Sir,' cried he, 'a wretch—a blot on the cheek of nature—a blight on the Christian world—a reprobate—I'll have your soul, Sir. You must play at tennis, and put down elect brethren in another world to-morrow.' As he said this, he brandished his rapier, exciting Dalcastle to offence. He gained his point. The latter, who had previously drawn, advanced upon his vapouring and licentious antagonist, and a fierce combat ensued. My companion was delighted beyond measure, and I could not keep him from exclaiming, loud enough to have been heard, 'That's grand! That's excellent!' For me, my heart quaked like an aspen. Young Dalcastle either had a decided advantage over his adversary, or else the other thought proper to let him have it; for he shifted, and swore, and flitted from Dalcastle's thrusts like a shadow, uttering ofttimes a sarcastic laugh, that seemed to provoke the other beyond all bearing. At one time, he would spring away to a great distance, then advance again on young Dalcastle with the swiftness of lightning. But that young hero always stood his ground, and repelled the attack: he never gave way, although they fought nearly twice round the bleaching green, which you know is not a very small one. At length they fought close up to the mouth of the dark entry, where the fellow in black stood all this while concealed, and then the combatant in tartans closed with his antagonist, or pretended to do so; but, the moment they began to grapple, he wheeled about, turning Colwan's back towards the entry, and then cried out, 'Ah, hell has it! My friend, my friend!'

"The other yelled at these words. 'You're a braggart, Sir,' he shouted, 'a wretch—a stain on the face of nature—a blight on the Christian world—a reprobate—I’ll take your soul, Sir. You must play tennis, and put down elect brethren in another world tomorrow.' As he said this, he waved his rapier, provoking Dalcastle into action. He got what he wanted. Dalcastle, who had already drawn his sword, charged at his boastful and immoral opponent, and a fierce fight broke out. My companion was thrilled beyond measure, and I couldn't stop him from shouting loud enough to be heard, 'That's awesome! That's excellent!' As for me, my heart raced like a leaf in the wind. Young Dalcastle either had a clear advantage over his opponent, or the other decided to let him have it; he shifted around, swore, and darted away from Dalcastle's strikes like a shadow, often letting out a sarcastic laugh that seemed to provoke Dalcastle even more. At one moment, he would leap back to a great distance, then charge at young Dalcastle with lightning speed. But that young hero always held his ground and countered the attack: he never backed down, even though they fought nearly twice around the bleaching green, which you know is quite large. Eventually, they ended up right at the dark entry's mouth, where the guy in black had been hiding all this time, and then the fighter in tartans engaged his opponent, or pretended to; but just as they began to grapple, he spun around, turning Colwan's back towards the entry, and yelled, 'Ah, hell has it! My friend, my friend!'”

"That moment the fellow in black rushed from his cover with his drawn rapier, and gave the brave young Dalcastle two deadly wounds in the back, as quick as arm could thrust, both of which I thought pierced through his body. He fell, and, rolling himself on his back, he perceived who it was that had slain him thus foully, and said, with a dying emphasis, which I never heard equalled, 'oh, dog of hell, it is you who has done this!'

"At that moment, the guy in black rushed out from his hiding spot with his drawn rapier and dealt the brave young Dalcastle two fatal blows to the back, as quick as an arm could thrust, both of which I thought went all the way through his body. He fell, and, rolling onto his back, he saw who had killed him in such a foul way and said, with a dying intensity I’ve never heard matched, 'oh, dog of hell, it’s you who did this!'"

"He articulated some more, which I could not hear for other sounds; for, the moment that the man in black inflicted the deadly wound, my companion called out, 'That's unfair, you rip! That's damnable! to strike a brave fellow behind! One at a time, you cowards!' etc., to all which the unnatural fiend in the tartans answered with a loud exulting laugh; and then, taking the poor paralysed murderer by the bow of the arm, he hurried him in the dark entry once more, where I lost sight of them for ever."

"He said some more things, but I couldn't hear because of the other noises; the moment the man in black delivered the fatal blow, my friend shouted, 'That's unfair, you jerk! That's terrible! Hitting a brave guy from behind? Face me one at a time, you cowards!' The unnatural fiend in the tartan outfit responded with a loud, triumphant laugh. Then, taking hold of the poor, paralyzed murderer by the elbow, he dragged him into the dark corridor again, where I lost sight of them forever."

Before this time Mrs. Logan had risen up; and, when the narrator had finished, she was standing with her arms stretched upwards at their full length, and her visage turned down, on which were portrayed the lines of the most absolute horror. "The dark suspicions of my late benefactor have been just, and his last prediction is fulfilled," cried she. "The murderer of the accomplished George Colwan has been his own brother, set on, there is little doubt, by her who bare them both, and her directing angel, the self-justified bigot. Aye, and yonder they sit, enjoying the luxuries so dearly purchased, with perfect impunity! If the Almighty do not hurl them down, blasted with shame and confusion, there is no hope of retribution in this life. And, by His might, I will be the agent to accomplish it! Why did the man not pursue the foul murderers? Why did he not raise the alarm, and call the watch?"

Before this, Mrs. Logan had gotten up; and, when the narrator finished, she stood with her arms stretched up to their full length, her face turned down, showing the lines of absolute horror. "The dark suspicions of my late benefactor were right, and his last prediction has come true," she cried. "The murderer of the talented George Colwan has been his own brother, likely driven by the woman who bore them both, and her guiding force, the self-righteous bigot. Yes, and there they are, enjoying the luxuries purchased at such a high cost, completely unpunished! If the Almighty doesn’t bring them down, blasted with shame and confusion, there’s no hope for justice in this life. And, by His power, I will be the one to make it happen! Why didn’t the man go after the foul murderers? Why didn’t he raise the alarm and call for help?"

"He? The wretch! He durst not move from the shelter he had obtained. No, not for the soul of him. He was pursued for his life, at the moment when he first flew into my arms. But I did not know it; no, I did not then know him. May the curse of heaven, and the blight of hell, settle on the detestable wretch! He pursue for the sake of justice! No; his efforts have all been for evil, but never for good. But I raised the alarm; miserable and degraded as I was, I pursued and raised the watch myself. Have you not heard the name of Bell Calvert coupled with that hideous and mysterious affair?"

"He? That miserable person! He didn’t dare move from the shelter he had found. Not for anything. He was running for his life the moment he first came into my arms. But I didn’t know that; no, I didn’t recognize him then. May the curse of heaven and the scorn of hell fall on that detestable wretch! He’s claiming to pursue justice! No; everything he does is for evil, never for good. But I sounded the alarm; as miserable and degraded as I was, I chased after him and brought in the watch myself. Haven’t you heard the name Bell Calvert connected with that horrible and mysterious incident?"

"Yes, I have. In secret often I have heard it. But how came it that you could never be found? How came it that you never appeared in defence of the Honourable Thomas Drummond; you, the only person who could have justified him?"

"Yes, I have. I've often heard it in secret. But how is it that you could never be found? Why did you never stand up in defense of the Honorable Thomas Drummond; you, the only one who could have cleared him?"

"I could not, for I then fell under the power and guidance of a wretch who durst not for the soul of him be brought forward in the affair. And, what was worse, his evidence would have overborne mine, for he would have sworn that the man who called out and fought Colwan was the same he met leaving my apartment, and there was an end of it. And, moreover, it is well known that this same man—this wretch of whom I speak, never mistook one man for another in his life, which makes the mystery of the likeness between this incendiary and Drummond the more extraordinary."

"I couldn’t, because I was then under the influence and control of a miserable person who wouldn’t dare come forward in the situation. What made it worse was that his testimony would have overshadowed mine, because he would have sworn that the man who shouted and fought Colwan was the same one he saw leaving my apartment, and that would have been the end of it. Furthermore, it's well known that this same person—this miserable wretch I’m talking about—has never mistaken one person for another in his life, which makes the mystery of the resemblance between this arsonist and Drummond even more baffling."

"If it was Drummond, after all that you have asserted, then are my surmises still wrong."

"If it was Drummond, after everything you've claimed, then are my guesses still off?"

"There is nothing of which I can be more certain than that it was not Drummond. We have nothing on earth but our senses to depend upon. If these deceive us, what are we to do? I own I cannot account for it; nor ever shall be able to account for it as long as I live."

"There’s nothing I’m more sure of than the fact that it wasn’t Drummond. We only have our senses to rely on. If they let us down, what are we supposed to do? I admit I can’t explain it; and I never will be able to explain it as long as I live."

"Could you know the man in black, if you saw him again?"

"Would you recognize the man in black if you saw him again?"

"I think I could, if I saw him walk or run: his gait was very particular. He walked as if he had been flat-soled, and his legs made of steel, without any joints in his feet or ankles."

"I think I could, if I saw him walk or run: his gait was very unique. He walked as if he had flat soles, and his legs were made of steel, with no joints in his feet or ankles."

"The very same! The very same! The very same! Pray will you take a few days' journey into the country with me, to look at such a man?"

"The exact same! The exact same! The exact same! Please, will you take a few days to travel to the countryside with me to meet such a man?"

"You have preserved my life, and for you I will do anything. I will accompany you with pleasure: and I think I can say that I will know him, for his form left an impression on my heart not soon to be effaced. But of this I am sure, that my unworthy companion will recognize him, and that he will be able to swear to his identity every day as long as he lives."

"You've saved my life, and I would do anything for you. I’ll happily accompany you, and I believe I can say I’ll recognize him since his appearance left a lasting impression on my heart. But I’m certain that my unworthy companion will recognize him too, and he’ll be able to confirm his identity every single day for the rest of his life."

"Where is he? Where is he? Oh! Mrs. Calvert, where is he?"

"Where is he? Where is he? Oh! Mrs. Calvert, where is he?"

"Where is he? He is the wretch whom you heard giving me up to the death; who, after experiencing every mark of affection that a poor ruined being could confer, and after committing a thousand atrocities of which she was ignorant, became an informer to save his diabolical life, and attempted to offer up mine as a sacrifice for all. We will go by ourselves first, and I will tell you if it is necessary to send any farther."

"Where is he? He’s the miserable person you heard betraying me to my death; he who, after receiving every sign of love that a broken soul could give, and after committing countless horrors that she was unaware of, turned informer to save his wicked life and tried to sacrifice mine for his own. We’ll go alone first, and I’ll let you know if we need to send anyone else."

The two dames, the very next morning, dressed themselves like country goodwives, and, hiring two stout ponies furnished with pillions, they took their journey westward, and the second evening after leaving Edinburgh they arrived at the village about two miles below Dalcastle, where they alighted. But Mrs. Logan, being anxious to have Mrs. Calvert's judgment, without either hint or preparation, took care not to mention that they were so near to the end of their journey. In conformity with this plan, she said, after they had sat a while: "Heigh-ho, but I am weary! What, suppose we should rest a day here before we proceed farther on our journey?"

The two ladies, the very next morning, dressed like country wives and hired two sturdy ponies with saddles. They began their journey westward, and by the second evening after leaving Edinburgh, they reached the village about two miles below Dalcastle, where they got off. However, Mrs. Logan, eager to get Mrs. Calvert's opinion without any hints or preparation, made sure not to mention that they were so close to the end of their journey. Sticking to this plan, she said, after they had sat for a while: "Heigh-ho, I'm tired! What if we rest here for a day before we continue our journey?"

Mrs. Calvert was leaning on the casement and looking out when her companion addressed these words to her, and by far too much engaged to return any answer, for her eyes were riveted on two young men who approached from the farther end of the village; and at length, turning round her head, she said, with the most intense interest, "Proceed farther on our journey, did you say? That we need not do; for, as I live, here comes the very man!"

Mrs. Calvert was leaning on the window and looking out when her friend said this to her, and she was way too focused to respond because her eyes were fixed on two young men who were coming from the other end of the village; finally, turning her head, she said with great interest, "Continue on our journey, you say? We don’t need to do that; because, I swear, here comes the very man!"

Mrs. Logan ran to the window, and, behold, there was indeed Robert Wringhim Colwan (now the Laird of Dalcastle) coming forward almost below their window, walking arm in arm with another young man; and, as the two passed, the latter looked up and made a sly signal to the two dames, biting his lip, winking with his left eye, and nodding his head. Mrs. Calvert was astonished at this recognizance, the young man's former companion having made exactly such another signal on the night of the duel, by the light of the moon; and it struck her, moreover, that she had somewhere seen this young man's face before. She looked after him, and he winked over his shoulder to her; but she was prevented from returning his salute by her companion, who uttered a loud cry, between a groan and shriek, and fell down on the floor with a rumble like a wall that had suddenly been undermined. She had fainted quite away, and required all her companion's attention during the remainder of the evening, for she had scarcely ever well recovered out of one fit before she fell into another, and in the short intervals she raved like one distracted or in a dream. After falling into a sound sleep by night, she recovered her equanimity, and the two began to converse seriously on what they had seen. Mrs. Calvert averred that the young man who passed next to the window was the very man who stabbed George Colwan in the back, and she said she was willing to take her oath on it at any time when required, and was certain, if the wretch Ridsley saw him, that he would make oath to the same purport, for that his walk was so peculiar no one of common discernment could mistake it.

Mrs. Logan rushed to the window, and sure enough, there was Robert Wringham Colwan (now the Laird of Dalcastle) coming right below their window, walking arm in arm with another young man. As they passed, the second guy looked up and made a cheeky signal to the two women, biting his lip, winking with his left eye, and nodding his head. Mrs. Calvert was shocked by this recognition, recalling how the young man's former companion had given a similar signal on the night of the duel, illuminated by the moonlight; it also struck her that she had seen this young man’s face somewhere before. She followed him with her gaze, and he winked back at her over his shoulder, but she couldn’t return the gesture because her companion let out a loud cry that was a mix of a groan and a shriek, crashing down onto the floor like a wall that had suddenly been undermined. She had fainted completely and needed all her companion's attention for the rest of the evening, as she barely recovered from one fit before slipping into another, and during her brief moments of awareness, she raved like someone lost in a dream. After falling into a deep sleep that night, she regained her composure, and the two began to seriously discuss what they had witnessed. Mrs. Calvert insisted that the young man who passed by the window was the very one who stabbed George Colwan in the back, claiming she'd be willing to swear to it at any time, and she was certain that if the wretch Ridsley saw him, he would testify to the same, as his walk was so distinct that no one with common sense could mistake it.

Mrs. Logan was in great agitation, and said: "It is what I have suspected all along, and what I am sure my late master and benefactor was persuaded of, and the horror of such an idea cut short his days. That wretch, Mrs. Calvert, is the born brother of him he murdered, sons of the same mother they were, whether or not of the same father, the Lord only knows. But, Oh, Mrs. Calvert, that is not the main thing that has discomposed me, and shaken my nerves to pieces at this time. Who do you think the young man was who walked in his company to-night?"

Mrs. Logan was extremely agitated and said, “It’s what I’ve suspected all along, and I'm sure my late master and benefactor believed it too, and the horror of that idea cut his life short. That wretch, Mrs. Calvert, is the actual brother of the man he killed; they were both sons of the same mother, whether or not they had the same father, only the Lord knows. But, oh, Mrs. Calvert, that’s not the main thing that has unsettled me and shattered my nerves right now. Who do you think the young man was who walked with him tonight?”

"I cannot for my life recollect, but am convinced I have seen the same fine form and face before."

"I can't remember for the life of me, but I'm sure I've seen that same beautiful figure and face before."

"And did not he seem to know us, Mrs. Calvert? You who are able to recollect things as they happened, did he not seem to recollect us, and make signs to that effect?"

"And didn’t he seem to recognize us, Mrs. Calvert? You who can remember things as they happened, didn’t he seem to remember us and give indications of that?"

"He did, indeed, and apparently with great good humour."

"He really did, and it seemed like he was in a great mood."

"Oh, Mrs Calvert, hold me, else I shall fall into hysterics again! Who is he? Who is he? Tell me who you suppose he is, for I cannot say my own thought."

"Oh, Mrs. Calvert, please hold me, or I’m going to start freaking out again! Who is he? Who is he? Tell me who you think he is, because I can’t even say what I’m thinking."

"On my life, I cannot remember."

"Honestly, I can't recall."

"Did you note the appearance of the young gentleman you saw slain that night? Do you recollect aught of the appearance of my young master, George Colwan?"

"Did you notice how the young man looked that you saw killed that night? Do you remember anything about how my young master, George Colwan, looked?"

Mrs. Calvert sat silent, and stared the other mildly in the face. Their looks encountered, and there was an unearthly amazement that gleamed from each, which, meeting together, caught real fire, and returned the flame to their heated imaginations, till the two associates became like two statues, with their hands spread, their eyes fixed, and their chops fallen down upon their bosoms. An old woman who kept the lodging-house, having been called in before when Mrs. Logan was faintish, chanced to enter at this crisis with some cordial; and, seeing the state of her lodgers, she caught the infection, and fell into the same rigid and statue-like appearance. No scene more striking was ever exhibited; and if Mrs. Calvert had not resumed strength of mind to speak, and break the spell, it is impossible to say how long it might have continued. "It is he, I believe," said she, uttering the words as it were inwardly. "It can be none other but he. But, no, it is impossible! I saw him stabbed through and through the heart; I saw him roll backward on the green in his own blood, utter his last words, and groan away his soul. Yet, if it is not he, who can it be?"

Mrs. Calvert sat silently, staring mildly at the other woman. Their eyes met, and an otherworldly amazement shone from each, which, when combined, ignited a real spark and sent flames back to their heated imaginations, until the two women became like statues, with their hands outstretched, their eyes fixed, and their jaws dropped onto their chests. An elderly woman who ran the boarding house had been called in earlier when Mrs. Logan felt faint and happened to walk in at that moment with some tonic; seeing the state of her tenants, she caught the same infection and became rigid and statue-like. No scene more striking had ever been shown; and if Mrs. Calvert hadn't regained her composure to speak and break the spell, it’s impossible to say how long it might have lasted. "It’s him, I believe," she said, speaking almost to herself. "It can be no one else but him. But no, it’s impossible! I saw him stabbed right through the heart; I watched him fall back onto the grass in his own blood, say his last words, and groan away his soul. Yet, if it’s not him, who could it be?"

"It is he!" cried Mrs. Logan, hysterically.

"It’s him!" shouted Mrs. Logan, hysterically.

"Yes, yes, it is he!" cried the landlady, in unison.

"Yes, yes, it’s him!" shouted the landlady together with everyone else.

"It is who?" said Mrs. Calvert. "Whom do you mean, mistress?"

"It is who?" asked Mrs. Calvert. "Who are you talking about, ma'am?"

"Oh, I don't know! I don't know! I was affrighted."

"Oh, I have no idea! I really don’t! I was scared."

"Hold your peace then till you recover your senses, and tell me, if you can, who that young gentleman is who keeps company with the new Laird of Dalcastle?"

"Just be quiet until you get your head straight, and if you can, tell me who that young guy is who's hanging out with the new Laird of Dalcastle?"

"Oh, it is he! It is he!" screamed Mrs. Logan, wringing her hands.

"Oh, it's him! It's him!" screamed Mrs. Logan, wringing her hands.

"Oh, it is he! It is he!" cried the landlady, wringing hers.

"Oh, it’s him! It’s really him!" shouted the landlady, wringing her hands.

Mrs. Calvert turned the latter gently and civilly out of the apartment, observing that there seemed to be some infection in the air of the room, and she would be wise for herself to keep out of it.

Mrs. Calvert gently and politely escorted the latter out of the apartment, noting that there seemed to be some kind of infection in the air of the room, and it would be wise for her to stay away from it for her own sake.

The two dames had a restless and hideous night. Sleep came not to their relief, for their conversation was wholly about the dead, who seemed to be alive, and their minds were wandering and groping in a chaos of mystery. "Did you attend to his corpse, and know that he positively died and was buried?" said Mrs. Calvert.

The two women had a restless and terrible night. Sleep didn't offer them any comfort, as their conversation was entirely about the dead, who seemed very much alive, and their thoughts were lost in a tangle of mystery. "Did you take care of his body and confirm that he really died and was buried?" asked Mrs. Calvert.

"Oh, yes, from the moment that his fair but mangled corpse was brought home, I attended it till that when it was screwed in the coffin. I washed the long stripes of blood from his lifeless form, on both sides of the body. I bathed the livid wound that passed through his generous and gentle heart. There was one through the flesh of his left side too, which had bled most outwardly of them all. I bathed them, and bandaged them up with wax and perfumed ointment, but still the blood oozed through all, so that when he was laid in the coffin he was like one newly murdered. My brave, my generous young master. He was always as a son to me, and no son was ever more kind or more respectful to a mother. But he was butchered—he was cut off from the earth ere he had well reached to manhood—most barbarously and unfairly slain. And how is it, how can it be, that we again see him here, walking arm in arm with his murderer?"

"Oh, yes, from the moment his beautiful but mangled body was brought home, I took care of it until it was placed in the coffin. I washed away the long streaks of blood from his lifeless body on both sides. I tended to the terrible wound that went through his generous and gentle heart. There was another on the flesh of his left side, which had bled the most of all. I cleaned them and bandaged them with wax and scented ointment, but still the blood seeped through, so that when he was laid in the coffin, he looked like someone who had just been murdered. My brave, my generous young master. He was always like a son to me, and no son was ever kinder or more respectful to a mother. But he was butchered—he was taken from the earth before he even reached adulthood—most cruelly and unjustly killed. And how is it, how can it be, that we see him here again, walking arm in arm with his murderer?"

"The thing cannot be, Mrs. Logan. It is a phantasy of our disturbed imaginations, therefore let us compose ourselves till we investigate this matter farther."

"The thing can’t be, Mrs. Logan. It’s a figment of our troubled minds, so let’s calm down until we look into this matter further."

"It cannot be in nature, that is quite clear," said Mrs. Logan. "Yet how it should be that I should think so—I who knew and nursed him from his infancy—there lies the paradox. As you said once before, we have nothing but our senses to depend on, and, if you and I believe that we see a person, why, we do see him. Whose word, or whose reasoning can convince us against our own senses? We will disguise ourselves as poor women selling a few country wares, and we will go up to the Hall, and see what is to see, and hear what we can hear, for this is a weighty business in which we are engaged, namely, to turn the vengeance of the law upon an unnatural monster; and we will further learn, if we can, who this is that accompanies him."

"It’s clearly not natural," Mrs. Logan said. "But how could I think that—after knowing and caring for him since he was a baby? That’s the contradiction. As you mentioned before, we can only rely on our senses, and if you and I believe we see someone, then we do see them. What word or logic can convince us against our own perceptions? We’ll pose as poor women selling a few country goods and head to the Hall to see what we can find and hear what we can overhear, because this is a serious matter we’re dealing with—specifically, bringing the law's wrath down on an unnatural monster; and we’ll also try to find out who this person is that’s with him."

Mrs. Calvert acquiesced, and the two dames took their way to Dalcastle, with baskets well furnished with trifles. They did not take the common path from the village, but went about, and approached the mansion by a different way. But it seemed as if some overruling power ordered it that they should miss no chance of attaining the information they wanted. For ere ever they came within half a mile of Dalcastle they perceived the two youths coming as to meet them, on the same path. The road leading from Dalcastle towards the north-east, as all the country knows, goes along a dark bank of brush-wood called the Bogle-heuch. It was by this track that the two women were going, and, when they perceived the two gentlemen meeting them, they turned back, and, the moment they were out of their sight, they concealed themselves in a thicket close by the road. They did this because Mrs. Logan was terrified for being discovered, and because they wished to reconnoitre without being seen. Mrs. Calvert now charged her, whatever she saw, or whatever she heard, to put on a resolution, and support it, for if she fainted there and was discovered, what was to become of her!

Mrs. Calvert agreed, and the two ladies headed to Dalcastle, carrying baskets filled with little items. Instead of taking the usual path from the village, they detoured and approached the mansion from a different route. It felt as if some unseen force wanted them to gather the information they sought. As they neared Dalcastle, within half a mile, they spotted two young men coming toward them on the same path. The road leading from Dalcastle to the northeast, as everyone in the area knows, runs along a dark stretch of brushwood known as the Bogle-heuch. This was the path the two women took, and upon seeing the two gentlemen approaching, they turned back and, as soon as they were out of sight, hid in a nearby thicket. They did this because Mrs. Logan was scared of being discovered and because they wanted to observe without being seen. Mrs. Calvert now urged her to stay strong and composed, warning that if she fainted and was found, it would be a disaster!

The two young men came on, in earnest and vehement conversation; but the subject they were on was a terrible one, and hardly fit to be repeated in the face of a Christian community. Wringhim was disputing the boundlessness of the true Christian's freedom, and expressing doubts that, chosen as he knew he was from all eternity, still it might be possible for him to commit acts that would exclude him from the limits of the covenant. The other argued, with mighty fluency, that the thing was utterly impossible, and altogether inconsistent with eternal predestination. The arguments of the latter prevailed, and the laird was driven to sullen silence. But, to the women's utter surprise, as the conquering disputant passed, he made a signal of recognizance through the brambles to them, as formerly, and, that he might expose his associate fully, and in his true colours, he led him backwards and forwards by the women more than twenty times, making him to confess both the crimes that he had done and those he had in contemplation. At length he said to him: "Assuredly I saw some strolling vagrant women on this walk, my dear friend: I wish we could find them, for there is little doubt that they are concealed here in your woods."

The two young men approached, engaged in a serious and passionate discussion; however, the topic they were discussing was a dark one, hardly suitable for a Christian audience. Wringhim was arguing about the limitless freedom of a true Christian, expressing doubts that, despite being chosen from all eternity as he believed, he could still commit acts that would exclude him from the covenant's boundaries. The other man argued fluently that such a thing was completely impossible and entirely inconsistent with the idea of eternal predestination. The latter's arguments won out, and the laird fell into a sulky silence. But, much to the women's surprise, as the victorious debater passed by, he gestured a familiar sign through the thickets to them, just like before, and in order to expose his companion fully and truthfully, he led him back and forth in front of the women more than twenty times, making him admit both the wrongdoings he had committed and those he was planning. Eventually, he said to him: "I definitely saw some wandering women on this path, my dear friend: I hope we can find them, as there's little doubt they're hidden somewhere in your woods."

"I wish we could find them," answered Wringhim. "We would have fine sport maltreating and abusing them."

"I wish we could find them," Wringhim said. "It would be great fun mistreating and abusing them."

"That we should, that we should! Now tell me, Robert, if you found a malevolent woman, the latent enemy of your prosperity, lurking in these woods to betray you, what would you inflict on her?"

"That we should, that we should! Now tell me, Robert, if you discovered a harmful woman, the hidden enemy of your success, hiding in these woods to betray you, what would you do to her?"

"I would tear her to pieces with my dogs, and feed them with her flesh. Oh, my dear friend, there is an old strumpet who lived with my unnatural father, whom I hold in such utter detestation that I stand constantly in dread of her, and would sacrifice the half of my estate to shed her blood!"

"I would rip her apart with my dogs and feed them with her flesh. Oh, my dear friend, there’s an old hooker who lived with my terrible father, whom I hate so much that I’m always afraid of her, and I would give up half my fortune to see her blood shed!"

"What will you give me if I will put her in your power, and give you a fair and genuine excuse for making away with her; one for which you shall answer at the bar, here or hereafter?"

"What will you give me if I put her in your control and provide you with a legitimate reason for getting rid of her; one that you’ll be accountable for, whether here or later?"

"I should like to see the vile hag put down. She is in possession of the family plate, that is mine by right, as well as a thousand valuable relics, and great riches besides, all of which the old profligate gifted shamefully away. And it is said, besides all these, that she has sworn my destruction."

"I want to see that wicked old woman brought down. She has the family silver, which is rightfully mine, along with a thousand valuable relics and a lot of riches on top of that, all of which the old wasteful person gave away shamefully. Plus, it’s said that she has sworn to ruin me."

"She has, she has. But I see not how she can accomplish that, seeing the deed was done so suddenly, and in the silence of the night."

"She has, she has. But I don't see how she can manage that, considering the action was taken so quickly and in the quiet of the night."

"It was said there were some onlookers. But where shall we find that disgraceful Miss Logan?"

"It was said there were some spectators. But where can we find that disgraceful Miss Logan?"

"I will show you her by and by. But will you then consent to the other meritorious deed? Come, be a man, and throw away scruples."

"I'll show her to you soon. But will you agree to the other noble act? Come on, be a man, and let go of your doubts."

"If you can convince me that the promise is binding I will."

"If you can convince me that the promise is legitimate, I will."

"Then step this way, till I give you a piece of information."

"Then come this way until I share some information with you."

They walked a little way out of hearing, but went not out of sight; therefore, though the women were in a terrible quandary, they durst not stir, for they had some hopes that this extraordinary person was on a mission of the same sort with themselves, knew of them, and was going to make use of their testimony. Mrs. Logan was several times on the point of falling into a swoon, so much did the appearance of the young man impress her, until her associate covered her face that she might listen without embarrassment. But this latter dialogue roused different feelings within them; namely, those arising from imminent personal danger. They saw his waggish associate point out the place of their concealment to Wringhim, who came towards them, out of curiosity to see what his friend meant by what he believed to be a joke, manifestly without crediting it in the least degree. When he came running away, the other called after him: "If she is too hard for you, call to me." As he said this, he hasted out of sight, in the contrary direction, apparently much delighted with the joke.

They walked a little way out of hearing, but not out of sight; so even though the women were in a terrible predicament, they didn't dare move, as they held on to some hope that this extraordinary person was on a mission similar to theirs, knew about them, and was going to use their testimony. Mrs. Logan was on the verge of fainting several times, so overwhelmed by the appearance of the young man, until her friend covered her face so she could listen without feeling embarrassed. However, this latter conversation stirred different feelings in them, specifically those stemming from immediate personal danger. They saw his playful friend point out their hiding spot to Wringhim, who came towards them, curious to understand what his friend was talking about, clearly not believing it at all. When he came running away, the other called after him: "If she’s too much for you, call me." As he said this, he hurried out of sight in the opposite direction, seemingly delighted by the joke.

Wringhim came rushing through the thicket impetuously, to the very spot where Mrs. Logan lay squatted. She held the wrapping close about her head, but he tore it off and discovered her. "The curse of God be on thee!" said he. "What fiend has brought thee here, and for what purpose art thou come? But, whatever has brought thee, I have thee!" and with that he seized her by the throat. The two women, when they heard what jeopardy they were in from such a wretch, had squatted among the underwood at a small distance from each other, so that he had never observed Mrs. Calvert; but, no sooner had he seized her benefactor, than, like a wild cat, she sprung out of the thicket, and had both hands fixed at his throat, one of them twisted in his stock, in a twinkling. She brought him back-over among the brushwood, and the two, fixing on him like two harpies, mastered him with ease. Then indeed was he woefully beset. He deemed for a while that his friend was at his back, and, turning his bloodshot eyes towards the path, he attempted to call; but there was no friend there, and the women cut short his cries by another twist of his stock. "Now, gallant and rightful Laird of Dalcastle," said Mrs. Logan, "what hast thou to say for thyself? Lay thy account to dree the weird thou hast so well earned. Now shalt thou suffer due penance for murdering thy brave and only brother."

Wringhim rushed through the bushes impulsively, straight to where Mrs. Logan was crouched. She held the wrap tightly around her head, but he yanked it off and revealed her. "The curse of God be on you!" he shouted. "What devil brought you here, and why are you here? But whatever brought you here, I've got you!" With that, he grabbed her by the throat. The two women, realizing the danger they were in from such a monster, had crouched down among the brush a short distance apart, so he hadn't noticed Mrs. Calvert; but as soon as he grabbed her benefactor, she sprang out of the thicket like a wild cat, her hands on his throat, one twisted in his collar in an instant. She pulled him back into the underbrush, and the two of them, attacking him like harpies, easily overpowered him. He was truly trapped now. For a moment, he thought his friend was behind him, and turning his bloodshot eyes toward the path, he tried to call out; but there was no friend there, and the women silenced his cries with another twist of his collar. "Now, brave and rightful Laird of Dalcastle," said Mrs. Logan, "what do you have to say for yourself? Prepare to face the fate you’ve so richly earned. Now you will pay the price for murdering your brave and only brother."

"Thou liest, thou hag of the pit! I touched not my brother's life."

"You're lying, you witch from the depths! I didn't harm my brother."

"I saw thee do it with these eyes that now look thee in the face; ay, when his back was to thee, too, and while he was hotly engaged with thy friend," said Mrs. Calvert.

"I saw you do it with these eyes that are now looking at you; yes, when his back was turned to you, and while he was intensely involved with your friend," said Mrs. Calvert.

"I heard thee confess it again and again this same hour," said Mrs. Logan.

"I heard you confess it over and over again just this hour," said Mrs. Logan.

"Ay, and so did I," said her companion. "Murder will out, though the Almighty should lend hearing to the ears of the willow, and speech to the seven tongues of the woodriff."

"Yeah, me too," said her companion. "The truth will come out, even if the Almighty gives ears to the willow and speech to the seven tongues of the woodriff."

"You are liars and witches!" said he, foaming with rage, "and creatures fitted from the beginning for eternal destruction. I'll have your bones and your blood sacrificed on your cursed altars! O Gil-Martin! Gil-Martin! Where art thou now? Here, here is the proper food for blessed vengeance! Hilloa!"

"You’re all liars and witches!" he shouted, filled with fury. "You were made from the start for eternal damnation. I’ll have your bones and blood offered on your cursed altars! Oh, Gil-Martin! Gil-Martin! Where are you now? Here, here is the right offering for righteous vengeance! Hey!"

There was no friend, no Gil-Martin there to hear or assist him: he was in the two women's mercy, but they used it with moderation. They mocked, they tormented, and they threatened him; but, finally, after putting him in great terror, they bound his hands behind his back, and his feet fast with long straps of garters which they chanced to have in their baskets, to prevent him from pursuing them till they were out of his reach. As they left him, which they did in the middle of the path, Mrs. Calvert said: "We could easily put an end to thy sinful life, but our hands shall be free of thy blood. Nevertheless thou art still in our power, and the vengeance of thy country shall overtake thee, thou mean and cowardly murderer, ay, and that more suddenly than thou art aware!"

There was no friend, no Gil-Martin there to hear or help him: he was at the mercy of the two women, but they were somewhat restrained. They mocked him, tormented him, and threatened him; but finally, after putting him in a great state of fear, they tied his hands behind his back and strapped his feet with long garter straps they happened to have in their baskets, so he couldn't chase after them until they were far enough away. As they left him, right in the middle of the path, Mrs. Calvert said: "We could easily end your sinful life, but we won't have your blood on our hands. Still, you’re in our power, and the vengeance of your country will catch up with you, you mean and cowardly murderer, yes, and it will come much sooner than you think!"

The women posted to Edinburgh; and as they put themselves under the protection of an English merchant, who was journeying thither with twenty horses laden, and armed servants, so they had scarcely any conversation on the road. When they arrived at Mrs. Logan's house, then they spoke of what they had seen and heard, and agreed that they had sufficient proof to condemn young Wringhim, who they thought richly deserved the severest doom of the law.

The women traveled to Edinburgh, and since they relied on the protection of an English merchant who was heading there with twenty loaded horses and armed servants, they hardly spoke during the trip. When they reached Mrs. Logan's house, they discussed what they had seen and heard, agreeing that they had enough evidence to condemn young Wringhim, who they believed truly deserved the harshest punishment under the law.

"I never in my life saw any human being," said Mrs. Calvert, "whom I thought so like a fiend. If a demon could inherit flesh and blood, that youth is precisely such a being as I could conceive that demon to be. The depth and the malignity of his eye is hideous. His breath is like the airs from a charnel house, and his flesh seems fading from his bones, as if the worm that never dies were gnawing it away already."

"I’ve never in my life seen anyone," said Mrs. Calvert, "who I thought looked so much like a monster. If a demon could take on human form, that young man is exactly what I imagine that demon to be. The darkness and malice in his eyes are terrible. His breath is like the smell from a grave, and his skin looks like it's wasting away from his bones, as if the eternal worm is already eating it from inside."

"He was always repulsive, and every way repulsive," said the other, "but he is now indeed altered greatly to the worse. While we were hand-fasting him, I felt his body to be feeble and emaciated; but yet I know him to be so puffed up with spiritual pride that I believe he weens every one of his actions justified before God, and, instead of having stings of conscience for these, he takes great merit to himself in having effected them. Still my thoughts are less about him than the extraordinary being who accompanies him. He does everything with so much ease and indifference, so much velocity and effect, that all bespeak him an adept in wickedness. The likeness to my late hapless young master is so striking that I can hardly believe it to be a chance model; and I think he imitates him in everything, for some purpose or some effect on his sinful associate. Do you know that he is so like in every lineament, look, and gesture, that, against the clearest light of reason, I cannot in my mind separate the one from the other, and have a certain indefinable expression on my mind that they are one and the same being, or that the one was a prototype of the other."

"He was always repulsive, in every way," said the other, "but he's definitely changed for the worse now. While we were tying the knot with him, I could feel that his body was weak and thin; yet I know he's so full of spiritual pride that he believes all his actions are justified before God, and instead of feeling guilty about them, he takes great pride in what he's done. Still, I'm thinking more about the extraordinary person who is with him. He does everything with such ease and indifference, so much speed and impact, that it's clear he's skilled in wickedness. The resemblance to my late unfortunate young master is so striking that I can hardly believe it's just a coincidence; I think he copies him in every way, for some purpose or effect on his sinful companion. Do you know that he looks so much like him in every feature, expression, and gesture that, despite the clearest logic, I can’t separate the two in my mind, and I have this vague feeling that they’re one and the same person, or that one is a model for the other."

"If there is an earthly crime," said Mrs. Calvert, "for the due punishment of which the Almighty may be supposed to subvert the order of nature, it is fratricide. But tell me, dear friend, did you remark to what the subtile and hellish villain was endeavouring to prompt the assassin?"

"If there’s any crime on this earth," Mrs. Calvert said, "for which the Almighty might be thought to disrupt the natural order, it’s fratricide. But tell me, dear friend, did you notice what the cunning and evil villain was trying to encourage the assassin to do?"

"No, I could not comprehend it. My senses were altogether so bewildered that I thought they had combined to deceive me, and I gave them no credit."

"No, I couldn't understand it. My senses were so confused that I thought they had teamed up to trick me, and I didn't believe them at all."

"Then hear me: I am almost certain he was using every persuasion to induce him to make away with his mother; and I likewise conceive that I heard the incendiary give his consent!"

"Then listen to me: I'm pretty sure he was using every trick to get him to kill his mother; and I also think I heard the instigator agree to it!"

"This is dreadful. Let us speak and think no more about it, till we see the issue. In the meantime, let us do that which is our bounden duty—go and divulge all that we know relating to this foul murder."

"This is terrible. Let's talk and think about it no more until we see what happens. In the meantime, let's do what we must—go and share everything we know about this horrible murder."

Accordingly the two women went to Sir Thomas Wallace of Craigie, the Lord justice Clerk (who was, I think, either uncle or grandfather to young Drummond, who was outlawed and obliged to fly his country on account of Colwan's death), and to that gentleman they related every circumstance of what they had seen and heard. He examined Calvert very minutely, and seemed deeply interested in her evidence—said he knew she was relating the truth, and, in testimony of it, brought a letter of young Drummond's from his desk, wherein that young gentleman, after protesting his innocence in the most forcible terms, confessed having been with such a woman in such a house, after leaving the company of his friends; and that, on going home, Sir Thomas's servant had let him in, in the dark, and from these circumstances he found it impossible to prove an alibi. He begged of his relative, if ever an opportunity offered, to do his endeavour to clear up that mystery, and remove the horrid stigma from his name in his country, and among his kin, of having stabbed a friend behind his back.

So, the two women went to see Sir Thomas Wallace of Craigie, the Lord Justice Clerk (who I believe was either the uncle or grandfather of young Drummond, who had been outlawed and forced to flee the country because of Colwan's death). They told him everything they had seen and heard. He examined Calvert very closely and appeared genuinely interested in her testimony—he said he believed she was telling the truth, and to support this, he pulled out a letter from young Drummond's desk. In the letter, young Drummond strongly professed his innocence but admitted that he had been with a certain woman in a specific house after leaving his friends. He explained that when he returned home, Sir Thomas's servant had let him in in the dark, which made it impossible for him to prove his whereabouts. He asked his relative, whenever there was a chance, to help clear up this mystery and lift the awful stain from his name in his country and among his family for having supposedly stabbed a friend in the back.

Lord Craigie, therefore, directed the two women to the proper authorities, and, after hearing their evidence there, it was judged proper to apprehend the present Laird of Dalcastle, and bring him to his trial. But, before that, they sent the prisoner in the Tolbooth, he who had seen the whole transaction along with Mrs. Calvert, to take a view of Wringhim privately; and, his discrimination being so well known as to be proverbial all over the land, they determined secretly to be ruled by his report. They accordingly sent him on a pretended mission of legality to Dalcastle, with orders to see and speak with the proprietor, without giving him a hint what was wanted. On his return, they examined him, and he told them that he found all things at the place in utter confusion and dismay; that the lady of the place was missing, and could not be found, dead or alive. On being asked if he had ever seen the proprietor before, he looked astounded and unwilling to answer. But it came out that he had; and that he had once seen him kill a man on such a spot at such an hour.

Lord Craigie, therefore, directed the two women to the right authorities, and after hearing their testimonies, it was deemed necessary to arrest the current Laird of Dalcastle and bring him to trial. However, before that, they placed the prisoner—who had witnessed the entire incident along with Mrs. Calvert—into the Tolbooth to privately view Wringhim. Since his ability to judge situations was so well-known that it had become a saying across the country, they decided to follow his report in secret. They sent him on a fake legal mission to Dalcastle, instructing him to see and speak with the owner without revealing the true purpose. Upon his return, they questioned him, and he reported that everything at the estate was in complete disarray and panic; the lady of the house was missing and could not be found, dead or alive. When asked if he had ever seen the owner before, he appeared shocked and hesitant to respond. But it turned out that he had; he had once witnessed him kill a man at that very spot at that specific hour.

Officers were then dispatched, without delay, to apprehend the monster, and bring him to justice. On these going to the mansion, and inquiring for him, they were told he was at home; on which they stationed guards, and searched all the premises, but he was not to be found. It was in vain that they overturned beds, raised floors, and broke open closets: Robert Wringhim Colwan was lost once and for ever. His mother also was lost; and strong suspicions attached to some of the farmers and house servants to whom she was obnoxious, relating to her disappearance.

Officers were quickly sent out to catch the monster and bring him to justice. When they arrived at the mansion and asked for him, they were told he was home. They set up guards and searched the entire place, but he couldn't be found. They turned over beds, lifted up floors, and broke open closets, but Robert Wringhim Colwan was gone for good. His mother was also missing, and there were strong suspicions about some of the farmers and household servants who had issues with her, concerning her disappearance.

The Honourable Thomas Drummond became a distinguished officer in the Austrian service, and died in the memorable year for Scotland, 1715; and this is all with which history, justiciary records, and tradition, furnish me relating to these matters.

The Honorable Thomas Drummond became a notable officer in the Austrian service and died in the significant year for Scotland, 1715; and this is all that history, legal records, and tradition provide me regarding these matters.

I have now the pleasure of presenting my readers with an original document of a most singular nature, and preserved for their perusal in a still more singular manner. I offer no remarks on it, and make as few additions to it, leaving everyone to judge for himself. We have heard much of the rage of fanaticism in former days, but nothing to this.

I’m excited to share with my readers a unique document that has been preserved in an even more unusual way. I won't add any comments or make many changes, allowing everyone to form their own opinions. We’ve heard a lot about the intensity of fanaticism in the past, but nothing like this.




The Private Memoirs and
Confessions of a Sinner
WRITTEN BY HIMSELF


PRIVATE MEMOIRS AND CONFESSIONS OF A SINNER

My life has been a life of trouble and turmoil; of change and vicissitude; of anger and exultation; of sorrow and of vengeance. My sorrows have all been for a slighted gospel, and my vengeance has been wreaked on its adversaries. Therefore, in the might of Heaven, I will sit down and write: I will let the wicked of this world know what I have done in the faith of the promises, and justification by grace, that they may read and tremble, and bless their gods of silver and gold that the minister of Heaven was removed from their sphere before their blood was mingled with their sacrifices.

My life has been filled with troubles and chaos; full of change and ups and downs; of anger and joy; of sadness and revenge. My sadness has all come from a neglected message, and my revenge has been taken on those who oppose it. So, with the power of Heaven, I'm going to sit down and write: I will let the wicked in this world know what I've done in faith of the promises and grace so that they may read and shake with fear, and praise their gods of silver and gold that the messenger of Heaven was taken from their reach before their blood mixed with their offerings.

I was born an outcast in the world, in which I was destined to act so conspicuous a part. My mother was a burning and a shining light, in the community of Scottish worthies, and in the days of her virginity had suffered much in the persecution of the saints. But it so pleased Heaven that, as a trial of her faith, she was married to one of the wicked; a man all over spotted with the leprosy of sin. As well might they have conjoined fire and water together, in hopes that they would consort and amalgamate, as purity and corruption: She fled from his embraces the first night after their marriage, and from that time forth his iniquities so galled her upright heart that she quitted his society altogether, keeping her own apartments in the same house with him.

I was born an outcast in a world where I was meant to play such a noticeable role. My mother was a bright and shining light in the community of Scottish dignitaries, and during her unmarried years, she faced a lot of hardship because of the persecution of the saints. But it pleased Heaven, as a test of her faith, that she married one of the wicked; a man completely infected with the leprosy of sin. They might as well have tried to mix fire and water, hoping they would blend and coexist, as to expect purity and corruption to unite: She ran from his arms the very first night of their marriage, and after that, his wrongdoings tormented her righteous heart so much that she completely withdrew from his company, keeping to her own rooms in the same house with him.

I was the second son of this unhappy marriage, and, ere ever I was born, my father according to the flesh disclaimed all relation or connection with me, and all interest in me, save what the law compelled him to take, which was to grant me a scanty maintenance; and had it not been for a faithful minister of the gospel, my mother's early instructor, I should have remained an outcast from the church visible. He took pity on me, admitting me not only into that, but into the bosom of his own household and ministry also, and to him am I indebted, under Heaven, for the high conceptions and glorious discernment between good and evil, right and wrong, which I attained even at an early age. It was he who directed my studies aright, both in the learning of the ancient fathers and the doctrines of the reformed church, and designed me for his assistant and successor in the holy office. I missed no opportunity of perfecting myself particularly in all the minute points of theology in which my reverend father and mother took great delight; but at length I acquired so much skill that I astonished my teachers, and made them gaze at one another. I remember that it was the custom, in my patron's house, to ask questions of the Single Catechism round every Sabbath night. He asked the first, my mother the second, and so on, everyone saying the question asked and then asking the next. It fell to my mother to ask Effectual Calling at me. I said the answer with propriety and emphasis. "Now, madam," added I, "my question to you is: What is Ineffectual Calling?"

I was the second son of this unhappy marriage, and before I was even born, my biological father denied any relationship or connection with me, showing no interest in me except for the minimal responsibility that the law required, which was to provide me with a meager living. If it hadn't been for a devoted minister of the gospel, who was also my mother's early teacher, I would have remained an outcast from the visible church. He took pity on me, welcoming me not only into the church but into the warmth of his own home and ministry, and I owe him, along with Heaven, the deep understanding and clarity between good and evil, right and wrong, that I developed even at a young age. He guided my studies well, covering both the teachings of the ancient fathers and the doctrines of the reformed church, preparing me to be his assistant and successor in the holy office. I seized every chance to refine my knowledge, particularly in the intricate details of theology that my reverend father and mother cherished. Eventually, I became so skilled that I amazed my teachers, leaving them in awe. I remember that in my patron's home, it was customary to ask questions from the Single Catechism every Sunday night. He would start by asking the first question, my mother would ask the second, and so on, with everyone repeating the question asked and then posing the next one. It was my mother’s turn to ask about Effectual Calling. I answered her question properly and with emphasis. “Now, madam,” I added, “my question for you is: What is Ineffectual Calling?”

"Ineffectual Calling? There is no such thing, Robert," said she.

"Ineffectual Calling? There's no such thing, Robert," she said.

"But there is, madam," said I, and that answer proves how much you say these fundamental precepts by rote, and without any consideration. Ineffectual Calling is the outward call of the gospel without any effect on the hearts of unregenerated and impenitent sinners. Have not all these the same calls, warnings, doctrines, and reproofs, that we have? And is not this ineffectual Calling? Has not Ardinferry the same? Has not Patrick M'Lure the same? Has not the Laird of Dalcastle and his reprobate heir the same? And will any tell me that this is not Ineffectual Calling?"

"But there is, ma'am," I said, and that response shows how much you recite these basic principles by memory, without any thought. Ineffectual Calling is the outward call of the gospel that doesn’t impact the hearts of unrepentant and unconverted sinners. Do all these people not receive the same calls, warnings, teachings, and reproofs that we do? Isn't this what we call Ineffectual Calling? Doesn’t Ardinferry have the same? Doesn’t Patrick M'Lure have the same? Doesn’t the Laird of Dalcastle and his unworthy heir have the same? And can anyone tell me that this isn’t Ineffectual Calling?

"What a wonderful boy he is!" said my mother.

"What a wonderful boy he is!" my mom said.

"I'm feared he turn out to be a conceited gowk," said old Barnet, the minister's man.

"I'm afraid he'll turn out to be a stuck-up fool," said old Barnet, the minister's assistant.

"No," said my pastor, and father (as I shall henceforth denominate him). "No, Barnet, he is a wonderful boy; and no marvel, for I have prayed for these talents to be bestowed on him from his infancy: and do you think that Heaven would refuse a prayer so disinterested? No, it is impossible. But my dread is, madam," continued he, turning to my mother, "that he is yet in the bond of iniquity."

"No," said my pastor, and father (as I will call him from now on). "No, Barnet, he is a wonderful boy; and it's no surprise, since I have prayed for these skills to be given to him since he was a child: do you really think Heaven would ignore such a selfless prayer? No, that's impossible. But my worry is, madam," he said, turning to my mother, "that he is still trapped in a life of sin."

"God forbid!" said my mother.

"God forbid!" my mom said.

"I have struggled with the Almighty long and hard," continued he; "but have as yet no certain token of acceptance in his behalf, I have indeed fought a hard fight, but have been repulsed by him who hath seldom refused my request; although I cited his own words against him, and endeavoured to hold him at his promise, he hath so many turnings in the supremacy of his power, that I have been rejected. How dreadful is it to think of our darling being still without the pale of the covenant! But I have vowed a vow, and in that there is hope."

"I have wrestled with the Almighty for a long time," he continued; "but so far I haven't received any clear sign of acceptance from Him. I have indeed fought hard, but I've been turned away by someone who has rarely denied my requests; even though I quoted His own words back to Him and tried to hold Him to His promises, He has so many shifts in His supreme power that I have been rejected. How awful is it to think of our beloved still being outside of the covenant! But I have made a vow, and in that, there is hope."

My heart quaked with terror when I thought of being still living in a state of reprobation, subjected to the awful issues of death, judgment, and eternal misery, by the slightest accident or casualty; and I set about the duty of prayer myself with the utmost earnestness. I prayed three times every day, and seven times on the Sabbath; but, the more frequently and fervently that I prayed, I sinned still the more. About this time, and for a long period afterwards, amounting to several years, I lived in a hopeless and deplorable state of mind; for I said to myself, "If my name is not written in the book of life from all eternity, it is in vain for me to presume that either vows or prayers of mine, or those of all mankind combined, can ever procure its insertion now." I had come under many vows, most solemnly taken, every one of which I had broken; and I saw with the intensity of juvenile grief that there was no hope for me. I went on sinning every hour, and all the while most strenuously warring against sin, and repenting of every one transgression as soon after the commission of it as I got leisure to think. But, oh, what a wretched state this unregenerated state is, in which every effort after righteousness only aggravates our offences! I found it vanity to contend; for, after communing with my heart, the conclusion was as follows: "If I could repent me of all my sins, and shed tears of blood for them, still have I not a load of original transgression pressing on me that is enough to crush me to the lowest hell. I may be angry with my first parents for having sinned, but how I shall repent me of their sin is beyond what I am able to comprehend."

My heart trembled with fear when I thought about still being in a state of damnation, facing the terrible consequences of death, judgment, and eternal misery from the smallest accident; and I began to pray with the utmost sincerity. I prayed three times every day and seven times on Sundays; but the more I prayed, the more I sinned. During this time, and for many years afterward, I lived in a hopeless and miserable state of mind; I told myself, "If my name isn't written in the book of life from eternity, there's no point in hoping that my vows or my prayers, or even those of everyone else combined, can ever get it written in now." I had made many vows, all of which I had broken, and I understood with deep sadness that there was no hope for me. I kept sinning every hour while also fighting against my sins and repenting for each one as soon as I had a moment to reflect. But, oh, how wretched this state of being unrepentant is, where every attempt to be righteous only makes our offenses worse! I realized it was pointless to keep fighting; after reflecting on my heart, I concluded: "Even if I could repent for all my sins and shed tears of blood over them, I still have the burden of original sin weighing on me, which is enough to crush me to the depths of hell. I might be angry at my first parents for their sin, but how I could possibly repent for their sin is beyond my understanding."

Still, in those days of depravity and corruption, I had some of those principles implanted in my mind which were afterwards to spring up with such amazing fertility among the heroes of the faith and the promises. In particular, I felt great indignation against all the wicked of this world, and often wished for the means of ridding it of such a noxious burden. I liked John Barnet, my reverend father's serving-man, extremely ill; but, from a supposition that he might be one of the justified, I refrained from doing him any injury. He gave always his word against me, and when we were by ourselves, in the barn or the fields, he rated me with such severity for my faults that my heart could brook it no longer. He discovered some notorious lies that I had framed, and taxed me with them in such a manner that I could in no wise get off. My cheek burnt, with offence, rather than shame; and he, thinking he had got the mastery of me, exulted over me most unmercifully, telling me I was a selfish and conceited blackguard, who made great pretences towards religious devotion to cloak a disposition tainted with deceit, and that it would not much astonish him if I brought myself to the gallows.

Still, in those days of vice and corruption, I had some of those principles planted in my mind that would later flourish incredibly among the heroes of faith and the promises. In particular, I felt a strong anger towards all the wickedness in the world and often wished I could find a way to rid it of such a toxic burden. I disliked John Barnet, my father's servant, immensely; but, thinking he might be one of the justified, I held back from doing him any harm. He always spoke against me, and when we were alone in the barn or the fields, he scolded me so harshly for my mistakes that I couldn't take it anymore. He uncovered some blatant lies I had made up and confronted me about them in a way I couldn't escape. My face burned, not from shame, but from offense; and he, believing he had the upper hand, delighted in tormenting me ruthlessly, calling me a selfish and arrogant fool who put on a show of religious devotion to hide a deceitful nature, and he wouldn’t be surprised if I ended up on the gallows.

I gathered some courage from his over-severity, and answered him as follows: "Who made thee a judge of the actions or dispositions of the Almighty's creatures—thou who art a worm and no man in his sight? How it befits thee to deal out judgments and anathemas! Hath he not made one vessel to honour, and another to dishonour, as in the case with myself and thee? Hath he not builded his stories in the heavens, and laid the foundations thereof in the earth, and how can a being like thee judge between good and evil, that are both subjected to the workings of his hand; or of the opposing principles in the soul of man, correcting, modifying, and refining one another?"

I found some courage from his harshness and replied, "Who made you the judge of the actions or intentions of God's creations—you're just a worm and nothing in His eyes? How dare you hand out judgments and curses! Hasn't He created one vessel for honor and another for dishonor, just like me and you? Hasn't He built His wonders in the heavens and laid the foundations on the earth? How can someone like you judge between good and evil, both of which are shaped by His will; or the conflicting forces within the human soul that correct, modify, and refine each other?"

I said this with that strong display of fervour for which I was remarkable at my years, and expected old Barnet to be utterly confounded; but he only shook his head, and, with the most provoking grin, said: "There he goes! Sickan sublime and ridiculous sophistry I never heard come out of another mouth but ane. There needs nae aiths to be sworn afore the session wha is your father, young goodman. I ne'er, for my part, saw a son sac like a dad, sin' my een first opened." With that he went away, saying with an ill-natured wince: "You made to honour and me to dishonour! Dirty bow-kail thing that thou be'st!"

I said this with the intense passion that I was known for at my age, expecting old Barnet to be completely shocked; but he just shook his head and, with the most annoying grin, said: "There he goes! I've never heard such both impressive and ridiculous talk from anyone but one person. No oaths need to be sworn before the session about who your father is, young man. I’ve never, in my entire life, seen a son look so much like his dad since I first opened my eyes." With that, he walked away, muttering with a sour expression: "You made me look good and yourself look bad! Filthy piece of cabbage that you are!"

"I will have the old rascal on the hip for this, if I live," thought I. So I went and asked my mother if John was a righteous man. She could not tell, but supposed he was, and therefore I got no encouragement from her. I went next to my reverend father, and inquired his opinion, expecting as little from that quarter. He knew the elect as it were by instinct, and could have told you of all those in his own, and some neighbouring parishes, who were born within the boundaries of the covenant of promise, and who were not.

"I'll definitely get back at that old rascal for this, if I can," I thought. So I asked my mom if John was a good man. She couldn't say for sure but thought he was, so I didn't get much support from her. Next, I went to my pastor and asked for his opinion, expecting even less from him. He seemed to know the chosen ones almost instinctively and could tell you about all those in his own parish and some nearby ones who were born within the promise and who weren't.

"I keep a good deal in company with your servant, old Barnet, father," said I.

"I spend a lot of time with your servant, old Barnet, Dad," I said.

"You do, boy, you do, I see," said he.

"You do, kid, you do, I see," he said.

"I wish I may not keep too much in his company," said I, "not knowing what kind of society I am in. Is John a good man, father?"

"I hope I don't spend too much time around him," I said, "since I don't know what kind of company I'm in. Is John a good man, dad?"

"Why, boy, he is but so so. A morally good man John is, but very little of the leaven of true righteousness, which is faith, within. I am afraid old Barnet, with all his stock of morality, will be a castaway."

"Why, kid, he's just okay. John is a decent man, but he lacks a lot of the true righteousness that comes from faith. I'm afraid old Barnet, despite all his morals, will end up lost."

My heart was greatly cheered by this remark; and I sighed very deeply, and hung my head to one side. The worthy father observed me, and inquired the cause, when I answered as follows: "How dreadful the thought, that I have been going daily in company and fellowship with one whose name is written on the red-letter side of the book of life; whose body and soul have been, from all eternity, consigned over to everlasting destruction, and to whom the blood of the atonement can never, never reach! Father, this is an awful thing, and beyond my comprehension."

My heart was really uplifted by this comment; I sighed deeply and tilted my head to one side. The kind father noticed and asked what was wrong, to which I replied: "How terrible is the thought that I've been spending time with someone whose name is marked in red in the book of life; whose body and soul have been condemned to eternal destruction for all eternity, and to whom the atonement's blood can never, ever reach! Father, this is a horrifying reality, and I can't wrap my head around it."

"While we are in the world, we must mix with the inhabitants thereof," said he; "and the stains which adhere to us by reason of this mixture, which is unavoidable, shall all be washed away. It is our duty, however, to shun the society of wicked men as much as possible, lest we partake of their sins, and become sharers with them in punishment. John, however, is morally a good man, and may yet get a cast of grace."

"While we’re in this world, we need to interact with its people," he said. "And the marks we pick up from this unavoidable interaction will all be cleaned off. However, it's our responsibility to avoid associating with wicked people as much as we can, so we don’t share in their sins and end up facing their punishment. John, though, is a decent person and might still receive some grace."

"I always thought him a good man till to-day," said I, "when he threw out some reflections on your character, so horrible that I quake to think of the wickedness and malevolence of his heart. He was rating me very impertinently for some supposed fault, which had no being save in his own jealous brain, when I attempted to reason him out of his belief in the spirit of calm Christian argument. But how do you think he answered me? He did so, sir, by twisting his mouth at me, and remarking that such sublime and ridiculous sophistry never came out of another mouth but one (meaning yours) and that no oath before a kirk session was necessary to prove who was my dad, for that he had never seen a son so like a father as I was like mine."

"I always thought he was a good man until today," I said, "when he made some terrible remarks about your character that make me shudder at the wickedness and malice in his heart. He was criticizing me quite insolently for some imagined fault that only existed in his jealous mind, and I tried to talk him out of his belief using calm Christian reasoning. But do you know how he responded? He did it, sir, by making a face at me and saying that such grand and ridiculous nonsense only came from one other person (meaning you), and that there was no need for any oath before a church committee to prove who my father was, because he had never seen a son look so much like his father as I do mine."

"He durst not for his soul's salvation, and for his daily bread, which he values much more, say such a word, boy; therefore, take care what you assert," said my reverend father.

"He didn't dare for the sake of his soul and for his daily bread, which he values much more, to say such a thing, boy; so be careful what you claim," said my reverend father.

"He said these very words, and will not deny them, sir," said I.

"He said these exact words and won’t deny them, sir," I said.

My reverend father turned about in great wrath and indignation, and went away in search of John, but I kept out of the way, and listened at a back window; for John was dressing the plot of ground behind the house; and I hope it was no sin in me that I did rejoice in the dialogue which took place, it being the victory of righteousness over error.

My reverend father turned around in anger and frustration and went off to find John, but I stayed hidden and listened from a back window. John was working on the patch of land behind the house, and I hope it wasn't wrong of me to feel happy about the conversation that happened, as it was a win for what's right over what's wrong.

"Well, John, this is a fine day for your delving work."

"Well, John, this is a great day for your digging work."

"Ay, it's a tolerable day, sir."

"Yeah, it’s an okay day, sir."

"Are you thankful in heart, John, for such temporal mercies as these?"

"Are you grateful in your heart, John, for such temporary blessings as these?"

"Aw doubt we're a' ower little thankfu', sir, baith for temporal an' speeritual mercies; but it isna aye the maist thankfu' heart that maks the greatest fraze wi' the tongue."

"Ah doubt we’re all a bit ungrateful, sir, both for physical and spiritual blessings; but it isn’t always the most grateful heart that makes the biggest fuss with the tongue."

"I hope there is nothing personal under that remark, John?"

"I hope that comment wasn't directed at me personally, John?"

"Gin the bannet fits ony body's head, they're unco welcome to it, sir, for me."

"Gin the bonnet fits anyone's head, they're very welcome to it, sir, as for me."

"John, I do not approve of these innuendoes. You have an arch malicious manner of vending your aphorisms, which the men of the world are too apt to read the wrong way, for your dark hints are sure to have one very bad meaning."

"John, I don't approve of these insinuations. You have a sly, mean way of delivering your sayings, which people are too likely to misunderstand, because your subtle hints definitely have one very negative implication."

"Hout na, sir, it's only bad folks that think sac. They find ma bits o' gibes come hame to their hearts wi' a kind o' yerk, an' that gars them wince."

"Hout now, sir, it’s just the bad people who think that way. They take my little jabs to heart with a sort of sting, and that makes them flinch."

"That saying is ten times worse than the other, John; it is a manifest insult: it is just telling me to my face that you think me a bad man."

"That saying is way worse than the other, John; it’s a clear insult: it’s like you’re just telling me to my face that you think I’m a bad person."

"A body canna help his thoughts, sir."

"A person can't control their thoughts, sir."

"No, but a man's thoughts are generally formed from observation. Now I should like to know, even from the mouth of a misbeliever, what part of my conduct warrants such a conclusion."

"No, but a person's thoughts are usually shaped by what they observe. Now I would like to know, even from someone who disagrees, what part of my behavior justifies such a conclusion."

"Nae particular pairt, sir; I draw a' my conclusions frae the haill o' a man's character, an' I'm no that aften far wrong."

"Not any specific part, sir; I draw all my conclusions from the whole of a man's character, and I'm not usually that far off."

"Well, John, and what sort of general character do you suppose mine to be?"

"Well, John, what kind of person do you think I am?"

"Yours is a Scripture character, sir, an' I'll prove it."

"You're a character from Scripture, sir, and I'll prove it."

"I hope so, John. Well, which of the Scripture characters do you think approximates nearest to my own?"

"I hope so, John. So, which character from the Bible do you think is the closest to me?"

"Guess, sir, guess; I wish to lead a proof."

"Take a guess, sir; I want to show you proof."

"Why, if it be an Old Testament character, I hope it is Melchizedek, for at all events you cannot deny there is one point of resemblance: I, like him, am a preacher of righteousness. If it be a New Testament character, I suppose you mean the Apostle of the Gentiles, of whom I am an unworthy representative."

"Why, if it’s an Old Testament character, I hope it’s Melchizedek, because, at the very least, you can't deny there's one similarity: I, like him, am a preacher of righteousness. If it’s a New Testament character, I guess you mean the Apostle to the Gentiles, of whom I am an unworthy representative."

"Na, na, sir, better nor that still, an' fer closer is the resemblance. When ye bring me to the point, I maun speak. Ye are the just Pharisee, sir, that gaed up wi' the poor publican to pray in the Temple; an' ye're acting the very same pairt at this time, an' saying i' your heart, 'God, I thank thee that I am not as other men are, an' in nae way like this poor misbelieving unregenerate sinner, John Barnet.'"

"Not at all, sir, even better than that, and the resemblance is even closer. When you get me to the point, I must speak. You are the self-righteous Pharisee, sir, who went up with the poor tax collector to pray in the Temple; and you’re playing the same role right now, saying in your heart, 'God, I thank you that I am not like other men, and in no way like this poor, unbelieving, unrepentant sinner, John Barnet.'"

"I hope I may say so indeed."

"I really hope I can say that."

"There now! I tauld you how it was! But, d'ye hear, maister. Here stands the poor sinner, John Barnet, your beadle an' servantman, wha wadna change chances wi' you in the neist world, nor consciences in this, for ten times a' that you possess—your justification by faith an' awthegither."

"There now! I told you how it was! But, do you hear me, master? Here stands the poor sinner, John Barnet, your beadle and servant, who wouldn’t trade places with you in the next world, nor swap consciences in this one, for ten times everything you possess—your justification by faith and all of it."

"You are extremely audacious and impertinent, John; but the language of reprobation cannot affect me: I came only to ask you one question, which I desire you to answer candidly. Did you ever say to anyone that I was the boy Robert's natural father?"

"You are incredibly bold and disrespectful, John; but criticism won’t bother me: I came just to ask you one question, and I want you to answer honestly. Did you ever tell anyone that I was the boy Robert's real father?"

"Hout na, sir! Ha-ha-ha! Aih, fie, na, sir! I durst-na say that for my life. I doubt the black stool, an' the sack gown, or maybe the juggs wad hae been my portion had I said sic a thing as that. Hout, hout! Fie, fie! Unco-like doings thae for a Melchizedek or a Saint Paul!"

"Hush now, sir! Ha-ha-ha! Oh no, sir! I wouldn't dare say that for my life. I’m pretty sure the black stool and the sack gown, or maybe the stocks, would have been my fate if I’d said something like that. Come on, come on! Oh no, oh no! Those are some strange goings-on for a Melchizedek or a Saint Paul!"

"John, you are a profane old man, and I desire that you will not presume to break your jests on me. Tell me, dare you say, or dare you think, that I am the natural father of that boy?"

"John, you are a foul-mouthed old man, and I hope you won’t attempt to make jokes at my expense. Tell me, do you dare to say, or even think, that I am the real father of that boy?"

"Ye canna hinder me to think whatever I like, sir, nor can I hinder mysel."

"You can't stop me from thinking whatever I want, sir, and I can't stop myself either."

"But did you ever say to anyone that he resembled me, and fathered himself well enough?"

"But have you ever told anyone that he looks like me and has taken after himself pretty well?"

"I hae said mony a time that he resembled you, sir. Naebody can mistake that."

"I've said many times that he looks like you, sir. No one can mistake that."

"But, John, there are many natural reasons for such likenesses, besides that of consanguinity. They depend much on the thoughts and affections of the mother; and it is probable that the mother of this boy, being deserted by her worthless husband, having turned her thoughts on me, as likely to be her protector, may have caused this striking resemblance."

"But, John, there are many natural reasons for such similarities, aside from family ties. They heavily depend on the thoughts and feelings of the mother; and it's likely that the boy's mother, abandoned by her useless husband, thinking of me as a possible protector, could have caused this striking resemblance."

"Ay, it may be, sir. I coudna say."

"Yes, it might be, sir. I can't say."

"I have known a lady, John, who was delivered of a blackamoor child, merely from the circumstance of having got a start by the sudden entrance of her negro servant, and not being able to forget him for several hours."

"I once knew a woman, John, who gave birth to a black child, simply because she was startled by the sudden arrival of her Black servant, and couldn’t stop thinking about him for several hours."

"It may be, sir; but I ken this—an' I had been the laird, I wadna hae ta'en that story in."

"It might be, sir; but I know this—if I had been the lord, I wouldn't have believed that story."

"So, then, John, you positively think, from a casual likeness, that this boy is my son?"

"So, John, you really believe, just because he looks a bit like me, that this boy is my son?"

"Man's thoughts are vanity, sir; they come unasked, an' gang away without a dismissal, an' he canna' help them. I'm neither gaun to say that I think he's your son, nor that I think he's no your son: sae ye needna pose me nae mair about it."

"People's thoughts are just distractions, sir; they come uninvited and leave without a goodbye, and you can't control them. I'm not going to say that I think he's your son or that I think he isn't your son, so you don't need to ask me about it anymore."

"Hear then my determination, John. If you do not promise to me, in faith and honour, that you never will say, or insinuate such a thing again in your life, as that that boy is my natural son, I will take the keys of the church from you, and dismiss you from my service."

"Hear my decision, John. If you don't promise me, sincerely and honorably, that you will never again say or suggest that this boy is my biological son, I will take the keys to the church from you and let you go from my service."

John pulled out the keys, and dashed them on the gravel at the reverend minister's feet. "There are the keys o' your kirk, sir! I hae never had muckle mense o' them sin' ye entered the door o't. I hae carried them this three and thretty year, but they hae aye been like to burn a hole i' my pouch sin' ever they were turned for your admittance. Tak them again, an' gie them to wha you will, and muckle gude may he get o' them. Auld John may dee a beggar in a hay barn, or at the back of a dike, but he sall aye be master o' his ain thoughts an' gie them vent or no, as he likes."

John pulled out the keys and tossed them on the gravel at the reverend minister's feet. "There are the keys to your church, sir! I haven't cared much for them since you walked through the door. I've carried them for thirty-three years, but they've always felt like a weight in my pocket ever since they were handed over for your entry. Take them back and give them to whoever you want, and may they do good with them. Old John might die a beggar in a hay barn or behind a wall, but he will always be the master of his own thoughts and can express them or not, as he chooses."

He left the manse that day, and I rejoiced in the riddance; for I disdained to be kept so much under by one who was in bond of iniquity, and of whom there seemed no hope, as he rejoiced in his frowardness, and refused to submit to that faithful teacher, his master.

He left the house that day, and I was glad to see him go; I didn’t want to be held back by someone who was stuck in wrongdoing and showed no signs of change, as he took pleasure in his stubbornness and refused to listen to his loyal teacher, his master.

It was about this time that my reverend father preached a sermon, one sentence of which affected me most disagreeably. It was to the purport that every unrepented sin was productive of a new sin with each breath that a man drew; and every one of these new sins added to the catalogue in the same manner. I was utterly confounded at the multitude of my transgressions; for I was sensible that there were great numbers of sins of which I had never been able thoroughly to repent, and these momentary ones, by moderate calculation, had, I saw, long ago, amounted to a hundred and fifty thousand in the minute, and I saw no end to the series of repentances to which I had subjected myself. A life-time was nothing to enable me to accomplish the sum, and then being, for anything I was certain of, in my state of nature, and the grace of repentance withheld from me—what was I to do, or what was to become of me? In the meantime, I went on sinning without measure; but I was still more troubled about the multitude than the magnitude of my transgressions, and the small minute ones puzzled me more than those that were more heinous, as the latter had generally some good effects in the way of punishing wicked men, froward boys, and deceitful women; and I rejoiced, even then in my early youth, at being used as a scourge in the hand of the Lord; another Jehu, a Cyrus, or a Nebuchadnezzar.

Around this time, my father gave a sermon, and one sentence hit me particularly hard. It said that every unrepented sin leads to a new sin with every breath we take, and each of these new sins adds to the list in the same way. I was completely overwhelmed by the sheer number of my wrongdoings because I realized there were many sins I had never truly repented for, and these momentary ones, based on my rough calculations, had long ago added up to about a hundred and fifty thousand in just a minute. I saw no end to the chain of repenting I had forced myself into. A lifetime wouldn’t be enough for me to cover all that, and considering my natural state and the absence of grace to repent—what was I supposed to do, or what would happen to me? Meanwhile, I kept sinning without restraint, but I was more troubled by the sheer volume than the seriousness of my wrongs. The minor sins confused me more than the more serious ones, as the latter usually had some good outcomes, like punishing wicked people, disobedient kids, and deceitful women; I even felt a sense of pride, even at my young age, in being used as a tool of punishment by the Lord—like another Jehu, Cyrus, or Nebuchadnezzar.

On the whole, I remember that I got into great confusion relating to my sins and repentances, and knew neither where to begin nor how to proceed, and often had great fears that I was wholly without Christ, and that I would find God a consuming fire to me. I could not help running into new sins continually; but then I was mercifully dealt with, for I was often made to repent of them most heartily, by reason of bodily chastisements received on these delinquencies being discovered. I was particularly prone to lying, and I cannot but admire the mercy that has freely forgiven me all these juvenile sins. Now that I know them all to be blotted out, and that I am an accepted person, I may the more freely confess them: the truth is, that one lie always paved the way for another, from hour to hour, from day to day, and from year to year; so that I found myself constantly involved in a labyrinth of deceit, from which it was impossible to extricate myself. If I knew a person to be a godly one, I could almost have kissed his feet; but, against the carnal portion of mankind, I set my face continually. I esteemed the true ministers of the gospel; but the prelatic party, and the preachers up of good works I abhorred, and to this hour I account them the worst and most heinous of all transgressors.

Overall, I remember feeling really confused about my sins and my remorse. I didn't know where to start or how to move forward, and I often feared that I was completely without Christ and that God would see me as a consuming fire. I couldn’t help but keep falling into new sins, but thankfully, I often felt truly sorry for them, especially after facing physical consequences when my wrongdoings were revealed. I was particularly prone to lying, and I can’t help but appreciate the mercy that has forgiven all these youthful mistakes. Now that I know they’ve all been wiped away and that I am accepted, I can confess them more openly: the truth is, one lie always led to another—hour after hour, day after day, year after year—until I found myself trapped in a maze of deceit with no way out. If I met someone truly godly, I could have almost bowed down to them; however, I constantly faced the worldly part of humanity. I respected true ministers of the gospel, but I despised the hierarchical system and those who preached about good works, and to this day, I consider them the worst of all offenders.

There was only one boy at Mr. Witch's class who kept always the upper hand of me in every part of education. I strove against him from year to year, but it was all in vain; for he was a very wicked boy, and I was convinced he had dealings with the Devil. Indeed, it was believed all over the country that his mother was a witch; and I was at length convinced, that it was no human ingenuity that beat me with so much ease in the Latin, after I had often sat up a whole night with my reverend father, studying my lesson in all its bearings. I often read as well and sometimes better than he; but, the moment Mr. Wilson began to examine us, my opponent popped up above me. I determined (as I knew him for a wicked person, and one of the Devil's handfasted children) to be revenged on him, and to humble him by some means or other. Accordingly I lost no opportunity of setting the master against him, and succeeded several times in getting him severely beaten for faults of which he was innocent. I can hardly describe the joy that it gave to my heart to see a wicked creature suffering, for, though he deserved it not for one thing, he richly deserved it for others. This may be by some people accounted a great sin in me; but I deny it, for I did it as a duty, and what a man or boy does for the right will never be put into the sum of his transgressions.

There was only one boy in Mr. Witch's class who always had the upper hand over me in every subject. I battled against him year after year, but it was all for nothing; he was a truly nasty kid, and I was sure he had made a deal with the Devil. In fact, it was widely believed that his mother was a witch, and I eventually became convinced that no human skill could easily outsmart me in Latin, especially after I spent countless nights with my father, studying my lessons from every angle. I often read as well as, and sometimes better than, he did; but the moment Mr. Wilson started examining us, my rival would always pull ahead. I decided—knowing him to be a wicked person, one of the Devil's own— to get back at him and bring him down in some way. So, I took every chance to turn the teacher against him, and I sometimes succeeded in getting him punished severely for things he didn’t even do. I can hardly describe the joy it brought me to see such a nasty person suffer; even though he didn’t deserve it in that instance, he definitely deserved it for other reasons. Some might call this a great sin on my part, but I disagree because I acted out of a sense of duty, and what someone does for what’s right should never be counted among their wrongdoings.

This boy, whose name was M'Gill, was, at all his leisure hours, engaged in drawing profane pictures of beasts, men, women, houses, and trees, and, in short, of all things that his eye encountered. These profane things the master often smiled at, and admired; therefore I began privately to try my hand likewise. I had scarcely tried above once to draw the figure of a man, ere I conceived that I had hit the very features of Mr. Wilson. They were so particular that they could not be easily mistaken, and I was so tickled and pleased with the droll likeness that I had drawn that I laughed immoderately at it. I tried no other figure but this; and I tried it in every situation in which a man and a schoolmaster could be placed. I often wrought for hours together at this likeness, nor was it long before I made myself so much master of the outline that I could have drawn it in any situation whatever, almost off hand. I then took M'Gill's account book of algebra home with me, and at my leisure put down a number of gross caricatures of Mr. Wilson here and there, several of them in situations notoriously ludicrous. I waited the discovery of this treasure with great impatience; but the book, chancing to be one that M'Gill was not using, I saw it might be long enough before I enjoyed the consummation of my grand scheme: therefore, with all the ingenuity I was master of, I brought it before our dominie's eye. But never shall I forget the rage that gleamed in the tyrant's phiz! I was actually terrified to look at him, and trembled at his voice. M'Gill was called upon, and examined relating to the obnoxious figures. He denied flatly that any of them were of his doing. But the master inquiring at him whose they were, he could not tell, but affirmed it to be some trick. Mr. Wilson at one time began, as I thought, to hesitate; but the evidence was so strong against M'Gill that at length his solemn asseverations of innocence only proved an aggravation of his crime. There was not one in the school who had ever been known to draw a figure but himself, and on him fell the whole weight of the tyrant's vengeance. It was dreadful; and I was once in hopes that he would not leave life in the culprit. He, however, left the school for several months, refusing to return to be subjected to punishment for the faults of others, and I stood king of the class.

This boy, named M'Gill, spent all his free time drawing crude pictures of animals, people, houses, and trees—basically everything he saw. The teacher often smiled at and admired those crude drawings, so I decided to try drawing too. I hardly attempted to draw a man more than once before I thought I had captured Mr. Wilson's exact features. They were so specific that they couldn’t be mistaken, and I was so amused by the funny likeness I had drawn that I laughed uncontrollably at it. I didn’t try to draw anything else; I just focused on that one figure, experimenting with every possible scenario for a man and a schoolmaster. I often spent hours perfecting this likeness, and it wasn’t long before I could draw it in any situation almost without thinking. Then, I took M'Gill's algebra notebook home with me and, in my spare time, sketched several crude caricatures of Mr. Wilson in various ridiculous situations. I eagerly awaited the moment someone would discover my masterpiece, but the notebook happened to be one that M'Gill wasn't using, so I realized it might be a while before I could reveal my grand scheme. Thus, using all my cleverness, I presented it to our teacher. But I will never forget the fury that flashed across the tyrant's face! I was genuinely scared to look at him and trembled at his voice. M'Gill was called in and questioned about the offensive drawings. He flatly denied that any of them were his work. But when the teacher asked him whose they were, he couldn’t say and insisted it was some kind of trick. At one point, I thought Mr. Wilson hesitated, but the evidence against M'Gill was so strong that eventually his serious claims of innocence only made his situation worse. No one else in the school had ever drawn a figure but him, and all the blame fell on him. It was terrifying; for a moment, I feared he wouldn’t survive the punishment. However, he left the school for several months, refusing to return and be punished for someone else’s mistakes, and I became the top student in the class.

Matters, were at last made up between M'Gill's parents and the schoolmaster, but by that time I had got the start of him, and never in my life did I exert myself so much as to keep the mastery. It was in vain; the powers of enchantment prevailed, and I was again turned down with the tear in my eye. I could think of no amends but one, and, being driven to desperation, I put it in practice. I told a lie of him. I came boldly up to the master, and told him that M'Gill had in my hearing cursed him in a most shocking manner, and called him vile names. He called M'Gill, and charged him with the crime, and the proud young coxcomb was so stunned at the atrocity of the charge that his face grew as red as crimson, and the words stuck in his throat as he feebly denied it. His guilt was manifest, and he was again flogged most nobly and dismissed the school for ever in disgrace, as a most incorrigible vagabond.

Things were finally settled between M'Gill's parents and the schoolmaster, but by that time, I had gotten the upper hand, and I had never worked so hard in my life to maintain it. It was pointless; the magic of the situation won out, and I was sent back down with tears in my eyes. I could think of only one way to make things right, and in my desperation, I went for it. I told a lie about him. I boldly approached the master and claimed that M'Gill had, within my hearing, cursed him in a terrible way and called him horrible names. He called M'Gill over and accused him of the crime, and the arrogant young man was so shocked by the accusation that his face turned bright red, and the words caught in his throat as he weakly denied it. His guilt was obvious, and he was immediately flogged again and expelled from the school permanently in disgrace, labeled as a hopeless troublemaker.

This was a great victory gained, and I rejoiced and exulted exceedingly in it. It had, however, very nigh cost me my life; for not long thereafter I encountered M'Gill in the fields, on which he came up and challenged me for a liar, daring me to fight him. I refused, and said that I looked on him as quite below my notice; but he would not quit me, and finally told me that he should either lick me, or I should lick him, as he had no other means of being revenged on such a scoundrel. I tried to intimidate him, but it would not do; and I believe I would have given all that I had in the world to be quit of him. He at length went so far as first to kick me, and then strike me on the face; and, being both older and stronger than he, I thought it scarcely became me to take such insults patiently. I was, nevertheless, well aware that the devilish powers of his mother would finally prevail; and either the dread of this, or the inward consciousness of having wronged him, certainly unnerved my arm, for I fought wretchedly, and was soon wholly overcome. I was so sore defeated that I kneeled and was going to beg his pardon; but another thought struck me momentarily, and I threw myself on my face, and inwardly begged aid from heaven; at the same time I felt as if assured that my prayer was heard, and would be answered. While I was in this humble attitude, the villain kicked me with his foot and cursed me; and I, being newly encouraged, arose and encountered him once more. We had not fought long at this second turn before I saw a man hastening towards us; on which I uttered a shout of joy, and laid on valiantly; but my very next look assured me that the man was old John Barnet, whom I had likewise wronged all that was in my power, and between these two wicked persons I expected anything but justice. My arm was again enfeebled, and that of my adversary prevailed. I was knocked down and mauled most grievously, and, while the ruffian was kicking and cuffing me at his will and pleasure, up came old John Barnet, breathless with running, and, at one blow with his open hand, levelled my opponent with the earth. "Tak ye that, maister!" said John, "to learn ye better breeding. Hout awa, man! An ye will fight, fight fair. Gude sauf us, ir ye a gentleman's brood, that ye will kick an' cuff a lad when he's down?"

This was a big victory, and I was incredibly happy about it. However, it almost cost me my life; not long after, I ran into M'Gill in the fields. He approached me and called me a liar, daring me to fight him. I refused, telling him I thought he was unworthy of my attention, but he wouldn't leave me alone. Eventually, he told me that he was either going to beat me or I was going to beat him, as he had no other way of getting revenge on such a scoundrel. I tried to intimidate him, but it didn’t work. I honestly would have given everything I owned to be rid of him. Finally, he kicked me and then hit me in the face. Since I was older and stronger than him, I thought it was inappropriate for me to just take such insults. Nonetheless, I knew that the wicked influence of his mother would eventually take over, and whether it was from that fear or the guilt of having wronged him, it really weakened my arm. I fought poorly and soon found myself completely beaten. I was so thoroughly defeated that I knelt down and was going to beg for his forgiveness; but then another thought struck me and I threw myself on my face, inwardly asking for help from heaven. At that moment, I felt assured my prayer was heard and would be answered. While I was in this humble position, the villain kicked me and cursed me; but, feeling new encouragement, I got up and faced him again. We hadn’t been fighting long during this second round when I saw a man rushing toward us. I shouted in joy and fought fiercely, but my next look revealed that it was old John Barnet, whom I had also wronged. With these two wicked people, I expected nothing but injustice. My strength faded again, and my opponent gained the upper hand. I was knocked down and beaten severely, and while the thug kicked and hit me at will, old John Barnet arrived, breathless from running, and with one open-handed smack, took my opponent down. "Take that, master!" John said, "to teach you some better manners. Get lost, man! If you want to fight, fight fair. Goodness, are you from a gentleman’s family, kicking and hitting a kid when he’s down?"

When I heard this kind and unexpected interference, I began once more to value myself on my courage, and, springing up, I made at my adversary; but John, without saying a word, bit his lip, and seizing me by the neck threw me down. M'Gill begged of him to stand and see fair play, and suffer us to finish the battle; for, added he, "he is a liar, and a scoundrel, and deserves ten times more than I can give him."

When I heard this kind and unexpected interruption, I started to feel proud of my courage again. Jumping up, I charged at my opponent, but John, without saying anything, bit his lip and grabbed me by the neck, throwing me down. M'Gill urged him to let us have a fair fight and finish the battle, saying, "He's a liar and a scoundrel and deserves way more than I can give him."

"I ken he's a' that ye say, an' mair, my man," quoth John. "But am I sure that ye're no as bad, an' waur? It says nae muckle for ony o' ye to be tearing like tikes at one anither here."

"I know everything you say, and more, my man," said John. "But am I sure you're not just as bad, or worse? It doesn't say much for any of you to be tearing at each other like dogs here."

John cocked his cudgel and stood between us, threatening to knock the one dead who first offered to lift his hand against the other; but, perceiving no disposition in any of us to separate, he drove me home before him like a bullock, and keeping close guard behind me, lest M'Gill had followed. I felt greatly indebted to John, yet I complained of his interference to my mother, and the old officious sinner got no thanks for his pains.

John raised his club and stood between us, threatening to take out anyone who first tried to lay a hand on the other; but, seeing that none of us wanted to break up the fight, he pushed me home in front of him like a cattle, keeping a close watch behind me in case M'Gill had followed. I felt really grateful to John, but I still complained about his meddling to my mom, and the old busybody didn’t get any gratitude for his trouble.

As I am writing only from recollection, so I remember of nothing farther in these early days, in the least worthy of being recorded. That I was a great, a transcendent sinner, I confess. But still I had hopes of forgiveness, because I never sinned from principle, but accident; and then I always tried to repent of these sins by the slump, for individually it was impossible; and, though not always successful in my endeavours, I could not help that, the grace of repentance being withheld from me, I regarded myself as in no degree accountable for the failure. Moreover, there were many of the most deadly sins into which I never fell, for I dreaded those mentioned in the Revelations as excluding sins, so that I guarded against them continually. In particular, I brought myself to despise, if not to abhor, the beauty of women, looking on it as the greatest snare to which mankind was subjected, and though young men and maidens, and even old women (my mother among the rest), taxed me with being an unnatural wretch, I gloried in my acquisition; and, to this day, am thankful for having escaped the most dangerous of all snares.

As I’m writing only from memory, I don’t recall anything from those early days that’s worth mentioning. I admit I was a huge, exceptional sinner. But I still hoped for forgiveness because I never sinned out of principle, only by accident; and I always tried to repent for those sins in bulk since it was impossible to do so individually. Although I wasn’t always successful in my efforts, I couldn’t help that. Since the grace of repentance was withheld from me, I considered myself not accountable for the failure. Also, there were many deadly sins I never committed because I feared those mentioned in the Revelations as exclusionary sins, so I made sure to guard against them constantly. In particular, I trained myself to despise, if not outright hate, the beauty of women, seeing it as the biggest trap humanity faced. Even when young men, young women, and even older women (including my mother) accused me of being unnatural, I took pride in my resolve and, to this day, am grateful for having escaped the most dangerous of all traps.

I kept myself also free of the sins of idolatry and misbelief, both of a deadly nature; and, upon the whole, I think I had not then broken, that is, absolutely broken, above four out of the ten commandments; but, for all that, I had more sense than to regard either my good works, or my evil deeds, as in the smallest degree influencing the eternal decrees of God concerning me, either with regard to my acceptance or reprobation. I depended entirely on the bounty of free grace, holding all the righteousness of man as filthy rags, and believing in the momentous and magnificent truth that, the more heavily loaden with transgressions, the more welcome was the believer at the throne of grace. And I have reason to believe that it was this dependence and this belief that at last ensured my acceptance there.

I kept myself free from the sins of idolatry and false belief, both of which are deadly; and overall, I think I hadn’t really broken more than four out of the ten commandments. Still, I was smart enough not to see my good deeds or my bad actions as having any impact on God’s eternal decisions about me, whether for acceptance or rejection. I relied completely on the generosity of free grace, considering all human righteousness as worthless, and I believed in the important and powerful truth that the more burdened with sins a believer is, the more welcomed they are at the throne of grace. I have good reason to think that it was this reliance and belief that ultimately secured my acceptance there.

I come now to the most important period of my existence—the period that has modelled my character, and influenced every action of my life—without which, this detail of my actions would have been as a tale that hath been told—a monotonous farrago—an uninteresting harangue—in short, a thing of nothing. Whereas, lo! it must now be a relation of great and terrible actions, done in the might, and by the commission of heaven. Amen.

I now arrive at the most significant time of my life—the time that shaped my character and influenced every action I've taken—without which this account of my actions would just be a story that has been told—repetitive, boring, and unengaging—in short, meaningless. Instead, it must now be a narrative of great and remarkable deeds, accomplished through the power and will of heaven. Amen.

Like the sinful king of Israel, I had been walking softly before the Lord for a season. I had been humbled for my transgressions, and, as far as I recollect, sorry on account of their numbers and heinousness. My reverend father had been, moreover, examining me every day regarding the state of my soul, and my answers sometimes appeared to give him satisfaction, and sometimes not. As for my mother, she would harp on the subject of my faith for ever; yet, though I knew her to be a Christian, I confess that I always despised her motley instructions, nor had I any great regard for her person. If this was a crime in me, I never could help it. I confess it freely, and believe it was a judgment from heaven inflicted on her for some sin of former days, and that I had no power to have acted otherwise towards her than I did.

Like the sinful king of Israel, I had been living cautiously before the Lord for a while. I had felt humbled by my wrongdoings and, as far as I can remember, I was truly sorry because of their frequency and severity. My reverend father had been checking in on me daily about my spiritual condition, and my responses sometimes seemed to please him, and sometimes did not. As for my mother, she would endlessly talk about my faith; yet, even though I knew she was a Christian, I have to admit that I always looked down on her mixed messages, nor did I hold her in high regard. If this was a fault on my part, I couldn’t change it. I admit it openly, believing it was a punishment from God for some past sin she had committed, and that I had no choice but to behave towards her as I did.

In this frame of mind was I when my reverend father one morning arose from his seat, and, meeting me as I entered the room, he embraced me, and welcomed me into the community of the just upon earth. I was struck speechless, and could make no answer save by looks of surprise. My mother also came to me, kissed, and wept over me; and, after showering unnumbered blessings on my head, she also welcomed me into the society of the just made perfect. Then each of them took me by a hand, and my reverend father explained to me how he had wrestled with God, as the patriarch of old had done, not for a night, but for days and years, and that in bitterness and anguish of spirit, on my account; but, that he had at last prevailed, and had now gained the long and earnestly desired assurance of my acceptance with the Almighty, in and through the merits and sufferings of his Son. That I was now a justified person, adopted among the number of God's children—my name written in the Lamb's book of life, and that no by-past transgression, nor any future act of my own, or of other men, could be instrumental in altering the decree. "All the powers of darkness," added he, "shall never be able to pluck you again out of your Redeemer's hand. And now, my son, be strong and steadfast in the truth. Set your face against sin, and sinful men, and resist even to blood, as many of the faithful of this land have done, and your reward shall be double. I am assured of your acceptance by the word and spirit of Him who cannot err, and your sanctification and repentance unto life will follow in due course. Rejoice and be thankful, for you are plucked as a brand out of the burning, and now your redemption is sealed and sure."

In this state of mind, I was when my priest father one morning stood up from his chair, and as I walked into the room, he hugged me and welcomed me into the community of the righteous on earth. I was so surprised that I couldn't respond except with my expression. My mother also came to me, kissed me, and cried over me; after showering countless blessings on me, she welcomed me into the company of the perfected righteous. Then they each took one of my hands, and my priest father explained how he had wrestled with God, just like the patriarchs of old, not for just a night, but for days and years, dealing with bitterness and anguish on my behalf; but he had finally prevailed, and now gained the long and eagerly desired assurance of my acceptance with the Almighty, through the merits and sufferings of His Son. I was now justified, adopted among God's children—my name written in the Lamb's book of life, and no past or future wrongdoings of mine or anyone else could change that decree. "All the powers of darkness," he added, "will never be able to pull you out of your Redeemer's hands. And now, my son, be strong and steadfast in the truth. Stand against sin and sinful people, and resist even to the point of blood, as many faithful in this land have done, and your reward will be double. I am confident of your acceptance through the word and spirit of Him who cannot be wrong, and your sanctification and repentance for life will come in due time. Rejoice and be thankful, for you have been rescued like a brand from the fire, and now your redemption is sealed and certain."

I wept for joy to be thus assured of my freedom from all sin, and of the impossibility of my ever again falling away from my new state. I bounded away into the fields and the woods, to pour out my spirit in prayer before the Almighty for his kindness to me: my whole frame seemed to be renewed; every nerve was buoyant with new life; I felt as if I could have flown in the air, or leaped over the tops of the trees. An exaltation of spirit lifted me, as it were, far above the earth and the sinful creatures crawling on its surface; and I deemed myself as an eagle among the children of men, soaring on high, and looking down with pity and contempt on the grovelling creatures below.

I cried tears of joy knowing for sure that I was free from all sin and that I could never fall back into my old ways. I ran off into the fields and woods to express my gratitude in prayer to the Almighty for His kindness toward me: I felt completely renewed; every part of me was energized with new life; it was as if I could fly or jump over the treetops. A sense of uplift filled me, making me feel elevated above the earth and the sinful beings crawling on its surface; I saw myself as an eagle among humans, soaring high and looking down with compassion and disdain at those struggling below.

As I thus wended my way, I beheld a young man of a mysterious appearance coming towards me. I tried to shun him, being bent on my own contemplations; but he cast himself in my way, so that I could not well avoid him; and, more than that, I felt a sort of invisible power that drew me towards him, something like the force of enchantment, which I could not resist. As we approached each other, our eyes met and I can never describe the strange sensations that thrilled through my whole frame at that impressive moment; a moment to me fraught with the most tremendous consequences; the beginning of a series of adventures which has puzzled myself, and will puzzle the world when I am no more in it. That time will now soon arrive, sooner than anyone can devise who knows not the tumult of my thoughts and the labour of my spirit; and when it hath come and passed over, when my flesh and my bones are decayed, and my soul has passed to its everlasting home, then shall the sons of men ponder on the events of my life; wonder and tremble, and tremble and wonder how such things should be.

As I made my way, I saw a young man with a mysterious look coming toward me. I tried to avoid him, focused on my own thoughts, but he stepped in my path, making it hard for me to get away. More than that, I felt an invisible force pulling me toward him, something like magic that I couldn't resist. As we got closer, our eyes met, and I can't fully explain the strange feelings that surged through my body at that powerful moment; a moment that held immense significance for me—the start of a series of adventures that have puzzled me and will continue to puzzle the world when I'm no longer here. That time will come soon, quicker than anyone can imagine, especially those who don't know the chaos in my mind and the struggle in my spirit; and when it arrives and passes, when my body has decayed and my soul has moved on to its eternal resting place, then people will reflect on the events of my life; they'll wonder and be amazed, and amazed and wonder how such things could happen.

That strange youth and I approached each other in silence, and slowly, with our eyes fixed on each other's eyes. We approached till not more than a yard intervened between us, and then stood still and gazed, measuring each other from head to foot. What was my astonishment on perceiving that he was the same being as myself! The clothes were the same to the smallest item. The form was the same; the apparent age; the colour of the hair; the eyes; and, as far as recollection could serve me from viewing my own features in a glass, the features too were the very same. I conceived at first that I saw a vision, and that my guardian angel had appeared to me at this important era of my life; but this singular being read my thoughts in my looks, anticipating the very words that I was going to utter.

That strange young man and I approached each other in silence, slowly, our eyes locked on each other's. We got close until there was less than a yard between us, then we stood still and stared, sizing each other up from head to toe. I was astonished to realize that he was exactly like me! Our clothes matched down to the smallest detail. Our bodies were the same; our apparent age; the color of our hair; our eyes; and, as far as I could remember from looking at my own face in the mirror, our features were identical. At first, I thought I was having a vision, that my guardian angel had shown up at this crucial time in my life; but this unusual guy seemed to read my thoughts through my expression, anticipating the very words I was about to say.

"You think I am your brother," said he; "or that I am your second self. I am indeed your brother, not according to the flesh, but in my belief of the same truths, and my assurance in the same mode of redemption, than which I hold nothing so great or so glorious on earth."

"You think I'm your brother," he said; "or that I'm your other half. I am truly your brother, not by blood, but in my belief in the same truths and my confidence in the same way of being saved, which I hold as nothing greater or more glorious on this earth."

"Then you are an associate well adapted to my present state," said I. "For this time is a time of great rejoicing in spirit to me. I am on my way to return thanks to the Most High for my redemption from the bonds of sin and misery. If you will join with me heart and hand in youthful thanksgiving, then shall we two go and worship together; but, if not, go your way, and I shall go mine."

"Then you’re someone who fits well with how I feel right now," I said. "This is a time of great joy for me. I’m on my way to thank the Most High for saving me from sin and suffering. If you want to join me in this joyful celebration, let’s worship together; but if not, you can go your way, and I’ll go mine."

"Ah, you little know with how much pleasure I will accompany you, and join with you in your elevated devotions," said he fervently. "Your state is a state to be envied indeed; but I have been advised of it, and am come to be a humble disciple of yours; to be initiated into the true way of salvation by conversing with you, and perhaps of being assisted by your prayers."

"Ah, you have no idea how happy I am to join you and share in your profound devotion," he said passionately. "Your situation is truly enviable; I’ve heard about it and have come to be a humble follower of yours, to learn the true path to salvation through our conversations, and maybe even to benefit from your prayers."

My spiritual pride being greatly elevated by this address, I began to assume the preceptor, and questioned this extraordinary youth with regard to his religious principles, telling him plainly, if he was one who expected acceptance with God at all, on account of good works, that I would hold no communion with him. He renounced these at once, with the greatest vehemence, and declared his acquiescence in my faith. I asked if he believed in the eternal and irrevocable decrees of God, regarding the salvation and condemnation of all mankind? He answered that he did so: aye, what would signify all things else that he believed, if he did not believe in that? We then went on to commune about all our points of belief; and in everything that I suggested he acquiesced, and, as I thought that day, often carried them to extremes, so that I had a secret dread he was advancing blasphemies. He had such a way with him, and paid such a deference to all my opinions, that I was quite captivated, and, at the same time, I stood in a sort of awe of him, which I could not account for, and several times was seized with an involuntary inclination to escape from his presence by making a sudden retreat. But he seemed constantly to anticipate my thoughts, and was sure to divert my purpose by some turn in the conversation that particularly interested me. He took care to dwell much on the theme of the impossibility of those ever falling away who were once accepted and received into covenant with God, for he seemed to know that in that confidence, and that trust, my whole hopes were centred.

My spiritual pride was significantly boosted by this conversation, so I took on the role of teacher and questioned this remarkable young man about his religious beliefs. I told him outright that if he thought he could gain acceptance with God based on good works, I wouldn’t associate with him. He immediately rejected that idea emphatically and expressed his agreement with my faith. I asked if he believed in God’s eternal and unchangeable decrees concerning the salvation and condemnation of all humanity. He confirmed that he did: after all, what good would it do to believe anything else if he didn't believe that? We then discussed all our beliefs, and on every point I raised, he agreed, often, it seemed to me that he took them to extremes, which made me secretly worry he might be veering into blasphemy. He had a way about him and showed such respect for my opinions that I found myself completely captivated, yet I also felt a strange awe towards him, which I couldn’t explain. Several times, I felt an urge to escape his presence, wanting to make a sudden exit. But he always seemed to anticipate my thoughts and would steer the conversation in a direction that particularly intrigued me. He focused a lot on the idea that those who have been accepted and made a covenant with God can never fall away, as if he knew that my entire hope rested on that belief.

We moved about from one place to another, until the day was wholly spent. My mind had all the while been kept in a state of agitation resembling the motion of a whirlpool, and, when we came to separate, I then discovered that the purpose for which I had sought the fields had been neglected, and that I had been diverted from the worship of God by attending to the quibbles and dogmas of this singular and unaccountable being, who seemed to have more knowledge and information than all the persons I had ever known put together.

We wandered from one spot to another until the day was completely gone. My mind had been in a constant state of turmoil, like a whirlpool, and when we finally parted ways, I realized that the reason I had come to the fields had been forgotten, and I had been distracted from worshiping God by focusing on the arguments and beliefs of this unusual and mysterious person, who appeared to know more than everyone I had ever met combined.

We parted with expressions of mutual regret, and when I left him I felt a deliverance, but at the same time a certain consciousness that I was not thus to get free of him, but that he was like to be an acquaintance that was to stick to me for good or for evil. I was astonished at his acuteness and knowledge about everything; but, as for his likeness to me, that was quite unaccountable. He was the same person in every respect, but yet he was not always so; for I observed several times, when we were speaking of certain divines and their tenets, that his face assumed something of the appearance of theirs; and it struck me that, by setting his features to the mould of other people's, he entered at once into their conceptions and feelings. I had been greatly flattered, and greatly interested by his conversation; whether I had been the better for it or the worse, I could not tell. I had been diverted from returning thanks to my gracious Maker for his great kindness to me, and came home as I went away, but not with the same buoyancy and lightness of heart. Well may I remember the day in which I was first received into the number, and made an heir to all the privileges of the children of God, and on which I first met this mysterious associate, who from that day forth contrived to wind himself into all my affairs, both spiritual and temporal, to this day on which I am writing the account of it. It was on the 25th day of March, 1704, when I had just entered the eighteenth year of my age. Whether it behoves me to bless God for the events of that day, or to deplore them, has been hid from my discernment, though I have inquired into it with fear and trembling; and I have now lost all hopes of ever discovering the true import of these events until that day when my accounts are to make up and reckon for in another world.

We parted with feelings of mutual regret, and when I left him, I felt a sense of relief, but at the same time, I realized that I wasn’t really free from him. He seemed like someone who would stick around for better or worse. I was amazed by his sharpness and knowledge about everything; however, his resemblance to me was completely puzzling. He was the same person in every way, yet he didn’t always seem that way; I noticed several times, when we talked about certain religious figures and their beliefs, that his face took on some of their characteristics. It struck me that by shaping his features to look like others, he immediately connected with their ideas and emotions. I had been flattered and deeply engaged by our conversation; whether it did me good or harm, I couldn't say. I had been distracted from thanking my gracious Creator for His kindness towards me, and I came back home as I had left, but not with the same lightness in my heart. I will always remember the day I was first accepted into the fold, becoming an heir to all the privileges of being a child of God, and the day I first met this mysterious associate, who has since managed to involve himself in all my affairs, both spiritual and worldly, up to this day when I am writing this account. It was on March 25, 1704, when I had just turned eighteen. Whether I should praise God for the events of that day or mourn them has been hidden from my understanding, even though I've sought clarity with fear and trembling; and I have now given up hope of ever figuring out the true meaning of these events until the day when I must account for them in another world.

When I came home, I went straight into the parlour, where my mother was sitting by herself. She started to her feet, and uttered a smothered scream. "What ails you, Robert?" cried she. "My dear son, what is the matter with you?"

When I got home, I went straight into the living room, where my mom was sitting alone. She jumped up and let out a muffled scream. "What’s wrong, Robert?" she exclaimed. "My dear son, what’s the matter with you?"

"Do you see anything the matter with me?" said I. "It appears that the ailment is with yourself and either in your crazed head or your dim eyes, for there is nothing the matter with me."

"Do you see anything wrong with me?" I said. "It seems like the problem is with you and either your messed-up head or your dull eyes, because there's nothing wrong with me."

"Ah, Robert, you are ill!" cried she. "You are very ill, my dear boy; you are quite changed; your very voice and manner are changed. Ah, Jane, haste you up to the study, and tell Mr. Wringhim to come here on the instant and speak to Robert."

"Ah, Robert, you’re sick!" she exclaimed. "You’re really unwell, my dear boy; you’ve changed a lot; even your voice and behavior are different. Oh, Jane, hurry to the study and tell Mr. Wringhim to come here immediately to speak with Robert."

"I beseech you, woman, to restrain yourself," said I. "If you suffer your frenzy to run away with your judgment in this manner, I will leave the house. What do you mean? I tell you, there is nothing ails me: I never was better."

"I urge you, please calm down," I said. "If you let your anger cloud your judgment like this, I'm going to leave the house. What are you talking about? I promise you, there’s nothing wrong with me: I’ve never felt better."

She screamed, and ran between me and the door, to bar my retreat: in the meantime my reverend father entered, and I have not forgot how he gazed, through his glasses, first at my mother, and then at me. I imagined that his eyes burnt like candles, and was afraid of him, which I suppose made my looks more unstable than they would otherwise have been.

She screamed and ran between me and the door to block my escape. Meanwhile, my father walked in, and I still remember how he looked, peering through his glasses first at my mom and then at me. I imagined his eyes were burning like candles, and I was scared of him, which I guess made my expression even more uncertain than it would have been otherwise.

"What is all this for?" said he. "Mistress! Robert! What is the matter here?"

"What’s all this about?" he said. "Mistress! Robert! What’s going on here?"

"Oh, sir, our boy!" cried my mother; "our dear boy, Mr. Wringhim! Look at him, and speak to him: he is either dying or translated, sir!"

"Oh, sir, our boy!" cried my mother; "our dear boy, Mr. Wringhim! Look at him and talk to him: he is either dying or has been taken away, sir!"

He looked at me with a countenance of great alarm; mumbling some sentences to himself, and then taking me by the arm, as if to feel my pulse, he said, with a faltering voice: "Something has indeed befallen you, either in body or mind, boy, for you are transformed, since the morning, that I could not have known you for the same person. Have you met with any accident?"

He looked at me with a face full of worry; mumbling some words to himself, and then grabbing my arm, as if to check my pulse, he said, with a shaky voice: "Something has definitely happened to you, either physically or mentally, kid, because you’ve changed since this morning. I wouldn't even recognize you as the same person. Have you had any kind of accident?"

"No."

"Nope."

"Have you seen anything out of the ordinary course of nature?"

"Have you seen anything unusual in the way things normally happen?"

"No."

"No."

"Then, Satan, I fear, has been busy with you, tempting you in no ordinary degree at this momentous crisis of your life?"

"Then, Satan, I’m afraid, has been working on you, tempting you more than usual at this important moment in your life?"

My mind turned on my associate for the day, and the idea that he might be an agent of the Devil had such an effect on me that I could make no answer.

My thoughts focused on my partner for the day, and the thought that he could be working for the Devil hit me so hard that I couldn't respond.

"I see how it is," said he; "you are troubled in spirit, and I have no doubt that the enemy of our salvation has been busy with you. Tell me this, has he overcome you, or has he not?"

"I see how it is," he said; "you're feeling troubled, and I'm sure that the enemy of our salvation has been at work with you. Tell me this: has he defeated you, or not?"

"He has not, my dear father," said I. "In the strength of the Lord, I hope I have withstood him. But indeed, if he has been busy with me, I knew it not. I have been conversant this day with one stranger only, whom I took rather for an angel of light."

"He hasn't, my dear father," I said. "With the Lord's strength, I believe I've resisted him. But honestly, if he's been preoccupied with me, I was unaware. I've only interacted today with one stranger, who I thought was more like an angel of light."

"It is one of the Devil's most profound wiles to appear like one," said my mother.

"It’s one of the Devil’s most clever tricks to look like one," my mother said.

"Woman, hold thy peace!" said my reverend father. "Thou pretendest to teach what thou knowest not. Tell me this, boy: did this stranger, with whom you met, adhere to the religious principles in which I have educated you?"

"Woman, be quiet!" said my respected father. "You pretend to teach what you don't understand. Tell me this, boy: did this stranger you met follow the religious beliefs I raised you with?"

"Yes, to every one of them in their fullest latitude," said I.

"Yes, to each one of them in every possible way," I said.

"Then he was no agent of the Wicked One with whom you held converse," said he: "for that is the doctrine that was made to overturn the principalities and powers, the might and dominion of the kingdom of darkness. Let us pray."

"Then he was not an agent of the Evil One with whom you were speaking," he said. "Because that is the belief that was created to overthrow the rulers and authorities, the strength and control of the kingdom of darkness. Let's pray."

After spending about a quarter of an hour in solemn and sublime thanksgiving, this saintly man and minister of Christ Jesus, gave out that the day following should be kept by the family as a day of solemn thanksgiving, and spent in prayer and praise, on account of the calling and election of one of its members; or rather for the election of that individual being revealed on earth, as well as confirmed in Heaven.

After spending about fifteen minutes in serious and heartfelt thanksgiving, this holy man and minister of Christ Jesus declared that the next day should be observed by the family as a day of solemn thanksgiving, dedicated to prayer and praise, in recognition of the calling and election of one of its members; or rather, for the revelation of that individual’s election on earth, as well as its confirmation in Heaven.

The next day was with me a day of holy exultation. It was begun by my reverend father laying his hands upon my head and blessing me, and then dedicating me to the Lord in the most awful and impressive manner. It was in no common way that he exercised this profound rite, for it was done with all the zeal and enthusiasm of a devotee to the true cause, and a champion on the side he had espoused. He used these remarkable words, which I have still treasured up in my heart: "I give him unto Thee only, to Thee wholly, and to Thee for ever. I dedicate him unto Thee, soul, body, and spirit. Not as the wicked of this world, or the hirelings of a Church profanely called by Thy name, do I dedicate this Thy servant to Thee: Not in words and form, learned by rote, and dictated by the limbs of Antichrist, but, Lord, I give him into Thy hand, as a captain putteth a sword into the hand of his sovereign, wherewith to lay waste his enemies. May he be a two-edged weapon in Thy hand and a spear coming out of Thy mouth, to destroy, and overcome, and pass over; and may the enemies of Thy Church fall down before him, and be as dung to fat the land!"

The next day was a day of great joy for me. It began with my father placing his hands on my head and blessing me, dedicating me to the Lord in a truly serious and powerful way. He didn't perform this important rite casually; he was full of the passion and enthusiasm of someone devoted to the right cause and a champion for the side he had chosen. He spoke these memorable words, which I still hold dear: "I give him to You only, wholly and forever. I dedicate him to You, soul, body, and spirit. Not like the wicked of this world, or the hired hands of a church that profanes Your name, do I dedicate this servant to You: Not with words and rituals learned by heart, dictated by the forces of evil, but, Lord, I give him into Your hands, like a captain handing a sword to his sovereign to vanquish his enemies. May he be a double-edged weapon in Your hand and a spear from Your mouth, to destroy, overcome, and advance; and may the enemies of Your Church fall before him, becoming like refuse to nourish the land!"

From the moment, I conceived it decreed, not that I should be a minister of the gospel, but a champion of it, to cut off the enemies of the Lord from the face of the earth; and I rejoiced in the commission, finding it more congenial to my nature to be cutting sinners off with the sword than to be haranguing them from the pulpit, striving to produce an effect which God, by his act of absolute predestination, had for ever rendered impracticable. The more I pondered on these things the more I saw of the folly and inconsistency of ministers in spending their lives striving and remonstrating with sinners in order to induce them to do that which they had it not in their power to do. Seeing that God had from all eternity decided the fate of every individual that was to be born of woman, how vain was it in man to endeavour to save those whom their Maker had, by an unchangeable decree, doomed to destruction. I could not disbelieve the doctrine which the best of men had taught me, and towards which he made the whole of the Scriptures to bear, and yet it made the economy of the Christian world appear to me as an absolute contradiction. How much more wise would it be, thought I, to begin and cut sinners off with the sword! For till that is effected, the saints can never inherit the earth in peace. Should I be honoured as an instrument to begin this great work of purification, I should rejoice in it. But, then, where had I the means, or under what direction was I to begin? There was one thing clear, I was now the Lord's and it behoved me to bestir myself in His service. Oh that I had an host at my command, then would I be as a devouring fire among the workers of iniquity!

From the moment I realized it was meant for me, not to be a minister of the gospel, but a champion of it, to eliminate the enemies of the Lord from the earth; and I was glad about this calling, finding it much more natural for me to be taking out sinners with the sword than to be lecturing them from the pulpit, trying to create a change that God, through his absolute predestination, had made impossible forever. The more I thought about these things, the more I saw the foolishness and inconsistency of ministers spending their lives trying to argue and reason with sinners to make them do what they had no power to do. Given that God had decided the fate of every person who would ever be born long ago, how pointless it was for man to try to save those whom their Creator had, through an unchangeable decree, destined for destruction. I couldn’t disbelieve the doctrine that the best of men had taught me, and for which he made the entire Scriptures support, yet it made the Christian world’s order seem like an absolute contradiction to me. How much wiser it would be, I thought, to start cutting sinners off with the sword! Because until that happens, the saints can never inherit the earth in peace. If I could be honored as an instrument to start this great work of purification, I would rejoice in that. But then, how could I begin, and under whose direction? One thing was clear: I was now the Lord's and I needed to get to work in His service. Oh, if only I had an army at my command, then I would be like a consuming fire among the workers of wickedness!

Full of these great ideas, I hurried through the city, and sought again the private path through the field and wood of Finnieston, in which my reverend preceptor had the privilege of walking for study, and to which he had a key that was always at my command. Near one of the stiles, I perceived a young man sitting in a devout posture, reading a Bible. He rose, lifted his hat, and made an obeisance to me, which I returned and walked on. I had not well crossed the stile till it struck me I knew the face of the youth and that he was some intimate acquaintance, to whom I ought to have spoken. I walked on, and returned, and walked on again, trying to recollect who he was; but for my life I could not. There was, however, a fascination in his look and manner that drew me back towards him in spite of myself, and I resolved to go to him, if it were merely to speak and see who he was.

Full of these great ideas, I rushed through the city and looked for the private path through the fields and woods of Finnieston, where my respected teacher used to walk for study, and for which he always had a key that I could use. Near one of the stiles, I saw a young man sitting in a respectful posture, reading a Bible. He stood up, took off his hat, and bowed to me, which I returned before continuing on my way. As soon as I crossed the stile, it occurred to me that I recognized the young man’s face, and that he was someone I should have spoken to. I walked on, turned back, and walked on again, trying to remember who he was, but I just couldn’t figure it out. There was, however, something intriguing about his look and demeanor that pulled me back toward him despite my hesitation, and I decided to approach him, if only to talk and find out who he was.

I came up to him and addressed him, but he was so intent on his book that, though I spoke, he lifted not his eyes. I looked on the book also, and still it seemed a Bible, having columns, chapters, and verses; but it was in a language of which I was wholly ignorant, and all intersected with red lines and verses. A sensation resembling a stroke of electricity came over me, on first casting my eyes on that mysterious book, and I stood motionless. He looked up, smiled, closed his book, and put it in his bosom. "You seem strangely affected, dear sir, by looking at my book," said he mildly.

I approached him and spoke, but he was so focused on his book that even though I talked, he didn’t look up. I glanced at the book too, and it appeared to be a Bible, with columns, chapters, and verses; but it was in a language I completely didn’t understand, all marked with red lines and verses. A jolt of energy hit me when I first saw that mysterious book, and I stood frozen. He looked up, smiled, closed his book, and tucked it into his chest. “You seem unusually affected, dear sir, by looking at my book,” he said gently.

"In the name of God, what book is that?" said I. "Is it a Bible?"

"In the name of God, what book is that?" I asked. "Is it a Bible?"

"It is my Bible, sir," said he, "but I will cease reading it, for I am glad to see you. Pray, is not this a day for holy festivity with you?"

"It’s my Bible, sir," he said, "but I’ll stop reading it because I’m happy to see you. Isn’t this a day for celebration and joy for you?"

I stared in his face, but made no answer, for my senses were bewildered.

I looked at him, but didn’t say anything because I was confused.

"Do you not know me?" said he. "You appear to be somehow at a loss. Had not you and I some sweet communion and fellowship yesterday?"

"Don't you know me?" he said. "You seem a bit confused. Didn't you and I share some nice time together yesterday?"

"I beg your pardon, sir," said I. "But, surely, if you are the young gentleman with whom I spent the hours yesterday, you have the chameleon art of changing your appearance; I never could have recognized you."

"I’m sorry, sir," I said. "But surely, if you are the young man I spent hours with yesterday, you have the ability to completely change your appearance; I would have never recognized you."

"My countenance changes with my studies and sensations," said he. "It is a natural peculiarity in me, over which I have not full control. If I contemplate a man's features seriously, mine own gradually assume the very same appearance and character. And what is more, by contemplating a face minutely, I not only attain the same likeness but, with the likeness, I attain the very same ideas as well as the same mode of arranging them, so that, you see, by looking at a person attentively, I by degrees assume his likeness, and by assuming his likeness I attain to the possession of his most secret thoughts. This, I say, is a peculiarity in my nature, a gift of the God that made me; but, whether or not given me for a blessing, He knows Himself, and so do I. At all events, I have this privilege, I can never be mistaken of a character in whom I am interested."

"My face changes with my thoughts and feelings," he said. "It’s a natural trait of mine that I can’t fully control. When I seriously contemplate someone's features, my own gradually take on a similar appearance and character. What's more, by studying a face closely, I not only achieve the same likeness but also adopt the same ideas and the way of organizing them. So, you see, by looking at someone intently, I gradually take on their likeness, and by doing so, I gain access to their most secret thoughts. This is a unique aspect of my nature, a gift from the God who created me; whether it was given as a blessing, only He knows, and so do I. In any case, I have this ability: I can never be mistaken about the character of someone I care about."

"It is a rare qualification," replied I, "and I would give worlds to possess it. Then, it appears that it is needless to dissemble with you, since you can at any time extract our most secret thoughts from our bosoms. You already know my natural character?"

"It’s a rare quality," I replied, "and I would give anything to have it. So, it seems there's no need to hide anything from you, since you can pull our deepest thoughts straight from our hearts at any moment. You already know my true character?"

"Yes," said he, "and it is that which attaches me to you. By assuming your likeness yesterday, I became acquainted with your character, and was no less astonished at the profundity and range of your thoughts than at the heroic magnanimity with which these were combined. And now, in addition to these, you are dedicated to the great work of the Lord; for which reasons I have resolved to attach myself as closely to you as possible, and to render you all the service of which my poor abilities are capable."

"Yes," he said, "and that's what connects me to you. By taking on your likeness yesterday, I got to know your character, and I was just as amazed by the depth and breadth of your thoughts as I was by the heroic generosity with which they were paired. And now, on top of that, you are committed to the great work of the Lord; for these reasons, I have decided to get as close to you as I can and offer you all the help that my limited abilities can provide."

I confess that I was greatly flattered by these compliments paid to my abilities by a youth of such superior qualifications; by one who, with a modesty and affability rare at his age, combined a height of genius and knowledge almost above human comprehension. Nevertheless, I began to assume a certain superiority of demeanour towards him, as judging it incumbent on me to do so, in order to keep up his idea of my exalted character. We conversed again till the day was near a close; and the things that he strove most to inculcate on my mind were the infallibility of the elect, and the preordination of all things that come to pass. I pretended to controvert the first of these, for the purpose of showing him the extent of my argumentative powers, and said that "indubitably there were degrees of sinning which would induce the Almighty to throw off the very elect." But behold my hitherto humble and modest companion took up the argument with such warmth that he put me not only to silence but to absolute shame.

I admit that I was really flattered by the compliments about my skills from a young man with such impressive qualifications; someone who, with a rare blend of humility and friendliness for his age, possessed a level of genius and knowledge that was almost beyond belief. Still, I started to adopt a slightly superior attitude toward him, thinking it was necessary to maintain his perception of my elevated status. We talked again until the day was almost over, and the main points he tried to impress upon me were the infallibility of the chosen ones and the predestination of everything that happens. I pretended to argue against the first point to demonstrate my debating skills and said, "Of course, there are levels of wrongdoing that might lead the Almighty to abandon even the chosen ones." But to my surprise, my previously humble and modest friend took on the argument with such passion that he left me not just speechless but completely embarrassed.

"Why, sir," said he, "by vending such an insinuation, you put discredit on the great atonement, in which you trust. Is there not enough of merit in the blood of Jesus to save thousands of worlds, if it was for these worlds that he died? Now, when you know, as you do (and as every one of the elect may know of himself) that this Saviour died for you, namely and particularly, dare you say that there is not enough of merit in His great atonement to annihilate all your sins, let them be as heinous and atrocious as they may? And, moreover, do you not acknowledge that God hath pre-ordained and decreed whatsoever comes to pass? Then, how is it that you should deem it in your power to eschew one action of your life, whether good or evil? Depend on it, the advice of the great preacher is genuine: 'What thine hand findeth to do, do it with all thy might, for none of us knows what a day may bring forth.' That is, none of us knows what is pre-ordained, but whatever it is pre-ordained we must do, and none of these things will be laid to our charge."

"Why, sir," he said, "by putting out such an idea, you undermine the great atonement you believe in. Is there not enough worth in the blood of Jesus to save countless worlds, if that’s why He died? Now, when you know, as you do (and as anyone chosen can know for themselves) that this Savior died for you specifically, can you honestly say there's not enough worth in His great atonement to erase all your sins, no matter how wicked and terrible they may be? And, additionally, do you not admit that God has planned and determined everything that happens? So, how can you think that you have the power to avoid any action in your life, whether good or bad? Trust me, the advice of the great preacher is true: 'Whatever your hand finds to do, do it with all your might, for none of us knows what a day may bring.' That is, none of us knows what is predetermined, but whatever it is, we must do, and none of those things will be held against us."

I could hardly believe that these sayings were genuine or orthodox; but I soon felt that, instead of being a humble disciple of mine, this new acquaintance was to be my guide and director, and all under the humble guise of one stooping at my feet to learn the right. He said that he saw I was ordained to perform some great action for the cause of Jesus and His Church, and he earnestly coveted being a partaker with me; but he besought of me never to think it possible for me to fall from the truth, or the favour of Him who had chosen me, else that misbelief would baulk every good work to which I set my face.

I could hardly believe that these statements were genuine or traditional; but I quickly realized that, instead of being a humble follower of mine, this new acquaintance was actually going to be my guide and mentor, all while pretending to learn from me. He said he could see that I was destined to carry out some significant action for the sake of Jesus and His Church, and he really wanted to be involved with me; however, he asked me to never think it possible for me to stray from the truth, or from the favor of the one who had chosen me, because that kind of doubt would hinder every good work I aimed to achieve.

There was something so flattering in all this that I could not resist it. Still, when he took leave of me, I felt it as a great relief; and yet, before the morrow, I wearied and was impatient to see him again. We carried on our fellowship from day to day, and all the while I knew not who he was, and still my mother and reverend father kept insisting that I was an altered youth, changed in my appearance, my manners, and my whole conduct; yet something always prevented me from telling them more about my new acquaintance than I had done on the first day we met. I rejoiced in him, was proud of him, and soon could not live without him; yet, though resolved every day to disclose the whole story of my connection with him, I had it not in my power. Something always prevented me, till at length I thought no more of it, but resolved to enjoy his fascinating company in private, and by all means to keep my own with him. The resolution was vain: I set a bold face to it, but my powers were inadequate to the task; my adherent, with all the suavity imaginable, was sure to carry his point. I sometimes fumed, and sometimes shed tears at being obliged to yield to proposals against which I had at first felt every reasoning power of my soul rise in opposition; but for all that he never faded in carrying conviction along with him in effect, for he either forced me to acquiesce in his measures, and assent to the truth of his positions, or he put me so completely down that I had not a word left to advance against them.

There was something so flattering about all this that I couldn’t resist it. Still, when he said goodbye, I felt a huge sense of relief; and yet, by the next day, I was restless and eager to see him again. We continued our friendship day after day, and all the while, I didn’t know who he was, even though my mother and the pastor kept insisting that I had changed—different in appearance, behavior, and everything about me. Yet something always stopped me from sharing more about my new friend than I had on the first day we met. I was happy to know him, proud of him, and soon couldn’t imagine my life without him; still, although I resolved every day to tell the whole story of how we were connected, I just couldn’t bring myself to do it. Something always held me back, until eventually, I stopped worrying about it and decided to enjoy his captivating company in private, while doing everything I could to maintain my connection with him. That resolution was pointless: I put on a brave face, but I just didn’t have the strength for it; my friend, with all the charm imaginable, always got his way. Sometimes I would get frustrated, and sometimes I would cry at having to give in to his proposals, against which I had originally felt every part of me resist. But even so, he never stopped convincingly making his point—either he forced me to agree with his plans and accept his views as true, or he completely shut me down so that I had nothing left to argue against him.

After weeks, and I may say months of intimacy, I observed, somewhat to my amazement, that we had never once prayed together; and, more than that, that he had constantly led my attentions away from that duty, causing me to neglect it wholly. I thought this a bad mark of a man seemingly so much set on inculcating certain important points of religion, and resolved next day to put him to the test, and request him to perform that sacred duty in name of us both. He objected boldly; saying there were very few people indeed with whom he could join in prayer, and he made a point of never doing it, as he was sure they were to ask many things of which he disapproved, and that, if he were to officiate himself, he was as certain to allude to many things that came not within the range of their faith. He disapproved of prayer altogether in the manner it was generally gone about, he said. Man made it merely a selfish concern, and was constantly employed asking, asking, for everything. Whereas it became all God's creatures to be content with their lot, and only to kneel before him in order to thank him for such benefits as he saw meet to bestow. In short, he argued with such energy that before we parted I acquiesced, as usual, in his position, and never mentioned prayer to him any more.

After weeks, and I might say months, of being close, I realized, somewhat to my surprise, that we had never prayed together; and even more, that he had consistently distracted me from that responsibility, making me completely neglect it. I thought this was a bad sign for someone who seemed so focused on teaching certain important religious principles, and I decided the next day to test him by asking him to lead that sacred duty for both of us. He strongly objected; he said there were very few people he could actually pray with, and he made it a point never to do it because he was sure they would ask for many things he didn’t agree with. He also insisted that if he were to lead the prayer himself, he would definitely mention things that didn’t align with their beliefs. He disapproved of prayer altogether as it was usually practiced, stating that people made it purely a selfish affair, constantly asking for everything. He believed it was more appropriate for all of God's creations to be satisfied with what they had and only kneel before Him to thank Him for the blessings He chose to give. In short, he argued so passionately that before we parted, I, as usual, agreed with him and never brought up prayer again.

Having been so frequently seen in his company, several people happened to mention the circumstance to my mother and reverend father; but at the same time had all described him differently. At length, they began to examine me with respect to the company I kept, as I absented myself from home day after day. I told them I kept company only with one young gentleman, whose whole manner of thinking on religious subjects I found so congenial with my own that I could not live out of his society. My mother began to lay down some of her old hackneyed rules of faith, but I turned from hearing her with disgust; for, after the energy of my new friend's reasoning, hers appeared so tame I could not endure it. And I confess with shame that my reverend preceptor's religious dissertations began, about this time, to lose their relish very much, and by degrees became exceedingly tiresome to my ear. They were so inferior, in strength and sublimity, to the most common observations of my young friend that in drawing a comparison the former appeared as nothing. He, however, examined me about many things relating to my companion, in all of which I satisfied him, save in one: I could neither tell him who my friend was, what was his name, nor of whom he was descended; and I wondered at myself how I had never once adverted to such a thing for all the time we had been intimate.

Having spent so much time with him, several people brought this up to my mother and my father, but each of them described him differently. Eventually, they started questioning me about the company I kept since I was out of the house day after day. I told them I only spent time with one young man, whose views on religion matched mine so closely that I couldn't imagine being without him. My mother started to recite some of her old, familiar beliefs, but I turned away in disgust; after hearing my friend's compelling arguments, hers felt so dull that I couldn't stand it. I admit, with some shame, that my reverend teacher's religious lectures started to lose their appeal, and over time, they became quite tedious to listen to. They were so weak and uninspiring compared to even the simplest thoughts of my young friend that, when I compared them, the former seemed insignificant. However, he did ask me many questions about my companion, and I could answer all of them except for one: I couldn’t tell him who my friend was, what his name was, or what family he came from, and I was surprised that I had never thought to ask such things during all the time we spent together.

I inquired the next day what his name was; as I said I was often at a loss for it, when talking with him. He replied that there was no occasion for any one friend ever naming another, when their society was held in private, as ours was; for his part he had never once named me since we first met, and never intended to do so, unless by my own request. "But if you cannot converse without naming me, you may call me Gil for the present," added he, "and if I think proper to take another name at any future period, it shall be with your approbation."

I asked the next day what his name was because I often struggled to remember it when talking to him. He replied that there was no need for one friend to name another when their gatherings were private, like ours were; he had never referred to me by name since we first met and didn’t plan to do so unless I requested it. "But if you can’t talk without using my name, you can call me Gil for now," he added, "and if I decide to use a different name in the future, I’ll do so with your approval."

"Gil!" said I. "Have you no name but Gil? Or which of your names is it? Your Christian or surname?"

"Gil!" I said. "Do you only have the name Gil? Which of your names is it? Your first name or your last name?"

"Oh, you must have a surname too, must you!" replied he. "Very well, you may call me Gil-Martin. It is not my Christian name; but it is a name which may serve your turn."

"Oh, you must have a last name too, right?" he replied. "Okay, you can call me Gil-Martin. It’s not my first name, but it’s a name that should work for you."

"This is very strange!" said I. "Are you ashamed of your parents that you refuse to give your real name?"

"This is really strange!" I said. "Are you embarrassed by your parents that you won't tell me your real name?"

"I have no parents save one, whom I do not acknowledge," said he proudly. "Therefore, pray drop that subject, for it is a disagreeable one. I am a being of a very peculiar temper, for, though I have servants and subjects more than I can number, yet, to gratify a certain whim, I have left them, and retired to this city, and, for all the society it contains, you see I have attached myself only to you. This is a secret, and I tell you only in friendship, therefore pray let it remain one, and say not another word about the matter."

"I have no parents except for one, whom I don't acknowledge," he said proudly. "So please drop that topic, because it's an unpleasant one. I'm someone with a very unique temperament; even though I have more servants and subjects than I can count, I’ve left them behind to indulge a certain whim and moved to this city. Despite all the people here, you see that I’ve only formed a connection with you. This is a secret, and I’m sharing it only out of friendship, so please keep it to yourself and don’t mention it again."

I assented, and said no more concerning it; for it instantly struck me that this was no other than the Czar Peter of Russia, having heard that he had been travelling through Europe in disguise, and I cannot say that I had not thenceforward great and mighty hopes of high preferment, as a defender and avenger of the oppressed Christian Church, under the influence of this great potentate. He had hinted as much already, as that it was more honourable, and of more avail to put down the wicked with the sword than try to reform them, and I thought myself quite justified in supposing that he intended me for some great employment, that he had thus selected me for his companion out of all the rest in Scotland, and even pretended to learn the great truths of religion from my mouth. From that time I felt disposed to yield to such a great prince's suggestions without hesitation.

I agreed and didn't say anything more about it because it immediately occurred to me that this was none other than Czar Peter of Russia. I had heard he was traveling through Europe in disguise, and I can't deny that I started to have big hopes for advancement as a defender and avenger of the oppressed Christian Church, under the influence of this powerful ruler. He had already hinted that it was more honorable and effective to take down the wicked with a sword than to try to reform them. I felt justified in thinking that he intended to assign me some important role, that he had chosen me as his companion over everyone else in Scotland, and he even pretended to learn the true principles of religion from me. From that moment on, I was inclined to follow the suggestions of such a great prince without any doubt.

Nothing ever astonished me so much as the uncommon powers with which he seemed invested. In our walk one day, we met with a Mr. Blanchard, who was reckoned a worthy, pious divine, but quite of the moral cast, who joined us; and we three walked on, and rested together in the fields. My companion did not seem to like him, but, nevertheless, regarded him frequently with deep attention, and there were several times, while he seemed contemplating him, and trying to find out his thoughts, that his face became so like Mr. Blanchard's that it was impossible to have distinguished the one from the other. The antipathy between the two was mutual, and discovered itself quite palpably in a short time. When my companion the prince was gone, Mr. Blanchard asked me anent him, and I told him that he was a stranger in the city, but a very uncommon and great personage. Mr. Blanchard's answer to me was as follows: "I never saw anybody I disliked so much in my life, Mr. Robert; and if it be true that he is a stranger here, which I doubt, believe me he is come for no good."

Nothing has ever astonished me as much as the unusual powers he seemed to possess. One day, while we were walking, we ran into Mr. Blanchard, who was known as a decent, religious man, but rather moralistic, and he joined us. The three of us walked on and rested together in the fields. My companion didn’t seem to like him, yet he often looked at him with intense focus. Several times, while he appeared to be contemplating him and trying to understand his thoughts, his face resembled Mr. Blanchard's so much that it was impossible to tell them apart. The dislike between the two was mutual and became quite evident in a short time. After my companion, the prince, left, Mr. Blanchard asked me about him, and I told him that he was a stranger in the city but an extraordinary and significant person. Mr. Blanchard responded, "I have never met anyone I disliked as much in my life, Mr. Robert; and if it’s true that he’s a stranger here, which I doubt, believe me, he’s here for no good."

"Do you not perceive what mighty powers of mind he is possessed of?" said I, "and also how clear and unhesitating he is on some of the most interesting points of divinity?"

"Don’t you see what incredible mental abilities he has?" I said, "and how clear and confident he is about some of the most captivating aspects of divinity?"

"It is for his great mental faculties that I dread him," said he. "It is incalculable what evil such a person as he may do, if so disposed. There is a sublimity in his ideas, with which there is to me a mixture of terror; and, when he talks of religion, he does it as one that rather dreads its truths than reverences them. He, indeed, pretends great strictness of orthodoxy regarding some of the points of doctrine embraced by the reformed church; but you do not seem to perceive that both you and he are carrying these points to a dangerous extremity. Religion is a sublime and glorious thing, the bonds of society on earth, and the connector of humanity with the Divine nature; but there is nothing so dangerous to man as the wresting of any of its principles, or forcing them beyond their due bounds: this is of all others the readiest way to destruction. Neither is there anything so easily done. There is not an error into which a man can fall which he may not press Scripture into his service as proof of the probity of, and though your boasted theologian shunned the full discussion of the subject before me, while you pressed it, I can easily see that both you and he are carrying your ideas of absolute predestination, and its concomitant appendages, to an extent that overthrows all religion and revelation together; or, at least, jumbles them into a chaos, out of which human capacity can never select what is good. Believe me, Mr. Robert, the less you associate with that illustrious stranger the better, for it appears to me that your creed and his carries damnation on the very front of it."

"It’s his incredible intelligence that worries me," he said. "You can’t imagine the kind of harm someone like him could do if he wanted to. There’s something both impressive and frightening about his ideas; when he talks about religion, it feels like he’s more afraid of its truths than he actually respects them. He puts on a show of strict orthodoxy regarding some of the doctrines of the reformed church, but you don’t seem to see that both you and he are pushing these ideas to a dangerous limit. Religion is meant to be a magnificent and glorious thing, the glue that holds society together and connects humanity to the divine. But twisting its principles or pushing them beyond their limits is the most dangerous thing a person can do—it’s the quickest path to destruction. And it’s alarmingly easy to get there. There’s no error a person can make that he can’t twist Scripture to justify, and even though your proud theologian avoided a full discussion of the topic while you pressed him, I can clearly see that both you and he are pushing your ideas of absolute predestination and its related concepts to a point where it completely undermines all religion and revelation, or at least turns them into chaos from which no one can discern what is good. Believe me, Mr. Robert, the less time you spend with that remarkable stranger, the better. It seems to me that your beliefs and his are marked by damnation."

I was rather stunned at this; but pretended to smile with disdain, and said it did not become youth to control age; and, as I knew our principles differed fundamentally, it behoved us to drop the subject. He, however, would not drop it, but took both my principles and me fearfully to task, for Blanchard was an eloquent and powerful-minded old man; and, before we parted, I believe I promised to drop my new acquaintance, and was all but resolved to do it.

I was pretty shocked by this; but I pretended to smile dismissively and said it wasn't right for youth to try to control age. Since I knew our beliefs were pretty different, I thought we should just move on from the topic. However, he wouldn’t let it go and took both my beliefs and me to task, since Blanchard was a very eloquent and strong-minded older man. Before we left, I think I agreed to stop seeing my new acquaintance and was almost determined to do it.

As well might I have laid my account with shunning the light of day. He was constant to me as my shadow, and by degrees he acquired such an ascendency over me that I never was happy out of his company, nor greatly so in it. When I repeated to him all that Mr. Blanchard had said, his countenance kindled with indignation and rage; and then by degrees his eyes sunk inward, his brow lowered, so that I was awed, and withdrew my eyes from looking at him. A while afterwards as I was addressing him, I chanced to look him again in the face, and the sight of him made me start violently. He had made himself so like Mr. Blanchard that I actually believed I had been addressing that gentleman, and that I had done so in some absence of mind that I could not account for. Instead of being amused at the quandary I was in, he seemed offended: indeed, he never was truly amused with anything. And he then asked me sullenly, if I conceived such personages as he to have no other endowments than common mortals?

I might as well have tried to avoid the light of day. He was as constant to me as my shadow, and gradually he gained such control over me that I was never happy when he wasn't around, nor very much so when he was. When I told him everything Mr. Blanchard had said, his face lit up with anger and rage; then slowly his eyes dropped, and his brow furrowed, making me feel intimidated, so I looked away. A little later, as I was talking to him, I accidentally looked back at his face, and it made me jump. He had made himself look so much like Mr. Blanchard that I genuinely thought I was speaking to that gentleman, and I couldn't explain why I had seemed so distracted. Instead of finding my confusion funny, he looked offended: in fact, he never really found anything amusing. He then asked me gloomily if I thought he was just like ordinary people with no other qualities.

I said I never conceived that princes or potentates had any greater share of endowments than other men, and frequently not so much. He shook his head, and bade me think over the subject again; and there was an end of it. I certainly felt every day the more disposed to acknowledge such a superiority in him; and, from all that I could gather, I had now no doubt that he was Peter of Russia. Everything combined to warrant the supposition, and, of course, I resolved to act in conformity with the discovery I had made.

I said I never thought that princes or powerful rulers had any more qualities than other people, and often not as many. He shook his head and told me to think about it again, and that was that. I definitely felt more inclined every day to recognize some kind of superiority in him; and from everything I could gather, I had no doubt that he was Peter of Russia. Everything pointed to that conclusion, so naturally, I decided to act based on the realization I had reached.

For several days the subject of Mr. Blanchard's doubts and doctrines formed the theme of our discourse. My friend deprecated them most devoutly; and then again he would deplore them, and lament the great evil that such a man might do among the human race. I joined with him in allowing the evil in its fullest latitude; and, at length, after he thought he had fully prepared my nature for such a trial of its powers and abilities, he proposed calmly that we two should make away with Mr. Blanchard. I was so shocked that my bosom became as it were a void, and the beatings of my heart sounded loud and hollow in it; my breath cut, and my tongue and palate became dry and speechless. He mocked at my cowardice, and began a-reasoning on the matter with such powerful eloquence that, before we parted, I felt fully convinced that it was my bounden duty to slay Mr. Blanchard; but my will was far, very far from consenting to the deed.

For several days, Mr. Blanchard's doubts and beliefs were the main topic of our conversations. My friend strongly disapproved of them and often expressed his sadness over the significant harm someone like him could cause to humanity. I agreed with him about the seriousness of the issue, and eventually, after he thought he had fully prepared me for such a challenge, he calmly suggested that we should get rid of Mr. Blanchard. I was so taken aback that I felt an emptiness inside, and my heartbeats echoed loudly in my chest; my breath was short, and my tongue felt dry and unable to speak. He mocked my fear and began to argue passionately about the situation, and by the time we finished our discussion, I felt completely convinced that it was my duty to kill Mr. Blanchard; however, my desire to actually go through with it was nonexistent.

I spent the following night without sleep, or nearly so; and the next morning, by the time the sun arose, I was again abroad, and in the company of my illustrious friend. The same subject was resumed, and again he reasoned to the following purport: That supposing me placed at the head of any army of Christian soldiers, all bent on putting down the enemies of the Church, would I have any hesitation in destroying and rooting out these enemies? None, surely. Well then, when I saw and was convinced that here was an individual who was doing more detriment to the Church of Christ on earth than tens of thousands of such warriors were capable of doing, was it not my duty to cut him off, and save the elect? "He who would be a champion in the cause of Christ and His Church, my brave young friend," added he, "must begin early, and no man can calculate to what an illustrious eminence small beginnings may lead. If the man Blanchard is worthy, he is only changing his situation for a better one; and, if unworthy, it is better that one fall than that a thousand souls perish. Let us be up and doing in our vocations. For me, my resolution is taken; I have but one great aim in this world, and I never for a moment lose sight of it."

I spent almost the entire night without sleep, and by morning, right when the sun came up, I was out again with my distinguished friend. We picked up the same topic, and he reasoned once more: if I were leading an army of Christian soldiers determined to defeat the enemies of the Church, would I hesitate to eliminate those enemies? Absolutely not. So, when I realized that there was someone causing more harm to the Church of Christ on earth than tens of thousands of those warriors could inflict, wasn't it my responsibility to take him out and save the worthy? "Anyone who wants to be a champion for Christ and His Church, my brave young friend," he added, "needs to start early, and no one can predict how far small efforts can lead. If Blanchard is worthy, he’s merely moving to a better position; if he’s unworthy, it’s better for one person to fall than for a thousand souls to be lost. Let’s get to work in our missions. For me, my decision is made; I have only one major goal in this world, and I never lose sight of it."

I was obliged to admit the force of his reasoning; for, though I cannot from memory repeat his words, his eloquence was of that overpowering nature that the subtilty of other men sunk before it; and there is also little doubt that the assurance I had that these words were spoken by a great potentate who could raise me to the highest eminence (provided that I entered into his extensive and decisive measures) assisted mightily in dispelling my youthful scruples and qualms of conscience; and I thought moreover that, having such a powerful back friend to support me, I hardly needed to be afraid of the consequences. I consented! But begged a little time to think of it. He said the less one thought of a duty the better; and we parted.

I had to admit the strength of his arguments; even though I can’t recall his exact words, his persuasive style was so compelling that the cleverness of others faded in comparison. There’s also no doubt that knowing these words came from a powerful leader who could elevate me to great heights (as long as I agreed to support his far-reaching plans) really helped ease my youthful doubts and worries. Plus, I figured that with such a strong ally behind me, I didn’t need to fear the consequences. I agreed! But I asked for a little time to think it over. He advised that the less one dwells on a duty, the better, and then we parted ways.

But the most singular instance of this wonderful man's power over my mind was that he had as complete influence over me by night as by day. All my dreams corresponded exactly with his suggestions; and, when he was absent from me, still his arguments sunk deeper in my heart than even when he was present. I dreamed that night of a great triumph obtained, and, though the whole scene was but dimly and confusedly defined in my vision, yet the overthrow and death of Mr. Blanchard was the first step by which I attained the eminent station I occupied. Thus, by dreaming of the event by night, and discoursing of it by day, it soon became so familiar to my mind that I almost conceived it as done. It was resolved on: which was the first and greatest victory gained; for there was no difficulty in finding opportunities enow of cutting off a man who, every good day, was to be found walking by himself in private grounds. I went and heard him preach for two days, and in fact I held his tenets scarcely short of blasphemy; they were such as I had never heard before, and his congregation, which was numerous, were turning up their ears and drinking in his doctrines with the utmost delight; for Oh they suited their carnal natures and self-sufficiency to a hair! He was actually holding it forth, as a fact, that "it was every man's own blame if he was not saved!" What horrible misconstruction! And then he was alleging, and trying to prove from nature and reason, that no man ever was guilty of a sinful action who might not have declined it had he so chosen! "Wretched controvertist!" thought I to myself an hundred times, "shall not the sword of the Lord be moved from its place of peace for such presumptuous, absurd testimonies as these!"

But the most extraordinary example of this amazing man's influence over my mind was that he had as much control over me at night as he did during the day. All my dreams matched his suggestions perfectly; and even when he wasn’t around, his arguments resonated in my heart more deeply than when he was present. That night, I dreamed of a great victory achieved, and though everything in my vision was vague and unclear, the defeat and death of Mr. Blanchard was the first step toward the high position I held. By dreaming about the event at night and discussing it during the day, it soon felt so familiar to me that I almost considered it a done deal. It was decided: the first and biggest victory won; because it wasn’t hard to find opportunities to eliminate a man who could always be found walking alone in private grounds on good days. I went and listened to him preach for two days, and honestly, I thought his beliefs were barely short of blasphemy; they were ideas I had never encountered before, and his large congregation was eagerly absorbing his teachings with great pleasure, as they perfectly catered to their carnal desires and self-satisfaction! He was actually claiming, as a fact, that "it’s every person's own fault if they aren’t saved!" What a terrible distortion! Then he was arguing, trying to prove through nature and reason, that no one ever committed a sinful act unless they could have chosen to avoid it! "Wretched debater!" I thought to myself countless times, "will the sword of the Lord not be drawn from its place of peace for such presumptuous, ridiculous claims as these?"

When I began to tell the prince about these false doctrines, to my astonishment I found that he had been in the church himself, and had every argument that the old divine had used verbatim; and he remarked on them with great concern that these were not the tenets that corresponded with his views in society, and that he had agents in every city, and every land, exerting their powers to put them down. I asked, with great simplicity: "Are all your subjects Christians, prince?"

When I started to explain these false beliefs to the prince, I was shocked to discover that he had actually attended church himself and could recite every argument the old theologian used word for word. He expressed his deep concern that these beliefs didn't align with his views in society and mentioned that he had representatives in every city and country working to suppress them. I asked, quite simply: "Are all your subjects Christians, prince?"

"All my European subjects are, or deem themselves so," returned he; "and they are the most faithful and true subjects I have."

"All my European subjects are, or think they are," he replied; "and they are the most loyal and dedicated subjects I have."

Who could doubt, after this, that he was the Czar of Russia? I have nevertheless had reasons to doubt of his identity since that period, and which of my conjectures is right I believe the God of Heaven only knows, for I do not. I shall go on to write such things as I remember, and, if anyone shall ever take the trouble to read over these confessions, such a one will judge for himself. It will be observed that, since ever I fell in with this extraordinary person, I have written about him only, and I must continue to do so to the end of this memoir, as I have performed no great or interesting action in which he had not a principal share.

Who could doubt, after this, that he was the Czar of Russia? I have, however, had reasons to question his identity since that time, and only the God of Heaven knows which of my guesses is correct, because I don’t. I will continue to write about what I remember, and if anyone ever takes the time to read these confessions, they will judge for themselves. It should be noted that since I first met this remarkable person, I have only written about him, and I must keep doing so until the end of this memoir, as I have not done anything significant or interesting where he wasn’t a major part.

He came to me one day and said: "We must not linger thus in executing what we have resolved on. We have much before our hands to perform for the benefit of mankind, both civil as well as religious. Let us do what we have to do here, and then we must wend our way to other cities, and perhaps to other countries. Mr. Blanchard is to hold forth in the high church of Paisley on Sunday next, on some particularly great occasion: this must be defeated; he must not go there. As he will be busy arranging his discourses, we may expect him to be walking by himself in Finnieston Dell the greater part of Friday and Saturday. Let us go and cut him off. What is the life of a man more than the life of a lamb, or any guiltless animal? It is not half so much, especially when we consider the immensity of the mischief this old fellow is working among our fellow-creatures. Can there be any doubt that it is the duty of one consecrated to God to cut off such a mildew?"

He came to me one day and said: "We can't keep delaying what we've decided to do. We have a lot to accomplish for the good of humanity, both in civic matters and in faith. Let's finish what we need to do here, then we should move on to other cities and maybe even other countries. Mr. Blanchard is scheduled to speak at the main church in Paisley next Sunday for a significant event: we can't let that happen; he must not go there. Since he'll be busy preparing his sermons, we can expect him to be walking alone in Finnieston Dell for most of Friday and Saturday. Let's go and stop him. What is the life of a man worth compared to that of a lamb or any innocent creature? It’s not worth much, especially when we think about the terrible harm this old man is causing to our fellow humans. Is there any doubt that it’s the responsibility of someone dedicated to God to put an end to such decay?"

"I fear me, great sovereign," said I, "that your ideas of retribution are too sanguine, and too arbitrary for the laws of this country. I dispute not that your motives are great and high; but have you debated the consequences, and settled the result?"

"I worry, great ruler," I said, "that your views on punishment are too optimistic and too random for the laws of this country. I don't doubt that your intentions are noble and elevated; but have you thought through the consequences and decided on the outcome?"

"I have," returned be, "and hold myself amenable for the action to the laws of God and of equity; as to the enactments of men, I despise them. Fain would I see the weapon of the Lord of Hosts begin the work of vengeance that awaits it to do!"

"I have," I replied, "and I am accountable for my actions to the laws of God and justice; as for the laws made by humans, I disregard them. I would gladly see the weapon of the Lord of Hosts start the work of vengeance that is waiting to be done!"

I could not help thinking that I perceived a little derision of countenance on his face as he said this, nevertheless I sunk dumb before such a man, aroused myself to the task, seeing he would not have it deferred. I approved of it in theory, but my spirit stood aloof from the practice. I saw and was convinced that the elect of God would be happier, and purer, were the wicked and unbelievers all cut off from troubling and misleading them, but if it had not been the instigations of this illustrious stranger, I should never have presumed to begin so great a work myself. Yet, though he often aroused my zeal to the highest pitch, still my heart at times shrunk from the shedding of life-blood, and it was only at the earnest and unceasing instigations of my enlightened and voluntary patron that I at length put my hand to the conclusive work. After I said all that I could say, and all had been overborne (I remember my actions and words as well as it had been yesterday), I turned round hesitatingly, and looked up to Heaven for direction; but there was a dimness come over my eyes that I could not see. The appearance was as if there had been a veil drawn over me, so nigh that I put up my hand to feel it; and then Gil-Martin (as this great sovereign was pleased to have himself called) frowned, and asked me what I was grasping at. I knew not what to say, but answered, with fear and shame: "I have no weapons, not one; nor know I where any are to be found."

I couldn't shake the feeling that there was a hint of mockery on his face when he said this, yet I fell silent in front of such a man and pushed myself to take action, knowing he wouldn’t allow any delays. I agreed with the idea in theory, but my spirit hesitated at the thought of putting it into practice. I understood that the chosen ones of God would be happier and purer if the wicked and nonbelievers were removed from causing them trouble and confusion, but without the encouragement of this remarkable stranger, I would never have dared to start such a monumental task myself. Even though he often fired up my enthusiasm to its peak, there were times when my heart recoiled at the thought of spilling blood. It was only through the persistent and passionate urging of my knowledgeable and willing supporter that I eventually took on the decisive task. After saying everything I could and feeling overwhelmed (I remember my actions and words as clearly as if it were yesterday), I hesitated and looked up to Heaven for guidance; but my vision had become so clouded that I could not see. It felt as if a veil had been drawn over me, so close that I raised my hand to touch it; then Gil-Martin (as this great ruler liked to call himself) frowned and asked what I was reaching for. Unsure of what to say, I replied with fear and embarrassment: "I have no weapons, not a single one; nor do I know where to find any."

"The God whom thou servest will provide these," said he, "if thou provest worthy of the trust committed to thee."

"The God you serve will provide these," he said, "if you prove worthy of the trust placed in you."

I looked again up into the cloudy veil that covered us and thought I beheld golden weapons of every description let down in it, but all with their points towards me. I kneeled, and was going to stretch out my hand to take one, when my patron seized me, as I thought, by the clothes, and dragged me away with as much ease as I had been a lamb, saying, with a joyful and elevated voice: "Come, my friend, let us depart: thou art dreaming—thou art dreaming. Rouse up all the energies of thy exalted mind, for thou art an highly favoured one; and doubt thou not that He whom thou servest, will be ever at thy right and left hand, to direct and assist thee."

I looked back up at the cloudy curtain above us and thought I saw golden weapons of all kinds hanging down, but all pointing towards me. I knelt down and was about to reach out for one when my patron grabbed me, as easily as if I were a lamb, saying in a joyful and uplifting voice: "Come, my friend, let's go: you're just dreaming—you're just dreaming. Gather all the strength of your elevated mind, for you are truly favored; and don't doubt that He whom you serve will always be at your right and left, to guide and support you."

These words, but particularly the vision I had seen, of the golden weapons descending out of Heaven, inflamed my zeal to that height that I was as one beside himself; which my parents perceived that night, and made some motions towards confining me to my room. I joined in the family prayers, and then I afterwards sung a psalm and prayed by myself; and I had good reasons for believing that that small oblation of praise and prayer was not turned to sin. But there are strange things, and unaccountable agencies in nature: He only who dwells between the Cherubim can unriddle them, and to Him the honour must redound for ever. Amen.

These words, especially the vision I had of the golden weapons coming down from Heaven, fired me up to the point where I felt almost out of control; my parents noticed this that night and tried to keep me in my room. I participated in the family prayers and then sang a psalm and prayed alone; I truly believed that my small offering of praise and prayer was accepted. But there are weird and unexplainable things in nature: Only He who resides between the Cherubim can make sense of them, and all honor should go to Him forever. Amen.

I felt greatly strengthened and encouraged that night, and the next morning I ran to meet my companion, out of whose eye I had now no life. He rejoiced at seeing me so forward in the great work of reformation by blood, and said many things to raise my hopes of future fame and glory; and then producing two pistols of pure beaten gold, he held them out and proffered me the choice of one, saying: "See what thy master hath provided thee!" I took one of them eagerly, for I perceived at once that they were two of the very weapons that were let down from Heaven in the cloudy veil, the dim tapestry of the firmament; and I said to myself. "Surely this is the will of the Lord."

I felt really empowered and encouraged that night, and the next morning I rushed to meet my companion, who was now my only source of life. He was thrilled to see me so enthusiastic about the important work of reform through violence, and he said many things to boost my hopes for future fame and glory. Then he pulled out two pistols made of pure gold, handed one to me, and said, "Look at what your master has provided for you!" I eagerly took one, realizing immediately that these were two of the weapons that had descended from Heaven through the cloudy veil of the sky; and I thought to myself, "Surely this is the will of the Lord."

The little splendid and enchanting piece was so perfect, so complete, and so ready for executing the will of the donor, that I now longed to use it in his service. I loaded it with my own hand, as Gil-Martin did the other, and we took our stations behind a bush of hawthorn and bramble on the verge of the wood, and almost close to the walk. My patron was so acute in all his calculations that he never mistook an event. We had not taken our stand above a minute and a half till old Mr. Blanchard appeared, coming slowly on the path. When we saw this, we cowered down and leaned each of us a knee upon the ground, pointing the pistols through the bush, with an aim so steady that it was impossible to miss our victim.

The little beautiful and captivating piece was so perfect, so complete, and so ready to fulfill the donor's wish that I couldn't wait to use it in his service. I loaded it with my own hand, just like Gil-Martin did with the other one, and we took our positions behind a bush of hawthorn and bramble at the edge of the woods, nearly right next to the path. My patron was so sharp in all his calculations that he never got an event wrong. We had barely stood there for a minute and a half when old Mr. Blanchard appeared, slowly walking down the path. When we saw this, we crouched down, each of us resting a knee on the ground, aiming the pistols through the bush with such steady aim that it was impossible to miss our target.

He came deliberately on, pausing at times so long that we dreaded he was going to turn. Gil-Martin dreaded it, and I said I did, but wished in my heart that he might. He, however, came onward, and I will never forget the manner in which he came! No, I don't believe I ever can forget it, either in the narrow bounds of time or the ages of eternity! He was a broadly, ill-shaped man, of a rude exterior, and a little bent with age; his hands were clasped behind his back and below his coat, and he walked with a slow swinging air that was very peculiar. When he paused and looked abroad on nature, the act was highly impressive: he seemed conscious of being all alone, and conversant only with God and the elements of his creation. Never was there such a picture of human inadvertency! a man approaching step by step to the one that was to hurl him out of one existence into another with as much ease and indifference as the ox goeth to the stall. Hideous vision, wilt thou not be gone from my mental sight! if not, let me bear with thee as I can!

He approached deliberately, stopping at times so long that we feared he might turn back. Gil-Martin was anxious, and I admitted I was too, though part of me secretly hoped he wouldn't. However, he continued onward, and I will never forget how he moved! I really don’t think I ever can forget it, whether in the short span of time or for all eternity! He was a broad, awkward man with a rough appearance, a little bent with age; his hands were clasped behind his back and below his coat, and he walked with a slow, swaying style that was quite unique. When he stopped to look out at nature, the moment was striking: he seemed aware of being completely alone, in conversation only with God and the elements of His creation. Never was there such a scene of human oblivion! A man moving step by step toward the one who would throw him from one existence into another with as much ease and indifference as an ox walking to its stall. Terrible vision, will you not fade from my mind! If not, let me endure you as best as I can!

When he came straight opposite to the muzzles of our pieces, Gil-Martin called out "Eh!" with a short quick sound. The old man, without starting, turned his face and breast towards us, and looked into the wood, but looked over our heads.

When he stood directly in front of our guns, Gil-Martin shouted "Hey!" with a quick, sharp sound. The old man, without flinching, turned his face and chest toward us and peered into the woods, but looked over our heads.

"Now!" whispered my companion, and fired. But my hand refused the office, for I was not at that moment sure about becoming an assassin in the cause of Christ and His Church. I thought I heard a sweet voice behind me, whispering to me to beware, and I was going to look round, when my companion exclaimed: "Coward, we are ruined!"

"Now!" my friend whispered, and fired. But my hand wouldn’t move, because I wasn't sure at that moment about becoming an assassin for Christ and His Church. I thought I heard a soft voice behind me, warning me to be careful, and I was about to turn around when my companion shouted, "Coward, we're doomed!"

I had no time for an alternative: Gil-Martin's ball had not taken effect, which was altogether wonderful, as the old man's breast was within a few yards of him. "Hilloa!" cried Blanchard, "what is that for, you dog!" and with that he came forward to look over the bush. I hesitated, as I said, and attempted to look behind me; but there was no time: the next step discovered two assassins lying in covert, waiting for blood. "Coward, we are ruined!" cried my indignant friend; and that moment my piece was discharged. The effect was as might have been expected: the old man first stumbled to one side, and then fell on his back. We kept our places, and I perceived my companion's eyes gleaming with an unnatural joy. The wounded man raised himself from the bank to a sitting posture, and I beheld his eyes swimming; he however appeared sensible, for we heard him saying in a low and rattling voice: "Alas, alas! whom have I offended, that they should have been driven to an act like this! Come forth and shew yourselves, that I may either forgive you before I die, or curse you in the name of the Lord." He then fell a-groping with both hands on the ground, as if feeling for something he had lost manifestly in the agonies of death; and, with a solemn and interrupted prayer for forgiveness, he breathed his last.

I had no time for another option: Gil-Martin's spell hadn't worked, which was completely amazing, since the old man was just a few yards away. "Hey!" shouted Blanchard, "what is that for, you dog!" and with that, he stepped forward to look over the bush. I hesitated, like I said, and tried to look behind me; but there was no time: the next step revealed two attackers hidden, waiting for blood. "Coward, we're done for!" my furious friend shouted; and at that moment, my gun fired. The result was exactly what you might expect: the old man first stumbled to one side and then fell on his back. We held our ground, and I noticed my companion's eyes shining with an eerie delight. The wounded man pushed himself up from the bank into a sitting position, and I saw his eyes clouding; he still seemed aware, as we heard him saying in a low, rattling voice: "Oh, why, why! Who have I offended, that they would resort to something like this? Show yourselves, so I can either forgive you before I die or curse you in the name of the Lord." He then started groping with both hands on the ground, as if searching for something he had clearly lost in his dying moments; and, with a solemn and broken prayer for forgiveness, he took his last breath.

I had become rigid as a statue, whereas my associate appeared to be elevated above measure. "Arise, thou faint-hearted one, and let us be going," said he. "Thou hast done well for once; but wherefore hesitate in such a cause? This is but a small beginning of so great a work as that of purging the Christian world. But the first victim is a worthy one, and more of such lights must be extinguished immediately."

I had become stiff as a statue, while my partner seemed to be on a higher plane. "Get up, you coward, and let’s move," he said. "You did well this time; but why hesitate in such an important matter? This is just the start of a huge task like cleaning up the Christian world. But the first victim is a deserving one, and we need to snuff out more of these lights right away."

We touched not our victim, nor anything pertaining to him, for fear of staining our hands with his blood; and the firing having brought three men within view, who were hasting towards the spot, my undaunted companion took both the pistols, and went forward as with intent to meet them, bidding me shift for myself. I ran off in a contrary direction, till I came to the foot of the Pearman Sike, and then, running up the hollow of that, I appeared on the top of the bank as if I had been another man brought in view by hearing the shots in such a place. I had a full view of a part of what passed, though not of all. I saw my companion going straight to meet the men, apparently with a pistol in every hand, waving in a careless manner. They seemed not quite clear of meeting with him, and so he went straight on, and passed between them. They looked after him, and came onwards; but, when they came to the old man lying stretched in his blood, then they turned and pursued my companion, though not so quickly as they might have done; and I understand that from the first they saw no more of him.

We didn’t touch our victim or anything related to him, fearing we would get his blood on our hands. When gunshots drew three men into view, my fearless friend grabbed both pistols and moved forward as if to confront them, telling me to fend for myself. I ran off in the opposite direction until I reached the foot of the Pearman Sike. Then, running up that hollow, I appeared on the top of the bank as if I were a different person who had shown up after hearing the shots. I could see part of what was happening, though not everything. I saw my friend going straight to meet the men, seemingly holding a pistol in each hand, waving them around casually. They didn’t seem sure about confronting him, so he continued and walked right between them. They watched him go, then moved forward, but when they reached the old man lying dead in his blood, they turned and chased after my friend, though not as fast as they could have; I learned that from the start, they never saw him again.

Great was the confusion that day in Glasgow. The most popular of all their preachers of morality was (what they called) murdered in cold blood, and a strict and extensive search was made for the assassin. Neither of the accomplices was found, however, that is certain, nor was either of them so much as suspected; but another man was apprehended under circumstances that warranted suspicion. This was one of the things that I witnessed in my life, which I never understood, and it surely was one of my patron's most dexterous tricks, for I must still say, what I have thought from the beginning, that like him there never was a man created. The young man who was taken up was a preacher; and it was proved that he had purchased fire-arms in town, and gone out with them that morning. But the far greatest mystery of the whole was that two of the men, out of the three who met my companion, swore that that unfortunate preacher was the man whom they met with a pistol in each hand, fresh from the death of the old divine. The poor fellow made a confused speech himself, which there is not the least doubt was quite true; but it was laughed to scorn, and an expression of horror ran through both the hearers and jury. I heard the whole trial, and so did Gil-Martin; but we left the journeyman preacher to his fate, and from that time forth I have had no faith in the justice of criminal trials. If once a man is prejudiced on one side, he will swear anything in support of such prejudice. I tried to expostulate with my mysterious friend on the horrid injustice of suffering this young man to die for our act, but the prince exulted in it more than the other, and said the latter was the most dangerous man of the two.

That day in Glasgow was filled with chaos. The most popular moral preacher was what they called murdered in cold blood, and a thorough search went out for the murderer. However, neither of the accomplices was found, that's for sure, nor did anyone suspect them; instead, another man was arrested under suspicious circumstances. This was one of those moments in my life that I never quite understood, and it was undoubtedly one of my patron's cleverest tricks, because I still believe, as I have from the start, that there has never been a man like him. The young man who got arrested was also a preacher, and it was proven that he had bought firearms in town and had taken them out that morning. But the biggest mystery of all was that two out of the three men who met my companion swore that this unfortunate preacher was the one they saw with a pistol in each hand, just after the old divine’s death. The poor guy gave a jumbled speech that was definitely true, but it was ridiculed, and a wave of horror swept through both the audience and the jury. I listened to the whole trial, and so did Gil-Martin; but we left the journeyman preacher to his fate, and since then, I’ve lost all faith in the justice of criminal trials. Once someone is biased, they will swear to anything to back that bias up. I tried to reason with my mysterious friend about the terrible injustice of letting this young man die for what we did, but the prince was more thrilled about it than anyone and claimed the latter was the more dangerous of the two.

The alarm in and about Glasgow was prodigious. The country being divided into two political parties, the court and the country party, the former held meetings, issued proclamations, and offered rewards, ascribing all to the violence of party spirit, and deprecating the infernal measures of their opponents. I did not understand their political differences; but it was easy to see that the true Gospel preachers joined all on one side, and the upholders of pure morality and a blameless life on the other, so that this division proved a test to us, and it was forthwith resolved that we two should pick out some of the leading men of this unsaintly and heterodox cabal, and cut them off one by one, as occasion should suit.

The alarm in and around Glasgow was huge. The country was split into two political parties, the court party and the country party. The court party held meetings, issued proclamations, and offered rewards, blaming everything on the intense party spirit and condemning the extreme actions of their opponents. I didn't fully grasp their political differences, but it was clear that the true Gospel preachers sided with one party, while the supporters of pure morality and a clean life sided with the other. This division became a test for us, and we quickly decided that the two of us would identify some of the leading figures of this unsaintly and unorthodox group and take them down one by one, as opportunities arose.

Now, the ice being broke, I felt considerable zeal in our great work, but pretended much more; and we might soon have kidnapped them all through the ingenuity of my patron, had not our next attempt miscarried, by some awkwardness or mistake of mine. The consequence was that he was discovered fairly, and very nigh seized. I also was seen, and suspected so far that my reverend father, my mother, and myself were examined privately. I denied all knowledge of the matter; and they held it in such a ridiculous light, and their conviction of the complete groundlessness of the suspicion was so perfect, that their testimony prevailed, and the affair was hushed. I was obliged, however, to walk circumspectly, and saw my companion the prince very seldom, who was prowling about every day, quite unconcerned about his safety. He was every day a new man, however, and needed not to be alarmed at any danger; for such a facility had he in disguising himself that, if it had not been for a password which we had between us, for the purposes of recognition, I never could have known him myself.

Now that the tension was broken, I felt a lot of enthusiasm for our big project, but I pretended to be even more excited. We might have easily kidnapped them all thanks to my patron's cleverness, but our next attempt failed because of some mistake or awkwardness on my part. As a result, he was discovered and nearly captured. I was also seen, and my father, mother, and I were questioned privately. I denied knowing anything about it, and they found the whole situation so absurd that they were completely convinced the suspicion was unfounded. Their testimony was enough to settle the issue, and everything was smoothed over. However, I had to be very careful moving forward and saw my companion, the prince, very rarely. He was wandering around every day, completely unconcerned for his safety. He seemed like a different person each day, and he didn’t need to worry about any danger; he was so good at disguising himself that, if it weren’t for the password we had for recognition, I wouldn’t have recognized him myself.

It so happened that my reverend father was called to Edinburgh about this time, to assist with his counsel in settling the national affairs. At my earnest request I was permitted to accompany him, at which both my associate and I rejoiced, as we were now about to move in a new and extensive field. All this time I never knew where my illustrious friend resided. He never once invited me to call on him at his lodgings, nor did he ever come to our house, which made me sometimes to suspect that, if any of our great efforts in the cause of true religion were discovered, he intended leaving me in the lurch. Consequently, when we met in Edinburgh (for we travelled not in company), I proposed to go with him to look for lodgings, telling him at the same time what a blessed religious family my reverend instructor and I were settled in. He said he rejoiced at it, but he made a rule of never lodging in any particular house, but took these daily, or hourly, as he found it convenient, and that he never was at a loss in any circumstance.

It just so happened that my reverend father was called to Edinburgh around this time to help with his advice on settling national matters. At my earnest request, I was allowed to go with him, which my companion and I were both excited about since we were now about to move into a new and wide-ranging opportunity. Throughout this time, I never knew where my distinguished friend lived. He never invited me to his place or came to our house, which sometimes led me to suspect that if any of our major efforts in the cause of true religion were uncovered, he would leave me hanging. So, when we met in Edinburgh (since we didn't travel together), I suggested we find a place to stay, telling him at the same time how blessed my reverend instructor and I were to be in such a religious family. He said he was happy about that, but he made it a rule never to stay in one specific house; instead, he grabbed a place to stay daily, or even hourly, as it suited him, and he claimed to never be at a loss in any situation.

"What a mighty trouble you put yourself to, great sovereign!" said I, "and all, it would appear, for the purpose of seeing and knowing more and more of the human race."

"What a huge hassle you've put yourself through, great leader!" I said, "and it seems to be all for the purpose of seeing and understanding more and more about humanity."

"I never go but where I have some great purpose to serve," returned he, "either in the advancement of my own power and dominion or in thwarting my enemies."

"I only go where I have a significant purpose," he replied, "either to increase my own power and control or to undermine my enemies."

"With all due deference to your great comprehension, my illustrious friend," said I, "it strikes me that you can accomplish very little either the one way or the other here, in the humble and private capacity you are pleased to occupy."

"With all due respect to your considerable understanding, my distinguished friend," I said, "it seems to me that you can achieve very little in either direction here, in the modest and personal role you choose to hold."

"It is your own innate modesty that prompts such a remark," said he. "Do you think the gaining of you to my service is not an attainment worthy of being envied by the greatest potentate in Christendom? Before I had missed such a prize as the attainment of your services, I would have travelled over one half of the habitable globe."—I bowed with great humility, but at the same time how could I but feel proud and highly flattered? He continued: "Believe me, my dear friend, for such a prize I account no effort too high. For a man who is not only dedicated to the King of Heaven in the most solemn manner, soul, body, and spirit, but also chosen of him from the beginning, justified, sanctified, and received into a communion that never shall be broken, and from which no act of his shall ever remove him—the possession of such a man, I tell you, is worth kingdoms; because, every deed that he performs, he does it with perfect safety to himself and honour to me."—I bowed again, lifting my hat, and he went on.— "I am now going to put his courage in the cause he has espoused to a severe test—to a trial at which common nature would revolt, but he who is dedicated to be the sword of the Lord must raise himself above common humanity. You have a father and a brother according to the flesh: what do you know of them?"

"It’s your natural modesty that leads you to say that," he replied. "Do you really think having you in my service isn’t something that the most powerful ruler in Christendom would envy? Before I would have missed out on having you, I would have traveled halfway around the world." I bowed with great humility, but at the same time, how could I not feel proud and incredibly flattered? He continued, "Believe me, my dear friend, for such a prize, no effort is too great. A man who is completely dedicated to the King of Heaven—body, soul, and spirit—and also chosen by Him from the very beginning, justified, sanctified, and brought into an unbreakable communion—such a man is worth kingdoms, because everything he does is done with perfect safety for himself and honor for me." I bowed again and lifted my hat, and he continued. "I’m now going to put his courage in the cause he has embraced to the test—a trial that would make most people flinch. But he who is meant to be the sword of the Lord must rise above ordinary humanity. You have a father and a brother by blood: what do you really know about them?"

"I am sorry to say I know nothing good," said I. "They are reprobates, castaways, beings devoted to the Wicked One, and, like him, workers of every species of iniquity with greediness."

"I’m sorry to say I don’t know anything good," I said. "They’re lost causes, outcasts, beings devoted to the Evil One, and, like him, they commit all kinds of wrongdoing with greed."

"They must both fall!" said he, with a sigh and melancholy look. "It is decreed in the councils above that they must both fall by your hand."

"They both have to fall!" he said, with a sigh and a sad expression. "It’s been decided by the higher powers that you must be the one to bring them down."

"The God of Heaven forbid it!" said I. "They are enemies to Christ and His Church, that I know and believe; but they shall live and die in their iniquity for me, and reap their guerdon when their time cometh. There my hand shall not strike."

"The God of Heaven forbid it!" I said. "They are enemies of Christ and His Church, and I know that to be true; but they will live and die in their wrongdoing because of me, and will get what they deserve when their time comes. My hand will not strike."

"The feeling is natural, and amiable," said he. "But you must think again. Whether are the bonds of carnal nature or the bonds and vows of the Lord strongest?"

"The feeling is natural and friendly," he said. "But you need to reconsider. Which is stronger, the ties of physical desire or the bonds and vows of the Lord?"

"I will not reason with you on this head, mighty potentate," said I, "for whenever I do so it is but to be put down. I shall only, express my determination not to take vengeance out of the Lord's hand in this instance. It availeth not. These are men that have the mark of the beast in their foreheads and right hands; they are lost beings themselves, but have no influence over others. Let them perish in their sins; for they shall not be meddled with by me."

"I won't argue with you about this, great ruler," I said, "because every time I do, I'm just shut down. Instead, I'll simply express my decision not to take revenge on my own in this situation. It's pointless. These are people who bear the mark of the beast on their foreheads and right hands; they're already lost themselves, but they don't hold sway over others. Let them perish in their sins; I won't interfere with them."

"How preposterously you talk, my dear friend!" said he. "These people are your greatest enemies; they would rejoice to see you annihilated. And, now that you have taken up the Lord's cause of being avenged on His enemies, wherefore spare those that are your own as well as His? Besides, you ought to consider what great advantages would be derived to the cause of righteousness and truth were the estate and riches of that opulent house in your possession, rather than in that of such as oppose the truth and all manner of holiness."

"How ridiculous you sound, my dear friend!" he said. "These people are your worst enemies; they would be thrilled to see you destroyed. And now that you’ve taken up the Lord's cause to get back at His enemies, why let those who are both your enemies and His go free? Besides, you should think about how much good could come to the cause of righteousness and truth if the estate and wealth of that wealthy household were in your hands instead of in the hands of those who oppose the truth and all forms of holiness."

This was a portion of the consequence of following my illustrious adviser's summary mode of procedure that had never entered into my calculation. I disclaimed all idea of being influenced by it; however, I cannot but say that the desire of being enabled to do so much good, by the possession of these bad men's riches, made some impression on my heart, and I said I would consider of the matter. I did consider it, and that right seriously as well as frequently; and there was scarcely an hour in the day on which my resolves were not animated by my great friend, till at length I began to have a longing desire to kill my brother, in particular. Should any man ever read this scroll, he will wonder at this confession, and deem it savage and unnatural. So it appeared to me at first, but a constant thinking of an event changes every one of its features. I have done all for the best, and as I was prompted, by one who knew right and wrong much better than I did. I had a desire to slay him, it is true, and such a desire too as a thirsty man has to drink; but, at the same time, this longing desire was mingled with a certain terror, as if I had dreaded that the drink for which I longed was mixed with deadly poison. My mind was so much weakened, or rather softened about this time, that my faith began a little to give way, and I doubted most presumptuously of the least tangible of all Christian tenets, namely, of the infallibility of the elect. I hardly comprehended the great work I had begun, and doubted of my own infallibility, or that of any created being. But I was brought over again by the unwearied diligence of my friend to repent of my backsliding, and view once more the superiority of the Almighty's counsels in its fullest latitude. Amen.

This was part of the consequence of following my brilliant advisor's way of doing things that I had never considered. I claimed I wasn't influenced by it; however, I can't deny that the desire to do so much good with the wealth of these bad men affected me, and I said I would think about it. I did think about it, seriously and often; there was hardly an hour in the day when my resolve wasn't fueled by my great friend, until I started to develop a strong desire to kill my brother, in particular. If anyone ever reads this note, they will be shocked by this confession and consider it brutal and unnatural. It seemed that way to me at first, but thinking about an event constantly changes how you see it. I did everything for the best, guided by someone who understood right and wrong way better than I did. I really did have a desire to kill him, just as a thirsty person craves a drink; but at the same time, this longing was mixed with a fear, as if I dreaded that the drink I craved was poisoned. My mind was so weakened, or rather softened, at that time, that my faith started to waver, and I arrogantly doubted one of the most intangible of all Christian beliefs: the infallibility of the elect. I hardly understood the significant task I had started and questioned my own infallibility, or that of any created being. But my friend's tireless effort helped me repent for my doubts and see once again the greatness of the Almighty's guidance in its fullest extent. Amen.

I prayed very much in secret about this time, and that with great fervour of spirit, as well as humility; and my satisfaction at finding all my requests granted is not to be expressed.

I prayed a lot in private during this time, with a lot of passion and humility; and my joy at seeing all my requests fulfilled is beyond words.

My illustrious friend still continuing to sound in my ears the imperious duty to which I was called, of making away with my sinful relations, and quoting many parallel actions out of the Scriptures, and the writings of the holy fathers, of the pleasure the Lord took in such as executed his vengeance on the wicked, I was obliged to acquiesce in his measures, though with certain limitations. It was not easy to answer his arguments, and yet I was afraid that he soon perceived a leaning to his will on my part. "If the acts of Jehu, in rooting out the whole house of his master, were ordered and approved-of by the Lord," said he, "would it not have been more praiseworthy if one of Ahab's own sons had stood up for the cause of the God of Israel, and rooted out the sinners and their idols out of the land?"

My distinguished friend kept ringing in my ears the urgent responsibility I had to eliminate my sinful connections, citing numerous examples from the Scriptures and the writings of the holy fathers about the joy the Lord felt towards those who carried out His judgment on the wicked. I felt forced to go along with his ideas, although with some limits. It wasn’t easy to counter his arguments, and I worried he might quickly notice my growing alignment with his wishes. “If the actions of Jehu, in wiping out the entire house of his master, were ordered and endorsed by the Lord,” he said, “wouldn't it have been even more commendable if one of Ahab's own sons had stood up for the God of Israel and rid the land of the sinners and their idols?”

"It would certainly," said I. "To our duty to God all other duties must yield."

"It definitely would," I said. "Our duty to God comes before all other duties."

"Go thou then and do likewise," said he. "Thou are called to a high vocation; to cleanse the sanctuary of thy God in this thy native land by the shedding of blood; go thou then like a ruling energy, a master spirit of desolation in the dwellings of the wicked, and high shall be your reward both here and hereafter."

"Go then and do the same," he said. "You are called to a great purpose; to purify the sanctuary of your God in this land by shedding blood. So go, like a powerful force, a controlling spirit of devastation in the homes of the wicked, and your reward will be great both now and in the afterlife."

My heart now panted with eagerness to look my brother in the face. On which my companion, who was never out of the way, conducted me to a small square in the suburbs of the city, where there were a number of young noblemen and gentlemen playing at a vain, idle, and sinful game, at which there was much of the language of the accursed going on; and among these blasphemers he instantly pointed out my brother to me. I was fired with indignation at seeing him in such company, and so employed; and I placed myself close beside him to watch all his motions, listen to his words, and draw inferences from what I saw and heard. In what a sink of sin was he wallowing! I resolved to take him to task, and, if he refused to be admonished, to inflict on him some condign punishment; and, knowing that my illustrious friend and director was looking on, I resolved to show some spirit. Accordingly, I waited until I heard him profane his Maker's name three times, and then, my spiritual indignation being roused above all restraint, I went up and kicked him. Yes, I went boldly up and struck him with my foot, and meant to have given him a more severe blow than it was my fortune to inflict. It had, however, the effect of rousing up his corrupt nature to quarrelling and strife, instead of taking the chastisement of the Lord in humility and meekness. He ran furiously against me in the choler that is always inspired by the wicked one; but I overthrew him, by reason of impeding the natural and rapid progress of his unholy feet running to destruction. I also fell slightly; but his fall proved a severe one, he arose in wrath, and struck me with the mall which he held in his hand, until my blood flowed copiously; and from that moment I vowed his destruction in my heart. But I chanced to have no weapon at that time, nor any means of inflicting due punishment on the caitiff, which would not have been returned double on my head by him and his graceless associates. I mixed among them at the suggestion of my friend, and, following them to their den of voluptuousness and sin, I strove to be admitted among them, in hopes of finding some means of accomplishing my great purpose, while I found myself moved by the spirit within me so to do. But I was not only debarred, but, by the machinations of my wicked brother and his associates, cast into prison.

My heart was racing with excitement to see my brother's face. My ever-present companion led me to a small square in the city's outskirts, where several young nobles and gentlemen were engaged in a pointless, idle, and sinful game, filled with foul language. Among these blasphemers, he quickly pointed out my brother. I was filled with anger at seeing him in such company and doing such things, so I positioned myself right next to him to observe his actions, listen to his words, and draw conclusions from what I saw and heard. What a pit of sin he was trapped in! I decided to confront him, and if he refused to listen, to punish him. Knowing my esteemed friend and mentor was watching, I wanted to show some resolve. I waited until I heard him use God's name in vain three times, and then, fueled by my spiritual outrage, I went up and kicked him. Yes, I boldly approached and struck him with my foot, intending to deliver a much harsher blow than I ended up doing. However, my action only stirred his corrupt nature into anger and conflict instead of allowing him to accept the Lord's chastisement with humility. He charged at me furiously, fueled by the wickedness within him, but I managed to trip him, interrupting the rapid pace of his sinful feet headed for destruction. I stumbled a bit too, but his fall was much harder. He got up in rage and hit me with the hammer he was holding, causing my blood to flow freely; at that moment, I vowed to see his downfall. Unfortunately, I had no weapon with me to carry out the punishment he deserved, which would only lead to more trouble from him and his morally bankrupt friends. My friend suggested I blend in with them, so I followed them to their lair of indulgence and sin, hoping to find a way to achieve my goal, feeling driven by the spirit within me. But not only was I barred entry, but I was also thrown into prison by the schemes of my wicked brother and his friends.

I was not sorry at being thus honoured to suffer in the cause of righteousness, and at the hands of sinful men; and, as soon as I was alone, I betook myself to prayer, deprecating the long-suffering of God towards such horrid sinners. My jailer came to me, and insulted me. He was a rude unprincipled fellow, partaking of the loose and carnal manners of the age; but I remembered of having read, in the Cloud of Witnesses, of such men formerly having been converted by the imprisoned saints; so I set myself, with all my heart, to bring about this man's repentance and reformation.

I wasn't upset about being honored to suffer for righteousness, even at the hands of sinful people. Once I was alone, I began to pray, pleading with God for patience towards such terrible sinners. My jailer came to me and insulted me. He was a rude, unprincipled guy, reflecting the loose and immoral ways of the time. But I remembered reading in the Cloud of Witnesses about how such men had been converted by imprisoned saints, so I dedicated myself fully to try to lead this man to repentance and change.

"Fat the deil are ye yoolling an' praying that gate for, man?" said he, coming angrily in. "I thought the days o' praying prisoners had been a' ower. We hath rowth o' them aince; an' they were the poorest an' the blackest bargains that ever poor jailers saw. Gie up your crooning, or I'll pit you to an in-by place, where ye sall get plenty o't."

"Why the hell are you yelling and praying like that, man?" he said, stepping in angrily. "I thought the days of praying prisoners were over. We had plenty of them once, and they were the worst deals that any poor jailers ever saw. Stop your whining, or I’ll put you in a place where you’ll get more than enough."

"Friend," said I, "I am making my appeal at the bar where all human actions are seen and judged, and where you shall not be forgot, sinful as you are. Go in peace, and let me be."

"Friend," I said, "I’m making my case in front of the place where all human actions are seen and judged, and where you won’t be forgotten, even though you’re sinful. Go in peace, and leave me alone."

"Hae ye naebody nearer-hand hame to mak your appeal to, man?" said he. "Because an ye hae-na, I dread you an' me may be unco weel acquaintit by an' by."

"Haven't you got anyone closer to home to make your appeal to, man?" he said. "Because if you don't, I'm afraid you and I might end up pretty well acquainted soon."

I then opened up the mysteries of religion to him in a clear and perspicuous manner, but particularly the great doctrine of the election of grace; and then I added: "Now, friend, you must tell me if you pertain to this chosen number. It is in every man's power to ascertain this, and it is every man's duty to do it."

I then explained the mysteries of religion to him in a straightforward way, especially the important idea of being chosen by grace; and then I said: "Now, my friend, you need to tell me if you belong to this chosen group. It's up to every person to figure this out, and it's each person’s responsibility to do so."

"An' fat the better wad you be for the kenning o' this, man?" said he.

"Don't you think it would be better for you to know this, man?" he said.

"Because, if you are one of my brethren, I will take you into sweet communion and fellowship," returned I. "But, if you belong to the unregenerate, I have a commission to slay you."

"Because if you’re one of my fellow believers, I will welcome you into sweet communion and fellowship," I replied. "But if you belong to the unredeemed, I have a mission to slay you."

"The deil you hae, callant!" said he, gaping and laughing. "An', pray now, fa was it, that gae you siccan a braw commission?"

"The devil you have, boy!" he said, staring and laughing. "And, please tell me, who gave you such a fancy commission?"

"My commission is sealed by the signet above," said I, "and that I will let you and all sinners know. I am dedicated to it by the most solemn vows and engagements. I am the sword of the Lord, and Famine and Pestilence are my sisters. Woe then to the wicked of this land, for they must fall down dead together, that the Church may be purified!"

"My commission is sealed by the signet above," I said, "and I will make sure you and all sinners know this. I am bound to it by the most serious vows and commitments. I am the sword of the Lord, and Famine and Pestilence are my sisters. So woe to the wicked of this land, for they must fall down dead together, so that the Church may be purified!"

"Oo, foo, foo! I see how it is," said he. "Yours is a very braw commission, but you will have the small opportunity of carrying it through here. Take my advising, and write a bit of a letter to your friends, and I will send it, for this is no place for such a great man. If you cannot steady your hand to write, as I see you have been at your great work, a word of a mouth may do; for I do assure you this is not the place at all, of any in the world, for your operations."

"Wow, wow, wow! I get it now," he said. "You have quite the task ahead of you, but you won't have much chance to accomplish it here. Take my advice and write a short letter to your friends, and I'll send it for you, because this is no place for someone as important as you. If you can't calm your hand enough to write, which I see you've been struggling with in your important work, a spoken word might suffice; trust me, this is definitely not the right place in the world for your efforts."

The man apparently thought I was deranged in my intellect. He could not swallow such great truths at the first morsel. So I took his advice, and sent a line to my reverend father, who was not long in coming, and great was the jailer's wonderment when he saw all the great Christian noblemen of the land sign my bond of freedom.

The man clearly thought I was crazy. He couldn't handle such huge truths all at once. So I took his advice and sent a message to my reverend father, who arrived quickly, and the jailer was amazed to see all the prominent Christian noblemen of the country signing my bond for freedom.

My reverend father took this matter greatly to heart, and bestirred himself in the good cause till the transgressors were ashamed to shew their faces. My illustrious companion was not idle: I wondered that he came not to me in prison, nor at my release; but he was better employed, in stirring up the just to the execution of God's decrees; and he succeeded so well that my brother and all his associates had nearly fallen victims to their wrath. But many were wounded, bruised, and imprisoned, and much commotion prevailed in the city. For my part, I was greatly strengthened in my resolution by the anathemas of my reverend father, who, privately (that is in a family capacity) in his prayers, gave up my father and brother, according to the flesh, to Satan, making it plain to all my senses of perception that they were being given up of God, to be devoured by fiends of men, at their will and pleasure, and that whosoever should slay them would do God good service.

My reverend father took this matter very seriously and worked tirelessly for the right cause until those who did wrong were ashamed to show their faces. My esteemed companion was also busy; I was surprised he didn’t visit me in prison or when I was released. Instead, he was focused on rallying the righteous to carry out God’s will, and he was so effective that my brother and his associates were almost victims of their fury. But many were injured, hurt, and locked up, and there was a lot of unrest in the city. As for me, I felt even more determined by the curses from my reverend father, who, in private family prayers, handed my father and brother over to Satan, making it clear to all my senses that they were abandoned by God to be tormented by wicked men as they pleased, and that anyone who killed them would be doing God a favor.

The next morning my illustrious friend met me at an early hour, and he was greatly overjoyed at hearing my sentiments now chime so much in unison with his own. I said: "I longed for the day and the hour that I might look my brother in the face at Gilgal, and visit on him the iniquity of his father and himself, for that I was now strengthened and prepared for the deed."

The next morning, my esteemed friend met me bright and early, and he was really happy to find that my thoughts were now in agreement with his own. I said, "I’ve been looking forward to the day when I could face my brother at Gilgal and confront him about the wrongdoings of both him and his father, as I feel strong and ready to do so now."

"I have been watching the steps and movements of the profligate one," said he, "and, lo, I will take you straight to his presence. Let your heart be as the heart of the lion, and your arms strong as the shekels of brass, and swift to avenge as the bolt that descendeth from heaven, for the blood of the just and the good hath long flowed in Scotland. But already is the day of their avengement begun; the hero is at length arisen who shall send all such as bear enmity to the true Church, or trust in works of their own, to Tophet!"

"I've been keeping an eye on the moves of that reckless person," he said, "and now, I'll take you right to him. Let your heart be as brave as a lion's, your strength as solid as brass, and your revenge as swift as a lightning bolt from the sky, for the blood of the righteous has long been spilled in Scotland. But the day of reckoning has already started; the hero has finally risen who will send everyone who opposes the true Church or relies on their own deeds straight to hell!"

Thus encouraged, I followed my friend, who led me directly to the same court in which I had chastised the miscreant on the foregoing day; and, behold, there was the same group again assembled. They eyed me with terror in their looks, as I walked among them and eyed them with looks of disapprobation and rebuke; and I saw that the very eye of a chosen one lifted on these children of Belial was sufficient to dismay and put them to flight. I walked aside to my friend, who stood at a distance looking on, and he said to me: "What thinkest thou now?" and I answered in the words of the venal prophet, "Lo, now, if I had a sword into mine hand I would even kill him."

Encouraged by this, I followed my friend, who led me straight to the same courtyard where I had confronted the troublemaker the day before; and, there they were again, the same group gathered. They looked at me with fear in their eyes as I walked among them, giving them disapproving and scolding looks; I realized that just a glance from someone like me was enough to frighten these wicked people and send them running. I walked over to my friend, who was standing at a distance watching, and he asked me, "What do you think now?" I replied with the words of the corrupt prophet, "Well, if I had a sword in my hand, I would definitely kill him."

"Wherefore lackest thou it?" said he. "Dost thou not see that they tremble at thy presence, knowing that the avenger of blood is among them."

"Why don’t you have it?" he said. "Don’t you see that they are trembling at your presence, knowing that the avenger of blood is among them?"

My heart was lifted up on hearing this, and again I strode into the midst of them, and, eyeing them with threatening looks, they were so much confounded that they abandoned their sinful pastime, and fled everyone to his house!

My heart soared when I heard this, and I went back into the crowd, staring at them with intense glares. They were so shocked that they gave up their sinful activities and ran home!

This was a palpable victory gained over the wicked, and I thereby knew that the hand of the Lord was with me. My companion also exulted, and said: "Did not I tell thee? Behold thou dost not know one half of thy might, or of the great things thou art destined to do. Come with me and I will show thee more than this, for these young men cannot subsist without the exercises of sin. I listened to their councils, and I know where they will meet again."

This was a clear victory over evil, and I knew that the Lord was on my side. My friend also rejoiced and said, "Didn't I tell you? You don’t even realize half of your strength or the amazing things you’re meant to accomplish. Come with me, and I’ll show you even more, because these young men can’t survive without indulging in sin. I've listened to their plans, and I know where they will gather again."

Accordingly he led me a little farther to the south, and we walked aside till by degrees we saw some people begin to assemble; and in a short time we perceived the same group stripping off their clothes to make them more expert in the practice of madness and folly. Their game was begun before we approached, and so also were the oaths and cursing. I put my hands in my pockets, and walked with dignity and energy into the midst of them. It was enough. Terror and astonishment seized them. A few of them cried out against me, but their voices were soon hushed amid the murmurs of fear. One of them, in the name of the rest, then came and besought of me to grant them liberty to amuse themselves; but I refused peremptorily, dared the whole multitude so much as to touch me with one of their fingers, and dismissed them in the name of the Lord.

He led me a little further south, and we walked aside until we gradually saw some people start to gather. Before long, we noticed the same group taking off their clothes to get better at the madness and folly they were engaging in. Their game had already started by the time we got close, along with the oaths and cursing. I put my hands in my pockets and walked confidently into the middle of them. That was enough. They were seized by terror and astonishment. A few of them yelled at me, but their voices quickly quieted in the whispers of fear. One of them then came forward on behalf of the others and asked me to allow them the freedom to entertain themselves, but I flatly refused, challenged the whole crowd to even touch me with a finger, and dismissed them in the name of the Lord.

Again they all fled and dispersed at my eye, and I went home in triumph, escorted by my friend, and some well-meaning young Christians, who, however, had not learned to deport themselves with soberness and humility. But my ascendancy over my enemies was great indeed; for wherever I appeared I was hailed with approbation, and, wherever my guilty brother made his appearance, he was hooted and held in derision, till he was forced to hide his disgraceful head, and appear no more in public.

Again they all fled and scattered at my glance, and I went home in triumph, accompanied by my friend and some well-meaning young Christians, who, however, hadn’t learned to act with seriousness and humility. My power over my enemies was truly significant; wherever I went, I was met with approval, and whenever my guilty brother showed up, he was mocked and ridiculed until he had to hide in shame and no longer show his face in public.

Immediately after this I was seized with a strange distemper, which neither my friends nor physicians could comprehend, and it confined me to my chamber for many days; but I knew, myself, that I was bewitched, and suspected my father's reputed concubine of the deed. I told my fears to my reverend protector, who hesitated concerning them, but I knew by his words and looks that he was conscious I was right. I generally conceived myself to be two people. When I lay in bed, I deemed there were two of us in it; when I sat up I always beheld another person, and always in the same position from the place where I sat or stood, which was about three paces off me towards my left side. It mattered not how many or how few were present: this my second self was sure to be present in his place, and this occasioned a confusion in all my words and ideas that utterly astounded my friends, who all declared that, instead of being deranged in my intellect, they had never heard my conversation manifest so much energy or sublimity of conception; but, for all that, over the singular delusion that I was two persons my reasoning faculties had no power. The most perverse part of it was that I rarely conceived myself to be any of the two persons. I thought for the most part that my companion was one of them, and my brother the other; and I found that, to be obliged to speak and answer in the character of another man, was a most awkward business at the long run.

Immediately after this, I was hit with a strange illness that neither my friends nor doctors could understand, and it kept me in my room for many days. However, I knew deep down that I was cursed, and I suspected my father's rumored mistress of causing it. I shared my fears with my priestly protector, who seemed unsure but gave away that he believed I was right. I often felt like I was two people. When I lay in bed, I felt there were two of us there; when I sat up, I always saw another person, always in the same spot to my left, about three paces away. It didn't matter how many people were around; this second self was always there, and it caused a confusion in my words and thoughts that completely stunned my friends. They all claimed that rather than being out of my mind, I had never spoken with such energy or depth of thought. Still, despite this unusual delusion of being two people, I couldn't reason through it. The strangest part was that I rarely thought of myself as either of the two people. Most of the time, I believed my companion was one of them, and my brother was the other; I found it incredibly awkward to have to speak and respond as if I were another man.

Who can doubt, from this statement, that I was bewitched, and that my relatives were at the ground of it? The constant and unnatural persuasion that I was my brother proved it to my own satisfaction, and must, I think, do so to every unprejudiced person. This victory of the Wicked One over me kept me confined in my chamber at Mr. Millar's house for nearly a month, until the prayers of the faithful prevailed, and I was restored. I knew it was a chastisement for my pride, because my heart was lifted up at my superiority over the enemies of the Church; nevertheless I determined to make short work with the aggressor, that the righteous might not be subjected to the effect of his diabolical arts again.

Who can doubt, from this statement, that I was under a spell, and that my relatives were behind it? The constant and unnatural belief that I was my brother proved it to my own satisfaction, and I believe it would to any unbiased person. This triumph of evil over me kept me locked in my room at Mr. Millar's house for nearly a month, until the prayers of the faithful worked, and I was restored. I knew it was a punishment for my pride, because I felt superior to the enemies of the Church; however, I decided to deal with the aggressor quickly, so that the righteous wouldn't suffer from his wicked tricks again.

I say I was confined a month. I beg he that readeth to take note of this, that he may estimate how much the word, or even the oath, of a wicked man is to depend on. For a month I saw no one but such as came into my room, and, for all that, it will be seen that there were plenty of the same set to attest upon oath that I saw my brother every day during this period; that I persecuted him, with my presence day and night, while all the time I never saw his face save in a delusive dream. I cannot comprehend what manoeuvres my illustrious friend was playing off with them about this time; for he, having the art of personating whom he chose, had peradventure deceived them, else many of them had never all attested the same thing. I never saw any man so steady in his friendships and attentions as he; but as he made a rule of never calling at private houses, for fear of some discovery being made of his person, so I never saw him while my malady lasted; but, as soon as I grew better, I knew I had nothing ado but to attend at some of our places of meeting to see him again. He was punctual, as usual, and I had not to wait.

I say I was locked up for a month. I ask anyone reading this to take note, so they can understand how much the word, or even the promise, of a wicked person is worth. For a month, I saw no one except those who came into my room, and yet, it turns out there were plenty of people willing to swear that I saw my brother every day during that time; that I tormented him with my presence day and night, when in reality, I only saw his face in a false dream. I can’t figure out what tricks my famous friend was pulling with them during this time; because he had the skill to impersonate whoever he wanted, he might have deceived them, otherwise many of them wouldn’t have all said the same thing. I’ve never seen anyone as loyal in friendships and attentions as he was; but since he made it a rule not to visit private homes, fearing some discovery of his identity, I never saw him while I was ill. However, as soon as I started to get better, I knew all I had to do was show up at some of our usual meeting spots to see him again. He was right on time, as always, and I didn’t have to wait.

My reception was precisely as I apprehended. There was no flaring, no flummery, nor bombastical pretensions, but a dignified return to my obeisance, and an immediate recurrence, in converse, to the important duties incumbent on us, in our stations, as reformers and purifiers of the Church.

My welcome was exactly as I expected. There was no showiness, no nonsense, and no grandstanding, just a respectful acknowledgment of my presence and a quick shift in our conversation to the important responsibilities we have as reformers and cleansers of the Church.

"I have marked out a number of most dangerous characters in this city," said he, "all of whom must be cut off from cumbering the true vineyard before we leave this land. And, if you bestir not yourself in the work to which you are called, I must raise up others who shall have the honour of it!"

"I've identified several very dangerous people in this city," he said, "all of whom need to be removed from interfering with the true mission before we leave this place. And if you don't take action in the task you're meant to do, I'll have to find others who will take on that responsibility!"

"I am, most illustrious prince, wholly at your service," said I. "Show but what ought to be done, and here is the heart to dare and the hand to execute. You pointed out my relations, according to the flesh, as brands fitted to be thrown into the burning. I approve peremptorily of the award; nay, I thirst to accomplish it; for I myself have suffered severely from their diabolical arts. When once that trial of my devotion to the faith is accomplished, then be your future operations disclosed."

"I am, most noble prince, completely at your service," I said. "Just tell me what needs to be done, and I have the courage to take action and the strength to follow through. You mentioned my family ties as if they're just waiting to be thrown into the fire, and I wholeheartedly agree with that judgment; in fact, I’m eager to carry it out because I have endured greatly because of their wicked ways. Once that test of my loyalty to the faith is done, then reveal your plans for the future."

"You are free of your words and promises," said he.

"You aren’t bound by your words and promises," he said.

"So will I be of my deeds in the service of my master, and that shalt thou see," said I. "I lack not the spirit, nor the will, but I lack experience woefully; and, because of that shortcoming, must bow to your suggestions!"

"So will I be of my actions in the service of my master, and you will see," I said. "I have the spirit and the will, but I seriously lack experience; because of that shortcoming, I must defer to your suggestions!"

"Meet me here to-morrow betimes," said he, "and perhaps you may hear of some opportunity of displaying your zeal in the cause of righteousness."

"Meet me here tomorrow early," he said, "and maybe you'll find an opportunity to show your enthusiasm for doing what’s right."

I met him as he desired me; and he addressed me with a hurried and joyful expression, telling me that my brother was astir, and that a few minutes ago he had seen him pass on his way to the mountain. "The hill is wrapped in a cloud," added he, "and never was there such an opportunity of executing divine justice on a guilty sinner. You may trace him in the dew, and shall infallibly find him on the top of some precipice; for it is only in secret that he dares show his debased head to the sun."

I met him just as he wanted; he spoke to me with an excited and happy look, telling me that my brother was up and that he had seen him head towards the mountain a few minutes ago. "The hill is shrouded in a cloud," he added, "and there’s never been a better chance to deliver divine justice on a guilty sinner. You can track him in the dew and you’ll definitely find him on the edge of some cliff; he only dares to show his shameful face to the sun in secret."

"I have no arms, else assuredly I would pursue him and discomfit him," said I.

"I have no arms; otherwise, I would definitely go after him and defeat him," I said.

"Here is a small dagger," said he; "I have nothing of weaponkind about me save that, but it is a potent one; and, should you require it, there is nothing more ready or sure."

"Here’s a small dagger," he said. "I don’t have any other weapons on me besides this, but it’s a powerful one; if you need it, there’s nothing more reliable or effective."

"Will not you accompany me?" said I. "Sure you will?"

"Will you come with me?" I asked. "Are you sure you will?"

"I will be with you, or near you," said he. "Go you on before."

"I'll be with you or close by," he said. "You go ahead."

I hurried away as he directed me, and imprudently asked some of Queensberry's guards if such and such a young man passed by them going out from the city. I was answered in the affirmative, and till then had doubted of my friend's intelligence, it was so inconsistent with a profligate's life to be so early astir. When I got the certain intelligence that my brother was before me, I fell a-running, scarcely knowing what I did; and, looking several times behind me, I perceived nothing of my zealous and arbitrary friend. The consequence of this was that, by the time I reached St. Anthony's well, my resolution began to give way. It was not my courage, for, now that I had once shed blood in the cause of the true faith, I was exceedingly bold and ardent, but, whenever I was left to myself, I was subject to sinful doubtings. These always hankered on one point. I doubted if the elect were infallible, and if the Scripture promises to them were binding in all situations and relations. I confess this, and that it was a sinful and shameful weakness in me, but my nature was subject to it, and I could not eschew it. I never doubted that I was one of the elect myself; for, besides the strong inward and spiritual conviction that I possessed, I had my kind father's assurance; and these had been revealed to him in that way and measure that they could not be doubted.

I hurried away as he told me to and foolishly asked some of Queensberry's guards if a certain young man had passed by them while leaving the city. They confirmed that he had, and until then, I had thought my friend might be mistaken, as it seemed so unlike a reckless person to be active so early. When I found out for sure that my brother was ahead of me, I took off running, almost not knowing what I was doing. Looking back several times, I noticed nothing of my eager and demanding friend. As a result, by the time I reached St. Anthony's well, my determination started to waver. It wasn't a lack of courage; since I had already spilled blood for the true faith, I felt very bold and passionate. However, whenever I was alone, I fell prey to sinful doubts. These doubts always revolved around one issue. I questioned whether the elect were truly infallible and if the Scriptures' promises to them were applicable in every situation and relationship. I admit this, and that it was a sinful and shameful weakness in me, but it was part of my nature, and I couldn't avoid it. I never doubted that I was one of the elect myself; in addition to the strong inner and spiritual conviction I had, I also had my kind father's assurance, which had been revealed to him in such a way that could not be doubted.

In this desponding state, I sat myself down on a stone, and bethought me of the rashness of my undertaking. I tried to ascertain, to my own satisfaction, whether or not I really had been commissioned of God to perpetrate these crimes in His behalf, for, in the eyes and by the laws of men, they were great and crying transgressions. While I sat pondering on these things, I was involved in a veil of white misty vapour, and, looking up to heaven, I was just about to ask direction from above, when I heard as it were a still small voice close by me, which uttered some words of derision and chiding. I looked intensely in the direction whence it seemed to come, and perceived a lady robed in white, who hastened towards me. She regarded me with a severity of look and gesture that appalled me so much I could not address her; but she waited not for that, but coming close to my side said, without stopping: "Preposterous wretch! How dare you lift your eyes to Heaven with such purposes in your heart? Escape homewards, and save your Soul, or farewell for ever!"

In this hopeless state, I sat down on a stone and thought about how reckless my actions were. I tried to figure out if I had truly been sent by God to commit these crimes on His behalf, because, in the eyes of people and according to their laws, they were serious and obvious wrongdoings. As I sat there pondering, I became enveloped in a white misty vapor, and just as I was about to look up to heaven and ask for guidance, I heard what seemed like a quiet, small voice nearby, mocking and scolding me. I looked intently in the direction it came from and saw a woman in white hurriedly approaching me. She looked at me with such severity that it terrified me, and I couldn’t speak. But she didn’t wait for me to respond; she came close and said, without pausing, “You ridiculous fool! How dare you lift your eyes to Heaven with such intentions in your heart? Go home, and save your soul, or it’s goodbye forever!”

These were all the words that she uttered, as far as I could ever recollect, but my spirits were kept in such a tumult that morning that something might have escaped me. I followed her eagerly with my eyes, but in a moment she glided over the rocks above the holy well, and vanished. I persuaded myself that I had seen a vision, and that the radiant being that had addressed me was one of the good angels, or guardian spirits, commissioned by the Almighty to watch over the steps of the just. My first impulse was to follow her advice, and make my escape home; for I thought to myself. "How is this interested and mysterious foreigner a proper judge of the actions of a free Christian?"

These were the only words she spoke, as far as I can remember, but my mind was so chaotic that morning that I might have missed something. I watched her intently, but in an instant, she glided over the rocks above the holy well and disappeared. I convinced myself that I had seen a vision and that the radiant figure who had spoken to me was one of the good angels or guardian spirits sent by the Almighty to look after the righteous. My first instinct was to take her advice and head home because I wondered, “How could this mysterious foreigner possibly understand the actions of a free Christian?”

The thought was hardly framed, nor had I moved in a retrograde direction six steps, when I saw my illustrious friend and great adviser descending the ridge towards me with hasty and impassioned strides. My heart fainted within me; and, when he came up and addressed me, I looked as one caught in a trespass. "What hath detained thee, thou desponding trifler?" said he. "Verily now shall the golden opportunity be lost which may never be recalled. I have traced the reprobate to his sanctuary in the cloud, and lo he is perched on the pinnacle of a precipice an hundred fathoms high. One ketch with thy foot, or toss with thy finger, shall throw him from thy sight into the foldings of the cloud, and he shall be no more seen till found at the bottom of the cliff dashed to pieces. Make haste, therefore, thou loiterer, if thou wouldst ever prosper and rise to eminence in the work of thy Lord and Master."

The thought barely formed in my mind, and before I took six steps back, I saw my esteemed friend and great advisor rushing down the ridge toward me with quick, passionate strides. My heart sank; and when he reached me and spoke, I felt like someone caught in the act. "What has kept you, you hopeless slacker?" he said. "This golden opportunity will be lost and may never come again. I've tracked the wrongdoer to his hideout in the clouds, and look, he’s sitting on the edge of a cliff a hundred fathoms high. One kick from you or just a flick of your finger could send him tumbling from your sight into the clouds, and he won’t be seen again until he’s found at the bottom of the cliff, shattered to pieces. So hurry up, you dawdler, if you want to succeed and achieve greatness in the work of your Lord and Master."

"I go no farther in this work," said I, "for I have seen a vision that has reprimanded the deed!'

"I won't go any further in this task," I said, "because I've had a vision that has called me out for what I've done!"

"A vision?" said he. "Was it that wench who descended from the hill?"

"A vision?" he said. "Was it that girl who came down from the hill?"

"The being that spake to me, and warned me of my danger, was indeed in the form of a lady," said I.

"The being that spoke to me and warned me of my danger was really in the form of a lady," I said.

"She also approached me and said a few words," returned he, "and I thought there was something mysterious in her manner. Pray, what did she say? for the words of such a singular message, and from such a messenger, ought to be attended to. If I understood her aright, she was chiding us for our misbelief and preposterous delay."

"She also came up to me and said a few words," he replied, "and I sensed something mysterious about her demeanor. Please, what did she say? The words from such a unique message and from such a messenger should be taken seriously. If I understood her correctly, she was scolding us for our disbelief and ridiculous delay."

I recited her words, but he answered that I had been in a state of sinful doubting at the time, and it was to these doubtings she had adverted. In short, this wonderful and clear-sighted stranger soon banished all my doubts and despondency, making me utterly ashamed of them, and again I set out with him in the pursuit of my brother. He showed me the traces of his footsteps in the dew, and pointed out the spot where I should find him. "You have nothing more to do than go softly down behind him," said he, "which you can do to within an ell of him, without being seen; then rush upon him, and throw him from his seat, where there is neither footing nor hold. I will go, meanwhile, and amuse his sight by some exhibition in the contrary direction, and he shall neither know nor perceive who had done him this kind office: for, exclusive of more weighty concerns, be assured of this that, the sooner he falls, the fewer crimes will he have to answer for, and his estate in the other world will be proportionally more tolerable than if he spent a long unregenerate life steeped in iniquity to the loathing of the soul."

I repeated her words, but he replied that I had been in a state of sinful doubt at that time, and it was these doubts she had mentioned. In short, this amazing and insightful stranger quickly got rid of all my doubts and gloom, making me feel completely ashamed of them, and I set out with him again to find my brother. He showed me the marks of his footsteps in the dew and pointed out the spot where I would find him. "All you have to do is quietly walk up behind him," he said, "which you can do until you're just a short distance away without being noticed; then charge at him and knock him off his seat, where he won't have any footing or support. Meanwhile, I will distract him with some spectacle in the opposite direction, and he won't know who helped him in this way: because, aside from more serious matters, remember this: the sooner he falls, the fewer sins he'll have to deal with, and his situation in the afterlife will be much better than if he spends a long unrepentant life wallowing in sin to the point of soul disgust."

"Nothing can be more plain or more pertinent," said I. "Therefore, I fly to perform that which is both a duty towards God and towards man!"

"Nothing could be clearer or more relevant," I said. "So, I'm going to do what is both my duty to God and to humanity!"

"You shall yet rise to great honour and preferment," said he.

"You will rise to great honor and advancement," he said.

"I value it not, provided I do honour and justice to the cause of my master here," said I.

"I don't care about it, as long as I do honor and justice to my master's cause here," I said.

"You shall be lord of your father's riches and demesnes," added he.

"You will be the master of your father's wealth and estates," he added.

"I disclaim and deride every selfish motive thereto relating," said I, "further than as it enables me to do good."

"I reject and mock any selfish reason connected to this," I said, "except for how it allows me to do good."

"Aye, but that is a great and a heavenly consideration, that longing for ability to do good," said he—and, as he said so, I could not help remarking a certain derisive exultation of expression which I could not comprehend; and indeed I have noted this very often in my illustrious friend, and sometimes mentioned it civilly to him, but he has never failed to disclaim it. On this occasion I said nothing, but, concealing his poniard in my clothes, I hasted up the mountain, determined to execute my purpose before any misgivings should again visit me; and I never had more ado than in keeping firm my resolution. I could not help my thoughts, and there are certain trains and classes of thoughts that have great power in enervating the mind. I thought of the awful thing of plunging a fellow creature from the top of a cliff into the dark and misty void below—of his being dashed to pieces on the protruding rocks, and of hearing his shrieks as he descended the cloud, and beheld the shagged points on which he was to alight. Then I thought of plunging a soul so abruptly into Hell, or, at the best, sending it to hover on the confines of that burning abyss—of its appearance at the bar of the Almighty to receive its sentence. And then I thought: "Will there not be a sentence pronounced against me there, by a jury of the just made perfect, and written down in the registers of Heaven?"

"Yeah, but that's a really important and truly uplifting thought, this desire to do good," he said—and as he said this, I couldn't help but notice a kind of mocking triumph in his expression that I just didn’t understand; in fact, I've noticed this quite often in my distinguished friend and have sometimes brought it up politely with him, but he always denies it. On this occasion, I said nothing, but hiding his dagger in my clothes, I hurried up the mountain, determined to follow through with my plan before any doubts could creep back in; and I had a hard time keeping my resolve. I couldn’t control my thoughts, and there are certain thoughts that have a strong way of weakening the mind. I thought about the horrifying act of throwing another human being from the top of a cliff into the dark, foggy emptiness below—of him being smashed against the jutting rocks, and hearing his screams as he fell through the clouds, seeing the jagged points he was about to hit. Then I thought about sending a soul so suddenly into Hell, or, at best, leaving it to linger on the edge of that burning pit—its appearance before the Almighty to face its judgment. And then I thought: "Will there be a judgment against me there, made by a jury of the perfect just, recorded in Heaven’s archives?"

These thoughts, I say, came upon me unasked, and, instead of being able to dispel them, they mustered upon the summit of my imagination in thicker and stronger array: and there was another that impressed me in a very particular manner, though I have reason to believe not so strongly as those above written. It was this: "What if I should fail in my first effort? Will the consequence not be that I am tumbled from the top of the rock myself?" and then all the feelings anticipated, with regard to both body and soul, must happen to me! This was a spinebreaking reflection; and yet, though the probability was rather on that side, my zeal in the cause of godliness was such that it carried me on, maugre all danger and dismay.

These thoughts, I say, came to me without asking, and instead of being able to push them away, they gathered in my mind more strongly and densely. There was one thought that particularly struck me, though I believe it didn’t hit me as hard as the others. It was this: "What if I fail in my first attempt? Won’t that mean I could fall from the top of the rock myself?" And then all the feelings I imagined about both body and soul would happen to me! It was a crushing realization; but still, even though the odds leaned toward that outcome, my passion for what I believed in drove me forward, despite all the danger and fear.

I soon came close upon my brother, sitting on the dizzy pinnacle, with his eyes fixed steadfastly in the direction opposite to me. I descended the little green ravine behind him with my feet foremost, and every now and then raised my head, and watched his motions. His posture continued the same, until at last I came so near him I could have heard him breathe if his face had been towards me. I laid my cap aside, and made me ready to spring upon him and push him over. I could not for my life accomplish it! I do not think it was that I durst not, I have always felt my courage equal to anything in a good cause. But I had not the heart, or something that I ought to have had. In short, it was not done in time, as it easily might have been. These THOUGHTS are hard enemies wherewith to combat! And I was so grieved that I could not effect my righteous purpose that I laid me down on my face and shed tears. Then, again, I thought of what my great enlightened friend and patron would say to me, and again my resolution rose indignant and indissoluble save by blood. I arose on my right knee and left foot, and had just begun to advance the latter forward: the next step my great purpose had been accomplished, and the culprit had suffered the punishment due to his crimes. But what moved him I knew not: in the critical moment he sprung to his feet, and, dashing himself furiously against me, he overthrew me, at the imminent peril of my life. I disencumbered myself by main force and fled, but he overhied me, knocked me down, and threatened, with dreadful oaths, to throw me from the cliff. After I was a little recovered from the stunning blow, I aroused myself to the combat; and, though I do not recollect the circumstances of that deadly scuffle very minutely, I know that I vanquished him so far as to force him to ask my pardon, and crave a reconciliation. I spurned at both and left him to the chastisements of his own wicked and corrupt heart.

I soon came upon my brother, sitting on the dizzy peak, with his eyes fixed firmly in the opposite direction. I went down the little green ravine behind him feet first, and every now and then I looked up to watch his movements. He stayed in the same position until I got so close I could have heard him breathe if he had been facing me. I set my cap aside and got ready to jump on him and push him over. I just couldn't bring myself to do it! It wasn't that I was scared; I’ve always felt brave enough for anything that's right. But I just didn’t have the heart, or something I should have had. In short, I didn’t act in time when I easily could have. These thoughts are tough enemies to fight against! And I was so upset that I couldn’t carry out my righteous plan that I lay down on my face and cried. Then I thought again about what my enlightened friend and supporter would say to me, and my resolve became fierce and unbreakable, except by blood. I got down on my right knee and left foot, and just began to move my foot forward: with the next step, I would have accomplished my great purpose, and the culprit would have faced the consequences of his actions. But I didn’t know what made him act: at that crucial moment he jumped to his feet, and charged at me, knocking me down and putting my life in danger. I pushed myself free and tried to run, but he tackled me, knocked me down, and threatened with awful curses to throw me off the cliff. After I shook off the disorienting blow, I got back into the fight; and while I don’t remember every detail of that fierce struggle, I know that I defeated him enough that he ended up asking for my forgiveness and wanting to reconcile. I rejected both and left him to the punishments of his own wicked and corrupt heart.

My friend met me again on the hill and derided me in a haughty and stern manner for my imbecility and want of decision. I told him how nearly I had effected my purpose, and excused myself as well as I was able. On this, seeing me bleeding, he advised me to swear the peace against my brother, and have him punished in the meantime, he being the first aggressor. I promised compliance and we parted, for I was somewhat ashamed of my failure, and was glad to be quit for the present of one of whom I stood so much in awe.

My friend met me again on the hill and mocked me in a condescending and serious way for my foolishness and inability to make a decision. I explained how close I had come to achieving my goal and made excuses as best as I could. Seeing me injured, he suggested that I should swear out a complaint against my brother and get him punished in the meantime since he was the one who started it. I agreed to do that, and we parted ways because I felt somewhat embarrassed by my failure and was relieved to be away from someone I respected so much.

When my reverend father beheld me bleeding a second time by the hand of a brother, he was moved to the highest point of displeasure; and, relying on his high interest and the justice of his cause, he brought the matter at once before the courts. My brother and I were first examined face to face. His declaration was a mere romance: mine was not the truth; but as it was by the advice of my reverend father, and that of my illustrious friend, both of whom I knew to be sincere Christians and true believers, that I gave it, I conceived myself completely justified on that score. I said I had gone up into the mountain early on the morning to pray, and had withdrawn myself, for entire privacy, into a little sequestered dell—had laid aside my cap, and was in the act of kneeling when I was rudely attacked by my brother, knocked over, and nearly slain. They asked my brother if this was true. He acknowledged that it was; that I was bare-headed and in the act of kneeling when he ran foul of me without any intent of doing so. But the judge took him to task on the improbability of this, and put the profligate sore out of countenance. The rest of his tale told still worse, insomuch that he was laughed at by all present, for the judge remarked to him that, granting it was true that he had at first run against me on an open mountain and overthrown me by accident, how was it that, after I had extricated myself and fled, that he had pursued, overtaken, and knocked me down a second time? Would he pretend that all that was likewise by chance? The culprit had nothing to say for himself on this head, and I shall not forget my exultation and that of my reverend father when the sentence of the judge was delivered. It was that my wicked brother should be thrown into prison and tried on a criminal charge of assault and battery, with the intent of committing murder. This was a just and righteous judge, and saw things in their proper bearings, that is, he could discern between a righteous and a wicked man, and then there could be no doubt as to which of the two were acting right and which wrong.

When my father saw me bleeding for a second time at the hands of my brother, he was extremely upset; and, counting on his influence and the fairness of his cause, he immediately brought the issue to court. My brother and I were first questioned face to face. His statement was just a story: mine wasn’t entirely truthful, but since I gave it on the advice of my father and my respected friend, both of whom I knew to be sincere Christians, I felt justified. I claimed that I had gone up into the mountains early in the morning to pray, and had secluded myself in a quiet glen—I had taken off my cap and was about to kneel when my brother suddenly attacked me, knocked me over, and nearly killed me. They asked my brother if this was true. He admitted it was; that I was bare-headed and in the act of kneeling when he accidentally bumped into me. But the judge confronted him about how unlikely this was and made him look bad. The rest of his story was even worse, to the point that everyone present laughed at him, as the judge pointed out that, even if it was true he had accidentally run into me on the open mountain, how did he explain that after I got up and ran away, he chased me down and knocked me over again? Did he really think that was also by chance? The guilty party had no answer for that, and I will never forget the joy of myself and my father when the judge delivered his verdict. It was that my wicked brother would be thrown in jail and charged with assault and battery with the intent to kill. This was a fair and righteous judge who understood the situation well enough to see the difference between a good person and a bad one, and there was no doubt about who was right and who was wrong.

Had I not been sensible that a justified person could do nothing wrong, I should not have been at my ease concerning the statement I had been induced to give on this occasion. I could easily perceive that, by rooting out the weeds from the garden of the Church, I heightened the growth of righteousness; but, as to the tardy way of giving false evidence on matters of such doubtful issue, I confess I saw no great propriety in it from the beginning. But I now only moved by the will and mandate of my illustrious friend. I had no peace or comfort when out of his Sight, nor have I ever been able to boast of much in his presence; so true is it that a Christian's life is one of suffering.

If I hadn’t realized that a justified person could do nothing wrong, I wouldn’t have felt at ease about the statement I was pressured to give this time. I could clearly see that by removing the weeds from the garden of the Church, I encouraged the growth of righteousness. However, regarding the slow approach to giving false testimony on such uncertain matters, I must admit I didn’t see much value in it from the start. Now, I acted only under the will and command of my esteemed friend. I found no peace or comfort when I was out of his sight, nor have I ever been able to claim much in his presence; it’s truly a fact that a Christian’s life is one of suffering.

My time was now much occupied, along with my reverend preceptor, in making ready for the approaching trial, as the prosecutors. Our counsel assured us of a complete victory, and that banishment would be the mildest award of the law on the offender. Mark how different was the result! From the shifts and ambiguities of a wicked Bench, who had a fellow-feeling of iniquity with the defenders, my suit was lost, the graceless libertine was absolved, and I was incarcerated, and bound over to keep the peace, with heavy penalties, before I was set at liberty.

My time was now mostly spent, along with my respected teacher, getting ready for the upcoming trial, acting as the prosecutors. Our lawyer promised us an easy win and said that banishment would be the lightest punishment for the offender. But look at how different the outcome was! Because of the tricks and uncertainties of a corrupt court, who shared a sense of wrongdoing with the defense, I lost my case, the shameless libertine was freed, and I ended up in jail, being forced to keep the peace under harsh penalties before I was finally released.

I was exceedingly disgusted at this issue, and blamed the counsel of my friend to his face. He expressed great grief, and expatiated on the wickedness of our judicatories, adding: "I see I cannot depend on you for quick and summary measures, but for your sake I shall be revenged on that wicked judge, and that you shall see in a few days." The Lord Justice Clerk died that same week! But he died in his own house and his own bed, and by what means my friend effected it I do not know. He would not tell me a single word of the matter, but the judge's sudden death made a great noise, and I made so many curious inquiries regarding the particulars of it that some suspicions were like to attach to our family of some unfair means used. For my part I know nothing, and rather think he died by the visitation of Heaven, and that my friend had foreseen it, by symptoms, and soothed me by promises of complete revenge.

I was really disgusted by this situation and confronted my friend about it. He was very upset and talked about how corrupt our courts are, adding, "I see I can't count on you for quick action, but for your sake, I will get back at that terrible judge, and you'll see it in a few days." The Lord Justice Clerk died that same week! But he died in his own home and his own bed, and I have no idea how my friend managed it. He wouldn't tell me anything about it, but the judge's sudden death stirred up a lot of gossip, and I asked so many questions that people started to suspect our family might have used some unfair means. As for me, I know nothing, and I suspect he died of natural causes, and that my friend had anticipated it, recognizing symptoms, and reassured me with promises of complete revenge.

It was some days before he mentioned my brother's meditated death to me again, and certainly he then found me exasperated against him personally to the highest degree. But I told him that I could not now think any more of it owing to the late judgment of the court, by which, if my brother were missing or found dead, I would not only forfeit my life but my friends would be ruined by the penalties.

It was several days before he brought up my brother's planned death again, and by then, I was incredibly frustrated with him. But I told him that I couldn't think about it anymore because of the court's recent decision, which meant that if my brother was missing or found dead, I wouldn't just lose my life; my friends would also suffer due to the penalties.

"I suppose you know and believe in the perfect safety of your soul," said he, "and that that is a matter settled from the beginning of time, and now sealed and ratified both in Heaven and earth?"

"I guess you know and trust in the complete safety of your soul," he said, "and that it's a matter that's been settled since the dawn of time, now confirmed and established in both Heaven and Earth?"

"I believe in it thoroughly and perfectly," said I; "and, whenever I entertain doubts of it, I am sensible of sin and weakness."

"I believe in it completely and fully," I said; "and whenever I have doubts about it, I feel my shortcomings and flaws."

"Very well, so then am I," said he. "I think I can now divine, with all manner of certainty, what will be the high and merited guerdon of your immortal part. Hear me then further: I give you my solemn assurance, and bond of blood, that no human hand shall ever henceforth be able to injure your life, or shed one drop of your precious blood; but it is on the condition that you walk always by my directions."

"Alright then, I am," he said. "I believe I can now clearly predict what will be the great and deserved reward for your eternal soul. Listen to me further: I give you my solemn promise, a bond of blood, that no human hand will ever be able to harm your life or spill even a drop of your precious blood; but this is on the condition that you always follow my guidance."

"I will do so with cheerfulness," said I, "for, without your enlightened counsel, I feel that I can do nothing. But, as to your power of protecting my life, you must excuse me for doubting of it. Nay, were we in your proper dominions, you could not ensure that."

"I'll do it happily," I said, "because without your wise advice, I feel completely lost. However, when it comes to your ability to keep me safe, I have to admit I'm skeptical. Honestly, even if we were in your own territory, you still couldn’t guarantee that."

"In whatever dominion or land I am, my power accompanies me," said he, "and it is only against human might and human weapon that I ensure your life; on that will I keep an eye, and on that you may depend. I have never broken word or promise with you. Do you credit me?"

"In whatever place I am, my power is with me," he said, "and I only protect your life against human strength and human weapons; I will keep watch over that, and you can count on it. I have never broken my word or promise to you. Do you believe me?"

"Yes, I do," said I, "for I see you are in earnest. I believe, though I do not comprehend you."

"Yes, I do," I said, "because I can see you're serious. I believe you, even if I don't fully understand you."

"Then why do you not at once challenge your brother to the field of honour? Seeing you now act without danger, cannot you also act without fear?"

"Then why don't you challenge your brother to a duel right now? Since you're acting without any risk, can't you also act without fear?"

"It is not fear," returned I, "believe me. I hardly know what fear is. It is a doubt that, on all these emergencies, constantly haunts my mind that, in performing such and such actions, I may fall from my upright state. This makes fratricide a fearful task!"

"It’s not fear," I replied, "trust me. I barely know what fear feels like. It’s a doubt that constantly nags at me during these situations—wondering if, by doing certain things, I might lose my sense of right and wrong. That’s what makes killing my brother such a terrifying task!"

"This is imbecility itself," said he. "We have settled and agreed on that point an hundred times. I would therefore advise that you challenge your brother to single combat. I shall ensure your safety, and he cannot refuse giving you satisfaction."

"This is pure nonsense," he said. "We've agreed on this point a hundred times. So, I suggest you challenge your brother to a duel. I'll make sure you're safe, and he can't refuse to settle it."

"But then the penalties?" said I.

"But what about the penalties?" I asked.

"We will try to evade these," said he, "and, supposing you should be caught, if once you are Laird of Dalcastle and Balgrennan, what are the penalties to you?"

"We'll try to avoid these," he said, "and if you do happen to get caught, once you're the Laird of Dalcastle and Balgrennan, what consequences will you face?"

"Might we not rather pop him off in private and quietness, as we did the deistical divine?" said I.

"Might we just take him out privately and quietly, like we did with the deistical divine?" I said.

"The deed would be alike meritorious, either way," said he. "But may we not wait for years before we find an opportunity? My advice is to challenge him, as privately as you will, and there cut him off."

"The action would be equally commendable, regardless," he said. "But can we afford to wait for years to find an opportunity? My suggestion is to confront him, as discreetly as you can, and eliminate him then."

"So be it then," said I. "When the moon is at the full, I will send for him forth to speak with one, and there will I smite him and slay him, and he shall trouble the righteous no more."

"So be it then," I said. "When the moon is full, I'll call for him to come and talk, and there I will strike him down and kill him, and he won't disturb the righteous anymore."

"Then this is the very night," said he, "The moon is nigh to the full, and this night your brother and his sinful mates hold carousal; for there is an intended journey to-morrow. The exulting profligate leaves town, where we must remain till the time of my departure hence; and then is he safe, and must live to dishonour God, and not only destroy his own soul but those of many others. Alack, and woe is me! The sins that he and his friends will commit this very night will cry to Heaven against us for our shameful delay! When shall our great work of cleansing the sanctuary be finished, if we proceed at this puny rate?"

"Then this is the night," he said. "The moon is almost full, and tonight your brother and his reckless friends are partying because they have a trip planned for tomorrow. The arrogant sinner is leaving town, where we'll have to stay until I leave; then he'll be safe and will continue to dishonor God, leading not just to his own downfall but also to many others. Oh, how tragic! The sins he and his friends commit tonight will cry out to Heaven for our shameful hesitation! When will our important task of cleansing the sanctuary be done if we keep going at this slow pace?"

"I see the deed must be done, then," said I, "and, since it is so, it shall be done. I will arm myself forthwith, and from the midst of his wine and debauchery you shall call him forth to me, and there will I smite him with the edge of the sword, that our great work be not retarded."

"I see the job has to be done, then," I said, "and since that’s the case, it will be done. I’ll get ready right away, and from the middle of his drinking and partying, you’ll call him out to me, and there I will strike him down with my sword so that our important work isn’t delayed."

"If thy execution were equal to thy intent, how great a man you soon might be!" said he. "We shall make the attempt once more; and, if it fail again, why, I must use other means to bring about my high purposes relating to mankind. Home and make ready. I will go and procure what information I can regarding their motions, and will meet you in disguise twenty minutes hence, at the first turn of Hewie's Lane beyond the loch."

"If your execution were as good as your intention, you could be a great man!" he said. "We'll try again; and if it fails once more, I'll have to find other ways to achieve my goals for humanity. Go home and prepare. I will gather whatever information I can about their movements and meet you in disguise twenty minutes from now at the first bend of Hewie's Lane beyond the lake."

"I have nothing to make ready," said I, "for I do not choose to go home. Bring me a sword, and we may consecrate it with prayer and vows, and, if I use it not to the bringing down of the wicked and profane, then may the Lord do so to me, and more also!"

"I have nothing to prepare," I said, "because I don't want to go home. Bring me a sword, and we can bless it with prayer and vows, and if I don't use it to take down the wicked and immoral, then may the Lord do the same to me, and even worse!"

We parted, and there was I left again to the multiplicity of my own thoughts for the space of twenty minutes, a thing my friend never failed in subjecting me to, and these were worse to contend with than hosts of sinful men. I prayed inwardly that these deeds of mine might never be brought to the knowledge of men who were incapable of appreciating the high motives that led to them; and then I sung part of the 10th Psalm, likewise in spirit; but, for all these efforts, my sinful doubts returned, so that when my illustrious friend joined me, and proffered me the choice of two gilded rapiers, I declined accepting any of them, and began, in a very bold and energetic manner, to express my doubts regarding the justification of all the deeds of perfect men. He chided me severely and branded me with cowardice, a thing that my nature never was subject to; and then he branded me with falsehood and breach of the most solemn engagements both to God and man.

We parted ways, and I was left alone with my thoughts for about twenty minutes, something my friend always put me through, and it felt worse than dealing with a crowd of sinful people. I silently hoped that my actions would never be revealed to those who couldn't understand the noble intentions behind them; then I recited part of the 10th Psalm, also in my mind. But despite these efforts, my guilty doubts came flooding back, so when my esteemed friend returned and offered me a choice between two fancy swords, I refused to take either and boldly began to voice my doubts about the justification of all the actions of perfect people. He scolded me harshly and accused me of cowardice, which is not something I'm usually prone to; then he called me a liar and said I was breaking the most serious commitments to both God and man.

I was compelled to take the rapier, much against my inclination; but, for all the arguments, threats, and promises that he could use, I would not consent to send a challenge to my brother by his mouth. There was one argument only that he made use of which had some weight with me, but yet it would not preponderate. He told me my brother was gone to a notorious and scandalous habitation of women, and that, if I left him to himself for ever so short a space longer, it might embitter his state through ages to come. This was a trying concern to me; but I resisted it, and reverted to my doubts. On this he said that he had meant to do me honour, but, since I put it out of his power, he would do the deed, and take the responsibility on himself. "I have with sore travail procured a guardship of your life," added he. "For my own, I have not; but, be that as it will, I shall not be baffled in my attempts to benefit my friends without a trial. You will at all events accompany me, and see that I get justice?"

I was forced to take the rapier, even though I really didn't want to; but despite all his arguments, threats, and promises, I wouldn't agree to send a challenge to my brother through him. There was only one argument he used that actually had some impact on me, but it still wasn’t enough to sway me. He told me my brother had gone to a well-known and shady place filled with women, and if I left him to himself for even a little longer, it might ruin his life for years to come. This was a tough situation for me, but I held my ground and reflected on my doubts. At this, he said that he had intended to honor me, but since I was making that impossible, he would take matters into his own hands and take responsibility for it. "I have worked hard to arrange protection for your life," he added. "For my own, I haven't; but regardless, I won’t be stopped in my efforts to help my friends without a chance. You will, at the very least, come with me and make sure I get justice?"

"Certes, I will do thus much," said I, "and woe be to him if his arm prevail against my friend and patron!"

"Sure, I'll do that much," I said, "and woe to him if his strength overcomes my friend and supporter!"

His lip curled with a smile of contempt, which I could hardly brook; and I began to be afraid that the eminence to which I had been destined by him was already fading from my view. And I thought what I should then do to ingratiate myself again with him, for without his countenance I had no life. "I will be a man in act," thought I, "but in sentiment I will not yield, and for this he must surely admire me the more."

His lip twisted into a sneer that I could barely tolerate; I started to worry that the high position he had destined for me was already slipping away. I considered how I could win him over again because without his support, I felt lifeless. "I'll act like a man," I thought, "but I won’t compromise my feelings, and for that, he has to respect me even more."

As we emerged from the shadowy lane into the fair moonshine, I started so that my whole frame underwent the most chilling vibrations of surprise. I again thought I had been taken at unawares and was conversing with another person. My friend was equipped in the Highland garb, and so completely translated into another being that, save by his speech, all the senses of mankind could not have recognized him. I blessed myself, and asked whom it was his pleasure to personify to-night? He answered me carelessly that it was a spark whom he meant should bear the blame of whatever might fall out to-night; and that was all that passed on the subject.

As we stepped out of the dark alley into the bright moonlight, I was so startled that I felt a chill run through me. I thought for a moment that I was talking to a completely different person. My friend was dressed in Highland attire and looked so transformed that, aside from his voice, no one would have recognized him. I congratulated myself and asked who he was pretending to be tonight. He casually replied that he was just a spark meant to take the blame for whatever might happen tonight, and that was all we discussed about it.

We proceeded by some stone steps at the foot of the North Loch, in hot argument all the way. I was afraid that our conversation might be overheard, for the night was calm and almost as light as day, and we saw sundry people crossing us as we advanced. But the zeal of my friend was so high that he disregarded all danger, and continued to argue fiercely and loudly on my delinquency, as he was pleased to call it. I stood on one argument alone, which was that "I did not think the Scripture promises to the elect, taken in their utmost latitude, warranted the assurance that they could do no wrong; and that, therefore, it behoved every man to look well to his steps."

We walked down some stone steps at the foot of the North Loch, arguing heatedly the whole way. I was worried that someone might overhear us, since the night was calm and almost as bright as day, and we noticed several people passing by. But my friend's passion was so intense that he ignored any risk and kept arguing loudly and passionately about my supposed wrongdoing. I stuck to one main point, which was that "I didn’t believe the Scripture’s promises to the elect, in their broadest sense, warranted the assurance that they could do no wrong; and therefore, it was important for everyone to be mindful of their actions."

There was no religious scruple that irritated my enlightened friend and master so much as this. He could not endure it. And, the sentiments of our great covenanted reformers being on his side, there is not a doubt that I was wrong. He lost all patience on hearing what I advanced on this matter, and, taking hold of me, he led me into a darksome booth in a confined entry; and, after a friendly but cutting reproach, he bade me remain there in secret and watch the event. "And, if I fall," said he, "you will not fail to avenge my death?"

There was no religious belief that upset my enlightened friend and teacher more than this. He couldn’t stand it. Given that the views of our great reformed leaders supported him, there’s no doubt that I was in the wrong. He lost all patience when he heard my thoughts on this subject, and, grabbing me, he took me into a dark booth in a narrow hallway; and after a friendly yet harsh reprimand, he told me to stay there quietly and observe what happened. “And if I die,” he said, “you won’t hesitate to avenge my death, will you?”

I was so entirely overcome with vexation that I could make no answer, on which he left me abruptly, a prey to despair; and I saw or heard no more till he came down to the moonlight green followed by my brother. They had quarrelled before they came within my hearing, for the first words I heard were those of my brother, who was in a state of intoxication, and he was urging a reconciliation, as was his wont on such occasions. My friend spurned at the suggestion, and dared him to the combat; and after a good deal of boastful altercation, which the turmoil of my spirits prevented me from remembering, my brother was compelled to draw his sword and stand on the defensive. It was a desperate and terrible engagement. I at first thought that the royal stranger and great champion of the faith would overcome his opponent with ease, for I considered Heaven as on his side, and nothing but the arm of sinful flesh against him. But I was deceived. The sinner stood firm as a rock, while the assailant flitted about like a shadow, or rather like a spirit. I smiled inwardly, conceiving that these lightsome manoeuvres were all a sham to show off his art and mastership in the exercise, and that, whenever they came to close fairly, that instant my brother would be overcome. Still I was deceived. My brother's arm seemed invincible, so that the closer they fought the more palpably did it prevail. They fought round the green to the very edge of the water, and so round till they came close up to the covert where I stood. There being no more room to shift ground, my brother then forced him to come to close quarters, on which, the former still having the decided advantage, my friend quitted his sword and called out. I could resist no longer; so, springing from my concealment, I rushed between them with my sword drawn, and parted them as if they had been two schoolboys: then, turning to my brother, I addressed him as follows: "Wretch! miscreant! knowest thou what thou art attempting? Wouldest thou lay thine hand on the Lord's anointed, or shed his precious blood? Turn thee to me, that I may chastise thee for all thy wickedness, and not for the many injuries thou hast done to me!" To it we went, with full thirst of vengeance on every side. The duel was fierce; but the might of Heaven prevailed, and not my might. The ungodly and reprobate young man fell covered with wounds, and with curses and blasphemy in his mouth, while I escaped uninjured. Thereto his power extended not.

I was so overwhelmed with frustration that I couldn't respond, which made him leave me abruptly, leaving me in despair. I didn’t see or hear anything until he came down to the moonlit green followed by my brother. They had argued before reaching me, because the first words I heard were from my brother, who was drunk, and he was trying to patch things up, as he usually did in these situations. My friend rejected the idea and challenged him to a fight. After a lot of boastful back-and-forth, which my troubled mind couldn’t fully capture, my brother had to draw his sword and go on the defensive. It was a desperate and terrifying fight. Initially, I thought that the royal stranger and great champion of the faith would easily defeat his opponent, believing Heaven was on his side, facing nothing but the sinful flesh of my brother. But I was mistaken. The sinner stood firm as a rock while the attacker moved around like a shadow, or rather like a spirit. I smiled internally, thinking these agile moves were just a show to flaunt his skill, believing that once they got close, my brother would surely win. Still, I was wrong. My brother's arm appeared invincible, and the closer they fought, the more it became clear he was winning. They fought around the green to the edge of the water, circling until they got close to where I stood. With no more room to move, my brother forced him into close quarters, and my brother still had the upper hand, prompting my friend to drop his sword and shout. I couldn't hold back any longer, so I jumped out from my hiding place, sword drawn, and separated them as if they were just two kids. Then, turning to my brother, I said, "Wretch! Scoundrel! Do you even know what you’re trying to do? Would you lay a hand on the Lord’s anointed or shed his precious blood? Turn to me, so I can punish you for all your wickedness, not just for the injuries you’ve done to me!" We then charged at each other, eager for revenge from all sides. The fight was intense, but Heaven’s might prevailed, not my own. The ungodly young man fell, covered in wounds and cursing and blaspheming, while I came out unscathed. His power could not reach me.

I will not deny that my own immediate impressions of this affair in some degree differed from this statement. But this is precisely as my illustrious friend described it to be afterwards, and I can rely implicitly on his information, as he was at that time a looker-on, and my senses all in a state of agitation, and he could have no motive for saying what was not the positive truth.

I won't deny that my initial thoughts about this situation were somewhat different from this account. However, this aligns exactly with what my distinguished friend later explained, and I trust his information completely since he was an observer at the time, while I was all flustered, and he had no reason to say anything other than the absolute truth.

Never till my brother was down did we perceive that there had been witnesses to the whole business. Our ears were then astounded by rude challenges of unfair play, which were quite appalling to me; but my friend laughed at them and conducted me off in perfect safety. As to the unfairness of the transaction, I can say thus much, that my royal friend's sword was down ere ever mine was presented. But if it still be accounted unfair to take up a conqueror, and punish him in his own way, I answer: That if a man is sent on a positive mission by his master, and hath laid himself under vows to do his work, he ought not to be too nice in the means of accomplishing it; and, further, I appeal to holy writ, wherein many instances are recorded of the pleasure the Lord takes in the final extinction of the wicked and profane; and this position I take to be unanswerable.

Never until my brother was down did we realize that there had been witnesses to the whole thing. Our ears were then bombarded by harsh accusations of unfair play, which were quite shocking to me; but my friend laughed them off and led me away in complete safety. As for the unfairness of the situation, I can say this much: my royal friend's sword was down before mine was even drawn. But if it's still considered unfair to take down a conqueror and punish him in his own way, I respond: If a man is sent on a clear mission by his master and has committed to doing his job, he shouldn't be too picky about how he gets it done; and, furthermore, I refer to sacred texts, which include many examples of the Lord's pleasure in the complete destruction of the wicked and irreverent; and I believe this point is irrefutable.

I was greatly disturbed in my mind for many days, knowing that the transaction had been witnessed, and sensible also of the perilous situation I occupied, owing to the late judgment of the court against me. But on the contrary, I never saw my enlightened friend in such high spirits. He assured me there was no danger; and again repeated that he warranted my life against the power of man. I thought proper, however, to remain in hiding for a week; but, as he said, to my utter amazement, the blame fell on another, who was not only accused but pronounced guilty by the general voice, and outlawed for non-appearance! How could I doubt, after this, that the hand of Heaven was aiding and abetting me? The matter was beyond my comprehension; and, as for my friend, he never explained anything that was past, but his activity and art were without a parallel.

I was really troubled for many days, knowing that someone had seen what happened and also aware of the dangerous position I was in because of the recent court ruling against me. In contrast, I had never seen my insightful friend in such good spirits. He assured me there was no danger and repeated that he guaranteed my safety against any threat. However, I thought it was best to stay hidden for a week; but, to my complete surprise, as he said, the blame ended up falling on someone else, who was not only accused but also declared guilty by popular opinion and declared an outlaw for not showing up! How could I doubt, after this, that divine intervention was supporting me? I couldn't understand how it all worked; and as for my friend, he never explained anything that had happened before, but his resourcefulness and skill were unmatched.

He enjoyed our success mightily; and for his sake I enjoyed it somewhat, but it was on account of his comfort only, for I could not for my life perceive in what degree the Church was better or purer than before these deeds were done. He continued to flatter me with great things, as to honours, fame and emolument; and, above all, with the blessing and protection of Him to whom my body and soul were dedicated. But, after these high promises, I got no longer peace; for he began to urge the death of my father with such an unremitting earnestness that I found I had nothing for it but to comply. I did so; and cannot express his enthusiasm of approbation. So much did he hurry and press me in this that I was forced to devise some of the most openly violent measures, having no alternative. Heaven spared me the deed, taking, in that instance, the vengeance in its own hand; for, before my arm could effect the sanguine but meritorious act, the old man followed his son to the grave. My illustrious and zealous friend seemed to regret this somewhat, but he comforted himself with the reflection, that still I had the merit of it, having not only consented to it, but in fact effected it, for by doing the one action I had brought about both.

He really enjoyed our success; and for his sake, I felt a bit of joy too, but it was only because I wanted him to be comfortable. I couldn't see how the Church was any better or purer after these events. He kept flattering me with promises of honors, fame, and rewards, and most importantly, with the blessing and protection of the one to whom my body and soul were dedicated. However, after those grand promises, I found no peace, as he pushed me relentlessly about my father's death, and I realized I had no choice but to go along with it. When I did, I can't describe his enthusiasm for my compliance. He pressured me so much that I had to think of some extremely drastic measures, with no other options available. Fortunately, fate intervened and took care of it; before I could carry out that bloody yet supposedly honorable action, my father passed away. My distinguished and passionate friend seemed to be a bit disappointed, but he consoled himself with the thought that I still had the credit for it, since I not only agreed but effectively made it happen by doing that one action.

No sooner were the obsequies of the funeral over than my friend and I went to Dalcastle, and took undisputed possession of the houses, lands and effects that had been my father's; but his plate, and vast treasures of ready money, he had bestowed on a voluptuous and unworthy creature, who had lived long with him as a mistress. Fain would I have sent her after her lover, and gave my friend some hints on the occasion; but he only shook his head, and said that we must lay all selfish and interested motives out of the question.

As soon as the funeral was over, my friend and I went to Dalcastle and took full control of the houses, land, and belongings that belonged to my father. However, he had given his silver and huge amounts of cash to an indulgent and undeserving woman who had long been his mistress. I would have liked to send her after her lover and suggested this to my friend, but he just shook his head and said we needed to set aside all selfish and self-serving motives.

For a long time, when I awaked in the morning, I could not believe my senses, that I was indeed the undisputed and sole proprietor of so much wealth and grandeur; and I felt so much gratified that I immediately set about doing all the good I was able, hoping to meet with all approbation and encouragement from my friend. I was mistaken. He checked the very first impulses towards such a procedure, questioned my motives, and uniformly made them out to be wrong. There was one morning that a servant said to me there was a lady in the back chamber who wanted to speak with me, but he could not tell me who it was, for all the old servants had left the mansion, every one on hearing of the death of the late laird, and those who had come knew none of the people in the neighbourhood. From several circumstances, I had suspicions of private confabulations with women, and refused to go to her, but bid the servant inquire what she wanted. She would not tell, she could only state the circumstances to me; so I, being sensible that a little dignity of manner became me in my elevated situation, returned for answer that, if it was business that could not be transacted by my steward, it must remain untransacted. The answer which the servant brought back was of a threatening nature. She stated she must see me, and, if I refused her satisfaction there, she would compel it where I should not evite her.

For a long time, when I woke up in the morning, I could hardly believe my senses—I was the sole owner of so much wealth and grandeur. It made me feel so good that I immediately started trying to do as much good as I could, hoping my friend would appreciate and encourage me. I was wrong. He stopped my very first impulses to do so, questioned my motives, and always pointed out that they were wrong. One morning, a servant told me that a lady in the back room wanted to speak with me, but he couldn’t tell me who it was since all the old servants had left the mansion as soon as they heard about the death of the previous owner, and the new ones didn't know anyone in the neighborhood. Based on several clues, I suspected private conversations with women, so I refused to go to her but asked the servant to find out what she wanted. She wouldn’t say—she could only describe the situation to me. Since I felt a bit of dignity was appropriate given my elevated status, I replied that if it was an issue my steward couldn’t handle, it would remain unresolved. The servant returned with a threatening message. She said she had to see me, and if I didn’t meet with her, she would force the issue in a way I couldn’t avoid.

My friend and director appeared pleased with my dilemma, and rather advised that I should hear what the woman had to say; on which I consented, provided she would deliver her mission in his presence. She came with manifest signs of anger and indignation, and began with a bold and direct charge against me of a shameful assault on one of her daughters; of having used the basest of means in order to lead her aside from the paths of rectitude; and, on the failure of these, of having resorted to the most unqualified measures.

My friend and director seemed satisfied with my situation and suggested that I listen to what the woman had to say; I agreed, on the condition that she would present her message in his presence. She arrived clearly showing signs of anger and outrage, and started with a bold accusation against me of a disgraceful attack on one of her daughters; claiming that I had used the lowest tactics to lead her away from the right path; and when that didn't work, I had resorted to the most extreme measures.

I denied the charge in all its bearings, assuring the dame that I had never so much as seen either of her daughters to my knowledge, far less wronged them; on which she got into great wrath, and abused me to my face as an accomplished vagabond, hypocrite, and sensualist; and she went so far as to tell me roundly that if I did not marry her daughter, she would bring me to the gallows and that in a very short time.

I completely denied the accusation, telling the woman that I had never even seen either of her daughters, let alone wronged them. This made her incredibly angry, and she insulted me to my face, calling me a seasoned drifter, a hypocrite, and a pleasure-seeker. She even boldly threatened to hang me if I didn’t marry her daughter, and that it would happen very soon.

"Marry your daughter, honest woman!" said I, "on the faith of a Christian, I never saw your daughter; and you may rest assured in this, that I will neither marry you nor her. Do you consider how short a time I have been in this place? How much that time has been occupied? And how there was even a possibility that I could have accomplished such villainies?"

"Marry your daughter, honest woman!" I said, "I swear as a Christian, I’ve never met your daughter; and you can be sure of this: I will not marry either you or her. Do you realize how little time I’ve been here? How much of that time has been taken up? And how could I possibly have managed such wrongdoing?"

"And how long does your Christian reverence suppose you have remained in this place since the late laird's death?" said she.

"And how long do you think you've been here since the late laird passed away?" she asked.

"That is too well known to need recapitulation," said I. "Only a very few days, though I cannot at present specify the exact number; perhaps from thirty to forty, or so. But in all that time, certes, I have never seen either you or any of your two daughters that you talk of. You must be quite sensible of that."

"That's too well known to go over again," I said. "It's only been a few days, though I can't say exactly how many; maybe around thirty to forty, something like that. But in all that time, I definitely haven't seen you or either of your two daughters you mentioned. You must realize that."

My friend shook his head three times during this short sentence, while the woman held up her hands in amazement and disgust, exclaiming: "There goes the self-righteous one! There goes the consecrated youth, who cannot err! You, sir, know, and the world shall know, of the faith that is in this most just, devout, and religious miscreant! Can you deny that you have already been in this place four months and seven days? Or that in that time you have been forbid my house twenty times? Or that you have persevered in your endeavours to effect the basest and most ungenerous of purposes? Or that you have attained them? Hypocrite and deceiver as you are! Yes, sir; I say, dare you deny that you have attained your vile, selfish, and degrading purposes towards a young, innocent, and unsuspecting creature, and thereby ruined a poor widow's only hope in this world? No, you cannot look in my face, and deny aught of this."

My friend shook his head three times during this brief statement, while the woman raised her hands in disbelief and disgust, exclaiming: "There goes the self-righteous one! There goes the so-called saint, who thinks he can do no wrong! You, sir, know, and the world will know, about the faith in this so-called just, devout, and religious villain! Can you deny that you’ve been here for four months and seven days? Or that during that time, you’ve been banned from my house twenty times? Or that you’ve persisted in your efforts to achieve the lowest and most selfish of goals? Or that you’ve succeeded? Hypocrite and trickster that you are! Yes, sir; I ask, do you dare deny that you’ve achieved your horrible, selfish, and demeaning goals against a young, innocent, and unsuspecting girl, thereby destroying a poor widow's only hope in this world? No, you can't look me in the eyes and deny any of this."

"The woman is raving mad!" said I. "You, illustrious sir, know that, in the first instance, I have not yet been in this place one month." My friend shook his head again, and answered me: "You are wrong, my dear friend; you are wrong. It is indeed the space of time that the lady hath stated, to a day, since you came here, and I came with you; and I am sorry that I know for certain that you have been frequently haunting her house, and have often had private correspondence with one of the young ladies, too. Of the nature of it I presume not to know."

"The woman is completely insane!" I said. "You, my esteemed friend, know that I haven't even been in this place for a month." My friend shook his head again and replied, "You're mistaken, my dear friend; you're mistaken. It has indeed been exactly the amount of time the lady mentioned, right down to the day, since you arrived here, and I arrived with you. I'm sorry to say that I'm certain you've been frequently visiting her house and have often communicated privately with one of the young ladies, too. I can't presume to know the nature of it."

"You are mocking me," said I. "But as well may you try to reason me out of my existence as to convince me that I have been here even one month, or that any of those things you allege against me has the shadow of truth or evidence to support it. I will swear to you, by the great God that made me; and by—"

"You’re making fun of me," I said. "But you might as well try to argue me out of my existence as to convince me that I've been here even one month, or that any of those claims you’re making against me have even a hint of truth or evidence to back them up. I swear to you, by the great God who created me; and by—"

"Hold, thou most abandoned profligate!" cried she violently, "and do not add perjury to your other detestable crimes. Do not, for mercy's sake, any more profane that name whose attributes you have wrested and disgraced. But tell me what reparation you propose offering to my injured child."

"Stop, you most disgraceful person!" she screamed fiercely, "and don't add lying to your other terrible crimes. Please, for mercy's sake, don't further dishonor that name whose qualities you've twisted and ruined. But tell me what you plan to do to make up for what you've done to my hurt child."

"I again declare, before Heaven, woman, that, to the best of my knowledge and recollection, I never saw your daughter. I now think I have some faint recollection of having seen your face, but where, or in what place, puzzles me quite."

"I repeat, before God, woman, that as far as I know and remember, I've never seen your daughter. I now think I have a vague memory of your face, but where or under what circumstances leaves me completely baffled."

"And, why?" said she. "Because for months and days you have been, in such a state of extreme inebriety, that your time has gone over like a dream that has been forgotten. I believe that, from the day you came first to my house, you have been in a state of utter delirium, and that principally from the fumes of wine and ardent spirits."

"And, why?" she asked. "Because for months and days you have been so incredibly drunk that your time has slipped away like a forgotten dream. I believe that since the day you first came to my house, you've been in a complete haze, mostly from the effects of wine and strong drinks."

"It is a manifest falsehood!" said I. "I have never, since I entered on the possession of Dalcastle, tasted wine or spirits, saving once a few evenings ago; and, I confess to my shame, that I was led too far; but I have craved forgiveness and obtained it. I take my noble and distinguished friend there for a witness to the truth of what I assert; a man who has done more, and sacrificed more for the sake of genuine Christianity than any this world contains. Him you will believe."

"It’s a clear lie!" I said. "Since I took over Dalcastle, I haven’t touched wine or spirits, except for one time a few evenings ago; and, I’m ashamed to admit, I went a bit too far. But I’ve sought forgiveness and received it. I have my noble and distinguished friend there as a witness to the truth of what I’m saying; a man who has done more and sacrificed more for the sake of true Christianity than anyone else in the world. You will believe him."

"I hope you have attained forgiveness," said he, seriously. "Indeed it would be next to blasphemy to doubt it. But, of late, you have been very much addicted to intemperance. I doubt if, from the first night you tasted the delights of drunkenness, that you have ever again been in your right mind until Monday last. Doubtless you have been for a good while most diligent in your addresses to this lady's daughter."

"I hope you’ve found forgiveness," he said earnestly. "It would almost be blasphemous to doubt it. However, recently, you've really struggled with drinking. I doubt you've been in your right mind since the first night you experienced the pleasures of drunkenness until this past Monday. You've certainly been quite dedicated to pursuing this lady's daughter for a while now."

"This is unaccountable," said I. "It is impossible that I can have been doing a thing and not doing it at the same time. But indeed, honest woman, there have several incidents occurred to me in the course of my life which persuade me I have a second self; or that there is some other being who appears in my likeness."

"This is unbelievable," I said. "It's impossible for me to be doing something and not doing it at the same time. But honestly, ma'am, there have been several events in my life that make me think I have a second self, or that there's another being who looks just like me."

Here my friend interrupted me with a sneer, and a hint that I was talking insanely; and then he added, turning to the lady: "I know my friend Mr. Colwan will do what is just and, right. Go and bring the young lady to him, that he may see her, and he will then recollect all his former amours with her!'

Here my friend cut me off with a sneer, suggesting I was talking crazy; then he turned to the lady and said, "I know my friend Mr. Colwan will do what’s fair and right. Go bring the young lady to him so he can see her, and then he will remember all his past affairs with her!"

"I humbly beg your pardon, sir," said I. "But the mention of such a thing as amours with any woman existing, to me, is really so absurd, so far from my principles, so from the purity of nature and frame to which I was born and consecrated, that I hold it as an insult, and regard it with contempt."

"I sincerely apologize, sir," I said. "But the idea of having affairs with any woman is so ridiculous to me, so against my principles, and so far from the purity of nature and the character I was born with, that I see it as an insult and look upon it with disdain."

I would have said more in reprobation of such an idea, had not my servant entered, and said that a gentleman wanted to see me on business. Being glad of an opportunity of getting quit of my lady visitor, I ordered the servant to show him in; and forthwith a little lean gentleman, with a long aquiline nose, and a bald head, daubed all over with powder and pomatum, entered. I thought I recollected having seen him too, but could not remember his name, though he spoke to me with the greatest familiarity; at least, that sort of familiarity that an official person generally assumes. He bustled about and about, speaking to everyone, but declined listening for a single moment to any. The lady offered to withdraw, but he stopped her.

I would have said more against such an idea, but my servant walked in and said that a gentleman wanted to see me about some business. Happy for the chance to get rid of my lady visitor, I told the servant to show him in; and immediately, a small, thin gentleman with a long, pointed nose and a bald head, plastered with powder and pomade, came in. I thought I recognized him too, but I couldn't remember his name, even though he spoke to me very casually; at least, it was that kind of casualness that an official person usually has. He moved around, chatting to everyone, but didn’t stop to listen to anyone for even a second. The lady offered to leave, but he stopped her.

"No, no, Mrs. Keeler, you need not go; you need not go; you must not go, madam. The business I came about concerns you—yes, that it does. Bad business yon of Walker's? Eh? Could not help it—did all I could, Mr. Wringhim. Done your business. Have it all cut and dry here, sir. No, this is not it—Have it among them, though.—I'm at a little loss for your name, sir (addressing my friend)—seen you very often, though—exceedingly often—quite well acquainted with you."

"No, no, Mrs. Keeler, you don’t need to leave; you don’t need to leave; you mustn’t leave, madam. The reason I came concerns you—yes, it really does. Bad news about Walker’s? Huh? I couldn’t help it—I did everything I could, Mr. Wringhim. I took care of your business. I have everything ready here, sir. No, that’s not it—have it among them, though. I’m a bit unsure of your name, sir (addressing my friend)—I've seen you quite often, though—very often—I'm quite familiar with you."

"No, sir, you are not," said my friend, sternly. The intruder never regarded him; never so much as lifted his eyes from his bundle of law papers, among which he was bustling with great hurry and importance, but went on:

"No, you're not," my friend said firmly. The intruder didn't pay him any attention; he didn't even lift his eyes from his stack of legal documents, which he was rifling through with a sense of urgency and seriousness, but continued on:

"Impossible! Have seen a face very like it, then—what did you say your name was, sir?—very like it indeed. Is it not the young laird who was murdered whom you resemble so much?"

"Impossible! I've seen a face very similar to yours—what did you say your name was, sir?—very similar indeed. Aren't you the young laird who was murdered that you look so much like?"

Here Mrs. Keeler uttered a scream, which so much startled me that it seems I grew pale, and, on looking at my friend's face, there was something struck me so forcibly in the likeness between him and my late brother that I had very nearly fainted. The woman exclaimed that it was my brother's spirit that stood beside me.

Here, Mrs. Keeler let out a scream that startled me so much that I felt myself go pale. When I looked at my friend's face, I was so struck by how much he resembled my late brother that I nearly fainted. The woman shouted that it was my brother's spirit standing next to me.

"Impossible!" exclaimed the attorney. "At least, I hope not, else his signature is not worth a pin. There is some balance due on yon business, madam. Do you wish your account? because I have it here, ready discharged, and it does not suit letting such things lie over. This business of Mr. Colwan's will be a severe one on you, madam—rather a severe one."

"Impossible!" the lawyer exclaimed. "At least, I hope not, otherwise his signature isn't worth anything. There's still some balance due on that business, ma'am. Do you want your account? Because I have it here, completely settled, and it doesn't make sense to let these things sit. This situation with Mr. Colwan is going to be tough on you, ma'am—really tough."

"What business of mine, if it be your will, sir," said I. "For my part I never engaged you in business of any sort less or more." He never regarded me, but went on: "You may appeal, though. Yes, yes, there are such things as appeals for the refractory. Here it is, gentlemen. Here they are all together. Here is, in the first place, sir, your power of attorney, regularly warranted, sealed, and signed with your own hand."

"What do I have to do with this, if it's your decision, sir," I said. "As for me, I never involved you in any kind of business, less or more." He didn't pay any attention to me but continued: "But you can appeal, yes. There are ways to appeal for those who are stubborn. Here it is, gentlemen. Here they all are together. First off, sir, here is your power of attorney, properly authorized, sealed, and signed by your own hand."

"I declare solemnly that I never signed that document," said I.

"I solemnly declare that I never signed that document," I said.

"Aye, aye, the system of denial is not a bad one in general," said my attorney. "But at present there is no occasion for it. You do not deny your own hand?"

"Aye, aye, the system of denial isn't a bad one overall," said my attorney. "But right now, there's no reason for it. You’re not denying your own actions, are you?"

"I deny everything connected with the business," cried I. "I disclaim it in toto, and declare that I know no more about it than the child unborn."

"I deny everything related to this situation," I shouted. "I reject it completely and state that I know no more about it than an unborn child."

"That is exceedingly good!" exclaimed he. "I like your pertinacity vastly! I have three of your letters, and three of your signatures; that part is all settled, and I hope so is the whole affair; for here is the original grant to your father, which he has never thought proper to put in requisition. Simple gentleman! But here have I, Lawyer Linkum, in one hundredth part of the time that any other notary, writer, attorney, or writer of the signet in Britain would have done it, procured the signature of His Majesty's commissioner, and thereby confirmed the charter to you and your house, sir, for ever and ever—Begging your pardon, madam." The lady, as well as myself, tried several times to interrupt the loquacity of Linkum, but in vain: he only raised his hand with a quick flourish, and went on:

"That's absolutely fantastic!" he exclaimed. "I really appreciate your persistence! I've got three of your letters and three of your signatures; that part is all taken care of, and I hope the whole situation is settled too; because here is the original grant to your father, which he never thought it necessary to use. What a simple man! But here I am, Lawyer Linkum, having obtained the signature of His Majesty's commissioner in a fraction of the time it would take any other notary, writer, attorney, or signet writer in Britain, thus confirming the charter to you and your family, sir, forever—Apologies, madam." The lady and I both tried several times to interrupt Linkum's chatter, but it was no use: he just raised his hand with a quick flourish and continued on:

"Here it is:

"Here it is:"

JAMES, by the grace of God, King of Great Britain, France, and Ireland, to his right trusty cousin, sendeth greeting: And whereas his right leal and trust-worthy cousin, George Colwan, of Dalcastle and Balgrennan, hath suffered great losses, and undergone much hardship, on behalf of his Majesty's rights and titles; he therefore, for himself, and as prince and steward of Scotland, and by the consent of his right trusty cousins and councillors hereby grants to the said George Colwan, his heirs and assignees whatsomever, heritably and irrevocably, all and haill the lands and others underwritten: To wit, All and haill, the five merk land of Kipplerig; the five pound land of Easter Knockward, with all the towers, fortalices, manor-places, houses, biggings, yards, orchards, tofts, crofts, mills, woods, fishings, mosses, muirs, meadows, commonties, pasturages, coals, coal-heughs, tennants, tenantries, services of free tenants, annexes, connexes, dependencies, parts, pendicles, and pertinents of the same whatsomever; to be peaceably brooked, joysed, set, used, and disposed of by him and his aboves, as specified, heritably and irrevocably, in all time coming: And, in testimony thereof, his Majesty, for himself, and as prince steward of Scotland, with the advice and consent of his foresaids, knowledge, proper motive, and kingly power, makes, erects, creates, unites, annexes, and incorporates, the whole lands above mentioned in a haill and free barony, by all the rights, miethes, and marches thereof, old and divided, as the same lies, in length and breadth, in houses, biggings, mills, multures, hawking, bunting, fishing; with court, plaint, herezeld, fock, fork, sack, sock, thole, thame, vert, wraik, waith, wair, venison, outfang thief, infang thief, pit and gallows, and all and sundry other commodities. Given at our Court of Whitehall, &c., &c. God save the King.

JAMES, by the grace of God, King of Great Britain, France, and Ireland, to his loyal cousin, sends greetings: And whereas his loyal and trustworthy cousin, George Colwan, of Dalcastle and Balgrennan, has suffered significant losses and faced much hardship for his Majesty's rights and titles; he therefore, for himself, and as prince and steward of Scotland, with the consent of his trustworthy cousins and councillors, hereby grants to the said George Colwan, his heirs and assigns, heritably and irrevocably, all and any of the lands and properties mentioned below: Specifically, all the five merk land of Kipplerig; the five-pound land of Easter Knockward, along with all the towers, fortifications, manors, houses, buildings, yards, orchards, tofts, crofts, mills, woods, fisheries, marshes, moors, meadows, common lands, pastures, coal, coal pits, tenants, tenancies, services of free tenants, annexes, connections, dependencies, parts, pendicles, and all other rights related to the same; to be peacefully enjoyed, used, managed, and disposed of by him and his successors, as specified, heritably and irrevocably, forever: And, in testimony of this, his Majesty, for himself, and as prince steward of Scotland, with the advice and consent of his predecessors, knowledge, proper motive, and royal authority, makes, erects, creates, unites, annexes, and incorporates all the lands mentioned above into a whole and free barony, with all the rights, privileges, and boundaries of the same, old and new, as it lies in length and breadth, in houses, buildings, mills, multures, hunting, fishing; with court, lawsuit, heritable rights, customs, rights of land use, hunting rights, and all other commodities. Given at our Court of Whitehall, &c., &c. God save the King.

Compositio 5 lib. 13.8.
Registrate 26th September 1687.

Compositio 5 lib. 13.8.
Registered 26th September 1687.

"See, madam, here are ten signatures of privy councillors of that year, and here are other ten of the present year, with His Grace the Duke of Queensberry at the head. All right. See here it is, sir—all right—done your work. So you see, madam, this gentleman is the true and sole heritor of all the land that your father possesses, with all the rents thereof for the last twenty years, and upwards. Fine job for my employers! Sorry on your account, madam—can't help it."

"Look, ma’am, here are ten signatures from privy councillors from that year, and here are another ten from this year, with His Grace the Duke of Queensberry leading the list. All set. You see, sir, it’s all here—everything’s in order—your work is done. So, ma’am, this gentleman is the legitimate and only heir to all the land your father owns, along with all the rent from the last twenty years and more. Great work for my clients! I’m sorry for you, ma’am—can’t do anything about it."

I was again going to disclaim all interest or connection in the matter but my friend stopped me; and the plaints and lamentations of the dame became so overpowering that they put an end to all further colloquy; but Lawyer Linkum followed me, and stated his great outlay, and the important services he had rendered me, until I was obliged to subscribe an order to him for L100 on my banker.

I was about to deny any interest or connection in the matter again, but my friend stopped me. The woman's cries and complaints became so overwhelming that they ended all further conversation. However, Lawyer Linkum followed me and talked about his significant expenses and the important services he had provided, until I had no choice but to write him a check for £100 from my bank.

I was now glad to retire with my friend, and ask seriously for some explanation of all this. It was in the highest degree unsatisfactory. He confirmed all that had been stated to me; assuring me that I had not only been assiduous in my endeavours to seduce a young lady of great beauty, which it seemed I had effected, but that I had taken counsel, and got this supposed, old, false, and forged grant raked up and now signed, to ruin the young lady's family quite, so as to throw her entirely on myself for protection, and be wholly at my will.

I was now happy to sit down with my friend and seriously ask for some explanation of all this. It was extremely unsatisfying. He confirmed everything that had been said to me, assuring me that I had not only tried hard to seduce a beautiful young lady, which it seemed I had succeeded in doing, but that I had also sought advice and dug up this supposed, old, fake, and forged document, signed to completely ruin the young lady's family so that she would be entirely dependent on me for protection and at my mercy.

This was to me wholly incomprehensible. I could have freely made oath to the contrary of every particular. Yet the evidences were against me, and of a nature not to be denied. Here I must confess that, highly as I disapproved of the love of women, and all intimacies and connections with the sex, I felt a sort of indefinite pleasure, an ungracious delight in having a beautiful woman solely at my disposal. But I thought of her spiritual good in the meantime. My friend spoke of my backslidings with concern; requesting me to make sure of my forgiveness, and to forsake them; and then he added some words of sweet comfort. But from this time forth I began to be sick at times of my existence. I had heart-burnings, longings, and, yearnings that would not be satisfied; and I seemed hardly to be an accountable creature; being thus in the habit of executing transactions of the utmost moment without being sensible that I did them. I was a being incomprehensible to myself. Either I had a second self, who transacted business in my likeness, or else my body was at times possessed by a spirit over which it had no control, and of whose actions my own soul was wholly unconscious. This was an anomaly not to be accounted for by any philosophy of mine, and I was many times, in contemplating it, excited to terrors and mental torments hardly describable. To be in a state of consciousness and unconsciousness, at the same time, in the same body and same spirit, was impossible. I was under the greatest anxiety, dreading some change would take place momently in my nature; for of dates I could make nothing: one-half, or two-thirds of my time, seemed to me totally lost. I often, about this time, prayed with great fervour, and lamented my hopeless condition, especially in being liable to the commission of crimes which I was not sensible of and could not eschew. And I confess, notwithstanding the promises on which I had been taught to rely, I began to have secret terrors that the great enemy of man's salvation was exercising powers over me that might eventually lead to my ruin. These were but temporary and sinful fears, but they added greatly to my unhappiness.

This was completely incomprehensible to me. I could have easily sworn that every detail was the opposite. Yet the evidence was against me, and it couldn’t be denied. Here, I must admit that, as much as I disapproved of the love of women and any relationships with them, I felt a kind of undefined pleasure, an ungracious delight in having a beautiful woman completely at my disposal. But I focused on her spiritual well-being during this time. My friend expressed concern about my backsliding, urging me to ensure my forgiveness and to abandon those faults, and then he offered some comforting words. From that point on, I started to feel sick at times about my existence. I had heartburn, longings, and yearning that couldn’t be satisfied; it felt like I was hardly an accountable person, often engaging in critically important actions without realizing I was doing them. I was a puzzle even to myself. Either I had another self who was handling things in my likeness, or my body was sometimes taken over by a spirit that it couldn't control, leaving my own soul completely unaware of its actions. This was an anomaly that my philosophy couldn’t explain, and I often felt terrors and mental anguish that were almost indescribable when contemplating it. To be both conscious and unconscious at the same time, in the same body and spirit, was impossible. I was filled with anxiety, fearing that some change might occur in my nature at any moment; I couldn’t keep track of time: half or two-thirds of my existence felt completely lost. During this time, I often prayed fervently and mourned my hopeless situation, especially feeling vulnerable to committing crimes I didn’t even realize I was committing and couldn’t avoid. I admit, despite the promises I had been taught to trust, I began to secretly fear that the great enemy of man's salvation was gaining power over me that could eventually lead to my downfall. These fears were temporary and sinful, but they significantly increased my unhappiness.

The worst thing of all was what hitherto I had never felt, and, as yet, durst not confess to myself, that the presence of my illustrious and devoted friend was becoming irksome to me. When I was by myself, I breathed freer, and my step was lighter; but, when he approached, a pang went to my heart, and, in his company, I moved and acted as if under a load that I could hardly endure. What a state to be in! And yet to shake him off was impossible—we were incorporated together—identified with one another, as it were, and the power was not in me to separate myself from him. I still knew nothing who he was, further than that he was a potentate of some foreign land, bent on establishing some pure and genuine doctrines of Christianity, hitherto only half understood, and less than half exercised. Of this I could have no doubts after all that he had said, done and suffered in the cause. But, alongst with this, I was also certain that he was possessed of some supernatural power, of the source of which I was wholly ignorant. That a man could be a Christian and at the same time a powerful necromancer, appeared inconsistent, and adverse to every principle taught in our Church and from this I was led to believe that he inherited his powers from on high, for I could not doubt either of the soundness of his principles or that he accomplished things impossible to account for. Thus was I sojourning in the midst of a chaos of confusion. I looked back on my by-past life with pain, as one looks back on a perilous journey, in which he has attained his end, without gaining any advantage either to himself or others; and I looked forward, as on a darksome waste, full of repulsive and terrific shapes, pitfalls, and precipices, to which there was no definite bourn, and from which I turned with disgust. With my riches, my unhappiness was increased tenfold; and here, with another great acquisition of property, for which I had pleaed, and which I had gained in a dream, my miseries and difficulties were increasing. My principal feeling, about this time, was an insatiable longing for something that I cannot describe or denominate properly, unless I say it was for utter oblivion that I longed. I desired to sleep; but it was for a deeper and longer sleep than that in which the senses were nightly steeped. I longed to be at rest and quiet, and close my eyes on the past and the future alike, as far as this frail life was concerned. But what had been formerly and finally settled in the councils above, I presumed not to call in question.

The worst part of all was something I had never felt before and, until now, hadn’t dared to admit to myself: the presence of my remarkable and dedicated friend was starting to annoy me. When I was alone, I felt freer and lighter on my feet; however, when he came near, a pain gripped my heart, and in his company, I moved and acted as if I was carrying a burden I could barely handle. What a situation to be in! Yet, shaking him off was impossible—we were intertwined, practically one and the same, and I had no power to separate myself from him. I still had no idea who he was, other than that he was a powerful leader from a foreign land, intent on establishing some pure and true doctrines of Christianity that had only been partially understood and even less practiced. I had no doubts about this, given everything he had said, done, and endured for the cause. Alongside that, I was also sure he had some supernatural abilities, the source of which I was completely unaware. The idea that a man could be a Christian and simultaneously a powerful sorcerer seemed contradictory and opposed to everything taught in our Church, which led me to believe he derived his powers from a divine source, as I could not doubt the validity of his principles or that he performed things that were hard to explain. So, I found myself in the midst of a chaotic confusion. I reflected on my past life with pain, just as one looks back on a dangerous journey, having reached the destination without gaining any benefit for myself or others; and I looked ahead to a dark wasteland filled with grotesque and terrifying shapes, pitfalls, and cliffs, with no clear destination, which I turned away from in disgust. With my wealth, my unhappiness had multiplied tenfold, and here, with yet another significant acquisition of property that I had pleaded for and gained in a dream, my miseries and challenges were increasing. My main feeling during this time was an insatiable yearning for something I couldn't quite describe, unless I said it was for complete oblivion. I longed to sleep, but I wanted a deeper and longer sleep than that in which my senses were lulled each night. I craved rest and quiet, wanting to close my eyes to the past and the future alike, as far as this fragile life was concerned. But what had been previously decided in the higher realms, I had no right to question.

In this state of irritation and misery was I dragging on an existence, disgusted with all around me, and in particular with my mother, who, with all her love and anxiety, had such an insufferable mode of manifesting them that she had by this time rendered herself exceedingly obnoxious to me. The very sound of her voice at a distance went to my heart like an arrow, and made all my nerves to shrink; and, as for the beautiful young lady for whom they told me I had been so much enamoured, I shunned all intercourse with her or hers, as I would have done with the Devil. I read some of their letters and burnt them, but refused to see either the young lady or her mother on any account.

In this state of irritation and misery, I was dragging through life, disgusted with everything around me, especially my mother. Despite all her love and concern, the way she expressed them had become unbearable, making her really annoying to me. Just the sound of her voice, even from a distance, pierced my heart like an arrow and made my nerves tense up. As for the beautiful young lady they told me I had been so in love with, I avoided any interaction with her or her family like I would with the Devil. I read some of their letters and burned them, but I refused to see either the young lady or her mother for any reason.

About this time it was that my worthy and reverend parent came with one of his elders to see my mother and myself. His presence always brought joy with it into our family, for my mother was uplifted, and I had so few who cared for me, or for whom I cared, that I felt rather gratified at seeing him. My illustrious friend was also much more attached to him than any other person (except myself) for their religious principles tallied in every point, and their conversation was interesting, serious, and sublime. Being anxious to entertain well and highly the man to whom I had been so much indebted, and knowing that, with all his integrity and righteousness, he disdained not the good things of this life, I brought from the late laird's well-stored cellars various fragrant and salubrious wines, and we drank, and became merry, and I found that my miseries and overpowering calamities passed away over my head like a shower that is driven by the wind. I became elevated and happy, and welcomed my guests an hundred times; and then I joined them in religious conversation, with a zeal and enthusiasm which I had not often experienced, and which made all their hearts rejoice, so that I said to myself. "Surely every gift of God is a blessing, and ought to be used with liberality and thankfulness."

Around this time, my respected and honorable parent came to visit my mother and me with one of his elders. His presence always brought joy to our family because my mother felt uplifted, and I had so few people who cared about me or whom I cared about, so I was quite pleased to see him. My esteemed friend was also more attached to him than anyone else (except for me) because their religious beliefs aligned perfectly, and their conversations were interesting, serious, and profound. Wanting to entertain the man to whom I owed so much, and knowing that despite his integrity and righteousness, he didn't shy away from the good things in life, I brought out a selection of aromatic and refreshing wines from the late laird's well-stocked cellars. We drank, became merry, and I found that my hardships and overwhelming troubles drifted away like a rain shower blown by the wind. I felt uplifted and happy, welcoming my guests a hundred times; then I joined them in religious conversations with a zeal and enthusiasm I hadn't often felt, which made all their hearts rejoice. I thought to myself, "Surely every gift from God is a blessing and should be embraced with generosity and gratitude."

The next day I waked from a profound and feverish sleep, and called for something to drink. There was a servant answered whom I had never seen before, and he was clad in my servant's clothes and livery. I asked for Andrew Handyside, the servant who had waited at table the night before; but the man answered with a stare and a smile:

The next day I woke up from a deep and restless sleep and asked for something to drink. A servant I had never seen before came in, wearing my servant's clothes and uniform. I asked for Andrew Handyside, the servant who had served at the table the night before, but the man just stared at me and smiled.

"What do you mean, sirrah," said I. "Pray what do you here? Or what are you pleased to laugh at? I desire you to go about your business, and send me up Handyside. I want him to bring me something to drink."

"What do you mean, dude," I said. "What are you doing here? Or what are you laughing at? I need you to get back to your work and send me Handyside. I want him to bring me something to drink."

"Ye sanna want a drink, maister," said the fellow. "Tak a hearty ane, and see if it will wauken ye up something, sae that ye dinna ca' for ghaists through your sleep. Surely ye haena forgotten that Andrew Handyside has been in his grave these six months?"

"Yeah, do you want a drink, sir," said the guy. "Have a strong one and see if it wakes you up a bit, so you don't call for ghosts in your sleep. Surely you haven't forgotten that Andrew Handyside has been in his grave for six months?"

This was a stunning blow to me. I could not answer further, but sunk back on my pillow as if I had been a lump of lead, refusing to take a drink or anything else at the fellow's hand, who seemed thus mocking me with so grave a face. The man seemed sorry, and grieved at my being offended, but I ordered him away, and continued sullen and thoughtful. Could I have again been for a season in utter oblivion to myself, and transacting business which I neither approved of nor had any connection with! I tried to recollect something in which I might have been engaged, but nothing was portrayed on my mind subsequent to the parting with my friends at a late hour the evening before. The evening before it certainly was: but, if so, how came it that Andrew Handyside, who served at table that evening, should have been in his grave six months! This was a circumstance somewhat equivocal; therefore, being afraid to arise lest accusations of I know not what might come against me, I was obliged to call once more in order to come at what intelligence I could. The same fellow appeared to receive my orders as before, and I set about examining him with regard to particulars. He told me his name was Scrape; that I hired him myself; of whom I hired him; and at whose recommendation. I smiled, and nodded so as to let the knave see I understood he was telling me a chain of falsehoods, but did not choose to begin with any violent asseverations to the contrary.

This was a huge shock to me. I couldn't respond anymore and just sank back on my pillow like I was a heavy weight, refusing to take a drink or anything else from the guy who seemed to be mocking me with his serious expression. He looked sorry and upset that I was offended, but I told him to get lost and stayed sulky and lost in thought. How could I have been in such a complete daze and getting involved in things that I didn't approve of or didn’t have anything to do with? I tried to remember something I might have been involved in, but my mind was blank after parting ways with my friends late the night before. It was definitely the night before: but if that’s true, then how was Andrew Handyside, who served at the table that evening, already dead for six months? That was a pretty confusing situation; so, afraid to get up and face accusations about who knows what, I had to call again to find out what information I could. The same guy showed up to take my orders again, and I started questioning him about the details. He told me his name was Scrape, that I hired him myself, from whom I hired him, and whose recommendation I took. I smiled and nodded to let the trickster know I realized he was feeding me a bunch of lies, but I didn’t want to start off with any strong denials.

"And where is my noble friend and companion?" said I. "How has he been engaged in the interim?"

"And where is my good friend and companion?" I asked. "What has he been up to in the meantime?"

"I dinna ken him, sir," said Scrape, "but have heard it said that the strange mysterious person that attended you, him that the maist part of folks countit uncanny, had gane awa wi' a Mr. Ringan o' Glasko last year, and had never returned."

"I don't know him, sir," said Scrape, "but I've heard it said that the strange mysterious person who was with you, the one most people found creepy, left with a Mr. Ringan of Glasgow last year and has never come back."

I thanked the Lord in my heart for this intelligence, hoping that the illustrious stranger had returned to his own land and people, and that I should thenceforth be rid of his controlling and appalling presence. "And where is my mother?" said, I. The man's breath cut short, and he looked at me without returning any answer.—"I ask you where my mother is?" said I.

I thanked the Lord in my heart for this information, hoping that the distinguished stranger had gone back to his own country and people, and that I would be free from his overpowering and frightening presence. "And where is my mother?" I asked. The man's breath caught, and he stared at me without answering. "I’m asking you where my mother is?" I said.

"God only knows, and not I, where she is," returned he. "He knows where her soul is, and, as for her body, if you dinna ken something o' it, I suppose nae man alive does."

"Only God knows, and not me, where she is," he replied. "He knows where her soul is, and as for her body, if you don't know something about it, I guess no one alive does."

"What do you mean, you knave?" said I. "What dark hints are these you are throwing out? Tell me precisely and distinctly what you know of my mother?"

"What do you mean, you scoundrel?" I said. "What dark hints are you throwing out? Tell me clearly and specifically what you know about my mother?"

"It is unco queer o' ye to forget, or pretend to forget everything that gate the day, sir," said he. "I'm sure you heard enough about it yestreen; an' I can tell you there are some gayan ill-faurd stories gaun about that business. But, as the thing is to be tried afore the circuit lords, it wad be far wrang to say either this or that to influence the public mind; it is best just to let justice tak its swee. I hae naething to say, sir. Ye hae been a good enough maister to me, and paid my wages regularly, but ye hae muckle need to be innocent, for there are some heavy accusations rising against you."

"It’s pretty strange for you to forget, or act like you forgot everything that happened yesterday, sir," he said. "I’m sure you heard plenty about it last night; and I can tell you there are some really bad rumors going around about that situation. But since the matter is going to be tried in front of the circuit court, it would be totally wrong to say anything either way to sway public opinion; it's best to just let justice run its course. I have nothing to say, sir. You’ve been a good enough boss to me and have paid my wages on time, but you really need to be innocent, because there are some serious accusations coming up against you."

"I fear no accusations of man," said I, "as long as I can justify my cause in the sight of Heaven; and that I can do this I am well aware. Go you and bring me some wine and water, and some other clothes than these gaudy and glaring ones."

"I’m not afraid of anyone’s accusations," I said, "as long as I can defend my cause in the eyes of Heaven; and I know I can do that. Go get me some wine and water, and some clothes that aren't so flashy and bright."

I took a cup of wine and water; put on my black clothes and walked out. For all the perplexity that surrounded me, I felt my spirits considerably buoyant. It appeared that I was rid of the two greatest bars to my happiness, by what agency I knew not. My mother, it seemed, was gone, who had become a grievous thorn in my side of late; and my great companion and counsellor, who tyrannized over every spontaneous movement of my heart, had likewise taken himself off. This last was an unspeakable relief; for I found that for a long season I had only been able to act by the motions of his mysterious mind and spirit. I therefore thanked God for my deliverance, and strode through my woods with a daring and heroic step; with independence in my eye, and freedom swinging in my right hand.

I poured myself a drink of wine and water, put on my black clothes, and walked out. Despite all the confusion around me, I felt surprisingly upbeat. It seemed I was finally free from the two biggest obstacles to my happiness, though I didn't know how it happened. My mother, who had become a real pain in my life recently, was gone; and my main companion and advisor, who dictated every impulsive feeling I had, had also left. This last part was an immense relief because I realized that for a long time, I had only been able to act based on his mysterious thoughts and feelings. So, I thanked God for my freedom and confidently strode through the woods, with a sense of independence in my eyes and freedom in my right hand.

At the extremity of the Colwan wood, I perceived a figure approaching me with slow and dignified motion. The moment that I beheld it, my whole frame received a shock as if the ground on which I walked had sunk suddenly below me. Yet, at that moment, I knew not who it was; it was the air and motion of someone that I dreaded, and from whom I would gladly have escaped; but this I even had not power to attempt. It came slowly onward, and I advanced as slowly to meet it; yet, when we came within speech, I still knew not who it was. It bore the figure, air, and features of my late brother, I thought, exactly; yet in all these there were traits so forbidding, so mixed with an appearance of misery, chagrin and despair, that I still shrunk from the view, not knowing in whose face I looked. But, when the being spoke, both my mental and bodily frame received another shock more terrible than the first, for it was the voice of the great personage I had so long denominated my friend, of whom I had deemed myself for ever freed, and whose presence and counsels I now dreaded more than Hell. It was his voice, but so altered—I shall never forget it till my dying day. Nay, I can scarce conceive it possible that any earthly sounds could be so discordant, so repulsive to every feeling of a human soul, as the tones of the voice that grated on my ear at that moment. They were the sounds of the pit, wheezed through a grated cranny, or seemed so to my distempered imagination.

At the edge of the Colwan woods, I noticed a figure approaching me with a slow and dignified walk. The moment I saw it, I felt a shock through my entire body as if the ground beneath me had suddenly dropped away. Yet, at that instant, I didn't know who it was; it had the vibe and movement of someone I feared, and I would have gladly run away, but I didn't even have the strength to try. It moved slowly toward me, and I moved just as slowly to meet it; however, when we got close enough to speak, I still didn’t know who it was. It had the appearance, demeanor, and features of my late brother, or so I thought, but there were traits so unsettling and mixed with signs of misery, disappointment, and despair that I still recoiled from looking, unsure of whose face I was seeing. But when the being spoke, both my mind and body received another shock, even worse than the first, because it was the voice of the great person I had long called my friend, the one I believed I was free from, and whose presence and advice I now feared more than anything else. It was his voice, but so different—I will never forget it for as long as I live. In fact, I can hardly believe that any sounds on Earth could be so jarring, so repulsive to every feeling of a human soul, as the tones of the voice that grated on my ear at that moment. They sounded like the sounds of the pit, wheezed through a barred opening, or at least that’s how it felt to my disturbed imagination.

"So! Thou shudderest at my approach now, dost thou?" said he. "Is this all the gratitude that you deign for an attachment of which the annals of the world furnish no parallel? An attachment which has caused me to forego power and dominion, might, homage, conquest and adulation: all that I might gain one highly valued and sanctified spirit to my great and true, principles of reformation among mankind. Wherein have I offended? What have I done for evil, or what have I not done for your good; that you would thus shun my presence?"

"So! You are shivering at my approach now, are you?" he said. "Is this all the gratitude you can give for a bond that has no equal in the history of the world? A bond that has made me give up power and control, strength, respect, victory, and praise: all so I could gain one deeply cherished and revered spirit for my important and true principles of changing humanity. Where have I gone wrong? What have I done that is bad, or what have I failed to do for your benefit, that you would avoid me like this?"

"Great and magnificent prince," said I humbly; "let me request of you to abandon a poor worthless wight to his own wayward fortune, and return to the dominion of your people. I am unworthy of the sacrifices you have made for my sake; and, after all your efforts, I do not feel that you have rendered either more virtuous or more happy. For the sake of that which is estimable in human nature, depart from me to your own home, before you render me a being either altogether above or below the rest of my fellow creatures. Let me plod on towards Heaven and happiness in my own way, like those that have gone before me, and I promise to stick fast by the great principles which you have so strenuously inculcated, on condition that you depart and leave me for ever."

"Great and magnificent prince," I said humbly, "please allow me to ask you to leave a poor, worthless person to his own unpredictable fate and return to your people. I don’t deserve the sacrifices you’ve made for me, and after all your efforts, I don’t feel like I’m any more virtuous or happy. For the sake of what is valuable in human nature, please go back to your own home before you make me someone completely different from the rest of my fellow humans. Let me continue my journey to Heaven and happiness in my own way, like those who came before me, and I promise to hold on to the great principles you’ve taught me, as long as you leave and never come back."

"Sooner shall you make the mother abandon the child of her bosom; nay, sooner cause the shadow to relinquish the substance, than separate me from your side. Our beings are amalgamated, as it were, and consociated in one, and never shall I depart from this country until I can carry you in triumph with me."

"Sooner will you make a mother abandon her child; in fact, sooner will you make a shadow let go of the substance than separate me from your side. Our lives are intertwined, like one being, and I will never leave this place until I can bring you along with me in triumph."

I can in nowise describe the effect this appalling speech had on me. It was like the announcement of death to one who had of late deemed himself free, if not of something worse than death, and of longer continuance. There was I doomed to remain in misery, subjugated, soul and body, to one whose presence was become more intolerable to me than aught on earth could compensate. And at that moment, when he beheld the anguish of my soul, he could not conceal that he enjoyed it. I was troubled for an answer, for which he was waiting: it became incumbent on me to say something after such a protestation of attachment; and, in some degree to shake the validity of it, I asked, with great simplicity, where he had been all this while?

I can't describe the effect this shocking speech had on me. It felt like hearing about death when I had thought I was free, at least from something worse than death, and something that would last longer. Here I was, stuck in misery, completely under the control of someone whose presence had become more unbearable than anything else on earth could make up for. And at that moment, when he saw the pain in my soul, he couldn't hide that he was enjoying it. I was struggling to find an answer, which he was waiting for: it was necessary for me to say something after such a declaration of love; and to question its validity a little, I simply asked where he had been all this time?

"Your crimes and your extravagances forced me from your side for a season," said he, "but now that I hope the day of grace is returned, I am again drawn towards you by an affection that has neither bounds nor interest; an affection for which I receive not even the poor return of gratitude, and which seems to have its radical sources in fascination. I have been far, far abroad, and have seen much, and transacted much, since I last spoke with you. During that space, I grievously suspect that you have been guilty of great crimes and misdemeanours, crimes that would have sunk an unregenerated person to perdition; but as I knew it to be only a temporary falling off, a specimen of that liberty by which the chosen and elected ones are made free, I closed my eyes on the wilful debasement of our principles, knowing that the transgressions could never be accounted to your charge, and that in good time you would come to your senses, and throw the whole weight of your crimes on the shoulders that had voluntarily stooped to receive the load."

"Your wrongdoings and your indulgences pushed me away from you for a while," he said, "but now that I believe grace has returned, I'm once again drawn to you by a love without limits or selfish motives; a love for which I get not even the slight return of gratitude, and which seems to stem from sheer fascination. I've traveled far and wide and experienced a lot since we last spoke. During that time, I strongly suspect you have committed serious offenses that could have led an unrepentant person to ruin; but since I saw it as just a temporary lapse, a glimpse of the freedom those chosen and elected ones enjoy, I turned a blind eye to the willful degradation of our principles, knowing that these transgressions couldn’t really be blamed on you, and that eventually, you would come to your senses and place the burden of your misdeeds on the shoulders willing to bear it."

"Certainly I will," said I, "as I and all the justified have a good right to do. But what crimes? What misdemeanours and transgressions do you talk about? For my part, I am conscious of none, and am utterly amazed at insinuations which I do not comprehend."

"Of course I will," I said, "just like every person who's justified has every right to do. But what crimes? What wrongdoings and violations are you referring to? As for me, I'm not aware of any, and I'm completely baffled by the implications that I don’t understand."

"You have certainly been left to yourself for a season," returned he, "having gone on rather like a person in a delirium than a Christian in his sober sense. You are accused of having made away with your mother privately; as also of the death of a beautiful young lady, whose affections you had seduced."

"You've definitely been on your own for a while," he said, "acting more like someone in a daze than a clear-headed Christian. People are saying that you secretly got rid of your mother, and that you’re also responsible for the death of a beautiful young woman whose heart you manipulated."

"It is an intolerable and monstrous falsehood!" cried I, interrupting, him. "I never laid a hand on a woman to take away her life, and have even shunned their society from my childhood. I know nothing of my mother's exit; nor of that young lady's whom you mention. Nothing whatever."

"It’s an outrageous and terrible lie!" I shouted, cutting him off. "I’ve never harmed a woman to take her life, and I’ve actually avoided their company since I was a kid. I know nothing about how my mother passed away, nor about that young lady you mentioned. Absolutely nothing."

"I hope it is so," said he. "But it seems there are some strong presumptuous proofs against you, and I came to warn you this day that a precognition is in progress, and that unless you are perfectly convinced, not only of your innocence but of your ability to prove it, it will be the safest course for you to abscond, and let the trial go on without you."

"I hope that's true," he said. "But it looks like there are some pretty strong accusations against you, and I came to warn you today that an investigation is happening. Unless you are completely sure, not just of your innocence but also of your ability to prove it, it would be safest for you to disappear and let the trial continue without you."

"Never shall it be said that I shrunk from such a trial as this," said I. "It would give grounds for suspicions of guilt that never had existence, even in thought. I will go and show myself in every public place, that no slanderous tongue may wag against me. I have shed the blood of sinners, but of these deaths I am guiltless; therefore I will face every tribunal, and put all my accusers down."

"Never will it be said that I backed down from a challenge like this," I said. "That would only raise suspicions of guilt that never existed, even in my thoughts. I will go out and be seen in every public place, so no one can spread slander about me. I've taken the lives of wrongdoers, but I'm innocent of these deaths; so I will confront every court and silence all my accusers."

"Asseveration will avail you but little," answered he, composedly. "It is, however, justifiable in its place, although to me it signifies nothing, who know too well that you did commit both crimes, in your own person, and with your own hands. Far be it from me to betray you; indeed, I would rather endeavour to palliate the offences; for, though adverse to nature, I can prove them not to be so to the cause of pure Christianity, by the mode of which we have approved of it, and which we wish to promulgate."

"Asserting that won't do you much good," he replied calmly. "It is acceptable in the right context, but to me it means nothing, since I know all too well that you committed both crimes yourself, with your own hands. I would never betray you; in fact, I'd rather try to soften the impact of your offenses. Even though they go against nature, I can demonstrate that they don't contradict the principles of true Christianity, based on the approach we've agreed upon and want to share."

"If this that you tell me be true," said I, "then is it as true that I have two souls, which take possession of my bodily frame by turns, the one being all unconscious of what the other performs; for as sure as I have at this moment a spirit within me, fashioned and destined to eternal felicity, as sure am I utterly ignorant of the crimes you now lay to my charge."

"If what you're telling me is true," I said, "then it's also true that I have two souls that take turns inhabiting my body, with one completely unaware of what the other is doing; for as sure as I have a spirit inside me, created and meant for eternal happiness, I'm equally unaware of the crimes you're accusing me of right now."

"Your supposition may be true in effect," said he. "We are all subjected to two distinct natures in the same person. I myself have suffered grievously in that way. The spirit that now directs my energies is not that with which I was endowed at my creation. It is changed within me, and so is my whole nature. My former days were those of grandeur and felicity. But, would you believe it? I was not then a Christian. Now I am. I have been converted to its truths by passing through the fire, and, since my final conversion, my misery has been extreme. You complain that I have not been able to render you more happy than you were. Alas! do you expect it in the difficult and exterminating career which you have begun? I, however, promise you this—a portion of the only happiness which I enjoy, sublime in its motions, and splendid in its attainments—I will place you on the right hand of my throne, and show you the grandeur of my domains, and the felicity of my millions of true professors."

"Your assumption might actually be correct," he said. "We all have two distinct natures within the same person. I've personally suffered greatly because of that. The spirit that drives me now isn't the one I was born with. It's changed inside me, and so has my entire being. My earlier days were filled with greatness and joy. But can you believe it? I wasn’t a Christian back then. Now I am. I’ve embraced its truths through hardship, and since my full conversion, my suffering has been intense. You say I haven’t made you any happier than you were before. But do you really expect that during this challenging and exhausting journey you've started? However, I promise you this—part of the only happiness I know, which is uplifting and impressive—I will place you beside me on my throne, and show you the magnificence of my realm, and the joy of my millions of true followers."

I was once more humbled before this mighty potentate, and promised to be ruled wholly by his directions, although at that moment my nature shrunk from the concessions, and my soul longed rather to be inclosed in the deeps of the sea, or involved once more in utter oblivion. I was like Daniel in the den of lions, without his faith in Divine support, and wholly at their mercy. I felt as one round whose body a deadly snake is twisted, which continues to hold him in its fangs, without injuring him, further than in moving its scaly infernal folds with exulting delight, to let its victim feel to whose power he has subjected himself; and thus did I for a space drag an existence from day to day, in utter weariness and helplessness; at one time worshipping with great fervour of spirit, and at other times so wholly left to myself as to work all manner of vices and follies with greediness. In these my enlightened friend never accompanied me, but I always observed that he was the first to lead me to every one of them, and then leave me in the lurch. The next day, after these my fallings off, he never failed to reprove me gently, blaming me for my venial transgressions; but then he had the art of reconciling all, by reverting to my justified and infallible state, which I found to prove a delightful healing salve for every sore.

I found myself once again humbled before this powerful ruler, vowing to follow his every instruction, even though my instincts rebelled against it and my spirit yearned to be deep in the ocean or lost in complete oblivion. I felt like Daniel in the lion's den, but without his faith in divine help, completely at their mercy. I was like a victim wrapped in a deadly snake, which held me in its grip without harming me, only tightening its scaly coils with malicious joy to remind me of the power I had submitted to. For a while, I dragged myself through each day in total exhaustion and helplessness; sometimes earnestly worshipping, and at other times completely left to my own devices, indulging in all kinds of vices and foolishness with eagerness. My enlightened friend never joined me in these moments, but I always noticed he was the one who led me into each situation before abandoning me. The next day, after my missteps, he would always gently scold me, pointing out my minor faults; yet he had a way of making everything right again by reminding me of my justified and infallible state, which I found to be a soothing balm for all my wounds.

But, of all my troubles, this was the chief. I was every day and every hour assailed with accusations of deeds of which I was wholly ignorant; of acts of cruelty, injustice, defamation, and deceit; of pieces of business which I could not be made to comprehend; with lawsuits, details, arrestments of judgment, and a thousand interminable quibbles from the mouth of my loquacious and conceited attorney. So miserable was my life rendered by these continued attacks that I was often obliged to lock myself up for days together, never seeing any person save my man Samuel Scrape, who was a very honest blunt fellow, a staunch Cameronian, but withal very little conversant in religious matters. He said he came from a place called Penpunt, which I thought a name so ludicrous that I called him by the name of his native village, an appellation of which he was very proud, and answered everything with more civility and perspicuity when I denominated him Penpunt, than Samuel, his own Christian name. Of this peasant was I obliged to make a companion on sundry occasions, and strange indeed were the details which he gave me concerning myself, and the ideas of the country people concerning me. I took down a few of these in writing, to put off the time, and here leave them on record to show how the best and greatest actions are misconstrued among sinful and ignorant men:

But out of all my troubles, this was the biggest one. Every day and every hour, I was bombarded with accusations of deeds I knew nothing about; of cruelty, injustice, slander, and deceit; of affairs I couldn't understand; with lawsuits, details, inconvenient judgments, and countless endless arguments from my talkative and arrogant lawyer. My life was made so miserable by these constant attacks that I often had to lock myself away for days, seeing no one except my man Samuel Scrape, who was a very honest and straightforward guy, a strong Cameronian, but not very knowledgeable about religious matters. He said he came from a place called Penpunt, which I found such a funny name that I started calling him after his hometown. He was really proud of that name, and he answered everything with much more politeness and clarity when I called him Penpunt instead of Samuel, his real name. This peasant became my companion on several occasions, and the things he told me about myself and what the local people thought of me were quite strange. I wrote down a few of these to pass the time, and I'm leaving them here as a record to show how the best and greatest actions are misunderstood among sinful and ignorant people:

"You say, Samuel, that I hired you myself—that I have been a good enough master to you, and have paid you your weekly wages punctually. Now, how is it that you say this, knowing, as you do, that I never hired you, and never paid you a sixpence of wages in the whole course of my life, excepting this last month?"

"You say, Samuel, that I hired you myself—that I’ve been a good enough boss to you and have paid you your weekly wages on time. So, how can you say this when you know I never hired you and have never paid you a penny in my entire life, except for this last month?"

"Ye may as weel say, master, that water's no water, or that, stanes are no stanes. But that's just your gate, an' it's a great pity, aye to do a thing an profess the clean contrair. Weel then, since you havena paid me ony wages, an' I can prove day and date when I was hired, an' came hame to your service, will you be sae kind as to pay me now? That's the best way o' curing a man o' the mortal disease o' leasing-making that I ken o'."

"You might as well say, master, that water isn't water, or that stones aren't stones. But that's just how you are, and it's a real shame to do something and claim the complete opposite. Well then, since you haven't paid me any wages, and I can prove the exact day and date when I was hired and came home to work for you, would you be so kind as to pay me now? That's the best way I know to cure a man of the deadly disease of lying."

"I should think that Penpunt and Cameronian principles would not admit of a man taking twice payment for the same article."

"I would think that Penpunt and Cameronian principles wouldn't allow someone to get paid twice for the same item."

"In sic a case as this, sir, it disna hinge upon principles, but a piece o' good manners; an' I can tell you that, at sic a crisis, a Cameronian is a gay-an weel-bred man. He's driven to this, and he maun either make a breach in his friend's good name, or in his purse; an' oh, sir, whilk o' thae, think you, is the most precious? For instance, an a Galloway drover had comed to the town o' Penpunt, an' said to a Cameronian (the folk's a' Cameronians there), 'Sir, I want to buy your cow,' 'Vera weel,' says the Cameronian, 'I just want to sell the cow, sae gie me twanty punds Scots, an' take her w' ye.' It's a bargain. The drover takes away the cow, an' gies the Cameronian his twanty pund Scots. But after that, he meets him again on the white sands, amang a' the drovers an' dealers o' the land, an' the Gallowayman, he says to the Cameronian, afore a' thae witnesses, 'Come, Master Whiggam, I hae never paid you for yon bit useless cow that I bought. I'll pay her the day, but you maun mind the luck-penny; there's muckle need for 't'—or something to that purpose. The Cameronian then turns out to be a civil man, an' canna bide to make the man baith a feele an' liar at the same time, afore a' his associates; an' therefore he pits his principles aff at the side, to be kind o' sleepin' partner, as it war, an' brings up his good breeding to stand at the counter: he pockets the money, gies the Galloway drover time o' day, an' comes his way. An' wha's to blame? Man mind yoursel is the first commandment. A Cameronian's principles never came atween him an' his purse, nor sanna in the present case; for, as I canna bide to make you out a leear, I'll thank you for my wages."

"In a situation like this, sir, it doesn't come down to principles, but to a matter of good manners; and I can tell you that, at such a moment, a Cameronian is a dapper and well-bred man. He is forced to choose between damaging his friend's reputation or emptying his wallet; and oh, sir, which do you think is more valuable? For example, if a Galloway drover comes to the town of Penpunt and says to a Cameronian (everyone there is a Cameronian), 'Sir, I want to buy your cow,' the Cameronian replies, 'Very well, I just want to sell the cow, so give me twenty pounds Scots, and take her with you.' It's a deal. The drover takes the cow and gives the Cameronian his twenty pounds Scots. Later, he encounters him again on the white sands, among all the drovers and traders in the area, and the Gallowayman says to the Cameronian, in front of all those witnesses, 'Come on, Master Whiggam, I haven't paid you for that useless cow I bought. I'll pay you today, but you have to remember the luck-penny; I need it badly'—or something like that. The Cameronian then turns out to be a polite man and can’t stand to let the guy be both a thief and a liar in front of all his peers; so he puts his principles aside, so to speak, and brings his good manners to the forefront: he takes the money, tips his hat to the Galloway drover, and goes on his way. And who can blame him? 'Mind your own business' is the first rule. A Cameronian's principles never get in the way of his wallet, and certainly not in this case; for since I can’t bear to call you a liar, I’ll just thank you for my payment."

"Well, you shall have them, Samuel, if you declare to me that I hired you myself in this same person, and bargained with you with this same tongue and voice with which I speak to you just now."

"Alright, you'll get them, Samuel, if you tell me that I hired you myself in this same way, and that I made a deal with you using this same voice and words that I'm using to speak to you right now."

"That I do declare, unless ye hae twa persons o' the same appearance, and twa tongues to the same voice. But, 'od saif us, sir, do you ken what the auld wives o' the clachan say about you?"

"That I declare, unless you have two people who look the same and two tongues to match the same voice. But, good heavens, sir, do you know what the old women in the village say about you?"

"How should I, when no one repeats it to me?"

"How am I supposed to know if no one tells me?"

"Oo, I trow it's a' stuff—folk shouldna heed what's said by auld crazy kimmers. But there are some o' them weel kend for witches, too; an' they say, 'Lord have a care o' us!' They say the deil's often seen gaun sidie for sidie w' ye, whiles in ae shape, an' whiles in another. An' they say that he whiles takes your ain shape, or else enters into you, and then you turn a deil yoursel."

"Yeah, I think it’s all nonsense—people shouldn't pay attention to what old crazy women say. But some of them are well known to be witches; and they say, 'God help us!' They say the devil is often seen walking beside you, sometimes in one form and sometimes in another. And they say he sometimes takes on your own shape or enters into you, and then you become a devil yourself."

I was so astounded at this terrible idea that had gone abroad, regarding my fellowship with the Prince of Darkness, that I could make no answer to the fellow's information, but sat like one in a stupor; and if it had not been for my well-founded faith, and conviction that I was a chosen and elected one before the world was made, I should at that moment have given in to the popular belief, and fallen into the sin of despondency; but I was preserved from such a fatal error by an inward and unseen supporter. Still the insinuation was so like what I felt myself that I was greatly awed and confounded.

I was so shocked by this awful idea that had spread about my connection with the Prince of Darkness that I couldn’t respond to what the guy said, and just sat there like I was in a daze. If it hadn’t been for my strong faith and the belief that I was chosen before the world was created, I would have probably succumbed to the common belief and fallen into despair. But I was saved from that serious mistake by an inner and unseen support. Still, the suggestion was so similar to what I feared about myself that I felt deeply unsettled and confused.

The poor fellow observed this, and tried to do away the impression by some further sage remarks of his own.

The poor guy noticed this and tried to change the impression with some of his own wise comments.

"Hout, dear sir, it is balderdash, there's nae doubt o't. It is the crownhead o' absurdity to tak in the havers o' auld wives for gospel. I told them that my master was a peeous man, an' a sensible man; an', for praying, that he could ding auld Macmillan himsel. 'Sae could the deil,' they said, 'when he liket, either at preaching or praying, if these war to answer his ain ends.' 'Na, na,' says I, 'but he's a strick believer in a' the truths o' Christianity, my master.' They said, sae was Satan, for that he was the firmest believer in a' the truths of Christianity that was out o' Heaven; an' that, sin' the Revolution that the Gospel had turned sae rife, he had been often driven to the shift o' preaching it himsel, for the purpose o' getting some wrang tenets introduced into it, and thereby turning it into blasphemy and ridicule."

"Hout, dear sir, that's nonsense, no doubt about it. It's the height of absurdity to take the ramblings of old wives as truth. I told them that my master was a pious man and a sensible man; and, when it comes to praying, he could outdo old Macmillan himself. 'So could the devil,' they said, 'when it suited him, whether in preaching or praying, if it served his own purposes.' 'No, no,' I said, 'but he's a strict believer in all the truths of Christianity, my master.' They said, so was Satan, because he was the strongest believer in all the truths of Christianity outside of Heaven; and since the Revolution, when the Gospel had become so rampant, he had often resorted to preaching it himself, to introduce some false doctrines into it, thus turning it into blasphemy and ridicule."

I confess, to my shame, that I was so overcome by this jumble of nonsense that a chillness came over me, and, in spite of all my efforts to shake off the impression it had made, I fell into a faint. Samuel soon brought me to myself, and, after a deep draught of wine and water, I was greatly revived, and felt my spirit rise above the sphere of vulgar conceptions and the restrained views of unregenerate men. The shrewd but loquacious fellow, perceiving this, tried to make some amends for the pain he had occasioned to me by the following story, which I noted down, and which was brought on by a conversation to the following purport:

I admit, with some embarrassment, that I was so overwhelmed by this confusing mess that I felt a chill wash over me, and despite my best efforts to shake off the impact it had on me, I fainted. Samuel soon brought me back to my senses, and after a good drink of wine and water, I felt much better and my spirits lifted above the mundane thinking and limited views of those who haven’t changed for the better. The clever but chatty guy, noticing this, tried to make up for the distress he had caused me by sharing a story, which I wrote down, and which was prompted by a conversation that went something like this:

"Now, Penpunt, you may tell me all that passed between you and the wives of the clachan. I am better of that stomach qualm, with which I am sometimes seized, and shall be much amused by hearing the sentiments of noted witches regarding myself and my connections."

"Now, Penpunt, you can tell me everything that happened between you and the wives of the village. I'm feeling better now, my stomach issues have passed, and I’ll be really entertained to hear what these famous witches think about me and my relationships."

"Weel, you see, sir, I says to them, 'It will be lang afore the deil intermeddle wi' as serious a professor, and as fervent a prayer as my master, for, gin he gets the upper hand o' sickan men, wha's to be safe?' An', what think ye they said, sir? There was ane Lucky Shaw set up her lang lantern chafts, an' answered me, an' a' the rest shanned and noddit in assent an' approbation: 'Ye silly, sauchless, Cameronian cuif!' quo she, 'is that a' that ye ken about the wiles and doings o' the Prince o' the Air, that rules an' works in the bairns of disobedience? Gin ever he observes a proud professor, wha has mae than ordinary pretensions to a divine calling, and that reards and prays till the very howlets learn his preambles, that's the man Auld Simmie fixes on to mak a dishclout o'. He canna get rest in Hell, if he sees a man, or a set of men o' this stamp, an, when he sets fairly to work, it is seldom that he disna bring them round till his ain measures by hook or by crook. Then, Oh! it is a grand prize for him, an' a proud Deil he is, when he gangs hame to his ain ha', wi' a batch o' the souls o' sic strenuous professors on his back. Aye, I trow, auld Ingleby, the Liverpool packman, never came up Glasco street wi' prouder pomp when he had ten horse-laids afore him o' Flanders lace, an' Hollin lawn, an' silks an' satins frae the eastern Indians, than Satan wad strodge into Hell with a packlaid o' the souls o' proud professors on his braid shoulders. Ha, ha, ha! I think I see how the auld thief wad be gaun through his gizened dominions, crying his wares, in derision, "Wha will buy a fresh, cauler divine, a bouzy bishop, a fasting zealot, or a piping priest?" For a' their prayers an' their praises, their aumuses, an' their penances, their whinings, their howlings, their rantings, an' their ravings, here they come at last! Behold the end! Here go the rare and precious wares! A fat professor for a bodle, an' a lean ane for half a merk!' I declare I trembled at the auld hag's ravings, but the lave o' the kimmers applauded the sayings as sacred truths. An' then Lucky went on: 'There are many wolves in sheep's claithing, among us, my man; mony deils aneath the masks o' zealous professors, roaming about in kirks and meetinghouses o' the land. It was but the year afore the last that the people o' the town o' Auchtermuchty grew so rigidly righteous that the meanest hind among them became a shining light in ither towns an' parishes. There was naught to be heard, neither night nor day, but preaching, praying, argumentation, an' catechising in a' the famous town o' Auchtermuchty. The young men wooed their sweethearts out o' the Song o' Solomon, an' the girls returned answers in strings o' verses out o' the Psalms. At the lint-swinglings, they said questions round; and read chapters, and sang hymns at bridals; auld and young prayed in their dreams, an' prophesied in their sleep, till the deils in the farrest nooks o' Hell were alarmed, and moved to commotion. Gin it hadna been an auld carl, Robin Ruthven, Auchtermuchty wad at that time hae been ruined and lost for ever. But Robin was a cunning man, an' had rather mae wits than his ain, for he had been in the hands o' the fairies when he was young, an' a' kinds o' spirits were visible to his een, an' their language as familiar to him as his ain mother tongue. Robin was sitting on the side o' the West Lowmond, ae still gloomy night in September, when he saw a bridal o' corbie craws coming east the lift, just on the edge o' the gloaming. The moment that Robin saw them, he kenned, by their movements, that they were craws o' some ither warld than this; so he signed himself, and crap into the middle o' his bourock. The corbie craws came a' an' sat down round about him, an' they poukit their black sooty wings, an' spread them out to the breeze to cool; and Robin heard ae corbie speaking, an' another answering him; and the tane said to the tither: "Where will the ravens find a prey the night?" "On the lean crazy souls o' Auchtermuchty," quo the tither. "I fear they will be o'er weel wrappit up in the warm flannens o' faith, an clouted wi' the dirty duds o' repentance, for us to mak a meal o'," quo the first. "Whaten vile sounds are these that I hear coming bumming up the hill?" "Oh, these are the hymns and praises o' the auld wives and creeshy louns o' Auchtermuchty, wha are gaun crooning their way to Heaven; an', gin it warna for the shame o' being beat, we might let our great enemy tak them. For sic a prize as he will hae! Heaven, forsooth! What shall we think o' Heaven, if it is to be filled wi' vermin like thae, amang whom there is mair poverty and pollution than I can name." "No matter for that," said the first, "we cannot have our power set at defiance; though we should put them on the thief's hole, we must catch them, and catch them with their own bait, too. Come all to church to-morrow, and I'll let you hear how I'll gull the saints of Auchtermuchty. In the meantime, there is a feast on the Sidlaw hills tonight, below the hill of Macbeth—Mount, Diabolus, and fly." Then, with loud croaking and crowing, the bridal of corbies again scaled the dusky air, and left Robin Ruthven in the middle of his cairn.

“Well, you see, sir, I said to them, ‘It won’t be long before the devil meddles with as serious a professor and as fervent a prayer as my master, for if he gets the upper hand of such men, who’s going to be safe?’ And what do you think they said, sir? There was one Lucky Shaw who perched her long lantern jaw and answered me, and all the others nodded in agreement: ‘You silly, witless, Cameronian fool!’ she said, ‘is that all you know about the tricks and actions of the Prince of the Air, who rules and works in the children of disobedience? If he ever sees a proud professor, who has more than normal pretensions to a divine calling, and who prays so hard that even the owls learn his introductions, that’s the person Old Simmie picks to make a dishcloth out of. He can’t find rest in Hell if he sees a man, or a group of men, like that, and when he sets to work, it’s rare that he doesn’t bring them around to his own agendas by hook or by crook. Then, oh! it’s a grand prize for him, and he’s a proud Devil when he heads home to his own hall with a bunch of the souls of such earnest professors on his back. Indeed, I’d bet old Ingleby, the Liverpool packman, never walked up Glasgow street with prouder pomp when he had ten horse loads before him of Flanders lace, and Hollin lawn, and silks and satins from the Eastern Indies, than Satan would strut into Hell with a load of the souls of proud professors on his broad shoulders. Ha, ha, ha! I can just imagine how the old thief would go through his ghastly dominion, hawking his wares in mockery, ‘Who will buy a fresh, cool divine, a boozy bishop, a fasting zealot, or a piping priest?’ For all their prayers and praises, their alms, and their penances, their whinings, their howlings, their rantings, and their ravings, here they come at last! Behold the end! Here go the rare and precious goods! A fat professor for a penny, and a lean one for half a mark!’ I swear I trembled at the old hag’s rants, but the rest of the crowd applauded the comments as sacred truths. And then Lucky continued: ‘There are many wolves in sheep’s clothing among us, my friend; many devils beneath the masks of zealous professors, lurking around in churches and meetinghouses throughout the land. It was just the year before last that the people of the town of Auchtermuchty became so rigidly righteous that even the lowliest peasant among them became a shining light in other towns and parishes. There was nothing to be heard, neither night nor day, but preaching, praying, debating, and catechizing in the famous town of Auchtermuchty. The young men wooed their sweethearts with the Song of Solomon, and the girls replied in verses from the Psalms. At the lint-swingings, they asked questions in turn; they read chapters and sang hymns at weddings; old and young prayed in their dreams, and prophesied in their sleep, until the devils in the farthest corners of Hell were alarmed and stirred up. If it hadn’t been for an old man, Robin Ruthven, Auchtermuchty might have been ruined and lost forever. But Robin was a clever man and had more wits than his own, for he had been in the hands of fairies when he was young, and all kinds of spirits were visible to his eyes, and their language was as familiar to him as his own mother tongue. Robin was sitting on the side of West Lomond, one still gloomy night in September, when he saw a flock of crows coming from the east, just on the edge of twilight. The moment Robin saw them, he knew, by their movements, that they were crows from another world; so he made the sign of the cross and crept into the middle of his bush. The crows all came and settled around him, and they tucked their black, sooty wings, and spread them out to the breeze to cool; and Robin heard one crow speaking, and another answering him; and one said to the other: ‘Where will the ravens find a meal tonight?’ ‘On the lean, crazy souls of Auchtermuchty,’ said the other. ‘I fear they will be too well wrapped up in the warm flannels of faith, and clothed with the dirty rags of repentance, for us to have a meal on,’ said the first. ‘What vile sounds are these that I hear coming buzzing up the hill?’ ‘Oh, these are the hymns and praises of the old women and fading fellows of Auchtermuchty, who are going crooning their way to Heaven; and if it weren’t for the shame of being beaten, we might let our great enemy take them. For such a prize as he will have! Heaven, indeed! What shall we think of Heaven if it’s to be filled with vermin like these, among whom there is more poverty and pollution than I can name.’ ‘No matter for that,’ said the first, ‘we cannot have our power set at defiance; even if we should put them in the thief’s hole, we must catch them, and catch them with their own bait, too. Come all to church tomorrow, and I’ll let you hear how I’ll fool the saints of Auchtermuchty. In the meantime, there is a feast on the Sidlaw hills tonight, just below the hill of Macbeth—Mount, Diabolus, and fly.’ Then, with loud croaking and cawing, the flock of crows soared into the dark sky, leaving Robin Ruthven in the middle of his cairn."

"'The next day the congregation met in the kirk of Auchtermuchty, but the minister made not his appearance. The elder ran out and in making inquiries; but they could learn nothing, save that the minister was missing. They ordered the clerk to sing a part of the 119th Psalm, until they saw if the minister would cast up. The clerk did as he was ordered, and, by the time he reached the 77th verse, a strange divine entered the church, by the western door, and advanced solemnly up to the pulpit. The eyes of all the congregation were riveted on the sublime stranger, who was clothed in a robe of black sackcloth, that flowed all around him, and trailed far behind, and they weened him an angel, come to exhort them, in disguise. He read out his text from the Prophecies of Ezekiel, which consisted of these singular words: "I will overturn, overturn, overturn it; and it shall be no more, until he come, whose right it is, and I will give it him."

"The next day, the congregation gathered in the church of Auchtermuchty, but the minister didn't show up. The elder went in and out to ask around, but they couldn’t find out anything except that the minister was missing. They asked the clerk to sing part of the 119th Psalm while they waited to see if the minister would appear. The clerk did as instructed, and by the time he got to the 77th verse, a mysterious figure entered the church through the western door and walked solemnly up to the pulpit. Everyone in the congregation stared at the impressive stranger, who was dressed in a flowing black sackcloth robe that trailed behind him. They thought he might be an angel, come to give them a message in disguise. He read his text from the Book of Ezekiel, which contained these unusual words: "I will overturn, overturn, overturn it; and it shall be no more, until he comes, whose right it is, and I will give it him."

"'From these words he preached such a sermon as never was heard by human ears, at least never by ears of Auchtermuchty. It was a true, sterling, gospel sermon—it was striking, sublime, and awful in the extreme. He finally made out the IT, mentioned in the text, to mean, properly and positively, the notable town of Auchtermuchty. He proved all the people in it, to their perfect satisfaction, to be in the gall of bitterness and bond of iniquity, and he assured them that God would overturn them, their principles, and professions; and that they should be no more, until the Devil, the town's greatest enemy, came, and then it should be given unto him for a prey, for it was his right, and to him it belonged, if there was not forthwith a radical change made in all their opinions and modes of worship.

"'From these words he delivered a sermon like no one had ever heard before, at least not in Auchtermuchty. It was a genuine, powerful gospel message—it was striking, uplifting, and terrifying all at once. He concluded that the IT mentioned in the text referred specifically to the well-known town of Auchtermuchty. He convincingly demonstrated to everyone present that they were all trapped in bitterness and sin, and he warned them that God would bring down their beliefs and practices; they would cease to exist until the Devil, their greatest enemy, arrived, and then the town would be his for the taking, since it rightfully belonged to him, unless they made a significant change in their beliefs and ways of worship."

"'The inhabitants of Auchtermuchty were electrified—they were charmed; they were actually raving mad about the grand and sublime truths delivered to them by this eloquent and impressive preacher of Christianity. "He is a prophet of the Lord," said one, "sent to warn us, as Jonah was sent to the Ninevites." "Oh, he is an angel sent from Heaven, to instruct this great city," said another, "for no man ever uttered truths so sublime before." The good people of Auchtermuchty were in perfect raptures with the preacher, who had thus sent them to Hell by the slump, tag-rag, and bobtail! Nothing in the world delights a truly religious people so much as consigning them to eternal damnation. They wandered after the preacher—they crowded together, and spoke of his sermon with admiration, and still, as they conversed, the wonder and the admiration increased; so that honest Robin Ruthven's words would not be listened to. It was in vain that he told them he heard a raven speaking, and another raven answering him: the people laughed him to scorn, and kicked him out of their assemblies, as a one who spoke evil of dignities; and they called him a warlock, an' a daft body, to think to mak language out o' the crouping o' craws.

"The people of Auchtermuchty were thrilled—they were enchanted; they were actually going wild over the grand and profound truths shared by this eloquent and impressive preacher of Christianity. "He is a prophet of the Lord," one person said, "sent to warn us, just like Jonah was sent to the Ninevites." "Oh, he is an angel sent from Heaven to guide this great city," another remarked, "because no one has ever spoken such sublime truths before." The good folks of Auchtermuchty were absolutely captivated by the preacher, who had effectively sent them spiraling down to Hell! Nothing pleases a truly religious group more than the thought of being condemned to eternal damnation. They followed the preacher—they gathered together and talked about his sermon with admiration, and as they continued to chat, their wonder and admiration only grew; so much so that they ignored honest Robin Ruthven's words. It was pointless for him to say he heard a raven talking and another raven replying: the people mocked him and removed him from their gatherings as someone who spoke ill of authority; they called him a witch and a fool for thinking he could make sense out of the croaking of crows."

"'The sublime preacher could not be heard of, although all the country was sought for him, even to the minutest corner of St. Johnston and Dundee; but as he had announced another sermon on the same text, on a certain day, all the inhabitants of that populous country, far and near, flocked to Auchtermuchty. Cupar, Newburgh, and Strathmiglo, turned out men, women and children. Perth and Dundee gave their thousands; and, from the East Nook of Fife to the foot of the Grampian hills, there was nothing but running and riding that morning to Auchtermuchty. The kirk would not hold the thousandth part of them. A splendid tent was erected on the brae north of the town, and round that the countless congregation assembled. When they were all waiting anxiously for the great preacher, behold, Robin Ruthven set up his head in the tent, and warned his countrymen to beware of the doctrines they were about to hear, for he could prove, to their satisfaction, that they were all false, and tended to their destruction!

"'The amazing preacher couldn't be found, even though the entire area was searched, right down to the smallest corner of St. Johnston and Dundee; but since he had announced another sermon on the same topic for a certain day, all the residents of that busy region, near and far, rushed to Auchtermuchty. People from Cupar, Newburgh, and Strathmiglo came—men, women, and children. Perth and Dundee sent thousands; and from the East Nook of Fife to the base of the Grampian hills, there was nothing but running and riding that morning to Auchtermuchty. The church couldn't hold even a small fraction of them. A large tent was set up on the hillside north of the town, and around that, the countless crowd gathered. As they waited eagerly for the great preacher, suddenly, Robin Ruthven appeared in the tent and warned his fellow countrymen to be cautious of the teachings they were about to hear, claiming he could demonstrate, to their satisfaction, that they were all false and would lead to their ruin!'

"'The whole multitude raised a cry of indignation against Robin, and dragged him from the tent, the elders rebuking him, and the multitude threatening to resort to stronger measures; and, though he told them a plain and unsophisticated tale of the black corbies, he was only derided. The great preacher appeared once more, and went through his two discourses with increased energy and approbation. All who heard him were amazed, and many of them went into fits, writhing and foaming in a state of the most horrid agitation. Robin Ruthven sat on the outskirts of the great assembly, listening with the rest, and perceived what they, in the height of their enthusiasm, perceived not the ruinous tendency of the tenets so sublimely inculcated. Robin kenned the voice of his friend the corby-craw again, and was sure he could not be wrong: sae, when public worship was finished, a' the elders an' a' the gentry flocked about the great preacher, as he stood on the green brae in the sight of the hale congregation, an' a' war alike anxious to pay him some mark o' respect. Robin Ruthven came in amang the thrang, to try to effect what he had promised; and, with the greatest readiness and simplicity, just took baud o' the side o' the wide gown, and, in sight of a' present, held it aside as high as the preacher's knee, and, behold, there was a pair o' cloven feet! The auld thief was fairly catched in the very height o' his proud conquest, an' put down by an auld carl. He could feign nae mair, but, gnashing on Robin wi' his teeth, he dartit into the air like a fiery dragon, an' keust a reid rainbow o'er the taps o' the Lowmonds.

"The whole crowd shouted in anger at Robin and dragged him out of the tent, the elders scolding him while the crowd threatened to take more serious action. Even though he shared a straightforward and simple story about the black crows, he was met with only ridicule. The great preacher appeared again and delivered his two sermons with even more energy and approval. Everyone who heard him was astonished, and many were even incapacitated, convulsing and foaming in a horrifying frenzy. Robin Ruthven sat on the edge of the large gathering, listening like everyone else, and realized, unlike them in their enthusiasm, the destructive nature of the teachings being so gloriously preached. Robin recognized the voice of his friend the crow again, and he was sure he could not be mistaken: so when the public worship ended, all the elders and the gentry surrounded the great preacher, who stood on the green hill before the entire congregation, all eager to show him some sign of respect. Robin Ruthven joined the crowd to attempt what he had promised; and with the greatest ease and simplicity, he just took hold of the side of the preacher's long gown, and, in front of everyone, held it up as high as the preacher's knee, and look, there were a pair of cloven feet! The old trickster was caught right in the midst of his proud achievement, brought down by an old man. He could no longer pretend, and, baring his teeth at Robin, he shot into the air like a fiery dragon, casting a red rainbow over the tops of the Lowmonds."

"'A' the auld wives an weavers o' Auchtermuchty fell down flat wi' affright, an' betook them to their prayers aince again, for they saw the dreadfu' danger they had escapit, an' frae that day to this it is a hard matter to gar an Auchtermuchty man listen to a sermon at a', an' a harder ane still to gar him applaud ane, for he thinks aye that he sees the cloven foot peeping out frae aneath ilka sentence.

"'A' the old wives and weavers of Auchtermuchty fell down flat with fright, and took to their prayers once again, for they recognized the terrible danger they had escaped, and from that day to this, it is quite a challenge to get an Auchtermuchty man to listen to a sermon at all, and even harder to make him applaud one, because he always thinks he sees the devil's foot peeking out from under every sentence."

"'Now, this is a true story, my man,' quo the auld wife, 'an', whenever you are doubtfu' of a man, take auld Robin Ruthven's plan, an' look for the cloven foot, for it's a thing that winna weel hide; an' it appears whiles where ane wadna think o't. It will keek out frae aneath the parson's gown, the lawyer's wig, and the Cameronian's blue bannet; but still there is a gouden rule whereby to detect it, an' that never, never fails.' The auld witch didna gie me the rule, an' though I hae heard tell o't often an' often, shame fa' me an I ken what it is! But ye will ken it well, an' it wad be nae the waur of a trial on some o' your friends, maybe; for they say there's a certain gentleman seen walking wi' you whiles, that, wherever he sets his foot, the grass withers as gin it war scoudered wi' a het ern. His presence be about us! What's the matter wi' you, master. Are ye gaun to take the calm o' the stamock again?"

"'Now, this is a true story, my friend,' said the old woman, 'and whenever you have doubts about someone, follow old Robin Ruthven's advice and look for the cloven foot, because it’s something that won’t easily hide; and it can show up in places you wouldn’t expect. It can peek out from under the priest's gown, the lawyer's wig, and the Cameronian's blue bonnet; but there’s still a golden rule to detect it, and it never, ever fails.' The old witch didn’t give me the rule, and even though I’ve heard about it many times, shame on me if I know what it is! But you will know it well, and it wouldn’t hurt to test it on some of your friends, maybe; because they say there's a certain guy seen walking with you sometimes, and wherever he steps, the grass withers as if it were scalded by a hot iron. His presence is around us! What's wrong with you, master? Are you going to take the calm of the stomach again?"

The truth is, that the clown's absurd story, with the still more ridiculous application, made me sick at heart a second time. It was not because I thought my illustrious friend was the Devil, or that I took a fool's idle tale as a counterbalance to Divine revelation that had assured me of my justification in the sight of God before the existence of time. But, in short, it gave me a view of my own state, at which I shuddered, as indeed I now always did when the image of my devoted friend and ruler presented itself to my mind. I often communed, with my heart on this, and wondered how a connection, that had the well-being of mankind solely in view, could be productive of fruits so bitter. I then went to try my works by the Saviour's golden rule, as my servant had put it into my head to do; and, behold, not one of them could stand the test. I had shed blood on a ground on which I could not admit that any man had a right to shed mine; and I began to doubt the motives of my adviser once more, not that they were intentionally bad, but that his was some great mind led astray by enthusiasm or some overpowering passion.

The truth is, the clown's absurd story, along with its even more ridiculous application, made me feel sick at heart again. It wasn't because I thought my distinguished friend was the Devil, or that I took a foolish tale as a substitute for Divine revelation that had assured me of my justification in God's eyes before time even began. But, in short, it gave me a glimpse of my own state, which made me shudder, as I always did when the image of my devoted friend and leader came to mind. I often reflected on this, wondering how a connection that aimed solely at the well-being of humanity could produce such bitter results. I then tried to measure my actions against the Savior's golden rule, as my servant had suggested; and, behold, not one of them could pass the test. I had shed blood on a ground where I couldn't accept that anyone had a right to shed mine; and I began to doubt my adviser’s motives again, not because they were intentionally bad, but because he seemed to be a great mind led astray by enthusiasm or some overwhelming passion.

He seemed to comprehend every one of these motions of my heart, for his manner towards me altered every day. It first became anything but agreeable, then supercilious, and, finally, intolerable; so that I resolved to shake him off, cost what it would, even though I should be reduced to beg my bread in a foreign land. To do it at home was impossible, as he held my life in his hands, to sell it whenever he had a mind; and, besides, his ascendancy over me was as complete as that of a huntsman over his dogs: I was even so weak as, the next time I met with him, to look steadfastly at his foot, to see if it was not cloven into two hoofs. It was the foot of a gentleman in every respect, so far as appearances went, but the form of his counsels was somewhat equivocal, and, if not double, they were amazingly crooked.

He seemed to understand all the emotions I was feeling, because his attitude toward me changed every day. At first, it was anything but pleasant, then it became arrogant, and finally, unbearable; so I decided I had to get away from him, no matter what it took, even if it meant begging for my food in a foreign country. Doing it here was impossible, since he had control over my life and could end it whenever he wanted; plus, his power over me was just like a hunter's control over his dogs. I was even weak enough, the next time I saw him, to stare at his foot, checking to see if it was split into two hooves. It looked like a gentleman's foot in every way, based on appearances, but his advice was somewhat ambiguous, and if it wasn't deceitful, it was definitely very twisted.

But, if I had taken my measures to abscond and fly from my native place, in order to free myself of this tormenting, intolerant, and bloody reformer, he had likewise taken his to expel me, or throw me into the hands of justice. It seems that, about this time, I was haunted by some spies connected with my late father and brother, of whom the mistress of the former was one. My brother's death had been witnessed by two individuals; indeed, I always had an impression that it was witnessed by more than one, having some faint recollection of hearing voices and challenges close beside me; and this woman had searched about until she found these people; but, as I shrewdly suspected, not without the assistance of the only person in my secret—my own warm and devoted friend. I say this, because I found that he had them concealed in the neighbourhood, and then took me again and again where I was fully exposed to their view, without being aware. One time in particular, on pretence of gratifying my revenge on that base woman, he knew so well where she lay concealed that he led me to her, and left me to the mercy of two viragos who had very nigh taken my life. My time of residence at Dalcastle was wearing to a crisis. I could no longer live with my tyrant, who haunted me like my shadow; and, besides, it seems there were proofs of murder leading against me from all quarters. Of part of these I deemed myself quite free, but the world deemed otherwise; and how the matter would have gone God only knows, for, the case never having undergone a judicial trial, I do not. It perhaps, however, behoves me here to relate all that I know of it, and it is simply this:

But if I had made plans to escape from my hometown to get away from this tormenting, intolerant, and ruthless reformer, he had also made plans to get rid of me or hand me over to the authorities. Around this time, I seemed to be monitored by some spies connected to my late father and brother, one of whom was my brother's mistress. Two people witnessed my brother's death; in fact, I always had a feeling that more than one person saw it, as I vaguely remembered hearing voices and challenges nearby. This woman had searched until she found these individuals; but, as I cleverly suspected, not without the help of the only person in my confidence—my devoted friend. I say this because I discovered he had hidden them nearby and then took me repeatedly to places where I was fully exposed to their view, without knowing it. One time in particular, under the pretext of helping me get revenge on that deceitful woman, he knew exactly where she was hiding and led me to her, leaving me at the mercy of two fierce women who nearly took my life. My time at Dalcastle was reaching a breaking point. I could no longer live with my tyrant, who haunted me like my shadow; plus, it seemed there was evidence of murder against me from all sides. I believed I was somewhat innocent, but the world thought otherwise. How the situation would have turned out, only God knows, since the case never went to trial, and I don’t either. It may be necessary for me to share everything I know about it, and it’s simply this:

On the first of June, 1712 (well may I remember the day), I was sitting locked in my secret chamber, in a state of the utmost despondency, revolving in my mind what I ought to do to be free of my persecutors, and wishing myself a worm, or a moth, that I might be crushed and at rest, when behold Samuel entered, with eyes like to start out of his head, exclaiming: "For God's sake, master, fly and hide yourself, for your mother's found, an' as sure as you're a living soul, the blame is gaun to fa' on you!"

On June 1, 1712 (I can still remember that day clearly), I was sitting in my secret room, feeling completely hopeless, thinking about how I could escape from my tormentors, and wishing I were a worm or a moth so I could just be crushed and find peace, when suddenly Samuel burst in, looking like he was about to lose it, yelling: "For God's sake, master, you need to run and hide, because your mother has been found, and as sure as you’re alive, the blame is going to fall on you!"

"My mother found!" said I. "And, pray, where has she been all this while?" In the meantime, I was terribly discomposed at the thoughts of her return.

"My mother is back!" I said. "And, may I ask, where has she been all this time?" Meanwhile, I was really upset at the idea of her coming home.

"Been, sir! Been? Why, she has been where ye pat her, it seems—lying buried in the sands o' the linn. I can tell you, ye will see her a frightsome figure, sic as I never wish to see again. An' the young lady is found too, sir: an' it is said the Devil—I beg pardon, sir, your friend, I mean—it is said your friend has made the discovery, an' the folk are away to raise officers, an' they will be here in an hour or two at the farthest, sir; an' sae you hae not a minute to lose, for there's proof, sir, strong proof, an' sworn proof, that ye were last seen wi' them baith; sae, unless ye can gie a' the better an account o' baith yoursel an' them either hide or flee for your bare life."

"Been, sir! Been? Well, she’s been where you left her, it seems—lying buried in the sands of the cliff. I can tell you, you’ll see her as a terrifying sight, one I never want to see again. And the young lady has been found too, sir; it’s said that the Devil—I mean your friend, of course—has made the discovery, and the folks are off to get the authorities, and they will be here in an hour or two at most, sir; so you don’t have a minute to lose, because there’s evidence, sir, strong evidence, and sworn evidence, that you were last seen with both of them; so, unless you can give a much better account of yourself and them, either hide or flee for your life."

"I will neither hide nor fly," said I, "for I am as guiltless of the blood of these women as the child unborn."

"I won’t hide or run away," I said, "because I am as innocent of the blood of these women as an unborn child."

"The country disna think sae, master; an' I can assure you that, should evidence fail, you run a risk o' being torn limb frae limb. They are bringing the corpse here, to gar ye touch them baith afore witnesses, an' plenty o' witnesses there will be!"

"The country doesn't think so, sir; and I can assure you that if the evidence falls short, you risk being torn apart. They're bringing the body here to make you touch both of them in front of witnesses, and there will be plenty of witnesses!"

"They shall not bring them here," cried I, shocked beyond measure at the experiment about to be made. "Go, instantly and debar them from entering my gate with their bloated and mangled carcases!"

"They can’t bring them here," I yelled, completely horrified at the experiment that was about to happen. "Go, right now and stop them from getting through my gate with their swollen and mangled bodies!"

"The body of your own mother, sir!" said the fellow emphatically. I was in terrible agitation; and, being driven to my wits' end, I got up and strode furiously round and round the room. Samuel wist not what to do, but I saw by his staring he deemed me doubly guilty. A tap came to the chamber door: we both started like guilty creatures; and as for Samuel, his hairs stood all on end with alarm, so that, when I motioned to him, he could scarcely advance to open the door. He did so at length, and who should enter but my illustrious friend, manifestly in the utmost state of alarm. The moment that Samuel admitted him, the former made his escape by the prince's side as he entered, seemingly in a state of distraction. I was little better, when I saw this dreaded personage enter my chamber, which he had never before attempted; and, being unable to ask his errand, I suppose I stood and gazed on him like a statue.

"The body of your own mother, sir!" the guy said emphatically. I was in complete turmoil; and, completely at my wit's end, I got up and paced angrily around the room. Samuel had no idea what to do, but I could tell by his wide eyes that he thought I was doubly guilty. There was a knock at the door: we both jumped like we were caught, and as for Samuel, his hair stood on end with fear, so much so that when I signaled to him, he could barely go to open the door. He eventually did, and who should walk in but my esteemed friend, clearly in a state of panic. The moment Samuel let him in, he darted out next to the prince as he entered, looking totally distracted. I was hardly in a better state when I saw this feared figure walk into my room, which he had never done before; and, unable to ask what he wanted, I just stood there staring at him like a statue.

"I come with sad and tormenting tidings to you, my beloved and ungrateful friend," said he, "but, having only a minute left to save your life, I have come to attempt it. There is a mob coming towards you with two dead bodies, which will place you in circumstances disagreeable enough: but that is not the worst, for of that you may be able to clear yourself. At this moment there is a party of officers, with a justiciary warrant from Edinburgh, surrounding the house, and about to begin the search of it for you. If you fall into their hands, you are inevitably lost; for I have been making earnest inquiries, and find that everything is in train for your ruin."

"I bring you some bad news, my dear and ungrateful friend," he said, "but with only a minute left to save your life, I had to come. A mob is approaching with two dead bodies, which will get you into some serious trouble: but that’s not the worst part, since you might be able to get out of that. Right now, there’s a group of officers with a warrant from Edinburgh surrounding the house and about to search for you. If they capture you, there’s no way out; I’ve been looking into things, and it’s clear that everything is set up for your downfall."

"Aye, and who has been the cause of all this?" said I, with great bitterness. But he stopped me short, adding, "There is no time for such reflections at present; I gave my word of honour, that your life should be safe from the hand of man. So it shall, if the power remain with me to save it. I am come to redeem my pledge, and to save your life by the sacrifice of my own. Here—not one word of expostulation, change habits with me, and you may then pass by the officers, and guards, and even through the approaching mob, with the most perfect temerity. There is a virtue in this garb, and, instead of offering to detain you, they shall pay you obeisance. Make haste, and leave this place for the present, flying where you best may, and, if I escape from these dangers that surround me, I will endeavour to find you out, and bring you what intelligence I am able."

"Yeah, and who’s responsible for all this?" I said bitterly. But he cut me off, saying, "There’s no time for those thoughts right now; I promised to keep you safe from any harm. I will do that as long as I have the ability to protect you. I’m here to fulfill my promise and save your life by sacrificing my own. Now—no arguing, switch clothes with me, and you can walk past the officers, guards, and even through the crowd without a care in the world. There’s a power in this outfit, and instead of trying to stop you, they’ll show you respect. Hurry and get out of here for now, escape as best you can, and if I get through this danger surrounding me, I’ll do my best to find you and bring you any news I can."

I put on his green frock coat, buff belt, and a sort of a turban that he always wore on his head, somewhat resembling a bishop's mitre: he drew his hand thrice across my face, and I withdrew as he continued to urge me. My hall door and postern gate were both strongly guarded, and there were sundry armed people within, searching the closets; but all of them made way for me, and lifted their caps as I passed by them. Only one superior officer accosted me, asking if I had seen the culprit. I knew not what answer to make, but chanced to say, with great truth and propriety: "He is safe enough." The man beckoned with a smile, as much as to say: "Thank you, sir, that is quite sufficient," and I walked deliberately away.

I put on his green coat, a buff belt, and a type of turban he always wore, which looked a bit like a bishop's mitre. He ran his hand across my face three times, and I stepped back as he kept pushing me. My front door and back gate were both heavily guarded, and there were several armed people inside searching the closets; but everyone made way for me and tipped their hats as I walked by. Only one senior officer approached me, asking if I had seen the culprit. I didn't know how to respond, but I ended up saying, with complete honesty and seriousness: "He's safe enough." The man nodded with a smile, as if to say: "Thank you, that will do," and I walked away slowly.

I had not well left the gate till, hearing a great noise coming from the deep glen towards the east, I turned that way, deeming myself quite secure in this my new disguise, to see what it was, and if matters were as had been described to me. There I met a great mob, sure enough, coming with two dead bodies stretched on boards, and decently covered with white sheets. I would fain have examined their appearance, had I not perceived the apparent fury in the looks of the men, and judged from that how much more safe it was for me not to intermeddle in the affray. I cannot tell how it was, but I felt a strange and unwonted delight in viewing this scene, and a certain pride of heart in being supposed the perpetrator of the unnatural crimes laid to my charge. This was a feeling quite new to me; and if there were virtues in the robes of the illustrious foreigner, who had without all dispute preserved my life at this time: I say, if there was any inherent virtue in these robes of his, as he had suggested, this was one of their effects' that they turned my heart towards that which was evil, horrible, and disgustful.

I had barely left the gate when I heard a loud noise coming from the deep glen to the east. I turned that way, feeling pretty secure in my new disguise, to see what was happening and if things were as I had been told. Sure enough, I met a large crowd coming with two dead bodies laid out on boards, covered respectfully with white sheets. I would have liked to examine them, but I noticed the fierce looks on the men’s faces and decided it was safer for me not to get involved in whatever was going on. I can’t explain it, but I felt a strange and unusual thrill at seeing this scene, along with a certain pride in being thought to be the one responsible for the terrible crimes I was accused of. This was a feeling completely new to me; and if there was any virtue in the robes of the distinguished foreigner who had undoubtedly saved my life at that moment, I must say, if those robes had any inherent goodness, as he suggested, one of their effects was to turn my heart toward evil, horror, and disgust.

I mixed with the mob to hear what they were saying. Every tongue was engaged in loading me with the most opprobrious epithets! One called me a monster of nature; another an incarnate devil; and another a creature made to be cursed in time and eternity. I retired from them and, winded my way southwards, comforting myself with the assurance that so mankind had used and persecuted the greatest fathers and apostles of the Christian Church, and that their vile opprobrium could not alter the counsels of Heaven concerning me.

I hung out with the crowd to hear what they were saying. Everyone was hurling the worst insults at me! One person called me a monster of nature; another called me an incarnate devil; and yet another said I was a creature meant to be cursed forever. I pulled away from them and made my way south, reassuring myself that this is how people have always treated and persecuted the greatest fathers and apostles of the Christian Church, and that their mean insults wouldn’t change what Heaven has planned for me.

On going over that rising ground called Dorington Moor, I could not help turning round and taking a look of Dalcastle. I had little doubt that it would be my last look, and nearly as little ambition that it should not. I thought how high my hopes of happiness and advancement had been on entering that mansion, and taking possession of its rich and extensive domains, and how miserably I had been disappointed. On the contrary, I had experienced nothing but chagrin, disgust, and terror; and I now consoled myself with the hope that I should henceforth shake myself free of the chains of my great tormentor, and for that privilege was I willing to encounter any earthly distress. I could not help perceiving that I was now on a path which was likely to lead me into a species of distress hitherto unknown, and hardly dreamed of by me, and that was total destitution. For all the riches I had been possessed of a few hours previous to this, I found that here I was turned out of my lordly possessions without a single merk, or the power of lifting and commanding the smallest sum, without being thereby discovered and seized. Had it been possible for me to have escaped in my own clothes, I had a considerable sum secreted in these, but, by the sudden change, I was left without a coin for present necessity. But I had hope in Heaven, knowing that the just man would not be left destitute and that, though many troubles surrounded him, he would at last be set free from them all. I was possessed of strong and brilliant parts, and a liberal education; and, though I had somehow unaccountably suffered my theological qualifications to fall into desuetude, since my acquaintance with the ablest and most rigid of all theologians, I had nevertheless hopes that, by preaching up redemption by grace, preordination, and eternal purpose, I should yet be enabled to benefit mankind in some country, and rise to high distinction.

As I went over the hill known as Dorington Moor, I couldn’t help but turn around and take one last look at Dalcastle. I had little doubt it would be the final glance and barely any wish that it wouldn’t be. I thought about how high my hopes for happiness and success had been when I first arrived at that mansion and took possession of its valuable and vast lands, and how miserably disappointed I had become. Instead, I had faced nothing but frustration, disgust, and fear; and now I comforted myself with the hope that I would finally break free from the chains of my great tormentor, and for that freedom, I was willing to face any earthly hardship. I realized I was now on a path that was likely to lead me into a kind of suffering like I had never known before, something I hardly even imagined: total poverty. Just a few hours before, I had been wealthy, but now I found myself cast out of my grand possessions without a single coin or the ability to access even the smallest amount without being discovered and captured. If I could have escaped in my own clothes, I had a decent sum hidden in them, but due to the sudden change, I was left without any money for immediate needs. Yet, I held on to hope in Heaven, knowing that a righteous person wouldn’t be left destitute and that, although many troubles surrounded him, he would ultimately be freed from them all. I had strong talents and a good education; and even though I had somehow allowed my theological skills to decline after meeting the most skilled and strict theologians, I still hoped that by preaching redemption through grace, preordination, and eternal purpose, I could still make a positive impact on humanity in some country and rise to high distinction.

These were some of the thoughts by which I consoled myself as I posted on my way southwards, avoiding the towns and villages, and falling into the cross ways that led from each of the great roads passing east and west to another. I lodged the first night in the house of a country weaver, into which I stepped at a late hour, quite overcome with hunger and fatigue, having travelled not less than thirty miles from my late home. The man received me ungraciously, telling me of a gentleman's house at no great distance, and of an inn a little farther away; but I said I delighted more in the society of a man like him than that of any gentleman of the land, for my concerns were with the poor of this world, it being easier for a camel to go through the eye of a needle than for a rich man to enter into the kingdom of heaven.

These were some of the thoughts I used to comfort myself as I traveled south, avoiding towns and villages, and taking the back roads that connected the major highways running east and west. I spent my first night at the home of a local weaver, who I arrived at late and was completely exhausted and hungry, having walked at least thirty miles from my last home. The man welcomed me coldly, mentioning a gentleman's house not far away and an inn a bit farther. But I told him I preferred the company of someone like him over any wealthy gentleman, as I was concerned with the struggles of the poor, since it’s easier for a camel to go through the eye of a needle than for a rich person to enter the kingdom of heaven.

The weaver's wife, who sat with a child on her knee, and had not hitherto opened her mouth, hearing me speak in that serious and religious style, stirred up the fire with her one hand; then, drawing a chair near it, she said: "Come awa, honest lad, in by here; sin' it be sae that you belang to Him wha gies us a' that we hae, it is but right that you should share a part. You are a stranger, it is true, but them that winna entertain a stranger will never entertain an angel unawares."

The weaver's wife, who was sitting with a child on her lap and hadn’t spoken until now, heard me talking in that serious and respectful way. She stirred the fire with one hand, then pulled a chair closer and said, "Come here, good lad; since you belong to the one who gives us all that we have, it's only right that you should have a share too. You’re a stranger, it’s true, but those who won’t welcome a stranger will never welcome an angel without knowing it."

I never was apt to be taken with the simplicity of nature; in general I despised it; but, owing to my circumstances at the time, I was deeply affected by the manner of this poor woman's welcome. The weaver continued in a churlish mood throughout the evening, apparently dissatisfied with what his wife had done in entertaining me, and spoke to her in a manner so crusty that I thought proper to rebuke him, for the woman was comely in her person, and virtuous in her conversation; but the weaver, her husband, was large of make, ill-favoured, and pestilent; therefore did I take him severely to task for the tenor of his conduct; but the man was froward, and answered me rudely with sneering and derision and, in the height of his caprice, he said to his wife: "Whan focks are sae keen of a chance o' entertaining angels, gude-wife, it wad maybe be worth their while to tak tent what kind o' angels they are. It wadna wonder me vera muckle an ye had entertained your friend the Deil the night, for aw thought aw fand a saur o' reek an' brimstane about him. He's nane o' the best o' angels, an focks winna hae muckle credit by entertaining him."

I was never one to appreciate the simplicity of nature; in general, I looked down on it. However, due to my situation at the time, I was really moved by how warmly this poor woman welcomed me. The weaver remained in a grumpy mood all evening, seemingly unhappy with how his wife had entertained me. He spoke to her in such a rude way that I felt it necessary to confront him. The woman was attractive and had a virtuous way of speaking, while her husband was large, unpleasant, and insufferable. So, I firmly called him out on his behavior. But he was obstinate and responded to me with mockery and derision. In a fit of temper, he said to his wife, "When people are so eager for a chance to entertain angels, dear wife, it may be worth their while to pay attention to what kind of angels they actually are. I wouldn’t be surprised at all if you entertained your friend the Devil tonight, because I thought I caught a whiff of smoke and sulfur about him. He’s certainly not the best kind of angel, and people won’t gain anything by having him over."

Certainly, in the assured state I was in, I had as little reason to be alarmed at mention being made of the Devil as any person on earth: of late, however, I felt that the reverse was the case, and that any allusion to my great enemy moved me exceedingly. The weaver's speech had such an effect on me that both he and his wife were alarmed at my looks. The latter thought I was angry, and chided her husband gently for his rudeness; but the weaver himself rather seemed to be confirmed in his opinion that I was the Devil, for he looked round like a startled roe-buck, and immediately betook him to the family Bible.

Certainly, in the confident state I was in, I had no reason to be worried about any mention of the Devil just like anyone else on earth. Recently, however, I noticed the opposite was true, and any reference to my great enemy affected me deeply. The weaver's words impacted me so much that both he and his wife became concerned about how I looked. His wife thought I was angry and lightly criticized her husband for being rude. But the weaver himself seemed to be even more convinced that I was the Devil, as he glanced around like a startled deer and immediately turned to the family Bible.

I know not whether it was on purpose to prove my identity or not, but I think he was going to desire me either to read a certain portion of Scripture that he had sought out, or to make family worship, had not the conversation at that instant taken another turn; for the weaver, not knowing how to address me, abruptly asked my name, as he was about to put the Bible into my hands. Never having considered myself in the light of a male-factor, but rather as a champion in the cause of truth, and finding myself perfectly safe under my disguise, I had never once thought of the utility of changing my name, and, when the man asked me, I hesitated; but, being compelled to say something, I said my name was Cowan. The man stared at me, and then at his wife, with a look that spoke a knowledge of something alarming or mysterious.

I don’t know if it was intentional to verify my identity or not, but I think he was about to ask me to read a specific passage from the Bible that he had chosen, or to lead a family worship session, if the conversation hadn’t suddenly shifted. The weaver, unsure of how to address me, suddenly asked my name just as he was about to hand me the Bible. I had never thought of myself as a wrongdoer, but rather as a defender of truth, and feeling completely safe in my disguise, I had never considered the need to change my name. So when he asked me, I hesitated; but feeling I had to say something, I said my name was Cowan. The man stared at me, then at his wife, with a look that suggested he sensed something unsettling or mysterious.

"Ha! Cowan?" said he. "That's most extraordinar! Not Colwan, I hope?"

"Ha! Cowan?" he said. "That's really something! Not Colwan, I hope?"

"No: Cowan is my sirname," said I. "But why not Colwan, there being so little difference in the sound?"

"No: Cowan is my surname," I said. "But why not Colwan, since there's so little difference in the sound?"

"I was feared ye might be that waratch that the Deil has taen the possession o', an' eggit him on to kill baith his father an' his mother, his only brother, an' his sweetheart," said he; "an', to say the truth, I'm no that sure about you yet, for I see you're gaun wi' arms on ye."

"I was afraid you might be that creature the Devil has taken possession of, pushing him to kill both his father and mother, his only brother, and his sweetheart," he said; "and to be honest, I'm still not sure about you yet, since I see you're carrying weapons."

"Not I, honest man," said I. "I carry no arms; a man conscious of his innocence and uprightness of heart needs not to carry arms in his defence now."

"Not me, honest man," I said. "I don't carry any weapons; a person aware of their innocence and goodness doesn't need to carry weapons for protection now."

"Aye, aye, maister," said he; "an' pray what div ye ca' this bit windlestrae that's appearing here?" With that he pointed to something on the inside of the breast of my frock-coat. I looked at it, and there certainly was the gilded haft of a poniard, the same weapon I had seen and handled before, and which I knew my illustrious companion carried about with him; but till that moment I knew not that I was in possession of it. I drew it out: a more dangerous or insidious-looking weapon could not be conceived. The weaver and his wife were both frightened, the latter in particular; and she being my friend, and I dependent on their hospitality for that night, I said: "I declare I knew not that I carried this small rapier, which has been in my coat by chance, and not by any design of mine. But, lest you should think that I meditate any mischief to any under this roof I give it into your hands, requesting of you to lock it by till tomorrow, or when I shall next want it."

"Aye, aye, sir," he said; "and what do you call this little thing that's showing up here?" With that, he pointed to something on the inside of my dress coat. I looked at it, and there it was: the gilded handle of a dagger, the same weapon I had seen and handled before, which I knew my distinguished companion carried with him; but until that moment, I had no idea I was in possession of it. I pulled it out: a more dangerous or suspicious-looking weapon couldn't be imagined. The weaver and his wife both looked frightened, especially her; and since she was my friend and I was relying on their hospitality for the night, I said: "I honestly didn't know I was carrying this small sword, which has been in my coat by chance, not by any intention of mine. But to assure you that I mean no harm to anyone under this roof, I will hand it over to you, asking that you lock it away until tomorrow or whenever I need it next."

The woman seemed rather glad to get hold of it; and taking it from me, she went into a kind of pantry out of my sight, and locked the weapon up; and then the discourse went on.

The woman looked pretty happy to get it; taking it from me, she went into a sort of pantry where I couldn't see her and locked the weapon away; then the conversation continued.

"There cannot be such a thing in reality," said I, "as the story you were mentioning just now, of a man whose name resembles mine."

"There can't really be such a thing," I said, "as the story you just mentioned about a guy whose name is similar to mine."

"It's likely that you ken a wee better about the story than I do, maister," said he, "suppose you do leave the L out of your name. An' yet I think sic a waratch, an' a murderer, wad hae taen a name wi' some gritter difference in the sound. But the story is just that true that there were twa o' the Queen's officers here nae mair than an hour ago, in pursuit o' the vagabond, for they gat some intelligence that he had fled this gate; yet they said he had been last seen wi' black claes on, an' they supposed he was clad in black. His ain servant is wi' them, for the purpose o' kennin the scoundrel, an' they're galloping through the country like madmen. I hope in God they'll get him, an' rack his neck for him!"

"It's likely that you know a bit more about the story than I do, sir," he said, "but I assume you drop the L from your name. Still, I think such a villain and a murderer would have taken a name that sounds quite different. But the story is true enough that there were two of the Queen's officers here no more than an hour ago, chasing the runaway, as they got some information that he had fled this way; yet they said he was last seen wearing black clothes, and they believed he was dressed in black. His own servant is with them to identify the scoundrel, and they're galloping through the countryside like madmen. I hope to God they catch him and hang him for it!"

I could not say Amen to the weaver's prayer, and therefore tried to compose myself as well as I could, and made some religious comment on the causes of the nation's depravity. But suspecting that my potent friend had betrayed my flight and disguise, to save his life, I was very uneasy, and gave myself up for lost. I said prayers in the family, with the tenor of which the wife was delighted, but the weaver still dissatisfied; and, after a supper of the most homely fare, he tried to start an argument with me, proving that everything for which I had interceded in my prayer was irrelevant to man's present state. But I, being weary and distressed in mind, shunned the contest, and requested a couch whereon to repose.

I couldn't bring myself to say Amen to the weaver's prayer, so I tried to calm myself as best as I could and made a few religious comments about the reasons behind the nation's downfall. However, I suspected that my powerful friend had given away my escape and disguise to save himself, which made me very anxious, and I felt doomed. I said prayers with the family, and the wife was pleased with them, but the weaver remained unsatisfied. After a simple dinner, he attempted to debate with me, arguing that everything I had prayed for was irrelevant to the current state of humanity. But feeling tired and troubled, I avoided the argument and asked for a place to rest.

I was conducted into the other end of the house, among looms, treadles, pirns, and confusion without end; and there, in a sort of box, was I shut up for my night's repose, for the weaver, as he left me, cautiously turned the key of my apartment, and left me to shift for myself among the looms, determined that I should escape from the house with nothing. After he and his wife and children were crowded into their den, I heard the two mates contending furiously about me in suppressed voices, the one maintaining the probability that I was the murderer, and the other proving the impossibility of it. The husband, however, said as much as let me understand that he had locked me up on purpose to bring the military, or officers of justice, to seize me. I was in the utmost perplexity, yet for all that, and the imminent danger I was in, I fell asleep, and a more troubled and tormenting sleep never enchained a mortal frame. I had such dreams that they will not bear repetition, and early in the morning I awaked, feverish, and parched with thirst.

I was led to the other end of the house, surrounded by looms, treadles, spools, and endless chaos; and there, in a sort of room, I was locked up for the night. The weaver, as he left, carefully turned the key to my room and left me to fend for myself among the looms, determined that I should escape the house with nothing. After he and his wife and kids crammed into their space, I heard the two assistants arguing fiercely about me in hushed tones, one insisting that I was the murderer and the other arguing that it was impossible. The husband, however, hinted that he had locked me up intentionally to bring the police or military to capture me. I was completely bewildered, yet despite the imminent danger I was in, I fell asleep, and it was the most troubled and torturous sleep anyone could experience. I had such disturbing dreams that I can't even repeat them, and early the next morning, I woke up feeling feverish and parched with thirst.

I went to call mine host, that he might let me out to the open air, but, before doing so, I thought it necessary to put on some clothes. In attempting to do this, a circumstance arrested my attention (for which I could in nowise account, which to this day I cannot unriddle, nor shall I ever be able to comprehend it while I live): the frock and turban, which had furnished my disguise on the preceding day, were both removed, and my own black coat and cocked hat laid down in their place. At first I thought I was in a dream, and felt the weaver's beam, web, and treadle-strings with my hands, to convince myself that I was awake. I was certainly awake; and there was the door locked firm and fast as it was the evening before. I carried my own black coat to the small window and examined it. It was my own in verity; and the sums of money that I had concealed in case of any emergency, remained untouched. I trembled with astonishment; and on my return from the small window went doiting in amongst the weaver's looms, till I entangled myself, and could not get out again without working great deray amongst the coarse linen threads that stood in warp from one end of the apartment unto the other. I had no knife whereby to cut the cords of this wicked man, and therefore was obliged to call out lustily for assistance. The weaver came half naked, unlocked the door, and, setting in his head and long neck, accosted me thus:

I went to call my host so he could let me out into the open air, but before doing that, I thought it was necessary to put on some clothes. While trying to do this, something caught my attention (which I couldn’t explain and, to this day, I still can’t figure out, nor will I ever understand while I’m alive): the outfit and turban that had disguised me the day before were gone, and my own black coat and hat were laid out in their place. At first, I thought I was dreaming, and I touched the weaver's loom and threads to convince myself I was awake. I was definitely awake, and the door was locked just as it had been the night before. I took my black coat to the small window and checked it. It was truly mine, and the money I had hidden for emergencies was still there. I was trembling with shock, and when I returned from the small window, I got tangled up among the weaver's looms and couldn’t get out without making a mess of the coarse linen threads that stretched from one end of the room to the other. I didn’t have a knife to cut the cords from this wicked man, so I had no choice but to call out loudly for help. The weaver came out half-dressed, unlocked the door, and, sticking his head and long neck in, said to me:

"What now, Mr. Satan? What for art ye roaring that gate? Are you fawn inna little hell, instead o' the big muckil ane? Deil be in your reistit trams! What for have ye abscondit yoursel into ma leddy's wab for?"

"What now, Mr. Satan? Why are you banging on that gate? Are you stuck in a little hell instead of the big one? Devil take your rest! Why have you hidden yourself in my lady's web?"

"Friend, I beg your pardon," said I. "I wanted to be at the light, and have somehow unfortunately involved myself in the intricacies of your web, from which I cannot get clear without doing you a great injury. Pray do lend your experienced hand to extricate me."

"Friend, I’m really sorry," I said. "I wanted to be at the light, and somehow I've gotten tangled up in your web, and I can’t find my way out without hurting you. Please, could you help me get free?"

"May aw the pearls o' damnation light on your silly snout, an I dinna estricat ye weel enough! Ye ditit donnart, deil's burd that ye be! What made ye gang howkin in there to be a poor man's ruin? Come out, ye vile rag-of-a-muffin, or I gar ye come out wi' mair shame and disgrace, an' fewer haill banes in your body."

"May the pearls of damnation shine on your foolish face if I don't get you out of there quickly enough! You silly fool, may the devil take you! What made you go digging in there to ruin a poor man? Come out, you worthless rag, or I'll force you out with even more shame and disgrace and fewer intact bones in your body."

My feet had slipped down through the double warpings of a web, and not being able to reach the ground with them (there being a small pit below) I rode upon a number of yielding threads, and, there being nothing else that I could reach, to extricate myself was impossible. I was utterly powerless; and, besides, the yarn and cords hurt me very much. For all that, the destructive weaver seized a loom-spoke, and began a-beating me most unmercifully, while, entangled as I was, I could do nothing but shout aloud for mercy, or assistance, whichever chanced to be within hearing. The latter at length made its appearance in the form of the weaver's wife, in the same state of dishabille with himself, who instantly interfered, and that most strenuously, on my behalf. Before her arrival, however, I had made a desperate effort to throw myself out of the entanglement I was in; for the weaver continued repeating his blows and cursing me so that I determined to get out of his meshes at any risk. The effect made my case worse; for, my feet being wrapt among the nether threads, as I threw myself from my saddle on the upper ones, my feet brought the others up through these, and I hung with my head down and my feet as firm as they had been in a vice. The predicament of the web being thereby increased, the weaver's wrath was doubled in proportion, and he laid on without mercy.

My feet had slipped through the double layers of a web, and since I couldn’t reach the ground (there was a small pit below), I was stuck on a bunch of giving threads, making it impossible to get myself free. I was completely powerless, and the yarn and cords hurt me a lot. Despite that, the cruel weaver grabbed a loom-spoke and started beating me mercilessly, while I could only shout for mercy or help, hoping someone would hear me. Eventually, help came in the form of the weaver's wife, who was just as disheveled as he was, and she quickly intervened, passionately defending me. Before she arrived, I had made a desperate attempt to escape from the mess I was in; the weaver kept hitting me and cursing, so I decided to get out of his snare no matter the risk. Unfortunately, this made my situation worse; as my feet were tangled in the lower threads, when I tried to throw myself off the upper ones, my feet pulled the others up with me. I ended up hanging with my head down and my feet stuck like they were in a vice. This worsened the web's predicament, and the weaver's anger grew, and he continued to strike me without mercy.

At this critical juncture the wife arrived, and without hesitation rushed before her offended lord, withholding his hand from injuring me further, although then it was uplifted along with the loom-spoke in overbearing ire. "Dear Johnny! I think ye be gaen dementit this morning. Be quiet, my dear, an' dinna begin a Boddel Brigg business in your ain house. What for ir ye persecutin' a servant o' the Lord's that gate, an' pitting the life out o' him wi' his head down an' his heels up?"

At this critical moment, the wife arrived and, without hesitation, rushed in front of her angry husband, stopping him from hurting me any further, even though his hand was raised in rage. "Dear Johnny! I think you're going a bit crazy this morning. Calm down, my dear, and don't start a scene in your own house. Why are you harassing a servant of the Lord like that, putting his life in danger with his head down and his heels up?"

"Had ye said a servant o' the Deil's, Nans, ye wad hae been nearer the nail, for gin he binna the Auld Ane himsel, he's gayan sib till him. There, didna I lock him in on purpose to bring the military on him; an' in the place o' that, hasna he keepit me in a sleep a' this while as deep as death? An' here do I find him abscondit like a speeder i' the mids o' my leddy's wab, an' me dreamin' a' the night that I had the Deil i' my house, an' that he was clapper-clawin me ayont the loom. Have at you, ye brunstane thief!" and, in spite of the good woman's struggles, he lent me another severe blow.

"Had you said he was a servant of the Devil, Nans, you would have been closer to the truth, because if he isn't the Old One himself, he's definitely related to him. There, didn't I lock him in on purpose to bring the military down on him? And instead, hasn't he kept me in a deep sleep all this time, as if I were dead? And now I find him hiding like a thief in the middle of my lady's web, while I've been dreaming all night that I had the Devil in my house, and that he was clawing at me over the loom. Take that, you fire thief!" And despite the good woman's struggles, he gave me another hard blow.

"Now, Johnny Dods, my man! oh, Johnny Dods, think if that be like a Christian, and ane o' the heroes o' Boddel Brigg, to entertain a stranger, an' then bind him in a web wi' his head down, an' mell him to death! oh, Johnny Dods, think what you are about! Slack a pin, an' let the good honest religious lad out."

"Now, Johnny Dods, my guy! Oh, Johnny Dods, consider if that’s what a Christian does, and one of the heroes of Boddel Brigg, to welcome a stranger and then trap him with his head down and beat him to death! Oh, Johnny Dods, think about what you're doing! Loosen up and let the good, honest, religious guy go free."

The weaver was rather overcome, but still stood to his point that I was the Deil, though in better temper; and, as he slackened the web to release me, he remarked, half laughing: "Wha wad hae thought that John Dods should hae escapit a' the snares an' dangers that circumfauldit him, an' at last should hae weaved a net to catch the Deil."

The weaver was pretty overwhelmed, but still insisted that I was the Devil, though in a better mood. As he loosened the web to free me, he joked, half-laughing: "Who would have thought that John Dods would escape all the traps and dangers that surrounded him, and in the end, weave a net to catch the Devil."

The wife released me soon, and carefully whispered me, at the same time, that it would be as well for me to dress and be going. I was not long in obeying, and dressed myself in my black clothes, hardly knowing what I did, what to think, or whither to betake myself. I was sore hurt by the blows of the desperate ruffian; and, what was worse, my ankle was so much strained that I could hardly set my foot to the ground. I was obliged to apply to the weaver once more, to see if I could learn anything about my clothes, or how the change was effected. "Sir," said I, "how comes it that you have robbed me of my clothes, and put these down in their place over night?"

The wife let me go soon and quietly told me that it would be best for me to get dressed and leave. I quickly got ready, putting on my black clothes, barely aware of what I was doing, what I should think, or where I should go. I was badly hurt from the blows of the violent thug, and to make matters worse, my ankle was so injured that I could barely put my foot on the ground. I had to go back to the weaver to see if I could find out anything about my clothes or how the switch happened. "Sir," I said, "how did you manage to take my clothes and replace them with these overnight?"

"Ha! thae claes? Me pit down the claes!" said he, gaping with astonishment, and touching the clothes with the point of his forefinger. "I never saw them afore, as I have death to meet wi', so help me God!"

"Ha! those clothes? I put down the clothes!" he said, staring in disbelief and poking the clothes with his fingertip. "I've never seen them before, as I'm facing death, so help me God!"

He strode into the work-house where I slept, to satisfy himself that my clothes were not there, and returned perfectly aghast with consternation. "The doors were baith fast lockit," said he. "I could hae defied a rat either to hae gotten out or in. My dream has been true! My dream has been true! The Lord judge between thee and me; but in His name, I charge you to depart out o' this house; an', gin it be your will, dinna tak the braidside o't w'ye, but gang quietly out at the door wi' your face foremost. Wife, let naught o' this enchanter's remain i' the house, to be a curse, an' a snare to us; gang an' bring him his gildit weapon, an' may the Lord protect a' his ain against its hellish an' deadly point!"

He walked into the place where I was sleeping to make sure my clothes weren’t there, and he came back completely shocked and upset. "The doors were both locked tight," he said. "I could have prevented a rat from getting in or out. My dream was real! My dream was real! May the Lord judge between you and me; but in His name, I command you to leave this house; and if you wish, don’t take the back way out, just go out the front door facing forward. Wife, let nothing of this sorcerer stay in the house, to be a curse and a trap for us; go and bring him his golden weapon, and may the Lord protect all His own from its wicked and deadly point!"

The wife went to seek my poniard, trembling so excessively that she could hardly walk, and, shortly after, we heard a feeble scream from the pantry. The weapon had disappeared with the clothes, though under double lock and key; and, the terror of the good people having now reached a disgusting extremity, I thought proper to make a sudden retreat, followed by the weaver's anathemas.

The wife went to find my dagger, shaking so much that she could barely walk, and soon after, we heard a weak scream from the pantry. The weapon was missing along with the clothes, even though it was locked up tight; and with everyone's fear reaching a disturbing level, I decided it was best to make a quick getaway, followed by the weaver’s curses.

My state both of body and mind was now truly deplorable. I was hungry, wounded, and lame, an outcast and a vagabond in society; my life sought after with avidity, and all for doing that to which I was predestined by Him who fore-ordains whatever comes to pass. I knew not whither to betake me. I had purposed going into England and there making some use of the classical education I had received, but my lameness rendered this impracticable for the present. I was therefore obliged to turn my face towards Edinburgh, where I was little known—where concealment was more practicable than by skulking in the country, and where I might turn my mind to something that was great and good. I had a little money, both Scotch and English, now in my possession, but not one friend in the whole world on whom I could rely. One devoted friend, it is true, I had, but he was become my greatest terror. To escape from him, I now felt that I would willingly travel to the farthest corners of the world, and be subjected to every deprivation; but after the certainty of what had taken place last night, after I had travelled thirty miles by secret and by-ways, I saw not how escape from him was possible.

My physical and mental state was truly terrible. I was hungry, injured, and limping, a social outcast and wanderer; my life was pursued eagerly, all for doing what I was meant to do by the one who determines everything that happens. I didn’t know where to go. I had planned to go to England to make use of my classical education, but my injury made that impossible for now. So, I had to head to Edinburgh, where I was less known—where hiding was easier than lurking in the countryside, and where I could focus on something great and good. I had a bit of money, both Scottish and English, but not a single friend in the world I could count on. I did have one loyal friend, but he had become my biggest nightmare. To get away from him, I would willingly travel to the farthest corners of the earth and endure any hardship; but after what happened last night, after I had traveled thirty miles through secret paths, I saw no way to escape him.

Miserable, forlorn, and dreading every person that I saw, either behind or before me, I hasted on towards Edinburgh, taking all the by and unfrequented paths; and, the third night after I left the weaver's house, I reached the West Port, without meeting with anything remarkable. Being exceedingly fatigued and lame, I took lodgings in the first house I entered, and for these I was to pay two groats a week, and to board and sleep with a young man who wanted a companion to make his rent easier. I liked this; having found from experience that the great personage who had attached himself to me, and was now become my greatest terror among many surrounding evils, generally haunted me when I was alone keeping aloof from all other society.

Miserable, alone, and fearing every person I saw, whether in front of me or behind, I hurried toward Edinburgh, taking all the back roads and less traveled paths. By the third night after I left the weaver's house, I arrived at the West Port without encountering anything noteworthy. Exhausted and limping, I rented a room in the first house I came across, where I would pay two groats a week and share meals and a room with a young man who needed a roommate to help with the rent. I appreciated this arrangement, having learned from experience that the formidable figure who had attached himself to me and had become my greatest source of fear among many challenges usually stalked me when I was alone, avoiding all other company.

My fellow lodger came home in the evening, and was glad at my coming. His name was Linton, and I changed mine to Elliot. He was a flippant unstable being, one on whom nothing appeared a difficulty, in his own estimation, but who could effect very little after all. He was what is called by some a compositor, in the Queen's printing house, then conducted by a Mr. James Watson. In the course of our conversation that night, I told him I was a first-rate classical scholar, and would gladly turn my attention to some business wherein my education might avail me something; and that there was nothing would delight me so much as an engagement in the Queen's printing office. Linton made no difficulty in bringing about that arrangement. His answer was: "Oo, gud sir, you are the very man we want. Gud bless your breast and your buttons, sir! Aye, that's neither here nor there. That's all very well. Ha, ha, ha. A by-word in the house, sir. But, as I was saying, you are the very man we want. You will get any money you like to ask, sir. Any money you like, sir. God bless your buttons!—That's settled—All done—Settled, settled—I'll do it, I'll do it—No more about it; no more about it. Settled, settled."

My roommate came home in the evening and was happy to see me. His name was Linton, and I changed mine to Elliot. He was a careless, unpredictable person, someone who thought nothing was a challenge, but he ended up achieving very little. He worked as a compositor at the Queen's printing house, which was run by a Mr. James Watson at the time. During our conversation that night, I told him I was a top-notch classical scholar and would love to focus on some work where my education could actually be useful; that nothing would make me happier than a job at the Queen's printing office. Linton had no trouble making that happen. He replied, "Oh, good sir, you’re exactly the person we need. God bless your heart and your buttons, sir! Well, that’s neither here nor there. That’s all good. Ha, ha, ha. A favorite saying in the house, sir. But as I was saying, you are exactly who we need. You can ask for any salary you want, sir. Any amount you want, sir. God bless your buttons!—That’s settled—All done—Settled, settled—I'll take care of it, I'll take care of it—No need to discuss it further; no more about it. Settled, settled."

The next day I went with him to the office, and he presented me to Mr. Watson as the most wonderful genius and scholar ever known. His recommendation had little sway with Mr. Watson, who only smiled at Linton's extravagances, as one does at the prattle of an infant. I sauntered about the printing office for the space of two or three hours, during which time Watson bustled about with green spectacles on his nose, and took no heed of me. But, seeing that I still lingered, he addressed me at length, in a civil gentlemanly way, and inquired concerning my views. I satisfied him with all my answers, in particular those to his questions about the Latin and Greek languages; but when he came to ask testimonials of my character and acquirements, and found that I could produce none, he viewed me with a jealous eye, and said he dreaded I was some n'er-do-weel, run from my parents or guardians, and he did not choose to employ any such. I said my parents were both dead; and that, being thereby deprived of the means of following out my education, it behoved me to apply to some business in which my education might be of some use to me. He said he would take me into the office, and pay me according to the business I performed and the manner in which I deported myself; but he could take no man into Her Majesty's printing office upon a regular engagement who could not produce the most respectable references with regard to morals.

The next day, I went with him to the office, and he introduced me to Mr. Watson as the most incredible genius and scholar ever. However, Mr. Watson wasn’t impressed by Linton’s praise; he just smiled at his over-the-top claims, like you would at a child’s silly chatter. I wandered around the printing office for about two or three hours, during which time Watson busily moved around with green glasses on his nose, paying no attention to me. But when he noticed I was still hanging around, he eventually addressed me in a polite manner and asked about my opinions. I answered all his questions well, especially those about Latin and Greek; but when he asked for references about my character and qualifications and found I had none, he looked at me suspiciously and said he feared I might be a good-for-nothing who had run away from my parents or guardians, and he had no intention of hiring someone like that. I explained that both my parents were deceased and that, since I couldn’t continue my education, I needed to find a job where my skills could be useful. He told me he would take me into the office and pay me based on the work I did and my behavior, but he couldn’t formally employ anyone at Her Majesty's printing office who couldn’t provide solid moral references.

I could not but despise the man in my heart who laid such a stress upon morals, leaving grace out of the question; and viewed it as a deplorable instance of human depravity and self-conceit; but, for all that, I was obliged to accept of his terms, for I had an inward thirst and longing to distinguish myself in the great cause of religion, and I thought, if once I could print my own works, how I would astonish mankind, and confound their self-wisdom and their esteemed morality—blow up the idea of any dependence on good works, and morality, forsooth! And I weened that I might thus get me a name even higher than if I had been made a general of the Czar Peter's troops against the infidels.

I couldn’t help but feel contempt for the guy who focused so much on morals while ignoring grace. I saw it as a sad example of human flaws and arrogance. Still, I had to accept his terms because I had a deep desire to make a name for myself in the important mission of religion. I thought if I could just publish my own works, I would shock people and challenge their self-righteousness and so-called morality—debunk the idea that good deeds and morals mean anything at all! I believed I could achieve a reputation even greater than if I had been made a general in Czar Peter's army against the infidels.

I attended the office some hours every day, but got not much encouragement, though I was eager to learn everything, and could soon have set types considerably well. It was here that I first conceived the idea of writing this journal, and having it printed, and applied to Mr. Watson to print it for me, telling him it was a religious parable such as the Pilgrim's Progress. He advised me to print it close, and make it a pamphlet, and then, if it did not sell, it would not cost me much; but that religious pamphlets, especially if they had a shade of allegory in them, were the very rage of the day. I put my work to the press, and wrote early and late; and encouraging my companion to work at odd hours and on Sundays, before the press-work of the second sheet was begun, we had the work all in types, corrected, and a clean copy thrown off for further revisal. The first sheet was wrought off; and I never shall forget how my heart exulted when at the printing house this day I saw what numbers of my works were to go abroad among mankind, and I determined with myself that I would not put the Border name of Elliot, which I had assumed, to the work.

I spent several hours at the office every day, but I didn’t get much encouragement, even though I was eager to learn everything and could have set types pretty well in no time. It was here that I first came up with the idea of writing this journal and having it printed, so I asked Mr. Watson to print it for me, telling him it was a religious parable like the Pilgrim's Progress. He suggested that I print it as a small pamphlet, so if it didn’t sell, it wouldn’t cost me much; he noted that religious pamphlets, especially those with a hint of allegory, were really popular at that time. I got my work ready for the press and wrote early and late, encouraging my friend to work during odd hours and on Sundays. Before we started the press work on the second sheet, we had everything in types, corrected, and a clean copy set aside for further revision. The first sheet was completed, and I will never forget how thrilled I was when I saw at the printing house that so many of my works were going to be shared with the world. I decided that I wouldn’t put the Border name of Elliot, which I had taken on, on the work.



Thus far have my History and Confessions been carried.

Thus far, my history and confessions have been shared.

I must now furnish my Christian readers with a key to the process, management, and winding up of the whole matter; which I propose, by the assistance of God, to limit to a very few pages.

I now need to provide my Christian readers with a guide to the process, management, and conclusion of the entire matter; which I plan, with God's help, to keep to just a few pages.

Chesters, July 27, 1712.—My hopes and prospects are a wreck. My precious journal is lost! consigned to the flames! My enemy hath found me out, and there is no hope of peace or rest for me on this side the grave.

Chesters, July 27, 1712.—My hopes and dreams are completely destroyed. My treasured journal is gone! Burned to ashes! My enemy has tracked me down, and there’s no chance of peace or relief for me in this life.

In the beginning of last week, my fellow lodger came home, running in a great panic, and told me a story of the Devil having appeared twice in the printing house, assisting the workmen at the printing of my book, and that some of them had been frightened out of their wits. That the story was told to Mr. Watson, who till that time had never paid any attention to the treatise, but who, out of curiosity, began and read a part of it, and thereupon flew into a great rage, called my work a medley of lies and blasphemy, and ordered the whole to be consigned to the flames, blaming his foreman, and all connected with the press, for letting a work go so far that was enough to bring down the vengeance of Heaven on the concern.

At the start of last week, my roommate came home in a total panic and told me a wild story about the Devil showing up twice at the printing house, helping the workers print my book, which had freaked some of them out. This story was relayed to Mr. Watson, who up until that point hadn’t given my work any thought, but out of curiosity, he started reading part of it. This made him really angry; he called my work a mix of lies and blasphemy and demanded that it all be burned, blaming his foreman and everyone at the press for letting a piece go that could bring down divine wrath on the operation.

If ever I shed tears through perfect bitterness of spirit it was at that time, but I hope it was more for the ignorance and folly of my countrymen than the overthrow of my own hopes. But my attention was suddenly aroused to other matters, by Linton mentioning that it was said by some in the office the Devil had inquired for me.

If I ever cried from pure bitterness, it was at that moment, but I hope it was more because of the ignorance and foolishness of my fellow countrymen than the collapse of my own dreams. However, my attention was suddenly drawn to other things when Linton mentioned that some people in the office said the Devil had been asking for me.

"Surely you are not such a fool," said I, "as to believe that the Devil really was in the printing office?"

"Surely you're not that gullible," I said, "to think that the Devil was actually in the print shop?"

"Oo, Gud bless you, sir! Saw him myself, gave him a nod, and good-day. Rather a gentlemanly personage—Green Circassian hunting coat and turban—Like a foreigner—Has the power of vanishing in one moment though—Rather a suspicious circumstance that. Otherwise, his appearance not much against him."

"Well, God bless you, sir! I saw him myself, gave him a nod, and said good day. Quite a gentleman, really—wearing a green Circassian hunting coat and a turban—He looks like a foreigner—But he has the ability to disappear in an instant, which is a bit suspicious. Other than that, there’s nothing much wrong with his appearance."

If the former intelligence thrilled me with grief, this did so with terror. I perceived who the personage was that had visited the printing house in order to further the progress of my work; and, at the approach of every person to our lodgings, I from that instant trembled every bone, lest it should be my elevated and dreaded friend. I could not say I had ever received an office at his hand that was not friendly, yet these offices had been of a strange tendency; and the horror with which I now regarded him was unaccountable to myself. It was beyond description, conception, or the soul of man to bear. I took my printed sheets, the only copy of my unfinished work existing; and, on pretence of going straight to Mr. Watson's office, decamped from my lodgings at Portsburgh a little before the fall of evening, and took the road towards England.

If the previous news filled me with sadness, this one filled me with fear. I realized who the person was that had come to the printing house to help my work; and with every person who approached our place, I felt a shiver run through me, fearing it might be my esteemed and dreaded acquaintance. I couldn’t say I had ever received anything from him that wasn’t well-intentioned, yet these gestures had an unsettling quality; and the dread I now felt towards him was inexplicable. It was beyond description, understanding, or what any person could endure. I took my printed pages, the only copy of my unfinished work that existed, and under the pretense of heading directly to Mr. Watson's office, I left my apartment in Portsburgh just before dusk and set off towards England.

As soon as I got clear of the city, I ran with a velocity I knew not before I had been capable of. I flew out the way towards Dalkeith so swiftly that I often lost sight of the ground, and I said to myself, "Oh, that I had the wings of a dove, that I might fly to the farthest corners of the earth, to hide me from those against whom I have no power to stand!"

As soon as I left the city, I ran faster than I ever thought I could. I sped towards Dalkeith so quickly that I often lost sight of the ground, and I said to myself, "Oh, if only I had the wings of a dove, so I could fly to the farthest corners of the earth to hide from those I can't fight back against!"

I travelled all that night and the next morning, exerting myself beyond my power; and about noon the following day I went into a yeoman's house, the name of which was Ellanshaws, and requested of the people a couch of any sort to lie down on, for I was ill, and could not proceed on my journey. They showed me to a stable-loft where there were two beds, on one of which I laid me down; and, falling into a sound sleep, I did not awake till the evening, that other three men came from the fields to sleep in the same place, one of whom lay down beside me, at which I was exceedingly glad. They fell all sound asleep, and I was terribly alarmed at a conversation I overheard somewhere outside the stable. I could not make out a sentence, but trembled to think I knew one of the voices at least, and, rather than not be mistaken, I would that any man had run me through with a sword. I fell into a cold sweat, and once thought of instantly putting hand to my own life, as my only means of relief (may the rash and sinful thought be in mercy forgiven!) when I heard as it were two persons at the door, contending, as I thought, about their right and interest in me. That the one was forcibly preventing the admission of the other, I could hear distinctly, and their language was mixed with something dreadful and mysterious. In an agony of terror, I awakened my snoring companion with great difficulty, and asked him, in a low whisper, who these were at the door. The man lay silent and listening till fairly awake, and then asked if I heard anything. I said I had heard strange voices contending at the door.

I traveled all night and into the next morning, pushing myself beyond my limits. Around noon the following day, I went into a farmer's house called Ellanshaws and asked the people for a place to lie down because I was sick and couldn’t continue my journey. They led me to a stable loft that had two beds, and I laid down on one of them. I fell into a deep sleep and didn’t wake up until evening when three other men came in from the fields to sleep in the same place. I was really glad when one of them lay down next to me. They all fell sound asleep, but I became very anxious when I overheard a conversation outside the stable. I couldn't understand the words, but I trembled at the thought that I recognized at least one of the voices, and I would have preferred anyone to stab me with a sword rather than be mistaken. I broke into a cold sweat and even thought about ending my own life as my only relief (may that reckless and sinful thought be forgiven!). Then I heard what seemed like two people at the door, arguing over their claim to me. I could hear one of them forcefully keeping the other from coming in, and their words were mixed with something terrifying and mysterious. In a panic, I managed to wake my snoring companion with great effort and quietly asked him who was at the door. He stayed silent and listened until he was fully awake, then asked me if I heard anything. I told him I had heard strange voices arguing at the door.

"Then I can tell you, lad, it has been something neither good nor canny," said he. "It's no for naething that our horses are snorking that gate."

"Then I can tell you, kid, it’s been something neither good nor clever," he said. "It's not for nothing that our horses are snorting that way."

For the first time, I remarked that the animals were snorting and rearing as if they wished to break through the house. The man called to them by their names, and ordered them to be quiet; but they raged still the more furiously. He then roused his drowsy companions, who were alike alarmed at the panic of the horses, all of them declaring that they had never seen either Mause or Jolly start in their lives before. My bed-fellow and another then ventured down the ladder, and I heard one of them then saying: "Lord be wi' us! What can be i' the house? The sweat's rinning off the poor beasts like water."

For the first time, I noticed that the animals were snorting and rearing as if they wanted to break through the house. The man called them by their names and told them to be quiet, but they only became more frantic. He then woke his sleepy friends, who were just as alarmed by the horses' panic, all of them insisting that they had never seen either Mause or Jolly act like this before. My bedfellow and another person then decided to go down the ladder, and I heard one of them say, "Goodness! What could be happening in there? The sweat is pouring off the poor animals like water."

They agreed to sally out together, and if possible to reach the kitchen and bring a light. I was glad at this, but not so much so when I heard the one man saying to the other, in a whisper: "I wish that stranger man may be canny enough."

They decided to head out together, and if they could, to get to the kitchen and bring back a light. I was happy about this, but not so much when I heard one guy whispering to the other, "I hope that stranger is smart enough."

"God kens!" said the other. "It does nae look unco weel."

"God knows!" said the other. "It doesn't look too good."

The lad in the other bed, hearing this, set up his head in manifest affright as the other two departed for the kitchen; and, I believed he would have been glad to have been in their company. This lad was next the ladder, at which I was extremely glad, for, had he not been there, the world should not have induced me to wait the return of these two men. They were not well gone before I heard another distinctly enter the stable, and come towards the ladder. The lad who was sitting up in his bed, intent on the watch, called out: "Wha's that there? Walker, is that you? Purdie, I say is it you?"

The boy in the other bed, hearing this, propped himself up in clear fear as the other two headed to the kitchen; and I thought he would have been happy to join them. This boy was next to the ladder, which I was really glad about because if he hadn’t been there, nothing in the world would have made me wait for the return of those two men. They had hardly left when I heard someone else enter the stable and come toward the ladder. The boy who was sitting up in his bed, on alert, shouted, "Who’s that? Walker, is that you? Purdie, is that you?"

The darkling intruder paused for a few moments, and then came towards the foot of the ladder. The horses broke loose, and, snorting and neighing for terror, raged through the house. In all my life I never heard so frightful a commotion. The being that occasioned it all now began to mount the ladder towards our loft, on which the lad in the bed next the ladder sprung from his couch, crying out: "The L—d A—y preserve us! What can it be?" With that he sped across the loft and by my bed, praying lustily all the way; and, throwing himself from the other end of the loft into a manger, he darted, naked as he was, through among the furious horses, and, making the door that stood open, in a moment he vanished and left me in the lurch. Powerless with terror, and calling out fearfully, I tried to follow his example; but, not knowing the situation of the places with regard to one another, I missed the manger, and fell on the pavement in one of the stalls. I was both stunned and lamed on the knee; but, terror prevailing, I got up and tried to escape. It was out of my power; for there were divisions and cross divisions in the house, and mad horses smashing everything before them, so that I knew not so much as on what side of the house the door was. Two or three times was I knocked down by the animals, but all the while I never stinted crying out with all my power. At length, I was seized by the throat and hair of the head, and dragged away, I wist not whither. My voice was now laid, and all my powers, both mental and bodily, totally overcome; and I remember no more till I found myself lying naked on the kitchen table of the farm-house, and something like a horse's rug thrown over me. The only hint that I got from the people of the house on coming to myself was that my absence would be good company; and that they had got me in a woeful state, one which they did not choose to describe, or hear described.

The dark intruder paused for a moment, then came toward the bottom of the ladder. The horses broke free, snorting and neighing in terror as they charged through the house. In all my life, I’ve never heard such a terrifying commotion. The being that caused it all began to climb the ladder toward our loft, and the boy in the bed next to the ladder jumped up, shouting, “Lord Almighty, help us! What can it be?” With that, he dashed across the loft and past my bed, praying loudly the whole time. He threw himself from the far end of the loft into a manger, and, naked as he was, he plunged through the frenzied horses, and made a beeline for the open door. In an instant, he disappeared, leaving me behind. Paralyzed with fear, and calling out in panic, I tried to follow his lead, but, not knowing the layout of the house, I missed the manger and crashed onto the floor in one of the stalls. I was both stunned and hurt my knee, but driven by fear, I got up and tried to escape. It was impossible; there were partitions and cross partitions in the house, and crazy horses smashing everything in their path, so I had no idea where the door was. A couple of times, I was knocked down by the animals, but I kept screaming as loudly as I could. Eventually, I was grabbed by the throat and my hair, and dragged away, I don’t know where. My voice was gone, and all my strength, both mental and physical, was completely drained; and I don’t remember anything else until I found myself lying naked on the kitchen table of the farmhouse, with something like a horse blanket thrown over me. The only thing I learned from the people in the house when I came to was that my absence would be better company, and that they had found me in such a terrible state, which they didn’t want to describe or hear about.

As soon as day-light appeared, I was packed about my business, with the hisses and execrations of the yeoman's family, who viewed me as a being to be shunned, ascribing to me the visitations of that unholy night. Again was I on my way southwards, as lonely, hopeless, and degraded a being as was to be found on life's weary round. As I limped out the way, I wept, thinking of what I might have been, and what I really had become: of my high and flourishing hopes when I set out as the avenger of God on the sinful children of men; of all that I had dared for the exaltation and progress of the truth; and it was with great difficulty that my faith remained unshaken, yet was I preserved from that sin, and comforted myself with the certainty that the believer's progress through life is one of warfare and suffering.

As soon as daylight broke, I was busy with my tasks, surrounded by the hisses and curses of the farmer's family, who viewed me as someone to avoid, blaming me for the events of that dreadful night. I was once again traveling south, feeling as lonely, hopeless, and degraded as anyone could be along life's difficult journey. As I limped along, I cried, thinking about what I could have been and what I had actually become: my high and flourishing hopes when I set out as God's avenger against the sinful children of humanity; everything I had risked for the sake of truth's advancement; and it was with great difficulty that my faith stayed strong, yet I was kept from that sin, finding comfort in the certainty that a believer's journey through life is filled with battles and suffering.

My case was indeed a pitiable one. I was lame, hungry, fatigued, and my resources on the very eve of being exhausted. Yet these were but secondary miseries, and hardly worthy of a thought compared with those I suffered inwardly. I not only looked around me with terror at every one that approached, but I was become a terror to myself, or, rather, my body and soul were become terrors to each other; and, had it been possible, I felt as if they would have gone to war. I dared not look at my face in a glass, for I shuddered at my own image and likeness. I dreaded the dawning, and trembled at the approach of night, nor was there one thing in nature that afforded me the least delight.

My situation was truly miserable. I was limping, hungry, tired, and my resources were about to run out. But these were just minor troubles and hardly worth considering compared to what I was going through inside. I not only felt terrified every time someone came near me, but I was also scared of myself—my body and soul seemed to be at odds with each other, and I felt like they would fight if they could. I couldn't bring myself to look at my face in the mirror because I recoiled at my own reflection. I feared the morning and dreaded the coming of night, and there wasn't a single thing in nature that brought me any joy.

In this deplorable state of body and mind, was I jogging on towards the Tweed, by the side of the small river called Ellan, when, just at the narrowest part of the glen, whom should I meet full in the face but the very being in all the universe of God would the most gladly have shunned. I had no power to fly fro him, neither durst I, for the spirit within me, accuse him of falsehood and renounce his fellowship. I stood before him like a condemned criminal, staring him in the face, ready to be winded, twisted, and tormented as he pleased. He regarded me with a sad and solemn look. How changed was now that majestic countenance to one of haggard despair—changed in all save the extraordinary likeness to my late brother, a resemblance which misfortune and despair tended only to heighten. There were no kind greetings passed between us at meeting, like those which pass between the men of the world; he looked on me with eyes that froze the currents of my blood, but spoke not till I assumed as much courage as to articulate: "You here! I hope you have brought me tidings of comfort?"

In this awful state of body and mind, I was jogging toward the Tweed, along the small river called Ellan, when, right at the narrowest part of the glen, I ran into the very person I would have most liked to avoid. I couldn’t escape from him, nor did I dare to, because the spirit inside me wouldn’t let me accuse him of dishonesty and break away from him. I stood there like a condemned criminal, staring him in the face, ready to be bent and twisted by him however he wanted. He looked at me with a sad and serious expression. How different that once-majestic face now appeared, replaced by haggard despair—changed in all but the extraordinary resemblance to my late brother, a likeness that misfortune and despair only seemed to amplify. There were no friendly greetings exchanged between us, like those you’d expect from people in the world; he looked at me with eyes that froze my blood, but he didn’t speak until I mustered enough courage to say, "You here! I hope you have brought me news of comfort?"

"Tidings of despair!" said he. "But such tidings as the timid and the ungrateful deserve, and have reason to expect. You are an outlaw, and a vagabond in your country, and a high reward is offered for your apprehension. The enraged populace have burnt your house, and all that is within it; and the farmers on the land bless themselves at being rid of you. So fare it with everyone who puts his hand to the great work of man's restoration to freedom, and draweth back, contemning the light that is within him! Your enormities caused me to leave you to yourself for a season, and you see what the issue has been. You have given some evil ones power over you, who long to devour you, both soul and body, and it has required all my power and influence to save you. Had it not been for my hand, you had been torn in pieces last night; but for once I prevailed. We must leave this land forthwith, for here there is neither peace, safety, nor comfort for us. Do you now and here pledge yourself to one who has so often saved your life and has put his own at stake to do so? Do you pledge yourself that you will henceforth be guided by my counsel, and follow me whithersoever I choose to lead?"

"Tidings of despair!" he said. "But it’s exactly what the timid and ungrateful deserve and should expect. You’re an outlaw, a wanderer in your own country, and there’s a big reward for capturing you. The angry crowd has burned your house and everything in it; the farmers around here are glad to be rid of you. That’s the fate of anyone who tries to help bring freedom to humanity but then pulls back, ignoring the light within themselves! Your wrongdoings made me leave you alone for a while, and look at what happened. You’ve let some bad people gain power over you, who want to destroy you, body and soul, and it took all my strength and influence to save you. If it weren’t for me, you would have been torn apart last night; but for once, I succeeded. We need to leave this place immediately, because here there’s no peace, safety, or comfort for us. Do you now pledge your loyalty to someone who has saved your life time and again and has risked their own to do so? Do you promise that from now on, you will follow my advice and come with me wherever I choose to lead?"

"I have always been swayed by your counsel," said I, "and for your sake, principally, am I sorry that all our measures have proved abortive. But I hope still to be useful in my native isle, therefore let me plead that your highness will abandon a poor despised and outcast wretch to his fate, and betake you to your realms, where your presence cannot but be greatly wanted."

"I’ve always been influenced by your advice," I said, "and it’s mainly because of you that I feel sorry our efforts have failed. But I still hope to be helpful in my homeland, so I ask that you let this poor, rejected outcast face his fate alone and return to your kingdom, where your presence is definitely needed."

"Would that I could do so!" said he woefully. "But to talk of that is to talk of an impossibility. I am wedded to you so closely that I feel as if I were the same person. Our essences are one, our bodies and spirits being united, so that I am drawn towards you as by magnetism, and, wherever you are, there must my presence be with you."

"How I wish I could!" he said sadly. "But to even mention it is to talk about something impossible. I'm so closely tied to you that it feels like we're the same person. Our souls are one, our bodies and spirits joined, so I’m drawn to you like a magnet, and wherever you are, I must be there with you too."

Perceiving how this assurance affected me, he began to chide me most bitterly for my ingratitude; and then he assumed such looks that it was impossible for me longer to bear them; therefore I staggered out of the way, begging and beseeching of him to give me up to my fate, and hardly knowing what I said; for it struck me that, with all his assumed appearance of misery and wretchedness, there were traits of exultation in his hideous countenance, manifesting a secret and inward joy at my utter despair.

Seeing how this reassurance impacted me, he started to scold me harshly for my ingratitude; then he took on such expressions that I could no longer stand them; so I stumbled away, pleading and begging him to let me face my fate, barely aware of what I was saying; for it occurred to me that, despite his feigned look of misery and despair, there were signs of triumph in his ugly face, revealing a hidden joy at my complete hopelessness.

It was long before I durst look over my shoulder, but, when I did so, I perceived this ruined and debased potentate coming slowly on the same path, and I prayed that the Lord would hide me in the bowels of the earth or depths of the sea. When I crossed the Tweed, I perceived him still a little behind me; and, my despair being then at its height, I cursed the time I first met with such a tormentor; though on a little recollection it occurred that it was at that blessed time when I was solemnly dedicated to the Lord, and assured of my final election, and confirmation, by an eternal decree never to be annulled. This being my sole and only comfort, I recalled my curse upon the time, and repented me o my rashness.

It was a long time before I dared to look over my shoulder, but when I finally did, I saw this broken and degraded figure coming slowly down the same path, and I prayed that the Lord would hide me in the depths of the earth or the sea. When I crossed the Tweed, I noticed he was still a little behind me, and my despair peaked at that moment. I cursed the day I first encountered such a tormentor; though, upon reflection, I realized it was at that blessed moment when I was dedicated to the Lord and assured of my final selection and confirmation, by an eternal decree that could never be undone. This was my only comfort, so I took back my curse on that day and regretted my rashness.

After crossing the Tweed, I saw no more of my persecutor that day, and had hopes that he had left me for a season; but, alas, what hope was there of my relief after the declaration I had so lately heard! I took up my lodgings that night in a small miserable inn in the village of Ancrum, of which the people seemed alike poor and ignorant. Before going to bed, I asked if it was customary with them to have family worship of evenings. The man answered that they were so hard set with the world they often could not get time, but if I would be so kind as to officiate they would be much obliged to me. I accepted the invitation, being afraid to go to rest lest the commotions of the foregoing night might be renewed, and continued the worship as long as in decency I could. The poor people thanked me, hoped my prayers would be heard both on their account and my own, seemed much taken with my abilities, and wondered how a man of my powerful eloquence chanced to be wandering about in a condition so forlorn. I said I was a poor student of theology, on my way to Oxford. They stared at one another with expressions of wonder, disappointment, and fear. I afterwards came to learn that the term theology was by them quite misunderstood, and that they had some crude conceptions that nothing was taught at Oxford but the black arts, which ridiculous idea prevailed over all the south of Scotland. For the present I could not understand what the people meant, and less so when the man asked me, with deep concern: "If I was serious in my intentions of going to Oxford? He hoped not, and that I would be better guided."

After crossing the Tweed, I didn’t see my pursuer for the rest of the day and hoped he had left me alone for a while; but, unfortunately, what hope was there for my relief after what I had just heard! That night, I found a room in a small, miserable inn in the village of Ancrum, where the people seemed equally poor and uneducated. Before going to bed, I asked if they usually had family worship in the evenings. The man replied that they were so burdened by life's struggles that they often didn’t have the time, but if I wouldn’t mind leading it, they would be very grateful. I accepted the invitation, as I was afraid to sleep lest the troubles of the previous night returned, and continued the worship for as long as decency allowed. The poor people thanked me, hoped my prayers would be answered for both their sake and mine, seemed impressed with my abilities, and wondered how someone with my eloquence ended up in such a miserable situation. I told them I was a struggling theology student on my way to Oxford. They exchanged looks of wonder, disappointment, and fear. I later learned that they completely misunderstood the term theology and had some bizarre notions that nothing was taught at Oxford except for dark arts, which this ridiculous idea was widely believed across southern Scotland. At the moment, I didn’t understand what they meant, and even less so when the man asked me, with deep concern, if I was serious about going to Oxford. He hoped I wasn’t and that I would find better guidance.

I said my education wanted finishing; but he remarked that the Oxford arts were a bad finish for a religious man's education. Finally, I requested him to sleep with me, or in my room all the night, as I wanted some serious and religious conversation with him, and likewise to convince him that the study of the fine arts, though not absolutely necessary, were not incompatible with the character of a Christian divine. He shook his head, and wondered how I could call them fine arts—hoped I did not mean to convince him by any ocular demonstration, and at length reluctantly condescended to sleep with me, and let the lass and wife sleep together for one night. I believe he would have declined it had it not been some hints from his wife, stating that it was a good arrangement, by which I understood there were only two beds in the house, and that when I was preferred to the lass's bed, she had one to shift for.

I said my education needed completion, but he pointed out that studying the arts at Oxford wasn't the best way to finish off a religious education. Eventually, I asked him to spend the night with me in my room because I wanted to have some serious and religious discussions with him. I also wanted to show him that studying the fine arts, while not absolutely necessary, didn't conflict with being a Christian minister. He shook his head, expressing disbelief that I could refer to them as fine arts. He hoped I didn't plan to persuade him with any visual demonstrations. After a while, he reluctantly agreed to stay with me, allowing the girl and his wife to share a bed for one night. I believe he would have turned down the idea if it hadn't been for some comments from his wife, suggesting it was a good arrangement. I gathered there were only two beds in the house, and when I was given the option over the girl’s bed, she had to figure things out for herself.

The landlord and I accordingly retired to our homely bed, and conversed for some time about indifferent matters, till he fell sound asleep. Not so with me: I had that within which would not suffer me to close my eyes; and, about the dead of night, I again heard the same noises and contention begin outside the house as I had heard the night before; and again I heard it was about a sovereign and peculiar right in me. At one time the noise was on the top of the house, straight above our bed, as if the one party were breaking through the roof, and the other forcibly preventing it; at another it was at the door, and at a third time at the window; but still mine host lay sound by my side, and did not waken. I was seized with terrors indefinable, and prayed fervently, but did not attempt rousing my sleeping companion until I saw if no better could be done. The women, however, were alarmed, and, rushing into our apartment, exclaimed that all the devils in hell were besieging the house. Then, indeed, the landlord awoke, and it was time for him, for the tumult had increased to such a degree that it shook the house to its foundations, being louder and more furious than I could have conceived the heat of battle to be when the volleys of artillery are mixed with groans, shouts, and blasphemous cursing. It thundered and lightened; and there were screams, groans, laughter, and execrations, all intermingled.

The landlord and I went to our cozy bed and chatted for a while about random things until he fell fast asleep. I, on the other hand, couldn’t shut my eyes because of what I was feeling inside me. Around midnight, I heard the same noises and arguments outside the house that I had heard the night before; they were about a special right concerning me. At one point, the noise was right above us, as if one group was trying to break through the roof while the other was desperately stopping them. Then it was at the door, and later at the window; yet my host slept soundly next to me, completely unaware. I was overwhelmed with indescribable fear and prayed earnestly but didn’t want to wake my sleeping companion until I figured out if there was a better way to handle it. However, the women were frightened and burst into our room, shouting that all the devils in hell were surrounding the house. At that moment, the landlord finally woke up, and it was definitely time for him to do so, as the noise had escalated to the point where it shook the house to its core, louder and more intense than I could have imagined a battle to be, with cannon fire mixed with groans, shouts, and profane curses. It felt like thunder and lightning; there were screams, groans, laughter, and curses all mixed together.

I lay trembling and bathed in a cold perspiration, but was soon obliged to bestir myself, the inmates attacking me one after the other.

I lay shaking and covered in cold sweat, but I soon had to get moving as the people around me came at me one after the other.

"Oh, Tam Douglas! Tam Douglas! haste ye an' rise out frayont that incarnal devil!" cried the wife. "Ye are in ayont the auld ane himsel, for our lass Tibbie saw his cloven cloots last night."

"Oh, Tam Douglas! Tam Douglas! hurry up and get out from in front of that evil devil!" cried the wife. "You are already beyond the old one himself, for our girl Tibbie saw his cloven hooves last night."

"Lord forbid!" roared Tam Douglas, and darted over the bed like a flying fish. Then, hearing the unearthly tumult with which he was surrounded, he turned to the side of the bed, and addressed me thus, with long and fearful intervals:

"God forbid!" shouted Tam Douglas, and leaped over the bed like a fish in the air. Then, hearing the crazy noise around him, he turned to the side of the bed and spoke to me with long and fearful pauses:

"If ye be the Deil, rise up, an' depart in peace out o' this house—afore the bedstrae take kindling about ye, an' than it'll maybe be the waur for ye. Get up—an' gang awa out amang your cronies, like a good lad. There's nae body here wishes you ony ill. D'ye hear me?"

"If you’re the devil, get up and leave this house in peace—before the bedclothes catch fire around you, and then it might be worse for you. Get up—and go off among your friends, like a good fellow. Nobody here wants anything bad for you. Do you hear me?"

"Friend," said I, "no Christian would turn out a fellow creature on such a night as this and in the midst of such a commotion of the villagers."

"Friend," I said, "no Christian would throw out another person on a night like this and amidst all this chaos with the villagers."

"Na, if ye be a mortal man," said he, "which I rather think, from the use you made of the holy book. Nane o' your practical jokes on strangers an' honest foks. These are some o' your Oxford tricks, an' I'll thank you to be ower wi' them. Gracious heaven, they are brikkin through the house at a' the four corners at the same time!"

"Well, if you are a mortal man," he said, "which I suspect, based on how you used the holy book. No more of your practical jokes on strangers and honest folks. These are some of your Oxford tricks, and I'd appreciate it if you'd stop with them. Good heavens, they are breaking through the house at all four corners at the same time!"

The lass Tibby, seeing the innkeeper was not going to prevail with me to rise, flew towards the bed in desperation, and, seizing me by the waist, soon landed me on the floor, saying: "Be ye deil, be ye chiel, ye's no lie there till baith the house an' us be swallowed up!"

The girl Tibby, realizing the innkeeper wasn't going to convince me to get up, rushed over to the bed in frustration, grabbed me by the waist, and quickly pulled me to the floor, saying: "Whether you like it or not, you’re not staying there until both the house and us are gone!"

Her master and mistress applauding the deed, I was obliged to attempt dressing myself, a task to which my powers were quite inadequate in the state I was in, but I was readily assisted by every one of the three; and, as soon as they got my clothes thrust on in a loose way, they shut their eyes lest they should see what might drive them distracted, and thrust me out to the street, cursing me, and calling on the fiends to take their prey and be gone.

Her master and mistress applauding the act, I had to try to get dressed, a task I was completely unprepared for given my condition, but all three of them quickly helped me. As soon as they managed to get my clothes on haphazardly, they closed their eyes to avoid seeing anything that might disturb them, then pushed me out onto the street, cursing me and summoning the demons to take their catch and leave.

The scene that ensued is neither to be described nor believed if it were. I was momently surrounded by a number of hideous fiends, who gnashed on me with their teeth, and clenched their crimson paws in my face; and at the same instant I was seized by the collar of my coat behind, by my dreaded and devoted friend, who pushed me on and, with his gilded rapier waving and brandishing around me, defended me against all their united attacks. Horrible as my assailants were in appearance (and they all had monstrous shapes) I felt that I would rather have fallen into their hands than be thus led away captive by my defender at his will and pleasure without having the right or power to say my life, or any part of my will, was my own. I could not even thank him for his potent guardianship, but hung down my head, and moved on I knew not whither, like a criminal led to execution and still the infernal combat continued till about the dawning, at which time I looked up, and all the fiends were expelled but one, who kept at a distance; and still my persecutor and defender pushed me by the neck before him.

The scene that followed is something I can't fully describe or believe, even if I tried. I was momentarily surrounded by a group of terrifying creatures, teeth bared and bloody claws raised in my face; at the same time, I was grabbed from behind by my feared but loyal friend, who pushed me forward and, with his shining sword waving around me, defended me against all their combined attacks. As horrific as my attackers looked (they all had monstrous forms), I realized I would rather have fallen into their hands than be led away like this by my defender, without any say or control over my own life or choices. I couldn’t even thank him for his strong protection; I just hung my head low and moved forward, not knowing where I was going, like a criminal being taken to execution. The dreadful struggle went on until dawn, at which point I looked up to find that all the creatures had been driven away except for one, who kept his distance; and still, my captor and defender pushed me along by the neck.

At length he desired me to sit down and take some rest, with which I complied, for I had great need of it, and wanted the power to withstand what he desired. There, for a whole morning did he detain me, tormenting me with reflections on the past, and pointing out the horrors of the future, until a thousand times I wished myself non-existent. "I have attached myself to your wayward fortune," said he, "and it has been my ruin as well as thine. Ungrateful as you are, I cannot give you up to be devoured; but this is a life that it is impossible to brook longer. Since our hopes are blasted in this world, and all our schemes of grandeur overthrown; and since our everlasting destiny is settled by a decree which no act of ours can invalidate, let us fall by our own hands, or by the hands of each other; die like heroes; and, throwing off this frame of dross and corruption, mingle with the pure ethereal essence of existence, from which we derived our being."

Eventually, he asked me to sit down and rest, which I did because I really needed it and lacked the strength to resist his wishes. For an entire morning, he kept me there, tormenting me with thoughts of the past and highlighting the horrors of the future, until I wished a thousand times that I didn’t exist. “I’ve tied myself to your unpredictable fate,” he said, “and it has led to my ruin as much as yours. No matter how ungrateful you are, I can’t let you be destroyed; but this life is unbearable. Since our hopes in this world are shattered and all our grand plans have fallen apart, and since our ultimate fate is determined by a decision that we can’t change, let’s choose our own end, or do it together; let’s die like heroes and, shedding this worthless and corrupt body, merge with the pure, ethereal essence of existence from which we were born.”

I shuddered at a view of the dreadful alternative, yet was obliged to confess that in my present circumstances existence was not to be borne. It was in vain that I reasoned on the sinfulness of the deed, and on its damning nature; he made me condemn myself out of my own mouth, by allowing the absolute nature of justifying grace and the impossibility of the elect ever falling from the faith, or the glorious end to which they were called; and then he said, this granted, self-destruction was the act of a hero, and none but a coward would shrink from it, to suffer a hundred times more every day and night that passed over his head.

I shuddered at the thought of the terrible alternative, but I had to admit that given my current situation, life was unbearable. I tried to reason with myself about how sinful the act was and how damning it could be; he made me criticize myself using my own words by discussing the absolute nature of justifying grace and how the elect could never fall from faith or the glorious end they were meant to achieve. Then he said, if that's true, self-destruction is the act of a hero, and only a coward would shrink from it, choosing to endure a hundred times more pain every day and night that went by.

I said I was still contented to be that coward; and all that I begged of him was to leave me to my fortune for a season, and to the just judgement of my Creator; but he said his word and honour were engaged on my behalf, and these, in such a case, were not to be violated. "If you will not pity yourself, have pity on me," added he. "Turn your eyes on me, and behold to what I am reduced."

I said I was still okay with being that coward; all I asked was for him to leave me to my fate for a while and to the fair judgement of my Creator. But he insisted that his word and honor were committed to helping me, and those shouldn’t be broken in this situation. "If you won't feel sorry for yourself, at least have some sympathy for me," he added. "Look at me and see what I've been brought to."

Involuntarily did I turn at the request, and caught a half glance of his features. May no eye destined to reflect the beauties of the New Jerusalem inward upon the beatific soul behold such a sight as mine then beheld! My immortal spirit, blood and bones, were all withered at the blasting sight; and I arose and withdrew, with groanings which the pangs of death shall never wring from me.

Involuntarily, I turned at the request and caught a glimpse of his features. May no eye meant to reflect the beauties of the New Jerusalem onto the blessed soul see such a sight as mine did then! My immortal spirit, flesh and blood, were all withered at that shocking sight; and I got up and walked away, groaning in a way that the pains of death will never force from me.

Not daring to look behind me, I crept on my way, and that night reached this hamlet on the Scottish border; and being grown reckless of danger, and hardened to scenes of horror, I took up my lodging with a poor hind, who is a widower, and who could only accommodate me with a bed of rushes at his fireside. At midnight I heard some strange sounds, too much resembling those to which I had of late been inured; but they kept at a distance, and I was soon persuaded that there was a power protected that house superior to those that contended for or had the mastery over me. Overjoyed at finding such an asylum, I remained in the humble cot. This is the third day I have lived under the roof, freed of my hellish assailants, spending my time in prayer, and writing out this my journal, which I have fashioned to stick in with my printed work, and to which I intend to add portions while I remain in this pilgrimage state, which, I find too well, cannot be long.

Not daring to look behind me, I crept on my way and reached this small village on the Scottish border that night. Having grown reckless about danger and hardened to scenes of horror, I stayed with a poor farmer who is a widower and could only offer me a bed of rushes by his fire. At midnight, I heard some strange sounds, too much like those I had been recently exposed to; however, they stayed at a distance, and I soon felt convinced that there was a protective force in that house stronger than those that had tormented me. Overjoyed to find such a refuge, I remained in the humble cottage. This is the third day I have lived under this roof, free from my terrifying attackers, spending my time in prayer and writing this journal, which I plan to include with my printed work and to which I intend to add more entries while I remain on this journey, which I realize all too well cannot last long.

August 3, 1712.—This morning the hind has brought me word from Redesdale, whither he had been for coals, that a stranger gentleman had been traversing that country, making the most earnest inquiries after me, or one of the same appearance; and, from the description that he brought of this stranger, I could easily perceive who it was. Rejoicing that my tormentor has lost traces of me for once, I am making haste to leave my asylum, on pretence of following this stranger, but in reality to conceal myself still more completely from his search. Perhaps this may be the last sentence ever I am destined to write. If so, farewell, Christian reader! May God grant to thee a happier destiny than has been allotted to me here on earth, and the same assurance of acceptance above! Amen.

August 3, 1712.—This morning, the servant brought me news from Redesdale, where he had gone for coal, that a stranger gentleman has been wandering through the area, asking earnestly about me or someone who looks like me; and from the description he gave of this stranger, I could easily tell who it was. Feeling relieved that my tormentor has lost track of me for once, I’m quickly getting ready to leave my hiding place, pretending to follow this stranger, but really to hide myself even more from his search. This might be the last message I'm meant to write. If so, goodbye, dear reader! May God grant you a happier fate than what I've experienced here on earth, and the same promise of acceptance in the afterlife! Amen.

Ault-Righ, August 24, 1712.—Here am I, set down on the open moor to add one sentence more to my woeful journal; and, then, farewell, all beneath the sun!

Ault-Righ, August 24, 1712.—Here I am, sitting on the open moor to write one more line in my sad journal; and then, goodbye to everything under the sun!

On leaving the hind's cottage on the Border, I hasted to the north-west, because in that quarter I perceived the highest and wildest hills before me. As I crossed the mountains above Hawick, I exchanged clothes with a poor homely shepherd, whom I found lying on a hill-side, singing to himself some woeful love ditty. He was glad of the change, and proud of his saintly apparel; and I was no less delighted with mine, by which I now supposed myself completely disguised; and I found moreover that in this garb of a common shepherd I was made welcome in every house. I slept the first night in a farm-house nigh to the church of Roberton, without hearing or seeing aught extraordinary; yet I observed next morning that all the servants kept aloof from me, and regarded me with looks of aversion. The next night I came to this house, where the farmer engaged me as a shepherd; and, finding him a kind, worthy, and religious man, I accepted of his terms with great gladness. I had not, however, gone many times to the sheep, before all the rest of the shepherds told my master that I knew nothing about herding, and begged of him to dismiss me. He perceived too well the truth of their intelligence; but, being much taken with my learning and religious conversation, he would not put me away, but set me to herd his cattle.

On leaving the hind's cottage on the Border, I hurried northwest, because I noticed the steepest and most rugged hills ahead. As I crossed the mountains near Hawick, I swapped clothes with a poor, simple shepherd I found lying on a hillside, singing a sad love song to himself. He was happy about the exchange and proud of his humble outfit, and I was equally pleased with mine, thinking I was now completely disguised; moreover, I found that in this common shepherd's attire, I was welcomed in every home. I spent my first night in a farmhouse close to the church of Roberton, without noticing anything unusual; however, the next morning, I noticed that all the servants kept their distance from me and looked at me with disdain. The following night, I arrived at this farmhouse, where the farmer hired me as a shepherd; finding him to be a kind, decent, and religious man, I happily accepted his terms. However, I hadn't been tending the sheep for long before the other shepherds told my master that I didn't know anything about herding and asked him to let me go. He recognized the truth in their claims but, impressed by my knowledge and religious discussions, he chose not to dismiss me and instead assigned me to care for his cattle.

It was lucky for me that before I came here a report had prevailed, perhaps for an age, that this farm-house was haunted at certain seasons by a ghost. I say it was lucky for me for I had not been in it many days before the same appalling noises began to prevail around me about midnight, often continuing till near the dawning. Still they kept aloof, and without doors; for this gentleman's house, like the cottage I was in formerly, seemed to be a sanctuary from all demoniacal power. He appears to be a good man and a just, and mocks at the idea of supernatural agency, and he either does not hear these persecuting spirits or will not acknowledge it, though of late he appears much perturbed.

It was fortunate for me that before I arrived here, there had been a long-standing rumor that this farmhouse was haunted at certain times of the year. I say it was fortunate because I hadn't been here many days before the same frightening noises started to surround me around midnight, often continuing until just before dawn. Still, they stayed outside and away from the doors; for this gentleman's house, like the cottage I was in before, seemed to be a refuge from all evil forces. He seems to be a good and fair man, and he laughs off the idea of supernatural activity, and either he doesn’t hear these tormenting spirits or won’t admit to it, though lately he seems quite troubled.

The consternation of the menials has been extreme. They ascribe all to the ghost, and tell frightful stories of murders having been committed there long ago. Of late, however, they are beginning to suspect that it is I that am haunted; and, as I have never given them any satisfactory account of myself, they are whispering that I am a murderer, and haunted by the spirits of those I have slain.

The helpers are really freaked out. They blame everything on the ghost and share terrifying tales of murders that happened a long time ago. Lately, though, they're starting to think that I’m the one who’s haunted; and since I’ve never given them a clear explanation about myself, they’re gossiping that I’m a murderer, haunted by the spirits of those I’ve killed.

August 30.—This day I have been informed that I am to be banished the dwelling-house by night, and to sleep in an outhouse by myself, to try if the family can get any rest when freed of my presence. I have peremptorily refused acquiescence, on which my master's brother struck me, and kicked me with his foot. My body being quite exhausted by suffering, I am grown weak and feeble both in mind and bodily frame, and actually unable to resent any insult or injury. I am the child of earthly misery and despair, if ever there was one existent. My master is still my friend; but there are so many masters here, and everyone of them alike harsh to me, that I wish myself in my grave every hour of the day. If I am driven from the family sanctuary by night, I know I shall be torn in pieces before morning; and then who will deign or dare to gather up my mangled limbs, and give me honoured burial?

August 30.—Today I found out that I’m going to be kicked out of the house at night and have to sleep in an outhouse alone, to see if the family can get some peace without me around. I outright refused to comply, and in response, my master’s brother hit me and kicked me. I’m completely worn out from all the suffering, leaving me weak and fragile, both mentally and physically, and actually unable to stand up for myself against any insults or harm. I am truly a child of misery and hopelessness, more than anyone else alive. My master is still my friend; however, there are so many other masters here, and they're all just as cruel to me, making me wish for death every hour of the day. If I'm forced out of the family home at night, I know I will be torn apart before morning; and then who will bother or dare to collect my broken body and give me a proper burial?

My last hour is arrived: I see my tormentor once more approaching me in this wild. Oh, that the earth would swallow me up, or the hill fall and cover me! Farewell for ever!

My last hour has come: I see my tormentor approaching me again in this wilderness. Oh, how I wish the earth would just swallow me whole, or that the hill would collapse and hide me! Goodbye forever!

September 7, 1712.—My devoted, princely, but sanguine friend has been with me again and again. My time is expired and I find a relief beyond measure, for he has fully convinced me that no act of mine can mar the eternal counsel, or in the smallest degree alter or extenuate one event which was decreed before the foundations of the world were laid. He said he had watched over me with the greatest anxiety, but, perceiving my rooted aversion towards him, he had forborne troubling me with his presence. But now, seeing that I was certainly to be driven from my sanctuary that night, and that there would be a number of infernals watching to make a prey of my body, he came to caution me not to despair, for that he would protect me at all risks, if the power remained with him. He then repeated an ejaculatory prayer, which I was to pronounce, if in great extremity. I objected to the words as equivocal, and susceptible of being rendered in a meaning perfectly dreadful; but he reasoned against this, and all reasoning with him is to no purpose. He said he did not ask me to repeat the words unless greatly straitened; and that I saw his strength and power giving way, and when perhaps nothing else could save me.

September 7, 1712.—My devoted, noble, but overly optimistic friend has been with me time and again. My time is up, and I feel an incredible relief because he has completely convinced me that nothing I do can disrupt the eternal plan or change or lessen any event that was decided before the world even began. He mentioned that he had been watching over me with great concern but, seeing my deep aversion to him, had held back from bothering me with his presence. However, now that it was clear I was going to be forced out of my sanctuary that night, and that there would be a bunch of demons ready to prey on my body, he came to warn me not to lose hope, as he would protect me at all costs, as long as he had the power to do so. Then he recited a short prayer that I was to say in case of extreme danger. I objected to the words as being ambiguous and capable of being interpreted in a truly terrifying way, but he argued against this, and arguing with him is pointless. He said he didn't expect me to say the words unless I was in dire straits, and that I could see his strength and power fading, when perhaps nothing else could save me.

The dreaded hour of night arrived; and, as he said, I was expelled from the family residence, and ordered to a byre, or cow-house, that stood parallel with the dwelling-house behind, where, on a divot loft, my humble bedstead stood, and the cattle grunted and puffed below me. How unlike the splendid halls of Dalcastle! And to what I am now reduced, let the reflecting reader judge. Lord, thou knowest all that I have done for Thy cause on earth! Why then art Thou laying Thy hand so sore upon me? Why hast Thou set me as a butt of Thy malice? But Thy will must be done! Thou wilt repay me in a better world. Amen.

The dreaded hour of night came; and, as he said, I was kicked out of the family home and sent to a cow shed that was next to the house out back, where my simple bed was set up on a loft, and the cows grunted and breathed heavily below me. How different this was from the grand halls of Dalcastle! And to what I have been reduced, let the thoughtful reader decide. Lord, You know everything I have done for Your cause on earth! So why are You punishing me so harshly? Why have You made me a target for Your misfortune? But Your will be done! You will reward me in a better world. Amen.

September 8.—My first night of trial in this place is overpast! Would that it were the last that I should ever see in this detested world! If the horrors of hell are equal to those I have suffered, eternity will be of short duration there, for no created energy can support them for one single month, or week. I have been buffeted as never living creature was. My vitals have all been torn, and every faculty and feeling of my soul racked, and tormented into callous insensibility. I was even hung by the locks over a yawning chasm, to which I could perceive no bottom, and then—not till then, did I repeat the tremendous prayer!—I was instantly at liberty; and what I now am, the Almighty knows! Amen.

September 8.—My first night of trial here is over! I wish it were the last I’d ever experience in this hated world! If the horrors of hell are anything like what I’ve been through, eternity there will feel very short, because no one could endure that for even a month or a week. I’ve been beaten like no living being has ever been. My insides have been torn apart, and every part of my soul has been twisted and tormented into numbness. I was even hung by my hair over a bottomless abyss, and only then did I say the terrifying prayer!—I was instantly set free; and what I am now, the Almighty knows! Amen.

September 18, 1712.—Still am I living, though liker to a vision than a human being; but this is my last day of mortal existence. Unable to resist any longer, I pledged myself to my devoted friend that on this day we should die together, and trust to the charity of the children of men for a grave. I am solemnly pledged; and, though I dared to repent, I am aware he will not be gainsaid, for he is raging with despair at his fallen and decayed majesty, and there is some miserable comfort in the idea that my tormentor shall fall with me. Farewell, world, with all thy miseries; for comforts or enjoyments hast thou none! Farewell, woman, whom I have despised and shunned; and man, whom I have hated; whom, nevertheless, I desire to leave in charity! And thou, sun, bright emblem of a far brighter effulgence, I bid farewell to thee also! I do not now take my last look of thee, for to thy glorious orb shall a poor suicide's last earthly look be raised. But, ah! who is yon that I see approaching furiously, his stern face blackened with horrid despair! My hour is at hand. Almighty God, what is this that I am about to do! The hour of repentance is past, and now my fate is inevitable. Amen, for ever! I will now seal up my little book, and conceal it; and cursed be he who trieth to alter or amend.

September 18, 1712.—I’m still alive, though more like a ghost than a person; but today is my last day on earth. I couldn't hold back any longer, so I promised my devoted friend that we'd die together today and let the kindness of others provide us a grave. I made a solemn vow; and even if I wanted to take it back, I know he won't allow it, as he is consumed by despair over his fallen and decayed glory. There’s some wretched comfort in knowing that my tormentor will fall with me. Goodbye, world, with all your miseries; you offer no comforts or joys! Goodbye, woman, whom I have despised and avoided; and man, whom I have hated; yet still, I want to leave you with kindness! And you, sun, bright symbol of a much brighter light, I say farewell to you too! I won’t take my last look at you now because the last earthly gaze of a poor suicide will be directed to your glorious orb. But, oh! who is that I see coming with fury, his stern face twisted by terrible despair? My time is near. Almighty God, what am I about to do! The time for regret has passed, and now my fate is sealed. Amen, forever! I will now close my little book and hide it; and cursed be anyone who tries to change or fix it.



END OF THE MEMOIR



WHAT can this work be? Sure, you will say, it must be an allegory; or (as the writer calls it) a religious PARABLE, showing the dreadful danger of self-righteousness? I cannot tell. Attend to the sequel: which is a thing so extraordinary, so unprecedented, and so far out of the common course of human events that, if there were not hundreds of living witnesses to attest the truth of it, I would not bid any rational being believe it.

WHAT can this work be? You might say it's an allegory or (as the writer puts it) a religious PARABLE highlighting the serious risks of self-righteousness. I can't say for sure. Pay attention to what follows: it's something so extraordinary, so unprecedented, and so outside the usual flow of human events that, if there weren't countless living witnesses to confirm its truth, I wouldn’t expect any reasonable person to believe it.

In the first place, take the following extract from an authentic letter, published in Blackwood's Magazine for August, 1823.

In the first place, take the following excerpt from a genuine letter, published in Blackwood's Magazine for August, 1823.

"On the top of a wild height called Cowan's-Croft, where the lands of three proprietors meet all at one point, there has been for long and many years the grave of a suicide marked out by a stone standing at the head and another at the feet. Often have I stood musing over it myself, when a shepherd on one of the farms, of which it formed the extreme boundary, and thinking what could induce a young man, who had scarcely reached the prime of life, to brave his Maker, and rush into His presence by an act of his own erring hand, and one so unnatural and preposterous. But it never once occurred to me, as an object of curiosity, to dig up the mouldering bones of the Culprit, which I considered as the most revolting of all objects. The thing was, however, done last month, and a discovery made of one of the greatest natural phenomena that I have heard of in this country.

"At the top of a wild hill called Cowan's-Croft, where the lands of three owners meet at one point, there has long been a grave for a suicide marked by a stone at the head and another at the feet. I often found myself pondering over it, along with a shepherd from one of the farms that borders this spot, wondering what could drive a young man, barely in the prime of his life, to defy his Creator and rush into His presence through such a tragic and unnatural act. But it never crossed my mind, as something to satisfy my curiosity, to dig up the decaying bones of the culprit, which I thought was the most disgusting of all ideas. However, that was done last month, leading to a discovery of one of the greatest natural phenomena I’ve heard of in this country."

"The little traditionary history that remains of this unfortunate youth is altogether a singular one. He was not a native of the place, nor would he ever tell from what place he came; but he was remarkable for a deep, thoughtful, and sullen disposition. There was nothing against his character that anybody knew of here, and he had been a considerable time in the place. The last service he was in was with a Mr. Anderson, of Eltrive (Ault-Righ, the King's Burn), who died about 100 years ago, and who had hired him during the summer to herd a stock of young cattle in Eltrive Hope. It happened one day in the month of September that James Anderson, his master's son, went with this young man to the Hope to divert himself. The herd had his dinner along with him, and about one o'clock, when the boy proposed going home, the former pressed him very hard to stay and take share of his dinner; but the boy refused for fear his parents might be alarmed about him, and said he would go home: on which the herd said to him, 'Then, if ye winna stay with me, James, ye may depend on't I'll cut my throat afore ye come back again.'

"The brief traditional history that remains of this unfortunate young man is quite unique. He wasn’t from around here, and he would never say where he was from; but he was known for his deep, thoughtful, and gloomy nature. There was nothing negative about his character that anyone knew of in this place, and he had been living here for quite some time. The last job he had was with a Mr. Anderson from Eltrive (Ault-Righ, the King's Burn), who passed away around 100 years ago, and who had hired him over the summer to tend a herd of young cattle in Eltrive Hope. One day in September, James Anderson, his employer's son, went with this young man to the Hope for a bit of fun. The herdsman had his lunch with him, and around one o'clock, when the boy suggested going home, the herdsman urged him strongly to stay and share his meal. However, the boy refused for fear his parents might worry about him and said he would go home. To that, the herdsman replied, 'Then, if you won’t stay with me, James, you can bet I'll cut my throat before you come back again.'"

"I have heard it likewise reported, but only by one person, that there had been some things stolen out of his master's house a good while before, and that the boy had discovered a silver knife and fork that was a part of the stolen property, in the herd's possession that day, and that it was this discovery that drove him to despair.

"I’ve also heard from one person that some things were stolen from his master’s house a while back, and that the boy found a silver knife and fork, which were part of the stolen items, in the herd's possession that day, and it was this discovery that made him feel hopeless."

"The boy did not return to the Hope that afternoon; and, before evening, a man coming in at the pass called The Hart Loup, with a drove of lambs, on the way for Edinburgh, perceived something like a man standing in a strange frightful position at the side of one of Eldinhope hay-ricks. The driver's attention was riveted on this strange uncouth figure, and, as the drove-road passed at no great distance from the spot, he first called, but, receiving no answer, he went up to the spot, and behold it was the above-mentioned young man, who had hung himself in the hay rope that was tying down the rick.

The boy didn’t come back to the Hope that afternoon, and before evening, a man entered through the pass called The Hart Loup, driving a flock of lambs to Edinburgh. He noticed something like a man standing in an odd, terrifying position beside one of the Eldinhope hay-ricks. The driver focused on this strange figure, and since the drove-road was not far from the spot, he first called out, but when he got no response, he went over to investigate. To his horror, it was the young man who had hanged himself with the hay rope that was securing the rick.

"This was accounted a great wonder; and everyone said, if the Devil had not assisted him, it was impossible the thing could have been done; for, in general, these ropes are so brittle, being made of green hay, that they will scarcely bear to be bound over the rick. And, the more to horrify the good people of this neighbourhood, the driver said, when he first came in view, he could almost give his oath that he saw two people busily engaged at the hay-rick going round it and round it, and he thought they were dressing it.

"This was considered a huge surprise; and everyone said that if the Devil hadn’t helped him, it would have been impossible to do it. In general, these ropes are so delicate, made from green hay, that they can barely hold up when wrapped around the rick. To further shock the good folks in the neighborhood, the driver claimed that when he first spotted it, he could almost swear he saw two people actively working at the hay-rick, going around and around it, and he thought they were preparing it."

"If this asseveration approximated at all to truth, it makes this evident at least, that the unfortunate young man had hanged himself after the man with the lambs came in view. He was, however, quite dead when he cut him down. He had fastened two of the old hay-ropes at the bottom of the rick on one side (indeed, they are all fastened so when first laid on) so that he had nothing to do but to loosen two of the ends on the other side. These he had tied in a knot round his neck, and then slackening his knees, and letting himself down gradually, till the hay-rope bore all his weight, he had contrived to put an end to his existence in that way. Now the fact is, that, if you try all the ropes that are thrown over all the out-field hay-ricks in Scotland, there is not one among a thousand of them will hang a colley dog; so that the manner of this wretch's death was rather a singular circumstance.

"If this statement is even close to the truth, it clearly shows that the unfortunate young man hung himself after the man with the lambs came into view. However, he was already dead when they cut him down. He had fastened two of the old hay ropes at the bottom of the rick on one side (in fact, they are all secured that way when first laid on) so that he only needed to untie two ends on the other side. He tied these around his neck, then loosened his knees and lowered himself gradually until the hay rope bore all his weight, effectively ending his life that way. The fact is, if you try all the ropes thrown over hay ricks in Scotland, fewer than one in a thousand would even hang a collie dog; thus, the way this man died was quite unusual."

"Early next morning, Mr. Anderson's servants went reluctantly away, and, taking an old blanket with them for a winding sheet, they rolled up the body of the deceased, first in his own plaid, letting the hay-rope still remain about his neck, and then, rolling the old blanket over all, they bore the loathed remains away to the distance of three miles or so, on spokes, to the top of Cowan's-Croft, at the very point where the Duke of Buccleuch's land, the Laird of Drummelzier's, and Lord Napier's meet, and there they buried him, with all that he had on and about him, silver knife and fork and altogether. Thus far went tradition, and no one ever disputed one jot of the disgusting oral tale.

"Early the next morning, Mr. Anderson's servants set out reluctantly, taking an old blanket with them to use as a shroud. They wrapped the body of the deceased first in his own plaid, leaving the hay-rope still around his neck, and then covered everything with the old blanket. They carried the unwanted remains about three miles to the top of Cowan's-Croft, where the lands of the Duke of Buccleuch, the Laird of Drummelzier, and Lord Napier meet. There, they buried him with everything he had on and with him, including his silver knife and fork. This is how the story goes, and no one has ever questioned any part of this disgusting tale."

"A nephew of that Mr. Anderson's who was with the hapless youth that day he died says that, as far as he can gather from the relations of friends that he remembers, and of that same uncle in particular, it is one hundred and five years next month (that is September, 1823) since that event happened; and I think it likely that this gentleman's information is correct. But sundry other people, much older than he, whom I have consulted, pretend that it is six or seven years more. They say they have heard that Mr. James Anderson was then a boy ten years of age; that he lived to an old age, upwards of fourscore, and it is two and forty years since he died. Whichever way it may be, it was about that period some way: of that there is no doubt.

A nephew of Mr. Anderson, who was with the unfortunate young man on the day he died, says that, as far as he can tell from what friends and particularly that same uncle remember, it will be one hundred and five years next month (September 1823) since that event took place; and I think it’s likely that this guy's information is accurate. However, several other people, much older than him, whom I’ve asked, claim it’s six or seven years more. They say they heard Mr. James Anderson was a boy ten years old back then; he lived to be very old, over eighty, and it’s been forty-two years since he passed away. Either way, it was around that time for sure: there’s no doubt about that.

"It so happened that two young men, William Shiel and W. Sword, were out on an adjoining height this summer, casting peats, and it came into their heads to open this grave in the wilderness, and see if there were any of the bones of the suicide of former ages and centuries remaining. They did so, but opened only one half of the grave, beginning at the head and about the middle at the same time. It was not long till they came upon the old blanket—I think, they said not much more than a foot from the surface. They tore that open, and there was the hay-rope lying stretched down alongst his breast, so fresh that they saw at first sight that it was made of risp, a sort of long sword-grass that grows about marshes and the sides of lakes. One of the young men seized the rope and pulled by it, but the old enchantment of the Devil remained—it would not break; and so he pulled and pulled at it, till behold the body came up into a sitting posture, with a broad blue bonnet on its head, and its plaid around it, all as fresh as that day it was laid in! I never heard of a preservation so wonderful, if it be true as was related to me, for still I have not had the curiosity to go and view the body myself. The features were all so plain that an acquaintance might easily have known him. One of the lads gripped the face of the corpse with his finger and thumb, and the cheeks felt quite soft and fleshy, but the dimples remained and did not spring out again. He had fine yellow hair, about nine inches long; but not a hair of it could they pull out till they cut part of it off with a knife. They also cut off some portions of his clothes, which were all quite fresh, and distributed them among their acquaintances, sending a portion to me, among the rest, to keep as natural curiosities. Several gentlemen have in a manner forced me to give them fragments of these enchanted garments: I have, however, retained a small portion for you, which I send along with this, being a piece of his plaid, and another of his waistcoat breast, which you will see are still as fresh as that day they were laid in the grave.

"It just so happened that two young men, William Shiel and W. Sword, were out on a nearby hill this summer, harvesting peat, when they thought it would be interesting to dig up a grave in the wilderness and see if any bones from a long-ago suicide were still there. They did it, but only opened one half of the grave, starting from the head and the middle at the same time. It didn’t take long before they found an old blanket—probably not more than a foot from the surface. They tore it open, and there was a hay-rope lying along his chest, still looking fresh enough that they could tell it was made of risp, a type of sword-grass that grows in marshes and by lakes. One of the young men grabbed the rope and tried to pull it, but the old enchantment of the Devil remained—it wouldn’t break; so he kept tugging at it until, surprise, the body rose into a sitting position, with a broad blue bonnet on its head and its plaid wrapped around it, looking just as fresh as the day it was buried! I’ve never heard of such a remarkable preservation, if it’s true as they told me, since I still haven’t been curious enough to go see the body myself. The features were so clear that an acquaintance could have recognized him easily. One of the guys pinched the corpse’s face with his fingers, and the cheeks felt soft and fleshy, but the dimples stayed and didn’t pop back out. He had beautiful yellow hair, about nine inches long; but they couldn’t pull a single hair out until they cut some of it with a knife. They also cut off bits of his clothes, which were all still quite fresh, and shared them with their friends, sending a piece to me as well to keep as a natural curiosity. Several gentlemen have practically forced me to give them scraps of these enchanted garments, but I’ve kept a small piece for you, which I’m sending with this letter—a piece of his plaid and another from his waistcoat, which you can see are still as fresh as the day they were buried."

"His broad blue bonnet was sent to Edinburgh several weeks ago, to the great regret of some gentlemen connected with the land, who wished to have it for a keep-sake. For my part, fond as I am of blue bonnets, and broad ones in particular, I declare I durst not have worn that one. There was nothing of the silver knife and fork discovered, that I heard of, nor was it very likely it should; but it would appear he had been very near run out of cash, which I daresay had been the cause of his utter despair; for, on searching his pockets, nothing was found but three old Scotch halfpennies. These young men meeting with another shepherd afterwards, his curiosity was so much excited that they went and digged up the curious remains a second time, which was a pity, as it is likely that by these exposures to the air, and the impossibility of burying it up again as closely as it was before, the flesh will now fall to dust."

"His broad blue bonnet was sent to Edinburgh several weeks ago, much to the regret of some local gentlemen who wanted to keep it as a memento. Personally, as much as I love blue bonnets, especially the broad ones, I wouldn’t have dared to wear that one. There was no sign of the silver knife and fork that I heard of, nor was it likely to be found; but it seems he was very close to running out of money, which I’m sure caused his utter despair. When they searched his pockets, they found nothing except for three old Scotch halfpennies. Later, these young men met another shepherd, and his curiosity was piqued, so they went and dug up the interesting remains a second time, which was unfortunate, as exposing them to the air, and the inability to bury them as well as before, will likely cause the flesh to turn to dust now."

The letter from which the above is an extract, is signed JAMES HOGG, and dated from Altrive Lake, August 1st, 1823. It bears the stamp of authenticity in every line; yet so often had I been hoaxed by the ingenious fancies displayed in that Magazine, that when this relation met my eye I did not believe it; but, from the moment that I perused it, I half formed the resolution of investigating these wonderful remains personally, if any such existed; for, in the immediate vicinity of the scene, as I supposed, I knew of more attractive metal than the dilapidated remains of mouldering suicides.

The letter from which the above is taken is signed JAMES HOGG, and dated from Altrive Lake, August 1st, 1823. It has the stamp of authenticity in every line; however, I had been tricked so many times by the clever stories published in that Magazine that I didn’t believe it at first. But from the moment I read it, I was determined to personally investigate these astonishing remains, if they really existed. I knew of more compelling metal than the crumbling remnants of decaying suicides in the nearby area where I thought it had happened.

Accordingly, having some business in Edinburgh in September last, and being obliged to wait a few days for the arrival of a friend from London, I took that opportunity to pay a visit to my townsman and fellow collegian, Mr. L—t of C—d, advocate. I mentioned to him Hogg's letter, asking him if the statement was founded at all on truth. His answer was: "I suppose so. For my part I never doubted the thing, having been told that there has been a deal of talking about it up in the Forest for some time past. But God knows! Hogg has imposed as ingenious lies on the public ere now."

Accordingly, I had some business in Edinburgh last September, and since I had to wait a few days for a friend from London to arrive, I took that chance to visit my fellow townsman and college mate, Mr. L—t of C—d, who is a lawyer. I brought up Hogg's letter and asked him if there was any truth to what it said. He replied, "I guess so. Personally, I never doubted it, since I've heard there's been a lot of talk about it in the Forest for a while now. But who knows! Hogg has pulled some clever lies on the public before."

I said, if it was within reach, I should like exceedingly to visit both the Shepherd and the Scotch mummy he had described. Mr. L—t assented on the first proposal, saying he had no objections to take a ride that length with me, and make the fellow produce his credentials. That we would have a delightful jaunt through a romantic and now classical country, and some good sport into the bargain, provided he could procure a horse for me, from his father-in-law, next day. He sent up to a Mr. L—w to inquire, who returned for answer that there was an excellent pony at my service, and that he himself would accompany us, being obliged to attend a great sheep-fair at Thirlestane; and that he was certain the Shepherd would be there likewise.

I said that if it was possible, I would really love to visit both the Shepherd and the Scottish mummy he had mentioned. Mr. L—t agreed to the first idea, saying he had no problem taking a ride that far with me and making the guy show his credentials. We would have a great trip through a beautiful and now classic countryside, and maybe even some good fun, as long as he could get me a horse from his father-in-law the next day. He reached out to a Mr. L—w to check, who replied that there was an excellent pony available for me, and that he would join us since he had to attend a big sheep fair at Thirlestane; he was sure the Shepherd would be there too.

Mr. L—t said that was the very man we wanted to make our party complete; and at an early hour next morning we started for the ewe-fair of Thirlestane, taking Blackwood's Magazine for August along with us. We rode through the ancient royal burgh of Selkirk, halted and corned our horses at a romantic village, nigh to some deep linns on the Ettrick, and reached the market ground at Thirlestane-green a little before mid-day. We soon found Hogg, standing near the foot of the market, as he called it, beside a great drove of paulies, a species of stock that I never heard of before. They were small sheep, striped on the backs with red chalk. Mr. L—t introduced me to him as a great wool-stapler, come to raise the price of that article; but he eyed me with distrust, and, turning his back on us, answered: "I hae sell'd mine."

Mr. L—t said that was exactly the person we needed to complete our group; so, early the next morning, we headed to the ewe-fair at Thirlestane, taking along Blackwood's Magazine for August. We rode through the historic royal burgh of Selkirk, stopped to rest our horses in a charming village near some deep ravines on the Ettrick, and arrived at the market grounds at Thirlestane-green just before noon. We quickly spotted Hogg, standing near the bottom of the market, as he called it, next to a large herd of "paulies," a type of livestock I had never heard of before. They were small sheep with red chalk stripes on their backs. Mr. L—t introduced me as a significant wool dealer there to raise the price of wool; but Hogg looked at me suspiciously, turned his back to us, and replied, "I’ve sold mine."

I followed, and, shewing him the above-quoted letter, said I was exceedingly curious to have a look of these singular remains he had so ingeniously described; but he only answered me with the remark that "It was a queer fancy for a wool-stapler to tak."

I followed and, showing him the letter I just mentioned, said I was really curious to see those unique remains he had so cleverly described; but he just replied with the comment that "It was a weird idea for a wool dealer to have."

His two friends then requested him to accompany us to the spot, and to take some of his shepherds with us to assist in raising the body; but he spurned at the idea, saying: "Od bless ye, lad! I hae ither matters to mind. I hae a' thae paulies to sell, an', a' yon Highland stotts down on the green, every ane; an' then I hae ten scores o' yowes to buy after, an', If I canna first sell my ain stock, I canna buy nae ither body's. I hae mair ado than I can manage the day, foreby ganging to houk up hunder-year-auld-banes."

His two friends then asked him to come with them to the site and to bring some of his shepherds to help lift the body, but he rejected the idea, saying: "Oh bless you, lad! I have other things to take care of. I’ve got all those sheep to sell, and all those Highland cattle down on the green, every single one; and then I have to buy a hundred sheep after that, and if I can’t sell my own first, I can’t buy anyone else’s. I have more to do than I can handle today, besides going to dig up centuries-old bones."

Finding that we could make nothing of him, we left him with his paulies, Highland stotts, grey jacket, and broad blue bonnet, to go in search of some other guide. L—w soon found one, for he seemed acquainted with every person in the fair. We got a fine old shepherd, named W—m B—e, a great original, and a very obliging and civil man, who asked no conditions but that we should not speak of it, because he did not wish it to come to his master's ears that he had been engaged in sic a profane thing. We promised strict secrecy; and accompanied by another farmer, Mr. S—t, and old B—e, we proceeded to the grave, which B—e described as about a mile and a half distant from the market ground.

Finding that we couldn’t make anything of him, we left him with his small ponies, Highland cattle, grey jacket, and broad blue hat, to search for another guide. L—w quickly found one, as he seemed to know everyone at the fair. We got a great old shepherd named W—m B—e, a real character, and a very helpful and polite man, who only asked that we not mention it because he didn’t want his master to know he had been involved in such a disrespectful thing. We promised to keep it a secret; and along with another farmer, Mr. S—t, and old B—e, we headed to the grave, which B—e said was about a mile and a half from the market area.

We went into the shepherd's cot to get a drink of milk, when I read to our guide Mr. Hogg's description, asking him if he thought it correct. He said there was hardly a bit o't correct, for the grave was not on the hill of Cowan's-Croft nor yet on the point where three lairds' lands met, but on the top of a hill called the Faw-Law, where there was no land that was not the Duke of Buccleuch's within a quarter of a mile. He added that it was a wonder how the poet could be mistaken there, who once herded the very ground where the grave is, and saw both hills from his own window. Mr. L—w testified great surprise at such a singular blunder, as also how the body came not to be buried at the meeting of three or four lairds' lands, which had always been customary in the south of Scotland. Our guide said he had always heard it reported that the Eltrive men, with Mr. David Anderson at their head, had risen before day on the Monday morning, it having been on the Sabbath day that the man put down himself; and that they set out with the intention of burying him on Cowan's-Croft, where the three marches met at a point. But, it having been an invariable rule to bury such lost sinners before the rising of the sun, these five men were overtaken by day-light, as they passed the house of Berry-Knowe; and, by the time they reached the top of the Faw-Law, the sun was beginning to skair the east. On this they laid down the body, and digged a deep grave with all expedition; but, when they had done, it was too short, and, the body being stiff, it would not go down; on which Mr. David Anderson, looking to the east and perceiving that the sun would be up on them in a few minutes, set his foot on the suicide's brow, and tramped down his head into the grave with his iron-heeled shoe, until the nose and skull crashed again, and at the same time uttered a terrible curse on the wretch who had disgraced the family and given them all this trouble. This anecdote, our guide said, he had heard when a boy, from the mouth of Robert Laidlaw, one of the five men who buried the body.

We went into the shepherd's cottage to get a drink of milk when I read our guide Mr. Hogg's description and asked him if he thought it was accurate. He said there was hardly anything correct about it, because the grave wasn't on the hill of Cowan's Croft or at the point where three landowners' lands met, but on top of a hill called the Faw-Law, where all the land within a quarter mile belonged to the Duke of Buccleuch. He added that it was surprising how the poet could be mistaken, considering he once tended the very ground where the grave is and could see both hills from his own window. Mr. L—w expressed great surprise at such a peculiar mistake, as well as the fact that the body wasn't buried at the meeting point of three or four landowners' lands, which had always been the custom in southern Scotland. Our guide said he had always heard that the Eltrive men, led by Mr. David Anderson, had set out before dawn on Monday morning, since it was on Sunday that the man had taken his own life; their intention was to bury him on Cowan's Croft, where the three boundaries met. However, since it was a standard rule to bury such lost souls before sunrise, these five men were caught by daylight while passing the house of Berry-Knowe, and by the time they reached the top of the Faw-Law, the sun was starting to rise in the east. So, they laid down the body and hurriedly dug a deep grave; but when they finished, it was too short and, because the body was stiff, it wouldn't go down. At this, Mr. David Anderson looked to the east and realized the sun would be up in just a few moments, so he put his foot on the suicide's forehead and stomped down his head into the grave with his iron-heeled shoe until the nose and skull cracked. At the same time, he uttered a terrible curse on the wretch who had shamed the family and caused them all this trouble. Our guide said he heard this story as a boy from Robert Laidlaw, one of the five men who buried the body.

We soon reached the spot, and I confess I felt a singular sensation when I saw the grey stone standing at the head, and another at the feet, and the one half of the grave manifestly new-digged, and closed up again as had been described. I could still scarcely deem the thing to be a reality, for the ground did not appear to be wet, but a kind of dry rotten moss. On looking around, we found some fragments of clothes, some teeth, and part of a pocket-book, which had not been returned into the grave when the body had been last raised, for it had been twice raised before this, but only from the loins upward.

We soon arrived at the spot, and I have to admit I felt a strange sensation when I saw the gray stone at the head, another at the feet, and one half of the grave clearly recently dug up and then filled in again as had been described. I could hardly believe it was real, because the ground didn’t seem wet, but more like dry, decayed moss. Looking around, we found some scraps of clothing, some teeth, and part of a pocketbook, which hadn’t been returned to the grave when the body was last taken out. It had been taken out twice before this, but only from the waist up.

To work we fell with two spades, and soon cleared away the whole of the covering. The part of the grave that had been opened before was filled with mossy mortar, which impeded us exceedingly, and entirely prevented a proper investigation of the fore parts of the body. I will describe everything as I saw it before our respectable witnesses, whose names I shall publish at large if permitted. A number of the bones came up separately; for, with the constant flow of liquid stuff into the deep grave, we could not see to preserve them in their places. At length great loads of coarse clothes, blanketing, plaiding, etc. appeared; we tried to lift these regularly up, and, on doing so, part of a skeleton came up, but no flesh, save a little that was hanging in dark flitters about the spine, but which had no consistence; it was merely the appearance of flesh without the substance. The head was wanting, and, I being very anxious to possess the skull, the search was renewed among the mortar and rags. We first found a part of the scalp, with the long hair firm on it; which, on being cleaned, is neither black nor fair, but a darkish dusk, the most common of any other colour. Soon afterwards we found the skull, but it was not complete. A spade had damaged it, and one of the temple quarters was wanting. I am no phrenologist, not knowing one organ from another, but I thought the skull of that wretched man no study. If it was particular for anything, it was for a smooth, almost perfect rotundity, with only a little protuberance above the vent of the ear.

To work, we got two shovels and quickly cleared away all the covering. The part of the grave that had been opened before was filled with mossy mortar, which made things really difficult for us and completely stopped us from properly examining the front parts of the body. I’ll describe everything as I saw it before our respected witnesses, whose names I’ll share in full if I get permission. Many of the bones came up separately; because of the continuous flow of liquid stuff into the deep grave, we couldn't preserve them in their places. Eventually, we uncovered large amounts of coarse clothing, blankets, plaids, etc. We tried to lift these carefully, and while doing so, part of a skeleton came up, but no flesh, except for a little that was hanging in dark scraps around the spine, which had no substance; it was just the look of flesh without any real material. The head was missing, and since I was eager to find the skull, we started searching again among the mortar and rags. We first found a piece of the scalp, with long hair still attached; when cleaned, it wasn’t black or blonde, but a darkish hue, which is more common than any other color. Soon after, we found the skull, but it wasn’t whole. A shovel had damaged it, and part of the temple was missing. I’m not a phrenologist and can’t tell one part from another, but I thought the skull of that unfortunate man was unremarkable. If it stood out for anything, it was for its smooth, nearly perfect roundness, with just a slight bump above the ear.

When we came to that part of the grave that had never been opened before, the appearance of everything was quite different. There the remains lay under a close vault of moss, and within a vacant space; and I suppose, by the digging in the former part of the grave, the part had been deepened, and drawn the moisture away from this part, for here all was perfect. The breeches still suited the thigh, the stocking the leg, and the garters were wrapt as neatly and as firm below the knee as if they had been newly tied. The shoes were all open in the seams, the hemp having decayed, but the soles, upper leathers and wooden heels, which were made of birch, were all as fresh as any of those we wore. There was one thing I could not help remarking, that in the inside of one of the shoes there was a layer of cow's dung, about one-eighth of an inch thick, and in the hollow of the sole fully one-fourth of an inch. It was firm, green, and fresh; and proved that he had been working in a byre. His clothes were all of a singular ancient cut, and no less singular in their texture. Their durability certainly would have been prodigious; for in thickness, coarseness, and strength, I never saw any cloth in the smallest degree to equal them. His coat was a frock coat, of a yellowish drab colour, with wide sleeves. It is tweeled, milled, and thicker than a carpet. I cut off two of the skirts and brought them with me. His vest was of striped serge, such as I have often seen worn by country people. It was lined and backed with white stuff. The breeches were a sort of striped plaiding, which I never saw worn, but which our guide assured us was very common in the country once, though, from the old clothes which he had seen remaining of it, he judged that it could not be less than 200 years since it was in fashion. His garters were of worsted, and striped with black or blue; his stockings grey, and wanting the feet. I brought samples of all along with me. I have likewise now got possession of the bonnet, which puzzles me most of all. It is not conformable with the rest of the dress. It is neither a broad bonnet nor a Border bonnet; for there is an open behind, for tying, which no genuine Border bonnet I am told ever had. It seems to have been a Highland bonnet, worn in a flat way, like a scone on the crown, such as is sometimes still seen in the West of Scotland. All the limbs, from the loins to the toes, seemed perfect and entire, but they could not bear handling. Before we got them returned again into the grave they were shaken to pieces, except the thighs, which continued to retain a kind of flabby form.

When we reached the part of the grave that had never been opened before, everything looked completely different. The remains lay under a thick layer of moss, inside a hollow space; and I guess that by digging in the earlier part of the grave, it had been deepened and drawn moisture away from this section, because everything here was well-preserved. The pants still fit the thigh, the stockings the leg, and the garters were wrapped as neatly and tightly below the knee as if they had just been tied. The shoes were all split at the seams, the hemp having rotted away, but the soles, upper leather, and wooden heels, made of birch, were as fresh as any we wore. One thing I couldn’t help but notice was that inside one of the shoes, there was a layer of cow dung about one-eighth of an inch thick, and in the hollow of the sole, nearly a quarter of an inch thick. It was solid, green, and fresh, indicating that he had been working in a cow shed. His clothes had a uniquely old style and were equally peculiar in their fabric. Their durability was certainly extraordinary; in thickness, coarseness, and strength, I had never encountered any fabric that compared. His coat was a frock coat, a yellowish drab color, with wide sleeves. It was tweed, thick, and sturdier than a carpet. I cut off two pieces from the bottom and took them with me. His vest was made of striped serge, which I often see worn by country folks. It was lined and backed with white fabric. The pants were a kind of striped plaid that I had never seen worn, but our guide assured us it used to be very common in the country, estimating it had been out of fashion for at least 200 years based on the old remnants he had seen. His garters were made of worsted and striped black or blue; his stockings were gray but missing the feet. I took samples of everything with me. I also now have the bonnet, which confuses me the most. It doesn’t match the rest of the outfit. It’s neither a wide bonnet nor a Border bonnet; it has an opening in the back for tying, which, I’ve been told, is not found in a genuine Border bonnet. It appears to be a Highland bonnet, worn flat on the top like a scone, similar to what is still seen in the West of Scotland. All the limbs, from the hips to the toes, seemed complete and intact, but they couldn’t withstand handling. Before we returned them to the grave, they crumbled apart, except for the thighs, which maintained a kind of flabby shape.

All his clothes that were sewed with linen yarn were lying in separate portions, the thread having rotten; but such as were sewed with worsted remained perfectly firm and sound. Among such a confusion, we had hard work to find out all his pockets, and our guide supposed that, after all, we did not find above the half of them. In his vest pocket was a long clasp-knife, very sharp; the haft was thin, and the scales shone as if there had been silver inside. Mr. Sc—t took it with him, and presented it to his neighbour, Mr. R—n, of W—n L—e, who still has it in his possession. We found a comb, a gimblet, a vial, a small neat square board, a pair of plated knee-buckles, and several samples of cloth of different kinds, rolled neatly up within one another. At length, while we were busy on the search, Mr. L—t picked up a leathern case, which seemed to have been wrapped round and round by some ribbon, or cord, that had been rotten from it, for the swaddling marks still remained. Both L—w and B—e called out that "it was the tobacco spleuchan, and a well-filled ane too"; but, on opening it out, we found, to our great astonishment, that it contained a printed pamphlet. We were all curious to see what sort of a pamphlet such a person would read; what it could contain that he seemed to have had such a care about. For the slough in which it was rolled was fine chamois leather; what colour it had been could not be known. But the pamphlet was wrapped so close together, and so damp, rotten, and yellow that it seemed one solid piece. We all concluded from some words that we could make out that it was a religious tract, but that it would be impossible to make anything of it. Mr. L—w remarked marked that it was a great pity if a few sentences could not be made out, for that it was a question what might be contained in that little book; and then he requested Mr. L—t to give it to me, as he had so many things of literature and law to attend to that he would never think more of it. He replied that either of us were heartily welcome to it, for that he had thought of returning it into the grave, if he could have made out but a line or two, to have seen what was its tendency.

All his clothes made from linen yarn were scattered in different pieces because the thread had rotted, but the ones made from worsted were still intact and fine. In such a mess, we struggled to find all his pockets, and our guide guessed that we only discovered about half of them. In his vest pocket, we found a long, sharp clasp knife; the handle was thin, and it looked like there was silver inside it. Mr. Sc—t took it and gave it to his neighbor, Mr. R—n, of W—n L—e, who still has it. We also found a comb, a gimlet, a vial, a small neat square board, a pair of plated knee buckles, and several neatly rolled samples of different fabrics. Eventually, while we were searching, Mr. L—t came across a leather case that seemed to have been wrapped in some ribbon or cord that had rotted away, leaving behind the marks. Both L—w and B—e shouted that it was the tobacco pouch, and a well-filled one too; but when we opened it, to our surprise, it contained a printed pamphlet. We were all curious about what kind of pamphlet someone like him would read and why he seemed to care so much about it. The leather it was wrapped in was fine chamois leather; we couldn't tell what color it had been. But the pamphlet was so tightly wrapped and so damp, rotten, and yellow that it felt like one solid piece. We all figured out from a few words that it was a religious tract, but that it would be impossible to make sense of it. Mr. L—w commented that it was a shame that we couldn't make out a few sentences because it raised questions about what might be in that little book. He then asked Mr. L—t to give it to me since he had too many literature and law matters to handle and would never think about it again. Mr. L—t replied that either of us was welcome to it, mentioning that he had considered returning it to the grave if he could have deciphered even a line or two to see what it was about.

"Grave, man!" exclaimed L—w, who speaks excellent strong broad Scotch. "My truly, but ye grave weel! I wad esteem the contents o' that spleuchan as the most precious treasure. I'll tell you what it is, sir: I hae often wondered how it was that this man's corpse has been miraculously preserved frae decay, a hunder times langer than any other body's, or than ever a tanner's. But now I could wager a guinea it has been for the preservation o' that little book. And Lord kens what may be in't! It will maybe reveal some mystery that mankind disna ken naething about yet."

"Seriously, man!" exclaimed L—w, who speaks excellent strong broad Scottish. "I really think you've got something amazing there! I would consider the contents of that little pouch to be the most valuable treasure. Let me tell you, sir: I've often wondered how this man's body has been miraculously preserved from decay, much longer than any other body, or even longer than a tanner's. But now I could bet a guinea that it's because of that little book. And God knows what might be in it! It could possibly reveal some mystery that humanity doesn't know anything about yet."

"If there be any mysteries in it," returned the other, "it is not for your handling, my dear friend, who are too much taken up about mysteries already." And with these words he presented the mysterious pamphlet to me. With very little trouble, save that of a thorough drying, I unrolled it all with ease, and found the very tract which I have here ventured to lay before the public, part of it in small bad print, and the remainder in manuscript. The title page is written and is as follows:

"If there are any mysteries in it," replied the other, "it’s not for you to deal with, my dear friend, since you're already too preoccupied with mysteries." And with that, he handed me the mysterious pamphlet. After minimal effort, just needing to dry it out thoroughly, I easily unrolled it and found the very document I’m now trying to share with the public, part of it in small, poorly printed text and the rest in handwriting. The title page is handwritten and reads as follows:

THE PRIVATE MEMOIRS
AND CONFESSIONS
OF A JUSTIFIED SINNER:

WRITTEN BY HIMSELF

Fideli certa merces.

And, alongst the head, it is the same as given in the present edition of the work. I altered the title to A Self-justified Sinner, but my booksellers did not approve of it; and, there being a curse pronounced by the writer on him that should dare to alter or amend, I have let it stand as it is. Should it be thought to attach discredit to any received principle of our Church, I am blameless. The printed part ends at page 201 and the rest is in a fine old hand, extremely small and close. I have ordered the printer to procure a facsimile of it, to be bound in with the volume. [v. Frontispiece.]

And, at the top, it’s the same as what’s shown in the current edition of the work. I changed the title to A Self-justified Sinner, but my publishers didn't like it; and since there’s a curse included by the author against anyone who dares to change or edit, I’ve left it as it is. If it’s seen as casting doubt on any accepted principle of our Church, I take no responsibility. The printed section ends on page 201 and the rest is written in a beautiful old style, very small and tightly spaced. I've asked the printer to make a facsimile of it to be included with the book. [v. Frontispiece.]

With regard to the work itself, I dare not venture a judgment, for I do not understand it. I believe no person, man or woman, will ever peruse it with the same attention that I have done, and yet I confess that I do not comprehend the writer's drift. It is certainly impossible that these scenes could ever have occurred that he describes as having himself transacted. I think it may be possible that he had some hand in the death of his brother, and yet I am disposed greatly to doubt it; and the numerous traditions, etc. which remain of that event may be attributable to the work having been printed and burnt, and of course the story known to all the printers, with their families and gossips. That the young Laird of Dalcastle came by a violent death, there remains no doubt; but that this wretch slew him, there is to me a good deal. However, allowing this to have been the case, I account all the rest either dreaming or madness; or, as he says to Mr. Watson, a religious parable, on purpose to illustrate something scarcely tangible, but to which he seems to have attached great weight. Were the relation at all consistent with reason, it corresponds so minutely with traditionary facts that it could scarcely have missed to have been received as authentic; but in this day, and with the present generation, it will not go down that a man should be daily tempted by the Devil, in the semblance of a fellow-creature; and at length lured to self-destruction, in the hopes that this same fiend and tormentor was to suffer and fall along with him. It was a bold theme for an allegory, and would have suited that age well had it been taken up by one fully qualified for the task, which this writer was not. In short, we must either conceive him not only the greatest fool, but the greatest wretch, on whom was ever stamped the form of humanity; or, that he was a religious maniac, who wrote and wrote about a deluded creature, till he arrived at that height of madness that he believed himself the very object whom he had been all along describing. And, in order to escape from an ideal tormentor, committed that act for which, according to the tenets he embraced, there was no remission, and which consigned his memory and his name to everlasting detestation.

Regarding the work itself, I don't feel qualified to judge it because I don't understand it. I believe no one, man or woman, will ever read it with the same attention that I have, yet I admit that I don't grasp the author's intent. It's certainly hard to believe that the events he describes actually happened. I think it’s possible he had some involvement in his brother's death, but I'm really inclined to doubt it; the many accounts that exist about that event might be due to the work being printed and then burned, which meant that the story spread among printers, their families, and gossipers. There's no question that the young Laird of Dalcastle died a violent death; however, whether this man killed him is debatable. Still, if that's true, I see everything else as either a dream or madness; or, as he tells Mr. Watson, a religious allegory meant to illustrate something abstract, to which he seems to have attached a lot of importance. If the narrative were any consistent with reason, it aligns so closely with traditional facts that it could hardly be dismissed as authentic. But nowadays, with the current generation, it's hard to accept that a man would be tempted daily by the Devil in the form of another person and eventually led to self-destruction, believing that this same tormentor would suffer alongside him. It was a daring theme for an allegory, and it would have fit that era perfectly if someone truly qualified had tackled it, which this author was not. Essentially, we must either picture him as not just the greatest fool but the greatest wretch ever to bear the form of humanity; or as a religious madman who wrote obsessively about a deluded character until he reached such madness that he believed he was the very figure he had been describing. And in trying to escape an imagined tormentor, he committed an act for which, according to his beliefs, there was no forgiveness—one that doomed his memory and name to eternal hatred.






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